BRIEF MEMORIAL 
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD, 
 
 SAHARUNPUR MISSION, NORTHERN 
 INDIA. 
 
 IN A LETTER OF 
 
 REV. WILLIAM CALDERWOOD. 
 
 PUBLISHED*BY THE 
 AMERICAN TRACT SOCIETY, 
 
 150 NASSAU-STKEET, NEW YOKK.
 
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 BRIEF MEMORIAL 
 
 OF 
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 
 
 DEHRA, Northern India, Aug. 15, 1860. 
 
 DEAR MOTHER, SISTER AGNES, AND OTHER 
 RELATIVES AND FRIENDS For a long time I 
 liavc been intending to comply with the request 
 of many of you for a more detailed account of 
 my dear departed wife than I have yet given ; 
 but always when I attempted it, for some rea- 
 son or another, I can scarcely say what, I have 
 found it next to impossible to proceed. To- 
 day being just one year from my great bereave- 
 ment, I feel that if I ever do it, it must be done 
 now. Perhaps the fulfilment of this task will 
 be a fitting observance of the first anniversary 
 of the mournful event. 
 
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 I, as well as you, have a desire that you 
 should remember one whose memory will ever 
 be most dear to me. I feel that my obligation 
 to make you better acquainted with her, is 
 much strengthened by the fact that you all 
 loved her so sincerely, although many of you 
 knew her so slightly. I will try to write such 
 a letter as you may wish to preserve among 
 you as a kind of memento of a very dear de- 
 parted one. I will therefore begin with 
 
 THE CHILD. 
 
 Her birthplace was in the same country towii 
 of Massachusetts as that of her very dear friend 
 Mrs. Herron. But though they were both 
 children at the same time in Petersham, yet, so 
 far as they knew, they never met with each 
 other till five years ago, when they were both 
 embarking on the same ship, for the same field 
 of labor, far, far from their native town, there 
 to become most intimate and loving friends. 
 
 She was the eldest child of Mr. and Mrs. 
 Charles Greenleaf, and was born on the 27th 
 of February, 1835.* Her mother dying when 
 she was about two years old, requested her 
 mother, Mrs. Phebe Greenwood of Templeton,
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 5 
 
 Massachusetts, a most pious and active Chris- 
 tian lady, to take her as her own child and 
 bring her up in the fear and service of the 
 Lord. This charge she fulfilled most faithfully, 
 and by the divine blessing, successfully. 
 
 For the benefit of those with sunny little 
 faces who, even in a few weeks' acquaintance, 
 learned so fondly to love her, I will tell a story 
 of her childhood. 
 
 When she was eight or nine years old, a lit- 
 tle friend of hers, younger than herself, had 
 received a pair of new shoes. This little girl 
 went one day a strawberrying. On reaching 
 the strawberry field, to save her new shoes 
 from becoming soiled, she put them off. But 
 on leaving the field for home, she had forgotten 
 where she left her shoes ; and as darkness was 
 approaching, she had no opportunity of search- 
 ing for them. While she had been careful in 
 one respect, she had been careless in another. 
 So next morning her mother required that she 
 should find her shoes before she could have her 
 breakfast. In great trouble, on her way alone 
 to the strawberry field, she called for comfort 
 and counsel on her little friend LIZZIE GREEN- 
 LEAF. As they walked together towards the
 
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 field, doubtless sadly discussing the probability 
 of one of them losing her breakfast as well as 
 her nice new shoes, a happy thought entered 
 Lizzie's mind. She said, " God knows where 
 these shoes are, and if we will ask him, perhaps 
 he will show them to us." Before they entered 
 the field, they knelt down beside the fence, and 
 Lizzie offered a prayer. As for years after 
 this time she had scarcely thought of this 
 prayer, the precise words were forgotten ; but 
 she remembered her pleading that God had 
 asked little children to come to him, and now 
 they two little children had come, and wished 
 him to show them where A 's shoes were. 
 
 That prayer, whatever were its words, was 
 answered ; they had scarcely entered the field, 
 when, to their great delight, they spied the 
 shoes. 
 
 It appears that at that time the Holy Spirit 
 had begun his work of grace in Lizzie's heart. 
 She expressed a desire to enjoy the full privi- 
 leges of communion with God's people. But 
 on account of her early youth, her superiors in 
 years advised her to defer the step for a time. 
 For some years, about this time, she enjoyed 
 great delight in daily secret prayer; and in
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 7 
 
 riper years she sometimes longed for the sweet 
 seasons she in childhood often enjoyed in secret 
 communion with her Saviour, and the trans- 
 porting views she sometimes had of him as her 
 Elder Brother and Redeemer. 
 
 I presume it must have been about this time 
 of her life when the following anthem or hymn 
 became a special favorite of hers, as she spoke 
 of it as having been such for years. Favorites 
 of any kind give an excellent clue to the taste 
 of the individual. The character of the favor- 
 ite sacred songs of any Christian is a good in- 
 dex to his prevailing frame of mind. He who 
 is always sorrowing will have very different 
 favorites from those of him who is always re- 
 joicing; even the airs that a person is accus- 
 tomed to hum over, may be an indication of his 
 taste and character. This hymn she invariably 
 sung to the sweet flowing melody of Lowell 
 Mason's Ariel. When I recollect the animated 
 expression with which she always sung the last 
 verse, I feel I ought not to have been surprised 
 that her closing hours on earth were so calm 
 and triumphant. I wish all my nieces could 
 sing with the feeling that their dear aunt Liz- 
 zie did, this beautiful hyinn.
 
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 " Oh could I speak the matchless worth, 
 Oh could I sound the glories forth, 
 
 Which in my Saviour shine, 
 I 'd soar and touch the heavenly strings, 
 And vie with Gabriel, while he sings 
 In notes almost divine. 
 
 "I'd sing the precious blood he spilt, 
 My ransom from the dreadful guilt 
 
 Of sin and wrath divine ; 
 I 'd sing his glorious righteousness, 
 In which all-perfect heavenly dress 
 My soul shall ever shine. 
 
 "I'd sing the characters he bears, 
 And all the forms of love he wears, 
 
 Exalted on his throne ; 
 In loftiest songs of sweetest praise, 
 I would to everlasting days 
 
 Make all his glories known. 
 " Soon the delightful day will come, 
 When my dear Lord will bring me home, 
 
 And I shall see his face ; 
 There with my Saviour, Brother, Friend, 
 A blest eternity I '11 spend, 
 
 Triumphant in his grace." 
 
 She had one other very special favorite. It 
 seemed to be understood that one or the other 
 of these must be sung at the close of our hours of 
 singing, in which, ever since I have known her, 
 we have been accustomed to indulge. Till this
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 9 
 
 moment, it never occurred to me how much 
 these two favorites correspond with each other. 
 The music of this is also by Lowell Mason. I 
 will transcribe one or two verses. 
 
 " Jerusalem, my glorious home ! 
 
 Name ever dear to me ; 
 When shall my labors have an end 
 In joy and peace in thee ? 
 
 " Oh when, thou city of my God, 
 
 Shall I thy courts ascend, 
 Where congregations ne'er break up, 
 And Sabbaths have no end ? 
 
 " There happier bowers than Eden's bloom, 
 
 Nor sin, nor sorrow know ; 
 Blest seats ! through rude and stormy scenes 
 I onward press to you." 
 
 I remember hearing her speak of several oc- 
 casions, when she was about nine years of age, 
 when little girls called on her, and sometimes 
 when a few would be walking with her from 
 school, she would talk to them about Christ's 
 loving little children, and how much he had 
 done for them ; and as their little hearts would 
 melt, sometimes even to tears, she would sug- 
 gest that they all go with her to some place 
 where they would not be seen or disturbed,
 
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 and there thank him and pray to him. Her 
 grandfather's barn was one place to which they 
 resorted for such purposes, and a shady grove 
 not far from her grandfather's house, another. 
 Sometimes they took the Testament and hymn- 
 book with them, when they would read and 
 sing and pray. Of these occasions she seldom 
 spoke without adding some such exclamation 
 as, " Oh, what sweet seasons those were!" 
 
 Who can limit the amount of good done at 
 these children's impromptu prayer-meetings ; 
 the holy impressions that may have been made 
 upon their young hearts impressions which 
 may have had no slight influence in giving tone 
 and character to their after-lives? " The child 
 is father to the man." " Jesus saith unto them, 
 Yea ; have ye never read, Out of the mouths 
 of babes and sucklings thou hast perfected 
 praise?" 
 
 But after those years of interest and pleasure 
 in divine things, came some years of lukewarm- 
 ness, over which she often deeply mourned. 
 Probably, however, few would have looked 
 upon those " years of backsliding," as she called 
 them, in the same light in which she did. It 
 does not appear that she was ever considered
 
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 a thoughtless or irreligious girl; on the con- 
 trary, she was commonly regarded as consist- 
 ently pious from her childhood up. 
 
 Although her home was over three miles 
 from her house of worship, yet perhaps there 
 was not one more regular in attendance there, 
 or more uniformly in the Sabbath-school, both 
 when she was a scholar and when she was a 
 teacher. I have heard her speak of her hav- 
 ing walked the whole three miles, rather than 
 either stay at home herself or prevent her good 
 grandmother from going; as sometimes there 
 were not vacant seats in the carriage in which 
 they were accustomed to go to church, for both 
 of them. What she in after-life mourned over 
 was not a reckless irrcligion, but a lack of holy, 
 ardent delight in sacred things ; a want of full 
 assurance of faith ; and especially an inactivity 
 in promoting the eternal welfare of others. 
 
 THE YOUNG CHRISTIAN. 
 
