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 THE JBOOK OF PITY 
 
 AND' OF DEATH 
 
 V 
 
 BY 
 PIERRE LOTI 
 
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 CONTENTS. 
 
 PAGE 
 
 A PRELIMINARY WORD FROM THE AUTHOR, . . vii 
 
 A DREAM, 1 
 
 THE SORROW OF AN OLD CONVICT, .... 13 
 
 A MANGY CAT 23 
 
 A COUNTRY WITHOUT A NAME, .... 33 
 
 A STORY OF Two CATS, 41 
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON 119 
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST, 141 
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS, 165 
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES Us, 183 
 
 THE SLAUGHTER OF AN Ox AT SEA, . . . 343 
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE, .... 253
 
 A PRELIMINARY WORD FROM 
 THE AUTHOR. 
 
 Ah ! Insense, qui crois que tu ri*es pas moi. 
 
 VICTOR HUGO : " Les Contemplations." 
 
 THIS book is more my real self than any- 
 thing I have yet written. It contains one 
 chapter (the Ninth, which is between page 
 185 and page 242) that I have never al- 
 lowed to appear in any magazine lest it 
 should fall under the eyes of certain peo- 
 ple without my being able to give them a 
 forewarning. My first inclination was not 
 to publish this chapter at all. But I 
 thouo-ht of the friends I have who are 
 
 o 
 
 unknown to me ; one response from their 
 distant sympathy I would regard as too 
 much to give up. And then I have always 
 the feeling that in time and space I extend 
 a little the limits of niy own soul by ming-
 
 viii A WORD FROM THE AUTHOR. 
 
 ling it with theirs. A few moments and I 
 shall have passed away ; and then, per- 
 haps, these brethren will preserve the life 
 of the images dear to me which I have 
 graven on their memories. 
 
 This craving to struggle against death, 
 besides next to the desire of doing some- 
 thing of which one believes one's self cap- 
 able is the sole spiritual reason one has 
 for writing at all. 
 
 Among those who profess to study the 
 works of their neighbors, there is a goodly 
 number with whom I have nothing in 
 common, either in my language or my 
 ideas. I am less than ever capable of 
 feeling irritation against them, so much do 
 I allow, before judging other men, for dif- 
 ferences either natural or acquired. 
 
 But this is the first time their sarcasm 
 has the power to wound me, if it should 
 ever reach me, for it would wound at the 
 same time things and beings that are 
 sacred to me. I certainly give them their 
 chance by publishing this book. To them,
 
 A WORD FROM THE AUTHOR. IX 
 
 then, I desire to say just here : " Do me 
 the favor not to read it ; it contains noth- 
 ing for you ; and it will bore you so much, 
 if you only knew." 
 
 PlERRE LOTI.
 
 A DREAM.
 
 SOLD BY THE 
 
 ANTHE LIBEAEY, 
 NEW YORK. 
 
 A DREAM. 
 
 I WOULD I knew a language apart in 
 which I could write the visions of my 
 sleep. When I try to do so with ordinary 
 words I only succeed in constructing a 
 description that is clumsy - and dull, in 
 which my readers can see nothing. I 
 am alone able to perceive behind the 
 cloud of accumulated words the unfathom- 
 able abyss. 
 
 Dreams, even those which seem to us the 
 longest, have, it appears, a scarcely appre- 
 ciable duration no more than those fugi- 
 tive moments in which the spirit floats be- 
 tween waking and sleep. But we are de- 
 ceived by the extraordinary rapidity with 
 which their mirages succeed and change; 
 and having seen so many things pass be- 
 fore us we say : " I have dreamt the whole
 
 night through," when perhaps we have 
 dreamt for barely one minute. 
 
 The vision which I am about to describe 
 did not really last in all probability for 
 more than a few seconds, for even to my- 
 self it appeared very brief. 
 
 The first faint picture defined itself two 
 or three times by stages like the flame of a 
 lamp that is raised by slight jerks behind 
 something transparent. 
 
 At first there was a long, wavering light, 
 drawing to it the attention of my soul as it 
 emerged from deep sleep, from night, and 
 from non-existence. 
 
 The light becomes a beam of the sun, 
 which enters by an open window and 
 spreads over the floor. At the same time, 
 my soul growing more excited, suddenly is 
 disquieted ; a vague reminiscence of I 
 know not what, a rapid presentiment, 
 rushes upon me. like a flash of lightning, of 
 something which must move ine to the 
 very depths of my soul,
 
 A DREAM. 3 
 
 Then the scene becomes more defined. 
 It is the ray of the evening sun that comes 
 from a garden into which the window 
 looks an exotic garden where, without 
 seeing them, I know there are mango 
 trees. In the sunlight that lies across the 
 floor is reflected the shadow of a plant 
 which is in the garden outside and 
 trembles gently the shadow of a banana 
 tree. 
 
 And now the parts, which were com- 
 paratively dark, become clear; in the semi- 
 light the different objects become distinct, 
 and at last I see everything with an inde- 
 scribable shudder. 
 
 Yet there is nothing there but the most 
 simple things : a small colonial room, with 
 walls of wood and chairs of straw: on a 
 console table a clock of the time of Louis 
 the Fifteenth, whose pendulum ticks imper- 
 ceptibly. But I have already seen all this, 
 though I am conscious of being unable to 
 recollect where, and I am shaken with an. 
 before this dark veil which is spreacl
 
 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 across at a certain point in my memory, im- 
 peding the looks I would plunge beyond 
 into some abyss more profound. 
 
 It is evening, and the golden light is 
 about to disappear, and the hands of the 
 Louis Fifteenth clock point to six six 
 o'clock, on what day forever lost in the 
 eternal gulf ? on what day, in what year, 
 now remote and dead ? 
 
 Those chairs have also an antique look. 
 On one of them is laid a woman's large 
 hat, white straw, and of a shape which was 
 in vogue more than a hundred years ago. 
 My eyes are at once attracted to it, and 
 then again the indescribable shudder, 
 stronger now than before. The light be- 
 comes lower and lower, and now it is 
 scarcely even the dim illumination of ordi- 
 nary dreams. I do not know, I cannot say 
 how it is, and yet I feel that at one time I 
 was familiar with everything in this house 
 and with the life that was led there this 
 life, more melancholy and more remote in 
 the Colonies of former days, when the dis-
 
 A DREAM. 5 
 
 tances were greater, and the seas more un- 
 known. 
 
 And while I gaze at this woman's hat, 
 which gradually becomes dimmer and 
 dimmer, like everything else which is 
 there in the gray twilight, the reflection 
 comes to me, though evidently it sprung in 
 another brain than mine, " Oh, then She 
 has come in." 
 
 And, in fact, She does appear. She 
 stands behind me without my having heard 
 her enter She remains in that dark space 
 in the room to which the reflection of the 
 sun does not penetrate ; She very vague, 
 like a sketch, drawn in dead colors and 
 gray shadows. 
 
 She very young, a Creole, bare-headed, 
 her black curls arranged around her brow 
 in a manner long since out of date : eyes, 
 beautiful and limpid, that seemingly long to 
 speak to me, with a mixture in them of 
 sad apprehension and infantine candor: 
 perhaps not absolutely beautiful, still su- 
 premely charming .... and then, above
 
 all things, it is She a word which in it- 
 self is exquisitely sweet to pronounce, a 
 word which, taken in the sense in which 
 I understand it, embraces in it every 
 reason for existence, expresses almost the 
 ineffable and the infinite. To say that I 
 recognized her would be an expression 
 miserably commonplace and miserably 
 weak. There was .something which made 
 all my being rush toward her, moved by 
 some profound and irresistible attraction, 
 as if to seize hold of her, and. this impulse 
 at the same time had something about it 
 restrained and repressed, as though it were 
 an impossible effort by someone to regain 
 his lost breath and his dead life after years 
 and years passed under the mound of a 
 grave. 
 
 Usually a very strong emotion in a 
 dream breaks its impalpable threads and 
 all is over. You awake ; the fragile web, 
 once broken, floats an instant, and then 
 vanishes the more quickly the more eagerly
 
 A DREAM. 1 
 
 the mind strives to retain it ; disappears 
 like a torn veil which one pursues into 
 the void, and which the wind carries away 
 to inaccessible distances. 
 
 But no ; this time I woke not, and the 
 dream continued even while it was being 
 effaced, lasted on still while gradually fading 
 away. 
 
 A moment we remained one opposite 
 the other, stupefied, in the very ecstacy 
 of our remembrance, by some indefinable 
 and somber inertia; without voices to 
 speak, and almost without thought ; ex- 
 changing our phantom looks with astonish- 
 ment and a delicious anguish Then 
 
 our eyes were veiled and we became forms 
 still vaguer, performing insignificant and 
 involuntary actions. The light became 
 dimmer, ever dimmer, and soon we saw al- 
 most nothing. She went outside and I 
 followed her into a kind of drawing-room 
 with white walls, vast and scantily fur- 
 nished wdth simple things, as was the 
 custom in the dwellings of the planters.
 
 8 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 Another woman's shadow awaited us 
 there, clothed in the Creole dress an 
 elderly woman whom I recognized almost 
 immediately, and who resembled her, 
 doubtless her mother. She arose at our 
 approach, and we all three went out to- 
 gether, without previous arrangement, as 
 if obeying a habit. . . . . Good Heavens! 
 What an accumulation of words and of 
 prolix phrases to explain awkwardly all 
 that thus passed passed without duration 
 and without noise, between personages 
 transparent as rays, moving without life in 
 a darkness that ever increased, ever became 
 more colorless, and ever dimmer than that 
 of night. 
 
 We all three went out together in the 
 twilight into a sad little street, ah ! so sad 
 with small, low colonial houses on each 
 side under large trees ; at the end, the sea,' 
 vaguely defined; over it all, a suggestion 
 of expatriation, of distant exilo, something 
 like what one would have felt in the last 
 century in the streets of Martinique or of
 
 A DREAM. 9 
 
 La Reunion, but without the full light of 
 day ; everything seen in that twilight 
 where dwell the dead. Large birds 
 wheeled in the dark sky, but, in spite of 
 this darkness, one had the consciousness of 
 its being that hour, still bright, which fol- 
 lows the setting of the sun. Evidently 
 we were following an ordinary habit. In 
 this darkness, which ever became thicker, 
 though it was not the darkness of night, 
 we were once again taking our evening 
 stroll. 
 
 But the clear impressions were no longer 
 visible, and there remained to ine nothing 
 beyond a notion of two specters, light and 
 sweet, that walked by my side, and then, 
 then came nothingness to us, extinguished 
 in the absolute night of real sleep. 
 
 I slept for a long time after this dream 
 an hour, two hours, how long I know 
 not. When I awoke and began to think, 
 as soon as the first recollection of what I 
 had seen came back to me, I experienced
 
 10 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 that kind of internal emotion which makes 
 one start and open wide one's eyes. In 
 my memory I caught the vision first at its 
 most intense moment, that in which sud- 
 denly I had thought of Her; that I recog- 
 nized her large hat thrown on that chair, 
 and that she had appeared from behind me. 
 .... Then slowly, little by little, I rec- 
 ollected all the rest : details, so precise, of 
 that room already familiar to me ; of that 
 older lady whom I saw in the shade ; of 
 that walk in the little dilapidated street. 
 .... Where, then, had I seen and lived 
 all this? I sought rapidly in my past 
 with a certain inquietude, with an anxious 
 sadness, believing it certain that I should 
 find it all there. .But no ; there was 
 nothing of the kind anywhere in my own 
 life; there was nothing to resemble it in 
 
 my own experiences 
 
 The human head is filled with innumer- 
 able memories, heaped up pell-mell, like 
 the threads in a tangled skein. There are 
 thousands and thousands of them hidden
 
 A DREAM. 11 
 
 in obscure corners whence they will never 
 come forth; the mysterious hand that 
 moves and then puts them back seizes 
 sometimes those which are most minute 
 and most illusive, and brings them back 
 for a moment into the light during those 
 intervals of calm that precede or follow 
 sleep. That which I have just related will 
 certainly never reappear ; or, if it does re- 
 appear some other night, I shall probably 
 learn no more as to this woman and this 
 place of exile, because in my head there is 
 no more that concerns them. It is the 
 last fragment of a broken thread which 
 finished where finished my dream. The 
 commencement and the end existed in 
 other brains long since returned to dust. 
 Among my ancestors I had some sailors 
 whose lives and adventures are but im- 
 perfectly known to me, and there are cer- 
 tainly I know not where in some small 
 cemetery in the Colonies some old bones 
 which are the remains of the young 
 woman with the straw hat and the black
 
 12 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 locks. The charm which her eyes exer- 
 cised over one of my ancestors was suffi- 
 ciently powerful to project a last mysteri- 
 ous reflection even unto me. I dreamt of 
 her the whole day .... and with so 
 strange a melancholy.
 
 THE SOEEOW OF AN OLD 
 CONVICT.
 
 THE SORROW OF AN OLD 
 CONVICT. 
 
 THIS is a little story which was told me 
 by Yves. It happened one evening when 
 he had gone into the Roads to carry in his 
 gunboat a cargo of convicts to the trans- 
 port vessel which was to take them to 
 New Caledonia. 
 
 Among them was a very old convict 
 (seventy at least), who carried with him 
 very tenderly a poor sparrow in a small 
 cage. 
 
 Yves, to pass the time, had entered into 
 conversation with this old fellow, who had 
 not, it appears, a bad face, but who was 
 tied by his chain to a young gentleman 
 ignoble-looking, sneering, with the glasses 
 of the short-sighted on a small pale nose. 
 
 An old highwayman arrested for the 
 
 15
 
 16 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 fifth or sixth time for vagabondage and 
 robbery, he said he was. " How can a 
 man avoid stealing when he has once com- 
 menced, and when he has no trade what- 
 ever, and when people won't have any- 
 thing to do with him anywhere? He 
 must, mustn't he ? My last sentence was 
 for a sack of potatoes which I took in a 
 field with a wagoner's whip and a pump- 
 kin. Mightn't they have allowed me to 
 die in France, I ask you, instead of sending 
 me down there, old as I am ?".... And 
 then, quite happy at finding that some- 
 body was willing to listen to him with 
 sympathy, he showed to Yves his most 
 precious possession in the world, the little 
 cage and the sparrow. 
 
 The sparrow was quite tame, and knew 
 his voice, and for more than a year had 
 lived with him in his cell, perched on his 
 shoulder. .... Ah, it was not without 
 trouble he had obtained permission to take 
 it with him to New Caledonia, and then, 
 he had besides to make for it a cage which
 
 THE SORROW OF AN OLD CONVICT. 17 
 
 would be suitable for the voyage, to pro- 
 cure some wood, a little old Avire, and a 
 little green paint to paint the whole and 
 make it pretty. 
 
 Here I recall the very words of Yves. 
 " Poor sparrow ! It had for food in its 
 cage a piece of that gray bread which is 
 given in prisons, but it had the appearance 
 of being quite happy, nevertheless. It 
 jumped about just like any other bird." 
 
 Some hours afterward, when they 
 reached the transport vessel and the con- 
 victs were about to embark for their long 
 voyage, Yves, who had forgotten this old 
 man, passed once more by chance near him. 
 
 " Here, take it, 77 said the old man, with 
 a voice that had altogether changed, hold- 
 ing out to him his little cage, " I give it to 
 you. You may perhaps find some use for 
 it ; perhaps it may give you pleasure." 
 
 " Certainly not," replied Yves. " On the 
 contrary, you must take it with you. It 
 will be your little comrade down there." 
 
 "Oh," replied the old man, "he is no
 
 18 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 longer inside. You didn't know that ; you 
 didn't hear, then ! He is no longer there," 
 and two tears of indescribable misery ran 
 down his cheeks. 
 
 Through a lurch of the vessel the door 
 of the cage had opened ; the sparrow took 
 fright, flew out, and immediately fell into 
 the sea because of its cut wing. Oh, what a 
 moment of horrible grief to see it fight and 
 die, swept away by the rapid current, and he 
 all the time helpless to rescue it. At first, 
 by a natural impulse, he wished to cry out 
 for help ; to address himself to Yves ; to im- 
 plore him But the impulse was im- 
 mediately stopped by the recollection and 
 the consciousness of his personal degrada- 
 tion. An old wretch like him ! Who 
 would be ready to hear the prayer of such 
 as he ? Could he ever imagine that the ship 
 would be stopped to fish up a drowning 
 sparrow the poor bird of a convict ? The 
 idea was absurd. Accordingly he re- 
 
 O / 
 
 mained silent in his place, looking at the 
 little gray body as it disappeared on the
 
 THE SORROW OF AN OLD CONVICT. 19 
 
 foam of the sea, struggling to the end. He 
 felt terribly lonely now, and forever, and 
 great tears of solitary and supreme despair 
 dimmed Iris eyes. Meantime, the young 
 gentleman with the eye-glasses, his chain- 
 fellow, laughed to see an old man weep. 
 
 Now that the bird was no longer there, 
 he did not wish to preserve its cage, made 
 with so much solicitude for the lonely dead 
 bird. He offered it to this good soldier who 
 had condescended to listen to his story, 
 anxious to leave him this legacy before de- 
 parting for his long and last voyage. 
 
 And Yves sadly had accepted the 
 empty cage as a present, so that he might 
 not cause any more pain to this old aban- 
 doned wretch by appearing to disdain 
 this thing which had cost him so much 
 labor. 
 
 I feel that I have not been able to do 
 full justice to all the sadness that there 
 was in this story as it was told me. 
 
 It was evening and very late, and I was 
 about to go to bed. I, who had in the
 
 20 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 course of my life seen with little emo- 
 tion so many loud-sounding sorrows and 
 dramas and deaths, perceived with aston- 
 ishment that the distress of this old man 
 tore my heart, and even threatened to dis- 
 turb my sleep. 
 
 " I wonder," said I, " if means could be 
 found of sending him another ? " 
 
 " Yes," replied Yves, " I also thought of 
 that. I thought of buying him a beauti- 
 ful bird at a bird dealer's and bringing it 
 back to him to-morrow with the little cage 
 if there were time to do so before his de- 
 parture. It would be a little difficult. 
 Moreover, you are the only person who 
 could go into the Roads to-morrow and go 
 on board the transport to find out this old 
 man ; and I do not even know his name. 
 And, then, would not people think it very 
 odd?" 
 
 "Ah, yes, certainly. As to its being 
 thought odd, there cannot be any mistake 
 about that." And for a moment I dwelt 
 with pleasure upon the idea, laughing that
 
 THE SORROW OF AN OLD CONVICT. 21 
 
 good inner laugh which scarcely appears 
 upon the surface. 
 
 However, I did not follow up the pro- 
 ject, and the following morning when I 
 awoke, and with the first impression gone, 
 the thing appeared to me childish and 
 ridiculous. This disappointment was not 
 one of those which a mere plaything could 
 console. The poor old convict, all alone 
 in the Avorld the most beautiful bird in 
 Paradise would never replace for him the 
 humble gray little sparrow with cut wing, 
 reared on prison bread, who had been able 
 to awake once more in him a tenderness 
 infinitely sweet, and to draw tears from a 
 heart that was hardened and half-dead. 
 
 ROCHESTER, December, 1889.
 
 A MANGY CAT.
 
 A MANGY CAT. 
 
 AN old mangy cat, hunted out of its 
 abode no doubt by its owners, had estab- 
 lished itself in our street, on the footpath 
 of our house, where a little November 
 sun once more warmed its body. It is the 
 custom with certain people whose pity is a 
 selfish pity thus to send off, as far away as 
 possible, and " lose" the poor animals they 
 care neither to tend nor to see suffer. 
 
 All day long it would sit piteously in 
 the corner of a window sill, looking, oh ! so 
 unhappy and so humble, an object of dis- 
 gust to those who passed, menaced by 
 children and by dogs, in continual danger, 
 and sickening from hour to hour. It lived 
 on offal, picked up with great difficulty in 
 the streets, and there it sat all alone, drag- 
 ging out its existence as it could, striving to 
 
 25
 
 26 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ward off death. Its poor head was eaten 
 up with disease, covered with sores, and 
 almost without fur, but its eyes, which re- 
 mained bright, seemed to reflect profoundly. 
 It must have felt in its frightful bitterness 
 the worst of all sufferings to a cat that 
 of not being able to make its toilet, to lick 
 its fur, and to comb itself with the care 
 cats always bestow on this operation. 
 
 To make its toilet! I believe that to 
 beast, as to man, this is one of the most 
 necessary distractions of life. The poorest, 
 the most diseased, and the most decrepit 
 animals at certain hours dress themselves 
 up, and, as long as they are able to find 
 time to do that, have not lost everything in 
 life. But to be no longer able to care for 
 their appearance because nothing can be 
 done before the final moldering away, 
 that has always appeared to me the lowest 
 depth of all the supreme agony. Alas for 
 those poor old beggars who before death 
 have mud and filth on their faces, their 
 bodies scarred with wounds that no longer
 
 A MANGY CAT. 27 
 
 can be dressed, the poor diseased animals 
 for whom there is no longer even pity. 
 
 It gave me so much miseiy to look at 
 this forsaken cat that I first sent it some- 
 thing to eat in the street, and then I 
 approached it and spoke to it softly 
 (animals very soon learn to understand 
 kind actions and find consolation in them). 
 Accustomed to be hunted, it was first 
 frightened at seeing me stop before it. Its 
 first look was suspicious, filled with re- 
 proach and supplication. " Are you also 
 going to drive me away from this last 
 sunny corner?" And then quickly per- 
 ceiving that I had come from sympathy, 
 and astonished at so much kindness, it ad- 
 dressed to me very softly its poor cat's an- 
 swer, "Prr! PIT! Prr !" rising out of po- 
 liteness, and attempting to lift its back, in 
 spite of its weariness, and in hopes that 
 perhaps I would go as far as a caress. 
 
 No, my pity, even though I was the only 
 body in the world that felt any for it, did 
 not go this length. That happiness of be-
 
 28 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ing caressed it would never know again, but 
 as a compensation I imagined that I might 
 give it death immediately, with my own 
 hand, and in a manner almost pleasant. 
 
 An hour afterward this was done in the 
 stable. Sylvester, my servant, who had 
 first gone and bought some chloroform, 
 had attracted the cat in quietly, induced it 
 to lie down on the hot hay at the bottom 
 of a wicker basket, which was to be its 
 mortuary chamber. Our preparations did 
 not disquiet it. We had rolled a carte-de- 
 visite in the shape of a cone, as we had 
 seen the surgeons do in the ambulance. 
 The cat looked at us with a confiding and 
 happy air, having thought at last it had 
 found a home, people who would take 
 compassion on it, new masters who would 
 heal it. 
 
 Meantime, and in spite of my dread of 
 its disease, I leaned down to caress it, hav- 
 ing already received from the hands of 
 Sylvester the paste-board cup all covered 
 with poison. While caressing it I tried to
 
 A MANGY CAT. 29 
 
 induce it to remain quiet there, to push 
 little by little the end of his nose into the 
 narcotized cup. A little surprised at first, 
 sniffing with va<me terror at this unaccus- 
 
 o o 
 
 torned smell, it ended by doing as it was 
 asked with such submission that I almost 
 hesitated to continue my work. The anni- 
 hilation of a thinking animal, even thougli 
 it be not a human being, has in it some- 
 thing to dunifound us. When one thinks 
 
 O 
 
 of it, it is always the same revolting mys- 
 tery, and death besides carries with it so 
 much majesty, that it has the power of 
 giving sublimity in an unexpected, exag- 
 gerated form to the most infinitesimal scene 
 from the instant its shadow appears. At 
 this moment I appeared to myself like 
 some black magician, arrogating to myself 
 the right of bringing to the suffering what 
 I believod to be supreme peace, the right of 
 opening to those who had not demanded it 
 the gates of the great night. 
 
 Once it lifted its poor head, almost life- 
 less, to look at me fixedly. Our eyes met
 
 30 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 his, questioning, expressive, asking me 
 with an extreme intensity, " What are you 
 doing to me, you to whom I confided my- 
 self, and whom I know so little ? What 
 are you doing to me ? " And I still hesi- 
 tated, but its neck fell ; its poor disgust- 
 ing head now supported itself on my hand, 
 which I did not withdraw. A torpor in- 
 vaded it in spite of itself, and I hoped it 
 would not look at me again. 
 
 But it did, one other last time. Cats, as 
 the poor people say, have their souls 
 pinned to their bodies. In a last spasm of 
 life, it looked at me again across the half 
 sleep of death. It seemed even to all at 
 once comprehend everything. " Ah, then 
 it was to kill me and not assist me : 
 
 I allow it to be done It is too 
 
 late I am falling asleep." 
 
 In fact, I was afraid that I had done 
 wrong. In this world in which we know 
 nothing of anything, men are not allowed 
 to even pity intelligently. Thus, its look, 
 infinitely sad, even while it descended into
 
 A M4NGT CAT. 31 
 
 the petrifaction of death, continued to 
 pursue me as with a reproach. " Why did 
 you interfere with my destiny ? I might 
 have been able to drag along for a time ; 
 to have had still some little thoughts for 
 at least another week. There remained to 
 me sufficient strength to leap on the win- 
 dow sill where the dogs could no more 
 torment me, where I was not cold. In the 
 morning, when the sun came there, I had 
 some moments which were not unbearable, 
 looking at the movement of life around me, 
 interested in the coming and going of 
 other cats,' conscious at least of something : 
 
 ' o " 
 
 while now, I am about to decompose and 
 be transformed into I know not what, that 
 will not remember. Soon I shall no 
 longer be" 
 
 I should have recollected, in fact, that 
 even the meanest of things love to pro- 
 long their life by every means, even to its 
 utmost limits of misery, preferring any- 
 thing to the terror of being nothing, of no 
 longer being.
 
 32 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 When I came back in the evening to see 
 it again I found it stiff and cold, in the 
 attitude of sleep in which I had left it. 
 Then I told Sylvester to close the mor- 
 tuary basket, to carry it away far from 
 the city, and throw it away in the fields.
 
 A COUNTRY WITHOUT A 
 NAME.
 
 A COUNTRY WITHOUT A 
 NAME. 
 
 HERE is a vision which came to me one 
 April right while I slept in a tent in an 
 encampment among the Bani-Hassen in 
 Morocco, at about three days' march from 
 the holy city of Mequinez. 
 
 The curtain of the dream rose abruptly 
 on a remote country oh ! so remote far 
 more remote than the usual earthly dis- 
 tances, so that as soon as the scene began 
 to dimly unveil itself even before I could 
 see it well I myself had a sense of this 
 terrible remoteness. It was a plain, rugged, 
 bare desert, where it was terribly hot and 
 dark, under a mournful twilight sky. It 
 had, however, nothing unique in its ap- 
 pearance, as, for example, certain plains in 
 Central Africa which seem insignificant ui
 
 36 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 themselves, but have a certain distinctive 
 character, and which nevertheless are dif- 
 ficult and dangerous of access. If I had 
 known nothing pf the place, I might have 
 believed myself anywhere; but I had a 
 knowledge of the country, a sort of immedi- 
 ate intuition, and therefore it oppressed me 
 to be there, for I felt myself annihilated by 
 these endless distances, by the anguish of 
 infinite journeys from which there was no 
 return. 
 
 On this plain, small stunted trees arose 
 whose black branches were twisted back on 
 each other by a series of rectangular frac- 
 tures, like the arms of Chinese armchairs. 
 They had each only three or four leaves of 
 a soft green, which hung as though ex- 
 hausted by the heat. 
 
 I had a sense that from one moment to 
 another sinister spirits, animals, perils, 
 might arise from every point on this dim 
 horizon, misty with stagnant clouds of 
 darkness. One of the imaginary compan- 
 ions of my journey I must have had at
 
 A COUNTRY WITHOUT A NAME. 37 
 
 least two, whose presence I felt, but who 
 were invisible spirits, voices. One of my 
 companions whispered in my ear, "Ah, 
 now that we are here, you must beware 
 of the dogs with claws" " Ah, quite so," I 
 said, with a careless air, as though I were 
 
 ' I O 
 
 quite familiar with this kind of animal and 
 with the danger they threatened. Clearly 
 I had been there already, and yet these 
 dogs with claws, their image suddenly re- 
 called to. my spirit, and accentuating still 
 more the notion of this remote expatriation, 
 made me tremble. 
 
