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 a movci 
 
 BY 
 
 GEOEGE GISSING 
 
 AUTHOR OF 
 NEW CiUUB STREET," ' DENZIL yUARRIER.' ETC. 
 
 LONDON AND EDlNlilRdll 
 
 ADAM AND CHARLES BLACK 
 
 1893 
 
MORUISON AND OlUB, PRINTERS, EDINBURGH. 
 
 

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 I 
 
 The summer day in 1874 wbich closed the annual 
 session of AVhitelaw College was marked by a special 
 ceremony, preceding the wonted distribution of academic 
 rewards. At eleven in the morning (just as a heavy 
 shower fell from the smoke -canopy above the roaring 
 streets) the municipal authorities, educational dignitaries, 
 and prominent burgesses of Kingsmill assembled on 
 an open space before the college to unveil a statue 
 of Sir Job Whitelaw. The honoured baronet had 
 been six months dead. Living, he opposed tbe desire 
 of his fellow -citizens to exhibit even on canvas his 
 gnarled features and bald crown ; but when his modesty 
 ceased to have a voice in the matter, no time was lust in 
 raising a memorial of the great manufacturer, the self- 
 made millionaire, the borough member in three Parlia- 
 ments, the enlightened and benevolent founder of an 
 institute which had conferred humane distinction on the 
 money -making ^lidland town. IJeneath such a sky, 
 orations were necessarily curtailed ; but Sir Job had 
 always been impatient of much talk. An interval of two 
 or three hours dispersed the rain-clouds and bestowed 
 such grace of sunshine as Kingsmill might at this season 
 temperately desire ; then, whilst the nuirble figure was 
 getthig dried, — with soot-stains which already foretold 
 
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 Its nigritude of a year Iiei;c(',— a-jvin streamed towards 
 the college a varied multitude, ohicial, parental, pupillary. 
 The students liad nothing distinctive in their garb, but here 
 and there flitted the cap and gown of I^rofessor or lecturer, 
 signal for doffing of beavers along the line of its progress. 
 Among the more deliberate of the throng was a slender, 
 upright, ruddy-cheeked gentleman of middle age, ac- 
 companied l)y liis wife and a daughter of sixteen. On 
 ahgliting from a carriage, tliey first of all directed their 
 steps towards the statue, conversing together with pleasant 
 animation. The father (Martin Warricombe, Esq. of 
 Thornhaw, a small estate some five miles from Kingsmill,) 
 had a countenance suggestive of engaging cpialities— genial 
 humour, mildness, a turn for meditation, perhaps for 
 study. His attire was informal, as if he disliked aban- 
 doning the freedom of the country even when summoned to 
 urban ceremonies. He wore a grev felt hat, and a light 
 jacket which displayed the straightness of his shoulders. 
 i\Irs. AVarricombe and her daughter were more fashional)ly 
 e<iuipi)ed, with taste which proclaimed their social stand- 
 ing Save her fresh yet delicate complexion the lady 
 had no particular personal charm. Of the younrr airl it 
 could only be said that she exhibited a graceful immat'Jirity, 
 with perchance a little more earnestness than is common 
 at her age ; her voice, even wlien she spoke oailv was 
 seldom audiljle save by the person addressed. 
 
 Coming to a pause before Sir Job, Mr. AVarricoml)e put 
 on a pair of eyeglasses which had dangled a^rainst his 
 waistcoat, and began to scrutinise carefully the sculptured 
 lineaments. He was addressing certain critical remarks 
 to his companions when an interruption appeared in tlie 
 torm of a young man whose first words announced his 
 relation to the group. 
 
 ' I say, you're very late ! There'll be no gettincr a 
 decent seat, if you don't mind. Leave Sir Job ''till 
 afterwards.' 
 
 'Tlie statue somciliow disappoints me,' observed his 
 iatlier, placidly. 
 
 'Oh it isn't bad, I think,' returned the youth, in a voice 
 not unlike his father's, save for a note of excessive self- 
 
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 cuiitideiicf. He looked about ei<;liteeii : liis comely 
 couiitenaiico, with its air of robust health and habitual 
 exhilaration, told of a boyhood passed amid free and joy- 
 ous circumstances. It was the face of a younj^' En«^lisli 
 plutocrat, with more of intellect tlian sucli visai^^es are 
 wont to betray ; the native vigour of liis temperament 
 liad probably assimilated somethin«;- of the modern spirit. 
 Tm glad,' he continued, 'that they haven't stuck him in 
 a toga, or any humbug of that sort. The old fellow looks 
 baggy, l)ut so he was. They ought to have kept his 
 chimney-pot, though. Better than giving him tliose 
 scraps of hair, when everyone knows he was as bald as 
 a beetle.' 
 
 ' Sir Job sliould have been granted Ciesar's privilege,' 
 said Mr. Warricombe, with a pleasant twinkle in his 
 eyes. 
 
 'What was that?' came from the son, witli abrupt 
 indiflerence. 
 
 ' For shame, l>uckland ! ' 
 
 ' What do I care for Ciesar's privileges ? We can't 
 burden our minds with that antiquated rubbish nowadays. 
 You would despise it yourself, father, if it hadn't 
 got packed into your head when you were young.' 
 
 The parent raised his eyebrows in a bantering smile. 
 
 'I have lived to hear classical learning called anti- 
 (juated ruljbish. Well, well 1 — Ha ! there is Proiessor CJale.' 
 
 The Professor of Geology, a tall man, who strode over 
 the pavement as if he were among granite hills, caught 
 sight of the party and approached. His greeting was 
 that of a familiar friend ; he addressed young Warricombe 
 and his sister by their Christian names, and inquired after 
 certain younger members of the household. i\Ir. Warri- 
 combe, regarding him with a look of repressed eagerness, 
 laid a hand on his arm, and spoke in the subdued voice 
 of one who has important news to communicate. 
 
 'If I am not much mistaken, I have chanced on a new 
 species of hamalonotus I' 
 
 * Indeed ! — not in your kitchen garden, I presume ? ' 
 
 'Hardly. Dr. Pollock sent me a box of specimens the 
 other day ' 
 
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 liucklaiid saw willi annoyance the likelihood of prolonged 
 discussion. 
 
 • I don't know whetlier you care to remain standing all 
 tlie afternoon,' he said to his mother. 'At this rate we 
 certainly shan't get seats.' 
 
 * We will walk on, ^Martin,' said the lady, glancing at 
 lier liusband. 
 
 ' We come ! we come ! ' cried the Professor, with a wave 
 of his arm. 
 
 The palaiontological talk continued as far as the entrance 
 of the assembly hall. Tlie zest with which Mr. Warri- 
 combe spoke of his discovery never led him to raise his 
 voice aljove the suave, mellow note, touched with humour, 
 which expressed a modest assurance. Mr. Gale was dis- 
 tinguished by a blunter mode of speech; he discoursed 
 with open-air vigour, making use now and then of a racy 
 colloquialism which the other would hardly have per- 
 mitted liimself. 
 
 As young Warricombe had foreseen, the seats obtainable 
 w^ere none too advantageous ; only on one of the highest 
 rows of the amphitheatre could they at length establish 
 themselves. 
 
 ' Buckland will enjoy the more attention wlien he 
 marches down to take his prizes,' observed the father. 
 ' He nnist sit at the end here, that he mayn't have a 
 struggle to get out.' 
 
 ' Don't, Martin, don't ! ' urged his wife, considerately. 
 
 *0h, it doesn't affect me,' said Buckland, with a laugh. 
 ' I feel pretty sure I have got the Logic and the Chemistry, 
 and those are what I care most about. 1 dare say Peak 
 has beaten me in Geology.' 
 
 Tlic appearance in the lower part of the hall of a dark- 
 rol)cd i)rocession, headed by tlie tall figure of the 
 Principal, imposed a moment's silence, broken by out- 
 Ijursts of welcoming applause. The Professors of Whitelaw 
 College were highly popular, not alone with the members 
 of tlieir classes, but witli all the educated inhabitants of 
 Kingsmill ; and deservedly, for several of them bore 
 names of wide recognition, and as a l)ody they did honour 
 to the institution which had won their services. With 
 
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 bccuiiiing i'oriiuility they seated themselves in laeu ul the 
 l)ublic. On tables before them were exposed a consider- 
 able number of well-bound books, shortly to be distributed 
 among the collegians, who gazed in that direction with 
 speculative eyes. 
 
 Among the general concourse miglit have been discovered 
 two or three representatives of the wage-earning multitude 
 which Kingsmill depended upon for its prosperity, but 
 their presence was due to exceptional circumstances ; the 
 college provided for proletarian education l)y a system of 
 evening classes, a curriculum necessarily quite apart from 
 that followed by the regular students. Kingsmill, to be 
 sure, was no nurse of Toryism ; the robust employers of 
 labour who sent their sons to Whitelaw — either to 
 complete a training deemed sufficient for an active career, 
 or by way of transition-stage between school and univer- 
 sity — were for the most part avowed Radicals, in theory 
 scornful of privilege, practically supporters of that mode 
 of freedom which regards life as a remorseless conflict. 
 Not a few of the young men (some of these the hardest 
 and most successful workers) came from poor, middle- 
 class homes, whence, but for Sir Job's foundation, they 
 must have set forth into the world with no better equip- 
 ment of knowledge than was supplied by some ' academy * 
 of the old type : a glance distinguished such students 
 from the well-dressed and well-fed offspring of Kingsmill 
 plutocracy. The note of the assembly was something 
 Qt-hpr tlimi rpfiTiP]p p]]t ; rather, its high standard of health, I - 
 spirits, and comfort — tjie characteristic of Capitalism. 
 Decent reverence for learning, keen appreciation of 
 scientific power, warm liberality of thought and sentiment 
 within appreciable limits, enthusiasm for economic, civic, 
 national ideals, — such attributes were alnindantly dis- 
 coverable in each serried row. From the expanse of 
 countenances beamed a boundless selT^satisfaction. To be 
 connected in any way wdth Whitelaw formed a subject of 
 pride, seeing tliat here was the sturdy outcome of the 
 most modern educational endeavour,_ajK)teworthy instance 
 of what Englishm en can do for themselves, unaided by 
 bureaucratic naach inery ! Every student who achieved "'0 
 
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 distinction in to-day's class lists was felt to l)estow a 
 share of his honour upon each spectator who applauded 
 him. 
 
 With occasional adjustment of his eye-glasses, and 
 smiling his smile of modest tolerance, Mr. Warricombc 
 surveyed the crowded hall. His connection with the 
 town was not intimate, and he could discover few faces 
 that were familiar to him. A native and, till of late, an 
 inhabitant of ])evon, he had come to reside on his 
 property near Kingsmill because it seemed to him that 
 the education of his children would be favoured by a 
 removal thither. Two of his oldest friends held pro- 
 fessorships at Whitelaw : here, accordingly, his eldest 
 son was making preparation for Cambridge, whilst his 
 daughter attended classes at the admirable High School, 
 of which Kingsmill was only less proud than of its 
 College. 
 
 Seated between his father and his sister, Buckland drew 
 their attention to such persons or personages as interested 
 his very selective mind. 
 
 ' Admire the elegant languor of Wotherspoon,' he 
 remarked, indicating the Professor of Greek. 'Watch 
 him for a moment, and you'll see him glance con- 
 temptuously at old Plummer. He can't help it; they 
 hate each other.' 
 
 ' But why ? ' whispered the girl, with timid eagerness. 
 
 ' Oh, it began, they say, when Plummer once had to 
 take one of Wotherspoon 's classes ; some foolery about a 
 second aorist. Thank goodness, I don't understand the 
 profound dispute. — Oh, do look at that fatuous idiot 
 Chilvers:' 
 
 Tlie young gentleman of whom he spoke, a student 
 of Puckland's own standing, had just attracted general 
 notice. Pising from his seat in the lower part of the 
 amphitheatre, at the moment when all were hushed in 
 anticipation of the Principal's address, Mr. Chilvers was 
 beckoning to someone whom his eye had descried at a 
 great distance, and for whom, as he indicated by gesture, 
 he had ])reserved a place. 
 
 'See how it delights him to make an exhibition of 
 
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 himself!' pursued the censurious youtli. 'I'd hcL ;i 
 sovereign he's arranged it all. Look how he brandishes 
 his arm to display his cutis and gold links. Now he 
 touches his hair, to point out how light and exquisite it 
 is, and how beautifully he parts it ! ' 
 
 ' What a graceful figure ! ' murmured Mrs. Warricombe, 
 with genuine admiration. 
 
 * There, that's just what he hopes everyone is saying,' 
 replied her son, in a tone of laughing disgust. 
 
 ' But he certainly is graceful, Buckland,' persisted the 
 lady. 
 
 * And in the meantime,' remarked Mr. Warricombe, drily, 
 ' we are all awaiting the young gentleman's pleasure.' 
 
 ' Of course ; he enjoys it. Almost all the people on that 
 row belong to him — father, mother, sisters, brothers, 
 uncles, aunts, and cousins to the fourth degree. Look at 
 their eyes fondly fixed upon him ! Now he pretends to 
 loosen his collar at the throat, just for a change of attitude 
 — the puppy !' 
 
 ' My dear ! ' remonstrated his mother, with apprehensive 
 glance at her neighbours. 
 
 ' But he is really clever, isn't he, Buckland ? ' asked the 
 sister, — her name was Sidwell. 
 
 ' After a fashion. I shouldn't wonder if he takes a dozen 
 or two prizes. It's all a knack, you know\' 
 
 ' Where is your friend Peak ? ' Mr. Warricombe made 
 incj^uiry. 
 
 But at this moment Mr. Chilvers abandoned his en- 
 deavour and became seated, allowing the Principal to rise, 
 manuscript in hand. Buckland leaned back with an air 
 of resignation to boredom ; his father bent slightly forward, 
 with lips close pressed and brows wrinkled ; Mrs. Warri- 
 combe widened her eyes, as if hearing were performed 
 with those organs, and assumed the smile she would have 
 worn had the speaker been addressing her in particular. 
 Sidwell's blue eyes imitated the movement of her 
 mother's, with a look of profound gravity which 
 showed that she had wholly forgotten herself in 
 reverential listening; only wlien live minutes' strict 
 attention induced a sense of weariness did she allow a 
 
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 glance to stray first along- the professorial rank, then 
 towards the place wliere the golden head of young 
 Chilvers was easily distinguishable. 
 
 Nothing could be more satisfactory than the annual 
 report sunnnarised by Principal Nares, whose mellifluous 
 voice and daintily pedantic utterance fell upon expectant 
 hearing with the impressiveness of personal compliment. 
 So deUvered, statistics partook of the grace of culture ; 
 details of academic organisation acquired something 
 1 more than secular significance. In this the ninth year 
 ' of its existence, Whitelaw College was flourishing in every 
 possiljle way. Private beneficence had endowed it witli 
 new scholarships and exhil)itions ; the scheme of lectures 
 had been extended ; the number of its students steadily 
 increased, and their successes in the field of examination 
 had been noteworthy Ijeyond precedent. Truly, the heart 
 of their founder, to whom honour had this day been 
 rendered, must have gladdened if he could but have 
 listened to the story of dignified progress ! Applause, loud 
 and long, greeted the close of the address. Buckland 
 Warricoml)e was probably the only collegian who disdained 
 to manifest approval in any way. 
 
 ' Why don't you clap ? ' asked his sister, who, girl-like, 
 was excited to warmth of cheek and brightness of eye by 
 the enthusiasm about her. 
 
 ' That kind of thing is out of date,' replied the young 
 man, thrusting his hands deep into his pockets. 
 
 As Professor of Logic and Moral Philosophy, Dr. Nares 
 began the distribution of prizes. Ikickland, in spite of his 
 resolve to exhibit no weakness, waited with unmistakable 
 tremor for the announcement of the leading name, which 
 might possibly be his own. A few words of comment 
 prefaced the declaration : — never had it been the Professor's 
 lot to review more admirable papers tlian those to which 
 he liad awarded the first prize. The name of the student 
 called upon to come forward was — Godwin Peak. 
 
 ' Beaten ! ' escaped from Buckland's lips. 
 
 Mrs. Warricombe glanced at her son with smiling 
 sympatliy ; Sidwell, whose cheek had paled as her nerves 
 i^uivered under the stress of expectancy, murmured a 
 
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 syllable of disappointment ; Mr. Warriconibe set his Ijrows 
 and did not venture to look aside. A moment, and all 
 eyes were directed upon the successful student, who rose 
 from a seat half-way down the liall and descended the 
 middle passage towards the row of Professors. He was a 
 young man of spare tigure and unhealthy complexion, his 
 age not easily conjectured. Embarrassment no doubt 
 accounted for much of the awkwardness of his demeanour ; 
 but, under any circumstances, he must have appeared un- 
 gainly, for his long arms and legs had outgrown their 
 garments, which were no fashionable specimens of tailor- 
 ing. The nervous gravity of his countenance had a pecu- 
 liar sternness ; one might have imagined that he was 
 fortifying his self-control with scorn of the elegantly 
 clad people though whom he passed. Amid plaudits, 
 he received from the hands of the Principal a couple of 
 solid volumes, probably some standard work of phil- 
 osophy, and, thus burdened, returned with hurried step 
 to his place. 
 
 ' No one expected that,' remarked Buckland to his father. 
 ' He must have crammed furiously for the exam. It's 
 outside his work for the First B.A.' 
 
 ' What a shame ! ' Sidwell whispered to her mother ; and 
 the reply was a look wdiich eloquently expressed Mrs. 
 Warricombe's lack of sympathy with the victor. 
 
 But a second prize had been awarded. As soon as silence 
 was restored, the Principal's gracious voice delivered a 
 summons to ' Buckland Martin Warriconibe.' A burst 
 of acclamation, coming es])ecially from that pait of the 
 amphitheatre where Whitelaw's nurslings had gathered in 
 greatest numbers, seemed to declare the second prizeman 
 distinctly more popular than the first. Preferences of this 
 kind are always to be remarked on such occasions. 
 
 * Second prize be hanged ! ' growled the young man, as, 
 with a flush of shame on his ruddy countenance, he set 
 forth to receive the honour, leaving Mr. Warricond)e con- 
 vulsed with silent laughter. 
 
 'He would far rather have had nothing at all,' mur- 
 mured Sidwell, who shared her l)rother's pique and 
 humiliation. 
 
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 ' Uh, it'll do him good,' was her father's reply. ' Buckland 
 has got into a way of swaggering.' 
 
 Undeniable was the swagger with which the good-looking, 
 breezy lad went and returned. 
 
 ' What is the book ? ' inquired Mr. Warricombe. 
 
 ' I don't know. — Oh, Mill's Logic. Idiotic choice ! 
 They might have known I had it already.' 
 
 'They clap him far more than they did Mr. Peak,' 
 Sidwell whispered to her mother, with satisfaction. 
 
 Buckland kept silence for a few minutes, then muttered : 
 
 ' There's nothing I care about now till Chemistry and 
 Geology. Here comes old Wotherspoon. Now we shall 
 know who is strongest in second aorists, I shouldn't 
 wonder if Peak takes both Senior Greek and Latin. I 
 heartily hope he'll beat that ass Chilvers.' 
 
 But the name so offensive to young Warricombe was 
 the first that issued from the Professor's lips. Beginning 
 with the competition for a special classical prize, Professor 
 Wotherspoon announced that the honours had fallen to 
 * Ijruno Leathwaite Chilvers.' 
 
 ' That young man is not badly supplied with brains, say 
 what you will,' remarked Mr. Warricombe. 
 
 Upon Bruno Leathwaite Chilvers keen attention was 
 directed ; every pair of female eyes studied his graces, and 
 female hands had a great part in the applause that greeted 
 his arising. Applause different in kind from that hitherto 
 bestowed ; less noisy, but implying, one felt, a more delicate 
 spirit of commendation. With perfect self-command, with 
 singular facial decorum, with a walk which betokened 
 elegant athleticism and safely skirted the bounds of foppery, 
 Mr. Chilvers discharged the duty he was conscious of owing 
 to a multitude of kinsfolk, friends, admirers. You would 
 have detected something clerical in the young num's air. 
 It Ijecame the son of a popular clergyman, and gave promise 
 of notable aptitude for the sacred career to which Bruno 
 Leathwaite, as was well understood, already had designed 
 himself. In matters sartorial he presented a high ideal to 
 his fellow-students; this seemly attention to externals, 
 and the delicate glow of health discernible through the 
 golden down of his cheeks, testified the compatibility of 
 
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 hard study and social observances. Bruno had been heard 
 to say that tlie one tiling it behoved Whitehiw to keep 
 carefully in mind was the preservation of ' tone,' a 
 quality far less easy to cultivate than mere academic 
 excellence. 
 
 ' How clever he must be ! ' purred Mrs. Warricombe. 
 ' If he lives, he will some day be an archbishop.' 
 
 Buckland was leaning back with his eyes closed, dis- 
 gusted at the spectacle. Nor did he move when Professor 
 Wotherspoon's voice made the next announcement. 
 
 ' In Senior Greek, the first prize is taken by — Bruno 
 Leathwaite Chilvers.' 
 
 * Then I suppose Beak comes second,' muttered Buck- 
 land. 
 
 So it proved. Summoned to receive the inferior prize, 
 Godwin Peak, his countenance harsher than Ijefore, his 
 eyes cast down, moved ungracefully to the estrade. And 
 during the next half-hour this twofold exhibition was 
 several times repeated. In Senior Latin, in ^lodern and 
 Ancient History, in English Language and Literature, in 
 French, first sounded the name of Chilvers, whilst to the 
 second award was invariably attached that of Peak. Mrs. 
 Warricombe's delight expressed itself in every permissible 
 way : on each occasion she exclaimed, ' How clever he is ! ' 
 Sidwell cast frequent glances at her brother, in whom a 
 shrewder eye could have divined conflict of feelings — 
 disgust at the glorification of Chilvers and involuntary 
 pleasure in the successive defeats of his own conqueror in 
 Philosophy. Buckland's was by no means an ignoble face ; 
 venial malice did not ultimately prevail in him. 
 
 'It's Peak's own fault,' he declared at length, with 
 vexation. * Chilvers stuck to the subjects of his course. 
 Peak has been taking up half-a-dozen extras, and 
 they've done for him. I shouldn't wonder if he went in 
 for the Poem and the Essay: I know he was thinking 
 about both.' 
 
 Whether Godwin Peak had or had not endeavoured for 
 these two prizes remained uncertain. When, presently, the 
 results of the competition were made known, it was found 
 that in each case the honour had fallen to a young man 
 
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 liitlierto undistinguished. His name was John Edward 
 Earwaker. Externally he bore a sort of generic re- 
 semblance to Peak, for his face was thin and the fashion 
 of his clothing indicated narrow means. 
 
 ' I never heard you mention him,' said Mr. Warricombe, 
 turning to his son with an air of surprise. 
 
 ' I scarcely know liini at all ; he's only in one or two of 
 my classes. Peak is thick with him.' 
 
 The subject of the prize poem was ' Alaric ' ; that of 
 the essay, 'Trades Unionism.' So it was probable that 
 John Edward Earwaker did not lack versatility of 
 intellect. 
 
 On the rising of the Professor of Chemistry, Buckland 
 had once more to subdue signs of expectancy. He knew 
 he had done good ])apers, but his confidence in the result 
 was now clouded by a dread of the second prize — which 
 indeed fell to him, the first being taken by a student of no 
 account save in this very special subject. Keen was his 
 mortification ; he growled, nmttered, shrugged his shoulders 
 nervously. 
 
 *If I had foreseen this, you'd never have caught me 
 here,' was his reply, when Sidwell whispered consola- 
 tion. 
 
 There still remained a chance for him, signalled by the 
 familiar form of Professor Gale. Geology had been a life- 
 long study with Martin Warricombe, and his son pursued 
 it with hereditary aptitude. Sidwell and her mother ex- 
 changed a look of courageous hope; each felt convinced 
 that the genial Professor could not so far disregard private 
 feeling as to place Buckland anywhere but at the head of 
 the class. 
 
 ' The results of the examination are fairly good ; I'm 
 afraid I can't say more tlian that,' thus rang out Mr. Gale's 
 hearty voice. ' As for the first two names on my list, I 
 haven't felt justified in placing either before the other. 
 I have bracketed them, and there will be two prizes. 
 The names are — Godwin Peak and Buckland Martin 
 Warricombe.' 
 
 ' He might have mentioned Buckland first,' murmured 
 Mrs. Warricombe, resentfully. 
 
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 ' He of course gave them out in ulphabetieal order,' 
 answered her husband. 
 
 ' Still, it isn't right that Buckland sliould come second.' 
 
 ' That's absurd/ was the good-natured reply. 
 
 The lady of course remained unconvinced, and for years 
 she nourished a pique against Professor Gale, not so much 
 owing to his having bracketed her son as because the letter 
 V has alphabetical precedence of W. 
 
 In what remained of the proceedings the Warricombes 
 had no personal interest. ¥ov a special reason, however, 
 their attention was excited by the rising of Professor 
 Walsh, who represented the science of Physics. Early in 
 the present year had been published a speculative treatise 
 which, owing to its supposed incompatibility with Christian 
 dogmas, provoked much controversy and was largely dis- 
 cussed in all educated circles. The work was anonymous, 
 but a rumour which gained general currency attributed it 
 to Professor Walsh. In the year 1874 an imputation of 
 religious heresy was not lightly to be incurred by a Pro- 
 fessor — even Professor of Physics — at an English college. 
 There were many people in Kingsmill who considered that 
 Mr. Walsh's delay in repudiating so grave a charge rendered 
 very doubtful the propriety of his retaining the chair 
 at Whitelaw. Significant was the dispersed applause 
 which followed slowly upon his stepping forward to- 
 day; on the Professor's face was perchance legible 
 something like a hint of amused defiance. Ladies had 
 ceased to beam ; they glanced meaningly at one another, 
 and then from under their eyelids at the supposed 
 heretic. 
 
 *A fine fellow, Walsh ! ' exclaimed Buckland, clapping 
 vigorously. 
 
 His father smiled, but with some uneasiness. Mrs. 
 Warricombe whispered to Sidwcll : 
 
 * What a very disagreeable face ! The only one of the 
 Professors who doesn't seem a gentleman.' 
 
 The girl was aware of dark reports affecting Mr. Walsh's 
 reputation. She hazarded only a brief examination of his 
 features, and looked at the applauding Buckland witli 
 alarm. 
 
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 *His lectures are splendid,' said her brother, em- 
 phatically. 'If I were going to be here next session, T 
 should take them.' 
 
 For some minutes after the Professor's return to 
 his seat a susurration was audible throughout the hall; 
 bonnets bent together, and beards exchanged curt 
 connnents. 
 
 The ceremony, as is usual with all ceremonies, grew 
 wearisome before its end. Buckland was deep in one of 
 the chapters of his geologic prize when the last speaker 
 closed the last report and left the assembly free to disperse. 
 Then followed the season of congratulations : Professors, 
 students, and the friendly public mingled in a conversazione. 
 A nucleus of vivacious intercourse formed at the spot where 
 young Mr. Chilvers stood amid trophies of examinational 
 prowess. When his numerous relatives had all shaken 
 hands with him, and lau<:^hed, smiled, or smirked their 
 felicitations, they made way for the press of eager acquaint- 
 ances. His prize library was reverently surveyed, and many 
 were the sportive sallies elicited by the victor's obvious 
 inability to carry away what he had won. Suavely exult- 
 ant, ready with his reply to every liattering address, Bruno 
 Chilvers exhibited a social tact in advance of his years : it 
 was easy to imagine what he would become when Oxford 
 terms and the seal of ordination had matured his youthful 
 promise. 
 
 At no great distance stood his competitor, Godwin Peak — 
 embarrassed, he also, with wealth of spoils ; but about this 
 voun^ man was no concourse of admirinf:( kinsfolk. No 
 lady offered him her hand or shaped compliments for him 
 with gracious lips. Half-a-dozen fellow-students, among 
 them John Earwaker, talked in his vicinity of the day's 
 results. Peak's part in the gossip was small, and when he 
 smiled it was in a forced, anxious way, with brief raising 
 of his eyes. For a moment only was the notice of a wider 
 circle directed upon him when Dr. Nares, moving past 
 with a train of colloquial attendants, turned aside to 
 repeat his praise of the young man's achievements in 
 Philosophy : he bestowed a kindly shake of the hand, 
 and moved on. 
 
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 The Warricombe group descended, in i»urposeless 
 fashion, towards the spot where Cliilvers held liis court. 
 Tlieir personal acquaintance with Bruno and Ins family 
 was slight, and though Mrs. Warricombe would gladly 
 have pushed forward to claim recognition, natural dilli- 
 dence restrained her. Sid well kept in the rear, risking 
 now and then a glance of vivid curiosity on either 
 hand. Buckland, striving not to look petulant or sullen, 
 allowed himself to be led on; but when he became 
 aware of the tendency lU'uno-wards, a protest broke 
 irom him. 
 
 ' There's no need to swell that fellow's conceit. Here, 
 father, come and have a word with Peak ; he looks rather 
 down in the mouth among his second prizes.' 
 
 ^Ir. Warricombe having beckoned his companions, tliey 
 reluctantly followed to the more open part of the 
 hall. 
 
 'It's very generous of Buckland,' fell from the lady's 
 lips, and she at length resolved to show an equal mag- 
 nanimity. Peak and Earwaker were conversing together 
 when Buckland broke in upon them with genial out- 
 l)urst. 
 
 * Confound it. Peak ! what do you mean by getting me 
 stuck into a bracket ? ' 
 
 * I had the same question to ask yoii! returned the other, 
 with a grim smile. 
 
 Mr. Warricombe came up with extended hand. 
 
 'A species of bracket,' he remarked, smiling benevo- 
 lently, * which no algebraic process will remove. Let us 
 hope it signifies that you and Buckland will work through 
 life shoulder to shoulder in the field of geology. What 
 did Professor Gale give you ? ' 
 
 Before he could reply. Peak had to exchange greetings 
 with Mrs. Warricombe and her daughter. ( hdy once 
 hitherto had he met them. Six months ago he had gone 
 out with Buckland to the country-house and passeil an 
 afternoon there, making at the time no very favouralde 
 impression on his hostess. He was not of the young men 
 who easily insinuate themselves into ladies' affections : his 
 exterior was airainst him, and he seemed too conscious of 
 
22 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 his disadvantages in that particular. Mrs. Warricombe 
 found it ditiicult to shape a few civil phrases for the 
 acceptance of the saturnine student. Sidwell, repelled and 
 in a measure alarmed by his bilious countenance, could do 
 no more than grant him her delicately gloved fingers. 
 Peak, for his part, liad nothing to say. He did not even 
 affect an interest in these persons, and turned his eyes to 
 follow the witlidraw^ing Earwaker. Mr. Warricombe, how- 
 ever, liad found topic for discourse in the prize volume ; he 
 began to comment on the excellence of certain sections of 
 the book. 
 
 ' Do you go home ? ' interrupted Buckland, addressing 
 the question to his rival. ' Or do you stay in Kingsmill 
 until the First B. A.?' 
 
 ' I shall go home,' replied Peak, moving uneasily. 
 
 ' Perliaps w^e may have the pleasure of seeing you 
 at Thornhaw when you are up again for the ex- 
 amination ? ' said Mrs. Warricombe, with faltering 
 tongue. 
 
 ' I'm afraid I shan't be al)le to come, thank you/ was 
 the awkward response. 
 
 Buckland's voice came to the relief. 
 
 ' I daresay I may look in upon you at your torture. 
 Good luck, old fellow ! If we don't see each other 
 again, write to me at Trinity before the end of the 
 year.' 
 
 As soon as she was sufficiently remote, Mrs. Warri- 
 combe ejaculated in a subdued voice of irritation : 
 
 ' Sucli a very unprepossessing young man I never met ! 
 He seems to have no breeding whatever.' 
 
 ' Overweiglited witli brains,' replied her husband ; 
 adding to himself, ' and l)y no means so with money, I 
 fear.' 
 
 Ojijiortunity at length ottering, Mrs. Warricombe stepped 
 into the circle irradiated by ]>runo Chilvers ; her husband 
 and Sidwell pressed after. Buckland, with an exclama- 
 tion of disgust, went off to criticise the hero among a 
 group of his particular friends. 
 
 Godwin l*eak stood alone. On the bench where he had 
 sat were heaped the prize volumes (eleven in all, some of 
 
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 them massive), and liis wish was to make aiTan;^'emeiits 
 for their removal Gazing about him, he became aware of 
 the college librarian, with whom he was on friendly terms. 
 
 'Mr. Poppleton, who would pack and send tlicso books 
 a\vay for me ? ' 
 
 'An cmharra^ dc richcsse ! ' laughed tlie li])rarian. 'If 
 you like to tell the porter to take care <»f tliem for tlic 
 present, I shall be glad to see tliat tliey are sent whcrcvii' 
 you like.' 
 
 Peak answered with a warmth of acknowledgment whicli 
 seemed to imply that he did not often receive kindnesses. 
 Before long he was free to leave the College, and at the 
 exit lie overtook Earwaker, who carried a brown paper 
 parcel. 
 
 * Come and have some tea with me across the way, will 
 you ? ' said the literary prizeman. ' I have a couple of 
 hours to wait for my train.' 
 
 * All right. I envy you that five-volume Spenser.' 
 
 ' I wish they had given me five authors I don't possess 
 instead. I think I shall sell this.' 
 
 Earwaker laughed as he said it — a strange chuckle from 
 deep down in his throat. A comparison of the young men, 
 as they walked side by side, showed that Peak was of 
 better physical type than his comrade. Earwaker liad a 
 slight, unshapely body and an ill-fitting head ; he walked 
 with excessive strides and swung his thin arm nervcjusly. 
 Probably he was the elder of the two, and he looked 
 twenty. For Peak's disadvantages of person, his studious 
 bashfulness and poverty of attiie were mainly responsible. 
 With improvement in general health even his features 
 might have a tolerable comeliness, or at all events Mould 
 not be disagreeable. Earwaker's visage was homely, and 
 seemed the more so for his sprouting moustache and bcanl. 
 
 'Have you heard any talk about Walsh?' the latter 
 inquired, as they w\alked on. 
 
 Peak shrugged his shoulders, with a laugh. 
 
 ' No. Have you ? ' 
 
 'Some women in front of me just now were evidently 
 discussing him. I heard " How shocking 1 " and " 1 )is- 
 graceful ! " ' 
 
24 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Peak's eyes Hashed, and he exclaimed in a voice of 
 wratli : 
 
 ' Besotted idiots ! How I wish I were in Walsh's posi- 
 tion ! How I should enjoy standing up before the crowd 
 of fools and seeing their fear of me ! But I couldn't keep 
 it to myself; I should give in to the temptation to call 
 them l)lockheads and jackasses.' 
 
 Earwaker was amused at liis friend's vehemence. He 
 sympathised witli it, l)ut liad an unyouthful sobriety in 
 the expression of his feelings. 
 
 ' Most likely he despises them far too much to be dis- 
 turbed by what they think of him. But, I say, isn't it 
 desperately comical that one human being can hate and 
 revile another because they think differently about the 
 origin of tlie universe ? Couldn't you roar with laughter 
 when you've thought over it for a moment ? " You be 
 damned for your theory of irregular verlDS ! " is nothing 
 to it.' And he uttered his croak of mirth, whilst Peak, with 
 distorted features, laughed in rage and scorn. 
 
 They had crossed the open space in front of the College 
 buildings, and were issuing into the highway, when a voice 
 very unlike those that were wont to sound within the 
 academic precincts (or indeed in the streets of Kingsmill) 
 made sudden demand upon Peak's attention. 
 
 ' Thet you, Godwin ? Thoughts I, it must be 'im ! 'Ow 
 goes it, my bo-oy ? You 'ardly reckon ise me, I dessay, and 
 I couldn't be sure as it was you till I'd 'ed a good squint 
 at yer. I've jest called round at your lodgin's, and they 
 towld me as you was at the Collige.' 
 
 He who thus accosted the student, with the most offen- 
 sive purity of Cockney accent, was a man of five-and-forty, 
 dressed in a new suit of ready-made tweeds, the folding 
 crease strongly nuirked down the front of the trousers and 
 the coat sleeves rather too long. His face bore a strong 
 impress of vulgarity, but at the same time had a certain 
 ingenuousness, a self-absorbed energy and simplicity, 
 wliich saved it from being wholly repellent ; the brow was 
 narrow, the eyes small and bright, and the coarse lips half ^ 
 hid themselves under a struggling reddish growth. In 
 these lineaments lurked a family resemblance to Godwin 
 
BOKN IN EXILE 25 
 
 Peak, sufficient to support a claim of kindred wliieli at tliis 
 moment might have seemed improljalJe. At the summons 
 of recognition Godwin stood transfixed ; his arms fell 
 straight, and his head drew back as if to avoid a blow. 
 For an instant he was clay colour, then a hot flush broke 
 upon his cheeks. 
 
 ' I shan't be able to go witli you,' he said, in a thick, 
 abrupt voice, addressing Earwaker l)ut not regarding him. 
 * Good-bye ! ' 
 
 The other offered his hand and, without speaking, walked 
 away. 
 
 ' Trize - dye at the Collige, they tell me,' pursued 
 Godwin's relative, looking at a cluster of people that 
 passed. ' What 'ave you took ? ' 
 
 'One or two class-prizes,' replied tlie student, his eyes 
 on tlie ground. ' Shall we walk to my lodgings ? ' 
 
 * I thought you might like to walk me over the sliow. 
 But pr'aps you're in a 'urry ? ' 
 
 * No, no. But there's nothing particular to see. I tliink 
 the lecture-rooms are closed by now.' 
 
 ' Go's the gent as stands tliere ? — the figger, I mean.' 
 ' Sir Job Whitelaw, founder of the College.' 
 
 * Job, eh ? And was you a-goin' 'ome to yer tea, Godwin {' 
 •' Yes.* 
 
 'Well, then, look 'ere, 'spose we go to the little shop 
 opposyte — nice little plyce it looks. I could do a cup o' 
 tea myself, and we can 'ev a quiet confab. It's a long time 
 since we 'ed a talk together. I come over from Twyljridge 
 this mornin' ; slep' there last night, and saw yer mother 
 an' Oliver. They couldn't give me a bed, but that didn't 
 mike no matter ; I put up at the Norfolk Harms — five-an- 
 six for bed an' breakfast. Come along, my bo-oy ; I stand 
 treat.' 
 
 Godwin glanced about him. From the College was 
 approaching what seemed to be a formal procession; it 
 consisted of Bruno Chilvers, supported on either hand by 
 ladies and followed by an admiring train. 
 
 'You had better come to my lodgings with me, uncle,' 
 said the young man hurriedly, moving Ibrward. 
 
 ' No, no ; I won't be no expense to you, Godwin, bo-oy. 
 
26 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 And I 'ave a reason for wantin' to go to the little shop 
 opposyte.* 
 
 Already several collegians had passed, giving Peak a 
 nod and scanning his companion ; a moment's delay and 
 Chilvers would be upon him. Without another word, 
 Godwin moved across the broad street to the place of 
 refreshment whicli his uncle had indicated, and whither 
 Eiirwaker liad preceded tliem. It was a pastry-cook's, 
 occasionally visited by the alumni of Whitelaw. In the 
 rear of the shop a little room offered seats and tables, 
 and here, Godwin knew, Earwaker would be found. 
 
 ' Let us go up-stairs,' he said, leading to a side entrance. 
 ' There's a quieter room.' 
 
 ' Right you are ! ' 
 
 The uncle — his name was Andrew Peak — paused to 
 make a survey of the premises. When he entered, his 
 scrutiny of the establishment was close, and he seemed to 
 reflect witli interest upon all he saw. The upper room 
 was empty ; a long table exhibited knives and forks, but 
 tliere were no signs of active business. Andrew pulled a 
 l)ell-rope; the summons was answered by an asthmatic 
 woman, who received an order for ten, toast, ' water- 
 creases,' and sundry other constituents of a modest meal. 
 
 * Come 'ere often, Godwin ? ' inquired Andrew, as he 
 stood by the window and mused. 
 
 ' Now and then, for a Inin.' 
 
 ' Much custom from your show over the wye ? ' 
 
 * Not so much as a better place would have.' 
 
 * Young gents don't live at the Collige, they tell me ? ' 
 
 * No, there's no residence.' 
 
 * So naturally they want a plyce where they can 'ev a 
 nibble, somewheres 'andy ? ' 
 
 * Yes. We have to go furtlier into the town for a decent 
 dinner.' 
 
 ' Jest what I thought ! ' exclaimed Andrew, slapping 
 his leg. ' With a establishment like that opposyte, 
 there'd ought to be a medium-sized Spiers & Pond at 
 this 'ere street corner for any man as knows 'is wye 
 al)Out. Tliat's 7ni/ idea, Godwin — see ?' 
 
 l^eak had as yet given but lialf an ear to his relative's 
 
BORN IN EXILE 27 
 
 discourse ; he had answered meclianically, and only now 
 was constrained to serious attention by a note of nieanin.Lj 
 in tlie last interrogative. He looked at the speaker ; and 
 Andrew, in the manner of one accustomed to regard life 
 as a game of cunning, first winked with each eye, then 
 extended one cheek with the pressure of liis tongue. 
 Sickened with disgust, Godwin turned suddenly away, — 
 a movement entirely lost upon his uncle, who imagineil 
 the young man to be pondering a fruitful suggestion. 
 
 ' I don't mind tellin' you, Godwin,' pursued Andrew 
 presently, in a cautious voice, laying an open hand against 
 his trousers-pocket, ' as I 've been a-doin' pretty good 
 business lytely. Been growin' a bit — see ? I'm runniu' 
 round an' keepin' my lieyes open — understand ? Thoughts 
 I, now, if I could come acrosst a nicet little openin', some- 
 think in the rest'rant line, that's what 'ud sewt me jest 
 about down to the ground. I'm cut out for it — see ^ I've 
 got the practical experience, and I've got the capital ; and 
 as soon as I got a squint of this little corner shop — under- 
 stand what I mean ? ' 
 
 His eyes gleamed with eagerness which was too candid 
 for the typically vulgar mind. In his self-satisfaction he 
 exhibited a gross cordiality which might have made rather 
 an agreeable impression on a person otherwise disinterested. 
 
 At this point the asthmatic woman reappeared, carrying 
 a laden tray. Andrew at once entered into conversation 
 with her, framing his remarks and queries so as to learn 
 all he could concerning the state of the business and the 
 disposition of its proprietors. His nephew, meanwhile, 
 stung to the core with shame, kept apart, as if amusing 
 himself with the prospect from the window, until sum- 
 moned to partake of the meal. His uncle expressed 
 contempt of everything laid before them. 
 
 ' This ain't no wye of caterin' for young gents at Gollige ! ' 
 he exclaimed. * If there ain't a openin' 'ere, then I never 
 see one. Godwin, bo-oy, 'ow much longer '11 it Ije before 
 you're out of you're time over there ? ' 
 
 ' It's uncertain — I can't say.' 
 
 ' But ain't it understood as you stay till you've passed 
 the top standard, or whatever it's called ? ' 
 
28 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I really haven't made up my mind what to do.' 
 
 ' But you'll be studyin' 'ere for another twelve months, 
 I dessay ? ' 
 
 ' Why do you ask ? ' 
 
 * Why ? cos s'posin' I got 'old o' this 'ere little shop, or 
 another like it close by, me an' you might come to a 
 understandin'— see ? It might be worth your while to 
 give a 'int to the young gents as you're in with — eh ? ' 
 
 Godwin was endeavouring to masticate a piece of toast, 
 but it turned to sawdust upon his palate. Of a sudden, 
 when tlie bilious gloom of his countenance foretold any- 
 thing but mirth, he burst into hard laughter. Andrew 
 smote him jovially on the back. 
 
 ' Tickles you, eh, bo-oy ? " Peak's Eefreshment an' 
 Dinin' Kooms ! " Everything tip-top, mind ; respectable 
 business, Godwin ; nothing for nobody to be ashamed 
 of — that wouldn't do, of course.' 
 
 The young man's laughter ended as abruptly as it had 
 begun, but his visage was no longer clouded with bitter 
 misery. A strange indifference seemed to have come upon 
 him, and whilst the speculative uncle talked away with 
 increasing excitement, he ate and drank heedlessly. 
 
 'Mother expects you to-morrow, she tells me,' said 
 Andrew, when his companion's taciturnity had suggested 
 a change of topic. ' Shouldn't wonder if you see me over 
 at Twy]:)ridge again before long. I was to remember your 
 awnt and your cousin Jowey to you. You wouldn't know 
 Jowey ? the sliarpest lad of his age as ever I knowed, is 
 Jowey. Your father 'ud a' took a delight in 'im, if 'e'd 
 lived, that 'e would.' 
 
 For a quarter of an hour or so the dialogue was con- 
 cerned with domestic history. Godwin gave brief reply 
 to many questions, but asked none, not even such as 
 civility required. The elder man, however, was unaffected 
 Ijy this reticence, and when at lengtli his nephew pleaded 
 an en<>a"ement as excuse for leave-takiuGf he shook hands 
 witli much warmth. The two parted close by the shop, 
 and Godwin, casting a glance at the now silent College, 
 walked hastily towards his lodgings. 
 
II 
 
 In the prosperous year of 1856, i ncomes of between a 
 hundred and a hundred and fifty pounds were chargeable 
 with a tax of elevenpence halfpenny in the pound : persons 
 who enjoyed a revenue of a hundred and fifty or more had 
 the honour of paying one and fourpence. Abatements 
 there were none, and families supporting life on two 
 pounds a week might in some cases, perchance, ])e re- 
 conciled to the mulct by considering how equitably its 
 incidence was graduated. 
 
 Some, on the other hand, were less philosophical ; for 
 instance, the household consisting of Nicholas Peak, his 
 wife, their three-year-old daughter, their newly-born son, 
 and a blind sister of Nicholas, dependent upon him for 
 sustenance. Mr. Peak, aged thirty and now four years 
 wedded, had a small cottage on the outskirts of Greenwich. 
 He was employed as dispenser, at a salary of thirty-five 
 shillings a week, by a medical man with a large practice. 
 His income, therefore, fell considerably within the hundred 
 pound limit ; and, all things considered, it was not un- 
 reasonable that he should be allowed to expend the whule 
 of this sum on domestic necessities. But it came to pass 
 that Nicholas, in his greed of wealth, obtained supplemen- 
 tary employment, which benefited him to the extent of a 
 yearly ten pounds. Called upon to render his statement 
 to the surveyor of income-tax, he declared himself in 
 possession of a hundred and one pounds per annum ; con- 
 sequently, he stood indebted to the Exche([uer in the sum 
 of four pounds, sixteen shillings, and ninepence. His 
 countenance darkened, as also did that of ^Irs. Peak. 
 
 29 
 
30 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' This is wrong and cruel — dreadfully cruel ! ' cried the 
 latter, with tears in her eyes. 
 
 ' It is ; but that's no new thing,' was the bitter reply. 
 
 *I think it's wrong of ijou, Nicholas. What need is 
 there to say anything about that ten pounds ? It's taking 
 the food out of our mouths.' 
 
 Knowing only the letter of the law, ^Ir. I'eak answered 
 sternly : 
 
 * My income is a hundred and one pounds. I can't sign 
 my name to a lie.' 
 
 Picture the man. Tall, gaunt, with sharp intellectual 
 features, and eyes of singular beauty, the face of au 
 enthusiast — under given circumstances, of a hero. Poorly 
 clad, of course, but with rigorous self-respect ; his boots 
 polished, propria maim, to the point of perfection ; his 
 linen washed and ironed by the indefatigable wdfe. Of 
 simplest tastes, of most frugal habits, a few books the only 
 luxury which he deemed indispensable; yet a most difficult 
 man to live with, for to him applied precisely the descrip- 
 tion which Ptobert Burns gave of his own father ; he was 
 ' of stubborn, ungainly integrity and headlong irascibility.' 
 
 Ungainly, for his strong impulses towards culture w^ere 
 powerless to obliterate the traces of his rude origin. Born 
 in a London alley, the son of a labourer burdened with a 
 large family, he had made his way by sheer force of 
 character to a position which w^ould have seemed proud 
 success but for the difficulty with which he kept himself 
 alive. His parents were dead. Of his brothers, two had 
 disa])peared in the abyss, and one, Andrew, earned a hard 
 livelihood as a journeyman baker ; the elder of his sisters 
 had married poorly, and tlie younger was his blind pen- 
 sioner. Nicholas had found a wife of better birth than 
 his own, a young woman with country kindred in decent 
 circumstances, though she herself served as nursemaid in 
 i\w, house of tlic medical man who employed her future 
 husband. He had tauglit himself the English language, so 
 far as grannnar went, but could not cast off the London 
 accent; Mrs. Peak was fortunate enough to speak with 
 nothing worse than the note of the Midlands. 
 
 His bent led him to the study of history, politics, 
 
BURN IN EX ILK 31 
 
 ecouomics, aud iu that time of military outlneak lie 
 was frenzied by the oonllict of his ideals with the state of 
 things al)out him. A book frequently in his liands was 
 Godwin's Folitical Justice, and when a son had been born 
 to him he decided to name the child after that favourite 
 author. In this way, at all events, he could tind some 
 expression for his hot defiance of iniquity. 
 
 He paid his income-tax, and felt a savage joy in the 
 privation thus imposed upon his family. Mrs. Teak could 
 not forgive her husband, and in this case, though she had 
 i but dim appreciation of the point of honour involved, her 
 j censures doubtless fell on Nicholas's vulnerable spot ; it 
 was the perversity of arrogance, at least as nmch as 
 honesty, that impelled him to incur taxation. His 
 wife's perseverance in complaint drove him to stern 
 impatience, and for a long time the peace of the house- 
 hold suftered. 
 
 "When the boy Godwin was five years old, the dc^ath of 
 bis blind aunt came as a relief to means whicli were in 
 every sense overtaxed. Twelve months later, a piece of 
 unprecedented good fortune seemed to place the Peaks 
 i beyond fear of want, and at the same time to supply 
 Nicholas with a fulfilment of hopeless desires. By the 
 death of Mrs. Teak's brother, they came into possession 
 of a freehold house and about nine hundred pounds. The 
 property was situated some twelve miles from the Midland 
 town of Twybridge, and thither they at once removed. At 
 Twybridge lived Mrs. Peak's elder sister, ]\Iiss Cadman ; 
 but between this lady and her nearest kinsfolk there had 
 been Ijut slight correspondence — the deceased (,'adman 
 left her only a couple of hundred pounds. With capital 
 at command, Xicliolas l*eak took a lease of certain 
 fields near his house, aud turned farmer. The study of 
 chemistry had given a special bent to his economic 
 speculations ; he fancied himself endowed with excep- 
 tional aptitude for agriculture, and the scent of the furrow 
 brought all his energies into feverish activity — activity 
 which soon impoverished him : tliat was in the order of 
 I things. 'Ungainly integrity' and * headlong irascibility' 
 j >vrought the same results for the ex-dispenser as for the 
 
32 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Ayrshire Imabandman. His farming came to a chaotic 
 end ; and when the struggling man died, worn out at forty- 
 three, his wife and children (there was now a younger 
 boy, Oliver, named after the Protector) had no very bright 
 prospects. 
 
 Things went better with them than might have been 
 anticipated. To Mrs. Peak her husband's death was not 
 an occasion of unmingled mourning. For the last few 
 years slie had suffered severely from domestic discord, and 
 when left at peace by bereavement she turned with a 
 sense of liberation to the task of caring for her children's 
 future. Godwin was just thirteen, Oliver w^as eleven ; 
 both had been well schooled, and with the help of friends 
 they might soon be put in the way of self-support. The 
 daughter, Charlotte, sixteen years of age, had accomplish- 
 ments which would perhaps be profitable. The widow 
 decided to make a home in Twybridge, where Miss 
 Cadman kept a millinery shop. By means of this connec- 
 tion, Charlotte presently found employment for her skill 
 in fine needlework. Mrs. Peak was incapable of earning 
 money, but the experiences of her early married life 
 enabled her to make more than the most of the pittance 
 at her disposal. 
 
 _^ Miss Cadman was a woman of active mind, something 
 of a busy-body— dogmatic, punctilious in her claims to 
 respect, proud of the acknowledgment by her acquaintances 
 that she was not as other tradespeople ; her chief weak- 
 ness was a fanatical ecclesiasticism, the common blight of 
 Englisli womanhood. Circumstances had allowed her a 
 better education than generally falls to women of that 
 standing, and in spite of her shop she succeeded in 
 retaining the friendship of certain ladies long ago her 
 sclioolfellows. Among these were the ]\Iisses Lumb — 
 middle-aged sisters, who lived at Twybridge on a small 
 independence, their time chiefly devoted to the support of 
 tlie Anglican Church. An eldest ^liss Lumb had been 
 fortunate enough to marry that growing potentate of the 
 Midlands, Mr. Job Whitelaw. Now Lady Whitelaw, she 
 dwelt at Kingsmill, but her sisters frequently enjoyed the 
 honour of entertaining her, and even Miss Cadman the 
 
BORN TX EXILE 33 
 
 milliner occasionally held converse with the haronet's 
 wife. In this w^ay it came to pass that the Widow Teak 
 and her children were bronght nnder the notice of persons 
 who sooner or later might be of assistance to them. 
 
 Abounding in emphatic advice, Miss Cadman easily 
 persuaded her sister that Godwin must go to school for at 
 least two years longer. The boys had been at a l)oarding- 
 school twenty miles away from their country home ; it 
 would be better for them now to be put under the care of 
 some Twybridge teacher — such an one as Miss Cadman's 
 acquaintances could recommend. For her own credit, the 
 milliner was anxious that these nephews of hers should 
 not be running about the town as errand-boys or the like, 
 and with prudence there was no necessity for such degrada- 
 tion. An uncommon lad like Godwin (she imaginecl him 
 named after the historic earl) must not be robbed of his 
 fair chance in life ; she would gladly spare a little money 
 for his benefit ; he was a boy to repay such expenditure. 
 
 Indeed it seemed probable. Godwin devoured books, 
 and had a remarkable faculty for gaining solid information 
 on any subject that took his fancy. What might be the 
 special bent of his mind one could not yet discover. lie 
 read poetry with precocious gusto, but at the same time 
 his aptitude for scientific pursuits was strongly marked. 
 In botany, chemistry, physics, he made progress which the 
 people about him, including his schoolmaster, were incap- 
 able of appreciating; and already the collection of books 
 left l)y his father, most of them out of date, failed to satisfy 
 his curiosity. It might be feaVed that tastes so discursive 
 would be disadvantageous to a lad who must needs pursue 
 some definite bread-study, and the strain of self-conscious- 
 ness which grew strong in him was again a matter for 
 concern. He cared nothing for boyish games and com- 
 panionship ; in the society of strangers — especially of 
 females — he behaved with an excessive shyness which was 
 easily mistaken for a surly temper. lieproof, correction, 
 he could not endure, and it was fortunate that the decorum 
 of his habits made remonstrance seldom needful. 
 
 Ludicrous as the project would have appeared to any 
 unbiassed observer of character, ]\Iiss Cadman conceived 
 
 3 
 
34 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 a hope that Godwin might become a clergyman. From 
 her point of view it was natural to assume tliat uncommon 
 talents must be devoted to the service of the Church, 
 and she would have gladly done her utmost for the 
 practical furthering of such an end. Mrs. Peak, though 
 well aware that her son had imbibed the paternal pre- 
 judices, was disposed to entertain the same hope, despite 
 solid obstacles. For several years she had nourished a 
 secret antagonism to her husband's spirit of political, 
 social, and religious rebellion, and in her w^idowhood she 
 speedily became a pattern of the conservative female. 
 It would have gratified her to discern any possibility 
 of Godwin's assuming the priestly garb. And not alone 
 on the ground of conscience. Long ago she had repented 
 the marriage which connected her with such a family as 
 that of the Peaks, and she ardently desired tliat the 
 children, now exclusively her own, might enter life on 
 a plane superior to their father's. 
 
 'Godwin, how would you like to go to College and 
 be a clergyman?' she asked one Sunday afternoon, 
 when an hour or two of congenial reading seemed to 
 liave put the boy into a gentle liumour. 
 
 ' To go to College ' was all very well (diplomacy had 
 prompted this preface), but the words that followed fell 
 so alarmingly on Godwin's ear that he looked up with a 
 resentful expression, unable to reply otherwise. 
 
 * You never thought of it, I suppose ? ' his mother 
 faltered ; for she often stood in awe of her son, who, 
 though yet but iourteen, had much of his father's com- 
 manding severity. 
 
 * I don't want to be a parson,' came at length, bluntly. 
 ' Don't use that word, Godwin.' 
 
 ' Why not ? It's quite a proper word. It comes from 
 the Latin 2^<'Tsona.' 
 
 The motlier had enough discretion to keep silence, and 
 Godwin, after in vain trying to settle to his book again, 
 left the room with disturbed countenance. 
 
 He had now been attending the day-school for about a 
 year, and was distinctly ahead of his coevals. A Christmas 
 examination was on the point of being held, and it hap- 
 
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BORX IX EXILE 35 
 
 peiied that a singular test of tlic lad's moral character 
 coinckled with the proof of his intellectual i)r()gress. In 
 a neighhourin^^ house lived an old man named liawmarsli, 
 kindly hut rather eccentric; he had once done a good 
 business as a printer, and now supported himself l)y sucli 
 chance typographic work of a small kind as friends might 
 put in his way. He conceived an affection for ( Jodwin : 
 often had the boy to talk with him of an evening. < )n 
 one such occasion, ^Ir. liawmarsh opened a desk, took 
 forth a packet of newly printed leaves, and with a mysteri- 
 ous air silently spread them before the hoy's eyes. In an 
 instant Godwin became aware that he was looking at the 
 examination papers which a day or two hence would be 
 set before him at school ; he saw and recognised a passage 
 from the book of Virgil which his class had Ijeen reading. 
 
 'That is sub rosa, you know,' whispered the old pi inter, 
 with half averted face. 
 
 Godwin slirank away, and could not resume the conver- 
 sation thus interrupted. On the following day he went 
 about with a feeling of guilt. He avoided tlie siglit of Mr. 
 Rawmarsh, for whom he had suddenly lost all respect, 
 and suffered torments in the thouglit that he enjoyed an 
 unfair advantage over his class-mates. The Latin passage 
 happened to be one which he knew thoroughly well ; there 
 was no need, even had he desired, to ' look it up ' ; but in 
 sitting down to the examination, he experienced a sense 
 of shame and self-rebuke. So strong were the effects of 
 this, that he voluntarily omitted the answer to a certain 
 important cpiestion which he could have 'done' belter 
 than any of the other boys, thus endeavouring to adjust 
 in his conscience the therms of competition, thougli in fact 
 no such sacrifice was called for. He came out at the head 
 of the class, but the triumph had no savour for him, and 
 for many a year he was subject to a flush of mortification 
 whenever this incident came back to his mind. 
 
 Mr. liawmarsh was not the only intelligent man who 
 took an interest in Godwin. Tu a house whicli the boy 
 sometimes visited with a school-fellow, lodged a notable 
 couple named G-unnery — the husband about seventy, the 
 wife five years older; they lived on a pension from a 
 
36 BORN IX EXILE 
 
 railway company. ^Ir. Gunnery was a dabbler in many 
 sciences, bnt had a special enthusiasm for geology. Two 
 cabinets of stones and fossils gave evidence of his zealous 
 travels about the British isles ; he had even written a 
 little hand-book of petrology which was for sale at certain 
 booksellers' in Twybridge, and probaljly nowhere else. To 
 him, about this time, Godwin began to resort, always sure 
 of a welcome ; and in the little uncarpeted room wdiere Mr. 
 Gunnery pursued his investigations many a fateful lesson 
 was given and received. The teacher understood the in- 
 telligence he had to deal with, and was delighted to convey, 
 by the mode of suggested inference, sundry results of 
 knowledge which it perliaps would not have been prudent 
 to declare in plain, popular words. 
 
 Their intercourse was not invariably placid. The 
 geologist had an irritable temper, and in certain states of 
 the atmosphere his rheumatic twinges made it advisable 
 to shun argument with him. Godwin, moreover, was 
 distinguished by an instability of mood peculiarly trying 
 to an old man's testy humour. Of a sudden, to Mr. 
 Gunnery's surprise and annoyance, he would lose all 
 interest in this or that science. Thus, one day the lad de- 
 clared liimself unable to name two stones set before him, 
 felspar and quartz, and when his instructor broke into 
 angry impatience he turned sullenly away, exclaiming 
 that he was tired of geology. 
 
 'Tired of geology?' cried Mr. Gunnery, with flaming 
 eyes. * Then / am tired of you, Master Peak ! Be off, 
 and don't come again till I send for you ! ' 
 
 Godwin retired without a word. On the second day 
 he was summoned back again, but his resentment of the 
 dismissal rankled in him for a long time ; injury to his 
 l)ride was the wrong he found it hardest to forgive. 
 
 His schoolmaster, aware of the unusual pursuits which 
 he added to the routine of lessons, gave him as a prize the 
 English translation of a book by Figuier — The World 
 hcforc the Ddiujc. Strongly interested by the illustra- 
 tions of the volume (fanciful scenes from the successive 
 geologic periods), Godwin at once carried it to liis scientific 
 friend. 'Ueluge?' growled Mr. Gunnery. ' JFArt^ deluge? 
 
BORN IN EXILE 37 
 
 Which deluge?' But lie restrained liiinself, liaiidcd tlie 
 book coldly back, and began to talk of something else. 
 All this was highly significant to Godwin, who of course 
 began the perusal of his prize in a suspicious mood. Nor 
 was he long before he sympathised with Mr. Gunnery's 
 distaste. Though too young to grasp the arguments at 
 ! issue, liis prejudices were strongly excited by tlie conven- 
 tional Theism which pervades Figuier's work. Already it 
 was the habit of liis mind to associate popular dogma with 
 intellectual shallowness; herein, as at every other point 
 which fell within his scope, he had begun to scorn average 
 people, and to pride himself intensely on views which he 
 found generally condemned. Day by day he grew into a 
 clearer understanding of the memories be(|ueathed to him 
 by his father; he began to interpret remarks, details of 
 behaviour, instances of wTath, which, though they had 
 stamped themselves on his recollection, conveyed at the 
 time no precise significance. The issue was that he 
 hardened himself against the influence of his motlier and 
 his aunt, regarding them as in league against the free 
 progress of his education. 
 
 As women, again, he despised the.se relatives. It is 
 almost impossible for a bright-witted lad born in tlie 
 lower middle class to escape this stage of development. 
 The brutally healthy boy contemns the female sex be- 
 cause he sees it incapable of his own athletic sports, but 
 Godwin was one of those upon whose awaking intellect 
 is forced a perception of the brain-defect so general in 
 women when they are taught few of life's graces and 
 none of its serious concerns, — their paltry preposses- 
 sions, their vulgar sequaciousness, their invincible ignor- 
 ance, their absorption in a petty self. And especially is 
 llns_p hase of th ought to be expected in a boy whose 
 heart blindly nourlilTITs the seeds of poetical passion. It 
 was Godwin's sincere belief that he held girls, as girls, in 
 abhorrence. This meant that he dreaded their personal 
 criticism, and that the spectacle of female beauty some- 
 times overcame him with a despair which he could not 
 analyse. ^latrons and elderly unmarried women were 
 truly the objects of his disdain ; in them lit- saw nothing 
 
38 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 but their shortcomings. Towards his mother he was con- 
 scious of no tenderness ; of as little towards his sister, who 
 often censured him with trenchant tongue ; as for his 
 aunt, whose admiration of him was modified by reticences, 
 he could never be at ease in her company, so strong a 
 dislike had he for her look, her voice, her ways of speech. 
 
 He would soon be fifteen years old. Mrs. Peak was 
 growing anxious, for she could no longer consent to draw 
 upon her sister for a portion of the school fees, and no 
 pertinent suggestion for the lad's future was made by any 
 of the people who admired his cleverness. Miss Cadman 
 still clung in a fitful way to the idea of making her 
 nephew a cleric ; she had often talked it over with the 
 Misses Lumb, who of course held that ' any sacrifice ' was 
 justifiable with such a motive, and who suggested a hope 
 that, by the instrumentality of Lady Whitelaw, a curacy 
 might easily be obtained as soon as (Jodwin was old 
 enougli. But several years must pass before that Levitical 
 stage could be reached; and then, after all, perhaps the 
 younger boy, Oliver, placid of temper and notably pliant 
 in mind, was better suited for the dignity of Orders. 
 Tt was lamentable that Godwin should liave become so 
 intimate with that earth-burrowing Mr. Gunnery, who 
 certainly never attended eitlier church or chapel, and wlio 
 seemed to have imbued his pupil with immoral theories 
 concerninG: the date of creation. Godwin held more 
 decidedly aloof from his aunt, and had been heard by 
 Charlotte to speak very disrespectfully of the Misses Lumb. 
 In sliort, there was no choice but to discover an opening for 
 liim in some secular pursuit. Could he, perhaps, become 
 an assistant teacher ? Or must he ' go into an office ' ? 
 
 No common lad. A youth whose brain glowed like a 
 furnace, whose heart throbbed with tumult of liigh am- 
 bitions, of inclioate desires ; endowed with knowledge 
 altogetlier exceptional for his years ; a nature essentially 
 militant, (lis})laying itself in innumerable forms of callow, 
 intcjlcrancc — apt, assuredly, for some vigorous part in life, 
 Ijut as likely as not to rush headlong on traverse roads if 
 no judicious mind assumed control of him. What is to 
 be done with the boy ? 
 
BORN IN EXILE 30 
 
 All very well, if the question signifii'd, in wliat wayJ 
 to provide for the healthy development of lii.s man- 
 hood. Of course it meant nothing of the sort, but merely :j 
 What work can he found for him whereby he may earn 
 his daily bread ? We — his kinsfolk even, not to think of 
 the world at large — can have no concern with liis grout li 
 as an intellectual being; we are liard ])re8sed to supj)ly 
 our own mouths with food; and now that we have d<»ne 
 our recognised duty by him, it is higli time that he learnt 
 to tight for his own share of provender. Happily, he is 
 of the robust sex ; he can hit out right and left, and m;d<e 
 standing-room. We have armed him with serviceable 
 weapons, and now he must use them against tlie enemy 
 ^— that is to say, against all mankind, who will quickly 
 eiiougli deprive him of sustenance if lie fail in the coulhct. 
 We neither know, nor in great measure care, for what 
 employment he is naturally marked. Obviously he cannot 
 heave coals or sell dogs' meat, but with negative certainty 
 not much else can be resolved, seeing how desperate is the 
 competition for minimum salaries. He has been born, 
 andluTmusl eat. By what licensed channel may he pro- 
 cure the necessary viands ? 
 
 Paternal relatives Godwin had as good as none. In 
 quitting London, Nicholas Peak had ceased to hold com- 
 munication with any of his own stock save the younger 
 brother Andrew. With him he occasionally exchanged a 
 letter, but Andrew's share in the correspondence was 
 limited to ungrammatical and often unintelligible hints 
 of numerous projects for money-making. Just after the 
 removal of the bereaved family to Twybridge, they were 
 surprised by a visit from Andrew, in answer to one of 
 whose letters Mrs. Teak had sent news of her hus])and's 
 death. Though her dislike of the man amounted to loath- 
 ing, the widow could not refuse him hospitality ; she did 
 her best, however, to prevent his coming in contact with 
 anyone she knew. Andrew declared tliat he was at length 
 prospering ; he had started a coflec-sliop at Dalston, in 
 north-east London, and ])ositively urgeil a proposal (well- 
 meant, beyond doubt) that Ciodwin sbould l>e allowed to 
 come to him and learn the business. Since then the 
 
40 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Londoner liad once again visited Twybridge, towards the 
 end of Godwin's last school-year. Tliis time he spoke of 
 himself less hopefully, and declared a wish to transfer his 
 business to some provincial town, where he thought his 
 metropolitan experience might be of great value, in the 
 I absence of serious competition. It was not di&icult to 
 ■ discover a family likeness l)etween Andrew's instability 
 and the idealism wdiich had proved the ruin of Nicholas. 
 
 On this second occasion Godwin tried to escape a meet- 
 ing with his uncle. Unable to do so, he sat mute, replying 
 to questions monosyllabically. Mrs. Peak's shame and 
 annoyance, in face of tliis London-branded vulgariaii^were 
 but feeble emotions com])ared with those of her son. 
 Godwin hated the man, and was in dread lest any school- 
 ' fellow should come to know of such a connection. Yet 
 delicacy prevented his uttering a word on the subject 
 to his mother. ]\Irs. Peak's silence after Andrew's de- 
 parture made it uncertain how she regarded the obligation 
 of kindred, and in any such matter as this the boy was 
 far too sensitive to risk giving pain. But to his brother 
 Oliver he spoke. 
 
 'What is the brute to us ? Wlien I'm a man, let him 
 venture to come near me, and see what sort of a reception 
 i he'll get ! I hate low, uneducated people ! I hate them 
 ! worse than the filthiest vermin ! — don't you ?' 
 
 Oliver, aged but thirteen, assented, as he habitually did 
 to any question which seemed to await an afhrmative. 
 
 * They ought to be swept off the face of the earth ! ' 
 pursued Godwin, sittiug up in bed — for the dialogue took 
 place about eleven o'clock at night. 'All the grown-up 
 creatures, who can't speak proper English and don't know 
 how to behave themselves, I'd transpoit them to the 
 Falkland Islands,' — this geographic precision was a note 
 of the boy's mind, — ' and let them die ofi' as soon as 
 possible. The children should be sent to school and 
 purified, if possible ; if not, they too sliould be got rid of 
 
 'You're an aristocrat, Godwin,' remarked Oliver, simply ; 
 for the elder brother had of late been telling him fearlul 
 stories from the French Ptevolution, with something of_an^ 
 anti-popular bins. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 41 
 
 ' I hope I am. 1 nieau to be, lliat's ci'itaiii. TlR.'n''.s 
 Ui2JLluii^' 1 luiLc like vuluarity. That's why I can't stand 
 Kuper. When he beat nie in mathematics hist miil- 
 surnmer, I felt so ashamed I could liardly bear myself. 
 I'm working like a nigger at algebra and Euclid this half, 
 just because 1 think it would almost kill me to be beaten 
 again by a low cad.' 
 
 This was perhaps the first time that (lodwin found 
 expression for the prejudice which afl'ected all his thoughts 
 and feelings. It relieved him to have spoken thus ; hence- 
 forth he had become clear as to his point of view. By 
 dubbing him aristocrat, Oliver had flattered him in the 
 subtlest way. If indeed the title were justly his, as he 
 instantly felt it was, the inference was plain that he nnist 
 be an aristocrat of nature's own making — one of the few 
 highly favoured beings who, in despite of circumstance, 
 are pinnacled above mankind. I n his ign orance of life, 
 t])p. b uy visioned a triumphant career ; an aristocrat <lc 
 jure miglit possibly become one even in the common sense 
 did he but pursue that end witli sufficient zeal. And in 
 his power of persistent endeavour he had no lack of faith. 
 
 The next day he walked with exalted head. En- 
 countering the objectionable Eoper, he smiled upon him 
 contemptuously tolerant. 
 
 There being no hope of effective assistance from rela- 
 tives, Mrs. Peak turned for counsel to a man of business, 
 with whom her husband had made acquaintance in his 
 farming days, and who held a position of inihience at 
 Twy bridge. This was Mr. Moxey, manufacturing chemist, 
 famous in the Midlands for his ' sheep and cattle 
 dressings,' and sundry other products of agricultural 
 enterprise. His ill -scented, Ijut lucrative, works were 
 situated a mile out of the town ; and within siglit of the 
 reeking chimneys stood a large, plain house, uncomfort- 
 ably like an ' institution ' of some kind, in which he dwelt 
 with his five daughters. Thither, one evening, Mrs. Teak 
 betook herself, having learnt that Mr. Moxey dined at 
 five o'clock, and tliat he was generally to l)e found digging 
 iu his garden until sunset. Her rece])tion was civil. Tlie 
 manufacturer — sparing of words, but with no unkin«lly 
 
42 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 face — requested that Godwin should be sent to see him, 
 and promised to do his best to be of use. A talk with 
 the boy strengthened liis interest. He was surprised at 
 Godw^in's knowledge of chemistry, pleased with his general 
 intelligence, and in the end offered to make a place for 
 him at the works, where, though for a year or two his 
 earnings must be small, he would gain experience likely 
 to be of substantial use to him. Godwin did not find 
 the proposal distasteful; it brought a change into his life, 
 and the excitement of novelty ; it flattered him with the 
 show of release from pupilage. To Mr. Moxey's he went. 
 
 The hours were not long, and it was understood that 
 his theoretical studies should continue in the evening. 
 Godwin's home was a very small house in a monotonous 
 little street ; a garret served as bedroom for the two boys, 
 also as tlie elder one's laboratory. Servant Mrs. Peak 
 had none. She managed everything herself, as in the old 
 Greenwich days, leaving Charlotte free to work at her 
 embroidery. Godwin took turns with Oliver at blacking 
 the shoes. 
 
 As a matter of course the boys accompanied their mother 
 each Sunday morning to the parish church, and this cere- 
 mony was becoming an insufferable tax on Godwin's pa- 
 tience. It was not only that he hated the name of religion, 
 and scorned with much fierceness all who came in sympa- 
 thetic contact therewith ; the loss of time seemed to him 
 an oppressive injury, especially now that lie began to suffer 
 from restricted leisure. He w^ould not refuse to obey his 
 mother's wish, but the sullenness of his Sabbatic demeanour 
 made the whole family uncomfortable. As often as 
 possible he feigned illness. He tried the effect of dolorous 
 sighs and groans ; but Mrs. Peak could not dream of con- 
 ceding a point which would have seemed to her the 
 condonation of deadly sin. ' When T am a man ! ' muttered 
 Godwin. * Ah ! when I am a man !' 
 
 A year liad gone by, and the routine to which he was 
 bound began to have a servile flavour. His mind chafed 
 at subjugation to commercial interests. Sick of ' sheep and 
 cattle dressings,' he grew tired of chemistry altogether, 
 and presently of physical science in general. His evenings 
 
BORN IN EXILE 43 
 
 were given to poetry and liistory ; lie took uj) tlic classical 
 schoolbooks again, and fonnd a cliarni in Latin syntax 
 hitherto iinperceived. It was plain to him now how he 
 had been wronged by the necessity of leaving school when 
 his education had but just l)egun. 
 
 Discontent becoming rii)e for utterance, he unbosomed 
 himself to Mr. Gunnery. It happened that the old man 
 had just returned from a visit to Kingsmill, where he had 
 spent a week in the museum, then newly enriched with 
 geologic specimens. After listening in silence to the 
 boy's complaints, and pondering for a long time, he began 
 to talk of Whitelaw College. 
 
 'Does it cost much to study there?' Godwin asked, 
 gloomily. 
 
 * No great sum, I think. There are scholarships to be 
 had.' 
 
 Mr. Gunnery threw out the suggestion carelessly. 
 Knowing the hazards of life, he could not quite justify 
 himself in encouraging Godwin's restiveness. 
 
 ' Scholarships ? For free study ? ' 
 
 *Yes; but that wouldn't mean free living, you know. 
 Students don't live at the College.' 
 
 * How do you go in for a scholarship ? ' 
 
 The old man replied,, meditatively, * If you were to 
 pass the Cambridge Local Examination, and to get the 
 first place in the Kingsmill district, you would have three 
 years of free study at Whitelaw.' 
 
 ' Three years ? ' shouted Godwin, springing up from 
 his chair. 
 
 ' But how could you live, my boy ? ' 
 
 Godwin sat down again, and let his head fall forward. 
 
 How to keep oneself alive during a few years of intel- 
 lectual growth ? — a question often asked by men of mature 
 age, but seldom by a lad of sixteen. No matter. He 
 resolved that he would study for this Cambridge Local 
 Examination, and have a try for the scholarshi]). His 
 attainments were already up to the standard iiMpiired for 
 average success in such competitions. On obtaining a set 
 of 'papers,' he found that they looked easy enough. 
 Could he not come out first in the Kini^smill district ? 
 
44 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 He worked vigorously at special subjects ; aid was 
 needless, but he wished for more leisure. Not a word to 
 any member of his household. When his mother dis- 
 covered that he was reading in the bedroom till long past 
 midnight, she made serious objection on the score of 
 health and on that of gas bills. Godwin quietly asserted 
 tliat work he must, and that if necessary he would buy 
 candles out of his pocket-money. He had unexpectedly 
 become more grave, more restrained ; he even ceased to 
 grumble about going to church, having found that service 
 time could be utilised for committing to memory lists of 
 dates and the like, jotted down on a slip of paper. When 
 the time ibr the examination drew near, he at length told 
 his mother to what end he had been labouring, and asked 
 her to grant him the assistance necessary for his journey 
 and the sojourn at Kingsmill ; the small sum he had been 
 able to save, after purchase of books, would not suffice. 
 ^Irs. Peak knew not whether to approve her son's ambition 
 or to try to repress it. She would welcome an improval in 
 his prospects, but, granting success, how was he to live 
 whilst profiting by a scholarship ? And again, what did 
 he propose to make of himself when he had spent three 
 years in study ? 
 
 'In any case,' was Godwin's reply, 'I sliould be sure of 
 a good place as a teacher. But I think I might try for 
 something in the Civil Service; there are all sorts of 
 positions to be got.' 
 
 It was idle to discuss the future whilst the first step 
 was still speculative. Mrs. Peak consented to favour the 
 attempt, and what v/as more, to keep it a secret until the 
 issue should be known. It was needful to obtain leave of 
 absence from ]\Ir. Moxey, and Godwin, when making the 
 request, stated for what purpose he was going to Kings- 
 mill, though without explaining the hope which had 
 encouraged his studies. The project seemed laudable, 
 and his employer made no difficulties. 
 
 Godwin just missed the scholarship; of candidates in 
 the prescribed district, he came out second. 
 
 Grievous was the disappointment. To come so 
 near success exasperated his impatient temper, and for 
 
II 
 
 BOKX IN KXILE 45 
 
 a few (lays his boiulaj^^e at llie chemical works seeinod 
 intolerable ; he was ready for almost any venture that 
 promised release and new scope for his fretting ener<,Mes. 
 But at the moment when nervous irritation was most 
 acute, a remarkable act of kindness suddenly restored to 
 him all the hoi)es he had abandoned. One Saturday 
 afternoon he was summoned from his surly retreat in the 
 oarret, to s])eak with a visitor. On entering the sittiu'^- 
 room, he found his mother in company with ]\Iiss Cadman 
 and the Misses Lumb, and from the last-mentioned ladies, 
 who spoke with amiable alternation, he learnt that they 
 were commissioned by Sir Job Wliitelaw to offer for his 
 acceptance a three-years' studentship at AMiitelaw Collc«^^'. 
 Afl'ected by her son's chagrin, Mrs. l*eak liad disclosed 
 the story to her sister, who had repeated it to tlie blisses 
 Lumb, who in turn had made it the subject of a letter to 
 Lady Wliitelaw. It was an annual practice with Sir Job 
 to discover some promising lad whom he could benefit by 
 the payment of his fees for a longer or shorter period of 
 college study. The hint from Twy bridge came to him just 
 at the suitable time, and, on further inquiry, he decided 
 to make proller of this advantage to Godwin Peak. Tlie 
 only condition was that arrangements should be made by 
 the student's relatives for his support during tJie proposed 
 period. 
 
 This generosity took away Godwin's breath. The ex- 
 penditure it represented was trilling, but from a stianger 
 in Sir Job's position it had sometliing which recalled to 
 so fervent a mind the poetry of Medicean patronage. For 
 the moment no faintest doubt gave warning to his self- 
 respect ; he was eager to accept nol)ly a benefaction 
 nobly intended. 
 
 Miss Cadman, flattered by Sir Job's attention to her 
 nephew, now came forward with an offer to contribute 
 towards Godwin's livelihood. Her supplement would eke 
 into adequacy such slender allowance as the widow's 
 purse could afford. Details were privately discussed, 
 resolves were taken. Mr. IMoxey, when it was made 
 known to him, without explanation, that Godwin was to 
 be sent to Wliitelaw College, behaved witli kindness; he 
 
46 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 at once released tlie lad, and added a present to the salary 
 that was due. Proper acknowledgment of the Baronet's 
 kindness was made by the beneticiary himself, who wrote 
 a letter giving truer testimony of his mental calibre than 
 would have been offered had he expressed himself by 
 word of mouth. A genial reply summoned him to an 
 interview as soon as he should have found an abode in 
 Kingsmill. The lodging he had occupied during the 
 examination was permanently secured, and a new period 
 of Godwin's life began. 
 
 For two years, that is to say until his age drew towards 
 nineteen, Peak pursued the Arts curriculum at Whitelaw. 
 His mood on entering decided his choice, which was left 
 free to liim. Experience of utilitarian chemistry had for 
 the present made his liberal tastes predominant, and 
 neither the splendid laboratories of Whitelaw nor the 
 repute of its scientific Professors tempted him to what 
 had once seemed his natural direction. In the second 
 year, however, he enlarged his course by the addition of 
 one or two classes not included in Sir Jolo's design ; these 
 were paid for out of a present made to him by Mr. 
 Gunnery. 
 
 It being customary for the regular students of White- 
 law to graduate at London University, Peak passed Ins 
 matriculation, and worked on for the preliminary test 
 then known as First B.A. In the meanwhile he rose 
 steadily, achieving distinction in the College. The more 
 observant of his teachers remarked him even where he 
 fell short of academic triumph, and among his fellow- 
 students he had the name of a stern 'sweater/ one not 
 easily beaten where he had set his mind on excelling. 
 He was not generally liked, for his mood appeared 
 unsocial, and a repelling arrogance was sometimes felt in 
 his talk. No doubt — said the more fortunate young 
 men — he came from a very poor home, and suffered from 
 the narrowness of his means. They noticed that he did •■ 
 not suljscribe to the College Union, and that he could i 
 never join in talk regarding the diversions of tlie town. 
 His two or three intimates were cliosen from among those ' 
 contemporaries who read hard and dressed poorly. 
 
BORN TX KXILK 47 
 
 The details of Godwin's private life were noteworthy. 
 Accustomed hitherto to a domestic circle, at Kin«;smill he 
 found himself isolated, and it was not easy for liini to 
 I surrender all at once the comforts of home. For a timu 
 he felt as thou«;h his ambition were a delin(iuency whicli 
 entailed the punisliment of loneliness. Nor did his 
 relations with Sir Job Whitelaw tend to mitigate tins 
 feelin*,'. In his first interview with the IJaronet, (Jodwin 
 showed to little advantage. A deadly bashfulness forbade 
 him to be natural either in attitude or speech. lie felt his 
 dependence in a way he had not foreseen ; the very clothes 
 he wore, then fresh from the tailor's, seemed to be the 
 gift of cliarity, and their stiffness shamed him. A man 
 of the world, Sir Job could make allowance for these 
 defects. He understood that the truest kindness would 
 be to leave a youth such as this to the forming inlluences 
 [ of the College. So Godwin barely had a glimpse of Lady 
 I Whitelaw in her husband's study, and thereafter for 
 I many months he saw nothing of his benefactors. Subse- 
 quently he was twice invited to interviews with Sir Job, 
 j who talked with kindness and commendation. Then 
 I came the Baronet's death. Godwin received an assurance 
 I that this event would be no check upon his career, 
 I but he neither saw nor heard directly from Lady 
 I Whitelaw. 
 
 ! Not a house in Kingsmill opened hospitable doors to the 
 I lonely student ; nor was anyone to blame for this. With 
 ' no family had he friendly acquaintance. When, towards 
 i the end of his second year, he grew sulliciently intimate 
 ! with Buckland Warricombe to walk out with him to 
 I Thornhaw, it could be nothincf more than a scarcely 
 I welcome exception to the rule of solitude. Impossible for 
 him to cultivate the friendship of such people as the 
 Warricombes, with their large and joyous sehenie of life. 
 j Only at a hearth where homeliness and cordiality uniti'd 
 I to unthaw his proud reserve could Godwin perchance 
 i have found the companionship he needed. Many such 
 I homes existed in Kingsmill, but no kindly fortune led the; 
 I young man within the sphere of their warmth. 
 
 His lodgings were in a very .ugly street in the ugliest 
 
48 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 outskirts of the town ; lie had to take a long walk through 
 desolate districts (brick-yard, sordid pasture, degenerate 
 village) before he could refresh liis eyes with the rural 
 scenery which was so great a joy to him as almost to be 
 a necessity. The immediate vicinage offered nothing but 
 monotone of grimy, lower middle-class dwellings, occasion- 
 ally relieved by a public-house. He occupied two rooms, 
 not unreasonably clean, and was seldom disturbed by the 
 attentions of his landlady. 
 
 An impartial observer might have wondered at the 
 neo'liwnce which left him to arrange his life as best he 
 could, notwithstanding youth and utter niexpenence. IL 
 looked indeed as if there were no one in the wnrhl who 
 cared what became of him. Yet this was merely the result 
 of his mother's circumstances, and of his own character. 
 Mrs. Peak could do no more than make her small remit- 
 tances, and therewith send an occasional admonition re- 
 garding his health. She did not, in fact, conceive the state 
 of things, imagining that the authority and supervisal of 
 the College extended over her son's daily existence, whereas 
 it was possible for Godwin to frequent lectures or not, 
 to study or to waste his time, pretty much as he chose, 
 subject only to official inquiry if his attendance became 
 frequently irregular. His independent temper, and the 
 seeming maturity of his mind, supplied another excuse for 
 the imprudent confidence which left him to his own re- 
 sources. Yet the perils of the situation were great indeed. 
 A youth of less concentrated purpose, more at the mercy 
 of casual allurement, would proljably have gone to wreck 
 amid trials so exceptional. 
 
 Trials not only of his moral nature. The sums of money 
 with which he was furnished fell short of a reasonable 
 total for bare necessities. In the calculation made by 
 Mrs. Peak and her sister, outlay on books had practically 
 been lost sight of ; it was presumed that ten shillings a 
 term would cover this item. But Godwin could not con- 
 sent to be at a disadvantage in his armoury for academic 
 contest. The first month saw him compelled to contract 
 his diet, that he might purchase books ; thenceforth he. 
 rarely liad enough to eat. His landlady supplied him; 
 
BORN IN EXILE 49 
 
 I with breakfast, tea, and supper — each repast of tlie vi-ry 
 
 t simplest kind ; for dinner it was understood that lie re- 
 
 ! paired to some public table, where meat and ve.i^'etables, 
 
 I with perchance a supplementary sweet wlien nature 
 
 demanded it, might be had for about a shilling. That 
 
 shilling was not often at his disposal. Dinner as it is 
 
 understood by the comfortably clad, the ' regular meal ' 
 
 which is a part of English respectal»ility, came to be repre- 
 
 j sented by a small pork-pie, or even a couple of buns, 
 
 I eaten at the little shop over against the College. After a 
 
 I long morning of mental application this was poor refresh- 
 
 1 ment ; the long afternoon which followed, again spent in 
 
 , rigorous study, could not but reduce a growing frame to 
 
 [ ravenous hunger. Tea and buttered bread were the means 
 
 I of appeasing it, until another four hours' work called for 
 
 I reward in the shape of bread and cheese. Even yet the 
 
 day's toil was not ended. Godwin sometimes read long 
 
 after midnight, with the result that, when at length he 
 
 tried to sleep, exhaustion of mind and body kept him for 
 
 a long time feverishly wakeful. 
 
 These hardships he concealed from tlie people at Twy- 
 bridge. Complaint, it seemed to him, would be ungrateful, 
 for sacrifices were already made on his behalf. His father, 
 as he well remembered, was wont to relate, with a kind of 
 I angry satisfaction, the miseries through which he had 
 fought his way to education and the income-tax. (Jld 
 enough now to reflect with compassionate understanding 
 upon that life of conflict, Godwin resolved that he too 
 would bear the burdens inseparable from poverty, and in 
 some moods was even glad to suffer as his father had done. 
 Fortunately he had a sound basis of health, and hunger 
 and vigils would not easily affect his constitution. If, thus 
 hampered, he could outstrip competitors who had every 
 advantage of circumstance, the more glorious his triumj)h. 
 Sunday was an interval of leisure, liejoicing in de- 
 liverance from Sabbatarianism, he generally spent the 
 morning in a long walk, and the rest of the day was 
 i devoted to non-collegiate reading. He had subscribed to 
 a circulating library, and thus obtained new ])ul)licatiuns 
 recommended to him in the literary paper whicli again 
 
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50 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 taxed his stoniacli. ]\Icre class-work did not satisfy him. 
 He was possessed with tliroes of spiritual desire, impelling 
 him towards tliat world of unfettered speculation which 
 he had long indistinctly imagined. It was a great thing 
 to learn wliat the past could teach, to set himself on the 
 common level of intellectual men ; but he understood that 
 college learning could not be an end in itself, that the 
 Professors to wliom he listened either did not speak out 
 all that was in their minds, or, if they did, were far from 
 representing the advanced guard of modern thought. 
 AYith eagerness he at length betook himself to the teachers 
 of philosophy and of geology. Having paid for these 
 lectures out of his own pocket, he felt as if he had won 
 a privilege beyond tlie conventional course of study, an 
 initiation to a higher sphere of intellect. The result was 
 disillusion. Not even in these class-rooms could he heai 
 the word for which he waited, the bold annunciation of 
 newly discovered law, the science which had completely 
 broken with tradition. He came away unsatisfied, and 
 brooded upon the possibilities wliich would open for him 
 when he was no longer dependent. 
 
 His evening work at home was subject to a disturbance 
 which would have led him to seek other lodgings, could he 
 have hoped to find any so cheap as these. The landlady's 
 son, a lank youth of the clerk species, was wont to amuse 
 himself from eight to ten with practice on a piano. B)" 
 dint of perseverance he had learned to strum two or three 
 hymnal melodies popularised by American evangelists 
 occasionally he even added the charm of his voice, which, 
 had a pietistic nasality not easily endured by an ear of an} 
 refinement. Not only was Godwin harassed by the recur- 
 rence of these performances ; the tunes worked themselvc!^ 
 into his brain, and sometimes throughout a whole da} 
 their burden clanged and squalled incessantly on hij, 
 mental hearing. He longed to entreat forbearance from 
 the musician, but an excess of delicacy — which always 
 ruled his behaviour — kept him silent. Certain passages 
 in the classics, and many an elaborate mathematica' 
 formula, long retained for him an association with the, 
 cadences of revivali.^t hymnoJy. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 51 
 
 iLike all proud natures coiidenincMl to solitude, he tried 
 to convince hiniselt" that he had no need of society, that 
 I he despised its attractions, and could be selt-su^icin<^^ So 
 I far was this from the truth that he often rei^Mrded witli 
 ' bitter envy those of his fellow-students who had the social 
 air, who conversed freely among their equals, and showed 
 'that the pursuits of the College were only a i)art of their 
 existence. These young men were either preparing for 
 ithe University, or would pass from Whitelaw to business, 
 : i)rofession, otlicial training ; in any case, a track was 
 I marked out for them by the zealous care of relatives and 
 ' friends, and their efforts would always be aided, applauded, 
 iby a kindly circle. - ,^onie of them Godwin could not but 
 'admire, so healthful were they, so bright of intellect, and 
 i courteous in manner, — a type distinct from any he had 
 I formerly observed. Others were antipathetic to him.| 
 I Their aggressive gentility conflicted with the wariness of 
 his self-esteem ; such a one, for instance, as Bruno Chilvers, 
 the sound of whose mincing voice, as he read in the class, 
 so irritated him that at times he had to cover his ears. 
 Yet, did it chance that one of these offensive youths ad- 
 dressed a civil word to him, on the instant his prejudice 
 was disarmed, and his emotions flowed forth in a response 
 I to which he would gladly have given free expression. 
 I When he was invited to meet the relatives of Buckland 
 ' Warricombe, sliyness prepossessed him against them ; but 
 'the frank kindness of his rece[>tion moved him, and on 
 i going away he was ashamed to have replied so boorishly 
 I to attentions so amiably meant. The same note of char- 
 iacter sounded in what personal intercourse he had with 
 ' tlicJ?rofes.sors, Though his spirit of criticism was at times 
 ' busy with these gentlemen, he had for most of them a 
 1 profound regard ; and to be elected by one or other for a 
 I word of commendation, a little private assistance, a well- 
 I phrased inquiry as to his progress, always made his heart 
 i beat high with gratitude. They were his first exemplars 
 j o f fin ished courtesy, of delicate culture ; and he could 
 never sulTiciently regret that no one of 'them was aware 
 I how thaid^fully lie recognised his debt. 
 I In longing for the intimacy of rufineil i)e()pli', he l)(.'gan 
 
52 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 1 
 
 to modify his sentiments witli regard to the female sex. 
 His first prize-day at Whitelaw was the first occasion on 
 which he sat in an assembly where ladies (as he under- 
 stood the title) could be seen and heard. The impression 
 he received was deep and lasting. On the seat behind 
 him were two girls whose intermittent talk held him with 
 ; irresistible charm throughout the whole ceremony. He 
 j had not imagined that girls could display such intelligence, 
 I and the sweet clearness of their intonation, the purity of 
 their accent, the grace of their habitual phrases, were 
 1 things altogether beyond his experience. This w^as not 
 \the English he had been wont to hear on female lips. 
 Mis mother and his aunt spoke with propriety ; their 
 associates were soft-tongued ; but here was something 
 quite different from inoffensiveness of tone and diction. 
 Godwin appreciated the differentiating cause. These 
 young ladies behind him had been trained from the cradle, 
 to speak for the delight of fastidious ears ; that they should 
 be grammatical was not enough — they must excel in the 
 art of conversational music. Of course there existed a 
 world where only such speech was interchanged, and how 
 inestimably happy those men to whom the sphere was 
 native ! 
 
 AYhen the proceedings w^re over, he drew aside and 
 watched the two girls as they mingled with acquaintances; 
 he kept them in view until they left the College. An 
 emotion such as this he had never known ; for the first 
 time in his life he was humiliated without embitterment. 
 
 The bitterness came when he had returned to his home ■■ 
 in the back street of Twybridge, and was endeavouring to 
 spend the holidays in a hard ' grind.' He loathed the ; 
 penurious simplicity to which his life was condemned ; all \ 
 familiar circumstances were become petty, coarse, vulgar, i 
 in his eyes; the contrast with the idealised world of hiS' 
 ambition plunged him into despair. Even Mr. Gunnery; 
 seemed an ignoble figure when compared with the Pro-; 
 fessors of Whitelaw, and his authority in the sciences was, 
 now subjected to doubt. However much or little might' 
 result from the three years at college, it was clear to' 
 Godwin that his former existence had passed into infinite 
 
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 BORX IX EXILE 53 
 
 remotenesss ; lie was no longer fit for Twyl nidge, no longer 
 a coni])anion for his kindred. Oliver, whose dulness as a 
 schoolboy gave no promise of future uchievenients, was 
 now learning the business of a seedsman ; his brother 
 felt ashamed when he saw him at work in the sho]>, and 
 had small patience with the comrades to whom (Jlivur 
 dedicated his leisure. Charlotte was estranged by re- 
 ligious differences. Only for his mother did the young 
 man show increased consideration. To his aunt he en- 
 deavoured to be grateful, but his behaviour in her presence 
 was elaT)orate hypocrisy. Hating the necessity for this, lie 
 laid the blame on fortune, which had decreed his biitli in 
 a social sphere where he must ever be an alien. 
 
Ill 
 
 With the growth of his \inilitant egoism, there hai 
 developed in Godwin Peak an excess of nervous sensibilit} 
 which threatened to deprive his character of the initiative 
 rightly belonging to it. Self-assertion is the practica 
 complement of self-esteem. To be largely endowed witl 
 the latter quality, yet constrained by a coward delicacy t( 
 repress it, is to suffer martyrdom at the pleasure of ever 
 roljust assailant, and in the end be driven to the refuge o 
 a moody solitude. That encounter with his objectionabl 
 uncle alter the prize distribution at AVhitelaw showed ho\ 
 much Godwin had lost of the natural vigour which declare 
 itself at Andrew Peak's second visit to Twybridge, whe: 
 the boy certainly would not have endured his uncle' 
 presence but for hospitable considerations and the respec 
 due to his mother. The decision with which he then un 
 bosomed himself to Oliver, still characterised his thought 
 but lie had not courage to elude the dialogue forced upo 
 him, still less to make known his resentment of the man 
 offensive vulgarity. He endured in silence, his heart afii 
 with scornful wrath. 
 
 The affliction could not have befallen him at a tim 
 when he was less capable of supporting it resignedl; 
 Notwithstanding his noteworthy success in two classes, 
 seemed to him that he liad lost everything — that the da 
 was one of signal and disgraceful defeat. In any case thi 
 sequence of second prizes must have filled him wit 
 chagrin, but to be beaten thus repeatedly by such a fello 
 as J>runo Chilvers was humiliation intolerable. A foplin' 
 a mincer of effeminate English, a rote-repeater of academ 
 
 54 
 
BORN IX KXII.I-: 55 
 
 catcli-wonls — l)ali ! The ]>y-(^x;iiniiiati<ni,s of the year ha«l 
 whispered presage, but Peak always felt that he was not 
 putting forth his strength ; when tlie serious trial came he 
 woulil sliow wliat was really in him. Too late he recog- 
 nised liis error, though lie tried n(jt to admit it. Tlie extra 
 subjects had exacted too nuich of him; there was a limit 
 to his powers. AVithin the College this would be widl 
 enougli understood, but to explain a disagreeable fact is 
 not to change it; his name was written in pitiful sub- 
 ordination. And as for tlie public assembly — he would 
 have sacrificed some years of his life to liave stepped 
 forward in facile supremacy, beueatli the eyes of th(jse 
 I clustered ladies. Instead of that, they had looked upon 
 I his shame ; they had interchanged glances of amusement at 
 I each repetition of his defeat ; had murmured comments in 
 I their melodious speech ; had ended by losing all interest in 
 him — as intuition apprised him was the wont of women. 
 
 As soon as lie had escaped from his uncle, he relai)sed 
 
 into musing upon the position to which he was condemned 
 
 when the new session came round. Again Chilvers would 
 
 be in the same classes with him, and, as likely as not, with 
 
 the same result. In the meantime, they were both 'going 
 
 in ' f(n' the First B. A. ; he had no fear of failure, but it 
 
 might easily happen that Chilvers would achieve higher 
 
 I distinction. With an eye to awards that might be won — 
 
 I substantial cash-annuities — he was reading for Honours ; 
 
 but it seemed doubtful whether he could present himself, 
 
 I as the second examination was held only in London. 
 
 I Chilvers would of course be an Honours candidate. He 
 
 ( would smile — confound him ! — at an objection on the score 
 
 I of the necessary journey to London. Better to refrain 
 
 altogether than again to see Chilvers come out ahead. 
 
 General surprise would naturally be exciteil, ([uestions 
 
 asked on all hands. How would it sound: 'I simply 
 
 couldn't aftbrd to go u]) ' ? 
 
 At this point of tlie meditation he had reached his 
 lodgings; he admitted himself with a latch-key, turned 
 into his murky sitting-room, and sat down. 
 
 The table was laid tor tea, as usual. Though he might 
 have gone to Twybridge this evening, he had preferred to 
 
56 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 stxay overnight, for an odd reason. At a theatre in Khigs- 
 niill a London company, headed by an actress of some 
 distinction, was to perform ' Romeo and Juliet,' and he 
 purposed granting himself this indulgence before leaving 
 tlie town. The plan was made when his eye fell upon the 
 advertisement, a few days ago. He then believed it probable 
 that an evening at the theatre would appropriately follow 
 upon a day of victory. His interest in the performance 
 had collapsed, but he did not care to alter his arrangements. 
 
 The landlady came in bearing the tea-pot. He wanted 
 nothing, yet could not exert himself to say so. 
 
 But he was losing sight of a menace more formidable 
 than defeat by Chilvers. What was it his blackguard 
 uncle had said ? Had the fellow really threatened to 
 start an eating-house opposite the College, and flare his 
 name upon a placard ? ' Peak's Dining and Eefreshment 
 Eooms ' — merciful heavens ! 
 
 Again the mood of laughter came upon him. Why, 
 here was a solution of all difficulties, as simple as unantici- 
 pated. If indeed that awful thing came to pass, farewell 
 to Whitelaw ! What possibility of pursuing his studies 
 when every class-companion, every Professor, — nay, the 
 very porters, — had become aware that he was nephew to 
 the man who supplied meals over the way ? Moral philo- 
 sophy had no prophylactic against an ordeal such as tins, 
 Could the most insignificant lad attending lectures afford 
 to disregard such an occasion of ridicule and contempt ? 
 
 But the scheme would not be realised ; it sounded toe 
 unlikely. Andrew Peak was merely a loose-minded vaga- 
 bond, who might talk of this and that project for making 
 money, but would certainly never quit his dirty haunts in 
 London. Godwin asked himself angrily why he had sub- 
 mitted to the fellow's companionship. This absurd delicac}' 
 must be corrected before it became his tyrant. The ide? 
 of scrupling to hurt the sensibilities of Andrew Peak 
 The man was coarse-hided enough to undergo kicking, anc 
 then take sixpence in compensation, — not a doubt of it 
 This detestable tie of kindred must no longer be recog- 
 nised. He would speak gravely to his mother about it. I' 
 Andrew again presented himself at the house he shoulCj 
 
BORN IN EXILE 57 
 
 be given plainly to nnderstand tliat his visits were sonie- 
 
 tliing less than welcome, — if necessary, a downiif^ht blnnt 
 
 word must eflect their liberation. Godwin felt stronj^ 
 
 enou«,di for that, musing here alone. And, student-like, he 
 
 passed on to debate tlie theory of the proldem. Andrew 
 
 1 was his father's brother, but what is a mere tie of blood if 
 
 ! nature has alienated two persons by a subtler distinction ? 
 
 I By the dead man, Andrew had never been loved or 
 
 I esteemed; memory supplied proof of this. The widow 
 
 '; shrank from him. No obligation of any kind lay upon 
 
 : them to tolerate the London rnffian. — Enough ; he should 
 
 be got rid of ! 
 
 Alternating his causes of misery, which — he could not 
 quite forget: — might blend for the sudden transformation 
 of his life, Godwin let the tea grow cold upon the table, 
 until it was time, if he still meant to visit the theatre, for 
 setting forth. He had no mind to go, but as little to sit 
 here and indulge harassing reflection. With an effort, he 
 made ready and left the house. 
 
 Tlie cost of his seat at the theatre was two shillings. 
 So nicely had he adjusted the expenses of these last days 
 that, after paying the landlady's bill to-morrow morning, 
 there would remain to him but a few pence more than the 
 money needed for his journey home. Walking into the 
 town, he debated wdth himself whether it were not better 
 to save this florin. But as he approached the pit door, 
 the spirit of pleasure revived in him ; he had seen but one 
 of Shakespeare's plays, and he believed (naturally at his 
 age) that to see a drama acted was necessary for its full 
 appreciation. Sidling with affected indifference, he added 
 himself to the crowd. 
 
 To stand thus, expectant of the opening doors, troubled 
 him with a sense of shame. To be sure, he was in the 
 spiritual company of Charles Lamb, and of many another 
 man of brains who has waited under the lamp. But contact 
 with the pittites of Kingsmill offended his instincts; he 
 resented tliis appearance r)f inferiority to people who came 
 at tlieir leisure, and took seats in the better parts of the 
 house. When a neighbour addressed him with a meaning- 
 less joke which defied grammar, he tried to grin a friendly 
 
58 BORX IX EXILE 
 
 answer, but inwardly shrank. The events of the day had 
 increased his sensibility to such impressions. Had he 
 triumplied over Bruno Chilvers, he could have l)ehaved 
 this evenhig with a larger Imnianity. 
 
 The fight for entrance — honest British stupidity, crush- 
 ing ribs and rending garments in preference to seemly 
 order of progress — enlivened him somewhat, and sent him 
 laughing to his conquered place ; but before the curtain 
 rose he was again depressed by the sight of a familiar 
 figure in the stalls, a fellow-student wlio sat there with 
 mother and sister, black-uniformed, looking very much a 
 gentleman. ' I, of course, am not a gentleman,' he said to 
 himself, gloomily. Was there any chance that he might 
 some day take his ease in that orthodox fashion ? Inas- 
 much as it was conventionality, he scorned it ; but the 
 privileges which it represented had strong control of his 
 imagination. That lady and her daughter would follow 
 the play with intelligence. To exchange comments with 
 them would be a keen delight. As for him — he had a 
 shop-boy on one liand and a grocer's wife on the other. 
 
 By the end he had fallen into fatigue. Amid clamour 
 of easily-won applause he made his way into the street, 
 to find himself in a heavy downpour of rain. Having no 
 umbrella, he looked about for a sheltered station, and the 
 glare of a neighbouring public-house caught his eye ; he 
 was thirsty, and might as well refresh body and spirit with 
 a glass of beer, an unwonted indulgence which had the 
 pleasant semblance of dissipation. Arrived at the bar he 
 came upon two acquaintances, who, to judge by their, 
 flushed cheeks and excited voices, had been celebrating 
 jovially the close of their academic labours. They hailed 
 him. 
 
 ' Hollo, Peak ! Come and help us to get sober before 
 bedtime ! ' 
 
 They were not exactly studious youths, but neither die 
 they belong to the class that Godwin despised, and he hac 
 a comrade-like feeling for them. In a few minutes hif 
 demeanour was wdiolly changed. A glass of hot whisk} 
 acted promptly upon his nervous system, enabled him t(' 
 forget vexations, and attuned him to kindred sprightliness 
 
BORN IX EXILE HO 
 
 He entered merrily into the talk of a time of lite which is 
 intiej)endent of morality — talk distinct from tliat of the 
 Idaek^'uard, hut C(|ually so from that of the retlectivc man. 
 His first glass had several successors. Tlie trio ramhled 
 arm in arm from one ]dace of refreshment to anothei", and 
 ])resenlly sat down in Iiearty fellowshi}) to a snjjper of sueli 
 viands as recommend themselves at bihulous midniL,dit. 
 Teak was drawing recklessly upon the few coins that 
 remained to him ; he must leave his landlady's claim 
 undischarged, and send the money from home. Prudence 
 he hanged ! If one cannot taste amusement once in a 
 twelvemonth, why live at all ? 
 
 He reached his lodgings, at something after one o'clock, 
 drenched with rain, gloriously indifferent to that and all 
 other chances of life. Pooh ! his system had been radically 
 wrong. He should have allowed himself recreation once a 
 week or so ; he would have been all the better for it, body 
 and mind. Books and tliat kind of thing are all very 
 well in their way, but one must live ; he had wasted too 
 much of his youth in solitude. mild prccteritos rcfcrat 
 si Jupiter amws ! Next session he would arrange things 
 better. Success in examinations — what trivial fuss when 
 one looked at it from the riglit point of view ! And he 
 had fretted himself into misery, because Chilvers had got 
 more ' marks,' — ha, ha, ha ! 
 
 The morrow's wakingj was lufjubrious enough. Headache 
 and nausea weighed upon him. Worse still, a scrutiny of 
 his pockets showed that he had only the shamefaced change 
 of half-a-crown wherewith to transport himself and his 
 belongings to Twybridge. Now, the railway fare alone was 
 three shillings ; the needful cab demanded eighteenpence. 
 idiot ! 
 
 And he hated the thought of leaving his bill unpaid ; the 
 more so because it was a trifling sum, a week's settlement. 
 To put himself under however brief an obligation to a 
 woman such as the landlady gnawed at his ])ride. Not 
 that only. He had no Ijusiness to make a demand upon his 
 mother for this additional sum. But there was no way 
 of raising the money ; no one of whom he could Ijorrow 
 it ; nothing he could afford to sell — even if courage had 
 
60 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 supported liim through such a trausaction. Triple 
 idiot ! 
 
 Bread turned to bran upon his hot palate ; lie could only 
 swallow cups of coffee. With trembling hands he finished 
 the packing of his box and portmanteau, then braced 
 himself to the dreaded interview. Of course, it involved 
 no difficulty, the words once uttered ; but, when he was 
 left alone again, he paced the room for a few minutes in 
 flush of mortification. It had made his headache worse. 
 
 The mode of his homeward journey he had easily 
 arranged. His baggage having been labelled for Twy- 
 bridge, he himself would book as far as his money allowed, 
 then proceed on foot for the remaining distance. With 
 the elevenpence now in his pocket he could purchase a 
 ticket to a little town called Dent, and by a calculation 
 from the railway tariff he concluded that from Dent to 
 Twybridge was some five-and-t^venty miles. Well and good. 
 At the rate of four miles an hour it w^ould take him from 
 half-past eleven to about six o'clock. He could certainly 
 reach home in time for supper. 
 
 At Dent station, ashamed to ask (like a tramp) the way 
 to so remote a place as Twybridge, he jotted down a list 
 of intervening railway stoppages, and thus was enabled to 
 support the semblance of one who strolls on for his pleasure. 
 A small hand-bag he was obliged to carry, and the clouded 
 sky made his umbrella a requisite. On he trudged steadily, 
 for the most part by muddy ways, now through a pleasant 
 village, now in rural solitude. He had had the precaution, 
 at breakfast time, to store some pieces of bread in his 
 pocket, and after two or three hours this resource was 
 welcome. Happily the air and exercise helped him to get 
 rid of his headache. A burst of sunshine in the afternoon 
 would have made him reasonably cheerful, but for the 
 wretched meditations surviving from yesterday. 
 
 He pondered frequently on his spasmodic debauch, 
 repeating, as well as memory permitted, nil his absurdities 
 of speech and action. Defiant self-justification was now 
 far to seek. On the other hand, he perceived very 
 clearly how easy it w^ould be for him to lapse by degrees 
 of weakened will into a ruinous dissoluteness. Anything 
 
HORN IX KXII.K 01 
 
 of thai kind would mean, of course, tlie al)andonniL'UL ul" 
 his ambitions. All he kad lu ^igli47 Ute woi-kl with was his 
 braiu; and only by incessant strenuousness in its exercise 
 "Eadlie achieved the moderate prominence declared in 
 yesterday's ceremony. By birth, by station, he was of no 
 account; if he chose to sink, no influential voice W(»uld 
 deplore his falling off or remind him of what he owed to 
 himself. Chilvers, now — what a wide-spreading outcry, 
 what calling upon gods and men, would be excited by any 
 defection of that brilliant youth ! Godwin Peak must 
 make his ow'n career, and that he would hardly do save l)y 
 efforts greater than the ordinary man can put foith. The 
 ordinary man ? — Was he in any respect extraordinary ? 
 were his powers notew^orthy ? It was the first time that 
 he had deliberately posed this question to himself, and for 
 answer came a rush of confident blood, pulsing through all 
 the mechanism of his being. 
 
 *~'Tlie train of thought which occu])ied him during this 
 long trudge was to remain fixed in his memory ; in any 
 survey of the years of pupilage this recollection would 
 stand prominently forth, associated, moreover, with one 
 slight incident which at the time seemed a mere inter- 
 ruption of his musing. From a point on the high-road he 
 observed a small quarry, so excavated as to present an 
 interesting section ; though weary, he could not but turn 
 aside to examine these strata. He knew enough of the 
 geology of the county to recognise the rocks and retlect 
 with understanding upon their position ; a fragment in his 
 hand, he sat down to rest for a moment. Then a strange 
 fit of brooding came over him. Escaping from the inlluencer 
 of personality, his imagination wrought back through eras 
 of geologic time, held him in a vision of the infinitely 
 remote, shrivelled into insignificance all but the one fact 
 of inconceivable duration. Often as he had lost himself in 
 such reveries, never yet had he passed so wholly under the 
 dominion of that awe which attends a sudden triumph of 
 the pure intellect. When at length he rose, it was with 
 wide, l)lank eyes, and liml)S partly lunnbed. These needed 
 half-an-hour's walking before he could recover his mood of 
 practical self-search. 
 
62 BOEN IN EXILE 
 
 Until tlie last iiioinent he could not decide whether to 
 let his mother know how he had reached Twybridge. His 
 arrival corresponded pretty well with that of a train by 
 which he might have come. But when the door opened 
 to him, and the familiar faces smiled their welcome, he 
 felt that he must have nothing to do with paltry deceit ; 
 he told of liis walk, ex])laining it by the siuiple fact that 
 this morning he had found himself siiort of money. How 
 that came to pass, no one inquired. Mrs. Peak, shocked 
 at such martyrdom, tended him witli all motherly care ; 
 for once, Godwin felt that it was good to have a home, 
 however simple. 
 
 This amial)le frame of muid was not likely to last 
 beyond the lirst day. Matter of irritation soon enough 
 offered itself, as was invariably the case at Twybridge. 
 It was pleasant enough to be feted as the hero of the 
 family, to pull out a Kingsmill newspaper and exhibit the 
 full report of prize-day at Whitelaw, with his own name, 
 in very small type, demanding the world's attention, and 
 finally to exhibit the volumes in tree-calf which his Iriend 
 the librarian had forwarded to him. But domestic circum- 
 stances soon made assault upon his nerves, and trial of 
 his brief patience. 
 
 First of all, there came an unex})ected disclosure. His 
 sister Charlotte liad affianced herself to a young man of 
 Twybridge, one Mr. Cusse, whose prospects were as slender 
 as his present means. Mrs. Peak spoke of the affair in 
 hushed privacy, with shaking of tlie head and frequent 
 sighs, for to her mind Mr. Cusse had few even personal 
 recommendations. He was a draper's assistant. Charlotte 
 liad made his acquaintance on occasions of church festivity, 
 and urged the fact of his zeal in .Sunday-school tuition as 
 sutHcient rei)]y to all doubts. As he listened, Godwin bit 
 his lips. 
 
 ' Does he come here, then ? ' was his in(iuiry. 
 
 * Once or twice a week. I haven't felt able to say any- 
 thing against it, Godwin. I suppose it will be a very long 
 engagement.' 
 
 Charlotte was just twenty-two, and it seemed probable 
 that she knew her own mind ; in any case, she was of a 
 
BORN IX KXTLK 63 
 
 character whicli would only l)c driven to obstiiiacv l»y 
 adverse criticism. Godwin learnt that liis aunt Kniily 
 (Miss Cadnian) regarded this connection with serious 
 disapproval. Herself a shopkeeper, she might have heen 
 expected to show indulgence to a draper's assistant, hut, so 
 far from this, her view of My. Cusse was severely scornful. 
 Slie had nourished far other hopes for Charlotte, who 
 surely at her age'(i^Iiss Cadman looked from the eminence 
 of five-and-forty) should have been less precipitate. No 
 undue harshness had been exhibited by her relatives, but 
 Charlotte took a stand which sufhciently declared her 
 kindred -with Godwin. She held her head higher than 
 formerly, spoke with habitual decision which bordered on 
 snappishness, and at times displayed the absent-mindedness 
 of one who in silence suffers wrong. 
 
 There passed but a day or two before Godwin was 
 brouglit face to face with Mt. Cusse, who answered too 
 well to the idea Charlotte's brother had formed of him. 
 He had a very smooth and shiny forehead, crowned by 
 sleek chestnut hair ; his chin w\as deferential ; the bend 
 of his body signified a modest hope that he did his duty 
 in the station to which Providence had summoned him. 
 Godwin he sought to flatter with looks of admiring interest ; 
 also, by entering upon a conversation which was meant to 
 prove that he did not altogether lack worldly knowledge, 
 of however little moment that might be in comparison 
 with spiritual concerns. Examining, volume by volume 
 and with painful minuteness, the prizes Godwin had 
 carried off, he remarked fervently, in each instance, ' I 
 can see how very interesting that is 1 So thorough, so 
 thorough !' Even Charlotte was at length annoyed, when 
 Mr. Cusse liad exclaimed upon the 'thoroughness' of Wmi 
 Jouson's works ; she asked an abrupt question about some 
 town affair, and so gave her brother an opportunity of 
 taking the books away. There was no flagrant ollence in 
 the man. lie spoke, with passable_ accent, and manifested 
 a high degite ol amialiility ; but one could not dissociate 
 him from the counter. At the thought that his sister 
 might become Mrs. Cusse, Godwin ground his teeth. Now 
 that he came to reflect on the subject, he found in himself 
 
64 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 a sort of unreasoned supposition that Charlotte would 
 always remain single; it seemed so unlikely that she 
 would be sought by a man of liberal standing, and at the 
 same time so impossible for her to accept any one less 
 than a gentleman. Yet he remembered that to outsiders 
 such fastidiousness must show in a ridiculous light. What 
 claim to gentility had they, the Peaks ? . Was it not all a 
 figment of his own self-conceit ? Even in education 
 Cliarlotte could barely assert a superiority to Mr. Cnsse, 
 for her formal schooling had ended when she was twelve, 
 and she had never cared to read Ijeyond the strait track of 
 clerical inspiration. 
 