 I think she was never fully decided in her 
 own mind, whether it was before or after those 
 years of lukewarmness in religious things that 
 she really became a child of God. When she 
 was about seventeen years of age her interest
 
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 in religion was graciously revived. Her pastor, 
 a devoted servant of Christ, the Rev. A. V. 
 Dimock, at that time pastor of the Baptist 
 church at Baldwinsville, Massachusetts, feeling 
 fully assured that she had at some time become a 
 child of God, admitted her to the communion 
 of the church under his care. 
 
 The first I ever heard of her was when I 
 was engaged in that most important work, the 
 circulating of the books of the American Tract 
 Society. As volume agent of the Branch Soci- 
 ety at Boston, I made it my business to go to 
 each town and obtain Christians of both sexes 
 who would, as a religious duty, without any 
 .pecuniary remuneration for their labor, receive 
 a few of the publications, and taking an allot- 
 ted portion of the town, would visit every fam- 
 ily in that section, and endeavor to do all the 
 good they could do, in the way of religious 
 conversation and prayer; and supply at least 
 some religious publication, by either sale or 
 grant, in every household. 
 
 Mr. and Mrs. Dimock and myself were con- 
 sulting as to what persons might be suitable to 
 visit his parish, when he remarked, "There's 
 Lizzie Greenleaf ; if she were only home from
 
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 the seminary now, on vacation, she would like 
 to visit the whole of the parish herself, and no 
 one would do it better." Her name being again 
 mentioned, I asked who this Lizzie Greenleaf 
 was. Her pastor replied, "She is a young lady 
 about twenty years of age, who two years ago 
 united with the church, and since that time, 
 after the example of her divine Master, she has 
 been constantly going about doing good, and 
 has been the means of the conversion of more 
 than one." 
 
 As Providence would have it, she did return 
 from the seminary in time to visit a portion of 
 the town. Nor did she, in the performance of 
 that labor, dishonor the high character her 
 pastor had given her. With the other volun- 
 tary colporteurs of that parish, at an appointed 
 day, she met me at the pastor's house to report 
 with regard to her colporteur labors. I asked 
 her how she liked the employment. As the 
 crimson slightly mantled her cheek, and the 
 moisture filled her eye, she replied, " I wish I 
 could be always engaged in such work." 
 
 Nor was this a mere transient flash of zeal. 
 She had whispered to her grandmother more 
 than once, that she "would like to go to any
 
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 country in the world where she could be con- 
 stantly engaged in telling perishing sinners 
 about the precious Saviour." And, what I pre- 
 sume few of her friends ever knew, she at one 
 time had determined to go unmarried as a for- 
 eign missionary, should her grandmother not 
 forbid it. It was not her fault that she did not 
 carry out her purpose. 
 
 But she was not one of those who are con- 
 stantly saying or thinking that if they were 
 only in some place where they are not, or in 
 some circumstances in which they are not, or if 
 it were not for this or that or some other thing, 
 then they might do some good, but just as they 
 are they can do little or none. She was not 
 one of those who look with such interest and 
 intentness on distant opportunities, that they 
 cannot see the most urgent demands close at 
 their side. Wherever she was she labored with 
 such interest, and unfaltering, cheerful zeal, 
 that an observer would have thought she con- 
 sidered herself always in the very best place in 
 the world for the noblest Christian exertion. 
 Improve the present was emphatically her motto. 
 
 I cannot refrain from giving you an illustra- 
 tion of this, and in giving it I am thinking
 
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 again of those with bright little faces, who 
 were so delighted with her visits. It may be 
 suggestive to some, as to how they may some- 
 times obtain opportunities of doing good ; and 
 it is interesting to me as another example of 
 the ease with which such opportunities are 
 found by those who are always on the lookout 
 for them. There is always "ready work for 
 willing hands." 
 
 She herself, however, seemed to think that 
 she had done, and had even attempted, very 
 little. I do not remember her ever speaking 
 of the incident to which I refer but once, and 
 then I with difficulty drew from her a few of 
 the facts by a succession of questions. The 
 chief details have been learned from papers 
 discovered since her lamented departure. 
 
 She was always considered as a most diligent 
 student while at school. One might therefore 
 have expected that while there she would have 
 excused herself from active Christian effort for 
 the salvation of others. But to do good was a 
 recreation to her. 
 
 She had a young lady companion at the sem- 
 inary, a great favorite with the scholars gener- 
 ally; intelligent, talented, and good looking;
 
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 but considered to be entirely thoughtless as to 
 her soul's eternal welfare ; and she was engaged 
 to be married to an openly irreligious man. 
 Lizzie persuaded her room-mate to engage with 
 her in prayer daily for the salvation of this gay 
 young companion. For a long time these two 
 together wrestled with God in prayer for this 
 special object. " Morning, noon, and night 
 might these two young Christians have been 
 heard pouring out their hearts in supplication 
 
 to God for 's conversion." One day she 
 
 entered, somewhat abruptly, this gay compan- 
 ion's room, and found her with the New Testa- 
 ment in her hand, which she at once threw 
 aside. "No, no," says Lizzie, "don't lay it 
 away, but let us read it together ;" saying 
 which, she took it up and read a passage con- 
 cerning the sufferings and death of the Lord 
 Jesus, and closed remarking, doubtless with 
 affectionate feeling, "Is it not a shameful sin 
 for any to neglect such a precious Saviour, who 
 has done so much for them?" Her companion, 
 with the tears gathering in her eyes, replied, 
 " 0, Lizzie, I do want that Saviour to be mine." 
 Soon they were both on their knees, and in a 
 few days it was cautiously whispered around
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 17 
 
 through the school, that had become seri- 
 ous, and intended to join the church. 
 
 The person to whom she was engaged was 
 not a little displeased ; and with all her efforts 
 to arouse him to a sense of his own eternal 
 danger, the best terms to which she could bring 
 him were, that she might be as religious as she 
 pleased in secret might pray every day in 
 private but she must on no account make a 
 public profession of religion. Many were the 
 struggles and trials through which she had to 
 pass before she found her way clear in this 
 matter. I need scarcely say that she some- 
 times found comfort from a few words and a 
 prayer with Lizzie. Her irreligious friend was 
 firm in his determination, that if she would be 
 his wife she must never be openly numbered 
 with the people of God he doubtless depend- 
 ing for success on her long and ardent love to 
 him. She at last found herself compelled to 
 choose between her Saviour and the object of 
 her earthly love. Grace triumphed. It has 
 been said that after she had united with the 
 church, he hesitated as to the wisdom of his 
 decision, but I have not heard it whispered 
 that she ever repented of hers.
 
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 While Lizzie was thus faithful to the eternal 
 interests of those around her, she was not neg- 
 lectful of her ordinary duties. Her object in 
 studying was to make herself the better able to 
 accomplish good. If Providence threw oppor- 
 tunities in her way for the accomplishment of 
 this grand object without interfering with the 
 pursuit of the secondary one, why should she 
 in the least sacrifice the principal to the sub- 
 sidiary? Those young men or young women 
 who, in the course of their education, find few 
 or no opportunities for the performance of ac- 
 tual labor in the upbuilding of their Saviour's 
 kingdom, have great reason to fear that they 
 may not find these openings any too frequent 
 after their course of training is completed. He 
 who neglects an inviting opportunity for the 
 accomplishment of good while he is pursuing 
 his studies, has certainly some reason to doubt 
 whether he is pursuing them for the, purpose of 
 fitting himself for doing good. 
 
 Her earnest efforts to promote the welfare 
 of others did not seem to interfere at all with 
 her progress in her daily studies. The princi- 
 pal of the seminary considered her one of the 
 most diligent as well as apt scholars of his
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 19 
 
 school. From her first attendance at the dis- 
 trict school, till the time when she left the sem- 
 inary to come and teach benighted heathen the 
 way of eternal life, she was often the youngest 
 in large classes and yet at their head. It will 
 generally be found that those that do most for 
 others, prosecute their own affairs with the best 
 success. " There is that scattereth, and yet 
 increaseth." 
 
 But it is not always that those most active 
 in doing good meet with the fewest trials. 
 Perhaps few have made great progress in sanc- 
 tification without having had their faith fre- 
 quently put to severe tests. I must not fail to 
 speak of what was undoubtedly, to her, 
 
 THE ORDEAL. 
 
 About a year from the time of her colpor- 
 teur labors, some of you met with her, and 
 know the cheerfulness with which she left the 
 home and friends of her childhood and youth, 
 for the sake of going "to tell perishing sinners 
 [of India] about the precious Saviour." But 
 there were fearful storms through which she 
 had to struggle in reaching the sunshine in 
 which you saw her. of which only a few ever
 
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 knew, or will know, until they shall learn them 
 from sanctified lips above, in the notes of the 
 grand anthem of praise to Him who giveth us 
 the victory. 
 
 In her own mind, through grace, she had been 
 consecrated to this great work for years, in case 
 Providence should open a door through which 
 she could enter upon it. On this subject her 
 mind never changed. But the idea of abandon- 
 ing all that had been dear to her from child- 
 hood was often to her overwhelmingly distress- 
 ing ; and just before the final determination on 
 the question of her going to India at the time 
 she did go, events transpired, all of which were 
 providential so far as she was concerned, and 
 many of them so far as any human being was 
 concerned, which, for a time, seemed almost ab- 
 solutely to forbid her proceeding. 
 
 A few words from one of her grandmother's 
 letters to her while she was at the seminary, 
 will give some idea of one of the trials through 
 which she had to pass. It must be remem- 
 bered that for years she and her grandmother 
 had composed an entire family, and their mutual 
 love was most ardent. Her grandmother writes 
 her:
 
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 " But I must answer your kind letter, although 
 it is a most trying task. Yes, dear Elizabeth, 
 to think that you have made up your mind to 
 leave me and go to India, never more to see 
 your face, is very trying to your aged grand- 
 mother. I was hoping to lean upon you in my 
 declining years. Yes, Elizabeth, you are as 
 dear to me as my own daughter could be, now 
 that I have no daughter left upon earth. It is 
 very, very trying. But if the Lord has called 
 you to this great work, I will say amen to it, 
 and rejoice that he has counted you worthy." 
 