 They appeared immediately, called forth 
 by the single mention of their name, and 
 with that astonishing facility with which 
 things pass in dreams. They ran more 
 quickly across the shadow of this dark twi- 
 light shot forth like arrows or bullets, so 
 that one had not time to see them approach 
 frightful black dogs, with nails like cats 
 claws that seemed to scratch viciously as 
 they pattered swiftly along and lost them- 
 selves in the confused distance.
 
 38 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 There also passed little women, almost 
 dwarfs, giggling, mocking half-monkeys (in 
 real life I had met two like them in the 
 midst of an African desert, devoured by 
 the sun, under the oppression of a black 
 sky, and in the environs of Obock). These 
 women, doubtless, had claws like the dogs, 
 for as they passed me they clawed in the 
 same way. Then their breath also gave 
 the suggestion of a " claw " ; for, when they 
 breathed in nay face, it pricked like the 
 points of needles. 
 
 Human words cannot describe the real 
 heart of this vision the mystery and the 
 sadness of this plain which thus reap- 
 peared ; all that rose up in me of disquie- 
 tude and desolation in merely looking at 
 those wretched little trees, with their long 
 leaves withered by the heat. When I 
 woke up the timid dawn was just begin- 
 ning to penetrate through the canvas of 
 my tent, and the notion came back to me 
 gradually and slowly of real life of 
 Africa, of Morocco, of the Beni-Hassen, of
 
 A COUNTRY WITHOUT A NAME. 39 
 
 our little encampment in the midst of the 
 widely stretching desert pasturages. Then 
 I regained suddenly a pleasant impression 
 of Tiome, of unexpected return. And, good 
 Heavens ! how many people are there who 
 will smile at my dread of these little women 
 with claws, who, in my place, would be 
 considerably alarmed by these uncertain 
 tribes around him, by these long journeys 
 from station to station, under a hot sun, 
 without roads over the mountains, and with- 
 out bridges over the streams ? As for me, 
 the territory of the Beni-Hassen appeared 
 comparable to the tamest suburb of Paris in 
 comparison with that country belonging to 
 I know not what planet, going whence I 
 know not, and seen during the unfathom- 
 able infinities of time and of space in the 
 inexplicable second-sight of dreams.
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS.
 
 A STOEY OF TWO CATS. 
 
 (For my son Samuel, when lie has learned 
 to read.) 
 
 i. 
 
 I HAVE often seen, with an infinitely sad 
 disquietude, the soul of animals appear in 
 the depths of their eyes. I have seen the 
 soul of a cat, the soul of a dog, the soul of 
 a monkey reveal itself suddenly for a 
 moment as sad as a human soul, and search 
 for my soul with tenderness, supplication, 
 or terror ; and I have perhaps felt a deeper 
 pity for the souls of animals than for those 
 of my brothers, because they are without 
 speech and incapable of coming forth from 
 their semi night, especially when they be- 
 long to the humblest and most despised of 
 their kind. 
 
 43
 
 44 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 II. 
 
 The two cats whose story I am about to 
 tell are associated in my memory with 
 some of the years of my life which were 
 comparatively happy. Ah ! they were 
 quite recent years if you look at them 
 with the dates in your hand, but they are 
 years which to me appear already distant, 
 already remote, carried past me with that 
 rapidity of time which becomes ever and 
 ever more terrible years that now being 
 past look as if they were colored by the last 
 rays of the dawn, with the final rosy tints 
 of morning and of the openings of life when 
 I put them in contrast with the gray hours 
 of to-day. Thus quickly do our days be- 
 come darker ; thus rapidly do we descend 
 toward everlasting night. 
 
 in. 
 
 I must be pardoned for calling them 
 both by the same name of " Moumoutte." 
 In the first place I have never had any 
 power of imagination for coining names for
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 45 
 
 my cats. It has always been Moumoutte, 
 and the kittens always Miini ; and, indeed, 
 for my part, I do not think there are any 
 names which suit better, which are more 
 cattish than those two adorable ones, Mimi 
 and Moumoutte. 
 
 I will then preserve to the poor little 
 heroines of these stories the names they 
 bore in real life for the one White Mou- 
 moutte, for the other Gray Moumoutte, or 
 Chinese Moumoutte. 
 
 IV. 
 
 By order of seniority, it is White Mou- 
 moutte that I must first introduce. On 
 her carte-de-visite, in fact, she had engraved 
 her title as first cat in my house : 
 
 MADAME MOUMOUTTE BLANCHE, 
 
 Premiere Ghatte 
 CHEZ M. PIERRE LOTI. 
 
 It is almost ten years ago that memor- 
 able, joyous evening on which I saw her 
 for the first time ! It was a winter even-
 
 46 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ing on one of my periodic returns to my 
 fireside after some campaign or other in 
 the East. I had just arrived home, and I 
 was warming myself in the large draw- 
 ing-room before a wood fire between 
 mamma and Aunt Claire, who were seated 
 at the two corners of the fireplace. Sud- 
 denly something burst with a jump into 
 the room like a rocket, fell, then madly 
 rolled itself on the ground, white as snow 
 on the somber red carpet. 
 
 " Ah," said Aunt Claire, " you did not 
 know then ? I must introduce her to you. 
 This is our new Moumoutte. What would 
 you have ? We had to have another ; 
 a mouse had found its way right into our 
 little room below." 
 
 There had been in our house a pretty 
 long interregnum without Moumouttes be- 
 cause we mourned a certain cat from Sene- 
 gal which had been brought home by me 
 after my first campaign, and, after being 
 adored for two years, had, one morning in 
 June, after a short illness, died looking at
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 4*7 
 
 me with an expression of supreme prayer ; 
 I myself had buried it at the foot of a 
 tree in our courtyard. 
 
 I caught up, to see it better, the beauti- 
 ful ball of fur which spread so white upon 
 the red carpet. I took her in both hands 
 of course, for this is a special precaution 
 which I never omit in dealing with cats, 
 and which seems to say to them at once, 
 " Here is a man who understands us ; who 
 knows how to touch us ; who is one of our 
 friends, and w r hose caresses one can con- 
 descend to receive with amiability." 
 
 It was very affable the little phiz of 
 this new Moumoutte ; its eyes bright, 
 almost childlike ; the end of its little nose 
 rosy red, and then nothing more, for the 
 remainder was lost in the depths of an 
 Angora coat, silky, clean, sweet-smelling, 
 while exquisite to stroke and pet. More- 
 over, it was marked and spotted exactly 
 like the dead Moumoutte from Senegal 
 
 O 
 
 which perhaps was what decided the 
 choice of mamma and Aunt Claire, so that
 
 48 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 a slight confusion of the two in my some- 
 what volatile heart might be brought 
 about in the end. On her ears she had a 
 very large black bonnet, fixed straight, 
 and forming a fillet for her bright eyes. 
 A short black pelerine was thrown over 
 her shoulders, and finally she had a splen- 
 did black tail like a superb plume, which 
 was agitated with the perpetual motion of 
 a fan to drive away flies. The stomach 
 and the paws were as white as the down 
 of a swan, and altogether she gave you the 
 impression of a . large bundle of fur, so 
 light as to be almost without weight, and 
 moved by a capricious little machinery of 
 nerves always on the stretch. 
 
 Moumoutte after this examination ran 
 away from me to begin once more its play, 
 and in those first moments after my arrival 
 which were necessarily melancholy be- 
 cause they marked one more stage in life 
 the new white cat with its black spots 
 insisted on rny taking notice of her, jump- 
 ing on my knees to bid me welcome, or
 
 A &TORY OF TWO CATS. 49 
 
 stretching herself on the ground with an 
 affected lassitude to make me admire the 
 more the whiteness of her stomach and 
 her silky neck. AVhile this Moumoutte 
 was thus gamboling, my eyes rested with 
 devotion on the two dear faces which 
 were smiling at me there, a little aged, and 
 framed in locks a little grayer ; on the 
 family portraits, which preserved the same- 
 ness of expression and age in their frames 
 on the wall ; on the objects so familiar and 
 in the same places ; on the thousand 
 things of this hereditary home that had 
 remained unchanged also, while I had 
 passed with a changed heart over the 
 changing world. And this was the pic- 
 ture, persistent and distinct, which was to 
 remind me of her, even after her death a 
 foolish little animal, white, unexpected, 
 gamboling on a red ground between the 
 mourning dress of mamma and Aunt 
 Claire on the evening of one of my great 
 home-comings. 
 
 Poor Moumoutte during the first winter
 
 50 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 of her life was the familiar little demon, 
 the little household imp that brightened 
 the solitude of those two blessed guardians 
 of my fireside, mamma and Aunt Claire. 
 While I was wandering on distant seas, 
 when the house had become again large 
 and empty, in the sad twilight of Decem- 
 ber, in the long evenings without end, she 
 remained their faithful companion, tor- 
 menting them now and then, and leaving 
 on their irreproachable black gowns tufts 
 of her white fur. Entirely without discre- 
 tion, she used to install herself on their 
 knees, on their worktables, even in their 
 workbaskets, twisting their balls of cotton 
 or their skeins of silk, and then they 
 would say with terrible looks, but almost 
 laughing in spite of themselves, " Ah, that 
 cat ; there is no making her behave. Be 
 off ! Be off ! Did ever anybody see such 
 manners? It is too bad." There was 
 even a whip expressly for her which she 
 was occasionally allowed to see. She loved 
 them after her cat manner that is to say,
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 51 
 
 without obedience, but with a touching 
 confidence ; and if it were only for this, 
 her little soul, incomplete and fantastic, 
 deserves that I should remember her. 
 
 In the spring, when the March sun 
 began to warm her coat, she would ex- 
 perience an ever novel surprise that of 
 seeing her comrade and friend Sulima, the 
 tortoise, wake up and come out of the 
 earth. During the beautiful month of 
 May, she would generally feel an irre- 
 sistible desire for expansion and for liberty 
 enter into her soul, and then there came 
 nocturnal disappearances in the gardens 
 and on the roofs of the neighbors. In the 
 summer she would have the languors of a 
 
 O 
 
 Creole. During entire days she would 
 lie in a stupor of comfort and of heat, 
 crouched on the old walls among the 
 
 O 
 
 honeysuckle and the roses, or stretched on 
 the ground, presenting to the burning sun 
 her white stomach on the white stones 
 between the pots of blooming cactus. 
 Extremely careful of her person and at
 
 52 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ordinary times sedate, correct in her be- 
 havior, aristocratic down to the tips of her 
 nails, she was nevertheless quite intractable 
 with other cats, and became quite rude the 
 moment a visitor presented itself to her. 
 In the courtyard, which she considered as 
 her domain, she would never allow a 
 stranger the right to appear ; if above the 
 wall of a neighboring garden two ears or 
 the nose of cat iniidl made their ap- 
 pearance, or even if anything stirred in the 
 branches of the ivy, sh would dart out 
 herself like a young fury, with her fur 
 erect down to the end of her tail, impossi- 
 ble to hold, and no longer her usual self ; 
 then came cries in the worst taste, followed 
 by a rough and tumble and the blows of 
 conflicting claws. 
 
 To sum up, she was fiercely independent, 
 and she was usually disobedient, but she 
 was affectionate in her good moments, 
 so caressing and so wheedling, and she 
 uttered such a pretty little cry of joy 
 when she returned among us after one of
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 53 
 
 her vagabond excursions in the gardens of 
 the neighborhood. She was now about 
 five years old, and she was in all the splen- 
 dor of her Angora beauty, with attitudes 
 of superb dignity and the airs of a queen. 
 I had harl time to become attached to her 
 by a series of absences and returns, con- 
 sidering her as one of the things of the 
 hearth, as one of the beings of the house- 
 hold, when there was born, three thousand 
 leagues from her home, in the Gulf of 
 Pekin, and of a family more than humble, 
 she who was to become her inseparable 
 friend the strangest little person I have 
 ever known Chinese Mounioutte. 
 
 v. 
 
 MADAME MOUMOUTTE CHINOISE, 
 
 Deuxidme CJiatte 
 CHEZ M. PIERRE LOTI. 
 
 Singular, indeed, was the destiny which 
 handed over to me this Moumoutte of a
 
 54 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 yellow race, and the offspring of parents at 
 
 once poor and without any title to beauty. 
 
 It was at the end of the war there, on 
 
 one of those evenings of conflict which 
 
 O 
 
 were so frequent then. I do not know 
 how it was that this little animal, escaped 
 from some junk in the midst of disorder, 
 had, after jumping aboard our vessel in its 
 terror, sought an asylum in my room under 
 uiy bed. She was yellow, not yet of adult 
 figure, miserable-looking, emaciated, plain- 
 tive, having without doubt, like her 
 parents and her masters, lived sparingly on 
 the heads of fish with a little rice cooked 
 in water, and I took so much pity on her 
 that I ordered my orderly to procure for 
 her something to eat and drink. 
 
 With a humble and grateful air she ac- 
 cepted my kindness, and I can see her 
 still as she slowly approached toward this 
 unexpected repast, advancing first one foot 
 and then the other, her eyes all the time 
 fixed on mine to assure herself that she 
 was not deceived, and that it was really in-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 55 
 
 tended for her. Next morning, of course, 
 I wanted to put her out. After having had 
 a fairly good breakfast prepared for her, I 
 clapped my hands violently, stamping with 
 both my feet at the same time as is usual 
 in such cases, and saying, in a very gruff 
 voice, " Get out, little Moumoutte." But 
 no ; the Chinese young lady refused to go. 
 Evidently she had no dread of me, under- 
 standing by instinct that all this noise was 
 mere bluster. With an air of saying to 
 me, " I know well you will do me no 
 harm," she remained crouched in her cor- 
 ner, lying low upon the ground in the pose 
 of a suppliant, and fixing upon me her two 
 dilated eyes, a human look in them which 
 I have never seen in any cat but her. 
 
 AYhat was to be done ? I could not es- 
 tablish this cat as a permanent resident in 
 my cabin, and, besides, an animal so ugly 
 and so delicate, what an encumbrance she 
 would be for the future ! 
 
 Then I took her on my shoulder, with a 
 thousand precautions, saying to her at the
 
 56 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 same time, "I am very sorry, my little 
 Moumoutte," and then I resolutely took it 
 outside to the other end of the battery, in 
 the midst of the sailors, who, as a rule, ex- 
 tend a hospitable welcome to all kinds of 
 cats. Flattened against the timber of the 
 bridge, and her head turned toward me as 
 if to implore me with a look of prayer, she 
 began to run with a quaintly humble step 
 in the direction of my room, which she 
 reached before me. When I arrived there 
 after her, I found her crouched in a little 
 corner, and her eyes were so expressive 
 that courage failed me to drive her out 
 anew. This is how the Chinese cat took 
 me for a master. 
 
 My orderly, who had probably been won 
 to her side from the commencement of the 
 struggle, completed her installation on the 
 spot by placing on the ground, under my 
 bed, a stuffed basket for her to sleep on, 
 and one of my china dishes most thought- 
 fully filled with sand a detail that gave 
 me a cold shiver !
 
 A STOUT Of TWO CATS. 57 
 
 VI. 
 
 Never going out for air, day or night, she 
 lived seven months in the same obscurity 
 amid the continual swaying of this berth, 
 and little by little an intimacy was estab- 
 lished between us, and we acquired at the 
 same time a power of mutual penetration 
 very rare between a man and an animal. 
 
 I remember the first day when our rela- 
 tions became really affectionate. We were 
 out in the open on the north of the Yellow 
 Sea, in mournful September weather. The 
 first fogs of autumn had already formed 
 themselves on the waters, which had sud- 
 denly become clouded and unquiet, and in 
 these climates the chills and the somber 
 skies come quick, bringing to us Europeans 
 away on the wing a melancholy that grows 
 greater the further we feel from home. 
 We were going toward the east, and there 
 was a heavy swell, on which we were 
 rocked in a monotonous manner that 
 caused plaintive creakings throughout the
 
 58 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 whole of the vessel. It had become neces- 
 sary to close the porthole, and my berth 
 had only a dim light through the thick 
 glass, over which now and then the crest of 
 waves threw themselves in grand transpar- 
 encies, alternating with intervals of dark- 
 ness. I had taken up my position at the 
 narrow little sliding desk, which is the 
 same in all our berths on ships, with the 
 intention of writing during one of those 
 rather rare moments in which the service 
 leaves one in complete peace, and in which 
 one is moved to retire, as it were, into one's 
 cloister cell. 
 
 Chinese Moumoutte had lived under my 
 bed for about two weeks. She had lived 
 there very retired, discreet, and melancholy, 
 observing the proprieties and the strict 
 limitations of her dish filled with sand. She 
 showed herself little, being almost always 
 hidden, and overcome apparently by home- 
 sickness for the native laud which she was 
 never more to see. 
 
 Suddenly I saw her appear in the semi-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 59 
 
 darkness, stretch herself out slowly, as if to 
 give herself still time for reflection, then ad- 
 vance toward me, hesitating, stopping now 
 and then, sometimes even putting on all her 
 Chinese graces ; she held one of her paws in 
 the air for some seconds before deciding to 
 lay it down on the ground to make a step 
 forward. 
 
 She looked at me fixedly with a question- 
 ing air. 
 
 What could she desire from me ? She 
 was not hungry, that was plain. A little 
 dish to her taste was served twice every 
 day by my order. What was it, then ? 
 
 When she was quite near, so that she al- 
 most touched my leg, she sat down, moved 
 her tail round, and uttered a little cry, veiy 
 softly. 
 
 Then she continued to look at me, but to 
 look at me right in the eyes, which already 
 proved the possession in her little head of 
 a whole world of intelligent conceptions. 
 She must first have understood that I was 
 not a thing but a thinking being, capable of
 
 60 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 the unexpected asylum where the short 
 mysterious dream of her cat's life could 
 finish with the most peace and the least 
 suffering. But I could not imagine this 
 delicate little Chinese, with her pauper 
 coat, the fellowlodger of the proud and 
 jealous White Mournoutte, who would 
 certainly maul her as soon as she saw her 
 appear. No, that was impossible. 
 
 On the other hand, to abandon her to 
 chance friends when we put in at a port 
 that I might have done, perhaps, if she 
 had been strong and beautiful ; but this 
 plaintive little thing with her human eyes 
 held me by a profound feeling of pity. 
 
 VIII. 
 
 Our intimacy, the result of our common 
 isolation, grew daily closer. The weeks 
 and the months passed in the midst of a 
 continual change in the external world, 
 while everything remained immutably the 
 same in this obscure corner of the ship 
 where the cat had fixed her home. For us
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 61 
 
 men, who sail over the seas, there are 
 always the fresh breezes that fan us, the 
 life in the open air, the night under the 
 stars, and the wanderings through foreign 
 
 * o o o 
 
 lands. She, on the contrary, knew noth- 
 ing of the immense world through which 
 
 o o 
 
 her prison moved nothing of her kind or 
 of the sun or of the grass or of the shade. 
 And without ever leaving her home she 
 lived there in the prison of this berth. It 
 was a place that was sometimes as cold as 
 ice when the porthole opening admitted a 
 great draught of wind which swept away 
 everything. More frequently it was a 
 stove, somber and suffocating, where the 
 Chinese perfumes burned before old idols 
 as in a Buddhist temple. For her com- 
 panions of her dreams, she had monsters of 
 wood and of bronze, nailed to the walls, 
 and laughing with a sinister laugh ; in the 
 midst of an accumulation of sacred things, 
 captured from her country in the midst of 
 a pillage, she blanched from want of air 
 between hangings of silk which she loved
 
 62 THE BOOS: OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 to tear with her little unquiet and nervous 
 claws. 
 
 As soon as I entered my room she 
 would make her appearance, darting out 
 with an imperceptible cry of joy from 
 behind a curtain of shelves, or a box, like 
 some imp. If by chance I sat down to 
 write, Moumoutte, with much wheedling 
 and tenderness, in quest of protection and 
 caresses, would slowly take her place on 
 my knees and follow with her eyes the 
 progress of my pen, blotting out sometimes 
 with an entirely unexpected stroke from 
 her paw such lines as did not meet with 
 her approval. 
 
 The bumps in bad weather, the noise of 
 our cannon, caused her a terror that was 
 dangerous. In such moments she jumped 
 against the walls, twisted round like one 
 possessed, and then stopped, panting, and 
 went and curled herself up in her corner 
 looking sad and frightened. 
 
 Her cloistered youth had in it some- 
 thing unhealthy and strange, which in-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CAT& 63 
 
 creased daily. Her appetite, however, 
 remained good, and the dishes continued 
 to be eaten with satisfaction. But she 
 was thin singularly thin ; her nose be- 
 came long and her ears drawn out, like 
 those of a bat. Her large yellow eyes 
 sought mine always with an expression of 
 timid affection or of anxious inquiry on the 
 unknown in life, which was as troublesome 
 and as unfathomable to her small intelli- 
 gence as to mine. 
 
 Very inquisitive as to things outside, in 
 spite of her inexplicable obstinacy about 
 never crossing the threshold of my door, 
 she did not neglect to examine with ex- 
 
 O 
 
 treme attention every new object which 
 came into our common room, bringing to 
 her the confused impression of the exotic 
 countries through which our ships had 
 passed. For example, I remember once to 
 have seen her so interested as to forget her 
 breakfast in a bouquet of sweet-smelling 
 orchids, which were very extraordinary to 
 her who had never known gardens or
 
 64 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 pity and accessible to the mute prayer of a 
 look. Further, she must have known that 
 my eyes were open to her eyes that is to 
 say, mirrors in which her little soul could 
 anxiously seek to find the reflection of mine. 
 And, indeed, they are frightfully near to us 
 when you think of it the animals who 
 are capable of thinking two such things. 
 
 As for me, I examined with attention for 
 the first time the little visitor who now for 
 almost two weeks had shared my cabin. 
 
 She had the yellow color of a wild hare ; 
 was covered with spots like a tiger ; her nose 
 and neck were white in fact, she was 
 ugly, and miserably thin, or, rather, she 
 was bizarre rather than ugly to a man like 
 me, emancipated from all the commonplace 
 rules of beauty. In other respects she was 
 rather different from our French cats. She 
 was low upon her paws, and not unlike a 
 marten with a huge tail. Her ears were 
 large and straight, and her face by its 
 sharpness suggested the corner of a wall ; 
 but the charm was in her eyes, which were
 
 A STOUT OF TWO CATS. 65 
 
 raised toward her temples like all eyes in 
 extreme Asia, of a beautiful golden yellow 
 in place of green, incessantly mobile, aston- 
 ishingly expressive, and while I looked at 
 her I allowed my hand to descend on her 
 strange little head and stroked her coat as 
 a first caress. 
 
 What she felt was something different 
 and far removed from the mere impression 
 of physical comfort. She had the sense of 
 protection, of sympathy with her in her 
 distress and abandonment. That is the 
 reason Miss Moumoutte had come forth 
 from her dark nest. "What she had deter- 
 mined to ask me, after so much hesitation, 
 was not food or drink. It w T as for her 
 little cat-soul a little companionship in this 
 world, a little friendship. 
 
 Where had she learned all this this 
 wastrel cat, never flattered by any friendly 
 hand, never loved by anybody unless, 
 perhaps, in the paternal junk by some 
 little Chinese child without playthings and 
 without caresses brought into this swarm-
 
 66 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ing mass of yellow humanity like a super- 
 fluous plant, as miserable and as hungry as 
 herself, who also, in disappearing, would 
 leave as little trace behind ? 
 
 Then a little delicate paw was placed 
 timidly on me oh ! with what delicacy 
 and with what discretion ; and after having 
 for yet a long time studied and besought 
 me, Moumoutte, thinking she might rush 
 things, jumped at last on my knees. 
 
 She installed herself there in a lump, 
 but with such tact and such discretion, 
 making herself quite light, scarcely leaning 
 on me, and almost without weight; and 
 looking at me all the time. She remained 
 
 O 
 
 there a long time, interfering with me 
 certainly. But I had not the courage to 
 drive her away, which I certainly should 
 have done if she had been a pretty joyous 
 animal in the splendor of life. All this 
 time, afraid of the least of rny motions, she 
 did not lose sight of me; not that she 
 feared I would do her any harm she was 
 too intelligent to believe me capable of
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 67 
 
 that but with the air of saying to me, 
 " Am I really disturbing you ? Am I 
 annoying you?" Then her eyes became 
 more expressive and more wheedling still, 
 saying to me quite clearly, " In this autumn 
 day, so sad to the hearts of cats, since we 
 are here together, both isolated beings, in 
 this home that is being rolled about so and 
 lost in the midst of I know not what 
 danger and infinitude, suppose we give, one 
 to the other, a little of that kindness which 
 softens troubles, which resembles the im- 
 material that defies death, which is called 
 affection, and expresses itself from time to 
 time by a caress ? " 
 
 VII. 
 
 When the treaty of friendship was 
 signed between this animal and me, I felt 
 some disquietude as to the future. What 
 was to be done with her ? Was I to brine; 
 
 O 
 
 her back to France over so many thou- 
 sands of miles and through so many diffi- 
 culties ? Clearly my fireside was for her
 
 68 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 forests, had never seen any flowers but 
 those that had been gathered into and had 
 died in my bronze vases. 
 
 In spite of her ugly and shabby coat, 
 which, at first sight, gave her the appear- 
 ance of a cat from the gutter, she had in 
 her face a rare distinction, and the least 
 movements of her paws had a patrician 
 grace. Thus she produced upon me the 
 effect of some little Princess, condemned by 
 the bad fairies to share my solitude under 
 an inferior form, and I thought of that 
 story of the mother of the great Tchengis 
 Khan, which an American priest at Con- 
 stantinople, my professor in the Turk- 
 ish language, had given me to trans- 
 late: 
 
 The young Princess Ulemalik-Kureklu, conse- 
 crated to death before her birth in case she ever 
 saw the light of day, was imprisoned in a dark 
 dungeon. 
 
 " What is this thing they call the world ? Is 
 there any space elsewhere ? and is this tower in 
 anything ? " 
 
 "No, Princess, this is not the world; it is out-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 69 
 
 side, and it is much larger. And then there 
 are things which are called stars and sun and 
 moon." 
 
 " Oh ! " replied Ulemalik, "let me die, but let 
 me see. " 
 
 IX. 
 
 It was at the end of winter and in the 
 first warm days of March when Chinese 
 Moumoutte made her entrance into my 
 house in France. 
 
 White Moumoutte, to whom my eyes had 
 grown unaccustomed during my campaign 
 in China, still bore at this epoch of the year 
 the royal coat of cold weather, and I never 
 knew her more imposing. 
 
 The contrast would be the more striking 
 with the other, emaciated, and with its poor 
 coat like that of a wild hare, and with holes 
 in places as though it had been eaten by 
 moths. Thus I was very much embar- 
 rassed when my servant Sylvester, returning 
 with her from the ship, raised with a half- 
 waggish aii' the lid of the basket where he 
 had placed her, and when this small Chinese
 
 70 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 friend had to come forth in the midst of all 
 my assembled family. 
 
 The first impression was to be deplored ; 
 and I recall all the conviction my Aunt 
 Claire put into the simple phrase. 
 
 " Oh, dear, how ugly she is ! " 
 
 She was, indeed, very ugly. And how 
 and under what pretext and with what ex- 
 cuses could I introduce her to White Mou- 
 in6utte. Not being able to hit on any- 
 thing, I took her for the moment into an 
 isolated granary to hide them from each 
 other and to gain time for reflection. 
 
 x. 
 
 Their first interview was something ter- 
 rible. 
 
