Ex Libris C. K. OGDEN < THE LIBRARY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA LOS ANGELES IDYLLS OF WOMANHOOD By the same A utkor. SAPPHO. Some Opinions of tbe press. " Whatever the situation may be or require, the poetry itself is often of admirable quality human always if not dramatic, full of thought, of pensive- ness, of quiet feeling, with a tone in it, measured and brooding, as of one taking delicate note of the things within and without not ideas, not emotions merely, but the flash of drops from the leaf, the voice of the thrush from the thicket, the glint of gold on a passing drapery. Not the Greek Sappho indeed Greek in nothing but her name unsensu- ous, self-restrained, a moral minister yet the Sappho whom we see here is a woman ' worthy the loving and the world's delight,' drawn by one who is able to portray a noble ideal, as one sees it now and then, incarnated in some rare woman." Pall Mall Gazette. " An epic of much poetical force and strength in blank verse, but rhythmically melodious, is Mr. C. A. Dawson's ' Sappho.' Sappho's soliloquy is worthy to rank beside some other eloquent and famous passages of blank verse, and Mr. Dawson deserves to be congratulated on what we assume to be his first public appearance as a poet." Graphic, " ' Sappho ' is a work of which it is difficult to convey an adequate idea in a bnef review. Enough has perhaps been said to show that its author has elevation of style, as well as poetical fancy." Morning Post. " In ' Sappho 'Mr. C. A. Dawson has produced a poem not unworthy of his theme. It is full of high aspiration and beautiful idealism, of melody, passion, and power." Scotsman. IDYLLS OF WOMANHOOD BY C. AMY DAWSON AUTHOR OF ' SAPI'HO LONDON WILLIAM HEINEMANN 1892 {All rights reserved^ To F. T. C. THIS BOOK /S DEDICATED IN REVERENT AFFECTION BY 10S6S31 CONTENTS TAGE A WOMAN'S ETHICS . . i A WOMAN'S LOVE 17 KUKHMABAI 37 WOMAN'S WIT . . 64 A WOMAN'S VENGEANCE 67 A WOMAN'S FAITH 92 A WOMAN'S SIN 99 A WOMAN'S ETHICS OUT of the deeps of the valley, the shadowy deeps grey- green, Where the glimmer of twilight water, steals up thro' ascending glooms, And the pines are a whispering darkness, clear-sketched in the after- glow Of a sun-god slain in his berserk, and slain with his face to the foe, Out of the deeps we toiled, and found the leaves on the lawn Tossed in a windy swirl, a dance of russet and brown, Tossed and scattered and torn, as thou and I in the past, The past that is folded in dark, as our dead in the silence of God. And I felt with the wind on my brow, and the stretch of the golden skies A-deepening down the hills, till their radiance gathered and passed A of IKHomanbooO And only the eyelid of wisdom, might hold the sun-beauty foreseen And evolved thro' the numberless ages of mist, and chaos, and dark I felt that the pain must have speech, that the life of my innermost life, The life that was hushed in despair, as a spring in the caves of the sea, Must rise, heart-ruddied and rise, till it broke thro' the billows of sleep, Till it ran up the weed wet beaches, and shallowed away and was lost, A scattering echo of grief, that is stilled by the dirge of the deep. Friend friend of my noon of the dawning and strife of my day My friend to hearken and heed, tho' the lapsing cloud- heavy years Have burdened thee sore with a sorrow, an infinite sorrow God wots Not grief like my absolute grief, a pool that is stagnant and still ; Not death like that absolute death, that is held in the dying of love, But parting the parting of souls the parting of souls for an hour, Or less for the space of a cry, of a wind-echoed wander- ing wail. a lUoman's JEtbics 3 Not you to forget how we dreamed, when the larch new- tasselled with green Swayed over our heads in the woodland, and brown on the bloom-white spray Swelled the throats of the songsters warbling of summer- rich glooms and gold. We dreamed, and our dream was a hero a Galahad virgin-pure With a face like the freshness of morning and thoughts unsoiled as the light, When it leaps thro' the heavens aflush, gold-spearing the recreant shades. And we vowed standing deep in the mosses, we vowed by the bonds of our love, By our sisters lost in the cities, by womanhood's weakness and strength, That the men we would wed should be pure, should be pure of all sensual sin As the Christ and our maiden souls, we vowed it and turned again, Threading the tangle of grasses, and wandering deep in the wood. We dreamed when the rose was in bud, and before the full flush of the flower Had lighted the gardens, and given its golden-sweet heart to the sun, One came from the city your hero, a scholarly man and grave, 4 35sll6 of TKflomanbooD Wise with the wisdom of science, a thinker, a worker and more Yet who knew not of love, was content to search out beginnings of truth ; A man half-asleep but you spoke, and he roused as the warrior afar, Who hears the faint note of the clarion, the echo of thundering feet, All the turmoil and hurry of conflict, and stumbles full- armed to his feet ; A man with the faults of his manhood, but rilled with an earnest desire To learn, as a child of its mother, to climb, groping up- wards and on, Till he paused on the levels of love, the levels where God meets the soul And sanctifies, purifies, burns, till the dross has been parted, and leaves The pure metal, the gold, the love-gold, the element matchless and rare, So rare in our pitiful world, that we blend it and tinker and spread, Just its gleam on the poor wooden frame of the daub that we show as a life. Thus were dreams over-filled ere the summer had deepened the green of the beech ; You wedded, and from the white roadway the thunder of galloping hoofs S tUoman's Etbics 5 Smote chill on my heart tho : the lilies yet lifted their pride by the way, And the lark was triumphantly trilling his story of music and love. You left me, a girl in the flower and flush of impetuous youth, A girl with a scattering" of gold where now is thegreyness of time. And behold, now the autumns are ten, since we trod the brown leaves under foot, (Half-a-score of hot years! so o'erfilled with labour and earnest desire To lift the dark earth out of pain and the seedlings and urgings of sin, That our hands have not touched) you return, but alas in the shadow of loss, You return, but your footsteps are lonely, you stretch out a tremulous hand For help and remember. Oh death, of the mystic " one flesh " making twain, Making twain with a rattle of bones with skeleton face.s a-grin, Methinks thou wert wanton in snatching, when others had leapt at thy call, Merry footing to tunes of despair, to the echo of clods on a grave. And I ? Well he came in the autumn, a man happy- hearted and hot, of WomanbooD With laughter laid under his lashes, a man of intangible charm, But you know it the charm of one man for one woman, the charm That is love at first sight, the dim knowledge that here is our nature's completion ; He came, but my meadows were many, my gold as the wheat of a land, And he was but a soldier, the son of a race that had sprung from the soil In the near yesterday. So they spake, and my lover went forth in his pride, In a madness of pain, that must burn, tho' he steeped it in passion and sin. The days grew apace into months, but the dew of the morn was a tear, A pathqs now lurked in the valley, a sorrow lay dark on the hill, And the. woodland was ever a whisper that throbbed with the sadness of love, While all music was mystery, yearning a tremor of memories awake The murmurous sound of a voice, a voice that was sweet in my ear As the nightingale's song. Standing rich in their bind- ings of vellum and calf, Were the tomes that my fathers had gathered, the thoughts of the wonderful dead, a "Ottoman's Etbica 7 And I learnt, sitting low at their feet, until life seemed a moment of time, And my pain but the breath of a \veecl that has rooted and bloomed among flowers Till rich with the wisdom of ages, and walking in meadows of thought, I learnt an endurance of all things. Elaine had been many-year wife To his brother, and widowed now dwelt, within neigh- bourly distance a friend, With a tongue that must ever be pouring its runnel of wearisome chat, Yet his sister and therefore a friend. One languorous storm-heavy gloam, When mists lay dense on the marsh and the waves of a whitening sea Heaved greyly and fell, we were sitting in dusk of a darkening room, And dropping her voice to a whisper, she spake of men's folly, the sin Of one man among others my love. I turned with the thrust in my heart, Turned dumbly and left her the fires of a shrinking and sensitive shame Ablaze in my soul, ruddy flames, that flickered and brightened and burnt, Till the sweetness of love, its white honour, its purity, patience and trust, Were as weeds on a smouldering heap or the ash of a funeral pyre. 8 3&gll5 of lUomanbooD But out in the gloom of the woods where brandies were wailing the storm, For the winds with a wakening sough had crept out of their caves and away, And the sea had a moan in its murmur, a prescient sorrowful moan I could suffer. The plash of the rain and the quiver of loose-leaping light Were round and above me, with crash of the mutinous thunder, but deep In my world-hidden glen, was a strife more deadly, for faith had been bruised, And the patience that comes from unfaith is a patience akin to despair. The storm-pinions folded again and the day that had wounded my life, Beyond healing and hope laid its head on the merciful bosom of night, But the dawns that should be, must follow and creep from the arms of the east, Must redden the apples and change, must scatter the yellowing leaves, Till the first hoar-frost of the winter stole over the meadows, and took The old life from its chair by the ingle. I rose up as carelessly free As the wind in the pines and behold, as a face at the window my love. B lUoman's Etbics 9 Oh God ! but his kiss of betrothal yet burned on my tremulous lips, And the ring of his voice was as sweet, as when erst he had murmured of love. Was it mine to deny him and pause, to stifle the hunger that leapt To answer caress with caress and to cry in the term of our vow : " The man whom I wed must be pure, must be pure of all sensual sin As the Christ and my maiden soul?" I spake it, and whitened again As the answer grew on his cheek, with never denial or word. When the dizzy beatings of pain had lessened their clamorous throbs, I pleaded : " Oh wrong of all wrongs, to betray with a promise of love, Wrong to her, to the world, and to me, a smirch of dis- honour and shame On the arms that you bear. For the sake of the woman who cradled thy youth, Who pointing to purity ever, would show thee the way ; for the sake Of one who would hold to thine honour as men overboard to a rope Turn back to this flower of the meadows, this flower thou hast crushed in the way. of Before God thou hast made her thy wife, and God shall require it of thee. Dost thou think, that because man has muttered no sanctified form of bald words Over thy union, it was the less marriage, with God for the priest of thy vows ? " He answered with specious assertion, men were not as maids, and his love Had been mine without swerving or change. For his sin ? it had been but a slip, A passing temptation, an impulse. " Alas, when the sum of our deeds Is told over in infinite time, and we render our sorry account, The terrible searchings of truth shall be turned on each paltry excuse, Till it shrivel and blacken and fall as a moth that is caught by the flame. Before God men and women are bound to be equally honest, as pure The man as the woman 'fore God ! Men have tinkered humanity's laws, Till the woman so dwells in injustice, her faith is merged into a doubt Of all justice eternal or earthly. Oh heart by the love that is crown Of our sorrow, turn back to thy choice, turn back as a bird to its mate. a lUoman's JEtbics n Oh love tho : our hearts must be torn, until life seem a vision of pain, Give me back