rHE RAILWAY MAN AND HIS CHILDREN THE RAILWAY MAN AST) HIS CHILDREN BY MBS. OLIPHANT AETHOR OF "HESTER," "KIRSTEEN." ETC. Eon&on MACMILLAN & CO. AND NEW YOKK 1892 The Riglit of Translation and Reproduction is Reserved Richard Clay and Sons, Limited, london and bungay. First Edition (3 vols, crown 8vo), 1891. Second Edition (I vol. crown Svo), 1S92. ra. THE RAILWAY MAN AND HIS CHILDREN CHAPTER I The news that Miss Ferrars was going to marry Mr. Rowland the engineer, ran through the station like wild-tire, producing a commotion and excitement which had rarely been equalled since the time of the Mutiny. Miss Ferrars ! and Mr. Rowland ! — it was repeated in every tone of wonder and astonishment, with as many audible notes of admiration and interrogation as would till a whole page. " Impossible ! '"' people said, " I don't believe it for a moment." — " You don't mean to say ", But when Mrs. Stanhope, who was Miss Ferrars' friend, with whom she had been living, answered calmly that this was indeed what she meant to say, and that she was not very sure whether she was most sorry or glad — most pleased to think that her friend was thus comfortably established in life, or sorry that she was perhaps stepping a little out of her sphere — there remained nothing for her visitors but a universal gape of amaze- ment, a murmur of deprecation or regret — " Oh, poor Miss Ferrars ! '"' the ladies cried. *' A lady, of such a good family, and marrying a man who was certainly not a gentleman.'"' " But he is a very good fellow," the gentlemen said ; and one or two of the mothers who were conscious in their hearts, though they did not say anything of the fact, that had he proposed for Edie or Ethel, they would have pushed his claims as far as legitimate pressure could go, held their tongues or said little, with a feel- ing that they had themselves escaped the criticism which was now so freely poured forth. They were aware indeed that it would have come upon them more hotly, for it was they who would have been blamed in the case of Ethel or Edie, whereas Miss Ferrars was responsible for herself. But the one of them who would have been most guilty, and who indeed had thought a good deal about Mr. Rowland, and considered the question very closely whether she ought not as a matter of duty to MZ93llV> .t some one interposing his body between her and every assailant, was so new to Evelyn that she could not but smile. She was the one that had taken care of everybody and interposed her delicate body between them and fate. "And now," said he, "it's my turn. I was ready when you began I've more to say, and less ; for nobody has ever done me wrong. I am a widower to start with. I dont know if yon had heard that " " Yes— I heard it—" , . "That's all right then; you did not get to know me under false pretences. But you must know that I wasn t always what 12 THE RAILWAY MAN I am now. I am not very much to brag of, you will say now — but I'm a gentleman to what I was," lie said, with a little harsh ei notional laugh. "Don't please talk in that way, you offend me," she said; "you must always have been a gentleman, Mr. Rowland, in your heart." " Do you think you could say Rowland plain out ? No ? Well, after all it would not be suitable for a lady like you — it's more for men." " I will say ' James,' if you prefer it," she said, with a moment's hesitation. " Would you 1 Yes, of course I prefer it — above all things : but don't worry yourself. Well, I was saying — Yes, I've been a married man. She lived for five years. She was as good a little thing as ever lived, an engineer's daughter, just my own class. We worked at the same foundry, he and I. Nothing could be more suitable. Poor Mary ! it's so long since : I sometimes ask myself w r as there ever a Mary ? did I ever live like that, getting up in the dark winter mornings, coming home to the clean kitchen and the tidy place, bringing her my week's wages. It's like a story you read in a book, not like me. But I w T ent through it all. She was the best little wife in the world, keeping every- thing so nice ; and when she had her first baby, what an excite- ment it was ! " The honest middle-aged engineer fixed his eyes on space and went on with his story, smiling a little to himself, emphasizing it a little by the pressure of Evelyn's hand which he held in his own. Curiously enough, as it seemed to her looking on, not much understanding a man's feelings, wondering at them — he was more or less amused by his recollections. She felt her heart soft for the young wife whose life must have been so short : but he smiled at the far-off, touching, j:>leasing recol- lection. "She was a pretty creature," he said, " nice blue eyes, pretty light hair with a curl in it over her forehead." He gave Evelyn's hand another pressure, and looked at her suddenly with a smile. "Not like you," he said. She had a feeling half of shocked amazement at his lightness : and yet it was so natural. Such a long time ago : a picture in the distance : a story he had read : the little fair curls on her forehead and the clean fireside and the first baby. He was by no means sure that it had all happened to himself, that he was the man coming in with his fustian suit all grimy, and his week's wages to give to his wife. It was impossible not to smile at that strange condition of affairs with a sort of affectionate spectatorship. Mr. Rowland seemed to remember the young fellow too, who had a curly shock of hair as well, and, when he had washed himself, was a well-looking lad. With what a will lie had hewed down the loaf, and eaten the bacon and consumed his tea— very comfortable, more comfortable perhaps than the well-known engineer ever was at a great dinner. He had his books in a corner, and after Mary had cleared the table, got AXD HIS CHILDREN 13 them out and worked at diagrams and calculations all the evening to the great admiration of his wife. He half wondered, as he told the story, what had become of that promising young man. . " Xot like you,*' he said again, "but much more suitable. It I had met you in those days, I should have been afraid to speak to you. I would have admired you all the same, my dear, for I always had an eye for a lady, with every respect be it said. But she, you know, poor thing, was just my own kind. /Well, well ! there's always a doubt in it how much a man is the happier for changing out of his natural born place. But I don't think I should like to go back : and now that you don t seem to mind consorting with one who was only a working man " Evelyn was a little confused what to say. She was very much interested in his picture of his past life, but a little dis- turbed that he too should seem no more than interested, telling it so calmly as if it were the story of another : and she had not the facultv of making pretty speeches or saying that a working man was her ideal and the noblest work of God. So she, on her side, pressed his hand a little to call him out of his dream. " You said— the first baby 1 " " Oh yes, I should have said that at once. There are two ot them, poor little things. Oh, they have been very well looked after. I left them with her sister, a good sort of woman, who treats them exactly like her own— which has been a great thing both for them and for me. I was very heart-broken, I assure you, when she died, poor thing. I had always been a dreadful fellow for my books, and the firm saw I suppose that 1 was worth my salt, and made a proposal to me to come out here. There was no Cooper's Hill College or that sort of thing then. "We came out, and we pushed our way as we could. It comes gradually that sort of thing— and I got accustomed to what you call society by degrees, just as I came to the responsibility ot these railroads. I could not have ventured to take that upon me once, any more than to have dined at mess. I doboth now and never mind. The railroad is an affair of calculation and ot keeping your wits about you. So is the other. You just do as other men do, and all goes well." " But," she said, pressing the question, '' I want you to tell me about the children." -it " To be sure ! there are two of them, a boy and a girl 1 have got their photographs somewhere, the boy is the eld< I'll look them up and show them to you : poor little things Poor Mary was very proud of them. But you must make allow - ance for me. I have been a very busy man, and bevond knowing that they were well, and providing for them hi ..•rally 1 have not paid as much attention as perhaps I ought to have done \ ou see, I was full of distress about her when I left England ; and out here a man is out of the way of thinking of that sort ot thing, and forgets : well no, I don't mean forgets— 14 THE RAILWAY MAN "I am sure you do not," she said, "but are you not afraid they may have been brought up differently from what you would "wish ! " "Oh dear, no," he said cheerfully, "they have been brought up by her sister, poor thing, a very good sort of woman. I am sure their mother herself could not have done better for them than Jean." "But," said Miss Ferrars, "you are yourself so different, as you were saying, from what you were when you came to India first V " Different," he said with a laugh. " I should think so, indeed — oh, very different ! things I never should have dreamt of aspiring to then, seem quite natural to me now. You may say different. When I look at you—" She did not wish him to look at her, at least from this point of view, and it was very difficult to secure his attention to any other subject ; which, perhaps, was natural enough. The only thing she could do without too much pertinacity was to ask, which was an innocent question, how long it was since he had come to India first. "A long time," he said, " a long time. I was only a little over thirty. It was in the year , seventeen years ago. I am near fifty now." " Then your son ?" she said, with a little hesitation. " The little fellow ? Well, and what of him ? " " He must be nearly twenty now." He looked at her with an astonished stare for a moment. " Twenty ! " he said, as if the idea was beyond his comprehen- sion. Then he repeated with a puzzled countenance, " Twenty ! you don't say so ! Now that you put it in that light, I suppose he is." "And your daughter — " " My little girl — " he rubbed his head in a bewildered way. " You are very particular in your questions. Are you afraid of them ? You may be sure I will never let them be a subject of annoyance to you." " Indeed, you mistake me altogether," said Evelyn. " It will be anything but annoyance. It will be one of the pleasures of my life." She was very sincere by nature, and she did pause a moment before she said pleasures. She was not so sure of that. They had suddenly become her duty, her future occupation, but as to pleasures she was far from certain. Children brought up without any knowledge of their father, in the sphere which he had left so long ago, and which he was so conscious was different, very different from all he was familiar with now. It was curious to hear him enlarge upon the difference, and yet take so little thought of it in this most important particular. Her seriousness moved him at last. "I see," he said regretfully, "that you think I have been very indifferent to them, very negligent. But what could a man do ? AXD HIS CHILDREN 15 I could not have them here, to leave them in the charge of servants. I could not drag them about with me from one province to another. What could I have done? And I knew they were happy at home." " You must not think I am blaming you. I see all the chm- culty : but now— now you will have them with you, will you not, and take them back into your life 1 " He looked at her with eyes full of admiration and content. " Is that the first thing you want me to do," he said, "the first thing you have at heart 1 "Yes,' - ' she said simply, "and the most natural thing, lour children. What could they be but my first interest 1 _ They are old enough— that is one good thing— to come to India without pause." . He rose from her side again and returned to his habitual action of walking about the room. "I knew," he said, "from the first moment, that I was a lucky man, indeed, to meet with you. I have always been a lucky man ; but never so much as when you made up your mind to have me, little as I deserve a woman like you. I've that good in me that I know it when I see it : a good woman from the crown of your head to the sole of your foot. There's nothing in the world so good as that, Now, III tell you something, and I hope it will please you, for it's chiefly meant to please you. I am very well oft. I can settle something verv comfortable on you, and I can provide for the young ones. If it pleases you, my dear, we'll turn our backs on this blazing India altogether, and go home/' " Go home ! " she said, with startled eyes. "You'd like it? A country place in England or Scotland-- better still, a house that would be your own— that you could settle in your own way, with all the things that please ladies nowadays. I'll bring you home a cartload of curiosities that will set you up in that way. And then you could have the children, and put them through their facings. Eh, my lady dear % You'd like that 1 Well, I can afford it,' he said with subdued exultation, with his hands in those pockets which metaphorically contained all that heart of man could desire. His eyes glowed with pleasure, with triumph, with a conscious- ness that he was making her happy. Yes ! this was whatevery English lady banished in India must desire. A house in her own country, with every kind of greenness round, and every comfort within— with beautiful Indian stuffs and carpets, and curious things— and the children to pet and guideasshe pleased. He was again the spectator, so to speak, of a picture of lite, which rose before him, more beautiful than that ot old T lmnself, indeed, the least lovely part of it, yet not so much amiss for an old fellow who had made all the money, and who could give her everything that could please her, everything her heart could wish for. His eyes, though they were not in themselves remark- able, grew liquid and lustrous in the pleasure of that thought. 16 THE RAILWAY MAN As for Evelyn, she sat startled, holding her hands clasped in her lap, with many tilings beyond the satisfaction he imagined in her eyes. Home in England meant something to her which could never be again. She said somewhat faintly — "In ►Scot- land, if you would please me most of all." At which words, for How land was a Scotsman, he came to her in a glow of pleasure and took both her hands, and ventured, for the first time, to touch her forehead with his lips. The touch gave this elderly pair a little shock, a surprise, which startled her still more. CHAPTER III Those two people had both a good deal to think about when they parted. As for Evelyn the agitation of telling her own story, and the extraordinary commotion which had been produced in her mind by the suggestion of going home, affected her like an illness. As she escaped from the inroad of the Stanhope children, all much surprised and indignant at being kept out, a thing which had never happened in their experience before, and made her way almost like a fugitive to the seclusion of her own room, she felt all the languor and exhaustion of a patient who had gone through a severe bodily crisis. It was over and she felt no pain — on the contrary, that sensation of relief which is one of the most beatific in nature, had stolen through her relaxed limbs and faintly throbbing head. The ordeal was over, and it had been less terrible than she had feared. The man whom she had consented to marry, and with whose life her own would hence- forward be identified, had not disappointed her, as it was possible he might have done. He was not a perfect man. He had been careless, very careless of those children who ought (she thought) to have been his first care. But otherwise he was true. There was no fictitious show about him, no pretension. He had been, she felt sure, as good a husband to that poor young creature who was dead as any man could be. Poor Mary ! her story was so simple, so pretty and full of tenderness as he told it. Evelyn had liked him better for every word. Had she lived ! — ah, had she lived ! That would have been a different matter altogether. In that case James Rowland would probably have become fore- man at the foundry, and remained a highly respectable working man all his life, bringing up his children in the natural way to follow his own footsteps. Would it have been perhaps better so 1 It would have been more natural, far more free of compli- cations, without any of the difficulties which she could not help foreseeing. These difficulties would be neither few nor small. Two children brought up by their Aunt Jane, in an atmosphere strongly shadowed by the foundry, to be suddenly transplanted AND HIS CHILDREN 17 to a large country house full of luxury and leisure, and the habits of an altogether different life — and not children either but grown up, eighteen and twenty '. She drew a long breath, and put her hands together with an involuntary drawing to- gether of her forces. Here was a thing to look forward to ! But as for Rowland himself he had come through that ordeal, which was in one sense a trial of his real mettle, carried on before the most clear-sighted tribunal, before a judge whose look went through and through him, though not a word was said to put him on his guard, most satisfactorily, a sound man and true, with his heart in the right place and no falseness about him. It was true that in one respect he was very wrong. He had neglected the children : on this subject there could be no doubt. He had no right to forget that they were growing up, that their homely aunt, who was as good to them as if they were her own, was not all they wanted, though it might have been sufficient when they were little children. Miss Ferrars did not excuse him for this, but she forgave him, which was perhaps better. She regarded the prospect thus opening before her with a half-amused sensation of dismay and horror. Oh, it would be no amusing matter ! Her mind took a rapid survey of the situation, and a shiver ran over her. It would be she, probably, who would have to bear the brunt. He perhaps would not remark, as a woman would, though he was their father. "A kick that scarce would move a horse may kill a sound divine."' Their defects would probably not be apparent to him, and he would have the strong claim of paternal love to carry him through everything. On the whole, perhaps, it was better that there should be something to do of this strenuous description. It would keep the too-much well-being in hand. Two people very well off, able to give themselves everything they wanted, contented (more or less) with each other, were apt to fall into a state of existence which was not elevated, especially when they were middle-aged and the glamour of youth and happy love, and all the sentiment of that period did not exist for them. Evelyn looked upon married life with something of the criticism of a woman long unmarried. It was often a seltish life. Selfish- ness never comes to such a climax as when it is practised by two, in each other's interests, and does not seem to be selfishness at all. When the horizon is limited by the wants and wishes of "-'. it is more subtly and exquisitely bound in, than when the centre is me. In such circumstances people are incapable of being ashamed of themselves, while a selfish solitary sometimes is. But the children ! that restored the balance. There would be enough to keep a woman in her sober senses, to neutralize the deadening effects of prosperity, in that. As she laid herself down upon her bamboo couch to rest a little, she laughed to herself at the picture of too great quiet, too perfect external well-being that had been in her mind. There would be a few c 18 THE RAILWAY MAN thorns in the pillow — it would not be all repose and tranquillity. She might make her mind easy about that. The other thing that moved her was the suggestion of going home. Home meant to Evelyn the county in which she had spent her life, the house in which she had been born. Nothing more likely than that the very dwelling was in the market — that he might buy it — that she the last Ferrars might recover possession of the house of her fathers. She had heard some- thing to this effect with that acuteness to catch a half-said inference in respect to anything that is of personal interest which is so remarkable. Had it concerned any property on earth but Langley Ferrars, she would never have caught the words : but because it was about her old home she had heard what two men were saying in the crowd of a station ball — "A property in Huntingdonshire," u dirt cheap," "last man couldn't keep it up." She had divined from this that her home was to be bought, that it could yet be recovered. Oh no, no, she cried to herself, covering her face with her hands, not for anything in the world ! To go back there where she had been a happy girl, where all her dreams of love and happiness had taken place, where the famous oaks and bucks of Selston, which was his home, were visible from the windows ! Oh no, no — oh no, no : that indeed was more than she could bear. In Scotland it would be another matter. It was no doubt the very thing which a kind man without very fine perceptions would do, to buy back her home for her, to take her there in triumph. A thrill of almost physical terror came over her. "Oh no," she said to herself, " oh no, no, no ! " These were the two things that dis- turbed the dreamy calm of that sensation of trial over, the kind of moral convalescence in which she found herself. They came through the misty quiet with flashes of alarm. But, on the whole, Evelyn felt as if she had been ill and was getting better, slowly coming round to a world which was changed indeed, and had lost something, but also had gained something, a world with no vague outlines in it or uncertainty, but clearly defined, spread out like a map before her. Perhaps there was something to regret in the old solitude to which her subdued life could retire out of all its troublesome conditions, and be its own mistress. But solitude, though it may be soothing, is not cheerful : and if she relinquished that, there was surely some- thing in the constant companionship of one who had the highest regard for her, thought the very best of her, looked upon all her ways and words with admiration which should make up. He was a good honest man. He rang as true as a silver bell. There was nothing in him to be ashamed of. He was kind and genuine, with right thoughts and no false shame, but for that unaccountable failure about the children — a man as good as any she had met with in all her life. And to say there was no romance about the business, was to say the most foolish untruthful thing. Why it was all romance, far more than AXD HIS CHILDREN 19 the girl and boy love-story, where they ran away with eacli other in defiance of every consideration ! Here was a sober man, long accustomed to his own way, and to moving lightly unimpeded about the earth, a prosaic man, thinking a good deal of the world, who had suddenly turned aside out of his way, to take note of a neglected woman in a corner, and to raise her up over the heads of all the people who had pitied her. She would have been more than woman had she not felt that. To be able to do favours where she had received them, to give help with a liberal hand where she had been compelled to accept it in little, and perhaps with a grudge. Was it not romance that she who had nothing, should all at once, in the twinkling of an eye, have much and be rich, when she had been poor ? It was in reality as great a romance as if he had been King Cophetua and she the beggar-maid— almost more so, for Evelyn Ferrars was not beautiful as the day. She was to her own consciousness faded and old. This was stating the case much too strongly, but it was how a woman, such as she was, judges herself. If James Rowland was not a romantic lover, who was 1 He was more romantic than any Prince Charming that ever could be. Mr. Rowland himself went away from this interview with feelings which were almost in a greater commotion than those of Evelyn. He was excited by going back upon the old life which had died out of his practical mind so completely, and which was to him as a tale that is told — yet which lay there, all the same, an innocent sweet memory deprived of all pain, a story of a young man and a young woman, both of whom had disappeared under the waves and billows of life — the young man, a well-looking fellow in his way, just as much as the young woman who had died. Mr. Eowland, the great engineer, was not even much like him, that hard-headed young fellow with his books, working out his diagrams on the clean kitchen table, and studying and toiling over his figures. How that fellow pegged away ! James Eowland at forty-eight never opened a book. His calculations for practical work came to him as easy as a. b. c. He read his paper and the magazines when lie saw them, but as for scientific works, never opened one, and did not think much of theoretical problems. And then the little house that was not far from the foundry, and the little clean bright pretty wife always ready and looking out for her husband, and the baby crying, and the young man coming in in his grimy fustian — it was a prett} r picture, a charming story such as brings the tears to the eyes. She died, poor thing — they always have a sad end these little tales of real life. This was how he could not