 It came about unexpectedly some days 
 afterward in the kitchen a spot which 
 has irresistible attractions, and where cats 
 who live in the same house are bound some 
 day to meet. In all haste, they came to 
 fetch me, and I ran. There were inhuman 
 cries ; a ball, a heap of fur and claws, com-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 71 
 
 posed of their two little bodies, entangled 
 in each other, rolled and leaped ; shivering 
 glasses, plates, dishes, while the white coat 
 and the hare-colored fur flew in little tufts 
 all around. It was necessary to intervene 
 with energy, and to separate them by 
 
 tin-owing a bottle of water over both 
 
 I was horrified. 
 
 XI. 
 
 Trembling, scratched, her heart beating 
 as though it would burst, Chinese Moti- 
 moutte, gathered up in my arms, crouched 
 up against me and gradually grew tranquil, 
 her nerves relieved, and with a look of 
 sweet security. Then she became grad- 
 ually soft and inert, like something without 
 life, which with cats is an expression of 
 supreme confidence in those who hold 
 them. 
 
 White Moumoutte, pensive and somber, 
 looked at us with wide-open eyes ; and a 
 line of reasoning began to dawn in her 
 jealous little head. She, who from one
 
 72 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 year's end to the other mauled on the wall 
 the same neighbors, male and female, with- 
 out ever becoming accustomed to their ap- 
 pearance, began to understand that this 
 foreigner belonged to me since I took, it 
 thus into my embrace, and since she took to 
 it tenderly. Thus she must do it no 
 further injury, but must become resigned 
 and tolerant of its presence in the house. 
 
 My surprise and my admiration were 
 great to see them pass each other a moment 
 after, each disdainful of the other, but 
 calm, very correct. It was over; during 
 the rest of their lives they were never angry 
 with one another. . 
 
 xn. 
 
 Ah ! the springtime of that year how 
 well I remember it. Although very short, 
 as all seasons appear to be now, it was one of 
 the last of those that still retained for me the 
 charm, and even an approach to the myster- 
 ious enchantment, of those of my child- 
 hood. Moreover, it was passed amid the
 
 A STORT OF TWO CATS. <3 
 
 same surroundings of the same flowers re- 
 newed in the same place on the same 
 antique jessamines and the same rose-trees. 
 After each of rny campaigns I have come 
 to forget in a very few days the continents 
 and the vast seas. Once more, as at life's 
 start, I limit my external world to those 
 old walls clad with ivy and with moss 
 which surrounded me when I was a little 
 child. The distant countries, where I have 
 gone so many times to live, appear to me 
 as unreal as in the days when, before seeing 
 them, I dreamed of them. The illimitable 
 horizons close in ; everything quietly con- 
 tracts, and quite naturally I reach the 
 point of almost forgetting that there exists 
 ought else than our mossy stones, our arbu- 
 tus trees, our vines, and our sweet white 
 roses. 
 
 I was building up a Buddhist pagoda at 
 this time in a corner of my house with the 
 remains of a temple destroyed la-bas. 
 Enormous chests were being opened every 
 day in my courtyard, spreading that inde-
 
 74 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEA TH. 
 
 finable and complex odor of China. They 
 unpacked in the beautiful new sunshine 
 shafts of columns, stones of arches, ugly 
 altars and ancient idols. It was amusing, 
 and curious also, to see these things reap- 
 pear one by one, and then spread them- 
 selves on the grass and moss of the old 
 familiar stones all these monsters of far- 
 thest Asia, making the same grimaces under 
 our paler sun as they had made in their 
 own homes for years for centuries. From 
 time to time, mamma and Aunt Claire 
 came to inspect them, frightened by their 
 astounding ugliness. But it was Chinese 
 Moumoutte who assisted with most inter- 
 est at these unpackings. She recognized 
 her traveling companions ; she smelt at 
 everything with confused recollections of 
 her own country ; then, from her habit of 
 living in the dark, she hastened to creep 
 into the empty chests and, to hide herself 
 there where the idols had been, under this 
 exotic hay that smelt of musk and sandal. 
 It was truly a beautiful and very
 
 A STORT OF TWO CATS. V5 
 
 bright spring, with an excess of the music 
 of the swallow and the martens in the air. 
 And Chinese Moumoutte wondered at it 
 exceedingly. Poor little hermit ! reared in 
 a stifling twilight, she was at once alarmed 
 and delighted by the broad daylight, the 
 air soft to breathe, the neighborhood of 
 other cats. She made at this period long 
 exploring excursions in the courtyard, snif- 
 fing at all the young blades of grass, all 
 the new sprouts that came forth from the 
 warmed earth fresh and sweet-smelling. 
 These forms and shades which, old as the 
 world, the plants reproduce unconsciously 
 every April, these laws of immutability 
 under which the first leaves unfold and 
 come out, were things absolutely new and 
 surprising to her who had never seen any 
 verdure or any spring. And White Mou- 
 moutte, formerly the sole and jealous sov- 
 ereign of these realms, had consented to 
 share them, allowing the other to wander 
 at her pleasure in the midst of the arbutus 
 trees, the flowerpots, and among the old
 
 76 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 gray walls, under the spreading branches. 
 It was the shores of the miniature lake in 
 particular so intimately associated with 
 my memories of childhood that attracted 
 her. There in the grass, which every day 
 grew higher and thicker, she walked, bend- 
 ing down like a hunted deer, a trick in- 
 herited without doubt from her ancestors, 
 Mongolian cats with primitive manners. 
 She hid herself behind the Lilliputian 
 rocks, buried herself under the ivy like a 
 little tiger in a miniature virgin forest. 
 
 It was an amusement to me to watch 
 her goings and comings, her sudden halts, 
 her surprises. And she, feeling herself 
 watched, would turn and look at me, be- 
 comino; immovable all at once in an atti- 
 
 O 
 
 tude that was becoming to her an atti- 
 tude very graceful but affected, after the 
 Chinese fashion, with a paw in front of her 
 in the air in the manner of those persons 
 who, when taking hold of an object, 
 coquettishly lift their little finger. And 
 her drol\ yellow eyes w^re then extremely
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. V7 
 
 expressive speaking eyes, as good people 
 say. " You have no objection to my con- 
 tinuing my walk ? " she seemed to ask. 
 " It doesn't put you out in any way, does 
 it? You see, I walk and move with such 
 lightness, with such discretion. And you'll 
 admit 'tis all very pretty here all these 
 extraordinary little green things which 
 scatter their fresh odors, and this good 
 air, so pure, and this vast space ! And 
 these other things, also, which I see around 
 me, which they call stars and the sun and 
 the moon ! How different from our old 
 home, and how pleasant it is to be in this 
 countiy where we have both arrived ! " 
 
 This place, so new to her, was to me the 
 oldest and the most familiar of all places 
 on earth the spot where the smallest de- 
 tails, the smallest blades of grass, were 
 known to me from the first uncertain and 
 astonished hours of my existence. To such 
 a degree was this the case that I was at- 
 tached to it with all my heart ; that I loved 
 in a peculiar fashion a little idolatrous
 
 78 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEAT3. 
 
 perhaps some of the plants that are in it, 
 vines, jessamines, and a certain dielytra 
 rose, which every March shows in the same 
 place its buds red with young sap, displays 
 very quickly its early leaves, gives the 
 same flowers once again in April, grows 
 yellow in the sun of June, then burns in 
 the sun of August, and seems to die. 
 
 And while the little Chinese Moumoutte 
 allowed herself to be enticed by all these 
 airs of joy, of youth, of opening life, I, on 
 the contrary, who knew that all this passes 
 away, felt for the first time ascend into my 
 life the sense of evening, of that great and 
 inexorable night without a morrow, of that 
 last autumn which will be followed by no 
 springtime. And, with infinite melan- 
 choly, I looked in this gay courtyard, 
 brightened by the new sun, at the two 
 dear figures with white hair that walked 
 up and down there in their robes of 
 mourning, mamma and Aunt Claire. I 
 watched them as they stooped, as they had 
 done for so many a spring before, to recog-
 
 A STORT OF TWO CATS. 79 
 
 nize wliat buds liad pushed through the 
 earth, and raised their heads to look at the 
 buds of glycine and of roses. And when 
 their black dresses appeared and reappeared 
 from the back of that green avenue which 
 forms the courtyard of our family mansion, 
 I particularly remarked that their step was 
 slower and more infirm. Alas, for the 
 early day when, perhaps, I would never 
 see them like this again in the green 
 avenue ! Must such a time ever really come ? 
 "When they have gone from me, I have the 
 illusive idea that it will not be a complete 
 departure so long as I shall be on this spot, 
 able to recall their sweet presence. I be- 
 lieve that in the summer evenings I shall 
 sometimes see their blessed shadows pass 
 under the old jessamines and the old vine 
 trees ; and that something of them will 
 remain dimly in the plants which they 
 have cared for in the falling honeysuckle, 
 in the old dielytra rose.
 
 80 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 xm. 
 
 While Chinese Moumoutte lived this 
 open-air life, she became visibly more 
 beautiful eveiy day. The holes in her 
 hare-colored coat were replaced by a quite 
 new fur ; she became less thin, more smooth 
 and more careful of her person, and no 
 longer had a dissipated appearance. Once 
 mamma and Aunt Claire stopped to speak 
 to her, amused by her unique manners, by 
 her expressive eyes, and by her soft little 
 answers of " PIT ! PIT ! " which she never 
 failed to give when anybody addressed 
 her. 
 
 "Really," they said, "this young China 
 lady looks as if she felt happy with us; 
 we have never seen a cat with a happier 
 face." 
 
 It was the happy and grateful look which 
 she had for him who brought her thither. 
 
 O 
 
 And the happiness of young animals is com- 
 plete, perhaps, because they have no sense 
 of the inexorable future. She passed days
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 81 
 
 in delicious reflection, in attitudes of su- 
 preme comfort, stretched carelessly on the 
 stones and the moss, enjoying the silence 
 a little melancholy to me of this house 
 which neither the roar of cannon nor the 
 crash of wave ever troubled. She had ar- 
 rived at the port, remote and tranquil, at the 
 last halting-place in her life, and she rested 
 herself, unconscious -of the coming end. 
 
 xrv. 
 
 One fine day, without any period of tran- 
 sition, and by a sudden caprice, the tolera- 
 tion of White Mounioutte for Chinese 
 Moumoutte was transfomed into a tender 
 friendship. She approached with deliber- 
 ation, and then, all of a sudden, she kissed 
 the lips of the other one, which among cats 
 its the equivalent of a most affectionate 
 embrace. 
 
 Sylvester, who was present at the scene, 
 was, however, skeptical. 
 
 " Did you," said I, " see the kiss of peace 
 between the Moumouttes ? "
 
 82 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 " Oh no, sir," replied lie, with that per- 
 fectly knowing air which he always as- 
 sumes when any question arises with regard 
 to the inner life of my cats, horses, or any 
 other animal. " No, sir, White Moumoutte 
 simply wanted to satisfy herself, by smell- 
 ing the muzzle of the Chinese, whether she 
 had not just eaten her food." 
 
 He was wrong, however. I found they 
 were friends from this day. You could 
 see them, seated in the same chair, eat their 
 dinners from the same dish, and every 
 morning run to give each other "good- 
 morrow " by rubbing the ends of their 
 comical noses, the one yellow, the other 
 rose-colored. 
 
 XV. 
 
 By the time we had got to saying, " The 
 Moumouttes have done this or that," they 
 were an intimate and inseparable couple, 
 consulting each other and imitating each 
 other down to the least and most trivial 
 actions of their life combing each other,
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 83 
 
 licking each other, making their toilet in 
 common with mutual tenderness. 
 
 AVhite Moumoutte continued to be the 
 special cat of* Aunt Claire, while the 
 Chinese remained my little faithful friend, 
 with always her same tender manner of 
 following me with her eyes, of answering 
 to the least call of my voice. Scarcely 
 could I seat myself when a light paw 
 would place itself softly upon me, as in 
 the old days on board ship; two yellow 
 eyes would interrogate me with an intense 
 human expression. Then, houp-la! Chi- 
 nese sat on my knees ; very slow in select- 
 ing her position, scratching with her two 
 paws, turning herself around in this direc- 
 tion and then in that, and she had just 
 nicely installed herself when I was ready 
 to go away. 
 
 \Yhat a strange mystery, what a prob- 
 lem of soul the constant affection of an 
 animal and its enduring gratitude !
 
 84 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 XVI. 
 
 They were very much spoiled, these two 
 Moimiouttes. They were admitted into 
 the dining room at meal-hours ; they were 
 found seated at my side, one on the right 
 and the other on the left; recalling them- 
 selves from time to time to my memory by 
 a little, discreet pat of their paws on my 
 napkin, and enjoying the scraps which I 
 gave them for dinner, like a schoolboy 
 who knew he was at fault, and from the 
 end of my own fork. 
 
 In telling all this I am afraid that I 
 injure my reputation, which already it 
 appears is so stained by eccentricity and 
 want of decorum. I, nevertheless, am in a 
 position to expose a certain Academician, 
 who, having done me the honor of sitting 
 at my table, did not abstain from offering 
 to each of them in his own spoon a little 
 Chantilly cream.* 
 
 * This episode was written before the election of M. Loti 
 to the French Academy.
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 85 
 
 xvn. 
 
 The summer which followed was for 
 Chinese Mouuioutte an absolutely delicious 
 period in her life. With her orginality and 
 her air of distinction, she had become 
 almost pretty, and then also her fur had 
 been renewed. Around in the world of 
 cats, at the bottom of the garden and on 
 the roofs, the report had circulated of the 
 arrival of this piquant stranger, and the 
 admirers were numerous who came to mew 
 under the windows in the beautiful warm 
 nights perfumed with honeysuckle. To- 
 ward the middle of September, the two 
 Moumouttes knew almost at the same time 
 the joy of maternity. White Moumoutte 
 was, as may be imagined, a mother on a 
 large scale ; Chinese Moumoutte, on the 
 other hand, when the first moments of sur- 
 prise had passed, was seen to lick tenderly 
 the prized and tiny little gray kitten, 
 streaked like a tiger, who was her only 
 son.
 
 86 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 xvm. 
 
 The reciprocal affection of these two 
 families was very touching; the funny 
 little Chinaman and the Angora, round as a 
 powder puff, played together, and were 
 cleaned, combed, and fed by either one or 
 the other of the two Moumouttes with an 
 almost equal solicitude. 
 
 XIX. 
 
 Winter is the season in -which cats be- 
 come especially the guests of the house- 
 hold, the companions at all moments at the 
 fireside, sharing with us the dancing flames, 
 the vague melancholies of twilight and our 
 unfathomable dreams. 
 
 It is also, as everybody knows, the epoch 
 of their greatest beauty, their greatest 
 luxury of coat and of fur. Chinese Mou-. 
 moutte, when the cold came first, had no 
 longer any holes in her coat, and White 
 Moumoutte had put up an imposing cravat, 
 a boa, of whitest snow which framed her
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS, 87 
 
 face like a ruff a la Medici. Their affec- 
 tion was increased by the pleasure that 
 they experienced in warming each other 
 near the hearth ; on cushions, on arm- 
 chairs, they slept whole days in each 
 other's arms, rolled into a single ball, in 
 which you could no longer distinguish 
 their heads or tails. 
 
 It was Chinese Mounioutte especially 
 which could never get near enough to the 
 other. If, after returning from some ex- 
 
 O 
 
 pedition in the open air, she perceived her 
 friend White Mounioutte asleep before the 
 fire, very gently, ever so gently, she ap- 
 proached, with strategy as careful as 
 though she were trying to surprise a 
 mouse, while the other, always capricious, 
 nervous, irritated at bein^ disturbed, some- 
 
 7 O ' 
 
 times gave a light stroke of her paw or a 
 smack. Chinese Moumoutte never replied, 
 but, lifting only her little hand, like a men- 
 acing gesture in fun, she said to me from 
 the corner of her eye, " Isn't she a difficult 
 creature to deal with? But I doo't take
 
 88 TEE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 her seriously, of course, you know." With 
 an increase of precautions she always suc- 
 ceeded in her purpose, which was that they 
 should sleep one with the other, her head 
 buried in the beautiful snowy fur and be- 
 fore going to sleep she said to me, still 
 with that half-look of an eye scarcely 
 opened, " That is just what I want ; I am 
 all right now." 
 
 xx. 
 
 Ah, those wonderful winter evenings of 
 ours at that time ! In the depths of the 
 house, silent, dark, empty, and almost too 
 large, in the very warm little room of the 
 rez-de-chaussee, which looked out on the 
 courtyard and on the gardens, mamma and 
 Aunt Claire sat under the hanging lamp 
 in this place familiar during so many pre- 
 vious and similar winters; and most fre- 
 quently I sat there also, in order not to 
 lose one moment of their presence on earth 
 and of my association with them. In an- 
 other part of the house ? far away from us,
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 89 
 
 I left my workroom my Aladdin room- 
 black and fireless, merely for the pleasure 
 of passing our evenings all together in this 
 little room, which was the most secret 
 coulisse of our family life, a place where 
 we were more unconstrainedly at home 
 than anywhere else. No other place be- 
 sides has ever given me so complete and so 
 sweet an impression of a nest, nowhere 
 have I been able to warm myself with 
 more soothing melancholy than in front of 
 the flames in the wide fire of this hearth. 
 The windows, with shutters, which in our 
 confident tranquillity were never closed ; 
 the closed door, with just a suggestion of 
 rusticity, looked out on the black winter 
 foliage and the laurel trees, on the ivy, on 
 the walls, sometimes illuminated by a 
 moonbeam. No noise reached us from the 
 street, which was pretty far away, and 
 which, besides, was very quiet, scarcely dis- 
 turbed from time to time by the songs of 
 sailors celebrating their return home. No, 
 
 O ' 
 
 we heard rather the noise of the country,
 
 90 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 whose presence we felt almost near, just 
 beyond the low gardens and the town ram- 
 parts. In the summer we heard the im- 
 mense concert of the grasshoppers in those 
 marshy plains which surrounded us, but 
 were joined together like steppes, and 
 from moment to moment the tiny note, like 
 the sad flute, of the owl. In the winter, 
 on those nights of which I speak, we heard 
 some cry of a seabird, and especially the 
 long moaning of the western wind com- 
 ing from the sea. 
 
 On the large table, covered with a cer- 
 tain flowered cloth which I* knew all my 
 life, Mamma and Aunt Claire spread their 
 precious workbaskets, where they had 
 things which I would call fundamental, if 
 I dared to employ a word which in the 
 present case has a meaning to me alone 
 all those little things which have taken 
 the place of relics in my eyes, which have 
 acquired in my memory, in my life, an im- 
 portance of the very first order embroi-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 1 
 
 dery scissors, handed down from ancestors, 
 which were lent to me when I was quite a 
 child, with a thousand warnings, to amuse 
 myself in cutting things up ; reels made of 
 the rare wood of the colonies, brought 
 from there by sailors, which in the past 
 had caused me so many a dream ; needle- 
 cases, glasses, thimbles, boxes. I knew 
 them all, and how much I loved them ! 
 those poor little nothings, so precious to 
 me, which I remembered as -they were laid 
 out for so many years on the old flowered 
 tablecloth by the hands of mamma and 
 Aunt Claire. After every long voyage, 
 with w T hat a feeling of tenderness I found 
 
 O 
 
 them again and gave them my greeting on 
 arrival ! I employed just a moment ago 
 for them the word " fundamental " a 
 word whose inappropriateness I acknowl- 
 edge ; but here is how I explain it : if any- 
 body were to destroy them, if they ceased 
 to exist in the same eternal place, I would 
 have felt an impression of having made
 
 92 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 one long step further toward tlie annihi- 
 lation of myself, toward dust, toward 
 oblivion. 
 
 And when they have both departed- 
 mamma and Aunt Claire it seems, to me 
 that these dear little objects, religiously 
 preserved by them, will call back again 
 their presence, will prolong for a little 
 their sojourn among us. 
 
 The Moumouttes, of course, also took 
 possession of this room, sleeping together 
 in one single warm ball on some armchair 
 or some stool, as near as possible to the 
 fire, and their unexpected awakenings, 
 their reflections, their curious ideas, amused 
 our evenings, which were somewhat taci- 
 turn. White Moumoutte was once seized 
 by a sudden desire of being no longer in 
 our company. She jumped upon the table, 
 and seated herself with gravity on the 
 work of Aunt Claire, turning her back 
 upon her, after having unexpectedly rubbed 
 her face with her imposing black tail. 
 Then she remained there, impolite and
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 93 
 
 obstinate, in contemplation before the flame 
 of tlie lamp. 
 
 Or sometimes, on one of those nights of 
 sharp frost which disturb the nerves of 
 cats, you heard suddenly in the neighboring 
 garden a discussion, and " Miaou, miaou, 
 rniaou ! " Then the quiet robe of fur, which 
 slumbered so still, became suddenly erect, 
 with two heads and two pairs of ears. 
 Once again came the sound of " Miaou, 
 miaou, miaou ! " It was not going to stop, 
 then ! White Moumoutte, rising with re- 
 solution, her fur erect for war, rushed from 
 one door to another, seeking an outlet, as 
 if called outside by an imperious duty of 
 supreme importance. "No, no, Mou- 
 moutte," said Aunt Claire ; " you need not 
 mix yourself up in this, I assure you. It 
 will be all right without you." The 
 Chinese, on the other hand, always calmer, 
 and not anxious for perilous adventures, 
 contented herself with looking at me 
 from the corner of her eye with an air 
 at once intelligent and ironical; she said
 
 94 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 to me, "Am I not right to remain 
 neutral ? " 
 
 A certain part of me, quite tranquil, 
 restored to serenity, and almost childlike, 
 came back again there in the evenings in 
 this little room so sweetly silent, at this 
 table where mamma and Aunt Claire 
 worked ; and if now and then I remember, 
 with a dumb, internal emotion, that I had 
 had an Oriental heart, an African heart, 
 and a heap of other hearts besides that 
 I had dreamed, under different suns, dreams 
 and fancies without number all this now 
 appeared to me very remote, and forever 
 done with. And this past of wanderings 
 made me enjoy more completely the pres- 
 ent hour, with its repose, this entr'acte in 
 that strictly private and domestic side of 
 my life, which would astonish so many 
 people, and perhaps make them smile. 
 With a sincerity that for the minute was 
 complete, I said to myself that I would 
 never go away again, that nothing in the 
 world was as good as the peace of being
 
 A STORY Off TWO CATS. $5 
 
 just there, and in finding over again some 
 of the emotions of one's young soul; of 
 feeling around one, in this nest of child- 
 
 O / 
 
 hood, the indefinable sense of protection 
 against nothingness and death ; of divining 
 through the glass of the window, athwart 
 the darkness of the foliage, and under the 
 winter moonlight, the courtyard, which in 
 early days was regarded as almost the 
 whole earth, and which has remained just 
 the same, with its ivy, its little rooks, and 
 its old walls, and which might, mo?i Dieu ! 
 regain once more in my eyes its importance, 
 its vastness of the olden days, and, perhaps, 
 be peopled once again in the same dreams ! 
 Above all this, I said to myself that nothing 
 in the great wide world was worth the sweet 
 joy of looking at mamma and Aunt Claire, 
 seated at their worktable, leaning toward the 
 flowered tablecloth, with their caps of black 
 lace and the plumes of their white locks. 
 Ah ! one evening I can recall there was 
 
 O 
 
 a real cat scene. Even to-day I cannot think 
 of it without lauorhinsr. 
 
 O O
 
 96 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 It was a frosty iiiglit about Christmas. 
 In the midst of the profound silence, we had 
 heard passing over the roofs, across the cold 
 and quiet sky, a flight of wild geese which 
 were emigrating to other climes. It was 
 like the distant noise of a shooting-gallery 
 those sharp and multitudinous voices that 
 shouted aloud in the void, and then were 
 soon lost in the airy distance. " Do you 
 hear ? do you hear ? " said Aunt Claire 
 to me, with a little smile and an affectation 
 of dread, in ridicule of me ; for in my 
 childhood I was greatly frightened by these 
 nocturnal flights of birds. To hear it one 
 must have, indeed, a quick ear and be in 
 a silent place. 
 
 Calm then returned, and so completely 
 that one could hear the crackling moan of 
 the wood in the fireplace, and the regular 
 breathing of the two cats seated in the 
 corner of the hearth. 
 
 Suddenly a certain large, yellow tom- 
 cat, w r hom White Moumoutte detested, but 
 who, nevertheless, persecuted her with his
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 97 
 
 attentions, appeared behind the glass look- 
 ing into the courtyard, standing out in the 
 light from the black background of the 
 foliage, and looked at Moumoutte with a 
 
 O ' 
 
 brazen and yet bewildered air, and with a 
 formidable and provoking " miaou ! " Then 
 Moumoutte jumped to the window, like a 
 tennis-ball, and there, nose to nose, on either 
 side of the window, there was a splendid 
 battle a volley of frightful insults in voices 
 hoarse with rage, violent raps and slaps 
 across the pane, which made a frightful up- 
 roar, but, of course, produced no effect. Oh ! 
 the terror of mamma and Aunt Claire, jump- 
 ing from their seats at the first moment of 
 surprise ; and, then, the hearty laughter ! It 
 was irresistible the comic effect of all this 
 sudden and absurd tumult, succeeding to 
 a meditative silence so deep; and especially 
 the look of the yellow tom-cat, slapped and 
 discomfited, whose eyes flamed so comically 
 behind the glass of the window. 
 
 In those times, the putting to bed of the 
 cats was one of the important I had almost
 
 98 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 said, primordial operations of the house. 
 They were not allowed, like so many other 
 cats, to pass their nights wandering about 
 in the foliage or the woods, in the con- 
 templation of the stars and the moon. 
 On such questions we had principles in 
 regard to which we allowed no com- 
 promise. 
 
 The operation consisted in placing them 
 in a granary at the bottom of the courtyard, 
 in a shed of a house which stood apart, was 
 very old, and hidden under the ivy, the 
 vines, and the glycines. This happened to 
 be in Sylvester's quarters and next his room ! 
 Thus, eveiy evening, all three took their de- 
 parture together, the Moumouttes and he. 
 When each day days to which I paid no 
 heed then, for which I have often wept 
 since when each day closed and was lost 
 in the abyss of time, this servant, who had' 
 become almost a member of the family, 
 was called, and mamma said, with a half- 
 joking air, amused at the sacerdotal air 
 with which these high functions were pre-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 99 
 
 formed, " Sylvester, it is time to put your 
 cats to bed." 
 
 At the veiy first words of the sentence, 
 even though they were pronounced in a 
 low tone of voice, White Mouinoutte 
 cocked her ear anxiously. Then, when 
 she was convinced that she had heard 
 aright, she jumped down from her chair, 
 and, with an air at once important and 
 agitated, she ran by herself to the door, in 
 order to go in front, and to do so on foot, 
 never allowing herself to be carried wish- 
 ing to enter into her bed-chamber of her 
 own free-will or not at all. 
 
 The Chinese, on the contrary, schemed to 
 avoid, if possible, leaving this cosy room ; 
 jumped down very quietly, crept along the 
 floor very softly, and bent down so as to 
 appear smaller, and, looking from the cor- 
 ner of her eye to see if she had escaped 
 notice, hid herself under a piece of furni- 
 ture. Big Sylvester, then, who had learned 
 all these ways long ago, asked, with his 
 boyish smile ? " Where are you, Chinese 1
 
 100 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 I know well enough you are not far away." 
 Immediately she answered him with a purr, 
 understanding that it was useless to make 
 any further pretenses, then allowed herself 
 to be taken up, and was carried out, seated 
 very tenderly astride the broad shoulder of 
 Sylvester. 
 
 The procession at last was ready to 
 start : in front White Moumoutte, inde- 
 pendent and proud ; in the rear, Sylvester, 
 who said, " Good-evening, sir, and ladies," 
 and who, carrying in one hand his lantern 
 to light the courtyard, held invariably in 
 the other the long gray tail of the Chinese 
 as it lay on his chest. 
 
