H. C. HARDING, 
 
 HINGHAM, 
 
 Mass. 
 
University of California Berkeley 
 

B E U L AH 
 
 BY AUGUSTA J. EVANS 
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 NEW YORK: 
 
 DERBY & JACKSON, 119 NASSAU STREET, 
 1859. 
 
aeeordine to Act of Congress, in the year 1859, bj 
 
 DERBY * JACKSON, 
 i dork's Offlc. of the District Court of the United State* for the Sonthern District of Xew York. 
 
 W. a T 
 
TO MY AUNT, 
 S E A. B O E, 3ST JONES, 
 
 OP GEORGIA, 
 
 I DEDICATE THIS BOOK, 
 
 AS A FKEBLK TRIBUTE OF AFFECTION AND GRATITUDE. 
 
 919115 
 
B E UL AH 
 
 CHAPTER I. 
 
 A JANUARY sun had passed the zeiiith, and the slanting rays 
 flamed over the window-panes of a large brick building, bearing 
 on its front in golden letters the inscription, " Orphan Asylum." 
 The structure was commodious, and surrounded by wide galleries^ 
 while the situation offered a silent tribute to the discretion and 
 good sense of the board of managers, who selected the suburbs 
 instead of the more densely populated portion of the city. The 
 whitewashed palings inclosed, as a front yard or lawn, rather 
 more than an acre of ground, sown in grass and studded with 
 trees, among which the shelled walks meandered gracefully. A 
 long avenue of elms and poplars extended from the gate to the 
 principal entrance, and imparted to the Asylum an imposing 
 and venerable aspect. There was very little shrubbery, but 
 here and there orange boughs bent beneath their load of golden 
 fruitage, while the glossy foliage, stirred by the wind, trembled 
 and glistened in the sunshine. Beyond the inclosure stretched 
 the common, dotted with occasional clumps of pine and leafless 
 oaks, through which glimpses of the city might be had. Building 
 and grounds wore a quiet, peaceful, inviting look, singularly 
 appropriate for the purpose designated by the inscription, 
 " Orphan Asylum," a haven for the desolate and miserable. 
 
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8 BEUL AH. 
 
 Tbi Jrout d6ot ^>S;dl,o>ed, but upon the broad granite steps, 
 where, tj# sunJight .lay watm and tempting, sat a trio of the 
 ; JamiU,$s/ ' ; IQ-' tli& fof ejro(Mid was a slight fairy form, "a wee 
 winsome thing," with coral lips, and large, soft blue eyes, set in a 
 frame of short, clustering golden curls. She looked about six 
 years old, and was clad, like her companions, in canary-colored 
 flannel dress,. and blue check apron. Lillian was the pet of the 
 Asylum, and now her rosy cheek rested upon her tiny white 
 palm, as though she wearied of^ the picture-book which lay at 
 her feet. The figure beside her, was one whose marvellous 
 beauty riveted the gaze of all who chanced to see her. The 
 child could have been but a few months older than Lillian, yet 
 the brilliant black eyes, the peculiar curve of the dimpled mouth, 
 and long, dark ringlets, gave to the oval face a maturer and 
 more piquant loveliness. The cast of Claudia's countenance 
 bespoke her foreign parentage, and told of the warm, fierce 
 Italian blood that glowed in her cheeks. There was fascinating 
 grace in every movement, even in the easy indolence of her 
 position, as she bent on one knee to curl Lillian's locks over, her 
 finger. On the upper step, in the rear of these two, sat a*girl 
 whose age could not have been very accurately guessed from her 
 countenance, and whose features contrasted strangely with those 
 of her companions. At a first casual glance, one thought her 
 rather homely, nay, decidedly ugly ; yet, to the curious physio- 
 
 lomist, this face presented greater attractions than either of the 
 others. Reader, I here paint you the portrait of that quiet 
 ttle figure, whose history is contained in the following pages. 
 A pair of large grey eyes set beneath an overhanging forehead 
 
 >oldly-projecting-forehead, broad and smooth ; a rather large 
 but finely cut mouth, an irreproachable nose, of the order fur- 
 b removed from aquiline, and heavy black eyebrows, which 
 
 tead of arching, stretched straight across and nearly met' 
 There was not a vestige of color in her cheeks; face, neck and 
 hands wore a sickly pallor, and a mass of rippling, jetty hair 
 drawn smoothly over the temples, rendered this marble-like" 
 
BETJLAH. 9 
 
 whiteness more apparent. Unlike the younger children, Beulah 
 was busily sewing upon what seemed the counterpart of their 
 aprons ; and the sad expression of the countenance, the lips 
 firmly compressed, as if to prevent the utterance of complaint, 
 showed that she had become acquainted with cares and sorrows, 
 of which they were yet happily ignorant. Her eyes were bent 
 down on her work, and the long, black lashes nearly touched 
 her cold cheeks. 
 
 "Sister Beulah, ought Claudy to say that?" cried Lillian, 
 turning round and laying her hand upon the piece of sewing. 
 
 " Say what, Lilly ? I was not listening to you." 
 
 " She said she hoped that largest robin redbreast would get 
 drunk, and tumble down. He would be sure to bump some of 
 his pretty bright feathers out, if he rolled over the shells two or 
 three times," answered Lilly, pointing to a China-tree near, 
 where a flock of robins were eagerly chirping over the feast of 
 berries. 
 
 " Why, Claudy ! how can you wish the poor little fellow such 
 bad luck ?" The dark, thoughtful eyes, full of deep meaning, 
 rested on Claudia's radiant face. 
 
 " Oh ! you need not think I am a bear, or a hawk, ready to 
 swallow the darling little beauty alive I I would not have him 
 lose a feather for the world ; but I should like the fun of seeing 
 him stagger and wheel over and over, and tumble off the limb, 
 so that I might run and catch him in my apron. Do you think 
 / would give him to our matron to make a pie ? No, you might 
 take off my fingers first !" and the little elf snapped them 
 emphatically in Beulah's face. 
 
 " Make a pie of robies, indeed ! I would starve before I 
 would eat a piece of it," chimed in Lilly, with childish horror at 
 the thought. 
 
 Claudia laughed with mingled mischief and chagrin. " You 
 say you would not eat a bit of roby-pie to save your life? 
 Well, you did it last week, anyhow." 
 
 " Oh, Claudy, I didn't 1" 
 
10 BEULAH. 
 
 " Oh, but you did I Don't you remember Susan picked up a 
 bird last week that fell out of this very tree, and gave it to our 
 matron ? Well, didn't we have bird-pie for dinner ?" 
 
 " Yes, but one poor little fellow would not make a pie." 
 
 " They had some birds already that came from the market, 
 and I heard Mrs. Williams tell Susan to put it in with the 
 others. So, you see, you did eat roby-pie, and I didn't, for I 
 knew what was in it. I saw its head wrung off !" 
 
 11 Well, I hope I did not get any of roby : I won't eat any 
 more pie till they have all gone," was Lilly's consolatory reflec- 
 tion. Chancing to glance toward the gate, she exclaimed : 
 
 " There is a carriage." 
 
 " What is to day ? let me see, Wednesday : yes, this is the even- 
 ing for the ladies to meet here. Lil, is my face right clean ? 
 because that red-headed Miss Dorothy always takes particular 
 pains to look at it. She rubbed her pocket-handkerchief over it 
 the other day. I do hate her, don't you ?" cried Claudia, spring- 
 ing up and buttoning the band of her apron sleeve, which had 
 become unfastened. 
 
 " Why, Claudy, I am astonished to hear you talk so : Miss 
 Dorothy helps to buy food and clothes for us, and you ought to 
 be ashamed to speak of her as you do." As she delivered this 
 reprimand, Beulah snatched up a small volume and hid it in her 
 work-basket. 
 
 " I don't believe she gives us much. I do hate her, and I 
 can't help it, she is so ugly, and cross, and vinegar-faced. I 
 should not like her to look at my mug of milk. You don't love 
 her either, any more than I do, only you won't say anything about 
 her. But kiss me, and I promise I will be good, and not make 
 faces at her in my apron." Beulah stooped down and warmly 
 kissed the suppliant, then took her little sister's hand and led her 
 into the house, just as the carriage reached the door. The 
 children presented a pleasant spectacle as they entered the long 
 dining-room, and ranged themselves for inspection. Twenty-eight 
 heirs of orphanage, varying in y-ars, from one crawling infant, to 
 
BEULAH. 11 
 
 well-nigh grown girls, all neatly clad, and with smiling, contented 
 faces, if we except one grave countenance, which might have 
 been remarked by the close observer. The weekly visiting com- 
 mittee consisted of four of the lady managers, but to-day the 
 number was swelled to six. A glance at the inspectors sufficed 
 to iuform Beulah that something of more than ordinary interest 
 had convened them on the present occasion, and she was passing 
 on to her accustomed place, when her eyes fell upon a familiar 
 face, partially concealed by a straw bonnet. It was her Sabbath- 
 school teacher ; a sudden glad light flashed over the girl's 
 countenance, and the pale lips disclosed a set of faultlessly beau- 
 tiful teeth, as she smiled and hastened to her friend. 
 
 11 How do you do, Mrs. Mason ? I am so glad to see you !" 
 
 " Thank you, Beulah, I have been promising myself this plea- 
 sure a great while. I saw Eugene this morning, and told him I 
 was coming out. He sent you a book and a message. Here is 
 the book. You are to mark the passages you like particularly, 
 and study them well until he comes. When did you see him 
 last?" 
 
 Mrs. Mason put the volume in her hand as she spoke. 
 
 " It has been more than a week since he was here, and I was 
 afraid he was sick. He is very kind and good to remember the 
 book he promised me, and I thank you very much, Mrs. Mason, 
 for bringing it." The face was radiant with new-born joy, but 
 it all died out when Miss Dorothea White (little Claudia's par- 
 ticular aversion) fixed her pale blue eyes upon her, and asked, in 
 a sharp, discontented tone : 
 
 " What ails that girl, Mrs. Williams ? she does not work 
 enough, or she would have some blood in her cheeks. Has she 
 been sick ?" 
 
 " No, madam, she has not been sick exactly, but somehow she 
 never looks strong and hearty like the others. She works well 
 enough. There is not a better or more industrious girl in the 
 asylum, but I rather think she studies too much. She will sit up 
 and read of nights, when the others are all sound asleep ; and 
 
12 BE TIL AH. 
 
 very often, when Kate and I put out the hall lamp, we find her 
 with her book alone in the cold. I can't get rny consent to 
 forbid her reading, especially as it never interferes with her 
 regular work, and she is so fond of it." As the kind-hearted 
 matron uttered these words she glanced at the child and sighed 
 involuntarily. 
 
 " You are too indulgent, Mrs. Williams ; we cannot afford to 
 feed and clothe girls of her age, to wear themselves out reading 
 trash all night. We are very much in arrears at best, and I 
 think some plan should be adopted to make these large girls, who 
 have been on hand so long, more useful. What do you say, 
 ladies ?" Miss Dorothea looked around for some encouragement 
 and support in her move. 
 
 " Well, for my part, Miss White, I think that child is not 
 strong enough to do much hard work ; she always has looked 
 delicate and pale," said Mrs. Taylor, an amiable looking woman, 
 who had taken one of the youngest orphans on her knee. 
 
 11 My dear friend that is the very reason : she does not exer- 
 cise sufficiently to make her robust. Just look at her face and 
 hands, as bloodless as a turnip." 
 
 " Beulah, do ask her to give you some of her beautiful color ; 
 she looks exactly like a cake of tallow, with two glass beads in 
 the middle," 
 
 " Hush !" and Beulah's hand was pressed firmly over Claudia's 
 crimson lips, lest the whisper of the indignant little brunette 
 should reach ears for which it was not intended. 
 
 As no one essayed to answer Miss White, the matron ven- 
 tured to suggest a darling scheme of her own. 
 
 " I have always hoped the managers would conclude to educate 
 her for a teacher. She is so studious, I know she would learn 
 very rapidly." 
 
 " My dear madam, you do not in the least understand what you 
 are talking about. It would require at least five years' careful 
 training to fit her to teach, and our finances do not admit of any 
 such expenditure. As the best thing for her, I should move to 
 
BEULAH. 13 
 
 bind her out to a mantua-maker or milliner, but she could not 
 stand the confinement. She would go off with consumption in 
 less than a year. There is the trouble with these delicate 
 children." 
 
 " How is the babe that was brought here last week ?" asked 
 Mrs. Taylor. 
 
 " Oh, he is doing beautifully. Bring him round the table, 
 Susan," and the rosy, smiling infant was handed about for 
 closer inspection. A few general inquiries followed, and then 
 Beulah was not surprised to hear the order given for the child- 
 ren to retire, as the managers had some especial business 
 with their matron. The orphan band defiled into the hall, and 
 dispersed to their various occupations, but Beulah approached 
 the matron, and whispered something, to which the reply was : 
 
 " No : if you have finished that other apron, you shall sew 
 no more to-day. You can pump a fresh bucket of water, and 
 then run out into the yard for some air." 
 
 She performed the duty assigned to her, and then hastened 
 to the dormitory, whither Lillian and Claudia had preceded her. 
 The latter was standing on a chair, mimicking Miss Dorothea, 
 and haranguing her sole auditor, in a nasal twang, which she 
 contrived to force from her beautiful curling lips. At sight of 
 Beulah, she sprang toward her, exclaiming : 
 
 "You shall be a teacher if you want to, shan't you, 
 Beulah ?" 
 
 " I am afraid not, Claudy. But don't say any more about 
 her; she is not as kind as our dear matron, or some of the 
 managers, but she thinks she is right. Remember, she made 
 these pretty blue curtains round your and Lilly's bed." 
 
 " I don't care if she did. All the ladies were making them, 
 and she did no more than the rest. Never mind : I shall be a 
 young lady some of these days ; our matron says I will be 
 beautiful enough to marry the President, and then I will see 
 whether Miss Dorothy Red-head comes meddling and bothering 
 you any more." The brilliant eyes dilated with pleasure, at the 
 
14 B E U L A H . 
 
 thought of the protection which the future Jady-President would 
 afford her protegee. 
 
 Beulah smiled, and asked almost gaily : 
 
 " Claudy, how much will you pay me a month, to dress you, 
 and keep your hair in order, when you get into the White 
 House at Washington ?" 
 
 " Oh, you dear darling I you shall have everything you want, 
 and do nothing but read." The impulsive child threw her arms 
 around Beulah's neck, and kissed her repeatedly, while the 
 latter bent down over her basket. 
 
 " Lilly, here are some chincapins for you and Claudy. I am 
 going out into the yard, and you may both go and play hull- 
 gull." 
 
 In the debating room of the visiting committee, Miss White 
 again had the floor. She was no less important a personage 
 than vice-president of the board of managers, and felt author- 
 ized to investigate closely, and redress all grievances. 
 
 " Who did you say sent that book here, Mrs. Mason ?" 
 
 " Eugene Rutland, who was once a member of Mrs. Williams' 
 orphan charge in this asylum. Mr. Graham adopted him, and 
 he is now known as Eugene Graham. He is very much attached 
 to Beulah, though I believe they are not at all related." 
 
 "He left the asylum before I entered the board. What 
 sort of boy is he ? I have seen him several times, and do not 
 particularly fancy him." 
 
 " Oh, madame, he is a noble boy 1 It was a great trial to 
 me to part with him three years ago. He is much older than 
 Beulah, and loves her as well as if she were his sister," said the 
 matron, more hastily than was her custom, when answering any 
 of the managers. 
 
 " I suppose he has put this notion of being a teacher into her 
 head ; well, she must get it out, that is all. I know of an 
 excellent situation, where a lady is willing to pay six dollars a 
 month for a girl of her age to attend to an infant, and I think 
 we must secure it for her." 
 
BETJLAH. 15 
 
 " Oh, Miss White 1 she is not able to carry a heavy child 
 always in her arms," expostulated Mrs. Williams. 
 
 " Yes she is. I will venture to say she looks all the better 
 for it at the month's end." 
 
 The last sentence, fraught with interest to herself, fell upon 
 Beulah's ear, as she passed through the hall, and an unerring 
 intuition told her " you are the one." She put her hands over 
 her ears to shut out Miss Dorothea's sharp tones, and hurried 
 away, with a dim foreboding of coming evil, which pressed 
 heavily upon her young heart. 
 
 CHAPTER II. 
 
 THE following day, in obedience to the proclamation of the 
 mayor of the city, was celebrated as a season of special thanks- 
 giving, and the inmates of the asylum were taken to church to 
 morning service. After an early dinner, the matron gave them 
 permission to amuse themselves the remainder of the day as 
 their various inclinations prompted. There was an immediate 
 dispersion of the assemblage, and only Beulah lingered beside 
 the matron's chair. 
 
 " Mrs. Williams, may I take Lilly with me, and go out into 
 the woods at the back of the Asylum ?" 
 
 " I want you at home this evening, but I dislike very much 
 to refuse you." 
 
 " Oh! never mind, if you wish me to do anything," answered 
 the girl cheerfully. 
 
 Tears rolled over the matron's face, and hastily averting her 
 head, she wiped them away with the corner of her apron. 
 
 r ' Can I do anything to help you ? What is the matter ?" 
 
 " Never mind, Beulah; do you get your bonnet and go to the 
 
16 BEULAH. 
 
 v 
 
 edge of the woods not too far, remember; and if I must have 
 you, why I will send for you." 
 
 " I would rather not go if it will be any trouble." 
 
 "No, dear, it's no trouble; I want you to go," answered 
 the matron, turning hastily away. Beulah felt very strongly 
 inclined to follow, and inquire what was in store for her; but 
 the weight on her heart pressed more heavily, and murmur- 
 ing to herself, "it will come time enough, time enough," she 
 passed on. 
 
 " May I come with you and Lilly ?" entreated little Claudia, 
 running down the walk at full speed, and putting her curly head 
 through the palings to make the request. 
 
 " Yes, come on. You and Lilly can pick up some nice smooth 
 burs to make baskets of. But where is your bonnet ?" 
 
 "I forgot it;" she ran np, almost out of breath, and seized 
 Beulah's hand. 
 
 "You forgot it, indeed! You little witch, you will burn as 
 black as a gipsy." 
 
 " I don't care if I do. I hate bonnets." 
 
 " Take care, Claudy; the President won't have you all freckled 
 and tanned." 
 
 " Won't he ?" queried the child, with a saucy sparkle in her 
 black eyes. , 
 
 " That he won't; here, tie on my hood, and the next time you 
 come running after me, bareheaded, I will make you go back; 
 do you hear ?" 
 
 " Yes, I hear. I wonder why Miss Dorothy don't bleach off 
 her freckles; she looks just like a " 
 
 ' Hush about her, and run on ahead." 
 
 "Do pray let me get my breath first; which way are we 
 going r f 
 
 "To the piney woods yonder," cried Lilly, clapping her hands 
 is!, glee; "won't we have fun, rolling and sliding on the 
 
 The two little ones walked on in advance 
 e path along which their feet pattered so carelessly led to 
 
B E II L A H . 17 
 
 a hollow or ravine, and the ground on the opposite side rose into 
 small hillocks, thickly wooded with pines. Beulah sat down upon 
 a mound of moss and leaves; while Claudia and Lillian, throwing 
 off their hoods, commenced the glorious game of sliding. The 
 pine straw presented an almost glassy surface, and starting from 
 the top of a hillock, they slid down, often stumbling and rolling 
 together to the bottom. Many a peal of laughter rang out, and 
 echoed far back in the forest, and two blackbirds could not have 
 kept up a more continuous chatter. Apart from all this sat 
 Beulah; she had remembered the matron's words, and stopped 
 just at the verge of the woods, whence she could see the white 
 palings of the Asylum. Above her the winter breeze moaned 
 and roared in the pine tops; it was the sad but dearly loved 
 forest music that she so often stole out to listen to. Every 
 breath which sighed through the emerald boughs seemed to 
 sweep a sympathetic chord in her soul, and she raised her arms 
 toward the trees as though she longed to clasp the mighty 
 musical box of nature to her heart. The far-off blue of a cloud- " 
 less sky looked in upon her, like a watchful guardian; the sun- 
 light fell slantingly, now mellowing the brown leaves and 
 knotted trunks, and now seeming to shun the darker spots and 
 recesses, where shadows lurked. For a time, the girl forgot all, 
 but the quiet and majestic beauty of the scene. She loved na- 
 ture as only those can whose sources of pleasure have been sadly 
 curtailed, and her heart went out, so to speak, after birds, and 
 trees, and flowers, sunshine, and stars, and the voices of sweep- 
 ing winds. An open volume lay on her lap; it was Longfellow's 
 Poems, the book Eugene had sent her, and leaves were turned 
 down at " Excelsior," and the '* Psalm of Life." The changing 
 countenance indexed very accurately the emotions which were 
 excited by this communion with Nature. There was an up- 
 lifted look, a brave, glad, hopeful light in the grey eyes, gene- 
 rally so troubled in their expression. A sacred song rose on the 
 evening air, a solemn but beautiful hymn. She sang the words 
 of the great strength-giving poet, the "Psalm. of Life:" 
 
18 BEULAH. 
 
 " Tell me not in mournful numbers, 
 
 Life is but an empty dream ; 
 For the soul is dead that slumbers, 
 And things are not what they seem." 
 
 It was wonderful what power and sweetness there was in her 
 voice; burst after burst of sweet melody fell from her trembling 
 lips. Her soul echoed the sentiments of the immortal bard, and 
 she repeated again and again the fifth verse: 
 
 " In the world's broad field of battle, 
 
 In the bivouac of life ; 
 Be not like dumb driven cattle, 
 Be a hero in the strife." 
 
 Intuitively she seemed to feel that an hour of great trial was 
 at hand, and this was a girding for the combat. With the 
 shield of a warm, hopeful heart, and the sword of a strong, un- 
 faltering will, she awaited the shock; but as she concluded her 
 song, the head bowed itself upon her arms, the shadow of the 
 unknown, lowering future had fallen upon her face, and only the 
 Great Shepherd knew what passed the pale lips of the young 
 orphan. She was startled by the sharp bark of a dog, and 
 looking up, saw a gentleman leaning against a neighboring tree, 
 and regarding her very earnestly. He came forward as she 
 perceived him, and said with a pleasant smile: 
 
 " You need not be afraid of my dog. Like his master, he 
 would not disturb you till you finished your song. Down, Carlo ; 
 be quiet, sir. My little friend, tell me who taught you to sing." 
 
 She had hastily risen, and a slight glow tinged her cheek at 
 his question. Though naturally reserved and timid, there was a 
 self-possession about her, unusual in children of her age, and she 
 answered in a low voice, " I have never had a teacher, sir ; but 
 I listen to the choir on Sabbath, and sing our Sunday-school 
 hymns at church." 
 
 " Do you know who wrote those words you sang just now ? I 
 was not aware they had been set to music ?" 
 
B E TJ L A H . 19 
 
 "I found them in this book yesterday, and liked them so much 
 that I tried to sing them by one of our hymn tunes." She held 
 up the volume as she spoke. 
 
 He glanced at the title, and then looked curiously at her. 
 Beulah chanced just then to turn toward the Asylum, and saw 
 one of the oldest girls running across the common. The shadow 
 on her face deepened, and she looked around for Claudia and 
 Lillian. They had tired of sliding, and were busily engaged 
 picking up pine burs at some little distance in the rear. 
 
 " Come, Claudy Lilly our. matron has sent for us ; come, 
 make haste." 
 
 " Do you belong to the Asylum ?" asked the gentleman, shak- 
 ing the ashes from his cigar. 
 
 " Yes, sir," answered she, and as the children came up she 
 bowed and turned homeward. 
 
 " Wait a moment ; those are not your sisters, certainly ?" 
 His eyes rested with unfeigned admiration on their beautiful 
 faces. 
 
 " This one is, sir ; that is not." As she spoke she laid her 
 hand on Lillian's head. Claudia looked shyly at the stranger, 
 and then seizing Beulah's dress, exclaimed : 
 
 11 Oh, Beulah, don't let us go just yet. I left such a nice, 
 splendid pile of burs." 
 
 11 Yes, we must go, yonder comes Katy for us. Good even- 
 ing, sir," 
 
 " Good evening, my little friend ; some of these days I shall 
 come to the Asylum to see you all, and have you sing that song 
 again." 
 
 She made no reply, but catching her sister's hand, walked 
 rapidly homeward. Katy delivered Mrs. Williams' message, 
 and assured Beulah she must make haste, for Miss Dorothy was 
 displeased that the children were absent. 
 
 11 What I is she there again, the hateful " 
 
 Beulah's hand was over Claudia's mouth, and prevented the 
 remainder of the sentence. That short walk was painful, and 
 
20 B E U L A H . 
 
 conflicting hopes and fears chased each other in the sister's 
 heart, as she tightened her hold on Lilly's hand. 
 
 "Oh, what a beautiful carriage!" cried Claudia, as they 
 approached the door, and descried an elegant carriage, glittering 
 with silver mountings, and drawn by a pair of spirited black 
 horses. 
 
 " Yes, that it is, and there is a lady and gentleman here who 
 must be very rich, judging from their looks. They brought Miss 
 White." 
 
 " What do they want, Katy ?" asked Claudia. 
 
 " I don't know for certain, though I have my own thoughts," 
 answered the girl, with a knowing laugh that grated on Beulah's 
 
 " Here, Beulah, bring them to the dormitory," said Mrs. Wil- 
 liams, meeting them at the door, and hurrying them up-stairs. 
 She hastily washed Claudia's face and recurled her hair, while 
 the same offices were performed for Lillian by her sister. 
 
 " Don't rub my hand so hard, you hurt," cried out Claudia, 
 sharply, as in perfect silence, and with an anxious countenance, 
 the kind matron dressed her. 
 
 " I only want to get it white and clean, beauty," was the con- 
 ciliatory reply. 
 
 "Well, I tell you that won't come off, because it's turpen- 
 tine," retorted the self-willed little elf. 
 
 "Come, Beulah, bring Lilly along. Miss White is out of 
 patience." 
 
 "What does all this mean?" said Beulah, taking her sister's 
 hand. 
 
 " Don't ask me, poor child." As she spoke, the good woman 
 ushered the trio into the reception-room. None of the other 
 children were present ; Beulah noted this circumstance, and 
 drawing a long breath, looked around. 
 
 Miss White was eagerly talking to a richly-dressed and very 
 pretty woman, while a gentleman stood beside thorn, impatiently 
 twirling his seal and watch-key. 
 
B E U L A H . 21 
 
 All looked up, and Miss White exclaimed : 
 " Here they are : now, iny dear Mrs. Grayson, I rather think 
 you can be suited. Come here, little ones." She drew Claudia 
 to her side, while Lilly clung closer to her sister. 
 
 " Oh, what beauties ! Only look at them, Alfred I" Mrs. 
 Grayson glanced eagerly from one to the other. 
 
 " Very pretty children, indeed, my dear. Extremely pretty ; 
 particularly the black-eyed one," answered her husband, with far 
 less ecstasy. 
 
 " I don't know ; I believe I admire the golden-haired one most. 
 She is a perfect fairy. Come here, my love, and let me talk to 
 you," continued she, addressing Lilly. The child clasped her 
 sister's fingers more firmly, and did not advance an inch. 
 
 " Do not hold her, Beulah. Gome to the lady, Lillian," said 
 Miss White. As Beulah gently disengaged her hand, she felt as 
 if the anchor of hope had been torn from her hold, but. stooping 
 down, she whispered : 
 
 " Go to the lady, Lilly darling ; I will not leave you." 
 
 Thus encouraged, the little figure moved slowly forward, and 
 paused in front of the stranger. Mrs. Grayson took her small 
 white hands tenderly, and pressing a warm kiss on her lips, said 
 in a kind, winning tone : 
 
 " What is your name, my dear ?" 
 
 11 Lillian, ma'am, but sister calls me Lilly." 
 
 " Who is ' sister > little Claudia here ?" 
 
 " Oh, no ; sister Beulah." And the soft blue eyes turned 
 lovingly toward that gentle sister. 
 
 "Good heavens, Alfred, how totally unlike! This is one of 
 the most beautiful children I have ever seen, and that girl 
 yonder is ugly," said the lady, in an undertone to her husband, 
 who was talking to Claudia. It was said in a low voice, but 
 Beulah heard every syllable, and a glow of shame for an instant 
 bathed her brow. Claudia heard it too, and springing from Mr. 
 Grayson's knee, she exclaimed angrily : 
 
 " She isn't ugly, any such thing ; she is the smartest girl 
 
22 B E U L A H . 
 
 in the Asylum, and I love her better than anybody in the 
 world." 
 
 " No, Beulah is not pretty, but she is good, and that is far 
 better," said the matron, laying her trembling hand on Beulah's 
 shoulder. A bitter smile curled the girl's lips, but she did not 
 move her eyes from Lillian's face. 
 
 " Fanny, if you select that plain-spoken little one, you will 
 have some temper to curb," suggested Mr. Grayson, somewhat 
 amused by Claudia's burst of indignation. 
 
 " Oh, my dear husband, I 'must have them both : only fancy 
 how lovely they will be, dressed exactly alike. My little Lilly, 
 and you Claudia, will you come and be my daughters ? I shall 
 love you very much, and that gentleman will be your papa. He 
 is very kind. You shall have big wax dolls, as high as your 
 heads, and doll-houses, and tea-sets, and beautiful blue and pink 
 silk dresses, and every evening I shall take you out to ride in 
 my carriage. Each of you shall have a white hat, with long, 
 curling feathers. Will you come and live with me, aiid let me 
 be your mamma ?" -' 
 
 Beulah's face assumed an ashen hue, as she listened to these 
 coaxing words. She had not thought of separation ; the evil 
 had never presented itself in this form, and staggering forward, 
 she clutched the matron's dress, saying hoarsely : 
 
 " Oh, don't separate us ! Don't let them take Lilly from me I 
 I will do anything on earth, I will work my hands off ; oh, do 
 anything, but please, oh please, don't give Lilly up. My own 
 darling Lilly." Claudia here interrupted : 
 
 " I should like to go well enough, if you will take Beulah too. 
 Lil, are you going ?" 
 
 1 No, no." Lillian broke away from the stranger's clasping 
 arm, and rushed toward her sister ; but Miss White sat between 
 them, and catching the child, she firmly, though very gently, 
 held her back. Lilly was very much afraid of her, and bursting 
 into tears, she cried imploringly : 
 
 " Oh, sister 1 take me, take me I" 
 
BE-ULAH. 23 
 
 Beulah sprang to her side, and said almost fiercely : " Give her 
 to me : she is mine, and you have no right to part us." She ex- 
 tended her arms toward the little form, struggling to reach her. 
 " The managers have decided that it is for the child's good, 
 that Mrs. Grayson should adopt her. We dislike very much to 
 separate sisters, but it cannot be avoided ; whole families can't be 
 adopted by one person, and you must not interfere. She will 
 soon be perfectly satisfied away from you, and instead of encou- 
 raging her to be rebellious, you ought to coax her to behave, and 
 go peaceably," replied Miss White, still keeping Beulah at arm's 
 length. 
 
 "You let go Lilly : you hateful, ugly, old thing you 1 She 
 shan't go if she don't want to 1 She does belong to Beulah," 
 cried Claudia, striding up and laying her hand on Lilly's arm. 
 
 " You spoiled, insolent little wretch 1" muttered Miss White, 
 crimsoning to the roots of her fiery hair. 
 
 " I am afraid they will not consent to go. Fanny, suppose 
 you take Claudia ; the other seems too reluctant," said Mr. Gray- 
 son, looking at his watch. 
 
 " But I do so want that little blue-eyed angel. Cannot the 
 matron influence her ?" She turned to her as she spoke. Thus 
 appealed to, Mrs. Williams took the child in her arms, and 
 caressed her tenderly. 
 
 " My dear little Lilly, you must not cry and struggle so. 
 Why will you not go with this kind lady ? she will love you 
 very much." 
 
 " Oh, I don't want to I" sobbed she, pressing her wet cheeks 
 against the matron's shoulder. 
 
 " But, Lilly love, you shall have everything you want. Kiss 
 me like a sweet girl, and say you will go to my beautiful home. 
 I will give you a cage full of the prettiest canary birds you ever 
 looked at. Don't you love to ride ? My carriage is waiting at 
 the door. You and Claudia will have such a nice time." Mrs. 
 Grayson knelt beside her, and kissed her tenderly ; still she 
 clung closer to the matron. 
 
24 BEULAH. 
 
 Beulah bad covered her face with her hands, arid stood 
 trembling like a weed bowed before the rushing gale. She 
 knew that neither expostulation nor entreaty would avail now, 
 and she resolved to bear with fortitude, what she could not 
 avert. Lifting her head, she said slowly : 
 
 " If I must give up my sister, let me do so as quietly as pos- 
 sible. Give her to me, then perhaps she will go more willingly. 
 Do not force her away ! Oh, do not force her 1" 
 
 As she uttered these words, her lips were white and cold, 
 and the agonized expression of her face made Mrs. Gray son 
 shiver. 
 
 " Lilly, my darling ! My own precious darling !" she bent 
 over her sister, and the little arms clasped her neck tightly, as 
 she lifted and bore her back to the dormitory. 
 
 "You may get their clothes ready, Mrs. Williams. Rest 
 assured, my dear Mrs. Grayson, they will go now without any 
 further difficulty. Of course we dislike to separate sisters, but 
 it can't be helped sometimes. If you like, I will show you over 
 the Asylum while the children are prepared." Miss White led 
 the way to the schoolroom. 
 
 " I am very dubious about that little one ; Fanny, how will 
 you ever manage two such dispositions, one all tears, and the 
 other all fire and tow ?" said Mr. Grayson. 
 
 " A truce to your fears, Alfred. We shall get on charmingly 
 after the first few days. How proud I shall be with such 
 jewels." 
 
 Beulah sat down on the edge of the blue-curtained bed, and 
 drew her idol close to her heart. She kissed the beautiful face, 
 and smoothed the golden curls she had so long, and so lovingly 
 arranged, and as the child returned her kisses, she felt as if rude 
 hands were tearing her heart-strings loose. But she knew she 
 must give her up. There was no effort within her power, whicl- 
 could avail to keep her treasure, and that brave spirit nerved 
 itself. Not a tear dimmed her eye, not a sob broke from her 
 colorless lips. 
 
BEULAH. 25 
 
 " Lilly, my own little sister, you must not cry any more. Let 
 me wash your face ; you will make your head ache if you cry 
 so." 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! I don't want to go away from you." 
 
 " My darling, I know you don't ; but you will have a great 
 many things to make you happy, and I shall come to see you as 
 often as I can. I can't bear to have you go, either, but I 
 cannot help it, and I want you to go quietly, and be so good 
 that the lady will love you." 
 
 " But to-night, when I go to bed, you will not be there to 
 hear me say my prayers. Oh, sister ! why can't you go ?" 
 
 " They do not want me, my dear Lilly, but you can kneel 
 down and say your prayers, arid God will hear you just as well 
 as if you were here with me, and I will ask Him to love you all 
 the more, and take care of you " 
 
 Here a little arm stole sound poor Beulah's neck, and 
 Claudia whispered with a sob : 
 
 " Will you ask Him to love me too ?" 
 
 " Yes, Claudy, I will." 
 
 " We will try to be good. Oh, Beulah I love you so much. 
 so very much !" The affectionate child pressed her lips 
 repeatedly to Beulah's bloodless cheek. 
 
 " Claudy, if you love me, you must be kind to my little Lilly 
 When you see that she is sad, and crying for me, you must 
 coax her to be as contented as possible, and always speak gently 
 to her. Will you do this for Beulah ?" 
 
 " Yes, that I will 1 I promise you I will, and what is more, 
 I will fight for her 1 I boxed that spiteful Charley's ears the 
 other day, for vexing her, and I will scratch anybody's eyes out 
 that dares to scold her. This very morning I pinched Maggie 
 black and blue, for bothering her, and I tell you I shall not let 
 anybody impose on her." The tears dried in her brilliant eyes, 
 and she clinched her little fist with an exalted opinion of her 
 protective powers. 
 
 " Claudy, I do not ask you to fight for her ; I want you. to 
 
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26 BEULAH. 
 
 love her. Oh, love her ! always be kind to her," murmured 
 Beulah. 
 
 " I do love her better than anything in the world, don't I 
 Lilly dear I" she softly kissed one of the child's hands. 
 
 At this moment the matron entered, with a large bundle 
 neatly wrapped. Her eyes were red, and there were traces of 
 tears on her cheek ; looking tenderly down upon the trio, she 
 said very gently : 
 
 " Come, my pets, they will not wait any longer for you. I 
 hope you will try to be good, and love each other, and Beulah 
 shall come to see you." She took Claudia's hand and led her 
 down the steps. Beulah lifted her sister, and carried her in her 
 arms, as she had done from her birth, and at every step kissed 
 her lips and brow. 
 
 Mr. and Mrs. Grayson were standing at the front door ; they 
 oth looked pleased, as Lilly had^eased crying, and the carriage 
 loor was opened to admit them. 
 
 "Ah I my dears, now for a nice ride; Claudia, jump in," 
 <*aid Mr. Grayson, extending his hand to assist her. She 
 paused, kissed her kind matron, and then approached Beulah. 
 She could not bear to leave her, and as she threw her arms 
 around her, sobbed out : 
 
 " Good bye dear, good Beulah. I will take care of Lilly. 
 Please love me, and ask God for me too." She was lifted into 
 the carriage with tears streaming over her face. 
 
 Beulah drew near to Mrs. Grayson, and said in a low, but 
 imploring tone : 
 
 " Oh, madam, love my sister, and always speak affectionately 
 to her, then she will be good and obedient. I may come to see 
 her often, may I not ?" 
 
 " Certainly," replied the lady, in a tone which chilled poor 
 Beulah's heart. She swallowed a groan of agony, and straining 
 the loved one to her bosom, pressed her lips to Lilly's. 
 
 " God bless my little sister, my darling, my all !" She put the 
 child in Mr. Grayson's extended arms, and only saw that her 
 
B E U L A H . 27 
 
 sister looked back appealingly to her. Miss White came up and 
 said something which she did not hear, and, turning hastily away, 
 she went up to the dormitory, and seated herself on Lilly's vacant 
 bed. The child knew not how the hours passed ; she sat with 
 her face buried in her hands, until the light of a candle flashed 
 into the darkened chamber, and the kind voice of the matron 
 fell on her ear. 
 
 " Beulah, will you try to eat some supper ? Do, dear." 
 
 " No, thank you, I don't want anything." 
 
 " Poor child, I would have saved you all this had it been in 
 my power ; but, when once decided by the managers, you know I 
 could not interfere. They disliked to separate you and Lilly, 
 but thought, that under the circumstances, it was the best 
 arrangement they could make. Beulah, I want to tell you some- 
 thing, if you will listen to me." She seated herself on the edge 
 of the bed, and took one of the girl's hands between both hers. 
 
 " The managers think it is best that you should go out and 
 take a situation. I am sorry I am forced to give you up, very 
 sorry, for you have always been a good girl, and I love you 
 dearly ; but these things cannot be avoided, and I hope all will 
 turn out for the best. There is a place engaged for you, and 
 Miss White wishes you to go to-morrow. I trust you will not 
 have a hard time. You are to take care of an infant, and they 
 will give you six dollars a month besides your board and clothes. 
 Try to do your duty, child, and perhaps something may happen 
 which will enable you to turn teacher." 
 
 " Well, I will do the best I can. I do nob mind work, but 
 then Lilly " Her head went down on her arms once more. 
 
 11 Yes, dear, I know it is very hard for you to part with her ; 
 but remember, it is for her good. Mr. Grayson is very wealthy, 
 and of course Lilly and Claudy will have " 
 
 " And what is money to my " Again she paused abruptly. 
 
 " Ah, child, you do not begin to know 1 Money is everything 
 in this world to some people, and more than the next to other 
 poor souls Well, well, I hope it will prove for the best as far 
 
28 BETJLAH. 
 
 as you are concerned. It is early yet, but maybe you had better 
 go'to bed, as you are obliged to leave in the morning." 
 " I could not sleep." 
 
 " God will help you, dear child, if you try to do your duty. 
 All of us have sorrows, and if yours have begun early, they may 
 not last long. Poor little thing, I shall always remember you in 
 my prayers." She kissed her gently, and left her, hoping that 
 solitude would soothe her spirits. Miss White's words rang in 
 the girl's ears like a kiiell. " She will soon be perfectly satisfied 
 away from you." 
 
 11 Would she ? Could that idolized sister learn to do without 
 her, and love her new friends as fondly as the untiring one who 
 had cradled her in her arms for six long years ? A foreboding 
 dread hissed continually, "do you suppose the wealthy and 
 fashionable Mrs. Grayson, who lives in that elegant house on 
 street, will suffer her adopted daughter to associate inti- 
 mately with a hired nurse ?" 
 
 Again the light streamed into the room. She buried her face 
 deeper in her apron. 
 
 " Beulah," said a troubled, anxious voice. 
 "Oh, Eugene !" She sprang up with a dry sob, and threw 
 herself into his arms. 
 
 " I know it all, dear Beulah ; but come down to Mrs. Williams' 
 room, there is a bright fire there, and your hands are as cold as 
 ice. You will make yourself sick sitting here without even a 
 shawl around you." He led her down-stairs to the room occu- 
 pied by the matron, who kindly took her work to the dining- 
 room, and left them to talk unrestrainedly. 
 
 " Sit down in this rocking-chaj| and warm your hands." 
 He seated himself near her, and as the firelight glowed on the 
 faces of both, they contrasted strangely. One was classical and 
 full of youthful beauty, the other wan, haggard, and sorrow- 
 stained. He looked about sixteen, and promised to become a 
 strikingly handsome man, while the proportions of his polished 
 brow indicated more than ordinary intellectual endowments. He 
 
B E U L A II . 29 
 
 watched his companion earnestly, sadly, and, leaning forward, 
 took one of her hands. 
 
 " Beulah, I see from your face that you have not shed a single 
 tear. I wish you would not keep your sorrow so pent up in your 
 heart. It grieves me to see you look as you do now." 
 
 " Oh I I can't help it. If it were not for you I believe I 
 should die, I am so very miserable. Eugene, if you could have 
 seen our Lilly cling to me, even to the last moment. It seems to me 
 my heart will break." She sank her weary head on his shoulder. 
 
 " Yes, darling, I know you are suffering very much ; but 
 'emember that ' all things work together for good to them that 
 'ove God.' Perhaps he sees it is best that you should give her 
 np for awhile, and if so, will you not try to bear it cheerfully, 
 instead of making yourself sick with useless grief ?" He gently 
 smoothed the hair from her brow as he spoke. She did not 
 reply. He did not expect that she would, and continued in the 
 same kind tone. 
 
 " I am much more troubled about your taking this situation. 
 If I had known it earlier I would have endeavored to prevent it, 
 but I suppose it cannot be helped now, for awhile at least. As 
 soon as possible I am determined you shall go to school ; and 
 remember, dear Beulah, I am just as much grieved at your sor- 
 rows as you are. In a few years I shall have a home of my own, 
 and you shall be the first to come to it. Never mind these dark, 
 stormy days. Do you remember what our minister said in his 
 sermon last Sunday ? ' the darkest hour is just before daybreak.' 
 Already I begin to see the ' silver lining ' of clouds that a few 
 years, or even months ago, seemed heavy and cheerless. I have 
 heard a great deal about the ills and trials of this world, but I 
 think a brave, hopeful spirit, will do much toward remedying 
 the evil. For my part, I look forward to the time when you and 
 I shall have a home of our own, and then Lilly and Claudy can 
 be with us. I was talking to Mrs. Mason about it yesterday ; 
 she loves you very much. I dare say all will be right, so cheer 
 up, Beulah, and do look on the bright side." 
 
30 BEULAH. 
 
 " Eugene, you are the only bright side I have to look on. 
 Sometimes I think you will get tired of me, and if you ever do, 
 I shall want to die. Oh, how could I bear to know you did not 
 love me." She raised her head and looked earnestly at his noble 
 face. 
 
 Eugene laughingly repeated her words. 
 
 " Get tired of you, indeed not I, little sister." 
 
 "Oh, I forgot to thank you for your book : I like it better 
 than anything I ever read ; some parts are so beautiful so very 
 grand. I keep it in my basket, and read every moment I can 
 spare." 
 
 " I knew you would like it, particularly ' Excelsior.' Beulah, 
 I have written excelsior on my banner, and I intend, like that 
 noble youth, to press forward over every obstacle, mounting at 
 every step, until I, too, stand on the highest pinnacle, and plant 
 my banner where its glorious motto shall float over the world. 
 That poem stirs my very soul like martial music, and I feel as 
 if I should like to see Mr. Longfellow, to tell him how I thank 
 him for having written it. I want you to mark the passages 
 you like best ; and now I think of it, here is a pencil I cut for 
 you to-day." 
 
 He drew it from his pocket and put it into her hand, while 
 his face glowed with enthusiasm. 
 
 " Thank you, thank you." Grateful tears sprang to her eyes; 
 tears which acute suffering could not wring from her. He saw 
 the gathering drops, and said, gaily : 
 
 " If that is the way you intend to thank me, I shall bring you 
 no more pencils. But you look very pale, and ought to be asleep, 
 for I have no doubt to-morrow will be a trying day for you. Do 
 exert yourself to be brave, and bear it all for a little while ; I 
 know it will not be very long, and I shall come and see you just 
 as often as possible." 
 
 He rose as he spoke. 
 
 11 Are you obliged to go so soon ? Can't you stay with me a 
 little longer ?" pleaded Beulah. 
 
BE TIL An. 31 
 
 The boy's eyes filled as he looked at the beseeching, haggard 
 face, and he answered hastily : 
 
 " Not to-night, Beulah ; you must go to sleep you need it 
 sadly." 
 
 "You will be cold walking home. Let me get you a shawl." 
 
 " No, I left my overcoat in the hall here it is." 
 
 She followed him out to the door, as he drew it on and put on 
 his cap. The moonlight shone over the threshold, and he thought 
 she looked ghostly as it fell upon her face. He took her hand, 
 pressed it gently, and said 
 
 " Good night, dear Beulah." 
 
 " Good bye, Eugene. Do come and see me again soon." 
 
 " Yes, I will. Don't get low-spirited as soon as I am out of 
 sight, do you hear ?" 
 
 "Yes, I hear, I will try not to complain. Walk fast and 
 keep warm." 
 
 She pressed his hand affectionately, watched his receding form 
 as long as she could trace its outline, and then went slowly back 
 to the dormitory. Falling on her knees by the side of Lilly's 
 empty couch, she besought God, in trembling accents, to bless 
 her " darling little sister and Claudy," and to give her strength 
 to perform all her duties contentedly and cheerfully. 
 
 CHAPTER III. 
 
 BEULAH stood waiting on the steps of the large mansion, to 
 which she had been directed by Miss Dorothea White. Her 
 heart throbbed painfully, and her hand trembled as she rang the 
 bell. The door was opened by a negro waiter, who merely 
 glanced at her, and asked, carelessly 
 
32 BETJLAH. 
 
 " Well, little miss, what do you want ?" 
 
 " Is Mrs. Martin at home ?" 
 
 " Yes, miss ; come, walk in. There is but a poor fire in the 
 front parlor suppose you sit down in the back room. Mrs. 
 Martin will be down in a minute." 
 
 The first object which arrested Beulalfs attention was a cen- 
 tre table covered with books. " Perhaps," thought she, " they 
 will permit me to read some of them." While she sat looking 
 over the titles, the rustle of silk caused her to glance around, 
 and she saw Mrs. Martin quite near her. 
 
 " Good morning," said the lady, with a searching look, which 
 made the little figure tremble. 
 
 " Good morning, madam." 
 
 " You are the girl Miss White promised to send from the 
 Asylum, are you not ?" 
 
 "Yes, madam." 
 
 " Do you think you can take good care of my baby ?" 
 
 " Oh, I will try." 
 
 " You don't look strong and healthy have you been sick ?" 
 
 " No, I am very well, thank you." 
 
 " I may want you to sew some, occasionally, when the baby is 
 asleep. Can you hem and stitch neatly ?" 
 
 " I believe I sew very well, madam our matron says so." 
 
 " What is your name ? Miss White told me, but I have for- 
 gotten it." 
 
 " Beulah Benton." 
 
 " Well, Beulah, I think you will suit me very well, if you are 
 only careful, and attend to my directions. I am just going out 
 shopping, but you can come up-stairs and take charge of Johnny. 
 Where are your clothes !" 
 
 "Our matron will send them to-day." 
 
 Beulah followed Mrs. Martin up the steps, somewhat reassured 
 by her kind reception. The room was in utter confusion, the 
 toilet-table covered with powder, hairpins, bows of different 
 colored ribbon, and various bits of jewelry; the hearth unswept, 
 
B E U L A H . 33 
 
 the work-stand groaning beneath the superincumbent mass of 
 sewing, finished and unfinished garments, working materials, 
 and, to crown the whole, the lady's winter hat. A girl, appa- 
 rently about thirteen years of age, was seated by the fire, busily 
 embroidering a lamp-mat ; another, some six years younger, 
 was dressing a doll ; while an infant, five or six months old, 
 crawled about the carpet, eagerly picking up pins, needles, 
 and every other objectionable article his little purple fingers 
 could grasp. 
 
 " Take him, Beulah," said the mother, 
 
 She stooped to comply, and was surprised that the little fel- 
 low testified no fear of her. She raised him in her arms, and 
 kissed his rosy cheeks, as he looked wonderingly at her. 
 
 " 'Ma, is that Johnny's new nurse ? What is her name ?" 
 said the youngest girl, laying down her doll and carefully survey- 
 ing the stranger. 
 
 " Yes, Annie ; and her name is Beulah," replied the mother, 
 adjusting her bonnet. 
 
 " Beulah it's about as pretty as her face. Yes, just about," 
 continued Annie, in an audible whisper to her sister. The latter 
 gave Beulah a condescending sta're, curled her lips disdainfully, 
 and with a polite " Mind your own business, Annie," returned to 
 her embroidery. 
 
 "Keep the baby by the fire ; and if he frets, you must feed 
 him. Laura, show her where to find his cup of arrowroot, and 
 you and Annie stay here, till I come home." 
 
 " No, indeed, 'ma, I can't, for I must go down, and practice 
 my music lesson," answered the eldest daughter, decisively. 
 
 " Well, then, Annie, stay in my room." 
 
 " I am going to make some sugar-candy 'ma. She" (pointing 
 to Beulah) "can take care of Johnny. I thought that was 
 what you hired her for." 
 
 "You will make no sugar-candy till I come home, Miss Annie; 
 do you hear that ? Now, mind what I said to you." 
 
 Mrs. Martin rustled out of the room, leaving Annie to scowl 
 
34: BEULAH 
 
 ominously at the new nurse, and vent her spleen by boxing her 
 doll, because the inanimate little lady would not keep her blue- 
 bead eyes open. Beulah loved children, and Johnny forcibly 
 reminded her of earlier days, when she had carried Lilly about 
 in her arms. For some time after the departure of Mrs. Martin 
 and Laura, the little fellow seemed perfectly satisfied, but finally 
 grew fretful, and Beulah surmised he might be hungry. 
 
 " Will you please give me the baby's arrowroot ?" 
 
 " I don't know anything about it ; ask Harrison." 
 
 " Who is Harrison ?" 
 
 " Why, the cook." 
 
 Glancing around the room, she found the arrowroot ; the boy 
 was fed, and soon fell asleep. Beulah sat in a low rocking-chair, 
 by the hearth, holding the infant, and watching the little figure 
 opposite. Annie was trying to fit a new silk waist to her doll, 
 but it was too broad one way and too narrow another. She 
 twisted and jerked it divers ways, but all in vain ; and at last, 
 disgusted by the experiment, she tore it off and aimed it at the 
 fire, with an impatient cry. 
 
 " The plagued, bothering, ugly thing ! My Lucia never shall 
 wear such a fit." 
 
 Beulah caught the discarded waist, and said, quietly : 
 
 " You can very easily make it fit, by taking up this seam and 
 cutting it out in the neck." 
 
 " I don't believe it." 
 
 " Then, hand me the doll and the scissors and I will show 
 you." 
 
 " Her name is Miss Lucia-di-Lammermoor. Mr. Green 
 named her; don't say 'doll,' call her by her proper name," 
 answered the spoiled child, handing over the unfortunate waxen 
 representative of a not less unfortunate heroine. 
 
 " Well, then, Miss Lucia-di-Lammermoor," said Beulah, smil- 
 ing A few alterations reduced the dress to proper dimensions, 
 and Annie arrayed her favorite in it, with no slight degree of 
 satisfaction. The obliging manner of the new nurse won her 
 
BEULAH. 35 
 
 heart, and she began to chat pleasantly enough. About two 
 o'clock Mrs. Martin returned, inquired after Johnny, and again 
 absented herself to " see about dinner." Beulah was very weary 
 of the close, disordered room, and as the babe amused himself 
 with his ivory rattle, she swept the floor, dusted the furniture, 
 and arranged the chairs. The loud ringing of a bell startled 
 her, and she conjectured dinner was ready. Some time elapsed 
 before any of the family returned, and then Laura entered, look- 
 ing very sullen. She took charge of the babe, and rather 
 ungraciously desired the nurse to get her dinner. 
 
 " 1 do not wish any," answered Beulah. 
 
 At this stage of the conversation the door opened, and a boy, 
 seemingly about Eugene's age, entered the room. He looked 
 curiously at Beulah, inclined his head slightly, and joined his 
 sister at the fire. 
 
 " How do you like her, Laura ?" he asked, in a distinct under 
 tone. 
 
 " Oh ! I suppose she will do well enough ; but she is horridly 
 ugly," replied Laura, in a similar key. 
 
 " I don't know, sis. It is what Dr. Patton, the lecturer on 
 physiognomy, would call a ' striking ' face." 
 
 " Yes, strikingly ugly, Dick. Her forehead juts over, like the 
 eaves of the kitchen, and her eyebrows " 
 
 " Hush ! she will hear you. Come down and play that new 
 waltz for me, like a good sister." The two left the room. 
 Beulah had heard every word; she could not avoid it, and as 
 she recalled Mrs. Grayson's remark concerning her appearance 
 on the previous day, her countenance reflected her intense morti- 
 fication. She pressed her face against the window-pane and 
 stared vacantly out. The elevated position commanded a fine 
 view of the town, and on the eastern horizon the blue waters of 
 the harbor glittered with " silvery sheen." At any other timc i 
 and with different emotions, Beulah's love of the beautiful would 
 have been particularly gratified by this extended prospect ; but 
 '<nw the whole possessed no charms for her darkened spirit. For 
 
36 BEULAH. 
 
 the moment, earth was black-hued to her gaze ; she only saw 
 " horribly ugly," inscribed on sky and water. Her soul seemed 
 to leap forward and view nearer the myriad motes that floated 
 in the haze of the future. She leaned over the vast whirring 
 lottery wheel of life, and saw a blank come up, with her name 
 stamped upon it. But the grim smile faded from her lips, and 
 brave endurance looked out from the large sad eyes, as she 
 murmured, 
 
 " Be not like dumb, driven cattle ; 
 Be a hero in the strife." 
 
 "If I am ugly, God made me so, and I know ' He doeth all 
 things well.' I will not let it bother me; I will try not to think 
 of it. But, oh ! I am so glad, I thank God, that he made my 
 Lilly beautiful. She will never have to suffer, as I do now. 
 My own darling Lilly !" Large drops glistened in her eyes ; she 
 rarely wept ; but though the tears did not fall, they gathered 
 often in the grey depths. The evening passed very quietly; Mr. 
 Martin was absent in a distant State, whither, as travelling 
 agent for a mercantile house, he was often called. After tea, 
 when little Johnny had been put to sleep in his crib, Mrs. Martin 
 directed Annie to show the nurse her own room. Taking a 
 candle, the child complied, and her mother ordered one of the 
 servants to carry up the trunk containing Beulah's clothes. Up, 
 up, two weary, winding flights of steps, the little Annie toiled, 
 and pausing at the landing of the second, pointed to a low attic 
 chamber, lighted by dormer windows on the east and west. 
 The floor was uncovered; the furniture consisted of a narrow 
 trundle-bed, wash-stand, a cracked looking-glass suspended from 
 a nail, a small deal table, and a couple of chairs. There were, 
 also, some hooks driven into the wall, to hang clothes upon. 
 
 " You need not be afraid to sleep here, because the boarders 
 occupy the rooms on the floor below this; and besides, you know 
 robbers never get up to the garret," said Annie, glancing around 
 the apartment, and shivering with an undefined dread, rather 
 
B E U L A II . 3Y 
 
 than with cold, though her nose and fingers were purple, and 
 this garret-chamber possessed neither stove nor chimney. 
 
 " I am not afraid ; but this is only one garret-room, are the 
 others occupied ?" 
 
 " Yes, by carpets in summer, and rats in winter," laughed 
 Annie. 
 
 " I suppose I may have a candle ?" said Beulah, as the porter 
 deposited her trunk and withdrew. 
 
 " Yes, this one is for you. Ma is always uneasy about fire, 
 so don't set anything in a blaze to keep yourself warm. Here, 
 hold the light at the top of the steps till I get down to the next 
 floor, then there is a hall-lamp. Good night." 
 
 " Good night." Beulah bolted the door, and surveyed her 
 new apartment. Certainly it was sufficiently cheerless, but its 
 isolated position presented to her a redeeming feature. Thought 
 she, " I can sit up here, and read just as late as I please. Oh ! 
 I .shall have so much time to myself these long, long nights." 
 Unpacking her trunk, she hung her dresses on the hooks, placed 
 the books Mrs. Mason and Eugene had given her on the table, 
 and setting the candle beside them, smiled in anticipation of the 
 many treats in store for her. She read several chapters in her 
 Bible, and then, as her head ached and her eyes grew heavy, 
 she sank upon her knees. Ah ! what an earnest, touching peti- 
 tion ascended to the throne of the Father ; prayers, first for 
 Lilly and Claudia, and lastly for herself. 
 
 " Help me, oh Lord ! not to be troubled and angry when I 
 hear that I am so ugly; and make me remember that I am your 
 child." Such was her final request, and she soon slept soundly, 
 regardless of the fact that she was now thrown upon the wide, 
 though not altogether cold or unloving world. 
 
38 BEULAH 
 
 CHAPTER IV. 
 
 DAY after day passed monotonously, and except a visit from 
 Eugene, there was no link added to the chain which bound Beu- 
 lah to the past. That brief visit encouraged and cheered the 
 lonely heart, yearning for affectionate sympathy, yet striving to 
 hush the hungry cry and grow contented with its lot. During 
 the second week of her stay, little Johnny was taken sick, and 
 he had become so fond of his new attendant, that no one else 
 was permitted to hold him. Often she paced the chamber floor 
 for hours, lulling the fretful babe with softly sung tunes of other 
 days, and the close observer, who could have peered at such 
 times into the down-cast eyes, might have easily traced in the 
 misty depths memories that nestled in her heart's sanctuary. 
 The infant soon recovered, and one warm, sn.nny afternoon, 
 when Mrs. Martin directed Beulah to draw him in his wicker 
 carriage up and down the pavement before the door, she could 
 no longer repress the request, which had trembled on her lips 
 more than once, and asked permission to take her little charge 
 to Mrs. Grayson's. A rather reluctant assent was given, and 
 soon the carriage was drawn in the direction of Mr. Grayson's 
 elegant city residence. A marvellous change came over the wan 
 face of the nurse as she paused at the marble steps, guarded on 
 either side by sculptured lions. " To see Lilly :" the blood 
 sprang to her cheeks, and an eager look of delight crept into 
 the eyes. The door was partially opened by an insolent-looking 
 footman, whose hasty glance led him to suppose her one of the 
 numerous supplicants for charity, who generally left that princely 
 mansion as empty-handed as they came. He was about to close 
 the door; but undaunted by this reception, she hastily asked to 
 see Mrs. Grayson, and Lillian Benton. 
 
 " Mrs. Grayson is engaged, and there is no such person here 
 
B E U L A H . 39 
 
 as Lillian Benton. Miss Lilly Grayson is my young mistress' 
 name ; but I can tell you, her mamma don't suffer her to see the 
 like of you ; so be off." 
 
 " Lilly is my sister, and I must see her. Tell Mrs. Grayson 
 Beulah Benton wishes to see her sister ; and ask her also if 
 Claudia may not see me," 
 
 She dropped the tongue of the carriage, and the thin hands 
 clutched each other in an agony of dread, lest her petition 
 should be refused. The succeeding five minutes seemed an 
 eternity to her, and as the door opened again, she leaned 
 forward, and held her breath, like one whose fate was in the 
 balance. Costly silk and dazzling diamonds met her gaze 
 The settled lines of Mrs. Grayson's pretty mouth indicated that 
 she had a disagreeable duty to perform, yet had resolved to do 
 it at once, and set the matter forever at rest. 
 
 " You are Mrs. Martin's nurse I believe, and the girl I saw at 
 the asylum ?" said she, frigidly. 
 
 " Yes, madam, I am Lilly's sister ; you said I might come and 
 see her. Oh, if you only knew how miserable I have been 
 since we were parted, you would not look so coldly at mel Do, 
 please, let me see her. Oh, don't deny me." 
 
 These words were uttered in a tone of imploring agony. 
 
 " I am very sorry you happen to be her sister, and I assure 
 you, child, it pains me to refuse you ; but when you remember 
 the circumstances, you ought not to expect to associate with her 
 as you used to do. She will be educated to move in a circle very 
 far above you, and you ought to be more than willing to give her 
 up, when you know how lucky she has been in securing a home 
 of wealth. Besides, she is getting over the separation very 
 nicely indeed, and if she were to see you even once, it would make 
 matters almost as bad as ever. I daresay you are a good girl, 
 and will not trouble me any further. My husband and I are 
 unwilling that you should see Lilly again ; and though I am 
 very sorry I am forced to disappoint you, I feel that I am doing 
 right." 
 
40 B E U L A H . 
 
 The petitioner fell on her knees, and extending her arms, said 
 huskily : 
 
 " Oh, madam ! are we to be parted forever ? I pray you, in 
 the name of God, let me see her 1 let me see her !" 
 
 Mrs. Grayson was not a cruel woman, far from it, but she was 
 strangely weak and worldly. The idea of a hired nurse associ- 
 ating familiarly with her adopted daughter was repulsive to her 
 aristocratic pride, and therefore she hushed the tones of true 
 womanly sympathy, and answered resolutely : 
 
 " It pains me to refuse you ; but I have given good reasons, 
 and cannot think of changing my determination. I hope you 
 will not annoy me by any future efforts to enter my house. There 
 is a present for you. Good evening." 
 
 She tossed a five-dollar gold piece toward the kneeling figure, 
 and closing the door, locked it on the inside. The money rolled 
 ringingly down the steps, and the grating sound of the key, as it 
 was hurriedly turned, seemed typical of the unyielding lock which 
 now forever barred the child's hopes. The look of utter despair 
 gave place to an expression of indescribable bitterness. Springing 
 from her suppliant posture, she muttered with terrible emphasis : 
 
 " A curse on that woman and her husband ! May God answer 
 their prayers as she has answered mine !" 
 
 Picking up the coin which lay glittering on the side-walk, she 
 threw it forcibly against the door, and as it rebounded into the 
 street, took the carriage tongue, and slowly retraced her steps. 
 It was not surprising that passers-by gazed curiously at the stony 
 face, with its large eyes, brimful of burning hate, as the injured 
 orphan walked mechanically on, unconscious that her lips were 
 crushed till purple drops oozed over them. The setting sun 
 flashed his ruddy beams caressingly over her brow, and whisper- 
 ing winds lifted tenderly the clustering folds of jetty hair ; but 
 nature's pure-hearted darling had stood over the noxious tarn, 
 whence the poisonous breath of a corrupt humanity rolled up- 
 ward, and the once sinless child inhaled the vapor until her soul 
 was a great boiling Marah. Ah, truly 
 
U E U L A H . 41 
 
 " There are swift hours ii life strong, rushing hours 
 That do the work of tempests in their might!" 
 
 Peaceful valleys, green and flowery, sleeping in loveliness, 
 have been upheaved, and piled in sombre, jagged masses, against 
 the sky, by the fingering of an earthquake ; and gentle, loving, 
 trusting hearts, over whose altars brooded the white-winged 
 messengers of God's peace, have been as suddenly transformed 
 by a manifestation of selfishness and injustice, into gloomy haunts 
 of misanthropy. Had Mrs. Grayson been arraigned for cruelty, 
 or hard-heartedness, before a tribunal of her equals (i. e. fashion- 
 able friends), the charge would have been scornfully repelled, 
 and unanimous would have been her acquittal. " Hard-hearted! 
 oh no, she was only prudent and wise." Who could expect her 
 to suffer her pampered, inert darling to meet and acknow 
 ledge as an equal, the far-lcss-daintily-fed and elegantly clad 
 sister, whom God called to labor for her frugal meals ? Ah, this 
 fine-ladyism, this ignoring of labor, to which, in accordance with 
 the divine decree, all should be subjected ; this false-effeminacy, 
 and miserable affectation of refinement, which characterizes the 
 age, is the unyielding lock on the wheels of social reform and 
 advancement. 
 
 Beulah took her charge home, and when dusk came on, rocked 
 him to sleep, and snugly folded the covering of his crib over the 
 little throbbing heart, whose hours of trial were yet veiled by the 
 impenetrable curtain of futurity. Mrs. Martin and her elder 
 children had gone to a concert, and, of course, the nurse was to 
 remain with Johnny until his mother's return. Standing beside 
 the. crib, and gazing down at the rosy cheeks and curling locks, 
 nestled against the pillow, Beulah's thoughts winged along the 
 tear-stained past, to the hour when Lilly had been placed in her 
 arms, by emaciated hands stiffening in death. For six years she 
 had held, and hushed, and caressed her dying father's last charge, 
 and now strange ruthless fingers had torn the clinging heart- 
 strings from the idol. There were 10 sobs, nor groans, to voice 
 
42 B E r L A H . 
 
 the anguish of the desolate orphan. The glittering eyes were tear- 
 los, but the brow was darkly furrowed, the ashy lips writhed, 
 aud the folded hands were purple from compression. Turning 
 from the crib, she threw up the sash, and seated herself on ihe 
 window-sill. Below lay the city, with its countless lamps gleam- 
 ing in every direction, and stretching away on the principal 
 streets, like long processions ; in the distance the dark waters of 
 the river, over which steamboat-lights flashed now and then like 
 ignes-fatui ; and above her arched the dome of sky, with its fiery 
 fret-work. Never before had she looked up at the starry groups, 
 without an emotion of exulting joy, of awful adoration. To her 
 worshipping gaze they had seemed glimpses of the spirit's home: 
 nay, loving eyes shining down upon her thorny pathway. But 
 now, the twinkling rays fell unheeded, impotent to pierce the 
 sable clouds of grief. She sat looking out into the night, with 
 strained eyes that seemed fastened upon a corpse. An hour 
 passed thus, and as the clang of the town clock died away, the 
 shrill voice of the watchman rang through the air : 
 
 " Nine o'clock ; and all's well 1" 
 
 Beulah lifted her head and listened. " ALL'S WELL !" The 
 mockery maddened her, and she muttered audibly : 
 
 " That is the sort of sympathy I shall have through life. I am 
 to hear that 'all is well ' when my heart is dying, nay, dead within 
 me ! Oh, if I could only die I What a calm, calm time I should 
 have in my coffin 1 Nobody to taunt me with my poverty and 
 ugliness 1 Oh, what did God make me for ? The few years of 
 my life have been full of misery ; I cannot remember one single 
 day of pure happiness, for there was always something to spoil 
 what little joy I ever knew. When I was born, why did not I 
 die at once ? And why did not God take me instead of my dear, 
 dear father ? He should have been left with Lilly, for people 
 love the beautiful, but nobody will ever care for me. I am of no 
 use to anything, and so ugly, that I hate myself. 0, Lord, I 
 don't want to live another day 1 I am sick of my life take me, 
 take me !" But a feeble ray of comfort stole into her shivering 
 
B E U L A H . 43 
 
 heart, as she bowed her head upon her hands ; Eugene Graham 
 loved her : and the bleeding tendrils of affection henceforth 
 clasped him as their only support. She was aroused from her 
 painful reverie by a movement in the crib, and, hastening to her 
 charge, was startled by the appearance of the babe. The soft 
 blue eyes were rolled up and set, the face of a purplish hue, and 
 the delicate limbs convulsed. During her residence at the Asylum 
 she had more than once assisted the matron in nursing children 
 similarly affected ; and now, calling instantly for a tub of water, 
 she soon immersed the rigid limbs in a warm bath, while one of the 
 waiters was dispatched for the family physician. When Dr. 
 Hartweli entered, he found her standing, with the infant clasped 
 tightly in her arms, and as his eyes rested curiously upon her 
 face, she forgot that he was a stranger, and springing to meet 
 him, exclaimed : 
 
 " Oh, sir, will he die P 
 
 With his fingers on the bounding pulse, he answered: 
 
 " He is very ill. Where is his mother ? Who are you P 
 
 11 His mother is at a concert, and I am his nurse." 
 
 The spasms had ceased, but the twitching limbs told that they 
 might return any moment, and the physician immediately ad- 
 ministered a potion. 
 
 " How long will Mrs. Martin be absent P 
 
 " It is uncertain. When shall I give the medicine again P 
 
 "I shall remain until she comes home." 
 
 Beulali was pacing up and down the floor, with Johnny in her 
 arms; Dr. Hartweli stood on the hearth, leaning his elbow on 
 the mantelpiece, and watching the slight form as it stole softly 
 to anr! f ro. Gradually the child became quiet, but his nurse 
 kept up iier wanx Dr. Hartweli said abruptly: 
 
 " Sit down, girl! you will walk yourself into a shadow." 
 
 She lifted her head, shook it in reply, and resumed her mea- 
 sured tread. 
 
 " What is your name?" 
 
 "BeulahBenton." 
 
44 BEULAH. 
 
 "Beulah!" repeated the doctor, while a smile flitted over his 
 mustached lip. She observed it, and exclaimed, with bitter 
 emphasis: 
 
 "You need not tell me it is unsuitable; I know it; I feel it. 
 Beulah! Beulah! Oh, my father! I have neither sunshine nor 
 flowers, nor hear the singing of birds, nor the voice of the turtle. 
 You ought to have called me MARAH." 
 
 " You have read the ' Pilgrim's Progress ' then ?" said he, 
 with a searching glance. 
 
 Either she did not hear him, or was too entirely engrossed by 
 painful reflection to frame an answer. The despairing expression 
 settled upon her face, and the broken threads of memory wove 
 on again. 
 
 " Beulah ! how came you here in the capacity of nurse ?" 
 " I was driven here by necessity." 
 " Where are your parents and friends ?" 
 " I have none. I am alone in the world." 
 " How long have you been so dependent ?" 
 She raised her hand deprecatingly, nay commandingly, as 
 though she had said: 
 
 " No more. You have not the right to question, nor I the 
 will to answer." 
 
 He marked the look of unconquerable grief, and understand 
 ing her gesture, made no more inquiries. 
 
 Soon after, Mrs. Martin returned, and having briefly stated 
 what had occurred, and given directions for the child's treat- 
 ment, he withdrew. His low " good night," gently spoken to the 
 nurse, was only acknowledged by a slight inclination of i o head, 
 as he passed her. Little Johnny was restless, and constantly 
 threatened with a return of the convulsions. His mother held him 
 on her knee, and telling Beulah she " had been a good, sensible 
 girl, to bathe him so promptly," gave her permission to retire. 
 
 " I am not at all sleepy, and would rather stay here, and 
 nurse him. He does not moan so much when I walk with him. 
 Give him back to me." 
 
BEULAH. 45 
 
 " But you will be tired out." 
 
 " I shall not mind it." Stooping down, she lifted the restless 
 boy, and wrapping his cloak about him, commenced the same 
 noiseless tread. Thus the night waned; occasionally Mrs. Mar- 
 tin rose and felt her babe's pulse, and assisted in giving the 
 hourly potions, then reseated herself, and allowed the hireling 
 to walk on. Once she offered to relieve her, but the arms 
 refused to yield their burden. A little after four, the mother 
 slept soundly in her chair. Gradually the stars grew dim, and 
 the long, undulating chain of clouds that girded the eastern 
 horizon kindled into a pale orange, that transformed them into 
 mountains of topaz. Pausing by the window, and gazing 
 vacantly out, Beulah's eyes were suddenly riveted on the gor- 
 geous pageant, which untiring nature daily renews, -and she 
 stood watching the masses of vapor painted by coming sunlight, 
 and floating slowly before the wind, until the "King of Day" 
 flashed up and dazzled her. Mrs. Martin was awakened by the 
 entrance of one of the servants, and starting up, exclaimed: 
 
 "Bless me! I have been asleep. Beulah, how is Johnny? 
 You must be tired to death." 
 
 "He is sleeping now very quietly; I think he is better; his 
 fever is not so high. I will take care of him, and you had 
 better take another nap before breakfast." 
 
 Mrs. Martin obeyed the nurse's injunction, and it was two 
 hours later when she took her child, and directed Beulah to get 
 her breakfast. But the weary girl felt no desire for the meal, 
 and retiring to her attic room, bathed her eyes, and replaited 
 her hair. Kneeling beside her bed, she tried to pray, but the 
 .words died on her lips; and too miserable to frame a petition, 
 she returned to the chamber where, in sad vigils, she had spent 
 the night. Dr. Hartwell bowed as she entered, but the head 
 was bent down, and without glancing at him, she took the fret- 
 ful, suffering child, and walked to the window. While she 
 stood there, her eyes fell upon the loved face of her best friend. 
 Eugene Graham ^as crossing the street. For an instant the 
 
46 BEULAH. 
 
 burning blood surged over her wan, sickly cheeks, and the pale 
 lips parted in a smile of delight, as she leaned forward to see 
 whether he was coming in. The door bell rang, and she sprang 
 from the window, unconscious of the piercing eyes fastened upon 
 her. Hastily laying little Johnny on his mother's lap, she 
 merely said: 
 
 " I will be back soon," and, darting down the steps, met 
 Eugene at the entrance, throwing her arms around his neck and 
 hiding her face on his shoulder. 
 
 " What is the matter, Beulah ? Do tell me," said he, anx- 
 iously. 
 
 Briefly she related her fruitless attempt to see Lilly, and 
 pointed out the nature of the barrier which must forever sepa- 
 rate them. Eugene listened with flashing eyes, and several times 
 the word " brutal" escaped his lips. He endeavored to comfort 
 her by holding out hopes of brighter days, but her eyes were 
 fixed on shadows, and his cheering words failed to call up a 
 smile. They stood in the hall near the front door, and here Di\ 
 Hartwell found them, when he left the sick-room. Eugene 
 looked up as he approached them, and stepped forward with a 
 smile of recognition to shake the extended hand. Beulah's coun- 
 tenance became instantly repellent, and she was turning away 
 when the doctor addressed her : 
 
 "You must feel very much fatigued from being up all 
 night. I know from your looks that you did not close your 
 eyes." 
 
 " I am no worse looking than usual, thank yon," she replied, 
 icily, drawing back as she spoke, behind Eugene. The doctor 
 left-them, and as his buggy rolled from the door, Beulah seemed 
 to breathe freely again. Poor child ; her sensitive nature had 
 so often been deeply wounded by the thoughtless remarks of 
 strangers, that she began to shrink from all observation, as the 
 surest mode of escaping pain. Eugene noticed her manner, and 
 biting his lips with vexation, said reprovingly : 
 
 " Beulah, you were very rnde to Dr. Hartwell. Politeness 
 
BEULAH. 4:7 
 
 costs nothing, and you might at least have answered his question 
 with ordinary civility." 
 
 Her eyelids drooped, and a tremor passed over her mouth, as 
 she answered meekly: 
 
 " I did not intend to be rude ; but I dread to have people 
 look at, or speak to me." 
 
 " Why, pray ?" 
 
 " Because I am so ugly, and they are sure to show me that 
 they see it." 
 
 He drew his arm protectingly around her, and said gently : 
 " Poor child ; it is cruel to make you suffer so. But rest assured 
 Dr. Hartwell will never wound your feelings. I have heard that 
 he was a very stern and eccentric man, though a remarkably 
 learned one, yet I confess there is something in his manner which 
 fascinates me, and if you will only be like yourself he will always 
 speak kindly to you. But I am staying too Jong. Don't look 
 so forlorn and ghostly. Positively I hate to come to see you, 
 for somehow your wretched face haunts me. Here is a book I 
 have just finished ; perhaps it will serve to divert your mind." 
 He put a copy of "Irving's Sketch Book" in her hand, and 
 drew on his gloves. 
 
 " Oh, Eugene, can't you stay a little longer ; just a little 
 longer ? It seems such a great while since you were here." 
 She looked up wistfully into the handsome, boyish face. 
 
 Drawing out an elegant new watch, he held it before her eyes 
 and answered hurriedly: 
 
 " See there ; it is ten o'clock, and I am behind my appoint- 
 ment at the lecture-room. Good bye ; try to be cheerful. ' What 
 can't be cured must be endured/ you know, so do not despond, 
 dear Beulah." Shaking her hand cordially, he ran down the 
 steps. The orphan pressed her hands tightly over her brow, as 
 if to stay some sudden, painful thought, and slowly remounted 
 the stairs. 
 
48 BEULAH. 
 
 CHAPTER V. 
 
 LITTLE Johnny's illness proved long and serious, and for many 
 days and nights he seemed on the verge of the tomb. His wail- 
 ings were never hushed except in Beulah's arms, and as might 
 be supposed, constant watching soon converted her into a mere 
 shadow of her former self. Dr. Hartwell often advised rest and 
 fresh air for her, but the silent shake of her head proved how 
 reckless she was of her own welfare. Thus several weeks 
 elapsed, and gradually the sick child grew stronger. One after- 
 noon Beulah sat holding him on her knee ; he had fallen asleep, 
 with one tiny hand clasping hers, and while he slept she read. 
 Absorbed in the volume Eugene had given her, her thoughts wan- 
 dered on with the author, amid the moldering monuments of 
 Westminster Abbey, and finally the sketch was concluded by 
 that solemn paragraph : " Thus man passes away ; his name 
 perishes from record and recollection ; his history is as a tale 
 that is told, and his very monument becomes a ruin." Again she 
 read this sad comment on the vanity of earth, and its ephemeral 
 hosts, and her mind was filled with weird images, that looked 
 out from her earnest eyes. Dr. Hartwell entered unperceived, 
 and stood for some moments at the back of her chair, glancing 
 over her shoulder at the last page. At length she closed the 
 book, and passing her hand wearily over her eyes, said 
 audibly: 
 
 " Ah ! if we could only have sat down together in that gloomy 
 garret, and had a long talk ! It would have helped us both. 
 Poor Chatterton ! I know just how you felt, when you locked 
 your door and lay down on your truckle-bed, and swallowed 
 your last draught 1" 
 
 " There is not a word about Chatterton in that sketch," said 
 the doctor. 
 
B E U L A H . i9 
 
 She started, looked up, and answered slowly : 
 
 " No, not a word, not a word. He was buried among pau- 
 pers, you know." 
 
 " What made you think of him ?" 
 
 " I thought that instead of resting in the Abbey, under sculp- 
 tured marble, his bones were scattered, nobody knows where : 
 I often think of him." 
 
 Why r 
 
 " Because he was so miserable and uncared-for ; because 
 sometimes I feel exactly as he did." As she uttered these words, 
 she compressed her lips in a manner which plainly said, " There I 
 I have no more to say, so do not question me." . 
 
 He had learned to read her countenance, and as he felt the 
 infant's pulse, pointed to the crib, saying : 
 
 " You must lay him down now ; he seems fast asleep." 
 
 " No, I may as well hold him." 
 
 *' Girl, will you follow my directions ?" said he, sharply. 
 
 Beulah looked up at him for a moment, then rose and placed 
 the boy in his crib, while a sort of grim smile distorted her fea- 
 tures. The doctor mixed some medicine, and setting the glass 
 on the table, put both hands in his pockets and walked up to 
 the nurse. Her head was averted. 
 
 " Beulah, will you be good enough to look at me ?" She 
 fixed her eyes proudly on his, and her beautiful teeth gleamed 
 through the parted lips. 
 
 "Do you know that Eugene is going away very soon, to be 
 absent at least five years ?" 
 
 An incredulous smile flitted over her face, but the ashen hue 
 of death settled there. 
 
 " I am in earnest. He leaves for Europe next week, to be 
 gone a long time." 
 
 She extended her hands pleadingly, and said in a hoarse 
 whisper : 
 
 " Are you sure ?" 
 
 " Quite sure ; his passage is already engaged in a packet that 
 
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50 BEULAH. 
 
 will sail early next week. What will become of you in his 
 absence ?" 
 
 The strained eyes met his, vacantly ; the icy hands dropped, 
 and she fell forward against him. 
 
 Guy Hartwell placed the slight attenuated form on the sofa, 
 and stood with folded arms looking down at the colorless face. 
 His high white brow clouded, and a fierce light kindled in his 
 piercing, dark eyes, as through closed teeth came the rather 
 indistinct words : 
 
 " It is madness to indulge the thought ; I was a fool to dream 
 of it. She would prove heartless, like all of her sex, and repay 
 me with black ingratitude. Let her fight the battle of life 
 unaided." 
 
 He sprinkled a handful of water in the upturned face, and in 
 a few minutes saw the eyelids tremble, and knew from the look 
 of suffering, that with returning consciousness came the keen 
 pangs of grief. She covered her face with her hands, and after 
 a little while, asked : 
 
 " Shall I ever see him again ?" 
 
 " He will come here to-night to tell you about his trip. But 
 what will become of you in his absence ? answer me that !" 
 
 " God only knows \" 
 
 Dr. Hartwell wrote the directions for Johnny's medicine, and 
 placing the slip of paper on the glass, took his hat and left the 
 room. Beulah sat with her head pressed against the foot of the 
 crib stunned, taking no note of the lapse of time. 
 
 " Twilight grey, 
 
 Had in her sober livery all things clad." 
 
 The room had grown dark, save where a mellow ray stole 
 through the western window. Beulah rose mechanically, lighted 
 the lamp, and shaded it so as to shield the eyes of the sleeping 
 boy. The door was open, and glancing up, she saw Eugene on 
 the threshold. Her arms were thrown around him, with a low 
 cry of mingled joy and grief. 
 
BEULAH. 51 
 
 " Oh, Eugene ! please don't leave me ! Whom have I in the 
 world but you ?" 
 
 " Beulah, dear, I must go. Only think of the privilege of 
 being at a German University I I never dreamed of such a piece 
 of good luck. Don't cry so ; I shall come back some of these 
 days, such an erudite, such an elegant young man, you will 
 hardly know me. Only five years. I am almost seventeen now ; 
 time passes very quickly, and you will scarcely miss me before I 
 shall be at home again." 
 
 He lifted up her face, and laughed gaily as he spoke. 
 
 " When are you to go ?" 
 
 " The vessel sails Wednesday three days from now. I shall 
 be very busy until then. Beulah, what glorious letters I shall 
 write you from the old world ! I am to see all Europe before 
 I return ; that is, my father says I shall. He is coming on, in 
 two or three years, with Cornelia, and we are all to travel toge- 
 ther. Won't it be glorious ?" 
 
 " Yes, for you. But, Eugene, my heart seems to die, when I 
 think of those coming five years. How shall I live without you ? 
 Oh, what shall I do ?" 
 
 " There, Beulah I do not look so wretched. You will have a 
 thousand things to divert your mind. My father says he will 
 see that you are sent to the public school. You know the tui- 
 tion is free, and he thinks he can find some good, kind family, 
 where you will be taken care of till your education is finished. 
 Your studies will occupy you closely, and you will have quite 
 enough to think of, without troubling yourself about my absence. 
 Of course, you will write to me constantly, and each letter will 
 be like having a nice, quiet chat together. Oh, dear ! can't you 
 get up a smile, and look less forlorn ? You never would look on 
 the bright side." 
 
 "Because I never had any to look on, except you and Lilly ; 
 and when you are gone, everything will be dark dark 1" she 
 groaned, and covered her face with her hands. 
 
 " Not unless you determine to make it so. If I did not know 
 
52 BEULAH. 
 
 that my father would attend to your education, I should not be 
 so delighted to go. 'Certainly, Beulah, in improving yourself, 
 you will have very little leisure to sit down and repine that your 
 lot is not among the brightest. Do try to hope that things may 
 change for the better. If they do not, why, I shall not spend 
 eternity in Europe ; and when I come home, of course, I shall 
 take care of you myself." 
 
 She stood with one hand resting on his arm, and while he 
 talked on, carelessly, of her future, she fixed her eyes on his coun- 
 tenance, thinking of the desolate hours in store for her, when 
 the mighty Atlantic billows surged between her and the noble 
 classic face she loved so devotedly. A shadowy panorama of 
 coming years glided before her, and trailing clouds seemed 
 gathered about the path her little feet must tread. A vague 
 foreboding discovered to her the cheerlessness, and she shivered 
 in anticipating the dreariness that awaited her. But there was 
 time enough for the raging of the storm ; why rush so eagerly 
 to meet it ? She closed her eyes to shut out the grim vision, 
 and listened resolutely to the plans suggested for her approval. 
 When Eugene rose to say " good night," it was touching to note 
 the efforts she made to appear hopeful ; the sob swallowed, lest 
 it should displease him ; the trembling lips forced into a smile, 
 and the heavy eyelids lifted bravely to meet his glance. When 
 the door closed after his retreating form, the han'ds were clasped 
 convulsively, and the white, tearless face, mutely revealed the 
 desolation which that loving heart locked in its .darkened 
 chambers. 
 
BEULAH. 53 
 
 CHAPTER VI. 
 
 SEVERAL tedious weeks had rolled away, since Eugene 
 Graham left his sunny southern home, to seek learning in the 
 venerable universities of the old world. Blue-eyed May, the 
 carnival month of the year, had clothed the earth with verdure, 
 and enamelled it with flowers of every hue, scattering her trea- 
 sures before the rushing car of summer. During the winter, 
 scarlet fever had hovered threateningly over the city, but as the 
 spring advanced, hopes were entertained that all danger had 
 passed. Consequently, when it was announced that the disease 
 had made its appearance in a very malignant form, in the house 
 adjoining Mrs. Martin's, she determined to send her children 
 immediately out of town. A relative living at some distance up 
 the river, happened to be visiting her at the time, and as she 
 intended returning home the following day, kindly offered to 
 take charge of the children, until all traces of the disease had 
 vanished. To this plan, Beulah made no resistance, though the 
 memory of her little sister haunted her hourly. What could 
 she do ? Make one last attempt to see her, and if again 
 refused, then it mattered not whither she went. When the pre- 
 parations for their journey had been completed, and Johnny 
 slept soundly in his crib, Beulah put on her old straw-bonnet, 
 and set out for Mr. Grayson's residence. The sun was low in 
 the sky, and the evening breeze rippling the waters of the bay, 
 stirred the luxuriant foliage of the ancient china-trees that 
 bordered the pavements. The orphan's heart was heavy with 
 undefined dread ; such a dread as had oppressed her the day of 
 her separation from her sister. 
 
 " Coming events cast their shadows before," 
 And she was conscious that the sun-set glow could not dispel 
 
54: B E U L A II . 
 
 the spectral gloom which enveloped her. She walked on, with 
 her head bowed, like one stooping from an impending blow, and 
 when at last the crouching lions confronted her, she felt as if 
 her heart had suddenly frozen. There stood the doctor's buggy. 
 She sprang up the steps, and stretched out her hand for the 
 bolt of the door. Long streamers of crape floated through her 
 fingers. She stood still a moment, then threw open the door 
 and rushed in. The hall floor was covered to muffle the tread ; 
 not a sound reached her, save the stirring of the china-trees 
 1 outside. Her hand was on the balustrade to ascend the steps, 
 but her eyes fell upon a piece of crape fastened to the parlor 
 door, and pushing it ajar she looked in. The furniture was 
 draped ; even the mirrors, and pictures, and on a small oblong 
 table in the centre of the room, lay a shrouded form. An 
 overpowering perfume of crushed flowers filled the air, and 
 Beulah stood on the threshold, with her hands extended, and 
 her eyes fixed upon the table. There were two children ; 
 Lilly might yet live, and an unvoiced prayer went up to God, 
 that the dead might be Claudia. Then like scathing lightning 
 came the recollection of her curse ; "May God answer their 
 prayers, as they answered mine." With rigid limbs she tottered 
 to the table, and laid her hand on the velvet pall ; with closed 
 eyes she drew it down, then held her breath and looked. There 
 lay her idol, in the marble arms of death. Ah ! how match- 
 lessly beautiful, wrapped in her last sleep ! The bright golden 
 curls glittered around the snowy brow, and floated like wander- 
 ing sunlight over the arms and shoulders. The tiny waxen 
 fingers clasped each other as in life, and the delicately chiselled 
 lips were just parted, as though the sleeper whispered. Beu- 
 lah's gaze dwelt upon this mocking loveliness, then the arms 
 were thrown wildly up, and with a long, wailing cry, her head 
 sank heavily on the velvet cushion, beside the cold face of her 
 dead darling. How long it rested there, she never knew. 
 Earth seemed to pass away ; darkness closed over her, and for 
 a time she had no pain, no sorrow ; she and Lilly were 
 
BEULAH. 55 
 
 together. All was black, and she had no feeling. Then she was 
 lifted, and the motion aroused her torpid faculties ; she moaned 
 and opened her eyes. Dr. Hartwell was placing her on a sofa, 
 and Mrs. Grayson stood by the table with a handkerchief over 
 her eyes. With returning consciousness came a raving despair ; 
 Beulah sprang from the strong arm that strove to detain her, 
 and laying one clinched hand on the folded fingers of the dead, 
 raised the other fiercely toward Mrs. Grayson, and exclaimed 
 almost frantically : 
 
 " You have murdered her I I knew it would be so, when 
 you took my darling from my arms, and refused my prayer ! 
 Aye 1 my prayer ! I knelt and prayed you in the name of God, 
 to let me see her once more ; to let me hold her to my heart, 
 and kiss her lips, and forehead, and little slender hands. You 
 scorned a poor girl's prayer ; you taunted me with my poverty, 
 and locked me from my darling, my Lilly ! my all 1 Oh, 
 woman ! you drove me wild, and I cursed you and your hus- 
 bund. Ha ! has your wealth and splendor saved her ? God 
 have mercy upon me ; I feel as if I could curse you eternally. 
 Could you not have sent for me before she died? Oh, if I 
 could only have taken her in my arms, and seen her soft angel 
 eyes looking up to me, and felt her little arms around my neck, 
 and heard her say ' sister ' for the last time ! Would it have 
 taken a dime from your purse, or made you less fashionable, to 
 have sent for me before she died ? ' Such measure as ye mete, 
 shall be meted to you again.' May you live to have your heart 
 trampled and crushed, even as you have trampled mine 1" 
 
 Her arm sank to her side, and once more the blazing eyes 
 were fastened on the young sleeper ; while Mrs. Grayson, cower- 
 ing like a frightened child, left the room. Beulah fell on her 
 knees, and crossing her arms on the table, bowed her head ; 
 now and then, broken, wailing tones passed the white lips. 
 Doctor Hartwell stood in a recess of the window, witk folded 
 arms and tightly compressed mouth, watching the young 
 mourner. Once he moved toward her, then drew back, and a 
 
56 B E U L A H . 
 
 derisive smile distorted his features, as though he scorned him* 
 self for the momentary weakness. He turned suddenly away, 
 and reached the door, but paused to look back. The old straw 
 bonnet, with its faded pink ribbon, had fallen off, and heavy folds 
 of black hair veiled the bowed face. He noted the slight, 
 quivering form, and the thin hands, and a look of remorseful 
 agony swept over his countenance. A deadly pallor settled on 
 cheek and brow, as, with -an expression of iron resolve, he 
 retraced his steps, and putting his hand on the orphan's 
 shoulder, said gently : 
 
 " Beulah, this is no place for you. Come with me, child." 
 
 She shrank from his touch, and put up one hand, waving him 
 off. 
 
 " Your sister died with the scarlet fever, and Claudia is now 
 very ill with it.- If you stay here you will certainly take it your- 
 self." 
 
 " I hope I shall take it." 
 
 He laid his fingers on the pale, high brow, and softly drawing 
 back the thick hair, said earnestly : " Beulah, come home with 
 me. Be my child : my daughter." 
 
 Again her hand was raised to put him aside. 
 
 " No : you too would hate me for my ugliness. Let me hide 
 it in the grave with Lilly. They cannot separate us there." 
 He lifted her head ; and, looking down into the haggard face, 
 answered kindly 
 
 " I promise you I will not think you ugly. I will make you 
 happy. Come to me, child." She shook her head with a moan. 
 Passing his arm around her, he raised her from the carpet, and 
 leaned her head against him. 
 
 " Poor little sufferer ! they have made you drink, prematurely, 
 earth's bitter draughts. They have disenchanted your childhood 
 of its fairy- like future. Beulah, you are ill now. Do not struggle 
 so. You must come with me, my child." He took her in his 
 strong arms, and bore her out of the house of death. His buggy 
 stood at the door, and, seating himself in it, he directed the boy 
 
BEULAII. 57 
 
 who accompanied him to "drive home." Beulah offered no 
 resistance ; she hid her face in her hands, and sat quite still, 
 scarcely conscious of what passed. She knew that a firm arm 
 held her securely, and, save her wretchedness, knew nothing else. 
 Soon she was lifted out of the buggy, carried up a flight of steps, 
 and then a flood of light flashed through the fingers, upon her 
 closed eyelids. Doctor Hartwell placed his charge on a sofa, 
 and rang the bell. The summons was promptly answered by a 
 negro woman of middle age. She stood at the door awaiting the 
 order, but his eyes were bent on the floor, and his brows knitted. 
 
 " Master, did you ring ?" 
 
 " Yes, tell my sister to come to me." 
 
 He took a turn across the floor, and paused by the open win- 
 dow. As the night air rustled the brown locks on his temples, 
 he sighed deeply. The door opened, and a tall, slender woman, 
 of perhaps thirty-five years, entered the room. She was pale and 
 handsome, with a profusion of short chestnut curls about her face. 
 With her hand resting on the door, she said, in a calm, clear tone: 
 
 " Well, Guy." 
 
 He started, and, turning from the window, approached her. 
 
 " May, I want a room arranged for this child as soon as pos- 
 sible. Will you see that a hot foot-bath is provided. When it 
 is ready, send Harriet for her." 
 
 His sister's lips curled as she looked searchingly at the figure 
 on the sofa, and said coldly : 
 
 " What freak now, Guy ?" 
 
 For a moment their eyes met steadily, and he smiled grimly. 
 
 " I intend to adopt that poor little orphan ; that is all !" 
 
 " Where did you pick her up, at the hospital ?" said she, sneer- 
 ingly. 
 
 " No, she has been hired as a nurse, at a boarding-house." 
 He folded his arms, and again they looked at each other. 
 
 " I thought you had had quite enough of proteges." She ner- 
 vously clasped and unclasped her jet bracelet. 
 
 " Take care, May Chilton ! Mark me. Lift the pall from the 
 
 3* 
 
CO BEULAH. 
 
 past once more, mud you and Pauline most find another home* 
 another protector. Now, will you see that a room is prepared 
 as I directed F* He was Tery pale, and his eyes burned fiercely, 
 yet his tone was calm and subdued. Mrs. Ohilton bit her lips, 
 and withdrew. Doctor Hartwell walked np and down the room 
 for awhile, now and then looking sadly at the young stranger. 
 She sat just as he had placed her, with her hands orer her face. 
 Kindly he bent down and whispered : 
 
 " Will you trust me, Beulah T 9 
 
 She made no answer, but he saw her brow wrinkle, and knew 
 that she shuddered. The serrant came in to say that the room 
 had been arranged, as he had directed. Howerer surprised she 
 might hare been at this sudden adrent of the simply clad orphan 
 in her master's study, there was not the faintest indication of it 
 in her impenetrable countenance. Not eren the raising of an 
 eyebrow. 
 
 "Harriet, see that her feet are well bathed ; and, when she is 
 in bed, come for some medicine. 2 ' 
 
 Then, draw Log the hands from her eyes, he said to Reniah. 
 
 "Go with her, my child. I am glad I hare you safe under 
 my own roof, where no more cruel injustice can assail yon.* 
 
 He pressed her hand kindly, and, rising mechanically, Beniah 
 accompanied Harriet, who considerately supported the drooping 
 fora. The room to which she was conducted was richly fur- 
 nished, and lighted by an elegant colored lamp, suspended from 
 the ceiling. Mrs. CTiilton stood near an am-chair, leaking moody 
 mad abstracted. Harriet carefully undressed the poor mourner, 
 and wrapping a shawl about her, placed her in the chair, and 
 bathed her feet. Mrs. Chilton watched her with fltamctafed 
 i-patieace. When the Kttfe drying feet were dried, Harriet 
 ifted her, as if die had been an infcnt, and placed her in bed, 
 then brought the medicine from the study, and administered a 
 spoonful of the mixture. Placing her finger on the girfs wrist,, 
 she courted the rapid pulse, and, toing imewicH*^ towaid 
 Mrs. ChfltoB, aid : 
 
-- - 
 
 ! whalaik JOM? ' What makes jom erj a> T 
 
 ead rlmii.1 to the puiow, an 
 -I am nmmerabm! Ivan* to die, ami Go* wfl 
 
 a*j that, tffl yam see whether yoafre got the 
 
 If TO ftaTe, yoa are Ekeiy to be taken pretty 
 
 jjjpmi hare*\ why, it* ai for the 
 a bad plan to fly "in the Almi^t^s *ce, that way, and tel 
 
 of her grief; bat she pereemd her master staffing btahw her, 
 
 loved away firam the bed. 
 he touted the paJse seTeral times. The 
 
 - * "' r 5 _ " - " . "~'._" 
 
 motionless jpc* 
 
 "Harriet, bring me a glass of ice-water.* 
 
 1.; _ ;. 5 :::: ....:_. ;- :... L:: :':.-.: :: : :-: >-f. ;-. r r : 
 he aid, tender^ : 
 
 "My child, try not to cry any more to-night. It s TVTT 
 bitter, I know ; bat remember, that thongh Lffly has been 
 taken from TOO, from this day yoa hare a friend, a hom< * 
 
 Harriet proffered the glass of water. He took it, raised the 
 head, and pat the sparkling draught to Bench's parched 
 
60 BEULAH. 
 
 Without unclosing her eyes, she drank the last crystal drop, 
 and laying the head back on the pillow, he drew an arm-chair 
 before the window at the further end of the room, and seated 
 himself. 
 
 CHAP-TEE VII. 
 
 THROUGH quiet, woody dells roamed Beulah's spirit, and, hand 
 in hand, she and Lilly trod flowery paths and rested beside 
 clear, laughing brooks. Life, with its grim realities, seemed but 
 a flying mist. The orphan hovered on the confines of eternity's 
 ocean, and its silent waves almost laved the feet of the weary 
 child. The room was darkened, and the summer wind stole 
 through the blinds stealthily, as if awed by the solitude of the 
 sick-chamber. Dr. Hartwell sat by the low French bedstead, 
 holding one emaciated hand in his, counting the pulse which 
 bounded so fiercely in the blue veins. A fold of white linen 
 containing crushed ice lay on her forehead, and the hollow 
 cheeks and thin lips were flushed to vermilion hue. It was not 
 scarlet, but brain-fever, and this was the fifth day that the 
 sleeper had lain in a heavy stupor. Dr. Hartwell put back the 
 hand he held, and stooping over, looked long and anxiously at the 
 flushed face. The breathing was deep and labored, and turning 
 away, he slowly and noiselessly walked up and down the floor. 
 To have looked at him then, in his purple silk robe, de chambre, 
 one would have scarcely believed that thirty years had passed 
 over his head. He was tall and broad-chested, his head massive 
 and well formed, his face a curious study. The brow was 
 expansive and almost transparent in its purity, the dark, hazel 
 eyes were singularly brilliant, while the contour of lips and chin 
 was partially concealed by a heavy moustache and beard. The 
 first glance at his face impressed strangers by its extreme pallor, 
 but in a second look they were fascinated by the misty splendor 
 
BEULAH. tfl 
 
 of the eyes. In truth those were strange eyes of Guy Hartwell. 
 At times, searching and glittering like polished steel ; occasion- 
 ally lighting up with a dazzling radiance, and then as suddenly 
 growing gentle, hazy, yet luminous ; resembling the clouded 
 aspect of a star seen through a thin veil of mist. His brown, 
 curling hair was thrown back from the face, and exposed the 
 outline of the ample forehead. Perhaps utilitarians would have 
 carped at the feminine delicacy of the hands, and certainly the 
 fingers were slender and marvellously white. On one hand he wore 
 an antique ring, composed of a cameo snake-head set round with 
 diamonds. A proud, gifted and miserable man was Guy Hart- 
 well, and his characteristic expression of stern sadness might easily 
 have been mistaken by casual observers for bitter misanthropy. 
 
 I have said he was about thirty, and though the handsome 
 face was repellently cold and grave, it was difficult to believe 
 that that smooth, fair brow, had been for so many years uplifted 
 for the handwriting of time. He looked just what he was, a 
 baffling, fascinating mystery. You felt that his countenance 
 was a volume of hieroglyphics, which, could you decipher, 
 would unfold the history of a checkered and painful career. 
 Yet the calm, frigid smile which sat on his lip, and looked out 
 defiantly from his deep-set eyes, seemed to dare you to an investi- 
 gation. Mere physical beauty cannot impart the indescribable 
 chann which his countenance possessed. Regularity of features 
 is a valuable auxiliary, but we look on sculptured marble, per- 
 fect in its chiselled proportions, and feel that, after all, the 
 potent spell is in the raying out of the soul, that imprisoned 
 radiance which, in some instances, makes man indeed but "little 
 lower than the angels." He paused in his echoless tread, and 
 sat down once more beside his protegee. She had not changed 
 her position, and the long lashes lay heavily on the crimson 
 cheeks. The parched lips were parted, and, as he watched her, 
 she murmured aloud : 
 
 "It is so sweet, Lilly ; we will stay here always." A 
 shadowy smile crossed her face, and then a great agony seemed 
 
62 BEULAH. 
 
 to possess her, for she moaned long and bitterly. He tried tc 
 arouse her, and, for the first time since the night she entered his 
 house, she opened her eyes and gazed vacantly at him. 
 " Are you in pain, Beulah ? Why do you moan so ?" 
 " Eugene, I knew it would be so, when you left me." 
 "Don't you know me, Beulah?" He put his face close to 
 hers. " They killed her, Eugene ! I told you they would ; they 
 are going to bury her soon. But the grave can't hide her ; I am 
 going down with her into the darkness she would be frightened, 
 you know." Making a great effort, she sat upright. Dr. Hart- 
 well put a glass containing medicine to her lips ; she shrank back 
 and shuddered, then raised her hand for the glass, and looking 
 fixedly at him, said : "Did Mrs. Grayson say I must take it ? 
 Is it poison that kills quickly ? There : don't frown, Eugene, I 
 will drink it all for you. She swallowed the draught with a 
 shiver. He laid her back on her pillow and renewed the iced- 
 cloth on her forehead ; she did not move her burning eyes from 
 his face, and the refreshing coolness recalled the sad smile. 
 " Are we on the Alps, Eugene ? I feel dizzy, don't let me fall. 
 There is a great chasm yonder. Oh, I know now ; I am not afraid ; 
 Lilly is down there come on." Her arms drooped to her side, 
 and she slept again. Evening shadows crept on ; soon the room 
 was dark. Harriet entered with a shaded lamp, but her master 
 motioned her out, and throwing open the blinds, suffered the 
 pure moonlight to enter freely. The window looked out on the 
 flower-garden, and the mingled fragrance of roses, jasmins, 
 honeysuckles and dew-laden four-o'clocks, enveloped him as in a 
 cloud of incense. A balmy moonlight June night in our beauti- 
 ful sunny South who shall adequately paint its witchery ? Dr. 
 Hartwell leaned his head against the window, and glanced down 
 at the parterre he had so fondly fostered. The golden moonlight 
 mellowed every object, and not the gorgeous pictures of Persian 
 poets surpassed the quiet scene that greeted the master. The 
 shelled serpentine walks were bordered with low, closely-clipped 
 cassina hedges ; clusters of white and rose oleander, scarlet ger 
 
B E U L A II . 03 
 
 aniums, roses of countless variety, beds of verbena of every hue, 
 and patches of brilliant annuals, all looked up smilingly at him. 
 Just beneath the window, the clasping tendrils of a clematis were 
 wound about the pedestal of a marble Flora, and a cluster of the 
 delicate purple blossoms peeped through the fingers of the god- 
 dess. Further off, a fountain flashed in the moonlight, murmur- 
 ing musically in and out of its reservoir, while the diamond spray 
 bathed the sculptured limbs of a Venus. The sea breeze sang its 
 lullaby through the boughs of a luxuriant orange-tree near, and 
 silence seemed guardian spirit of the beautiful spot when a 
 whippowil whirred through the air, and perching on the 
 snowy brow of the Aphrodite, began his plaintive night-hymn. 
 In childhood, Guy Hartwell had been taught by his nurse to 
 regard the melancholy chant as ominous of evil ; but as years 
 threw their shadows over his heart, darkening the hopes of his 
 boyhood, the sad notes of the lonely bird became gradually 
 soothing, and now in the prime of life, he loved to listen to the 
 shy visitor,, and ceased to remember that it boded ill. With an 
 ardent love for the beautiful, in all its Protean phases, he enjoyed 
 communion with nature as only an imaginative, a3sthetical tem- 
 perament can. This keen appreciation of beauty had been 
 fostered by travel and study. . Over the vast studio of nature 
 he had eagerly roamed ; midnight had seen him gazing enrap- 
 tured on the loveliness of Italian scenery, and found him watch- 
 ing the march of constellations from the lonely heights of the 
 Hartz; while the thunder tones of awful Niagara had often hushed 
 the tumults of his passionate heart, and bowed his proud head 
 in humble adoration. He had searched the storehouses of art, 
 and collected treasures that kindled divine aspirations in his soul, 
 and wooed him for a time from the cemetery of memory. With 
 a nature so intensely aesthetical, and taste so thoroughly culti- 
 vated, he had, in a great measure, assimilated his home to the 
 artistic beau ideal. Now as he stood inhaling the perfumed air, 
 he forgot the little sufferer a few yards off forgot that Azrail 
 stood on the threshold, beckoning her to brave tifc dark floods ; 
 
64 BEULAH. 
 
 and as his whole nature became permeated (so to speak) by the 
 intoxicating beauty that surrounded him, he extended his arms, 
 and exclaimed triumphantly : 
 
 " Truly thou art my mother, dear old earth I I feel that I am 
 indeed nearly allied to thy divine beauty ! Starry nights, and 
 whispering winds, and fragrant flowers ! yea, and even the 
 breath of the tempest ! all, all are parts of my being." 
 
 " Guy, there is a messenger waiting at the door to see you. 
 Some patient requires prompt attendance." Mrs. Chilton stood 
 near the window, and the moonlight flashed over her handsome 
 face. Her brother frowned and motioned her away, but, smiling 
 quietly, she put her beautifully molded hand on his shoulder, 
 and said : 
 
 " I am sorry I disturb your meditations, but if you will 
 practise " 
 
 " Who sent for me ?" 
 
 " I really don't know." 
 
 " Will you be good enough to inquire ?' ; 
 
 " Certainly." She glided gracefully from the room. 
 
 The whippowil flew from his marble perch, and as the mourn- 
 ful tones died away, the master sighed, and returned to the bed- 
 side of his charge. He renewed the ice on her brow, and soon 
 after his sister reentered. 
 
 " Mr. Vincent is very sick, and you are wanted immediately." 
 
 " Very well." He crossed the room and rang the bell. 
 
 " Guy, are you sure that girl has not scarlet-fever ?" 
 
 " May, I have answered that question at least twice a day for 
 nearly a week." 
 
 " But you should sympathize with a mother's anxiety. I dread 
 to expose Pauline to danger." 
 
 " Then let her remain where she is." 
 
 " But I prefer having her come home, if I could feel assured 
 that girl has only brain-fever." 
 
 " Then, once for ali, there is no scarlet fever in the house." 
 
 He took a f ial from his pocket, and poured a portion of its 
 
BEtJLAH. 65 
 
 contents into the glass, which he placed on a stand by Beulah's 
 bed ; then turning to Harriet, who had obeyed his summons, he 
 directed her to administer the medicine hourly. 
 
 " Guy, you may give your directions to me, for I shall stay with 
 the child to-night." As she spoke, she seated herself at the foot 
 of the bed. 
 
 " Harriet, hand me the candle in the hall." She did so ; and 
 as her master took it from her hand, he said, abruptly : 
 
 " Tell Hal to bring my buggy round, and then you may go to 
 bed. I will ring if you are wanted." He waited until she was 
 out of hearing, and, walking up to his sister, held the candle so 
 that the light fell full upon her face. 
 
 " May, can I trust you ?" 
 
 " Brother, you are cruelly unjust." She covered her face with 
 her lace handkerchief. 
 
 " Am I, indeed ?" 
 
 " Yes, you wrong me hourly, with miserable suspicions. Guy, 
 remember that I have your blood in my veins, and it will not 
 always tamely bear insult, even from you." She removed the 
 handkerchief, and shook back her glossy curls, while her face 
 grew still paler than was its wont. 
 
 " Insult ! May, can the unvarnished truth be such ?" 
 
 They eyed each other steadily, and it was apparent that each 
 iron will was mated. 
 
 " Guy, you shall repent this." 
 
 " Perhaps so. You have made me repent many things." 
 
 " Do you mean to say that " 
 
 " I mean to say, that since you have at last offered to assist 
 in nursing that unconscious child, I wish you to give the medicine 
 hourly. The last potion was at eight o'clock." He placed the 
 candle so as to shade the light from the sick girl, and left the 
 room. Mrs. Chilton sat for some time as he had left her, with 
 her head leaning on her hand, her thoughts evidently perplexed 
 and bitter. At length she rose and stood close to Beulah, look- 
 ing earnestly at her emaciated face. She put her fingers on the 
 
66 BEULAH. 
 
 burning temples and wrist, and counted accurately the pulsations 
 of the lava tide, then bent her queenly head, and listened to the 
 heavily-drawn breathing. A haughty smile lit her fine features 
 as she said, complacently : "A mere tempest in a tea-cup. 
 Pshaw, this girl will not mar my projects long. By noon to- 
 morrow she will be in eternity. I thought, the first time I saw 
 her ghostly face, she would trouble me but a short season. 
 What paradoxes men are. What on earth possessed Guy, 
 with his fastidious taste, to bring to his home such an ugly, 
 wasted, sallow little wretch ? I verily believe, as a family, we 
 are beset by evil angels." Drawing out her watch, she saw that 
 the hand had passed nine. Raising the glass to her lips, she 
 drank the quantity prescribed for the sufferer, and was replacing 
 it on the stand, when Beulah's large, eloquent eyes startled her. 
 