help looking at that story which he had just told, though it was the story of his own life. Xow that he thought of it he could have given a great many more details, although he had also forgotten many. It was a pretty story. There were a great many such stories in the world, and when the wife died and the little house fell to pieces, it was not at all unusual that C 2 20 THE RAILWAY MAN" the poor young fellow went to the bad. It was a good thing he had not clone so in this case. And then there came back to him with a shock that strange discovery about the children. Good heavens ! to think they were grown up, those little things ! The little one was a baby when he had seen her last— his paternal feelings had not been very strongly roused. To put them with their mother's sister and persuade her to take the full charge of them had been evidently far the best thing to do. She was a good sort of woman who had no children of her own, and they were to her as if they had been her own, which was everything that could be desired. To make sure that they wanted for nothing, and that they should have kindness and affection 2 Klv ^ essus l e mdrcM was everything. Even now he did not see what more he could have done. He could not have brought them to India, where for a long time he had no settled place, and where, as everybody knows, children cannot live. He had done on the whole the very best thing for them. But it was startling to think that they were children of eighteen and twenty. _ Their aunt had sent him their photographs on various occasions, and he had replied in a way which did not displease her by adding on twenty pounds to his next cheque, and beseeching her to have them better dressed. Queer little things they had looked, not Kke the children at the station. He had taken it for granted that Jean had not much taste for dress, but that when she grew up, the little one would change that. They got to know by instinct what was becoming as they grew up, those little things : so he was easy in his mind on that subject. Perhaps he had not thought of going home till it came suddenly into his mind, to please Miss Ferrars. Of course that was. what would please her most, to have a home in England. She looked like a home in England. She was not a station lady, full of picnics and dances. A large peaceful country house with tine trees and a beautiful garden, and a green fragrant park in which she could walk with him, that was what looked most like her : and she should have it ! If Mr. Rowland had heard of Langley Ferrars which was in the market, I know very well what he would have done. He would have telegraphed to his man of business in London, regardless of expense, directing him to lose not a moment in securing that place. It would have been the most natural thing in the world for him to do. When a man is rich, a man of James Rowland's mind, giving presents is his easiest way of showing his kindly feelings— and it is not a bad way. And all the explanations m the world would never have got it into his kind head that she would not have liked such a present as that. Her own home restored to her, where she could live at ease, not poorly as her ruined father, poor gentleman, had been compelled to do— but lavishly if she liked, carrying things with a high hand, showing all the neighbours, who perhaps had looked down upon her in her poverty, how well she had done for herself. AND HIS CHILDREN 21 There was nothing which would have pleased James Rowland more than this. But fortunately he never had heard that Langley Ferrars was in the market. He was not even aware indeed at this early period where his future wife had lived, or what the name of her home had been. But she had said Scotland, which would be the best of all : and then suddenly had appeared before his eyes a vision of a house which he had often looked at when he went down the Clyde upon a holiday, or when there was some work at Greenock winch he was entrusted with, as sometimes happened. Who can tell what visions of this kind steal into the brains of the working men in their noisy excursions, or the foundry lads with their sweethearts ? Oftenest it is a cottage, perhaps a little cockney villa on the edge of a loch. " I'd like to tak' ye there, said with glowing eyes and all the ardour of youthful dreams : or, "Eli, man, if there was a bit housie like yon ahint ye, to gang back to when ye were past work," — such speeches are common in the mouths of the excursionists, who live and die, and are contented enough, in the high "lands " and common stairs of the huge dull town. But James Rowland had been more ambitious. What he had remarked most had been a house, with a white colonnade round it, standing up on a green knoll at the end of a peninsula which overlooked the Clyde. There was one special spot from which he remembered to have watched for it, through the opening in the trees, not saying anything to any one, not even to Mary, but watching till it became visible — not a villa, nor a cottage, but a great house, with beautiful woods round it, and soft green lawns sloping downwards towards the noble river-sea, which just there flowed out into the opening of a loch. It suddenly came before him in a moment while he walked through the cantonments towards his own lodging in the arid enceinte of the station. Such a contrast ! He felt as if he were again standing on the deck of the river steamboat, watching for the white walls, the pillars of the colonnade, as they appeared through the trees. He knew exactly at what moment the trees would stand aside, ranged into groups and lines, and the house would come into sight. He thought that if he had been blind, he w r ould yet have known exactly when that opening came. That was the place for him ! His heart gave a leap, almost as it had done when Evelyn Ferrars had given him her hand. It was the next thing almost— the fulfilment of a dream older by far than his knowledge of Evelyn Ferrars. Rosmore ! _ To think that he should come to that ; that it should be possible for him, the lad who had watched it so often coming in sight, to call it his own ! But it was not yet sure by any means whether he would ever call it his own. He was rich enough to buy it, to improve it, to lit it up as it never had been fitted up before, but whether he would get it or not, remained still to be seen. The owner would have to be tempted with a fancy price, more money than it was worth or could bring : for the owner was a great 22 THE RAILWAY MAN personage, a man who was not to be supposed ready to offer one of his places to a chance buyer. Rowland did not mind the fancy price, and he enjoyed the thought of the diplomacy that would be required, and all the advances and retirings. It would be a home fit for her. She would bring the best people round her wherever she was. It should be hers, that home of his dreams, settled on her — her dower house — when he was out of the way : but he did not wish to think of being out of the way. He preferred to think of happiness and dignity and rest in that stately yet modest place, not too grand, quite simple indeed, not like the castellated absurdities of the Glasgow merchants. Among houses, it was like her among women, the most unpretending, the most sincere, every way the best ! And, then, with a sudden prick of his heart, he remembered the children. Oh, the children ! To think that they could be so old as that, and that it had remained for her to find it out ! Twenty ! It was not possible little Archie could be that age. What a little chubby fellow he was, with a face as round as an apple, and little rosy cheeks — so like Mary, her very image. It had always been j^leasanter to think of him like that, than to identify the little scrubby boy in the photographs poor Jean kept sending ; or the lean lad who, he now remembered, had appeared on the last one. He had torn it up, as certainly a libel on his son, not at all the kind of picture which he could have wished to set up on -his chimney-piece, and point out com- placently to visitors as " my boy." He remembered this incident of the photograph perfectly now, and that he refused angrily to accept that as a portrait of Archie. " The photograph you sent me was a mistake, I suppose," he had written to his sister-in- law ; " it is quite impossible it could be my boy ; " and he forgot what explanation she made. He was not, indeed, very attentive to her letters. He glanced at them to see that the children were well, but he had seldom patience to read all the four pages. Jean's style and her handwriting, and the very look of her letters had been vexatious to him for many years past. They suggested having been written on a kitchen table with a pen that was greasy. The very outside of them coming in the bag along with his business letters and his invitations gave Rowland a little shock. He preferred that other people should not see him receive these queer missives, the very envelopes of which looked common, not like the others. Now it occurred to him, with a pang, that it was no mistake, that the unwashed-looking lad, with the vulgar, ill-cut clothes was probably his son after all. The idea was horrible to him, but he was glad for one thing that he had torn the photograph up, and could not be made to produce it to show Evelyn what manner of youth Archie was — if he was like that ! And then the baby, whom he had always thought of as the baby, with all the tenderness that belonged to the name. Tenderness ! but something else as well — indifference, forgetfulness — or he could never have been AND HIS CHILDREN 23 so blind, and suffered them to grow up like that. It was a very tormenting and uncomfortable thought, and 1 lowland was anxious to shake it off. He said to himself that photographs never do justice to the subject ; that perhaps the boy migln a tine boy for all that : and finally contrived to elude the whole disagreeable subject by saying to himself how clever it was of her to have made that out about their age ! What a clever woman she was ; not learned, or that sort of thing, but knowing so much, and so perfect in her manner, and such a true native- born lady. This was her grand quality above all. She said just the right thing, at the right time, never compromising any- one, hurting nobody's feelings. He was himself rather given to treading on people's toes, and making afterwards the astonishing discovery that they felt it, even though he had meant no harm. But she never did anything like that. She would know how to manage that business about the children, and he had a happy persuasion that everything would go right in her hands. CHAPTER IV After all this record of thinkings it will be a relief to do something : which is generally the very best way, if not to settle a problem, at least to distract the attention from it. Mr. Rowland could not now do anything to alter the fact, that he had allowed his children to grow up in a different sphere from that which he intended them to occupy, and that probably the first meeting with them would contain many disenchantments and disappointments. ^o amount of thinking could now alter this fact, and dwelling upon it was not a way of making himself happier or adding in any way to the advantages of the moment. Like most men who have a great deal to do, and who must keep their brains clear for inevitable work, he had the power of putting disagreeable things away and declining to look at them. ''Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof," is always the maxim of philosophy, whether we take it in its highest meaning or in a lower sense ; and it appeared to Mr. Rowland that the best thing he could do was to carry out his marriage with all the speed that was practicable, and to wind up his affairs (already prepared for that end) so that his return home might be accomplished as soon, and with as much pleasure to every- body concerned, as possible. As he was a very direct man, used to acting in the most straightforward way, his first step was to call on Mrs. Stanhope, who stood in the place of Evelyn's relations, in order to settle with her the arrangements he wished to make. " I should like, with Miss Ferrars' consent— which I have not asked till I should have talked over the matter with you — that 24 THE RAILWAY MAN the marriage should take place as soon as possible. I can trust to her excellent sense to perceive that we can have no possible reason to wait." " Oh, Mr. Rowland ! " said Mrs. Stanhope. " Of course it is quite reasonable on your part : but I don't think that Evelyn would like it to be hurried. It is not as if you might be ordered off at a moment's notice, like us poor military people. There is no reason to wait of course ; but you can afford to take your time." She said this more from the natural feminine impulse of holding back in such matters, and not allowing her friend to be held cheap, than from any other reason. " If you mean that you want some time to fill Miss Ferrars' place " " Mr. Rowland ! " said Mrs. Stanhope again, this time with great indignation, "what do you mean by Miss Ferrars' place? I have known Evelyn all my life, and she is my dearest friend. Do you think I could till up her place if I were to try 1— and I certainly don't mean to try." "I meant, of course, in respect to your children," said Mr. Rowland dryly. "You may do without your dearest friend by making an effort ; but you can't do without a governess. Excuse me, I am a plain man, and call a spade, a spade." This brutality of expression reduced Mrs. Stanhope to tears. "I have never treated her like a governess," she said. "If Evelyn's good heart made her help with the children, it was not my asking, it was her own idea. She did it because she liked it. I implored her not to take them out, feeling that you might imagine something of that sort. Men like you, Mr. Rowland, who have made a great deal of money, always, if you will excuse me, impute interested motives. I foresaw as much as that." "Yes," he said cheerfully, "we are given to think of the money value of things. Not of friendship, you know, and all that, but of time and work, and so forth. We needn't enter into that question, for I'm sure we understand each other. And I don't want to put you to inconvenience. How much time will it take you to fill Miss Ferrars' place 1 " Mrs. Stanhope was a clever little woman. _ She thought for a moment, in natural exasperation, of dismissing him summarily, and refusing to have anything to say to a man who had treated her so ; and then she thought she would not do that He was rich — he might be useful some time or other to the children ; it would be foolish to make a breach with a friend who would remember nothing but the best of her (she did Evelyn this justice), and who would be kind to the children when they went home, and invite them for their holidays. So she subdued the natural anger that was almost on her lips, and gave vent to a harsh little laugh instead. " You do always take such a prosaic view, and reduce every- thing to matter of fact," she said. " I can't afford to have any one in Evelyn's pla,ce, if you desire to speak of it so. Evelyn AND HIS CHILDREN has helped me with the children for love— I must do the best I can for them by myself when you take her away." "Ah well," said Mr. Rowland, "then it is a real sacrifice, and you will suffer. I dare say you have a great deal to do. Would not little Molly Price be a help to you \ She is a nice little girl, and she has nobody belonging to her, and I clout know what the poor little thing is to do." Airs. Stanhope made a pause before she replied, looking all the time keenly in the engineer's face as if she would have read his meaning in that way. But he was impassible as a wooden image. " Molly Price is a very nice little girl," she said slowly, trying all the time to make out what he meant, "and she would be of ^use, though far different from Evelyn. But how could I take up a girl like that, without any means of providing tor her I had thought of it," Mrs. Stanhope admitted, 'but to take up her time just when she might be doing better for her- self and to give her false expectations as to what I could do for h er l_ w hen it only can be for a few years, till we send the children home.'' . ,,,«■„! " I see,"' said Air. Rowland : " but the fact is that Molly has a little income of her own, and all she wants is a home. " A little income of her own ! " "Yes" he said, meetins: with the most impenetrable look the lady's eager scrutiny. "Did you not know % enough to pay for her board if necessary. She only wants a home." "I don't know what you can think of me," said Airs. Stanhope with a little haste. "I should never ask her for any board. She would have her share of whatever was going ; and ot course if she liked to help me with the children's lessons— _ "You would allow her to do it, without any compensation I Don't explain, my dear lady— I know the situation perfectly. \nd in return for that little arrangement you will help me m getting Evelyn to consent to a speedy marriage. As soon as we understand each other, everything will be perfectly straight. " You are such a dreadful man of business. I am not accus- tomed to such summary ways," said Airs. Stanhope, with again a half hysterical laugh. She was very much afraid of him alter this experience. Xo doubt everybody in the station had seen through her actions so far as Evelyn Ferrars was concerned attributing design and motive where none had existed, and not making any allowances for the unconscious, or only half- conscious way in which she was led into taking an advantage of her friend. But nobodv had ever ventured to put it into words She was overawed by the clear sight and the courage, and also a little by the practical help of this downright man. " Yes " he said, "I'm nothing if not a man ot business. W ell now, there is another matter. I want it to be a very grand affair." . _ ., i She looked at him with eves more wide open than ever, and with perceptions more fine than his, and a little gasp ot restrained 26 THE RAILWAY MAN horror in the thought— what would Evelyn say 1— Evelyn who hoped it would be got over so quietly, that it might not be necessary to let people know : as if everything was not known from one end to another of the station almost before it was fully shaped in the brain from which it came ! "Yes," he said, "I see you're horrified— and, probably, so would Miss Ferrars be : so I want you to take the responsibility of everything, and put it on the ground of your gratitude to her, which must take some shape. I need not add, Mrs. Stanhope, if you will do this for me, that a cheque is at once at your disposal— to any amount you may think necessary." Anger, humiliation, injured pride, a quick perception of advantage, a rapid gleam of pleasure, the thrill of delightful excitement at the thought of a great deal of money to spend, all darted through Mrs. Stanhope's mind, and glittered in her eager eyes. The disagreeable sentiments finally died away in the others which were more rational. To have the ordering of a great entertainment regardless of expense, and everybody at her feet, the providers of the same, and the guests, and indeed the whole community eager either for commissions or in- vitations ! This was a temptation more than any woman could resist. " Mr. Rowland," she said, " you are a very extraordinary man. But I must warn you that Evelyn will not like it, and she knows that we cannot afford it. Oh, I will try, if you have set your heart upon it, and just say as little to her as possible. I suppose something like what Mrs. Fawcett had when Bertha was married ? And you must give me a list of all the people you want to invite." " The Fawcetts' was a very humdrum affair," said Rowland critically, "quite an ordinary business. We must do a great deal better than that. And as for the invitations, ask every- body—beginning with the Governor. He'll be at Cumsalla about that time, and it will be a line opportunity for him to visit the station in a semi-official way ; and the General com- manding, and the head of the district, and " " The Governor and the General ! " Mrs. Stanhope gasped. She lay back in her chair in a half -fainting condition, yet with a keen conviction running through her mind like the flash of a gold thread, that to receive all these people in his own house, at a magnificent entertainment, would be such a chance as never could have been anticipated for Fred ! " Carte blanche" said Mr. Rowland, pressing in his enthusiasm her limp and hesitating hand. Evelyn Ferrars came in a moment after with the children. She gave a smile to her future husband, and a glance of surprise at her friend, who had not yet recovered that shock of emotion. " What are you plotting 1 " she said : but did not mean it, though it was so near their real occupation. As for Mr. Row- land he was equal to the occasion, his faculties being so stirred AND HIS CHILDREN 27 up and quickened by the emergency that he was as clear about it as if it had been a railway or a canal. " We are plotting against you,"' he said, "'and I think I have got Mrs. Stanhope to enter into my cause" She looked from one to another with a little rising colour, divining what the subject would be. For once in her life Mrs. Stanhope was the dull one, not understanding her ally's change of front. She thought he was about to betray the conspiracy into which he had just seduced her, and that Evelyn's dislike and opposition would put an end to the delightful commotions of the marriage feast. " Oh," she cried, " don't tell her. She will never consent.'"' "She is so very reasonable that I hope she will consent," said Rowland. "My dear, it is just this, that there is no reason in the world why we should wait. I would like to be married as soon as the arrangements can be made. I think you won't refuse to see all the arguments in favour of this : and that there are very few against it.'"' Evelyn grew red and then grew pale, and finally with a little catch in her breath asked how long that would be ? "About three weeks," said Rowland, holding her hand and patting it as if to soothe a child. Her limbs trembled a little under her, and she sat down in the nearest chair. " It is a little sudden," she said. " My dear let's get it over," said Rowland, his excitement showing through his usual sobriety like a face through a veil. "It's a great change, but it is the first that is the worst. You and I, as soon as we're together, will settle down into each other's ways, and be very happy. I know / shall, and some of it 11 rub off upon you. There's nothing in the world you can wish for that I shan't be ready to do. It is only the first step that will be a trouble. Let's get it over," he cried, with a quiver in his voice. This is not the usual way in which a man speaks to his bride of their marriage, but it is a very true way if people would be more sincere. And especially in the circumstances in which he and she stood, not young either of them, and taking fully into consideration all the mingled motives that go to make a satis- factory union of two lives. Mrs. Stanhope, to whom the con- ventional was everything, listened in horror, wondering how Evelyn would take this ; but Evelyn took it very well, agreeing in it, and seeing the good sense of what her betrothed said. It was the first step that would be the worst. After that habit would come in and make them natural to each other. And to get over that first step, and to settle down quietly to the mutual companionship in which she too felt there was every prospect of satisfaction and content, would no doubt be a good thing. It was somewhat overwhelming to look forward to such a tremendous change so soon. But she agreed silently that there was no reason for delay, and that all he said was perfectly 28 THE RAILWAY MAN reasonable. "I cannot say anything against it," she said quietly. "I have no doubt you are right. It seems a little sudden. I could have wished a little more time." "To think of it?" he said quietly. "Yes, my dear, if you had not made up your mind, that would be quite reasonable. But you have quite made up your mind." " Yes," she said, " I have made up my mind." "Then thinking of it is no longer of any use — because it is in reality done, and there's no way out of it. So the best thing is to carry the plan into execution, and think no more. Come," said Rowland, with an air of great complaisance, " 111 yield a little. I'll say a month — that will leave quite time enough for everything," he said, with a glance at Mrs. Stanhope, to which she replied with a slight, scarcely perceptible nod of the head. And then it was all arranged, without difficulty and without any knowledge on Miss Ferrars' part of the negotiations that had gone on before. Evelyn was much overwhelmed by the present her friend insisted upon making her, of her wedding- dress, which turned out to be of the richest satin, and trimmed with the most beautiful lace, to the consternation of the bride, who remonstrated strongly. " How could you think of spending so much money ? it is robbing the children — and it is far too grand for me." "My dear," said Mrs. Stanhope, the little hypocrite, "if you think how much you have done for the children, and saved me loads of money ! I can afford that and more too out of what I have saved through you." Evelyn was confounded by this generosity, both of gift and speech ; but as the dress did not arrive until the day before the ceremony, there was not much time to think about it, and her mind was naturally full of many subjects more important. The same cause kept her even from remarking the extraordinary fuss in the