what is dearer than love, my faith in the man I have set After God in my worship, the faith that you only can give me again. :> Sore was the strife, but he yielded I knew not the thing that I asked, Yet if this were the wage of his sin ay me, but his very consent Given slowly and grudged was an anguish, an anguish edged doubly and sharp As a knife 'twixt the shoulders, a word, that smote on my heart as it fell. The country was silent in snow as we whirled thro' the desolate land, And saw in a sparkle of sunlight, the spires of the city arise With the prayerful breath of the few. We questioned in alley and court, Till we found her, a girl very pretty, but flighty and garish and loud, A little dim soul that had walked in the dark amid pitfalls and slipped. And in dusk of a rain-heavy dawning, they stood by the altar, a gloom Of dim aisles stretching westward in stillness, a hush on the belfry above. of But I turned from the mutter of voices, the murmurs of wedding assent, The promise of love that had faded, of honour that was but a name, To look through the brightening window, where laughter of riotous light Had lifted the curtains of cloud ; and I prayed, " Oh Father, Thy strength ! For the burden is heavy to bear, the thorns without ever a rose, And I very human and weak, oh weak as a soft-footed babe That would hold to its mother and venture." I prayed, and was answered in strength, Not mine, nor of me, but a gift ; and could gather the girl in my arms, Mine to hold, mine in patience, in love a bride whom her husband disdained, Who nor answered his rough-laid commands, his careless farewell, nor his touch, An indifferent kiss, a hand-clasp, but looked outward, her glance on the grime Of the London-dark houses. Yet thick in forget-me-not eyes stood the tears, As his ship, moving out of her moorings, unfurled her swan-wings, and the mist Enfolded her swift in its silver, its moon-silver veilings of light. a raoman's jEtbfcs 13 The glamour of winter yet rested on meadow and forest and hill, With a silence of slumberthat stiffened the shadows adown in the dells, And deepened the rest of the woodland, stretching the icicle down From the thatch-covered eaves of the cottage, and leaving a wonder of leaves In frost on the casement ; and we, two souls that were nearing in love Went to sick and to sad in the village, the crisping rime on the ruts Of the winding desolate street, I, teaching, a word and a thought, And she, as a field in the spring, that is softened by sorrow in snow, A field that is fit for the plough, and the after sowing of seed. For deep in her heart was a spark, neither coldness nor absence might quench, And the flash of her love made as daylight our dusk of monotonous years. Oh ! hey for the roses of summer, the sun-mellowed sweet- ness of June ! When the bushes awake into crimson, the richness of verdure and bloom, And a pale moss-bud is the chosen, the queen of the blossoming boughs, of TKflomanbooD That nod out their honey-fragrance, in languorous scents of the noon. She gathered the wealth of the roses, and turning had broken the stem Of a single moon-silver lily, a pure thing widened at dawn From bud into perfect bloom, and was standing, the flush of her youth Clear-shining in eyes of affection, as sun-brightened waters at dawn A wife all as fair as the roses, as pure as the lily she held, And as sweet as the fragrance of summer a wife all as lovely as Eve In the Biblical legend sweet Eve, ere Adam had roused from his sleep. And a stranger who leant on the gate, hushed, marvelled a little, and came Crying, in love-happy accents, the accents and words that were mine, " Wife ! is it you ? My wife ! Oh, why was this womanly grace Undreamed of my heart, all the years that I wandered away and away ! " And I, who had sat at the window, day-dreaming a little, and sad, Caught my breath in a sob. It was well. For this I had laboured and prayed ; B lUoman's JEtbics 15 For this I had given my hope of a love that should ans\ver my own ; For this oh, All-Father forgive ! but the passionate pain is alive As an arrow-head deep in the flesh. It is well ; but the anguish Oh, God ! Is there salve for me none ? Be content, little heart, that has gained its desire. He loves her, and thou art forgotten ; thy patience has earned its reward. True husband, he loves without stain. When the harvest is cut from the earth, Who cares that it grew on a grave and browned over sleep of the dead ? The Past is a book which is closed till an Infinite Love shall unfold And blot out its errors. We seek after happiness rather than good ; And yet in our innermost souls we know it were better to leave The feast and the frolic of youth, the soberer sweetness of age To pace through the desert alone, and forgotten as love can forget Than to sit down content with dishonour, to sit down content. Oh, sweet eyes ! That are dim with the sorrow of others, love smites with so heavy a hand, 16 And we are so weak, not a leaf, tossed high in the sport of the wind, Not a dew-flashing spearlet of grass, but is stronger to bear and abide. Lo ! Diana has deepened her silver, and shines as a crescent of gold, A light on the hill and a shadow, a darkness in deeps of the vale ; The moan of the wandering wind has eddied away, and the panes Of the low-browed cottages gleam, each pane with a tiny ray, The light of a labouring household father and wife and babe. But the earnest touch of your fingers, oh, Mary ! is calling me back, And a murmur of patience arises ; of patience content with its day, A patience that taketh no thought, and asketh no hope, but is glad In its duties, as once long ago, before sorrow and love were acquaint. A WOMAN'S LOVE NURSE, is he coming ? set the door ajar That I may hear the thud of horse'' s hoofs That side the river, hear it above all The deafening" beats of blood that whisper '' death ! : ' To die ! to fold my hands in prayer, and leave What shall be to the father-mother care Of the All-loving, this hot agony Or hellish pain, sleep-withered as a leaf Which the night frosts have nipped, and all my griefs Turned to the numbness of yon marble urn ! Dead ! my griefs dead ? This heart-ache as a pang That is forgotten, and my yearnings hushed As though they had not been ? If death could bring A sure forgetfulness he were not held So terrible, as sweet. And yet to leave The cycling of my love a faithless moon, Deserting its wan planet for an age Of solitary whirling through the heavens ; To leave friends kindred home nay then such loss Were less than nought in this dark hour of pain, When I must leave not home, nor kin, nor friends, But only Mark, my Mark i8 A step that rings On the resounding flags ! it comes alas, The echoes answer faintly, and it dies Upon the hill, as yet another hour Is counted from the steeple. Though he spur The gallant roan, I may not hope to hear The sudden splash of riders at the ford, Until the freshness of the dawn has dewed The sweet lush grass, and every yellow eye That opens on the mead. The night is chill, Or I am numb with cold of creeping death ; So numb, the pain has gathered round my heart, And life is but a yearning, an intense Strong prayer, too deep for issue of poor words That I may linger till these tired eyes Have looked again on that stern-featured face, Which in the long ago I learnt to love Oh not too well, when once we break the box It needs must follow that the precious oil Will spill its golden fragrance drop by drop Upon the chosen life. Come hither, Nurse, Your watching will not bring him, and I fear To pass with all this weight of craving love, These tarnished memories and the secret hurt That sapped my joy, unspoken. In that hush Whose gloom is even now about my feet, The hidden burden of my life might press Too heavily upon my sleeping soul For quiet rest, and I be roused to walk As other wandering souls about the world, B tlloman's 2Love Until the trump of doom. So sit you nigh Till I can find the outlet of sad words, And with their bitter, hasty overflow Loosen the ice the ice about my soul. Mark was my fathers godson, and the child Of an old comrade who had left his dull And wifeless age, this tender legacy. My father's godson and his heir ; a strong And merry presence in the ancient halls That gloomed above a student and his books. But ere my Mark had sown his college cats, The old man's fancy chanced upon a maid Who took the picture for its golden frame, The shrunken thinker for his lands and wealth And I was born, as Isaac, a weak thing, Which yet was destined to stretch out a hand, And snatch at Ishmael's promised heritage. I wronged my Mark in living, and the toss And tangle of this after time have grown From those unnecessary breaths, which laid My hapless mother in her grave. I lived, But did not think to play as other babes, Being uncertain of my strength, and sad ; With memories of a near eternity, Yet looking from my wistful eyes, and death Beckoning ever with my mother's hand. Yet did I struggle out of infancy As lilies grow, a slender stem, a leaf, of IClomanbooD Grass-like and poor, and a yet hidden flower ; And all my joy was in the whispering woods, Where the brown rabbit brushed tlr uncurling brake, While under tassels of the larch, the pale Blue mist of bells chimed out a honey-breath. And overhead in solemn gathering The rooks debated, and a wanderer sailed Into the red heart of the setting sun. To sit and watch, sometimes to read till all The mighty volumes ranged along the shelves Of that dim room wherein my father wrote, Were as wise friends, not wholly understood But studied was the solace of a youth, So lonely that the very thrushes sang Beside it unaffrighted. The old man Bowed under the hoar burden of his years, Till Time had counted eighty and yet eight. And then he, dying, called my Mark again From where he laboured in a foreign town ; Saying, " If I was father to thy youth Prove it this day, and take the child I leave Into thy ward. Take her her lands her gold And make them thine so shall I die content," And flushing with some memory of youth, He turned the pathos of dim eyes, that strove And strove in vain to pierce the mists of death On Mark. " You do not love ? " he said, and stayed Until the face before him with a flash Of love and pride and easy confidence, Dispelled the doubt ; " Love is a thing apart, 21 Idoman's Xcvc 2\ For idlesse or for earnest, and my life Has been too kill of labour, for much stir Or heat of passion therefore am I free ; And Mildred from this hour shall be my ward My charge my wife, that so I may repay In slender measure ail the store of love Expended on my drifting orphan-hood." So were we wedded ere my father died, A scholar and a wilding of the woods ! But each as other ignorant of love, And the deep mystery of dual life Not passion but the breaking down of walls That stretch between us and the sympathy Of kindred natures the free intercourse Of souls that loving once, shall never more Be closed in loneliness. We pledged the dim Unknown of days, sowing the seed of ill With prayers, and vowing an enduring love That could not be, as lightly as a child Might swear to compass deeds of Heracles; For neither knew the sin of wedding-bonds That bind no love, and in white ignorance Must choose the downward path. Too weak to bear The myriad petty cares of household rule, And over young for wifehood, I was sent To a dull London school, where leaves and buds And laughter of the dryads of the woods, Were as the memory of light, to some Blind captive ; there in pale routine, to shut The date of battles in a brain, that searched All history for the might of hero-thoughts, And loathed to hear of wanton strife, of hosts Slain by some ruffian warrior, and the rude Blood-staining of the innocent green sward. For two long tedious years I strove to learn All fair refinements that a county dame To whom the still-room is more beautiful Than any glade bemossed and flower-strewn, With wide boughs nearin^ the green earth, and glad Brown