 There were other circumstances which helped to depress 
 his estimate of the family dignity. His brother Oliver, 
 now seventeen, was developing into a type of young man 
 as objectionable as it is easily recognised. The slow, com- 
 pliant boy had grown more llesh and muscle than once 
 seemed likely, and his wits had begun to display that kind 
 of vivaciousness which is only compatible with a nature 
 moulded in common clay. He saw much company, and all 
 of low intellectual order ; he had purchased a bicycle, and 
 regarded it as a source of distinction, a means of displaying 
 himself before shopkeepers' daughters ; he believed him- 
 self a modest tenor, and sang verses of sentimental 
 imbecility ; he took in several weekly papers of un- 
 promising title, for the chief purpose of deciphering crypto- 
 grams, in which pursuit he had singular success. Add to 
 these characteristics a penchant for cheap jewellery, and 
 Oliver Peak stands confessed. 
 
 It appeared to Godwin that his brother had leapt in a 
 few months to these heights of yulgar accomplishment ; 
 each separate revelation struck unexpectedly upon his 
 nerves and severely tried his temper. When at length 
 Oliver, waiting for supper, began to dance grotesquely to 
 an air which local talent had somehow caught from the 
 London music-halls, Godwin's self-control gave way. 
 
 ' Is it your ambition,' he asked, with fiery sarcasm, ' to 
 join a troupe of nigger iniiistrels ?' 
 
 Oliver was startled into the military posture of attention. 
 He answered, with some embarrassment : 
 
BOJiN IN KXILH 65 
 
 ' 1 can't say it is.' 
 
 'Yet anyone would suppose so,' went on ( Jodwin, liotly. 
 ♦Though you are employed in a shop, 1 should liave 
 thought you might still aim at behaving like a gentleman.' 
 
 Indisposed to quarrel, and possessed of small skill in 
 verbal fence, (Oliver drew aside witli shadowed l)row. As 
 the l)rothers slill had to share one bedroom, they were 
 presently alone together, and their muteness, as they lay 
 down to sleep, showed the estrangement that had at lengtli 
 come between them. When all had been dark and still 
 for half-an-hour, (lodwin spoke. 
 
 ' Are you awake ? ' 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
 ♦There was something about Uncle Andrew I didn't 
 mention. He talks of opening an eating-house just 
 opposite Whitelaw.' 
 
 'Oh.' 
 
 The tone of this signified nothing more than curiosity. 
 
 ' Vou don't see any reason why he shouldn't ? ' 
 
 Oliver delayed a little before replying. 
 
 ' I sui)pose it wouldn't be very nice for you.' 
 
 ' That's rather a mild way of putting it. It would mean 
 that I should have to leave the College, and give up all 
 my hopes.' 
 
 ' I see,' returned the other, with slow apprehension. 
 
 There followed several minutes of silence. Then 
 Godwin sat up in bed, as had always l)een his wont when 
 he talked with earnestness at night. 
 
 ' If you think I lost my temper without cause at supper- 
 time, just remember that I had that blackguard before my 
 mind, and that it isn't very pleasant to see you taking 
 after that branch of our family.' 
 
 * Do you mean to say I am like uncle ? ' 
 
 ' T mean to say that, if you are not careful, you won't be 
 the kind of man I should like to see you. Do you know 
 what is meant by inherited tendencies? Scientific men 
 are givnig a great deal of attention to such things nowa- 
 days. Children don't always take after their parents ; 
 very often they show a much stronger likeness to a grand- 
 father, or an uncle, or even more distant relatives. Just 
 
 5 
 
60 BORX IX KXILK 
 
 think over this, and make up your mind to resist any 
 danger of that sort. I tell you plainly that the habits you 
 are getting into, and the people you make friends of, are 
 detestable. For heaven's sake, spend more of your time 
 in a rational way, and learn to despise the things that 
 shopkeepers admire. Read ! Force yourself to stick 
 Tiai'd at solid books for two or three hours every day. If 
 you don't, it's all up with you. I am speaking for your 
 own good. Read, read, read ! ' 
 
 Quietness ensued. Then Oliver began to move uneasily 
 . in his bed, and at length his protest became audible. 
 
 ' I can't see what harm I do.' 
 
 ' Xo ! ' burst from his brother's lips, scornfully. * And 
 that's just your danger. Do you suppose / could sing 
 nigger songs, and run about the town with shopboys, and 
 waste hours over idiotic puzzles ? ' 
 
 ' We're not all alike, and it wouldn't do for us to be.' 
 
 ' It would do ^'ery well for us all to have brains and to 
 use them. The life you lead is a brainless life, brainless 
 and vulgar.' 
 
 ' Well, if I liaven't got brains, I can't help it,' replied 
 Oliver, with sullen resignation. 
 
 ' You have enough to teach you to live respectably, if 
 only you look to the right kind of example.' 
 
 There followed a vehement exhortation, now angry, now 
 in strain of natural kindliness. To this Oliver made only 
 a few brief and muttered replies ; when it was all over, he 
 fell asleep. But Godwin was wakeful for hours. 
 
 The next morning he attempted to work for his 
 approaching examination, but with small result. It had 
 begun to be very doubtful to him whether he should 'go 
 up ' at all, and tliis uncertainty involved so great a change 
 in all his prospects that he could not connnand the mental 
 calm necessary for study. After dinner he went out with 
 unsettled purpose. He would gladly have conversed with 
 j\Ir. Gunnery, but the old people were just now on a stay 
 with relatives in Bedfordshire, and their return might be 
 delayed for anotlier week. Perhaps it behoved him to go 
 and see Mr. Moxey, but he was indisposed to visit the 
 works, and if he went to tlic house tliis evening he would 
 
Bor.N IN KXILK OT 
 
 encuiintLT the live d;iiigliLeis, who, like all wuiiu-ji who diil 
 not inspire him with adiniratiun, excited his bashful dislike. 
 At len^L,4h he struck off into the country and indul<4ed rest- 
 less thou,L,dits in places where no one could observe him. 
 
 A result of the family's removal first from London to 
 the farm, and then into T\vyl)rid<^e, was that Godwin had 
 no friends of old standing. At Greenwich, Nicholas Peak 
 formed no intimacies, nor did a single associate remain to 
 him from the years of his growth and struggle ; his wife, 
 until the renewal of intercourse with her sister at 
 Twybridge, had no society whatever beyond her home. A 
 boy reaps advantage from the half parental kindness of 
 men and women who have watched his growth from 
 infancy; in general it affects him as a steadying influence, 
 keeping before his mind the social Ijonds to which his 
 behaviour owes allegiance. The only person whom 
 Godwin regarded with feeling akin to this was ]\Ir. 
 Gunnery, but the geologist found no favour witb Mrs. 
 Teak, and thus he involuntarily helped to widen the gap 
 between the young man and his relatives. Nor had the 
 intimacies of school time supplied Godwin with friend- 
 ships for the years to come ; his Twybridge class-fellows 
 no longer interested him, nor did they care to continue 
 his acipiaintance. One was articled to a solicitor; one 
 was learning the drug-trade in his father's shop ; another 
 liad begun to deal in corn ; the rest were scattered about 
 England, as students or salary-earners. The dominion of- 
 the comnioii^ilacc liad alisorbed them, all and sundry; 
 fliey were the stulf which destiny uses for its every-day 
 purposes, to keep the world a-rolling. 
 
 So that G(jdwin had no ties whicli bound him strongly to 
 any district. He could not call himself a Londoner ; for, 
 though born in Westminster, he had grown to consciousness 
 on the outskirts of Greenwich, and remembered but dimly 
 some of the London streets, and a few ])laces of public 
 interest to which his father had taken him. Yet, as a matter 
 of course, it was to London that his andjition pointed, 
 when he forecast the future. Wliere else could he hope foi- 
 opportunity of notable advancement ? At Twybridge ? 
 Impossible to find more than means of subsistence ; his soul 
 
68 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 loathed such a prospect. At Kingsmill ? There was a 
 slender hope that he might establish a connection with 
 Whitelaw College, if he devoted himself to laboratory 
 work ; but wliat could come of that — at all events for 
 many years ? L(jndon, then ? The only acceptable plan 
 for supporting himself there was to succeed in a Civil 
 Service competition. That, indeed, seemed the most 
 hopeful direction for his efforts ; a government office might 
 afford liim scope, and, he had heard, would allow him 
 abundant leisure. 
 
 Or to go abroad ? To enter for the Indian clerkships, 
 and possibly cleave a wider way than could be hoped in 
 England ? There was allurement in the suggestion ; 
 travel had always tempted his fancy. In that case he 
 would be safely severed from the liumble origin which in 
 his native country might long be an annoyance, or even an 
 obstacle ; no Uncle Andrew could spring up at inconvenient 
 moments in the middle of his path. Yes ; this indeed 
 might be best of all. He must send for papers, and give 
 attention to the matter. 
 
 Musing in this way, he had come within sight of the 
 familiar chemical works. It was near the hour at which 
 Mr. Moxey was about to go home for his afternoon dinner ; 
 why not interrupt his walk, and liave a word with him ? 
 That duty would l»e over. 
 
 He pushed on, and, as he approached the l)uildings, was 
 aware of Mr. INIoxey stepping into the road, unaccom- 
 panied. Greetings speedily followed. The manufacturer, 
 wlio was growing stout in his mellow years and looking 
 more leisurely than when Godwin first knew him, beamed 
 with smiles of approbation. 
 
 ' Glad to see you ; glad to see you ! I have heard of 
 your doings at College.' 
 
 Nothing to l)oast of, Mr. Moxey.' 
 
 * Why, what would satisfy you ? A nephew of mine 
 was there last Friday, and tells me you carried off half a 
 hundredweight of prizes. Here he comes, I see.' 
 
 There drew near a young man of about four-and- twenty, 
 well-dressed, sauntering with a cane in his hand. His 
 name was Christian Moxey. 
 
BOKX IX KXILK GU 
 
 'Much pleasure in meeting you, Mr. Teak,' he sai«l, with 
 a winning smile. ' I was at Whitelaw tlie other day, 
 when you distinguislied yourself, and if I had known then 
 that you were an acquaintance of my uncle's I should 
 have been tempted to otier a word of congratulation. \'ery 
 glad indeed to meet you.' 
 
 (lodwin, grateful as always for the show of kindness and 
 iiattered l)y such a reception, at once felt a liking fui 
 Christian Moxey. ]\Iost people would have admitted the 
 young man's attractiveness. He had a thin and sallow 
 face, and seemed to be of weak constitution. In talk- 
 ing he leant upon his cane, and his movements weie 
 languid ; none the less, his person was distinguished by an 
 air of graceful manhood. His features, separately con- 
 sidered, were ordinary enough ; together they made a 
 countenance of peculiar charm, vividly illumined, full of 
 appeal to whosoever could appreciate emotional capa- 
 bilities. The interest he excited in l*eak a])peared to 
 be reciprocal, for his eyes dwelt as often and as long 
 as possible on Godwin's features. 
 
 ' Come along, and have something to eat with us,' said 
 Mr. Moxey, in a tone of genial invitation. ' I daresay you 
 had dinner long enough ago to have picked up a new 
 appetite.' 
 
 Godwin had a perturbing vision of the five Miss Moxeys 
 and of a dinner table, such as he was not used to sit at; 
 he wished to decline, yet knew not how U) do so with 
 civility. 
 
 •Yes, yes; come along!' added his friend, heartily. 
 ' Tell us something about your chemistry paper. Any 
 posers this time ? ]\Iy nephew won't l)e out of it ; he 
 belongs to the firm of Bates lirothers — the Itotherhithe 
 people, you know.' 
 
 This information was a surprise to (Jodwin. He had 
 imagined Christian Moxey either a gentleman at large, or 
 at all events connected with some liberal ])rofession. 
 Glancing at the attractive face, he met a singular look, a 
 smile wliicli sufruested va^nie doul>ts. But Christian made 
 no remark, and IMr. ]\Ioxey renewed his in<|Uiries about 
 the examination in cliemistrv. 
 
70 BOKN IN EXILK 
 
 The five (liiughters — all asseinbled in a homely sitting- 
 room — were nothing less than formidable. Plain, soft- 
 spoken, not ill educated, they seemed to live in perfect 
 harmony, and to derive satisfaction from pursuits inde- 
 ])endent of external society. In the town they were seldom 
 seen ; few families called upon them ; and only the most 
 inveterate gossips found matter for small-talk in their 
 retired lives. It had never been heard that any one of 
 them was sought in marriage. Godwin, superfluously 
 troubled about his attire, met them with grim endeavour 
 at politeness ; their gravity, a result of shyness, he nus- 
 interpreted, supposing them to hold aloof from a young 
 man who had been in their father's employ. But before 
 he could suffer much from the necessity of ibrmal conver- 
 sation the door opened to admit yet another young lady, 
 a perfect stranger to him. Her age was about seventeen, 
 l)ut she had nothing of the sprightly grace proverbially 
 connected with that time of life in girls ; her pale and 
 freckled visage expressed a haughty reserve, intensified as 
 soon as her eye fell upon the visitor. She had a slight 
 but well-proportioned figure, and a mass of auburn hair 
 carelessly arranged. 
 
 ' My sister,' said Christian, glancing at Godwin. 
 ' Marcella, you recognise Mr. Peak.' 
 
 ' 01) yes,' the girl replied, as she came forward, and made 
 a sudden offer of her hand. 
 
 She too had been present the other day at AVhitelaw. 
 Her ' Oh yes ' sounded offensive to Godwin, yet in shaking, 
 hands with her he felt a warm pressure, and it flattered 
 him when he became aware that Marcella regarded him 
 from time to time with furtive intei'est. Presently he 
 learnt that Christian and his sister were on a short 
 visit at the house of their relatives ; their home was in 
 London. Marcella had seated herself stiffly by a window, 
 and seemed to pay more attention to the view without than 
 to the talk which went on, until dinner was announced. 
 
 Speculating on all he saw, Godwin noticed that Christian 
 Moxey showed a marked preference for the youngest of 
 his cousins, a girl of eighteen, whose plain features w^ere 
 frecpiently brightened with a happy and very pleasant 
 
BOKN IX KXILK 71 
 
 smile. AVlieii hv adiln'ssrd licr (hy the naiiiu of .laiirt) 
 his voice had a jdayful kiiidiiL'Ss which must have been 
 significant to everyone mIio heard it. At dinner, his place 
 was by her side, and he attended to her with more than 
 courtesy. This astonished Peak. He deemed it inciedil)le 
 that any man should conceive a tender feeling for a girl so 
 far from beautiful. Constantly occupied with tliou^lit of 
 sexual attachments, he had never imagined anythini; of 
 the kind apart from loveliness of feature in the chosen 
 object ; his instincts were, in tact, revolted by the idea of 
 love for such a person as Janet ^loxey. Christian seemed 
 to be degraded by such a suggestion. In his endeavour to 
 solve the mystery, (Jodwin grew half unconscious of the 
 otlier peoitle about him. 
 
 Such play of the imnginative and speculative faculties 
 accounts for the common awkwardness of intelligent young 
 men in society that is strange to them. Only the culti- 
 vation of a double consciousness puts them finally at 
 ease. Impossil;)le to converse with suavity, and to heed 
 the forms of ordinary good-breeding, when the l)rain is 
 absorbed in all manner of new problems : one must learn to 
 act a part, to control the facial mechanisni, to observe and 
 anticipate, even whilst the intellect is spending its sincere 
 energv on subjects unavowed. The perfectly graceful man 
 will always be he who has no strong apprehension either 
 of his own personality or of that of others, wlio lives on the 
 surface of things, wlio can l»e interested without emotion, 
 and surpri.sed without contemplative impulse. Never yet 
 had Godwin Peak uttered a word that was worth listening 
 to, or made a remark that declared his mental powers, save 
 in most familiar colloquy. He Avas beginning to uiuler- 
 stand the various reasons of his seeming clownishness, but 
 this very process of self-study opposed an obstacle to 
 improvement. 
 
 When he found himself ol)liged to take part in conver- 
 sation about Whitelaw College, Godwin was disturbed by 
 an uncertainty which had never left his mind at rest 
 during the past two years; — was it, or was it not, generally 
 known to his Twybridge ac(iuaintan('es that he studied 
 as the i)ensioner of Sir rlob Whitelaw? To outward 
 
72 BORX IN EXILE 
 
 seeming all delicacy had been exercised in the bestowal of 
 Sir Job's benefaction. At the beginning of each academic 
 session ]\Irs. Peak had privately received a cheque which 
 represented the exact outlay in fees for the course her son 
 was pursuing ; payment was then made to the registrar 
 as if from Peak himself. Put Lady AYhitelaw's sisters were 
 in the secret, and was it likely that they maintained 
 absolute discretion in talking with their Twybridge friends ? 
 There seemed, in the first instance, to be a tacit under- 
 standing that the whole affair should remain strictly private, 
 and to GJodwin himself, sensible enough of such refinements, 
 it was by no means inconceivable that silence had been 
 strictly preserved. He found no difticulty in imagining 
 that Sir Job's right hand knew nothing of wdiat the 
 left performed, and it might be that the authorities of 
 Whitelaw had no hint of his peculiar position. Still, he 
 was perchance mistaken. The Professors perhaps regarded 
 him as a sort of cliarity-boy, and Twyljridge possibly saw 
 him in tlie same light. The doubt Hashed upon his mind 
 wdiile he was trying to eat and converse with becoming 
 self-possession. He dug his heel into the carpet and 
 silently cursed the burden of his servitude. 
 
 When the meal was over, Mr. Moxey led the way out 
 into the garden. Christian walked apart with Janet; 
 Godwin strolled about between his host and the eldest 
 Miss Moxey, talking of he knew not what. In a short 
 half-hour he screwed up his courage to the point of 
 leave-taking. Marcella and three of her cousins had 
 disappeared, so that the awkwardness of departure was 
 reduced. Christian, who seemed to be in a very con- 
 tented mood, accompanied the guest as far as the garden 
 gate. 
 
 ' What will be your special line of work when you leave 
 Whitelaw ?' he inquired. ' Your tastes seem about equally 
 di\ided l^etween science and literature.' 
 
 ' I haven't the least idea what I shall do,' was Peak's 
 reply. 
 
 * Yerj much my own state of mind when I came home 
 from Zurich a year ago. But it had been taken for 
 granted tliat T was preparing for business, so into Inisiness 
 
150KX IN KXII.K 7.*'» 
 
 1 went.' lie lauL^heil goocl-liuiiKtuiudly. ' iVihajts you 
 will Ite drawn to Londcjn { ' 
 
 * Ves — I think it likely,' CJodwin answered, with an 
 aiisent gkance this way and that. 
 
 'In any case,' pursued the other, 'you'll he there 
 presently for First RA. Honours. Try to look in at my 
 rooms, will you ? 1 should be delighted to see y«»u. M(jst 
 of my day is spent in the romantic locality of Kotherhithe, 
 hut I get home ahout live o'clock, as a ride. Let me give 
 you a card.' 
 
 ' Thank you.' 
 
 ' 1 daresay we shall meet somewhere al)0ut here Itefore 
 then. Of course you are reading hard, and haven't much 
 leisure. I'm an idle dog, unfortunately. I should like to 
 work, but 1 don't quite know what at. 1 suppose this is 
 a transition time with me.' 
 
 Godwin tried to, discover the implication of this 
 remark. Had it any reference to Miss Janet Moxey ? 
 Whilst he stood in embarrassed silence. Christian looked 
 about with a peculiar smile, and seemed on the point of 
 indulging in further self-revelation; but Godwin of a 
 sudden held out his hand for good-bye, and with friendly 
 smiles tliey parted. 
 
 Peak was older than his years, and he saw in Christian 
 one who might prove a very congenial associate, did but 
 circumstances favour their intercourse. That was not 
 very likely to happen, but the meeting at all events 
 turned his thoughts to London once more. 
 
 His attempts to 'read' were still unfruitful. Lor one 
 thing, the stress and excitement of the Whitelaw <*xamina- 
 tions had wearied him ; it was characteristic of the 
 educational system in which he had become involved 
 that studious eilbrt should be called for immediately after 
 that frenzy of college competition. He ought now to 
 have been ' sweating ' at his London subjects. Instead of 
 that, he procured works of general literature from a 
 Twybridge library, and shut himself up with them in the 
 garret bedroom. 
 
 A letter from ]\[r. Gunnery informed him lliat the 
 writer would be home in a day or two. This return took 
 
74 Burn in exilk 
 
 place late one evening, and on the morrow Godwin set 
 forth to visit his friend. On reaching the house, he learnt 
 that Mr. Gunnery had suffered an accident whicli 
 tlireatened serious results. Walking Ijarefoot in his bed- 
 room the night before, lie had stepped upon the point of 
 a large nail, and was now prostrate, enduring much pain. 
 Two days elapsed before Godwin could be admitted; he 
 then found the old man a mere sliadow of his familiar 
 self — bloodless, hollow-eyed. 
 
 ' This is the kind of practical joke that Fate likes to 
 play upon us ! ' the sufferer growled in a harsh, quaking 
 voice, his countenance divided between genial welcome 
 and surly wrath. ' It'll be the end of me. Pooh ! who 
 doesn't know that such a thing is fatal at my age ? 
 Blood-poisoning has fairly begun. I'd a good deal rather 
 have broken my neck anlong honest lumps of old red 
 sandstone. A nail ! A damned Brummagem nail ! — 
 So you collared the first prize in geology, eh ? T take 
 that as a kindness, Godwin. You've got a bit beyond 
 Figuier and his Deluge, eh ? His Deluge, bah ! ' 
 
 And he laughed discordantly. On the other side of the 
 bed sat Mrs. Gunnery, grizzled and feeble dame. Shaken 
 into the last stage of senility by this alarm, she wiped 
 tears from her flaccid cheeks, and moaned a few unin- 
 telligible words. 
 
 The geologist's forecast of doom was speedily justified. 
 Another day bereft him of consciousness, and when, for a 
 short while, he had rambled among memories of his youth, 
 tlie end came. It was found that he had made a will, 
 Ijequeathing his collections and scientific instruments to 
 Godwin Peak ; his books were to be sold for the benefit 
 of the widow, who would enjoy an annuity purchased 
 out of her husband's savings. The poor old woman, as 
 it proved, had little need of income; on the thirteenth 
 day after Mr. Gunnery's funeral, she too was borne forth 
 from tlie house, and the faithful couple slept together. 
 
 To inherit from the dead was an impressive experience 
 to Godwin. At the present stage of his development, 
 every circumstance affecting him started his mind upon 
 the quest of reasons, symbolisms, principles; the 'natural^ 
 
BOliX IN KX1J,K 75 
 
 siiiJiUiuiluiur hud liuld upon him, and iuRmI liis lh«)U<,'lit 
 
 whenever it was free from tlie spur of armi^'ant instinct. 
 
 This tendency had been streni:lhened l)y tlie inihience nf 
 
 his friend Earwaker, a young man of singuhirly comjth'X 
 
 i personality, positive and analytic in a far higher degree 
 
 ! than Peak, yet with a vein of imaginative vigour 
 
 which seemed to befit quite a difl'erent order of mind. 
 
 (|od\vin was not distinguished by originality in thinking, 
 
 but his strongly featured character converted to uses of 
 
 his own the intellectual suggestions he so rapidly caught 
 
 , from others. Karwaker's habit of reflection had nuich to 
 
 i do with the strange feelings awakened in Godwin when 
 
 I he transferred to his mother's house the cabinets which 
 
 I liad been Mr. Gunnery's pride for thirty or forty yeais. 
 
 Joy of possession was subdued in him by the conflict nf 
 
 metaphysical cpiestionings. 
 
 Days went on, and nothing was heard of Uncle .Vndrew. 
 Godwin tried to assure himself that he had been need- 
 lessly terrified ; the eating-house project would never be 
 carried out. Practically dismissing that anxiety, he 
 ! brooded over his defeat by Chilvers, and thought with 
 ; extreme reluctance of the year still to be spent at 
 I Whitelaw^ probably a year of humiliation. In the mean- 
 1 time, should he or should he not present himself for his 
 j First B.A. ? The five pound fee would be a most serious 
 j demand upon his mother's resources, and did the profit 
 I warrant it, was it really of importance to him to take 
 a degree ? 
 
 He lived as much as possible alone, generally avoiding 
 
 the society of his relatives, save at meal times. A 
 
 careless remark (not intentionally offensive) with 
 
 reference to Mr. Cusse had so affronted Charlotte that 
 
 she never spoke to him save in reply to a ([uestion. 
 
 Godwin regretted the pain he had given, but could not 
 
 bring himself to express this feeling, for a discussion 
 
 I would inevitably have disclosed all his mind concerning 
 
 I the draper's assistant. Oliver seemed to have forgiven 
 
 I his brother's reproaches, but no longer ]>ehaved with 
 
 I freedom when (Jodwin was present. For all this, the 
 
 1 elder's irritation was often aroused by things he saw and 
 
76 BOKX IN EXILE 
 
 heard; and at length — on a memorable Saturday after- 
 noon — debate revived between them. Oliver, as his 
 custom was, had attired himself sprucely for a visit 
 to acquaintances, and a silk hat of the very newest 
 fashion lay together with liis gloves upon the table. 
 
 ' What is this thing ? ' inquired Godwin, with ominous 
 calm, as he pointed to the piece of head-gear. 
 
 * A hat, I suppose,' replied his brother. 
 
 ' You mean to say you are going to wear that in the 
 street ? ' 
 
 ' And why not ? ' 
 
 Oliver, not venturing to raise his eyes, stared at the 
 table-cloth indignantly. 
 
 ' Can't you feel,' burst from the other, ' that it's a 
 disgrace to buy and wear such a thing ? ' 
 
 ' Disgrace ! what's the matter with the hat ? It's the 
 fashionable sliape.' 
 
 Godwin mastered his wrath, and turned contemptuously 
 away. But Oliver had l)een touched in a sensitive place ; 
 he was eager to defend himself. 
 
 ' 1 can't see what you're finding fault with,' he 
 exclaimed. ' Everybody wears this shape.' 
 
 ' And isn't that quite sufficient reason wliy anyone who 
 respects himself should choose something as different as 
 possible ? Everybody ! That is to say, all the fools in 
 the kingdom. It's bad enough to follow when you can't 
 help it, but to imitate asses gratuitously is the lowest 
 deptli of degradation. Don't you know that that is the 
 meaning of vulgarity ? How you can offer such an 
 excuse passes my comprehension. Have you no self^ 
 Are you made, like this hat, on a pattern with a hundred 
 thousand others ? ' 
 
 ' You and I are different,' said Oliver, impatiently. 
 ' I am content to be like other people.' 
 
 ' And I would poison myself with vermin-killer if 1 
 felt any risk of such contentment ! Like other people ? 
 Heaven forbid and forfend ! Like other people ? Oh, 
 what a noble ambition ! ' 
 
 The loud passionate voice summoned Mrs. Peak from 
 an adjacent room. 
 
lioUN IN KXILK 77 
 
 '(Jodwinl (Jodwiii!' she reiiioiistrated. ' Wliatever is 
 it ? Why shniikl you put yourself out so ? ' 
 
 She was a short and slender wouian, with an air uf 
 Ijentility, independent of lier hadly nwuki and loni^' worn 
 widow's dress. Self-possession niarlved her manner, and 
 the even tones in which she spoke j^^ave indication of a 
 mild, perhaps an unemotional, temperament. 
 
 ( )liver hegan to represent his grievance. 
 
 ' Wliat harm is there, if I choose to wear a liat that's in 
 fashion ^ I pay for it out of my own ' 
 
 i>ut he was interrupted by a loud visitor's knock at tlie 
 front door, distant only a few paces. Mrs. Peak turned 
 with a startled look. Godwin, dreading contact with 
 friends of the family, strode upstairs. When tlie door 
 was opened, there appeared the smiling countenance of 
 Andrew Peak ; he wore the costume of a traveller, and by 
 his side stood a boy of ten, too plainly his son. 
 
 * Well, Grace!' was his familiar greeting, as the widow 
 drew back. ' I told you you'd 'ev the pleasure of seein' 
 me again l)efore so very long. (Jodwin at 'ome with you, 
 I s'ptjse i Thet you, Xoll ? 'Ow do, my l)o-oy ? 'Kre's 
 yer cousin Jow^ey. SI like 'ands, rfowey bo-oy ! Sorry I 
 couldn't bring my old lady over this time, Grace ; she 
 .sends her respects, as usual. 'Ow's Charlotte ? Bloomin*, 
 I 'ope ? ' 
 
 He had made his way into the front parlour, dragging 
 the youngster after him. Having deposited his handl>ag 
 and undjrella on the sofa, he seated himself in the easy- 
 chair, and began to blow his nose with vigour. 
 
 ' Set down, Jowey : set down, bo-oy ! Down't Ite abide 
 of your awnt.' 
 
 ' Oi ain't afride!' cried the youth, in a tone which 
 supported his assertion. 
 
 Mrs. Peak trendded with annoyance and indecision. 
 Andrew evidently meant to stay for some time, and she 
 could not bring herself to treat him with plain dis- 
 courtesy ; but she saw that Oliver, after sliaking hands 
 in a very strained way, had abruptly left the room, and 
 Godwin would be anything but willing to meet his uncle. 
 When the name of her elder son was again mentioned 
 
7«S BOKX IN EXILE 
 
 she withdrew on the pretence of summoning him, and 
 went np to his room. Godwin had heard the liateful 
 voice, and was in profound disturbance. 
 
 * What does he say, mother ? ' he inquired anxiously. 
 ' Anything about Kingsmill ? ' 
 
 'Not yet. Oh, I do so wish we could bring this 
 connection to an end 1 ' 
 
 It was the first time Mrs. Peak had uttered her 
 sentiments so unreservedl3^ 
 
 'Then, shall I see him in private,' said Godwin, 'and 
 simply let him know the truth ? ' 
 
 * I dread the thought of that, Godwin. He would very 
 likely be coarse and violent. I must try to show him by 
 my manner. Oliver has gone out, and when Charlotte 
 comes home I'll tell her to keep out of sight. He has 
 brought his boy. Suppose you don't come down at all ? 
 I might say you are too busy.' 
 
 ' No, no ; you shan't have to do it all alone. I'll come 
 down with you. I must hear what he has to say.' 
 
 They descended. As soon as his nephew appeared, 
 Andrew sprang up, and shouted joyfully : 
 
 ' Well, Godwin, bo-oy ! It's all settled ! Got ^ the 
 bloomin' shop from next quarter dye! "Peak's Dinin' 
 and Eefreshment Ptooms ! " Jowey an' me was over there 
 all yisterday — wasn't us, Jowey ? Oh, it's immense ! ' 
 
 Godwin felt the blood buzz in his ears, and a hot 
 choking clutch at his throat. He took his stand by the 
 mantelpiece, and began to turn a little glass ornament 
 round and round. Pate had spoken. On the instant, all 
 his College life was far behind him, all his uneasiness 
 regarding the next session was dispelled, and he had no 
 more connection with Kingsmill. 
 
 Mrs. Peak had heard from Oliver of her brother-in- 
 law's proposed undertaking. She had spoken of it with 
 anxiety to Godwin, wlio merely shrugged his shoulders 
 and avoided the topic, ashamed to dwell on the particulars 
 of his shame. In hearing Andrew's announcement she 
 had much ado to repress tears of vexation; silently she 
 seated herself, and looked wdth pained countenance from 
 uncle to nephew. 
 
BOKX IN KXILK 70 
 
 ' Sliiill yuii make any chan^^es in tlic placed (loilwin 
 i asked, cart4essly. 
 
 •Shan't I, jest ! It'll take a month to relit them eaiin' 
 
 rooms. I'm agoin' to do it proper — up to Diek! and I 
 
 want your 'elp, my bo-oy. You an' me '11 jest write a ])it 
 
 i of a circular — see ? to send round to the bij,' pots of the 
 
 i Collige, an' all the parents of the young fellers as we can 
 
 1 get the addresses of — see ? ' 
 
 I Even amid his pangs of mortitieation Godwin found 
 
 himself pondering an intellectual (juestion. Was his 
 
 uncle wholly unconscious of the misery he was causing '. 
 
 Had it never occurred to him that the i)ublic proximity 
 
 of an uneducated shopkeeping relative must be unwelcome 
 
 I to a lad who was distinguishing himself at Whitelaw 
 
 \ College ? Were that truly the case, then it would be 
 
 unjust to regard Andrew resentfully ; destiny alone was to 
 
 blame. And, after all, the man might l)e so absorl)ed in 
 
 his own interest, so strictly confined to the views of his 
 
 I own class, as never to have dreamt of the sensibilities he 
 
 wounded. In fact, the shame excited by this prospect 
 
 was artificial. Godwin had already felt that it was 
 
 unworthy alike of a philosopher and of a liigh-minded 
 
 man of the world. The doubt as to Andrew's state of 
 
 mind, and this moral problem, had a restraining effect 
 
 ; upon the young man's temper. A practical person 
 
 I justifies himself in wrath as soon as liis judgment is 
 
 I at one with that of the multitude. CJodwin, thougli his 
 
 I passions were of exceptional force, must needs refine, 
 
 I debate witli hhnself points of abstract justice. 
 
 ; ' I've been tellin' Jowey, Grace, as I 'ope he may tuin 
 
 ;out such another as Godwin 'ere. 'E'll go to Collige, will 
 
 j Jowey. Godwin, jcist arst the bo-oy a question or two, 
 
 j will you ? 'K ain't l)een doin' bad at 'is school. Jest put 
 
 I'im through 'is pyces, as yer may sye. Stend uj), Jowey, 
 
 j bo-oy.' 
 
 I Godwin looked askance at his cousin, who stood with 
 j pert face, ready for any test. 
 
 I 'What's the date of William the Conqueror '. ' he asked, 
 mechanically, 
 j *0w;' shouted tlie youth. ' Down't mike me larll': 
 
80 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Zif I didn't know tliet ! Tensixsixteniglitysivn, of 
 course ! ' 
 
 Tlie father turned round witli an expression of such 
 sincere pride that Clodwin, for all his loathing, was obliged 
 to smile. 
 
 * Jowey, jest sye a few verses of poitry ; them as you 
 learnt larst. 'E's good at poitry, is Jowey.' 
 
 The boy broke into fearsome recitation : 
 
 'The silly buckits on the deck 
 That 'ed so loiif^ rem'iued, 
 I dreamt as they was tilled with jew, 
 End when I awowk, it r'ined.' 
 
 -^ ^ I Half-a-dozen verses were thus massacred, and the 
 ; reciter stopped with the sudden jerk of a machine. 
 
 ' Goes str'ight on, don't 'e, Grace ? ' cried the father, 
 exultantly. 'Jowey ain't no fool. Know what he towld 
 me the other day 1 Somethin' as 1 never knew, and 
 shouldn't never 'ave thought of s'long as I lived. We was 
 talkin' about jewellery, an' Jowey, 'e pops up all at wunst. 
 " It's called jewellery," says 'e, " 'cos it's mostly the Jews as 
 sell it." Now, oo'd a thought o' that ? But you see it's 
 right as soon as you're towld, eh ? Now ain't it right, 
 Godwin ?' 
 
 ' No doubt,' was the dry answer. 
 
 ' It never struck me,' murnnired Mrs. I*eak, who took 
 her son's assent seriously, and felt that it was impossible 
 to preserve an obstinate silence. 
 
 ' 'E ain't no fool, ain't Jowey ! ' cried the parent. * Wite 
 till 'e gits to Collige. Godwin '11 put us up to all the ins 
 and outs. Plenty o' time for that ; 'e'll often run over an' 
 'ev a bit o' dinner, and no need to talk about p'yment.' 
 
 ' Do you stay in Twybridge to-night ? ' inquired Godwin, 
 who had changed in look and manner, so that he appeared 
 all but cheerful. 
 
 *No, we're on our w'y 'ome, is Jowey an' me. Jest 
 thought we'd break the journey 'ere. We shall ketch the 
 six-hfty hup.' 
 
 'Then you will have a cup of tea with us,' said Mrs. 
 Peak, surprised at Godwin's transformation', but seeing 
 that liospitality was now unavoidable. 
 
noijx IX Kxiij-; 81 
 
 Cluulutte prt'seiitly entered the house, and, after a 
 private conversation with her mother, went tn ^reel 
 Andrew. If only to signify her e()nteni])t for (Jodwin's 
 prejudices, Charlotte would have hehaved civilly to the 
 London uncle. In the end, Andrew took his leave in the 
 friendliest possible way, repeating often that lie would 
 soon have the pleasure of entertaining Mrs. Peak and all 
 her family at his new dining-rooms over against Whitelaw 
 Colle-e. 
 
IV 
 
 Immediately upon his uncle's departure, Godwin dis- 
 appeared; Mrs. Peak caught only a glimpse of him as 
 he went by the parlour window. In a short time Oliver 
 came home, and, having learned what had happened, 
 joined his mother and sister in a dull, intermittent con- 
 versation on the subject of Godwin's future dilhculties. 
 
 ' He won't go back to Whitelaw,' declared the lad. ' He 
 said he wouldn't.' 
 
 ' People nmst be above such false shame,' was Charlotte's 
 opinion. 'I can't see that it will make the slightest 
 difference in his position or his prospects.' 
 AVhereupon her mother's patience gave way. 
 ' Don't talk such nonsense, Charlotte ! You under- 
 stand perfectly well how serious it will be. I never knew 
 anything so cruel.' 
 
 ' I was never taught,' persisted the girl, with calm 
 obstinacy, ' that one ought to be ashamed of one's relatives 
 just because they are in a humble position.' 
 
 Oliver brought the tedious discussion to an end by 
 clamouring for supper. The table was laid, and all were 
 about to sit down when Godwin presented himself To the 
 oeneral astonislnnent, he seemed in excellent spirits, and 
 ate more heartily than usual. Not a word was spoken of 
 Uncle Andrew, until Mrs. Peak and her elder son were left 
 alone together ; then Godwin remarked in a tone of 
 satisfied decision : 
 
 ' Of course, this is the end of my work at Whitelaw. 
 We must make new plans, mother.' 
 
 * P>ut how can we, dear ? What will Lady Whitelaw say ? ' 
 
BORN IX KXILK .S:) 
 
 '1 Imvt! In tliiiik it out yet. In a ilay or two 1 sliall 
 very likely write a letter to Liidy Whitelaw. There's no 
 need, you know, to go talking al)0ut this in Twyliridge. 
 Just leave it to nie, will you ( ' 
 
 * It's not a subject 1 eare to talk about, you may l)e 
 sure. But I do hope you won't do anything rash, 
 Godwin.' 
 
 'Not J. To tell you the truth, I'm not at all sorry to 
 leave. It was a mistake that I went in for tlie Arts 
 course — Greek, and Latin, and so on, you know ; I ought 
 to have stuck to science. I shall go back to it now. 
 Don't be afraid. I'll make a position for myself before 
 long. I'll repay all you have spent on me.' 
 »^ To this conclusion had he come. The process of mind 
 was favoured l»y his defeat in all the Arts subjects; in 
 that direction he could sec only the triumphant Chilvers, 
 a figure which disgusted him with (Ireeks, Komans, and 
 all the ways of literature. As to his future efforts he was 
 by no means clear, but it eased him greatly to have cast 
 off a burden of doubt ; his theorising intellect loved the 
 sensation of life thrown open to new, however vague, 
 possibilities. At present he was convinced that Andrew 
 Peak had done him a service. In this there was an 
 mdicAtion of moral cowardice, such as commonly connects 
 itself with intense pride of individuality. He desired to 
 sl)irk_lhe_ combat with Chilvers, and welcomed as an 
 excuse for doing so the shame which another temjier 
 would have stubl»ornly defied. 
 
 Now he would abandon his B.A. examination, — a clear 
 saving of money. Presently it might suit him to take 
 the B.Sc. instead ; time enough to think of that. Had he 
 but pursued the Science course from the first, who at 
 Whitelaw could have come out ahead of him ? He had 
 wasted a couple of years which might Jiave been most 
 profitably applied : by this time he might have been 
 ready to obtain a position as demonstrator in some 
 laboratory, on his way })erhaps to a professorship. How 
 had he thus been led astray ? Not only had his boyish 
 instincts moved strongly towards science, l»ut was not 
 the tendency of the age in the same direction ^ Buckland 
 
84 BOKN IN EXILK 
 
 AVarricombc, who habitually declaimed against classical 
 study, was perfectly right; the world had learned all it 
 could from those hoary teachers, and must now turn to 
 Nature. On every hand, the future was with students of 
 the laws of matter. Often, it was true, he had l)eeir 
 tempted by the thought of a literary career; he had 
 written in verse and prose, but with small success. An 
 attempt to compose the Prize Poem was soon abandoned 
 in discouragement; the essay he sent in had not been 
 mentioned. These honours had fallen to Earwaker, 
 with whom it was not easy to compete on such ground. 
 No, he was not born a man of letters. But in science, 
 granted fair opportunity, he might make a name. He 
 might, and he would ! 
 
 On the morrow, splendour of sunshine drew him forth 
 to some distance from the town. He went along the 
 lanes singing ; now it was holiday with him, and for the 
 first time be could enjoy the broad golden daylight, the 
 genial warmth. In a hollow of grassy fields, where he 
 least expected to encounter an acquaintance, it was his 
 chance to come upon Clnistian Moxey, stretched at full 
 length in the company of nibbling sheep. Since the 
 dinner at Mr. Moxey 's, he had neither seen nor heard of 
 Christian, who, it seemed prol)able, was back at his work 
 in Piotherhithe. As their looks met, both laughed. 
 
 * I won't get up,' said Christian ; ' the eftbrt would be 
 too great. Sit down and let us have a talk.' 
 
 'I disturb your thoughts,' answered (lodwin. 
 
 ' A most welcome disturl)ance ; they weren't very pleasant 
 just tlien. In fact, I have come as far as this in the hope 
 of escaping them. Pm not much of a walker, are you ? ' 
 
 ' Well, yes, I enjoy a good walk.' 
 
 ' You are of an energetic type,' said Christian, musingly. 
 ' You will do something in life. When do you go up for 
 Honours ? ' 
 
 ' I have decided not to go in at all' 
 
 * Indeed ; I'm sorry to hear that.' 
 
 ' I have half made up my mind not to return to 
 AMiitelaw.' 
 
 deserving his hearer's look of surprise, Godwin asked 
 
iiOlJN IN KXILK .S5 
 
 hiinself whether it sigiiitied a kiio\vle(]«^'e of liis footing' at 
 Whitehiw. The possibility of this galh-d him ; but it was 
 such a great step to liave dechued, as it were in j)ublic, an 
 intention of freeing himself, that he was able to talk on 
 with something of aggressive contidence. 
 
 'I think I shall go in for some practical work <»f a 
 scientific kind. It was a mistake lor me to }>ursue thr 
 Arts course.' 
 
 Christian looked at him earnestly. 
 
 ' Are you sure of that ? ' 
 
 * Yes, I feel sure of it.' 
 
 There was silence. Christian ])eat the ground with his 
 stick. 
 
 * Your state of mind, then,' he said at length, * is more 
 like my own than T imagined. I, too, have wavered for 
 a long time between literature and science, and now at 
 last I have quite decided — (|uite — that scientific study is 
 the only safe line for me. The fact is, a man must 
 concentrate himself. Xot only for the sake of practical 
 success, but — well, for his own sake.' 
 
 He spoke lazily, dreamily, propped upon his elbow, 
 seeming to watch the sheep which panted at a few yards 
 from him. 
 
 * I have no right,' he pursued, with a shadow of kindly 
 anxiety on his features, * to offer you advice, but — well, 
 if you will let me insist on what I have learned from my 
 own experience. There's nothing like having a special 
 line of work and sticking to it vigorously. I, unfortun- 
 ately, shall never do anything of any account, — but 1 
 know so well the conflict between diverging tastes. It 
 has played the deuce with me, in all sorts of ways. At 
 Zurich I utterly wasted my time, and I've done no better 
 since I came laack to England. Don't think me ])re- 
 sumptuous. I only mean — well, it is so im])ortant to — to 
 go ahead in one line.' 
 
 His air of laughing apology was very pleasant. 
 Godwin felt his heart open to the kind fellow. 
 
 ' No one needs the advice more than I,' he replied. ' I 
 am going back to the line I took naturally when I tirst 
 began to study at all.' 
 
86 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' But wliy leave AVhitelaw ^ ' asked Christian, gently. 
 
 ' Because I dislike it — I can't tell you why.' 
 
 With ready tact Moxey led away from a subject which 
 he saw was painful. 
 
 ' Of course there are many other places where one can 
 study just as well.' 
 
 ' Do you know anything of the School of Mines in 
 London ?' Godwin inquired, abruptly. 
 
 ' I worked there myself for a short time.' 
 
 * Then you could tell me about the — the fees, and 
 so on ? ' 
 
 Christian readily gave the desired information, and the 
 listener mused over it. 
 
 ' Have you any friends in London ? ' Moxey asked, at 
 length. 
 
 ' No. But I don't think that matters. I shall work all 
 the harder.' 
 
 ' Perhaps so,' said the other, with some hesitation. And 
 he added thoughtfully, ' It depends on one's temperament. 
 Doesn't answer to be too much alone — I speak for myself 
 at all events. I know very few people in London — very 
 few that I care anything about. That, in fact, is one 
 reason why I am staying here longer than T intended.' 
 He seemed to speak rather to himself than to Godwin ; 
 the half-smile on his lips expressed a wish to disclose 
 circumstances and motives which were yet hardly a 
 suitable topic in a dialogue such as this. ' I like the 
 atmosphere of a — of a comfortable home. No doul)t I 
 should get on better — with things in general — if I had a 
 liome of my own. I live in lodgings, you know ; my 
 sister lives with friends. Of course one has a sense of 
 freedom, but then ' 
 
 His voice murmured off' into silence, and again he beat 
 tlie ground with liis cane. Godwin was strongly interested 
 in this broken revelation ; he found it diHicult to under- 
 stand Moxey's yearning for domesticity, all his own 
 impulses leading towards quite a contrary ideal. To him, 
 life in London lodgings made ricli promise ; that indeed 
 would be freedom, and full of all manner of liigli 
 possibilities ! 
 
nOKX IN KXILK 87 
 
 Each cominuiied with liis tlioughts. Ha])i)eiiinLj in 
 glance at Christian, (Jodwiii was struck witli the j^qaccful 
 attitude in wliicli the youn«,^ man recline<l : lie himscU" 
 s<iuattc(l awkwardly on the grass, unable to al)an<lon him- 
 self in natural repose, even as he found it impossible to 
 talk with the ease of unconsciousness. The contrast, too, 
 between his garments, his boots, and those of the Londoner 
 was painful enough to him. Without being a dandy, 
 Christian, it was evident, gave a good deal of thought to 
 costume. That kind of tiling had always excited ( Jod win's 
 contempt, but now he confessed himself envious ; doubt- 
 less, to be well dressed was a great step towards the 
 finished ease of what is called a gentlemanly demeanour, 
 which he knew he was very far fn^m having attained. 
 
 •Well,' exclaimed Christian, unexpectedly, 'if I can 
 be of ever so little use to you, pray let me. 1 must 
 get back to town in a few days, but you know my 
 address. Write to me, 1 beg, if you wish for any more 
 information.' 
 
 The talk turned to less difficult topics. Godwin made 
 inquiries about Zurich, then about Switzerland in 
 general. 
 
 ' Did you see much of the Alps ? ' 
 
 ' Not as a climber sees them. That sort of thing isn't 
 in my way ; I haven't the energy — more's the pity. 
 Would you like to see a lot of good photographs 1 
 brought back ? T have them here : brought them to 
 show the girls.' 
 
 In spite of the five Miss Moxeys and Christian's sister, 
 Teak accepted the invitation to walk back with his 
 companion, and presently they began to stroll towards 
 Twybridge. 
 
 ' I have an absurd tendency to dream — to lose myself 
 amid ideals — 1 don't quite know how to express it,' 
 Christian resumed, when both had been silent for some 
 minutes. 'That's why I mean to go in earnestly for 
 science— as a corrective. Fortunately, I have to work for 
 my living ; otherwise, I should moon my life away — 
 no doubt, ^fy sister has ten times as much energy — 
 she knows much more than 1 do already. What a 
 
88 BORN rX P]XILE 
 
 splendid thing it is to be of an independent character I 
 I had ratlier be a self-reliant coal-heaver than a million- 
 aire of uncertain will. My uncle — tliere's a man who 
 knows his own mind. I respect those strong practical 
 natures. Don't be misled by ideals. ]\Iake the most 
 of your circumstances. Don't aim at — but I beg your 
 pardon ; I don't know what right T have to lecture you 
 in this way.' And. he broke off with his pleasant, kind- 
 hearted laugh, colouring a little. 
 
 They reached Mr. Moxey's house. In a garden chair 
 on the lawn sat IMiss Janet, occupied wdth a book. She 
 rose to meet them, shook hands with Godwin, and said 
 to her cousin : 
 
 ' The postman has just left a letter for you — forwarded 
 from London.' 
 
 ' Indeed ? I'm going to show Mr. Peak my Swiss 
 photographs. You w^ouldn't care to come and help me 
 in the toil of turning them over ? ' 
 
 ' lazy man ! ' 
 
 Her laugh was joyous. Any one less prejudiced than 
 Peak would have recognised the beauty which trans- 
 formed her homely features as she met Christian's look. 
 
 On the hall table lay the letter of which Janet had 
 spoken. Christian took it up, and Godwin, happening 
 at that moment to observe him, caught the tremor of 
 a sudden emotion on lip and eyelid. Instantly, prompted 
 by he knew not what perception, he turned his gaze 
 to Janet, and in time to see that she also was aware 
 of her cousin's strong interest in the letter, whicli was 
 at once put away in Christian's pocket. 
 
 They passed into the sitting-room, where a large 
 portfolio stood against the back of a chair. The half- 
 hour whicli ensued was to Godwin a time of uneasiness. 
 His pleasure in the photographs suffered disturbance 
 from a subtle stress on liis ner^•es, duo to something 
 indeterminate in the situation, of wdiich he formed 
 a part. Janet's merry humour seemed to be subdued. 
 Clu'istian w^us obviously forcing himself to entertain 
 the guest whilst his thouglits w^ere elsewhere. As soon 
 as possible, CJod win rose to depart. He was just saying 
 
KORN IX KXll.K 89 
 
 good-bye to Janet, when jMaivella entered the room. Slie 
 stood still, and C'hristian said, hurriedly : 
 
 'It's possible, Mareella, that Mr. Peak will be conijng 
 to London before long. We may have the pleasure 
 of seeing him there.' 
 
 'You will be glad, I'm sure,' answered his sister. 
 Then, as if forcing herself to address l*eak directly, 
 .she faced to him and added, ' It isn't easy to find 
 .sympathetic companions.' 
 
 ' I, at all events, haven't found very many,' ( Jodwin 
 replied, meaning to speak in a tone only half-serious, 
 but conscious at once that he had made what might 
 seem an appeal for sympathy. Thereupon his jnidc 
 revolted, and in a moment drove him from the room. 
 
 Christian followed, and at the front door shook hands 
 with him. Xervous impatience was unmistakid)le in 
 the young man's look and w^ords. Again (Jodwin 
 speculated on the meaning of this, and wondered, in 
 connection therewith, ^vhat were the characteristics 
 wliich jMarcella Moxey looked for in a * sym])alhetic 
 companion.' 
 
In the course of the afternoon, Godwin sat down to 
 pen the rough draft of a letter to Lady Whitelaw. 
 When the first difficulties wttc surmounted, he wrote 
 rapidly, and at considerable lengtli. It was not easy, 
 at his time of life, to compress into the limits of an 
 ordinary epistle all lie wished to say to the widow of 
 his benefactor. His purpose w^as, with all possible 
 respect yet as firmly as might be, to inform Lady 
 Whitelaw that he could not spend the last of his 
 ])roposed three years at the College in Kingsmill, and 
 furthermore to request of her that she w^ould permit 
 his using the promised sum of money as a student at 
 the Eoyal School of Mines. This had to be done 
 without confession of the reasons for his change of plan ; 
 he could not even hint at them. Yet cause must be 
 assigned, and the best form of words he could excogitate 
 ran thus : * Family circumstances render it desirable — 
 almost necessary — that 1 should spend the next twelve 
 months in London. In spite of sincere reluctance to 
 leave Whitelaw College, 1 am compelled to take this 
 step.' The lady must interpret that as best she miglit. 
 Very hard indeed was the task of begging a continuance 
 of her bounty under these changed conditions. Could 
 he but have resigned the money, all had been well : 
 his tone might then h.ave been dignified without effort. 
 But such disinterestedness he could not afford. His 
 mother might grant him money enough barely to live 
 upon until he discovered means of support — for his 
 t'ducation she was unable to pay. After more than 
 an hour's work he had moderately satisfied himself; 
 
 90 
 
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 indeed, several portions of the letter struck liini as 
 well composed, and he felt that they must liei^diten tlie 
 reader's interest in him. AVitli an autlior's pleasure 
 (though at the same time witli much uneasiness) he 
 ])erused thi' appeal again and again. 
 
 Late in tlie evening, when lie was alone with his 
 mother, he told her what he had done, and read the 
 
 ; letter for her opinion. Mrs. Teak was gravely troubled. 
 
 i 'Lady Whitelaw will ask her sisters for an ex]>lanation/ 
 
 j she said. 
 
 I ' 1 have thought of that,' Godwin replied, with the 
 
 j confident, cheerful air he had assumed from the first. 
 
 I* If the Miss Lunibs go to aunt, she must be prepared 
 
 ito put them off in some way. TUit look here, mother, 
 when uncle has opened his sliop, it's ])retty certain that 
 some one or other will hit on the true explanation of 
 my disappearance. Let them. Then Ixidy AViiitelaw 
 
 j will understand and forgive me.' 
 
 After much musing, the mother ventured a timid 
 question, the result of her anxieties rather than of her 
 judgment on the point at issue. 
 
 * Godwin, dear, are you quite sure that his sho]) would 
 make so much ditference ? ' 
 
 The young man gave a passionate start. 
 
 'What! To have the fellows going there to eat, and 
 
 hearing his talk, and ? Not for a day could I bear 
 
 it ! Xot for an hour ! ' 
 
 He was red with anticipated shame, and Ids voice 
 shook with indignation at the suggested martyiilom. 
 Mrs. Peak dried a tear. 
 
 * Vou would be so alone in London, Godwin.' 
 
 'Not a bit of it. Young Mr. Moxey will be a useful 
 friend, 1 am convinced he will. To tell you the whole 
 truth, I aim at getting a place at the works in Itother- 
 hithe, where he no doubt has inlluence. You see, mother, 
 I might manage it even ])efore the end of the year. ( Jin- 
 Mr. Moxey will ])e disposed to help me with his 
 recommendation.' 
 
 'J>ut, my dear, wouldn't it come to the same tiling, 
 then, if vou went back to ^Ir. Moxev's ?' 
 
92 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 He made a gesture of impat ieiice. 
 
 ' No, no, no ! I couldn't live at Twybridge. I have 
 my way to make, mother, and the place for that is 
 London. You know I am ambitious. Trust me for a 
 year or two, and see the result. I depend upon your 
 help in this whole affair. Don't refuse it me. I have done 
 with Whitelaw, and I have done witli Twybridge : now 
 comes London. You can't regard me as a boy, you know.' 
 
 ' No— but ' 
 
 ' But me no buts ! ' he cried, laughing excitedly. ' The 
 thing is settled. As soon as possible in the morning I 
 post this letter. I feel it will be successful. See aunt 
 to-morrow, and get her support. ]\Iind that Charlotte 
 and Oliver don't talk to people. If you all use discretion, 
 there's no need for any curiosity to be excited.' 
 
 When GJodwin had taken a resolve, there was no 
 domestic inthience strong enough to prevent his acting 
 upon it. Mrs. Peak's ignorance of the world, her mild 
 })assivity, and the faith she had in her son's intellectual 
 resources, made her useless as a counsellor, and from no 
 one else — now tliat Mr. Gunnery was dead — would the 
 young man liave dreamt of seeking guidance. Whatever 
 Lady Whitelaw's reply, he had made up his mind to go to 
 London. Sliould Ids subsidy be refused, then he would live 
 on what his mother could allow him until — probably with 
 the aid of Christian Moxey — he might obtain a salaried 
 position. The letter was despatclied, and with feverish 
 impatience lie awaited a reply. 
 
 Nine days passed, and he heard nothing. Half that 
 delay sufficed to bring out all the self - tormenting 
 capacities of a nature such as his. To his mother's con- 
 jectural explanations he could lend no ear. Doubtless Lady 
 Whitelaw (against whom, for subtle reasons, he was 
 already prejudiced) had taken offence ; either she would 
 not reply at .all, or presently there would come a few lines 
 of polite displeasure, intimating her disinclination to aid 
 his project. He silently raged against ' the woman.' Her 
 neglect was insolence. Had she not delicacy enough to 
 divine the anxiety natural to one in his dependent posi- 
 tion ? Did she take him for an every-day writer of 
 
lioKX IX KXllJ'! O:' 
 
 ineiidicaiii appeals? llis i)ri(le fed upon tlie (.iiirago 
 and b'X'aiiie tierce. 
 I Then arrived a small i^dossy envelope, eontainiiii^ a tiny 
 I sheet of very thick note-paper, whereon it was written that 
 ! Lady Whitehiw regretted her tardiness in replying to him 
 < (caused by her absence from home), and hoped he would 
 be able to call upon her, at ten o'clock next morning, at 
 the house of her sisters, the Misses Lumb, where slie was 
 stopping for a day — she remained his sincerely. 
 I Having duly contorted this note into all manner of 
 I painful meanings, Godwin occupied an hour in making 
 ! himself presentable (scornful that he should deem such 
 ' trouble necessary), and with furiously beating heart set 
 I out to walk through Twyhridge. Arrived at the house, he 
 was le«l by a servant into tlie front room on the ground 
 I Huor, where Lady Whitelaw, alone, sat reading a news- 
 ! paper. Her features were of a very common order, and 
 I nothing distinguished her from middle-aged women of 
 I average refinement ; she had chubby hands, rather broad 
 i shoulders, and no visible waist. The scrutiny she bestowed 
 ; upon her visitor w^as close. To Godwin's feelings it too 
 i much resembled that with whicli she would have received 
 • an applicant for the post of footman. Yet her smile was 
 I friendly enough, and no lack of civility appeared in the 
 j repetition of her excuses for having replied so late. 
 I * Let us talk about this,' she began, when Godwin was 
 I uneasily seated. (She spoke with an excess of precision, 
 ; as though it had at one time been needful for her to pre- 
 I meditate polislied phrases.) ' 1 am very sorry you should 
 I have to think of quitting the (.'ollege; very sorry indeed. You 
 I are one of the students who do honour to the institution.' 
 I This was pleasant, and Godwin felt a regret of the con- 
 i straint that was upon him. In his endeavour not to 
 j display a purring smile, he looked grim, as if the com])li- 
 I nient were beneath his notice. 
 
 I 'Pray don't think,' she pursued, 'that I wish you to 
 1 speak more fully about the private circumstances you refer 
 I to in your letter. But do let me ask you : Is your decision 
 I final ? Are you sure that when the vacations are over you 
 1 will see things just as you do now ? ' 
 
94 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' 1 am quite sure of it,' he replied. 
 
 The emphasis was merely natural to him. He could 
 not so govern his voice as to convey the respectful regret 
 which at this moment he felt. A younger lady, one who 
 liad heightened the charm of her compliment with subtle 
 liarmony of tones and strongly feminine gaze, would per- 
 haps have elicited from him a free confession. Gratitude 
 and admiration would have made him capaljle of such 
 frankness. But iu the lace of this newspaper - reading 
 woman (yes, he had unaccountably felt it jar upon him 
 that a lady should be reading a newspaper), under her 
 matronly smile, he could do no more than plump out his 
 ' quite sure.' To Lady Whitelaw it sounded altogether too 
 curt ; she was conscious of her position as patroness, and 
 had in fact thought it likely that the young man would be 
 disposed to gratify her curiosity in some measure. 
 
 * I can only say that I am sorry to hear it,' fell from her 
 tightened lips, after a moment's pause. 
 
 Instantly Godwin's pride expelled the softer emotion. 
 He pressed hard with his feet upon the floor, every nerve 
 in his body tense with that distressing passion peculiar to 
 the shyly arrogant. Eegard him, and yon had imagined 
 he was submitting to rebuke for an offence he could not 
 deny. 
 
 Lady Whitelaw waited. A minute, almost, and Teak 
 gave no sign of opening his mouth. 
 
 ' It is certainly much to be regretted,' she said at length, 
 coolly. ' Of course, I don't know what prospects you may 
 have in London, l)ut, if you had remained at the College, 
 something ad\'antageous would no dou1)t have offered 
 before long.' 
 
 There went small tact to the wording of this admoni- 
 tion. Impossible for Lady Whitelaw to understand the 
 complexities of a character such as Godwin's, even had 
 she enjoyed opportunities of studying it ; but many a 
 woman of the world would have directed herself more 
 cautiously after reading that letter of his. Peak's im- 
 pulse was to thank her for the past, and declare that 
 henceforth he would dispense with aid ; only the choking 
 in his throat obstructed some such utterance. He 
 
Hol'vN IX i:\lLK 95 
 
 resented piotuundly her suppusitioii (iiaLiiiul I'liou^h) that 
 
 his chief aim was to establish himself in a self-supi)orting 
 
 a\reer. What ? Am I to be grateful for a mere chance 
 
 of earning my living i Have I not shown tliat I ;im 
 
 capable of something more than tlie ordinary lot in life i 
 
 From the heights of lier assured independence, does slie 
 
 look down upon nie as a young man seeking a * i)lace ' I He 
 
 was filled with wrath, and all because a good, commonplace 
 
 : woman could not divine that he dreamt of European fame. 
 
 ; *I am very sorry that 1 can't take that into account,' 
 
 he managed to say. ' I wish to give this next year 
 
 f exclusively to scientific study, and after that I shall see 
 
 I what course is oi)en to me.' 
 
 He was not of the men who can benefit by patronage, 
 ; and be simply grateful for it. His position was a false 
 one : to be begging with awkward show of thankfulness 
 , for a benefaction which in his heart he detested. He 
 ; knew himself for an undesigning hypocrite, and felt that 
 [ he might as well have been a rascal complete. Grati- 
 i tilde ! Xo man capable of it in fuller measure than he ; I 
 j but not to such persons as Lady Whitelaw. Before old 
 i Sir Job he could more easily liave bowed liimstdf. lUit' 
 \ this woman represented tlie superiority of mere brute 
 I wealth, against wliicli liis soul rebelled. 
 i There was another disagreeable silence, during which 
 I^dy AVhitelaw commented on her protege very much as 
 Mrs. Warricombe had done. 
 
 •Will you allow me to ask,' she said at Icngtli, witli cold 
 politeness, * wliether you liave ac(|uaintances in London ? ' 
 * Yes. I know some one who studied at tlie School of 
 Mines.' 
 
 'Well, Mr. I'eak, 1 see that your mind is made u}>. 
 And no doubt you are the best judge of your private 
 circumstances. I must ask you to let me think over 
 the matter for a day or two. I will write to you.' 
 
 'And I to you,' thought Godwin; a resolve whicli 
 enabled him to rise with something like a conventional 
 smile, and thus put an end to a very biief and quite 
 unsatisfactory interview. 
 
 He strode homewards in a state <»f feverish excitement. 
 
9G BORX IN EXILK 
 
 His own beliaviour liad been wretchedly clownish ; he 
 was only too well awave of that. He ought to have put 
 aside all the grosser aspects of liis case, and liave exhibited 
 the purely intellectual motives which made such a change 
 as he purposed seem desirable to him. That would have 
 been to act with dignity ; that would have been the very 
 best form of gratitude for the kindness he had received. 
 But no, liis accursed lack of self-possession had ruined all. 
 ' The woman ' was now offended in good earnest ; he saw 
 it in her face at parting. Tlie fault was admittedly on his 
 side, but what right had she to talk about ' something 
 advantageous ' ? She would write to him, to be sure ; 
 that meant, she could not yet make up her mind whether 
 to grant the money or not. Pluto take the money 1 
 Long before sitting down to her glossy note-paper she 
 should have received a letter from Jiim. 
 
 Composed already. Xow he was uj) in the garret bed- 
 room, scribbling as fast as pen could Hy over paper. He 
 had l)een guilty of a mistake— so ran the epistle; having 
 decided to leave Whitelaw^, he ought never to have 
 requested a continuance of the pension. He begged Lady 
 Whitelaw would forgive this thoughtless impropriety; 
 she had made him understand the full extent of his error. 
 Of course he could not accept anything more from her. 
 As for the past, it would be idle for him to attempt an 
 expression of his indebtedness. But for Sir Job's munifi- 
 cence, he must now have been struggling to complete a 
 radically imperfect education, — 'instead of going into the 
 world to make a place for myself among the scientific 
 investii^ators of our time.' 
 
 One's claims to respectful treatment must be put 
 forward unmistakably, especially in dealing with such 
 people as Lady Whitelaw. Now^ perhaps, she would 
 understand wliat his reserve concealed. The satisfaction 
 of declining further assistance was enormous. He read his 
 letter several times aloud. This w^as the great style ; he 
 could imagine this incident forming a landmark in the 
 biography of a notable man. Now for a fair copy, and in 
 a hand, mind you, that gave no hint of his care for 
 caligraphic seemliness : bold, forthright. 
 
HORN I\ KXILK 97 
 
 The leUer iii his pocket, he went downstiiirs. J lis iiiolher 
 had been out all the morning; now she was just returned, 
 and Godwin saw trouble on her forehead. Anxiously she 
 inquired concerning the result of his interview. 
 
 Now that it was necessary t(j make an inteHi^ihle 
 report of what had happened, Godwin found Ids toni^ue 
 falter. How could he convey to another the intangibh* 
 sense of wounded dignity which had impelled his pen i 
 Instead of producing tlie letter with a flourish, he answered 
 with aflected carelessness : 
 
 ' I am to hear in a day or two.' 
 
 * Did she seem to take it — in the right way ?' 
 
 ' She evidently thinks of me too much as a schoolboy.' 
 
 And he began to pace the room. Mrs. Peak sat still, 
 with an air of anxious brooding. 
 
 'You don't think she will refuse, GodwiiW fell from 
 her presently. 
 
 His hand closed on the letter. 
 
 * Why ? Well, in that case I should go to London and 
 find some occupation as soon as possible. You could still 
 lot me have the same money as before ? ' 
 
 'Yes.' 
 
 It was said absently, and did not satisfy Godwin. In 
 tlie course of the conversation it appeared that ^Irs. Peak 
 had that morning been to see the legal friend who looked 
 after her small concerns, and though she would not admit 
 that she had any special cause for uneasiness, her son 
 recalled similar occasions when an interview with ^fr. 
 Dutch had been followed by several days' gloom. The 
 truth was that ]\Irs. Peak could not live strictly within 
 the income at her disposal, and on being from time to 
 time reminded of this, she was oppressed by passing 
 worry. If Godwin and Oliver 'got on well,' things would 
 come all right in the end, but in the meantime she could 
 not face additional expenditure. Godwin did not like to 
 be reminded of the razor's edge on which the alVairs of the 
 hou.sehold were b;danced. At present it brought abuut a 
 very sudden change in his state of mind ; he went ui)stairs 
 again, and sat with the letter before him, sunk in miseiy. 
 The reaction had fjiven him a headache. 
 
98 BORN IN p:xile 
 
 A fortnight, and no word from Lady Wliitelaw. Ijiit 
 neither was Godwin's letter posted. 
 
 Was he at liberty to indidge the self-respect which 
 ur^-ed him to write ^ In a moment of heated confidence 
 it was all very well to talk of ' getting some occupation ' 
 in London, l)ut he knew that this might prove no easy 
 matter. A year's work at the School of Mines would 
 decidedly facilitate his endeavour; and, seeing that his 
 mother's peace depended upon his being speedily self- 
 supporting, was it not a form of selfishness to reject help 
 from one who could well afford it ? From a distance, he 
 regarded Lady Whitelaw with more charity ; a longer talk 
 with her might have led to better mutual apprehension. 
 And, after all, it was not she but her husband to whom 
 lie would stand indebted. Sir Job was a very kind- 
 hearted old fellow ; he had meant thoroughly well. Why, 
 clearly, the bestower of this third year's allowance would 
 not be Lady Whitelaw at all. 
 
 If it were granted. Godwin began to suffer a trouble- 
 some misgiving ; perchance he had gone too far, and was 
 now, in fact, abandoned to his own resources. 
 
 Three weeks. Then came the expected letter, and, as 
 he opened it, his heart leaped at the sight of a cheque — 
 talisman of unrivalled power over the emotions of the 
 moneyless ! Lady Whitelaw wrote l^riefly and formally. 
 Having considered Godwin's request, she had no reason 
 for doubting that he would make a good use of the pro- 
 posed year at the School of Mines, and accordingly 
 she sent him the sum which Sir Job had intended 
 for his final session at Whitelaw College. She wished 
 him all benefit from his studies, and prosperity hence- 
 forth. 
 
 Rejoicing, though shame-smitten, Godwin exhibited this 
 remittance to his mother, from whom it drew a deep sigh 
 of relief. And forthwith he sat down to write quite a 
 different letter from that which still lay in his private 
 drawer, — a letter which he strove to make the justification 
 (to his own mind) of this descent to humility. At con- 
 siderable length he dwelt upon the change of tastes of 
 which he had been conscious lately, and did not fail to 
 
BORN IN EXILK 99 
 
 make obvious the superiority of liis ambition t(j all 
 thouglit of material advancement. He olVerud liis tlianks, 
 and promised to give an account of himself (as in duty 
 bound) at the close of the twelvemonths' study he was 
 about to undertake : a letter in which the discerning 
 would have read much sincerity, and some pathos ; after 
 all, not a letter to be ashamed of. Lady Whitelaw would 
 not understand it ; but then, how many people an* 
 capable of even faintly apprehending the phenomena of 
 mental growth ? 
 
 And now to plan seriously his mode of life in London. 
 With Christian Moxey he was so slightly acquainted that 
 it was impossible to seek his advice with regard to lodg- 
 ings ; besides, the lodgings must be of a character far too 
 modest to come within Mr. ]\Ioxey's s})here of observation. 
 Other acquaintance he had none in the capital, so it was 
 clear that he must enter boldly upon the unknown world, 
 and find a home for himself as best he might. Mrs. Peak 
 could offer suggestions as to likely localities, and this was 
 of course useful help. In the meantime (for it would be 
 waste of money to go up till near the end of the holiday 
 season) he made schemes of study and completed his in- 
 formation concerning the School of Mines. So far from 
 lamenting the interruption of his promising career at 
 Whitelaw, he persuaded himself that L^ncle Andrew had 
 in truth done him a very good turn : now at length he 
 was fixed in the right course. The only thing he regretted 
 was losing sight of his two or three student-friends, 
 especially Earwaker and Buckland Warricombe. They, 
 to be sure, would soon guess the reason of his disappear- 
 ance. Would they join in the laughter certain to be 
 excited by ' Peak's Dining and Pefreshment Pooms ' ? 
 Probably ; how could they help it ? Earwaker might l)e 
 superior to a prejudice of that kind ; his own conntictions 
 were of humble standinc^. lUit Warricombe must wince 
 
 o 
 
 and shrug his shoulders. Perhaps even some of the 
 Professors would have their attention directed to the 
 ludicrous mishap : they were gentlemen, and, even though 
 they smiled, must certainly sympathise with him. 
 
 Wait a little. Whitelaw College should yet remember 
 
100 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 the student who seemed to have vanished amid the world's 
 obscure tumult. 
 
 Eesolved that he was about to turn his back on Twy- 
 bridge for ever, he found the conditions of life there quite 
 supportable through this last month or two; the family 
 reaped benefit from his improved temper. Even to Mr. 
 Cusse he behaved with modified contempt. Oliver was 
 judicious enough to suppress his nigger minstrelsy and 
 kindred demonstrations of spirit in his brother's presence, 
 and Charlotte, though steadily resentful, did her best to 
 avoid conflict. 
 
 Through the Misses Lumb, Godwin's change of purpose 
 had of course become known to his aunt, who for a time 
 took it ill that these debates had been concealed from her. 
 When Mrs. l*eak, in confidence, apprised her of the dis- 
 turbing cause. Miss Cadman's indignation knew no bounds. 
 What! That low fellow had been allowed to interfere 
 with the progress of Godwin Peak's education, and not a 
 protest uttered ? He should have heen forbidden to estab- 
 lish himself in Kingsmill ! Why had they not taken her 
 into council ? She would have faced the man, and have 
 overawed him ; he should have been made to understand 
 the gross selfishness of his behaviour. Xever had she 
 heard of such a monstrous case 
 
 Godwin spent much time in quiet examination of tlie 
 cabinets bequeathed to him by Mr. Gunnery. He used a 
 pound or two of Lady Whitelaw's money for the purchase 
 of scientific books, and set to work upon them with 
 freshened zeal. The early morning and late evening were 
 f>iven to country walks, from which he always returned 
 with brain excited by the forecast of great achievements. 
 
 When the time of his departure approached, he decided 
 to pay a farewell visit to Mr. Moxey. He chose an hour 
 when the family would probably be taking tlieir ease in 
 the garden. Three of the ladies were, in fact, amusing 
 themselves with croquet, while their father, pipe in mouth, 
 bent over a bed of calceolarias. 
 
 * What's this that I hear ? ' exclaimed Mr. Moxey, as he 
 shook hands. ' You are not going back to Whitelaw ? ' 
 
liORN IN KXILK 101 
 
 The story bad of coiirsL' spread among all Twybridge 
 people who knew anything of the Pt-aks, audit was gener- 
 ally felt that some mystery was invoh'ed. Godwin had 
 reasonably feared that his obligations i'o Sir' J'ob 'vVhifielaw 
 must become known; impossilde for sacii a niat'cer to l)'e 
 kept secret ; all who took any interest in tlie young man 
 had long been privately ac(|uainted with the facts of his 
 ])Osition. Now that discussion was rife, it would have 
 been prudent in the Misses Lumb to divulge as mucli of 
 the truth at they knew, but (in accordance with the law 
 of natural perversity) they maintained a provoking silence. 
 Hence wliispcrs and suspicious questions, all wide of the 
 mark. Xo one had as yet lieard of .Vndrew Teak, and it 
 seemed but too likely that Lady AVhitelaw, for some good 
 reason, had declined to discharge the expenses of Godwin's 
 last year at the College. 
 
 ^Ir. Moxey himself felt that an explanation was desir- 
 able, l)ut he listened with his usual friendly air to 
 Godwin's account of the matter — wliicli of course included 
 no mention of Lady AVhitelaw. 
 
 * Have you friends in London ^ ' lie inquired — like every- 
 one else. 
 
 ' Xo. Except tliat your nepliew was so kind as 
 to ask me to call on him, if ever 1 happened to be 
 tlierc' 
 
 Tliere passed over Mr. ^loxey's countenance a cminus 
 sliadow. (Jodwin noticed it, and at once concluded that 
 the manufacturer condemned Christian for undue advances 
 to one below his own station. The result of this surmise 
 was of course a sudden coldness on CJodwin's part, 
 increased when he found that Mr. Moxey turned to 
 another suliject, without a word about liis n('])liew. 
 
 In less than ten minutes he offered to take leave, and 
 no one urged him to stay longer, ^fr. ]\Ioxey made sober 
 expression of good wishes, and ho])ed he might hear that 
 the removal to London had proved * advantageous.' This 
 word sutliced to convert ( Godwin's irritation into wrath ; 
 he said an abrupt 'good-evening,' raised his hat as 
 awkwardly as usual, and stalked away. 
 
 A few paces from the garden gate, he encountDvil Mi<s 
 
102 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Janet .iMoxey, just coming home from walk or visit. 
 Anotliei grab, at lii^ hat, and he would have passed 
 without a word, but the girl stopped him. 
 . ';W'e hear that. you are going to London, Mr. Peak.' 
 
 ' Yes, I am, Miss Moxey.' 
 
 She examined his face, and seemed to hesitate. 
 
 ' Perhaps you liave just been to say good-bye to father? ' 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
 Janet paused, looked away, again turned her eyes upon 
 him. 
 
 * You have friends there, I hope ? ' she ventured. 
 
 ' No, I have none.' 
 
 ' My cousin — Christian, you remember — would, I am 
 sure, be very glad to help you in any way.' Her voice 
 sank, and at the same time she coloured just perceptibly 
 under Godwin's oaze. 
 
 o 
 
 ' So he assured me,' was the reply. ' But I must learn 
 to be independent. Miss Moxey.' 
 
 AVhereupon Godwin performed a salute, and marched 
 forward. 
 
 His boxes were packed, and now he had but one more 
 evening in the old home. It was made less pleasant than 
 it might have been by a piece of information upon which 
 he by chance alighted in a new\spaper. The result of the 
 Honours exaun'nation for the Pirst B.A. at London had just 
 been made known, and in two subjects a high place was 
 assigned to Ik'uno Leathwaite Chilvers — not the first place 
 happily, but it was disagreeable enough. 
 
 Pooh ! what matter ? What are academic successes ? 
 Ten years hence, which name w^ould have wider recogni- 
 tion — Bruno Chilvers or Godwin Peak ? He laughed with 
 scornful superiority. 
 
 No one was to accompany him to the station ; on that 
 he insisted. He had decided for as early a train as pos- 
 sible, that the dolours of leave-taking might be abridged. 
 At a fpiarter to eight the cab drove up to the door. Out 
 with the trunks labelled ' London ' ! 
 
 ' Take care of the cabinets ! ' were his last words to his 
 mother. ' I may want to have them sent before long.' 
 
BORN IX KXILK 103 
 
 lie iniplieil, wliat liu luid not venturo.il to say plainly, 
 that lie was leaving Twy bridge for good, and henceforth 
 would not think of it as home. In these moments of 
 parting, he resented the natural feeling whicli hrouglit 
 moisture to his eyes. He hardened liiniself against tlie ties 
 of l)lood, and kept repeating to liimself a phrase in which 
 of late lie had summed his miseries : * I was born in exile 
 — born in exile.-^" Now at length had he set forth on a 
 voyage of discovery, to end perchance in some unknown 
 land among his spiritual kith and kin. 
 
PART THE SECOND 
 
PAET THE SECOND 
 
 1 1^'-'' ^'' 
 
 ?.... a 
 
 In the spring of 1882 Mr. Jarvis liuncorn, editor and co- 
 proprietor of the London Wcclchj Post, was looking about 
 for a young man of journalistic promise whom he might 
 associate with himself in the conduct of that long estab- 
 lislied liadical paper. The tale of his years warned him 
 that he could not hope to sup])ort much longer a burden 
 which necessarily increased with the growing range and 
 complexity of public aflixirs. Hitherto he had l)een the 
 autocrat of the oflice, but competing Sunday papers exacted 
 an alertness, a versatile vigour, such as only youth ciin 
 supply ; for there was felt to be a danger that the 
 Weekly Post might lose its prestige in democratic journal- 
 ism. Thus on the watch, Mr. liuncorn — a wary man of 
 business, who had gone through many trades before lie 
 reached that of weekly literature — took counsel one day 
 with a fellow-cam})aigncr, ^lalkin l)y name, who owned 
 two or three country newspapers, and had reaped from 
 tliem a considerate fortune; in consequence, his attention 
 was directed to one John Earwaker, then editing the 
 Wattlehorovfjli Courier. ]\lr. ^Malkin's eldest son liad 
 recently stood as Liberal candidate fur Wattleborough, and 
 though defeated was loud in his praise of the Courier ; 
 with its editor he had come to be on terms of intimate 
 friendship. Earwaker was well acrpiainted with journal- 
 istic life in the provinces. He sprang fmm a liumlde 
 
J. 08 BORN IN P:XILE 
 
 family living at Kiiigsmill, liad studied at Whitelaw 
 College, and was now but nine-and-twenty : the style of 
 his ' leaders ' seemed to mark him for a wider sphere of 
 work. It was decided to invite him to London, and the 
 young man readily accepted My. lluncorn's proposals. A 
 few months later lie exclianged temporary lodgings for 
 chambers in Staple Inn, where he surrounded liimself with 
 plain furniture and many books. 
 
 In personal appearance he had changed a good deal 
 since that ])rize-day at Whitelaw when his success as 
 versifier and essayist foretold a literary career. His 
 figure was no longer ungainl}^ ; the big head seemed to fit 
 better npon the narrow shoulders. He neither walked 
 with extravagant paces, nor waved his arms like a wind- 
 mill. A sufficiency of good food, and the habit of inter- 
 course with active men, had given him an every-day 
 aspect; perhaps the sole peculiarity he retained from 
 student times was his hollow chuckle of mirth, a laugh 
 which struggled vainly for enlargement. He dressed with 
 conventional decency, even submitting to the chimney-pot 
 hat. His features betrayed connection with a physically 
 coarse stock ; but to converse with him was to discover 
 the man of original vigour and wide intellectual scope. 
 AVith ordinary companions, it was a rare thing for him to 
 speak of his professional interests. But for his position on 
 The Weeldij Post it would not have been easy to surmise 
 how he stood with regard to politics, and he appeared to 
 lean as often towards the conservative as to the revolu- 
 tionary view of abstract questions. 
 
 The newspaper left him time for other literary work, 
 and it was known to a few people that he wrote with some 
 regularity for reviews, but all the products of his pen were 
 anonymous. A fact which remained his own secret was 
 that he provided for the subsistence of his parents, old 
 people domiciled in a quiet corner of their native Kingsmill. 
 The strict sobriety of life which is indispensable to success 
 in such a career as this cost him no ellbrt. He smoked 
 moderately, ate and drank as little as might Ijc, could keep 
 his health on six hours of sleep, and for an occasional 
 holiday liked to walk Ids twenty or thirty miles. Ear- 
 
liollN IN KXILK lll«) 
 
 waker was naturally inarked lor survival ani»»ug the 
 tit test. 
 
 On an evening of .June in the year '84, he was inter- 
 rupted whilst equipping himself for dinner abroail, by a 
 thunderous rat-tat-tat. 
 
 * You must wait, my friend, wlioever you are,' he 
 murmured placidly, as he began to struggle with tht' stilV 
 button-holes of his shirt. 
 
 The knock was repeated, and more violently. 
 
 *Xow there's only one man of my acquaintance who 
 knocks like that,' he mused, elaborating the bow of his 
 white tie. * He, I should imagine, is in lirazil ; but there's 
 no knowing. Perhaps our ottice is on fire. — Anon, aiion ! ' 
 
 He made haste to don waistcoat and swallow-tail, then 
 crossed his sitting-room and tiung open the dour of the 
 chambers. 
 
 ' Ha ! Then it is you ! I was reminded of your patient 
 habits.' 
 
 A tall man, in a light overcoat and a straw hat of 
 spacious brim, had seized l)oth his hands, with shouts (»f 
 excited greeting. 
 
 'Confound you! Why did you keep me waiting^ I 
 thought I had missed you for the evening. How the 
 deuce are you ? And why the devil have you left me 
 without a line from you for more than six months ? ' 
 
 Earwaker drew aside, and allowed his tumultuous friend 
 to rush into the nearest room. 
 
 * Why haven't you written ? — confound you ! ' was again 
 vociferated, amid bursts of boyish laughter. ' Why hasn't 
 anybody written ? ' 
 
 ' If everybody was as well informed of your movements 
 as I, I don't wonder,' replied the journalist. ' Since you 
 left lUienos Ay res, I have had two letters, each containing 
 twenty words, which gave me to understand that no 
 answer could by possibility reach you.' 
 
 'Humbug! You could have written to half-a-dozen 
 likely places. Did I really say that ? Ha, ha, ha ! — 
 Shake hands again, confound you! How do you do .^ 
 Do 1 look well ? Ha^'e T a tropical colour ^ I say, 
 
110 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 what a blessed thing it was that I got beaten down at 
 Wattlel)orough ! All this time I should liave been sitting 
 in the fog at Westminster. What a time I've had ! 
 What a time I've had ! ' 
 
 It was more than twelve months since Malkin's depar- 
 ture from Encrland. Though sun and sea had doubtless 
 contributed to his robustness, he nnist always have been 
 a fair example of the vigorous Briton. His broad 
 shoulders, upright bearing, open countenance, and frank 
 resonant voice, declared a youth passed amid the whole- 
 some conditions which wealth alone can command. The 
 hearty extravagance of his friendliness was only possible 
 in a man who has never been humiliated by circum- 
 stances, never restricted in his natural needs of body 
 and mind. Yet he had more than the heartiness of a 
 contented Englishman. The vivacity which made a whirl- 
 wind about him probably indicated some ancestial ming- 
 ling with the l)lood of a more ardent race. Earwaker 
 examined him with a smile of pleasure. 
 
 * It's unfortunate,' he said, ' that I have to go out to 
 dinner.' 
 
 ' Dinner ! Pooh ! we can get dinner anywhere.' 
 ' No doubt, but I am en^afijed.' 
 
 * The devil you are ! Who is she ? Why didn't you 
 write to tell me ? ' 
 
 ' The word has a less specific meaning, my dear fellow,' 
 replied Earwaker, laughing. ' Only you of all men would 
 have rushed at the wrong one. I mean to say — if your 
 excitement can take in so common a fact — that I have 
 promised to dine with some people at Notting Hill, and 
 mustn't disappoint them.' 
 
 Malkin laughed at his mistake, then shouted : 
 
 ' Notting Hill ! Isn't that somewhere near Fulham ? 
 We'll take a cal\ and I can drop you on my way.' 
 
 ' It wouldn't be on the way at all.' • 
 
 The journalist's quiet explanation was cut short by a 
 petulant outcry. 
 
 ' Oh, very well ! Of course if you want to get rid of 
 me ! I should have thought after sixteen months ' 
 
 ' Don't be idiotic,' broke in the other. ' There's a strong 
 
BORN IN KXILK 111 
 
 feniiniiio element in you, Malkin ; that's exactly the 
 kind of talk with which wunien drive men to frenzy.' 
 
 ' Feminine element ! ' shouted the traveller with hot 
 face. * What do you mean { I propose to take a cab with 
 you, and you ' 
 
 Earwaker turned away lau^hin^L,^ ' Time and distance 
 are nothing to you, and I shall be very glad of your 
 company. Come by all means.' 
 " His friend was instantly appeased. 
 
 * Don't let me make you late, Earwaker. ^Must we 
 start this moment ? Gome along, then. Can 1 carry 
 anything for you ? Eord ! if you could only see a tropical 
 forest ! How do you get on with old liuncorn ? irritr ? 
 What the devil was the use of my writing, when words 
 
 are powerless to describe ? What a rum old place 
 
 this seems, after experiences like mine ; how the deuce 
 can you live here ? I say, I've brought you a ton of 
 curiosities; will make your rooms look like a museum. 
 Confound it ! I've broken my shin against the turn in 
 the staircase ! Wliew ! Who are you going to dine 
 with ? — Moxey ? Never heard the name.' 
 
 In Holborn a hansom was hailed, and the friends con- 
 tinued their dialogue as they drove westward. Having 
 at length effervesced, Malkin began to exchange question 
 and answer with something of the calm needful for mutual 
 intelligibility. 
 
 'And how do you get on with old liuncorn ?' 
 
 'As well as can be expected where there is not a single 
 subject of agreement,' Earwaker replied. ' I have hopes 
 of reducing our circulation.' 
 
 ' What the deuce do you mean ? ' 
 
 * In other words, of improving the paper, liuncorn is 
 strong on the side of blackguardism. We had a great 
 fight the other day over a leader offered by Kenyon, — 
 a true effusion of the political gutter-snipe. I refused 
 point-blank to let it go in ; liuncorn swore tliat, if I did 
 not, / should go mit. I offered to retire that moment. 
 " We must write for our public," he bellowed. ** True," 
 said I, "l)ut not necessarily for the basest among them. 
 The standard at the best is low enough." "Do you call 
 
112 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 yourself a liadical ^ " " Not if this be Eadicalism." 
 " You ought to be on the Morning instead of the WecJdy 
 Post." I had my way, and probably shall end by sending 
 Mr. Kenyon back to his tinker's work shop. If not, I 
 must look out for cleaner occupation.' 
 
 ' Go it, my boy ! Go it ! ' cried Malkin, slapping his 
 companion's knee violently. ' Raise the tone ! To the 
 devil with mercenary considerations ! Help the proletariat 
 out of its grovelling position.' 
 
 They approached the street where Earwaker had to 
 alight. The other declared his intention of driving on 
 to Fulham in the hope of finding a friend who lived 
 there. 
 
 ' But I must see you again. When shall you be home 
 to-night ? ' 
 
 ' About half-past eleven, I dare say.' 
 
 ' Right ! If I am free I'll come out to Staple Inn, and 
 we'll talk till three or four.' 
 
 The house at which the journalist presented liimself 
 was such as might be inhabited by a small family of 
 easy means. As he was taking oft' his overcoat, a door 
 opened and Christian Moxey came forward to greet him. 
 They shook hands like men vn^Iio stood on friendly, but 
 not exactly on intimate, terms. 
 
 '■ Will you come up to the laboratory for a moment ? ' 
 said Moxey. ' I sliould like to show you something I 
 have under the microscope.' 
 
 The room he spoke of was at the top of the house ; two 
 chambers had been made into one, and the fittings were 
 those required by a student of physical science. Various 
 odours distressed the air. A stranger to the pursuits 
 represented might have thought that the general disorder 
 and encumberment indicated great activity, but the experi- 
 enced eye perceived at once that no methodical work was 
 here in progress. INIineralogy, botany, biology, physics, 
 and probably many otlier sciences, were suggested by the 
 specimens and apparatus that lay confusedly on tables, 
 shelves, or floor. 
 
 Moxey looked very slim and elegant in his evening 
 costume. Wlien he touched any object, his long, trans- 
 
BORN IN KXII.K I 1 .". 
 
 lucent fingers seemed soft and sensitive as a [girl's. He 
 stepped with peculiar lightness, and the harmonious notes 
 of his voice were in keeping with these other character- 
 istics. Ten years had developed in him that graceful 
 languor which at four-and-twenty was only beginning to 
 get mastery over the energies of a well-built frame. 
 
 'This stuff here,' he said, pointing to an opun box full 
 of mud, ' is silt from down the Thames. It's positively 
 loaded with diatomacca', — you remember our talking 
 about them when you were last here ? I am working at 
 the fabric of the valves. Xow, just look ! ' 
 
 Enrwaker, with attentive smile, followed tlie demonstra- 
 tion. 
 
 'Peak is busy with them as well,' said Christian, 
 presently. ' Has he told you his theory of their locomo- 
 tion ? Nobody has found out yet how the little beggars 
 move about. Peak has a bright idea.' 
 
 They spent ten minutes in the laboratory, then went 
 downstairs. Two otlier guests had meanwhile arrived, 
 and were conversing with the hostess, Miss ]\Iuxey. Tlie 
 shy, awkward, hard-featured girl was grown into a woman 
 wliose face made such declaration of intellect and char- 
 acter that, after the first moment, one became indifferent 
 to its lack of feminine beauty. As if with the idea of 
 compensating for personal disadvantages, she was ornately 
 dressed; her abundant tawny hair had submitted to 
 much manipulation, and showed the gleam of jewels; 
 expense and finished craft were manifest in every detail 
 of her garb. Though slightly round-shouldered, her form 
 was well-proportioned and suggested natural vigour. 
 Like Christian, she had delicate hands. 
 
 '1)0 you know a distinguished clergyman, nauiud 
 Chilvers ? ' she asked of Earwaker, with a laugh, when 
 lie had taken a ]jlace by her. 
 
 ' Chilvers ? — Is it Bruno Chilvers, I wonder ^' 
 
 'That's the name 1 ' exclaimed one of the guests, a 
 young married lady of eager face and fidgety manners. 
 
 ' Then I knew him at College, but I had uo idea he 
 was become distinguished.' 
 
 Miss jNIoxey again laughed. 
 
114 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Isn't it amusing, the narrowness of a great clerical 
 reputation ^ Mrs. Morton was astonished that I had 
 never heard his name.' 
 
 ' Please don't think,' appealed the lady, looking 
 anxiously at Earwaker, ' that I consider it shameful not 
 to know him. I only happened to mention a very 
 ridiculous sermon of his, that was forced upon me by a 
 distressingly orthodox friend of mine. They tell me, he 
 is one of the newest lights of the Church.' 
 
 Earwaker listened with amusement, and then related 
 anecdotes of Bruno Chilvers. Whilst he was talking, the 
 door opened to admit another arrival, and a servant's voice 
 announced ' Mr. Teak.' Miss Moxey rose, and moved a 
 step or two forward ; a change was visible on her counte- 
 nance, which had softened and lightened. 
 
 ' I am very sorry to be late,' said the new-comer, in a 
 dull and rather husky voice, which made strong contrast 
 witli the humorous tones his entrance had interrupted. 
 
 He shook hands in silence with the rest of the 
 company, giving merely a nod and a smile as reply to 
 8ome gracious commonplace from Mrs. Morton. 
 
 ' Has it come to your knowledge,' Earwaker asked of 
 liim, ' that ]]runo Chilvers is exciting the orthodox 
 world by his defence of Christianity against neo- 
 heathenism ? ' 
 
 ' Chilvers ^— No.' 
 
 ' Mrs. Morton tells u.s that all the Church newspapers 
 ring with his name.' 
 
 'Please don't think,' cried Mrs. Morton, with tlic same 
 anxious look as before, 'that I I'ead such papers. AVe 
 never have sucli a thing in our house, Air. Peak. 1 ha\e 
 only been told about it.' 
 
 Peak smiled gravely, but made no other answer. Then 
 he turned to Earwaker. 
 
 ' Where is he ? ' 
 
 ' I can't say. Perhaps Mrs. Morton ' 
 
 ' They tell me he is somewhere in Norfolk,' replied the 
 lady. ' I forget the town.' 
 
 A summons to dinner broke off the conversation. 
 Moxey offered his ai-m to the one lady present as guest. 
 
HORN IN KXILK 1 15 
 
 and Earwaker did the same courtesy to the hostess. Mr. 
 Morton, a meditative young man wlio had been listeninj^ 
 witli a smile of indiilerence, sauntered aU^ng in tlic rear 
 with Godwin l*eak. 
 
 At the dinner-table Peak was taciturn, and seemed to 
 be musing on a disagreeable subject. To remarks, he 
 answered brietiy and absently. As Moxey, Earwaker, 
 and ]\Irs. ]\[orton kept up lively general talk, this 
 muteness was not much noticed, l)ut when the ladies liad 
 left the room, and Teak still frowned over his wine- glass, 
 the journalist rebuked him. 
 
 ' What's the matter with you ? Don't depress us.' 
 
 The otlier laughed impatiently, and emptied his glass. 
 
 ' Malkin has come back,' pursued Earwaker. ' lie burst 
 in upon me, just as I was leaving home — as mad as a March 
 hare. You must come and meet liim some evening.' 
 
 * As you please.' 
 
 Iveturned to the upper room, Teak seated himself in a 
 shadowy corner, crossed his legs, thrust his hands into Iiis 
 pockets, and leaned back to regard a ])icture on the wall 
 opposite. This attitude gave sullicient ])roof of the change 
 that had been wrought in him l)y the years between nine- 
 teen and nine-and-twenty ; even in a drawing-room, he 
 could take his ease unconcernedly. His face would have 
 led one to suppose him an older man ; it was set in an 
 expression of stern, if not morose, tlioughtfulness. 
 
 He had small, hard lips, indiflerent teeth (seldom ex- 
 hibited), a prominent chin, a long neck ; his l)ody was of 
 firm, not ungi^aceful build. Society's evening uniform 
 does not allow a man much scope in the matter of adorn- 
 ments ; it was plain, however, that (Jodwin no longer 
 scorned the tailor and haberdasher. He wore a suit 
 which confidently challenged the criticism of experts, and 
 the silk socks visible above his shoes nn'ght have been 
 selected by the most fastidious of worldlings. 
 
 When he had sat there for some minutes, his eyes 
 happened to stray towards ]\Iiss Moxey, who was just 
 then without a companion. Her glance answered to his, 
 and a smile of invitation left him no choice but to rise 
 and go to a seat beside her. 
 
116 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' You are meditative this evening,' she said, in a voice 
 subdued below its ordinary note. 
 
 ' Not very fit for society, to tell the truth,' Godwin 
 answered, carelessly. * One has such moods, you know. 
 But how would you take it if, at the last moment, I 
 sent a telegram, " Please excuse me. Don't feel able to 
 talk '■ ? ' 
 
 * You don't suppose I should be offended ? ' 
 
 * Certainly you would.' 
 
 ' Then you know less of me than I thought.' 
 
 Her eyes wandered about the room, their smile betoken- 
 ing an uneasy self-consciousness. 
 
 ' Christian tells me,' she continued, ' that you are going 
 to take your holiday in Cornwall.' 
 
 ' I thouglit of it. But perhaps I shan't leave town at 
 aU. It wouldn't be worth while, if I go abroad at the 
 end of the year.' 
 
 ' Abroad ? ' Marcella glanced at him. ' What scheme is 
 that ? ' 
 
 * Haven't I mentioned it ? I want to go to South 
 America and the Pacific islands. Earwaker has a friend, 
 who has just come back from travel in the tropics ; the 
 talk about it has half decided me to leave England. I 
 have been saving money for years to that end.' 
 
 * You- never spoke of it — to me,' Marcella replied, 
 turning a bracelet on her wrist. ' Should you go alone ? ' 
 
 ' Of course. I couldn't travel in company. You know 
 how impossible it would be for me to put up with the 
 moods and idiosyncrasies of other men.' 
 
 There was a cpiiet arrogance in his tone. The listener 
 still smiled, but her fingers worked nervously. 
 
 ' You are not so unsocial as you pretend,' she remarked, 
 without looking at him. 
 
 * Pretend ! I make no pretences of any kind,' was his 
 scornful ansv/er. 
 
 * You arc uni^racious this eveninc^.' 
 ' Yes — and can't hide it.' 
 
 'Don't try to, I beg. l^ut at least tell me what 
 troubles you.' 
 
 ' That's impossible,' Peak replied, drily. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 117 
 
 ' Tlieii friendship goes fur notliing,' suid Marcella, with 
 a little forced laugh. 
 
 * Yes — in all Ijut a very few Imnian concerns. How 
 often could you tell ntr wliat it is that ]irevents your 
 taking life clieerfully ? ' 
 
 He glanced at lier, and IMarceHa's eyes fell ; a moment 
 after, there was a suspicion of colour in her clieek. 
 
 'Wliatareyou reading?' Peak asked abruptly, Init in 
 a voice of more conventional note. 
 
 ' Still Hahz.' 
 
 ' I envy your ])ower of abstraction.' 
 
 ' Yet I liear that you are deeply concerned al)out the 
 locomotive powers of the diatomacccr ? ' 
 
 Tlieir eyes met, and they lauglied — not very mirtlifidly. 
 
 ' It preserves me from worse follies,' said Teak. ' After 
 all, there are ways more or less dignified of consuming 
 time ' 
 
 As he spoke, his ear caught a familiar name, uttered 
 by Christian Moxey, and he turned to listen. ]\Ioxey 
 and Earwaker were again talking of the liev. Bruno 
 Chilvers. Straightway disregarding Marcella, Peak gave 
 attention to the men's dialogue, and his forehead wrinkled 
 into scornful amusement. 
 
 ' It's very interesting,' he exclaimed, at a moment when 
 there was silence throughout the company, ' to hear that 
 Chilvers is really coming to the front. At AVhitelaw it 
 used to be prophesied that he would be a bisliop, and now 
 I suppose he's fairly on the way to that. Shall we write 
 letters of congratulation to him, Earwaker ? ' 
 - ' A joint epistle, if you like.' 
 
 Mr. Morton, who had l)rightened since dinner, began to 
 speak caustically of the form of intellect necessary now- 
 adays in a popular clergyman. 
 
 'He nuist write a good deal,' ])ut in Earwaker, 'and 
 that in a style which would have scandalised the orthodox 
 of the last century. Nationalised dogma is vastly in 
 demand.' 
 
 Teak's voice drew attention. 
 
 ' Two kinds of books dealing with religion are now 
 greatly popular, and will be for a long time. On the one 
 
118 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 hand there is that growing body of people who, for what- 
 ever reason, tend to agnosticism, but desire to be convinced 
 that agnosticism is respectable ; they are eager for anti- 
 dogmatic books, written by men of mark. They couldn't 
 endure to be classed with Bradlaugh, but they rank them- 
 selves confidently with Darwin and Huxley. Arguments 
 matter little or nothing to them. They take their 
 rationalism as they do a fashion in dress, anxious only that 
 it shall be " good form." Then there's the other lot of people 
 — a much larger class — who won't give up dogma, but have 
 learnt that bishops, priests, and deacons no longer hold it 
 with the old rigour, and that one must be "l)road"; these 
 are clamorous for treatises which pretend to reconcile 
 revelation and science. It's quite pathetic to watch the 
 enthusiasm with which they hail any man who distin- 
 guishes himself by this kind of apologetic skill, this pious 
 jugglery. Never mind how washy the book from a 
 scientific point of view. Only let it obtain vogue, and 
 it will be glorified as the new evangel. The day has 
 gone by for downright assaults on science ; to be market- 
 able, you must prove that The Origin of Species was 
 approvingly foreseen in the first chapter of Genesis, and 
 that the Apostles' Creed conflicts in no single point with 
 the latest results of biblical criticism. Both classes seek 
 \ to avoid ridicule, and to adapt themselves to a standard of 
 'respectability. If Cliilvers goes in for the newest apolo- 
 getics, he is bound to be enormously successful. The man 
 has brains, and really there are so few such men who still 
 care to go into the Church.' 
 
 There was a murmur of laughing approval. The 
 speaker had worked himself into eloquent nervousness ; 
 he leaned forward with his hands straining together, and 
 the muscles of his face quivering. 
 
 * And isn't it surprising,' said Marcella, * in how sliort a 
 time this apologetic attitude lias l)ecome necessary ?' 
 
 Peak flashed a triumphant look at her. 
 
 ' I often rejoice to think of it ! ' he cried. ' How 
 magnificent it is that so many of the solemn jackasses 
 who brayed against Darwin from ten to twenty years 
 ago should live to ])e regarded as beneath contempt ! I 
 
BORN IX KXII.K 110 
 
 say it earnestly: this tlioii<i;lit is unr (»f Iho tilings that 
 make life toleraljle to me ! ' 
 
 'You have need of charity, friend Peak,' interposed 
 Earwaker. ' This is the spirit of the persecutor.' 
 
 'Nothin*;- of the kind! It is the spirit of justified 
 reason. You may say that those people were honestly 
 mistaken; — such honesty is the brand of a brainless ob- 
 structive. Thri/ would have persecuted, but too gladly ! 
 There were, and are, men who would have connnitted 
 Darwin to penal servitude, if they had had the power. 
 Men like Lyell, who were able to develop a new con- 
 volution in their brains, I respect heartily. I only speak 
 of the squalling mass, the obscene herd of idiot mockers.' 
 
 ' ^Vho assuredly,' remarked Earwaker, ' feel no shame 
 whatever in the retrospect of their idiocy. To convert 
 a mind is a subject for high rejoicing ; to confute a temper 
 isn't worth the doing.' 
 
 * That is philosophy,' said Marcella, ' but I suspect you 
 of often feeling as Mr. Peak does. T am sure / do.' 
 
 Peak, meeting an amused glance from the journalist, 
 left his seat and took up a volume that lay on one of the 
 tables. It was easy to see that his hands shook, and 
 that there was perspiration on his forehead. With 
 pleasant tact, Moxey struck into a new suljeet, and for 
 the next quarter of an hour Peak sat apart in the same 
 attitude as l^efore his outburst of satire and invective. 
 Then he advanced to ^liss Moxey again, for the purpose 
 of taking leave. This was the signal for Earwaker's 
 rising, and in a few minutes both men had left the 
 house. 
 
 ' I'll go by train with you,' said Earwaker, as they walked 
 awav. ' Farringdon Street will suit me well enough.' 
 
 Peak vouchsafed no reply, but, when they had ])r<>- 
 eoeded a little distance, he exclaimed harshly : 
 
 ' I hate emancipated women ! ' 
 
 His companion stopped and laughed loudly. 
 
 ' Ves, 1 hate emancipated women,' the other repeat^*!, 
 witli deliberation. 'Women ought neitlu^' to be en- 
 lightened nor dogmatic. They ought to be sexual.' 
 
 'That's unusual brutality on your part.' 
 
120 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 * Well, you know what I mean.' 
 
 'I know what you think you mean,' said Earwaker. 
 ' But the woman who is neither enlightened nor dogmatic 
 is only too common in society. They are fools, and 
 troublesome fools.' 
 
 Peak again kept silence. 
 
 ' The emancipated woman,' pursued his friend, ' needn't 
 be a Miss Moxey, nor yet a Mrs. Morton.' 
 
 ' ]\Iiss Moxey is intolerable,' said Peak. ' I can't quite 
 say why I dislike her so, but she grows more antipathetic 
 to me the better I know her. She has not a single 
 feminine charm — not one. I often feel very sorry for 
 her, but dislike her all the same.' 
 
 ' Sorry for her,' nnised Earwaker. ' Yes, so do I. I 
 can't like her either. She is certainly an incomplete 
 woman. But her mind is of no low order. I had rather 
 talk with her than with one oi the imbecile prettinesses. 
 I half believe you have a sneaking sympathy with the 
 men who can't stand education in a w^ife.' 
 
 ' It's possible. In some moods.' 
 y ' In no mood can I conceive such a prejudice, I have 
 no great attraction to women of any kind, but the un- 
 educated woman I detest.' 
 
 ' Well, so do I,' nmttered Peak. ' Do you know what ? ' 
 he added, abruptly. ' I shall be oft' to the Pacific. Yes, 
 I shall go this next w^inter. My mind is made up.' 
 
 ' I shan't try to dissuade you, old fellow, though I had 
 rather have you in sight. Come and see Malkin. FU 
 drop you a note with an appointment.' 
 
 'Do.' 
 
 They soon reached the station, and exchanged but 
 few more words l)efore Earwaker's leaving the train at 
 Farringdon Street. I*eak pursued his journey towards 
 the south-east of London. 
 
 On reaching home, the journalist flung aside his foolish 
 coat of ceremony, indued a comfortable jacket, lit a pipe 
 with lono' stem, and l)eL'an to glance over an evening 
 newspa])er. lie had not long reposed in his arm-chair 
 when the familiar appeal thundered from without. 
 Malkin once more shook his hand effusivelv. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 121 
 
 'Had my journey to Fulhain for notliin^. J)idn'L 
 matter; I ran over to Tiitney and lookcMl up my olil 
 landlady. The rooms are occupied by a married couple, 
 but I think we shall succeed in persuadini^^ them to make 
 way for me. I promised to find them lod^'ings every l)it 
 as good in two days' time.' 
 
 ' If that is so easy, wliy not take the new rpiarters 
 yourself ^ ' 
 
 ' Why, to tell you the truth, 1 didn't think of il ! — Uh, 
 I had rather have the old crib ; I can do as I like there, 
 you know. Confound it ! Now I shall have to si)end 
 all to-morrow lodging-hunting for other })eople. Couldn't 
 I pay a man to do it ? Some confidential agent — private 
 police — you know what I mean ^ ' 
 
 'A man of any delicacy,' replied Earwaker, with grave 
 countenance, ' would feel bound by such a promise to 
 personal exertion.' 
 
 'Eight; quite right! I didn't mean it; of course I 
 shall hunt conscientiously. Oh, I say ; I have brought 
 over a couple of armadilloes. Would you like one ? ' 
 
 'Stulfed, do you mean ?' 
 
 * Pooh ! Alive, man, alive ! They only need a little 
 care. I should think you might keej) the creature in 
 your kitchen ; they become quite affectionate.' 
 
 The offer was unhesitatingly declined, and Malkin 
 looked hurt. There needed a good deal of genial exi)lana- 
 tion before Earwaker could restore him to his sja-ightly 
 mood. 
 
 'Where have you been dining?' cried the traveller. 
 ' Moxey's — ah, I rememljcr. lUit wlio is Moxey ? A new 
 acquaintance, eh ? ' 
 
 'Yes; I have known him about six months, (lot to 
 know him through Peak.' 
 
 'Peak? Peak? What, the fellow you once told me 
 about — who disappeared from Whitelaw because of h\< 
 uncle, tlie cat's-meat man ?' 
 
 'The man's-meat man, rather.' 
 
 ' Yes, yes — the eating-house; I remember. You have 
 mot him again? Why on earth didn't you t(dl me in 
 your letters? What became of him ? Tell mo the story.' 
 
122 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 * Certainly, if you will cease to shake down plaster 
 from the ceiling. — We met in a restaurant (appropriate 
 scene), happening to sit at the same table. Whilst 
 eating, we stared at each other fitfully. " I'll be hanged 
 if that isn't Peak," I kept saying to myself And at the 
 same moment we opened our lips to question each other.' 
 
 'Just the same thing happened once to a friend of 
 mine and a friend of his. But it was on board ship, 
 and both were devilish sea-sick. Walker — you remember 
 my friend AValker ? — tells the story in a side-splitting 
 way. I wonder wliat has Ijecome of Walker ? The last 
 time I met him he was travelling agent for a menagerie — 
 a most interesting fellow, Walker. — But I beg your 
 pardon. Go on, old fellow ! ' 
 
 ' Well, after that we at once saw a good deal of each 
 other. He has 1)een working for years at a chemical 
 factory down on the river ; Moxey used to l)e there, and 
 got him the place.' 
 
 ' Moxey ? — Oh yes, the man you dined with. You 
 must remember that these are new names to me. I nnist 
 know all these new people, I say. You don't mind ? ' 
 
 ' You shall be presented to the whole multitude, as 
 soon as you like. Peak wants to see you. He thinks 
 of an excursion like this last of yours.' 
 
 ' He does ? By Jove, we'll go together ! I have always 
 wanted a travelling companion. We'll start as soon as 
 ever he likes! — well, in a month or two. I must just 
 have time to look round. Oh, 1 haven't done with the 
 tropics yet ! I must tell him of a rattling good insect- 
 powder I have invented ; I think of patenting it. I say, 
 how does one get a patent ? Quite a simple matter, I 
 suppose ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, always has been. The simplest and least worry- 
 ing of all business enterprises.' 
 
 'What? Eh ? That smile of yours means mischief.' 
 
 In a (piarter of an hour they luid got back to the 
 subject of Peak's history. 
 
 'And did he really run away because of the eating- 
 house ? ' Malkin inquired. 
 
 ' T sliall never vcntuni to ask, and it's not verv likelv 
 
BORN IX KXILE 123 
 
 he will admit it. It was some time l)erure he cared to 
 talk much of Whitelaw.' 
 
 *I>ut what is he doing? You used to think h.' would 
 come out strong, didn't you ? Has lie written anytliing { ' 
 
 'A few things in 77ie Lihcrator, five or six years ago.' 
 
 ' What, the atheistic paper ? ' 
 
 ' Yes. But he's ashamed of it now. That helongs to 
 a hygone stage of development.' 
 
 ' Turned orthodox ? ' 
 
 Earwaker laughed. I 
 
 ' I only mean that he is asliamed of the connection with / 
 street-corner rationalism.' 
 
 'Quite right. Devilish low, that kind of tiling. l*>ut 
 I went in for it myself once. ])id I ever tell you that 
 I debated with a parson on Mile-end Waste ? Fact ! 
 That was in my hot-headed days. A crowd of coster- 
 mongers applauded me in tlie most flattering way. — I 
 say, Earwaker, you haven't any whisky ? ' 
 
 ' Forgive me : your conversation makes me forget 
 hospitality. Shall I make hot water ? I have a spirit- 
 kettle.' 
 
 'Cold for me. I get in such a deuced perspiration 
 when I begin to talk. — Try this tobacco; the last of 
 half a hundred-weight I took in at Bahia.' 
 
 The traveller refreslied himself with a full tumlilcr, 
 and resumed the conversation cheerily. 
 
 'Has he just been wasting his time, then, all these 
 years ? ' 
 
 ' He goes in for science — laboratory work, evolutionary 
 speculations. Of course I can't judge his progress in 
 such matters ; but Moxey, a clever man in the same line, 
 thinks very highly of him.' 
 
 'Just the fellow to travel with. I want to get hold 
 of some solid scientific ideas, but I haven't the patience 
 to work steadily. A confounded fault of mine, you know, 
 Earwaker, — want of patience. \'ou must have noticed 
 it?' 
 
 * Oh — well, now and then, peihaps.' 
 
 'Yes, yes; but of course I know myself Ix'tter. And 
 now tell me about Moxev. A marri<'d man, of course ? ' 
 
124 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' No, lives with a sister.' 
 
 ' Unmarried sister ? — Brains ? ' 
 
 ' Pretty well supplied with that commodity.' 
 
 * You must introduce me to her. T do like women with 
 brains. — Orthodox or enlightened ? ' 
 
 ' Bitterly enlightened.' 
 
 ' Really ? Magnificent ! Oh, I must know her. 
 Nothing like an emancipated woman 1 How any man 
 can marry the ordinary female passes my understanding. 
 What do you. think ? ' 
 
 ' My opinions are in suspense ; not yet precipitated, as 
 Peak might say.' 
 
 One o'clock sounded from neighbouring cliurches, but 
 Malkin was wide awake as ever. He entered upon a 
 detailed narrative of his travels, delightful to listen to, 
 so oddly blended were the strains of conscious and un- 
 conscious humour wdiich marked his personality. Two 
 o'clock ; three o'clock ;■ — he would have talked till break- 
 fast-time, but at last Earwaker declared that the hour 
 had come for sleep. As Malkin had taken a room at 
 the Inns of Court Hotel, it was easy for him to repair 
 to his quarters. The last his friend heard of him was 
 an unexplained laugh, echoing far down the staircase. 
 
ir 
 
 Peak's destination was Peckliani llya. On quittiuLj tho 
 railway, he had a walk of some ten minutes aluni^' a road 
 which smelt of new l)ricks and stucco lieated liy the 
 summer sun ; an obscure passage led him into a street 
 partly of dwelling-houses, partly of shops, the latter closed. 
 He paused at the side door of one over which tlie street 
 lamp dimly revealed — ' Button, Herbalist.' 
 
 His latch-key admitted him to total darkness, but he 
 moved forward with the confidence of long use. He 
 softly ascended two flights of stairs, opened a door, struck 
 a match, and found himself in a comfortable sitting-room, 
 soon illumined by a reading-lamp. The atmosphere, as 
 throughout the house, was strongly redolent of dried 
 simples. Anyone acquainted with the characteristics of 
 furnished lodgings must have surmised that Peak dwelt 
 here among his own movealJes, and was indebted to the 
 occupier of the premises for bare walls alone ; the tables 
 and chairs, though plain enough, were such as civilisation 
 permits ; and though there were no pictures, sundry orna- 
 ments here and there made strong denial of lodging-house 
 alfinity. It was at once laboratory, study, and dwelling- 
 room. Two large caljinets, something the worse lor 
 transportation, alone formed a link between this abode 
 and the old home at Twyl)ridge. liooks were not 
 numerous, and a good microscope seemed to l)e the only 
 scientific instrument of much importance. On door-pegs 
 hung a knapsack, a botanist's vasculum, and a geologist's 
 wallet. 
 
 A round table was spread with the materials of supper, 
 
126 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 and here again an experienced lodger must have bestowed 
 contemplative scrutiny, for no hand of common landlady 
 declared itself in the arrangement. The cloth was 
 spotless, the utensils tasteful and carefully disposed. In 
 a bowl lay an appetising salad, ready for mingling; a 
 fragment of Camembert cheese was relieved upon a setting 
 of green leafage : a bottle of ale, with adjacent corkscrew, 
 stood beside the plate ; the very loaf seemed to come from 
 no ordinary baker's, or was made to look better than its 
 kin by the fringed white cloth in which it nestled. 
 