 As a rule, White Moumoutte went with 
 docility along the path that led to the gran- 
 ary. But sometimes, at certain phases of 
 the moon, the spirit of vagabondage seized 
 her, or she had a fancy to go to sleep at the 
 angle of some roof or on the top of some 
 solitary pear-tree, in the beautiful freshness 
 of December, which was in contrast to the 
 heat she had enjoyed all the day in a com-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 101 
 
 fortable armchair. When this happened, 
 Sylvester made his reappearance, with a 
 comic face suitable to the occasion still 
 with his lantern in his hand, and with the 
 tail of the docile Chinese, squatted against 
 his neck. " White Moumoutte doesn't 
 want again to go to bed." " What ? " Aunt 
 Claire would exclaim indignantly. " Ah ! 
 we shall see." And, then, she would go 
 out herself to try the effect of her author- 
 ity, calling out " Mouinoutte ! " in her poor, 
 dear voice, which I feel as if I heard still, 
 and whose sound was taken up and pro- 
 longed, in the silence of the gardens and in 
 sonorous echoes on a winter's night. But 
 no, White Moumoutte would not obey. 
 From the top of a tree or of a wall she 
 would content herself with looking down at 
 us, cunningly seated, her fur making a white 
 spot in the darkness, and her eyes shin- 
 ing like particles of phosphorus. " Mou- 
 moutte, Moumoutte ! Ah, the wretched 
 creature ! It is a shame, miss such con- 
 duct is really shameful."
 
 102 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 Then mamma went out in her turn, 
 afraid of the effect of the bitter cold on 
 Aunt Claire, and anxious to make her come 
 in ; then, a moment after, I followed to 
 bring the other two in. And then, when 
 we saw ourselves all gathered together in 
 the courtyard on a frosty night Sylvester 
 among the rest, holding the Chinese by 
 the tail and all set at defiance by this 
 Moumoutte perched up aloft, we could not 
 help laughing at our own expense; the 
 laugh beginning with Aunt Claire, and 
 communicating itself at once to all of us. 
 Indeed, I have always doubted that there 
 were in the whole world two other old 
 people alas ! they were very old who 
 had such a faculty for laughing frankly 
 with young people, or who understood so 
 well the art of being amiable, of being 
 thoroughly gay. So much so that I have 
 never had such fun with anybody as with 
 them, and all about such insignificant 
 things, an irresistibly comic side to which 
 they would find out in a way of their own.
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 103 
 
 This Moumoutte was certainly deter- 
 mined to have the last word. We all re- 
 entered, rather mystified, the small room, 
 which had been chilled by the open doors. 
 and went to our respective rooms by a 
 series of stairs and of somber passages. 
 And Aunt Claire, seized with a renewal of 
 her anger, before she entered her own 
 room, standing at her door exclaimed, as 
 she bade me good-night: "All very well, 
 but what have you to say for her this 
 cat?" 
 
 XXI. 
 
 The existence of a cat can go on for 
 twelve or fifteen years if no accident hap- 
 pen. 
 
 The two Moumouttes lived, still to- 
 gether, to brighten another delicious sum- 
 mer. They enjoyed once again their hours 
 of ceaseless reverie in the company of 
 Suleima (that eternal tortoise, whom the 
 long succession of years had no power to 
 age), between the cactus in bloom, and on
 
 104 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 the stones of the courtyard, warmed by 
 the hot sun. Or they sat alone on the top 
 of the old wall, in the annual confusion of 
 the honeysuckle and the white roses. 
 They had several little ones, who had 
 been brought up with tenderness and 
 placed advantageously in the neighbor- 
 hood. Even those of the Chinese had 
 been easily disposed of and were much 
 in request, because of the originality of 
 their looks. 
 
 They also lived through another winter, 
 and were able to enjoy once again their 
 long sleeps at the corner of the fireplace, 
 their profound meditations before the 
 changing aspect of the braziers and the 
 flames. 
 
 But this was the last season of their 
 happiness ; and immediately after, their 
 sad decline began. In the following 
 spring some indefinable maladies began to 
 disorganize their two queer little persons, 
 although they were still of an age to 
 promise several years more of life.
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 105 
 
 Chinese Moumoutte, who was the first 
 attacked, showed, in the first instance, 
 symptoms of mental trouble, of black 
 melancholy regrets, perhaps, for her dis- 
 tant Mongolian home. Refusing to eat or 
 drink, she made prolonged retreats to the 
 top of the wall, remaining in the same 
 place for whole days without moving, 
 answering to our calls with piteous looks 
 and plaintive little " miaous." 
 
 White Moumoutte, also, in the first fine 
 days, had begun to languish, and in April 
 both were really ill. 
 
 Veterinary surgeons, who were called in 
 for consultation, ordered seriously impossi- 
 ble things. For one, pills morning and 
 evening, and poultices on the stomach ; to 
 shave them quite bare, and bathe them 
 twice a day in plenty of water ! Sylvester 
 himself, who adored them, and could make 
 them obey when nobody else could, de- 
 clared that the thing was impossible. Then 
 we applied for remedies to skillful old 
 women ; some " wise women " were called
 
 106 THE BOOK Of PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 in, and their prescriptions were adopted; 
 but nothing came of it. 
 
 They were both going to leave us, our 
 Moumouttes ! We felt a deep pity for 
 them ; but neither the fine spring nor the 
 beautiful sun, when it came back again, 
 could drag them out of the torpor of death. 
 
 One morning when I came home after a 
 journey to Paris, Sylvester said to me 
 sadly, as he took my bag, " The Chinese is 
 dead, sir." 
 
 For three days she had disappeared 
 she who had been stf regular in her habits, 
 and never left the house. Without doubt, 
 feeling her end near, she had gone away 
 for good, obeying that feeling of exquisite 
 j,nd supreme delicacy which impels certain 
 animals to hide themselves in their dying 
 hour. " She remained, sir, the whole week 
 perched up there in the red jessamine, not 
 even coming down to eat. She always, 
 however, answered when we spoke to her, 
 but in such a weak voice ! " 
 
 Where, then, had she gone to pass her
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 107 
 
 last sad hour, poor Chinese Moumoutte? 
 Perhaps, in her ignorance of everything, 
 she had gone among strangers who would 
 not allow her to pass her last hour in 
 peace ; who perhaps hunted her, tormented 
 her; who perhaps threw her on to the 
 dunghill ! I should, indeed, have pre- 
 ferred to have heard that she had died in 
 our home ; my heart grew heavy as I 
 thought of that queer human look of hers 
 so full of appeal, so full of that desire 
 for affection which she had no power to 
 express which had sought my eyes with 
 those same anxious questionings that she 
 had never been able to put into words. 
 Who knows what mysterious anguish may 
 penetrate into the little confused souls of 
 animals in their dying hour ? 
 
 xxn. 
 
 As if bad luck had fallen upon our cats, 
 White Moumoutte also seemed to approach 
 her end. 
 
 By one of the caprices which possess the
 
 108 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 dying, she had chosen as her last home my 
 dressing room, on a certain couch whose 
 rose color had doubtless pleased her. We 
 took her some food there a little milk, 
 which she barely touched. But, neverthe- 
 less, she gave us, when we entered, a look 
 that showed she was pleased, and she even 
 uttered a feeble purr when we stroked her 
 as a caress. 
 
 Then, one fine morning, she disappeared 
 also clandestinely, as the Chinese had 
 done and we thought she would never 
 return. 
 
 She was to reappear, however, and I 
 recollect how sad that reappearance was. 
 
 It was about three days after, in one of 
 those periods of early June, which radiate 
 and glow with the utter calm of the air de- 
 ceptive in their appearance of eternal dura- 
 tion, melancholy to those beings who are 
 destined to die. Our courtyard put forth 
 all its leaves, all its flowers, all its roses on
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 109 
 
 the walls, as it had done in so many Junes 
 in the past. The martlets and the swallows, 
 intoxicated by the light, wheeled with cries 
 of joy in the deep blue sky. There 'was 
 everywhere a festival of the things that 
 have no life and of the volatile creatures 
 that have no dread of death. 
 
 Aunt Claire, who was walking there, 
 watching the growth of the flowers, called 
 me suddenly, and her voice showed that 
 something extraordinary had happened. 
 
 " Oh ! come here and see ; our poor 
 Mouinoutte has returned!" 
 
 And she was, in fact, there ; come back 
 again, like a sad phantom, with her coat 
 already stained by earth, and half-dead. 
 Who can tell what feeling had brought her 
 back ? Some reflection, perhaps ; a failure 
 of courage at the last hour, the craving to 
 see us once again before she died. 
 
 With great difficulty she had crossed 
 over the little wall so familiar to her, which 
 once she had jumped over in two bounds 
 when she returned from her police duties
 
 1 10 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 on the outside and had slapped some tom- 
 cat or corrected some tabby. Breathless 
 from her severe struggles to return, she 
 remained half-lying on the moss and the 
 new grass at the side of the pool, trying to 
 stoop down to get a mouthful of the fresh 
 water. And her looks implored us, called 
 us to her aid. " Do you not see, then, that 
 I am about to die ? Can you do nothing 
 to prolong my existence a little ? " 
 
 There were presages of death everywhere 
 on this beautiful June morning, under this 
 calm and superb sun. Aunt Claire, bent 
 toward the dying cat, appeared to me, all 
 of a sudden, so aged, weaker than ever be- 
 fore, ready also to soon depart. 
 
 We decided to take Moumoutte back 
 into my dressing room, on the same rose- 
 colored couch which she had chosen in the 
 preceding week, and which had seemed to 
 please her. And I promised to watch her, 
 so as to prevent her from running away 
 again at least, until her bones found a 
 resting-place in the ground of our court-
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. Ill 
 
 yard and that she might not be thrown 
 on some dunghill, as happened doubtless to 
 that other one, my poor little companion 
 from China, whose anxious look still pur- 
 sued me. I took her into my arms, with 
 extreme precautions, and, contrary to her 
 usual custom, she allowed herself to be 
 carried this time, completely confiding in 
 me, with her drooping head supported on 
 my arm. 
 
 On the rose-colored couch, soiling every- 
 thing, she held out for some days still for 
 cats die hard. June continued to blaze 
 through the house and in the gardens 
 around us. 
 
 We often went to see her, and she always 
 tried to raise herself, so as to do the honors of 
 the place to us, her look grateful and moved, 
 her eyes telling as plainly as could human 
 eyes the existence inside her, and the an- 
 guish of what we call soul. 
 
 One morning I found her stiff, her eyes 
 glassy, reduced to a dead creature, some- 
 thing to be thrown away. Then I ordered
 
 112 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 Sylvester to dig a hole in a bend in the 
 courtyard, at the foot of an arbutus tree. 
 Where had that light which I had seen 
 through the eyes of the dying cat gone 
 to ? What had become of that small un- 
 quiet flame from within ? 
 
 XXIV. 
 
 The burial of White Mourn outte in the 
 quiet courtyard took place under the 
 beautiful sky of June, in the full sunshine 
 of two o'clock. 
 
 At the spot indicated Sylvester digs out 
 the earth, then stops, looking into the 
 bottom of the hole, and leans down to take 
 out of it with his hand something which 
 had surprised him. 
 
 " What is this ? " he asked, shaking some 
 small white bones which he had just per- 
 ceived. " Is it a hare ? " 
 
 It was the remains of an animal, cer- 
 tainly those of my Senegal cat, a Mou- 
 moutte from the olden time, my companion 
 in Africa, who had also been much loved,
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 113 
 
 whom I had buried there a dozen years 
 ago, and then forgotten in the abyss in 
 which are heaped up all the things and 
 beings which have disappeared. And 
 while I looked at these little bones mingled 
 with earth, these little legs now mere 
 white sticks, this collection which still gave 
 an impression of the hind-quarters of an 
 animal seen from behind, I suddenly re- 
 membered, with an inclination to smile and 
 yet a slight oppression of the heart, a scene 
 which I had forgotten entirely a certain 
 moment when I had seen the same skele- 
 ton of this cat's back then provided with 
 agile muscles and a silky coat fly before 
 me comically, and scamper oft* with its tail 
 in the air, and frightened to death. 
 
 It was on a day when, with the obstinacy 
 characteristic of the race, she had got up 
 on a piece of furniture which had been 
 forbidden to her twenty times, and had 
 broken a vase there which I greatly valued. 
 I first smacked her, and then, my anger 
 not being yet exhausted, I had aimed at
 
 114 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TIL 
 
 her, as I followed her, a kick which was 
 rather brutal. She who had been slightly 
 surprised by the smack, understood, from 
 the kick which followed, that this was a 
 case of a serious declaration of war. It 
 was then that she had scampered off so 
 quickly with all her limbs, her tail like a 
 plume floating in the wind. Then, having 
 taken refuge under a piece of furniture, she 
 'had turned round to give me a look of re- 
 proach and of distress, believing herself 
 ruined, betrayed, murdered by him whom 
 she loved, and into whose hands she had 
 confided her lot. And as my eyes still 
 retained their wicked expression, she had 
 uttered her wild howl, that unique and 
 sinister " miaou " of cats when they believe 
 themselves about to be killed. All my 
 anger suddenly disappeared ; I called her, 
 caressed her, calmed her on my knees, still 
 frightened and panting. Ah ! that last dis- 
 tressful cry of an animal, even though it be 
 but that of a poor cow which they have 
 just taken to the slaughterhouse, even
 
 A STORY OF TWO dATS. 115 
 
 though it be but that of a poor- rat which 
 a bulldog holds between his teeth that 
 cry which no longer hopes for anything, 
 which is addressed to nobody which is 
 like a last grand remonstrance to Nature 
 herself, an appeal to some unconscious 
 spirits of pity in the air! 
 
 Two or three bones buried at the foot 
 of a tree that was all that remained of 
 those hindquarters of a Moumoutte whom 
 I remember in the full of life, and so 
 funny. And its flesh, its little person, its 
 attachment to me, its great fright on a 
 certain day, its cry of anguish and re- 
 proach in short, all that was around those 
 bones has become a little earth. 
 
 When the hole was made to the proper 
 depth, I went up for the Moumoutte 
 which lay stiff up there on my rose-colored 
 couch. 
 
 When I came down with the little bur- 
 den, I found mamma and Aunt Claire in 
 the courtyard, seated on a bench in the 
 shadow, with an affectation of having come
 
 1 1 6 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TIL 
 
 there by accident, and of speaking of some- 
 thing or other. To meet expressly for 
 this burial of a cat would have appeared, 
 even to ourselves, rather ridiculous, would 
 have made us smile in spite of ourselves. 
 
 Never was there a more dazzling June 
 day, never a warmer silence, broken by 
 such a gay buzzing of insects. The court- 
 yard was all flowery, the rose trees covered 
 in roses. The calm of a village, of the 
 country, reigned in the gardens around ; 
 the swallows and the martins slept ; only 
 the everlasting tortoise Suleima, grown 
 livelier as the heat increased, wandered 
 lightly and promiscuously about on the 
 old sunny stones. Everything was a prey 
 to the melancholy of skies that were too 
 tranquil, of weather too fair, and to the 
 heaviness of the middle of the day. Amid 
 so much fresh verdure, joyous and dazzling 
 light, the two dresses of mamma and Aunt 
 Claire, both alike, made two spots in- 
 tensely black. Their heads, with their 
 white glossy hair, were bent, as though
 
 A STORY OF TWO CATS. 117 
 
 they were a little tired of having seen and 
 reseen so often so very often, almost 
 eighty times the treacherous renewal of 
 all life. The plants, the things, seemed to 
 sing cruelly the triumph of their perpetual 
 renewal, without pity for the fragile beings 
 who heard them, already saddened by the 
 anticipation of their inevitable end. 
 
 I put Moumoutte at the bottom of the 
 hole, and her coat, white and black, dissap- 
 peared immediately under some shovelfuls 
 of earth. I was glad that I had succeeded 
 in keeping her, and in preventing her from 
 going to die elsewhere, as had the other 
 one. At least, she would turn to dust 
 among us, and in that courtyard where so 
 long she had laid down the law to the 
 cats of the neighborhood, where she had so 
 often lounged in the summer on the old 
 walls with their white roses ; and where in 
 the winter nights, at the hour when she 
 
 O ' 
 
 would make her capricious choice of a bed, 
 her name had resounded so often in the si-
 
 118 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 lence as it was called aloud by the aged 
 voice of Aunt Claire. 
 
 It seemed to me as if her death were 
 the beginning of the end with the dwellers 
 in the house. In my mind, this Mou- 
 moutte was linked, like a plaything that 
 had been a long time in use, with those 
 two well-beloved guardians of my fireside, 
 seated there on that bench where she had 
 so often kept them company while I was 
 absent far away. My regret was less for 
 the poor incomprehensible and faint little 
 soul than for the period that had come to 
 an end. It was as if it were ten years of 
 our own life which we had just buried in 
 the earth.
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON.
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 
 
 I AM astonished at myself, at my giving 
 my advocacy to this work, which is alto- 
 gether out of my line, and which at first 
 sight, besides, rather repelled me. I am 
 astonished still more that I do it with a 
 strong sense of conviction, with a real de- 
 sire to be heard, to persuade, to carry other 
 people away, as I have been carried away 
 myself. 
 
 This autumn a highly respected admiral 
 wrote to me and begged me to take an in- 
 terest in the Pen-Bron hospital, the name 
 of which I then heard for the first time. I 
 confess that if the letter had not been 
 signed by this excellent sailor's name I 
 should have thrown it into the wastepaper 
 basket. Good Heavens ! just think of Avhat 
 I was asked to do, and for what purpose ! 
 A hospital for scrofulous children what 
 121
 
 122 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 had I to do with it of all men ? Better let 
 them die, these poor little things, than pre- 
 serve them for a miserable life and, per- 
 haps, from children that would be a dis- 
 grace. "We had, alas ! quite enough al- 
 ready of weaklings and stragglers in our 
 armies in France. 
 
 Out of respect, however, for him who 
 had addressed himself to me, I answered 
 that I would do my best, and most cordi- 
 ally. And I wrote, with some internal 
 mistrust, to the founder of Pen-Bron, M. 
 Pallu whose name and address the ad- 
 miral had given me that I was at his 
 service. 
 
 Two or three days afterward M. Pallu 
 in person came from Nantes to see me. 
 
 At first his enthusiastic language did not 
 move me. These little unhealthy beings, 
 these scrofulous subjects of which he 
 spoke, still gave me a vague sense of terror 
 a certain degree of pity, mingled, how- 
 ever, with an unsurmountable disgust. I 
 listened to him with resignation. They
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 123 
 
 had brought him some of them, he told me, 
 from the gutter, their limbs eaten up by 
 horrible Avounds. Some who were almost 
 falling to pieces had been brought in little 
 boxes ; and he had sent them back, able to 
 walk, at the end of a few months had re- 
 stored their bones, given them back some 
 health and a certainty of life. 
 
 . At last, tired out, I interrupted him, a 
 little brusquely, with the remark, " It 
 would, perhaps, have been more humane to 
 have allowed them to die." 
 
 With great calmness he replied that he 
 was of the same opinion. 
 
 Then I began to see that here was a man 
 with whom I should find something in 
 common. This work had another side 
 doubtless, which he would explain to me 
 a loftier scope than I had yet divined. 
 
 Little by little he told me things of 
 which I had never heard before, things 
 
 ' O 
 
 that frightened me of the progress of 
 this disease, the very name of which brings 
 disgrace ; of its more and more rapid in-
 
 124 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 crease, in recent years especially; of the 
 sufferings, the physicial impoverishing, of 
 the children in great cities ; in fine, that at 
 least a third of the blood of France was 
 already vitiated. 
 
 Those cures which had been effected at 
 Pen-Bron, on little beings who were sup- 
 posed to be utterly lost, and who would 
 remain pitiably weak, had to him only a 
 value as experiments. They showed that 
 this evil, whose name I dare not even 
 write, was curable thoroughly curable, in 
 certain climates, by salt and by the sea. 
 And then he told me his dream of extend- 
 ing his work, of making it something vast 
 and universal, of attempting the renewal of 
 the entire race. 
 
 " To-day." he said, " in this hospital 
 which we have founded with so much 
 difficulty, and which can accommodate just 
 one hundred children, we have only the ref- 
 use of the other hospitals in France poor 
 little morbid phenomena who have lived in 
 beds for years, who have tired out all the
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 125 
 
 doctors, and who are brought to us in ex- 
 tremis, when there is no longer any hope 
 for them. But if, instead of a hundred 
 children, we could receive in Pen-Broil 
 thousands and thousands, in rows of large 
 buildings with miles of frontage all along 
 
 O O cu 
 
 this marvelous sandy peninsula, where the 
 air is always warm and impregnated with 
 salt if in place of these poor little beings 
 whose skin is pierced with deep holes, they 
 brought us all those whom the malady has 
 scarcely touched as yet, all those who are 
 merely threatened if they could send to 
 us every year all the little weaklings and 
 sickly things that grow up without air in 
 the factories of great cities, and who be- 
 come afterward scrofulous soldiers, whose 
 children will be still more pitiful if they 
 could all corne here at the age when the 
 constitution can be easily strengthened 
 and if they asked from the sea a little of 
 that strength which it gives to sailors and 
 
 to fisherman 
 
 And as he unfolded his idea to me, as he
 
 226 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 enlarged it to me with burning conviction, 
 I saw rise into his eyes the look of an / 
 apostle. I understood that the work to 
 which he had devoted his life was noble, 
 French, humanitarian. 
 
 Then, almost won to his side, I promised 
 that, before I tried to say anything about 
 it (I have never been able to speak of any- 
 thing that I have not seen with my own 
 eyes), I would go myself to Pen-Bron, and 
 see what he had already begun to do there 
 on those "marvelous sands," as he 
 called them. 
 
 Some weeks later, at the end of Septem- 
 ber, we were at Croisic, in the little port 
 crowded with fishing boats. Before us the 
 sea-water had that peculiarly intense blue 
 which it always assumes in places where, 
 under the influence of certain currents, it is 
 partially salt and warm. And down there 
 just beyond the first blue shoals there 
 rises an old mansion with turrets which 
 the gales have whitened, and which stands
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 12V 
 
 alone in sands that look as if they formed 
 a complete island. This is Pen-Bron. 
 But never did a hospital look less like one. 
 It was, indeed, difficult to realize that this 
 gay building, open to all winds, could con- 
 tain within it so many poor smitten beings 
 so many terrible and rare varieties of a 
 horrible disease. 
 
 After a passage of a few minutes a boat 
 brings us to the sands which are not an 
 inlet, as they appear in the distance, but 
 are the end of a long, very long, and nar- 
 row peninsula of a kind of endless beach 
 inclosed between the ocean and some salt 
 lagoons fed by the sea. Pen-Bron is there, 
 surrounded with water like a ship. In 
 front of its walls there is a rudimentary 
 garden, which is swept by all the breezes 
 of the open sea, but where, nevertheless, 
 flowers grow in the sandy flower beds. 
 
 About sixty children are outside boys 
 and little girls, in two separate groups. 
 The little boys play, talk, sing, under the 
 superintendence of a good Sister in her
 
 1 2 8 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TH. 
 
 distinctive cap ; and so do the little girls, 
 with the exception of some who are taller, 
 and who are seated on chairs and do needle 
 work. And this is how it is, it seems, every 
 day, except when it is raining heavily. Liv- 
 ing constantly in the open air, the boarders of 
 Pen-Bron move round the building, accord- 
 ing to the direction of the wind and sun, 
 looking at one time on the lagoon, at 
 
 o o / 
 
 another on the open sea always breath- 
 ing that breeze what leaves a taste of salt 
 on the lips. And really, if it were not 
 that one sees some crutches bearing up 
 poor weak little limbs, some bandages con- 
 cealing half the face, and, leaning against the 
 walls, three or four little chairs of a shape 
 that is disquieting, you would imagine 
 that you had come to an ordinary board- 
 ing school at the recreation hour. So much 
 was this the case that I felt vanish sud- 
 denly that kind of physical horror, of un- 
 reasoning distress, which contracted my 
 breast at the first sight of this museum of 
 wretchedness.
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 129 
 
 I have now but a feeling of curiosity as 
 I approach these little invalids. From 
 afar I see them playing, just like any other 
 children of their age. And yet they would 
 not be here unless they had been attacked 
 every one of them, without exception 
 to the very marrow of their bones by some 
 frightful disease. What kind of faces 
 must they have, then ? 
 
 Mon Dieu, faces just like anybody else 
 sometimes even, to my great surprise, 
 faces that are very winning round, full, 
 imitating health. And how they are sun- 
 burnt, actually scorched! They have on 
 their cheeks the mark of the sea, just like 
 fishermen. You might imagine that they 
 had stolen from the children of sailors that 
 appearance of having been tanned by the 
 wind and the sun which make them look so 
 strong. It is a complete surprise to find 
 them looking thus. 
 
 When one comes closer, however, there 
 are plenty of things to make one groan. 
 Under the broad small trousers of the pat-
 
 130 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 tern common in the country you see limbs 
 that are odiously twisted contorted and 
 twisted thighs. Under the small waistcoat 
 are hard corsets, which sustain weakened 
 spines that otherwise would fall in; and 
 then in the flesh there are large holes which 
 are scarcely closed, hollow and horrible 
 scars, and all kinds of mysterious phenom- 
 ena of a very mournful order. 
 
 But laughing gay ety is there all the same 
 in almost every eye. You find confidence 
 and hope have returned to these poor 
 anaemic things, and they give you the impres- 
 sion of an unexpected return of life into 
 their weak limbs. 
 
 M. Pallu, who accompanies me, calls them 
 in turn, quite proud of being able to present 
 them to me with their healthy, bronzed 
 cheeks. And poor children ! they show 
 me their scars without shame and each one 
 tells me the story of his lamentable past. 
 This one had an open wound in his side for 
 six years, below the arm. The hole was al- 
 ways getting deeper, and the treatment in
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON- 131 
 
 the hospitals was doing no good. He had 
 been in the Pen-Bron only four or five 
 months, and it was all closed, all cured. 
 Smiling, he opened his little shirt to show me 
 the spot, where there then seemed nothing 
 but a long scar, a little red. Another, about 
 ten years old, had just spent four years in a 
 hospital bed, stretched in a kind of box, with 
 what is called Pott's disease, of which I had 
 never heard before, but the very sound of 
 which makes me cold. It is a disease of the 
 spinal cord. The rings are not perfectly at- 
 tached to one another, the ligatures are 
 Aveakened, and thus the poor little body, if 
 left to itself, would fall in like a Venetian 
 lamp, which you take down and fold up. 
 Well now the child who had this disease is 
 standing erect before me ; they have taken 
 off within the last two or three days the 
 corset which had supported his back when 
 first he had gone out ; he has no further 
 need of it, and even his chest will be scarcely 
 deformed. 
 They all have things of the same kind to
 
 132 TUB BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 show me and to tell me, and this they do 
 with a gay simplicity, with an air of abso- 
 lute confidence in their easy and complete 
 recovery. The splendid salt air of Pen- 
 Bron cures all this sinister human de- 
 composition, almost as surely as the warm 
 winds dry up putrid sewers, the oozings 
 and the moldiness on walls. 
 
 We now enter the hospital, which dur- 
 ing the day is almost empty. It is an old 
 building, was formerly a salt warehouse, 
 and has now been transformed by M. Pallu. 
 To carry this out, he must have had a 
 strong will and tenacious purpose. The 
 expenses have been almost entirely covered 
 by subscriptions. But it was not without 
 trouble, without vexations of all kinds, that 
 one could succeed in raising one hundred 
 thousand francs for such a work, which is 
 not very inviting at first sight. 
 
