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Reprinted 1902, 1007. 4415 CONTENTS HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS, 644222 PAGE II THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE i. The Vicar of Sandilands, .... 21 11. An Old Maid's Story, .... 39 in. Miss Patience Goes Home, 59 VI CONTENTS III THE TWO MOTHERS i. The Mistress of Kingsdene, ii. Naboth's Vineyard, hi. A Little Rift, .... iv. Penelope's Web, . v. Transformation, . PAGE 83 103 124 142 159 IV A WOMAN'S FAITH 1. A Stranger at the Hen and Chickens, 11. The Wild Man of the Woods, 179 195 V THE ORDEAL OF HANNAH MARKHAM 1. Nance Reed's Daughter, 215 11. A Dumb Devil, .... . . 231 in. How the Devil was Cast Out, . . . 249 CONTENTS vii VI THE TIN SHANTY PAGE i. A Red Tam-o'-Shanter, ... . 273 11. An Ugly Heroine, ...... 294 in. Jack's Victory, ....... 314 VII THE AFTERMATH, 337 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS As we journey on in life we are conscious of sudden strong sympathies which draw us almost irresistibly out of our narrow grooves and impel us in some contrary direction. Sometimes it is a book that appeals to us ; some glowing thought newly coined in a regal mint, which seems stamped ineffaceably on our memory ; some truth, like the Syrian arrow of old, drawn at a venture, which pierces through our armour ; or it may be the clear human eyes of some stranger, whom we meet on the edge of a crowd, and who speaks to us kindly in passing ; we travel on, and yet that brief encounter has made our life richer. Or, again, it may be some place that attracts us with irresistible force ; some little spot of earth which seems fairer to us than other places ; it has homely features that make us remember our childhood, a subtle fragrance of far-off days that seems to pervade and hallow it. This was how I 4 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS felt when I first saw Sandilands ; when the scent of the firs, and the warmth of the sunset, and the sweet chiming of the church-bells seemed to blend to- gether, as I sat at the window of the inn, a dusty, weary traveller, a little battered and jaded with a forty years' wandering in the wilderness of life. I had come to Sandilands for one night ; some one had mentioned it to me carelessly. ' It is a pretty village,' he had said, 'and there is a view that is worth seeing, and if you are fond of sketch- ing you might stay a few hours on your way from Brentwood ; my wife always says that Sandilands reminds her of the happy valley where Rasselas and his brothers lived.' One has not quite forgotten one's school-days at forty, and I still nourish a secret penchant for Dr. Johnson's old romance ; for I agree with Alphonso of Aragon, ' Old wood to burn, old wine to drink, old friends to trust, old authors to read.' I was in the mood to take advice, and so one June evening I found myself at Sandilands. I had come for one night ; I remained ten years ; until every house held a friend for me ; and when the children smiled back at me on their way to school, there was not one I had not held in my arms on the day of their baptism. ' The little lady up at Fir Cottage' was what they called me, but those who knew me best and had grown to love me were more apt to say ' the HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS 5 little Sister.' I think, if I remember rightly, the name originated with the Vicar. I had asked him to witness some paper and had just signed my name, Clare Merrick. ' Oh,' he said, looking at me blankly, ' Patience told me that your name was Catherine.' 'No, I belong to the poor Clares,' I returned. The little joke would have fallen flat with any one but the Vicar, but of course he knew all about St. Francis of Assisi, so his eyes only twinkled slightly as he took the pen. 'The little Sister would be sorely missed in Sandilands,' he said in the genial way that belonged to him, for though he spoke little his silence seemed to hold a perpetual benison. 'Even the poor Clares had their work cut out for them.' I had said it a little bitterly, but the Vicar's smile, and the kindly gleam in his grey eyes as he looked down at me seemed to heal up the old sore. Many a long year before a girl had strayed by mistake into an Eden not intended for her. Through a grievous mistake she had believed herself beloved, and it had seemed to her for a few short days as though the heavens were not too large to contain her bliss. She had so hungered and thirsted for love, she had known such lonely hours and so many disappointments, and when a voice said, ' Come up higher,' it 6 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS seemed to her as though the music of the spheres were sounding in her ears. And so — ah, poor Clare ! — this girl gazed in at the open door and saw the roses of Eden grow- ing ; roses red with passion and white with purity, and she stretched out her hand, the foolish child, but the cruel thorns only pierced her palm. ' Not for you — never for you ' — and then there was a laugh, and the gate clanged in her face, and the care- less footsteps passed on. Was it a mistake ? Had she only dreamed it ? Alas, there are some dreams so bitter that they haunt even our waking hours. This was how the little Sister strayed into Sandilands, a mere waif and stray of humanity, not rich in this world's goods, and yet not poor, with sufficient to keep herself and help others. The cottage where I lived was perched high above the village, and was owned by a young widow, at least every one in Sandilands said Bessie Martin was a widow, though she always refused to own herself one, and her children still prayed for their poor father at sea. She was a tall buxom young woman with a soft drawl in her voice that seemed to appeal to one's sympathy, and she had pleasant homely ways. I had fallen in love with her when I had first seen her in her grey sun-bonnet drawing water at the little well with her two blue-eyed boys beside her ; and as I walked up the steep HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS 7 zigzag path past the little garden plots, each with its clean-littered pigsty, and saw Fir Cottage with the honeysuckle festooning the rude wooden veranda, and the smooth little grassplot shut in with a thick laurel hedge, I felt I had reached a haven of refuge. It was so still and tranquil. A little lane led into the fir woods that covered the crest of the hill behind the cottage ; everywhere their soft blue-blackness seemed to close in the horizon. Standing by the laurel hedge one looked down over the roofs of other cottages at the tiny village green, the quiet inn, and the house adjoin- ing, and the beautiful church with its lichgate and grand background of firs ; a long road stretched dimly into the distance ; Kingsdene, the big house on the opposite hill, loomed in stately seclusion above the village ; everywhere steep white roads seemed to wind through the fir woods ; the inn closed the view, but beyond, as I knew well, lay the valley with its pleasant homesteads. From Fir Cottage the Vicarage was not visible ; it stood a little lower down the road, a grey roomy house with a comfortable bay-windowed drawing-room opening on to a tennis-lawn. That was the best of Sandilands ; it had its reserves and surprises, you could not see it all at once. That long road, for example, that led past the white gates of Kingsdene, would take you to 8 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS the principal shop, Crampton's Stores, as they called it, and the big well, and the ' Silverdale Tavern,' and so on, to the Post Office and Audley End, with its score of trim cottages, each standing pleasantly in its own garden ground. I remember one afternoon an old friend, one of the few I possess, came to spend a long summer's day with me in my sylvan retreat. In youth one's heart is a little callous and elastic. Friends are plentiful, if lovers are scarce, and grow on every bush ; but as one grows old, how one yearns for the faces that smiled on us when we were young ! for those comrades who stood by us when the fight opened, before we had grown jaded and weary and dazed with the din and the rush of life ! Is it not Longfellow who says, ' How good it is, the hand of an old friend'? — so it was always a red-letter day when Florence Mortimer could spare a few hours from her hospital work to run down to Sandilands. It was on a September day when she paid her first visit, and I was glad and proud to see how much she was struck with the place. She was by no means an enthusiastic person, she had seen too much of the grim realities of life to keep the fresh- ness of her youthful illusions ; nevertheless for the first half-hour her conversation was quite staccato with enthusiasm. HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS 9 Now it was the warm resinous breath of the firs that charmed her, or the sweetness of the honeysuckle porch. ' No wonder you wrote such charming descrip- tions, Clare. I had no idea Surrey was so lovely. Sandilands — I never heard of the place before ; how many inhabitants do you say there are ? Six or seven hundred ? Dear me, I cannot see more than seven or eight houses. Talk of a lodge in a garden of cucumbers — there seems nothing but a church, an inn, and fir woods. To be sure, there is that big house opposite — it looks quite a mansion : a palatial residence, that is what they would call it in the papers.' Then again, ' I like those steep white roads winding through the dark woods, they must look like silver ladders in the moonlight. But they are hard to climb ; look how slowly that old man with his bundle of brushwood seems to be creep- ing on like an overladen ant ! ' 'That is my favourite walk, Flo ; it leads to that wonderful view, Sandy Point, of which I told you.' 1 Oh, to be sure ! I remember your description ; you have the pen of a ready writer. No ! don't thank me for the compliment, it was Sister Acci- dent who said that. But, Clare, you did not say half enough about the beauty of your church ; who would expect to see anything so grand in a village? It looks like a great white ark, set io HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS against all that blackness, and there is the dove, only minus the olive branch, flying out of the porch.' But it was only one of the fantail pigeons from the Inn. Mrs. Martin brought out the little tea-table presently, and as we sat in our big beehive chairs under the shade of a sycamore I would not have exchanged my summer parlour for the grandest apartments in Windsor Castle, and I am sure Florence agreed with me. She grew a little thoughtful presently, as though the shadow of some memory had crossed the sunlight — these cross lights, these sudden alternations of shadows and sunshine are so common in life. ' I am so glad you have found this little haven of rest,' she said at last, rather wistfully ; ' it just suits you somehow ; of course you have not been here long enough to make many friends, but I know your social proclivities. Before long you will be acquainted with every one in Sandilands.' And Florence was right. But her next speech made me smile a little. 'Do you think people are quite so unhappy in the country? Oh, of course, there is always sickness and death and bad times, but,' in rather a pathetic tone, 'it must be easier for people to be good — there must be fewer temptations.' 'Perhaps so,' I returned; 'but human nature is often its own tempter. When I have lived here a HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS n little longer I daresay I shall be able to answer your question better ; for I shall know more about my neighbours' troubles. No doubt Sandilands has its saints and its sinners, its comedies and its tragedies ; but it has one advantage, there is room to breathe, and there is no hoarse, jarring sound of traffic to deaden the birds' music. Now if we are to walk to Sandy Point it is time for us to start.' And this closed the conversation. Fir Cottage had been built by Bessie Martin's father, and the old couple had lived in it until their death. When Will Martin started on his last disastrous voyage Bessie and her two boys came back to live in the old home. Little Ben was only an infant then, and David a sturdy, rosy-cheeked urchin of three. Her father had had his first paralytic seizure, and her mother was growing old and feeble, and needed a daughter's care. Bessie's hands were full in those days, but she was strong and willing, and no work came amiss to her. 'Our Bessie has been a blessing to us from the hour I brought her into the world,' her mother would say, 'and I shall tell Will so when I meet him up yonder.' But Bessie always shook her head and turned away in silence when her mother made these speeches. 'Mother and dad always would have it that Will was dead,' she said once to me, 'but I shall i2 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS never bring myself to believe it. I am lonesome enough without that, and one of these days, please God, Will will come back to me. Often and often my Davie has said to me when he has seen me a bit down and out of heart, " Don't be unhappy, mammie. I am going to pray hard to-night that dad may come home to-morrow," and then he would shut his eves so tiedit, and I could see him gripping his little hands together, "and please, dear Lord," he would say, "do let dad come back to us quick, for poor mammie is fretting so, and Benjy and me can't comfort her nohow." Times upon times I have heard him say that, the darling.' Bessie Martin was rather reserved by nature, and it was not easy for her to give her confidence. She came of a good old north-country stock, and now and then she would use some phrase that she had certainly not learnt in Surrey. ' Ay, we must bide the bitterment' — that was a favourite expression with her ; and now and then, ' Hurry means worry, we must just summer and winter it and keep quiet.' I heard most of Bessie's sad history from old Mrs. Martin, down at the long white cottage at the bottom of our path. She was a good old soul, a little garrulous at times, but wonderfully kind-hearted, and she was never weary of singing Bessie's praises. HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS 13 1 She was a good daughter, a better never lived,' she would say. 'When Will Martin first came down here courting, I remember she would promise him nothing till the old people had given their blessing ; and yet Will was as fine- looking a young fellow as you would see on a summer's day, and he had the light heart of the sailor. Bessie was a sonsie lass too — not to say handsome — but buxom and well set up ; and then she had a way with her; you felt you could trust her through thick and thin. Not that she was ever much of a talker ; it was Will who had the soft wily tongue, but then they suited each other down to the ground, and he was just foolish about her. Poor dear fellow, he was a sort of cousin of mine, that 's how he first came to Sandilands. But maybe I am wearying you ' — but I hastened to assure her to the contrary, and that nothing interested me like stories in real life, and then she went on contentedly. ' Will's mother was alive then. She was a sickly sort of body and very peevish, but being a widow-woman, nothing would satisfy Will but they must make their home with her. Bessie never liked London, and she found her mother-in- law uncommonly trying. But she did her duty by her, and I have heard Will say that she died with her hand in Bessie's. 'Ben was only three months old then. It was i 4 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS just before Will got his berth on the ArethuscL Bessie was a little low and weak just then, from her long nursing, and it was Will who proposed that she should take the two boys with her to Sandilands. '" I shall know where to find you," he said that last morning. " I took my sweetheart from Fir Cottage, and it is there I will look for my wife and chicks when I come back." Poor Will ! Those were his very words, and before six weeks were over the Arctluisa had struck against a reef and sunk with every soul on board.' And then she told the few particulars that were gleaned of the ill-fated vessel. ' But Bessie will not believe that her husband is dead,' I observed, when Mrs. Martin had stopped to take her breath. 'No, she is a bit perverse on that point. I have heard her mother argue with her until Bessie would fling her apron over her head and have a good cry. But for all that she would never own her mother was right. " If Will were dead I should feel it, somehow," she has said to me more than once, for being Will's cousin we were always the best of friends. "Do you suppose, Martha, that my Will would be lying face downwards at the bottom of the ocean, and 1 should not know it in my heart? In my dreams he is just his old living self; sometimes I can HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS 15 hear his voice quite plainly. But what is the use of talking ? — one must just bide the bitter- ment," and then she would sigh a little heavily and go back to the cottage.' How strange it was in the face of all that evidence that Bessie Martin should still maintain her husband was alive ! I had heard about the Arethusa; she had struck against an unsuspected coral reef, but to the best of my knowledge there had been no survivors to tell the tale. By an odd coincidence Mrs. Martin's words were corroborated that very evening. I had gone into the kitchen to give some order and as usual found Bessie sitting at the open door knitting, with David learning his lessons beside her. Ben was in his cot fast asleep. It was Bessie's rest-hour ; all day long from earliest daybreak she had been busily engaged in house and garden. More than once I had noticed that the blue and grey socks she was knitting were too large for David. ' Are you making those for a friend ? ' I asked a little curiously, but to my surprise a sudden blush crossed her face. ' Yes, Miss Merrick, they are for a friend surely — for my best friend I might say, for they are for Will. That is his chest,' pointing to a handsome Spanish mahogany chest of drawers that I had often admired. 