 The custom of four years had accustomed Eeak to take 
 these things as a matter of course, yet he would readily 
 have admitted that they were extraordinary enough. 
 Indeed, he even now occasionally contrasted this state of 
 comfort with the hateful experiences of his first six years 
 in London. The subject of lodgings was one of those on 
 which (often intemperate of speech) he spoke least temper- 
 ately. For six years he had shifted from quarter to 
 quarter, from house to house, driven away each time by 
 lliejLateful contact of vulgarity in every form, — by foulness 
 and dishonesty, by lying, slandering, quarrelling, by 
 drunkenness, by brutal vice, — by all abominations that 
 distinguish the lodging-letter of the metropolis. Obliged 
 to practise extreme economy, lie could not take refuge 
 among self-respecting people, or at all events had no luck 
 in endeavouring to find such among the poorer working- 
 class. To _a man of Godwin's idiosyncrasy the London 
 poor were of necessity a^bmninablc, and it anguished him 
 to be forced to live among them. 
 
 Itcscue came at last, and in a very unexpected way. 
 Iicsident in the more open part of Bermondsey (winter 
 mornings made a long journey to Ivotherhithe intolerable), 
 he happened to walk one day as far as Peckham Ilye, and 
 was there attracted by the shop window of a herbalist. 
 He entered to make a purchase, and got into conversation 
 with Mr. Button, a middle-aged man of bright intelligence 
 and more reading than could be expected. The herbalist 
 led his customer to an upper room, in which Avere stored 
 sundry curiosities, and happened casually to say that 
 he was desirous of finding a lodger for two superfluous 
 
BURN IX KXILK 127 
 
 cliambers. Peak's inquiries led to liis seein,Lj Mrs. JJution, 
 wliom lie found tu ])e a Frencli woman of very jjlcasin" 
 appearance; she spoke fluent Freneli-Kn^lish," anythinjj; 
 but disagreeable to iiOL-t^ai' constantly tormented by the 
 London ve rnacular. After short rellection \hi dt'iided to 
 take and furnish the rooms. It proved a most lortunate 
 step, for he lived (after the outlay for furniture) at much 
 less expense than theretofore, and in com])arative luxurv. 
 Cleanliness, neatness, good taste by no means exliausted 
 ^Irs. lUitton's virtues; her cooking seemed to tlie lodger 
 of incredil)le perfection, and the intinite goodwill with 
 which he was tended made strange contrast with the base 
 usage he had commonly experienced. 
 
 In these ten years he had paid but four visits to 
 Twybridge, each of brief duration. Xaturally there were 
 changes among his kinsfolk : Charlotte, after an engage- 
 ment which prolonged itself to the fifth twelvemonth, had 
 become Mrs. Cusse, and her husband now had a draper's 
 shop of his' own, with two children already born into the 
 w^orld of draperdom. Oliver, twice fruitlessly atlianced, 
 luid at length (when six-and-twenty) wedded a young 
 person wliom his njother and his aunt both regarded as a 
 most undesirable connection, tlie daughter (aged tliirty- 
 two) of a man who was drinking himself to death on sucli 
 money as he could earn by casual reporting for a 
 Twybridge newspaper. ]\Irs. Peak the elder now aljode 
 with her sister at tlie millinery shop, and saw little of her 
 two married children. With Oliver and Charlotte tlieir 
 brother had no sym])athy, and affected none; he never 
 wrote to them, nor they to him; but years had strength- 
 ened his regard for his mother, and with her he had fairly ^ 
 regular correspondence. Gladly he would have seen her 
 more often, but the air of shopkeeping lie was com]»elled 
 to breathe \vhen he visited Twybridge nauseated ami 
 repelled him. He recognised the suitability both of 
 TTTiver and Charlotte for the positions to which life had 
 consigned them — they suffered from \u) profitless aspira- 
 tion ; but it seemed to him a just cause of (juarrel with 
 fate that his kindred should thus have relapsed, instead of 
 bettering the rank their father had bequeathed to them. 
 
128 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 He would not avow to such friends as Moxey and 
 Earwaker the social standing of his only recognised 
 relatives. 
 
 As for the unrecognised, he had long ago heard with 
 some satisfaction that Andrew Peak, having ultimately 
 failed in his Kingsmill venture, returned to London. 
 Encounter with the fatal Andrew had been spared him 
 ever since that decisive day when Master Jowey Peak 
 recited from Coleridge and displayed his etymological 
 crenius. 
 
 o 
 
 For himself, he had earned daily bread, and something 
 more ; he had studied in desultory fashion ; he had seen 
 a good deal of the British Isles and had visited Paris. The 
 result of it all was gnawing discontent, intervals of furious 
 revolt, periods of black despair. 
 
 —.-.He had achieved nothini'', and he was alone. 
 
 Young still, to be sure ; at twenty-nine it is too early 
 to abandon ambitions which are supported by force of 
 brain and of will. But circumstances must needs help if 
 the desires of his soul were to be attained. On first 
 coming to London, received with all friendliness by 
 Christian Moxey, he had imagined that it only depended 
 upon himself to find admission before long to congenial 
 society — by which he then understood the companionship 
 of intelligent and aspiring young men. Christian, how- 
 ever, had himself no such circle, and knew that the 
 awkward lad from Twybridge could not associate with the 
 one or two wealthy families to which he could have pre- 
 sented him. The School of Mines was only technically 
 useful; it helped Godwin to get his place with Bates & 
 Sons, but supplied no friendships. In the third year, 
 Moxey inherited means and left the chemical works for 
 continental travel. 
 
 By tormenting attraction Godwin was often led to walk 
 
 ! in the wealthy districts of London. Why was no one of 
 
 i these doors open to him ? There were his equals ; not in 
 
 the mean streets where he dwelt. There were the men of 
 
 ^_, culture and capacity, the women of exquisite person and 
 
 1 exalted mind. Was he the inferior of such people? By 
 Iheaven, no ! 
 
I'.oKX IN i:.\iij-: 121) 
 
 He chanced once to be in Hyde Park on the uccasiun of 
 some public ceremony, and was l)rought to pause at the 
 edge of a gaping plebeian crowd, drawn uj) to witness ihe 
 passing of aristocratic veliicles. Close in front of him an 
 open carriage came to a stop ; in it sat, or rather reclined, 
 two ladies, old and young. Upon this picture (lodwiu 
 fixed his eyes with- the intensity of fascination; his 
 memory never lost the impress of these ladies' faces. 
 Xothing very noteworthy about them ; but to ( lodwin they 
 conveyed a passionate perception of all that is imi)lied in 
 social superiority. Here he stood, one of the multitude, 
 of the herd ; shoulder to shoulder with boors and pick- 
 pockets ; and within reach of his hand reposed those two 
 ladies, in Olympian calm, seeming unaware even of the 
 existence of the throng. Xow they exchanged a word ; 
 now they smiled to eacli other. How delicate was the 
 moving of their lips! How fine must 1)0 their enuncia- 
 tion ! On the box sat an old coachman and a young 
 footman ; they too were splendidly impassive, scornful of 
 the multitudinous gaze. — The block was relieved, and on 
 the carriage rolled. 
 
 They were his equals, those ladies ; nierely his equals. 
 With such as they he should by right of nature associate. 
 
 In his rebellion, he could not liate them. He hated the 
 malo doro us rabble who stared insolently at them and who 
 envied their immeasurable remoteness. Of mere wealth 
 he thought not ; might he only be recognised by the gentle 
 of birth and breeding for what he really was, and Ix' 
 rescued from the promiscuity ofjjie vulgar ! 
 
 Yet at this time he was drawn into connection with the 
 movement of popidar Radicalism which revolts against 
 religious respectability. Inherited antipatliy to all con- 
 ventional forms of faith outweighed his other prejudices 
 so far as to induce him to write savage papers for The 
 Liberator. Personal contact with artisan freethinkers 
 was disgusting to him. From the meeting of emancii)ated 
 workmen he went away with scorn and detestation in his 
 heart; but in the quiet of his lodgings lie could sitclown 
 to aid their propaganda. One explanation of this incon- 
 sistency lay in the fact that no otlier channel was open to 
 
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130 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 his literary impulses. Pure science could not serve him, 
 for he had no original results to announce. Pure litera- 
 ture seemed beyond his scope, yet he was constantly 
 endeavouring to express himself. He burned willi_thfi- 
 desire of fame, and saw no hope of achieving it save as an 
 author. The Liberator would serve him as a first step. 
 In time he might get foothold in the monthly reviews, 
 and see his name side by side with those of the leaders 
 of thought. 
 
 Occasions, of course, offered when he might have 
 extended his acquaintance, but they were never of a kind 
 that he cared to use; at best they would only have 
 admitted liim to the homes of decent, semi-educated 
 families, and for such society he was altogether unfitted. 
 The licence of the streets but seldom allured him. After 
 his twenty-fourth year he was proof against the decoys of 
 venal pleasure, and lived a life of asceticism exceed- 
 ingly rare in young and lonely men. When Christian 
 Moxey returned to London and took the house at Notting 
 Hill, which he henceforth occupied together with his 
 sister, a possibility of social intercourse at length appeared. 
 Indeed it was a substantial gain to sit from time to time 
 at a civilised table, and to converse amid graceful sur- 
 roundings with people who at all events followed the 
 ^ intellectual current of the day. Careless hitherto of his 
 personal appearance, he now cultivated an elegance of 
 attire in conformity with^iis aristocratic instinctsKand 
 this habit became fixed. When next he visited Twy bridge, 
 the change in his appearance was generally remarked. 
 Mrs. Peak naturally understood it as a significant result 
 of his intercourse with Miss Moxey, of whom, as it seemed 
 to her, he spoke with singular reticence. 
 
 But Marcella had no charm for Goodwin's imagination^ 
 notwithstanding that he presently suspected a warmth 
 of interest on her side which he was far from consciously 
 encouraging. Nor did he find among his friends any man 
 or woman for whose acquaintance he greatly cared. .The 
 Moxeys had a very small circle, consisting chieHy of 
 intellectual inferiors. Christian was too indolent to make 
 a figure in society, and his sister suffered from peculiarities 
 
HOllX IX KXTI,!-: 13 I 
 
 of mind ami tempcrameiil whicli matlc. it as dinicull for 
 lier as for Peak liimselt' to form intimate friendships. 
 
 Wlien chance encounter brouglit him into connection 
 with Earwaker, tlie revival of bygone things was at 
 first doubtfully pleasant. Karwaker himself, remarkably 
 developed and become a very interesting man, was as 
 welcome an associate as he could have found, but it cost 
 him some eftbrt to dismiss the tliought of Andrew Peak's 
 eating-house, and to accept the friendly tact with which 
 tlie journalist avoided all hint of unpleasant memories. 
 That Earwaker should refrain from a single question 
 concerning that abrupt disappearance, nearly ten years ago, 
 sutticiently declared his knowledge of the unspeakalile 
 cause, a reflection wliich often made Godwin wriihe. 
 However, this difficulty was overcome, and the two met 
 very frequently. For several weeks (Jodwin enjoyed 
 better spirits than he had known since the first excite- 
 ment of his life in London faded away. 
 
 One result was easily foreseen. His mind grew busy 
 with literary projects, many that he had long contem- 
 l)lated and some that were new. Once more he aimed 
 at contributing to the ' advanced ' reviews, and sketched 
 out several papers of sociological tenor. Xone of these 
 were written. As soon as he sat down to deliberate 
 composition, a sense of his deficiencies embarrassed liim. 
 Godwin's self-conhdence had nothing in common with the 
 conceit which rests on imaginary strength. Power there 
 was in him ; of that he could not but be conscious : its true 
 direction he had not yet learned. Defect of knowledge, 
 lack of pen-practice, confusion and contradictoriness of 
 aims, instability of conviction, — these faults he recogniseil 
 in liimself at every moment of inward scrutiny. 
 
 On liis table this evening lay a library volume wliich 
 he had of late been reading, a book wliich had sprung into 
 enormous popularity. It was called Spiritual Aspnts of 
 Evolution, and undertook, with confidence characteristic of 
 its kind, to reconcile the latest results of science with the 
 dogmas of Oriental religion. This work was in his mind 
 when he spoke so vehemently at Mt)xey's ; already he had 
 trembled with an impulse to write something on the subject, 
 
132 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 and during liis journey home a possible essay liad begun to 
 shape itself. Late as was the hour he could not prepare 
 for sleep. His brain throbbed with a congestion of 
 thought ; he struggled to make clear the lines on which his 
 satire niiglit direct itself. By two o'clock he had tiung 
 down on paper a conglomerate of burning ideas, and thus 
 relieved he at length went to bed. 
 
 Two days later came a note from Staple Inn, inviting 
 him to meet Malkin the next evening. By this time he 
 had made a beirinnino- of his critical essav, and the 
 exordium so far satisfied him that he was tempted to 
 take it for Earvvaker's judgment. But no ; better his 
 friend should see tlie thing when it was complete. 
 
 About eight o'clock he reached the journalist's chambers. 
 Malkin had not yet arrived. Peak amused liimself with 
 exandning certain tropical products which the traveller 
 had recently cast pell-mell into his friend's sitting-room. 
 Then sounded a knock at the door, but it was not such 
 as would have heralded the expected man. 
 
 ' A telegram,' observed Earwaker, and went to take it in. 
 
 He returned with hoarse sounds of mirth. 
 
 ' Our friend excuses himself. Eead this characteristic 
 despatch.' 
 
 l*eak saw with surprise that the telegram far exceeded 
 familiar dimensions. ' Unspeakably grieved,' it began. 
 ' Cannot possibly with you. At moment's notice under- 
 taken escort two poor girls Eouen. Not even time look 
 in apologise. (Jo riCi Dieppe and leave Victoria few 
 minutes. Hope be back Thursday. Express sincerest 
 regret Mr. Peak. Lament appearance discourtesy. AVill 
 apologise personally. Common humanity constrains go 
 Eouen. Will explain Thursday. No time add another 
 word. Eush tickets train.' 
 
 ' There you have the man ! ' cried Karwaker. ' How do 
 you class such a mind as that ? Ten to one this is some 
 Quixotic obligation he has laid upon himself, and probably 
 he has gone without even a handbag.' 
 
 * Vocally delivered,' said Peak, ' this would represent a 
 certain stage of drunkenness. I sui)pose it isn't open to 
 such an explanation ? ' 
 
BORN IN KXII.K 133 
 
 ' Mai kin never was intoxicated, save wiili liis own 
 vivacity.' 
 
 Tliey discussed the sint^ailar Itcinij with good-natured 
 mirth, tlien turned by degrees to other topics. 
 
 ' I have just come across a passage tliat will delight you/ 
 said Earwaker, taking up a l)ook. ' Perha}»s you know it.' 
 
 He read from Sir Thomas lirown's Psrudodit.ria 
 Epidcmica. ' " jMen's names sliould not only distinguisli 
 them, A man should be something tliat all men are not, 
 and individual in somewhat beside his proper name. 
 Thus, while it exceeds not the bound of reason and 
 modesty, we cannot condemn singularity. Nos numcius 
 sumvs is the motto of the multitude, and for that reason 
 are they fools." ' 
 
 Peak lauglied his approval. 
 
 ' It astonishes me,' he said, lighting ids pipe, ' that you 
 can go on writing for this Sunday rag, when you have 
 just as little sympathy with its aims as I have. 1 )o get 
 into some less offensive connection.' 
 
 'What paper would you reconnncnd (' asked the other, 
 with liis significant smile. 
 
 ' Why need you journalise at all i ' 
 
 ' On the whole, I like it. And remember, to admit that 
 the multitude are fools is not the same thing as to deny |f 
 the possibility of progress.' 
 
 ' Do you really believe yourself a democrat, Karwaker i ' 
 
 ' M — m — m ! Well, yes, I believe the democratic spirit 
 is stronger in me than any other.' 
 
 Teak mused for a minute, then suddeidy Ljoked up. 
 
 ' And what am I ? ' 
 
 ' I am glad nothing much depends on my successfidly 
 defining you.' 
 
 They laughed together. 
 
 *r sup])Ose,' said Godwin, 'you can't call a man a 
 democrat who recognises in his heart and soul a true 
 distinction of social classes. Social, mark. The division I y 
 instinctively support is by no means intellectual. Tlie wcll- 
 Itorn fool is very often more sure of my rcsi)ect tlian the 
 working man who struggles to a fair measure of education.' 
 
 Karwaker would have liked to comment on this with 
 
134 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 remarks personal to the speaker, but he feared to do so. 
 His silence, however, was eloquent to Peak, who resumed 
 brusquely. 
 
 ' I am not myself well-born, — tliough if my parents 
 could have come into wealth early in their lives, perhaps 
 I might reasonably have called myself so. All sorts of 
 arguments can be brought against my prejudice, but the 
 prejudice is ineradicable. I respect hereditary social 
 standing, independently of the individual's qualities. 
 There's nothing of the flunkey in this, or I greatly deceive 
 myself. Birth in a sphere of -xefinEHueiit js desirable and 
 respectable ; it saves one, absolutely, from many forms of 
 coarseness. The masses are not only fools, but very near 
 the brutes. Yes, they can send forth fine individuals — 
 but remain base. I don't deny the possibility of social 
 advance; I only say that at present the lower classes 
 are always disagreeable, often repulsive, sometimes 
 hateful.' 
 
 ' I could apply that to the classes above them.' 
 
 'Well, I can't. But I am quite ready to admit that 
 there are all sorts of inconsistencies in me. Now, the 
 other day I was reading Burns, and I couldn't describe 
 what exaltation all at once possessed me in the thought 
 that a ploughman had so glorified a servant-girl that 
 together they shine in the highest heaven, far above all 
 the monarchs of earth. This came upon me with a rush 
 — a very rare emotion. Wasn't that democratic ? ' 
 
 He inquired dubiously, and Earwaker for a moment 
 had no reply but his familiar ' M — m — m ! ' 
 
 'No, it was not democratic,' the journalist decided at 
 length ; ' it was pride of intellect.' 
 
 ' Think so ? Then look here. If it happens that a 
 whining wretch stops me in the street to beg, what do you 
 suppose is my feeling ? I am ashamed in the sense of 
 my own prosperity. I can't look him in the face. H I 
 yielded to my natural impulse, I should cry out, " Strike 
 me ! spit at me ! show you hate me ! — anything but that 
 terrible humiliation of yourself before me!" That's how 
 I feel. The abasement of which he isn't sensible affects 
 mc on his behalf. T give money with what delicacy I can. 
 
K<>i;\ jx Kxii.K i:jr, 
 
 If 1 am obliged to refuse, I mutter ajiologies and hurry 
 away with burning cheeks. Wliat does that mean ^' 
 
 Earwaker regarded liim curiously. 
 
 ' That is mere fineness of humanity.' 
 
 • Perhaps moral weakness T 
 
 ' 1 don't care for the scalpel of the pessimist. Let us 
 give it the better name.' 
 
 Teak had never been so communicative. His progress 
 in composition these last evenings seemed to have raised 
 liis spirits and spurred the activity of his mind. With 
 a look of pleasure he pursued his self-analysis. 
 
 ' Special antipathies — sometimes explicable enough — 
 inlluence me very widely. Now, I by no means hate all 
 orders of uneducated people. A hedger, a fisherman, a 
 country mason, — people of that kind I rather like to talk 
 with. I could live a good deal wdth them. Rut the 
 London vulgar I abominate, root and branch. The mere 
 sound of their voices nauseates me ; tlieir vilely grotes([ue 
 accent and pronunciation — bah 1 I could wi'ite a paper 
 to show that they are essentially the basest of English 
 mortals, rnhappily. 1 kno w so much about tltem. If I 
 saw the probability of my dying in a London lodging- 
 house, I would go out into the sweet-scented fields and 
 there kill myself.' 
 
 Earwaker understood much by this avowal, and wondered 
 whether liis friend desired him so to do. 
 
 ' Well, I can't say that I have any affection for the 
 race,' he replied. ' I certainly believe that, socially and 
 politically, there is less hope of them tlian of the lower 
 orders in any other part of England.' 
 
 'They are damned by the beastly conditions of tlieir 
 life!' cried Godwin, excitedly. '1 don't mean only the 
 slum -denizens. All, all — Hannuersmith as much as 
 St. George's - in - the - East. 1 must write about this; 
 1 must indeed.' 
 
 * Do by all means. Nothing would benefit you more 
 than to get your soul into print.' 
 
 Peak delayed a little, then : 
 
 ' Well, I am doing something at last.' 
 
 And he gave an account of his projected essay. l»y 
 
136 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 this time his hands trembled with nervous agitation, and 
 occasional!}^ a dryness of the palate half choked his voice. 
 
 ' This may do very well,' opined Earwaker. ' I suppose 
 you will try Tlir Critical ?■ ' 
 
 * Yes. But have I any chance ? Can a perfectly 
 unknown man hope to get in ? ' 
 
 They debated this aspect of the matter. Seeing Peak 
 had laid down his pipe, the journalist offered him tobacco. 
 
 'Thanks; I can't smoke just yet. It's my misfortune 
 tliat I can't talk earnestly without throwing my body into 
 disorder.' 
 
 ' How stolid I am in comparison ! ' said Earwaker. 
 
 ' That book of M'Naughten's,' resumed the other, going 
 back to his sul)ject. ' I suppose the clergy accept it ? ' 
 
 ' Largely, I believe.' 
 
 Peak mused. 
 
 ' Now, if I were a clergyman ' 
 
 But his eye met Earwaker's, and they broke into 
 laughter. 
 
 ' Why not ? ' pursued Godwin. ' Did I ever tell you 
 that my people originally wished to make a parson of me ? 
 Of course I resisted tooth and nail, but it seems to me 
 now that I was rather foolish in doing so. I wish I had 
 l)een a parson. In many ways the position woukl have 
 suited me very well.' 
 
 ' M— m— m ! ' 
 
 ' I am quite serious. Well, if I were so placed, I 
 should preach Church dogma, pure and simple. I would 
 have nothing to do with these reconciliations. I would 
 stand firm as Jeremy Taylor ; and in consequence 1 
 should have an immense and enthusiastic congregation.' 
 
 ' I daresay.' 
 
 ' Depend upon it, let the dogmas do what they still 
 can. Tliere's a vast police force in tliem, at all events. A 
 man may ver}^ strongly defend himself for preacliing them.' 
 
 The pursuit of this argument led Earwaker to ask : 
 
 'What proportion of the clergy can still take that 
 standing in stolid conscientiousness ? ' 
 
 'What proportion are convinced that it is untenable ?' 
 returned Peak. 
 
BORX IX KXILK 137 
 
 'Many wilfully shut tlicir eyes to tlie truth.' 
 
 * No, they don't shut their eyes ! ' cried ( iodwiu. ' Tliey 
 merely lower a nictitating membrane which permits 
 them to gaze at light without feeling its full impact.' 
 
 * I recommend you to l)ring that into your paper,' said 
 the journalist, with his deep cliuckle. 
 
 An hour later they were conversing with no less 
 animation, but the talk was not so critical. Christian 
 Moxey had come up as a topic, and P^arwaker was saying 
 that he found it difficult to divine the man's personality. 
 
 * You won't easily do that,' replied Peak, ' until you know 
 more of his story. I can't see that 1 am bound to secrecy 
 — at all events with you. Poor Moxey imagines that he 
 is in love, and the fancy has lasted about ten years.' 
 
 * Ten years ? ' 
 
 'When I first knew him he was paying obvious 
 attentions to a rather plain cousin down at Twyl)ridge. 
 Why, I don't know, for he certainly was devoted to 
 a girl here in London. All he has confessed to me is 
 that he had given up hopes of her, but that a letter 
 of some sort or other revived them, and he hastened back 
 to town. He might as well have stayed away ; the girl 
 very soon married another man. Less than a year later 
 she had bitterly repented this, and in some way or other 
 she allowed Moxey to know it. Since then they have 
 been Platonic lovers — nothing more, I am convinced. 
 They see each other about once in six months, and 
 presumably live on a hope that the obnoxious husband 
 may decease. T only know the woman as " Constance " ; 
 never saw her.' 
 
 'So that's Moxey ? I begin to understand better.' 
 
 'Admirable fellow, l)ut dei)loral)ly weak. I have an 
 aflection for him, and have had from our first meetini^.' 
 
 'Women!' mused Earwaker, and sliook liis licad. 
 
 ' Vou despise them ? ' 
 
 ' On the whole, Pm afraid so.' 
 
 'Yes, but irj(((f women?' cried the other with im])a- 
 tience. 'It would be just as reasonabh* to say that y«»u 
 despise men. Can't you see tliat V 
 
 ' I doul)t it.' 
 
138 BORN IN p:xile 
 
 ' Now look here ; the stock objections to women are 
 traditional. They take no account of the vast change 
 that is coming about. Because women were once empty- 
 headed, it is assumed they are all still so en masse. The 
 defect of the female mind ? It is my belief that this is 
 nothing more nor less than the defect of the uneducated 
 human mind. I believe most men among the brutally 
 ignorant exhibit the very faults which are cried out 
 upon as exclusively feminine. A woman has hitherto 
 l)een an ignorant human being; that explains everything.' 
 
 ' Not everything ; something, perhaps. Eemember 
 your evolutionism. The preservation of the race demands 
 in women many kinds of irrationality, of obstinate 
 instinct, which enrage a reasoning man. Don't suppose I 
 speak theoretically. Four or five years ago I had really 
 made up my mind to marry; I wasted much valuable 
 time among women and girls, of anything but low social 
 standing. But my passions were choked by my logical 
 faculty. I foresaw a terrible possibility — that I might 
 beat my wife. One thing I learned w^ith certainty was 
 that the woman, fjujf woman, liates abstract thought — 
 hates it. Moreover (and of consequence) she despises 
 every ambition that has not a material end.' 
 
 He enlarged upon the subject, followed it into all its 
 ramifications, elaborated the inconsistencies with wliich 
 it is rife. Teak's reply was deliberate. 
 
 'Admitting that some of these faults are rooted in 
 sex, 1 should only find them intolerable when their 
 expression took a vulgar form. Between irrationality 
 and coarseness of mind there is an enormous distinc- 
 tion.' 
 
 ' With coarse minds I have nothing to do.' 
 
 ' Forgive me if I ask you a blunt question,' said Beak, 
 after hesitating. ' Have you ever associated with women 
 of the highest refinement ^ ' 
 
 Earwaker laughed. 
 
 ' I don't know what that phrase means. It sounds 
 rather odd on your lips.' 
 
 'AVell, women of the highest class of commoners. 
 With peeresses we needn't concern ourselves.' 
 
HOKX IX KXII.K 1:^)0 
 
 'You iiiiaLjino thai social })icct'denc(.' makes all that 
 ilitlereiice in women ? ' 
 
 * Yes, 1 do. The daughter of a county family is a 
 liner being than any girl who can sj)ring from the nomad 
 orders.' 
 
 'Even supposing your nomads i)roduce a Kachel or a 
 ( 'harlotte Bronte i ' 
 
 ' We are not talking of genius,' Peak replied. 
 
 ' It was irrelevant, I know. — Well, yes, 1 Juirr conversed 
 now and then with what you would call well-born women. 
 They are delightful creatures, some of theni, in given 
 circumstances. But do you think I ever dreamt of taking 
 a wife drenched with social prejudices T 
 
 Peak's face expressed annoyance, and he said nothing. 
 
 * A man's wife,' pursued P'arwaker, ' may be his superior 
 in whatever you like, cjccpt social position. That is 
 precisely the distinction that no woman can forget or 
 forgive. On that account they are the obstructive element 
 in social history. If I loved a woman of rank above my 
 own she would make me a renegade: for her sake I should 
 deny my faith. I should write for the >SV. Jamcss G(i'jfti\ 
 and at last poison myself in an agony of shame.' 
 
 A burst of laughter cleared the air for a moment, but 
 for a moment only. Peak's countenance clouded over 
 again, and at length he said in a lower tone : 
 
 ' Tliere are men whose character would defy that rule.' 
 
 'Yes — to their own disaster. But I ought to have 
 made one exception. There is a case in which a woman 
 will marry without much regard to her husband's origin. 
 Let him be a parson, and he may aim as liigh as he 
 chooses.' 
 
 Peak tried to smile. He made no answer, and fell 
 into a tit of brooding. 
 
 ' What's all this about ? ' asked the journalist, wlien he 
 too had mused awhile. 'Whose aeciuaintance liave ynu 
 been making ? ' 
 
 ' Xo one's.' 
 
 The suspicion was inevitable. 
 
 'If it were true, perhaps you would be justified in 
 mistrusting my way of regarding these things. liut it's 
 
o 
 
 140 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 the natural tendency of my mind. If I ever marry at all, 
 it will be a woman of far higher birth than my own.' 
 
 ' Don't malign your parents, old fellow. They gave you 
 a brain inferior to tliat of few men. You wall never meet 
 a woman of higher birth.' 
 
 'That's a friendly sophism. 1 can't thank you for it, 
 because it has a bitter side.' 
 
 But the compliment had excited Peak, and after a 
 moment's delay he exclaimed : 
 
 * I have no other ambition in life — no other ! Think 
 the confession as ridiculous as you like ; my one supreme 
 desire is to marry a perfectly refined woman. Put it in 
 the correct terms : I am a plebeian, and I aim at marrying 
 ^ lady.' 
 
 The last words were Hung out defiantly. He quivered 
 as he spoke, and his face Hushed. 
 
 ' I can't wish you success,' returned liis friend, with a 
 srave smile. 
 
 You couldn't help it sounding like a sneer, if you did. 
 The desire is hopeless, of course. It's l)ecause I know- 
 that, that I have made up my mind to travel for a year 
 or two ; it'll help me on towards the age when I shall 
 reQ;ard all women with indifference. We won't talk about 
 it any more.' 
 
 ' One question. You seriously believe that you could 
 find satisfaction in the life to which such a marriage would 
 condemn you ? ' 
 
 * What life ? ' asked Peak, impatiently. 
 
 •' That of an average gentleman, let us say, with house 
 in town and country, with friends whose ruling motive 
 was social propriety.' 
 
 ' I conld enjoy the good and tln^ow aside the distasteful.' 
 
 ' What about the distastefulness of your wife's crass 
 conventionalism, especially in religion ? ' 
 
 ' It' would not be r/Y/.s.s, to begin with. If her religion 
 were genuine, I could tolerate it well enough ; if it were 
 merely a form, I could train her to my own opinions. 
 Society is growing liberal — the best of it. Please re- 
 member that I have in mind a woman of the liighest type 
 our civilisation can produce.' 
 
lioKN IX KXTLK 141 
 
 * Then you nuistn't look tor licr in society ! ' cried 
 Earwaker. 
 
 • I don't care ; where you will, so lonj^' as she had always 
 liVed among people of breeding and high education, and 
 never had her thoughts soiled with the vihi contact of 
 poverty.' 
 
 Karwakcr started up and reached a volume from a shelf. 
 Quickly finding the desired page, he hegan to read aloud : 
 
 ' Di-ar, liad the world in its tapriie 
 
 Deigned to proclaim — I know you liotii. 
 Have recognised your jdighted truth. 
 Am sponsor for you ; live in peace ! ' 
 
 He read to the end of the poem, and then looked u[» 
 with an admiring smile. 
 
 'An ideal!' exclaimed Peak. 'An ideal akin Lo 
 ]\Iurger's and Musset's grisettes, who never existed.' 
 
 'An ideal, most decidedly. lUit pray what is this 
 consummate lady you have in mind ? An ideal every 
 bit as much, and of the two I prefer Browning's. For 
 my own part, I am a polygamist ; my wives live in 
 literature, and too far asunder to be able to quarrel. 
 Impossible women, but exquisite. They shall suflico 
 to inc.' 
 
 Teak rose, sauntered about the room for a minute or 
 two, then said : 
 
 'T have just got a title for my paper. 1 shall call it 
 " The Xew Sophistry."' 
 
 ' Do very well, I should think,' replied the other, smiling. 
 ' AVill you let me see it when it's done ? ' 
 
 ' Who knows if I shall finish it ? Nothing 1 ever 
 undertook has been finished yet — nothing won that I 
 ever aimed at. Good night. Let me hear about Malkin.' 
 
 In a week's time GodNvin received another sunnnons 
 t(j Staple Inn, with promise of ]\Ialkin's assured presence. 
 In reply he wrote : 
 
 ' ( )wing to a new arrangement at Bates's, I start to- 
 morrow for my holiday in Cornwall, so cannot see you 
 lor a few weeks. Please otler Malkin my ajtologies: 
 make them (I mean it) as profuse as those he telegraphed. 
 
142 BOKN IN EXILE 
 
 Herewith 1 send you my paper, " The New Sophistry," 
 which 1 have written at a few vehement sittings, and 
 have carelessly copied. If you think it worth while, 
 will you have the kindness to send it for me to Tiic 
 Critical! I haven't signed it, as my unmeaning name 
 would perhaps indispose the fellow to see much good 
 in it. I should thank you if you would write in your 
 own person, saying that you act for a friend ; you 
 are probably well known in those quarters. If it is 
 accepted, time enough to claim my glory. If it seems 
 to you to have no chance, keep it till I return, as I hate 
 the humiliation of refusals. — Don't think I made an ass 
 of myself the other night. "\\x will never speak on that 
 subject again. All I said was horribly sincere, but I'm 
 afraid you can't understand that side of my nature. I 
 should never have spoken so frankly to Moxey, though 
 he has made no secret with me of his own weaknesses. 
 If I perish before long in a South American swamp, you 
 will be able to reflect on my personality with completer 
 knowledge, so I don't regret the indiscretion.' 
 
Ill 
 
 ' Fcirunt ft iiiipuliinturj 
 
 Godwin Peak read the motto benealli the clock in 
 Exeter Cathedral, and believed it of Christian ori^'in. 
 Had he known that the words were found in Martial, 
 his rebellious spirit would have enjoyed the consecration 
 of a phrase from such an unlikely author. Even as he 
 must have laudied had he stood in the Vatican before 
 
 o 
 
 I he figures of those two Greek dramatists who, for ages, 
 were revered as Christian saints. 
 
 His ignorance preserved him from a clash uf senti- 
 ments. This afternoon he was not disposed to cNiiicism ; 
 rather he welcomed the softening influence of tliis noble 
 interior, and let the golden sunlight form what shapes 
 it would — heavenly beam, mystic aureole — before Ins 
 mind's eye. Architecture had no special interest for 
 him, and the history of church or faith could seldom 
 touch his emotions ; but the glorious handiwork of men 
 long dead, the solemn stillness of an ancient sanctuary, 
 made that appeal to him which is inde]ten(k'nt of 
 names. 
 
 ' Pcrcant ct ii/qji'/tditii/:' 
 
 He sat down where the soft, slow ticking of the clock 
 could guide his thoughts. This morning he had left 
 London by the earliest train, and after a night in Exeter 
 would travel westward by leisurely stages, seeing as 
 much as possible of the coast and of that inland scenery 
 which had geological significance. His costume declared 
 him bent on holiday, but, at the same time, distinguished 
 him with delicate emphasis from the tourist of the season. 
 
144 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Trustworthy sartorial skill had done its best for his 
 person. Sitting thus, lie had the air of a gentleman who 
 enjoys no unwonted ease. He could forget himself in 
 reverie, and be unaware of soft footfalls that drew near 
 along the aisle. 
 
 But the sound of a youug voice, subdued yet very 
 clear, made claim upon his attention. 
 
 ' Sid well !— Sidwell ! ' 
 
 She who spoke was behind him ; un looking up, he 
 saw that a lady just in front had stopped and turned to 
 the summons ; smiling, she retraced her steps. He 
 moved, so as to look discreetly in the backward direction, 
 and observed a group of four persons, who were occupied 
 with a tabk-t on the wall : a young man (not long out 
 of boyhood), a girl who might l)e a year or two younger, 
 and two ladies, of whom it could only be said that they 
 were mature in the beauty of youth, probably of maiden- 
 hood — one of them, she who iiad V)een called back by 
 the name of ' Sidwell.' 
 
 Surely an uncommon name. From a guide-book, with 
 which he had amused himself in the train, he knew that 
 one of the churches of Exeter was dedicated to St. 
 Sidwell, but only now did his recollection apprise him 
 of a long past acquaintance with the name of the saint. 
 Had not Buckland Warricombe a sister called Sidwell ? 
 And — did he only surmise a connection between the 
 Warricombes and Devon ? No, no ; on that remote day, 
 when he went out with Buckland to the house near 
 Kingsmill, Mr. Warricombe spoke to him of Exeter, — 
 mentioning that the town of his birtli was Axminster, 
 Avhere AVilliam Buckland, the g'eoloiiist, also was born ; 
 whence the name of his eldest son. How suddenly it 
 all came back ! 
 
 He rose and moved apart to a spot whence he might 
 quietly observe the strangers. ' Sidwell,' once remarked, 
 could not be confused with the companion of her own 
 age; she was slimmer, shorter (if but slightly), more 
 sedate in movement, and perhaps better dressed — though 
 both were admirable in that respect. Ladies, b eyond a 
 doubt. And the youug num 
 
BORN IX KXILK 14', 
 
 At tliis (listiince it was easy to docoivc onesulf, but 
 (lid not that lace bring soniethinj^ )»ack { Now, us he 
 smiled, it seemed to recall ]>uckland Warricombc — with 
 ii dill'erence. This might well be a younger brother; 
 there used to be one or two. 
 
 They were familiar with the Cathedral, and at jtresent 
 appeared to take exclusive interest in certain mural 
 monuments. For perhaps ten minutes they lingered 
 about the aisle, then, after a glance at the west window, 
 went forth. With quick step, Godwin pursued them ; he 
 issued in time to see them enticing an open carriage, 
 which presently drove away towards High Street. 
 
 For half an hour he walked the Cathedial Close. Xot 
 long ago, on first coming into that (|uiet space, with its 
 old houses, its smooth lawns, its majestic trees, he had 
 felt the charm peculiar to such scenes — the natural 
 delight in a form of beauty especially English. Now, 
 the impression was irrecoverable; he could sec nothing 
 but those four persons, and their luxurious carriage, and 
 the two beautiful horses w^hich had borne them — 
 whither ? As likely as not the identity he had supposed 
 for them was quite imaginary; yet it would be easy to 
 ascertain whether a Warricombe family dwelt at Exeter. 
 
 The forename of Buckland's father ^ He never had 
 
 known it. Still, it was worth while consulting a dii-ectory. 
 
 He walked to his hotel. 
 
 Yes, the name Warricombe stood there, but it occurred 
 more than once. He sought counsel of the landlord. 
 Which of these Warricombes was a gentleman of position, 
 with grown-up sons and daughters ? To such a descrip- 
 tion answered Martin Warricombe, Esquire, well known 
 in the city. His house was in the Old Tiverton Koad, 
 out beyond St. Sidwell's, two miles away ; anyone in that 
 district would serve as guide to it. 
 
 With purpose indefinite, Godwin set forth in the 
 direction suggested. At little more than a saunter, he 
 passed out of High Street into its continuation, where he 
 soon descried the Church of St. Sidwell, and thence, 
 having made in(|uiry, walked towards the Old Tiverton 
 Koad. He was now (piite beyond the town limits. 
 
146 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 and few pedestrians came in sight ; if he really wished 
 to find the abode of IMartin Wamcombe, he must stop 
 the first questional )le person. But to what end this 
 inquiry ? He could not even be certain tliat Martin was 
 the man he had in mind, and even were he right in all 
 his conjectures, what had he to do with the Warricombes ? 
 
 Ten years ago the family had received him courteously 
 as Buckland's fellow-student ; he had spent an hour or 
 two at tlieir house, and subsequently a few words had 
 passed when they saw him on prize-day at Whitelaw. 
 To Buckland he liad never written ; he had never since 
 heard of him ; that name was involved in the miserable 
 whirl of circumstances which brought his College life to 
 a close, and it was always his hope that lUickland thought 
 no more of him. Even had there been no disagreeable 
 memories, it was surely impossible to renew after this 
 interval so very slight an acquaintance. How could they 
 receive him, save with civilly mild astonishment ? 
 
 An errand-boy came along, whistling townwards, a 
 l)io- basket over his head. No harm in askino- where 
 Mr. Warricombe lived. The reply was prompt : second 
 house on the right hand, rather a large one, not a quarter 
 of a mile onward. 
 
 Here, then. The site was a good one. From this part of 
 the climbing road one looked over the lower valley of the 
 Exe, saw the whole estuary, and beyond that a horizon of 
 blue sea. Fair, rich land, warm under the westering sun. 
 The house itself seemed to be old, but after all was not 
 very large ; it stood amid laurels, and in the garden 
 behind rose a great yew-tree. No person was visible ; 
 but for the wave-like murmur of neighbouring pines, 
 scarce a sound would have disturbed the air. 
 
 Godwin walked past, and found that the road descended 
 into a deep hollow, whence between high banks, covered 
 with gorse and bracken and many a summer flower, it 
 led again up a hill thick planted with firs ; at the lowest 
 point was a l)ridge over a streamlet, offering on either 
 hand a view of soft green meadows. A spot of exquisite 
 retirement : happy who lived here in security from the 
 struggle of life ! 
 
KORX IX i:\ILK 147 
 
 It was folly to spoil liis enjoyment of eountry such as 
 this by dreaming impossil)le opiioiiunities. Tlie Warri- 
 combes could be nothiiiL^- to him ; to nu'ut witli lUukland 
 would only revive the shame long ago outlived. Afier 
 resting for a few minutes he turned back, i)assed the 
 silent house again, delighted himself witli the wide view, 
 and so into the city once more, where he began to seek 
 the remnants of its old walls. 
 
 The next morning was Sunday, and lie had planned to 
 go by the riymouth train to a station whence he could 
 reach Start Toint; but his mood was become so unsettled 
 that ten o'clock, when already he should have been on his 
 journey, found him straying about the Cathedral Close. 
 A mere half-purpose, a vague wavering intention, which 
 might at any moment be scattered by connnon sense, drew 
 his steps to the door of the Cathedral, where people 
 were entering for morning service ; he moved idly within 
 sight of the carriages which drew up. Several had 
 discharged their freightage of tailoring and millinery, 
 wdien two vehicles, which seemed companions, stopped 
 at the edge of the pavement, and from the second alighted 
 the young ladies whom Godwin had yesterday observed ; 
 their male companion, however, was different. The 
 carriage in advance also contained four persons : a 
 gentleman of sixty, his wife, a young girl, and the 
 youth of yesterday. It needed but a glance to inform 
 Godwin that the oldest of the party was ]\Ir. Warri- 
 coml)e, ] Auckland's father ; ten years had made no change 
 in his aspect. Mrs. Warricoml)e was not less recognisable. 
 They passed at once into the edifice, and he had scarcely 
 time to bestow a keen look upon Sid well. 
 
 That was a beautiful girl ; he stood musing upon the 
 picture registered by his brain. But why not follow, and 
 from a neighbouring seat survey her and the others at 
 his leisure ? Pooh ! But the impulse constrained him. 
 After all, he could not get a place that allowed him 
 to see Sidwell. Her companion, however, the one who 
 seemed to be of much the same age, was well in view. 
 Sisters they could not be ; nothing of the AVarricombe 
 countenance revealed it^^elf in those liMudsome but 
 
148 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 strongly-marked features. A beautiful girl, she also, yet 
 of a type that made slight appeal to him. Sidwell was 
 all he could imagine of sweet and dignified ; more modest 
 in Ijearing, more gracile, more 
 
 Monday at noon, and he still walked the streets of 
 Exeter. Early this morning he had been out to the 
 Old Tiverton Eoad, and there, on the lawn amid the 
 laurels, had caught brief glimpse of two female figures, 
 in one of which he merely divined Sidwell. Why he 
 tarried thus he did not pretend to explain to himself. 
 Eain liad just come on, and the lowering sky made him 
 low-spirited ; he mooned about the street under his 
 nmbrella. 
 
 And at this rate, might vapour away his holiday. 
 Exeter was tedious, but he could not make up his mind to 
 set forth for the sea-shore, where only his own thoughts 
 awaited him. Packed away in his wallet lay geological 
 hammer, azimuth compass, clinometer, miniature micro- 
 scope, — why should he drag all that lumber about with 
 him ? What to him were the bygone millions of ages, the 
 lioary records of unimaginable time ? One touch of a 
 girl's hand, one syllable of musical speech, — was it not 
 that whereof his life had truly need ? 
 
 As remote from him, however, as the age of the ptero- 
 dactyl. How often was it necessary to repeat this ? On 
 a long voyage, such as he had all but resolved to take, one 
 might perchance form acquaintances. He had heard of 
 such things; not impossibly, a social circle might open to 
 him at Buenos Ayres. But here in England his poor 
 orifdn, his lack of means, would for ever bar him from 
 [the intimacy of people like the Warricombes. 
 
 He loitered towards the South- Western station, dimly 
 conscious of a purpose to look for trains. Instead of 
 seeking the time-tables he stood before the bookstall and 
 ran his eye along the titles of new novels ; he had half a 
 mind to buy one of Hardy's and read himself into the 
 temper which suited summer rambles. But just as his 
 hand was stretched forth, a full voice, speaking beside 
 him, made demand for a London weekly paper. Instantly 
 he turned. The tones had carried him back to Whitelaw : 
 
BORN IX KXILK 14'.» 
 
 the face disturbed tliat illusiun, but sub.stitutcMl a reality 
 whicli threw liiui into treuior. 
 
 His involuntary gaze was met with out' of ecjual 
 intensity. A man of liis own year.s, hut in spK-ndid 
 health and with bright eyes that looked enjoyment (»! 
 life, suddenly addressed him. 
 
 * Godwin Teak — surely ! ' 
 
 ' Ihickland AVarriconil)e, no less surely.' 
 
 They shook liands with vigour, laughing iu eaeli other's 
 faces; then, after a moment's pause, Warricombe drew 
 aside from the bookstall, for sake of privacy. 
 
 ' Why did we lose sight of each other i ' he asked, 
 tlasliing a glance at Godwin's costume. ' AVliy didn't you 
 write to me at Cambridge { What liave you been doing 
 tliis half-century ? ' 
 
 * I have been in London all the time.' 
 
 ' I am there most of the year. Well, I rejoice to have 
 met you. On a holiday ? ' 
 
 ' Loitering towards Cornwall.' 
 
 ' In that case, you can come and have lunch witli me at 
 my father's house. It's only a mile or two utl'. I was 
 going to walk, but we'll drive, if you like' 
 
 There was no refusing, and no possil)ility of reflection. 
 Luckland's hearty manner made the invitation in itself 
 a thoroughly pleasant one, and before Teak could 
 sufficiently command his thoughts to picture tlie scene 
 towards which he was going they were walkiug side by 
 side through the town. In appearance, Warricombe 
 showed nothing of the revolutionary wliich, in old day<. 
 he aimed at making himself, and liis speech liad a suavity 
 which no doubt resulted from much intercourse with tin 
 polished world ; Godwin was filled with envious admiration 
 of his perfect physique, and the mettle wliich kept it in such 
 excellent vigour. Even ibr a sturdy walki'r, it was no com- 
 mon task to keep pace with Buckland's strides ; Peak soon 
 found himself conversing rather t(jo breathlessly for coin fort. 
 
 ' What is your latest record for the mile ? ' he inquired 
 
 Warricombe, understanding at once the reference to his 
 old athletic pastime and its present application, laughed 
 merrily, and checked his progress. 
 
150 BURN IN EXILE 
 
 ' A bad habit of mine ; it gets me into trouble with 
 everyone. By-the-bye, haven't you become a stronger 
 man tlian used to seem likely ? I'm quite glad to see 
 how well you look.' 
 
 The sincerity of these expressions, often repeated, put 
 Godwin far more at his ease than the first moment's sensa- 
 tion had promised. He too began to feel a genuine pleasure 
 in the meeting, and soon bade defiance to all misgivings. 
 Delicacy perhaps withheld Warricombe from further 
 mention of Whitelaw, but on the other hand it was not im- 
 possible that he knew nothing of the circumstances which 
 tormented Godwin's memory. On leaving the College 
 perchance he had lost all connection with those common 
 friends who might have informed him of subsequent 
 jokes and rumours. Unlikely, to be sure ; for doubtless 
 some of his Whitelaw contemporaries encountered him 
 at Cambridge ; and again, was it not probable that the 
 younger Warricombe had become a Whitelaw student ? 
 Then Professor Gale — no matter! The Warricombes 
 of course knew all about Andrew Peak and his dining- 
 rooms, but they were liberal-minded, and could forgive a 
 l)oy's weakness, ns well as overlook an acquaintance's 
 obscure origin. In the joy of finding himself exuberantly 
 welcomed by a man of Buckland's world he overcame 
 his ignoble self-consciousness. 
 
 ' Did you know that we were in this part of the 
 country?' AYarricombe asked, once more speeding 
 ahead. 
 
 'I ahvavs thought of vou in connection with Kings- 
 mill.' 
 
 ' We gave up Thornhaw seven years ago. My father 
 was never (juite comfortable out of Devonshire. The 
 house I am taking you to has been in our family for 
 three generations. I have often tried to be proud of the 
 fact, but, as you would guess, that kind of thing doesn't 
 come very natural to me.' 
 
 In the eflbrt to repudiate such sentiment, Buckland 
 distinctly betrayed its hold u])on him. He imagined he 
 was meeting Godwin on equal ground, but the sensibility 
 of the proletarian could not thus be deceived. There was 
 
liOKX IX KXII,K 151 
 
 a brief silence, duriiiL; wliich each looked away from tli. 
 other. 
 
 'Still keep up your geology T was Wanicoiiibe's next 
 question. 
 
 * I can just say that I haven't forgotten it all.' 
 'I'm afraid that's more than 1 can. During my 
 Cambridge time it caused disagreeable debates with my 
 father. You remember that his science is of tlie old 
 school. 1 wouldn't say a word to disparage liim. I 
 believe the extent of his knowledge is magniticent; but 
 he can't get rid of that old man of the sea, the Book of 
 Genesis. A few years ago I wasn't too considerate in 
 argument, and I talked as I oughtn't to have done, called 
 names, and so on. The end of it was, 1 dropped science 
 altogether, having got as much out of it as I needed. The 
 good old pater has quite forgiven my rudeness. At present 
 we agree to differ, and get on capitally. I'm sure he'll 
 be delighted to see you. There are some visitors with us ; 
 a Miss Moorhouse and her brother. I think you'll like 
 them. Couldn't you stay overnight ? ' 
 
 Godwin was unable to reply on the instant, and his 
 companion proceeded with the same heartiness. 
 
 Must as you like, you know. But do stay if you can. 
 On Wednesday morning I must go back to town. I act 
 as secretary to Godolphin, the member for Slacksea.' 
 
 Peak's acquaintance with current politics was sliglit, 
 but Mr. Ellis (l(xlolphin,\the aristocratic IJadicapneces- 
 saril}- stood before his imagination with some clearness 
 of outline. So this was how life had dealt with Buckland. 
 The announcement was made with a certain satisfactii>n, 
 as if it implied more than the hearer would readily 
 a))preciate. xVgain there was a slight shrinking on 
 (Godwin's part; it would be natural for him to avow 
 his own position, and so leave no room for misunder- 
 standings, but before he could shape a phrase Ibicklan.l 
 was again questioning. 
 
 ' Do you ever see any of the old fellows ? ' 
 ' I have met one or two of them, by chance.' 
 As if bis tact informed him that this in(iuiry had bci'ii 
 a mistake, Warricoml)e resumed the subject of his family. 
 
152 BORN IN PLXILE 
 
 ' ]\Iy brotlier Louis is at home — of course you can't 
 reineinber him ; lie was a youngster when you were at 
 Tliornhaw, The younger boy died some years ago, a 
 pony accident ; cut up my father dreadfully. Then 
 there's my sister Sidwell, and my sister Fanny — that's 
 all of us. I can't quite answer for Louis, but the rest are 
 of the old school. Liberal enough, don't be afraid. But 
 — well, the old school.' 
 
 As Godwin kept silence, the speaker shot a glance at 
 liim, keenly scrutinising. Their eyes did not meet: Peak 
 kept his on the ground. 
 
 ' Care much about politics nowadays ? ' 
 
 ' Not very much.' 
 
 ' Can't say that 1 do myself,' pursued Buckland. ' I 
 rather drifted into it. Godolphin, I daresay, has as little 
 humbug about him as most parliamentarians ; we stick 
 to the practical fairly well. I shall never go into the 
 House on my own account. But there's a sort of pleasure 
 in being in the thick of public movements. I'm not cut 
 out for debate ; should lose my temper, and tell disagree- 
 able truths — which wouldn't do, you know. But behind 
 the scenes — it isn't bad, in a way.' 
 
 A longer pause obliged Godwin to speak of himself. 
 
 * My life is less exciting. For years I have worked in 
 a manufacturing laboratory at Kotherhithe.' 
 
 ' So science has carried the day with you, after all. It 
 used to be very doubtful.' 
 
 This was a kind and pleasant way of interpreting 
 necessity. Godwin felt grateful, and added with a 
 smile : 
 
 ' I don't think 1 shall stick to it much longer. For one 
 thing, I am sick of town. Perhaps I shall travel for a 
 year or two ; perhaps — I'm in a state of transition, to 
 tell the truth.' 
 
 Buckland revolved this information ; his face told that 
 he found it slightly puzzling. 
 
 ' You once had thoughts of literature.' 
 
 * Long given up.' 
 
 ' Leisure would perhaps revive them ? ' 
 ' Possibly ; but I think not.' 
 
i;()i;x IX KXiij'. loo 
 
 They were now (luiltiiig ihe town, and Peak, unwillin;^' 
 to appear before strangers in a state of ])rofiiS(' jtcrspini- 
 tion, again moderated his friend's speed. Thi-y Inj^au 
 to talk abont the surrounding country, a theme whicli 
 occupied them until the house was readied. With ([uick- 
 beating heart, Ciodwin found liimself at the gate by 
 which he had already twice j)assed. Secure -iu the 
 decency o f his apparel, and n<» longer oppressed by 
 bashfulness, he would have gone joyously forward but 
 for the dread of a possible ridiculous association which 
 his name might revive in the thoughts of Mr. and ^Irs. 
 Warricombe. Yet Auckland — who liad no lack of kindly 
 feeling — would hardly have l)rought him here had the 
 reception whicli awaited him l)een at all dubious. 
 
 *Jf we don't come across anyone,' said Warricombe, 
 ' we'll go straight up to my room.' 
 
 But the way was not clear. Within the beautiful old 
 porch sat Sidwell Warricombe and her friend of the 
 striking countenance, whom Godwin now knew as Mi.ss 
 ]\Ioorhouse. Buckland addressed his sister in a tone of 
 lively pleasure. 
 
 'Whom do you think I have met and brought home 
 with me ? Here is my old friend, Godwin Peak.' 
 
 Under the two pairs of female eyes, Godwin kept a 
 calm, if rather stern, face. 
 
 *I should have had no difficulty in recognising Mr. 
 Peak,' said Sidwell, holding out her hand. * lUit was the 
 meeting quite by chance ? ' 
 
 To (iodwin himself the question was of course directed, 
 with a look of smiling interest — such welcome as could 
 not have been improved upon ; she listened to his rejdy, 
 then presented him to Miss Afoorliouse. A slight languor 
 in her movements and her voice, together with the 
 beautiful coldness of her comi)lexion, made it i)robable 
 that she did not share the exuberant health manifest in 
 her two brothers. She conversed with mature self- 
 possession, yet showed a slight tendency to abstracted nes.*<. 
 On being addressed, she regarded the sjieaker steadily for 
 an instant before shaping her answer, which always, 
 however trilling the sul)ject, seemed carefully worded. 
 
154 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 111 these few moments of dialogue, Godwin reached the 
 conchision that Sidwell had not much sense of humour, 
 but that the delicacy of her mind was unsurpassable. 
 
 In Miss Moorhouse there was no defect of refinemejit, 
 but her conversation struck a note of spiightliness at 
 once more energetic and more subtle than is often found 
 in Enolish grirls. Thus, thouoh at times she looked so 
 young that it might be doubted whether she had long 
 been out of her teens, at others one suspected her older 
 than Sidwell. The friends happened to be as nearly 
 as possible of an age, which was verging to twenty - 
 six. 
 
 When he spoke to Miss Moorhouse, Buckland's frank 
 tone subdued itself. He watched her face with reverent 
 attention, smiled when she smiled, and joined in lier 
 laugliter with less than his usual volume of sound. In 
 acuteness he was obviously inferior to her, and there 
 were moments when he betrayed some nervousness under 
 her rejoinders. All this was matter of observation for 
 Peak, who had learnt to exercise his discernment even 
 whilst attending to the proprieties. 
 
 The sounding of the first luncheon-bell left the young 
 men free to go upstairs. When at length they presented 
 tliemselves in the drawing-room, Mrs. Warricombe and 
 her younger daughter sat there alone. The greeting of 
 his liostess did not quite satisfy Godwin, though it was 
 sufficiently courteous ; he remembered that ten years ago 
 Mrs. W^arricombe had appeared to receive him with some 
 restraint, and liis sensation in renewing her acquaintance 
 was one of dislike. But in a moment the master of the 
 house joined them, and no visitor could have had a more 
 kindly welcome than that he offered to his son's friend. 
 AYith genial tact, Mr. Warricombe ignored the interval 
 since his last conversation with Godwin, and spoke as 
 if this visit were the most natural thing in the world. 
 
 ' Do you already know the country about Exeter ?' 
 
 ' I have seen very little of it yet.' 
 
 ' Oh, then, we must show you our points of view. Our 
 own garden offers a glimpse of the river-mouth and a good 
 prospect of Haldoii — the ridge beyond the Exe ; but there 
 
BORN IN KXILK 155 
 
 are many iniicli better points witliin easy reacli. Vmi 
 are in no hurry, I hope ?' 
 
 Louis Warricombe and Miss Moorhouse's brother were 
 away on a long walk ; they did not return for luneli. 
 Godwin was glad of this, for time had wrought the 
 change in him that he felt more at ease in female society 
 than under tlie eyes of young men wliose social ])()sition 
 inclined them to criticism. The meal proved as delight- 
 ful as luncheon is wont to be in a luxurious country- 
 house, when brilliant sunshine glennis on the foliage 
 visible from windows, and the warmth of the season 
 sanctions clear colours in costume. The talk was wholly 
 of country pleasures. It afforded the visitor no little 
 satisfaction to be able to make known his acquaintance 
 with parts of England to which the Warricombes had not 
 penetrated. Godwin learnt that the family were insular 
 in their tastes; a mention by Miss Moorhouse of con- 
 tinental scenes led the host to avow a strong preference 
 for his own country, under whatever aspect, and Sid well 
 murmured her sympathy. 
 
 Xo less introspective than in the old <lays, though he 
 could better command his muscles, Peak, after each of 
 his short remarks, made comparison of his tone and 
 phraseology with those of the other speakers. Had he 
 still any marks of the ignoble world from which he 
 sprang? Any defect of pionunciation, any native awk- 
 wardness of utterance? Impossible to judge himself 
 infallibly, but he was conscious of no vulgar mannerism. 
 Though it was so long since he left Whitelaw, the accent 
 of certain of the Professors still remained witli him as an 
 example ; wdien endeavouring to be graceful, he was wont 
 to hear tlie voice of Dr. Nares, or of Professor Parber 
 who lectured on English Literature. ]\rore recently he 
 had been observant of Christian Moxey's speech, which 
 had a languid elegance worth imitating in certain 
 particulars. P>uckland Warricombe was rather a careless 
 talker, but it was the carelessness of a man who had 
 never needed to reflect on such a matter, the refinement 
 of whose enunciation was assured to him from the nursery. 
 That now was a thimr to be aimed at. Preciseness must 
 
156 BORN IN EXILK 
 
 be avoided, for in a young man it seemed to argue 
 conscious effort : a loose sentence now and then, a 
 colloqualism substituted for the more grammatical phrase. 
 
 Heaven be thanked that he was unconcerned on the 
 
 point of garb! Inferiority in that respect would have 
 
 j been fatal to his ease. His clothes were not too new, 
 
 ! and in quality were such as he had the habit of wearing. 
 
 ! The Warricombes must have immediately detected any 
 
 pretentiousness, were it but in a necktie ; that would 
 
 impress them more unfavourably than signs of poverty. 
 
 But lie defied inspection. Not Sidwell herself, doubtless 
 
 sensitive in the highest degree, could conceive a prejudice 
 
 against him on this account. 
 
 ' His misgivings were overcome. If these people were 
 acquainted with the ' dining-rooms ' joke, it certainly 
 did not affect their behaviour to him, and he could hope, 
 l)y the force of his personality, to obliterate from their 
 minds such disagreeable thoughts as they miglit secretly 
 entertain. Su^rely lie could make good his _claini toJie, 
 deemed a gentleman. To Buckland he had declared his 
 position, and no shame attached to it. A man of scientific 
 tastes, like Mr. Warricombe, must consider it respectable 
 enough. Grant him a little time, and why should he not 
 become a recognised friend of this family ? 
 
 If he were but resident in Exeter. 
 
 For the first time, he lost himself in abstraction, and 
 only an inquiry from Sidwell recalled him. 
 
 ' You have seen the Cathedral, Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 ' Oh yes ! I attended service there yesterday morn- 
 ing.' 
 
 Had he reflected, perhaps he would not have added this 
 circumstance ; even in speaking he suffered a confused 
 doubtfulness. But as soon as the words were nttered, he 
 felt strano^ely glad. Sidwell bestowed upon him an nn- 
 mistakable look of approval ; her mother gazed with colder 
 interest ; Mr. Warricombe regarded him, aud mused ; 
 Buckland, a smile of peculiar meaning on his close lips,- 
 glanced from him to Miss Moorhouse. 
 
 'Ah, then, you heard Canon Grayling,' remarked the 
 father of the family, with something in his tone which 
 
HOKN IX KXILK I .",7 
 
 answered to Sidwell's fUcial expression. ' llow did you 
 like his seriiioii ^ ' 
 
 Godwin was trilling with a pair of nut-crackers, but the 
 nervousness evident in his lingers did not prevent him 
 from replying with a natural air of deliberation. 
 
 * I was especially struck with the passage about the 
 barren lig-tree.' 
 
 The words might have exjjressed a trutli, but in tlu\t 
 case a tone of sarcasm must have winged them. As it 
 was, they involved either hypocrisy or ungenerous irony 
 at the expense of his questioner. Buckland could not but 
 understand them in the latter sense ; his face darkened. 
 At tliat moment, Peak met his eye, and encountered its 
 steady searching gaze with a perfectly calm smile. Half- 
 a-dozen pulsings of his heart — violent, painful, and the 
 fatal hour of his life had struck. 
 
 'What had he to say about it?' Buckland asked, 
 carelessly. 
 
 Peak's reply was one of those remarkable efforts of 
 mind — one might say, of character — which are sometimes 
 called forth, without premeditation, almost without con- 
 sciousness, by a profound moral crisis. A minute or two 
 ago he would have believed it impossible to recall and 
 state in lucid terms the arguments to which, as he sat in 
 the Cathedral, he had barely given ear; he remeniberi'd 
 vaguely that the preacher (whose name he knew not till 
 now) had dwelt for a few moments on the topic indicated, 
 but at the time he was indisposed to listen seriously, and 
 what chance was there that the chain of thought had fixed 
 itself in his memory ? Xow, under the marvtdling regard 
 of his conscious self, he poured forth an admirable render- 
 ing of the Canon's views, fuller than the original — more 
 eloquent, more subtle. For live minutes he held his 
 hearers in absorbed attention, even Buckland bending 
 forward with an air of genuine interest ; and when he 
 stopped, rather suddenly, there followed a silence. 
 
 ' j\Ir. Peak,' said the host, after a cough of apology, ' you 
 have made that clearer to me than it was yesterday. I 
 must tlumk you.' 
 
 Godwin felt that a slight bow of acknowleilgmcnl was 
 
158 BOBN IN EXILE 
 
 perhaps called foi", but not a muscle would obey his will. 
 He was enervated; perspiration stood on his forehead. 
 Tlie most severe physical effort could not have reduced 
 liim to a feebler state. 
 
 Sidwell was speaking : 
 
 ' Mr. Peak lias developed what Canon Grayling only 
 suggested.' 
 
 'A brilliant effort of exegesis,' exclaimed Buckland, with 
 a good-natured laugli. 
 
 Again the young men exchanged looks. Godwin smiled 
 as one might under a sentence of death. As for the other, 
 his suspicion had vanished, and he now gave way to frank 
 amusement. Luncheon was over, and by a general move- 
 ment all went forth on to the lawn in front of the house. 
 Mr. Warricombe, even more cordial than hitherto, named 
 to Godwin the features of the extensive landscape. 
 
 'But you see that the view is in a measure spoilt by 
 the growth of the city. A few years ago, none of those 
 ugly little houses stood in the mid-distance. A few years 
 hence, I fear, there will be much more to complain of. I 
 daresay you know all about the ship-canal : the story of 
 the countess, and so forth ? ' 
 
 Buckland presently suggested that the afternoon miglit 
 be used for a drive. 
 
 ' I was about to propose it,' said his father. ' You might 
 start by the Stoke Canon Eoad, so as to let Mr. Peak liave 
 the famous view from the gate ; then go on towards 
 Silverton, for the sake of the reversed prospect from the 
 Exe. Who shall be of the party ? ' 
 
 It was decided that four only should occupy the vehicle. 
 Miss Moorhouse and Fanny Warricombe to be the two 
 ladies. Godwin regretted Sid well's omission, but the 
 friendly informality of the arrangement delighted him. 
 When the carriage rolled softly from the gravelled drive, 
 Buckland* holding the reins, he felt an animation such as 
 no event had ever produced in him. Xo longer did he 
 calculate phrases. A spontaneous aptness marked his 
 dialogue with Miss Moorhouse, and the laughing words he 
 now and then addressed to Fanny. For a short time 
 Buckland was laconic, but at length he entei-ed into the 
 
BOPvX IX KXILK 150 
 
 joyous tone of the occasion. Karwaker would Ikin'o stood 
 in amazement, could he have seen and heard the saturnine 
 denizen of l*eckham live. 
 
 The weather was superb. A sea-breeze miti«,'ate(l the 
 warmth of the cloudless sun, and where a dark i)ine-tree 
 rose against the sky it gave the azure depths a magnifi- 
 cence unfamiliar to northern eyes. 
 
 'On such a day as this,' remarked Miss Moorhouse, 
 dividing her look between Auckland and his friend, ' one 
 feels that there's a good deal to be said for England.' 
 
 * But for the vile weather,' was Warricomlje's reply, 
 ' you wouldn't know such enjoyment.' 
 
 ' Oh, I can't agree with that for a moment ! My cai)acity 
 for enjoyment is unlimited. Tiiat philosophy is unwortliy 
 of you ; it belongs to a paltry scheme called " making the 
 best of things." ' 
 
 * In which you excel, Miss ^loorhouse.' 
 
 ' That she does ! ' agreed Fanny — a laughing, rosy- 
 cheeked maiden. 
 
 ' 1 deny it ! No one is more copious in railing against 
 circumstances.' 
 
 ' But you turn them all to a joke,' Fanny objected. 
 
 ' That's my profound pessimism. 1 am misunderstood. 
 Xo one expects irony from a woman.' 
 
 Peak found it ditticult not to gnze too persistently at 
 the subtle countenaiice. He was impelled to examine it 
 by a consciousness that he himself received a large share 
 of Miss ^loorhouse's attention, and a doubt as to the 
 estimation in which she held him. Canon (Jrayling's 
 sermon and (Godwin's comment had elicited no remark 
 from her. Did she belong to the ranks of emancipated 
 women ? With his experience of ^rarcella Moxey, he 
 welcomed the possibility of this variation of the type, but 
 at the same time, in obedience to a new spirit that had 
 strange possession of him, recognised that such phenomena 
 no longer aroused his personal interest. By the oddest of 
 intellectual processes he had placed himself altogether 
 outside the sphere of unorthodox spirits. Concerning Miss 
 ^loorhouse he cared only for tlie report slie might make 
 of him to the Warricombes. 
 
160 BORN IN exilp: 
 
 Before long, the carriage was stopped that he might 
 enjoy one of the pleasantest views in the neighbourlioocl 
 of the city. A gate, interrupting a high bank with which 
 the road was bordered, gave admission to the head of a 
 great cultivated slope, which fell to the river Exe ; hence 
 was suddenly revealed a wide panorama. Three well- 
 marked valleys — those of the Greedy, the Exe, and the 
 Culm — spread their rural loveliness to remote points of the 
 horizon ; gentle undulations, with pasture and woodland, 
 with long winding roads, and many a farm that gleamed 
 white amid its orchard leafage, led the gaze into regions 
 of evanescent hue and outline. Westward, a bolder swell 
 pointed to the skirts of Dartmoor. No inappropriate 
 detail disturbed the impression. Exeter was wholly hidden 
 behind the hill on which the observers stood, and the line 
 of railway leading thither could only be descried by 
 special search. A foaming weir at the hill's foot blended 
 its soft murmur with that of the lir branches hereabouts ; 
 else, no sound that the air could convey beyond the pulsing 
 of a bird's note. 
 
 All had alighted, and for a minute or two there was 
 
 i silence. When Peak had received such geographical 
 
 I instruction as was needful, Warricombe pointed out to 
 
 ; him a mansion conspicuous on the opposite slope of the 
 
 i Exe valley, the seat of Sir Stafford Northcote. The house 
 
 had no architectural beauty, but its solitary lordship amid 
 
 green pastures and tracts of thick wood declared the graces 
 
 and privileges of ancestral wealth. Standing here alone, 
 
 Godwin would have surveyed these possessions of an 
 
 English aristocrat with more or less bitterness ; envy 
 
 would, for a moment at all events, have perturbed his 
 
 pleasure in the natural scene. Accompanied as he was, 
 
 his emotion took a form which indeed was allied to envy, 
 
 but had nothing painful. He exulted in the prerogatives of 
 
 birth and opulence, felt proud of hereditary pride, gloried 
 
 that his mind was capable of appreciating to the full those 
 
 distinctions which, by the vulgar, are not so much as 
 
 suspected. Admitted to equal converse with men and 
 
 .women who represented the best in English society, he 
 
 ■could cast away the evil grudge, the fierce spirit of self- 
 
BOKN IN KXII.K 161 
 
 assertion, and ha what nature had projxjsed in undowiu" 
 him with hirge brain, "generous hluud, dtdicate tissues! 
 What room for mali*,aianey { He was acceiited hy his 
 peers, and could re.G;ard witli tolerance even those i;4nol>le 
 orders of mankind amid wliom he had so lon^' dwell 
 unrecognised. 
 
 A bee humuied })ast liini, and this s(Mnid — of all the 
 voices of nature that which most intenerates — filled his 
 heart to overtlowing. Moisture made his eyes dim, and 
 at the impulse of a feeling of gratitude, such as only thu 
 subtlest care of psychology could fully have explaim-d, liu 
 turned to Buckland, saying : 
 
 * But for my meeting with you I should have had a 
 lonely and not very cheerful holiday, 1 owe you a great 
 deal.' 
 
 Warricomlje laughed, but as an Englishman does when 
 he wishes to avoid show of emotion. 
 
 ' I am very glad indeed that we did meet. Stay with 
 us over to-morrow. I only wish I were not obligetl to go 
 to London on Wednesday. — Look, Fanny, isn't that a hawk, 
 over (. owley Bridge ? ' 
 
 'Do you feel you would like to shoot it?' asked ^[iss 
 Moorhouse — who a moment ago had very closely examined 
 Peak's face. 
 
 * To shoot it — why do you ask that ? ' 
 ' Confess that you felt the desire.' 
 
 'Every man does,' replied Buckland, 'until he has had 
 a moment to recover himself. That's the human instinct.' 
 
 ' The male human instinct. Thank you for your 
 honesty.' 
 
 They drove on, and by a wide circuit, occasionally 
 stopping for the view, returned to the Old Tiverton Road, 
 and so home. By this time Louis Warricombe and Mr. 
 Moorhouse were back from their walk. Keposing in the 
 company of the ladies, they had partaken of such refresh- 
 ments as are lawful at five o'clock, and now welcomed 
 with vivacity the later arrivals. Moorhouse was some- 
 thing older than Buckland, a sallow-cheeked man with 
 forehead and eyes expressive of much intelligence. 'I'ill 
 of late he had been a Cambridge tutor, but was now 
 
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162 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 privately occupied in mathematical pursuits. Louis 
 Warricombe had not yet made up his mind what profession 
 to follow, and to aid the process of resolve had for the 
 present devoted himself to pliysical exercise. 
 
 Tea-cup in hand, Godwin seated himself by Sidwell, 
 who began by inquiring how the drive had pleased him. 
 The fervour of his reply caused her to smile with special 
 graciousness, and their conversation was uninterrupted for 
 some minutes. Then Fanny came forward with a book of 
 mosses, her own collection, which she had mentioned to 
 Peak as tliey were talking together in the carriage. 
 
 'Do you make special study of any science?' Sidwell 
 asked, when certain remarks of Godwin's had proved his 
 familiarity with the things he was inspecting. 
 
 ' It is long since I worked seriously at anything of the 
 kind,' he answered ; adding in a moment, * Except at 
 chemistry — that only because it is my business.' 
 
 ' Organic or inorganic chemistry ? ' inquired Fanny, 
 with the promptness of a schoolgirl who wishes to have 
 it known that her ideas are no longer vague. 
 
 ' Organic for the most part,' Godwin replied, smiling at 
 her. * And of the most disagreeable kind.' 
 
 Sidwell reflected, then put another question, but with 
 some diffidence. 
 
 ' I think you were once fond of geology ? ' 
 It was the first allusion to that beginning of their 
 acquaintance, ten years ago. Peak succeeded in meeting 
 her look with steadiness. 
 ' Yes, I still like it.' 
 
 ' Father's collections have been much improved since 
 you saw them at Thornhaw.' 
 
 * I hope Mr. Warricombe will let me see them.' 
 Buckland came up and made an apology for drawing 
 his friend aside. 
 
 ' Will you let us send for your traps ? You may just as 
 well have a room here for a night or two.' 
 
 Perpetually imagining some kind chance that might 
 associate him with civilised people, Godwin could not 
 even pack his portmanteau for a ramble to Land's End 
 without stowing away a dress suit. He was thus saved 
 
BORN IN KXILK 163 
 
 what would have been an embarrassment of special 
 annoyance. Without hesitation, he accepted Buckland's 
 ofter, and named the hotel at which tlie lugga«,'e was 
 deposited. 
 
 'All right; the messenger shall explain. Our name's 
 well enough known to them. If you would like to look 
 up my father in his study, he'll l)e delighted to go over 
 his collections with you. You still care for that kind of 
 thing ? ' 
 
 ' Most certainly. How can you doubt it ? ' 
 
 liuckland smiled, and gave no other rei)ly. 
 
 ' Ask Fanny to show you the way when you care to go.' 
 And he left the room. 
 
IV 
 
 SiDWELL had fallen into conversation with Mr. Moor- 
 house. Miss Moorhouse, Mrs. Warricombe, and Louis 
 were grouped in animated talk. Oljserving that Fanny 
 threw glances tow^ards him from a lonely corner, Peak 
 went over to her, and was pleased with the smile he met. 
 Fanny had watchet eyes, much brighter than Sidwell's; 
 her youthful vivacity l)lended with an odd little fashion 
 of schoolgirl pedantry in a very piquant way. Godwin's 
 attempts at conversation with her were rather awkward ; 
 he found it difhcult to strike the suitable note, something 
 not too formal yet not deficient in respect. 
 
 ' Do you think,' he asked presently, * that I should 
 disturb your father if I went to him ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, not at all ! I often go and sit in the study at this 
 time.' 
 
 ' Will you show me the way ? ' 
 
 Fanny at once rose, and together they crossed the hall, 
 passed through a sort of anteroom connecting with a 
 fernery, and came to the study door. A tap was answered 
 by cheerful summons, and Fanny looked in. 
 
 ' Well, luy ladybird ? Ah, you are biinging Mr. Peak ; 
 come in, come in ! ' 
 
 It was a large and beautiful room, its wide w^indows, 
 in a cushioned recess, looking upon the lawn where the 
 yew tree cast solemn shade. One wall presented an 
 unbroken array of volumes, their livery sober but hand- 
 some ; detached bookcases occupied other portions of the 
 irregular perimeter. Cabinets, closed and open, were 
 arranged with due regard to convenience. Above the 
 
 104 
 
r>(»KX TX KXTLK 165 
 
 mantelpiece hung a few small })hologra])lis, ])ut the wall- 
 space at disposal was chiefly u(cui)i('(l with uhjccts whicii 
 illustrated Mr. Warricomhe's scientific tastes. On a 
 stand in the light of the window gleamed two elahoratu 
 microscopes, provocative of enthusiasm in a mind such as 
 Godwin's. 
 
 In a few minutes, Fanny silently retired. Her fatlier, 
 hy no means forward to speak of himself and his jtursuits, 
 was led in that direction by Peak's expressions of interest, 
 and the two were soon busied with matters which had a 
 charm for both. A collection of elvans formed the starl- 
 ing-point, and when they had entered upon the wide field 
 of paliuontology it was natural for ]\rr. Warricondn^ to 
 invite his guest's attention to the species of liamalonotus 
 which he had had the happiness of identifying some ten 
 years ago — a discovery now recognised and chronicle<l. 
 Though his sympathy was genuine enough, CJodwin 
 struggled against an uneasy sense of manifesting excessive 
 appreciation. Xever oblivious of himself, he could not 
 utter the simplest phrase of udmiration without criticis- 
 ing its justice, its tone. And at present it behoved him 
 to bear in mind that he was conversing with no half-bred 
 sciolist. Mr. AVarricombe obviously had his share of 
 human weakness, but he was at once a gentleman and a 
 student of well-stored mind ; insincerity must be very 
 careful if it would not jar upon his refined ear. So 
 Godwin often checked himself in the utterance of what 
 miglit sound too much like flattery. A young man talk- 
 ing with one much older, a poor man in dialogue with a 
 wealthy, must under any circumstances guard his speech ; 
 for one of (lodwin's aggressive idiosyncrasy the task of 
 discretion had peculiar difliculties, and the attituile he 
 iiad assumed at luncheon still further complicated the 
 o[)erations of his mind. Only at moments could he siHsik 
 in his true voice, and silence meant for the most ])art a 
 studious repression of much he would naturally have 
 uttered. 
 
 Ilesurgent^envy gave him no little troulile. ( )n enter- 
 ing the room, he could not but exclaim t<> himself. ' How 
 easy for a man to do notable work amid such surround- 
 
166 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ings ! If I were but thus equipped for investigation ! ' 
 And as often as his eyes left a particular object to make 
 a general survey, the same thought burned in him. He 
 feared lest it should be legible on his countenance. 
 
 Taking a pamphlet from tlie table, Mr. Warricombe, 
 with a humorous twinkle in his eyes, inquired whether 
 Peak read German ; the answer being affirmative : 
 
 'Naturally,' he rejoined, 'you could hardly have 
 neglected so important a language. I, unfortunately, 
 didn't learn it in my youth, and I have never had per- 
 severance enough to struggle with it since. Something 
 led me to take down this brochure the other day — an old 
 attempt of mine to write about the weathering of rocks. 
 It was printed in '76, and no sooner had it seen the light 
 than friends of mine wanted to know what I meant 
 hy appropriating, without acknowledgment, certain facts 
 quite recently pointed out by Professor Pfaff of Erlangen ! 
 Unliappily, Professor Pfaff's results were quite unknown 
 to me, and I had to <^et them translated. The coinci- 
 dences, sure enough, were very noticeable. Just before 
 you came in, I was reviving that old discomfiture.' 
 
 Peak, in glancing over the pages, murmured with a 
 smile : 
 
 ' Fereant qui ante nos nostra dixcrunt ! ' 
 
 ' Even so 1 ' exclaimed Mr. Warricombe, laughing with 
 a subdued heartiness which was one of his pleasant 
 characteristics. And, after a pause, he inquired, ' Do 
 you find any time to keep up your classics ? ' 
 
 ' By fits and starts. Sometimes I return to them for a 
 month or two.' 
 
 ' Why, it's pretty much the same with me. Here on 
 my table, for instance, lies Tacitus. I found it mentioned 
 not long ago that the first sentence of the Annals is a 
 hexameter — did you know it ? — and when I had once got 
 hold of tlie book I thought it a shabby thing to return it 
 to the dust of its shelf without reading at least a few 
 pages. So I have gone on from day to day, with no little 
 enjoyment. Buckland, as you probably know, regards 
 these old fellows with scorn.' 
 
 ' We always differed abont that.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 1C7 
 
 ' 1 can't quite decide wliether he is still siiirrre in all 
 he says about them. Time, I suspect, is mellowiii",' his 
 judgment.' 
 
 Tliey moved to the sladves where Greek and Litin 
 books stood in serried order, and only the warning dinnur- 
 bell put an end to their sympathetic discussion of tlu* 
 place such authors should hold in modern educational 
 systems. 
 
 'Have they shown you your room.''' Mr. Warricomlje 
 asked. 
 
 lUit, as he spoke, the face of his elde.^t son appeared at 
 the door. 
 
 ' Your traps have safely arrived, Peak.' 
 
 The bedroom to which Godwin was conducted had a 
 delicious fragrance, of source indeterminable. ^Vhen he 
 had closed the door, he stood for a few moments looking 
 about him ; it was his first experience of the upper 
 chambers of houses such as this. Merely to step upon 
 the carpet fluttered his senses : merely to breathe the air 
 was a purification. Luxury of the rational kind, dictated 
 by regard for health of body and soul, appeared in every 
 detail. On the walls were water-colours, scenery of 
 Devon and Cornwall ; a hanging book-case held about a 
 score of volumes — poets, essayists, novelists. Elsewhere, 
 not too prominent, lay a Bible and a Prayer-book. 
 
 He dressed, as never before, with leisurely enjoyment ol 
 the process. When the mirror declared him ready, his 
 eyes returned frequently to an inspection of the tigiire he 
 presented, and it seemed to him that he was not unworthy 
 to take his place at the dinner-table. As for his visage, 
 might he not console himself with the assurance that it 
 was of no common stamp ? ' If I met that man in a room, 
 I should be curious about him ; I should see at once that 
 he didn't belong to the vulgar; I should desire to hear 
 him speak.' And the Warricombes were not lacking in 
 discernment. He would compare more than favouraldy 
 with Mr. Moorhouse, whose aspect, bright and agreeal»le 
 enough, made no promise of originality. — It must be time 
 to go down. He left the room with an air of grave self- 
 confidence. 
 
168 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 At dinner he was careful to attempt no repetition of the 
 display which liad done very well at luncheon ; it must 
 not be thought that he had the habit of talking for effect. 
 Mrs. Warricombe, unless he mistook, had begun to view 
 him more favourably ; her remarks made less distinction 
 between him and the other guests. But he could not like 
 his hostess ; he tliought her unworthy to be the mother 
 of Sidwell and Fanny, of Buckland and Louis ; there was 
 a marked strain of the commonplace in her. The girls, 
 costumed for the evening, affected him with a return of 
 the awe he had all but overcome. Sidwell was exquisite 
 in dark colours, her sister in white. Miss Moorhouse 
 (addressed by her friends as ' Sylvia ') looked older than 
 in the day-time, and had lost something of her animation ; 
 possibly the country routine had begun to weary her a 
 little. 
 
 Peak was at a vast distance from tlie hour which saw 
 him alight at Exeter and begin his ramble al^out the city. 
 He no longer felt himself alone in the world ; impossible 
 to revive the mood in which he deliberately planned to 
 consume his economies in a year or two of desert wander- 
 ing; far other were the anticipations which warmed his 
 mind when the after-dinner repose attuned him to un- 
 wonted ho})efulness. This family were henceforth his 
 friends, and it depended only upon himself to make the 
 connection lasting, with all manner of benefits easily 
 imagined. Established in the country, the AVarricombes 
 stood to him in quite a different relation from any that 
 could have arisen had he met with them in London. 
 There he would have been nothing more than a casual 
 dinner-guest, welcomed for the hour and all but forgotten 
 when he had said good-night. Eor years he had under- 
 stood that London offered him no prospect of social 
 advancement. But a night passed under this roof practi- 
 cally raised him to a level whence he surveyed a rich field 
 of possil)le conquest. With the genial geologist he felt 
 himself on excellent terms, and much of this was ascrib- 
 al)le to a singular chance which had masked his real l)eing, 
 and represented him, with scarce an effort of his own, in 
 a light peculiarly attractive to Mr. Warricombe. He was 
 
IJOI^X IX KXILK 1G9 
 
 now ]»layiii.L( tlie conscious liyjxxriti' ; not a jilrasant tliin;^' 
 to face anil accept, b\it tlie fault was not his — fate had 
 brouglit it about. At all events, he aimed at no vulgar 
 profit ; his one desire was for human fellowship ; he 
 sought nothing but that solace which every cmle of 
 morals has deemed legitimate. Let the society which 
 compelled to such an expedient bear the burden of its 
 shame. 
 
 That must indeed have been a circle of great intellects 
 amid which Godwin IVak felt himself subordinate. He 
 had never known that impression, and in the Warricoml»e 
 family was no one whom he could regard even as his 
 equal. Buckland, doubtless, had some knowledge of the 
 world, and could boast of a free mind; but he lacked 
 subtlety: a ])sychological problem would easily puzzle 
 him. Mr. AVarricoml)e's attainments were res])ectable, 
 but what could be said of a man who had devoted his life 
 to geology, and still (in the year 1884) remained an 
 orthodox meml)er of the Church of England ^ Godwin, 
 as he sat in the drawing-room and enjoyed its atmosphere 
 of refinement, sincerely held himself of far more account 
 as an intellectual being than all the persons about him. 
 
 But if his brain must dwell in solitude his heait 
 might compass worthy alliances — the thing most needful 
 to humanity. One may find the associates of his intellect 
 in libraries — the friend of one's emotions must walk in 
 tlesh and blood. Earwaker, ]\Ioxey — these were in many 
 respects admirable fellows, and he had no little love for 
 them, l)ut the world they represented was womanless, and 
 so of Hagrant imperfection. Of Marcella ]\Ioxey he could 
 not think emotionally; indeed she em]>hasised by her 
 ])ersonality the lack which caused his sutlering. Sidwell 
 \Varricombe suggested, more com])letely than any woman 
 he had yet ol)serVed, that companionshi]) without which 
 life must to the end taste l)itter. His interest in her was 
 not strictly personal; she moved and spoke before him as 
 fi JXpical woman, not as the daughter of Martin Warri- 
 combe and the sister of Buckland. Here at last ojjcned to 
 his view that s[)here of female society which he had kimwu 
 as remotely existing, the desperate aim of and>ilion. 
 
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 170 BOEN IN EXILE 
 
 Conventional women — Imt was not the phrase tauto- 
 logical ? In the few females who have liberated their 
 souls, was not much of the woman inevitably sacrificed, 
 and would it not be so for long years to come ? On the 
 other hand, such a one as Sidwell miglit be held a perfect 
 creature, perfect in relation to a certain stage of human 
 development. Look at her, as she sat conversing with 
 Moorhouse, soft candle-light upon her face ; compare her 
 on the one hand with an average emancipated girl, on the 
 other with a daughter of the people. How unsatisfying 
 was the former ; the latter, how repulsive ! Here one had 
 the exquisite mean, the lady as England has perfected her 
 towards the close of this nineteenth century. A being of 
 marvellous delicacy, of purest instincts, of unsurpassable 
 sweetness. Who could not detail her limitations, obvious 
 and, in certain moods, irritating enough ? These were 
 nothing to the point, unless one would roam the world a 
 hungry idealist; and Godwin was weary of the famined 
 pilgrimage. 
 
 The murmur of amiable voices softened him to the 
 reception of all that was good in his present surroundings, 
 and justified in the light of sentiment his own dis- 
 honour. This English home, was it not surely the best 
 result of civilisation in an age devoted to material pro- 
 I gross ? Here was peace, here was scope for the kindliest 
 I emotions. Upon him — the born rebel, the scorn er of 
 I average mankind, the consummate egoist — this atmo- 
 sphere exercised an influence more tranquillising, more 
 beneficent, than even the mood of disinterested study. 
 ■ In the world to which sincerity would condemn him, only 
 the worst elements of his character found nourishment 
 and range; here he was humanised, made receptive of all 
 gentle sympathies. Heroism miglit point him to an un- 
 ending struggle with adverse conditions, but how was 
 heroism possible without faith ? Absolute faith he had 
 none ; he was essentially a negativist, guided by the mere 
 relations of phenomena. Nothing easier than to contemn 
 the mode of life represented by this wealthy middle class ; 
 but compare it with other existences conceivable by a 
 thinking man, and it was emphatically good. It aimed 
 
BORN IN EXILK 171 
 
 at placidity, at l)enevolence,at sui)reiiie cleanliness, — things 
 whicli more than compensated i"or tiie absence of higher 
 spirituality. We can be but what we are ; these people 
 accepted themselves, and in so doing became estimable 
 mortals. No imbecile pretensions exposed them to the 
 rebuke of a social satirist ; no vulgarity tainted their 
 familiar intercourse. Their allegiance to a worn-out 
 creed was felt as an added grace ; thus only could their 
 souls aspire, and the imperfect poetry of their natures be 
 developed. 
 
 He took an opportunity of seating himself by Mrs. 
 Warricombe, with whom as yet he had held no continuous 
 dialogue. 
 
 'Has there been anything of interest at the London 
 theatres lately ? ' she asked. 
 
 'I know so little of them,' Godwin replied, trutlil'ully. 
 * It must be several years since I saw a play.' 
 
 'Then in that respect you have hardly become a 
 Londoner.' 
 
 * Xor in any other, I believe,' said Teak, with a smile. 
 ' I have lived there ten years, but am far from re- 
 garding London as my home. I hope a few months more 
 will release me from it altogether.' 
 
 ' Indeed ! — Perhaps you think of leaving England ? ' 
 
 ' I should be very sorry to do that — for any length of 
 time. My wish is to settle somewhere in the country, 
 and spend a year or two in quiet study.' 
 
 Mrs. AVavricombe looked amiable surprise, but corrected 
 herself to approving interest. 
 
 ' I have heard some of our friends say that their minds 
 get unstrung, if they are long away from town, but I 
 should have thought that country quietness would be 
 much better than London noise. My liusband certainly 
 finds it so.' 
 
 * People are very differently constituted,' said (lodwin. 
 ' And then it depends much on the nature of one's work.' 
 
 Uttering these commonplaces with an air of rellection, 
 he observed that they did not cost liim the self-contempt 
 which was wont to be his penalty for concession to the 
 terms of polite gossip ; rather, his mind accepted with 
 
172 . BORN IN EXILE 
 
 gratitude this rare repose. He tasted something of the 
 tranquil self -content which makes life so enjoyable 
 when one has never seen a necessity for shaping original 
 remarks. ISTo one in this room would despise him for a 
 platitude, were it but recommended with a pleasant smile. 
 AVith the Moxeys, with Earwaker, he durst not thus 
 have spoken. 
 
 When the hour of separation was at hand, Buckland 
 invited his guest to retire with him to a part of the house 
 where they could smoke and chat comfortably. 
 
 ' Moorhouse and Louis are fagged after their twenty 
 mile stretch this morning ; I have caught both of them 
 nodding during the last few minutes. We can send them 
 to bed without apology.' 
 
 He led the way upstairs to a region of kunber-rooms, 
 whence a narrow flight of steps brought them into a 
 glass-house, octangular and with pointed tops, out upon 
 the roof. This, he explained, had been built some twenty 
 years ago, at a time when Mr. Warricombe amused himself 
 with photography. A few indications of its original 
 purposes were still noticeable ; an easel and a box of oil- 
 colours showed that someone — doubtless of tlie younger 
 generation — had used it as a painting-room ; a settee and 
 deep cane chairs made it an inviting lounge on a warm 
 evening like the present, when, by throwing open a 
 hinged wall, one looked forth into the deep sky and 
 tasted the air from the sea. 
 
 ' Sidwell used to paint a little,' said Buckland, as his 
 companion bent to examine a small canvas on which a 
 landscape was roughed in. It lay on a side table, and 
 was half concealed ])y an ordnance map, left unfolded. 
 * For the last year or two I think she has given it up. 
 I'm afraid we are not strong in matters of art. Neither 
 of the girls can play very well, though of course they both 
 tinkle for their own amusement. Maurice — the poor lad 
 who was killed — gave a good deal of artistic promise ; 
 father keeps some little water-colours of his, which men 
 in that line have praised — perhaps sincerely.' 
 
 ' 1 remember you used to speak slightingly of art,' said 
 Godwin, as he took an offered ci<_>ar. 
 
BOKN IX KXILK ITo 
 
 ' Did 1 i And of a good many other things, I daresay. 
 It was my habit at one time, I helieve, to grow heated in 
 scorn of Euclid's definitions. What an interesting book 
 Euclid is ! Half a year ago, [ was led by a talk with 
 Moorhouse to go through some of the old * props,' and 
 you can't imagine how they delighted me. Mo(jrhouse 
 was so obliging as to tell me that 1 had an eminently 
 deductive mind.' 
 
 He laughed, but not witliout betraying some jileasure 
 in the remark. 
 
 ' Surprising,' he went on, * how very little such a mind 
 as Moorhouse's suggests itself in common conversation. 
 He is leally profound in mathematics, a man of original 
 powers, Ijut I never heard him make a remark of the 
 slightest value on any other subject. Now his sister — 
 she has studied nothing in particular, yet she can't express 
 an opinion that doesn't bear the stamp of originality.' 
 
 (lodwin was contented to muse, his eyes fixed on a 
 brilliant star in the western heaven. 
 
 'There's only one inconsistency in lier that annoys and 
 puzzles me,' liuckland pursued, speaking with the cigar 
 in his mouth. ' In religion, she seems to be orthodox. 
 True, we have never spoken on the subject, but — well, she 
 goes to church, and carries prayer-bc)oks. I don't know 
 how to explain it. Hypocrisy is the last thing one could 
 suspect her of. I'm sure she hates it in every form. And 
 such a clear brain ! — I can't understand it.' 
 
 The listener was still star-gazing. He had allowed his 
 cigar, after the first few puffs, to smoulder untasted ; his 
 lips were drawn into an expression very unlike the laxity 
 appropriate to pleasurable smoking. When tlie nnnmur 
 of the pines had for a moment been audilile, he said, witli 
 a forced smile : 
 
 ' I notice you take for granted that a clear l)rain and 
 religious orthodoxy are incompati])le.' 
 
 The other gave lum a keen look. 
 
 'Hardly,' was ]]uckland's reply, spoken with less 
 ingenuousness of tone than usual. ' I say tliat Miss 
 Moorhouse has undeniably a strong mind, and tliat it is 
 impossible to suspect her of the slightest hypocrisy.' 
 
174 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Whence the puzzle that keeps you occupied/ rejoined 
 Peak, in a voice tliat sounded like assumption of supe- 
 riority, though the accent liad an agreeable softness. 
 
 Warricombe moved as if impatiently, struck a match 
 to rekindle his weed, blew tumultuous clouds, and finally 
 put a blunt question : 
 
 ' What do you think about it yourself ? ' 
 
 * From my point of view, there is no puzzle at all/ 
 Godwin replied, in a very clear voice, smiling as he met 
 the other's look. 
 
 * How am I to understand that ? ' asked Buckland, good- 
 naturedly, though with a knitting of his brows. 
 
 * Not as a doubt of Miss Moorhouse's sincerity. I can't 
 see that a belief in the Christian religion is excluded by 
 any degree of intellectual clearness.' 
 
 ' JSTo — your views have changed, Peak ? ' 
 
 * On many subjects, this among them.' 
 ' I see.' 
 
 The words fell as if involuntarily from Warricombe's 
 lips. He gazed at the floor awhile, then, suddenly looking 
 up, exclaimed : 
 
 * It would be civil to accept this without surprise, but 
 it is too much for me. How has it come about ? ' 
 
 * That would take me a long tinie to explain.' 
 
 ' Then,' pursued his companion, watching him closely, 
 ' you were quite in sympathy with that exposition you 
 gave at lunch to-day ? ' 
 
 ' Quite. I hope there was nothing in my way of 
 speaking that macle you think otherwise ? ' 
 
 'Nothing at all. I couldn't help wondering what it 
 meant. You seemed perfectly in earnest, yet such talk 
 had the oddest sound on your lips — to me, I mean. Of 
 course I thought of you as I used to know you.' 
 
 ' Naturally.' Peak was now in an attitude of repose, his 
 legs crossed, thumb and forefinger stroking his chin. ' I 
 couldn't very well turn aside to comment on my own 
 mental history.' 
 
 Here again was the note of something like genial con- 
 descension. Buckland seemed sensible of it, and slightly 
 raised his eyebrows. 
 
BORN IN KXI1,K 175 
 
 ' I am to understand that you have become strictly 
 orthodox in matters of religious faith ? ' 
 
 ' The proof is,' replied Godwin, ' that I liope before lon^i; 
 to take Orders.' 
 
 Again there was silence, and again the sea-breath made 
 its whispering in the pines. Warricomhe, with a sudden 
 gesture, pointed towards the sky. 
 
 ' A shooting star — one of the brightest I ever saw ! ' 
 
 * I missed it,' said Peak, just glancing in tliat direction. 
 The interruption enabled liuckland to move his cliair ; 
 
 in this new position he was somewhat furtlier frum Peak, 
 and had a better view of his face. 
 
 ' I sliould never have imagined you a clergyman,' he 
 said, thoughtfully, * but I can see that your mind has 
 been developing powers in that direction. — Well, so be it ! 
 I can only hope you have found your true work in life.' 
 
 ' But you doubt it ? ' 
 
 ' I can't say that I doubt it, as I can't understand you. 
 To be sure, we have been parted for many years. In 
 some respects / must seem much changed ' 
 
 ' Greatly changed,' Godwin put in, promptly. 
 
 * Yes,' pursued the other, correctively, ' but not in a 
 way that would seem incredible to anyone wliatever. 
 I am conscious of growth in tolerance, but my attitude 
 in essentials is unchanged. Thinking of you — as I have 
 often enough done— I always kept the impression you 
 made on me when we were both lads; you seemed 
 most distinctly a modern mind — one of the most modern 
 that ever came under my notice. Now, I don't lind it 
 impossible to understand my father, wlien he reconciles 
 science with religion; he was born sixty years ago. lUit 
 Godwin Peak as a — a ' 
 
 * Parson,' supplied Peak, drily. 
 
 'Yes, as a parson — I shall have to meditate much 
 before I grasp the notion.' 
 
 ' Perhaps you Imve dropped your pliilosophical studies ? ' 
 said Godwin, with a smile of courteous interest. 
 
 ' I don't know. Metaphysics have no great interest 
 for me, but I philosophise in a way. I thought myself 
 a student of human nature, at all events.' 
 
176 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' But you haven't kept up with philosophical specula- 
 tion on the points involved in ortliodox religion ? ' 
 
 'I confess my ignorance of everything of the kind — 
 unless you include Bishop Blougram among the philo- 
 sophers ? ' 
 
 Godwin bore the gaze which accompanied this signifi- 
 cant inquiry. For a moment he smiled, but there followed 
 an expression of gravity touched with pain. 
 
 ' I hadn't thought of broaching this matter,' he said, 
 with slow utterance, but still in a tone of perfect friendli- 
 ness. ' Let us put it aside.' 
 
 Warricombe seemed to make an effort, and his next 
 words had the accent of well-bred consideration which 
 distinguished his ordinary talk. 
 
 'Pray forgive my bad joke. I merely meant that 
 I have no right whatever to argue with anyone who 
 has given serious attention to such things. They are 
 altogether beyond my sphere. I was born an agnostic, 
 and no subtlety of demonstration could incline me for 
 a moment to theological A^ews; my intellect refuses to 
 admit a single preliminary of such arguments. You 
 astonish me, and that's all I am justified in saying.' 
 
 'My dear Warricombe, you are justified in saying 
 whatever your mind suggests. That is one of the 
 principles which I hold unaltered — let me be quite 
 frank with you. I should never have decided upon such 
 a step as this, but for the fact that I have managed to 
 put by a small sum of money which will make me in- 
 dependent for two or three years. Till quite lately I 
 hadn't a thought of using my freedom in this way; it 
 was clear to me that I must throw over the old drudgery 
 at Piotherhithe, but this resolve which astonishes you 
 had not yet ripened — I saw it only as one of the 
 possibilities of my life. Well, now, it's only too true 
 that there's something of speculation in my purpose; 
 I look to the Church, not only as a congenial sphere 
 of activity, but as a means of subsistence. In a man 
 of no fortune this is inevitable ; I hope there is nothing 
 to be ashamed of. Even if the conditions of the case 
 allowed it, I shouldn't present myself for ordination 
 
]iOKN IN KXli.K 177 
 
 IbrLhwith ; I must study and prepare myself in ([uiet- 
 ness. How the practical details will be arranj,'ed, I 
 can't say; I have no family inlluence, and 1 must hope 
 to make friends who will open a way lur me. I have 
 always lived apart from society; hut that isn't natural 
 to me, and it becomes more distasteful the older I grow. 
 The probability is that I shall settle somewhere in tlie 
 country, where I can live decently on a small income. After 
 all, it's better I should have let you know this at once. 
 I only realised a few minutes ago that to l)e silent about 
 my projects was in a way to be guilty of false pretences.' 
 
 The adroitness of this last remark, which directed 
 itself, with such show of candour, against a suspicion 
 precisely the opposite of that likely to be entertained by 
 the listener, succeeded in disarming Warricombe; he 
 looked up with a smile of reassurance, and spoke en- 
 couragingly. 
 
 'About the practical details I don't think you need 
 have any anxiety. It isn't every day that the Church 
 of England gets such a recruit. Let me suggest that 
 you have a talk with my father.' 
 
 Peak reflected on the proposal, and replied to it with 
 grave thoughtfulness : 
 
 ' That's very kind of you, but I should have a dilliculty 
 in asking Mr. "VVarricombe's advice. I'm afraid 1 must 
 go on in my own way for a time. It will be a few 
 months, I daresay, before I can release myself from my 
 engagements in London.' 
 
 'But I am to understand that your mind is really 
 made up ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, quite ! ' 
 
 ' Well, no doubt we shall have opportunities of talk- 
 ing. We must meet in town, if possible. You have 
 excited my curiosity, and I can't help hoping you'll 
 let me see a little further into your mind some day. 
 When I first got hold of Newman's Apologia, I began 
 to read it with the utmost eagerness, flattering my- 
 self that now at length I should understand ho\y a 
 man of brains could travel such a road. I was horribly 
 disappointed, and not a little enraged, when I found 
 
 12 
 
178 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 that he began by assuming the very beliefs I thought he 
 was going to justify. In you I shall hope for more logic' 
 
 ' Newman is incapable of understanding such an 
 objection,' said Peak, with a look of amusement. 
 
 ' But you are not.' 
 
 The dialogue grew chatty. When they exchanged 
 good-night. Peak fancied that the pressure of Buckland's 
 hand was less fervent than at their meeting, but his 
 manner no longer seemed to indicate distrust. Probably 
 the a^jnostic's mood was one of half-tolerant disdain. 
 
 Godwin turned the key in his bedroom door, and 
 strayed aimlessly about. He was fatigued, but the 
 white, fragrant bed did not yet invite him ; a turbulence 
 in his brain gave w^arning that it would be long before 
 he slept. He wound up his watch ; the hands pointed 
 to twelve. Chancing to come before the mirror, he saw 
 that he was unusually pale, and that his eyes had a 
 swollen look. 
 
 The profound stillness was oppressive to him ; he 
 started nervously at an undefined object in a dim corner, 
 and went nearer to examine it ; he was irritable, vaguely 
 discontented, and had even a moment of nausea, perhaps 
 tlie result of tobacco stronger than he was accustomed 
 to smoke. ^Vfter leaning for five minutes at the open 
 window, he felt a soothing effect from the air, and could 
 tliink consecutively of the day's events. AVhat had 
 happened seemed to him incredible ; it was as though 
 he revived a mad dream, of ludicrous coherence. Since 
 his display of rhetoric at luncheon all was downright 
 somnambulism. What fatal power had subdued him ? 
 What extraordinary intiuence had guided his tongue, con- 
 strained his features ? His conscious self had had no 
 part in all this comedy ; now for the first time was he 
 taking count of the character he had played. 
 
 Had he been told this morning that ^^^by, what 
 
 monstrous folly was all this ? Into what unspeakable 
 baseness had he fallen ? Happily, he had but to take 
 leave of the Warricombe household, and rush into some 
 region where he was unknown. Years hence, he would 
 relate tlie story to Earwaker. 
 
B(>R\ IX i:\n.i: 179 
 
 Fur a long time he sullcred tlie torments of this 
 awtakening. Shame bulleted liini on ihe right ilieek and 
 the left; he looked about like one who slinks Imm 
 merited chastisement. Oli, thrice ignol)le varlel : To 
 ])Ose with unctuous hypocrisy before i)eoj)lu who liad 
 welcomed him under tlieir roof, unquestioned, with all 
 the grace and kindliness of English hospitality : To lie 
 shamelessly in the face of his old fellow-student, who 
 had been so genuinely glad to meet him again ! 
 
 Yet such possibility had not been unforeseen. At the 
 times of liis profound gloom, when solitude and desire 
 crushed his spirit, he had wished that fate would afford 
 him such an opportunity of knavish success. His im- 
 agination had played with the idea that a man like him- 
 self might well be driven to this expedient, and miglit 
 even use it with life-long result. Of a certainty, the 
 Church numbered such men among her priests, — not mere 
 lukewarm sceptics who made religion a source of income, 
 nor yet those who had honestly entered the portal and by 
 necessity were held from withdrawing, though their con- 
 victions had changed ; but deliberate schemers from the 
 first, ambitious Imt hungry natures, keen-sighted, unscruj)- 
 ulous. And they were at no loss to defend tlicmselves 
 against the attack of conscience. Life is a terrific 
 struggle for all who begin it with no endowments 
 save their brains. A hypocrite was not necessarily a 
 harm-doer; easy to picture the unbelieving priest whose 
 influence was vastly for good, in word and deed. 
 
 lUit he, he who had ever prided himself on his truth- 
 fronting intellect, and had freely uttered his scorn of 
 the credulous mob ! He who was his own criterion of 
 moral right and wrong : Xo wonder he felt like a 
 whipped cur. It was the ancestral vice in his blood, 
 Ijrought out liy over-tempting circumstance. The long 
 line of base-born predecessors, the grovelling hinds and 
 mechanics of his genealogy, were resi)onsible for this. 
 Oh for a name wherewith honour was hereditary ! 
 
 His eyes were blinded by a rush of hot tears. Down, 
 
 down into the depths of uttermost despondency, of 
 
 self-pity and self-contempt! Had it been practicalde, 
 
180 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 lie would have fled from the house, leaving its occupants 
 to think of him as they would; even as, ten years ago, 
 he had fled from the shame impending over him at Kings- 
 mill. A cowardly instinct, this ; having once acted upon 
 it gave to his whole life a taint of craven meanness. 
 Mere bluster, all his talk of mental dignity and uncom- 
 promising scorn of superstitions. A weak and idle man, 
 whose best years were already wasted ! 
 
 He gazed deliberately at himself in the glass, at his 
 red eyelids and unsightly lips. Darkness was best; 
 perhaps he might forget his shame for an hour or two, 
 ere the dawn renewed it. He threw off his garments 
 heedlessly, extinguished the lamp, and crept into the 
 ready hiding-place. 
 
PAET THE TIIIED 
 
PART THE TlilUD 
 
 I 
 
 'Why are you obstinately silent r ' wiute Kaiwakfr, in a 
 letter addiessed to Godwin at his reekhani lod,L,dngs. 
 ' I take it for granted that you must by tliis time be 
 back from your lioliday. Why haven't you lephed to 
 my letter of a fortnight ago ? Xothing yet from Tin 
 Ci'lticaL If you are really at work as usual, come and 
 S(ie me to-morrow evening, any time after eight. The 
 l>osture of my affairs grows dubious; the shadow of 
 Kenyon thickens about me. In all seriousness I lliink 
 I sliall be driven from Tlw llWl-li/ J'o-^f before long. 
 My quarrels with Paincorn are too frequent, and his 
 blackguardism keeps more than pace witli the times. 
 Come or write, for I want to know liow things go with 
 you. 7'i((.<^(i/u''<, J. K. K.' 
 
 Peak read this at l)reakfast on a Satunhiy morning. 
 It was early in September, and three weeks had elai)siMl 
 since his return from the west of England. Tpon lli« 
 autumn had fallen a blight of cold and rainy weather, 
 wliich did not enliance tlie cheerfidness of daily journey- 
 ing between Teckham Pye and Kotherhithe. When ii 
 was necessary for him to set fortli to the train, lie 
 muttered imprecations, f«)r a mood of inactivity pos- 
 sessed him ; lie would gladly have stayed in his com- 
 
184 BOEN IN EXILE 
 
 fortable sitting-room, idling over books or only occupied 
 with languid thought. 
 
 Ill the afternoon he was at liberty to follow his 
 impulse, and this directed him to the British Museum, 
 whither of late he had several times resorted as a reader. 
 Among the half-dozen books for which he applied was 
 one in German, Eeusch's Bibel %incl Natur. After a little 
 dallying, he became absorbed in this work, and two or 
 three hours passed before its hold on his attention 
 slackened. He seldom changed his position ; the volume 
 was propped against others, and he sat bending forward, 
 his arms folded upon the desk. When he was thus 
 deeply engaged, his face had a hard, stern aspect ; if by 
 chance his eye wandered for a moment, its look seemed 
 to express resentment of interruption. 
 
 At length he threw himself back with a sudden yield- 
 ing to weariness, crossed his legs, sank together in the 
 chair, and for half-an-hour brooded darkly. A fit of 
 yawning admonished him that it was time to quit the 
 atmosphere of study. He betook himself to a restaurant 
 in the Strand, and thence about eight o'clock made his 
 way to Staple Inn, where the journalist gave him cheerful 
 welcome. 
 
 ' Day after day I have meant to write,' thus he excused 
 himself. ' But I had really nothing to say.' 
 
 ' You don't look any better for your holiday,' Earwaker 
 remarked. 
 
 ' Holiday ? Oh, I had forgotten all about it. When 
 do you go ? ' 
 
 'The situation is comical. I feel sure that if I leave 
 town, my connection with the Post will come to an end. 
 I shall have a note from Kuncorn saying that we had 
 l^etter take this opportunity of terminating my engage- 
 ment. On the whole I should be glad, yet I can't make 
 up my mind to be ousted by Kenyon — that's what it 
 means. They want to get me away, but I stick on, 
 postponing holiday from week to week. Runcorn can't 
 decide to send me about my business, yet every leader 
 I write enrages him. But for Kenyon, I should gain my 
 point ; I feel sure of it. It's one of those cases in which 
 
BORN IN KXILK 185 
 
 homicide would be justified by public interest If Kenyon 
 gets my place, the paper becomes at once an organ of 
 ruftiandom, the delight of tlie blackgiiardry.' 
 
 * How's the circulation ? ' inquired Teak. 
 
 'Pretty sound; that adds to the joke. This series ol 
 stories by Doubleday has helped us a good deal, and my 
 contention is, if we can keep financially right V)y hel)» 
 of this kind, why not make a little sacrifice for the saki* 
 of raising our political tone ? Paincorn won't see it ; he 
 listens eagerly to Kenyon's assurance that we might sell 
 several thousand more by striking tlie true pot-house 
 note.' » 
 
 ' Then pitch the thing over ! Wash your liands, and go 
 to cleaner work.' 
 
 ' The work I am doing is clean enough,' replied Ear- 
 waker. ' Let me have my way, and I can make the paper 
 a decent one and a useful one. I shan't easily find 
 another such chance.' 
 
 ' Your idealism has a strong root,' said Godwin, rather 
 contemptuously. 'I half envy you. There must be a 
 distinct pleasure in believing that any intellectual influ- 
 ence will exalt the English democracy.' 
 
 ' I'm not sure that I do believe it, but I enjoy tin- 
 experiment. The chief pleasure, I suppose, is in tightin- 
 Ptuncorn and Kenyon.' 
 
 'They are too strong for you, Earwaker, Tliey have 
 the spirit of the age to back them up.' 
 
 Tlie journalist became silent ; he smiled, but tlic 
 harassment of conflict marked his features. 
 
 ' I hear nothing about " The New Sophistry," ' ho re- 
 marked, when (Jodwin had begun to examine some l)ooks 
 that lay on the table. * Dolby has the trick of keeping 
 manuscripts a long time. Everything that seems al 
 the first glance tolerable, he sends to the printer, tlu'ii 
 muses over it at his leisure. Probably your paper is 
 in type.' 
 
 ' I don't care a rap whether it is or not. What do you 
 think of this book of Oldwinkle's ? ' 
 
 He was holding a volume of liumorous stories, which 
 had greatly taken the fancy of the puldic. 
 
186 BORN IN P]XILE 
 
 ' It's iincorainonly good/ replied the journalist, laughing. 
 'I had a prejudice against the fellow, but he has over- 
 come me. It's more than good farce, — something like 
 really strong humour here and there.' 
 
 'I quite believe it,' said Peak, 'yet I couldn't read a 
 page. Whatever the mob enjoys is at once spoilt for 
 me, however good I should otherwise think it. I am 
 sick of seeing and hearing the man's name.' 
 
 Earwaker shook his head in deprecation. 
 
 ' Narrow, my boy. One nuist be able to judge and 
 enjoy impartially.' 
 
 'I know it, but I shall never improve. This book 
 seems to me to have a l)ad smell ; it looks mauled 
 with dirty lingers. I despise Oldwinkle for his popu- 
 larity. To make them laugli, and to laugh vith them 
 —pah ! ' 
 
 They deltated this point for some time, Peak growing 
 more violent, though his friend preserved a smiling 
 equanimity. A tirade of virulent contempt, in whicli 
 Godwin exhibited all his powers of savage eloquence, was 
 broken by a visitor's summons at the door. 
 
 'Here's Malkin,' said the journalist: 'you'll see each 
 other at last.' 
 
 l*eak could not at once command himself to the look 
 and tone desirable in meeting a stranger ; leaning against 
 the mantelpiece, he gazed with a scowl of curiosity at 
 the man wlio presented himself, and when he shook 
 hands, it was in silence. But Malkin made speech from 
 the others unnecessary for several minutes. With ani- 
 mated voice and gesture, he poured forth apologies for 
 his failure to keep the appointment of six or seven 
 weeks ago. 
 
 ' Only the gravest call of duty could have kept me 
 away, 1 do assure you ! Xo doubt Earwaker has informed 
 you of the circumstances. I telegraphed — I think I 
 telegraphed ; didn't I, Earwaker ? ' 
 
 ' I have some recollection of a word or two of scant 
 excuse,' replied the journalist. 
 
 'But I implore you to consider the haste I was in,' 
 cried Malkin; 'not five minutes, Mr. Beak, to book, to 
 
BOKN IN EX ILK 187 
 
 register luggage, to do everything ; not five minutes, I 
 protest ! lUit here we are at hist. Let us talk ! I^t us 
 talk : ' 
 
 He seated himself with an air of supreme enjoyment, 
 and began to cram the bowl of a large pipe from a bulky 
 pouch. 
 
 * How stands the fight with Kenyon and C(>. ? ' lie cried, 
 as soon as tlie tol)acco was glowing. 
 
 Earwaker briefly repeated what he liad told I'l-ak. 
 
 ' Hold out ! No surrender and no compromise ! What's 
 your opinion, ^Ir. Peak, on the abstract (piestion .'' Is a 
 popular paper likely, or not, to be damaged in its circu- 
 lation by improvement of style and tonu — within tlie 
 limits of discretion ? ' 
 
 *I shouldn't be surprised if it were,' Teak answered, 
 drily. 
 
 ' Im afraid you're right. There's no usr in blinking 
 truths, however disagreeable. lUit, for Earwaker, that 
 isn't the main issue. AVhat he lias to do is to assert 
 himself. Every man's first duty is to assert himself. 
 At all events, this is how 1 regard the matter. I am all 
 for individualism, for the development of one's i)ersonality 
 at whatever cost. Xo compromise on i>oints of faith! 
 Earwaker has his ideal of journalistic duty, and in a fight 
 with fellows like Euncorn and Kenyon lie must stand 
 firm as a rock.' 
 
 ' I can't see that he's called upon to light at all.' 
 said Peak. ' He's in a false position ; let him get out 
 of it.' 
 