station on the wedding-day— the flags flying, the carpets that were put down for the bride's procession, the decorations of the chapel. She scarcely saw them indeed, her mind being otherwise taken up. And when the Governor was brought up to her to be introduced, and the General followed him, both with an air of being royal princes at the least, amid the obsequious court of officers, Evelyn was easily persuaded that it was because they had chosen this day to make their inspection, and that their presence at the station was quite natural. " How fortunate for you that they are both here together," she said to Mrs. Stanhope. " Now surely Fred will get what you want so much for him." "Oh, he will get it, he will get it!" Mrs. Stanhope cried, hysterically. " Thanks to you, you darling, thanks to you ! " "'What have I to do with it ?" said Evelyn. She was now Mrs. Rowland, and her mind was full of many tilings. It was a nuisance to have so many people about, all drawn, she supposed, in the train of the great men. As for the great men themselves, they were, of course, like any other gentlemen to Evelyn : they did not excite her by their greatness. She was a little surprised AXD HIS CHILDREN 29 by all the splendour, the sumptuous table, the crowd of people ; but took it for granted that one half at least was accidental, and that though it was quite unappropriate to an occasion so serious as a middle-aged marriage, it might be good for Fred Stanhope, who had so long been after an appointment, which always eluded his grasp. Thus the bride accepted, without knowing it, the extra- ordinary honours that were done her, while all the station stood amazed by the number and greatness of the guests. The Lieutenant-Governor came without a murmur to compliment the great engineer. He would not have done it for Fred Stanhope, who was Brevet-Major, and thought himself a much greater man than Rowland. Neither would the General com- manding have come to Fred unless he had known him in private, or had some special interest in him. But they all collected to the wedding of the man who had made the railroads and ditches — a proof, the military people thought, how abominably they were neglected by Government, though it could not sustain itself without them, not for a day ! They were, however, all of them deeply impressed by the greatness that had come upon Miss Ferrars, whom they had pitied and patronized, or even snubbed during her humiliation — by the splendour of her dress, and of the breakfast, and of the bridegroom's presents to her — and still more, by the manner in which she received the con- gratulations of the big-wigs without the least excitement, as if she had been all her life in the habit of entertaining the great ones of the earth. " Give you my word,'' said the little subaltern Bremner, who was an ugly little fellow, and had not much to recommend him, "she was not a bit more civil to the best of them than she was to me." " Looked as if she had been used to nothing but swells all her life,'' said another. "And as if she thought one just as good as another." On the whole, it was this that struck the company, especially the gentlemen, most — that she was just as civil to a little lieutenant as she was to the General commanding. The ladies had other things to distract their minds, the jewels, the bridal dress, the table. Such a commotion had never been made in the station before by any marriage : the Colonel's daughter's wedding feast was nothing in comparison : and that this should all be for the poor lady who had been nothing more than nursery governess to the Stanhopes, was quite bewildering. When the pair went away, the whole station turned out. It was, of course, quite late when they started, as they were only going as far as Cumsalla. The station was lit with coloured lamps, which blazed softly in the evening dusk, turning that oasis in the sand into a magical place. And the big moon got up with a bound into the sky, as she sometimes does when at the full, thrusting her large round lustrous face into the centre of all, as if to see what it meant. " By Jove, she's come out to look at you too," said the bride- groom to his bride. He was considerably excited, as was but 30 THE RAILWAY MAN natural— enchanted with the success of all his plans, and the eclat of the whole performance. It was altogether a trying moment— for perhaps something of a vulgar fibre in the man was betrayed by his eagerness that it should be " a grand affair, 5 and his delight in its success. But fortunately Evelyn was not in possession of her usual clear-sightedness, and she was still of opinion that the presence of the great people had been accidental, and the extraordinary sumptuousness of all the preparations a piece of loving extra- vagance on the part of the Stanhopes, which should not, if she could help it, go without its reward. " I hope,"' she said, "the moon is loyal, and means it as a demonstration for the Lieutenant-Governor, as all these rejoicings have been already to-day." " Not a bit of it," said Eowland ; u all the demonstrations have been for you. The Governor and the General were only my— I mean, Fred Stanhope's guests." Evelyn thought her husband must have had too much cham- pagne : but she would not let this vex her or disturb her, seeing that it was so great an occasion. She calmed him with her soothing voice, and did not show the faint movement of fright and alarm that was in her breast. " I am very glad they were there, anyhow," she said, " for Fred's sake. I hope he will get that appointment now. It was a fortunate chance for him. ' " It was no chance at all," said Eowland, half piqued at her obtuseness. " I dare say it will be good for him as well : but it was all to do honour to you, my dear. I was determined that you should have all the honour and glory a bride could have. These swells came for you, and all that is for you, the illumina- tions, and everything. But when I saw you among them, Evelyn, I just said— how superior you were to everything of the sort, Talk about women's heads being turned ! You went from one place to another, and looked down upon it all like a queen." " Hush ! hush ! " she said ; " indeed I did not look down upon anything. I did not think of it. I am very different from a, queen. I am setting out upon a great voyage, and my mind is too full of that to think of swells, as you call them. You are the swell that occupies me most." "You are my queen," said Rowland in his pride and delight, " and I am not good enough to tie your shoe : for I've been thinking of a great flash to dazzle them all, while you were thinking of— look back, there's the bouquet going of ! nobody in this presidency has seen such fireworks as they've got there to-night. I wanted every black baby of them all to remember the day of Miss Ferrars' wedding. And now when I look at you, I'm ashamed of it all, to think such folly as that should be any honour to you ! " These devoted sentiments, however, were not the prevalent feeling at the station, where there was a ball after the fireworks AND HIS CHILDREN 31 with everything of the most costly and splendid description, and where the health of the bride and bridegroom was drank with acclamations in far too excellent champagne. The ladies who had daughters looked out contemptuously over the heads of the subalterns to see if there was not another railway man in the background who would give a similar triumph to one of their girls. But young railway men are not any more satis- factory than young soldiers, and there was not another James Rowland far or near. When it was all over, Helen Stanhope rushed into her husband's arms with tears of joy, "You have got it, Fred," she said, "you have got it ! and it's all on account of that kind thought you had (for it was your thought) when you went and fetched Evelyn Ferrars home out of her misery. It's brought a blessing as I knew it would.'"' Fred pulled his long moustache, and was not very ready in his reply. " I wish we hadn't got so tired of it, Nelly. It might be a kind thought at the first, but neither you nor I kept up to the start. God Almighty didn't owe us much for that." " Oh, don't be profane," cried his wife, "taking God's name in vain ! She didn't think so. What would she have done without us ? And it's all thanks to her that we have got it at last," CHAPTER V Rowland was able to carry out the programme which lie had made for himself. He was a man to whom pieces of what is called luck are apt to come. Luck goes rather against the more serious claims of deserving, and is a thing which many of us would like to ignore — but it is hard to believe there is not something in it. One man who is just as worthy as another gets little that he wants, while his neighbour gets much ; one who is just as unworthy as another gets all the blows while his fellow sinner escapes. Mr. Rowland had always been a lucky man. The things he desired seemed to drop into his mouth. That white house on the peninsula looking down upon Clyde, with its noble groups of trees, its fine woods behind, its lochs and inlets, and the great noble estuary at its foot, proved as soon as he set his heart upon it procurable. Had you or I wanted it, it would have been hopeless. Even he, though his luck was so great and lie possessed that golden key which opens so many doors, was not able to move the noble proprietor to a sale : but he was permitted to rent it upon a long lease which was almost as satisfactory. "I should have preferred to buy it outright and settle it upon you, Evelyn," he said to his wife as they sat at breakfast in their London hotel, and he read aloud the lawyer's letter about this coveted dwelling. "But when one comes to think of it, you might not care for a big house in 32 THE RAILWAY MAN Scotland after I am out of the way. It was to please me, I know, that you fixed on Scotland first. And then you might find it a trouble to keep up if you were alone." " There is no occasion for thinking what I should do when I am alone, thank heaven," said Mrs. Rowland ; " there is little likelihood of that." kv V\ e must be prepared for everything," he said, with a beam- ing face, which showed how little the possibility weighed upon him. " However, perhaps it is just as well. Now, my dear, I will tell you what I am going to do. I am going up to the North to see after it all. You shall stay comfortably here and see the pictures and that sort of thing, and I shall run up and prepare everything for you, settle about Eosmore on the longest term I can get, look after the furniture a bit : well — I should like, you know, to look after the children a bit, too." " To be sure you would," she said cheerfully. " You know I wanted you to have them here to meet us ; but I understand very well, my dear James, that you would rather have your first day with them alone." " It's not that," he said, rising and marching about the room — "it's not that. I'd rather see you with them, and taking to them than anything else in the world — but — perhaps I'd better go first and see how the land lies. You don't mind my leaving you — for a few days ? " He said this with a sort of timid air which sat strangely on the otherwise self-confident and con- sciously fortunate man, so evidently inviting an expression of regret, that Evelyn could scarcely restrain a smile. "I do mind very much," she said : and he was so genial, so kind, even so amusing in his simplicity, that it was strictly true. " I don't like at all to be left alone in London ; but stiil I understand it perfectly, and approve — though I'd rather you stayed with me." " Oh, if you approve," he said with a sort of shamefaced laugh of satisfaction, "that is all I want; and you may be sure I'll not stay a moment longer than I can help. I never saw such a woman for understanding as you are. You know what a man means before he says a word." It was on his wife's lips to tell him that he said innumerable words of which he was unaware, about quite other matters, on every kind of subject, but all showing the way his thoughts were tending, but she forbore ; for sweet as it is to be under- stood, it is not so sweet to be shown how you betray yourself and lay bare your secrets unwittingly to the eye of day. It was not difficult to divine that his mind was now very much taken up by the thought of his children, not merely in the way of love and desire to see them, but from an overmastering anxiety as to how they would bear his wife's inspection, and what their future place in his life would be. In his many thoughts on the subject, he had decided that he must see them first and judge of that. During the three months in which he AND HIS CHILDREN 33 had been seeing with Evelyn's eyes and perceiving with her mind, various things had changed for James Rowland. He was not quite aware of the agency, nor even that a revolution had taken place in him, but he was conscious of being more and more anxious about the effect which everything would produce on her, and specially, above all other things, of the effect that his children would produce. And he had said and done many things to make this very visible. For his own part he thought he had concealed it completely, and even that she gave him credit for too much feeling in imputing to him that eagerness to see them, to take his boy and his girl into his arms, which she had just said was so natural. He preferred to leave that impression on her mind. The feelings she imputed to him would have been her feelings, she felt sure, had she been coming home to her children after so long a separation. He could not say even to himself that this was his feeling. He had done without them for a very long time, perhaps he could have gone on doing without them. But what would Evelyn say to them 1 ? Would they be fit for her notice ? Would they shock and startle her ? What manner of beings would they seem in her eyes 1 It was on the cards that did she show any distaste for them, their father, who was their father after all, might resent it secretly or openly — for the claims of blood are strong ; but at the present moment this was not at all in his thoughts. His thoughts were full of anxiety to know how they would please her, whether they were worthy to be brought at all into her presence. Mrs. Rowland would fain have assured him that his anxiety was unnecessary, and that, whatever his children were, they would be her first duty ; but she was too understanding to do even this. All that she could do to help him in the emergency, was to accept his pretext and give him her approval, and tell him it was the most natural thing in the world. Useless to say that she was anxious too, wondering how the experiment would turn out. Whether the lowly upbringing would be so great a dis- advantage as she feared, or whether the more primitive laws of that simpler social order would develop the better faculties, and suppress the conventional, as many a theorist believes. She was no theorist, but only a sensible woman w r ho had seen a good deal' of the world, and I fear that she did not believe in that suppression of the conventional. But whatever it was, she was anxious, as was natural, on a matter which would have so large an influence upon her entire life. "I'll tell you what you can do to amuse yourself,'' he said, "when you're tired of the pictures and all that. Go to Wardour Street, Evelyn, and if you see anything that strikes your fancy, buy it. Buying is a great amusement. And we shall want all sorts of handsome things. Yes, I know. I'd put it into the best upholsterer's hands, and tell him to spare no expense. Bui that's not your way : I've learnt as much as that. And then there are carpets and curtains and things. Buy away— buy D 34 THE RAILWAY MAN freely. You know what is the right tiling. What's the name of the people in Regent Street, eh? Well go there— buy him up if you please— -the whole shop. / don't care for those flimsy green' and yellow things. I like solid, velvet and damask, and so forth. But what does that matter if you do 1 I like what you like ? " " Do you want me to ruin you, James 1 " she said. He laughed with that deep laugh of enjoyment which moneyed men bring out of the profoundness of their pockets and persons. "If it pleases you," he said. He was not afraid. That she should ruin him, was a very good joke. He had no desire for an economical wife. He wanted her to be extravagant, to get every pretty thing that struck her fancy. He had a vision of himself standing in the drawing-room which looked out upon the Clyde, and saying to everybody, " It's my wife's taste. I don't pretend to know about this sort of thing, except that it costs a lot of money. It's she that's responsible." And this anticipation pleased him to the bottom of his heart. He went away next day, taking the train to Glasgow, not without sundry expressions of contempt for the arrangement of the Scotch trains, and the construction of the railways. " A\ e do things better in India," he said. He was very compunctious about going away, very sorry to leave her, very anxious that she should have everything that was possible to amuse her while he was gone ; and exceedingly proud, yet distressed, that she should insist upon coming to the railway with him. It was such an early start for her, it would tire her, it was too much trouble, he said, with a beaming countenance. But when the train started, and Mr. Rowland was alone, he became suddenly very grave. He had not consented to her wish to have the children to meet them in London, because of the fancies that had seized him. If he could only have gone on paying largely for the children, knowing nothing but that they were happy and well, he would on the whole have been very thankful to make such an arrangement. But not only would it have been impossible to do so, but his wife would not have permitted it. She it was who talked of duty in respect to them, who planned everything that would have to be done. For his part, he would have been quite content to let well alone. But how often it happens that you cannot do that, but are compelled to break up rational arrangements and make fictitious ones, visibly altering everything for the worse. Rowland in his prophetic soul felt that this was what he was about to do. He was going to take- Ins children out of the sphere they belonged to, to transport them to another with which they had nothing to do. And his mind altogether was full of compunctions. He had not after all shown their photographs or their letters to his wife. It would be less dreadful, he thought, that they should burst upon her in their native vulgarity and commonness all at once, than that she should be able to divine what they were like, and look AND HIS CHILDREN 35 forward to the meeting with horror. Naturally he exaggerated the horror Evelyn would be likely to feel, as he depreciated her acuteness and power of divining the motive which made him so certain that he could not find the photographs. Evelyn knew the situation, indeed, almost as well, perhaps in some ways better, than he did. She divined what was to be expected from the two young people brought up upon a very liberal allowance by the aunt whose husband had been a working- engineer in the foundry. She was sincerely sorry for them, as well as a little for herself, wondering how they would meet her, feeling it almost impossible that there should not be a little grudge and jealousy, a determination to make a stand against her, and to feel themselves injured and supplanted. She followed her husband in her mind with a little anxiety, hoping that lie would not show himself too enlightened as to their deliciencies. And then there would be their aunt to reckon with, the mother's sister, the second mother. How would she bear it if the young people whom she thought perfect failed to please their father ] It would be thought to be the stepmother's fault even before the stepmother appeared on the scene. Evelyn returned to her hotel after seeing her husband off, with a countenance not less grave than his, and a strong con- sciousness that the new troubles were about to begin. She had shaken off her old ones. As for that familiar distress of not having any money, it had disappeared like last year's snow. It is a curious sensation to be exhorted to be extravagant when you have never had money to spend during your whole life, and there are few ladies who would not like to try that kind of revolution. Evelyn felt it exhilarating enough for a short time, though she had no extravagance in her; but she soon grew tired of the attempt to ruin her husband which gave him so much pleasure. She bought a few things both in Wardour Street and in the shop in Regent Street to which he had alluded, finding with a little trouble things that were not flimsy and diaphanous. But very soon she got tired ; and by the third day it was strongly impressed upon her that to be alone, even with un- limited capacity of buying, is a melancholy thing. She had said to herself when she came to London that to recall herself to the recollection of old friends was the last thing she would desire to do. There was too much sorrow in her past : she did not want to remind herself of the time when she, too, used to come to London for the season, to do as everybody did, and go where everybody went, That was so long ago, and everything was so changed. But it is strange how the rirmest resolution can be overset in a moment by the most accidental touch. She was sitting by herself one bright morning, languid, in the bare conventional 'sitting-room of the hotel, which was by no means less lonely because it was the best sitting-room, ami cosl a great deal of money in the height of the season. She had received a letter from her husband, in which she had been trying D 2 36 THE RAILWAY MAN hard to road between the lines what were his ideas about his children, whether they had pleased him. The letter was a little stiff, she thought, guarded in its expression. "Archie is quite a man in appearance, and Marion a nice well-grown girl. They have had every justice done them so far as their health is con- cerned," Mr. Kowland wrote ; but lie did not enter into any further details. Was he pleased ? had the spell of nature asserted itself 1 did lie fear her criticism, and had lie determined that no one should object to them 1 Evelyn was much concerned by these questions, which she could not answer to her own satisfaction. The thing she most feared was the very natural possibility that he might resent her interference, and allow no opinion to be expressed on the subject, whatever might be his own. And it vexed her that he said nothing more, closed his heart, or at least his lips, and gave no clue to what he was thinking. It was the first time this had occurred — to be sure, it was the first time he had communicated his sentiments to her by way of writing, and probably he had no such freedom in expressing himself that way as by word of mouth. Whatever the fact might be, Evelyn felt herself cast down, she scarcely knew why. She vaguely divined that there was no satisfaction in his own mind, and to be thrust away from his confidence in this respect would be Aery painful to her, as well as making an end of all attempts on her part for the good of the children. Evelyn was in this melancholy mood, sitting alone, and with everything suspended in her life, feeling a little as if she had been brought away from India where she had at least a definite known plan and work, to be stranded on a shore which had grown cold, unknown, and inhospitable to her, when in the newspaper which she had languidly taken up she saw suddenly the name of an old friend. She had said to herself that she would not seek to renew acquaintance with her old friends : but it is one thing to say that when one feels no need of them, and another to reflect when you are lonely and in low spirits, that there is some One in the next street, round the next corner, who would probably receive you with a smile of delight, fall upon your neck, and throw open to you the doors of her heart. Evelyn represented to herself when she saw this name that here was one of whom she would have made an exception in any circumstances, one avIio would certainly have sought her out in her trouble, and would rejoice in her well-being. She half resisted, half played with the idea for half the morning— at one time putting it away, at another almost resolved to act upon it. And at length the latter inclination carried the day. Part of the reluctance arose from the fact that she did not know how to introduce herself. Would any one in London have heard of the wedding far away at an obscure station in India? Would any one imagine that it was she who was the bride 1 She took out her new card with Mrs. James Rowland upon it, in a curious shamefaced ness, and wrote Evelyn Ferrars upon it with an AND HIS CHILDREN 37 unsteady hand. But she had very little time to entertain these feelings of uncertainty. It was so like Madeline to come flying with her arms wide open all the length of the deep London drawing-room against the light, with that shriek of welcome. Of course she would shriek. Evelyn knew her friend's ways better, as it proved, than she knew that friend herself. "' So it is you ! At last ! I meant to go out this very day on a round of all the hotels to lind you ; but I couldn't believe you wouldn't come, for you knew where to find me." "At last!" said Evelyn astonished. "How did you know I was in London at all ? " " Oh, my dear Eve, don't be affected," cried this lively lady. "as if a great person like Mr. Rowland could travel and bring home his bride without all the