'Will will find all his things 1 6 HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS ready for him'; and then with a sudden impulse she rose and opened one drawer after another and showed me the neat piles of flannel shirts, knitted socks, and daintily stitched cuffs. All these five years, while people called her a widow, she had spent her rest-hours in working for the husband she believed to be alive. I think the tears in my eyes touched her ; she was not used to this sort of silent sympathy, for she said slowly in that soft drawl of hers, ' The neighbours think I am just doited, though no one, not even Martha, has seen what I have shown you just now ; — but it keeps me happy and prevents me from brooding. Oh, I have my bad times,' she continued in a low voice, so that David could not hear her, 'when I am just moithered to know what my poor lad is doing, for he is wander- ing over the face of the earth somewhere. Some- times I fear he is shut up in some place from which he cannot get out. It was through David reading Robinson Crusoe that I got that into my head, but it is my favourite book, too. Some- times at night I wake up all in a shiver, and think how lonesome Will must find it on some desert island with nothing but wild creatures round him, and how he must sicken for a sight of me and the children. But then, when trouble comes we just must bear it, and as long as I feel that the same world holds us both i HOW I CAME TO SANDILANDS 17 have no cause to despair'; but as she turned away there was a sad yearning look in her grey eyes that told of many an hour of heart-break. 1 Are there any limits to a woman's love and faith ? ' I thought, as I went back to my room ; but there was a sudden weight at my heart as I sat alone by the fireside. The tragedies of life are sometimes less sad than its comedies, and in my secret soul that night I envied Bessie Martin. She had not asked for bread and received a stone, and her youth had not been nourished on empty husks ; love had crowned her with its highest honours : the sacred privileges of wife and mother had been bestowed upon her, and what widowhood could deprive her of the happy past ! 'As long as I feel that the same world holds us both I have no cause to despair,' she had said, but I would have added more than that. For when one's beloved has entered one of the many mansions, it is as though familiar hands were making a new home ready for us, and when our call comes, surely the face we most loved will welcome us upon the threshold ! B II THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS WHEN the Rev. Evelyn Wentworth first came to Sandilands the new church was being built, and services were held in the little Iron room behind the schools. The Vicar took a great deal of interest in the work : every morning he would leave his beloved books and stand for an hour at a time watching the bricklayers and the stone-masons, and later on the decorators, with such a fixed and absorbed attention that Job Longman, who was a bit of a wag, suggested to Silas Stubbs that the parson must be thinking of changing his trade ; but after a time they got used to his silent presence among them, and would go on chattering and whistling over their work as though he were .not there. The Vicar of Sandilands was a grand-looking man of about forty. In his youth he must have been extremely handsome : his features were finely cut, and there was an aristocratic air about him ; and he carried his head nobly ; but it could 21 22 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE not be denied that for the first year or two the younger and poorer members of his flock were greatly in awe of him. ' How are folks to pass the time of day and grumble comfortably at the weather when the Vicar is holding his head high and saying, " Ah, just so, my good friend," in that aggravating way of his?' and Susan Stukeley gave a vicious dab at her youngest boy's cap as she spoke : ' Where are your manners, you good-for-nought ? don't you see the lady is sitting in father's chair? But there, dear heart, we can't all be blessed with a taking manner ; and if the Vicar is high Miss Patience has a deal of affability, though to be sure, poor soul, she is as deaf as a post' Perhaps the Vicar was a little too stately and silent to suit the tastes of the simple flock to whom he was called to minister, but they grew to understand him better in time ; and though per- haps it might be true that he kept his eloquence for the pulpit and for those talks by the study fire, when his friend Cornish came down to the Vicarage, yet there never was a time when he refused to smile at a little child, or that the veriest cur on the village green would not try to lick his hand, and children and dogs know when a person is to be trusted. People marvelled at first that a man like Mr. Wcntworth should be content to bury himself in THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 2 j a quiet Surrey village ; and there was a great deal of idle gossip and conjecture, especially among the women-folk. Mr. Wentworth was such a striking-looking man, they would say ; it was so strange that he had never married ; he had private means too, for there was actually a man-servant at the Vicar- age : a dark, quiet man, almost as reserved as his master, who had been his scout at Oxford ; and then Miss Patience always sat down to dinner every night in a silk or satin gown. , Miss Batesby, who lived in a small house at the end of the valley and who knew everything about her neighbours, had soon found out all that there was to know about the new Vicar, and had retailed her choice modicums of knowledge in strict confidence to at least half a dozen inti- mate friends. Mr. Wentworth was a fellow of Magdalen, and still retained his rooms, overlooking the deer park and Addison's Walk ; he was a great book- worm and was engaged in writing some Ecclesi- astical History ; that very odd-looking man who came down so often to the Vicarage was a famous Greek scholar and held some professorship ; he was a fellow of Oriel ; they had been at Eton together, and had rowed in the same boat. No one knew how Miss Batesby gleaned all her information, but as her conversation consisted 24 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE mainly of questions, people who disliked a per- petual catechism would try to rid themselves of this form of torment by telling her all they knew and sometimes a little more. Now and then her facts were sometimes garbled and distorted, but in the main she generally kept pretty closely to the truth ; as when she stated that Miss Patience was ten years older than her brother and had only kept his house since they came to Sandilands. It was true the Vicar's celibacy baffled her, but after a time she hinted darkly that though he had never married he had certainly been engaged, and that the lady had jilted him, 'and they do say,' continued Miss Batesby in that stagey whisper that she affected, ' that it was the dis- appointment that drove him to his books — at one time there was a talk of his going to a big Liverpool parish. Oh, you need not look sur- prised, it was Mr. Saunders who told me that the living was offered him and he had accepted it, and then all at once he changed his mind and went abroad. I think he was ill or out of health, for Miss Patience spent one winter with him at Cairo, and then when they returned he settled to come to Sandilands ; because it was quiet and retired, and he could do his work ; and then Miss Patience gave up her house — she had a pretty house in Kensington — and came here with him.' THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 25 There could be no doubt that Miss Patience ruled well and wisely over her brother's household, and that as far as creature-comforts were concerned Mr. Wentworth lacked nothing that womanly tenderness or thought could devise. Nothing was ever out of order at the Vicarage ; the meals were always cooked to perfection. Barry, the ci-devant scout, who acted as butler and valet and confidential servant, was never remiss in his duties, and not only the tennis-lawn was rolled every day, but even the shrubbery-walks were kept free from dead leaves ; everything in house and garden bearing the same stamp of Miss Patience's exquisite sense of order. Even the Vicar's study, that sanctum sanctorum, was not free from her supervision and delicate manipulation ; no other hand being permitted to dust and rearrange the piles of MSS. on the writing-table, or to restore the books heaped in wild confusion round his chair to their rightful position on the shelves. 'You are a privileged person, Miss Wentworth,' Mr. Cornish would say as he saw her busy with her feather dusting-brush; 'Wentworth must have developed uncommon amiableness of late years, or you have learnt how to manage him. Now it is more than my scout's life is worth to touch a thing on my table.' But Miss Patience, who had only heard half this sentence, shook her 26 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE head with her soft shy smile and went on with her labour of love. There was no need for her to learn to manage him, who had been his little mother since her own dying mother had confided him to her care ; she had only been thirteen then, and Evelyn a fine sturdy boy of three, but never could Patience Wentworth forget that sudden rush of maternal tenderness that filled her girlish bosom as she received that sacred charge. 'Take care of dear little Evelyn, if you love me, Patience ; be a mother to him in my place.' How plainly she could hear the weak pleading tones, and how she had answered in a voice half- choked with sobs — ' Do not be afraid, mammie darling, I will never leave him or father either.' And as long as they needed her Patience kept her word. ' If Evelyn does not marry I shall take care of his house for him,' she would say, after her father's death. 'I am only waiting until he makes up his mind what to do,' and so, when the living of Sandilands came to him, she quietly gave up her pretty house and went down with him to the Vicarage. ' It beats me how Mr. Wentworth can put up with a companion like Miss Patience,' Miss Batesby would say sometimes ; 'a week of such evenings would drive me wild. She was always THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 27 a little deaf, even when she was young ; they say it was the result of scarlet-fever, but now she hears hardly anything unless people scream at her. The Todhunters were dining at the Vicarage last evening,' she continued, 'you know they are always asked when Mr. Cornish is staying there, and Mrs. Todhunter was only saying how sad it was. No one said half a dozen words to Miss Patience at dinner, only the Vicar, and Mr. Cornish gave her a nod now and then ; but she looked as contented and serene as possible, and just talked herself in her quiet, subdued voice, saying pleasant little things to first one and then the other, as though to assure them that she did not feel a bit left out in the cold ; and all the time Mrs. Todhunter said she was looking like a picture in her grey satin and little cap of old point lace.' Perhaps it was owing to her increasing deafness and her delicate state of health, but certainly Miss Patience looked older than she really was, and long before she was fifty she had grown into old-fashioned elderly ways. Though her hair was soft and abundant, and only faintly streaked with grey, nothing would induce Miss Patience to discard her caps ; her gowns too, although they were always rich in materials, were certainly not cut in the prevailing fashion. There was an oid-world touch about 28 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE her, something that reminded one of the rose pourri in the big jars that stood on either side of the fireplace in her drawing-room, a far-off fra- grance of a girlhood that had grown old and that yet was eternally young ; of a life that had been lived for others, and that had never known the ordinary vicissitudes of a woman's experience, and which had left her at fifty-three a simple maidenly gentlewoman. 'Patience is the oldest and the youngest woman I know,' her brother said once ; ' in knowledge of the world she is a perfect infant. I have heard her say the most outrageous things in perfectly good faith ; she has made my hair rise on more than one occasion, and yet I have never known her to be fooled by the most wily of scamps ; it must be instinct. What is it, Cornish ? for as far as knowledge of evil is concerned, she is a divinely inspired idiot.' Mr. Cornish only shrugged his shoulders — he was filling his favourite old meerschaum with some choice tobacco, which always was put ready for him in a special corner by Miss Patience's own hand. It was a delicate and engrossing occupation, and an assenting grunt was all he could vouchsafe in answer to his friend's remark, but Mr. Wentworth seemed quite satisfied. The study was certainly the best apartment in the Vicarage. It was a large, well-proportioned THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 29 room, with a wide bay-window ; and in winter or summer no shutters or blinds were ever allowed to shut out the night landscape. To Miss Patience the outside darkness was a dreary and forlorn prospect that gave her an inward shudder every time she crossed the thres- hold ; in her opinion it would have been better to have drawn the warm-toned crimson curtains, but Mr. Wentworth insisted on having his own way. ' You may coddle yourself as much as you like in the drawing-room,' he would say; 'but I like the feeling that I have plenty of space and air' ; and on moonlight nights he would pace the room, now and then pausing to enjoy the wonderful contrast — the silvery track that lay across the tennis-lawn, and the weird blackness of the skele- ton firs, stretching their bare leafless branches ; each grim form standing out clear and distinct in the soft white light. All the available wall space, with the exception of the fireplace and window, was filled from ceiling to floor with book-shelves. Many of the books were valuable — rare old edi- tions that he had collected from time to time — and more than once Mr. Cornish had been heard to say that he never felt more tempted to break the Tenth Commandment than when he entered Wentworth's study. A knee-hole writing-table and some remarkably comfortable easy-chairs 3 o THE IDYLLS OF A VICAR ACE comprised the rest of the furniture. On the carved over-mantel stood an exquisite Parian bust of Clyde, and some silver cups, evidently relics of school-days. Douglas Cornish was a complete contrast to his friend ; he was two or three years older than the Vicar, but most people would have thought that there was a greater difference of age between them. He was a tall man, and years of study had given him a slight stoop, but at times when he was animated and interested he would straighten himself and lift up his head, and one would note with surprise that he was as well-proportioned as the Vicar. His hair had grown thin about the temples, and this gave the impression of baldness ; and he had a curious habit of partially closing his eyes as he talked and then opening them at unexpected moments. Mr. Wentworth used to call it ' spring- ing the mine,' and sometimes it had a startling effect on people, for the dark eyes were as keen and steady as a hawk's, and yet with a benignant gleam in them. The friendship between the two men had dated from early boyhood ; they had lived with the same dame at Eton, and had fagged for the same red-haired heir to ducal honours. At Oxford their rooms had been on the same THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 31 staircase, and they had rowed in the eights to- gether ; and when one became fellow of Magdalen and the other fellow of Oriel and a college tutor their sympathy and similarity of tastes seemed to increase, and though, with the mauvaise honte of Englishmen neither would have owned the fact, each had grown indispensable to the other. When the Vicar had secured some fine old first edition that he had long coveted he always telegraphed his success to Oriel, and as often as not the return telegram would be, 'Delighted, expect me by usual train to-morrow to dine and sleep.' ' I knew that would fetch him,' the Vicar would say to himself, rubbing his hands with glee ; ' now we shall have a glorious night of it'; and then Barry would be summoned and told that the blue room was to be got ready for Mr. Cornish, and there would be a long and patient debate with his sister over the menu. No one in Sandilands would have recognised their silent and stately Vicar if they could have listened to him as he and his friend talked on the subjects so dear to both. Now it was some difficulty that he had en- countered in his work ; some conflicting statements that he needed to be sifted and verified ; and in which his friend could give him valuable help ; at other times it was he who listened with interest 32 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE while Cornish descanted on Greek tragedies or on the success of some favourite pupil, politics, social economy, Greek hexameters, ethics, German philosophy and myths — nothing came amiss to them. At times they would have rare arguments, in which they would grow hot and pugnacious, and neither would yield by a hair's-breadth ; at such moments the Vicar seemed to grow taller as he paced to and fro on the study floor, but Douglas Cornish never laid down his meerschaum, and his eyes would be nearly closed as he uttered some brief trenchant sentence that seemed, like the sword of Hercules, ready to cut the knot. ' You are wrong, Wentworth — you have for- gotten we have the clear testimony of Paulinus ' ; and then the blue gleam of his hawk's eyes would flash at his opponent and he would walk to the bookcase and take down the book and show him the passage he needed ; at such times the victory was generally with Cornish. But