 " Well child, what do you want ?" sard she, trembling, de- 
 spite her assumed indifference. Beulah looked at her vacantly, 
 then threw her arms restlessly over the pillow, and slept again. 
 Mrs. Chilton drew up a chair, seated herself, and sank into a 
 reverie of some length. Ultimately she was aroused by perceiv- 
 ing her brother beside her, and said hastily : 
 
 " How is Mr. Vincent ? Not dangerously ill, I hope ?" 
 
 " To-morrow will decide that. It is now ten minutes past ten ; 
 how many potions have you given ?" 
 
 " Two," answered she, firmly. 
 
 " Thank you, May. I will relieve you now. Good night." 
 
 " But you are worn out, and I am not. Let me sit up. I will 
 wake you if any change occurs." 
 
 " Thank you, I prefer watching to-night. Take that candle, 
 and leave it on the table in the hall. I need nothing but moon- 
 light. Leave the door open." As the flickering light vanished, 
 he threw himself into the chair beside the bed. 
 
B E U L A H . 67 
 
 CHAPTER VIII. 
 
 IT was iu the grey light of dawning day that Beulah awoke to 
 consciousness. For some moments after unclosing her eyes, they 
 wandered inquiringly about the room, and finally rested on the 
 tall form of the watcher, as he stood at the open window. 
 Gradually, memory gathered up its scattered links, and all thft 
 incidents of that hour of anguish rushed yividly before her. The 
 little table, with its marble sleeper ; then a dim recollection of 
 having been carried to a friendly shelter. Was it only yesterday 
 evening, and had she slept ? The utter prostration which pre- 
 vented her raising her head, and the emaciated appearance of 
 her hands, told her " no." Too feeble even to think, she moaned 
 audibly. Dr. Hartwell turned and looked at her. The room 
 was still in shadow, though the eastern sky was flushed, and he 
 stepped to the bedside. The fever had died out, the cheeks 
 vvere very pale, and the unnaturally large, sunken eyes lustreless. 
 3he looked at him steadily, yet with perfect indifference. He 
 eaned over, and said, eagerly : 
 
 " Beulah, do you know me ?' ; 
 
 " Yes, I know you." 
 
 " How do you feel this morning ?" 
 
 " I am very weak, and my head seems confused. How long 
 have I been here ?" 
 
 " No matter, child, if you are better." He took out his watch, 
 and, after counting her pulse, prepared some medicine, and gave 
 her a potion. Her features twitched, and she asked tremblingly, 
 as if afraid of her own question : 
 
 " Have they buried her ?" 
 
 " Yes, a week ago." 
 
 She closed her eyes with a groan, and her face became con 
 
C8 DEULAH. 
 
 vulsed ; then she lay quite still, with a wrinkled brow. Doctor 
 Hartwell sat down by her, and, taking one of her wasted little 
 hands in his, said gently : 
 
 " Beulah, you have been very ill. I scarcely thought you 
 would recover ; and now, though much better, you must not 
 agitate yourself, for you are far too weak to bear it." 
 
 " Why didn't you let me die ? Oh, it would have been a 
 mercy I" She put her hand over her eyes, and a low cry wailed 
 through the room. 
 
 " Because I wanted you to get well, and live here, and be my 
 little friend, my child. Now, Beulah, I have saved you, and you 
 belong to me. When you are stronger, we will talk about all 
 you want to know ; but to-day you must keep quiet, and not 
 think of what distresses you. Will you try ?" 
 
 The strong, stern man shuddered, as she looked up at him 
 with an expression of hopeless desolation, and said slowly : 
 
 " I have nothing but misery to think of." 
 
 " Have you forgotten Eugene so soon ?" 
 
 For an instant the eyes lighted up, then the long lashes swept 
 her cheeks, and she murmured : 
 
 "Eugene; he has left me too; something will happen to him 
 also; I never loved anything but trouble came upon it." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell smiled grimly, as though unconsciously she had 
 turned to view some page in the history of his own life. 
 
 "Beulah, you must not despond; Eugene will come back an 
 elegant young man before you are fairly out of short dresses. 
 There, do not talk any more, and don't cry. Try to sleop, and 
 remember, child, you are homeless and friendless n-> longer." 
 He pressed her hand kindly, and turned toward the d ;ur. It 
 opened, and Mrs. Chilton entered. 
 
 "Good morning, Guy; how is your patient?" said she, 
 blandly. 
 
 " Good morning, May; my little patient is much better. She 
 has been talking to me, and I am going to send her s )rae break- 
 fast." He-put both hands on his sister's shoulders, find looked 
 
B E U L A H . 69 
 
 down into her beautiful eyes. She did not flinch, but he saw a 
 greyish hue settle around her lips. 
 
 "Ah! I thought last night there was little hope of her reco- 
 very. You are a wonderful doctor, Guy; almost equal to raising 
 the dead." Her voice was even, and, like his own, marvellously 
 sweet. 
 
 "More wonderful still, May; I can read the living." His 
 moustached lip curled, as a scornful smile passed over his face. 
 
 " Read the living ? then you can understand and appreciate 
 my pleasure at this good news. Doubly good, because it secures 
 Pauline's return to-day. Dear child, I long to have her at home 
 again." An expression of anxious maternal solicitude crossed 
 her features. Her brother kept his hand on her shoulder, and 
 as his eye fell on her glossy auburn curls, he said, half musingly: 
 
 "Time touches you daintily, May; there is not one silver 
 foot-print on your hair." 
 
 " He has dealt quite as leniently with you. But how could I 
 feel the inroads of time, shielded as I have been by your kind- 
 ness ? Cares and sorrows bleach the locks oftener than accu- 
 mulated years; and you, Guy, have most kindly guarded your 
 poor widowed sister." 
 
 " Have I, indeed, May ?" 
 
 "Ah! what would become of my Pauline and me, but for 
 your generosity, your" 
 
 "Enough! Then, once for all, be kind to yonder sick child; 
 if not for her sake, for your own. You and Pauline can aid me 
 in making her happy, if you will. And if not, remember, May, 
 you know my nature. Do not disturb Beulah now; come down 
 and let her be quiet." He led her down the steps, and then 
 throwing open a glass door, stepped out upon a terrace covered 
 with Bermuda grass, and sparkling like a tiara in the early sun- 
 light. Mrs. Chilton watched him descend the two white marble 
 steps leading down to the flower beds, and leaning against the 
 wall, she muttered: 
 
 " It cannot be possible that that miserable beggar is to come 
 
70 B E TJ L A H . 
 
 between Pauline and his property! Is he mad to dream of 
 making that little outcast his heiress ? Yet he meant it; I saw 
 it in his eye; the lurking devil that has slumbered since that 
 evening, and that I hoped would never gleam out at me again. 
 Oli! we are a precious family. Set the will of one against 
 another, and all Pandemonium can't crush either! Ten to one, 
 Pauline will lose her wits too, and be as hard to manage as 
 Guy." Moody and perplexed, she walked on to the dining-room. 
 Beulah had fallen into a heavy slumber of exhaustion, and it was 
 late in the day when she again unclosed her eyes. Harriet sat 
 sewing near her, but soon perceiveo) that she was awake, and 
 immediately put aside her work. 
 
 "Aha! so you have come to your senses again, have you? 
 How are you, child ?" 
 
 " I am weak." 
 
 " Which isn't strange, seeing that you haven't eat a teaspoon- 
 ful in more than a week. Now, look here, little one; I am 
 ordered to nurse and take charge of you, till you are strong 
 enough to look out for yourself. So you must not object to 
 anything I tell you to do." Without further parley, she washed 
 and wiped Beulah's face and hands, shook up the pillows, and 
 placed her comfortably on them. To the orphan, accustomed 
 all her life to wait upon others, there was something singularly 
 novel in being thus carefully handled; and nestling her head 
 close to the pillows, she shut her eyes, lest the tears that were 
 gathering should become visible. Harriet quitted the room 
 for a short time, and returned with a salver containing some 
 refreshments. 
 
 "I can't eat anything. Thank you; but take it away." 
 Beulah put her hands over her face, but Harriet resolutely 
 seated herself on the side of the bed, lifted her up, and put a 
 cup of tea to the quivering lips. 
 
 "It is no use talking; master said you had to eat, and you 
 might just as well do it at once. Poor thing! you are hiding 
 your eyes to cry. Well, drink this tea and eat a little; you 
 
B E U L A H . 71 
 
 must, for folks can't live forever without eating." There was 
 no alternative, and Beulah swallowed what was given her. 
 Harriet praised her obedient spirit, and busied herself about the 
 room for some time. Finally, stooping over the bed, she said 
 abruptly: 
 
 "Honey, are you crying?" 
 
 There was no reply, and kneeling down, she said cautiously: 
 
 " If you knew as much about this family as I do, you would 
 cry, sure enough, for something. My master says he has adopted 
 you, and since he has said it, everything will work for good to 
 you. But, child, there will come times when you need a friend 
 besides master, and be sure you come to me when you do. I 
 won't say any more now, but remember what I tell you when 
 you get into trouble. Miss Pauline has come, and if she hap- 
 pens to take a fancy to you (which I think she won't), she will 
 stand by you till the stars fall; and if she don't, she will hate 
 you worse than Satan himself for" ' Harriet did not com- 
 plete the sentence, for she detected her master's step in the 
 passage, and resumed her work. 
 
 " How is she ?" 
 
 " She did not eat much, sir, and seems so downhearted." 
 
 " That will do. I will ring when you are needed." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell seated himself on the edge of the bed, and lift- 
 ing the child's head to his bosom, 'drew away the hands that 
 shaded her face. 
 
 "Beulah, are you following my directions ?" 
 
 " Oh, sir ! you are very kind, but I am too wretched, too 
 miserable, even to thank you " 
 
 " I do not wish you to thank me. All I desire is, that you 
 will keep quiet for a few days, till you grow strong, and not lie 
 here sobbing yourself into another fever. I know you have had 
 a bitter lot in life so far, and memories are all painful with you, 
 but it is better not to dwell upon the past. Ah, child ! it is 
 well to live only in the present, looking into the future. 
 I promise you I will guard you, and care for you as tenderly as 
 
72 B E U L A H . 
 
 a father ; and now, Beulah, I think you owe it to me, to try to 
 be cheerful." 
 
 He passed his fingers softly over her forehead, and put back 
 the tangled masses of jetty hair, which, long neglect had 
 piled about her face. The touch of his cool hand, the low 
 musical tones of his voice, were very soothing to the weary 
 sufferer, and with a great effort she looked up into the deep, 
 dark eyes, saying brokenly : 
 
 " Oh, sir, how good you are 1 I am very grateful 
 to you indeed, I " 
 
 "There, my child, do not try to talk, only trust me, and be 
 cheerful. It is a pleasure to me to have you here, and know 
 that you will always remain in my house." 
 
 How long he sat there, she never knew, for soon she slept, 
 aud when hours after she waked, the lamp was burning dimly, 
 and only Harriet was in the room. A week passed, and the 
 girl saw no one except the nurse and physician. One sunny 
 afternoon, she looped back the white curtains, and sat down 
 before the open window. Harriet had dressed her in a blue 
 calico wrapper, which made the wan face still more ghastly, and 
 the folds of black hair, which the gentle fingers of the kind 
 nurse had disentangled, lay thick about her forehead, like an 
 ebon wreath on the brow of a statue. Her elbows rested on 
 the arms of the easy-chair, and the weary head leaned upon the 
 hands. Before her lay the flower garden, brilliant and fragrant, 
 further on, a row of Lombardy poplars bounded the yard, and 
 beyond the street, stretched the west common. In the distance 
 rose a venerable brick building, set, as it were, in an emerald 
 lawn, and Beulah looked only once, and knew it was the 
 Asylum. It was the first time she had seen it since her exodus, 
 and the long sealed fountain could no longer be restrained. 
 Great hot tears fell over the bent face, and the frail form 
 trembled violently. For nearly fourteen years that brave 
 spirit had battled, and borne, and tried to hope for better 
 things. With more than ordinary fortitude, she had resigned 
 
B E U L A H . 73 
 
 herself to the sorrows that came thick and fast upon her, and 
 trusting in the eternal love and goodness of God, had looked 
 to him for relief and reward. But the reward came not in the 
 expected way. Hope died ; faith fainted ; and bitterness and 
 despair reigned in that once loving and gentle soul. Her father 
 had not been spared in answer to her frantic prayers. Lilly 
 had been taken, without even the sad comfort of a farewell, 
 and now, with the present full of anguish, and the future 
 shrouded in dark forebodings, she sobbed aloud. 
 
 " All alone ! All alone 1 0, father 1 0, Lilly, Lilly 1" 
 
 " Do pray, chile, don't take on so ; you will fret yourself 
 sick again," said Harriet, compassionately patting the drooped 
 head. 
 
 " Don't talk to me don't speak to me I" cried Beulah, 
 passionately. 
 
 " Yes, but I was told not to let you grieve yourself to death, 
 and you are doing your best. Why don't you put your trust in 
 the Lord ?" 
 
 " I did, and he has forgotten me." 
 
 " No, chile. He forgets not even the little snow-birds. I 
 expect you wanted to lay down the law for Him, and are not 
 willing to wait until he sees fit to bless you. Isn't it so ?" 
 
 " He never can give me back my dead." 
 
 " But he can raise up other friends for you, and he has. It is 
 a blessed thing to have my master for a friend, and a protector. 
 Think of living always in a place like this, with plenty of money, 
 and nothing to wish for. Chile, you don't know how lucky" 
 
 She paused, startled by ringing, peals of laughter, which 
 seemed to come from the adjoining passage. Sounds of mirth t 
 fell torturingly upon Beulah's bleeding spirit, and she pressed 
 her fingers tightly over her ears. Just opposite to her sat the 
 old trunk, which, a fortnight before, she had packed for her jour- 
 ney up the river. The leathern face seemed to sympathize with 
 her woe, and kneeling down on the floor, she wound her arms 
 caressingly over it. 
 
 4 
 
74 B E U L A H . 
 
 " Bless the girl I she hugs that ugly old-fashioned thing, as if 
 it were kin to her," said Harriet, who sat sewing at one of the 
 windows. 
 
 Beulah raised the lid, and there lay her clothes, the books 
 Eugene had given her ; two or three faded, worn-out garments 
 of Lilly, and an old Bible. The tears froze in her eyes, as she 
 took out the last, and opened it at the ribbon mark. These 
 words greeted her : " Whom the Lord loveth, he, chasteneth." 
 Again and again she read them, an4 the crushed tendrils of 
 trust feebly twined once more about the promise. As she sat 
 there, wondering why suffering and sorrow always fell on those 
 whom the Bible calls " blessed," and trying to explain the para- 
 dox, the door was thrown rudely open, and a girl about her own 
 age sprang into the room, quickly followed by Mrs. Chilton. 
 
 " Let me alone, mother. I tell you I mean to see her, and 
 then you are welcome to me as long as you please. Ah, is 
 that her ?" 
 
 The speaker paused in the centre of the apartment, and gazed 
 curiously at the figure seated before the old trunk. Involun- 
 tarily, Beulah raised her eyes, and met the searching look 
 fixed upon her. The intruder was richly dressed, and her very 
 posture bespoke the lawless independence of a willful, petted 
 child. The figure was fautlessly symmetrical, and her face 
 radiantly beautiful. The features were clearly cut, and regular, 
 the eyes of deep, dark violet hue, shaded by curling brown 
 lashes. Her chestnut hair was thrown back with a silver comb, 
 and fell in thick curls below the waist ; her complexion was of 
 alabaster clearness, and cheeks and lips wore the coral bloom of 
 health. As they confronted each other, one looked a Hebe, the 
 other a ghostly visitant from spirit realms. Beulah shrank 
 from the eager scrutiny, and put up her hands to shield her 
 face. The other advanced a few steps, and stood beside her. 
 The expression of curiosity faded, and something like compas- 
 sion swept over the stranger's features, as she noted the thin, 
 drooping form of the invalid. Her lips parted, and she put out 
 
BETTLAH. 75 
 
 her hand, as if to address Beulah, when Mrs. Chilton exclaimed 
 impatiently : 
 
 " Pauline, come down this instant ! Your uncle positively for- 
 bade your entering this room until he gave you permission. 
 There is his buggy this minute ! Come out, I say 1" She laid 
 her hand in no gentle manner on her daughter's arm. 
 
 '* Oh, sink the buggy ! What do I care if he does catch me 
 here ? I shall stay till I make up my mind whether that little 
 thing is a ghost or not. So, mother, let me alone." She shook 
 off the clasping hand that sought to drag her away, and again 
 fixed her attention on Beulah. 
 
 " Willful girl 1 you will ruin everything yet. Pauline, follow 
 me instantly, I command you 1" She was white with rage, but 
 the daughter gave no intimation of having heard the words, and 
 throwing her arm about the girl's waist, Mrs. Chilton dragged 
 her to the door. There was a brief struggle at the threshold, 
 and then both stood quiet before the master of the house. 
 
 " What is all this confusion about ? I ordered this portion 
 of the house kept silent, did I not ?" 
 
 " Yes, Guy ; and I hope you will forgive Pauline's thought- 
 lessness. She blundered in here, and I have just been scolding 
 her for disobeying your injunctions." 
 
 " Uncle Guy, it was not thoughtlessness, at all ; I came on 
 purpose. For a week, I have been nearly dying with curiosity 
 to see that little skeleton you have shut up here, and I ran 
 up to get a glimpse of her. I don't see the harm of it; I haven't 
 hurt her." Pauline looked fearlessly up in her uncle's face, 
 and planted herself firmly in the door, as if resolved not to be 
 ejected. 
 
 "Does this house belong to you, or to me, Pauline ?" 
 
 " To you, now : to me, some of these days, when you give it 
 to me for a bridal present." 
 
 His brow cleared, he looked kindly down into the frank, truth- 
 ful countenance, and said, with a half smile : 
 
 " Do not repeat your voyage of discovery, or perhaps your 
 
76 B E U L A H . 
 
 bridal anticipations may prove an egregious failure. Do you 
 understand me ?" 
 
 " I have not finished the first. Mother played pirate, and 
 carried me off before I was half satisfied. Uncle Guy, take me 
 under your flag, do ! I will not worry the little thing I pro- 
 mise you I will not. Can't I stay here a while ?" He smiled, 
 and put his hand on her head, saying 
 
 " I am inclined to try you. May, you can leave her here. I 
 will send her to you after a little." As he spoke, he drew her 
 up to the orphan. Beulah looked at them an instant, then 
 averted her head. 
 
 " Beulah, this is my niece, Pauline Chilton ; and Pauline, this 
 is my adopted child, Beulah Benton. You are about the same 
 age, and can make each other happy, if you will. Beulah, shake 
 hands with my niece." She put up her pale, slender fingers, and 
 they were promptly clasped in Pauline's plump palm. 
 ^ " Do stop crying, and look at me. I want to see you," said 
 the latter. 
 
 " I am not crying." 
 
 " Then, what are you hiding your face for ?" 
 
 " Because it is so ugly," answered the orphan, sadly. 
 
 Pauline stooped down, took the head in her hands, and turned 
 the features to view. She gave them a searching examination, 
 and then, looking up at her uncle, said bluntly : 
 
 " She is not pretty, that is a fact ; but, somehow, I rather 
 like her. If she did not look so doleful, and had some blood in 
 her lips, she would pass well enough, don't you think so ?" 
 
 Dr. Hartwell did not reply; but raising Beulah from the floor, 
 placed her in the chair she had vacated some time before. She 
 did, indeed, look " doleful," as Pauline expressed it, and the 
 beaming, lovely face of the latter rendered her wan aspect more 
 apparent. s 
 
 " What have you been doing all day ?" said the doctor, kindly. 
 
 She pointed to the Asylum, and answered in a low, subdued 
 tone : 
 
B E TJ L A H . 77 
 
 "Thinking about my past life all my misfortunes/' 
 
 " You promised you would do so no more." 
 
 " Ah, sir ! how can I help it ?" 
 
 " Why, think of something pleasant, of course," interrupted 
 Pauline. 
 
 " You never had any sorrows ; you know nothing of suffer- 
 ing," replied Beulah, allowing her eyes to dwell on the fine open 
 countenance before her : a mirthful, sunny face, where waves of 
 grief had never rippled. 
 
 " How came you so wise ? I have troubles sometimes, just 
 like everybody else." Beulah shook her head dubiously. 
 
 " Paulino, will you try to cheer this sad little stranger ? will 
 you be always kind in your manner, and remember that her life 
 has not been as happy as yours ? Can't you love her ?" She 
 shrugged her shoulders, and answered evasively : 
 
 " I dare say we will get on well enough, if she will only 
 quit looking so dismal and graveyardish. I don't know about 
 loving her ; we shall see." 
 
 " You can go down to your mother now," said he, gravely. 
 
 " That means you are tired of me, Uncle Guy," cried she, 
 saucily shaking her curls over her face. 
 
 " Yes, heartily tired of you ; take yourself off." 
 
 11 Good bye, shadow; I shall come to see you again to-morrow." 
 She reached the door, but looked back. 
 
 " Uncle, have you seen Charon since you came home ?" 
 
 11 No." 
 
 " Well, he will die if you don't do something for him. It is a 
 shame to forget him as you do !" said she, indignantly. 
 
 " Attend to your own affairs, and do not interfere with mine." 
 
 "It is high time somebody interfered. Poor Charon I If 
 Hal doesn't take better care of him, I will make his mother box 
 his ears ; see if I don't." 
 
 She bounded down the steps, leaving her uncle to smooth his 
 brow at leisure. Turning to Beulah, he took her hand, and said 
 very kindly : 
 
78 BEULAH. 
 
 " This large room does not suit you. Come, and I will show 
 you your own little room one I have had arranged for you." 
 She silently complied, and leading her through several passages, 
 Le opened the door of the apartment assigned her. The walls 
 were covered with blue and silver paper ; the window-curtains 
 of white, faced with blue, matched it well, and every article of 
 furniture bespoke lavish and tasteful expenditure. There was a 
 small writing-desk near a handsome case of books, and a little 
 work-table with a rocking-chair drawn up to it. He staled 
 Beulah, and stood watching her, as her eyes wandered curiously 
 and admiringly around the room.. They rested on a painting 
 suspended over the desk, and rapt in contemplating the design, 
 she forgot for a moment all her sorrows. It represented an 
 angelic figure winging its way over a valley beclouded and dis- 
 mal, and pointing, with a radiant countenance, to the gilded 
 summit of a distant steep. Below, bands of pilgrims, weary and 
 worn, toiled on ; some fainting by the wayside, some seated in 
 sullen despair, some in the attitude of prayer, some pressing 
 forward with strained gaze, and pale, haggard faces. 
 
 " Do you like it ?" said Doctor Hartwell. 
 
 Perhaps she did not hear him ; certainly she did not heed the 
 question, and taking a seat near one of the windows, he regarded 
 her earnestly. Her eyes were fastened on the picture, and raising 
 her hands toward it, she said in broken, indistinct tones : 
 
 " I am dying down in the dark valley ; oh, come, help me to 
 toil on to the resting-place." 
 
 Her head sank upon her bosom, and bitter waves lashed her 
 heart once more. 
 
 Gradually, evening shadows crept on, and at length a soft 
 hand lifted her face, and a musical voice said : 
 
 " Beulah, I want you to come down to my study and make my 
 tea. Do you feel strong enough ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir." She rose at once and followed him, resolved to 
 eeem cheerful. 
 
 The study was an oblong room, and on one side book-shelves 
 
BETJLAH. 79 
 
 rose almost to the ceiling. The opposite wall, between the win- 
 dows, was covered with paintings, and several statues stood in 
 Hie recesses near the chimney. Over the low marble mantel- 
 piece hung a full-length portrait, shrouded with black crape, and 
 underneath was an exquisitely chased silver case, containing a 
 small Swiss clock. A beautiful terra-cotta vase, of antique shape, 
 stood on the hearth, filled with choice and fragrant flowers, and 
 near the wiudow sat an elegant rosewood melodeon. A circular 
 table occupied the middle of the room, and here the evening 
 meal was already arranged. Beulah glanced timidly around as 
 her conductor seated her beside the urn, and seeing only cups 
 for two persons, asked hesitatingly : 
 
 " Shall I make your tea now ?" 
 
 1 Yes, and remember, Beulah, I shall expect you to make it 
 every evening at this hour. Breakfast and dinner I take with 
 my sister and Pauline in the dining-room, but my evenings are 
 always spent here. There, make another cup for yourself." 
 
 A long silence ensued. Doctor Hartwell seemed lost in 
 reverie, for he sat with his eyes fixed on the table-cloth, and his 
 head resting on his hand. His features resumed their habitual 
 expression of stern rigidity, and as Beulah looked at him she 
 could scarcely believe that he was the same kind friend who had 
 been so gentle and fatherly in his manner. Intuitively she felfc 
 then that she had to deal with a chaotic, passionate and moody 
 nature, and as she marked the knitting of his brows, and the 
 iron compression of his lips, her heart was haunted by grave 
 forebodings. While she sat pondering his haughty, impenetrable 
 appearance a servant entered. 
 
 " Sir, there is a messenger at the door." 
 
 His master started slightly, pushed away his cup and said : 
 
 " Is the buggy ready ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir, waiting at the door." 
 
 " Very well, I am coming." 
 
 The windows opened down to the floor, and led into a vine- 
 covered piazza. He stepped up to one and stood a moment, as 
 
80 BETJLAH. 
 
 jf loth to quit his sanctum ; then turning round, addressed 
 Beulah : 
 
 " Ah, child, I had almost forgotten you. It is time you were 
 asleep. Do you know the way back to your room ?" 
 
 " I can find it," said she, rising from the table. 
 
 " Good night ; let me see you at breakfast if you feel strong 
 enough to join us." 
 
 He opened the door for her, and hurrying out, Beulah found 
 her own room without difficulty. Walking up to Harriet, whom 
 she saw waiting for her, sh* said in a grave, determined 
 manner : 
 
 11 You have been very kind to me since I came here, and I feel 
 grateful to you, but I have not been accustomed to have some 
 one always waiting on me, and in future I shall not want you. 
 I can dress myself without any assistance, so you need not come 
 to me night and morning." 
 
 " I am obeying master's orders. He said I was to 'tend to 
 you," answered Harriet, wondering at the independent spirit 
 evinced by the new comer. 
 
 " I do not want any tending, so you may leave me, if you 
 please." 
 
 " Haven't you been here long enough to find out that you 
 might as well fight the waves of the sea as my master's will ? 
 Take care, child, how you begin to countermand his orders, for I 
 tell you now there are some in this house who will soon make it 
 a handle to turn you out into the world again. Mind what I 
 Bay." 
 
 " Do you mean that I am not wanted here ?" 
 
 " I mean, keep your eyes open." Harriet vanished in the dark 
 passage, and Beulah locked the door, feeling that now she was 
 indeed alone, and could freely indulge the grief that had so long 
 sought to veil itself from curious eyes. Yet there was no dispo- 
 sition to cry. She sat down on the bed and mused on the 
 strange freak of fortune which had so suddenly elevated the 
 humble nurse into the possessor of that elegantly furnished 
 
BE TIL AH. 81 
 
 > 
 
 apartment. There was no elation in the quiet wonder with 
 which she surveyed the change in her position. She did not 
 belong there, she had no claim on the master of the house, and 
 she felt that she was trespassing on the rights of the beautiful 
 Pauline. Rapidly plans for the future were written in firm 
 resolve. She would thankfully remain under the roof that had 
 so kindly sheltered her, until she could qualify herself to teach. 
 She would ask Doctor Hartwell to give her an education, which, 
 once obtained, would enable her to repay its price. To her 
 proud nature there was something galling in the thought of 
 dependence, and throwing herself on her knees for the first time 
 in several weeks, she earnestly besought the God of orphans to 
 guide and assist her. 
 
 CHAPTER IX. 
 
 " Do you wish her to commence school at once ?" 
 
 " Not until her wardrobe has been replenished. I expect her 
 clothes to be selected and made just as Pauline's are. Will you 
 atiend to this business, or shall I give directions to Harriet ?" 
 
 " Certainly, Guy, I can easily arrange it. You intend to dress 
 her just as I do Pauline ?" 
 
 " As nearly as possible. Next week I wish her to begin school 
 with Pauline, and Hansell will give her music lessons. Be so 
 good as to see about her clothes immediately." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell drew on his gloves and left the room. His sister 
 followed him to the door where his buggy awaited him. 
 
 " Guy, did you determine about that little affair for Pauline ? 
 She has so set her heart on it." 
 
 " Oh, do as you please, May, only I am " 
 
 " Stop, Uncle Guy 1 Wait a minute : may I have a birthday 
 party ? May I ?" Almost out of breath, Pauline ran up thu 
 
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82 BETTLAH. 
 
 steps ; her long hair floating over her face, which exercise had 
 flushed to crimson. 
 
 " You young tornado ! Look how you have crushed that 
 cluster of heliotrope, rushing over the flower-beds as if there were 
 no walks." He pointed with the end of his whip to a drooping 
 spray of purple blossoms. 
 
 " Yes ; but there are plenty more. I say, may I ? may I ?" 
 She eagerly caught hold of his coat. 
 
 " How long before your birthday ?" 
 
 " Just a week from to-day. Do, please, let me have a frolic !" 
 
 " Poor child ! you look as if you needed some relaxation," said 
 he, looking down into her radiant face, with an expression of 
 mock compassion. 
 
 "Upon my word, Uncle Guy, it is awfully dull here. If it 
 were not for Charon and Mazeppa I should be moped to death. 
 Do, pray, don't look at me as if you were counting the hairs in 
 my eyelashes. Come, say yes : do, Uncle Guy." 
 
 "Take your hands off of my coat, and have u< m:my parties 
 as you like, provided you keep to your own side of the house. 
 Don't come near my study with your Babel, and don't allow your 
 company to demolish my flowers. Mind, not a soul is to enter 
 the greenhouse. The parlors are at your service, but I will not 
 have a regiment of wild-cats tearing up and down my greenhouse 
 and flower-garden ; mind that." He stepped into his buggy. 
 
 " Bravo ! I have won my wager, and got the party too ! 
 Hugh Cluis bet me a papier-mache writing-desk that you would 
 not give me a party. When I send his invitation, I will write 
 on the envelope ' the writing-desk is also expected.' Hey, sha 
 dow, where did you creep from ?" She fixed her merry eyes ou 
 Beulah, who just then appeared on the terrace. Dr. Hartwell 
 leaned from the buggy, and looked earnestly at the quiet little 
 figure. 
 
 " Do you want anything, Beulah ?" 
 
 " No, sir, I thought you had gone. May I open the gate for 
 you ?" 
 
B E U L A II . 83 
 
 " Certainly, if you wish to do something for me." His pale 
 features relaxed, and his whole face lighted up, like a sun-flushed 
 cloud. 
 
 Beulah walked down the avenue, lined on either side with 
 venerable poplars and cedars, and opened the large gate leading 
 into the city. He checked his horse, and said : 
 
 "Thank you, my child ; now how are you going to spend the 
 day ? Remember you commence with school duties next week, 
 80 make the best of your holiday." 
 
 " I have enough to occupy me to-day. Good bye, sir." 
 
 " Good bye, for an hour or so." He smiled kindly and drove 
 on, while she walked slowly back to the house, wondering why 
 smiles were such rare things in this world, when they cost so 
 little, and yet are so very valuable to mourning hearts. Pauline 
 sat on the steps with an open book in her hand. She looked up 
 as Beulah approached, and exclaimed gaily : 
 
 " Aren't you glad I am to have my birthday frolic ?" 
 
 " Yes, I am glad on your account," answered Beulah, gravely. 
 
 " Can you dance all the fancy dances ? I don't like any so 
 well as the mazourka." 
 
 " I do not dance at all." 
 
 " Don't dance 1 Why, I have danced ever since I was big 
 enough to crawl ! What have you been doing all your life, that 
 you don't know how to dance ?" 
 
 " My feet have had other work to do," replied her companion; 
 and as the recollections of her early childhood flitted before her, 
 the brow darkened. 
 
 " I suppose that is one reason you look so forlorn all the 
 time. I will ask Uncle Guy to send you to the dancing school 
 for" 
 
 " Pauline, it is school-time, and you don't know one word of 
 that Quackenbos ; I would be ashamed to start from home as 
 ignorant of my lessons as you are." Mrs. Chilton's head was 
 projected from the parlor window, and the rebuke was delivered 
 in no very gentle tone. 
 
84 BEULAH. 
 
 " Oh, I don't mind it at all : I have got used to it," answered 
 the daughter, tossing up the book as she spoke. 
 
 " Get ready for school this minute." 
 
 Pauline scampered into the house for her bonnet and sachel ; 
 and fixing her eyes upon Beulah, Mrs. Chilton asked sternly : 
 
 " What are you doing out there ? What did you follow my 
 brother to the gate for ? Answer me !" 
 
 " I merely opened the gate for him," replied the girl, looking 
 steadily up at the searching eyes. 
 
 " There was a servant with him to do that. In future don't 
 make yourself so conspicuous. You must keep away from the 
 flower-beds too. The doctor wishes no one prowling about them ; 
 he gave particular directions that no one should go there in his 
 absence." 
 
 They eyed each other an instant ; then drawing up her slender 
 form fro its utmost height, Beulah replied proudly : 
 
 " Be assured, madam, I shall not trespass on forbidden 
 ground !" 
 
 " Very well." The lace curtejans swept back to their place 
 the fair face was withdrawn. 
 
 " She hates me," thought Beulah, walking on to her own room, 
 " she hates ine, and certainly I do not love her. I shall like 
 Pauline very much, but her mother and I never will get on 
 smoothly. What freezing eyes she has, and what a disagreeable 
 look there is about her mouth whenever she sees me. She 
 wishes me to remember all the time that I am poor, and that she 
 is the mistress of this elegant house. Ah, I am not likely to 
 forget it 1" The old smile of bitterness crossed her face. 
 
 The days passed swiftly. Beulah spent most of her time in her 
 own room, for Dr. Hartwell was sometimes absent all day, and 
 she longed to escape his sister's icy espionage. When he was at 
 home, and not engaged in his study, his manner was always kind 
 and considerate ; but she fancied he was colder and graver, aiid 
 often his stern abstraction kept her silent when they were toge- 
 ther. Monday was the birth-day, and on Monday morning she 
 
B E U L A H . 85 
 
 expected to start to school. Madam St. Cymon's wag. the fash- 
 ionable institution of the city, and thither, with Pauline, she was 
 destined. Beulah rose early, dressed herself carefully, and 
 after reading a chapter in her Bible, and asking God's special 
 guidance through the day, descended to the breakfast-room. Dr. 
 Hartwell sat reading a newspaper ; he did not look up, and she 
 quietly seated herself unobserved. Presently Mrs. Chilton entered 
 and walked up to her brother. 
 
 " Good morning, Guy. Are there no tidings of that vessel 
 yet ? I hear the Grahams are terribly anxious about it. 
 Cornelia said her father was unable to sleep." 
 
 " No news yet, but, May, be sure you do not let " 
 
 " Was it the Morning Star ? Is he lost ?" 
 
 Beulah stood crouching at his side, with her hands extended 
 pleadingly, and her white face convulsed. 
 
 " My child, do not look so wretched ; the vessel that Eugene 
 sailed in was disabled in a storm, and has not yet reached the 
 place of destination. But there are numerous ways of account- 
 ing for the detention, and you must hope and .believe that all is 
 well, until you know the contrary." He drew her to his side, 
 and stroked her head compassionately. 
 
 " I knew it would be so," said she, in a strangely subdued, 
 passionless tone. 
 
 11 What do you mean, child ?" 
 
 " Death and trouble come on everything I love." 
 
 " Perhaps at this very moment Eugene may be writing you an 
 account of his voyage. I believe that we shall soon hear of his 
 safe arrival. You need not dive down into my eyes in that way. 
 I do believe it, for the vessel was seen after the storm, and 
 though far out of the right track, there is good reason to sup- 
 pose she has put into some port to be repaired." 
 
 Beulah clasped her hands over her eyes, as if to shut out 
 some horrid phantom, and while her heart seemed dying on the 
 rack, she resolved not to despair till the certainty came. 
 
 " Time enough when there is no hope j I will not go out to 
 
86 BEULAH. 
 
 meet sorrow." With a sudden, inexplicable revulsion of feeling, 
 she sank on her knees, and there beside her protector, vehe- 
 mently prayed Almighty God to guard and guide the tempest- 
 tossed loved one. If her eyes had rested on the face of Deity, 
 and she had felt his presence, her petition could not have been 
 more importunately preferred. For a few moments Dr. Hartwell 
 regarded her curiously ; then his brow darkened, his lips curled, 
 sneeringly, and a mocking sinile passed over his face. Mrs. 
 Chilton smiled, too, but there was a peculiar gleam in her eyes, 
 and an uplifting of her brows which denoted anything but 
 pleasurable emotions. She moved away, and sat down at the 
 head of the table. Dr. Hartwell put his hand on the shoulder 
 of the kneeling girl, and asked, rather abruptly : 
 
 " Beulah, do you believe that the God you pray to hears you ?" 
 
 " I do. He has promised to answer prayer." 
 
 " Then, get up and be satisfied, and eat your breakfast. You 
 have asked him to save and protect Eugene, and, according to 
 the Bible, He will certainly do it ; so, no more tears. If you 
 believe in your God, what are you looking so wretched about ?" 
 There was something in all this that startled Beulah, and she 
 looked up at him. His chilly smile pained her, and she rose 
 quickly, while again and again his words rang in her ear. Yet, 
 what was there so strange about this application of faith ? True, 
 the Bible declared that " whatsoever ye ask, believing, that ye 
 shall receive," she had often prayed for blessings, and often been 
 denied. Was it because she had not had the requisite faith, 
 which should have satisfied her ? Yet God knew that she had 
 trusted him. With innate quickness of perception, she de- 
 tected the tissued veil of irony, which the doctor had wrapped 
 about his attempted consolation, and she looked at him so 
 intently, so piercingly, that he hastily turned away and seated 
 himself at the table. Just then, Pauline bounded into the 
 room, exclaiming : 
 
 " Fourteen to-day ! Only three more years at school, and 
 then I shall step out a brilliant young lady, the " 
 
B E U L A H . 87 
 
 "There; be quiet; sit down. I would almost as soon select 
 a small whirlwind for a companion. Can't you learn to enter a 
 room without blustering like a March wind, or a Texan 
 norther ?" asked her uncle. 
 
 " Have you all seen a ghost ? You look as solemn as grave- 
 diggers. What ails you, Beulah ? Come along to breakfast. 
 How nicely you look in your new clothes." Her eyes ran over 
 the face and form of the orphan. 
 
 " Pauline, hush ! and eat your breakfast. You annoy your 
 uncle," said her mother, severely. 
 
 " Oh, do, for gracious sake, let me talk 1 I feel sometimes as 
 if I should suffocate. Everything about this house is so demure, 
 and silent, and solemn, and Quakerish, and hatefully prim. If 
 ever I have a house of my own, I mean to paste in great letters 
 over the doors and windows, 'Laughing and talking freely 
 allowed P This is my birthday, and I think I might stay at 
 home. Mother, don't forget to have the ends of my sash 
 fringed, and the tops of my gloves trimmed." Draining her 
 small china cup, she sprang up from the table, but paused beside 
 Beulah. 
 
 " By the by, what are you going to wear to-night, Beulah ?" 
 
 " I shall not go into the parlors at all," answered the latter. 
 
 " Why not ?" said Dr. Hartwell, looking suddenly up. He 
 met the sad, suffering expression of the grey eyes, and bit his 
 lip with vexation. She saw that he understood her feelings, and 
 made no reply. 
 
 " I shall not like it, if you don't come to my party," said 
 Pauline, slowly ; and as she spoke she took one of the orphan's 
 hands. 
 
 "You are very kind, Pauline, but I do not wish to see 
 strangers." 
 
 " But, you never will know anybody if you make such a nun 
 of yourself. Uncle Guy, tell her she must come down into the 
 parlors to-night." 
 
 " Not unless she wishes to do so. But, Pauline, I am very 
 
88 BEULAH. 
 
 glad tha you have shown her you desire her presence." He 
 put his hand on her curly head, and looked with more than 
 usual affection, at the bright, honest face. 
 
 " Beulah, you must get ready for school. Come down as soon 
 as you can. Pauline will be waiting for you." Mrs. Chilton 
 spoke in the calm, sweet tone peculiar to her and her brother, 
 but to Beulah there was something repulsive in that even voice, 
 and she hurried from the sound of it. Kneeling beside her bed, 
 she again implored the Father to restore Eugene to her, and 
 crushing her grief and apprehension down into her heart, she 
 resolved to veil it from strangers. As she walked on by Pau- 
 line's side, only the excessive paleness of her face, and drooping 
 of her eyelashes betokened her suffering. 
 
 Entering school is always a disagreeable ordeal, and to a sen- 
 sitive nature, such as Beulah's, it was torturing. Madam St. 
 Cyinon was a good-natured, kind, little body, and received her 
 with a warmth and cordiality which made amends in some degree 
 for the battery of eyes she was forced to encounter. 
 
 " Ah, yes I the doctor called to see me about you wants 
 you to take the Latin course. For the present, my dear, you 
 will sit with Miss Sanders. Clara, take this young lady with 
 you." 
 
 The girl addressed looked at least sixteen years of age, and 
 rising promptly she came forward and led Beulah to a seat at her 
 desk, which was constructed for two persons. The touch of her 
 fingers sent a thrill through Beulah's frame, aad she looked at 
 her very earnestly. 
 
 Clara Sanders was not a beauty in the ordinary acceptation 
 of the term, but there was an expression of angelic sweetness 
 and purity in her countenance which fascinated the orphan. 
 She remarked the scrutiny of the young stranger, and smiling 
 good-humoredly said, as she leaned over and arranged the 
 desk : 
 
 " I am glad to have you with me, and dare say we shall get 
 on very nicely together. You look ill." 
 
BEULAH. 89 
 
 " I have been ill recently and have not yet regained my 
 strength. Can you tell me where I can find some water ? I feel 
 rather faint." 
 
 Her companion brought her a glass of water. She drank it 
 eagerly, and as Clara resumed her seat, said in a low voice : 
 
 " Oh, thank you. You are very kind." 
 
 " Not at all. If you feel worse you must let me know." She 
 turned to her books and soon forgot the presence of the new 
 comer. 
 
 The latter watched her, and noticed now that she was dressed 
 in deep mourning ; was she too an orphan, and had this circum- 
 stance rendered her so kindly sympathetic ? The sweet, gentle 
 face, with its soft, brown eyes, chained her attention, and in the 
 shaping of the mouth there was something very like Lilly's. 
 Soon Clara left her for recitation, and then she turned to the 
 new books which madam had sent to her desk. Thus passed 
 the morning, and she started when the recess bell rang its 
 summons through the long room. Bustle, chatter, and con- 
 fusion ensued. Pauline called to her to come into lunch- 
 room, and touched her little basket as she spoke, but Beulah 
 shook her head and kept her seat. Clara also remained. 
 
 " Pauline is calling you," said she gently. 
 
 41 Yes, I hear ; but I do not want anything." And Beulah 
 rested her head on her hands. 
 
 11 Don't you feel better than you did this morning ?" 
 
 " Oh, I am well enough in body ; a little weak, that is all." 
 
 " You look quite tired ; suppose you lean your head against 
 me and take a short nap ?" 
 
 " You are very good indeed, but I am not at all sleepy." 
 
 Clara was engaged in drawing, and looking on, Beulah be- 
 came interested in the progress of the sketch. Suddenly a hand 
 was placed over the paper, and a tall, handsome girl, with black 
 eyes and sallow complexion, exclaimed sharply : 
 
 "For heaven's sake, Clara Sanders, do you expect to swim 
 into the next world on a piece of drawing-paper ? Come over to 
 
90 BETTLAH. 
 
 my seat and work out that eighth problem for me. I have puz- 
 zled over it all the morning, and can't get it right." 
 
 11 1 can show you here quite as well." Taking out her Euclid, 
 she found and explained the obstinate problem. 
 
 " Thank you. I cannot endure mathematics, but father is 
 bent upon my being ' thorough/ as he calls it. I think it is all 
 thorough nonsense. Now with you it is very different, you 
 expect to be a teacher, and of course will have to acquire all 
 these branches ; but for my part I see no use in it. I shall be 
 rejoiced when this dull school- work is over." 
 
 " Don't say that, Cornelia, I think our school-days are the 
 happiest, and feel sad when I remember that mine are num- 
 bered." 
 
 Here the bell announced recess over, and Cornelia moved 
 away to her seat. A trembling hand sought Clara's arm. 
 
 " Is that Cornelia Graham ?" 
 
 " Yes ; is she not very handsome ?" 
 
 Beulah made no answer, she only remembered that this girl 
 was Eugene's adopted sister, and looking after the tall, queenly 
 form, she longed to follow her, and ask all the particulars of the 
 storm. Thus ended the first dreaded day at school, and on 
 reaching home, Beulah threw herself on her bed with a low 
 wailing cry. The long pent sorrow must have vent, and she 
 sobbed until weariness sank her into a heavy sleep. 
 
 Far out in a billowy sea, strewed with wrecks, and hideous 
 with the ghastly, upturned faces of floating corpses, she and 
 Eugene were drifting now clinging to each other now tossed 
 asunder by howling waves. Then came a glimmering sail on the 
 wide waste of waters ; a little boat neared them, and Lilly 
 leaned over the side and held out tiny, dimpled hands to lift them 
 in. They were climbing out of their watery graves, and Lilly's 
 long, fair curls already touched their cheeks, when a strong arm 
 snatched Lilly back, and struck them down into the roaring 
 gulf, and above the white faces of the drifting dead, stood Mrs. 
 Gray son, sailing away with Lilly struggling in her arms. 
 
BEULAH. 91 
 
 Eugene was sinking and Beulah could not reach him ; he held 
 up his arms imploringly toward her, and called upon her to 
 save him, and then his head with its wealth of silken, brown 
 locks disappeared. She ceased to struggle ; she welcomed 
 drowning now that he had gone to rest among coral temples. 
 She sank down down. The rigid corpses were no longer visi- 
 ble. She was in an emerald palace, and myriads of rosy shells 
 paved the floors. At last she found Eugene reposing on a coral 
 bank, and playing with pearls ; she hastened to join him, and 
 was just taking his hand when a horrible phantom, seizing him 
 in its arms, bore him away, and looking in its face she saw that 
 it was Mrs. Chilton. With a wild scream of terror, Beulah awoke. 
 She was lying across the foot of the bed, and both hands were 
 thrown up, grasping the post convulsively. The room was dark, 
 save where the moonlight crept through the curtains and fell 
 slantingly on the picture of Hope and the Pilgrims, and by that 
 dim light she saw a tall form standing near her. 
 
 " Were you dreaming, Beulah, that you shrieked so wildly ?" 
 The doctor lifted her up, and leaned her head against his 
 
 shoulder. 
 
 i 
 
 " Oh, Dr. Hartwell I I have had a horrible, horrible dream." 
 She shuddered, and clung to him tightly, as if dreading it might 
 still prove a reality. 
 
 " Poor child. Come with me, and I will try to exorcise this 
 evil spirit which haunts even your slumbers." 
 
 Keeping her hand in his, he led her down to his study, and 
 seated her on a couch drawn near the window. The confused 
 sound of many voices, and the tread of dancing feet, keeping 
 time to a band of music, came indistinctly from the parlors. Dr. 
 Hartwell closed the door, to shut out the unwelcome sounds, and 
 seating himself before the melodeon, poured a flood of soothing, 
 plaintive melody upon the air. Beulah sat entranced, while he 
 played on and on, as if unconscious of her presence. Her whole 
 being was inexpressibly thrilled ; and, forgetting her frightful 
 vision, her enraptured soul hovered on the very confines of fabled 
 
92 BEULAH. 
 
 elysium. Sliding from the couch, upon her knees, she remained 
 with her clasped hands pressed over her heart, only conscious of 
 her trembling delight. Once or twice before, she had felt thus, 
 in watching a gorgeous sunset in the old pine grove ; and now, 
 as the musician seemed to play upon her heart-strings, calling 
 thence unearthly tones, the tears rolled swiftly over her face. 
 Images of divine beauty filled her soul, and nobler aspirations 
 than she had ever known, took possession of her. Soon the tears 
 ceased, the face became calm, singularly calm ; then lighted 
 with an expression which nothing earthly could have kindled. It 
 was the look of one, whose spirit, escaping from gross bondage, 
 soared into realms divine, and proclaimed itself God-born. Dr. 
 Hartwell was watching her countenance, and, as the expres- 
 sion of indescribable joy and triumph flashed over it, he involun- 
 tarily paused. She waited till the last deep echoing tone died 
 away, and then approaching him, as he still sat before the 
 instrument, she laid her hand on his knee, and said slowly : 
 
 " Oh I thank you, I can bear anything now." 
 
 " Can you explain to me how the music strengthened you ? 
 Try, will^you ?" 
 
 She mused for some moments, and answered thoughtfully : 
 
 " First, it made me forget the pain of my dream ; then it 
 caused me to think of the wonderful power which created music ; 
 and then, from remembering the infinite love and wisdom of the 
 Creator, who has given man the power to call out this music, I 
 thought how very noble man was, and what he was capable of 
 doing ; and, at last, I was glad because God has given me some 
 of these powers ; and, though I am ugly, and have been afflicted 
 in losing my dear loved ones, yet I was made for God's glory in 
 some way, and am yet to be shown the work he has laid out for 
 me to do. Oh ! sir, I can't explain it all to you, but I do know 
 that God will prove to me that " He doet/i all things well." 
 
 She looked gravely up into the face beside her, and sought to 
 read its baffling characters. He had leaned his elbow on the 
 melodeon, and his wax-like fingers were thrust through his hair 
 
BET7LAH. 93 
 
 His brow was smooth, and his mouth at rest, but the dark eyes, 
 with their melancholy splendor, looked down at her moodily. 
 They met her gaze steadily, and then she saw into the misty 
 depths, and a shudder crept over her, as she fell on her knees, 
 and said, shiveringly : 
 " " Oh, sir, can it be ?" 
 
 He put his hand on her head, and asked, quietly : 
 
 " Can what be, child I" 
 
 " Have you no God ?" 
 
 His face grew whiter than was his wont. A scowl of bitter- 
 ness settled on it, and the eyes burned with an almost unearthly 
 brilliance, as he rose and walked away. For some time he stood 
 before the window, with his arms folded ; and, laying her head 
 on the stool of the melodeon, Beulah knelt just as he left her. 
 It has been said, " who can refute a sneer ?" Rather ask, who 
 can compute its ruinous effects. To that kneeling figure came 
 the thought, "if he, surrounded by wealth, and friends, and 
 blessings, cannot believe in God, what cause have I, poor, 
 wretched and lonely, to have faith in Him ?" The bare sugges- 
 tion of the doubt stamped it on her memory, yet she shrank with 
 horror from the idea, and an eager, voiceless prayer ascended 
 from her heart, that she might be shielded from such temptations 
 in future. Dr. Hartwell touched her, and said, in his usual 
 low, musical tones : 
 
 "It is time you were asleep. Do not indulge in any more 
 horrible dreams, if you please. Good night, Beulah. Whenever 
 you feel that you would like to have some music, do not hesitate 
 to ask me for it." 
 
 He held open the door for her to pass out. She longed to ask 
 him what he lived for, if eternity had no joys for him ; but, 
 looking in his pale face, she saw from the lips and eyes that he 
 would not suffer any questioning, and, awed by the expression of 
 his countenance, she said " good night," and hurried away. The 
 merry hum of childish voices again fell on her ear, and as she 
 ascended the steps, a bevy of white-clad girls emerged from a 
 
94 B E T7 L A H . 
 
 room near, and walked on just below her. Pauline's party was 
 at its height. Beulah looked down on the fairy gossamer robes, 
 and gayly tripping girls, and then hastened to her own room, 
 while the thought presented itself : 
 
 " Why are things divided so unequally in this world ? Why 
 do some have all of joy, and some only sorrow's brimming cup to 
 drain?" But the sweet voice of Faith answered, " What I do, 
 thaw knowest not now, but thou shalt know hereafter," and, trusting 
 the promise, she was content to wait. 
 
 CHAPTER X. 
 
 " CORNELIA GRAHAM, I want to know why you did not come to 
 my party ? You might at least have honored me with an 
 excuse." Such was Pauline's salutation, the following day, when 
 the girls gathered in groups about the schoolroom. 
 
 "Why, Pauline, I did send an excuse, but it was addressed 
 to your mother, and probably she forgot to mention it. You 
 must acquit me of any such rudeness." 
 
 " Well, but why didn't you come ? We had a glorious time. 
 I have half a mind not to tell you what I heard said of you, 
 but I believe you may have it second-hand. Fred Vincent was 
 as grum as a preacher, all the evening, and when I asked him 
 what on earth made him so surly and owlish, he said, ' it was 
 too provoking you would not come, for no one else could dance 
 the Schottisch to his liking.' Now there was a sweet specimen 
 of manners for you ! You had better teach your beau politeness." 
 
 Cornelia was leaning listlessly against Clara's desk, and 
 Beulah fancied she looked very sad, and abstracted. She 
 colored at the jest, and answered contemptuously : 
 
 " He is no beau of mine, let me tell you, and as for manners, 
 I commend him to your merciful tuition." 
 
BEULAH. 95 
 
 " But what was your excuse ?" persisted Pauline. 
 
 " I should think you might conjecture, that I felt no inclina- 
 tion to go to parties and dance, when you know that we are all 
 so anxious about my brother." 
 
 " Oh, I did not think of that I" cried the heedless girl, and 
 quite as heedlessly she continued : 
 
 " I want to see that brother of yours. Uncle Guy says he 
 is the handsomest boy in the city, and promises to make some- 
 thing extraordinary. Is he so very handsome ?" 
 
 " Yes," the proud lip trembled. 
 
 " I heard Anne Yernon say, she liked him better than all her 
 other beaux, and that is great praise, coming from her queen- 
 ship," said Emily Wood, who stood near. 
 
 Cornelia's eyes dilated angrily, as she answered with curling 
 lips : 
 
 11 Eugene one of her beaux 1 It is no such thing." 
 
 " You need not look so insulted. I suppose if the matter is 
 such a delicate one with you, Anne will withdraw her claim," 
 sneered Emily, happy in the opportunity afforded of wounding 
 the haughty spirit, whom all feared, and few sympathized with. 
 
 Cornelia was about to retort, but madam's voice prevented, as 
 leaning from the platform opposite, she held out a note, and 
 said, 
 
 " Miss Graham, a servant has just brought this for you." 
 
 The girl's face flushed and paled alternately, as she received 
 the note, and broke the seal with trembling fingers. Glancing 
 over the contents, her countenance became irradiated, and she 
 exclaimed joyfully : 
 
 " Good news ! the Morning Star has arrived at Amsterdam. 
 Eugene is safe in Germany." 
 
 Beulah's head went down on her desk, and just audible were 
 the words, 
 
 " My Father in Heaven, I thank thee I" 
 
 Only Clara and Cornelia heard the broken accents, and they 
 looked curiously at the bowed figure, quivering with joy. 
 
96 BEULAH. 
 
 " Ah ! I understand ; this is the Asylum, Beulah, I have often, 
 heard him speak of. I had almost forgotten the circumstance. 
 You knew him very well, I suppose ?" said Cornelia, addressing 
 herself to the orphan, and crumpling the note between her 
 fingers, while her eyes ran with haughty scrutiny over the dress 
 and features before her. 
 
 " Yes, I knew him very well." Beulah felt the blood come 
 into her cheeks, and she ill-brooked the cold, searching look bent 
 upon her. 
 
 " You are the same girl that he asked my father to send to 
 the public school. How came you here ?" 
 
 A pair of dark grey eyes met Cornelia's gaze, and seemed 
 to answer defiantly, " What is it to you ?" 
 
 " Has Dr Hartwell adopted you ? Pauline said so, but she 
 is so heedless, that I scarcely believed her, particularly when it 
 seemed so very improbable." 
 
 " Hush, Cornelia ! Why, you need Pauline's tuition about as 
 much as Fred Vincent, I am disposed to think. Don't be so 
 inquisitive, it pains her," remonstrated Clara, laying her arm 
 around Beulah's shoulder as she spoke. 
 
 " Nonsense ! She is not so fastidious, I will warrant. At 
 least, she might answer civil questions." 
 
 " I always do," said Beulah. 
 
 Cornelia smiled derisively, and turned off, with the parting 
 taunt : 
 
 " It is a mystery to me what Eugene can see in such a 
 homely, unpolished specimen. He pities her, I suppose." 
 
 Clara felt a long shiver creep over the slight form, and saw 
 the ashen hue that settled on her face, as if some painful wound 
 had been inflicted. Stooping down, she whispered : 
 
 " Don't let it trouble you. Cornelia is hasty, but she is 
 generous, too. and will repent her rudeness. She did not intend 
 to pain you ; it is only her abrupt way of expressing herself." 
 
 Beulah raised her head, and putting back the locks of hair 
 that had fallen over her brow, replied coldly: 
 
B E U L A H . 97 
 
 " It is nothing new ; I am accustomed to such treatment. 
 Only professing to love Eugene, I did not expect her to insult 
 one, whom he had commissioned her to assist, or at least sympa- 
 thize with." 
 
 " Remember, Beulah, she is an only child, and her father's 
 idol, and perhaps " 
 
 " The very blessings that surround her should teach her to 
 feel for the unfortunate and unprotected," interrupted the 
 orphan. 
 
 "You will find that prosperity rarely has such an effect upon 
 the heart of its favorite/ 7 answered Clara, musingly. 
 
 "An unnecessary piece of information. I discovered that 
 pleasant truth some time since," said Beulah, bitterly. 
 
 " I don't know, Beulah ; you are an instance to the contrary. 
 Do not call yourself unfortunate, so long as Doctor Hartwell 
 is your friend. Ah I you little dream how blessed you are." 
 
 Her voice took the deep tone of intense feeling, and a faint 
 glow tinged her cheek. 
 
 " Yes, he is very kind, very good," replied the other, more 
 gently. 
 
 " Kind ! good I is that all you can say of him ?" The soft 
 brown eyes kindled with unwonted enthusiasm. 
 
 " What more can I say of him, than that he is good ?" 
 returned the orphan, eagerly, while the conversation in the study, 
 the preceding day, rushed to her recollection. 
 
 Clara looked at her earnestly for a moment, and then averting 
 her head, answered evasively. 
 
 " Pardon me ; I have no right to dictate the terms in which 
 you should mention your benefactor." Beulah's intuitions were 
 remarkably quick, and she asked, slowly : 
 
 "Do you know him well ?" 
 
 " Yes ; oh, yes I very well indeed. Why do you ask ?" 
 
 " And you like him very much ?" 
 
 "Very much." 
 
 She saw the gentle face now, and saw that some sorrow had 
 
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98 BEULAH. 
 
 called tears to the eyes, and sent the blood coldly back to her 
 heart. 
 
 " No one can like him as I do. You don't know how very 
 kind he has been to me me, the miserable, lonely orphan," 
 murmured Beulah, as his smile and tones recurred to her. 
 
 "Yes, I can imagine, because I know his noble heart ; and, 
 therefore, child, I say you cannot realize how privileged you 
 are." 
 
 The discussion was cut short by a call to recitation, and too 
 calmly happy in the knowledge of Eugene's safety, to ponder her 
 companion's manner, Beulah sank into a reverie, in which Eugene, 
 and Heidelberg, and long letters, mingled pleasingly. Later in 
 the day, as she and Pauline were descending the steps, the door 
 of the primary department of the school opened, and a little 
 girl, clad in deep black, started up the same flight of steps. 
 Seeing the two above, she leaned against the wall, waiting f6r 
 them to pass. Beulah stood still, and the sachel she carried fell 
 unheeded from her hand, while a thrilling cry broke from the 
 little girl's lips ; and springing up the steps, she threw herself 
 into Beulah's arms. 
 
 " Dear Beulah I I have found you at last !" She covered the 
 thin face with passionate kisses ; then heavy sobs escaped her, 
 and the two wept bitterly together. 
 
 " Beulah, I did love her very much ; I did not forget what I 
 promised you. She used to put her arms around my neck every 
 night, and go to sleep close to me ; and whenever she thought 
 about you and cried, she always put her head in my lap. Indeed 
 I did love her." 
 
 " I believe you, Claudy," poor Beulah groaned, in her anguish. 
 
 " They did not tell me she was dead ; they said she was sick 
 in another room ! Oh, Beulah ! why didn't you come to see 
 us ? Why didn't you come ? When she was first taken sick, 
 she called for you all the time ; and the evening they moved me 
 into the next room, she was asking for you. ' I want my sister 
 Beulah 1 I want my Beulah !' was the last thing I heard her 
 
BETJLAH. 99 
 
 say; and when I cried for you, too, mamma said we were both 
 crazy with fever. Oh 1" she paused and sobbed convulsively. 
 Beulah raised her head, and while the tears dried in her flashing 
 eyes, said fiercely : 
 
 " Claudy, I did go to see you I On my knees, at Mrs. Gray- 
 sou's front door, I prayed her to let me see you. She refused, 
 and ordered me to come there no more I She would not suffer 
 my sister to know that I was waiting there on my knees to see 
 her dear, angel face. That was long before you were taken sick. 
 She did not even send me word that Lilly was ill ; I knew 
 nothing of it, till my darling was cold in her little shroud I Oh, 
 Claudy ! Claudy !" 
 
 She covered her face with her hands and tried to stifle the 
 wail that crossed her lips. Claudia endeavored to soothe her, by 
 winding her arms about her and kissing her repeatedly. Pauline 
 had looked wonderingly on, during this painful reunion ; and 
 now drawing nearer, she said, with more gentleness than was 
 her custom : 
 
 " Don't grieve so, Beulah. Wipe your eyes and come home ; 
 those girls yonder are staring at you." 
 
 "What business is it of yours?" began Claudia; but Beulah's 
 sensitive nature shrank from observation, and rising hastily, she 
 took Claudia to her bosom, kissed her and turned away. 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! shan't I see you again ?" cried the latter, with 
 streaming eyes. 
 
 " Claudia, your mamma would not be willing." 
 
 " I don't care what she thinks. Please, come to see me 
 please, do ! Beulah, you don't love me now, because Lilly is 
 dead ! Oh, I could not keep her God took her 1" 
 
 "Yes, I do love you, Claudy more than ever ; but you must 
 come to see me. I cannot go to that house again. I can't see 
 your mamma Grayson. Come and see me, darling !" 
 
 She drew her bonnet over her face and hurried out. 
 
 " Where do you live ? I will come and see you I" cried Claudia, 
 running after the retreating form. 
 
100 BEULAH. 
 
 " She lives at Doctor Hartwell's that large, brick house, out 
 on the edge of town ; everybody knows the place." 
 
 Pauline turned back to give this piece of information, and 
 then hastened on to join Beulah. She longed to inquire into all 
 the particulars of the orphan's early life ; but the pale, fixed 
 face gave no encouragement to question, and they walked on in 
 perfec-t silence until they reached the gate at the end of the 
 avenue. Then Pauline asked, energetically: 
 
 " Is that little one any kin to you ?" 
 
 " No ; I have no kin in this world," answered Beulah, 
 drearily. 
 
 Pauline shrugged her shoulders, and made no further attempt 
 to elicit confidence. On entering the house, they encountered 
 the doctor, who was crossing the hall. He stopped, and 
 said : 
 
 "I have glad tidings for you, Beulah. The Morning Star 
 arrived safely at Amsterdam, and by this time, Eugene is at 
 Heidelberg." 
 
 Beulah stood very near him, and answered tremblingly : 
 
 " Yes, sir, I heard it at school." 
 
 He perceived that something was amiss, and untying her bon- 
 net, looked searchingly at the sorrow-stained face. She shut her 
 eyes, and leaned hen head against him. 
 
 " What is the matter, my child ? I thought you would be 
 very happy in hearing of Eugene's safety." 
 
 She was unable to reply just then ; and Pauline, who stood 
 swinging her sachel to and fro, volunteered an explanation. 
 
 " Uncle Guy, she is curious, that is all. As we were leaving 
 school, she met a little girl on the steps, and they flew at each 
 other, and cried, and kissed, and you never saw anything like 
 it 1 I thought the child must be a very dear relation ; but she 
 says she has no kin. I don't see the use of crying her eyes out, 
 particularly when the little one is nothing to her." 
 
 Her uncle's countenance resumed its habitual severity, and 
 taking Beulah's hand, he led her into that quietest of all quiet 
 
BEULAIF. 101 
 
 places, his study. Seating himself, and drawing her to his side, 
 he said: ,' * , , 
 
 " Was it meeting Claudia that distressed 'you; fa Jnupli ? TFhdt' 
 child is very warmly attached to you! 'S)\e raved, about; you 
 constantly during her illness. So did Llfly.""' 1> dtcVimt 1 iiti6eT> 
 stand the relationship then, or I should have interfered, and 
 carried you to her. I called to see Mr. and Mrs. Grayson last 
 week, to remove the difficulties in the way of your intercourse 
 with Claudia, but they were not at home. I will arrange mat- 
 ters so that you may be with Claudia as often as possible. You 
 have been wronged, child, I know; but try to bury it; it is all 
 past now." He softly smoothed back her hair as he spoke. 
 
 "No, sir; it never will be past; it will always be burning 
 here in my heart." 
 
 " I thought you professed to believe in the Bible." 
 
 She looked up instantly, and answered: 
 
 " I do, sir. I do." 
 
 " Then your belief is perfectly worthless; for the Bible charges 
 you to ' forgive and love your enemies/ and here you are trying 
 to fan your hate into an everlasting flame." 
 
 She saw the scornful curl of his lips, and sinking down beside 
 him, she laid her head on his knee, and said hastily: 
 
 "I know it is wrong, sinful, to feel toward Mrs. Grayson as I 
 do. Yes, sir; the Bible tells me it is ve'ry sinful; but I have 
 been so miserable, I could not help hating her. But I will try 
 to do so no more. I will ask God to help me forgive her." His 
 face flushed even to his temples, and then the blood receded, 
 leaving it like sculptured marble. Unable or unwilling to answer, 
 he put his hands on her head, softly, reverently, as though he 
 touched something ethereal. He little dreamed that, even then, 
 that suffering heart was uplifted to the Throne of Grace, pray- 
 ing the Father that she might so live and govern herself, that 
 he, might come to believe the Bible, which her clear insight too 
 surely told her he despised. 
 
 Oh! protean temptation. Even as she knelt, with her pro- 
 
102 BEULAH. 
 
 tector's hands resting on her brow, ubiquitous evil suggested the 
 thought: " Is he not kinder, and better, than any one you ever 
 ' kn^w ? r *Qa$ i}6% ?Mrs. Grayson a pew in the most fashionable 
 ' cHurch f Did not, Eugene tell you he saw her there, regularly, 
 ',&fry' Sunday I , '.Professing Christianity, she injured you; reject- 
 ing it, he has guarded and most generously aided you. ' By their 
 fruits ye shall judge.' " Very dimly all this passed through her 
 mind. She was perplexed and troubled at the confused ideas 
 veiling her trust. 
 
 " Beulah, I have an engagement, and must leave you. Stay 
 here if you like, or do as you please with yourself. I shall not 
 be home to tea, so good night." She looked pained, but 
 remained silent. He smiled, and drawing out his watch, said 
 gaily: 
 
 " I verily believe you miss me when I leave you. Go, put on 
 your other bonnet, and come down to the front door; I have 
 nearly an hour yet, I see, and will give you a short ride. Hurry, 
 child; I don't like to wait." 
 
 She was soon seated beside him in the buggy, and Mazeppa's 
 swift feet had borne them some distance from home ere either 
 spoke. The road ran near the bay, and while elegant residences 
 lined one side, the other was bounded by a wide expanse of 
 water, rippling, sparkling, glowing in the evening sunlight. 
 Small sail boats, with their gleaming canvas, dotted the blue 
 bosom of the bay; and the balmy breeze, fresh from the gulf, 
 fluttered the bright pennons that floated from their masts. 
 Beulah was watching the snowy wall of foam, piled on either 
 side of the prow of a schooner, and thinking how very beautiful 
 it was, when the buggy stopped suddenly, and Dr. Hart well 
 addressed a gentleman on horseback: 
 
 " Percy, you may expect me; I am coming as I promised." 
 
 " I was about to remind you of your engagement. But, Guy, 
 whom have you there ?" 
 
 " My protegee I told you of. Beulah, this is Mr. Lockhart." 
 The rider reined his horse near her side, and leaning forward as 
 
BETTLAH. 103 
 
 he raised his hat, their eyes met. Both started visibly, and 
 extending his hand, Mr. Lockhart said eagerly: 
 
 " Ah, my little forest friend! I am truly glad to find you again." 
 
 She shook hands very quietly, but an expression of pleasure 
 stole over her face. Her guardian observed it, and asked: 
 
 " Pray, Percy, what do you know of her ?" 
 
 " That she sings very charmingly," answered his friend, smil- 
 ing at Beulah. 
 
 " He saw me once when I was at the Asylum," said she. 
 
 " And was singing part of the regime there ?" 
 
 "No, Guy; she was wandering about the piney woods, near 
 the Asylum, with two beautiful elves, when I chanced to meet 
 her. She was singing at the time. Beulah, I am glad to find 
 you out again; and in future, when I pay the doctor long visits, 
 I shall expect you to appear for my entertainment. Look to it, 
 Guy, that she is present. But I am fatigued with my unusual 
 exercise, and must return home. Good bye, Beulah; shake 
 hands. I am going immediately to my room, Guy; so come as 
 soon as you can." He rode slowly on, while Dr. Hartwell shook 
 the reins, and Mazeppa sprang down the road again. Beulah 
 had remarked a great alteration in Mr. Lockhart's appearance ; 
 he was much paler, and bore traces of recent and severe illness. 
 His genial manner and friendly words had interested her, and 
 looking up at her guardian, she said, timidly: 
 
 " Is he ill, sir ?" 
 
 " He has been, and is yet quite feeble. Do you like him ?" 
 
 " I know nothing of him, except that he spoke to me one 
 evening some months ago. Does he live here, sir ?" 
 
 "No; he has a plantation on the river, but is here on a visit 
 occasionally. Much of his life has been spent in Europe, and 
 thither he goes again very soon." 
 
 The sun had set. The bay seemed a vast sheet of fire, as the 
 crimson clouds cast their shifting shadows on its bosom; and 
 forgetting everything else, Beulah leaned out of the buggy, and 
 said almost unconsciously: 
 
104 BEULAH. 
 
 . "How beautiful! how very beautiful!" Her lips were parted; 
 her eyes clear, and sparkling with delight. Dr. Hartwell sighed, 
 and turning from the bay road, approached his home. Beulah 
 longed to speak to him of what was pressing on her heart, but 
 glancing at his countenance to see whether it was an auspicious 
 time, she was deterred by the sombre sternness which over- 
 shadowed it, and before she could summon courage to speak, 
 they stopped at the front gate: 
 
 " Jump out, and go home; I have not time to drive in." 
 
 She got out of the buggy, and looking up at him as he rose 
 to adjust some part of the harness, said bravely: 
 
 " I am very much obliged to you for my ride. I have not 
 had such a pleasure for years. I thank you very much." 
 
 "All very unnecessary, child. I am glad you enjoyed it." 
 
 He seated himself, and gathered up the reins, without looking 
 at her; but she put her hand on the top of the wheel, and said 
 in an apologetic tone: 
 
 " Excuse me, sir ; but may I wait in your study till you come 
 home ? I want to ask you something." Her face flushed, and 
 her voice trembled with embarrassment. 
 
 " It may be late before I come home to-night. Can't you tell 
 me now what you want ? I can wait." 
 
 " Thank you, sir; to-morrow will do as well, I suppose. I will 
 not detain you." She opened the gate and entered the yard. 
 Dr. Hartwell looked after her an instant, and called out, as he 
 drove on : 
 
 " Do as you like, Beulah, about waiting for me ; of course the 
 study is free to you at all times." 
 
 The walk, or rather carriage-road, leading up to the house was 
 bordered by stately poplars and cedars, whose branches inter- 
 laced overhead, and formed a perfect arch. Beulah looked up 
 at the dark-green depths among the cedars, and walked on with 
 a feeling of contentment, nay, almost of happiness, which was a 
 stranger to her heart. In front of the house, and in the centre 
 of a grassy circle, was a marble basin, from which a fountain 
 
BEULAH. 105 
 
 ascended. She sat down on the edge of the reservoir, and taking 
 off her bonnet, gave unrestrained license to her wandering 
 thoughts. Wherever her eyes turned, verdure, flowers, statuary 
 met her gaze ; the air was laden with the spicy fragrance of 
 jasmins, and the low, musical babble of the fountain had some- 
 thing very soothing in its sound. With her keen appreciation of 
 beauty, there was nothing needed to enhance her enjoyment ; 
 and she ceased to remember her sorrows. Before long, however, 
 she was startled by the sight of several elegantly dressed ladies, 
 emerging from the house ; at the same instant a handsome car- 
 riage, which she had not previously observed, drove from a turn 
 in the walk and drew up to the door to receive them. Mrs. 
 Chilton stood on the steps, exchanging smiles and polite nothings, 
 and as one of the party requested permission to break a sprig of 
 geranium growing near, she gracefully offered to collect a 
 bouquet, adding, as she severed some elegant clusters of helio- 
 trope and jasmin : 
 
 " Guy takes inordinate pride in his parterre, arranges and 
 overlooks all the flowers himself. I often tell him I am jealous 
 of my beautiful rivals ; they monopolize his leisure so completely." 
 
 " Nonsense ! we know to our cost, that you of all others need 
 fear rivalry from no quarter. There : don't break any more. 
 What superb taste the doctor has ! This lovely spot comes 
 nearer my ideal of European elegance than any place I know at 
 the South. I suppose the fascination of his home makes him 
 such a recluse ! Why doesn't he visit more ? He neglects us 
 shamefully 1 He is such a favorite in society too ; only I believe 
 everybody is rather afraid of him. I shall make a most desperate 
 effort to charm him, so soon as an opportunity offers. Don't tell 
 him I said so, though, ' fore-warned, fore-armed/ " All this was 
 very volubly uttered by a dashing, showy young lady, dressed 
 in the extreme of fashion, and bearing unmistakable marks 
 of belonging to beau monde. She extended a hand cased in white 
 kid, for the flowers, and looked steadily at the lady of the house 
 as she spoke. 
 
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106 BETJLAH. 
 
 " I shall not betray your designs, Miss Julia. Guy is a great 
 lover of the beautiful, and I am not aware that anywhere in the 
 book of fate is written the decree that he shall not rnarry again. 
 Take care, you are tearing your lace point on that rose-bush ; 
 let me disengage it." She stooped to rescue the cobweb wrap- 
 ping, and looking about her, Miss Julia exclaimed : 
 
 "Is that you, Pauline ? Come and kiss me I Why, you look 
 as unsociable as your uncle, sitting there all alone I" 
 
 She extended her hand toward Beulah, who, as may be sup- 
 posed, made no attempt to approach her. Mrs. Chilton smiled, 
 and clasping the bracelet on her arm, discovered to her visitor 
 the mistake. 
 
 " Pauline is not at home. That is a little beggarly orphan 
 Guy took it into his head to feed and clothe, till some opportu- 
 nity offered of placing her in a respectable home. I have teased 
 him unmercifully about this display of taste ; asked him what 
 rank he assigned her in his catalogue of beautiful treasures.' 1 
 She laughed as if much amused. 
 
 " Oh, that reminds me that I heard some of the school-girls 
 say that the doctor had adopted an orphan. I thought I would 
 ask you about it. Mother here declared that she knew it could 
 not be so, but I told her he was so very odd, there was no ac- 
 counting for his notions. So he has not adopted her." 
 
 " Pshaw 1 of course not I She was a wretched little object of 
 charity, and Guy brought her here to keep her from starving. 
 He picked her up at the hospital, I believe." 
 
 " I knew it must be a mistake. Come, Julia, remember you 
 are going out to-night, and it is quite late. Do come very soon, 
 my dear Mrs. Chilton." Mrs. Vincent, Miss Julia, and their 
 companions entered the carriage, and were soon out of sight. 
 Beulah still sat at the fountain. She would gladly have retreated 
 on the appearance of the strangers, but could not effect an escape 
 without attracting the attention she so earnestly desired to be 
 spared, and therefore kept her seat. Every word of the conver- 
 sation, which had been carried on in anything but a subdued 
 
BEULAH. 107 
 
 tone, reached her, and though the head was unbowed as if she 
 had heard nothing, her face was dyed with shame. Her heart 
 throbbed violently, and as the words, " beggarly orphan," ' 
 " wretched object of charity," fell on her ears, it seemed as if a 
 fierce fire-bath had received her. As the carriage disappeared, 
 Mrs. Chilton approached her, and stung to desperation by the 
 merciless taunts, she instantly rose and confronted her. Never 
 had she seen the widow look so beautiful, and for a moment 
 they eyed each other. 
 
 " What are you doing here, after having been told to keep 
 out of sight ? answer me 1" She spoke with the inflexible 
 sternness of a mistress to an offending servant. 
 
 " Madam, I am not the miserable beggar you represented me 
 a moment since ; nor will I answer questions addressed in any 
 such tone of authority and contempt." 
 
 " Indeed ! well, then, my angelic martyr, how do you propose 
 to help yourself?" answered Mrs. Chilton, laughing, with undis- 
 guised scorn. 
 
 " Doctor Hartwell brought me to his house, of his own 
 accord ; you know that I was scarcely conscious when I came 
 into it. He has been very kind to me has offered to adopt me 
 This you know perfectly well. But I am not in danger of starva- 
 tion, away from this house. You know that instead of having 
 been picked up at the hospital, I was earning my living, humble 
 though it was, as a servant. He offered to adopt me, because 
 he saw that I was very unhappy ; not because I needed food, or 
 clothes, as you asserted just now, and as you knew was untrue. 
 Madam, I have known, ever since my recovery, that you hated 
 me, and I scorn to accept bounty, nay, even a shelter, where 
 I am so unwelcome. I have never dreamed of occupying 
 the place you covet for Pauline. I intended to accept Doctor 
 Hartwell's kindness, so far as receiving an education, which 
 would enable me to support myself less laboriously ; but, 
 madam, I will relieve you of my hated presence. I can live 
 without any assistance from your family. The despised and 
 
108 BfiULAH. 
 
 ridiculed orphan will not remain to annoy you. Oh, you might 
 have effected your purpose with less cruelty ! You could have 
 told me kindly that you did not want ine here, and I would 
 not have wondered at it. But to crush me publicly, as you have 
 done " wounded pride stifled the trembling accents. 
 
 Mrs. Chilton bit her lip. She had not expected this expres- 
 sion of proud independence ; and seeing that she had gone too 
 far, pondered the best method of rectifying the mischief with as 
 little compromise of personal dignity as possible. Ultimately to 
 eject her, she had intended from the first ; but perfectly con- 
 scious that her brother would accept no explanation or palliation 
 of the girl's departure at this juncture, and that she and Pauline 
 would soon follow her from the house, she felt that her own 
 interest demanded the orphan's presence for a season. Nearly 
 blinded by tears of indignation and mortification, Beulah turned 
 from her, but the delicate white hand arrested her, and pressed 
 heavily on her shoulder. She drew herself up, and tried to 
 ohake off the hold, but firm as iron was the grasp of the snowy 
 fingers, and calm and cold as an Arctic night was the tone which 
 said : 
 
 " Pshaw I girl, are you mad ? You have sense enough to 
 know that you are one too many in this house, but if you only 
 desire to be educated, as you profess, why, I am perfectly willing 
 that you should remain here. The idea of your growing up as 
 my brother's heiress and adopted child was too preposterous to 
 be entertained, and you can see the absurdity yourself ; but so 
 long as you understand matters properly, and merely desire to 
 receive educational advantages, of course you can and will re- 
 main. I do not wish this to go any further, and, as a sensible 
 girl, you will not mention it. As a friend, however, I would 
 suggest that you should avoid putting yourself in the way of 
 observation." As she concluded, she quietly brushed off a small 
 spider, which was creeping over Beulah's sleeve. 
 
 " Don't trouble yourself, madam ; I am not at all afraid of 
 poisonous things ; I have become accustomed to them." 
 
BEULAH. 109 
 
 Smiling bitterly, she stooped to pick up her new bonnet, which 
 had fallen on the grass at her feet, and fixing her eyes defiantly 
 on the handsome face before her, said, resolutely : 
 
 "No ! contemptible as you think me, beggarly and wretched 
 as you please to term me, I have too much self-respect to stay a 
 day longer, where I have been so grossly, so needlessly insulted. 
 You need not seek to detain me. Take your hand off my arm : 
 I am going now ; the sooner, the better. I understand, madam, 
 your brother will not countenance your cruelty, and you are 
 ashamed for him to know what, in his absence, you were not 
 ashamed to do. I scorn to retaliate 1 He shall not learn from 
 me why I left so suddenly. Tell him what you choose." 
 
 Mrs. Chilton was very pale, and her lips were compressed till 
 they grew purple. Clinching her hand, she said under her 
 breath : 
 
 "You artful little wretch. Am I to be thwarted by such a 
 mere child ? You shall not quit the house. Go to your room, 
 and don't make a fool of yourself. In future I shall not concern 
 myself about you, if you take root at the front door. Go in, and 
 let matters stand. I promise you I will not interfere again, no 
 matter what you do. Do you hear me ?" 
 
 " No. You have neither the power to detain, nor to expel 
 me. I shall leave here immediately, and you need not attempt 
 to coerce me ; for, if you do, I will acquaint Doctor Hartwell 
 with the whole affair, as soon as he comes, or when I see him. I 
 am going for my clothes ; not those you so reluctantly had made, 
 but the old garments I wore when I worked for my bread." 
 She shook off the detaining hand, and went up to her room. 
 Harriet had already lighted her lamp, and as she entered the 
 door, the rays fell brightly on the picture she had learned to love 
 so well. Now she looked at it through scalding tears, and, to 
 her excited fancy, the smile seemed to have faded from the lips 
 of Hope, and the valley looked more dreary, and the pilgrims 
 more desolate and miserable. She turned from it, and taking off 
 the clothes she wore, dressed herself in the humble apparel of 
 
110 BEULAH. 
 
 former days. The old trunk was scarcely worth keeping, save 
 as a relic ; and folding up the clothes and books into as small a 
 bundle as possible, she took it in her arms, and descended the 
 steps. She wished very much to tell Harriet good bye, and 
 thank her for her unvarying kindness ; and now, on the eve of 
 her departure, she remembered the words whispered during her 
 illness, and the offer of assistance when she " got into trouble," 
 as Harriet phrased it ; but dreading to meet Mrs. Chilton again, 
 she hurried down the hall, and left the house. The friendly stars 
 looked kindly down upon the orphan, as she crossed the common, 
 and proceeded toward the Asylum, and raising her eyes to the 
 jewelled dome, the solemn beauty of the night hushed the wild 
 tumult in her heart, and she seemed to hear the words pro- 
 nounced from the skyey depths : " Lo, I am with, you always, 
 even unto the end." Gradually, the results of the step she had 
 taken obtruded themselves before her, and with a keen pang of 
 pain and grief, came the thought, " what will Dr. Hartwell think 
 of me ?" All his kindness during the time she had passed 
 beneath his roof, his genial tones, his soft, caressing touch on her 
 head, his rare, but gentle smile, his constant care for her comfort 
 and happiness, all rushed like lightning over her mind, and made 
 the hot tears gush over her face. Mrs. Chilton would, of course, 
 offer him some plausible solution of her sudden departure. He 
 would think her ungrateful, and grow indifferent to her welfare 
 or fate. Yet hope whispered, " he will suspect the truth ; he 
 must know his sister's nature ; he will not blame me." But all 
 this was in the cloudy realm of conjecture, and the stern realities 
 of her position weighed heavily on her heart. Through Dr 
 Hartwell, who called to explain her sudden disappearance, Mrs. 
 Martin had sent her the eighteen dollars due for three months 
 service, and this little sum was all that she possessed. As she 
 walked on, pondering the many difficulties which attended the 
 darling project of educating herself thoroughly, the lights of the 
 Asylum greeted her, and it was with a painful sense of desolation 
 that she mounted the steps, and stood upon the threshold, where 
 
BEULAH. Ill 
 
 she and Lilly had so often sat, in years gone by. Mrs. Williams 
 met her at the door, wondering what unusual occurrence induced 
 a visitor at this unseasonable hour. The hall lamp shone on her 
 kind, but anxious face, and as Beulah looked at her, remembered 
 care and love caused a feeling of suffocation, and with an excla- 
 mation of joy, she threw her arms around her. Astonished at a 
 greeting so unexpected, the matron glanced hurriedly at the face 
 pressed against her bosom, and recognizing her quondam charge, 
 folded her tenderly to her heart. 
 
 " Beulah, dear child, I am so glad to see you !" As she kissed 
 her white cheeks, Beulah felt the tears dropping down upon 
 them. 
 
 " Come into my room, dear, and take off your bonnet." She 
 led her to the quiet little room, and took the bundle, and the 
 antiquated bonnet, which Pauline declared " Mrs. Noah had 
 worn all through the forty days' shower." 
 
 " Mrs. Williams, can I stay here with you until I can get a 
 place somewhere ? The managers will not object, will they ?" 
 
 " No, dear, I suppose not. But, Beulah, I thought you had 
 been adopted, just after Lilly died, by Doctor Hartwell ? Here 
 I have been, ever since I heard it from some of the managers, 
 thinking how lucky it was for you, and feeling so thankful to 
 God, for remembering his orphans. Child, what has happened ? 
 Tell me freely, Beulah." 
 
 With her head on the matron's shoulder, she imparted enough 
 of what had transpired to explain her leaving her adopted home. 
 Mrs. Williams shook her head, and said, sadly : 
 
 "You have been too hasty, child. It was Doctor Hartwell's 
 house ; he had taken you to it, and without consulting, and 
 telling him, you should not have left it. If you felt that you 
 could not live there in peace, with his sister, it was your duty to 
 have told him so, and then decided as to what course you would 
 take. Don't be hurt, child, if I tell you you are too proud. 
 Poverty and pride make a bitter lot in this world ; and take care 
 you don't let your high spirit ruin your prospects. I don't m<an 
 
112 BEULAH. 
 
 to say, dear, that you ought to bear insult and oppression, but 
 I do think you owed it to the doctor's kindness, to have waited 
 until his return, before you quitted his house." 
 
 " Oh, you do not know him ! If he knew all that Mrs. 
 Chilton said and did, he would turn her and Pauline out of the 
 house immediately. They are poor, and, but for him, could not 
 live without toil. I have no right to cause their ruin. She is 
 his sister, and has a claim on him. I have none. She expects 
 Pauline to inherit his fortune, and could not bear to think of his 
 adopting me. I don't wonder at that so much. But she need 
 not have been so cruel, so insulting. I don't want his money, or 
 his house, or his elegant furniture. I only want an education, 
 and his advice, and his kind care for a few years. I like Pauline 
 very much indeed. She never treated me at all unkindly ; and 
 I could not bear to bring misfortune on her, she is so happy." 
 
 " That is neither here nor there. He will not hear the truth, 
 of course ; and even if he did, he will not suppose you were 
 actuated by any such Christian motives, to shield his sister's 
 meanness. You ought to have seen him first." 
 
 " Well, it is all over now, and I see I must help myself. I 
 want to go to the public school, where the tuition is free ; but 
 fiow can I support myself in the meantime ? Eighteen dollars 
 would not board me long, and, besides, I shall have to buy 
 clothes." She looked up, much perplexed, in the matron's 
 anxious face. The latter was silent a moment, and then said : 
 
 11 Why, the public school closes in a few weeks ; the next 
 session will not begin before autumn, and what could you do 
 until then ? No, I will just inform Dr. Hartwell of the truth 
 of the whole matter. I think it is due him, and " 
 
 "Indeed you must not ! I promised Mrs. Chilton that I 
 would not implicate her, and your doing it would amount to the 
 same thing. I would not be the means of driving Pauline out of 
 her uncle's house, for all the gold in California." 
 
 " Silly child. What on earth possessed you to promise any 
 such thing ?" 
 
BEULAH. 113 
 
 " I wanted her to- see that I was honest in what I said. She 
 knew that I could, by divulging the whole affair, turn her out of 
 the house (for Dr. Hartwell's disposition is a secret to no one 
 who has lived in his home), and I wished to show her that I told 
 the truth, in saying I only wanted to be educated for a teacher." 
 
 " Suppose the doctor comes here, and asks you about the 
 matter ?" 
 
 " I shall tell him that I prefer not being dependent on any 
 one. But he will not come. He does not know where I am." 
 Yet the dread that he would, filled her mind with new anxieties. 
 
 " Well, well, it is no use to fret over what can't be undone. 
 I wish I could help you, but I don't see any chance just now." 
 
 11 Could not I get some plain sewing ? Perhaps the managers 
 would give me work ?" 
 
 " Ah, Beulah, it would soon kill you, to have to sew for your 
 living." 
 
 " No, no, I can bear more than you think," answered the girl, 
 with a dreary smile. 
 
 " Yes, your spirit can endure more than your body. Your 
 father died with consumption, child ; but don't fret about it any 
 more to night. Come, get some supper, and then go to sleep. 
 You will stay in my room, with me, dear, till something can be 
 done to assist you." 
 
 " Mrs. Williams, you must promise me that you never will 
 speak of what I have told you, regarding that conversation with 
 Mrs. Chilton." 
 
 " I promise you, dear, I never will mention it, since you prefer 
 keeping the matter secret." 
 
 " What will Dr. Hartwell think of me ?" was the recurring 
 thought, that would not be banished ; and, unable to sleep, Beulah 
 tossed restlessly on her pillow all night, dreading lest he should 
 despise her for her segming ingratitude. 
 
114: B E U L A H 
 
 CHAPTER XI. 
 
 FOR perhaps two hours after Beulah's departure, Mrs. Chilton 
 wandered up and down the parlors, revolving numerous schemes, 
 explanatory of her unexpected exodus. Completely nonplused, 
 for the first time in her life, she sincerely rued the expression of 
 dislike and contempt which had driven the orphan from her 
 adopted home ; and, unable to decide on the most plausible 
 solution to be offered her brother, she paced, restlessly, to and 
 fro. Engrossed by no particularly felicitous reflections, she failed 
 to notice Mazeppa's quick tramp, and remained in ignorance of 
 the doctor's return, until he entered the room, and stood beside 
 her. His manner was hurried, his thoughts evidently preoccu- 
 pied, as he said : 
 
 " May, I am going into the country to be absent all of to- 
 morrow, and possibly longer. There is some surgical work to 
 be performed for a careless hunter, and I must start immediately. 
 I want you to see that a room is prepared for Percy Lockhart. 
 He is very feeble, and I have invited him to come and stay with 
 me while he is in the city. He rode out this evening, and is 
 worse from the fatigue. I shall expect you to see that every- 
 thing is provided for him that an invalid could desire. Can I 
 depend upon you ?" 
 
 " Certainly ; I will exert myself to render his stay here 
 pleasant ; make yourself easy on that score." It was very evi- 
 dent that the cloud was rapidly lifting from her heart and 
 prospects ; but she veiled the sparkle in her eye, and unsuspi- 
 cious of anything amiss, her brother left the, room. Walking up 
 to one of the mirrors, which extended from floor to ceiling, she 
 surveyed herself carefully, and a triumphant smile parted her 
 lips. 
 
BETJLAH. 115 
 
 " Percy Lockhart is vulnerable as well as other people, and I 
 have yet to see the man whose heart will proudly withstand the 
 allurements of flattery, provided the homage is delicately and 
 gracefully offered. Thank heaven ! years have touched me 
 lightly, and there was more truth than she relished in what 
 Julia Yiiicent said about my beauty I" 
 
 This self-complacent soliloquy was cut short by the appear- 
 ance of her brother, who carried a case of surgical instruments 
 in his hand. 
 
 " May, tell Beulah I am sorry I did not see her. I would go 
 up and wake her, but have not time. She wished to ask me 
 something. Tell her, if it is anything of importance, to do just 
 as she likes ; I will see about it when I come home. Be sure 
 you tell her. Good night ; take care of Percy." He turned 
 away, but she exclaimed : 
 
 " She is not here, Guy. She asked me this evening if she 
 might spend the night at the Asylum. She thought you 
 would not object, and certainly I had no authority to prevent 
 her. Indeed the parlor was full of company, and I told her she 
 might go if she wished. I suppose she will be back early in 
 the morning." 
 
 His face darkened instantly, and she felt that he was search- 
 ing her with his piercing eyes. 
 
 " All this sounds extremely improbable to me. If she is not 
 at home again at breakfast, take the carnage and go after her. 
 Mind, May 1 I will sift the whole matter when I come back." 
 He hurried off, and she breathed freely once more. Dr. Hart- 
 well sprang into his buggy, to which a fresh horse had been 
 attached, and dismissing Hal, whose weight would only have 
 retarded his progress, he drove rapidly off. The gate had been 
 left open for him, and he was passing through, when arrested 
 by Harriet's well-known voice. 
 
 " Stop, master ! Stop a minute !" 
 
 " What do you want ? I can't stop !" cried he impatiently. 
 
 " Are you going after that poor, motherless child ?" 
 
116 BEULAH. 
 
 " No. But what the devil is to pay here ? I shall get at the 
 truth now. Where is Beulah ? talk fast." 
 
 " She is at the Asylum to-night, sir. I followed and watched 
 the poor, little thing. Master, if you don't listen to me, if you 
 please, sir, you never will get at the truth, for that child won't 
 tell it. I heard her promise Miss May she would not. You 
 would be ready to fight if you knew all I know." 
 
 " Why did Beulah leave here this evening ?" 
 
 " Because Miss May abused and insulted her ; told her before 
 some ladies that she was a "miserable beggar" that you picked 
 up at the hospital, and that you thought it was charity to feed 
 and clothe her till she was big enough to work. The ladies were 
 in the front yard, and the child happened to be sitting by the 
 fountain ; she had just come from riding. I was sewing at one 
 of the windows up-stairs, sir, and heard every word. When the 
 folks were gone, Miss May walks up to her and asks her what 
 she is doing where anybody could see her ? Oh, master ! if you 
 could have seen that child's looks. She fairly seemed to rise off 
 her feet, and her face was as white as a corpse. She said she 
 had wanted an education ; that she knew you had been very 
 kind ; but she never dreamed of taking Miss Pauline's place in 
 your house. She said she would not stay where she was unwel- 
 come ; that she was not starving when you took her home ; that 
 she knew yon were kind and good ; but that she scorned them 
 were the very words, master she scorned to stay a day longer 
 where she had been so insulted ! Oh, she was in a towering 
 rage ; she trembled all over, and Miss May began to be scared, 
 for she knew you would not suffer such doings, and sin*. ;ried to 
 pacify her and make up the quarrel by telling her hho might 
 stay and have an education, if that was all she wanted. But 
 the girl would not hear to anything she said, and told her she 
 need not be frightened, that she wouldn't go to you with the 
 fuss ; she would not tell you why she left your house. She went 
 to her room and she got every rag of her old clothes, and left. 
 the house with the tears raining out of her eyes. Oh, master, 
 
BEULAII. 117 
 
 it's a crying shame ! If you had only been here to hear that 
 child talk to Miss May. Good Lord ! how her big eyes did 
 blaze when she told her she could earn a living I" 
 
 By the pale moonlight she could see that her master's face 
 was rigid as steel ; but his voice was even calmer than usual, 
 when he asked : 
 
 " Are you sure she is now at the Asylum ?" 
 
 "Yes, sir ; sure." 
 
 " Very well ; she is safe then for the present. Does any one 
 know that you heard the conversation ?" 
 
 " Not a soul, sir, except yourself." 
 
 " Keep the matter perfectly quiet till I come home. I shall 
 be away a day, or perhaps longer; meantime, see that Beulah 
 does not get out of your sight. Do you understand me ?" 
 
 11 Yes, sir I do." 
 
 The buggy rolled swiftly on, and Harriet returned to the 
 house by a circuitous route, surmising that " Miss May's " eyes 
 might detect her movements. 
 
 The same night, Clara Sanders sat on the door-step of her 
 humble cottage home. The moonlight crept through the clus- 
 tering honeysuckle and silvered the piazza floor with grotesque 
 fret-work, while it bathed lovingly the sad face'' of the girlish 
 watcher. Her chin rested in her palms, and the soft eyes were 
 bent anxiously on the countenance of her infirm and aged 
 companion. 
 
 " Grand-pa, don't look so troubled. I am very sorry, too, 
 about the diploma ; but if I am not to have it, why, there is no 
 use in worrying about it. Madam St. Cymon is willing to 
 employ me as I am, and certainly I should feel grateful for her 
 preference, when there are several applicants for the place. She 
 told me this evening that she thought I would find no difficulty 
 in performing what would be required of me." 
 
 This was uttered in a cheerful tone, which might have suc- 
 ceeded very well, had the sorrowful face been veiled. 
 
118 BEULAH. 
 
 " Ah, Clara, you don't dream of the burden you are taking 
 upon yourself ! The position of assistant teacher, in an estab- 
 lishment like Madam St. Cymon's, is one that you are by nature 
 totally unfitted for. Child, it will gall your spirit ; it will be 
 unendurable." The old man sighed heavily. 
 
 " Still, I have been educated with an eye to teaching, and 
 though I am now to occupy a very subordinate place, the trials 
 will not be augmented. On the whole, I do not know but it is 
 best as it is. Do not try to discourage me. It is all I can do, 
 and I am determined I will not despond about what can't be 
 helped." 
 
 " My dear child, I did not mean to depress you. But you are 
 so young to bow your neck to such a yoke ! How old are you ?" 
 He turned round to look at her. 
 
 "Only sixteen and a few months. Life is before me -yet, an 
 untrodden plain. Who knows but this narrow path of duty 
 may lead to a calm, sweet resting-place for us both ? I was 
 thinking just now of that passage from your favorite Wallen- 
 stein : ' My soul's secure ! In the night only, Friedland's stars can 
 learn. 1 The darkness has come down upon us, grand-pa; let us 
 wait patiently for the uprising of stars. I am not afraid of the 
 night." 
 
 There was silence for some moments ; then the old man rose, 
 and, putting back the white locks which had fallen over his face, 
 asked, in a subdued tone : 
 
 " When will you commence your work ?" 
 
 " To-morrow, sir." 
 
 " God bless you, Clara, and give you strength, as he sees you 
 have need." He kissed her fondly, and withdrew to his own 
 room. She sat for some time looking vacantly at the mosaic of 
 light and shade on the floor before her, and striving to divest 
 her mind of the haunting thought that she was the victim of 
 some unyielding necessity, whose decree had gone forth, and 
 might not be annulled. In early childhood her home had been 
 one of splendid affluence ; but reverses came, thick and fast, as 
 
BEULAH. 119 
 
 misfortunes ever do, and, ere she could realize the swift transi- 
 tion, penury claimed her family among its crowding legions. 
 Discouraged and embittered, her father made the wine-cup the 
 sepulchre of care, and in a few months found a deeper and far 
 more quiet grave. His mercantile embarrassments had dragged 
 his father-in-law to ruin ; and, too aged to toil up the steep 
 again, the latter resigned himself to spending the remainder of 
 his days in obscurity, and perhaps want. To Clara's gifted 
 mother, he looked for aid and comfort in the clouded evening 
 of life, and with unceasing energy she toiled to shield her father 
 and her child from actual labor. Thoroughly acquainted with 
 music and drawing, her days were spent in giving lessons in 
 those branches which had been acquired with reference to 
 personal enjoyment alone, and the silent hours of the night often 
 passed in stitching the garments of those who had flocked to 
 her costly entertainments in days gone by. When Clara was 
 about thirteen years of age, a distant relative chancing to see her, 
 kindly proposed to contribute the sum requisite for affording her 
 every educational advantage. The offer was gratefully accepted 
 by the devoted mother, and Clara was placed at Madam St. 
 Cymon's, where more than ordinary attention could be bestowed 
 on the languages. 
 
 The noble woman, whose heart had bled incessantly over the 
 misery, ruin, and degradation of her husband, sank slowly under 
 the intolerable burden of sorrows, and a few weeks previous to 
 the evening of which I write, folded her weary hands and went 
 home to rest. In the springtime of girlhood, Clara felt herself 
 transformed into a woman. Standing beside her mother's tomb, 
 supporting her grandfather's tottering form, she shuddered in 
 anticipating the dreary future that beckoned her on ; and now 
 as if there were not troubles enough already to disquiet her, 
 the annual amount advanced toward her school expenses was 
 suddenly withdrawn. The cousin, residing in a distant State, 
 wrote that pecuniary troubles had assailed him, and prevented 
 all further assistance. In one more year she would have 
 
120 BEULAH. 
 
 finished the prescribed course and graduated honorably ; and 
 more than all, she would have obtained a diploma, which might 
 have been an " open sesame " to any post she aspired to. Thus 
 frustrated in her plans, she gladly accepted the position of 
 assistant teacher in the primary department, which, having 
 become vacant by the dismissal of the incumbent, madam kindly 
 tendered her. The salary was limited, of course, but nothing 
 else presented itself, and quitting the desk, where she had so 
 often pored over her text-books, she prepared to grapple with 
 the trials which thickly beset the path of a young woman 
 thrown upon her own resources for maintenance. Clara was 
 naturally amiable, unselfish, and trusting. She was no intel- 
 lectual prodigy, yet her mind was clear and forcible, her judg- 
 ment matured, and, above all, her pure heart warm and loving. 
 Notwithstanding the stern realities that marked her path, there 
 was a vein of romance in her nature which, unfortunately, 
 attained more than healthful development, and while it often 
 bore her into the Utopian realms of fancy, it was still impotent 
 to modify, in any degree, the social difficulties with which she 
 was forced to contend. Ah, there is a touching beauty in the 
 radiant up-look of a girl just crossing the limits of youth, and 
 commencing her journey through the chequered sphere of 
 womanhood 1 It is all dew-sparkle and morning glory to her 
 ardent, buoyant spirit, as she presses forward exulting in blissful 
 anticipations. But the withering heat of the conflict of life 
 creeps on; the dewdrops exhale, the garlands of hope, shattered 
 and dead, strew the path, and too often, ere noontide, the clear 
 brow and sweet smile are exchanged for the weary look of one 
 longing for the evening rest, the twilight, the night. Oh, may 
 the good God give his sleep early unto these many ! 
 
 There was a dawning light in Clara's eyes, which showed that, 
 though as yet a mere girl in years, she had waked to the con- 
 sciousness of emotions which belong to womanhood. She was 
 pretty, and of course she knew it, for I am skeptical of those 
 characters who grow up to mature beauty, all unsuspicious of 
 
BEULAH. 121 
 
 the fatal dower, and are some day startled by a discovery of 
 their possessions. She knew, too, that female loveliness was an 
 all-potent spell, and depressing as were the circumstances of her 
 life and situation, she felt that a brighter lot might be hers, 
 without any very remarkable or seemingly inconsistent course 
 of events. 
 
 CHAPTER XII. 
 
 " HARRIET, bring me a cup of strong coffee." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell had returned late in the afternoon of the 
 second day, and travel-worn and weary, threw himself down on 
 the sofa in his study. There was a pale severity in his face, 
 which told that his reflections during his brief absence had 
 been far from pleasant, and as he swept back the hair from his 
 forehead, and laid his head on the cushion, the whole counte- 
 nance bespoke the bitterness of a proud, but miserable man. He 
 remained for some time, with closed eyes, and when the coffee 
 was served, drank it without comment. Harriet busied herself 
 about the room, doing various unnecessary things, and wonder- 
 ing why her master did not inquire concerning home affairs ; 
 finally, having exhausted every pretext for lingering, she 
 coughed very spasmodically once or twice, and putting her hand 
 on the knob of the door, said deferentially 
 
 " Do you want anything else, sir ? The bath-room is all 
 ready." 
 
 " Has my sister been to the Asylum ?" 
 
 " No, sir." 
 
 11 Go and arrange Beulah's room." , 
 
 She retired; and springing up, he paced the floor, striving to 
 master the emotion, which so -unwontedly agitated him. His 
 lips writhed, and the thin nostril expanded, but he paused before 
 
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122 BEULAH. 
 
 the melodeon, sat down and played several pieces, and gradually 
 the swollen veins on his brow lost their corded appearance, and 
 the mouth resumed its habitual compression. Then, with an 
 exterior, as calm as the repose of death, he took his hat, and went 
 toward the parlor. Mr. Lockhart was reclining on one of the 
 sofas, Pauline sat on an ottoman near him, looking over a book 
 of prints, and Mrs. Chilton, tastefully attired, occupied the piano- 
 stool. Witching strains of music greeted her brother, as he 
 stopped at the door and looked in. In the mirror opposite, she 
 saw his image reflected, and for an instant her heart beat 
 rapidly, but the delicate fingers flew over the keys as skillfully 
 as before, and only the firm setting of' the teeth betokened the 
 coming struggle. He entered, and walking up to the invalid, 
 said cordially. 
 
 " How are you, Percy ? better, I hope." While one hand 
 clasped his friend's, the other was laid with brotherly freedom 
 on the sick man's head. 
 
 " Of course I am. There was no malady in Eden, was there ? 
 Verily, Guy, in your delightful home, I am growing well again." 
 
 " Ah ! so much for not possessing Ithuriel's spear. I am 
 glad to find you free from fever." 
 
 " Howd'y-do, uncle I Don't you see me ?" said Pauline, 
 reaching up her hand. 
 
 "It is always hard to find you, Pauline, you are such a 
 demure, silent little body," said he, shaking her hand kindly. 
 
 " Welcome, Guy ! I expected you yesterday ; what detained 
 you so long?" Mrs. Chilton approached witlT outstretched 
 hand, and at the same time offered her lips for a kiss. 
 
 He availed himself of neither, but fixing his eyes intently on 
 hers, said as sweetly as if he had been soothing a fretful child : 
 
 "Necessity of course; but now that I have come, I shall 
 make amends, I promise you, for the delay. Percy, has she 
 taken good care of you ?" 
 
 " She is an admirable nurse; I<can never requite the debt she 
 has imposed. Is not my convalescence sufficient proof of her 
 
B E U L A H . 123 
 
 superior skill ?" Mr. Lockhart raised himself, and leaning on 
 bis elbow, suffered bis eyes to rest admiringly on tbe graceful 
 form and faultless features beside him. 
 
 "Are you really so much better ?" said Dr. Hartwell, gnaw- 
 ing his lip. 
 
 " Indeed I am ! Why are you so incredulous ? Have you 
 so little confidence in your own prescriptions ?" 
 
 " Confidence ! I had little enough when given, immeasurably 
 less now. But we will talk of all this after a little. I have 
 some matters to arrange, and will be with you at tea. May, I 
 wish to see you." 
 
 "Well, Guy, what is it 1" without moving an inch, she 
 looked up at him. 
 
 " Come to my study," answered her brother, quietly. 
 
 "And leave your patient to amuse himself? Really, Guy, 
 you exercise the rites of hospitality so rarely, that you forget 
 the ordinary requirements. Apropos, your little protegee Ijas 
 not returned. It seems she did not fancy living here, and pre- 
 fers staying at the Asylum. I would not trouble myself about 
 her, if I were you. Some people cannot appreciate kindness, 
 you know." She uttered this piece of counsel, with perfect sang- 
 froid, and met her brother's eye as innocently as Pauline would 
 have done. 
 
 " I am thoroughly acquainted with her objections to this place, 
 and determined to remove them so completely, that she cannot 
 refuse to return." 
 
 A grey pallor crept over his sister's face, but she replied with 
 her usual equanimity. 
 
 " You have seen her, then ? I thought you had hurried back 
 to your sick friend here, without pausing by the way." 
 
 " No I I have not seen her, and you are aware, her volun- 
 tary promise would seal her lips, even if I had." He smiled 
 contemptuously, as he saw her puzzled look, and continued : 
 " Percy will excuse you for a few moments, come with me. 
 Pauline, entertain this gentleman in our absence." 
 
124: BETJLAH. 
 
 She took his offered arm, and they proceeded tc the study in 
 silence. 
 
 " Sit down." Dr. Hartwell pushed a chair toward her, and 
 stood looking her fully in the face. She did not shrink, and 
 asked unconcernedly : 
 
 " Well, Guy, to what does all this preamble lead ?" 
 
 "May, is the doctrine of future punishments laid down as 
 orthodox, in that elegantly gilded prayer-book you take with 
 you in your weekly pilgrimages to church ?" 
 
 " Come, come, Guy ; if you have no respect for religion, 
 yourself, don't scoff at its observances in my presence. It is 
 very unkind, and I will not allow it." She rose, with an air of 
 offended dignity. 
 
 " Scoff ! you wrong me. Why, verily, your religion is too 
 formidable to suffer the thought. I tell you, sister mine, your 
 creed is a terrible one in my eyes." He looked at her, with a 
 smile of withering scorn. 
 
 She grew restless under his impaling gaze, and he continued 
 mockingly : 
 
 " From such creeds ! such practice ! Good Lord deliver us !" 
 
 She turned to go, but his hand fell heavily on her shoulder. 
 
 " I am acquainted with all that passed between Beulah and 
 yourself the evening she left my house. I was cognizant of the 
 whole truth before I left the city." 
 
 " Artful wretch ! She is as false as contemptible !" muttered 
 the sister, through set teeth. 
 
 " Take care ! do not too hastily apply your own individual 
 standard of action to others. She does not dream that I am 
 acquainted with the truth, though doubtless she wonders that, 
 knowing you so well, I should not suspect it." 
 
 "Ah, guided by your favorite Mephistopheles, you wrapped 
 the mantle of invisibility about you, and heard it all. Eh ?" 
 
 " No; Mephistopheles is not ubiquitous, and I left him at home 
 here, it seems, when I took that child to ride. It is difficult for 
 me to believe you are my sister 1 very difficult 1 It is the most 
 
B E U L A II . 125 
 
 humiliating thought that could possibly be suggested to me. 
 May, I very nearly decided to send you and Pauline out into the 
 world without a dime ! without a cent 1 just as I found you, 
 and I may do so yet " 
 
 "You dare not! You dare not I You swore a solemn oath 
 to the dying that you would always provide for us I I am not 
 afraid of your breaking your vow 1" cried Mrs. Chilton, leaning 
 heavily against the table to support herself. 
 