 The hospital at Pen-Bron in its present 
 state holds about one hundred beds and 
 these, children's beds scarcely larger than
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 133 
 
 cradles. The halls, all white, open on two 
 sides to the sea. Just as if one were in a 
 floating house, one sees through the win- 
 dows nothing but broad marine expanses, 
 great changing horizons, with fishing boats 
 which sail past. And the simple chapel, 
 with its oak roof, also resembles a chapel 
 on board a vessel. The little invalids who 
 have recently arrived, and who are not yet 
 able to go out, instead of gazing on large 
 gray walls, as in the ordinary hospital, 
 amuse themselves by looking from their 
 places on the passing boats, and receive 
 even in their beds the splendid reviving air 
 of the open sea. In contrast with boarders 
 of a more ancient date, these newcomers 
 have a pale complexion, the transparency 
 of wax, and large hollow eyes. 
 
 But their stay inside the hospital is gen- 
 erally not very long ; as quickly as possi- 
 ble, and at all risks, they send them out to 
 breathe the salt air of the sea. They have 
 even special boats on which they put them 
 to bed a kind of floating bed on which
 
 134 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 they carry them on the lagoon. Through 
 an open window they show me down be- 
 low their poor singular little fleet, which is 
 just starting out from the shore, towed by 
 a barge. Three of these raft beds are oc- 
 cupied by pale children. In the barge is 
 the chaplain who superintends them ; he 
 carries a book from which he reads to them 
 during the long hours during the day when 
 they have to lie at anchor. 
 
 Among those who cannot yet go out are 
 several who are certainly very emaciated, 
 very pale, more saddening to look upon 
 than dead children. But they all receive 
 me with a friendly smile ; doubtless they 
 have been instructed to do so. Before my 
 arrival they have been told that I was 
 someone devoted to their cause, and then 
 in their ever active imaginations they have 
 attributed to me, perhaps, some beneficent 
 powers like those of a magician, and it 
 seems to me that their long, kind looks 
 compel me to do all that I can for their 
 hospital. Here and there on the beds
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 135 
 
 there are playthings very simple ones, I 
 should add. For the girls there are^dolls, 
 or, rather, make-believe dolls, clothed in 
 dressing gowns of printed calico. Here, a 
 little boy of four or five years of age, who 
 has his two legs in splints, with weights 
 attached to the feet to prevent his crumb- 
 ling bones from shrinking up, amuses him- 
 self by drawing up in line little paste- 
 board soldiers which have been presented 
 to him by the good sister. And then my 
 eyes are arrested and charmed by the sight 
 of a beautiful little creature of about 
 twelve years of age, white and rosy, with 
 features of a strange refinement, who plays 
 at nothing, but who appears already to 
 dream with a profound melancholy, her 
 little head resting on its scrupulously clean 
 and white pillow. I ask what is the 
 matter with this little being, so very beau- 
 tiful ; they tell me it is that horrible Pott's 
 disease at its last stage, and they fear it is 
 too far gone to allow of its cure. 
 
 Her looks impress me strangely. They
 
 136 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 are like an appeal, a sad supplication, a cry 
 of despair, which knows everything, and 
 which is infinite. And then, no word, no 
 tears appeal to me like those prayers of 
 anguish which at certain moments flash 
 
 O 
 
 out, mute and brief, from the eyes of the 
 disinherited of all classes sick children, 
 old men, the poor and the abandoned, or 
 even beaten animals that tremble and 
 suffer. Ah, that poor little thing ! And 
 just think that I am the man who had 
 said that it were better to allow those 
 children of Pen-Bron to die. It is in this 
 vague and general manner that you say 
 these things before you have seen them with 
 your own eyes; but as soon as it comes 
 home to you in the individual case, you 
 feel immediately that this cannot be done ; 
 that it would be monstrous. And then, 
 seeing it is possible to prevent it, by what 
 right would you send to the mysterious 
 unknown of death those little bright eyes, 
 with such a look of intelligence those 
 little eyes, wistful and suppliant, which
 
 THE WORK A T PEN-BRON. 13V 
 
 have scarcely opened upon life ! Even 
 though the idea of developing this hospital 
 so that it may become a work of national 
 regeneration be an impracticable chimera, 
 the task of bringing back to health a few 
 little children such as those just seen is 
 worth the trouble, a hundred times over, 
 of continuing and increasing: the work. 
 
 O O 
 
 But the chimera is capable of realization 
 with money ; ah, yes, with money, with 
 much money. Behind the existing hospital 
 there is this almost interminable peninsula 
 of sand, which stretches out of sight like a 
 yellowish ruby, between the blue waters 
 of the sea and the still bluer waters of 
 the salty lagoon. It is there, in this in- 
 comparable situation, that M. Pallu, the 
 founder of Pen-Bron, dreams of extending 
 over miles of frontage his rows of white 
 beds, so that thousands of weakling chil- 
 dren may come and acquire the swelling 
 chests and the hard muscles of sailors. 
 
 Let nobody imagine for a moment that 
 I have lent my influence by mistake to a
 
 138 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH 
 
 private and selfish speculation. Oh no ; 
 let there be no mistake on this point. He 
 who has founded Pen-Bron has spent his 
 money as well as his energy and his mind 
 upon it. There is a managing committee 
 which receives no pay a committee com- 
 posed of thoroughly good people, who, 
 when there is any deficit in the accounts, 
 make it up out of their own purses. 
 There are doctors who are not paid, and 
 who come there every day from Nantes, 
 simply out of their benevolence. There 
 are Sisters of Charity who are admirable. 
 And here is a little point which will give 
 you an idea of the character of the Mother 
 Superior : For want of money, they do 
 not burn the soiled linen ; they wash it, so 
 as to be able to use it again ; and on the 
 servant-women refusing to do this terrible 
 work, this sister said, quite simply, " I will 
 wash these things myself ! " and she has 
 washed them and she washes them every 
 day, during the hours she has for rest. It
 
 THE WORK AT PEN-BRON. 139 
 
 is just an entire community of people 
 with good hearts, bound together by a 
 common faith in the work they have be- 
 gun, and sustained amid their terrible 
 difficulties by the marvelous results they 
 have already attained. They have built 
 some hopes on me, and on what I could 
 say to make them better known ; and I 
 tremble lest their hopes should be deceived, 
 so deeply do I feel that their admirable 
 work is one of those which at first sight 
 are not attractive. They want money not 
 only to undertake the great work of which 
 they dream the regeneration of all the 
 children of France but even to meet the 
 most pressing cases of wretchedness. 
 Every day, for want of room, they are 
 obliged to close their doors to parents who 
 come and beg admission for their children. 
 Oh, if my voice could only be heard ! 
 If only I could get them some subscrip- 
 tions ; or if I could only induce those who 
 will not be convinced by me, to have the
 
 140 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TIL 
 
 curiosity during their excursions to the 
 seaside to pay a visit to Pen-Bron ! I am 
 sure that when they have seen they will 
 be gained over to the cause, as I was ; and 
 will subscribe.
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST.
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 
 
 THE past all the accumulation of what 
 has gone before us possesses my imagina- 
 tion almost without cessation. And often 
 I have the desire the only one that can 
 never be realized, and that is impossible 
 even to God to go back, if it were only 
 for a furtive moment, into the abyss of the 
 days that have gone forever into the 
 auroral freshness of the more or less remote 
 past. 
 
 By the partial exercise of my will, the 
 half -illusion can come to me of such a re- 
 turn especially at certain special hours, 
 when, for instance, I penetrate into regions 
 that have not changed for centuries, into 
 dwellings that have remained intact; 
 where skeletons, now scattered in Heaven 
 knows what earth, once lived, thought, 
 smiled. I experience it also when I find 
 
 143
 
 144 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 by chance things which, while in them- 
 selves fragile and frail, have nevertheless 
 preserved themselves miraculously a long 
 time after the beings to whom they belong 
 have disappeared into unrecognizable dust. 
 Then I see again, with sufficient clearness, 
 in my mind's eye, personages who have 
 disappeared some old, some delightfully 
 young. But never do I succeed in repro- 
 ducing them in the full light of day. The 
 vague twilight in which they usually re- 
 appear to me belongs at once to the earliest 
 morning and to the approaching night to 
 the strangely fresh hour of dawn or the ex- 
 piring hours of evening. 
 
 My nearest ancestors those of the be- 
 ginning of this century or of the end of 
 the last those whose faces and smiles I 
 have learned to know from their portraits, 
 whose manners and habits, some of whose 
 very phrases, have been repeated to me, 
 and who, besides, lived a life very similar 
 to ours, in the midst of well-known things 
 these I see sometimes, but always in the
 
 IX THE DEAD PAST. 145 
 
 spring evenings, in beautiful twilights, 
 limpid and embalmed in jessamine. 
 
 I find infinite charm in this association 
 which takes place in my mind in spite of 
 me between the dead past and the evenings 
 of May with their odor of flowers. I can 
 explain it, besides, quite easily. First, the 
 jasmin is an old-fashioned plant. The 
 old walls in our family house in the He 
 d'Oleron have been carpeted with it for 
 t\v<> or three centuries. And, then, one 
 evening, at the dawn of my life, when I 
 returned from a walk in the twilight, in- 
 toxicated with the odors of the country, of 
 the new hay, of the beautiful verdure that 
 was everywhere appearing again, I found 
 my grandmother and my grandaunt, Bertha, 
 seated in the bottom of the courtyard, 
 breathing the fresh air of the evening, in 
 the twilight under the hanging branches, 
 in which one could distinguish confusedly 
 some white flowers; these were the ever- 
 lasting jessamines. They were just talk- 
 ing of their two sisters, who had died by
 
 146 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 accident very young somewhere about 
 1820 and who used, it appeared, to re- 
 main out in this court in the spring evenings 
 and sing duets to the accompaniment of 
 their guitars. Then there came upon me a 
 sudden impression of the past the first 
 really vivid one I had ever received since 
 I had come into the world seizing me so 
 as almost to frighten me, and with a whole 
 volume of sensations that appeared not to 
 belong to me at all. 
 
 They had never before spoken in my 
 presence of those two dead girls, and I ap- 
 proached, shuddering, to listen with a hun- 
 gry terror to what they were saying about 
 them. Ah ! these duets which they sang 
 those voices of former days which vibrated 
 in this same spot, and in just such May 
 evenings. They are nothing but dust now 
 the lips, the throats, the cords that had 
 given out those melodies in the same fresh 
 tranquillity of the twilight. And how old 
 they were also those ancestresses of mine, 
 the last who remembered these girls ! I
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 147 
 
 put timid questions as to their appearance. 
 What were their faces like ? whom did they 
 resemble ? Already there rose up in my 
 pathway the revolting mystery of the brutal 
 annihilation of human beings, the blind con- 
 tinuation of families and races. Ever since, 
 in the evenings of spring, under the cradle 
 of jessamine, I have thought persistently of 
 those two young girls my unknown grand- 
 aunts. And the association of ideas, of 
 which I spoke just now, was thus created 
 forever in my mind. 
 
 Quite recently, on an evening in last 
 May, I gazed from the window of my study 
 on the beautiful light as it faded little by 
 little over our quiet quarter on the houses 
 around, that to me are so familiar. The 
 swallows, the martins, after wheeling round 
 and round with cries of ecstatic joy, had 
 suddenly grown silent all together, as if at 
 a signal from one leader, frightened, per- 
 haps, by the growing shadows ; one by one 
 they sought their nests under the roofs, leav-
 
 148 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEA TIL 
 
 ing the meadows of the sky void except 
 for scarcely visible bats. A remnant of the 
 rosy splendor still hovered over us, just 
 touching the tops of the old roofs with 
 light ; then it rose and rose till it was lost 
 in the profound depths of the sky. Real 
 night was approaching. 
 
 An odor of jessamine suddenly reached 
 me from the gardens around; and then I 
 began to dream of the past, but of that past 
 which has but lately gone ; of that whose 
 actors still retain their forms tinder the 
 devouring earth and fill our cemeteries with 
 their coffins almost intact ; men who wore 
 on their necks the cravats of many folds 
 which were the fashion in 1830; women 
 who arranged their hair in curl papers 
 those poor remains of grandfathers and 
 grandmothers tenderly wept for and now 
 almost forgotten. Doubtless, thanks to the 
 immobility of small provincial towns, this 
 quarter immediately under my eyes has 
 scarcely changed since the past days, which
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 149 
 
 are filling my imagination. That house 
 opposite has remained the same; it was 
 there that one of my grandmothers formerly 
 lived. And, with the assistance of the 
 darkness, I forced myself to imagine that 
 the present moment had not yet been born ; 
 and that the date of the actual day was 
 sixty or eighty years ago. If the door of 
 this house opposite were to open, and 
 on its threshold were to appear that 
 grandmother whom I scarcely knew still 
 young and pretty, with leg-of-mutton 
 sleeves, and a coiffure unknown to this 
 generation ; if other fair beings also, in 
 the dress of the same period, were to walk 
 out and people the streets with their faint 
 shadows ; ah ! what a charm, what a melan- 
 choly delight it would it be to see, if it were 
 for but a moment, the same quarter in the 
 twilight of the May of 1820 or 1830 ; to see 
 the young ladies of that time in their out- 
 of-date garments and with their old-fash- 
 ioned airs and graces starting out for their
 
 150 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 walk, or coming to the windows to catch 
 the freshness of the evening air. 
 
 It happened that, on the following night, 
 I saw in a dream all that I had brought 
 before my imagination during that reverie. 
 Nightfall was at hand, toward the closing 
 days of the first quarter in this century, in 
 the streets of niy native town, which were 
 scarcely changed, but in which there was a 
 somber half-light. I was taking a walk 
 with someone of my own generation ; I 
 could not tell distinctly who it was it was 
 an invisible being, a pure specter, as the com- 
 panions of my dreams usually are it was 
 perhaps my niece, or, rather, Leo, at all 
 events it was somebody who is in constant 
 association with my ideas, and haunted, as 
 I am, by visions of the past. And we 
 looked with all our eyes in order not to 
 lose anything of this moment, which we 
 knew to be rare, unique, fleeting, incapable 
 of returning a moment in a buried epoch 
 which had come to life by some magic
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 151 
 
 artifice. There was a feeling, too, that one 
 could not count on the stability of any- 
 thing there. Sometimes the images died 
 out suddenly for just half a second, then 
 reappeared, then died out once again. It 
 was like some pale, shifting phantas- 
 magoria, which an effort of will, very diffi- 
 cult to keep up, had succeeded in bringing 
 to life to move across the dim canvas of a 
 shadowy past. We hurried forward with 
 some feverislmess to see to see the very 
 utmost possible before there came the 
 stroke of the magician's wand that would 
 plunge everything once more into eternal 
 night. We tarried before we started for our 
 own quarter, in the hope of being able to 
 recognize some member of our own family 
 some ancestor whom we might be able 
 to recognize, or perhaps even mamma or 
 Aunt Claire, still quite little children as 
 they were, being brought back from their 
 evening w^alk with the May flowers they 
 had gathered in their hands. The passers- 
 by also rushed in and out of the houses,
 
 152 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 quickly closing the doors, as though they 
 had grown unaccustomed to wander in the 
 midst of streets and were a little dis- 
 tressed at finding themselves restored to 
 real life. The women wore leg-of-mutton 
 sleeves, combs a la girafe ; bonnets so old- 
 fashioned that in spite of our emotion and 
 of our vague terror we could not but smile. 
 A mournful breeze, at the corner of the 
 streets especially, agitated, in the confused 
 twilight, the petticoats, the little shawls, 
 the odd-looking scarves of the women who 
 passed by, giving them still more the ap- 
 pearance of phantoms. But in spite of 
 this breeze, and in spite of this somber 
 twilight, one could see that it was spring ; 
 the lime-trees were in flower, and on the 
 old walls the jessamine smelt sweet. 
 Quite close to us, there passed a couple, 
 still very young, two lovers, tenderly lean- 
 ing on each other's arm, and with a some- 
 thing I know not what in their air 
 which, being familiar to me, made me look 
 at them with particular attention. " Ah ! "
 
 IN TEE DEAD PAST. 153 
 
 said my niece, in a tone half-tender, half- 
 irouical, though without malice, " it is the 
 old Dongas." The person at my side, who 
 was indistinct at the start, had definitely 
 resolved herself into my niece. I saw her 
 now quite clearly at my side, walking 
 very rapidly almost running. 
 
 It was, indeed, the old Dougas ; that was 
 the resemblance which I myself sought to 
 recall. And we were both deeply stirred, 
 not precisely because of them, but because 
 of the simple fact that we had succeeded 
 in recognizing someone in the multitude of 
 furtive specters. That at once gave the 
 charm of the most striking truth to this 
 dive into the dead past, and that threw 
 over this si<?ht of buried events a melan- 
 
 O 
 
 choly still more indescribable. 
 
 Those old Dougas the people of whom 
 we were thinking least of all under what 
 
 O 
 
 an unexpected aspect did they reappear to 
 us. Poor old grotesque beings whom we 
 had known formerly in our quarter who 
 were already infirm and decrepit while we
 
 154 7770 BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 were still children old people of the kind 
 that produce on children the impression of 
 having always been the same. And these 
 were really the people who passed along so 
 briskly, looking like a pair of turtle-doves, 
 in this gentle evening breeze she posi- 
 tively young, with her head bent, her coal- 
 black hair coquettishly arranged under a 
 large hat of the fashion of the time ! They 
 were not more absurd than others, not 
 uglier, transfigured by the mere magic of 
 youth, and with the air of enjoying as much 
 as anybody could the fugitive hours of 
 spring and of love. And to see them 
 young and in love again thus those old 
 Dougas gave me a still sadder sense of 
 the fragility of these two things, love and 
 youth, the only things which are worth 
 living for. 
 
 Another very somber impression of the 
 past came to me during a recent visit to 
 Corsica. 
 
 At Ajaccio, where I had just arrived,
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 155 
 
 and which I saw for the first time, some 
 friends took me to see the house in which 
 Napoleon the First was born. It was in 
 the spring it is always spring when these 
 things happen to me a spring warmer 
 than ours, heavy under a clouded sky, with 
 the scent of orange trees and some other 
 plants that might almost have been African. 
 I had felt but little interest beforehand in 
 this house, no more than I do about any 
 other of the scenes familiar to sightseers 
 and guidebooks where people generally 
 think themselves bound to go. It said to 
 me nothing, and would cause me no emo- 
 tion. 
 
 The spot, however, pleased me from the 
 very first. You felt that in the district 
 nothing could have changed since the 
 childhood of this man, who had so up- 
 turned the world. 
 
 Above all, the house was intact ; and 
 from the moment I entered, helped by the 
 evening hours and the silence, the past be- 
 gan to come forth to me out of the dark-
 
 156 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ness, evoked as it were by the smallest de- 
 tails ; the track of feet on the steps of the 
 stairs, the faded whitewash of the walls, 
 the old iron scraper placed before the 
 threshold on which muddy eighteenth-cen- 
 tury boots had been rubbed. The past be- 
 gan to assume its spectral life in my atten- 
 tive brain. 
 
 First, in the courtyard that sad little 
 courtyard, bare of grass and surrounded by 
 high houses of very ancient date I saw 
 playing the strange child that afterward 
 became the emperor. 
 
 The rooms into which I entered in the 
 twilight were but dimly lighted through 
 the shutters, which were everywhere closed 
 as though to increase the sense of mystery. 
 The furniture had an air of elegance, an 
 odor of bon ton, in this large dwelling ; it 
 was clear that the owners of this house 
 were people of substance according to the 
 ideas of the time. And, then, the seal of 
 the past was so deeply impressed every- 
 where, the smell of dust, the extreme de-
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 157 
 
 cay of this furniture of the days of Louis 
 XV., or of Louis XVI., eaten by moths 
 and worms, gave an impression of the abso- 
 lute abandonment, the long immobility of 
 a tomb, as if nobody had entered there 
 since that time, nearly a hundred years ago, 
 when its historic owners had passed from 
 its doors. In the dining room, looking on 
 the small and almost deserted street, there 
 was their table, still set, with curious 
 chairs of an ancient pattern ranged around ; 
 and little by little I succeeded in bringing 
 before my imagination one of their family 
 suppers on a spring evening fearfully 
 like this, with the same sounds of birds 
 from under the roofs and the same scents 
 in the air. They came to life again before 
 my eyes, in the semi-dark ness favorable to 
 the dead, faces and dresses and all ; pale 
 Mme. Letitia seated in the midst of her 
 somewhat strange-looking children, their 
 enigmatic future already preoccupying her 
 grave spirit. It is so near to us this epoch 
 of theirs when one thinks of it ; we are al-
 
 158 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ways so near each other in time's profound 
 depths of endless successions. 
 
 Then my thoughts wandered from this 
 mother of an emperor to my own ; and sud- 
 denly I cannot explain the origin of this 
 feeling I felt an extreme sadness in the 
 darkness, something like the dizziness one 
 feels on looking into an abyss, when I said 
 to myself that this supper of the Bona- 
 partes, which I had seen so clearly and so 
 suddenly, had all passed more than half a 
 century before there was any thought in 
 the world of my own mother of that 
 mother who has been always the most pre- 
 cious and the most stable thinsj in life to 
 
 O 
 
 me to whose side I cling with some of the 
 feelino- of the child's tender confidence 
 
 O 
 
 whenever dark terror seizes me of destruc- 
 tion and the void. 
 
 I don't know how to explain it; but I 
 should prefer to believe that her beginnings 
 of life started from a date more remote; 
 that her gentle faith, which still gives me a 
 sense of security, had its origin in a past
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 159 
 
 a little more remote ; at the same time, 
 feeling the contradictory sentiment that 
 her soul should have beyond death an 
 existence without end ; and to think of a 
 time very like ours, and yet in which she 
 had not begun to exist, upsets me com- 
 pletely. I believe that it gives me a new 
 sensation more poignant that ever of the 
 nothingness of us both in the vast whirl 
 of beings, in the infinitude of time. 
 
 Attention is quickly tired as soon as it 
 has been devoted too intently to any sub- 
 ject. During the rest of my visit to the 
 house of the emperor I thought of other 
 things nothing of any importance, and 
 nothing that interested me. 
 
 I saw nevertheless his modest room his 
 room as a young man in which I was told 
 he slept for the last time on his return from 
 Egypt. It was quite striking in appear- 
 ance, with all its small details, which were 
 still preserved. In our old house in the Isle 
 of Oleron I remember a similar one which
 
 160 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 was formerly occupied by a Huguenot great- 
 grandaunt, who was almost liis contem- 
 porary. 
 
 But for me the soul and the terror of the 
 place are in the room of Mine. Letitia, a 
 pale portrait of whom, placed in a dark 
 spot I did not at first see, but which 
 arrested me just as I was leaving with a 
 sudden sense of fright. In an oval that 
 had lost its gilt, under a moldy glass, it 
 stands, a discolored pastel, the head pale 
 against a black background. She is like 
 him. : she has the same imperious eyes, and 
 the same smooth hair with the same 
 smoothly lying locks. Her expression, sur- 
 prisingly intense, has in it something sad, 
 wild, suppliant. She appears a prey to the 
 anguish of no longer being. The face, how 
 I know not, has not remained in the center 
 of the frame ; it is as a face of a dead person 
 who, frightened at finding herself there in 
 the midst of night, has placed her face fur- 
 tively in an obscure corner in this oval for
 
 IN THE DtfAD PAST. 161 
 
 the purpose of seeing through the mist of 
 the dim glass what the living are doing. 
 And what has become of all the glory of 
 her son ? Poor woman ! At the side of 
 his portrait on the worm-eaten chest-of- 
 dni \vers in his old room, there is under a 
 globe a " Crib of Bethlehem/' with the 
 figures in ivory, which looks like a child's 
 toy. It was probably her son who brought 
 this back to her from one of his journeys. 
 It would be very curious to know how they 
 were to each other what degree of tender- 
 ness they showed to each other ; he, intoxi- 
 cated with glory; she always anxious, 
 severe, sad, foreboding. 
 
 Poor woman ! she has passed into dark 
 night ; and even the fading splendor of the 
 emperor scarcely suffices to keep his name 
 in some men's memories. And in spite of 
 his efforts to immortalize himself like the 
 old legendary heroes, his mother in less than 
 a century is forgotten. To save her from 
 oblivion there remains but two or three 
 portraits, scattered and neglected like this
 
 162 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 one, which is already half-fafled out. And 
 our mothers the mothers of us who are 
 unknown who will remember them? 
 Who will preserve their loved images when 
 we are no longer here ? 
 
 Face to face with this pastel, in the 
 opposite angle of this same room, another 
 small sad thing attracts my attention in 
 spite of the growing darkness : it is a simple 
 frame in wood, containing a yellow photo- 
 graph attached to the wall. It represents, 
 still a little child in short trousers, that 
 young Prince Imperial who was killed in 
 Africa about a dozen years ago. A curious 
 fancy, yet a touching one, of the ex-Empress 
 Eugenie to place here this souvenir of her 
 son, the last of the Napoleons, in the same 
 room where was born that other one who 
 shook the world ! 
 
 I think of how striking and strange it 
 will be to our children a century or two 
 hence to pass in review the photographs of 
 their ancestors or of dead children. How-
 
 IN THE DEAD PAST. 163 
 
 ever expressive be those portraits, whether 
 printed or painted, which our ancestors 
 have bequeathed to us, they cannot produce 
 on us anything like the same impression. 
 But photographs, which are direct reflec- 
 tions from ourselves, which fix even fugitive 
 
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 attitudes, gestures, momentary expression, 
 how curious and how almost terrifying they 
 will be to those generations which will 
 come after us when we also have descended 
 into the dead past.
 
 SOME FISHEKMEN'S WIDOWS.
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 
 
 During the recent fishing season two boats belonging to 
 Paimpol, the Petite-Jeanne and the Catherine, were lost 
 with all their crews and freight in the sea off Iceland. By 
 this one disaster thirty widows and eighty orphans were 
 added to the list on the Breton Coast. M. Pierre Loti then 
 made an appeal to the charity of the public. A subscrip- 
 tion, which was immediately opened, brought in about 
 thirty thousand francs, which were distributed among the 
 bereaved families. lathe pages that follow the account is 
 given of the work of distribution. Note by the Publisher. 
 
 THE scene is at Paimpol, one September 
 morning, in the usual Breton weather 
 somber and rainy. The first emotion I 
 experienced was poignant enough when, at 
 the hour agreed upon, I entered the house 
 of the Naval Commissary, where were 
 assembled the families of the sailors who 
 had been lost. The corridor and the 
 vestibule were filled with widows, a^ed 
 
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 mothers, women in mourning; black 
 
 gowns, white caps, from under which 
 
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 168 Til K BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 tears were flowing. All silent and 
 huddled together there because of the 
 
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 rain outside, they awaited rny appear- 
 ance. 
 
 In the office of the Commissary were 
 met, on his invitation, the Mayors of Plou- 
 bazlanec, of Plouezec, and of Kerity (the 
 three Communes Avhere the suffering was 
 greatest). They came to assist as wit- 
 nesses at the distribution, and to supply 
 information with regard to the character of 
 the widows to whom sums comparatively 
 large were about to be given. I had 
 feared that among so many there would be 
 some who were not quite reliable, who 
 might be extravagant in this country 
 which reeks of alcohol. But I was wrong. 
 Ah ! These poor women, they did not 
 require the good character given to them 
 in every case by the Mayors ; their honest 
 faces told their own tale. And they were 
 all so clean, so neat, so nicely dressed with 
 their humble black clothes and their caps 
 freshly ironed.
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 169 
 
 We began with the widows of the crew 
 of the Petite- Jeanne. 
 
 They answered one after the other to 
 their names, and came to take the money, 
 some with sobs, others with quiet tears, 
 and some finally with a little sad and 
 embarrassed salutation to us. When they 
 retired, thanking everybody, the Mayor 
 had the kindness to say to them, pointing 
 to me, "It is to him it is to Nostre Loti 
 (in French, Monsieur Loti) that you 
 should give your thanks." Then some put 
 out their hands to touch mine ; all gave 
 me an ever-to-be-remembered look of grati- 
 tude. 
 