papers getting hold of it ! Why, we heard of your wedding — dress and the diamonds he gave you, almost as soon as you did. They were in one of the ladies' papers of course. And so, Evelyn, after waiting so long, you have gone and made a great match after all.''' " Have I made a great match % indeed I did not know it. I have married a very good man, which is of more consequence, ' said Evelyn, with almost an air of offence. But that, of course, was absurd, for Lady Leighton had not the most distant idea of offending. " Oh, that goes without saying," she said lightly ; " every new man is more perfect than any other that went before him. But you need not undervalue your good things all the same. I suppose there were advantages in respect to the diamonds % He would be able to pick them up in a way that never happens to us poor people at home." " I dare say he will be glad to tell you if you want to know ; but, Madeline, that is not what interests me most. There are so many things I should like to hear of." " Yes ; to be sure," said Lady Leighton, growing grave ; "but, my dear, if I were you I wouldn't inquire — not now, when everything is so changed." " What is so changed 1 " said Evelyn, more and more surprised. Her friend made a series of signals with her eyes, indicating some mystery, and standing, as Evelyn now perceived, in such a position as to screen from observation an inner room from which she had come. The pantomime ended by a tragic whisper : " He is there — don't see him. It would be too great a shock. And why should you, when you are so well off?" " Who is there ? And why should I not see, whoever it is i 1 can't tell what you mean," Mrs. Rowland said. "Oh, if that is how you feel ! " said her friend ; "but I would not in your place." At this moment Evelyn heard a sound as of shuffling feet, and looking beyond her friend's figure, saw an old man, as she sup posed, with an ashy countenance 1 and bowed shoulders, coming towards them. At the first glance he seemed very old, very 38 THE RAILWAY MAN feeble ; some one whom she had never seen before — and it took him some time to make his way along the room. Even when he came near she did not recognize him at first. He put out feebly a lifeless hand, and said, in a thick mumbling tone : "Is this Evelyn Ferrars? but she has grown younger instead of older. Not like me." Evelyn rose in instinctive respect to the old man whom she did not know. She thought it must be some old relative of Madeline, some one who had known her as a child. She answered some indifferent words of greeting, and dropped hastily as soon as she had touched it, the cold and flabby hand. It could be no one whom she had known, though he knew her. " Oh, Mr. Saumarez," said Lady Leighton, " I am so sorry this has happened. I do hope it will not hurt you. Had I not better ring for your man 1 You know that you must not do too much or excite yourself. Let me lead you back to your chair." A faint smile came over the ashen face. " She doesn't know me," he said. Oh, heaven and earth, was this he ? A pang of wonder, of keen pain and horror, shot through Evelyn like a sudden blow, shaking her from head to foot. It was not possible ! the room swam round her, and all that was in it. He I The name had been like a jDistol shot in her head, and then something, a look, as if over some chilly snowy landscape, a gleam of cold light had startled her even before the name. " Is it is it 1 I did not know you had been ill," she said, almost under her breath. "l T es, it is my own self, and I have been ill, extremely ill; but I am getting better. I will sit down if you will permit me. I am not in the least excited ; but very glad to see Mrs. Rowland and offer her my congratulations. I am not in such good case myself, — nobody is likely to congratulate me." "I do not see that," said Lady Leighton. "You are so very much better than you have been." " That's very true. I may be congratulated so far. I should offer to call at your hotel on Mr. Rowland, but I fear my strength is not to be trusted. I am more glad than I can tell you to have seen you looking so well and happy, after so many years. Lady Leighton, I think I will now accept your kind offer to ring for my man." He put out the gray tremulous hand again, and enfolded that of Evelyn in it. " I am very glad, very glad," he said with emphasis, in a low but firm tone, Lady Leighton having turned away to ring the bell, " to have seen you again, and so well, and so young, and I don't doubt so happy. My wife is dead, and I am a wreck as you see " " I am very sorry, very sorry." " I knew you would be : while I am glad to have seen you so well. And I have two children whom I shall have to leave to the tender mercies of the world. Ah, we have trials in our youth that we are tragical about ; but believe me these are the real tragedies of life," he said. AND HIS CHILDREN 39 And then there came something almost more painful still. His servant came into the room and put on his coat and buttoned him into it as if he had been a child, then raised him smartly from his chair, drew an arm within his own, and led him away. The two ladies heard them go slowly shuffling down-stairs, the master leaning upon the servant. Evelyn had grown as pale as marble. She remembered now to have seen an invalid chair standing at the door. And this was he who had tilled her young life with joy, and afterwards with humiliation and pain. "Oh," she cried, "and that is lie, that is he ! " " I wish I could have spared you the sight,'"' said Lady Leigliton, "but when he saw your card — he looked at it, when I dropped it out of my hand : people ill like that are so inquisitive — I knew how it would be. Well, you must have seen him sooner or later. It is as well to get it over. He is a wreck, as he says. And oh the contrast, Evelyn ! He could not but see it — you so young-looking, so happy and well-off. What a lesson it is."' "I don't want to be a lesson,*' said Evelyn, with a faint smile " Don't make any moral out of me. He was a man always so careful of himself. What has he done to be so broken down ? " " Can you ask me what he has done. Evelyn ? He has thought of nothing but himself and his own advantage all his life. Don't you think we all remember "' " I hope that you will forget — with all expedition," cried Evelyn quickly. " I have no stone to cast at him. I am very very sorry." The moisture came into her kind eyes. Her pity was so keen that it felt like a wound in her own heart. " Oh, Evelyn, I would give the world this had not happened. I did all I could to keep you from seeing he was there. Such a shock for you without any warning ! I know, I know that a woman never forgets." "Oh," said Mrs. Rowland, hastily, "that has nothing to do with it. I never was sentimental like you ; and a spectacle like that is not one to call up tender recollections, is it ? But I am very sorry. And he has children, to make him feel it all the more." ''Yes," said Lady Leighton doubtfully, "he has children. 1 must tell you that he still has a way of working on the feelings. Oh, poor man, I would not say a word that was unkind ; but now that he has nothing but his troubles to give him an interest, he likes, perhaps, to make the most of his troubles. I wish you had not had this shock to begin with, dear Evelyn, your first clay at home." 40 THE RAILWAY MAN CHAPTER VI Does a woman never forget? It was not true perhaps as Lady Leighton said it, but it would be vain to say that Evelyn was not moved to the bottom of her heart by the sight of her former lover. He, about whom all the dreams of her youth had been woven, who had deserted her, given her up in her need, and humiliated her before all the world. To see him at all would not have been without effect upon her, but to see him so humiliated in his turn, so miserable a wreck, while she was in all the flush of a late return to youth and well-being, happy in a subdued way, and on the height of prosperity, gave her a shock of mingled feeling, perhaps more strong than any she had experienced since he rent her life in two, and covered her (as she felt) with shame. But it was not any re-awakening of the extinguished fire which moved Evelyn. She could not forget, it was true, and yet she could easily have forgotten, the relation in which she had stood to him, and her old adoration of him, at all times the visionary love of a girl, giving a hundred fictitious excellencies to the hero she had chosen. This was not what had occurred to her mind. Had she seen him in his ancient supremacy of good fortune — a well-preserved, middle- aged Adonis, smiling perhaps, as she had imagined, at her late marriage with a rich parvenu, keeping the superior position of a man who has rejected a love bestowed upon him, and never without that complacent sense of having "behaved badly," which is one of the many forms of vanity — the sight would not have disturbed her, except, perhaps, with a passing sensation of anger. But to see him in his downfall gave Evelyn a shock of pain. It was too terrible to think of what he had been and what he was. Instead of the sense of retribution which her friend had suggested, Evelyn had a horrified revulsion of feeling, rebellious against any such possibility, angry lest it should be supposed that she could have desired the least and smallest punishment, or could take any satisfaction from its infliction. She would haA'e hated herself could she have thought this possible. There is an old poem in which the story of Troilus and Cressida, so often treated by the poets in its first bloom, has an after episode, an administration of poetic justice, in which all the severity of the mediaeval imagination comes forth. The false Cressida falls into deepest misery in this tragic strain, and becomes a leper, the last and most awful of degradations. And while she sits with her wretched companions, begging her miserable bread by the roadside, the injured Troilus, the true knight, rides by. Evelyn, though I do not suppose she had ever seen Henryson's poem, felt the same anguish of pity which arose in the bosom of the noble Greek. If she could have sent in secret the richest offering, and stolen aside out of the way THE RAILWAY MAN 41 not to insult the sufferer even by a look, she would have done it. Her pity was an agony, but it had nothing in it akin to love. Lady Leighton, however, did not leave her friend any time fco brood over this painful scene. She had no intention to confine to a mere interchange of courtesies this sudden reappearance upon the scene of a former companion whom, indeed, she could not help effectually in the period of her humiliation, but to whom now, in her newly acquired wealth, Madeline felt herself capable of boing of great use. And it must not be supposed that it was purely a vulgar inclination to connect herself with rising fortunes, or to derive advantage from her friend's new position that moved her. It was in its way a genuine and natural desire to further her old companion, whom she had been fond of, but for whom she could do nothing when she was poor and her position desperate. The love of a little fuss and pleasant meddling was the alloy of Lady Leighton's gold, not any mer- cenary devotion to riches or thought of personal advantage. It was certainly delightful to have somebody to push and help on who could be nothing but a credit to you ; to whom it would be natural to spend much money; and who yet was "one of our own set"' and a favourite friend. On the second day accordingly after that meeting which had been so painful an entry into the old world, Lady Leighton came in upon Evelyn as she sat alone, not very cheerful, longing for her husband and the new home in which she should find her natural place. She came with a rustle and bustle of energy, and that pretty air of having a thousand things to do, which is distinctive of a lady in the height of the season. "Here you are, all alone," she said, "and so many people asking for you. Why didn't you come to luncheon yesterday? We waited half an hour for you. And then we expected you at five o'clock, and I had Mary Iiiversdale and Alice Towers to meet you, who had both screamed to hear you were in town. And you never came ! And of course they thought me a delusion and a snare, for they had given up half a dozen engagements. Why didn't vou come ? " " I am very sorry," Evelyn said. "That is, no excuse," cried her friend. " You were upset by the sight of that wretched Xed Saumarez. And I don't wonder ; but I believe he is not half so ill as he looks, and up to a good deal of mischief still. However, that is not the question. I have come about business. What are you going to do about a house ! " "About a house?" "I came to be quite frank with you to-day. When your husband comes back you ought to have something ready for him. My dear Evelyn, I am going to speak seriously. If you want to know people, and be properly taken up, you must have a house for the rest of the season. A hotel is really not the 42 THE RAILWAY MAN thing. You ought to be able to have a few well chosen dinner parties, and to see your friends a little in the evening. There is nothing like a speciality. You might go in for Indian people. Let it be known that people are sure to meet a few Eastern big-wigs, and your fortune would be made." " But " cried Evelyn aghast. "Don't tell me," said Lady Leighton solemnly, "that you don't want to know people, and be properly taken up again. Of course you don't require to be pushed into society like a mere millionaire who is nobody. You are quite different. People remember you. They say to me, ' Oh, that is the Miss Ferrars of the Gloucestershire family.' Everybody knows who you are. You have nothing to do but to chose a nice house— and there are plenty at this time of the season to be had for next to nothing— and to give a few really nice dinners. Doing it judiciously, finding out when people are free, for of course it does happen now and then that there will be a day when there is nothing going on, you can manage it yet. And everybody knows that your husband is very rich. You could do enough at least to open the way for next season, and make it quite simple. But, my dear, in that case you must not go on wasting these precious days, without deciding on anything and living in a hotel." " You take away my breath," said Mrs. Rowland. " I have not the least desire to be taken up by society. If I had, I think what I saw the other day would have been enough to cure me ; but I never had the smallest thought— my husband is rich, I suppose, but lie does not mean to spend his money so. He means to live — at home — among his own people." Evelyn's voice, which had been quite assured, faltered a little and trembled as she said these last words. " Among his own people ! " said Lady Leighton, with a little shudder. "Do you mean to say ■ ! Now, my dear Evelyn, you must forgive me, for perhaps I am quite wrong. I have heard about Mr. Rowland. I have always heard that he was — that he had been " Madeline Leighton was a person of great sense. She saw in Evelyn's naturally mild eyes that look of the dove enraged, which is'more alarming as a danger signal than any demonstration on the part of the eagle. She con- cluded hastily, " A very excellent man, the nicest man in the world." "You were rightly informed," said Mrs. Rowland, somewhat stiffly. " My husband is as good a man as ever lived." "But to go and settle among— his own people ! perhaps they are not all as good as ever lived. They must be a little different to what you have been used to. Don't you think you should stipulate for a little freedom 1 Frank's people are as good as ever lived, and they are all of course, so to speak, in our own set. But if I were condemned to live with them all the year round, I should die. Evelyn ! it is, I assure you, a very serious AXD HIS CHILDREN 43 matter. One should begin with one's husband seriously, you know. Very good women who always pretend to like every- thing they are wanted to do, and smother their own inclinations, are a mistake, my dear. They always turn out a mistake. In the first place they are not true any more than you thought me to be the other day. They are cheating, even if it is with the best of motives. And in the end they are always found out. And to pretend to like things you hate is just being as great a humbug as any make-believe in society. Besides, your husband would like it far better if you provided him with a little amuse- ment, and kept his own people off him for part of the year." " I don't think Society would amuse him at all," said Evelyn, with a laugh. "And besides, he has no people that I know of — so that you need not be frightened for me — except his own children," she added, with involuntary gravity. Lady Leighton gave vent to an " O ! " which was rounder than the O of Giotto. Horror, amazement, compassion were in it. " He has children ! " she said faintly. " Two — and they, of course, will be my first duty." " Girls 2 " "A girl and a boy." " Oh, you poor thing ! " said Lady Leighton, giving her friend an embrace full of sympathy. " I am so sorry for you ! I hope they are little things." Evelyn felt a little restored to herself when she was encoun- tered with such solemnity. "You have turned all at once into a Tragic Muse," she said ; " you need not be so sorry for me. I am not — sorry for myself." "Oh, don't be a humbug," said Lady Leighton severely ; "of all humbugs a virtuous humbug is the worst. You hate it ! I can see it in your eyes." "My eyes must be very false if they express any such feeling. To tell the truth," she added smiling, " I am a little frightened — one can scarcely help being that. I don't know how they may look upon me. I shouldn't care to be considered like the stepmother of the fairy tales." "Poor Evelyn!" said Lady Leighton. She was so much impressed as to lose that pliant readiness of speech which was one of her great qualities. Madelines resources were generally supposed by her friends to be unlimited : she had a suggestion for everything. But in this case she was silenced — for at least a whole minute. Then she resumed, as if throwing off a load. "You should have the boy sent to Eton, and the girl to a good school. You can't be expected to take them out of the nursery. And for their sakes, Evelyn, if for nothing else, it is most important that you should know people and take your place in society. Tt makes all my arguments stronger instead of weaker : you must bring Miss Rowland out — when she grows up." Evelyn could not but laugh at the ready advice which always 44 THE RAILWAY MAN sprang up like a perpetual fountain, in line independence of circumstances. "Dear Madeline," she said, "there is only one drawback, which is that they are grown up already. My step- daughter is eighteen. I don't suppose she will go to school, if I wished it ever so much — and I have no wish on the subject. It is a great responsibility ; but provided they will accept me as their friend " "And where have they been brought up 1 Is she pretty 1 are they presentable 1 She must have money, and she will marry, Evelyn ; there's hope in that. But instead of departing from my advice to you on that account, I repeat it with double force. You must bring out a girl of eighteen. She must see the world. You can't let her marry anybody that may turn up in the country. Take my word for it, Evelyn," she added solemnly, "if it was necessary before, it is still more necessary now." " She may not marry at all — there are many girls who do not." "Don't let us anticipate anything so dreadful," said the woman of the world. "A stepdaughter who does not marry is too much to look forward to. No, my dear, that is what you must do. You must bring her out well and get her off. Is she pretty ? for, of course, she will be rich." " I don't know. I know little about the children. My husband has been in India for a long time. He does not himself know so much of them as he ought." A shiver went through Lady Leighton's elegant toilette. She kissed her friend with great pity. " I will stand by you, dear," she said, " to the very utmost of my ability. Y r ou may be sure that anything I can do to help you ; — but put on your bonnet in the meantime. I have a list of houses I want you to look at. You can look at them at least— that does no harm ; if not for this season, it will be a guide to you for the next. And it is always more or less amusing. After that there are some calls I have to make. Come, Evelyn, I really cannot leave you to mope by yourself here." And Evelyn went. She was lonely, and it was a greater dis- traction after all than buying cabinets in Wardour Street, and looking over even the most lovely old Persian rugs. Looking at houses, especially furnished houses, to be let for the season, is an amusement which many ladies like. It is curious to see the different ideas, the different habits of the people who want to let them, and to contrast the house that is furnished to be let and the house that is furnished to be lived in, which are two different things. Lady Leighton enjoyed the afternoon very much. She pointed out to her friend just how she could arrange the rooms in every house, so that the liveliest hopes were left in the mind of each householder ; and by the time they got back to Madeline's own house to tea, she declared herself too tired to do anything but lie on the sofa, and talk over all they had seen. " It lies between Wilton Place and Chester Street," she said. AND HIS CHILDREN The last is the best house, but then the other is better fur- nished. That boudoir in Wilton Place is a little gem : or you might make the drawing-room in Chester Street exceedingly pretty with those old things you are always buying. The car- pets are very bad, I must allow, but with a few large rugs — and it is such a good situation. Either of them would do. And so cheap ! — a mere nothing for millionaires like you." Evelyn allowed, not without interest, that the houses were very nice. She allowed herself to discuss the question. Visions floated before her eyes of old habits resumed, and that flutter of movement, of occupation, of new things to see and hear, which forms the charm of town, caught her with its fascination. To step a little, just a little, not much, into the living stream, to feel the movement, though she was not carried away by it, was a temptation. At a distance it is easy to condemn the frivolity, the hurry, the rush of the season ; but to touch its glittering surface over again after a long interval of banishment, and feel the thrill of the tide of life which is never still, which quickens the pulse and stimulates the mind, has a great attraction in it. Evelyn forgot for the moment the shock which had so driven her back from all pleasant projects. She allowed herself to see with Madeline's eyes. Xo doubt it might be pleasant. It was now June, and a month of society in the modified way in which a late arrival, so long separated from all old acquaintances can alone hope to enjoy it, would not be too great an interruption to the home life, and it would leave time to have everything done at Rosmore. And it would postpone a little the introduc- tion to many new elements of which she was afraid. She had been disappointed when her husband left her, to have the en- trance upon her new life postponed at all, and the period of suspense prolonged. But that feeling began to give way to other feelings — feelings more natural. After the unutterably subdued life she had led in India, and before the novel and strange existence which was now waiting for her as the mother and guide of human creatures unknown to her, might not a moment of relaxation, of individuality, be worth having ? She had been Mrs. Stanhope's friend without any identity, with a life which was all bound up in the obscure rooms of the bunga- low ; and she was Mr. Rowland's wife, the mother of his children, the head of his house, in an atmosphere altogether novel to her, and which of her, in her natural personality, knew nothing. Society was not her sphere, yet it was the nearest to any sphere in which she could stand as herself. And she allowed herself to be seduced. She thought that perhaps for a little James might enjoy it. Chester Street is very near the Park. To walk out in the June mornings, when even the London air is made of sunshine, to the Plow and see the dazzling stream fiow by — the beautiful horses, the beautiful people — girls and men whom it was a sight to see — to meet every five minutes an old acquaint- ance, to hear once more that babble about people and personal 46 THE RAILWAY MAN incidents which is so trivial to the outsider, but always attrac- tive to those who know the names and can understand the situ- ations about which everybody talks ! And in the evening, to sit at the head of the table with perhaps a statesman, perhaps a poet, somebody of whom the whole world has heard, at her right hand, penetrating even the society chatter with a thread of meaning ! Evelyn forgot for the moment various things that would not be so pleasant — that her husband w r ould like to enter- tain a lord, but would not probably know much more about him, however great he might be — that he might be inclined to tell the price of his wine, and laugh the rich man's laugh of satisfaction at the costliness of everything, and the ruin that awaited him in London. These little imperfections Evelyn was perhaps too sensitive of, but on this occasion they stole out of her mind. She began to discuss Chester Street with a gradually growing satisfaction. Or Park Lane 1 There was a house in Park Lane — and for a hundred pounds or two of rent, if