 " You give me credit for too much nicety. I tell you I would 
 break my oath to-morrow, nay, to-night ; for your duplicity can- 
 cels it, but for that orphan you hate so cordially. She would 
 never return if you and Pauline suffered for the past ; for her 
 sake, and hers only, I will still assist, support you, for have her 
 here I will 1 if it cost me life and fortune ! I would send you off 
 to the plantation, but there are no educational advantages there 
 for Pauline ; and therefore, if Beulah returns, 1 have resolved to 
 buy and give you a separate home, wherever you may prefer. 
 Stay here, you cannot and shall not 1" 
 
 " And what construction will the world place on your taking 
 a young girl into your house at the time that I leave it ? Guy, 
 with what marvellous foresight you are endowed I" said she, 
 laughing sardonically. 
 
 " I shall take measures to prevent any improper construction! 
 Mrs. Watson, the widow of one of my oldest and best friends, 
 has been left in destitute circumstances, and I shall immediately 
 offer her a home here, to take charge of my household, and look 
 after Beulah when I am absent. She is an estimable woman, 
 past fifty years of age, and her character is so irreproachable, 
 that her presence here will obviate the objection you have urged. 
 You will decide to-night where you wish to fix your future resi- 
 dence, and let me know to-morrow. I shall not give you longer 
 time for a decision. Meantime, when Beulah returns you will 
 not allude to the matter. At your peril, May ! I have borne 
 much from you, but by all that 1 prize, I swear, I will make you 
 suffer severely if you dare to interfere again. Do not imagine 
 
126 BEULAH. 
 
 that I am ignorant of your schemes ! I tell you now, I would 
 gladly see Percy Lockhart lowered into the grave, rather than 
 know that you had succeeded in blinding him ! Oh, his noble 
 nature would loathe you, could he see you as you are. There, 
 go ! or I shall forget that I am talking to a woman : much less 
 a woman claiming to be my sister ! Go ! go !" He put up his 
 hands as if unwilling to look at her, and leaving the room, de- 
 scended to the front door. A large family-carriage, drawn by 
 two horses, stood in readiness, and seating himself within it, he 
 ordered the coachman to drive to the Asylum. Mrs. Williams 
 met him at the entrance, and despite her assumed composure, 
 felt nervous and uncomfortable, for his scrutinizing look discon- 
 certed her. 
 
 "Madam, you are the matron of this institution, I presume. 
 I want to see Beulah Benton." 
 
 " Sir, she saw your carriage, and desired me to say to you 
 that though she was very grateful for your kindness, she did not 
 wish to burden yon, and preferred remaining here until she could 
 6nd some position which would enable her to support herself. 
 She begs you will not insist upon seeing her ; she does not wish 
 to see you." 
 
 " Where is she ? I shall not leave the house until I do see 
 her." 
 
 She saw from his countenance that it was useless to contend. 
 There was an unbending look of resolve which said plainly, " tell 
 me where to find her, or I shall search for her at once." Secretly 
 pleased at the prospect of reconciliation, the matron no longer 
 hesitated, and pointing to the staircase, said : 
 
 " She is in the first right-hand room." 
 
 He mounted the steps, opened the door, and entered. Beulah 
 was standing by the window ; she had recognized his step, and 
 knew that he was in the room, but felt as if she would not meet 
 his eye for the universe. Yet there was in her heart an intense 
 longing to see him again. During the two past days she had 
 missed his kind manner and grave watchfulness, and now, if she 
 
BE TIL AH. 127 
 
 had dared to yield to the impulse that prompted, she would have 
 sprung to meet him, and caught his hand to her lips. He ap- 
 proached, and stood looking at the drooped face ; then his soft, 
 cool touch was on her head, and he said in his peculiar low, 
 musical tones : 
 
 " Proud little spirit, come home and be happy." 
 
 She shook her head, saying resolutely : 
 
 " I cannot : I have no home. I could not be happy in your 
 house." 
 
 "You can be in future. Beulah, I know the whole truth of 
 this matter ; how I discovered it is no concern of yours you 
 have not broken your promise. Now mark me, I make your 
 return to my house the condition of my sister's pardon. I am 
 not trifling 1 If you persist in leaving me, I tell you solemnly I 
 will "send her and Pauline out into the world to work for their 
 daily bread, as you want to do ! If you will come back, I will 
 give them a comfortable home of their own wherever they may 
 prefer to live, and see that they are always well cared for. But 
 they shall not remain in my house whether you come or not. I 
 am in earnest ! Look at me ; you know I never say what I do 
 not mean. I want you to come back ; I ask you to come with 
 me now. I am lonely ; my home is dark and desolate, come, my 
 child, come !" He held her hands in his, and drew her gently 
 toward him. She looked 'eagerly into his face, and as she noted 
 the stern sadness that marred its noble beauty, the words of his 
 sister flashed upon her memory: He had been married ! Was it 
 the loss of his wife that had so darkened his elegant home ? 
 That gave such austerity to the comparatively youthful face ? 
 She gazed into the deep eyes till she grew dizzy, and answered 
 indistinctly : 
 
 "I have no claim on you will not be the means of parting 
 you and your sister. You have Pauline, make her your 
 child," 
 
 " Henceforth my sister and myself are parted, whether you will 
 it or not, whether you come back or otherwise. Once for all, if 
 
128 BETJLAH. 
 
 you would serve her, come, for on this condition only will I pro- 
 vide for her. Pauline does not suit me; you do. I can make, 
 you a friend, in some sort a companion. Beulah, yon want to 
 come to me; I see it in your eyes; but I see too that you want 
 conditions; what are they?" 
 
 "Will you always treat Pauline just as kindly as if you had 
 never taken me to your house ?" 
 
 " Except having a separate home, she shall never know any 
 difference. I promise you this. What else ?" 
 
 " Will you let me go to the public school instead of Madame 
 St. Cymon's?" 
 
 "Why, pray?" 
 
 " Because the tuition is free." 
 
 "And you are too proud to accept any aid from me ?" 
 
 "No, sir; I want your counsel and guidance, and I want to 
 be with -you to show you that I do thank you for all your good- 
 ness; but I want to cost you as little as possible." 
 
 " You do not expect to depend on me always, then ?" said he, 
 smiling despite himself. 
 
 "No, sir; only till I am able to teach. If you are willing to 
 do this, I shall be glad to go back, very glad; but not unless 
 you are." She looked as firm as her guardian. 
 
 "Better stipulate also that you are to wear nothing more 
 expensive than bit calico." He seemed much amused. 
 
 " Indeed, sir, I am not jesting at all. If you will take care 
 of me while I am educating myself, I shall be very grateful to 
 you; but I am not going to be adopted." 
 
 " Very well. Then I will try to take care of you. I have 
 signed your treaty; are you ready to come home." 
 
 "Yes, sir; glad to come." Her fingers closed confidingly 
 over his, and they joined Mrs. Williams in the hall below. A 
 brief explanation from Beulah sufficed for the rejoicing matron, 
 and soon she was borne rapidly from the Asylum. Dr. Hartwell 
 was silent until they reached home, and Beulah was going to her 
 own room, when he asked, suddenly: 
 
BEULAH. 129 
 
 " What was it that you wished to ask me about the evening 
 of the ride ?" 
 
 " That I might go to the public school/' 
 
 11 What put that into your head ?" 
 
 "As a dependent orphan, I am insulted at Madame St, 
 Cymon's." 
 
 " By whom ?" His eyes flashed. 
 
 " No matter now, sir." 
 
 " By whom? I ask you." 
 
 " Not by Pauline. She would scorn to be guilty of anything 
 so ungenerous." 
 
 " You do not mean to answer my question, then ?" 
 
 " No, sir; do not ask me to do so, for I cannot." 
 
 " Very well. Get ready for tea. Mr. Lockhart is here. One 
 word more. You need fear no further interference from any one." 
 
 He walked on, and glad to be released, Beulah hastened to 
 her own room, with a strange feeling of joy on entering it again. 
 Harriet welcomed her warmly, and without alluding to her 
 absence, assisted in braiding the heavy masses of hair, which 
 required arranging. Half an hour after, Dr. Hartwell knocked 
 at the door, and conducted her down-stairs. Mrs. Chilton rose 
 and extended her hand, with an amicable expression of counte- 
 nance, for which Beulah was not prepared. She could not bring 
 herself to accept the hand, but her salutation was gravely polite: 
 
 " Good evening, Mrs. Chilton." 
 
 Mr. Lockhart made room for her on the sofa; and quietly 
 ensconced in one corner, she sat for some time so engaged in 
 listening to the general conversation, that the bitter recollection 
 of by-gone trials was entirely banished. Dr. Hartwell and his 
 friend were talking of Europe, and the latter, after recounting 
 much of interest in connection with his former visits, said ear- 
 nestly: 
 
 " Go with me this time, Guy; one tour cannot have satiated 
 you. It will be double nay, triple enjoyment, to have you along. 
 It is, and always has been, a mystery to mo, why you should 
 
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130 BEULAH. 
 
 persist in practising. You do not need the pecuniary aid; your 
 income would enable you to live just as you pleased. Life is 
 short at best; why not glean all of pleasure that travel affords 
 to a nature like yours ? Your sister was just telling me that 
 in a few days, she goes North to place Pauline at some cele- 
 brated school, and without her, you will be desolate. Come, 
 let's to Europe together; what do you say ?" 
 
 Dr. Hartwell received this intimation of his sister's plans 
 without the slightest token of surprise, and smiled sarcastically 
 as he replied: 
 
 " Percy, I shall answer you in the words of a favorite author 
 of the day. He says ' it is for want of self culture that the 
 superstition of travelling, whose idols are Italy, England, 
 Egypt, retains its fascination for all educated Americans. He 
 who travels to be amused, or to get somewhat which he 
 does not carry, travels away from himself, and grows old, even 
 in youth, among old things. In Thebes, in Palmyra, his will 
 and mind have become old and dilapidated as they. He carries 
 ruins to ruins. Travelling is a fool's paradise. At home I dream 
 that at Naples, at Kome, I can be intoxicated with beauty, and 
 lose my sadness. I pack my trunk, embark, and finally wake 
 up in Naples, and there beside me, is the stern fact, the sad, 
 self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from. I affect to be 
 intoxicated with sights, and suggestions, but I am not. My 
 giant goes with me wherever I go.' Percy, I endeavored to 
 drown my giant in the Mediterranean ; to bury it forever beneath 
 the green waters of Lago Maggiore; to hurl it from solemn, icy, 
 Alpine heights; to dodge it in museums of art; but, as Emerson 
 says, it clung to me with unerring allegiance, and I came home. 
 And now, daily, and yearly, I repeat the hopeless experiment, 
 in my round of professional duties. Yes, May and Pauline are 
 going away, but I shall have Beulah to look after, and I fancy 
 time will not drag its wheels through coming years. How soon 
 do you think of leaving America? I have some commissions 
 for you when you start." 
 
BEULAH. 131 
 
 " I hope I shall be able to go North within a fortnight, and, 
 after a short visit to Newport or Saratoga, sail for Havre. 
 What do you want from the great storehouse of art, sculpture, 
 and paintings, cameos and prints ?" 
 
 " I will furnish you with a catalogue. Do you go through 
 Germany, or only flaunt, butterfly-like, under the sunny skies 
 of the Levant ?" 
 
 " I have, as yet, no settled plans ; but probably before I 
 return, shall explore Egypt, Syria, and Arabia. Do you want 
 anything from the dying world? From Dendera, Carnac, or 
 that city of rock, lonely, silent, awful Petra ?" 
 
 " Not I. The flavor of Sodom is too prevalent. But there 
 are a few localities that I shall ask you to sketch for me." Sub- 
 sequently, Mr. Lockhart requested Beulah to sing her forest song 
 for him again. The blood surged quickly into her face, and, not 
 without confusion, she begged him to excuse her. He insisted, 
 and tried to draw her from her seat, but, sinking further back 
 into the corner, she assured him she could not; she never sang, 
 except when alone. Dr. Hartwell smiled, and, looking at her 
 curiously, said : 
 
 " I never heard her even attempt to sing. Beulah, why will 
 you not try to oblige him ?" 
 
 " Oh, sir 1 my songs are all connected with sorrows. I could 
 not sing them now ; indeed I could not." And as the memory 
 of Lilly, hushed by her lullaby, rose vividly before her, she put 
 her hands over her eyes and wept quietly. 
 
 " When you come home from your Oriental jaunt, she will be 
 able to comply with your request. Meantime, Percy, come into 
 the study; I want a cigar and game of chess." 
 
 Beulah quitted the parlor at the same time, and was mounting 
 the steps, when she heard Mr. Lockhart ask : " Guy, what are 
 you going to do with that solemn-looking child ?" 
 
 " Going to try to show her that the world is not altogether 
 made up of brutes." She heard no more, but long after she 
 laid her head upon the pillow, pondered on the kind fate which 
 
132 B E U L A H . 
 
 gave her so considerate, so generous a guardian; and, in the 
 depths of her gratitude, she vowed to show him that she 
 reverenced and honored him. 
 
 CHAPTER XIII. 
 
 THREE years passed swiftly, unmarked by any incidents of 
 interest, and one dreary night in December, Beulah sat in Dr. 
 Hartwell's study, wondering what detained him so much later 
 than usual. The lamp stood on the tea-table, and the urn 
 awaited the master's return. The room, with its books, statues, 
 paintings, and melodeon, was unaltered, but time had materially 
 changed the appearance of the orphan. She had grown tall, 
 and the mazarine blue merino dress fitted the slender form with 
 scrupulous exactness. The luxuriant black hair was combed 
 straight back from the face, and wound into a circular knot, 
 which covered the entire back of the head, and gave a classical 
 outline to the whole. The eyelashes were longer and darker, 
 the complexion had lost its sickly hue, and though there was no 
 bloom on the cheeks, they were clear and white. I have spoken 
 before of the singular conformation of the massive brow, and 
 now the style in which she wore her hair fully exposed the 
 outline. The large grey eyes had lost their look of bitterness, 
 but more than ever they were grave, earnest, restless, and 
 searching ; indexing a stormy soul. The whole countenance 
 betokened that rare combination of mental endowments, that 
 habitual train of deep, concentrated thought, mingled with 
 somewhat of dark passion, which characterizes the eagerly- 
 inquiring mind that struggles to lift itself far above common 
 utilitarian themes. The placid element was as wanting in her 
 physiognomy as in her character, and even the lines of the 
 
BEULAH. 133 
 
 mouth gave evidence of strength and restlessness, rather than 
 peace. Before her lay a book on geometry, and, engrossed by 
 study, she was unobservant of Dr. HartwelPs entrance. Walk- 
 ing up to the grate, he warmed his fingers, and then, with his 
 hands behind him, stood still on the rug, regarding his protegee 
 attentively. He looked precisely as he had done more than 
 three years before, when he waited at Mrs. Martin's, watching 
 little Johnny and his nurse. The colorless face seemed as if 
 chiselled out of ivory, and stern gravity, blended with bitterness, 
 was enthroned on the lofty, unfurrowed brow v He looked at 
 the girl intently, as he would have watched a patient to whom 
 he had administered a dubious medicine, and felt some curiosity 
 concerning the result. 
 
 " Beulah, put up your book and make the tea, will you ?" 
 She started up, and seating herself before the urn, said, 
 joyfully : 
 
 " Good evening ! I did not know you had come home. You 
 look cold, pir." 
 
 " Yes, it is deucedly cold ; and, to mend the matter, Mazeppa 
 must needs slip on the ice in the gutter, and lame himself. 
 Knew, too, I should want him again to-night." He drew a 
 chair to the table and received his tea from her hand, for it was 
 one of his whims to dismiss Mrs. Watson and the servants at 
 this meal, and have only Beulah present. 
 
 " Who is so ill as to require a second visit to-night ?" 
 She very rarely asked anything relative to his professional 
 engagements, but saw that he was more than usually inter- 
 ested. 
 
 " Why, that quiet, little Quaker friend of yours, Clara San- 
 ders, will probably lose her grandfather this time. He had a 
 second paralytic stroke to-day, and I doubt whether he survives 
 till morning." 
 
 " Are any of Clara's friends with her ?" asked Beulah, quickly. 
 " Some two or three of the neighbors. What now ?" ne con- 
 tinued as she rose from the table. 
 
134: BEULAH. 
 
 "I am going to get ready and go with you when you 
 return." 
 
 " Nonsense ! The weather is too disagreeable ; and besides, 
 you can do no good ; the old man is unconscious. Don't think 
 of it." 
 
 " But I must think of it, and what is more, you must carry 
 me, if you please. I shall not mind the cold, and I know Clara 
 would rather have me with her, even though I could render no 
 assistance. Will you carry me ? I shall thank you very much ?" 
 She stood on the threshold. 
 
 " And if I will not carry you ?" he answered questioningly. 
 
 " Then, sir, though sorry to disobey you, I shall be^forced to 
 walk there." 
 
 " So I supposed. You may get ready." 
 
 ' ' Thank you." She hurried off to wrap up for the ride, and 
 acquaint Mrs. Watson with the cause of her temporary absence. 
 On reentering the study she found the doctor lying on the sofa, 
 with one hand over his eyes ; without removing it he tossed a 
 letter to her, saying : 
 
 " There is a iStter from Heidelberg. I had almost forgotten 
 it. You will have time to read it ; the buggy is not ready." 
 fle moved his fingers slightly, so as to see her distinctly, while 
 she tore off the envelope and perused it. At first she looked 
 pleased ; then the black eyebrows met over the nose, and as she 
 refolded it, there was a very decided curl in the compressed 
 upper lip. She put it into her pocket without comment. 
 
 " Eugene is well, I suppose ?" said the doctor, still shading his 
 eyes. 
 
 " Yes, sir, quite well." 
 
 " Does he seem to be improving his advantages ?" 
 
 " I should judge not, from the tone of this letter." 
 
 "What does it indicate?" 
 
 " That he thinks of settling down into mercantile life on his 
 return ; as if he needed to go to Germany to learn to keep 
 books." She spoke hastily and with much chagrin. 
 
BEULAH. 135 
 
 " And why not ? Germany is par excellence the land of 
 book-making, and book-reading ; why not of book-keeping ?" 
 
 " German proficiency is not the question, sir." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell smiled, and passing his fingers through his hair, 
 replied : 
 
 "You intend to annihilate that plebeian project of his, 
 then ?" 
 
 " Efts own will must govern him, sir ; over that I have no 
 power." 
 
 "Still you will use your influence in favor of a learned pro- 
 fession ?" 
 
 "Yes, sir, if I have any." 
 
 " Take care your ambitious pride does not ruin you both '. 
 There is the buggy. Be so good as to give me my fur gauntlets 
 out of the drawer of my desk. That will do, come." 
 
 The ride was rather silent. Beulah spoke several times, but 
 was answered in a manner which informed her that her guardian 
 was in a gloomy mood, and did not choose to talk. He was to 
 her as inexplicable as ever. She felt that the barrier which 
 divided them, instead of melting away with long and intimate 
 acquaintance, had strengthened and grown impenetrable. Kind 
 but taciturn, she knew little of his opinions on any of the great 
 questions which began to agitate her own mind. For rather 
 more than three years they had spent their evenings together ; 
 she in studying, he in reading or writing. Of his past life she 
 knew absolutely nothing, for no unguarded allusion to it ever 
 escaped his lips. As long as she had lived in his house, he had 
 never mentioned his wife's name, and but for his sister's words 
 she would have been utterly ignorant of his marriage. Whether 
 the omission was studied, or merely the result of abstraction, she 
 could only surmise. Once, when sitting around the fire, a piece 
 of crape fell upon the hearth from the shrouded portrait. He 
 stooped down, picked it up, and without glancing at the picture^ 
 threw the fragment into the grate. She longed to see the covered 
 face, but dared not unfasten the sable folds, which had grown 
 
136 BEULAH. 
 
 rusty with age. Sometimes she fancied her presence annoyed 
 him ; but if she absented herself at all during the evening, he 
 invariably inquired the cause. He had most scrupulously avoided 
 all reference to matters of faith ; she had endeavored several 
 times to direct the conversation to religious topics, but he adroitly 
 eluded her efforts, and abstained from any such discussion ; and 
 though on Sabbath she generally accompanied Mrs. Watson to 
 church, he never alluded to it. Occasionally, when more than 
 ordinarily fatigued by the labors of the day, he had permitted 
 her to read aloud to him from some of his favorite volumes, and 
 these brief glimpses had given her an intense longing to pursue the 
 same paths of investigation. She revered and admired him ; nay, 
 she loved him ; but it was more earnest gratitude than genuine 
 affection. Love casteth out fear, and most certainly she feared 
 him. She had entered her seventeenth year, and feeling that she 
 was no longer a child, her pride sometimes rebelled at the calm, 
 commanding manner he maintained toward her. 
 
 They found Clara kneeling beside her insensible grandfather, 
 while two or three middle-aged ladies sat near the hearth, talking 
 in under tones. Beulah put her arms tenderly around her friend 
 ere she was aware of her presence, and the cry of blended woe 
 and gladness, with which Clara threw herself on Beulah's bosom, 
 told her how well-timed that presence was. Three years of 
 teaching and care had worn the slight young form, and given a 
 troubled, strained, weary look to the fair face. Thin, pale, and 
 tearful, she clung to Beulah, and asked, in broken accents, what 
 would become of her when the aged sleeper was no more. 
 
 " Our good God remains to you, Clara. I was a shorn lamb, 
 and he tempered the winds for me. I was very miserable, but 
 he did not forsake me." 
 
 Clara looked at the tall form of the physician, and while her 
 eyes rested upon him with a species of fascination, she mur- 
 mured : 
 
 "Yes, you have been blessed indeed ! You have him. He 
 guards and cares for your happiness, but I, oh I am alone 1" 
 
BEULAH. 137 
 
 " You told me lie had promised to be your friend. Kest 
 assured he will prove himself such," answered Beulah, watching 
 Clara's countenance as she spoke. 
 
 " Yes, I know ; but " She paused, and averted her head, 
 
 for just then he drew near, and said gravely : 
 
 " Beulah, take Miss Clara to her own room, and persuade her 
 to rest. I shall remain probably all night ; at least until some 
 change takes place." 
 
 " Don't send me away," pleaded Clara, mournfully. 
 
 " Go, Beulah, it is for her own good." She saw that he was 
 unrelenting, and complied without opposition. In the seclusion 
 of her room she indulged in a passionate burst of grief, and think- 
 ing it was best thus vented, Beulah paced up and down the floor, 
 listening now to the convulsive sobs, and now to the rain which 
 pelted the window-panes. She was two years younger than her 
 companion, yet felt that she was immeasurably stronger. Often 
 during their acquaintance, a painful suspicion had crossed her 
 mind ; as often she had banished it, but now it haunted her 
 with a pertinacity which she could not subdue. While her feet 
 trod the chamber floor, memory trod the chambers of the past, 
 and gathered up every link which could strengthen the chain of 
 evidence. Gradually dim conjecture became sad conviction, and 
 she was conscious of a degree of pain and sorrow for which she 
 could not readily account. If Clara loved Dr. Hartwell, why 
 should it grieve her ? Her step grew nervously rapid, and the 
 eyes settled upon the carpet with a fixedness of which she was 
 unconscious. Suppose he was double her age, if Clara loved him 
 notwithstanding, what business was it of hers ? Besides, no one 
 would dream of the actual disparity in years, for he was a very 
 handsome man, and certainly did not look more than ten years 
 older. True, Clara was not very intellectual, and he was parti- 
 cularly fond of literary pursuits ; but had not she heard him say 
 that it was A singular fact in anthropology, that men selected 
 their opposites for wives ? She did not believe her guardian ever 
 thought of Clara save when in her presence. But how did she 
 
138 BEULAH. 
 
 know anything about his thoughts and fancies, his likes and dis- 
 likes ? He had never even spoken of his marriage was it pro- 
 bable that the subject of a second love would have escaped him? 
 All this passed rapidly in her mind, and when Clara called her to 
 sit down on the couch beside her, she started as from a painful 
 dream. While her friend talked sadly of the future, Beulah analyzed 
 her features, and came to the conclusion that it would be a very easy 
 matter to love her ; the face was so sweet and gentle, the manner 
 so graceful, the tone so musical and winning. Absorbed in 
 thought, neither noted the lapse of time. Midnight passed ; two 
 o'clock came ; and then at three, a knock startled the watchers. 
 Clara sprang to the door ; Dr. Hartwell pointed to the sick 
 room, and said gently : 
 
 "He has ceased to suffer. He is at rest." 
 
 She looked at him vacantly, an instant, and whispered, under 
 her breath : " He is not dead ?" 
 
 He did not reply, and with a frightened expression, she glided 
 into the chamber of death, calling piteously on the sleeper to 
 come back and shield her. Beulah would have followed, but 
 the doctor detained her. 
 
 " Not yet, child. Not yet." 
 
 As if unconscious of the act, he passed his arm around her 
 shoulders, and drew her close to him. She looked up in astonish- 
 ment, but his eyes were fixed on the kneeling figure in the room 
 opposite, and she saw that, just then, he was thinking of any- 
 thing else than her presence. 
 
 " Are you going home now, sir ?" 
 
 " Yes, but you must stay with that poor girl yonder. Can't 
 you prevail on her to come and spend a few days with you ?" 
 
 " I rather think not," answered Beulah, resolved not to try. 
 
 " You look pale, my child. Watching is not good for you. 
 It is a long time since you have seen death. Strange that people 
 will not see it as it is. Passing strange." 
 
 "What do you mean?" said she, striving to interpret the 
 smile that wreathed his lips. 
 
BEULAH. 139 
 
 " You will not believe if I tell you. ' Life is but the germ of 
 Death, and Death the development of a higher Life} " 
 
 " Higher in the sense of heavenly immortality ?" 
 
 " You may call it heavenly if you choose. Stay here till the 
 funeral is over, and I will send for you. Are you worn out, 
 child ?" He had withdrawn his arm, and now looked anxiously 
 at her colorless face. 
 
 " No, sir." 
 
 " Then why are you so very pale ?" 
 
 " Did you ever see me, sir, when I was anything else ?" 
 
 " I have seen you look less ghostly. Good bye." He left the 
 house without even shaking hands. 
 
 The day which succeeded was very gloomy, and after the 
 funeral rites had been performed, and the second day looked in, 
 Beulah's heart rejoiced at the prospect of returning home. 
 Clara shrank from the thought of being left alone, the little cot- 
 tage was so desolate. She would give it up now, of course, and 
 find a cheap boarding-house ; but the furniture must be rubbed, 
 and sent down to an auction room, and she dreaded the separa- 
 tion from all the objects which linked her with the past. 
 
 " Clara, I have been commissioned to invite you to spend 
 several days with me, until you can select a boarding-house. Dr. 
 Hartwell will be glad to have you come." 
 
 " Did he say so ?" asked the mourner, shading her face with 
 her hand. 
 
 "He told me I must briug you home with me," answered 
 Beulah. 
 
 "Oh, how good, how noble he is 1 Beulah, you are lucky, 
 lucky indeed." She dropped her head on her arms. 
 
 " Clara, I believe there is less difference in our positions than 
 you seem to imagine. We are both orphans, and in about a year 
 I too shall be a teacher. Dr. Hartwell is my guardian and pro- 
 tector, but he will be a kind friend to you also." 
 
 c< Beulah, you are mad, to dream of leaving him, and turning 
 teacher ! I am older than you, and have travelled over the very 
 
140 B E U L A H . 
 
 track that you are so eager to set out upon. Oh, take my 
 advice ; stay where you are ! Would you leave summer sun- 
 shine for the icebergs of Arctic night ? Silly girl, appreciate 
 your good fortune.' 7 
 
 " Can it be possible, Clara, that you are fainting so soon ? 
 Where are all your firm resolves ? If it is your duty, what 
 matter the difficulties ?" She looked down, pityingly, on her 
 companion, as in olden time one of the athletas might have done 
 upon a drooping comrade. 
 
 " Necessity knows no conditions, Beulah. I have no alterna- 
 tive but to labor in that horrible treadmill round, day after day. 
 You are more fortunate ; can have a home, of elegance, luxury 
 and " 
 
 " And dependence 1 Would you be willing to change places 
 with me, and indolently wait for others to maintain you ?" 
 interrupted Beulah, looking keenly at the wan, yet lovely face 
 before her. 
 
 " Ah, gladly, if I had been selected as you were. Once, I 
 too felt hopeful and joyous ; but now life is dreary, almost a bur- 
 den. Be warned, Beulah, don't suffer your haughty spirit to 
 make you reject the offered home that may be yours." 
 
 There was a strong approach to contempt in the expression 
 with which Beulah regarded her, as the last words were uttered, 
 and she answered coldly : 
 
 " You are less a woman than I thought you, if you would be 
 willing to live on the bounty of others when a little activity 
 would enable you to support yourself." 
 
 "Ah, Beulah! it is not only the bread you eat. or the 
 clothes that you wear ; it is sympathy and kindness, ^\-& and 
 watchfulness. It is this that a woman wants. Oh ! was her 
 heart made, think you, to be filled with grammars and geogra- 
 phies, and copy books ? Can the feeling that you are independ- 
 ent and doing your duty, satisfy the longing for other idols ? 
 Oh ! Duty is an icy shadow. It will freeze you. It cannot fill 
 the heart's sanctuary. Woman was intended as a pet plant, to 
 
B E U L A H . 141 
 
 be guarded and cherished ; isolated and uncared for, she droops, 
 languishes and dies." Ah ! the dew-sparkle had exhaled, and 
 the morning glory had vanished ; the noontide heat of the con- 
 flict was creeping on, and she was sinking down, impotent to 
 continue the struggle. 
 
 " Clara Sanders, I don't believe one word of all this languish- 
 ing nonsense. As to my being nothing more nor less than a 
 sickly geranium, I know better. If you have concluded that you 
 belong to that dependent family of plants, I pity you sincerely, 
 and beg that you will not put me in any such category. Diity 
 may be a cold shadow to you, but it is a vast volcanic agency, 
 constantly impelling me to action. What was my will given to 
 me for, if to remain passive and suffer others to minister to its 
 needs ? Don't talk to me about woman's clinging, dependent 
 nature. You are opening your lips to repeat that senseless 
 simile of oaks and vines ; I don't want to hear it ; there are no 
 creeping tendencies about me. You can wind, and lean, and 
 hang on somebody else if you like ; but I feel more like one of 
 those old pine-trees, yonder. I can stand up. Very slim, if you 
 will, but straight and high. Stand by myself ; battle with wind 
 and rain, and tempest roar ; be swayed and bent, perhaps, iu 
 the storm, but stand unaided, nevertheless. I feel humbled 
 when I hear a woman bemoaning the weakness of her sex, in- 
 stead of showing that she has a soul and mind of her own. 
 inferior to none." 
 
 " All that sounds very heroic in the pages of a novel, but the 
 reality is quite another matter. A tame, joyless, hopeless time 
 you will have if you scorn good fortune, as you threaten, and go 
 into the world to support yourself," answered Clara, impatiently. 
 
 " I would rather struggle with her for a crust than hang on 
 her garments asking a palace. I don't know what has come 
 over you. You are strangely changed," cried Beulah, pressing 
 her hands on her friend's shoulders. 
 
 " The same change will come over you when you endure what 
 I have. With all your boasted strength, you are but a woman ; 
 
142 B E U L A H . 
 
 have a woman's heart, and one day wilt be unable to hush its 
 hungry cries." 
 
 " Then I will crush it ; so help me Heaven !" answered 
 Beulali. 
 
 " No ! sorrow will do that time enough ; no suicidal effort 
 will be necessary." For the first time, Beulah marked an expres- 
 sion of bitterness in the usually gentle, quiet countenance. She 
 was pained more than she chose to evince, and seeing Dr. 
 HartwelPs carriage at the door, prepared to return home. 
 
 " Tell him that I am very grateful for his kind offer : that his 
 friendly remembrance is dear to a bereaved orphan. Ah, 
 Beulah ! I have known him from my childhood, and he has 
 always been a friend as well as a physician. During my 
 mother's long illness, he watched her carefully and constantly, 
 and when we tendered him the usual recompense for his services, 
 he refused all remuneration, declaring he had only been a friend. 
 He knew we were poor, and could ill afford any expense. Oh, 
 
 do you wonder that I . Are you going immediately ? 
 
 Come often when I get to a boarding-house. Do, Beulah ! I am 
 so desolate ; so desolate." She bowed her head on Beulah's 
 shoulder, and wept unrestrainedly. 
 
 " Yes, I will come as often as I can ; and, Clara, do try to 
 cheer up. I can't bear to see you sink down in this way." She 
 kissed the tearful face, and hurried away. 
 
 It was Saturday, and retiring to her own room, she answered 
 Eugene's brief letter. Long before, she had seen with painful 
 anxiety, that he wrote more and more rarely, and while his 
 communications clearly conveyed the impression, that he fancied 
 they were essential to her happiness, the protective tenderness 
 of early years, gave place to a certain commanding, yet conde- 
 scending tone. Intuitively perceiving, yet unable to analyze this 
 gradual revolution of feeling, Beulah was sometimes tempted to 
 cut short the correspondence. But her long and ardent attach- 
 ment drowned the whispers of wounded pride, and hallowed 
 memories of his boyish love, ever prevented an expression of the 
 
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 pain and wonder, with which she beheld the alteration in his 
 character. Unwilling to accuse him of the weakness, which 
 prompted much of his arrogance and egotism, her heart framed 
 various excuses for his seeming coldness. At first she had 
 written often, and without reference to ordinary epistolary debts, 
 but now she regularly waited (and that for some time) for the 
 arrival of his letters ; not from a diminution of affection, so 
 much as from true womanly delicacy, lest she should obtrude 
 herself too frequently upon his notice. More than once she had 
 been troubled by a dawning consciousness of her own superi- 
 ority, but accustomed for years to look up to him as a sort of 
 infallible guide, she would not admit the suggestion, and tried 
 to keep alive the admiring respect, with which she had been 
 wont to defer to his judgment. He seemed to consider his 
 dogmatic dictation both acceptable and necessary, and it was 
 this assumed mastery, unaccompanied with manifestations 
 of former tenderness, which irritated and aroused her pride. 
 With the brush of youthful imagination she had painted 
 him as the future statesman gifted, popular, and revered ; 
 and while visions of his fame and glory flitted before her 
 the promise of sharing all with her was by no means the 
 least fascinating feature in her fancy picture. Of late, how- 
 ever, he had ceased to speak of the choice of a profession, and 
 mentioned vaguely Mr. Graham's wish that he should ac- 
 quaint himself thoroughly with French, German, and Spanish, 
 in order to facilitate the correspondence of the firm with 
 foreign houses. She felt that once embarked on the sea of 
 mercantile life, he would have little leisure or inclination to 
 pursue the paths which she hoped to travel by his side, and, on 
 this occasion, her letter was longer and more earnest than usual, 
 urging his adherence to the original choice of the law, and 
 using every forcible argument she could adduce. Finally, the 
 reply was sealed and directed, and she went down to the study 
 to place it in the marble receiver which stood on her guardian's 
 desk. Hal, who accompanied the doctor in his round of visits, 
 
144 BEULAH. 
 
 always took their letters to the post-office, and punctually 
 deposited all directed to them in the vase. To her sur- 
 prise she found no fire in the grate. The blinds were drawn 
 closely, and in placing her letter on the desk, she noticed 
 several addressed to the doctor, and evidently unopened. They 
 must have arrived the day before, and while she wondered at 
 the aspect of the room, Harriet entered. 
 
 " Miss Beulah, do you know how long master expects to be 
 gone ? I thought, maybe, you could tell when you came home, 
 for Mrs. Watson does not seem to know any more than I do." 
 
 " Gone ! What do you mean ?" 
 
 "Don't you know he has gone up the river to the plantation ? 
 Why, I packed his valise at daylight yesterday, and he left in 
 the early morning boat. He has not been to the plantation 
 since just before you came here. Hal says he heard him tell 
 Dr. Asbury to take charge of his patients, that his overseer had 
 to be looked after. He told me he was going to the plantation, 
 and I would have asked him when he was coming back, but he 
 was in on,e of his unsatisfactory ways ; looked just like his 
 mouth had been dipped in hot sealing-wax, so I held my 
 tongue." 
 
 Beulah bit her lips with annoyance, but sat down before the 
 melodeon, and said as unconcernedly as possible : 
 
 " I did not know he had left the city, and of course have no 
 idea when he will be back. Harriet, please make me a fire 
 here, or call Hal to do it." 
 
 " There is a good fire in the dining-room ; better go in there 
 and sit with Mrs. Watson. She is busy seeding raisins for 
 mincemeat and fruit-cake." 
 
 " No, I would rather stay here." 
 
 " Then I will kindle you a fire right away." 
 
 Harriet moved about the room with cheerful alacrity. She 
 had always seemed to consider herself Beulah's special guardian 
 and friend, and gave continual proof of the strength of her 
 affection. Evidently she desired to talk about her master, but 
 
BEULAH. 14:5 
 
 Beulah's face gave her no encouragement to proceed. She made 
 several efforts to renew the conversation, but they were not 
 seconded, and she withdrew, muttering to herself : 
 
 " She is learning all his ways. He does hate to talk any more 
 than he can help, and she is patterning after him just as fast as 
 she can. They don't seem to know what the Lord gave them 
 tongues for." 
 
 Beulah practised perseveringly, for some time, and then draw- 
 ing a chair near the fire, sat down and leaned her head on her 
 hand. She missed her guardian wanted to see him felt sur- 
 prised at his sudden departure, and mortified that he had not 
 thought her of sufficient consequence to bid adieu to, and be 
 apprised of his intended trip. He treated her precisely as he 
 did when she first entered the house ; seemed to consider her a 
 mere child, whereas she knew she was no longer such. He 
 never alluded to her plan of teaching, and when she chanced to 
 mention it, he offered no comment, looked indifferent or ab- 
 stracted. Though invariably kind, and sometimes humorous, 
 there was an impenetrable reserve respecting himself, his past 
 und future, which was never laid aside. When not engaged with 
 his flowers or music, he was deep in some favorite volume, and, 
 outside of these sources of enjoyment, seemed to derive no real 
 pleasure. Occasionally he had visitors, but these were generally 
 strangers, often persons residing at a distance, and Beulah knew 
 nothing of them. Several times he had attended concerts and 
 lectures, but she had never accompanied him ; and frequently, 
 when sitting by his side, felt as if a glacier lay between them. 
 After Mrs. Chilton's departure for New York, where she and 
 Pauline were boarding, no ladies ever came to the house, 
 except a few of middle age, who called now and then to see 
 Mrs. Wat on, and, utterly isolated from society, Beulah was 
 conscious of entire ignoraucB of all that passed in polite circles. 
 Twice Claudia had called, but unable to forget the past suffi- 
 ciently to enter Mrs. Grayson's house, their intercourse had 
 ended with Claudia's visits. Mrs. Watson was a kind-hearted 
 
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146 BEULAH. 
 
 and most excellent woman, who made an admirable housekeeper, 
 but possessed few of the qualifications requisite to render her 
 an agreeable companion. With an ambitious nature, and an 
 eager thirst for knowledge, Beulah had improved her advantages 
 as only those do who have felt the need of them. While she 
 acquired, with unusual ease and rapidity, the branches of learn- 
 ing taught at school, she had availed herself of the extensive 
 arid select library, to which she had free access, and history, 
 biography, travels, essays and novels had been perused with 
 singular avidity. Dr. Hartwell, without restricting her reading, 
 suggested the propriety of incorporating more of the poetic 
 element in her course. The hint was timely, and induced an 
 acquaintance with the great bards of England and Germany, 
 although her taste led her to select works of another character. 
 Her secluded life favored habits of study, and at an age when girls 
 are generally just beginning to traverse the fields of literature, she 
 had progressed so far as to explore some of the footpaths which 
 entice contemplative minds from the beaten track. With earlier 
 cultivation and superiority of years, Eugene had essayed to direct 
 her reading ; but now, in point of advancement, she felt that she 
 was in the van. Dr. Hartwell had told her, whenever she was 
 puzzled, to come to him for explanation, and his clear analysis 
 taught her how immeasurably superior he was, even to those 
 instructors whose profession it was to elucidate mysteries. Ac- 
 customed to seek companionship in books, she did not, upon the 
 present occasion, long reflect on her guardian's sudden departure, 
 but took from the shelves a volume of Poe which contained her 
 mark. The parting rays of the winter sun grew fainter ; the 
 dull, sombre light of vanishing day made the room dim, and it 
 was only by means of the red glare from the glowing grate that 
 she deciphered the print. Finally the lamp was brought in, and 
 shed a mellow radiance over the dusky apartment. The volume 
 was finished, and dropped upon her lap. The spell of this 
 incomparable sorcerer was upon her imagination ; the sluggish, 
 lurid tarn 'of Usher ; the pale, gigantic water lilies, nodding 
 
B E TJ L A H . 14/i 
 
 their ghastly, everlasting heads over the dreary Za'ire ; th< 
 shrouding shadow of Helusion ; the ashen skies, and sere, crispec 
 leaves in the ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir, hard by th< 
 dim lake of Auber all lay with grim distinctness before her 
 and from the red bars of the grate, the wild, lustrous, appalling 
 eyes of Ligeia looked out at her, while the unearthly tones of 
 Morclla whispered from every corner of the room. She ros< 
 and replaced the book on the shelf, striving to shake off the dis 
 mal hold which all this phantasmagoria had taken on her fancy 
 Her eyes chanced to fall upon a bust of Athene which surmountec 
 her guardian's desk, and immediately the mournful refrain of th< 
 Haven, solemn and dirge-like, floated through the air, enhancing 
 the spectral element which enveloped her. She retreated to th< 
 parlor, and running her fingers over the keys of the piano 
 endeavored by playing some of her favorite airs, to divest he: 
 mind of the dreary, unearthly images which haunted it. Th< 
 attempt was futile, and there in the dark, cold parlor, she leanec 
 her head against the piano, and gave herself up to the guidance 
 of one who, like the " Ancient Mariner," holds his listener fasci 
 uated and breathless. Once her guardian had warned her not tc 
 study Poe too closely, but the book was often in his own hand 
 and yielding to the matchless ease and rapidity of his diction 
 she found herself wandering in a wilderness of baffling sugges- 
 tions. Under the drapery of " William Wilson," of " Morella ' 
 and " Ligeia," she caught tantalizing glimpses of recondite 
 psychological truths and processes, which dimly hovered over her 
 own consciousness, but ever eluded the grasp of analysis. While 
 his unique imagery filled her mind with wondering delight, she 
 shrank appalled from the mutilated fragments which he pre- 
 sented to her as truths, on the point of his glittering scalpel of 
 logic. With the eagerness of a child clutching at its own 
 shadow in a glassy lake, and thereby destroying it, she had read 
 that anomalous prose poem " Eureka." The quaint humor of 
 that "bottled letter" first arrested her attention, and, once 
 launched on the sea of Cosmogonies, she was amazed at the 
 
148 BEULAH. 
 
 seemingly infallible reasoning, which, at the conclusion, coolly 
 informed her that she was her own God. Mystified, shocked, 
 and yet admiring, she had gone to Dr. Hartwell for a solution of 
 the difficulty. False she felt the whole icy tissue to be, yet 
 could not detect the adroitly disguised sophisms. Instead of 
 assisting her, as usual, he took the book from her, smiled and 
 put it away, saying, indifferently : 
 
 " You must not play with such sharp tools just yet. Go and 
 practise your music lesson." 
 
 She was too deeply interested to be put off so quietly, and 
 constantly pondered this singular production, which confirmed 
 in some degree a fancy of her own concerning the preexistence 
 of the soul. Only on the hypothesis of an anterior life could she 
 explain some of the mental phenomena which puzzled her. 
 Heedless of her guardian's warning, she had striven to compre- 
 hend the philosophy of this methodical madman, and now felt 
 bewildered and restless. This study of Poe was the portal 
 through which she entered the vast Pantheon of Speculation. 
 
 CHAPTER XIV. 
 
 A WEEK later, at the close of a dull winter day, Beulah sat as 
 usual in the study. The large parlors and dining-room had a 
 desolate look at all times, and .of the whole house, only the study 
 seemed genial. Busily occupied during the day, it was not until 
 evening that she realized her guardian's absence. No tidings of 
 him had been received, and she began to wonder at his pro- 
 longed stay. She felt very lonely without him, and though 
 generally taciturn, she missed him from the hearth, missed the 
 tall form, and the sad, stern face. Another Saturday had come, 
 and all day she had been with Clara in her new home, trying tc 
 
B E U L A H . 14 
 
 cheer the mourner, and dash away the gloom that seemed se 1 
 tling down upon her spirits. At dusk, she returned home 
 spent au hour at the piano, and now wall 3d up and down th 
 study, rapt in thought. The room had a cozy, comfortabl 
 aspect; the fire burned brightly; the lamp light sirvered th 
 paintings and statues; and on the rug before the grate lay 
 huge black dog of the St. Bernard order, his shaggy head thrm 
 between his paws. The large, intelligent eyes, followed Beula 
 as she paced to and fro, and seemed mutely to question he 
 restlessness. His earnest scrutiny attracted her notice, and st 
 held out her hand, saying, musingly: 
 
 " Poor Charon; you too miss your master. Charon, King < 
 Shadows, when will he come." 
 
 The great black eyes gazed intently into hers, and seemed 1 
 echo, " when will he come ?" He lifted his grim head, snuffe 
 the air, listened, and sullenly dropped his face on his paws agaii 
 Beulah threw herself on the rug, and laid her head on his thic 
 neck ; he gave a quick, short bark of satisfaction, and very soc 
 both girl and dog were fast asleep. A quarter of an hour glide 
 by, and then Beulah was suddenly roused by a violent motic 
 of her pillow. Charon sprang up, and leaped frantically aero 
 the room. The comb which confined her hair had fallen ou 
 and gathering up the jetty folds which swept over her shoulder 
 she looked around. Dr. Hartwell was closing the door. 
 
 "Down, Charon; you ebon scamp! Down, you keeper < 
 Styx!" He forced down the paws from his shoulders, at 
 patted the shaggy head, while his eyes rested affectionately c 
 the delighted countenance of his sable favorite. As he thre 
 down his gloves, his eyes fell on Beulah, who had hastily rise 
 from the rug, and he held out his hand, saying: 
 
 "Ah! Charon waked you rudely. How are you?" 
 
 " Very well, thank you, sir. I am so glad you have con 
 home, so glad." She took his cold hand between both her 
 rubbed it vigorously, and looked up joyfully in his face. SI 
 thought he was paler and more haggard than she had ever se< 
 
L50 B E U L A H . 
 
 rim; his hair clustered iu disorder about bis forehead; his whole 
 ispect was weary and wretched. He suffered her to keep his 
 land in her warm, tij ht clasp, and asked kindly: 
 
 " Are you well, B julah ? Your face is flushed, and you feel 
 'everish."* 
 
 " Perfectly well. But yon are as cold as an Esquimaux 
 hunter. Come to the fire." She drew his arm-chair, with its 
 iandle-staud and book-board, close to the hearth, and put his 
 warm velvet slippers before him. She forgot her wounded pride; 
 forgot that he had left without even bidding her good bye; and 
 only remembered that he had come home again, that he was 
 sitting there iu the study, and she would be lonely no more. 
 Silently leaning back in the chair, he closed his eyes with a sigh 
 of relief. She felt as if she would like very much to smooth off 
 the curling hair that lay thick and damp on his white, gleaming 
 brow, but dared not. She stood watching him for a moment, 
 and said considerately: 
 
 " Will you have your tea now ? Charon and I had our sup- 
 per long ago." 
 
 "No, child; I only want to rest." 
 
 Beulah fancied he spoke impatiently. Had she been too offi- 
 cious iu welcoming him to his own home ? She bit her lip with 
 proud vexation, and taking her geometry, left him. As she 
 reached the door, the doctor called to her: 
 
 " Beulah, you need not go away. This is a better fire than 
 the one in your own room." But she was wounded, and did not 
 choose to stay. 
 
 " I can study better in my own room. Good night, sir." 
 " Why, child, this is Saturday night. No lessons until 
 Monday." 
 
 She was not particularly mollified by the reiteration of the 
 word " child," and answered, coldly : 
 
 " There are hard lessons for every day we live." 
 
 " Well, be good enough to hand me the letters that ha\o 
 arrived during my absence." 
 
BE TIL AH. 151 
 
 t 
 
 She emptied the letter receiver, and placed several communi- 
 cations in his hand. He pointed to a chair near the fire, and 
 said, quietly : 
 
 " Sit down, my child; sit down." 
 
 Too proud to discover how much she was piqued by his cold- 
 ness, she took the seat and commenced studying. But lines and 
 angles swam confusedly before her, and, shutting the book, she 
 sat looking into the fire. While her eyes roamed into the deep, 
 glowing crevices of the coals, a letter was hurled into the fiery 
 mass, and in an instant blazed and shrivelled to ashes. She 
 looked up in surprise, and started at the expression of her 
 guardian's face. Its Antinous-like beauty had vanished ; the 
 pale lips writhed, displaying the faultless teeth; the thin nostrils 
 were expanded, and the eyes burned with fierce anger. The 
 avalanche was upheaved by hidden volcanic fires, and he 
 exclaimed, with scornful emphasis : 
 
 " Idiot ! blind lunatic ! In his dotage 1" 
 
 There was something so marvellous in this excited, angry 
 manifestation, that Beulah, who had never before seen him other 
 than phlegmatic, looked at him with curious wonder. His 
 clenched hand rested on the arm of the chair, and he continued, 
 sarcastically : 
 
 " Oh, a precious pair of idiots 1 They will have a glorious 
 life. Such harmony, such congeniality ! Such incomparable 
 sweetness, on her part, such equable spirits on his ! Not the 
 surpassing repose of a windless tropic night can approach to the 
 divine serenity of their future. Ha 1 by the Furies 1 he will 
 have an enviable companion; a matchless Griselda 1" Laughing 
 scornfully, he started up and strode across the floor. As Beulah 
 (aim-lit the withering expression which sat on every feature, she 
 shuddered involuntarily. Could she bear to incur his contempt ? 
 II- approached her, and she felt as though her very soul shrank 
 from him ; his glowing eyes seemed to burn her face, as he 
 paused and said, ironically : 
 
 " Can't you participate in my joy ? I have a new brothcr-iu- 
 
152 BEULAH. 
 
 law. Congratulate me on my sister's marriage. Such desperate 
 good news can come but rarely in a lifetime." 
 
 " Whom has she married, sir ?" asked Beulah, shrinking from 
 the iron grasp on her shoulder. 
 
 " Percy Lockhart, of course. He will rue his madness. I 
 warned him. Now let him seek apples in the orchards of 
 Sodom! Let him lay his parched lips to the treacherous waves 
 of the Dead Sea ! Oh, I pity the fool ! I tried to save him, 
 but he would seal his own doom. Let him pay the usurious 
 school-fees of experience." 
 
 " Perhaps your sister's love for him will " - 
 
 "Oh, you young, ignorant lamb ! You poor, little unfledged 
 birdling ! I suppose you fancy she is really attached to him. 
 Do you, indeed ? About as much as that pillar of salt in the 
 plain of Sodom was attached to the memory of Lot. About as 
 much as this peerless Niobe of mine is attached to me." He 
 struck the marble statue as he spoke. 
 
 " Then, how could she marry him ?" asked Beulah, naively. 
 
 " Ha ! ha ! I will present you to the Smithsonian Institute 
 as the last embodiment of effete theories. Who exhumed you, 
 patron saint of archaism, from the charnel-house of centuries ?" 
 He looked down at her with an expression of intolerable bitter- 
 ness and scorn. Her habitually pale face flushed to crimson, as 
 >he answered with sparkling eyes : 
 
 " Not the hands of Diogenes, encumbered with his tub I" 
 
 He smiled grimly. 
 
 " Know the world as I do, child, and tubs and palaces 
 will be alike to you. Feel the pulse of humanity, and you 
 
 " Heaven preserve me from looking on life through your 
 spectacles !" cried she, impetuously, stung by the contemptuous 
 smile which curled his lips. 
 
 " Amen." Taking his hands from her shoulder, he threw 
 himself back into his chair. There was silence for some minutes, 
 and Beulah said : 
 
BEULAH. i 
 
 " I thought Mr. Loekhart was in Syria ?" 
 
 " Oh, no ; he wants a companion in his jaunt to the Hoi; 
 Land. How devoutly May will kneel on Olivet and Moriah 
 What pious tears will stain her lovely cheek as she stands in th 
 hall of Pilate, and calls to mind all the thirty years' history 
 Oh ! Percy is cruel to subject her tender soul to such torturing 
 associations. Beulah, go and play something ; no matter what 
 Anything to hush my cursing mood. Go, child." He turne< 
 away his face to hide its bitterness, and, seating herself at th 
 melodeou, Beulah played a German air, of which he was ver 
 fond. At the conclusion, he merely said : 
 
 " Sing." 
 
 A plaintive prelude followed the command, and she sang. N 
 description could do justice to the magnificent voice, as it swelle< 
 deep and full in its organ-like tones ; now thrillingly low in it 
 wailing melody, and now ringing clear and sweet as silver bells 
 There were soft, rippling notes, that seemed to echo from th 
 deeps of her soul, and voice its immensity. It was wonderfi 
 what compass there was, what rare sweetness and purity too. I 
 was a natural gift, like that conferred on birds. Art could no 
 produce it, but practice and scientific culture had improved an 
 perfected it. For three years the best teachers had instructe< 
 her, and she felt that now she was mistress of a spell whicl 
 once invoked, might easily exorcise the evil spirit which ha< 
 taken possession of her guardian. She sang several of hi 
 favorite songs, then closed the melodeon, and went back to tli 
 fire. Dr. Hartwell's face lay against the purple velvet lining c 
 the chair, and the dark surface gave out the contour with boL 
 distinctness. His eyes were closed, and as Beulah watched him 
 she thought, " how inflexible he looks, how like a marble imagt 
 The rnouth seems as if the sculptor's chisel had just carved it 
 so stern, so stony. Ah I he is not scornful now ; he looks onl, 
 sad, uncomplaining, but very miserable. What has steeled hi 
 heart, and made him so unrelenting, so haughty ? What ca 
 have isolated him so completely ? Nature lavished on him ever 
 
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154: BEULAH. 
 
 gift which could render him the charm of social circles, yet ho 
 lives in the seclusion of his own fieart, independent of sympathy, 
 contemptuous of the world he was sent to improve and bless." 
 These reflections were interrupted by his opening his eyes, and 
 saying, in his ordinary, calm tone : 
 
 " Thank you, Beulah. Did you finish that opera I spoke of 
 some time since ?" 
 
 "Yes, sir." 
 
 "You found it difficult ?" 
 
 " Not so difficult as your description led me to imagine." 
 
 " Were you lonely while I was away ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir." 
 
 " Why did not Clara come and stay with you ?" 
 
 " She was engaged in changing her home ; has removed to 
 Mrs. Hoyt's boarding-house." 
 
 " When did you see her last ? How does she bear the blow ?" 
 
 " I was with her to-day. She is desponding, and seems to 
 grow more so daily." 
 
 She wondered very much whether he suspected the preference 
 which she felt sure Clara ectertained for him ; and as the sub- 
 ject recurred to her, she looked troubled. 
 
 " What is the matter ?" he asked, accustomed to reading her 
 expressive face. 
 
 " Nothing that can be remedied, sir." 
 
 " How do you know that ? Suppose you let me be the judge." 
 
 " You could not judge of it, sir ; and besides, it is no concern 
 of mine." 
 
 A frigid smile fled over his face, and for some time he appeared 
 lost in thought. His companion was thinking too ; wondering 
 how Clara could cope with such a nature as his ; wondering why 
 people always selected persons totally unsuited to them ; and 
 fancying that if Clara only knew her guardian's character as 
 well as she did, the gentle girl would shrink in dread from his 
 unbending will, his habitual, moody taciturnity. He was gene- 
 rous and unselfish, but also as unyielding as the Rock of Gibral- 
 
BEULAH. 155 
 
 tar. There was nothing pleasurable in this train of thought, and 
 taking up a book, she soon ceased to think of the motionless 
 figure opposite. No sooner were her eyes once fastened on her 
 book, than his rested searchiugly on her face. At first she read 
 without much manifestation of interest, regularly and slowly 
 passing her hand over the black head which Charon had laid on 
 her lap. After a while the lips parted eagerly, the leaves were 
 turned quickly, and the touches on Charon's head ceased. Her 
 long, black lashes could not veil the expression of enthusiastic 
 pleasure. Another page fluttered over, a flush stole across her 
 brow ; and as she closed the volume, her whole face was irradi- 
 ated. 
 
 " What are you reading ?" asked Dr. Hartwell, when she seemed 
 to sink into a reverie. 
 
 " Analects from Richter." 
 
 " De Quincey's !" 
 
 "Yes, sir." 
 
 " Once that marvellous ' Dream upon the Universe ' fascinated 
 me as completely as it now does you." 
 
 Memories of earlier days clustered about him, parting the 
 sombre clouds with their rosy fingers. His features began to 
 soften. 
 
 " Sir, can you read it now without feeling your soul kindle ?" 
 
 " Yes, child : it has lost its interest for me. I read it as indif- 
 ferently as I do one of my medical books. So will you one day." 
 
 " Never ! It shall be a guide-book to my soul, telling of the 
 pathway arched with galaxies and paved with suns, through 
 which that soul shall pass in triumph to its final rest 1" 
 
 " And who shall remain in that ' illimitable dungeon of pure, 
 pure darkness, which imprisons creation ? That dead sea of 
 nothing, in whose unfathomable zone of blackness the jewel of 
 the glittering universe is set, and buried forever T Child, is not 
 that, too, a dwelling-place ?" He passed his fingers through his 
 hair, sweeping it all back from his ample forehead Beulah 
 opened the book, and read aloud : 
 
156 BEULAH. 
 
 " Iiu mediately my eyes were opened, and I saw, as it were, an 
 interminable sea of light : all spaces between all heavens were 
 filled with happiest light, for the deserts and wastes of the crea- 
 tion were now filled with the sea of light, and in this sea the 
 *u:.s floated like ash-grey blossoms, and the planets like black 
 grains of seed. Then my heart compreuended that immortality 
 dwelled in the spaces between the worlds, and Death only among 
 the worlds ; and the murky planets I perceived were but cradles 
 for the infant spirits of the universe of light ! In the Zaarahs of 
 the creation I saw, I heard, I felt the glittering, the echoing, 
 the breathing of life and creative power !" 
 
 She closed the volume, and while her lips trembled with deep 
 feeling, added earnestly : 
 
 " Oh, sir, it makes me long, like Jean Paul, ' for some narrow 
 cell or quiet oratory in this metropolitan cathedral of the uni- 
 verse/ It is an infinite conception and painting of infinity, which 
 my soul endeavors to grasp, but wearies in thinking of I" 
 
 Dr. Hartwell smiled, and pointing to a row of books, said 
 with some eagerness : 
 
 " I will test your love of Jean Paul. Give me that large 
 olume in crimson binding on the second shelf. No further 
 on ; that is it." 
 
 He turned over the leaves for a few minutes, and with a finder 
 still on the page, put it into her hand, saying : 
 
 " Begin here at ' I went through the worlds,' and read down 
 to ' when I awoke.' " 
 
 She sat down and read. He put his hand carelessly over his 
 eyes, and watched her curiously through his fingers. It was 
 evident that she soon became intensely interested. He could 
 see the fierce throbbing of a vein in her throat, and the tight 
 clutching of her fingers. Her eyebrows met in the wrinkling 
 forehead, and the lips were compressed severely. Gradually the 
 flush faded from her cheek, an expression of pain and horror 
 swept over her stormy face, and rising hastily, she exclaimed : 
 
 " False ! false ! ' That everlasting storm which no one guides ' 
 
BEULAH. 157 
 
 tells me in thunder tones that there is a home of rest in the pre- 
 sence of the infinite father ! Oh, chance does not roam, like a 
 destroying angel, through that ' snow-powder of stars I 7 The love 
 of our God is over all his works as a mantle ! Though you should 
 ' take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts 
 of the sea,' lo ! He is there ! The sorrowing children of the uni- 
 verse are not orphans ! Neither did Richter believe it ; well 
 might he declare that with this sketch he would ' terrify himself ' 
 and vanquish the spectre of Atheism ! Oh, sir ! the dear God 
 stretches his arm about each and all of us ! ' When the sorrow- 
 laden lays himself, with a galled back, into the earth, to sleep 
 till a fairer morning,' it is not true that ' he awakens in a stormy 
 chaos, in an everlasting midnight I' It is not true I He goes 
 home to his loved dead, and spends a blissful eternity in the king- 
 dom of Jehovah, where death is no more, ' where the wicked 
 cease from troubling, and the weary are at rest I' " 
 
 She laid the volume on his knee, and tears which would not be 
 restrained, rolled swiftly over her cheeks. 
 
 He looked at her mournfully, and took her hand in his. 
 
 "My child, do you believe all this as heartily as you did 
 when a little girl ? Is your faith in your religion unshaken ?" 
 
 He felt her fingers close over his spasmodically, as she hastily 
 replied : 
 
 " Of course, of course ! What could shake a faith which 
 years should strengthen ?" 
 
 But the shiver which crept through her frame denied her asser- 
 tion, and wilh a keen pang, he saw the footprints of the 
 Destroyer. She must not know, however, that he doubted her 
 words, and with an effort, he said : 
 
 " I am glad, Betilali ; and if you would continue to believe, 
 don't read my books promiscuously. There are many on those 
 shelves yonder which I would advise you never to open. Be 
 warned in time, my child." 
 
 She snatched her hand from his, and answered proudly : 
 
 " Sir, think you 1 could be satisfied with a creed which I could 
 
158 BEULAH. 
 
 not bear to have investigated ? If I abstained from reading 
 your books, dreading lest my faith be shaken, then I could no 
 longer confide in that faith. Christianity has triumphed over the 
 subtleties of infidelity for eighteen hundred years ; what have I 
 to fear ?" 
 
 " Beulah, do you want to be just what I am ? Without belief 
 in any creed ! hopeless of eternity as of life ! Do you want to be 
 like me ? If not, keep your hands off of my books ! Good night; 
 it is time for you to be asleep." 
 
 He motioned her away, and too much pained to reply, she 
 silently withdrew. 
 
 CHAPTER XV. 
 
 THE day had been clear, though cold, and late in the after- 
 noon, Beulah wrapped a shawl about her, and ran out into the 
 front yard for a walk. The rippling tones of the fountain were 
 hushed ; the shrubs were bare, and, outside the greenhouse, not 
 a flower was to be seen. Even the hardy chrysanthemums were 
 brown and shrivelled. Here vegetation slumbered in the gr^ve 
 of winter. The hedges were green, and occasional clumps of 
 cassina bent their branches beneath the weight of coral fruitage. 
 Tall poplars lifted their leafless arms helplessly toward the sky, 
 and threw grotesque shadows on the ground beneath, while the 
 wintry wind chanted a mournful dirge through the sombre foli- 
 age of the aged, solemn cedars. Noisy flocks of robins fluttered 
 among the trees, eating the ripe, red yupon berries, and now and 
 then, parties of pigeons circled round and round the house. 
 Charon lay on the door-step, blinking at the setting sun, with 
 his sage face dropped on his paws. Afar off was heard the hum 
 of the city; but here all was quiet and peaceful. Beulah looked 
 over the beds, lately so brilliant and fragrant in their wealth of 
 
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 flora.l beauty ; at the bare grey poplars, whose musical rustling 
 had so often hushed her to sleep in cloudless summer iiights, and 
 an expression of serious thoughtfulness settled on her face. 
 Many months before, she had watched the opening spring in this 
 same garden. Had seen young leaves and delicate blossoms bud 
 out from naked stems, had noted their rich luxuriance as the 
 summer heat came on their mature beauty; and when the first 
 breath of autumn sighed through the laud, she saw them flush 
 and decline, and gradually die and rustle down to their graves. 
 Now, where green boughs and perfumed petals had gaily looked 
 up in the sunlight, all was desolate. The piercing northern 
 wind seemed to whisper as it passed, " life is but the germ of 
 death, and death the development of a higher life." Was the 
 cycle eternal then ? Were the beautiful ephemera she had loved 
 so dearly gone down into the night of death, but for a season, 
 to be born again, in some distant springtime, mature, and 
 return, as before, to the charnel-house ? Were the three ^core 
 and ten years of human life analogous ? Life, too, had its spring- 
 time, its summer of maturity, its autumnal decline, and its wintry 
 night of death. Were the cold sleepers in the neighboring 
 cemetery waiting, like those dead flowers, for the tireless pro- 
 cesses of nature, whereby their dust was to be reanimated, 
 remolded, lighted with a soul, and set forward for another 
 journey of three score and ten years of life and labor ? Men 
 lived and died ; their ashes enriched mother Earth, new creations 
 sprang, phoenix-like, from the sepulchre of the old. Another 
 generation trod life's path in the dim footprints of their prede- 
 cessors, and that, too, vanished in the appointed process, min- 
 gling dust with dust, that Protean matter might hold the even 
 tenor of its way, in accordance with the oracular decrees of 
 Isis. Was it true that, since the original Genesis, " nothing had 
 been gained, and nothing lost ?" Was earth, indeed, a mon- 
 strous Kronos ? If so, was not she as old as creation ? To how 
 many other souls had her body given shelter ? How was her 
 identity to be maintained ? True, she had read that identity 
 
160 BETTLAH. 
 
 was housed in " consciousness," not bones and muscles ? But 
 could there be consciousness without bones and muscles ? She 
 drew her shawl closely around her, and looked up a,t the cloudless 
 sea of azure The sun had sunk below the horizon ; the birds 
 had all gone to rest ; Charon had sought the study rug ; even 
 the distant hum of the city was no longer heard. " The silver 
 sparks of stars were rising on the altar of the east, and falling 
 down in the red sea of the west." Beulah was chilled ; there 
 were cold thoughts in her mind icy spectres in her heart ; and 
 she quickened her pace up and down the avenue, dusky beneath 
 the ancient gloomy cedars. One idea haunted her : aside from 
 revelation, what proof had she that unlike those moldering 
 flowers, her spirit should never die ? No trace was to be found 
 of the myriads of souls who had preceded her. Where were 
 the countless hosts ? Were life and death balanced ? was her 
 own soul chiliads old, forgetting its former existences, save as dim, 
 undefinable reminiscences, flashed fitfully upon it ? If so, was it 
 a progression ? How did she know that her soul had not en- 
 tered her body fresh from the release of the hangman, instead 
 of coming down on angel wings from its starry home, as she had 
 loved to think ? A passage which she had read many weeks 
 before flashed upon her mind : " Upon the dead mother, in peace 
 and utter gloom, are reposing the dead children. After a time, 
 uprises the everlasting sun ; and the mother starts up at the 
 summons of the heavenly dawn, with a resurrection of her an- 
 cient bloom. And her children ? Yes, but they must wait 
 awhile !" This resurrection was springtime, beckoning dormant 
 beauty from the icy arms of winter ; how long must the childreu 
 wait for the uprising of the morning star of eternity ? From 
 childhood these unvoiced queries had perplexed her mind, and, 
 strengthening with her growth, now cried out peremptorily for 
 answers. With shuddering dread, she strove to stifle the spirit 
 which, Oi.ce thoroughly awakened, threatened to explore every 
 nook and cranny of mystery. She longed to talk freely with 
 her guardian, regarding many of the suggestions which puzzled 
 
BEULAH. 161 
 
 her, but shrank instinctively from broaching such topics. Now 
 in her need, the sublime words of Job came to her : " Oh, that 
 my words were now written 1 oh, that they were printed in a 
 book ; for I know that my Redeemer liveth, and that he shall 
 stand at the latter day upon the earth : and though worms 
 destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God." Handel's 
 "Messiah" had invested this passage with resistless grandeur, 
 and leaving the cold, dreary garden, she sat down before the 
 iiielodeon and sang a portion of the Oratorio. The sublime 
 strains seemed to bear her worshipping soul up to the presence- 
 chamber of Deity, and exultingly she repeated the concluding 
 words : 
 
 " For now is Christ risen from the dead ; 
 The first-fruits of them that sleep." 
 
 The triumph of faith shone in her kindled eyes, though glitter- 
 ing drops fell on the ivory keys, and the whole countenance 
 bespoke a heart resting in the love of the Father. While her 
 fingers still rolled waves of melody through the room, Dr. 
 Hart well entered, with a parcel in one hand and a magnificent 
 cluster of greenhouse flowers in the other. He laid the latter 
 before Beulah, and said : 
 
 " I want you to go with me to-night to hear Sontag. The 
 concert commences at eight o'clock, and you have no time to 
 spare. Here are some flowers for your hair ; arrange it as 
 you have it now ; and here, also, a pair of white gloves. When 
 you are ready, come down and make my tea." 
 
 " Thank you, sir, for remembering me so kindly, and supply- 
 ing all my wants so" 
 
 " Beulah, there are tears on your lashes. What is the 
 matter ?" interrupted the doctor, pointing to the drops which 
 had fallen on the rosewood frame of the melodeon. 
 
 " Is it not enough to bring tears to my eyes when I think of 
 all your kindness?" She hurried away without suffering him to 
 urge the matter 
 
162 BEULAH. 
 
 The prospect of hearing Sontag gave her exquisite pleasure, 
 arid she dressed with trembling eagerness, while Harriet leaned 
 on the bureau and wondered what would happen next. Except 
 to attend church and visit Clara and Mrs. Williams, Beulah had 
 never gone out before; and the very seclusion in which she lived, 
 rendered this occasion one of interest and importance. As she 
 took her cloak and ran down-stairs, the young heart throbbed 
 violently. Would her fastidious guardian be satisfied with her 
 appearance ? She felt the blood gush over her face as she 
 entered the room; but he did not look at her, continued to read 
 the newspaper he held, and said, from behind the extended sheet: 
 
 " I will join you directly." 
 
 She poured out the tea with an unsteady hand. Dr. Hartwell 
 took his silently ; and as both rose from the table, handed her a 
 paper, saying : 
 
 " The carriage is not quite ready, yet. There is a pro- 
 gramme." 
 
 As she glanced over it, he scanned her closely, and an expres- 
 sion of satisfaction settled on his features. She wore a dark 
 blue silk (one he had given her some weeks before), which 
 exquisitely fitted her slender, graceful figure, and was relieved 
 by a lace collar, fastened with a handsome cameo pin, also his 
 gift. The glossy black hair was brushed straight back from the 
 face, in accordance with the prevailing style, and wound into a 
 knot at the back of the head. On either side of this knot, she 
 wore a superb white camellia, which contrasted well with the 
 raven hair. Her face was pale, but the expression was one of 
 eager expectation. As the carriage rattled up to the door, he 
 put his hand on her shoulder, and said : 
 
 " You look very well to-night, my child. Those white 
 japonicas become you." She breathed freely once more. 
 
 At the door of the concert hall he gave her his arm, and 
 while the pressure of the crowd detained them a moment at the 
 entrance, she clung to him with a feeling of dependence utterly 
 new to her. The din of voices, the dazzling glare of the gas- 
 
BEULAH. 163 
 
 lights bewildered her, and she walked on mechanically, till the 
 doctor entered his seat, and placed her beside him. The bril- 
 liant chandeliers shone down on elegant dresses, glittering 
 diamonds, and beautiful women, and, looking forward, Beulah 
 was reminded of the glowing descriptions in the "Arabian 
 Nights." She observed that many curious eyes were bent upon 
 her, and ere she had been seated five minutes, more than one lorg- 
 nette was levelled at her. Everybody knew Dr. Hartwell, arid 
 she saw him constantly returning the bows of recognition which 
 assailed him from the ladies in their vicinity. Presently, he 
 leaned his head on his hand, and she could not forbear smiling at 
 the ineffectual attempts made to arrest his attention. The hall 
 was crowded, and as the seats filled to their utmost capacity, 
 she was pressed against her guardian. He looked down at her, 
 and whispered : 
 
 " Very democratic. Eh, Beulah ?" 
 
 She smiled, and was about to reply, when her attention was 
 attracted by a party which just then took their places imme- 
 diately in front of her. It consisted of an elderly gentleman and 
 two ladies, one of whom Beulah instantly recognized as Cornelia 
 Graham. She was now a noble-looking, rather than beautiful 
 woman; and the incipient pride, so apparent in girlhood, had 
 matured into almost repulsive hauteur. She was very richly 
 dressed, and her brilliant black eyes wandered indifferently over 
 the room, as though such assemblages had lost their novelty and 
 interest for her. Chancing to look back, she perceived Dr. 
 Hartwell, bowed, and said with a smile : 
 
 "Pray, do not think me obstinate ; I had no wish to come, but 
 father insisted." 
 
 " I am glad you feel well enough to be here," was his careless 
 reply. 
 
 Cornelia's eyes fell upon the quiet figure at his side, and as 
 Beulah met her steady gaze, she felt something of her old dislike 
 warming in her eyes. They had never met since the morning of 
 Cornelia's contemptuous treatment, at Madam St. Cymon's : and 
 
164 BETJLAH. 
 
 now, to Beulah's utter astonishment, she deliberately turned 
 round, put out her white-gloved hand, over the back of the seat, 
 and said, energetically : 
 
 " How are you, Beulah ? You have altered so materially that 
 I scarcely knew you." 
 
 Beulah's nature was generous ; she was glad to forget old 
 injuries, and as their hands met in a friendly clasp, she answered : 
 
 " You have changed but little." 
 
 " And that for the worse, as people have a pleasant way of 
 telling me. Beulah, I want to know honestly, if my rudeness 
 caused you to leave madam's school ?" 
 
 " That was not my only reason," replied Beulah, very candidly. 
 
 At this moment a burst of applause greeted the appearance of 
 the cantatrice, and all conversation was suspended. Beulah 
 listened to the warbling of the queen of song with a thrill of 
 delight. Passionately fond of music, she appreciated the bril- 
 liant execution, and entrancing melody, as probably very few in 
 that crowded house could have done. With some of the pieces 
 selected she was familiar, and others she had long desired to 
 hear. She was unconscious of the steady look with which her 
 guardian watched her, as with parted lips, she leaned eagerly 
 forward to catch every note. When Sontag left the stage, and 
 the hum of conversation was heard once more, Beulah looked up, 
 with a long sigh of delight, and murmured : 
 
 " Oh, sir ! isn't she a glorious woman ?" 
 
 " Miss Graham is speaking to you," said he, coolly. 
 
 She raised her head, and saw the young lady's eyes riveted on 
 her countenance. 
 
 " Beulah, when did you hear from Eugene ?" 
 
 "About three weeks since, I believe." 
 
 " We leave, for Europe, day-after-to-morrow ; shall, perhaps, 
 go directly to Heidelberg. Have you any commissions ? any 
 messages ?" Under the mask of seeming indifference, she 
 watched Beulah intently, as, shrinking from the cold, searching 
 eyes, the latter replied : 
 
BEULAH. 165 
 
 " Thank you, I have neither to trouble you with." 
 Again the pri ma-donna appeared ^on the stage, and again 
 Beulah forgot everything but the witching strains. In the midst 
 of one of the songs, she felt her guardian start violently ; and the 
 hand which rested on his knee, was clinched spasmodically. She 
 looked at him ; the wonted pale face was flushed to the edge of 
 his hair ; the blue veins stood out hard and corded on his brow ; 
 and the eyes, like burning stars, were fixed on some object not 
 very remote, while he gnawed his lip, as if unconscious of what 
 he did. Following the direction of his gaze, she saw that it was 
 fastened on a gentleman, who sat at some little distance from 
 them. The position he occupied rendered his countenance visi- 
 ble, and a glance sufficed to show her that the features were 
 handsome, the expression sinister, malignant and cunning. His 
 entire appearance was foreign, and conveyed the idea of reckless 
 dissipation. Evidently, he came there, not for the music, but to 
 scan the crowd, and his fierce eyes roamed over the audience 
 with a daring impudence, which disgusted her. Suddenly they 
 rested on her own face, wandered to Dr. Hartwell's, and lingering 
 there a full moment, with a look of defiant hatred, returned to 
 her, causing her to shudder at the intensity and freedom of his 
 gaze. She drew herself up proudly, and, with an air of haughty 
 contempt, fixed her attention on the stage. But the spell of 
 enchantment was broken ; she could hear the deep, irregular 
 breathing of her guardian, and knew, from the way in which he 
 stared down on the floor, that he could with difficulty remain 
 quietly in his place. She was glad when the concert ended, and 
 the mass of heads began to move toward the door. With a 
 species of curiosity that she could not repress, she glanced at the 
 stranger ; their eyes met, as before, and his smile of triumphant 
 scorn made her cling closer to her guardian's arm, and take care 
 not to look in that direction again. She felt inexpressibly 
 relieved when, hurried on by the crowd in the rear, they emerged 
 from the heated room into a long, dim passage leading to the 
 street. They were surrounded on all sides by chattering groups, 
 
166 BEULAH. 
 
 and while the light was too faint to distinguish faces, these 
 words fell on her ear with painful distinctness : "I suppose that 
 was Dr. Hartwell's protegee he had with him. He is a great curi- 
 osity. Think of a man of his age and appearance settling down as 
 if he were sixty years old, and adopting a beggarly orphan. She 
 is not at all pretty. What can have possessed him ?" 
 
 "No, not pretty, exactly; but there is something odd in her 
 appearance. Her brow is magnificent, and I should judge she 
 was intellectual. She is as colorless as a ghost. No accounting 
 for Hartwell; ten to one he will marry her. I have heard it 
 
 surmised that he was educating her for a wife " Here the 
 
 party who were in advance vanished, and as he approached the 
 carriage, Dr. Hartwell said, coolly: 
 
 " Another specimen of democracy." 
 
 Beulah felt as if a lava tide surged madly in her veins, and as 
 the carriage rolled homeward, she covered her face with her 
 hands. Wounded pride, indignation, and contempt, struggled 
 violently in her heart. For some moments there was silence; 
 then her guardian drew her hands from her face, held them 
 firmly in his, and leaning forward, said gravely: 
 
 " Beulah, malice and envy love lofty marks. Learn, as I have 
 done, to look down with scorn from the summit of indifference 
 upon the feeble darts aimed from the pits beneath you. My 
 child, don't suffer the senseless gossip of the shallow crowd to 
 wound you." 
 
 She endeavored to withdraw her hands, but his unyielding 
 grasp prevented her. 
 
 " Beulah, you must conquer your morbid sensitiveness, if you 
 would have your life other than a dreary burden." 
 
 "Oh, sir! you are not invulnerable to these wounds; how, 
 then, can I, an orphan girl, receive them with indifference ?" 
 She spoke passionately, and drooped her burning face till it 
 touched his arm. 
 
 " Ah ! you observed my agitation to-night. But for a vow 
 made to my dying mother, that villain's blood had long since 
 
BEULAH. 107 
 
 removed all grounds of emotion. Six years ago, he fled from 
 me, and his unexpected reappearance to-night excited me more 
 than I had fancied it was possible for anything to do." His 
 voice was as low, calm and musical as though he were reading 
 aloud to her some poetic tale of injuries; and in the same even, 
 quiet tone, he added: 
 
 " It is well. All have a Nemesis." 
 
 " Not on earth, sir." 
 
 "Wait till you have lived as long as I, and you will think 
 with me. Beulah, be careful how you write to Eugene of Cor- 
 nelia Graham; better not mention her name at all. If she lives 
 to come home again, you will understand me." 
 
 " Is not her health good ?" asked Beulah, in surprise. 
 
 " Far from it. She has a disease of the heart, which may end 
 her existence any moment. I doubt whether she ever returns to 
 America. Mind, I do not wish yon to speak of this to any one. 
 Good night. If you are up in time in the morning, I wish you 
 would be so good as to cut some of the choicest flowers in the 
 greenhouse, and arrange a handsome bouquet, before breakfast. 
 I want to take it to one of my patients, an old friend of my 
 mother." 
 
 They were at home, and only pausing at the door of Mrs. 
 Watson's room to tell the good woman the "music was charm- 
 ing," Beulah hastened to her own apartment. Throwing herself 
 into a chair, she recalled the incidents of the evening, and her 
 cheeks burned painfully, as her position in the eyes of the world 
 was forced upon her recollection. Tears of mortification rolled 
 over her hot face, and her heart throbbed almost to suffocation. 
 She sank upon her knees, and tried to pray, but sobs- choked 
 her utterance; and leaning her head against the bed, she wept 
 bitterly. 
 
 Ah! is there not pain, and sorrow, and evil enough, in this 
 fallen world of ours, that meddling gossips must needs poison 
 the few pure springs of enjoyment and peace ? Not the hatred 
 of the Theban brothers could more thoroughly accomplish this 
 
168 BETJLAH. 
 
 fiendish design, than the whisper of detraction, the sneer of 
 malice, or the fatal innuendo of envious, low-bred tattlers. 
 Human life is shielded by the bulwark of legal provisions, and 
 most earthly possessions are similarly protected; but there are 
 assassins whom the judicial arm cannot reach, who infest society 
 in countless hordes, and while their work of ruin and misery goes 
 ever on, there is for the unhappy victims no redress. Thy holy 
 precepts, 0, Christ I alone can antidote this universal evil. 
 
 Beulah calmed the storm that raged in her heart, and as she 
 took the flowers from her hair, said resolutely: 
 
 " Before long I shall occupy a position where there will be 
 nothing to envy, and then, possibly, I may escape the gossiping 
 rack. Eugene may think me a fool, if he likes; but support 
 myself I will, if it costs me my life. What difference should it 
 make to him, so long as I prefer it ? One more year of study, 
 and I shall be qualified for any situation; then I can breathe 
 freely. May God shield me from all harml" 
 
 CHAPTER XVI. 
 
 THAT year of study rolled swiftly away ; another winter came 
 and passed ; another spring hung its verdant drapery over 
 earth, and now ardent summer reigned once more. It was near 
 the noon of a starry July night that Beulah sat in her own room 
 beside her writing-desk. A manuscript lay before her, yet damp 
 with ink, and as she traced the concluding words, and threw 
 down her pen, a triumphant smile flashed over her face. To- 
 morrow the session of the public school would close, with an 
 examination of its pupils ; to-morrow she would graduate, and 
 deliver the valedictory to the graduating class. She had just 
 finished copying her address, and placing it carefully in the desk, 
 rose and leaned against the window, that the cool night air 
 
BEULAH. 169 
 
 might fan her fevered brow. The hot blood beat heavily in her 
 temples, aud fled with arrowy swiftness through her veins. Con- 
 tinued mental excitement, like another Shylock, peremptorily 
 exacted its debt, and as she looked out on the solemn beauty 
 of the night, instead of soothing, it seemed to mock her restless- 
 ness. Dr. Hart well had been absent since noon, but now she 
 detected the whir of wheels in the direction of the carriage-house, 
 and knew that he was in the study. She heard him throw 
 open the shutters, and speak to Charon, and gathering up 
 her hair, which hang loosely about her shoulders, she confined 
 it with a comb, and glided noiselessly down the steps. The lamp- 
 light gleamed through the open door, and pausing on the thresh- 
 old, she asked : 
 
 " May I come in for .a few minutes, or are you too much 
 fatigued to talk ?" 
 
 " Beulah, I positively forbade your sitting up this late. It is 
 midnight, child ; go to bed/' He held some papers, and spoke 
 without even glancing toward her. 
 
 " Yes, I know ; but I want to ask you something before I 
 sleep." 
 
 "Well, what is it?" Still he did not look up from his 
 papers. 
 
 11 Will you attend the exercises to-morrow ?" 
 
 " Is it a matter of any consequence whether I do or not ?" 
 
 " To me, sir, it certainly is." 
 
 " Child, I shall not have leisure." 
 
 " Be honest, and say that you have not sufficient interest," 
 cried she, passionately. 
 
 He smiled, and answered placidly : 
 
 " Good night, Beulah. You should have been asleep long 
 ago." Her lips quivered, and she lingered, loth to leave him in 
 so unfriendly a mood. Suddenly he raised his head, looked at 
 her steadily, and said : 
 
 " Have you sent in your name as an applicant for a situa- 
 tion ?" 
 
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170 BEULAH. 
 
 " I have." 
 
 " Good night." His tone was stern, and she immediately re- 
 treated. Unable to sleep, she passed the remaining hours of the 
 short night in pacing the floor, or watching the clock-work of 
 stars point to the coming dawn. Though not quite eighteen, her 
 face was prematurely grave and thoughtful, and its restless, un- 
 satisfied expression plainly discovered a perturbed state of mind 
 and heart. The time had come when she must go out into the 
 world, and depend only upon herself ; and though she was anx- 
 ious to commence the work she had assigned herself, she shrank 
 from the thought of quitting her guardian's home and thus losing 
 the only companionship she really prized. He had not sought 
 to dissuade her ; had appeared perfectly indifferent to her plans, 
 and this unconcern had wounded her deeply. To-morrow would 
 decide her election as teacher, and as the committee would be 
 present at her examination (which was to be more than usually 
 minute in view of her application), she looked forward impatiently 
 to this occasion. Morning dawned, and she hailed it gladly; 
 breakfast came, and she took hers alone ; the doctor had already 
 gone out for the day This was not an unusual occurrence, yet 
 this morning she noted it particularly. At ten o'clock the Aca- 
 demy was crowded with visitors, and the commissioners and 
 teachers were formidably arrayed on the platform raised for this 
 purpose. The examination began ; Greek and Latin classes were 
 carefully questioned, and called on to parse and scan to a tire- 
 some extent ; then came mathematical demonstrations. Every 
 conceivable variety of lines and angles adorned the black-boards; 
 and next in succession were classes in rhetoric and natural his- 
 tory. There was a tediousness in the examinations incident to 
 such occasions, and as repeated inquiries were propounded, 
 Beulah rejoiced at the prospect of release. Finally the commis- 
 sioners declared themselves quite satisfied with the proficiency 
 attained, and the graduating class read the compositions for the 
 day. At length, at a signal from the superintendent of the 
 department, Beulah ascended the platform, and surrounded by 
 
BEIT L AH. 171 
 
 men signalized by scholarship and venerable from age, she began 
 her address. She wore a white mull muslin, and her glossy 
 black hair was arranged with the severe simplicity which charac- 
 terized her style of dress. Her face was well-nigh as colorless as 
 the paper she held, and her voice faltered with the first few sen- 
 tences. 
 
 The theme was " Female Heroism," and as she sought among 
 the dusky annals of the past for instances in confirmation of her 
 predicate, that female intellect was capable of the most exalted 
 attainments, and that the elements of her character would enable 
 woman to cope successfully with difficulties of every class, her 
 voice grew clear, firm and deep. Quitting the fertile fields of 
 history, she painted the trials which hedge woman's path, and 
 with unerring skill defined her peculiar sphere, her true position. 
 The reasoning was singularly forcible, the imagery glowing and 
 gorgeous, and occasional passages of exquisite pathos drew tears 
 from her fascinated audience ; while more than once, a beautiful 
 burst of enthusiasm was received with flattering applause. 
 Instead of flushing, her face grew paler, and the large eyes were 
 full of lambent light, which seemed to flash out from her soul. 
 In conclusion, she bade adieu to the honored halls where her feet 
 had sought the paths of knowledge ; paid a just and grateful 
 tribute to the Institution of Public Schools, and to the Commis- 
 sioners through whose agency she had been enabled to enjoy so 
 many privileges ; and turning to her fellow-graduates, touchingly 
 reminded them of the happy past, and warned of the shrouded 
 future. Crumpling the paper in one hand, she extended the 
 other toward her companions, and in thrilling accents conjured 
 them, in any and every emergency, to prove themselves true 
 women of America ornaments of the social circle, angel guard- 
 ians of the sacred hearthstone, ministering spirits where suffering 
 and want demanded succor. Women qualified to assist in a 
 council of statesmen, if dire necessity ever required it ; while, in 
 whatever positions they might be placed, their examples should 
 remain imperishable monuments of true female heroism. A.S the 
 
172 BEULAH. 
 
 last words passed her lips, she glanced swiftly over the sea of 
 heads, and perceived her guardian leaning with folded arms 
 against a pillar, while his luminous eyes were fastened on her 
 face. A flash of joy irradiated her countenance, and bending 
 her head amid the applause of the assembly, she retired to her 
 seat. She felt that her triumph was complete ; the whispered, 
 yet audible inquiries regarding her name, the admiring, curious 
 glances directed toward her, were not necessary to assure her of 
 success ; and when, immediately after the diplomas were distri- 
 buted, she rose and received hers with the calm look of one who 
 has toiled long for some meed, and puts forth her hand for what 
 she is conscious of having deserved. The crowd slowly dis- 
 persed, and beckoned forward once more, Beulah confronted the 
 august committee whose prerogative it was to elect teachers. A 
 certificate was handed her, and the chairman informed her of 
 her election to a vacant post in the Intermediate Department. 
 The salary was six hundred dollars, to be paid monthly, and her 
 duties would commence with the opening of the next session, 
 after two months' vacation. In addition, he congratulated her 
 warmly on the success of her valedictory effort, and suggested 
 the propriety of cultivating talents which might achieve for her 
 an enviable distinction. She bowed in silence, and turned away 
 to collect her books. Her guardian approached, and said in a 
 low voice : 
 
 " Put on your bonnet, and come down to the side gate. It is 
 too warm for you to walk home." 
 
 Without waiting for her answer, he descended the steps, and 
 she was soon seated beside him in the buggy. The short ride 
 was silent, and on reaching home, Beulah would have gone 
 immediately to her room, but the doctor called her into the 
 study, and as he rang the bell, said gently : 
 
 " You look very much exhausted ; rest here, while I order a 
 glass of wine." 
 
 It was speedily brought, and having iced it, he held it to her 
 white lips. She drank the contents, and her head sank on tho 
 
B E TJ L A H . 173 
 
 sofa cushions. The fever of excitement was over, a feeling of 
 lassitude stole over her, and she soon lost all consciousness in a 
 heavy sleep. The sun was just setting as she awakened from 
 her slumber, and sitting up, she soon recalled the events of the 
 day. The evening breeze, laden with perfume, stole in refresh- 
 ingly through the blinds, and as the sunset pageant faded, and 
 darkness crept on, she remained on the sofa, pondering her 
 future course. The lamp and her guardian made their appear- 
 ance at the same moment, and throwing himself down in one 
 corner of the sofa, the latter asked : 
 
 " How are you since your nap ? A trifle less ghastly, I see." 
 
 11 Much better, thank you, sir. My head is quite clear again." 
 
 " Clear enough to make out a foreign letter ?" He took one 
 from his pocket and put it in her hand. 
 
 An anxious look flitted across her face, and she glanced 
 rapidly over the contents, then crumpled the sheet nervously in 
 her fingers. 
 
 " What is the matter now ?" 
 
 " He is coming home. They will all be here in November." 
 She spoke as if bitterly chagrined and disappointed. 
 
 " Most people would consider that joyful news," said the 
 doctor, quietly. 
 
 " What 1 after spending more than five years (one of them in 
 travelling), to come back without having acquired a profession, 
 and settle down into a mere walking ledger ! To have princely 
 advantages at his command, and yet throw them madly to the 
 winds, and be content to plod along the road of mercantile life, 
 without one spark of ambition, when his mental endowments 
 would justify his aspiring to the most exalted political stations in 
 the land." 
 
 Her voice trembled from intensity of feeling. 
 
 " Take care how you disparage mercantile pursuits ; some of 
 the most masterly minds of the age were nurtured in the midst 
 of ledgers." 
 
 "And I honor and reverence all such far more than their 
 
174: 
 
 BEULAH. 
 
 colleagues, whose wisdom was culled in classic academic halls ; 
 for the former, struggling amid adverse circumstances, made 
 good their claim to an exalted place in the temple of Fame. 
 But necessity forced them to purely mercantile pursuits. Eugene's 
 case is by no means analogous ; situated as he is, he could be 
 just what he chose. I honor all men who do their duty nobly 
 and truly in the positions fate has assigned them ; but, sir, you 
 know there are some more richly endowed than others, some 
 whom nature seems to have destined for arduous diplomatic 
 posts ^ whose privilege it is to guide the helm of state, and 
 achieve distinction as men of genius. To such the call will be 
 imperative ; America needs such men. Heaven only knows 
 where they are to rise from, when the call is made ! I do not 
 mean to disparage mercantile pursuits ; they afford constant 
 opportunities for the exercise and display of keenness and clear- 
 ness of intellect, but do not require the peculiar gifts so essen- 
 tial in statesmen. Indolence is unpardonable in any avocation, 
 and I would be commended to the industrious, energetic mer- 
 chant, in preference to superficial, so-called, ' professional men.' 
 But Eugene had rare educational advantages, and I expected 
 him to improve them, and be something more than ordinary. He 
 expected it, five years ago. What infatuation possesses him 
 latterly, I cannot imagine." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell smiled, and said, very quietly : " Has it ever 
 occurred to you that you might have over-estimated Eugene's 
 abilities ?" 
 
 " Sir, you entertained a flattering opinion of them when he left 
 here." She could animadvert upon his fickleness, but did not 
 choose that others should enjoy the same privilege. 
 
 " I by no means considered him an embryo Webster, 01 
 Calhoun; never looked on him as an intellectual prodigy. He had 
 a good mind, a handsome face, and frank, gentlemanly manners, 
 which, in the aggregate, impressed me favorably." Beulah bit 
 her lips, and stooped to pat Charon's head. There was silence 
 for some moments, and then the doctor asked : 
 
BEULAH. 175 
 
 " Does he mention Cornelia's health ?" 
 
 " Only once, incidentally. I jud^e from the sentence, that she 
 is rather feeble. There is a good deal of unimportant chat about 
 a lady they have met in Florence. She is the daughter of a 
 Louisiana planter; very beautiful and fascinating; is a niece of 
 Mrs. Graham's, and will spend part of next winter with the 
 Grahams." 
 
 " What is her name ?" 
 
 " Antoinette Dupres." 
 
 Beulah was still caressing Charon, and did not observe the 
 purplish glow which bathed the doctor's face at the mention of 
 the name. She only saw that he rose abruptly, and walked to 
 the window, where he stood until tea was brought in. As they 
 concluded the meal, and left the table, he held out his hand. 
 
 " Beulah, I congratulate you on your signal success to-day. 
 Your valedictory made me proud of my protegee." She had put 
 her hand in his, and looked up in his face, but the cloudy splen- 
 dor of the eyes was more than she could bear, and drooping her 
 head a little, she answered : 
 
 " Thank you." 
 
 " You have vacation for two months ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir, and then my duties commence. Here is the certi- 
 ficate of my election." She offered it for inspection, but without 
 noticing it, he continued : 
 
 " Beulah, I think you owe me something for taking care of 
 you, as you phrased it long ago. at the Asylum. Do you admit 
 the debt ?" 
 
 " Most gratefully, sir 1 I admit that I can never liquidate it; 
 I can repay you only with the most earnest gratitude." Large 
 :<-ars hung upon her lashes, and with an uncontrollable impulse, 
 she raised his hand to her lips. 
 
 " I am about to test the sincerity of your gratitude. I doubt 
 it." 
 
 She trembled, and looked at him uneasily. He laid his hand 
 on her shoulder, and said, slowly : 
 
1T6 BEULAH. 
 
 " Relinquish the idea of teaching. Let me present you to 
 society as my adopted child. Thus you can requite the debt." 
 
 " I cannot ! I cannot !" cried Beulah, firmly, though tears 
 gushed over her cheeks. 
 
 "Cannot? cannot?" repeated the doctor, pressing heavily 
 upon her shoulders. 
 
 " Will not, then P said she, proudly. 
 
 They looked at each other steadily. A withering smile of 
 scorn and bitterness distorted his Apollo-like features, and he 
 pushed her from him, saying, in the deep, concentrated tone of 
 intense disappointment : 
 
 " I might have known it. I might have expected it ; for fate 
 has always decreed me just such returns." 
 
 Leaning against the sculptured Niobe, which stood near, 
 Beulah exclaimed, in a voice of great anguish 
 
 "Oh, Dr. Hart well 1 do not make me repent the day I entered 
 this house. God knows I am grateful, very grateful, for your 
 unparalleled kindness. Oh, that it were in my power to prove 
 to you my gratitude 1 Do not upbraid me. You knew that I 
 came here only to be educated. Even then I could not bear the 
 thought of always imposing on your generosity; and every day 
 that passed strengthened this impatience of dependence. Through 
 your kindness, it is now in my power to maintain myself, and 
 after the opening of next session, I cannot remain any longer the 
 recipient of your bounty. Oh, sir, do not charge me with ingra- 
 titude ! It is more than I can bear ; more than I can bear !" 
 
 " Mark me, Beulah I Your pride will wreck you ; wreck your 
 happiness, your peace of mind. Already its iron hand is crushing 
 your young heart. Beware, lest, in yielding to its decrees, you 
 1 ecome the hopeless being a similar course has rendered me. 
 Beware ! But why should I warn you ? Have not my prophe- 
 cies ever proved Cassandran ? Leave me." 
 
 " No, I will not leave you in anger." She drew near him, 
 and took his hand in both hers. The fingers were cold and 
 white as marble, rigid and inflexible as steel. 
 
BEULAH. 177 
 
 " My guardian, would you have me take a step (through fear 
 of your displeasure), which would retfchr my life a burden ? Will 
 you urge me to remain, when I tell you that I cannot be happy 
 here ? I think not." 
 
 " Urge you to remain ? By the Furies, no. I urge you to 
 go! Yes, gol I no longer want you here. Your presence would 
 irritate me beyond measure. But listen to me: I am going to 
 New York on business; had intended taking you with me; but 
 since you are so stubbornly proud, I can consent to leave you. 
 I shall start to-morrow evening rather earlier than I expected 
 and shall not return before September, perhaps even later. 
 What your plans are, I shall not inquire, but it is my request 
 that you remain in this house, under Mrs. Watson's care, until 
 your school duties commence; then you will, I suppose, remove 
 elsewhere. I also request, particularly, that you will not hesitate 
 to use the contents of a purse, which I shall leave on my desk for 
 you. Remember that in coming years, when trials assail you, if 
 you need a friend, I will still assist you. You will leave me now, 
 if you please, as I have some letters to write." He motioned her 
 away, and, unable to frame any reply, she left the room. 
 
 Though utterly miserable, now that her guardian seemed so 
 completely estranged, her proud nature rebelled at his stern dis- 
 missal, and a feeling of reckless defiance speedily dried the tears 
 on her cheek. That he should look down upon her with scornful 
 indifference, stung her almost to desperation, and she resolved, 
 instead of weeping, to meet and part with him as coldly as his 
 contemptuous treatment justified. Weary in mind and body, 
 she fell asleep, and soon forgot all her plans aud sorrows. The 
 sun was high in the heavens when Harriet waked her, and start- 
 ing up, she asked: 
 
 " What time is it ? How came I to sleep so late ?" 
 
 "It is eight o'clock. Master ate breakfast an hour ago. 
 
 Look here, child; what is to pay ? Master is going off to the 
 
 North, to be gone till October. He sat up all night, writing, 
 
 and giving orders about things on the place, 'specially the green- 
 
 8* 
 
178 EEULAH. 
 
 house, and the flower seeds to be saved in the front yard. He 
 has not been in such a way since seven years ago. What is in 
 the wind now ? What ails him ?" Harriet sat with her elbows 
 on her knees, and her wrinkled face resting in the palms of her 
 hands. She looked puzzled and discontented. 
 
 " He told me last night that he expected to leave home this 
 evening; that he was going to New York on business." Beulah 
 affected indifference; but the searching eyes of the old woman 
 were fixed on her, and as she turned away, Harriet exclaimed: 
 
 " Going this evening! Why, child, he has gone. Told us all 
 good bye, from Mrs. Watson down to Charon. Said his trunk 
 must be sent down to the wharf at three o'clock; that he would 
 not have time to come home again. There, good gracious! you 
 are as white as a sheet ; I will fetch you some wine." She 
 hurried out, and Beulah sank into a chair, stunned by the intel- 
 ligence. 
 
 When Harriet proffered a glass of cordial, she declined it, and 
 said composedly: 
 
 " I will come, after a while, and take my breakfast. There is 
 no accounting for your master's movements. I would as soon 
 engage to keep up with a comet. There, let go my dress; I am 
 going into the study for a while." She went slowly down the 
 steps, and locking the door of the study to prevent intrusion, 
 looked around the room. There was an air of confusion, as 
 though books and chairs had been hastily moved about. On the 
 floor lay numerous shreds of crape, and glancing up, she saw, 
 with surprise, that the portrait had been closely wrapped in a 
 sheet, and suspended with the face to the wall. Instantly, an 
 uncontrollable desire seized her to look at that face. She had 
 always supposed it to be his wife's likeness, and longed to gaze 
 upon the features of one whose name her husband had never 
 mentioned. The mantel was low, and standing on a chair, she 
 endeavored to catch the cord which supported the frame; but it 
 hung too high. She stood on the marble mantel, and stretched 
 her hands eagerly up; but though her fingers touched the cord, 
 
BEITLAH. 179 
 
 she could not disengage it from the hook, and with a^ sensation 
 of keen disappointment, she was forced to abandon the attempt. 
 A note on the desk attracted her attention ; it was directed to 
 her, and contained only a few words : 
 
 " Accompanying this is a purse containing a hundred dollars. In any 
 emergency which the future may present, do not hesitate to call on 
 
 "YouR GUARDIAN." 
 
 She laid her head down on his desk, and sobbed bitterly. 
 For the first time she realized that he had, indeed, gone gone 
 without one word of adieu; one look of kindness or reconciliation. 
 Her tortured heart whispered: "Write him a note; ask him to 
 come home; tell him you will not leave his house." But pride 
 answered: "He is a tyrant; don't be grieved at his indiffer- 
 ence; he is nothing to you; go to work boldly, and repay the 
 money you have cost him." Once more, as in former years, a 
 feeling of desolation crept over her. She had rejected her guar- 
 dian's request, and isolated herself from sympathy ; for who 
 would assist and sympathize with her mental difficulties as he 
 had done ? The tears froze in her eyes, and she sat for some 
 time looking at the crumpled note. Gradually, an expression 
 of proud defiance settled on her features; she took the purse, 
 walked up to her room, and put on her bonnet and mantle. 
 Descending to the breakfast-room, she drank a cup of coffee, 
 and telling Mrs. Watson she would be absent an hour or two, 
 left the house, and proceeded to Madam St. Cymon's. She asked 
 to see Miss Sanders, and after waiting a few minutes in the 
 parlor, Clara made her appearance. She looked wan and weary, 
 but greeted her friend with a gentle smile. 
 
 " I heard of your triumph yesterday, Beulah, and most sin- 
 cerely congratulate you." 
 
 " I am in no mood for congratulations just now. Clara, did 
 not you tell me, a few days since, that the music teacher of this 
 establishment was ill, and that Madam St. Cymon was anxious 
 to procure another ?" 
 
130 BEULAH. 
 
 " Yes,. I have no idea she will ever be well again. If strong 
 enough, she is going back to her family, in Philadelphia, next 
 week. Why do you ask ?" 
 
 " I want to get the situation, and wish you would say to 
 madam that I have called to see her about it. I will wait here 
 till you speak to her." 
 
 " Beulah, are you mad ? Dr. Hartwell never will consent to 
 your teaching music," cried Clara, with astonishment written on 
 every feature. 
 
 " Dr. Hartwell is not my master, Clara Sanders ! Will you 
 speak to madam, or shall I have to do it ?" 
 
 " Certainly, I will speak to her. But oh, Beulah I are you 
 wild enough to leave your present home for such a life ?" 
 
 11 1 have been elected a teacher in the public schools, but shall 
 have nothing to do until the first of October. In the meantime 
 I intend to give music lessons. If madam will employ me for 
 two mouths, she may be able to procure a professor by the open- 
 ing of the next term. And further, if I can make this arrange- 
 ment, I am coming immediately to board with Mrs. Hoyt. Now 
 speak to madam for me, will you ?" 
 
 " One moment more. Does the doctor know of all this ?" 
 
 " He knows that I intend to teach in the public school. He 
 goes to New York this afternoon." 
 
 Clara looked at her mournfully, and said, with sad emphasis : 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! you may live to rue your rashness." 
 
 To Madam St. Cymon, the proposal was singularly opportune, 
 and hastening to meet the applicant, she expressed much plea- 
 sure at seeing Miss Benton again. She was very anxious to 
 procure a teacher for the young ladies boarding with her, and 
 for her own daughters, and the limited engagement would suit 
 very well. She desired, however, to hear Miss Benton perform. 
 Beulah took off her gloves, and played several very difficult 
 pieces, with the ease which only constant practice and skillful 
 training can confer. Madam declared herself more than satisfied 
 with her proficiency, and requested her to commence her instruc- 
 
B E U I, A H . 181 
 
 lions jn the following day. She had given the former teacher 
 six hundred dollars a year, and would allow Miss Benton eighty 
 dollars for the two months. Beulah was agreeably surprised at 
 the ample remuneration, and having arranged the hours of her 
 attendance at the school, she took leave of the principal. Clara 
 called to her as she reached the street ; and assuming a gaiety 
 which, just then, was very foreign to her real feelings, Beulah 
 answered : 
 
 " It is all arranged. I shall take tea with you in my new 
 home, provided Mrs. Hoyt can give me a room." She kissed her 
 hand, and hurried away. Mrs. Hoyt found no difficulty in pro- 
 viding a room ; and, to Beulah's great joy, managed to have a 
 vacant one adjoining Clara's. She was a gentle, warm-hearted 
 woman ; and as Beulah examined the apartment, and inquired 
 the terms, she hesitated, and said : 
 
 " My terms are thirty dollars a month ; but you are poor, I 
 judge, and being Miss Clara's friend, I will only charge you 
 twenty-five." 
 
 " I do not wish you to make any deduction in my favor. I 
 will take the room at thirty dollars," answered Beulah, rather 
 haughtily. 
 
 " Very well. When will you want it ?" 
 
 " Immediately. Be kind enough to have it in readiness for 
 me ; I shall come this afternoon. Could you give me some 
 window-curtains ? I should like it better, if you could do so 
 without much inconvenience." 
 
 " Oh, certainly I they were taken down yesterday to be washed. 
 Everything shall be in order for you." 
 
 It was too warm to walk home again, and Beulah called a 
 carriage. The driver had not proceeded far, when a press of 
 vehicles forced him to pause a few minutes. They happened to 
 stand near the post-office, and as Beulah glanced at the eager 
 crowd collected in front, she started violently on perceiving her 
 guardian. He stood on the corner, talking to a gentleman of 
 venerable aspect, and she saw that he looked harassed. She was 
 
182 BEULAH. 
 
 powerfully impelled to beckon him to her, and at least obtain a 
 friendly adieu, but again pride prevailed. He had deliberately 
 left her, without saying good bye, and she would not force her- 
 self on his notice. Even as she dropped her veil to avoid obser- 
 vation, the carriage rolled on, and she was soon at Dr. Hart well's 
 door. Unwilling to reflect on the steps she had taken, she busied 
 herself in packing her clothes and books. On every side were 
 tokens of her guardian's constant interest and remembrance ; 
 pictures, vases, and all the elegant appendages of a writing-desk. 
 At length the last book was stowed away, and nothing else 
 remained to engage her. The beautiful little Nuremberg clock 
 on the mantel struck two, and looking up, she saw the solemn 
 face of Harriet, who was standing in the door. Her steady, 
 wondering gaze, disconcerted Beulah, despite her assumed indif- 
 ference. 
 
 " What is the meaning of all this commotion ? Hal says you 
 ordered the carriage to be ready at five o'clock to take you away 
 from here. Oh, child ! what are things coming to ? What will 
 master say ? What won't he say ? What are you quitting this 
 house for, where you have been treated as well as if it belonged 
 to you ? What ails you ?" 
 
 "Nothing. I have always intended to leave here as soon as I 
 was able to support myself. I can do so now, very easily, and 
 am going to board. Your master knows I intend to teach." 
 
 " But he has no idea that you are going to leave here before 
 he comes home, for he gave us all express orders to see that you 
 had just what you wanted. Oh, he will be in a tearing rage 
 when he hears of it ! Don't anger him, child I Do, pray, for 
 mercy's sake, don't anger him 1 He never forgets anything ! 
 When he once sets his head, he is worse than David on the 
 Philistines ! If he is willing to support you, it his own lookout. 
 He is able, and his money is his own. His kin won't get it. He 
 and his brother don't speak ; and as for Miss May ! they never 
 did get along in peace, even before he was married. So, if he 
 chooses to give some of his fortune to you, it is nobody's business 
 
BEULAH. 183 
 
 but his own ; and you are mighty simple, I can tell you, if you 
 don't stay here and take it." 
 
 " That will do, Harriet. I do not wish any more advice. I 
 don't want your master's fortune, even if I had the offer of it ! 
 I am determined to make my own living : so just say no more 
 about it." 
 
 " Take care, child. Remember, ' Pride goeth before a fall /' " 
 
 " What do you mean ?" cried Beulah, angrily. 
 
 " I mean that the day is coming, when you will be glad 
 enough to come back and let my master take care of you ! 
 That's what I mean. And see if it doesn't come to pass. But 
 he will not do it then ; I tell you now he won't. There is no 
 forgiving spirit about him ; he is as fierce, and bears malice as 
 long as a Camanche Injun 1 It is no business of mine though. 
 I have said my say : and I will be bound you will go your own 
 gait. You are just about as hard-headed as he is himself. 
 Anybody would almost believe you belonged to the Hartwell 
 family. Every soul of them is alike in the matter of temper ; 
 only Miss Pauline has something of her pa's disposition. I sup- 
 pose, now her ma is married again, she will want to come back 
 to her uncle; should not wonder if he 'dopted her, since you have 
 got the bit between your teeth." 
 
 " I hope he will," answered Beulah. She ill brooked Har- 
 riet's plain speech, but remembrances of past affection checked 
 the severe rebuke which more than once rose to her lips. 
 
 "We shall see; we shall see 1" and Harriet walked off with 
 anything but a placid expression of countenance, while Beulah 
 sought Mrs. Watson to explain her sudden departure, ~and 
 acquaint her with her plans for the summer. The housekeeper 
 endeavored most earnestly to dissuade her from taking the con- 
 templated step, assuring her that the doctor would be grieved 
 and displeased ; but her arguments produced no effect, and with 
 tears of regret, she bade her farewell. 
 