waters brawling on their lilied way Should know. But ere I parted from my nook, The bent arm of an oak, to walk sedate Through lordly London streets, my husband spake Of all that I must grow before he came To claim me as his bride, and though so young, I lifted my white eyelids to his height, And found him not too lordly, for the close Barred chamber of my heart to have and hold, So loved him with the fervour of a youth That had gone lonely since its cradle-days. As the too slender lily spreads its bud Into a star, and breaks upon the world, I wakened from my pallid maidenhood, To see a regal loveliness, of fair Sun-glorious hair, as a rich halo shine About my brows ; and trembling as they spake Of eyes that might have lighted a wan saint B ICloman's Hove 23 In mediaeval times to angel-hood, I dared not taste the pleasure of this strange New loveliness, until my husband's praise Should crown it as desirable and sweet. Alas ! for the still. visions of the night, And all the light ambitions that are hid Behind the front of ignorance ! When Mark Kissed me farewell beneath those spinster-eyes, That held the touch of even wedded lips Well-nigh a sin, his brow was clear as mine, A virgin-brow that knew no grief nor lack, But bent its gravity upon the world In calm and studious coldness. Yet when time Had closed my pupilage and he returned To claim his bride, the glooms of some regret Were darkling 'neath his lids. I saw their gleam, And shivered as a man upon whose grave Some stranger walks, noting the chilly glance Tiiat dwelt upon my beauty but was moved No whit, and the half wistful tenderness, Which to a wiser heart had said : " We two Are bound in law, and have a friendly love Each for the other, we must be content To live the long years in a kind accord Which knows no passion." As upon my lips Reserve had laid its silences, I raised No questioning, but laid my hand in Mark's, With gladness of a trusting child, which takes 24 JfcElls of IdomanbooD An offered kindness as the test of love. A horse's gallop, or the wind? oh nurse, I think, mine ears would waken to his tread Tho' clay lay heavy on my breast, and dank Dull autumns have left twenty seasons' leaves Upon the mould that wrapped my winding-sheet. Only the wind ? the wind among the elms ? A whisper sad as breaking waves that beat Thro' the grey ages with incessant moan On some dim northern waste of rock and wrack. He took me home and on the levels broad, And ever broader stretched the swathes of light ; Till roses, flushing, changed the gold to red And climbed the ancient gables, shedding sweet Blush-petals over all the velvet lawns. And there, in harmony of life, we stayed Till five long years had crowned our wedding-vows And changed into a memory, so sweet That tho 3 I die to-night, without that love Which was my prayer, I yet am half content Having that five-year memory of peace. My husband was a father to my youth Most tender teaching training, till my thought Could move with his thro' all the world of books. So tender that I ripened as a peach Upon the south side of a sheltering wall, For having never known the signs of love, Nor seen its fire as summer-lightning leap From a man's eyes, I knew no want nor flaw B lUoman Xcve \Ve went one August when the bines were bent (From where they over-ran the tallest poles And should have fluttered in the breezy air ) By golden weight of hops, across the fields To meet some county notables and dine With a new-wedded cousin of my Mark's. And as I sat conversing of this maid, And that fair infant, how to bake and brew, And what good bargains Lady Ann had bought At the forced sale, a-weary yet constrained To aid the trifling chat, a girl was led Towards me by my hostess. " Norah Grant, A cousin of your husband's and his friend "While you were yet at lessons," and I saw A slender girl, not beautiful but strong, A girl who had no barriers of reserve To overleap, when any tender thought Stirred in her soul, but turned it from her tongue, As Nature turns a seedling which may grow Or fall into the maw of hungry swine. " My husband's cousin and his friend ? " I saw His eyes turn suddenly on her, and fire With a wild joy that faded out in gloom. And all that night I pondered on his glance, Turning and turning till the welcome dawn A rush of light, a flight of golden wings 3-&BH5 of TOflomanbooD Had wakened all the songsters of the wood. "Your cousin-friend," I said, "has charmed my ear With the sweet ripple of her speech, and I Would ask her here. Our dual solitude Were nobler for some sacrifice But Mark Demurred a little, as he gave my brow The morning kiss. " Leave well alone ; the girl Is kindly-natured, once she was my friend, But now oh, I am older, let her be." Yet still we met by chance, until our lips Touched in the kiss of a chill cousin-hood ; For my reserve and a close fear that lay Beneath the sunny surface of her speech, Forbade the nearing of our souls in love ; Yet much we spake, as those who think and think Thro' silence of long years, and meet at length A comrade, who has touched the self-same hopes ; While Mark, who held his passions as his horse Under control, and spake no hasty word, Nor many words at all, dwelt on her face As I on his, until a doubt, a fear, A dim suspicion, bitter as the drops Of a slow poison, stirred in every hour. I found a mystery or fancied one In every fervid word that moved her lips. And she was one of those, whose greater thought Can realise that the penurious lives a tUoman's love About us, are the children of one love The sons and daughters of the Lord not foul Xor base nor squalid, but dim souls ar.d sad ; Born to the sceptre of humanity, But early bound apprentice to that \vheel Which knows no pause, until the tul-\\ora frame Is laid where neither oaths, nor scre:ms, nor blow: Can break its quiet rest. My own chill blood That knew no passion of philanthropy, Warmed in me as she spake, but still I put The fervour by, not curious, but moved (By secret dread of what my hand might touch; To search, until at length one whispered it, Not out of malice, but pure carelessness Or so I think I who had been more blessed In dying then, a happy wife, a girl Whose hand had never chanced upon the pricks That roses hide, than if some four-score years Should strike their hours upon my burdened soul. My Mark and she had met in sunnier climes, While I was yet contenting me with husks Of knowledge, learning ever of the bald And evil lives of kings, of history Which was too lofty to record the ways And wills of the unnumbered multitudes Yet called itself the history of our land. I was a child at school, enduring all Of copies, dates and needlework that pass For mental training with a class of maids, 28 5&Biis of WomanbooD When Mark beneath the chestnuts raised his eyes To that wan face, and found it beautiful. '' Of course, my dear, his bride reclaimed his heart, It was a passing fancy, nothing more." And I could dully echo " Nothing more," Altho' a vision of the south was warm Upon my canvas a wide stretch of hills Beneath the vaulting azure, and the deep Sweet music of a babbling water-flow, Where straying feet had brought a twain who loved, Yet knew it not, who spake of books and song, Perchance had read the poets of the land, And drawn their rhythmic fervour into life. My Mark had loved her. Had ? I knew too well That love with such as Mark is long as time, And patient, oh, as patient as the sea That creeps, and creeps, until the strand is hid. To look and love alas to wake and find Its longing as a weary, weary ache Within the breast. Oh husband mine, that I, Thy child-wife, should have brought so dark a doom Upon thy life. To long ? alas, my Mark Thy love was answered, mine must knock and knock At that heart-door I have no key to fit, Must knock and be denied. My love, my Mark Alas not mine my husband, that at least ; A perfect husband, bearing with my youth In such unruffled tenderness, I deemed Thee calm with the content of middle age, B IUeman'5 Hove And lovinj, but \\ith manhood's reticence. A step, dear Xur.se, unbar the outer door And let him in. Xot Mark, she tarries long And the night darkens with the chill of dawn. I have not found the day so full of light, That I can yield to the enshrouding dark Without one sunset gleam, without one touch Of clinging and regretful lips. My Mark, Had parted from his manhood's love, content To suffer, so he kept that reckless oath Made to a dying man. And when the truth Was spread before me as an open book, Methought the bitterness and dark of death Had closed about my life ; but when its pangs Were somewhat dulled, and the first flush of pa in, Of passionate unreasonable pain As but a selfishness had been repressed Denied I wakened to a softer will, In which the self that mars our nobler deeds Had neither place nor part. I willed to stand As strong before the judgment of my soul, As they who parted under chestnut boughs In Italy. I loved him, Nurse, so well That I would free him even from my love ! And yet in vain, for death has ever fled My wooing touch. The fever came and went, The lightning blasted one I almost touched, And the mad horses dashed adown the hill, Leaving me by the way-side, but unhurt Alas, unhurt. The scourge of cholera 3Ells of iaonumboo& Winding and winding over thymy turfs, A upas-shadows here, the purple bloom Of nightshade there. But moving ever down Through glade and glade, it loses the world-view, The clear still light upon the mountain-heights And the expanse of heaven, yet knows it not, Having its eyes upon the slimy path In search of weapons, and its mind so filled With shadow, that the void of outer dark Is but material image of its thought. So those who sought to harass our repose, Had searched but little, ere their cunning chanced Upon a very poison-blade of ill I was not with my husband and if half That rumour whispered of his life were true, His claim must be the sorrow of my life, Its one dark drop of ill. 'Twas easy then To hold discourse, a cunning-shaped discourse Of wifely wealth, desertion, and the rights Of even the most unconsidered man Of even the most weak and vicious man, Until the tool was sharpened for their work. Enough that Dadajee was roused to send And claim his wife ; and that I greeted those Who came, with no denial or excuse, Saving the question :' Had he a fit place For any woman, say a single room And certainty of six rupees a month ? I could not dwell with women of the stamp Of those unfortunates, who made the roof IRufcbmabat 55 Which sheltered him, a byword and reproach. And incensed at my calm reply, with stamp Of angry feet upon the floor and threat Of legal force, they hurried thence alas To put the threat in force, to file a case Against us in the courts. " But ere the long Delays were over, and the judgment given, A slow breath ceased to leave me fatherless. " My father died, and even as we wept, The blank and unknown future stared us down Into new fears, for his had been the hand That aided me in walking the new ways Of western thought, in claiming liberty To break the contract that I had not willed ; And others might believe the old was right, And Infant Marriages which had begun In stormy ages, when the Tartar chiefs Where pouring their rough thousands over Ind, More righteous than our fallible reforms. So was I even as a startled child That scarcely knows her fear, and yet is held Unmoving, silent, till the light is brought, And all the mighty shadows of the dark Melt into nothingness. So with my dread ! For, moved by pity and a softened heart, My grandsire laid a kindly wrinkled hand Upon my head, and bade me strive or stay As the white impulse of my womanhood 56 3->Ell6 of TKHomanbooD Should urge and the fell shadows of my grief Lessened a little, changing into hope A tear-wet dream, through which the distant light Was dimly visioned. " In the weary days Of loss and patience and still memory The silenced voice for ever in our ears, And the dear step an echo in the dim