he liked the scheme at all, James would not hesitate. She was quite sure of him so far as that was concerned. " Chester Street has its advantages," said Lady Leighton. " It is such a capital situation ; and yet quite modest, no pretension. It is more like you, Evelyn. So far as Mr. Rowland is con- cerned, I feel sure, though I don't know him, that he would prefer Belgrave Square, and the biggest rent in London." " How do you know that ? " said Evelyn with an uneasy laugh. " Because I know my millionaires," said Lady Leighton gravely. " But for the end of the season, and an accidental sort of thing as it will be, I should not recommend that. Next year if you come up in May, and on quite lance ; but for this year, when you are only feeling your way — Chester Street, Evelyn ! that's my idea — and a few small parties, quite select, to meet some Indian man. I don't want you to have just a common success like the vulgar rich people. Dear, no ! quite a different thing— a success d'estime—a, real good foundation for anything you might like to do after. You might take Marl- borough House then — if you could get it — and stick at nothing." " We shall not attempt to get Marlborough House," said Evelyn, with a laugh, " nor even anything more moderate. Mr. Rowland does not care for town. But I confess that you have beguiled me, Madeline, with your flattering tongue. I think — I should rather like — if he approves of the idea." " My dear, it is surely enough if you approve of the idea. He is not going to make you a black slave." " My husband is sure to approve of what I do," said Evelyn, with a little dignity. "But I prefer to consult him all the same. He may have formed other engagements. It may be necessary to go up to Rosmore at once. But I confess that I should like — if there is nothing else in the way." "And that is all," cried Lady Leighton, "after all my efforts ! AND HIS CHILDREN ^ 47 Well, if it must be so, telegraph to him— or at least tell him to answer you by telegraph : for that house might still be swept up while you are hesitating. Oh, I know it is rather late for a house to lie snapped up. But when you want a thing it immedi- ately becomes a chance' that some one else will want it too. I shall look for you to-morrow to luncheon, Evelyn : now, mind that you don't fail me, and we'll go out utter and settle about it, and do all that is necessary. Shouldn't you like now to go and look at a few more Persian rugs I and that little Chippendale set you were telling me of? The next best thing^to spending money oneself is helping one's friend to do it,'" said Lady Leighton. "Indeed, some people think it almost more agree- able : for you have the pleasure, without the pain of paying. Come, Evelyn, and we can finish with a turn in the Park before dinner. I always like to get as much as possible into every day.' 3 It was indeed a necessity with the town lady to get as much as she could into her day. If she had not gone to choose the rugs on her friend's account, she would have had to make for herself some other piece of business equally important, There was not an hour that had not its occupation. Looking at the houses had tilled the afternoon with bustleand excitement: and doing all that was necessary, i. e. rearranging all the furniture, covering up the dingy carpets, choosing new curtains, etc., would furnish delightful '"work" for two or three. Lady Leighton had never an hour that was without its engagement, as she said with a sigh. She envied her friends who had leisure. She had not a moment to herself. And Evelyn wrote a hurried letter to her husband about the Chester Street house, and the pleasure of staying in town for a week or two, as she put it vaguely, and introducing him to some of her friends. She even in her hate mentioned Lord and Lady Leighton, knowing that he had a little weakness for a title— a thing she was sadly ashamed of when she came to think. But the best of us are so easily led away. ( 'HAITI:!: VII The bustle of this afternoon's occupation, which left her no time to think before she was deposited at her hotel for her late dinner, put serious thoughts out of Evelyn's mind ; and even when that hasty meal, over which she had no inclination to linger, was ended, and she had relapsed into the comfort of a dressing-gown, and lay extended in an easy-chair beside the open windows, hearing all the endless tumult of town, half with a sense of being left out. and half with self -congratulations over her quiet, she was little inclined to reflection The echo of all thatshe hid been doing hung about her, and that pleasant little 48 THE RAILWAY MAN commotion of choice, of arrangement and organization, winch is involved in a new house and new settlement, absorbed her thoughts. They went very fast, setting a thousand things stir- ring. There is nothing that moves the woman of to-day more than the task of making a house pretty and harmonious, and forming a version of home out of any spare hired dwelling. Evelyn had anticipated having this to do for Rosmore. But James had somehow taken it out of her hands. He had gone to prepare it for her, not thinking that she would have liked much better to have a share in the doing. And now to think of having her little essay for herself, and setting up a temporary home out of her own fancy, turning a few bare rooms into a place full of fragrance and brightness, pleased her fancy. She listened to the carriages Hying past with an endless roll of sound, so many of them conveying society to its favourite haunts, to one set of brilliant rooms after another, to new combinations of smiling faces and beautiful toilettes, with a half melancholy half pleasing excitement. To be above, and listen to that sound, is always slightly melancholy, and Evelyn could not but think a little of the pleasure of emerging from the silence of solitude, of seeing and being seen, of finding friends from whom she had been long parted, and a dazzling vision of life which was all the brighter from being partially forgotten, and never very perfectly known. From where she sat she could see the glare of the carriage lamps, and now and then some glimpses of the persons within — a lady's white toilette surging up at the window, or a brilliant shirt front looking almost like another lamp inside. It amused her to watch that stream flow on. And then there came over her a dark shadow, the vision of the man who had been so young and so full of life when she saw him last, and who was so death-like and fallen now. The thought chilled her suddenly to the heart. She drew back from the window, and wrapped herself in a shawl, with the shudder of a cold which was not physical but spiritual. In the midst of all that ceaseless loudness of life and movement and pleasure, and of the visions which had visited her own brain of lighted rooms, and animated face, and brilliant talk — to drop back to that wreck of existence, the helpless man leaning upon his ser- vant's arm, bundled up like a piece of goods, unresisting, com- pelled to submit to those cares which were an indignity, yet which were necessary to very existence ! The echo came back to Evelyn's heart. If there was in her mind, who in _ reality cared for none of these things, a little sentiment of loneliness as she saw the stream of life go by, what must there be in his, to whom society was life, and who was cut off from all its plea- sures 1 Her imagination followed him to the prison of his weak- ness, his melancholy home, with this imperative servant who tended and ruled all his movements, for his sole society. God help him ! What a condition to come to, after all the experiences of his life ! AND BUS CHILDREN 49 Should she ever meet him again, she had asked herself, partly with a vaguely formed wish of saying some word of kindnes so great a sufferer, partly with a shrinking reluctance to give herself the pain of looking upon his humiliation again ? Bui was almost as great a shock as on the first meeting to see him coming along the Park as she walked to Lady Leighton's next day. He was being drawn along in his wheeled chair by the man who had bundled him up so summarily on the previous occasion. Evelyn would have hurried on, but he held out his hand appealingly, and even called her name as she endeavoured to pass. " Won't you stop and speak to me I '' he said. It was impossible to resist that appeal. She stood by him looking down upon his ashy countenance, the loose lips and half-open mouth which babbled rather than talked, and which it required an effort at first to understand. " Will you sit down a little and talk ] "' he said. k< It's a pleasure I don't often have, a talk with an old friend. Sit there, and I'll have my chair drawn beside you. I hope you won't think yourself a victim, as I fear some of my friends do " Oh no, ' she said anxiously, " don't think so : I — was going to see Madeline — but it will not matter " " Oh, she can spare you for half an hour. ' It was with dismay that Evelyn heard this, but how could she resist the power of his weakness and fallen estate \ He had his chair drawn up in front of the one she had taken, very near her, and with a gesture dismissed his servant, who went and took up his position with his back against a tree, and his eyes upon the master who was also his patient. The sight of this reminder of his extreme weakness and precarious condition was almost more than Evelyn's nerves could bear. " We are a wonderful contract, you and I," he said : " you so young and fair, just entering upon life, and I leaving it, a decrepit old man.'"' "You know,"' she said, "that I am not young and fair any more than you are old. I am grieved to see you so ill ; but I hope • "There is no room for hope. To go on like this for many years, which they say is possible, is not much worth hoping for, is it I Still, I would bear it for various reasons. But I am not likely to be tried. I am a wreck — and my wife only lived two years — I suppose you knew that.'" "I had heard that Mrs. Saumarez died.'" " Yes — Id have come to you for consolation had 1 dared." " It was better not." -aid Evelyn, while a subdued Hash of indignation shot out much against her will from her down. eyes. "That was what I thought. When a thing docs not sue at first it is better not to try to get lire out of the ashes, he said didactically ; "but between us two, there is no difficulty in s ing which has the best of it. I should like to call and make Mr. 50 THE RAILWAY MAX Rowland's acquaintance. But you see the plight in which I am. It is almost impossible for me to get up a stair " " My husband — does not mean to remain in London/' she said hurriedly. " We are going to Scotland at once." "To a place he has bought, I suppose? I hear that he has a great fortune — and I am most heartily glad of it for your sake." She replied hurriedly, with a slight bow of acquiescence. It was the strangest subject to choose for discussion : but yet it was very difficult to find any subject. "You told me the other day," she said, " about your children." " I am very thankful to you for asking. I wanted to speak of them. I have a boy and girl, with only a year between them — provided for more or less ; but who is to look after them when I am gone 1 Their mother's family I never got on with. They are the most worldly-minded people. I should not like my little Rosamond to fall into their hands." There was a pause : for Evelyn found that she had nothing to say. It was so extraordinary to sit here, the depositary of Edward Saumarez's confidences, listening to the account of his anxieties — she who was so little likely to be of any help. " How old is she 1 " she managed to ask at last. " Rosamond 1 How long is it since we were — so much together 1 A long time. I dare say more than twenty years." " Something like that." " Ah well," he said with a sigh, " I married about a year after. They're nineteen and twenty, or thereabouts. Rosamond, they tell me, ought to be brought out ; but what is the good of bringing out a girl into the world who has no one to protect her 1 Nobody but a worldly-minded aunt who will sell her for what she will bring — marry her off her hands as quickly as possible ; that is all she will think of. It may seem strange to you, but my little girl is proud of me, dreadful object as I am." " Why should it seem strange 1 It would be very unnatural if she was not." " She is the only one in the world who cares a brass farthing whether I live or die." As Evelyn raised her eyes full of pity, she was suddenly aware that he was watching her, watching for some tell-tale flush or gesture which should give a tacit denial to what he said. He, like Lady Leighton, was of opinion that a woman never forgets, and dreadful object as he allowed him- self to be, the man's vanity would fain have been fed by some sign that the woman beside him, whom he had abandoned so basely, whose heart he had done his best to break, still cherished something of the old feeling, and was his still. He was discon- certed by the calm compassion in her eyes. " Eddy is as cold as a stone," he said ; " he is like his mother's people. He doesn't see why an old fellow like me should keep dragging on. He minds no more than Jarvis does— less, for I am Jarvis's living, and to keep me alive is the best thing for AND HIS CHILDREN 51 him. But it would be better for Eddy, he thinks, if I were out of the way." " Please do not speak so ; I don't believe that any son really entertains such thoughts." "Ah, that shows how little you know. You have not been in society all these years. Eddy is philosophical, and thinks that [ have very little good of my life, which is true enough, and that lie would have a great deal, which is quite as true." " Even if it were so, he would not be his own master — at nineteen," Evelyn said. " Twenty — he is the eldest. Of course he would be better oft' in that case. He would have more freedom, and a better allow- ance ; and he would be of more importance, not the second but the first." " Oh," she cried with horror, " do not impute such dreadful motives to your own child.'' He shook his head, looking at her with an air of cynical wisdom — a look which made the countenance, so changed and faded with disease, almost diabolical to contemplate. Evelyn turned her eyes away with a movement of horrified impatience. And this was not at all the feeling with which Saumarez meant to inspire the woman who had once loved him. He was unwill- ing even now to believe that she had entirely escaped out of his power. "Evelyn," he said, putting forth again that large nerveless hand, from the touch of which she shrank — " let me call you so, as in the old days. It can do no one any harm now." " Surely not," she said ; "it could do no one any harm." He had not expected this reply ; if she had shrank from the familiarity and refused her permission, he would have been better pleased. Helpless, paralytic, dreadful to behold, he would fain have considered himself a danger to her peace of mind still. "I have to accept that," he said, "like all the rest. That it doesn't matter what I say, no man could be jealous of me. Evelyn ! — I like to say the name— there's everything that's sweet and womanly in it. I wish I had called my little girl by that name. I thought of it, to tell the truth." "Nothing could have been more unsuitable," cried Evelyn, with a flush of anger. " I hope you did not think of it, for that would have been an insult, not a compliment to me. Mr Saumarez, I think I must go on. Madeline expected me at " " Oh, let Madeline wait a little ! She has plenty of interests, and I have something very serious to say. You may think I am trying to lead you into recollections — -which certainly would agitate me, if not you. You are very composed, Evelyn. I ought to be glad to see you so, but I don't know that I am. I remember everything so well — but you — seem to have passed into another world." "It is true. The world is entirely changed for me. I can E 2 52 THE RAILWAY MAN scarcely believe that it was I who lived through so many ex- periences twenty-two years ago." " I feel that there is a reproach in that — and yet if I could tell you everything — but you would not listen to me now." " I am no longer interested," she said gently, " so many things have happened since then : my father's death, and Harry's. How thankful I was to be able to care for them both ! All these things are between me and my girlhood. It has died out of my mind. If there is anything you want to say to me, Mr. Saumarez, I hope it is on another subject than that." The attempt in his eyes to convey a look of sentiment made her feel faint. But fortunately his faculties were keen enough to show him the futility of that attempt. " Yes," he said, " it is another subject — a very different subject. I shall not live long, and I have no friends. I care for nobody, and you will say it is a natural consequence of this that nobody cares for me." She made a movement of dissent in her great pity. "It cannot be so bad as that." " But it is. My sister's dead, you know, and there is really nobody. Evelyn, I have a great favour to ask you. Will you be the guardian of my boy and girl 1 " " The guardian— of your children ! " She was so startled and astonished that she could only gaze at him, and could not find another word to say. " Why should you be so much surprised 1 I never thought so much of any woman as I do of you. I find you again after so many years, unchanged. Evelyn, you are changed. I said so a little while ago : but yet you are yourself, and that's the best I know. I'd like my little Bosamond to be like you. I'd like Eddy, though he's a rascal, to know some one that would make even him good. Evelyn, they are well enough oft", they would not be any trouble in that way. Will you take them — will you be their guardian when I am gone ? " Evelyn was not only astonished but frightened by what he asked of her. She rose up hastily. "You must not think of it — you must not think of it ! What could I do for them 1 I have other duties of my own." "It would not be so much trouble," he said, "only to give an eye to them now and then ; to have them with you when you felt inclined to ask them — nothing more. For old friendship's sake you would not object to have my children on a visit once a year or so. I am sure you would not refuse me that ? " " But that is very different from being their guardian." " It would not be, as I should arrange it. You would give them your advice when they wanted it. You would do as much as that for any one, for the gamekeeper's children, much more for an old friend's — and see them now and then, and inquire how they were getting on ? I should ask nothing more. Evelyn, you wouldn't refuse an old friend, a disabled, unhappy solitary man like me ? " A^D HIS CHILDREN 53 "Oh, Mr. Saumarez ! " she cried. He had tried to raise him- self up a little in the fervour of his appeal, but fell back again in a sort of heap, the exertion and the emotion being too much for his strength. The servant appeared in a moment from where he had been watching. "He oughtn't to be allowed to agitate himself, ma'am,"' said the man reproachfully. Evelyn, alarmed, walked humbly beside the chair till they came to the gate of the Park, terrified to think that perhaps he had injured himself, that perhaps she ought to humour him by consenting to anything. He was not allowed to say any more, nor did she add a word, but he put out his hand again and pressed hers feebly as they parted. " Can I do anything 1 " she had asked the servant in her compunction. " Xothing but leave him quite quiet," said the man. " It might be as much as his life is worth. I don't hold with letting 'em talk." Saumarez was one of a class, a mere case, to his attendant. And Evelyn felt as if she had been guilty of a kind of murder as she hurried away. She found Lady Leighton waiting for her for lunch, and slightly disturbed by the delay. " I have a thousand things to do, and the loss of half-an-hour puts one all out," she said, with a little peevishness; "but I'm sure you had a reason, Evelyn, for being so late." " A reason which was much against my will," said Evelyn, telling the story of her distress, to which her friend listened very gravely. "I should take care not to meet him again," said Lady Leighton, with a cloud on her brow. "You listen to him out of pure pity, but weak and ailing as he is, it would be sweet to his vanity to compromise a woman even now."' " I do not understand what you mean," said Evelyn ; " he could not compromise me, if that is it, by anything he could do, were he all that he has ever been." " You don't know what your husband might think," said her friend ; " he wouldn't like it. He might have every confidence in you — but a man of Xed Saumarez's character, and an old lover, and all that — he might say " "My husband," said Mrs. Rowland, feeling the blood mount to her head, "has no such ideas in his mind. He neither knows anything about Mr. Saumarez's character, nor would he even if he did know. You mistake my feeling altogether. It is not anything about my husband that distresses me — it is the trust lie wants me to undertake of his children." "Oh, you may make yourself easy about that, Evelyn. That was only a blind. It is little he thinks about his children. He'll get you to meet him and to talk to him, professedly about them — oh, I don't doubt that ! but that's not what he means. You don't know Xed Saumarez so well as I do," cried Lady Leighton, putting out her hand to stop an outcry of indigna- tion ; "you don't know the world so well as I do; you have been out of it for years, and you always were an innocent, and never did understand "' 54 THE RAILWAY MAN " Understand ! that a man who is dying by inches should have — such ideas. A man on the edge of the grave — with a servant, a nurse, looking after him as if he were a child." " It's very sad, my dear, especially the last, which is incre- dible, I allow. How a man like that can think that a woman would But they do, all the same. You might be led your- self by pity, or perhaps by a little lingering feeling — or — well, well, I will not say that, I don't want to make you angry — perhaps by a little vanity then, if I may say such a word." " Madeline, I think you know far too much of the world." " Perhaps," said Lady Leighton, not without a little self- complacence. "I have had a great deal of experience in life." " And too little," said Evelyn, " of honest meaning and truth." " Oh, as for that ! but if you think you will find truth or honest meaning, my dear, in Ned Saumarez, you will be very far wrong ; and if he can lead you into a mess with your hus- band, or get you talked about " " He will never get me into a mess with my husband, you may be certain of that, Madeline." " Oh, if you will take your own way, I cannot help it," cried Lady Leighton. " I have done all I can. And now come down to lunch. At all events we must not quarrel, you and I." The lunch, however, was not a very successful one, and Evelyn refused to take any further action about Chester Street, and was so determined in her resistance that her friend at last gave up the argument, and with something very like the quarrel she had deprecated, allowed Mrs. Rowland to depart alone for her hotel, which she did in great fervour of indignation and distress. But as she walked quickly along the long line of the Park, she perceived with a pang of alarm and surprise, the invalid's chair being drawn across the end of the ride, into the same path where she had met Saumarez an hour or two before. Was it possible that Madeline could be rig] it 1 Was he going back to wait for her there 1 She stood but for a moment and watched the slow mournful progress of the chair, the worn-out figure lying back in it, the ashen face amid the many wraps. A certain awe came over her. She had been long out of the world, and had never been very wise in such matters : and who could believe that a man in the last stage of life should be able to amuse himself by schemes at once so base and so frivolous 1 She turned back half -ashamed of herself for doing so, and went home another way. It might be, she said to herself with a compunction, that all he meant was after all what he thought his children's interest : then with a thrill of self-suspicion asked herself, was this the vanity by which Madeline, too clear sighted, had suggested she might be moved ? Oh, clearly the world was not a place fcr her ! The mere discussion of such possibilities abashed and shamed her. Her simple husband, who could not cope with these fine people, and uj3on whom probably they AXD HIS CHILDREN would look down — her home, far from all such ignoble tions, her own difficulties, which might be troublesome enough, but not like these — how much better they were ! Her heart had been a little caught by the aspect of the old life from which she had been separated so long, and she had begun to think that witli all the advantages her new position gave her, it might be pleasant to resume those of the old one, and venture a little upon the sea of society, which looked so bright at the first glance. Had she yielded to this temptation no doubt the good [lowland would have followed her guidance, pleased with any- thing she suggested, delighted for a time with the line company, giving up his chosen life for her sake. And it is very probable that, had Lady Leighton foreseen the disgust with which her warning would till her friend's mind, she would have been chary about giving it, and would have preferred to let Evelyn take her chance of compromise and danger. The worst of society is, that it deadens the mind to the