 'A false position? 1 can't see that. No man better 
 fitted than Earwaker to raise the tone of IJadical journal- 
 ism. Here's a big Sunday newspaper jiractically in his 
 hands ; it seems to me that the circumstances give him 
 a grand opportunity of making his force felt. What an* 
 we all seeking but an op])ortunitv for striking t.ut with 
 etfect?' 
 
 Godwin listened with a sceptical smih*, and mndo 
 answer in slow, careless tones. 
 
 ' Earwaker happens to be emidoycd and paid by ci-rtaiii 
 capitalists to increase the sale of their ]>ai»er.' 
 
188 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' My dear sir ! ' cried the other, bouncing upon his 
 seat. ' How can you take such a view ? A great news- 
 paper surely cannot be regarded as a mere source of 
 income. These capitalists declare that they have at 
 heart the interests of the working classes ; so has Ear- 
 waker, and he is far better able than they to promote 
 those interests. His duty is to apply their money to the 
 best use, morally speaking. If he were lukewarm in the 
 matter, I should be the first to advise his retirement; 
 but this fight is entirely congenial to him. I trust he 
 will hold his own to the last possible moment.' 
 
 'You must remember,' put in the journalist, with a 
 look of amusement, 'that Peak has no sympathy with 
 Eadicalism.' 
 
 'I lament it, but that does not affect my argument. 
 If you were a high Tory, I should urge you just as 
 strongly to assert yourself. Surely you agree with this 
 point of mine, Mr. Peak ? You admit that a man must 
 develop whatever strength is in him.' 
 
 ' I'm not at all sure of that.' 
 
 Malkin fixed himself sideways in the chair, and ex- 
 amined his collocutor's face earnestly. He endeavoured 
 to sul^due his excitement to the tone of courteous debate, 
 but the words that at length escaped him were humor- 
 ously blunt. 
 
 ' Then of what arc you sure ? ' 
 
 ' Of nothing.' 
 
 ' Now we touch bottom ! ' cried Malkin. ' Philosophi- 
 cally speaking, I agree with you. But we have to live 
 our lives, and I suppose we must direct ourselves by some 
 conscious principle.' 
 
 ' I don't see the necessity,' Peak replied, still in an 
 impassive tone. 'We may very well be guided by 
 circumstances as they arise. To be sure, there's a 
 principle in that, but I take it you mean something 
 different.' 
 
 'Yes I do. I hold that the will must direct cir- 
 cumstances, not receive its impulse from them. How, 
 then, are we to be guided ? What do you set before 
 yourself ? ' 
 
BORN IN EXILK 189 
 
 ' To get throiigli life with as iniicli satisfaction and as 
 little pain as possible.' 
 
 *Yoii are a hedonist, then. Well and good! Then 
 that is your conscious principle ' 
 
 ' No, it isn't.' 
 
 * How am I to understand you ? * 
 
 * By recognising that a man's intellectual and moral 
 principles as likely as not tend to anything init his 
 happiness.' 
 
 'I can't admit it!' exclaimed ^NFalkin, leaping from his 
 chair. ' What is happiness ? ' 
 
 ' I don't know.' 
 
 ' Earwaker, what is happiness ? What is hajjpiness ? ' 
 
 ' I really don't know,' answered the journalist, mirtli- 
 fully. 
 
 ' This is trifling with a grave question. We all know 
 perfectly well that happiness is the conscious exertion 
 of individual powers. Why is there so much suffering 
 under our present social system ? Because the majority 
 of men are crushed to a dead level of mechanical toil, 
 with no opportunity of developing their special facultius. 
 Give a man scope, and happiness is put within his 
 reach.' 
 
 ' What do you mean by scope ? ' inquired Godwin. 
 
 * Scope ? Scope ? Why, room to expand. The vice of 
 our society is hypocrisy; it comes of over-crowding. 
 When a man isn't allowed to be himself, he takes refuge 
 in a mean imitation of those other men who appear to be 
 better off. That was what sent me off to South America. 
 I got into politics, and found that I was in danger nf 
 growing dishonest, of compromising, and toailying. In 
 the wilderness, I Ibund myself again. — Do you seriously 
 believe that happiness can be obtained by ignoring one's 
 convictions ? ' 
 
 He addressed the question to botli, snufllng the air with 
 head thrown back. 
 
 * What if you have no convictions ? ' asked Peak. 
 'Then you are incapable of happiness in any worthy 
 
 sense ! You may graze, but you will never feast.' 
 
 The listeners joined in laughter, and Malkin, after a 
 
190 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 moment's hesitation, allowed his face to relax in good- 
 humoured sympathy. 
 
 ' Now look here ! ' he cried. * You — Earwaker ; sup- 
 pose you sent conscience to the devil, and set yourself 
 to please Runcorn ])y increasing the circulation of 
 your paper by whatever means. You would flourish, 
 undoubtedly. In a short time you would be chief 
 editor, and your pockets would burst with money. 
 But what about your peace of mind ? What about 
 happiness ? ' 
 
 ' Why, I'm disposed to agree with Peak,' answered the 
 journalist. ' If I could take that line, I should be 
 a happier man than conscientiousness will ever make 
 me.' 
 
 Malkin swelled with indignation. 
 
 ' You don't mean it ! You are turning a m^ave argu- 
 ment into jest ! — Where's my hat ? Where the devil is 
 my hat ? Send for me again when you are disposed to 
 talk seriously.' 
 
 He strode towards the door, but Earwaker arrested liim 
 with a shout. 
 
 ' You're leaving your pipe ! ' 
 
 ' So I am. Where is it ? — Did I tell you where I 
 bought this pipe ? ' 
 
 ' No. What's the wood ? ' 
 
 On the instant Malkin fell into a cheerful vein of re- 
 miniscence. In five minutes he was giving a rapturous 
 description of tropical scenes, laughing joyously as he 
 addressed now one now the other of his companions. 
 
 ' I hear you have a mind to see those countries, Mr. 
 Peak,' he said at length. ' If you care for a travelling- 
 companion — rather short-tempered, but you'll pardon tliat 
 — pray give me the preference. I should enjoy above all 
 things to travel with a man of science.' 
 
 * It's very doubtful whether 1 shall ever get so far,' 
 Godwin replied, musingly. 
 
 And, as he spoke, he rose to take leave. Earwaker's 
 protest that it was not yet ten o'clock did not influence 
 him. 
 
 ' I want to reflect on the meaning of liappiness,' he said, 
 
IU)K\ IX i:\lLK 101 
 
 L'xteiiding liis Imiul to ^falkiii ; and, in spiic of ili,. smile, 
 his lace had a suiiihre cast. 
 
 The two who were left of course discussed liini. 
 
 ' Vou won't care much for Peak,' said Karwaker. ' He 
 and I suit each other, because there's a good ileal of 
 indifferentisni in l)()th of us. Moral earnestness always 
 goes against the grain w^ith him ; I've notice<l it 
 frequently.' 
 
 ' I'm sorry I spoke so dogmatically. It wasn't alto- 
 gether good manners. Suppose I write liim a slmrt 
 letter, just expressing my regret fur having heen led 
 away ' 
 
 ' Needless, needless,' laughed the journalist. ' He 
 thinks all the better of you for your zeal. But happiness 
 is a sore point with him ; few men, I should think, have 
 known less of it. I can't imagine any circumstances 
 which would make him thoroughly at peace with himself 
 and the world.' 
 
 'Poor fellow! You can see something of that in his 
 face. Why doesn't he get married ? ' 
 
 *A remarkable suggestion! — By the way, why dnn't 
 yoi'!' 
 
 ' My dear boy, there's nothing I wish mure, Imt it's a 
 business of such fearful prccariousness. I'm one of those 
 men whom marriage will either make or ruin. You 
 know my characteristics; the slightest check u]»on 
 my indei)cndence, and all's up with me. The woman 
 I marry must be perfectly reasonable, perfectly gooil- 
 tempered; she must have excellent education, and every 
 delicacy of breeding. Where am I to (ind this paragon i' 
 
 ' Society is open to you.' 
 
 'True, but I am not open to society. I don't lake 
 kindly to the people of my own class. No, I tell you 
 what — my only chance of getting a suitable wife is to 
 train some very young girl for the i)uri)ose. Don't mis- 
 understand me, for heaven's sake ! I mean that I must 
 make a friendship with some schoolgirl in whose educa- 
 tion I can have a voice, whose relatives will ])crmit me to 
 influence her mind and devclo]* her characlcr. What do 
 you think (»f this idea V 
 
192 BOEN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Not bad, but it demands patience.' 
 
 ' And who more patient than I ? But let us talk of 
 that poor Mrs. Jacox and her girls. You feel that you 
 know them pretty well from my letters, don't you ? 
 Nothing more monstrous can be imagined than the treat- 
 ment to which this poor woman has been subjected! I 
 couldn't have believed that such dishonesty and brutality 
 were possible in English families of decent position. 
 Her husband deserted her, her brother robbed her, her 
 sister-in-law libelled her, — the whole story is nauseating ! ' 
 
 ' You're quite sure that she tells you the truth ? ' 
 
 Mai kin glared with sudden resentment. 
 
 ' The truth ? What ! you also desire to calumniate her ? 
 For shame, Earwaker ! A poor widow toiling to support 
 herself in a foreign country, with two children dependent 
 on her.' 
 
 'Yes, yes, yes; but you seem to know very little of 
 her.' 
 
 ' I know her perfectly, and all her circumstances ! ' 
 
 Mrs. Jacox was the mother of the two girls whom 
 Malkin had escorted to Eouen, after an hour or so of 
 all but casual acquaintance. She and her history had 
 come in a very slight degree under the notice of certain 
 good-natured people with whom Malkin was on friendly 
 terms, and hearing that the children, Bella and Lily, aged 
 fourteen and twelve respectively, were about to undertake 
 alone a journey to the Continent, the erratic hero felt it 
 incumbent upon him to see them safe at their mother's 
 side. Instead of returning forthwith, he lingered in 
 Normandy for several weeks, striking off at length, on the 
 summons of a friend, to Orleans, whence he was only to- 
 day returned. Two or three letters had kept Earwaker 
 informed of his movements. Of Mrs. Jacox he wrote as 
 he now spoke, with compassionate respect, and the girls, 
 according to him, were exquisite models of budding 
 maidenhood. 
 
 ' You haven't told me,' said Earwaker, calmly fronting 
 the indignant outburst, ' what her circumstances are — at 
 present.' 
 
 'She assists an English lady in the management of a 
 
BORN IN KXILK I'Jii 
 
 boarding-houso,' ^lalkiii replicJ, wiili an air which forbade 
 trivial comiiieiit. ' IWdla and Lily will of course continue 
 their studies. I daresay I sliall run over now and then 
 to see them.' 
 
 ' May I, without oflence, inquire if either of these young 
 ladies seems suitable for the ideal training of which you 
 spoke ? ' 
 
 Malkin smiled tlioughlfuUy. He stood with liis legs 
 apart and stroked his blond beard. 
 
 'The surmise is not unnatural. Well, I confess that 
 Bella has inspired me with no little interest. She i.s 
 rather mature, unfortunately ; I wish she liad been Lily's 
 age. We shall see ; we shall see.' 
 
 Musing, he refilled his pipe, and gossiji was prolonged 
 till something after one o'clock. ^Lalkin was never 
 known to retire willingly from an evening's congenial talk 
 until the small hours were in progress. 
 
 Peak, on reaching home about eleven, was surprised to 
 see a light in his sitting-room window. As he entered, 
 his landlady informed him that Mr. Moxey liad l.>eeii 
 waiting upstairs for an hour or t\vo. Cliristian was 
 reading. He laid down the book and rose languidly. His 
 face was flushed, and he spoke with a laugh which 
 suggested that a fit of despondency (as occasionally 
 liappened) had tempted him to excess in cordials. 
 Godwin understood these signs. He knew that his friend's 
 intellect was rather brightened than impaired by such 
 stimulus, and he affected not to be conscious of any 
 peculiarity. 
 
 'As you wouldn't come to me,' Christian began, ' I had 
 no choice but to come to you. My visit isn't unwelcome, 
 1 hope ? ' 
 
 ' Certainly not. But how are you going to get Imnjc ? 
 You know the time ? ' 
 
 'Don't trouble. I shan't go to bed to-night. Isnl 
 me sit here and read, will you ? U I feel tired I can 
 lie down on the sofa. What a delightful l)ook this is! 
 I must get it.' 
 
 It was a history of the Italian Kenaissance, recently 
 published. 
 
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194 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Where does this phrase come from ? ' he continued, 
 pointing to a scrap of paper, used as a book-mark, on 
 which Godwin had pencilled a note. The words were : 
 ' Foris lit moris, intus nt lihet.' 
 
 ' It's mentioned there,' Peak replied, * as the motto 
 of those humanists wdio outwardly conformed to the 
 common faith.' 
 
 *I see. All very well when the Inquisition was 
 flourishing, but sounds ignoble nowadays.' 
 
 ' Do you think so ? In a half-civilised age, whether 
 the sixteenth or the nineteenth century, a wise man may 
 do w^orse than adopt it.' 
 
 ' Better be honest, surely ? ' 
 
 Peak stood for a moment as if in doubt, then exclaimed 
 irritably : 
 
 * Honest ? Honest ? Who is or can be honest ? Who 
 truly declares himself ? When a man has learnt that 
 truth is indeterminable, how is it more moral to go about 
 crying that you don't believe a certain dogma than 
 to concede that the dogma may possibly be true ? This 
 new morality of the agnostics is mere paltry conceit. 
 Why must I make solemn declaration that I don't 
 believe in absolute knowledge ? I might as well be 
 called upon to inform all my acquaintances how I stand 
 with regard to the theories of chemical affinity. One's 
 philosophy has nothing to do with the business of life. 
 If I chose to become a Church of England clergyman, 
 what moral objection could be made ? ' 
 
 This illustration was so amusing to Moxey, tliat his 
 surprise at what preceded gave way to laughter. 
 
 ' I wonder,' he exclaimed, ' that you never seriously 
 thought of a profession for which you are so evidently 
 cut out.' 
 
 Godwin kept silence ; his face had darkened, and he 
 seated himself with sullen weariness. 
 
 ' Tell me what you've been doing,' resumed Moxey. 
 ' Why haven't I heard from you ? ' 
 
 ' I should have come in a day or two. I thought you 
 were probably out of town.' 
 
 ' Her husband is ill,' said the other, by way of reply. 
 
BORN IX KXILK 195 
 
 He leaned forward with his arms upon the table, and 
 gazed at Godwin with eyes of peculiar hri^litness. 
 
 * 111, is he V returned Godwin, with slow interest. ' In 
 the same way as l)efore ? ' 
 
 * Yes, l)ut much worse.* 
 
 Christian paused; and when he again spoke it was 
 huiTiedly, confusedly. 
 
 * How can I help getting excited about it? How can 
 I behave decently ? You're the only man 1 ever speak 
 to on the subject, and no doubt I ])oth weary and disgust 
 you ; but I must speak to some one. My nerves an; 
 strung beyond endurance; it's only by speaking tliat I 
 can ease myself from the intolerable strain.' 
 
 ' Have you seen her lately ? ' 
 
 'Yesterday, for a moment, in the street. It's ten 
 months since the last meeting.' 
 
 'Well,' remarked Godwin, abruptly, 'it's ])robable the 
 man will die one of these days, then your trials will have 
 a happy end. I see no harm in hoping that his life may 
 be short — that's a conventional feeling. If two people 
 can be benefited by the death of a single person, wliy 
 shouldn't we be glad in the prospect of his dying ? Not 
 of his suffering — that's quite another thing. But die he 
 must; and to curtail the life of a being who at length 
 wholly ceases to exist is no injury. You can't injure a 
 nonentity. Do you think I should take it ill if I knew that 
 some persons were wishing my death ? Why, look, if ever I 
 crush a little green fly that crawls upon me in the lields, at 
 once I am filled with envy of its fate — sincerest envy. To 
 have passed so suddenly from being into nothingness — how 
 blessed an extinction ! To feel in that way, instinctively, 
 in the very depths of your soul, is to be a true pessimist. 
 If I had ever doubted my sincerity in pessimism, this 
 experience, several times repeated, would have reassured 
 me.' 
 
 Christian covered his face, and brooded fur a long 
 time, whilst Godwin sat with his eyes on vacancy. 
 
 ' Come and see us to-morrow,* said the former, at 
 length. 
 
 ' Perhaps.' 
 
196 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Why do you keep away ? ' 
 
 ' I'm in no mood for society.' 
 
 ' We'll have no one. Only Marcella and I.' 
 
 Again a long silence. 
 
 ' Marcella is going in for comparative philology/ 
 Christian resumed, with the gentle tone in which he 
 invariably spoke of his sister. ' What a mind that 
 girl has ! I never knew any woman of half her 
 powers.' 
 
 Godwin said nothing. 
 
 ' iSTo,' continued the other fervently, ' nor of half her 
 goodness. I sometimes think that no mortal could 
 come nearer to our ideal of moral justice and purity. 
 If it were not for her, I should long ago have gone to 
 perdition, in one way or another. It's her strength, not 
 my own, that has saved me. I daresay you know 
 this?' 
 
 ' There's some truth in it, I believe,' Peak answered, his 
 eye wandering. 
 
 ' See how circumstances can affect one's judgment. If, 
 just about the time I first knew you, I had abandoned 
 myself to a life of sottish despair, of course I should have 
 charged Constance with the blame of it. Now that I have 
 struggled on, I can see that she has been a blessing to me 
 instead of a curse. If Marcella has given me strength, I 
 have to thank Constance for the spiritual joy which other- 
 wise I should never have known.' 
 
 Peak uttered a short laugh. 
 
 ' That is only saying that she might have been ruinous, 
 but in the course of circumstances has proved helpful. 
 I envy your power of deriving comfort from such 
 reflections.' 
 
 ' Well, we view things differently. I have the habit 
 of looking to the consolatory facts of life, you to the 
 depressing. There's an unfortunate lack in you, 
 Peak ; you seem insensible to female influence, and I 
 believe that is closely connected with your desperate 
 pessimism.' 
 
 Godwin laughed again, this time with mocking length 
 of note. 
 
BORN IN KXILK 197 
 
 ' Come now, isn't it true ? ' urged tlie other. ' Sincere! 
 do you care for women at all ? ' 
 
 * Perhaps not.' 
 
 'A grave misfortune, depend upon it! It accounts, 
 for nearly everything that is unsatisfactory in your 
 life. If you liad ever been sincerely devotecl to a , 
 woman, be assured your i)Owers would have develoiHjd 
 in a way of which you have no conception. It's no 
 answer to tell me that / am still a mere tritler, never 
 likely to do anything of account ; I haven't it in me to 
 be anything better, and I might easily have l)econie 
 much worse. But you might have made yourself a great 
 position — I mean, you niujlit do so ; you are still very 
 young. If only you knew the desire of a woman's 
 help.' 
 
 'You really think so?' said Godwin, with grave 
 irony. 
 
 ' I am sure of it ! There's no harm in repeating what 
 you have often told me — your egoism oppresses you. A 
 woman's influence takes one out of oneself Xo man can 
 be a better authority on this tlian I. For more tlian eleven 
 years I have worshipped one woman witli absolute 
 faithfulness ' 
 
 ' Absolute ? ' interrupted Godwin, bluntly. 
 
 * What exception occurs to you ? ' 
 
 ' As you challenge inquiry, forgive me for asking wliat 
 your interest was in one of your cousins at Twy]»ridge ?' 
 
 Christian started, and averted his face with a look of 
 embarrassment. 
 
 'Do you mean to say that you knew anything about 
 that ? ' 
 
 * I was always an observer,' Peak replied, smiling. 
 'You don't remember, perhaps, tliat I happened to 1m' 
 present when a letter had just arrived for you at your 
 uncle's house — a letter which evidently disturlted you T 
 
 'This is astonishing! Peak, you're a terril)le fellow! 
 Heaven forbid that I should ever l)e at your mercy ! 
 Yes, you are quite right,' he continued, despondently. 
 ' I'.ut that was no real unfaitlifulness. I <lon't quite 
 know how to explain it. T d'n^ make love to j.oor Janet, 
 
198 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 and with the result that I have never since seen any 
 of the family. My uncle, when he found I had drawn 
 back, was very savage — naturally enough. Marcella and 
 I never again went to Twybridge. I liked Janet; she 
 was a good, kind girl. I believed just then that my 
 love for Constance was hopeless ; my mood impelled me 
 to the conviction that the best thing I could do was to 
 marry Janet and settle down to a peaceful domestic life. 
 Then came that letter — it was from Constance herself. 
 It meant nothing, yet it was enough to revive all my 
 
 hopes. I rushed off' ! How brutally I had behaved ! 
 
 Poor little Janet ! ' 
 
 He let his face fall upon his hands. 
 
 'Allow me an indiscreet question,' said Peak, after 
 a silence. ' Have you any founded hope of marrying 
 Constance if she becomes a widow ? ' 
 
 Christian started and looked up with wide eyes. 
 
 ' Hope ? Every hope ! I have the absolute assurance 
 of her love.' 
 
 ' I see.' 
 
 'But I mustn't mislead you,' pursued the other, 
 hurriedly. ' Our relations are absolutely pure. I have 
 only allowed myself to see her at very long intervals. 
 Why shouldn't 1 tell you ? It was less than a year after 
 her marriage ; I found her alone in a room in a friend's 
 house ; her eyes were red with weeping. I couldn't help 
 holding my hand to her. She took it, and held it for a 
 moment, and looked at me steadily, and whispered my 
 name — that was all. I knew then that she repented of 
 her marriage — who can say what led her into it ? I was 
 poor, you know ; perhaps — but in spite of all, she did 
 love me. There has never since been anything like a 
 scene of emotion between us — tliat her conscience couldn't 
 allow. She is a noble-minded woman, and has done her 
 duty. But if she is free ' 
 
 He quivered with passionate feeling. 
 
 ' And you are content,' said Godwin, drily, ' to liave 
 wasted ten years of your life for such a possibility ? ' 
 
 ' Wasted ! ' Christian exclaimed. * Come, come. Peak ; 
 why ivill you affect this wretched cynicism ? Is it 
 
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 waste of years to liave lived with the lii^^'lu'.st aiul 
 purest ideal perpetually l)eforu one's mind { What can 
 a man do better than, having found an admirable woman, 
 to worship her thenceforth, and defy every temptation 
 that could lead him astray ? I don't like to seem boast- 
 ful, but I hare lived purely and devotedly. And if 
 the test endured to the end of my life, I could sustain it. 
 Is the consciousness of my love nothing to Constance ? 
 Has it not helped her ? ' 
 
 Such profound sincerity was astonishing to iVak. 
 He did not admire it, for it seemed to liim, in this 
 case at all events, the fatal weakness of a character 
 it was impossible not to love. Though he could not 
 declare his doubts, he thought it more than prol»abli' that 
 this Laura of the voiceless Petrarch was unworthy of 
 such constancy, and that she had no intention whatever 
 of rewarding it, even if the opportunity arrived. 
 But this was the mere speculation of a pessimist; 
 he might be altogether wrong, for he had never denied 
 the existence of high virtue, in man or woman. 
 
 'There goes midnight!' he remarked, turning from 
 the subject. 'You can't sleep, neither can I. AVhy 
 shouldn't we walk into town ? ' 
 
 'By all means; on condition that you will come liome 
 with me, and spend to-morrow there.' 
 
 ' Very well.' 
 
 They set forth, and with varied talk, often broken liy 
 long silences, made their way through sleeping suburbs 
 to the dark valley of Thames. 
 
 There passed another month, during which Peak was 
 neither seen nor heard of by his friends. One evening 
 in October, as he sat studying at the P>ritish Museum, a 
 friendly voice claimed his attention. He rose nervously 
 and met the searching eye of Buckland Warricombe. 
 
 ' I had it in mind to write to you,' said the latter. * Since 
 we parted down yonder I have been running about a good 
 deal, with few days in town. Do you often read here (' 
 
 ' CJenerally on Saturday afternoon.' 
 
 Buckland glanced at the open volume, and caught a 
 heading, ' Apologetic Theology.' 
 
200 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Still at the works ? ' 
 
 ' Yes ; I shall be there till Christmas — no longer.' 
 
 ' Are you by chance disengaged to-morrow ? Could 
 you dine with me ? I shall be alone ; perhaps you don't 
 mind that ? We could exchange views on " fate, free- 
 will, foreknowledge absolute." ' 
 
 Godwin accepted the invitation, and Warricombe, unable 
 to linger, took leave of him. 
 
 They met the next evening in Buckland's rooms, not 
 far from the Houses of Parliament. Commonplace 
 comfort was the note of these quarters. Peak wondered 
 that a man who had it in his power to surround himself 
 with evidences of taste should be content to dwell thus. 
 His host seemed to detect this thought in the glances 
 Godwin cast about him. 
 
 * Nothing but a incd-a-Uvrc. I have been here three 
 or four years, but I don't think of it as a home. I 
 suppose I shall settle somewhere before long : yet, on the 
 whole, what does it matter where one lives ? There's 
 something in the atmosphere of our time that makes one 
 indisposed to strike roots in the old way. Who knows 
 how long there'll be such a thing as real property ? We 
 are getting to think of ourselves as lodgers ; it's as well to 
 be indifferent about a notice to quit.' 
 
 ' Many people would still make a good fight for the old 
 homes,' replied Peak. 
 
 'Yes; I daresay I should myself, if I were a family 
 man. A wife and children are strong persuasions to 
 conservatism. In those who have anything, that's to 
 say. Let the families who have nothing learn how they 
 stand in point of numbers, and we shall see what we shall 
 see.' 
 
 ' And you are doing your best to teach them that.' 
 
 Buckland smiled. 
 
 'A few other things at the same time. One isn't 
 necessarily an anarchist, you know.' 
 
 'What enormous faith you must have in the meta- 
 physical powers of the multitude ! ' 
 
 * Trenchant ! But say, rather, in tlie universal self- 
 interest. That's the trait of human nature whicli we 
 
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 have in mind wlien we speak uf enliglitennient. The 
 aim of practical liadicalisni is to instinct men's seltishnes.s. 
 Astonishing how capable it is of being instructed ! The 
 mistake of tlie Socialist lies in his crediting men witli 
 far too much self-esteem, far too little perception of their 
 own limits. The characteristic of mankind at large is 
 humility.' 
 
 Peak began to understand his olil acquaintance ; he 
 had imagined him less acute. Gratified l»y the smile of 
 interest, Warricombe added : 
 
 ' There are forces of madness ; I liave sliown you that I 
 make allowance for them. But they are only dangemus 
 so long as privilege allies itself with liypocrisy. 'j'lie 
 task of tlie modern civiliser is to sweep away sham 
 idealisms.' 
 
 ' I agree with you,' Godwin replied. 
 
 AVith sudden change of mood, Buckland Itegan to speak 
 of an indifferent topic of tlie day, and in a few minutes 
 they sat down to dinner. 
 
 Xot till the welcome tobacco blended its aroma with 
 that of coffee did a frankly personal note sound in their 
 conversation. 
 
 ' So at Christmas you are free,' said "Warricombe. ' You 
 still think of leaving London ? ' 
 
 ' I have decided to go down into Devonshire.' 
 
 ' The seaside ? ' 
 
 'I shall stay first of all in Exeter,' (Jodwin re- 
 plied, with deliberation; 'one can get hold of l)()oks 
 there.' 
 
 ' Yes, especially of the ecclesiastical colour.' 
 
 'You are still unable to regard my position with 
 anything but contempt ?' Peak asked, looking steadily at 
 the critical face. 
 
 ' Come now; what does it all mean ? (^f course I (piile 
 understand how tolerant the Churcli is l)e('oming : 1 know 
 what latitude it permits in its servants. Ihit what do 
 you propose to yourself ? ' 
 
 ' Precisely what you call the work of tin- civilix-r— to 
 attack sham ideals.' 
 
 * As for instance ? ' 
 
202 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 J J 'The authority of the mob/ answered Peak, suavely. 
 
 ' Your clericalism is political, then ? ' 
 
 ' To a great extent.' 
 
 ' I discern a vague sort of consistency in this. You 
 regard the Church formulas as merely syml^olical — useful 
 for the purposes of the day ? ' 
 
 ' Rather for the purposes of eternity.' 
 
 ' In the human sense.' 
 
 ' In every sense.' 
 
 Warricombe perceived that no directness of questioning 
 would elicit literal response, and on the whole this relieved 
 him. To hear Godwin Peak using the language of a 
 fervent curate would have excited in him something more 
 than disgust. It did not seem impossible that a nature 
 like Peak's — intellectually arrogant, vehemently anti- 
 popular — should have been attracted by the traditions, 
 the social prestige, of the Anglican Church ; nor at all 
 unlikely that a mind so constituted should justify a 
 seeming acceptance of dogmas, which in the strict sense 
 it despised. But he w^as made uneasy by his ignorance 
 of Peak's private life during the years since their, parting 
 at College. He did not like to think of the possible 
 establishment of intimacy between this man of low origin, 
 uncertain career, boundless ambition, and the household 
 of Martin Warricombe. There could be no doubt that 
 Peak had decided to go to Exeter because of the social 
 prospects recently opened to him. In the vulgar phrase, 
 he had probably 'taken stock' of Mr. Warricombe's 
 idiosyncrasy, and saw therein a valuable opportunity for 
 a theological student, who at the same time was a devotee 
 of natural science. To be sure, the people at Exeter 
 could be put on their guard. On the other hand, Peak 
 had plainly avowed his desire to form social connections 
 of the useful kind ; in his position such an aim was 
 essential, a mere matter of course. 
 
 Godwin's voice interrupted this train of tliought. 
 
 * Let me ask you a plain question. You have twice 
 been kind enough to introduce me to your home as a 
 friend of yours. Am I guilty of presumption in hoping 
 that your parents will continue to regard me as an 
 
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 acquaintance ? 1 trust there's no need to assure you 
 tliat I know the meaning of discretion.' 
 
 An appeal to lhickh\nd's generosity seldom failed. 
 Yes, it was true tliat lie had more than once encouragtMl 
 the hope now frankly expressed. Indulging a corre- 
 spondent frankness, he might explain that iVnik's position 
 was so distasteful to him that it disturhed the future 
 with many kinds of uncertainty. But this would be 
 churlish. He must treat his guest as a gentleman, so 
 long as nothing compelled him to take the less agree- 
 able view. 
 
 ' My dear Peak, let us have none of these formalities. 
 My parents have distinctly invited you to go and see 
 them whenever you are in the neighbourhood. I am 
 quite sure they will help to make your stay in Exeter a 
 pleasant one.' 
 
 Therewith closed the hazardous dialogue. Warricom1)e 
 turned at once to a safe topic — that of contcnq^orary 
 fiction, and they chatted pleasantly enough for the rest 
 of the evening. 
 
 Xot many days after this, Godwin received l)y ])ost an 
 envelope which contained certain proof sheets, and there- 
 with a note in which the editor of The Crltin/l Jirvinr 
 signified his acceptance of a paper entitled 'The New 
 Sophistry.' The communication was originally addressc^l 
 to Earwaker, who had scribbled at the foot, ' Correct, if 
 you are alive, and send back to Dolby.' 
 
 The next morning he did not set out as usual for Rother- 
 hithe. Through the night he had not closed his eyes; 
 he was in a state of nervousness which bordered on fever. 
 A dozen times he had read over the proofs, with throbbing 
 pulse, with exultant self-admiration: but the printer's 
 errors which had caught his eye, and a U\\\ faults of 
 phrase, were still uncorrected. What a capital i)iece of 
 writing it was ! What a flagellation of M'Naughten and 
 all his tribe! If this did not rouse echoes in the literaiy 
 world 
 
 Through the long day he sat in languor or y^wA his 
 room like one made restless by pain. Oidy when the 
 gloom of nightfall obliged him to light his lamp di<l he 
 
204 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 at length sit down to the table and carefully revise the 
 proofs, pen in hand. When he had made up the packet 
 for post, he wrote to Earwaker. 
 
 ' I had forgotten all about this thing. Proofs have gone 
 to Dolby. I have not signed ; probably he would object 
 to my doing so. As it is, the paper can be ascribed to 
 anyone, and attention thus excited. We shall see 
 paragraphs attributing it to men of mark — perhaps 
 scandal will fix it on a bishop. In any case, don't let 
 out the secret. I beg tliis seriously, and for a solid 
 reason. Not a word to anyone, liowever intimate. If 
 Dolby betrays your name, grin and bear it. I depend 
 upon your friendship.' 
 
II 
 
 Ix a l)y-way whicli declines from ihe main thorough- 
 fare of Exeter, and bears the name of Longljrook Street, 
 is a row of small houses placed above long strii)S of 
 sloping garden. They are old and plain, with no archi- 
 tectural feature calling for mention, unless it be the 
 latticed porch which gives the doors an awkward quaint- 
 ness. Just beyoild, the road crosses a liollow, and begins 
 the ascent of a hill here interposed between the city 
 and the inland-winding valley of Exe. The little terrace 
 may be regarded as urban or rural, according to the 
 tastes and occasions of those who dwell there. In one 
 direction, a walk of five minutes will conduct to the 
 middle of High Street, and in the other it takes scarcely 
 longer to reach the open country. 
 
 On the upper floor of one of these cottages, Godwin 
 Peak liad made his abode. Sitting-room and bedchamber, 
 furnished with homely comfort, answered to his ])achel<»r 
 needs, and would allow of his receiving without 
 embarrassment any visitor whom fortune might send 
 him. Of (quietness he was assured, for a widow and her 
 son, alike remarkable for sobriety of demeanour, were 
 the only persons who shared the house with him. Mrs. 
 Eoots could not compare in grace and skill with the 
 little Frenchwoman who had sweetened his existence 
 at Peckham liye, but her zeal made amends for natural 
 deficiency, and the timorous respect with which she 
 waited upon him was l)y no means disagreeable to 
 Godwin. Her reply to a request or suggestion was 
 always, ' If you please, sir.' Throughout the day she 
 
206 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 went so tranquilly about her domestic duties, that 
 Godwin seldom heard anything except the voice of the 
 cuckoo-clock, a pleasant sound to him. Her son, em- 
 ployed at a nurseryman's, was a great sinewy fellow 
 with a face of such ruddiness that it seemed to diffuse 
 warmth; on Sunday afternoon, whatever the state of 
 the sky, he sat behind the house in his shirt-sleeves, 
 and smoked a pipe as he contemplated the hart's-tongue 
 which grew there upon a rockery. 
 
 'The gentleman from London' — so Mrs. Eoots was 
 wont to style her lodger in speaking with neighbours — 
 had brought his books with him; they found place on 
 a few shelves. His microscope had its stand by the 
 window, and one or two other scientific implements lay 
 about the room. The cabinets bequeathed to him by 
 Mr. Gunnery he had sent to Twybridge, to remain in 
 his mother's care. In taking the lodgings, he described 
 himself merely as a student, and gave his landlady to 
 understand that he hoped to remain under her roof for 
 at least a year. Of his extreme respectabiUty, the widow 
 could entertain no doubt, for he dressed with aristocratic 
 finish, attended services at the Cathedral and elsewhere 
 very frequently, and made the most punctual payments. 
 Moreover, a casual remark had informed her that he was 
 on friendly terms with Mr. Martin Warricombe, whom 
 her son knew as a gentleman of distinction. He often 
 sat up very late at night, but, doubtless, that was the 
 practice of Londoners. No lodger could have given less 
 trouble, or have acknowledged with more courtesy all 
 that was done for his convenience. 
 
 No one ever called upon Mr. Peak, but he was often 
 from home for many hours together, probably on visits 
 to great people in city or country. It seemed rather 
 strange, however, that the postman so seldom brought 
 anything for him. Though he had now been more than 
 two months in the house, he had received only three 
 letters, and those at long intervals. 
 
 Noticeable was the improvement in his health since his 
 arrival here. The pallor of his cheeks was giving place 
 to a wholesome tinge ; his eye was brighter ; he showed 
 
IJORN IN KXII.K 2U7 
 
 more disposition to converse, and was ivadit-r with 
 ])leasant smiles. ]\rrs. lioots even lieard him singing in 
 his bedroom — tliougli, oddly enough, it was a secular 
 song on Sunday morning. The weekly bills for footl, 
 which at first had been very modest, grew riclier in items. 
 Godwin had, in fact, never felt so well. He extended his 
 walks in every direction, sometimes raml)ling u]* the 
 valley to sleepy little towns where he could rest in the 
 parlours of old inns, sometimes striking across country 
 to this or that point of the sea-coast, or making his wjiy 
 to the nearer summits of Dartmoor, noble in their wintry 
 desolation. He marked with delight every promise of 
 returning spring. When he could only grant himself a 
 walk of an hour or two in the sunny afternoon, there was 
 many a deep lane within easy reach, where the gorse 
 gleamed in masses of gold, and the little oak-trees in 
 the hedges were ruddy with last year's clinging leafage, 
 and catkins hung from the hazels, and tlie fresh green 
 of sprouting ivy crept over bank and wall. Had he now 
 been in London, the morning would liave awakened him 
 to fog and slush and misery. As it was, when he looked 
 out upon the glow of sunrise, he felt the sweet air 
 breathini:^ health into his frame and vigour into his mind. 
 There were moments wlien he could all but say of himself 
 that he was at peace with the world. 
 
 As on a morning tow\ards the end of ^larch, when a 
 wind from the Atlantic swept spaces of brightest blue 
 amid the speeding clouds, and sang joyously as it rushed 
 over hill and dale. It was the very day for an upland 
 walk, for a putting forth of one's strength in conllict with 
 boisterous gusts and sudden showers, that give a taste of 
 earth's nourishment. But Godwin had something else in 
 view. After breakfast, he sat down to iinish a piece of 
 work wdiicli had occupied him for two or three days, 'a 
 translation from a Gennan periodical. His mind wrought 
 easily, and he often hummed an air as his ])en moved 
 over the paper. When the task was comi)leted, he rolled 
 his papers and the pami)hlet together, put them into the 
 pocket of his overcoat, and presently went forth. 
 
 Twenty minutes' walk brought him to the Warri- 
 
208 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 combes' house. It was his second call within the present 
 week, but such assiduity had not hitherto been his wont. 
 Though already summoned twice or thrice by express 
 invitation, he was sparing of voluntary visits. Having 
 asked for Mr. Warricombe, he was forthwith conducted 
 to the study. In the welcome which greeted his appear- 
 ance, he could detect no suspicion of simulated warmth, 
 though his ear had unsurpassable discrimination. 
 
 * Have you looked through it ? ' Martin exclaimed, as he 
 saw the foreign periodical in his visitor's hand. 
 
 ' I have written a rough translation ' 
 
 * Oh, how could you think of taking such trouble ! 
 These things are sent to me by the dozen — I might 
 say, by the cartload. My curiosity would have been 
 amply satisfied if you had just told me the drift of the 
 thing.' , 
 
 ' It seemed to me,' said Peak, modestly, ' that the paper 
 was worth a little careful thought. I read it rapidly at 
 first, but found myself drawn to it again. It states the 
 point of view of the average scientific mind with such 
 remarkable clearness, that I wished to think it over, and 
 the best way was to do so pen in hand.' 
 
 ' Well, if you really did it on your own account ' 
 
 Mr. Warricombe took the offered sheets and glanced 
 at the first of them. 
 
 ' My only purpose,' said Godwin, * in calling again so 
 soon was to leave this with you.' 
 
 He made as though he would take his departure. 
 
 * You want to cjet home ac^ain ? Wait at least till this 
 shower is over. I enjoy that pelting of spring rain 
 against the window. In a minute or two we shall have 
 the laurels flashing in the sunshine, as if they were hung 
 with diamonds.' 
 
 They stood together looking out on to the garden. 
 Presently their talk returned to the German disquisition, 
 which was directed against the class of quasi-scientific 
 authors attacked by Peak himself in his Critical article. 
 In the end Godwin sat down and began to read the 
 translation he had made, Mr. Warricombe listening with 
 a thoughtful smile. From time to time the reader paused 
 
BORN IN EXILK 200 
 
 and uttered a comment, endeavourin*; to show that the 
 arguments were merely phuisible ; his air was that of 
 phicid security, and he seemed to enjoy tlie irony which 
 often fell from his lips. Martin fre([uently scrutinisetl 
 liim, and always with a look of interest which betokened 
 grave reflection. 
 
 ' Here,' said Godwin at one point, ' he lias a noto 
 citing a passage from Reusch's book on The liiUc and 
 Nat H re. If I am not mistaken, he misrepresents his 
 author, though perhaps not intentionally.' 
 
 * You know tlie book ? ' 
 
 * I have studied it carefully, but 1 don't possess it. 
 I thought I remembered tins particular passage very 
 well.' 
 
 ' Is it a work of authority ? ' 
 
 'Yes; it is very important. Unfortunately, it hasn't 
 yet been translated. Rather bulky, but I shouldn't 
 mind doing it myself if I were sure of finding a pub- 
 lisher.' 
 
 ' The Bible and Nature' said Martin, musingly. 
 ' What is his scheme ? How does he go to work ? ' 
 
 Godwin gave a brief but lucid description of the book, 
 and ]\Ir. AVarricombe listened gravely. AVhen there had 
 been silence for some moments, the latter spoke in a 
 tone he had never yet used when conversing with Peak. 
 He allowed himself, for the first time, to betray a troubled 
 doubt on the subject under discussion. 
 
 * So he makes a stand at Darwinism as it allects 
 man ? ' 
 
 Peak had yet no means of knowing at what jjoint 
 Martin himself ' made a stand.' Modes of reconcilement 
 between scientific discovery and religious tradition are 
 so very numerous, and the geologist was only now 
 beginning to touch upon these topics with his young 
 acquaintance. That his mind was not perfectly at case 
 amid the conflicts of the day, Godwin soon perceived. 
 and by this time he had clear assurance that Martin 
 would willingly tlirash out the whole debate with anyone 
 who seemed capable of supi)orting orthodox tenets by 
 reasoning not unacceptable to a man of broad views. Tlie 
 
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210 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 negativist of course assumed from the first that Martin, 
 however respectable his knowledge, was far from possess- 
 ing the scientific mind, and each conversation had 
 supplied him with proofs of this defect ; it was not at 
 all in the modern spirit that the man of threescore years 
 pursued his geological and kindred researches, but with 
 the calm curiosity of a liberal intellect which has 
 somehow taken this direction instead of devoting itself 
 to literary study. At bottom, Godwin had no little 
 sympathy with Mr. Warricombe ; he too, in spite of his 
 militant instincts, dwelt by preference amid purely human 
 interests. He grasped with firm intelligence the modes of 
 thought which distinguish scientific men, but his nature 
 did not prompt him to a consistent application of them. 
 Personal liking enabled him to subdue the impulses of 
 disrespect which, under other circumstances, would have 
 made it difficult for him to act with perfection his present 
 part. None the less, his task was one of infinite delicacy. 
 Martin Warricombe was not the man to unbosom himself 
 on trivial instigation. It must be a powerful influence 
 which would persuade him to reveal whatever self- 
 questionings lay beneath his genial good breeding and 
 long-established acquiescence in a practical philosophy. 
 Godwin guarded himself against his eager emotions ; one 
 false note, one syllable of indiscretion, and his aims might 
 be hopelessly defeated. 
 
 ' Yes,' was his reply to the hesitating question. ' He 
 argues strenuously against the descent of man. If I 
 understand him, he regards the concession of this point 
 as impossible.' 
 
 Martin was deep in thought. He held a paper-knife 
 bent upon his knee, and his smooth, delicate features wore 
 an unquiet smile. 
 
 ' Do you know Hebrew, Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 The question came unexpectedly, and Godwin could not 
 help a momentary confusion, but he covered it with the 
 tone of self-reproach. 
 
 ' I am asliamed to say that I am only now taking it up 
 seriously.' 
 
 ' I don't think you need be ashamed,' said Martin, 
 
BORN IN EXILK L> 1 1 
 
 good-naturedly. 'Even a mind as active as yours must 
 poatpone sonic studies, licusch, I supi)ose, is sound on 
 that head ? ' 
 
 The inquiry struck Godwin as significant. So ;Mr. 
 Warriconibe attaclied importance to the verbal intcr- 
 pretation of the Old Testament. 
 
 'Distinctly an authority,' he replied, 'llu devotes 
 whole chapters to a minute examination of the 
 text.' 
 
 ' If you had more leisure,' Martin began, deliberately, 
 when he had again reflected, ' I should be dis[>osed to 
 urge you to undertake that translation.' 
 
 Peak appeared to meditate. 
 
 ' Has the book been used by English writers ? ' the 
 other inquired. 
 
 ' A good deal. — It was published in the sixties, but I 
 read it in a new edition dated a few years ago. Keusch 
 has kept pace with the men of science. It would be very 
 interesting to compare the flrst form of the book with the 
 latest.' 
 
 ' It would, very.' 
 
 Eaising his head from the contemplative posture, 
 Godwin exclaimed, with a lauiih of zeal : 
 
 ' I think I must find time to translate him. At all 
 events, I might address a proposal to some likely 
 publisher. . Yet I don't know how I should assure him 
 of my competency.' 
 
 ' Probably a specimen would be the surest testimony.' 
 
 * Yes. I might do a few chapters.' 
 
 Mr. Warricombe's lapse into silence and brevities 
 intimated to Godwin that it was time to take leave. He 
 always quitted this room with reluctance. Its air of 
 luxurious culture affected his senses deliciously, and he 
 hoped that he might some day be permitted to linger 
 among the cabinets and the library shelves. There were 
 so many books he would have liked to take down, some 
 with titles familiar to him, others wliicli kindled his 
 curiosity when he chanced to observe tliem. The libra ry 
 abounded in sucli works as only a wealthy man can 
 purchase, and Godwin, who liad examined some of them 
 
212 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 at the British Museum, was filled with the humaner 
 kind of envy on seeing them in Mr. Warricombe's 
 possession. Those publications of the PaUieontological 
 Society, one volume of which (a part of Davidson's 
 superb work on tlie Brachioiooda) even now lay open 
 within sight — his hand trembled with a desire to touch 
 them ! And those maps of the Geological Surveys, British 
 and foreign, how he would have enjoyed a day's poring 
 over them ! 
 
 He rose, but Martin seemed in no haste to bring the 
 conversation to an end. 
 
 ' Have you read M'Naughten's much-discussed book ? ' 
 
 'Yes.' 
 
 ' Did you see the savage attack in the Critical not long 
 ago ? ' 
 
 Godwin smiled, and made quiet answer : 
 
 ' I should think it was the last word of scientific 
 bitterness and intolerance.' 
 
 * Scientific ? ' repeated Martin, doubtfully. ' I don't 
 think the writer was a man of science. 1 saw it 
 somewhere attributed to Huxley, but that was pre- 
 posterous. To begin with, Huxley would have signed 
 his name ; and, again, his English is better. The article 
 seemed to me to be stamped with literary rancour; it 
 was written by some man who envies M'Naughten's 
 success.' 
 
 Peak kept silence. Martin's censure of the anonymous 
 author's style stung him to the quick, and he had much 
 ado to command his countenance. 
 
 'Still,' pursued the other, 'I felt that much of his 
 satire was only too well pointed. M'Naughten is 
 suf^gestive, very suggestive; but one comes across books 
 of the same purpose which can have no result but to 
 injure their cause with all thinking people.' 
 
 'I have seen many such,' remarked Godwin. 
 
 Mr. Warricombe stepped to a bookcase and took down 
 a small volume. 
 
 'I wonder whether you know this book of Ampere's, 
 La Grke, Rome, ct Dante ? Delightful for odd moments ! 
 • — There came into my mind a passage here at the 
 
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 beginning, apropos of what we were saying: "II 
 faut souvent iin vrai courage ])r)ur pi-rsistcr dans iiii 
 opinion juste en depit dc ses di'fenscurs." — Isn't thai 
 capital ? ' 
 
 l*eak received it witli genuine apiM-eciation ; for oner 
 he was able to laugh unfeignedly. The apliorisni had sn 
 many applications from his own point of view. 
 
 'Excellent! — T don't remember to liave seen the 
 book.' 
 
 ' Take it, if you care to.' 
 
 This oiler seemed a distinct advance in Mr. Warri- 
 combe's friendliness. Godwin felt a thrill of encourai/c- 
 ment. 
 
 ' Then you will let me keep this translation for a day 
 or two ? ' Martin added, indicating tlie sheets of manu- 
 script. 'I am greatly ol)liged to you for enabling me to 
 read the thing.' 
 
 They shook hands. Godwin had entertained a sbglit 
 hope that he might be asked to stay to luncheon; but it 
 could not be much past twelve o'clock, and on the whole 
 there was every reason for feeling satisfied with the 
 results of his visit. Before long lie wouhl probably 
 receive another invitation to dine. So with light step he 
 went out into the hall, where Martin again shook hands 
 with him. 
 
 The sky had darkened over, and a shrilling of the wind 
 sounded through the garden foliage — fir, and cypress, and 
 laurel. Just as Godwin reached the gate, he was met by 
 Miss Warricombe and Fanny, who were returning from a 
 walk. They wore the costume appropriate to March 
 weather in the country, close-fitting, defiant of gust.s ; and 
 their cheeks glowed with health. As he exchanged 
 greetings with them. Peak received a new im])ression of 
 the sisters. He admired the physical vigour which 
 enabled them to take delight in such a day as this, when 
 girls of poorer blood and i.^nob h^ nurture would shrink 
 from the sky's showery tumult, and ])rotect tlu'ir surfact; 
 elegance by the fireside. Impossible for Sid well and 
 Fanny to be anything but graceful, for at all times they 
 were perfectly unaffected. 
 
214 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 'There'll be another storm in a minute,' said the 
 younger of them, looking with interest to the quarter 
 whence the wind came. * How suddenly they burst ! 
 "What a rush ! And then in five minutes the sky is clear 
 again.' 
 
 Her eyes shone as she turned laughingly to Peak. 
 
 * You're not afraid of getting wet ? Hadn't you better 
 come under cover ? ' 
 
 ' Here it is ! ' exclaimed Sidwell, with quieter enjoy- 
 ment. ' Take shelter for a minute or two, Mr. Peak.' 
 
 They led the way to the portico, where Godwin stood 
 with them and watched the squall. A moment's down- 
 pour of furious rain was followed by heavy hailstones, 
 which drove horizontally before the shrieking wind. The 
 prospect had wrapped itself in grey gloom. At a hundred 
 yards' distance, scarcely an object could be distinguished ; 
 the storm-cloud swooped so low that its skirts touched 
 the branches of tall elms, a streaming, rushing ragged- 
 ness. 
 
 * Don't you enjoy that ? ' Fanny asked of Godwin. 
 ' Indeed I do.' 
 
 'You should be on Dartmoor in such weather,' said 
 Sidwell. ' Father and I were once caudit in storms far 
 
 o 
 
 worse than this — far better, I ought to say, for I never 
 knew anything so terrifically grand.' 
 
 Already it was over. The gusts diminished in fre- 
 quency and force, the hail ceased, the core of blackness 
 was passing over to the eastern sky. Fanny ran out into 
 the garden, and pointed upward. 
 
 ' Look where the sunlirfit is cominf:^ ! ' 
 
 An uncloaked patch of heaven shone with colour like 
 that of the girl's eyes — faint, limpid blue. Picminding 
 himself that to tarry longer in this conq^any would be 
 imprudent, Godwin bade tlie sisters good-morning. The 
 frank heartiness with which Fanny pressed his hand, sent 
 him on his way exultant. Not too strong a word ; for, 
 independently of his wider ambitions, he was moved and 
 gratified by the thought tliat kindly feeling towards him 
 had sprung up in such a heart as this. Nor did conscience 
 so much as whisper a reproach. With unreflecting 
 
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BORN IX KXILK 1> 1 - 
 
 ingenuousness he tasted the joy as if it wen- his ri-^lit. 
 Tlius long he had waited, tliruii-^h yvdm of liuni^r. 
 manhood, for the look, the tone, which were in liarnion . 
 with his native sensiltilities. Fanny AVaiTicond»c waaj 
 hut an undeveloped girl, yet he valued her friendshia 
 above the passionate attacliment of any woman Ijred on' 
 a lower social plane. Had it l)een possil)le, he would 
 have kissed her fingers with purest reverence. 
 
 When out of sight of the house, he i)ause(l to regard 
 the sky again. Its noontide splendour was dazzling ; 
 masses of rosy cloud sailed swiftly from horizon to 
 horizon, the azure deepening al)0ut them. Yet ])efore 
 long the west would again send forth its turbident 
 spirits, and so the girls might perhaps be led to think of 
 him. 
 
 By night the weather grew more tranquil. There 
 was a full moon, and its radiance illumined the evi-r- 
 changing face of heaven with rare grandeur. CJodwin 
 could not shut himself up over his books; he wandered 
 far away into the country, and let his thoughts have 
 freedom. 
 
 He was learning to review with calmness the course by 
 which he had readied his now steadfast resolve. A 
 revulsion such as he had experienced after his first day 
 of simulated orthodoxy, half a year ago, could not be «»f 
 lasting effect, for it was opposed to the whole tenor of his 
 mature thought. It spoilt his holiday, but had no chance 
 of persisting after his return to the atmosphere of 
 IJothcrhithe. That he should have been cajtalile of such 
 emotion was, he said to himself, in the just order of 
 things ; callousness in the first stages of an undertaking 
 which demanded gross hypocrisy would signify an 
 ignoble nature — a nature, indeed, which could never have 
 been submitted to trial of so strange a kind. Ihit lie had 
 overcome himself; that phase of difliculty was outlivetl, 
 and henceforth he saw only tlie material obstacles to b«- 
 defied by his vindicated will. 
 
 What he proposed to himself was a life of deliberai' 
 baseness. Godwin Peak never tried to play the sophist 
 with this fact. lUit he succeeded in justifying himself by 
 
216 BORN IN EXILK 
 
 f a consideration of the circumstances which had compelled 
 him to a vile expedient. Had his project involved 
 conscious wrong to other persons, he w^ould scarcely even 
 have speculated on its possibilities. He was convinced 
 that no mortal could suffer harm, even if he accomplished 
 the uttermost of his desires. Whom was he in danger 
 of wronging ? The conventional moralist would cry : 
 Everyone with whom he came in slightest contact ! But 
 a mind such as Peak's has very little to do with con- 
 ventional morality. Injury to himself he foresaw and^ 
 accepted ; he could never be the man nature designed in 
 him ; and he must frequently submit to a self-contempt 
 which would be very hard to bear. Those whom he 
 consistently deceived, how would they suffer ? Martin 
 AVarricombe to begin with. Martin was a man who had 
 lived his life, and whose chief care would now be to keep 
 his mind at rest in the faiths which had served him from 
 youth onwards. In that very purpose, Godwin believed 
 he could assist him. To see a young man, of strong 
 and trained intellect, championing the old beliefs, must 
 dou1)tless be a source of reassurance to one in Martin's 
 position. Eeassurance derived from a lie ? — And what 
 matter, if the outcome were G^enuine, if it lasted until the 
 man himself was no more ? Did not every form of 
 content result from illusion ? What was truth without 
 the mind of the believer ? 
 
 Society, then — at all events that part of it likely to be 
 affected by his activity ? Suppose him an ordained priest, 
 performing all the functions implied in that office. Why, 
 to think only of examples recognised by the public at 
 large, how would he differ for the worse from this, that, 
 and the other clergyman who taught Christianity, all but 
 with blunt avowal, as a scheme of human ethics ? No 
 wolf in sheep's clothing he ! He plotted against no man's 
 pocket, no woman's honour ; he had no sinister design of 
 sapping the faith of congregations — a scheme, by-the-bye, 
 which fanatic liberators might undertake with vast self- 
 approval. If by a word he could have banished religious 
 dogma from the minds of the multitude, he would not 
 have cared to utter it. Wherein lay, indeed, a scruple to 
 
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BORN IN KXILK 217 
 
 be surmounted. The Christian ]>riest must ]k3 a man of 
 humble temper; he must be willing,', even ea«»cr, to sil 
 down among the poor in spirit as well as in estate, and 
 impart to them his unworldly solaces. Yes, but it had 
 always been recognised tliat some men wlio could do the 
 Church good service were personally unfitted lor those 
 meek ministrations. His place was in the hierarchy of 
 intellect ; if he were to be active at all, it must be with 
 the brain. In his conversation with Buckland Warri- 
 combe, last October, he had spoken not altogether 
 insincerely. Let him once be a member of the Church 
 militant, and his heart woidd go with many a stroke 
 a^inst that democratj c_movement which desired, among, 
 other things, the Church's abolition. He had power of 
 utterance. Enused to combat by the proletarian challengr, 
 he could make his voice ring in the ears of men, even 
 though he used a symbolism* wliich he woidd not hy 
 choice have adopted. 
 
 For it was natural that he should anticipate distinction. 
 Whatever his lot in life, he would not be able to rest 
 among an inglorious brotherhood. H' he allied liimiself 
 with the Church, the Church must assign him leadership, 
 whether titular or not was of small moment. In days io 
 come, let people, if they would, debate his liistory, canvass 
 his convictions. His scornful pride invited any degree 
 of publicity, when once his position was secure. 
 
 But in the meantime he was leaving aside the most 
 powerful of all his motives, and one which demanded 
 closest scrutiny. Not ambition, in any ordinary .sense; 
 not desire of material luxury; no incentive recognised by 
 unprincipled schemers first suggested ^ his dis hon our. 
 This edifice of subtle untruth liad for its foundation a 
 mere ideal of sexual love. For the winning of .some 
 chosen woman, men have wrought vehemently, hav«' 
 ruined themselves and others, have achieved triumphs 
 noble or degrading. lUit (Jodwin Teak had for years 
 contemplated the possiliility of baseness at the im])ulse 
 of a craving for love cai)able only of a social (one might 
 say, of a political) definition. The woman throned in his 
 imagination was no individual, but the type <»f an order. 
 
218 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 So strangely had jiixiiuiii^tmiC£S. moulded him, that he 
 could not brood on a desire of spiritual affinities, could 
 not, as is natural to most cultivated men, inflame himself 
 with the ardour of soul reaching to soul ; he was pre- 
 occupied with the contemplation of qualities which 
 characterise a class. The sense of social distinctions was. 
 so burnt into him, that he could not be affected by any 
 pictured charm of mind or person in a w^oman who had 
 not the stamp of gentle birth and breeding. If once he 
 were admitted to the intimacy of such women, then, 
 indeed, the canons of selection would have weight with 
 him ; no man more capable of disinterested choice. Till 
 then, the ideal which possessed him was merely such an 
 assemblage of qualities as would excite the democrat to 
 disdain or fury. 
 
 In Sid well AVarricombe this ideal found an embodi- 
 ment; but Godwin did not " thereupon come to the 
 conclusion that Sidwell was the wife he desired. Her 
 influence had the effect of deciding his career, but he 
 neither imagined himself in love with her, nor tried to 
 believe that he might win her love if he set himself to 
 the endeavour. For the first time he was admitted to 
 familiar intercourse with a woman whom he could make 
 the object of his worship. He thought much of her; day 
 and night her figure stood before him ; and this had 
 continued now for half a year. Still he neither was, 
 nor dreamt himself, in love with her. Before long his 
 acquaintance would include many of her like, and at any 
 moment Sidwell might pale in the splendour of another's 
 loveliness. 
 
 But what reasoning could defend the winning of a wife 
 by false pretences ? Tliis, his final aim, could hardly be 
 achieved without grave wrong to the person whose welfare 
 must in the nature of things be a prime motive with him. 
 The deception he had practised must sooner or later be 
 discovered ; lifelong hypocrisy was incompatible with 
 ])erfect marriage ; some day he must either involve his 
 wife in a system of dishonour, or with her consent re- 
 linquish the false career, and find his happiness in the 
 obscurity to which he would then be relegated. Admit 
 
BORN IN EXILE 219 
 
 the wrong. Grant that some woman whom liu h:>ved 
 supremely must, on his account, pass tlirough a harsh 
 trial — would it not be in his power to compensate her 
 amply ? The wife whom he imagined (his idealism in 
 this matter was of a crudity which matle tlie strangest 
 contrast with his habits of thought on every otlier subject) 
 would be ruled by her emotions, and that part of her 
 nature would be wholly under his governance. Keligious 
 fanaticism could not exist in her, for in that case slie 
 would never have attracted him. Little by little she would 
 learn to think as he did, and her devotedness must lead 
 her to pardon his deliberate insincerities. Godwin had 
 absolute faith in his power of dominating the woman 
 whom he should inspire with tenderness. This was a 
 feature of \his_egois.m2 the explanation of those manifold 
 inconsistencies inseparable from his tortuous design. Hcj 
 regarded his love as something so rare, so vehement, so 
 exalting, that its bestowal must seem an abundanti 
 recompense for any pain of which he was the cause. 
 
 Thus, with perfect sincerity of argument, did Godwin 
 Peak face the undertaking to which he was committed. 
 Incidents might perturb him, but his position was no 
 longer a cause of uneasiness — save, indeed, at those 
 moments when he feared lest any of his old ac«iuaintances 
 might hear of him before time was ripe. This was a 
 source of anxiety, but inevitable ; one of the risks he 
 dared. 
 
 Had it seemed possible, he would have kept even from 
 his mother the secret of his residence at Exeter ; but this 
 would have necessitated the establisliment of some in- 
 direct means of communication with lier, a troublesome 
 and uncertain expedient. He shrank from leaving her 
 in ignorance of his whereabouts, and from passing a year 
 or two without knowledge of her condition. And, on the 
 whole, there could not be much danger in this corresi)on- 
 dence. The Moxeys, who ah)ne of his friends had ever 
 been connected with Twybridge, were now absolutely 
 without interests in that ([uarter. From them he had 
 stolen away, only acquainting Christian at the last 
 moment, in a short letter, with his departure from 
 
220 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 London. 'It will be a long time before we again see 
 each other — at least, I think so. Don't trouble your 
 head about me. I can't promise to write, and shall be 
 sorry not to hear how things go with you ; but may 
 all happen as you wish 1 ' In the same way he had 
 dealt with Earvvaker, except that his letter to Staple 
 Inn was much longer, and contained hints which the 
 philosophic journalist might perchance truly interpret. 
 * " He either fears his fate too much " — you know the old 
 song. I have set out on my life's adventure. I have gone 
 to seek that without which life is no longer worth having. 
 Forgive my shabby treatment of you, old friend. You 
 cannot help me, and your displeasure would be a hindrance 
 in my path. A last piece of counsel : throw overboard 
 the weekly rag, and write for people capable of under- 
 standing you.' Earwaker was not at all likely to in- 
 stitute a search ; he would accept the situation, and 
 wait with quiet curiosity for its upshot. No doubt 
 he and Moxey would discuss the affair together, and 
 any desire Christian might have to hunt for his vanished 
 
 ,_comrade would yield before the journalist's surmises. 
 No one else had any serious reason for making inquiries. 
 Probably he might dwell in Devonshire, as long as he 
 
 , chose, without fear of encountering anyone from his old 
 
 j world. 
 
 Occasionally — as to-night, under the full moon — he was 
 able to cast off every form f)f trouble, and rejoice in his 
 seeming liberty. Though every step in the life before him 
 was an uncertainty, an appeal to fortune, his faith in 
 himself grasped strongly at assurance of success. Once 
 more he felt himself a young man, with unwearied 
 energies ; he had shaken off the burden of those ten 
 frustrate years, and kept only their harvest of experience. 
 Old in one sense, in another youthful, he had vast 
 advantages over such men as would henceforth be his 
 competitors — the complex brain, the fiery heart, passion 
 to desire, and skill in attempting. If with such endow- 
 ment he could not win the prize which most men claim 
 as a mere matter of course, a wife of social instincts 
 correspondent with his own, he must indeed be luckless. 
 
BORN IX KXILK 221 
 
 But he was not doomed to defeat ! Fureta.ste of triuiuph 
 urged the current of his blood and intlanied him with 
 exquisite ardour. He sang aloud in the still lanes the 
 hymns of youth and of love ; and, when weariness brought 
 Inm back to his lonely dwelling, he laid his head on tlje 
 pillow, and slept in dreamless calm. 
 
 As for the details of his advance towards the clerical 
 state, he had decided to resume his career at the point 
 where it was interrupted by Andrew Peak. Twice had 
 his education received a check from hostile circumstances : 
 when domestic poverty compelled him to" leave school fur 
 Mr. Moxey's service, and when shame drove him from 
 Wiiitelaw College. In reflecting upon his own character 
 and his lot he gave much weight to these irregularities, 
 no doubt with justice. In both cases he was turned aside 
 from the way of natural development and opportunity. 
 He would now complete his academic course by taking 
 the London degree at which he had long ago aimed ; the 
 preliminary examination might without dilliculty be 
 passed this summer, and next year he might write him- 
 self Bachelor of Arts. A return to the studies of boyhood 
 probably accounted in some measure for the frequent 
 gaiety which he attributed to improving health and 
 revived hopes. Everything he undertook was easy to 
 him, and by a plea sant self-deception he made the 
 passing of a school task his augury of success in greater 
 things. 
 
 During tlie spring he was indebted to the AVarricombes' 
 friendship for several new acquaintances. A clergyman 
 named Lily white, often at the Warricoml)es' house, made 
 friendly overtures to him ; the connection might be a 
 useful one, and Godwin made the most of it. Mr. 
 Lilywhite was a man of forty — well-read, of scientific 
 tastes, an active pedestrian. Peak had no dilliculty in 
 associating with him on amicable terms. With Mrs. Lily- 
 white, the mother of six children and possessed of many 
 virtues, he presently l)ecame a favourite, — she saw in him 
 ' a great deal of quiet moral force.' One or two families 
 of good standing made him welcome at tlieir houses ; 
 society is very kind to those who seek its benefits with 
 
222 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 recognised credentials. The more he saw of these wealthy 
 and tranquil middle-class people, the more fervently did 
 he admire the gracefulness of their existence. He 
 had not set before himself an imaginary ideal ; the gir s 
 and women were sweet, gentle, perfect in manner, and, 
 within limits, of bright intelligence. He was conscious 
 of benefiting greatly, and not alone in things extrinsic, 
 by the atmosphere of such homes. 
 
 Nature's progress towards summer kept him in a mood 
 of healthful enjoyment. From the window of his sitting- 
 room he looked over the opposite houses to Northernhay, 
 the hill where once stood Eougemont Castle, its wooded 
 declivities now fashioned into a public garden. He watched 
 the rooks at their building in the great elms, and was 
 gladdened when the naked branches began to deck them- 
 selves, day by day the fresh verdure swelling into soft, 
 graceful outline. In his walks he pried eagerly for 
 the first violet, welcomed the earliest blackthorn blossom ; 
 every common flower of field and hedgerow gave him a 
 new, keen pleasure. As was to be expected he found 
 the same impulses strong in Sidwell Warricombe and her 
 sister. Sidwell could tell him of secret spots where the 
 wood-sorrel made haste to flower, or where the white 
 violet breathed its fragrance in security from common 
 pilferers. Here was the safest and pleasantest matter 
 for conversation. He knew that on such topics he could 
 talk agreeably enough, revealing wdthout stress or impor- 
 tunity his tastes, his powers, his attainments. And it 
 seemed to him that Sidwell listened with growing 
 interest. Most certainly her father encouraged his visits 
 to the house, and Mrs. Warricombe behaved to him with 
 increase of suavity. 
 
 In the meantime he had purchased a copy of Keusch's 
 Bihel tend Natur, and had made a translation of some 
 fifty pages. This experiment he submitted to a London 
 publishing house, with proposals for the completion of the 
 work; without much delay there came a civil letter of 
 excuse, and with it the sample returned. Another 
 attempt again met with rejection. This failure did not 
 trouble him. What he really desired was to read through 
 
BORN IN KXIIJ-: 223 
 
 his version of Iteusch with ^Martin Warricomhe, and 
 before long he had broiiglit it tu i)ass that Mariin 
 requested a perusal of the manuscript as it ailvaiiced, 
 which it did but slowly. CJodwin durst not endanger 
 his success in the examination by encroaching ujion 
 hours of necessary study; his leisure was largely sacrificed 
 to B'ihcl und Natur, and many an evening of calm golden 
 loveliness, when he longed to be amid the fields, j)assed 
 in vexatious imprisonment. The name of Iteusch grew 
 odious to him, and he revenged himself for the hypocrisy 
 of other hours by fierce scorn, cast audibly at this 
 laborious exegetist. 
 
Ill 
 
 It occasionally happens that a woman whose early life 
 has been directed by native silliness and social bias, 
 will submit to a tardy education at the hands of her 
 own children. Thus was it with Mrs. Warricombe. 
 
 She came of a race long established in squirearchic 
 dignity amid heaths and woodlands. Her breeding was 
 pure through many generations of the paternal and 
 maternal lines, representative of a physical type, forti- 
 fied in the males by much companionship with horse 
 and hound, and by the corresponding country pursuits 
 of dowered daughters. At the time of her marriage she 
 had no charms of person more remarkable than rosy 
 comeliness and the symmetry of supple limb. As for 
 the nurture of her mind, it had been intrusted to home- 
 governesses of respectable incapacity. Martin Warri- 
 combe married her because she was one of a little circle 
 of girls, much alike as to birth and fortune, with whom 
 he had grown up in familiar communication. Timidity 
 imposed restraints upon him which made his choice 
 almost a matter of accident. As befalls often enough, 
 the betrothal became an accomplished fact whilst he 
 was still doubting whether he desired it or not. When 
 the fervour of early wedlock was outlived, he had no 
 difficulty in accepting as a matter of course that his 
 life's companion should be hopelessly illogical and 
 at heart indifferent to everything but the small 
 graces and substantial comforts of provincial existence. 
 One of the advantages of wealth is that it allows 
 husband and wife to keep a great deal apart with- 
 
 224 
 
out any sjiow of mutual unkindacss, a condition 
 
 essential to happiness in niairia<,^u. Time fostereil 
 in them a calm attacliment, independent of spiritual 
 sympatliy, satisfied witli a common re^^'ord for domesti- 
 lionour. 
 
 Xot that Mrs. AVarricombe remained in complete 
 ignorance of her husband's pursuits ; social forms would 
 scarcely have allowed this, seeini^^ that slie was in constant 
 intercourse, as hostess or guest, with Martin's scientific 
 friends. Of fossils she necessarily knew something. Uj» 
 to a certain point they amused her; she could talk of 
 ammonites, of brachiopods, and would ])oint a friend's 
 attention to tlie Cahrola sandalina whicli ^lartin ])riz('d 
 so much. The significance of paheontology she dimlv 
 apprehended, for in the early days of their union her 
 husband had felt it desirable to explain to her what was 
 meant by geologic time, and how lie reconciled his views 
 on that subject with the demands of religious faith. 
 Among tlie books which he induced her to read were 
 lUickland's Bridgewater Treatise and the works of Hugh 
 Miller. The intellectual result was chaotic, and Airs. 
 Warricombe settled at last into a comfortable private 
 opinion, that though the record of geology might ])e 
 trustworthy that of the Bil)le was more so. She wouM 
 admit that there was no impiety in accepting the evi- 
 dence of nature, but held to a secret conviction that it 
 was safer to believe in Genesis. For anything beyond 
 a quasi-permissilde variance from l)iblical authority as 
 to the age of the world she was quite unprepared, and 
 Martin, in his discretion, imparted to her nothing of 
 the graver doubts which were wont to troultle him. 
 
 But as her children grew up, Airs. Warricombe's mind 
 and temper were insensibly modified by intluences which 
 operated through her maternal affections, intluences no 
 doubt aided by the progressive spirit of the time. The 
 three boys — Buckland, Maurice, and I.ouis— were dis- 
 tinctly of a new generation. It needed some ingenuity 
 to discover their points of kindred with paternal and 
 maternal grandparents; nor even with father and mother 
 had they much in common wdiich observation ( ouM 
 
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226 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 readily detect. Sidwell, up to at least her fifteenth year, 
 seemed to present far less change of type. In her Mrs. 
 Warricombe recognised a daughter, and not without 
 solace. But Fanny again was a problematical nature, 
 almost from the cradle. Latest born, she appeared to 
 revive many characteristics of the youthful Buckland, 
 so far as a girl could resemble her brother. It was a 
 strange brood to cluster around Mrs. Warricombe. For 
 many years the mother was kept in alternation between 
 hopes and fears, pride and disapproval, the old hereditary 
 habits of mind, and a new order of ideas which could 
 only be admitted with the utmost slowness. Ijuckland's 
 Radicalism deeply offended her ; she marvelled how 
 such depravity could display itself in a child of hers. 
 Yet in the end her ancestral prejudices so far yielded 
 as to allow of her smiling at sentiments which she once 
 heard with liorror. Maurice, whom she loved more 
 tenderly, all but taught her to see the cogency of a 
 syllogism — amiably set forth. And Louis, with his in- 
 dolent good-nature, laughed her into a tolerance of many 
 things which had moved her indignation. But it was 
 to Sidwell that in the end she owed most. Beneath the 
 surface of ordinary and rather Ijackward girlhood, which 
 discouraged her father's hopes, Sidwell was quietly de- 
 veloping a personality distinguished by the refinement 
 of its ethical motives. Her orthodoxy seemed as unim- 
 peachable as Mrs. Warricombe could desire, yet as she 
 grew into womanhood, a curiosity, which in no way 
 disturbed the tenor of her quietly contented life, led 
 her to examine various forms of religion, ancient and 
 modern, and even systems of philosophy which professed 
 to establish a moral code, independent of supernatural 
 faith. She was not of studious disposition — that is to 
 say, she had never cared as a schoolgirl to do more 
 mental work than was required of her; and even now it 
 I was seldom that she read for more than an hour or two 
 lin the day. Her habit was to dip into books, and 
 meditate long on the first points which arrested her 
 thoughts. Of continuous application she seemed incap- 
 able. She could read French, but did not attempt to 
 
BOKX IN KXILK '2'2~ 
 
 ])ursue the other huiguages of whuli her leaclitTs liuii 
 given her a siiialteriiig. It pleased hur Ixist wlieii she 
 could learn from eonversation. In this way she obtaiiK'd 
 some insight into her fatliur's favourite scit'nces, occa- 
 sionally making suggestions or inc^uiries which revealed 
 a subtle if not an acute intelligence. 
 
 Little by little iMrs. AVarriconiljc found herself cljangin" 
 places with the daughter whom slie had regarded as 
 wholly subject to her direction. Sidwell began to exercise 
 an indeterminate control, the proofs of which were at 
 length manifest in details of her mother's speech and 
 demeanour. An exquisite social tact, an unfailing 
 sincerity of moral judgment, a gentle force which operated 
 as insensibly as the qualities of ])ure aii- : these were 
 the points of character to which ]\Irs. AVarricond»e owed 
 the humanisation observable when one compared her in 
 1885 with what she was, say, in 1874, when the sight 
 of Professor Walsh moved her to acrimony, and when 
 she conceived a pique against Professor (Jale because 
 the letter P has alphabetical precedence of W. Her 
 limitations were of course the same as ever, and 
 from her sons she had only learnt to be ashamed of 
 announcing them too vehemently. Sidwell it was who 
 had led her to that degree of genuine humility, which 
 is not satisfied with hiding a fault but strives to 
 amend it. 
 
 Martin Warricombe liimself was not unallected by the 
 growth about him of young men and maidens who looked 
 upon the world with new eyes, whose world, indeed, 
 was another than that in which he had spent the better 
 part of his life. In his case contact with the young 
 generation tended to unsettlement, to a troublesome per- 
 sistency of speculations which he would have jueferred 
 to dismiss altogether. At the time of his marriage, an«l 
 for some years after, he was content to make a broa<l 
 distinction l)etween those intellectual jmrsuits whieli 
 allorded him rather a liberal amusement than the plea- 
 sures of earnest study and the questions of meta})hy;>ical 
 faith whicli concerned his heart and conscience. His 
 native prejudices were almost as strong, and much tiie 
 
228 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 same, as those of his wife ; but with the vagueness of 
 emotional logic natural to his constitution, he satisfied 
 himself that, by conceding a lew inessential points, he 
 left himself at liberty to follow the scientific movements 
 of the day witliout damage to his religious convictions. 
 The tolerant smile so frequently on his countenance was 
 directed as often in the one (quarter as in the other. 
 Now it signified a gentle reproof of those men of science 
 who, like Professor AValsh, ' went too far,' whose zeal for 
 knowledge led them 'to forget the source of all true 
 enlightenment'; now it expressed a forbearing sympathy 
 with such as erred in the opposite direction, who were 
 ' too literal in their interpretation of the sacred volume.' 
 Amiable as the smile was, it betrayed weakness, and at 
 moments Martin became unpleasantly conscious of indis- 
 position to examine his ow^n mind on certain points. 
 His life, indeed, was one of debate postponed. As the 
 realm of science extended, as his intercourse wdth men 
 who frankly avowed their 'infidelity' grew more frequent, 
 he ever and again said to himself that, one of these days, 
 he must sit down and ' have it out ' in a solemn self- 
 searching. But for the most part he got on very well 
 amid his inconsistencies. Eeligious faith has rarely an^. 
 connection with reasoning. Martin believed because he 
 believed, and avoided the impact of disagreeable argu- 
 ments because he wished to do so. 
 
 The bent of his mind was anything but polemical ; he 
 cared not to spend time even over those authors whose 
 attacks on the outposts of science, or whose elaborate 
 reconcilements of old and new, might have afforded him 
 some support. On the other hand, he altogether lacked 
 that breadth of intellect which seeks to comprehend all 
 the results of speculation, to discern their tendency, to 
 derive from them a consistent theory of the nature of 
 things. Though a man be well versed in a science such 
 as palaeontology it does not follow that he will view it 
 in its philosophical relations. Martin had kept himself 
 informed of all the facts appertaining to his study which 
 the age brought forth, but without developing the new 
 modes of mental life requisite for the recognition of all 
 
I'.oltX I\ KXILI-: L>*_"» 
 
 that .such fiict.s iiivdlvt'd. 'J'hu thuuiies of ev«jluii(»u he 
 did not venture ()})enly t(» resist, hut his acceptjince of 
 them was so lialf-hcarled that practically he made no 
 use of their tcacliiuLr. lie was no man of science, but 
 anidlei^amon-- the whihIcix wliich -cii'ii.,. us^g for lief 
 own purposes. 
 
 He regarded with surj)rise and anxiety the icnd- 
 encies early manifested in his son Auckland. Could lie 
 have had his way the lad would have grown up with 
 an inipossil)le combination of qualities, hlending the 
 enthusiasm of modern research with a si)irit of expan- 
 sive teleology. Whilst Buckland was still of boyish 
 years, the father treated with bantering good-humour such 
 outbreaks of irreverence as came immediately under his 
 notice, weakly abstaining from any attempt at direct 
 argument or influence. But, at a later time, there 
 took place serious and painful discussions, and only 
 when the voung man had rubbed olf his edges in the 
 world's highways could Martin forget that stage of 
 most unwelcome conflict. 
 
 At the death of his younger boy, Maurice, he suffered 
 a blow which had results more abiding than the melan- 
 choly wherewith for a year or two his genial nature 
 was overshadowed. From that day onwards he was 
 never wholly at ease among the pursuits which had 
 been wont to aftbrd him an unfailing resource against 
 whatever troubles. He could no longer accept and 
 disregard, in a spirit of cheerful faith, those ditliculties 
 science was perpetually throwing in his way. The old 
 smile of kindly tolerance had still its twofold meaning, 
 but it was more evidently a disguise of indecision, and 
 not seldom touched with sadness. Martin's life was 
 still one of postponed debate, but he could not reganl 
 the day wlien conclusions would be demanded of him 
 as indefinitely remote. Desiring to dwell in the familiar 
 temporary abode, his structure of incongruities and 
 facile reconcilements, he found it no longer weather- 
 proof. The times were sliaking his position wit h earth- 
 qua ke af ter eailliquake. His sons (for he suspected 
 "Hiat Louis was hardly less emancipated than Buckland) 
 
230 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 stood far aloof from him, and must in private feel 
 contemptuous of his old-fashioned beliefs. In Sidwell, 
 however, he had a companion more and more indispens- 
 able, and he could not imagine that her faith would ever 
 give way before the invading spirit of agnosticism. 
 Happily she was no mere pietist. Though he did not 
 quite understand her attitude towards Christianity, he 
 felt assured that Sidwell had thought deeply and 
 earnestly of religion in all its aspects, and it was a 
 solace to know that she found no difficulty in recognising 
 the large claims of science. For all this, he could not 
 deliberately seek her confidence, or invite her to a 
 discussion of religious subjects. Some day, no doubt, 
 a talk of that kind would begin naturally between them, 
 and so strong was his instinctive faith in Sidwell that he 
 looked forward to this future communing as to a certain 
 liope of peace. 
 
 That a figure such as Godwin Peak, a young man of 
 vigorous intellect, preparing to devote his life to the 
 old religion, should excite Mr. Warricombe's interest was 
 of course to be anticipated ; and it seemed probable 
 enough that Peak, exerting all the force of his character 
 and aided by circumstances, might before, long convert 
 this advantage to a means of ascendency over the less 
 self-reliant nature. But here was no instance of a dotard 
 becoming the easy prey of a scientific Tartufe. Martin's 
 intellect had suffered no decay. His hale features and 
 dignified bearing expressed the mind which was ripened 
 by sixty years of pleasurable activity, and which was 
 learning to regard with steadier view the problems it 
 had hitherto shirked. He could not change the direc- 
 tion nature had given to his thoughts, and prepossession 
 would in some degree obscure his judgment where 
 tlie merits and trustworthiness of a man in l^eak's 
 circumstances called for scrutiny ; but self - respect 
 guarded him against vulgar artifices, and a fine seiisi- 
 bility made it improbable that he would become the 
 victim of any man in whom l)ase motives predomi- 
 nated. 
 
 Left to his own impulses, he would still have proceeded 
 
BURN IX KXILK 231 
 
 with all caution in his offers of friendly services to I'eak. 
 A letter of carefully - worded aihnonition, whicli he 
 received from his son, ap]nisini,^ him of Peak's resolve 
 to transfer liiniself to Kxeter, scaretdy allecU-d his 
 behaviour when the young man apiJcared. It was but 
 natural — he argued — that lUickland sliould look askance 
 on a case of 'conversion'; for his own part, lie under- 
 stood that sucli a step might be prom})ted by interest, 
 but he found it dillieult to believe that to a man in 
 Peak's position, the Churrli would offer teini)lati()n thus 
 coercive. Nor could he discern in the candidate for 
 a curacy any mark of dishonourable purpose. Faults, 
 no doubt, were observable, among them a tendency tf» 
 spiritual pride — which seemed (Martin could admit) an 
 argument for, rather than against, his sincerity. The 
 progress of acquaintance decidedly confirmed his favour- 
 able impressions; they were supported by the remarks 
 of those among his friends to whom Peak presently 
 became known. 
 
 It was not until Whitsuntide of the next year, when 
 the student had been living nearly five months at Exeter, 
 tliat Auckland again came down to visit his relatives. 
 On the evening of his arrival, chancing to be (done with 
 Sidwell, he asked her if Peak had been to the liouse 
 lately. 
 
 ' Not many days ago,' replied his sister, ' he lunched 
 witli us, and then sat with lather for some time.' 
 
 ' Does he come often ^ ' 
 
 'Not very often. He is translating a (Jerman l)ook 
 which interests father very much.' 
 
 ' Oh, what book ? ' 
 
 * I don't know. Father has only mentioned it in that 
 way.' 
 
 They were in a little room sacred to the two girls, 
 very daintily furnished and fragrant of sweet-brier, whicli 
 Sidwell loved so nmch that, when the season allowed 
 it, she often wore a little spray of it at her girdle. 
 Buckland opened a book on the table, and, on seeing 
 the title, exclaimed witli a disparaging laugli : 
 
 ' I can't get out of the way of tliis fl-Uow ^PNaughten : 
 
232 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Wherever I go, there he lies about on the tables and 
 chairs. I should have thought he was thoroughly 
 smashed by an article that came out in the Critical last 
 year.' 
 
 Sidwell smiled, evidently in no way offended. 
 
 ' That article could " smash " nobody,' she made answer. 
 * It was too violent ; it overshot the mark.' 
 
 ' Not a bit of it ! — So you read it, eh ? You're begin- 
 ning to read, are you ? ' 
 
 ' In my humble way, Buckland.' 
 
 'M'Naughten, among other things. Humble enough, 
 that, I admit.' 
 
 'I am not a great admirer of M'Naughten,' retui*ned 
 his sister, with a look of amusement. 
 
 ' No ? I congratulate you. — I wonder what Peak 
 thinks of the book ? ' 
 
 ' I really don't know.' 
 
 ' Then let me ask another question. What do you 
 think of Peak ? ' 
 
 Sidwell regarded him with quiet reflectiveness. 
 
 ' I feel,' she said, ' that I don't know him very well yet. 
 He is certainly interesting.' 
 
 ' Yes, he is. Does he impress you as the kind of man 
 likely to make a good clergyman ? ' 
 
 ' I don't see any reason wliy lie should not.' 
 
 Her brother mused, with wrinkles of dissatisfaction on 
 his brow. 
 
 ' Father gets to like him, you say ? ' 
 
 ' Yes, I think father likes him.' 
 
 ' Well, I suppose it's all right.' 
 
 ' All right ? ' 
 
 * It's the most astounding thiug that ever came under 
 my observation,' exclaimed Buckland, walking away and 
 then returning. 
 
 ' That Mr. Peak should be studying for the 
 Church ? ' 
 
 'Yes.' 
 
 ' But do reflect more modestly ! ' urged Sidwell, with 
 something that was not quite archness, though as near 
 it as her habits of tone and feature would allow. ' Why 
 
ii()i:x IN KxiLK •_':;:; 
 
 should you refuse to admit an error in your own Nva\ 
 of looking at things? Wouldn't it he lietler U) take thi- 
 as a proof that intellect isn't necessarily at war wiili 
 Cliristianity { ' 
 
 'I never stated it so hroadly as thai,' returned her 
 hrother, with impatience. ' lUit I sliould certainly have 
 maintained that 7V^//.'.s intellect was necessarily in thai 
 position.' 
 
 'And you see how wrong you would have heen,' re- 
 nuirked the girl, softly. 
 
 ' Well— 1 don't know.' 
 
 ' You don't know { ' 
 
 ' I mean that I can't acknowledge what I can't under- 
 stand.' 
 
 'Then do try to understand, JUickland 1 — Have you 
 ever put aside your prejudice for a moment to incpiire 
 what our religion really means? Not once, I think 
 — at all events, not since you reached years of (Hs- 
 cretion.' 
 
 ' Allow me to inform you that I studied the ([Uestinii 
 thoroughly at Cambridge.' 
 
 ' Yes, yes ; but that was in your boyhood.' 
 
 ' And when does manhood begin ^ ' 
 
 'At diflerent times in ditVerent persons. In your case 
 it was late.' 
 
 Buckland laughed. He was considering a rtgoindrr. 
 when they were interrupted by tlie appearance of I'^anu} . 
 wlio asked at once : 
 
 'Shall you go to see Mr. Peak tliis evcnin-j;, Ihiek- 
 land?' 
 
 ' I'm in no liurry,' was the abrupt re}»ly. 
 
 The girl hesitated. 
 
 'Let us all have a drive together— with Mr. iVak, 1 
 mean — like when you were here last.' 
 
 ' We'll see about it.' 
 
 Buckland went slowly from the room. 
 
 Late the same evening he sat with his fatlier in the 
 study. Mr. Warricombe knew not the .solace of tobacco 
 and his son, thougli never (|uite at ease without i>ipe oi 
 cigar, denied himself in tliis room, with tlie result that li. 
 
234 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 shifted frequently upon his cliair and fell into many 
 awkward postures. 
 
 'And how does Peak impress you?' he inquired, when 
 the subject he most wished to converse upon had been 
 postponed to many others. It was clear that Martin 
 would not himself broach it. 
 
 *Not disagreeably,' was the reply, with a look of 
 frankness, perhaps over-emphasised. 
 
 ' What is he doing ? I have only heard from him once 
 since he came down, and he had very little to say about 
 himself.' 
 
 ' I understand that he proposes to take the London 
 B.A.' 
 
 ' Oh, then, he never did that ? Has he unbosomed 
 himself to you about his affairs of old time ? ' 
 
 ' No. Such confidences are hardly called for.' 
 
 ' Speaking plainly, father, you don't feel any uneasi- 
 ness ? ' 
 
 Martin deliberated, fingering the while an engraved 
 stone which hung upon his watch-guard. He was at a 
 disadvantage in this conversation. Aware that Buckland 
 regarded the circumstances of Peak's sojourn in the 
 neighbourhood with feelings allied to contempt, he could 
 neither adopt the tone of easy confidence natural to him 
 on other occasions of difference in opinion, nor express 
 himself with the coldness which would have obliged his 
 son to quit the subject. 
 
 ' Perhaps you had better tell me,' he replied, ' whether 
 you are really uneasy.' 
 
 It was impossible for Buckland to answer as his mind 
 prompted. He could not without offence declare that no 
 young man of brains now adopted a clerical career with 
 pure intentions, yet such was his sincere belief. Made 
 tolerant in many directions by the cultivation of his 
 j shrewdness, he was hopelessly biassed in judgment as 
 soon as his anti-religious prejudice came into play — a point 
 of strong resemblance between him and Peak. After 
 fidgeting for a moment, he exclaimed : 
 
 ' Yes, I am ; but I can't be sure that there's any cause 
 for it.' 
 
BORN IX FA'IKK 235 
 
 'Let lis conic to matters of fact,' said Mr. Warricmnbe, 
 sliowing that lie was not sorry to discuss this side of the 
 aft'air. ' I suppose there is no doubt that Teak liad a 
 position till lately at tlie place he speaks of ^ ' 
 
 'No doubt whatever. I have taken pains to ascer- 
 tain tliat. His account of liiniself, so far, is strictly 
 true.' 
 
 ]\Iartin smiled, with satisfaction he did imi care to 
 disguise. 
 
 * Have you met some acquaintance of his ? ' 
 
 'Well,' answered Buckland, changing;' his position, 'I 
 went to work in rather an underliand way, perhaps, — 
 but the results are satisfactory. No. I liaven't come 
 across any of his friends, but I happened to hear 
 not long ago that he was on intimate terms with some 
 journalists.' 
 
 His father laughed. 
 
 'Anything compromising in that association, Ihick- 
 land?' 
 
 ' I don't say that — though the fellows T speak of are 
 hot Radicals.' 
 
 ' Though ? ' 
 
 ' I mean,' replied the young man, with Ins shrewdei 
 smile, 'that they are not exactly the companions a 
 theological student would select.' 
 
 'I understand. rossil)ly he has journalised a little 
 himself?' 
 
 ' That I can't say, though I should have thouglit it 
 likely enough. I might, of course, find out much more 
 about him, l)Ut it seemed to me that to liave assurance of 
 his trutlifulness in that one respect was enough for the 
 present.' 
 
 'Do you mean, Buckland,' asked liis father, gravely, 
 ' that you have been setting secret i)olice at work i ' 
 
 'Well, yes. I thouglit it the least objectionable way of 
 getting information.' 
 
 ]Martin compressed his lips and looked disapproval. 
 
 ' I really can't see that such extreme measures were 
 demanded. Come, come; what is all this about? Do 
 you suspect him of planning burgbiries { That was an 
 
236 BORX IN KXILE 
 
 ill-judged step, Buekland; decidedly ill-judged. I said 
 just now that Peak impressed me by no means disagree- 
 ably. Now I will add that I am convinced of his good 
 faith — as sure of it as I am of his remarkable talents and 
 aptitude for the profession he aims at. In spite of your 
 extraordinary distrust, I can't feel a moment's doubt of 
 his honour. AVhy, I could have told you myself that he 
 has known Ivadical journalists. He mentioned it the 
 other day, and explained how far his sympathy went with 
 that kind of tiling. Xo, no ; that was hardly permissible, 
 Buekland.' 
 
 The young man had no difficulty in l»owing to his 
 fatlier's reproof when tlie point at issue was one of 
 gentlemanly behaviour. 
 
 ' I admit it,' he replied. ' I wisli I had gone to 
 Eotherhithe and made simple inquiries in my own name. 
 That, all things considered, I might have allowed myself ; 
 at all events, I shouldn't have been at ease without 
 getting that assurance. If Peak had heard, and had said 
 to me, " What the deuce do you mean ? " I should have 
 told him plainly, what I have strongly hinted to him 
 already, that 1 don't understand what he is doing in this 
 galley.' 
 
 'And have placed yourself in a position not easy to 
 define.' 
 
 ' Xo doubt.' 
 
 ' All this arises, my boy,' resumed Martin, in a tone 
 of grave kindness, 'from your strange inability to 
 grant that on certain matters you may be wholly 
 misled.' 
 
 ' It does.' 
 
 ' A¥ell, well ; that is forbidden ground. But do try to 
 be less narrow. Are you unable then to meet Peak in a 
 friendly way ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, by no means ! It seems more than likely that I 
 have wronged him.' 
 
 ' Well said ! Keep your mind open. I marvel at the 
 dogmatism of men who are set on overthrowing dogma. 
 Sucli a position is so strangely unphilosophic tliat I don't 
 know how a fellow of your brains can hold it for a 
 
r.oitN IN KxiLK -J.".; 
 
 muinent. If 1 were not afraid of an<^a'iiiij^' you,' Maitiu 
 added, in lii.s i)leasantL'.st tone, ' 1 ^vollld (|U»)te the Master 
 of Trinit}-.' 
 
 'A capital epi^^rani, but it is iei)eated too often.' 
 
 Mr. Warriconibe sliook liis licad, and with a laiit^di rose 
 to say good-niglit. 
 
 ' It's a great pity,' he remarked next day to Sidw ell, 
 wlio had heen saying that her brother seemed less 
 vivacious tlian usual, ' that JUickknd is defective on the 
 side of humour. For a man who claims to be philo- 
 sophical he takes things with a rather obtuse serious- 
 ness. 1 know nothing better than humour as a 
 protection against the kind of mistake he is always 
 committing.' 
 
 The application of this was not clear to Sid well. 
 
 'Has something happened to depress him { ' she asked. 
 
 ' Not that I know of. 1 spoke only of his general 
 tendency to intemperate zeal. That is enough to account 
 for intervals of reaction. And how much sounder 
 his judgment of men would be if he could only see 
 through a medium of humour now and then ! — You 
 know he is going over to Ludleigh Salterton this after- 
 noon ? ' 
 
 Sid well smiled, and said quietly : 
 
 * I thought it likely he would.' 
 
 At Budleigh Salterton, a nook on the coast some 
 fifteen miles away, Sylvia Moorhouse was now dwelling. 
 Her mother, a widow of substantial means, had recently 
 established herself there, in the proximity of friends, 
 and the mathematical brother made his home with them. 
 That Buckland took every opportunity of enjoying 
 Sylvia's conversation was no secret ; whether the pre- 
 dilection was mutual, none of his relatives could say, 
 for in a matter such as this Buckland was by nature 
 disposed to reticence. Sid well's intimacy with Miss 
 Moorhouse put her in no better position than the others 
 for forming an opinion ; she could only suspect tliat 
 the irony which flavoured Sylvia's talk with and con- 
 cerning the Kadical, intimated a lurking kindness. 
 Buckland's preference was easily understood, and its 
 
238 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 growth for live or six years seemed to promise 
 stability. 
 
 Immediately after luncheon the young man set forth, 
 and did not reappear uutil the evening of the next day. 
 His spirits had not benefited by the excursion; at dinner 
 he was noticeably silent, and instead of going to the 
 drawing-room afterwards he betook himself to the studio 
 up on the roof, and smoked in solitude. There, towards 
 ten o'clock, Sidwell sought him. Heavy rain was beating 
 upon the glass, and a high wind blended its bluster with 
 the cheerless sound. 
 
 ' Don't you lind it rather cold here ? ' she asked, after 
 observing her brother's countenance of gloom. 
 
 ' Yes ; I'm coming down. — Why don't you keep up your 
 painting ? ' 
 
 ' I have lost interest in it, I'm afraid.' 
 
 ' That's very weak, you know. It seems to me that 
 nothing interests you permanently.' 
 
 Sidwell thought it better to make no reply. 
 
 'The characteristic of women,' Buckland pursued, with 
 some asperity, throwing away the stump of his cigar. ' It 
 comes, I suppose, of their ridiculous education — their 
 minds are never trained to fixity of purpose. They 
 never understand themselves, and scarcely ever make 
 an effort to understand any one else. Their life is a 
 succession of inconsistencies.' 
 
 'This generalising is so easy,' said Sidwell, with a 
 laugh, 'and so w^orthless. I wonder you should be so 
 far behind the times. 
 
 'What light have the times thrown on the subject ?' 
 
 'There's no longer such a thing as voman in the 
 abstract. We are individuals.' 
 
 ' Don't imagine it ! That may come to pass three or 
 four generations hence, but as yet the best of you can 
 only vary the type in unimportant particulars. By the 
 way, what is Peak's address ? ' 
 
 ' Longbrook Street ; but I don't know the number. 
 Father can give it you, I think.' 
 
 ' I shall have to drop him a note. I must get back to 
 town early in the morning.' 
 
BORN IN KXILK 2 .SO 
 
 ' Really ? We huped tu have you fnr a week.' 
 
 ' Longer next time.' 
 
 They descended together. Now that Ixmis no longer 
 abode here (he had decided at length for medicine, a^id 
 was at w^ork in London), the family as a rule spent very 
 ([uiet evenings. V>y ten o'clock Mrs. AVarncond)e and 
 Fanny liad retired, and Sidwell was left either to talk 
 with her father, or to pursue the calm meditations whii ! 
 seemed to make her independent of comj)anionship a.- 
 often as she chose. 
 
 'Are they all gone?' lUickland asked, finding a vacant 
 room. 
 
 ' Father is no doubt in the study.' 
 
 * It occurs to me . iJo you feel satisfied with this 
 
 dead-alive existence ? ' 
 
 ' Satisfied ? No life could suit me better.' 
 
 * You really think of living here indefinitely ? ' 
 
 * As far as I am concerned, I liope nothing may evei- 
 disturb us.' 
 
 'And to the end of your life you will scent your- 
 self with sweet - V)rier / Do try a l)it of mint for a 
 change.' 
 
 ' Certainly, if it will jjlease you.' 
 
 'Seriously,! think you might all come to town f».r 
 next winter. You are rusting, all of you. Father was 
 never so dull, and motlier doesn't seem to know how 
 to pass the days. It wouldn't Ije bad fur I.ouis to 1 • 
 living with you instead of in lodgings. Do ju.st tliinl, 
 of it. It's ages since you heard a concert, or saw a 
 picture.' 
 
 Sidwell mused, and her l)rotlier watched her askance. 
 
 'I don't know whether the otliers would care f«»r 
 it,' she said, 'but I am not tempted Ity a winter of 
 fog.' 
 
 'Fog? Touh ! Well, there is an occasional fog, ju.<t 
 now and then, but it's much exaggerated. Who ever 
 thinks of the weather in J^ngland ? Fanny might have 
 a time at liedford College or some such place — she learns 
 nothing here. Tliink it over. Fatlier would be delighted 
 to get among the societies, and so on.' 
 
240 BORN IX EXILE 
 
 He repeated his arguments in many forms, and Sidwell 
 listened patientl}^ until tliey were joined by Mr. AYarri- 
 combe, whereupon the subject dropped; to be resumed, 
 however, in correspondence, with a persistency whicli 
 Ijuckland seldom exhil>ited in anything which affected 
 the interests of his relatives. As the summer drew on, 
 Mrs. Warricombe began to lend serious ear to this 
 suggestion of change, and Martin was at all events 
 moved to discuss the pros and cons of half a year in 
 London. Sidwell preserved neutrality, seldom making 
 an allusion to the project ; but Fanny supported her 
 brother's proposal with sprightly zeal, declaring on one 
 occasion that she began distinctly to feel the need 
 of ' a higher culture,' such as London only could 
 supply. 
 
 In the meantime there had been occasional interchange 
 of visits between the family and their friends at Budleigh 
 Salterton. (3ne evening, when Mrs. Moorhouse and Sylvia 
 were at the Warricombes', three or four Exeter people 
 came to dine, and among the guests was Godwin Peak 
 — his invitation being due in this instance to Sylvia's 
 express wish to meet him again. 
 
 ' I am studying men,' she had said to Sidwell not long 
 before, when the latter was at the seaside with her. ' In 
 our day this is the proper study of womankind. Hitherto 
 we have given serious attention only to one another. Mr. 
 Peak remains in my memory as a type worth observing ; 
 let me have a chance of talking to him when I come 
 next.' 
 
 She did not neglect her opportunity, and Mrs. Moor- 
 house, who also conversed with the theologian and found 
 liim interesting, was so good as to hope that he would 
 call upon her if ever his steps turned towards Budleigh 
 Salterton. 
 
 After breakfast next morning, Sidwell found her friend 
 sitting with a book beneath one of the great trees of the 
 garden. At that moment Sylvia was overcome with 
 laughter, evidently occasioned by her reading. 
 
 ' Oh,' she exclaimed, ' if this man isn't a great humorist ! 
 I don't think T ever read anything more irresistible.' 
 
liORN IN KXILK 241 
 
 The book was Hugh Miller's Testimony of the BocL<^, a 
 richly bound copy l)elonging to Mrs. AVarricombe. 
 
 ' I daresay you know it very well ; it's the chai^tor 
 in whicli he discusses, with perfect gravity, whether 
 it would have been possible for Noah to collect 
 examples of all living creatures in tlie ark. He decides 
 that it wouldn't — that the deluge mt'sf liave spared a 
 portion of the earth; but the details of his argument 
 are delicious, especially this place where lie says tliat 
 all the insects could Iiave been brought togetlier only 
 " at enormous expense of miracle " ! I suspected a secret 
 smile ; but no — that's out of the (juestion. " At enormous 
 expense of miracle " ! ' 
 
 Sylvia's eyes winked as she laughed, a peculiarity 
 which enhanced the charm of her frank mirth. Her dark, 
 pure complexion, strongly-marked eyebrows, subtle lips, 
 were shadowed beneath a great garden hat, and a loose 
 white gown, with no oppressive moulding at the waist, 
 made her a refreshing picture in the glare of mid- 
 summer. 
 
 ' The phrase is ridiculous enough,' assented Sid well. 
 ' ]\Iiracle can be but miracle, however great or small its 
 extent.' 
 
 ' Isn't it strange, reading a book of this kind nowa- 
 days ? What a leap we have made ! I should think 
 there's hardly a country curate who would be ca})able of 
 brim^dng this argument into a sermon.' 
 
 *I don't know,' returned Sidwell, smiling. 'One still 
 hears remarkal)le sermons.' 
 
 ' What will ]\rr. Peak's be like ? ' 
 
 They exchanged glances. Sylvia wore a look of 
 retlective curiosity, and her friend answered with some 
 hesitation, as if the thought were new to her : 
 
 ' They won't deal with Noah, we may take that for 
 granted.' 
 
 'Most likely not with miracles, however little expensive.' 
 
 ' Perhaps not. 1 suppose he will deal chiefly with the 
 moral teaching of Christianity.' 
 
 ' ])o you think him strong as a moralist.^' inquired 
 
 Svlvia. 
 
 i6 
 
242 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' He has very decided opinions about the present state 
 of our civilisation.' 
 
 ' So I tind. But is there any distinctly moral force 
 in him ? ' 
 
 ' Father thinks so/ Sidwell replied, ' and so do our 
 friends the Lilywhites.' 
 
 Miss Moorhouse pondered awhile. 
 
 ' He is a great problem to me/ she declared at length, 
 knitting her brows with a hint of humorous exaggera- 
 tion. ' I wonder whether he believes in the dogmas of 
 Christianity.' 
 
 Sidwell was startled. 
 
 * Would he think of becoming a clergyman ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, why not ? Don't they recognise nowadays that 
 the spirit is enough ? ' 
 
 There was silence. Sidwell let her eyes wander over 
 the sunny grass to the red-flowering creeper on the 
 nearest side of the house. 
 
 * That would involve a great deal of dissimulation/ she 
 said at length. ' I can't reconcile it with what I know of 
 Mr. Peak.' 
 
 ' And I can't reconcile anything else/ rejoined the other. 
 
 ' He impresses you as a rationalist ? ' 
 
 ' You not ? ' 
 
 ' I confess I have taken his belief for granted. Oh, 
 think ! He couldn't keep up such a pretence. However 
 you justify it, it implies conscious deception. It would 
 be dishonourable. I am sure he would think it so.' 
 
 ' How does your brother regard him ? ' Sylvia asked, 
 smiling very slightly, but with direct eyes. 
 
 * Buckland can't credit anyone with sincerity except 
 an aggressive agnostic' 
 
 ' But I think he allows honest credulity.' 
 
 Sidwell had no answer to this. After musing a little, 
 she put a question which indicated how her thoughts had 
 travelled. 
 
 ' Have you met many women who declared themselves 
 agnostics ? ' 
 
 ' Several.' 
 
 Sylvia removed her hat, and began to fan herself gently 
 
BORN IN KXII.K 24-; 
 
 with the brim. Here, in the sliade, bees were hiiiniuinL,' ; 
 from the house came faint notes of a piano — Fanny 
 practising a mazurka of Chopin. 
 
 ' ]>ut never, I suppose, one who found a i)k'asurc in 
 attacking Christianity / ' 
 
 * A girl who was at school with me in London,' Sylvia 
 replied, with an air of amused reminiscence. • ^JjH TpIbi 
 Moxey. Didn't I ever speak to you of her ? ' 
 
 ' I think not.' 
 
 ' She was bitter against religion of every kind.' 
 ' Because lier mother made her learn collects, I dare 
 say ? ' suggested Sidwell, in a tone of gentle satire. 
 
 * No, no. ]\Iarcella was about eighteen then, and had 
 neither father nor mother. — (How Fanny's touch im- 
 proves 1) — She was a born atheist, in the fullest sense 
 of the word.' 
 
 ' And detestable ? ' 
 
 ' Xot to me — 1 rather liked her. She was remarkaldy 
 honest, and I have sometimes thought that in morals, 
 on the whole, she stood far above most women. Slie 
 hated falsehood — hated it with all her heart, and a story 
 of injustice maddened her. AX^TcrUL think of Marcellu 
 it helps me to picture the Tiussian girls who propagate 
 Nihilism.' 
 
 ' You have lost sight of her ? ' 
 
 'She went abroad, I think. I should like to have 
 known her fate. I rather think there will have to be 
 many like lier before women are civilised.' 
 
 ' How 1 sliould like to ask her,' said Sidwell, ' on what 
 she supported lier morality ?' 
 
 ' Put the problem to Mr. Peak,' suggested the other, 
 gaily. * I fancy he wouldn't find it insoluble.' 
 
 Mrs. AVarricombe and ]\Irs. ^loorhouse ap]»cared in the 
 distance, walking hither under parasols. The girls rose to 
 meet them, and were i)resently engaged in less interesting 
 colloquy. 
 
IV 
 
 This summer Peak became a semi-graduate of London 
 University. To avoid the risk of a casual meeting with 
 acquaintances, he did not go to London, but sat for his 
 examination at the nearest provincial centre. The 
 revival of boyish tremors at the successive stages of 
 tliis business was anything but agreeable ; it reminded 
 him, with humiliating force, how far he had strayed 
 from the path indicated to his self-respecting manliood. 
 Defeat would have strengthened in overwhelming re- 
 volt all the impulses which from time to time urged 
 him to abandon his servile course. But there was no 
 chance of his failing to satisfy the examiners. With 
 ' Honours ' he had now nothing to do ; enough for his 
 purpose that in another year's time he would write 
 himself Bachelor of Arts, and thus simplify the clerical 
 preliminaries. In what quarter he was to look for 
 a curacy remained uncertain. Meanwhile his enter- 
 prise seemed to prosper, and success emboldened his 
 liopes. 
 
 Hopes which were no longer vague, but had defined 
 themselves in a way which circumstances made inevitable. 
 Though he had consistently guarded himself against the 
 obvious suggestions arising out of his intercourse with 
 the Warricombe family, though he still emphasised every 
 discouraging fact, and strove to regard it as axiomatic 
 that nothing could be more perilous to his future than 
 a liint of presumption or self-interest in word or deed 
 beneath that friendly roof, it was coming to pass that he 
 thought of Sidwell not only as the type of woman pursued 
 
 244 
 
BORN IN EXILE 2-45 
 
 by his imagination, bnt as herself tlie object of liis cmi- 
 vergin;4 desires. Comparison of lier with otliers liad no 
 result but the deepening of that impression she had at 
 tirst made upon him. Sidwell exliibited all the qualities 
 which most appealed to liim in her class; in addition, 
 slie had the charms of a personality wliicli he could not 
 think of common occurrence. lie was yet far from 
 understanding her ; she exercised his powers of observa- 
 tion, analysis, conjecture, as no other person had ever 
 done ; each time he saw her (were it but for a moment) 
 he came away with some new perception of her excel- 
 lence, some hitlierto unmarked grace of person or mind 
 whereon to meditate. He had never approached a 
 woman who possessed this powder at once of fascinat- 
 ing his senses and controlling his intellect to a glad 
 reverence. Whether in her presence or musing upon her 
 in solitude, he found that the unsparing naturalism of 
 his scrutiny was powerless to degrade that sweet, })ure 
 bein£[. 
 
 Eare, under any circumstances, is the passionate love 
 which controls every motive of heart and mind; rarer 
 still that form of it which, with no assurance of recipro- 
 cation, devotes exclusive ardour to an object only 
 approachable through declared obstacles. Godwin Peak 
 was not framed for romantic languishment. In general, 
 the more complex a man's mechanism, and the more 
 pronounced his habit of introspection, the less capable is 
 he of loving with vehemence and constancy. Heroes of 
 passion are for the most part primitive natures, nobly 
 tempered ; in our time they tend to extinction. Growing 
 vulgarism on the one hand, and on the other a develop- 
 ment of the ])sychological conscience, are unfavourable to 
 any relation l)etween the sexes, save those which originate 
 in pure animalism, or in reasoning less or more generous. 
 Never having experienced any feeliiig- whicL Jia could 
 dignify with tlie ntime of love, Godwin had no criterion 
 in himself wdiereljy to test the euKjtions now besetting 
 him. In a man of his age this was an miusual state of 
 things, for when the ardour whicli will licar analysis has 
 at length declared itself, it is wont to be moderated by 
 
246 BORN m EXILE 
 
 the regretful memory of that fugacious essence which 
 gave to the first frenzy of youth its irrecoverable delight. 
 He could not say in reply to his impulses : If that was 
 love which overmastered me, tliis must be something 
 eitlier more or less exalted. What he did say was 
 something of this kind : If desire and tenderness, if 
 frequency of dreaming rapture, if the calmest approval of 
 the mind and the heart's most exquisite, most painful 
 throb]:)ing, constitute love, — then assuredly I love Sidwell. 
 But if to love is to be possessed with madness, to lose all 
 taste of life when hope refuses itself, to meditate frantic 
 follies, to deem it inconceivable that this woman should 
 ever lose her dominion over me, or another reign in 
 her stead, — then my passion falls short of the true 
 oestrum, and I am only dallying with fancies which might 
 spring up as often as I encountered a charming girl. 
 
 All things considered, to encourage this amorous pre- 
 occupation was probably the height of unwisdom. The 
 lover is ready at deluding himself, but Peak never lost 
 siofht of the extreme unlikelihood that he should ever 
 become Martin Warricombe's son-in-law, of the thousand 
 respects which forbade his hoping that Sidwell would 
 ever lay her hand in his. That deep-rooted sense of class 
 which had so much influence on his speculative and 
 practical life asserted itself, with rigid consistency, even 
 against his own aspirations ; he attributed to the Warri- 
 combes more prejudice on this subject than really existed 
 in them. He, it was true, belonged to no class whatever, 
 acknowledged no subordination save that of the hierarchy 
 of intelligence; l)ut this could not obscure the fact that 
 his brother sold seeds across a counter, that his sister 
 had married a haberdasher, that his uncle (notoriously) 
 was somew^here or other supplying the public with cheap 
 repasts. (Jirls of Sidwell's delicacy do not misally 
 themselves, for they take into account the fact that 
 such misalliance is fraught with elements of unhappiness, 
 aftectinsf husband as much as wife. No need to dwell 
 upon the scruples suggested by his moral attitude; he 
 would never be called upon to combat them with reference 
 to Sidwell's future. 
 
BOHX IN KXII,K 247 
 
 What, then, was he about ? For wliat advantage was 
 he i)layini^' the liypocritc i \N'()ul(l he, after all, be 
 satisfied with some such wile as the avera^^^e curate may 
 liope to marry ? 
 
 A hundred times he reviewed the ])ruad ([uesti(jn, by 
 the light of his six months' ex])erience. Was Sidwell 
 AVarricombe his ideal woman, absolutely speaking ? Why, 
 no; not with all his glow of feeling could he persuade I 
 himself to declare her that. Satisfied u]) to a certain point, 
 admitted to the sphere of wealthy refinement, he now had 
 leisure to think of yet higher grades, of the women who 
 are not only exquisite creatures by social comparison but 
 rank by divine right among the foremost of their race. 
 Sidwell was far from intolerant, and held her faiths in 
 a sincerely ethical spirit. She judged nobly, she often 
 saw with clear vision. But must not something of kindly 
 condescension always blend with his admiring devoted-^ 
 ness ? Were it but possible to win the love of a woman ' 
 who looked forth with eyes thoroughly purged from all , ^j 
 mist of tradition and conventionalism, who was at home| 
 among arts and sciences, who>slike himself, acknowledged 
 no class and bowed to no authority but that of the supreme.^ 
 human mind 1 
 
 Such women are to be found in every age, but how 
 many of them shine with the distinctive ray of woman- 
 hood ? These are so rare that they havt' a place in the 
 pages of history. The truly emancipated woman — it was 
 (Jodwin's conviction — is almost always asexual ;_ to him, 
 therefore, utterly repugnant. If, then, hewefe not content 
 to waste his life in a vain search for the priceless jewel, 
 which is won and worn only by fortune's supremo 
 favourites, he must acquiesce in the imperfect marriage 
 commonly the lot of men whose intellect allows them but 
 little companionship even among their own sex: for 
 that matter, the lot of most men, and necessarily so 
 until the new ellbrts in female education shall have 
 overcome the vice of wedlock as hitherto sanctioned. 
 Xature provides the hallucination which flings a lover 
 at liis mistress's feet. For the chill which follows u]»on 
 attainment she cares nothing — let society and individuals 
 
248 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 1 make their account with that as best they may. Even 
 '. with a wife such as Sidwell the process of disillusion 
 would doubtless have to be faced, however liberal one's 
 allowances in the forecast. 
 
 Eeiiections of this colour were useful ; tliey helped to 
 keep within limits the growth of agitating desire. But 
 there were seasons when Godwin surrendered himself to 
 luxurious reverie, hours of summer twilight which forbade 
 analysis and listened only to the harmonies of passion. 
 Then was Sidwell's image glorified, and all the delights 
 promised by such love as hers fired his imagination to 
 intolerable ecstasy. heaven ! to see tlie smile softened 
 by rosy warmth wdiich would confess that she had given 
 her heart — to feel her supple fingers intertwined with his 
 that clasped them — to hear the words in which a mind 
 so admirable, instincts so delicate, would make expression 
 of their tenderness ! To live with Sidwell — to breathe 
 the fragrance of that flower of womanhood in wedded 
 intimacy — to prove the devotion of a nature so profoundly 
 chaste ! The visionary transport was too poignant ; in 
 the end it drove him to a fierce outbreak of despairing 
 wrath. How could he dream that such bliss would be 
 the reward of despical^le artifice, of calculated dishonour ? 
 Born a rebel, how could his be the fate of those happy 
 men who are at one with the order of thinos ? The 
 prophecy of a heart wrung with anguish foretold too 
 surely that for him was no rapturous love, no joy of noble 
 wedlock. Solitude, now and for ever, or perchance some 
 base alliance of the flesh, which would involve his later 
 days in sordid misery. 
 