 The bitterness of this fearful cup was aggra- 
 vated also by the fact that, with but two or 
 three exceptions, all her relatives and accus- 
 tomed advisers were firm in the belief that she 
 was doing wrong in going to India. Nor did 
 they at all attempt to conceal this opinion from 
 her. To some persons this might have caused 
 no serious grief; but not so with her. From 
 childhood, one of her characteristics was, that 
 objections made by her friends to any step she 
 took, were to her a cause of inexpressible un- 
 easiness. 
 
 You would be better able to appreciate the 
 bitterness to her of this ingredient, had you
 
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 seen the radiant sunshine with which her coun- 
 tenance was lit up, on reading, after she had 
 reached the mission ground, such passages as 
 the following. The first is from a letter to 
 her from one whose opinion she looked up to 
 with almost the same confidence as to her 
 grandmother's, and who for a long time felt 
 it duty firmly to protest against the step here 
 more than approved of. This person writes, 
 "I now rejoice very much that you went to 
 India. I feel thankful that I have so near a 
 relative laboring among the heathen for their 
 salvation. I feel it has been a great blessing 
 to myself, by increasing my interest in the cause 
 of Christ." 
 
 I may be allowed to give a slight hint with 
 regard to this change of sentiment. You may 
 judge whether it may not, at least partly, ac- 
 count for the change. The person had long 
 been a Christian. But even Christians do not 
 always bask in the sunshine of religion. In 
 the letter from which the above extract is 
 taken, there are various very evident indica- 
 tions that religion had recently been very much 
 revived in that person's soul. 
 
 A few genial rays of light and heat from the
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 23 
 
 Sun of righteousness on high, will sometimes 
 do wonders towards dispelling the dark fore- 
 boding clouds that often hang over the vale of 
 religious sacrifice and self-denial. Many sac- 
 rifices which appear quite uncalled for, indeed 
 very wrong, when viewed through the dusty 
 clouds of this world, appear very right when 
 seen in the clear light of eternity. 
 
 The following from her revered pastor also 
 reveals something with regard to this same 
 trial. " There were misgivings in some hearts, 
 but not in yours, nor in your companion's, no, 
 nor in mine. I believe in doing right, and leav- 
 ing the consequences with God And now 
 
 I believe all agree that the results have shown 
 that the step was approved by our divine 
 Master." 
 
 Her grandmother, although the chief suffer- 
 er, always gave the movement her hearty ap- 
 probation. She writes, "Almost if not all of 
 your friends now think you did right in going, 
 and daily I thank God that he called you 
 there, and pray for success to you and to your 
 whole mission, in the blessed work of showing 
 poor ignorant heathen the way of eternal life." 
 
 That good woman, from the day we left the
 
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 American shores, till the day of her lamented 
 death, 27th December, 1856, at a particular 
 hour of every day, no matter how she was en- 
 gaged or in what company, retired to suppli- 
 cate blessings on us, on our work, and on that 
 of -our whole mission. I believe her hour for 
 this prayer was at ten o'clock A. M. Oh that 
 we had more than we have of such praying 
 mothers in Israel. 
 
 I have often wondered why the great Ruler 
 above should allow or direct such obstacles to 
 appear, as rose before her of whom I write, 
 when she was preparing to go as a foreign 
 missionary. Probably, however, it is as easy 
 to understand his providence in the present 
 case, as in his commanding Abraham to slay his 
 only hope of promised posterity; or in strip- 
 ping Job of all his earthly possessions. Al- 
 though her trials at the time were most distress- 
 ing to us both, yet they had scarcely passed over 
 when we were enabled most heartily to bless 
 our heavenly Father for them. I regard them 
 as having been an important instrumentality 
 in preparing us for our work in India ; and 
 the Christian heroism with which she buffeted 
 them, I have always considered one of the
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 25 
 
 clearest testimonies I have ever met with to 
 the depth of her piety, the nobility of her 
 Christian character, and the genuine fervor of 
 her zeal in the service of her Redeemer. The 
 circumstances and results of this trying ordeal 
 illustrate the wisdom of not conferring with 
 flesh and blood, in the discharge of our highest 
 duties ; and the certainty that, though obsta- 
 cles as fearful as the deep waters of the Red 
 sea lie before us, we may go over dry shod, if 
 we in faith boldly "go forward." 
 
 Without detaining you with any details about 
 the voyage, etc., which I presume would neither 
 be new nor edifying to you, I will go on at once 
 to say a little, and but a little, about her as 
 
 THE MISSIONARY. 
 
 It was with a kind of bewildering satisfac- 
 tion that, after the distressing ordeal through 
 which she had passed, the whirl of excitement 
 in the busy scenes of our departure from Amer- 
 ica, the tossings on the wide ocean, the rattle 
 and dust of a thousand miles through the midst 
 of this heathen country after all this within 
 the space of a few months, it was, I say, with a 
 kind of bewildering joy that she could look
 
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 around on the work before her, and say, "Well, 
 am I now indeed on foreign missionary ground? 
 Am I really settled down in my own home, 
 among the heathen, with nothing to do but to 
 labor to lead them to the Saviour? Why, it 
 seems as if it must be only a dream. And how 
 remarkable the providences by which I have 
 been brought here ! How narrowly did I escape 
 losing the precious privilege!" Often such ex- 
 pressions would musingly fall from her lips 
 within the first few months after our settlement 
 at Saharunpur. 
 
 Her deep interest in the great work, her 
 ardent desire to be engaged in it, did not van- 
 ish at the touch of the realization. In the 
 early part of her missionary life, she thought 
 she could scarcely remain here ten years with- 
 out visiting her dear old home. But gradually, 
 in her mind, she extended the time of her visit 
 further and further twelve, fifteen years and 
 at last, if she ever visited home, she wished to 
 return here and leave her bones on the mission 
 field. In the latter wish she has been grati- 
 fied, sooner indeed than she anticipated, but 
 not, as you will see, before by divine Provi- 
 dence and grace she was prepared for it.
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 27 
 
 With regard to her interest in her mission- 
 ary work, a slight hint may be found in the 
 following, which she penned just one year and 
 two days before she entered into her rest. 
 
 " God has been most kind to us in preserv- 
 ing our lives through this dreadful rebellion. 
 I trust we shall be led to do more for Him 
 and love Him more, for this merciful preser- 
 vation. Oh, how little have I done for Him 
 who has done so much for me ! Oh that I could 
 live entirely for Him. I have been the past 
 year much more anxious to be more earnestly 
 and zealously devoted to His cause, and have 
 tried very hard to do more work for Him than 
 formerly." 
 
 I ought, perhaps, before this to have re- 
 ferred more particularly to an event which 
 occurred shortly after she entered upon her 
 missionary work, and was of no slight impor- 
 tance to her. Many, many a time, often for 
 hours together, she would weep almost as if 
 her heafrfc would break, when something would 
 suddenly recall to her mind her "poor dear 
 grandmother, left all alone." She, however, 
 never 1 expressed a doubt that she did right in 
 coming to Indi^*" GOD will take care of dear.
 
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 dear grandmother," was her usual satisfying 
 consolation. GOD did take care of her. He 
 took her up into His own home. The following 
 appeared in The Watchman and Reflector 
 January, 1857: 
 
 " DIED, in East Temple ton, on the 25th ult., Mrs. 
 Phebe Greenwood, in the 68th year of her age. 
 For the last thirty-five or forty years of her life 
 she was a ' living epistle, known and read of all 
 men.' Her piety shone brighter and brighter 
 to the end of her course. All who knew her 
 were constrained to feel that her daily deport- 
 ment and conversation were a living demon- 
 stration of the truth of experimental religion. 
 She loved the cause of Christ, the followers of 
 Christ, and the ministers of Christ. She had 
 an excellent acquaintance with the system of 
 doctrines contained in the Bible, and adhered 
 to them as her spiritual food. Her fervid zeal, 
 her humility, her calm unshaken trust in God, 
 her heavenly unction in prayer, evinced that 
 she daily experienced fresh anointing from on 
 high, and held constant communion with God. 
 Though she lived more than three miles from 
 the house of God, yet her seats there and in 
 the Sabbath-school were seldom vacant on the
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 29 
 
 Sabbath for a series of years. She was remark- 
 able also for a tender concern for the souls of 
 others, and especially for those of the young. 
 By a cheerful and happy frame of mind, she 
 divested religion of every thing repulsive and 
 gloomy to the youthful mind, and labored to 
 win them to Christ. She was therefore pecul- 
 iarly dear to the young, as they could not but 
 feel assured that she was their sincere friend. 
 "While our departed friend was ardently 
 attached to her own church and denomination, 
 still, rising superior to the prejudices of party, 
 she rejoiced equally with all who gave proof 
 of possessing the mind of Christ. She has left 
 two children and a number of grandchildren to 
 mourn their irreparable loss. One of the lat- 
 ter is the wife of Rev. William Calderwood, 
 a missionary of the Reformed Presbyterian 
 church in India. Mrs. Calderwood was brought 
 up by her grandmother, and will therefore 
 mourn as for an own mother. This event will 
 doubtless cast a deep shadow over her Indian 
 home. That mission too has lost the fervent 
 prayers of one who, at a particular hour of each 
 day, remembered it in supplication before God. 
 But her work on earth is done, and why should
 
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 we be reluctant to have her go to the rewards 
 of the just? Though her mortal remains are 
 housed in the silent tomb, and her sainted spirit 
 has gone to dwell with Christ, she will long 
 live in the memories of those who knew her." 
 