 There were some among them who had 
 never seen a note for a thousand francs, and 
 who turned this little blue symbol over and 
 over again in their hands with an air al- 
 most of fright. The value of this piece of 
 paper was explained to them in the Breton 
 tongue. "You must be economical," ex- 
 plained the Mayor to them, " and keep that 
 for the children." They replied, " I will
 
 170 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 invest it, good sir ; " or, " I will buy a piece 
 of a field I will buy some sheep -I will 
 buy a cow ? " and then they went away, 
 weeping. 
 
 When the sorrowful work of distribution 
 to the widows of the Petite- Jeanne was 
 finished, that of the Catherine began, with 
 an incident which was very touching. 
 
 This Catherine, you must know, had a 
 mysterious fate, like that formerly told of 
 the Leopoldine / nobody had ever met it in 
 Iceland ; it must have foundered before 
 ever it got there ; and, then, nobody had 
 seen or ever heard anything of its wreck. 
 But it was now six months since anything 
 had been heard of it, and that was suffi- 
 cient to allow us to assume that it was cer- 
 tainly lost. Nevertheless, some widows, it 
 appeared, still hoped against all probability. 
 I had no doubts myself; but on the previ- 
 ous evening, acting on the opinion of the 
 owner of the ship, the Naval Commissary 
 and myself had decided that, in the absence
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 171 
 
 of proofs, we should wait some weeks yet 
 before distributing the money to these fam- 
 ilies of the Catherine. The widows had 
 been informed that they would be called 
 this morning to be told only the sums that 
 were designed for them, and that they 
 would not receive them until October, and 
 then only in case no good news came by 
 that time with regard to the fate of the 
 vessel. But M. de Nouel, Mayor of Plou- 
 bazlanec,' had come to tell us during our 
 meeting, that some of the fishermen belong- 
 ing to his Commune, who had returned 
 from Iceland, had seen a piece of what was 
 undoubtedly the wreck of the Catherine; 
 our hesitations naturally fell to the ground ; 
 there was nothing further to be expected, 
 and we could pay immediately. 
 
 The first widows who were called two 
 young women, who presented themselves 
 together thought that they were only 
 going to be informed of the amount of their 
 money. When they saw that they were to 
 be paid immediately, they, like their sisters
 
 172 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 of the Petite-Jeanne, looked at each other 
 with eyes that questioned; at the same 
 moment, a frightful look of anguish crossed 
 their faces, and then there came an unex- 
 pected outburst of sobs which was caught 
 up even as far as the vestibule, where the 
 others were. The unfortunate creatures 
 had not yet given way to complete despair. 
 They had already begun to wear mourning, 
 but they persisted in hoping against hope 5 
 and now, when the money was put in their 
 hands, it seemed to them that everything 
 was made more hopeless, more irrevocable ; 
 that it was the lives of their husbands 
 which were being paid to them. I had 
 without thinking, by my tactlessness, in- 
 flicted on them a cruel blow. 
 
 When all those of the Catherine had taken 
 their departure, about ten other women, in 
 their poor black gowns, who had been sum- 
 moned, still waited at the door. Here I am 
 compelled to confess that I went beyond my 
 powers. But how difficult it was not to do
 
 SOVE FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 1V3 
 
 so ; and who will find fault with me for 
 it? 
 
 During the preceding evening some 
 women in mourning had come to the hotel 
 where I was staying to call on me, and 
 had said to me humbly, without recrimina- 
 tion and without jealousy, " I also have lost 
 my husband in Iceland this year ; he fell 
 into the sea" ; or, " he was carried away 
 from his ship by a wave ; and I also have 
 little children." I should have said to them, 
 " I am exceedingly sorry, but you do not 
 belong to the Petite-Jeanne or the Cathe- 
 rine, Now I have assistance only for them ; 
 I cannot recognize you." 
 
 It ended by my feeling this inequality 
 to be unjust and unnatural. I ask pardon 
 of my subscribers, but after refusing at 
 first, I took it upon myself to make these 
 poor people share in the distribution. I 
 decided to give a part of the subscription 
 a lesser part it must be said to the other 
 women of the district of Paimpol whose 
 husbands had been lost in the course of this
 
 1Y4 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 year, arid I begged the Commissary of the 
 Naval Recruiting Department who ap- 
 proved of my decision to begin again the 
 complicated calculation of the amounts to 
 be distributed to each person. 
 
 Alas ! in this country of the Icelanders 
 there remain many widows still to whom I 
 can give no assistance ; widows from last 
 year, widows from two years ago, from 
 three years ago all in great poverty and 
 burdened with very young children. To 
 them I have been obliged to turn a deaf 
 ear ; one must stop somewhere draw the 
 line at some point. 
 
 It was painful to me not to be able to do 
 something for these afflictions of older date. 
 I have suffered still more from the thought 
 of my inability to console those who are 
 going to suffer in the coming fishing seasons, 
 for I can never venture to address another 
 appeal to my unknown friends. 
 
 After such reflections I understood better 
 the half-protest, so courteous in its terms, 
 which had been sent to me by the ship-
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 1V5 
 
 owners of Puimpol when I started the sub- 
 scription. They were almost frightened to 
 see the money so soon reach the widows of 
 the Petite-Jeanne when other women of the 
 same district, living next door to them, 
 having had the same losses through ship- 
 wreck, would have to remain in their deep 
 distress. They had urgently requested me 
 to ask the permission of the subscribers to 
 place the funds at the disposal of the 
 "Courcy Society," and I had been on the 
 point of doing so. 
 
 But, then, if I had done so, I should have 
 immediately stopped the flow of charity 
 which had been coming in with such spon- 
 taneity. We are like this : there must be 
 some special case of misfortune brought 
 under our very eyes in an especial manner 
 to open our hearts. Charitable associations 
 organized for a general purpose speak to 
 us but little hardly touch us at all. And 
 so I had to let things go, as we say in the 
 Navy. 
 
 At this moment and for the future I am
 
 176 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DBA TIL 
 
 entirely devoted to the Courcy Society, the 
 very existence of which I did not know of 
 two months ago. If I can contribute to 
 making it a little better known I shall be 
 very glad. 
 
 There is a charitable man M. de 
 Courcy* who has devoted himself heart 
 and soul to the widows and little orphans 
 of the sea. In seven years he has gathered 
 and placed about eight hundred thousand 
 francs as a charitable fund for the families 
 of all shipwrecked French sailors. There 
 is not a fishing village where his name is 
 not known and blessed. 
 
 The help which the Society sends has 
 this advantage over those started by in- 
 dividual initiative, that it is always given in 
 the proportion in which it is needed, so as 
 to excite no feeling of jealousy among the 
 families whom misfortune has overtaken. 
 
 But this assistance is unfortunately very 
 
 * The office of the Society for the Assistance of the 
 Families of the Shipwrecked, founded by H. de Courcy, is 
 at 87, Rue de Richelieu, Paris.
 
 SO J/A' FISHERMEN '8 WID OWS. 1 1 1 
 
 much smaller than that which I have been 
 sufficiently fortunate to bring to Paimpol 
 to-day. It is insufficient everywhere and 
 often; for the activity of the Society ex- 
 tends without distinction along all our 
 coast, from the Mediterranean to the Chan- 
 nel, and, alas ! the sailors who lose their 
 lives every year are numerous. M. de 
 Courcy then ought to have many legacies, 
 many donations, and I would that I could 
 speak of his work such touching words as 
 would bring him some. 
 
 Thanks to the information collected with 
 so much care by the Naval Commissary, we 
 have been able to calculate the shares of 
 the different claimants with tolerable equity, 
 taking into account the sums already given 
 by M. de Courcy, and taking also into 
 especial consideration the number of chil- 
 dren in each family (including the babies 
 that were expected, who were numer- 
 ous). 
 
 I have also thought it our duty to give
 
 178 TEE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 assistance to aged parents who had lost 
 their breadwinner in their son. 
 
 Those who knew how to write a little 
 signed opposite their names on the lists 
 which we had prepared. For those who 
 could not write (they were the more 
 numerous) the mayors who were present 
 signed as witnesses. 
 
 At Pors-Even and at Ploubazlanec, 
 where I went in the evening at the close 
 of the distribution to see some fishermen 
 who were old friends of mine, I received 
 many shakes of the hand, many thanks, 
 many blessings. I wish I had the power 
 to transmit to the subscribers some of all 
 this it was so frank, simple, and so good. 
 
 On the Tuesday following I left this dis- 
 trict quietly in a coupe on the Saint-Brieuc 
 diligence, thinking that it was all over. 
 
 About two o'clock we were to pass 
 Plouezec, the most afflicted commune, that 
 of the sailors of the Petite- Jeanne.
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 1?9 
 
 At first I looked from afar at this village, 
 with its houses of granite, its chapel, and 
 its gray spire, thinking of all there was of 
 sorrow and misery within its narrow limits. 
 
 As I got closer I was surprised to see 
 many people stationed along the road- 
 crowds, as if for a fair ; but, unlike them, 
 silent and motionless ; the majority women 
 and children. 
 
 " I believe it is for you. They are wait- 
 ing for you," said an Iceland friend to me, 
 who was traveling at my side in this car- 
 riage. 
 
 And it turned out to be for me ; I un- 
 derstood that soon. They had learned the 
 hour at which I was going to pass, and 
 they wished to see me. 
 
 When the courier stopped before the 
 post-office the mayor advanced, raising with 
 his two hands a little child of six to seven 
 years, who had some business to transact 
 with me a very beautiful little child, with 
 large dark eyes and hair that was silky 
 and of the color of yellow straw. She
 
 1 80 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TIL 
 
 had to offer me a beautiful bouquet, and to 
 address to me tliis compliment (over which 
 she got mixed a little, which made her 
 Aveep) : u I thank you because you have 
 kept the little children of Plouezec from 
 being hungry." 
 
 They were drawn up in a line on the two 
 sides of the road, these " little children of 
 Plouezec" ; and in the first roAV behind 
 them I recognized the wido\vs of yesterday, 
 Avhose eyes were filled with tears as they 
 looked at me. Behind them Avere almost 
 the whole population of the village, and 
 some strangers bathers, doubtless, or 
 tourists. 
 
 It was not a noisy croAvd ; there was no 
 ovation with outbursts of applause it Avas 
 much better and more than that ; it was 
 just a few groups of people, poor for the 
 most part, who, touched, grateful, motion- 
 less, looked at me Avithout saying anything. 
 
 The courier set out once more, and I 
 bowed along the whole street to the people, 
 striving to maintain the ordinary expression
 
 SOME FISHERMEN'S WIDOWS. 181 
 
 of my face, for a man looks very absurd 
 when he weeps. 
 
 * 
 
 I have already in the name of those 
 widows and those orphans thanked the 
 subscribers who have responded to my ap- 
 peal. I have to thank them also for my- 
 self, because of this moment of sweet emo- 
 tion which I owe to them.
 
 AUNT CLAIEE LEAVES US.
 
 I AUNT CLAIEE LEAVES US. 
 
 Ah / Insense, que crois que tu n'es pas moi. 
 
 V. HUGO : " Les Contemplations." 
 
 SUNDAY, November 30, 1890. Yester- 
 day evening the sad boundary was passed ; 
 the precise moment in which one under- 
 stands suddenly that death has come, is 
 gone. 
 
 Those who have passed through the sor. 
 row know well that decisive conversation 
 with the doctor, and how one fixes on him 
 one's eyes, almost threatening in their ex- 
 citedness, while he speaks. His answers, 
 at first obstinately vague, and then more 
 and more heart-breaking as you press him, 
 are understood gradually, enveloping you 
 with successive chills which penetrate 
 deeper with every moment, until the 
 moment comes when you bow your head, 
 
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 186 THE BOOK OF PITT AND 
 
 having finally grasped it all. One is 
 almost moved to cry out to him for mercy, 
 as if it depended on him, and at the same 
 time one almost hates him because he can 
 do nothing. 
 
 So, then, she is going to die Aunt 
 Claire. 
 
 And when one does know it, a certain 
 length of time is necessary to survey all 
 the aspects of what is going to happen- 
 even to understand why it is that there 
 is something so frightfully final in 
 death. 
 
 The first night, then, arrives of that cer- 
 tainty with the momentary oblivion that 
 comes with sleep, and then you must go 
 through the anguish of waking to find that 
 black thought seated more closely than 
 ever by your "side. 
 
 And so it is all over ; Aunt Claire is go- 
 ing to die. 
 
 MONDAY, December 1. This is a day of 
 severe frost. A sad winter sun shines
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 187 
 
 white in a pale-blue sky more sinister 
 than if gray. 
 
 This day is passed in expecting the 
 death of Aunt Claire. She lies on a low 
 bed in the middle of her room where she 
 had been laid just for a moment, and where 
 she asked to be left without moving her 
 
 again. 
 
 It is her old room of former days, where 
 I used to love to remain whole days long 
 when I was a child ; many of my first 
 strange little dreams of the great and un- 
 known universe are associated with some of 
 the things around with the window frames, 
 the ancient water colors on the walls; 
 above all they are entangled with the 
 cloudy patterns on the marble of the 
 chimney-piece which I used to closely 
 study in the winter evenings, discovering 
 there all kinds of shapes of animals or 
 things when the twilight hour brought me 
 close to the fire. Nothing is changed in 
 this chimney-piece where Aunt Claire 
 formerly used to place for me EOurs aux
 
 188 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 pralines ; and I see still in the same places 
 the table on which she assisted me to 
 place my magic tricks, the large chest of 
 drawers which I used to burden with my 
 play of the Peau d'Ane, with my fantastic 
 decorations and with my little actors in 
 porcelain. All my childhood, whether 
 anxious or happy all the opening im- 
 pressions of my mind, whether disquieted 
 or dazzled by mirages I find again to-day 
 with a melancholy as from beyond the 
 tomb in this room where formerly I was 
 so much petted, consoled, spoiled by her 
 who is going to die there. Ah ! that is the 
 end of everything. Alas ! for the nothing- 
 ness which beckons to us all, and where 
 we shall all be to-morrow. 
 
 There is nothing more to be done ; and 
 we remain near her bed. 
 
 During those hours of dumb expectancy, 
 in which the spirit sometimes falls asleep 
 and forgets in which one sees nothing 
 but the poor pale face, already almost
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 189 
 
 without thought, of her who is yet Aunt 
 Claire the good old aunt so deeply loved 
 my eyes catch sight of the cushions 
 which hold her up. This one, with pat- 
 terns a little faded, was embroidered by 
 her formerly as a surprise, I remember, for 
 New Year's Day at the period when the 
 approach of the New Year presents trans- 
 ported me with such childish joy twenty- 
 five or thirty years ago. Ah ! what a time 
 is that of youth ! Oh ! that one could re- 
 turn there for but one hour ! Oh ! that 
 one might retrace one's steps across the 
 times that have been, or if only one could 
 tarry a little by the way and not rush on 
 so fast to death ! 
 
 There is nothing to be done ; we remain 
 near her, and from time to time the new- 
 comers of the family the veiy little ones 
 who will grow old so soon arrive also, led 
 by the hand or in their nurses' arms a little 
 frightened without knowing how much 
 cause there is for terror, and with their eyes 
 opened anxiously. They scarcely remem-
 
 190 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 berherwho is passing away. Without, it 
 is freezing bitterly under this pale hyper- 
 borean sky. And my beloved old mother, 
 sitting motionless in the same chair opposite 
 her dying sister, continues to watch that poor 
 face which is breaking up and passing to an- 
 nihilation, will not turn away her eyes from 
 that companion of all her life, who is the first 
 to return to earth. And I hear her whisper 
 quite low, with an accent of sweet and sub- 
 lime pity, " How long ! How long ! " 
 This thing, which she does not name and 
 which we all know, is the last agony. She 
 feels that it is very long for her sister and 
 that no suffering is spared her. But 
 she speaks of it as of a passage toward an 
 elsewhere, radiant and very assured ; she 
 speaks of it with that tranquil faith which 
 I venerate which is the one thing in the 
 world that gives me at certain hours an 
 unreasoning hope that is still somewhat 
 sweet. 
 
 This terrible cold weather, so unusual in
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES VS. 191 
 
 our region, continues, adding to the sadness 
 of the expectation of death a general sinister 
 impression as of a cosmic trouble as of the 
 freezing up of the whole earth. 
 
 Toward three in the afternoon, in the 
 frozen house, I was w r anderin^ about the 
 
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 rooms without object, merely for the pur- 
 pose of changing from one place to another, 
 without knowing what to do and my mind 
 absent for a little while. I had almost for- 
 gotten, as happens when the most sorrowful 
 expectation is prolonged indefinitely; and 
 I reached quite accidentally the linen-room 
 at the top of the house, whence one can see 
 ihe country for a long distance through the 
 window panes dimmed by the foggy frost 
 the country level and somber under the 
 red sun of a winter evening. 
 
 On one of the shutters outside the win- 
 dow my eyes caught sight of two blades of 
 rose-bay in a poor little broken bottle, 
 which hung by a string from a nail, and 
 suddenly I remembered it all with a pang
 
 192 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 of grief. It was just about two months ago, 
 during the beautiful autumn, which was so 
 luminous and warm that Aunt Claire, pass- 
 ing accidentally at the same time as I 
 through this linen-room, said to me, pointing 
 this out to me, " Those are some cuttings 
 of rose-bay that I am making." I do not 
 know why, but at the first moment I was 
 rather saddened. This idea of making cut- 
 tings when it would have been so much 
 more simple to buy rose-bays all grown, 
 appeared to me like a bit of senile folly. 
 But then my thoughts went back with a 
 deep sense of tenderness to those past 
 days to that time at which we were so 
 poor, and ab which the energy, order, and 
 thrift of mamma and Aunt Claire were able 
 to giv^ a good appearance to our honse ; to 
 that time when, as ever afterward, it was 
 Aunt Claire who had the supreme direction 
 of our trees and our flowers ; for it was she 
 herself who made the cuttings and who 
 attended to the buds, to the sowing in 
 the spring, and always found the means,
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 193 
 
 at an infinitesimal expense, of making 
 our courtyard flowery and beautiful. 
 , To have been poor is really an exquisite 
 experience. I blessed that unexpected 
 poverty, which came to us one fine day just 
 at the close of my too happy infancy, and 
 remained with us for more than ten years. 
 It drew closer together the bonds between 
 us; it made me adore the more the two 
 dear guardians of my fireside. It has given 
 me priceless memories ; it has thrown much 
 charm over my life. I cannot tell all 
 that it has brought me and all that I owe 
 to it, all of which is certainly wanting to 
 those who have never known poverty ; to 
 them one of the most beautiful sides of this 
 world remains unknown. 
 
 These plants, which we buy nowadays at 
 the nurseries, are to me impersonal just 
 the same as any others I know them not, 
 when they die I care not ; but those which 
 were sown or grafted by Aunt Claire, ah ! 
 how I wished that this unaccustomed cold 
 should not kill them, Terror suddenly
 
 194 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 seized hold of me at the thought ; it 
 would be one sorrow the more. I will at 
 once tell the servants to take care of all 
 those which are in the pots, to keep them at 
 the right temperature ; to watch over them 
 with greater care than ever. 
 
 Then I look closer through the windows 
 at these two blades of rose-bay shaken by 
 the deadly north wind. They are already 
 frozen, and the frost has broken the bottle 
 in which they are suspended. Nobody 
 will ever plant it again or make it revive, 
 this poor little slip left by Aunt Claire. 
 It makes me cruelly miserable to look at it, 
 and sobs suddenly come to me the first 
 since I have learned that she is going to 
 die. 
 
 Then I open* the window ; . I take up 
 piously the frozen slip, the remains of the 
 bottle, the string to which it is attached, 
 and I inclose ' all in a box, writing on the 
 cover what it had all been, with the 
 mournful date. Who can tell into whose 
 hands will fall this absurd little relic when
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 195 
 
 I also shall have returned to earth? 
 Everywhere there is this eternal irony. 
 To love with all one's heart faces and 
 things which each day, each hour, helps to 
 destroy, to weaken, to bring to decay ; 
 and, after struggling with anguish to 
 retain some little portion of all that is 
 passing away, to pass away in one's turn ! 
 In the evening Aunt Claire breathes 
 
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 and speaks still, recognizes us, answers our 
 questions, but in a dull monotonous voice 
 without inflections ; it is not her old voice ; 
 she has already half descended into the 
 abyss. 
 
 I have to mount guard at the sailors' 
 barracks, and have accordingly to go back 
 there for the night. Leo, who has come 
 to take me there through the dark and icy 
 streets, says to me en route, during our 
 silent walk, only this little phrase, so sim- 
 ple in itself, so commonplace from its very 
 simplicity, and, nevertheless, expressing 
 pages of that kind of regret for my distant 
 past which I experience at this moment
 
 196 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 words, besides, which sound the funeral 
 knell of all the auroral epoch in my life, 
 " She will no longer attend to your exer- 
 cises or your impositions; poor Aunt 
 Claire, she will no longer take part in your 
 performance of the Peau d'Ane." 
 
 I pass my night of guard without sleep 
 in these barracks. Outside there is still 
 the heavy frost and the persistent cold 
 under a clear and dry sky. At break of 
 day I send my orderly for news. A word 
 written in pencil tells me that nothing is 
 changed ; Aunt Claire still lives. 
 
 At the barracks, also, where I have to 
 remain all day, there is something else 
 which adds its tiny sadness to my great 
 grief. In consequence of an order from 
 the Ministry reducing our Division, they 
 take down some rooms where the Marines 
 had lodged since Louis XIV., among them 
 the old fencing-hall, which I loved, because 
 I had taken there my first lessons in arms, 
 and because I had there for years taught
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 197 
 
 myself all the sailor's sports. Pell-mell 
 are thrown on the frozen ground the 
 bundles of foils, the sticks and the boxing- 
 gloves, the old escutcheons and the old 
 trophies. And I feel almost that a portion 
 of my youth is being scattered with them 
 over the ground. 
 
 About four o'clock in the afternoon, 
 after taking a turn at work in the open air 
 in the courtyards, I re-enter this poor room 
 of the officer on guard which I have to 
 occupy until the following morning, and I 
 see on the ugly and sad yellow curtains of 
 the bed a poor butterfly, which flaps its 
 wings as if about to die a large butterfly 
 of the flowers of summer, a " Vanesse," 
 whose existence in December, after all this 
 excessive cold, unusual in our countiy, has 
 in it something abnormal and inexplicable. 
 I approach and look at it. It is pierced 
 right to its head by a large pin, which has 
 been run into its poor little torn body. It 
 is my orderly who has done this, with the 
 same want of pity which is shown by chil-
 
 198 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 dren. A flutter of painful agony agitates 
 its poor wings, which are still fresh. In 
 certain peculiar states of the mind, in 
 moments of anxiety and despair, very 
 insignificant little things are exaggerated ; 
 reveal their unfathomable depths, cause 
 you pain, and bring tears. Thus it is that 
 the sight of the agony of this last butterfly 
 of the summer on a wintry and frosty eve- 
 ning, under the dying hours of a wan and 
 rose-colored setting sun, appears to me a 
 thing infinitely melancholy, and is asso- 
 ciated in my mind in a mysterious manner 
 with the other agony which is close at 
 hand. And tears, the tears that are the 
 more bitter because they are shed in soli- 
 tude, dim my eyes. 
 
 Ah ! that beautiful past summer, of which 
 this butterfly is the last survivor. With 
 what tightening of the heartstrings I saw 
 it disappear ! I felt it finish little by little 
 in the midst of plants that grew yellow, in 
 the midst of our vines and roses shedding 
 their leaves. I had so clear a presentiment
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 199 
 
 that it was the last of those in which it 
 would be given to me to see once more pass 
 together the two dear black dresses, alike 
 in shape, amid the flowers of our courtyard 
 and in the green avenue. 
 
 There was nothing to be done for this 
 butterfly. It was doubly killed by the 
 cold and by this hole which went through 
 its body. I cannot do better than hasten 
 its end. I catch hold of it, causing it as 
 little pain as possible, and I throw it into 
 the fire, where it was instantaneously 
 burned, its soul passing away in impercepti- 
 ble smoke. 
 
 Another night on guard at the barracks, 
 through which I believe I hear every mo- 
 ment steps on the stairs somebody coming 
 from the house to tell me that death has 
 done its work. 
 
 WEDISTESDAY, December 3. This morn- 
 ing I finish my week of duty. There is
 
 200 TUB BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEA TH. 
 
 still this weather of severe frost with a 
 wan sun. 
 
 In this room of Aunt Claire, where for 
 three days it seems to me one can feel 
 physically the approach of death, things 
 retain their same aspect of expectancy, and 
 mamma is in the same chair beside her, 
 looking at her as she takes her flight on 
 
 O O 
 
 this little iron bed from which she no longer 
 
 O 
 
 wishes to be moved. Very low, in full 
 view of everyone, and almost in the midst 
 of the room, Aunt Claire is lying, complains, 
 is agitated, and suffers. She looks like 
 herself less and less, growing disfigured. 
 The locks of her white hair, which used to 
 be arranged so carefully, are now all in dis- 
 order. Her face changes and becomes 
 effaced under her eyes, even before the end. 
 Then she scarcely recognizes, and is no 
 longer able to speak even with that dull 
 voice which had not appeared to belong to 
 her. All around, nevertheless, her room 
 has preserved its accustomed aspect, with 
 the same little objects in the same places
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 201 
 
 as in the days of my childhood, and when 
 I try to imagine that this poor remnant, 
 already scarcely recognizable, condemned 
 beyond hope, is the Aunt Claire of former 
 days, I have a rush of sorrow which is like 
 the fall of wintry night on my life, and 
 brings besides a disquieting feeling that I 
 have never been able to let her know how 
 much I loved her. 
 
 The doctor declares this evenino- that she 
 
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 cannot pass through the night, and that 
 there is nothing more to be attempted, to 
 be hoped. Nevertheless a little Buffering 
 can be prevented by the use of morphia. 
 On this little chance bed she is in the grip of 
 annihilation ; she is about to finish that life, 
 without joy even in the hours of her youth, 
 which was always humble and self -effaced 
 sacrificed to us all. 
 
 In the old house, in the rooms, on the 
 staircase, there prevails during this night a 
 cold which penetrates to our bones which 
 grasps the mind and holds it clutched in
 
 202 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 the single thought of death. One might 
 imagine that the sun was departing from 
 us for ever, just like life ; and those plants 
 which Aunt Claire cared for so many years 
 in our courtyard are also doubtless about 
 to die. 
 
 About ten o'clock, mamma, after having 
 kissed the poor invalid, is persuaded to 
 leave her, and to go and take some rest in 
 a distant room where she might find more 
 silence. She allows herself to be led away 
 by her faithful Melanie one of a race of 
 old and faithful servants who have become 
 almost members of the family. Before she 
 goes away, however, she has prepared with* 
 that tranquil courage, that love of order 
 which ruled her whole life, those white 
 things which are necessary for the last 
 toilet. I, who never saw anybody die ex- 
 cept in the distance, without preparations, 
 in ambulances, or on ships, am astonished 
 and chilled by these thousand little details 
 which are altogether unfamiliar to me. 
 
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 A consultation is held in a low voice as
 
 AUNT CLAIRB LEAVES US. 203 
 
 to this last night's watch. It is agreed that 
 for this night the servants shall be allowed 
 to sleep, and that the nieces shall keep the 
 vigil together. I go to bed close by in the 
 Arab room, and I am to be roused up when 
 the moment of the last agony comes. They 
 are not to knock at my door for fear that 
 mamma below should hear and understand 
 in the silence of the night. No, they are to 
 knock at a certain point in the wall which 
 is near my head, and just at that point 
 where Aunt Claire formerly tapped with 
 her cane in the early morning at the time, 
 marked with constant accuracy by a great 
 clock, when I had some little work to do 
 in the early morning, or some journey to 
 make. I used to trust much more, to her 
 than to my sleepy servant, and she ac- 
 cepted cheerfully this task; just as for- 
 merly she had that of dressing the nymphs 
 and the fairies in the Peau cPAne, or of recit- 
 ing to me the Iliad, or any of the other tasks 
 which my fertile fancy conveyed to her.
 
 204 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TIT. 
 