Death-shadowed rooms, I chanced upon the words Of one* who strove to turn the seething tides Of custom, and unloose the woman's bonds ; A large and kindly soul that faced the storms Of adverse prejudices with such a front Of steadfast calm as Buddha may have worn. And shaking off the shackles of distrust Which had confined my utterance to the small Kind world of home, I penned a burning cry,t The wrongs of my dumb sisters given sound, And set before the world a cry of pain, Wailing and wailing thro' our Indian night, So dark a night that tho' the western wealth Of freedom give us rule, altho' the lights Of far free centuries shine dimly down The ages, we must ever turn and turn In shadow and the shine of fainting stars. * Mr. Behramji Malabari. t Letter on infant marriages and enforced widowhood, which appeared in the Times of India, and for whose irreproachable English, Rukhmabai was indebted to the kindly correction of a friend. IRufcbmabai 57 " Upon the very morn my case was tried And Justice Pinhey stigmatised the \vill To overbear a chill reluctant maid As barbarous that chronicle of wrongs With which I thought to stir a lion's sleep, My letter filled the columns of the press, Was answered, praised, reviled : " A woman's heart Throbs thro' the earnest pleading." " We insist The style is masculine, a woman's pen Had never such a boldness ; J: and my words Vibrating thro' the land, were echoed back By every journal, till they crossed the seas. And called, thro' the wide columns of the Times, Upon a greater multitude than that Which rules our India. " Dadajee appealed, And once, twice, three times, in as many years, The verdicts ran, the balance of the law Inclining now on his side, now on mine, But latterly, without a break, on his ; So that my little world of kindly souls, Indian and English, drew more anxious breath, As fearing for me the blank prison walls. But what were months of durance to a life Of loathed wifehood ? What the prison air, To that which stagnates in our narrow rooms Behind the purdah ? And meanwhile the man (Whom I had thought to honour in old times When the new marriage-bond but lightly bound My spirit, and the flowers of hope were red, of A loose and careless blossoming of rich Rose-petals nodding, nodding in the sun) Must pour a printed lie into the world, A lie to blacken my dead father's name, A lie a creeping evil and as such I blazoned it ; and when their baffled rage Drew me before the judge, he left the lie With those who spake it, and I came again, Altho' the people cursed me as I came. " Upon the next appeal I was condemned To join my husband, or be shut away In prison for the space of half a year To join this husband who might wed again, Divorce this wife or that, love here, love there, And sin against us. Remedy ? Divorce ? Alas ! the only remedy is death. And to such pass is womanhood betrayed, By the new law that England has been pleased To graft upon the laws of Manu Law ? If it be law to re-stitute a right That knew no institution. One appeal Remained to my unwearied band a suit * Which should be tried in England ; but the men Who wrought against us feared the sympathy Which would look richly out of English eyes, And offered to forego their specious claims For a consideration of rupees * Before the Privy Council. IRukbmabat Red gold in lieu of a reluctant wife. And those about me urged the compromise On my reluctant will, till at the last I yielded to repent before the day Had gathered in its sheaves of light. The law Was stayed, but that decisive 'yea : or 'nay' Which should determine the uncertain fate Of generations yet to come, remains A space unspoken. Better I had borne The pain of durance ay, and greater pains - If by so doing I had roused the world Into repression of old usages, Which, cursing the sad mothers of our race, Recoil upon their children. I would die, If this poor life could buy repeal of laws Unjust unworthy of this England's fame ; Could purge the statute-book of these decrees, Which bear upon the.lives of maid and wife, As an intangible dull weight." But I Who felt the throb of earnest English life, And loved the mighty mother, must upraise Protesting voice, as one who should maintain Her honour against all the world. " Such law, Had it not reason, were a grievous stain Upon the justice of our rule, yet men Will worship divers gods, and we would give Brahmin and Buddhists ay, and Mussulman The utmost liberty of faith. I think The grievances of women must be due 60 3<5glls of TJQomanbooD To precepts of their creed, rites that our law, Respecting the dim faiths of every folk, Would fear to touch, rites which must fade away Thro' wear of time and growth of younger creeds." " Ah, say you so ? And yet the Shastras fix The time for marriage, at that age of youth Which holds a maid upon the dreamy edge Of her ripe womanhood, and would that lads Should close their prentice-years of studentship, Before they take the burdens of full life Upon their strength. And if this victor land Refuse to tamper with a people's faith, Why was the Juggernaut procession stayed, Suttee forbidden and infanticide The death of the unwelcome, made a crime ? This breadth of love and judgment that can bear With every harmless superstitious rite Were worthy of your England, but her heart Should rise in mother-protest to forbid The bitter woman-martyrdom, that fills Our heavenward space with its despairing cry. Nor do we ask a rough subversive change, But merely that you should not force a maid To ratify the contract that was framed In her unconscious youth, that you should pass A law enabling parents to delay The marriage age, and leaving one who takes A second spouse, the money that was hers By her first husband's will. Merely to aid, TRufcbmabai By standing still, where hitherto your hands Have pushed us onward ; by alight shift of law To ease our burdens, not so great a change Save in its meaning to the numberless Pale women weeping behind purdah-silk. Let England rise in her old strength and strike As Mother of Free Nations at the laws Which lay our millions in the jewelled dust Of crumbled empires and dead usages. The stern responsibility is laid If 'duty must be measured by our powers ' On the broad shoulders of the ruling race. " We ask our human rights ; the liberty Of marriage contract ; the long rights of babes Now taken, given, stolen, but of which The law is guardian, here, ay and with us ; The right of justice even if we be But women, for tho' India is afar Justice is Justice over all the world. "And you?" I asked, leaving the mighty cause For smaller detail, as we leave the moon To mark the glowworm's tremulous green spark. " Some of your earnest English gave me help, Their countenance, sweet leisure and a home. And one * who loved our common womanhood * Mrs. Eva McLaren. 62 30slis of THttomanbooD Ay, all who bear the burdens of that name, The burdens and the glory, without let Of creed or class or country, called me thence To rest upon her wondrous mother-love, That spark of the divine which lifts our sex Above its fellow and if great in her Who spends it upon clustered golden heads, How far more great in those who fold their arms About the helpless children of a world. " To give love worthily, and find it grow Thro' glorious years until the cause is won The wife and husband walking as true mates Towards the far event my friend's deep hope A hope in part fulfilled. And I who heard Her clear voice calling thro' the storm, arose Crossing the turbulent high wave, and now Would learn all doctor-lore, that I may go Again to those who need me, may rejoice My mother's heart and heal the sick and sad, So labour till the fulness of my days Has lifted me into Nirvana's calm." And as I plunged into the outer whirl Of our unresting London, a rich dream,' The optimistic and Utopian hope Thrilled thro' the troubled turmoil of my thought ; Till I beheld an age when broader minds Should sway the people's sceptre, statesmen seek Not so much the advancement of their land IRuftbmabat 63 In the world's eye, but in the eye of God. As the dim centuries roll out of time, Their hopes and aspirations are a lamp To guide us thro" the twilight, till we near The throne of His perfection and look deep, Thro' veils and mists into the shining light Of day that shall be ; wherefore then the feais That hold us back from any daring good ? The day must break, and every step we take Towards the east shall bring us nearer dawn ; What matter then if all the onward way Be set with flints, and but our children live To reach the morning-land ? To-day is ours, A space whereon to write our works in fair Bold lettering, or the hasty scrawl of fear ; A space which shall go down the countless years To bear us record. Oh ye woman-hearts Who are the strong salvation of our land, Let the deep sorrows of a kindred race, Sprung with our own from the old Aryan home, Awaken you to burning thought and speech, Till the pathetic echo of your tones Has made the weakest strong, the strongest sad ; Till English millions send a rousing cheer Across the sea and the child-wife is saved, The widow one wife of one spouse set free To wed in honour, and our India's wound An anguish of the past. WOMAN'S WIT [When Conrad III. was in 1138 proclaimed Emperor of Germany, the Duke of Wittenberg refused to acknowledge him as such. The Emperor therefore besieged the Duke, who had taken refuge in his fortified town of Weinsberg. The Duke in the end was forced to yield ; whereupon the indignant Emperor declared his intention of putting all to fire and sword, but granted permission to the women to depart in safety, and to carry with them whatever they regarded as most precious. The Duchess of Wittenberg, taking advantage of this concession, with ready wit took her husband, the Duke, upon her back. Her example was followed by the other women ; and the Em- peror, seeing them thus come out with the Duchess at their head, was touched by the spectacle, and pardoned the men for the sake of their wives.] THEY are hushed the hoarse voices of battle, The clashing of shields, For at sundown, despairing of succour, The proud city yields. Then fill me the ruby-red beaker Brim-high at the spring ; To-morrow we drink amid plenty ' Wass-hael ! ' to the king ! tUoman'5 lllit 6; Oh, sweeter than toil of the bondsman, Than hawking of lord, Is the snort of the earth-spurning charger, The play of the sword. What, ho 1 are they pleading for mercy, The treacherous foe ? Shall we listen with many a brother Laid silent and low ? Nay, nay ; let the women and children Go forth with their best Of jewels and house-gear and linen Short shrift for the rest. Oh, sweeter than toil of the bondsman, Than hawking of lord, Is the snort of the foam-whitened charger, The play of the sword. They come over-burdened, I warrant, With treasurings rare ; Wives, mothers, and matrons by Odin ! 