 From the above obituary notice, taken in the 
 connection in which it here stands, you cannot 
 avoid noticing how distinctly the impress of the 
 character of the grandmother was left on that 
 of the granddaughter ; another beautiful illus- 
 tration of the power of maternal example. 
 
 After this event Lizzie felt additional grati- 
 tude that Providence had brought her to India 
 before her grandmother's home was broken up 
 by death. It was all well. The offering was 
 made in good faith ; Isaac was sacrificed ; and 
 now after four short years from the time of the 
 offering, the devoted grandmother and the 
 fondly-loving granddaughter are restored to 
 each other in an infinitely happier home than 
 that which, for the sake of their Saviour, they 
 broke up at Templeton. Doubtless ere this, in 
 celestial songs of gratitude to their beloved 
 Saviour, with a heavenly ardor they have con- 
 gratulated each other over the sacrifice that 
 grace then enabled them to make.
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 31 
 
 During the four years of her life in India, 
 most of you heard from time to time of her 
 missionary labors ; so that even if I had leisure 
 now it would be unnecessary to enlarge on them. 
 
 In the acquisition of the native languages, for 
 a long time she kept quite in advance of her 
 husband, and would doubtless have continued 
 to do so, had her health remained as firm as 
 his. 
 
 In no enterprise did she ever make more 
 strenuous or prayerful efforts, than in the gath- 
 ering of heathen girls into a school. She did in- 
 deed succeed in getting some to attend very 
 regularly, but they were few in number. Her 
 success certainly did not seem to be commen- 
 surate with her efforts. But if she did her 
 duty, she could do no more, and the gracious 
 reward will not be wanting. Doubtless Da- 
 vid's honest desire to build the temple met with 
 as large a reward of grace as if he had actually 
 accomplished the work. 
 
 But her success in instructing the native Chris- 
 tian women and their children, was most gratify^ 
 ing. The children came to her every morning, 
 and after instructing them for some hours in 
 the common branches of education, she taught
 
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 them and their mothers various kinds of needle- 
 work. This introduced them to quite a new 
 way of spending their time, a way that did not 
 seem to have ever before entered their minds. 
 She has done them a great benefit in teaching 
 them to improve their hours of leisure from 
 strict domestic duties in this way, for which 
 she received many most pleasing marks of sin- 
 cere gratitude. Some of you have seen some 
 of their work performed under her direction. 
 
 Simply teaching them the work was only a 
 small part of her care in the matter. They 
 were entirely dependent upon her for selecting 
 and purchasing the material, planning in what 
 way to make it up, and disposing of it after it 
 was manufactured. She was therefore a kind 
 of commission merchant, purchasing for them 
 by the wholesale the raw material, and retail- 
 ing for them again their manufactured article. 
 Although the pecuniary profits of her mercan- 
 tile operations were a minus quantity, yet I am 
 sure she enjoyed the business quite as much as 
 merchants usaally do in filling their coffers. 
 Part of her interest in this work arose from the 
 excellent opportunity it gave her of daily con- 
 versing with the women and children in an in-
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 33 
 
 formal manner on religious subjects, as well as 
 the common duties of life. Like her grand- 
 mother, she had a peculiar aptness for doing 
 good in this way. The amount of good she 
 really accomplished in this department of her 
 labors, I believe can scarcely be overestimated. 
 
 Several of the girls that she instructed are 
 now in the mission boarding-school for girls at 
 Dchra, pursuing ithe same course of education 
 under the care of Mrs. Herron. Soon these 
 girls will become the mothers in our Israel 
 here. With such a training as they are now 
 receiving, they will be fitted for doing incalcu- 
 lably more for the advancement of Christianity 
 in India than their predecessors could do. In- 
 telligent religious female influence is now, most 
 undoubtedly, one chief desideratum in the evan- 
 gelization of India. I trust this boarding- 
 school at Dehra will yet do wonders towards 
 securing this great desideratum. I bespeak for 
 it the earnest prayers of you all. 
 
 I have discovered a scrap written in her 
 hand, which she evidently prepared as a kind 
 of a skeleton of a discourse, as preachers would 
 call it, to assist her memory in making some 
 remarks to the native Christian women, prob-
 
 34 BEIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 ably in their weekly prayer-meeting, which was 
 established shortly after we settled at Saha- 
 runpur. From some references in it, it seems 
 likely that it was prepared on the occasion 
 of the death of a little orphan boy, John H. 
 Brown, named after the worthy superintendent 
 of the Sabbath-school of the Rev. Dr. McLeod's 
 church, New York. You would perhaps like 
 to see the skeleton of a Hindustani sermon by 
 her. I will give under each word its transla- 
 tion into English, from which you will be able 
 to pick out the meaning of the whole, although 
 in English the composition will not appear 
 very rhetorical. 
 
 Meri Piydri Bahin Yih achcha waqt hai 
 My Dear Sisters This good time is 
 
 ki ham apne dilon ko azmawen ki we Khuda 
 
 that we our hearts to examine, that they God 
 
 ke nazar men achcha hain ki nihln. 
 
 of sight in good are 6\ not. 
 
 Khuda is waqt, ham ko, buland awaz se 
 God this time us to high voice with 
 
 bulata hai, ki ham apne Khuda se milne 
 
 calling is, that we our God with meeting 
 
 ke liye taiyar ho wen. 
 
 for ready be.
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 35 
 
 Khuda, ham men se, har ek ko apne kam 
 God us among from every one to his work 
 
 ke karne ko bulata hai. 
 
 of the doing to calling is. 
 
 Ek hafta guzri, palile se zayada zor se 
 One week ago, before from more loud from 
 
 bulata hai. 
 
 calling is. 
 
 Hamko, uski awaz ko sunna chahiye. 
 
 Us to His voice to hear it is necessary. 
 
 Aur chahiye ki uske khidmat karne 
 And it is necessary that His service the doing *" 
 men ziyada koshish karen. 
 in more effort make. 
 
 Aur zarur hai ki ab ham dil o jan 
 
 And necessary is that now we, heart and soul 
 se dua mdngen ki hamari larke, jaldi se, 
 with, pray that our children, quickly, 
 
 Yisuh Masih par iman lawen ; aur ki we 
 Jesus Christ upon faith bring ; and that they 
 Khuda ke khauf aur danai men barhen. 
 God of fear and wisdom in increase. 
 
 While she was so much interested in promot- 
 ing the welfare of those around her, she was 
 not forgetful of her old acquaintances in 
 America. Of some of them she could scarcely 
 ever speak without expressing the most anx-
 
 36 BRIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 ious solicitude regarding their eternal welfare. 
 I have found a scrap of her writing, without 
 name or date, which is evidently a part of a 
 letter intended for one such person. Although 
 she was not a very prolific writer of letters of 
 mere friendship, you will see from this that she 
 sometimes found leisure to write for the simple 
 purpose of doing good. 
 
 " Let me ask you," she writes, " have you 
 looked to the things pertaining to your soul's 
 welfare ? Do you believe from the heart, that 
 you have nothing more to do in preparation for 
 another world ? Ask yourself seriously, Jim I 
 
 prepared to die ? Do not tell me, dear , that 
 
 God is merciful and cannot bear to see his 
 creatures suffer, and that there can be no such 
 thing as everlasting punishment. Yes, he is 
 merciful, but he is also just. If we go to him, 
 he promises us eternal life; but if we reject him, 
 it is just as certain we shall have eternal misery. 
 
 " Do not say, dear , that you have accepted 
 
 him ; for it is written, ' By their fruits ye shall 
 know them.' Do the people of the world know 
 you to be a child of God by your fruits? 
 Think a moment ; what are the fruits by which 
 they know you to be such? Are your walk
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 3t 
 
 and conversation such as become a child of 
 God ? Do those around you, particularly your 
 family, see that you are careful always to keep 
 the Sabbath holy ; that you do not even think 
 or talk about worldly things; that you are 
 careful to converse only on sacred things, and 
 read only religious books on that holy day ? 
 Is one of your fruits morning and evening fam- 
 ily worship? Do you teach your little ones 
 about this great and holy Being who has done 
 so much for you ? I am afraid you do not. I 
 fear your fruits show you to be only of the 
 world. 
 
 " And now, dear , I have one request to 
 
 make, and that is, that you daily study your 
 Bible and ask God to direct you by his Holy Spirit 
 to read it under standingly. Go as a child to it, 
 and try to learn from it what you ought to do ; 
 and as it teaches, so do. Do not go trying to 
 prove this or that or the other thing. 
 
 " It has pleased God to lay you on a bed of 
 sickness several times ; and twice, within my 
 recollection, to bring you very near the grave. 
 And it has pleased him to restore you again, 
 and to grant a few more days to you to pre- 
 pare for heaven. Now let me entreat of you
 
 38 BRIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 not to put it off longer, but come now while 
 you may. 
 
 " I beg you, dear , to think over these 
 
 things, and to strive now to become a follower 
 of the meek and lowly Jesus. I shall continue 
 to pray for this so long as I live." 
 
 With regard to another such person, I find 
 the following in a kind of a journal, in which 
 she appears to have only occasionally written 
 at her daily private devotions ; for like her 
 good grandmother, it was her custom to retire 
 daily at ten o'clock for secret prayer. 
 
 " MAY 12. To-day I received letters from my 
 
 dear home : from my dear , my beloved 
 
 , and my truly dear . Oh how my 
 
 heart bleeds for her. She is yet without God, 
 without Christ in the world. Oh how I ought 
 to humble myself in the dust for her. Oh, my 
 heavenly Father, do thou in much mercy spare 
 her life, lengthen out her day of grace, at least 
 till she turn unto thee. Bless the influence of 
 her dear pastor over her. Oh, draw her heart 
 to thyself. Oh that my eyes were a river of 
 water, that I might weep day and night for her. 
 Oh give me faith to believe that thou art able 
 to and wilt turn her from the error of her
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 39 
 
 ways to thyself. Oh bless the letter that may 
 have reached her ere this. May every word 
 bring home the truth to her heart, that without 
 thee she cannot live." 
 