base and vile, taking away all horror of things unclean, by inculcating a perpetual suspicion of their existence. But no such deadening intluence had ever been in Evelyn's mind. She sent another letter to her husband by that afternoon's post, winch, in the midst of various tribula- tions of his own, made that good man's heart leap. She told him that she had changed her mind about staying in London, that it was odious to her : that she counted the hours till he should return, that she longed forRosmore, and to seethe Clyde and the lochs, and the children, and "our own home." James Rowland, though he was not a sentimental man, kissed this letter : for he was in great need of consolation, having in full measure his own troubles too. CHAPTER VIII Evelyn scarcely went out at all next day. She paid a visit to some of the old furniture shops in the morning, which was a direction quite different from that in which she would be sub- jected to any painful meeting — and realized once more her husband's simple maxim that there was great diversion in buying. She did buy within a certain range, expensive articles — tilings which she knew Madeline Leighton would covet but could not afford, with a kind of pleasure in the unnecessary extravagance which she was half ashamed of, half amused by when she realized it. The old marqueterie was solid and beauti- fully made, and had borne the brunt of years of usage ; it was not a hollow fiction like the fabric of society which Lady Leighton and such as she expounded as unutterably vile, yet clung to as if it were the only thing true. Evelyn declared to herself that she would have no house in Chester Street. To M THE RAILWAY MAX cover up the old faded carpets with pretty Persian rugs, and make the dingy rooms fine with temporary fittings up which did not belong to them, was, like all the rest, a deception and disgust. The pretty things should be for her own house, where they would be placed to remain as long as she lived, where they would be like herself, at home. But except the time she spent in these shops, which was not very long, she did not go out all day. And she had, it must be allowed, got very tired of her own company, when in the afternoon the door was opened suddenly, and a servant appeared to announce some one, a young lady, about whose name he was very doubtful, for Mrs. Rowland. He was followed into the room by the slim figure of a girl looking very young but very self-possessed and unabashed, with an ease of manner which Evelyn was not accustomed to see in her kind. This young lady was dressed very simply, as girls who are not "out " (as well as many who are) are specially supposed to be. The gray frock was spotless, and beautifully made, but it was absolutely unadorned, and she had not an ornament or a ribbon about her to break the severe grace of her outline. But to make amends for this, she had the radiant com- plexion which is so often seen in English girls — a complexion not yet put in jeopardy either by hot rooms and late hours, or by the experiences of Ascot and Goodwood and Hurlingham ; her hair was very light, not the conventional gold. She came forward to Evelyn with the air of a perfect little woman of the world. "I am Kosamond Saumarez," she said, holding out her hand ; "my father told me I was to come to see you." Evelyn stumbled up to her feet with a startled sensation, bewildered by a visit so absolutely unexpected. The young lady took her extended hand, and shook it affably, then with a little air of begging Mrs. Rowland to be seated, like a young princess, drew forth for herself a low chair. " He said I need not explain who I was, for that you would know." ; 'Yes," said Evelyn, "you must forgive me for being a little confused." " Oli, I dare say you were having a little doze. It is so warm ; and don't you find the noise soothing? There is never any break in it : it goes on and on, and puts one to sleep." "I don't find it has that quality," said Evelyn, half affronted to have it supposed that she was dozing. " It is strange for me," she said, "to meet your father's children. I knew him only as a young man." " Oh yes, I know," said the young lady, nodding her head with an air of knowing all about it, which confused Evelyn still more. "He told me he had two children, I think. Are you the eldest ? " she asked almost timidly. " Oh no, Eddy is the eldest : but I'm the most serious. I have got the sense of the family, everybody says. Eddy is with a AXD HIS CHILDREN 57 crammer trying hard to pass the army examination ; but he never will : lie hates books, and is very fond of his fun. Tli.tt may be natural, but you will agree that it is not very good for getting on in life.*' " I suppose not," said Evelyn. " No, certainly ; and so much is thought of doing something nowadays. I suppose father was not very much in the way of working when you knew him, Mrs. Rowland : and yet he is as hard upon Eddy as if he had done nothing but what was good all his life." " Your father is a very great sufferer, I fear," said Evelyn, who had entirely lost her presence of mind, and did not know what to say. " Oh no, not so much as you would think. Of course he's very helpless : Jarvis has to do everything for him. But I don't think he really minds — not so much as people would think. He likes to be pitied and sympathized with, and to look interesting. Poor father ! he thinks he looks interesting ; but perhaps you thought it went too far for that. Some people are quite afraid of him as if he might die on their hands." " Oh no," cried Evelyn, faltering ; "nobody would be so cruel : but it must be very terrible for you." " Well," said Miss Saumarez, ''we have been used to it a long- time, it looks quite natural to us. But some people are fright- ened. It isn't a thing, however, that kills, I believe. It may go on for years and years." " And you "" — Evelyn felt that it was almost an irreverence to talk to this young lady as to a school-girl, but still it was to be supposed she was one — "you are still in the school-room, busy with lessons yet*?" "I don't think I have ever been much in the school-room," said the girl. "It has been rather difficult to manage my education. Father liked to have me at home when I was a little thing. I used to make him laugh. We tried several governesses, but they were not very successful ; either they preferred to take care of him or they quarrelled with me. 1 don't think I was a very nice child," said Miss Rosamond im- partially. "It wasn't a good school, was it, to have all kinds of pettings and bon-bons because i was funny and could make him laugh, and then turned out, as if I had been a little dog, when he was cross .' " My dear ! " said Evelyn, dismayed. "Oh, I am afraid you think me awful" said Bosamond, "but really it is all quite true." "It is a long time since I was a girl like you," said Mrs. Rowland, " and we were not allowed to be so frank and speak our mind ; that is the chief difference, I suppose." "Oh, I have always heard from all the old ladies that I am dreadful. But certainly the thing we do nowadays is to speak Our mind — rather a little more than le--, d<>n't you know. We 58 THE RAILWAY MAN don't carry any false colours, or pretend to pretty feelings, like the girls in the story-books. What humbugs you must have been in your time ! " "I don't think we were humbugs," said Evelyn. She was beginning to be amused by this frank young person, who made her feel so young and inexperienced. It was Evelyn who was the little girl, and Rosamond the sage, acquainted with the world and life. " Father says so ; but then, he thinks all people are humbugs. He says we really can think of no one but ourselves, whatever we may pretend." " But you mustn't believe in that," said Evelyn. ' It is a dreadful way of looking at the world. Nobody can tell how much kindness and goodness there is unless they have been in circumstances to try it, which I have. You must not enter upon life with that idea, for it is quite false." " What ! when father says so 1 Oughtn't I to believe that he knows best 1 " " Oh, when your father says so ! " said Evelyn, startled. " My dear, I don't think your father can mean it. He may say it — in jest " " Oh, don't be afraid, Mrs. Rowland," cried the girl, cheerfully. " I don't take everything he says for gospel. He's a disappointed man, you know. He never got exactly what he wanted. Mother and he did not get on, I am told : and there is every appearance that Eddy will be a handful, as I suppose father was himself in Ids day. And then he's paralyzed. That should be set against a lot, shouldn't it 1 I always say so to myself when he is nasty to me." " I am very glad that you do," said Evelyn, with tears in her eyes. " It should indeed stand against a great deal. And as you grow older you will understand better how such dreadful help- lessness affects the mind " " Oh," cried Rosamond, breaking in, " if you think there's any softening of the brain or that sort of thing, you are very very much mistaken. If you only knew how clever he is ! I have heard him take in people — people, you know, like my uncle the bishop, and that sort of person, with an account of pious feelings, and how he knows it is all for his good, and so forth. You would think he was a saint to hear him — and the poor bishop looking so bothered, knowing too much to quite believe it, and yet not daring to contradict him. It was as good as a play. I shrieked with laughter when he was gone, and so did father. It was the funniest thing I ever saw." " My dear ! " cried Evelyn again, wringing her hands in pro- testation ; but what could she say ? If she had been disposed to take in hand the reformation of Edward Saumarez's daughter, it could not be by adding to her unerring clear sight and criticism of him. " Do you see much," she said, in a kind of desperation, " of the bishop % " with a clutch at the moral skirts of some one who might be able to help. AXD HIS CHILDEEX 59 " Oh no, only when lie comes to town. They don't ask us now to the Palace, for I am sure he never can make up his mind about father, whether lie is a real saint or — the other thing. Aunt Rose is the relation, you know, not the bishop. It is by mother's side, so they naturally disapprove of papa.' 1 Evelyn did not at all know how to deal with this girl, who was so cognisant of the world and all its ways. Rosamond was even more a woman of the world than Madeline Leighton. She believed in less, and she seemed to know more, and her calm girlish voice, and the pearly tints of her infantine radiance of countenance produced upon the middle-aged listener a sensation of utter confusion impossible to describe. She asked hurriedly, with an endeavour to divert the easy stream of words to another subject, " Have you any friends of your own age, my dear, to amuse yourself with 1 " " Oh plenty," said Rosamond, " quantities ! There are such crowds of girls ; wherever one goes, nothing but women, women, till one is sick of them. I have a very great friend whom I see constantly, and who is exactly of my way of thinking. As soon as we are old enough we both mean to take up a profession. I have not quite decided upon mine, 'but she means to be a doctor. She is studying a little now, whenever she can get a moment, and looking forward to the time when she shall be old enough to put down her foot. Of course they will try to forbid it, and that sort of thing. But she has quite made up her mind. As for me, I have not such a clear leading as Madeline. I am still quite in doubt." " Madeline," said Evelyn. " I wonder if by chance that is Madeline Leighton whom I saw the other day .'" Miss Saumarez nodded her head. " But you must promise," she said, "not to betray us to her mother. Of course we quite allow that we are too young to settle upon anything now. She is only seventeen. I am nearly two years older, but then, unfor- tunately, I have not the same clear vocation. And of course something must be allowed for natural hindrances, as long as father lives." " I hope you will never leave him," said Evelyn warmly. " It is true I am old-fashioned, and do not understand a girl with a profession ; but everybody must see that in your case your duty lies at home." " If anybody who was a very good match wanted to marry me," said the girl with a laugh, " would you then think that my duty lay at home ? " Evelyn felt herself reduced to absolute imbecility by this bewildering question. "My dear — my dear — you know a great deal too much ; you are too wise," she said. "But that's not an answer," said Rosamond; "you see the logic of it, and you daren't give me an answer. You just beg the question. I must go away now ; but father told me I was to ask you if I might come again." 60 THE RAILWAY MAN "If you care to come to such an old-world, old-fashioned, puzzled person as I am," said Evelyn, with a troubled smile. " I should like it, if I may. Father says you are the real good, and a great many people I know only pretend. I should like to know better what the real good was like, so I will come again to-morrow, if I may." "Come, but not because I am the real good. lam a very puzzled person, and you who are only a little girl seem to know a great deal more than I." Rosamond smiled, for the first time, a bright and childlike smile. She had smiled and even laughed in the course of her prelections as the same required it. But for the first time her face lighted up. " Oh, perhaps you will find there is not so much in me as you think," she said, giving her hand to the middle-aged and much-perplexed person before her, after the fashion of the time. I forget what the fashion of the time was in those days. People had not begun at that period to shake their friends' hands high into the air as if they were grasping a pump handle. Evelyn stood and looked after her aghast, not capable of sitting down or changing out of that pose while the girl went away. She crept out, half ashamed of doing so, into the balcony, to watch her as she appeared in the crowded road outside : and after a moment, Rosamond came forth, accom- panied by a large mastiff, who performed several gambols of joy about her as she stepped out into the stream of people. Evelyn watched her going along, keeping, so to speak, the crown of the causeway, she and her dog giving place to no one. She was on her right side of the pavement, and to be hustled out of her course was an impossibility. Her strong, confident step, her half masculine dress, jacket and hat like those of a youth, were wonderful and terrible to the woman who had never moved anywhere without an attendant. She stared after this wonderful young creature with a bewilderment which almost took from her the power of thought. Later in the day Lady Leighton came in, penitentially, and in a softened mood. " I was very silly to frighten you," she said ; " I can't think what made me such a fool. I forgot that you were you, and not any one else. I was right enough so far as ordinary society goes, only not right in respect to Evelyn Ferrars." " Evelyn Rowland, doubly removed from your traps and snares of society," said Evelyn with a smile. " Well — be it so ; — but I hope you are not really going to give up that delightful plan about the Chester Street house, because I was silly and spoke unadvisedly with my lips. If punishment were to come upon a woman for every time she did that " " No great punishment," said Evelyn. " You will come and see me in my own house, and that will be better than seeing me at Chester Street — or not seeing me — you who have never a moment to yourself." AND HIS CHILDREN 61 "That i.5 true. I never have a moment to myself,*' said Lady Leighton. "I am going off now to St. Roque's to see about getting Mr. Pincem, the great surgeon, to look very specially after a favourite patient of mine : and then I must come back to Grosvenor Place to a drawing-room meeting : and then — but I can sandwich you in between the two, Evelyn, if you want to go over any of those houses again."' " I don't want to go over any of them again, thanks. I was quite satisfied with Chester Street if I had wanted any. Per- haps, however, I ought to let the people know.'' " Oh, never mind the people," said Lady Leighton. " if you actually mean to give it up and throw me over ; for it is me you ought to think of. And why 1 because I told you that Ned Sauinarez, though he is paralyzed, was as great a flirt as ever ' " Don't let us have it all over again," said Evelyn. " I take no interest in it. By the way, I have just had a strange visitor — his daughter, Madeline. She tells me that your daughter is her dearest friend." " His daughter 1 Oh, Eosamond ! yes, she and Maddy run about everywhere together,. and plot all manner of things." "Are you not afraid of their plottings, two wild girls together ? " " I afraid ! oh dear, not I ; they will probably both marry before they have time to do any mischief. That puts all nonsense out of their head. I know ! they are going to walk the hospitals, and heaven knows what ; relieve the poor and also see life. I never contradict them— what is the use? Somebody will turn up in their first or second season with enough of money and suffi- ciently presentable. And they will be married off, and become like other people, and we shall hear of their vagaries no more." "They will then have every moment occupied, and more things to do than hours to do them in, Madeline, like you." "Precisely like me," said the woman of the world ; "and an excellent good thing too, Evelyn, if you would allow yourself to see it. Do you think it would be so good for me if I had more time to think 1 My dear, you know many tilings a great deal better than I do, but you don't know the world. Then 1 are as many worries in a day in London as there are in a year out of it. That is, I mean there are in society, both in London and the country, annoyances such as you people in your tran- quillity never can understand. I am not without my troubles, though I don't wear them on my sleeve. I do what is far better. I am so busy, I have not time to think of them. There are troubles about money, troubles about the boys, troubles about — well, Leighton is not always a model husband, my dear, like yours. And it Avill be well for the girls if they do as I do, and don't leave themselves too much time to think." " They seem," said Evelyn, glad to turn the seriousness of this speech aside, and not to seem curious (though- she was) about her friend's troubles, "to exercise the privilege of thinking very 62 THE RAILWAY MAN freely at their present stage. But this poor girl has no mother, and no doubt she lias been left a great deal to herself.'' "I know you don't mean that for a hit at me," said her friend ; "though you may perhaps think a woman with so much to do must neglect her children. Madeline is every bit as bad as Rosamond, my dear. They mean no harm either of them. They want, poor darlings, to work for their living and to see life. It is a pity their brothers don't share their youthful fancies. The boys prefer to do nothing, and the kind of life they see is not very desirable. But by the blessing of Providence nothing very dreadfully bad comes of it either way. The girls find that they have to marry and settle down, like their mothers before them ; and the boys — well, the boys ! oh, they come out of it somehow at the end. 75 And to the great amazement of Evelyn, this woman of the world, this busy idler and frivolous hne lady suddenly fell into a low outburst of crying, as involuntary as it was unexpected, saying, amid her tears : " Oh, please God, please God, they will all come through at the end ! " Mrs. Bowland was a woman who had known a great deal of trouble, but when she was thus the witness of her friend's unsuspected pain, she said to herself that she was an ignorant woman and knew nothing. She had not believed there was anything serious at all, not to say anguish and martyrdom, in Madeline Leighton's life. She held her friend in her arms for a moment, and they kissed each other ; but Evelyn did not ask any question. Perhaps Lady Leighton thought she had told her everything, perhaps she had that instinctive sense that everybody must know, which belongs to the class who are accustomed to have their movements chronicled, and all they do known. For she offered no explanation, but only said, as she raised her head from Evelyn's shoulder and dried her eyes, with a little tremulous laugh in which the tears still lingered, " I am as sure of that as I am that I live. If we didn't think so, half of us would die." Not two minutes after this she returned to the charge again about the house in Chester Street. "Will you really not think of it again, Evelyn 1 It would be such a pleasure to have you near : and, my dear, I should never say a word about any Platonic diversion that amused you. On the contrary, I'd flirt with Mr. Rowland and keep him off the scent. — Oh, let me laugh : I must laugh after I have cried. Well, if you have decided, I don't mind saying that you are quite as well out of Ned Saumarez's way. Sending the girl to see you was a very serious step. And he is a man that will stick at nothing. Perhaps it is all the better that you are going away." "That is the strongest argument you could use," said Evelyn, "to keep me here." "Perhaps that was what I intended," said Lady Leighton; "but, dear, how late it is, I must go " She had reached the AND HIS CHILDREN 63 door when she suddenly turned back. "What time did you fix for our visit to you, Evelyn? I must work it into our list. Without organization one could never go anywhere at all. It must be between the end of October and the middle of December. AVould the 10th November to the 20th suit you? or is that too long. One must be perfectly frank about these matters, or one never could go on at all/' " It must be when you please, and for as long as you please, dear Madeline," said Mrs. Rowland. She added, U I fear, you know, it will be rather dull. I don't know whether there is any society, and James " k 'I will put it down 10th to 15th,'"' said Lady Leighton, seriously noting this consideration. And then she gave her friend a hasty embrace, and hurried away. How strange it all was ! Evelyn felt as if she had peeped through some crevice behind the lively bustling stage, and suddenly seen what was going on behind the scenes. There had been little behind the scenes in her own life. It had been sad, but it had all been open as the day. And now, when she stood at the beginning of a new life, she had nothing to wound, nothing to make her reluctant that any word should leap to light, even that story of hers which had been so near tragedy, of which Edward Saumarez had been the hero. She almost blushed at the importance she had given that story, now that she had seen again the man who had been the hero of it. It seemed to lose all the dignity and tragic meaning which had been the chief thing in her life for so long. While Evelyn was thinking this, a letter was put into her hand, in which her husband bade her do exactly as she pleased about the Chester Street house. " If you like to stay there for a little, my dear, and see your old friends, I shall like that best ; and if you prefer to come home with me at once, and take possession of Eosmore, that is what I shall like best. It is for you to choose : and in the meantime I am coming back to town, to do whatever you like to-morrow night." To-morrow of the day on which the letter was written meant that very day upon which Evelyn received it. She had not pretended to be in love with her good middle-aged husband, she, a subdued middle-aged woman. But what a haven of quiet, and plain honest understanding, and simple truth and right she seemed to float into when she realized that he w r as coming back to her to-night. 