 In moods of discouragement he thought with envy of 
 his old self, his life in London lodgings, his freedom in 
 obscurity. It belongs to the pathos of human nature 
 that only in looking back can one appreciate the true 
 value of those long tracts of monotonous ease which, 
 when we are living through them, seem of no account 
 save in relation to past or future ; only at a distance do 
 we perceive that the exemption from painful shock was 
 in itself a happiness, to be rated highly in comparison 
 with most of tliose disturbances known as moments of 
 
BORN IN EXILE 240 
 
 joy. A wise man would have entertained no wisli but 
 that lie might grow old in that same succession of days 
 and weeks and years. Without anxiety concerning his 
 material needs (certainly the most substantial of eartldy 
 blessings), his leisure not inadequate to the gratification 
 of a moderate studiousness, with friends who otVered him 
 an ever-ready welcome, — was it not much? If he were 
 condemned to bachelorhood, his philosophy was surely 
 capable of teaching him that the sorrows and anxieties 
 he thus escaped made more than an ofiset against the 
 satisfactions he must forego, lieason had no part in the 
 fantastic change to which his life liad .sul»mitted, nor was 
 lie ever supported by a hope which would bear his cooler 
 investigation. 
 
 And yet hope had her periods of control, for there are 
 times when the mind wearies of rationality, and, as it 
 were in self-defence, in obedience to the instinct of 
 progressive life, craves a specious comfort. It seemed 
 undeniable that Mr. Warricombe regarded him with 
 growth of interest, invited his conversation more un- 
 reservedly. He began to understand Martin's position 
 with regard to religion and science, and thus could utter 
 himself more securely. At length he ventured to dis- 
 course with some amplitude on his own convictions — 
 the views, that is to say, which he thought fit to adopt 
 in his character of a liberal Christian. It was on an 
 afternoon of early August that this opportunity pre- 
 sented itself. They sat together in the study, and 
 Martin was in a graver mood than usual, not much 
 disposed to talk, but a willing listener. There had been 
 mention of a sermon at the Cathedral, in which the 
 preacher declared his faith that the maturity of science 
 would dispel all antagonisms between it and revelation. 
 
 ' The dilHculties of the unbeliever,' said Peak, endeav- 
 ouring to avoid a sermonising formality, though with 
 indifferent success, 'are, of course, of two kinds; there's 
 the theory of evolution, and there's modern bililical 
 criticism. The more I study these objections, the less 
 able I am to see how they come in conflict with belief 
 in Christianitv as a revealed religion.' 
 
250 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Yet you probably had your time of doubt ? ' remarked 
 the other, touching for the "first time on this personal 
 matter. 
 
 ' Oh, yes ; that was inevitable. It only means that 
 one's development is imperfect. Most men who confirm 
 themselves in agnosticism are kept at that point by 
 arrested moral activity. They give up tlie intellectual 
 question as wearisome, and accept the point of view which 
 Hatters their prejudices : thereupon follows a l)lunting of 
 the sensil)ilities on the religious side.' 
 
 'There are men constitutionally unfitted for the 
 reception of spiritual truth,' said Martin, in a troubled 
 tone. He was playing with a piece of string, and did not 
 raise his eyes. 
 
 ' I quite believe that. There's our difficulty when we 
 come to evidences. The evidences of science are wholly 
 different in Jcind from those of religion. Faith cannot 
 spring from any observation of phenomena, or scrutiny 
 of authorities, but from the declaration made to us by 
 the spiritual faculty. The man of science can only 
 l)ecome a Christian by the way of humility — and that 
 a kind of humility he finds it diiiicult even to conceive. 
 (3ne wishes to impress upon him the harmony of 
 this faith with the spiritual voice that is in every 
 man. He replies : I know nothing of that spiritual 
 voice. And if that be true, one can't help him l)y 
 argument.' 
 
 Peak had constructed for himself, out of his reading, a 
 plausible system which on demand he could set fortli 
 with fluency. The tone of current apologetics tauglit him 
 that, by men even of cultivated intellect, such a position 
 as he was now sketcliing was deemed tenable ; yet to 
 liimself it sounded so futile, so nuoatorv, that he had to 
 harden his forehead as he spoke. Trial more severe to 
 liis conscience lay in the perceptible solicitude with 
 which Mr. Warricombe v/eighed these disingenuous 
 arguments. It was a hateful thing to practise such 
 deception on one who probal)ly yearned for si)iritual 
 support.' But he had committed himself to tliis course, 
 and must brave it out. 
 
BORN IX KXII,K 251 
 
 ' Christianity,' he was saying presently — appropriat- 
 ing a passage of which lie had once made careful note 
 — ' is an organism of sucli vital energy tliat it ])erforce 
 assimilates whatever is good and true in tlie culture of 
 eacli successive age. To understand this is to learn 
 that we must depend rather on ronstructir<\ than on 
 defensive, apology. That is to say, we must draw 
 evidence of our faith from its latent capacities, its 
 unsuspected affinities, its previsions, its a(la])tal)ility, 
 compreliensiveness, sympathy, adequacy to Imman needs.' 
 
 ' Tliat puts very well what I liave always felt,' rejdied 
 ^Ir. AVarricombe. ' Yet tliere will remain the objection 
 that such a faith may be of purely human origin. 
 If evolution and biblical criticism seem to overthrow 
 all the historic evidences of Christianity, how con- 
 vince the oltjectors that tlie faith itself was divinely 
 given ? ' 
 
 ' But 1 cannot liold for a moment,' exclaimed Peak, in 
 the words which he knew his interlocutor desired to hear, 
 ' that all the historic evidences have been destroyed. 
 Tiiat indeed would shake our position.' 
 
 He enlarged on the point, with display of learning, yet 
 studiously avoiding the tone of pedantry. 
 
 ' Evolution,' he remarked, when the dialogue had again 
 extended its scope, ' does not touch the evidence of design 
 in the universe; at most it can correct our imperfect 
 views (handed down from an age which had no scientific 
 teaching because it was not ripe for it) of the mode in 
 which that design was executed, or rather is still being 
 executed. Evolutionists have not succeeded in explain- 
 ing life ; they have merely discovered a new law relating 
 to life. If we must have an ex])lanation, there is no- 
 thing for it but to accei»t the notion of a Deity. Indeed, 
 how can there l)e religion without a divine author <* 
 lieligion is based on the idea of a divine mind which 
 reveals itself to us for moral (MuIs. The Christian re- 
 velation, we liold, has been developed gradually, much 
 of it in connection with secondary causes and human 
 events. It has come down to ns in anything but 
 absolute purity — like a stream whidi \\{\< been made 
 
252 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 turbid by its earthly channel. The lower serves its 
 purpose as a stage to the higher, then it falls away, the 
 higlier surviving. Hitherto, the final outcome of evolu- 
 tion is the soul in a bodily tenement. May it not be 
 that the perfected soul alone survives in the last step of 
 the struggle for existence ? ' 
 
 Peak had been talking for more than a quarter of an 
 hour. Under stress of shame and intellectual self- 
 criticism (for he could not help confuting every position 
 as he stated it) his mind often wandered. When he 
 ceased speaking there came upon him an uncomfortable 
 dreaminess which he had already once or twice experi- 
 enced when in colloquy with Mr. Warricombe ; a tor- 
 menting metaphysical doubt of his own identity strangely 
 beset him. With involuntary attempt to recover the 
 familiar self he grasped his own wrist, and then, before 
 lie was aware, a laugh escaped him, an all but mocking 
 laugh, unsuitable enough to the spirit of the moment. 
 Mr. Warricombe was startled, but looked up with a 
 friendly smile. 
 
 ' You fear,' he said, ' that this last speculation may seem 
 rather fanciful to me ? ' 
 
 Godwin was biting his lip fiercely, and could not com- 
 mand liimself to utterance of a w^ord. 
 
 ' By no means, I assure you,' added the other. ' It 
 appeals to me very strongly.' 
 
 Peak rose from his chair. 
 
 ' It struck me,' he said, ' that I had been preaching a 
 sermon ratlier than taking part in a conversation. I'm 
 afraid it is the habit of men who live a good deal alone 
 to indulge in monologues.' 
 
 On his return home, the sight of Bihcl unci Natxr and 
 his sheets of laborious manuscript filled him with disgust. 
 It was two or three days before he could again apply 
 himself to the translation. Yet this expedient had un- 
 doubtedly been of great service to him in the matter of 
 his relations with Mr. Warricombe. Witliout the aid of 
 Reusch he would have found it difficult to speak naturally 
 on the theme which drew Martin into confidences and 
 established an intimacy between tliem. 
 
BORN IN KXILH 253 
 
 Already they had discussed in detail tlie lirst lialf of 
 the book. How a man of ]\Ir. AVarricoiiibe's intelligi'iice 
 could take grave interest in an arid exe<,^esis of tlie first 
 cliapter of (genesis, Godwin strove in vain to conipreliend. 
 Often enough the debates were perilously suggestive of 
 burlesque, and, when alone, he relieved himself of the 
 laughter he had scarce restrained. For instance, there 
 was that terrible thoJin wahohc of tlie second verse, a 
 phrase preserved from the original, and tossed into all 
 the corners of controversy. Was fhohi' waholw the first 
 condition of the earth, or was it merely a period of 
 division between a previous state of things and creation 
 as established by the Hexa.'meron ? Did light exist or 
 not, previous to the tlwlm waholni? Then, again, what 
 kind of 'days' were the three which passed before the 
 birth of the sun ? Special interest, of course, attached 
 to the successive theories of theology on the origin of 
 geologic strata. First came the ' theory of restitution,' 
 which explained unbiblical antiquity by declaring that 
 the strata belonged to a world before the Hexiemeron, 
 a world which had been destroyed, and succeeded by the 
 new creation. Less objectional)le was the ' concordistic 
 theory,' which interprets tlie ' six days ' as so many vast 
 periods of creative activity. But Eeusch himself gave 
 preference to the ' ideal theory,' tlie supporters whereof 
 (diligently adapting themselves to the progress of science) 
 hold that the six days are not to be understood as 
 consecutive periods at all, but merely as six phases of 
 tiie Creator's work. 
 
 By the exercise of watchfulness and dexterity. Peak 
 managed for the most part to avoid expression of definite 
 opinions. His attitude was that of a reverent (not yet 
 reverend) student. ^Ir. A\\arricombe was less guarded, 
 and sometimes allowed himself to profess that he saw 
 nothing but vain ingenuity in lieusch's argument : as, 
 for example, where the theologian, convinced that the 
 patriarchs did really live to an abnormal age, suggests 
 that man's life was subsequently shortened in order that 
 ' sin might not flourish with such exuberance.' This 
 passage caused Martin to smile. 
 
254 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' It won't do, it won't do,' he said, quietly. ' Far 
 better apply his rationalism here as elsewhere. These 
 are wonderful old stories, not to be understood 
 literally. Nothing depends upon them — nothing essen- 
 tial.' 
 
 Thereupon Peak mused anxiously. Not for the first 
 time there occurred to him a thought which suited only 
 too well with his ironic habits of mind. What if this 
 hypocritic comedy were altogether superfluous ? What 
 if Mr. Warricombe would have received him no less 
 cordially had he avowed his sincere position, and con- 
 tented himself with guarding against ofl'ensiveness ? 
 Buckland, it was true, had suffered in his father's 
 esteem on account of his unorthodoxy, but that young 
 man had been too aggressive, too scornful. With prud- 
 ence, would it not have been possible to win Martin's 
 regard by fortifying the scientific rather than the dog- 
 matic side of his intellect ? If so, what a hopeless error 
 had he committed ! — But Sidwell ? AYas she liberal 
 enough to take a personal interest in one who had re- 
 nounced faith in revelation ? He could not decide this 
 question, for of Sidwell he knew much less than of her 
 father. And it was idle to torment himself with sucli 
 debate of the irreversible. 
 
 And, indeed, there seemed much reason for believing 
 that Martin, whatever the extent of his secret doubts, 
 was by temperament armed against agnosticism. Dis- 
 tinctly it comforted him to hear the unl)elievers assailed 
 — the friends of whom he spoke most heartily were 
 all on the orthodox side ; if ever a hint of gentle malice 
 occurred in his conversation, it was when he spoke of 
 a fallacy, a precipitate conclusion, detected in works 
 of science. Probably he was too old to overcome this 
 bias. 
 
 His view of the Bible appeared to liarmonise with that 
 which Peak put forth in one of their dialogues. ' The 
 Scriptures were meant to be literally understood in 
 primitive ages, and spiritually when the growth of science 
 made it possible. Genesis was never intended to teach 
 the facts of natural history; it takes phenomena as 
 
BORN IX KXIIJ-: 2.)^ 
 
 they appear to iiniiistructed people, and uses tlicin only 
 for the incnleation of moral lessons ; it j)resenls to the 
 childhood of the world a few Ljreat elementary trnths. 
 And the way in which phenomena are spoken (jf in the 
 Old Testament is never really incompatible with the 
 facts as we know them nowadays. Take the miracle 
 of the sun standing still, which is supposed to be a 
 safe subject of ridicule. A\'hy, it merely means that 
 light was miraculously prolonged ; the words used are 
 those which common people woidd at all times under- 
 stand.' 
 
 (Was it necessary to have admitted the miracle ? 
 Godwin asked himself. At all events ^Ir. Warricombe 
 nodded approvingly.) 
 
 ' Then the narrative of the creation of man : that's not 
 at all incompatible with his slow development through 
 ages. To teach the scientific fact — if we yet really know 
 it — would have been worse than useless. The story is 
 meant to express that spirit, and not matter, is the source 
 of all existence. Indeed, our knowledge of the true 
 meaning of the Bible has increased with the growth of 
 science, and naturally that must have been intended from 
 the first. Things which do not concern man's relation 
 to the spiritual have no place in this book ; they are not 
 within its province. Such things were discoverable by 
 human reason, and the knowledge which achieves has 
 nothing to do with a divine revelation.' 
 
 To Godwin it was a grinding of the air, but the listener 
 appeared to think it profitable. 
 
 With his clerical friend, Mr. Lilywhite, he rarely 
 touched on matters of religion. The vicar of St. Ethel- 
 reda's was a man well suited to support the social 
 dignity of his Church. A gentleman before everything, 
 he seemed inca])able of prying into the state of a 
 parishioner's soul ; you saw in him the ollicial representa- 
 tive of a Divinity characterised by well-bred tolerance. 
 He had written a pleasant little book on the by-ways of 
 Devon and Cornwall, which brought about his intimacy 
 with the AVarricombe household. Peak liked him more 
 the better he knew him, and in the course of the summer 
 
256 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 they had one or two long walks together, conversing 
 exclusively of the ■ things of earth. Mr. Lilywhite 
 troubled himself little about evolution ; he spoke of trees 
 and plants, of birds and animals, in a loving spirit, like 
 the old simple naturalists. Geology did not come within 
 his sphere. 
 
 ' I'm very sorry,' he said, ' that I could never care 
 much for it. Don't think I'm afraid of it — not I ! I feel 
 the grandeur of its scope, just as I do in the case of 
 astronomy; but I have never brought myself to study 
 either science. A narrowness of mind, no doubt. I 
 can't go into such remote times and regions. I love 
 tlie sunlight and the green fields of this little corner 
 of the world — too well, perhaps : yes, perhaps too well.' 
 
 After one of these walks, he remarked to Mrs. 
 Lilywhite : 
 
 ' It's my impression that Mr. Peak has somehow been 
 misled in his choice of a vocation. I don't think he'll do 
 as a churchman.' 
 
 ' Why not, Henry ? ' asked his wife, with gentle 
 concern, for she still spoke of Peak's 'quiet moral 
 force.' 
 
 'There's something too restless about him. I doubt 
 whether he lias really made up his mind on any subject 
 whatever. AVell, it's not easy to explain what 1 feel, but 
 I don't think he will take Orders.' 
 
 Calling at the vicarage one afternoon in September, 
 Godwin found Mrs. Lilywhite alone. She startled him by 
 saying at once : 
 
 ' An old acquaintance of yours was with us yesterday, 
 Mv. Peak.' 
 
 ' Who could that be, I wonder ? ' 
 
 He smiled softly, controlling his impulse to show quite 
 another expression. 
 
 ' You remember Mr. Bruno Chilvers ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, yes 1 ' 
 
 There was a constriction in his throat. Struggling to 
 overcome it, he added : 
 
 'But I should have thought he had no recollection 
 of me.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 257 
 
 'Quite the contrary, I assure you. II(; is to succeed 
 ^Ir. Jlell of St. Margaret's, at Cliristnias ; lie was down 
 here only for a day or two, and called upon my liushaiid 
 with a message from an old friend of ours. It appears 
 he used to know the Warricombes, wh'en they lived at 
 Kingsmill, and he had been to see them before visiting 
 us: it was there your name was mentioned to him.' 
 
 (lodwin had seated himself, and leaned forward, his 
 hands grasping the glove he had drawn oil". 
 
 'We were contemporaries at Whitelaw College,' he 
 observed. 
 
 ' So we learnt from lum. He spoke of you with the 
 greatest interest ; he was delighted to hear that you 
 contemplated taking Orders. Of course we knew^ Mr. 
 Chilvers by reputation, but my husband had no idea that 
 he was coming to Exeter. What an energetic man he is ! 
 In a few hours he seemed to have met everyone, and to 
 have learnt everything. My husband says he felt quite 
 rebuked by such a display of vigour ! ' 
 
 Even in his discomposure, graver tlian any that had 
 affected hiui since his talks with Buckland Warricombe, 
 Peak was able to notice that the Eev. Bruno had not 
 made a wholly favourable impression upon the Lilywhites. 
 There was an amiable causticity in that mention of 
 his ' display of vigour,' such as did not often charac- 
 terise Mrs. Lilywhite's comments. Finding that the 
 vicar would be away till evening, CJodwin stayed for 
 only a quarter of an hour, and when he had escaped 
 it irritated and alarmed him to reflect how un- 
 usual his behaviour must liave appeared to the good 
 lady. 
 
 The blow was aimed at his self-possession from such 
 an unlikely quarter. In Church |)apers he had frequently 
 come across Chilvers' name, and the sight of it caused 
 him a twofold disturbance: it was hateful to have 
 memories of humiliation revived, and perhaps still more 
 harassing to be forced upon acknowledgment of tlie fact 
 that he stood as an ol)scure aspirant at the foot of the 
 ladder which his old rival was triumi)h;intly ascending. 
 Bad enough to be classed in any way with such a man 
 
 17 
 
258 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 as Chilvers ; but to be regarded as at one with him in 
 reh'gious faitli, to l)e forbidden the utterance of scorn 
 when Chilvers was extolled, stnng him so keenly that 
 he rushed into any distraction to elude the thought. 
 When he was suffering shame under the gaze of Buckland 
 Warricombe he remembered Chilvers, and shrank as 
 before a merited scoff. But the sensation had not been 
 abiding enough to affect his conduct. He had said to 
 himself that he should never come in contact with 
 the fellow, and that, after all, community of religious 
 profession meant no more, under their respective circum- 
 stances, than if both were following law or physic. 
 
 But the unforeseen had happened. In a few months, 
 the Eev. Bruno Chilvers would be a prominent figure 
 about the streets of Exeter; would be frequently seen 
 at the Warricombes', at the Lilywhites', at the houses of 
 their friends. His sermons at St. Margaret's would 
 doubtless attract, and form a staple topic of conversation. 
 Worse than all, his expressions of ' interest ' and * delight ' 
 made it probable that he would seek out his College 
 competitor and offer the hand of brotherhood. These 
 things were not to be avoided — save by abandonment 
 of hopes, save by retreat, by yielding to a hostile 
 destiny. 
 
 That Chilvers might talk here and there of Whitelaw 
 stories was comparatively unimportant. The Warri- 
 combes must already know all that could be told, and 
 what other people heard did not much matter. It was 
 the man himself that Peak could not endure. Dis- 
 sembling had liitherto been no light task. The burden 
 had more than once pressed so gallingly that its 
 permanent support seemed impossible ; but to stand 
 Ijefore Bruno Chilvers in the attitude of humble emula- 
 tion, to give respectful ear whilst the popular cleric 
 advised or encouraged, or bestowed pontifical praise, was 
 comparable only to a searing of the flesh with red irons. 
 Even with assured prospect of recompense in the shape 
 of Sidwell Warricombe's heart and hand, he could hardly 
 submit to such an ordeal. As it was, reason having so 
 often convinced him that he clung to a visionary hope, 
 
HORN IN KXII.K 2. "9 
 
 the torture l)ecanie »,Matuitous, and its mere suggestion 
 inspired him with a lierce resentment destructive of all 
 his purposes. 
 
 For several days he scarcely left the house. To wratli 
 and dread had succeeded a wretched torpor, during whicli 
 liis mind kept revolving the thoughts ])rom[)ted ])y Ids 
 situation, turbidly and to no issue. He tasted all the 
 bitterness of the solitude to which he had condemned 
 himseli'; there was not a living soul with whom he could 
 commune." At moments he was possessed with the desire 
 of going straightway to London, and making Earwaker 
 the confidant of all his folly. But that demanded an 
 exertion of which he was physically incapable. He 
 tliought of the old home at Twybridge, and was tempted 
 also in that direction. His mother would welcome him 
 with human kindness ; beneath her roof he could lie 
 dormant until fate should again point his course. He 
 even wrote a letter saying that in all probability lie 
 should pay a visit to Twybridge before long. Ijut tlie 
 impulse was only of an hour's duration, for he re- 
 membered that to talk with his mother would necessitate 
 all manner of new falsehoods, a thickennig of the 
 atmosphere of lies which already oppressed hini. No ; if 
 he quitted Exeter, it must be on a longer journey. He 
 must resume his purpose of seeking some distant country, 
 where new conditions of life would allow him to try his 
 fortune at least as an honest adventurer. In many parts 
 of colonial England his technical knowledge would have 
 a value, and were there not women to be won beneath 
 other skies — women perhaps of subtler charm than the 
 old hidebound civilisation produced ? lieminiscences of 
 scenes and figures in novels he had read nourished the 
 illusion. He pictured some thriving little town at the 
 ends of the earth, where a young Englishman of good 
 manners and unusual culture would easily be admitted 
 to tlie intimacy of the richest families ; he saw the ideal 
 colonist (a man of good birth, l)ut a sower of wild oats in 
 his youth) with two or three daughters about him — 
 beautiful girls, wondrously self-instructed — living amid 
 romantic dreams of the old world, and of the lover who 
 
260 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 would some day carry them off (with a substantial share 
 of papa's wealth) to Europe and the scenes of their 
 imagination. 
 
 The mind has marvellous methods of self-defence 
 against creeping lethargy of despair. At the point to 
 which he had been reduced by several days of blank 
 despondency, Peak was able to find genuine encourage- 
 ment in visions such as tliis. He indulged his fancy 
 until the vital force began to stir once more within him, 
 and then, with one angry sweep, all his theological books 
 and manuscripts were flung out of sight. Away with 
 this detestable mummery ! Now let Bruno Chilvers,pour 
 his eloquence from the pulpit of St. Margaret's, and rear 
 to what heights he could the edifice of his social glory ; 
 men of that stamp were alone fitted to thrive in England. 
 Was not he almost certainly a hypocrite, masking his 
 brains (for brains he had) under a show of broadest 
 Anglicanism ? But his career was throughout consistent. 
 He trod in the footsteps of his father, and with inherited 
 aptitude moulded antique traditions into harmony with 
 the taste of the times. Compared with such a inan, Peak 
 felt himself a bungler. The wonder was that his clumsy 
 lying had escaped detection. 
 
 Another day, and he had done nothing whatever, but 
 was still buoyed up by the reaction of visionary hope. 
 His need now was of communicating his change of 
 purpose to some friendly hearer. A week liad passed 
 since he had exchanged a word with anyone but Mrs. 
 Ptoots, and converse he must. Why not with Mr. Warri- 
 combe ? That was plainly the next step : to see Martin 
 and make known to him that after all he could not 
 become a clergyman. No need of hinting a conscientious 
 reason. At all events, nothing more definite than a sense 
 of personal unfitness, a growing perception of difficulties 
 inherent in his character. It would be very interesting 
 to hear Mr. Warricombe's replies. 
 
 A few minutes after this decision was taken, he set off' 
 towards the Old Tiverton Eoad, walking at great speed, 
 flourishing his stick — symptoms of the nervous cramp 
 (so to speak) which he was dispelling. He reached the 
 
BORN IN KXILK 2G1 
 
 liousc, and his liaiul was on tlie lu'll, wlicn an nncxi)octed 
 opening of the door presented T.ouis Warriconibe just 
 coming forth for a walk. They exchanged amiabilities, 
 and Louis made known that his father and mother were 
 away on a visit to friends in Cornwall. 
 
 * But pray come in/ he added, offering to re-enter. 
 Peak excused himself, for it was evident that Louis 
 
 made a sacrifice to courtesy. But at that moment there 
 approached from the garden Fanny Warricombe and 
 her friend Bertha Lilywhite, eldest daughter of the 
 genial vicar; they shook hands with (Jodwin, Fanny 
 exclaiming : 
 
 * Don't go away, Mr. Peak. Have a cup of tea 
 with us — Sidwell is at home. I want to show you a 
 strange sort of spleenwort that I gathered this morning.' 
 
 ' In that case,' said her brother, smiling, ' I may 
 confess that I have an appointment. Pray forgive me 
 for hurryins: off, j\Ir. Peak.' 
 
 Godwin was embarrassed, but the sprightly girl 
 repeated her summons, and he followed into the 
 house. 
 
Having led the way to the drawing-room, Fanny retired 
 again for a few moments, to fetch the fern of which she 
 had spoken, leaving Peak in conversation with little Miss 
 Lilywhite. Bertha was a rather shy girl of fifteen, not 
 easily induced, under circumstances such as these, to 
 utter more than monosyllables, and Godwin, occupied 
 with the unforeseen results of his call, talked about the 
 weather. With half-conscious absurdity he had begun 
 to sketch a theory of his own regarding rain-clouds and 
 estuaries (Bertha listening with an air of the gravest 
 attention) when Fanny reappeared, followed by Sidwell. 
 Peak searched the latter's face for indications of her 
 mood, but could discover nothing save a spirit of gracious 
 welcome. Such aspect was a matter of course, and he 
 knew it. None the less, his nervousness and the state of 
 ;nind engendered by a week's miserable solitude, tempted 
 him to believe that Sidwell did not always wear that 
 smile in greeting a casual caller. This was the first time 
 that she had received him without the countenance of 
 Mrs. Warricombe. Observing her perfect manner, as she 
 sat down and began to talk, he asked himself what her 
 age really was. The question had never engaged his 
 thoughts. Eleven years ago, when he saw her at the 
 house near Kingsmill and again at Whitelaw College, she 
 looked a very young girl, but whether of thirteen or 
 sixteen he could not at the time have determined, and 
 such a margin of possibility allowed her now to have 
 reached — it might be — her twenty - seventh summer. 
 But twenty - seven drew perilously near to thirty ; 
 
iiu, iio,^idwL'll could not be iiioic than twenty - live. 
 Her eyes still had the dewy freslmess of flowering 
 maidenhood ; her cheek, lier tlnoat, were so exijuisitely 
 young 
 
 In liow divine a calm mu>it ihis i^irl have lived to 
 show, even at Hve-and-twenty, features as little marked 
 by inward perturbation as those of an infant! Herj 
 position in the world considered, one could forgive her' 
 for having borne so lightly the inevitable sorrows of life, 
 for having dismissed so readily the spiritual doubts which 
 were the heritage of her time ; but was she a total 
 stranger to passion ? Did not the fact of her still remain- 
 ing unmarried make probable such a deficiency in her 
 nature ^ Had she a place among the women wliom 
 coldness of temperament preserves in a bloom like that 
 of youth, until fading hair and sinking cheek betray 
 them ? 
 
 Whilst he thought thus, Godwin was in appearance 
 busy with the fern Fanny had brought for his inspection. 
 He talked al)Out it, l.)ut in snatches, witli intervals of 
 abstractedness. 
 
 Yet mifTjht he not be altoi^ether wrong ? Last vear, 
 when he observed Sidwell in the Cathedral and subse- 
 quently at home, his impression had been that her face 
 was of rather pallid and dreamy cast; he recollected that 
 distinctly. Had she changed, or did familiarity make 
 him less sensible of her finer traits ? Possibly she 
 enjoyed better health nowadays, and, if so, it miglit 
 result from influences other tlian physical. Her air of 
 (|uiet happiness seemed to him especially noticeable 
 this afternoon, and as he brooded there came upon 
 him a dread which, under the circumstances, was 
 quite irrational, but for all that troubled his views. 
 Perhaps Sidwell was betrothed to some one ? He 
 knew of but one likely person — Miss Moorhouse's 
 Ijrother. About a month ago the Warricombes had 
 l)een on a visit at Pudleigh Salterton, and something 
 might then have happened. Pangs of jealousy smote him, 
 nor could he assuage them by reminding liimself that lie 
 had no concern whatever in Sidwell's future. 
 
264 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Will Mr. Warricombe be long away ? ' he asked, 
 coldly. 
 
 * A day or two. I hope you didn't wish particularly 
 to see him to-day ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, no.' 
 
 ' Do you know, Mr. Peak,' put in Fanny, ' that we are 
 all going to London next month, to live there for half 
 a year ? ' 
 
 Godwin exhibited surprise. He looked from the 
 speaker to her sister, and Sid well, as she smiled confirma- 
 tion, bent very slightly towards him. 
 
 ' We have made up our minds, after much uncertainty,' 
 she said. ' My brother Buckland seems to think that we 
 are falling behind in civilisation.' 
 
 ' So we are,' affirmed Fanny, ' as Mr. Peak would admit, 
 if only he could be sincere.' 
 
 'Am I never sincere then, Miss Fanny?' Godwin 
 asked. 
 
 ' I only meant to say that nobody can be when the 
 rules of politeness interfere. Don't you think it's a 
 pity ? We might tell one another the truth in a pleasant 
 w^ay.' 
 
 ' I agree with you. But then we must be civilised 
 indeed. How do you think of London, Miss Warricombe? 
 Which of its aspects most impresses you ? ' 
 
 Sidwell answered rather indefinitely, and ended by 
 mentioning that in VillcUe, which she had just re-read, 
 Charlotte Bronte makes a contrast between the City and 
 the West End, and greatly prefers the former. 
 
 • Do you agree with her, Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 ' No, I can't. One understands the mood in which she 
 wrote that ; but a little more experience would liave led 
 her to see the contrast in a different light. That term, 
 the West End, includes much that is despicable, but it 
 means also the best results of civilisation. Tlie City is 
 hateful to me, and for a reason which I only understood 
 after many an hour of depression in walking about its 
 streets. It represents the ascendency of the average 
 man.' 
 
 Sidwell waited for fuller explanation. 
 
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 BORN IX EXILE 265 
 
 'A liberal mind,' Peak continued, 'is rev(jlted by the 
 triumphal j)rucession that roars ])erpetually throu,i;h the 
 City highways. AVith myriad voices the City bellows 
 its brutal scorn of everything but material advantage. 
 There every humanising intluence is contemptuously 
 disregarded. I know, of course, that the trader may 
 have his quiet home, where art and science and humanity 
 are the hrst considerations; but the '))iass of traders, 
 corporate and victorious, crush nil such things beneath 
 their heels. Take your stand (or try to do so) anywhere 
 near the Exchange ; the hustling and jolting to which 
 you. are exposed represents the very spirit of the life 
 about you. Whatever is gentle and kindly and medita- 
 tive must here go to the wall — trampled, spattered, 
 ridiculed. Here the average man has it all his own way 
 — a gross utilitarian power.' 
 
 *Yes, I can see that,' Sidwell replied, thoughtfully. 
 ' And perhaps it also represents the triumphant forces of 
 our time.' 
 
 Pie looked keenly at her, with a smile of delight. 
 
 ' That also 1 The power which centres in the world's 
 money-markets— plutocr acy.' 
 
 In conversing with Hidwell, he had never before 
 found an opportunity of uttering his vehement preju- 
 dices. The gentler side of his character had sometimes 
 expressed itself, but those impulses which were vastly 
 more significant lay hidden beneath the dissimulation he 
 consistently practised. For the first time lie w\as al>le to 
 look into Sidwell's face with honest directness, and what 
 he saw there strengthened his determination to talk on 
 with the same freedom. 
 
 'You don't believe, then,' said Sidwell, 'that democracy 
 is the proper name for the state into which we arc 
 passing ? ' 
 
 * Only if one can understand democracy as the opening 
 of social })rivileges to free competition amongst men of 
 trade. And social privilege is everything; home politics 
 refer to nothing else.' 
 
 Fanny, true to the ingenuous ]»rinci})lL' <>f her years, 
 put a direct (|uestion : 
 
266 BORN IX EXILE 
 
 ' Do you approve of real democracy, Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 He answered witli another question : 
 
 ' Have you read the " Life of Phokion " in Thitarch ? ' 
 
 ' Xo, I'm sorry to say.' 
 
 ' There's a story about him which I have enjoyed since 
 1 was your age. Phokion was once delivering a public 
 speech, and at a certain point the majority of his 
 hearers broke into applause ; whereupon he turned to 
 certain of his friends who stood near and asked, "What 
 have I said amiss ? " ' 
 
 Fanny laughed. 
 
 * Then you despise public opinion ? ' 
 
 ' With heart and soul ! ' 
 
 It was to Sidwell that he directed the reply. Though 
 overcome by the joy of such an utterance, he felt that, 
 considering the opinions and position of Buckland 
 Warricombe, he was perhaps guilty of ill manners. 
 But Sidwell manifested no disapproval. 
 
 ' Did you know that story ? ' Fanny asked of her. 
 
 ' It's quite new to me.' 
 
 ' Then I'm sure you'll read the " Life of Phokion " as 
 soon as possible. He will just suit you, Sidwell.' 
 
 Peak heard this with a shock of surprise which thrilled 
 in him deliciously. He had the strongest desire to look 
 again at Sidwell but refrained. As no one spoke, he 
 turned to Bertha Lilywhite and put a commonplace 
 question. 
 
 A servant entered with the tea - tray, and placed it 
 on a small table near Fanny. Godwiiu looked at the 
 younger girl ; it seemed to him that there was an excess 
 of colour in her cheeks. Had a glance from Sidwell 
 rebuked her ? With his usual rapidity of observation 
 and inference'^he made much of this trifle. 
 
 Contrary to what he expected, Sidwell's next remark 
 was in a tone of cheerfulness, almost of gaiety. 
 
 ' One advantage of our stay in London will be that 
 home will seem more deli*]jhtful than ever when we 
 return.' 
 
 ' I suppose you won't be back till next summer ? ' 
 
 ' I am afraid not.' 
 
B()IL\' IN KXILK 207 
 
 'Shall you \k' liviiii; here then .■' ' Fanny inipiiird. 
 
 ' It's very doubtful.' 
 
 He wished to answer with a deeided nei^ative, lait liis 
 touL^ue refused. Sidwell was rejj;arding him with calm l)Ut 
 earnest eyes, and ho knew, without caring to reflect, that 
 his latest projects were crumbling. 
 
 ' Have you been to see our friends at Dudleigh Salterton 
 yet ? ' she asked. 
 
 * Not yet. r hope to in a few days.' 
 
 Pursuing the subject, he was able to examine her 
 face as she spoke of Mr. Moorhouse. His conjecture 
 was assuredly baseless. 
 
 Fanny and Bertha began to talk together of domestic 
 affairs, and presently, when tea -cups were laid aside, 
 the two girls went to another part of the room ; then 
 they withdrew altogether, l^eak was monologising on 
 p]nglish art as represented at the Academy, but find- 
 ing himself alone with Sidwell (it had never before 
 happened) he became silent. Ought he to take his 
 leave ? He must already have been sitting here more 
 than half-an-hour. liut the temptation of trte-a-tctc was 
 irresistible. 
 
 ' You had a visit from Mr. Chilvers the otlier day ? ' he 
 remarked, abruptly. 
 
 ' Yes ; did he call to see you ? ' 
 
 Her tone gave evidence that she would not have intro- 
 duced this topic. 
 
 ' No ; I heard from Mrs. Lilywhite. He had been to 
 tlie vicarage. Has he changeil much since he was at 
 AYhitelaw ? ' 
 
 ' So many years must make a difference at that time 
 of life,' Sidwell answered, smiling. 
 
 ' lUit does he show the same peculiarities of manner V 
 
 He tried to put tlie question without insistency, in 
 a tone quite compatible with friendliness. Her answer, 
 given with a look of amusement, satisfied him that there 
 was no fear of her taking ]\Ir. Chilvers too seriously. 
 
 ' Yes. I think he speaks in much the same way.* 
 
 ' Have you read any of his publications ? ' 
 
 * One or two. AYe have his lecture on Altruism.' 
 
268 BORN m KXILE 
 
 ' I happen to know it. There are good things in it, I 
 think. But I dislike his modern interpretation of old 
 principles.' 
 
 ' You think it dangerous ? ' 
 
 He no longer regarded her frankly, and in the con- 
 sciousness of her look upon liim he knit his brows. 
 
 ' I think it both dangerous and offensive. Not a few 
 clergymen nowadays, who imagine themselves free from 
 the letter and wholly devoted to spirit, are doing their 
 best in the cause of materialism. They surrender the 
 very points at issue between religion and worldliness. 
 They are so blinded by a vague humanitarian impulse 
 as to make the New Testament an oracle of popular 
 Radicalism.' 
 
 Sidwell looked up. 
 
 ' I never quite understood, Mr. Peak, how you le- 
 gard Eadicalism. You think it opposed to all true 
 progress ? ' 
 
 * Utterly, as concerns any reasonable limit of time.' 
 
 ' Buckland, as you know, maintains tliat spiritual pro- 
 gress is only possible by this way.' 
 
 ' I can't venture to contradict him,' said Godwin ; 
 ' for it may be that advance is destined only to come 
 after long retrogression and anarchy. Perhaps the way 
 docs lie through such miseries. But we can't foresee 
 that with certainty, and those of us who hate the present 
 tendency of things must needs assert their hatred as 
 strongly as possible, seeing that we rnai/ have a more 
 hopeful part to play than seems likely.' 
 
 ' I like that view,' replied Sidwell, in an undertone. 
 
 ' My belief,' pursued Godwin, with an earnestness 
 very agreeable to himself, for he had reached the 
 subject on which he could speak honestly, ' is that an 
 instructed man can only hold views such as your 
 brother's — hopeful views of the immediate future — if 
 he has never been brouglit into close contact witli the 
 lower classes. Buckland doesn't know tlie people for 
 whom he pleads.'* 
 
 ' You think them so degraded ? ' 
 
 ' It is impossible, without seeming inhumanly scornful, 
 
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 BORX IN EXILE 269 
 
 to give a just account of their ignorance and baseness. 
 The two things, speaking generally, go together. Of 
 the ignorant, tliere are very few indeed wlio can think 
 purely or aspiringly. You, of course, oliject the teach- 
 ing of Christianity; but the lowly and the humble of 
 whom it speaks scarcely exist, scarcely can exist, in 
 our day and country. A ludicrous pretence of education 
 is banishing every form of native simplicity. In the 
 large towns, the populace sink deeper and deeper into 
 a vicious vulgarity, and every rural district is Ijeing 
 affected by the spread of contagion. To flatter the 
 proletariat is to fight against all the good that still 
 characterises educated England — against reverence for 
 the beautiful, against magnanimity, against enthusiasm 
 of mind, heart, and soul.' 
 
 He quivered with vehemence of feeling, and the flush 
 which rose to his hearer's cheek, the swimming bright- 
 ness of her eye, proved that a strong sympathy stirred 
 within her. 
 
 ' I know nothing of the uneducated in towns,' she said, 
 'l)ut the little I have seen of them in country places 
 certainly supports your opinion. I could point to two 
 or three families who have suffered distinct degradation 
 owing to what most people call an improvement in their 
 circumstances. Fatlier often speaks of such instances, 
 comparing tlie state of tilings now with what he can 
 remember.' 
 
 'My own experience,' pursued Godwin, * has been 
 among the lower classes in London. I don't mean the 
 very poorest, of whom one hears so much nowadays ; 
 I never went among them because I liad no power of 
 helping them, and the sight of their vileness would only 
 have moved me to unjust hatred. Rut the people who 
 earn enough for their needs, and wliose. spii-itucLLjgiude. 
 is the Sundav newspa ner — T know them, because for 
 a long time I was oljliged to lodge in their houses. 
 Only a consuming fire could jiurify the places where 
 they dwell. Don't misunderstand me ; I am not charging 
 them with what are commonly held vices and crimes, but 
 with the consistent love of everything that is ign'' 
 
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 270 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 with utter deadness to generous impulse, with the fatal 
 habit of low mockery. And these are the people who 
 really direct the democratic movement. They set the 
 tone in politics ; they are debasing art and literature ; 
 even the homes of wealthy people begin to show the 
 effects of their influence. One hears men and women 
 of gentle birth using phrases which originate with 
 shopboys; one sees them reading print which is ad- 
 dressed to the coarsest million. They crowd to enter- 
 tainments which are deliberately adapted to the lowest 
 order of mind. When commercial interest is supreme, 
 how can the tastes of the majority fail to lead and 
 control ? ' 
 
 Though he spoke from the depths of his conviction, 
 and was so moved that his voice rose and fell in tones 
 such as a drawing-room seldom hears, he yet kept anxious 
 watch upon Sidwell's countenance. That hint afforded 
 him by Fanny was invaluable ; it had enabled him to 
 appeal to Sidwell's nature by the ardent expression of 
 what was sincerest in his own. She too, he at length 
 understood, had the aristocratic temperament. This ex- 
 plained her to him, supplied the key of doubts and 
 difficulties which had troubled him in her presence. 
 It justified, moreover, the feelings with which she had 
 inspired him — feelings which this hour of intimate con- 
 verse had exalted to passion. His heart thrilled with 
 hope. Where sympathies so profound existed, wdiat 
 did it matter that there was variance on a few points 
 between his intellect and hers ? He felt the power to 
 win her, and to defy every passing humiliation that lay 
 in his course. 
 
 Sidwell raised her eyes with a look which signified that 
 she was shaping a question diffidently. 
 
 ' Have you always thought so hopelessly of our 
 times ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, 1 had my stage of optimism,' he answered, smiling. 
 ' Though I never put faith in the masses, I once believed 
 that the conversion of the educated to a purely human 
 religion* would set things moving in the right way. It 
 was ignorance of the world.' 
 
 vj)bwv V c^ tn^'^y^ ^ ^' 
 
KOIJX IN KXILK 271 
 
 ^ He paused a iiioiiu'iit, then addctl : 
 
 / ' 111 youth one marvels tliat men remain at so low a 
 / stage of civilisation. Later in life, one is astonished tliat 
 (^hey have advanced so far.' 
 
 Sidwell met his look with appreciative intelligence and 
 murmured : 
 
 ' In spite of myself, I believe that expresses a 
 trutli.' 
 
 Peak was about to reply, when Fanny and licr friend 
 reappeared. I5ertha approached for the purpose of taking 
 leave, and for a minute or two Sidwell talked witli her. 
 The young girls withdrew again together. 
 
 By the clock on the mantelpiece it was nearly six. 
 Godwin did not resume his seat, though Sidwell had 
 done so. He looked towards the window, and was all 
 but lost in abstraction, when the soft voice again 
 addressed him : 
 
 •But you have not clioseii your life's work without 
 some hope of doing good ? ' 
 
 'Do you think,' lie asked, gently, ' tliat 1 shall be out of 
 place in the Christian Church ? ' 
 
 'Xo — no, I certainly don't think that. But will you 
 tell me what you have set before yourself ? ' 
 
 He drew nearer and leaned upon the back of a 
 chair. 
 
 ' I hope for what I shall perhaps never attain. What- 
 ever my first steps may be — I am not independent; I 
 must take the work that offers — it is my ambition to 
 become the teacher of some rural ])arish which is still 
 unpolluted by the inliuences of which we have been 
 speaking — or, at all events, is still capable of being 
 rescued. For work in crowded centres, I am altogetlier 
 unfit; my prejudices are too strong; I should do far more 
 harm than good. But among a few simple peo{)le I 
 think my efforts mightn't be useless. 1 can't pretend to 
 care for anything but individuals. The few wliom I 
 know and love are of more importance to me than all the 
 blind multitude rushing to destruction. I hate the wor d. 
 ^majority; it is the few, the very few, that have always, 
 ke])t aHv<' whatever of effectual good we see in the human. 
 
272 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 race. There are individuals who outvveigk, in CALei^/kiiid 
 --■y_ of vahie, generations of ordinary people. To some remote 
 little community I hope to give the best energies of my 
 life. My teaching will avoid doctrine and controversy. 
 I shall take the spirit of the Gospels, and labour to make 
 it a practical guide. iSTo doubt you find inconsistencies 
 in me ; but remember that I shall not declare myself to 
 those I instruct as I have done to you. I have been 
 laying stress on my antipathies. In the future it will be 
 a duty and a pleasure to forget these and foster my 
 sympathies, which also are strong when opportunity is 
 given them.' 
 
 Sidwell listened, her face bent downwards but not 
 hidden from the speaker. 
 
 ' My nature is intolerant,' he went on, ' and I am easily 
 roused to an antagonism which destroys my peace. 
 It is only by living apart, amid friendly circum- 
 j stances, that I can cultivate the qualities useful to 
 [myself and others. The sense that my life was being 
 wasted determined me a year ago to escape the world's 
 uproar and prepare myself in quietness for this task. Tlie 
 resolve was taken here, in your house,' 
 
 ' Are you quite sure,' asked Sidwell, ' that such simple 
 duties and satisfactions' 
 
 The sentence remained incomplete, or rather was 
 finished in the timid glance she gave him. 
 
 ' Such a life wouldn't be possible to me,' he replied, 
 with unsteady voice, * if I were condemned to intellectual 
 solitude. But I have dared to liope that I shall not 
 always be alone.' 
 
 A parched throat would have stayed his utterance, 
 even if words had oftered themselves. But sudden 
 confusion beset his mind — a sense of having been 
 guilty of monstrous presumption — a panic wdiich threw 
 darkness about him and made him grasp the chair 
 convulsively. When he recovered himself and looked 
 at Sidwell there was a faint smile on her lips, inex- 
 pressibly gentle. 
 
 'That's the rough outline of my projects,' lie said, in 
 his ordinary voice, moving a few steps away. ' You see 
 
iioiLN IN i;\iij-: 273 
 
 that I count iniK'li on t'ortiuiL' : at lliu best, il may I'u 
 N'cars before I can get my country living.' 
 
 With a laugh, he came towards her and otteri'il liis 
 hand for good-bye. Sidvvell rose. 
 
 * You have interested me very much. Whatever 
 assistance it may be in my father's power to oiler you, 
 I am sure you may count upon.' 
 
 'I am already much indel.)ted to Mr. Warricombc's 
 kindness.' 
 
 They shook hands without further speech, and Peak 
 went his way. 
 
 For an hour or two he was powerless to collect his 
 thoughts. All he had said repeated itself again and 
 again, mixed up with turbid comments, with deadly 
 fears and frantic bursts of confidence, with tumult of 
 passion and merciless logic of self-criticism. Did Sidwell 
 understand that sentence : ' I have dared to hope that I 
 shall not always be alone ' / Was it not possible that she 
 might interpret it as referring to some unknown woman 
 whom he loved ? If not, if his voice and features had 
 betrayed him, what could her behaviour mean, except 
 distinct encouragement ? * You have interested me very 
 much.' l]ut could she have used such words if his 
 meaning had been plain to her? Far more likely that 
 her frank kindness came of misconception. She imagined 
 him the lover of some girl of his own * station ' — a toil- 
 ing governess, or some such person ; it could not enter 
 into her mind that he ' dared ' so recklessly as the truth 
 implied. 
 
 JUit the glow of sympathy with which she heard his 
 immeasurable scorn : there was the spirit that defies 
 artificial distances. Why had he not been bolder ? At 
 this rate he must spend a lifetime in preparing i'or the 
 decisive moment. AVlien would another such occasion 
 olfer itself ? 
 
 Women are won by audacity ; the poets have rejieatcd 
 it from age to age, and some truth there luust be in tlie 
 saying. Suspicion of self-interest could not l)ut attach to 
 him; that was inherent in the circumstances, lie must 
 
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274 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 rely upon the sincerity of his passion, which indeed was 
 beginning to rack and rend him. A woman is sensitive 
 to that, especially a woman of Sidwell's refinement. In 
 matters of the intellect she may be misled, but she cannot 
 mistake quivering ardour for design simulating love. If 
 it were impossible to see her again in i)rivate beibre she 
 left Exeter, then he must write to her. Half a year of 
 complete uncertainty, and of counterfeiting face to iace 
 with Bruno Chilvers, would overtax his resolution. 
 
 The evening went by he knew not how. Long after 
 nightfall he was returning from an aimless ramble by 
 way of the Old Tiverton Eoad. At least he would pass 
 the house, and soothe or iuflame his emotions by resting 
 for a moment thus near to Sidwell. 
 
 What ? He had believed himself incapable of erotic 
 madness ? And he pressed his forehead against the stones 
 of the wall to relieve his sick dizziness. 
 
 It was Sidwell or death. Into what a void of hideous 
 futility would his life be cast, if this desire proved vain, 
 and he were left to combat alone with the memory of his 
 dishonour ! With Sidwell the reproach could be out- 
 lived. She would understand him, pardon him — and there- 
 after a glorified existence, rivalling that of whosoever has 
 been most exultant anionff the sons of men ! 
 
rART THE FOURTH 
 
J 
 
 PATJT THE FOUETIT 
 
 I 
 
 Earwakeu^^s struggle with the editor-iu-cliicf of 'Hu' 
 Wcelhf Pmt and tlie journalist Kenyon came to its 
 natural close about a month after Godwin Teak's dis- 
 appearance. Only a vein of ol)stinacy in his character 
 had kept him so long in a position he knew to he 
 untenable. From the first his sympathy with ^Mr. 
 Kuncorn's politics had been doubtful, and experience of 
 tjie working of a Sunday newspaper, which appealed to^ 
 f f liP iVnnhly restive, could not encourage his adhesion _ 
 1 to this form of liadicalism. He anticipated dismissal 
 by retirement, and Kenyon, a man of coarsely vigorous 
 fibre, at once stepped into his place. 
 
 Now that he had leisure to review the conflict, Ear- 
 waker understood that circumstances had but hastened his 
 transition from a moderate ardour in the parliamentary 
 cause of the people, to a regretful neutrality regarding 
 all political movements. lUrth allied him with the prole- 
 tarian class, and his sentiment in favour of democracy 
 was unendangered by the disillusions which must c<mie 
 upon every intellectual man brouglit into close contact 
 with public aflairs. The course of an education essen- 
 tjally aristocratic (Greek and Latin can have no othei:^'^ 
 tendency so long as they are the privilege of the few) 
 had not affected his natural l)ent, nor was he the man to 
 be driven into refaction because of obstacles to his faith 
 
278 BORN m EXILE 
 
 inseparable from human weakness. He had learnt that 
 the emancipation of the poor and untaught must proceed 
 more slowly than he once hoped — that was all. Eestored 
 to generous calm, he could admit that such men as 
 Euncorn and Kenyon — the one with his polyarchic 
 commercialism, the other with his demagogic violence — 
 had possibly a useful part to play at the present stage 
 of things. He, however, could have no place in that 
 camp. Too indiscreetly he had hoisted his standard of 
 idealism, and by stubborn resistance of insuperable 
 forces he had merely brought forward the least satis- 
 factory elements of his own character. ' Hold on ! ' 
 cried Malkin. ' Fight the grovellers to the end ! ' But 
 Earwaker had begun to see himself in a light of ridicule. 
 There w^as just time to save his self-respect. 
 
 He was in no concern for his daily bread. With 
 narrower resources in the world of print, he might have 
 been compelled, like many another journalist, to swallow 
 his objections and write as Euncorn dictated; for the 
 humble folks at home could not starve to allow him 
 the luxury of conscientiousness, whatever he might 
 have been disposed to do on his own account. Happily, 
 his pen had a scope beyond politics, and by working 
 steadily for reviews, with which he was already con- 
 nected, he would be able to keep his finances in reason- 
 able order until, perchance, some hopeful appointment 
 offered itself. In a mood of much cheerfulness he 
 turned for ever from party uproar, and focussed his 
 mind upon those interests of humanity which so rarely 
 coincide with the aims of any league among men. 
 
 Half a year went by, and at length he granted himself 
 a short holiday, the first in a twelvemonth. It took the 
 form of a voyage to Marseilles, and thence of a leisurely 
 ramble up the Ehone. Before returning, he spent a day 
 or two in Paris, for the most part beneath cafe awnings, or 
 on garden seats — an indulgence of contented laziness. 
 
 On the day of his departure, he climbed the towers 
 of Notre Dame, and lingered for half-an-hour in pleasant 
 solitude among tlie stone monsters. His reverie was 
 broken bv nn Englisli voice, loud and animated : 
 
BORN IN EXILE 279 
 
 'Come and look at this old demon of a bird; lie has 
 always been a favourite of mine. — Sure you're not tired, 
 Miss Bella ? When you want to rest, Miss Lily, mind 
 you say so at once. What a day ! — Wliat a sky ! — When 
 1 was last up here I had my hat blown away. I watched 
 it as far as Montmartre. A fact ! Never knew such 
 a wind in my lile — unless it was that tornado I told 
 
 you about Hollo! ])y the powers, if that isn't Ear- 
 
 waker ! Confound you, old fellow ! How the deuce do 
 you do ? What a glorious meeting ! Hadn't the least 
 idea where you were ! — Let me have the pleasure of 
 introducing you to ]\Irs. Jacox — and to Miss Jacox — 
 and to ^liss Lily. They ail know you thoroughly well. 
 Now who would have thought of our meeting up here ! 
 Glorious ! ' 
 
 It was with some curiosity that Earwaker regarded 
 the companions of his friend Malkin — whose proximity 
 was the last thing he could have imagined, as only a 
 few weeks ago he liad heard of the restless fellow's 
 departing, on business unknown, for ])nston, U.S. ^Frs. 
 Jacox, the widow whose wrongs had made sucli an im- 
 pression on Malkin, announced herself, in a thin, mealy 
 face and rag - doll figure, as not less than forty, though 
 her irresponsible look made it evident that years profited 
 lier nothing, and suggested an explanation of the success 
 with which she had been victimised. She was stylishly 
 dressed, and had the air of enjoying an unusual treat. 
 Her children were of more promising type, though Ear- 
 waker would hardly have supposed them so old as he 
 knew them to be. Bella, just beyond her fourteenth 
 year, had an intelligent prettiness, but was excessively 
 shy ; in giving her hand to the stranger slie Huslied 
 over face and neck, and her bosom palpitated visibly. 
 Her sister, two years younger, was a mere cliild, rather 
 self-conscious, but of laughing temper. Their toilet 
 suited ill with that of their mother; its plainness an<l 
 negligence might have passed muster in London, l)ut 
 here, under tlie lucent sky, it seemed n wrong to tlieir 
 ])udding maidenliood. 
 
 'Mr'^. daoox i>^ on the point ot returning to England,' 
 
280 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Malkin explained. ' I happened to meet her, by chance 
 — I'm always meeting my friends by chance ; you, for 
 instance, Earwaker. She is so good as to allow me 
 to guide her and the young ladies to a few of the 
 sights of Paris.' 
 
 ' Mr. Malkin ! ' exclaimed the widow, with a 
 stress on the exclamation peculiar to herself — two notes 
 of deprecating falsetto. ' How can you say it is good 
 of me, when I'm sure there are no words for your 
 kindness to us all ! If only you knew our debt to 
 your friend, Mr. Earwaker! To our dying day we 
 must all remember it. It is entirely through Mr. 
 Malkin that we are able to leave that most disagree- 
 able Itouen — a place I shall never cease to think of 
 with horror. Mr. Earwaker ! you have only to 
 tliink of that wretched railway station, stuck between 
 two black tunnels ! Mr. Malkin ! ' 
 
 ' What are you doing ? ' Malkin inquired of the 
 journalist. ' How long shall you be here ? Why haven't 
 I heard from you ? ' 
 
 ' I go to London to-nio'ht.' 
 
 * And we to-morrow. On Friday I'll look you up. 
 Stay, can't you dine with me this evening ? Anywhere 
 you like. These ladies will be glad to be rid of me, 
 and to dine in peace at their hotel.' 
 
 * Mr. Malkin ! ' piped the widow, * you know how- 
 very far that is from the truth. But we shall be very 
 glad indeed to know that you are enjoying yourself 
 with Mr. Earwaker.' 
 
 The friends made an appointment to meet near the 
 iVIadeleine, and Earwaker hastened to escape the sound 
 of Mrs. Jacox's voice. 
 
 Punctual at the rendezvous, Malkin talked with his 
 wonted effusiveness as he led towards the Cah' 
 Anglais. 
 
 ' I've managed it, my boy ! The most complete success ! 
 I had to run over to Boston to get hold of a scoundrelly 
 relative of that poor woman. You should have seen 
 how I came over him — partly dignified sternness, partly 
 justifiable cajolery. The affair only wanted some one 
 
BOILN IN KXILK L>S1 
 
 to take it up in earnest. T have secured her ahout a 
 couple of hundred a year — witlilield on the most i)altry 
 and transparent pretences. They're going to live at 
 AV rot ham, in Kent, where Mrs. Jacox has friends. I 
 never thought myself so much of a man of business. ( )f 
 course old Haliburton, the lawyer, had a hand in it, 
 but without my personal energy it would have taken 
 liim a year longer. What do you tliink of tlic girls ? 
 I Tow do you like Bella ? ' 
 
 ' A pretty child.' 
 
 ' Child ? Well, yes, yes — immature of course ; but 
 I'm rather in the habit of thinking of her as a young 
 lady. In three years she'll be seventeen, you know. 
 Of course you couldn't form a judgment of her character. 
 She's quite remarkably mature for her age ; and, what 
 delights me most of all, a sturdy liadical ! She takes 
 the most intelligent interest in all political and social 
 movements, I assure you ! There's a great deal of 
 democratic fire in her.' 
 
 ' You're sure it isn't reflected from your own fervour ? ' 
 
 * Not a bit of it ! You should have seen her excite- 
 ment when we were at the Bastille Column yesterday. 
 She'll make a splendid woman, I assure you. Lily's 
 very interesting, too — profoundly interesting. But then 
 she is certainly very young, so I can't feel so sure 
 of her on the great questions. She hasn't her sister's 
 earnestness, I fancy.' 
 
 In the after-glow of dinner, Malkin became still more 
 confidential. 
 
 ' You remember what I said to you long since ? My 
 mind is made up — practically made up. I shall devote 
 myself to Bella's education, in the hope — you understand 
 me ? Impossible to have found a girl who suited better 
 with my aspirations. She has known the hardships 
 of poverty, poor thing, and that will kee^) her for ever 
 in sympathy with the downtrodden classes. She has 
 a splendid intelligence, and it shall l»o cultivated to the 
 utmost.' 
 
 ' One word,' said Earwaker, soberly. * We liave heard 
 before of men who waited for girls to grow up. Be 
 
2s'62 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 cautious, my dear fellow, both on your own account 
 and hers.' 
 
 ' My dear Earwaker ! Don't imagine for a moment 
 that I take it for granted she will get to be fond of 
 me. My attitude is one of the most absolute discretion. 
 You must have observed how I behaved to them all 
 — scrupulous courtesy, I trust ; no more familiarity than 
 any friend might be permitted. I should never dream of 
 addressing the girls without ceremonious prefix — never ! 
 I talk of Bella's education, but be assured that I regard 
 my own as a matter of quite as much importance. I 
 mean, that I shall strive incessantly to make myself 
 worthy of her. No laxity ! For these next three years 
 I shall live as becomes a man who has his eyes constantly 
 on a high ideal — the pure and beautiful girl whom he 
 humbly hopes to win for a wife.' 
 
 The listener was moved. He raised his wine-^lass 
 to conceal the smile whicli mi^ht have been misunder- 
 stood. In his heart he felt more admiration than had 
 yet mingled with his liking for this strange fellow. 
 
 ' And jVIrs. Jacox herself,' pursued Malkin ; ' she has 
 her weaknesses, as we all have. I don't think her a 
 very strong-minded woman, to tell the truth. But 
 there's a great deal of goodness in her. If there's one 
 thing I desire in people, it is the virtue of gratitude, 
 and Mrs. Jacox is grateful almost to excess for the 
 paltry exertions I have made on her behalf. You know 
 that kind of thing costs me nothing ; you know I like 
 running about and getting things done. But the poor 
 woman imagines that I have laid her under an eternal 
 oblio-ation. Of course I shall show her in time that it 
 was nothing at all ; that she might have done just as 
 much for herself if she had known how to go about 
 it.' 
 
 Earwaker was nnising, a wrinkle of uneasiness at the 
 corner of his eye. 
 
 ' She isn't the kind of woman, you know, one 
 can regard as a mother. But we are the best pos- 
 sible friends. She maif, perhaps, think of me as a 
 ])ossible son-in-law. Boor thing; I hope she does, 
 
BORN IN KXILH 2 S3 
 
 Perhaps it will help to put her mind at rest iihuiit the 
 girls.' 
 
 'Then shall you often be down at Wrothani ?' incpiired 
 the journalist, abstractedly. 
 
 ' Oh, not often — that is to say, only once a month 
 or so, just to look in. I wanted to ask you : do you 
 think I might venture to begin a correspondence with 
 Bella?' 
 
 ' M — m — m ! I can't say.' 
 
 ' It would be so valuable, you know. I could suggest 
 books for her reading ; I could help her in her study 
 of politics, and so on.' 
 
 ' Well, think about it. But be cautious, I beg of you. 
 Now I must be off. Only just time enough to get my 
 traps to the station.' 
 
 • I'll come with you. Clare du Nord ? Oh, plenty 
 of time, plenty of time ! Nothing so abominable as 
 waiting for trains. I make a point of never getting to 
 the station more than three minutes before time. 
 Astonishing what one can do in tliree minutes ! I 
 want to tell you about an adventure I had in Boston. 
 Met a fellow so devilish like Peak that I coiild/it believe 
 it wasn't he himself. I spoke to him, but he swore 
 that he knew not the man. Never saw such a 
 likeness ! ' 
 
 ' Curious. It may have been Peak.' 
 
 ' By all that's suspicious, I can't help thinking tlie 
 same ! He had an English accent, too.' 
 
 ' Queer business, this of Peak's. I hope I may live 
 to hear the end of the story.' 
 
 They left tlie restaurant, and in a few liouvs Kaiwaker 
 was again on English soil. 
 
 At Staple Inn a pile of letters awaited him, among 
 tliem a note from Cliristian Moxey, asking for an appoint- 
 ment as soon as possible after tlie journalist's return. 
 Rirwaker at once sent an invitation, and on the next 
 evening ^Moxey came. An intimacy had grown up 
 between the two, since tlie mysterious retreat of their 
 common friend. Christian was at iirst lost without the 
 companionship of (Jodwiii IVak : he forsook ln> studies, 
 
284 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 and fell into a state of complete idleness which naturally 
 fostered his tendency to find solace in the decanter. 
 With Earwaker, he could not talk as unreservedly as with 
 Peak, but on the other hand there was a tonic influence 
 in the journalist's personality which he recognised as 
 l)eneficial. Earwaker was steadily making his way in 
 the world, lived a life of dignified independence. What 
 was the secret of these strong, calm natures ? Miglit it 
 not be learnt by studious inspection ? 
 
 ' How well you look ! ' Christian exclaimed, on entering. 
 ' We enjoyed your Provencal letter enormously. That's a 
 raml)le I have always meant to do. Next year perhaps.' 
 
 ' Why not this ? Haven't you got into a dangerous 
 liabit of postponement ? ' 
 
 ' Yes, I'm afraid I have. But, by-the-bye, no news of 
 Peak, I suppose ? ' 
 
 Earwaker related the story he had heard from ^lalkin, 
 adding : 
 
 ' You must remember that they met only once in 
 London ; Malkin might very well mistake anotlier man 
 for Peak.' 
 
 ' Yes,' replied the other musingly. * Yet it isn't im- 
 possible that Peak has gone over there. If so, what on 
 earth can he be up to ? Why should he hide from his 
 friends ? ' 
 
 * Chcrchez la femme,' said the journalist, with a smile. 
 ' I can devise no other explanation.' 
 
 * But I can't see that it would be an explanation at all. 
 Grant even — something unavowable, you know — are we 
 Puritans ? How could it harm him, at all events, to let 
 us know his whereabouts ? No such mystery ever came 
 into my experience. It is too bad of Peak ; it's con- 
 foundedly unkind.' 
 
 'Suppose he has found it necessary to assume a 
 character wholly fictitious — or, let us say, quite in- 
 consistent with his life and opinions as known to 
 us ? ' 
 
 This was a fruitful suggestion, long in Earwaker's mind, 
 but not hitherto communicated. Christian did not at 
 once grasp its significance. 
 
noRS IN EXILK 285 
 
 'How'cuuM that be necessary/ I'l-ak is no swindler. 
 Yon don't imply that he is engaged in some fraud T 
 
 ' Xot in the ordinary sense, decidedly. Jlut pii'lurc 
 some girl or woman of conventional oi)inions and 
 surroundings. What if he resolved to win such a wifi% 
 at the expense of disguising his true self .<'' 
 
 'But what an extraordinary idea!' cried Moxey. 
 ' Why Peak is all but a woman-hater ! ' 
 
 The journalist uttered croakin^' laughter. 
 
 'Havel totally misunderstood him?' asked Christian, 
 confused and abashed. 
 
 * I think it not impossible.' 
 
 'You amaze me! — But no, no: you arc wrong. Ear- 
 M'aker. Wrong in your suggestion, I mean. Peak 
 could never sink to that. He is too uncompromis- 
 ing' 
 
 ' Well, it will be explained some day, 1 supi)Ose.' 
 
 And with a shrug of impatience, the journalist turned 
 to another sul)ject. He^ too, regretted his old friend's 
 disappearance, and in a measure resented it. Godwin 
 Peak was not a man to slip out of one's life and 
 leave no appreciable vacancy. Neither of these men 
 admired him, in the true sense of the word, yet 
 had his voice sounded at the door both would have 
 sprung up with eager welcome. He was a force — 
 and how many such beings does one encounter in a 
 lifetime ? 
 
II 
 
 In different ways, Christian and Marcella Moxey had 
 both been lonely since their childhood. As a schoolgirl, 
 Marcella seemed to her companions conceited and 
 repellent ; only as the result of reflection in after years 
 did Sylvia Moorhouse express so favourable an opinion of 
 her. In all things she affected singularity ; especially it 
 was her delight to utter democratic and revolutionary 
 sentiments among hearers wlio, belonging to a rigidly 
 conservative order, held such opinions impious. Arrived 
 at womanhood, she affected scorn of tlie beliefs and haljits 
 cherished l)y her own sex, and shrank from association 
 with the other. Godwin Peak was the first man with 
 whom she conversed in the tone of friendship, and it took 
 a year or more before that point was reached. As her 
 intimacy with him established itself, she was observed to 
 undergo changes which seemed very significant in tlie 
 eyes of her few acquaintances. Disregard of costume 
 had been one of her characteristics, but now she moved 
 gradually towards the opposite extreme, till her dresses 
 were occasionally more noticeable for richness tlian for 
 i^ood taste. 
 
 Christian, for kindred reasons, was equally debarred 
 from the pleasures and profits of society. At school, his 
 teachers considered him clever, his fellows for the most 
 part looked down upon him as a sentimental weakling. 
 The death of his parents, when he was still a lad, left 
 him to the indifferent care of a guardian nothing akin 
 to him. He began life in an uncongenial position, and 
 had not courage to oppose the drift of circumstances. 
 
BORN IN KXILE 1^87 
 
 The romantic attachment wliich absorbed his best years 
 naturally had a debilitating efl'ect, for love was never yet 
 a supporter of tlie strenuous virtues, ^jiye'When it has 
 survived fruition and been blessed 1>y reason. In most 
 men a fit of amorous mooning works its own cure ; 
 energetic rebound is soon inevitable. But Christian was 
 so constituted that a decade of years could not exhause 
 his capacity for sentimental languishment. He made it a 
 point of honour to seek no female companionshi}) which 
 could imperil his faith. Unfortunately, this avoidance 
 of the society which would soon have made him a hajipy 
 renegade, was but too easy. Marcella and he practically 
 encouraged each other in a life of isolation, though to 
 both of them such an existence was anything but congenial. 
 Their diliiculties were of the same nature as those which 
 had always beset Godwin Peak : they had no relatives 
 with whom they cared to associate, and none of the 
 domestic friends who, ni the progress of time, establish 
 and extend a sphere of genuine intimacy. 
 
 Most people who are capable of independent thought 
 rapidly outgrow the stage when compromise is al)]iorred ; 
 they accept, at first reluctantly, but ere long with satis 
 faction, that code of polite intercourse which, as Steele 
 says, is ' an expedient to make fools and wise men ecpial.' 
 It was Marcella's ill-fate that she could neither learn 
 tolerance nor persuade herself to atiect it. The emanci- 
 pated woman has fewer opportunities of relieving her 
 mind than a man in corresponding pcjsition ; if her 
 temper be aggressive she must renounce general society, 
 and, if not content to live alone, ally herself with some 
 group of declared militants. By correspondence, or 
 otherwise, Marcella might have brought herself into 
 connection with women of a sympathetic type, but this 
 eflbrt she had never made. And chietly l)e('ause of her 
 ac([uaintance with Godwin Beak. In him she concen- 
 trated her interests ; he was the man to wliom her heart 
 went forth with every kind of fervour. So long as there 
 remained a hope of moving him to recii)rocal feeling she 
 did not care to go in search of female companions. Year 
 after year she sustained herself in solitude by this faint 
 
288 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 hope. She had lost sight of the two or three school- 
 fellows who, though not so zealous as herself, would have 
 welcomed her as an interesting acquaintance ; and the 
 only woman who assiduously sought her was Mrs. Morton, 
 the wife of one of Christian's friends, a good-natured but 
 silly person bent on making known that she followed the 
 ' higher law.' 
 
 Godwin's disappearance sank her in profound melan- 
 choly. Through the black weeks of January and February 
 she scarcely left the house, and on the plea of illness 
 refused to see any one but her brother. Between 
 Christian and her there was no avowed confidence, but 
 each knew the other's secret ; their mutual affection never 
 spoke itself in words, yet none the less it was indis- 
 pensable to their lives. Deprived of his sister's company, 
 Christian must have yielded to the vice w^hich had already 
 too strong a hold upon him, and have become a maudlin 
 drunkard. Left to herself, Marcella had but slender 
 support against a grim temptation already beckoning her 
 in nights of sleeplessness. Of the two, her nature was 
 the more tragic. Circumstances aiding. Christian might 
 still forget his melancholy, abandon the whisky bottle, 
 and pass a lifetime of amiable uxoriousness, varied with 
 scientific enthusiasm. But for Marcella, frustrate in the 
 desire with which every impulse of her being had identi- 
 fied itself, what future could be imagined ? 
 
 When a day or two of sunlight (the rays through a 
 semi-opaque atmosphere wliich London has to accept 
 with gratitude) had announced that the seven-months' 
 winter was overcome, and when the newspapers began to 
 speak, after their fashion, of pictures awaiting scrutiny. 
 Christian exerted himself to rouse his sister from her 
 growing indolence. He succeeded in taking her to the 
 Academy. Among the works of sculpture, set apart for 
 the indifference of the public, was a female head, catalogued 
 as ' A Nihilist ' — in itself interesting, and specially so to 
 Marcella, because it was executed by an artist whose 
 name she reco^inised as that of a schoolmate, Asjatha Wal- 
 worth. She spoke of the circumstance to Christian, and 
 added : 
 
KOKN IX HXILK 280 
 
 ' 1 should like to have that. Let ii.s ^o ami see tlie 
 price.' 
 
 The work was already sold. Christian, happy that his 
 sister could be aroused to this interest, suggested that a 
 cast might be obtainable. 
 
 ' Write to ^liss Walworth,' he urged. ' Bring yourself 
 to her recollection. — 1 should think she must i)e the 
 right kind of woman.' 
 
 Though at the time she shook her head, Marcella was 
 presently temi)ted to address a letter to the artist, who 
 responded with friendly invitation. In this way a new 
 house was opened to her ; but, simultaneously, one more 
 illusion was destroyed. Knowing little of life, and much 
 of literature, she pictured Miss Walworth as inhabiting 
 a delightful liohemian world, where the rules of con- 
 ventionalism had no existence, and everything was 
 judged by the brain -standard. Modern French bio- 
 graphies supplied all her ideas of studio society. She 
 prepared herself for the first visit with a joyous tremor, 
 wondering whether she would be deemed worth v to 
 associate with the men and women who lived for art. 
 The reality was a shock. In a large house at Chiswick 
 she found a gathering of most respectable English people, 
 chatting over the regulation tea-cup ; not one of them 
 inclined to disregard the dictates of Mrs. Grundv in 
 dress, demeanour, or dialogue. Agatha Walworth lived 
 with her parents and her sisters like any other irreproach- 
 able young woman. She had a nice little studio, and 
 worked at modelling with a good deal of aptitude ; but 
 of Bohemia she knew nothing whatever, save l)y hear- 
 say. Her 'Nihilist' was no indication of a rel)ellious 
 spirit; some friend had happened to suggest that a 
 certain female model, a Russian, would do very well foi- 
 such a character, and the hint was tolerably well carried 
 out — nothing more. Marcella returned in a mood of 
 contemptuous disappointment. The cast she had desired 
 to have was shortly sent to her as a gift, but she could 
 take no pleasure in it. 
 
 Still, she saw more of the AVal wort lis and found them 
 not illiberal. Agatha was intelligent, and fairly well 
 
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290 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 read in modern authors ; no need to conceal one's opinions 
 in conversation with her. Marcella happened to be 
 spending the evening with these acquaintances whilst 
 her brother was having his chat at Staple Inn ; on her 
 return, she mentioned to Christian that she had been 
 invited to visit the Walworth s in Devonshire a few weeks 
 hence. 
 
 ' Go, by all means,' urged her brother. 
 
 ' I don't think I shall. They are too respectable.' 
 
 * Nonsense ! They seem very open-minded ; you really 
 can't expect absolute unconventionality. Is it desiralde ? 
 Keally is it, now ? — Suppose I were to marry some day, 
 Marcella ; do you think my household would be uncon- 
 ventional ? ' 
 
 His voice shook a little, and he kept his eyes averted. 
 Marcella, to whom her brother's romance was anything 
 but an agreeable su1)ject, — the slight acquaintance she 
 had with the modern Laura did not encourage her to 
 hope for that lady's widowhood, — gave no heed to tlie 
 question. 
 
 ' They are going to have a house at Budleigli Salterton ; 
 do you know of the place ? Somewhere near the mouth 
 of the Exe. Miss Walworth tells me that one of our 
 old school friends is living there — Sylvia Moorhouse. 
 Did I ever mention Sylvia ? She had gleams of sense, 
 I remember ; but no douljt society has drilled all that 
 out of her.' 
 
 Christian sighed. 
 
 ' Why ? ' he urged. ' Society is getting more tolerant 
 than you are disposed to think. Very few well-educated 
 people would nowadays object to an acquaintance on 
 speculative grounds. Some one — who was it ? — was 
 telling me of a recent marriage between the daughter of 
 some well-known Church people and a man who made 
 no secret of his agnosticism ; the parents acquiescing 
 cheerfully. The one thing still insisted on is decency of 
 behaviour.' 
 
 Marcella's eyes Hashed. 
 
 ' How can you say tliat ? You know quite well that 
 most kinds of immorality are far more readily forgiven 
 
BORN IN KXILK 291 
 
 by people of tlie world than sincere heterodoxy on moral 
 subjects.' 
 
 ' Well, well, I meant decency from their point of view. 
 And there really must be such restrictions, you know. 
 How very few people are capable of what you call sincere 
 heterodoxy, in morals or religion ! Your position is 
 iinphilosophical ; indeed it is. Take the world as you 
 find it, and make friends with kind, worthy people. You 
 have suii'ered from a needless isolation. Do accept this 
 opportunity of adding to your acquaintances ! — Do, 
 Marcella ! I shall take it as a great kindness, dear girl.' 
 
 His sister let her head lie back against the chair, her 
 face averted. A stranger seated in Christian's ])lace, 
 regarding Marcella whilst her features were thus hidden, 
 would liave thought it prol)able that she was a woman 
 of no little beauty. Her masses of tawny hair, her 
 arms and hands, the pose and outline of her figure, 
 certainly suggested a countenance of corresponding 
 charm, and the ornate richness of her attire aided such 
 an impression. This tliought came to Christian as he 
 gazed at her ; his eyes, always so gentle, softened to 
 a tender compassion. As the silence continued, he 
 looked uneasily about him ; when at length he spoke, 
 it was as though a matter of trifling moment had occurred 
 to him. 
 
 'By -the -bye, I am told that Malkin (Earwaker's 
 friend, you know) saw Peak not long ago — in America.' 
 
 Marcella did not change her position, but at the sound 
 of l*eak's name she stirred, as if with an intention, at 
 once checked, of bending eagerly forward. 
 
 * In America ? ' she asked, incredulously. 
 
 'At Boston. He met him in the street — or thinks he 
 did. There's a doubt. When Malkin spoke to the man, 
 he declared that he was not l*eak at all — said there was 
 a mistake.' 
 
 Marcella moved so as to show her face ; endeavouring 
 to express an unemotional interest, she looked coldly 
 scornful. 
 
 'That ridiculous man can't be dei)en(lcd u})(»n,' she 
 said. 
 
292 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 There had been one meeting ))etween Marcella and 
 Mr. Malkin, with the result that eacli thoroughly dis- 
 liked the other — an antipathy which could have been 
 foreseen. 
 
 ' Well, there's no saying,' replied Christian. ' But 
 of one thing I feel pretty sure : we have seen the last 
 of Peak. He'll never come back to us.' 
 
 * Why not ? ' 
 
 * I can only say that I feel convinced he has broken 
 finally with all his old friends. — We must think no more 
 of him, Marcella.' 
 
 His sister rose slowly, affected to glance at a book, 
 and in a few moments said good - night. For another 
 hour Christian sat by himself in gloomy thought. 
 
 At breakfast next morning Marcella announced that 
 slie would be from home the whole day; she might 
 return in time for dinner, but it was uncertain. Her 
 Ijrother asked no questions, but said that he would 
 lunch in town. About ten o'clock a cab was summoned, 
 and Marcella, without leave-taking, drove away. 
 
 Christian lingered as long as possible over the morning 
 paper, unable to determine how he sliould waste tlie 
 weary liours that lay before him. Tliere was no reason 
 for his remainino' in London throuoli this brief season 
 of summer giov/. Means and leisure were his, he could 
 go whither he would. But the effort of decision and 
 departure seemed too much for him. Worst of all, this 
 lassitude (not for the first time) was affecting his im- 
 agination ; he thought with a dull discontent of the ideal 
 love to which he had bound himself. Could he but 
 escape from it, and begin a new life ! But he was the 
 slave of his airy obligation ; for very shame's sake his 
 ten years' consistency must l)e that of a lifetime. 
 
 There was but one place away from London to which 
 he felt himself drawn, and tliat v/as the one place he 
 miolit not visit. This mornino^'s sunshine carried him 
 back to that day when he had lain in the meadow near 
 Tvvyl)ridge and talked with Godwin Peak. How dis- 
 tinctly he remembered his mood ! ' Be practical — don't 
 be led astray after ideals — concentrate yourself;' — yes, 
 
BORN IN EXILE 1^93 
 
 it was he who had given that advice tu Teak : and had 
 
 he but recked liis own rede ! Poor little Janet ! was 
 
 she married ? If so, her liusl)and must be a happy 
 man. 
 
 Why should he not <^o down to Twyltridge { His 
 uncle, undoul)tedly still living, must l»y this time have 
 Ibrgotten the old resentment, perhaps would be glad to 
 see him. In any case he might stroll about the town 
 and somehow obtain news of the Moxey family. 
 
 With vague half-purpose he left the house and walked 
 westward. The stream of traffic in P^dgware lioad 
 brought him to a pause ; he stood for hve nunutes in 
 miserable indecision, all but resolving to go on as far 
 as Euston and look for the next northward train. But 
 the vice in his will prevailed ; automaton-like he turned 
 in another direction, and presently came out into Sussex 
 Square. Here was the house to whicli his thoughts 
 had perpetually gone forth ever since that day when 
 Constance gave her liand to a thriving City man, and 
 became ^Irs. Palmer. At present, he knew, it was 
 inhabited only by domestics : Mr. Palmer, recovering 
 from illness that threatened to l)e fatal, had gone to 
 Bournemouth, where Constance of course tended him. 
 But he would walk past and look up at the windows. 
 
 .Vll the blinds were down — naturally. Thrice he went 
 by and retraced his steps. Then, still automaton-like, 
 he a})proached the door, rang the bell. The appearance 
 of the servant choked liis voice for an instant, but he 
 succeeded in shaping an in(|uii'y after ^Ir. Palmer's 
 health. 
 
 'I'm sorry to say, sir,' was the rei)ly, 'that ]\lr. Palmer 
 died last night. We received the news only an hour or 
 two ago.' 
 
 Christian tottered on liis feet and turned so pale that 
 the servant regarded him with anxiety. For a minute or 
 two he stared vacantly into the gloomy hall ; then, with- 
 out a word, he turned abru])tly and walked away. 
 
 Unconscious of the intervening distance, he found 
 himself at home, in his library. The parlour-maid was 
 asking him whether lie would have luncheon. Scarcely 
 
294 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 understanding the question, he muttered a refusal and 
 sat down. 
 
 So, it had come at last. Constance was a widow. In 
 a year or so she might think of marrying again. 
 
 He remained in the library for three or four hours. 
 At first incapable of rejoicing, then ashamed to do so, he 
 at length suffered from such a throbbing of the heart 
 that apprehension of illness recalled him to a normal state 
 of mind. The favourite decanter was within reacli, and 
 it gave him the wonted support. Then at length did 
 heart and brain c^low witli exultinof fervour. 
 
 Poor Constance ! Noble woman ! Most patient of 
 martyrs ! The hour of her redemption had struck. The 
 fetters had fallen from her tender, suffering body. Of 
 Jmii she could not yet think. He did not wish it. Her 
 womanhood must pay its debt to nature before slie 
 could gladden in the prospect of a new life. Months 
 nmst go by before he could approach her, or even 
 remind her of his existence. But at last his rew^ard was 
 sure. 
 
 And he had thought of Twybridge, of his cousin Janet ! 
 unworthy lapse ! 
 
 He shed tears of tenderness. Dear, noble Constance ! 
 It was now nearly twelve years since he first looked upon 
 her face. In those days he mingled freely with all the 
 society within his reacli. It was not very select, and 
 Constance Markham shone to him like a divinitv amomr 
 
 o 
 
 creatures of indifferent clay. They said she was 
 coquettish, that she played at the game of love with every 
 presentable young man — envious calumny ! No, she was 
 single-hearted, inexperienced, a lovely and joyous girl of 
 not yet twenty. It is so difficult for such a girl to under- 
 stand her own emotions. Her parents persuaded her into 
 wedding Palmer. That was all gone into the past, and 
 now his concern — their concern — was only with the 
 blessed future. 
 
 At three o'clock he began to feel a healthy appetite. 
 He sent for a cab and drove towards the region of 
 restaurants. 
 
 Had he yielded to the impulse which this morning 
 
BORN IN EXILK 295 
 
 directed him to T\vyl)ridne, lie would have airived in tlial 
 town not very long after iiis sister. 
 
 For that was the aim of Marcella's Journey. On 
 reaching the station, she dropped a light veil over her face 
 and set forth on foot to discover the ahode of Mrs. Teak. 
 Xo iidiahitant of Twybridge save her uncle and his 
 daughters could possibly recognise her, but she shrank 
 from walking through the streets with exposed counte- 
 nance. Whether she would succeed in her quest was 
 uncertain. Godwin Peak's mother still dwelt here, she 
 knew, for less than a year ago she had asked the 
 question of Godwin himself; but a woman in humble 
 circumstances might not have a house of her own, and 
 her name was probably unknown save to a few 
 Iriends. 
 
 However, the first natural step was to inquire for a 
 directory. A stationer supplied her with one, informing 
 her, with pride, that he himself was the author of it — 
 that this was only the second year of its issue, and that 
 its success was ' very encouraging.' lietiring to a quiet 
 street, Marcella examined her purchase, and came upon 
 'Peak, Oliver; seedsman' — the sole entry of the name. 
 This was probably a relative of Godwin's. AVithout 
 difficulty she found Mr. Peak's shop ; behind the counter 
 stood (3liver himself, rul>l)ing his hands. AVas tliere 
 indeed a family likeness between this fresh-looking young 
 shopkeeper and the stern, ambitious, intellectual man 
 whose lineaments were ever before her mind ? Though 
 with fear and repulsion, ]\Iarcella was constrained to 
 recognise something in the commoni)lace visage. With 
 an uncertain voice, she made known her business. 
 
 '1 wish to find Mrs. Peak — a widow — an elderly 
 lady' 
 
 ' Oh yes, madam ! My UKjther, no doubt. She lives 
 with her sister, i\Iiss Cadman — the milliner's shop in the 
 first street to the left. Let me ])oint it out.' 
 
 With a sinking of the heart, Marcella murmured thanks 
 and walked away. She found the milliner's shop — and 
 went past it. 
 
 Why should discoveries such as these be so distasteful 
 
29G BORN IN EXILE 
 
 to her ? Her own origin was not so exalted tliat she 
 must needs look down on trades-folk. Still, for the 
 moment she all l)ut abandoned her undertaking. Was 
 Godwin Peak in trutli of so much account to her ? 
 Would not the shock of meeting liis mother be final ? 
 Having come thus far, she must go tlirough with it. If 
 the experience cured her of a hopeless passion, why, what 
 more desirable ? 
 
 She entered the shop. A young female assistant came 
 forward wdth respectful smile, and waited her commands. 
 
 * 1 wish, if you please, to see Mrs. Peak.' 
 
 ' Oh yes, madam ! AVill you have the goodness to w\alk 
 tliis way?' 
 
 Too late Marcella remembered that she ought to have 
 o-one to the liouse-entrance. The girl led her out of the 
 shop into a dark passage, and thence into a sitting-room 
 which smelt of lavender. Here she waited for a few 
 moments ; then the door opened softly, and Mrs. Peak 
 presented lierself. 
 
 There was no shock. The widow had the air of a 
 gentlewoman — walked with elderly grace — and spoke 
 with propriety. She resembled CJodwin, and this time it 
 was not painful to remark the likeness. 
 
 ' I have come to Twybridge,' began Marcella, gently 
 and respectfully, ' that is to say, I have stopped in passing 
 — to ask for the address of Mr. Godwin Peak. A letter 
 has failed to reach him.' 
 
 it was her wish to manage without either disclosing 
 tlie truth about herself or elaborating fictions, but after 
 tlie first words she felt it impossible not to olfer some 
 explanation. Mrs. Peak showed a slight surprise. With 
 the courage of cowardice, Marcella continued more rapidly : 
 
 ' My name is Mrs. Ward. My husband used to knov; 
 Mr. Peak, in London, a few years ago, but we have been 
 abroad, and unfortunately have lost sight of liim. We 
 remembered that Mr. Peak's relatives lived at Twybridge, 
 and, as we wish very much to renew the old acquaint- 
 ance, I took the opportunity — passing by rail. I made 
 iufjuiries in the town, and was directed to you — 1 hope 
 riglitly ' 
 
BORN IN KXILK 297 
 
 The widow's face changed to satislaction. Evidently 
 her .straightforward mind accepted the story as perfectly 
 credible. Marcella, with bitterness, knew herself far 
 from comely enough to suggest perils. She looked old 
 enough for tlie part slie was ])laying, and the glove upon 
 her hand might conceal a wedding-ring. 
 
 ' Yes, you were directed rightly,' Mrs. Teak made 
 quiet answer. * I shall be very glad to give you my 
 son's address. He left London about last Christmas, and 
 went to live at Exeter.' 
 
 'Exeter ? We thought he mij^ht be out of England.' 
 
 ' Xo ; he has lived all the time at Exeter. The address 
 is Longbrook Street ' — she added the number. ' He is 
 studying, and finds that part of the country pleasant. I 
 am hoping to see him here before very long.' 
 
 Marcella did not extend the conversation. She spoke 
 of having to catch a train, and veiled as well as she could 
 beneath ordinary courtesies her perplexity at the informa- 
 tion she had received. 
 
 When she again reached the house at Notting Hill, 
 Christian was absent. He came home about nine in the 
 evening. It was impossible not to remark his strange 
 mood of repressed excitement; but Marcella did not 
 (piestion him, and Christian had resolved to conceal the 
 day's event until he could speak of it witliout agitation. 
 Before they parted for the night, Marcella said 
 carelessly : 
 
 ' I have decided to go down to Budleigh Salterton 
 when the time comes,' 
 
 * That's right ! ' exclaimed her brother, with satisfaction. 
 ' You couldn't do better— couldn't possibly. It will be a 
 very good thing for you in several ways.' 
 
 And each withdrew to brood over a })erturbing secret. 
 
Ill 
 
 Three or four years ago, wheii already he had conceived 
 the idea of trying his fortune in some provincial town, 
 l^eak persuaded himself tliat it would not be difficult to 
 make acquaintances among educated people, even though 
 he had no credentials to offer. He indulged his fancy 
 and pictured all manner of pleasant accidents which 
 surely, sooner or later, must bring him into contact 
 with families of the better sort. One does hear of such 
 occurrences, no doubt. In every town there is some one 
 or other whom a stranger may approach : a medical man 
 — a local antiquary — a librarian — a philanthropist ; and 
 with moderate advantages of mind and address, such 
 casual connections may at times be the preface to 
 intimacy, with all resulting benefits. But experience of 
 Exeter had taught him how slight would have been his 
 chance of getting on friendly terms with any mortal if 
 he had depended solely on his personal qualities. After 
 a nine months' residence, and with the friendship of such 
 ])eople as the Warricombes, he was daily oppressed by 
 his isolation amid this community of English folk. He 
 had done his utmost to adopt the tone of average polished 
 life. He had sat at the tables of worthy men, and 
 conversed freely with their sons and daughters ; he 
 exchanged greetings in the highways : but this availed 
 him nothing. Now, as on the day of his arrival, he was 
 au alien — a lodger. What else had he ever been, since 
 boyliood ? A lodger in Kingsmill, a lodger in London, 
 a lodger in Exeter. Nay, even as a boy he could scarcely 
 have been said to * live at home,' for from the dawn of 
 
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BORN IN EXILK 290 
 
 conscious intelligence he felt liiniself out of place among 
 familiar things and people, at issue with prevalent 
 opinions. AVas he never to win a right of citizenship, 
 never to have a recognised place among men associated in 
 the duties and pleasures of lile / 
 
 Sunday was always a d.iy of weariness and despond- 
 ency, and at present he sullered from the excitement of 
 his conversation Avith Sidwell, followed as it had been 
 by a night of fever. Extravagant hope had given place 
 to a depression which could see nothing beyond the 
 immediate gloom. Until mid-day he lay in bed. After 
 dinner, finding the solitude of his little room intolerable, 
 he vrent out to walk in the streets. 
 
 Not far from his door some chihlren had gathered in a 
 quiet corner, and were playing at a game on the pavement 
 with pieces of chalk. As he drew near, a policeman, 
 observing the little group, called out to them in a 
 stern voice : 
 
 ' Now then ! what are you doing tliere ? Don't you 
 know vjhat day it is ? ' 
 
 The youngsters fled, conscious of shameful delinquency. 
 
 There it was ! There spoke tlie civic voice, the social 
 rule, the public sentiment! Godwin felt that the police- 
 man had rebuked him, and in doing so had severely 
 indicated the cause of that isolation which he was con- 
 demned to suffer. Yes, all his life he had desired to 
 play games on Sunday ; he had never been able to under- 
 stand why games on Sunday should be forbidden. And 
 the angry laugh which escaped him as he went by the 
 guardian of public morals, declared the impossibility of 
 his ever beiu" at one with communities which made this 
 
 o 
 
 point the prime test of worthiness. 
 
 He walked on at a great speed, chafing, talking to 
 himself. His way took him through Heavitree (when 
 Hooker saw^ the light here, how easy to believe that the 
 Anglican Church was the noblest outcome of human 
 progress !) and on and on, until by a lane with red banks 
 of sandstone, thick witli ferns, shadowed with noble 
 boughs, he came to a hamlet which had always been one 
 of Ids favourite resorts, so peacefully it lay amid the 
 
300 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ex(|uisite rural landscape. The cottages were all closed 
 and silent ; hark for the reason ! From the old churcli 
 sounded an organ prelude, then the voice of the congrega- 
 tion, joining in one of the familiar hymns. 
 
 A signiticant feature of Godwin's idiosyncrasy. Not- 
 withstanding his profound hatred and contempt of 
 multitudes, he could never hear the union of many voices 
 in sonfij but his l)reast heaved and a chokim^ warmth 
 rose in his throat. Even where prejudice wrought most 
 strongly with him, it had to give way before this rush of 
 emotion ; he often hurried out of earshot when a group 
 of Salvationists were singing, lest the involuntary 
 sympathy of his senses -should agitate and enrage him. 
 At present he had no wish to draw away. He entered 
 the churcliyard, and found the leafy nook with a tomb- 
 stone where he had often rested. And as he listened to 
 the rude chanting of verse after verse, tears fell upon 
 his cheeks. 
 
 This sensibility was quite distinct from religious feeling. 
 If the note of devotion sounding in that simple strain 
 had any effect upon him at all, it merely intensified his 
 consciousness of pathos as he thought of the many 
 generations that had worshipped here, living and dying 
 in a faith which was at best a helpful delusion. He 
 could apprecia:Le the beautiful aspects of Christianity as 
 a legend, its nobility as a humanising })Ower, its rich 
 results in literature, its grandeur in historic retrospect. 
 But at no moment in his life had he felt it as a spiritual 
 influence. So far from tending in that direction, as he sat 
 and brooded here in the churchyard, he owed to his fit of 
 tearfulness a courage which determined him to abandon 
 all religious pretences, and henceforth trust only to what 
 was sincere in him — his human passion. The future he 
 had sketched to Sidwell was impossible ; the rural 
 pastorate, the life of moral endeavour which in his excite- 
 ment had seemed so nearly a genuine aspiration that it 
 might perchance become reality — dreams, dreams ! He 
 must woo as a man, and trust to fortune for liis escape 
 from a false position. Sidwell should hear nothing more 
 I if clerical projects. He was by tliis time convinced tliat 
 
lioKX IN KXII.K :50l 
 
 she held far less tenaciously than lie had supposed to the 
 special doctrines of the Church ; and, if he had not 
 deceived himself in interju-eting her l)ehaviour, a mutual 
 avowal of love would involve ready consent on her part 
 10 his abandoning a career which — as he would represent 
 it — had been adopted under a mistaken impulse. He 
 returned to the point which he liad reached when he 
 set forth with the intention of l»idding good-bye to the 
 Warricombes — except that in flinging away hypocrisy he 
 no longer needed to trample his desires. The change 
 need not be declared till after a lapse of time. For tlie 
 ])resent his task was to obtain one more i)rivate inter- 
 Niew with Sidwell ere she went to London, or, if that 
 could not be, somehow to address her in unmistakable 
 lan2,uaQ,e. 
 
 The fumes were dispelled from his ])rain, and as he 
 walked homeward he plotted and planned with hopeful 
 energy. Sylvia Moorhouse came into his mind ; could he 
 not in some way make use of her f* He had never yet 
 been to see her at Budleigh Salterton. That he would do 
 forthwith, and percliance the visit might supply him with 
 suggestions. 
 
 On the morrow he set forth, going by train to Exmouth, 
 and thence by the coach which runs twice a day to the 
 little seaside town. The delightful drive, up hill and 
 down dale, with its magnificent views over the estuary, 
 and its ever-changing wayside beauties, put him into the 
 best of spirits. About noon, he ahghted at the Rolle 
 Arms, the hotel to which the coach conducts its 
 passengers, and entered to take a meal. He would call 
 upon the Moorhouses at the conventional hour. The 
 intervening time was spent pleasantly enough in loitering 
 about the pebbled beach. A south-west breeze which had 
 begun to gather clouds drove on the rising tide. r)y 
 four o'clock there was an end of sunshine, and spurts of 
 rain mingled with Hying foam. Peak turned inland, 
 pursued the leafy street up the close-sheltered valley, 
 and came to the house where liis friends dwelt. 
 
 In crossing the garden he caught sight of a lady who 
 sat in a room on the ground Hoor; her l)ack was turned 
 
302 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 to the window, and before lie could draw near enough to 
 see her better she had moved away, but the glimpse he 
 had obtained of her head and shoulders affected him with 
 so distinct an alarm that his steps were checked. It 
 seemed to him that he had recognised tlie figure, and if 
 he were right. — But the supposition was ridiculous ; at 
 all events so vastly improbable, that he would not 
 entertain it. And now he descried another face, that of 
 Miss Moorhouse herself, and it gave him a reassurincj 
 smile. He rang the door bell. 
 
 How happy — he said to himself — those men who go to 
 call upon their friends without a tremor ! Even if lie had 
 not received that shock a moment ago, he would still 
 have needed to struggle against the treacherous beating of 
 his heart as he waited for admission. It was alwaj'S so 
 when he visited the Warricombes, or any other family in 
 Exeter. Not merely in consecpience of the dishonest part 
 he w^as playing, but because he had not quite overcome 
 the nervousness which so anguished him in earlier days. 
 The first moment after his entering a drawing-room cost 
 him pangs of complex origin. 
 
 His eyes fell first of all upon Mrs. Moorhouse, who 
 advanced to welcome him. He was aware of three other 
 persons in the room. The nearest, he could perceive 
 without regarding her, was Sidwell's friend ; the other 
 two, on whom he did not yet venture to cast a glance, 
 sat — or rather had just risen — in a dim background. As 
 he shook hands with Sylvia, they drew nearer; one of 
 them was a man, and, as his voice at once declared, no 
 other than Buckland Warricombe. Peak returned his 
 greeting-, and, in the same moment, gazed at the last of 
 the party. Mrs. Moorhouse was speaking. 
 
 ' Mr. Peak — Miss Moxey.' 
 
 A compression of the lips was the only sign of disturb- 
 ance that anyone could have perceived on Godwin's 
 countenance. Already he had strung himself against his 
 wonted agitation, and the added trial did not sensibly 
 enhance what he suffered. In discovering that he had 
 rightly identified the figure at the window^ he experienced 
 no renewal of the dread which brought him to a stand- 
 
BORN IN KXIJ.K 80o 
 
 still. Already half prepared for tliis stroke of late, he 
 felt a satisfaction in being al)le to meet it so steadily. 
 Tumult of thought was his only trouble ; it seemed as if 
 his brain must burst with the stress of its lightning 
 operations. In three seconds, he re-lived the })ast, made 
 several distinct antici|)ations of the future, and still 
 discussed with himself how he should behave this 
 moment. He noted that ]\rarcella's face was bloodless; 
 that her attempt to smile resulted in a very painful 
 distortion of brow and lips. And he had leisure to pity 
 her. This emotion prevailed. With a sense of magna- 
 nimity, which alterwards excited his wonder, he pressed 
 the cold hand and said in a cheerful tone : 
 
 ' Our introduction took place long ago, if I'm not 
 mistaken. I had no idea. Miss Moxey, that you were 
 among Mrs. Moorhouse's friends.' 
 
 ' Nor I that you were, Mr. Peak,' came the answer, in a 
 steadier voice than Godwin had expected. 
 
 Mrs. Moorhouse and her daughter made the pleasant 
 exclamations that were called for. Buckland Warri- 
 combe, with a doubtful smile on his lips, kept glancing 
 from Miss Moxey to her acquaintance and back again. 
 Peak at length faced him. 
 
 ' I hoped we should meet down here this autunni.' 
 
 ' I should have looked you up in a day or two,' ]>uck- 
 land replied, seating himself. ' Do you propose to stay in 
 Exeter through the winter ? ' 
 
 * I'm not quite sure — but 1 think it likely.' 
 
 Godwin turned to the neighbour of whose presence he 
 was most conscious. 
 
 ' I ho])e your brother is well, IMiss Moxey ? ' 
 
 Their eyes encountered steadil3\ 
 
 ' Yes, he is quite well, tliank you. He often says that 
 it seems very long since lie heard from you.' 
 
 ' Pm a bad correspondent. — Is he also in Devonshire ? ' 
 
 ' Xo. In London.* 
 
 ' What a storm we are going to have ! ' exclaime<l 
 Sylvia, looking to the window. ' They predictetl it 
 yesterday. I should like to be on the top of Westdown 
 Beacon — wouldn't you, ]\Iiss Moxey ? ' 
 
304 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I am quite willing to go with you.' 
 
 ' And what pleasure do you look for up there ? ' asked 
 Warriconibe, in a blunt, matter-of-fact tone. 
 
 ' Now^ there's a question ! ' cried Sylvia, appealing to 
 I he rest of the company. 
 
 ' I agree with Mr. AVarricombe,' remarked lier motliei-. 
 ' It's better to be in a comfortable room.' 
 
 ' Oh, you Eadicals ! What a world you will make of 
 it in time ! ' 
 
 Sylvia affected to turn away in disgust, and happening 
 to glance through tlie window she saw two young ladies 
 approaching from the road. 
 
 ' The Walworths — struggling desperately with their 
 umbrellas.' 
 
 ' I shouldn't wonder if you think it unworthy of an 
 artist to carry an umbreHa,' said Buckland. 
 
 ' Now you suggest it, T certainly do. They should get 
 nobly drenched.' 
 
 She went out into the hall, and soon returned with 
 her friends — Miss Walworth the artist. Miss Muriel 
 Walworth, and a youth, their 1)rother. In the course 
 of conversation Peak learnt that Miss Moxey was the 
 guest of this family, and that she had been at Budleigli 
 Salterton with them only a day or two. For a time lie 
 listened and observed, endeavouring to postpone con- 
 sideration of the dangers into which he had suddenly 
 fallen. Marcella had made herself his accomplice, thus 
 far, in disguising the real significance of their meeting, 
 and whether she would betray him in her subsequent 
 talk with the Moorhouses remained a matter of doubt. 
 Of course he must have assurance of her disposition — 
 but the issues involved were too desperate for instant 
 scrutiny. He felt the gambler's excitement, an irrational 
 pleasure in the consciousness that his whole future was 
 at stake. Buckland Warriconibe had a keen eye upon 
 him, and doubtless was eager to strike a train of sus- 
 ])icious circumstances. His face, at all events, should give 
 no sign of discomposure. Indeed, he found so much enjoy- 
 ment in the bright gossip of this assembly of ladies that 
 the smile he wore was perfectly natural. 
 
BORN IN \:\ILK 305 
 
 The AValwortlis, he j^^atliered, were to returii to London 
 in a week's time. This meant, in all probability, that 
 Marcella's stay here would not be prolonged beyond that 
 date. Perhaps he could find an opportunity of seeing 
 her apart from her friends. In reply to a question from 
 ]Mrs. Moorhouse, he made known that he proposed 
 staying at the Kolle Arms for several days, and when 
 he had spoken he glanced at Marcella. She understood 
 him, he felt sure. An invitation to lunch here on the 
 morrow was of course accepted. 
 
 Before leaving, he exchanged a few words with lUick- 
 land. 
 
 'Your relatives will be going to town very soon, I 
 understand.' 
 
 Warricombe nodded. 
 
 ' Shall I see you at Exeter ? ' CJodwin continued. 
 
 'I'm not sure. I shall go over to-morrow, but 
 it's uncertain whether I shall still be there when you 
 return.' 
 
 The lladical was distinctly less amical)le than even on 
 the last occasion of their meeting. They shook hands in 
 rather a perfunctory way. 
 
 Early in the evening there was a temporary lull in the 
 storm ; rain no longer fell, and in spaces of the rushing 
 sky a few stars showed themselves. Unal^le to rest at 
 the hotel, Peak set out for a walk towards the clili" 
 summit called Westdown Beacon ; he could see little more 
 than black vacancies, but a struggle with the wind suited 
 his temper, and he enjoyed the incessant roar of suif in 
 the darkness. After an hour of this buffeting he returned 
 to tlie beach, and stood as close as possible to the fierce 
 breakers. Xo person was in sight. But when he began 
 to move towards the upper shore, three female figures 
 detached themselves from the gloom and advanced in 
 his direction. They came so near that their voices were 
 audible, and thereupon he stepped up to them. 
 
 ' Are you going to the Beacon after all, Miss Moor- 
 house ? ' 
 
 Sylvia was accompanied by Agatha Walworth and 
 Miss Moxey. She explained laughingly that they had 
 
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306 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 stolen out, by agreement, whilst the males of their 
 respective households still lingered at the dinner- 
 table. 
 
 * But Mr. Warricombe was right after all. We shall 
 be blown to pieces. A very little of the romantic goes a 
 long way, nowadays.' 
 
 Godwin was determined to draw Marcella aside. 
 Seemingly she met his wish, for as all turned to regain 
 the shelter of houses she fell behind her female com- 
 panions, and stood close by him. 
 
 ' I want to see you before you go back to London,' he 
 said, l^ending his head near to hers. 
 
 *I wrote a letter to you this morning,' was her 
 reply. 
 
 ' A letter ? To what address ? ' 
 
 'Your address at Exeter.' 
 
 ' But how did you know it ? ' 
 
 ' I'll explain afterwards.' 
 
 ' When can I see you ? ' 
 
 ' Not here. It's impossible. I shall go to Exeter, and 
 there wTite to you again.' 
 
 ' Very well. You promise to do tliis ? ' 
 
 ' Yes, I promise.' 
 
 There was danger even in the exchange of these 
 hurried sentences. Miss Walworth had glanced back, 
 and might possibly have caught a phrase that aroused 
 curiosity. Having accompanied the girls to within view 
 of their destination, Peak said good -night, and went 
 home to spend the rest of tlie evening in thought which 
 was sufticiently absorl)ing. 
 
 The next day he had no sight of Marcella. At 
 luncheon the Moorhouses were alone. Afterwards God- 
 win accepted a proposal of the mathematician (who was 
 generally invisible amid his formulae) for a walk up the 
 btter valley. Naturally they talked of Coleridge, whose 
 metaphysical side appealed to Moorhouse. Peak dwelt 
 on the human and poetical, and was led by that peculiar 
 recklessness of mood, which at times relieved his nervous 
 tension, to defend opium eating, as a source of pleasurable 
 experience. 
 
BORN IN HXTLH 307 
 
 'You will hardly venture ou that paradox in the 
 pulpit,' remarked his companion, witli laughter. 
 
 * Perhaps not. JUit I have heard arguments from tliat 
 place decidedly more innnoral.' 
 
 ' No doubt.' 
 
 Godwin corrected the impression he perhaps had made 
 by turning with sudden seriousness to another subject. 
 The ironic temptation was terribly strong in him just 
 now. One is occasionally possessed by a desire to 
 shout in the midst of a silent assembly ; an impulse 
 of the same kind kept urging him to utter words 
 which would irretrievably ruin his prospects. The sense 
 that life is an intolera])le mummery can witli difliculty 
 be controlled by certain minds, even when circumstances 
 offer no keen incitement to rebellion. But I'eak's 
 position to-day demanded an incessant effort to refrain 
 from self-betrayal. What a joy to declare himself a 
 hypocrite, and snap mocking fingers in the world's face ! 
 As a safeguard, he fixed his mind upon Sidwell, recalled 
 her features and her voice as clearly as possible, stami)ed 
 into his heart the conviction that she half loved him. 
 
 "When he was alone again, he of a sudden determined 
 to go to Exeter. He could no longer endure uncertainty 
 as to the contents of Marcella's letter. As it was too 
 late for the coach, he set off and walked five miles to 
 Ex mouth, where he caught a train. 
 
 The letter lay on his table, and with it one on which 
 he recognised his mother's handwriting. 
 
 ^larcella wrote in the simplest way, quite as if their 
 intercourse had never been disturbed. As she happened 
 to be staying with friends at Budleigli Salterton, it seemed 
 possilde for her to meet him. Might she hope that 
 he would call at the hotel in Exeter, if she wrote again 
 to make an appointment ? 
 
 Well, that needed no re[)ly. But liuw had she dis- 
 covered the address ? Was his story known in London ^ 
 In a paroxysm of fury, he crushed the letter into a 
 ball and Hung it away. The veins of his forehead 
 swelled ; he walked al)out the room with senseless 
 violence, striking his fist against furniture and walls. It 
 
308 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 would have relieved him to sob and cry like a thwarted 
 child, but only a harsh sound, half-groan, half-laughter, 
 burst from his throat. 
 
 The lit passed, and he was able to open the letter 
 from Twybridge, the first he had received from his mother 
 for more than a month. He expected to find nothing of 
 interest, but his attention was soon caught by a passage, 
 which ran thus : 
 
 'Have you heard from some friends of yours, called 
 Ward ? Some time ago a lady called here to ask for 
 your address. Slie said her name was Mrs. Ward, and 
 that her husband, who had been abroad for a long time, 
 very much wished to find you again. Of course I told 
 ]ier where you were to be found. It was just after I 
 liad written, or I should have let you know about it 
 before.' 
 
 Ward ? He knew no one of that name. Could it be 
 Marcella who had done this ? It looked more than 
 likely ; he believed her capable of strange proceed- 
 ings. 
 
 In the morning he returned to tlie seaside. Prospect 
 of pleasure tliere was none, but by moving about he made 
 the time pass more quickly. Wandering in the lanes 
 (which would have delighted him with their autumnal 
 beauties had his mind been at rest), he came upon Miss 
 Walworth, busy with a water-colour sketch. Though 
 their acquaintance was so slight, he stopped for con- 
 versation, and the artist's manner appeared to testify 
 that Marcella had as yet made no unfavourable report of 
 him. By mentioning that he would return home on the 
 morrow, he made sure that Marcella would be apprised 
 of this. Perhaps she might shorten her stay, and his 
 suspense. 
 
 Back in Longbrook Street once more, he found another 
 letter. It was from Mrs. Warricombe, who wrote to tell 
 liim of their coming removal to London, and added an 
 invitation to dine four days hence. Then at all events 
 he would speak again with Sidwell. But to what 
 purpose ? Could he let her go away for months, and 
 l)erhaps all but forget him among the many new faces 
 
BORN IN EXILE 309 
 
 that would surround her. He saw no feasilde way of 
 being with her in private. To write was to run tlie 
 gravest risk; things were not ripe for that. To take 
 Martin into his confidence ? That asked too much 
 couraiie. Deliberate avowals of this kind seemed to him 
 
 o 
 
 ludicrous and humiliating, and untler the circumstances 
 — no, no ; what force of sincerity couM make him n]»pear 
 other than a scheming adventurer ? 
 
 He lived in tumult of mind and senses. When at 
 length, on the day before his engagement with the 
 Warricombes, there came a note from ]\larcella, summon- 
 ing him to the interview agreed upon, he could scarcely 
 endure the hour or two until it was time to set forth ; 
 every minute cost him a throb of pain. The torment 
 must have told upon his visage, for on entering the room 
 where Marcella waited he saw that she looked at him 
 with a changing expression, as if something surprised 
 her. 
 
 They shook hands, but without a word. Marcella 
 pointed to a chair, yet remained standing. She was 
 endeavouring to smile ; her eyes fell, and she coloured. 
 
 * Don't let us make each other uncomfortable,' Peak 
 exclaimed suddenly, in the off-hand tone of friendly 
 intimacy. 'There's nothing tragic in this all'air, after 
 all. Let us talk quietly.' 
 
 Marcella seated herself. 
 
 ' I had reasons,' he went on, ' for going away from my 
 old acquaintances for a time. Why not, if I chose ? 
 You have found me out. Very well ; let us talk it over 
 as we have discussed many another moral or i)sychologi- 
 cal question.' 
 
 He did not meditate these sentences. Something must 
 of necessity be said, and words shaped tliemselves for 
 him. His impulse was to avoid the emotional, to talk 
 with this problematic woman as with an intellectual 
 friend of his own sex. 
 
 * Forgive me,' were the first sounds that came from 
 ^larcella's lips. She spoke with bent head, and almost 
 in a whisper. 
 
 'What have I to forgive?' He sat down and leaned 
 
310 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 sideways in the easy chair. 'You were curious about 
 my doings ? What more natural ? ' 
 
 ' Do you know how I learnt where you were ? ' 
 
 She looked up for an instant. 
 
 ' I have a suspicion. You went to Twybridge ? ' 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
 ' But not in your own name ? ' 
 
 ' I can hardly tell why not.' 
 
 Peak laughed. He was physically and mentally at 
 rest in comparison witli his state for the past few days. 
 Things had a simpler aspect all at once. After all, who 
 would wish to interfere maliciously with him ? Women 
 like to be in secrets, and probably Marcella would pre- 
 serve his. 
 
 'What conjectures had you made about me ?' he asked, 
 with an air of amusement. 
 
 'Many, of course. But I heard something not long 
 ago which seemed so unlikely, yet was told so con- 
 fidently, that at last I couldn't overcome my wish to 
 make hiquiries.' 
 
 ' And what was that ? ' 
 
 ' Mr. Malkin has been to America, and he declared that 
 he had met you in the streets of Boston — and that you 
 refused to admit you were yourself.' 
 
 Peak laughed still more buoyantly. His mood was 
 eager to seize on any point that afforded subject for jest. 
 
 ' Malkin seems to have come across my Doppclgdnger. 
 One mustn't pretend to certainty in anything, but I am 
 disposed to think I never was in Boston.' 
 
 ' He was of course mistaken.' 
 ' Marcella's voice had an indistinctness very unlike her 
 ordinary tone. As a rule she spoke with that clearness 
 and decision which corresponds to qualities of mind not 
 commonly found in women. But confidence seemed to 
 have utterly deserted her; she had lost lier individuality, 
 and was weakly feminine. 
 
 ' I have been here since last Cliristmas,' said Godwin, 
 after a pause. 
 
 ' Yes. I know.' 
 
 Their eyes met. 
 
BORN IN K\I1,K 311 
 
 *No doul)t your friends have told you as iiiucli as tliey 
 know of me ? ' 
 
 ' Yes — they liave spoken of you.' 
 
 * And wliat does it amount to ? ' 
 
 He regarded her steadily, with a smile of indifference. 
 
 ' They say ' — she gazeil at him as if constrained to do 
 so — 'that you are going into the Church.' And as soon 
 as she uttered the last word, a painful laugh escaped 
 her. 
 
 ' Nothing else ? No comments ? ' 
 
 *I think ]\liss Moorhouse finds it difVicult In under- 
 stand.' 
 
 'Miss iMoorhouse ? ' He reflected, still smiling. 'I 
 shouldn't wonder. She has a sceptical mind, and she 
 doesn't know me well enough to understand me.' 
 
 * Doesn't know you well enough ? ' 
 
 She repeated the words mechanically. Teak gave her 
 a keen glance. 
 
 ' Has she led you to suppose,' he asked, ' that we are 
 on intimate terms ? ' 
 
 ' No.' The word fell from her, absently, despondently. 
 
 ' Miss Moxey, would anything be gained by our dis- 
 cussing my position ? If you think it a mystery, hadn't 
 we better leave it so ? ' 
 
 She made no answer. 
 
 'But perhaps,' he went on, 'you have told them — the 
 Walworths and the Moorhouses — that 1 owe my friends 
 an explanation ? When I see them again, perhaps I shall 
 ])e confronted with cold, questioning faces ?' 
 
 ' I haven't said a word that could injure you,' Marcella 
 replied, with something of her usual self-possession, 
 ])assing her eyes distantly over his face as she spoke. 
 
 ' I knew the suggestion was unjust, when 1 made it.' 
 
 ' Then why should you refuse me your confidence ^ ' 
 
 She bent forward slightly, but with her eyes cast down. 
 I'one and features intimated a sense of shame, due 
 partly to the feeling that she otVeit'd complicity in 
 deceit. 
 
 ' Wliat can 1 tell you more than you know '. ' said 
 (lodwin, coldly. ' I pro])Ose to become a clergyman, an»l 
 
312 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 I have acknowledged to you that my motive is ambition. 
 As the matter concerns my conscience, that must rest 
 with myself ; I have spoken of it to no one. But you 
 may depend upon it that I am prepared for every diffi- 
 culty that may spring up. I knew, of course, that sooner 
 or later some one would discover me here. Well, I have 
 changed my opinions, that's all ; who can demand more 
 than that ? ' 
 
 Marcella answered in a tone of forced composure. 
 
 'You owe me no explanation at all. Yet we have 
 known each other for a long time, and it pains me that 
 — to be suddenly told that we are no more to each other 
 than strangers.' 
 