 I fear too many of us quite too seldom write 
 such letters, and offer such prayers as these. 
 
 In no work, I think, did she engage with 
 greater relish, than in visiting the heathen women 
 of the neighboring villages at their own houses. 
 But it was only a short time before the com- 
 mencement of her fatal disease, that she felt 
 sufficiently at home in the native languages to 
 perform such visits' with comfort and advan- 
 tage. I have no doubt you would have enjoyed 
 seeing her seated on a chdrpdi a native bed, 
 used also for sitting on during the day with 
 twenty or thirty native women and children 
 standing around her, or sitting on the ground, 
 chattering that strange topsy-turvy language 
 of which I gave you a specimen. Doubtless 
 you would be willing to take some trouble to 
 see such a sight. I cannot show you the sight, 
 but perhaps I may assist you a little in imagin- 
 ing the scene, by giving you an extract or two 
 from a little book, in which she seems to have 
 commenced, at one time, a kind of journal of
 
 40 BRIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 these labors evidently intended to assist her 
 in the discharge of such duties, by helping her 
 to remember the circumstances of the places she 
 might visit. In these visits she usually took 
 one or more of the native Christian women 
 along with her. 
 
 "APRIL 14, [1858.] Took Eliza [wife of Rev. 
 I. W. J. Wylie] with me to Patanpura, and met 
 with a more cordial welcome than I expected. 
 The women and children flocked around me, and 
 talked so fast I could scarcely understand what 
 they said. Upon invitation they promised to 
 call on me at my own house to-morrow." 
 
 "APRIL 15. Contrary to my expectation, more 
 than a dozen of the women and children came. 
 I talked with them, showed them the interior of 
 our house, and answered innumerable questions 
 about the strange things they saw. In the 
 evening took Eliza and Svhani" [Kan war Sain's 
 wife, who was the first person I received to the 
 church, and who has proved a most worthy 
 member] "with me, and went to the same vil- 
 lage. Having been previously invited by an 
 old woman to call on her the next time I came 
 to that village, we went first to her house. She 
 invited us to be seated on c/idrpdis, and soon at
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 41 
 
 least thirty women and children were around 
 us. After talking to them for a time, they asked 
 us to read to them, and Eliza read the first part 
 of the sermon on the mount. Four or five old 
 women said they believed in God, and wished 
 to become Christians. Eliza told them that 
 there were two ways of wishing to come to 
 Christ: one is in word, and the other in heart; 
 and that Christ would only accept of those 
 that came in the latter way. They then began 
 to boast of their good works. Desiring to hear 
 more reading, I read them from the sixth chap- 
 ter of Matthew. As we were leaving, the old 
 woman asked me to take a drink of milk, and 
 seemed quite surprised and delighted that I 
 consented. ... Oh that God would bless us in 
 this work, and that he would open my mouth 
 so that I might fully and clearly point these 
 poor creatures to the Lamb of God, which tak- 
 eth away the sin of the world." 
 
 "APRIL 16. Visited three houses in a village 
 on the canal west of our house. Although many 
 were out at work in the fields, those we saw 
 treated us politely. One woman was spinning, 
 and Sohani worked a little for her, which 
 seemed to please her very much."
 
 42 BEIEF MEMORIAL OF 
 
 Had she from whose journal the above is 
 extracted beer* spared in health a few years 
 longer in India, I have no doubt she would 
 have accomplished great good in that depart- 
 ment of labor. Few are as well fitted as she 
 was, for obtaining access to such places. 
 
 I must now introduce a subject which I fear 
 will not be as pleasant as the preceding, to 
 either the reader or the writer, although it 
 may be quite as profitable to both. 
 
 THE SUFFERER. 
 
 I may as well frankly confess, that it is only 
 after several abortive attempts, and now with 
 the utmost difficulty, that I am able to come to 
 the determination to proceed in some way with 
 this part of the narrative. For the purpose of 
 refreshing my memory as to dates, etc., I glanced 
 over some old papers ; but instead of this exer- 
 cise fitting me to proceed, it only made prog- 
 ress impossible, for a length of time which I 
 am ashamed to confess. I am sure you will 
 pardon me if I should here seem to be somewhat 
 more brief than you expected. 
 
 I cannot date her last illness later than June, 
 1858. It was then that the disease to which
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 43 
 
 she had been more or less liable for the pre- 
 vious five or six years became so alarming that 
 the physician was consulted. For some months 
 we had employed a teacher of the native lan- 
 guages for each of us, as it seemed necessary 
 for her to pursue quite a different course of 
 study from mine. I therefore knew less of the 
 manner and extent of her labors than previous- 
 ly. Nevertheless I am surprised that I did not 
 learn, in some way, or indeed that she did not 
 distinctly tell me what the doctor on close in- 
 quiry discovered that for several weeks, at the 
 completion of some of her daily duties, it was 
 a common thing for her whole frame to be in 
 such a tremor for half an hour or an hour, that 
 she was unable to hold her pen with sufficient 
 steadiness to write. The labors which were 
 followed by this tremor were teaching the girl's 
 school, and translating with the nrunshi na- 
 tive teacher of Hindustani. 
 
 The physician very naturally ascribed the 
 aggravation of her old disease to excessive 
 effort and interest in the discharge of these 
 duties. I this moment discovered that her 
 most earnest labors in visiting the heathen 
 women at their houses were shortly before this
 
 44 BRIJJF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 sickness, and often on returning from these 
 visits, the first thing she would say to me was, 
 " Oh how I wish I could talk Hindustani as I 
 can English!" She indeed confessed that the 
 chief reason of her not allowing me to know 
 earlier the full extent of her weakness, was the 
 fear that I should stop her from studying with 
 the munshi; and she hoped that with a little 
 more care she might regain her strength with- 
 out discontinuing any of her regular .duties. 
 Her medical adviser ordered' her at once to 
 Dehra or Landour, for change of air, etc. He 
 said that one reason of his ordering her away 
 from Saharunpur was, that he knew if she re- 
 mained there she would not be able to dis- 
 engage her mind sufficiently from her usual 
 labors; and he charged me to be careful to 
 prevent her from pursuing her studies while 
 absent. 
 
 Having been away from home about a month 
 she returned, but not with the full approbation 
 of her physician, who, after she had been home 
 six or seven weeks, sent her away again. She 
 returned in November, improved somewhat in 
 health, but much less than we had hoped for. 
 
 Shortly after arriving home, she started with
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 45 
 
 me for our annual meeting of the mission, held 
 that year, 1858, at Lodiana. It was at that 
 meeting, which may perhaps be called the 
 revival meeting, that the invitations for the 
 World's Concert of Prayer were issued. Per- 
 haps she is still thankful that a good Provi- 
 dence . arranged it so that she should attend 
 that remarkable meeting, and that the last an- 
 nual meeting she was to attend should be such 
 a meeting. She always enjoyed meeting with 
 her fellow-missionaries, and did not forget them, 
 as you will see, in her last hours. Her affec- 
 tion for them, I believe, was fully reciprocated. 
 More' than one of them has said that no one 
 was a more general favorite with the members 
 of the mission than she. At that meeting she 
 had an opportunity of bidding, what turned 
 out to be, her last farewell to most of them. 
 
 It was her impression, I think, that she had 
 gained as much strength in attending the meet- 
 ing as she had in the same time at Dehra or 
 Landour ; and on her return home in Decem- 
 ber, she at once resumed most of her missionary 
 labors. But these were her last, and were con- 
 tinued but a short time. 
 
 For a few days she had been suffering from
 
 46 BEIEF MEMOEIAL OF 
 
 a cold, with occasional fever and ague, but all 
 so slight as scarcely to attract our special no- 
 tice ; when about the fifteenth of January, 1 859, 
 the wife of the government surgeon at the sta- 
 tion happened to call, and on learning her state 
 suggested the propriety of our calling in her 
 husband, which was done. He discovered that 
 she had been ill with a slight mucous dysentery 
 for probably nearly a year past, without her 
 fully realizing the nature of the disease. She 
 then began to be afflicted with the most excru- 
 ciating pains, suddenly seizing her, first in one 
 part of the body, then in another now in her 
 arm, then in her leg or shoulder. I cannot de- 
 scribe to you the intensity of the suffering she 
 then endured for about eight days. The station 
 doctor called in another physician for counsel, 
 and both of them attended her daily for more 
 than a week. I shall never forget the kindness 
 of these physicians and their wives. Indeed, 
 all our acquaintances, both European and na- 
 tive, showed a sympathy with us, and an inter- 
 est in our welfare, which we had no reason to 
 expect. The kind way in which this interest 
 was often shown impressed us very much. Gen- 
 eral Eckford, C. B. a good pious man, son-in-
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 47 
 
 law to the late James Haldane, the eminent 
 Scotch lay divine who had been in the habit 
 of calling frequently during the whole time of 
 her sickness at Saharunpur, wrote every morn- 
 ing inquiring for her health, and called every 
 evening when she was able to see him, during 
 the three weeks of her very severe illness. The 
 Civil and Session's judge, and his lady, could 
 scarcely have shown more interest in their own 
 children. One day he wrote such a kind note 
 to us that, perhaps in connection with other 
 kindnesses, it brought the tears freely to the 
 eyes of both the sufferer and myself ; and some 
 months after this, when he heard of our being 
 advised to go to America, he showed the sin- 
 cerity of his interest in us, by offering the use 
 of his purse to any amount we might need in 
 going home. This he did under the impression 
 that we were depending on our own resources 
 for the expenses of our voyage ; but as this 
 was not the case, we of course could not accept 
 the generous offer. 
 