 The sun was setting when Beulah took possession of her room, 
 at Mrs. Hoyt's house. The furniture was very plain, and the 
 
184 BEULAH. 
 
 want of several articles vividly recalled the luxurious home she 
 had abandoned. She unpacked and arranged her clothes, and 
 piled her books on a small table, which was the only substitute 
 for her beautiful desk and elegant rosewood bookcase. She 
 had gathered a superb bouquet of flowers, as she crossed the 
 front yard, and in lieu of her Sevres vases, placed them in a dim- 
 looking tumbler, which stood on the tall, narrow mantelpiece. 
 Her room was in the third s-tory, with two windows, one opening 
 to the south, and one to the west. It grew dark by the time 
 she had arranged the furniture, and too weary to think of going 
 down to tea, she unbound her hair, and took a seat beside the 
 window. The prospect was extended; below her were countless 
 lamps, marking the principal streets ; and, in the distance, the 
 dark cloud of masts, told that river and bay might be distinctly 
 seen by daylight. The quiet stars looked dim through the dusty 
 atmosphere, and the noise of numerous vehicles rattling by, 
 produced a confused impression, such as she had' never before 
 received at this usually calm twilight season. The events of the 
 day passed in a swift review, and a mighty barrier seemed to 
 have sprung up (as by some foul spell) between her guardian 
 and herself. What an immeasurable gulf now yawned to sepa- 
 rate them. Could it be possible that the friendly relations of 
 years were thus suddenly and irrevocably annulled ? Would he 
 relinquish all interest in one whom he had so long watched over 
 and directed ? Did he intend that they should be completely 
 estranged henceforth ? For the first time since Lilly's death, 
 she felt herself thrown upon the world. Alone and unaided, she 
 was essaying to carve her own fortune from the huge quarries, 
 where thousands were diligently laboring. An undefinable feel- 
 ing of desolation crept into her heart ; but she struggled despe- 
 rately against it, and asked, in proud defiance of her own 
 nature : 
 
 "Am I not sufficient unto myself? Leaning only on myself, 
 what more should I want ? Nothing ! His sympathy is utterly 
 unnecessary." 
 
BETJLAH. 185 
 
 A knock at the door startled her, and in answer to her 
 11 come in," Clara Sanders entered. She walked slowly, and 
 seating herself beside Beulah, said, in a gentle but weary tone : 
 
 " How do you like your room ? I am so glad it opens into 
 mine." 
 
 " Quite as well as I expected. The view from this window 
 must be very fine. There is the tea-bell, I suppose. Are you 
 not going down ? I am too much fatigued to move." 
 
 "No; I never want supper, and generally spend the evenings 
 in my room. It is drearily monotonous here. Nothing to vary 
 the routine for me, except my afternoon walk, and recently the 
 warm weather has debarred me even from that. You are a 
 great walker, I believe, and I look forward to many pleasant 
 rambles with you, when I feel stronger, and autumn comes. 
 Beulah, how long does Dr. Hartwell expect to remain at the 
 North ? He told me, some time ago, that he was a delegate to 
 the Medical Convention." 
 
 " I believe it is rather uncertain ; but probably he will not 
 return before October." 
 
 " Indeed I That is a long time for a physician to absent 
 himself." 
 
 Just then an organ-grinder paused on the pavement beneath 
 the window, and began a beautiful air from " Sonnambula " It 
 was a favorite song of Beulah's, and as the melancholy tones 
 swelled on the night air, they recalled many happy hours spent 
 in the quiet study beside the melodeon. She leaned out of the 
 window till the last echo died away, and as the musician shoul- 
 dered his instrument and trudged off, she said, abruptly : 
 
 " Is there not a piano in the house !" 
 
 " Yes, just such a one as you might expect to find in a board- 
 ing-house, where unruly children are thrumming upon it from 
 morning till night. It was once a fine instrument, but now is 
 only capable of excruciating discords. You will miss your grand- 
 piano." 
 
 " I must have something in my own room to practise on. 
 
186 BEULAH. 
 
 Perhaps I can hire a melodeon or piano for a moderate sum ; I 
 will try to-morrow." 
 
 " The Grahams are coming home soon, I hear. One of the 
 principal upholsterers boards here, and he mentioned this morn- 
 ing at breakfast that he had received a letter from Mr. Graham, 
 directing him to attend to the unpacking of an entirely new set 
 of furniture. Everything will be on a grand scale. I suppose 
 Eugene returns with them ?" 
 
 " Yes, they will all arrive in November." 
 
 11 It must be a delightful anticipation for you." 
 
 "Why so, pray?" 
 
 " Why ? Because you and Eugene are such old friends." 
 
 " Oh, yes ; as far as Eugene is concerned, of course it is a very 
 pleasant anticipation." 
 
 " He is identified with the Grahams." 
 
 " Not necessarily," answered Beulah, coldly. 
 
 A sad smile flitted over Clara's sweet face, as she rose and 
 kissed her friend's brow, saying gently : 
 
 " Good night, dear. I have a headache, and must try to 
 sleep it off. Since you have determined to battle with difficul- 
 ties, I am very glad to have you here with me. I earnestly hope 
 that success may crown your efforts, and the sunshine of happi- 
 ness dispel for you the shadows that have fallen thick about my 
 pathway. You have been rash, Beulah, and short-sighted ; but 
 I trust that all will prove for the best. Good night." 
 
 She glided away, and locking the door, Beulah returned to 
 her seat, and laid her head wearily down on the window-sill. 
 What a Hermes is thought ! Like a vanishing dream fled the 
 consciousness of surrounding objects, and she was with Eugene. 
 Now, in the earlier years of his absence, she was in Heidelberg, 
 listening to the evening chimes ; and rambling with him through 
 the heart of the Odenwald. Then they explored the Hartz, 
 climbed the Brocken, and there among the clouds, discussed the 
 adventures of Faust, and his kinsman, Manfred. Anon, the 
 arrival of the Grahams disturbed the quiet of Eugene's life, and 
 
BEULAH. 187 
 
 far away from the picturesque haunts of Heidelberg students, he 
 wandered with them over Italy, Switzerland, and France. En- 
 grossed by these companions, he no longer found time to commune 
 with her, and when occasionally he penned a short letter, it was 
 hurried, constrained, and unsatisfactory. One topic had become 
 stereotyped ; he never failed to discourage the idea of teaching; 
 urged most earnestly the folly of such a step, and dwelt upon the 
 numerous advantages of social position arising from a residence 
 under her guardian's roof. We have seen that from the hour of 
 Lilly's departure from the Asylum, Beulah's affections, hopes, 
 pride, all centred in Eugene. There had long existed a tacit 
 compact, which led her to consider her future indissolubly linked 
 with his ; and his parting words seemed to seal this compact as 
 holy and binding, when he declared, " I mean, of course, to take 
 care of you myself, when I come home, for you know you belong 
 to me." His letters for many months retained the tone of dicta- 
 torship, but the tenderness seemed all to have melted away. He 
 wrote as if with a heart preoccupied by weightier matters, and 
 now Beulah could no longer conceal from herself the painful fact 
 that the man was far different from the boy. After five years' 
 absence, he was coming back a man ; engrossed by other thoughts 
 and feelings than those which had prompted him in days gone 
 by. With the tenacious hope of youth she still trusted that she 
 might have misjudged him ; he could never be other than noble 
 and generous ; she would silence her forebodings, and wait till 
 his return. She wished beyond all expression to see him once 
 more, and the prospect of a speedy reunion often made her heart 
 throb painfully. That he would reproach her for her obstinate 
 resolution of teaching, she was prepared to expect ; but strong 
 in the consciousness of duty, she committed herself to the care 
 of a merciful God, and soon slept as soundly as though under Dr. 
 Hartwell'g -oof. 
 
188 BETJLAH. 
 
 CHAPTER XVII. 
 
 SOMETIMES, after sitting for five consecutive hours at the piano, 
 guiding the clumsy fingers of tyros, and listening to a tiresome 
 round of scales and exercises, Beulah felt exhausted, mentally 
 and physically, and feared that she had miserably overrated her 
 powers of endurance. The long, warm days of August dragged 
 heavily by, and each night she felt grateful that the summer was 
 one day nearer its grave. One afternoon, she proposed to Clara 
 to extend their walk to the home of her guardian, and as she 
 readily assented, they left the noise and crowd of the city, and 
 soon found themselves on the common. 
 
 " This is rny birthday," said Beulah, as they passed a clump 
 of pines, and caught a glimpse of the white gate beyond. 
 
 "Ah ! how old are you ?" 
 
 " Eighteen but I feel much older." 
 
 She opened the gate, and as they leisurely ascended the ave- 
 nue of aged cedars, Beulah felt once more as if she were going 
 home. A fierce bark greeted her, and the next moment Charon 
 fushed to meet her ; placing his huge paws on her shoulders, 
 and whining and barking joyfully. He bounded before her to 
 the steps, and laid down contentedly 011 the piazza. Harriet's 
 turbaned head appeared at the entrance, and a smile of welcome 
 lighted up her ebon face, as she shook Beulah's hand. 
 
 Mrs. Watson was absent, and after a few questions, Beulah 
 entered the study, saying : 
 
 " I want some books, Harriet ; and Miss Sanders wishes to see 
 the painting's." 
 
 Ah ! every chair and book-shelf greeted her like dear friends, 
 and she bent down over some volumes to hide the tears that 
 sprang into her eyes. The only really happy portion of her life 
 had been passed here j every article in the room was dear from 
 
BEULAII. 189 
 
 association, and though only a month had elapsed since her 
 departure, those bygone years seemed far, far off, among thte 
 mist of very distant recollections. Thick and fast fell the hot 
 drops, until her eyes were blinded, and she could no longer dis- 
 tinguish the print they were riveted on. The memory of kind 
 smiles haunted her, and kinder tones seemed borne to her from 
 every corner of the apartment. Clara was eagerly examining 
 the paintings, and neither of the girls observed Harriet's en- 
 trance, until vshe asked : 
 
 " Do you know that the yellow fever has broke out here ?" 
 
 " Oh, you are mistaken I It can't be possible 1" cried Clara, 
 turning pale. 
 
 " I tell you, it is a fact. There are six cases now at the hos- 
 pital ; Hal was there this morning. I have lived here a good 
 many years, and from the signs, I think we are going to have 
 dreadfully sickly times. You young ladies had better keep out 
 of the sun ; first thing you know, you will have it," 
 
 " Who told you there was yellow fever at the hospital ?" 
 
 " Dr. Asbury said so ; and what is more, Hal has had it him- 
 self, and nursed people who had it ; and he says it is the worst 
 sort of yellow fever." 
 
 " I am not afraid of it," said Beulah, looking up for the first 
 time. 
 
 " I am dreadfully afraid of it," answered Clara, with a nervous 
 shudder. 
 
 " Then you had better leave town as quick as possible, for 
 folks who are easily scared always catch it soonest." 
 
 " Nonsense 1" cried Beulah, noting the deepening pallor of 
 Clara's face. 
 
 " Oh, I will warrant, if everybody else every man, woman, 
 and child in the city takes it, you won't ! Miss Beulah, I 
 should like to know what you are afraid of !" muttered Harriet, 
 scanning the orphan's countenance, and adding, in a louder tone: 
 " Have you heard anything from master ?" 
 
 " No." Benlah bit her lips to conceal her emotion. 
 
190 BEULAH. 
 
 " Hal hears from him. He was in New York when he wrote 
 the last letter." She took a malicious pleasure in thus torturing 
 her visitor ; and, determined not to gratify her by any manifesta- 
 tion of interest or curiosity, Beulah took up a couple of volumes 
 and turned to the door, saying : 
 
 " Come, Clara, we must each have a bouquet. Harriet, where 
 are the flower-scissors ? Dr. Hartwell never objected to my 
 carefully cutting even his choicest flowers. There I Clara, listen 
 to the cool rippling of the fountain. How I have longed to hear 
 its silvery murmur once more ?" 
 
 They went out into the front yard. Clara wandered about 
 the flower-beds, gathering blossoms which were scattered in 
 lavish profusion on all sides ; and leaning over the marble basin, 
 Beulah bathed her brow in the crystal waters. There was be- 
 witching beauty and serenity in the scene before her, and as 
 Charon nestled his great head against her hand, she found it 
 very difficult to realize the fact that she had left this lovely 
 retreat for the small room at Mrs. Hoyt's boarding-house. It 
 was not her habit, however, to indulge in repinings, and though 
 feer ardent appreciation of beauty rendered the place incalcula- 
 bly dear to her, she resolutely gathered a cluster of flowers, 
 bade adieu to Harriet, and descended the avenue. Charon 
 walked soberly beside her, now and then looking up, as if to 
 inquire the meaning of her long absence, and wonder at her 
 sudden departure. At the gate she patted him affectionately on 
 the head, and passed out ; he made no attempt to follow her, 
 but barked violently, and then laid down at the gate, whining 
 mournfully. 
 
 " Poor Charon ! I wish I might have him," said she, sadly. 
 
 "I dare say the doctor would give him to you," answered 
 Clara, very simply. 
 
 " I would just as soon think of asking him for his own head," 
 replied Beulah. 
 
 " It is a mystery to me, Beulah, how you can feel so coldly 
 toward Dr. Hartwell." 
 
BEULAH. 191 
 
 "I should very much like to know what you mean by that?" 
 said Beulah, involuntarily crushing the flowers she held. 
 
 " Why, you speak of him just as you would of anybody else." 
 
 " Well ?" 
 
 " You seem to be afraid of him." 
 
 " To a certain extent, I am ; and so is everybody else who 
 knows him intimately." 
 
 " This fear is unjust to him." 
 
 " How so, pray ?" 
 
 " Because he is too noble to do aught to inspire it." 
 
 "Certainly he is feared, nevertheless, by all who know him 
 well." 
 
 " It seems to me that, situated as you have been, you would 
 almost worship him !" 
 
 " I am not addicted to worshipping anything but God 1" an- 
 swered Beulah, shortly. 
 
 " You are an odd compound, Beulah. Sometimes I think you 
 must be utterly heartless I" 
 
 " Thank you." 
 
 " Don't be hurt. But you are so cold, so freezing ; you chill me." 
 
 " Do I ? Dr. Hartwell (your Delphic oracle it seems), says I 
 am as fierce as a tropical tornado." 
 
 " I do not understand how you can bear to give up such an 
 enchanting home, and go to hard work, as if you were driven to 
 it from necessity." 
 
 " Do not go over all that beaten track again, if you please. 
 It is not my home 1 I can be just as happy, nay happier, in my 
 little room." 
 
 " I doubt it," said Clara, pertinaciously. 
 
 Stopping suddenly, and fixing her eyes steadily on her com- 
 panion, Beulah hastily asked : 
 
 " Clara Sanders, why should you care if my guardian and I 
 are separated ?" 
 
 A burning blush dyed cheek and brow, as Clara drooped her 
 head, and answered : 
 
192 BEULAH. 
 
 " Because he is my friend also, and I know that your departure 
 will grieve him." 
 
 " You over-estimate my worth, and his interest. He is a man 
 who lives in a world of his own and needs no society, save such 
 as is afforded in his tasteful and elegant home. He loves books, 
 flowers, music, paintings, and his dog ! He is a stern man, and 
 shares his griefs and joys with no one. All this I have told you 
 before." 
 
 There was a long silence, broken at last by an exclamation 
 from Beulah : 
 
 " Oh ! how beautiful I how silent ! how solemn ! Look down 
 the long dim aisles. It is an oratory where my soul comes to 
 worship 1 Presently the breeze will rush up from the gulf, and 
 sweep the green organ, and a melancholy chant will swell through 
 these dusky arches. Oh, what are Gothic cathedrals, and gilded 
 shrines in comparison with these grand forest temples, where the 
 dome is the bending vault of God's blue, and the columns are 
 these everlasting pines 1" She pointed to a thick clump of pines 
 sloping down to a ravine. 
 
 The setting sun threw long quivering rays through the cluster- 
 ing boughs, and the broken beams, piercing the gloom beyond, 
 showed the long aisles as in a " cathedral light." 
 
 As Clara looked down the dim glade, and then watched Beu- 
 lah's parted lips and sparkling eyes, as she stood bending forward 
 with rapturous delight written on every feature, she thought that 
 she had indeed misjudged her in using the epithets " freezing and 
 heartless." 
 
 11 You are enthusiastic," said she, gently. 
 
 " How can I help it ? I love the grand and beautiful too well 
 to offer a tribute of silent admiration. Oh, ray homage is that 
 of a whole heart 1" 
 
 They reached home in the gloaming, and each retired to her 
 own room. For a mere trifle Beulah had procured the use of a 
 melodeon, and now, after placing the drooping flowers in water, 
 she sat down before the instrument and poured out the joy of her 
 
BETJLAH. 193 
 
 soul in song. Sad memories no longer floated like corpses on the 
 sea of the past ; grim forebodings crouched among the mists of 
 the future, and she sang song after song, exulting in the gladness 
 of her heart. An analysis of these occasional hours of delight 
 was as impossible as their creation. Sometimes she was con- 
 scious of their approach, while gazing up at the starry islets in the 
 boundless lake of azure sky ; or when a gorgeous sunset pageant 
 was passing away ; sometimes from hearing a solemn chaut in 
 church, or a witching strain from a favorite opera. Sometimes 
 from viewing dim old pictures ; sometimes from reading a sub- 
 lime passage in some old English or German author. It was a 
 serene elevation of feeling ; an unbounded peace ; a chastened 
 joyousness, which she was rarely able to analyze, but which iso- 
 lated her for a time from all surrounding circumstances. How 
 long she sang on the present occasion she knew not, and only 
 paused on hearing a heavy sob behind her. Turning round, she 
 saw Clara sitting near, with her face in her hands. Kneeling 
 beside her, Beulah wound her arms around her, and asked ear- 
 nestly : 
 
 " What troubles you, my friend ? May I not know ?" 
 
 Clara dropped her head on Beulah's shoulder, and answered 
 hesitatingly : 
 
 "The tones of your voice always sadden me. They are like 
 organ-notes, solemn and awful ! Yes awful, and yet very sweet 
 sweeter than any music I ev$r heard. Your singing fascinates 
 me, yet, strange as it may seem, it very often makes me weep. 
 There is an unearthliness, a spirituality that affects me singu- 
 larly." 
 
 " I am glad that is all. I was afraid you were distressed 
 about something. Here, take my rocking-chair; I am going to 
 read, and if you like, you may have the benefit of my book." 
 
 "Beulah, do put away your books for one night, and let us 
 have a quiet time. Don't study now. Come, sit here, and talk 
 to me." 
 
 " Flatterer, do you pretend that you prefer my chattering to 
 
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194 BEULAH. 
 
 the wonderful words of a man who ' talked like an angel ?' You 
 must listen to the tale of that ' Ancient Mariner with glittering 
 eye.' 
 
 " Spare me that horrible ghostly story of vessels freighted 
 with staring corpses ! Ugh ! it curdled the blood in my veins 
 once, and I shut the book in disgust. Don't begin it now, for 
 heaven's sake !" 
 
 " Why, Clara ? It is the most thrilling poem in the English 
 language. Each reperusal fascinates me more and more. It 
 requires a dozen readings to initiate you fully into its weird, 
 supernatural realms." 
 
 " Yes ; and it is precisely for that reason that I don't choose 
 to hear it. There is quite enough of the grim and hideous in 
 reality, without hunting it up in pages of fiction. When I read, 
 I desire to relax my mind, not put it on the rack, as your 
 favorite books invariably do. Absolutely, Beulah, after listening 
 to some of your pet authors, I feel as if I had been standing on 
 my nead. You need not look so coolly incredulous ; it is a 
 positive fact. As for that ' Ancient Mariner 7 you are so fond 
 of, I am disposed to take the author's own opinion of it, as 
 expressed in those lines addressed to himself." 
 
 " I suppose, then, you fancy 'Christabel' as little as the other, 
 seeing that it is a tale of witchcraft. How would you relish 
 that grand anthem to nature's God, written in the vale of 
 Chamouni ?" 
 
 " I never read it," answered Clara, very quietly. 
 
 "What? Never read 'Sibylline Leaves?' Why, I will 
 wager my head that you have parsed from them a thousand 
 times ! Never read that magnificent hymn before sunrise, in 
 the midst of glaciers and snow-crowned, cloud-piercing peaks ? 
 Listen, then ; and if you don't feel like falling upon your 
 knees, you have not a spark of poetry in your soul !" 
 
 She drew the lamp close to her, and read aloud. Her finely 
 modulated voice was peculiarly adapted to the task, and her 
 expressive countenance faithfully depicted the contending emo- 
 
BEULAH. 195 
 
 tions wliich filled her mind as she read. Clara listened with 
 pleased interest, and when the short poem was concluded, 
 said : 
 
 11 Thank you; it is beautiful. I have often seen extracts from 
 it. Still, there is a description of Mont Blanc in ' Manfred ' 
 which I believe I like quite as well." 
 
 " What ? That witch fragment ?" 
 
 " Yes." 
 
 " I don't understand ' Manfred/ Here and there are passages 
 in cipher. I read and catch a glimpse of hidden meaning ; I 
 read again, and it vanishes in mist. It seems to me a poern of 
 symbols, dimly adumbrating truths, which my clouded intellect 
 clutches at in vain. I have a sort of shadowy belief that 
 4 Astarte/ as in its ancient mythological significance, symbolizes 
 nature. There is a dusky veil of mystery shrouding her, which 
 favors my idea of her, as representing the universe. Manfred, 
 with daring hand, tore away that ' Veil of Isis/ which no mortal 
 had ever pierced before, and, maddened by the mockery of the 
 stony features, paid the penalty of his sacrilegious rashness, and 
 fled from the temple, striving to shake off the curse. My 
 guardian has a curious print of ' Astarte, 7 taken from some Euro- 
 pean Byronic gallery. I have studied it, until almost it seemed 
 to move and speak to me. She is clad in the ghostly drapery 
 of the tomb, just as invoked by Nemesis, with trailing tresses, 
 closed eyes, and folded hands. The features are dim, spectral, 
 yet marvellously beautiful. Almost one might think the eyelids 
 quivered, there is such an air of waking dreaminess. That this 
 is a false and inadequate conception of Byron's ' Astarte/ I feel 
 assured, and trust that I shall yet find the key to this enigma. 
 It interests me greatly, and by some inexplicable process, when- 
 ever I sit pondering the mystery of Astarte, that wonderful 
 creation in Shirley presents itself. Astarte becomes in a trice, 
 that ' woman-Titan/ Nature, kneeling before the red hills of the 
 west, at her evening prayers. I see her prostrate on the great 
 steps of her altar, praying for a fair night, for mariners at sea, 
 
196 BEUIAH. 
 
 for lambs in moors, and unfledged birds in woods. Her robe of 
 blue air spreads to the outskirts of the heath. A veil, white as 
 an avalanche, sweeps from her head to her feet, and arabesques 
 of lightning flame on its borders. I see her zone, purple, like 
 the horizon ; through its blush shines the star of evening. Her 
 forehead has the expanse of a cloud, and is paler than the early 
 moon, risen long before dark gathers. She reclines on the ridge 
 of Stillbro'-Moor, her mighty hands are joined beneath it. So 
 kneeling, face to face, ' Nature speaks with God.' Oh! I would 
 give twenty years of my life to have painted that Titan's por- 
 trait. I would rather have been the author of this, than have 
 wielded the sceptre of Zenobia, in the palmiest days of 
 Palmyra I" 
 
 She spoke rapidly, and with white lips that quivered. Clara 
 looked at her wonderingly, and said, hesitatingly : 
 
 " I don't understand the half of what you have been saying. 
 It sounds to me very much as if you had stumbled into a lumber- 
 room of queer ideas ; snatched up a handful, all on different 
 subjects, and woven them into a speech as incongruous as 
 Joseph's variegated coat." There was no reply. Beulah's 
 hands were -clasped on the table before her, and she leaned 
 forward with eyes fixed steadily on the floor. Clara waited a 
 moment, and then continued : 
 
 " I never noticed any of the mysteries of ' Manfred,' that seem 
 to trouble you so much. I enjoy the fine passages, and never 
 think of the hidden meanings, as you call them ; whereas it 
 seems you are always plunging about in the dark, hunting you 
 know not what. I am content to glide on the surface, and " 
 
 " And live in the midst of foam and bubbles !" cried Beulah, 
 with a gesture of impatience. 
 
 " Better that, than grope among subterranean caverns, black 
 and icy, as you are forever doing. You are even getting 
 a weird, unearthly look. Sometimes, when I come in, and find 
 you, book in hand, with that far-off expression in your eyes, I 
 really dislike to speak to you. There is no more color in your 
 
BEULAH. 197 
 
 face and hands, than in that wall yonder. You will dig your 
 grave among books, if you don't take care. There is such a 
 thing as studying too much. Your mind is perpetually at work ; 
 all day you are thinking, thinking, thinking ; and at night, since 
 the warm weather has made me open the door between our 
 rooms, I hear you talking earnestly and rapidly in your sleep. 
 Last week I came in on tip-toe, and stood a few minutes beside 
 your bed. The moon shone in through the window, and though 
 you were fast asleep, I saw that you tossed your hands restlessly; 
 while I stood there, you spoke aloud, in an incoherent manner, 
 of the ' Dream Fugue/ and ' Vision of sudden Death/ and now 
 and then you frowned, and sighed heavily, as if you were in pain. 
 Music is a relaxation to most people, but it seems to put your 
 thoughts on the rack. You will wear yourself out prematurely, 
 if you don't quit this constant studying." 
 
 She rose to go, and, glancing up at her, Beulah answered, 
 musingly : 
 
 "We are very unlike. The things that I love, you shrink 
 from as dull and tiresome. I live in a different world. Books 
 are, to me, what family, and friends, and society, are to other 
 people. It may be that the isolation of my life necessitates this. 
 Doubtless, you often find me abstracted. Are you going so 
 soon ? I had hoped we should spend a profitable evening, but it 
 has slipped away, and I have done nothing. Good night." She 
 rose and gave the customary good-night kiss, and as Clara 
 retired to her own room, Beulah turned up the wick of her lamp, 
 and resumed her book. The gorgeous mazes of Coleridge no 
 longer imprisoned her fancy ; it wandered mid the silence, and 
 desolation, and sand rivulets of the Thebaid desert ; through the 
 date groves of the lonely Laura ; through the museums of Alex- 
 andria. Over the cool, crystal depths of " Hypatia/' her thirsty 
 spirit hung eagerly. In Philammon's intellectual nature she found 
 a startling resemblance to her own. Like him, she had entered 
 a forbidden temple, and learned to question ; and the same 
 " insatiable craving to know the mysteries of learning " was 
 
198 BEULAH. 
 
 impelling her, with irresistible force, out into the world of philo- 
 sophic inquiry. Hours fled on unnoted ; with nervous haste the 
 leaves were turned. The town clock struck three. As she 
 finished the book, and laid it on the table, she bowed her head 
 upon her hands. She was bewildered. Was Kingsley his own 
 Raphael- Aben-Ezra ? or did he heartily believe in the Christi- 
 anity of which he had given so hideous a portraiture ? Her 
 brain whirled, yet there was a great dissatisfaction. She could 
 not contentedly go back to the Laura with Philanimon ; 
 " Hypatia " was not sufficiently explicit. She was dissatisfied ; 
 there was more than this Alexandrian ecstasy, to which Hypatia 
 was driven ; but where, and how should she find it ? Who 
 would guide her ? Was not her guardian, in many respects, as 
 skeptical as Raphael himself ? Dare she enter, alone and un- 
 aided, this Cretan maze of investigation, where all the wonderful 
 lore of the gifted Hypatia had availed nothing ? What was her 
 intellect given her for, if not to be thus employed ? Her head 
 ached with the intensity of thought, and as she laid it on her 
 pillow and closed her eyes, day looked out over the eastern sky. 
 The ensuing week was one of anxious apprehension to all 
 within the city. Harriet's words seemed prophetic ; there was 
 every intimation of a sickly season. Yellow fever had made its 
 appearance in several sections of the town, in its most malignant 
 type. The Board of Health devised various schemes for arrest- 
 ing the advancing evil. The streets were powdered with lime, 
 and huge fires of tar kept constantly burning, yet daily, hourly, 
 the fatality increased ; and as colossal ruin strode on, the terri- 
 fied citizens fled in all directions. In ten days the epidemic 
 began to make fearful havoc ; all classes and ages were assailed 
 indiscriminately. Whole families were stricken down in a day, 
 and not one member spared to aid the others. The exodus was 
 only limited by impossibility ; all who could, abandoned their 
 homes, and sought safety in flight. These were the fortunate 
 minority ; and, as if resolved to wreak its fury on the remainder, 
 the contagion spread into every quarter of the city. Not even 
 
B E U L A H . 191) 
 
 physicians were spared ; and those who escaped, trembled in 
 anticipation of the fell stroke. Many doubted that it was yellow 
 lev.-!-, and conjectured that the veritable plague had crossed the 
 ocean. Of all Mrs. Hoyt's boarders, but half-a-dozen determined 
 to hazard remaining in the infected region ; these were Beulah, 
 Clara, and four gentlemen. Gladly would Clara have fled to a 
 place of safety, had it been in her power ; but there was no one 
 to accompany or watch over her, and as she was forced to wit- 
 ness the horrors of the season, a sort of despair seemed to nerve 
 her trembling frame. Mrs. Watson had been among the first to 
 leave the city. Madam St. Cymon had disbanded her school ; 
 and as only her three daughters continued to take music lessons, 
 Beulah had ample leisure to contemplate the distressing scenes 
 which surrounded her. At noon, one September day, she stood 
 at the open window of her room. The air was intensely hot ; 
 the drooping leaves of the China-trees were motionless ; there 
 was not a breath of wind stirring ; and the sable plumes of the 
 hearses were still as their burdens. The brazen, glittering sky, 
 seemed a huge glowing furnace, breathing out only scorching 
 heat. Beulah leaned out of the window, and wiping away the 
 heavy drops that stood on her brow, looked down the almost 
 deserted street. Many of the stores were closed ; whilom busy 
 haunts were silent ; and very few persons were visible, save the 
 drivers of two hearses, and of a cart filled with coffins. The 
 church bells tolled unceasingly, and the desolation, the horror, 
 was indescribable, as the sable wings of the destroyer hung over 
 the doomed city. Out of her ten fellow-graduates, four slept in 
 the cemetery. The night before, she had watched beside another, 
 and at dawn, saw the limbs stiffen, and the eyes grow sightless. 
 Among her former schoolmates, the contagion had been parti- 
 cularly fatal, and, fearless of danger, she had nursed two of them. 
 As she stood fanning herself, Clara entered hurriedly, and sinking 
 into a chair, exclaimed, in accents of terror : 
 
 " It has come ! as I knew it would ! Two of Mrs. Iloyt's 
 children have beeu taken, and, I believe, one of the waiters also! 
 
BEULAH. 
 
 Merciful God ! what will become of me ?" Her teeth chattered, 
 and she trembled from head to foot. 
 
 " Don't be alarmed, Clara ! Your excessive terror is your 
 greatest danger. If you would escape, you must keep as quiet 
 as possible. 
 
 She poured out a glass of water, and made her drink it; then 
 asked: 
 
 " Can Mrs. Hoyt get medical aid?" 
 
 " No; she has sent for every doctor in town, and not one has 
 come." 
 
 " Then I will go down and assist her." Beulah turned toward 
 the door, but Clara caught her dress, and said hoarsely: 
 
 " Are you mad, thus continually to put your life in jeopardy ? 
 Are you shod with immortality, that you thrust yourself into the 
 very path of destruction ?" 
 
 "I am not afraid of the fever, and therefore think I shall not 
 take it. As long as I am able to be up, I shall do all that I 
 can to relieve the sick. Remember, Clara, nurses are not to be 
 had now for any sum." She glided down the steps, and found 
 the terrified mother wringing her hands helplessly over the 
 stricken ones. The children were crying on the bed, and with 
 the energy which the danger demanded, Beulah speedily ordered 
 the mustard baths, and administered the remedies she had seen 
 prescribed on previous occasions. The fever rose rapidly, and 
 undaunted by thoughts of personal danger, she took her place 
 beside the bed. It was past midnight when Dr. Asbury came ; 
 exhausted and haggard from unremitting toil and vigils, he 
 looked several years older than when she had last seen him. 
 He started on perceiving her perilous post, and said anxiously : 
 
 " Oh, you are rash! very rash! What would Hartwell say ? 
 What will he think when he comes ?" 
 
 "Comes! Surely you have not urged him to come back 
 now!" said she, grasping his arm convulsively. 
 
 " Certainly. I telegraphed to him to come home by express. 
 You need not look so troubled ; he has had this Egyptian 
 
BE U LA II . 201 
 
 plague, will run no risk, and even if he should, will return as 
 soon as possible." 
 
 " Are you sure that he has had the fever ?" 
 
 "Yes, sure. I nursed him myself, the summer after he came 
 from Europe, and thought he would die. That was the last 
 sickly season \ve have had for years, but this caps the climax of 
 all I ever saw or heard of in America. Thank God, my wife 
 and children are far away; and, free from apprehension on their 
 account, I can do my duty." 
 
 All this was said in an undertone, and after advising every- 
 thing that could possibly be done, he left the room, beckoning 
 Beulah after him. She followed, and he said earnestly: 
 
 " Child, I tremble for you. Why did you leave HartwelFs 
 house, and incur all this peril ? Beulah, though it is nobly 
 unselfish in you to devote yourself to the sick, as you are doing, 
 it may cost you your life nay, most probably it will." 
 
 " I have thought of it all, sir, and determined to do my duty." 
 
 " Then God preserve you. Those children have been taken 
 violently; watch them closely; good nursing is worth all the 
 apothecary shops. You need not send for me any more; I am 
 out constantly; whenever I can I will come; meantime, depend 
 only on the nursing. Should you be taken yourself, let me know 
 at once ; do not fail. A word more keep yourself well stimulated." 
 
 He hurried away, and she returned to the sick-room, to 
 speculate on the probability of soon meeting her guardian. 
 Who can tell how dreary were the days and nights that fol- 
 lowed ? Mrs. Iloyt took the fever, and mother and children 
 moaned together. On the morning of the fourth day, the eldest 
 child, a girl of eight years, died, with Beulah's hand grasped in 
 hers. Happily, the mother was unconscious, and the little corpse 
 was borne into an adjoining room. Beulah shrank from the task 
 which she felt, for the first time in her life, called on to perform. 
 She could nurse the living, but dreaded the thought of shrouding 
 the dead. Still, there was no one else to do it, and she bravely 
 conquered her repugnance, and clad the young sleeper for the 
 
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202 B E U L A H . 
 
 tornb. The gentlemen boarders, who had luckily escaped, 
 arranged the mournful particulars of the burial ; and after 
 severing a sunny lock of hair for the mother, should she live, 
 Beuiah saw the cold form borne out to its last resting-place. 
 Another gloomy day passed slowly, and she was rewarded by 
 the convalescence of the remaining sick child. Mrs. Hoyt still 
 hung upon the confines of eternity; and Beuiah, who had not 
 closed her eyes for many nights, was leaning over the bed, 
 counting the rushing pulse, when a rapid step caused her to 
 look up, and falling forward in her arms, Clara cried: 
 
 " Save me! save me! The chill is on me now!" 
 
 It was too true; and as Beuiah assisted her to her room, and 
 carefully bathed her feet, her heart was heavy with dire dread 
 lest Clara's horror of the disease should augment its ravages. 
 Dr. Asbury was summoned with all haste, but as usual seemed 
 an age in coming, and when at last he came, could only pre- 
 scribe what had already been done. It was pitiable to watch 
 the agonized expression of Clara's sweet face, as she looked 
 from the countenance of the physician to that of her friend, 
 striving to discover their opinion of her case. 
 
 " Doctor, you must send Hal to me. He can nurse Mrs. 
 Hoyt and little Willie while I watch Clara. I can't possibly 
 Lake care of all three, though Willie is a great deal better. 
 Can you send him at once ? he is a good nurse." 
 
 "Yes, he has been nursing poor Tom Hamil, but he died 
 about an hour ago, and Hal is released. I look for Hartwell 
 hourly. You do keep up amazingly I Bless you, Beuiah 1" 
 Wringing her hand, he descended the stairs. 
 
 Reentering the room, Beuiah sat down beside Clara, and 
 taking one burning hand in her cool palms, pressed it softly, 
 saying, in an encouraging tone : 
 
 " I feel so much relieved about Willie, he is a great deal bet- 
 ter ; and I think Mrs. Hoyt's fever is abating. You were not 
 taken so severely as Willie, and if you will go to sleep quietly, I 
 believe you will only have a light attack." 
 
B E U L A II . 203 
 
 " Did those down-stairs have black-vomit ?" asked Clara, shud- 
 d crinkly. 
 
 " Lizzie had it ; the others did not. Try not to think about 
 it. Go to sleep." 
 
 " What was that the doctor said about Dr. Hartwell ? I 
 could not hear very well, you talked so low. Ah ! tell me, 
 Beulah." 
 
 " Only that he is coming home soon that was all. Don't 
 talk any more." 
 
 Clara closed her eyes, but tears stole from beneath the lashes, 
 and coursed rapidly down her glowing cheeks. The lips moved 
 in prayer, and her fingers closed tightly over those of her com- 
 panion. Beulah felt that her continued vigils and exertions 
 were exhausting her. Her limbs trembled when she walked, 
 and there was a dull pain in her head, which she could not 
 banish. Her appetite had long since forsaken, her, and it was 
 only by the exertion of a determined will that she forced herself 
 to eat. She was warmly attached to Clara, and the dread of losing 
 this friend caused her to suffer keenly. Occasionally she stole 
 away to see the other sufferers, fearing that when Mrs. Hoyt 
 discovered Lizzie's death, the painful intelligence would seal her 
 own fate. It was late at night. She had just returned from one 
 of these hasty visits, and finding that Hal was as attentive as 
 any one could be, she threw herself, weary and anxious, into an 
 arm-chair beside Clara's bed. The crimson face was turned 
 toward her, the parched lips parted, the panting breath, labored 
 and irregular. The victim was delirious ; the hazel eyes, in- 
 flamed and vacant, rested on Beulah's countenance, and she 
 murmured : 
 
 " He will never know ! Oh, no ! how should he ? The grave 
 will soon shut me in, and I shall see him no more no more !" 
 She shuddered and turned away. 
 
 Beulah leaned her head against the bed, and as a tear slid 
 down upon her hand, she thought and said with bitter sorrow : 
 
 " I would rather see her the victim of death, than have her 
 
204 B E U L A H . 
 
 drag out an aimless, cheerless existence, rendered joyless by this 
 hopeless attachment !" 
 
 She wondered whether Dr. Ilartwell suspected this love. He 
 was remarkably quick-sighted, and men, as well as women, were 
 very vain, and wont to give even undue weight to every circum- 
 stance which flattered their self-love. She had long seen this 
 partiality ; would not the object of it be quite as penetrating? 
 Clara was very pretty ; nay, at times she was beautiful. If con- 
 scious of her attachment, could he ever suffer himself to be 
 influenced by it ? No ; impossible ! There were utter antagon- 
 isms of taste and temperament which rendered it very certain 
 that she would not suit him for a companion. Yet she was very 
 lovable. Beulah walked softly across the room and leaned out 
 of the window. An awful stillness brooded over the scourged 
 city. 
 
 " The moving moon went up the sky, 
 
 And nowhere did abide ; 
 Softly she was going up, 
 And a star or two beside." 
 
 The soft beams struggled to pierce the murky air, dense with 
 smoke from the burning pitch. There was no tread on the 
 pavement , all was solemn as Death, who held such mad revel in 
 the crowded graveyards. Through the shroud of smoke she 
 could see the rippling waters of the bay, as the faint southern 
 breeze swept its surface. It was a desolation realizing all the 
 horrors of the " Masque of the Red Death," and as she thought 
 of the mourning hearts in that silent city, of Clara's danger and 
 her own, Beulah repeated, sadly, those solemn lines : 
 
 " Like clouds that rake the mountain summit. 
 
 Or waves that own no curbing hand, 
 
 How fast has brother followed brother, 
 
 From sunshine to the sunless land!" 
 
 Clasping her hands, she added, earnestly : 
 
BEULAH. 205 
 
 " I thank thee, my Father ! that the Atlanta rolls between 
 Eugene and this ' besom of destruction. 7 " 
 
 A touch on her shoulder caused her to look around, and her 
 eyes rested on her guardian. She started, but did not speak, 
 and held .out her hand. He looked at her, long and searchiugly; 
 his lip trembled, and instead of taking her offered hand, he 
 passed his arm around her, and drew her to his bosom. She 
 looked up, with surprise ; and bending his haughty head, he 
 kissed her pale brow, for the first time. She felt then that she 
 would like to throw her arms round his neck, and tell him how 
 very glad she was to see him again -how unhappy his sudden 
 departure had made her ; but a feeling she could not pause to 
 analyze, prevented her from following the dictates of her heart; 
 and holding her off, so as to scan her countenance, Dr. Hartwell 
 said : 
 
 " How worn and haggard you look 1 Oh, child ! your rash 
 obstinacy has tortured me beyond expression." 
 
 " I have but done my duty. It has been a horrible time. I 
 am glad you have come. You will not let Clara die." 
 
 " Sit down, child. You are trembling from exhaustion." 
 
 He drew up a chair for her, and taking her wrist in his hand, 
 said, as he examined the slow pulse : 
 
 " Was Clara taken violently ? How is she ?" 
 
 " She is delirious, and so much alarmed at her danger that I 
 feel very uneasy about her. Come and see her ; perhaps she will 
 know you." She led the way to the bedside ; but there was no 
 recognition in the wild, restless eyes, and as she tossed from side 
 to side, her incoherent muttering made Beulah dread lest she 
 should discover to its object the adoring love which filled her 
 pure heart. She told her guardian what had been prescribed. 
 He offered no suggestion as to the treatment, but gave a potion 
 which she informed him was due. As Clara swallowed the 
 draught, she looked at him, and said eagerly : 
 
 " Has he come ? Did he say he would see me and save me ? 
 Did Dr. Hartwell send me this ?" 
 
206 BE FLAK. 
 
 " She raves," said Beulah, hastily. 
 
 A shadow fell upoii his face, and stooping over the pillow, he 
 answered, very gently : 
 
 " Yes, he has come to save you. He is here." 
 
 She smiled, and seemed satisfied for a moment, then moaned, 
 and muttered on indistinctly. 
 
 " He knows it all ? Oh, poor, poor Clara !" thought Beulah, 
 shading her face, to prevent his reading what passed in her mind. 
 
 " How long have you been sitting up, Beulah ?" 
 
 She told him. 
 
 "It is no wonder you look as if years had suddenly passed 
 over your head ! You have a room here, I believe. Go to it, and 
 go to sleep ; I will not leave Clara." 
 
 It was astonishing how his presence removed the dread weight 
 of responsibility from her heart. Not until this moment had she 
 felt as if she could possibly sleep. 
 
 " I will sleep now, so as to be refreshed for to-morrow and to- 
 morrow night. Here is a couch, I will sleep here, and if Clara 
 grows worse you must wake me." She crossed the room, threw 
 herself on the couch, and laid her aching head on her arm. Dr. 
 Hartwell placed a pillow under the head ; once more his fingers 
 sought her wrist ; once mOre his lips touched her forehead, and 
 as he returned to watch beside Clara, and listen to her ravings, 
 Beulah sank into a heavy, dreamless sleep of exhaustion. 
 
 CHAPTER XVIII. 
 
 SHE was awakened by the cool pattering of rain-drops, which 
 beat through the shutters and fell upon her face. She sprang 
 up with a thrill of delight, and looked out. A leaden sky low- 
 ered over the city, and as the torrents came down in whitening 
 sheets, the thunder rolled continuously over head, and trailing 
 
BEULAH. 207 
 
 wreaths of smoke from the dying fires, drooped like banners over 
 the roofs of the houses. Not the shower which gathered and 
 fell around sea-girt Carmel was more gratefully received. 
 
 " Thank God ! it rains 1" cried Beulah, and turning toward 
 Clara, she saw with pain that the sufferer was all unconscious of 
 the tardy blessing. She kissed the hot, dry brow ; but no token 
 of recognition greeted her anxious gaze. The fever was at its 
 height ; the delicate features were strangely sharpened and dis- 
 torted. Save the sound of her labored breathing, the room was 
 silent, and sinking on her knees, Beulah prayed earnestly that the 
 gentle sufferer might be spared. As she rose, her guardian en- 
 tered, and she started at the haggard, wasted, harassed look of 
 the noble face, which she had not observed before. He bent 
 down and coaxed Clara to take a spoonful of medicine, and Beu- 
 lah asked, earnestly : 
 
 " Have you been ill, sir ?" 
 
 " No." 
 
 He did not even glance at her. The affectionate cordiality 
 of the hour of meeting had utterly vanished. He looked as 
 cold, stern, and impenetrable as some half-buried sphinx of the 
 desert. 
 
 " Have you seen the others this morning ?" said she, making 
 a strong effort to conceal the chagrin this revulsion of feeling 
 occasioned. 
 
 " Yes ; Mrs. Hoyt will get well." 
 
 " Does she know of her child's death ?" 
 
 " Yes." 
 
 " You are not going, surely ?" she continued, as he took his hat 
 and glanced at his watch. 
 
 ' "I am needed elsewhere. Only nursing can now avail here. 
 You know very well what is requisite. Either Dr. Asbury or I 
 will be here again to-night, to sit up with this gentle girl." 
 
 " You need neither of you come to sit up with her. I will do 
 that myself. I shall not sleep another moment until I know that 
 she is better." 
 
208 13 E U L A H . 
 
 "Very well." He left the room immediately. 
 
 " How he cases his volcanic nature in ice," thought Beulah, 
 sinking into the arm-chair. " Last night he seemed so kind, so 
 cordial, so much my friend and guardian 1 To-day there is a 
 mighty barrier, as though he stood on some towering crag, and 
 talked to me across an iufiuite gulf ! Well, well, even an Arctic 
 night passes away ; and I can afford to wait till his humor 
 changes." 
 
 For many hours the rain fell unceasingly, but toward sunset 
 the pall of clouds was scourged on by a brisk western breeze, 
 and the clear canopy of heaven, no longer fiery as for days past, 
 but cool and blue, bent serenely over the wet earth. The slant- 
 ing rays of the swiftly sinking sun flashed through dripping 
 boughs, creating myriads of diamond sprays ; and over the spark- 
 ling waters of the bay sprang a brilliant bow, arching superbly 
 along the eastern horizon, where a bank of clouds still lay. 
 Verily, it seemed a new covenant, that the destroying demon 
 should no longer desolate the beautiful city, and to many an 
 anxious, foreboding heart that glorious rainbow gave back hope 
 and faith. A cool, quiet twilight followed. Beulah knew that 
 hearses still bore the dead to their silent chambers ; she could 
 hear the rumbling, the melancholy, solemn sound of the wheels ; 
 but firm trust reigned in her heart, and with Clara's hand in 
 hers, she felt an intuitive assurance that the loved one would not 
 yet be summoned from her earthly field of action. The sick in 
 the other part of the house were much better, and though one 
 of the gentlemen boarders had been taken since morning, she 
 lighted the lamp and stole about the room with a calmer, happier 
 spirit than she had known for many days. She fancied that her 
 charge breathed more easily, and the wild stare of the inflamed 
 eyes was concealed under the long lashes which lay on the 
 cheeks. The sufferer slept, and the watcher augured favorably. 
 About nine o'clock she heard steps on the stairs, and soon after 
 Doctors Asbury and Hartwell entered together. There was little 
 to be told, and less to be advised, and while the latter atten- 
 
BEULAH. 209 
 
 tively examined the pulse, and looked down at the altered coun- 
 tenance, stamped with the signet of the dread disease, the 
 fonne-r took Beulah's hand in both his, and said kindly : 
 
 "How do you do, my little heroine? By Nebros! you are 
 worth your weight in medical treatises. How are you, little 
 one ?" 
 
 " Quite well, thank you, sir, and I dare say I am much more 
 able to sit up with the sick than you, who have had no respite 
 whatever. Don't stand up, when you must be so weary ; take 
 this easy-chair." Holding his hand firmly, she drew him down 
 to it. There had always been a fatherly tenderness in his man- 
 ner toward her, when visiting at her guardian's, and she regarded 
 him with reverence and affection. Though often blunt, he never 
 chilled nor repelled her, as his partner so often did, and now 
 she stood beside him, still holding one of his hands. He 
 smoothed back the grey hair from his furrowed brow, and with 
 a twinkle in his blue eye, said : 
 
 " How much will you take for your services ? I want to 
 engage you to teach my madcap daughters a little quiet bravery 
 and uncomplaining endurance." 
 
 " I have none of the Shylock in my composition ; only give 
 me a few kind words and I shall be satisfied. Now, once for all, 
 Dr. Asbury, if you treat me to any more barefaced flattery of 
 ttiis sort, I nurse no more of your patients." 
 
 Dr. Hartwell here directed his partner's attention to Clara, 
 and thoroughly provoked at the pertinacity with which he 
 avoided noticing her, she seized the brief opportunity to visit 
 Mrs. Hoyt and little Willie. The mother welcomed her with a 
 silent grasp of the hand and gush of tears. But this was no 
 time for acknowledgments, and Beulah strove, by a few encou- 
 raging remarks, to cheer the bereaved parent and interest 
 Willie, who, like all other children under such circumstances, 
 had grown fretful. She shook up their pillows, iced a freph 
 pitcher of water for them, and promising to run down and see 
 them often, now that Hal was forced to give his attention to the 
 
BEULAH. 
 
 last victim, she noiselessly stole back to Clara's room. Dr. Hart- 
 well was walking up and down the floor, and his companion sat 
 just as she had left him. He rose as she entered, and putting 
 on his hat, 'said, kindly : 
 
 " Are you able to sit up with Miss Sanders to-night ? If not, 
 say so candidly." 
 
 " I am able, and determined to do so." 
 
 " Very well. After to-morrow it will not be needed." 
 
 " What do you mean ?" cried Beulah, clutching his arm. 
 
 " Don't look so savage, child. She will either be convales- 
 cent, or beyond all aid. I hope and believe the former. Watch 
 her closely till I see you again. Good night, dear child." He 
 stepped to the door; and with a slight inclination of his head, 
 Dr. Hartwell followed him. 
 
 It was a vigil Beulah never forgot. The night seemed inter- 
 minable, as if the car of time were driven backward, and she 
 longed inexpressibly for the dawning of day. Four o'clock 
 came at last ; silence brooded over the town ; the western 
 breeze had sung itself to rest, and there was a solemn hush, as 
 though all nature stood still, to witness the struggle between 
 dusky Azrael and a human soul. Clara slept. The distant stars 
 looked down encouragingly from their homes of blue, and once 
 more the lonely orphan bent her knee in supplication before the 
 throne of Jehovah. But a cloud seemed hovering between her 
 heart and the presence-chamber of Deity. In vain she prayed, 
 and tried to believe that life would be spared in answer to her 
 petitions. Faith died in her soul, and she sat with her eyes 
 riveted upon the face of her friend. The flush of consuming 
 fever paled, the pulse was slow and feeble, and by the grey light 
 of day, Beulah saw that the face was strangely changed. For 
 several hours longer she maintained her watch ; still, the doctor 
 did not come, and while she sat with Clara's fingers clasped in 
 hers, the brown eyes opened, and looked dreamily at her 
 She leaned over, and kissing the wan cheek, asked, eagerly : 
 
 " How do you feel, darling ?" 
 
CEULAH. 211 
 
 " Perfectly weak and helpless. How long have I been sick ?" 
 
 " Only a few days. You are a great deal better now." She 
 tenderly smoothed the silky hair that clustered in disorder round 
 the face. Clara seemed perplexed ; she thought for a moment, 
 and said, feebly : 
 
 " Have I been very ill ?" 
 
 " Well yes. You have been right sick. Had some fever, 
 but it has left you." 
 
 Clara mused again. Memory came back slowly, and at length 
 she asked : 
 
 "Did they all die?" 
 
 " Did who die ?" 
 
 " All those down-stairs." She shuddered violently. 
 
 " Oh, no ! Mrs. Hoyt and Willie are almost well. Try to 
 go to sleep again, Clara." 
 
 Several minutes glided by ; the eyes closed, and clasping 
 Beulah's fingers tightly, she asked again : 
 
 " Have I had any physician ?" 
 
 " Yes. I thought it would do no harm, to have Dr. Asbury 
 see you," answered Beulah, carelessly. She saw an expression 
 of disappointment pass sadly over the girl's countenance ; and 
 thinking it might be as well to satisfy her at once, she con- 
 tinued, as if speaking on indifferent topics : 
 
 " Dr. Hartwell came home since you were taken sick, and 
 called to see you two or three times." 
 
 A faint glow tinged the sallow cheek, and while a tremor crept 
 over her lips, she said, almost inaudibly : 
 
 " When will he come again ?" 
 
 "Before long, I dare say. Indeed, there is his step now. 
 Dr. Asbury is with him." 
 
 She had not time to say more, for they came in immediately, 
 and with a species of pity she noted the smile of pleasure which 
 curved Clara's mouth, as her guardian bent down and spoke to 
 her. While ho took her thin hand, and fixed his eyes on her 
 face, Dr. Asbury looked over his shoulder, and said bluntly : 
 
212 BETJLAH. 
 
 " Hurrah for you ! All right again, as I thought YOU would 
 be ! Does your head ache at all this morning ? Feel like eat- 
 ing half-a-dozen partridges ?" 
 
 " She is not deaf," said Dr. Hartwell, rather shortly. 
 
 " I am not so sure of that ; she has been to all my questions 
 lately. I must see about Carter, below. Beulah, child, you look 
 the worse for your apprenticeship to our profession." 
 
 " So do you, sir," said she, smiling, as her eyes wandered over 
 his grim visage. 
 
 " You may well say that, child. I snatched about two hours' 
 sleep this morning, and when I woke I felt very much like 
 Coleridge's unlucky sailor : 
 
 " * I moved, and could not feel my limbs ; 
 
 I was so light almost, 
 I thought that I had died in sleep, 
 And was a blessed ghost.' " 
 
 He hurried away to another part of the house, and Beulah 
 went into her own apartment to arrange her hair, which she felt 
 must need attention sadly. 
 
 Looking into the glass, she could not forbear smiling at the 
 face which looked back at her, it was so thin and ghastly; even 
 the lips were colorless, and the large eyes sunken. She unbound 
 her hair, and had only shaken it fully out, when a knock at her 
 door called her from the glass. She tossed her hair all back, 
 and it hung like an inky veil almost to the floor, as she opened 
 the door and confronted her guardian. 
 
 " Here is some medicine, which must be mixed in a tmnhler of 
 water. I want a tablespoouful given every hour, unlt-^ Oiara is 
 asleep. Keep everything quiet." 
 
 " Is that all ?" said Beulah, coolly. 
 
 " That is all." He walked off, and she brushed and twisted 
 up her hair, wondering how long he meant to keep up that freez- 
 ing manner. It accorded very well with his treatment before 
 his departure for the North, and she sighed as she recalled the 
 
BEULAH. 213 
 
 brief hour of cordiality which followed his return. She began 
 to perceive that this was the way they were to meet in future ; 
 she had displeased him, and he intended that she should feel it. 
 Tears gathered in her eyes, but she drove them scornfully back, 
 and exclaimed indignantly : 
 
 " He wants to rule me with a rod of iron, because I am in- 
 debted to him for an education and support for several years. 
 As I hope for a peaceful rest hereafter, I will repay him every 
 cent he has expended for music, drawing and clothing ! I will 
 economize until every picayune is returned." 
 
 The purse had not been touched, and hastily counting the 
 contents, to see that all the bills were there, she relocked the 
 drawer, and returned to the sick-room with anything but a calm 
 face. Clara seemed to be asleep, and picking up a book, Beulah 
 began to read. A sick-room is always monotonous and dreary, 
 and long confinement had rendered Beulah restless and uncom- 
 fortable. Her limbs ached so did her head, and continued loss 
 of sleep made her nervous to an unusual degree. She longed to 
 open her melodeon and play ; this would have quieted her, but 
 of course was not to be thought of, with four invalids in the 
 house, and death on almost every square in the city. She was 
 no longer unhappy about Clara, for there was little doubt that, 
 with care, she would soon be well, and thus drearily the hours 
 wore on. Finally, Clara evinced a disposition to talk. Her 
 nurse discouraged it, with exceedingly brief replies ; intimating 
 that she would improve her condition by going to sleep. Toward 
 evening, Clara seemed much refreshed by a long nap, and took 
 some food which had been prepared for her. 
 
 " The sickness is abating, is it not, Beulah?" 
 
 " Yes, very perceptibly ; but more from lack of fresh victims 
 than anything else. I hope we shall have a white frost soon." 
 
 " It has been very horrible ! I shudder when I think of it," 
 said Clara. 
 
 "Then don't think of it," answered her companion. 
 
 " Oh ! how can I help it ? I did not expect to live through 
 
214: B E U L A H . 
 
 it. I was sure I should die when that chill came on. You have 
 saved me, dear Beulah I" Tears glistened in her soft eyes. 
 
 " No ; God saved you." 
 
 " Through your instrumentality," replied Clara, raisiug her 
 friend's hand to her lips. 
 
 " Don't talk any more ; the doctor expressly enjoined quiet 
 for you." 
 
 " I am glad to owe my recovery to him also. How noble and 
 good he is how superior to everybody else 1" murmured the 
 sick girl. 
 
 Beulah's lips became singularly compact, but she offered no 
 comment. She walked up and down the room, although so worn 
 out that she could scarcely keep herself erect. When the doctor 
 came, she escaped unobserved to her room, hastily put on her 
 bonnet, and ran down the steps for a short walk. It was per- 
 fect Elysium to get out once more under the pure sky and 
 breathe the air, as it swept over the bay, cool, sweet and invigor- 
 ating. The streets were still quiet, but hearses and carts, filled 
 with coffins, no longer greeted her on every side, and she walked 
 for several squares. The sun went down, and too weary to 
 extend her ramble, she slowly retraced her steps. The buggy 
 no longer stood at the door, and after seeing Mrs. Hoyt and 
 trying to chat pleasantly, she crept back to Clara. 
 
 " Where have you been ?" asked the latter. 
 
 " To get a breath of fresh air, and see the sun set." 
 
 "'Dr. Hartweli asked for you. I did not know what had 
 become of you." 
 
 " How do you feel to-night ?" said Beulah, laying her hand 
 softly on Clara's forehead. 
 
 " Better, but very weak. You have no idea how feeble I am. 
 Beulah, I want to know whether " 
 
 '* You were told to keep quiet, so don't ask any questions, for 
 I will not answer one." 
 
 " You are not to sit up to-night : the doctor said I would not 
 require it." 
 
BEULAH. 215 
 
 " Let the doctor go back to the North, and theorize in his 
 medical conventions ? I shall sleep here by your bed, on this 
 couch. If you feel worse, call ine. Now, good night ; and don't 
 open your lips again." She drew the couch close to the bed, 
 and shadiug the lamp, threw her weary frame down to rest ; ere 
 long, she slept. The pestilential storm had spent its fury. 
 Daily the number of deaths diminished ; gradually, the pall of 
 silence and desolation which had hung over the city, vanished. 
 The streets resumed their usual busy aspect, and the hum of life 
 went forward once more. At length, fugitive families ventured 
 home again ; and though bands of crape, grim badges of bereave- 
 ment, met the eye on all sides, all rejoiced that Death had 
 removed his court ; that his hideous carnival was over. Clara 
 regained her strength very slowly ; and when well enough to quit 
 her room, walked with the slow, uncertain step of feebleness. 
 On the last day of October, she entered Beulah's apartment, and 
 languidly approached the table, where the latter was engaged in 
 drawing. 
 
 " Always at work I Beulah, you give yourself no rest. Day 
 and night, you are constantly busy." 
 
 Apparently, this remark fell on deaf ears ; for, without reply- 
 ing, Beulah lifted her drawing, looked at it intently, turned it 
 round once or twice, and then resumed her crayon. 
 
 " What a hideous countenance ! Who is it ?" continued Clara. 
 
 " Mora." 
 
 " She is horrible ! Where did you ever see anything like it ?" 
 
 " During the height of the epidemic, I fell asleep for a few 
 seconds, and dreamed that Mors was sweeping down, with ex- 
 tended arms, to snatch you. By the clock, I had not slept quite 
 two minutes, yet the countenance of Mors was indelibly stamped 
 on my memory, and now I am transferring it to paper. You are 
 mistaken ; it is terrible, but not hideous 1" Beulah laid aside 
 her pencil, and leaning her elbows on the table, sat, with her 
 face in her hands, gazing upon the drawing. It represented the 
 head and shoulders of a winged female ; the countenance was 
 
216 B E L T L A II . 
 
 inflexible, grim, and cadaverous. The large, lurid eyes, had an 
 owlish stare ; and the outspread pinions, black as night, made 
 the wan face yet more livid by contrast. The extended hands 
 were like those of a skeleton. 
 
 " What strange fancies you have. It makes the blood curdle 
 in my veins, to look at that awful countenance," said Clara, 
 shudderingly. 
 
 " I cannot draw it as I saw it in my dream ! Cannot do justice 
 to my ideal Mors 1" answered Beulah, in a discontented tone, as 
 she took up the crayon, and retouched the poppies which clus- 
 tered in the sable locks. 
 
 " For heaven's sake, do not attempt to render it any more 
 horrible ! Put it away, and finish this lovely Greek face. Oh, 
 how I envy you your talent for music and drawing! Nature 
 gifted you rarely !" 
 
 - "No 1 she merely gave me an intense love of beauty, which 
 constantly impels me to embody, in melody or coloring, the glori- 
 ous images, which the contemplation of beauty creates in my 
 soul. Alas ! I am not a genius. If I were, I might hope to 
 achieve an immortal renown. Gladly would I pay its painful and 
 dangerous price 1" She placed the drawing of Mors in her port- 
 folio, and began to touch lightly an unfinished head of Sappho. 
 
 " Ah, Clara ! how connoisseurs would carp at this portrait of 
 the ' Lesbian Muse.' My guardian, for one, would sneer 
 superbly." 
 
 11 Why, pray ? It is perfectly beautiful." 
 
 " Because, forsooth, it is no low-browed, swarthy Greek. I 
 have a penchant for high, broad, expansive foreheads, which are 
 antagonistic to all the ancient models of beauty. Low foreheads 
 characterize the antique ; but who can fancy ' violet-crowned, 
 immortal Snppho, 
 
 " With that gloriole 
 
 Of ebon hair, on calmed brows," 
 
 other than I have drawn her 1" She held up the paper, and 
 smiled triumphantly. 
 
B E TJ L A H . 217 
 
 In truth, it was a face of rare loveliness ; of oval outline, with 
 delicate, yet noble features, whose expression seemed the reflex 
 of the divine afflatus. The uplifted eyes beamed with the radi- 
 ance of inspiration ; the full, ripe lips, were just parted ; the 
 curling hair clustered, with child-like simplicity, round the classic 
 head ; and the exquisitely formed hands clasped a lyre. 
 
 " Beulah, don't you think the eyes are most too wild ?" sug- 
 gested Clara, timidly. 
 
 "What? fora poetess! Remember poesy hath madness in 
 it," answered Beulah, still looking earnestly at her drawing. 
 
 II Madness ? What do you mean ?" 
 
 " Just what I say. I believe poetry to be the highest and 
 purest phase of insanity. Those finely-strung, curiously nervous 
 natures, that you always find coupled with poetic endowments, 
 are characterized by a remarkable activity of the mental organs; 
 and this continued excitement, and premature development of the 
 brain, results in a disease which, under this aspect, the world 
 offers premiums for. Though I enjoy a fine poem as much as 
 anybody, I believe, in nine cases out of ten, it is the spasmodic 
 vent of a highly nervous system, overstrained, diseased. Yes, 
 diseased! If it does not result in the frantic madness of Lamb, 
 or the final imbecility of Southey, it is manifested in various other 
 forms, such as the morbid melancholy of Cowper, the bitter mis- 
 anthropy of Pope, the abnormal moodiness and misery of Byron, 
 the unsound and dangerous theories of Shelley, and the strange, 
 fragmentary nature of Coleridge." 
 
 "Oh, Beulah! what a humiliating theory! The poet placed 
 on an ignominious level with the nervous hypochondriac! You 
 are the very last person I should suppose guilty of entertaining 
 such a degraded estimate of human powers," interposed Clara, 
 energetically. 
 
 II 1 know it is customary to rave about Muses, and Parnassus, 
 and Helicon, and to throw the charitable mantle of 'poetic 
 idiosyncrasies' over all those dark spots on poetic discs. All 
 conceivable and inconceivable eccentricities are pardoned, as the 
 
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218 BEULAH. 
 
 usual concomitants of genius: but looking into the home lives of 
 many of the most distinguished poets, I have been painfully 
 impressed with the truth of my very unpoetic theory. Common 
 sense has arraigned before her august tribunal some of the so- 
 called 'geniuses' of past ages, and the critical verdict is, that 
 much of the famous 'fine frenzy/ was bond fide frenzy of a sad- 
 der nature." 
 
 " Do you think that Sappho's frenzy was established by the 
 Leucadian leap ?" 
 
 " You confound the poetess with a Sappho, who lived later, 
 and threw herself into the sea from the promontory of Leucate. 
 Doubtless she too had 'poetic idiosyncrasies;' but her spotless 
 life, and I believe natural death, afford no indication of an 
 
 unbound intellect. It is rather immaterial, however, to" 
 
 Beulah paused abruptly, as a servant entered and approached 
 the table, saying : 
 
 " Miss Clara, Dr. Hartwell is in the parlor, and wishes to see 
 you." 
 
 "To see me I" repeated Clara, ill surprise, while a rosy tinge 
 stole into her wan face; "to see me? No! It must be you, 
 Beulah." 
 
 " He said Miss Sanders," persisted the servant, and Clara left 
 the room. 
 
 Beulah looked after her, with an expression of some surprise; 
 then continued pencilling the cords of Sappho's lyre. A few 
 minutes elapsed, and Clara returned with flushed cheeks, and a 
 smile of trembling joyousness. 
 
 " Beulah, do pin my mantle on straight. I am in such a 
 hurry. Only think how kind Dr. Hartwell is; he has come to 
 take me out to ride; says I look too pale, and he thinks a ride 
 will benefit me. That will do, thank you." 
 
 She turned away, but Beulah rose, and called out: 
 
 "Come back here, and get my velvet mantle. It is quite 
 cool, and it will be a marvellous piece of management to ride 
 out for your health, and come home with a cold. What! no 
 
BE TIL AH. 219 
 
 gloves either! Upon my word, your thoughts must be travel- 
 ling over the bridge Shinevad." 
 
 " Sure enough; I had forgotten my gloves; I will get them 
 as I go down. Good bye." With the mantle on her arm, she 
 hurried away. 
 
 Bculah laid aside her drawing materials, and prepared for her 
 customary evening walk. Her countenance was clouded, her 
 lip unsteady. Her guardian's studied coldness and avoidance 
 pained her, but it was not this which saddened her now. She 
 felt that Clara was staking the happiness of her life on the dim 
 hope that her attachment would be returned, She pitied the 
 delusion, and dreaded the awakening to a true insight into his 
 nature; to a consciousness of the utter uncongeniality which, she 
 fancied, barred all thought of such a union. As she walked on, 
 these reflections gave place to others entirely removed from 
 Clara and her, guardian; and on reaching the grove of pines, 
 opposite the Asylum, where she had so often wandered in days 
 gone by, she paced slowly up and down the " arched aisles," as 
 she was wont to term them. It was a genuine October after- 
 noon, cool and sunny. The delicious haze of Indian summer 
 wrapped every distant object in its soft, purple veil; the dim 
 vistas of the forest ended in misty depths; the very air, in its 
 dreamy languor, resembled the atmosphere which surrounded 
 
 " The mild-eyed, melancholy lotus-eaters " 
 
 of the far East. Through the openings, pale, golden poplars shook 
 down their dying leaves, and here and there along the ravine, 
 crimson maples gleamed against the background of dark green 
 pines. In every direction, bright-colored leaves, painted with 
 "autumnal hectic," strewed the bier of the declining year. 
 Beulah sat down on a tuft of moss, and gathered clusters of 
 golden-rod and purple and white asters. She loved these wild 
 wood-flowers much more than gaudy exotics or rare hot-house 
 plants. They linked her with the days of her childhood, and 
 now each graceful spray of golden-rod seemed a wand of memory, 
 
220 BEULAH. 
 
 calling up bygone joys, griefs a:.d fancies. Ah, what a hallowing 
 glory invests our past, beckoning us back to the haunts of the olden 
 time ! The paths our childish feet trod seem all angel-guarded 
 and thornless ; the songs we sang then sweep the harp of memory, 
 making magical melody ; the words carelessly spoken, now 
 breathe a solemn, mysterious import ; and faces that early went 
 down to the tomb, smile on us still with unchanged tenderness. 
 Aye, the past, the long past is all fairy-land. Where our little 
 feet were bruised, we now see only springing flowers ; where 
 childish lips drank from some Marah, verdure and garlands woo 
 us back. Over the rustling leaves a tiny form glided to Beulah's 
 side ; a pure infantine face with golden curls looked up at her, 
 and a lisping voice of unearthly sweetness whispered in the 
 autumn air. Here she had often brought Lilly, and filled her 
 baby fingers with asters and golden-rod ; and gathered bright 
 scarlet leaves to please her childish fancy. Bitter waves had 
 broken over her head since then ; shadows had gathered about 
 her heart. Oh, how far off were the early years 1 How changed 
 she was ; how different life and the world seemed to her now ! 
 The flowery meadows were behind her, with the vestibule of girl- 
 hood, and now she was a woman, with no ties to link her with 
 any human being ; alone, and dependent only on herself. Verily, 
 she might have exclaimed in the mournful words of Lamb : 
 
 " All, all are gone, the old familiar faces." 
 
 She sat looking at the wild-flowers in her hand ; a sad, dreamy 
 light filled the clear grey eyes, and now and then her brow was 
 ploughed by some troubled thought. The countenance told of 
 a mind perplexed and questioning. The " cloud no bigger than 
 a man's hand/' had crept up from the horizon of faith, and now 
 darkened her sky ; but she would not see the gathering gloom ; 
 shut her eyes resolutely to the coming storm. As the cool 
 October wind stirred the leaves at her feet, and the scarlet and 
 gold cloud-flakes faded in the west, she rose and walked slowly 
 homeward. She was too deeply pondering her speculative doubts 
 
BEULAH. 221 
 
 to notice Dr. Hartwell's buggy whirling along the street ; did 
 not see his head extended, and his cold, searching glance ; and 
 of course he believed the blindness intentional, and credited it to 
 pique or anger. On reaching home, she endeavored by singing 
 a favorite hymn to divert the current of her thoughts, but the 
 shadows were growing tenacious, and would not be banished so 
 easily. " If a man die shall he live again ?" seemed echoing on 
 the autumn wind. She took up her Bible and read several chap- 
 ters, which she fancied would uncloud her mind ; but in vain. 
 Kestlessly she began to pace the floor ; the lamplight gleamed 
 on a pale, troubled face. After a time the door opened, and 
 Clara came in. She took a seat without speaking, for she had 
 learned to read Beulah's countenance, and saw at a glance that 
 she was abstracted and in no mood for conversation. When the 
 tea-bell rang, Beulah stopped suddenly in the middle of the 
 room. 
 
 " What is the matter ?" asked Clara. 
 
 " I feel as if I needed a cup of coffee, that is all. Will you 
 join me ?" 
 
 " No ; and if you take it you will not be able to close your 
 eyes." 
 
 " Did you have a pleasant ride ?" said Beulah, laying her hand 
 on her companion's shoulder, and looking gravely down into the 
 sweet face, which wore an expression she had never seen there 
 before. 
 
 " Oh, I shall never forget it ! never !" murmured Clara. 
 
 " I am glad you enjoyed it ; very glad. I wish the color would 
 come back to your cheeks. Riding is better for you now than 
 walking." She stooped down and pressed her lips to the wan 
 cheek as she spoke. 
 
 " Did you walk this evening, after I left you ?" 
 
 " Yes." 
 
 " What makes you look so grave ?" 
 
 " A great many causes you among the number." 
 
 " What have I done ?" 
 
BEULAH. 
 
 " You are not so strong as I should like to see you. You have 
 a sort of spiritual look that I don't at all fancy." 
 
 " I dare say I shall soon be well again." This was said with 
 an effort, and a sigh quickly followed. 
 
 Beulah rang the bell for a cup of coffee, and taking down a 
 book, drew her chair near the lamp. 
 
 " What ! studying already ?" cried Clara, impatiently. 
 
 " And why not ? Life is short at best, and rarely allows time 
 to master all departments of knowledge. Why should I not 
 seize every spare moment ?" 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! though you are so much younger, you awe me. 
 I told your guardian to-day that you were studying yourself into 
 a mere shadow. He smiled, and said you were too willful to be 
 advised. You talk to me about not looking well ! You never 
 have had any color, and lately you have grown very thin and 
 hollow-eyed. I asked the doctor if he did not think you were 
 looking ill, and he said that you had changed very much since 
 the summer. Beulah, for my sake, please don't pore over your 
 books so incessantly." She took Beulah's hand, gently, in both 
 hers. 
 
 " Want of color is as constitutional with me as the shape of 
 my nose. I have always been pale, and study has no connection 
 with it. Make yourself perfectly easy on my account." 
 
 " You are very willful, as your guardian says," cried Clara, 
 impatiently. 
 
 "Yes, that is like my sallow complexion constitutional," 
 answered Beulah, laughing, and opening a volume of Carlyle as 
 she spoke. 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, I don't know what will become of you !" Tears 
 sprang into Clara's eyes. 
 
 " Do not be at all uneasy, my dear, dove-eyed Clara. I can 
 take care of myself." 
 
BETTLAH. 223 
 
 CHAPTER XIX. 
 
 IT was the middle of November, and absentees, who had spent 
 their summer at the North, were all at home again. Among 
 these were Mrs. Asbury and her two daughters ; and only a few 
 days after their return, they called to see Beulah. She found 
 them polished, cultivated, and agreeable ; and when, at parting, 
 the mother kindly pressed her hand, and cordially invited her to 
 visit them often and sociably, she felt irresistibly drawn toward 
 her, and promised to do so. Ere loog, there came a friendly 
 note, requesting her to spend the evening with them ; and thus, 
 before she had known them many weeks, Beulah found herself 
 established on the familiar footing of an old friend. Universally 
 esteemed and respected, Dr. Asbury's society was sought by the 
 most refined circle of the city, and his house was a favorite 
 resort for the intellectual men and women of the community. 
 Occupying an enviable position in his profession, he still found 
 leisure to devote much of his attention to strictly literary topics, 
 and the honest frankness and cordiality of his manners, blended 
 with the instructive tone of his conversation, rendered him a 
 general favorite. Mrs. Asbury merited the elevated position 
 which she so ably filled, as the wife of such a man. While due 
 attention was given to the education and rearing of her daugh- 
 ters, she admirably discharged the claims of society, and by a 
 consistent adherence to the principles of the religion she pro- 
 fessed, checked by every means within her power the frivolous 
 excesses and dangerous extremes which prevailed throughout 
 the fashionable circles m which she moved. Zealously, yet 
 unostentatiously, she exerted herself in behalf of the various 
 charitable institutions, organized to ameliorate the sufferings of 
 the poor in their midst ; and while, as a Christian, she conformed 
 to the outward observances of her church, she faithfully iucul- 
 
224: B E TJ L A H . 
 
 cated and practised at home the pure precepts of a religion, 
 whose effects should be the proper regulation of the heart, and 
 charity toward the world. Her parlors were not the favorite 
 rendezvous where gossips met to retail slander. Refined, digni- 
 fied, gentle, and hospitable, she was a woman too rarely, alas ! 
 met with, in so-called fashionable circles. Her husband's repu- 
 tation secured them the acquaintance of all distinguished 
 strangers, and made their house a great centre of attraction. 
 Beulah fully enjoyed and appreciated the friendship thus ten- 
 dered her, and soon looked upon Dr. Asbury and his noble 
 wife as counsellors, to whom in any emergency she could unhesi- 
 tatingly apply. They based their position in society on their 
 own worth ; not the extrinsic appendages of wealth and fashion, 
 and readily acknowledged the claims of all who (however hum- 
 ble their abode or avocation) proved themselves worthy of 
 respect and esteem. In their intercourse with the young teacher, 
 there was an utter absence of that contemptible supercilious 
 condescension which always characterizes an ignorant and par- 
 venu aristocracy. They treated her as an equal in intrinsic 
 worth, and prized her as a friend. Helen Asbury was older than 
 Beulah, and Georgia somewhat younger. They were sweet- 
 tempered, gay girls, lacking their parent's intellectual traits, but 
 sufficiently well-informed and cultivated to constitute them agree- 
 able companions. Of their father's extensive library, they ex- 
 pressed themselves rather afraid, and frequently bantered Beulah 
 about the grave books she often selected from it. Beulah found 
 her school duties far less irksome than she had expected, for she 
 loved children, and soon became interested in the individual 
 members of her classes. From eight o'clock until three she was 
 closely occupied ; then the labors of the day were over, and she 
 spent her evenings much as she had been wont, ere the opening 
 of the session. Thus, November glided quickly away, and the 
 first of December greeted her, ere she dreamed of its approach. 
 The Grahams had not returned, though daily expected ; and 
 notwithstanding two months had elapsed without Eugene's writ- 
 
BEULAH. 225 
 
 ing, she looked forward with intense pleasure to his expected 
 arrival. There was one source of constant pain for her in Dr. 
 Hartwell's continued and complete estrangement. Except a cold, 
 formal bow, in passing, there was no intercourse whatever ; and 
 she sorrowed bitterly over this seeming indifference in one to 
 whom she owed so much and was so warmly attached. Remotely 
 connected with this cause of disquiet, was the painful change in 
 Clara. Like a lily suddenly transplanted to some arid spot, she 
 had seemed to droop, since the week of her ride. Gentle, but 
 hopeless and depressed, she went, day after day, to her duties at 
 Madame St. Cymon's school, and returned at night wearied, 
 silent and wan. Her step grew more feeble, her face thinner 
 and paler. Often Beulah gave up her music and books, and 
 devoted the evenings to entertaining and interesting her ; but 
 there was a constraint and reserve about her which could not be 
 removed. 
 
 One evening, on returning from a walk with Helen Asbury, 
 Beulah ran into her friend's room with a cluster of flowers. 
 Clara sat by the fire, with a piece of needle-work in her hand ; 
 she looked listless and sad, Beulah threw the bright golden and 
 crimson chrysanthemums in her lap, and stooping down, kissed 
 her warmly, saying : 
 
 " How is your troublesome head ? - Here is a flowery cure for 
 you." 
 
 "My head does not ache quite so badly. Where did you 
 find these beautiful chrysanthemums ?" answered Clara, lan- 
 guidly. 
 
 I stopped to get a piece of music from Georgia, and Helen cut 
 them for me. Oh, what blessed things flowers are I They have 
 been well styled, ' God's under-tones of encouragement to the 
 children of earth.' " 
 
 She was standing on the hearth, warming her fingers. Clara 
 looked up at the dark, clear eyes and delicate fixed lips before 
 her, and sighed involuntarily. Beulah knelt on the carpet, and 
 throwing one arm around her companion, said, earnestly : 
 
 10* 
 
BEULAH. 
 
 " My dear Clara, what saddens you to-night ? Can't you tell 
 me?" 
 
 A hasty knock at the door gave no time for an answer. A 
 servant looked in. 
 
 " Is Miss Beulah Benton here ? There is a gentleman in the 
 parlor to see her ; here is the card." 
 
 Beulah still knelt on the floor, and held out her hand 
 indifferently. The card was given, and she sprang up with a 
 cry of joy. 
 
 " Oh, it is Eugene I 9 ' 
 
 At the door of the parlor she paused, and pressed her hand 
 tightly to her bounding heart. A tall form stood before the 
 grate, and a glance discovered to her a dark moustache and 
 heavy beard ; still it must be Eugene, and extending her arms 
 unconsciously, she exclaimed : 
 
 " Eugene I Eugene ! have you come at last ?" 
 
 He started, looked up, and hastened toward her. Her arms 
 suddenly dropped to her side, and only their hands met in a 
 firm, tight clasp. For a moment, they gazed at each other in 
 silence, each noting the changes which time had wrought. Then 
 he said, slowly : 
 
 " I should not have known yon, Beulah. You have altered 
 surprisingly." His eyes wandered wonderingly over her features. 
 She was pale and breathless ; her lips trembled violently, and 
 there was a strange gleam in her large, eager eyes. She did 
 not reply, but stood looking up intently into his handsome face. 
 Then she shivered; the long, black lashes drooped ; her white 
 fingers relaxed their clasp of his, and she sat down on the sofa 
 near. Ah ! her womanly intuitions, infallible as Ithuriel's spear, 
 told her that he was no longer the Eugene she had loved so 
 devotedly. An iron hand seemed to clutch her heart, and again 
 a shudder crept over her, as he seated himself beside her, 
 saying : 
 
 " I am very much pained to 'find you here. I am just from 
 Dr. HartwelPs, where I expected to see you." 
 
BEITLAH. 227 
 
 He paused, for something about her face rather disconcerted 
 him, and he took her hand again in his. 
 
 11 How could you expect to find me there, after reading my 
 last letter ?" 
 
 "I still hoped that your good sense would prevent your taking 
 such an extraordinary step." 
 
 She smiled, icily, and answered : 
 
 "Is it so extraordinary, then, that I should desire to maintain 
 my self-respect ?" 
 
 " It would not have been compromised by remaining where 
 you were." 
 
 " I should scorn myself, were I willing to live idly on the 
 bounty of one upon whom I have no claim." 
 
 " You are morbidly fastidious, Beulah." 
 
 Her eyes flashed, and snatching her hand from his, she asked, 
 with curling lips : " Eugene, if I prefer to teach, for a support, 
 why should you object ?" 
 
 " Simply because you are unnecessarily lowering yourself in 
 the estimation of the community. You will find that the circle, 
 which a residence under Dr. HartwelPs roof gave you the entree 
 of, will look down with contempt upon a subordinate teacher in 
 a public school " 
 
 " Then, thank Heaven, I am forever shut out from that 
 circle ! Is my merit to be gauged by the cost of my clothes, 
 or the number of fashionable parties I attend, think you ?" 
 
 " Assuredly, Beulah, the things you value so lightly are the 
 standards of worth and gentility in the community you live in, 
 as you will unfortunately find." 
 
 She looked at him steadily, with grief, and scorn, and wonder 
 in her deep, searching eyes, as she exclaimed : 
 
 " Oh, Eugene ! what has changed you so, since the bygone 
 years, when, in the Asylum, we talked of the future ? of labor- 
 ing, conquering, and earning homes for ourselves 1 Oh, has the 
 foul atmosphere of foreign lands extinguished all your self- 
 respect ? Do you come back sordid aiiJ sycophantic, and the 
 
228 BETJLAH. 
 
 slave of opinions you would once have utterly detested ? Have 
 you narrowed your soul, and bowed down before the miserable 
 standard which every genuine, manly spirit must loathe ? Oh ! 
 has it come to this ? Has it come to this ?" Her voice was 
 broken, and bitter, scalding tears of shame and grief gushed 
 over her cheeks. 
 
 " This fierce recrimination and unmerited tirade is not exactly 
 the welcome I was prepared to expect," returned Eugene, 
 haughtily; and rising, he took his hat from the table. She rose 
 also, but made no effort to detain him, and leaned her head 
 against the mantelpiece. He watched her a moment, then 
 approached, and put his hand on her shoulder : 
 
 " Beulah, as a man, I see the world and its relations in a far 
 different light from that in which I viewed it while a boy." 
 
 "It is utterly superfluous to tell me so !" replied Beulah, bit- 
 terly. 
 
 " I grapple with realities now, and am forced to admit the 
 expediency of prudent policy. You refuse to see things in their 
 actual existence, and prefer toying with romantic dreams. 
 Beulah, I have awakened from these since we parted." 
 
 She put up her hand deprecatingly, and answered : 
 
 " Then let me dream on ! let me dream on !" 
 
 " Beulah, I have been sadly mistaken in my estimate of your 
 character. I could not have believed there was so much fierce 
 obstinacy, so much stubborn pride, in your nature." 
 
 She instantly lifted her head, and their eyes met. Other days 
 came back to both ; early confidence, mutual love and depend- 
 ence. For a moment his nobler impulses prevailed, and with an 
 unsteady lip, he passed his arm quickly around her. But she 
 drew coldly back, and said : 
 
 " It seems we are mutually disappointed in each other. I 
 regret that the discharge of my duty should so far conflict with 
 your opinions and standard of propriety, as to alienate us so 
 completely as it seems likely to do. All my life I have looked to 
 you for guidance and counsel ; but to-night you have shaken my 
 
BEULAH. 229 
 
 trust, and henceforth I must depend upon my own heart to sup- 
 port me in my work. Oh, Eugene ! friend of my childhood ! 
 beware, lest you sink yourself in your own estimation ! Oh, for 
 days, and months, and years, I have pictured the hour of your 
 return, little dreaming that it would prove one of the saddest of 
 my life ! I have always looked up to you. Oh, Eugene ! 
 Eugene 1 you are not what you were ! Do not ! oh, do not 
 make me pity you ! That would kill me !" She covered her 
 face with her hands, and shuddered convulsively. 
 
 " I am not so changed as you think me," returned Eugene, 
 proudly. 
 
 " Then, in early years, I was miserably deceived in your cha- 
 racter. For the sake of wealth, and what the world calls ' posi- 
 tion,' you have sold yourself. In lieu of his gold and influence, 
 Mr. Graham has your will, your conscience. Ah, Eugene ! how 
 can you bear to be a mere tool in his hands ?" 
 
 " Beulah, your language, your insinuations are unpardonable -I 
 By Heaven, no one but yourself might utter them, and not eveu 
 you can do so with impunity ! If you choose to suffer your 
 foolish pride and childish whims to debar you from the enviable 
 position in society, which Dr. Hartwell would gladly confer on 
 you, why you have only yourself to censure. But my situation 
 in Mr. Graham's family, has long been established. He has ever 
 regarded me as his son, treated me as such, and as such, I feel 
 bound to be guided by him in my choice of a profession. Beulah, 
 I have loved you well, but such another exhibition of scorn and 
 bitterness will indeed alienate us. Since you have set aside my 
 views and counsel, in the matter of teaching, I shall not again 
 refer to it, I promise you. I have no longer the wish to control 
 your actions, even had I the power. But, remember, since the 
 hour you stood beside your father's grave, leaning on me, I have 
 been constantly your friend. My expostulations were for what 
 I considered your good. Beulah, I am still, to you, the Eugene 
 of other days. It will be your own fault, if the sanctity of our 
 friendship is not maintained." 
 
230 BEULAH. 
 
 " It shall not bo my fault, Eugene." She hastily held out her 
 hand. He clasped it in his, and, as if dismissing the topics which 
 had proved so stormy, drew her to a seat, and said, composedly: 
 
 " Come, tell me what you have been doing with yourself these 
 long five years, which have changed you so. I have heard 
 already of your heroism in nursing the sick, during the late 
 awful season of pestilence and death." 
 
 For an hour they talked on indifferent themes, each feeling 
 that the other was veiling the true impulses of the heart, and 
 finally Eugene rose to go. 
 
 * " How is Cornelia's health now ?" asked Beulah, as they stood 
 up before the fire." 
 
 " About the same. She never complains, but does not look 
 like herself. Apropos I she intrusted a note to me, for you, 
 which I had quite forgotten. Here it is. Miss Dupres is with 
 her for the winter; at least a part of it. Cornelia will come and 
 see you in a day or two, she requested me to say ; and I do hope, 
 Beulah, that you will visit her often ; she has taken a great fancy 
 to you." 
 
 " How long since ?" answered Beulah, with an incredulous 
 smile. 
 
 " Since she met you at a concert, I believe. By the way, we 
 are very musical at our house, and promise ourselves some delight- 
 ful evenings this winter. You must hear Antoinette Dupres 
 sing ; she is equal to the best prima-donna of Italy. Do you 
 practise much ?" 
 
 V Yes." 
 
 " Well, I must go. When shall I see you again ?" 
 
 " Whenever you feel disposed to come ; and I hope that will 
 be often. Eugene, you were a poor correspondent ; see that you 
 prove a better visitor." 
 
 " Yes, I will. I have a thousand things to say, but scarcely 
 know where to commence. You are always at home in the even- 
 ings, I suppose ?" 
 
 " Yes, except occasionally when I am with the Asburys." 
 
BEULAH. 231 
 
 " Do you see much 3f them ?" 
 
 " Yes, a good deal." 
 
 " I am glad to hear it; they move in the very first circle. 
 Now, Beulah, don't be offended if I ask what is the matter with 
 Dr. Hart well ? How did you displease him ?" 
 
 "Just as I displeased you; by deciding to teach. Eugene, it 
 pains me very much that he should treat me as he does, but it 
 is utterly out of my power to rectify the evil." 
 
 "lie told me that he knew nothing of your movements or 
 plans. I wish, for your sake, you could be reconciled." 
 
 " We will be some day. I must wait patiently," said she, 
 with a sigh. 
 
 " Beulah, I don't like that troubled look about your mouth. 
 What is the matter ? Can I in any way remove it ? Is it con- 
 nected with me, even remotely? My dear Beulah, do not shrink 
 from me." 
 
 " Nothing is the matter that you can rectify," saki she,- 
 gravely. 
 
 " Something is the matter, then, which I may not know ?" 
 
 "Yes." 
 
 " And you will not trust me ?" 
 
 " It is not a question of trust, Eugene." 
 
 " You think I cannot help you ?" 
 
 " You cannot help me, I am sure." 
 
 "Well, I will see you again to-morrow; till then good bye." 
 They shook hands, and she went back to her own room. Cor- 
 nelia's note contained an invitation to spend the next evening 
 with them ; she would call as soon as possible. She put it aside, 
 and throwing her arms on the mantelpiece, bowed her head upon 
 them. This, then, was the hour which, for five years, she had 
 anticipated as an occasion of unmixed delight. She was not 
 weeping; no, the eyes were dry, and the lips firmly fixed. She 
 was thinking of the handsome face which a little while before 
 was beside her; thinking, with keen agony, of footprints there, 
 which she had never dreamed of seeing; they were very slight, 
 
232 BEULAH. 
 
 yet unmistakable the fell signet of dissipation. Above all, she 
 read it iu the eyes, which once looked so fearlessly into hers. 
 She knew he did not imagine, for an instant, that she suspected 
 it; and of all the bitter cups which eighteen years had proffered, 
 this was by far the blackest. It was like a hideous dream, and 
 she groaned, and passed her hand over her brow, as if to sweep 
 it all away. Poor Beulah ! the idol of her girlhood fell from its 
 pedestal, and lay in crumbling ruins at her feet. In this hour 
 of reunion, she saw clearly into her own heart; she did not love 
 him, save as a friend, as a brother. She was forced to perceive 
 her own superiority; could she love a man whom she did not 
 revere ? Verily, she felt now that she did not love Eugene. 
 There was a feeling of contempt for his weakness, yet she could 
 not bear to see him other than she had hoped. How utterly he 
 had disappointed her ? Could it be possible that he had fallen 
 so low as to dissipate habitually? This she would not believe; 
 he was still too noble for such a disgraceful course. She felt a 
 soft touch on her shoulder, and raised her sad, tearless face. 
 Clara, with her ethereal, spiritual countenance, stood on the 
 hearth: "Do I disturb you?" said she, timidly. 
 
 "No; I am glad you came. I was listening to cold, bitter, 
 bitter thoughts. Sit down, Clara; you look fatigued." 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! I am weary in body and spirit ; I have no 
 energy; my very existence is a burden to me." 
 
 " Clara, it is weak to talk so. Eouse yourself, and fulfill the 
 destiny for which you were created." 
 
 " I have no destiny, but that of loneliness and misery." 
 
 " Our situations are similar, yet I never repine as you do." 
 
 " You have not the same cause. You are self-reliant ; need 
 no society to conduce to your happiness; your heart is bound up 
 in your books." 
 
 " Where yours had better have been," answered Beulah. She 
 walked across the floor several times, then said impressively, as 
 she threw her arm round Clara's waist: 
 
 " Crush it; crush it; if yon crush your heart in the effort." 
 
BEULAH. 233 
 
 A moan es caped Clara's lips, and she hid her face against her 
 friend's shoulder. 
 
 " I have known it since the night of your grandfather's death. 
 If you want to be happy and useful, crush it out of your heart." 
 
 " I have tried, and cannot." 
 
 " Oh ! but you can. I tell you there is nothing a woman 
 cannot do, provided she puts on the armor of duty, and 
 unsheathes the sword of a strong, unbending will. Of course, 
 you can do it, if you will." 
 
 " Wait till you feel as I do, Beulah, and it will not seem so 
 light a task." 
 
 " That will never happen. If I live till the next geological 
 period, I never shall love anybody as insanely as you love. 
 Why, Clara, don't you see that you are wrecking your happi- 
 ness ? What strange infatuation has seized you ?" 
 
 " I know now that it is perfectly hopeless," said Clara calmly. 
 
 " You might have known it from the first." 
 
 11 No; it is but recently that the barrier has risen." 
 
 " What barrier ?" asked Beulah, curiously. 
 
 " For Heaven's sake, Beulah, do not mock me! You know 
 too well what separates us." 
 
 "Yes; utter uucongeniality." 
 
 Clara raised her head, looked into the honest face before her, 
 and answered: 
 
 " If that were all, I could yet hope to merit his love; but you 
 know that is not so. You must know that he has no love to 
 bestow." 
 
 Beulah's face seemed instantly steeled. A greyish hue crept 
 over it; and drawing her slender form to its full height, she 
 replied, with haughty coldness: 
 
 " What do you mean ? I can only conjecture." 
 
 "Beulah, you know he loves you!" cried Clara, with a 
 strangely quiet smile. 
 
 " Clara Sanders, never say that again as Jong as you live ; for 
 there is not the shadow of truth in it." 
 
234 B E U L A H . 
 
 " Ah, I would not believe it till it was forced upon me. The 
 heart bars itself a long time to painful truths ! I have looked 
 at you, and wondered whether you could be ignorant of what I 
 saw so clearly. I believe you are honest in what you say. I 
 know that you are ; but it is nevertheless true. I saw it the 
 evening I went to ride. He loves you, whether you see it or not. 
 And, moreover, the world has begun to join your names. I have 
 heard, more than once, that he educated you with the intention 
 of marrying you ; and recently it has been rumored that the 
 marriage would take place very soon. Do not be hurt with me, 
 Beulah I I think it is right that you should know all this." 
 
 " It is utterly false from beginning to end ! He never had 
 such a thought I never ! never 1" cried Beulah, striking her 
 clenched hand heavily on the table. 
 
 " Why, then, was he so anxious to prevent your teaching T' 
 
 11 Because he is generous and kind, and fancied it was a life of 
 "Hardship, which I could escape by accepting his offer to adopt 
 me. Your supposition is perfectly ridiculous. He is double my 
 age. A stern, taciturn man ; what could possibly attract him to 
 one whom he looks upon as a mere child ? And moreover, he 
 is a worshipper of beauty 1 Now, it is an indisputable fact that 
 I am anything but a beauty ! Oh, the idea is absurd beyond all 
 degree. Never mention it to me again. I tell you solemnly, 
 Clara, your jealous fancy has run away with your common 
 sense." 
 
 A sad, incredulous smile flitted over Clara's face, but she made 
 no reply. 
 
 " Clara, rouse yourself from this weak dream. Oh, where is 
 your pride your womanly pride your self-respect ? Is your 
 life to be aimless and dreary because of an unrequited attach- 
 ment ? Shake it off ! Rise above it ! Destroy it ! Oh, it 
 makes the blood tingle in my veins to think of your wasting your 
 energies and hopes in love for one who is so utterly indifferent to 
 you. Much as I love you, Clara, had I the power to make you 
 his wife to-morrow, I would rather see you borne to your grave. 
 
BEULAH. 235 
 
 You know nothing of his fitful, moody nature ; his tyrannical 
 will. You could not be happy with him ; you would see how 
 utterly unsuited you are." 
 
 " Are you acquainted with the circumstances of his early life, 
 and ill-fated marriage ?" asked Clara, in a low, passionless 
 tone. 
 
 " No ; he never alluded to his marriage in any way. Long 
 as I lived in his house there was no mention of his wife's name, 
 and I should never have known of his marriage but from his 
 sister." 
 
 " It was a most unhappy marriage," said Clara, musingly. 
 
 " So I conjectured from his studious avoidance of all allusion 
 to it." 
 
 " His wife was very, very beautiful ; I saw her once when I 
 was a child," continued Clara. 
 
 " Of course she must have been, for he could not love one who 
 was nut." 
 
 " She lived but a few months ; yet even in that short time 
 they had become utterly estranged, and she died of a broken 
 heart. There is some mystery connected with it ; they were 
 separated." 
 
 11 Separated 1" cried Beulah, in amazement. 
 
 11 Yes, separated ; she died in New Orleans, I believe." 
 
 " And yet you profess to love him 1 A man who broke his 
 wife's heart," said Beulah, with a touch of scorn. 
 
 " No ; you do his noble nature injustice. He is incapable of 
 such a course. Even a censorious world acquitted him of un- 
 kindness." 
 
 " And heaped contumely on the unhappy victim, eh ?" rejoined 
 Beulah. 
 
 " Her conduct was not irreproachable, it has been whispered." 
 
 " Aye, whispered by slanderous tongues ! Not openly avowed, 
 to admit of denial and refutation 1 I wonder the curse of Go- 
 morrah does not descend on this gossiping, libellous community." 
 
 " No one seems to know anything definite about the affair; 
 
236 BEULAH. 
 
 though I have often heard it commented upon and wondered 
 over." 
 
 " Clara, let it be buried henceforth. Neither you nor I have 
 any right to discuss and censure what neither of us know any- 
 thing about. Dr. Hartwell has been my best and truest friend. 
 I love and honor him ; his faults are his own, and only his Maker 
 has the right to balance his actions. Once for all, let the sub- 
 ject drop." Beulah compressed her lips with an expression 
 which her companion very well understood. Soon after the lat- 
 ter withdrew, and leaning her arms on the table near her, Beulah 
 sank into a reverie which was far from pleasant. Dismissing the 
 unsatisfactory theme of her guardian's idiosyncrasies, her 
 thoughts immediately reverted to Eugene, and the revolution 
 which five years had effected in his character. 
 
 In the afternoon of the following day, she was engaged with 
 her drawing, when a succession of quick raps at her door forced 
 an impatient "come in" from her lips. The door opened, and 
 she rose involuntarily as the queenly form of Cornelia Graham 
 stood before her. With a slow, stately tread, she approached, 
 and, extending her hand, said unconcernedly : 
 
 " I have waived ceremony, you see, and come up to your 
 room." 
 
 " How are you ?" said Beulah, as they shook hands, and seated 
 themselves. 
 
 " Just as usual. How did you contrive to escape the plague?" 
 
 " By resolving not to have it, I believe." 
 
 " You have a wan, sickly look, I think." 
 
 "So have you, I am sure. I hoped that you would come 
 home strong and well." Beulah noted, with a feeling of compas- 
 sion, the thin, hollow cheeks, and sunken, yet burning eyes before 
 her. Cornelia bit her lip, and asked, haughtily : 
 
 " Who told you that I was not well ?" 
 
 " Your countenance would tell me, if I had never heard it from 
 others," replied Beulah, with an instantaneous recollection of her 
 guardian's warning. 
 
B E U L A H . 237 
 
 " Did you receive my note yesterday ?" 
 
 " Yes. I am obliged by your invitation, but cannot accept it." 
 
 " So I supposed, and, therefore, came to make sure of you. 
 You are too proud to come, until all the family call upon you, 
 eh?" 
 
 " No : only people who consider themselves inferior, are on 
 the watch for slights, and scrupulously exact the minutest 
 requirements of etiquette. On the plane of equality, these bar- 
 riers melt away." 
 
 As Beulah spoke, she looked steadily into the searching, black 
 eyes, which seemed striving to read her soul. An expression of 
 pleasure lighted the sallow face, and the haughty lines about the 
 beautiful mouth melted into a half smile. 
 
 " Then you have not forgiven my rudeness during early school- 
 days r 
 
 11 1 had nothing to forgive. I had forgotten the affair, until 
 you spoke. 
 
 " Then, why will you not come ?" 
 
 " For reasons which would not be removed by a recapitula- 
 tiou." 
 
 "And you positively will not come ?" 
 
 " Not this evening. Another time, I certainly will come, with 
 pleasure." 
 
 " Say to-morrow, then." . 
 
 " To-morrow, I shall be engaged." 
 
 " Where ? Excuse my pertinacity." 
 
 " At Dr. Asbury's : I have promised to practise some duets 
 with Helen." 
 
 " Do you play well, Beulah ? Are you a good musician ?" 
 
 " Yes." 
 
 Cornelia mused a moment, and then said, slowly, as if watch- 
 ing the effect of her question : 
 
 " You have seen Eugene, of course ?" 
 
 "Yes." 
 
 " He has changed very much in his appearance, has he not ?" 
 
238 BEULAH. 
 
 " More than I was prepared to expect." 
 
 " He is to be a merchant, like my father." 
 
 " So he wrote me." 
 
 " You endeavored to dissuade him from complying with my 
 father's wishes, did you not ?" 
 
 " Yes, most earnestly," answered Beulah, gravely. 
 
 " Beulah Benton, I like you 1 You are honest indeed. At last 
 I find one who is." With a sudden impulse, she laid her white, 
 jewelled hand on Beulah's. 
 
 " Is honesty, or rather candor, so very rare, Cornelia ?" 
 
 " Come out from your ' loop-hole of retreat,' into the world, 
 and you can easily answer your own question." 
 
 "You seem to have looked on human nature through misan- 
 thropic lenses." 
 
 "Yes, I bought a pair of spectacles, for which I paid a most 
 exorbitant price ; but they were labelled ' experience !' " She 
 smiled frigidly. 
 
 " You do not seem to have enjoyed your tour particularly." 
 
 " Yes I did ; but one is glad to rest sometimes. I may yet 
 prove a second Bayard Taylor, notwithstanding. I should like 
 you for a companion. You would not sicken me with stereo- 
 typed nonsense." 
 
 Her delicate fingers folded themselves about Beulah's, who 
 could not bring herself to withdraw, her hand. 
 
 " And sure enough, you would not be adopted ? Do you 
 mean to adhere to your determination, and maintain yourself by 
 teaching ?" 
 
 " I do." 
 
 " And I admire you for it 1 Beulah, you must get over yom 
 dislike to me." 
 
 " I do not dislike you, Cornelia. 7 ' 
 
 " Thank you for your negative preference," returned Cornelia, 
 rather amused at her companion's straightforward manner. Then, 
 with a sudden contraction of her brow, she added : 
 
 " I am not so bearish as they give me credit for." 
 
BEULAH. 239 
 
 "I never heard you called so." 
 
 "Ah ? that is because you do not enter the enchanted circle 
 of ' our clique.' During morning calls, I am flattered, cajoled, 
 and fawned upon. Their carriages are not out of hearing, before 
 my friends and admirers, like hungry harpies, pounce upon my 
 character, manners and appearance, with most laudable zest and 
 activity. Wait till you have been initiated into my coterie of 
 fashionable friends ! Why, the battle of Marengo was a farce, in 
 comparison with the havoc they can effect in the space of a morn- 
 ing, among the characters of their select visiting list ! What a pre- 
 cious age of backbiting we city belles live in." She spoke with 
 an air of intolerable scorn. 
 
 "As a prominent member of this circle, why do you not 
 attempt to rectify this spreading evil ? You might effect lasting 
 good." 
 
 " I am no Hercules, to turn the Peneus of reform through the 
 Augean realms of society," answered Cornelia, with an impatient 
 gesture ; and rising, she drew on her glove. Beulah looked up 
 at her, and pitied the joyless, cynical nature, which gave an 
 almost repulsively austere expression to the regular, faultless 
 features. 
 
 " Beulah, will you come on Saturday morning, and spend an 
 hour or so with me ?" 
 
 " No, I have a music lesson to give ; but if you will be at 
 home in the afternoon, I will come with pleasure." 
 
 " I shall expect you, then. You were drawing when I came 
 in; are you fond of it?" As she spoke she took up apiece 
 which was nearly completed. 
 
 " Yes, but you will find my sketches very crude." 
 
 " Who taught you to draw ?" 
 
 " I have had several teachers. All rather indifferent, how 
 ever." 
 
 " Where did you see a St. Cecilia ? There is too much 
 breadth of brow here," continued Cornelia, with a curious glance 
 at the young teacher. 
 
24:0 B E U L A H . 
 
 " Yes; I deviated from the original intentionally. I copied it 
 from a collection of heads which Georgia Asbury brought from 
 the North." 
 
 " I have a number of choice paintings, which I selected in 
 Europe. Any that you may fancy are at your service for 
 models." 
 
 " Thank you. I shall be glad to avail myself of the 
 privilege." 
 
 " Good bye. You will come Saturday ?" 
 
 " Yes; if nothing occurs to prevent, I will come in the after- 
 noon." Beulah pressed her offered hand, and saw her descend 
 the steps with a feeling of pity, which she could not exactly 
 analyze. Passing by the window, she glanced down, and paused 
 to look at an elegant carriage standing before the door. The 
 day was cold, but the top was thrown back, and on one of the 
 cushions sat, or rather reclined, a richly dressed, and very 
 beautiful girl. As Beulah leaned out to examine the lovely 
 stranger more closely, Cornelia appeared. The driver opened 
 the low door, and as Cornelia stepped in, the young lady, who 
 was Miss Dupres, of course, ejaculated rather peevishly : 
 
 " You stayed an age." 
 
 " Drive down the Bay-road, Wilson," was Cornelia's reply, and 
 as she folded her rich cloak about her, the carriage was whirled 
 away. 
 
 Beulah went back to the fire, warmed her fingers, and 
 resumed her drawing ; thinking that she would not willingly 
 change places with the petted child of wealth and luxury. 
 
 CHAPTER XX. 
 
 IT was a dreary Saturday afternoon, but Beulah wrapped a 
 warm shawl about her, and set out to pay the promised visit. 
 The air was damp and raw, and leaden, marbled clouds hung low 
 
BETJLAH. 241 
 
 in the sky. Mr. Graham's house was situated in the fashionable 
 part of the city, near Mr. Gsaysou's residence, and as Beulah 
 passed the crouching lions, she quickened her steps, to escape 
 the painful reminiscences which they recalled. In answer to her 
 ring, the servant ushered her into the parlors furnished with 
 almost oriental magnificence, and was retiring, when she gave 
 her name. 
 
 " You are Miss Benton, then. I have orders to show you up 
 at once to Miss Cornelia's room. ^She has seen no visitors 
 to-day. This way, miss, if you please." 
 
 He led the way, up an easy, spiral flight of steps, to the door 
 of a room, which he threw open. Cornelia was sitting in a 
 large cushioned chair by the fire, with a papier-mache writing- 
 desk beside her, covered with letters. There was a bright fire 
 in the grate, and the ruddy haze, together with the reflection 
 from the crimson damask curtains, gave a dim, luxurious aspect 
 to the chamber, which in every respect betokened the fastidious 
 taste of a petted invalid. Clad in a dark silk robe-de-chambre, 
 with her cheek pressed against the blue velvet lining of the 
 chair, Cornelia's face wore a sickly, sallow hue, which was ren- 
 dered more palpable by her black, glittering eyes and jetty hair. 
 She eagerly held out her hand, and a smile of sincere pleasure 
 parted the lips, which a paroxysm of pain seemed to have just 
 compressed. 
 
 " It is such a gloomy day, I feared you would not come. 
 Take off your bonnet and sha\&L" 
 
 " It is not so gloomy out as you imagine," said Beulah. 
 
 " What ? not, with dull clouds, and a stiff, raw, northeaster ? 
 I looked out of the window a while since, and the bay looked just 
 as I have seen the North Seo,, grey and cold. Why don't you 
 take off your bonnet ?" 
 
 " Because I can only sit with you a short time," answered 
 Beulah, resisting the attempt made to take her shawl. 
 
 " Why, can't you spend the evening ?" said Cornelia, 
 frowning. 
 
 11 
 
242 . BETJLAH. 
 
 " I promised not to remain more than an hoar." 
 
 " Promised whom ?" 
 
 " Clara Sanders. She is sick; unable to leave her room, and 
 is lonely when I am away." 
 
 " My case is analogous ; so I will put myself on the charity 
 list for once. I have not been down-stairs for two days." 
 
 " But you have everything to interest you even here," re- 
 turned Beulah, glancing around at the numerous paintings and 
 engravings which were suspended on all sides, while ivory, 
 marble, and bronze statuettes, were scattered in profusion about 
 the room. Cornelia followed her glance, and asked, with a 
 joyless smile : 
 
 " Do you suppose those bits of stone and canvas satisfy 
 me?" 
 
 " Certainly. 'A thing of beauty should be a joy forever.' 
 With all these, and your library, surely you are never lonely." 
 
 " Pshaw I they tire me immensely. Sometimes, the cramped 
 positions, and unwinking eyes of that ' holy family ' there over 
 the chimneypiece, make me perfectly nervous." 
 
 " You must be morbidly sensitive at such times." 
 
 "Why? do you never feel restless and dissatisfied, without 
 any adequate reason ?" 
 
 "No, never." 
 
 " And yet, you have few sources of pleasure," said Cornelia, 
 in a musing tone, as her eyes wandered over her visitor's plain 
 attire. 
 
 " No ! my sources of enjoyment are as varied and extended 
 as the universe." 
 
 " I should like you to map them. Shut up all day with a 
 parcel of rude stupid children, and released, only to be caged 
 again in a small room in a second-rate boarding-house. Really, 
 I should fancy they were limited, indeed." 
 
 " No, I enjoy my brisk walk to school, in the morning ; the 
 children are neither so dull, nor so bearish as you seem to 
 imagine. I am attached to many of them, and do not feel the 
 
B E U L A H . 243 
 
 day to be very long. At three, I hurry home, get my dinner, 
 practise, and draw, or sew, till the shadows begin to dim my 
 eyes, then I walk until the lamps are lighted, find numberless 
 things to interest m, even in a winter's walk, and go back to 
 my room, refreshed and eager to get to my books. Once seated 
 with them, what portion of the earth is there, that I may not 
 visit, from the crystal Arctic temples of Odin and Thor, to 
 the groves of Abyssinia ? In this age of travel, and cheap 
 books, I can sit in my room in the third story, and by my lamp- 
 light, see all, and immeasurably more, than you, who have been 
 travelling for eighteen months. Wherever I go, I find sources 
 of enjoyment ; even the pictures in bookstores give me plea- 
 sure, and contribute food for thought ; and when, as now, I am 
 surrounded by all that wealth can collect, I admire, and enjoy 
 the beauty, and elegance, as much as if I owned it all. So you 
 see, that my enjoyments are as varied as the universe itself." 
 
 " Eureka !" murmured Cornelia, eyeing her companion curi- 
 ously, " Eureka I" you shall have the tallest case in the British 
 Museum, or Barnum's, just as your national antipathies may 
 incline you." 
 
 " What impresses you as so singular in my mode of life ?" 
 asked Beulah, rather dryly. 
 