 ' Are we talking like strangers, Marcella ? ' 
 
 She flushed, and her eyes gleamed as they fixed them- 
 selves upon him for an instant. He had never before 
 dreamt of addressing her so familiarly, and least of all in 
 this moment was she prepared for it. Godwin despised 
 himself for the impulse to which he had yielded, but its 
 policy was justified. He had taken one more step in 
 disingenuousness — a small matter. 
 
 ' Let it be one of those things on which even friends 
 don't open their minds to each other,' he pursued. ' I am 
 living in solitude, and perhaps must do so for several 
 years yet. If I succeed in my purposes, you will see me 
 again on the old terms; if I fail, then too we shall be 
 friends — if you are willing.' 
 
 ' You won't tell me what those purposes are ? ' 
 
 ' Surely you can imagine them.' 
 
 'Will you let me ask you — do you look for help to 
 anyone that I have seen here ? ' She spoke with effort 
 and with shame. 
 
 ' To no one that you have met,' he answered, shortly. 
 
 'Then to some one in Exeter? T have been told that 
 you have friends.' 
 
 He was irritated by her persistency, and his own 
 inability to decide upon the most prudent way of 
 answering. 
 
 ' You mean the Warricombe family, T suppose ? ' 
 
 'Yes.' 
 
BORN IN KXILE r> 1 :' 
 
 'I tliink it very likely that Mi-. AVairicuiiilx; may be 
 able to hel}) me substantially.' 
 
 Marcella kept silence. Then, witliout raisiii.i; her eyes, 
 slie nnirniured : 
 
 ' Vou will tell me no more ?' 
 
 * There is notliing more to tell.' 
 
 She bit her lips, as if to compel them to muteness. 
 Her breath came quickly; she glanced this way and that, 
 like one who sought an escape. After eyeing her askance 
 for a moment, Peak rose. 
 
 ' You are j^oins: ? ' she said. 
 
 'Yes; but surely there is no reason why we shouldn't 
 say good-bye in a natural and friendly way ^ ' 
 
 ' Can you forgive me for that deceit I })ractised ? ' 
 
 Peak laughed. 
 
 ' What does it matter ? We should in any case have 
 met at Budleigh Salterton.' 
 
 'No. I had no serious thought of accepting their 
 invitation.' 
 
 She stood looking away from him, endeavouring to 
 speak as though the denial had but slight significance, 
 (lodwin stirred impatiently. 
 
 ' I should never have gone to Twy bridge,' ^larcella 
 continued, 'but for Mr. Midkin's story.' 
 
 He turned to her. 
 
 ' You mean that his story had a disagreeable sound ? ' 
 
 Marcella kept silence, her fingers workhig together. 
 
 ' And is your mind relieved ?' he added. 
 
 ' 1 wish you were back in London. I wish this cliange 
 had never conu' to ])ass.' 
 
 ' I wish that several things in my lii'e had never come 
 to pass.. But I am here, and my resolve is unalterable. 
 One thing 1 must ask you — how shall you represent my 
 ])Osition to your brother ? ' 
 
 For a moment Marcella hesitated. Then, meeting his 
 look, she answered with nervous haste : 
 
 ' I shall not mention you to him.' 
 
 Ashamed to give any sign of satisfaction, and oppressed 
 by the feeling that he owed lier gratitude. Peak stood 
 gazing towards the windows with an air of half-indifferent 
 
314 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 abstractedness. It was better to let tlie interview end 
 til us, without comment or further question ; so he turned 
 abruptly, and offered his hand. 
 
 'Good-bye. You will hear of me, or from me.' 
 
 ' Good-bye ! ' 
 
 He tried to smile ; but Marcella liad a cold face, 
 expressive of more dignity than she had hitlierto shown. 
 As lie closed the door she was still looking towards 
 him. 
 
 He knew what the look meant. In his position, a 
 man of ordinary fil^re would long ago have nursed the 
 llatternig conviction that Marcella loved him. Godwin 
 had suspected it, but in a vague, unemotional way, never 
 attaching importance to the matter. What he had 
 clearly understood was, that Christian wished to inspire 
 him with interest in Marcella, and on that account, when 
 in her company, he sometimes set himself to display a 
 deliberate negligence. No difficult midertaking, for he 
 was distinctly repelled by the thought of any relations 
 with her more intimate than had been brought about by 
 his cold intellectual sympathy. Her person was still as 
 disagreeable to him as wdien he tii'st met her in her 
 uncle's house at Twybridgc. If a man sincerely hopes 
 that a woman does not love him (which can seldom be 
 the case where a suggestion of such feeling ever arises), 
 he will find it easy to believe that she does not. Peak 
 not only had the benefit of this principle ; the constitu- 
 tion of his mind made it the opposite of natural for him 
 to credit himself with having inspired affection. That 
 his male friends held him in any warm esteem always 
 appeared to him improbable, and as regards women his 
 modesty was profound. The simplest explanation, that 
 he was himself incapable of pure devotedness, perhaps 
 hits the truth. Unsympathetic, however, he could with 
 no justice be called, and now that the reality of ^larcella's 
 love was forced upon his consciousness he thought of 
 her with sincere pity, — the emotion which had already 
 ])Ossessed him (though he did not then analyse it) when 
 he unsuspectingly looked into her troubled face a few days 
 
BORN IN ?:XII.K oln 
 
 It was so hard to believe, that, on reaching home, he sat 
 for a long time occupied with the thought of it, to the 
 exclusion of his own anxieties. What ! this woman had 
 made of him an ideal such as he himself sought among 
 tlie most exquisite of her sex ? How was that possible ? 
 What quality of his, personal, psychical, had such magnetic 
 force ? What sort of being was he in Marcella's eyes ? 
 Itetiective men nmst often enough marvel at the success 
 of whiskered and trousered mortals in wooing the women 
 of their desire, for only by a specific imagination can a 
 person of one sex assume the emotions of the other. 
 Godwin had neither that endowment nor the peculiar 
 self-esteem which makes love-winning a matter of cour.se 
 to some intelligent males. His native arrogance signified 
 a low estimate of mankind at larj^e, rather than an over- 
 weening appreciation of his own ([ualities, and in his 
 most presumptuous moments he had never clahned the 
 sexual prefulgence which many a commonplace fellow so 
 gloriously exhibits. At most, he liad hoped that some 
 woman might find him i nf crest huj, and so be led on to like 
 him well enough for the venture of matrimony. Passion 
 at length constrained him to believe that his ardour miglit 
 1)6 genuinely reciprocated, Imt even now it was only in 
 paroxysms that he held this assurance ; the hours of 
 ordinary life still exposed him to the familiar self-criticism, 
 sometimes more scathing than ever. He dreaded the 
 looking-glass, consciously avoided it ; and a like disparage- 
 ment of his inner being tortured him through the endless 
 lal)3'rinths of erotic reverie. 
 
 Yet here was a woman who so loved him that not even 
 a proud temper and his candid indiflerence could impose 
 restraint upon her emotions. As he listened to the most 
 significant of her words he was distres.sed with shame, 
 and now, in recalling them, he felt that he should have 
 said sometliing, done something, to disillusion lier. Could 
 he not easily show himself in a contemptible light ? But 
 reflection taught him that the shame he had experienced 
 on Marcella's behalf was blended with a gratification 
 which forbade him at the moment to be altogether 
 unamiable. It was not self-interest alone that prompted 
 
316 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 his use of her faniihar name. In the secret places of his 
 heart he was tliankful to her for a most effective 
 encouragement. She had confirmed him in the hope that 
 he was loved by Sidwell. 
 
 And now that he no longer feared her, Marcella was 
 gradually dismissed from mind. For a day or two he 
 avoided the main streets of the town, lest a chance 
 meeting with her should revive disquietude ; but, by the 
 time that Mrs. Warricombe's invitation permitted him 
 once more to follow his desire, he felt assured that 
 Marcella was back in London, and the sense of distance 
 helped to banish her among unrealities. 
 
 The hours had never pressed upon him with such 
 demand for resolution. In the look with which Sidwell 
 greeted him when he met her in the drawing-room, he 
 seemed to read much more than wonted friendliness ; it 
 was as though a half secret already existed between them. 
 But no occasion offered for a word other than trivial. 
 The dinner-party consisted of about a score of people, and 
 throughout the evening Peak found himself hopelessly 
 severed from the one person v/hose presence was anything 
 but an importunity to him. He maddened with jealousy, 
 with fear, with ceaseless mental manoeuvring. More than 
 one young man of agreeable aspect appeared to be on 
 dangerous terms with Sidwell, approaching her with that 
 air of easy, well-bred intimacy which Godwin knew too 
 well he would never be able to assume in perfection. 
 Again he was humiliated by self-comparison with social 
 superiors, and again reminded that in this circle he had a 
 place merely on sufferance. Mrs. Warricombe, when he 
 chanced to speak with her, betrayed the slight regard in 
 whicli she really held him, and Martin devoted himself 
 to more important people. The evening was worse than 
 lost. 
 
 Yet in two more days Sidwell would be beyond reach. 
 He writhed upon Ids bed as the image of her loveliness 
 returned again and again, — her face as she conversed at 
 table, her dignity as she rose with the other ladies, her 
 smile wdien he said good-night. A smile tliat meant more 
 than civility ; he was convinced of it. But memory would 
 
BURN IX KXILK .'517 
 
 not support him through hulf-a-year of solitude and ill- 
 divining passion. 
 
 He would write to her, and risk all. Two o'clock in 
 the morning saw him sitting half-dressed at the table, 
 raging over the dilliculties of a composition which should 
 express his highest self. Four o'clock saw the blotched 
 letter torn into fragments. He could not write as he 
 wished, could not hit the tone of manly appeal. At five 
 o'clock he turned wretchedly into bed again. 
 
 A day of racking headache ; then the long restful sleep 
 which brings good counsel. It was well that he had not 
 sent a letter, nor in any other way committed himself. 
 If Sid well were ever to be his wife, the end could onl}^ be 
 won by heroic caution and patience. Thus far he had 
 achieved notable results ; to rush upon his aim would be 
 the most absurd departure from a hopeful scheme gravely 
 devised and pursued. To wait, to establish himself in the 
 confidence of this family, to make sure his progress step 
 by step, — that was the course indicated from the first by 
 his calm reason. Other men might triumph by sudden 
 audacity ; for him was no hope save in slow, persevering 
 energy of will. Passion had all but ruined him ; now he 
 had recovered self-control. 
 
 Sidwell's six months in London might banish him from 
 her mind, might substitute some rival against whom it 
 would be hopeless to contend. Yes ; but a thousand 
 ])ossibilities stood with menace in the front of every 
 great enterprise. Before next spring he might be dead. 
 
 Defiance, then, of every foreboding, of every shame ; 
 and a life that moulded itself in the ardour of unchangeable 
 resolve. 
 
IV 
 
 Martin Warricombe was reconciled to the prospect of a 
 metropolitan winter by the fact that his old friend Thomas 
 Gale, formerly Geological Professor at Whitelaw College, 
 had of late returned from a three years' sojourn in North 
 America, and now dwelt in London. The breezy man of 
 science was welcomed back among his brethren with two- 
 fold felicitation ; his book on the Appalachians would 
 have given no insufficient proof of activity abroad, but 
 evidence more generally interesting accompanied him in 
 the shape of a young and beautiful wife. Not every 
 geologist whose years have entered the fifties can go forth 
 and capture in second marriage a charming New England 
 girl, thirty years his junior. Yet those who knew Mr. 
 Gale — his splendid physique, his bluff cordiality, the 
 vigour of his various talk — were scarcely surprised. The 
 young lady was no heiress ; she had, in fact, been a school 
 teacher, and might have wearied through her best years in 
 Lliat uncongenial pursuit. Transplanted to the richest 
 English soil, she developed remarkable aptitudes. A 
 month or two of London exhibited her as a type of all 
 that is most attractive in American womanhood. 
 
 Between Mrs. Gale and the AVarricombes intimacy was 
 soon established. Sidwell saw much of her, and liked her. 
 To this meditative English girl the young American 
 offered an engrossing problem, for she avowed her indiffer- 
 ence to all religious dogmas, yet was singularly tolerant 
 and displayed a moral fervour whicli Sidwell had believed 
 inseparable from Christian faith. At the Gales' house 
 assembled a great variety of intellectual people, and with 
 her father's express approval (Martin liad his reasons) 
 
 318 
 
1U)KN IN KXILK ;jl9 
 
 Sidwell niaile tlie most of this opportunity of studying 
 the modern world. Only a lew days after her arrival in 
 London, she became acquainted witli a Mr. Walsh, a 
 l>rother of that heresiarch, the Wliitelaw Professor, whuse 
 name was still obnoxious to her mother. He was a well- 
 favoured man of something between thirty and forty, 
 brilliant in conversation, pers(mally engaging, and kn(nvn 
 by his literary productions, which found small favour with 
 conservative readers. With surprise. Sidwell in a short 
 time became aware that i\Ir. Walsh had a frank likiu'^ for 
 her society. He was often to be seen in Mrs. AVarri- 
 combe's drawing-room, and at Mrs. Gale's he yet more 
 frequently obtained occasions of talking with her. The 
 candour with which he expressed himself on most sub- 
 j'ects enal)led her to observe a type of mind which at 
 present had peculiar interest for her. Discretion often 
 put restraint upon her curiosity, but none the less ]\Ir. 
 Walsh had plausible grounds for believing that his 
 advances were not unwelcome. He saw that Sidwell's 
 gaze occasionally rested upon him with a pleasant gravity, 
 and noted the mood of meditation which sometimes came 
 upon her when he had drawn apart. The frequency of 
 tliese dialogues was observed by Mrs. Warricombe, and 
 one evening she broached the subject to her daughter 
 rather abruptly. 
 
 ' I am surprised that you have taken such a liking to 
 Mr. Walsh.' 
 
 Sidwell coloured, and made answer in the quiet tone 
 which her mother had come to understand as a reproof, a 
 hint of defective delicacy : 
 
 ' I don't think I have behaved in a way that should 
 cause you surprise.' 
 
 * It seemed to me that you were really very — friendly 
 with him.' 
 
 * Yes, 1 am always friendly. But nothing more.' 
 
 * Don't you tliink there's a danger of his misunder- 
 standing you, Sidwell ? ' 
 
 ' T don't, mother. ^Ir. Walsh understands that we 
 differ irreconcilaldy on sul)jects of the first importance. I 
 have never allowed him to lose sight of that,' 
 
320 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Intellectual difierences were of much less account to 
 Mrs. Warricombe than to her daughter, and her judgment 
 in a matter such as this was consequently far more 
 practical. 
 
 'If I may advise you, dear, you oughtn't to depend 
 much on that. I am not the only one who has noticed 
 something — I only mention it, you know.' 
 
 Sidwell mused gravely. In a minute or two slie looked 
 up and said in her gentlest voice : 
 
 ' Thank you, mother. I will be more careful.' 
 
 Perhaps she had lost sight of prudence, forgetting 
 that Mr. Walsh could not divine her thoughts. Her 
 interest in him was impersonal ; when he spoke she was 
 profoundly attentive, only because her mind would have 
 been affected in the same way had she been reading his 
 words instead of listening to them. She could not let 
 him know that another face was often more distinct to 
 her imagination than his to her actual sight, and that her 
 thoughts were frequently more busy with a remembered 
 dialogue than with this in which she was engaged. 
 She had abundantly safe-guarded herself against serious 
 misconstruction, but if gossip were making her its 
 subject, it would be inconsiderate not to regard the 
 warning. 
 
 It came, indeed, at a moment when she was very 
 willing to rest from social activity. At the time of her 
 last stay in London, three years ago, she had not been ripe 
 for reflection on what she saw. Now^ her mind was kept 
 so incessantly at strain, and her emotions answered so 
 intensely to every appeal, that at length she felt the 
 need of repose. It was not with her as with the young 
 women who seek only to make the most of their 
 time in agreeable ways. Sidwell's vital forces were 
 concentrated in an effort of profound spiritual significance. 
 The critical hour of her life was at hand, and she 
 exerted every faculty in the endeavour to direct herself 
 aright. 
 
 Having heard from his brother that Sidwell liad not 
 been out for several days, Buckland took an opportunity 
 of calling at the house early one morning. He found her 
 
BORN IX KX11J<: 321 
 
 iiloiie ill a small drawing-ruoiu, and .sat duwii with an 
 expression of weary discontent. This mood had been 
 frequent in the young man of late. Sidwell remarked a 
 change that was coming over him, a gloominess unnatural 
 to his character. 
 
 'Seen the Walworths lately?' he osked, when his 
 sister had assured him that she was not seriously 
 ailing, 
 
 * We called a few days ago.' 
 ' Meet anyone there ? ' 
 
 ' Two or three people. Xo one that interested 
 me.' 
 
 * You haven't come across some friends of theirs called 
 Moxey ? ' 
 
 ' Oh yes ! Miss Moxey was there one afternoon about 
 a fortnight ago.' 
 
 * Did you talk to her at all ? ' Buckland asked. 
 
 * Yes ; we hadn't much to say to each other, though. 
 How do you know of her ? Through Sylvia, 1 dare- 
 say.' 
 
 * Met her wdien 1 was last down yonder.' 
 
 Sidwell had long since heard from her friend of Miss 
 ]\loxey's visit to Budleigh Salterton, but she was not 
 aware that Buckland had been there at the same time. 
 Sylvia had told her, however, of the acquaintance existing 
 between Miss Moxey and Peak, a point of much interest 
 to her, though it remained a mere unconnected fact. 
 In her short conversation with Marcella, she had not 
 ventured to refer to it. 
 
 * Do you know anything of the family ? ' 
 
 * I was going to ask you the same,' returned Buckland. 
 'I thought you might have heard sometliing from the 
 ^Val worths.' 
 
 Sidwell had in fact sought information, but, as her 
 relations with the Walworths were formal, such inquiry 
 as she could make from them elicited nothing more than 
 she already knew from Sylvia. 
 
 'Are you anxious to discover who they are .^ ' she 
 asked. 
 
 ' Oh, not particularly.' 
 
322 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Buckland moved uneasily, ;ind became silent. 
 
 * I dined with Walsh yesterday,' he said, at length, 
 strui^fjlini:^ to shake off the obvious dreariness that 
 oppressed him. ' He suits me ; wc can get on together. 
 
 ' No doubt.' 
 
 * But you don't dislike him, I think ? ' 
 
 ' Implying that I dislike you' said Sidwell, light- 
 somely. 
 
 ' You have no affection for my opinions. — Walsh is an 
 honest man.' 
 
 * I hope so.' 
 
 ' He says what he thinks. No compromise with 
 fashionable hypocrisy.' 
 
 * I despise that kind of thing quite as much as 
 you do.' 
 
 They looked at each other. Buckland had a sullen 
 air. 
 
 ' Yes, in your own way,' he replied, ' you are sincere 
 enough, I have no doubt. I wish all women were so.' 
 
 ' What exception have you in mind ? ' 
 
 He did not seem inclined to answer. 
 
 'Perhaps it is your understanding of them that's at 
 fault,' added Sidwell, gently. 
 
 ' Not in one case, at all events,' he exclaimed. 
 ' Suppose you were asked to define Miss Moorhousc's 
 religious opinions, how would you do it ? ' 
 
 *I am not well enough acquainted with them.' 
 
 ' Do you imagine for a moment that she has any more 
 faith in the supernatural than I have ? ' 
 
 ' I think there is a great difference Ijetween her position 
 and yours.' 
 
 ' Because she is hypocritical 1 ' cried Buckland, angrily. 
 ' She deceives you. She hasn't the courage to be honest.' 
 
 Sidwell wore a pained expression. 
 
 ' You judge her,' she replied, ' far too coarsely. No one 
 is called upon to make an elaborate declaration of faith as 
 often as such sul)jects are spoken of Sylvia thinks so 
 differently from you about almost everything that, when 
 she happens to agree with you, you are misled and 
 misinterpret her whole position.' 
 
BORN IX FA'TLK 'S'2'o 
 
 ' I luulerstaiid her perfectly,' Biickhiiul went on, in 
 the same irritated voice. 'Tliere are plenty of women 
 like her — with brains enough, but utter and contemptible 
 cowards. Cowards even to themselves, perliaps. What 
 can you expect, when society is based on rotten shams { ' 
 
 For several minutes he pursued this vein of invective, 
 then took an abrupt leave. Sidwell had a ])iece of grave 
 counsel ready to otier him, but he was clearly in no mood 
 to listen, so she postponed it. 
 
 A day or two after tliis, she received a letter from 
 .Sylvia. Miss Moorhouse was anything l)ut a good 
 correspondent ; she often confessed lier inability to 
 compose anything l)ut the briefest and driest statement 
 of facts. With no little surprise, therefore, .Sidwell found 
 tliat the envelope contained two sheets all but covered 
 with her friend's cramped handwriting. The letter began 
 with apology for long delay in acknowledging two 
 conmiunications. 
 
 * But you know well enough my dihitory disposition. 
 I have written to you mentally at least once a day, and I 
 hope you have mentally received the results — that is to 
 say, have assured yourself of my goodwill to you, and I 
 had nothing else to send.' 
 
 .Vt tliis point Sylvia had carefully olditerated two 
 lines, blackening the page into unsightliness. In vain 
 Sidwell i)ored over the effaced passage, led to do so by 
 a fancy that she could discern a capital P, which looked 
 like the first letter of a name. The writer continued : 
 
 'Don't trouble yourself so much about insoluble 
 questions. Try to be more positive — I don't say become 
 a Positivist. Keep a receptive mind, and wait for time 
 to shape your views of things. I see that T^)ndon has 
 agitated and confused you ; you have lost your bearings 
 amid tlie maze of contradictory finger-posts. If you were 
 here I could sootlie you with Sylvian (much the same 
 as sylvan) philosophy, but I can't write.' 
 
 Here the letter was to Iiave ended, for on the line 
 l)eneath was legible '(live my love to Fanny,' but this 
 again liad been crossed out, and there followed a long 
 paragraph : 
 
324 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' 1 have been reading a book about ants. Perhaps you 
 know all the wonderful things about them, but I had 
 neglected that branch of natural history. Their doings 
 are astonishingly like those of an animal called man, and 
 it seems to me that I have discovered one point of re- 
 semblance which perhaps has never Ijeen noted. Are 
 you aware that at an early stage of their existence ants 
 have wings ? They fly — how shall I express it ? — only 
 for the brief time of their courtship and marriage, and 
 when these important affairs are satisfactorily done with 
 their wings wither away, and thenceforth they have to 
 content themselves with running about on the earth. 
 Xow isn't this a remarkaljle parallel to one stage of 
 human life ? Do not men and women also soar and 
 flutter — at a certain time ^ And don't their wings mani- 
 festly drop off as soon as the end of that skyward 
 movement has been achieved ? If the gods had made me 
 poetical, I would sonnetise on this idea. Do you know 
 any poet with a fondness for the ant-philosophy ( If so, 
 offer him this suggestion with liberty to " make any use 
 of it he likes." 
 
 ' But the fact of tlie matter is that some human beings 
 are never winged at all. I am decidedly coming to the 
 conclusion that I am one of those. Think of me hence- 
 forth as an apteryx — you have a dictionary at hand ? 
 Like the tailless fox, I might naturally maintain that my 
 state is the more gracious, but honestly I am not assured 
 of that. It may be (I half believe it is) a good thing to 
 soar and flutter, and at times I regret that nature has 
 forbidden me that experience. Decidedly I would never 
 try to iKTSuade anyone else to forego the use of wings. 
 Bear this in mind, my dear girl. But I suspect that in 
 time to come there will be an increasing number of 
 female human creatures who from their birth are content 
 with walking. Not long ago, I had occasion to hint 
 that — though under another figure — to your brother 
 Buckland. I liope he understood me — I think he did 
 — and that he wasn't offended. 
 
 'I had something to tell you. I have forgotten it — 
 never mind.' 
 
BORN IN EX ILK 325 
 
 And therewith the odd epistle was couchuled. Sidwell 
 perused the latter part several times. Of coui-se she was 
 at no loss to interpret it. IJiickland's demeanour for the 
 past two montlis liad led hor to surmise that his latest 
 visit to JUidleigli Salterton liad finally extinguished the 
 liopes whicli drew him in that direction. His recent 
 censure of Sylvia might be thus explained. She grieved 
 that her brother's suit should be discouraged, but could 
 not persuade herself tliat Sylvia's decision was final. 
 The idea of a match between those two was very pleasant 
 to her. For Buckland slie imagined it would be fraui^ht 
 with good results, and for Sylvia, on tlie whole, it might 
 be the best thing. 
 
 Before she replied to her friend nearly a month passed, 
 and Christmas was at hand. Again she had been much 
 in society. Mr. Walsh had renewed his unmistakable 
 attentions, and, when her manner of meeting them began 
 to trouble him with doubts, had cleared the air by 
 making a formal offer of marriage. Sidwell's negative 
 was absolute, much to her mother's relief. On the day of 
 that event, slie wrote rather a long letter to Sylvia, but 
 Mr. Walsh's name was not mentioned in it. 
 
 * Mother tells me,' it began, ' that }/(nir mother has 
 written to her from Salisbury, and that you yourself are 
 going there for a stay of some weeks. I am sorry, for 
 on the Monday after Christmas Day I shall be in 
 Exeter, and hoped somehow to have seen you. We — 
 mother and I — are going to run down together, to see 
 after certain domestic affairs ; only for tliree days at 
 most. 
 
 * Your ant - letter was very anmsing, but it saddened 
 me, dear Sylvia. 1 can't make any answer. On these 
 subjects it is very dilticult even for the closest friends 
 to open their minds to each other. 1 don't — and don't 
 wish to — believe in the aptrrifx profession ; tlial's all 
 I must say. 
 
 ' My health has been indifferent since I last wrote. 
 AVe live in all but continuous darkness, and very seldom 
 indeed breathe anything that can be called air. No 
 doubt this state of things has its effect on me. I look 
 
326 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 forwards, not to the coming of spring, for liere we shall 
 see nothing of its beauties, but to the month which will 
 release us from London. I want to smell the pines again, 
 and to see the golden gorse in our road. 
 
 ' By way of being more " positive," I have read much 
 
 iu the newspapers, supplementing from them my own 
 
 experience of London society. The result is that I am 
 
 more and more confirmed in the fears with which I have 
 
 already worried you. Two movements are plainly going 
 
 on in the life of our day. The decay of religious belief is 
 
 undermining morality, and the progress of Radicalism in 
 
 politics is working to the same end by overthrowing 
 
 social distinctions. Evidence stares one in the face from 
 
 every colunm of the papers. Of course you have read 
 
 more or less about the recent "scandal" — I mean the 
 
 most recent. — It isn't the kind of thing one cares to 
 
 discuss, but we can't help knowing about it, and does it 
 
 not strongly support what I say ? Here is materialism 
 
 sinking into brutal immorality, and high social rank 
 
 degrading itself by intimacy with the corrupt vulgar. 
 
 There are newspapers that make political capital out of 
 
 these "revelations." I have read some of them, and 
 
 they make me so fiercely aristocratic that I find it 
 
 hard to care anything at all even for the humanitarian 
 
 eftbrts of people I respect. You will tell me, I know, 
 
 that this is quite the wrong way of looking at it. But 
 
 the evils are so monstrous that it is hard to fix one's 
 
 mind on the good that may long hence result from 
 
 them. 
 
 I ' I cling to the essential (that is the spinfued) truths 
 
 of Christianity as the only absolute good left in our 
 
 time. I would say that I care nothing for forms, but 
 
 , some form there must be, else one's faith evaporates. 
 
 i It has V)ecome very easy for me to understand how 
 
 j men and women who know the world refuse to believe 
 
 I any longer in a directing Providence. A week ago 1 
 
 i again met Miss Moxey at the Walworths', and talked 
 
 i with her more freely than before. This conversation 
 
 ! showed me that I have become much more tolerant 
 
 towards individuals. But though this or that person 
 
HORN IX Kxirj-: 1)27 
 
 may be supported by luonil seiisf aloiu', the world 
 cannot dispense with religion. If it tries to — and it 
 vnll — there are dreadful times before us. 
 
 * I wish I were a man ! I would do something, how- 
 ever ineffectual. 1 would stand on the side of those 
 who are tigliting against mob-rule and mob-morals. How 
 would you like to sec^ Exciter Catliedral converted into 
 a"^' coffee music-hail '' '. And that will coniL'." 
 
 " lieadnig tins, hyivia had the sense of listening to 
 an echo. Some of the phrases recalled to her quite 
 a diff"erent voice from Sidwell's. She smiled and 
 nuised. 
 
 On the morning appointed for her journey to Exeter 
 Sidwell rose early, and in unusually good spirits. ^Irs. 
 Warricombe was less animated by the prospect of 
 five hours in a railway carriage, for London had a 
 covering of black snow, and it seemed likely that more 
 would fall. ]\Iartin suggested postponement, but cir- 
 cumstances made this undesirable. 
 
 * Let Fanny go with me/ proposed Sidwell, just after 
 breakfast. * I can see to everything perfectly well, 
 mother.' 
 
 But Fanny liastened to decline. She was engaged for 
 a dance on the morrow. 
 
 ' Then I'll run down with you myself, Sidwell,' said her 
 father. 
 
 Mrs. Warricombe looked at the weather and hesitated. 
 There were strong reasons why she should go, and they 
 determined her to brave discomforts. 
 
 It chanced that the morning post had brought j\Ir. 
 Warricombe a letter from Godwin Peak. It was a 
 reply to one that he had written with Christmas greet- 
 ings ; a kindness natural in him, for he had remembered 
 that the young man was probably hard at work in his 
 lonely lodgings. He spoke of it privately to his wife. 
 
 ' A very good letter — thoughtful and cheerful. You're 
 not likely to see him, but if you happen to, say a ])leasant 
 word.' 
 
 ' I shouldn't have written, if I were you,' remarked Mrs. 
 AVarricombe. 
 
328 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Why not ? 1 was only thinking the other day that 
 he contrasted very favourably with the younger genera- 
 tion as we observe it here. Yes, I have faith in Peak. 
 There's the right stuff in him.' 
 
 ' Oh, I daresay. But still ' 
 
 And Mrs. Warricombe went away with an air of 
 
In volunteering a promise not to inform her brother of 
 Peak's singiiLar position, Marcella spoke with sincerity. 
 She was prompted by incongruous feelings — a desire 
 to compel Godwin's gratitude, and disdain of the cir- 
 cumstances in which she had discovered him. There 
 seemed to be little likelihood of Christian's learning 
 from any other person that she had met with Peak 
 at Pudleigh Salterton ; he had, indeed, dined with her 
 at the "Walworths', and might improve his acquaintance 
 with that family, but it was improbable that they 
 would ever mention in his hearing the stranger who 
 had casually been presented to them, or indeed ever 
 again think of him. If she held her peace, the secret 
 of Godwin's retirement must still remain impenetrable. 
 He would pursue his ends as hitherto, thinking of 
 her, if at all, as a weak woman who liad immodestly 
 betrayed a hopeless passion, and wlio could be trusted 
 never to wish him harm. 
 
 That was ]\Iarcella's way of reading a man's thoughts. 
 She did not attri])ute to Peak the penetration which 
 would make liim uneasy. In spite of masculine proverbs, 
 it is tlie liabit of women to suppose tliat the other sex 
 regards them confidingly, ingenuously. Marcella was 
 unusually endowed with analytic intelligence, but in 
 tliis case she believed what shi' hoped. Siie knew that 
 Peak's confidence in her must be coloured with con- 
 tempt, l»ut this mattered little so long as lie paid her 
 tlie compliment of feeling sure tliat she was superior to 
 ignoble temptations. Many a woman would behave witli 
 
330 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 treacherous malice. It was in her power to expose liiiii, 
 to confound all his schemes, for she knew the authorship 
 of that remarkable paper in lite Critical Review. Before 
 receiving Peak's injunction of secrecy, Earwaker had 
 talked of * The New Sophistry ' with Moxey and with 
 Malkin ; the request came too late. In her interview 
 with Godwin at the Exeter hotel, she had not even 
 hinted at this knowledge, partly because she was un- 
 conscious that Peak imagined the affair a secret between 
 himself and Earwaker, partly because she thought it 
 unworthy of her even to seem to threaten. It gratified 
 her, however, to feel that he was at her mercy, and the 
 thought preoccupied her for many days. 
 
 Passion which has the intellect on its side is more 
 easily endured than that which offers sensual defiance 
 to all reasoning, but on the other hand it lasts much 
 longer. Marcella was not consumed by her emotions ; 
 she often thought calmly, coldly, of the man she loved. 
 Yet he was seldom long out of her mind, and the instiga- 
 tion of circumstances at times made her suffering intense. 
 Such an occasion was her first meeting with Sidwell 
 Warricombe, which took place at the Walworths', in 
 London. Down in Devonshire she had learnt that a 
 family named Warricombe were Peak's intimate friends ; 
 nothing more than this, for indeed no one was in a 
 position to tell her more. Wakeful jealousy caused her 
 to fix upon the fact as one of significance; Godwin's 
 evasive manner when she questioned him confirmed her 
 suspicions ; and as soon as she was brought face to 
 face with Sidwell, suspicion became certainty. She 
 knew at once that Miss Warricombe was the very 
 person who would V)e supremely attractive to Godwin 
 Peak. 
 
 An interval of weeks, and again she saw the face 
 that in tlie menntime had been as present to her 
 imagination as Godwin's own features. This time she 
 conversed at some length with Miss Warricombe. AYas 
 it merely a fancy that the beautiful woman looked at 
 her, spoke to her, with some exceptional interest ? By 
 now she had learnt that the Moorhouses and the 
 
BORN IX KXILK 331 
 
 Warriconil)e« weru cuimected in clusc iiiciulship ; il, 
 was all but certain, then, that Miss Mooiliouse had 
 told Miss Wairiconibe of Peak's visit to Budleigli Sal- 
 terton, and its inci<lents. Could this in any way be 
 explanatory of the steady, searching look in those soft 
 eyes ? 
 
 Marcelhi had always regarded tlie emotion of jealousy 
 as characteristic of a vulgar nature. Now that it 
 possessed her, she endeavoured to call it by otlier names ; 
 to persuade lierself that she was indignant on abstract 
 grounds, or anxious only with reference to Teak's true 
 interests. She could not affect surprise. So intensely 
 sympathetic was lier reading of Godwin's character that 
 she understood — or at all events recognised — the power 
 Sidwell would possess over him. He did not care for 
 enlightenment in a woman ; he was sensual — though in 
 a subtle way ; the aristocratic vein in his temper made 
 him subject to strong impressions from trivialities of 
 personal demeanour, of social tone. 
 
 Yet all was mere conjecture. She had not dared to 
 utter Peak's name, lest in doing so she should betray 
 herself. Constantly planning to make further dis- 
 coveries, she as constantly tried to dismiss all thought 
 of the matter — to learn indifference. Already she had 
 debased herself, and her nature must be contemptible 
 indeed if anything could lure her forward on such a 
 path. 
 
 None the less, she was assiduous in maintaining 
 friendly relations with the Wal worths. Christian, too, 
 had got into the habit of calling there ; it was significant 
 of the noticeable change which was come upon liim — 
 u change his sister was at no loss to understand from 
 the moment that he informed her (gravely, but with- 
 out expressiveness) of ]\Ir. Palmer's deatli. Instead of 
 shunning ordinary society, he seemed bent on extending 
 the circle of his acquaintance. He urged Marcella to 
 invite friendly calls, to have guests at dinner. There 
 seemed to be a general revival of his energies, exhil)ited 
 in the sphere of study as well as of amusement. Not 
 a day went by without his purchasing books or scientific 
 
332 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 apparatus, and the house was brightened with works 
 of art chosen in the studios which ^liss Walworth advised 
 him to visit. All the amiabilities of his character came 
 into free play ; with Marcella he was mirthful, aftection- 
 ate, even caressing. He grew" scrupulous about liis neck- 
 ties, his gloves, and was careful to guard his fingers 
 against corroding acids when he worked in the laboratory. 
 Such indications of hopefulness caused Marcella more 
 misgiving than pleasure ; she made no remark, but 
 waited with anxiety for some light on the course of 
 events. 
 
 Just before dinner, one evening, as she sat alone in 
 the drawing-room, Christian entered with a look which 
 portended some strange announcement. He spoke 
 abruptly : 
 
 ' I have heard something astonishing.' 
 
 ' What is that ? ' 
 
 ' This afternoon I went to the matinee at the A^aude- 
 ville, and found myself among a lot of our friends — the 
 Walwortlis and the Hunters and the Mortons. Between 
 the acts I was talking to Hunter, when a man came up 
 to us, spoke to Hunter, and was introduced to me — a Mr. 
 Warricombe. What do you think he said ? " I believe 
 you know my friend Peak, Mr. Moxey?" "Peak? To 
 be sure ! Can you tell me what has become of him ? " 
 He gave me an odd look. " AYhy, I met liim last, some 
 two months ago, in Devonshire." At that moment we 
 were obliged to go to our places, and I couldn't get hold 
 of the fellow again. Hunter told me something about 
 him; he knows the Walworths, it seems — belongs to a 
 good Devonshire family. What on eartli can Peak l)e 
 doing over there ? ' 
 
 Marcella kept silence. The event she had judged 
 improbable had come to pass. The chance of its doing 
 so had of course increased since Christian began to 
 associate freely with the Walworths and their circle. 
 Yet, considering the slightness of the connection between 
 that group of people and the Warricombe family, there 
 had seemed no great likelihood of Christian's getting 
 acquainted with the latter. She debated rapidly in her 
 
HORN IN KXII.K o33 
 
 troubled mind how to meet this disclo.siire. Curiosity 
 would, of course, impel her l)rother to follow up the clue ; 
 lie would again encounter AVarricombe, and must then 
 learn all the facts of Peak's position. To what purpose 
 should she dissemble her own knowledge ? 
 
 Did she desire that Godwin should remain in security ? 
 A tremor more akin to gladness than its opposite impeded 
 her utterance. If AVarricombe became aware of all that 
 was involved in (Jodwin Peak's withdrawal from among 
 liis friends — if (as must follow) he imparted the discovery 
 to his sister 
 
 The necessity of s])eaking enabled her to ignore these 
 turbulent speculations, which yet were anything but new 
 to her. 
 
 'They met at Budleigh Salterton,' she said, quietlv. 
 
 * Who did ? Warricombe and l*eak ? ' 
 
 'Yes. At the Moorhouses'. It was when I was 
 tliere.' 
 
 Christian stared at her. 
 
 * When you were there ^ But — you met l*eak ? ' 
 
 His sister smiled, turning from tlie astonished 
 iiaze. 
 
 ' Yes, r met him.' 
 
 ' P>ut, why the deuce '. AVhy didn't you tell me, 
 
 iMarcella ? ' 
 
 * Ke asked me not to speak of it. He didn't wish you 
 to know that — that he lias decided to become a clergy- 
 man.' 
 
 Christian was stricken dumb. In spite of his sister's 
 obvious agitation, he could not believe what she told 
 him ; her smile gave him an excuse for supposing that 
 she jested. 
 
 ' Peak a clergyman ? ' He l)urst out laughing. ' What's 
 the meaning of all this ? — Do speak intelligibly ! What's 
 the fellow up to ? ' 
 
 * I am quite serious. He is st^idying for Orders — has 
 been for this last year.' 
 
 In desperation. Christian turned to another phase of 
 the subject. 
 
 ' Then Malkin icas mistaken ? ' 
 
334 BORN IN KXILK 
 
 ' Plainly.' 
 
 ' And you mean to tell me that Peak ? Give me 
 
 more details. Where's he living ? How lias he got to 
 know people like these Warricombes ? ' 
 
 Marcella told all that she knew, and without in- 
 junction of secrecy. The afiair had passed out of her 
 hands ; destiny must fulfil itself. And again the tremor 
 that resembled an uneasy joy went througli her 
 frame. 
 
 'But how/ asked Christian, 'did this fellow Warri- 
 combe come to know that I was a friend of Peak's ? ' 
 
 * That's a puzzle to me. I shouldn't have thought he 
 would have remembered my name ; and, even if he had, 
 how could he conclude ?' 
 
 She broke off, pondering. Warricombe must have 
 made inquiries, possibly suggested by suspicions. 
 
 ' I scarcely spoke of Mr. Peak to anyone,' she added. 
 * People saw, of course, that we were acquaintances, but 
 it couldn't have seemed a thing of any importance.' 
 
 ' You spoke with him in private, it seems ? ' 
 
 ' Yes, I saw him for a few minutes — in Exeter.' 
 
 ' And you hadn't said anything to the AValworths that 
 — that would surprise them ? ' 
 
 ' Purposely not. — Why should I injure him ? ' 
 
 Christian knit his brows. He understood too well why 
 his sister should refrain from such injury. 
 
 ' You would have behaved in the same way,' ^larcella 
 added. 
 
 ' Why really — yes, perhaps so. Yet I don't know. — 
 In plain English, Peak is a wolf in sheep's clothing ! ' 
 
 'I don't know anything about that,' she replied, with 
 gloomy evasion. 
 
 'Nonsense, my dear girl!— Had he tlie impudence to 
 pretend to you tliat he was sincere ? ' 
 
 ' He made no declaration.' 
 
 'But you are convinced he is acting the hypocrite, 
 Marcella. You spoke of the risk of injuring him. — What 
 are his motives ? What does he aim at ? ' 
 
 * Scarcely a bishopric, I should think,' she replied, 
 l)itterly. 
 
HORN IN KXILK ooO 
 
 * Then, l)y Jove ! Earwaker iimy be right ! ' 
 jMarcella darted an inquiring louk at him. 
 
 * AVhat has he thought { ' 
 
 ' I'm ashamed to si)eak of il. He suggested once tliat 
 Teak miglit disguise himself for the sake of — of making 
 a good marriage.' 
 
 The reply was a nervous laugh. 
 
 'Look here, Marcella.' He caught her hand. 'This 
 is a very awkward business. I'eak is disgracing him- 
 self; he will be unmasked; there'll be a scandal. It 
 was kind of you to kee]) silence— when don't you behave 
 kindly, dear girl ^ — but think of the possible results to 
 i(s. AVe shall be sometliing very like accomplices.' 
 
 'How?' Marcella exclaimed, impatiently. 'AYho need 
 know that we were so intimate with him ? ' 
 
 ' Warricombe seems to know it.' 
 
 * Who can prove that he isn't sincere { ' 
 
 'No one, perhaps. lUit it will seem a very odd tiling 
 that he hid away from all his old friends. You re- 
 member, I betrayed that to Warricombe, before I knew 
 that it mattered.' 
 
 Yes, and Mr. Warricombe could hardly forget the 
 circumstance. He would press his investigation — know- 
 ing already, perhaps, of Teak's approaches to his sister 
 Sidwell. 
 
 ' Marcella, a man plays games like that at his own 
 peril. 1 don't like this kind of thing. Perhaps he has 
 audacity enough to face out any disclosure. But it's out 
 of the question for you and me to nurse his secret. We 
 have no right to do so.' 
 
 ' You propose to denounce him ? ' 
 
 ^larcella gazed at her brother with an agitated 
 look. 
 
 ' Not denounce. I am fund of Peak ; 1 wish him well. 
 But I can't join him in a dishonourable plot. — Then, we 
 mustn't endanger our place in society.' 
 
 ' I have no place in society/ iMarcella answered, 
 coldly. 
 
 * Don't say that, and don't think it. We are both 
 going to make more of our lives ; we are going to think 
 
336 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 very little of tlie past, and a great deal of the future. 
 We are still young ; we have happiness before us.' 
 
 * We ? ' she asked, with shaken voice. 
 
 ' Yes — both of us ! Who can say ' 
 
 Again he took her hand and pressed it warmly in both 
 his own. Just then the door opened, and dinner was 
 announced. Christian talked on, in low hurried tones, 
 for several minutes, affectionately, encouragingly. After 
 dinner, he wished to resume the subject, but Marcella 
 declared that there was no more to be said ; he must 
 act as honour and discretion bade him ; for herself, she 
 should simply keep silence as hitherto. And she left 
 him to his reflections. 
 
 Though with so little of ascertained fact to guide lier, 
 Marcella interpreted the hints afforded by her slight 
 knowledge of the AVarricombes with singular accuracy. 
 Precisely as she had imagined, Buckland Warricombe was 
 going about on Teak's track, learning all he could con- 
 cerning the theological student, forming acquaintance 
 with anyone likely to supplement his discoveries. And 
 less than a fortnight after the meeting at the theatre, 
 Christian made known to his sister that Warricombe 
 and he had had a second conversation, this time uninter- 
 rupted. 
 
 ' He inquired after you, Marcella, and — really I had 
 no choice but to ask him to call here. I liardh' think 
 he'll come. He's not the kind of man I care for — though 
 liberal enough, and all that.' 
 
 ' Wasn't it rather rash to give that invitation ? ' 
 
 'The fact was, I so dreaded the appearance of — of 
 seeming to avoid him,' Christian pleaded, awkwardly. 
 ' You know, that affair — we won't talk any more of it ; 
 but, if there should be a row about it, you are sure to 
 be compromised unless we have managed to guard our- 
 seh'es. If Warricombe c;dls, we must talk about Peak 
 without the least show of restraint. Let it appear 
 that we thought his choice of a profession unlikely, but 
 not impossible. Happily, we needn't know anything 
 about that anonymous Critical article. — Indeed, I think 
 I have acted wisely.' 
 
HORN IX KXII.K 337 
 
 Marcella mininured : 
 
 * Yes, I suppose you have.' 
 
 ' And, by the way, I liave spoken of it to tlarwaker. 
 Not of your part in the story, of course. 1 t(»M liini 
 that I had met a man who knew all about Peak. — 
 Impossible, you see, for me to keep silence with so 
 intimate a friend.' 
 
 'Then Mr. Earwaker will write to liim ?' said Marcella, 
 reflectively. 
 
 * I couldn't give him any address.' 
 
 ' How does iMr. Warricombe seem to regard Mr. 
 Peak ( ' 
 
 ' With a good deal of interest, and of the friendliest 
 kind. Naturally enough ; they were College friends, as 
 you know, before I had heard of Peak's existence.' 
 
 ' He has no suspicions ? ' 
 
 Christian thought not, l>ut lier brother's judgment had 
 not much weiijlit with Marcella. 
 
 She at once dreaded and desired War ricom he's appear- 
 ance. H he thought it worth while to cultivate her 
 ac(|uaintanee, she would henceforth have the opportunity 
 of studying Peak's relations with the Warricond)es ; 
 on tlie other hand, this was to expose herself to suflering 
 and temptation from which the better part of her nature 
 shrank with disdain. That she might seem to have 
 broken the promise voluntarily made to Godwin was 
 a small matter ; not so the risk of being overcome by 
 an ignoble jealousy. She had no overweening con- 
 fidence in tlie steadfastness of her self-respect, if circum- 
 stances were all on the side of sensual impulse. xVnd 
 the longer slie brooded on this peril, the more it allured 
 her. For therewitli was connected the one satisfac- 
 tion which still remained to her: however little he 
 desired to keep her constantly in mind, Godwin Peak 
 must of necessity do so after wliat liad ])assed between 
 them. Had but lier discovery remainetl her own secret, 
 tlien the pleasure of commanding her less pure emotions, 
 of proving to Godwin tliat she was al)ove the weakness 
 of common women, might easily have prevailed. Now 
 that lier knowledge was shared by others, she had lost 
 
38 BURN IN KXILK 
 
 that safegiuii'd against lower motive. The argument that 
 to unmask liypocrisy was in itself laudable she dis- 
 missed with contempt; let that be the resource of a 
 woman who would indulge her rancour whilst keeping 
 up the inward pretence of sanctity. If she erred in the 
 ways characteristic of her sex, it should at all events be 
 a conscious degradation. 
 
 ' Have you seen that odd creature Malkin lately ? ' 
 she asked of Christian, a day or two after. 
 
 'No, I haven't; I thought of him to make up our 
 dinner on Sunday ; but you had rather not have him 
 here, I daresay ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, he is amusing. Ask liim by all means,' said 
 Marcella, carelessly. 
 
 * He may have heard about l^eak from Earwaker, you 
 know. If he begins to talk before people ' 
 
 'Things have gone too far for such considerations,' 
 replied Ids sister, with a petulance strange to her habits 
 of speech. 
 
 'AVell, yes,' admitted Christian, glancing at her. 'We 
 can't be responsible.' 
 
 He reproached himself for this attitude towards Peak, 
 l)ut was heartily glad that iMarcella seemed to liave 
 learnt to regard the intriguer with a wholesome indiffer- 
 ence. 
 
 On the second day after Cliristmas, as they sat talking 
 idly in the dusking twiliglit, the door of the drawing- 
 room was tlirown open, and a visitor announced. The 
 name answered with sucli startling suddenness to the 
 thought with wliich Marcella had been occupied that, 
 for an instant, she could not believe that she had heard 
 aright. Yet it was undoubtedly Mr. Warricombe who 
 presented liimself. He came forward with a slightly 
 hesitating air, l»ut Christian made liaste to smooth tlie 
 situation. Witli the help of those commonplaces by which 
 even intellectual people are at times compelled to prove 
 their familiarity with social usages, conversation was set 
 in movement. 
 
 lUickland could not be quite himself. Tlie conscious- 
 ness tliat lie had sought these people not at all for their 
 
BORN IN KXII.K .".30 
 
 own sake miide him formal and dry ; liis glances, his 
 half-smile, indicated a doubt wliethertlie Moxeys l)elonged 
 entirely to the sphere in which he was at home. Hence 
 a rather excessive politeness, such as the man who sets 
 much store on breeding exhibits to those who may at any 
 moment, even in a fraction of a syllable, prove themselves 
 his inferiors. With men and women of the unmistakably 
 lower orders, Buckland could converse in a genial tone 
 that recommended him to their esteem ; on tlie border- 
 land of retinement, his sympathies were repressed, and he 
 held the distinctive part of his mind in reserve. 
 
 Marcella desired to talk agreeably, but a weight lay 
 upon her tongue she was struck with the resemblance in 
 Warricombe's features to those of his sister, and tliis 
 held her in a troubled preoccupation, occasionally evident 
 when she made a reply, or tried to diversify the talk 
 by leading to a new topic. It was rather early in the 
 afternoon, and she had slight hope that any other caller 
 w^ould appear; a female face would have been welcome 
 
 to her, even that of foolish jMrs. ^lorton, who misrht 
 
 ... 
 ])ossibly look in before six o'clock. To her relief the 
 
 door did i)resently open, but the sharp, creaking footsteji 
 
 M'hich followed was no lady's ; the servant announced 
 
 Mr. Malkin. 
 
 Marcella's eyes gleamed strangely. Not with the light 
 of friendly welcome, though for that it could be mistaken. 
 She rose quietly, and stepped forward with a movement 
 which again seemed to betoken eagerness of greeting. In 
 presenting the newcomer to Mr. Warricombe, she spoke 
 with an uncertain voice. Buckland was more than formal. 
 The stranger's aspect impressed him far from favourabl}-, 
 and he resented as an impudence the hearty hand-grip to 
 which he perforce submitted. 
 
 ' I come to plead witli you,' exclaimed Malkin, turning 
 to Marcella, in his abrupt, excited way. 'After accepting 
 your invitation to dine, I find that the thing is utterly 
 and absolutely impossible. I had entirely forgotten an 
 engagement of the very gravest nature. I am conscious 
 of behaving in quite an unpardonable way.' 
 
 Marcella laughed down his excuses. She had suddenly 
 
340 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 become so mirthful that Christian looked at her in 
 surprise, imagining that she was unable to restrain her 
 sense of the ridiculous in Malkin's demeanour. 
 
 * I have hurried up from Wtotham/ pursued the 
 apologist. 'Did I tell you, Moxey, that I had taken 
 rooms down there, to be able to spend a day or two near 
 my friends the Jacoxes occasionally ? On the way here, 
 I looked in at Staple Inn, but Earwaker is away some- 
 where. What an odd thing that people will go off 
 without letting one know ! It's such common ill-luck of 
 mine to find people gone away — I'm really astonished to 
 find you at home, Miss Moxey.' 
 
 Marcella looked at Warricombe and laughed. 
 
 ' You must understand that subjectively,' she said, with 
 nervous gaiety which again excited her brother's surprise. 
 ' I'lease don't be discouraged by it from coming to see us 
 again ; I am very rarely out in the afternoon.' 
 
 * But,' persisted ^lalkin, ' it's precisely my ill fortune 
 to hit on those rare moments when people arc out ! — 
 Now, I never meet acquaintances in the streets of London; 
 but, if I happen to be abroad, as likely as not I encounter 
 the last person I should expect to find. Why, you 
 remember, I rush over to America for scarcely a week's 
 stay, and there I come across a man who has disappeared 
 astonishingly from the ken of all his friends ! ' 
 
 Christian looked at Marcella. She was leaning forward, 
 her lips slightly parted, her eyes wide as if in gaze at 
 something that fascinated her. He saw that she spoke, 
 but her voice was hardly to be recognised. 
 
 ' Are you quite sure of that instance, Mr. Malkin ? ' 
 
 * Yes, I feel quite sure. Miss Moxey. Undoubtedly it 
 was Peak ! ' 
 
 Buckland Warricombe, who had been waiting for a 
 chance of escape, suddenly wore a look of interest. He 
 rapidly surveyed the trio. Christian, somewhat out of 
 countenance, tried to answer Malkin in a tone of light 
 banter. 
 
 *It happens, my dear fellow, tliat Peak has not left 
 England since we lost sight of him.' 
 
 * What ? He has been heard of ? Where is he then ? ' 
 
BORN IN FA'H.K .'341 
 
 ' Mr. Wcirricombe can assure you that he has beeu 
 living for a year at Exeter.' 
 
 Buckland, perceiving tliat lie had at length come upon 
 something important to his purposes, smiled genially. 
 
 ' Yes, I have had the jdeasure of seeing IVak down in 
 Devon from time to time.' 
 
 ' Then it was really an illusion 1 ' cried ]\Ialkin. ' 1 
 was too hasty. Yet that isn't a charge that can be often 
 broucjht a«i;ainst me, I think. Does Earwaker know of 
 this ? ' 
 
 * He has lately heard,' replied Oliristian, who in vain 
 sought for a means of checking ]\Ialkin's loquacity. ' I 
 thought he might have told you.' 
 
 ' Certainly not. The thing is (piite new to me. And 
 what is Peak doing down there, pray ^ AVhy did he 
 conceal himself ? ' 
 
 Christian gazed appealingly at his sister. She returned 
 the look steadily, but neitlier stirred nor spoke. It was 
 Warricombe's voice that next sounded : 
 
 ' Peak's behaviour seems mysterious,' he began, with 
 ironic gravity. * I don't pretend to understand him. 
 AVhat's i/our view of his character, Mr. ^lalkin ? ' 
 
 'I know him very slightly indeed, Mr. Warricomlie. 
 But I have a high opinion of his powers. I wonder he 
 does so little. After tliat article of his in The Critical ' 
 
 Malkin became aware of something like agonised 
 entreaty on Christian's countenance, but this had merely 
 the effect of heiglitening his curiosity. 
 
 'In 71ic CriticdlV said Warricombe, eagerly. '1 
 didn't know of that. What was the subject ? ' 
 
 ' To be sure, it was anonymous,' went on Malkin, with- 
 out a suspicion of the part he was playing Itefore tliese 
 three excited people. ' A paper called *' The New Sophistry," 
 a tremendous bit of satire.' 
 
 Marcella's eyes closed as if a light liad flashed before 
 them ; she drew a short sigli, and at once seemed to 
 become quite at ease, the smile witli whicli slie regarded 
 Warricombe expressing a calm interest. 
 
 * That article was Peak's ? ' Buckland asked, in a very 
 quiet voice. 
 
342 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Christian at last found his opportunity. 
 
 ' He never mentioned it to you ? Perhaps he thouglit 
 he had gone rather too far in liis Broad Churchism, and 
 might be misunderstood.' 
 
 ' Broad Churchism ? ' cried Malkin. ' Uncommonly 
 hroad, I must say ! ' 
 
 And he laughed heartily ; Marcella seemed to join in 
 his mirth. 
 
 'Then it would surprise you/ said Buckland, in the 
 same quiet tone as before, ' to hear that l*eak is about to 
 take Orders ? ' 
 
 ' Orders ?— For what ? ' 
 
 Christian laughed. The worst was over ; after all, it 
 came as a relief. 
 
 ' Not for wines,' lie replied. ' Mr. AVarricombe means 
 that Peak is going to be ordained.' 
 
 Malkin's amazement rendered him speechless. He 
 stared from 'one person to another, his features strangely 
 distorted. 
 
 ' You can hardly believe it ? ' pressed Buckland. 
 
 The reply was anticipated by Christian saying : 
 
 'Kemember, Malkin, that you had no opportunity 
 of studying Peak. It's not so easy to understand him.' 
 
 ' But I don't see,' burst out the other, ' how I could 
 possibly so //misunderstand him ! What has Earwaker to 
 say ? ' 
 
 Buckland rose from his seat, advanced to Marcella, 
 and offered his hand. She said mechanically, ' Must you 
 go ? ' but was incapable of another word. Christian 
 came to her relief, performed the needful civilities, and 
 accompanied his aecpiaintauce to the foot of the stairs. 
 Buckland had become grave, stiff, monosyllabic ; Christian 
 made no allusion to the scene thus suddenly interrupted, 
 and they parted with a formal air. 
 
 ]\Ialkin remained for another quarter of an hour, when 
 the muteness of his companions made it plain to him 
 tliat he had better withdraw. He went off with a sense 
 of having been mystified, half resentful, and vastly im- 
 patient to see P]arwaker. 
 
 i 
 
PART THE FIFTH 
 
PART THE FIFTH 
 
 I 
 
 TiiH cuckoo clock in Mrs. Uoots's kitchen had just struck 
 three. A wind roared from the nortli - east, and light 
 tliickeued beneath a sky which made threat of snow. 
 Teak was in a mood to enjoy the crackling fire ; he 
 settled himself with a book in his easy-chair, and thought 
 with pleasure of two hours' reading, before the appearance 
 of the homely teapot. 
 
 Christmas was just over — one cause of the feeling of 
 relief and quietness which possessed him. Xo one had 
 invited him for Christmas Eve or the day that followed, 
 and he did not regret it. Tlie letter he had received 
 from ^lartin ^yarricombe was assurance enough that 
 those he desired to remember him still did so. He 
 had thouglit of using this season for his long 
 postponed visit to Twyljridge, but reluctance prevailed. 
 All popular holidays irritated and depressed him ; he 
 loathed the spectacle of multitudes in Sunday garb. It 
 was all over, and the sense of that afforded him a brief 
 content. 
 
 Tliis book, wliicli he had just la'ought from tlie circulat- 
 ing li])rary, was altogether to liis taste. The author, 
 Justin Walsh, he knew to be a l)rother of Professor 
 Walsh, long ago the o])ject of his rebellious admiration. 
 Matter and treatment rejoiced liim. No intellectual 
 
346 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 delight, though he was capable of it in many forms, so 
 stirred his spirit as that afforded him by a vigorous 
 modern writer joyously assailing the old moralities. Justin 
 Walsh was a modern of the moderns; at once man of 
 science and man of letters ; defiant without a hint of 
 popular cynicism, scornful of English reticences yet 
 never gross, ' On i, repondit Pococurante, il est beau 
 (Vecrire ce (iiCon pense ; c'est le privilege de Vliomme.' ■ This 
 stood by way of motto on the title-page, and Godwin felt 
 liis nerves thrill in sympathetic response. 
 
 What a fine fellow he must be to have for a friend 1 
 Now a man like this surely had companionship enough 
 and of the kind he wished ? He wrote like one who 
 associates freely with the educated classes both at home 
 and abroad. Was he married ? AVhere would he seek 
 his wife ? The fitting mate for him would doubtless be 
 found among those women, cosmopolitan and emancipated, 
 whose acquaintance falls only to men in easy circum- 
 stances and of good social standing, men who travel 
 much, who are at home in all the great centres of 
 civilisation. 
 
 As Peak meditated, the volume fell upon his knee. 
 Had it not lain in his own power to win a reputation 
 like that which Justin Walsh was achieving ? His paper 
 in Tlte Critical Review, itself a decided success, might have 
 been followed up by others of the same tenor. Instead 
 of mouldering in a dull cathedral town, he might now be 
 living and working in France or Germany. His money 
 would have served one purpose as well as the other, 
 and two or three years of determined eftbrt 
 
 ]\rrs. Iioots showed her face at the door. 
 
 ' A gentleman is asking for you, sir, — Mr. Chilvers.' 
 
 ' ]\Ir. Chilvers ? Please ask him to come up.' 
 
 He threw his book on to the table, and stood in 
 expectancy. Someone ascended the stairs with rapid 
 stride and creaking boots. The door was flung open, 
 and a cordial but affected voice burst forth in greeting. 
 
 ' Ha, Mr. Peak ! I hope you haven't altogether for- 
 gotten me ? Delighted to see you again ! ' 
 
 Godwin gave his hand, and felt it strongly pressed. 
 
BORN IX EXILK 347 
 
 whilst Chilvers gazed into his face with a smiling wist- 
 fulness which could only be answered with a grin of 
 discomfort. The Kev. ih-iino had grown very tall, 
 and seemed to be in perfect health; but the effeminacy 
 of his brilliant youth still declared itself in his attitudes, 
 gestures, and attire. He was dressed with marked 
 avoidance of the professional pattern. A hat of soft 
 felt but not clerical, fashionable collar and tie, a 
 sweeping ulster, and beneath it a frock-coat, which was 
 doubtless the pride of some West End tailor. His patent- 
 leather boots were dandiacally diminutive; his glove 
 titted like that of a lady who lives but to be lien ganlee. 
 The feathery hair, which at Whitelaw he was wont to 
 pat and smooth, still had its golden shimmer, and on his 
 face no growth was permitted. 
 
 ' I had heard of your arrival here, of course,' said 
 Peak, trying to appear civil, though anything more 
 than that was beyond his power. ' Will you sit 
 down ? ' 
 
 'This is the "breathing time o' the day" with you, I 
 hope ? I don't disturb your work i ' 
 
 ' I was only reading this book of A\'al.sh's. Do you 
 know it i ' 
 
 V)Wt for some such relief of his feelings, Godwin could 
 not have sat still. There was a pleasure in uttering 
 Walsh's name. ^loreover, it would serve as a test of 
 Chilvers' disposition. 
 
 'Walsh?' He took up the volume. 'Hal Justin 
 Walsh. I know him. A wonderful book ! Admiral tie 
 dialectic ! Delicious style ! ' 
 
 'Not quite orthodox,! fancy,' replied (lodwin, with a 
 curling of the lips. 
 
 'Orthodox? Oh, of course not, of course not! JUit a 
 rich vein of humanity. Don't you find that .^ — Pray 
 allow me to throw off my overcoat. Ha, thanks ! — A 
 rich vein of humanity. Walsh is by no means to be 
 confused with the nulliiidians. A very broad - hearted, 
 large - souled man ; at bottom the truest of ( 'hristians. 
 Now and then he effervesces rather too exuberantly. 
 Yes, I admit it. In a review of his last book, which I 
 
S48 I30KX IX KXILK 
 
 «» wiitc for caie of oar pjipei^ I >-eiitiii>ed 
 n Ike ■eMssttv o^ nfi?:? n« «/ : it s^vius to 
 
 to ike smeiie fxtiiude which I tnisi he 
 A KMi of tke bcoftdeiSt bivxheiiine?^ A 
 -He tHr ei iq Ma ce a t OaistHadtT.* 
 
 Miiiy pRfued Ibr tdas str^n. He knew 
 
 TT^ai kiK^ <« "litcadth,' bat as yei he 
 
 amnse vidi tke broadest sdkiol (rf 
 
 : -r---^^^-^ ^ to the Kmits of modan 
 
 :T€iy of such fanta^ie 
 
 'I ihx but di^ike and 
 
 : ?.r least it di^>08ed 
 
 _ , ^ni- Chilvers" 
 
 _ 1.. rdnguished bv 
 
 . it was i::ip<>55ible not to 
 
 . ' Thongh his 
 
 . r managed to 
 
 . : :isi urterance. 
 
 rTrsr-jnd with 
 
 . -r war he 
 
 ^-^--i .- .„. . . iiiveTed an 
 
 :Z he was derot- sports. His 
 
 fnng as . .z:..iig dumb-lnells, 
 
 ' then, sptf^ to the uttermost, 
 
 ncB thofjrmti ijBiek in an attitude 
 
 *So T^: to join us,' he exclaimed, with a 
 
 look of : --^^ , ^r-h Kke th?it of a ladies'* 
 
 doctor r . f taxffmuhhi symptoms. 
 
 Thea, » 'i^e virile note, *I 
 
 Xkaak we r. I am always 
 
 ioir ; > ;, ;, ^' wi who liave 
 
 ;. ^..3 iiiitifh: already 
 
 jom bare f tlie thinking? people 
 
 Veak. *r. ^ *."> r^ly, 
 
 *TheK ; of the r^.i'entific 
 
 t^piiit im, . llie chtirrhman 
 
 kitliefto ban bees, aui a »aill«r of cottrsie, of thie liUfnry 
 
 1 
 
BORN IX KXILK 349 
 
 stamp ; hence iiiiK-h uf our trouble (luiin«,^ the hist hulf- 
 ceiituiy. It helioves us to go in for science — physical, 
 economic — science of every kind. Only thus can we 
 resist the morbific intluences which inevitably buset an 
 Kstal)lished Church in times such as these. I say it 
 boldly. Let us throw aside our Hebrew and our Greek, 
 our commentators ancient and modern ! Let us have done 
 with polemics and with compromises ! What we have 
 to do is to construct a spiritual edifice (jn tlie basis of 
 scientific revelation. 1 use the word revelation advisedly. 
 The results of science are the divine message to our age ; 
 to neglect them, to fear them, is to remain under the 
 old law whilst the new is demanding our adherence, to 
 repeat the Jewish error of bygone time. Less of St. 
 Paul, and more of Darwin ! Less of Luther, and more of 
 Herbert Spencer ! ' 
 
 * Shall I have the pleasure of hearing this doctrine at 
 St. Margaret's ? ' l*eak inquired. 
 
 * In a form suitable to the intelligence of my parish- 
 ioners, taken in the mass. Were my hands perfectly 
 free, I should begin by preaching a series of sermons on 
 The Orvjin of Species. Sermons ! An obnoxious word ! 
 One ought never to use it. It signifies everything inept, 
 inert.' 
 
 * Is it your serious belief, then, that the mass of 
 parishioners — here or elsewhere — are ready for this form 
 of spiritual instruction ? ' 
 
 'Most distinctly — given the true capacity in the 
 teacher. ]\Iark me ; I don't say that they are capa1.)le of 
 receiving much absolute knowledge. What I desire is 
 that their minds shall be relieved from a state of 
 harassing conflict — put at the right point of view. They 
 are not to think that Jesus of Nazareth teaches faith and 
 conduct incompatible with the doctrines of Evolutionism. 
 They are not to spend their lives in kicking against the 
 pricks, and regard as meritorious the punctures which 
 result to them. The establishment in their minds of a 
 few cardinal facts — that is the first step. Then let the 
 interpretation follow — the solace, the encouragement, the 
 hope for eternityj ' 
 
350 BORN IN p:xile 
 
 ' You imagine,' said Godwin, with a calm air, ' that the 
 mind of the average church-goer is seriously disturbed 
 on questions of faith ? ' 
 
 * How can you ignore it, my dear Peak ? — Permit me 
 this familiarity ; we are old fellow - collegians. — The 
 average church-ofoer is the averacre citizen of our Enolish 
 commonwealth, — a man necessarily aware of the great 
 Eadical movement, and all that it involves. Forgive me. 
 There has been far too much blinking of actualities by 
 zealous Christians whose faith is rooted in knowledge. 
 We gain nothing by it ; we lose immensely. Let us 
 recognise that our churches are filled with sceptics, 
 endeavouring to believe in spite of themselves.' 
 
 ' Your experience is much larger than mine,' remarked 
 the listener, submissively. 
 
 ' Indeed I have widely studied the subject.' 
 
 Chilvers smiled with ineffable self-content, his head 
 twisted like that of a sagacious parrot. 
 
 ' Granting your average citizen,' said the other, ' what 
 about the average citizeness ? The female church-goers 
 are not insignificant in number.' 
 
 ' Ha 1 There we reach the core of the matter ! 
 Woman ! woman ! Precisely tkei^e is the most hopeful 
 outlook. I trust you are strong for female emancipa- 
 tion ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, perfectly sound on that question ! ' 
 
 * To be sure ! Then it must be obvious to you that 
 women are destined to play tlie leading part in our 
 Christian renascence, precisely as they did in the original 
 spreading of the faith. What else is the meaning of 
 the vast activity in female education ? Let them be 
 taught, and forthwith they will rally to our Broad 
 Church. A man may be content to remain a nullifidian ; 
 women cannot rest at that stage. They demand the 
 spiritual significance of everything. — I grieve to tell you, 
 Peak, that for three years I have been a widower. My 
 wife died with shocking suddenness, leaving me her 
 two little children. Ah, but leaving me also the 
 memory of a singularly pure and noble being. I 
 may say, with all humility, that I have studied the 
 
BOIIX IX KXILK 351 
 
 female mind in its noblest modern ty])e. 1 Lmnr what 
 can be expected of woman, in our day and in the 
 future.' 
 
 ' Mrs. Chilvers was in full sympatliy with your 
 views ? ' 
 
 ' Three years ago I had not yet reached my present 
 standpoint. In several directions I was still narrow. 
 But her prime characteristic was the tendency to spiritual 
 growth. She would have accompanied me step by step. 
 In very many respects I must regard myself as a man 
 favoured by fortune, — 1 know it, and I trust I am giateful 
 for it, — but that loss, my dear Teak, counterbalances 
 mucli happiness. In moments of repose, when I look 
 bfick on work joyously acliieved, I often murmur to 
 myself, with a sudden sigh, Excepto quod non simul esses, 
 cccfera hvfus!' 
 
 He i)ronounced his Latin in the new-old way, with 
 C.'ontinental vowels. The effect of this on an Englisli- 
 man's lii>s is always more or less pedantic, and in his case 
 it \vas hi tolerable. 
 
 ' And when,' he exclaimed, dismissing the melancholy 
 thought, • do you present yourself for ordination ? ' 
 
 It was his liabit to pay slight attention to the words of 
 anyone but himself, and Teak's careless answer merely led 
 liim to talk on wide subjects with renewal of energy. 
 One might have suspected that he had made a list of 
 unconnnon words wherewith to adorn his discourse, for 
 certain of these frequently recurred. ' Xullifidian,' 
 'morbific,' 'renascent,' were among his favourites. Once 
 or twice he spoke of ' psychogenesis,' with an emphatic 
 enunciation which seemed to invite respectful wonder. 
 In using Lfitin words which have become fixed in the 
 English language, lie generally corrected the common 
 errors of quantity : ' mi/inns the spiritual fervour,' ' acting 
 as his htccum tenncnx' When he referred to Christian 
 teachers with whom he was ac([uainted, they were sehhjm 
 or never members of the Church of England. Methodists, 
 Eomanists, Presbyterians appeared to stand high in his 
 favour, and Peak readily discerned that this was a way of 
 displaying ' large-souled tolerance.' It was his foible to 
 
352 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 quote foreign languages, especially passages which caine 
 from heretical authors. Thus, he began to talk of Feuer- 
 bach for the sole purpose of delivering a German 
 sentence. 
 
 ' He has been of infinite value to me — quite infinite 
 value. You remember his definition of God ? It is 
 constantly in my mind. " Gott ist eine Thrdne der Liehe, 
 in ticfstcr Verhorgenlieit vcrgossen iiher das menschliche 
 Mend." Profoundly touching ! I know nothing to 
 approach it.' 
 
 Suddenly he inquired : 
 
 ' Do you see much of the Exeter clergy ? ' 
 
 * I know only the A'icar of St. Ethelreda's, Mr. 
 Lilywhite.' 
 
 ' Ha ! Admirable fellow ! Large - minded, broad of 
 sympathies. Has distinctly the scientific turn of 
 thought.' 
 
 Peak smiled, knowing the truth. But he had hit upon 
 a way of meeting the llev. Bruno which promised greatly 
 to diminish the suffering inherent in the situation. He 
 would use the large-souled man deliberately for his mirth. 
 Chilvers' self-absorption lent itself to persiflage, and by 
 indulging in that mood Godwin tasted some compensation 
 for the part he had to play. 
 
 * And I believe you know the Warricomljes very well ?' 
 pursued Chilvers. 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
 ' Ha 1 I hope to see much of them. They are people 
 after my own heart. Long ago I had a slight acquaint- 
 ance with them. I hear we shan't see them till the 
 summer.' 
 
 ' I believe not.' 
 
 ' Mr. Warricombe is a great geologist, I think ? — 
 Probably he frequents public worship as a mere tribute 
 to social opinion ? ' 
 
 He asked the question in the airiest possible way, as 
 if it mattered nothing to him what the reply might 
 be. 
 
 ' Mr. Warricombe is a man of sincere piety,' Godwin 
 answered, with grave countenance. 
 
BORN IN EXILK iloJ 
 
 * That by no means necessitates chureh-,L;«»in,L,^ my dear 
 Peak,' rejoined the other, waving his hand. 
 
 ' You tliink not ? I am still only a student, you 
 must renieml)er. ^ly mind is in suspense on not a few 
 points.' 
 
 ' Of course ! Of course ! Pray let me give you the 
 results of my own thought on this suhject.' 
 
 He proceeded to do so, at some length. When he 
 had rounded his last period, he unexpectedly started up, 
 swung on his toes, spread his chest, drew a deep breath, 
 and with the sweetest of smiles announced that lie must 
 postpone tlie delight of further conversation. 
 
 'You nmst come and dine with me as soon as my 
 house is in reasonable order. As yet, everything is seiis 
 dcssus-dcssous. Delightful old city, Exeter ! Charming ! 
 Charming ! ' 
 
 And on the moment he was gone. 
 
 What were this man's real opinions / He had brains 
 and literature ; his pose before the world was not that of 
 an ignorant chaiiatan. Vanity, no doubt, was his prime 
 motive, but did it operate to make a cleric of a secret 
 materialist, or to incite a display of excessive liberalism in 
 one whose convictions were orthodox ? Godwin could 
 not answer to his satisfaction, but he preferred tlie latter 
 surmise. 
 
 One thing, however, became clear to him. All his 
 conscientious scruples about entering the Church were 
 superfluous. Chilvers would have smiled pityingly at 
 anyone who disputed his right to live by the Estabhsh- 
 ment, and to stand u}) as an autliorised preacher of tlie 
 national faith. And beyond a doubt he regulated his 
 degree of ' breadtli ' by standards familiar to him in 
 professional intercourse. To him it seemed all-sutlicient 
 to preach a gospel of moral progress, of intellectual 
 growth, of universal fraternity. If tliis were tlie tendency 
 of Anglicanism, then almost any man who desired to live 
 a cleanly life, and to see others do the same, might 
 without hesitation become a clergyman. The old formuhe 
 of subscription were so symbolised, so volatilised, that 
 they could not stand in the way of anyone but a com- 
 
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354 BORN IN EXILP] 
 
 bative nihilist. Peak was conscious of positive ideals by 
 no means inconsistent with Christian teaching, and in 
 his official capacity these alone would direct him. 
 
 He spent his evening pleasantly, often laughing as he 
 recalled a phrase or gesture of the Rev. Bruno's. 
 
 In the night fell a sprinkling of snow, and when the 
 sun rose it gleamed from a sky of pale, frosty blue. At 
 ten o'clock Godwin set out for his usual walk, choosing 
 the direction of the Old Tiverton Eoad. It was a 
 fortnight since he had passed the Warricombes' house. 
 At present he was disposed to indulge the thoughts which 
 a sight of it would make active. 
 
 He had beL^un the ascent of the hill when the sound of 
 an approaching vehicle caused him to raise his eyes — they 
 were generally fixed on the ground when he walked alone. 
 It was only a hired fly. But, as it passed him, he recog- 
 nised the face he had least expected to see, — Sidwell 
 Warricombe sat in the carriage, and unaccompanied. She 
 noticed him — smiled — and bent forward. He clutched 
 at his hat, but it happened that the driver had turned to 
 look at him, and, instead of the salute he had intended, 
 his hand waved to the man to stop. The gesture was 
 scarcely voluntary; when he saw the carriage pull up, 
 his heart sank ; he felt guilty of monstrous impudence. 
 But Sidwell's face appeared at the window, and its 
 expression was anything but resentful ; she offered her 
 hand, too. Without preface of formal phrase he ex- 
 claimed : 
 
 ' How delightful to see you so unexpectedly ! Are you 
 all here ? ' 
 
 ' Only mother and I. A¥e have come for a day 
 or two.' 
 
 ' Will you allow me to call ? If only for a few 
 minutes ' 
 
 ' We shall be at home this afternoon.' 
 
 * Thank you ! Don't you enjoy the sunshine after 
 London ? ' 
 
 ' Indeed I do ! ' 
 
 He stepped back and signed to the driver. Sidwell 
 bent her head and was out of sight. 
 
BORN IX FA'Tr.K I) 
 
 But tho carriage was visible for some distance, and even 
 when lie could no longer see it he heard the horse's hoofs 
 on the hard road. Long after the last sound had died 
 away his heart continued to beat painfully, and he 
 breathed as if recovering from a hard run. 
 
 How beautiful were these lanes and hills, even in mid- 
 winter ! Once more he sang aloud in his joyous solitude. 
 The hope he had nourished was not unreasonable ; his 
 boldness justified itself. Yes, he was one of the men who 
 succeed, and the life before him wouLl be richer for all 
 the mistakes and miseries through which he had passed. 
 Thirty, forty, fifty — why, twenty years hence he would be 
 ill the prime of manhood, with perhaps yet another 
 twenty years of mental and bodily vigour. One of the 
 men who succeed ! 
 
II 
 
 On the morning after her journey down from London, 
 Mrs. Warricombe awoke with the conviction that she had 
 caught a cold. Her health was in general excellent, and 
 she had no disposition to nurse imaginary ailments, but 
 wdien some slight disorder broke the routine of her life 
 she made the most of it, enjoying — much as children do — 
 the importance with which for the time it invested her. 
 At such seasons she was wont to regard herself with a 
 mildly despondent compassion, to feel that her family 
 and her friends held her of slight account ; she spoke in 
 a tone of conscious resignation, often with a forgiving 
 smile. When the girls redoubled their attentions, and 
 soothed her with gentle words, she would close her eyes 
 and sigh, seeming to remind them that they would know 
 her value when she was no more. 
 
 * You are hoarse, mother,' Sidwell said to her, when 
 they met at breakfast. 
 
 * Am I, dear ? You know I felt rather afraid of the 
 journey. I hope I shan't be laid up.' 
 
 Sidwell advised her not to leave the house to-day. 
 Having seen the invalid comfortably established in an 
 upper room, she went into the city on business which 
 could not be delayed. On her way occurred the meeting 
 with Peak, but of this, on her return, she made no 
 mention. Mother and daughter had luncheon upstairs, 
 and Sidwell was full of affectionate solicitude. 
 
 ' This afternoon you had better lie dowai for an hour or 
 two,' she said. 
 
 ' Do you think so ? Just drop a line to father, and 
 warn him that we may be kept here for some time.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 357 
 
 ' Shall I send for Dr. Eiidacott ? ' 
 
 ' Just as you like, dear.' 
 
 But ^Irs. Warricouibe had eaten such an excellent 
 lunch, that Sidwell could not feel uneasy. 
 
 ' We'll see how you are this evening. At all events, 
 it will be safer for you not to go downstairs. If you lie 
 quiet for an hour or two, I can look for those pamphlets 
 that father wants.' 
 
 ' Just as you like, dear.' 
 
 By three o'clock the invalid was cahnly slumbering. 
 Having entered the bedroom on tiptoe and heard regular 
 breathing, Sidwell went down and for a few minutes 
 lingered about the hall. A servant came to her for 
 instructions on some domestic matter; when this was 
 dismissed she mentioned that, if anyone called, she would 
 1)6 found in the library. 
 
 The pamphlets of which her father had spoken were 
 soon discovered. She laid them aside, and seated herself 
 l)y the fire, but without leaning back. At any sound 
 within or outside the house she moved her head to listen. 
 Her look was anxious, but the gleam of her eyes ex- 
 pressed pleasurable agitation. 
 
 At half-past three she went into the drawing-room, 
 where all the furniture was draped, and the floor bare. 
 Standing where she could look from a distance through 
 one of the windows, at which the blind had been raised, 
 slie waited for a quarter of an hour. Tlien the chill 
 atmosphere drove her back to the fireside. In the study, 
 evidences of temporary desertion were less oppressive, 
 ])ut the windows looked only upon a sequestered part of 
 tlie garden. Sidwell desired to watch the apju'oacli from 
 tlie high-road, and in a few minutes she was again in the 
 drawing-room. But scarcely had she closed the door 
 behind her when a ringing of the visitors* bell sounded 
 with unfamiliar distinctness. She started, hastened from 
 the room, fled into the lil)rary, and had time to seat 
 herself before she heard the footsteps of a servant moving 
 in answer to the summons. 
 
 Tlie door opened, and Teak was announced. 
 
 Sidwell had never known what it was to be tlius over- 
 
358 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 come with emotion. Shame at her inability to command 
 the cahn features with wdiich slie would naturally receive 
 a caller flushed her cheeks and neck ; she stepped forward 
 with downcast eyes, and only in offering her hand could 
 at length look at him who stood before her. She saw at 
 once that Peak was unlike himself ; he too had unusual 
 warmth in his countenance, and his eyes seemed 
 strangely large, luminous. On his forehead were drops 
 of moisture. 
 
 This sight restored her self-control, or such measure of 
 it as permitted her to speak in the conventional way. 
 
 ' I am sorry that mother can't leave lier room. She had 
 a slight cold this morning, but I didn't think it would give 
 her any trouble.' 
 
 Peak was delighted, and betrayed the feeling even 
 whilst he constrained his face into a look of exac^oerated 
 anxiety. 
 
 ' It won't be anything serious, I hope ? The railway 
 journey, I'm afraid.' 
 
 ' Yes, the journey. She has a slight hoarseness, but I 
 think we shall prevent it from ' 
 
 Their eyes kept meeting, and with more steadfastness. 
 They were conscious of mutual scrutiny, and, on both 
 sides, of changes since they last met. When two people 
 have devoted intense study to each other's features, a 
 three months' absence not only revives tlie old impres- 
 sions but subjects them to sudden modification which 
 engrosses thought and feeling. Sidwell continued to 
 utter commonplaces, simply as a means of disguising 
 the thoughts that occupied her; she was saying to 
 herself that Peak's face had a purer outline than she had 
 believed, and that his eyes had gained in expressiveness. 
 In the same way Godwin said and replied he knew not 
 what, just to give himself time to observe and enjoy 
 the something new — the increased animation or subtler 
 facial movements — which struck him as/, often as he 
 looked at his companion. Each wondered what the 
 other liad been doing, whether tlie time had seemed long 
 or short. 
 
 ' I hope you have kept well ? ' Sidwell asked. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 350 
 
 Godwin hastened to respond with civil in([uiries. 
 
 'I was very glad to hear from Mr. Warriconihe a few 
 days ago/ he continued. Sidwell was not aware that her 
 father had written, l)ut lier pleased smile seemed to 
 signify the contrary. 
 
 ' She looks younger,' Peak said in his mind. ' Perhaps 
 that London dress and the new way of arranging her hair 
 have something to do with it. But no, she looks younger 
 in herself. Slie must have been enjoying the pleasures 
 of town.' 
 
 ' You have been constantly occupied, no doubt,' he 
 added aloud, feeling at the same time that this was a 
 clumsy expression of what he meant. Though he had 
 unbuttoned his overcoat, and seated himself as easily as 
 he could, the absurd tall hat wiiich he held embarrassed 
 him ; to deposit it on the floor demanded an eflbrt of 
 which he was yet incapable. 
 
 *I have seen many things and heard much talk,' 
 Sidwell was replying, in a gay tone. It irritated him ; 
 he would have preferred her to speak with more of 
 the old pensiveness. Yet perhaps she was glad 
 simply because she found herself again talking with 
 him ? 
 
 ' And you ? ' she went on. ' It has not been all work, 
 I hope ? ' 
 
 * Oh no ! I have had many pleasant intervals.' 
 
 This was in imitation of her vivacity. He felt the 
 words and the manner to be ridiculous, but could not 
 restrain himself Every moment increased his uneasi- 
 ness ; the hat weighed in his hands like a lump of 
 lead, and he was convinced that he had never looked 
 so clownish. Did her smile signify criticism of liis 
 attitude ? 
 
 With a decision which came he knew not how, lie let 
 his liat drop to the floor and puslied it aside. There, lluit 
 was better ; he felt less of a bumpkin. 
 
 Sidwell glanced at the glossy grotesque, but inslantly 
 averted her eyes, and asked ratlier more gravely : 
 
 ' Have you been in Exeter all the time ? ' 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
360 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' But you didn't spend your Christmas alone, I hope ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, I had my books,' 
 
 Was there not a touch of natural pathos in this ? He 
 hoped so ; then mocked at himself for calculating such 
 effects. 
 
 ' I think you don't care much for ordinary social 
 pleasures, Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 He smiled bitterly. 
 
 ' I have never known much of them, — and you re- 
 member that I look forward to a life in which they will 
 liave little part. Such a life,' he continued, after a pause, 
 ' seems to you unendurably dull ? I noticed that, when I 
 spoke of it before.' 
 
 'You misunderstood me.' She said it so undecidedly 
 that he gazed at her with puzzled look. Her eyes fell. 
 
 ' But you like society ? ' 
 
 ' If you use the word in its narrowest mean.ing,' she 
 answered, 'then I not only dislike society, but despise 
 it.' 
 
 She had raised her eyebrows, and was looking coldly at 
 him. Did she mean to rebuke him for the tone he had 
 adopted ? Indeed, he seemed to himself presumptuous. 
 But if they were still on terms such as these, was it not 
 better to know it, even at the cost of humiliation ? One 
 moment he believed that he could read Sidwell's thoughts, 
 and that they were wholly favourable to him ; at another 
 he felt absolutely ignorant of all that was passing in her, 
 and disposed to interpret her face as that of a conven- 
 tional woman who had never regarded him as on her own 
 social plane. Tliese imcertainties, these frequent rever- 
 sions to a state of mind which at other times he seemed 
 to have long outgrown, were a singular feature of his 
 relations with Sidwell. Could such experiences consist with 
 genuine love ? Never had he felt more willing to answer 
 the question wdth a negative. He felt that he was come 
 lua^e to act a part, and that the end of the interview, ])e it 
 what it might, would only affect him superficially. 
 
 * No,' he replied, with deliberation ; * I never supposed 
 that you had any interest in the most foolish class of 
 wealthy people. T meant that you recognise your place 
 
BORN IN EXILE 301 
 
 ill a certain social rank, and regard intercourse with y<jur 
 equals as an essential of happiness.' 
 
 ' If I understood why you ask ' she began aliruptly, 
 
 but ceased as she met his glance. Again he thought 
 she was asserting a distant dignity. 
 
 ' The question arose naturally out of a train of thought 
 which always occupies me when I talk with you. I 
 myself Ijelong to no class whatever, and 1 can't help 
 wondering how — if the subject ever occurred to you — you 
 would place me.' 
 
 He saw his way now, and, having said thus much, 
 could talk on deliantly. This hour must decide his 
 fortune with Sidwell, yet his tongue utterly refused any 
 of the modes of speech which the situation would have 
 suggested to an ordinary mind. He could not 'make 
 love.' Instead of humility, he was prompted to display 
 a rough arrogance ; instead of tender phrases, he uttered 
 what sounded like deliberate rudeness. His voice was 
 less gently tuned than Sidwell had been wont to hear it. 
 It all meant that he despaired of wooing successfully, and 
 more than half wished to force some word from Sidwell 
 which would spare liim the necessity of a plain avowal. 
 
 But before he had finished speaking, her face changed. 
 A light of sudden understanding shone in her eyes ; her 
 lips softened to a smile of exquisite gentleness. 
 
 ' The subject never did occur to me,' she answered. 
 ' How should it ? A friend is a friend.' 
 
 It was not strictly true, but in the strength of her 
 emotion she could forget all that contradicted it. 
 
 * A friend — yes.' 
 
 Godwin began with the same note of bluntness. lUit 
 of a sudden he felt the intiuence of Sidwell's smile. His 
 voice sank into a murmur, his heart leai)t, a thrill went 
 through his veins. 
 
 * 1 wish to be something more than a friend.' 
 
 He felt that it was bald, inadequate. Yet the words 
 had come of their ow^n accord, on an impulse of unim- 
 paired sincerity. Sidwell's head was bent. 
 
 'That is why I can't take simple things for granted,' 
 he continued, his gaze fixed upon her. 'If I thought of 
 
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 362 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 nothing but friendship, it would seem rational enough 
 that you should accept me for what I am — a man of 
 education, talking your own language. Because I have 
 dared to hope something more, I suffer from the thought 
 that I was not born into your world, and that you must 
 be always remembering this difference.' 
 
 ' Do you think me so far behind the age ? ' asked 
 Sidwell, trying to laugh. 
 
 ' Classes are getting mixed, confused. Yes, but we are_ 
 so conscious of the process that we talk of class distinc- 
 tions more than of anything else, — talk and think of them 
 Jiicessantly. You have never heard me make a profession 
 of Eadicalism ; / am decidedly behind the age. Be what 
 I may — and I have spiritual pride more than enough — the 
 fact that I have relatives in the lower, even the lowest, 
 social class nmst necessarily affect the whole course of 
 my life. A certain kind of man declares himself proud 
 of such an origin — and most often lies. Or one may be 
 driven by it into rebellion against social privilege. To 
 me, my origin is simply a grave misfortune, to be accepted 
 and, if possible, overcome. Does that sound mean- 
 spirited ? I can't help it ; I want you to know me.' 
 
 ' I believe I know you very well,' Sidwell replied. 
 
 The consciousness that she was deceived checked the 
 words which were rising to his lips. Again he saw 
 himself in a pitiful light, and this self-contempt reflected 
 upon Sidwell. He could not doubt that she was yielding 
 to him ; her attitude and her voice declared it ; but what 
 was the value of love won by imposture ? AVhy had she 
 not intelligence enough to see through his hypocrisy, 
 which at times was so thin a veil ? How defective must 
 her sympathy be ! 
 
 ' Yet you have seen very little of me,' he said, smiling. 
 
 There was a sliort silence ; then he exclaimed in a voice 
 of emotion : 
 
 * How I wish we had known each other ever since that 
 day when your brother brought me to your house near 
 Kingsmill ! If we had met and talked through all those 
 years 1 But that was impossible for the very reason 
 which makes me inarticulate now that I wisli to say so 
 
BORN IN EXILE 3G3 
 
 much. When you first saw lue T was a [,'awky sdioolljoy, 
 loaniino- to use uiy brains, and kuowini,^ already that life 
 had nothing to oiler nie but a false [)Osition. AVhetlier I 
 remained with my kith and kin, or turned my back upon 
 them in the hope of finding my equals, I was condemned 
 to a life of miserable incompleteness. I was b f?rn in - 
 exile. It took a long time before I had taught myself 
 Iiovv to move and speak like one of the class to which I 
 belonged by right of intellect. I was living alone in 
 London, in mean lodging-houses. But the day came 
 when I felt more confidence in myself. 1 had saved 
 money, and foresaw that in a year or two I should be able 
 to carry out a plan, make one serious attempt to win a 
 position among educated people.' 
 
 He stopped. Had he intended a full confession, it was 
 thus he might have begun it. Sidwell was regarding liim, 
 but with a gentle look, utterly unsuspecting. She was 
 unable to realise his character and his temptations. 
 
 ' And have you not succeeded ? ' she asked, in a low 
 voice. 
 
 ' Have I ? Let me put it to the test. I will set aside 
 every thought of presumption ; forget that I am a penni- 
 less student looking forward to a country curacy ; and say 
 what I wished to when we had our last conversation. 
 Never mind how it sounds. I have dared to hope that 
 some day I shall ask you to be my wife, and that you 
 won't refuse.' 
 
 Tlie word ' wife ' reverberated on his ears. A whirl 
 of emotion broke the defiant calm he had supported 
 for the last few minutes. The silence seemed to be 
 endless ; when he looked at Sidwell, her head was bent, 
 the eyes concealed by their drooping lids. Her expression 
 was very grave. 
 
 ' Such a piece of recklessness,' he said at length, 
 * deserves no answer.' 
 
 vSidwell r.aised her eyes and spoke gently, witli voice 
 a little shaken. 
 
 ' Why should you call it recklessness ? I have never 
 thought of the things that seem to trouble you so much. 
 You were a friend of ours. Wasn't that enough ? ' 
 
364 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 It seemed to him an evasive reply. Doubtless it was 
 much that she showed neither annoyance nor prudish 
 reserve. He had won the right of addressing her 
 on equal terms, but she was not inclined to anticipate 
 that future day to which he pointed. 
 
 'You have never thought of such things, because 
 you have never tliought of me as I of you. Every 
 day of your absence in London has caused me torments 
 which were due most often to the difference between your 
 social position and mine. You have been among people 
 of leisure and refinement and culture. Each evening 
 you have talked with men whom it cost no effort to 
 make themselves liked and respected. I think of that 
 with bitterness.' 
 
 ' But why ? I have made many acquaintances ; have 
 met very interesting people. I am glad of it; it 
 enables me to understand you better than T could 
 before.' 
 
 * You are glad on that account ? ' 
 
 ' Yes ; indeed I am.' 
 
 ' Dare I think you mean more than a civil phrase ? ' 
 
 ' I mean quite simply all that my words imply. I 
 have thought of you, though certainly without bitterness. 
 No one's conversation in London interested me so much 
 as yours.' 
 
 Soothed with an exquisite joy, Godwin felt his eyes 
 moisten. For a moment he was reconciled to all the 
 Iworld, and forgot the hostilities of a lifetime. 
 * ' And will it still be so, now, when you go back ? ' he 
 asked, in a soft tone. 
 
 ' I am sure it will.' 
 
 'Then it will be strange if I ever feel bitterly 
 again.' 
 
 Sidwell smiled. 
 
 ' You could have said nothing that could please me 
 more. Why should your life be troubled by these 
 dark moods ? I could understand it if you were still 
 struggling with — with doubts, witli all manner of un- 
 certainties about your course ' 
 
 She hesitated, watching his face. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 365 
 
 ' Vou think I have chosen well ? ' said Godwin, meeting 
 her look. 
 
 Sidwell's eyes were at once averted. 
 
 'I hope,' she said, * we may talk of that again very 
 soon. You have told me much of yourself, but I have 
 said little or nothing of my own — dilhculties. It won't 
 be long before we come back from London, and then ' 
 
 Once more their eyes met steadily, 
 
 'You think,' Godwin asked, 'that I am right in aiming 
 at a life of retirement ? ' 
 
 ' It is one of my doubts. Your influence would be 
 useful anywhere ; but most useful, surely, among people 
 of active mind.' 
 
 * Perhaps I shan't be able to choose. liemember 
 that I am seeking for a livelihood as well as for a sphere 
 of usefulness.' 
 
 His eyes fell as he spoke. Hitherto he had had no 
 means of learning whether Sidwell would bring her 
 husband a dowry substantial enough to be considered. 
 Though he could not feel that she had betrothed herself 
 to him, their talk was so nearly that of avowed lovers 
 that perchance she would disclose whatever might help 
 to put his mind at rest. The thought revived his 
 painful self - consciousness ; it w^as that of a schemer, 
 yet would not the curse of poverty have suggested it 
 to any man ? 
 
 ' Perhaps you won't be able to choose — at first,' Sidwell 
 assented, thereby seeming to answer his unspoken 
 question. ' But I am sure my father will use whatever 
 influence he has.' 
 
 Had he been seated near enough, he would have been 
 tempted to the boldness of taking her hand. What more 
 encouragement did he await ? But the distance between 
 them was enough to check his embarrassed impulses. 
 He could not even call her ' Sidwell ' ; it would have 
 been easier a few minutes ago, before she had begun 
 to speak with such calm friendliness. Now, in spite 
 of everything, he felt that to dare such a familiarity 
 must needs call upon him the reproof of astonished 
 eyes. 
 
366 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' You return to-morrow ? ' he asked, suddenly. 
 
 ' I think so. You have promised me to be cheerful 
 until we are home again.' 
 
 *A promise to be cheerful wouldn't mean much. 
 But it Joes mean much that I can think of what you 
 have said to-day.' 
 
 Sidwell did not speak, and her silence seemed to 
 compel him to rise. It was strange how remote he 
 still felt from her pure, grave face, and. the flowing 
 outlines of her figure. Why could he not say to her, 
 ' I love you ; give me your hands ; give me your lips ' ? 
 Such words seemed impossible. Yet passion thrilled 
 in him as he watched the grace of her movements, the 
 light and shadow upon her features. She had risen and 
 come a step or two forward. 
 
 ' I think you look taller — in that dress.' 
 
 The words rather escaped him than were spoken. His 
 need was to talk of common things, of trifles, that so he 
 might come to feel humanly. 
 
 Sidwell smiled with unmistakable pleasure. 
 
 ' Do I ? Do you like the dress ? ' 
 
 ' Yes. It becomes you.' 
 
 ' Are you critical in such things ? ' 
 
 'Not with understanding. But I should like to see you 
 every day in a new and beautiful dress.' 
 
 * Oh, 1 couldn't afford it ! ' was the laughing reply. 
 
 He offered his hand; the touch of her warm, soft 
 fingers fired his blood. 
 
 ' Sidwell ! ' 
 
 It was spoken at last, involuntarily, and he stood 
 with his eyes on hers, her hand crushed in his. 
 
 ' Some day ! ' she whispered. 
 
 If their lips met, tlie contact was so slight as to seem 
 accidental ; it was the mere timorous promise of a future 
 kiss. And both were glad of the something that had 
 imposed restraint. 
 
 When Sidwell went up to her mother's sitting-room, 
 a servant had just brought tea. 
 
 ' I hear that Mr. Peak has been,' said Mrs. Warricombe, 
 who looked puffy and uncomfortable after her sleep. 
 
BORN IN EXILK 307 
 
 'Emma was L,^oing to take tea to tlie study, l)nt I 
 thouglit it unnecessary. How could lie know that wc 
 were here ? ' 
 
 ' I met him tliis morning on my way into the 
 town.' 
 
 * Surely it was rather inconsiderate of him to call.* 
 
 * He asked if he might.' 
 
 Mrs. Warricombe turned her head and examined 
 Sidwell. 
 
 * Oh ! And did he stay long ? ' 
 
 ' Not very long,' replied Sidwell, who was in quiet good- 
 humour. 
 
 * T think it would have been Ijetter if you had 
 told him by the servant that I was not well enough 
 to see callers. You didn't mention that he might be 
 coming.' 
 
 Mrs. AYarricombe's mind worked slowly at all times, 
 and at present she was suffering from a cold. 
 ' Why didn't you speak of it, Sidwell ? ' 
 ' lieally — T forgot,' replied the daughter, lightly. 
 
 * And what had he to say ? ' 
 
 * Nothing new, mother. Is your head Ijctter, de:ir ? ' 
 There was no answer. ^Mrs. AVarricombe had con- 
 ceived a vague suspicion which was so alarming that 
 she would not press inquiries alluding to it. The en- 
 couragement given by her husband to Godwin Peak 
 in the latter's social progress had always annoyed her, 
 though she could not frame solid objections. To be 
 sure, to say of a man that he is about to be ordained 
 meets every possible question that society can put ; 
 but Mrs. AYarricombe's uneasiness was in part due to 
 personal dislike. Oftener than not, she still thought of 
 Teak as he appeared some eleven years ago — an evident 
 l)lebeian, witliout manners, without a redeeming grace. 
 She knew the story of his relative who had opened a 
 shop in Kingsmill ; thinking of that now, she shuddered. 
 
 Sidwell began to talk of indifferent matters, and Peak 
 was not again mentioned. 
 
 Her throat being still troublesome, Airs. Warricombe 
 retired very soon after dinner. About nine o'clock 
 
368 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Sidwell went to the library, and sat down at her father's 
 writing-table, purposing a letter to Sylvia. She penned 
 a line or two, but soon lapsed into reverie, her head 
 on her hands. Of a sudden the door was thrown open, 
 and there stood Buckland, fresh from travel. 
 
 * What has brought you ? ' exclaimed his sister, starting 
 up anxiously, for something in the young man's look 
 seemed ominous. 
 
 * Oh, nothing to trouble about. I had to come down — 
 on business. Mother gone to bed ? ' 
 
 Sidwell explained. 
 
 * All right ; doesn't matter. I suppose I can sleep 
 here ? Let them get me a mouthful of something ; cold 
 meat, anything will do.' 
 
 His needs were quickly supplied, and before long he 
 was smoking by the library fire. 
 
 * I was writing to Sylvia,' said his sister, glancing at 
 her fragmentary letter. 
 
 ' Oh ! ' 
 
 ' You know she is at Salisbury ? ' 
 
 ' Salisbury ? No, I didn't.' 
 
 His carelessness proved to Sidwell that she was wrong 
 in conjecturing that his journey had something to do 
 with Miss Moorhouse. Buckland was in no mood for 
 conversation ; he smoked for a quarter of an hour whilst 
 Sidwell resumed her writing. 
 
 ' Of course you haven't seen Peak ? ' fell from him at 
 length. 
 
 His sister looked at him before replying. 
 
 ' Yes. He called this afternoon.' 
 
 ' But who told him you were here ? ' 
 
 His brows were knitted, and he spoke very abruptly. 
 Sidwell gave the same explanation as to her mother, 
 and had further to reply that she alone received the 
 caller. 
 
 ' I see,' was Buckland's comment. 
 
 Its tone troubled Sidwell. 
 
 ' Has your coming anything to do with Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 ' Yes, it has. I want to see him the first thing 
 to-morrow.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 369 
 
 ' Can you tell me what about { ' 
 
 He searched her face, frowning. 
 
 ' Xot now. I'll tell you in the niorniug.' 
 
 Sidwell saw herself doomed to a night of suspense. 
 She could not confess how nearly the mystery concerned 
 her. Had Auckland made some discovery that irritated 
 liim against l*eak ? She knew he was disposed to catch 
 at anything that seemed to tell against Godwin's claims 
 to respectful treatment, and it surely nuist be a grave 
 affair to hurry him on so long a journey. Though she could 
 imagine no ground of fear, the situation was seriously 
 disturbing. 
 
 She tried to go on with her letter, but failed. As 
 Buckland smoked in silence, she at length rose and said 
 she would go upstairs. 
 
 ' All right ! Shall see you at breakfast. Good- 
 night ! ' 
 
 At nine next morning ^Irs. Warricombe sent a 
 message to Auckland that sbe wished to see him in her 
 bedroom. He entered hurriedly. 
 
 * Cold better, mother ? I have only just time to drink 
 a cup of coffee. I want to catch Peak before he can 
 have left home.' 
 
 ' W\. Peak 1 Why ] \ was going to speak about him.' 
 
 ' AVhat were you going to say ? ' Buckland asked, 
 anxiously. 
 
 His mother began in a roundabout way which threat- 
 ened long detention. In a minute or two Buckland 
 had gathered enough to interrupt her with the direct 
 inquiry : 
 
 'You don't mean that there's anything between him 
 and Sidwell ? ' 
 
 ' I do hope not ; but I can't imagine why she should — 
 really, almost make a private appointment. I am very 
 uneasy, Buckland. I have hardly slept. Sidwell is 
 rather — you know ' 
 
 ' The deuce ! I can't stop now. Wait an hour or tw^o, 
 and I shall have seen the fellow. You needn't alarm 
 yourself. He will probably have disappeared in a few 
 days.' 
 
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370 
 
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 'What do you, mean?' Mrs. Warricombe asked, with 
 nervous eagerness. 
 
 ' I'll explain afterwards.' 
 
 He hurried away. Sidwell was at the breakfast-table. 
 Her eyes seemed to declare that she had not slept well. 
 With an insignificant word or two, the young man 
 swallowed his cup of coffee, and had soon left the 
 house. 
 
Ill 
 
 The wrath which illumiued Buckland's counteuance as 
 he strode rapidly towards Longbrook Street was not uii- 
 mingled with joy. In the deep pocket of his ulster lay 
 something heavy which kept striking against his leg, and 
 every such contact spurred him with a sense of satis- 
 faction. All his suspicions were abundantly justified. 
 Not only would his father and Sidwell be obliged to 
 confess that his insiglit had been profouuder than theirs, 
 but he had tlie pleasure of standing justified l)efore his 
 own conscience. The philosophy by which he lived was 
 strikingly illustrated and confirmed. 
 
 He snilled the morning air, enjoyed the firmness of the 
 frozen ground, on which his boots made a pleasant thud. 
 To be sure, the interview before him would have its 
 disagjreeableness, but Buckland was not one of those 
 over-civilised men who shrink from every scene of pain- 
 ful explanation. The detection of a luirmful He was 
 decidedly congenial to him — especially when he and his 
 had been made its victims. He was now at liberty to 
 indulge that antipathetic feeling towards Godwin Peak 
 which sundry considerations liad hitherto urged him to 
 repress. Whatever miglit liave passed between I'eak and 
 Sidwell, he could not doubt that his sister's peace was 
 gravely endangered ; the adventurer (with however much 
 or little sincerity) had been making subtle love to her. 
 Such a thought was intoleral)le. Buckland' s _d.ass-prc- 
 judice asserted itself with l)rutal vigour now that it had 
 moral incligiiation_for.an all}-. 
 
 He had never been at Peak's lodgings, but the address 
 
 371 
 
372 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 was long since noted. Something of disdain came into 
 his eyes as he approached the row of insignificant houses. 
 Having pulled the bell, he stood at his full height, looking 
 severely at the number painted on the door. 
 
 Mrs. Eoots opened to him, and said that her lodger was 
 at home. He gave his name, and after waiting for a 
 moment was led to the upper floor. Godwin, who had 
 breakfasted later than usual, still sat by the table. On 
 Warricombe's entrance, he pushed back his chair and 
 rose, but with deliberate movement, scarcely smiling. 
 That Buckland made no offer of a friendly hand did not 
 surprise him. The name of his visitor had alarmed him 
 with a sudden presentiment. Hardening his features, he 
 stood in expectancy. 
 
 ' I want to have a talk with you,' Buckland began. 
 ' You are at leisure, I hope ? ' 
 
 ' Pray sit down.' 
 
 Godwin pointed to a chair near the fire, but 
 Warricombe, having thrown his hat on to a side table, 
 seated himself liy one of the windows. His motions 
 proved that he found it difficult to support a semblance 
 of courtesy. 
 
 ' I have come down from London on purpose to see you. 
 Unless I am strangely misinformed you have been guilty 
 of conduct which I shouldn't like to call by its proper 
 name.' 
 
 Eemembering that he was in a little house, with thin 
 partitions, he kept his voice low, but the effort this cost 
 him was obvious. He looked straight at Peak, who did 
 not return the gaze. 
 
 ' Indeed ? * said Godwin, coldly. ' What is my crime ? ' 
 
 ' I am told that you have won the confidence of my 
 relatives by what looks like a scheme of gross dis- 
 honesty.' 
 
 ' Indeed ? Who has told you so ? ' 
 
 ' No one in so many words. But I happened to come 
 across certain acquaintances of yours in London — people 
 who know you very well indeed; and I find that they 
 regard your position here as altogether incredible. You 
 will remember T had much the same feeling myself. In 
 
BORN IN EXILE 373 
 
 support of their view it was ineiitioned to me that yuu 
 had published an article in llic Critical — the date less 
 than a year ago, ol)serve. The article was anonymous, 
 but I remember it very well. I have re-read it, and I 
 want you to tell me how the views it expresses can be 
 reconciled with those you have maintained in conversation 
 with my father.' 
 
 He drew from his pocket the incriminating periodical, 
 turned it back at the article headed ' The Xew Sophistry,' 
 and held it out for inspection. 
 
 * l^erhaps you would like to refresh your memory.' 
 'Needless, tliank you,' returned Godwin, with a smile — 
 
 in which the vanity of an author had its part. 
 
 Had Marcella betrayed him ? He had supposed she 
 knew nothing of this article, but Earwaker had perliaps 
 spoken of it to Moxey before receiving the injunction of 
 secrecy. On the other hand, it might be Earwaker him- 
 self from whom Warricombe had derived his information. 
 Not impossible for the men to meet, and Earwaker's 
 indignation might have led him to disregard a friend's 
 confidence. 
 
 The details mattered little. He was face to face with 
 the most serious danger that could befall liim, and ali-eady 
 he had strum,' himself to encounter it. Yet even in the 
 same moment he asked, ' Is it worth while ? ' 
 
 * Did you write this ? ' Buckland inquired. 
 ' Yes, I wrote it.' 
 
 'Then I wait for your explanation.' 
 
 * You mustn't expect me to enter upon an elaborate 
 defence,' Godwin replied, taking his pipe from tlie mantel- 
 piece and beginning to fill it. 'A man charged with 
 rascality can hardly help getting excited — and that 
 excitement, to one in your mood, seems evidence against 
 him. Please to bear in mind that I have never declared 
 myself an orthodox theologian. Mr. Warricombe is 
 well acquainted with my views; to yuu I have never 
 explained them.' 
 
 * You mean to say that my father knew of this article ? ' 
 
 * No. I have not spoken of it.' 
 ' And wdiy not ? ' 
 
374 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Because, for one thing, I shouldn't write in that way 
 now; and, for another, the essay seems to imply more 
 than I meant when I did write it.' 
 
 * " Seems to imply " ? I understand. You wish to 
 
 represent that this attack on M'Naughten involves no 
 attack on Christianity ? ' 
 
 ' Not on Christianity as I understand it,' 
 
 Buckland's face expressed profound disgust, but he 
 controlled his speech. 
 
 ' Well, I foresaw this. You attacked a new sophistry, 
 but there is a newer sophistry still, and uncommonly 
 difficult it is to deal with. Mr. Peak, I have a plain word 
 to say to you. More than a year ago you asked me for 
 my goodwill, to aid you in getting a social position. Say 
 what you like, I see now that you dealt with me dis- 
 honestly. 1 can no longer be your friend in any sense, 
 and I shall do my best to have you excluded from my 
 parents' house. My father will re-read this essay — I 
 have marked the significant passages throughout — and 
 will form his own judgment; I know what it will be.' 
 
 ' You are within your rights.' 
 
 ' Undoubtedly,' replied Buckland, with polished insol- 
 ence, as he rose from his seat. ' I can't forbid you to go 
 to the house again, but — I hope we mayn't meet there. 
 It would be very unpleasant.' 
 
 Godwin was still pressing down the tobacco in the bowl 
 of his pipe. He smiled, and glanced about the room. 
 Did Warricombe know how far thinfrs had ffone between 
 him and Sidwell ? Whether or no, it was certain now 
 tliat Sidwell would be informed of this disastrous piece of 
 authorship — and the result ? 
 
 What did it matter? There is no struggling against 
 destiny. If he and Sidwell were ever fated to come 
 together, why, these difficulties would all be surmounted. 
 If, as seemed more than likely, he was again to be foiled 
 on the point of success — he could bear it, perhaps even 
 enjoy the comedy. 
 
 ' There is no possibility of arguing against determined 
 anger,' he said, quietly. ' I am not at all inclined to plead 
 for justice ; one only does tliat with a friend who desires 
 
BORN IN EXILK 375 
 
 tu ]»e just. My opinions are utterly distasteful to you, 
 and personal motives have made you re^Mrd me as — a 
 scoundrel to be got rid of. Well, tliere's an end of it. I 
 don't see what is to be gained by furllier talk.' 
 
 This was a dismissal. Godwin felt the necessity of 
 assertinfT himself thus far. 
 
 o 
 
 * One question,' said Warricombe, as he put the 
 periodical back into his pocket. ' What do you mean by 
 luy " personal motives " ? ' 
 
 Their eyes met for an instant. 
 
 ' I mean the motives whicli you have spoken of.' 
 
 It w\as Buckland's hope that I'eak might reveal liis 
 relations with Sidwell, but he shrank from seeming to 
 know anything of the matter. Clearly, no light was to 
 be had from this source. 
 
 ' I am afraid,' he said, moving to the door, * that you 
 will find my motives shared by all the peoi)le whose 
 acquaintance you liave made in Exeter.' 
 
 And without further leave-taking he departed. 
 
 There was a doubt in his mind. Peak's coolness 
 might l)e the audacity of rascaldom ; lie preferred to 
 understand it so; but it miglif liave notliing to do witli 
 baseness. 
 
 'Confound it!' lie muttered to himself, irritably. 'In 
 our times life is so deucedly complicated. It used to be 
 the easiest thing to convict a man of religious hypocrisy ; 
 nowadays, one has to bear in mind such a multiplicity of 
 fine considerations. There's that fellow Bruno Chilvers : 
 mightn't anyone who had personal reasons treat him 
 precisely as I have treated Peak ? Both of them man 
 be honest. Yet in Peak's case all appearances are 
 against him — ^just because he is of low birth, has no 
 means, and wants desperately to get into society. The 
 fellow is a scoundrel ; I am convinced of it. Yet his 
 designs may be innocent. How, then, a scoundrel ? 
 
 ' Poor devil ! Has he really fallen in love with 
 Sidwell ? 
 
 * Humlnig ! He wants position, nnd the comfort it 
 brings. And if he hadn't acted like a blackguard — 
 if he had come among* us tcdling the truth — who knows ? 
 
376 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Sidwell wouldn't then have thought of him, but for my 
 own part I would willingly have given him a hand. 
 There are plenty of girls who have learned to think for 
 themselves.' 
 
 This was an unhappy line of reflection. It led to 
 Sylvia Moorhouse — and to grinding of the teeth. By the 
 time he reached the house, Buckland was again in 
 remorseless mood. 
 
 He would have it out with Sidwell. The desire of 
 proving to her that he had been right from the first 
 i overrode all thought of the pain he might inflict. 
 
 She was in the library. At breakfast he had noticed 
 her heavy eyes, and that she made only a pretence of 
 eating. She was now less unlike herself, but her position at 
 the window showed that she had been waiting impatiently. 
 
 ' Isn't mother coming down to-day ? ' he asked. 
 
 ' Yes ; after luncheon she will go out for an hour, if it 
 keeps fine.' 
 
 'And to-morrow you return ?' 
 
 ' If mother feels able to travel.' 
 
 He had The Critical in his hand, and stood rustling the 
 pages with his fingers. 
 
 ' I have been to see Peak.' 
 
 ' Have you ? ' 
 
 She moved a few steps and seated herself sideways on 
 a small chair. 
 
 'My business with him was confoundedly unpleasant. 
 I'm glad it's over. I wish I had known what I now do 
 half a year ago.' 
 
 * Let me hear what it is.' 
 
 'You remember that I told you to be on your guard 
 against Peak ? ' 
 
 Sidwell smiled faintly, and glanced at him, but made no 
 answer. 
 
 ' I knew he wasn't to be trusted,' pursued her brother, 
 with gloomy satisfaction. * And I had far better means 
 of judging than father or you ; but, of course, my 
 suspicions were ungenerous and cynical.' 
 
 ' Will you come to the point ? ' said Sidwell, in an 
 irritated tone. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 377 
 
 'I tliink you read this article in The Critical T He 
 approacliLHl and sliowed it to her. ' We spoke of it once, 
 a propos of ^rXaughten's book.' 
 
 She raised her eyes, and met liis with a look of concern 
 she couhl not disguise. 
 
 'AVhat of that?' 
 
 ' Peak is the author of it. It seems to liave l)een 
 written just about the time when I met him and l)rouglit 
 him here as a visitor, and it was puldished after he 
 had begun to edify you with his zeal for Christianity.' 
 
 She held out her hand. 
 
 ' You remember the tone of the thing ? ' Buckland 
 added. * I'll leave it with you ; but just glance at one 
 or two of the passages I have marked. The Anglicanism 
 of their writer is decided^ " broad," it seems to me.' 
 
 He moved apart and watched his sister as she bent 
 over the pages. There was silence for five minutes. 
 Seeing that Sidwell had ceased to read, he ejaculated, 
 'Well?' 
 