 About the n'rst of February her pains were 
 entirely removed, and other diseases much 
 mitigated, so that she rode out with me in the 
 buggy several times, and took a few short
 
 48 BEIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 walks. To regain her former strength, her 
 medical attendants advised a visit of a few 
 weeks to Dehra or Landour. So fair were 
 her prospects, that neither of us felt the neces- 
 sity of my abandoning my post and remaining 
 with her ; but they said, that one reason she did 
 not receive greater benefit from her visit than 
 the summer before, was her not being so happy 
 absent from her husband, and they would not 
 advise her going again, unless I went and staid 
 with her while she remained. 
 
 Accordingly, on the 7th February we left 
 for Dehra, hoping that in a few weeks she 
 would be as strong as ever, when we should 
 both return to our labors again. How fre- 
 quently we receive lessons on the uncertainty 
 of all earthly things. 
 
 For some time after our arrival at Dehra, she 
 improved very rapidly. It was at this time 
 that I made a most interesting visit to Bignour, 
 from which I was recalled on account of her 
 disease taking a very unfavorable turn. Her 
 chief ailment had never entirely left her, and 
 towards the end of February, in some way she 
 caught a severe cold, which very much aggra- 
 vated her other complaints.
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 49 
 
 All the time \ve were at Dehra we were the 
 guests of our excellent and dear friends the 
 Herrons. We have never found anywhere, and 
 could not wish to find, better friends than they 
 have been. We felt as much at home in their 
 house as in our own. They spared no sacri- 
 fice to make the invalid comfortable and happy. 
 Brother Herron did what every brother would 
 not do went out and lived in a tent, that we 
 might have comfortable rooms. 
 
 About the middle of March, the severe shift- 
 ing pains experienced at Saharunpur, returned 
 again ; and in several other respects the suffer- 
 ing invalid began again to get worse. The 
 first three days of April were days of most fear- 
 ful suffering. I can safely say that I never 
 witnessed suffering at all approaching that in 
 severity. So acute was the pain, that some of 
 her lady friends were sometimes compelled to 
 leave her room, that they might not add to her 
 distress by weeping in her presence. Although 
 she could not conceal the wrenching pains with 
 which her body was racked, yet I have never 
 known that any one ever heard a murmur es- 
 cape her lips. The tranquil patience she main- 
 tained during those days of agony, was the
 
 50 BEIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 wonder of her physicians, and indeed of every 
 one that saw her. After those pains left her, 
 she told me she never in her life before enjoyed 
 so sensible a realization of the Saviour's pres- 
 ence, as she did when the pains were the most 
 acute. The nearness of his presence seemed to 
 be in proportion to the severity of the bodily 
 distress. She said it was "quite worth while 
 enduring the outward pain for the sake of the 
 inward joy." Here is another instance, to add 
 to the thousands we have had, of one like the 
 Son of God walking with His people in the 
 midst of the fire, "while a hair of their head 
 is not singed." You will shortly see, I think, 
 that her experience in this respect was some- 
 thing quite unusual. I do not recollect ever 
 hearing of such remarkable joy, in such severe 
 pain, as she experienced. 
 
 April 7th, we left for Landour, to stay at 
 the Retreat till the beginning of the rainy 
 season, when we hoped to return to Saharunpur. 
 This change also was followed at first by favor- 
 able results. 
 
 April 10th, for the past four years, had been 
 a memorable day to us. There was no day of 
 the year whose return she hailed with greater
 
 MBS. LIZZIE G. CALDEBWOOD. 51 
 
 joy. She could not celebrate it this year as 
 formerly ; but Providence, as if to gratify her to 
 some extent on the last of such occasions she 
 should enjoy on earth, granted her better health 
 that day than any day for some weeks previous, 
 and better than she ever afterwards enjoyed. 
 She walked a little alone, and several times 
 across the room with help. Although very 
 weak, she insisted on kneeling in prayer by my 
 side, and leading in that exercise herself. I 
 will give you an extract from an entry in my 
 journal on that evening. 
 
 " This is the fourth anniversary of our wed- 
 ding-day four years now since our marriage. 
 In reference to this, she offered such a prayer 
 as I never heard her present before, for its self- 
 consecration, and its nearness of approach to 
 the divine presence. She reviewed the chief 
 blessings of our lives, but dwelt particularly 
 upon that of our marriage and the mercies we 
 
 have enjoyed together since that time She 
 
 lias several times spoken of the extreme suffer- 
 ing she endured a week ago to-day. She says 
 all of that day in which her pains were the 
 most severe, she was involuntarily saying in her 
 mind, ' Hitherto hath the Lord helped me, and
 
 52 BRIEF MEMORIAL OF 
 
 He will help me still.' In conversation to-day, 
 she said she had not for years had the slight- 
 est fear of death ; and she now thinks that as 
 her ' Saviour has been so constantly with her in 
 these very severe trials, she has more reason 
 than before to feel sure that He will not for- 
 sake her even in the passage of Jordan.' She 
 has a firmer hope of glory to come than she 
 ever had before, and thinks she has during the 
 sickness made some progress in spiritual life. 
 On this account, she heartily blesses God that 
 
 he has sent these trials She enjoyed 
 
 singing with me to-day very much." 
 
 On the 13th, in the afternoon, a native woman 
 who was waiting on her, came running to me 
 from her room, in great consternation, saying, 
 "Uem Sahib ap ko bulati hai" The mistress 
 is calling you. Hastening to her room, I found 
 her leaning back in her chair before the fire, in 
 a fainting fit, her body all in a tremor, while 
 a native Christian woman, in great alarm, was 
 trying to get her to speak. I laid her on her 
 bed, and dashing a little water in her face, she 
 at once revived. She says about two years be- 
 fore she left America, she had three or four such 
 fits, at times when she regarded herself as in
 
 MRS. LIZZIE (J. CALDERWOOD. 53 
 
 her usual health. The station surgeon provi- 
 dentially was on the road near our house, when 
 he was sent for, and was by her side within 
 fifteen minutes from the time I was called. 
 
 Some hours after this, I accidentally noticed 
 tears in her eyes, and asked her what was the 
 matter, what troubled her. " Nothing troubles 
 me," she says, "only I was feeling so happy." 
 "What are you feeling happy about?" "My 
 Saviour is so near to me, I have so many com- 
 forts that many have not good friends near me, 
 
 etc. There's Mrs. B ," [a good Christian 
 
 friend of ours, wife of a lieutenant-colonel in 
 the army,] "has not been able to be off her bed 
 for several weeks, and her husband cannot leave 
 his post even to come and see her ; while I have 
 you with me all the time, and Jesus is so near 
 to me ; He's nearer me than you are ;" drawing 
 me closer to herself by my hand, which was 
 then in hers. After some other remarks were 
 exchanged, she says, " Oh what a difference 
 there is between knowing that God is present, 
 and feeling Him ! I always know He is present, 
 but I don't always feel Him so." Then she 
 went on to explain that when I saw the tears 
 in her eyes, she thought "she almost saw the
 
 54 BEIEF MEMORIAL OF 
 
 Saviour, leaning over her, comforting lier, and 
 seemed to feel the soft pressure of His hand on 
 her head." She went on to say, " Our home is 
 a very happy one, but it cannot be so much so 
 as heaven. I have been thinking how pleasant 
 it would be to die. There is only one draw- 
 back; it is leaving you alone How 
 
 pleasant it is to think that all my best friends 
 who have died have gone to heaven, and I shall 
 meet them there ; and all my best friends who 
 are left alive will follow me, except perhaps 
 two." .... I remarked that "perhaps she would 
 follow them." " Well, no matter which goes 
 first ; I mean that I shall some time see them 
 there." 
 
 Her medical attendant had advised us to be 
 ready to remove at once to Dehra, when the 
 rains would fairly set in. Accordingly, on the 
 8th of June we left the Hills, intending to re- 
 main in Dehra during the rainy season. On 
 arriving there, the physician at that place, and 
 all our friends, urged us to prepare at once to 
 visit America. To determine on such a move 
 was no slight trial to us both. But the posi- 
 tive opinion of four physicians, being all that 
 knew her case, and had an opportunity of ex-
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 55 
 
 pressing their opinion on it, that such a step 
 presented the only promise of recovery, the 
 unanimous and urgent advice of our friends, 
 together with our own fears founded on expe- 
 rience as to the effects of rainy weather on her 
 diseases, brought us at last to the full convic- 
 tion that it was our duty to go. Although the 
 event has been so mournful, yet I have never 
 heard of any change of opinion regarding the 
 propriety of the step. I still believe it was 
 our duty to go. All things occur just as they 
 are ordered on high : still there is every reason 
 to believe that if we had not been unexpectedly 
 detained for nearly a month at Allahabad and 
 Calcutta, we should have been well out at sea 
 while her strength remained ; in which case, ac- 
 cording to all the medical opinions I have ob- 
 tained on the subject, including the best in 
 India, she had a fair prospect of arriving in 
 America in a good state of health. 
 
 Almost the only fear of the physicians was 
 the journey down the country during the rains. 
 But a merciful Providence ordered it so that 
 we experienced not the least inconvenience 
 from rainy weather. In the whole journey by 
 carriage and railroad to Allahabad, a distance
 
 56 BRIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 of 500 miles, we did not have half an hour's 
 rain while we were on the road. The invalid 
 I believe was in quite as good health when we 
 reached Calcutta on the 23d of July, as" when 
 we left Dehra on the 28th of June. Changes 
 of air always had an immediate good effect 
 on her diseases, sometimes to a degree that 
 quite surprised us. This advantage much more 
 than compensated for the fatigue and other in- 
 conveniences in the journey to Calcutta, as well 
 as on that to the annual meeting before spoken 
 of. On our arrival in Calcutta she rode in a 
 carriage, apparently with perfect comfort, from 
 the steamer in which we came from Allahabad 
 to her boarding-house, a distance of about two 
 miles. Some time after this, by the advice of 
 her medical attendant, she took an hour's drive 
 in a carriage. Having received benefit from 
 this, she several times afterwards prepared to 
 go out, but was always prevented by the inces- 
 sant rain. 
 