'Tis men that they bear. " Have mercy, O army victorious ! You bid us go free, With the gold and the gems that we value, The babes at our knee ; But dearer than house and the children, Wherever we roam, Are the treasures we bear on our shoulders, The shields of the home." E 66 3bv\\s of "CQomanbooD " There are wives by the strand of the ocean, And maidens as fair, Who weep through the whir of the spinning, And shield us with prayer ; For the sake of those watching and waiting Afar by the sea, For the love and the faith of the women, Pass on ye are free ' ;: Oh, sweeter than carnage and glory, Than jewels and gauds, Is the neigh of the home-coming charger, The sheathing of swords. A WOMAN'S VENGEANCE MY cottage mine ! I pace the earthen floor Seven paces either way, and count the steps From hearth to threshold, from the white array Of household ware, to yonder western panes. The veriest hovel dark and damp and dull, Is some dim soul's ideal of a nest Wherein to rear its young a nest, a home, A wall about the sacredness of life, As the warm flesh is set between our souls And the world-eye. Before my latching door, Some feet of sward and waving bloomy growth A clump of lilies and the golden globe Of a faint evening primrose, where the rich Rayed sunflower nods throughout the drowsy noon, With further the wild hyacinth, and dusk Of pansies under shelter of the hedge Some feet of sweet and scented garden earth Slope to the little gate beneath the limes ; The little gate whereon in twilight hours I lean a-weary, the o'er-busy day Remembered but as winter, when the sun 68 SDglls of taomanbooD Is browning the rich yellows of the wheat, While chatter of brown house-holds, lightly rocked In the leaf-darkness over-head, grows faint, A murmur and a silence, a low note And the swift flutter of belated wings. The land is mine, a space of God's good earth, A quarter of an acre and a house ! And mine by honest labour, mine to hold Until the dulness of old age shall shut The glint of sunlight on a pansy heart, The thrush's liquid song, the scent of thyme Out of my knowledge and the twilight hush Deepen into the drowsy night of death. A breeze has wakened and the lily-heads Tremble upon their stems, a cool sweet breath That murmurs of the kine, kneedeep in grass Beyond the river, of the flags and reeds That rustle o'er its slaty gleam. The light On yonder plain is still as golden pure As when the mammoth feasted on its low And watery levels, the pale glow of blue An opal steadied, shines as faintly clear As ever before thronging human feet Brake through the darkness of primeval Time, To soil the springing sweetness of the meads With brick and stone and staring window-eye. But we, who gather memories of sweet And bitter, as two flowers on a stalk, Must leave our youth before its red and white B lUcmnn's Ucncicancc 69 Of < hestnut bloom be driven from our cheeks. We age betimes, when death and falsehood keep, By turn and turn, the watches of the night ; We age betimes when a long summer drought Follows upon the spring-time of our love, And faith be withered in the heated noons. So am I old, who loved in innocent May-glooms, who loved to lose, and see the dark And purple poison-flower burst the sheath That should have held a lily hate for love. Oh, heart ! the growth is fine, the flower is fair ! Lily or nightshade he who sowed the seed Shall pluck the fruit ! The year that dreamy space Of golden morns and noons that brought the dream Alas, no more ! of an abiding love Into my life, was one of rain and sun ; A shower, a smile, and every day a shower With after sun, until the oat was ripe, Or ever the green stem had yellowed fair Into the rustling straw. But ere the lights Of rosebud May had broadened into suns, And yet the grass was waving in the deep Rich water-meadows, through the village street With cant of poverty on artist-lips, A painter wandered ; one who sketched his home As a dull attic in a London street, And spake of early struggles ; yet who heard " Sir Wilfred " from the world, and knew no more 7c 3&Ells of IClomanbooD Of stinted bread than the dull sovereign Who dreams himself a beggar. Had we heard Of rank that needs must wear the ploughman's shirt To gain a happy hour, we should have smiled As wise grey fathers when the children talk. Happy ? the poor ? No prince of long descent Would lift the golden circlet from his brow For any hope of happiness in toil, For any hope of comfort in the loss Of cleanly ways, of delicate desires, And all that makes existence sweet and fair To souls of gentle breeding. So the plea Of broken health and poverty sufficed ; And Wilfred set his easel in the room Low-browed and white, and sweet with lavender, That overlooked the thymy common-land ; A painter who could sketch our gentle hills, The blacksmith in his cavern, and the b'ench Beside the ancient alehouse, that could show A wondrous passage under earth, and gloom Of deep unhappy dungeons. He must aid In stacking, threshing the rich sheaves, and stand Beside my bin, as browning fingers pulled Its dusty golden treasure from the bine, For ever plucking, plucking, till the soft Rich hillock rose upon the canvas sides. And when I glanced from all the busy world Of autumn to the shadows of the brush, In deepening colour laid upon the white 21 Woman's Uengeance 7 ! Snow-stretch of canvas, I must ever find A face familiar dusky-eyed and ripe, With cloud of crisp, rebellious hair, and lips A ruddy all the pool had flashed me back Since first I looked into its depths and laughed. For though none other than a farmer's child, I think I know that I was all as fail- As any born to ermine of a throne Their all ; for mark you, queen and serving-maid Are simply women in the thoughts of God. Fair? Ay, accursed with beauty, which had been The dower of richer women, but in me Seemed a presumption. Beauty should be born To the maid-children of more leisured thought Than that which delves and spins. A farmer's child ? Then give her, for all dower, an honest face An honest breadth of face with flush of health Beneath the browning kisses of the sun. More beauty were presumption ay, a lure Of Satan, rather than a gift of God ; A lure to catch the eye of gentle blood, And stoop it to a wedlock out of place. Can love be out of place ? when human blood Would claim a kinship with the breathing wrongs Of half a world, and when the ancestry Of peer and peasant started from the soil As brothers, in the yesterday of time ? What is this gentle blood ? The pride of wealth, A little more refinement in the blood, 72 3&gll6 of A little greater knowledge of the small Pale lies that fall as oil upon the wheels Of social life ? And love of meeting souls ? I am a simple woman ; but I think The earnest love of man and womanhood A something holy something over earth, And chance, and all that lower men would find In its impassioned mystery. Through all The morrows of a sweet rain-heavy June, When every blue-bell in the woods was hung So thick with dew, it drooped anigh the earth As though to lay its sorrows on the breast Of the Eternal Mother, Wilfred stayed, Painting and dreaming ; a rich breath of song, A zither, and a voice that called me fair, More fair than all the cultivated blooms That shake their heavy petals in the breeze A stray wild rose, that glorified the hedge Of bramble, nettle, bracken, and was touched With the soft blushes of departing day. What wonder that I listened that I loved ? A painter poor ; a gentleman the name Gave a traditionary ring of worth, As when we strike a healthy round of gold Upon the board. What wonder that I deemed The artist-soul, behind those slumb'rous deeps, As honest as the labourer's in the field ? More honest, being born to noble thoughts a lUcman'5 Ucngcancc 73 Of a fair mother, who had taught his lips Their infant prayer of love and penitence, While yet the merest words were sweet and strange. What wonder that I gave a simple faith, And found it only wonderful and sweet That I, a sweet-leaved briar of the hedge, Was chosen, while the stately lilies bloomed In glistening purity and bloomed alone. I, a poor rose, that he must prune and train, Until its briars should o'errun the home With buds and widening flowers and scented leaf. I was young then so young that I must sing Morn in and through the noontide, until eve Was washing the red sunset from the deeps Of darkening space. I was young then, too young To comprehend the stirless hot-house pride, Which looks through windows on our common earth, And holds aloof, ay, verily, is proud Of folded hands ; yet with an equal pride I churned the cream until a golden heap Of butter lifted from the thinner milk ; And truest pride if pride at all be true Must sooner rest with those who earn a meed, Than with the silken soul whose idleness Was purchased by ancestral toil or fraud Or fraud ? belike, for fortunes can be built Upon the lives of poorer men be forced From failing hearts and houses, the red gold, The blood-red, gold. Alas ! the wisest rogue Heaps to himself the riches of the earth, 74 S&EUs of WomanbooD While honesty goes barefoot all the day The little day of this imperfect life. For all the merry thoughtlessness of youth, I had o'erthought the future, a few springs Of freedom a long courtship in the lanes Laborious noons, and a long dreamy eve, With old hands resting on the elbowed chair, And old dim eyes regarding the fair heads Of children's children. A sweet hope a dream! Alas, that all the fairest in our thought Should yield to time and as the emerald light Of glow-worms fading, leaves a worm indeed Be all the darker for the sometime glow Of a dead hope. The rustic wooer came, As in my school-girl thought a man of worth, With farm and homestead and a hundred kine. An honest man and loving, one whose hand Would have held mine in faith of wedded life Thro' all the years. But Wilfred flashed a smile Thro' the mist-morning of my maiden dreams, And rougher honesty was overpassed For then arid for all time. For who can heed The cry of corncrakes, when a nightingale Is flooding the dim world with song? Alas, Not I, who listened till the music sank Into my soul, till a low echo woke To give again the rapture of its trills, And I I loved. B lUoman's Ucngcancc 7 The harvesters' ripe moon Was waning tenderly as down the paths We strayed in converse or sweet silences, Until the last dim evening. He had drawn My hands into his keeping ere we paused To lean upon the stone- work, lichen grey, Of the old fountain. A neglected briar Was leaning its last bud upon the edge Of the smooth round, a white thing, mirrored fair In the still stretch beneath our gazing eyes. And to our hearts the silence of the night Had brought a. sudden wistful tenderness, For tho' content with love, a doubt, a dread- Foolish as fancy of a bead of cork In wine of clear and bubbling gold, had roused The vague disquiet of too happy hours ; Till in a tremulous dismay I clung Yet closer to his arm ah me, and heard Only the echo of my fears. "Alas That clouds must overcast our love, and bring The winds of winter swirling thro' the boughs Of every green retreat, but men must eat. And if I will to line our city nest, I needs must labour till the dreary yoke Of winter has been lifted from the land. But trust me child, and I will come again, Ere yonder clump of sleeping lilies turn A widening petal to the sun" I broke Into quick sobs : " You will not come again ; 76 Sbvlle of Some mist will come between us oh, I know You love me and such love as ours can stretch From world to world, from age to age nor change Tho' all the persecutions of ill-fate Should overwash its patience, yet I fear Some woman-instinct lifts a warning hand, And if we part to-night - " He bent his lips To mine, as tenderly as when we pledged Our love in the dim stillness of the woods, Where the brown needles of forgotten years Deadened the steps. " And if we part to-night, The love that has detained my wandering feet These many months will turn them hitherward, Whatever lion venture to contest The backward path." So held me close and went As must all good, all evil when the wheel Of fate has turned. The ruddy leafage died, And starlings thronged the mead, a whirl of snow Whitened the thymy common, and lay deep Upon the further hills, but sunny dreams Were in my heart, until a rumour fell As sudden winter on my life. " A poor And struggling artist, who for daily bread Must sketch and sell and sketch ? A likely tale When all the county knows of Wilfred Burne Sir Wilfred since his father's death a man Eccentric if you will but true of heart, 21 lOcman's Ucngcancc And to be wedded ere the close of June To an Earl's daughter Lady Agatha." So, like the sudden fading of a haze My dream dissolved, and I was left to face The wide grey prospect of a desolate Unhappy day. But when my father came From market with the rumour on his lips I heard and smiled, pouring the home-brewed ale With strung still hand, until the father-thought Was all content. " My lass can hold her own With any of your gilded gentlefolks/' For with a bubbling laughter on my