 " Your philosophic contentment, which I believe you are too 
 candid to counterfeit. Your easy solution of that great human 
 riddle, given the world, to find happiness. The Athenian and 
 Alexandrian schools dwindle into nothingness. Commend me to 
 your ' categories/ 0, Queen of Philosophy." She withdrew her 
 searching eyes, and fixed them moodily on the fire, twirling the 
 tassel of her robe, as she mused. 
 
 " You are most egregiously mistaken, Cornelia, if you have 
 been led to suppose, from what I said a moment since, that I 
 am never troubled about anything. I merely referred to enjoy- 
 ments derived from various sources, open alike to rich and poor. 
 There are Marahs hidden in every path ; no matter whether 
 the draught is taken in jewelled goblets or unpolished gourds." 
 
244 B E U L A H . 
 
 "Sometimes, then, you are 'blued' most dismally, like the 
 balance of unphilosophic men and women, eh ?" 
 
 " Occasionally, my mind is very much perplexed and dis- 
 turbed ; not exactly ' blued ' as you express it, but dimmed, 
 clouded." 
 
 " What clouds it ? will you tell me ?" said Cornelia, eagerly. 
 
 " The struggle to see that, which I suppose it never was 
 intended I should see." 
 
 " I don't understand you," said Cornelia, knitting her brows. 
 
 " Nor would you, even were I to particularize." 
 
 " Perhaps I am not so very obtuse as you fancy." 
 
 " At any rate, I shall not enter into detail," answered Beulah, 
 smiling quietly at the effect of her words. 
 
 " Do you ever weary of your books ?" Cornelia leaned for- 
 ward, and bent a long searching look on her guest's countenance 
 as she spoke. 
 
 "Not of my books; but sometimes, nay, frequently, of the 
 thoughts they excite." 
 
 " A distinction without a difference," said the invalid, coldly. 
 
 "A true distinction nevertheless," maintained Beulah. 
 
 lt Be good enough to explain it then." 
 
 "For instance, I read Carlyle for hours, without the' slightest 
 sensation of weariness. Midnight forces me to lay the book 
 reluctantly aside, and then the .myriad conjectures and inquiries 
 which I am conscious of, as arising from those same pages, 
 weary me beyond all degrees of endurance." 
 
 " And these conjectures cloud your mind ?" said Cornelia, 
 with a half smile breaking over her face. 
 
 " 1 did not say so, I merely gave it as an illustration of what 
 you professed not to understand." 
 
 " I see your citadel of reserve and mistrust cannot be carried 
 by storm," answered Cornelia, petulantly. 
 
 Before Beulah could reply, a servant entered, and addressed 
 Cornelia. 
 
 " Your mother wants to show your Paris hat and veil, and 
 
B E U L A H . 245 
 
 handsomest point-lace set, to Mrs. Vincent, and Miss Julia says, 
 can't she run up and see you a minute ?" 
 
 A sneering smile accompanied the contemptuous answer, 
 which was delivered in no particularly gentle manner. 
 
 "This is the second time, those 'particular friends' of ours 
 have called to inspect my winter outfit. Take down my entire 
 wardrobe to them : dresses, bonnets, mantles, laces, handker- 
 chiefs, ribbons, shawls nay, gloves and slippers, for there is a 
 1 new style ' of catch on one, and of bows and buckles on the 
 other. Do you hear me, Mary ? don't leave a rag of my French 
 finery behind. Let the examination be sufficiently complete this 
 time. Don't forget the Indian shawl and the opera cloak and 
 hood, nor that ornamental comb, named after the last popular 
 danseuse ; and tell Miss Julia she will please excuse me another 
 time I will try to see her. Say I am engaged." 
 
 Some moments elapsed, during which Mary opened and shut a 
 number of drawers and boxes, and finally disappeared, stagger- 
 ing beneath a load of silks, velvets and laces. As the door 
 closed behind her, Cornelia smoothed her brow, and said, apolo- 
 getically : 
 
 " Doubtless, it seems a mere trifle of accommodation to display 
 all that mass of finery to their eagerly curious eyes ; but I 
 assure you, that though I have not been at home quite a week, 
 those things have vacated their places at least twenty times for 
 inspection ; and this ridiculous mania for the ' latest style ' dis- 
 gusts me beyond measure. I tell you, the majority of the women 
 in this town think of nothing else. I have not yet looked over 
 my wardrobe myself. Mother selected it in Paris, and I did not 
 trouble myself to examine it when it was unpacked." 
 
 Beulah smiled, but offered no comment. Cornelia suddenly 
 sank back in her chair, and said hastily : 
 
 " Give me that vial on the bureau ! Quick ! quick I" 
 
 Beulah sprang up and handed her the vial, which she put to 
 her lips. She was ghastly pale, her features writhed, and heavy 
 drops glistened on her brow, corrugated by severe pain. 
 
24:6 B E II L A H . 
 
 " Can I do anything for you, Cornelia ? Shall I call your 
 mother ?" 
 
 " No. You may fan me, if you will." She moaned and closed 
 her eyes. 
 
 Beulah seized a fan, and did as requested, now and then 
 wiping away the moisture which gathered around the lips and 
 forehead. Gradually the paroxysm passed off, and opening her 
 eyes, she said, wearily : 
 
 " That will do, thank you. Now pour out a glass of water 
 from the pitcher yonder." 
 
 Beulah handed her the draught, saying, with surprise : 
 
 " Sitting wrapped up by a fire, and drinking ice water !" 
 
 " Yes, I use ice-water the year round. Please touch the bell- 
 rope, will you ?" 
 
 As Beulah resumed her seat, Cornelia added, with a forced 
 laugh : 
 
 " You look as if you pitied me." 
 
 " I do, most sincerely. Do you suffer in this way often ?" 
 
 " Yes no well, when I am prudent, I don't." Then turning 
 to the servant, who stood at the door, she continued : " John, 
 go to Dr. Hartwell's office (not his house, mind you), and leave 
 word that he must come here before night. Do you under- 
 stand ? shut the door stop ! send up some coal." 
 
 She drew her chair closer to the fire, and extending her slip- 
 pered feet on the marble hearth, said : 
 
 " I have suffered more during the last three days than in six 
 mouths before. Last night I did not close my eyes and Dr. 
 Hartwell must prepare me some medicine. What is the matter 
 with Clara Sanders ? She looks like an alabaster image 1" 
 
 " She has never recovered entirely from that attack of yellow 
 fever ; and a day or two ago, she took cold, and has had con- 
 stant fever since. I suppose she will see the doctor while I am 
 here. I feel anxious about her." 
 
 " She looks ethereal, as if refined for a translation to heaven," 
 continued Cornelia, musingly ; then suddenly lifting her head, 
 
B E U L A H . 24:7 
 
 she listened an instant, and exclaimed, angrily : " It is very 
 strange that I am not to have an hour's peace and enjoyment 
 with you, without "- 
 
 The door opened, and a graceful form and lovely face ap- 
 proached the fireplace. " Miss Benton, suffer me to introduce 
 my cousin, Miss Dupres," said Cornelia, very coldly. 
 
 The young lady just inclined her head, and proceeded to scan 
 Beulah's countenance and dress, with a degree of cool imperti- 
 nence which was absolutely amusing. Evidently, however, Cor- 
 nelia saw nothing amusing in this ill-bred stare, for she pushed a 
 light chair impatiently toward her, saying : 
 
 " Sit down, Antoinette !" 
 
 She threw herself into the seat, with a sort of languid grace, 
 and said, in the most musical of voices : 
 
 " Why would not you see Julia Vincent ? She was so much 
 disappointed." 
 
 " Simply and solely, because I did not choose to see her. Be 
 good enough to move your chair to one side, if you please," 
 snapped Cornelia. 
 
 " That was very unkind in you, considering she is so fond of 
 you. We are all to spend the evening with her, next week : 
 you, and your brother, and I. A mere ' sociable,' she soys." 
 She had been admiringly inspecting her small hands, loaded 
 with diamonds ; and now turning round, she again freely scruti- 
 nized Beulah, who had been silently contemplating her beautiful 
 oval profile and silky auburn curls. Certainly, Antoinette 
 Dupres was beautiful, but it was such a beauty as one sees in 
 wax dolls blank, soulless, expressionless, if I may except the 
 predominating expression of self-satisfaction. Beulah's quiet 
 dignity failed to repel the continued stare fixed upon her, and 
 gathering up the folds of her shawl, she rose. 
 
 " Don't go," said Cornelia, earnestly. 
 
 " I must ; Clara is alone, and I promised to return soon." 
 
 " When will you come agaiu ?" Cornelia took her hand, and 
 pressed it warmly. 
 
248 BETJfiAH. 
 
 " I really do not know. 1 hope you will be better soon." 
 
 " Eugene will be disappointed : he expects you to spend the 
 evening with us. What shall I tell him ?" 
 
 " Nothing." 
 
 " I will come and see you, the very first day I can get out of 
 this prison-house of mine. Meantime, if I send for you, will you 
 come and sit with me ?" 
 
 " That depends upon circumstances. If you are sick, and 
 lonely, I certainly will. Good bye." 
 
 " Good bye, Beulah. The hfcoghty heiress drew the orphan's 
 face down to hers, and kissed h)er cordially. Not a little sur- 
 prised by this unexpected demonstration of affection in one so 
 cold and stately, Beulah bowed distantly to the cousin, who 
 returned the salutation still more distantly, and hastening down 
 the steps, was glad to find herself once more under the dome of 
 sky, grey and rainy though it was. The wind sighed and sobbed 
 through the streets, and a few cold drops fell, as she approached 
 Mrs. Hoyt's. Quickening her steps, she ran in by a side entrance, 
 and was soon at Clara's room. The door stood open, and with 
 bonnet and shawl in her hand, she entered, little prepared to 
 meet her guardian, for she had absented herself, with the hope 
 of avoiding him. He was sitting by a table, preparing some 
 medicine, and looked up involuntarily as she came in. His eyes 
 lightened instantly, but he merely said : 
 
 " Good evening, Beulah." 
 
 The tone was less icy than on previous occasions, and crossing 
 the room at once, she stood beside him, and held out her hand. 
 
 " How are you, sir ?" 
 
 He did not take the hand, but looked at her keenly, and said: 
 
 11 You are an admirable nurse, to go off and leave your sick 
 friend." 
 
 Beulah threw down her bonnet and shawl, and retreating to 
 the hearth, began to warm her fingers, as she replied, with indif- 
 ference : 
 
 " I have just left another of your patients. Cornelia Graham 
 
B E U L A H . 
 
 has been worse than usual for a day or two. Clara, I will put 
 away ray out-door wrappings, and be with you presently." She 
 retired to her own room, and leaning against the widow, where 
 the rain was now pattering drearily, she murmured faintly : 
 
 " Will he always treat me so ? Have I lost my friend for- 
 ever ? Once he was so different; so kind, even in his sternness 1" 
 A tear hung upon her lash, and fell on her hand ; she brushed 
 it hastily away, and stood thinking over this alienation, so pain- 
 ful and unnatural, when she heard her guardian close Clara's 
 door, and walk across the hall, to the head of the stairs. She 
 waited awhile, until she thought he had reached his buggy, and 
 slowly proceeded to Clara's room. Her eyes were fixed on the 
 floor, and her hand was already on the bolt of the door, when a 
 deep \oice startled her. 
 
 " Beulah !" 
 
 She looked up at him proudly. Resentment had usurped the 
 place of grief. But she could not bear the earnest eyes, that 
 looked into hers with such misty splendor ; and provoked at her 
 own emotion, she asked, coldly : 
 
 " What do you want, sir ?" 
 
 He did not answer at once, but stood observing her closely. 
 She felt the hot blood rush into her usually cold, pale face, and, 
 despite her efforts to seem perfectly indifferent, her eyelids and 
 lips would tremble. His hand rested lightly on her shoulder, and 
 he spoke very gently: 
 
 " Child, have you been ill? You look wretchedly. What ails 
 you, Beulah 1" 
 
 " Nothing, sir." 
 
 " That will not answer. Tell me, child, tell me !" 
 
 " I tell you I am as well as usual," cried she, impatiently, yet 
 her voice faltered. She was struggling desperately with her 
 own heart. The return of his old manner, the winning tones 
 of his voice, affected her more than she was willing he should 
 see. 
 
 " Beulah, you used to be truthful and candid." 
 
 11* 
 
250 BETJLA.H. 
 
 "I am so still," she returned, stoutly, though tears began to 
 gather in her eyes. 
 
 " No, child, already the world has changed you." 
 
 A shadow fell over his face, and the sad eyes were like clouded 
 stars. 
 
 " You know better, sir ! I am just what I always was ! It is 
 you who are so changed ! Once you were my friend ; my guar- 
 dian ! Once you were kind, and guided me ; but now you are 
 stern, and bitter, and tyrannical 1" She spoke passionately, and 
 tears, which she bravely tried to force back, rolled swiftly down 
 her cheeks. His light touch on her shoulder tightened, until il 
 seemed a hand of steel, and with an expression which she nevei 
 forgot, even in after years, he answered : 
 
 " Tyrannical ! Not to you, child !" 
 
 " Yes, sir, tyrannical ! cruelly tyrannical ! Because I dared 
 to think and act for myself, you have cast me off utterly ! You 
 try to see how cold and distant you can be ; and show me that 
 you don't care whether I live or die, so long as I choose to be 
 independent of you. I did not believe that you could ever be SG 
 ungenerous !" She looked up at him with swimming eyes. He 
 smiled down into her tearful face, and asked: 
 
 " Why did you defy me, chill ?" 
 
 " I did not, sir, until you treated me worse than the servants. 
 Worse than you did Charon even." 
 
 " How ?" 
 
 " How, indeed ! You left me in your own house without one 
 word of good bye, when you expected to be absent an indefinite 
 time. Did you suppose, that I would remain there an hour 
 after such treatment ?" 
 
 He smiled again, and said in the low musical tone, which she 
 had always found so difficult to resist. 
 
 " Come back, my child. Come back to me I" 
 
 " Never, sir ! Nbfer !" answered she, resolutely. 
 
 A stony hue setttaz on his face ; the lips seemed instantly 
 frozen, and removing nis hand from her shoulder, he said, as if 
 
BEULAH. 251 
 
 talking to a perfect stranger : " See that Clara Sanders needs 
 nothing ; she is far from being well." 
 
 He left her, but her heart conquered for an instant, and she 
 sprang down two steps, and caught his hand. Pressing her face 
 against his arm, she exclaimed brokenly : 
 
 " Oh, sir ! do not cast me off entirely ! My friend, my guar- 
 dian ; indeed, I have not deserved this I" 
 
 He laid his hand on her bowed head, and said calmly : 
 
 " Fierce, proud spirit ! Ah ! it will take long years of trial 
 and suffering to tame you. Go, Beulah ! You have cast your- 
 self off. It was no wish, no work of mine." 
 
 He lifted her head from his arm, gently unclasped her fingers, 
 and walked away. Beulah dried the tears on her cheek, and com- 
 posing herself by a great effort, returned to Clara. The latter 
 still sat in an easy-chair, and leaned back with closed eyes. 
 Beulah made no effort to attract her attention, and sat down 
 noiselessly to reflect upon her guardian's words, and the separa- 
 tion which, she now clearly saw, he intended should be final. 
 There, in the gathering gloom of twilight, sat Clara Sanders, 
 nerving her heart for the dreary future ; solemnly and silently 
 burying the cherished hopes that had irised her path, and now 
 looking steadily forward to coming years, she said to her droop- 
 ing spirit, " be strong, and bear this sorrow. I will conquer my 
 own heart." How is it, that when the human soul v is called to 
 pass through a fierce ordeal, and numbing despair seizes the 
 faculties and energies in her sepulchral grasp, how is it, that 
 superhuman strength is often suddenly infused into the sinking 
 spirit ? There is a mysterious yet resistless power given, which 
 winds up, and sets again in motion, that marvellous bit of 
 mechanism, the human will ; that curiously intricate combination 
 of wheels ; that mainspring of action, which has baffled the 
 ingenuity of philosophers, and remains yet undiscovered, behind 
 the cloudy shrine of the unknown. Now, there are times when 
 this human clock well-nigh runs down ; when it seems that voli- 
 tion is dead; when the past is all gilded, the future all shrouded, 
 
252 B E U L A H . 
 
 and the soul grows passive, hoping nothing, fearing nothing. 
 Yet when the slowly-swinging pendulum seems about to rest, even 
 then an unseen hand touches the secret spring; and as the curious- 
 ly folded coil quivers on again, the resuscitated will is lifted tri- 
 umphantly back to its throne. This new-born power is from 
 God. But, ye wise ones of earth, tell us how, and by whom, is 
 the key applied ? Are ministering angels (our white-robed idols, 
 our loved dead) ordained to keep watch over the machinery of 
 the will, and attend to the winding up ? Or is this infusion of 
 strength, whereby to continue its operations, a sudden tightening 
 of those invisible cords, which bind the All-Father to the spirits 
 he has created ? Truly, there is no (Edipus for this vexing rid- 
 dle. Many luckless theories have been devoured by the Sphinx; 
 when will metaphysicians solve it ? One tells us vaguely enough, 
 "who knows the mysteries of will, with its vigor? Man doth 
 not yield him to the angels, nor unto death, utterly, save only 
 through the weakness of his feeble will." This pretty bubble of 
 a " latent strength " has vanished ; the power is from God ; but 
 who shall unfold the process ? Clara felt that this precious help 
 was given in her hour of need; and looking up undauntedly to the 
 clouds that darkened her sky, said to her hopeless heart : " I 
 will live to do my duty, and God's work on earth : I will go 
 bravely forward in my path of labor, strewing flowers and sun- 
 shine. If God needs a lonely, chastened spirit to do his behests, 
 oh ! shall I murmur, and die because I am chosen ? What are 
 the rushing, howling waves of life, in comparison with the calm, 
 shoreless ocean of all eternity ?" 
 
 The lamp was brought in, and the fire renewed, and the two 
 friends sat by the hearth, silent, quiet. Clara's face had a sweet, 
 serene look ; Beulah's was composed, so far as rigidity of fea- 
 tures betokened ; yet the firm curve of her full upper lip might 
 have indexed somewhat of the confusion which reigned in her 
 mind. Once, a great, burning light flashed out from her eyes, 
 then the lashes drooped a little, and veiled the storm. After a 
 time, Clara lifted her eyes, and said, gently : 
 
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 " Will you read to me, Beulah ?" 
 
 " Gladly, gladly ; what shall it be ?" She sprang up eagerly. 
 
 "Anything hopeful and strengthening Anything but your 
 study-books of philosophy and metaphysics. Anything but 
 those, Beulah." 
 
 " And why not those ?" asked the girl, quickly. 
 
 " Because they always confuse and darken me. 7 ' 
 
 "You do not understand them, perhaps ?" 
 
 " I understand them sufficiently to know that they are not 
 what I need." 
 
 " What do you need, Clara ?" 
 
 " The calm content and courage to do my duty through life. 
 I want to be patient and useful." 
 
 The grey eyes rested search ingly on the sweet face, and then 
 with a contracted brow Beulah stepped to the window and looked 
 out. The night was gusty, dark and rainy ; heavy drops pat- 
 tered briskly down the panes. She turned away, and standing 
 on the hearth, with her hands behind her, slowly repeated the 
 beautiful lines, beginning : 
 
 " The day is done, and the darkness 
 
 Falls from the wings of night, 
 
 As a feather is wafted downward 
 
 From an eagle in his flight." 
 
 Her voice was low and musical, and as she concluded the short 
 poem which seemed so singularly suited to Clara's wishes, the . 
 latter said earnestly : 
 
 " Yes, yes, Beulah, 
 
 " ' Such songs have power to quiet 
 
 The restless pulse of care, 
 
 And come like the benediction 
 
 That follows after prayer.' 
 
 Let us obey the poet's injunction, and realize the closing lines : 
 
254 B E U L A H . 
 
 " 'And the night shall be filled with music, 
 
 And the cares that infest the day, 
 Shall fold their tents, like the Arabs, 
 And as silently steal away.' " 
 
 Still Beulah stood on the hearth, with a dreamy abstraction 
 looking out from her eyes, and when she spoke there was a touch 
 of impatience in her tone : 
 
 " Why try to escape it all, Clara ? If those ' grand old mas- 
 ters/ those ' bards sublime,' who tell us in trumpet-tones of life's 
 endless toil and endeavor,' speak to you through my loved books, 
 why should you ' long for rest ?" 
 
 " An unfledged birdling cannot mount to the dizzy eyries of 
 the eagle," answered Clara, meekly. 
 
 " One grows strong only by struggling with difficulties. Strong 
 swimmers are such from fierce buffetings with hungry waves. 
 Come out of your warm nest of inertia ! Strengthen your wings 
 by battling with storm and wind !" Her brow bent as s)ie spoke. 
 
 " Beulah, what sustains you would starve me." 
 
 " Something has come over you, Clara. 
 
 " Yes ; a great trust in God's wisdom and mercy has stolen 
 into my heart. I no longer look despondingly into my future." 
 
 " Why ? Because you fancy that future will be very short 
 and painless ? Ah, Clara, is this trust, when the end comes, and 
 there is no more work to do ?" 
 
 " You are mistaken ; I do not see death beckoning me home. 
 Oh, I have not earned a home yet ! I look forward to years of 
 labor, profit, and peace. To-day I found some lines in the morn- 
 ing paper. Nay, don't curl your lips with a sneer at what you 
 call ' newspaper poetry.' Listen to the words that came like a 
 message from the spirit-land to my murmuring heart." Her 
 voice was low and unsteady, as she read : 
 
 " * Two hands upon the breast, and labor's done : 
 Two pale feet crossed in rest, the race is won. 
 Two eyes with coin- weights shut, all tearg cease; 
 
BEULAII. 255 
 
 Two lips where grief is mute, and wrath at peace. 
 So pray we oftentimes, mourning our lot ; 
 God, in his kindness, answereth not !' 
 
 Such, Beulah, I felt had been ray unvoiced prayer ; but now: 
 
 " ' Two hands to work addressed ; aye, for his praise, 
 Two feet that never rest ; walking his ways ; 
 Two eyes that look above, still through all tears; 
 Two lips that breathe but love ; never more fears. 
 So we cry afterward, low at our knees, 
 Pardon those erring cries I Father, hear these /' 
 
 Oh, Beulah, such is now my prayer." 
 
 As Beulah stood near the lamp, strange shadows fell on her 
 brow ; shadows from the long, curling lashes. After a brief 
 silence, she asked, earnestly : 
 
 " Are your prayers answered, Clara ? Does God hear you ?" 
 
 " Yes ; oh yes !" 
 
 " Wherefore ?" 
 
 " Because Christ died !" 
 
 " Is your faith in Christ so firm ? Does it never waver ?" 
 
 " Never ; even in my most desponding moments." 
 
 Beulah looked at her keenly ; and asked, with something like 
 a shiver : 
 
 " Did it never occur to you to doubt the plan of redemption, 
 as taught by divines ; as laid down in the New Testament ?" 
 
 " No, never. I want to die before such a doubt occurs to 
 me. Oh, what would my life be without that plan ? What 
 would a fallen, sin-cursed world be without a Jesus ?" 
 
 " But why curse a race in order to necessitate a Saviour ?" 
 
 Clara looked in astonishment at the pale, fixed features before 
 her. A frightened expression came over her own countenance, 
 a look of shuddering horror ; and putting up her wasted hands, 
 as if to ward off some grim phantom, she cried : 
 
 " Oh, Beulah 1 what is this ? You are not an infidel ?" 
 
 Her companion was silent a moment j then said, emphatically : 
 
256 BEULAH. 
 
 " Dr. Hartwell does not believe the religion you hold so 
 dear." Clara covered her face with her hands, and answered, 
 brokenly : 
 
 " Beulah, I have envied you ; because I fancied that your 
 superior intellect won you the love which I was weak enough to 
 expect, and need. But if it has brought you both to doubt the 
 Bible, I thank God that the fatal gift was withheld from me. 
 Have your books and studies brought you to this ? Beulah ! 
 Beulah ! throw them into the fire, and come back to trust in 
 Christ." She held out her hands imploringly, but with a singu- 
 larly cold smile, her friend replied : 
 
 " You must go to sleep. Your fever is rising. Don't talk 
 any more to-night ; I will not hear you." 
 
 An hour after, Clara slept soundly, and Beulah sat in her owii 
 room bending over a book. Midnight study had long since 
 become a habitual thing; nay, two and three o'clock, fre- 
 quently found her beside the waning lamp. Was it any 
 marvel that, as v Dr. Hartwell expressed it, she "looked wretch- 
 edly." From her earliest childhood, she had been possessed by 
 an active spirit of inquiry, which constantly impelled her to 
 investigate, and as far as possible to explain the mysteries which 
 surrounded her on every side. With her growth, grew this 
 haunting spirit, which asked continually : " What am I ? 
 Whence did I come ? And whither am I bound ? What is 
 life ? What is death ? Am I my own mistress, or am I but a 
 tool in the hands of my Maker ? What constitutes the diffe- 
 rence between my mind, and my body ? Is there any difference ? 
 If spirit must needs have body to incase it, and body must have 
 a spirit to animate it, may they not be identical ? With these 
 primeval foundation questions, began her speculative career. In 
 the solitude of her own soul, she struggled bravely and earnestly 
 to answer those " dread questions, which, like swords of flaming 
 fire, tokens of imprisonment, encompass man on earth." Of 
 course, mystery triumphed. Panting for the truth, she pored 
 over her Bible, supposing that here, at least, all clouds would 
 
BEULAH. 257 
 
 melt away; but here, too, some inexplicable passages confronted 
 her. Physically, morally, and mentally, she found the world 
 warring. To reconcile these antagonisms with the conditions 
 and requirements of Holy Writ, she now most faithfully set to 
 work. Ah, proudly-aspiring soul 1 How many earnest thinkers 
 had essayed the same mighty task, and died under the intoler- 
 able burden ? Unluckily for her, there was no one to direct or 
 assist her. She scrupulously endeavored to conceal her doubts 
 and questions from her guardian. Poor child ! she fancied she 
 concealed them so effectually from his knowledge ; while he 
 silently noted the march of skepticism in her nature. There 
 were dim, puzzling passages of Scripture, which she studied on 
 her knees; now trying to comprehend them, and now beseeching 
 the Source of all knowledge to enlighten her. But, as has hap- 
 pened to numberless others, there was seemingly no assistance 
 given. The clouds grew denser and darker, and like the " cry 
 of strong swimmers in their agony," her prayers had gone up to 
 the Throne of Grace. Sometimes she was tempted to go to the 
 ' minister of the church, where she sat Sunday after Sunday, and 
 beg him to explain the mysteries to her. But the pompous 
 austerity of his manners repelled her whenever she thought of 
 broaching the subject, and gradually she saw that she must work 
 out her own problems. Thus, from week to week, and month 
 to month, she toiled on, with a slowly dying faith, constantly 
 clambering over obstacles which seemed to stand between her 
 trust and revelation. It was no longer study for the sake of 
 erudition ; these riddles involved all that she prized in Time 
 and Eternity, and she grasped books of every description with 
 the eagerness of a famishing nature. What dire chance threw 
 into her hands such works as Emerson's, Carlyle's and Goethe's. 
 Like the waves of the clear, sunny sea, they only increased her 
 thirst to madness. Her burning lips were ever at these foun- 
 tains ; and in her reckless eagerness, she plunged into the gulf 
 of German speculation. Here she believed that she had indeed 
 found the " true processes," and with renewed zest, continued 
 
258 BEULAH. 
 
 the work of questioning. At this stage of the conflict, the 
 pestilential scourge was laid upon the city, and she paused from 
 her metaphysical toil to close glazed eyes and shroud soulless 
 clay. In the awful hush of those hours of watching, she looked 
 calmly for some solution, and longed for the unquestioning faith 
 of early years. But these influences passed without aiding her 
 in the least, and with rekindled ardor, she went back to her 
 false prophets. In addition, ethnology beckoned her on to con- 
 clusions apparently antagonistic to the revealed system, and the 
 stony face of geology seemed radiant with characters of light, 
 which she might decipher and find some security in. From Dr. 
 Asbury's extensive collection, she snatched treatise after treatise. 
 The sages of geology talked of the pre-Adamic eras, and of 
 man's ending the slowly forged chain, of which the radiata form 
 the lowest link ; and then she was told that in those pre-Adamic 
 ages, Palaeontologists find no trace whatever of that golden 
 time, when the vast animal creation lived in harmony, and 
 bloodshed was unknown; ergo, man's fall in Eden had no agency 
 in bringing death into the world ; ergo, that chapter in Genesis 
 need puzzle her no more. 
 
 Finally, she learned that she was the crowning intelligence in 
 the vast progression ; that she would ultimately become part of 
 Deity. " The long ascending line, from dead matter to man, 
 had been a progress Godwards, and the next advance would 
 unite creation and Creator in one person." With all her aspira- 
 tions, she had never dreamed of such a future as was here 
 promised her. To-night she was closely following that most 
 anomalous of all guides, " Herr Teufelsdrockh!" Urged on by 
 the same " unrest," she was stumbling along dim, devious paths, 
 while from every side whispers came to her : " Nature is one : 
 she is your mother, and divine : she is God \ The ' living gar- 
 ment of God.'" Through the "everlasting No," and the 
 " everlasting Yea," she groped her way, darkly, tremblingly, 
 waiting for the day-star of Truth to dawn ; but at last, when 
 she fancied she saw the first rays silvering the night, and looked 
 
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 up hopefully, it proved one of many ignes-fatui, which had 
 flashed across her path, and she saw that it was Goethe, uplifted 
 as the prophet of the genuine religion. The book fell from her 
 nerveless fingers; she closed her eyes, and groaned. It was all 
 " confusion, worse confounded." She could not for her life have 
 told what she believed, much less, what she did not believe. 
 The landmarks of earlier years were swept away ; the beacon 
 light of Calvary had sunk below her horizon. A howling chaos 
 seemed about to ingulf her. At that moment she would gladly 
 have sought assistance from her guardian ; but how could she 
 approach him after their last interview ? The friendly face and 
 corlial kindness of Dr. Asbury flashed upon her memory, and 
 shr resolved to confide her doubts and difficulties to him, hoping 
 to < -brain, from his clear and matured judgment, some clew which 
 mi^ht enable her to emerge from the labyrinth that involved 
 her. She knelt, and tried to pray. To what did she, on bended 
 knees, send up passionate supplications ? To nature ? to heroes ? 
 These were the new deities. She could not pray ; all grew 
 dark ; she pressed her hands to her throbbing brain, striving to 
 clear away the mists. "Sartor" had effectually blindfolded 
 her, and she threw herself down to sleep with a shivering 
 dread, as of a young child separated from its mother, and 
 wailing in some starless desert. 
 
 CHAPTER XXI. 
 
 IT was Christmas eve; cold, cloudy, and damp. The store 
 windows were gay with every conceivable and inconceivable 
 device for attracting attention. Parents, nurses .and porters 
 hurried along with mysterious looking bundles, and important 
 countenances. Crowds of curious, merry children thronged the 
 
260 BEULAH. 
 
 sidewalks; here a thinly clad, meagre boy, looked, with longing 
 eyes and empty pockets, at pyramids of fruit and sweetmeats; 
 and there a richly dressed group chattered like blackbirds, and 
 occasionally fired a pack of crackers, to the infinite dismay of 
 horses and drivers. Little chaps just out of frocks rushed 
 about, with their round rosy faces hid under grotesque masks; 
 and shouts of laughter, and the squeak of penny trumpets, and 
 mutter of miniature drums, swelled to a continuous din, which 
 would have been quite respectable even on the plain of Shinar. 
 The annual jubilee had come, and young and old seemed deter- 
 mined to celebrate it with due zeal. From her window, Beulah 
 looked down on the merry groups, and involuntarily contrasted 
 the bustling, crowded streets, with the silence and desolation 
 which had reigned over the same thoroughfares only a few 
 months before. One brief year ago, childish voices prattled of 
 Santa Glaus and gift stockings, and little feet pattered along 
 these same pavements, with tiny hands full of toys. Fond 
 parents, too, had gone eagerly in and out of these gay shops, 
 hunting presents for their darlings. Where were they ? chil- 
 dren and parents ? Ah ! a cold, silent band of sleepers in 
 yonder necropolis, where s.olemn cedars were chanting an ever- 
 lasting dirge. Death's harvest time was in all seasons; when 
 would her own throbbing pulses be stilled, and her questioning 
 tones hushed ? Might not the summons be on that very wintry 
 blast, which rushed over her hot brow ? And if it should be so ? 
 Beulah pressed her face closer to the window, and thought it 
 was too inconceivable that she also should die. She knew it 
 was the common birthright, the one unchanging heritage of all 
 humanity; yet long vistas of life opened before her, and though, 
 like a pall, the shadow of the tomb hung over the end, it was 
 very distant, very dim. 
 
 " What makes you look so solemn T" asked Clara, who had 
 been busily engaged in dressing a doll for one of Mrs. Hoyt's 
 children. 
 
 " Because I feel solemn, I suppose." 
 
BEULAH. 261 
 
 Clara came up, and passing her arm round Beulah's shoulder, 
 gazed down into the noisy street. She still wore mourning, and 
 the alabaster fairness of her complexion contrasted vividly with 
 the black bombazine dress. Though thin and pale, there was an 
 indescribable expression of peace on the sweet face ; a calm, 
 clear light of contentment in the mild, brown eyes. The holy 
 serenity of the countenance was rendered more apparent by the 
 restless, stormy visage, of her companion. Every passing cloud 
 of perplexed thought cast its shadow over Beulah's face, and on 
 this occasion she looked more than usually grave. 
 
 "Ah! how merry I used to be on Christmas eve. Indeed, I 
 can remember having been half wild with excitement. Yet now 
 it all seems like a flitting dream." Clara spoke musingly, yet 
 without sadness. 
 
 " Time has laid his wonder-working touch upon you," answered 
 Beulah. 
 
 " How is it, Beulah, that you never speak of your childhood?" 
 
 " Because it was 
 
 " * All dark and barren as a rainy sea.' " 
 
 " But you never talk about your parents ?" 
 
 " I love my father's memory. Ah 1 it is enshrined in my heart's 
 holiest sanctuary. He was a noble, loving man, and my affec- 
 tion for him bordered on idolatry." 
 
 " And your mother ?" 
 
 " I knew little of her. She died before I was old enough to 
 remember much about her." Her face was full of bitter recol- 
 lections; her eyes seemed wandering through some storehouse 
 of sorrows. Clara feared her friend, much as she loved her, and 
 since the partial discovery of her skepticism, she had rather 
 shunned her society. Now she watched the heavy brow, and 
 deep, piercing eyes, uneasily, and gently withdrawing her arm, 
 she glided out of the room. The tide of life still swelled through 
 the streets, and forcibly casting the load of painful reminiscences 
 from her, Beulah kept her eyes on the merry faces, and listened 
 
262 BEULAH. 
 
 to the gay, careless prattle of the excited children. The stately 
 rustle of brocaded silk caused her to look up, and Cornelia 
 Graham greeted her with: 
 
 " I have come to take you home with me for the holidays." 
 
 " I can't go." 
 
 "Why not? You cling to this dark garret of yours as if it 
 possessed all the charms of Vaucluse." 
 
 " Diogenes loved his tub, you know," said Beulah, quietly. 
 
 " An analogous case, truly. But jesting aside, you must 
 come, Beulah. Eugene expects you; so do my parents; and, 
 above all, I want you. Come." Cornelia laid her hand on the 
 girl's shoulder as she spoke. 
 
 " You have been ill again," said Beulah, examining the sallow 
 face. 
 
 " Not ill, but I shall be soon, I know. One of my old attacks 
 is coming on; I feel it; and Beulah, to be honest, which I can 
 with you (without casting pearls before swine), that very cir- 
 cumstance makes me want you. I dined out to-day, and have 
 just left the fashionable crowd to come and ask you to spend the 
 holidays with me. The house will be gay. Antoinette intends 
 to have a set of tableaux, but it is probable I shall be confined 
 to my room. Will you give your time to a cross invalid, for 
 such I certainly am ? I would be stretched upon St. Lawrence's 
 gridiron before I could be brought to say as much to anybody 
 else. I am not accustomed to ask favors, Beulah; it has been 
 my habit to grant them. Nevertheless, I want you, and am not 
 too proud to come after you. Will you come ?" 
 
 " Yes, if I may remain with you, altogether." 
 
 " Thank you. Come, get ready, quick ! Give me a fan." 
 Sinking into a chair, she wiped away the cold drops which had 
 collected about her brow. 
 
 " Cornelia, I have only one day's leisure. School begins again 
 day- after-to-morrow . " 
 
 " Well, well ; one day, then. Be quick." 
 
 In a few moments, Beulah was ready ; and after informing 
 
BETTLAH. 263 
 
 Clara and Mrs. Hoyt of her intended absence, the two entered 
 Mr. Graham's elegant carriage. The gas was now lighted, and 
 the spirited horses dashed along, through streets brilliantly illumi- 
 nated and thronged with happy people. 
 
 " What a Babel ! About equal to Constantinople, and its 
 dog-orchestra," muttered Cornelia, as the driver paused to allow 
 one of the military companies to pass. The martial music, 
 together with the hubbub which otherwise prevailed, alarmed 
 the horses, and they plunged violently. The driver endeavored 
 to back out into an alley, but in the attempt, the carriage was 
 whirled round, the coachman jerked over the dashboard into the 
 gutter, and the frightened animals dashed at furious speed down 
 the main street. Luckily the top was thrown back, making the 
 carriage open, and springing forward to the post so unceremo- 
 niously vacated by the driver, Beulah snatched the reins, which 
 were just within her reach. Curb the rushing horses, she did 
 not hope to do, but by cautious energy, succeeded in turning 
 them sufficiently aside to avoid coming in collision with several 
 other carriages. The street was full of vehicles, and though, as 
 may well be imagined, there was every effort made to give the 
 track, the carriage rushed against the bright yellow wheels of a 
 light buggy in which two young men were trying to manage a 
 fast trotter. There was a terrible smash of wheels, the young 
 gentlemen were suddenly landed in the mud, and their emanci- 
 pated steed galloped on, with the wreck of the buggy at his heels. 
 Men, women, and children gathered on the corners to witness the 
 denoument. Drays, carts, and wagons were seized with a simul- 
 taneous stampede, which soon cleared the middle of the street, 
 and, uninjured by the collision, our carriage flew on. Cornelia 
 sat on the back seat, ghastly pale, and motionless, expecting 
 every minute to be hurled out, while Beulah stood up in front, 
 reins in hand, trying to guide the maddened horses. Her bon- 
 net fell off ; the motion loosened her comb, and down came her 
 long, heavy hair, in black, blinding folds. She shook it all 
 back from her face, and soon saw that this reckless game of 
 
264: BEULAH. 
 
 dodging vehicles could not last much longer. Right ahead, at 
 the end of the street, was the wharf, crowded with cotton bales, 
 barrels, and a variety of freight ; just beyond was the river. A 
 number of gentlemen stood on a neighboring corner, and with 
 one impulse they rushed forward with extended arms. On 
 sprang the horses, almost upon them ; eager hands grasped at 
 the bits. 
 
 " Stand back all of you ! You might as well catch at the 
 winds I" shouted Beulah, and with one last effort, she threw her 
 whole weight on the reins, and turned the horses into a cross 
 street. The wheels struck the curbstone, the carriage tilted, 
 rocked, fell back again, and on they went for three squares 
 more, when the horses stopped short before the livery-stable 
 where they were kept. Embossed with foam, and panting like 
 stags at bay, they were seized by a dozen hands. 
 
 "By all the gods of Greece I you have had a flying trip of 
 it !" cried Dr. Asbury, with one foot on the carriage step, and 
 both hands extended, while his grey hair hung in confusion about 
 his face. He had followed them for at least half-fi-dozen blocks, 
 and was pale with anxiety. 
 
 " See about Cornelia," said Beulah, seating herself for the first 
 time, and twisting up the veil of hair which swept round her 
 form. 
 
 " Cornelia has fainted ! Halloo, there ! some water I quick !" 
 said the doctor, stepping into the carriage, and attempting to 
 lift the motionless figure. But Cornelia opened her eyes, and 
 answered unsteadily : 
 
 " No I carry me home ! Dr. Asbury, take me home ? 7 ' 
 
 The brilliant eyes closed, a sort of spasm distorted her fea- 
 tures, and she sank back once more, rigid and seemingly lifeless. 
 Dr. Asbury took the reins firmly in his hands, seated himself, 
 and speaking gently to the trembling horses, started homeward. 
 They plunged violently at first, but he used the whip unsparingly, 
 and in a few moments they trotted briskly along. Mrs. Graham 
 and her niece had not yet reached home, but Mr. Graham met 
 
BEULAH. 265 
 
 the carriage at the door, with considerable agitation and alarm 
 in his usually phlegmatic countenance. As Cornelia's colorless 
 face met his view, he threw up his hands, staggered back, and 
 exclaimed : 
 
 " My God 1 is she dead ? I knew it would end this way, 
 some day I" 
 
 " Nonsense, Graham ! She is frightened out of her wits 
 that is all ? These Yankee horses of yours have been playing 
 the very deuce. Clear the way there, all of you 1" 
 
 Lifting Cornelia in his strong arms, Dr. Asbury carried her up 
 to her own room, and placed her on a sofa. Having known her 
 from childhood, and treated her so often in similar attacks, he 
 immediately administered some medicine, and ere long had the 
 satisfaction of seeing the rigid aspect leave her face. She sat 
 up, and without a word, began to take off her kid gloves, which 
 fitted tightly. Suddenly looking up at her father, who was 
 anxiously regarding her, she said, abruptly : 
 
 " There are no more like her she kept me from making a 
 simpleton of myself." 
 
 " Whom do you mean, my dear ?" 
 
 " Whom ? whom ? why, Beulah Benton, of course ! Where 
 is she ? Come out of that corner, you quaint, solemn statue !" 
 She held out her hand, and a warm, glad smile broke over her 
 pallid face, as Beulah approached her. 
 
 " You certainly created a very decided sensation. Beulah 
 made quite a passable Medea, with her inky hair trailing over 
 the back of the seat, and her little hands grasping the reins 
 with desperate energy. By Phoebus I you turned that corner at 
 the bank, like an electric bolt. Shake hands, Beulah ! After 
 this, you will do in any emergency." The doctor looked at her 
 with an expression of paternal pride and affection. 
 
 " I feel very grateful to you," began Mr. Graham ; but Beulah 
 cut short his acknowledgments, by saying hastily : 
 
 "Sir, I did nothing at all ; Dr. Asbury is resolved to make a 
 heroine of me, that is all. You owe me nothing." 
 
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266 B E U L A H . 
 
 At this moment the coachman limped into the room, with 
 garments dabbled with mud, and inquired anxiously whether the 
 young ladies were hurt. 
 
 "No, you son of Pluto ; not hurt at all, thanks to your care- 
 ful driving," answered the doctor, putting his hands in his pockets, 
 and eyeing the discomfited coachman humorously. 
 
 " Were you hurt by your fall ?" asked Beulah. 
 
 " Considerable bumped and thumped, but not much hurt, thank 
 you, miss. I was awfully scared when I rose out of that choking 
 gutter, and saw you standing up, and the horses flying, like ole 
 Satan himself was after them. I am marvellous glad nothing 
 was hurt. And now, master, sir, I want you to go to the mayor 
 and have this 'ere fire-cracker-business stopped. A parcel of ras- 
 cally boys set a match to a whole pack, and flung 'em right 
 under Andrew Jackson's feet ! Of course I couldn't manage 
 him after that. I 'clare to gracious 1 it's a sin and a shame, the 
 way the boys in this town do carry on Christmas times, and 
 indeed every other time !" Wilson hobbled out, grumbling 
 audibly. 
 
 " Beulah, you must come and spend Christmas at my house. 
 The girls and my wife were talking about it to-day, and con- 
 cluded to send the carriage for you early in the morning." The 
 doctor drew on his gloves as he spoke. 
 
 "They may spare themselves the trouble, sir ; she spends it 
 with me," answered Cornelia. 
 
 " With you ! After such a frolic as you two indulged in this 
 evening, you ought not to be trusted together. If I had not 
 been so anxious about you, I could have laughed heartily at the 
 doleful countenances of those two young gents, as they picked 
 themselves up out of the mud. Such rueful plight as their lemon- 
 colored gloves were in ! I will send Hart well to see you to- 
 morrow, Cornelia. A merry Christmas to you all, in spite of your 
 Mazeppa episode." His good-humored countenance vanished. 
 
 " There comes Antoinette ejaculating up the steps. Father, 
 tell her I do not want to see her, or anybody else. Don't let her 
 
BEULAH. 267 
 
 come in here," cried Cornelia, with a nervous start, as voices 
 were heard in the passage. 
 
 Mr. Graham, who felt a certain awe of his willful child, not- 
 withstanding his equable temper, immediately withdrew. His 
 wife hastened into the room, and with trembling lips touched her 
 daughter's cheek and brow, exclaiming : 
 
 " Oh, my child, what a narrow escape ! It is horrible to think 
 of horrible !" 
 
 " Not at all, mother, seeing that nothing was hurt in the least. 
 I was sick, any way, as I told you. Don't you see Beulah sitting 
 there ?" 
 
 Mrs. Graham welcomed her guest cordially. 
 
 " You have a great deal of presence of mind, I believe, Miss 
 Beulah ? You are fortunate." 
 
 " I thanked my stars that Antoinette was not in the carriage, 
 for most certainly she would have made matters worse, by scream- 
 ing like an idiot, and jumping out. Beulah taught me common 
 sense," answered Cornelia, unclasping a bracelet, and tossing a 
 handful of jewelry across the room to her dressing-table. 
 
 " You underrate yourself, my dear," said her mother, a little 
 proudly. 
 
 " Not at all. Humility, genuine or feigned, is not one of our 
 family traits. Mother, will you send up tea for us ? We want 
 a quiet time ; at least I do, and Beulah will stay with me." 
 
 " But, my love, it is selfish to exclude the balance of the family. 
 Why not come down to the sitting-room, where we can all be to- 
 gether ?" pleaded the mother. 
 
 " Because I prefer staying just where I am. Beulah, put down 
 that window, will you ? Mary must think that I have been con- 
 verted into a Polar bear ; and mother, have some coal brought 
 up. If there is any truth in the metempsychosis of the Orient, I 
 certainly was a palm-tree or a rhinoceros in the last stage of my 
 existence." She shivered, and wrapped a heavy shawl up to her 
 very chin. 
 
 " May I come in ?" asked Eugene at the door. 
 
268 BEULAH. 
 
 . 
 
 " No ; go and sing duets with Netta, and amuse yourself down- 
 stairs," said she, shortly, while a frown darkened her face. 
 
 Nevertheless he came in, shook hands with Beulah, and lean- 
 ing over the back of Cornelia's chair, asked tenderly : 
 
 " How is my sister ? I heard on the street that you were 
 injured." 
 
 " Oh, I suppose the whole city will be bemoaning niy tragic 
 fate. I am not at all hurt, Eugene." 
 
 " You have had one of those attacks, though, I see from your 
 face. Has it passed off entirely ?" 
 
 " No ; and I want to be quiet. Beulah is going to read me to 
 sleep after a while. You may go down, now." 
 
 " Beulah, you will be with us to-morrow, I suppose ?" 
 
 " Yes." 
 
 " I am sorry I am obliged to dine out ; I shall be at home, 
 however, most of the day. I called the other evening, but you 
 were not at home." 
 
 " Yes ; I was sorry I did not see you," said Beulah, looking 
 steadily at his flushed face and sparkling eyes. 
 
 " Dine out, Eugene ! For what, I should like to know ?" cried 
 Cornelia, raising herself in her chair, and fixing her eyes impa- 
 tiently upon him. 
 
 " Henderson and Milbank are both here, you know, and I 
 could not refuse to join them in a Christmas dinner." 
 
 "Then, why did you not invite them to dine at your own 
 house ?" Her voice was angry ; her glance searching. 
 
 " The party was made up before I knew anything about it. 
 They will all be here in the evening." 
 
 " I doubt it !" said she, sneeringly. The flush deepened on his 
 cheek, and he bit his lip ; then turning suddenly to Beulah, he 
 said, as he suffered his eyes to wander over her plain, fawn- 
 colored merino dress : 
 
 " You have not yet heard Netta sing, I believe 1" 
 
 " No." 
 
 "Where is she, Cornelia ?" 
 
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 " I have no idea." 
 
 " I hope my sister will be well enough to take part in the 
 tableaux to-morrow evening." Taking her beautifully molded 
 hand, he looked at her anxiously. Her piercing, black eyes were 
 riveted on his countenance, as she answered : 
 
 " I don't know, Eugene ; I have long since abandoned the 
 hope of ever being well again. Perhaps I may be able to get 
 down to the parlors. There is Antoinette in the passage. Good 
 night." She motioned him away. He kissed her tenderly, shook 
 hands a second time with Beulah, and left the room. Cornelia 
 bowed her head on her palms- ; and though her features were 
 concealed, Beulah thought she moaned, as if in pain. 
 
 " Cornelia, are you ill again ? What can I do for you ?" 
 
 The feeble woman lifted her haggard face, and answered : 
 
 " What can you do ? That remains to be seen. Something 
 must be done. Beulah, I may die at any hour, and you must 
 save him." 
 
 " What do you mean ?" Beulah's heart throbbed painfully, 
 as she asked this simple question. 
 
 " You know very well what I mean ! Oh, Beulah ! Beulah ! 
 it bows my proud spirit into the dust 1" Again she averted her 
 head ; there was a short silence. Beulah leaned her face on her 
 hand, and then Cornelia continued : 
 
 " Did you detect it when he first came home ?" 
 
 "Yes." 
 
 " Oh, it is like a hideous nightmare ! I cannot realize that 
 Eugene, so noble, so pure, so refined, could ever have gone to the 
 excesses he has been guilty of. He left home all that he should 
 be ; but five years abroad have strangely changed him. My 
 parents will not see it ; my mother says ' all young men are wild 
 at first ;' and my father shuts his eyes to his altered habits. 
 Eugene constantly drinks too much. I have never seen him 
 intoxicated. I don't know that he has been, since he joined us 
 in Italy, but I dread, continually, lest his miserable associates 
 lead him further astray. I had hoped that, in leaving his com- 
 
270 BEULAH. 
 
 panious at the university, he had left temptation too ; but the 
 associates he has found here are even worse. I hope I shall be 
 quiet in my grave, before I see him drunk ! It would kill me, I 
 verily believe, to know that he had so utterly degraded himself. 
 She shaded her face with her hands, and Beulah replied, hastily: 
 
 " He surely cannot fall so low ! Eugene will never reel home, 
 an unconscious drunkard ! Oh, no, it is impossible ! impossible ! 
 The stars in heaven will fall first !" 
 
 " Do you believe what you say ?" 
 
 " I hope it ; and hope engenders faith," answered Beulah. 
 
 A bitter smile curled Cornelia's lips, and sinking back in her 
 chair, she continued : 
 
 ''Where excessive drinking is not considered a disgrace, young 
 men indulge, without a thought of the consequences. Instead of 
 excluding them from genteel circles, their dissipation is smoothed 
 over, or unnoticed ; and it has become so prevalent in this city 
 that of all the gentlemen whom I meet in so-called fashionable 
 society, there are very few who abstain from the wine-cup. I 
 have seen them at parties, staggering through a quadrille, or 
 talking the most disgusting nonsense to girls, who have long 
 since ceased to regard dissipation as a stigma upon the names and 
 characters of their friends. I tell you, the dissipation of the 
 young men here, is sickening to think of. Since I came home, I 
 have been constantly reminded of it ; and oh, Eugene is follow- 
 ing in their disgraceful steps! Beulah, if the wives, and mothers, 
 and sisters, did their duty, all this might be remedied. If they 
 carefully and constantly strove to shield their sons and brothers 
 from temptation, they might preserve them from the fatal habit, 
 which, once confirmed, it is almost impossible to eradicate. But 
 alas ! they smile as sweetly upon the reckless, intoxicated beaux, 
 as if they were what men should be. I fancied that I could rea- 
 dily redeem Eugene from his dangerous lapses, but my efforts 
 are rendered useless by the temptations which assail him from 
 every quarter. He shuns me ; hourly the barriers between us 
 strengthen. Beulah, I look to you. He loves you, and your 
 
B E U L A U . 271 
 
 influence might prevail, if properly directed. You must save 
 him ! You must 1" 
 
 "I have not the influence you ascribe to me," answered 
 Beulah. 
 
 " Do not say so ! do not say so ! Are you not to be his wife 
 one day ?" She stood up, and heavy drops glistened on her 
 pale forehead. 
 
 " His wife 1 Cornelia Graham, are you mad ?" cried Beulah, 
 lifting her head proudly, and eyeing her companion with un- 
 feigned astonishment, while her eyes burned ominously. 
 
 " He told me that he expected to marry you ; that it had 
 always been a settled thing. Beulah, you have not broken the 
 engagement surely you have not ?" She grasped Beulah's arm 
 convulsively. 
 
 " No positive engagement ever existed. While we were child- 
 ren, we often spoke of our future as one, but of late, neither of 
 us have alluded to the subject. We are only friends, linked 
 by memories of early years. Nay, since his return, we have 
 almost become strangers." 
 
 "Then I have been miserably deceived. Not two months 
 since, he told me that he looked upon you as his future wife. 
 What has alienated you ? Beulah Benton, do you not love 
 him ?" 
 
 " Love him I No 1" 
 
 " You loved him once hush ! don't deny it 1 I know that 
 you did. You loved him during his absence, and you must love 
 him still. Beulah, you do love him 1" 
 
 " I have a true sisterly affection for him ; but as for the love, 
 which you allude to, I tell you, Cornelia, I have not one par- 
 ticle !" 
 
 " Then he is lost 1" Sinking back in her chair, Cornelia 
 groaned aloud. 
 
 " Why Eugene should have made such an impression on your 
 mind, I cannot conjecture. He has grown perfectly indifferent 
 to me ; and even if he had not, we could never be more than 
 
272 BEIT LA H. 
 
 friends. Boyish fancies have all passed away. He is a man 
 now still my friend, I believe ; but no longer what he once was 
 to me. Cornelia, I, too, see his growing tendency to dissipation, 
 with a degree of painful apprehension, which I do not hesitate 
 to avow. Though cordial enough when we meet, I know and 
 feel that he carefully avoids me. Consequently, I have no oppor- 
 tunity to exert what little influence I may possess. I looked at 
 his flushed face, just now, and my thoughts flew back to the 
 golden days of his boyhood, when he was all that a noble, pure, 
 generous nature could make him. I would ten thousand times 
 rather know that he was sleeping by my little sister's side in the 
 graveyard, than see him disgrace himself !" Her voice faltered, 
 and she drooped her head to conceal the anguish which con- 
 vulsed her features. 
 
 " Beulah, if he loves you still, you will not reject him ?" cried 
 Cornelia, eagerly. 
 
 " He does not love me." 
 
 " Why will you evade me ? Suppose that he does ?" 
 
 " Then I tell you solemnly, not all Christendom could induce 
 me to marry him !" 
 
 " But to save him, Beulah 1 to save him !" replied Cor- 
 nelia, clasping her hands entreatingly. 
 
 " If a man's innate self-respect will not save him from habitual, 
 disgusting intoxication, all the female influence in the universe 
 would not avail. Man's will, like woman's, is stronger than his 
 affection, and once subjugated by vice, all external influences 
 will be futile. If Eugene once sinks so low, neither you, nor I, 
 nor his wife had he one could reclaim him." 
 
 " He has deceived me I Fool that I was, not to probe the 
 mask !" Cornelia started up, and paced the floor with uncon- 
 trollable agitation. 
 
 " Take care how you accuse him rashly I I am not prepared 
 to believe that he could act dishonorably toward any one I will 
 not believe it." 
 
 " Oh I you, too, will get your eyes open in due time. Ha ! ifc 
 
B E U L A H . 273 
 
 is all as clear as daylight ! And I, with ray boasted pene- 
 tration ! it maddens me !" Her eyes glittered like polished 
 steel. 
 
 " Explain yourself ; Eugene is above suspicion 1" cried Beulah, 
 with pale, fluttering lips. 
 
 " Explain myself ! Then understand that my honorable bro- 
 ther professed to love you* and pretended that he expected to 
 marry yon, simply and solely to blind me, in order to conceal the 
 truth. I taxed him with a preference for Antoinette Dupres, 
 which I fancied his manner evinced. He denied it, most earn- 
 estly, protesting that he felt bound to you. Now do you under- 
 stand ?" Her lips were white, and writhed with scorn. 
 
 " Still you may misjudge him," returned Beulah, haughtily. 
 
 " No, no ! My mother lias seen it all along. But, fool that I 
 was, I believed his words ! Now, Beulah, if he marries Antoi- 
 nette, you will be amply revenged, or my name is not Cornelia 
 Graham ?" She laughed bitterly, and dropping some medicine 
 from a vial, swallowed the potion, and resumed her walk up and 
 down the floor. 
 
 " Revenged 1 What is it to me, that he should marry your 
 cousin ? If he loves her, it is no business of mine, and certainly 
 you have no right to object. You are miserably deceived if you 
 imagine that his marriage would cause me an instant's regret. 
 Think you I could love a man whom I knew to be my inferior ? 
 Indeed, you know little of my nature." She spoke with curling 
 lips and a proud smile. 
 
 " You place an exalted estimate upon yourself," returned Cor- 
 nelia. 
 
 They looked at each other half-defiantly, for a moment ; then 
 the heiress bowed her head, and said, in low broken tones : 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, Beulah ! child of poverty 1 would I could 
 change places with you 1" 
 
 " You are weak, Cornelia," answered Beulah, gravely. 
 
 " In some respects, perhaps, I am ; but you are bold to tell 
 me so." 
 
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274 
 
 B E U L A H . 
 
 " Genuine friendship ignores all hesitancy in speaking the 
 truth. You sought me : I am very candid perhaps blunt. If 
 my honesty does not suit you, it is an easy matter to discontinue 
 our intercourse. The whole matter rests with you." 
 
 " You wish me to understand that you do not need my soci- 
 ety my patronage ?" 
 
 " Patronage implies dependence, which, in this instance, does 
 not exist. An earnest, self-reliant woman, cannot be patronized, 
 in the sense in which you employ the term." She could not 
 forbear smiling. The thought of being under patronage was, to 
 her, supremely ridiculous. 
 
 " You do not want my friendship, then ?" 
 
 " I doubt whether you have any to bestow. You seem to 
 have no love for anything," replied Beulab, coldly. 
 
 " Oh! you wrong me," cried Cornelia, passionately. 
 
 " If I do, it is your own fault. I only judge you from what 
 you have shown of your nature." 
 
 " Remember, I have been an invalid all my life." 
 
 " I am not likely to forget it in your presence; but, Cornelia, 
 your whole being seems embittered." 
 
 " Yes, and you will be just like me when you have lived as 
 long as I have. Wait till you have seen something of the 
 world." 
 
 " Sit down, Cornelia; you tremble from head to foot." She 
 drew a chair close to the hearth, and the sufferer sank into it, 
 as if completely exhausted. For some time neither spoke. 
 Beulah stood with her hands on the back of the chair, wishing 
 herself back in her quiet little room. After a while, Cornelia 
 said slowly: 
 
 " If you only knew Antoinette as well as I do, you could ill 
 brook the thought of her ever being Eugene's wife." 
 
 " He is the best judge of what will promote his happiness." 
 
 "No; he is blinded, infatuated. Her pretty face veils her 
 miserable, contemptible defects of character. She is utterly 
 unworthy of him." 
 
B E u L A n . 275 
 
 "If she loves him sincerely, she will" 
 
 ''Don't talk of what you do not understand. She is too 
 selfish to love anything or anybody but herself. Mark me, 
 whether I live to see it or not, if he marries her, he will despise 
 her in less than six months, and curse himself for his blind folly. 
 Oh, what a precious farce it will prove! 7 ' She laughed sneer- 
 ingly. 
 
 " Cornelia, you are not able to bear this excitement. For the 
 present, let Eugene and his future rest, and try to compose 
 yourself. You are so nervous, you can scarcely sit still." 
 
 The colorless face, with its gleaming eyes, was suddenly lifted; 
 and throwing her arms round Beulah's neck, Cornelia rested her 
 proud head on the orphan's shoulder. 
 
 " Be my friend while I live. Oh, give me some of your calm 
 contentment, some of your strength 1" 
 
 "I am your friend, Cornelia; I will always be such; but every 
 soul must be sufficient for itself. Do not look to me; lean upon 
 your own nature; it will suffice for all its needs." 
 
 With the young teacher, pity was almost synonymous with 
 contempt; and as she looked at the joyless face of her com- 
 panion, she could not avoid thinking her miserably weak. 
 
 CHAPTER XXII. 
 
 CHRISTMAS-DAY was sunny and beautiful. The bending sky 
 was as deeply blue as that which hung over Bethlehem eighteen 
 hundred years before; God's coloring had not faded. Happy 
 children prattled as joyously as did the little Jew boys who 
 clustered curiously about the manger, to gaze upon the holy 
 babe, the sleeping Jesus. Human nature had not altered one 
 whit beneath the iron wheel of Time. Is there a man so sunk 
 in infamy, or steeped in misanthropy, that he has not, at some 
 
276 B E U L A H . 
 
 period of his life, exclaimed, in view of earth's fadeless beauty: 
 
 " This world is very lovely. my God ! 
 I thank Thee that I live." 
 
 Alas, for the besotted soul, who cannot bend the knee of 
 humble adoration before nature's altar, .where sacrifices are 
 offered to the Jehovah, pavilioned in invisibility. There is an 
 ardent love of nature, as far removed from gross materialism or 
 subtle pantheism on the one hand, as from stupid inappreciation 
 on the other. There is such a thing as looking " through nature 
 up to nature's God," notwithstanding the frightened denials of 
 those who, shocked at the growing materialism of the age, would 
 fain persuade this generation to walk blindfold through the 
 superb temple a loving God has placed us in. While every 
 sane and earnest mind must turn, disgusted and humiliated, 
 from the senseless rant, which resolves all divinity into material- 
 istic elements, it may safely be proclaimed that genuine aesthetics 
 is a mighty channel, through which the love and adoration of 
 Almighty God enters the human soul. It were an insult to the 
 Creator to reject the influence which even the physical world 
 exerts on contemplative natures. From bald, hoary mountains, 
 and sombre, solemn forests ; from thundering waves, and way- 
 side violets ; from gorgeous sunset clouds, from quiet stars, and 
 whispering winds, come unmistakable voices, hymning of the 
 Eternal God : the God of Moses, of Isaac, and of Jacob. 
 Extremes meet in every age, and in every department. Because 
 one false philosophy would deify the universe, startled oppo- 
 nents tell us to close our ears to these musical utterances, and 
 shut our eyes to glorious nature, God's handiwork. Oh 1 why 
 has humanity so fierce a hatred of medium paths ? 
 
 Ragged boys and bare-footed girls tripped gaily along the 
 streets, merry and uncomplaining ; and surrounded by velvet, 
 silver and marble, by every superfluity of luxury, Cornelia 
 Graham, with a bitter heart and hopeless soul, shivered in her 
 
B E U L A IT . . 277 
 
 easy-chair before a glowing fire. The Christmas sunlight crept 
 in through the heavy crimson curtains, and made gorgeous fret- 
 work on the walls, but its cheering radiance mocked the sickly 
 pallor of the invalid, and as Beulah retreated to the window and 
 peeped into the street, she felt an intense longing to get out 
 under the blue sky once more. Mr. and Mrs. Graham, and 
 Antoinette, sat round the hearth, discussing the tableaux for 
 the evening, while, with her cheek upon her hand, Cornelia 
 listlessly fingered a diamond necklace which her father had just 
 given her. The blazing jewels slipped through her pale fingers 
 all unnoticed, and she looked up abstractedly when Mr. Graham 
 touched her, and repeated his question for the third time : 
 
 " My child, won't you come down to the sitting-room 1 n 
 
 " No, sir ; I am better here." 
 
 " But you will be so lonely." 
 
 " Not with Beulah." 
 
 " But, of course, Miss Benton will desire to see the tableaux. 
 You would not keep her from them ?" remonstrated her father. 
 
 " Thank you, Mr. Graham, I prefer remaining with Cornelia," 
 answered Beulah, who had no wish to mingle in the crowd 
 which, she understood from the conversation, would assemble 
 that evening in the parlors. The trio round the hearth looked 
 at each other, and evidently thought she manifested very 
 heathenish taste. Cornelia smiled, and leaned back with an 
 expression of pleasure, which very rarely lighted her face. 
 
 " You are shockingly selfish and exacting," said Antoinette, 
 curling her long ringlets over .her pretty fingers, and looking 
 very bewitching. Her cousin eyed her in silence, and not parti- 
 cularly relishing her daughter's keen look, Mrs. Graham rose, 
 kissed her forehead, and said, gently : 
 
 " My love, the Vincents, and Thorntons, and Hendersons all 
 sent to inquire after you this morning. Netta and I must go 
 down now, and prepare for our tableaux. I leave you in good 
 hands ; Miss Benton is considered an admirable nurse, I 
 believe." 
 
278 BEULAH. 
 
 " Mother, where is Eugene ?" 
 
 " I really do not know. Do you, Mr. Graham ?" 
 
 " He has gone to the hotel to see some of his old Heidelberg 
 friends," answered Netta, examining Beulah's plain merino dress 
 very minutely as she spoke. 
 
 " When he comes home, be good enough to tell him that I 
 vish to see him." 
 
 " Yery well, my dear." Mrs. Gra.ham left the room, followed 
 oy her husband and niece. For some time, Cornelia sat just as 
 they left her ; the diamond necklace slipped down, and lay a 
 glittering heap on the carpet, and the delicate waxen hands 
 drooped listlessly over the arms of the chair. Her profile was 
 toward Beulah, who stood looking at the regular, beautiful 
 features, and wondering how (with so many elements of happi- 
 ness in her home) she could seem so discontented. She was 
 thinking, too, that there was a certain amount of truth in that 
 persecuted and ignored dictum, " A man only sees that which 
 he brings with him the power of seeing," when Cornelia raised 
 herself, and turning her head to look for her companion, said, 
 slowly : 
 
 " Where are you ? Do you believe in the Emersonian ' law 
 of compensation/ rigid and inevitable as fate ? I say, Beulah, 
 do you believe it ?" 
 
 ," Yes, I believe it." 
 
 " Hand me the volume there on the table. His exposition of 
 ' the absolute balance of Give and Take, the doctrine that 
 everything has its price, 7 is the grandest triumph of his genius. 
 For an hour this sentence has been ringing in my ears : ' in the 
 nature of the soul is the compensation for the inequalities of 
 condition. 7 We are samples of the truth 'of this. Ah, Beulah, 
 I have paid a heavy, heavy price ! You are destitute of one, it 
 is true, but exempt from the other. Yet, mark you, this law of 
 ' compensation ' pertains solely to earth and its denizens ; the 
 very existence and operation of the law precludes the necessity, 
 and I may say the possibility of that future state, designed, as 
 
BEULAH. 279 
 
 theologians argue, for rewards and punishments." She watched 
 her visitor very closely : 
 
 " Of course it nullifies the belief in future adjustments, for he 
 says emphatically, * Justice is not postponed. A perfect equity 
 adjusts its balance in all parts of life.' ' What will you have ? 
 Pay for it, and take it. Nothing venture, nothing have.' 
 There is no obscurity whatever in that remarkable essay on 
 compensation." Beulah took up one of the volumes, and turned 
 the pages carelessly. 
 
 " But all this would shock a Christian." 
 
 11 And deservedly ; for Emerson's works, collectively and indi- 
 vidually, are aimed at the doctrines of Christianity. There is a 
 grim, terrible fatalism scowling on his pages, which might well 
 frighten the reader who clasped the Bible to his heart." 
 
 " Yet you accept his ' compensation.' Are you prepared to 
 receive his deistic system?" Cornelia leaned forward, and 
 spoke eagerly. Beulah smiled. 
 
 " Why strive to cloak the truth ? I should not term his frag- 
 mentary system ' deistic.' He knows not yet what he believes. 
 There are singular antagonisms existing among even his pet 
 theories." 
 
 " I have not found any," replied Cornelia, with a gesture of 
 impatience. 
 
 " Then you have not studied his works as closely as I have 
 done. In one place, he tells you he feels ' the eternity of man, 
 the identity of his thought,' that Plato's truth, and Pindar's 
 fire, belong as much to him, as to the ancient Greeks, and on 
 the opposite page, if I remember aright, he says, ' Eare extrava- 
 gant spirits come by us at intervals, who disclose to us new facts 
 in nature. I see that men of God have, from time to time, 
 walked among men, and made their commission felt in the heart 
 and soul of the commonest hearer. Hence evidently the tripod, 
 the priest, the priestess, inspired by the divine afflatus.' Thus 
 at one moment he finds no ' antiquity in the worships of Moses, of 
 Zoroaster, of Menu, or Socrates, they are as much his as 
 
280 . B E U L A II . 
 
 theirs/ and at another, clearly asserts that spirits do come into 
 the world to discover to us new truths. At some points we are 
 told that the cycles of time reproduce all things ; at others, this 
 theory is denied. Again in ' Self-Reliance,' he says, ' Trust thy- 
 self ; insist on yourself ; obey thy heart, and thou shalt repro- 
 duce the fore-world again. 7 All this was very comforting to 
 me, Cornelia ; self-reliance was the great secret of success and 
 happiness ; but I chanced to read the ' Over-Soul ' soon after, 
 and lo 1 these words : ' I am constrained every moment to 
 acknowledge a higher origin for events than the will I call 
 mine.' This was directly antagonistic to the entire spirit of 
 1 self-reliance ;' but I read on, and soon found the last sentence 
 utterly nullified by one which declared positively ' that the 
 Highest dwells with man ; the sources of nature are in his own 
 mind.' Sometimes we are informed that our souls are self-exist- 
 ing, and all powerful ; an incarnation of the divine and univer- 
 sal, and before we fairly digest this tremendous statement, he 
 coolly asserts that there is above all, an ' over-soul,' whose 
 inevitable decrees upset our plans, and ' overpower private will.' 
 Cognizant of these palpable contradictions, Emerson boldly 
 avows and defends them, by declaring that ' A foolish consistency 
 is the hobgoblin of little minds. With consistency, a great soul 
 has simply nothing to do. Speak what you think now in hard 
 words ; and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard 
 words again, though it contradict everything you said to-day. 
 Why should you keep your head over your shoulder ? Why 
 drag about this corpse of your memory, lest you contradict 
 somewhat you have stated in this or that public place ? Sup- 
 pose you should contradict yourself?' His writings are, to me, 
 like heaps of broken glass, beautiful in the individual crystal, 
 sparkling, and often dazzling, but gather them up, and try to fit 
 them into a whole, and the jagged edges refuse to unite. Cer- 
 tainly, Cornelia, you are not an Emersonian." Her deep, quiet 
 eyes looked full into those of the invalid. 
 
 "Yes I am. I believe in that fatalism which he shrouds 
 
BEULAH. 281 
 
 under the gauze of au ' Over-Soul/ replied Cornelia, impres- 
 sively. 
 
 " Then you are a fair sample of the fallacy of his system, if 
 the disjointed bits of logic deserve the name." 
 
 " How so ?" 
 
 " He continually exhorts to a happy, contented, and uncom- 
 plaining frame of mind ; tells you sternly, that ' Discontent is 
 the want of self-reliance ; it is infirmity of will. 7 " 
 
 11 Yon are disposed to be severe," muttered Cornelia, with an 
 angry flash. 
 
 " What ? because I expect his professed disciple to obey his 
 injunctions ?" 
 
 " Do you then conform so irreproachably to your own creed ? 
 Pray what is it ?" 
 
 " I have no creed. I am honestly and anxiously hunting one. 
 For a long time I thought that I had found a sound one in 
 Emerson. But a careful study of his writings taught me that 
 of all Pyrrhonists he is the prince. Can a creedless soul aid me 
 in my search ? verily no. He exclaims, ' To fill the hour that 
 is happiness ; to fill the hour, and leave no crevice for repent- 
 ance or an approval. We live amid surfaces, and the true art 
 of life, is to skate well on them. 7 Now this sort of oyster exist- 
 ence does not suit me, Cornelia Graham, nor will it suit you." 
 
 " You do him injustice. He has a creed (true it is pan- 
 theistic), which he steadfastly adheres to under all circum- 
 stances.' 7 
 
 " Oh 1 has he, indeed ? Then he flatly contradicts you when 
 he says, ' But lest I should mislead any, when I have my own 
 head, and obey my whims, let me remind the reader that I am 
 only an experimenter. Do not set the least value on what I do, 
 or the least discredit on what I do not, as if I pretended to settle 
 anything as true or false. I unsettle all things. No facts are 
 to me sacred ; none are profane. I simply experiment, an end- 
 less seeker, with no past at my back. 7 To my fancy that savors 
 strongly of nihilism, as regards creeds." 
 
282 B E U L A H . 
 
 " There is no such passage in Emerson," cried Cornelia, stamp- 
 ing one foot, unconsciously, on her blazing necklace. 
 
 " Yes, the passage is, word for word, as I quoted it, and you 
 will find it in ' Circles.' n 
 
 " I have read ' Circles ' several times, and do not remember it. 
 At all events, it does not sound like Emerson." 
 
 " For that matter, his own individual circle of ideas is so 
 much like St. Augustine's ' Circle, of which the centre is every- 
 where and the circumference nowhere/ that I am not prepared 
 to say what may or may not be found within it. You will ulti- 
 mately think with me, that, though an earnest and profound 
 thinker, your master is no Memnon, waking only before the sun- 
 light of truth. His utterances are dim and contradictory." She 
 replaced the book on the table, and taking up a small basket 
 resumed her sewing. 
 
 '^But, Beulah, did you not accept his ' Law of Compensation ?' ' 
 
 " I believe its operations are correct as regards mere socia 
 position : wealth, penury, even the endowments of genius. Bu' 
 further than this, I do not accept it. I want to believe that nrj 
 soul is immortal. Emerson's ' Duration of the attributes of th< 
 Soul ' does not satisfy me. I desire something more than ai 
 immutability, or continued existence hereafter, in the form of ai 
 abstract idea of truth, justice, love or humility." 
 
 Cornelia looked at her steadily, and after a pause, said, witl 
 indescribable bitterness and despair : 
 
 " If our past and present shadows the future, I hope that nrj 
 last sleep may be unbroken and eternal." 
 
 Beulah raised her head, and glanced searchingly at her com 
 panion ; then silently went on with her work. 
 
 " I understand your honest face. You think I have no caus< 
 to talk so. You see me surrounded by wealth; petted, indulgec 
 in every whim, and you fancy that I am a very enviable woman 
 but " 
 
 " There you entirely mistake me," interrupted Beulah, with i 
 cold smile 
 
BEULAII. 283 
 
 " You think that I ought to be very happy and contented, and 
 useful in the sphere in which I move; and regard me, I know, as 
 a weak hypochondriac. Beulah, physicians told me, long ago, 
 that I lived upon the very brink of the grave, that I might die 
 at any moment, without warning. My grandmother and one of 
 my uncles died suddenly with this disease of the heart, and the 
 shadow of death seems continually around me ; it will not be 
 dispelled it haunts me forever. ' Boast not thyself of to-mor- 
 row/ said the preacher ; but I cannot even boast of to-day, 
 or this hour. The world knows nothing of this ; it has been 
 carefully concealed by my parents ; but I know it I and, Beulah, 
 I feel as did that miserable, doomed prisoner of Poe's ' Pit and 
 Pendulum/ who saw the -pendulum, slowly but surely, sweeping 
 down upon him. My life has been a great unfulfilled promise. 
 With what are generally considered elements of happiness in my 
 home, I have always been solitary and unsatisfied. Conscious of 
 my feeble tenure on life, I early set out to anchor myself in a 
 calm faith, which would secure -me a happy lot in eternity. My 
 nature was strongly religious, and I longed to find hope and 
 consolation in some of our churches. My parents always had a 
 pew in the fashionable church in this city. You need not smile 
 I speak advisedly when I say ' fashionable ' church; for assuredly, 
 fashion has crept into religion also, now-a-days. From my child- 
 hood, I was regularly dressed, and taken to church ; but I soon 
 began to question the sincerity of the pastor, and the consistency 
 of the members. Sunday after Sunday, I saw them in their 
 pews, and week after week, listened to their gossiping, slan- 
 derous chit-chat. Prominent members busied themselves about 
 charitable associations, and headed subscription lists, and all the 
 while set examples of frivolity, hear tlessness, "and what is softly 
 termed ' fashionable excesses/ which shocked my ideas of Christ- 
 ian propriety, and disgusted me with the mockery their lives 
 presented. I watched the minister in his social relations, and 
 instead of reverencing him as a meek and holy man of God, I 
 could not forbear looking with utter contempt upon his pompous, 
 
284 BEULAH. 
 
 self-sufficient demeanor toward the mass of his flock ; while t 
 the most opulent and influential members he bowed down, with i 
 servile, fawning sycophancy, absolutely disgusting. I attende< 
 various churches, listening to sermons, and watching the conduc 
 of the prominent professing Christians of each. Many gav 
 most liberally to so-called religious causes and institutions, an< 
 made amends by heavily draining the purses of widows an< 
 orphans. Some affected an ascetical simplicity of dress, and ye 
 hugged their purses where their Bibles should have been. I 
 was all Mammon worship ; some grossly palpable, some adroitl; 
 cloaked under solemn faces and severe observance of the out 
 ward ceremonials. The clergy, as a class, I found strangel; 
 unlike what I had expected : instead of earnest zeal for th 
 promotion of Christianity, I saw that the majority were ben 
 only on the aggrandizement of their particular denomination 
 Verily, I thought in my heart, 'Is all this bickering the resul 
 of their religion ? How these churches do hate each other ! 
 According to each, salvation could only be found in their specia 
 tenets within the pale of their peculiar organization ; and yet 
 all professed to draw their doctrines from the same book : and 
 Beulah, the end of my search was, that I scorned all creeds am 
 churches, and began to find a faith outside of a revelatioi 
 which gave rise to so much narrow-minded bigotry so mucl 
 pharisaism and delusion. Those who call themselves minister 
 of the Christian religion should look well to their commissions 
 and beware how they go out into the world, unless the seal oi 
 Jesus be indeed upon their brows. They offer themselves us th 
 Pharos of the people, but, ah ! they sometimes wreck rnmorta 
 souls by their unpardonable inconsistencies. For the iust tw< 
 years, I have be>n groping my way after some system upoi 
 which I could rest the little time I have to live. Oh, I ac 
 heart-sick and despairing I" 
 
 " What ? already ! Take courage, Cornelia ; there is trutl 
 somewhere," answered Beulah, with kindling eyes. 
 
 " Where, where ? Ah ! that echo mocks you, turn which wa; 
 
r, K u L A H . 285 
 
 you will. 1 sit like Raphael- Aben-Ezra at the * Bottom of 
 the Abyss," but unlike him, I am no Democritus to jest over my 
 position. I am too miserable to laugh, and my grim Emersonian 
 fatalism gives me precious little comfort, though it is about the 
 only thing that I do firmly believe in." 
 
 She stooped to pick up her necklace,~shook it in the glow of 
 the fire until a shower of rainbow hues flashed out, and holding 
 it up, asked contemptuously : 
 
 " What do you suppose this piece of extravagance cost ?" 
 
 " I have no idea." 
 
 " Why, fifteen hundred dollars that is all ! Oh, what is 
 the blaze of diamonds to a soul like mine, shrouded in despair- 
 ing darkness, and hovering upon the very confines of eternity, if 
 there be any I" She threw the costly gift on the table, and 
 wearily closed her eyes. 
 
 " You have become discouraged too soon, Cornelia. Your 
 very anxiety to discover truth evinces its existence, for Nature 
 always supplies the wants she creates 1" 
 
 " You will tell me that this truth is to be found down in the 
 depths of my own soul ; for no more than logic, has it ever been 
 discovered ' parcelled and labelled.' But how do I -know that all 
 truth is not merely subjective ? Ages ago, skepticism intrenched 
 itself in an impregnable fortress : ' There is no criterion of 
 truth.' How do I know that my ' true,' ' good,' and ' beautiful ' 
 are absolutely so ? My reason is no infallible plummet to sound 
 the sea of phenomena and touch noumena. I tell you, Beulah, 
 it is all " 
 
 A hasty rap at the door cut short this discussion, and as Eu- 
 gene entered, the cloud on Cornelia's brow instantly lifted. His 
 gay Christmas greeting, and sunny, handsome face, diverted her 
 mind, and as her hand rested on his arm, her countenance evinced 
 a degree of intense love, such as Beulah had supposed her inca- 
 pable of feeling. 
 
 "It is very selfish, sister mine, to keep Beulah so constantly 
 beside you, when we all want to see something of her." 
 
286 BEULAH. 
 
 " Was I ever anything else but selfish ?" 
 
 " But I thought you prided yourself on requiring no society ?" 
 "So I do, as regards society in general ; but Beulah is an ex- 
 ception." 
 
 " You intend to come down to-night, do you not ?" 
 
 " Not if I can avoid it. Eugene, take Beulah into the parlor, 
 and ask Antoinette to sing. Afterward make Beulah sing, also, 
 and be sure to leave all the doors open, so that I can hear. 
 Mind, you must not detain her long." 
 
 Beulah would have demurred, but at this moment she saw Dr. 
 Hartwell's buggy approaching the house. Her heart seemed to 
 spring to her lips, and feeling that after their last unsatisfactory 
 interview, she was in no mood to meet him, she quickly descended 
 the steps, so blinded by haste that she failed to perceive the 
 hand Eugene extended to assist her. The door-bell uttered a 
 sharp peal as they reached the hall, and she had just time to 
 escape into the parlor, when the doctor was ushered in. 
 
 " What is the matter ?" asked Eugene, observing the nervous 
 flutter of her lips. 
 
 " Ask Miss Dupres to sing, will you ?" 
 
 He looked at her curiously an instant, then turned away and 
 persuaded the little beauty to sing. 
 
 She took her seat, and ran her jewelled fingers over the pearl 
 keys with an air which very clearly denoted her opinion of her 
 musical proficiency. 
 
 " Well, sir, what will you have ?" 
 
 " That favorite morceau from ' Linda. 1 " 
 
 " You have never heard it, I suppose," said she, glancing over 
 her shoulder at the young teacher. 
 
 " Yes, I have heard it," answered Beulah, who could with dif- 
 ficulty repress a smile. 
 
 Antoinette half shrugged her shoulders, as if she thought the 
 statement questionable, and began the song. Beulah listened 
 attentively ; she was conscious of feeling more than ordinary 
 interest in this performance, and almost held her breath as the 
 
B E U L A H . 287 
 
 clear, silvery voice carolled through the most intricate passages. 
 Antoinette had been thoroughly trained, and certainly her voice 
 was remarkably sweet and flexible ; but as she concluded the 
 piece, and fixed her eyes complacently on Beulah, the latter lifted 
 her head, in proud consciousness of superiority. 
 
 " Sing me something else," said she. 
 
 Antoinette bit her lips, and answered ungraciously : 
 
 "No; I shall have to sing to-night, and can't wear myself out." 
 
 " Now, Beulah, I shall hear you. I have sought an opportu- 
 nity ever since I returned." Eugene spoke rather carelessly. 
 
 " Do you really wish to hear me, Eugene ?" 
 
 " Of course I do," said he, with some surprise. 
 
 "And so do I," added Mrs. Graham, leaning against the piano, 
 and exchanging glances with Antoinette. 
 
 Beulah looked up, and asked quietly : 
 
 " Eugene, shall I sing you a ballad ? One of those simple 
 old tunes we used to love so well in days gone by." 
 
 "No, no. Something operatic," cried Antoinette, without 
 giving him an opportunity to reply. 
 
 " Well, then, Miss Dupres, select something." 
 
 " Can't you favor us with ' Casta-Diva ?' " returned the beauty, 
 with something very like a sneer. 
 
 Beulah's eyes gave a momentary flash, but by a powerful effort 
 she curbed her anger, and commenced the song. 
 
 It was amusing to mark the expression of utter astonishment 
 which gradually overspread Antoinette's face, as the magnificent 
 voice of her despised rival swelled in waves of entrancing melody 
 through the lofty rooms. Eugene looked quite as much amazed. 
 Beulah felt her triumph, and heartily enjoyed it. There was a 
 sparkle in her eye, and a proud smile on her lip, which she 
 did not attempt to conceal. As she rose from the piano, Eugene 
 caught her hand, and said eagerly : 
 
 " I never dreamed of your possessing such a voice. It is 
 superb perfectly magnificent ! Why did not you tell me of it 
 before ?" 
 
288 BEULAH. 
 
 " You heard it long ago, in the olden time," said she, with- 
 drawing her hand and looking steadily at him. 
 
 " Ah, but it has improved incredibly. You were all untutored 
 then." 
 
 " It is the culture, then, not the voice itself? Eh, Eugene ?" 
 
 " It is both. Who taught you ?" 
 
 11 1 had several teachers, but owe what excellence I may pos- 
 sess to my guardian. He aided me more than all the instruction- 
 books that ever were compiled." 
 
 " You must come and practise with the musical people who 
 meet here very frequently," said Mrs. Graham. 
 
 " Thank you, madam ; I have other engagements which will 
 prevent my doing so." 
 
 " Nonsense, Beulah, we have claims on you. I certainly 
 have," answered Eugene. 
 
 " Have you ? I was not aware of the fact." 
 
 There was a patronizing manner in all this which she felt nc 
 disposition to submit to. 
 
 " Most assuredly I have, Beulah, and mean to maintain them.' 
 
 She perfectly understood the haughty expression of his coun 
 teuance, and, moving toward the door, replied coldly: 
 
 " Another time, Eugene, we will discuss them." 
 
 " Where are you going ?" inquired Mrs. Graham, rather stiffly 
 "To Cornelia. The doctor came down a few minutes since," 
 
 She did not pause to hear what followed, but ran up the steps, 
 longing to get out of a house where she plainly perceived hei 
 presence was by no means desired. Cornelia sat with her heac 
 drooped on her thin hand, and without looking up, said, more 
 gently than was her custom : v 
 
 " Why did you hurry back so soon ?" 
 
 "Because the parlor was not particularly attractive." . 
 
 There came the first good-humored laugh which Beulah hac 
 ever heard from Cornelia's lips, as the latter replied : 
 
 " What friends you and old growling Diogenes would hav( 
 been. Pray, how did my cousin receive your performance 1" 
 
B EULAH. 289 
 
 " Very much as if she wished rue amid the ruins of Persepolis, 
 where I certainly shall be before I inflict anything more upon 
 IKT. Cornelia, do not ask or expect ine to come here again, for 
 I will not of course, it is quite as palpable to you as to me that I 
 am no favorite with your parents, and something still less with your 
 cousin. Consequently, you need not expect to see me here again." 
 
 "Do not say so, Beulah; you must, you shall come, and I will 
 see that no one dares interfere with my wishes. As for Antoi- 
 nette, she is simply a vain idiot; you might just as well be told 
 the truth, for doubtless you will see it for yourself; she is my 
 mother's niece, an only child, and possessed of considerable 
 wealth. I suppose it is rather natural that my parents should 
 fondle the idea of her being Eugene's wife. They do not see 
 how utterly uusuited they are. Eugene will, of course, inherit 
 the fortune which I once imagined I should have the pleasure of 
 squandering. My father and mother dread lest Eugene should 
 return to his * boyish fancy' (as you are pleased to term it), and 
 look on you with jealous eyes. Oh! Mammon is the God of this 
 generation. But, Beulah, you must not allow all this miserable 
 mauceuvering to keep you from me. If you do, I will very soon 
 succeed in making this home of mine very unpleasant for Antoi- 
 nette Dupres. When I am dead, she can wheedle my family as 
 successfully as they choose to permit; but while I do live, she 
 shall forbear. Poor, contemptible human nature! verily, I 
 rejoice sometimes when I remember that I shall not be burdened 
 with any of it long." An angry spot burned on each pallid, 
 cheek, and the beautiful mouth curled scornfully. 
 
 " Do not excite yourself s'o unnecessarily, Cornelia. What 
 you may or may not think of your relatives is no concern of 
 mine. You have, a carriage always at your command, and when 
 you desire to see a real friend, you can visit me. Let this suffice 
 for this subject. Suppose we have a game of chess or back- 
 gammon ? What do you say ?" 
 
 She wheeled a lighi table toward the hearth, but the invalid 
 motioned it away, and answered moodily : 
 
 13 
 
290 BEULAH. 
 
 " I am in no humor for games. Sit down and tell me aboul 
 your leaving- Dr. Hartwell's protection." 
 
 " I have nothing to tell," 
 
 "He is a singular being ?" 
 
 Receiving no answer, she added impatiently : 
 
 "Don't you think so?" 
 
 " I do, in the sense of great superiority." 
 
 " The world is not so flattering in its estimate." 
 
 " No, for slander loves a lofty mark." 
 
 " Beulah Benton, do you mean that for me ?" 
 
 " Not unless you feel that it applies to you particularly." 
 
 "If he is so faultless and unequalled, pray, why did not yoi 
 remain in his house ?" 
 
 " I am not in the habit of accounting to any one for mi 
 motives or my actions." She lifted her slender form haughtily 
 
 " In which case, the public has a habit of supplying both." 
 
 " Then accept its fabrications." 
 
 " You need not be so fierce. I like Dr. Hartwell quite as we! 
 as you do, I dare say; but probably I know more of his history: 
 
 " It is all immaterial to me. Drop the subject, if you pleo.se 
 and let me read to you. I believe I came here for quiet com 
 panionship, not recrimination and cross-questioning." 
 
 "Beulah, the world says you are to marry your guardian, 
 do not ask from impertinent curiosity, but sincere friendship i 
 it true ?" 
 
 "About as true as your notion of my marriage 'with EugeiH 
 No; scarcely so plausible." 
 
 " Our families were connected, you know." 
 
 " No, I neither know, nor wish to know. He never alludei 
 to his wife, or his history, and I have just now no desire to hea 
 anything about the matter. He is the best friend I ever had; 
 want to honor and reverence him always; and, of course, th 
 world's version of his domestic affairs does him injustice. So b 
 good enough to say no more about him." 
 
 " Very well. On hearing your voice from the parlor, he lei 
 
BEULAH. 291 
 
 a small parcel, which he requested me to give you. He laid it 
 on the table, I believe; yes, there it is. Now read 'Egrnont' 
 to me, if you please." 
 
 Cornelia crossed the room, threw herself on a couch, and set- 
 tled her pillow comfortably. Beulah took the parcel, which was 
 carefully sealed, and wondered what it contained. It was heavy, 
 and felt hard. They had parted in anger; what could it possi- 
 bly be ? Cornelia's black eyes were on her countenance. She 
 put the package in her pocket, seated herself by the couch, and 
 commenced " Egmont." 
 
 It was with a feeling of indescribable relief that the orphan 
 awoke, at dawn the following morning, and dressed by the grey 
 twilight. She had fallen asleep the night before amid the hum 
 of voices, of laughter, and of dancing feet. Sounds of gaiety, 
 from the merry party below, had found their way to the cham- 
 ber of the heiress, and when Beulah left her at midnight, she 
 was still wakeful and restless. The young teacher could not 
 wait for the late breakfast of the luxurious Grahams, and just 
 as the first level ray of sunshine flashed up from the east, she 
 tied on her bonnet, and noiselessly entered Cornelia's room. 
 The heavy curtains kept it close and dark, and on the hearth a 
 taper burned with pale, sickly light. Cornelia slept soundly; 
 but her breathing was heavy and irregular, and the face wore a 
 scowl, as if some severe pain had distorted it. The ivory-like 
 arms were thrown up over the head, and large drops glistened 
 on the wan brow. Beulah stood beside the bed a few minutes; 
 the apartment was furnished with almost oriental splendor; but 
 how all this satin, and rosewood, and silver, and marble, mocked 
 the restless, suffering sleeper ? Beulah felt tears of compassion 
 weighing down her lashes, as she watched the haggard counte- 
 nance of this petted child of fortune; but unwilling to rouse her, 
 she silently stole down the steps. The hall was dark; the smell 
 of gas almost stifling. Of course, the servants followed the 
 example of their owners, and as no one appeared, she unlocked 
 the street door, and walked homeward with a sensation of plea- 
 
292 BEULAH. 
 
 surable relief, which impressed itself very legibly on her face. 
 The sky was cloudless ; the early risen sun looked over the earth 
 in dazzling radiance ; and the cold, pure, wintry air, made the 
 blood tingle in Beulah's veins. A great, unspeakable joy filled 
 her soul j the uplifted eyes beamed with gladness ; her brave, 
 hopeful spirit, looked into the future with unquestioning trust; 
 and as the image of her unhappy friend flitted across her mind, 
 she exclaimed : 
 
 " This world is full of beauty, like other worlds above ; 
 And if we did our duty, it might be full of love." 
 
 She ran up to her room, threw open the blinds, looped back 
 the curtains, and drew that mysterious package from her pocket. 
 She was very curious to see the contents, and broke the seal 
 with trembling fingers. The outer wrappings fell off, and dis- 
 closed an oblong, papier-mache case. It opened with a spring, 
 and revealed to her a beautiful watch and chain, bearing her 
 name in delicate tracery. A folded slip of paper lay on the 
 crimson velvet lining of the box, and recognizing the characters, 
 she hastily read this brief sentence : 
 
 " Wear it constantly, Beulah, to remind you that, in adversity, you still 
 
 have 
 
 " A GUARDIAN." 
 
 Tears gushed unrestrained, as she looked at the beautiful gift. 
 Not for an instant did she dream of accepting it, and she shrank 
 shudderingly from widening the breach which already existed, by 
 a refusal. Locking up the slip of paper in her workbox, she 
 returned the watch to its case, and carefully retied the parcel. 
 Long before, she had wrapped the purse in paper, and prevailed 
 on Clara to give it to the doctor. He had received it without 
 comment, but she could not return the watch in the same way, 
 for Clara was now able to attend regularly to her school duties, 
 and it was very uncertain when she would see him. Yet she felt 
 comforted, for this gift assured her, that however coldly he chose 
 
BETJLAH. 293 
 
 to treat her when they met, he had not thrown her off entirely. 
 With all her independence, she could not bear the thought of his 
 utter alienation ; and the consciousness of his remaining interest 
 thrilled her heart with gladness. 
 
 CHAPTER XXIII. 
 
 ONE Saturday morning, some days subsequent to her visit to 
 the Grahams, Benlah set off for the business part of the city. 
 She was closely veiled, and carried under her shawl a thick roll 
 of neatly written paper. A publishing house was the place of 
 her destination; and as she was ushered into a small back room, 
 to await the leisure of the gentleman she wished to see, she could 
 not forbear smiling at the novelty of her position, and the auda- 
 city of the attempt she was about to make. There she sat, in 
 the editor's sanctum, trying to quiet the tumultuous beating of her 
 heart. Presently, a tall, spare man, with thin, cadaverous visage, 
 entered, bowed, took a chair, and eyed her with a " wbat-do-you- 
 want" sort of expression. His grizzled hair was cut short, and 
 stood up like bristles, and his keen blue eyes were by no means 
 promising, in their cold glitter. Beulah threw off her veil, and 
 said, with rather an unsteady voice : 
 
 " You are the editor of the magazine published here, I be- 
 lieve ?" 
 
 He bowed again, leaned back in his chair, and crossed his 
 hands at the back of his head. 
 
 " I came to offer you an article for the magazine." She threw 
 down the roll of paper on a chair. 
 
 " Ah ! hem I will you favor me with your name ?" 
 
 " Beulah Benton, sir. One altogether unknown to fame." 
 
 He contracted his eyes, coughed, and said, constrainedly : 
 
294 BEULAH. 
 
 ' A.re you a subscriber ?" 
 
 "I am. 
 
 " What is the character of your manuscript ?" He took it up 
 as he spoke, and glanced over the pages. 
 
 " You can determine that from a perusal. If the sketch suits 
 you, I should like to become a regular contributor." 
 
 A gleam of sunshine strayed over the countenance, and the 
 editor answered, very benignly : 
 
 " If the article meets with our approbation, we shall be very 
 happy to afford you a medium of publication in our journal. Can 
 we depend on your punctuality ?" 
 
 " I think so. What are your terms ?" 
 
 " Terms, madam ? I supposed that your contribution was 
 gratuitous," said he, very loftily. 
 
 " Then you are most egregiously mistaken ! What do you 
 imagine induces me to write ?" 
 
 " Why, desire for fame, I suppose. n 
 
 " Fame is rather unsatisfactory fare. I am poor, sir, and 
 write to aid me in maintaining myself." 
 
 " Are you dependent solely on your own exertions, madam ?" 
 
 " Yes." 
 
 "I am sorry I cannot aid you ; but now-a-days, there are 
 plenty of authors, who write merely as a pastime, and we have 
 as many contributions as we can well look over." 
 
 " I am to understand, then, that the magazine is supported 
 altogether by gratuitous contributions ?" said Beulah, unable to 
 repress a smile. 
 
 " Why, you see, authorship has become a sort of luxury," was 
 the hesitating reply. 
 
 " I think the last number of your magazine contained, among 
 other articles in the 'editor's drawer,' an earnest appeal to 
 southern authors to come to the rescue of southern periodicals ?" 
 
 " True, madam : southern intellect seems steeped in a lethargy, 
 from which we are most faithfully endeavoring to arouse it." 
 
 " The article to which I allude, also animadverted severely 
 
BETJLAH. 295 
 
 upon the practice of southern authors patronizing northern pub- 
 lishing establishments ?" 
 
 " Most certainly, it treated the subject stringently." He 
 moved uneasily. 
 
 " I believe the subscription is the same as that of the northern 
 periodicals ?" 
 
 A vejy cold bow was the only answer. 
 
 " I happen to know that northern magazines are not composed 
 of gratuitous contributions ; and it is no mystery why southern 
 authors are driven to northern publishers. Southern periodicals 
 are mediums only for those of elegant leisure, who can afford to 
 write without remuneration. With the same subscription price, 
 you cannot pay for your articles. It is no marvel that, under 
 such circumstances, we have no southern literature. Unluckily, 
 I belong to the numerous class who have to look away from 
 home for remuneration. Sir, I will not trouble you with my 
 manuscript." Rising, she held out her hand for it ; but the keen 
 eyes had fallen upon a paragraph which seemed to interest the 
 editor, and knitting his brows, he said, reluctantly : 
 
 " We have not been in the habit of paying for our articles, 
 but I will look over this, and perhaps you can make it worth our 
 while to pay you. The fact is, madam, we have more trash sent 
 us than we can find room for ; but if you can contribute anything 
 of weight, why, it will make a difference of course. I did not 
 recognize you at first, but I now remember that I heard your 
 valedictory to the graduating class of the public schools. If we 
 should conclude to pay you for regular contributions, we wish 
 nothing said about it." 
 
 " Very well. If you like the manuscript, and decide to pay 
 me, you can address me a note through the post-office. Should 
 I write for the magazine, I particularly desire not to be known." 
 She lowered her veil, and most politely he bowed her out. She 
 was accustomed to spend a portion of each Saturday in prac- 
 tising duets with Georgia Asbury, and thither she now directed 
 her steps. Unluckily, the parlor was full of visitors, and with- 
 
296 BEULAH. 
 
 out seeing any of the family, she walked back into the music 
 room. Here she felt perfectly at home, and closing the door, 
 forgot everything but her music. Taking no heed of the lapse 
 of time, she played piece after piece, until startled by the clear 
 tones of the doctor's voice. She looked up, and saw him stand- 
 ing in the door which opened into the library, taking off his 
 great-coat. 
 
 " Why, Beulah, that room is as cold as a Texas norther. 
 What on earth are yon doing there without a fire ? Come in 
 here, child, and warm your frozen digits. Where are those two 
 harum-scarum specimens of mine ?" 
 
 " I believe they are still entertaining company, sir. The 
 parlor was full when I came, and they know nothing of my being 
 here." She sat down by the bright fire, and held her stiff fingers 
 toward the glowing coals. 
 
 " Yes, confound their dear rattlepates ; that is about the 
 sum-total of their cogitations." He drew up his chair, put his 
 feet on the fender of the grate, and lighting his cigar, added : 
 
 " Is my spouse also in the parlor ?" 
 
 " I suppose so, sir." 
 
 " Time was, Beulah, when Saturday was the great day of 
 preparation for all housekeepers. Bless my soul ! My mother 
 would just about as soon have thought of anticipating the dis- 
 covery of the open Polar Sea, by a trip thither, as going out to 
 visit on Saturday. Why, from my boyhood, Saturday has been 
 synonymous with scouring, window-washing, pastry-baking, 
 stocking-darning, and numerous other venerable customs, which 
 this age is rapidly dispensing with. My wife had a lingering 
 reverence for the duties of the day, and tried to excuse herself, 
 hut I suppose those pretty wax dolls of mine have coaxed her 
 into ' receiving,' as they call it. Beulah, my wife is an excep- 
 tion, but the mass of married women, now-a-day, instead of being 
 thorough housewives (as nature intended they should), are deli- 
 cate, do-nothing, know-nothing, fine ladies. They have no 
 duties. ' tempora, mores !' " He paused to relight his 
 
BEULAH. 297 
 
 cigar, and just then Georgia came in, dressed very richly. He 
 tossed the taper into the grate, and exclaimed, as she threw her 
 arms round his neck and kissed him : 
 
 " You pretty imp ; what is to pay now ? Here, Beulah has 
 been sitting, nobody knows how long, in that frigid zone you 
 call your music-room. What are you rigged out in all that 
 finery for ?" 
 
 " We are going to dine out to-day, father. Beulah will excuse 
 me, I know." 
 
 " Indeed 1 Dine where ?" 
 
 " Mrs. Delmout came round this morning to invite us to dine 
 with some, of her young friends from New Orleans." 
 
 " Well, I shan't go, that is all." 
 
 " Oh, you are not expected, sir," laughed Georgia, brushing 
 the grey locks from his ample forehead. 
 
 " Not expected, eh ? Does your lady mother contemplate 
 leaving me to discuss my dinner in doleful solitude ?" 
 
 " No, mother has gone with Mrs. Rallston to see about some 
 poor, starving family in the suburbs. She will be back soon, I 
 dare say. Mrs. Delmont has sent her carriage, and Helen is 
 waiting for me ; so I must go. Beulah, I am very sorry, we 
 have been cut out of our practising. Don't go home ; stay 
 with mother to-day, and when I come back we will have a 
 glorious time. Can't you now ? There's a darling." 
 
 " Oh, you wheedling, hypocritical madcap, take yourself off ! 
 Of course Beulah will try to endure the stupid talk of a poor 
 old man, whose daughters are too fashionable to look after him, 
 and wnose wife is so extremely charitable that she forgets it 
 ' begins at home.' Clear out, you trial of paternal patience 1" 
 He kissed her rosy lips, and she hurried away, protesting that 
 she would much prefer remaining at home. 
 
 " Beulah, I gave Hartwell that parcel you intrusted to me. 
 He looked just as if I had plunged him into a snow-bank, but 
 said nothing." 
 
 " Thank you, sir." 
 
 13* 
 
298 BEULAH. 
 
 " Oh, don't thank me for playing go-between. I don't relish 
 any such work. It is very evident that you two have quarrelled. 
 I would about as soon consult that poker, as ask Hartwell what 
 is to pay. Now, child, what is the matter ?" 
 
 " Nothing new, sir. He has never forgiven me for turning 
 teacher." 
 
 " Forgiven ! Bless me, he is as spiteful as a Pequod." 
 " Begging your pardon, Dr. Asbury, he is no such thing," 
 cried Beulah, impetuously. 
 
 "Just what I might have expected. I am to understand, 
 then, that you can abuse my partner sufficiently without any 
 vituperative assistance from me ?" He brushed the ashes from 
 his cigar, and looked at her quizzically. 
 
 " Sir, it pains me to hear him spoken of so lightly." 
 " Lightly ! Upon my word I thought Indianic malice was 
 rather a heavy charge. However, I can succeed better, if you 
 
 will allow " 
 
 " Don't jest, sir. Please say no more about him." 
 His face became instantly grave, and he answered earnestly : 
 " Beulah, as a sincere friend, I would advise you not to 
 alienate Hartwell. There are very few such men ; I do not know 
 his equal. He is interested in your welfare and happiness, and 
 is the best friend you ever had or ever will have." 
 " I know it, and prize his friendship above all others." 
 " Then, why did you return that watch ? If he wished you 
 to wear it, why should you refuse ? Mark me, he said nothing 
 about it to me, but I saw the watch, with your name engraved 
 on the case, at the jewelry store where I bought one just like it 
 for Georgia. I surmised it was that same watch, when you 
 intrusted the package to me." 
 
 " I was already greatly indebted to him, and did not wish to 
 increase the obligation." 
 
 " My child, under the circumstances, you were too fastidious. 
 He was very much annoyed ; though, as I told you before, he 
 made no allusion to the subject." 
 
BETJLAH. 299 
 
 " Yes ; I knew lie would be, and I am very sorry, but could 
 not think of accepting it." 
 
 " Oh, you are well matched, upon my word." 
 
 " What do you mean ?" 
 
 " That you are both as proud as Lucifer, and as savage as 
 heathens. Child, I don't see what is to become of you." 
 
 " Every soul is the star of its own destiny," answered 
 Beulah. 
 
 " Well, very sorry destinies the majority make, I can tell you. 
 Have you seen Mrs. Lockhart and Pauline ?" 
 
 " No. I was not aware that they were in the city." 
 
 " Lockhart's health is miserable. They are all at HartwelFs 
 for a few weeks, I believe. Pauline has grown up a perfect Di 
 Vernon beauty." 
 
 " I should like very much to see her. She is a generous, 
 noble-souled girl." 
 
 " Yes, I rather think she is. Hart well said the other day, 
 that Pauline was anxious to see you ; and since I think of it, I 
 believe he asked me to tell you of her arrival. Now, I will 
 wager my head that you intend to wait until she calls formally, 
 which it is your place to do." 
 
 " Then, sir, expect immediate decapitation, for I shall go out 
 to see her this very afternoon," replied Beulah. 
 
 " That is right, my dear child." 
 
 " Dr. Asbury, if you will not think me troublesome, I should 
 like to tell you of some things that perplex me very much," said 
 she, hesitatingly. 
 
 " I shall be glad to hear whatever you have to say, and if I 
 can possibly help you, rest assured I will. What perplexes you ?" 
 
 " A great many things, sir. Of late, I have read several 
 works that have unsettled my former faith, and indeed confused 
 and darkened my mind most miserably, and I thought you might 
 aid me in my search after truth." 
 
 He threw his cigar into the fire, and while an expression of 
 sorrow clouded his face, said, very gravely : 
 
300 BEULAH. 
 
 " Beulah, I am afraid I am one of the last persons to whom 
 you should apply for assistance. Do the perplexities to which 
 you allude involve religious questions ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir, almost entirely." 
 
 " I am too unsettled myself to presume to direct others." 
 
 Beulah looked up, in unfeigned astonishment. 
 
 " You certainly are not what is termed skeptical ?" 
 
 " Most sincerely do I wish that I was not." 
 
 There was a short silence, broken by Beulah's saying, slowly 
 and sorrowfully : 
 
 " You cannot aid me, then !" 
 
 " I am afraid not. When a young man, I was thoroughly 
 skeptical in my religious views (if I may be said to have had 
 any). At the time of my marriage I was an infidel, and such 
 the world still calls me. If I am not now, it is because my wife's 
 unpretending consistent piety has taught me to revere the pre- 
 cepts of a revelation which I long ago rejected. Her pure reli- 
 gion makes me respect Christianity, which once I sneered at. I 
 am forced to acknowledge, the happy results of her faith, and I 
 may yet be brought to yield up old prejudices and confess its 
 divine origin. I am no Atheist, thank God ! never have been. 
 But I tell you candidly, my doubts concerning the Bible make 
 me an unsafe guide for a mind like yours. For some time, I 
 have marked the course of your reading, by the books I missed 
 from my shelves, and have feared just what has happened. On 
 one point my experience may be of value to you. What is com- 
 prised under the head of philosophical research will never aid or 
 satisfy you. I am an old man, Beulah, and have studied philoso- 
 phic works for many years ; but, take my word for it, the mass 
 of them are sheer humbug. From the beginning of the world, 
 philosophers have been investigating the countless mysteries 
 which present themselves to every earnest mind ; 'but the arcana 
 are as inscrutable now as ever.. I do not wish to discourage you, 
 Beulah ; nor do I desire to underrate human capabilities ; but, 
 in all candor, this kind of study does not pay. It has not repaid 
 
B E TJ L A H . 301 
 
 me it has not satisfied Hartwell, who went deeper into meta- 
 physics than any one I know, and who now has less belief of any 
 sort than any one I ever wish to know. I would not advise you 
 to prosecute this branch of study. I am content to acknow- 
 ledge that of many things I know nothing, and never can be any 
 wiser ; but Guy Hartwell is too proud to admit his incapacity to 
 grapple with some of these mysteries. Beulah, my wife is one 
 of the happiest spirits I ever knew : she is a consistent Christian. 
 When we were married, I watched her very closely ; I tell you, 
 child, I hoped very much that I should find some glaring incon- 
 gruity in her conduct which would have sanctioned my skep- 
 ticism. I was continually on the lookout for defects of character 
 that might cast contempt on the religion she professed. I did 
 not expect her to prove so pure-hearted, unselfish, humble, and 
 genuinely pious as I found her. I do most sincerely revere such 
 religion as hers. Ah ! if it were not so rare, I should never 
 have been so skeptical. She has taught me that the precepts of 
 the Bible do regulate the heart and purify the life ; and to you, 
 child, I will say, candidly, 'almost she has persuaded me to be a 
 Christian.' Whatever of " 
 
 He said no more, for at this moment the door opened, and 
 Mrs. Asbury entered. She welcomed Beulah with a cordial sin- 
 cerity, singularly soothing to the orphan's heart, and keeping 
 her hand in a tight clasp, asked several questions, which her 
 husband cut short by drawing her to his side. 
 
 " Where have you been straying to, madam ?" 
 
 " Where you must stray to, sir, just as soon as you start out 
 this evening on your round of visits." 
 
 She softly smoothed back his hair and kissed his forehead. 
 She was a noble-looking woman, with a tranquil countenance 
 that betokened a serene, cloudless soul ; and as she stood beside 
 her husband, his eyes rested on her face with an expression bor- 
 dering on adoration. Beulah could not avoid wondering why 
 such women were so very rare, and the thought presented itself 
 with painful force, " if Cornelia Graham and I had had such 
 
302 B E U L A H . 
 
 mothers, we might both have been happier and better." Pro- 
 bably something of what crossed her mind crept into her 
 countenance, for the doctor asked, laughingly : 
 
 " In the name of Venus ! what are you screwing up your lips, 
 and looking so ugly about ?" 
 
 " I suppose one reason is, that I must go home." She rose, 
 with a suppressed sigh. 
 