 'Has Mr. Peak admitted the authorship?' she asked, 
 slowly and distinctly. 
 
 'Yes, and with a cool impudence I hardly expected.* 
 
 'Do you mean that he has made no attempt to justify 
 himself ? ' 
 
 'None worth listening to. Practically, he refused an 
 explanation.' 
 
 Sidwell rested her forehead lightly upon the tips of 
 her fingers; the periodical slii)i)ed from her lap and lay 
 open on the Hoor. 
 
 ' How did you find this out ? ' 
 
 ' In the simplest way. Knowing perfectly well that 
 I had only to get familiar with some of his old 
 friends to obtain proof that he was an impostor, I followed 
 u}) my acquaintance with Miss jMoxey — got hold of her 
 brotlier — called upon them. AVhilst I was there, a man 
 named Malkin came in, and somehow or other he began 
 talking of Peak. I learned at once i)recisely what I 
 expected, that Peak was known to all these people as 
 a violent anti-Christian. ]\Ialkin refused to believe the 
 story of his going in for the Church — it sounded to him 
 
378 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 a mere joke. Then came out the fact that he had written 
 this article. They all knew about it.' 
 
 He saw a Hush of shame upon Sidwell's half-hidden 
 face. It gratified him. He was resolved to let her taste 
 all the bitterness of her folly. 
 
 ' It seems pretty clear that the Moxeys — at all events 
 Miss Moxey — knew the rascally part he was playing. 
 Whether they wished to unmask him, or not, I can't 
 say. Perhaps not. Yet I caught an odd look on Miss 
 Moxey's face when that man Malkin began to talk of 
 Peak's characteristics and achievements. It came out, 
 by-the-bye, that he had given all his acquaintances the 
 slip ; they had completely lost sight of him — I suppose 
 until Miss Moxey met him by chance at Budleigh Salter- 
 ton. There's some mystery still. She evidently kept 
 Peak's secret from the Moorhouses and the Walworths. 
 A nice business, altogether ! ' 
 
 Again there was a long silence. Then Sid well raised 
 her face and said, abruptly : 
 
 * You may l)e quite mistaken.' 
 
 ' How ? ' 
 
 ' You went to Mr. Peak in a spirit of enmity and 
 anger. It is not likely he would explain himself. You 
 may have quite misunderstood what he said.' 
 
 ' Eidiculous 1 You mean that he was perhaps " con- 
 verted " after writing this article ? — Then why did he 
 allow it to be published ? ' 
 
 'He did not sign it. He may have been unable to 
 withdraw it from the editor's hands.' 
 
 ' Bosh ! He didn't sign it, because the idea of this 
 Exeter campaign came between the reception and the 
 appearance of his paper. In the ordinary course of 
 things, he would have been only too glad to see his 
 name in The Critical. The scoundrelly project was 
 conceived perhaps the very day that I brought him 
 here — perhaps in that moment — at lunch, do you re- 
 member ? — when he began to talk of the sermon at 
 the Cathedral ? ' 
 
 ' AVhy did he go to the Cathedral and hear that sermon ? ' 
 
 ' To amuse a Sunday morning, I suppose.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 370 
 
 ' Tliat is not very likely in a man whu liatcs and 
 ridicules religion.' 
 
 * It is decidedly more probable tlian the idea of liis 
 conversion.' 
 
 Sidwell fell back again into her brooding attitude. 
 
 'The reason of your mistake in judging him,' resumed 
 Buckland, with emphasis, ' is that you have undervalued 
 his intellect. I told you long ago that a man of Peak's 
 calibre could not possibly be a supporter of dogmas and 
 churches. No amount of plausiljle evidence would have 
 made me believe in his sincerity. Let me beg you to 
 appreciate the simple fact, that no young man of 
 brains and education is nowadays an honest defender 
 of medicL'val Christianity — the Christianity of your 
 r'hnrchps! Such fellows may transact with their con- 
 science, and make a more or less decent business of the 
 clerical career ; or, in rare cases, they may believe that 
 society is served by the maintenance of a national faith, 
 and accordingly preach with all manner of mental re- 
 serves and symbolical interpretations. These are in 
 reality politicians, not priests. But Peak l)elongs to 
 neither class. He is an acute cynic, bent on making 
 the best of this world, since he believes in no other. 
 How he must have chuckled after every visit to this 
 house ! He despises you, one and all. Believe me, 
 he regards you with profound contempt.' 
 
 Buckland's obtu seness on the imagiiiaiivc side sj.ared 
 hi m the understanding^ of his sister's state of mind. 
 Though in theory he recognised that women were little 
 amenable to reasoning, he took it for granted that a 
 clear demonstration of Peak's duplicity must at once 
 banish all thought of him from Sidwell's mind. There- 
 fore he was unsparing in his assaults upon her delusion. 
 It surprised him when at length Sidwell looked up 
 with flashing, tear-dewed eyes and addressed him in- 
 dignantly : 
 
 * In all this there is not one word of truth ! You 
 know that in representing the clergy as a body of ignorant 
 and shallow men you speak out of prejudice. If you 
 believed what you say, you would be yourself both igno- 
 
380 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 rant and shallow. I can't trust your judgment of anyone 
 whatever.' 
 
 She paused, but in a moment added the remark which 
 would have come first had she spoken in the order of 
 her thoughts. 
 
 ' It is because the spirit of contempt is so familiar to 
 you that you are so ready to perceive it in others. I 
 consider that habit of mind worse than hypocrisy — yes, 
 worse, far worse ! ' 
 
 Buckland was sorry for the pain he had given. The 
 retort did not affect him, but he hung his head and 
 looked uncomfortable. His next speech was in a milder 
 strain : 
 
 ' I feel it a duty, Sidwell, to represent this man to 
 you in what I verily believe to be the true light. To 
 be despised by one who is immeasurably contemptible 
 surely can't distress you. If a butler gets into your 
 house by means of a forged character, and then lays 
 his plans for a great burglary, no doubt he scorns you 
 for being so easily taken in, — and that is an exact 
 parallel to Peak's proceedings. He has somehow got__ 
 the exterior of a gentleman ; you could not believe that 
 one who behaved so agreeably and talked so well was 
 concealing an essentially base nature. But I must re- 
 mind you that Peak belongs by origin to the lower 
 classes, which is as much as to say that he lacks the 
 sense of honour generally inherited by men of our world. 
 A powerful intellect by no means implies a correspond- 
 ing development of the moral sense.' 
 
 Sidwell could not close her ears against the argument. 
 But her features were still set in an expression of resent- 
 ment, and she kept silence lest her voice should sound 
 tearful. 
 
 'And don't be tempted by personal feeling,' pursued 
 her brother, ' to make light of hypocrisy — especially this 
 kind. The man who can act such a part as Peak's has 
 been for the last twelve months must be capable of 
 any depravity. It is difficult for you to estimate his 
 baseness, because you are only half convinced that any 
 one can really be an enemy of religious faith. You 
 
BORN IN EXILE 381 
 
 suspect a lurkinic belief even in the minds of avowed 
 atheists, liut take the assurance from me that a man 
 like Peak (and I am at one with him in this matter) 
 regards with absolute repugnance every form of super- 
 naturalism. For him to aflect belief in your religion, 
 is a crime against conscience. Peak has connnitted this 
 crime with a mercenary motive, — what viler charge 
 could be brought against him ? ' 
 
 Without looking at him, his sister replied : 
 
 ' Whether he is guilty or not, I can't yet determine. 
 But the motive of his life here was not mercenary.' 
 
 * Then how would you describe it ? ' Buckland asked, 
 in astonishment. 
 
 ' I only know that it can't be called mercenary.' 
 
 'Then the distinction you draw must be a very fine 
 one. — He has abandoned the employment by which he 
 lived, and by his own admission he looks to tlie Church 
 for means of support. It was necessary for him to 
 make interest with people of social position ; the closer 
 his relations with them the better. From month to 
 month he has worked skilfully to establish his footing 
 in this house, and among your friends. What do you 
 call this ? ' 
 
 She had no verbal answer to make, Ijut her look 
 declared that she held to another interpretation. 
 • ' Well,' Buckland added, impatiently, ' we will hear 
 father's opinion. He, remember, has been deceived in 
 a very gross and cruel way. Possibly he may help you 
 to see the thing in all its hatefulness.' 
 
 Sidwell turned to him. 
 
 ' You go to London this afternoon ? ' 
 
 'In an hour or two,' he replied, consulting his 
 watch. 
 
 ' Is it any use my asking you to keep silence about 
 everything until I am back in town ? ' 
 
 Buckland frowned and hesitated. 
 
 ' To mother as well as father, you mean ? ' 
 
 ' Yes. Will you d(j me this kindness ] ' 
 
 'Answer me a question, Sidwell. Have you any 
 thought of seeing Peak ? ' 
 
382 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I can't say,' she replied, in agitation. ' 1 must leave 
 myself free. I have a right to use my own judg- 
 ment.' 
 
 ' Don't see him ! I beg you not to see him ! ' 
 
 He was so earnest that Sidwell suspected some other 
 reason in his request than regard for her dignity. 
 
 ' I must leave myself free,' she repeated, with shaking 
 voice. ' In any case I shall be back in London to-morrow 
 evening — that is, if — but I am sure mother will wish 
 to go. Grant me this one kindness ; say nothing here 
 or there till I am back and have seen you again.' 
 
 He turned a deaf ear, for the persistency with which 
 she resisted proof of Peak's dishonour had begun to 
 alarm him. Who could say what miserable folly she 
 might commit in the next four - and - twenty hours ? 
 The unavoidable necessity of his own return exasperated 
 him ; he wished to see her safe back in London, and 
 under her father's care. 
 
 ' No,' he exclaimed, with a gesture of determination ; 
 ' I can't keep such a thing as this secret for another 
 hour. Mother must know at once — especially as you 
 mean to invite that fellow into the house again. — I 
 have half a mind to telegraph to Godolphin that I can't 
 possibly be with him to-night.' 
 
 Sidwell regarded him and spoke with forced com- 
 posure. 
 
 'Do as seems right to you, Buckland. But don't 
 think that by remaining here you would prevent me 
 from seeing Mr. Peak, if I wish to do so. That is treat- 
 ing me too much like a child. You have done your 
 part — doubtless your duty ; now I must reflect and 
 judge for myself. Neither you nor anyone else has 
 authority over me in such circumstances.' 
 
 'Very well. I have no authority, as you say, but 
 common sense bids me let mother know how the case 
 stands.' 
 
 And angrily he left the room. 
 
 TIlc Critical still lay where it had fallen. When 
 Sidwell had stood a while in confused thought, her eye 
 turned to it, and she went hurriedly to take it up. 
 
BORN IN EXILK 383 
 
 Yes, that was the tirst thing to be dune, to read those 
 pages witli close care. For this she must liave privacy. 
 She ran upstairs and shut herself in her hedrooni. 
 
 But did not at once begin to read. It concerned 
 her deeply to know whether Teak had so expressed 
 himself in this paper, that no room was left for doubt 
 as to his convictions ; but another question pressed upon 
 her with even more urgency — could it be true that 
 he did not love her ? If Buckland were wholly right, 
 then it mattered little in wliat degree she had been 
 misled by intellectual hypocrisy. 
 
 It was impossible to believe that I'eak liad made love 
 to her in cold blood, with none but sordid impulses. 
 The thought was so humiliating that her mind re- 
 solutely rejected it ; and she had no difficulty in recall- 
 ino: numberless minutiie of behaviour — nuances of look 
 and tone such as abide in a woman's memory — any 
 one of which would have sufficed to persuade her that 
 he felt genuine emotion. How had it come to pass 
 that a feeling of friendly interest, which did not for 
 a nioment threaten her peace, changed all at once to an 
 agitation only the more persistent tlie more she tried 
 to subdue it, — how, if it were not that her heart re- 
 sponded to a passionate appeal, effectual as only the 
 sincerest love can prove ? Prior to that long talk with 
 Godwin, on the eve of her departure for London, she 
 had not imagined that he loved her ; wlien they said 
 good-bye to each other, she knew by her own sensations 
 all that the parting meant to him. She felt glad, 
 instead of sorry, that they were not to meet again for 
 several months ; for she wished to think of liim calmly 
 and prudently, now that he presented himself to her 
 imagination in so new an aspect. The hand-clasp was 
 a mutual assurance of fidelity. 
 
 'I should never liave loved liim, if he had nut lirst 
 loved me. Of that I am as firmly convinced as of my 
 own existence. It is not in my nature to dream 
 romances. I never did so even as a young girl, and at 
 this age I am not likely to fall into a loulish self- 
 deception. I had often thought about liim. He seemed 
 
384 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 to me a man of higher and more complex type than 
 those with whom I was familiar ; but most surely I 
 never attributed to him even a correspondiug interest 
 in me. I am neither vain, nor very anxious to please ; 
 I never suffered because men did not woo me; I 
 have only moderate good looks, and certainly no un- 
 common mental endowments. — If he had been attracted 
 by Sylvia, I should have thought it natural ; and I more 
 than once suspected that Sylvia was disposed to like 
 him. It seemed strange at first that his choice should 
 have fallen upon me ; yet when I was far away from 
 him, and longed so to sit once more by him and hear 
 him talk, I understood that it might be in my power to 
 afford him the companionship he needed. — Mercenary ? 
 If I had been merely a governess in the house, he would 
 have loved me just the same ! ' 
 
 Only by a painful effort could she remind herself that 
 the ideal which had grown so slowly was now defaced. 
 He loved her, but it was not the love of an honest man. 
 After all, she had no need to peruse this writing of his; 
 she remembered so well how it had impressed her 
 wdien she read it on its first appearance, how her father 
 had spoken of it. Buckland's manifold evidence was 
 irresistible. Why should Peak have concealed his author- 
 ship ? Why had he disappeared from among the people 
 who thoroughly kuew him ? 
 
 She had loved a dream. What a task would it be to 
 distinguish between those parts of Peak's conversation 
 which represented his real thoughts, and those which 
 were mockery of his listeners ! The plan of a retired life 
 which he had sketched to her — was it all falsehood ? 
 Impossible, for his love was inextricably blended with 
 the details. Did he imagine that the secret of his 
 unbelief could be preserved for a lifetime, and that it 
 would have no effect whatever upon his happiness as a 
 man? This seemed a likely reading of the pro- 
 blem. But what a multitude of moral and intellectual 
 obscurities remained ! The character which had seemed 
 to her nobly simple was become a dark and dread 
 
BORN IN KXILE 385 
 
 She knew so little of his life. If only it could nil be 
 laid bare to her, the secret of his position would be 
 revealed. Buckland's violence altoL^a^ther missed its mark ; 
 the dishonour of such a man as Godwin Teak was due to 
 no gross incentive. 
 
 It was probable that, in talk with her father, he had 
 been guilty of more deliberate misrepresentation than had 
 marked his intercourse with the rest of the family. Her 
 father, she felt sure, had come to regard him as a valuable 
 source of argument in the battle against materialism. 
 Doubtless the CJernian book, which l*eak was translating, 
 bore upon tliat debate, and consequently was used as an 
 aid to dissimulation. Thinking of this, she all but shared 
 her brother's vehement feeling. It pained her to the 
 inmost heart that her father's generous and candid nature 
 should thus have been played upon. The deceit. as,iL 
 concemecMierself alone, she could forgive* at least she 
 could sus}»end "judgment until tlie accused had offered his 
 defence — feeling that the psychology of the case nmst 
 till then be beyond her powers of analysis. l>ut the 
 wrong done to her father revolted her. 
 
 A tap at the door caused her to rise, trembling. She 
 rememl)ered that by this time her mother must be aware 
 of the extraordinary disclosure, and that a new scene of 
 wretched agitation had to be gone through. 
 
 'Sid well!' 
 
 It was Mrs. Warricombe's voice, and the door 
 opened. 
 
 ' Sidwell ! — What docs all tliis mean? 1 don't under- 
 stand half that liuckland lias been telling me.' 
 
 The speaker's face was mottled, and she stood })anting, 
 a hand pressed against her side. 
 
 ' How very, very imprudent we have been ! How wrong 
 of father not to have made incpuries ! To think tliat such 
 a man should have sat at (jur table ! ' 
 
 ' Sit down, mother; don't be so distressed,' said Sidwell, 
 calmly. ' It will all very soon be settled.' 
 
 * Of course not a word must be said to anyone. How 
 very fortunate that we sliall be in London till the 
 summer! Of course lie must leave Kxeter.' 
 
386 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I have no doubt he will. Let us talk as little of it as 
 possible, mother. AVe sliall go back to-niorvow ' 
 
 ' This afternoon ! We will go back with Buckland. 
 That is decided. I couldn't sleep here another 
 night.' 
 
 ' We must remain till to-morrow,' Sidwell replied, with 
 quiet determination. 
 
 ' Why ? What reason can there be ? ' 
 
 Mrs. Warricombe's voice was suspended by a horrible 
 surmise. 
 
 ' Of course we shall go to-day, Sidwell,' she continued, 
 in nervous haste. ' To think of that man having: the 
 impudence to call and sit talking with you ! If I could 
 have dreamt ' 
 
 ' Mother,' said Sidwell, gravely, ' I am obliged to see 
 Mr. Peak, either this evening or to-morrow morning.' 
 
 'To — to see him ? Sidwell! What can you 
 
 mean ? ' 
 
 ' I have a reason for wishing to hear from his own lips 
 the whole truth.' 
 
 ' But we knoio the whole truth ! — What can you be 
 thinking of, dear ? Who is this Mr. Peak that you 
 should ask him to come and see you, under any circum- 
 stances ? ' 
 
 It would never have occurred to Sidwell to debate witli 
 her mother on subtle questions of character and motive, 
 but the agitation of her nerves made it difficult for her to 
 keep silence under these vapid outcries. She desired to 
 be alone ; commonplace discussion of the misery that had 
 come upon her was impossible. A little more strain, and 
 she w^ould be on the point of tears, a weakness she was 
 resolute to avoid. 
 
 ' Let me think quietly for an hour or two,' she said, 
 moving away. ' It's quite certain that I must stay here 
 till to-morrow. When Buckland has gone, we can talk 
 again.' 
 
 ' But, Sidwell ' 
 
 * If you insist, I must leave the house, and find a refuge 
 somewhere else.' 
 
 Mrs. Warricombc tossed her head. 
 
BORN IN KXILK 387 
 
 * Oh, if I am not permitted to speak to you ! I only 
 hope you won't have occasion to remember my warning ! 
 Such extraordinary behaviour was surely never known ! 
 I should have thought ' 
 
 Sidwell was by this time out of the ruum. Safe in 
 privacy she sat down as if to pen a letter. From an 
 hour's agitated thought, the following lines resulted : 
 
 * ]\Iy brother has told me of a conversation he huld with 
 you this morning. He says you admit the authorship of 
 an article which seems quite inconsistent with what you 
 have professed in our talks. How am I to understand 
 this contradiction ? I beg that you will write to me 
 at once. I shall anxiously await your reply.' 
 
 This, with her signature, was all. Having enclosed the 
 note in an envelope, she left it on her table and went 
 down to the library, where Buckland was sitting alone 
 in gloomy reverie. Mrs. Warricombe had told him of 
 Sidwell's incredible purpose. Eecognising his sister's 
 independence, and feeling sure that if she saw Peak it 
 could only be to take final leave of him, he had decided 
 to say no more. To London he must perforce return this 
 afternoon, but he had done his duty satisfactorily, and 
 just in time. It was plain that things had gone far 
 between Peak and Sidwell ; the latter's behaviour avowed 
 it. But danger there could be none, with * The New 
 Sophistry ' staring her in the eyes. Let her see the 
 fellow, by all means. His evasions and hair-splittings 
 would complete her deliverance. 
 
 ' There's a train at 1.53,' Buckland remarked, rising, 
 * and I shall catch it if I start now. I can't stay for the 
 discomfort of luncheon. You remain here till to-morrow, 
 I understand ? ' 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
 ' It's a pity you are angry witli me. It seems to me I 
 have done you a kindness.' 
 
 ' I am not angry with you, Buckland,' she replied, 
 gently. ' You ha^'e done wliat you were i)lainly obliged 
 to do.' 
 
 ' That's a sensible way of putting it. Let us say good- 
 bye with friendliness then.' 
 
388 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Sidwell gave her hand, and tried to smile. With a 
 look of pained affection, Buckland went silently away. 
 
 Shortly after, Sidwell fetched her note from upstairs, 
 and gave it to the housekeeper to be delivered by hand as 
 soon as possible. Mrs. Warricombe remained invisible, 
 and Sidwell went back to the library, where she sat with 
 The Critical open before her at Godwin's essay. 
 
 Hours went by; she still waited for an answer from 
 Longbrook Street. 
 
 At six o'clock she went upstairs and spoke to her 
 mother. 
 
 ' Shall you come down to dinner ? ' 
 
 ' No, Sidwell,' was the cold reply. ' Be so good as to 
 excuse me.' 
 
 Towards eight, a letter was brought to her; it could 
 only be from Godwin Peak. With eyes which en- 
 deavoured to take in all at once, and therefore could at 
 first distinguish nothing, she scanned what seemed to be 
 hurriedly written lines. 
 
 ' I have tried to answer you in a long letter, but after 
 all I can't send it. I fear you wouldn't understand. 
 Better to repeat simply that I wrote the article you 
 speak of. I should have told you about it some day, but 
 now my intentions and hopes matter nothing. Whatever 
 I said now would seem dishonest pleading. Good-bye.' 
 
 She read this so many times that at length she had 
 but to close her eyes to see every word clearly traced on 
 the darkness. The meanings she extracted from each 
 sentence were scarcely less numerous than her perusals. 
 In spite of reason, this enigmatic answer brought her 
 some solace. He could defend himself; that was the 
 assurance she had longed for. Impossible (she again and 
 again declared to herself with emphasis) for their intimacy 
 to be resumed. But in secret she could hold him, if not 
 innocent, at all events not base. She had not bestowed 
 her love upon a mere impostor. 
 
 But now a mournful, regretful passion began to 
 weigh upon her heart. She shed tears, and presently 
 stole away to her room for a night of sorrow. 
 
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BORN IN EXILE 389 
 
 "What must be her practical course ? If she went back 
 to London without addressing another word to liini, lie 
 must understand her silence as a final farewell. In that 
 case his departure from Exeter would, no doubt, speedily 
 follow, and there was little likelihood that she would ever 
 again see him. Were Godwin a vulgar schemer, he would 
 not so readily relinquish the advantage he had gained ; 
 he would calculate upon the weakness of a loving woman, 
 and make at least one effort to redeem his position. As 
 it was, she could neither hope nor fear that he would try 
 to see her again. Yet she wished to see him, desired it 
 ardently. 
 
 And yet — for each impulse of ardour was followed by 
 a cold fit of reasoning — might not his abandonment of the 
 position bear a meaning such as Buckland would of course 
 attribute to it ? If he were hopeless of the goodwill of 
 her parents, what profit would it be to him to retain her 
 love ? She was no heiress ; supposing him actuated by 
 base motive, her value in his eyes came merely of his 
 regarding her as a means to an end. 
 
 But this was to reopen the question of whether or not 
 he truly loved her. No ; he was forsaking her because he 
 thought it impossible for her to pardon the deceit he had 
 undeniably practised — with whatever palliating circum- 
 stances. He wa? overcome with shame. He imagined 
 her indignant, sccrnful. 
 
 "Why had she written such a short, cold note, the very 
 thing to produce in his mind a conviction of her resent- 
 ment ? 
 
 Hereupon came another paroxysm of tearful misery. 
 It was intensified by a thought she had half consciously 
 been repressing ever since the conversation with her 
 brother. Was it true that Miss ^Moxey had had it in her 
 power to strip Godwin of a disguise i What, then, were 
 the relations existing between him and that strangely 
 impressive woman ? How long had they known each 
 other ? It was now all but certain that a strong intel- 
 lectual sympathy united their minds — and perhaps there 
 had been something more. 
 
 She turned her face u]M)n the ])illow and monned. 
 
IV 
 
 And from the Moxeys Buckland had derived his in- 
 formation. What was it he said — something about ' an 
 odd look' on Miss McJxey's face when that friend of 
 theirs talked of Peak ? Might not such a look signify a 
 conflict between the temptation to injure and the desire 
 to screen ? 
 
 Sidwell constructed a complete romance. Ignorance of 
 the past of both persons concerned allowed her imagina- 
 tion free play. There was no limit to the possibilities of 
 self-torment. 
 
 The desire to see Godwin took such hold upon her, 
 that she had already begun to think over the wording of 
 another note to be sent to him the first thing in the 
 morning. His reply had been insufficient : simple justice 
 required that she should hear him in his ow^n defence 
 before parting with him for ever. If she kept silence, he 
 would always remember her with bitterness, and this 
 would make her life-long sorrow harder to bear. Sidwell 
 was one of those few women whose love, never demon- 
 strative, never exigent, only declares itself in all its 
 profound significance when it is called upon to pardon. 
 What was likely to be the issue of a meeting with 
 Godwin she could not foresee. It seemed all but im- 
 possible for their intercourse to continue, and their 
 coming face to face might result in nothing l3ut distress 
 to both, better avoided; yet judgment yielded to emotion. 
 Yesterday — only yesterday — she had yielded herself to 
 the joy of loving, and before her consciousness had had 
 time to make itself familiar with its new realm, before 
 
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BORN IN EXILE 391 
 
 her eyes had grown accustomed to the light suddenly 
 shed about her, she was bidden to think of what liad 
 happened as only a dream. Her heart refused to make 
 surrender of its hope. Thougli it could be held only by 
 an encoui-agement of recognised illusion, she preferred to 
 dream yet a little longer. Above all, she must taste the 
 luxury of forgiving her lovei', of making sure that her 
 image would not dwell in his mind as that of a self- 
 righteous woman wlio had turned coldly from his error, 
 perhaps from his repentance. 
 
 A little after midnight, she rose from bed, slipped on 
 her dressing-gown, and sat down by the still burning 
 lamp to write what her passion dictated : 
 
 ' Why should you distrust my ability, or my willingness 
 to understand you ? It would have been so nnich better 
 if you had sent what you first wrote. These few lines do 
 not even let me know whether you think yourself to 
 blame. Why do you leave me to form a judgment of 
 things as they appear on the surface ? If you icish to 
 explain, if you sincerely feel that I am in danger of 
 wronging you by misconstruction, come to me as soon as 
 you have received this note. If you will not come, then 
 at least write to me — the letter you at first tliought 
 of sending. This afternoon (Friday) I return to London, 
 but you know my address there. Don't tliink because I 
 wrote so briefly that I have judged you. S. W.' 
 
 Tu liave connnitted this to paper was a relief. In the 
 morning she would read it over and consider again 
 whether she wished to send it. 
 
 On the tal)le lay The Critical. She opened it once 
 more at the page that concerned her, and glayced over 
 the first few lines. Then, having put the lamp nearer 
 to the bed, slie again lay down, not to sleep but to 
 read. 
 
 This e ssay .was not so repugnant to her mind or her 
 feelings as when she first became acquainted with it. 
 Its l)itterness no longer seemed to l)e directed against 
 herself. Tliere was niucli in it witli wliirh slie could 
 
392 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 have agreed at any time during the last six months, and 
 many strokes of satire, which till the otlier day would have 
 ofiended her, she now felt to be legitimate. As she read 
 on, a kind of anger such as she had never experienced 
 trembled along her nerves. Was it not flagrantly true 
 that English society at large made profession of a faith 
 which in no sense whatever it could be said sincerely to 
 hold ? Was there not every reason to believe that 
 thousands of people keep up an ignoble formalism, 
 i because they feared the social results of declaring their 
 I severance from the religion of the churches ? This was 
 a monstrous evil ; slie had never till this moment 
 understood the scope of its baneful effects. But for the 
 prevalence of such a spirit of hypocrisy, Godwin Peak 
 would never liave sinned against his honour. Why was 
 it not declared in trumpet-tones of authority, from end 
 to end of the Christian world, that Christianity, as it 
 has been understood through the ages, can no longer 
 be accepted ? For that was the truth, the truth, the 
 truth ! 
 
 She lay back, quivering as if with terror. For an 
 instant her soul had been filled with hatred of the 
 religion for which she could once have died. It had 
 stood before her as a power of darkness and ignorance, 
 to be assailed, crushed, driven from the memory of 
 man. 
 
 Last night she had hardly slept, and now, though her 
 body was numb with weariness, lier mind kept up a 
 feverish activity. She .was bent on excusing Godwin, and. 
 the only way in which she could do so was by arraigning 
 the world for its huge dislionesty. In a condition between 
 slumber and waking, she seemed to plead for him before 
 a circle of Pharisaic accusers. Streams of silent elo- 
 quence rushed through her brain, and the spirit winch 
 prompted her was closely akin to that of 'The New 
 Sophistry.' Now and then, for a few seconds, she was 
 smitten with a consciousness of extraordinary change in 
 her habits of thouglit. She looked about her with wide, 
 fearful eyes, and endeavoured to see things in the 
 familiar aspect. As if with physical constraint her angry 
 
BORN IN EXILE 303 
 
 imagination again overcame her, until at length fiom 
 the penumbra of sleep she passed into its piotoundest 
 gloom. 
 
 To wake when dawn was pale at the window. A 
 chokinjiT odour reminded her that she had not ex- 
 tinguished the lamp, which must liave gone out for lack 
 of oil. She opened the window, took a draught of water, 
 and addressed herself to sleep again. But in recollecting 
 what the new day meant for her, she had spoilt the 
 chances of longer rest. Her head ached ; all worldly 
 thoughts were repulsive, yet she could not dismiss them. 
 She tried to repeat the prayers she had known since 
 childhood, but they were meaningless, and a sense of 
 shame attached to their utterance. 
 
 When the first gleam of sun told her that it was past 
 eight o'clock, she made an eflbrt and rose. 
 
 At breakfast Mrs. Warricombe talked of tlie depart ui-e 
 for London. She mentioned an early train; by getting 
 ready as soon as the meal was over, they could easily 
 reach the station in time. Sidwell made no direct reply 
 and seemed to assent ; but when they rose from the table, 
 she said, nervously : 
 
 ' 1 couldn't speak l)efore the servants. I wish to stay 
 here till the afternoon.' 
 
 ' Why, Sidwell ? ' 
 
 ' I have asked ]\Ir. Teak to come and see me this 
 morning.' 
 
 Her mother knew that expostulation was useless, but 
 could not refrain from a long harangue made up of 
 warning and reproof. 
 
 'You have very little consideration for me,' was her 
 final remark. 'Now we slian't get home till after dark, 
 and of course my throat will he l)ad again.' 
 
 Glad of the anti-climax, Sidwell rejilied that the day 
 was much warmer, and tliat witli care no liarm need come 
 of the journey. 
 
 'It's easy to say that, Sidwell. I never knew you to 
 behave so selfishly, never ! ' 
 
 ' Don't be angry with me, mother. You don't know 
 how grieved I am to distress you so. I can't help it, 
 
394 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 dear ; indeed, I can't. Won't you sacrifice a few hours to 
 put my mind at rest ? ' 
 
 Mrs. Warricombe once more gave expression to her 
 outraged feelings. Sidwell could only listen silently 
 with bent head. 
 
 If Godwin were coming at all, he would be here by 
 eleven o'clock. Sidwell had learnt that her letter was 
 put into his hands. She asked him to come at once, and 
 nothing but a resolve not to meet her could delay him 
 more than an hour or two. 
 
 At half-past ten the bell sounded. She was sitting in 
 the library with her back turned to the door. When a 
 voice announced ' Mr. Peak,' she did not at once rise, 
 and with a feeling akin to terror slie heard the footstep 
 slowly approaching. It stopped at some distance from 
 her; then, overcoming a weakness which threatened 
 to clog her as in a nightmare, she stood up and looked 
 round. 
 
 Peak wore neither overcoat nor gloves, but otherwise 
 was dressed in the usual way. As Sidwell fixed her eyes 
 upon him, he threw his hat into a chair and came a step 
 or two nearer. Whether he had passed the night in 
 sleep or vigil could not be determined ; 1)ut his look was 
 one of shame, and he did not hold himself so upright as 
 was his wont. 
 
 ' Will you come and sit down ? ' said Sidwell, pointing 
 to a chair not far from that on which one of her hands 
 rested. 
 
 He moved forward, and was about to pass near her, 
 when Sidwell involuntarily held her hand to him. He 
 took it and gazed into her face with a melancholy 
 smile. 
 
 * What does it mean ? ' she asked, in a low voice. 
 
 He relinquished her fingers, which he had scarcely 
 pressed, and stood witli his arms behind his back. 
 
 ' Oh, it's all quite true,' was his reply, wearily 
 spoken. 
 
 ' What is true ? ' 
 
 ' All that you have heard from your brother.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 395 
 
 * All ? — But how can you know what he has said ? ' 
 They looked at each other. l*eak's lips were set as if 
 
 in resistance of emotion, and a frown wrinkled his brows. 
 Sidwell's gaze was one of fear and appeal. 
 
 * lie said, of course, that I had deceived you.' 
 
 * But in what ? — Was there no truth in anything you 
 said to me ? ' 
 
 'To you I have spoken far more truth than false- 
 hood.' 
 
 A light shone in her eyes, and her lips quivered. 
 
 'Then,' she murmured, ' Buckland was not riglit in 
 everything.' 
 
 * I understand. He wished you to believe that my love 
 was as much a pretence as my religion ? ' 
 
 * He said that.' 
 
 'It was natural enough. — And you were disposed to 
 believe it ? ' 
 
 ' I thought it impossible. But I should liave thouglit 
 the same of the other things.' 
 
 Peak nodded, and moved away. Watching him, Sidwell 
 was beset with conflicting impulses. His assurance had 
 allayed her worst misgiving, and she ai)proved the self- 
 restraint with which he bore himself, but at the same 
 time she longed for a passionate declaration. As a 
 reasoning woman, she did her utmost to remember tliat 
 Peak was on his defence before her, and that nothing 
 could pass between them but grave discussion of the 
 motives which had impelled him to dishonourable he- 
 haviour. As a woman in love, she would fain have 
 obscured tlie moral issue by indulgence of her lieart's 
 desire. She was glad that he lield aloof, but if lie had 
 taken her in his arms, she would have forgotten every- 
 thing in tlie moment's happiness. 
 
 'Let us sit down, and tell me — tell me all you 
 can.' 
 
 He delayed a moment, then seated himsi'lf opposite to 
 her. She saw now that his movements were those of 
 physical fatigue; and the full light from the window, 
 enabling her to read his face more distinctly, revealed the 
 impress of suffering. Instead of calling upon him to 
 
396 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 atone in such measure as was possible for the wrong 
 he had done her, she felt ready to reproach herself 
 for speaking coldly when his need of solace was so 
 great. 
 
 ' What can I tell you/ he said, ' that you don't know, 
 or that you can't conjecture ? ' 
 
 ' But you wrote that there was so much I could not 
 be expected to understand. And I can't, can't under- 
 stand you. It still seems impossible. Why did you 
 hide the truth from me ? ' 
 
 * Because if I had begun by telling it, I should never 
 have won a kind look or a kind thought from you.' 
 
 Sidwell reflected. 
 
 ' But what did you care for me then — when it 
 began ? ' 
 
 ' Not so much as I do now, but enough to overthrow 
 all the results of my life up to that time. Before I 
 met you in this house I had seen you twice, and had 
 learned who you were. I was sitting in the Cathedral 
 when you came there with your sister and Miss Moor- 
 house — do you remember ? I heard Fanny call you by 
 your name, and that brought to my mind a young girl 
 whom I had known in a slight way years before. And 
 the next day I again saw you there, at the service ; I 
 waited about the entrance only to see you. I cared 
 enough for you then to conceive a design which for 
 a long time seemed too hateful really to be carried out, 
 but — at last it was, you see.' 
 
 Sidwell breathed quickly. Nothing he could have 
 urged for himself would have affected her more deeply 
 than this. To date back and extend the period of 
 his love for her was a flattery more subtle than Peak 
 imagined. 
 
 ' Why didn't you tell me that the day before yester- 
 day ? ' she asked, with tremulous bosom. 
 
 ' I had no wish to remind myself of baseness in the 
 midst of a pure joy.' 
 
 She was silent, then exclaimed, in accents of pain : 
 
 'Why should you have thought it necessary to be 
 other than yourself ? Couldn't you see, at first meeting 
 
BORN IN EXILE 397 
 
 with us, that we were not bigoted people? Didn't 
 you know that IJuekhmd liad accustomed us to under- 
 stand liow common it is nowadays for people to throw 
 oir the old relii^don ? Would father liave looked cohlly 
 on you if he liad known that you followed where so 
 many good and tlioughtful men w'ere leading ? ' 
 He regarded her anxiously. 
 
 * I Iiad heard from Buckland that your father was 
 strongly prejudiced ; that you also were quite out of 
 sympathy witli the new thought.' 
 
 * He exaggerated — even then.' 
 
 'Exaggerated? But on what plea could I have come 
 to live in this neighbourhood ? How could I have 
 kept you in sight — tried to win your interest? I had 
 no means, no position. The very thought of encouraging 
 my love for you demanded some extraordinary step. 
 What course was open to me ? ' 
 
 Sid well let her head droop. 
 
 ' I don't know. You might perhaps liave discovered 
 a way.' 
 
 * But what was the use, when the mere fact of my 
 heresy would have forbidden hope from the out- 
 set?' 
 
 * Why should it have done so ? ' 
 
 ' Why ? You know very well that you could never 
 even have been friendly witli the man who wrote that 
 tiling in the review.' 
 
 ' But here is the proof how much better it is to 
 behave truthfully! In this last year I have changed 
 so much that I find it difhcult to understand the 
 strength of my former prejudices. What is it to me 
 now that you speak scornfully of attempts to reconcile 
 things that can't be reconciled ? I understand the new 
 thought, and liow natural it is for you to accept it. 
 If only I could have come to know you well, your 
 opinions w^ould not have stood between us.' 
 
 Peak made a slight gesture, and smiled incredulously. 
 
 ' You think so now.' 
 
 ' And I have such good reason for my thought,' rejoined 
 Sid well, earnestly, ' that when you said you loved me, my 
 
398 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 only regret in looking to the future was — that you had 
 resolved to be a clergyman.' 
 
 He leaned back in the chair, and let a hand fiill on 
 his knee. The gesture seemed to signify a weary 
 relinquishment of concern in what they were dis- 
 cussing. 
 
 ' How could I foresee that ? ' he uttered, in a corre- 
 sponding tone. 
 
 Sidwell was made uneasy by the course upon which 
 she had entered. To what did her words tend ? If 
 only to a demonstration that fate had used him as the 
 plaything of its irony — if, after all, she had nothing 
 to say to him but ' See how your own folly has ruined 
 you,' then she had better have kept silence. She not 
 only appeared to be offering him encouragement, but 
 was in truth doing so. She wished him to understand 
 that his way of thinking was no obstacle to her love, 
 and with that purpose she was even guilty of a slight 
 misrepresentation. For it was only since the shock 
 of this disaster that she had clearly recognised the 
 change in her own mind. True, the regret of which 
 she spoke had for an instant visited her, but it repre- 
 sented a mundane solicitude rather than an intellectual 
 scruple. It had occurred to her how much brighter 
 would be their prospect if Peak were but an active 
 man of the world, with a career before him distinctly 
 suited to his powers. 
 
 His contention was undeniably just. The influence 
 to which she had from the first submitted was the same 
 that her father felt so strongly. Godwin interested her 
 as a self-reliant champion of the old faiths, and his 
 personal characteristics would never have awakened such 
 sympathy in her but for that initial recommendation. 
 Natural prejudice would have prevented her from per- 
 ceiving the points of kindred between his temperament 
 and her own. His low origin, the ridiculous stories 
 connected with his youth — why had she, in spite of 
 likelihood, been able to disregard these things ? Only 
 because of what slie then deemed his spiritual value. 
 
 Lut for the dishonourable part he liad jok^-yed, this 
 
BORN IN EXILE 309 
 
 bond of love would never Imve l)een formed between 
 them. The thought was a new apology for his trans- 
 gression ; she could not but defy her conscience, and 
 look indulgently on the evil which had borne such fruit. 
 Godwin had begun to speak again. 
 
 * This is quite in keeping with the tenor of my whole 
 life. Whatever I undertake ends in frustration at a 
 point where success seems to have just come within my 
 reach. Great things and triHes — it's all the same. ]\Iy 
 course at College was broken off at the moment when 
 T might have assured my future. Later, I made many 
 an effort to succeed in literature, and when at length 
 something of mine was printed in a leading review, 
 I could not even sign it, and had no profit from the 
 attention it excited. Now — well, you see. Laughable, 
 isn't it ? ' 
 
 Sidwell scarcely withheld herself from bending forward 
 and i^ivins^ him her hand. 
 
 * What shall you do ? ' she asked. 
 
 ' Oh, I am not afraid. I have still enough money 
 left to support me until I can find some occupation of 
 the old kind. Fortunately, I am not one of those men 
 whose brains have no marketable value.' 
 
 ' If you knew how it pains me to hear you ! ' 
 
 'If I didn't believe that, I couldn't speak to you like 
 this. I never thought you would let me see you again, 
 and if you hadn't asked me to come, I could never 
 have brought myself to face you. But it would have 
 been a miserable thing to go off without even knowing 
 what you thought of me.' 
 
 ' Should you never have written to me ? ' 
 
 ' I think not. You find it hard to imagine that I 
 have any pride, no doubt ; but it is there, explain it 
 liow one may.' 
 
 * It would have been wrong to leave me in such 
 uncertainty.' 
 
 ' Uncertainty ? ' 
 
 ' About you — about your future.' 
 
 'Did you quite mean that? Ilathrt y(»ur brolhci- 
 made you doubt whether I loveil you at all ^' 
 
400 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 'Yes. But no, I didn't doubt. Indeed, indeed, 1 
 didn't doubt ! But I felt such a need of hearing from 
 your own lips that Oh, I can't explain myself ! ' 
 
 Godwin smiled sadly. 
 
 ' I think I understand. But there was every reason 
 for my believing that your love could not bear such 
 a test. You must regard me as quite a different man — 
 one utterly unknown to you.' 
 
 He had resolved to speak not a word that could sound 
 like an appeal to her emotions. When he entered the 
 room he felt a sincere indifference as to what would 
 result from the interview, for to his mind the story was 
 ended, and he had only to retire with the dignity still 
 possible to a dishonoured man. To touch the note of 
 pathos would be unworthy ; to exert what influence 
 might be left to him, a wanton cruelty. But he had 
 heard such unexpected things, that it was not easy for 
 him to remember how complete had seemed the severance 
 between him and Sidwell. The charm of her presence 
 was reasserting itself, and when avowal of continued 
 love appeared so unmistakably in her troubled counte- 
 nance, her broken words, he could not control the 
 answering fervour. He spoke in a changed voice, and 
 allowed his eyes to dwell longingly upon hers. 
 
 'I felt so at first,' she answered. 'And it would be 
 wrong to pretend that I can still regard you as I did 
 before.' 
 
 It cost her a great effort to add these words. 
 When they were spoken, she was at once glad and 
 fearful. 
 
 * I am not so foolish, as to think it possible,' said Peak, 
 half turning away. 
 
 ' But that is no reason/ she pursued, ' why we should 
 become strangers. You are still so young a man ; life 
 must be so full of possibilities for you. This year has 
 been wasted, but when you leave Exeter ' 
 
 An impatient movement of Godwin's checked her. 
 
 ' You are going to encourage me to begin the struggle 
 once more,' he said, bitterly. 'Where ? How ? It is 
 so easy to talk of " possibilities." ' 
 
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 ' Yuu are not without friends — I mean IViends whose 
 sympathy is of real vahie to you.' 
 
 Saying this, slie looked keenly at him. 
 
 ' Friends,' he replied, ' who perha[>s at this moment 
 arc laughing over my disgrace.' 
 
 ' How do they know of— what has happened ^ ' 
 
 ' How did your brother get his information ? I didn't 
 care to ask him. — No, I don't even wish you to say 
 anything about that.' 
 
 ' Ikit surely there is no reason for keeping it secret. 
 Why may I not speak freely ? Auckland tokl me that 
 he had heard you spoken of at the house of people named 
 Moxey.' 
 
 She endeavoured to understand the smile which rose 
 to his lips. 
 
 * Now it is clear to me/ he said. ' Yes, I suppose that 
 was inevitable, sooner or later.' 
 
 * You knew that he had become actpiaintcd with the 
 Moxey s ? ' 
 
 Her tone was more reserved than hitherto. 
 
 ' Yes, I knew he liad. He met Miss Moxey by cliance 
 at Budleigli Salterton, and I happened to be there — at 
 the Moorhouses' — on the same day.' 
 
 Sidwell glanced at him inquiringly, and waited for 
 something more. 
 
 'I saw Miss Moxey in private,' he added, speaking 
 more quickly, * and asked her to keep my secret. 
 1 ought to be ashamed to tell you this, l)ut it is 
 better you should know how far my humiliation has 
 gone.' 
 
 He saw that she was moved with strong feeling. 
 The low tone in which she answered had peculiar 
 significance. 
 
 ' Did you speak of me to Miss Moxey ? ' 
 
 ' I must forgive you for asking that,' Peak rc})lied, 
 coldly. *It may well seem to you that I have neither 
 honour nor delicacy left.' 
 
 There had come a flush on her cheeks. For some 
 moments she was absorbed in thought. 
 
 * It seems strange to you,' he continued at length, 
 
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402 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 * that I could ask J\Iiss Moxey to share such a secret. 
 But you must understand on what terms we were — she 
 and I. We have known each other for several years. 
 She has a man's mind, and I have always thought of 
 her in much the same way as of my male companions. — 
 Your brother has told you about her, perhaps ? ' 
 
 ' I have met her in London.' 
 
 'Then that will make my explanation easier/ said 
 Godwin, disregarding the anxious questions that at once 
 suggested themselves to him. 'Well, I misled her, or 
 tried to do so. I allowed her to suppose that I was 
 sincere in my new undertakings, and that I didn't wish 
 
 Oh ! ' he exclaimed, suddenly breaking off, ' Why 
 
 need I go any further in confession ? It must be as 
 miserable for you to hear as for me to speak. Let us 
 make an end of it. I can't understand how I have 
 escaped detection so long.' 
 
 Kemembering every detail of Buckland's story, Sid well 
 felt that she had possibly been unjust in representing the 
 Moxeys as her brother's authority ; in strictness, she 
 ouglit to mention that a friend of theirs was the actual 
 source of information. But she could not pursue the 
 subject ; like Godwin, she wished to put it out of her 
 mind. What question could there be of honour or dis- 
 honour in the case of a person such as Miss Moxey, who 
 had consented to be party to a shameful deceit ? 
 Strangely, it was a relief to her to have heard this. The 
 moral repugnance which threatened to estrange her from 
 Godwin, was now directed in another quarter ; unduly 
 restrained by love, it found scope under the guidance of 
 jealousy. 
 
 ' You have been trying to adapt yourself,' she said, ' to 
 a world for which you are by nature unfitted. Your 
 place is in the new order ; by turning back to the old, 
 you condemned yourself to a wasted life. Since we have 
 been in London, I have come to understand better the 
 great difference between modern intellectual life and 
 that which we lead in these far-away corners. You must 
 go out among your equals, go and take your part with 
 men who are working for the future.' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 403 
 
 Peak rose with a gesture of passionate impatience. 
 
 * What is it to me, new workl or (jkl ^ ^ly worhl is 
 where v/o?^ are. I have no life of my own ; I think only 
 of you, live only by you.' 
 
 'If I could help you!' she replied, witli emotion. 
 * What can I do — but be your friend at a distance ? 
 Everything else has l)econie impossible.' 
 
 ' Impossible for the present — for a long time to come. 
 But is there no hope for me ? ' 
 
 She pressed her hands together, and stood before liim 
 unable to answer. 
 
 ' Iiememl)er,' he continued, ' that you are almost as 
 much changed in my eyes as I in yours. I did not 
 imagine that you had moved so far towards freedom of 
 mind. If my love for you was profound and absorbing, 
 tliink what it must now have become 1 Yours has suffered 
 by my disgrace, but is there no hope of its reviving — if 
 I live worthily— if I ? ' 
 
 His voice failed. 
 
 ' I liave said that we can't be strangers,' Sidwell 
 murmured brokenly. ' Wherever you go, 1 must hear of 
 you.'^ 
 
 ' Everyone about you will detest my name. You will 
 soon wish to forget my existence.' 
 
 ' If I know myself, never ! — Oh, try to tind your true 
 wurk ! You have such abilities, powers so much greater 
 than those of ordinary men. You will always be the same 
 to me, and if ever circumstances ' 
 
 'You would have to give up so much, Sidwelh And 
 there is little chance of my ever l)eing well - to - do ; 
 poverty will always stand between us, if nothing else.' 
 
 ' It must be so long before we can think of that.' 
 
 * But can I ever see you ? — Xo, I won't ask that. Who 
 knows ? I may have to go too far away. But I nvnj write 
 to you — after a time ? ' 
 
 ' I shall live in the hope of good news from you,' she 
 replied, trying to smile and to speak cheerfully. * This 
 will always be my home. Nothing will l)e changed.' 
 
 ' Then you don't think of me as irredeemably l)ase ? ' 
 
 * If I thought you base,' Sidwell answered, in a low 
 
404 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 voice, ' I should not now be speaking with you. It is 
 because I feel and know that you have erred only — that 
 is what makes it impossible for me to think of your fault 
 as outweighing the good in your nature.' 
 
 ' The good ? I wonder how you understand that. 
 What is there good in me ? You don't mean mere 
 intellect ? ' 
 
 He waited anxiously for what she would say. A 
 necessity for speaking out his inmost thoughts had arisen 
 with the emotion, scarcely to be called hope, excited by 
 Sidwell's magnanimity. Now, or never, he must stand 
 before this woman as his very self, and be convinced that 
 ske loved him for his own sake. 
 
 'No, I don't mean intellect,' she replied, with hesi- 
 tation. 
 
 ' What then ? Tell me of one quality in me strong 
 enough to justify a woman's love.' 
 
 Sidwell dropped her eyes in confusion. 
 
 ' I can't analyse your character — T only know ' 
 
 She became silent. 
 
 ' To myself,' pursued Godwin, with the modulated, 
 Qioving voice which always expressed his genuine feeling, 
 * I seem anything but lovable. I don't underrate my 
 powers — rather the opposite, no doubt ; but what I 
 always seem to lack is the gift of pleasing — moral grace. 
 My strongest emotions seem to be absorbed in revolt ; 
 for once that I feel tenderly, I have a hundred fierce, 
 resentful, tempestuous moods. To be suave and smiling 
 in common intercourse costs me an effort. I have to act 
 the part, and this habit makes me sceptical, whenever 
 I am really prompted to gentleness. I criticise myself 
 ceaselessly ; expose without mercy all those characteristics 
 which another man would keep out of sight. Yes, and 
 for this very reason, just because I think myself un- 
 lovable — the gift of love means far more to me than to 
 other men. If you could conceive the passion of gratitude 
 which possessed me for hours after I left you the other 
 day ! You cannot ! ' 
 
 Sidwell regarded him fixedly. 
 
 ' In comparison with this sincerity, what becomes of the 
 
BORN IN EXILE 405 
 
 pretence you blame in me ? If you knew how paltry it 
 seems — that accusation of dishonesty ! I believed the 
 world round, and pretended to believe it flat : tliat's wliat 
 it amounts to ! Are you, on such an account as tliat, to 
 consider wortldess the devotion whicli has grown in me 
 month by month ? You — I was persuaded — thought the 
 world Hat, and couldn't think kindly of any man who 
 held the other hypothesis. Very well ; why not concede 
 the trifle, and so at least give myself a chance ? 1 did 
 so — that was all.' 
 
 In vain her conscience strove to assert itself. She was 
 under the spell of a nature infniilely stronger than hers ; 
 she saw and felt as Godwin did. 
 
 'You think, Sidwell, that I stand in need of forgive- 
 ness. Then be great enough to forgive me, wholly — once 
 and for all. Let your love be strengthened by the trial it 
 has passed through. That will mean that my whole life 
 is yours, directed by the ever-present thought of your 
 beauty, lace and soul. Then there icill be good in me, 
 thanks to you. I shall no longer live a life of hypocrisy, 
 of suppressed rage and scorn. I know liow mucli I am 
 asking ; perhaps it means that for my sake you give up 
 everything else tliat is dear to you ' 
 
 The thought checked him. He looked at her 
 despondently. 
 
 ' You can trust me,' Sidwell answered, moving nearer to 
 him, tears on her cheeks. ' I must hear from you, and I 
 will write.' 
 
 ' I can ask no more than that' 
 
 He took her hands, held them for a moment, and turned 
 away. At tlie door he looked round. Sidwcll's head was 
 l)owed, and, on her raising it, lie saw lliat she was blinded 
 with tears. 
 
 So he went fortli. 
 
PART THE SIXTH 
 
PART THE SIXTH 
 
 For several days after the scene in which Mr. Malkin 
 unconsciously played an important part, Marcella seemed 
 to be ill. She appeared at meals, but neither ate nor 
 conversed. Christian liad never known lier so sullen 
 and nervously irritable; he did not venture to utter 
 Peak's name. Upon seclusion followed restless activity. 
 ]\Iarcelki was rarely at home between breakfast and 
 dinner-time, and her brother learnt with satisfaction 
 that she went much among her acquaintances. Late one 
 evening, when he had just returned from he knew not 
 where, Christian tried to put an end to the unnatural 
 constraint between them. After talking cheerfully for a 
 few minutes, he risked the question : 
 
 ' Have you seen anything of the Warricombes i ' 
 
 She replied with a cold negative. 
 
 ' Xor heard anything ? ' 
 
 * No. Have you ? ' 
 
 'Nothing at all. I have seen Karwaker. Malkin had 
 told him about what ha])p('n(Ml here the oilier day.' 
 
 ' Of course.' 
 
 ' But he had no news. — ( )f Peak, I mean.' 
 
 Marcella smiled, as if the situation amused hur : but 
 she would not discuss it. Christian began to liope that 
 she was training herself to a wholesome indilVerence. 
 
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410 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 A month of the new year went by, and Peak seemed to 
 be forgotten. MarceUa had returned to lier studious 
 habits, was fenced around with books, seldom left the 
 liouse. Another month and the brother and sister were 
 living very much in the old way, seeing few people, 
 conversing only of intellectual things. But Christian 
 concealed an expectation which enabled him to pass hours 
 of retirement in the completest idleness. Since tlie death 
 of her husband, Mrs. Palmer had been living abroad. 
 Before the end of March, as he had been careful to 
 discover, she would be back in London, at the house in 
 Sussex Square. By that time he might venture, without 
 indelicacy, to call upon her. And after the fiist 
 interview 
 
 The day came, when, ill with agitation, lie set forth to 
 pay this call. For two or three nights he had scarcely 
 closed his eyes ; he looked ghastly. The weather was 
 execrable, and on that very account he made choice of 
 this afternoon, hoping that he might fiud liis widowed 
 Laura alone. Between ringing the bell and the opening 
 of the door, he could liardly support himself. He asked 
 for Mrs. Palmer in a gasping voice which caused the 
 servant to look at him with surprise. 
 
 The lady was at home. At the drawing-room door, 
 before his name could be announced, he caught the 
 unwelcome sound of voices in lively conversation. It 
 seemed to him that a score of persons were assembled. 
 In reality there were six, three of them callers. 
 
 Mrs. I*almer met hhn with the friendliest welcome. A 
 stranger would have thought her pretty, but by no means 
 impressive. She was short, any tiling but meagre, fair- 
 haired, brisk of movement, idly vivacious in look and 
 tone. The mourning she wore imposed no restraint upon 
 her humour, which at present was not far from gay. 
 
 ' Is it really Mr. Moxey ? ' she exclaimed. ' Why, I 
 had all but forgotten you, and positively it is your own 
 fault ! It must be a year or more since you came to see 
 me. No ? Eight months ? — But I have been through so 
 much trouble, you know.' She sighed mechanically. 'I 
 thought of you one day at Bordighera, when we were 
 
BORN IN EXILE HI 
 
 looking at some funny little sea-creatures — the kind of 
 thing you used to know all about. How is your 
 sister i ' 
 
 A chill struck upon his heart. Assuredly \\v had no 
 wish to find Constance sunk in the semblance of dolour; 
 such hypocrisy would have pained him. lUit lier spright- 
 liness was a shock. Though months had passed since Mr. 
 Palmer's decease, a decent gravity would more have 
 become her condition. He could reply only in brokun 
 phrases, and it was a relief to him when the widow, 
 as if tiring of his awkwardness, turned her attention 
 elsewhere. 
 
 He was at length able to survey the company. Two 
 ladicis in mourning he faintly recognised, the one a sister 
 of Mr. Palmer's, comely but of didl aspect; the other a 
 niece, whose laugh was too fre(|uent even had it been 
 more musical, and who talked of athletic sports with a 
 young man evidently better fitted to excel in that kind of 
 thing than in any pursuit demanding intelligence. This 
 gentleman Christian had never met. The two other 
 callers, a grey-headed, military-looking person, and a lady, 
 possibly his Avife, were e(|ually strangers to him. 
 
 The drawing-room was much changed in appearance 
 since Christian's last visit. There was more display, a 
 richer profusion of ornaments not in the best taste. The 
 old pictures had given place to showily-framed daubs of 
 the most popular school. On a little table at his elbow, 
 he remarked the ])hotograp]i of a jockey who was just 
 then engrossing public allection. What did all this 
 mean ? Formerly, he had attributed every graceful 
 feature of the room to Constance's choice. He had 
 imagined that to her Mr. Palmer was indebted for 
 guidance on points of icsthetic proprietv. Could it be 
 that ? 
 
 He caught a glance which slie cast in Ids direction, and 
 instantly forgot the troublesome prol)lem. How dull of 
 him to misunderstand her ! Her sportiveness had a 
 double significance. It was the expression of a hope 
 which would not be sul)dued, and at the same time a 
 means of disguising the tender interest with which slie 
 
412 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 regarded him. If she had been blithe before his appear- 
 ance, how could she suddenly change her demeanour as 
 soon as he entered ? It would have challenged suspicion 
 and remark. For the same reason she affected to have 
 all but forgotten him. Of course ! how could he have 
 failed to see that ? * I thought of you one day at 
 Bordighera' — was not that the best possible way of 
 making known to him that he had never been out of her 
 mind ? 
 
 Sweet, noble, long-suffering Constance ! 
 
 He took a place by her sister, and began to talk of he 
 knew not what, for all his attention was given to the 
 sound of Constance's voice. 
 
 ' Yes,' she was saying to the man of military appearance, 
 * it's very early to come back to London, but I did get so 
 tired of those foreign places.' 
 
 (In other words, of being far from her Christian — thus 
 he interpreted.) 
 
 'No, we didn't make a single pleasant acquaintance. 
 A shockingly tiresome lot of people wherever we 
 went.' 
 
 (In comparison with the faithful lover, who waited, 
 w^aited.) 
 
 ' Foreigners are so stupid — don't you think so ? Wliy 
 should they always expect you to speak tlieir language ? 
 — Oh, of course I speak French ; but it is such a 
 disagreeable language — don't you think so ? ' 
 
 (Compared with the accents of English devotion, of 
 course.) 
 
 ' Do you go in for cycling, Mr. Moxey ? ' inquired Mrs. 
 Palmer's laughing niece, from a little distance. 
 
 ' For cycling ? ' With a great effort he recovered himself 
 and grasped the meaning of the words, ' No, I — I'm sorry 
 to say I don't. Capital exercise ! ' 
 
 ' Mr. Dwight has just been telling me such an awfully 
 good story about a friend of his. Do tell it again, Mr. 
 Dwight ! It'll make you laugh no end, Mr. Moxey.' 
 
 The young man appealed to was ready enough to repeat 
 his anecdote, which had to do with a bold cyclist, who, 
 after dining more than well, rode liis machine down a 
 
BORN IN KXILK 41 o 
 
 Steep hill and escaped destruction only l)y miracle. 
 Christian laughed desperately, and declared tliat he had 
 never lieard anything so good. 
 
 But the tension of his nerves was unendurahle. Five 
 minutes more of anguish, and he sprang up like an 
 automaton. 
 
 * Must you really go, Mr. ]\Ioxey ? ' said Constance, 
 with a manner which of course was intended to veil her 
 emotion. * Please don't be anotlier year Ijcfore you let 
 us see you again.' 
 
 Blessings on her tender heart ! What mure could she 
 liave said, in the presence of all those peo})le ? He 
 walked all the way to Notting Hill through a i>elting 
 rain, his passion aglow. 
 
 Impossible to be silent longer concerning the brilliant 
 future. Arrived at home, he Huncr off hat and coat, and 
 went straight to the drawing - room, hoping to find 
 ^larcella alone. To his annoyance, a stranger was sit- 
 ting there in conversation, a very simply dressed lady, 
 who, as he entered, looked at him with a grave smile 
 and stood up. He thought he had never seen her 
 before. 
 
 ]\Iarcella wore a singular expression : there was a 
 moment of silence, for Christian decidedly embarrassing, 
 since it seemed to be expected that he should greet the 
 stranger. 
 
 ' Don't you remember Janet ? ' said his sister. 
 
 'Janet?' He felt his face iiush. ' You don't mean to 
 
 say ? But how you have altered ! And yet, no ; 
 
 really, you haven't. It's only my stupidity.' He grasped 
 her hand, and with a feeling of genuine pleasure, despite 
 awkward reminiscences. 
 
 ' One does alter in eleven years,' said Janet Moxey, in 
 a very pleasant, natural voice — a voice of habitual self- 
 command, conveying the idea of a highly cultivated mind, 
 and many other agreeable things. 
 
 ' Eleven years ? Yes, yes ! How very glad I am to see 
 you! And I'm sure Marcella was. How very kind of 
 you to call on us ! ' 
 
 Janet was as far as ever from looking handsome or 
 
414 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 pretty, but it must have been a dullard who proclaimed 
 her face unpleasing. She had eyes of remarkable intelli- 
 gence, something like Marcella's, but milder, more benevo- 
 lent. Her lips were softly firm ; they would not readily 
 part in laughter; their frequent smile meant more than 
 that of the woman who sets herself to be engaging. 
 
 ' I am on my way home,' she said, ' from a holiday in 
 the South, — an enforced holiday, I'm sorry to say.' 
 
 * You have been ill ? ' 
 
 * Overworked a little. I am practising medicine in 
 Kingsmill.' 
 
 Christian did not disguise his astonishment. 
 
 ' Medicine ? ' 
 
 'You don't remember that I always had scientific 
 tastes ? ' 
 
 If it was a reproach, none could have been more gently 
 administered. 
 
 *0f course — of course I do! Your botany, your 
 skeletons of birds and cats and mice — of course ! But 
 where did you study ? ' 
 
 * In London. The Women's Medical School, I have 
 been in practice for nearly four years.' 
 
 'And have overworked yourself. — But why are we 
 standing ? Let us sit down and talk. How is your 
 father ? ' 
 
 Marcella was watching her brother closely, and with a 
 curious smile. 
 
 Janet remained for another hour. No reference was 
 made to the long rupture of intercourse between her 
 family and these relatives. Christian learnt that his 
 uncle was still hale, and that Janet's four sisters all 
 lived, obviously unmarried. To-day he was disposed to 
 be almost affectionate with anyone who showed him a 
 friendly face : he expressed grief that his cousin must 
 leave for Twybridge early in the morning. 
 
 ' Whenever you pass through the Midlands,' was Janet's 
 indirect reply, addressed to Marcella, 'try to stop at 
 Kingsmill.' 
 
 And a few minutes after that she took her leave. 
 There lingered behind her that peculiar fragrance of 
 
BORN IN EXILE 415 
 
 nu|jprn wnTflftphnnH^ rpfrPfiliino' inspiritini,^ wliicli is so 
 "enTTrely different from the iiierely I'uniiiiiiiL' piTt'iime, 
 however exquisite. 
 
 ' What a surprising visit!' was Christian's exehiinatinu, 
 when he and his sister were alone. 'How did she liiid 
 us?' 
 
 * Directory, I suppose.' 
 
 * A lady doctor ! ' he mused. 
 
 ' And a very capable one, I fancy,' said Marcella. * We 
 had nearly an hour's talk before you came. Lut she 
 won't be able to stand the work. There'll be another 
 breakdown before long.' 
 
 ' Has she a large practice, then ? ' 
 
 'Not very large, perhaps; but she studies as well. 
 1 never dreamt of Janet becoming so interesting a 
 person.' 
 
 Christian had to postpone till after dinner the talk he 
 purposed about Mrs. Palmer. When that time came, he 
 was no longer dis})Osed for sentimental confessions ; it 
 would be better to wait until he could announce a settled 
 project of marriage. Through the evening, his sister re- 
 curred to the subject of Janet with curious frequency, and 
 on the following day her interest had suH'ered no iliniinu- 
 tion. Christian had always taken for granted that she 
 understood the grounds of the breach between him and 
 his uncle ; without ever unbosoming himself, he had 
 occasionally, in his softer moments, alluded to the 
 awkward subject in language which he thought easy 
 enough to interpret. Now at length, in reply to some 
 remark of Marcella's, he said with significant accent : 
 
 * Janet was very friendly to me.' 
 
 * She has studied science for ten years,* was Ids sister's 
 comment. 
 
 ' Yes, and can forgive a l)oy's absurdities.* 
 
 ' Easier to forgive, certainly, tlian those of a man,' said 
 ]\[arcella, wdth a curl of the lip. 
 
 Christian became silent, and went thoughtfully away. 
 
 A week later, he was again in ]\Irs. Palmer's chawing- 
 room, where again he met an assemlJage of people such as 
 seemed to profane this sanctuary. To be sure — he said 
 
416 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 to himself — Constance could not at once get rid of the 
 acquaintances forced upon her by her husband ; little by 
 little she would free herself. It was a pity that her sister 
 and her niece — persons anything but intelligent and 
 refined — should be permanent members of her house- 
 hold; for their sake, no doubt, she felt constrained to 
 welcome men and women for whose society she herself 
 had little taste. But when the year of her widowhood 
 was past 
 
 Petrarch's Laura was the mother of eleven children ; 
 Constance had had only three, and one of these w^as dead. 
 The remaining two. Christian now learnt, lived with a 
 governess in a little house at Bournemouth, which Mrs. 
 Palmer had taken for that purpose. 
 
 ' I'm going down to see them to-morrow,' she informed 
 Christian, ' and I shall stay there over the next day. It's 
 so quiet and restful.' 
 
 These words kept repeating themselves to Christian's 
 ear, as he went home, and all through the evening. Were 
 they not an invitation? Down there at Bournemouth, 
 Constance would be alone the day after to-morrow. ' It 
 is so quiet and restful ; ' that was to say, no idle callers 
 would break upon her retirement ; she would be able to 
 welcome a friend, and talk reposefully with him. Surely 
 she must ha\ c meant that ; for she spoke with a peculiar 
 intonation — a look 
 
 By the second morning he had worked himself up to a 
 persuasion that yonder by the seaside Constance was 
 expecting him. To miss the opportunity would be to 
 prove himself dull of apprehension, a laggard in love. 
 With trembling hands, lie hurried through his toilet and 
 made haste downstairs to examine a railway time-table. 
 He found it was possible to reach Bournemouth by about 
 two o'clock, a very convenient hour ; it would allow him 
 to take refreshment, and walk to the house shortly after 
 three. 
 
 His conviction strong as ever, he came to the journey's 
 end, and in due course discovered the pleasant little 
 house of which Constance had spoken. At the door, his 
 heart failed him ; but retreat could not now be thought of. 
 
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 Yes, Mis. Palmer was at home. The servant led him into 
 a sitting-room on the gronnd floor, took his name, and 
 left him. 
 
 It was nearly ten minutes before Constance ai)i)eared. 
 On her face he read a frank surprise. 
 
 'I happened to — to l)e down here; coiddn't resist the 
 temptation ' 
 
 ' Delighted to see you, ]Mr. Moxey. But how did you 
 know I was here ?' 
 
 He crazed at her. 
 
 * You — don't you remember { The day before yesterday 
 — in Sussex Square — -you mentioned ' 
 
 ' Oh, did I ? ' She laughed. ' I had quite forgotten.' 
 
 Christian sank upon his chair. He tried to convince 
 liimself that she was playing a part; perhaps she thought 
 tliat she had been premature in revealing lier wish to talk 
 with him. 
 
 Mrs. Palmer was good-natured. This call evidently 
 puzzled her, but she did not stint her hospitality. AVhen 
 Christian asked after the children, they were summoned ; 
 two little girls daintily dressed, pretty, affectionate with 
 tlieir mother. The sight of them tortured Christian, and 
 he sighed deeply with relief when they left the room, 
 (.'onstance ajjpeared rather absent ; her quick glance at 
 him signified something, but he could not determine 
 what. In agony of constraint, he rose as if to go. 
 
 ' Oh, you will have a cup of tea with me,' said Mrs. 
 Palmer. * It will be brought in a few minutes.' 
 
 Then she really wished him to stop. AYas he not 
 behaving like an obtuse creature :* AYliy, everything was 
 planned to encourage him. 
 
 He talked recklessly of this and that, and got round 
 to tlie years long gone by. When the tea came, he was 
 reviving memories of occasions on which he and she had 
 met as young people. Constance laughed merrily, declared 
 she could hardly remember. 
 
 * Oh, what a time ago ! — But I was quite a cliild.' 
 
 *No — indeed, no! You were a young lady, and n 
 brilliant one.' 
 
 The tea seemed to intoxicate liini. He noticed again 
 
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418 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 that Constance glanced at him significantly. How good 
 of her to allow him this delicious afternoon ! 
 
 * Mr. Moxey,' she said, after meditating a little, ' why 
 haven't you married ? I should have thought you would 
 have married long ago.' 
 
 He was stricken dumb. Her jerky laugh came as a 
 shock upon his hearing. 
 
 ' Married ? ' 
 
 ' What is there astonishing in the idea ? ' 
 
 * But — I — How can I answer you ? ' 
 
 The pretty, characterless face betrayed some unusual 
 feeling. She looked at him furtively ; seemed to suppress 
 a tendency to laugh. 
 
 * I mustn't pry into secrets/ she simpered. 
 
 * But there is no secret ! ' Christian panted, laying down 
 his teacup for fear he should drop it. ' Whom should I 
 — could I have married ? ' 
 
 Constance also put aside her cup. She was bewildered, 
 and just a little abashed. With courage which came he 
 knew not whence, Christian bent forward and continued 
 speaking : 
 
 ' Whom could 1 marry after that day when I met you 
 in the little drawing-room at the Eobinsons' ? ' 
 
 She stared in genuine astonishment, then was 
 embarrassed. 
 
 'You cannot — cannot have forgotten ?' 
 
 'You surely don't mean to say, Mr. Moxey, that you 
 have remembered ? Oh, I'm afraid I was a shocking llirt 
 in those days ! ' 
 
 ' But I mean after your marriage — when I found you 
 in tears ' 
 
 ' Please, please don't remind me ! ' she exclaimed, 
 giggling nervously. ' Oh how silly ! — of me, I mean. 
 To think that — but you are making fun of me, ]\Ir. 
 Moxey ? ' 
 
 Christian rose and went to the window. He was not 
 only shaken by his tender emotions — something very 
 like repugnance had begun to ahect him. If Constance 
 were feigning, it was in very bad taste ; if she spoke with 
 sincerity — what a Avoman had he worshipped ! It did 
 
BORN IN KXILK 419 
 
 not occur to him to lay the fault upon his own absurcL. 
 romanticism. Alter eleven years' persistence in one point 
 of view, he could not suddenly see the allair with the 
 eyes of common sense. 
 
 He turned and approached her again. 
 
 * Do you not know, then,' he asked, witli rpiiet dignity, 
 ' that ever since the day I speak of, 1 have devoted my 
 life to the love I then felt? AW these years, have you 
 not understood me ? ' 
 
 Mrs. Palmer was quite unable to grasp ideas such as 
 these. Neither her reading nor her experience i)repared 
 her to understand what Christian meant. Courtship of 
 a married woman was intelligible enough to her; but 
 a love that feared to soil itself, a devotion from afar, 
 encouraged by only the faintest hope of reward other 
 tlian the most insubstantial — of that she had as little 
 conception as any woman among the wealthy vulgar. 
 
 'Do you really mean, Mr. Moxey, that you — have kept 
 unmarried for rji?j sake ? ' 
 
 ' You don't know that ? ' he asked, hoarsely. 
 
 ' How could I ? How was I to imagine such a thing ? 
 Iteally, was it proper ? How could you expect me, Mr. 
 Moxey ? ' 
 
 For a moment she looked oll'ended. lUit Iier real 
 feelings were astonishment and amusement, not unmingled 
 with an idle gratification. 
 
 / 1 must ask you to pardon me,' said Christian, whose 
 forehead gleamed with moisture. 
 
 'Xo, don't say that. I am really so sorry! What an 
 odd mistake ! ' 
 
 ' And I have hoped in vain — since yiju were free ? ' 
 
 ' Oh, you mustn't say such things ! I shall never dream 
 of marrying again — never ! ' 
 
 There was a matter-of-fact vigour in the assertion 
 which proved that Mrs. Talmer spuke her genuine 
 thought. The tone could not be interpreted as devotion 
 to her husband's memory ; it meant, plainly and simply, 
 that she had had enough of marriage, and delighted in 
 her freedom. 
 
 Christian could not say anotlier woi-d. Disilhision was 
 
420 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 complete. The voice, the face, were those of as unspiritual 
 a woman as he could easily have met with, and his life's 
 story was that of a fool. 
 
 He took his hat, held out his hand, with ' Good-bye, 
 Mrs. Palmer.' The cold politeness left her no choice but 
 again to look offended, and with merely a motion of the 
 head she replied, * Good-bye, jMr. Moxey.' 
 
 And therewith permitted him to leave the house. 
 
II 
 
 Ox calling at Earwaker's chambers one February evening, 
 Malkin became aware, from the very thresliold of the 
 outer door, that the domicile was not as he had known 
 it. With the familiar fragrance of Earwaker's special 
 ' mixture ' blended a suggestion of new upholstery. The 
 little vestibule had somehow put oil' its dinginess, and an 
 unwontedly brilliant light from the sitting-room revealed 
 changes of the interior which the visitor remarked with 
 frank astonishment. 
 
 ' AVhat the deuce ! Has it happened at last ? Are you 
 going to be married ? ' he cried, staring about him at 
 unrecognised chairs, tables, and bookcases, at whitened 
 ceiling and pleasantly papered walls, at pictures and 
 ornaments which he knew not. 
 
 The journalist shook his head, and smiled contentedly. 
 
 ' An idea that came to me all at once. ]\Iy editorship 
 seemed to inspire it.' 
 
 After a year of waiting upon Providence, Earwaker 
 had received the offer of a substantial aj^pointment mucli 
 more to his taste than tliose he had previously lield. He 
 was now literary editor of a weekly review which made 
 no kind of appeal to the untaught nudtitude. 
 
 'I have decided to dwell lierc for tlie rest of my life,' 
 he added, looking round the walls. 'One must liave a 
 liomestead, and tliis sliall be mine; here I have set up my 
 penates. It's a portion of space, you know ; and what 
 more can be said of Longleat or Chatsworth ? A house 
 [ sliall never want, because I shall never have a wife. 
 And on the whole T jn-efcr this situation to any other. 
 
422 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 I am well within reach of everything urban that I care 
 about, and as for the country, that is too good to be put 
 to common use; let it be kept for holiday. There's an 
 atmosphere in the old Inns that pleases me. The new 
 flats are insufferable. How can one live sandwiched 
 between a music-hall singer and a female politician ? For 
 lodgings of any kind no sane man had ever a word of 
 approval. Eeflecting on all these things, I have estab- 
 lished myself in perpetuity.' 
 
 'Just what I can't do,' exclaimed Malkin, flinging 
 himself into a broad, deep, leather-covered chair. ' Yet I 
 have leanings that way. Only a few days ago I sat for 
 a whole evening with the map of England open before 
 me, wondering where would be the best place to settle 
 down — a few years hence, I mean, you know ; when 
 Bella is old enough. — That reminds me. Next Sunday is 
 her birthday, and do you know what ? I wish you'd go 
 down to Wrotham with me.' 
 
 ' Many thanks, but I think I had better not.' 
 
 * Oh, but do ! I want you to see how Bella is getting 
 on. She's grown wonderfully since you saw her in Paris 
 — an inch taller, I should think. I don't go down there 
 very often, you know, so I notice these changes. Eeally, 
 I think no one could be more discreet than I am, under 
 the circumstances. A friend of the family; that's all. 
 Just dropping in for a casual cup of tea now and then. 
 Sunday will be a special occasion, of course. I say, what 
 are your views about early marriage ? Do you think 
 seventeen too young ? ' 
 
 ' I should think seven-and-twenty much better.' 
 Malkin broke into fretful ness. 
 
 * Let me tell you, Earwaker, I don't like the way you 
 habitually speak of this project of mine. Plainly^ I don't 
 like it. It's a very serious matter indeed — eh ? What ? 
 Why are you smiling ? ' 
 
 * I agree with you as to its seriousness.' 
 
 'Yes, yes; but in a very cynical and offensive way. 
 It makes me confoundedly uncomfortable, let me tell you. 
 I don't think that's very friendly on your part. And the 
 lact is, if it goes on I'm very much afraid we shan't see 
 
BORN IN EXILE 42o 
 
 SO much of each otlier as we liave done. I Hke you, 
 Earwaker, and I respect you ; I think you know that. 
 But occasionally you seem to liave too little regard for 
 one's feelings. No, I don't feel able to pass it over with 
 a joke. — There ! The deuce take it ! I've bitten olf the 
 end of my pipe.' 
 
 He spat out a piece of amber, and looked ruefully at 
 the broken stem. 
 
 'Take a ci^irar,' said Earwaker, fetcliinLj a box from a 
 cupboard. 
 
 * I don't mind. — Well — what was I saying ? Oh yes ; 
 I was quarrelling witli you. Now, look here, what fault 
 have you to find wuth Bella Jacox ? ' 
 
 ' None whatever. She seemed to me a very amial)le 
 child.' 
 
 * Child ! Pooh ! pshaw ! And fifteen next Sunday, I 
 tell you. She's a young lady, and to tell you the con- 
 founded plain truth, I'm in love with her. I am, and 
 there's nothing to be ashamed of. If you smile, we shall 
 quarrel. I warn you, Earwaker, we shall quarrel.' 
 
 The journalist, instead of smiling, gave fortli his deepest 
 laugh. Malkin turned very red, scowled, and threw his 
 cigar aside. 
 
 * You really wish me to go on Sunday ? ' Earwaker 
 asked, in a pleasant voice. 
 
 The other's countenance immediately cleared. 
 
 ' I shall take it as a great kindness. ^Vlrs. Jacox will 
 be delighted. Meet me at Holborn Viaduct at one- 
 twenty-tive. No, to make sure I'll come here at one 
 o'clock.' 
 
 In a few minutes he was chatting as unconcernedly as 
 ever. 
 
 'Talking of settling down, my l)rother Tom and his 
 wife are on the point of going to New Zealand. Necessity 
 of business ; may be out there for the rest of their lives. 
 Do you know that I shall think very seriously of following 
 them some day ? With Bella, you know. The fact of 
 the matter is, I don't ])elieve I could ever make a solid 
 home in England. Why, I can't quite say; partly, I 
 suppose, because I have nothing to do. Now there's a 
 
424 BORN IN P]X1LE 
 
 good deal to be said for going out to the colonies. A 
 man feels that he is helping the spread of civilisation ; 
 and that's something, you know. I should compare 
 myself with the Greek and Roman colonists— something 
 inspiriting in that thought — what ? Why shouldn't J 
 found a respectable newspaper, for instance ? Yes, I 
 sliall think very seriously of tliis.' 
 
 ' You wouldn't care to run over with your relatives, just 
 to have a look ? ' 
 
 ' It occurred to me,' Malkin replied, thoughtfully. ' But 
 they sail in ten days, and — well, I'm afraid I couldn't get 
 ready in time. And then I've promised to look alter 
 some little affairs for Mrs. Jacox — some trifling money 
 matters. But later in the year — who knows ? ' 
 
 Earwaker half repented of his promise to visit the 
 Jacox household, but there was no possibility of excus- 
 ing himself. So on Sunday he journeyed with his friend 
 down to Wrotham. Mrs. Jacox and her children were 
 very comfortably established in a small new house. When 
 the companions entered they found the mother alone in 
 her sitting-room, and she received them with an effusive- 
 ness very distasteful to Earwaker. 
 
 * Now you shouldn't ! ' was her first exclamation to 
 Malkin. ' Indeed you shouldn't ! It's really very naughty 
 of you. Mr. Earwaker ! Who ever took so much 
 pleasure in doing kindnesses ? Do look at this hcautiful 
 book that Mr. Malkin has sent as a present to my little 
 Bella. Mr. Earwaker ! ' 
 
 The journalist was at once struck with her tone and 
 manner as she addressed Malkin. He remarked that 
 phrase, *my little Bella,' and it occurred to him that ^Irs. 
 Jacox had been growing younger since he made her 
 acquaintance on the towers of Notre Dame. When the 
 girls presented themselves, they also appeared to him 
 more juvenile ; Bella, in particular, was dressed with an 
 exaggeration of childishness decidedly not becoming. One 
 had but to look into her face to see that she answered 
 perfectly to Malkin's description ; she was a young lady, 
 and no child. A very pretty young lady, moreovei' ; 
 given to colouring, but with no silly simper ; intellii^ejjt 
 
TJOKN IX MX ILK 425 
 
 about tlie eyes and lips; modest, in a natural and sweet 
 way. He conversed witli her, and in iloin;^ so was 
 disagreeably aiVected by certain glances she occasion- 
 ally cast towards her mother. One would have said 
 that she feared censure, though it was hard to see 
 why. 
 
 On the return journey Earwaker made known s(jine of 
 his impressions, though not all. 
 
 ' I like the girls,' he said, ' Bella especially. Ihit I can't 
 say nnich good of their mother.' 
 
 They were opposite each other in the railway carriage, 
 ^lalkin leaned forward with earnest, anxious face. 
 
 ' That's my own trouble,' he whispered. * I'm con- 
 foundedly uneasy about it. I don't think she's bringing 
 them up at all in a proper wa}-. Earwaker, 1 would 
 pay down five thousand pounds for the possibility of 
 taking Bella away altogether.' 
 
 The other mused. 
 
 * Ikit, mind you,' pursued Malkin, ' she's not a hial 
 woman. By no means! Thoroughly good-hearted I'm 
 convinced ; only a little weak here.' He tapped his 
 forehead. ' I respect her, for all she has suffered, and 
 her way of going through it. l^ufc she isn't the ideal 
 mother, you know.' 
 
 On his way home, IVfalkin turned into his friend's 
 chambers ' for live minutes.' At two in the morning he 
 was still there, and his talk in the meanwhile had been 
 of nothing but schemes for protecting Bella against her 
 mother's more objectionable influences. On taking leave, 
 lie asked : 
 
 * Any news of Peak yet ? ' 
 
 * None. I haven't seen Moxey for a long time.' 
 
 'Do you think Peak will look you up again, if he's in 
 London ? ' 
 
 'Xo, I think he'll keep away. And I half hope he 
 will ; I shouldn't quite know how to behave. Ten to 
 one he's in London now. I suppose he couldn't stay 
 at Exeter. But he may have left England.' 
 
 They parted, and for a week did not see each otliei. 
 Then, on Mondav evenin*r, when Earwaker was vei\' 
 
426 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 busy with a mass of manuscript, the well-kuown knock 
 sounded from the passage, and Malkin received admis- 
 sion. The look he wore was appalling, a look such as 
 only some fearful catastrophe could warrant. 
 
 ' Are you busy ? ' he asked, in a voice very unlike his 
 own. 
 
 Earwaker could not doubt that the trouble was this 
 time serious. He abandoned his work, and gave himself 
 wholly to his friend's service. 
 
 * An awful thing has happened,' Malkin began. ' How 
 the deuce shall I tell you? Oh, the ass I have made 
 of myself ! ]')Ut I couldn't help it; there seemed no way 
 out of it' 
 
 ' Well ? What ? ' 
 
 * It was last night, but I couldn't come to you till now. 
 By Jove ! I veritably thought of sending you a note, 
 and then killing myself. Early this morning I was 
 within an ace of suicide. Believe me, old friend. This is 
 no farce.' 
 
 ' I'm waiting.' 
 
 ' Yes, yes ; but I can't tell you all at once. Sure 
 you're not busy ? I know I pester you. I was down 
 at Wrotham yesterday. I hadn't meant to go, but the 
 temptation was too strong. I got there at five o'clock, 
 and found that the girls were gone to have tea with 
 some young friends. Well, I wasn't altogether sorry ; 
 it was a good opportunity for a little talk with their 
 mother. And I liad the talk. But, oh, ass that I was ! * 
 
 He smote the side of his head savagely. 
 
 ' Can you guess, Earwaker ? Can you give a shot at 
 what happened ? ' 
 
 ' I^erhaps I might,' replied the other, gravely. 
 
 'Well?' 
 
 ' That woman asked you to marry her.' 
 
 Malkin leapt from his chair, and sank back again. 
 
 * It came to that. Yes, upon my word, it came to that. 
 She said she had fallen in love with me — that was the 
 long and short of it. And I had never said a word tliat 
 
 could suggest Oh, confound it! What a frightful 
 
 scene it was ! ' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 427 
 
 * You took a final leave of her ? ' 
 
 Malkiii stared witli eyes of ani^'uisli into liis friend's 
 face, and at lengtli whispered thickly : 
 ' I said I would ! ' 
 ' What ? Take leave ? ' 
 
 * Marry her ! ' 
 
 Earwaker had much ado to check an impatiently 
 remonstrant laugh. He paused awhile, then began Ids 
 expostulation, at tirst treating the affair as too absurd for 
 grave argument. 
 
 ' My boy,' he concluded, ' you have got into a pre- 
 posterous scrape, and I see only one way out of it. You 
 must flee. When does your brother start for the 
 xVntipodes ? ' 
 
 * Thursday morning.' 
 
 * Then you go with him ; there's an end of it.' 
 
 Mai kin listened with the l)lank, despairing look of a 
 man condemned to death. 
 
 'Do you hear me?' urged the other. 'Go home and 
 pack. On Thursday I'll see you off.' 
 
 *I can't bring myself to that,' came in a groan from 
 Malkin. * I've never yet done anything to be seriously 
 ashamed of, and I can't run away after promising 
 marriage. It would weigh upon me for the rest of my life.' 
 
 ' Humbug ! Would it weigh upon you less to marry, 
 the mother, and all the time be in love with the 
 daughter ? To my mind, there's something peculiarly 
 loathsome in the suggestion.' 
 
 ' But, look here ; 13ella is very young, really very young 
 indeed. It's possiljle that I have deluded myself. 
 Perhaps I don't really care for her in the way I imagined. 
 It's more than likely that I might be content to regard 
 her with fatherly affection.' 
 
 'Even supposing that, with what sort of ailection do 
 you regard j\Irs. Jacox ? ' 
 
 Malkin writhed on his chair before replying. 
 
 'You mustn't misjudge her!' he exclaimed. 'She 
 is no heartless schemer. The poor thing almost cried 
 her eyes out. It was a frightful scene. She reproached 
 herself bitterly. What conhJ I do ? I have a tenderness 
 
428 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 for her, there's no denying that. She has been so vilely 
 used, and has borne it all so patiently. How abominable 
 it would be if I dealt her another blow ! ' 
 
 The journalist raised his eyebrows, and uttered inarticu- 
 late sounds. 
 
 * Was anything said about Bella ? ' he asked, abruptly. 
 
 ' Not a word. I'm convinced she doesn't suspect that 
 I thought of Bella like that. The fact is, I have mis- 
 led her. She thought all along that my chief interest was 
 in liev.' 
 
 ' Indeed ? Then what was the ground of her self- 
 reproach that you speak of ? ' 
 
 ' How defective you are in the appreciation of delicate 
 feeling ! ' cried Malkin frantically, starting up and rush- 
 ing about the room. ' She reproached herself for having 
 permitted me to get entangled with a widow older than 
 myself, and the mother of two children. What could be 
 simpler ? ' 
 
 Earwaker began to appreciate the dangers of the 
 situation. If he insisted upon his view of Mrs. Jacox's 
 behaviour (though it was not the harshest that the 
 circumstances suggested, for he was disposed to believe 
 that the widow had really lost her heart to her kind, 
 eccentric champion), the result would probably be to 
 confirm Malkin in his resolution of self-sacrifice. The 
 man must be saved, if possible, from such calamity, and 
 this would not be effected by merely demonstrating 
 that he was on the highroad to ruin. It was necessary 
 to try another tack. 
 
 ' It seems to me, Malkin,' he resumed, gravely, ' that 
 it is you who are deficient in right feeling. In offering to 
 marry this poor woman, you did her the gravest wrong.' 
 
 'What? How?' 
 
 'You know that it is impossible for you to love her. 
 You know that you will repent, and that she will be 
 aware of it. You are not the kind of man to conceal 
 your emotions. Bella will grow up, and — well, the 
 state of things won't tend to domestic felicity. For 
 Mrs. Jacox's own sake, it is your duty to put an end 
 to this folly l)efore it has gone too far.' 
 
r.or.x IN ivxiij-: 429 
 
 The other gave earnest ear, l)ut with no sign of sliaken 
 conviction. 
 
 ' Yes,' he said. ' 1 know this is one way of hxiking 
 at it. But it assumes that a man can't control himself, 
 that his sense of lionour isn't strong enougli to keep 
 him in the right way. I don't think you quite under- 
 stand me. I am not a passionate man; the proof is 
 that I have never fallen in love since I was sixteen. 
 I tliink a great deal of domestic peace, a good deal 
 more than of romantic enthusiasm. If I marry ^Irs. 
 Jacox, I shall make her a good and faithful liusband, — 
 so much I can safely say of myself.' 
 
 He waited, but Earwaker was not ready with a rejoinder. 
 
 'And there's another point. I have always admitted 
 tlie defect of my character — an inability to settle down. 
 Now, if I run away to New Zealand, with the sense of 
 having dishonoured myself, I shall be a mere Wander- 
 ing Jew for the rest of my life. All hope of redemption 
 will be over. Of the two courses now open to me, that 
 of marriage with Mrs. Jacox is decidedly the less dis- 
 advantageous, (rranting that I have made a fool of 
 myself, I must al)ide by the result, and make the best 
 of it. And the plain fact is, I cant treat her so dis- 
 gracefully ; I cant burden my conscience in this way. 
 I believe it would end in suicide ; I do, indeed.' 
 
 'This sounds all very well, but it is weakness and 
 selfishness.' 
 
 ' How can you say so ? ' 
 
 'There's no proving to so short-sighted a man the 
 result of his mistaken course. I've a good mind to let 
 you have your way just for the satisfaction of saying aftei- 
 wards, " I )idn't I tell you so ? " You propose to behave 
 with abominable injustice to two people, ]nitting yourself 
 aside. Doesn't it occur to you that liella may already 
 look upon you as her future husband i II;iven't you 
 done your best to plant that idea in her mind (' 
 
 Malkin started, but ([uickly recovered himself. 
 
 'No, I haven't! I have behaved with the utmost 
 discretion. Bella thinks of me only as of a liiend nmch 
 older than herself.' 
 
430 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I don't believe it ! ' 
 
 ' Nonsense, Earwaker ! A child of fifteen ! ' 
 
 'The other day you had quite a different view, and 
 after seeing her again I agreed with you. She is a 
 young girl, and if not already in love with you, is on the 
 way to be so.' 
 
 ' That will come to nothing when she hears that I am 
 going to be her step-father.' 
 
 Tar more likely to develop into a grief that will 
 waste the best part of her lifetime. She will be shocked 
 and made miserable. But do as you like. I am tired of 
 arguing.' 
 
 Earwaker affected to abandon the matter in disgust. 
 For several minutes there was silence, then a low 
 voice sounded from the corner where Malkin stood 
 leaning. 
 
 'So it is your honest belief that Bella has begun to 
 think of me in that way ? ' 
 
 ' I am convinced of it.' 
 
 ' But if I run away, I shall never see her again.' 
 
 ' Why not ? She won't run away. Come back when 
 things have squared themselves. Write to Mrs. Jacox 
 from the ends of the earth, and let her understand that 
 there is no possibility of your marrying her.' 
 
 ' Tell her about Bella, you mean ? ' 
 
 *No, that's just what I don't mean. Avoid any 
 mention of the girl. Come back when she is seventeen, 
 and, if she is willing, carry her oft* to be happy ever 
 after.' 
 
 * But she may have fallen in love with someone 
 else.' 
 
 ' I think not. You must risk it, at all events.* 
 
 ' Look here ! ' Malkin came forward eagerly. ' I'll 
 write to Mrs. Jacox to-night, and make a full confession. 
 I'll tell her exactly how the case stands. She's a good 
 woman ; she'll gladly sacrifice herself for the sake of her 
 daughter.' 
 
 Earwaker was firm in resistance. He had no iaith 
 whatever in the widow's capacity for self - immolation, 
 and foresaw that his friend would be drawn into another 
 
BORN IN EXILE 431 
 
 'frightful scene,' resultin*,' )3robably in ;i iiKirriage as 
 soon as tlie licence could be obtaijied. 
 
 ' When are you to see her again ? ' he inquired. 
 
 ' On Wednesday.' 
 
 * Will you undertake to do nothing whatever till 
 AVednesday morning, and then to have another talk with 
 me ? I'll come and see you about ten o'clock.' 
 
 In the end Malkin was constrained into making this 
 engagement, and not long after midnight the journalist 
 managed to get rid of him. 
 
 On Tuesday afternoon arrived a distracted note. ' I 
 shall keep my promise, and I won't try to see you till 
 you come here to-morrow. But I am sore beset. 1 have 
 received three letters from Mrs. Jacox, all long and 
 horribly pathetic. She seems to have a presentiment 
 that I shall forsake her. What a beast I shall be if I do ! 
 Tom comes here to-night, and I think I shall tell him 
 all.' 
 
 The last sentence w^as a relief to the reader ; he knew 
 nothing of Mr. Thomas Malkin, but there was a fair 
 presumption that this gentleman would not see liis 
 brother bent on making such a notable fool of himself 
 without vigorous protest. 
 
 At the appointed hour next morning, Earwaker reached 
 his friend's lodgings, which were now at Kilburn. On 
 entering the room he saw, not the familiar figure, but a 
 solid, dark -faced, black - whiskered man, whom a faint 
 resemblance enabled him to identify as ]\Ialkiu the 
 younger. 
 
 ' I was expecting you,' said Thomas, as they sh(X)k 
 hands. 'My brother is completely lloored. When 1 
 got here an hour ago, I insisted on his lying down, 
 and now I think he's asleep. Tf you don't mind, 
 we'll let him res-t for a little. I believe lie has 
 hardly closed his eyes since this unforttmate aflair 
 happened.' 
 
 'It rejoiced me to hear that he was going to ask your 
 advice. How do matters stand ? ' 
 
 ' You know Mrs. Jacox ? ' 
 
 Thomas was obviously a man of discretion, but less 
 
432 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 intellectual than his brother; he spoke like one who 
 is accustomed to the management of affairs. At first 
 he was inclined to a polite reserve, but Earwaker's 
 conversation speedily put him more at ease. 
 
 ' I have quite made up my mind,' he said presently, 
 ' that we must take him away with us to-morrow. The 
 voyage will l)ring him to his senses.' 
 
 ' or course he resists ? ' 
 
 ' Yes, but if you will give me your help, I think we 
 can manage him. He is not very strong-willed. In a 
 spasmodic way he can defy everyone, but the steady 
 ])ressure of common sense will prevail with him, I 
 think.' 
 
 They had talked for half-an-hour, when the door 
 opened and the object of their benevolent cares stood 
 before them. He was clad in a dressins^-sjown, and his 
 disordered hair heightened the look of illness which his 
 features presented. 
 
 * Why didn't you call me ? ' he asked his brother, 
 irritably. ' Earwaker, I beg a thousand pardons ! I'm 
 not very well ; I've overslept myself.' 
 
 ' Yes, yes ; come and sit down.' 
 Thomas made an offer to leave them. 
 
 * Don't go,' said Malkin. * No need whatever. You 
 know why Earwaker has been so kind as to come 
 here. We may as well talk it over together.' 
 
 He sat on the table, swinging a tassel of his dressing- 
 gown round and round. 
 
 ' Now, what do you really think of doing ? ' asked the 
 journalist, in a kind voice. 
 
 ' I don't know. I absolutely do not know. I'm 
 unutteralJy wretched.' 
 
 ' In that case, will you let your brother and me decide 
 for you ? We have no desire but for your good, and 
 we are perfectly at one in our judgment.' 
 
 * Of course I know what you w*ill propose ! ' cried the 
 other, excitedly. ' Erom the prudential point of view, 
 you are right, I have no doubt. But how can you 
 protect me against remorse ? If you had received letters 
 such as these three,' he pulled them out of a pocket, 
 
BORN IN EXILE 43:^. 
 
 * you would be as miserable as I am. If I don't keep my 
 promise, I sliall never know another moment of peace.' 
 
 * You certainly won't if you do keep it,' remarked Thomas. 
 'No,' added Earwaker, 'and one if not two other 
 
 persons will be put into the same case. Whereas by 
 boldly facing these reproaches of conscience, you do a 
 great kindness to the others.' 
 
 ' If only you could assure me of that ! ' 
 
 * I can assure you. Tliat is to say, I can give it as my 
 unassailable conviction.' 
 
 And Earwaker once more enlarged upon the theme, 
 stating it from every point of view that served his purpose. 
 
 'You're making a mountain out of a mole-heap,' was 
 the confirmatory remark that came from Thomas. ' This 
 respectable lady will get over her sorrows quickly 
 enough, and some day she'll be only too glad to have 
 you for a son-in-law, if Miss Bella still pleases you.' 
 
 ' It's only right,' urged Earwaker, in pursuance of his 
 subtler intention, ' that you should bear the worst of 
 the suffering, for the trouble has come out of your own 
 thoughtlessness. You are fond of saying that you have 
 behaved with the utmost discretion ; so far from that 
 you have been outrageously indiscreet. I foresaw that 
 something of this kind might come to pass ' 
 
 * Then why the devil didn't you warn me ? ' shouted 
 Malkin, in an agony of nervous strain. 
 
 ' It would have been useless. In fact, 1 foresaw it too late.' 
 
 The discussion continued for an hour. By careful in- 
 sistence on the idea of self-sacritice, Earwaker by degrees 
 demolished tlie arguments his friend kei)t putting forward. 
 Thomas, who had gone impatiently to the window, turned 
 round with words that were meant to be final. 
 
 ' It's quite decided. You begin your preparations at 
 once, and to-morrow morning you go on Itoard with us.' 
 
 ' But if I don't go to AVrotham this afternoon. slie'U 
 1)6 here either to-night or the first thing to-morrow. I'm 
 sure of it ! ' 
 
 'By four or five o'clock,' said Earwaker, ' you can have 
 broken up the camp. You've often done it at shorter 
 notice. Go to an hotel for the night.' 
 
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434 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I must write to the poor woman.' 
 
 ' Do as you like about that.' 
 
 ' Who is to help her, if she gets into difficulties — as 
 she's always doing ? Who is to advise her about Bella's 
 
 education ? Who is to pay 1 mean, who will see 
 
 to ? Oh, confound it ! ' 
 
 The listeners glanced at each other. 
 
 ' Are her affairs in order ? ' asked Earwaker. * Has she 
 a sufficient income ? ' 
 
 ' For ordinary needs, quite sufficient. But ' 
 
 'Then you needn't be in the least uneasy. Let her 
 know where you are, when the equator is between you. 
 Watch over her interests from a distance, if you like. 
 I can as good as promise you that Bella will wait 
 hopefully to see her friend again.' 
 
 Malkin succumbed to argument and exhaustion. 
 Facing Earwaker with a look of pathetic appeal, he 
 asked hoarsely : 
 
 ' Will you stand by me till it's over ? Have you 
 time ? ' 
 
 * 1 can give you till five o'clock.' 
 
 ' Then I'll go and dress. Fung the bell, Tom, and ask 
 them to bring up some beer.' 
 
 Before three had struck, the arrangements for flight 
 were completed. A heavily-laden cab bore away Malkiri's 
 personal property ; within sat the unhappy man and his 
 faithful friend. 
 
 The next morning Earwaker went down to Tilbury, 
 and said farewell to the travellers on board the steam- 
 ship Orient. Mrs. Thomas had already taken her brother- 
 in-law under her special care. 
 
 ' It's only three children to look after, instead of two,' 
 she remarked, in a laughing aside to the journalist. ' How 
 grateful he will be to you in a few days ! And I'm 
 sure ire are already.' 
 
 Malkin's eyes were no longer (juite lustreless. At the 
 last moment he talked with animation of 'two years 
 hence,' and there was vigour in the waving of his hand 
 as the vessel started seaward. 
 
Ill 
 
 Peak lost no time in leaving Exeter. To lighten his 
 baggage, and to get rid of possessions to which hateful 
 memories attached, lie sold all his books that had any 
 bearing on theology. The incomplete translation of 
 Bihd und Natur he committed to the flames in Mrs. 
 Koots's kitchen, scattering its black remnants with savage 
 thrusts of the poker. AYhilst engaged in packing, he 
 debated with himself whether or not he should take leave 
 of the few ac(|uaintances to whom he was indebted for 
 hospitality and other kindness. The question was : Had 
 Buckland Warricombe already warned these people 
 against him ? Probably it had seemed to Buckland the 
 wiser course to be content with driving tlie hypocrite 
 away ; and, if tliis were so, regard for the future dictated 
 a retirement from Exeter which should in no way 
 resemble secret flight. Sidwell's influence witli lier 
 parents would perhaps withliold tliem from making his 
 disgrace known, and in a few years lie miglit ])e glad that 
 he had behaved with all possible prudence. In the end, 
 he decided to write to Mr. Lily white, saying that he was 
 oljliged to go away at a moment's notice, and that he 
 feared it would be necessary altogetlier to cliange the 
 sclieme of life which he had liad in view. This was 
 the best way. From the Lilywhites, otlier people would 
 hear of him, and percliance their conjectures would be 
 charitable. 
 
 Without much hesitation lie had settled his immediate 
 plans. To London he would not return, for he dreaded 
 the temptations to which the proximity of Sidwell would 
 
436 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 expose him, and he had no mind to meet with Moxey or 
 Earwaker. As it was now imperative that he should 
 find work of the old kind, he could not do better than go 
 to Bristol, where, from the safe ground of a cheap and 
 obscure lodging, he might make inquiries, watch adver- 
 tisements, and so on. He already knew of establishments 
 iu Bristol where he might possibly obtain employment. 
 Living with the utmost economy, he need not fall into 
 difficulties for more than a year, and before then his good 
 repute with the Eotherhithe firm would ensure him some 
 position or other; if not in Bristol, then at Newcastle, 
 St. Helen's — any great centre of fuming and malodorous 
 industry. He was ready to work, would delight in work. 
 Idleness was now the intolerable thing. 
 
 So to Bristol he betook himself, and there made his 
 temporary abode. After spending a few weeks in fruit- 
 less search for an engagement, he at length paid his 
 oft-postponed visit to Twybridge. In the old home he 
 felt completely a stranger, and his relatives strengthened 
 the feeling by declaring him so changed in appearance 
 that they hardly knew his face. With his mother only 
 could he talk in anything like an intimate way, and the 
 falsehoods with which he was obliged to answer her 
 questions all but destroyed the pleasure he would other- 
 wise have found in being affectionately tended. His 
 sister, Mrs. Cusse, was happy in her husband, her children, 
 and a flourishing business. Oliver was making money, 
 and enjoyed distinction among the shopkeeping com- 
 munity. His aunt still dealt in millinery, and kept up 
 her acquaintance with respectal)le families. To Godwin 
 all was like a dream dreamt for the second time. He 
 could not acknowledge any actual connection between 
 these people and himself. But their characteristics no 
 longer gravely offended him, and he willingly recognised 
 the homespun worth which their lives displayed. It was 
 clear to him that by no possible agency of circumstances 
 could he have Ijcen held in normal relations with his 
 kinsfolk. However smooth his career, it must have 
 wafted him to an immeasurable distance from Twybridge. 
 Nature had decreed that he was to resemble the animals 
 
BOim IN EXILE 437 
 
 which, once reared, go forth in complete indcpenilence of 
 birthplace and the ties of blood. It was a harsh fate, but 
 in what had not fate been harsh to him ? Tlie one 
 consolation was that he alone sulfered. His mother was 
 no doubt occasionally troubled by solicitude on his 
 account, but she could not divine his inward miseries, 
 and an assurance that he had no material cares sutliced 
 to set her mind at ease. 
 
 ' You are very like your father, Godwin,' she said, with 
 a sigh. ' He couldn't rest, however well he seemed to be 
 getting on. There was always something he wanted, and 
 yet he didn't know what it was.' 
 
 ' Yes, I must be like him,' Godwin replied, smiling. 
 
 He stayed five days, then returned to Bristol. A week 
 after that, his mother forwarded to him a letter which 
 had come to Twybridge. He at once recognised the 
 writing, and broke the envelope with curiosity. 
 
 ' If you should be in London,' the note began, ' I beg 
 you to let me see you. There is something 1 have to say. 
 To speak to you for a lew minutes I would come any 
 distance. Don't accuse me of behaving treacherously ; it 
 was not my fault. I know you would rather avoid me, 
 but do consent to hear what I have to say. K you have 
 no intention of coming to London, will you write and let 
 me know where you are living ? ]\L ^I.' 
 
 What could iMarcella have to say to him s* Nothing 
 surely that he at all cared to hear. Xo doubt she 
 imacjined that he mij^ht be in ignorance of the circum- 
 Stances which had led to Buckland AVarricombe's dis- 
 covery ; she wished to defend herself against the suspicion 
 of * treachery.' He laughed carelessly, and threw her 
 note aside. 
 
 Two months passed, and his efforts to find employment 
 were still vain, though he had received conditional 
 promises. The solitude of his life grew bunlensome. 
 Several times he began a letter to Sidwell, but his 
 difficulty in writing was so great that he destroyed the 
 attempt. In truth, he knew not how to address her. 
 The words he penned were tumid, meaningless. He could 
 not send professions of love, for his heart seemed to be 
 
438 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 suffering a paralysis, aud tlie laborious artificiality of liis 
 style must have been evident. The only excuse for 
 breaking silence would be to let her know that he had 
 resumed honest work ; he must wait till the opportunity 
 offered. It did not distress him to be without news of 
 lier. If she wished to write, and was only witldield by 
 ignorance of his whereabouts, it was well ; if she had no 
 thought of sending him a word, it did not matter. He 
 loved her, and consciously nourished hope, but for the 
 present there was nothing intolerable in separation. His 
 state of mind resulted partly from nervous reaction, and 
 ill part from a sense that only by silent suffering could 
 Ills dignity in Sidwell's eyes be ultimately restored. 
 Uetween the evil past and the hopeful future must be a 
 complete break. 
 
 His thoughts kept turning to London, though not 
 because Sidwell might still be there. He felt urgent need 
 of speaking with a friend. Moxey was perhaps no longer 
 to be considered one ; but Earwaker would be tolerant of 
 liuman weaknesses. To have a long talk with Earwaker 
 would help him to recover his mental balance, to under- 
 stand himself and his position better. So one morning in 
 March, on the spur of the moment, he took train and 
 was once more in the metropolis. On his way he had 
 determined to send a note to Earwaker before calling at 
 Staple Inn. He wrote it at a small hotel in Paddington, 
 where he took a room for the night, and then spent 
 tlie evening at a theatre, as the "best way of killing 
 time. 
 
 By the first post next morning came a card, whereon 
 Earwaker had written : — ' Be here, if you can, at two 
 o'clock. Shall be glad to see you.' 
 
 * So you have been new-furnishing!' Godwin remarked, 
 as he was admitted to the chambers. ' You look much 
 more comfortable.' 
 
 ' I'm glad you tliink so. It is tlie general opinion.' 
 
 They had sliaken liands as though this were one of the 
 ordinary meetings of old time, and their voices scarcely 
 belied the appearance. Peak moved about the study, 
 glancing at pictures and books, Earwaker eyeing him 
 
BORN IN KXILH 43!) 
 
 tlie while witli nut inifiiomlly i-xpressioii. Tlicy wcru 
 sincerely glad to see eacli other, and when Peak seated 
 himseU" it was with an audil)le sigh of contentment. 
 
 * And what are you doing / ' he inriuired. 
 
 The journalist gave a hrief account of his affairs, and 
 Peak biightened with pleasure. 
 
 ' This is good news. I knew you would shake oil" the 
 raaaniuthns before long. Give me some of vour hack 
 numbers, will you? I shall he curious to examine yt>ur 
 new style.' 
 
 * And you ? — Come to live in London ? ' 
 
 'No; I am at Bristol, but only waiting. There's a 
 chance of an analyst's })lace in Lancashire; but I may 
 give the preference to an ojjcning I have heard of in 
 J Belgium. Better to go abroad, I think.' 
 
 ' Perhaps so.' 
 
 ' I have a question to ask you. I suppo.se you talked 
 about that Critical article of mine before you received my 
 request for silence ? ' 
 
 ' That's how it was/ Earwaker replied, cahnly. 
 
 ' Yes; I understood. It doesn't matter.' 
 
 The other pufied at his pipe, and moved uneasily. 
 
 * I am taking for gi-anted,' Peak continued, ' that you 
 know how I have spent my time down in Devonshire.' 
 
 ' In outline. Xeed we trouble about the details ? * 
 ' Xo. But don't suppose that I should feel any shame 
 in talking to you about them. That would be a con- 
 fession of base motive. You and I have studied each 
 other, and we can exchange tlioughts on most subjects 
 with mutual understanding. You know that I have only 
 followed my convictions to their logical issue. An oppor- 
 tunity otlered of achieving the supreme end to whicii my 
 life is directed, and what scruple could stand in my way i 
 We have nothing to do with names and ei)ithets. Here 
 are the facts of life as I had known it; tlwre is the 
 existence promised as the reward of successful artiticc. 
 To live was to i)ursue the object of my being. I could 
 not feel otherwise; therefore, could not act otherwi.sc. 
 You imagine me defeated, Hung back into the gutter.* 
 His words came more (piickly, and th<^ muscles of hii< 
 
440 BOEN IN EXILE 
 
 face worked under emotion. ' It isn't so. I have a great 
 and reasonable liope. Perhaps I have gained everything 
 I really desired. I could tell you the strangest story, but 
 there a scruple docs interpose. If we live another twenty 
 years — but now I can only talk about myself.' 
 
 * And this liope of which you speak,' said Earwaker, 
 witli a grave smile, ' points you at present to sober w^ork 
 among your retorts and test-tubes ? ' 
 
 * Yes, it does.' 
 
 ' Good. Then I can put faith in the result.' 
 ' Yet the hope began in a lie,' rejoined Peak, bitterly. 
 ' It will always be pleasant to look back upon that, won't 
 it ? You see : by no conceivable honest effort could I 
 have gained this point. Life utterly denied to me the 
 satisfaction of my strongest instincts, so long as I plodded 
 on without cause of shame ; the moment I denied my 
 faith, and put on a visage of brass, great possibilities 
 opened before me. Of course I understand the moralist's 
 l)Osition. It behoved me, though I knew that a barren 
 and solitary track would be my only treading to the end, 
 to keep courageously onward. If I can't helieve that any 
 such duty is imposed upon me, where is the obligation to 
 persevere, the morality of doing so ? That is the worst 
 hypocrisy. I have been honest, inasmuch as I have acted 
 in accordance with my actual belief.' 
 
 * jM — m — m,' muttered Earwaker, slowly. ' Then you 
 have never been troubled with a twinge of conscience ? ' 
 
 * With a thousand ! I have been racked, martyred. 
 What has that to do with it ? Do you suppose I attach 
 any final significance to those torments ? Conscience is 
 the same in my view as an inherited disease which 
 may possibly break out on any most innocent physical 
 indulgence. — What end have I been pursuing? Is it 
 criminal ? Is it mean ? I wanted to win the love of a 
 woman — nothing more. To do that, I have had to behave 
 like tlie grovelling villain who has no desire but to fill 
 his pockets. And with success! — You understand that, 
 Earwaker ? I have succeeded ! What respect can I have 
 for the common morality, after this ? ' 
 
 ' You have succeeded ?' the other asked, thoughtfully. ' I 
 
BORN IN EXILK 441 
 
 coukl liave imagined that you had l)C't'n in iippearance 
 successful ' 
 
 He paused, and Teak resumed witli vehemence : 
 
 ' Xo, not in appearance only. 1 can't tell you the 
 story ' 
 
 * I don't wish you to ' 
 
 ' But what I have won is won for ever. The triunijih 
 no longer rests on deceit. What I insist upon is tliat l)y 
 deceit only was it rendered possible. If a starvini; man 
 succeeds in stealing a loaf of bread, the food will 'oenetit 
 him no less than if lie had purchased it ; it is good, true 
 sustenance, no matter how he got it. To be sure, the 
 man may prefer starvation ; he may have so strong a 
 metaphysical faith that death is welcome in comparison 
 with what he calls dishonour. I — I have no such faitli ; 
 and millions of other men in this country would tell the 
 blunt truth if they said the same. I have 7/^7/ nuajui, 
 that's all. The old way of candour led me to bitterness j 
 and cursing ; by dissimulation I have won something iy 
 more glorious than tongue can tell.' ^ 
 
 It was in the endeavour to expel the sul)tlest enemy of 
 his peace that Godwin dwelt so defiantly upon this view 
 of the temptation to which he had yielded. Since his 
 farewell intervicAv with Sidwell, he knew no rest from the 
 torment of a mocking voice which bade him bear in mind 
 that all his dishonour had been superfluous, seeing that 
 wliilst he played the part of a zealous Christian, Sid well 
 herself was drifting further and further from the old 
 religion. This voice mingled with his dreams, and left 
 not a waking hour untroubled. He refused to believe it, 
 strove against the suggestion as a half-despairing man 
 does against the persistent thought of suicide. K only he 
 could obtain Earwaker's assent to tlie plan he put for- 
 ward, it would support him in disregard of idle regrets. 
 
 ' It is impossible,' said the journalist, ' for anyone to 
 determine whether that is true or not — for you, as much 
 as for anyone else. Be glad tliat you have sliaken olf 
 the evil and retained the good,— no use in saying more 
 than that.' 
 
 'Yes,' decKared the other, stublxanly, 'there is goo<l in 
 
442 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 exposing false views of life. I ought to have come utterly 
 to grief and shame, and instead ' 
 
 ' Instead ? Well ? ' 
 
 What I have told you.' 
 
 ' Which I interpret thus : that you have permission to 
 redeem your character, if possible, in the eyes of a woman 
 you have grievously misled.' 
 
 Godwin frowned. 
 
 * Who suggested this to you, Earwaker ? ' 
 
 'You; no one else. I don't even know who the 
 woman is of whom you speak.' 
 
 ' Grant you are right. As an honest man, I should 
 never have won her faintest interest.' 
 
 * It is absurd for us to talk about it. Think in the 
 way that is most helpful to you, — that, no doubt, is 
 a reasonable rule. Let us have done with all these 
 o])SCurities, and come to a practical question. Can I be 
 of any use to you? Would you care, for instance, to 
 write an article now and tlien on some scientific matter 
 that has a popular interest ? I think I could promise to 
 get that kind of thing printed for you. Or would you re- 
 view nn occasional book tliat happened to be in your line ? ' 
 
 Godwin reflected. 
 
 ' Thank you,' he replied, at length. ' I should be glad 
 of such work— if I can get into the mood for doing it 
 properly. That won't be just yet ; but perhaps when I 
 have found a place ' 
 
 'Think it over. AVrite to me about it.' 
 
 Peak glanced round the room. 
 
 'You don't know how glad I am,' he said, ' that your 
 prosperity shows itself in this region of bachelordom. If 
 I had seen you in a comfortable house, married to a 
 woman worthy of you — I couldn't have been sincere in 
 j my congratulations : I should have envied you so fiercely.' 
 * 'You're a strange fellow. Twenty years hence — as 
 you said just now — you will one way or another have 
 got rid of your astounding illusions. At fifty — well, let 
 us say at sixty — you will have a chance of seeing things 
 witliout these preposterous sexual spectacles.' 
 