it was not always that they argued on deep and abstruse subjects ; sometimes Barry, polishing his silver and glass in his little pantry close by, would hear a clear boyish laugh suddenly ring out across the passage : they were in the playing-fields again, or in the procession of boats on the glorious fourth of June ; the eternal boy- hood which lingers in every manly breast had waked to sudden life. THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 33 Or they were indulging in reminiscences of their youth, delightful and memorable events of their undergraduate days — that never-to-be-for- gotten hour when Oxford won the boat race ; that day of days when they had pulled together up the long course from Putney Bridge to Mort- lake, while the frantic crowd cheered them from the towing-path ; and the steamers in their wake churned the placid river into troubled waves ; and the grey towers of old Fulham Church stood out grandly in the March sunlight ; the days before the new stone bridge was built, when the old toll-house was still in existence, and the old- fashioned inn by the river was painted blue in honour of both Universities. Sometimes Miss Patience, passing down the passage carrying her silver candlestick, would stop outside the study door as the sound would reach even her dim ears, and a faint roseleaf flush would come to her pale cheeks. ' That was Evelyn laughing,' she would say to herself, 'but I am sure Mr. Cornish was laughing too — how happy they seem ! ' and then a wist- ful smile would come to her lips, and there would be a look in the soft eyes that spoke of some secret sadness. Chief, the Vicar's handsome collie, always lay stretched out upon the rug before the fire, with his nose upon his paws and his bright eyes fixed C 34 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE on his master ; only if he laughed a little too hilariously to suit the dog's fastidious instinct, Chief would rise and stalk slowly to the window and stand on his hind legs looking out on the darkness. ' Chief is ashamed of his master ; look at his contemptuous attitude, Cornish — is it not a perfect study of canine grace? Come back, old fellow, don't be sulky, and I will promise not to do it any more ' ; and then the Vicar would take the glossy head between his knees and look down into the loving deep eyes of his favourite. ' Chief, you are right, and we are old fools, but it was something to have lived such days ; we drank a good draught of the pure elixir, and we drank it deep, though we little thought then it had to last us our life'; and then the Vicar sighed and relapsed into silence. Perhaps it was transmission of thought, or some sudden beat of the wave-sympathy between him and his sister, for Miss Patience's little velvet slippers had only just pattered along the passage when the Vicar said a little abruptly, ' Cornish, I saw you were observing my sister rather narrowly at dinner ; do you think that she is looking as well as usual ? ' Mr. Wentworth spoke in a hesitating manner, and there was a distinct note of anxiety in his voice. 'What makes you ask me that?' returned his THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 35 friend with equal abruptness, and any one who knew the man would have seen that he was desirous to fence with the question. 1 Well, it was Miss Batesby who put it in my head,' replied the Vicar slowly. ' She stayed behind at the district meeting with her usual list of grievances, and then she said that several people had remarked to her on my sister's fragile appearance, and that she feared that she was losing strength perceptibly.' ' Humph ! the aggrieved parishioner, Miss Batesby ; that is the plump little woman with prominent eyes, who is generally loafing round the vestry door after week-day services, and who has a finger in every pie in Sandilands ; don't heed her, Wentworth — when I want reliable infor- mation I should certainly not apply to Miss Batesby.' ' Oh, she is not a bad little person,' returned the Vicar quickly ; ' she is good-natured and kind- hearted, and Patience is her prime favourite ; but Cornish, you have not answered my ques- tion.' ' Miss Wentworth is certainly a little thinner,' replied the other, ' but I see no other difference. I was marvelling at her cheerfulness and placidity at dinner ; she could hear nothing of our conver- sation, but there was no trace of irritation or im- patience in her manner. By the by, Wentworth, 36 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE I have been meaning to tell you something all the evening, but I have found no opportunity. I saw Miss Brett yesterday.' The Vicar had been pacing the room after his usual fashion while he talked ; ' his evening prowls,' as he called them, had already worn the carpet almost threadbare. He had reached the window as his friend completed his sentence, and for a few seconds his attitude was almost statu- esque in its rigidity, then he wheeled slowly round and came towards the fire. ' All right, go on, old fellow, I am listening ' ; and he dropped into his easy chair as though he had grown suddenly weary. There was a quick, comprehensive flasn, and then Mr. Cornish's half-closed eyes were directed to the blazing pine-log. ' I was at the Metropolitan Station at Baker Street early in the afternoon ; my word, Went- worth, I think Charon's boat would be preferable to and decidedly more sanitary than those infernal tunnels, pregnant with sulphurous odours — but I will spare you a regular British tirade. Just before the train came in, I saw a tall woman in a peculiar garb, that I seemed to recognise, come swiftly towards me ; you know her grand walk, and the way she holds her head ' — here there was a slight, almost imperceptible contraction of the Vicar's brow. ' Why, in the name of all that is THE VICAR OF SANDILANDS 37 mysterious, does she wear that ridiculous dress ? She is neither deaconess nor sister, and yet her long grey cloak and poke-bonnet savour of both. I suppose even a good, highminded woman like Miss Brett has her pet vanities ? ' 1 There is no vanity about it,' returned the Vicar, a little impatiently ; ' she told me herself that a distinctive dress would be better for her work, and that she could not well carry out her scheme without it. All the other ladies wear it — the poor people call them the " good ladies " — though I believe she is Sister Marion among them. Well, go on, Cornish. I suppose she recognised you ? ' ' Oh dear, yes, she had her hand stretched out before she reached me. She wears well, Went- worth ; I think she is handsomer than ever, in spite of the poke-bonnet, but she looked a little tired too.' * No doubt, she works hard enough for half a dozen women.' ' She asked after your sister at once, and then she mentioned you. "Is he well — quite well — and does he like Sandilands?" But before I could half answer her the train came up. I left her still standing on the platform; some miserable- looking child who had lost her way, or her ticket, was crying and appealing to her, and she had already forgotten my existence. Now my pipe 38 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE and story are finished, shall we shut up and go to bed?' and here Douglas Cornish straightened himself with a portentous yawn. When the Vicar had his study to himself, he drew his chair closer to the fire, as though he had grown suddenly cold. '"Is he quite well? And does he like Sandi- lands?'" he muttered to himself; and then again, as though he were following out some line of thought — 'the child would be all right if she appealed to her. Marion's heart is big enough to hold the whole world — except one — except the one who most needs her.' II AN OLD MAID'S STORY In spite of the supreme interest that centres round each individual existence, and which makes a good biography one of the most fascinating of studies, it cannot be denied that the events of many women's lives might be summed up in half a dozen sentences. Sometimes it would seem as though some women are for ever fingering a per- petual prelude ; and that the real symphony, with its wondrous harmonies and long-drawn-out sweetness, its subtle chords and melodies, is not played out here. Some baffling spirit, though without the flaming sword, bars their way to the paradise they are for ever seeking. No one writes of these dim but heroic lives that are often endured with such patience ; and little do these humble souls dream 'their daily life an angel's theme,' and yet per- chance on heavenly pages such life-stories may be traced in letters of gold. ' Nothing ever happens to me,' Patience 4 o THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE Wentworth would say when she was young; but she spoke in no complaining spirit. People who live in the lives of others have seldom time for their own grievances. It was not until youth had passed, and the freshness of her bloom had faded, that Patience had leisure to think about herself. To be a little mother at thirteen, and to tend and wait upon an ailing father, was enough to tax any young girl's strength and energies ; but Patience never complained that her burdens were too heavy for her; and though more than one well-meaning friend hinted to Mr. Wentworth that his young daughter was over-exerting herself, and that it was clearly impossible for her to act as mistress of his house and carry on her own studies, Patience soon convinced him to the contrary. ' I am as strong as a horse,' she would say laughingly ; ' don't listen to them, father dear ; my lessons are just play to me,' and then she would trip away with a smile on her face, leaving him quite satisfied. Evelyn was only seven years old when their father died. Me was a bright, winning boy, and Patience idolised him. She nearly broke her heart when he first went to school ; and when scarlet fever attacked him during one vacation, she persisted, contrary to all advice, in helping to nurse him. AN OLD MAID'S STORY 41 Evelyn very soon recovered, but his sister, who had also sickened, lay for a long time at death's door. People who knew her well said she was never quite the same afterwards, and that her constitution was undermined by the fever ; it was then that a slight deafness was first noticed, which increased later on. Patience bore her trouble very quietly, and said little about it, but it quenched her brightness, and long before she was thirty she had the precise, mature habits of middle age. Girls very little younger than herself would laugh at her for her old-maidish ways, and yet they loved her too. ' Patience Wentworth is an old dear/ they would say, ' but she is terribly antiquated in her notions ; there is almost a Puritan cut about her; one must be up to date nowadays, if one is to be in the swim at all ; of course, it is her deafness : she is so heavily handi- capped, poor soul,' and then they would shake their heads in melancholy fashion. It was long before Patience lost all nope. She consulted one aurist after another, and tried all their remedies. It was on the nerves, one of them said, and for a longtime Patience believed him; she certainly heard better at times. When she was tired or had any mental strain on her, her hearing grew worse ! Certain voices, too, reached her more easily than others, and there was one voice that 42 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE almost to the last could make itself under- stood. Patience never could remember when it was she first looked upon Douglas Cornish as her special friend. In Evelyn's school-days he had not interested her. She had thought him gauche and abrupt, and secretly marvelled at her brother's infatuation. It was not until their undergraduate days that she began to form a favourable opinion of him, or to realise the seductive power of a strong man's sympathy. One summer, one never-to-be-forgotten summer, Evelyn had coaxed his aunt, Mrs. Baldwin Wentworth, to bring down Patience for two or three weeks to Oxford. She was a good- natured woman, and after her husband's death she had spent the greater part of her time with her niece, but her second marriage, a few years later, deprived Patience of her chaperonage. Evelyn had taken pleasant lodgings for them near Magdalen, and Patience, who was always perfectly happy in her brother's society, enjoyed a few weeks of utter bliss. Oxford was always a delight to her. She loved wandering through the college gardens, past the grey old quadrangles ; the lawns of St. John's, the lime Walk at Trinity, the lake and swans at Worcester, and the deer park and AN OLD MAID'S STORY 43 Addison's Walk at Magdalen, were all dear to her. Evelyn would bring his friends to afternoon tea. Douglas Cornish was always one of them ; the two young men were inseparable, and one boy wag had christened them Damon and Pythias. 'They run in pair, don't you know. I give you my word, Miss Wentworth, if I see Cornish mooning down the High without your brother, I think something must be wrong. They are such chums, you see.' But, as the youth rattled on, Patience only smiled, and there was a tired look in her gentle eyes ; she scarcely heard anything of the lively talk that circled round her little tea-table. Now and then, when Evelyn and his friend came to fetch them for a stroll through the colleges or down by the river, she would find her- self walking with Douglas Cornish. One after- noon they had punted to Iffiey Lock, and were sitting on the bank together for a rest, while Evelyn and his aunt had strolled on farther. Cornish had addressed some question to her ; perhaps he had spoken in a lower tone than usual, but for the first time she had failed to hear him, and there was a distressed flush on her face as she turned to him. ' I beg your pardon. You must find me a very stupid companion, but you know — Evelyn will have told you — that I do not hear so well.' 44 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE 'Yes, Evelyn told me. Why don't you go to Dunlop? They say he works miracles ; he is the man of the day. If I were in your place, Miss Wentworth, I should try him.' Cornish spoke a little too loudly in his earnestness, and she winced slightly. 'I am afraid it will be useless,' she returned in her subdued voice. Alas, poor Patience, it was growing more toneless year by year as the sweet timbre died out of it. 'But I will go — yes, why not? Certainly I will go.' ' It will be wise of you, and I know your brother wishes it,' was all Douglas Cornish said in answer; but as she looked at him in her pathetic, anxious way, not wishing to lose a word, there was a sudden softening in his keen eyes, a gleam of some strong sympathy that went straight to her heart. ' He is very kind and he is sorry for me,' she said to herself, as he left her side and strolled off to meet the others, who were now returning. ' I never knew any one so kind before,' and it seemed to her that day as though some stray sunbeam had fallen across her path. Do people ever realise the power of sympathy? It is a lever that might move mountains ; the comfort of that kind look and word made Patience happier for weeks. She was only one or two and thirty then, and AN OLD MAID'S STORY 45 Doucrlas Cornish was not much over four-and- twenty ; but he was singularly mature for his age, and Patience always treated him as though he were her contemporary. Evelyn was still her boy, to be mothered and petted and advised, but she stood in awe of his friend. Evelyn would laugh at her sometimes. ' Why, Patsie,' he would say — his pet name for her — 'you talk of Cornish as though he were a Don at least, and a dozen years my senior, but he is only three years older.' ' Ah, I always forget that,' she would say, with her shy flush. ' He is so grave and clever, Evvy, that one cannot remember that he is only a young man,' and then Evelyn would throw back his head and laugh again in his boyish fashion at old Patsie's droll speech. If Patience had had more knowledge of the world, she might have become sooner aware of her own danger ; but she had no mother to warn her, and in that strangely silent world of hers she seemed to move apart ; the ordinary pleasures of young womanhood had never been hers : ball- rooms were unknown to her, and concerts and musical parties could give her little satisfaction. ' It is no use, auntie,' she would say to Mrs. Wentworth, during the years that lively widow presided over her niece's household. ' I 'm not fit for society, and I had far better stay at home,' and after one or two attempts to make Patience 46 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE change her mind, Mrs. Wentworth wisely let her go her own way. ' It is a grievous pity,' she would say sometimes to Evelyn. ' Patience is really very good-looking, and when she is dressed properly she is quite pretty ; if that horrid deafness did not make her so shy and nervous, I am sure people would admire her. These up-to-date girls are terribly fatiguing, and many a sensible man would prefer a gentle, old-fashioned girl like Patience.' 