 " I am disposed to think it much more probable that you were 
 envying me my wife. Come, confess." 
 
 " I was wishing that I had such a mother." 
 
 With some sudden impulse she threw her arms round Mrs. 
 Asbury's neck, and hid her face on her shoulder. 
 
 " Then let me be your mother, my dear child," said she, press- 
 ing the girl affectionately to her heart, and kissing her pale 
 cheek. 
 
 " Are you troubled about anything, my dear ?" continued Mrs. 
 Asbury, surprised at this manifestation of feeling in one usually 
 so cold and reserved. 
 
 " An orphan heart mourns its dead idols," answered Beulah, 
 raising her head, and withdrawing from the kind arm that encir- 
 cled her. Mrs. Asbury interpreted a quick glance from her hus- 
 band, and did not press the matter further ; but at parting, she 
 accompanied Beulah to the front door, and earnestly assured 
 her that if she could in any way advise or assist her she would 
 consider it both a privilege and a pleasure to do so. Keturning 
 to the library, she laid her soft hand on her husband's arm, and 
 said anxiously : 
 
 " George, what is the matter with her ?" 
 
 " She is distressed, or rather perplexed about her religious 
 doubts, I inferred from what she said just before you came in. 
 She has drifted out into a troubled sea of philosophy, I am 
 inclined to think, and not satisfied with what she has found, is 
 now irresolute as to the proper course. Poor child, she is ter- 
 ribly in earnest about the matter." He sighed heavily. 
 
 His wife watched him eagerly. 
 
B E U L A H . 303 
 
 " What did you toll her ?" 
 
 " Not to come to me ; that it would be a perfect exemplifica- 
 tion of ' the blind leading the blind ; 7 and when she learned my 
 own state of uncertainty, she seemed to think so herself." 
 
 An expression of acnt<j pain passed over her features, but 
 banishing it as speedily as possible, she answered very gently : 
 
 " Take care, my husband, lest by recapitulating your doubts, 
 you strengthen hers." 
 
 " Alice, I told her the whole truth. She is not a nature to be 
 put off with half-way statements. Hartwell is an avowed infidel, 
 and she knows it ; yet I do not believe his views have weighed 
 with her against received systems of faith. My dear Alice, this 
 spirit of skepticism is scattered far and wide over the land ; I 
 meet with it often where I least expect it. It broods like a 
 hideous nightmare over this age, and Beulah must pass through 
 the same ordeal which is testing the intellectual portion of every 
 community. But there is that eternal door-bell. Let us have 
 dinner, Alice, I must go out early this afternoon." 
 
 He took down a pair of scales, and began to weigh some 
 medicine. His wife wisely forbore to renew the discussion, and 
 ringing the bell for dinner, interested him with an account of 
 her visit to a poor family, who required his immediate attention. 
 
 With a heart unwoutedly heavy, Beulah prepared to call upon 
 Pauline, later in the afternoon of the same day. It was not com- 
 panionship she needed, for this was supplied by books, and the 
 sensation of loneliness was one with which she had not yet been 
 made acquainted ; but she wanted a strong, healthy, cultivated 
 intellect, to dash away the mists that were wreathing about her 
 own mind. Already, the lofty, imposing structure of self-reliance 
 began to rock to its very foundations. She was nearly ready for 
 her walk, when Mrs. Hoyt came in. 
 
 " Miss Beulah, there is a lady in the parlor waiting to see 
 you" 
 
 "Is it Miss Graham?" 
 
 " No. She is a stranger, and gave no name." 
 
304: B E U L A H . 
 
 Beulah descended to the parlor in rather an ungracious mood. 
 As she entered, a lady sprang to meet her, with both hands ex- 
 tended. She was superbly beautiful, with a complexion of 
 dazzling whiteness, and clear, radiant, violet eyes, over which 
 arched delicately pencilled brows. The Grecian mouth and chin 
 were faultlessly chiselled; the whole face was one of rare love- 
 liness. 
 
 " You don't know me ! For shame, Beulah, to forget old 
 friends." 
 
 " Oh, Pauline, is it you ? I am very glad to see you." 
 
 "Don't say that for politeness' sake! Here I have been for 
 ten days and you have not stirred a foot to see me." 
 
 " I didn't know you were in town till this morning, and just 
 as you came I was putting on my bonnet to go and see you." 
 
 "Are you telling the truth ?" 
 
 11 Yes ; positively I am." 
 
 " Well, I am glad you felt disposed to see me. After my 
 uncle, you and Charon are all I cared anything about meeting 
 here. Bless your dear, solemn, grey eyes ! how often I have 
 wanted to see you." 
 
 The impulsive girl threw her arms round Beulah's neck, and 
 kissed her repeatedly. 
 
 " Be quiet, and let me look at you. Oh, Pauline, how beauti- 
 ful you have grown I" cried Beulah, who could not forbear ex- 
 pressing the admiration she felt. 
 
 "Yes ; the artists in Florence raved considerably about my 
 beauty. I can't tell you the number of times I sat for my por- 
 trait. It is very pleasant to be pretty ; I enjoy it amazingly," 
 iSaid she, with all the candor which had characterized her in 
 childhood ; and with a vigorous squeeze of Beulah's hand, she 
 continued : 
 
 " I was astonished when I came, and found that you had left 
 Uncle Guy, and were teaching little ragged, dirty children their 
 A, B, Cs. What possessed you to-xlo such a silly thing ?" 
 
 " Duty, my dear Pauline." 
 
BE TIL AH. 305 
 
 . " Oh, for heaven's sake, don't begin about duty. Ernest " - 
 She paused, a rich glow swept over her face, and shaking back 
 her curls, she added : 
 
 " You must quit all this. I say you must 1" 
 
 " I see you are quite as reckless and scatter-brained as ever," 
 answered Beulah, smiling at her authoritative tone. 
 
 " No, I positively am not the fool Uncle Guy used to think me. 
 I have more sense than people give me credit for, though I dare 
 say I shall find you very skeptical ou the subject. Beulah, I 
 know very well why you took it into your wise head to be a 
 teacher. You were unwilling to usurp what you considered my 
 place in Uncle Guy's home and heart. You need not straighten 
 yourself in that ungraceful way. I know perfectly well it is the 
 truth ; but I am no poor, suffering, needy innocent, that you 
 should look after. I am well provided for, and don't intend to 
 take one cent of Uncle Guy's money, so you might just as well 
 have the benefit of it. I know, too, that you and ma did not 
 exactly adore each other. I understand all about that old skir- 
 mishing. But things have changed very much, Beulah ; so you 
 must quit this horrid nonsense about working, and being inde- 
 pendent." 
 
 " How you do rattle on, about things you don't comprehend," 
 laughed Beulah. 
 
 " Come, don't set me down for a simpleton ! I tell you I am 
 in earnest 1 You must come back to Uncle Guy !" 
 
 " Pauline, it is worse than useless to talk of this matter. I 
 decided long ago as to what I ought to do, and certainly shall 
 not change my opinion now. Tell me what you saw in Europe." 
 
 " Why, has not Eugene told you all you wish to know ? 
 Apropos ! I saw him at a party last night, playing the devoted 
 to that little beauty, Netta Dupres. We were all in Paris at 
 the .sime time. I don't 4flcy her ; she is too insufferably vain 
 
 and affected. It is my opiuJgn that she is flirting with Eugene, 
 which must be quite agreflRe to you. Oh, I tell you, Beulah, 
 I could easily put her mind, heart and soul, in my thimble 1" 
 
306 BE TIL A II. 
 
 " I did not ask your estimate of Miss Dupres. I want to know 
 something of your European tour. I see Eugene very rarely." 
 
 " Oh ! of course we went to see all the sights, and very stupid 
 it was. Mr. Lockhart scolded continually about my want of 
 taste and appreciation, because I did not utter all the interjec- 
 tions of delight and astonishment over old, tumble-down ruins, 
 and genuine ' master-pieces ' of art, as he called them. Upon my 
 word, I have been tired almost to death, when he and ma 
 descanted by the hour, on the ' inimitable, and transcendent, and 
 entrancing ' beauties and glories of old pictures, that were actually 
 so black with age, that they looked like daubs of tar, and I 
 could not tell whether the figures were men or women, archan- 
 gels or cow-drivers. Some things I did enjoy ; such as the Alps, 
 and the Mediterranean, and St. Peter's, and Westminster Abbey, 
 and some of the German cathedrals. But as to keeping my 
 finger on the guide-book, and committing all the ecstasy to 
 memory, to spout out just at the exact moment, when I saw 
 nothing to deserve it, why that is all fudge. I tell you there is 
 nothing in all Europe equal to our Niagara I I was heartily 
 glad to come home, though I enjoyed some things amazingly." 
 
 " How is Mr. Lockhart's health ?" 
 
 " Very poor, I am sorry to say. He looks so thin and pale, I 
 often tell him he would make quite as good a pictured saint as 
 any we saw abroad." 
 
 " How long will you remain here ?" 
 
 " Till Uncle Guy thinks Mr. Lockhart is well enough to go to 
 his plantation, I suppose." 
 
 " What makes you so restless, Pauline ? Why don't you sit 
 still ?" asked Beulah, observing that her visitor twisted about, as 
 if uncomfortable. 
 
 " Because I want to tell you something, and really do not 
 know how to begin," said she, laughijtf^and blushing. 
 
 " I cannot imagine what should J^^oncert you, Pauline." 
 
 " Thank you. Truly, that is aWttering tribute to my sensi- 
 bility. Beulah, can't you guess what I have to tell you ?" 
 
B E U L A H . 307 
 
 " Certainly not. But why should you hesitate to disclose it ?" 
 
 " Simply because your tremendous grey eyes have such an 
 owlish way of looking people out of countenance. Now don't 
 look quite through me, and I will pluck up ray courage, and con- 
 fess. Beulah I am going to be married soon." She hid her 
 crimsoned cheeks behind her hands. 
 
 " Married ? impossible 1" cried Beulah. 
 
 "But I tell you I am 1 Here is my engagement ring. Now, 
 the most astonishing part of the whole affair is, that my intended 
 sovereign is a minister ! A preacher, as solemn as Job I" 
 
 You a minister's wife, Pauline ? Oh, child, you are jesting 1" 
 said Beulah, with an incredulous smile. 
 
 " No ! absurd as it may seem, it is nevertheless true. I am 
 to be married in March. Ma says I am a fool ; Mr. Lockhart 
 encourages and supports me ; and Uncle Guy laughs heartily 
 every time the affair is alluded to. At first, before we went to 
 Europe, there was violent opposition from my mother, but she 
 found I was in earnest, and now it is all settled for March. 
 Uncle Guy knows Ernest Mortimer, and esteems him very 
 highly, but thinks that I am the last woman in the United States 
 who ought to be a minister's wife. I believe he told Ernest as 
 much, but of course he did not believe him." 
 
 " Where does Mr. Mortimor reside ?" 
 
 "In Georgia ; has charge of a church there. He had a sister 
 at the hame school I attended in New York ; and during a visit 
 to her, he says he met his evil-angel in me. He is about five 
 years my senior ; but he is here now, and you will have an oppor- 
 tunity of forming your own opinion of him." 
 
 " How long have you known him ?" 
 
 " About two years. I am rather afraid of him, to tell you 
 the honest truth. He is so grave, and has such rigid notions, 
 that I wonder very muqjp. what ever induced his holiness to 
 fancy such a heedless piece ofif womanhood, as he is obliged to 
 know I am; for I never put on any humility or sanctity. What 
 do you think, Beuluh ? Uncle Guy coolly told me, this morning, 
 
308 BE TIL AH. 
 
 in Ernest's presence, that he was only charmed by my pretty 
 face, and that if I did not learn some common sense, he would 
 very soon repent his choice. Oh, the doleful warnings I have 
 been favored with ! But you shall all see that I am worthy of 
 Mr. Mortimer's love." 
 
 Her beautiful face was radiant with hope, yet ill the violet 
 
 eyes, there lurked unshed tears. 
 
 * 
 
 " I am very glad that you are so happy, Pauline ; and if you 
 will, I am very sure you can make yourself all that Mr. Morti- 
 inor could desire." 
 
 "I am resolved I will. Yesterday he talked to me very 
 seriously about the duties which he said would devolve on me. 
 I tried to laugh him out of his sober mood, but he would talk 
 about 'pastoral relations/ and what would be expected of a 
 pastor's wife, until I was ready to cry with vexation. Ernest 
 is not dependent on his salary; his father is considered wealthy, 
 I believe, which fact reconciles ma in some degree. To-morrow 
 he will preach in Dr. Hew ? s church, and you must go to hear 
 him. I have never yet heard him preach, and am rather anxious 
 to know what sort of sermons I am to listen to for the remain- 
 der of my life." She looked at her watch, and rose. 
 
 " I shall certainly go to hear him," answered Beulaa. 
 
 " Of course you will, and after service you must go home and 
 spend the day with me. Ma begs that you will not refuse to 
 dine with her ; and as you are engaged all the week, Uncle Guy 
 expects you also ; that is, he told me to insist on your coming, 
 but thought you would probably decline. Will you come ? Do 
 Bay yes.'* 
 
 " I don't know yet. I will see you at church." 
 
 Thus they parted. 
 
 
BEULAH. 309 
 
 CHAP-PER xxiv. 
 
 ON Sabbath morning, Beulah sat beside the window, with her 
 folded hands resting on her lap. The day was cloudless and 
 serene ; the sky of that intense melting blue which characterizes 
 our clime. From every quarter of the city brazen muezzins 
 called worshippers to the temple, and bands of neatly clad, 
 happy children thronged the streets, on their way to Sabbath 
 school. Save these, and the pealing bells, a hush pervaded all 
 things, as though nature were indeed " at her prayers." Blessed 
 be the hallowed influences which every sunny Sabbath morn. 
 exerts I Blessed be the holy tones, which at least once a week 
 call every erring child back to its Infinite Father ! For some 
 time Beulah had absented herself from church, for she found 
 that instead of profiting by sermons, she came home to criticise 
 and question. But early associations are strangely tenacious, 
 and as she watched the children trooping to the house of God, 
 there rushed to her mind memories of other years, when the 
 orphan bands from the Asylum regularly took their places in 
 the Sabbath school. The hymns she sang the'n rang again in 
 her ears ; long-forgotten passages of Scripture, repeated then, 
 seemed learned but yesterday. How often had the venerable 
 superintendent knelt and invoked special guidance for the 
 afflicted band from the God of orphans ? Now she felt doubly 
 orphaned. In her intellectual pride, she frequently asserted that 
 she was " the star of her own destiny ;" but this morning 
 childish memories prattled of the Star of Bethlehem, before 
 which she once bent the knee of adoration. Had it set forever, 
 amid clouds of superstition, sin and infidelity ? Glittering spires 
 pointed to the bending heavens, and answered : " It burns on 
 forever, ' brighter and brighter unto the perfect day !' " With 
 
310 BEULAH. 
 
 a dull weight on her heart, she took down her Bible and opened 
 it indifferently at her book-mark. It proved the thirty-eighth 
 chapter of Job, and she read on and on, until the bells warned 
 her it was the hour of morning service. She walked to church, 
 not humbled and prepared to receive the holy teachings of revela- 
 tion, but with a defiant feeling in her heart, which she did not 
 attempt or care to analyze. She was not accustomed to attend 
 Dr. Hew's church, but the sexton, conducted her to a pew, and 
 as she seated herself, the solemn notes of the organ swelled 
 through the vaulted aisles. Tn6 choir sang a magnificent 
 anthem from Haydn's " Creation," and then only the deep, thun- 
 dering peal of the organ fell on the dim, cool air. Beulah could 
 bear no more ; as she lowered her veil, bitter tears gushed over 
 her troubled face. Just then, she longed to fall on her knees 
 before the altar and renew the vows of her childhood ; but this 
 impulse very soon died away, and while the pews on every side 
 rapidly filled, she watched impatiently for the appearance of the 
 minister. Immediately in front of her sat Mr. and Mrs. Graham 
 and Antoinette Dupres. Beulah was pondering the absence of 
 Cornelia and Eugene, when a full, manly voice fell on her ear, 
 and looking up, she saw Mr. Mortimor standing in the pulpit. 
 He looked older than Pauline's description had prepared her to 
 expect, and the first impression was one of disappointment. But 
 the longer she watched the grave, quiet face, the more attrac- 
 tive it became. Certainly he was a handsome man, and, judging 
 from the contour of head and features, an intellectual one. 
 There was an absolute repose in the countenance, which might 
 have passed with casual observers for inertia, indifference; but 
 to the practised physiognomist, it expressed the perfect peace 
 of a mind and heart, completely harmonious. The voice was 
 remarkably clear and well modulated. His text was selected 
 from the first and last chapters of Ecclesiastes, and consisted 
 of these verses : 
 
 " For in much wisdom is much grief ; and he that increaseth 
 knowledge, increaseth sorrow." 
 
BETJLAH. 311 
 
 "And farther, by these, my son, be admonished; of making 
 many books there is no end, and much study is a weariness of 
 the flesh. Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter. 
 Fear God, and keep his commandments, for this is the whole 
 duty of man." 
 
 To the discourse which followed, Beulah listened with the 
 deepest interest. She followed the speaker over the desert of 
 ancient oriental systems, which he rapidly analyzed, and held up 
 as empty shells; lifting the veil of soufism, he glanced at the 
 mystical creed of Algazzali; and in an epitomized account of the 
 Grecian schools of philosophy, depicted the wild vagaries into 
 which many had wandered, mrfrVih unsatisfactory results to 
 which all had attained. Not content with these instances of the 
 insufficiency and mocking nature of human wisdom and learning, 
 he adverted to the destructive tendency of the Helvetian and 
 D'Holbach system, and after a brief discussion of their ruinous 
 tenets, dilated, with some erudition, upon the conflicting and 
 dangerous theories propounded by Germany. Then came the 
 contemplation of Christianity, from its rise among the fishermen 
 of Galilee to its present summit of power. For eighteen hun- 
 dred years it had been assaulted by infidelity, yet each century 
 saw it advancing a conquering colossus. Throughout the ser- 
 mon, the idea was maintained that human reason was utterly 
 inadequate to discover to man his destiny, that human learning 
 was a great cheat, and that only from the pages of Holy Writ 
 could genuine wisdom be acquired. Men were to be as little 
 children in order to be taughl4^^truths of immortality. Cer- 
 tainly, the reasoning was clear and forcible, the philosophic 
 allusions seemed very apropos, and the language was elegant 
 and impassioned. The closing hymn was sung ; the organ 
 hushed its worshipping tones; the benediction was pronounced; 
 the congregation dispersed. 
 
 As Beulah descended the steps, she found Pauline and Mrs. 
 Lockhart waiting at the carriage for her. The latter greeted 
 her with quite a show of cordiality ; but the orphan shrank back 
 
312 BEULAH. 
 
 from the offered kiss, aud merely touched the extended hand. 
 She had not forgotten the taunts aud unkindness of other days; 
 and though not vindictive, she could not feign oblivion of the 
 past, nor assume a friendly manner foreign to her. She took 
 her seat in the carriage, and found it rather difficult to with- 
 draw her fascinated eyes from Pauline's lovely face. She knew 
 what was expected of her, however; and said, as they drove 
 rapidly homeward: 
 
 "Mr. Mortimer seems to be a man of more than ordinary 
 erudition." 
 
 " Did you like his sermon ? Do you like him ?" asked Pauline, 
 eagerly. 
 
 "I like him very much, indeed; but do not like his sermon at 
 all," answered Beulah, bluntly. ? 
 
 " I am sure everybody seemed to be delighted with it," said 
 Mrs. Lockhart. 
 
 "Doubtless the majority of his congregation were; and I was 
 very much interested, though . I do not accept his views. His 
 delivery is remarkably imj^ssive, and his voice is better adapted 
 to the pulpit than any Inav'e ever listened to." She strove to 
 say everything favorable which, in candor, she could. 
 
 " Still you did not like his sermon ?" said Pauline, gravely. 
 
 " I cannot accept his conclusions." 
 
 " I liked the discourse particularly, Pauline. I wish Percy 
 could have heard it," said Mrs. Lockhart. 
 
 The daughter took .no .notice whatever of this considerate 
 speech, and sat quite s-till, jiq^pNlg more serious than Beulah 
 liad ever seen her. Conversation flagged, despite the young 
 teacher's efforts, and she was heartily glad when the carriage 
 entered the avenue. Her heart swelled as she caught sight of 
 the noble old cedars, whose venerable heads seemed to bow in 
 welcome, while the drooping branches held out their arms, as if 
 to embrace her. Each tree was familiar; even the bright coral 
 ynpou clusters were like dear friends greeting her after a long 
 absence. She had never realized until now how much she loved 
 
BEFLAH. 313 
 
 this home of her early childhood, and large drops dimmed her 
 eyes as she passed along the walks where she had so often wan- 
 dered. The carriage approached the house, and she saw her 
 quondam guardian standing before the door. He was bare- 
 headed, and the sunshine fell like a halo upon his brown, 
 clustering hair, threading it with gold. He held, in one hand, 
 a small basket of grain, from which he fed a flock of hungry 
 pigeons. On every side they gathered about him blue and 
 white, brown and mottled some fluttering down from the roof 
 of the house; two or three, quite tame, perched on his arm, eat- 
 ing from the basket; and one, of uncommon beauty, sat on his 
 shoulder, cooing softly. By his side stood Charon, looking 
 gravely on, as if he, wise soul, thought this familiarity signally 
 impudent It was a singularly quiet, peaceful scene, which 
 indelibly daguerreotyped itself on Beulah's memory. As the 
 carriage whirled round the circle, and drew up at the door, the 
 startled flock wheeled off; and brushing the grain from his 
 hands, Dr. Hartwell advanced to assist his sister. Pauline 
 sprang out first, exclaiming: 
 
 " You abominable heathen ! Why didn't you come to church ? 
 Even Dr. Asbury was out." 
 
 " Guy, you missed an admirable sermon," chimed in Mrs. 
 Lockhart. 
 
 He was disengaging the fringe of Pauline's shawl, which 
 caught the button of his coat, and looking up as his sister spoke, 
 his eyes met Beulah's anxious gaze. She had wondered very 
 much how he would receive Ijher. His countenance expressed 
 neither surprise nor pleasure ; he merely held out his hand to 
 assist her, saying, in his usual grave manner : 
 
 " I am glad to see you, Beulah." 
 
 She looked up in his face for some trace of the old kindness, 
 but the rare, fascinating smile and protective tenderness had 
 utterly vanished. He returned her look with a calmly indifferent 
 glance, which pained her more than any amount of sternness 
 could have done. She snatched her hand from his, and, missing 
 
 14 
 
314: BEULAH. 
 
 the carriage-step, would have fallen, but he caught and placed 
 her safely on the ground, saying coolly : 
 
 " Take care ; you are awkward." 
 
 She followed Pauline up the steps, wishing herself at home in 
 her little room. But her companion's gay chat diverted her 
 mind, and she only remembered how very beautiful was the face 
 she looked on. 
 
 They stood together before a mirror, smoothing their hair, and 
 Beulah could not avoid contrasting the images reflected. One 
 was prematurely grave and thoughtful in its expression the 
 other, radiant with happy hopes. Pauline surmised what was 
 passing in her friend's mind, and said merrily : 
 
 " For shame, Beulah ! to envy '"me my poor estate of good 
 looks 1 Why, I am all nose and eyes, curls, red lips and cheeks; 
 but you have an additional amount of brains to balance my 
 gifts. Once I heard Uncle Guy say that you had more intellect 
 than all the other women and children in the town ! Corne, 
 Mr. Lockhart wants to see you very much." 
 
 She ran down the steps as heedlessly as in her childhood, and 
 Beulah followed her more leisurely. In the study they found the 
 remainder of the party ; Mr. Lockhart was wrapt in a heavy 
 dressing-gown, and reclined on the sofa. He welcomed Beulah 
 very warmly, keeping her hand in his, and making her sit down 
 near him. He was emaciated, and a hacking cough prevented 
 his taking any active part in the conversation. One glance at 
 his sad face sufficed to show her that his days on earth were 
 numbered, and the expression witif 'which he regarded his wife 
 told all the painful tale of an unhpppy. marriage. She was dis- 
 cussing the sermon, and declaring herself highly gratified at the 
 impression which Mr. Mortimor had evidently made on his large 
 and fashionable congregation. Dr. Hartwell stood on the hearth, 
 listening in silence to his sister's remarks. The Atlantic might 
 have rolled between them, for any interest he evinced in the 
 subject. Pauline was restless and excited ; finally she crossed 
 the room, stood close to her uncle, and carelessly fingering his 
 
BEULAH. 315 
 
 watch-chain, said earnestly : " Uncle Guy, what did Ernest 
 mean, this morning, by a ' Fourieristic-phalanx ?' " 
 
 " A land where learned men are captivated by blue eyes and 
 rosy lips," answered the doctor, looking down into her sparkling 
 face. 
 
 As they stood together, Beulah remarked how very much 
 Pauline resembled him. True, he was pale, and she was a very 
 Hebe, but the dazzling transparency of the complexion was the 
 same ; the silky nut-brown hair the same, and the classical chisel- 
 ling of mouth and nose identical. Her eyes were " deeply, 
 darkly," matchlessly blue, and his were hazel ; her features were 
 quivering with youthful joyousness and enthusiasm, his might 
 have been carved in ivory, they seemed so inflexible, still they 
 were alike. Pauline did not exactly relish the tone of his reply, 
 and said hastily : 
 
 " Uncle Guy, I wish you would not treat me as if I were an 
 idiot ; or what is not much better, a two-year old child ! How 
 am I ever to learn any sense ?" 
 
 " Indeed, I have no idea," said he, passing his soft hand over 
 her glossy curls. 
 
 " You are very provoking ! Do you want Ernest to think me 
 a fool ?" 
 
 " Have you waked to a consciousness of that danger ?" 
 "Yes, and I want you to teach me something. Come, tell me 
 what that thing is I asked you about." 
 " Tell you what ?" 
 
 " Why, what a a ' Fourieristic-phalanx ' is ?" said she, earn- 
 estly, f 
 
 Beulah could not avoid smiling, and wondered how he man- 
 aged to look so very serious, as he repjied : 
 
 " I know very little about the tactics of Fourieristic-phalanxes, 
 but believe a phalange is a community or association of about 
 eighteen hundred persons, who were supposed or intended to 
 practise the Fourieristic doctrines. In fine, a phalange is a sort 
 of French Utopia." 
 
316 BEULAH. 
 
 " And wherv) is that, sir ?" asked Pauline, innocently, without 
 taking her eyes from his face. 
 
 11 Utopia is situated in No-country, and its chief city is on the 
 banks of the river Waterless." 
 
 " Oh, Uncle Guy ! how can you quiz me so unmercifully, when 
 I ask you to explain things to me ?" 
 
 "Why, Pauline, I am answering your questions correctly. 
 Sir Thomas More professed to describe Utopia, which means No- 
 place, and mentions a river Waterless. Don't look so despe- 
 rately lofty. I will show you the book, if you are so incorrigibly 
 stupid." He passed his arm round her, as he spoke, and kept 
 her close beside him. 
 
 " Mr. Lockhart, is he telling the truth ?" cried she, incredu- 
 lously. 
 
 " Certainly he is," answered her step-father, smiling. 
 
 " Oh, I don't believe either of you ! You two think that I 
 am simple enough to believe any absurdity you choose to tell me. 
 Beulah, what is Utopia ?" 
 
 " Just what your uncle told you".- More used Greek words 
 whicfe signified nothing, in order"' to veil the satire." 
 
 " Oh, a satire I Now, what is the reason you could not say it 
 was a satire, you wiseacre ?" 
 
 " Because I gave you credit for some penetration, and at least 
 common sense." . 
 
 " Both of which I have proved myself devoid of, I suppose ? 
 Thank you." She threw befj^rms round his neck, kissed him 
 once or twice, and laughingly added : " Come, now, Uncle Guy, 
 tell me what these ' phalaAes/ as you call them, have to do 
 with Ernest's text ?" 
 
 " I really cannot inform you. There is the dinner-bell." 
 Unclasping her arms, he led the way to the dining-room. 
 
 Later in the afternoon, Mr. Lockhart retired to his own room; 
 his wife fell asleep on the sofa, and Beulah and Pauline sat at 
 the parlor window, discussing the various occurrences of their 
 long separation* Pauline talked of her future how bright it 
 
BEULA11. 317 
 
 was ; how very much she and Ernest bved each other, and how 
 busy she would be when she had a home of her own. She sup- 
 posed she would be obliged to give up dancing ; she had an 
 indistinct idea that preachers' wives were not in the habit of 
 indulging in any such amusements, and as for the theatre and 
 opera, she rather doubted whether either were to be found in 
 the inland town where she was to reside. Uncle Guy wished to 
 furnish the parsonage, and, among other things, had ordered an 
 elegant piano for her ; she intended to practise a great deal, 
 because Ernest was so fond of music. Uncle Guy had a hateful 
 habit of lecturing her about "domestic affairs," but she imagined 
 the cook would understand her own business ; and if Mr. Morti- 
 mor supposed she was going to play housemaid, why, she would 
 very soon undeceive him. Beulah was much amused at the 
 child-like simplicity with which she discussed her future, and 
 began to think the whole affair rather ludicrous, when Pauline 
 started, and exclaimed, as the blood dyed her cheeks : 
 
 " There is Ernest coming up the walk 1" 
 
 He came in, and greeted her with gentle gravity. He was a 
 dignified, fine-looking man, with polished manners, and perfect 
 self-possession. There was no trace of austerity in his counte- 
 nance, and nothing in his conversation betokening a desire to 
 impress strangers with his ministerial dignity. He was highly 
 cultivated in all his tastes, agreeable, and, in fine, a Christian 
 gentleman. Pauline seemed to consider his remarks oracular, 
 and Beulah could not forbear contrasting her quietness in his 
 presence, with the wild, frolicsome recklessness which character- 
 ized her manner on other occasion^ She wondered what singu- 
 lar freak induced this staid, learned clergyman to select a 
 companion so absolutely antagonistic in every element of charac- 
 ter. But a glance at Pauline's perfectly beautiful face explained 
 the mystery. How could any one help loving her, she was so 
 radiant and so winning in her unaffected artlessness. Beulah 
 conjectured that they might, perhaps, entertain each other with- 
 out her assistance, and soon left them for the greenhouse, which 
 
318 BEULAH. 
 
 was connected with the parlors by a glass door. Followed by 
 Charon, who had remained beside her all day, she walked slowly 
 between the rows of plants, many of which were laden with 
 flowers. Brilliant clusters of scarlet geranium, pale, fragrant 
 heliotropes, and camellias of every hue surrounded her. Two or 
 three canary birds, in richly ornate cages, chirped and twittered 
 continually, and for a moment she forgot the changes that had 
 taken place since the days when she sought this favorite green- 
 house to study her text-books. Near her stood an antique china 
 vase containing a rare creeper, now full of beautiful, star-shaped 
 lilac flowers. Many months before, her guardian had given her 
 this root, and she had planted it in this same vase ; now the 
 long, graceful wreaths were looped carefully back, and tied to a 
 slender stake. She bent over the fragrant blossoms, with a 
 heart brimful of memories, and tears dropped thick and fast on 
 the delicate petals. Charon gave a short bark of satisfaction, 
 and raising her head, she saw Dr. Hartwell at the opposite end 
 of the greenhouse. He was clipping the withered flowers from 
 a luxuriant white japonica, the same that once furnished orna- 
 ments for her hair. Evidently, he was rather surprised to see 
 her there, but continued clipping the faded blossoms, and whis- 
 tled to his dog. Charon acknowledged the invitation by 
 another bark, but nestled his great head against Beulah, and 
 stood quite still, while she passed her hand caressingly over him. 
 She fancied a smile crossed her guardian's lips, but when he 
 turned toward her, there was no trace of it, and he merely 
 
 " Where is Pauline ?" 
 
 " In the parlor, with Mr. Mortimor." 
 
 " Here are the scissors ; cut as many flowers as you like." 
 
 He held out the scissors, but she shook her'head, and answered, 
 hastily : 
 
 " Thank you, I do not want any." 
 
 He looked at her searchingly, and observing unshed tears in 
 her eyes said, in a kinder tone than he had yet employed : 
 
BEULA.H. 319 
 
 " Beulah, what do you want ?" 
 
 " Something that I almost despair of obtaining." 
 
 " Child, you are wasting your strength and energies in a fruit- 
 less undertaking. Already you have grown thin and hollow- 
 eyed ; your accustomed contented, cheerful spirit, is deserting 
 you. Your self-appointed task is a hopeless one ; utterly hope- 
 less !" 
 
 " I will not believe it/ 7 said she, firmly. 
 
 11 Very well ; some day you will be convinced that you are 
 not infallible." He smiled grimly, and busied himself with his 
 flowers. 
 
 " Sir, you could help me, if you would." She clasped her 
 hands over his arm, and fixed her eyes on his countenance, with 
 all the confidence and dependence of other days. 
 
 " Did I ever refuse you anything you asked ?" said he, looking 
 down at the little hands on his arm, and at the pale, anxious 
 face, with its deep, troubled eyes. 
 
 " No ! and it is precisely for that reason that I ask assistance 
 from you now." 
 
 " I suppose you are reduced to the last necessity. What has 
 become of your pride, Beulah ?" 
 
 " It is all here, in my heart, sir ! thundering to me to walk 
 out and leave you, since you are so unlike yourself." 
 
 He looked stern, and indescribably sad. She glanced up an 
 instant at his fascinating eyes, and then laying her head down on 
 his arm, as she used to do in childhood, said, resolutely : 
 
 " Oh, sir ! you must aid me. Whom have I to advise me but 
 you r 
 
 \ " My advice has about as much weight with you as Charon's 
 would, could he utter it. I am an admirable counsellor, only so 
 long as my opinions harmonize with the dictates of your own 
 will. How am I to aid you? I went, at twelve o'clock last 
 night, to see a dying man, and passing along the street, saw a 
 light burning from your window. Two hours later, as I returned, 
 it glimmered there still. Why were you up ? Beulah, what is 
 
320 B E U L A H . 
 
 the matter with you ? Has your last treatise on the ' Origin of 
 Ideas ' run away with those of its author, and landed you both 
 in a region of vagaries ? Remember, I. warned you." 
 
 " Something worse, sir." 
 
 " Perhaps German metaphysics have stranded you on the 
 bleak, bald cliffs of Pyrrhonism ?" 
 
 *' Sir, it seems to me there is a great deal of unmerited odium 
 laid upon the innocent shoulders of German metaphysics. People 
 declaim against the science of metaphysics, as if it were the 
 disease itself, whereas it is the remedy. Metaphysics do not 
 originate the trouble ; their very existence proves the priority 
 of the disease which they attempt to relieve " 
 
 " Decidedly a homeopathic remedy," interrupted her guar- 
 dian, smiling. 
 
 "But, sir, the questions which disturb my mind are older than 
 my acquaintance with so-called philosophic works. They have 
 troubled me from my childhood." 
 
 " Nevertheless, I warned you not to explore my library," said 
 he, with a touch of sorrow in his voice. 
 
 " How, then, can you habitually read books which you are 
 unwilling to put into my hands ?" 
 
 "To me all creeds and systems are alike null. With you, 
 Beulah, it was once very different." 
 
 " Once ! yes, once !" She shuddered at the wild waste into 
 which she had strayed. 
 
 " What are the questions that have so long disturbed you ?" 
 
 " Questions, sir, which, all my life, have been printed on even- 
 ing sun-flushed clouds, on rosy sea shells, on pale, sweet, delicate 
 blossoms, and which *I have unavailingly sought to answer for 
 myself. There are mysteries in physics, morals and metaphy- 
 sics, that have wooed me on to an investigation ; but the further 
 I wander, deeper grows the darkness. Alone, and unaided, I 
 have been forced to brave these doubts ; I have studied, and 
 read, and thought. Cloudy symbolisms* mock me on every side ; 
 and the more earnestly I strive to overtake truth, the tighter 
 
BEULAH. 321 
 
 grow my g'yvcs. Now, sir, you are much older ; you have scaled 
 the dizzy heights of science, and carefully explored the mines of 
 philosophy ; and if human learning will avail, then you can help 
 me. It is impossible for you to have lived and studied so long, 
 without arriving at some conclusion relative to these vexing 
 questions of this and every other age. I want to know whether 
 I have ever lived before ; whether there is not an anterior life of 
 my soul, of which I get occasional glimpses, and the memory of 
 which haunts and disquiets me. This doubt has not been engen- 
 dered by casual allusions to Plato's 'reminiscence theory;' 
 before I knew there was such a doctrine in existence, I have 
 sat by your study fire, pondering some strange coincidences, for 
 which I could not account. It seemed an indistinct outgoing 
 into the far past ; a dim recollection of scenes and ideas, older 
 than the aggregate of my birth-days : now a flickering light, 
 then all darkness ; no clew ; all shrouded in the mystery of 
 voiceless ages. I tried to explain these psychological phenomena 
 by the theory of association of ideas, but they eluded an analy- 
 sis ; there was no chain along which memory can pass. They 
 were like ignes fatui, flashing up from dank caverns, and dying 
 out while I looked upon them. As I grew older, I found strange 
 confirmation in those curious passages of Coleridge and Words- 
 worth,* and continually I propound to my soul these questions : 
 ' If you are immortal, and will exist through endless ages, have 
 you not existed from the beginning of time ? Immortality knows 
 neither commencement nor ending. If so, whither shall I go, 
 when this material frame-work is dissolved, to make other frame- 
 works, to a final rest ? or shall the I, the me, the soul, lose its 
 former identity ? Am I a minute constituent of the all-diffused, 
 all-pervading Spirit, a breath of the Infinite Essence, one day to 
 be divested of my individuality ? or is God an awful, gigantic, 
 immutable, isolated Personality ? If so, what medium of com- 
 
 * Coleridge's " Sonnet on the birth of a son." Wordsworth's " Ode- 
 Intimations of Immortality." 
 
 U* 
 
322 B E U L A H . 
 
 municatiou is afforded ? Can the spiritual commune with mat- 
 ter ? Can the material take cognizance of the purely spiritual 
 and divine V Oh, sir ! I know that you do not accept the holy 
 men of Galilee as His deputed oracles. Tell me where you find 
 surer prophets ! Only show me the truth the eternal truth, 
 and I would give my life for it I Sir, how can you smile at such 
 questions as these ; questions involving the soul's destiny ? One 
 might fancy you a second Parrhasius." 
 
 She drew back a step or two, and regarded him anxiously, 
 nay, pleadingly, as though he held the key to the Temple of 
 Truth, and would not suffer her to pass the portal. A sarcastic 
 smile lighted his Apollo-like face, as he answered : 
 
 "There is more truth in your metaphor than you imagined ; 
 a la Parrhasius, I do see you, a tortured Prometheus, chained 
 by links of your own forging to the Caucasus of Atheism. But 
 listen to " 
 
 " No, no ; not that ! not Atheism ! God save me from that 
 deepest, blackest gulf 1" She shuddered, and covered her face 
 with her hands. 
 
 " Beulah, you alone must settle these questions with your own 
 soul ; my solutions would not satisfy you. For thousands of 
 years they have been propounded, and yet no answer comes 
 down on the ' cloudy wings of centuries.' Each must solve to 
 suit his or her peculiar conformation of mind. My child, if I 
 could aid you, Would gladly do so ; but I am no Swedenborg, 
 to whom the arcana of the universe have been revealed." 
 
 " Still, after a fashion, you have solved these problems ; may 
 I not know what your faith is ?" said she, earnestly. 
 
 " Child, I have no faith ! I know that I exist ; that a beau- 
 tiful universe surrounds me, and I am conscious of -a multitude 
 of conflicting emotions ; but, like Launcelot Smith, I doubt 
 whether I am ' to pick and choose myself out of myself.' Further 
 than this, I would assure you of nothing. I stand on the ever- 
 lasting basis of all skepticism, ' there is no criterion of truth I ; 
 All must be but subjectively, relatively true " 
 
B E U L A II . 323 
 
 " Sir, tliis may be so as regards psychological abstractions ; 
 but can you be contented with this utter negation of the grand 
 problems of ontology ?" 
 
 " A profound philosophic writer of the age intimates that the 
 various psychological systems which have so long vexed the 
 world, are but veiled ontologic speculations. What matters the 
 machinery of ideas, but as enabling philosophy to cope success- 
 fully with ontology ? Philosophy is a huge wheel, which has 
 been revolving for ages ; early metaphysicians hung their finely- 
 spun webs on its spokes, and metaphysicians of the nineteenth 
 century gaze upon and renew the same pretty theories as the 
 wheel revolves. The history of philosophy shows but a repro- 
 duction of old systems and methods of inquiry. Beulah, no mine 
 of ontologic truth has been discovered. Conscious of this, our 
 seers tell us there is nothing now but 'eclecticism !' Ontology is 
 old as human nature, yet the stone of Sisyphus continues to roll 
 back upon the laboring few who-strive to impel it upward. Oh, 
 child, do you not see how matters stand ? Why, how can the 
 finite soul cope with Infinite Being ? This is one form the 
 other, if we can take cognizance of the Eternal and Self-Existing 
 Being, underlying all phenomena, why, then, we are part and 
 parcel of that Infinity. Pantheism or utter skepticism there is 
 no retreat." 
 
 " I don't want to believe that, sir. I will not believe it. 
 What was my reason given to me for ? Was this spirit of inquiry 
 after truth only awakened in my soul to mock me with a sense 
 of my nothingness ? Why did my Maker imbue me with an in- 
 satiable thirst for knowledge ? Knowledge of the deep things 
 of philosophy, the hidden wonders of the universe, the awful 
 mysteries of the shadowy spirit realm ? Oh, there are analogies 
 pervading all departments ! There is physical hunger to goad 
 to exertions which will satisfy its demands, and most tonics are 
 bitter ; so, bitter struggles develop and strengthen the soul, even 
 as hard study invigorates the mind, and mmerous sorrows chasten 
 the heart. There is truth for the earne t seeker somewhere 
 
324 B K U L A H . 
 
 somewhere 1 If I live a tliousand years, I will toil after it 
 till I find it. If, as you believe, death is annihilation, then will 
 I make the most of my soul while I have it. Oh, sir, what is life 
 for ? Merely to eat and drink, to sleep and to be clothed ? Is 
 it to be only a constant effort to keep soul and body together ? 
 If I thought so, I would rather go back to nothingness this day 
 this hour ! No, no. My name bids me press on ; there is a 
 land of Beulah somewhere for my troubled spirit. Oh, I will go 
 back to my humble home, and study on, unguided, unassisted 
 even as I have begun. I cannot rest on your rock of negation." 
 
 She could not control her trembling voice, and tears of bitter 
 disappointment fell over her pale, fixed features. A melancholy 
 smile parted Dr. Hart well's lips, and smoothing the bands of 
 rippling hair which lay on her white brow, he answered in his 
 own thrilling, musical accents : 
 
 " Child, you are wasting your energies in vain endeavors to 
 build up walls of foam, that " 
 
 " Sir, I am no longer. a child ! I am a woman, and" 
 
 " Yes, my little Beulah, and your woman's heart will not be 
 satisfied long with these dim abstractions, which now you chase 
 so eagerly. Mark me, there surely comes a time when you will 
 loathe the bare name of metaphysics. You are making a very 
 hot-bed of your intellect, while your heart is daily becoming a 
 dreary desert. Take care, lest the starvation be so complete, 
 that eventually you will be unable to reclaim it. Dialectics 
 answer very well in collegiate halls, but will not content you. 
 Remember ' Argemone.' n 
 
 " She is a miserable libel on woman's nature and intellect. I 
 scorn the attempted parallel 1" answered Beulah, indignantly. 
 
 " Very well ; mark me though, your intellectual pride will yet 
 wreck your happiness." 
 
 He walked out of the greenhouse, whistling to Charon, who 
 bounded after him. Beulah saw from the slanting sunlight that 
 the afternoon was far advanced, and feeling in no mood to listen 
 to Pauline's nonsense, she found her bonnet and shawl, and 
 
BKULAH. 325 
 
 repaired to the parlor to say good bye to the happ pair, who 
 seemed unconscious of her long absence. As she left the house, 
 the window of the study was thrown open, and Dr. Hartwell 
 called out, carelessly : 
 
 " Wait, and let me order the carriage." 
 
 " No, thank you." 
 
 " I am going into town directly, and can take you home in 
 the buggy." 
 
 " I will not trouble you ; I prefer walking. Good bye." 
 
 He bowed coldly, and she hurried away, glad to reach the gate, 
 and feel that she was once more free from his searching glance, 
 and beyond the sound of his reserved, chilling tones. As she 
 walked on, groups of happy parents and children were seen in 
 every direction, taking their quiet Sabbath ramble through the 
 suburbs ; and as joyous voices and innocent laughter fell upon 
 the still air, she remembered with keen sorrow that she had no 
 ties, no kindred, no companions. Lilly's cherub face looked out 
 at her from the sombre frame of the past, and Eugene's early 
 friendship, seemed now a taunting spectre. In her warm, loving 
 heart were unfathomable depths of intense tenderness ; was it 
 the wise providence of God which sealed these wells of affection, 
 or was it a grim, merciless fate which snatched her idols from 
 her, one by one, and left her heart desolate ? Such an inquiry 
 darted through her mind, but she put it resolutely aside, and 
 consoled herself much after this fashion : " Why should I ques- 
 tion the circumstances of my life ? If the God of Moses guards 
 his creation, all things are well. If not, life is a lottery, and 
 though I have drawn blankfcms far, the future may contain a 
 prize, and for me that prize may be the truth my soul pants 
 after. I have no right to complain ; the very loneliness of my 
 position fits me peculiarly for the work I have to do. I will 
 labor, and be content." The cloud passed swiftly from her 
 countenance, and she looked up to the quiet sky with a brave, 
 hopeful heart. 
 
326 BEULAH. 
 
 CHAPTER XXV. 
 
 AMONG the number of gentlemen whom Beulah occasionally 
 met at Dr. Asbury's house, were two whose frequent visits and 
 general demeanor induced the impression that they were more 
 than ordinarily interested in the sisters. Frederick Vincent 
 evinced a marked preference for Georgia, while Horace Maxwell 
 was conspicuously attentive to Helen. The former was wealthy, 
 handsome, indolent, and self-indulgent ; the latter rather supe- 
 rior, as to business habits, which a limited purse peremptorily 
 demanded. Doubtless both would have passed as men of 
 medium capacity, but certainly as nothing more. In fine, they 
 were (air samples, perfect types of the numerous class of fashion- 
 able young men who throng all large cities. Good-looking, vain, 
 impudent, heartless, frivolous, and dissipated ; adepts at the 
 gaming-table and pistol gallery, ciphers in an intelligent, refined 
 assembly. They smoked the choicest cigars, drank the most 
 costly wines, drove the fastest horses, and were indispensable at 
 champagne and oyster suppers. They danced and swore, visited 
 and drank, with reckless indifference to every purer and nobler 
 aim. Notwithstanding manners of. incorrigible effrontery which 
 characterized their clique, the ladiel ^always received them with 
 marked expressions of pleasure, aid the entree of the "first 
 circle " was certainly theirs. Dr. ws*bury knew comparatively 
 little of the young men who visited so constantly at his house, 
 but of the two under discussion he chanced to know, that they 
 were by no means models of sobriety, having met them late one 
 night as they supported each other's tottering forms homeward, 
 after a card and wine party, which ended rather disastrously 
 for both. He openly avowed his discontent at the intimacy 
 their frequent visits induced, and wondered how his daughters 
 
BEULAH. 327 
 
 could patiently indulge in the heartless chit-chat which alone 
 could entertain them. But he was a fond, almost doting father, 
 and seemed to take it for granted, that they were mere dancing 
 acquaintances, whose society must be endured. Mrs. Asbury 
 was not so blind, and discovered, with keen sorrow and dismay, 
 that Georgia was far more partial to Vincent than she had 
 dreamed possible. The mother's heart ached with dread, lest 
 her child's affections were really enlisted, and without her hus- 
 band's knowledge she passed many hours of bitter reflection, as 
 to the best course she should pursue to arrest Vincent's inti- 
 macy at the house. Only a woman knows woman's heart, and 
 she felt that Georgia's destiny would be decided by the 
 measures she now employed. Ridicule, invective, and even 
 remonstrance, she knew would only augment her interest in 
 one whom she considered unjustly dealt with. She was 
 thoroughly acquainted with the obstinacy which formed the 
 stamen of Georgia's character, and very cautiously the mater- 
 nal guidance must be given. She began by gravely regretting 
 the familiar footing Mr. Vincent had acquired in her family, and 
 urged upon Georgia and Helen the propriety of discouraging 
 attentions that justified the world in joining their names. This 
 had very little effect. She was conscious that because of his 
 wealth, Vincent was courted and flattered by the most select and 
 fashionable of her circle of acquaintances, and knew, alas 1 that 
 he was not more astray than the majority of the class of young 
 men to which he belonged. With a keen pang, she saw that 
 her child shrank from her, evaded her kind questions, and seemed 
 to plunge into the festivities of the season with unwonted zest. 
 From their birth, she had trained her daughters to confide unre- 
 servedly in her, and now to perceive the youngest avoiding her 
 caresses, or hurrying away from her anxious glance, was bitter 
 indeed. How her pure-hearted darling could tolerate the reck- 
 less, frivolous being, in whose society she seemed so well satisfied, 
 was a painful mystery; but the startling reality looked her in 
 the face, and she resolved, at every hazard, to save her from the 
 
328 BEULAH. 
 
 misery which was in store for Fred Vincent's wife. Beulah's 
 quick eye readily discerned the state of affairs relative to 
 Georgia and Vincent, and she could with difficulty restrain an 
 expression of the disgust a knowledge of his character inspired. 
 He was a brother of the Miss Vincent she had once seen at Dr. 
 Hartwell's, and probably this circumstance increased her dislike. 
 Vincent barely recognized her when they chanced to meet, and 
 of all his antipathies, hatred of Beulah predominated. He was 
 perfectly aware that she despised his weaknesses and detested 
 his immoralities ; and while he shrank from the steadfast grey 
 eyes, calm but contemptuous, he hated her heartily. 
 
 Cornelia Graham seemed for a time to have rallied all her 
 strength, and attended parties and kept her place at the opera, 
 with a regularity which argued a complete recovery. Antoinette 
 Dupres was admired and flattered ; the season was unusually 
 gay. What if Death had so lately held his awful assize in the 
 city ? Bereaved families wrapped their sable garments about 
 lonely hearts, and wept over the countless mounds in the ceme- 
 tery ; but the wine-cup and song and dance went their accus- 
 tomed rounds in fashionable quarters, and drink, dress and be 
 merry appeared the all-absorbing thought. Into this gaiety 
 Eugene Graham eagerly plunged ; night after night was spent 
 in one continued whirl ; day by day he wandered further astray, 
 and ere long his visits to Beulah ceased entirely. Antoinette 
 thoroughly understood the game she had to play, and easily and 
 rapidly he fell into the snare. To win her seemed his only wish, 
 and not even Cornelia's keenly searching eyes could check his 
 admiration and devotion. January had gone ; February drew 
 near its close ; Beulah had not seen Eugene for many days, and 
 felt more than usually anxious concerning him, for little inter- 
 course now existed between Cornelia and herself. One evening, 
 however, as she stood before a glass and arranged her hair with 
 more than ordinary care, she felt that she would soon have an 
 opportunity of judging whether reports were true. If he indeed 
 rushed along the highway to ruin, one glance would discover to 
 
B E U L A II . 329 
 
 ner the fact. Dr. Asbury wished to give Pauline Chilton a 
 party, and his own and Mrs. Asbury's kind persuasions induced 
 the orphan to consent to attend. The evening had arrived; 
 she put on her simple Swiss muslin dress, without a wish for any- 
 thing more costly, and entered the carriage her friends had sent 
 to convey her to the house. The guests rapidly assembled; 
 soon the rooms were thronged with merry people, whose moving 
 to and fro prevented regular conversation. The brilliant chan- 
 deliers flashed down on rich silks and satins, gossamer fabrics, 
 and diamonds which blazed dazzlingly. Pauline was superbly 
 beautiful. Excitement lighted her eyes, and flushed her cheeks, 
 until all paused to gaze at her transcendent loveliness. It was 
 generally known that ere many days her marriage would take 
 place, and people looked at her in her marvellous, queenly beauty, 
 and wondered what infatuation induced her to give her hand to 
 a minister, when she, of all others present, seemed made to 
 move in the gay scene where she reigned supreme. From a 
 quiet seat near the window Beulah watched her airy, graceful 
 form glide through the quadrille, and feared that in future years 
 she would sigh for the gaieties which in her destined lot would 
 be withheld from her. She tried to fancy the dazzling beauty 
 metamorphosed into the staid clergyman's wife, divested of satin 
 and diamonds, and visiting the squalid and suffering portion of 
 her husband's flock. But the contrast was too glaring, and she 
 turned her head to watch for Eugene's appearance. Before long 
 she saw him cross the room with Antoinette on his arm. The 
 quadrille had ended, and, as at the request of one of the guests, 
 the band played a brilliant mazurka, numerous couples took 
 their places on the floor. Beulah had never seen the mazurka 
 danced, in public ; she knew that neither Helen nor Georgia 
 ever danced the so-called " fancy dances," and was not a little 
 surprised when the gentlemen encircled the waists of their 
 partners and whirled away. Her eyes followed Eugene's tall 
 form, as the circuit of the parlors was rapidly made, and he 
 approached the corner where she sat. He held his lovely part- 
 
330 B E U L A H . 
 
 ner close to bis heart, and her head drooped very contentedly on 
 his shoulder. He was talking to her as they danced, and his 
 lips nearly touched her glowing cheek. On they came, so close 
 to Beulah that Antoinette's gauzy dress floated against her, and 
 as the music quickened, faster flew the dancers. Beulah looked 
 on with a sensation of disgust, which might have been easily read 
 in her countenance ; verily she blushed for her degraded sex, 
 and, sick of the scene, left the window and retreated to the library, 
 where the more sedate portion of the guests were discussing 
 various topics. Here were Mr. and Mrs. Grayson ; Claudia was 
 North, at school. Beulah found a seat near Mrs. Asbury, and 
 endeavored to banish the painful recollections which Mrs. Gray- 
 son's face recalled. They had not met since the memorable day 
 when the orphan first found a guardian, and she felt that there 
 was still an unconquerable aversion in her heart, which caused it 
 to throb heavily. She thought the time tediously long, and 
 when at last the signal for supper was given, felt relieved. As 
 usual, there was rushing and squeezing into the supper-room, and 
 waiting until the hall was comparatively deserted, she ran up to 
 the dressing-room for her shawl, tired of the crowd and anxious 
 to get home again. She remembered that she had dropped her 
 fan behind one of the sofas in the parlor, and as all were at sup- 
 per, fancied she could obtain it unobserved, and entered the room 
 for that purpose. A gentleman stood by the fire, but without 
 noticing him, she pushed the sofa aside, secured her fan, and 
 was turning away, when a well known voice startled her. 
 
 "Beulah, where are you going ?" 
 
 "Home, sir." 
 
 " What ! so soon tired ? 
 
 " Yes, heartily tired," said she, wrapping her shawl about her. 
 
 " Have you spoken to Eugene to-night ?" 
 
 " No." 
 
 Her guardian looked at her very intently, as if striving to read 
 her soul, and said slowly: 
 
 " Child, he and Antoinette are sitting in the front parlor. I 
 
BEULAII. 331 
 
 happened to overhear a remark as I passed them. He is an 
 accepted lover; they are engaged." 
 
 A quick shiver ran over Beulah's frame, and a dark frown 
 furrowed her pale brow, as she answered: 
 
 " I feared as much." 
 
 " Why should you fear, child ? She is a beautiful heiress, and 
 he loves her," returned Dr. Hartwell, without taking his eyes 
 from her lace. ' 
 
 "No; he thinks he loves her, but it is not so. He is fasci- 
 nated by her beauty, but I fear the day will come when, disco- 
 vering her true character, he will mourn his infatuation. I 
 know his nature, and I know, too, that she cannot make him 
 happy." She turned away, but he walked on with her to the 
 carriage, handed her in, and said "good night" as coldly as 
 usual. Meantime, the rattle of plates, jingle of forks and 
 spoons, in the supper-room, would have rendered all conversa- 
 tion impossible, had not the elevation of voices kept pace with 
 the noise and confusion. At one end of the table, Cornelia 
 Graham stood talking to a distinguished foreigner, who was 
 spending a few days in the city. He was a handsome man, with 
 fine colloquial powers, and seemed much interested in a discus- 
 sion which he and Cornelia carried on, relative to the society of 
 American cities as compared with European. A temporary lull 
 in the hum of voices allowed Cornelia to hear a remark made 
 by a gentleman quite near her. 
 
 " Miss Laura, who did you say that young lady was that Mrs. 
 Asbury introduced me to ? The one with such magnificent hair 
 and teeth ?" 
 
 His companion was no other than Laura Martin, whose 
 mother, having built an elegant house, and given several large 
 parties, was now a " fashionable," par excellence. Laura elevated 
 her nose very perceptibly, and answered : 
 
 " Oh, a mere nobody! Beulah Benton. I can't imagine how 
 she contrived to be invited here. She is a teacher in the public 
 school, I believe, but that is not the worst. She used to hire 
 
332 BEULAH. 
 
 herself out as a servant. Indeed, it is a fact, she was my little 
 brother's nurse some years ago. I think 'ma hired her for six 
 dollars a month." She laughed affectedly, and allowed her 
 escort to fill her plate with creams. 
 
 Cornelia grew white with anger, and the stranger asked, with 
 a smile, if he should consider this a sample of the society she 
 boasted of. Turning abruptly to Laura, she replied, with undis- 
 guised contempt: 
 
 "The Fates forbid, Mr. Falconer, that you should judge 
 American society from some of the specimens you may see here 
 to-night. Misfortune placed Miss Bentou, at an early age, in an 
 orphan asylum, and while quite young, she left it to earn a 
 support. Mrs. Martin (this young lady's mother), hired her as 
 a nurse; but she soon left this position, qualified herself to teach, 
 and now, with a fine intellect thoroughly cultivated, is the pride 
 of all who can appreciate true nobility of soul, and, of course, 
 an object of envy and detraction to her inferiors, especially to 
 some of our fashionable parvenus, whose self-interest prompts 
 them to make money alone the standard of worth, and who are 
 in the habit of determining the gentility of different persons by 
 what they have, not what they are." Her scornful glance rested 
 witheringly on Laura's face, and, mortified and enraged, tjie lat- 
 ter took her companion's arm, and moved away. 
 
 " I have some desire to become acquainted with one who 
 could deserve such eulogy from you," answered the foreigner, 
 somewhat amused at the course the conversation had taken, and 
 quite satisfied that Americans were accustomed to correct false 
 impressions in rather an abrupt manner. 
 
 " I will present you to her with great pleasure. Si so is not 
 here; we must search for her." She took his arm, and they 
 looked for Beulah from room to room; finally, Dr. Hartwell! 
 informed Cornelia that she had gone home, and tired, and out 
 of humor, the latter excused herself, and prepared to follow her 
 friend's example. Her father was deep in a game of whist, her 
 mother unwilling to return home so soon, and Eugene and 
 
B E U L A H . 333 
 
 Antoinette where were they ? Dr. Hartwell saw her perplexed 
 expression, and asked : 
 
 " Whom are you looking for ?" 
 
 " Eugene." 
 
 " lie is with your cousin on the west gallery. I will conduct 
 you to them, if you wish it." He offered his arm, and noticed 
 the scowl that instantly darkened her face. Unconsciously, her 
 fingers grasped his arm tightly, and she walked on with a lower- 
 ing brow. As they approached the end of the gallery, Cornelia 
 saw that the two she sought stood earnestly conversing. 
 Eugene's arm passed round Antoinette's waist. Dr. Hartwell 
 watched his Companion closely; the light from the window 
 gleamed over her face, and showed it grey and rigid. Her 
 white lips curled as she muttered : 
 
 " Let us take another turn before I speak to them." 
 
 " Surely, you are not surprised ?" 
 
 "Oh, no! lam not blind." 
 
 " It was an unlucky chance that threw your cousin in his 
 path," said the -doctor, composedly. 
 
 " Oh, it is merely another link in the chain of fatality which 
 binds my family to misfortune. She has all the family traits of 
 the Labords, and you know what they are," cried Cornelia. 
 
 He compressed his lips, and a lightning glance shot out from 
 his eyes, but he stilled the rising tempest, and replied coldly: 
 
 "Why, then, did you not warn him ?" 
 
 " Warn him 1 So I did. But I might as well grasp at the 
 stars yonder as hope to influence him in this infatuation." 
 
 Once more they approached the happy pair, and leaning for- 
 ward, Cornelia said, hoarsely : 
 
 " Eugene, my father is engaged ; come home with me." 
 
 He looked up, and answered carelessly : " Oh, you are leaving 
 too early ; can't you entertain yourself a little longer ?" 
 
 " No, sir." 
 
 Her freezing tone startled him, and for the first time he noticed 
 the haggard face, with its expression of angry scorn. Her eyes 
 
334: B E U L A II . 
 
 were fixed on Antoinette, who only smiled, and looked triumph- 
 antly defiant. 
 
 u Are you ill, Cornelia ? Of course, I will take you home if 
 you> really desire it. Doctor, I must consign Miss Dupres to your 
 care till I return." 
 
 Eugene by no means relished the expression of his sister's 
 countenance. She bade Dr. Hartwell adieu, passed her arm 
 through her brother's, and they proceeded to their carriage. 
 The ride was short and silent. On reaching home, Eugene con- 
 ducted Cornelia into the house, and was about to return, when 
 she said, imperiously : 
 
 " A word with you before you go." 
 
 She entered the sitting-room, threw her wrappings on a chair, 
 and began to divest herself of bracelets and necklace. Eugene 
 lighted a cigar, and stood waiting to hear what she might choose 
 to communicate. Fastening her brilliant black eyes on his face, 
 she said, sneeriugly : 
 
 " Eugene Graham, did you learn dissimulation in the halls of 
 Heidelberg ?" 
 
 " What do you mean, Cornelia ?" 
 
 " Where did you learn to deceive one who believed you pure 
 and truthful as an archangel ? Answer me that." Her whole face 
 was a glare of burning scorn. 
 
 " Insulting insinuations are unworthy of you, and beneath my 
 notice," he proudly replied. 
 
 "Well, then, take the more insulting truth ! What crawling 
 serpent of temptation induced you to tell me you expected to 
 marry Beulah ? No evasion ! I will not be put off ! Why 
 did you deceive me with a falsehood I was too stupidly trust- 
 ing to discover until recently ?" 
 
 " When I told you so, I expected to marry Beulah ; not so 
 much because I loved her, but because I supposed that she rather 
 considered me bound to her by early ties. I discovered, however, 
 that her happiness was not dependent on me, and therefore aban- 
 doned the idea." 
 
BEULAH. * 335 
 
 " And my peerless cousin is to be your bride, eh ?" 
 " Yes, she has promised me her hand at an early day." 
 " No doubt. You don't deserve anything better. Beulah 
 scorns you ; I see it in her eyes. Marry you ! You 1 Oh, 
 Eugene, she is too far superior to you. You are blind now ; but 
 the day will surely come when your charmer will, with her own 
 hand, tear the veil from your eyes, and you will curse your folly. 
 It is of no use to tell you that she is false, heartless, utterly un- 
 principled ; you will not believe it, of course, till you find out her 
 miserable defects yourself. I might thunder warnings in your 
 ears from now till doomsday, and you would not heed me. But 
 whether I live to see it or not, you will bitterly rue your infatu- 
 ation. You will blush for the name which, as your wife, Antoi- 
 nette will disgrace. Now leave me." 
 
 She pointed to the door, and too much incensed to reply, he 
 quitted the room with a suppressed oath, slamming the door 
 behind him. Cornelia went up to her own apartment, and, with- 
 out ringing for her maid, took off the elegant dress she wore, 
 and threw her dressing-gown round her. The diamond hair-pins 
 glowed like coals of fire in her black braids, mocking the grey, 
 bloodless face, and look of wretchedness. She took out the 
 jewels, laid them on her lap, and suffered the locks of hair to fall 
 upon her shoulders. Then great hot tears rolled over her face; 
 heavy sobs convulsed her frame, and bowing down her head, the 
 haughty heiress wept passionately. Eugene was the only being 
 she really loved ; for years her hopes and pride had centred in 
 him. Now, down the long vista of coming time, she looked and 
 saw him staggering on to ruin and disgrace. She knew her own 
 life would at best be short, and felt that now it had lost its only 
 interest, and she was ready to sink to her last rest, rather than 
 witness his future career. This was the first time she had wept 
 since the days of early childhood ; but she calmed the fearful 
 struggle in her heart, and, toward dawn, fell asleep, with a re- 
 pulsive sneer on her lips. The ensuing day she was forced to 
 listen to the complacent comments of her parents, who were well 
 
336 BEFLAH. 
 
 pleased with the alliance. Antoinette was to return home im- 
 mediately, the marriage would take place in June, and they 
 were all to spend the summer at the North ; after which it was 
 suggested that the young couple should reside with Mr. Graham. 
 Cornelia was standing apart, when her mother made this propo- 
 sition, and turning sharply toward the members of her family, 
 the daughter exclaimed : 
 
 " Never ! You all know that this match is utterly odious to 
 me. Let Eugene have a house of his own ; I have no mind to have 
 Antoinette longer in my home. Nay, father ; it will not be for 
 a great while. When I ain gone they can come ; I rather think 
 I shall not long be in their way. While I do live, let me be 
 quiet, will you ?" 
 
 Her burning, yet sunken eyes ran over the group. 
 
 Eugene sprang up, and left the room ; Antoinette put her 
 embroidered handkerchief to dry eyes ; Mrs. Graham looked dis- 
 tressed ; and her husband wiped his spectacles. But the mist 
 was in his eyes, and presently large drops fell over his cheeks as 
 he looked at the face and form of his only child. 
 
 Cornelia saw his emotion ; the great flood-gate of her heart 
 seemed suddenly lifted. She passed her white fingers over his 
 grey hair, and murmured brokenly : 
 
 " My father my father ! I have been a care and a sorrow to 
 you all my life ; I am very wayward and exacting, but bear with 
 your poor child ; my days are numbered. Father., when my 
 proud head lies low in the silent grave, then give others my 
 place." 
 
 He took her in his arms, and kisSed her hollow cheek, saying 
 tenderly : 
 
 " My darling, you break my heart. Have you ever been de- 
 nied a wish ? What is there that I can do to make you happy ?" 
 
 " Give Eugene a house of his own, and let me be at peace in 
 my home. Will you do this for me ?" 
 
 "Yes." 
 
 " Thank you, my father." 
 
BEULAH. 337 
 
 Disengaging his clasping arm,. she left them. 
 
 A few days after the party at her house, Mrs. Asbury returned 
 home from a visit to the Asylum (of which she had recently been 
 elected a manager). In passing the parlor door, she hoard sup- 
 pressed voices, looked in, and perceiving Mr. Vincent seated near 
 Georgia, retired, without speaking, to her own room. Securing 
 the door, she sank on her knees, and besought an all-wise God 
 to direct and aid her in her course of duty. The time had 
 arrived when she must hazard everything to save her child from 
 an ill-fated marriage ; and though the mother's heart bled, she 
 was firm in her resolve. When Mr. Vincent took leave, and 
 Georgia had returned to her room, Mrs. Asbury sought her. 
 She found her moody, and disposed to evade her questions. 
 Passing her arm round her, she said, very gently : 
 
 " My dear child, let there be perfect confidence between us. 
 Am I not more interested in your happiness than any one else ? 
 My child, what has estranged you of late ?" 
 
 Georgia made no reply. 
 
 " What, but my love for you, and anxiety for your happiness, 
 could induce me to object to your receiving Mr. Vincent's atten- 
 tions ?" 
 
 " You are prejudiced against him, and always were I" 
 
 " I judge the young man only from his conduct. You know 
 you are obliged to know, that he is recklessly dissipated, selfish 
 and immoral." 
 
 "He is no worse than other young men. I know very few 
 who are not quite as wild as he is. Beside, he has promised to 
 sign the temperance pledge, Jf I will marry him." 
 
 " My child, you pain me beyond expression. Does the depra- 
 vity which prevails here sanction Vincent's dissipation ? Oh, 
 Georgia, has association deprived you of horror of vice ? Can 
 you be satisfied because others are quite as degraded ? He does 
 not mean what he promises, it is merely to deceive you. His 
 intemperate habits are too confirmed to be remedied now ; he 
 began early, at college, and has constantly grown worse. 
 
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338 BEULAH. 
 
 ' You are prejudiced," persisted Georgia, unable to restrain 
 her tears. 
 
 " If I am, it is because of his profligacy ! Can you possibly 
 be attached to such a man ?" 
 
 Georgia sobbed, and cried heartily. Her good sense told her 
 that her mother was right, but it was difficult to relinquish the 
 hope of reforming him. As gently as possible, Mrs. Asbury 
 dwelt upon his utter worthlessness, and the misery and wretched- 
 ness which would surely ensue from such a union. With stream- 
 ing eyes, she implored her to banish the thought, assuring her 
 she would sooner see her in her grave, than the wife of a drunk- 
 ard. And now the care of years was to be rewarded ; her firm, 
 but gentle reasoning prevailed. Georgia had always reverenced 
 her mother ; she knew she was invariably guided by principle; 
 and now, as she listened to her earnest entreaties, all her obsti- 
 nacy melted away ; throwing herself into her mother's arms, she 
 begged her to forgive the pain and anxiety she had caused her. 
 Mrs. Asbury pressed her to her heart, and silently thanked God 
 for the success of her remonstrances. Of all this, Dr. Asbury 
 knew nothing. When Mr. Vincent called, the following day, 
 Georgia very decidedly rejected him. Understanding from her 
 manner, that she meant what she said, he became violently 
 enraged ; swore, with a solemn oath, that he would make her 
 repent her trifling, took his hat, and left the house. This suf- 
 ficed to remove any lingering tenderness from Georgia's heart; 
 and from that hour, Fred Vincent darkened the home circle no 
 more. 
 
BEULAH. 339 
 
 CHAPTER XXVI. 
 
 PAULINE'S wedding-day dawned clear and bright, meet for the 
 happy event it was to chronicle. The ceremony was to be per- 
 formed in church, at an early hour, to enable the newly married 
 pair to leave on the morning boat, and the building was crowded 
 with the numerous friends assembled to witness the rites. The 
 minister stood within the altar, and after some slight delay, Mr. 
 Mortimor led Pauline down the aisle. Dr. Hartwell and Mrs. 
 Lockhart stood near the altar. Mr. Lockhart's indisposition 
 prevented his attendance. Satin, blond and diamonds were dis- 
 carded ; Pauline was dressed in a grey travelling habit, and wore 
 a plain drab travelling bonnet. 
 
 It was a holy, a touching bridal. The morning sunshine, 
 stealing through the lofty, arched windows, fell on her pure brow 
 with dazzling radiance, and lent many a golden wave to the 
 silky, clustering curls. Pauline was marvellously beautiful ; the 
 violet eyes were dewy with emotion, and her ripe, coral lips, 
 wreathed with a smile of trembling joyousness. Perchance a 
 cursory observer might have fancied Mr. Mortimor's countenance 
 too grave and thoughtful for such an occasion ; but though the 
 mouth was at rest, and the dark, earnest eyes sparkled not, there 
 was a light of grateful, chastened gladness shed over the quiet 
 features. Only a few words were uttered by the clergyman, and 
 Pauline, the wild, wayward, careless, high-spirited girl, stood 
 there a wife. She grew deadly pale, and looked up with a feel- 
 ing of awe to him who was now, for all time, the master of her 
 destiny. The vows yet upon her lips bound her irrevocably to his 
 side, and imposed on her, as a solemn duty, the necessity of bear- 
 ing all trials for herself ; of smoothing away home cares from his 
 
340 B E U L A H . 
 
 path ; and, when her own heart was troubled, of putting by the 
 sorrow aud bitterness, and ever welcoming his coming with a 
 word of kindness, or a smile of joy. A wife ! She must be brave 
 enough to wrestle with difficulties for herself, instead of wearying 
 him with all the tedious details of domestic trials, and yet turn 
 to him for counsel and sympathy in matters of serious import. 
 No longer a mere self-willed girl, consulting only her own wishes 
 and tastes, she had given another the right to guide and control 
 her ; and now realizing, for the first time, the importance of the 
 step she had taken, she trembled in anticipation of the trouble 
 her wayward, obstinate will would cause her. But with her 
 wonted, buoyant spirit, she turned from all unpleasant reflections, 
 and received the congratulations of her friends with subdued 
 gaiety. Beulah stood at some distance, watching the April face, 
 checkered with smiles and tears ; and looking with prophetic 
 dread into the future, she saw how little genuine happiness could 
 result from a union of natures so entirely uncongenial. To her, 
 the nuptial rites were more awfully solemn than those of death; 
 for how infinitely preferable was a quiet resting-place in the 
 shadow of mourning cedars, to the life-long agony of an unhappy 
 union. She looked up at her quondam guardian, as he stood, 
 grave and silent, regarding his niece with sadly anxious eyes; 
 and as she noted the stern inflexibility of his sculptured mouth, 
 she thought that he stood there a marble monument, recording 
 the misery of an ill-assorted marriage. But it was school time, 
 and she approached to say " good bye," as the bridal pair took 
 their seats in the carriage. Pauline seemed much troubled at 
 bidding her adieu ; she wept silently a minute, then throwing 
 her arms around Beulah's neck, whispered pleadingly : 
 
 " Won't you go back to Uncle Guy ? Won't you let him 
 adopt you ? Do, please. See how grim and pale he looks. 
 Won't you ?" 
 
 "No. He has ceased to care about my welfare ; he is not 
 distressed about me, I assure you. Good bye. Write to me 
 often." 
 
B E U L A H . 341 
 
 "Yes, I will; and in vacation, Ernest says you are to come up 
 and spend at least a mouth with us. Do you hear ?" 
 
 The carriage was whirled away, and Bculah walked on to her 
 school room, with a dim foreboding that when she again met the 
 beautiful, warm-hearted girl, sunshine might be banished from 
 her face. Days, weeks and months passed by. How systematic 
 industry speeds the wheels of time. Beulah had little leisure, 
 and this was employed with the most rigid economy. School 
 duties occupied her until late in the day ; then she gave, every 
 afternoon, a couple of music lessons, and it was not until night 
 that she felt herself free. The editor of the magazine found that 
 her articles were worth remuneration, and consequently a monthly 
 contribution had to be copied, and sent in at stated intervals. 
 Thus engaged, spring glided into summer, and once more a June 
 sun beamed on the city. One Saturday she accompanied Clara 
 to a jewelry store to make some trifling purchase, and saw 
 Eugene Graham leaning over the counter, looking at some sets of 
 pearl and diamonds. He did not perceive her immediately, and 
 she had an opportunity of scanning his countenance unobserved. 
 Her lip trembled as she noticed the flushed face and inflamed 
 eyes, and saw that the hand which held a bracelet, was very 
 unsteady. He looked up, started and greeted her with evident 
 embarrassment. She waited until Clara had completed her 
 purchase, and then said, quietly : 
 
 " Eugene, are you going away without coming to see me ?" 
 
 " Why, no ; I had intended calling yesterday, but was pre- 
 vented, and I am obliged to leave this afternoon. By the way, 
 help me to select between these two pearl sets. I suppose you 
 can imagine their destination ?" 
 
 It was the first time he had alluded to his marriage, and she 
 answered with an arch smile : 
 
 " Oh, yes ! I dare say I might guess very accurately. It 
 would not require Yankee ingenuity ." 
 
 She examined the jewels, and after giving an opinion as to 
 their superiority, turned to go, saying : 
 
34:2 BEULAH. 
 
 " I want to see you a few moments before you leave the city. 
 I am going home immediately, and any time during the day, 
 when you can call, will answer." 
 
 He looked curious, glanced at his watch, pondered an instant, 
 and promised to call in an hour. 
 
 She bowed and returned home, with an almost intolerable 
 weight on her heart. She sat with her face buried in her hands, 
 collecting her thoughts, and when summoned to meet Eugene, 
 went down with a firm heart, but trembling frame. It was 
 more than probable that she would be misconstrued and wounded, 
 but she determined to hazard all, knowing how pure were the 
 motives that actuated her. He seemed restless and ill at ease, 
 yet curious withal, and after some trifling commonplace remarks, 
 Beulah seated herself on the sofa, beside him, and said : 
 
 " Eugene, why have you shunned me so pertinaciously since 
 your return from Europe ? w 
 
 " I have not shunned you, Beulah; you are mistaken. I have 
 been eugaged, and therefore could visit but little." 
 
 " Do not imagine that any such excuses blind me to the truth," 
 said she, with an impatient gesture. 
 
 " What do you mean ?" he answered, unable to bear the earn- 
 est, troubled look of the searching eyes. 
 
 " Oh, Eugene ! be honest be honest ! Say at once you 
 shunned me lest I should majk your altered habits in your altered 
 face. But I know it all, notwithstanding. It is no secret that 
 Eugeue Graham has more than once lent his presence to mid- 
 night carousals over the wine-cup. Once you were an example 
 of temperance and rectitude, but vice is fashionable, and patron- 
 ized iii this city, and your associates soon dragged you down 
 from your proud height to their degraded level. The circle in 
 which you move were not shocked at your fall. Ladies accus- 
 tomed to hear of drunken revels ceased to attach disgrace to 
 them, and you were welcomed and smiled upon, as though you 
 were all a man should be. Oh, Eugene ! I uudersiand why you 
 have carefully shunned one who has an unconquerable horror of 
 
BEIJLAH. 34:3 
 
 that degradation into which you have fallen. I am your friend; 
 your best and mo>t disinterested friend. What do your fashion- 
 "able acquaintances care that your moral character is impugned, 
 and your fair name tarnished ? Your dissipation keeps their 
 brothers and lovers in countenance ; your once noble, unsullied 
 nature would shame their depravity. Do you remember one 
 brig-lit, moonlight night, about six years ago, when we sat in 
 Mrs. Williams' room, at the Asylum, and talked of our future ? 
 Then, with a soul full of pure aspirations, you said : 'Beulah, I 
 have written 'Excelsior' on my banner, and I intend, like that 
 noble youth, to press forward over every obstacle, mounting at 
 every step, until I too stand on the highest pinnacle, and plant 
 my banner where its glorious motto shall float over the world !' 
 1 Excelsior !' Ah, my brother, that banner trails in the dust I 
 Alpine heights tower far behind you, dim in the distance, and 
 now with another motto ' Lower still ' you are rushing down 
 to an awful gulf. Oh, Eugene ! do you intend to go on to utter 
 ruin ? Do you intend to wreck happiness, health, and charac- 
 ter in the sea of reckless dissipation ? Do you intend to spend 
 your days in disgusting intoxication ? I would you had a mother, 
 whose prayers might save you, or a father, whose grey hairs you 
 dared not dishonor, or a sister to win you back from ruin. 
 Oh, that you and I had never, never left the sheltering walls of 
 the Asylum I" 
 
 She wept bitterly, and more moved than he chose to appear, 
 Eugene shaded his face with his fingers. Beulah placed her 
 hand on his shoulder, and continued, falteringly : 
 
 " Eugene, I am not afraid to tell you the unvarnished truth. 
 Yea may get angry, and think it is no business of mine to coun- 
 sel you, who are older and master of your own fate ; but when 
 we were children I talked to you freely, and why should I not 
 now ? True friendship strengthens with years, and shall I hesi- 
 tate to speak to you of what gives me so much pain ? In a very 
 few days you are to be married; Eugene, if the wine-cup is 
 dearer to you than your beautiful bride, what prospect of happi- 
 
34A BEULAH. 
 
 ness have either of ycu ? I had hoped her influence would deter 
 you from it, at least during her visit here; but if not then, how 
 can her presence avail in future ? Oh, for heaven's sake 1 for 
 Antoinette's, for your own, quit the ranks of ruin you are in, 
 and come back to temperance and honor. You are bowing 
 down Cornelia's proud head in humiliation and sorrow. Oh, 
 Eugene, have mercy on yourself 1" 
 
 He tried to look haughty and insulted, but it would not 
 answer. Her pale face, full of earnest, tearful entreaty, touched 
 his heart, not altogether indurated by profligate associations. 
 He knew she had not given an exaggerated account ; he had 
 imagined that she would not hear of his revels, but certainly she 
 told only the truth. Yet he resolved not to admit the charge, 
 and shaking off her hand, answered proudly: 
 
 " If I am the degraded character you flatteringly pronounce 
 me, it should certainly render my society anything but agreeable 
 to your fastidious taste. I shall not soon forget your unmerited 
 insults." He rose as he spoke. 
 
 " You are angry now, Eugene, because I have held up your 
 own portrait for your inspection. You are piqued because I tell 
 you the truth. But when all this has subsided, and you think 
 the matter calmly over, you will be forced to acknowledge that 
 only the purest friendship could prompt me to remonstrate with 
 you on your ruinous career. Of course, if you choose, you can 
 soon wreck yourself ; you are your own master, but the infatua- 
 tion will recoil upon you. Your disgrace and ruin will not affect 
 me, save that, as your friend, I should mourn your fall. Ah, 
 Eugene, I have risked your displeasure I have proved my 
 friendship !" 
 
 He took his hat and turned toward the door, but she placed 
 herself before it, and holding out both hands, exclaimed sorrow- 
 fully : 
 
 " Do not let us part in anger ! I am an orphan without rela- 
 tives or protectors, and from early years you have been a kind 
 brother. At least, let us part as friends. I know that in future 
 
B E U L A H . 345 
 
 we shall be completely alienated, bat your friend Beulah will 
 always rejoice to hear of your welfare and happiness ; and if her 
 warning words, kindly meant, have no effect, and she hears, with 
 keen regret, of your final ruin, she at least will feel that she 
 honestly and anxiously did all in her power to save you. Good 
 bye. Shake hands, Eugene, and bear with you to the altar my 
 sincere wishes for your happiness." 
 
 She held out her hands entreatingly, but he took no notice of 
 the movement, and hurrying by, left the house. For a moment 
 Beulah bowed her head and sobbed ; then she brushed the tears 
 from her cheek, and the black brows met in a heavy frown. 
 True, she had not expected much else, yet she felt bitterly 
 grieved, and it was many months ere she ceased to remember 
 the pain of this interview ; notwithstanding the contempt, she 
 could not avoid feeling for his weakness. 
 
 The Grahams all accompanied Eugene, and after the marriage, 
 went North for the summer. A handsome house was erected 
 near Mr. Graham's residence, and in the fall the young people 
 were to take possession of it. Mr. Lockhart rallied sufficiently 
 to be removed to his home " up the country," and, save Dr. 
 Asbury's family, Beulah saw no one but Clara and her pupils. 
 With July came the close of the session, and the young teacher 
 was free again. One afternoon, she put on her bonnet and 
 walked to a distant section of the town, to inquire after Kate 
 Ellison (one of her assistant teachers), who, she happened to 
 hear, was quite ill. She found her even worse than she had 
 expected, and on offering her services to watch over the sick 
 girl, was anxiously requested to remain with her during the 
 night. She dispatched a message to Mrs. Hoyt, cheerfully laid 
 aside her bonnet, and took a seat near the sufferer, while the 
 infirm mother retired to rest. The family were very poor, and 
 almost entirely dependent on Kate's salary for a support. The 
 house was small and comfortless*; the scanty furniture, of the 
 plainest kind. About dusk, Beulah left her charge in a sound 
 sleep, and cautiously opening the blinds, seated herself on the 
 
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346 B E U L A H . 
 
 window sill. The solitary candle on the table gave but a dim 
 light, and she sat for a long time looking out into the street and 
 up at the quiet, clear sky. A buggy drew up beneath the win- 
 dow she supposed it was the family physician. Mrs. Ellison had 
 not mentioned his coming, but of course it must be a physician, 
 and sure enough there was a knock at the door. She straight- 
 ened one or two chairs, picked up some articles of clothing 
 scattered about the floor, and opened the door. 
 
 She knew not what doctor Mrs. Ellison employed, and as her 
 guardian entered, she drew back with a start of surprise. She 
 had not seen him since the morning of Pauline's marriage, five 
 months before, and then he had not noticed her. Now he 
 stopped suddenly, looked at her a moment, and said, as if much 
 chagrined : 
 
 " What are you doing here, Beulah ?" 
 
 " Nursing Kate, sir. Don't talk so loud ; she is asleep," 
 answered Beulah, rather frigidly. 
 
 She did not look at him, but knew his eyes were on her face, 
 and presently he said : 
 
 " You are always where you ought not to be. That girl has 
 typhus fever, and, ten to one, you will take it. In the name of 
 common sense ! why don't you let people take care of their own 
 sick, and stay at home, instead of hunting up cases like a pro- 
 fessed nurse ? I suppose the first confirmed case of small pox 
 you hear of, you will hasten to offer your services. You don't 
 intend to spend the night here, it is to be hoped ?" 
 
 " Her mother has been sitting up so constantly that she is 
 completely exhausted, and somebody must assist in nursing Kate. 
 I did not know that she had any contagious disease, but if she 
 has, I suppose I might as well run the risk as anybody else. It 
 is but common humanity to aid the family." 
 
 " Oh ! if you choose to risk your life, it is your own affair. 
 Do not imagine for an instant that I expected my advice to 
 weigh an iota with you." 
 
 He walked off to Kate, felt her pulse, and without waking her, 
 
B E U L A H . 34:7 
 
 proceeded to replenish the glass of medicine on the table. 
 Beuluh was in no mood to obtrude herself on his attention ; she 
 went to the window, and stood with her back to him. She 
 could not tamely bear his taunting manner, yet felt that it was 
 out of her power to retort, for she still reverenced him. She 
 was surprised when he came up to her and said abruptly : 
 
 " To-day I read an article iu 'T 7 s Magazine/ called the 
 
 ' Inner Life/ by ' Delta.' " 
 
 A deep crimson dyed her pale face an instant, and her lips 
 curled ominously, as she replied, in a would-be indifferent tone : 
 
 " Well, sir ?" 
 
 " It if not well, at all. It is very ill. It is most miserable 1" 
 
 " Well ! what do I care for the article in ' T '& Maga- 
 zine V " These words were jerked out, as it were, with something 
 like a sneer. 
 
 "You care more than you will ever be brought to confess. 
 Have you read this precious ' Inner Life ?' " 
 
 " Oh, yes !" 
 
 " Have you any idea who the author is ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir, I know the author ; but if it had been intended or 
 desired that the public should know, also, the article would never 
 have appeared over a fictitious signature." 
 
 This " Inner Life," which she had written for the last number 
 of the magazine, was an allegory, in which she boldly attempted 
 to disprove the truth of the fact Tennyson has so inimitably em- 
 bodied in " The Palace of Art," namely, that love of beauty, and 
 intellectual culture, cannot satisfy the God-given aspirations of 
 the soul. Her guardian fully comprehended the dawning, and as 
 yet unacknowledged dread which prompted this article, and 
 hastily laying his hand on her shoulder, he said : 
 
 " Ah, proud girl ! you are struggling desperately with your 
 heart. You, too, have reared a ' palace ' on dreary, almost 
 inaccessible crags ; and because already you begin to weary of 
 your isolation, you would fain hurl invec lives at Tennyson, who 
 explores your mansion, ' so royal, rich aud wide/ and discovers 
 
348 B E U L A H . 
 
 the grim spectres that dwell with you ! You were very misera- 
 ble when you wrote that sketch ; you are not equal to what you 
 have undertaken. Child, this year of trial and loneliness has 
 left its impress on your face. Are you not yet willing to give np 
 the struggle ?" 
 
 The moon had risen, and as its light shone on her counte- 
 nance, he saw a fierce blaze in her eyes he had never noticed 
 there before. She shook off his light touch, and answered : 
 
 "No 1 I will never give up I" 
 
 He smiled, and left her. 
 
 She remained with her sick friend until sunrise the next morn- 
 ing, and ere she left the house, was rewarded by the assurance 
 that she was better. In a few days, Kate was decidedly conva- 
 lescent. Beulah did not take typhus fever. 
 
 CHAPTER XXVII. 
 
 THE day was sullen, stormy and dark. Grey, leaden clouds 
 were scourged through the sky by a howling southeastern gale, 
 and the lashed waters of the bay broke along the shore with a 
 solemn, continued boom. The rain fell drearily, and sheet light- 
 ning, pale and constant, gave a ghastly hue to the scudding 
 clouds. It was one of those lengthened storms which, during 
 the month of August, are so prevalent along the gulf coast. 
 Clara Sanders sat near a window, bending over a piece of needle- 
 work, while, with her hands clasped behind her, Beulah walked 
 up and down the floor. Their countenances contrasted vividly; 
 Clara's sweet, placid face, with drooped eyelids and Madonna- 
 like serenity; the soft, auburn hair curled about her cheeks, and 
 the delicate lips in peaceful rest. And Beulah ! how shall I 
 adequately paint the gloom and restlessness written in her stormy 
 
B E U L A H . 34:9 
 
 countenance ? To tell you that her brow was bent and lower- 
 ing-, that her lips were now unsteady, and now tightly compressed, 
 and that her eyes were full of troubled shadows, would convey 
 but a faint impression of the anxious discontent which seemed to 
 have taken entire possession of her. Clara glanced at her, 
 sighed, and went on with her work ; she knew perfectly well she 
 was in no humor for conversation. The rain increased until it 
 full in torrents, and the hoarse thunder muttered a dismal accom- 
 paniment. It- grew too dark to see the stitches ; Clara put by 
 her work, and folding her hands on her lap, sat looking out into 
 the storm, listening to the roar of the rushing wind, as it bowed 
 the tree-tops and uplifted the white-capped billows of the bay. 
 Beulah paused beside the window, and said abruptly : 
 
 " It is typical of the individual, social, moral, and intellectual 
 life. Look which way you will, you find antagonistic elements 
 fiercely warring. There is a broken cog, somewhere, in the 
 machinery of this plunging globe of ours. Everything organic, 
 and inorganic, bears testimony to a miserable derangement. 
 There is not a department of earth where harmony reigns. 
 True, the stars are serene, and move in their everlasting orbits, 
 with fixed precision, but they are not of earth ; here there is 
 nothing definite, nothing certain. The seasons are regular, but 
 they are determined by other worlds. Verily, the contest is still 
 fiercely waged between Ormuzd and Ahriman, and the last has 
 tl^ best of it, so far. The three thousand years of Ahriman 
 seem dawning." 
 
 She resumed her walk, and looking after her anxiously, Clara 
 answered : 
 
 "But remember, the 'Zend-Avesta/ promises that Ormuzd 
 shall finally conquer, and reign supreme. In this happy king- 
 dom, I love to trace the resemblance to the millennium which 
 was shown St. John on lonely Patmos." 
 
 " It is small comfort to anticipate a time of blessedness for 
 future generations. What benefit is steam or telegraph to the 
 moldering mammies of the catacombs ? I want to know what 
 
350 BEUL^fl. 
 
 good the millennium will do you and me, when our dust is 
 mingled with mother earth, in some silent necropolis ?" 
 
 " Oh, Beulah { what ails you to-day ? You look so gloomy 
 and wretched. It seems to me, you have changed sadly of late. 
 I knew that a life of labor, such as you voluntarily assumed, 
 would chasten your spirit, but I did not expect this utter revolu- 
 tion of your nature so soon. Oh, have done with skepticism 1" 
 
 " Faith in creeds is not to be put on and laid aside at will, 
 like a garment. Granted that these same doctrines of Zoroaster 
 are faint adumbrations of the Hebrew creed, the Gordian knot 
 is by no means loosed. That prologue in Faust horrified you 
 yesterday; yet, upon my word, I don't see why ; for very evidently 
 it is taken from Job, and Faust is but an ideal Job, tempted in 
 more subtle manner than by the loss of flocks, houses and child- 
 ren. You believe that Satan was allowed to do his utmost to 
 ruin Job, and Mephistopheles certainly set out on the same 
 fiendish mission. Mephistopheles is not the defiant demon of 
 Milton, but a powerful prince in the service of God. You need 
 not shudder ; I am giving no partial account, I merely repeat 
 the opinion of many on this subject. It is all the same to me. 
 Evil exists : that is the grim fact. As to its origin ; I would 
 about as soon set off to search for the city Asgard." 
 
 " Still, I would not give my faith for all your learning and 
 philosophy. See what it has brought you to," answered Clara, 
 sorrowfully. 
 
 "Your faith ! what does it teach you of this evil principle?" 
 retorted Beulah, impatiently. 
 
 " At least, more than all speculation has taught you. You 
 admit, that of its origin you know nothing ; the Bible tells me, 
 that time was when earth was sinless, and man holy, and that 
 death and sin entered the world by man's transgression " 
 
 " Which I don't believe," interrupted Beulah. 
 
 " So you might sit there and stop your ears, and close your 
 eyes, and assert that this was a sunny, serene day. Your recep* 
 tion, or rejection of the Biblical record, by no means affects its 
 
r. E u L A ii . 351 
 
 authenticity. My faith teaches that the evil you so bitterly 
 deprecate is not eternal ; shall finally be crushed, and the har- 
 mony you crave, pervade all realms. Why an All-wise, and 
 All-powerful God, suffers evil to exist, is not for his finite crea- 
 tures to determine. It is one of many mysteries, which it is as 
 utterly useless to bother over as to weave ropes of sand." 
 
 She gathered up her sewing materials, put them in her basket, 
 and retired to her own room. Beulah felt relieved when the 
 door closed behind her, and taking up Theodore Parker's " Dis- 
 courses," began to read. Poor famishing soul ! what chaff she 
 eagerly devoured. In her anxious haste, she paused not to per- 
 ceive that the attempted refutations of Christianity contained 
 objections more gross and incomprehensible than the doctrine 
 assailed. Long before, she had arrived at the conclusion, that 
 ethical and theological truth must be firmly established on 
 psychological foundations, hence she plunged into metaphysics, 
 studying treatise after treatise, and system after system. To her 
 grievous disappointment, however, the psychology of each 
 seemed different, nay opposed. She set out believing her " con- 
 sciousness " the infallible criterion of truth ; this she fancied 
 philosophy taught, at least professed to teach ; but instead of 
 unanimity among metaphysicians, she found fierce denunciation 
 of predecessors, ingenious refutations of principles, which they 
 had evolved from rigid analysis of the facts of consciousness, 
 and an intolerant dogmatism which astonished and confused her. 
 One extolled Locke as an oracle of wisdom ; another ridiculed 
 the shallowness of his investigations and the absurdity of his 
 doctrines ; while a third, showed conclusively, that Locke's assail- 
 ant knew nothing at all of what he wrote, and maintained that 
 he alone could set matters right. She studied Locke for her- 
 self. Either he was right, and all the others were wrong, or else 
 there was no truth in any. Another philosopher professed to 
 ground some points of his faith on certain principles of Des- 
 cartes ; the very next work she read, proclaimed that Descartes 
 never held any such principles, that the writer had altogether 
 
352 BEULAH. 
 
 mistaken his views ; whereupon up started another, who 
 informed her that nobody knew what Descartes really did 
 believe on the subject under discussion ; that it was a mooted 
 question among his disciples. This was rather discouraging, 
 but, nothing daunted, she bought, borrowed and read on. 
 
 Brown's descent upon Eeid greatly interested her ; true, there 
 were very many things she could not assent to, yet the argu- 
 ments seemed plausible enough, when lo! a metaphysical giant 
 rescues Reid ; tells her that Brown was an ignoramus ; utterly 
 misunderstood the theory he set himself to criticise, and was a 
 wretched bungler ; after which he proceeds to show that 
 although Brown had not acumen enough to perceive it, Reid had 
 himself fallen into grave errors, and culpable obscurity. Who 
 was right, or who was wrong, she could not for her life decide. 
 It would have been farcical, indeed, had she not been so 
 anxiously in earnest. Beginning to distrust herself, and with a 
 dawning dread lest, after all, psychology would prove an incom- 
 petent guide, she put by the philosophies themselves and 
 betook herself to histories of philosophy, fancying that here all 
 bitter invective would be laid aside, and stern impartiality pre- 
 vail. Here the evil she fled from increased fourfold. One 
 historian of philosophy (who was a great favorite of her guard- 
 ian) having lost all confidence in the subjects he treated, set 
 himself to work to show the fallacy of all systems, from Anaxi- 
 mauder to Cousin. She found the historians of philosophy as 
 much at variance as the philosophers themselves, and looked 
 with dismay into the dim land of vagaries, into which metaphy- 
 sics had drawn the brightest minds of the past. Then lior 
 guardian's favorite quotation recurred to her with painful signi- 
 ficance : " There is no criterion of truth ; all is merely subjec- 
 tive truth." It was the old skeptical palladium, ancient as 
 metaphysics. She began to despair of the truth in this direc- 
 tion ; but, it certainly existed somewhere. She commenced the 
 study of Cousin with trembling eagerness ; if at all, she would 
 surely find in a harmonious " Eclecticism," the absolute truth 
 
BETJLAH. 353 
 
 she had chased through so many metaphysical doublings. 
 " Eclecticism " would cnll for her the results of all search and 
 reasoning. For a time, she believed she had indeed found a 
 resting-place; his "true" satisfied her ; his "beautiful" fasci- 
 nated her ; but when she came to examine his " Theodicea," 
 and trace its results, she shrank back appalled. She was not 
 yet prepared to embrace his subtle pantheism. Thus far had her 
 sincere inquiries and efforts brought her. It was no wonder her 
 hopeful nature grew bitter and cynical ; no wonder her brow 
 was bent with puzzled thought, and her pale face haggard and 
 joyless. Sick of systems, she began to search her own soul ; 
 did the very tiling of all others best calculated to harass her 
 mind and fill it with inexplicable mysteries. She constituted 
 her own reason the sole judge; and then, dubious of the verdict, 
 arraigned reason itself before itself. Now began the desperate 
 struggle. Alone and unaided, she wrestled with some of the 
 grimest doubts that can assail a human soul. The very preva- 
 lence of her own doubts augmented the difficulty. On every side 
 she saw the footprints of skepticism ; in history, essays, novels, 
 poems, and reviews. Still, her indomitable will maintained the 
 conflict. Her hopes, aims, energies, all centred in this momen- 
 tous struggle. She studied over these world-problems until her 
 eyes grew dim, and the veins on her brow swelled like cords. 
 Often, grey dawn looked in upon her, still sitting before her desk, 
 with u sickly, waning lamp-light gleaming over her pallid face. 
 And to-day, as she looked out on the flying clouds, and listened 
 to the mournful wail of the rushing gale, she seemed to stand 
 upon the verge of a yawning chaos. What did she believe ? 
 She knew not. Old faiths had crumbled away she stood in a 
 dreary waste, strewn with the wreck of creeds and systems ; a 
 silent desolation ! And with Richter's Christ she exclaimed : 
 " Oh ! how is each so solitary in this wide grave of the All ? I 
 am alone with myself. Oh, Father I oh, Father, where is thy 
 infinite bosom, that I might rest on it ?" A belief in something 
 she must have ; it was an absolute necessity of the soul. There 
 
354 BEULAH. 
 
 was no scoffing tendency in her skepticism ; she could not jest 
 over the solemn issues involved, and stood wondering which way 
 she should next journey after this " pearl of great price." It 
 was well for her that garlands of rhetoric and glittering logic 
 lay over the pitfalls before her j for there were unsounded abysses, 
 darker than any she had yet endeavored to fathom. Clara 
 came back, and softly laid her hand on her friend's arm. 
 
 " Please put up your book, and sing something for me, won't you?" 
 
 Beulah looked at the serene countenance, so full of resignation, 
 and answered, gloomily : 
 
 " What ! are you, too, tired of listening to this storm-anthem 
 nature has treated us to for the last two days ? It seems to me 
 the very universe, animate and inanimate, is indulging in an 
 uncontrollable fit of the ' blues.' One would almost think the 
 dead-march was being played up and down the aisles of creation." 
 
 She pressed her hands to her hot brow, as if to wipe away 
 the cobwebs that dimmed her vision, and raising the lid of the 
 piano, ran her fingers over the keys. 
 
 " Sing me something hopeful and heart-cheering," said Clara. 
 
 " I have no songs of that description." 
 
 " Yes, you have : ' Look Aloft,' and the ' Psalm of Life.' " 
 
 " No, no. Impossible. I could not sing either now," replied 
 Beulah, averting her face. 
 
 "Why not now? They are the excelsior strains of struggling 
 pilgrims. They were written for the dark hours of life." 
 
 " They are a mockery to me. Ask me for anything else," said 
 she, compressing her lips. 
 
 Clara leaned her arm on the piano, and looking sadly at her 
 companion, said, as if with a painful effort: 
 
 "Beulah, in a little while we shall be separated, and only the 
 All-Father knows whether we shall meet on earth again. My 
 application for that situation as governess, up the country, 
 brought me an answer to-day. I am to go very soon." 
 
 Beulah made no reply, and Clara continued, sorrowfully: 
 
 " It is very painful to leave my few remaining friends, and go 
 
BEULAH. 355 
 
 among perfect strangers, but it is best that I should." She 
 leaned her head on her hand, and wept. 
 
 "Why is it best?" 
 
 " Because here I am constantly reminded of other days, and 
 other hopes, now lying dead on my heart. But we will not 
 speak of this. Of all my ties here, my love for you is now the 
 strongest. Oh, Beulah, our friendship has been sacred, and I 
 dread the loneliness which will be my portion when hundreds of 
 miles lay between us! The links that bind orphan hearts like 
 ours are more lasting than all others." 
 
 " I shall be left entirely alone, if you accept this situation. 
 You have long been my only companion. Don't leave me, 
 Clara," murmured Beulah, while her lips writhed and quivered. 
 
 " You will have the Asburys still, and they are sincere friends " 
 
 "Yes, friends, but not companions. What congeniality is 
 there between those girls and myself? None. My isolation 
 will be complete when you leave me." 
 
 "Beulah, will you let me say what is in my heart ?" 
 
 " Say it freely, my brown-eyed darling." 
 
 " Well then, Beulah; give it up; give it up. It will only bow 
 down your heart with untold cares and sorrows." 
 
 " Give up what ?" 
 
 " This combat with loneliness and poverty." 
 
 " I am not lonely," answered Beulah, with a wintry smile. 
 
 "Oh, Beulah! yes, you are; wretchedly lonely. I have been 
 but a poor companion for you; intellectually, you are far beyond 
 me, and there has been little congeniality in our tastes and pur- 
 suits. I have always know this ; and I know, too, that you 
 never will be a happy woman, until you have a companion equal 
 in intellect, who understands and sympathizes with you. Ah, 
 Beulah! with all your stubborn pride, and will, and mental 
 endowments, you have a woman's heart; and crush its impulses 
 as you may, it will yet assert its sway. As I told you long ago, 
 grammars, and geographies, and duty, could not fill the void in 
 my heart; and believe me, neither will metaphysics, and philo- 
 
356 BEULAH. 
 
 sophy, and literature, satisfy you. Suppose you do attain cele- 
 brity as a writer. Can the plaudits of strangers bring back to 
 your solitary hearth the loved dead, or cheer you in your hours 
 of gloom ? I too am an orphan; I speak of what I can appre- 
 ciate. You are mistaken, Beulah, in thinking you can dispense 
 with sympathy. You are not sufficient for yourself, as you have 
 so proudly maintained. God has created us for companionship; 
 it is a necessity of human nature." 
 
 " Then why are you and I orphaned for all time V 1 asked 
 Beulah, coldly. 
 
 " The sablest clouds of sorrow have silver linings. Perhaps 
 that you and I might turn more continually to the God of 
 orphans. Beulah, God has not flooded earth with eternal sun- 
 light. He knew that shadows were needed to chasten the spirits 
 of his children, and teach them to look to him for the renewal 
 of all blessings. But shadows are fleeting, and every season of 
 gloom has its morning star. Oh, I thank God that his own 
 hand arranged the chiaroscuro of earth!' 1 She spoke earnestly; 
 the expression of her eyes told that her thoughts had travelled 
 into the dim, weird land of futurity. Beulah offered no com- 
 ment, but the gloom deepened on her brow, and her white 
 fingers crept restlessly over the piano keys. After a moment's 
 silence, Clara continued : 
 
 " I would not regret our separation so much, if I left you in 
 the possession of Christian faith; armed with a perfect trust in 
 the religion of Jesus Christ. Oh, Beuiah, it makes my heart 
 ache when I think of you, struggling so fiercely in the grasp of 
 infidelity! Many times have I seen the light shining beneath 
 your door, long after midnight, and wept over the conflict in 
 which I knew you were engaged ; and only God knows how 
 often I have mingled your name in my prayers, entreating Him 
 to direct you in your search, to guide you safely through the 
 paths of skepticism, and place your weary feet upon the ' rock of 
 ages/ Oh, Beulah, do not make my prayers vain by your con- 
 tinued quest ; oning! Come back to Christ, and the Bible" 
 
BEULAH. 357 
 
 Tears glided down her cheeks as she passed her arm round her 
 friend, and dropped her head on her shoulder. Beulah's eyelids 
 trembled an instant, but there was no moisture in the grey 
 depths, as she answered : 
 
 " Thank you, Clara, for your interest. I am glad you have 
 this faith you would fain lead me to. Not for worlds would I 
 unsettle it, even if I could. You are comforted in your religion, 
 and it is a priceless blessing to you. But I am sincere, even in 
 niy skepticism. I am honest; and God, if he sees my heart, 
 sees that I am. I may be an infidel, as you call me, but, if so, 
 I am an honest one; and if the Bible is all true, as you believe, 
 God will judge my heart. But I shall not always be skeptical; 
 I shall find the truth yet. I know it is a tedious journey I have 
 set out on, and it may be my life will be spent in the search, but 
 what of that, if at last I attain the goal ? What if I only live 
 to reach it ? What will my life be to me without it ?" 
 
 " And can you contentedly contemplate your future, passed as 
 this last year has been P cried Clara. 
 
 " Perhaps ' contentedly ' is scarcely the right terra. I shall 
 not murmur, no matter how dreary the circumstances of my life 
 may be, provided I succeed at last," replied Beulah, resolutely. 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, you make my heart ache I" 
 
 " Then try not to think of or care for me." 
 
 " There is another heart, dear Beulah, a heart sad, but noble, 
 that you are causing bitter anguish. Are you utterly indifferent 
 to this also ?" 
 
 " All of the last exists merely in your imagination. We will 
 say no more about it, if you please." 
 
 She immediately began a brilliant overture, and Clara retreated 
 to the window. With night the roar of the tempest increased ; 
 the rain fell with a dull, uninterrupted patter, the gale swept 
 furiously on, and the heaving, foaming waters of the bay gleamed 
 luridly beneath the sheet-lightning. Clara stood looking out, 
 and before long Beulah joined her ; then the former said, sud- 
 denly : 
 
358 BEULAH. 
 
 " Do you remember, that about six years ago, a storm like 
 this tossed the Morning Star far from its destined track, and for 
 many days it was uuheard of ? Do you remember, too, that it 
 held one you loved ; and that in an agony of dread, lest he 
 should find a grave among coral beds, you bowed your knee in 
 prayer to Almighty God, imploring him to calm the tempest, 
 hush the gale, and save him who was so dear to you ? Ah, 
 Beulah, you distrusted human pilots then." 
 
 As Beulah made no reply, she fancied she was pondering her 
 words. But memory had flown back to the hour when she knelt 
 in prayer for Eugene, and she thought she could far better have 
 borne his death then, in the glorious springtime of his youth, than 
 know that he had fallen from his noble height. Then she could 
 have mourned his loss, and cherished his memory ever after; now 
 she could only pity and despise his folly. What was that early 
 shipwreck she so much dreaded, in comparison with the sea of 
 vice, whose every wave tossed him helplessly on to ruin. He 
 had left her, an earnest believer in religion ; he came back scoff- 
 ing at everything sacred. This much she had learned from 
 Cornelia. Was there an intimate connection between the revo- 
 lutions in his nature ? Misled by her silence, Clara said, 
 eagerly: 
 
 " You were happy in that early faith. Oh, Beulah, you will 
 never find another so holy, so comforting 1" 
 
 Beulah frowned, and looked up impatiently. 
 
 " Clara, I am not to be persuaded into anything. Leave me 
 to myself. You are kind, but mistaken." 
 
 " If I have said too much, forgive me ; I was actuated by sin- 
 cere affection, and pity for your state of mind." 
 
 " I am not an object of pity by any means," replied Beulah, 
 very coldly. 
 
 Clara was unfortunate in her expressions ; she seemed to think 
 so, and turned away ; but, conscious of having spoken hastily, 
 Beulah caught her hand, and exclaimed frankly : 
 
 " Do not be hurt with me ; I did not intend to wound you. 
 
BE TIL AH. 359 
 
 Forgive me, Clara. Don't go. When are you to leave for your 
 new home ?" 
 
 " Day after to-morrow. Mr. Arlington seems anxious that I 
 should come immediately. He has three children ; a son and 
 two daughters. I hope they are amiable ; I dread lest they 
 prove unruly and spoiled. If so, woe to their governess." 
 
 " Does Mr. Arlington reside in the village to which you direct- 
 ed your letter ?" 
 
 " No ; he resides on his plantation, several miles from the 
 village. The prospect of being in the country is the only redeem- 
 ing feature in the arrangement. I hope my health will be per- 
 manently restored by the change ; but of the success of my plan, 
 only time can decide." 
 
 " And when shall we meet again ?" said Beulah, slowly. 
 
 "Perhaps, henceforth, our paths diverge widely. We may 
 meet no more on earth ; but, dear Beulah, there is a 'peaceful 
 shore, where billows never beat nor tempests rofr,' where assur- 
 edly we shall spend an eternity together if we keep the faith 
 here. Oh, if I thought our parting now was for all time, I 
 should mourn bitterly, very bitterly ; but I will not believe it. 
 The arms of our God support you. I shall always pray that he 
 will guide and save you." She leaned forward, kissed Beulah's 
 forehead, and left the room. 
 
 CHAPTER XXVIII. 
 
 ONE afternoon in October, the indisposition of one of her 
 music pupils released Beulah earlier than usual, and she deter- 
 mined to seize this opportunity and visit the Asylum. Of the 
 walk across the common, she never weaned ; the grass had 
 grown brown, and, save the deep, changeless green of the 
 ancient pines, only the hectic coloring of the dying year met her 
 
360 . BE TIL AH. 
 
 eye. The day was cool and windy, and the common presented a 
 scene of boisterous confusion, which she paused to contemplate. 
 A number of boys had collected to play their favorite games ; 
 balls flew in every direction, and merry shouts rang cheerily 
 through the air. She looked on a few moments at their care- 
 less, happy sports, and resumed her walk, feeling that their 
 joyousness was certainly contagious, she was so much lighter- 
 hearted from having watched their beaming faces, and listened 
 to their ringing laughter. 
 