lips I echoed back, "A wedding did you say? I trust he will invite us to the feast. You to the tenants' dinner, I to join Light-heart, light-foot in every mazy dance." But tho' I smiled, it was as one who hides A darkness in her thought as the still pool May glitter golden in the morning light, Altho 3 the dead are tangled in its weed. Oh death of love that leaves an after pain For time to heal ! Alas that manhood's vows, Tho' strongly told, and bound about with hopes That shine as jewels in the morning sun, Should be but as an arm-thick rope of sand A rope that crumbles into pitiful Poor dust, before the hand has stirred its coils. And yet my heart, the longest day is lived, And dull to-morrows steal our very hurts, Till all that has been, seems but as a cloud Across the noon-tide sun. When New Year frosts Were leafing all the panes, Sir Wilfred sent A jewel with his love a golden round Whose eastern over-pearling closed in fire Beneath the hot eye-rubies of a snake ; A jewel and a page of pale regrets : " For all his love, he might not hold my youth To a long waiting upon fortune's tide When worthier men " from first to last a lie ! The lie of one who set the world's regard In the high places of his soul, and deemed It out of nature that a gentleman Should need to give account of all his works ; Should even when divested of his silk And purple by the hand of death descend To the dull level of ignoble folks. A lie ! and with no poor imprudent hint Of whence it came, beyond the London mark Upon the cover, lest in love or hate I should pursue him I ! who was as proud As ever royal dame, too proud to more Than close the jewel in its velvet case, And send it back without a written word, Save and except the outer name the name And title that he fancied unconfessed ! B lUcman's Ucngcancc 79 Oh false and rickle heart of man ! Have all Who bear them proudly under that poor name So small a power of loving ? is all faith In man a virtue of so rnre a growth, That it were well, if woman ever deemed Her lover false, till time had proved him true ? Alas the slighter vessel, soonest heats, And that slow love of womanhood that grows About the man and house to warm a life, Can only hope a year-long passion-gleam In answer, the hot flash of bursting light That leaps and sinks, and sinking fades away, As utterly forgotten as the breeze That fanned our foreheads on the yester-eve. When spring returned to scatter thro' the woods, Her wealth of pale unscented flowers, and fair In every meadow hung the cowslip heads,' My father went into the fields at dawn A man in the brave autumn of his years, Yet who must tell them over in the grave Before a week was added. Two and two The tramp of heavy feet upon the flags Smote on my heart and as I turned, behold I knew the secret of that hurdle-couch, That four strong men were bearing tenderly Across the little yard beyond the door. I knew and had no need of faltered words To tell me that my father was asleep, 8o JDslls of IdomanbooO With mystery of slumber in a smile That should not change uutil the trump of doom. So was I loosed from every tie of love That I would suffer ; for the patient soul Who waited waited and must win reply To a renewed petition, in the hour When I was saddest and most lonely, found An equal faith that set against his wish. " Love, marriage, children, home ? I rather choose The solitary way, and will to learn That learning I may serve." So went my way To the great city with its drowning deeps Its million hurrying feet that beat the wall Of the down-trodden into triumph-songs, To learn of nursing in the orderly Long wards of a grim hospital to learn, And watch, and serve, and after patient years Be lent to yonder black unlovely town. I work the past if not a folded page, At least concealed beneath the press of small Sufficient duties, as a desert death Is hidden by the shifting flow of sand. I work and wait, knowing that all things come To an exceeding patience. Love is long, Longer than life, and hatred as its twin Day light and dark, can mock at time and chance, In a long day which overpasses death And triumphs in the grave. B lUoman's Uengcancc Si I was a maid As innocent as any nursling child, When Wilfred cast the shadow of his love Across the stir and purpose of my day. I should have been a happy wife thank Heaven My hands are strong to labour, I am free To wed or work, and need not take the home And the man with it, from desire of bread, As many a hapless creature who is rocked In jewelled cradle. Had Sir Wilfred loved For but one heart-beatone I had forgiven. But even while he wooed me with low words His heart was hers, and this will I requite. I think we women were not served so ill, If vengeance, swift or slow, but ever sure Waited upon the wronger. Hist a step ! So like it is, I almost hear the cry Of the loose gravel by the farmhouse door, As when he came a-weary from the fields. He ? But I dream, and dreams have set the sweet Sad echoes of the olden time afloat. Yet Oh my God ! had ever living man As proud a step, as that which strikes the flag Beyond my door, such passionate deep eyes, With such a glitter of rebellious hair Above the azure gleam. It cannot be That he for whom I wait throughout the long, Long years, should chance upon my latching door, And yet and yet F 3D\2lls of 'eciomanbooD Oh Lord mine hour is come, And Thou hast given me my heart's desire ! "The district nurse ? Joan you! I pardon me/' "What is your pleasure ? I am here to serve." And in an eagerness that overpassed The momentary wonder ; for a grief New born and fierce, is more than memory, He cried : " And for such service am I come. :; " To one," I answered, with a little smile, Malicious, cold, " who owes you a long debt And will be proud to pay it love for love." "A debt?" " Ay so, the debt of culture. I Was but a farmer's daughter, with some skill Of labouring hands, but strangely ignorant Of many a poet's love-sick rhapsody, Until Sir Wilfred sang. Books, pictures, prints Somewhat of science, more of artist-lore I gathered from his lips, and have besides To thank him for my knowledge of the faith And honour that is closed in gentle blood. What is your need? The Lady Agatha Perchance has found a restless hour or two In her full sheaf of poppy-headed nights ? " But in the gravity of reasoned fears, 21 lUoman's Uengcancc He let my bitterness, as something strange, Not pertinent, slip by him and be lost. " The past is dead, as any autumn leaf That hurries thro'" the stonruvind of the north : And you whose heart was ever woman-warm, Will scarcely turn from childhood's agony Because the father sinned. My child : and left To toss in lonely fever ; for an ill Of loathsome dens, has rasped her lily skin And mother maids Can no affection bear The strains of time and sickness ? I am mad With a destroying terror, and my lips Would pour the bitterness which they have drawn From one chill life, upon the greater hearts Which teach us in their mother-care, of love Beyond this human. Bear with me the child " Your child ? " " My only child." " The Lord be praised : Blessed be He who hath maintained my cause, Who hath delivered them that hated me Into mine hand ! " " That you may compensate Your soul for an old wrong, with coals of fire." " So spake the Christ, but royal singers poured The will of God in wilder strains of song ; And I I follow David. You forget ? of XillomanbooD Ah well, your soul's salvation is not set Upon the Hebrew Psalrns. But now your child ? " Ay mine, the rosebud of a thorny stem That one dark morning looked upon the light, And since has seemed the one flower among leaves, A stray white blossom, that in innocence Smiled on a garden-world of hidden thorns The sharp beginning, ay, the all of life, For since our summer idyll " " You profane A memory that should be mine alone My Eden. Innocence ? Had I not been So childlike, I had doubted. Idyll? Ay If lies may be idyllic. Oh false heart How had we wronged you that you should repay Our welcome the rich welcome of the poor With such a poor concealment of your rank Your name your wealth with such a feigned regard, From dawn to dusk the living of a lie. Forgive me, if in my unpolished speech, The little necessary slip be termed A lie no less and sport of hearts, such sport As breaks a woman's heart in the result Unmanliness. Oh Wilfred, are the streams Of human love so many and so near, That you can start them with a grinded heel, Drink of the bubbling waters and so pass ? " B lUoman's Ucncjcance 85 Joan Joan . My little love, my briar rose, So sweet, so fresh, so innocent, I loved But deemed it were the nobler part of love To leave you, tho' I hungered for your face And heard your sweet voice singing thro' the hours, And singing ever to a broken song, In which a sorrow throbbed with the delight As in dim twilights the hid nightingale Murm'ring of love must tune her note to pain. But sweet believe me, tho' her liquid song Bring every bird about her feet, she were More happy mated with a nightingale, Than if she turned unto an eagle's love. Her slender wings should spread in woodland flight, Her song " I broke across the specious words With simple truth : "If eagles may not wed With lesser fowl, they should not stoop to woo." " I grant it sweet, but beauty such as yours A rose among the brambles of the hedge, Must bow the wisest to a reverence And some-time worship." " Worship and not love : Dear heart, how wise in specious sophistry Of self-excuse, are cultured gentlemen ! Sweet reverence and worship such as kings May yield a loveliness of heaven, is pale As moonlight, after the red light of day 86 Has blazed a pathway down the western skies ; And love the love you pledged in woodland dusk Beneath the ranking firs, as far outshines That ecstasy of worship, as the fires In yonder furnaces my kitchen spark. But punishment awaits the broken oath As certainly as darkness follows day." A shadow fell and deepened in the blue Of those uplifted eyes. " Love punishment : God knows my slender debt of broken faith Was paid, and overpaid, and paid again, By the dull fate that turns our dearest hope Into a dead-sea apple, ere it reach The destined lips." " You married where you would," And the deep passion of embittered love Burned in my speech : " a lady fair as dawn ; So fair the rougher winds and rain of heaven May never touch the lily of her throat, Or burn on those red-petal lips ; so fair So wealthy, and of such a high descent, It was an equal wedding when she loved Sir Wilfred Burne an honourable man Of stainless record, one whose constancy A lengthy year had proven. Punishment ? That is to come." " I married where I would : A woman whom my lover-dreams had raised a ICloman's Uengcancc 87 To a aim eminence of angelhood. I married where I would, alas to find A coldness of perennial frost, that kne\v Xo leaping spirit-throb of love or life. A happy man ? So happy, that the fiend Is ever pouring the red wine, with chink Of gold in little heaps about the board, While thro : my thought, the whisper rises ' Drink. Drink deep and play, till dull forgetfulness Has sealed the brain, or deeper drink and die.' But baby hands have beat the tempter back And baby-laughter, as a thrush's note After long rain, has raised a trembling hope, A hope, a dream " "And now the child shall die." I spake it hardly, clearly, and the ring Of the slow words was as the fall of steel ; Altho' my heart misgave me, for the love Of children lay a- warm about my thought. " I am the only woman far or near That fears not death, nor this most loathsome ill, And I would sooner slay myself, than lift A finger to delay the hurrying feet Of him who robs us of our pain in sleep, A long, long sleep, Sir Wilfred. What ? is sin To be forgotten in the hour of need ? Is that long ruthless lie to be forgiven ? I think not. You have wrought against my life, And now for all your wealth and poet-lore, of < GQomanboo& For all the artist cunning of your touch, The child must die