'Aunt Hilda, you are a born match-maker,' Evelyn would return, with his fresh boyish laugh, ' but you may as well leave Patsie out of your reckoning ; she never means to marry, I can tell you that ; besides, I could not spare her.' But Mrs. Wentworth only shook her head incredulously. If Patience had ever realised that her brother's friend was becoming too powerful a factor in her life's happiness, she would have been the first to cry shame on herself ; it would have seemed a shameful and inconceivable thing to her that she should yield her heart to a man who had never shown her any preference, and yet such love in its crystalline purity would have been a crown to any man. It was friendship, she would say, tying the flimsy bandage over her innocent eyes ; but later on she knew, and the knowledge was to her the bitterest humiliation. AN OLD MAID'S STORY 47 It was not for two or three years after that Oxford visit that the full awakening came. A friend of Mrs. Wentworth had lent her his house at St. Servan, that charming little suburb of St. Malo, for two months ; and she had induced Patience and her brother to spend part of the long vacation there with her. Douglas Cornish, who had joined a reading party at Ambleside, came to them later on. One morning they were all sitting among the rocks, watching the bathers in their gay dresses splashing and frolicking in the water ; the young men had their London papers, Mrs. Wentworth was busy with a magazine ; but Patience's work lay idle in her lap, and she watched the scene with engrossing interest. A fresh wind was rippling the bay and creasing it into tiny waves ; the deep blue of the water contrasted with the heaps of amber seaweed that lay piled in heaps ; the rocks cast strange violet shadows over the sand ; Dinard lay across the bay in the sunshine, and the distant pealing of bells came from some grey old churches in the distance. Some children were paddling in the sea ; their bare brown legs seemed to twinkle as they danced in and out of the water ; half a dozen boys in blue blouses, carrying streamers of wet brown seaweed over their shoulders, were marching and stumping along in military fashion. 48 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE Their captain marched proudly beside them. ' Pierre, thou art stooping like an old wood-cutter. Hold thyself erect and regard me, thy com- mander.' He flapped his brown pennon bravely as he spoke, and the little regiment stumped on, past the gay striped circles of bathers, popping up and down like gigantic corks, and holding each other's hands tightly. When the blue-coated battalion had passed, the children began frisking again ; then Mrs. Wentworth remembered that she had notes to write before the dejeuner, and that she must go back to the chalet. Patience gave a little nod and coloured slightly when her aunt, who was fond of gesticulation, traced imaginary characters in the air. The good lady was rather given to this dumb-show ; she said it saved her trouble, but how Patience hated it ! She hoped secretly that Mr. Cornish had not noticed the little by-play, for she was always more sensitive when he was near, and there was a shadow on her brow as she gave her attention again to the bathers — a little of the sunshine had faded out of the landscape. Evelyn was the next to put down his paper. A tall girl in a blue serge boating-dress and a sailor-hat was coming down the steep cliff path, followed by an elderly man with a grey moustache. Evelyn tossed away his Standard, and there AN OLD MAID'S STORY 49 was a quick glance of recognition in his eyes ; then he leisurely dusted the sand from his coat and sauntered slowly across the beach. Douglas Cornish, who noticed everything, raised his eyes with an amused smile to Patience. ' Colonel Brett and his daughter are going for a sail,' he said. ' I expect they will ask Wentworth to go with them,' and Patience, who had lost no syllable of the young man's clear and carefully modulated speech, bent her head in assent. ' She is very beautiful,' she said, half to herself 'and one cannot wonder at it; but he is young — oh, far too young.' ' Age does not count in such matters,' and Cornish laughed ; ' and it is not lad's love at three- or four-and-twenty. I believe Miss Brett is not really older, but she is just a trifle mature for Wentworth ; she dominates him a bit, don't you know ? ' 4 Yes, I see what you mean,' but not even with this dearest friend would Patience discuss her brother's love-affair; in her simple old-world creed such topics were not to be talked over with any man. She coloured, fidgeted a little, and then said, almost abruptly — ' Mr. Cornish, there is something I want to tell you about myself- — Evelyn does not know yet. Do you remember some summers ago begging me to go to Dunlop? Of course I took your D 50 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE advice, and Aunt Hilda went with me, but he could work no miracle in my case, and — and — I have been to others. I have even consulted that famous German aurist.' ' Well,' he said, looking at her through his puckered eyelids, 'and could none of them do you good ? ' ' No,' she said, folding her hands quietly on her lap. She had beautiful hands, and they were soft and dimpled as a child's. ' There is nothing to be done ; it is partly nerves, but there is other mischief; if I live long, I must be wholly deaf.' She had wrought herself up to say this to him, and yet she could give herself no reason for the confidence; for once she had acted on impulse, but Douglas Cornish did not disappoint her ; he took it all as she meant it. 'This is grievous news,' he said gently. ' Evelyn will feel it much ; he is so fond of you, Miss Wentworth. Few brothers are more devoted to a sister, but then you have been a mother to him. Should you like me to tell him ? I think he ought to know, and then he will leave off bothering you about remedies.' ' It will be very kind of you,' she said gratefully, and then there came that blue flash into his eyes that she had once seen before. 'Who could help being kind to you, Miss Patience?' he burst out. 'Upon my word, you AN OLD MAID'S STORY 51 are the best and the bravest woman I know, and Evelyn thinks the same.' It was not a lover-like speech ; the vainest and most conscious of women would not have interpreted it in that sense ; nevertheless Patience Wentworth's pulses tingled and throbbed with pure delight. '"Who could help being kind to you?'" she repeated to herself, as she sat at her open window that evening. ' " You are the best and the bravest woman I know."' Those words would ever be engraven on her heart, but that night, alas, the flimsy bandage was removed for ever from her eyes. This was Patience Wentworth's solitary romance, her one secret, but no one, not even her brother, ever guessed it, and Douglas Cornish least of all. Cornish was very much attached to his friend's sister ; he had never had a sister of his own, and Patience Wentworth seemed to fill the place of one. When they were alone, he would tell her things about himself, not every- thing, perhaps, for his nature was singularly reticent, but little everyday matters about his rooms, or his scout, or his pupils, and dearly she prized these confidences. But he never marvelled why she always seemed to hear him better than other people, though Evelyn once called his attention to it. ' How do you manage it, Cornish ? I wish you would teach me the trick. You never speak 52 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE louder than the rest of us, and yet Patience seems to hear you.' Evelyn spoke in perfect good faith ; his sister's increasing deafness was a great trouble to him, and he wondered how she could take it so quietly. Patience kept her own counsel ; she was too unselfish to harrow up people's feelings. It was her cross, her burden, to be carried and borne all the days of her life. If she had chosen, she could have been eloquent enough ; she could have described to them a strange world that seemed to be peopled with ghosts. Faces seemed to rise out of the silence, hands waved to her, and a sound- less wind seemed to blow from the four corners of the earth ; the daughters of music were brought low, and on summer mornings the thrush sang delicious roulades of full-throated music in vain under her window. ' I am so looking forward to the music in heaven,' she said one Sunday evening, but when she saw the tears rise to Evelyn's eyes as he suddenly and acutely realised her deafness, she repented of her speech. Patience's pitiful little confidence had touched Douglas Cornish, and he thought much of her that night. 'There is something heroic about women,' he said to himself; 'they will bear patiently and uncomplainingly a burden that would stagger a strong man. I suppose they AN OLD MAID'S STORY 53 are more unselfish. Miss Wentworth is — she simply has no self.' He had intended speaking to his friend that night, but Evelyn came back from his sail in Colonel Brett's yacht looking thoroughly de- pressed and out of sorts. They found out later on that he had heard that day that the Colonel was returning to India very shortly with his wife and daughter ; perhaps the Colonel and his wife had grown a little afraid of their daughter's intimacy with young Went- worth, but from that day Evelyn found himself received rather coolly ; even Marion Brett was a little distant and stand-offish in her manner. Evelyn used to bore his friend with a recital of his sufferings ; he would have been thankful for his sister's sympathy, but how was one to shout out a love-story? 'What do they mean by it, Cornish ? ' he would ask fiercely. ' The Colonel was civil enough at first, and so was Lady Doreen, and now they are as stiff as though I had run suddenly counter to all their prejudices. Colonel Brett knows all about me ; he knows that my father, God bless him, was a gentleman, and that I have money of my own. Colonel Brett is not a nabob ; confound it all, what does it mean, blow- ing first hot and then cold in this fashion ? ' and then Evelyn would pace the room angrily. ' I suppose they want Miss Brett to marry Lord 54 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE Camperdown,' returned his friend slowly ; ' any one can see that he is hard hit. My dear fellow, you have your advantages, no doubt, but the question lies in a nutshell — can you compete with a viscount and ten thousand a year?' ' Confound you, Cornish,' returned Evelyn furiously ; ' do you suppose a girl like Miss Brett will have anything to say to that limp, red-haired little fellow, if he had a million a year? do you suppose a woman of her calibre is to be bought at any price?' Then Cornish held his peace; nevertheless, when the Bretts started for Calcutta, a cabin in the same steamer was taken for Lord Camperdown. Evelyn Wentworth bore his disappointment as well as he could ; perhaps at that time things had not gone very deep with him, and in youth time and absence work wonders, so he gained his Fellowship and took orders, and was beginning to make his mark on his generation. It was nearly six years before Marion Brett crossed his path again. She had come back to England, leaving both her parents lying side by side in their Indian graves. She still bore her maiden name, although report said that no other girl had ever had so many offers. As for Viscount Camperdown, even before the end of the voyage he had known his suit was useless. 1 1 have simply no vocation for matrimony,' she AN OLD MAID'S STORY 55 had said once, in her proud, careless way to one of her rejected lovers. He was young and very much in love, and perhaps his temper was not quite under control. ' You will have nothing to say to any of us, Miss Brett/ he returned bitterly. ' You are a cut above us, you see ; but perhaps if some immaculate hero were to cross your way ' and here he paused meaningly, but she only shook her head. ' I am afraid he would bore me, unless he talked about something sensible. It is no use, Captain Lindsay,' treating him to one of her brilliant smiles. ' We all have our vocation, and I am called upon to work — ah, the need of workers,' and then her eyes grew soft and dreamy, for the cry of the children was in her ears, and the sin and the sorrow of suffering humanity lay heavy on her heart. She had done noble work in India, and had come to England full of schemes for the future ; yet when she met Evelyn Wentworth again, she recognised her fate, and for a time at least her woman's sceptre fell from her hand. The Fellow of Magdalen was certainly no miraculous hero. He was simply a noble-hearted, genuine man, with scholarly tastes and strong sympathies ; nevertheless, he won Marion Brett's affections, and before long they were engaged. Then followed a few glorious, troubled months. 56 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE Evelyn, who knew that his fiancee must have scope for her untiring energies, was debating with himself whether he should accept an important living that had been offered him, a large and somewhat neglected parish, near Liverpool. He had actually so far sacrificed his own feelings and tastes as to write an acceptance, in spite of his friend Cornish's earnest remonstrances. ' The work will not suit you, Wentworth,' he had said at once in his uncompromising way ; 'the slums are not your vocation. If you accept St. Chad's, you will make a grievous mistake ' ; but though in his secret heart Evelyn agreed with him, Marion Brett's influence was too strong ; the letter was written, but before it was posted the blow had fallen ; Marion had written to beg him to set her free. The letter she wrote was a strange one, an odd, pathetic mingling of womanly tenderness with unbalanced and crude reasoning, and a morbid self-surrender to a one-sided and perverted sense of duty. ' I could never be happy if I turned traitor to my work ; dear Evelyn, be good to me and release me. All these months I have never been at peace, but you were so strong, and you com- pelled me against my will. Ah, you have taught me that love means suffering, but if I married you we should both be so miserable ; when the AN OLD MAID'S STORY 57 conscience is not at rest, the heart knows no peace,' and so on, until the iron entered Evelyn Wentworth's soul, and he consented to give her up. 'You have never loved me, Marion, or you would not be leaving me like this,' he said to her, and his face was white with passion and pain, but there was almost a look of anguish in her beautiful eyes as she answered him — ' You are wrong, Evelyn. Oh, if I could only make you understand, but you have never under- stood me, never ; and I have been much to blame,' and then she stretched out her hand to him as though in mute appeal for his forgiveness, and its marble coldness seemed to chill him to the heart. Evelyn Wentworth suffered terribly ; the whole plan and purpose of his life seemed spoiled ; but after a time, when the pain of his loss grew more bearable, he settled down to his work doggedly, and a few years later he accepted the living of Sandilands ; and Patience broke up her home without a word, and took up her life at the Vicarage. With all her sweet charity, there was one woman in the world for whom she had simply no toleration, and at whose name her gentle face always grew stern and hard. ' Don't speak to me of Marion Brett,' she would say to Mr. Cornish, and her voice would tremble 58 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE with indignation. ' I pray God that I may not hate her, for it is wrong to hate any one, but she broke Evelyn's heart, and — and — I cannot forgive her,' and then she would draw herself up and go out of the room. ' It is like a red rag to her,' Cornish would mutter, ' and I will not deny it was a sad business, though as far as Wentworth is concerned, I am not sure it was not a lucky escape. Miss Brett would never have made a comfortable wife to any man, and he has done some good work — some excellent work in its way.' Ill MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME Mr. WENTWORTH had been Vicar of Sandilands five years, when the second great trouble of his life came to him. By that time the little Sister had become very intimate at the Vicarage, and had grown to love Miss Patience dearly ; little by little the few pitiful details of a disappointed life had been filtered with difficulty through the dim, ineffective ears to the bright intelligence and warm, womanly heart ; and it was wonderful how soon she grasped the whole truth. Some people will think it strange that I have spoken of myself in the third person, but it has seemed to me far better, when one is relating the stories of one's friends, to stand outside oneself, as it were, and to mingle with the crowd as bystanders and loiterers are wont to do. For even to the least egotistical of mortals it is difficult to resist the temptation to group all incidents and situations round the central Ego ; and to stamp one's friends with the everlasting 69 bo THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE impress of one's own personality ; as though they were puppets in some show, that only move to particular wires, and dance as their owner bids them ; this danger, then, let me once and for ever eschew by calling myself by the name given me by the simple villagers, 'the little Sister/ or 'our little Lady up at Fir Cottage' ; or to a few, just Miss Merrick or Clare. Those hours spent at the Vicarage were dearly prized by the little Sister ; and she recalls especially one winter's afternoon when she and Miss Patience sat together, not talking much, but enjoying that pleasant sense of fellowship that even the silent presence of a congenial companion sometimes affords ; and how she felt suddenly a soft, warm hand on hers, and the low, monotonous voice that she had grown to love broke the stillness. ' Clare, my dear, I have been thinking so much of you and poor Bessie Martin, and — and of others lately ; there are so many life-skeins in a tangle, are there not ? and we are such sad bunglers when we begin to unravel them ; but there is a word of comfort for each one of us : " What I do, thou knowest not now, but thou shalt know hereafter.'" There was a slight tremulous motion of Miss Patience's chin as she said this. Then she repeated more steadily, ' " but thou shalt know hereafter." Ah, we may MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 61 well be patient, Clare, when we think of all our good things heaped up and ready for us there.' When Miss Patience's unsuspected malady suddenly developed, and she grew daily more ill and suffering, the little Sister left her rooms at Fir Cottage, and took up her quarters at the Vicarage, and it was her privilege to nurse her to the end, It was long, very long, before the Vicar realised the hopelessness of the case; perhaps he closed his eyes wilfully, and refused to recognise the truth, and Dr. Barrett never attempted to un- deceive him. ' There is no need to cross the bridge until we come to it,' he would say, in his tough, kindly way. 