 As she" drew near the Asylum gate, memory began to pass its 
 fingers over her heart j but here, too, sounds of gladness met 
 her. The orphans were assembled on the lawn in front of the 
 building, chatting as cheerfully as though they were all members 
 of one family. The little ones trundled hoops, and chased each 
 other up and down the gravelled walks; some of the boys tossed 
 their balls, and a few of the larger girls were tying up chrysan- 
 themums to stender stakes. They were dressed alike; all looked 
 contented, neat and happy, and their rosy faces presented a 
 noble tribute to the efficacy and untold blessings of the institu- 
 tion. To many of them Beulah was well known; she threw off 
 her bonnet and shawl, and assisted the girls in their work among 
 the flowers, while the little ones gathered around her, lisping 
 their childish welcome and coaxing her to join in their innocent 
 games. The stately China trees, where, in years gone by, Lilly 
 and Claudy had watched the chirping robins, were again clad in 
 their rich, golden livery; and as Beulah looked up at the red brick 
 walls, that had sheltered her head in the early days o orphan- 
 age, it seemed but yesterday that she trod these walks and 
 listened to the wintry wind sighing through these same loved 
 trees. The children told her that their matron had been sick 
 and was not yet quite well, and needing no pilot, Beulah went 
 through the house in search of her. She found her at last in 
 the store-room, giving out materials for the evening meal, and 
 had an opportunity of observing the change which had taken 
 place in the last few months. She was pale and thin, and her 
 
B E U L A H . 361 
 
 t 
 
 sharpened features wore a depressed, weary expression ; but, 
 turning round, she perceived Beulah, and a glad smile broke 
 instantly over her countenance, as she clasped the girl's hand in 
 both hers. 
 
 " Dear child, I have looked for you a long time. I did not 
 think you would wait so many weeks. Come in and sit down." 
 
 " I did not know you had been sick until I came and heard 
 the children speak of it. You should have sent me word. I see 
 you have not entirely recovered." 
 
 " No, I am quite feeble yet ; but in time, I hope I shall be 
 well again. Ah, Beulah, I have wanted to see you so much ! 
 so much! Child, it seems to me I shall never get used to being 
 separated from you." 
 
 Beulah sat on the sofa near her, and the matron's withered 
 hands were passed caressingly over the glossy bands of hair 
 which lay on the orphan's white temples. 
 
 " I love to come here occasionally ; it does me good; but not 
 too often ; that would be painful, you know." 
 
 Beulah spoke in a subdued voice, while memory painted the 
 evening when Eugene had sought her in this apartment, and 
 wiped away her tears for Lilly's absence. Her features twitched, 
 as she thought of the bitter changes that rolling years work, 
 and she sighed unconsciously. The matron's hands were still 
 smoothing her hair, and presently she said, with an anxious, 
 scrutinizing look : 
 
 " Have you been sick since you were here last ?" 
 
 " No. What makes you imagine such a thing ?" 
 
 " Dear child, I do not imagine; I know you look worn and ill. 
 Why, Beulah, hold up your hand ; there, see how transparent 
 it is ! Almost like wax ! Something ails you, child ; that I 
 know well enough." 
 
 11 No, I assure you, I am not ill. Sometimes, of late, I have 
 been troubled with the old headaches you used to cure, when I 
 was a child; but, on the whole, I am well." 
 
 "Beulah, they tell me Eugene is married," said the kind- 
 
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362 BEULAH. 
 
 v 
 
 hearted woman, with another look at the quiet face beside 
 her. 
 
 " Yes, he was married nearly five months ago." A tremor 
 passed over her lips as she spoke. 
 " Bid you see his wife ?" 
 
 " Yes ; she is a very pretty woman. I may say a beautiful 
 woman ; but she does not suit him. At least, I am afraid she 
 will not." 
 
 "Ah, I knew as much! I thought as much!" cried Mrs. 
 Williams. 
 
 " Why ?" asked Beulah, wonderingly. 
 
 " Oh, money cloaks all faults, child. I knew he did not 
 marry her for love !" 
 
 Beulah started a little, and said hastily : 
 " You do him injustice great injustice ! Eugene was charmed 
 by her beauty, not her fortune." 
 
 " Oh, heiresses are always beautiful and charming in the 
 eyes of the world ! Beulah, do you know that I watched for 
 Eugene, for days, and weeks, and months, after his return from 
 Europe ? I wanted to see him oh, so much ! I loved you 
 both as though you were my own children. I was so proud of 
 that boy I I had raised him from a crawling infant, and never 
 dreamed that he would forget me. But he did not come. I 
 have not seen him since he left, six years ago, for Germany. 
 Oh, the boy has pained me pained me ! I loved him so 
 much 1" 
 
 Beulah's brow clouded heavily, as she said : 
 " It is better so better that you should not see him. He is 
 not what he was when he quitted us." 
 
 "Is it true, then, that he drinks that he is wild and dissi- 
 .pated ? I heard it once, but would not believe it. Oh, it can't 
 be that Eugene drinks ?" 
 
 " Yes, he drinks not to stupid intoxication, but too freely 
 for his health and character. He does not look like himself 
 now." 
 
BEULAH. 363 
 
 Mrs. Williams bowed down her head, and wept bitterly, while 
 Bculah continued, sorrowfully : 
 
 " His adoption was his ruin. Ilad he remained dependent on 
 his individual exertions, he would have grown up an honor to 
 himself and his friends. But Mr. Graham is considered very 
 wealthy, and Eugene weakly desisted from the honest labor 
 which was his duty. His fashionable associates have ruined him. 
 In Europe he learned to drink, and here his companions dragged 
 him constantly into scenes of dissipation. But I do not despair 
 of him yet. It may be long before he awakens from this infatua- 
 tion, but I trust he will yet reform. I cannot bear to think of 
 him as a confirmed drunkard ! Oh, no ! no ! I may be wrong, 
 but I still hope that his nobler nature will conquer." 
 
 " God help the boy ! I have prayed for him for years, and I 
 shall pray for him still, though he has forgotten me." 
 
 She sobbed, and covered her face with her apron. A joyless 
 smile flitted over BeulahAs fixed, grave features, as she said, 
 encouragingly : 
 
 " He will come to see you when he returns from the North. 
 He has not forgotten you that is impossible. Like me, he owes 
 you too much." 
 
 " I shall leave here, very soon," said Mrs. Williams, wiping 
 her eyes. 
 
 " Leave the Asylum ! for what ?" 
 
 " I am getting old, child, and my health is none of the best. 
 The duties are very heavy here, and I am not willing to occupy 
 the position, unless I could discharge all the duties faithfully. I 
 have sent in my resignation to the managers, and as soon as 
 they succeed in getting another matron, I shall leave the Asy- 
 lum. I am sorry to be obliged to go ; I have been here so long, 
 that I am very much attached to the place and the children. 
 But I am not able to do what I have done, and I know it is 
 right that I should give up the position." 
 
 " What are you going to do ?" 
 
 " I have means enough to live plainly the remainder of my 
 
364: BEULAH. 
 
 life. I intend to rent or buy a small house, and settle down, and 
 be quiet. I feel now as if I should like to spend my days in 
 peace." 
 
 " Do you intend to live alone ?" 
 
 " Yes, child; except a servant, I suppose I shall be quite alone. 
 But you will come to see me often, and perhaps Eugene will 
 remember me, some day, when he is in trouble." 
 
 " No, I shall not come to see you at all ! I mean to come 
 and live with you that is, if I may ?" cried Beulah, springing 
 up, and laying her hand on the matron's. 
 
 " God bless you, dear child, how glad I shall be !" She 
 wound her arms round the slender form, and laughed through 
 her tears. 
 
 Beulah gently put back the grey locks that had fallen from 
 the border of her cap, and said hopefully : 
 
 " I am sick of boarding sick of town 1 Let us get a nice 
 little house, where I can walk in and out to my school. Have 
 you selected any particular place ?" 
 
 " No. I have looked at two or three, but none suited me 
 exactly. Now you can help me. I am so thankful you are 
 going to be with me. Will you come as soon as I can be 
 released here ?" 
 
 " Yes, just as soon as you are ready for me ; and I think I 
 know a house for rent which will just suit us. Now, I want it 
 understood that I am to pay the rent." 
 
 " Oh, no, child ! I won't hear to it, for 1 am" 
 
 " Very well, then ; I will stay where I am." 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! you are not in earnest ?" 
 
 " Yes, I am ; so say no more about it. I will come on no 
 other condition. I will see the owner of the house, ascertain 
 what I can obtain it for, and send you word. Then you can 
 look at it, and decide " 
 
 " I am quite willing to trust it to you, child ; only I can't 
 bear the thought of your paying the rent for it. But we can 
 arrange that afterward." 
 
BEULAR. 365 
 
 " No, you must be perfectly satisfied with the house. I will 
 go by this evening and find out about it, so as to let you know 
 at once. Have you any idea when the ' board ' will procure 
 another matron ?" 
 
 " They have advertised, and several persons applied, I believe, 
 but they were not exactly pleased with the applicants. I sup- 
 pose, however, that in a few days they will find a substitute for 
 me." 
 
 " Well, be sure you get a good servant, and now I must go." 
 
 She put ou her bonnet and shawl with unwonted haste, and 
 ran down the steps. In her frequent walks, she had noticed 
 two cottages in course of erection, not very far from the pine 
 grove in front of the Asylum, and now crossing the common, she 
 directed her steps toward them. The lots were small, and 
 belonged to Dr. Asbury, who said he would build a couple of 
 cottages for poor families to rent at cheap rates. As Beulah 
 approached the houses, she saw the doctor's buggy standing 
 near the door, and thinking it a good omen, quickened her steps. 
 Each building contained only three rooms and a hall, with 
 a gallery, or rather portico in front. They were genuine 
 cottages ornc, built after Downing's plans, and presented a taste- 
 ful, inviting appearance. The windows were arched, and the 
 wood-work elaborately carved. Beulah pushed open the freshly 
 painted gate, ran up the steps, and into the hall. The carpen- 
 ters were sj,ill at work in the kitchen, and as she conjectured, 
 here she found her friend, giving some final directions. She 
 looked round the snug little kitchen, and walking up to Dr. 
 Asbury, who stood with his back to the door, she shook his 
 hand, with a cheerful salutation. 
 
 " Halloo, Beulah ! where did yon drop from ? glad to see 
 you. Glad to see you. How came you prying into my new 
 houses ? Answer me that ! Did you see my spouse as you came 
 through the hall ?" 
 
 " No, I will go back and hunt for her " 
 
 " You need not ; there she comes down the steps of the house. 
 
366 .. BEULAH. 
 
 She would insist on seeing about some shelves for this precious 
 kitchen ; thinks I am bound to put pantries, and closets, and 
 shelves, all over the house, for my future tenants. I suppose 
 before the first poor family take possession, I shall be expected 
 to fill the closet with table-linen and cutlery, and the larder 
 with sugar, flour, and wax candles. Look here, Mrs. Asbury, 
 how many more shelves is this kitchen to have ?" 
 
 " It is well she has a conscience, sir, since nature denied you 
 one/ 7 answered Beulah, whom Mrs. Asbury received very affec- 
 tionately. 
 
 " Conscience ! Bless my soul ! she has none, as regards my 
 unlucky purse. Positively, she wanted to know, just now, if I 
 would not have that little patch of ground between the house 
 and the paling, laid off into beds ; and if I would not plant a 
 few rose-bushes and vines, for the first rascally set of children 
 to tear up by the roots, just as soon as their parents moved in. 
 There's conscience for you with a vengeance." 
 " And what did you say, sir ?" 
 
 '* What did I say ? why just what every other meek hus- 
 band says to appeals which * won't cost much, you know.' Of 
 course I had no opinion of my own. Madame, here, is infallible; 
 so I am put down for maybe a hundred dollars more. You need 
 not have asked the result, you true daughter of Eve ; every- 
 one of you understand wheedling. Those two mischievous imps 
 of mine are almost as great adepts as their mother. Hey, 
 Beulah, no whispering there ! You look as wise as an owl. 
 What am I to do next ? Paper the walls, and fresco the ceil- 
 ings ? Out with it." 
 
 " I want to ask, sir, how much rent your conscience will 
 allow you to demand for this pigeon-box of a house ?" 
 
 " Well, I had an idea of asking two hundred dollars for it. 
 Cheap enough at that. You may have it for two hundred," 
 said he, with a good-humored nod toward Beulah. 
 
 "Very well, I will take it at that, provided Mrs. Williams 
 likes it as well as I do. In a day or two I will determine." 
 
BETJLAII. 367 
 
 " In the name of common sense, Beulah, what freak is this ?" 
 said the doctor, looking at her with astonishment. 
 
 " I am going to live with the matron of the Asylum, whom 
 you know very well. I think this house will suit us exactly, and 
 the rent suits my purse far better than a larger building would. 
 I am tired of boarding. I want a little home of my own, where, 
 when the labors of school are over, I can feel at ease. The 
 walk, twice a day, will benefit me, I feel assured. You need not 
 look so dismal and perplexed, I will make a capital tenant. 
 Your door-facings shan't be pencil-marked ; your windows shan't 
 be broken, nor your gate swung off its hinges. As for those 
 flowers you are so anxious to plant, and that patch of ground 
 you are so much interested in, it shall blossom like the plain of 
 Sharon." 
 
 He looked at her wistfully ; took off his spectacles, wiped 
 them with the end of his coat, and said, dubiously : 
 
 " What does Hartwell think of this project ?" 
 
 " I have not consulted him." 
 
 " The plain English of which is, that whether he approves or 
 condemns, you are determined to carry out this new plan ? Take 
 care, Beulah ; remember the old adage about ' cutting off your 
 nose to spite your face.' " 
 
 " Rather mal apropos, Dr. Asbury," said she, indifferently. 
 
 " I am an old man, Beulah, and know something of life and 
 the world." 
 
 " Nay, George : why dissuade her from this plan ? If she 
 prefers this quiet little home, to the confinement and bustle of a 
 boarding-house, if she thinks she would be happier here with 
 Mrs. Williams, than in the heart of the city, why should not she 
 come ? Suffer her to judge for herself. I am disposed to 
 applaud her choice," interrupted Mrs. Asbury. 
 
 " Alice, do you suppose she will be satisfied to bury herself 
 out here, with an infirm old woman for a companion ? Here she 
 must have an early breakfast ; trudge through rain and cold 
 into town ; teach stupid little brats till evening ; then listen to 
 
368 BEULAH. 
 
 others equally stupid, thrum over music lessons, and at last, tired 
 out, drag herself back here about dark, when it is too late to 
 sec whether her garden is a cotton patch or a peach orchard ! 
 Will you please to tell me what enjoyment there is for one of 
 her temperament in such a tread-mill existence ?" 
 
 " Your picture is all shadow, George; and even if it were not, 
 she is the best judge of what will promote her happiness. Do 
 not discourage her. Ah, humble as the place is, I know how 
 her heart. aches for a spot she can call 'home.' These three 
 rooms will be a haven of rest for her when the day is done. 
 My dear Beulah, I trust you may be very happy here, or 
 wherever you decide to live ; you deserve to be.' 7 
 
 " Thank you, madam, for your friendly sympathy. I am glad 
 you approve my design." 
 
 " Well, well ; if you soon weary of this freak you can easily 
 give up the house, that is all. .Now, Beulah, if you determine 
 to take it, rest assured I will gladly make any additions or 
 alterations you may suggest. I dare say I shall like you for a 
 tenant. But see here, Mrs. Asbury, I have patients to look 
 after. Please to remember that I am a professional character, 
 consequently can call no moment my own. What ! another 
 row of shelves round that side ? This building houses for rent 
 is a ruinous speculation 1 Come, it is too late now to go over 
 the rooms again ; to-morrow will do as well. Beulah, are you 
 going to play cook, too ?" 
 
 " No, indeed ! Mrs. Williams will find us a servant. Good 
 bye. I will decide about the house as soon as possible." 
 
 The following day she dispatched a note to the matron, with 
 information concerning the house ; and at the close of the week 
 all arrangements were completed, so that they might take pos- 
 session as soon as a new matron was secured. Thus the last of 
 October glided swiftly away, and one cold, clear day in Novem- 
 ber, Beulah was notified that Mrs. Williams was comfortably 
 settled in the new home. She went to school as usual, and 
 when the recitations were ended, started out with a glad heart 
 
BEtJLAH. 369 
 
 and springing step. In half an hour she reached the little 
 white gate, and found Mrs. Williams waiting there to welcome 
 her. Everything was new and neat ; the tastefully selected car- 
 pets were not tapestry, but cheap ingrain ; the snowy curtains 
 were of plain dimity, with rose-colored borders, and the tea- 
 table held, instead of costly Sevres, simple white china, with a 
 baud of gilt. A bright fire crackled and glowed in the chimney, 
 and as Beulah stood on the hearth, and glanced round the com- 
 fortable little room, which was to be both parlor and dining- 
 room, she felt her heart thrill with delight, and exclaimed : 
 
 " This is home 1 at last I feel that I have a home of my own. 
 Not the Rothchilds, in their palaces, are so happy as 1 1" 
 
 For years she had been a wanderer, with no hearthstone, and 
 now for the first time since her father's death she was at home. 
 Not the home of adoption ; nor the cheerless room of a board- 
 ing-house, but the 'humble home which labor and rigid economy 
 had earned for her. Her heart bounded with joy ; an unwonted 
 glow suffused her cheeks, and her parted lips trembled. The 
 evening passed quickly, and when she retired to her own room 
 she was surprised to find a handsome rosewood book case and 
 desk occupying one corner. She opened the glass doors and 
 saw her books carefully arranged on the shelves. Could her 
 guardian have sent it ? No, since her refusal of the watch, she 
 felt sure he would not have offered it. A small note lay on the 
 shelf and recognizing the delicate hand-writing, she read the 
 lines, containing these words : 
 
 " BEULAH : Accept the accompanying case and desk, as a slight testi- 
 mony of the affection of 
 
 " Your sincere friend, 
 
 "ALICE ASBURY." 
 
 Tears sprang into her eyes as she opened the desk and dis- 
 covered an elegant pen and pencil, and every convenience 
 connected with writing. Turning away, she saw beside the 
 fire, a large, deep easy-chair, cushioned with purple morocco, 
 
 16* 
 
370 B E u L A H . 
 
 and knew it was exactly like one she bad often seen in Dr. 
 Asbury's library. On the back was pinned a narrow slip of 
 paper, and she read, in the doctor's scrawling, quaint writing : 
 
 " Child, don't be too proud to use it. 7 ' 
 
 She was not ; throwing herself into the luxurious chair, she 
 broke the seal of a letter received that day from Pauline Morti- 
 mor. Once before, soon after her marriage, a few lines of guy 
 greeting had come, and then many months had elapsed. As she 
 unfolded the sheet, she saw, with sorrow, that in several places, 
 it was blotted with tears ; and the contents, written in a paroxysm 
 of passion, disclosed a state of wretchedness which Beulah little 
 suspected. Pauline's impulsive, fitful nature, was clearly indexed 
 in the letter, and after a brief apology for her long silence, she 
 wrote as follows : 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, I am so miserable ; so very, very wretched ! 
 Beulah, Ernest does not love me ! You will scarcely believe me. 
 Oh, I hardly know how to believe it myself ! Uncle Guy was 
 right ; I do not suit Ernest ; but I loved him so very, very 
 dearly ; and thought him so devoted to me. Fool that I was ! 
 my eyes are opened at last. Beulah, it nearly drives me wild, to 
 think that I am bound to him for life, an unloved wife. Not a 
 year has passed since our marriage, yet already he has tired of 
 my ' pretty face.' Oh, Beulah, if I could only come to you, and 
 put my arms round your neck, and lay my poor weary head 
 down on your shoulder, then I could tell you all " 
 
 Here several sentences were illegible from tears, and she could 
 only read what followed. 
 
 " Since yesterday morning, Ernest has not spoken to me. While 
 I write, he is sitting in the next room, reading, as cold, indiffer- 
 ent and calm as if I were not perfectly wretched. He is tyran- 
 nical ; and because I do not humor all his whims, and have some 
 will of my own, he treats me with insulting indifference. He is 
 angry now, because I resented some of his father's impertinent 
 speeches about my dress. This is not the first, nor the second 
 
BEULAH. 371 
 
 time that we have quarrelled. He has an old maid sister, who is 
 forever meddling about my affairs, and sneering at my domestic 
 arrangements ; and because I finally told her I believed I was 
 mistress of my own house, Ernest has never forgiven me. Ellen 
 (the sister I loved, and went to school with) has married, and 
 moved to a distant part of the State. The other members of his 
 family are bigoted, proud and parsimonious, and they have chiefly 
 made the breach between us. Oh, Beulah, if I could only undo 
 the past, and be Pauline Chilton once more ! Oh, if I could be 
 free and happy again ! But there is no prospect of that. I am 
 his wife, as he told me yesterday, and suppose I must drag out a 
 miserable existence. Yet I will not be trampled on by his family I 
 His sister spends much of her time with us ; reads to Ernest ; 
 talks to him about things that she glories in telling me I don't 
 understand the first word of. Beulah, I was anxious to study, 
 and make myself a companion for him, but, try as I may, Lucy 
 contrives always to fret and thwart me. Two days ago, she 
 nearly drove me beside myself, with her sneers and allusions to 
 my great mental inferiority to Ernest (as if I were not often 
 enough painfully reminded of the fact, without any of her assist- 
 ance !) I know I should not have said it, but I was too angry 
 to think of propriety, and told her that her presence in my home 
 was very disagreable. Oh, if you could have seen her insulting 
 smile, as she answered, that her ' noble brother needed her, and 
 she felt it a duty to remain with him.' Beulah, I love my hus- 
 band ; I would do anything on earth to make him happy, if we 
 were left to ourselves, but as to submitting to Lucy's arrogance 
 and sneers, I will not ! Ernest requires me to apologize to his 
 father and sister, and I told him I would not I I would die first ! 
 He does not love me, or he would shield me from such trials. He 
 thinks his sister is perfection, and I tell you I do absolutely detest 
 her. Now, Beulah, there is no one else to whom I would men- 
 tion my unhappiness. Mother does not suspect it, and never 
 shall, even when she visits me. Uncle Guy predicted it, and I 
 would not have him know it for the universe. But I can trust 
 
372 BEULAH. 
 
 you ; I feel that you will sympathize with me, and I want you to 
 counsel me. Oh, tell me what I ought to do to rid myself of 
 this tormenting sister-in-law and father-in-law, and I may say, all 
 Ernest's kin. Sometimes, when I think of the future, I absolutely 
 shudder ; for if matters go on this way much longer, I shall 
 learn to hate my husband too. He knew my disposition before 
 he married me, and has no right to treat me as he does. If it 
 were only Ernest, I could bring myself to ' obey ' him, for I love 
 him very devotedly ; but as to being dictated to by all his rela- 
 tives, I never will ! Beulah, burn this blurred letter, don't let 
 anybody know how drearily I am situated. I am too proud to 
 have my misery published. To know that people pitied me, 
 would kill me. I never can be happy again, but perhaps you 
 can help me to be less miserable. Do write to me ! Oh, how I 
 wish you could come to me ! I charge you, Beulah, don't let 
 Uncle Guy know that I am not happy. Good bye. Oh, if ever 
 you marry, be sure your husband has no old maid sisters, and no 
 officious kin 1 I am crying so, that I can barely see the lines. 
 
 Good bye, dear Beulah. 
 
 "PAULIXE." 
 
 Beulah leaned forward, and dropped the letter into the glow- 
 ing mass of coals. It shrivelled, blazed and vanished, and with a 
 heavy sigh, she sat pondering the painful contents. What advice 
 could she possibly give that would remedy the trouble ? She 
 was aware that the young wife must indeed have been "very 
 wretched," before she could consent to disclose her domestic 
 feuds to another. Under happier auspices, she felt that Pauline 
 would have made a devoted, gentle wife, but feared it was now 
 too late to mold her character in conformity with her husband's 
 wishes. " So much for a union of uncongenial natures," thought 
 Beulah, as she prepared to answer the unlucky letter. As guard- 
 edly as possible, she alluded to Mr. Mortimor and his family, and 
 urged Pauline to talk to her husband gently, but firmly, and 
 assure him that the continued interference of his family was un- 
 endurable. If her remonstrances proved futile, to do what she 
 
BEULAH. 373 
 
 considered due to herself as mistress of her own establishment, 
 and try not to notice the annoyances of others. Beulah felt, and 
 acknowledged her inability to advise the young wife in the diffi- 
 cult position in which she was placed, and closed by assuring her 
 that only her own. good sense, guided by sincere love for her 
 husband, could rightly direct her course. She was warmly 
 attached to Pauline, and it was with a troubled heart that she 
 addressed her reply. 
 
 CHAPTER XXIX. 
 
 THE Grahams were all at home again, and Eugene and his 
 bride had been for several weeks fairly settled in their elegant 
 new house. Beulah had seen none of the family since their re- 
 turn, for her time was nearly all occupied, and as soon as released 
 from school, she gladly hurried out to her little home. One 
 evening, as she left the Academy, Mr. Graham's spirited horses 
 dashed up to the gate, and the coachman handed her a note. It 
 was from Mrs. Graham. 
 
 " Miss BENTON : 
 
 " Cornelia is quite indisposed, and begs that you will call and see 
 her this afternoon. A.S it threatens rain, I send the carriage. 
 
 "S. GRAHAM." 
 
 Beulah crumpled the note between her fingers, and hesitated. 
 The coachman perceived her irresolution, and hastened to say : 
 
 " You needn't be afraid of the horses, miss. Miss Nett' rides 
 so much they are tamed down." 
 
 " I am not at all afraid of the horses. Has Cornelia been sick 
 since her return from the North T' 
 
 " Why, miss, she came home worse than ever. She has not 
 been down-stairs since. She is sick all the time now." 
 
 Beulah hesitated no longer. Mrs. Graham met her at the 
 door, and greeted her more cordially than she had done on any 
 
374 B E U L A H . 
 
 previous occasion. She looked anxious and weary, and said, as 
 she led the way to her daughter's apartment : 
 
 " We are quite uneasy about Cornelia ; you will find her 
 sadly altered." She ushered Benlah into the room, then imme- 
 diately withdrew. 
 
 Cornelia was propped up by cushions and pillows in her easy- 
 chair ; her head was thrown back, and her gaze appeared to be 
 riveted on a painting which hung opposite. Beulah stood beside 
 her a moment, unnoticed, and saw with painful surprise the 
 ravages which disease had made in the once beautiful face and 
 queenly form. The black, shining hair was cut short and clus- 
 tered in thick, wavy locks about the wan brow, now corrugated 
 as by some spasm of pain. The cheeks were hollow and ghastly 
 pale ; the eyes sunken, but unnaturally large and brilliant ; and 
 the colorless lips compressed as though to bear habitual suffering. 
 Her wasted hands, grasping the arms of the chair, might have 
 served as a model for a statue of death, so thin, pale, almost 
 transparent, Beulah softly touched one of them, and said : 
 
 " Cornelia, you wished to see me." 
 
 The invalid looked at her intently, and smiled. 
 
 " I thought you would come. Ah, Beulah, do you recognize 
 this wreck as your former friend ?" 
 
 " I was not prepared to find you so changed ; for until this 
 afternoon I was not aware your trip had been so fruitless. Do 
 you suffer much ?" 
 
 " Suffer 1 Yes, almost all the time ; but it is not the bodily 
 torture that troubles me so much I could bear that in silence. 
 It is my mind, Beulah ; my mind." 
 
 She pointed to a chair ; Beulah drew it near her, and Cornelia 
 continued : 
 
 " I thought I should die suddenly, but it is to be otherwise 
 The torture is slow, lingering. I shall never leave this house 
 again except to go to my final home. Beulah, I have wanted to 
 see you very much ; I thought you would hear of my illness and 
 come. How calm and pale you are. Give me your hand. Ah, 
 
BEULAH. 375 
 
 cool and pleasant ; mine parched with fever. And you have a 
 little home of your own, I hear. How have things gone with 
 you since we parted ? Are you happy ?" 
 
 " My little home is pleasant, and my w,ants are few," replied 
 Beulah. 
 
 "Have you seen Eugene recently?" 
 
 " Not since his marriage." 
 
 A bitter laugh escaped Cornelia's lips, as she writhed an instant, 
 and then said : 
 
 " I knew how it would be. I shall not live to see the end, 
 but you will. Ha! Beulah, already he has discovered his mis- 
 take. I did not expect it so soon ; I fancied Antoinette had 
 more policy. She has dropped the mask. He sees himself 
 wedded to a woman completely devoid of truth ; he knows her 
 now as she is : as I tried to show him she was, before it was too 
 late ; and Beulah, as I expected, he has grown reckless despe- 
 rate. Ah, if you could have witnessed a scene at the St. Nicholas, 
 in New York, not long since, you would have wept over him. 
 He found his bride heartless ; saw that she preferred the society 
 of other gentlemen to his ; that she lived only for the adulation 
 of the crowd ; and one evening, on coming home to the hotel, 
 found she had gone to the opera with a party she knew he de- 
 tested. Beulah, it sickens me when I think of his fierce railings, 
 ana anguish, and scorn. He drank in mad defiance, and when 
 she returned, greeted her with imprecations that would have 
 bowed any other woman, in utter humiliation, into the dust. Sfche 
 laughed derisively, told him he might amuse himself as he chose, 
 she would not heed his wishes as regarded her own movements. 
 Luckily, my parents knew nothing of it ; they little suspected, 
 nor do they now know, why I was taken so alarmingly ill before 
 dawn. I am glad I am to go so soon. I could not endure to 
 witness his misery and disgrace." 
 
 She closed her eyes and groaned. 
 
 " What induced her to marry him ?" asked Beulah. 
 
 " Only her own false heart knows. But I have always 
 
376 B E U L A H . 
 
 believed she was chiefly influenced by a desire to escape from 
 the strict discipline to which her father subjected her at home. 
 Her mother was anything but a model of propriety; and her 
 mother's sister, who jaras Dr. Hart well's wife, was not more 
 exemplary. My uncle endeavored to curb Antoinette's danger- 
 ous fondness for display and dissipation, and she fancied that, as 
 Eugene's wife, she could freely plunge into gaieties which were 
 sparingly allowed her at home. I know she does not love 
 Eugene ; she never did ; and, assuredly, his future is dark 
 enough. I believe, if she could reform him, she would not; his 
 excesses sanction, or at least in some degree palliate, hers. Oh, 
 Beulah, I see no hope for him!" 
 
 " Have you talked to him kindly, Cornelia ? Have you faith- 
 fully exerted your influence to check him in his route to ruin ?" 
 
 "Talked to him? Aye; entreated, remonstrated, upbraided, 
 used every argument at my command. But I might as well talk 
 to the winds, and hope to hush their fury. I shall not stay to 
 see his end; I shall soon be silent and beyond all suffering; 
 death is welcome, very welcome." 
 
 Her breathing was quick and difficult, and two crimson spots 
 burned on her sallow cheeks. Her whole face told of years of 
 bitterness, and a grim defiance of death, which sent a shudder 
 through Beulah, as she listened to the panting breath. Cornelia 
 saturated her handkerchief with some delicate perfume from a 
 crystal vase, and passing it over her face, continued : 
 
 ** They tell me it is time I should be confirmed ; talk vaguely 
 of seeing preachers, and taking the sacrament, and preparing 
 myself, as if I could be frightened into religion and the church. 
 My mother seems just to have waked up to a knowledge of my 
 spiritual condition, as she calls it. Ah, Beulah, it is all dark 
 before me; black, black as midnight! I am going down to an 
 eternal night; down to annihilation. Yes, Beulah, soon I shall 
 descend into what Schiller's Moor calls the ' nameless yonder.' 
 Before long I shall have done with mystery; shall be sunk into 
 unbroken rest." A ghastly smile parted her lips as she spoke. 
 
B E U L A H . 377 
 
 " Cornelia, do you fear death ?" 
 
 " No, not exactly. I am glad I arn so soon to be rid of rny 
 vexed, joyless life ; but you know it is all a dark mystery ; and 
 sometimes, when I recollect how I felt in my childhood, I shrink 
 from the final dissolution. I have no hopes of a blissful future, 
 such as cheer some people in their last hour. Of what comes 
 after death, I know and believe nothing. Occasionally, I shiver 
 at the thought of annihilation ; but if, after all, Revelation is 
 true, I have something worse than^ annihilation to fear. You 
 know the history of my skepticism; it is the history of hundreds 
 in this age. The inconsistencies of professing Christians dis- 
 gusted me. Perhaps I was wrong to reject the doctrines, 
 because of their abuse; but it is too late, now, for me to con- 
 sider that. I narrowly watched the conduct of some of the 
 members of the various churches, and, as I live, Beulah, I have 
 never seen but one who practised the precepts of Christ. I 
 concluded she would have been just what she was without reli- 
 gious aids. One of my mother's intimate friends was an osten- 
 tatious, pharisaical Christian ; gave alms, headed charity lists, 
 was remarkably punctual in her attendance at church, and appa- 
 rently very devout; yet I accidentally found out that she treated 
 a poor seamstress (whom she hired for a paltry sum), in a man- 
 ner that shocked my ideas of consistency, of common humanity. 
 The girl was miserably poor, and had aged parents, and brothers 
 and sisters, dependent on her exertions; but her Christian em- 
 ployer paid her the lowest possible price, and trampled on her 
 feelings as though she had been a brute. Oh, the hollowness 
 of the religion I saw practised! I sneered at everything con- 
 nected with churches, and heard no more sermons, which seemed 
 only to make hypocrites and pharisees of the congregation. I 
 have never known but one exception. Mrs. Asbury is a con- 
 sistent Christian. I have watched her, under various circum- 
 stances ; I have tempted her, in divers ways, to test her ; and 
 to-day, skeptic as I am, I admire and revere that noble woman. 
 If all Christiaus set an example as pure and bright as hers, 
 
378 B E U L A H . 
 
 there were less infidelity and atheism in the land. If I had 
 known even half a dozen such, I might have had a faith to 
 cheer me in the hour of my struggle. She used to talk gently 
 to me in days past, but I would not heed her. She often comes 
 to see me new ; and though I do not believe the words of com- 
 fort that fall from her lips, still they soothe me; and I love to 
 have her sit near me, that I may look at her sweet, holy face, 
 so full of winning purity. Beulah, a year ago we talked of these 
 things; I was then, as now, hopeless of creeds, of truth, but you 
 were sure you would find the truth, I looked at you eagerly 
 when you came in, knowing I could read the result in your 
 countenance. Ah, there is no peace written there! Where is 
 your truth ? Show it to me ?" 
 
 She twined her thin, hot fingers round Beulah's cold hand, 
 and spoke in a weary tone. The orphan's features twitched an 
 instant, and her old troubled look came back, as she said : 
 
 " I wish I could help you, Cornelia. It must be terrible, in- 
 deed, to stand on the brink of the grave and have no belief in 
 anything. I would give more than I possess to be able to assist 
 you, but I cannot ; I have no truth to offer you ; I have yet dis- 
 covered nothing for myself. I am not so sanguine as I was a 
 year ago, but I still hope that I shall succeed." 
 
 " You will not ; you will not. It is all mocking mystery, and 
 no more than the aggregated generations of the past, can you 
 find any solution." 
 
 Cornelia shook her head, and leaned back in her chair. 
 
 " Philosophy promises one," replied Beulah, resolutely. 
 
 " Philosophy ? take care ; that hidden rock stranded me 
 Listen to me : philosophy, or, what is now-a-day its synonym, 
 metaphysical systems, are worse than useless. They will make 
 you doubt your own individual existence, if that be possible. I 
 am older than you ; I am a sample of the efficacy of such sys- 
 tems. Oh, the so-called philosophers of this century and the 
 last are crowned-heads of humbugry 1 Adepts in the famous 
 art of 
 
B E U L A H . 379 
 
 " ' Wrapping nonsense round, 
 
 With pomp and darkness, till it seems profound.' 
 
 They mock earnest, inquiring minds with their refined infinitesi- 
 mal, homoeopathic ' developments' of deity; metaphysical wolves 
 in Socratic cloaks. Oh, they have much to answer for ! ' Spring 
 of philosophy !' ha ! ha ! they have made a frog-pond of it, in 
 which to launch their flimsy, painted toy-barks. Have done with 
 them, Beulah, or you will be miserably duped." 
 
 "Have you lost faith in Emerson and Theodore Parker?" 
 asked Beulah. 
 
 "Yes, lost faith in everything and everybody, except Mrs. 
 Asbury. Emerson's atheistic fatalism is enough to unhinge 
 human reason ; he is a great, and I believe an honest thinker, 
 and of his genius I have the profoundest admiration. An intel- 
 lectual Titan, be wages a desperate war with received creeds, 
 and rising on the ruins of systems, struggles to scale the battle- 
 ments of truth. As for Parker, a careful perusal of his works 
 was enough to disgust me. But no more of this, Beulah so 
 long* as you have found nothing to rest upon. I had hoped much 
 from your earnest search, but since it has been futile, let the 
 subject drop. Give me that glass of medicine. Dr. Hartwcll 
 was here, just before you came ; he is morose and haggard ; 
 what ails him ?" 
 
 " I really don't know. I have not seen him for several months % 
 not since August, I believe." 
 
 11 So I supposed, as I questioned him about you ; and he 
 seemed ignorant of your movements. Beulah, does not life look 
 dreary and tedious when you anticipate years of labor a,nd care ? 
 Teaching is not child's sport ; are you not already weary in 
 spirit ?" 
 
 " No, I am not weary; neither does life seem joyless. I know 
 that I shall have to labor for a support, but necessity always 
 supplies strength. I have many, very many sources of happi- 
 ness, and look forward, hopefully, to a life of usefulness." 
 
380 BEULAH. 
 
 " Do you intend to teach all your days ? Are you going to 
 wear out your life over primers and slates ?" 
 
 " Perhaps so. I know not how else I shall more easily earn a 
 subsistence." 
 
 " I trust you will marry, and be exempted from that dull, 
 tedious routine," said Cornelia, watching her countenance. 
 
 Beulah made a gesture of impatience. 
 
 " That is a mode of exemption so extremely remote that I 
 never consider it. I do not find teaching so disagreeable as you 
 imagine, and dare say, at fifty (if I live that long), I shall still 
 be in a schoolroom. Remember the trite line 
 
 " * I dreamed and thought that life was beauty: 
 I woke, and found that life was duty.' 
 
 Labor, mental and physical, is the heritage of humanity, and 
 happiness is inseparably bound up with the discharge of duty. 
 It is a divine decree that all should work, and a compliance with 
 that decree insures a proper development of the moral, intellec- 
 tual and physical nature." 
 
 " You are brave, Beulah, and have more of hope in your 
 nature than I. For twenty- three years, I have been "a petted 
 child, but life has given me little enjoyment. Often have I asked, 
 why was I created ? for what am I destined ? I have been like 
 a gilded bubble, tossed about by every breath ! Oh, Beulah I 
 often, in the desolation of my heart, I have recalled that grim 
 passage of Pollok's, and thought that verily I was that 
 
 " Atom which God 
 
 Had made superfluously, and needed not 
 To build creation with ; but back again 
 To nothing threw, and left it in the void, 
 With everlasting sense, that once it was!' 
 
 My life has not been useful, it has been but joyless, and clouded 
 with the shadow of death from my childhood." 
 
 Her voice was broken, and tears trickled over her emaciated 
 
BEULAH. 381 
 
 face. She put up her thin hand and brushed them away, as if 
 ashamed of her emotion. 
 
 " Sometimes I think if I could only live, and be strong, I 
 would make myself useful in the world would try to be less 
 selfish and exacting ; but all regrets are Tain, and the indulged 
 child of luxury must take her place in the pale realms of death, 
 along with the poverty-stricken and laboring. Beulah, I was in 
 pain last night, and could not sleep, and for hours I seemed to 
 hear the words of that horrible vision : ' And he saw how world 
 after world shook off its glimmering souls upon the sea of Death, 
 as a water-bubble scatters swimming lights on the waves.' Oh 1 
 my mind is clouded and my heart hopeless ; it is dismal to stand 
 alone as I do, and confront the final issue, without belief in any- 
 thing. Sometimes, when the paroxysms are severe and pro- 
 longed, I grow impatient of the tedious delay, and would spring, 
 open-armed, to meet Death, the deliverer." 
 
 Beulah was deeply moved, and answered, with a faltering 
 voice and trembling lip : 
 
 41 1 wish I could comfort and cheer you, but I cannot I can- 
 not ! If the hand of disease placed me to-day on the brink 
 beside you, I should be as hopeless as you. Oh, Cornelia ! it 
 makes my heart ache to look at you now, and I would give my 
 life to be able to stand where you do, with a calm trust in the 
 God of Israel ; but 
 
 " Then, be warned by my example. In many respects we 
 resemble each other; our pursuits have been similar. Beulah, do 
 not follow me to the end I Take 'my word for it, all is dark and 
 grim." 
 
 She sank back, too much exhausted to continue the conversa- 
 tion, and Beulah rose to go. 
 
 " Can't you stay with me ?" said the feeble girl. 
 
 " No, my companionship is no benefit to you now. If I could 
 help you, I would not leave you at all." 
 
 She pressed her lips to the forehead furrowed by suffering, and 
 hastened away. 
 
382 BEULAH. 
 
 It was dusk when she reached home, and passing the dining- 
 room, where the tea-table awaited her arrival, she songht her own 
 apartment. A cheerful fire blazed in welcome, but just now all 
 things were sombre to her vision, and she threw herself into a 
 chair and covered her face with her hauds. Like a haunting 
 spectre, Cornelia's haggard countenance pursued her, and a dull 
 foreboding pointed to a coming season when she, too, would quit 
 earth in hopeless uncertainty. She thought of her guardian and 
 his skeptical misanthropy. He had explored every by-path of 
 speculation, and after years of study and investigation, had 
 give*! up in despair, and settled down into a refined pantheism. 
 Could she hope to succeed better ? Was her intellect so vastly 
 superior to those who for thousands of years had puzzled by 
 midnight lamps over these identical questions of origin and des- 
 tiny ? What was the speculation of all ages, from Thales to 
 Comte, to the dying girl she had just left ? Poor Beulah ! for 
 the first time her courage forsook her, and bitter tears gushed 
 over her white cheeks. There was no stony bitterness in her 
 face, but an unlifting shadow that mutely revealed the unnum- 
 bered hours of strife and desolation which were slowly bowing 
 that brave heart to the dust. She shuddered, as now, in self- 
 communion, she felt that atheism, grim and murderous, stood at 
 the entrance of her soul, and threw its benumbing shadow into 
 the inmost recesses. Unbelief hung its murky vapors about her 
 heart, curtaining it from the sunshine of God's smile. It was 
 not difficult to trace her gradual progress, if so she might term 
 her unsatisfactory journey. Rejecting literal revelation, she was 
 perplexed to draw the exact line of demarkation between myths 
 and realities ; then followed doubts as to the necessity, and 
 finally, as to the probability and possibility of an external, 
 verbal revelation. A revealed code, or system, was antagonistic 
 to the doctrines of rationalism ; her own consciousness must 
 furnish the necessary data. But how far was " individualism " 
 allowable ? And here the hydra of speculation reared its horrid 
 head ; if consciousness alone furnished truth, it was but true for 
 
BEULAH. 383 
 
 her, true according to the formation of her mind, but not abso- 
 lutely true. Admit the supremacy of the individual reason, and 
 she could not deny " that the individual mind is the generating 
 principle of all human knowledge ; that the soul of man is like 
 the silkworm, which weaves its universe out of its own being ; 
 that the whole mass of knowledge, to which we can ever attain, 
 lies potentially within us from the beginning ; that all truth is 
 nothing more than a self-development." 
 
 She became entangled in the finely-spun webs of ontology, 
 and knew not what she believed. Her guardian's words rang in 
 her ears like a knell. "You must accept either utter skepticism, 
 or absolute, consistent pantheism.' 7 
 
 A volume, which she had been reading the night before, 
 lay on the table, and she opened it at the following passage : 
 
 " Every being is sufficient to itself ; that is, every being is, in 
 and by itself, infinite: has its God, its highest conceivable being, 
 in itself. The object of any subject is nothing else than the 
 subject's own nature taken objectively. Such as are a man's 
 thoughts and dispositions, such is his God I Consciousness of 
 God, is self-consciousness ; by his God, you know the man, and 
 by the man, his God : the two are identical 1 Religion is 
 merely the consciousness which a man has of his own, not 
 limited, but infinite nature ; it is an early form of self- 
 knowledge. God is the objective nature of the under- 
 standing." 
 
 Thus much Feuerbach offered her. She put down the book, 
 and leaned her head wearily on her hands. A light touch on 
 her arm caused her to glance up, and Mrs. Williams' anxious 
 face looked down at her. 
 
 "What is the matter with you, Beulah ? Are you sick ?" 
 
 " No, I am as well as usual." She hastily averted her head. 
 
 " But something troubles you, child I" 
 
 " Yes, a great many things trouble me ; but I am used to 
 troubles, you know, and can cope with them unaided." 
 
 " Won't you tell me what they are, Beulah ?" 
 
384 B E U L A H . 
 
 " You cannot help me, or I would. One cause of sorrow, 
 however, is the approaching death of a friend, whom I shall 
 miss and mourn. Cornelia Graham cannot live much longer. I 
 saw her this evening, and found her sadly altered." 
 
 " She is young to die," said the matron, with a sigh. 
 
 " Yes, only twenty-three." 
 
 " Perhaps her death will be the means of reclaiming my poor 
 boy." 
 
 Beulah shook her head, and Mrs. Williams added : 
 
 " She has lived only for this world and its pleasures. Is she 
 afraid of the world to come ? Can she die peacefully ?" 
 
 "She will die calmly, but not hopefully. She does not believe 
 in Christianity." 
 
 She felt that the matron was searching her countenance, and 
 was not surprised when she said, falteringly : 
 
 " Neither do you believe in it. Oh, Beulah ! I have known it 
 since you came to reside under the same roof with me, and I 
 have wept and prayed over you almost as much as over Eugene. 
 When Sabbath after Sabbath passed, and you absented yourself 
 from church, I knew something was wrong. Beulah, who has 
 taught you infidelity ? Oh, it would have been better that you 
 too had followed Lilly, in the early days when you were pure in 
 heart ! Much as I love you, I would rather weep over your 
 grave, than know you had lived to forget God." 
 
 Beulah made no reply, and passing her hands tenderly over 
 the girl's head, she continued : 
 
 " When you came to me, a little child, I taught you your 
 morning and evening prayers. Oh, Beulah ! Beulah ! now you 
 lay down to sleep without u thought of prayer. My child, what 
 is to become of you ?" 
 
 " I don't know. But do not be distressed about me ; I am 
 trying to do my duty just as conscientiously as though I went to 
 church." 
 
 " Don't deceive yourself, dear child. If you cease to pray and 
 read your Bible, how are you to know what your duty is ? How 
 
BEULAH. 385 
 
 are you to keep yourself ' pure and unspotted from the world V 
 Beulah, a man without religion is to be pitied ; but, oh ! a God- 
 less woman is a horror above all things. It is no marvel you 
 look so nnxious and hollow-eyed. Yoa have forsaken the ' ways 
 of pleasantness, and the paths of peace. 7 " 
 
 " I am responsible to no one for my opinions." 
 
 "Yes, you are ; responsible to God, for he has given truth to 
 the world, and when you shut your eyes, and willingly walk in 
 darkness, he will judge you accordingly. If you had lived in an 
 Indian jungle, out of hearing of Gospel truth, then God would 
 not have expected anything but idolatry from you ; but you live 
 in a Christian land ; in the land of bibles, and 'to whom much 
 is given, much will be expected.' The people of this generation 
 are running after new doctrines, and overtake much error. 
 Beulah, since I have seen you, sitting up, nearly all night, poring 
 over books that rail at Jesus and his doctrines, I have repented 
 the hour I first suggested your educating yourself to teach. If 
 this is what all your learning has brought you to, it would have 
 been better if you had been put out to learn millinery or mantua- 
 making. Oh, my child, you have been my greatest pride, bnt 
 now you are a grief to me 1" 
 
 She took Beulah's hand in hers, and pressed her lips to it, 
 while the tears fell thick and fast. The orphan was not un- 
 moved ; her lashes were heavy with unshed drops, but she said 
 nothing. 
 
 " Beulah, I am fifty-five years old ; I have seen a great deal 
 of the world, and I tell you, I have never yet known a happy 
 man or woman, who did not reverence God and religion. I can 
 see that you are not happy ; child, you never will be, so long as 
 you wander away from God. I pray for you, but you must also 
 pray for yourself. May God help you, my dear child." 
 
 She left her, knowing her nature too well to hope to con- 
 vince her of her error. 
 
 Beulah remained for some time in the same position, with her 
 eyes fixed on the fire, and her forehead ploughed by torturing 
 
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386 BEULAH. 
 
 thought. The striking of the clock roused her from her reverie, 
 and drawing a chair near her desk, she took up her pen to com- 
 plete an article due the next day at the magazine office,. All, 
 ho\v little the readers dreamed of the heavy heart, that put 
 aside its troubles to labor for their amusement. To-night she 
 did not succeed as well as usual ; her manuscript was blurred, 
 and forced to copy the greater part of it, the clock struck three 
 before she laid her weary head on her pillow. 
 
 CHAPTER XXX 
 
 MR. GRAHAM sat by his daughter's bed, with his elbow resting 
 on her pillow,- and his head drooped on his hand. It was noon, 
 and sunshine sparkled out of doors, but here the heavy curtains 
 swept across the windows, and cast a lurid light over the sick- 
 room. His heart ached, as he looked upon the wreck of his 
 once brilliant and beautiful child, and he shaded his face to con- 
 ceal the tears which stole down his furrowed cheeks. The rest- 
 less sufferer threw up her arms over the pillow, and turning 
 toward him, said in a voice sharpened by disease : 
 
 " Has mother gone ? I want to say something to you." 
 " We are alone, my child ; speak to me freely." 
 " There are a few things I wish to have arranged, and my 
 time is short. You have never refused me any gratification I 
 desired, and I know you will grant my last request. Father, if 
 I were a bride to-day, what would be my portion of the estate ? 
 How much would you give me ?" 
 
 " I would give every cent I possess, to purchase you a life of 
 happiness." 
 
 " You do not understand me. I have always been considered 
 an heiress, and I want to know how much I would be entitled 
 
BEULAH. 387 
 
 to, if I should live ? Of course Eugene has an equal share ; 
 how much is it ?" 
 
 " About eighty thousand dollars apiece, I suppose, leaving as 
 much for your mother. Why do you ask, my daughter ?" 
 
 "Eighty thousand dollars. How much good might be done 
 with it, if judiciously distributed and invested ? Father, I shall 
 not live to squander it in frivolou* amusements, or superfluous 
 luxuries. Are you willing that I should dispose of a portion of 
 it before my death ?" 
 
 "Yes, Cornelia, if it will afford you any gratification. My 
 poor afflicted child : how can I deny you anything you choose 
 to ask !" 
 
 She put up one arm around his neck, and drawing his head 
 close to her, said earnestly : 
 
 " I only wish to use a part of it. Father, I want to leave 
 Beulah about five thousand dollars. That sum will enable her 
 to live more comfortably, and labor less, and I should like to 
 feel, before I die, that I had been the means of assisting her. 
 Will you invest that amount in stocks for her, or pay the money 
 into her own hands ? Will you see that it is arranged so, that 
 she will certainly receive it, no matter what happens ?" 
 
 " Yes, I promise you, that she shall have five thousand dollars, 
 to dispose of as she thinks proper." 
 
 " She is proud, and will not receive it willingly ; but you must 
 arrange it, so that she will be benefited by it. Father, can 
 you do this for me ?" 
 
 " Yes, without difficulty, I think." 
 
 " Let it be kept secret, will you ?" 
 
 " Rest assured it shall have no unnecessary publicity." 
 
 " See that it is conveyed to her so securely, that no quibbles 
 of law can wrest it from her at any future day, for none of us 
 knows what may happen." 
 
 " I promise you she shall have it, if I live twelve hours 
 longer." 
 
 " Then, I want five thousand more given to the Orphan Asylum. 
 
388 BEULAH. 
 
 Give it in your own name. You only have the right to give. 
 Don't have my name mentioned in the matter. Will you promise 
 me this, also ?" 
 
 " Yes, it shall all be done. Is there anything else ?" 
 
 " Thank you, that is all as regards money matters. Raise my 
 pillow a little ; there, that will do. Father, can't you do some- 
 thing to save Eugene ? You must see now how reckless he is 
 growing." 
 
 " Recently I have expostulated with him, and he seemed dis- 
 posed to reform his habits. Acknowledged that his associations 
 had been injurious, and regretted the excesses into which he had 
 been led. He has been rather wild since he came from college, 
 but I think, now he is married, he will sober down. That is one 
 reason .why I encouraged his marrying so early. Intemperance 
 is his only fault, and I trust his good sense will soon lead him to 
 correct it." A smothered sigh concluded the sentence. 
 
 " Father, Antoinette is not the woman to reform him. Don't 
 trust to her influence ; if you do, Eugene will be ruined. Watch 
 over him closely yourself ; try to win him away from the haunts 
 of dissipation ; I tell you now his wife will never do it. She has 
 duped you and my mother as to her character, but you will find 
 that she is as utterly heartless as her own mother was. I always 
 opposed the match, because I probed her mask of dissimulation, 
 and knew Eugene could not be happy with her. But the mis- 
 take is irretrievable, and it only remains for you to watch him 
 the more carefully. Lift me, father, I can't breathe easily. 
 There is the doctor ou the steps ; I am too tired to talk any 
 more to-day." 
 
 ******** 
 
 One week later, as Beulah was spending her Sabbath evening 
 in her own apartment, she was summoned to see her friend for 
 the last time. It was twilight when she reached Mr. Graham's 
 house and glided noiselessly up the thickly-carpeted stairway. 
 The bells were all muffled, and a solemn stillness reigned over the 
 mansion. She left her bonnet and shawl in the hall, and softlj 
 
BEULAH. 389 
 
 entered the chamber unannounced. Unable to breathe in a 
 horizontal position, Cornelia was bolstered up in her easy-chair. 
 Her mother sat near her, with her face hid on her husband's 
 bosom. Dr. Hart well leaned against the mantel, and Eugene 
 stood on the hearth opposite him, with his head bowed down on 
 his hands. Cornelia drew her breath in quick gasps, and cold 
 drops glistened on her pallid face. Her sunken eyes wandered 
 over the group, and when Beulah drew near she extended her 
 hands eagerly, while a shadowy smile passed swiftly over her 
 sharpened features. 
 
 " Beulah, come close to me close." She grasped her hands 
 tightly, and Beulah knelt at the side of her chair. 
 
 " Beulah, in a little while I shall be at rest. You will rejoice 
 to see me free from pain, won't you ? I have suffered for so many 
 months and years. But death is about to release me forever. 
 Beulah, is it forever ? is it forever ? Am I going down into an 
 eternal sleep, on a marble couch, where grass and flowers will 
 wave over me, and the sun shine down on me ? Yes, it must be 
 so. AVho has ever waked from this last dreamless slumber ? 
 Abel was the first to fall asleep, and since then, who has wak- 
 ened ? No one. Earth is full of pale sleepers ; and I am soon 
 to join the silent band." 
 
 There was a flickering light in her eyes, like the flame of a 
 candle low in its socket, and her panting breath was painful to 
 listen to. 
 
 " Cornelia, they say Jesus of Nazareth slept, and woke again; 
 if so, you will " 
 
 " Ha, but you don't believe that, Beulah. They say, they 
 say ! Yes, but I never believed them before, and I don't want 
 to believe them now. I will not believe it. It is too late to tell 
 me that now. Beulah, I shall know very soon ; the veil of mys- 
 tery is being lifted. Oh, Beulah, I am glad I am going ; glad I 
 shall soon have no more sorrow and pain ; but it is all dark, 
 dark 1 You know what I mean. Don't live as I have, believing 
 nothing. No matter what your creed may be, hold fast, have 
 
390 BEULAH. 
 
 firm faith in it. It is because I believe in nothing, that I am so 
 clouded now. Oh, it is such a dark, dark, lonely way ! If I had 
 a friend to go with me, I should not shrink back, but oh, Beulah, 
 I am so solitary! It seems to me I am going out into a great 
 starless midnight." She shivered, and her cold fingers clutched 
 Beulah's convulsively. 
 
 " Calm yourself, Cornelia. If Christianity is true, God will see 
 that you were honest in your skepticism, and judge you leniently. 
 If not, then, death is annihilation, and you have nothing to 
 dread ; you will sink into quiet oblivion of all your griefs." 
 
 " Annihilation I then I shall see you all no more ! Oh, why 
 was I ever created, to love others, and then be torn away for- 
 ever, and go back to senseless dust ? I never have been happy; 
 I have always had aspirations after purer, higher enjoyments 
 than earth could afford me, and must they be lost in dead clay ? 
 Oh, Beulah, can you give me no comfort but this ? Is this the 
 sum of all your study, as well as mine ? Ah, it is vain, useless ; 
 man can find out nothing. We are all blind ; groping our way 
 through mysterious paths, and now I am going into the last 
 the great mystery !" 
 
 She shook her head, with a bitter smile, and closed her eyes, 
 as if to shut out some hideous spectre. . Dr. Hartwell gave her a 
 spoonful of some powerful medicine, and stood watching her face, 
 distorted by the difficulty of breathing. A long silence ensued, 
 broken only by the sobs of the parents. Cornelia leaned back, 
 with closed eyes, and now and then her lips moved, but nothing 
 intelligible escaped them. It was surprising how she seemed to 
 rally, sometimes, and breathe with perfect ease .; then the 
 paroxysms would come on more violent than ever. Beulah knelt 
 on the floor, with her forehead resting on the arm of the chair, 
 arid her hands still grasped in the firm hold of the dying girl- 
 Time seemed to stand still, to watch the issue, for moments were 
 long as hours to the few friends of the sufferer. Beulah felt as 
 if her heart were leaden, and a band of burning iron seemed 
 drawn about her brow. "Was this painful parting to be indeed 
 
BETJLAH. T>91 
 
 eternal ? Was there no future home for the dead of this world ? 
 Should the bands of love and friendship, thus ruddy sever. -d, be 
 renewed no more? Was there no land where the broken links 
 might be gathered up again ? What did philosophy say of i ! 
 grim hours of struggle and separation ? Nothing absolutely 
 nothing ! Was she to see her sister no more ? Was a inokler- 
 ing mass of dust all that remained of the darling dead the beau- 
 tiful angel, Lilly, whom she had so idolized ? Oh ! was life, 
 then, a great mockery, and the soul, with its noble aims and 
 impulses, but a delicate machine of matter ? Her brain was in a 
 wild, maddening whirl ; she could not weep ; her eyes were dry 
 and burning. Cornelia moved an instant, and murmured, audibly: 
 
 " ' For here we have no continuing city, but seek one to come.' 
 Ah ! what is its name ? that ' continuing city 1' Necropolis ?" 
 Again she remained, for some time, speechless. 
 
 Dr. Hartwell softly wiped away the glistening drops on her 
 brow, and opening her eyes, she looked up at him intently. It 
 was an imploring gaze, which mutely said : " Can't you help me ?" 
 He leaned over, and answered it, sadly enough : 
 
 " Courage, Cornelia I It will very soon be over now. The 
 worst is past, my friend." 
 
 " Yes, I know. There is a chill creeping over me. Where is 
 Eugene ?" 
 
 He came and stood near her ; his face full of anguish, which 
 could not vent itself in tears. Her features became convulsed as 
 she looked at him ; a wailing cry broke from her lips ; and ex- 
 tending her arms toward him, she said, sobbingly : 
 
 " Shall I see you no more no more ? Oh, Eugene, my 
 brother, my pride, my dearest hope ! whom I have loved bet- 
 ter than my own life, are we now parted forever forever !" 
 
 He laid her head on his bosom, and endeavored to soothe her; 
 but dinging to him, she said, huskily : 
 
 " Eugene, with my last breath I implore you ; forsake your 
 intemperate companions. Shun them and their haunts. Let me 
 die, feeling that at least my dying prayer will save you ! Oh, 
 
BE TIL A H. 
 
 when I am gone ; when I am silent in the graveyard, remember 
 how the thought of your intemperance tortured me ! Remem- 
 ber how I remonstrated, and entreated you not to ruin yourself \ 
 Remember that I loved you above everything on earth; and that, 
 in my last hour, I prayed you to save yourself ! Oh, Eugene, 
 for my sake 1 for my sake 1 quit the wiae cup, and leave drunk- 
 enness for others more degraded ! Promise me ! : Where 
 
 are you ? Oh, it is all cold and dark ! I can't see you I 
 
 Eugene, promise, promise ! Eugene 1" 
 
 Her eyes were riveted on his, and her lips moved for some 
 seconds ; then the clasping arms gradually relaxed ; the gasps 
 ceased. Eugene felt a long shudder creep over the limbs, a deep, 
 heavy sigh passed her lips, and Cornelia Graham's soul was with 
 its God. 
 
 Ah 1 after twenty- three years of hope and fear, struggling and 
 questioning, what an exit. Eugene lifted the attenuated form, 
 and placed it on the bed ; then threw himself into her vacant 
 chair, and sobbed like a broken-hearted child. Mr. Graham 
 took his wife from the room ; and after some moments, Dr. 
 Hartwell touched the kneeling figure, with the face still pressed 
 against the chair Eugene now occupied. 
 
 11 Come, Beulah, she will want you no more." 
 
 She lifted a countenance so full of woe, that as he looked at 
 her, the moisture gathered in his eyes, and he put his hand ten- 
 derly on her head, saying : 
 
 " Come with me, Beulah." 
 
 " And this is death ? Oh, my God, save me from such a 
 death !" 
 
 She clasped her hands over her eyes, and shivered ; then rising 
 from her kneeling posture, threw herself on a couch, and buried 
 her face in its cushions. That long night of self-communion was 
 never forgotten. 
 
 ******** 
 
 The day of the funeral was cold, dark and dismal. A January 
 wind howled through the streets, and occasional drizzling show- 
 
BEULAH. 393 
 
 ers enhanced the gloom. The parlors and sitting-room were 
 draped, and on the marble slab of one of the tables stood the 
 coffin, covered with a velvet pall. Once before, Beulah had 
 entered a room similarly shrouded ; and it seemed but yesterday 
 that she stood beside Lilly's rigid form. She went in alono, and 
 waited some moments near the coffin, striving to calm the w'ld 
 tumult of conflicting sorrows in her oppressed heart ; then lifted 
 the covering, and looked on the sleeper. Wan, waxen and 
 silent. No longer the fitful sleep of disease, nor the refreshing 
 slumber of health, but the still iciness of ruthless death. The 
 black locks were curled around the forehead, and the beautiful 
 hands folded peacefully over the heart that should throb no more 
 with the anguish of earth. Death had smoothed the brow, and 
 put the trembling mouth at rest, and every feature was in repose. 
 In life she had never looked so placidly beautiful. 
 
 "What availed all her inquiries, and longings, and defiant 
 cries? She died, no nearer the truth than when she began. 
 She died without hope, and without knowledge. Only death 
 could unseal the mystery," thought Beulah, as she looked at the 
 marble face, and recalled the bitterness of its life-long expression. 
 Persons began to assemble ; gradually, the rooms filled. Beulah 
 bent down, and kissed the cold lips for the last time, and lower- 
 ing her veil, retired to a dim corner. She was very miserable, 
 but her eyes were tearless, and she sat, she knew not how long, 
 unconscious of what passed around her. She heard the stifled 
 sobs of the bereaved parents, as in a painful dream ; and when 
 the solemn silence was broken, she started, and saw a venerable 
 man, a stranger, standing at the head of the coffin ; and these 
 words fell upon her ears like a message from another world : 
 
 " I am the resurrection and the life," saith the Lord ; " and he 
 that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live ; 
 and whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die 1" 
 
 Cornelia had not believed ; was she utterly lost ? Beulah 
 asked herself this question, and shrank from the answer. She 
 did not believe : would she die as Cornelia died, without com- 
 
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394: BEULAH. 
 
 fort ? Was there but one salvation ? When the coffin was 
 borne out, and the procession formed, she went on mechanically, 
 and found herself seated in a carriage with Mrs. Asbury and her 
 two daughters. She sank back in one corner, and the long line 
 of carriages, extending for many squares, slowly wound through 
 the streets. The wind wailed and sobbed, as if in sympathy, 
 and the rain drizzled against the window glass. When the pro- 
 cession reached the cemetery, it was too wet to think of leaving 
 the carriages, but Beulah could see the coffin borne from the 
 hearse, and heard the subdued voice of the minister ; and when 
 the shrouded form of the only child was lowered into its final 
 resting-place, she groaned, and hid her face in her hands. 
 " Should they meet no more ?" Hitherto Mrs. Asbury had for- 
 borne to address her, but now she passed her arm round the 
 shuddering form, and said, gently : 
 
 " My dear Beulah, do not look so hopelessly wretched. In 
 the midst of life, we are in death ; but God has given a promise 
 to cheer us all in sad scenes like this. St. John was told to 
 write, ' From henceforth, blessed are the dead who die in the' 
 Lord, for they rest from their labors/ " 
 
 " And do you think she is lost forever, because she did not 
 believe ? Do you ? Can you ?" cried Beulah, vehemently. 
 
 " Beulah, she had the Bible, which promises eternal life. If 
 she entirely rejected it, she did so voluntarily and deliberately ; 
 but only God knows the heart only her Maker can judge her. 
 I trust that even in the last hour, the mists rolled from her 
 mind." 
 
 Beulah knew better, but said nothing ; it was enough to have 
 witnessed that darkened soul's last hour on earth. As the car- 
 riage stopped at her door, Mrs. Asbury said : 
 
 "My dear Beulah, stay with me to-night. I think I can help 
 you to find what you are seeking so earnestly." 
 
 Beulah shrank back, and answered : 
 
 " No, no. No one can help me ; I must help myself. Somo 
 other time I will come." 
 
BEITLAH. 395 
 
 The rain fell heavily as she reached her own home, and she 
 went to her room with a heaviness of heart almost unendurable. 
 She sat down on the rug before the fire, and threw her unns up 
 over a chair, as she was wont to do in childhood, and as she 
 remembered that the winter ruin now beat pitilessly on the- grave 
 of one who had never known privation, nor aught of grief that 
 wealth could shield her from, she moaned bitterly. What lamp 
 had philosophy hung in the sable chambers of the tomb ? The 
 soul was impotent to explain its origin how, then, could it pos- 
 sibly read the riddle of final destiny ? Psychologists had wran- 
 gled for ages over the question of ' ideas.' Were infants born 
 with or without them ? Did ideas arise or develop themselves 
 independently of experience ? The affirmation or denial of this 
 proposition alone distinguished the numerous schools, which had 
 so long wrestled with psychology; and if this were insolvable, 
 how could human intellect question further ? Could it bridge 
 the gulf of Death, and explore the shores of Eternity ? 
 
 CHAPTER XXXI. 
 
 TIME, " like a star, unhasting, yet unresting," moved on. The 
 keen blasts of winter were gathered back in their northern 
 storehouses, and the mild airs of spring floated dreamily beneath 
 genial skies. The day had been cloudless and balmy, but now 
 the long, level rays of sunshine, darting from the horizon, told 
 it " was well-nigh done ;" and Beulah sat on the steps of her 
 cottage home, and watched the dolphin-like death. The regal 
 splendors of southern springtime were on every side ; the bright, 
 fresh green of the grassy common, with its long, velvety slopes, 
 where the sunshine fell slantingly; the wild luxuriance of the 
 Cherokee rose-hedges, with their graceful streamers gleaming 
 
396 BEULAH. 
 
 with the snow-powder of blossoms ; the waving of new-born 
 foliage ; the whir and chirping of birds, as they sought their 
 leafy shelters ; brilliant patches of verbena, like flakes of rain- 
 bow, in the neighboring gardens ; and the faint, sweet odor of 
 violet, jasmin, roses and honey-suckle, burdening the air. Beulah 
 sat with her hands folded on her lap ; an open book lay before 
 her a volume of Kuskin ; but the eyes had wandered away from 
 his gorgeous descriptions, to another and still more entrancing 
 volume the glorious page of Nature ; and as the swift southern 
 twilight gathered, she sat looking out, mute and motionless. 
 The distant pine-tops sang their solemn, soothing lullaby, and a 
 new moon sat royally in the soft violet sky. Around the 
 columns of the little portico, a luxuriant wisteria clambered, and 
 long, purple blossoms, with their spicy fragrance, drooped 
 almost on Beulah's head, as she leaned it against the pillar. 
 The face wore a weary, suffering look ; the large, restless eyes 
 were sadder than ever, and there were tokens of languor in 
 every feature. A few months had strangely changed the coun- 
 tenance, once so hopeful and courageous in its uplifted expres- 
 sion. The wasted form bore evidence of physical suffering, 
 and the slender fingers were like those of a marble statue. Yet 
 she had never missed an hour in the schoolroom, nor omitted 
 one iota of the usual routine of mental labor. Kigorously the 
 tax was levied, no matter how the weary limbs ached, or how 
 painfully the head throbbed ; and now nature rebelled at the 
 unremitted exaction, and clamored for a reprieve. Mrs. Williams 
 had been confined to her room for many days, by an attack of 
 rheumatism, and the time devoted to her was generally reclaimed 
 irom sleep. It was no mystery that she looked ill and spent. 
 Now, as she sat watching the silver crescent glittering in the 
 west, her thoughts wandered to Clara Sanders, and the last let- 
 ter received from her, telling of a glorious day-star of hope, 
 which had risen in her cloudy sky. Mr. Arlington's brother had 
 taught her that the dream of her girlhood was but a fleeting 
 fancy, that she could love again more truly than before, and in 
 
t BEULAH. 397 
 
 the summer holidays she was to give him her hand, and receive 
 his name. Beulah rejoiced in her friend's happiness, but a dim 
 foreboding arose, lest, as in Pauline's case, thorns should spring 
 up in paths where now only blossoms were visible. Since that 
 letter, so full of complaint and sorrow, no tidings had come from 
 Pauline. Many months had elapsed, and Beulah wondered more 
 and more at the prolonged silence. She had written several 
 times, but received no answer, and imagination painted a 
 wretched young wife in that distant parsonage. Early in spring, 
 she learned from Dr. Asbury that Mrt Lockhart had died at his 
 plantation, of consumption, and she conjectured that Mrs. Lock- 
 hart must be with her daughter. Beulah half-rose, then leaned 
 back against the column, sighed involuntarily, and listened to 
 that " still small voice of the level twilight behind purple hills." 
 Mrs. Williams was asleep, but the tea-table waited for her, and 
 in her own room, on her desk, lay an unfinished manuscript, 
 which was due the editor the next morning. She was rigidly 
 punctual in handing in her contributions, cost her what it might; 
 yet now she shrank from the task of copying and punctuating, 
 and sat awhile longer, with the gentle southern breeze rippling 
 over her hot brow. She no longer wrote incognito; by accident 
 she was discovered as the authoress of several articles com- 
 mented upon by other journals, and more than once her humble 
 home had been visited by some of the leading literati of the 
 place. Her successful career, thus far, inflamed the ambition 
 which formed so powerful an element in her mental organization, 
 and a longing desire for Fame took possession of her soul. Early 
 and late she toiled ; one article was scarcely in the hands of the 
 compositor, ere she was engaged upon another. She lived, as it 
 were, in a perpetual brain-fever, and her physical frame suffered 
 proportionably. The little gate opened and closed with a creak- 
 ing sound, and hearing a step near her, Beulah looked up and 
 saw her guardian before her. The light from the dining-room 
 fell on his face, and a glance showed her that, although it was 
 pale and inflexible as ever, something of more than ordinary 
 
39S BEULAH. % 
 
 interest had induced this visit. He had never entered that gate 
 before ; and she sprang np, and held out both hands with an 
 eager cry : 
 
 " Oh, sir, I am so glad to see you once more 1" 
 
 He took her hands in his, and looked at her gravely ; then 
 made her sit down again on the step, and said : 
 
 " I suppose you would have died, before you could get your 
 consent to send for me ? It is well that you have somebody to 
 look after you. How long have you had this fever ?" 
 
 " Fever ! Why, sir, I have no fever," she replied, with some 
 surprise. 
 
 " Oh, child ! are you trying to destroy yourself by your 
 obstinacy ? If so, like most other things you undertake, I sup- 
 pose you will succeed." 
 
 He held her hands, and kept his finger on the quick bounding 
 pulse. Beulah had not seen him since the night of Cornelia's 
 death, some months before, and conjectured that Dr. Asbury 
 had told him she was not looking well. 
 
 She could not bear the steady, searching gaze of his luminous 
 eyes, and moving restlessly, said : 
 
 " Sir, what induces you to suppose that I am sick ? I have 
 1 complained of indisposition to no one." 
 
 " Of course you have not, for people are to believe that you 
 are a gutta-percha automaton." 
 
 She fancied his tone was slightly sneering ; but his counte- 
 nance wore the expression of anxious, protecting interest, which 
 she had so prized in days past, and as her hands trembled in 
 his clasp, and his firm hold tightened, she felt that it was useless 
 to attempt to conceal the truth longer. 
 
 " I didn't know I was feverish, but for some time, I have 
 daily grown weaker ; I tremble when I stand or walk, and am 
 not able to sleep. That is all." 
 
 He smiled down at her earnest face, and asked : 
 
 " Is that all, child ? Is that all ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir, all." 
 
BETJLAH. 399 
 
 " And here yon have been, with a continued, wasting nervous 
 fever, for you know not how many days, yet keep on your round 
 of labors, without cessation ?" 
 
 He dropped her hands, and folded his arms across his broad 
 chest, keeping his eyes upon her. 
 
 "I am not at all ill ; but I believe I need some medicine to 
 strengthen me." 
 
 " Yes, child ; you do, indeed, need a medicine, but it is one 
 you will never take." 
 
 "Try me, sir," answered she, smiling. 
 
 ''Try you? I might as well try to win an eagle from its 
 lonely rocky home. Beulah, you need rest. Rest for mind, 
 body and heart. But you will not take it ; oh, no, of course 
 you won't 1" 
 
 He passed his hand over his brow, and swept back the glossy 
 chestnut hair, as if it oppressed him. 
 
 " I would willingly take it, sir, if I could ; but the summer 
 vacation is still distant, and, besides, my engagements oblige me 
 to exert myself. It is a necessity with me." 
 
 " Rather say, sheer obstinacy," said he, sternly. 
 
 "You are severe, sir," replied Beulah, lifting her head 
 haughtily. 
 
 " No, I only call things by their proper names." 
 
 11 Yery well ; if you prefer it, then, obstinacy compels me just 
 now to deny myself the rest you prescribe." 
 
 "Yes, rightly spoken ; and it will soon compel you to a long 
 rest, in the quiet place where Cornelia waits for you. You are 
 a mere shadow now, and a few more months will complete your 
 design. I have blamed myself more than once, that I did not 
 suffer you to die with Lilly, as you certainly would have done, 
 had I not tended you so closely. Your death, then, would have 
 saved me much care and sorrow, and you, many struggles." 
 
 There was a shadow on his face, and his voice had the deep 
 musical tone, which always made her heart thrill. Her eyelids 
 drooped, as she said, sadly: 
 
400 B E U L A H . 
 
 "You are unjust. We meet rarely enough, heaven knows. 
 Why do you invariably make these occasions seasons of up- 
 braiding ; of taunts, and sneers. Sir, I owe you my life, and 
 more than my life, and never can I forget or cancel my obliga- 
 tions ; but are you no longer my friend ?" 
 
 His whole face lighted up ; the firm mouth trembled. 
 
 " No, Beulah. I am no longer your friend." 
 
 She looked up at him, and a quiver crept across her lips. 
 She had never seen that eager expression in his stern face before. 
 His dark fascinating eyes were full of pleading tenderness, and 
 as she drooped her head on her lap,* she knew that Clara was 
 right, that she was dearer to her guardian than any one else. 
 A half smothered groan escaped her, and there was a short 
 pause. 
 
 Dr. Hartwell put his hands gently on her bowed head, and 
 lifted the face. 
 
 " Child, does it surprise you ?" 
 
 She said nothing, and leaning her head against him, as she 
 had often done years before, he passed his hand caressingly 
 over the folds of hair, and added : 
 
 ' "You call me your guardian; make me such. I can no 
 longer be only your friend ; I must either be more, or henceforth 
 a stranger. My life has been full of sorrow and bitterness, but 
 you can bring sunlight to my home and heart. You were too 
 proud to be adopted. Once I asked you to be my child. Ah I 
 I did not know my own heart then. Our separation during the 
 yellow fever season first taught me how inexpressibly dear you 
 were to me, how entirely you filled my heart. Now, I ask you 
 to be my wife : to give yourself to me. Oh, Beulah, come 
 back to my cheerless home! Rest your lonely heart, my proud 
 darling." 
 
 " Impossible. Do not ask it. I cannot. I cannot," cried 
 Beulah, shuddering violently. 
 
 " Why not, my little Beulah ?" 
 
 He clasped his arm around her, and drew her close to him 
 
BETJLAH. 401 
 
 while his head was bent so low, that his brown hair touched her 
 cheek. 
 
 " Oh, sir, I would rather die! I should be miserable as your 
 wife. You do not love me, sir ; you are lonely, and miss my 
 presence in your house; but that is not love, and marriage would 
 be a mockery. You would despise a wife who was such only 
 from gratitude. Do not ask this of me ; we would both be 
 wretched. You pity my loneliness and poverty, and I reverence 
 you; nay, more, I love you, sir, as my best friend; I love you as 
 my protector. You are all I have on earth to look to for sym< 
 pathy and guidance. You are all I have, but I cannot marry 
 you; oh, no, no! a thousand times, no!" She shrank away from 
 the touch of his lips on her brow, and an expression of hopeless 
 suffering settled upon her face. 
 
 He withdrew his arm, and rose. 
 
 " Beulah, I have seen sun-lit bubbles gliding swiftly on the 
 bosom of a clear brook, and casting golde. shadows down upon 
 the pebbly bed. Such, a shadow you are now chasing; ah, child, 
 the shadow of a gilded bubble! Panting and eager, you clutch 
 at it; the bubble dances on, the shadow with it; and Beulah, 
 you will never, never grasp it. Ambition such as yours, which 
 aims at literary fame, is the deadliest foe to happiness. Man 
 may content himself with the applause of the world, and the 
 homage paid to his intellect; but woman's heart has holier idols. 
 You are young, and impulsive, and aspiring, and Fame beckons 
 you oil, like the syren of antiquity; but the months and years 
 will surely come when, with wasted energies and embittered 
 heart, you are left to mourn your infatuation. I would save 
 you from this, but you will drain the very dregs rather than 
 forsake your tempting fiend, for such is ambition to the female 
 heart. Yes, you will spend the springtime of your life chasing 
 a painted spectre, and go down to a premature grave, disap- 
 pointed and miserable. Poor child, it needs no prophetic vision 
 to predict your ill-starred career! Already the consuming fever 
 has begun its march. In far distant lands, I shall have no tid- 
 
402 B E U L A H . 
 
 ings of you, but none will be needed. Perhaps, when I travel 
 home to die, your feverish dream will have ended; or perchance, 
 sinking to eternal rest in some palm grove of the far East, we 
 shall meet no more. Since the day I took you in my arms from 
 Lilly's coffin, you have been my only hope, my all. You little 
 knew how precious you were to me, nor what keen suffering- our 
 estrangement cost me. Oh, child, I have loved you as only a 
 strong, suffering, passionate heart could love its last idol! But 
 I, too, chased a shadow. Experience should have taught me 
 wisdom. Now, I am a gloomy, joyless man, weary of my home, 
 and henceforth a wanderer. Asbury (if he lives) will be truly 
 your friend, and to him I shall commit the legacy which, 
 hitherto, you have refused to accept. Mr. Graham paid it into 
 my hands, after his last unsatisfactory interview with you. The 
 day may come when you will need it. I shall send you some 
 medicine, which, for your own sake, you had better take imme- 
 diately; but you will never grow stronger, until you give your- 
 self rest, relaxation, physically and mentally. Remember, when 
 your health is broken, and all your hopes withered, remember I 
 warned you, and would have saved you, and you would not." 
 He stooped, and took his hat from the floor. 
 
 Beulah sat looking at him, stunned, bewildered, her tearless 
 eyes strained and frightened in their expression. The transient 
 illumination in his face had faded, like sunset tints, leaving dull, 
 leaden clouds behind. His compressed lips were firm again, 
 and the misty eyes became coldly glittering, as one sees stars 
 brighten in a frosty air. 
 
 He put on his hat, and they looked at each other fixedly. 
 
 ''You are not in earnest? you are not going to quit your 
 home ?" cried Beulah, in a broken, unsteady tone. 
 
 " Yes, going into the far East; to the ruined altars of Baalbec; 
 to Meroe, to Tartary, India, China, and only fate knows where 
 else. Perhaps find a cool Nebo in some Himalayan range. 
 Going ? Yes. Did you suppose I meant only to operate on 
 your sympathies ? I know you too well. What is it to you 
 
B E U L A H . 403 
 
 whether I live or die ? whether my weary feet rest in an Indian 
 jungle, or a sunny slope of the city cemetery ? Yes, I am going 
 very soon, and this is our last meeting. I shall not again dis- 
 turb you in your ambitious pursuits. Ah, child," 
 
 " Oh, don't go! don't leave me! I beg, I implore you, not to 
 leave me. Oh, I am so desolate! don't forsake me! I could 
 not bear to know you were gone. Oh, don't leave me!" She 
 sprang up, and throwing her arms round his neck, clung to him, 
 trembling like a frightened child. But there was no relaxation 
 of his pale, fixed features, as he coldly answered : 
 
 " Once resolved, I never waver. So surely as I live, I shall 
 go. It might have been otherwise, but you decided it yourself. 
 An hour ago, you held my destiny in your hands; now it is fixed. 
 I should have gone six years since, had I not indulged a linger- 
 ing hope of happiness in your love. Child, don't shiver, and 
 cling to me so. Oceans will soon roll between us, and, for a 
 time, you will have no leisure to regret my absence. Hence- 
 forth we are strangers." 
 
 " No, that shall never be. You do not mean it ; you know 
 it is impossible. You know that I prize your friendship above 
 every earthly thing. You know that I look up to you as to no 
 one else. That I shall be miserable, oh, how miserable, if you 
 leave me ! Oh, sir, I have mourned over your coldness and 
 indifference ; don't cast me off ! Don't go to distant lands, and 
 leave rne to struggle without aid or counsel in this selfish, 
 unfriendly world ! My heart dies within me, at the thought of 
 your being where I shall not be able to see you. Oh, my 
 guardian, don't forsake me !" 
 
 She pressed her face against his shoulder, and clasped her 
 arms firmly round his neck. 
 
 " I am not your guardian, Beulah. You refused to make me 
 such. You are a proud, ambitious woman, solicitous only to 
 secure eminence as an authoress. I asked your heart; you have 
 now none to give ; but perhaps some day you will love me, as 
 devotedly, nay, as madly, as I have long loved you; for love like 
 
404: B E U L A H . 
 
 mine would wake affection even in a marble image ; but ttien, 
 rolling oceans and trackless deserts will divide us. And now, 
 good bye. Make yourself a name ; bind your aching brow with 
 the chaplet of Fame, and see if ambition can fill your heart. 
 Good bye, dear child." 
 
 Gently he drew her arms from his neck, and took her face in 
 his soft palms. He looked at her a moment, sadly and earnestly, 
 as if striving to fix her features in the frame of memory ; then 
 bent his head and pressed a long kiss on her lips. She put 
 out her hands, but he had gone, and sinking down on the step, 
 she hid her face in her arms. A pall seemed suddenly thrown 
 over the future, and the orphaned heart shrank back from the 
 lonely path where only spectres were visible. Never before had 
 she realized how dear he was to her, how large a share of her 
 love he possessed, and now the prospect of a long, perhaps final 
 separation, filled her with a shivering, horrible dread. We have 
 seen that self-reliance was a powerful element of her character, 
 and she had learned, from painful necessity, to depend as little 
 as possible -upon the sympathies of others ; but in this hour of 
 anguish, a sense of joyless isolation conquered ; her proud soul 
 bowed down beneath the weight of intolerable grief, and 
 acknowledged itself not wholly independent of the love and 
 presence of her guardian. 
 
 Beulah went back to her desk, and with tearless eyes began 
 the allotted task of writing. The article was due, and must be 
 finished ; was there not a long, dark future in which to mourn ? 
 The sketch was designed to prove that woman's happiness was 
 not necessarily dependent on marriage. That a single life might 
 be more useful, more tranquil, more unselfish. Beulah had 
 painted her heroine in glowing tints, and triumphantly proved 
 her theory correct, while to female influence she awarded a 
 sphere (exclusive of rostrums and all political arenas) wide as 
 the universe, and high as heaven. Weary work it all seemed to 
 her now ; but she wrote on, and on, and finally the last page 
 was copied and the last punctuation mark affixed. She wrapped 
 
B E II L A H . 405 
 
 np the manuscript, directed it to the editor, and then the pen 
 fell from her nerveless fingers and her head went down, with a 
 wailing- cry, on her desk. There the morning sun flashed upon 
 a white face, tear-stained and full of keen anguish. How her 
 readers would have marvelled at the sight ? Ah, " Verily the 
 heart knoweth its own bitterness." 
 
 CHAPTEE XXXII. 
 
 ONE afternoon in the following week, Mrs. Williams sat 
 wrapped up in the hall, watching Beulah's movements in the 
 yard at the rear of the house. The whitewashed paling was 
 covered with luxuriant raspberry vines, and in one corner of the 
 garden was a bed of strawberry plants. Over this bed Beulah 
 was bending with a basket, nearly filled with the ripe scarlet 
 berries. Stooping close to the plants, she saw only the fruit she 
 was engaged in picking ; and when the basket was quite full, 
 she w%s suddenly startled by a merry laugh, and a pair of hands 
 clasped over her eyes. 
 
 " Who blindfolds me ?" said she. 
 
 " Guess, you solemn witch." 
 
 " Why, Georgia, of course." 
 
 The hands were removed, and Georgia Asbury's merry face 
 greeted her. 
 
 " I am glad to see you, Georgia. Where is Helen ?" 
 
 " Oh, gone to ride with one of her adorers, but I have 
 brought somebody to see you who is worth the whole Asbury 
 family. No less a personage than my famous cousin Reginald 
 Lindsay, whom you have heard us speak of so often. Oh, how 
 tempting those luscious berries are ! Reginald and I intend to 
 stay to tea, and father will perhaps come out in the carriage for 
 
406 BE TIL AH. 
 
 us. Come, yonder is my cousin on the gallery looking at you, 
 and pretending to talk to Mrs. Williams. He has read your 
 magazine sketches and is very anxious to see you. How nicely 
 you look ; only a little too statuish. Can't you get up a smile ? 
 That is better. Here, let me twine this cluster of wisteria in 
 your hair; I stole it as I ran up the steps." 
 
 Beulah was clad in a pure white mull muslin, and wore a 
 short black silk apron, confined at the waist by a heavy cord 
 and tassel. Georgia fastened the purple blossoms in her silky 
 hair, and they entered the house. Mr. Lindsay met them, and 
 as his cousin introduced him, Beulah looked at him, and met the 
 earnest gaze of a pair of deep blue eyes, which seemed to index 
 a nature singularly tranquil. She greeted him quietly, and 
 would have led the way to the front of the house, but Georgia 
 threw herself down on the steps, and exclaimed, eagerly : 
 
 " Do let us stay here ; the air is so deliciously sweet and cool. 
 Cousin, there is a chair. Beulah, you and I will stem these 
 berries at once, so that they may be ready for tea." 
 
 She took the basket, and soon their fingers were stained with 
 the rosy juice of the fragrant fruit. All restraint vanished ; 
 the conversation was gay, and spiced now and then with repar- 
 tees, which elicited Georgia's birdish laugh, and banished for a 
 time the weary, joyless expression of Beulah's countenance. 
 The berries were finally arranged to suit Georgia's taste, and the 
 party returned to the little parlor. Here Beulah was soon 
 engaged by Mr. Lindsay, in the discussion of some of the lead- 
 ing literary questions of the day. She forgot the great sorrow 
 that brooded over her heart, a faint, pearly glow crept into her 
 cheeks, and the mouth lost its expression of resolute endurance. 
 She found Mr. Lindsay highly cultivated in his tastes, polished 
 in his manners, and possessed of rare intellectual attainments, 
 while the utter absence of egotism and pedantry, impressed her 
 with involuntary admiration. Extensive travel, and long study, 
 had familiarized him with almost every branch of science and 
 department of literature, and the ease and grace with which he 
 
B E U L A H . 407 
 
 imparted some information she desired, respecting the European 
 schools of art, contrasted favorably with the confused account 
 Eugene had rendered of the same subject. She remarked a sin- 
 gular composure of countenance, voice, and even position, which 
 seemed idiosyncratic, and was directly opposed to the stern 
 rigidity and cynicism of her guardian. She shrank from the 
 calm, steadfast gaze of his eyes, which looked into hers, with a 
 deep yet gentle scrutiny, and resolved ere the close of the even- 
 ing to sound him, concerning some of the philosophic phases of 
 the age. Had he escaped the upas taint of skepticism ? An 
 opportunity soon occurred to favor her wishes, for chancing to 
 allude to his visit to Kydal Mount, while in the lake region of 
 England, the transition to a discussion of the metaphysical tone 
 of the " Excursion," was quite easy. 
 
 " You seemed disposed, like Howitt, to accord it the title of 
 1 Bible of Quakerism,' " said Mr. Lindsay, in answer to a remark 
 of hers concerning its tendency. 
 
 " It is a fertile theme of disputation, sir, and since critics are 
 so divided in their verdicts, I may well be pardoned an opinion, 
 which so many passages seem to sanction. If Quakerism is 
 belief in ' immediate inspiration/ which you will scarcely deny, 
 then throughout the ' Excursion,' Wordsworth seems its apostle." 
 
 " No, he stands as a high-priest in the temple of nature, and 
 calls mankind from scientific lore, to offer their orisons there at 
 his altar, and receive passively the teachings of the material 
 universe. Tells us, 
 
 " ' Our meddling intellect 
 
 Misshapes the beauteous forms of things,' 
 
 and promises, in nature, an unerring guide and teacher of truth. 
 In his lines on revisiting the Wye, he declares himself, 
 
 " * Well pleased to recognize 
 
 In nature, and the language of the sense, 
 The anchor of my purests thoughts, the nurse, 
 The guide, the guardian of my heart and soul, 
 Of all my moral being.' 
 
408 BE TIL AH. 
 
 Quakerism rejects all extraneous aids to a knowledge of 
 God ; a silent band of friends sit waiting for the direct inspira- 
 tion, which alone can impart true light. Wordsworth made the 
 senses, the appreciation of the beauty and sublimity of the 
 universe, an avenue of light ; while Quakerism, according to 
 the doctrines of Fox and his early followers, is merely a form of 
 mysticism, nearly allied to the ' ecstasy ' of Plotinus. The 
 Quaker silences his reason, his every faculty, and in utter pas- 
 sivity waits for the infusion of divine light into his mind ; the 
 mystic of Alexandria, as far as possible, divests his intellect of 
 all personality, and becomes absorbed in the Infinite intelligence 
 from which it emanated." 
 
 Beulah knitted her brows, and answered musingly : 
 
 " And here, then, extremes meet. To know God, we must be 
 God. Mysticism and Pantheism link hands over the gulf which 
 seemed to divide them." 
 
 " Miss Benton, is this view of the subject a novel one ?" said 
 he, looking at her very intently. 
 
 " No, a singular passage in the ' Biographia Literaria/ sug- 
 gested it to me long ago. But unwelcome hints are rarely 
 accepted, you know." 
 
 " Why unwelcome in this case ?" 
 
 She looked at him, but made no reply, and none was needed. 
 He understood why, and said quietly, yet impressively : 
 
 " It sets the seal of necessity upon Revelation. Not the 
 mystical intuitions of the dreamers, who would fain teach of 
 continued direct inspiration from God, even at the present time, 
 but the revelation which began in Genesis, and ended with John 
 on Patmos. The very absurdities of philosophy are the most 
 potent arguments in substantiating the claims of Christianity. 
 Kant's theory, that we can know nothing beyond ourselves, 
 gave the death-blow to philosophy. Mysticism contends, that 
 reason only darkens the mind, and consequently discarding all 
 reasoning processes, relies upon immediate revelation. But the 
 extravagances of Swedenborg, and even of George Fox, prove 
 
B E U L A H . 409 
 
 the fallacy of the assumption of continued inspiration, and the 
 only alternative is to rest upon the Christian Revelation, which 
 has successfully defied all assaults." 
 
 There was an instantaneous flash of joy over Beulah's troubled 
 face, and she said hastily : 
 
 " You have escaped the contagion, then ? Such exemption is 
 rare now-a-day, for skepticism broods with sable wings over the 
 age." 
 
 " It has always brooded where man essayed to lift the veil of 
 Isis ; to elucidate the arcana of the universe, to solve the unsolv- 
 able. Skepticism is the disease of minds, which Christian faith 
 alone can render healthy." 
 
 The thrust showed she was not invulnerable, but before she 
 could reply, Georgia exclaimed : 
 
 " In the name of common sense, Reginald, what are you dis- 
 coursing about so tiresomely ? I suppose I am shamefully stupid, 
 but I don't understand a word you two have been saying. When 
 father and Beulah get on such dry, tedious subjects, I always set 
 up an opposition at the piano, which in this instance I am forced 
 to do, from sheer necessity." 
 
 She raised the lid of the piano, and rattled off a brilliant over- 
 ture ; then made Beulah join her in several instrumental duets. 
 As the latter rose, Mr. Lindsay said, somewhat abruptly : 
 
 " I believe you sing. My cousins have been extolling your 
 voice, and I have some curiosity to hear you. Will you gratify 
 me?" 
 
 " Certainly, if you desire it." 
 
 She could not refrain from smiling at the perfect nonchalance 
 of his manner, and passing her fingers over the keys, sang a 
 beautiful air from " Lucia." Her guest listened attentively, and 
 when the song was ended, approached the piano, and said, with 
 some interest : 
 
 " I should prefer a simple ballad, if you will favor me with one." 
 
 " Something after the order of ' Lilly Dale,' Beulah ; he hears 
 nothing else in his country home," said Georgia, teasingly. 
 
 18 
 
410 BEULAH. 
 
 He smiled, but did not contradict her, and Beulah sang that 
 exquisite ballad, "Why do Summer Roses Fade." It was one 
 of her guardian's favorite airs, and now his image was associated 
 with the strain. Ere the first verse was finished, a deep, rich, 
 manly voice, which had sometimes echoed through the study, 
 seemed again to join hers, and despite her efforts, her own tones 
 trembled. 
 
 Soon after, Beulah took her place at the tea-table in the centre 
 of the room, and conversation turned on the delights of country 
 life. 
 
 " Reginald, how do you manage to amuse yourself in that little 
 town of yours ?" asked Georgia, drawing the bowl of strawberries 
 near, and helping him bountifully. 
 
 " I might answer, that I had passed the age when amusement 
 was necessary, but I will not beg your question so completely. 
 In the first place, I do not reside in town. My office is there, 
 and during the day, when not absent at court, I am generally in 
 my office ; but evening always finds me at home. Once there, I 
 have endless sources of amusement ; my mother's flowers and 
 birds, my farm affairs, my music, and my library, to say nothing 
 of hunting and fishing. Remember, Georgia, that, as a class, 
 lawyers are not addicted to what you call amusements." 
 
 " But after living in Europe, and travelling so much, I should 
 think that plantation would be horribly dull. Do you never suffer 
 trowT ennui, cut off as you are from all society ?" 
 
 " Ennui is a disease of which I am yet happily ignorant. But 
 for my mother, I should feel the need of society ; in a great 
 measure, her presence supplies it. I shall tell you no more, 
 cousin mine, since you and Helen are to spend a portion of your 
 summer with us, and can judge for yourselves of the attractions 
 of my country home." 
 
 " Are you residing near Mr. Arlington ?" said Beulah. 
 
 " Quite near ; his plantation adjoins mine. Is he a friend of 
 yours ?" 
 
 " No, but I have a friend living this year in his family. Miss 
 
BE TIL A II. 411 
 
 Sanders is governess for his children. You probably know 
 her." 
 
 "Yes, I see her occasionally. Report says she is soon to 
 become the bride of Richard Arlington." 
 
 A slight smile curved his lips as he watched Beulah's coun- 
 tenance. She offered no comment, and he perceived that the on 
 dit was not new to her. 
 
 " Beulah, I suppose you have heard of Dr. HartwelPs intended 
 journey to the East ? What an oddity he is ! Told me he con- 
 templated renting a bungalow somewhere in heathendom, and 
 turning either Brahmin or Parsee, he had not quite decided 
 which. He has sold his beautiful place to the Farleys. The 
 greenhouse plants he gave to mother, and all the statuary and 
 paintings are to be sent to us until his return, which cannot be 
 predicted with any certainty. Father frets a good deal over 
 this freak, as he calls it, and says the doctor had much better 
 stay at home and physic the sick. I thought it was a sudden 
 whim, but he says he has contemplated the trip a long time. He 
 is going immediately, I believe. It must be a trial to you," said 
 the thoughtless girl. 
 
 " Yes, I cannot realize it yet," replied Beulah, struggling with 
 herself for composure, and hastily setting down her tea-cup, 
 which trembled violently. The shadows swept over her once 
 more. Mr. Lindsay noticed her agitation, and with delicate 
 consideration forbore to look at her. Georgia continued, heed- 
 lessly : 
 
 " I wanted that melodeon that sits in his study, but though 
 the remainder of the furniture is to be auctioned off, he says he 
 will not sell the melodeon, and requested my father to have it 
 carefully locked up somewhere at home. I asked if I might not 
 use it, and what do you suppose he said ? That I might have 
 his grand piano, if I would accept it, but that nobody was to 
 touch his melodeon. I told him he ought to send the piano out 
 to you, in his absence, but he looked cross, and said you would 
 not use it if he did." 
 
412 BETJLAH. 
 
 Poor Beulah ; her lips quivered, and her fingers clasped each 
 other tightly, but she said nothing. Just then she heard Dr. 
 Asbury's quick step in the hall, and to her infinite relief, he 
 entered, accompanied by Helen. She saw that though his man- 
 ner was kind and bantering as usual, there was an anxious look 
 on his benevolent face, and his heavy brows occasionally knitted. 
 When he went into the adjoining room to see Mrs. Williams, she 
 understood his glance, and followed him. He paused in the hall, 
 and said, eagerly : " Has Hart well been here lately ?" 
 
 " Yes, he was here last week." 
 
 " Did he tell you of his whim about travelling East ?" 
 
 " Yes, he told me." 
 
 " Beulah, take care what you are about ! You are working 
 mischief not easily rectified. Child, keep Guy at home 1" 
 
 " He is master of his own movements, and you know his stub- 
 born will. I would keep him here if I could, but I have no influ- 
 ence." 
 
 " All fiddle-sticks ! I know better ! I am neither a bat nor 
 a mole. Beulah, I warn you ; I beg you, child, miad how you 
 act. Once entirely estranged, all the steam in Christendom 
 could not force him back. Don't let him go ; if you do, the 
 game is up, I tell you now. You will repent your own work, if 
 you do not take care. I told him he was a fool, to leave such a 
 position as his, and go to dodging robbers in eastern deserts ; 
 whereupon he looked as bland and impenetrable as if I had com- 
 pared him to Solomon. There, go back to your company, and 
 mind what I say ; don't let Guy go." 
 
 He left her ; and though she exerted herself to entertain her 
 guests, Mr. Lindsay saw that her mind was troubled, and her 
 heart oppressed. He endeavored to divert her thoughts, by 
 introducing various topics ; and she talked and smiled, and even 
 played and sang, yet the unlifting cloud lay on her brow. The 
 evening seemed strangely long, and she accompanied her visitors 
 to the door with a sensation of relief. At parting, Mr. Lindsay 
 took her hand, and said, in a low voice : 
 
BEULAH. 413 
 
 " Mo.y I come whenever I am in your city ?" 
 
 "Certainly I shall be pleased to see you, when you have 
 leisure," she replied, hurriedly. 
 
 " I shall avail myself of your permission, I assure you." 
 
 She had often heard Dr. Asbury speak, with fond pride, of this 
 nephew ; and as Eugene had also frequently mentioned him in 
 his early letters from Heidelberg, she felt that he was scarcely a 
 stranger, in the ordinary acceptation of the term. To her, his 
 parting words seemed merely polite, commonplace forms ; and 
 with no thought of a future acquaintance, she dismissed him from 
 her mind, which was too painfully preoccupied to dwell upon the 
 circumstances of his visit. 
 
 A few days passed, and one Saturday morning she sat in the 
 dining room, finishing a large drawing, upon which she had for 
 months expended all her leisure moments. It was designed from 
 a description in " Queen Mab," and she took up her crayon to 
 give the final touch, when heavy steps in the hall arrested her 
 attention, and glancing toward the door, she saw Hal, Dr. 
 Hartwell's driver, with a wooden box on his shoulder, and Charon 
 by his side. The latter barked with delight, and sprang to meet 
 the girl, who had hastily risen. 
 
 " How do you do, Miss Beulah ? It is many a day since I 
 have seen you, and you look the worse of wear too. Haven't 
 been sick, have you ?" said Hal, sliding the box down on the 
 floor. 
 
 " Not exactly sick, but not so well as usual," she answered, 
 passing her trembling hands over the dog's head. 
 
 " Well, I don't see, for my part, what is to become of us all, 
 now master's gone " 
 
 " Gone !" echoed Beulafi. 
 
 " Why, to be sure. He started to the plantation yesterday, 
 to set things all in order there, and then he is going straight on 
 to New York. The house looks desolate enough, and I feel like 
 I was about to dig my own grave. Just before he left, he called 
 me into the study, and told me that as soon as he had gone, I 
 
414: B E U L A H . 
 
 was to bring Charon over to you, and ask you to keep him, and 
 take care of him. He tried to unlock the collar on his neck, but 
 somehow the key would not turn. Master looked dreadful sad 
 when he patted poor Char's head, and let the brute put his paws 
 on his shoulders for the last time. Just as the boat pushed off, 
 he called to me to be sure to bring him to you ; so here he is ; 
 and, Miss Beulah, the poor fellow seems to know something is 
 wrong ; he whined all night, and ran over the empty house this 
 morning, growling and snuffing. You are to keep him till mas- 
 ter comes home ; the Lord only knows when that will be. I 
 tried to find out, but he looked for the world like one of them 
 stone faces in the study, and gave me no satisfaction. Miss 
 Beulah, Dr. Asbury was at the house just as I started, and he 
 sent over this box to you. Told me to tell you that he had all 
 the pictures moved to his house, but had not room to hang all, 
 so he sent one over for you to take care of. Shall I take it out 
 of the case ?" 
 
 " Never mind, Hal, I can do that. Did your master leave no 
 other message for me ? was there no note ?" She leaned heavily 
 on a chair to support herself. 
 
 "None that I know of, except that you must be kind to 
 Charon. I have no time to spare ; Dr. Asbury needs me ; so 
 good bye, Miss Beulah. I will stop some day when I am pass- 
 ing, and see how the dog comes on. I know he will be satisfied 
 with you." 
 
 The faithful servant touched bis hat and withdrew. The 
 storm of grief could no longer be repressed, and sinking down on 
 the floor, Beulah clasped her arms round Charon's neck, and 
 hid her face in his soft curling hair, while her whole frame shook 
 with convulsive sobs. She had not beaeved her guardian would 
 leave without coming again, and had confidently expected him, 
 and now he had gone. Perhaps forever ; at best for many 
 years. She might never see him again, and this thought was 
 more than she could endure. The proud restraint she was wont 
 to impose upon her feelings all vanished, and in her despairing 
 
BEULAH. 4:15 
 
 sorrow she wept and moaned, as she had never done before, 
 even when Lilly was taken from her. Charon crouched close to 
 her, with a mute grief clearly written in his sober, sagacious 
 countenance, and each clung to the other, as to a last stay and 
 solace. He was a powerful animal, with huge limbs, and a 
 thick, shaggy covering, sable as midnight, without a speck of 
 white about him. Around his neck was a silver chain, support- 
 ing a broad piece of plate, on which was engraved, in German 
 letters, the single word, " Hartwell." How long she sat there 
 Beulah knew not, but a growl roused her, and she saw Mrs 
 Williams looking sorrowfully at her. 
 
 " My child, what makes you moan and weep so bitterly ?" 
 " Oh, because I am so miserable ; because I have lost my best 
 friend ; my only friend ; my guardian. He has gone gone ! 
 and I did not see him." With a stifled cry her face went down 
 again. 
 
 The matron had never seen her so unnerved before, and 
 wondered at the vehemence of her grief, but knew her nature 
 too well to attempt consolation. Beulah lifted the box and 
 retired to her own room, followed by Charon. Securing the door, 
 she put the case on the table and looked at it wistfully. Were 
 her conjectures, her hopes correct ? She raised the lid, and un- 
 wrapped the frame, and there was the noble head of her guar- 
 dian. She hung the portrait on a hook just above her desk, and 
 then stood, with streaming eyes, looking up at it. It had been 
 painted a few weeks after his marriage, and represented him in 
 the full morning of manhood, ere his heart was embittered, and 
 his clear brow overshadowed. The artist had suffered a ray of 
 .sunshine to fall on the brown hair that rippled round his white 
 temples, with careless grace. There was no moustache to shade 
 the sculptured lips, and they seemed about to part in one of those 
 rare, fascinating smiles which Beulah had often watched for in 
 vain. The matchless eyes looked down at her, with brooding 
 tenderness in their hazel depths, and now seemed to question her 
 uncontrollable grief. Yet she had pained him j had in part 
 
416 BEULAH. 
 
 caused his exile from' the home of his youth, and added another 
 sorrow to those which now veiled that peerless face in gloom. 
 He had placed his happiness in her hands ; had asked her to 
 be his wife. She looked at the portrait, and shuddered and 
 moaned. She loved him above all others ; loved him as a child 
 adores its father ; but how could she, who had so reverenced 
 him, consent to become his wife ? Besides, she could not believe 
 he loved her. He liked her ; pitied her isolation and orphan- 
 age ; felt the need of her society, and wanted her always in his 
 home. But she could not realize that he, who so worshipped 
 beauty, could possibly love her. It was all like a hideous dream 
 which morning would dispel ; but there was the reality, and 
 there was Charon looking steadily up at the portrait he was at 
 no loss to recognize. 
 
 " Oh, if I could have seen him once more. If he had parted 
 with me in kindness, it would not be so intolerable. But to 
 remember his stern, sad face, as last I saw it ; oh, how can I 
 bear it ! To have it haunting me through life, like a horrible 
 spectre ; no friendly words to cherish ; no final message ; all 
 gloom and anger. Oh, how shall I bear it 1" and she fell on 
 Charon's neck and wept bitterly. 
 
 CHAPTER XXXIII. 
 
 IN the early days of summer, Mr. and Mrs. Graham left the 
 city for one of the fashionable watering-places on the Gulf, 
 accompanied by Antoinette. Eugene remained, on some pretext 
 of business, but promised to follow in a short time. The week 
 subsequent to their departure saw a party of gentlemen assem- 
 bled to dine at his house. The long afternoon wore away, still 
 they sat round the table. The cloth had been removed, and 
 only wine and cigars remained j bottle after bottle was emptied, 
 
B E U J, A II . 417 
 
 and finally decanters were in requisition. The servants shrugged 
 their shoulders, and looked on with amused expectancy. The 
 conversation grew loud and boisterous, now and then flavored 
 with oaths ; twilight came on the shutters were closed the 
 magnificent chandelier lighted. Eugene seized a crystal ice 
 bowl, and was about to extract a lump of ice when it fell from 
 his fingers and shivered to atoms. A roar of laughter succeeded 
 the exploit, and uncorking a fresh bottle 'of champagne, he 
 demanded a song. Already a few of the guests were leaning on 
 the table stupefied, but several began the strain. It was 
 a genuine Bacchanalian ode, and the deafening shout rose to the 
 frescoed ceiling as the revellers leaned forward and touched their 
 glasses. Touched, did I say ; it were better written clashed. 
 There was a ringing chorus as crystal met crystal; glittering 
 fragments flew in every direction ; down ran the foaming wine, 
 thick with splintered glass, on the rosewood table. But the 
 strain was kept up ; fresh glasses were supplied ; fresh bottles 
 drained ; the waiters looked on, wondered where all this would 
 end, and pointed to the ruin of the costly service. The brilliant 
 gaslight shone on a scene of recklessness pitiable indeed. All 
 were young men, and, except Eugene, all unmarried ; but they 
 seemed familiar with such occasions. One or two, thoroughly 
 intoxicated, lay with their heads on the table, unconscious of 
 what passed ; others struggled to sit upright, yet the shout 
 was still raised from time to time. 
 
 " Fill up, and let us have that glorious song from Lucrezia 
 Borgia. Hey, Proctor!" cried Eugene. 
 
 " That is poor fun without Vincent. He sings it equal to 
 Vestvali. Fill up there, Munroe, and shake up Cowdon. Come, 
 begin, and " 
 
 He raised his glass with a disgusting oath, and was about to 
 commence, when Munroe said, stammeringly: 
 
 " Where is Fred, anyhow ? He is a devilish fine fellow for a 
 frolic. I " 
 
 " Why, gone to the coast with Graham's pretty wife. He is 
 18* 
 
418 BEULAH. 
 
 all devotion. They waltz and ride, and in fine, he is her admirer 
 par excellence. Stop your stupid stammering, and begin." 
 
 Eugene half rose at this insulting mention of his wife's name, 
 but the song was now ringing around him, and sinking back, he, 
 too, raised his unsteady voice. Again and again, the words were 
 madly shouted; and then, dashing his empty glass against the 
 marble mantel, Proctor swore he would not drink another drop. 
 What a picture of degradation ! Disordered hair, soiled clothes, 
 flushed, burning cheeks, glaring eyes, and nerveless hands. 
 Eugene attempted to rise, but fell back in his chair, tearing off 
 his cravat, which seemed to suffocate him. Proctor, who was 
 too thoroughly inured to such excesses to feel it as sensibly as 
 the remainder of the party, laughed brutally, and kicking over & 
 chair which stood in his way, grasped his host by the arm, and 
 exclaimed : 
 
 " Come out of this confounded room; it 'is as hot as a furnace; 
 and let us have a ride to cool us. Come. Munroe and Cowdon 
 must look after the others. By Jove, Graham, old father Bac- 
 chus himself could not find fault with your cellar. Come." 
 