 The next day after our arrival in Calcutta, 
 Dr. Macrae, one of the two most eminent phy- 
 sicians of that city, kindly consented to attend 
 the invalid, which he did most faithfully and 
 skilfully, and notwithstanding the large amount
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDEBWOOD. 57 
 
 of service he rendered, he most generously re- 
 fused to accept of any remuneration. Indeed, 
 of the eight physicians who attended her, only 
 two accepted -of any fee, and these two had ren- 
 dered the least service. Dr. Macrae having, 
 at our request, carefully examined the lungs of 
 the patient, said, "There was not the slightest 
 indication of any disease in them that she 
 could not expect to recover from her com- 
 plaints, or regain strength, during the rains in 
 either the mountains or the plains of India 
 that we had nothing to fear as regards the 
 effects of a voyage on her health, if we could 
 sail before she lost much more strength that 
 if we could get out of this wet climate soon, 
 into the sea air, we had every reason to expect 
 that in a few weeks her disease would disap- 
 pear, and she arrive in America as strong and 
 healthy as she had ever been." 
 
 August 2, her disease became worse, and her 
 pains and vomiting very severe. 
 
 One day about this time, after a most fearful 
 flash of lightning and clap of thunder, she asked 
 me to lie down on the bed by her side. " Why ?" 
 I asked, "are you afraid?" Such a crash could 
 not have failed to produce a shock upon the
 
 58 BEIEF MEMORIAL OF 
 
 firmest nerves. " No, but such thunder startles 
 me," was the reply. "But suppose the lightning 
 should strike you dead, which is not at all im- 
 possible ; what then ?" "Why, then I should be 
 freed from all my pains." "How do you know 
 that; have you never committed any sin?" "Yes, 
 a great many ; I am a poor sinful creature, but 
 Christ died to take away all my sins." 
 
 That day she again spoke of never having 
 had a fear of death for the past five or six 
 years. I often feared that the death-scene 
 might prove to be too severe a test for so con- 
 fident an assurance of faith. But my fears, as 
 you will see, have been most happily disappoint- 
 ed. To me her experience is a most convincing 
 evidence, that such a full assurance of faith is 
 attainable as will not only bear the test of years 
 of temptation, and the most severe afflictions, 
 but will even brave the king of terrors in the 
 last great struggle. I must be a dull scholar 
 indeed, if in four years' companionship with such 
 a teacher, and through such vicissitudes, I have 
 not learned something of the value of such a 
 constant assurance of a title to eternal life. Oh 
 how sweetly comforting in affliction, how assur- 
 ing in alarm, how supporting in death, to be
 
 MKS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 59 
 
 able to say, " I know that my Redeemer liveth." 
 Let us "give all diligence to make our calling 
 and election sure." 
 
 August 11, Thursday, about 10 o'clock A. M., 
 I came into her room, having been absent for 
 over an hour, and found her sleeping. But her 
 look was so deathlike, that I was instantly con- 
 vinced of the truth of what Mrs. Lish, our host- 
 ess, who indeed was like a mother to us, had 
 labored for several days to impress upon my 
 mind, that there was real danger that she might 
 not survive to reach the ship. As I could not 
 repress my emotions, I retired to a distant room, 
 and gave free vent to my feelings. It was 
 nearly two hours before I could gain sufficient 
 control of myself to return to her room. My 
 great struggle was on that day. With about 
 as much fear as hope, from that time I tried to 
 say, from the heart, " Thy unll be done" 
 
 When you have read what I have further to 
 say, I think you will agree with me, that I may 
 appropriately designate her closing hours, 
 
 THE TRIUMPH. 
 
 If ever any one, at the very verge of the 
 tomb, has been able to say, " grave, where is
 
 60 BKIEF MEMORIAL OF 
 
 thy victory ? death, where is thy sting ?" it 
 was she of whom I write. 
 
 August 13. Saturday, about 10 o'clock A. M., 
 she fell into a state of such weakness that Mrs. 
 Lish, for nearly an hour, watched for her last 
 breath, although, from various circumstances, I 
 felt confident she would again revive. Having 
 become quiet for a moment, and closing her 
 eyes ; in a tone that I thought the sleeper would 
 not hear, I remarked, "Now she will take a lit- 
 tle sleep, and wake up feeling better." Without 
 appearing to open her eyes, she brought my ear 
 close to her mouth, and whispered, "I shall soon 
 sleep in Jesus' bosom." 
 
 After about half an hour's sleep, she woke up 
 much revived. I suggested that if she really 
 had such thoughts as she expressed on going 
 to sleep, there would at least be no harm in her 
 preparing for the worst. "Well," said she, "I 
 do wish to send some messages. You take your 
 book, and I will tell you what to write." She 
 then dictated two letters to near relatives, one 
 of them quite long. Those letters do not belong 
 to me, so I have no right to give them to you. 
 But I may say that in both, she spoke of being 
 "glad she had come to India," and urged upon
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 61 
 
 those to whom they were addressed, to "be 
 always in readiness for death and eternity." 
 In one of those letters occur the words, "I 
 
 GO TO BE WITH MY DEAR SAVIOUR," which she 
 
 expressed in a tone and manner that made a 
 deep impression upon my mind, an impression 
 which I would not wish should be, and which I 
 feel never can be erased. The words, the tone 
 of voice, the expression of countenance, indicat- 
 ed such a fervor of love, such a clear appre- 
 hension of the divine Person of whom she spoke, 
 that the pencil almost dropped from my fingers, 
 and a kind of awe crept over me, as if I had 
 unexpectedly found myself in the sacred pres- 
 ence on high. 
 
 She sent short messages to several others ; as, 
 "Tell the missionaries of our mission, and their 
 wives, that I love them all, especially Mrs. Her- 
 ron." Her message to every one was, " Prepare 
 for death." She gave me particular directions 
 about giving mementos of her to a number of 
 her relatives and friends. 
 
 I think it was the afternoon of this day, Sat- 
 urday, when she asked me to sing the one hun- 
 dred and forty-eighth psalm, second version, 
 which we always sung to the tune Lenox. You
 
 62 BEIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 will remember the psalm from the first stanza, 
 which is : 
 
 " The Lord of heaven confess, 
 
 On high his glory raise. 
 
 Him let all angels bless, 
 
 Him all his armies praise. 
 Him glorify, sun, moon, and stars ; 
 Ye higher spheres, and cloudy sky." 
 
 She frequently joined, but was too weak to 
 sing much. As I ended she remarked, " The 
 words and the tune both chord exactly with my 
 feelings." 
 
 On the morning of this day her medical at- 
 tendant expressed his fears that she would not 
 live to reach the ship. The incessant rains had 
 acted fearfully on her diseases as well as on her 
 strength in general. The ten days we were 
 delayed at Allahabad, every day expecting a 
 steamer to start, and the three weeks we were 
 detained at Calcutta before we could secure a 
 passage to America, were, I consider, the prox- 
 imate cause of the fatal event. These being 
 matters so entirely beyond our control, and 
 which we could not possibly have foreseen, we 
 have the less room for self-condemnation in the 
 matter. What Providence does is done right.
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 63 
 
 I may say here too, that had the ship in which 
 we had taken passage sailed a week or two 
 earlier, as was at first expected, the event 
 might have been even worse than it was. At 
 that time a fearful storm of several days swept 
 over the whole Indian ocean, in which multi- 
 tudes of ships and lives were lost, and one man 
 who accompanied the remains of the departed 
 to their resting-place, and who sailed the day 
 she was to have sailed, found the next day, in 
 a storm, a watery grave. We have therefore 
 some special reason to feel that, in our case, 
 "He hath done all things well." 
 
 It having become known that her medical 
 attendant had given up hopes of her recovery, 
 we were advised to call in another physician, 
 who had obtained some celebrity for the cure 
 of severe cases of such diseases as hers. To 
 this, Dr. Macrae in the most gentlemanly man- 
 ner consented. The new doctor being called 
 and undertaking the case, as well as from other 
 circumstances, we felt much encouraged. Mrs. 
 Lish and I, supposing her to be asleep, were 
 speaking of the encouraging prospects of her 
 even yet recovering, when she spoke out, say- 
 ing, "I don't know that I wish to get well."
 
 64 BRIEF MEMOEIAL OP 
 
 "Why," said I, "would you not like to labor 
 more for the spread of the gospel among the 
 heathen ?" She hesitatingly said, "Yes ;" then, 
 after a pause, she spoke out in a loud lively 
 tone, as if she had suddenly made some pleasant 
 discovery: "I'll tell you just exactly what I 
 wish I wish that to be which will be most for 
 the glory of God." "But you can do nothing 
 for the salvation of the heathen in the other 
 world," said I. " I expect my Saviour has some- 
 thing there for me to do, or he would not call 
 me there," was the reply. 
 
 At this moment, as I write, I do not recollect 
 any passage of Scripture that would justify the 
 assertion that glorified saints can do nothing 
 for the salvation of the heathen. She of whom 
 I write believed that, in the world to come, 
 there would be some sphere of active benevo- 
 lence for the redeemed, some work in which 
 they might do good to others. She now knows 
 whether she was right or not. At present it 
 more concerns us to improve every opportunity 
 we now enjoy of doing good to others, than to 
 know whether there will be such opportunities 
 in the world to come. She did not neglect the 
 present in anticipation of the future. Her
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 65 
 
 opinion in this matter may indicate a marked 
 trait in her character her delight in doing 
 good to others. She felt that heaven, to be 
 heaven, must afford, in some way, a sphere for 
 active benevolence. 
 