'The Vicar will find it out for himself soon enough. Miss Wentworth will not die just yet,' and Mr. Cornish fully indorsed this opinion. Mr. Cornish was a constant visitor ; sometimes the servants, especially Mrs. Catlin, the cook, would grumble a little at the extra trouble that his visits involved ; but Barry, who was devoted to his master, always cut these com- plaints short. ' I don't see that the Professor makes so much difference,' he would say, obstinately. ' What is good enough for the master is surely good enough for any gentleman, and it is only laying another place and opening a fresh bottle of claret every day. You ought to be ashamed of yourself, Mrs. 62 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE Catlin, and you too, Phoebe, making troubles out of nothing, when you know how the master loves to have Mr. Cornish smoking his old meerschaum in the chimney corner ; but there, this comes of living with a pack of women,' and Barry would march off to his pantry in a dudgeon, while Mrs. Catlin, who was a good-hearted creature, would add some favourite dainty to the menu in token of her penitence. Perhaps Mr. Cornish knew that his presence was a comfort to the Vicar, or he would not have left his beloved rooms at Oriel, and come down sd constantly to Sandilands ; during the long vacation he almost lived at the Vicarage. Miss Patience's dim eyes used to brighten when she heard he had come. ' He is so good,' she whispered to herself ; ' he does it for Evelyn's sake. May God reward him for his faithful friendship ! ' Now and then there would be a wistful look in her eyes, and she would say a word or two that showed where her thoughts had strayed. 'What time is it, Clare? Half-past eight? Ah, they have finished dinner, and have gone back to the study. They will be sitting in the big bay watching for the moon to rise behind the firs ; that is what Evelyn loves.' Or again, ' I hope Mrs. Catlin remembers to have fish every day. Barry has plenty of time to MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 63 fetch it from the station ; or Crampton's cart would bring it. She is a good manager, but the best of servants need the mistress's supervision ; would you give her a hint, dear? But there,' with a patient sigh, ' I must learn to leave things. I must not be too Martha-like now.' One day Mr. Cornish sent up a message to know if Miss Wentworth were well enough to see him ; the Vicar had dropped a hint during luncheon. He was a little uneasy about his sister, and he wished Cornish would see her, and give him his opinion ; perhaps it was only because the heat had tried her, but he thought that she looked more ill than usual. Miss Patience was lying on her couch by the open window in her white dressing-gown and close cap. It was a bad day with her, and her deafness seemed worse than ever. It was some time before she could be made to understand the message, and she got sadly flurried and nervous before she grasped it, and then quite a girlish flush came to her face. ' Ah, yes, I can see him,' she said eagerly. ' I am well enough for that. Will you go and tell him so, Clare ? and — and— I think I should like to see him alone.' It was evident that Mr. Cornish was not pre- pared for the sad change, for he started, and his eyebrows contracted with sudden pain, as Miss 64 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE Patience held out her hand to him with a smile. The wan little face looked pinched and shrunken, there were violet shadows under the soft eyes, and the lips were dark and dry, as though with inward fever. 1 It is kind of you to come,' she said, a little breathlessly; 'but you are always kind, and I have wanted so much to see you and to thank you for all your goodness to Evelyn.' ' Oh, I have done nothing, nothing at all,' and then, as he sat down by her, the faint rose-leaf flush came again to her cheek, hiding for a few moments the waste and ravage of disease ; any one who had guessed her secret would have in- terpreted rightly that yearning tenderness in her eyes, but Douglas Cornish held no such clue. But he felt vaguely troubled and ill at case — perhaps at that moment he realised how much he should miss her ; for there is something very precious and satisfying in an old friendship, and sympathy from one who cares for us is just the priceless spikenard that was once poured on a Kingly Head, when a feeble woman's hand broke that alabaster box for that sacred anointing ; and in her simple, kindly way Miss Patience had been very good to him — that was how he put it. He said very few words to her, but she evidently heard them ; he only made some observation on the lovely clusters of roses that were peeping in MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 65 at the open window, but she understood him at once. ' Yes, are they not lovely ? ' she said, with a sweet smile. ' I tell Clare Merrick that I will not have them touched ; they are a message from " the garden that I love," and in the night, when I cannot see them, their fragrance is with me.' ' You do not sleep well, then ? ' he asked, narrowing his eyes as he spoke, but she shook her head sadly at the question. ' I do nothing well now,' she said, in her weak voice, ' but I shall be better by and by. Mr. Cornish, there is a great favour that I want to ask you,' and then she stopped and looked at him wistfully. ' Dear Miss Wentworth,' he said gently, ' we are such old friends, you and I, that surely you need not hesitate a moment.' 'Oh, but you do not know what it is that I am going to ask, but you are so kind, and I know you will not refuse. Something tells me that it will not be long now — please do not look sorry because I say that, for when one suffers, the only longing is for rest ; but it troubles me that Evelyn does not see, that he will not open his eyes to understand.' 'Do you wish me to tell him?' he asked abruptly, but again she shook her head. 'No, let him be ; he will find it out some day, E 66 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE and then — ah, I know — he will be so terribly unhappy. All his life I have mothered him, and there is no one — no one — to take my place. Dear friend,' and here the thin hand touched his coat-sleeve pleadingly, ' will you stay with him until it is over? You can help him as no one else can, and I shall be happier to know you are beside him ; it will be helping me too.' 'You need not fear, I will not leave him,' this was all his answer, but the keen eyes softened in the way Miss Patience loved. 'Thank you,' she said, with a little sob, and that was all that passed between them ; but she grew rather faint and weary after that, and Mr. Cornish in alarm summoned the little Sister, and then went out into the fir wood, to avoid answer- ing the Vicar's questions. Strange to say, the very next day Miss Patience had another visitor. It was a close, sultry after- noon, and even the roses drooped their sweet heads in the fierce July sunshine, and there was hardly a leaf moving ; the birds were all hushed to silence, and only the white butterflies skimmed blithely through the hot air. Miss Patience, who suffered terribly from the heat, was propped up high on her pillows that she might rest her weary eyes with the dark shadows of the fir woods. ' If I could only be carried into the woods,' she had said more than once, 'and smell the spicy MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 67 fragrance of the firs, I think I should feel better,' but of course she knew that it was impossible ; the longest journey that she could ever take in this world was just those few steps from the bed to the couch. She had only just uttered this little speech when a note was brought to her — a few pencilled words traced hurriedly on a slip of paper ; but as she read them the small face grew set and stern, and she trembled all over. ' How dare she enter this house/ she said angrily; and then she checked herself. ' No, I was wrong ; if we do not forgive, how are we to expect to be forgiven ? ' and then she read the words again. ' Dear Patience, for the sake of our old friendship, do not refuse to see me. I have come all this way to bid you God-speed. — Your loving Marion.' That was all. The silence in the sick-room grew more op- pressive every minute ; only the humming of a large brown bee broke the silence, but Miss Patience still lay with one hand covering her eyes, and her lips moving as though she were in some dire strait of perplexity and doubt ; then she said in an agitated voice, ' It is a sad trouble to me, but I do not see how I am to refuse. Clare, will you go down to Miss Brett and tell her that I will see her for a few minutes, but she must not stay long ; but you will know what to say to her ; you are always so kind and wise,' and 68 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE then the little Sister went down to interview the stranger. A tall, stately-looking woman in a long grey cloak was standing by the window. At the sound of the opening door she turned her head, and then the little Sister felt a sudden shock of surprise. In all her life she had never seen such a beautiful face. For a long time after the interview was over she puzzled herself to think where she had seen it before, and then she remembered the Parian marble bust of Clytie in the Vicar's study, and it seemed to her then that Marion Brett might have been the model. It was not a young face by any means — Miss Brett must have been forty at least — but the profile was perfect ; the grave, dark eyes, a little sunken, were full of fire and sweetness, and under the close bonnet the glorious auburn hair rippled in perpetual sun- shine. 1 You are the nurse,' she said quickly — she had a deep, musical voice. 'You have come to tell me, I hope, that Miss Wentworth will see me.' 'Yes, she will see you,' returned the little Sister in a hesitating voice ; ' but will you permit me to give you a hint first ? I am only the friend who is nursing her ; but I love her dearly, and I under- stand her so well. She is very ill ; when you see her, you will find that out for yourself; her nights are terrible, and she suffers much at times, so she MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 69 can bear very little. Mr. Cornish saw her yester- day for the first time, but it was too much for her, and she was very faint.' 1 1 will be careful,' in a low voice. ' I know a good deal about illness. I have nursed in a hospital, and there are always sick people round us. Miss Patience was never strong, and that fever undermined her constitution ; and yes, I know,' and her eyes grew pitiful as the little Sister looked at her, 'her mother died of it, and she was so young — so young ; and now will you let me go to her, for my time is not my own ? ' And then without a word the little Sister led her to the door. Miss Patience was still lying high on her pillows, but there was a strained, anxious look in her eyes, and two feverish spots had come to her wan cheeks. ' Marion, why have you come ? ' she said re- proachfully, as Miss Brett knelt down by her couch ; and as she took the weak little figure in her arms, the grey cloak seemed to envelop her like spreading wings, and the beautiful face had the tender smile of a benignant angel. ' It is not right that you should enter this house ; surely you must feel that.' 1 There is no house in all the world that I should fear to enter, if one whom I loved were on a sick-bed,' and Marion Brett's voice was clear 70 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE and unfaltering. ' Patience, dear Patience, do you not know me by this time? If my friend needed me, I would go into Hades itself. Is there anything that I have ever found too hard to do, if it were in my power to bring comfort ? ' Then Miss Patience shook her head sadly. 'There is no comfort you can bring to this house. Marion, you mean it kindly, you have a warm heart, and you do not forget, and — and you are sorry for me ; but the hand that has inflicted the wound cannot heal it, and the day you destroyed my brother's happiness I prayed that I might never see your face again.' ' Ah, if you speak to me like that I must indeed go ; but you do not mean it : we cannot part like this. Is it not pain enough for me to see you lying there a mere wreck of your old sweet self, that you must add to my sorrow by these bitter words? Patience, you are a good woman; why can you not understand that one must act up to one's sense of right? If I have caused suffering, have I not suffered myself? Has my life been so easy and happy all these years ? Ah, God knows, for only He who made women's hearts knows how much they can bear.' The deep, passionate voice so close to her made itself partially heard; then Marion Brett suddenly broke down, and her tears wetted the weak hands that lay so limply folded together. MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 71 ' Dear Patience/ she sobbed, ' say something kind to me — do not leave this world bearing a grudge against me. Oh, if we could only change places — if I could lie there in your stead — how gladly I would yield my life to give you back to him ! ' Then a wan smile came to the sick woman's face. 'You speak as though you meant it, and I thank you ; but it would be cruel kindness. I have never wished for a long life ; when one's path is silent and solitary — but no, I will not complain. I have had my blessings too. Marion, there shall be peace between us. Forgive me if I spoke too bitterly ; but when one has to see day by day the waste and barrenness of a life that might have been so beautiful, it seems to harden one's heart ; but I know, of course I know, that you were not wantonly cruel.' 1 Thank Heaven that at least you can do me that justice ; but, Patience, for the sake of the dear old past, answer me one question — how is he?' ' He is well, but he is very lonely ; when I am gone there will be no one to comfort him. Evelyn takes nothing lightly; his nature is intense, and he never forgets.' Marion Brett's head sank for a moment on her hands ; when she raised it, there was a strange, troubled look in her eyes. 72 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE 'Yes, he was always intense, and I see he has not changed ; but if one's prayers were only an- swered — but one must walk by faith, and life will not last for ever. Dear Patience, I must go now. I live in a busy world, and if it were not for my work, I could find it in my heart to envy you ; for you are going to a place where there are no mis- takes, and no need for self-sacrifice ; but I am strong, so strong, and my rest will not come yet. Dear — dearest Patience, goodbye, and God bless you ; the bitterness has died out of your heart, I can see that, and poor Marion is forgiven. May I kiss you again, dear ?' and then for a few seconds the two women clung together, and this time the tears were in Miss Patience's eyes. ' I was too hard, too hard,' she whispered ; ' we have no right to judge each other. Now go, and God bless you too ; ' and then, with her head still bent, Marion Brett passed out of the door, just as the Vicar crossed the hall on his way to the study. No one had told him of the visitor, and at the sound of the light tread he looked up ; and then, as the footsteps paused, it seemed to his dazzled eyes as though he were gazing at some wondrous vision. There was a stained-glass window at the head of the staircase, which added greatly to its beauty, and there, with a halo of purple and crimson glory behind it, stood a motionless grey figure, with floating draperies. The thin cloak MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 73 was flung aside, and fell "n soft folds from the shoulders, and the close bonnet was pushed back, only showing the veil and the waves of auburn hair, while the perfect face for which he had hungered and thirsted all these years was looking down at him with a solemn smile of recognition. No wonder the Vicar shaded his eyes as though he were suddenly dizzy, for the dream that had haunted his waking and sleeping hours, stood embodied under the oriel window, with strange colours staining its grey raiment — a grand woman — angel — and the glory and the torment of Evelyn Wentworth's life. Most women would have found it a trying ordeal, to be confronted suddenly and unexpectedly with the man they had jilted ; but Marion Brett had a strange complex nature ; with all her faults, her grievous mistakes, there was nothing small about her ; she took things simply, and without self- consciousness. For the moment she was startled ; then the remembrance of the sick-room she had just left seemed to blot out all other thoughts, and she came swiftly down the stairs until she was beside him. 'Oh,' she said, a little breathlessly, 'she is very ill, and it breaks my heart to see her so changed and weak ; and there is nothing to be done — nothing.' And now the tears were rolling down 74 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE her face again, for the sight of physical pain always unnerved her ; and she who never knew an ache, would quiver with sympathy from head to foot if she witnessed any phase of acute suffering. There was a strange glow in the Vicar's eyes, but all he said was : ' Will you come in here, and tell me what you think of her?' And then side by side they crossed the threshold of the study ; but when he offered her a seat she shook her head, and for the first time a flush of conscious- ness came to her face. She was in the house of the man she had refused to marry, and they were alone ! 