64 THE KAIL WAY MAN CHAPTER IX James Rowland left his wife in London with a certain satis- faction which was very unlike the great affection he had for her, and the delight which day by day lie had learned more and more to take in her society. He was a man full of intelligence and quickness of mind notwithstanding various roughnesses of manner ; and he never had known before what it was to have such a companion ; a woman who understood almost all he meant, and meant a good deal which he was delightfully learning to understand : bringing illustrations to their life which his imperfect education had kept from him, and making him aware of a hundred new sources of satisfaction and pleasure. But his very admiration for Evelyn had deepened in his mind the first stab of anxiety which her hand had involuntarily given. He had never got over the shock of finding out that his children, instead of being the little things he had invariably gone on thinking them to be, had reached the age of early manhood and womanhood, and that he knew nothing whatever about them. He had tried at first to laugh at this as a simple evidence of his own folly, but the little puncture of that first wound had gone on deepening and deepening. He felt it only in occasional thrills at first, when it had given him about as much annoyance as a stray pang of rheumatism ; but as he travelled home, every day's nearer approach made the ache a little keener. It was the only thing in his experience of which he had said nothing to Evelyn — although from the day of their arrival in London it had begun to gnaw him like the proverbial fox under his mantle. He grew restless, unable to settle to anything, continually wondering what they would be like, how they would receive him, if they would be a credit to him or the reverse, how Evelyn would receive them, and how they would take to Evelyn. Their stiff little letters about his marriage, which were almost the first letters of theirs which he had read with any attention, had been received at Suez on the way home. And they had redoubled his anxiety and his restlessness. He did not show them to Evelyn, which was very significant of their un- satisfactory character to himself. Had they been " nice " letters, he would have been too anxious to place them in her hands, to see her face light up with interest. But they were not, alas, nice letters. They were very stiff formal productions. They acknowledged that their father had a right to please himself, and that they had no claim to be taken into consideration. " What we expected was different, but it is you, as Aunt Jean says, that are the master, and we hope that your lady will not look down upon us, or keep us away from you." This was not the sort of thing which he could show to Evelyn, anxious as she was to do everything a mother could do for his children. And AND HIS CHILDREN 65 all this made him very restless : he wanted * from her, to go and inspect them before she saw them, to try even, if that were possible, to lick them into shape before they came under her eyes. He had not been afraid of the venture of his new- marriage, nor of the perils by land and sea to which he was continually exposed ; but he was very much afraid of the effect of the boy and girl whom he felt himself to have neglected, and who were now rising up as giants in his path. In these circum- stances Rowland snatched anxiously at the pretext of going to see Rosmore and prepare it for his wife's reception. What he really wanted was to see the children and decide what could be done to prepare them. It was consequently with a sense of escape that he waved his hand to Evelyn from the carriage window, thinking, with a touch of pride, what a lady she looked, in her plain dr standing there upon the platform to see him off, among crowd, not one of whom was like her. He was very proud of Ids wife. He thought she looked like a princess standing there so simple, with no outward sign to show what she was, but a look, to which any one would bow down. But, as the train rushed away into distance, and the long lines of the houses and streets flew past, James Rowland laid himself back, and thanked Heaven that he had escaped, that he had found a pretence to get away, and that he would thus be able to see the worst for him- self. Dwelling upon this view of the subject so long had made him scarcely conscious of any pleasure in the anticipation of meeting his children. Had he not been married, had he come back without any special direction of his thoughts towards them, he would no doubt have looked forward with a certain pleasure to meeting his two little things, and perhaps the disenchant- ment of rinding them grown up would have amused him, and paternal feeling excused the imperfections which he now s i much feared to find. It never, however, could have ple;i - Rowland to find in his son a half-educated lout, or in his daughter a pert little girl, on the original level of the foundry, which was the haunting fear in his mind now ; so that in any case a great disappointment would in all probability have awaited him. His apprehensions became stronger and stronger as he approached the end of his journey, when they would be proved right or wrong. He recalled to himself what the aunt had been, whom in his foolishness lie had been so glad to confide them to, as one who would cherish them as if they were her own : — a rosy-cheeked, cheerful lass, with a jest for any lad who addressed her ; perfectly modest and good, but with the freedom of the overflowing young community, which above all things loved its fun — not equal to his Mary, who had always showed a little shrinking from the fun, and never kept company with any one but with him alone. Jean appeared very clearly before him as he searched the memories of his youth — a trig, comely, clever lass, full of health and spirits. She would be, no d-jubt, 9 66 THE RAILWAY MAN buxom now, terribly well off by means of the lavish cheques he had sent, and iiis daughter would be much as she had been. Oh, she had been a good steady lass, there had been nothing to find fault with ; but to think of a daughter like Jean rilled the good man with horror. What could he do with her? What could Evelyn do with her ? Cold beads of perspiration came out on his forehead. And then the lout of a boy ! This was how he had got to think of them who ought to have been the stars of his horizon. And it would not be their fault, it would be his fault. He was thankful to the bottom of his heart that he would see them first, and get the shock over, and have time to think how it could be broken to Evelyn. But he was not the less afraid of the first sight of them, afraid of proving all his prognostications true. He had not warned his sister-in-law of his arrival, and it was again an escape to him to postpone the meeting till next day, and in the meantime to go to the best hotel he could rind. This was many years ago, and I don't know what may be the case now : but then the hotels in Glasgow were not very excellent, that great city being, I suppose, too much occupied with its manifold businesses to make preparation for tourists and idle visitors as Edinburgh does ; and Mr. Rowland did not rind himself in the lap of luxury to which that masterful rich man Avas accustomed. This probably discouraged him still more, for it must be said that next morning, instead of going to see his children, he took an early train and went down to Rosmore, thus putting off for another day the possibility of ascertaining definitely what there was to fear. He was conscious that it was a cowardly thing to do : and it was an unnatural thing — heart- less, even, some people might say ; but then his terrors for the moment had taken the place of his merely instinctive and quite undeveloped paternal love. Rosmore was not disappointing, that was certain ! He took a steamer from the opposite side of the Clyde, in order that he might see it first, as he had been used to do when he was a young man, and all such advancement seemed as far above him as the throne. His heart beat as the rustling, bustling, crowded steamboat came to the spot where the white colonnade had always been visible among the noble groups of trees, which withdrew a little just there, and stood about in clumps and gatherings to let the view be seen. There it stood upon its green knoll unchanged, the sloping greensward stretching down towards the salt, dazzling water, the windows caught and shining out in the sun. It was by good fortune — which everybody knows is not invariable in these regions — a beautiful day, and to Rowland it seemed paradise to see the heavy clouds of the foliage ojDen, and the white pillars come in view. He landed upon the side of the peninsula, where a little salt water loch runs up into the bosom of the hills. It is characteristic of a IScot in all countries that he never sees a landscape which does AND HIS CHILDRKX 67 not remind him, to its own disadvantage, of some landscape at home. But Rowland, who had been a great deal about the world, went a step further and declared to himself that he had never seen anything to equal that "silver streak" of sea- water, with the noble line of mountains stretching across the upper end. They were beautiful in themselves, their outlines as grand against the sky and intense sunshine as if they had been as lofty as the Himalayas : but this was only half their fascination. It was the capricious Northern lights and shadows that made them so delightful, so unlike anything but themselves. In the East the sunshine drags and becomes tedious : it goes on blazing all day long without change. But the Xorth is dramatic, individual, full of vicissitude, making a new combination every minute, never for half an hour the same. He stood and watched the clouds flying over the hills, like the breath of some spell-bound giant, now one point and now another coming into light ; and the little waves dancing, and the soft banks reflected like another enchanted country under the surface of the water. The sight uplifted in his bosom the heart of the homely man who had no raptures to express, but felt the beauty to the depths of his being. " I've travelled far, but I never saw anything like it," he said to the agent, who had met him on the little pier, and who backed him up with enthusiasm, partly because he was of the district too, and prone to believe that there was nothing equal to Rosmore in the world, and partly because he was a good man of business, and liked to see a wealthy tenant in such a good frame of mind. But it would be difficult to describe the emotions of James Rowland as he walked through the beautiful woods and entered the house. He had never been in the house before. Xaturally, at the time when he first conceived his passion for it, the young foundry man, however clever, could never have had any means of entering into such a place ; and to tell the truth, he did not much know what was required by a family of condition in an English or rather Scotch house. He knew the luxury of the East, and how to make a bungalow comfortable, but the arrangements of a mansion at home were strange to him. He followed the agent accordingly with a little awe, which lie carefully concealed, through the suites of rooms, libraries, morn- ing rooms, boudoirs, all sorts of lavish accommodation, with the uses of which he was practically unacquainted. But lie did not betray his ignorance. On the contrary he was very critical, tinding out the defects in the old-fashioned furniture as if he had been accustomed to such things all his life. "This looks as old as Methuselah," he said. " Why, the things must be mouldy. I should think they can't have been touched for a hundred years." *' More than that, " said the agent, "and that's just why the ladies like it. It is called Countess Jean's boudoir. Everything F 2 68 THE RAILWAY MAX is just as it was when she came home a bride. The ladies will not have it touched.' 3 " Oh, I know that decayed style is the fashion," said Mr. Rowland without winking an eyelid : " but you can't imagine we will put up with these old hangings 1 You must have them cleared away." " We'll do that, if it's your desire ; but the hangings are real tapestry — the oldest in Scotland. The Earl will be just delighted to have them back." " Now I look at them," said Rowland, " I believe my wife will like them. For my part I like fresh colours and rich stuffs. I like to have bright things about me. I find it all a little dingy, Mr. Campbell. You must put your best foot forward and have it put in complete order. And a great many other things will be wanted. We have got a boat-load," said the engineer with exhilaration, "of Indian toys and stuff. My wife's fond of all that sort of thing. We have curios enough to set up a shop." "Ah," said the agent respectfully, "you have had unusual opportunities, Mr. Rowland : and ladies are so fond of picking things up." " Yes," said Rowland, " my wife has wonderful taste — she knows a good thing when she sees it." "Which is very far from being a general quality," said the appreciative agent. " Mrs. Rowland, I make no doubt, will turn Rosmore into a beautiful place." " It is a beautiful place to begin with," said the new tenant ; " and it would be a strange place that would not be improved when my wife got it into her hands," he added with a^glow of pride. He wanted much to confide to the agent that she was a lady of one of the best English families, and full of every accomplishment ; but his better sense restrained him. What exultation he felt in his bosom as he stood under the white colonnade and gazed at the great Clyde rushing upon the beach at the foot of the knoll, and the steamer crossing (which it did by the influence of some good fairy just at this moment) the shining surface, and all the specks of passengers turning in one direction to catch that glimpse of Rosmore. So many times had he gazed at it so — and now for the first time, in the other sense, here he was looking down upon the landscape from his own door. It was not the satisfied appetite of acquisition — it was something finer and more ethereal — a youthful ideal and boyish sentiment carried through a whole life. He had dreamed of this long before there had been any conscious aim at all in his mind ; and now he had actually attained the thing which had so pleased his boyish thoughts. James Rowland took off his hat as he stood under the white colonnade. The agent thought he was saluting somebody in the passing steamer, and murmured, " They'll not see you; it's farther off than it looks ;" but Rowland was saluting One who always sees, and who does not so often as ought to be receive thanks thus warm and glow- AND HI* CHILDREN G9 ing from a grateful heart. " And for Evelyn too, who is the best of all ! " he said within himself. The agent gleaned enough to perceive that Mr. Rowland was exceedingly proud of his wife, and formed an exaggerated, and consequently rather unfavourable opinion of this unknown lady. He thought she must be a c mnoisseuse with her boat load of curiosities, which indeed, to tell the truth, were things that Rowland had '"picked up " himself in many advantageous ways, before he had even seen his wife, and which Evelyn was not acquainted with at all. Mr. Campbell thought she must be a fantastic woman, and would, as he said, transmogrify the good honest old house, and turn it into a curiosity shop, or " chiney" warehouse — which was an idea he did not contemplate with pleasure. However, this was no reason why he should under- value so rich and so easily pleased a tenant. He made the most ample promises as to what should be done, and the expedition witli which everything should be accomplished — and accompanied Rowland to the boat, introducing him to the minister and to various local authorities on the way. " This is Mr. Rowland that has taken Rosmore. Ye '11 likely see a great deal of him, for lie means to make his principal residence here. — It's the great Rowland, the Indian engineer and railway man," lie said aside, but not quite inaudibly, in each new-comer's ear. The local potentates looked with admiration and interest at the new-comer. Any possible inmate of Rosmore would have been interesting to the minister, who had not much society in the parish, and had a natural confidence in the social qualities of a man who was so rich. The " merchant "' who had long dreamt of a railway up the side of the loch, which would bring Glasgow excursionists in their thousands to Rosmore, gazed with awe on the new inhabitant who had but to look upon a country desti- tute of means of locomotion, and lo, the iron way was there. Other points of interest abounded in the new inhabitant. He would quicken life in the parish in every way : probably his very name would secure that second delivery of letters for which the whole peninsula had been agitating so long. The steamboat would certainly call summer and winter at the pier, now that the House would be occupied and visitors always coming and going : and the decoration of the church, which was so much wanted, would, the minister thought, be secured now that such a wealthy inhabitant had been added to the resources of the parish. They all gave him a Avelcome which was as flattering as if he had been a royal prince. "It's been a distress to us a' to see the House standing empty so long, and I'm very glad to make Mr. Rowland's acquaintance. It will be good for us a' to have a man like him among us." How did they know what manner of man he was, except that he was rich ) But James Rowland did not ask himself that question. In his present mood he was very ready to believe that, as he was delighted to come, so his new neighbours would be delighted to have him 70 THE RAILWAY MAN there ; and he knew as well as they did that it would be a good thing for them to have a rich and liberal new parishioner at hand. He liked the looks of the minister, and the schoolmaster, and the merchant, and he was pleased that they should like him. He walked down to the pier attended by a little train ; and it was quite a feather in the cap of Mr. Foggo of Pitarrow, one of the smaller heritors of the parish, that he happened to be going across to the other side, and would consequently travel with the great man. '' I'll talk to him about the kirk and see what he's willing to give," said this gentleman, exhilarated by the thought that a good subscription from the new-comer would save a good deal of money to the heritors. " But only don't be hasty ; don't be rash ; don't let him think that his siller is the first thing we are thinking of," said the minister. " Gangrel body ! what would we be thinking of but his siller," said the laird. But this, which was the only thing that was not complimentary, was not said aloud. Thus Rowland was escorted to the boat, the frequent mes- senger between that solitude and the busy world, while Pit- arrow followed, giving way to him as if he had been the Earl himself. The boat already felt as if it partially belonged to him, the crew, too, being all interested and impressed. He looked back from the deck upon the line of the Rosmore woods, and the prolile of the house, which showed itself through them, a different view yet a delightful one : and listened with affability while the different places on the loch were pointed out to him. The evening was perfect as the day had been. The light had died off the deep waters of the loch, though it still played upon the hills, and its low rays struck full in the eyes, so to speak, of the white colonnade, bathing the house in a dazzle of light. What a place to come home to, to settle down in, to see from afar as he approached, and recognize as his own ! He figured to himself returning from an absence, hastening through the woods, received by Evelyn at the door. What a beautiful dream to be fulfilled at last ! What a refuge from all the labours and the tumults of life ! He listened vaguely to what Pitarrow was saying, and granted cordially that it would henceforward be his duty to come to the aid of the parish and to help to beautify the church, and would have given him a cheque on the spot, had there been pen and ink handy. But of course he had not taken his cheque-book with him upon that day's excursion, important as it was. He got to the railway in this blissful state of mind, uplifted, liis feet scarcely touching the ground. And then all at once his face grew sad and set. The light went out of it and a blank came in place of the animated and lively expression. He had done all that he wanted to do for the moment at Rosmore. Now another duty awaited him, a duty he should have turned to first, which was indeed the most important duty of all. Now there was no longer any escape for him : he must see his children, and that without any further delay. AND HIS CHILDREN" 71 CHAPTER X Next morning James Rowland woke with the churning of the waves under the little Clyde steamboat in his ears, as if lie were again on the deck waiting for the opening in the trees, and the sight of the white colonnade on the summit of its knoll, which brought with it the dazzle of the sunshine, the purity of the sweet fresh air, the twitter of the birds. How pleasant to have such a vision at waking, to realize with delight that all those pleasant things were henceforth to be the everyday cir- cumstances of his life ! But the next moment a cloud came over his face, for he recollected what it was that must be his occupation to-day. Xo shirking it any longer — no possibility of persuading himself that something else ought to be done first. That had been possible the first day : to see that their future home was comfortable — to make sure that it would be ready for them, surely that was a duty • But now he had accomplished it, and knew all about the house, there was nothing further to keep him back. I hope the reader will not think this perplexed father unnatural or unkind. As a matter of fact, he would have been, and probably would be, after this first obstacle was got over, the kindest, the most fond of fathers. It was the consciousness of the great gulf between what, when he last saw his children, would have been right and natural for them, and what would be suitable and indeed necessary now — between what he himself was then, and what he was now, that over- whelmed him. They might be, in their hearts, everything the prudent father could desire, and yet be quite out of place at Kosmore, where he himself, if a little unpolished, would never- theless be quite in his proper place. If they had been but the little children he remembered, who could have been trained into anything ! Alas, these possibilities were all over. He dressed himself slowly, sighing from time to time, with an oppression on his heart that he could not account for, wishing now, after all, that Evelyn had been with him, who perhaps would have known better how to deal with the emergency. And he breakfasted very slowly, reading the Herald in detail, and brooding over the paragraphs of local news which he did not understand after so many years of separation from Glasgow and its interests. At last the moment came when he could delay no longer He had read the papers ; he had finished his breakfast : he rose with a sigh and took his hat. There is a street in Glasgow which I remember long ago, and which was then called the Sauchiehall Road. Something- picturesque in the name has kept a place in the recollection of a child, over — let us not imagine how many years ; but it may be that a recollection so far on° has confused the outlines of the street, or that in this age of change it maybe completely altered, 72 THE RAILWAY MAX perhaps overrun with tall tenements, perhaps fallen into irre- mediable decay. In like manner I am not sure that it was the Sauchiehall Road in which the young Rowlands lived with their aunt, though I think it was ; and the reader may here excuse the possibility of topographical error. It was a street in which there were many, according to a description exclusively and characteristically Scotch, " self-contained " houses of a small description, such as are not Aery usual in Scotland. So far as I remember, they were of a generally grimy kind, built in that dark complexioned stone which adds so much gloom to the often cloudy skies and damp atmosphere of the western city. These houses presented an aspect of faded gentility, and of having seen better days. But they were at the same time very attrac- tive to people without any pretence at gentility, to whom the dignity of a front door and a house self-contained, in distinction to the more usual circumstances of a flat, was very tempting. It was in one of these houses that Mrs. Brown, who was Rowland's sister-in-law, had established herself with her charges. It was one that was supposed to be among the best of the long- row. It had a yard or two of what was called garden in front, almost tilled with an elder-berry tree, on which there were some dusty indications of coming blossom ; and as the house had been recently painted, and had a bank of flowers in the parlour window, it was easily distinguishable from its neighbours, which were generally faded and dingy in appearance. To describe the beating of the heart with which Mr. Rowland knocked at that freshly painted green door would be almost more than words are equal to : a lover at the crisis of hope and fear, not knowing what was to be the answer to his suit, could not have been more agitated than this sober-minded, middle-aged man. It occurred to him at the last moment not to give his name, but to trust to his sister-in-law's recognition of him, and thus have his first view of his children entirely without any warning. He had scarcely done this, however, before he began to think that to have given them the fullest warning would have been better, so that his first impressions should have been of their very best aspect prepared to please him. But this was only after it was too late to change. " Wha'll I say 1 " said the servant girl, so decidedly bearing that aspect that she could not have been called the maid, or the servant, or anything but the girl. She was wiping her hands with her apron to be ready to take a card, and a cap had been stuck on rather at random upon a mass of curly and not very well-tended hair. " You can say it's a gentleman to speak to Mrs. Brown," said Rowland, stepping into the parlour, which was rather dark with its flowers banked up against the window, though the flowers themselves seemed to flourish luxuriantly. There was something horribly familiar to him in the aspect of the room. He had seen nothing like it for many years, and yet he recognized it in a AXD HIS CHILDEEN 73 momont. It was the best room of the respectable mechanic — the parlour in which his wife put all her pride. There was a round stand, covered with a glass shade, of wax flowers in the centre of the table, and it stood upon a still larger mat sur- rounded with raised flowers worked in crochet in coloured wools standing primly up around. There were a few books laid round like the rays of a star : the Course of Time and other grimly orthodox productions of that character. The chairs and sofa were covered with long " antimacassars," also worked in wool in stripes of different colours ; the mantelpiece was loaded with small pieces of china — girls with lambs, jugs with little pictures upon them, and other such impressive articles, and photographs. Hung over it in the place of honour, Mr. Rowland shivered