 Lord's day, August 14th, she was very com- 
 fortable all day, much better than she had been 
 the day before. The new course of medicine 
 produced a most decided improvement in her 
 symptoms. At one of his visits that day, the 
 doctor said if she continued improving for four 
 days as she had the past twenty-four hours, he 
 would pronounce her out of danger. He made 
 a singular remark, which may be noticed as 
 corroborating what has been already referred 
 to her cheerful patience under severe trials. 
 He said, " Three things particularly promote 
 recovery : good spirits, the power of medicine, 
 and the grace of God. This patient evidently 
 has the first in a remarkable degree ; I shall 
 try to apply the second, and I hope the third 
 will not be wanting." In moving from place to 
 place, she necessarily had frequent changes of 
 physicians, having had eight different ones at- 
 tending on her more or less during that sick- 
 ness, every one of whom remarked, some of
 
 66 BRIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 them with great surprise, her astonishingly 
 cheerful patience. No one could be in her 
 presence for even an hour without observing 
 this. I doubt, however, whether all understood 
 the secret of it her constant and vivid realiza- 
 tion of her Saviour's presence, her unwavering 
 assurance that he was making " all things work 
 together for her good." All could easily see 
 her courageous patience ; but all might not ob- 
 serve the form of " one like the Son of God 
 walking in the midst of the fire with her," 
 " bending over her, comforting her " so sweetly, 
 that even tears of joy were brought to her eyes. 
 This was a clue to her constant peace and joy 
 which every attendant did not discover. 
 
 So much encouraged was I that day, that 
 frequently I was unable to refrain from weep- 
 ing with joy. How little we know what a day 
 may bring forth ! The invalid, however, evi- 
 dently continued to look upon her great change 
 as near at hand. As she was lying quietly 
 meditating, she broke out singing that beauti- 
 ful sacred song, 
 
 "Asleep in Jesus ! Oh how sweet, 
 To be for such a slumber meet," etc. 
 
 She sung two stanzas with apparently as firm
 
 MES. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 67 
 
 and clear a voice as ever in her life. Indeed, 
 she seemed to have caught inspiration from 
 above, for her usually rich, clear voice appeared 
 to have acquired a more than earthly sweet- 
 ness. I wish you could have heard her voice 
 on that occasion. You can find the hymn in 
 " The Sacred Songs," published by the Ameri- 
 can Tract Society ; there set to the music to 
 which she sung it. Dr. Duff, at her request, 
 prayed with her to-day; and after he left, she 
 spoke of having enjoyed his prayer in an un- 
 usual degree. 
 
 Monday, August 15. The eventful day ! As 
 I was standing at the window, gazing at the 
 rising sun, which, as had seldom been the case 
 for many weeks, was that morning ascending 
 beautifully into a fair and cloudless sky, before 
 I was aware that the sleeper had awoke, I was 
 startled by her commencing to sing, 
 
 " Jesus can make a dying bed 
 
 Feel soft as downy pillows are, 
 While on his breast I lean my head, 
 And breathe my life out sweetly there." 
 
 She did not sing this with as firm a voice as 
 she sung the day before. This was her last 
 song on earth. How exceedingly appropriate !
 
 68 BEIEF MEMOEIAL OP 
 
 The piece, of which this is the last verse, is also 
 in " Sacred Songs." 
 
 At worship this morning, she asked me to 
 read the fourteenth chapter of John's gospel, 
 " Let not your heart be troubled," etc. When 
 I had read to the end of the third verse she 
 interrupted the reading, saying, " There, that 's 
 enough ; now pray." This, I presume, was the 
 last scripture she read or heard read in this 
 life. Again, how appropriate ! That chapter 
 and the hundred and twenty-first and twenty- 
 third psalms were her favorite portions of the 
 Bible. She was accustomed to repeat or sing 
 them when she wished to turn her thoughts 
 upon religious subjects, but had neither the 
 Bible nor psalm-book at hand. Those psalms 
 must have become her favorites in her later 
 years, as it was the Scotch version she sung, 
 which she never had seen till I presented her 
 with a copy. Well I remember the calm trust- 
 ing tone with which, when something caused 
 fear or anxiety in our minds, she would repeat, 
 
 "I to the hills will lift mine eyes, 
 
 From whence doth come mine aid ; 
 My safety cometh from the Lord, 
 Who heaven and earth hath made."
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 69 
 
 That morning, both of the doctors having 
 called, at different times, she asked them 
 whether they thought she ought to attempt to 
 go aboard the ship. They both unhesitatingly 
 said, By all means go ; that presents the only 
 hope. Dr. Macrae told me alone not with 
 dry eyes that he feared I must give up all 
 hope of her living long ; but still, if she were 
 alive when the vessel sailed, by all means go 
 aboard. Just after he left, I received a note 
 from Captain Hickey, saying that our luggage 
 must be at the vessel by 4 p. M. that day, and 
 we ourselves might come the next morning. 
 No time was to be lost. By about 3 p. M., I 
 had sent off our luggage to the ship, when I 
 .was sent for to remove the invalid from the 
 sitting-room, into which we had carried her on 
 the couch three or four hours before, back into 
 her bedroom. I expressed surprise that she 
 should wish to be taken back at that time. 
 She said she "felt strangely." She had just 
 reached her room when the Rev. Mr. Pourie, 
 pastor of a Free Kirk congregation in Calcutta, 
 called. I had talked with him for a few min- 
 utes, when Mrs. Lish called me. I found the 
 poor sufferer becoming very restless, wishing
 
 70 BRIEF MEMORIAL OP 
 
 frequently to have her position changed. But 
 I did not really fear that she was then going, 
 although a thought of that had crossed my 
 mind at her expression that she " felt strange- 
 ly," until perhaps about half-past four p. M. 
 On my asking her if she felt happy, she replied, 
 "Yes, in mind." "Are you afraid?" "No," 
 with a shake of the head. " Is Jesus with 
 you ?" Not in a whisper, but in so loud and 
 cheerful a voice that every one in the room 
 was startled, she replied, " Yes, he is." Short- 
 ly after this, with an unusual effort, she turned 
 herself from her right to her left side, so that 
 she could extend her right hand, saying, "Now 
 I am going home ; ' Come, Lord Jesus, come 
 quickly.' " These were her last words. She 
 then held out her hand towards me, and liter- 
 ally shaking my hand, with an energy that 
 quite surprised me, she smiled, much as if we 
 were parting only for an afternoon. She then 
 held out her hand successively to each of our 
 friends in the room, each of whom took her 
 hand and kissed her. After this, for perhaps 
 two minutes, she continued looking up quite 
 beyond us, with such a smile and expression of 
 countenance as I never before saw. I felt sure
 
 MBS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 7} 
 
 she was seeing something very pleasant, and made 
 a move, involuntarily, to ask her what it was, 
 but was prevented by those around me. She 
 then with a slight knitting of the brow, as if in 
 momentary pain, closed her eyes, her face resum- 
 ed its former smile, and all was over. Thus about 
 5 P. M. she sunk to rest, or rather rose to glory. 
 
 The first words after this were whispered by 
 the nurse, who, I presume, had witnessed scores 
 of death-scenes : " What an easy death ; I never 
 saw the like of it." 
 
 With difficulty, with a bursting heart, I have 
 reached this point in the narration. You must 
 excuse me from adding much. I do not re- 
 member ever before having witnessed the death 
 of any one. I cannot describe to you my feel- 
 ings of that hour. But you may think, if you 
 choose, of a person suddenly coming to his sen- 
 ses, and finding himself sick, alone, and desti- 
 tute, in the midst of an unknown waste wilder- 
 ness. Oh the desolation! 
 
 Nextmorning, Dr. Duff conducting the last sad 
 religious services, her redeemed dust was laid in 
 the old Scotch burial-ground, there to repose till 
 the Lord himself shall come in his glory, when she 
 shall appear among those who "shall rise first."
 
 BRIEF MEMORIAL OF 
 
 I have caused the spot to be marked by a 
 neat marble slab, a drawing of which, together 
 with the engraving on the black marble tablet
 
 MRS. LIZZIE G. CALDERWOOD. 73 
 
 which is inserted in it, I herewith inclose. In 
 the same burial-ground rest the ashes of Dr. 
 Lowrie's first wife, and of two wives of Mr. 
 Morrison, one of our missionaries now at Rawal 
 Pindi. 
 
 " Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord 
 from henceforth ; yea, saith the Spirit, that they 
 may rest from their labors; and their works 
 do follow them." Let me live the life, that I 
 may "die the death of the righteous;" then I 
 also shall be prepared, with my last breath, to 
 say, 
 
 "NOW I 'M GOING HOME." 
 
 " I 'm going home prepare the bridal wreath 1 
 
 My Saviour bids my happy spirit come : 
 Damp not with tears the" Christian's bed of death ; 
 Rejoice, I 'm going home I 
 
 " The dove hath found her nest, the storm-tossed found 
 
 A place of rest beyond the dashing foam 
 Of grief's wild billows thither am I bound. 
 Joy, joy, I 'm going home I 
 
 " Earth's flowers all fade ; those fadeless roses blow: 
 
 Earth's sunniest light is shaded by the tomb ; 
 Earth's loves all slumber in the vault below. 
 Death dwells not in that home.
 
 74 BRIEF MEMORIAL, ETC. 
 
 "I see the city of the blest on high 
 
 With the freed spirit's ken. I come, I come ! 
 Ye calling voices, catch my heart's reply : 
 Home ! now I 'm going home." 
 
 RAGG. 
 
 Ever yours, most dutifully and affectionately, 
 W. CALDERWOOD.
 
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