'Will you tell me,' he said quietly, and still watching her, 'why you say there is nothing to be done ? Barret is clever and understands her constitution, but we can have another opinion. Dr. Fremantle was here a month ago, but we could have Peacock or Whistler.' Then she looked at him in surprise. ' Why should you go to that expense ?' she said quickly. « Dr. Peacock could do nothing more than Dr. Barret is doing ; the disease is too much advanced for any possibility of cure. They will just keep her under powerful narcotics.' Then, as she saw how pale he grew : ' Surely they have told you — the doctor, or Mr. Cornish, or the little nurse that I saw just now.' MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 75 ' You mean Miss Merrick ? Ah, she has been our good angel ; but, Marion, for Heaven's sake speak plainly to me. They have told me nothing. Patience is very ill, and suffers much ; that is all they say.' ' And they have left it for me — me of all people — to tell you,' and there was a scared expression on Marion Brett's face. ' Evelyn, it was cruel of them — cruel to you and to me. Dear Patience will not be here long ; she is going home. Those who love her must not be too sorry, for life to her would only mean prolonged suffering.' ' Good God !' was all his answer, but as he sank into a chair and covered his face with his hands, as though stricken to the heart, the woman who stood beside him would have given a year of her life for the power to say one word of comfort to him that would not be mockery or mere conven- tionality from her lips. But Patience's sad speech lingered in her memory and kept her dumb : 1 There is no comfort that you can bring to this house. The hand that has inflicted the wound cannot heal it.' Alas, alas ! it was the truth. But the silence was horrible to her, and the buzzing of a honey-laden bee round the flower vases seemed to jar on her. Outside, roses and sunshine and the cool shadow of the woods ; and within, the veiled angel of death, and a sweet life wearing itself painfully away ; and beside her, a 76 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE lonely man who wanted comfort. Then a dry sob seemed to rise in her throat. ' Evelyn, try to bear it. Life will be over soon ; and though she is your dearest ' But to her terror he interrupted her almost roughly — ' She is not my dearest, nor ever will be ; you know that, Marion. But she is the truest and best of sisters, and it will be a sad day for me when I lose her. What, are you going?' for she was straightening the folds of her cloak with trembling fingers, and her eyes were wide and troubled. ' Do you mean that you refuse to break bread in my house?' ' I refuse nothing. Oh, Evelyn, do not say such things ; but I have promised to be at the inn at Brentwood in twenty minutes' time, and the fly is waiting. Indeed I must not stay another minute,' and then she held out her hand to him. ' I am sorry,' she faltered ; ' how sorry even you do not know ; but I shall pray for you and dear Patience every hour of the day.' But he made no answer to this. When a man desires to marry the woman that he loves, it gives him small comfort to know that she prays for him. If Marion had prayed less and loved more, he would not be left a lonely man, without wife and child, with only books and friendship to comfort him. And so the strange, unsatisfactory interview ended, and the Vicar, standing bareheaded in the MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 77 sunny road, watched with shaded eyes until the white horse and the shabby fly passed out of sight. Once, moved by some sudden impulse, Marion turned round and saw him, and waved her hand with kind, sad greeting, but he took no notice ; only as he crossed the threshold again he shivered slightly, as though some solemn presence made itself felt ; then he went up to his sister's room, and no one but he and Patience knew what passed between them. It may be that the excitement of these two interviews were too much for Miss Patience in her feeble condition, or perhaps it was only the rapid progress of her insidious disease, but cer- tainly from that time she began to fail, and in a few days she was unable to leave her bed. The strong sedatives that were necessary to alleviate her pain made her confused and drowsy ; no voice seemed to reach her, and she often wandered ; but now and then, especially towards evening, or when some stimulant had been given her, she would rouse for a little while from her stupor. One lovely August evening she was lying propped up on her pillows, that she might look out at the pink glow of the sunset. The Vicar was sitting beside her as usual, holding her hand, when he suddenly heard the weak, toneless voice 78 THE IDYLLS OF A VICARAGE speaking to him. ' Evelyn, do you remember that anthem at Westminster Abbey? Marion was with us, and — and Douglas Cornish' — how the faint tones lingered over the last name ! — ' it was glorious, glorious, as though a choir of angels were singing it. All day long, at waking intervals, I have been hearing it again : " O trust in the Lord, wait patiently for Him, and He shall give thee thy heart's desire " — wait patiently,' and here her voice seem to die away. But more than once that night the watchers by her bed heard her murmuring broken fragments of the same words, and piecing them together with some wandering thought. 'Thy heart's desire — yours and mine, Evelyn — and all in His own good time.' And again : 'Wait patiently — for Him — ah, I have failed ; but it was so hard, and so lonely, and the silence at first seemed so crushing ; and yet — was any cross too hard for Him to bear ? ' And later, when they hoped she was sleeping, and Mr. Cornish was try- ing to persuade the Vicar to take a little rest, the weak voice broke out once again, ' Wait patiently for Him, and He shall give thee thy heart's desire ; dear, dear Evelyn, thy heart's desire ! ' But it was not that night that the merciful angel took her home ; there v/as another day of rest- lessness and suffering, but towards evening those who loved her most gathered round her bed. MISS PATIENCE GOES HOME 79 The Vicar was supporting her, and on the other side Mr. Cornish was kneeling. Some tender look in the dying eyes had seemed to welcome him and keep him there. The feeble life was panting itself away, when there was a sudden gleam on the sunken face. ' Evelyn, He said it, and I heard, Ephphatha, be opened,' and then the sweet eyes closed ; and as Douglas Cornish instinctively laid his strong, warm hand over the little hands that were growing chill with death, Patience Wentworth crossed the threshold between the two she most loved, and then the door of the Infinite closed upon her. Those were the words engraved on her tomb ; a marble cross, with a dove perching on one of the arms, stands just by the gate that leads from the churchyard into the fir wood : Patience Wentworth, Aged 55. 'And He said unto her, Ephphatha, that is, Be opened.' ill THE TWO MOTHERS THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE If utter and complete dissatisfaction with one's environment constitutes unhappiness, Mrs. Comp- ton of Kingsdene might be considered an unhappy woman. All her life she had strained after certain ideals, and had failed to realise them ; and the fruits of mediocrity that she had garnered in her life- harvest, and which would have been riches and joy to a less aspiring and ambitious nature ; were as the apples of Sodom to her fastidious taste — mere dust and bitterness. Isabel Compton never owned, even in her secret heart, that her lines had fallen in pleasant places. The metaphorical green pastures and still waters of a peaceful country life were arid desert and monotonous dulness to a woman who loved, above everything, the roar of traffic in Piccadilly and the jostling of a well-dressed crowd on its pavements. Any day she would have exchanged gladly the melodious warbling 83 84 THE TWO MOTHERS of thrushes and blackbirds in her own copses for the twittering of grimy town sparrows under the eaves, and even for the untuneful cry of the street vendor and gutter merchant ; for like the gentle and witty writer of Etia's Essays, she delighted in the din of a great city. Nature had intended Mrs. Compton for a life of action and responsibility ; the wife of a lead- ing politician would have suited her exactly ; she had a clear head, and a power of grasping any subject that interested her that was almost masculine in its breadth and directness ; but her talents had never been utilised. If her husband had died bankrupt for example — instead of leav- ing her a well-dowered widow with an only child — she would have set her shoulder to the wheel, and worked for her boy, and the name of Isabel Compton would have been mentioned with respect in the city. But Richard Compton had been a safe man all his life, and on his deathbed he smiled more than once at the thought that his wife would never miss one of her accustomed comforts; nevertheless, almost the last words he said to her were full of a long hidden and care- fully repressed sadness — ' Isabel, my dear, you have been a good wife to me, and I have loved you dearly, but I ought never to have married you ; you would have been happier with another man ' ; and though she had THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 85 contradicted this passionately and with bitter tears, in her secret soul she knew that Richard had spoken gospel truth. Strangers always wondered where Mrs. Comp- ton had got her dark beauty, but there was Spanish blood in her veins. Her mother had belonged to an old Andalusian family, and her father had been a Highlander. When Richard Compton first met Isabel Macdonald at a fancy ball at his father's house, he fell desperately in love with her. She wore the fete dress of an Andalusian peasant, and the crimson roses in her laced bodice, and in her glossy black hair, were scarcely more vivid than the brilliant colour in her cheeks. Excitement, and perhaps the consciousness of her own be- witching beauty, had added to the lustre in her eyes, and many were the envious glances that followed Richard Compton as he carried off the acknowledged belle of the room for another and another dance. Richard Compton had plenty of English pluck, and the proverbial tenacity of the British bull-dog ; when he wanted a thing very badly he generally got it, and if genius consists in 'the capacity for taking infinite pains,' it must be acknowledged that he possessed some sort of genius. His courtship was as impetuous as the charge at Balaclava, and before she had quite made up her mind that she did not dislike him, 86 THE TWO MOTHERS Isabel Macdonald found that she had promised to marry him ; but perhaps those days of their engagement were the happiest in her life. Richard Compton was well born and well connected, although he was only a Colonial broker in Mincing Lane ; and he was handsome and athletic, and had good health and an easy temper ; most people who knew him well thought him intelligent and lovable, and he transmitted these virtues to his boy. He had plenty of business capacity, and liked 'the shop,' as he called it, and it galled him excessively to know that his wife despised it. Isabel's chief grievance was that Richard had no ambition, that he did not care to stir out of his groove when he grew rich, and began rolling the golden ball, making ' his pile,' as the Yankees say. He had no desire to shunt business and lead the life of a man of fashion, on the contrary, his one yearning was for a country existence and a model farm. This was the rock on which their matrimonial ship foundered. They were a strangely ill-assorted couple. Richard Compton loved his beautiful wife, with the still, deep affection of a strong nature ; he would have brought down the stars from heaven if she had desired them, but he could not alter his nature. When a husband and wife love each other tenderly, and yet do not agree on anj THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 87 single point, there must be some degree of friction between them. Richard's father and his grandfather had been potentates in Mincing Lane; the old grey- haired clerks had known him from his boyhood, and still spoke of him familiarly as our Mr. Richard. His father had built Kingsdene, and had spent the latter part of his life very happily in beautifying it, and laying out the grounds ; but it was Richard himself who added the farm and the long range of cattle-sheds on the Brentwood Road. Kingsdene, and the Dene farm gradually ab- sorbed all his interest, and he withdrew more and more from business. The managing clerk, Mr. Poynter, was as safe as a church tower. 'When I am gone he will keep things snug for Jack, and you need not bother your head about them, Isabel.' he said, when the knowledge that his days were numbered had been broken to him : ' Poynter is worth his weight in gold.' If Isabel Compton had had her disappointments and her disillusions, Richard had not been with- out his private grievances too. By nature he was a man of peace, and these constant arguments with his high-spirited wife hurt and depressed him. He thought it hard that she would not leave him free to live the life he most loved. 88 THE TWO MOTHERS 1 Women are kittle cattle even the best of them,' he would say to himself somewhat grumpily. 'What can Isabel want more? she has her fiat at Westminster — I gave in to her about that, though I hate flats. I always feel like Mother Hubbard's dog shut up in a big cupboard ; she has her Victoria and her brougham, and some good diamonds ; the shop that she loathes provides all these good things, yet she can hardly bring her- self to be civil to Poynter when I ask him to dinner, and resents his interest in Jack. Poynter and she never get on, somehow ; she treads on the poor old chap's corns with these pretty little feet of hers ; but there — one cannot alter Isabel,' and Richard would heave a heavy sigh. But it may be doubted whether he ever thoroughly understood his wife's complex nature. Isabel liked her luxurious flat, and her carriages and diamonds, but they could not satisfy her, or appease her hunger and thirst for some dominat- ing interest and work. If she could have been proud of her husband and sympathised in his pursuits and tastes, she would have asked nothing more of life ; she would have starved beside him uncomplaining in a garret ; she would have borne cold, and poverty, and drudgery with a smile on her face ; but Mincing Lane and diamonds — it was just giving her stones instead of bread, and Kingsdene, with THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 89 its glorious views and well-proportioned rooms and the Dene Farm, with its famous black cattle and cream-coloured Alderneys, were nothing to her. And by and by another trouble came to her. When Isabel Compton first became a mother, and when, in the quaint old Biblical language. 'she knew that she had gotten a man from the Lord,' her joy had been so excessive as almost to endanger her life. ' Mrs. Compton, if you do not keep quiet and calm, your baby must be taken into the next room,' the Doctor had said to her with assumed sternness, for the uneven beats of the weak pulse alarmed him for the safety of the emotional young creature ; but happily that threat sobered her effectually. Maternity is a passion with some natures ; it was so in Isabel Compton's case — even her love for her husband paled a little beside her adoration of her boy. ' He is mine — my very own,' she would whisper to herself in the night ; ' my baby-boy, whom I shall mould, and form, and teach from the first ; he shall have no teacher but his mother until he goes to school. I will get up the rudiments of Latin from the village schoolmaster ; Richard shall not know, he would only laugh at me, but I mean to have my way in this/ and as she rocked her infant in her feeble arms, Isabel had hours of 90 THE TWO MOTHERS exquisite happiness. The first jarring note was struck, when Richard quietly announced his in- tention of calling the child by his father's name. 'There must be another John Compton, Belle,' he said; 'but I should like him to have your name too — John Murdoch Compton, that is euphonious enough to suit your ladyship,' 'your ladyship ' being one of his pet names for her ; but Isabel only looked at him with a dissatisfied pucker on her brow. ' I hope you are only joking, Richard dear,' she said plaintively. 'You know how I hate the name of John, it is so plebeian.' She spoke pettishly, but as usual she rubbed him up the wrong way ; even peaceable well-meaning men have obstinate fits sometimes. ' It is my favourite name,' re- turned Richard sullenly; 'and there has always been a John Compton in every generation. When poor Jack died ' (Jack was his eldest brother) ' I vowed to myself, that if I ever had a boy, I would call him after the dear fellow.' ' Yes, and he will be Jack, too,' returned Isabel with some bitter- ness, for she saw that Richard intended to have his way. Jack! oh, it was hideous! there was a mastiff at the farm called Jack, and in their village there was Jack Beddoes at the post-office, and Jack Crumpton, and little Jack Quain, the cowherd's boy ; if she might call her son Murdoch, and then hope revived, though before long it was THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 91 frustrated by Jack himself. ' Boy hates Murdoch, me is Jack — Dada's Jack,' and the baby rebel stamped his tiny foot angrily. Yes, as soon as he could lisp, Jack went over to the enemy. ' Dada's Jack ' soon proved himself to be his father's son. Poor Isabel, her case was a hard one. Vainly did she strive to stamp her own thoughts, her own personality on her idolised boy. He was Richard's second self; and except that he had his mother's bright dark eyes and brown skin, he bore no further resemblance to her. It could not be denied that Richard gloried in his boy's partisanship. From the hour that Jack could toddle beside him, they had been chums, and Dad and Dada was Jack's household divinity. 'Won't you stay with mother, Jack ? ' Richard said to him once, when he saw the sad, yearning look in his wife's eyes ; ' poor dear mother will be so dull.' 'Yes, but she won't kye — mother never kyes,' and Jack took firm hold of his father's hand. ' Boy 's coming with Dad,' and as usual Jack had his way, though Richard gave his wife an apolo- getic glance. ' He is a chip of the old block ; he is a Compton every inch of him,' he said to him- self, as the little lad toddled beside him, babbling about his pets ; and Isabel, sitting lonely in her grand drawing-room, was telling herself the same thing. 