to see his own portrait, flanked on one side by the picture of a bungalow in which he had once lived, and on the other by a group of football players, with names written underneath, one of them being conspicuously marked as "Archie." Rowland, however, was breathing too quickly to allow him to go up to it, and prepare himself for the appearance of his son. He felt more like running away, and keeping up a fiction of being in India still. While he was looking round him in consternation and alarm, he was suddenly aware that the door had opened, and a little bright figure in coloured muslin and many floating ribbons had come in. She twisted herself as she walked, with a swaying and movement of all the bright-coloured ribbons, and came forward with an apparent intention of shaking hands with the strangei\ But stopping at the distance of a step or two, said with another twist, " Oh, I thought I knew you ! Was there anything you might be wanting that I could do ? " " I am waiting to see Mrs. Brown," he said. " Oh ! that's aunty," said the girl. She looked at the elderly visitor with a slight air of contempt, as if a man who could prefer to see aunty instead of herself was a most curious speci- men of humanit}^. And then she laid down upon the table a parasol she had been carrying, and her gloves, and a small basket of flowers. "I've just been out to the nursery garden to get a flower," she said, " I'm awfully fond of flowers. D'ye like them 1 — Will I give you one for your button-hole — if you're one of aunty's friends ! " "You are very kind," said the tremulous father, "but had you not better wait till you see if aunty recognizes me for one of her friends 1 " "Oh, it's no matter," said the girl, "a flower is neither here nor there — and she'll not be fit to see a gentleman for a good while. She likes to put on her best gown, and her cap with the red ribbons, like the lady in the ' Laird of Cockpen ' — D'ye know the song 1 ?" "I used to know it long ago — before I went to India " "Oh, you've come from Ingia ? Papas out there — I wonder 74 THE RAILWAY MAS if you've come from papa. Archie and me, we are always wishing he would send for us. It would be awful fun. But he says lie's coming home. I hope he'll not come home. I hope he'll send for us out there. Isn't it far better fun out in Ingia than it is here ? " " I don't know about the fun here. Do you remember your father? "he asked. " No," said the young lady indifferently, " I was a little baby when he went away : and he must think I'm a little baby still, for he never sends me things that you might think he would. I've seen girls that had grand necklaces and things, and bangles. Bangles are very much worn here now. But papa never sent me any. I had to buy what I wear." She held out a wrist to him laden with these ornaments of the flimsiest description, wires of silver manufactured to suit a sudden demand. " I am sure that he would have sent you things like these had he thought you cared." " What for would I not care? " said the unconscious girl with great reasonableness. She turned the bangles round and round upon her outstretched arm, holding it up to see how they looked, and not unwilling, perhaps, that the visitor should see how r slim and white it was. The girl was pretty in her way. She had a wonderful amount of ribbons, a necklace with several lockets suspended round her neck, and about a dozen bangles on each arm. What with looking at these, letting them drop upon her arm to judge the effect, glancing at her figure reflected in the little flat glass on the mantelpiece, and casting stealthy looks aside at the stranger to see how all these pretty ways moved him, she had the air of being so fully occupied that there was no wonder it did not occur to her to compare his elderly brown face, with the portrait of her father hanging over the mirror on the wall. " Is your brother at home ? " Mr. Rowland said. "Archie ! oh no, he's never at home. It's past the season for football, perhaps you know, but he's taken to cricket to fill up his time. He's not a dab at cricket," the girl said with a laugh. " It's more an English game than a Scotch game, and Archie is awfully Scotch. He goes on about the flag and that nonsense. Now, I never mind : I like people just to be pleasant, whether they are English or Scotch." " That is the most sensible way," said the father. " Do you hear aunty," said the girl, " rummaging about to get herself dressed, as if you would ever notice what kind of a gown she had on ! I always put on a nice frock in the morning, and then I am fit to be seen all the rest of the day." "But perhaps," said Mr. Rowland, "you have had more advantages than your aunt has had. You have been at school, and learnt a number of things." " Oh, yes, I've been at school," said the girl. " I was at Miss AND HIS CHILDREN 75 Gibbs' in St. Vincent Square. It's rather a grand place ; but I have my doubts about what we learnt there. Aunty sent me because it was so grand — the parents coming in their carriages — Mr, MacColTs daughters, that has the splendid shop in Buchanan Street, and people like that. Miss Gibbs only took me because she was told about papa being so rich. The MacColls have a pony-trap of their own, and a boy in livery to drive about with them," said Marion, with a discontented face. "If my papa is really so rich, I don't see why I shouldn't have a pony-trap too." " When he comes home " Rowland began. " Oli, when he comes home ! I once thought I would like that, though both Archie and me would have liked it better it he had sent for us out to Ingia. But maybe you don't know what has happened ? Papa has married again ! He's married a governess, or something of that kind, that has just caught him for his money. Aunty says there are no fools like old fools. And what will we be now? We might just as well be anybody's children as belong to a man that has got a new wife. She is just sure to put him against us, to get all the money for herself " It was all Rowland could do not to spring up and silence with an angry hand this little pert voice, with its ignoble complaint. He was very angry, but he subdued himself. " I should like to see your brother," he said curtly, for just then the door had been heard to open by a latch-key, and some one had come in. "Archie," said Miss Marion, elevating her voice, but without any other movement. "Come in here. Here's a gentleman that knows papa." The door of the room was ajar. It was pushed open, more gently than might have been expected, by a tall lad, his face highly coloured by the still unsubdued flush of violent exercise. His countenance was of a milder, perhaps feebler, type than that of his sister, and his dress and manner were something between those of an assistant gentleman in a shop and a young clerk. His clothes were good enough, but not very well made or carefully kept. Rowland's heart gave a leap, however, when this head looked in, for the boy had his mother's eyes — kind, honest, well-meaning eyes, devoid of guile. They looked in with an inquiry in them, and then brightened up. The door opened wide, and the young man came in and went up to Rowland, holding out his hand : " If he's from papa," he said, a little broadly — (papaw would be nearer the sound, yet not so much as that), " he's very welcome." In the delightful revulsion the father felt unspeakably grateful, though there was little to call forth that sentiment. "I've been telling him," said Marion, holding up her arm again in order that her bangles might drop back with a tinkle, which evidently was agreeable to her, "that we're very dis- appointed that papa didn't send for us to Ingia, and then we 76 THE RAILWAY MAN Mould have taken care of him and stopped this awful marriage, which will just be our destruction. And it would have been awful fun out there." "You will think we've no business to speak of his marriage in that way. And neither we have," said the youth. " He's old enough to judge for himself." " Old enough ! " said Marion ; "just so old that the parliament should stop people from making such fools of themselves. But there's no fools like auld fools, as aunty says." "I don't go so far as that," said Archie, with an air of im- partiality, " but of course it was a great disappointment. We've been brought up to think everything would be ours ; and then, as my aunt says, there will perhaps be a large young family, and everything spoiled for May and me." A Hush such as would not have misbecome a young lover — a glow of warmth and pleasure — came over Rowland. He scarcely noticed the boy's reflection, for the curious shade of gratification which the last part of his speech gave him. A large young family ; — not that perhaps : but the suggestion seemed to fill his veins with new life. It was at this moment that a sound was heard upon the stairs, announcing Mrs. Brown's speedy appearance : a rustling of silk, and tinkle of ornaments, and some half-whispered remarks to the servant girl— "Ye tawpy ! why did ye no show the gentleman into the drawing-room 1 He's just in the parlour, and that's not the place for visitors. When I give a ring to the bell, mind that ye're ready wi' the cake and wine." "Dear me," said Mrs. Brown, appearing in the room, and using her full and sonorous voice, " May, what tempted ye to bring a gentleman into this small bit of a room — just a family parlour, no fit for visitors, and the drawing-room standing useless up the stair? I havena heard your name, sir, but I'm sure I'm glad to see ye. I was in the middle of some femily business, and I could not get away before." Her appearance, however, contradicted this excuse. Mrs. Brown had put on a silk dress of a brilliant colour, which she called ruby, and which glistened and rustled exceedingly. She wore a big locket on her ample bosom ; her watch, a large one, was twisted into her belt, depending from a long and heavy gold chain, which was round her neck. She had a number of rings upon her fingers. Her cap was an elaborate construction trimmed with ribbons of the same colour as her dress. Her appearance, indeed, as, large and ruddy and full of colour, she came in through the narrow doorway, turned the very atmosphere in the room to a rosy hue. " Jean," said Rowland, rising from his chair. She gave a scream, and gazed at him with wondering eyes. " Wha are ye 1 — wha are ye ? — for I'm sure that I've seen ye be- fore. The lass has no sense to ask a visitor his name." " Is it possible that ye don't know me, Jean 1 " AND HIS CHILDREN 77 "God bless us ! " she said, "it's just Jims Rowland himself ! Eh, man, I'm glad to see ye, Jims. Is it just you !— bairns, it's your papaw. Lord bless me that I should ha' been such a time putting on my cap, and Jims Rowland waiting for me down the stair."' " Papa-w ! " with about half of a W at the end of the last syllable, said Archie. " Papa ! " said Marion. They were both discomfited, but the girl least. She fell back a little upon the bodyguard as it were of her brother. " It was you that said that about the new family," she whispered in Archie's ear. " I am not denying it," said Archie. " He had no business to come in like this and take us unawares." Mrs. Brown gave Rowland a fat hand to shake, and then she subsided into a chair and began to cry. " Eh, to think it should be you ! and saemony years come and gane since ye parted with us a' — and such things as have happened. Ye was but young then, and your heart was running on many a thing out of com- mon folks' way — and to see ye back again looking little the worse, and a' your fancies f ullilled ! It's just the maist wonderful thing I ever heard of. But eh ! Jims Rowland, you're an awfu' changed man from what ye were when ye went away." "I am seventeen years older," Rowland said. "It's no that — but you're far different. You were a heart- broken lad then. 'Twas for the loss of your wife, my bonnie sister Mary— and now you're back with a new lady to put out her very name from the airth." " I think," said Rowland in his own defence, " that not to marry again for more than sixteen years was surely enough to show my respect for her memory." " I never thought you would have married again," said Mrs. Brown. "Mony a time it's been said to me, 'He'll get another wife out yonder ' — but I would never believe it. I just could not think it true. Eh, man, when ye had a bonny dochter o' your ain grown up, and just real well qualified to be the mistress of her faither's house- — ■ — " " Jean," said Mr. Rowland, with seriousness, "I have a great regard for you. You've been, no doubt, a careful guardian of the children — but I cannot answer to you for what I do." " Xa, na, I never imagined it. Ye just acted to please your ain sel', considering nobody. I'm no finding fault — I'm just wondering. And there's the bairns. What think ye of them \ Are they no a credit to any house 1 and a pleasure to the eyes, and a comfort to the heart % She drew Marion forward witli a vigorous hand, and placed the two side by side, confronting their father, who sat and gazed at them helplessly. Two well-grown, well-looking young crea- tures they were indeed. But Rowland gazed at them with a gradual dying out of all light from his face : his lip dropped, his eyes grew blank. What could he say ? Nothing ; there was 78 THE RAILWAY MAN little to find fault with, nothing that could be expressed in ordinary words. A sort of dread came over him as he looked at them, the boy and girl of whom he knew nothing ; who had speculated on him, a being of whom they knew nothing, as to what he would do for them, send for them to India, which would be awful fun, or disappoint them of their lawful expectation of being his heirs. He might never have known what were their sentiments, and perhaps would have remained remorseful all his life, thinking himself to blame in not responding to their affec- tion, but for this unintentional revelation. And now it astonished him to find himself in face of the two who had formed such clear opinions of their own as to what his duty was, and how he had deviated from it. They thought his duty was to take care of and provide for them — and he thought their duty was to regard their unknown father with affection and submission. And neither one nor the other had come true. He could not make any reply to their aunt's appeal. He got up and went to the window, and walked about the little room, knocking against the furniture. " This is a pokey little place you are in," he said, by way of getting rid of some of the vexation in his mind. " I could have wished that you had been in a better house." " It's a very good house," said Mrs. Brown. " This is just the femily parlour — but if ye'll come up to the drawing-room, ye '11 see what a nice room it is. It's just as pleasant a house as there is in Glasgow, if maybe no so big as in some of those new cres- cents and squares out on the Kelvin Road. But everybody knows that the Sauchiehall Road is one of the best pairts. What ails ye at the house? it is just a very good house, quite good enough for the bairns and me." Rowland could make no reply. He stood and stared blankly out of the window into the elder-berry tree, and said no more. CHAPTER XI "You will stay to your dinner?" Mrs. Brown said. The moment that these words, prompted by an inalienable Scotch hospitality, whose promptings are sometimes less than prudent, had left her lips, she reddened suddenly, and cast an alarmed look at Marion, who, for her part, was still standing contem- plating her father, with a look in which a little defiance was concealed under a good deal of curiosity. The girl was con- sidering how to approach and mollify this unknown parent, who, after all, was papa, the giver of all things, and upon whom was dependent the comfort, not to say grandeur, of life to come. It was a pity she had spoken so unadvisedly about his wife, but that, after all, was his own fault. Marion had some experience in novels, which supply so many precedents to the ignorant and AXD HIS CHILDREN 70 young, and knew what a meeting between a father and his children ought to be. He ought to have taken them into his paternal arms. She, the girl, ought to have thrown herself upon his bosom in tears and rapture. He ought to have lifted his eyes to the skies or the ceiling, and have said: "Just like this was her mother when I saw her first ! " None of these things had been done, and the girl was a little at fault. To look at his back- as he stood at the window, evidently out of temper, discouraged and discouraging, was a thing that suggested no kind of original procedure to her mind. And she was consequently of no manner of comfort to her anxious aunt, who had instantly remembered that the mid-day dinner of the family was nothing but hotch- potch. And how was she to set down a rich man, who fared sumptuously every day, to a dinner of hotch-potch 1 Marion's mind was occupied with much more important things. How was she to do away with the disadvantages of that first introduction, and make herself agreeable to papa % A girl in a novel, she began to think, would steal up to him and j:>ut her arm through his, where he stood looking out into the elder-berry tree, and lean her head upon his shoulder, and perhaps say " Dear papa ! " But Marion's courage was not quite equal to that. As for Archie, he simply stood still and stared, too completely taken by surprise to make any movement whatever, contemplating his father's back with unspoken disappointment and dismay. " AVeel," said Mrs. Brown, after waiting in vain for a response, seizing dexterously the opportunity of escape ; "111 just leave ye to make acquaintance witli one another, for I have things to see to in the house ; and, Marion, you'll just see that your papa has a glass of wine, for the dinner, as you're aware, is no till two o'clock. I'll send in the girl with the tray — she ought to have been here before now — and I'll leave you two to entertain your papaw." Then there followed another rustling of the silken gown, and tinkle of the long gold chain, with its bunch of breloques^ after which came another tinkle, that of glasses, as " the girl " brought in a tray with two decanters, a large plate of shortbread, and one of another kind of cake. The wax flowers had to be lifted from the centre of the table to make room for this, and the process occupied a little time and a good deal of commotion, of which Rowland was conscious with increasing irritation and annoyance. He began to feel, however, that the position was ridiculous, and that to stand at the window, with his back to the other occupants of the room, was certainly not to make the best of the situation in any May. He turned round accordingly, and threw himself into a chair, which rocked under him. The strange- ness alike and familiarity of the scene were more bewildering to him than words could say. Mrs. Brown, in the wealth which he had supplied, had done all she could to be genteel, poor woman, according to her lights. The tray with the port and sherry was her best rendering of what a proper reception ought to be. In SO THE RAILWAY MAN the foundry days it would no doubt have been a little whiskey and a bit of oatcake. The instinct was the same, but, according to all the good woman knew, this was the most lofty and cultured way of setting it forth. " Will you take port wine or sherry wine, papa ? " Marion said. "I will take nothing, thank you. Shut the door, I beg. I want to speak to you, my dear." He turned towards her, but his look stopped short at Archie — at Archie, the loutish lad whose lowering forehead was bent over his mother's honest blue eyes. " I did wrong not to tell you at once who I was. I suppose I had some absurd idea that you might recognize me. To make up for this, I'll forget all the foolish things you have said about my wife. As they arise from simple ignorance, and you have had unfortunately no acquaintance with ladies, I'll look over all that, and we'll begin square." Marion listened, standing with the decanter in her hand. " Will you really take nothing, papa ; not a little sherry to keep you going till dinner-time 1 " she said. " My aunt," said Archie, "is a very good woman ; she has been everything that is kind to us, and my own mother's sister — more than the grandest lady in the land. If she is not a lady, neither was my mother, I suppose 1 " " Your mother was — like nobody else, nor to be compared with anybody else," said Rowland hastily. "But you are quite right to stand up for your aunt. I don't doubt she has been very kind to you." " Oh," said Marion, turning her head, "no more than was just her duty, papa. We've done a great deal for her. There is just as much to be said on the one side as the other. You can take a piece of shortbread, Archie, and a wee drop of the sherry wine will do you good." The lad pushed her hand away somewhat rudely. " I wish," he said, " you wouldn't interrupt what papaw says." The girl broke off a little piece of the cake for herself. She poured out a little of the port and sipped it. " Aunty will be vexed if she thinks it hasn't been touched," she said, munching and sipping. Rowland turned his look from her to that pair of blue eyes which were like his Mary's. They were the only com- fort he had in the strange circumstances. He addressed himself to them as to something in which there was understanding in this uncongenial place. " I am afraid, my boy," he said gently, " that we've all been wrong. I first for forgetting that you were growing into a man. It was only my wife's inquiries, anxious as she was to hear everything about you, that showed me my dreadful mistake in this respect. And your aunt has been wrong, which was very excusable on her part, in forgetting that your bringing up, for the position you are likely to have, should have been different. Where have you been at school 1 " AXD HIS CHILDREN 81 "I've been at a very good school," said Archie ; "it's no fault of the school. I've maybe been a little idle. Aunty always said — that is, I thought, as there was plenty of money, what was the use of being a galley slave. So I just got through." "And what is the use," said Marion, "of toiling like the lads that have to go up for exams, when you are such a rich man, papa, and he will never need to work for his living? It's always a nice thing to get grand prizes ; but he was not going in for anything, and what for should he have risked his health, that was of far more consequence 1 " " Let's alone, May. I was maybe wrong, but that was my own opinion, papaw." " Don't say papa," said Rowland, glad to give vent to a little of the intolerable impatience that possessed him. " Call me father. You talk about exams, and working for your living. Do you know what a young man of the upper classes, far better than you, is doing at your age ? — I don't mean the fops and the fools — I hope," he said with some vehemence, "a son of mine will never be either the one or the other. Do you know what they do ? They work in their colleges till they are older than you, or they go and travel, or they're away with their regiment. There are idle ones, but they are no credit, any more than an idle working lad is a credit. Are you doing anything, boy 1 " Archie's countenance fell a little. "I'm in two or three debat- ing societies," he said ; " there's a great many students in them. We have very good debates. I've read a paper twice ; on the ►Scotch question and about local government." " What's the Scotch question ? " said Mr. Rowland ; but like other careless inquirers, he did not wait for an answer. " At your age," he said, " you are better employed learning than teaching, in my opinion." " Oh, papa," said Marion, who had finished her cake and her wine, "it's not teaching ! He doesn't get anything for it. He subscribes to keep up the society. It's quite a thing a gentleman might do." " Hold your tongue, May ! " said her brother. " Quite a thing a gentleman might do ! — and he is not a gentleman, but only a wealthy engineer's son," said Rowland with a sudden flash of mortified pride. The boy in his badly-cut' clothes rilled him with an exasperation not less keen that it was mingled with tenderness for his mother's eyes, and the ingenuous expression in his own countenance. " I've been a fool !" he said ; "I thought, I suppose, that you would take my rise in life like nature, and start from where I ended. I hoped you would turn out like — the lads I've been accustomed to see. How should you 1 ? They all started from gentlemen's houses, and had it in their veins from their birth." His two children stood opposite to him listening to this tirade, which they only half heard and did not half understand. They were quite bewildered by his heat and vehemence and apparent G 82 THE RAILWAY MAX displeasure. What was it that made him angry 1 Marion thought that her brother was very like a gentleman, and he thought that she was very like a lady. It was the utmost length of their ambition. The MacColls, whose father had the splendid shop in Buchanan Street, were not so like ladies as May, though they had a carriage with a pair of ponies. And as for Archie, he was of opinion that he was himself one of those manly and in- dependent thinkers, whose mission it was to pull down the aristocrats, and to abolish caste wherever it might appear. Mr. Rowland took another turn to the window, and wiped his forehead and came back to his chair. He was very anxious to subdue himself, since the defects of the two young people were not their fault, nor were they at all likely to be cured in this way. He tried even to put on a smile as he said to Marion, "And what are you doing with yourself ? " " Oh,"