untended. You may charm The whole wide world and yet be powerless To disarm death. Go back, thou lying soul, Fiend-set in such a shape, go, watch the stir Of limbs and lips, until her latest breath Has quivered out upon the night the ear Can have too few of even fevered words." " You have no mercy ? " " None." A dull despair Was pressing out the faint and fevered hope, Yet he must turn within the door to urge A thought upon me : " Can no memory Of woodland strolls beneath the ripening nuts, With lengthy grasses swaying in the breeze And a long bramble catching at your robe, Of hours wherein at least we were content Can no such memory disturb your will ? I can recall an evening when you swore The hardest task were as a little sleep The languid dreaming of an hour, when wrought, Begun, and ended, for the tender sake Of one beloved." " Beloved ? Oh ay ; but love And I are strangers ; yet if this poor babe Had been the child of other '' " Spare me that. S lUoman's Uemieancc " The child of other than Sir Wilfred Burne I had not dallied thus/' He put a hand Unto his heated brow and turned away : "Alas I my little Joan, that thou shouldst pay The forfeit of thy father's sin ; that guilt Should be washed out in blood of innocence." And as he passed me, with a staggering step That sought the door, I caught at the lax hand. " You called her Joan ? ;! A bitter accent leapt Into the husky and despairing voice. " Ay, the chill loveliness of marble brings A pang of longing for those warmer arms, That clasped and clung in the hey-day of youth. But let me pass, the wailing of a child Is in my ear and I forget the past, Love pleasure all. The child, and there is none To moisten her parched lips, to give her air, Oh God, the child ! " I was of woman born, And in my time had felt the warmth of love Yield unto creeping of a chill despair ; I was of woman born, and loving once For all the loosened bitterness and pain Of a dark hour, must share his passing thought, His anguish, tho' a cruel wrong was walled, As heaven-high, between our meeting hands. 9 5>Blls of TidomanbooD "The child, the little Joan ; oh, Wilfred, stay That I may overthink the grievous pass In which I stand the vengeance that I vowed Before me, and the need of such a one A babe, a little helpless dying child Beyond my door. Stay then," and to and fro I paced in wildered thought, until a wave Of dim emotion rolled across my soul, And I was fain to seek the freshening cool And silence of the flower-guarded gloam. How starry-pale the lilies are in dusk Of an approaching night ; and lo, a bud Is broken from the rose-tree, such a bud As blossoms in Sir Wilfred's life. Poor babe ! The mother-love which should have ministered Unto thy grievous sickness, is so fine So delicate and rare an ornament, That it must lie in velvet and be set Above the vulgar uses of the world. I prayed for vengeance and the bitter draught Bubbles before me, yet the icy grip Of hatred slackens on my heart, and low Thro' every silence comes the wailing cry Of babes in pain. Were it now well to leave This old dead wrong in the unsleeping care Of justice to drop mercy on the need Of even such a lying soul as looks From yon beguiling eyes ? The flushing lights Of sunset fade, and a clear after-green B lUomnn'5 Ucmicancc 91 Steals o'er the west, as even draweth on. In that last evening of our eager lives, Their darker hopes must wither as a leaf In furnace-fires, and love be all in all. " Oh, Wilfred, Wilfred, this sad older Joan, Would put the thoughts of vengeance from her soul God knows, that now I look upon your face Its weakness, passion, patience, I nor hate Nor love you but the child ? My wisest care Shall wait in tenderness upon her needs. You know not all the measure of that wrong You wrought in our fair summer, God must lift The darkness from your world-perverted soul, In his good time. For me I leave revenge And hate and love behind, to work His will In the dark ministry of pain. The child Is His, not yours mine even, if I stay Her errant feet before they overstray The brink of midnight's river I: " Joan forgive." " I have forgiven. Richly as we love , More richly yet, we women can forgive, God-helping. Lead me hence. Yon after-light Serene, and pale, and fading into night, Is given, as presage of the fair regard, Which from henceforth shall reign betwixt us two Until the end." A WOMAN'S FAITH WHILE the fourth Baldwin of Jerusalem Beneath the scourge Of leprosy, yet lingered dark and deaf, But on the verge Of that great freedom, which he nightly prayed- The Paynim host Brake into fertile Galilee and smote From hill to coast, Until the people pleaded with their king, For one to lead The hasty levies forth against the foe. " In this our need Oh Baldwin, let thy sister take Sir Guy, For wedded lord, That as our future king, he may unsheathe Avenging sword." So Sybille wedded Guy de Lusignan ; But had no love To give the people's choice, for Raymond wore Her pearl-sewn glove, B lUoman'5 dfaitb 93 And had she chosen, hand had gone with heart ; Yet having vowed To be true wife, she willed to keep her oath, Until the shroud Of sleep should still the patience-hidden pain. Sir Guy rode forth To where the crafty Saracen lay camped Against the north As Christian knight, his reckless heart on fire, With one rare stroke, To free the ravished land of Galilee From Paynim yoke. Within his palace lay the dying king, The echoed clash Of armour loud in his unhearing ears, And the hot flash Of swords victorious striking thro' his dreams. There rose the cry Of wondering citizens, and one awoke To prophesy Of evil tidings, as a fugitive Way-worn, and red With battle, clamoured at the city gate. As from the dead Came Baldwin's answer to that unheard cry " My God I see (For death has given more than sight) defeat They flee ! They flee ! " 94 3&SIIS of Idomanboofc So died the king, and all the barons drew, But ill-content, Around the Lady Sybille, muttering Of treasure spent A broken army a foolhardy kniglit. But when she came Thro' grey Jerusalem, white-robed, and fair As dawn, to claim Her brother's crown, the common herd rejoiced, Shouting: "Sybille. Oueen of Jerusalem, by God's decree And our good will ! " Only in hall the nobles spake apart, Till from the dark Full-armoured ranks stepped forth Heraclius The Patriarch, With the brave counts of Thoron, Antioch, And Tripoli, And many another who in loyalty Had bent the knee To Baldwin, but must measure fealty, When a weak hand Was stretched towards the sceptre. As a wave Breaks on the strand And hushes, the hot shouting of the mob, Grew sharply still, As the priest tempting while commanding, urged The council's will : " Sir Guy has failed in battle, is no man To stem the tide 21 ILIoman's dfaitb Of ill-success, so is unmeet to wear The nation's bride- Therefore we do declare the marriage void, De Lusignan Once more a simple knight, and you maid-free To choose a man As husband from this gathered chivalry Raymond Renaud Or any lesser knight. And he on whom You shall bestow Your love, shall be acknowledged as our king So swear we all ! " The sonorous reverberation rolled From wall to wall, And those beyond the precincts of the court, With echoing shout Returned a reverent " So swear we all." But in the doubt Of that deep-voiced temptation, Sybille turned To where 'a. cross The emblem of renunciation hung ; And the near loss Of one whose kingly arm had shielded life, As leaves a rose, Rushed into memory. Low kneeling there, By throne of those Who knew not Godfrey's sad humility She bent in prayer ; For youth and love yet ruled her matron-pulse, And mother-care 96 JCwiis of Womanboofc Had never filled her day with its content. But when she rose It was as tho' some seraph-hand had brought A deep repose To all the yearnings of her woman's heart, So deep a calm That Raymond felt his passion ebb, and stirred In vague alarm, Calling upon the saints. " I choose," she said, And stepped between The parting rank, with that slow step of kings, Who seek with keen And searching glance some trusty councillor. So down the court Of the great hall, she paced with lingering foot, Till Raymond caught Her passing glance, and fired it with his own ; And suddenly, A strange white anguish brake upon her brow, And her bent knee Trembled beneath her as she paused, the pain Of all she would Resign, alive in her impassioned gaze. A space she stood, As one who asked forgiveness, and then turned And down the hall Past Geoffry, Jocelyn fared, till 'twixt her robe And the grey wall, Was only scorned De Lusignan. The queen Looked on his face, B Utopian's ffattb 97 Until the depths of pity overflowed -- Till of her grace She clasped her arms about him, and as \vifu Indignant cried, " Sir Priest, whom God hath joined together, let Not man divide. If I must choose again, my choice is here 1 So are you free, To swear a wiser king not braver knight Your fealty. The crown is but a circlet of red thorns, Which he may take Who loves a painful hour." And as they heard, The people brake Into a shout, but Sybille and her lord Went thro' the crowd, All meekly on their way. So women cling When once is vowed Their faith ; and this true legend of Sybille In every clime Has touched the poet-hearts of troubadours To verse sublime. A tale of sorrow, of a love which grew To bear the flower Of stern renunciation to lay all Of queenly power, G ot Of tender hope and dreaming, as a cloak That is out-worn Behind and so to pass clear-eyed Nor all forlorn. Strike ye the harp triumphantly, pour forth The glowing rhyme, And send this tale of woman's faith adown The drifts of Time. A WOMAN'S SIN WHOM have I wronged ? The dead, the quiet dead ? Nay, if I sinned it was against my God, From whose far-seeing knowledge of the will That yields to sudden and impatient throes Of impulse, or is tainted from the birth Alone can fall a just impartial meed Of chastening mercy. And altho' I loosed The silver cord of life, it was with cold Deliberate weighing of the present sin. My sin against a consequence of good That should enrich the after lives of those Who were my nearest in this loneliness Of social life this bitter loneliness Which like the wave about a swimmer holds My spirit, tho' I strike it thro' and thro' In eager search of ah, I know not what A something kindred yet intangible Which may be Love or Sympathy or God. For me the haunting trouble of remorse Is as the fear of babes, an ignorance Of the unseen and powerful that runs To easy dread. We dream of penalties Beyond the sin, and oftent mes we stretch of WomanbooO The little, little fault into an ill As vast as the dim vault above a world ; But as for me the dead is in its grave, A hushed and half-forgotten lawlessness, Of which my hand was guilty in the past And guilty before One who had engraved : " This shalt thou do and this shalt thou avoid," Upon the living earnest of my soul. Guilty and therefore willing afterward When I am cold in death, to strongly beat- Whatever penalty of consequence Is fixed on the transgression. Yet I live, Walk, smile, and change a greeting with my kind ; And that as calmly as the whitest soul That ever set salvation above love ; While as for that long anguish of remorse Which dull tradition would assign my days, Making a subtle horror of the dark And gnawing gnawing till the heart of life Quivers again beneath its poisoned fang What were its purpose power that it should dog My footsteps thro' the pleasant ways of wealth ? It could not give again the breath of life To those still lips nor would I have it given. Nay, I would rather sin and sin again Than hear her voice in other than my dreams Her living voice. I counted all the cost Before I mixed that drowsy draught of death ; Counted it with a still regret that saw The need the consequence B XUoman's Sin n I do repent, Acknowledge that my deed usurped the stern Prerogative of Justice, yet rejoice In that the deed is done. * * * * * * A sunward clime Lapped my unconscious infancy in scents, And