92 THE TWO MOTHERS ' He is Richard's boy, not mine ; already he takes after his father ; there they go, he is chatter- ing to Richard like a little magpie ; nothing would have induced him to stay with me, but I won't kye, no, you are right there, Jack.' For, long ago, Isabel had had to swallow her disinclination — Jack refused sturdily to answer to his second name. People who admired Mrs. Compton always said that it was a pity that Jack did not inherit his mother's beauty ; and that, with such good- looking parents, he should grow up such an ordinary young man ; as a matter of fact, he closely resembled his paternal grandfather, old John Compton. He had a short and rather clumsily built figure, which was more remarkable for strength than grace, and in his early youth he certainly failed to carry himself well. When Isabel walked beside him up the church, with her stately and queenly air, and a certain indescrib- able grace of movement, inherited from her An- dalusian mother, people were always conscious of some slight shock. Jack was not handsome either, in spite of his beautiful dark eyes ; his features were heavy and somewhat blunt, and he had a slow, quiet way of talking that irritated Isabel. And lastly — and this filled the cup of her humiliation — Jack was not clever ; in fact, in his mother's opinion he was a perfect dunce. When other children were reading fairy stories, THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 93 Jack had only just mastered his letters. ' Reading without Tears' was a verbal mockery,,, for Jack's tears blotted every page long before he was six. Isabel in despair turned him over to the village schoolmaster, and wept scalding tears at the thought of her hardly acquired Latin. ' It is no use/ she said sorrowfully to Richard, ' I have done my best for Jack, but he will not learn ; perhaps Mr. Ackroyd will manage him better/ and Richard agreed with her. It was the one point on which they did agree — their mutual anxiety for their boy's good. But, alas, even in his father's eyes, Jack was an incorrigible dunce. He hated lessons, and even Rugby failed to turn him out decently equipped for the battle of life. It could not be pleasant to any father to hear that his only child was deficient in brain power. ' Look here, Mr. Compton,' the head-master said to him, 'I have watched your boy very closely. He is a good lad, there is no vice in him — you and his mother will rejoice to know that — but it is no good sending him to Oxford ; it will be just throwing your money away. He will not study, and what benefit will he derive from just keeping his chapels and rowing in the eight ? these are rather expensive luxuries. If you want to waste money over him, let him see the world ; that will open his eyes a little.' 94 THE TWO MOTHERS ' His mother has set her heart on his going to Oxford,' returned Mr. Compton slowly. There was an anxious frown on his face. His health had begun to break just then, and he was inclined to take dark views of things, and it was a bitter pill to swallow. His only son, his good lad, was the veriest dunce that had ever left a public school. With infinite trouble he had scraped through a little Latin, and a good deal of History and Geography, but he could be taught little else. In fact, as Isabel had said with deep anguish of soul, Jack had defective brain-power; he was slower than other boys. After a time Richard Compton's good sense determined him to make the best of his dis- appointment. The deep affection between father and son only deepened as the years went on ; as Jack expressed it, they were excellent chums. One evening they were sitting together on the long terrace that stretched from end to end of the house. It overlooked the gardens, and from one point a break in the shrubbery gave them a lovely peep of the church and village. Mrs. Compton had gone back to the house, and was playing softly to herself in the dim light, but the two men had remained outside to finish their cigars and to enjoy the changing hues of the spring sunset. There was an indescribable feeling of peace and freshness pervading the whole scene. THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 95 ' The quiet breadths of evening sky ' had a faint glow like the delicate blush on a maiden's cheek. One small star glittered on the edge of a bluish- grey cloud. They had been talking somewhat confidentially. Richard Compton had been explaining some business matter in which he was much interested, and had warmed very much to his subject, and Jack, a little bored and mystified, had been listening dutifully. ' I wish I were not such a duffer,' he said presently, with a rueful smile. ' It puzzles me awfully sometimes to think how you ever came to have such a shallow-pated fellow for a son. Mother is so clever, and as for you, Dad ' but Richard only shook his head sadly. 'Don't call yourself names, Jack; it is bad form. We can't all be cast into the same mould ; and when all is said and done, you are your father's son, and I don't know that I would change you, my lad,' and here there was a pleasant light in Richard's eyes. ' I don't think mother would indorse that remark,' and Jack frowned and sighed. Jack worshipped his beautiful mother ; he thought there was no one like her, and it grieved him to the heart to know that he disappointed her. Then at the sound of Jack's vexed sigh, Richard turned quickly and laid his hand on his son's arm. 96 THE TWO MOTHERS 'You must not mind her sharp speeches, Jack,' he said kindly; 'they mean nothing. You are just the apple of her eye, and her one thought. Don't I remember as clearly as though it were yesterday, coming in and seeing her hushing you to sleep by the nursery fire ? It was a sight a man never forgets in his life. If only some great painter could have sketched it. Your mother was always a grand-looking woman, Jack, and, by Jove, you were a fine little chap too. I made quite a fool of myself with the pair of you that day. But, there, I was never clever enough to satisfy her ; she ought to have married a member of Parliament, or the Solicitor-General, or a big journalist, or some one whose name is always before the public. Mincing Lane was not in her line at all, and as for the Dene ' and here Richard gave a whimsical grimace. ' I am afraid I take after you, father, in one thing ; I hate the flat,' and then again there was a twinkle of amusement in the elder man's eyes. ' Yes, we agree there ; but, my boy, there is one lesson you must set yourself to learn. When a man marries he is not altogether his own master. It must be give and take, bear and forbear, live and let live. Oh, I could write you a list of aphorisms, but there are some things you must work out for yourself. When I am gone,' here his voice grew a little solemn, ' your mother THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 97 must be your first care. Give in to her in little things, and hold your own in big ones. Now we are on the subject, we may as well go on. There will be no need for you to bother your head about the shop ; Poynter will manage to keep things together, and by and by — in five or six years — you might take him into partnership. He draws a handsome salary now, but a partnership in Compton and Son would be like a ducal coronet to a needy younger son, and would make the old boy happy. You were never cut out for a business man, Jack, and as I have feathered your nest well, there is no need for you to trouble. Have you any plans of your own ? ' Jack's eyes began to brighten ; then he drew Ben Bolt, his favourite fox-terrier, between his knees, and began patting him nervously. 'There is one thing I should like, Dad ; to go round the world, and take Ben Bolt with me.' 'There is no reason why you should not have your wish, but not just yet, my boy. I could not part with you.' For already Richard Compton knew that a longer journey and a more distant haven were before him. ' All in good time, Jack ; but you must stop with your mother for a little.' Then, as the tears rose to the young man's eyes at this allusion, he added quickly, with that dread of a scene that is instinctive in a well-bred Englishman: 'Don't let us meet trouble half- 98 THE TWO MOTHERS way, Jack, my boy ; we will have some good times first, please God. Remember, whatever your mother may say, that I am perfectly satisfied with you. We were chums when you were in red shoes and white woollen gaiters, and we are chums still'; and then with a half- tender, half- humorous smile on his face, he held out his hand to his son. But when Jack had left him to take his dogs for their evening run, Richard Compton sat on still, looking out on the dark violet patches that had replaced the pink glow. ' How could he fail to be satisfied ?' he said to himself. ' Could any young man be more manly and honest and clean-living than his boy? He had never told a lie in his life ; he had never played a dirty trick or done a mean thing. Were a good heart and an unstained conscience of less value than a clever brain ? ' And again, if his Latin was nil and his spelling defective, could any young fellow of twenty ride better or straighter ? He was a capital shot, too, and could swim like a fish, and he always scored splendidly at cricket. There was no game — football, golf, or tennis — at which Jack did not excel, and he had other capabilities. He was a capital carpenter, and could beat out a horse-shoe, and shoe his mare as well as the village blacksmith ; and he carved THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 99 exquisitely, and even Mrs. Compton was proud of the cabinet he had made for her. As a colonist or pioneer he would have made his fortune, but many of his gifts were thrown away at Sandilands. 'Jack ought to be a settler or backwoodsman/ Mr. Compton was saying to himself, and then his wife joined him. ' Are you not sitting out too long, Richard ? ' she said anxiously. ' It is only April, remember, and the evenings are chilly.' Then Richard Compton threw down the stump of his cigar, and rose from his seat. 'You are right, dear,' he said quietly, 'and I was just getting a little stiff. Let us take a turn on the terrace before we go in. Jack is letting the dogs loose,' and indeed the joyous barking of half-a-dozen excited creatures was distinctly audible. 'We have had rather a serious talk, Isabel — the boy and I. I have told him that he need not go to Mincing Lane, except now and then to look at the accounts, and that Poynter will look after your interests. When you can spare him, you must let him have his wish, and go round the world. You need not fear to trust him, and, if you take my advice, you will just give him his head and let him choose his own hobbies'; but to this his wife made no reply. She had long ceased to argue any point with him ; only, when her opinion differed it was her habit to preserve absolute silence. Richard was ioo THE TWO MOTHERS not certain that he did not prefer the old argu- ments. They had provoked and wearied him, but they were less chilling than this black silence that seemed to wall up their intercourse. ' I hope your ladyship does not disagree with me,' he said with an attempt at playfulness, as he took her arm. * If I do not agree, I will not argue with you,' she returned with unwonted gentleness. ' I never want to trouble you in that way again,' and then she induced him to go in-doors. When her husband died Isabel Compton was inconsolable for a long time, and other widows who had mourned more soberly and decorously were a little inclined to speak of her extravagant grief as wanting in resignation, but in reality a good deal was due to remorse. Isabel had loved her husband, but somehow she had failed in her wife's duty. Constant friction between those whom God had joined together was not only undesirable, but absolutely wrong. If she had only been more forbearing, if she had only under- stood his limitations from the first, and adapted herself to suit them ; but all their married life she had been trying to fit a round tiling into a square hole, and had to thank herself for the total failure. 'I failed with Richard; I was never good enough to him,' she said to herself with bitter tears, 'but- I will do better with Jack.' Ah, THE MISTRESS OF KINGSDENE 101 if one could only carry out one's good intentions ! but human nature is weak and prone to failure. Before many months had passed, the old arbitrary spirit had awakened again, and Jack's affection and generosity were sorely tried. ' Give in to her in little things and hold your own in big ones,' had been Richard Compton's advice to his son, but it somehow seemed to Jack as if his mother wished to deprive him of all liberty. Perhaps her sorrow and loneliness made her unreasonably exacting, but nothing he could do seemed to please her. She was satirical on the subject of his carpentering, and accused him of taking bread out of an honest workman's mouth, and laughed at his clumsy horse-shoes. The hours he spent at the Farm were a perpetual grievance in her eyes, and his dislike to the Flat and a civilised life was clownishness, the vulgar attribute of a Tony Lumpkin. 'Jack is so perverse; he is as sulky and obstinate as a bear, when one really thwarts him,' she said to her great confidante, the little Sister, for something of the nature of friendship had grown up between those two women, dis- similar as they were. ' Oh, I know what you are going to say — that Jack is really sweet-tempered, and never says cross things to me, however sharp I may be with him. Don't I know that too ? But do you not understand, Clare, how the Opposition 102 THE TWO MOTHERS benches obstruct a bill that they do not mean to pass? Well, that is what Jack does. He says nothing, only he looks firm, and then goes and does the very thing I have begged him not to do. That was what Richard did. I never got my way with either of them : I never shall.' But there was another speech very often on her lips : ' If I could only change places with Miriam Earle,' for, as all Sandilands knew, Miriam Earle had a very clever son, who was making his mark as a London doctor, and to the Mistress of Kingsdene the name of Felix Earle was as Naboth's vineyard to the wicked king of Israel. ' Thou shalt not covet,' sounded in Isabel Compton's ears every Sunday. Nevertheless, in the naughtiness of her secret heart, she envied Miriam Earle. • II NABOTH'S VINEYARD 'NABOTH'S vineyard/ or in other words, Felix Earle, had been from his earliest boyhood the pride of the village. He had been Mr. Ackroyd's favourite pupil, and the good-hearted man had devoted some of his precious evening hours, two or three times a week, to teach him Latin and the rudiments of Greek, but the clever, sharp-witted lad had soon outgrown his master. 'Mark my words, Vicar,' Mr. Ackroyd would say, rubbing his hands together while his face beamed, 'Sandilands will be proud of Felix Earle yet ; that lad has plenty of real grit in him,' and though the schoolmaster's geese were not all swans, and Felix was never likely to prove 'a village Hampden' or 'a mute inglorious Milton,' still it could not be denied that he had undoubted talents, and a thirst for knowledge that was not easily slaked. When Miriam Earle responded to that clause in the Litany, ' From pride, vain glory 103 to4 THE TWO MOTHERS and hypocrisy, Good Lord deliver us,' her thoughts always recurred to her boy. ' I hope I am not too much set up about Felix,' she would say to herself, ' but when I think of him, sometimes I am most carried away with my pride in him ; and he is a good lad too, and never gave me an hour's uneasiness since he was born ; not but what madam up at the Big House could say the same of her son ' ; for out of respect for her foreign blood and dark picturesque beauty, Mrs. Compton was generally called Madam in the village. The women of the place respected the mistress of Kingsdene, but even Miriam Earle — the cleverest and brightest of them — found it difficult to get on with her. ' Madam has a way with her ; she is a bit too high and mighty for the likes of us,' she would say. 'One could not love her as one loved Miss Patience. Ah, she was a saint was Miss Patience, and the Vicar, poor man, is just lost without her. But madam has got her troubles too; no one could look in her face and not see that ; but there, I must be careful of my words, or I shall have Pen flying out at me — that girl fairly worships the ground that madam treads on.' The cottage where Miriam Earle lived with her step-niece and adopted daughter, Penelope Crump, stood a little above the post-office at Audley End. Audlcy End comprised two long straggling NABOTH'S VINEYARD 105 streets just beyond the Silverdale Tavern, each street opening out on a strip of open common. The road where Miriam's house stood was generally called the Street, 'and going down Street' in Sandi- lands always meant an errand to the post-office or the bakery. Miriam's cottage resembled all the others : there was the same red-bricked path leading up to the door ; the same gay garden-plot full of profusely blooming plants ; the same bee- hive chair and bench in the ample porch ; but instead of the row of red geraniums in the window, there were three glass canisters, one containing spiced gingerbread nuts with a delectable almond on each, another filled with puffy dough-nuts, and a third dedicated to a particular apricot sandwich that was esteemed a special delicacy in Sandilands. There, since her husband's death, Miriam had lived and carried on a thriving trade : no such cakes as hers were to be tasted ten miles round Sandilands. When the mistress of Kingsdene gave one of her garden or winter tea-parties, the housekeeper always ordered a goodly supply of cakes from the bakery, as Miriam's cottage was termed, and even Mrs. Catlin at the Vicarage bespoke Miriam's help at the school treats and choir suppers and other parish functions ; and nothing pleased the good ladies of Sandilands more, than when some smart London guest praised the chocolate, or 106 THE TWO MOTHERS Sultana cake, and asked if they came from Fuller or Buzzard. Miriam Earle took an innocent pride in her own handiwork ; she was quite aware that her fame had travelled to Brentwood and Donarton. Did not the Squire's lady at Donarton Grange actually drive over herself to order all manner of good things when Miss Frances was married? Felix used to joke his mother sometimes and call her a vainglorious woman. 