 THURSDAY, December 4. On this same 
 night, toward two o'clock in the morning, 
 after some moments of that peculiar sleep 
 which one has when some sorrow lies in 
 wait, the expectancy of some misfortune or 
 of death, I wake up shivering with a kind 
 of frozen terror. They have knocked be- 
 hind this wall which, on this side, resem- 
 bles that of some distant white mosque and 
 makes the spirit wander, but which on the 
 other side looks down upon the alcove of 
 Aunt Claire. I understood almost before 
 I had heard. I understood with the same 
 terror as if death itself with its bony finger 
 had struck this little place in the alcove. 
 
 I jump up in haste, my teeth chattering 
 from the cold of this icy night, and run to 
 where I am called. 
 
 Yes ; it is the end, the somber struggle 
 of the final hour. It lasts but a few 
 seconds. Still but half awake, I see it all 
 as if in a painful nightmare. Then comes 
 the soft immobility, and supreme tran-
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 205 
 
 quillity. Oh ! the horror of that moment ; 
 the terror inspired by that poor head, so 
 venerated and so loved, which falls back on 
 its pillow forever ! 
 
 Now the most painful things have to be 
 done ; the most terrible tasks accomplished. 
 Those who were present resolve to do 
 these things themselves, without waiting 
 for the presence of the servants, or even 
 their assistance. I retire until this is com- 
 pleted, in the, icy anteroom, penetrated by 
 a deadly sense of cold which is not alto- 
 gether physical, but which also penetrates 
 
 down to my soul's depths In this 
 
 anteroom of Aunt Claire there were those 
 familiar objects which I have known all my 
 life, but which at this moment I can no 
 longer look at ; they dim my eyes with 
 
 tears There is a particular little 
 
 desk of hers, some small books and a Bible 
 there on an old table. Above all others, 
 in a corner there is her own little chair as 
 a child, brought thither from the " Isle," 
 
 ' O 7 
 
 preserved for seventy or seventy -five years,
 
 206 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 and in which when I was quite a child I 
 used to sit down near her, trying to imagine 
 that remote epoch, almost legendary and 
 miraculous in my young eyes, in which, in 
 this Isle of Oleron, Aunt Claire herself 
 had been a little girl. 
 
 When the last toilet is finished I am 
 called back Then we lift the poor body, 
 now calm and in white garments, and 
 raise it from the small, terrible bed of suf- 
 fering, which in spite of everything we 
 could do had assumed the look of a pallet, 
 and placed her on a large bed, white and 
 stainless. 
 
 Then we begin through the black and 
 frozen house a curious rushing backward 
 and forward, not waking the servants, and 
 noiseless so that mamma may hear nothing. 
 We take away bit by bit the bed of death, 
 all the somber things which have no longer 
 any use, carting these things down our- 
 selves to the farthermost point of the house, 
 and passing twenty times to and from the 
 courtyard, in which a wintry rain, colder
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES ITS. 20Y 
 
 than real snow, begins to fall. This is 
 about three o'clock in the morning. We 
 look as though we were doing something 
 clandestine and criminal. We perform 
 tasks of which we had no idea until this 
 night, astonished at being able to do them 
 without more pain and disgust, and sus- 
 tained by a kind of delicacy as regards the 
 servants by a kind of pious sentiment 
 which extends itself even to trifles. 
 
 Returned at last to the side of the bed 
 where we had laid her, we took away with 
 anxious fear that mournful bandage which 
 in the first moments is placed on the faces 
 of the dead, and her face reappears immo- 
 bile, with an expression already more peace- 
 ful, no longer in the least painful to look 
 at. * 
 
 They now begin to dress Aunt Claire, to 
 fix for the last time those venerable locks 
 of which she had been so careful during 
 her life. And as soon as this toilet is 
 finished, the white hair framing the pale 
 forehead, there is a transformation complete
 
 208 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 and astonishing. The dear face, which for 
 so many days I have seen contracted by 
 physical pain, has become completely trans- 
 figured. Aunt Claire has assumed an ex- 
 pression of supreme peace, a tranquil air of 
 distinction, with a vague smile which is 
 very beautiful, an air of soaring above all 
 things and above us. It is soothing and 
 consoling to see her thus in this garment 
 white as snow in the majesty that has 
 suddenly come to her after all the horrors 
 of that little bed on which she had chosen 
 to lie, waiting for death. 
 
 Still noiseless, ascending and descending 
 like phantoms, we look everywhere for 
 whatever flowers can be found in the house 
 during this frosty weather ; for boumiets 
 of white chrysanthemums, which were 
 below in the drawing-room ; sweet-smelling 
 orange blossoms which have been brought 
 from Leo's garden in Provence ; then 
 primroses, and we cut also and throw over 
 the clothes the leaves of a cyca to which 
 we attached a special value, because, con-
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 209 
 
 traiy to the custom of annual cycas, it had 
 remained living for four summers in suc- 
 cession in the shade in our courtyard. 
 
 The face continues to grow refined, to 
 become more beautiful in its pallor of white 
 wax. Never was there a dead face more 
 beautiful to look on, and we thought that 
 all the little children in the family, even 
 my son Samuel, might enter in the morning 
 to bid her adieu. 
 
 Before descending to my mother, and in 
 order to gain time and to delay still longer 
 the moment for saying everything to her, 
 we make up our minds to place the whole 
 room in perfect order. Thus, when she 
 comes to see her sister once again the aspect 
 of everything around will have nothing in 
 it that is painful, and will be more in har- 
 mony with the infinite calmness of the face 
 which rests on the white pillow. This, like 
 everything else, we do entirely ourselves, 
 and in this way no trace will remain of the 
 struggle of the night to those who were not 
 present at it. Always maintaining the
 
 210 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 same silence, stepping on tip-toe, we began 
 the work with a craving for activity which 
 is perhaps a little feverish. Here we are, 
 like servants, taking away plates, cups, 
 medicines, all the apparatus of illness and 
 death. Then we open the windows to the 
 frozen air of night ; we burn incense, and I 
 even remember that I myself swept the 
 carpets, feeling a pleasure at this moment 
 in doing for her even the most humble 
 work. Five o'clock in the morning strikes 
 when all is finished. When everything is 
 in perfect order and the flowers are arranged, 
 a little silver lamp placed in a certain posi- 
 tion throws through the shutter a rosy light 
 on the dead face, which completes its 
 radiant transfiguration. Aunt Claire has 
 become pretty, prettier than we have ever 
 seen her in her life ; an expression of su- 
 preme triumph and peace has fixed itself for 
 ever upon her as in marble. Her face at 
 this moment is rather an ideal representation 
 of hers, in which, while all the features have 
 been made regular, are preserved only the
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 211 
 
 charm, gentleness, and sweetness reflected 
 from her soul, and these green branches 
 placed in the shape of a cross on her breast 
 add to the tranquil and unexpected majesty 
 of her look. 
 
 Come now, there is no longer any pre- 
 text for further delay. We must make up 
 our minds to tell my mother that all is 
 passed and what we have done. To reach 
 her room I had to make a long detour by 
 the rez-de-chaussee because of my son, who 
 sleeps the light sleep of a little child, and I 
 find our silent journey interminable as I 
 pass with a lamp in my hand at this unac- 
 customed hour through the rooms and 
 stairs one after the other black and 
 cold. 
 
 It is horribly painful to be the bearer of 
 such a message. At the first knock, though 
 it is a gentle one, and before Melanie had 
 had time to get up and open, the voice of 
 mamma, who defines why we have come, 
 asks, in this silence of the night, very
 
 212 THE BOOtf OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 quickly and with an intonation full of an- 
 guish, " It is all over, is it not ? " 
 
 The winter's day breaks at last, very 
 pale, much less cold than the preceding 
 days, warmed by that melted snow which 
 had fallen through the night. 
 
 In the forenoon the servants go hither 
 and thither to announce the end to our 
 friends. They bring bouquets and wreaths 
 of the sad flowers of winter, with which the 
 bed is gradually covered. They were still 
 awaiting the roses from Provence which 
 had been ordered by telegram. The photog- 
 rapher comes to take that quiet face framed 
 in white locks, which to-morrow will have 
 disappeared for ever. The image which 
 will be made will remain permanent for 
 some years still for just a few moments of 
 insignificant duration in the continuous in- 
 finitude of time. Friends go up and go 
 down ; the house is full of continual rust- 
 ling, unique, soft, with muffled feet, and 
 there lies Aunt Claire in the midst of her
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 213 
 
 flowers, with the same smile always of 
 triumphant and unalterable peace. My 
 little niece, only five, when she is brought 
 to the bed-side, thus expresses her impres- 
 sions to her still smaller sister, who has not 
 yet been brought up : " They have just 
 taken me to see Aunt Claire, who looks 
 like an angel as she is ascending to heaven." 
 I also remember the scene with Leo. 
 For nearly four years he was her neighbor 
 at table. They had their little secrets 
 even their comic little quarrels, especially 
 in reference to a certain pair of thin short 
 scissors for embroidery which are called 
 "monstres"; he,, inventing a thousand ex- 
 cuses, each more stupid than the other, for 
 wanting these little "monstres," would 
 come to ask the loan of them from Aunt 
 Claire, and she would refuse them always 
 in indignation. Only one solitary time she 
 had confided them to him the evening on 
 which he had been promoted to his cap- 
 taincy. On this day she had herself 
 quietly slipped them under his napkin in
 
 214 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 fulfillment of an old promise. " The day 
 on which you get your captaincy I will 
 lend them to you, if you are only good up 
 to then." And this morning, somebody 
 having mentioned before him the words, 
 " little monstres," he bursts into sobs. 
 
 I go to the cemetery under the mid-day 
 sun to make the arrangements with regard 
 to the vault and the ceremony on the 
 following day. The weather is pleasant 
 after these terrible frosts, and there is a 
 deceptive sky which mocks one with the 
 light of summer. I. believe that somber 
 skies are less melancholy in December 
 than those half-lights which grow warm 
 toward the middle of the day, and after- 
 ward grow cold very early from the damp- 
 ness and the fogs. In this cemetery, bright 
 and almost smiling under the sun, where 
 thousands of artificial wreaths throw pris- 
 matic colors on the tombs, I allow myself 
 to be distracted for a few moments, my 
 mind going a-wandering, when suddenly
 
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 there conies back upon me the recollection 
 of death, and I remember that I have gone 
 there to prepare a place of annihilation for 
 my Aunt Claire. 
 
 The night is quickly returned, and we 
 prepare for the last vigil. I look for a 
 long time before I depart at the serene face 
 of Aunt Claire, trying to fix in my memory 
 this last image of her, so silent and so pretty. 
 All the arrangements, these flowers on 
 the bed, everything is just as I would have 
 wished it, and just as I had seen it with a 
 sad spirit of anticipation. 
 
 Memories of childhood return to me this 
 evening with a curious distinctness. They 
 return to me doubtless to give their farewell, 
 for it is certain that Aunt Claire takes away 
 a great part of them into the earth. When 
 I was eight or ten years of age I had a 
 bird which I loved very much. I knew 
 that its little existence was very uncertain, 
 and I had taken the singular precaution of 
 preparing a long time beforehand all that
 
 2 1 6 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TH. 
 
 was necessary to bury it a little leaden 
 box lined with rose-colored wadding, and a 
 cambric handkerchief belonging to Aunt 
 Claire as a pall. I loved this little bird 
 with a strange affection, and with the 
 vehemence of many of my feelings then. 
 For a long time in advance, I represented 
 to myself that a day would come when I 
 would have to put the bird in its little 
 box, and when I would see the silent cage 
 occupied by the little coffin covered with 
 its white pall. One morning when they 
 came to take me to college, Aunt Claire, 
 who had watched me from a window, took 
 me apart to announce to me gently that 
 the bird had been found dead, from what 
 cause was unknown. I wept for it and 
 buried it, as I had for a long time arranged. 
 Then, till the day following I left in its 
 cage the miniature coffin covered with 
 the fine handkerchief, and I could not 
 grow tired of looking at the sad sight, 
 which, however, was the realization of 
 a tiling that had been long feared and
 
 AUAT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 217 
 
 imagined beforehand exactly as it oc- 
 curred. 
 
 It was something like this on this par- 
 ticular evening. During all the recent 
 winters, seeing Aunt Claire grow weaker 
 and older, I had had a vision of her bed of 
 death, of her last toilet and her white 
 locks thus arranged, and with many flow- 
 ers thrown over her. This evening; I look 
 
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 at the realization of a thins; which I had 
 
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 feared and foreseen absolutely as it was to 
 be, with the certainty that it had reached 
 its inexorable fulfillment. 
 
 FRIDAY, December 5. The heavy frost 
 has returned under a sky low, dark, 
 funereal. Never since I came into the 
 world has there been such a winter in our 
 country. Once more there comes these 
 vague impressions of the end of every- 
 thing, of universal destruction before the 
 invading ice ; and more and more the mind 
 in such times is brought back again and 
 again and concentrated on the dominating
 
 218 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 thought of the moment which for us 
 all is the thought of death. 
 
 I dreaded to think what the face of Aunt 
 Claire might look like in the daylight of 
 this day. One night more could change it 
 very much, and we had resolved to cover 
 the face if it had ceased to be pleasant to 
 look at. 
 
 After some hours of sleep I come anxi- 
 ously to look at it; but no, there is no 
 effacement in the pale features ; rather the 
 appearance has become younger, more 
 beautiful, more refined, and the expression 
 of peace and of triumph, the mysterious 
 sweet smile, remains always exactly the 
 same, as though decisive and eternal. We 
 should have wished to preserve her and 
 look at her for one day more, if everything 
 had not been arranged for to-day. 
 
 There are a thousand preparations to be 
 made which keep one from thinking. The 
 baskets of roses and lilies from Provence 
 have just arrived from the railway station,
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 219 
 
 and there is a sense almost of enchantment 
 in opening them. The bed from which 
 Aunt Claire smiles so sweetly is soon 
 covered with all these new flowers. 
 
 Now they bring in that ugly, common- 
 place and sinister thing the coffin which 
 I had never before seen enter the house, 
 having always been absent on the sea 
 whenever death visited us ; and the hour 
 has come to do the most cruel of all our 
 tasks, to place Aunt Claire in this coffin, 
 and to close the cover upon her forever. 
 
 Before this is don.e mamma goes away, 
 for we had begged her to leave the room in 
 order that she may not see this last sight. 
 
 Ah ! the sorrow of very old people, men 
 or women, who have no tears any longer to 
 shed ! This is the hardest of all things for 
 me to look at, except, perhaps, the tears of 
 little children who are deserted. And at 
 this moment I have to look on the sorrow 
 of my own mother, and the sorrow that be- 
 longs to her alone. I believe that nothing 
 has ever grieved me like her farewell kiss
 
 220 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 to her sister, and the expression of her eyes 
 when she turned back on the threshold to 
 look once more, and for the last time, on 
 this companion of all her life. Never has 
 my revolt been more angry and more dead- 
 ly against all the odiousness of death. 
 
 We placed her in the coffin ourselves, not 
 allowing her to be touched by any strange 
 hand, even by those faithful servants who 
 were almost ourselves. It was all done 
 very quickly, almost mechanically. 
 
 There were many people there, porters, 
 workmen who had come to solder the 
 heavy lead, and their presence neutralizes 
 everything. It is all over, the face of Aunt 
 Claire is vanished forever, vanished into the 
 great night of things that are gone. 
 
 The coffin goes away ; it is brought 
 down into the courtyard ; it has departed 
 forever from this dear room, in which 
 during all my childhood I came to receive 
 those pettings from her who never tired of 
 giving them, and into which it seemed as 
 though her presence had brought something
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 221 
 
 of the charm of the old isle, something of 
 that former life of our ancestors la-bas. 
 
 In the courtyard, on benches covered 
 with grass, they place her under the shel- 
 ter of an awning. On the ground leaves 
 are strewed, and around were green arbutus 
 trees. I have everything taken away that 
 the severe month of December has de- 
 stroyed in our fruit trees ; have the frozen 
 branches cut, and all the dead leaves taken 
 off. On this last occasion of her being in 
 the courtyard, which she had cared for all 
 her life, in which each plant, and even each 
 imperceptible bit of moss ought to have 
 known her, I am anxious that everything 
 should make its toilet for her, in, spite of 
 the winter. 
 
 Of the ceremony of the procession, on 
 which there falls a shower of melted snow, 
 I scarcely remember anything. In public 
 one becomes almost unconscious, as at the 
 burial of somebody one does not know. 
 One remembers only, from amid so many 
 external manifestations of sympathy, a look,
 
 222 THE BOOK Off PlT? Atiti OF t>EATH. 
 
 a shake of the hands, which have been 
 really meant. 
 
 Ah ! but the returning ! To see the 
 house once more under this black Decem- 
 ber sky, in this icy rain, in this funereal 
 twilight ; the house in disorder, trodden by 
 the feet of so many people, with the green 
 branches which were strewn around, the 
 odor of all the accessories to death, which 
 hangs vaguely on the stairs over which the 
 coffin has passed. Then comes the evening 
 meal, the first meal at which we all meet, 
 now tranquil, without any call to get up 
 or go into the chamber of the invalid; 
 the first meal which begins again the old 
 life of yesterday with one place forever 
 empty in the midst of us. And then the 
 first night which follows this day. 
 
 Lying in the Arab chamber, I am con- 
 stantly beset, athwart my tired, half-sleep, 
 by an impression, infinitely sad, of the un- 
 accustomed stillness which is on the other 
 side of the wall, and which will last for- 
 ever the stillness in the room of Aunt
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEA YES U8. 223 
 
 Claire. Ah ! for those dear voices and 
 those dear protecting murmurs which I 
 heard there for so many years through this 
 wall when the stillness of night had come 
 upon the house Aunt Claire opening the 
 large wardrobe, which creaked on its locks 
 in a peculiar manner (the wardrobe in 
 which was placed for ever " UOurs aux 
 pralines ") ; Aunt Claire calling out some 
 words, which I could just distinguish, to 
 mamma, who had gone to bed, a little 
 further on in a room close by, " Do you 
 sleep, my sister ? " And the large clock on 
 the wall stopped to-day which chimed 
 so loud ; the clock which made so rnfcch 
 noise when being wound up, and which 
 sometimes, to our great amusement, would 
 wind itself up before it went to sleep, at the 
 stroke of midnight so that it had become 
 a traditional joke in the house whenever 
 there was any nocturnal disturbance to 
 accuse Aunt Claire and her clock of it. 
 
 All that is over, forever over ; for Aunt 
 Claire has taken her departure for the
 
 224 THE BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 cemetery, and mamma, doubtless, will pre- 
 fer never again to live in the room next 
 hers ; silence, therefore, is to reign there 
 forever. For many years it was my joy 
 and my comfort to hear them both, to re- 
 cognize their dear old voices through this 
 wall, rendered sonorous by the night. It 
 is all over ; never again shall I hear them. 
 
 When at last, under the influence of the 
 extreme fatigue and the overwork of these 
 last few days, I fell asleep on this night of 
 mourning, I had a succession of dreams 
 which I will attempt to describe and which 
 wefce all impregnated with the idea of 
 death. 
 
 The first dream took place at home. We 
 were all gathered together in the Gothic 
 hall, and in the evening. It must have been 
 just about the hour the sun was setting, 
 for large red rays reached us from the west 
 through the curtains and the embrasures of 
 
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 the arches, and yet there was a light that 
 was dimmer and more somber than is usual,
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 225 
 
 even when the twilight is coming on. In 
 the hall there was all the desolation of ruin. 
 The walls were cracked, the chairs were 
 broken, the furniture was worni-eaten, 
 everything was crumbling to dust. But 
 we were careless of this disorder, 'twas but 
 the precursor of some other kind of in- 
 definable destruction which had become in- 
 evitable ; we remained stationary in our 
 places, resignedly awaiting the end of the 
 world. 
 
 And now we began to see through the 
 half-opened wall the heaped-up ruins of the 
 houses of the whole neighborhood, and be- 
 yond stretched the monotonous horizon of 
 the country as far as Martrou and Limoise : 
 while over the vast plains the red disk of 
 the setting sun lay, scattering around us its 
 long evening rays. The forms and faces of 
 the beings who waited there with me re- 
 
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 mained indistinct, with phantom-like aspect; 
 on one side was my mother, whom I re- 
 cognized. -But who were the others? 
 Perhaps ancestors whom I had never seen,
 
 226 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 from the Isle of Oleron, or some descen- 
 dants or heirs who had not yet come into 
 existence members of the same family, 
 but without epoch or distinct individuality. 
 "We were all still under the impression of 
 the death of Aunt Claire, but this impres- 
 sion lost something of its force under the 
 feeling that we were face to face with the 
 end of everything and of ourselves; the 
 regret of what we had lost in her was dif- 
 fused in the more general melancholy in- 
 spired by the annihilation of everything 
 else in the world. And as to this sun, 
 which set with a tranquillity that seemed 
 to vaunt of its limitless duration, we looked 
 upon it with a sort of hatred. Then one of 
 the half-phantoms stretched forth its hand, 
 and its index-finger pointed toward the 
 disk of the sun as though to curse it; a 
 voice began to utter words which seemed 
 to us to reveal truths that could not be 
 grasped, while, at the same time, they were 
 the expression of our universal complaint 
 of our universal revolt, hitherto voiceless,
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 227 
 
 against that annihilation which was so near 
 and so inevitable. 
 
 The words which the voice uttered, when 
 recalled after, in waking hours, appeared to 
 be incoherent and devoid of sense ; in the 
 hours of dreams they appeared on the con- 
 trary an eloquent and profound Apocalypse, 
 revealing sublime truths. In dreams one is 
 perhaps more capable of understanding the 
 mysterious, more capable of penetrating 
 into the unfathomed depths of origins and 
 causes. 
 
 Of all the sentences which the voice had 
 uttered against the sun, this last one alone 
 remains with definite meaning to my 
 awakened spirit a phrase not common- 
 place, and ordinary enough in all con- 
 science : " Thou art always the same al- 
 ways the same. The same that didst set 
 in the same place, on these same plains, 
 years, centuries, ten of centuries ago, in the 
 period before the great deluge, when thy 
 sole duty was to cast light on an earth pop- 
 ulated by the animals of that period the
 
 228 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 mammoths and the plesiosaurus." And 
 this word plesiosaurus, on which the voice 
 died away, had vibrated strangely, had 
 been prolonged in the silence as though it 
 were an invocation and an appeal to the 
 monstrosities and the terrors of the begin- 
 nings of existence. The dimly lit plain, 
 with the loud expiring and melancholy echo 
 of this word, stretched to infinite length be- 
 fore us, with this same pallid sun ever in 
 the midst of its immense horizon. The 
 plain put on again its antediluvian aspect, 
 the primordial desolation and nudity of the 
 epochs that have disappeared. 
 
 And thus it came- to pass that inexpli- 
 cable things began to take place around us 
 at the bottom of the hall. In the dark 
 part, the door of the " museum " opened 
 in which formerly my childish spirit had 
 been initiated into the infinite diversity of 
 Nature's forms opened on the high gallery 
 on which it gave; animals began to walk 
 forth from it; the old animals stuffed with 
 straw, some of which, brought thither by
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 229 
 
 sailors of a past age, had been dried up 
 into dust for a long time. 
 
 Slowly, one after the other, the beasts 
 came forth; there was, however, neither 
 epoch, nor duration, nor life, nor death, 
 and in this grand confusion of things there 
 seemed no cause for wonder. 
 
 The birds, coming forth from behind 
 their glass cases, went one by one and 
 perched on the embrasures of the high 
 chimney-place ; and I especially recognized 
 among them, the oldest ones, the first that 
 had been given to me when I was a child. 
 It is a curious thin^ that at moments of 
 
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 fatigue or sorrow, of any kind of over-ex- 
 citement of the nervous system, it is always 
 the impressions of childhood which reap- 
 pear and dominate everything. 
 
 The butterflies also, butterflies dead for 
 so many summers, had broken from the 
 pins and the glass cases, and flew around 
 us in the darkness, that grew deeper with 
 every succeeding moment. There was 
 one in particular among these butterflies
 
 230 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 whose approach I saw with a feeling o 
 indefinable terror; a certain yellow, pale 
 butterfly, the " citron-aurore/' which is 
 associated to me, in my mind, with a whole 
 world of memories of sunshine and youth. 
 It began its little life again like the rest; 
 but its wings shivered with that same 
 agony which I had seen in the butterfly 
 I had found, four days previously, pinned 
 to the curtains of my barrack-room bed, 
 and I retreated from it, so as not to in- 
 terfere with its flight, surprised that the 
 other human forms did not do likewise ; 
 for this butterfly had become in my eyes 
 an emanation, as it were, of Aunt Claire, 
 something of herself perhaps her wander- 
 ing soul. 
 
 
 
 Next day another dream came to me, 
 suffused with this same feeling of the end 
 of all things, but with less of the sense of 
 revolt and horror. 
 
 I dreamed this time that after a long sea 
 voyage I returned to the familiar hearth,
 
 AUNT CLAIRE IE AYES US. 231 
 
 having aged much in the meantime, and 
 my hair having grown gray. Athwart this 
 same half day of the twilight I saw once 
 again the things that were familiar to me. 
 They were in no way disarranged, but in 
 orderly array as in the houses of the liv- 
 ing ; in spite of this apprehension of 
 death, which continued to hang over 
 everything. 
 
 I arrived alone, expected by nobody, 
 after an absence that had lasted so long. 
 I saw my mother slowly ascending the 
 dark stairs, aged and feeble to an extent I 
 had never seen before ; we recognized each 
 other without saying anything, united in 
 the same silent apprehensions. Taking 
 her by the hand I brought her into my 
 own room the Arab room where I made 
 her sit down, and threw myself on the 
 ground at her feet. Then, drawn to the 
 door by some indefinable and disquieting 
 presentiment, I went to look out on the 
 staircase ; I went out with a certain tremu- 
 lous hesitation in this sinister semi-dark-
 
 232 THE BOOK OF fITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 ness, to try and see if there were nobody 
 ascending the stairs after us. The room 
 of Aunt Claire, which also looked out on 
 this vestibule, was open, and lit by a sort 
 of yellow as by the yellowish rays of a 
 setting star. I went in there to look 
 around. And then, turning around, I saw 
 her behind me ; she had reappeared 
 silently with her set eyes smiling, but so 
 sad. I felt no terror; I touched her just 
 to assure myself that she was as real as I 
 myself ; then, taking her by the hand, and 
 still without uttering a word, I led her 
 into the Arab room toward mamma, to 
 whom I said only as I entered, "Guess 
 whom I am bringing back to you." 
 When they were both seated, and I once 
 more at their feet, I took them once again 
 by the hands, just to hold them tight and 
 prevent them from vanishing before me, 
 having but little confidence in their reality 
 or their duration. And we remained a 
 long time thus, without motion and with- 
 out words, with the consciousness not only
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 233 
 
 of beinsr alone in this deserted house, but 
 
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 of being also the only survivors in all this 
 town abandoned to specters, as though 
 after the long lapse of time we three alone 
 had been spared. Moreover, we knew 
 that we also were going to disappear, to 
 be annihilated. I said to myself with a 
 supreme despair, I have been able to fix 
 something of their features in my books, 
 to reveal them both to thousands of un- 
 known brothers as distraught as I by the 
 prospect of death and oblivion. But they 
 also have passed away, everybody who 
 had read me, every one o^ my own genera- 
 tion; and now it is all over with that 
 factitious life which I gave them both in 
 the memories of men ; it is all over with 
 them, it is all over with me ; even the 
 traces of our existence are about to be 
 effaced and lost in the absoluteness of 
 annihilation, complete nothingness. 
 
 MARCH, 1891. Three months have 
 already passed since Aunt Claire left us.
 
 234 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATI1. 
 
 Almost on the morrow of her death I 
 had abruptly rushed off, leaving the house 
 still in the sinister disorder and the country 
 under the somber cold of the severe mid- 
 winter. I had gone to lands of sun and 
 blue sea, called to a distance by my trade 
 of sailor. 
 