 ' I liope so. Every stage of lil'e has its powers and 
 
BORN IN KXILK 443 
 
 enjoyments. Wlieii 1 am old, 1 hope to perceive and judge 
 without passion of any kind. But is that any reason 
 why my youth should be frustrated ? We have only one 
 life, and I want to live mine througliout.' 
 
 Soon after this Teak rose. He remembered that the 
 journalist's time was valuable, and that he no lunger had 
 the right to demand more of it than could l)e granted to 
 any casual caller. Earwaker behaved with all friendli- 
 ness, but their relations had necessarily suflered a change. 
 More than a year of separation, spent l)y the one in 
 accumulating memories of dishonour, had given the other 
 an enviable position among men ; Earwaker had liis place 
 in the social system, his growing circle of friends, his 
 congenial labour; perhaps — notwithstanding the tone in 
 whicli he spoke of marriage — his hopes of domestic happi- 
 ness. All this with no sacrifice of principle. He Avas 
 fortunate in his temper, moral and intellectual ; i)artly 
 directing circumstances, partly guided by their pressure, 
 he advanced on the way of harmonious development. 
 Nothing great would come of his endeavours, but what 
 lie aimed at he steadily perfected. And this in spite of 
 the adverse conditions under wliich he began his course. 
 Nature had been kind to him ; what more could one 
 say ? 
 
 When he went forth into the street again, Clodwin felt 
 Ids heart sink. His solitude was the more comidete for 
 this hour of friendly dialogue. No other companionship 
 offered itself ; if he lingered here, it must be as one of 
 the drifting crowd, as an idle and envious spectator of the 
 business and pleasure rife about him. He durst not 
 approach that quarter of the town where Sidwell was 
 living — if indeed she still remained here. Happily, the 
 vastness of London enabled him to think of her as at a 
 great distance; by keeping to tlie district in which he 
 now wandered he was practically as remote from her as 
 wlien he walked the streets of Bristol. 
 
 Yet tliere was one person who would welcome liim 
 eagerly if he chose to visit her. And, after all, might it 
 not be as well if he heard what ^Marcella had to say to 
 him ? He could not go to the house, for it would be 
 
444 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 disagreeable to encounter Moxey ; but, if he wrote, 
 Marcella would speedily make an appointment. Alter 
 an hour or two of purposeless rambling, he decided to ask 
 for an interview. He might learn something that really 
 concerned him ; in any case, it was a final meeting 
 with Marcella, to whom he perhaps owed this much 
 courtesy. 
 
 The reply was as prompt as that from Earwaker. By 
 the morning post came a letter inviting him to call upon 
 Miss Moxey as soon as possible before noon. She added, 
 ' My brother is away in the country ; you will meet no 
 one here.' 
 
 By eleven o'clock he was at Notting Hill ; in the 
 drawing-room, he sat alone for two or three minutes. 
 Marcella entered silently, and came towards him without 
 a smile ; he saw that she read his face eagerly, if not with 
 a light of triumph in her eyes. The expression might 
 signify that she rejoiced at having been an instrument 
 of his discomfiture ; perhaps it was nothing more than 
 gladness at seeing him again. 
 
 ' Have you come to live in London ? ' she asked, wlien 
 they had shaken hands without a word. 
 
 * I am only here for a day or two.' 
 
 ' My letter reached you without delay ?' 
 
 ' Yes. It was sent from Twybridge to Bristol. I 
 didn't reply then, as I had no prospect of being in 
 London.* 
 
 * Will you sit down ? You can stay for a few 
 minutes ? ' 
 
 He seated himself awkwardly. Now that he was in 
 Marcella's presence, he felt that he had acted un- 
 accountably in giving occasion for another scene 
 between them which could only end as painfully 
 as that at Exeter. Her emotion grew evident; he 
 could not bear to meet the look she had fixed upon 
 him. 
 
 * I want to speak of what happened in this house about 
 Christmas time,' she resumed. * lUit I must know first 
 what you have been told.' 
 
 ' Wliat have you been told?' lie replied, witli an 
 
BORN IN EXILE 4-45 
 
 uneasy smile. 'How du you know that anything which 
 happened here liad any importance for me ? ' 
 
 * J don't know tliat it liad. But I felt sure tliat Mr. 
 AVarriconibe meant to speak to you about it.' 
 
 * Yes, lie did.' 
 
 ' But did he tell you the exact truth ? Or were 
 you led to suppose that I liad broken niv ])romise to 
 you ? ' 
 
 Unwilling to introduce any mention of Sidwell, Peak 
 preferred to simplify the story by attributing to Buckland 
 all the information he had gathered. 
 
 ' I understood,' he replied, ' that Warricombe had come 
 here in the hope of learning more about me, and that 
 certain facts came out in general conversation. What 
 does it matter how he learned what he did ? From the 
 day when he met you down in Devonshire, it was of cour.se 
 inevitable that the truth should sooner or later come out. 
 He always suspected me.' 
 
 ' But I want you to know,' said Marcella, ' that I had no 
 willing part in it. I promised you not to speak even to 
 my brother, and I should never have done so but that 
 Christian somehow met 'Mr. AVarricombe, and heard him 
 talk of you. Of course he came to me in astonishment, 
 and for your own interest I thouglit it l)est to tell 
 Christian what I knew. When Mr. Warricombe en me 
 here, neither Christian nor I would have enliglitened him 
 about — about your past. It happened most unfortunately 
 that Mr. Malkin was present, and he it was who began 
 to speak of the Critical article — and other things. I was 
 powerless to prevent it.' 
 
 ' Why trouble about it ? I ([uite believe your account.' 
 
 * You do believe it ? You know I would not have 
 injured you ? ' 
 
 ' I am sure you had no wish to,' Godwin replied, in as 
 unsentimental a tone as possible. And, he adiled after a 
 moment's ]muse, 'Was this what you were so anxious 
 to tell me ? ' 
 
 * Yes. Chiefly that.' 
 
 ' Let me put your mind at rest,' pursued the other, with 
 quiet friendliness. * I am disposed to turn optimist ; 
 
446 BORN IN exilp: 
 
 everything has happened just as it should liave done. 
 Warriconibe relieved me from a false position. If he 
 hadn't done so, I must very soon have done it for 
 myself. Let us rejoice that things work together for 
 such obvious good. A few more lessons of this kind, 
 and we shall acknowledge that the world is the best 
 possible.' 
 
 He laughed, but the tense expression of Marcella's 
 features did not relax. 
 
 * You say you are living in Bristol ? ' 
 ' For a time.' 
 
 * Have you abandoned Exeter ? ' 
 
 The word implied something that Marcella could not 
 utter more plainly. Her face completed the question. 
 
 'And the clerical career as well,' he answered. 
 
 But he knew that she sought more than this, and his 
 voice again broke the silence. 
 
 ' Perhaps you have heard that already ? Are you in 
 communication witli Miss Moorhouse ? ' 
 
 Slie shook her liead. 
 
 ' V)\\t probably Warriconibe has told your brother ? ' 
 
 'What?' 
 
 ' Oh, of his success in ridding Exeter of my objection- 
 able presence.' 
 
 ' Christian hasn't seen him again, nor have L' 
 
 * I only wish to assure you that I have suffered no 
 injury. My experiment was doomed to failure. What 
 led me to it, how I regarded it, we won't discuss ; I am 
 as little prepared to do so now as when we talked at 
 Exeter. That chapter in my life is happily over. As 
 soon as I am estal)lished again in a place like that I had 
 at Eotherliithe, I shall be quite contented.' 
 
 ' Contented ? ' She smiled incredulously. ' For how 
 long ? ' 
 
 'Who can say? I have lost the habit of looking far 
 forward.' 
 
 ]\rarcella kept silence so long that he concluded she had 
 nothing more to say to him. It was an opportunity for 
 taking leave without emotional stress, and he rose from 
 his chair. 
 
BORN IN KXILK 447 
 
 * Don't go yet,' she said at once. 'It wasn't only this 
 that 1 ' 
 
 Her voice was checked. 
 
 'Can I be of any use to you in Jhistol ?' Peak asked, 
 determined to avoid the trial he saw approaching,'. 
 
 'Tliere is soniethin^^ more I wanted to say,' slie i)ursui'(l, 
 seeming not to hear him. 'You ])retend to he contented, 
 but I know that is impossible. You talk of going hack to 
 a dull routine of toil, wlien what you most desire is 
 freedom. I want — if 1 can — to help you.' 
 
 Again she failed to command lier voice. Godwin raised 
 his eyes, and was astonished at the transformation slie liad 
 suddenly undergone. Her face, instead of being colour- 
 less and darkly vehement, had changed to a bright 
 warmth, a smiling radiance such as would have become a 
 hap}>y girl. His look seemed to give her courage. 
 
 ' Only hear me patiently. We are such old friends — 
 are we not ? We have so often proclaimed our scorn of 
 conventionality, and wdiy should a conventional fear 
 hinder what I want to say ? You know — don't you { — that 
 1 have far more money than 1 need or am ever likely to. 
 I want only a few hundreds a year, and I have more than 
 a thousand.' She sj^oke more and more quickly, fearful of 
 being interrupted. 'Why shouldn't I give you some of 
 my sui)ertiuity ? Let me help you in this way. Money 
 can do so much. Take some from me, and use it as 
 you will — ^just as you will. It is useless to vie. AVhy 
 shouldn't someone whom I wish well benefit by it ? ' 
 
 Godwin was not so much suri)rised as disconcerted. 
 He knew that Marcella's nature was of large mould, and 
 that whether she acted for good or evil its jn-omptings 
 would be anything but commonplace. The ardour with 
 which she pleaded, and the magnitude of the benefaction 
 she desired to bestow upon him, so alVected his imagina- 
 tion that for the moment he stood as if doubting what 
 reply to make. The doubt really in Ins mind was 
 whether Marcella had calculated u])on his weakness, and 
 hoped to draw him within her power by the force of such 
 an obligation, or if in truth she sought only to ii])])ea.«^e 
 lier heart with the exercise of generosity. 
 
448 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' You will let me ? ' she panted forth, watching him 
 with brilliant eyes. ' This shall be a secret for ever 
 between you and me. It imposes no debt of gratitude — 
 how I despise the thought ! I give you what is worthless 
 to me, — except that it can do you good. But you can 
 thank me if you will. I am not above being thanked.' 
 She laughed unnaturally. * Go and travel at first, as you 
 wished to. Write me a short letter every month — every 
 two months, just that I may know you are enjoying your 
 life. It is agreed, isn't it ? ' 
 
 She held her hand to him, but Peak drew away, his 
 face averted. 
 
 * How can you give me the pain of refusing such an 
 offer?' he exclaimed, with remonstrance which was all 
 but anger. ' You know the thing is utterly impossible. 
 I should be ridiculous if I argued about it for a 
 moment.' 
 
 * I can't see that it is impossible.' 
 
 * Then you must take my word for it. But I have no 
 right to speak to you in that way,' he added, more kindly, 
 seeing the profound humiliation which fell upon her. 
 * You meant to come to my aid at a time when I seemed 
 to you lonely and miserable. It was a generous impulse, 
 and I do indeed thank you. I shall always remember it 
 and be grateful to you.' 
 
 Marcella's face was again in shadow. Its lineaments 
 hardened to an expression of cold, stern dignity. 
 
 ' I have made a mistake,' she said. ' I thought you 
 above common ways of thinking.' 
 
 ' Yes, you put me on too high a pedestal,' Peak 
 answered, trying to speak humorously. ' One of my 
 faults is that I am apt to mistake my own position in 
 the same way.' 
 
 ' You think yourself ambitious. Oh, if you knew really 
 great ambition ! Go back to your laboratory, and work 
 for wages. I would have saved you from that.' 
 
 The tone was not vehement, but the words bit all the 
 deeper for their unimpassioned accent. Godwin could 
 make no reply. 
 
 ' I hope,' she continued, ' we may meet a few years 
 
BORN IN KXII.K 440 
 
 hence. V>y that time you will have Icaiui ihat what 1 
 ollered was not inipossiltle. You will wish you hud dared 
 to accept it. I know what your amhUiun is. Wait till 
 you are old enou^^h to see it in its true li',dit. How you 
 will scorn yourself! Surely there was never ji man who 
 united_such capacity for <;reat things with so mean an 
 _[deal. You will never win even the paltry satisfaction on 
 which you have set your mind — never ! l>ut you can't lie 
 made to understand that. You will throw away (dl the 
 best part of your life. Meet me in a few years, and tell 
 me the story of the interval.' 
 
 ' I will engage to do that, Marcella.' 
 
 'You will? But not to tell me the truth. Y<»u will 
 not dare to tell the truth.' 
 
 * AVhy not ? ' he asked, indifferently. ' Decidedly I shall 
 owe it you in return for your frankness to-day. Till tlifu 
 — good-bye.' 
 
 She did not refuse her hand, and as he moved away 
 she watched him with a smile of slighting good- nature. 
 
 On the morrow Godwin was back in Bristol, and there 
 he dwelt for another six months, a period of mental ;ind 
 physical lassitude. Earwaker corresponded with him, and 
 urged him to attempt the work that had l)cen }ir()posed, 
 but such effort was beyond his power. 
 
 He saw one day in a literary paper an announcement 
 that Reusch's Bihcl unci Natitr was about to be ])ub- 
 lished in an English translation. So someone else had 
 successfully finished the work he undertook nearly two 
 years ago. He amused himself with the thought tliat 
 he could ever have persevered so long in such protitless 
 labour, and with a contemptuous laugh he muttered 
 ' TJiohic vjahohu.' 
 
 Just when the winter had set in, he received an offer 
 of a post in chemical works at St. Helen's, and without 
 delay travelled northwards. The appointment was a 
 poor one, and seemed unlikely to be a stej* to any tiling 
 better, but his resources would not last more than 
 another half year, and employment of whatever kind 
 came as welcome relief to the tedium of his existence. 
 Established in his new abode, he at length wrote to 
 
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450 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Sidwell. She answered him at once in a short letter 
 which he might have shown to anyone, so calm were its 
 expressions of interest, so uncompromising its words 
 of congratulation. It began 'Dear Mr. Peak,' and 
 ended with 'Yours sincerely.' Well, he had used the 
 same formalities, and had uttered his feelings with 
 scarcely more of warmth. Disappointment troubled 
 him for a moment, and for a moment only. He was so 
 far from Exeter, and further still from the life that he 
 had led there. It seemed to him all but certain that 
 Sidwell wrote coldly, with the intention of discouraging 
 his hopes. What hope was he so foolish as to entertain ? 
 His position poorer than ever, what could justify him 
 in writing love-letters to a girl who, even if willing to 
 marry him, must not do so until he had a suitable home 
 to offer her ? 
 
 Since his maturity, he had never known so long a 
 freedom from passion. One day he wrote to Earwaker: 
 ' I begin to understand your independence with regard 
 to women. It would be a strange thing if I became a 
 convert to that way of thinking, but once or twice of 
 late I have imagined that it was happening. My mind 
 has all but recovered its tone, and 1 am able to read, 
 to think — I mean really to think, not to muse. I get 
 through big and solid books. Presently, if your ofier 
 still hold good, I shall send you a scrap of writing on 
 something or other. The pestilent atmosphere of this 
 place seems to invigorate me. Last Saturday evening 
 I took train, got away into the hills, and spent the 
 Sunday geologising. And a curious experience befell 
 me, — one I had long, long ago, in the Whitelaw days. 
 Sitting down before some interesting strata, I lost myself 
 in something like nirvana, grew so subject to the idea 
 of vastness in geological time that all human desires 
 and purposes shrivelled to ridiculous unimportance. 
 Awaking for a minute, I tried to realise the passion 
 which not long ago rent and racked me, but I was flatly 
 incapable of understanding it. Will this philosopliic state 
 endure ? Perhaps I have used up all my emotional 
 energy ? I hardly know whether to hope or fear it.' 
 
BORN IN EX1L1-: 451 
 
 About midsummer, when liis short holiday (he wouhl 
 only be released for a fortniglit) drew near, he was sur- 
 prised by another letter from ►Sid well. ' I am anxious,' 
 she wrote, * to hear that you are well. It is more than 
 half a year since your last letter, and of late I liavo 
 been constantly expecting a few lines. The spriii*; has 
 been a time of trouble with us. A distant relative, an 
 old and feeble lady who has passed her life in a little 
 Dorsetshire village, came to see us in A])ril, and in less 
 than a fortnight she was seized with illness and died. 
 Then Fanny had an attack of bronchitis, from which 
 even now she is not altogether recovered. On her 
 account we are all going to lioyat, and I think we shall 
 be away until the end of September. AVill you let me 
 hear from you before I leave England, which will be 
 in a week's time ? Don't refrain from writing because 
 you think you have no news to send. Anything that 
 interests you is of interest to me. If it is only to tell 
 me what you have been reading, I shall be glad of a 
 letter.' 
 
 It was still ' Yours sincerely ' ; but CJodwin felt that the 
 letter meant more. In re-reading it he was jdcasantly 
 thrilled with a stirring of the old emotions. Ihit his 
 first impulse, to write an ardent reply, did not carry 
 him away; he reflected and took counsel of the exj)eri- 
 ence gained in his studious solitude. It was evident 
 that by keeping silence he had caused Sielwell to throw 
 off something of her reserve. The course dictated by 
 prudence was to maintain an attitude of dignity, to hold 
 himself in check. In this way he would regain what 
 he had so disastrously lost, Sidwell's respect. There 
 was a distinct pleasure in this exercise of self-command ; 
 it was something new to him ; it Mattered his piide. ' Let 
 her learn that, after all, T am her superior. Let her fear 
 to lose me. Then, if her love is still to be depended upon, 
 she will before long find a way to our union. It is in 
 her power, if only she wills it.' 
 
 So he sat down and wrote a short letter which seemed 
 to him a model of dignitied expression. 
 
IV 
 
 SiDWELL took no one into her confidence. Tlie case was 
 not one for counsel ; whatever her future action, it must 
 result from the maturing of self-knowledge, from the 
 effect of circumstance upon her mind and heart. For 
 the present she could live in silence. 
 
 'We hear,' she wrote from London to Sylvia Moor- 
 house, 'that Mr. Peak has left Exeter, and that he is 
 not likely to carry out his intention of being ordained. 
 You, I daresay, will feel no surprise.' Nothing more 
 than that ; and Sylvia's comments in reply were equally 
 brief. 
 
 Martin Warricombe, after conversations with his wife 
 and with Buckland, felt it impossible not to seek for 
 an understanding of Sidwell's share in the catastrophe. 
 He was gravely perturbed, feeling that with himself lay 
 the chief responsibility for what had happened. Buck- 
 land's attitude was that of the man who can only keep 
 repeating ' I told you so ' ; Mrs. Warricombe could only 
 lament and upbraid in the worse than profitless fashion 
 natural to women of her stamp. But in his daughter 
 Martin had every kind of faith, and he longed to speak 
 to her without reserve. Two days after her return from 
 Exeter, he took Sidwell apart, and, with a distressing 
 sense of the delicacy of the situation, tried to persuade 
 her to frank utterance. 
 
 ' I have been hearing strange reports,' he began, 
 gravely, but without show of displeasure. ' Can you 
 help me to understand the real facts of the case, Sidwell ? 
 — What is your view of Peak's behaviour ? ' 
 
BORN IN EXILE 453 
 
 ' He has deceived you, fatlicr,' was the quiet reply. 
 ' You are convinced of that ^ — It allows of no T 
 
 * It can't be explained away. He pretended to believe 
 what he did not and could nut believe.' 
 
 * With interested motives, then ^ ' 
 
 'Yes. — But not motives in themselves dishonourable.' 
 
 There was a pause. iSidwell had spoken in a steady 
 voice, though with eyes cast down. Whether her father 
 could understand a position such as Godwin's, she felt 
 uncertain. That he would honestly endeavour to do 
 so, there could be no doubt, especially since he must 
 suspect that her own desire was to distinguish between 
 the man and his fault. Jiut a revelation of all that had 
 passed between her and Teak was not possible ; she had 
 the support neither of intellect nor of passion ; it would 
 be asking for guidance, the very thing she had determined 
 not to do. Already she found it dillicult to recover 
 the impulses which had directed her in that scene of 
 parting; to talk of it would be to see her action in 
 such a doubtful light that she might be led to some 
 premature and irretrievable resolve. The only trust- 
 worthy counsellor was time ; on what time brouglit forth 
 must depend her future. 
 
 'Do you mean, Sidwell,' resumed her fatlier, 'that you 
 think it possible for us to overlook this deception ^ ' 
 
 She delayed a moment, then said : 
 
 ' I don't think it possible for you to regard him as a 
 friend.' 
 
 Martin's face expressed relief. 
 
 * Ihit will he remain in Exeter / ' 
 ' I shouldn't think he can.' 
 
 Again a pause. Martin was of course puzzled exceed- 
 ingly, but he began to feel some assurance that Peak need 
 not be regarded as a danger. 
 
 ' I am grieved beyond expression,' he said at length. 
 ' So deliberate a fraud — it seems to me inconsistent with 
 any of the qualities 1 thought I saw in him.' 
 
 ' Yes — it must.' 
 
 *Not — perhaps— to you ?' Martin ventured, anxiously. 
 
 'His nature is not base.' 
 
454 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Forgive me, clear. — T understand that you spoke with 
 him after Buckland's call at his lodgings ?' 
 
 * Yes, I saw him.' 
 
 'And — he strove to persuade you that he had some 
 motive which justified his conduct ? ' 
 ' Excused, rather than justified.' 
 
 * Not — it seems — to your satisfaction ? ' 
 
 ' I can't answer that question, father. My experience 
 of life is too slight. I can only say that untruthfulness 
 in itself is abhorrent to me, and that I could never try 
 to make it seem a light thing.' 
 
 'That, surely, is a sound view, think as we may on 
 speculative points. But allow me one more question, 
 Sidwell. Does it seem to you that I have no choice but 
 to break off all communication with Mr. Peak V 
 
 It was the course dictated by his own wish, she knew. 
 And what could be gained by any middle way between 
 hearty goodwill and complete repudiation ? Time — 
 time alone must work out the problem. 
 
 * Yes, I think you have no choice,' she answered. 
 
 ' Then I must make inquiries — see if he leaves the 
 town.' 
 
 ' Mr. Lilywhite will know, probably.' 
 
 ' I will write before long.' 
 
 So the dialogue ended, and neither sought to renew 
 it. 
 
 Martin enjoined upon his w^ife a discreet avoidance of 
 the subject. The younger members of the family were 
 to know nothing of what had happened, and, if possible, 
 the secret must be kept from friends at Exeter. When 
 a fortnight had elapsed, he wrote to Mr. Lilywhite, asking 
 whether it was true that Peak had gone away. ' It seems 
 that private circumstances have obliged him to give up 
 his project of taking Orders. Possibly he lias had a talk 
 with you ? ' The clergyman replied tliat Peak liad left 
 Exeter. ' I have had a letter from him, explaining in 
 general terms his change of views. It hardly surprises 
 me that he has reconsidered the matter. I don't think 
 he was cut out for clerical work. He is far more 
 likely to distinguish himself in the world of science. I 
 
BORN IN KXILK 455 
 
 suspect that conscientious scruples may havu sonietliing 
 to do with it ; if so, all honour to him ! ' 
 
 The Warricombes proloni^^ed tlieir stay in I/mdoii 
 until the end of June. On their return home, Martin 
 was relieved to hnd that scarcely an in(|uiry was made 
 of him concerning Peak. The young man's disappear- 
 ance excited no curiosity in the good people who had 
 come in contact with him, and who were so far from 
 suspecting what a notable figure had passed across their 
 placid vision. One person only was urgent in liis 
 questioning. On an afternoon when Mrs. Warricombe 
 and her daughters were alone, the Kev. Bruno Chilvers 
 made a call. 
 
 * Oh ! ' he exclaimed, after a few minutes' conversation, 
 'I am so anxious to ask you what has become of Mr. 
 Peak. Soon after my arrival in Exeter, I went to see 
 him, and we had a long talk — a most interesting talk. 
 Then I heard all at once that he was gone, and that we 
 should see no more of him. Where is lie ? AVhat is he 
 doing ? ' 
 
 There was a barely appreciable delay before Mrs. 
 Warricombe made answer. 
 
 *We have quite lost sight of him,' she said, witli an 
 artificial smile. ' AVe know only that he was called 
 away on some urgent business — family affairs, I 
 suppose.' 
 
 Chilvers, in the most natural way, glanced from 
 the speaker to Sidwell, and instantly, without the 
 slightest change of expression, l)n)Ught his eyes back 
 again. 
 
 'I hope most earnestly,' he went on, in lii.s ihity tone, 
 * that he will return. A most interesting man ! A man 
 of larfjc intellectual scope, and really hmad sympatliies. 
 I looked forward to many a chat witli him. Has he, I 
 wonder, been led to cliange his views ? Possibly he 
 wouhl find a secular s])here more adapted to his siKicial 
 powers.' 
 
 Mrs. Warricombe had nothing to say. Sidwell, 
 finding that Mr. Chilvers' smile now beamed in her 
 direction, replied to him witli steady utterance : 
 
456 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' It isn't iincomiiion, I think, nowadays, for doubts to 
 interfere with the course of study for ordination ? ' 
 
 ' Far from uncommon ! ' exclaimed the Eector of St. 
 Margaret's, with almost joyous admission of the fact. 
 ' Very far from uncommon. Such students have my 
 profound sympathy. I know from experience exactly 
 what it means to be overcome in a struggle with the 
 modern spirit. Happily for myself, I was enabled to 
 recover what for a time I lost. But charity forbid that 
 I should judge those who think they must needs voyage 
 for ever in "sunless gulfs of doubt," or even absolutely 
 deny that the human intellect can be enlightened from 
 above.' 
 
 At a loss even to follow this rhetoric, Mrs. Warricombe, 
 who was delighted to welcome the Eev. Bruno, and 
 regarded him as a gleaming pillar of the Church, made 
 haste to introduce a safer topic. After that, Mr. Chilvers 
 was seen at the house with some frequency. Not that he 
 paid more attention to the AVarricombes than to his 
 other acquaintances. Believed by his curate from the 
 uncongenial burden of mere parish affairs, he seemed to 
 regard himself as an apostle at large, whose mission 
 directed him to the households of well-to-do people 
 throughout the city. His brother clergymen held him in 
 slight esteem. In private talk with Martin Warricombe, 
 Mr. Lily white did not hesitate to call him 'a mounte- 
 bank,' and to add other depreciatory remarks. 
 
 ' My wife tells me — and I can trust her judgment in 
 such things — that his sole object just now is to make a 
 good marriage. Bather disagreeable stories seem to have 
 followed him from the other side of England. He makes 
 love to all unmarried women — never going beyond what 
 is thought permissible, but doing a good deal of mischief, 
 I fancy. One lady in Exeter — I won't mention names — 
 has already pulled him up with a direct inquiry as to his 
 intentions ; at her house, I imagine, he will no more be 
 seen.' 
 
 The genial parson chuckled over his narrative, and 
 Martin, by no means predisposed in the Bev. Bruno's 
 favour, took care to report these matters to his wife. 
 
BORN IN KXILK 457 
 
 '\ don't l)elicve a word of it!' exclaimed Mrs. 
 Warricoiube. ' All tlie clergy are jealous of Mr. 
 Chi I vers.' 
 
 * What ? Of his success witli ladies { ' 
 
 ' Martin ! It is soniethini^' new I'cjr you to be profane ! 
 — They are jealous of his higli reputation.' 
 
 * Rather a serious charge against our respectable friends.' 
 ' And the stories are all nonsense,' i)ursued Mrs. 
 
 Warricombe. ' It's very wrong of Mr. Lilywhite to 
 report such things. I don't believe any other clergyman 
 would have done so.' 
 
 Martin smiled — as he had been accustomed to do 
 all througli his married life — and let the discussion rest 
 there. On the next occasion of ^Ir. Chilvers being at the 
 house, he observed the reverend man's behaviour with 
 Sid well, and was not at all pleased. Bruno had a way 
 of addressing wonien which certainly went beyond the 
 ordinary limits of courtesy. At a little distance, anyone 
 would have concluded tliat he was doing his Ijest to 
 excite Sidwell's affectionate interest. The matter of his 
 discourse might be unobjectionable, but tlie manner of it 
 was not in good taste. 
 
 Mrs. \Varricoml)e was likewise observant, l>ut with 
 other emotions. To lier it seemed a subject for ]>leasur- 
 al»le reflection, that Mr. Chilvers sliould sliow interest in 
 Sidwell. The Rev. Bruno had bright prospects. With 
 tlie colour of his orthodoxy she did not concern herself. 
 He was ticketed 'broad,' a term which carried with it 
 no disparagement ; and Sidwell's sympathies were alto- 
 gether with the men of 'l)readth.' "^ The time drew near 
 when Sidwell must marry, if she ever meant to do so, and 
 in comparison with such candidates as ^Ir. Walsh and 
 Godwin Peak, the Rector of St. Margaret's woidd be an 
 ideal husband for her. Sidwell's attitude towards Mr. 
 Cliilvers was not encouraging, but Mrs. Warricond>e 
 suspected that a lingering regard for tlie impostor, so 
 lately unmasked, still troubled her daughter's mind: a 
 new suitor, even if rejected, would hel}) the poor girl to 
 dismiss that shocking infatuation. 
 
 Sidwell and her father nowadays spent nnich time 
 
458 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 together, and in the autumn days it became usual for 
 them to have an afternoon ramble about the lanes. 
 Their talk was of science and literature, occasionally 
 skirting very close upon those questions which both 
 feared to discuss plainly — for a twofold reason. Sidwell 
 read much more than had been her wont, and her choice 
 of authors would alone have indicated a change in her 
 ways of thinking, even if she had not allowed it to appear 
 in the tenor of her talk. Tlie questions she put with 
 reference to Martin's favourite studies were sometimes 
 embarrassing. 
 
 One day they liappened to meet Mr. Chilvers, who 
 was driving with his eldest child, a boy of four. The 
 narrowness of the road made it impossible — as Martin 
 would have wished — to greet and pass on. Chilvers 
 stopped the carriage and jumped out. Sidwell could 
 not but pay some attention to the youthful Chilvers. 
 
 * Till he is ten years old,' cried Bruno, ' 1 shall think 
 much more of his body than of his mind. In fact, at 
 this age the body is the mind. Books, books — oh, we 
 attach far too much importance to them. Over-study 
 is one of the morbific tendencies of our time. Some 
 one or other has been trying to frown down what he 
 calls the excessive athleticism of our public schools. 
 No, no ! Let us rejoice that our lads have such an 
 opportunity of vigorous physical development. The 
 culture of the body is a great part of religion.' He 
 always uttered remarks of this kind as if suggesting 
 that his hearers should note them in a collection of 
 aphorisms. ' If to labour is to pray, so also is the 
 practice of open-air recreation.' 
 
 When they had succeeded in getting away, father 
 and daughter walked for some minutes without speaking. 
 At length Sidwell asked, with a smile : 
 
 ' How does this form of Christianity strike you ? ' 
 
 ' Why, very much like a box on the ear with a 
 perfumed glove,' replied Martin. 
 
 ' That describes it very well.' 
 
 They walked a little further, and Sidwell spoke in a 
 more serious tone. 
 
BORN IN EXILE 459 
 
 *If Mr. Chilvers were brouglit before the ecclesiastical 
 authorities and compelled to make a clear statement of 
 his faith, what sect, in all the history of heresies, would 
 he really seem to belong to ? ' 
 
 * I know too little of him, and too little of heresies.' 
 
 ' Do you suppose for a moment that he sincerely 
 believes the dogmas of his Cluirch ? ' 
 Martin bit his lip and looked uneasy. 
 
 * We can't judge him, Sidwell.' 
 
 ' I don't know,' she persisted. * It seems to me that 
 he does his best to give us the means of judging him. 
 I half believe that he often laughs in himself at the 
 success of his audacity.' 
 
 ' No, no. I think the man is sincere.' 
 
 This was very uncomfortable ground, but Sidwell 
 would not avoid it. Her eyes Hashed, and she spoke 
 with a vehemence such as Martin had never seen in her. 
 
 ' Undoubtedly sincere in his determination to make 
 a figure in the world. But a Christian, in any intelli- 
 gible sense of that* much-abused word, — no ! He is one 
 type of the successful man of our day. Where thousantls 
 of better and stronger men struggle vainly for fair 
 recognition, he and his kind are glorified. In comparison 
 with a really energetic man, he is an acrobat. The 
 crowd stares at him and applauds, and there is nothing 
 he cares for so much as that kind of admiration.' 
 
 Martin kept silence, and in a few minutes succeeded 
 in broaching a wholly different subject. 
 
 Not long after this, Mr. Chilvers paid a call at the con- 
 ventional hour. Sidwell, ho})ing to escape, invited two 
 girls to step out with her on to the lawn. The sun was 
 sinking, and, as she stood with eyes fixed upon it, the Kev. 
 Bruno's voice disagreeably broke her reverie. She was per- 
 force involved in a dialogue, her companions moving aside. 
 
 'What a magnifice'nt sky!' murmured Chilvers. 
 ' " There sinks the nebulous star." Forgive me, I have 
 fallen into a tiresome trick of (pioting. How dillerently 
 a sunset is viewed nowadays from wliat it was in old 
 times ! Our impersonal emotions are on a higher plane — 
 don't you think so ? Yes, scientific discovery has done 
 
460 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 more for religion than all the ages of pious imagination. 
 A theory of Galileo or Newton is more to the soul than 
 a psalm of David.' 
 
 ' You think so ? ' Sidvvell asked, coldly. 
 
 In everyday conversation she was less suave than for- 
 merly. Tliis summer she had never worn her spray of 
 sweet-brier, and the omission might have been deemed 
 significant of a change in herself. When the occasion 
 offered, she no longer hesitated to express a difference 
 of opinion; at times she uttered her dissent with a 
 bluntness which recalled Buckland's manner in private. 
 
 ' Does the comparison seem to you unbecoming ? ' 
 said Chilvers, with genial condescension. ' Or untrue ? ' 
 
 ' What do you mean by " the soul " ? ' she inquired, 
 still gazing away from him. 
 
 * The principle of conscious life in man — that which 
 understands and worships.' 
 
 ' The two faculties seem to me so different that ' 
 
 She broke off. * But I mustn't talk foolishly about 
 such things.' 
 
 'I feel sure you have thought of them to some 
 purpose. I wonder whether you ever read Francis 
 Newman's book on The Soul ? ' 
 
 ' No, I never saw it.' 
 
 ' Allow me to recommend it to you. I believe you 
 would find it deeply interesting.' 
 
 * Does the Church approve it ? ' 
 
 'The Church?' He smiled. 'Ah! what Church? 
 Churchmen there are, unfortunately, who detest the 
 name of its autlior, but I hope you have never classed 
 me among them. The Church, rightly understood, 
 comprehends every mind and heart that is striving 
 upwards. The age of intolerance will soon be as 
 remote from us as that of persecution. Can I be 
 mistaken in thinking that this broader view has your 
 sympathy, ^Miss Warricombe ? ' 
 
 ' I can't sympatliise with what I don't understand, Mr. 
 Chilvers.' 
 
 He looked at her with tender solicitude, bending 
 slightly from his usual square-shouldered attitude. 
 
BURN IN KX1IJ-: 401 
 
 * Do let me find an opportunity of talkiii;^ ovit the 
 whole matter with you — by no means as an instructor. 
 In my view, a clergyman may seek instruction IVoni 
 the humblest of those wlio are called his tlock. The 
 thoughtful and high - minded among them will often 
 assist him materially in his endeavour at self -develop- 
 ment. To my " flock," ' he continued, playfully, ' you 
 don't belong; but may I not count you one of that 
 circle of friends to whom I look for the higher kiiul 
 of sympathy ? ' 
 
 Sid well glanced about her in the hope that sonie <jne 
 might be approaching. Her two friends were at a 
 distance, talking and laughing together. 
 
 * You shall tell me some day,' slie replied, with more 
 attention to courtesy, 'what the doctrines of the l>road 
 Church really are. But the air grows too cool to be 
 pleasant; hadn't we better return to the drawing- 
 room ? ' 
 
 The greater part of the winter went by before she 
 had again to submit to a tefc-a-tctc with the Eev. Bruno. 
 It was seldom that she thought of him save when com- 
 pelled to do so by his exacting presence, but in the mean- 
 time he exercised no small intluence on her mental life. 
 Insensibly she was confirmed in her alienation Iroui 
 all accepted forms of religious faith. Whether she 
 wished it or not, it was inevitable that such a process 
 should keep her constantly in mind of Godwin Beak. 
 Her desire to talk with him at times became so like 
 passion that she appeared to herself to love him more 
 truly than ever. Yet such a mood was always followed 
 by doubt, and she could not say whether tlie reaction 
 distressed or soothed her. These months that had gone 
 by brought one result, not to be disguised. Whatever 
 the true nature of her feeling for (lodwin, the thought 
 of marrying him was so ditlicult to face that it seemed 
 to involve impossibilities. He himself had warned her 
 that marriage would mean severance from all her 
 kindred. It was practically true, and time would only 
 increase the difficulty of such a determination. 
 
 The very fact that her love (again, if love it were) 
 
462 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 must be indulged in defiance of universal opinion tended 
 to keep emotion alive. A woman is disposed to cling 
 to a lover who has disgraced himself, especially if she 
 can believe that the disgrace was incurred as a result of 
 devotion to her. Could love be separated from thought 
 of marriage, Sidwell would have encouraged herself in 
 fidelity, happy in the prospect of a life -long spiritual 
 communion — for she would not doubt of Godwin's 
 upward progress, of his eventual purification. But this 
 was a mere dream. If Godwin's passion were steadfast, 
 the day would come when she must decide either to cast 
 in her lot with his, or to bid him be free. And could 
 she imagine herself going forth into exile ? 
 
 There came a letter from him, and she was fortunate 
 enough to receive it without the knowledge of her relatives. 
 He wrote that he had obtained employment. The news 
 gave her a troubled joy, lasting for several days. That no 
 emotion appeared in her reply was due to a fear lest she 
 might be guilty of misleading him. Perhaps already she 
 had done so. Her last whisper — ' Some day ! * — was it 
 not a promise and an appeal ? Now she had not the 
 excuse of profound agitation, there must be no word 
 her conscience could not justify. But in writing those 
 formal lines she felt herself a coward. She was drawing 
 back — preparing her escape. 
 
 Often she had the letter beneath her pillow. It was the 
 first she had ever received from a man who professed 
 to love her. So long without romance in her life, she 
 could not Ijut entertain this semblance of it, and feel that 
 she was still young. 
 
 It told much in Godwin's favour that he had not 
 ventured to write before there was this news to send her. 
 It testified to the force of his character, the purity of his 
 purpose. A weaker man, she knew, would have tried to 
 excite her compassion by letters of mournful strain, might 
 even have distressed her with attempts at clandestine 
 meeting. She had said rightly — his nature was not base. 
 And she loved him ! She was passionately grateful to 
 him for proving that her love had not been unworthily 
 bestowed. 
 
BORN IN KXILE 4G3 
 
 When he wrote again, her answer slujukl not he 
 cowardly. 
 
 The life of the household we'nt on as it had Ijeen 
 wont to do for years, ])ut with the sprin«» came events. 
 An old lady died whilst on a visit to the house (she 
 was a half-sister of Mrs. Warricombe), and by a will 
 executed a few years previously she left a thousand 
 pounds, to be equally divided between the children of 
 this family. Sidwell smiled sadly on findinf^ herself 
 in possession of this bequest, the first sum of any 
 importance that she had ever held in her own right. 
 If she married a man of whom all her kith and kin 
 so strongly disapproved that they would not give her 
 even a wedding present, two hundred and fifty pounds 
 would be better than no dowry at all. One could 
 furnish a house with it. 
 
 Then Fanny had an attack of bronchitis, and whilst 
 she was recovering Buckland came down Ibr a few 
 days, bringing with him a piece of news for which no 
 one was prepared. As if to make reparation to his 
 elder sister for the harshness with which he had behaved 
 in the afl'air of Godwin l^eak, he chose her for his first 
 confidante. 
 
 'Sidwell, I am going to be married. Do you care to 
 hear about it ? ' 
 
 ' Certainly I do.' 
 
 Long ago she had been assured of Sylvia Mcjor- 
 house's sincerity in rejecting Ikickland's suit. That 
 was still a grief to her, but she acknowledged her 
 friend's wisdom, and was now very curious to learn who 
 it was that the Eadical had honoured willi his trans- 
 ferred affections. 
 
 * The lady's name,' Buckland began, ' is Miss ^fatilda 
 Renshaw. She is the second daughter of a dealer in 
 hides, tallow, and that kind of thing. lioth her parents 
 are dead ; she has lived of late with her married sister at 
 Blackheath.' 
 
 Sidwell listened with no slight astonishnu'nt, and her 
 countenance looked what she felt. 
 
 'That's the bald statement of the cause,' pursued 
 
464 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 her brother, seeming to enjoy the consternation he 
 had excited. ' Now, let nie till up the outline. Miss 
 Kenshaw is something more than good-looking, has 
 had an admirable education, is five -and- twenty, and 
 for a couple of years has been actively engaged in 
 humanitarian work in the East End. She has published 
 a book on social questions, and is a very good public 
 speaker. Einally, she owns property representing between 
 three and four thousand a year.' 
 
 ' The picture has become more attractive,' said 
 Sidwell. 
 
 ' You imagined a rather dift'erent person ? If I per- 
 suade mother to invite her down here presently, do you 
 think you could be friendly with her ? ' 
 
 * I see no reason why I should not be.' 
 
 'But I must warn you. She has nothing to do with 
 creeds and dogmas.' 
 
 He tried to read her face. Sidwell's mind was a 
 mystery to him. 
 
 'I shall make no inquiry about her religious views,' 
 his sister replied, in a dispassionate tone, which conveyed 
 no certain meaning. 
 
 ' Then I feel sure you will like her, and equally sure 
 that she will like you.' 
 
 His parents had no distinct fault to find with this 
 choice, though they would both greatly have preferred 
 a daughter-in-law whose genealogy could be more freely 
 spoken of. Miss Eenshaw was invited to Exeter, and 
 the first week of June saw her arrival. Buckland had 
 in no way exaggerated her qualities. She was a dark- 
 eyed beauty, perfect from the social point of view, a 
 very interesting talker, — in short, no ordinary woman. 
 That Buckland should have fallen in love with her, even 
 after Sylvia, was easily understood ; it seemed likely 
 that she would make him as good a wife as he could ever 
 hope to win. 
 
 Sidwell was expecting another letter from the 
 north of England. The silence which during tliose 
 first months had been justifiable was now a source of 
 
BURN IN KXILK 4G5 
 
 anxiety. But whether fear or liope predominaled in her 
 expectancy, she still coukl not decitle. 8he had said to 
 herself that her next reply should not he cowardly, yet 
 she was as far as ever from a courageous resolve. 
 
 Mental harassment told upon her health. Martin, 
 watching her with solicitude, declared that for lier sake 
 as much as for Fanny's tliey must liave a tliorough holiday 
 abroad. 
 
 Urged by the approaching departure, Sidwell over- 
 came her reluctance to write to Godwin before she 
 had a letter to answer. It was done in a mood of 
 intolerable despondency, when life looked barren before 
 her, and the desire of love all but triumphed over every 
 other consideration. The letter written and posted, she 
 would gladly have recovered it — reserved, formal as it 
 was. Cowardly still; but then Godwin had not written. 
 
 She kept a watch upon the postman, and again, when 
 Godwin's reply was delivered, escaped detection. 
 
 Hardly did slie dare to open the envelope. Her letter 
 had perchance been more significant tlian she supposed ; 
 and did not the mere fact of her writing invite a lover's 
 frankness ? 
 
 But the reply was haivlly more moving than if it 
 had come from a total stranger. For a moniunt slic 
 felt relieved ; in an hour's time she suffered indescrib- 
 able distress. Godwin wrote — so she convinced herself 
 after repeated perusals — as if discharging a task; not 
 a word suggested tenderness. Had the letter l^een un- 
 solicited, she could have used it like tlie former one ; 
 but it was the answer to an appeal. The phrases she 
 had used were still present in lier mind. * I am 
 anxious ... it is more than half a year since you 
 wrote ... I have been expecting . . . anything that 
 is of interest to you will interest me . . .' How 
 could she imagine that this was reserved and formal ? 
 Shame fell upon her; she locked herself from all 
 companionship, and wept in rebellion against the law.s 
 of life. 
 
 A fortnight later, she wrote from Boyat to Sylvia 
 Moorhouse. It was a long epistle, full of sunny descrip- 
 
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466 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 tioiis, breathing renewed vigour of body and mind. The 
 last paragraph ran thus : 
 
 * Yesterday was my birthday; I was twenty- eight. 
 At this age, it is wisdom in a woman to remind herself 
 that youth is over. I don't regret it ; let it go with all 
 its follies ! But I am sorry that I have no serious work 
 in life ; it is not cheerful to look forward to perhaps 
 another eight-and-twenty years of elegant leisure — that 
 is to say, of wearisome idleness. What can I do ? Try 
 and think of some task for me, something that will last 
 a lifetime.' 
 
FART THE SEVENTH 
 
PART THE SEVENTH 
 
 I 
 
 At the close of a sultry day in September, when factory 
 fumes hung low over the town of St. Helen's, and 
 twilight tliickened luridly, and the air tasted of sulphur, 
 and the noises of the streets, nmlllcd in their joint 
 eftect, had individually an ominous distinctness, Godwin 
 Peak walked with languid stei)s to his lodgings and 
 the meal that there awaited him. His vitality was at 
 low ebb. The routine of his life disgusted him ; the 
 hope of release was a mockery. What was to be tlie 
 limit of this effort to redeem his character ? How many 
 years before the past could be forgotten, and his claim 
 to the style of honourable l)e deemed secure ? Ilubbish ! 
 It was an idea out of old-fashioned r(>nuinccs. What 
 he was, he was, and no extent of dogged (hiration at 
 St. Helen's or elsewhere, could all'ect his ])c*rsonality. 
 What, practically, was to be the end? If Sidwell had 
 no money of her own, and no expectations from lier 
 father, how could she ever become his wife ? Women 
 liked this kind of thing, this indelinite engagement to 
 marry when something should hajipen, which in all 
 likelihood never would happen— tliis fantastic mutual 
 fidelity with only the airiest reward, l-lsiu'cially women 
 of a certain age. 
 
 A heavy cart seemed to be rundjling in the next 
 
470 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 street. No, it was thunder. If only a good rattling- 
 storm would sweep the bituminous atmosphere, and allow 
 a breath of pure air before midnight. 
 
 She could not be far from thirty. Of course tliere 
 prevails much conventional nonsense about women's 
 age ; there are plenty of women who reckon four decades, 
 and yet retain all the essential charm of their sex. 
 And as a man gets older, as he begins to persuade 
 himself that at forty one has scarce reached the prime 
 of life 
 
 The storm was coming on in earnest. Big drops 
 began to fall. He quickened his pace, reached home, 
 and rang the bell for a light. 
 
 His landlady came in with the announcement that 
 a gentleman had called to see him, about an hour ago ; 
 he would come again at seven o'clock. 
 
 ' What name ? ' 
 
 None had been given. A youngish gentleman, speak- 
 ing like a Londoner. 
 
 It might be Earwaker, but that was not likely. 
 Godwin sat down to his plain meal, and after it 
 lit a pipe. Thunder was still rolling, but now in 
 the distance. He waited impatiently for seven 
 o'clock. 
 
 To the minute, sounded a knock at the house- 
 door. A little delay, and there appeared Christian 
 Moxey. 
 
 Godwin was surprised and embarrassed. His visitor 
 had a very grave face, and was thinner, paler, than three 
 years ago ; he appeared to hesitate, but at length offered 
 his hand. 
 
 ' I got your address from Earwaker. I was obliged to 
 see you — on business.' 
 
 ' Business ? ' 
 
 'May I take my coat off? We shall have to 
 talk.' 
 
 They sat down, and Godwin, unable to strike the 
 note of friendship lest he should be met with repulse, 
 broke silence by regretting that Moxey should have had 
 to make a second call. 
 
BORN IN KXII.K 471 
 
 'Oh, that's nothing! I went an<l liad .hnner. — IN'ak, 
 my sister is dead.' 
 
 Their eyes met; something of th(^ old kindness rose 
 to either face. 
 
 'That must be a heavy blow to you,' murmured Clodwin, 
 possessed with a strange anticipation which he would not 
 allow to take clear form. 
 
 * It is. She was ill for three UKjnths. Whilst staying 
 in the country last June she met with an accident. Slie 
 went for a long walk alone one day, and in a steep lane 
 she came up with a carter who was trying to make a 
 wretched horse drag a load beyond its strength. The 
 fellow was perhaps half drunk ; he stood tliere lieating the 
 horse unmercifully. Marcella couldn't endure that kind 
 of thing — impossible for her to pass on and say nothing. 
 She interfered, and tried to persuade the man to lighten 
 his cart. He was insolent, attacked the horse more 
 furiously than ever, and kicked it so violently in the 
 stomach that it fell. Even tlien lie wouldn't stop his 
 brutality. Marcella tried to get lietween liim and the 
 animal — ^,just as it lashed out with its heels. The poor 
 girl was so badly injured that she lay by the roadside 
 until another carter took her up and brought her back to 
 the village. Three months of accursed sufl'eriug, aiul then 
 happily came the end.' 
 
 A far, faint echoing of thunder filled tlie silence of 
 their voices. Heavy rain splashed upon the ]»avement. 
 
 'She said to me just before her death,' resumed 
 Christian, '" I have ill luck when I try to do a kinihiess 
 — but perhaps there is one more chance." I didn't know 
 what she meant till afterwards. Peak, she lias left nearly 
 all her money to you.' 
 
 Godwin knew it l)efore the words were spoken. His 
 heart leaped, and only the dread of being observe<l 
 enabled him to control his features. When liis tongue 
 was released he said harshly : 
 
 ' Of course I can't accept it.* 
 
 The words were uttere»l independently of his will, lb- 
 had no such thought, and the sound <>f his voice shook 
 him with alarm. 
 
472 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 * Why can't you ? ' returned Christian. 
 
 ' I liave no right — it belongs to you, or to some other 
 relative — it would be ' 
 
 His stammering; broke off. Flushes and chills ran 
 through him ; he could not raise his eyes from the 
 ground. 
 
 ' It belongs to no one but you,' said Moxey, with cold 
 persistence. 'Her last wish was to do you a kindness, 
 and I, at all events, shall never consent to frustrate her 
 intention. The legacy represents something more than 
 eight hundred a year, as the investments now stand. 
 This will make you independent — of everything and 
 everybody.' He looked meaningly at the listener. ' Her 
 own life was not a very happy one ; she did what she 
 could to save yours from a like doom.' 
 
 Godwin at last looked up. 
 
 ' Did she speak of me during her illness ? ' 
 
 ' She asked me once, soon after the accident, what had 
 become of you. As I knew from Earwaker, I was able 
 to tell her.' 
 
 A long silence followed. Christian's voice was softer 
 when he resumed. 
 
 * You never knew her. She was the one woman in ten 
 thousand — at once strong and gentle ; a line intellect, and 
 a heart of rare tenderness. But because she had not the 
 kind of face that ' 
 
 He checked himself. 
 
 *To the end her mind kept its clearness and courage. 
 One day she reminded me of Heine — how we had talked 
 of that " conversion " on the mattress - grave, and had 
 pitied the noble intellect subdued by disease. " I shan't 
 live long enough," she said, " to incur that danger. What 
 I have thought ever since I could study, I think now, 
 and shall to tlie last moment." I buried her without 
 forms of any kind, in the cemetery at Kingsmill. Tliat 
 was what slie wislied. I should have despised myself if 
 I had lacked that courage.' 
 
 ' It was right,' muttered Godwin. 
 
 * And I wear no mourning, you see. All that kind of 
 thing is ignoble. I am robbed of a priceless companion^ 
 
 I 
 
BORN IN KXILK 473 
 
 ship, but I don't care to go about iuvitini,' people's pity. 
 If only I could forget those niontlis of sulfiTing! Some 
 day I shall, perhaps, and think of her only as she lived.' 
 
 'Were you alone with her all tiie time T 
 
 ' No. Our cousin Janet was often with us.' Christian 
 spoke with averted face. 'You don't know, of course, 
 that she has gone in for medical work — practises at 
 Kingsmill. The accident was at a village called I^jwt«»n, 
 ten miles or more from Kingsmill. Janet came over very 
 often.' 
 
 Godwin mused on this development of the girl whom 
 he remembered so well. He could not direct his tho\ights ; 
 a languor had crept over him. 
 
 ' Do you recollect, Peak,' said Christian, presently, ' the 
 talk we had in the fields by Twy bridge, when we lirst 
 met ? ' 
 
 The old friendliness was reappearing in his manner, 
 lie was yielding to the impulse to be connnunicative. 
 confidential, which had always characterised him. 
 
 'I remember,' Godwin murmured. 
 
 ' If only my words then had had any weight with you ! 
 And if only I had acted upon my own advice! Just for 
 those few weeks I was sane ; I understood something of 
 life ; I saw my true way before me. You and I have l)oth !t^ 
 gone after ruinous ideals, instead of taking the solid good 
 held out to us. Of course, I know your story in outline. 
 I don't ask you to talk about it. You are independent 
 now, and I hope you can use your freedom. — Widl, and 1 
 too am free.' 
 
 The last words were in a lower tone. Godwin glanced 
 at the speaker, whose sadness was not banished, hut 
 illumined with a ray of calm hope. 
 
 ' Have you ever thought of me and my infatuation ? ' 
 Christian asked. 
 
 ' Yes.' 
 
 ' I have outlived that mawkish folly. I used to drink 
 too much; the two things went well together. It would 
 shame me to tell you all about it. liut, happily, I liave 
 been able to go back a])0ut thirteen years — recover njy 
 old sane self — and with it what 1 then threw away.' 
 
474 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 * I understand.' 
 
 * Do you ? Marcella knew of it, just before her death, 
 and it made her glad. But the waste of years, the best 
 part of a lifetime ! It's incredible to me as I look back. 
 Janet called on us one day in London. Heaven be 
 thanked that she was forgiving enough to do so ! "What 
 would have become of me now ? ' 
 
 'How are you going to live, then?' Godwin asked, 
 absently. 
 
 ' How ? My income is sufficient ' 
 
 ' No, no ; I mean, where and how will you live in your 
 married life ? ' 
 
 ' Tliat's still uncertain. Janet mustn't go on with pro- 
 fessional work. In any case, I don't think she could for 
 long; her strength isn't equal to it. But I shouldn't 
 wonder if we settle in Kingsmill. To you it would seem 
 intolerable ? But wdiy should we live in London ? At 
 Kingsmill Janet has a large circle of friends ; in London 
 we know scarcely half-a-dozen people — of the kind it 
 would give us any pleasure to live with. We shall have 
 no lack of intellectual society ; Janet knows some of the 
 Whitelaw professors. The atmosphere of Kingsmill isn't 
 illiberal, you know ; we shan't be fought shy of because 
 we object to pass Sundays in a state of coma. But the 
 years that I have lost ! The irrecoverable years ! ' 
 
 'There's nothing so idle as regretting the past,' said 
 Godwin, with some impatience. ' Why groan over what 
 couldn't be otherwise ? The probability is, Janet and 
 you are far better suited to each other now than you ever 
 would have been if you had married long ago.' 
 
 * You think that ? ' exclaimed the other, eagerly. ' I have 
 tried to see it in that light. If I didn't feel so despicable !' 
 
 ' She, I take it, doesn't think you so,' Godwin muttered. 
 
 ' But how can she understand ? I have tried to tell 
 her everything, but she refused to listen. Perhaps 
 Marcella told her all she cared to know.' 
 
 * No doubt.' 
 
 Each brooded for a while over his own affairs, then 
 Christian reverted to the subject which concerned them 
 both. 
 
BORN IN lOXILK 476 
 
 'Let us speak frankly. You will take this i,'ift of 
 Marcella's as it was meant ? ' 
 
 How was it meant ? Critic and analyst jus ever, 
 Godwin could not be content to see in it tlie simple 
 benefaction of a woman who died loving him. Was 
 it not rather the last subtle device of jealousy ? Marcella 
 knew that the legacy would l)e a temptation he couhl 
 scarcely resist — and knew at the same time that, if 
 he accepted it, he practically renounced his hope of 
 marrying Sid well Warricombe. Doubtless she had 
 learned as much as she needed to know of Sid well's 
 position. IJefusiiig this bequest, he was as far as ever 
 from the possibility of asking Sidwell to marry him. 
 Profiting by it, he stood for ever indebted to Marcelhi, 
 nnist needs be grateful to her, and some day, assuredly, 
 would reveal the truth to whatever woman became 
 his wife. Conflict of reasonings and emotions made it 
 dithcult to answer Moxey's question. 
 
 'I must take time to think of it,' he said, at length. 
 
 'Well, I suppose that is right. lUit — well, I know so 
 little of your circumstances ' 
 
 ' Is that strictly true ? ' Peak asked. 
 
 * Yes. I have only the vaguest idea of wliat you 
 have been doing since you left us. (^f course I have 
 tried to find out.' 
 
 Godwin smiled, rather gloomily. 
 
 'We won't talk of it. I suppose you stay in St. 
 Helen's for the night ? ' 
 
 ' Tliere's a train at 10.20. I had better go by it.' 
 
 * Then let us forget everything but your own clieerful 
 outlook. At ten, I'll walk with you to the station.' 
 
 Peluctantly at first, but before long with a (piiet 
 abandonment to the joy that would not be supi)r('sse«l, 
 Christian talked of his future wife. In Janet he found 
 every perfection. Her mind was sonu*thing more than 
 tlie companion of his own. Already she liad l)egun to 
 inspire him with a liopeful activity, and to foster tlio 
 elements of true manliness which he was conscious of 
 possessing, though they had never yet liad free phiy. 
 With a sense of luxurious safety, he submitted to her 
 
476 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 influence, knowing none the less that it was in his 
 power to complete her imperfect life. Studiously he 
 avoided the word ' ideal ' ; from such vaporous illusions 
 he had turned to the world's actualities ; his language 
 dealt with concretes, with homely satisfactions, with 
 prospects near enough to be soberly examined. 
 
 A hurry to catch the train facilitated parting. Godwin 
 promised to write in a few days. 
 
 He took a roundabout way back to his lodgings. The 
 rain was over, the sky had become placid. He was con- 
 scious of an effect from Christian's conversation which half 
 counteracted the mood he would otherwise have indulged, 
 — the joy of liberty and of an outlook wholly new. 
 Sidwell might perchance be to him all that Janet was to 
 Christian. Was it not the luring of ' ideals ' that prompted 
 him to turn away from his long hope ? 
 
 There must be no more untruthfulness. Sidwell 
 must have all the facts laid before her, and make her 
 choice. 
 
 Without a clear understanding of what he was going 
 to write, he sat down at eleven o'clock, and began, 
 ' Dear Miss Warricombe.' Why not ' Dear Sidwell ' ? 
 He took another sheet of paper. 
 
 'Dear Sidwell, — To-night I can remember only your 
 last word to me when we parted. I cannot address you : 
 coldly, as though half a stranger. Thus long I have kept 
 silence about everything but the outward events of my 
 life ; now, in telling you of something tliat has happened, 
 I must speak as I think. 
 
 'Early this evening I was surprised by a visit from 
 Christian Moxey — a name you know. He came to tell 
 me that his sister (she of whom I once spoke to you) was 
 dead, and had bequeathed to me a large sum of money. 
 He said that it represented an income of eight hundred 
 pounds. 
 
 ' I knew nothing of Miss Moxey's illness, and tlie news 
 of lier will come to me as a surprise. In word or deed, , 
 I never sought more than her simple friendship — and 
 even that I believed myself to have forfeited. 
 
BORN IN KXIl.H 477 
 
 • If I were to refuse this money, it would be in 
 consequence of a scruple whicli I do not in truth respect. 
 Christian Moxey tells me that his sister's desire was to 
 enable me to live the life of a free man, and if 1 have 
 any duty at all in the matter, surely it docs not constrain 
 me to defeat her kindness. No condition whatever is 
 attached. The gift releases me from the necessity of 
 leading a hopeless existence — leaves me at liljcrty to 
 direct my life how I will. 
 
 'I wish, then, to put aside all thoughts of how this 
 opportunity came to me, and to ask you if you are willing 
 to be my wife. 
 
 ' Though I have never written a word of love, my love 
 is unchanged. The passionate hope of three years ago 
 still rules my life. Is your love strong enough to 
 enable you to disregard all hindrances ? I cannot of 
 course know whether, in your sight, dishonour still 
 clings to me, or whether you understand me well 
 enough to have forgiven and forgotten those hateful 
 things in the past. Is it yet too soon ? Do you wish 
 me still to wait, still to prove myself ? Is your interest 
 in the free man less than in the slave ? For my life has 
 been one of slavery and exile— exile, if you know what 
 I mean by it, from the day of my birth.- 
 
 'Dearest, grant me this great happiness! We can live 
 where we will. I am not rich enough to promise all the 
 comforts and refinements to which you are accustomed, 
 but we should be safe from sordid anxieties. We can 
 travel; we can make a home in any European eity. 
 It would be idle to speak of the projects and and )it ions 
 tliat fill my mind — but surely I may do sonu'thing worth 
 doing, win some position among intellectual men of which 
 you would not be ashamed. You yourself urged me to 
 hope that. With you at my side — Sidwell, grant me 
 this chance, that I may know the joy of satislieil love! 
 I am past the age which is misled by vain fancies. I 
 have suffered unsi)eakably, longed for the calm strength, 
 the pure, steady purpose which would result to me from 
 a happy marriage. There is no fatal divergence between 
 our minds ; did you not tell me that ? You said that if I 
 
478 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 had been truthful from the first, you might have loved me 
 with no misgiving. Forget the madness into which T 
 was betrayed. There is no soil upon my spirit. I offer 
 you love as noble as any man is capable of. Think — 
 think well — before replying to me ; let your true self 
 prevail. You did love me, dearest. — Yours ever, 
 
 * Godwin Peak.' 
 
 At first he wrote slowly, as though engaged on a 
 literary composition, with erasions, insertions. Facts 
 once stated, he allowed himself to forget how Sidwell 
 would most likely view them, and thereafter his pen 
 hastened : fervour inspired the last paragraph. Sidwell's 
 image had become present to him, and exercised all — or 
 nearly all — its old influence. 
 
 The letter must be copied, because of that laboured 
 beginning. Copying one's own words is at all times a 
 disenchanting drudgery, and when the end was reached 
 Godwin signed his name with hasty contempt. What 
 answer could he expect to such an appeal ? How vast 
 an improbability that Sidwell would consent to profit by 
 the gift of Marcella Moxey ! 
 
 Yet how otherwise could he write ? With what show 
 of sincerity could he offer to refuse the bequest ? Nay, in 
 that case he must not offer to do so, but simply state the 
 fact that his refusal was beyond recall. Logically, he had 
 chosen the only course open to him, — for to refuse inde- 
 pendence was impossil)le. 
 
 A wheezy clock in his landlady's kitchen was striking 
 two. For very fear of having to revise his letter in the 
 morning, he put it into its envelope, and went out to the 
 nearest pillar-post. 
 
 That was done. Whether Sidwell answered with ' Yes ' 
 or with ' No,' he was a free man. 
 
 On the morrow he went to his work as usual, and on 
 the day after that. The third morning might bring a 
 reply — but did not. On the evening of the fifth day, 
 when he came home, there lay the expected letter. He 
 felt it ; it was light and thin. That hideous choking of 
 suspense Well, it ran thus : 
 
BORX iX KXIKK 47!) 
 
 ' 1 cannot. It is not that 1 am iroul.led hy yuur 
 accepting the legacy. You have every right to' do so, 
 and I know that your life will justify the hopes of lier 
 Avlio thus befriended yxm. l>ut I am too weak to take 
 this step. To ask you to wait yet longer, would only \hi 
 a fresh cowardice. You cannot know Imw it shames me 
 to write this. In my very heart I believe I love you, 
 but what is such love worth ^ You must despise me/and 
 you will forget me. I live in a little world ; in the 
 greater world where your i)lace is, you will win a love 
 very difi'erent. S. W.' 
 
 Godwin laughed aloud as the paper droi)ped from his 
 hand. 
 
 AVell, she was not the heroine of a romance. Had he 
 expected her to leave home and kindred — the 'little 
 world ' so infinitely dear to her — and go forth witli a man 
 deeply dishonoured ? Very young girls have been known 
 
 to do such a thing ; but a thoughtful mature woman ! 
 
 Present, his passion had dominated her : and perhaps her 
 nerves only. But she had had time to recover from that 
 weakness. 
 
 A woman, like most women, of cool blood, temperate 
 fancies. A domestic woman ; the ornament of a typical 
 English home. 
 
 Most likely it was true that the matter of the legacy 
 did not trouble her. Jn any case she would not have con- 
 sented to marry him, and tJiercforc she knew no jealousy. 
 Her love ! why, truly, what was it worth ( 
 
 (Much, much ! of no less than inlinite value. He 
 knew it, but this was not the moment for such a truth.) 
 
 A cup of tea to steady the nerves. Then thoughts, 
 planning, world-building. 
 
 He was awake all niiiht, and Sidwell's letter lay 
 within reach, — Did she sleej) calmly i Had she never 
 stretched out her hand for ///.s- letter, when all was 
 silent i There were men who would not take such a 
 refusal. A scheme to meet her once more — the appeal 
 of passion, face to face, heart to heart — the means of 
 escape ready— and then the 'greater world' 
 
480 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 But neither was he cast in heroic mould. He had 
 not the self-confidence, he had not the hot, youthful 
 blood. A critic of life, an analyst of moods and motives ; 
 not the man who dares and acts. The only important 
 resolve he had ever carried through was a scheme of 
 ignoble trickery — to end in frustration. 
 
 'The greater world.' It was a phrase that had been 
 in his own mind once or twice since Moxey's visit. To 
 point him thither w^as doubtless the one service Sidwell 
 could render him. And in a day or two, that phrase was 
 all that remained to him of her letter. 
 
 On a Sunday afternoon at the end of Octobei', 
 Godwin once more climbed the familiar stairs at Staple 
 Inn, and was welcomed by his friend Earwaker. The 
 visit was by appointment. Earwaker knew all about 
 the legacy ; that it was accepted ; and that Peak had 
 only a few days to spend in London, on his way to 
 the Continent. 
 
 * You are regenerated,' was his remark as Godwin entered. 
 
 * Do I look it ? Just what I feel. I have shaken off a 
 good (or a bad) ten years.' 
 
 The speaker's face, at all events in this moment, was 
 no longer that of a man at hungry issue with the world. 
 He spoke cheerily. 
 
 ' It isn't often that fortune does a man such a kind turn. 
 One often hears it said : If only I could begin life again 
 with all the experience I have gained ! That is what I 
 can do. I can break utterly with the past, and I have 
 learnt how to live in the future.' 
 
 * Break utterly with the past ? ' 
 
 ' In the practical sense. And even morally to a great 
 extent.' 
 
 Earwaker pushed a box of cigars across the table. 
 Godwin accepted the offer, and began to smoke. During 
 these moments of silence, the man of letters had been 
 turning over a weekly paper, as if in 'search of some 
 paragraph ; a smile announced his discovery. 
 
 ' Here is sometliing that will interest you — possibly 
 you have seen it.' 
 
BORN IN KXILK 481 
 
 He bpgaii to read aloud : 
 
 '"On the 23rd inst. was celebrated at St. l'>ra«'«''s, 
 Torquay, tlie marriage of the llev. IJruno lA-atlnvTutc' 
 Chilvers, late Itector of St. ]\rargaret's, Kxi^ter, and the Hon. 
 I'.crtha Harriet Cecilia Jute, eldest daughter of the late 
 liaron Jute. The ceremony was conducted l»y the Hon. 
 and Eev. J. C. Jute, uncle of the bride, assisted by the 
 llev. F. :Miller, the Very liev. Dean rinnock, the Kev. 
 H. S. Crook, and tlie llev. AVilliani Tomkinson. The 
 bride was given away by Lord Jute. Mr. Horatio 
 Dukinfield was best man. The l)ridal dress was of white 
 brocade, draped with Brussels lace, the corsage being 
 trimmed with lace and adorned with orange blossoms. 
 The tulle veil, fastened with three diamond stars, the 
 gifts of " Well, shall I go on ? ' 
 
 'The triumph of Chilvers!' murmured (lodwin. 'I 
 wonder whether the Hon. Bertha is past her fortieth 
 year ? ' 
 
 ' A blooming beauty, I dare say. But Lord ! how many 
 people it takes to marry a man like Chilvers ! How 
 sacred the union must be ! — Pray take a paragraph more : 
 "The four bridesmaids — Miss — etc., etc. — wore cream 
 crepon dresses trimmed with turquoise blue velvet, and 
 hats to match. The bridegroom's presents to tliem were 
 diamond and ruby brooches." ' 
 
 ' Chilvers in excclsis ! — So he is no longer at Exeter ; 
 has no living, it seems. AVhat does he aim at next. I 
 wonder i ' 
 
 Earwaker cast meaning glances at his friend. 
 
 * I understand you,' said Godwin, at length. ' Vou mean 
 that this merely illustrates my own ambition. Well, you 
 are riglit, I confess my shame — and there's an end of 
 it.' 
 
 He puffed at his cigar, resuming presently : 
 
 ' But it would be untrue if I said that I regi'etted any- 
 thing. Constituted as I am, there was no other way of 
 learning my real needs and capabilities. Much in the 
 past is hateful to me, but it all had its use. There are 
 men — why, take your own case. You look back on life, 
 no doubt, with calm and satisfaction.' 
 
 3' 
 
482 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' Eather, with resignation/ 
 
 Godwin let his cigar fall, and langhed bitterly. 
 
 'Your resignation has kept pace with life. I was 
 always a rebel. My good qualities — I mean wdiat I 
 say — have always wrecked me. Now that I haven't 
 to fight w^ith circumstances, they may possibly be made 
 subservient to my happiness.' 
 
 ' But what form is your happiness to take ? ' 
 
 'Well, I am leaving England. On the Continent I 
 shall make no fixed abode, but live in the places where 
 cosmopolitan people are to be met. I shall make friends ; 
 with money at command, one may hope to succeed in that. 
 Hotels, boarding-houses, and so on, offer the opportunities. 
 It sounds oddly like the project of a swindler, doesn't it ? 
 There's the curse I can't escape from ! Though my 
 desires are as pure as those of any man living, I am 
 compelled to express myself as if I were about to do 
 something base and underhand. Simply because I have 
 never had a social place. I am an individual merely ; I 
 belong to no class, town, family, club ' 
 
 ' Cosmopolitan people,' mused Earwaker. ' Your ideal 
 is trausformed.' 
 
 * As you know. Experience only could bring that 
 al)Out. I seek now only the free, intellectual people — 
 men who have done with the old conceptions — women 
 who ' 
 
 His voice grew husky, and he did not complete the 
 sentence. 
 
 * I shall find them in Paris, Konie. — Earwaker, think of 
 my being able to speak like this ! No day-dreams, but 
 actual sober plans, their execution to begin in a day or 
 two. Paris, Pome ! And a month ago I was a hopeless 
 slave in a vile manufacturing town.— I wish it were 
 possible for me to pray for the soul of that poor dead 
 woman. I don't speak to you of her ; but do you imagine 
 I am brutally forgetful of her to whom I owe all 
 this ? ' 
 
 * I do you justice,' returned the other, quietly. 
 ' I believe you can and do.' 
 
 ' How grand it is to go forth as I am 
 
BOKN IN KXILH 483 
 
 Godwin resumed, after a ]oiv^ pause. ' Xoiliin;^ to hide, 
 no shams, no pretences. Let who will intpiire ahout me. 
 I am an independent Englishman, with so and so much a 
 year. In England I have one friend only — that is you. 
 The result, you see, of all these years' savage striving to 
 knit myself into the social fabric' 
 
 ' Well, you will invite me some day to your villa at 
 Sorrento,' said Earwaker, encouragingly. 
 
 ' That I shall ! ' Godwin's eyes flashed with imaginative 
 delight. ' And before very long. Never to a home in 
 England ! ' 
 
 'By -the -bye, a request. I have never had your 
 portrait. Sit before you leave London.' 
 
 'No. I'll send you one from Paris — it will be better 
 done.' 
 
 ' But I am serious. You promise ? ' 
 
 ' You shall have the thing in less than a fortnight.' 
 
 The promise was kept. Earwaker received an ad- 
 mirable photograph, which he inserted in his album witli 
 a curious sense of satisfaction. A face by which every 
 intelligent eye must be arrested ; which no two observers ^ 
 would interpret in the same way. 
 
 ' His mate must be somewliere,' thought the man of 
 letters, ' but he will never find her.' / 
 
II 
 
 In his acceptance of Sidwell's reply, Peak did not care 
 to ask himself whether the delay of its arrival had any 
 meaning one way or another. Decency would hardly 
 have permitted her to answer such a letter by return 
 of post ; of course she waited a day or so. 
 
 But the interval meant more than this. 
 
 Sylvia M(jorhouse was staying with her friend. The 
 death of Mrs. Moorhouse, and the marriage of the 
 mathematical brother, had left Sylvia homeless, though 
 not in any distressing sense; her inclination was to 
 wander for a year or two, and she remained in England 
 only until the needful arrangements could be concluded. 
 
 ' You had better come with me,' she said to Sidwell, as 
 they walked together on the lawn after luncheon. 
 
 The other shook her head. 
 
 ' Indeed, you had better. — AVhat are you doing here ? 
 What are you going to make of your life ? ' 
 
 ' I don't know.' 
 
 'Precisely. Yet one ought to live on some kind of 
 l)lan. I think it is time you got away from Exeter; it 
 seems to me you are finding its atmosphere morlijic! 
 
 Sidwell laughed at the allusion. 
 
 ' You know,' she said, ' that the reverend gentleman is 
 shortly to l)e married ? ' 
 
 ' Oh yes, I liave heard all about it. But is he forsaking 
 the Church ? ' 
 
 ' lietiring only for a time, they say.' 
 
 ' Forgive the question, Sidwell — did he lionour you with 
 a proposal ? ' 
 
 484 
 
BOKN IN EXILK 485 
 
 ' Indeed, no ! ' 
 
 ' Some one told me it was innuincnt, n<»t lon^ a^o.' 
 
 'Quite a mistake,' Sidwell answered, with her t,'mve 
 smile. 'Mr. Chilvers had a sin«^adar manner with wnmeii 
 in general. It was meant, })erliaps, for subtle tluttery ; lie 
 may have thought it the most suitable return for the 
 female worship he was accustomed t(^ receive.' 
 
 Mr. AVarriconil)e was coming towanls them. He 
 brought a new subject of conversation, and as they 
 talked the trio drew near to the gate which led into tlie 
 road. The afternoon p(jstman was just entering ; Mr. 
 "Warricombe took from him two letters. 
 
 ' One for you, Sylvia, and — one for you, Sidwell.' 
 
 A slight change in his voice causecl Sidwell to look at 
 her father as he handed her the letter. In the same 
 moment she recognised the writing of the address. It 
 was Godwin Peak's, and undoubtedly her father knew it. 
 
 With a momentary hesitation ^Ir. AVarricombe con- 
 tinued his talk from the point at which he hail broken 
 off, but he avoided his daughter's look, and Sidwell was 
 too well aware of an uneasiness which had fallen upon 
 him. In a few minutes he brought the cliat t<t an end, 
 and walked away towards the house. 
 
 Sidwell held her letter tightly. Conversation was no 
 longer possible for her; she had a painful throbbing of 
 the heart, and felt that her face must be i)laying tmitor. 
 Fortunately, Sylvia found it necessary to write a rej^ly to 
 the missive she had received, and her comj>anion was 
 soon at liberty to seek solitude. 
 
 For more than an hour she remained alone. However 
 unemotional the contents of the letter, its arrival would 
 have perturbed her seriously, as in the two jn-cvicius 
 instances ; what she found on opening the envelope threw 
 her into so extreme an agitation that it was long lx?f«)re 
 she could sulnlue the anguish of disorder in all her .senses. 
 She had tried to Ijelieve that (lodwin IVak was hencefortli 
 powerless to affect her in this way, write what he woidd. 
 The romance of her life was over; time had brt»ught the 
 solution of difhculties to which she looked forward ; she 
 recoLniised the inevitable, as doubtless did G(»dwin als<». 
 
486 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 But all this was self - deception. The passionate letter 
 delighted as much as it tortured her ; in secret her heart 
 had desired this, though reason suppressed and denied 
 the hope. No longer need she remember with pangs 
 of shame the last letter she had written, and the cold 
 response ; once again things were as they should be — the 
 lover pleading before her — she with the control of his 
 fate. The injury to her pride was healed, and in the 
 thought that perforce she must answer with a final ' No,' 
 she found at first more of solace than of distress. 
 
 Subsidence of physical suffering allowed her to forget 
 this emotion, in its nature unavowaljle. She could think 
 of the news Godwin sent, conld torment herself with 
 interpretations of Marcella Moxey's behaviour, and view 
 in detail the circumstances which enabled Godwin to 
 urge a formal suit. Among her various thoughts there 
 recurred frequently a regret that this letter had not 
 reached her, like the other two, unobserved. Her father 
 had now learnt that she was in correspondence with the 
 disgraced man; to keep silence would be to cause him 
 grave trouble ; yet how much better if fortune had only 
 once more favoured her, so that the story might have 
 remained her secret, from l)eginning to end. 
 
 For was not this the end ? 
 
 At the usual time she went to the drawing-room, and 
 somehow succeeded in conversing as though nothing had 
 disturbed her. Mr. Warricombe was not seen till dinner. 
 When he came forth, Sidwell noticed his air of preoccupa- 
 tion, and that he avoided addressing her. The evening 
 asked too much of her self-connnand ; she again withdrew, 
 and only came Ijack when the household was ready for 
 retiring. In bidding her father good -night, she forced 
 herself to meet his gaze ; he looked at her with troubled 
 inquiry, and she felt her cheek redden. 
 
 ' Do you want to get rid of me ? ' asked Sylvia, with 
 wonted frankness, when her friend drew near. 
 
 ' No. Let us go to the glass-house.' 
 
 Up there on the roof Sidwell often found a retreat when 
 her thoughts were troublesome. Fitfully, she had resumed 
 lier water-colour drawing, but as a rule her withdrawal to 
 
BORN IN KXILK IS 7 
 
 the glass-house was for reafUng or reverie. Larryiiii,' n 
 small lamp, slie led the way before Sylvia, and tliey sat 
 down in the chairs which on one occasion had l>een 
 occupied by Buckland AVarricoml)e and Teak. 
 
 The wind, rarely silent in this part of Devon, blew 
 boisterously from the south-west. A far-off whistle, that 
 of a train speeding up the valley on its way from Ply- 
 mouth, heightened the sense of retirement and quietude 
 always to be enjoyed at night here under the stars. 
 
 'Have you l)een thinking over my suggestion r asked 
 Sylvia, when there had l»een silence awhile. 
 
 ' No,' was the murmured reply. 
 
 ' Something has happened, I think.' 
 
 'Yes. I should like to tell you, Sylvia, bm ' 
 
 ' But ' 
 
 * I mnst tell you ! I can't kee]t it in my own mind, ami 
 you are the only one ' 
 
 Sylvia was surprised at the agitation which suddenly 
 revealed itself in her companion's look and voice. She 
 became serious, her eyes brightening with intellectual 
 curiosity. Feminine expressions of sympathy were not 
 to be expected from Miss Moorhouse ; far more reassuring 
 to Sidwell was the kind attentiveness with which her 
 friend bent forward. 
 
 'That letter father handed me to-dav was from Mr. 
 Peak.' 
 
 ' You hear from him ? ' 
 
 'This is the third time — since he went away. At our 
 last meeting' — her voice (lro]»ped — ' 1 i)ledged my faith to 
 him. — Xot absolutely. The future was too uncertain ' 
 
 The gleam in Sylvia's eyes grew more vivid. She wa.s 
 profoundly interested, and did not s])eak when Sidwells 
 voice failed. 
 
 'You never suspected this r asked the latter, in a few 
 
 moments. 
 
 ' Xot exactly that. What I did susi>ect was that Mr. 
 Peak's departure resulted from— your rejection of him.' 
 
 ' There is more to be told,' pursued Sidwell, in treniulouH 
 accents. 'You must know it all— because I need your 
 help. N(. one here has learnt what took place U'tween 
 
488 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 US. Mr. Peak did not go away on that account. But — 
 you remember being puzzled to explain his orthodoxy in 
 religion ? ' 
 
 She paused. Sylvia gave a nod, signifying much. 
 
 'He never believed as he professed,' went on Sidwell, 
 hurriedly. ' You were justified in doubting him. He 
 concealed the truth — pretended to champion the old 
 faiths ' 
 
 For an instant she broke off, then hastened through a 
 description of the circumstances which had brought about 
 Peak's discovery. Sylvia could not restrain a smile, but 
 it was softened by the sincere kindliness of her feeling. 
 
 ' And it was after this,' she inquired impartially, ' that 
 the decisive conversation between you took place ? ' 
 
 ' No ; just before Buckland's announcement. We met 
 again, after that. — Does it seem incredible to you that I 
 should liave let the second meeting end as it did ? ' 
 
 ' I think I understand. Yes, I know you well enough 
 to follow it. I can even guess at the defence he was able 
 to Tirge.' 
 
 ' You can ? ' asked Sidwell, eagerly. ' You see a 
 possibility of his defending himself ? ' 
 
 'I should conjecture that it amounted to the old 
 proverb, " All's fair in love and war." And, putting aside 
 a few moral prejudices, one can easily enough absolve 
 him. — The fact is, I had long ago surmised that his 
 motives in taking to such a career had more reference to 
 this world than the next. You know, I had several long 
 talks with him ; I told you how he interested me. Now 
 I can piece together my conclusions.' 
 
 ' Still,' urged Sidwell, ' you must inevitably regard him 
 as ignoble — as guilty of base deceit. I must hide nothing 
 from you, having told so nnich. Have you heard from 
 anyone about his early life ? ' 
 
 * Your mother told me some old stories.' 
 
 Sidwell made an impatient gesture. In words of force 
 and ardour, such as never before had been at her command, 
 she related all she knew of Godwin's history prior to his 
 settling at Exeter, and depicted the mood, the impulses, 
 which, by his own confession, had led to that strange 
 
BORN IX KXII.K 489 
 
 enterprise. Only by long exercise (»f an inipas-sinned 
 imagination eouM she thus thoroughly have itleiitificii 
 herself with a life so remote from her own. Peak's 
 pleading for himself was searcely more impressive. In 
 listening, Sylvia understood how C(»m]>let€ly Sidwell ha«l 
 cast oft' the beliefs for which lier ordinary conversation 
 seemed still to betray a tenderness. 
 
 ' I know,' the speaker concluded, ' that he cannot in that 
 first hour have come to regard me with a feeling strong 
 enough to determine what he then imdertook. It was 
 not I as an individual, but all of us here, and the W(»rld 
 we represented. Afterwards, he persuaded himself that he 
 had felt love for me from the beginning. And I, I tried 
 to believe it — because I wished it true; for his sake, ami 
 for my own. However it was, I could not harden my 
 heart against him. A thousand considerations forbade 
 me to allow him further hope ; but I refused to listen — 
 no, I could not listen. I said I would remain true to 
 him. He went away to take up his old ]>ui*suits, and if 
 possible to make a position for himself. It was to Ikj 
 our secret. And in spite of everything, I hoped for the 
 future.' 
 
 Silence followed, and Sidwell seemed to h)se hei-self in 
 distressful thought. 
 
 ' And now,' asked her friend, * what has come to ])ass ? ' 
 
 'Do you know that Miss Moxey is dead ? ' 
 
 ' I haven't heard of it.' 
 
 'She is dead, and has left I\Ir. IVak a fortune.— His 
 letter of to-day tells me this. And at the same time he 
 claims my promise.' 
 
 Their eyes met. Sylvia still had tlie air of meditating 
 a most interesting problem. Im]»os.sible to decide from 
 her countenance how she regarded Sidwell's position. 
 
 'But why in the world,' she asked, ' shouM Marcella 
 Moxey have left her money to Mr. Teak ?' 
 
 'They were friends,' was the quick rei»ly. 'She knew 
 all that had befallen him, and wished to smooth his i»ath.' 
 
 Sylvia put several more questions, and to all of tiiem 
 Sidwell replied with a i)eculiar decision, as though U'nt on 
 makim; it clear that there was nothing remarkable in this 
 
490 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 fact of the bequest. The motive which impelled her was 
 obscure even to her own mind, for ever since receiving the 
 letter she had suffered harassing doubts where now she 
 affected to have none. 
 
 'She knew, then,' was Sylvia's last inquiry, 'of the 
 relations between you and Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 ' I am not sure — ])ut I think so. Yes, I think she must 
 have known.' 
 
 ' From Mr. Peak himself, then ? ' 
 
 Sidwell was agitated. 
 
 * Yes — I think so. But what does that matter ? ' 
 
 The other allowed her face to betray perplexity. 
 
 ' So much for the past,' she said at length. ' And now ? ' — 
 
 ' I have not the courage to do what I wish.' 
 
 There was a long silence. 
 
 'About vour wish,' asked Sylvia at length, 'you are not 
 at all doul/tful ? ' 
 
 ' Not for one moment. — Whether I err in my judgment 
 of him could be proved only l)y time ; but I know that if 
 I were free, if I stood alone ' 
 
 She broke off and sighed. 
 
 ' It would mean, I suppose,' said the other, ' a rupture 
 with your family ? ' 
 
 'Father would not abandon me, Imt I should darken 
 the close of his life. Buckland would utterly cast me off; 
 mother would wish to do so. — You see, I cannot think and 
 act simply as a woman, as a human being. I am bound 
 to a certain sphere of life. The fact that I have outgrown 
 it, counts for nothing. I cannot free myself without 
 injury to people whom 1 love. To act as I wish would 
 be to outrage every rule and prejudice of the society to 
 which I belong. You yourself — you know how you would 
 regard me.' 
 
 Sylvia replied deliberately. 
 
 ' I am seeing you in a new light, Sidwell. It takes a 
 little time to reconstruct my conception of you.' 
 
 ' You think worse of me than you did.' 
 
 ' Neither better nor worse, but differently. There has 
 ])een too much reserve between us. After so long a 
 friendship, I ought to have known you more thoroughly. 
 
BORN IN KXILK 491 
 
 To tell the truth, I have thought imw and then of v«»ii ninl 
 Mr. Teak; that was inevitalile. But I went astray; it 
 seemed to me the most unlikely thin;,' that you shnuhl 
 regard him with more than a d()u])tful interest. I knew, 
 of course, that he had made you his ideal, and I fult snrrv 
 lor him.' 
 
 * I seemed to you unworthy ?' 
 
 'Too placid, too calmly prudent. — In ])lain wnrds, 
 Sidwell, I do think l)etter of you.' 
 Sidwell smiled. 
 
 * Only to know me henceforth as the woman whn diil 
 not dare to act upon her l)est im])ulses.' 
 
 'As for "best" — I can't say. I don't glorify passion, as 
 you know; and on the other hand I have little sympathy 
 with the people who are always crying out for self- 
 sacrifice. I don't know whether it would he "U'st" to 
 throw over your family, or to direct yourself solely with 
 regard to their comfort.' 
 
 Sidwell l)roke in. 
 
 'Yes, that is the true phrase — "their comfort." Xo 
 higher word should be used. That is the ideal of the life 
 to which I have been brought u]). Comfort, res|K^'ctal>ility. 
 — And has he no right ? If I sacrifice myself to father 
 and mother, do I not sacrifice him as well ? He Iia.s 
 forfeited all claim to consideration — that is what j)eoph» 
 say. With my whole soul, I deny it! If he sinned 
 against anyone, it was against me, and the sin ended as 
 soon as I underst(jod him. That ei)isode in his life is 
 IJotted out; by what law must it con(lemn to imperfection 
 the whole of his life and of my <>wn ? Yet because j>enpje 
 will not, cannot, look at a thing in a spirit of justice. 1 
 must wrong myself and him.' 
 
 'Let us think of it more ipiietly,' said Sylvia, in lu-r 
 clear, dispassionate tones. 'You speak as thougli a 
 decision must be taken at once. Where is the necessity 
 for that? Mr. Peak is now inde]>endent. Sup]M.se a 
 year or two be allowed to jiass, may not things l«M.k 
 difterently ? ' 
 
 'A year or two!' exclaimed Sidwell, with impatience. 
 'Nothing will be changed. What 1 have to f..nten«l 
 
492 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 against is unchangeable. If I guide myself by such a 
 hope as that, the only reasonable thing would be for me 
 to write to Mr. Peak, and ask him to wait until my father 
 and mother are dead.' 
 
 ' Very well. On that point we are at rest, then. The 
 step must be taken at once, or never.' 
 
 The wind roared, and for some minutes no other sound 
 was audible. By this, all the inmates of the house save 
 the two friends were in bed, and most likely sleeping. 
 
 ' You must think it strange,' said Sidwell, ' that I have 
 chosen to tell you all this, just when the confession is 
 most humiliating to me. I want to feel the humiliation, 
 as one only can when another is witness of it. I wish to 
 leave myself no excuse for the future.' 
 
 ' I'm not sure that I quite understand you. You have 
 made up your mind to break with him ? ' 
 
 ' Because I am a coward.' 
 
 ' If my feeling in any matter were as strong as that, I 
 should allow it to guide me.' 
 
 ' Because your will is stronger. You, Sylvia, would 
 never (in my position) have granted him that second 
 interview. You would have known that all was at an 
 end, and have acted upon the knowledge. I knew it, but 
 yielded to temptation — at his expense. I could not let 
 him leave me, though that would have been kindest. I 
 held him by a promise, basely conscious that retreat was 
 always open to me. And now I shall have earned his 
 contempt ' 
 
 Her voice failed. Sylvia, afiected by the outbreak of 
 emotion in one whom she had always known so strong in 
 self-conmiand, spoke with a deeper earnestness. 
 
 ' Dear, do you wish me to help you against what you 
 call your cowardice ? I cannot take it upon me to 
 encourage you until your own will has spoken. The 
 decision must come from yourself. Choose what course 
 you may, I am still your friend. I have no idle prejudices, 
 and no social l)onds. You know how I wish you to come 
 away with me ; now I see only more clearly how needful it 
 is for you to breathe new air. Yes, you have outgrown 
 these conditions, just as your brothers liave, just as Fanny 
 
 I 
 
BORN IN KXILK 493 
 
 will— indeed has. Take to-iiii^dit l(» tliink nf it. If you 
 can decide to travel witli me for a year, Ite frank wiili Mr. 
 Peak, anil ask him to wait so lon^ — till ymi have made 
 up your mind. He cannot reasonal)ly lind fault with you, 
 for he kn( )ws all you have to consider. Wun't this Ixj In^st ? ' 
 
 Sidwell was long silent. 
 
 * I will go with you,' she said at last, in a low vnlcc. ' 1 
 will ask him to grant me perfect lil>erty f«»r a year.' 
 
 When she came down next morning it was Sidwell's 
 intention to seek a private interview with her father, and 
 make known her resolve to go abroad with Sylvia; lnit 
 ]\Ir. AVarricombe anticipated her. 
 
 'Will you come to the lilirary after breakfast, Sidwell .' ' 
 he said, on meeting her in the hall. 
 
 She interpreted his tone, and her heart misgave her. 
 An hour later she obeyed the summons. Martin greeted 
 her with a smile, but hardly tried to appear at ease. 
 
 'I am obliged to speak to you,' were his first words. 
 ' The letter you had yesterday was from Mr. Teak ^ ' 
 
 ' Yes, father.' 
 
 ' Ts he' — Mr. Warricombe hesitated — 'in these i)arts 
 again ? ' 
 
 ' No ; in Lancashire.' 
 
 'Sidwell, I claim no right whatever to control your 
 correspondence; but it was a shock to me to find that you 
 are in communication with him.' 
 
 'He wrote,' Sidwell rei)lied with ditHculty, ' to let me 
 know of a change that has come ui)on his ])rospects. Uy 
 the death of a friend, he is made independent.' 
 
 'For his own sake, I am glad to hear that. Ihit how 
 could it concern yon, dear ? ' 
 
 She struggled to command herself 
 
 'It was at my invitation that he wrote, father.' 
 
 Martin's face ex])ressed grave concern. 
 
 'Sidwell! Is this right ?' 
 
 She was very pale, and ke])t her eyes unniovingly 
 directed just aside from her father. 
 
 'What can it mean?' Mr. Warricoud.e pursued, with 
 sad remonstrance. 'Will you not take me into your 
 confidence, Sidwell ? ' 
 
494 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' T can't speak of it/ she replied, with sudden determina- 
 tion. ' Least of all with you, father.' 
 
 ' Least of all ? — I thought we were very near to each 
 other.' 
 
 ' For that very reason, I can't speak to you of this. I 
 must be left free ! I am going away with Sylvia, for a 
 year, and for so long I must l)e absolutely independent. 
 Father, I entreat you not to ' 
 
 A sob checked her. She turned away, and fought 
 against the hysterical tendency ; but it was too strong to 
 be controlled. Her father approached, beseeching her to 
 be more like herself. He held her in his arms, until tears 
 had their free course, and a measure of calmness returned. 
 
 ' I can't speak to you about it,' she repeated, her face 
 hidden from him. ' I must write you a long letter, when 
 I have gone. You shall know everything in that way.' 
 
 ' But, my dearest, I can't let you leave us under these 
 circumstances. This is a terrible trial to me. You 
 cannot possibly go until we understand each other!' 
 
 ' Then I will write to you here — to-day or to-morrow.' 
 
 With this promise Martin was obliged to be contented, 
 Sidwell left him, and was not seen, except by Sylvia, 
 during the whole day. 
 
 Nor did she appear at breakfast (jn the morning that 
 followed. But when this meal was over, Sylvia received 
 a message, sunnnoning her to the retreat on the top of the 
 house. Here Sidwell sat in the light and warmth, a glass 
 door wide open to the west, the rays of a brilliant sun 
 softened by curtains which fluttered lightly in the breeze 
 from the sea. 
 
 ' Will you read this ? ' she said, holding out a sheet of 
 notepaper on which were a few lines in her own hand- 
 writing. 
 
 It was a letter, Ijeginning — ' I cannot.' 
 
 Sylvia perused it carefully, and stood in thought. 
 
 ' After all ? ' were the words with which she broke 
 silence. They were neither reproachful nor regretful, but 
 expressed grave interest. 
 
 ' In the night,' said Sidwell, ' I wrote to father, but I 
 shall not give him the letter. Before it was finished, 1 
 
iJOKN JX i:\ii.K 495 
 
 knew that I must write thU. There's no more to Ini said, 
 dear. You will go al)roa(l without me— at all events for 
 the i)resent.' 
 
 ' If that is your resolve,' answered tiie other, (quietly, * 1 
 shall keep my word, and only do wliat I eaii t4. aid it.' 
 She sat down shielding her eyes from the sunlight with a 
 Japanese fan. 'After all, Sidwell, there's much to \>e said 
 for a purpose formed on such a morning as this ; <»ne can't 
 help distrusting the midnight.' 
 
 ►Sidwell was lying back in a low chair, her eyes turned 
 to the woody hills on the far side of the Exe. 
 
 i There's one thing I should like to say,' her friend 
 pursued. 'It struck me as curious that you were not at 
 all affected, by what to me would have been the one 
 insuperal)le difficulty.' 
 
 ' 1 know what you mean — the legacy.' 
 
 ' Yes. It still seems to you (jf no significance ? ' 
 
 'Of very little,' Sidwell answered wearily, letting her 
 eyelids droop. 
 
 'Then we won't talk about it. From the higher point 
 of view, I believe you are right ; but — still let it rest.' 
 
 In the afternoon, Sidwell penned the b»]l,.\ving lines 
 which she enclosed in an envelope and })laced on the study 
 table, when her father was absent. 
 
 * The long letter which I ])romised you, dear father, is 
 needless. I have to-day sent Mr. Peak a rejtly which 
 closes our correspondence. I am sure he will not write 
 again ; if he were to do so, I should not answer. 
 
 'I have given up my intention of going away with 
 Sylvia. Later, perhaps, I shall wish to join lier somewlierc 
 on the Continent, but l)y that time you will l»e in no 
 concern about me.' 
 
 To this Mr. Warricombe replied only with the joyous 
 smile which greeted his daughter at their next meeting. 
 Mrs. Warricombe remained in ignorance of the ominous 
 shadow which had passed over her house. At i>rescnt, 
 she was greatly interested in the coming nuirriage of the 
 
4:9 Q BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Eev. Bruno Chilvers, whom she tried not to forgive for 
 having disappointed her secret hope. 
 
 Martin had finally driven into the background those 
 uneasy questionings, which at one time it seemed likely 
 that Godwin Peak would rather accentuate than silence. 
 With Sid well, he could never again touch on such topics. 
 If he were still conscious of a postponed debate, the ad- 
 journment was si7ie die. Martin rested in the faith that, 
 without effort of his own, the mysteries of life and time 
 would ere long be revealed to him. 
 
 < 
 
ni 
 
 Eakavaker spent Christmas witli his relatives at Kings- 
 mill. His fatlier and mother botli lived ; the latter very 
 infirm, unable to leave the house ; the former a man of 
 seventy, twisted with rheumatism, his face rui,'t,^'d as a 
 countenance picked out l)y fancy on the trunk of a h'\<r 
 old oak, his hands scarred and deformed witli laliour. 
 Their old age was restful. The son who had made hinuself 
 a * gentleman,' and who in London sat at the tables of the 
 high-born, the wealthy, the famous, saw to it that tliey 
 lacked no comfort. 
 
 A bright, dry morning invited tlie old man and the 
 young to go forth together. They walked from tlie suburb 
 countrywards, and their conversation was of the time 
 when a struggle was being made to l)ear tlie expense of , 
 those three years at Whitelaw — no bad investment, as it 
 proved. The father spoke with a strong MTcITaiid accent, ! 
 using words of dialect by no means disagreealde to the 
 son's ear — for dialect is a very ditVerent thing fmin the 
 bestial jargon wliich on the lips of the London vulgar 
 passes for English. They were laughing over some half 
 grim reminiscence, when Earwaker became aware of two 
 people who were approaching along the pavement, they 
 also in merry talk. One of them he knew ; it was 
 Christian Moxey. 
 
 Too much interested in his comi>anion to gaze about 
 him, Christian came (|uite near before his eyes fidl on 
 Earwaker. Then he started with a i)leivsant surprise, 
 changed instantly to something like embarrassment when 
 he observed the aged man. Earwaker was willing to 
 
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498 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 smile and go by, had the other consented; but a better 
 impulse prevailed in both. They stopped and struck 
 hands together, 
 
 ' ]\iy father/ said the man of letters, quite at his ease. 
 
 Christian was equal to the occasion ; he shook hands 
 heartily with the battered toiler, then turned to the lady 
 at his side. 
 
 ' Janet, you guess wlio this is. — My cousin, Earwaker, 
 Miss Janet Moxey.' 
 
 Doubtless Janet was aware that her praises had suffered 
 no diminution when sung by Christian to his friends. 
 Her eyes just fell, but in a moment were ready with their 
 frank, intelligent smile. Earwaker experienced a pang — 
 ever so slight — suggesting a revision of his philosophy. 
 
 They talked genially, and parted with good wishes foi' 
 the New Year. 
 
 Two days later, on reaching home, Earwaker found in 
 his letter-box a scrap of paper on which were scribbled a 
 few barely legible lines. ' Here I am ! ' he at length 
 deciphered. ' Got into Tilbury at eleven this morning. 
 AVhere the devil are you ? Write to Charing Cross Hotel.' 
 No signature, but none was needed. Malkin's return 
 from New Zealand had been signalled in advance. 
 
 That evening the erratic gentleman burst in like a 
 whirlwind. He was the picture of health, though as far 
 as ever from enduing the comfortable flesh wdiich accom- 
 panies robustness in men of calmer temperament. After 
 violent greetings, he sat down with abrupt gravity, and 
 began to talk as if in continuance of a dialogue just 
 interrupted. 
 
 'Now, don't let us have any misunderstanding. You 
 will please remember that my journey to England is quite 
 independent of what took place tw^o years and a half 
 ago. It has nothing u'haievcr to do with those circum- 
 stances.' 
 
 Earwaker smiled. 
 
 ' I tell you,' pursued the other, hotly, ' that I am here 
 to see you — and one or two other old friends ; and to look 
 after some business matters. You will oblige me by 
 giving credit to my assertion ! ' 
 
BURN IN KXlLi: .JHO 
 
 ' Don't get angry. I dui conviucud uf ilio iruth of what 
 you say.' 
 
 ' Very well ! It's as likely as not that, on returning,' to 
 Auckland, 1 shall marry Miss ^laccabe — of whom 1 have 
 written to you. 1 needn't repeat the substance of my 
 letters. I am not in love with her, you understand, and 
 I needn't say that my intercourse with that family lias 
 been guided by extreme discretion. lUit she is a very 
 sensible young lady. My only regret is that I didn't know 
 her half-a-dozen years ago, so that I could have directed 
 her education. She might have been even more interesting 
 than she is. But — you are at leisure, I hope, Earwaker ? ' 
 
 * For an hour or two.' 
 
 ' Oh, confound it ! When a friend comes back from the 
 ends of tlie earth ! — Yes, yes ; I understand. You are a 
 busy man; forgive my hastiness. Well now, I was going 
 to say that I shall probably call upon Mrs. Jacox.' He 
 paused, and gave the listener a stern look, forbidding 
 misconstruction. ' Yes, I shall probably go down to 
 Wrotham. I wisli to put my relations with that family 
 on a proper footing. Our correspondence has been very 
 satisfactory, esi)ecially of late. The poor woman laments 
 more sincerely her — well, let us say, her folly of two yeare 
 and a half ago. She has outlived it ; she regards me as a 
 friend. Bella and Lily seem to be getting on very well 
 indeed. That governess of tlieirs — we won't have any 
 more mystery ; it was I wlio undertook the tritling 
 expense. A really excellent teacher, 1 have every rciison 
 to believe. I am told that Bella promises to be a remark- 
 able pianist, and Lily is uncommonly strong in languages. 
 But my interest in tliem is merely that of a friend ; let it 
 be understood.' 
 
 'Precisely. You didn't say whether the girls have been 
 writing to you ? ' 
 
 'No, no, no! Not a line. I have exchanged letters 
 only with their mothei'. Anything else wouUl have been 
 indiscreet. I shall be glad to see them, but my old 
 schemes are things of the past. There is not the faintest 
 probability that T'elln has retained any recollection of 
 me at all.' 
 
500 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' I daresay not,' assented Earwaker. 
 
 ' You think so ? Very well ; I have acted wisely. 
 Bella is still a child, you know — compared with a man of 
 my age. She is seventeen and a few months ; quite a 
 child ! Miss Maccabe is just one-and-twenty ; the proper 
 age. When we are married, I think I shall bring her to 
 Europe for a year or two. Her education needs that ; she 
 will be delighted to see the old countries.' 
 
 ' Have you her portrait ? ' 
 
 ' Oh no ! Things liaven't got so far as that. What a 
 hasty fellow you are, Earwaker! I told you dis- 
 tinctly ' 
 
 He talked till after midnight, and at leave-taking 
 apologised profusely for wasting his friend's valuable time. 
 
 Earwaker awaited with some apprehension the result of 
 Malkin's visit to Wrotham. But the report of what took 
 place on that occasion was surprisingly commonplace. 
 Weeks passed, and Malkin seldom showed himself at 
 Staple Inn ; when he did so, his talk was exclusively of 
 Miss Maccabe ; all he could be got to say of the young 
 ladies at Wrotham was, ' Nice girls ; very nice girls. 
 I hope they'll marry well.' Two months had gone by, 
 and already the journalist had heard by letter of his 
 friend's intention to return to New Zealand, when, on 
 coming liome late one night, he found Malkin sitting on 
 the steps. 
 
 ' Earwaker, T have something very serious to tell you. 
 Give me just a quarter of an hour.' 
 
 What calamity did this tone portend ? The eccentric 
 man seated himself with slow movement. Seen by a good 
 light, his face was not gloomy, but very grave. 
 
 * Listen to me, old friend,' he began, sliding forward to 
 the edge of his chair. ' You remember I told you that 
 my relations with the Maccabe family had been marked 
 throughout with extreme discretion.' 
 
 ' Y^ou impressed that upon me.' 
 
 ' Good ! I have never made love to Miss Maccabe, and 
 T doubt whether she has ever thought of me as a possible 
 husband.' 
 
 'Well?' 
 
BORN IN KXILK 501 
 
 * Don't be impatient. 1 want yon to «,'ra8i) the fact, Ii 
 is important, because — 1 am ^t^oiii^ to marry liolla Jacox.' 
 
 ' You don't say so ? ' 
 
 ' Why not ? ' cried Malkin, suddenly passing to a stiite 
 of excitement. ' Wliat objection can you make ? I tell 
 you that I am absolutely free to choose * 
 
 The journalist calmed him, and thereupon had to hear 
 a glowin«r account of ]kdla's perfections. All the feeling 
 that Malkin had suppressed during these two months 
 rushed forth in a flood of turbid eloquence. 
 
 'And now,' he concluded, * you will come down with 
 me to Wrotham. I don't mean to-night ; let us say the 
 day after to-morrow, Sunday. You remember our last 
 joint visit ! Ha, ha 1 ' 
 
 ' Mrs. Jacox is reconciled ? ' 
 
 'My dear fellow, she rejoices! A wonderful nobility 
 in that poor little woman ! She wept upon my shouhler ! 
 But you must see Bella ! I shan't take her to New 
 Zealand, at all events not just yet. We shall tnivel 
 about Europe, completing her education. I)on't you 
 approve of that ? ' 
 
 On Sunday, the two travelled down into Kent. This 
 time they were received by Lily, now a pretty, pale, half- 
 developed girl of fifteen. In a few minutes her sister 
 entered. Bella was charming ; nervousness made her 
 words few, and it could be seen tliat she was naturally 
 thoughtful, earnest, prone to reverie ; her beauty had still 
 to ripen, and gave much promise for the years lu'tween 
 twenty and thirty. Last of all appeared ^Irs. Jacox, who 
 blushed as she shook hands with Earwaker, and for a 
 time was ill at ease ; but her vocatives were not long 
 restrained, and when all sat down to the tea-table 
 she chattered away with astonishing vivacity. After 
 tea the company was joined by a lady of middle age, 
 who, for about two years, had acted as governess to 
 the girls. Earwaker formed his conclusions as to the 
 ' trifling expense ' which her services represented ; but 
 it was probably a real interest in her pupils which had 
 induced a person of so much refinement to l>ear so long 
 with the proximity of ^Ins. Jacox. 
 
502 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' A natural question occurs to me/ remarked Earwaker, 
 as they were returning. ' Wlio and what was Mr. 
 Jacox ? ' 
 
 ' Ah ! Bella was talking to me about him the other 
 day. He must have been distinctly an interesting man. 
 Bella had a very clear recollection of him, and she 
 showed me two or three photographs. Engaged in 
 some kind of commerce. I didn't seek particulars. But 
 a remarkable man, one can't doubt.' 
 
 He resumed presently. 
 
 'Now don't suppose that this marriage entirely 
 satisfies me. Bella has been fairly well taught, but 
 not, you see, under my supervision. I ought to have 
 been able to watch and direct her month by month. 
 As it is, I shall have to begin by assailing her views 
 on all manner of things. Eeligion, for example. Well, 
 I have no religion, that's plain. I might call myself 
 this or that for the sake of seeming respectable, but 
 it all comes to the same thing. I don't mind Bella 
 going to church if she wishes, but I must teach her that 
 there's no merit whatever in doing so. It isn't an ideal 
 marriage, but perhaps as good as this imperfect world 
 allows. If I have children, I can then put my educational 
 theories to the test.' 
 
 By way of novel experience, Earwaker, not long 
 after this, converted his study into a drawing-room, 
 and invited the Jacox family to taste his tea and 
 cake. "With Malkin's assistance, the risky enterprise 
 was made a great success. When Mrs. Jacox would allow 
 her to be heard, Bella talked intelligently, and show^ed 
 eager interest in the details of literary manufacture. 
 
 ' Mr. Earwaker ! ' cried her mother, wdien it was time 
 to go. * What a delightful afternoon you have given us ! 
 We must think of you from now as one of our very best 
 friends. Mustn't we, Lily ? ' 
 
 But troubles w^ere yet in store. INIalkin was strongly 
 opposed to a religious marriage; he wished the wedding 
 to be at a registrar's office, and had obtained Bella's 
 consent to this, but Mrs. Jacox would not hear of 
 such a tiling. She wept and bewailed herself. 'How 
 
BOKN I\ KXILK 503 
 
 can you think of hauv^ inaiTied liko a costennonger ? 
 
 Mr. :Nralkin, you will break iny heart, iiuieeil ^you 
 will ! ' And she wrote an ejaculatory letter to Kirwaker, 
 imploring his intercession. The journalist took his 
 friend in hand. 
 
 ' My good fellow, don't make a fool of yourself. 
 Women are born for one thing only, the Church of 
 England marriage service. How can you seek to defeat 
 the end of their existence ? Give in to the inevitaljle. 
 Grin and bear it.' 
 
 ' I can't ! I won't ! It shall 1)6 a runaway match ! 
 
 1 had rather suffer the rack than go through an ordinary 
 wedding ! ' 
 
 Dire was the conflict. Down at Wrotham there were 
 floods of tears. In the end, Bella etVected a compromise ; 
 the marriage was to V)e at a church, but in the greatest 
 possible privacy. Xo carriages, no gala dresses, no 
 invitations, no wedding feast; the bare indispensable 
 formalities. And so it came to pass. Earwaker and the 
 girl's governess were the only strangers j)resent, when, on 
 a morning of June, Malkiu and Ik'lla were declared by 
 the Church to be henceforth one and indivisible. The bride 
 wore a graceful travelling costume ; the l^ridegrooni was 
 in corresponding attire. 
 
 'Heaven l)e thanked, that's over!' exclaimed Malkiii, 
 as he issued from the portal. * Bella, we have twenty- 
 three minutes to get to the railway station. I>on't 
 cry ! ' he whispered to her. ' I can't stand that ! ' 
 
 *No, no; don't be afraid,' she whisi)ered back. ' W'y 
 have said good-bye already.' 
 
 'Capital! That was very thoughtful of you.— (Jood- 
 bye, all ! Shall write from Taris, Earwaker. Ninetr-cn 
 minutes ; we shall just manage it I ' 
 
 He sprang into tlie cab, and away it clattered. 
 
 A letter^ from Taris, a letter from Strasburg, from 
 Berlin, jMunich— letters about once a fortniglit. From 
 Bella also came an occasional note, a pretty contrast 
 to the incoherent enthusiasm of lier husl)and's com- 
 positions. i\Ii(lway in September she announcetl their 
 departure from a retreat in Switzerland. 
 
504 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 ' We are in the utmost excitement, for it is now 
 decided that in three days we start for Italy ! The 
 heat has been terrific, and w^e have waited on what 
 seems to me the threshold of Paradise until we could 
 hope to enjoy the delights beyond. We go first to 
 Milan. My husband, of course, knows Italy, but he 
 shares my impatience. I am to entreat you to write 
 to Milan, with as much new^s as possible. Especially 
 have you heard anything more of Mr. Peak ? ' 
 
 November the pair spent in Kome, and thence was 
 despatched the following in Malkin's hand : 
 
 ' This time I am not mistaken ! I have seen Peak. 
 He didn't see me ; perhaps wouldn't have known me. 
 It was in Piale's reading - room. I had sat down to 
 The Times, when a voice behind me sounded in such 
 a curiously reminding way that I couldn't help look- 
 ing round. It was Peak; not a doubt of it. I might 
 have been uncertain about his face, but the voice 
 Ijrought back that conversation at your rooms too 
 unmistakably — long ago as it was. He w^as talking to 
 an American, whom evidently he had met somewhere 
 else, and had now recognised. "I've had a fever," 
 he said, " and can't quite shake off the results. Been in 
 Ischia for the last month. I'm going north to Vienna." 
 Then the two walked away together. He looked ill, 
 sallow, worn out. Let me know if you hear.' 
 
 On that same day, Earwaker received another letter, 
 with tlie Eoman post-mark. It was from Peak. 
 
 ' I have had nothing particular to tell you. A month 
 ago I thought I should never write to you again; I 
 got malarial fever, and lay desperately ill at the 
 Os^jcdale Internazionale at Naples. It came of some 
 monstrous follies there's no need to speak of. A new 
 and valuable experience. I know what it is to look 
 steadily into the eyes of Death. 
 
 'Even now, I am far from w^ell. This keeps me in 
 low spirits. The other day I was half decided to start 
 
BOKX IX KXILK 505 
 
 for London. I am miserably alone, want to see a 
 friend. AVhat a gloriuns ])lace Staple Inn seemed to 
 me as I lay in the hosi>ital ! Troof Ijonv low 1 liad 
 sunk : I thought longingly of Exeter, of a certain house 
 there — never mind ! 
 
 ' I write hastily. An invitation from some musical 
 people has decided me to strike for Vienna. L'p then*, 
 I shall get my health back. The people are of lu) 
 account — boarding-house a('([uaintances— but they may 
 lead to better. I never in my life suffered so from 
 loneliness.' 
 
 This was the eighteenth of November. (.)n tin* twenty- 
 eightli the postman delivered a letter of an ap])eanince 
 which puzzled Earwaker. The stamp was Austrian, the 
 mark ' Wien.' From Peak, therefore. lUit the writing 
 was unknown, plainly that of a foreigner. 
 
 The envelope contained two sheets of paper. The 
 one was covered with a long communication in 
 German; on the other stood a few words of Englisli, 
 written, or rather scrawled, in a hand there was no 
 
 'III agahi, and alone. If 1 die, act for me. Write to 
 Mrs. l*eak, Twybridge.' 
 
 Beneath was added, M. K. Earwaker, Staj.le inn. 
 London.' 
 
 He turned hurriedly to the foreign writing. ^ Ear- 
 waker read a German book as easily as an English, 
 but German manuscript was a terror to him. And 
 the present correspondent wrote so execrably that 
 beyond Gcrhrkr Hcrr, scarcely a word yielded sen.se to 
 his anxious eyes. Ha : One he had made o\\i—g*'st"r}»n. 
 
 Crumpling the papers into his pocket, he hastened 
 out, and knocked at the door of an ac«[uaintancf in 
 another part of the Inn. This was a man who haii 
 probably more skill in (Jermaii cursive. Uetween them, 
 they extracted the essence of the letter. 
 
 He who wrote was the landlord (^f an hotel in 
 
506 BORN IN EXILE 
 
 Vienna. He reported that an English gentleman, 
 named Peak, just arrived from Italy, had taken a 
 bedroom at that house. In the night, the stranger 
 became very ill, sent for a doctor, and wrote the lines 
 enclosed, the purport whereof he at the same time 
 explained to his attendants. On the second day Mr. 
 Peak died. Among his effects were found circular 
 notes, and a sum of loose money. The body was about 
 to be interred. Probably Mr. Earwaker would receive 
 official communications, as the British consul had been 
 informed of the matter. To whom should hills be 
 sent ? 
 
 The man of letters walked slowly back to ]jis own 
 abode. 
 
 ^ • Dead, too, in exile ! ' was his thought. ' Poor old 
 fellow ! ' 
 
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 Vignettes. 25 vols., crown 8vo, cloth. 
 
 5. Price j^3, 33. Half-crown Edition. Printed from the plates of 
 
 the Centenary Edition. Illustrated with Steel Frontispieces and 
 Vignettes. 25 vols., crown 8vo, cloth, gilt top. The same may be 
 had in half-ruby Persian calf, or in half-blue morocco. 
 
 6. Price £,6^^ 4s. Centenary Edition. With additional Notes. 
 
 Illustrated with 158 Steel Plates. In 25 vols,, crown 8vo, cloth. The 
 same may be had in half calf. 
 
 7. Price j^6. Roxburghe Edition. Illustrated with 1600 Wood- 
 
 cuts and 96 Steel Plates. In 48 vols., fcap. 8vo, cloth, paper label ; 
 or in half-French morocco, price ^^8, 8s. 
 
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