sights, and sounds, of oriental life ; For I am child of one whose dusky eyes Dwelt on an English soldier with the love Of easterns, who forgot her home and race For some few summers of idyllic love, And died contented. I, their single hope Was liker him in face, not fair, nor dark ; A large-eyed babe, a silent dreamy child, A woman in whose ears the rhythmic sounds Of language, are for ever as a song That all the world is singing. Many years Were lingered out beneath the peepul shade Of the old garden, happy studious years That added day to day, until I stood Upon the golden edge of womanhood, And heard my father's : " Child, this flickering torch Hath done its feeble work among the dark And devious ways, and I may look again Upon thy mother's face. One of our kin The brother that is after me in years And wealthy, hath the welcome of a love of TJClomanboofc The love of early days, for me and mine ; And to his care, my tender one, I leave Thy lands and thee." Thus, with a smile he passed, And overseas upon the rugged shores Of this grey isle, I found an honest heart That in its broad excess of fatherhood Could name me " child." A stir of autumn wind Was idly loosening the russet leaves, As through the stoneway of an ancient gate That for a many hundred years had frowned Thro' lion-eyes upon the world, we turned. And 'twixt the mighty spread of forest arms I saw a vision as of dusky towers Above a grey and ivied battlement ; A mansion gloomy to my Indian eyes, That missed the glow of marble and of gold ; And yet with a grim beauty, as of piled Rough rocks amid the softness of a glen. On the white steps a deerhound stretched at ease With long wise head upon the crossing paws, And at his side, with trail of crimson leaves Athwart her sombre robe, a lady stood To listen, and the song upon her lips Ceased in a smile, as from beneath the gloom Of stretching boughs, we drove into the warm Late flushes of the light. " Doris, I bring A sister to your care," and the deep eyes B llloman'5 Sin 103 Grey as the shifting shadows of the gloam, Lifted a wistful question : " Father mine, She cannot know that all these eighteen years I have been listening for a mister's voice, Which is not the less welcome that it comes So late so late." Thus were we lightly launched Upon the calm and heaven-azured mere Of sister-love ; tho' as the peaceful years Went bravely forward at the call of Time, Our pleasure-vessels turned and floated down Towards the deep, the deep that was to set A tide of stronger love between our lives, In chill division. Every kindling fire Hath a young glow of flame from which it spreads, Until it grasp a rotten bough a tree And all the forest burns. So the events The wide unquiet changings of my day, Run finely back into a point of time, Remembered oh, my heart, so well so well ! The heir of a bucolic house had come To man's estate, and all the county-world Must gather in his father's hall. We danced In a long chamber hung with fairy green, On high the crimson of a flaunting flag, And mosses with a trail of ivy hung About the rounded mirrors. From the low 104 3&glls of WomanbooO Age-blackened rafters swung the golden lamps, Shedding the softness of a tinted gleam Upon the shifting pageant, that was set Now in the glamour of a dance, anon Changed as a rainbow into points of light Beneath the palms, or in the twilight-depths Of a dim-shadowed bower. And Doris stood In green of spring, with, as it were, a growth Of nodding chiming lilies at her feet, Sweet lily-bells that fill the woodland vales With fragrance, and must nestle at her throat, Nestle and sleep in the soft billowy dusk Of coiled and gathered tresses, nestle deep In every verdurous light silken fold, Until we called her " lilied maid," as sweet As any nodding lily, and as fair. But I was paler in a pansy-gown, With glow of eastern gold in tracery Of mystic forms upon the purple edge Of sleeve and skirt. And o'er the polished oak Of the long floor, we glided in the dance, Until the dawn was loosening a flight Of keen and frosty shafts upon the world. From sundown until break of day our feet Went tirelessly, and either danced again And yet again with Kenneth Leigh, a man Stalwart, erect, and yet as roughly hewn As any clansman of moss-trooping days. And as we talked thro' the mid-winter morn, With all our bravery of silken gowns B lUoman's Sin Thrown lightly by- -it was of Kenneth Leigh. " Pie came but yesterday from France and stays The sennight here,'"' I whispered, with a strange New envy rankling bitter in my thought. Alas, that Doris should look greyly out Of such clear eyes, should walk so maiden fair, When the hot flushes of my heart were warm, Oh warm again as any western thought ; And the dim possibility of life, Intenser, passionate, already seen As far bright lakes beyond the desert sand ; And yet, and yet, if love should hesitate Betwixt our hearts, I could have yielded it Ay, even then, for Doris was more dear Than self. The glowing whiteness of the dawn, A chill ecstatic light which slowly parts And brightens into day, drew freshly on Towards the noon, and day succeeded day Until the week had numbered all its hours. And evermore my yearning thought must wait On Kenneth standing in the window depths With Doris, on the careful strength that taught Her feet to strike across the frozen mere, The ear that heard her voice among the crowd, So soft and sweet a voice, the listener Must bend to hearken. Yet an afterthought Was ever lurking sombre by the stern And overhanging level of his brows ; An afterthought that was not all of peace, 106 3&gU0 of THaomanbooD Although the shyness of a happiness Too deep for words, was shining under dusk Of downward lashes and for him alone. The sennight passed, and Kenneth stretched a hand In farewell to the circle last to her. And I, whose heart was tossing on a sea Of bitter, bitter pain, must watch the clasp, Until I read their faces like a scroll On temple wall. An anguish as of death, Or of a soul in torment, answered back The wistful questioning that Doris raised, A questioning that had forgot the world, And self, and all that only craved to share The reason of his pain the pain itself. We were in little groups about the hall, And as the sound of wheels upon the road, Died in a rolling echo, the old squire Must shake his hoary head : " A likely lad, Too good for such as Agnes Huntingdon, Although he chanced to override her beast That morning in the field." And in the dim Uncertain gloam through which the sudden leap And flicker of the flames broke redly bright, A burning tear-drop fell. Some cruel chance Had kept the story of a careless ride And its misplaced remorse, from either ear, And one had walked towards the gate of heaven, Only to find the darkness of a pit a Idoman's Sin 107 Before the widening doors. Xo fault of his. Who thought the story known, and yet a fault In that he lingered at her side, and won So true a heart again. For Doris spake In all the after moments of our life, No more of love, but lived her quiet days In the exceeding patience of a soul, That waits and waits, until the flight of time Shall bring a newer hope, a fairer day. While I, whose dull unhappy restlessness, An ache, a covered hurt, would send me forth As sea-bird on the arid waste of life, Had but a memory of conventional Dull words, of days that held nor love, nor hope, But the one presence of the soul beloved ; Days when the sun had shone, though not on me, Who was a forest flower so deeply set In mosses, and the shade of leafy boughs, That never ray of heaven's light might fall Across its blanching leaves. The billowy tide Had turned and drifted through opposing bars, To set a width of sad and murmuring sea Betwixt our sister lives ; and I was fain To wander till the hurt was overlaid By drift of trifles, such as time will leave In deepest crevasse of a seaward rock ; Ay, and until I wearied of the change Incessant, various ; of the shifting scenes IDS Sbylls of TKflomanbooO The clamour, clatter, of a foreign tongue And turned with a sick longing in my heart, To verdurous deep glooms, the solitude Of many waters, and the storied halls Wherein my father wakened to the light. A belt of gloomy woods so needle-dark That in their shade the bramble bloomed alone And never rabbit burrowed girt the house, An old red pile, with unexpected stairs And passages into a secret room, Where legendary kings had lain concealed In other days ; a quaint and curious place, With stains of blood in the long gallery, To hint a story of the murderous dead Their loves, their passions, and their nothingness As after men will point at what I build, Saying, " A silent woman, who nor loved Nor hated, but has lived her little life, And left the record of these added bricks To say she breathed." A crumbling line of wall, Beneath whose grey and ancient coping-stone The curling hartstongue showed a narrow leaf, And delicate wild grasses found a depth Of moist dark earth wherein to root and grow A wall with many a gap and fallen stone, But yet a wall which marked the boundary Betwixt my meadows and the barren land Which yet remained to Kenneth of the broad B lUoman's Stn 109 And golden acres which his mother gave A wall which ran beside me as I walked, Till one, with elbows on the mossy edge, Laughed me a greeting. Through the tender green Of the young larches I could see a face, Mischievous, bold the face of Agnes Leigh ! The face of one I hated, yet for whom I found an answering smile, the neighbour-clasp Of slim dark hands, and a light confidence The trifles of a day. For Agnes Leigh Had kindled the slow passion of despair In a deep heart that hid the rising flame, And let it eat and eat into his life ; Her ways unwifely were the county talk, Her scattering of gold, her brazen words And reckless gallops, gave the nodding heads A wherewithal to prophesy the end ; Yet for the sake of a sweet memory, A sometime love, I smiled into her eyes, And was her friend if service be the test Of all beyond a casual touch of hands. We rode together through the leafy ways, And marked the kestrel wheeling in the blue, The stir of white as a brown rabbit coursed Across the open, and the flirting wings Of a long-widowed pie ; and as we stretched Across the uplands with the honey-gorse Around, beyond, a sea of deepening light, I took and with a smile the cooler bows Of those who thought to cavil at my friend. of Womanboofc It was for Kenneth's sake Kenneth, who groaned Beneath a load of debt, and lashed his foes With whip of bitter and satiric words, When moved beyond endurance ; Kenneth Leigh, Alas, a man that had been sweet of soul And kindly as a laughing three-year babe, Before the acid of a long regret Had curdled all his thought. A friendly gleam Ran through his smile, when on a lonely walk Our ways encountered ; yet the smile was /iers, And I, her friend no more. Oh ! Doris Rhys, I have indeed been friend to thee and thine, And loyal, though a fierce temptation beat And clamoured in the courtyard of my soul. Ay, loyal ever though the tale I told, The tale of thy unwedded patient faith, Was as the passing of my latest hope. On a fresh morrow of the budding May, When promise of the coming fruit was white O'er all the land, and every ferny frond Was slow uncurling in the hedge, we sat, Agnes and I, beside a spark of fire In the deserted hall, and, with a glance Into my quiet face, as one who asked The thought beneath, she drew a written page From the loose purple foldings of her gown. " The farce is played, Yasora." And she shred The budding lilac from its numerous Small stems, as one who, inly resolute, B lUoman's Sin i Vet trembles at the darkness and the depth Of the dim gulf, whereto her feet have strayed. Gloom suddenly upon her steadfast gaze. " The farce is fully played, and no'.v I read The prologue o; a drama. Long ago, You sought to build the barrier of space Betwixt my love my soldier love and me. 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