'Sandilands can't get on without you, mother,' he would say. 'The bakery is as famous in its way as Kingsdene or the Vicarage,' and she always answered him seriously. ' I doubt they '11 miss me pretty badly, lad, when I am gone,' she would say in her brisk way as she rolled out her rich paste. It was quite a liberal education to see the little woman at her work. Her fresh round face looked as sweet and whole- some as a ripe russet apple ; and her trim, neat figure in the black cotton gown, and grey-and- black checked shawl pinned invariably across her chest, and the widow's cap set so nattily on her glossy hair, gave her an air of respectability ; one enjoyed the cakes all the better when one had watched the busy fingers — and then to see the lavish hand with which she showered the good things. Miriam never parted with one of her recipes — NABOTH'S VINEYARD 107 that was her one niggardliness ; the thumbscrew and the rack together would not have induced her to divulge her secret with regard to her almond gingerbread nuts, and not all Miss Batesby's teasing and coaxing could draw it from her. Miss Batesby could buy as many as she liked fresh and new from the oven every Tuesday and Friday, and the dough-nuts on Wednesdays and Saturdays ; the apricot jam sandwich never failed. ' We have it always on hand,' as Miriam assured her rather solemnly. ' But Miriam,' remonstrated the spinster mildly, ' it is not for myself I want it; I have told you that before. Of course it is right for you to have your own monopoly in Sandilands, and no one would grudge it to you for a moment ; but it 's my poor sister in London ; she is a widow, you know, and has a large family, and she is trying to make ends meet with that school of hers at Highbury. You are a widow yourself,' looking reproachfully at Miriam's crisp cap border, 'and you ought to feel for a woman in the same afflic- tion.' ' Indeed, Miss Batesby, you are right there,' and Miriam took a handful of rich amber peel in her plump palm and eyed it critically. ' Never spoil the ship for a hap'orth of tea,' was her favourite axiom ; ' put in twice as much as the cookery book tells you, and you will be about right' 'Yes, Miss Batesby, you are speaking gospel truth there, and I felt sadly put about when I saw 108 THE TWO MOTHERS Mrs. Marple last summer, she looked for all the world like a cucumber run to seed ; but having the recipe for my almond gingerbread cakes won't help her to fill her school, so you will kindly excuse me from going from my rule. But if you are making up a parcel for Highbury about Christmas-time, and would like a dozen or two of the almond nuts for the children, why, say so, and you will be kindly welcome,' and actually Miss Batesby, who had no pride, and was heavily weighted with small means, and a number of needy nephews and nieces, closed with this generous offer. Miriam's work was always carried on in the inner room which served as kitchen and bake- house ; it opened on a pleasant yard where Pen's numerous family of hens and pigeons lived. In the outer room, a deal table scoured freshly every morning held her stock-in-trade ; the other part was used as a living-room by the family. There stood the old grandfather's clock that had been an heirloom in the family for generations. On the little round table they ate their simple meals, and there Pen stitched and mended and kept a wary eye on the small boys who crowded round the window. An old-fashioned bureau with a couple of shelves filled with books, and a reading-lamp with a green shade, represented Felix's study ; NABOTH'S VINEYARD 109 and here for the first seventeen or eighteen years of his life Felix lived a hard-working uneventful life, dreaming dreams and seeing visions, all of which he would pour into Pen's sympathetic ears. Pen was only a few months younger than Felix. She was a fair delicate-looking girl, not pretty, but with a certain capability for beauty in her face. Her eyes were full of expression, and her smile was very sweet : by nature she was reserved and somewhat silent, and no one, not even her adopted mother, guessed the intensity of her affection for the handsome clever lad who had been her play- fellow. When he was a mere boy, Felix had announced that he and Pen meant to marry each other some day, and as they grew up it was understood in Sandilands that they were sweethearts ; perhaps on Felix's side it was mere lad's love, but at that time Pen was certainly a necessity to him. No one else so thoroughly understood and sympathised with him ; his most startling theories failed to alarm her — she would sit for hours content to listen only to his rhapsodies, and all his restless- ness and discontent with his humble environment never drew a repining from her lips. When he told her that he must go up to London and work, though the separation was like death to her, she acquiesced without a mur- mur, and only strove to reconcile her aunt to the no THE TWO MOTHERS parting. From her earliest years Felix had com- pletely dominated her, and his will and opinions were hers. Doubtless this submission on Pen's part was a subtle form of flattery to Felix. Pen's gentle- ness and ready response soothed him, and then she was more refined than the other girls in Sandilands. Even when he was walking the London hospitals and visited at the houses of his fellow-students, Pen did not at first suffer by comparison with his friend's sisters ; they were smarter and more cultured, but a little of Pen's modesty and simplicity would have improved them, he thought, and during his brief visit home he seemed just as eager to talk to her as ever. Felix was certainly born under a lucky star — he always turned up trumps, as Mr. Cornish told him. Now it so happened that Richard Compton's most intimate friend was a famous London surgeon : Bob Burnaby, as he was always called by his intimates, had been at Charterhouse with Richard Compton, and, though on leaving school their paths in life had widely diverged, Richard going to Mincing Lane and Bob Burnaby to Cambridge, they had never lost sight of each other, and before Mr. Burnaby married he often came down to Kingsdene to snatch a few whiffs of sweet country air. When Felix was about seventeen or eighteen, NABOTH'S VINEYARD m Mr. Burnaby had a serious accident that nearly cost him his life, and for some months his medical advisers recommended entire rest and quiet; when this reached Richard Compton's ears nothing would satisfy him until he got the invalid to Kingsdene. 'You can be as quiet as you like,' he said ruefully, for, being the season, he and his wife were at their Flat, ' but I shall often run down to see you,' and as Mrs. Burnaby was a sensible woman, she soon persuaded her husband that it would be folly to refuse his friend's offer. ' Kingsdene is a thoroughly comfortable house,' she said quietly, ' and Mrs. Compton always has such good servants ; if we take Hatton with us, we shall not give much extra trouble, and it will be so pleasant for you, Robert, to sit out on that lovely terrace, now you cannot walk,' and then Mr. Burnaby allowed himself to be persuaded, and for more than two months he and his wife enjoyed Richard Compton's hospitality. It could not be denied that the society of the clever doctor was a treasure-trove to Mr. Went- worth, and after a time he went daily to Kingsdene. One Sunday, when Mr. Burnaby was well enough to attend service, he asked the name of a handsome dark-looking youth in the choir. ' He has a wonderfully intelligent face,' he said, ' I could not help noticing him.' ii2 THE TWO MOTHERS 'Oh, that is our village genius,' returned the Vicar, smiling; 'you should ask Ackroyd about him ; he is his pet pupil. His name is Felix Earle, and that fair girl who joined him in the porch is his sweetheart (all the lads have their lasses in Sandilands) ; he really is a clever fellow, even Cornish owns that I lend him books sometimes, and Ackroyd is teaching him Latin. I hear his great ambition is to be a doctor.' ' Tell him to come up and have a talk with me,' and in this way the celebrated London surgeon and Felix Earle became friends. Mr. Burnaby soon took a real liking for the clever ambitious lad, who told him straight out to his face that he would never rest until he became a medical student. ' Of course I know the difficulties, sir,' he went on, as they sat together on the terrace ; ' my mother is only a poor woman, and my father was the village sexton ; but every one has a right to do the work he is cut out for, and I know if I could have my chance I should get on. You will not think that I am boasting, Mr. Burnaby, sir, if I say I have learnt all that Mr. Ackroyd can teach me — the Vicar will tell you the same. I owe the master a debt ; I shall be grateful to him all my life for the Latin and Greek he has taught me ; but there are other things that I must learn, heaps of things,' and here Felix clenched his hands nervously. Poor lad, the thought NABOTH'S VINEYARD 113 of his own ignorance fevered him as he tossed through many a wakeful hour on his truckle-bed. Often Pen was awake too, listening to him ; how was she to sleep when she knew Felix was restless ? Mr. Burnaby said very little, but he encouraged the lad to talk ; he even took the trouble to put him through his paces, but whatever he felt he kept to himself; but to the Vicar he avowed more than once that Felix Earle had undoubted talents. ' Ackroyd is right, and he will make his mark, but he must have a fair chance,' and then he lapsed into so brown a study, that his wife first scolded him and then coaxed him into taking a stroll with her. ' You must not think, Robert,' she said severely ; ' your poor head is to rest, you know that,' and then she talked to him in her cheery, comfortable way about the flowers and the birds and the beauty of the June tints, for if ever a hard- worked doctor had a good wife that woman was Grace Burnaby. There were no children in the handsome house in Harley Street — that was the one bitter drop in their cup. The prosperous surgeon would never have a son to inherit his honours and to be proud of his father's name, and though Grace Burnaby strove not to repine unduly, her heart often ached because no little footsteps and no prattling tongues made music in the house, and now and then she H ii4 THE TWO MOTHERS would hint to her husband that they might adopt a child, but he always discouraged this idea. 'You shall do as you like, Grace,' he said once — ' after all, it is more your affair than mine ; I am too much engrossed with my work to require any distraction, but in my opinion we are happier as we are ; no child could be like our own ' ; and then very reluctantly she gave up the idea, and contented herself with visiting her creche, and spoiling all her young nieces and nephews. Mr. Burnaby was very silent and abstracted all the rest of that day, but in the evening he had a long talk with his wife, and the next morning he sent for Felix Earle. ' Look here, Earle,' he said in his curt way, ' I have been thinking things over, and I have made up my mind to give you a helping hand. I am going back to Harley Street in about a fortnight, and if you like, and your mother approves, you shall go up with me, and enter at King's College. I know a decent place where you could get rooms, close to the British Museum ; an old butler of mine takes in some of the students, and his wife is a nice motherly woman. No, please, don't interrupt me,' as Felix with a crimson face tried to interpose a word. ' I want you to hear me out. I am a busy man, and have no children ; if my life is spared, I shall probably be a rich one. It will be no inconvenience to pay all necessary NABOTH'S VINEYARD 115 expenses until you can earn money for yourself. It is a matter of pure business,' he went on in the same cool dry tone, for his keen eyes saw that the poor lad's agitation threatened to overmaster him. ' I do not give you the money, I only lend it; when you have done your hospital training, and have taken some grand berth, it will be time enough to talk of repayment — until then,' and now his hand rested kindly on Felix's shoulder, 'you must let me do my best for you.' And it was in this noble way that Mr. Burnaby became Felix Earle's benefactor. Mr. Burnaby always spoke very lightly of his beneficence. He was living within his income ; neither he nor his wife had extravagant tastes ; if he chose to indulge in a little cheap philanthropy, no one could blame him. ' Besides,' he would add, 1 I knew it would be a safe investment for my spare cash ; directly I spoke to the lad, I was sure that if we both lived, I should get every penny back,' and Mr. Burnaby was right. ' Owe no man anything but to love one another,' had been Miriam Earle's favourite text, and she had taught it to her boy ; but perhaps only Pen knew the deep gratitude and veneration that filled Felix's heart for the man who had put out a helping hand to him. 1 I am housed like a prince,' he wrote in one of his first letters ; ' Mrs, Mullins is such a kind n6 THE TWO MOTHERS woman, and reminds me a little of you, mother — perhaps because she always wears a black-and- white checked shawl.' 'Dear heart, Pen, just to think of that,' ejacu- lated Miriam, ' and I bought my check at Cramp- ton's stores twelve years ago, never thinking it would be the fashion.' ' Everything is so beautifully clean, tell Pen, and old Mullins is such a nice chap, all the fellows like him ; and it is so quiet too. If it were not for the smuts and the dingy look of the house, and a curious want of sunshine, I should never guess that I was in London. Of course I see very little of Mr. Burnaby, but now and then I am invited to tea on Sunday, and then he asks all about my work. Tell Pen I wish she could go with me and hear the grand singing at the Foundling ; one of our fellows took me to West- minster Abbey last Sunday, it was just glorious.' 4 Isn't he happy, Pen?' Miriam would say, as she folded up the letter. And when Mrs. Comp- ton came down from the big House to order a fresh supply of cakes, Miriam would treat her to ample quotations from her boy's letter. There are odd contradictions in human nature. Mrs. Compton might easily have sent down her orders by one of her maids ; but though she secretly envied Miriam Karle, and her visits to the bakery always depressed her, she could not NABOTH'S VINEYARD 117 keep away ; a necessity seemed laid upon her to follow, however grudgingly, step by step, Felix Earle's career. She even gloated over every fresh success with a sort of morbid fascination. Every stiff examination that Felix passed, every change in his hospital career, every fresh token of Mr. Burnaby's interest in his promising protege were all retailed by Miriam to Madam, when she came down street ; when Felix became house surgeon at Guy's, the news was carried by the Vicar himself to Kingsdene. 1 I saw Burnaby in town yesterday,' he said, ' and he told me the news. He seems immensely proud of Felix. He says he is one of the cleverest fellows he has ever known ; he has worked splendidly. He will be one of our first surgeons one of these days, — he actually said that ; his heart is in his work, and he thinks of little else ' ; and these words, spoken by the kindly Vicar, were gall and bitterness to Mrs. Compton. Jack was enjoying his heart's desire just then, and making his big tour round the world. On the whole he was having a good time ; though it must be averred Ben Bolt was a trifle demoralised. He rather stood upon his dignity as a British growler, and was inclined to be snappish to the Japanese and other foreign dogs. ' His bark is more bumptious than it used to be,' wrote Jack, in one of his disjointed and straggling epistles. n8 THE TWO MOTHERS Poor Jack ! letter-writing was not one of his accomplishments. ' The other day he quarrelled with some Mandarin's dog and insulted him grossly ; I had to give him a taste of the stick before he would leave off growling. Some of those little Japs are handsome little fellows ; if it were not for fear of Ben's sulking, I would bring you home one as a pet.' Mrs. Compton had not seen Felix Earle for years ; she had never come across him during his brief visits to Sandilands, but one evening they met in an unexpected way. Mrs. Compton had been spending some weeks in town, and was returning to Kingsdene. By some mischance, when she reached Donarton, the carriage had not arrived, and she was left waiting for more than twenty minutes. It was a wet evening, and the few flies in attendance at the station were soon occupied by the other passengers. The only other occupant of the waiting-room was a tall dark young man in a grey overcoat, who was standing by the window looking out rather discontentedly at the driving rain. When the station-master entered to tell Mrs. Compton that her carriage had at last arrived, he stopped on the way to speak to the young man. ' The rain docs not mean to hold off, sir,' he said civilly; 'there is a leaden look about the sky that I don't like. You would be wet through NABOTH'S VINEYARD 119 before you were half-way to Sandilands ; better let me send a message to the Inn for another fly.' 'Very well,' returned the other, and then Mrs. Compton interposed. The stranger was well dressed and gentlemanly-looking ; very likely he was some friend of Mr. Wentworth's. His appearance was decidedly prepossessing ; there could be no harm in showing him a little civility. ' If this gentleman is going to Sandilands, Horton, I shall be very pleased to give him a seat in my carriage,' she said plausibly, and then as Felix Earle turned his frill face to her, with a sudden flash of recognition, she almost gasped with surprise.