 And I came back yesterday on a vaca- 
 tion of a few hours in weather that had 
 already become spring-like, very luminous, 
 very soft. I was almost saddened by the 
 perfect restoration of order everywhere, by 
 the careless tranquillity of things. Time 
 has passed, and the image of Aunt Claire 
 has faded in the distance. 
 
 A warm sun, transient and unexpected, 
 has begun once again to brighten our court- 
 yard, which I had left still in the grip of 
 that black cold, with the green branches 
 that had formed part of the funeral pyre 
 still heaped up together in a corner under 
 the snow. Several of our plants are dead 
 some of those which Aur.t Claire had 
 tended herself, and which I loved because
 
 AtTNT CLAIRE LEAVES if 8. 235 
 
 of her ; they have been replaced by others 
 which had been brought thither in haste 
 and in expectation of my arrival. Even in 
 this courtyard, which had been her domain, 
 the trace of her beneficient and sweet stay 
 on earth will soon have disappeared. 
 
 We all go together to the cemetery 
 to pay a visit to the vault where she 
 sleeps, now walled in with stones. A 
 spring sun shines on our black clothes. 
 The cemetery itself is shaking off the long 
 torpor of this long and fatal winter. The 
 plants, whose roots touch the dead, already 
 are gently putting forth their buds, and 
 are going to live again. 
 
 We feel as though we came to see a 
 tomb which had become already old and 
 begun to be forgotten. 
 
 On our return I go into her room ; the 
 windows are opened to the soft breeze of 
 spring, and there reigns in it a perfect order : 
 perfect order prevails, and with it there
 
 236 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 would seem to be almost an air of gayety, 
 an unexpected return, as it were, to younger 
 days. In her place there is substituted a 
 large portrait, just recently painted, which 
 has caught slightly her expression and her 
 sweet smile, but that image framed in this 
 gold that looks too new now, but will by 
 and by fade, will not tell my son Samuel 
 whom it represents unless he is told all 
 about her. It will become, after I have 
 gone, just the same as those other portraits 
 of ancestors, a mere commonplace thing, 
 which nobody knows and at which one 
 scarcely looks. 
 
 I open her large wardrobe. There are the 
 little things which she used to handle every 
 day, which have been arranged with religi- 
 ous care by my mother, who has put them in 
 an order that is not to be interfered with ; 
 behind some little boxes, of a make that 
 has gone out of fashion, to which Aunt 
 Claire was much attached, I suddenly 
 come upon the Ours aux Pralines in a 
 corner. All these things will remain im-
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 237 
 
 movable on these shelves that are not to 
 be moved again in this room which no- 
 body will occupy again until that hour 
 of all profanation which I cannot fore- 
 see, which will come later when I also am 
 dead. 
 
 I return to my own quarters to my 
 study, and, with my elbow on the sill of 
 the open window and with an Oriental 
 cigarette between my lips, I look, as I have 
 for so many years, at the little familiar 
 street, at the district which does not 
 change. 
 
 At all times I have dreamed and medi- 
 tated much at this same window especially 
 in the evenings of June ; and I would wish 
 that they should not change, until my 
 death, the aspect of the old roofs of the 
 neighborhood. I feel attached to them, 
 although perhaps they would appear com- 
 monplace and ordinary to those to whom 
 they bring no memories. And every time 
 that I have stayed in my own home during
 
 238 THE BOOR OF PITT AND Of DEATH. 
 
 all the different phases of my life which 
 have succeeded each other with such rapid- 
 ity, I have passed moments of reverie 
 there, moments of nostalgia and of regret 
 for the thousand and one scenes in the 
 East or elsewhere. And, conversely, when 
 elsewhere I have in the midst of these mi- 
 rages longed now and then for this window. 
 Little Samuel, my son, has begun to come 
 there also, supported on the neck of his 
 nurse ; more than once he has cast his little 
 eye, surprised and half-conscious, on the 
 neighborhood. After me, perhaps, he will 
 also love this place in his turn. 
 
 The weather is deliciously fine to-day. 
 The sky is blue, the breeze passes over my 
 head, warm as a breeze in April. Every- 
 where there is a feeling of spring. Already 
 may be heard the pipes of the goat-herds 
 who have just arrived from the Pyrenees. 
 There, too, are those three wandering musi- 
 cians, who every summer reappear and 
 play once more the same airs. There they 
 are, installed at their old post on the pave-
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 239 
 
 ment in front, to begin all over again the 
 music of the beautiful seasons that have 
 now for ever passed away. For the 
 moment I allow myself to be carried away 
 just a little by all this gayety, and by the 
 thought of all the sunny morrows which 
 are still ahead of me and of that life which 
 still lies before me. 
 
 My eyes now wander to the window 
 which is nearest mine, one of those in the 
 apartments of Aunt Claire. It is half- 
 closed, and I see through the opening the 
 small and perfumed head of a vigorous 
 bud of mignonette push its way through 
 the tiles of the window sill. (Mignonette 
 was the favorite flower of Aunt Claire. 
 I used to see it in her room almost every 
 season, and mamma doubtless will preserve 
 her traditions faithfully in this as if she 
 were still there.) 
 
 For the last two or three summers she 
 used to sit often behind her shutters, half 
 open, having given up a little from sheer 
 weakness all those tasks which had occu-
 
 240 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 pied her for more than half a century. 
 We used to see her there quite close to us, 
 she bade us "good-day," with a smile 
 above her eternal mignonette flowers, at 
 the moment in which Leo and I left our 
 tasks, he his mathematical books, I the 
 sheets of paper on which I was striving to 
 fix the transient things which time carries 
 away. Both of us would lean out of the 
 window, amusing ourselves by looking 
 down on the passers-by, on the contem- 
 plative cats on the roofs, and the martins 
 whirling in the air. 
 
 I confess that I am attached to my 
 passers-by also, and the longer they are in 
 our neighborhood the deeper is my attach- 
 ment. I love not only those who now and 
 again lift their heads to give me the salute 
 of acquaintance, but also those who cast 
 upon me an ill-natured and foolish look, 
 nourishing some little secret grudge against 
 me. Though they do not know it, these 
 latter form a part of the surroundings of
 
 AUNT CLAIRE LEAVES US. 241 
 
 my home, and, if needs were, I should 
 offer a bribe to Death to leave them a little 
 longer near me. 
 
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 Now I look to where Aunt Claire had 
 her rooms, and I find that breeze melan- 
 choly which charmed me just a while ago. 
 I find suddenly the sun mournful and sad, 
 and this motionless serenity of the air fills 
 me with anguish. These half-opened 
 shutters from which I shall never, never 
 again see her cap of black lace and her 
 white locks of hair; this bud of mignon- 
 ette which is there all alone, showing me 
 innocently its pretty head no, I cannot 
 any longer look at these things, and I close 
 my window quickly that I may weep like 
 a little child. 
 
 
 
 Perhaps, mon Dieu, it is the last time 
 the sorrow for Aunt Claife will come to 
 me with this intensity and in the special 
 form that brings tears. For everything in 
 this world grows less acute; everything
 
 242 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 becomes customary and is forgotten. For 
 a veil of mist, ashes, I know not what, is 
 thrown as though in haste and suddenly 
 across our memory of beings that have re- 
 turned into eternal nothingness.
 
 THE SLAUGHTER OF AN OX 
 AT SEA.
 
 THE SLAUGHTEK OF AN OX 
 AT SEA. 
 
 WE were in the midst of the Indian 
 Ocean on a sad evening in which the wind 
 is beginning to groan. Two poor oxen 
 remained to us of the twelve that we had 
 taken in at Singapore to eat on the way. 
 These had been spared because the voyage 
 was being prolonged owing to the contrary 
 winds of the monsoon. 
 
 Two poor oxen, wasted, thin, pitiable, 
 their hides already shabby and worn 
 through by the bones shaken by the rock- 
 ing of the vessel. For many days they had 
 sailed over this miserable sea their backs 
 turned to their old pasture lands far away, 
 where nobody would ever take them again ; 
 fastened tightly to each other by a rope 
 round their horns, and their heads lowered 
 
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 246 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEA TH. 
 
 with resignation each time that a wave 
 came to inundate their bodies with a new 
 chilling bath. With mournful eyes they 
 chewed together some bad hay, wet with 
 the salt of the sea; animals condemned to 
 death, doomed from the beginning and 
 without hope of mercy, but destined to 
 suffer still for a long time before death ; to 
 suffer from the cold, the shock of the 
 vessel, from the constant wetting, from the 
 numbness, and from fear. 
 
 The evening of which I speak was 
 especially somber. At sea there are many 
 such evenings, when ugly -and livid fogs 
 spread themselves over the horizon, as the 
 light is fading, when the wind begins to 
 swell its voice, and the night announces 
 beforehand that it is going to be unsafe. 
 At such hours, feeling one's self isolated in 
 the midst of these infinite Avaters, one is 
 seized with a vague anguish which the 
 twilight never brings on land, even in the 
 most funereal places. And these two poor 
 oxen, children of the meadow and the
 
 TEE SLA UGHTER OF AN OX AT SEA. 247 
 
 pasture, alone, more completely exiles than 
 we men, in these moving deserts, and un- 
 buoyed by hope as we are, must, in spite 
 of their rudimentary intelligence, suffer 
 after their fashion from the depression of 
 such scenes ; although they see only con- 
 fusedly the image of their approaching 
 death. 
 
 Yet with the slowness of the invalided, 
 their large and dim eyes remained fixed on 
 these sinister distances in the sea. One by 
 one their companions had been slaughtered 
 on these planks beside them. For two 
 weeks, then, they had lived together, drawn 
 toward each other by the solitude, sup- 
 porting each other in the rocking of the 
 vessel, and in their friendship rubbing their 
 horns together. And now the person who 
 is charged with the supply of provisions, 
 him whom on board vessels we call the 
 maitre-commis, came toward me on the 
 bridge to tell me, in the usual phrase, 
 "Captain, a cow is going to be killed." 
 The devil take him, say I, this maitre-
 
 248 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 commis! I receive him very badly, 
 although assuredly he was not to blame; 
 but in truth I had had no luck from the 
 beginning of this voyage ; it was always 
 during my watch that the time came for 
 the slaughter of the oxen. Besides it takes 
 place immediately below the bridge on 
 which we walk, and it is useless to turn 
 away one's eyes, to think of other things, 
 to look abroad on the waters ; you cannot 
 avoid hearing the stroke of the ax between 
 the horns, and in the center of the poor 
 forehead, bound very low to a ring on the 
 deck. And then comes the noise of the 
 animal as he falls down on the deck, with 
 a rattling of his bones. Soon after he is 
 quickly cut to pieces. A horrible and 
 musty smell comes from his entrails when 
 they are opened, and, all around, the deck 
 of the vessel, ordinarily so clean, is soiled 
 by blood and unclean things. 
 
 And now it was the moment to slaughter 
 the ox. Some sailors formed a circle around 
 the- ring by which it was to be tied for ex^
 
 THE SLA UGHTER OF AN OS AT SEA. 249 
 
 edition ; and of the two that remain they 
 take the more infirm, one who was already 
 dying, and who allowed itself to be carried 
 a\vay without resistance. 
 
 Then the other turned slowly its head to 
 follow it with melancholy eyes, and seeing 
 that they brought it toward the same fatal 
 spot where all its brothers had fallen, it 
 understood. A ray of light could be seen 
 in the poor depressed forehead of this 
 chewino- animal, and it uttered a low sound 
 
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 of distress. The cry of that ox was one of 
 the saddest sounds that ever made me groan, 
 and at the same time was one of the most 
 mysterious things that I had ever heard. 
 There was in it a dim reproach against all 
 men, and then a kind of resignation that 
 
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 was deeply moving, something so restrained 
 and subdued, as though it felt how useless 
 was its groan of despair, and that its cry 
 would be heard by nobody. With the 
 consciousness of its universal abandonment, 
 it appeared to say, " Ah, yes, the inevitable 
 hour has come for him who was my last
 
 250 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 brother, who came with me from la-bas, 
 from the country where we ran on the 
 grass and my turn will come soon, and 
 not another being in the world will have 
 pity on me any more than on him." 
 
 Ah ! yes, I did have pity on him ; I ex- 
 perienced a sense of pity, indeed, that was 
 almost quixotic, and an impulse came upon 
 me to go and take hold of his head and, 
 feeble and revolting though it was, to sup- 
 port it on my breast, since that is one of 
 the physical methods most natural to us 
 when we wish to soothe with the sense of 
 protection those who suffer or are about to 
 die. 
 
 But, in fact, it did not receive any help 
 from anybody, for even I, who had felt 
 the supreme distress of its cry, remained 
 stiff and impassive in my place, merely 
 turning away my eyes. Because an animal 
 is in despair one cannot change the direc- 
 tion of a ship and prevent three hundred 
 men from eating their rations of fresh 
 meat. A man who should even think of
 
 THE SLA UGHTER OF AN OX AT SEA. 251 
 
 such a thing for a iniuute would pass for a 
 lunatic. . 
 
 Nevertheless a little cabin-boy, who per- 
 haps also was alone in the world and had 
 never found any pity, had heard the ap- 
 peal and so understood it in the depths of 
 his soul as I had. He approached the ox 
 quite gently, and softly and gently began 
 to rub its nose. If he had only thought he 
 might have been able to predict to him 
 thus : " All these will die also these who 
 are going to eat you to-morrow ; all, even 
 the strongest and the youngest, and per- 
 haps jthe terrible hour will be still more 
 cruel for them than for you, with suffering 
 more prolonged. Perhaps then they 
 would prefer the stroke of the ax right in 
 the midst of their foreheads." The animal 
 returned to him his caress, looking at him 
 with affectionate eyes, and licking his 
 hands. But it was all over. The ray of 
 light which had penetrated his low and 
 narrow forehead went out in the sinister 
 immensity in which the ship carried him,
 
 252 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 always faster, in the cold fog, in the twi- 
 light announcing the bad nighl ; by the 
 body of his companion, who was now noth- 
 ing but a shapeless mass of meat hung on 
 hooks, he began once more to chew quietly 
 did this poor ox. His brief intelligence 
 did not go further ; he thought of nothing ; 
 he no longer remembered anything.
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD 
 COUPLE.
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD 
 COUPLE. 
 
 and Kaka-San were husband 
 and wife. They were old so old ; every- 
 body had always known them ; the oldest 
 people in Nagasaki did not even remember 
 the time when they had seen them young. 
 They begged in the streets. Toto-San, 
 who was blind, dragged after him in a sort 
 of small bath-chair Kaka-San, who was 
 paralyzed. Formerly they were known as 
 Hato-San and Ounie-San (Monsieur Pigeon 
 and Madame Prune), but the people no 
 longer remembered this. In the Japanese 
 language Toto and Kata are very soft words 
 which signify " father" and " mother " in 
 the mouths of children. Doubtless because 
 of their great age, everybody called them 
 so ; and in this land of excessive politeness 
 
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 256 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 they added to these familiar names the word 
 " San," which is a word of courtesy like 
 monsieur and madame (Monsieur Papa and 
 Madame Mamari). Even the smallest of 
 Japanese babies do not neglect these terms 
 of politeness. Their method of begging 
 was discreet and comme ilfavt. They did 
 not harass the passers-by with prayers, but 
 held out their hands simply and without 
 saying anything poor hands wrinkled and 
 already like those of a mummy. The peo- 
 ple gave them rice, heads of fish, old soups. 
 Very small, like all Japanese women, Kaka- 
 San appeared reduced almost to nothing in 
 this chair, in which her lower limbs, almost 
 dead, had been dried up and huddled to- 
 gether for so many years. Her carriage 
 was badly hung ; and thus it came to be 
 much jolted in the course of its journeys 
 through the city. He did not walk very 
 quickly, her poor husband, and he was so 
 full of care and precaution. She guided 
 him with her voice, and he, attentive, his 
 ear pricked up, went on his way, like the
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE. 257 
 
 wafideTiner Jew, in his everlasting darkness, 
 
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 the leather rein thrown over his shoulder and 
 striking the ground with a bamboo cane to 
 direct his steps. 
 
 They went to all the religious festivals 
 celebrated in the temples. Under the 
 great black cedars, which shade the sacred 
 meadows, at the foot of some old monster 
 in granite, they installed themselves at an 
 early hour before the arrival of the earliest 
 devotees, and so long as the pilgrimage 
 lasted, many of the passers-by stopped at 
 their side. They were young girls with the 
 faces of dolls, and little eyes like cats, 
 dragging after them their high boots of 
 wood ; Japanese children, veiy funny in 
 their long parti-colored dresses, arriving in 
 bands to pay their devotions and holding 
 each other by their hands ; beautiful sim- 
 pering ladies, with complicated chignons 
 going to the pagoda to pray and to laugh ; 
 peasants with long hair, Bonzes or mer- 
 chants, every imaginable description of these 
 gay little doll-people passed before Kaka-
 
 258 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 San, who still was able to see them, and 
 Toto-San, who was not. They always gave 
 them a kind look, and sometimes somebody 
 would detach himself from a group to give 
 them some alms.* Sometimes even they 
 made them bows, quite as if they were peo- 
 ple of quality so well were they known, 
 and so polite is everybody in this Empire. 
 
 In those days it often happened that 
 they could smile at the feast when the 
 weather was fine and the breeze soft, when 
 the sorrows of old age slumbered a little in 
 their exhausted limbs. Kaka-San, excited 
 by the tumult of the laughing and light 
 voices, began to simper like the passing 
 ladies, playing with her poor fan of paper, 
 assuming the air of one who still had 
 something to say to life, and who inter- 
 ested herself like other people in the 
 amusing things of this world. 
 
 But when evening came, bringing dark- 
 ness and chill under the cedars, when 
 there was everywhere a sense of religious 
 horror and mystery around the temples, in
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE. 259 
 
 the alleys lined with monsters, the old 
 couple sank back on themselves. It 
 seemed as if the fatigues of the day had 
 gnawed them from within ; their wrinkles 
 became deeper, their skin hung more 
 loosely ; their faces expressed only their 
 frightful misery and the hideous idea of 
 the nearness of death. 
 
 Meantime, thousands of lamps were lit 
 around them in the black branches ; and 
 the devout held their places on the steps 
 of the temples. The hum of a gayety, at 
 once frivolous and strange, came from this 
 cTo\vd, filled the avenues and the holy 
 vaults, in sharp contrast with the sinister 
 grin of the immobile monsters who guard 
 the gods with the frightful and unknown 
 symbols with the vague terrors of the 
 night. The feast was prolonged till day- 
 light, and seemed an immense irony to the 
 spirits of heaven rather then an act of 
 adoration ; but an irony that had no 
 bitterness, that was child-like, amiable, 
 and, above all things, irresistibly joyous.
 
 260 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 But this affected not the old couple. 
 With the setting of the sun there was 
 nothing which could animate any longer 
 those human wrecks. They became sin- 
 ister to look at; huddled up, apart from 
 everybody else, like sick pariahs or old 
 monkeys, worn out and done for, eating 
 in a corner their poor little alms-offerings. 
 At this moment were they disturbed by 
 something profound and eternal, else why 
 was there this expression of anguish on 
 their death-masks ? . Who knows what 
 passed in their old Japanese heads ? Per- 
 haps nothing at all. They struggled simply 
 to keep on living ; they ate with their 
 little chop-sticks, helping each other ten- 
 derly. They covered each other up so as 
 not to get cold and to keep the dew from 
 penetrating to their bones. They took 
 care of each other as much as they could 
 with the simple desire of being alive the 
 next day, and of recommencing their old 
 wandering promenade, the one rolling the 
 other's chair, In the little chair Kaka-San
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLK. 261 
 
 kept all their household effects, broken 
 dishes of blue porcelain for their rice, little 
 cups to drink their tea, and lanterns of red 
 paper which they lit at night. 
 
 Once eveiy week, Kaka-San's hair was 
 carefully combed and dressed by her 
 beloved husband. Her arras she could 
 not quite raise high enough to fix her 
 Japanese chignon, and Toto-San had 
 learned to do it instead. Trembling and 
 fumbling, he caressed the poor old head, 
 which allowed itself to be stroked with 
 coquettish abandon, and the whole thing 
 recalled except that it was sadder the 
 toilette which the humbugs help each 
 other to make. Her hair was thin ; and 
 Toto-San did not find much to comb on 
 her poor yellow parchment, wrinkled like 
 the skin of an apple in winter. He suc- 
 ceeded, however, in fixing up her hair in 
 puffs, after the Japanese fashion : and she, 
 deeply interested in the operation, fol- 
 lowed it with her eyes in a broken piece 
 of a mirror, with : " A little higher, Toto-
 
 262 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 San ! " "A little more to the right ! " " A 
 little to the left." In the end, when he 
 had stuck two long pins in, which gave to 
 the coiffure its finishing touch, Kaka-San 
 seemed to regain the air of a genteel grand- 
 mother, a profile like that of a well-bred 
 woman. 
 
 They also went through their ablutions 
 conscientiously: for they are very clean in 
 Japan. 
 
 And when they had finished these ablu- 
 tions once more, which had been done so 
 often already during so many years ; when 
 they had completed that toilette, which 
 the approach of death rendered less grate- 
 ful from day to day did they feel them- 
 selves vivified by the pure and cold water ? 
 did they experience a little more comfort 
 in the freshness of the morning ? 
 
 Ah ! what a depth of wretchedness was 
 theirs ! After each night, to wake up 
 both more infirm, more depressed, more 
 shaky, and in spite of it all, to wish obstin- 
 ately to live op., to display their decrepi-
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE. 263 
 
 tilde to the sun, and to set out in the same 
 eternal promenade in their bath-chair; with 
 the same long pauses, the same creaks of 
 the wood, the same joltings, the same 
 fatigue ; to pass even through the streets, 
 into the suburbs, through the valleys, even 
 to the distant country where a festival was 
 announced in some temple in the Avoods. 
 
 It was in the fields one morning, at the 
 crossing of two of the Royal roads, that 
 death suddenly caught old Kaka-San. 
 It was a beautiful morning in April ; the 
 sun was shining brightly, and the grass 
 was very green. In the island of Kin-Sin 
 the spring is a little warmer than ours, 
 comes earlier, and already everything was 
 resplendent in the fertile fields. The two 
 roads crossed each other in the midst of 
 the fields ; all around was the rice-crop 
 glistening under the light breeze in innum- 
 erable chaages of color. The air was filled 
 with the music of the grasshoppers, which 
 in Japan are loud in their buzz. At this 
 spot there were about ten tombs in the
 
 264 Tim BOOK OF PITY AND OF DEATH. 
 
 grass, under a bunch of large and isolated 
 cedars. Square stone pillars, or ancient 
 Budhas, in granite, were set up in the cups 
 of the lotus. Beyond the fields of rice, 
 you saw the woods, riot imlike our wood 
 of oak. But here and there were white 
 or rose-colored clumps, which were the 
 camelias in flower, and the light foliage of 
 the bamboos. Then farther off were the 
 mountains, resembling small domes with 
 little cupolas, forming against the sky 
 shapes that seemed artificial, yet very 
 agreeable. 
 
 It was in the midst of this region of 
 calm and verdure that the chair of Kaka- 
 San stopped, and for a halt that was to be 
 its last. Peasants, men and women, dressed 
 in their long dresses of dark blue cotton 
 with pagoda sleeves about twenty good 
 little Japanese souls hurried to the bath- 
 chair where the old dying woman was 
 convulsively twisting her old arms. She 
 had had a stroke quite suddenly while 
 being drawn along by Toto-San on a
 
 ; THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE. 265 
 
 pilgrimage to the temple of the goddess 
 Kwauon. 
 
 They, good souls, did their best, at- 
 tracted by sympathy as much as by curios- 
 ity, to help the old woman. They were 
 for the most part people who, like her, 
 were making their way to the feast of 
 of Kwanon, the Goddess of Beauty. Poor 
 Kaka-San ! They attempted to restore her 
 with a cordial made of rice brandy ; they 
 rubbed the pit of her stomach with aro- 
 matic herbs, and bathed the back of her 
 neck with the fresh water of a stream. 
 Toto-San touched her quite gently, caressed 
 her timidly, not knowing what to do, em- 
 barrassing the others with his awkward 
 blind movements, and trembling with 
 anguish in all his limbs. 
 
 Finally, they made her swallow, in 
 small pellets, pieces of paper which con- 
 tained efficacious prayers written on them 
 by the Bonzes, and which a helpful woman 
 had consented to take from the lining in 
 her own sleeves. Labor in vain ! for the
 
 2C6 THE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 hour had struck. Death was there, invisi- 
 ble, laughing in the face of all these good 
 Japanese, and holding the old woman 
 tight in his secure hands. 
 
 A last painful convulsion and Kaka-San 
 was dead. Her mouth lay open, her body 
 all on one side, half fallen out of the chair, 
 and her arms hanging like the doll of a 
 poor Punch and Judy show, which is al- 
 lowed to rest at the close of the perform- 
 ance. 
 
 This little shaded cemetery, before which 
 the final scene had taken place, seemed to 
 be indicated by the Spirits themselves, and 
 even to have been chosen by the dead 
 woman herself. They made no delay. 
 They hired some coolies who were passing, 
 and very quickly they began to dig out the 
 earth. Everybody was in a hurry, not 
 wishing to miss the pilgrimage nor to leave 
 this poor old thing without burial the 
 more so as the day promised to be very hot, 
 and already some ugly flies were gathering 
 round. In half an hour the grave was
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE. 26 1 
 
 ready. They took the old woman from 
 her chair, lifting her by the shoulders, and 
 placed her in the earth, seated as she had 
 always been, her lower limbs huddled to- 
 gether as they had been in life like one 
 of those dried-up monkeys which sports- 
 men meet sometimes at the foot of trees in 
 the forest. Toto-San tried to do everything 
 himself, no longer in his right senses, and 
 hindering the coolies, who have not sensi- 
 tive hearts, and who hustled him about. 
 He groaned like a little child, and tears ran 
 from his eyes without exciting any atten- 
 tion. He tried to find out if at least her 
 hair was properly combed to present her- 
 self in the eternal dwellings, if the bows of 
 her hair were in order, and he wished to 
 replace the large pins in her head-dress be- 
 fore they threw 'the earth over her. 
 
 They heard a slight groaning in the 
 foliage; it was the spirits of Kaka-San's 
 ancestors who had come to receive her on 
 her entrance into the Country of Shadows.
 
 268 TEE BOOK OF PITT AND OF DEATH. 
 
 Toto-San yoked himself to the bath-chair 
 once more ; once more started out, from the 
 sheer habit of walking and of dragging 
 something after him. But the bath-chair 
 was empty behind him. Separated from 
 her who had been his friend, adviser, his in- 
 telligence and his eyes, he went about with- 
 out thought, a mournful wreck, irrevocably 
 alone on earth to the very end, no longer 
 capable of collecting his thoughts, moving 
 timidly without object and without hope, 
 in night blacker than ever before. In the 
 meantime the grasshoppers sang at their 
 shrillest in the grass, which darkened 
 under the stars ; and whilst real night 
 gathered around the old blind man, one 
 heard already in the branches the same 
 groanings as earlier while the burial was 
 taking place. They were the murmurs of 
 the Spirits who "said : " Console thyself, 
 Toto-San. She-orate in a very sweet sort of 
 annihilation where we also are and whither 
 thou com'st soon. She is no longer old nor 
 tottering, for she is dead ; nor ugly to look
 
 THE IDYL OF AN OLD COUPLE. 269 
 
 upon, since she is hidden in the roots 
 underground; nor disgusting to anybody, 
 since she has become the fertilizing sub- 
 stance of the land. Her body will be puri- 
 fied, permeating the earth ; Kaka-San will 
 live again in beautiful Japanese plants ; in 
 the branches of the cedar, in the beautiful 
 camelias in the bamboo." 
 
 EKD.
 
 
 
 FEB221995 
 
 OCT 2 2QQ1
 
 A 000129799 3 

 
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