 Each took a cigar from the stand, and descended to the front 
 door, where a light buggy was waiting the conclusion of the 
 revel. It was a cloudless July night, and the full moon poured 
 a flood of silver light over the silent earth. Proctor assisted 
 Eugene into the buggy, and gathering up the reins, seized the 
 whip, gave a flourish and shout, and off sprang the spirited 
 horse, which the groom could, with difficulty, hold until the 
 riders were seated. 
 
 " Now, Graham, I will bet a couple of baskets of Heidsick 
 that my royal Telegraph will make the first mile post in 2:30. 
 What say you ?" 
 
 "Done; 2:40 is the lowest." 
 
 "Phew! Telegraph, my jewel, show what manner of flesh 
 you are made of. Now, then, out with your watch." 
 
 He shook the reins, and the horse rushed forward like an 
 arrow. Before the mile post was reached, it became evident 
 
BETJLAH. 419 
 
 that Telegraph had taken the game entirely out of his master's 
 hands. In vain the reins were tightened. Proctor leaned so far 
 back that his hat fell off. Still the frantic horse sped on. The 
 mile post flashed by, but Eugene could barely sit erect, much 
 less note the time. At this stage of the proceedings, the whir 
 of wheels behind gave a new impetus to Telegraph's flying feet. 
 They were near a point in the road where an alley led off at 
 right angles, and thinking, doubtless, that it was time to retrace 
 his steps, the horse dashed down the alley, heedless of Proctor's 
 efforts to restrain him, and turning into a neighboring street, 
 rushed back toward the city. Bareheaded, and with heavy 
 drops of perspiration streaming from his face, Proctor cursed, 
 and jerked, and drew the useless reins. On went Telegraph, 
 making good his title, now swerving to this side of the road, 
 and now to that; but as he approached a mass of bricks which 
 were piled on one side of the street, near the foundations of a 
 new building, the moonlight flashed upon a piece of tin, in the 
 sand on the opposite side, and frightened by the glitter, he 
 plunged toward the bricks. The wheels struck, the buggy 
 tilted, then came down again with a terrible jolt, and Eugene 
 was; thrown out on the pile. Proctor was jerked over the dash- 
 board, dragged some distance, and finally left in the sand, while 
 Telegraph ran on to the stable. 
 
 It was eleven o'clock, but Beulah was writing in her own 
 room ; and through the open window, heard the thundering 
 tramp, the rattle among the bricks, Proctor's furious curses, 
 and surmised that some accident had happened. She sprang to 
 the window, saw the buggy just as it was wheeled on, and 
 hoped nothing was hurt. But Charon, who slept on the portico, 
 leaped over the paling, ran around the bricks, and barked 
 alarmingly. She unlocked the door, saw that no one was pass- 
 ing, and opening the little gate, looked out. Charon stood 
 watching a prostrate form, and she fearlessly crossed the street 
 and bent over the body. One arm was crushed beneath him; 
 the other thrown up over the face. She recognized the watch 
 
420 B E U L A H . 
 
 chain, which was of a curious pattern ; and, for an instant, all 
 objects swam before her. She felt faint; her heart seemed to 
 grow icy and numb; but with a great effort, she moved the arm, 
 and looked on the face, gleaming in the moonlight. Trembling 
 like a weed in a wintry blast, she knelt beside him. He was 
 insensible, but not dead; though it was evident there must have 
 been some severe contusion about the bead. She saw that no 
 time should be lost, and running into one of the neighboring 
 houses, knocked violently. The noise of the horse and buggy 
 had already aroused the inmates, and very soon the motionless 
 form was borne into Beulah's little cottage, and placed on a 
 couch, while a messenger was dispatched "for Dr. Asbury. 
 Eugene remained just as they placed him; and kneeling beside 
 him, Beulah held his cold hands in hers, and watched, in almost 
 breathless anxiety, for some return of animation. She knew that 
 he was intoxicated; that this, and this only, caused the acci- 
 dent; and tears of shame and commiseration trickled down her 
 cheeks. Since their parting interview, previous to his marriage, 
 they had met but once, and then in silence, beside Cornelia in 
 her dying hour. It was little more than a year since she , had 
 risked his displeasure, and remonstrated with him on his ruinous 
 course; and that comparatively short period had wrought pain- 
 ful changes in his once noble, handsome face. She had hoped 
 that Cornelia's dying prayer would save him; but now, alas, it 
 was too apparent that the appeal had been futile. She knew 
 not that his wife was absent, and determined to send for her as 
 soon as possible. The long hour of waiting seemed an eternity; 
 but, at last, Dr. Asbury came, and carefully examined the 
 bruised limbs. Beulah grasped his arm. 
 
 " Oh ! will he die ?" 
 
 " I don't know, child ; this arm is badly fractured, and I am 
 afraid there is a severe injury on the back of the head. It won't 
 do to move him home, so send Hal in from my buggy, to help 
 put him in bed. Have me some bandages at once, Beulah." 
 
 As they carried him into Mrs. Williams' room, and prepared 
 
BETJLAH. 421 
 
 to set the fractured arm, he groaned, and for a moment struggled, 
 then relapsed into a heavy stupor. Dr. Asbury carefully straight- 
 ened and bandaged the limb, and washed the blood from his 
 temples, where a gash had been inflicted in the fall. 
 
 " Will you go to his wife at once, sir, and inform her of his 
 condition ?" said Beulah, who stood by the blood-stained pillow, 
 pale and anxious. 
 
 " Don't you know his wife is not here ? She has gone for the 
 summer. Wife did I say ? she does not deserve the sacred 
 name ! If he had had a wife, he would never have come to this 
 ruin and disgrace. It is nothing more than I expected when he 
 married her. I could easily put her soul on the end of a lancet, 
 and as for heart she has none at all ? She is a pretty flirt, 
 fonder of admiration than of her husband. I will write by the 
 earliest mail, informing Graham of the accident and its possible 
 consequences, and perhaps respect for the opinion of the world 
 may bring her home to him. Beulah, it is a difficult matter to 
 believe that that drunken, stupid victim there is Eugene Graham, 
 who promised to become an honor to his friends and his name. 
 Satan must have established the first distillery ; the institution 
 smacks of the infernal ! Child, keep ice upon that head, will 
 you, and see that as soon as possible he takes a spoonful of the 
 medicine I mixed just now. I am afraid it will be many days 
 before he leaves this house. If he lives, the only consolation is, 
 that it may be a lesson and warning to him. I will be back in 
 an hour or so. As for Proctor, whom I met limping home, it 
 would have been a blessing to the other young men of the city, 
 and to society generally, if he had never crawled out of the 
 sand where he was thrown." 
 
 A little while after, the silence was broken by a heavy sob, 
 and glancing up, Beulah perceived the matron standing near th'e 
 bed, gazing at the sleeper. 
 
 " Oh, that he should come to this ! I would ten thousand 
 times rather he had died in his unstained boyhood." 
 
 " If he lives, this accident may be his salvation." 
 
4:22 B E U L A H . 
 
 " God grant it may God grant it may 1' 
 
 Falling on her knees, the aged woman put up a prayer of pas- 
 sionate entreaty, that Almighty God would spare his life, and 
 save him from a drunkard's fate. 
 
 " If I, too, could pray for him, it might ease my aching heart," 
 thought Beulah, as she listened to the imploring words of the 
 matron. 
 
 And why not ? Ah I the murky vapors of unbelief shrouded 
 the All-Father from her wandering soul. Dawn looked in upon 
 two sorrowing watchers beside that stupid slumberer, and showed 
 that the physician's fears were realized ; a raging fever had set 
 in, and this night was but the commencement of long and dreary 
 vigils. About noon, Beulah was crossing the hall, with a bowl 
 of ice in her hand, when some one at the door pronounced her 
 name, and Proctor approached her, accompanied by Cowdon. 
 She had once met the former at Mr. Graham's, and having heard 
 Cornelia regret the miserable influence he exerted over her 
 brother, was prepared to receive him coldly. 
 
 " We have come to see Graham, madam," said he, shrink- 
 ing from her sad, searching eyes, yet assuming an air of haughty 
 indifference. 
 
 " You cannot see -him, sir." 
 
 " But I tell you, I must ! I shall remove him to his own 
 house, where he can be properly attended to. Where is he ?" 
 
 " The physician particularly urged the necessity of keeping 
 everything quiet. He shall not be disturbed ; but as he is 
 unconscious, perhaps it will afford you some gratification to 
 behold the ruin you have wrought. Gentlemen, here is your 
 victim." 
 
 She opened the door and suffered them to stand on the 
 threshold and look at the prostrate form, with the head enve- 
 loped in icy cloths, and the face bloated and purplish from 
 bruises and feve.r. Neither Proctor nor his companion oould 
 endure the smile of withering contempt which curled her lips, as 
 she pointed to the victim of 4beir temptations and influence, and 
 
B E u L A n . . 423 
 
 with a half-suppressed imprecation, Proctor turned on his heel 
 and left the house. Apparently this brief visit quite satisfied them, 
 for it was not repeated. Days and nights of unremitted watch- 
 ing ensued ; Eugene was wildly delirious, now singing snatches 
 of drinking songs, and waving his hand, as if to his guests ; and 
 now bitterly upbraiding his wife for her heartlessness and folly. 
 The confinement of his fractured arm frenzied him ; often he 
 struggled violently to free himself, fancying that he was incarcer- 
 ated in some horrid dungeon. On the morning of the fourth day 
 after the accident, a carriage stopped at the cottage gate, and 
 springing out, Mr. Graham hurried into the house. As he 
 entered the sick-room, and caught sight of the tossing sufferer, 
 a groan escaped him, and he covered his eyes an instant, as if 
 to shut out the vision. Eugene imagined he saw one of the 
 Heidelberg professors, and laughing immoderately, began a rapid 
 conversation in German. Mr. Graham could not conceal his 
 emotion, and, fearing its effect on the excitable patient, Beulah 
 beckoned him aside, and warned him of the possible conse- 
 quences. He grasped her hand, and asked the particulars of 
 the occurrence, which had been mentioned to him vaguely. She 
 told him the account given by Eugene's servants of the night's 
 revel, and then the denoument in front of her door. In conclu- 
 sion, she said, earnestly : 
 
 " Where is his wife ? Why is she not here ?" 
 " She seemed to think she could render no assistance ; .and 
 fearing that all would be over before we could get here, preferred 
 my coming at once, and writing to her of his condition. Ah ! 
 she is miserably fitted for such scenes as you must have wit- 
 nessed." And the grey-haired man sighed heavily. 
 
 " What I can she bear to commit her husband to other hands 
 at such a crisis as this ? How can she live away from his side, 
 when every hour may be his last ? Oh ! is she indeed so utterly, 
 utterly heartless, selfish, callous ? Poor Eugene I better find 
 release from such a union in death, than go through life bound 
 to a wife so unblushingly indifferent !" 
 
424: BEULAH. 
 
 Her face was one flash of scorn and indignation, and extend- 
 ing her hand toward the restless invalid, she continued in a lower 
 tone : 
 
 " She has deserted her sacred post ; but a truer, better friend, 
 one who has always loved him as a brother, will supply her 
 place. All that a sister's care can do, assuredly he shall 
 have." 
 
 " You are very kind, Miss Beulah ; my family are under last- 
 ing obligations to you for your generous attentions to that poor 
 boy of ours, and I " 
 
 " No. You understand little of the nature of our friendship. 
 We were orphan children, warmly attached to each other, before 
 you took him to a home of wealth and lavish indulgence. Were 
 he my own brother, I could not feel more deeply interested in 
 his welfare, and while he requires care and nursing, I consider it 
 my privilege to watch over and guard him. There is Dr. Asbury 
 in the hall ; he can tell you better than I of his probable 
 recovery." 
 
 Ah, reader, is 
 
 " Friendship but a name ? 
 
 A charm that, lulls to sleep, 
 
 A shade that follows wealth or fame, 
 
 And leaves the wretch to weep ?" 
 
 Mr. Graham remained at the cottage, and having written to 
 Antoinette of the imminent danger in which he found her hus- 
 band, urged her to lose no time in joining him. Unluckily, he 
 was ignorant of all the information which is so essential in the 
 occupation of nursing. He was anxious to do everything in his 
 power; but, like the majority of persons on such occasions, failed 
 wretchedly in his attempts. Almost as restless and nervous as 
 the sick man, he only increased the difficulties he would fain 
 have rerr died, and Beulah finally prevailed upon him to aban- 
 don his efforts and leave the room, where his constant move- 
 ment annoyed and irritated the sufferer. Eugene recognized no 
 
B E U L A H . 425 
 
 one, but his eyes followed Beulah continually ; and when his 
 delirium was at its height, only her voice and clasp of his hand 
 could in any degree soothe him. In his ravings, she noticed/ two 
 constantly conflicting emotions : a stern bitterness of feeling 
 toward his wife, and an almost adoring fondness for his infant 
 child. Of the latter, he talked incessantly, and vowed that she, 
 at least, should love him. As the weary days crept by, Beulah 
 started at every sound, fancying that the wife had certainly 
 come ; but hour after hour found only Mrs. Williams and the 
 orphan guarding the deserted husband. Gradually the fever 
 abated, and a death-like stupor succeeded. Mr. Graham stole 
 about the house, like a haunting spirit, miserable and useless, 
 and in the solemn stillness of midnight only Beulah sat by the 
 pillow, where a head now rested motionless as that of a 
 corpse. Mrs. Williams was asleep on a couch at the oppo- 
 site end of the room, and in the dim, spectral light of the 
 shaded lamp, the watcher and her charge looked unearthly. 
 Faint from constant vigils, Beulah threw her arm on the bed 
 and leaned her head upon it, keeping her eyes on the colorless 
 face before her. Who that has watched over friends, hovering 
 upon the borders of the spirit-land, needs to be told how dreary 
 was the heart of the solitary nurse ? And to those who have 
 not thus suffered and endured, no description would adequately 
 portray the desolation and gloom. 
 
 The stars were waning, when Eugene moved, threw up his 
 hand over the pillow, and, after a moment, opened his eyes. 
 Beulah leaned forward, and he looked at her fixedly, as if puz- 
 zled ; then said, feebly : 
 
 " Beulah, is it you ?" 
 
 A cry of joy rolled to her lips, but she hushed it, and answered 
 tremblingly : 
 
 " Yes, Eugene, it is Beulah." 
 
 His eyes wandered about the room, and then rested again on 
 her countenance, with a confused, perplexed expression. 
 
 " Am I at home ? What is the matter ?" 
 
4:26 B E U L A H . 
 
 " Yes, Eugene, at home among your best friends. Don't talk 
 any more ; try to sleep again." 
 
 With a great joy in her heart, she extinguished the light, so 
 that he could see nothing. After a few moments he said, 
 slowly : 
 
 " Beulah, did I dream I saw you ? Beulah !" She felt his 
 hand put out, as if to feel for her. 
 
 " No, I am sitting by you, but will not talk to you now. You 
 must keep quiet." 
 
 There was a short silence. 
 
 " But where am I ? Not at home, I know." 
 
 She did not reply, and he repeated the question more earnestly. 
 
 " You are in my house, Eugene ; let that satisfy you." 
 
 His fingers closed over hers tightly, and soon he slept. 
 
 The sun was high in the sky when he again unclosed his eyes 
 and found Dr. Asbury feeling his pulse. His mind was still 
 bewildered, and he looked around him, wonderingly. 
 
 " How do you feel, Graham ?" said the doctor. 
 
 " Feel ! as if I had been standing on my head. What is the 
 matter with me, doctor 1 Have I been sick ?" 
 
 " Well yes; you have not been exactly well, and feel stupid 
 after a long nap. Take a spoonful of this nectar I have 
 prepared for you. No wry faces, man ! It will clear your 
 head ?" 
 
 Eugene attempted to raise himself, but fell back exhausted, 
 while, for the first time, he noticed his arm firmly incased in wood 
 and bandages. 
 
 " What have you been doing to my arm ? Why, I can't 
 move it. I should " 
 
 " Oh, don't trouble yourself, Graham; you injured it, and I 
 bound it up, that is all. When gentlemen amuse themselves 
 with such gymnastic feats as you performed, they must expect a 
 little temporary inconvenience from crushed bones and over- 
 strained muscles. Beulah, mind my directions about silence and 
 quiet." 
 
B E U L A H . 427 
 
 The doctor walked out to escape further questioning. Eugene 
 looked at his useless, stiffened arm, and then at Beulah, saying 
 anxiously : 
 
 " What is the matter with me ?" 
 
 " You were thrown out of a buggy, and fractured your arm 
 in the fall." . 
 
 She thought it best to tell the truth at once. 
 
 Memory flew back to her deserted throne, and dimly the 
 events of that evening's revel passed through his mind. A flush 
 of shame rose to his temples, and turning his head toward the 
 wall, he hid his face in the pillow. Then Beulah heard a deep, 
 shuddering sigh, and a groan of remorseful agony. After a long 
 silence, he said, in a tone of humiliation that drew tears to her 
 eyes : 
 
 " How long have I been here ?" 
 
 She told him the number of days, and he immediately asked : 
 
 " Have I been in any danger ?" 
 
 " Yes, very great danger ; but that has all passed now, and if 
 you will only be composed and careful you will soon be strong 
 again." 
 
 " I heard my father talking to you, who else is here ?" 
 
 He looked at her with eager interest. 
 
 " No one else, except our kind matron. Mr. Graham came as 
 soon as the letter reached him, and has not left the house 
 since." 
 
 A look of indescribable sorrow and shame swept over his 
 countenance, as he continued bitterly : 
 
 " And did Antoinette know all at once ? Stop, Beulah, tell 
 me the miserable truth. Did she know all, and still remain 
 away ?" 
 
 " She knew all that had been communicated to Mr. Graham, 
 when he came ; and he has written to her every day He is now 
 writing to inform her that you are better." 
 
 She shrank from giving the pain she was conscious her words 
 inflicted. 
 
428 B E U L A H . 
 
 " I deserve it all ! Yes, ingratitude, indifference, and deser- 
 tion 1 If I had died, she would have heard it unmoved. Oh, 
 Cornelia, Cornelia, it is a fearful retribution ; more bitter than 
 death 1" Averting his face, his whole frame trembled with ill- 
 concealed emotion. 
 
 " Eugene, you must compose yourself. Remember you jeopar- 
 dize your life by this sort of excitement." 
 
 " Why didn't you let me die ? What have I to live for ? A 
 name disgraced, and a wife unloving and heartless 1 What has 
 the future but wretchedness and shame ?" 
 
 " Not unless you will it so. You should want to \\ge to re- 
 trieve your character, to take an honorable position, which, 
 hitherto, you have recklessly forfeited ; to make the world 
 respect you, your wife revere you, and your child feel that she 
 may be proud of her father ! Ah, Eugene, all this the future 
 calls you to do." 
 
 He looked up at her as she stood beside him, pale, thin, and 
 weary, and his feeble voice faltered, as he asked : 
 
 "Beulah, my best friend, my sister, do you quite despise 
 me?" 
 
 She laid her hands softly on his, and stooping down pressed 
 her lips to his forehead. 
 
 " Eugene, once I feared that you had fallen even below my 
 pity ; but now I believe you will redeem yourself. I hope that, 
 thoroughly reformed, you will command the respect of all who 
 know you, and realize the proud aspirations I once indulged for 
 you. That you can do this I feel assured; that you will, I do most 
 sincerely trust. I have not yet lost faith in you, Eugene. I hope 
 still." 
 
 She left him to ponder in solitude the humiliating result of his 
 course of dissipation. 
 
BEULAH. 4:29 
 
 CHAPTER XXXIV. 
 
 THE hours of gradual convalescence were very trying to Beu- 
 lah, now that the sense of danger no longer nerved her to almost 
 superhuman endurance and exertion. Mr. Graham waited until 
 his adopted son was able to sit up, and then returned to the 
 watering-place, where his wife remained. Thus the entire charge 
 of the invalid devolved on the tireless friends who had watched 
 over him in the hour of peril. Betilah had endeavored to banish 
 the sorrow that pressed so heavily on her heart, and to dispel the 
 gloom and despondency which seemed to have taken possession 
 of the deserted husband. She read, talked, sang to him, and 
 constantly strove to cheer him, by painting a future in which 
 the past was to be effectually cancelled. Though well-nigh ex- 
 hausted by incessant care and loss of sleep, she never complained 
 of weariness, and always forced a smile of welcome to her lips 
 when the invalid had his chair wheeled to her side, or tottered 
 out into the dining-room to join her. One morning in August, 
 she sat on the little gallery at the rear of the house, with a table 
 before her, engaged in drawing some of the clusters of blue, 
 white, and pink convolvulus which festooned the pillars and 
 ballustrade. Eugene sat near her, with his thin face leaned on 
 his hand, his thoughts evidently far removed from flowers. 
 His arm was still in a sling, and he looked emaciated and deject- 
 ed. Mrs. Williams had been talking to him cheerfully about 
 some money matters he had promised to arrange for her, so soon 
 as he was well enough to go to his office; but, gathering up her 
 working materials, the old lady went into the kitchen, and the 
 two sat for some time in silence. One of his long-drawn sighs 
 arrested Beulah's attention, and she said, kindly: 
 
 " What is the matter, brother mine ? Are you tired of 
 
430 B E U L A H . 
 
 watching my clumsy fingers? Shall I finish that essay of 
 Macaulay's you were so much interested in yesterday, or will 
 you have another of Bryant's poems ?" She laid down her 
 pencil, quite ready to divert his mind by reading. 
 
 " No, do not quit your draw ing ; I should not enjoy even 
 Macaulay to-day." 
 
 He threw his head back, and sighed again. 
 
 " Why, Eugene ? Don't you feel as well as usual this morn- 
 ing ? Remember your family will arrive to-day j you should be 
 the happiest man living." 
 
 " Oh, Beulah 1 don't mock me. I cannot bear it. My life 
 seems a hopeless blank." 
 
 " You ought not to talk so despondingly ; you have everything 
 to live for. Rouse your energies. Be indeed a man. Conquer 
 this weak, repining spirit. Don't you remember the motto on 
 the tombstone at St. Gilgen ? 
 
 " * Look not mournfully on the past it conies not back ; 
 Enjoy the present it is thine. 
 Go forth to meet the shadowy future, 
 With a manly heart, and without fear.' " 
 
 " You know little of what oppresses me. It is the knowledge 
 
 of my , of Antoinette's indifference, which makes the future 
 
 so joyless, so desolate. Beulah, this has caused my ruiu. 
 When I stood by Cornelia's coffin, and recalled her last frantic 
 appeal ; when I looked down at her cold face, and remembered 
 her devoted love for her unworthy brother, I vowed never to 
 touch wine again ; to absent myself from the associates who 
 had led me to dissipation. Beulah, I was honest, and intended 
 to reform from that hour. But Antoinette's avowed coldness, 
 or, to call it by its proper name, heartless selfishness, and fond- 
 ness for admiration, first disgusted, and then maddened me. I 
 would have gladly spent my evenings quietly, in our elegant 
 home, but she contrived to have it crowded with visitors, as 
 
BEULAH. 
 
 soulless and frivolous as herself. I remonstrated, she was sneer- 
 ing, defiant, and unyielding, and assured me, she would ' amuse ' 
 herself as she thought proper; I followed her example, and went 
 back to the reckless companions, who continually beset my path. 
 I was miserably deceived in Antoinette's character. She was 
 very beautiful, and I was blind to her mental, nay, I may as 
 well say it at once, her moral defects. I believed she was 
 warmly attached to me, and I loved her most devotedly. But 
 no sooner were we married, than I discovered my blind rashness. 
 Cornelia warned me, but what man, fascinated by a beautiful 
 girl, ever listened to counsels that opposed his heart ? Antoi- 
 nette is too intensely selfish to love anything, or anybody but 
 herself ; she does not even love her child. Strange as it may 
 seem, she is too entirely engrossed by her weak fondness for dis- 
 play and admiration, even to caress her babe. Except at 
 breakfast and dinner, we rarely meet, and then, unless company 
 is present (which is generally the case), our intercourse is 
 studiedly cold. Do you wonder that I am hopeless in view of a 
 life, passed with such a companion ? Oh, that I could blot oat 
 the last two years of my existence !" 
 
 He groaned, and shaded his face with his hands. 
 
 " But, Eugene, probably your reformation and altered course 
 will win you your wife's love and reverence," suggested Beulah, 
 anxious to offer some incentive to exertion. 
 
 " I know her nature too well to hope that. A woman who 
 prefers to dance and ride with gentlemen, rather than remain in 
 her luxurious home, with her babe and her duties, cannot be 
 won from her moth-like life. No, no ! I despair of happiness 
 from her society and affection, and if at all, must derive it from 
 other sources. My child is the one living blossom amidst all my 
 withered hopes, she is the only treasure I have, except your 
 friendship. She shall never blush for her father's degradation. 
 Henceforth, though an unhappy man, I shall prove myself a 
 temperate one. I cannot trust my child's education to Antoi- 
 nette, she is unworthy the sacred charge ; I must fit myself to 
 
432 B E U L A H . 
 
 form her character. Oh, Beulah, if I could make her such a 
 woman as you are, then I could indeed bear my lot patiently! I 
 named her Cornelia, but henceforth, she shall be called Beulah 
 also, in token of her father's gratitude to his truest friend." 
 
 " No, Eugene, call her not after me, lest some of my sorrows 
 come upon her young head. Oh, no ! name her not Beulah : 
 let her be called Cornelia. I would not have her soul shrouded 
 as mine has been." Beulah spoke vehemently, and laying her 
 hand on his arm, she added : 
 
 " Eugene, to-day you will leave me, and go back to your own 
 house, to your family ; but before you go, I ask you, if not for 
 your sake, for that of your child, to promise me solemnly, that 
 you will never again touch intoxicating drinks of any kind. 
 Oh, will you promise ? Will you reform entirely ?" 
 
 There was a brief pause, and he answered slowly : 
 
 " I promise, Beulah. Nay, my friend, I swear I will abstain 
 in future. Ah, I will never disgrace my angel child ! Never, 
 so help me heaven I" 
 
 The Sound of approaching steps interrupted the conversation, 
 and expecting to see Antoinette and her infant, accompanied by 
 Mr. and Mrs. Graham, Beulah looked up quickly, and per- 
 ceived Mr. Lindsay. 
 
 " Does my advent startle you, that you look so pale and 
 breathless ?" said he, smiling, as he took her hand. 
 
 " I am certainly very much surprised to see you here, sir." 
 
 " And I am heartily glad you have come, Reginald," cried 
 Eugene, returning his friend's tight clasp. 
 
 '* I intended coming to nurse you, Graham, as soon as I heard 
 of the accident, but my mother's illness prevented my leaving 
 home. I need not ask about your arm, I see it still requires 
 cautious handling ; but how are you otherwise ? Regaining 
 your strength, I hope ?" 
 
 " Yes, gradually. I am better than I deserve to be, Reginald." 
 
 " That remains to be proved in future, ,Graham. Come, get 
 well as rapidly as possible ; I have a plan to submit to you, the 
 
B E TJ L A II . 433 
 
 earliest day you are strong enough to discuss business topics. 
 Miss Beulah, let me sharpen your pencil." 
 
 He took it from her, trimmed it carefully, and handed it back; 
 then drew her portfolio near him, and glanced over the numerous 
 unfinished sketches. 
 
 " I have several books, filled with European sketches, which, 
 I think, might afford you some pleasure. They were taken by 
 different persons ; and some of the views on the Ehine, and 
 particularly some along the southern shore of Spain, are unsur- 
 passed by any I have seen. You may receive them some day, 
 after I return." 
 
 " Thank you, I shall copy them with great pleasure." 
 
 " I see you are not as much of a pyrrhonist in art as in philo- 
 sophy," said Mr. Lindsay, watching her countenance as she bent 
 over her drawing. 
 
 " Who told you, sir, that I was one in any department ?" She 
 looked up suddenly, with flashing eyes. 
 
 " There is no need to be told. I can readily perceive it." 
 
 " Your penetration is at fault then. Of all others, the charge 
 of pyrrhonism is the last I merit." 
 
 He smiled, and said, quietly : 
 
 ' What, then, is your aesthetic creed, if I may inquire ?" 
 
 44 It is nearly allied to Cousin's." 
 
 " I thought you had abjured eclecticism ; yet Cousin is its 
 apostle. Once admit his theory of the beautiful, and you cannot 
 reject his psychology and ethics ; nay, his theodicea ?" 
 
 " I do not desire to separate his system ; as such I receive it." 
 
 Beulah compressed her lips firmly, and looked at her interro- 
 gator half defiantly. 
 
 " You deliberately shut your eyes, then, to the goal his philo- 
 sophy sets before you ?" 
 
 " No, I am nearing the goal, looking steadily toward it." She 
 spoke hastily, and with an involuntary wrinkling of her brow. 
 
 " And that goal is pantheism ; draped gorgeously, but panthe- 
 ism still," answered Mr. Lindsay, with solemn emphasis. 
 
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434: B E U L A H . 
 
 "No ; his whole psychology is opposed to pantheism I" cried 
 Beulah, pushing aside her drawing materials, and meeting his 
 eyes fixedly. 
 
 " You probably attach undue weight to his assertion that, 
 although God passes into the universe, or therein manifests all 
 the elements of his being, he is not ' exhausted in the act.' Now, 
 granting, for the sake of argument, that God is not entirely 
 absorbed in the universe, Cousin's pet doctrine of the ' Sponta- 
 neous Apperception of Absolute Truths/ clearly renders man a 
 modification of God. Difference in degree, you know, implies 
 sameness of kind ; from this there is no escape. He says, ' the 
 God of consciousness is not a solitary sovereign, banished beyond 
 creation, upon the throne of a silent eternity, and an absolute 
 existence, which resembles existence in no respect whatever. He 
 is a God, at once true and real, substance and cause, one and 
 many, eternity and time, essence and life, end and middle ; at 
 the summit of existence, and at its base, infinite and finite toge- 
 ther ; in a word, a Trinity ; being at the same time, God, 
 Nature and Humanity/ His separation of reason and reasoning, 
 and the results of his boasted ' spontaneous apperception, are 
 very nearly allied to those of Schelling's ' Intellectual Intuition ;' 
 yet I suppose you would shrink from the ' absolute identity ' of 
 the latter 1" 
 
 " You have not stated the question fairly, sir. He reiterates 
 that the absolute belongs to none of us. We perceive truth, 
 but do not create it I" retorted Beulah. 
 
 " You will perhaps remember his saying, explicitly, that we 
 can comprehend the Absolute T' 
 
 " Yes, I recollect ; and moreover, he declares that ' we are 
 conducted to God by a ray of his own being.' " 
 
 "Can limited faculties comprehend the infinite and eternal 
 creator ?" 
 
 11 We do not attain a knowledge of him through finite chan- 
 nels. Cousin contends that it is by means of relation to the 
 absolute that we know God." 
 
B E u L A n . 435 
 
 " Then, to know the absolute, or God, you must be the abso- 
 lute : or, in other words, God only can find God. This is the 
 simple doctrine, when you unwind the veil he has cleverly hung 
 over it. True, he denounces pantheism ; but here is pantheism 
 of the eclectic patent, differing from that of other systems only 
 in subtlety of expression, wherein Cousin certainly excels. One 
 of the most profound philosophical writers of the age,* and one 
 whose opinion on this point certainly merits careful consideration, 
 has remarked, in an analysis of Cousin's system, ' with regard to 
 his notion of Deity, we have already shown how closely this 
 verges upon the principle of Pantheism. Even if we admit that 
 it is not a doctrine, like that of Spinoza, which identifies God 
 with the abstract idea of substance ; or even like that of Hegel, 
 which regards Deity as synonymous with the absolute law and 
 process of the universe ; if we admit, in fact, that the Deity of 
 Cousin possesses a conscious personality, yet still it is one which 
 contains in itself the infinite personality and consciousness of 
 every subordinate mind. God is the ocean we are but the 
 waves ; the ocean may be one individuality, and each wave 
 another ; but still they are essentially one and the same. .We 
 see not how Cousin's Theism can possibly be consistent with any 
 idea of moral evil ; neither do we see how, starting from such a 
 dogma, he can ever vindicate and uphold his own theory of 
 human liberty. On such theistic principles, all sin must be sim- 
 ply defect, and all defect must be absolutely fatuitous.' Eclec- 
 ticism was a beautiful, but frail levee, opposed to the swollen 
 tide of skepticism, and as in every other crevasse, when swept 
 away, it only caused the stream to rush on more madly." 
 
 He watched her closely as he spoke, and observed the quiver 
 of her long, curling lashes ; he saw, too, that she was resolved 
 not to surrender, and waited for an explicit defence ; but here 
 Eugene interrupted : 
 
 " All this tweedle-dum and tweedle-dee reminds me of Heidel- 
 
 * J. D. Morell. Speculative Philosophy of Europe. 
 
436 BETLAH. 
 
 oerg days, when a tew of us roamed about the Odenwald, chop- 
 ping off flowers with our canes and discussing philosophy. Eare 
 jargon we made of it ; talking of cosmothetic idealism, or hypo- 
 thetical dualism, of noetic, and dianoetic principles, of hylozoism, 
 and hypostasis, and demonstrating the most undemonstrahle pro- 
 positions by appeals to the law of contradiction, or of excluded 
 middle. I fancied then that I was growing very learned* won- 
 dered whether Beulah here would be able to keep up with me, 
 and really thought I understood what I discoursed about so 
 logically." 
 
 " Yon can at least console yourself, Graham, by determining 
 
 that 
 
 " 'You know what's what, and that's as high 
 As metaphysic wit can fly.' 
 
 I imagine there are very few of us who would agree with some 
 of our philosophers, that ' the pursuit of truth is far more im- 
 portant than the attainment thereof 7 that philosophizing is 
 more valuable than philosophy. To be conversant with the 
 abstractions which, in the hands of some metaphysical giants, 
 have rendered both mind and matter like abstractions, is a 
 course of proceeding I should scarcely indorse ; and the best 
 antidote I remember just now to any such web-spinning proclivi- 
 ties is a perusal of the three first lectures of Sidney Smith on 
 1 Moral Philosophy.' In recapitulating the tenets of the schools, 
 he says : ' The speculations of many of the ancients on the human 
 understanding are so confused, and so purely hypothetical, that 
 their greatest admirers are not agreed upon their meaning ; and 
 whenever we can procure a plain statement of their doctrines, 
 all other modes of refuting them appear to be wholly super- 
 fluous.' Miss Beulah, I especially commend you to these humor- 
 ous lectures." He bowed to her with easy grace. 
 
 " I have them, sir have read them with great pleasure," said 
 Beulah, smiling at his droll manner of mingled reserve and 
 freedom. 
 
 "What an exalted estimate that same incorrigible Sidney 
 
BEUL AH. 437 
 
 must have placed upon the public taste of this republican land 
 of ours ? In one of his lectures on ' the beauty of form,' I 
 remember he says : ' A chin ending in a very sharp angle would 
 be a perfect deformity. A man whose chin terminated in a 
 point would be under the immediate necessity of retiring to 
 America he would be such a perfect horror !' Decidedly flat- 
 tering to our national type of beauty." As Eugene spoke, his 
 lips wore a smile more akin to those of his boyhood than any 
 Bculah had seen since his return from Europe. 
 
 " Yes, that was to show the influence of custom, be it remem- 
 bered ; and in the same connection, he remarks, honestly enough, 
 that he ' hardly knows what a Grecian face is ; but thinks it 
 very probable that if the elegant arts had been transmitted to 
 us from the Chinese, instead of the Greeks, that singular piece 
 of deformity a Chinese nose would have been held in high 
 estimation/ It was merely association." 
 
 " Which I don't believe a word of," cried Beulah, appropri- 
 ating the last as a lunge at her favorite absolutism. Rising, she 
 placed her drawings in the portfolio, for the sun had crept round 
 the corner of the gallery, and was shining in her face. 
 
 Mr. Lindsay smiled, without replying, and gave his arm to 
 assist Eugene into the house. They were comfortably seated in 
 the dining-room, and Beulah knew that the discussion was about 
 to be renewed, when a carriage dashed up to the door. Eugene 
 turned pale, and a sudden rigidity seized his features. Beulah 
 gave her guest a quick, meaning glance, and retreated to the 
 gallery, whither he instantly followed her, leaving Eugene to 
 receive his wife without witnesses. Leaning against one of the 
 pillars, Beulah unfastened a wreath of blue convolvulus which 
 Mrs. Williams had twined in her hair an hour before. The 
 delicate petals wero withered, and with a suppressed sigh, she 
 threw them away. Mr. Lindsay drew a letter from his pocket, 
 and handed it to her, saying briefly : 
 
 " I was commissioned to give you this, and knowing the con- 
 tents, hope a favorable answer." 
 
438 B E TT L A H . 
 
 It was from Clara, urging 1 her to come up the following week 
 and officiate as bridesmaid at her wedding. She could return 
 home with Helen and George Asbury. Beulah read the letter, 
 smiled sadly, and put it in her pocket. 
 
 " Will you go ?" 
 
 " No, sir." 
 
 " Why not ? You need a change of air, and the trip would 
 benefit you. You do not probably know how much you have 
 altered in appearance since I saw you. My uncle is coming out 
 to persuade you to go. Can't I succeed without his aid ?" 
 
 " I could not leave home now. Eugene's illness has prevented 
 my accomplishing some necessary work, and as I consign him- to 
 other hands to-day, I must make amends for my long indolence. 
 Thank you for taking charge of my letter, but I cannot think of 
 going." 
 
 He perceived that no amount of persuasion would avail, and 
 for an instant a look of annoyance crossed his face. But his 
 brow cleared as he said, with a smile : 
 
 " For a year I have watched for your articles, and .the maga- 
 zine is a constant companion of my desk. Sometimes I am 
 tempted to criticise your sketches ; perhaps I may do so yet, 
 and that in no Boswell spirit either." 
 
 " Doubtless, sir, you would find them very vulnerable to criti- 
 cism, which now-a-days has become a synonym for fault-finding ; 
 at least this carping proclivity characterizes the class, who seem 
 desirous only of earning reputation as literary Jeffreys. I am 
 aware, sir, that I am very vulnerable." 
 
 " Suppose, then, that at the next month's literary assize (as you 
 seem disposed to consider it), you find in some of the magazines 
 a severe animadversion upon the spirit of your writings ? Dare 
 I do this, and still hope for your friendship ?" 
 
 He watched her closely. 
 
 " Certainly, sir. I am not writing merely to see myself in 
 print, nor wholly for remuneration in dollars and cents. I am 
 earnestly searching for truth, and if in my articles you discover 
 
B E U L A H . 4:39 
 
 error and can correct it, I shall be glad to have you do so, pro- 
 vided you adopt the Catholic spirit, which should distinguish 
 such undertakings. Now, if you merely intend to hold me up for 
 ridicule, as thoroughly as possible, I prefer that you let me and 
 my articles rest ; but a calm, dispassionate criticism I should 
 not shrink from. I write only what I believe, and if I am in 
 error, I shall be glad to have it corrected." 
 
 " Miss Benton, may I venture to correct it without having 
 recourse to the vehicle of public criticism ? Will you permit me 
 to discuss with you, here in your quiet home, those vital ques- 
 tions whose solution seems to engage your every thought ?" 
 
 She drew back, and answered with a dreary sort of smile : 
 
 " I am afraid you would derive little pleasure, and I less profit 
 from such disputation. I have learned from bitter experience 
 that merely logical forms of argumentation do not satisfy the hun- 
 gry soul. The rigid processes of Idealism annihilated the 
 external world; and Hume proved that Mind was a like chimera; 
 yet who was ever seriously converted by their incontrovertible 
 reasoning? I have lost faith in ratiocination." 
 
 " Still you cling to opinions founded on its errors. Why not 
 be consistent, and in rejecting its most potent ally, reject the 
 conclusions of Rationalism also ?" 
 
 " Because I must believe something, gaith in some creed is 
 an absolute necessity of human nature." 
 
 'You distinguish faith, then, from intellectual belief?" 
 
 " No ; I compound them ; my faith is based on mental con- 
 viction," replied Beulah, perceiving whither he was leading her, 
 and resolved not to follow. 
 
 . "And this conviction results from those same processes of 
 ratiocination which you condemn as unworthy of credence, 
 because subject to gross, sometimes ludicrous perversions ?" 
 
 " I am unable to detect any such perversion or inacuracy in 
 the cautious course of reasoning which has assisted me to my 
 present belief." 
 
 " Pardon me, but does this fact convince you of the infalli- 
 
440 B E II L A H . 
 
 bility of the course ? Have you constituted your individual 
 reason the sole judge ?" 
 
 " Yes ; there is no other left me." 
 
 " And your conclusions are true for you only, since the indi- 
 vidual organism of your mind makes them so. To an intellect 
 of a higher or lower grade these conclusions would be untenable, 
 since the depressed or exalted reason judged them accordingly. 
 You may cling to some doctrine as absolutely and necessarily 
 true, yet to my mind it may seem a shallow delusion, like the 
 vagaries of spirit-rappers." 
 
 " No ; reasoning is often fallacious, but reason is divine ; 
 reasoning often clouds the truth, but reason, by spontaneous 
 apperception, grasps truth," persisted Beulah, unhesitatingly. 
 
 " Then truth has as many phases, and as antagonistic, as there 
 are individuals in the universe. Alt men are prophets; all are 
 alike inspired ; all alike worthy of trust and credence. Spon- 
 taneous reason has grasped a number of oddly conflicting doc- 
 trines, let me tell you, and the reconciliation of these would be 
 an undertaking to which the dozen labors of Hercules seem a 
 farce." 
 
 " The superstitions of various ages and nations are not valid 
 arguments against the existence of universal and necessary 
 principles." 
 
 " Why, then, have 4hese principles produced no unanimity of 
 faith ? The history of the human race is the history of the rise 
 of one philosophy and religion from the ashes of its predecessor. 
 There is one universal belief in the necessity of religion, and 
 this belief built altars in the dawn of time ; but your spontane- 
 ous reason is perpetually changing the idols on these altars. 
 The God of one man's reason will not satisfy that of his 
 neighbor." 
 
 Before Beulah could reply, she heard Eugene calling her in the 
 hall, and was hastening to meet him; but Mr. Lindsay caught 
 her hand, and said : " You have not yet given me permission 
 to intrude on your seclusion." She withdrew her hand instantly 
 
BEULAH. 441 
 
 " When you have nothing else to occupy you, and wish to 
 while away an hour in literary discussion, you will generally 
 find me at home during vacation." 
 
 She walked on and joined Eugene in the hall. Antoinette 
 stood in the door, and they merely exchanged bows, while Mr. 
 Graham grasped her hand and earnestly thanked her for the 
 many kindnesses she had rendered to his family. Beulah looked 
 at the composed, beautiful face of the young wife, and then at 
 the thin form of the husband, and said, hastily : 
 
 " You owe me no thanks, sir ; the claims of true friendship 
 are imperative. In removing to his own house I trust Eugene's 
 improvement may not be retarded." 
 
 Antoinette tripped down the steps, and gathering the flounces 
 of her costly dress, seated herself m the carriage. Mr. Graham 
 bit his lip, colored, and after a cordial good bye, joined her. 
 Eugene smiled bitterly, and turning to Beulah, took both her 
 hands in his, saying, feelingly : 
 
 "Beulah, I leave your house a wiser, if not less miserable 
 man. I am going to atone for the past ; to prove to you that 
 your faith in me is not altogether unmerited. If I am saved 
 from ruin and disgrace, I owe it to you ; and to you I shall look 
 for sympathy and encouragement. To you, my best friend, I 
 shall often come for sisterly aid, when clouds gather black and 
 stormy over my miserable home. God blesswyou, Beulah ! I 
 have promised reformation, and will keep my promise sacred if 
 it cost me my life." 
 
 He raised her hand to his lips, and linking his arm in Mr. 
 Lindsay's, left the house and entered the carriage, while the 
 latter mounted his horse and rode slowly away. 
 
 " You look weary, child. You must give yourself some rest 
 now," said Mrs. Williams, wiping her eyes with the corner of her 
 apron. 
 
 " Rest I Ah, yes ; if I could find it," returned the girl, taking 
 the comb from the back of her head, and shaking down the folds 
 of hair, till it hung round her like a long mourning veil. 
 
 19* 
 
B E U L A H . 
 
 " Suppose you try to sleep some," suggested the matron. 
 
 " I have some work to do first," said she, drawing a long breath, 
 and wiping the dust from her desk. 
 
 Mrs. Williams withdrew ; and, clasping her hands over her 
 forehead, Beulah stood looking up, with dim eyes, at the cloud- 
 less face that smiled down on her, until she almost fancied the 
 lips parted to address her. 
 
 CHAPTER XXXV. 
 
 MR LINDSAY'S visits grew more frequent. At first Beulah 
 wondered what brought him so often from his distant home to 
 the city, and supposed it must be some legal business which en- 
 gaged him; but gradually a different solution dawned upon her 
 mind. She rejected it as the prompting of vanity, but again and 
 again the supposition recurred. The imperturbable gravity and 
 repose of his manner often disconcerted her. It was in vain that 
 she resorted to sarcasm and irony, he was incorrigibly unruffled ; 
 in vain she was cold, repellent, haughty : his quiet smile remained 
 unaltered. His superior, and thoroughly cultivated intellect, and 
 the unaffected simplicity of his manner, characterized by singular 
 candor, rendered him an unusually agreeable companion ; but 
 Beulah rebelled against the unobtrusive yet constant care with 
 which she fancied he watched her. The seclusion of her life, 
 and reserve of her nature, conspired to impart a degree of ab- 
 ruptness to her own manners ; and to one who understood her 
 character less than Reginald Lindsay, there was an unhesitating 
 sincerity of expression, which might have been termed rudeness. 
 The frequency of his visits attracted the attention of strangers ; 
 already the busy tongue of meddling gossip had connected their 
 names ; Dr. Asbury, too, bantered her unmercifully upon his 
 nephew's constant pilgrimages to the city ; and the result was, 
 
B E u L A n . 443 
 
 that Mr. Lindsay's receptions grew colder and less flattering con. 
 tinnally. From the first, she had not encouraged his visits, and 
 now she positively discouraged them, by every intimation which 
 the rules of etiquette justified her in offering. Yet she respected, 
 esteemed, and in many things admired him; and readily confessed 
 to her own heart that his society often gave her pleasure. 
 
 Onfc winter evening she sat alone by the dining-room fire, with 
 a newspaper in her hand, reading a notice of the last number of 
 the magazine, in which one of her sketches was roughly handled. 
 Of course, she was no better pleased with the unflattering criti- 
 cism than the majority of writers in such cases. She frowned, 
 bit her lip, and wondered who could have written it. The 
 review was communicated, and the paper had been sent to her by- 
 some unknown hand. Once more she read the article, and 
 her brow cleared, while a smile broke over her face. She had 
 recognized a particular dictum, and was no longer puzzled. 
 Leaning her head on her palm, she sat looking into the fire, 
 ruminating on the objections urged against her piece; it was the 
 first time she had ever been unfavorably criticised, and this was 
 sufficient food for thought. 
 
 Mr. Lindsay came in and stood near her unobserved. They 
 had not met for several weeks, and she was not aware that he 
 was in the city. Charon, who lay on the rug at her feet, growled, 
 and she looked round. 
 
 " Good evening," said her visitor, extending his hand. 
 
 She did not accept it, but merely inclined her head, saying : 
 
 " Ah, how do you do, sir ?" 
 
 He laid a package on the table, drew a chair -near the hearth, 
 without looking at her, and calling to Charon, patted his huge 
 head kindly. 
 
 " What have you there, Miss Beulah ? Merely a newspaper ; 
 it seems to interest you intensely. May I see it ?" 
 
 " I am certainly very much obliged to you, sir, for the chival- 
 rous spirit in which you indited your criticism. I was just pon- 
 dering it when you entered." 
 
444 B K U L A II . 
 
 She smiled as she spoke, and shook the paper at him. 
 
 " I thought I had feigned a style you would not recognize," 
 he answered,, quite uncgncernedly. 
 
 "You succeeded admirably, with the exception of one pet 
 phrase, which betrayed you. Next time, recollect that you are 
 very partial to some particular expressions, with which I happen 
 to be acquainted ; and avoid their introduction." 
 
 " I rather think I shall not repeat the experiment ; especially 
 as my arguments seem to have failed signally in their design. 
 Are you quite sure that you understand my review perfectly ?" 
 
 He looked a little curious she fancied disappointed and she 
 replied, laughingly : 
 
 " Oh, I think I do; it is not so very abstruse." 
 
 He leaned forward, took the paper from her, before she was 
 aware of his intention, and threw it into the fire. 
 
 She looked surprised, and he offered his hand once more. 
 
 " Are we still friends ? Will you shake hands with your re- 
 viewer ?" 
 
 She unhesitatingly put her hand in his, and answered : 
 
 " Friendship is not a gossamer thread, to be severed by a 
 stroke of the pen." 
 
 She endeavored to withdraw her fingers, but he held them 
 firmly, while his blue eyes rested upon her with an expression 
 she by no means liked. Her black brows met in a heavy frown, 
 and her lips parted angrily ; he saw it, and instantly released 
 her hand. 
 
 " Miss Beulah, my uncle commissioned me to say to you that 
 he received a letter to-day from Dr. Hartwell. It was written 
 during his voyage down the Eed Sea, and contained a long fare- 
 well, as inland travel would afford no facilities for writing." 
 
 He noted the tight clasp in which her fingers locked each 
 other, and the livid paleness of her lips and brow, as the long 
 lashes drooped, and she sat silently listening. Charon laid his 
 head on her knee, and looked up at her. There was a brief 
 silence, and Mr. Lindsay added, slowly: 
 
B E U L A H . 445 
 
 " My uncle fears he will never return ; do you cherish the 
 hope ?" 
 
 "Yes, he will come back, if his life is spared. It may be 
 many years, but he will come, he will come." 
 
 Their eyes met; there was a long, searching look from Mr. 
 Lindsay; she did not shrink from the scrutiny. An expression 
 of keen sorrow swept over his face, but he conquered his emo- 
 tion, took the parcel he had brought, and unwrapping a book, 
 said, in his usual quiet tone: 
 
 " When I saw you last, you were regretting your inability to 
 procure Sir William Hamilton's ' Philosophy of the Conditioned/ 
 and I have taken the liberty of bringing you my own copy. 
 Read it at your leisure; I shall not need it again soon. I do 
 not offer it as a system which will satisfy your mind, by solving 
 all your problems; but I do most earnestly commend his ' Philo- 
 sophy of the Conditioned/ as the surest antidote to the abstrac- 
 tions in which your speculation has involved you. The most 
 erudite scholar of the age, and one of the finest metaphysical 
 minds the world has ever known, he expressly sums up his vast 
 philosophic researches with the humble confession: . 'There are 
 two sorts of ignorances; we philosophize to escape ignorance, 
 and the consummation of our philosophy is ignorance; we start 
 from the one, we repose in the other; they are the goals from 
 which, and to which, we tend; and the pursuit of knowledge is 
 but a course between two ignorances, as human life is itself only 
 a travelling from grave to grave. The highest reach of human 
 science is the scientific recognition of human ignorance.' Like 
 you, Miss Beulah, I set out to discover some system where no 
 mysteries existed ; where I should only believe what I could 
 clearly comprehend. Yes, said I, proudly : I will believe 
 nothing that I cannot understand. I wandered on, until, like 
 you, I stood in a wide waste, strewn with the wreck of beliefs. 
 My pride asserted that my reason was the only and sufficient 
 guide, and whither did it lead me ? Into vagaries more inexpli- 
 cable than aught I fled from in Revelation. It was easier to 
 
B E U L A H . 
 
 believe that, 'in the beginning, God created the heaven and the 
 earth/ than that the glorious universe looked to chance as its 
 sole architect, or that it was a huge lumbering machine of mat- 
 ter, grinding out laws. I saw that I was the victim of a miser- 
 able delusion, in supposing my finite faculties could successfully 
 grapple with the mysteries of the universe. I found that to 
 receive the attempted solutions of philosophy required more 
 faith than Revelation, and my proud soul humbled itself, and 
 rested in the Bible. My philosophic experience had taught me, 
 that if mankind were to have any knowledge of their origin, 
 their destiny, their God, it must be revealed by that God, for 
 man could never discover aught for himself. There are mys- 
 teries in the Bible which I cannot explain; but it bears incon- 
 trovertible marks of divine origin, and as such I receive it. I 
 can sooner believe the Mosaic revelation, than the doctrine 
 which tells you that you are part of God, and capable of pene- 
 trating to absolute truth. To quote the expressive language of 
 an acute critic (whose well known latitudinarianism and disbe- 
 lief in the verbal inspiration of Scripture, give peculiar weight 
 to his opinion on this subject), 'when the advocates of this 
 natural, spontaneous inspiration, will come forth from their 
 recesses of thought, and deliver prophecies as clear as those of 
 the Hebrew seer; when they shall mold the elements of nature 
 toj;heir will; when they shall speak with the sublime authority 
 of Jesus of Nazareth; and with the same infinite ease, rising 
 beyond all the influence of time, place and circumstances, 
 explain the past, and unfold the future; when they die for the 
 truth they utter, and rise again, as witnesses to its divinity; 
 then we may begin to place them on the elevation which they 
 so thoughtlessly claim; but until they either prove these facts to 
 be delusions, or give their parallel in themselves, the world may 
 well laugh at their ambition, and trample their spurious inspira- 
 tion beneath its feet.' There is an infinite, eternal, and loving 
 God ; I am a finite creature, unable to comprehend him, and 
 knowing him only through his own revelation. This very reve- 
 
BEULAH. 447 
 
 lation is insufficient for our aspiring souls, I grant ; but it 
 declares emphatically that here 'we see through a glass darkly.' 
 Better this, than the starless night in which you grope, without 
 a promise of the dawn of eternity, where all mystery shall be 
 explained. Are you not weary of fruitless, mocking specula- 
 tion ?" He looked at her anxiously. 
 
 She raised her colorless face, and said drearily, as she passed 
 her hand over her forehead : 
 
 " Weary ? Ah, yes ? weary as the lonely mariner, tempest- 
 tossed on some pathless ocean, without chart or compass. In 
 my sky, even the star of hope is shrouded. Weary ? Yes, in 
 body and mind." 
 
 " Then, humble your proud intellect ; confess your ignorance 
 and inability, and rest in God and Christianity." 
 
 She made an impatient gesture, and, turning away, he walked 
 up and down the floor. For some^ moments neither spoke ; 
 finally, he approached her, and continued : 
 
 " There is strange significance in the Mosaic record of the 
 Fall. Longing for the fruits of knowledge, whereby the myste- 
 ries of God would be revealed, cost man Eden. The first pair 
 ate, knowledge mocked them, and only the curse remained. 
 That primeval curse of desiring to know all things descended to 
 all posterity, and at this instant you exemplify its existence. 
 Ah ! you must humble your intellect, if you would have it 
 exalted ; must be willing to be guided along unknown paths by 
 other light than that of reason, if you would be happy. Well 
 might Sir William Hamilton exclaim : ' It is this powerful ten- 
 dency of the most vigorous minds to transcend the sphere of our 
 faculties, which makes a "learned ignorance" the most difficult 
 acquirement, perhaps indeed the consummation of know- 
 ledge.'" 
 
 He sighed as he uttered these words ; she said nothing ; and, 
 putting his hand gently upon hers, as they lay folded on the 
 table beside her, he added, sadly : 
 
 " I had hoped that I could aid you ; but I see my efforts are 
 
448 B E U L A H . 
 
 useless ; you will not be guided nor influenced by others ; are 
 determined to wander on in ever-deepening night, solitary and 
 restless ! God help you, Beulah I" 
 
 A shudder ran over her, but she made no reply, 
 took her cold hands in his. 
 
 " And now we part. Since the evening I first saw you with 
 your basket of strawberries, I have cherished the hope that 1 
 might one day be more than a friend. You have constantly 
 shown me that I was nothing more to you ; I have seen it all 
 along, but still I hoped ; and notwithstanding your coldness, I 
 shall continue to hope. My love is too entirely yours to be 
 readily effaced. I can wait patiently. Beulah, you do not love 
 me now ; perhaps never can, but I shall at least cling to the 
 hope. I shall not come again ; shall not weary you with pro- 
 fessions and attentions. I know your nature, and even had I 
 the power, would not persuade you to give me your hand now. 
 But time may change your feelings ; on this frail tenure I rest 
 my hopes. Meantime, should circumstances occur which demand 
 the aid or counsel of devoted friendship, may I ask you to feel 
 no hesitancy in claiming any assistance I can render ? And, 
 Beulah, at any instant, a line, a word can recall me. The sepa- 
 ration will be very painful to me, but I cannot longer obtrude 
 myself on your presence. If, as I earnestly hope, the hour, 
 however distant, should come, when you desire to see me, oh, 
 Beulah, how gladly will I hasten to you " 
 
 " We can never be more than friends ; never !" cried 
 Beulah. 
 
 " You think so now, and perhaps I am doomed to disappoint- 
 ment; but, without your sanction, I shall hope it. Good bye." 
 He pressed his lips to her hand, and walked away. 
 
 Beulah heard the closing of the little gate, and then, for the 
 first time, his meaning flashed upon her mind. He believed she 
 loved her guardian ; fancied that long absence would obliterate 
 his image from her heart, and that, finally,' grown indifferent to 
 one who might never return, she would give her love to him 
 
BEULAH. 449 
 
 whose constancy merited it. Genuine delicacy of feeling pre- 
 vented his expressing all this, but she was conscious now that 
 only this induced his unexpected course toward herself. A 
 burning flush suffused her face as she exclaimed : 
 
 " Oh ! how unworthy I am of such love as his ? how utterly 
 undeserving !" 
 
 Soon after, opening the book he had brought at the place 
 designated, she drew the lamp near her and began its perusal. 
 Hour after hour glided away, and not until the last page was 
 concluded did she lay it aside. The work contained very little 
 that was new ; the same trains of thought had passed through 
 her mind more than once before ; but here they were far more 
 clearly and forcibly expressed. 
 
 She drew her chair to the window, threw up the sash, and 
 looked out. It was wintry midnight, and the sky blazed with 
 its undying watch-fires. This starry page was the first her 
 childish intellect had puzzled over. She had, from early years, 
 gazed up into the glittering temple of night, and asked : 
 11 Whence came yon silent worlds, floating in solemn grandeur 
 along the blue, waveless ocean of space ? Since the universe 
 sprang phcenix-like from that dim chaos, which may have been 
 but the charnel-house of dead worlds, those unfading lights have 
 burned on, bright as when they sang together at the creation. 
 And I have stretched out my arms helplessly to them, and 
 prayed to hear just once their unceasing chant of praise to the 
 Lord of Glory. Will they shine on forever ? or are they indeed 
 God's light-bearers, set to illumine the depths of space and 
 blaze a path along which the soul may travel to its God ? Will 
 they one day flicker and go out ?" To every thoughtful mind, 
 these questions propound themselves, and Beulah especially 
 had essayed to answer them. Science had named the starry 
 hosts, and computed their movements with wonderful skill ; but 
 what could it teach her of their origin and destiny ? Absolutely 
 nothing. And how stood her investigations in the more occult 
 departments of psychology and ontology ? An honest seeker of 
 
4:50 BEULAH. 
 
 truth, what had these years of inquiry and speculation accom- 
 plished ? Let her answer as, with face bowed on her palms, her 
 eyes roved over the midnight sky. 
 
 " Once I had some principles, some truths clearly denned, 
 but now I know nothing distinctly, believe' nothing. The more 
 I read and study, the more obscure seem the questions I am 
 toiling to answer. Is this increasing intricacy the reward of an 
 earnestly inquiring mind ? Is this to be the end of all my glori- 
 ous aspirations ? Have I come to this ? ' Thus far, and no 
 farther.' I have stumbled on these boundaries many times, and 
 now must I rest here ? Oh, is this my recompense ? Can this 
 be all ? All !" Smothered sobs convulsed her frame. 
 
 She had long before rejected a " revealed code " as unneces- 
 sary ; the next step was to decipher nature's symbols, and thus 
 grasp God's hidden laws ; but here the old trouble arose ; how 
 far was " individualism " allowable and safe ? To reconcile the 
 theories of rationalism, she felt, was indeed a herculean task, 
 and she groped on into deeper night. Now and then, her 
 horizon was bestarred, and, in her delight, she shouted Eureka ! 
 But when the telescope of her infallible reason was brought to 
 bear upon the coldly glittering points, they flickered and went 
 out. More than once, a flaming comet, of German manufacture, 
 trailed in glory athwart her dazzled vision ; but close observa- 
 tion resolved the gilded nebula, and the nucleus mocked her. 
 Doubt engendered doubt ; the death of one difficulty was the 
 instant birth of another. Wave after wave of skepticism 
 surged over her soul, until the image of a great personal God 
 was swept from its altar. But atheism never yet usurped the 
 sovereignty of the human mind ; in all ages, moldering vestiges 
 of protean deism confront the giant spectre, and every nation 
 under heaven has reared its fane to the " unknown God." 
 Beulah had striven to enthrone in her desecrated soul, the huu'e, 
 dim, shapeless phantom of pantheism, and had turned eagerly 
 to the system of Spinoza. The heroic grandeur of the man's 
 life and character had strangely fascinated her ; but now, that 
 
BEULAH. 451 
 
 idol of a " substance, whose two infinite attributes were exten- 
 sion and thought," mocked her ; and she hurled it from its 
 pedestal, and looked back wistfully to the pure faith of her 
 childhood. A Godless world ; a Godless woman. She took up 
 the lamp, and retired to her own room. On all sides, books 
 greeted her ; here was the varied lore of dead centuries ; here 
 she had held communion with the great souls entombed in these 
 dusty pages. Here, wrestling alone with those grim puzzles, she 
 had read out the vexed and vexing questions, in this debating 
 club of the moldering dead, and endeavored to make them 
 solve them. These well-worn volumes, with close " marginal ias," 
 echoed her inquiries, but answered them. not to her satisfaction. 
 Was her life to be thus passed in feverish toil, and ended as by 
 a leap out into a black shoreless abyss ? Like a spent child, 
 she threw her arms on the mantel-piece, and wept uncontrollably, 
 murmuring : 
 
 " Oil, better die now, than live as I have lived, in perpetual 
 struggling^ ! What is life worth without peace of mind, with- 
 out hope ; and what hope have I ? Diamonded webs of sophis- 
 try can no longer entangle ; like Noah's dove, my soul has 
 fluttered among them, striving in vain for a sure hold to perch 
 upon ; but unlike it, I have no ark to flee to. Weary and 
 almost hopeless, I would fain believe that this world is indeed ^as 
 a deluge, and in it there is no ark of refuge but the Bible. It 
 is true, I did not see this souls' ark constructed ; I know no- 
 thing of the machinery employed ; and no more than Noah's dove, 
 can I explore and fully understand its secret chambers ; yet, all 
 untutored, the exhausted bird sought safety in the incompre- 
 hensible, and was saved. As to the mysteries of revelation and 
 inspiration, why, I meet mysteries, turn which way I will. Man, 
 earth, time, eternity, God, are all inscrutable mysteries. My 
 own soul is a mystery unto itself, and so long as I am impotent 
 to fathom its depths, how shall I hope to unfold the secrets of 
 the universe ?" 
 
 She had rejected Christian theism, because she could not 
 
4:52 B E U L A H . 
 
 understand how God had created the universe out of nothing. 
 True, "with God, all things are possible," but she could not 
 understand this creation out of nothing, and therefore would 
 not believe it. Yet (oh, inconsistency of human reasoning- !) 
 she had believed that the universe created laws : that matter 
 gradually created mind. This was the inevitable result of pan- 
 theism, for according to geology, there was a primeval period, 
 when neither vegetable nor animal life existed ; when the earth 
 was a huge mass of inorganic matter. " Of two incomprehensi- 
 bilities, which was the most plausible ? To-night this question 
 recurred to her mind with irresistible force, and as her eyes 
 wandered over the volumes she had so long consulted, she 
 exclaimed : 
 
 " Oh, philosophy ! thou hast mocked my hungry soul ; thy 
 gilded fruits have crumbled to ashes in my grasp. In lieu of the 
 holy faith of my girlhood, thou hast given me but dim, doubtful 
 conjecture, cold metaphysical abstractions, intangible shadows, 
 that flit along my path, and lure me on to deeper morasses. 
 Oh, what is the shadow of death, in comparison with the star- 
 less night which has fallen upon me, even in the morning of my 
 life ! My God, save me 1 Give me light : of myself I can 
 know nothing 1" 
 
 Her proud intellect was humbled, and falling on her knees, 
 for the first time in many months, a sobbing prayer went up to 
 the throne of the living God ; while the vast clockwork of stars 
 looked in on a pale brow and lips, where heavy drops of mois- 
 ture glistened. 
 
BETJLAH. 453 
 
 CHAPTER XX*XVI. 
 
 FOUR years had passed since Eugene Graham returned to his 
 home, after his severe illness, and now, as he sits alone in his 
 library, with a bundle of legal documents before him, it is not 
 difficult to perceive that his promise has been held sacred. 
 Through the suggestion of Mr. Lindsay, and the persuasions of 
 Beulah, he had closely applied himself to the study of law, imme- 
 diately after his recovery. Hopeless of happiness in his home, 
 ambition became the ruling passion, and scourged him on to 
 unceasing exertion. The aspirations of his boyhood revived; the 
 memory of his humiliating course goaded him to cover the past 
 with the garlands of fame ; and consciousness of unusual talents 
 assured him of final success. Mr. Graham no longer opposed 
 the design, as formerly, but facilitated its execution to the 
 utmost of his ability. Under these circumstances, it was not 
 surprising that earnest application soon procured his admission 
 to the bar. His efforts were redoubled, and, ere long, his elo- 
 quence obtained for him a connection with one of the most pro- 
 minent members of the profession . The world wondered at this 
 complete revolution ; many doubted its continuance ; but, step 
 by step, he climbed tlie ladder to eminence, and merited the 
 applause which the public lavished upon him. Success only 
 inflamed his ambition, and it became evident he aimed at politi- 
 cal renown. Nature had fitted him for the political arena, had 
 endowed him with oratorical powers of no ordinary stamp ; and 
 though long dormant, they were not impaired by his inertia. It 
 was fortunate for him that an exciting Presidential canvass 
 afforded numerous opportunities for the development of these, 
 and at its close, he found himself possessed of an enviable repu- 
 tation. To a certain extent, his wife was elated with his success; 
 
4:54: BEULAH. 
 
 she was proud of his acknowledged talent, but her selfish nature 
 was utterly incapable of the tenderness and sincere affection he 
 demanded. Their alienation was complete. No bickerings dis- 
 turbed the serene atmosphere of their home, because mutual 
 indifference precluded the necessity/ Mrs. Graham gave parties, 
 and attended them ; rode, danced, spent her summers at fashion- 
 able watering-places, and her winters in a round of folly and 
 dissipation, while her husband pursued his profession, careless of 
 her movements, and rarely in her company. In the lady's conduct, 
 the circle in which she moved, saw nothing reprehensible. She 
 dressed superbly, ga-ve elegant entertainments, and was, par excel- 
 lence, the leader of bon-ton. True, she was quite as much of a 
 belle as any young lady in the city, and received the attentions 
 and flattery of gentlemen as unreservedly, nay, delightedly, as 
 though she had no neglected husband and child at home, who 
 had claims upon her ; but this sort of conjugal indifference was 
 in vogue, and as she frowned down, or smiled up, some family 
 laboriously toiling to reach her circle, her "clique" blindly fol- 
 lowed her example, and humored her whims. As regarded her 
 deportment toward her husband, one alteration was perceptible ; 
 she respected almost feared him ; shrank from his presence, 
 and generally contrived to fill the house with company when she 
 was, for short intervals, at home. He ceased to upbraid, or even 
 remonstrate ; his days were spent in the court-room, or his office, 
 and his evenings in his library. She dressed as extravagantly as 
 she chose ; he made no comments, paid her accounts, and grew 
 more taciturn and abstracted, day by day. 
 
 Oh, woman I woman ! when will you sever the fetters which 
 fashion, wealth and worldliness have bound about you, and prove 
 yourselves worthy the noble mission for which you were created ? 
 How much longer will heartless, soulless wives, mothers, daugh- 
 ters, and sisters, waltz, moth-like, round the consuming flame of 
 fashion ; and by neglecting their duties, and deserting their 
 sphere, drive their husbands, sons and brothers, out into the 
 world, reckless and depraved, with callous hearts, irrevocably 
 
BEULAH. 455 
 
 laid on the altars of Mammon ? God help the women of Ame- 
 rica ! Grant them the true womanly instincts which, in the 
 dawn of our republic, made " home" the Eden, the acme of all 
 human hopes and joys. Teach them that gilded saloons, with 
 their accompanying allurements of French latitude in dress, and 
 dancing, and the sans-souci manners and style of conversation, 
 (which, in less degenerate times, would have branded with dis- 
 grace and infamy all who indulged it), teach them that all these 
 tend to the depths of social evil ; and oh, lead them back to the 
 hearthstone, that holy-post, which too many, alas, have deserted 1 
 Eugene Graham's love and tenderness were all bestowed on his 
 daughter, a beautiful child, not yet five years old ; the sole com- 
 panion of the hours spent at home, she became his idol. 
 
 It was one sunny afternoon that he finished copying some 
 papers, necessary in a case to be. defended the following day. 
 The sunshine, stealing through the shutters, fell on his lofty 
 brow, pale from continued study ; his whole countenance bespoke 
 a nature saddened, vexed, but resolute, and leaning forward, he 
 touched the bell-rope. As he did so, there came quick footsteps 
 pattering along the hall ; the door was pushed open, and a little 
 fairy form, with a head of rich auburn ringlets, peeped in cau- 
 tiously, while a sweet, childish voice, asked eagerly : 
 
 " May I come now, father ? Have you done writing ? I won't 
 make a noise ; indeed I won't." 
 
 The gloom fled from his face, and he held out his arms to her, 
 saying : 
 
 '' I have done writing ; you may come now, my darling." 
 
 She spraug into his lap, and threw her little, snowy arras 
 about his neck, kissing him rapturously, and passing her fragile 
 fingers through his hair. She resembled him closely, having the 
 same classical contour, and large, soft, dark eyes. He returned 
 her caresses with an expression of almost adoring fondness, strok- 
 ing her curls with a light, gentle touch. The evening was warm, 
 and large drops stood on his forehead. She noticed it, aud 
 standing on his knee, took the corner of her tiny, embroidered 
 
456 BEULAH. 
 
 apron, and wiped away the moisture, kissing the forehead as she 
 did so. A servant looked in at the door. 
 
 " Did you ring, sir ?" 
 
 " Yes ; tell Philip I want my buggy." 
 
 " Oh, you are going to ride 1 Can I go ? and will we go to 
 see Aunt Beulah will we ?" She looked at him earnestly. 
 
 " Would you like to go there, Cornelia ?" 
 
 " Oh, yes ! I always like to go there. I love her, she is so 
 good ! Let's go to see her, won't you ?" 
 
 " Yes, you shall go with me, my darling." 
 
 He bent down to kiss her coral lips, and just then Mrs. Gra- 
 ham swept into the room. She was attired in an elegant riding 
 habit, of dark purple, while a velvet hat of the same color, with 
 a long, drooping plume, shaded her face. Her hands were 
 incased in delicate kid gauntlets, which fitted with perfect ex- 
 actness. She was a beautiful woman, and the costume height- 
 ened her loveliness. She started slightly, on perceiving her 
 husband, and said hastily : 
 
 " I thought you were at your office. Cornelia, what on earth 
 have you done with my riding-whip ? you mischievous little 
 wretch ! You lost it once before. Go find it ; I am waiting for 
 it. Go this instant !" 
 
 " I don't know where it is," returned the child, making no 
 effort to leave her father's arms. 
 
 Eugene glanced up at his wife j his eyes wandered over her 
 becoming and beautiful dress, then went back to the sunny face 
 of his child. 
 
 An angry flush dyed Antoinette's cheeks, as she observed her 
 daughter's indifference. 
 
 " Where is my whip, I say ? Flora saw you with it yester- 
 day, whipping that hobby-horse. I told you to keep your hands 
 off of it, didn't I ? If you don't go and find it quick, I'll box 
 you soundly, you meddlesome little brat I" 
 
 " I haven't had it since you told me I shouldn't play with it. 
 Flora tells a story," answered Cornelia, sobbing. 
 
B E TJ L A H . 457 
 
 " You did have it !" cried the angry mother, shaking her hand 
 threateningly. 
 
 " Did you see her with it ?" asked Eugene, rising, with the 
 child in his arms. 
 
 " I know she had it 1" 
 
 " Did you see her with it, I asked you ?" 
 
 " No, but Flora did, and that is all the same; besides, I" 
 
 " Here is the whip, ma'am. I found it last week in the hall, 
 behind a chair, and put it in the cane stand. The last time you 
 went to ride, you put it and your gloves on a chair in the hall, 
 and went into the parlor to see some company. Flora picked 
 up the gloves and carried them up-stairs, but didn't see the 
 whip." 
 
 John, the dining-room servant, handed her a small whip, with 
 mother-of-pearl handle, inlaid with gold. 
 
 " It is no such thing !" cried Mrs. Graham, gathering up the 
 folds of her habit, and coloring with vexation. 
 
 John shrugged his shoulders and retired, and his mistress 
 sailed out to the front door, where her horse and her escort 
 awaited her. 
 
 " Run and get your hat and cape, Cornelia ; I see the buggy 
 coming round the corner." 
 
 Eugene wiped away the tear-drops glittering on her rosy 
 cheeks, and she sprang off to obey him ; while in the interim, he 
 sent for Flora, and gave her to understand that he would allow 
 no repetition of the deception he had accidentally discovered. 
 The maid retired, highly incensed, of course, and resolved to 
 wreak vengeance on both John and Cornelia ; and Eugene took 
 his seat in the buggy in no particularly amiable mood. They 
 found Beulah in her little flower garden, pruning some luxuriant 
 geraniums. She threw down her knife, and hastened to meet 
 them, and all three sat down on the steps. 
 
 Four years had brought sorrow to that cottage home ; had 
 hushed the kind accents of the matron ; stilled the true heart 
 that throbbed so tenderly for her orphan charge, and had seen 
 
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458 BEtTLAH. 
 
 her laid to rest in a warm, grassy slope of the cemetery. She 
 died peaceably three months before the day of which I write ; 
 died exhorting Eugene and Beulah so to pass the season of pro- 
 bation, that they might be reunited beyond the grave. In life 
 she had humbly exemplified the teachings of our Saviour, and 
 her death was a triumphant attestation of the joy and hope 
 which only the Christian religion can afford in the final hour. 
 
 To Beulah, this blow was peculiarly severe, and never had the 
 sense of her orphanage been more painfully acute than when she 
 returned from the funeral to her lonely home. But to sorrow 
 her nature was inured ; she had learned to bear grief, and only 
 her mourning dress and subdued manner told how deeply she felt 
 this trial. Now she took Cornelia in her arms and kissed her 
 fondly, while the child returned her caresses with a warmth 
 which proved how sincerely she loved her. 
 
 "May I have some flowers, auntie?" cried she, patting 
 Beulah's pale cheek with her plump, dimpled hands. 
 
 " Yes, just as many as you can carry home. Go gather 
 some." 
 
 She sprang off, and the two sat watching the flutter of her 
 white dress, among the flower-beds. She piled her little apron as 
 full as possible, and came back panting and delighted. Beulah 
 looked down at the beautiful beaming face, and twining one of 
 the silky curls over her finger, said, musingly : 
 
 " Eugene, she always reminds me of Lilly. Do you see the 
 resemblance ?" 
 
 " Not in her features ; in size and gay heedlessness of manner, 
 she is like Lilly, as I saw her last." 
 
 " Yes, Lilly's eyes were blue, and your child's are dark, like 
 your own ; but she never comes up and puts her arms round my 
 neck, without recalling bygone years. I could shut my eyes, and 
 fancy my lost darling was once more mine. Ah ! how carefully 
 memory gathers up the golden links of childhood, and weaves the 
 chain that binds our hearts to the olden time ! Sometimes I 
 think I am only dreaming, and shall wake to a happy reality 
 
BEITLAH. 459 
 
 If I could have Lilly back, oh, what a sunshine it would shed 
 over my heart and life ! But this may not be ; and I can only 
 love Cornelia instead." 
 
 Her long, black lashes were weighed down, with unshed tears, 
 and there was a touching sadness in her low voice. Cornelia 
 stood by her side, busily engaged in dressing Beulah's hair with 
 some of the roses and scarlet geranium she had gathered. She 
 noticed the unusual melancholy written in the quiet face, and 
 said impatiently : 
 
 " With all my flowers, you won't look gay 1 It must be this 
 black dress. Don't wear such ugly, dark things : I wish you 
 wouldn't. I want to see you look beautiful, like mother." 
 
 " Cornelia, go and break that cluster of yellow berries yonder," 
 said her father ; and when she had left them, he turned to his 
 companion and asked : 
 
 " Beulah, have you reflected on what I said the last time I 
 aw you ?" 
 
 " Yes, Eugene." 
 
 " With what result ?" 
 
 " My former decision is only confirmed, the more I ponder the 
 subject." 
 
 " You have seen nothing of Reginald, then ? He was here, 
 on some legal business, last week." 
 
 " No ; he has been in the city several times during the last 
 four years, but never comes here ; and except that one letter, 
 which I did not answer, I have heard nothing from him. I 
 doubt whether we ever meet again." 
 
 " You are a strange woman ! Such devotion as his would 
 have won any other being. He is as much attached to you now 
 as the day he first offered you his hand Upon my word, your 
 obstinacy provokes me. He is the noblest man I ever knew. 
 Everything that I should suppose a woman of your nature would 
 admire ; and yet, year after year, you remain apparently as 
 indifferent as ever." 
 
 " And it were a miserable return for such unmerited love to 
 
460 BEULAH. 
 
 marry him merely from gratitude. I do admire him, but cannot 
 marry him. I told him so four years ago." 
 
 " But why did you not at least answer his letter ?" 
 " Because his acceptance was made the condition of an 
 answer ; a negative one was not expected, and I had no other 
 to give." 
 
 " Pardon me, Beulah ; but why do you not love him ?" 
 " A strange question truly. My heart is not the tool of my will." 
 " Beulah, do you intend to spend your life solitary and joyless, 
 cut off, as you are here, from society, and dependent on books 
 and music for sympathy ? Why will you not marry Reginald, 
 and make his home happy ?" 
 
 " Eugene, I have told you before that I could not accept him, 
 and told you why. Let the subject drop ; it is an unpleasant 
 one to me. I am happier here than I could possibly be any- 
 where else. Think you I would marry merely for an elegant 
 home and an intellectual companion ? Never ! I will live and 
 die here in this little cottage, rather than quit it with such 
 motives. You are mistaken in supposing that Mr. Lindsay is 
 still attached to me. It has been nearly two years since he 
 wrote that letter, and from Georgia I hear that the world 
 believes he is soon to marry a lady residing somewhere near him. 
 I think it more than probable the report is true, and hope most 
 sincerely it may be so. Now, Eugene, don't mention the subject 
 again, will you ?" 
 
 " It is generally believed that he will be elected to Congress ; 
 next month will decide it. The chances are all in his favor," 
 persisted Eugene. 
 
 " Yes ; so I judged from the papers," said she, coolly, and 
 then added : " And one day I hope to see you, or rather hear 
 of 'you, in Washington by his side. I believe I shall be grati- 
 fied ; and oh, Eugene, what a proud moment it will be to me 1 
 How I shall rejoice in your merited eminence." 
 
 Her face kindled as she spoke, but the shadows deepened in 
 his countenance, as he answered moodily : 
 
BETJLAH. 461 
 
 " Perliaps I may ; but fame and position cannot lighten a 
 loaded heart, or kindle the sacred flame of love in a dreary 
 home When a man blindly wrecks his happiness on the 
 threshold of life by a fatal marriage, no after exertion can atone 
 or rectify the one mistake." 
 
 " Hush ! she will hear you," said Beulah, pointing to the 
 little girl, who was slowly approaching them. 
 
 A bitter smile parted his lips. 
 
 " She is my all ; yet precious as she is to my sad heart, I 
 would gladly lay her in her grave to-morrow, sooner than see her 
 live to marry an uncongenial spirit, or know that her radiant 
 face was clouded with sorrow, like mine. God grant that her 
 father's wretched lot may warn her of the quicksands which 
 nearly ingulfed him." He took the child in his arms, as if to 
 shield her from some impending danger, and said, hurriedly : 
 
 " Are you ready to go home ?" 
 
 " Is it so very late ?" 
 
 " It is time we were going back, I think." 
 
 Beulah tied on the hat and cape, which had been thrown 
 aside, and saw them ride away. 
 
 There, in the golden twilight, she mused on the changes time 
 bore on its swift chariot The gorgeous dreamings of her 
 girlhood had faded like the summer clouds above her, to the 
 sombre hue of reality. From the hour when her father (a poor 
 artist, toiling over canvas to feed his children) had, in dying 
 accents, committed the two to God's care, she only remembered 
 sorrow up to the time that Dr. Hartwell took her to his home. 
 Her life there was the one bright oasis in her desert past. Then 
 she left it a woman, and began the long struggle with poverty 
 and trials over again. In addition, skepticism threw its icy 
 shadow over her. She had toiled in the cavernous mines of 
 metaphysics hopelessly; and finally returning to the holy religion 
 of Jesus Christ, her weary spirit found rest. Ah, that rest 
 which only the exhausted wanderer through the burning wastes 
 of speculation can truly comprehend and appreciate. She had 
 
462 BEULAH. 
 
 been ambitious, and labored to obtain distinction as a writer ; 
 and this, under various fictitious signatures, was hers. She still 
 studied and wrote, but with another aim, now, than mere desire 
 of literary fame; wrote to warn others of the snares in which she 
 had so long been entangled, and to point young seekers after 
 truth to the only sure fountain. She was very lonely, but not 
 unhappy. Georgia and Helen were both happily married, and 
 she saw them very rarely ; but their parents were still her coun- 
 sellors and friends. At Mrs. Williams' death, they had urged 
 her to remove to their house, but she preferred remaining at the 
 little cottage, at least until the expiration of the year. She still 
 kept her place in the school-room ; not now as assistant, but as 
 principal in that department ; and the increased salary ren- 
 dered rigid economy and music lessons no longer necessary. 
 Her intense love of beauty, whether found in nature or art, was 
 a constant source of pleasure ; books, music, painting, flowers, 
 all contributed largely to her happiness. The grim puzzles of 
 philosophy no longer perplexed her mind ; sometimes they 
 thrust themselves before her, threatening as the sphinx of old ; 
 but she knew that here they were insolvabie ; that at least her 
 reason was no (Edipus, and a genuine philosophy induced her to 
 put them aside ; and anchoring her hopes of God and eternity 
 in the religion of Christ, she drew from the beautiful world 
 in which she lived much pure enjoyment. Once she had wor- 
 shipped the universe ; now she looked beyond the wonderful 
 temple whose architecture, from its lowest foundations of rock 
 to its starry dome of sky, proclaimed the God of revelation j 
 and loving its beauty and grandeur, felt that it was but a home 
 for a season, where the soul could be fitted for yet more perfect 
 dwelling-places. Her face reflected the change which a calm 
 reliance on God had wrought in her feelings. The restless, 
 anxious expression had given place to quiet. The eyes had lost 
 their strained, troubled look ; the brow was unruffled, the face 
 serene. Serene, reader, but not happy and sparkling as it might 
 have been. All the shadows were not yet banished from her 
 
BETJLAH. 463 
 
 heart ; there was one spectral form which thrust itself con- 
 tinually before her, and kept her cheek pale and rendered her lip 
 at times unsteady. She had struggled bravely against, this one 
 remaining sorrow; but as time rolled on, its power and influence 
 only increased. Even now, in this quiet hour, when a holy hush 
 had fallen on all nature, and twilight wrapped its soft, purple 
 veil around her, this haunting memory came to stir the depths 
 of her heart. Charon walked slowly up the steps, and laying 
 down at her feet, nestled his head against her. Then, fancy 
 painted a dreary picture, which 
 
 " Seemed all dark and red a tract of sand, 
 
 And some one pacing there alone, 
 Who paced forever in a glimmering land, 
 Lit with a low, large moon." 
 
 It was the thought of a lonely man, wandering without aim 
 or goal in far distant deserts ; away from home and friends ; 
 joyless, hopeless. One who was dearer to her than all on earth 
 beside ; who had left her in anger, and upon whose loved face 
 she might look no more. For three years, no tidings had come 
 of his wanderings ; none knew his fate ; and, perhaps, even then 
 his proud head lay low beneath the palms of the Orient, or was 
 pillowed on the coral crags of distant seas. This thought was 
 one she was unable to endure ; her features quivered, her hands 
 grasped each other in a paroxysm of dread apprehension, and 
 while a deep groan burst from her lips, she bowed her face on 
 the head of his last charge, his parting gift. The consciousness 
 of his unbelief tortured her. Even in eternity, they might meet 
 no more ; and this fear cost her hours of agony, such as no 
 other trial had ever inflicted. From the moment of her return 
 to the Bible and to prayer, this struggle began, and for three 
 years she had knelt, morning and evening, and entreated 
 Almighty God to shield and guide the wanderer ; to scatter the 
 mists of unbelief which shrouded his mind. Constantly her 
 prayers went up, mingled with tears and sobs, and as weary 
 
464: BETILAH. 
 
 months wore on, the petitions grew more impassioned. Her 
 anxiety increased daily, and finally it became the one intense, 
 absorbing wish of her heart, to see her guardian again. His 
 gloom, his bitterness, were all forgotten ; she only remembered 
 his unceasing care and^ kindness, his noble generosity, his 
 brilliant smile, which was bestowed only on her. Pressing her 
 face agaiust Charon's head, she murmured pleadingly : 
 
 "Oh, Father, protect him from suffering and death 1 Guide 
 him safely home. Give me my guardian back. Oh, Father, 
 give me my wandering friend once more 1" 
 
 CHAPTER XXXVII. 
 
 " FOLD that coat for me, my dear ; there, give it to me, I 
 believe there is room in this trunk for it." 
 
 Mrs. Asbury took one of her husband's coats from Beulah's 
 hand, and carefully packed it away. 
 
 " How long will you be absent, do you suppose 1" 
 
 11 Probably not longer than a month. The doctor thinks a 
 few days at Saratoga will invigorate him. If you had consented 
 to go, we had intended spending a week at Niagara. I am 
 sorry you will not go, Beulah ; you would enjoy the trip, and, 
 moreover, the change would benefit you. Why do you so per- 
 tinaciously reject that legacy of Cornelia's. The money has 
 been in my husband's hands for some years untouched, and Mr. 
 Graham said, not long since, that you might just as well accept 
 it, for he would never receive a cent of it in return. The origi- 
 nal sum has been considerably augmented by judicious invest- 
 ments, and would place you above the necessity of labor, if you 
 would accept it. Your refusal wounds Mr. Graham ; he told 
 me so last week. It was Cornelia's particular request that you 
 
BEULAH. 465 
 
 should have that amount, and he is anxious to see you in posses- 
 sion of it. I told him of jour suggestion, that he should add 
 this legacy to the sum already given to the Asylum ; but he 
 vowed solemnly, lie would have nothing to do with it. If you 
 chose to give it to the Asylum, you could do so of course, the 
 money waj yours ; he never would touch a cent of it. Beulah, 
 if you will not think me officious, I will say, candidly, that I 
 think you ought to accept it. That is, use it, for the legacy has 
 been left, whether you employ it or not." 
 
 Beulah looked grave and troubled, but made no reply. 
 
 Mrs. Asbury finished packing the trunk, locked it, and turning 
 toward the door, said : 
 
 " I am going up-stairs to see about the furniture in that room 
 which Georgia calls the ' Pitti Gallery.' Come with me, my 
 dear.'' 
 
 She led the way, and Beulah followed, until they reached a 
 large apartment in the third story, the door of which Mrs. 
 Asbury unlocked. As they entered, Beulah started on seeing 
 the statuary and paintings with which she was so familiar in 
 former years ; and in one corner of the room stood the melodeon, 
 carefully covered. A quantity of tissue paper lay on the floor, 
 and Mrs. Asbury began to cover the paintings by pinning the 
 sheets together. Beulah took off her gloves and assisted ; there 
 was silence for some time, but on lifting a piece of drapery, 
 Mrs. Asbury exposed the face of a portrait, which Beulah 
 recognized from the peculiarity of the frame, as the one that 
 had hung over the mantel in her guardian's study. Paper and 
 pins fell from her fingers, and drawing a deep breath, she gazed 
 upon the face she had so long desired to see. She traced a 
 slight resemblance to Antoinette in the faultless features ; the 
 countenance was surpassingly beautiful. It was a young, girlish 
 face, sparkling with joyousness, bewitching in its wonderful 
 loveliness. The eloquent eyes were strangely, almost wildly 
 brilliant, the full crimson lips possessed that rare outline one 
 sees in old pictures, and the cheek, tinted like a sea-shell, rested 
 
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466 BEULAH. 
 
 on one, delicate dimpled hand. Beulah looked, and grew dizzy. 
 This was his wife ; this the portrait he had kept shrouded so 
 long and so carefully. How he must have worshipped that 
 radiant young bride ? 
 
 Mrs. Asbury noticed her emotion, and asked with some sur- 
 prise : 
 
 "Did you never see this before ?" 
 
 " No ; it was always covered, and hung too high for me to 
 lift the crape." Beulah's eyes were riveted on the canvas. Mrs. 
 Asbury watched her a moment and said : 
 
 " It is an undetermined question in my mind whether beauty, 
 such as this, is not a curse. In this instance assuredly it proved 
 so, for it wrecked the happiness of both husband and wife. My 
 dear child, do you know your guardian's history ?" 
 
 " I know nothing of him, save that he is my best friend." 
 
 " When I first saw Guy Hartwell, he was one of the noblest 
 men I ever met ; commanding universal admiration and esteem. 
 It was before his marriage ; he was remarkably handsome, as 
 you can readily imagine he must have been, and his manners 
 possessed a singular fascination for all who came within the 
 circle of his acquaintance. Even now, after the lapse of ten 
 years, I remember his musical, ringing laugh ; a laugh I have 
 never heard since. His family were aristocratic and wealthy, 
 and Guy was his mother's idol. She was a haughty, imperious 
 woman, and her ' boy/ as she fondly termed him, was her pride. 
 His only sister (Mrs. Chilton, or rather Mrs. Lockhart, ) was his 
 senior, and he had a younger brother, Harry, who was extremely 
 wild ; ran away from home, and spent most of his time at sea. 
 Guy was naturally of a happy, genial temperament; fond of study; 
 fond of art, flowers, poetry, everything that was noble and beau- 
 tiful, that could minister to highly cultivated tastes. Mr. Chil- 
 ton was unfortunate in his speculations ; lost his fortune, and 
 died soon after Pauline's birth, leaving his wife and child 
 dependent on her mother and brother. May and the old lady 
 often disagreed, and only Guy could harmonize their dis- 
 
BETJLAH. 467 
 
 cords. During a visit to New Orleans, he accidentally met the 
 original of this portrait ; her family were almost destitute, but 
 he aided them very liberally. She was very beautiful, and in an 
 unlucky hour he determined to marry her. She was a mere 
 child, and he placed her for a while at a school, where she 
 enjoyed every educational advantage. He was completely fas- 
 cinated ; seemed to think only of Creola, and hastened the 
 marriage. His mother and sister bitterly opposed the match, 
 ridiculed his humble and portionless bride ; but he persisted, 
 and brought her here a beautiful, heedless girl. Guy built that 
 house, and his mother and sister occupied one near him, which 
 was burnt before you knew anything about them. Of course his 
 wife went constantly into society, and before six months elapsed, 
 poor Guy discovered that he had made a fatal mistake. She 
 did not love him ; had married him merely for the sake of an 
 elegant home, and money to lavish as her childish whims dic- 
 tated. Ah, Beulah 1 it makes my heart ache to think of the 
 change this discovery wrought in Guy's nature. He was a proud 
 man, naturally ; but now he became repulsive, cold and austere. 
 The revolution in his deportment and appearance was almost 
 incredible. His wife was recklessly imprudent, and launched 
 into the wildest excesses which society sanctioned. When he 
 endeavored to restrain her, she rebelled, and without his know- 
 ledge carried on a flirtation with one whom she had known 
 previous to her marriage. I believe she was innocent in her 
 folly, and merely thoughtlessly fed her vanity with the adula- 
 tion excited by her beauty. Poor child I she might have learned 
 discretion, but unfortunately Mrs. Chilton had always detested 
 her, and now watching her movements, she discovered Creola's 
 clandestine meetings with the gentleman whom her husband had 
 forbidden her to recognize as an acquaintance. Instead of 
 exerting herself to rectify the difficulties in her brother's home, 
 she apparently exulted in the possession of facts which allowed 
 her to taunt him with his vife's imprudence and indifference. 
 He denied the truth of her sertions ; she dared him to watch 
 
4:68 BEULAH. 
 
 her conduct, and obtained a note which enabled him to return 
 home one day, at an unusually early hour, and meet the man he 
 had denounced in his own parlor. Guy ordered him out of the 
 house, and, without addressing his wife, rode back to see his 
 patients ; but that night he learned from her that before he ever 
 met her, an engagement existed between herself and the man he so 
 detested. He was poor, and her mother had persuaded her to 
 marry Guy for his fortune. She seemed to grow frantic, cursed 
 the hour of her marriage, professed sincere attachment to the 
 other, and, I firmly believe, became insane from that moment. 
 Then and there they parted. Creola returned to her mother, 
 but died suddenly a few weeks after leaving her husband. They 
 had been married but a year. I have always thought her mind 
 diseased, and it was rumored that her mother died insane. 
 Doubtless Guy's terrible rage drove her to desperation ; though 
 he certainly had cause to upbraid. I have often feared that he 
 would meet the object of his hatred, and once, and only once 
 afterward, that man came to the city. Why, I never knew, but 
 my husband told me that he saw him at a concert here some 
 years ago. Poor Guy ! how he suffered ; yet how silently he 
 bore it ; how completely he sheathed his heart of fire in icy vest- 
 ments. He never alluded to the affair in the remotest manner ; 
 never saw her after that night. He was sitting in our library, 
 waiting to see my husband, when he happened to open the letter 
 announcing her death. I was the only person present, and 
 noticed that a change passed over his countenance ; I spoke to 
 him, but he did not reply ; I touched him, but he took no notice 
 whatever, and sat for at least an hour without moving a muscle, 
 or uttering a word. Finally George came and spoke to him 
 appealingly. He looked up and smiled. Oh, what a smile ! 
 May I never see such another ; it will haunt me while I live I 
 Without a word he folded the letter, replaced it in the envelope, 
 and left us. Soon after his mother died, and he went immedi- 
 ately to Europe. He was absent two years, and came back so 
 stern, so cynical, so unlike his former self, I scarcely knew him. 
 
BEULAH. 469 
 
 Mrs. Chilton took charge of his house from the hour of his separa- 
 tion from Creola, but they were not congenial. He was vastly 
 her superior, save in intellect, which none of the Hartwell family 
 ever lacked. My husband is very much attached to Guy; thinks 
 he has not an equal, yet mourns over the blight which fell upon 
 him in the very morn of his glorious manhood. About a year 
 after his return from Europe, he took you to his house as au 
 adopted child. I wondered at it, for I knew how imbittered his 
 whole soul had become. But the heart must have an idol; he 
 was desolate and miserable, and took you home to have some- 
 thing to love and interest him. You never knew him in the 
 prime of his being, for though comparatively young in years, he 
 had grown prematurely old in feeling before you saw him. Poor 
 Guy ! may a merciful and loving God preserve him wherever 
 he may be, and bring him to a knowledge of that religion which 
 alone can comfort a nature like his; so noble, so gifted, yet so 
 injured, so imbittered." 
 
 She brushed away the tears that stood on her cheeks, and 
 looked sorrowfully at the portrait of the unfortunate young 
 wife. 
 
 Beulah sat with her face partially averted, and her eyes shaded 
 with her hand ; once or twice her lips moved, and a shiver ran 
 over her. She looked up, and said, abruptly : 
 
 " Leave the key of this room with me, will you ? I should 
 like to come here occasionally." 
 
 " Certainly, come as often as you choose ; and here on this 
 bunch is the key of the melodeon. Take it, also ; the instrument 
 needs dusting, I dare say, for it has never been opened since Guy 
 left, nearly five years ago. There, the clock struck two, and the 
 boat leaves at four ; there, too. is my husband's step. Come, 
 my dear, we must go down. Take these keys until I return." 
 
 She gave them to her, and they descended to the dining-room, 
 where the doctor awaited them. 
 
 "Beulah, what are you going to do with yourself next year? 
 You must not think of living in that cottage alone. Since Mrs. 
 
4:70 B E U L A H . 
 
 Williams' death, you should abandon the thought of keeping 
 house. It will not do, child, for you to live there by yourself." 
 So said the doctor, a short time before he bade her adieu. 
 
 " 1 don't know yet what I shall do. I am puzzled about a 
 home." 
 
 " You need not be ; come and live in my house, as I begged 
 you to do long ago. Alice and I will be heartily glad to have 
 you. Child, why should you hesitate ?" 
 
 " I prefer a home of my own, if circumstances permitted it. You 
 and Mrs. Asbury have been very kind in tendering me a home 
 in your house, and I do most sincerely thank you both for your 
 friendly interest, but I " 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, I should be so very glad to have you always 
 with me. My dear child, come." 
 
 Mrs. Asbury passed her arm affectionately around the girl's 
 waist. Beulah looked at her with trembling lips, and said 
 hastily: 
 
 " Will you take me as a boarder ?" 
 
 " I would rather take you as a friend as a daughter." 
 
 " Not a bit of it, Alice. She shall pay the highest possible 
 board. Don't imagine, Miss Independence, that I expected for a 
 moment to offer you a home gratis. Pay board ? That you 
 shall ; always in advance, and candles, and fires, and the use of 
 my library, and the benefit of my explanations, and conversation 
 charged as ' extras,' " cried the doctor, shaking his fist at her. 
 
 " Then, sir, I engage rooms." 
 
 " Will you really come, my child?" asked Mrs. Asbury, kissing 
 the orphan's pale cheek tenderly. 
 
 " Gladly, as a boarder, and very grateful for such a privi- 
 lege." 
 
 " Beulah, on reflection, I think I can possibly take Charon for 
 half price ; though I must confess to numerous qualms of con- 
 science at the bare suggestion of receiving such an "infernal" 
 character into my household." 
 
 " Thank you," said she, and saw them depart for Saratoga, 
 
BEULAH. 41 1 
 
 whither Georgia and Helen had preceded them. Several weeks 
 elapsed without her receiving any tidings, and then a letter came 
 giving her information of a severe illness which had attacked the 
 doctor, immediately after his arrival in New York. He was con- 
 valescing rapidly when his wife wrote, and in proof thereof, sub- 
 joined a postscript, in his scrawling hand and wonted bantering 
 style. Beulah laughed over it, refolded the letter, and went into 
 her little garden to gather a bouquet for one of her pupils 
 who had recently been quite sick. She wore a white muslin apron 
 over her black dress, and soon filled it with verbena, roses and 
 geranium sprigs. Sitting down on the steps, she began to 
 arrange them, and soon became absorbed in her occupation. 
 Presently a shadow fell on the step ; she glanced up, and the 
 flowers dropped from her fingers, while an exclamation of sur- 
 prise escaped her. 
 
 Mr. Lindsay held out his hand. 
 
 " After four years of absence, of separation, have you no word 
 of welcome ?" 
 
 She gave him both hands, and said, eagerly: 
 
 " Oh, yes, I am very glad to see you again ; very glad that I 
 have an opportunity of congratulating you'on your signal success. 
 I am heartily glad my friend is soon to enter Congressional 
 halls. Accept my most sincere congratulations on your election." 
 
 A sudden flush rose to his temples, and clasping her hands 
 tightly, he exclaimed, passionately: 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, your congratulations mock me. I come to offer 
 you, once more, my hand, my heart, my honors, if I have any 
 I have waited patiently : no, not patiently, but still I have 
 waited, for some token of remembrance from you, and could 
 bear my suspense no longer. Will you share the position which 
 has been accorded me recently ? Will you give me this hand 
 which I desire more intensely than the united honors of the uni- 
 verse beside ? Beulah, has my devoted love won me your affec- 
 tion ? Will you go with me to Washington ?" 
 
 "I cannot; I cannot." 
 
472 BEULAH. 
 
 " Cannot ? Oh, Beulah, I would make you a happy wife, if 
 it cost me my life!" 
 
 " No. I could not be happy as your wife. It is utterly 
 impossible. Mr. Lindsay, I told you long ago you could never 
 be more than a friend." 
 
 " And have years wrought no change in your heart ?" 
 
 "Years have strengthened my esteem, my sincere friendship; 
 but more than this, all time cannot accomplish." 
 
 " Your heart is tenacious of its idol," he answered, moodily. 
 
 11 It rebels, sir, now as formerly, at the thought of linking my 
 destiny with that of one whom I never loved." Beulah spoke 
 rapidly, her cheeks burned and her eyes sparkled with dis- 
 pleasure. 
 
 He looked at her and sighed deeply, then threw down a 
 letter, saying: 
 
 " Ah, Beulah, I understood long ago why you could not love 
 me; but I hoped years of absence would obliterate the memory 
 that prevented my winning you. I made unusual exertions to 
 discover some trace of your wandering guardian; have written 
 constantly to my former banker in Paris, to find some clue to 
 his whereabouts. Through him I learn that your friend was 
 last heard of at Canton, and the supposition is that he is no 
 longer living. I do not wish to pain you, Beulah ; bu^ I would 
 fain show you how frail a hope you cling to. Believe me, dear 
 Beulah, I am not so selfish as to rejoice at his prolonged absence. 
 No, no. Love, such as mine, prizes the happiness of its object 
 above all other things. Were it in my power, I would restore 
 him to you this moment. I had hoped you would learn to love 
 me, but I erred in judging your nature. Henceforth, I will cast 
 off this hope, and school myself to regard you as my friend only. 
 I have, at least, deserved your friendship." 
 
 " And it is inalienably yours," cried she, very earnestly. 
 
 " In future, when toiling to discharge my duties, I may believe 
 I have one sincere friend, who will rejoice at my success ?" 
 
 " Of this you may well rest assured. It seems a poor return, 
 
B E U L A H 473 
 
 Mr. Lindsay, for all you have tendered me; but it is the most I 
 can give, the most an honest heart will allow me to offer. Truly, 
 you may always claim my friendship and esteem, if it has any 
 worth." 
 
 "I prize it far more than your hand, unaccompanied by your 
 heart. Henceforth, we will speak of the past no more; only let 
 me be the friend an orphan may require. You are to live in my 
 uncle's house, I believe; I am very glad you have decided to do 
 so; this is not a proper home for you now. How do you con- 
 trive to exorcise loneliness ?" 
 
 "I do not always succeed very well. My flowers are a great 
 resource; I don't know how I should live without them. My 
 books, too, serve to occupy my attention." She was making a 
 great effort to seem cheerful, but he saw that her smile was 
 forced; and with an assurance that he would see her again 
 before he went to Washington, he shook hands cordially, and 
 left her. She tied her bouquet, and dispatched it to the sick 
 child, with a few lines of kind remembrance; then took the let- 
 ter, which Mr. Lindsay had thrown on the steps, and opened it, 
 with trembling fingers: 
 
 "MR. R. LINDSAY. 
 
 " DEAR SIR : Tours of the 3d came to hand yesterday. As I wrote 
 you before, I accidentally learned that Dr. Hartwell had been in Canton ; 
 but since that, have heard nothing from him, and have been unable to 
 trace him further. Letters from Calcutta state that he left that city, more 
 than a year since, for China. Should I obtain any news of him, rest 
 assured it shall be immediately transmitted to you. 
 
 "Very respectfully, 
 
 "R. A. FIELDS." 
 > 
 
 She crumpled the sheet, and threw it from her; and if ever 
 earnest, heart-spoken prayer availed, her sobbing cry to the 
 God of travellers insured his safety. 
 
4:74: B E IT L A H . 
 
 CHAPTER XXXVIII. 
 
 ONE day there came a letter, postmarked from an inland town, 
 where Beulah had no correspondent. The direction, however, 
 was instantly recognized, and she broke the seal hurriedly: 
 
 "What has become of you, Beulah? and what can have become of my 
 two letters which were never answered? Concluding you never received 
 them, I hazard a third attempt to reach you through the medium of letters. 
 You will readily perceive that we have removed to a distant section of the 
 State. Ernest was called to take charge of this parish, and we are delight- 
 fully located here, within a few minutes'^valk of the church. Beulah, the 
 storm which darkened over me, in the first year of my marriage, has swept 
 by, and it is all sunshine, glorious sunshine, with me. You know my home 
 was very unhappy for a time. My husband's family caused misunder- 
 standings between us, influenced him against me, and made me very, 
 very wretched. I could not tolerate Lucy's presence, with any degree of 
 patience, yet she would remain in our house. How it would have ended 
 only Heaven knows, had not my husband been suddenly taken very ill. 
 It was on Sabbath morning. He was displeased with me, because of some 
 of my disputes with his sister, and scarcely spoke to me before he went 
 into the pulpit. Lucy and I sat together in the rector's pew, hating each 
 other cordially ; and when Ernest began the morning service, I noticed he 
 looked pale and weary. Before it was concluded, he sank back exhausted, 
 and was borne into the vestry-room, covered with blood. He had a 
 severe hemorrhage from the throat, his physician said, but Ernest thinks 
 it was from his lungs. I was sure he would die ; and oh, Beulah, what 
 agony I endured, as I sat beside him, and watched his ghastly face ! But 
 his illness was 'the blessing in disguise;' he forgot all our disgraceful 
 bickerings, and was never satisfied unless I was with him. Lucy grumbled, 
 and sneered, and looked sour ; but I had my husband's heart again, and 
 determined to keep it. As soon as he was strong enough, I told him how 
 wretched I had been, and how sincerely I desired to make him happy, if 
 Lucy would only not interfere. He saw that our domestic peace was 
 dependent upon the change, and from that hour his sister ceased meddling 
 with my affairs. What he said to her I never knew ; but soon after his 
 recovery, she returned to her parents, and I was left in peace. I began, 
 
B E U L A H . 475 
 
 in sober earnest, to be all my husband wished me; read the books he 
 liked (though it was a terrible bore at first) ; read to him ; took part in all 
 the societies connected with his church ; and, in short, became quite a 
 demure pastor's wife. Occasionally, my old fondness for fun would break 
 out, to the horror of some of his antediluvian flock; but Ernest was very 
 good, and bore patiently with me, and now J am as prim and precise as 
 any old maid of sixty. At home I do as I like, that is, when Ernest likes 
 it too. I sing, and play, and romp, with the dogs and kittens; but the 
 moment the door bell rings, lo. a demure matron receives her guests! 
 Ernest's health is quite restored, and I am as happy as the day is long. 
 You should see me working in my garden, and sometimes churning before 
 breakfast, to give Ernest a fresh glass of buttermilk. I would not change 
 places with an empress, I am so happy. My husband loves me better 
 than everything else beside, and what more could I desire? Do come and 
 see me ; we would be so delighted to have you spend some time in our 
 home. I am such a genuine rustic, you would scarcely recognize me. 
 Just fancy me with an apron on, my sleeves rolled up, churning as fast as 
 the dasher can fly, and singing at the top of my voice. Mother was per- 
 fectly shocked, when she first came to live with me, and vowed I should 
 not make a ' drudge ' of myself. Drudge, indeed, because I chose to do 
 something, with my own hands, for my husband! I told her I would 
 4 drudge,' as she called it, just as long as Ernest loved such things as I 
 could prepare for him myself; and I read her those famous remarks of 
 Lady Mary Montagu, in which all domestic pursuits, even cooking, Is 
 dignified as a labor of love ; whereupon Ernest gave me a kiss, and mother 
 declined any further argumentation on the subject. How some of my 
 fashionable city friends would elevate their fastidious noses at seeing me, 
 with my check aprons, picking strawberries, or arranging curds for tea! 
 Come and see me ; do, Beulah ; I am the very happiest woman extant, 
 that is, I would be, if I could only know something of Uncle Guy. It is 
 almost five years since he left honje, and for a long, long time we have 
 heard nothing from him. This is the only sorrow I have. Sometimes I 
 fear he must have died in some distant land, yet will not believe it. I 
 want to see him very much ; my heart aches when I think about him. 
 Dear Uncle Guy ! next to my husband, I believe I love him best. Can't 
 yoti tell me something of him ? or do you know as little as his relatives? 
 Ernest says he will walk into our house some day, without any intimation 
 of his coming. Oh, I hope so ! I endeavor to believe so ! Do write to me. 
 I often think of you, in your loneliness, and wish you were as happy as 
 your friend, 
 
 " PAULINE." 
 
476 B E TJ L A H . 
 
 Beulah laid the letter beside one received the previous day 
 from Clara, and mused for some moments. They were both hap- 
 pily married, and she sincerely rejoiced over their fortunate lots; 
 but Clara had once loved her guardian ; how could she possibly 
 forget him so entirely ? Was love a mere whim of the hour, 
 fostered by fortuitously favorable circumstances, but chilled and 
 vanquished by absence, or obstacles ? Could the heart demolish 
 the idol it had once enshrined, and set up another image for 
 worship ? Was Time the conquering iconoclast ? Why, then, 
 did she suffer more acutely as each year rolled on ? She had 
 little leisure, however, for these reflections j the Asburys had 
 returned, and the cottage had been rented by a family, who were 
 anxious to take possession immediately Such articles of furni- 
 ture as were no longer needed had been sent to an auction room, 
 and she sat down in the empty dining-room, to see the last load 
 removed. To-day she bade adieu to the cottage, and commenced 
 boarding once more. Her heart was heavy, but her eyes were 
 uudimmed, and her grave, composed face, betokened little of the 
 sorrow which oppressed her. Here she had spent five years in 
 peaceful seclusion ; here she had toiled and earned reputation as 
 a writer ; and here many hours of happiness had been passed 
 among her flowers. The place was very dear to her ; it was the 
 only spot on the face of the wide world she had ever felt was 
 her home. Home ! if it consists of but a sanded floor, and uri- 
 plastered walls, what a halo is shed upon its humble hearth ! A 
 palatial mansion, or sequestered cottage among wild forests, were 
 alike sanctified by the name. Home ! the heart's home ! who 
 shall compute its value ? But Beulah must relinquish her retreat, 
 and find refuge in the home of others. Would this content her ? 
 Was she to be always homeless ? True, she was to reside v/ith 
 loved and tried friends, yet she would be a homeless orphan still, 
 without claims upon one living being. The grave had closed 
 over the kind matron who had so warmly loved her, and she was 
 without ties in the world. These thoughts passed through her 
 mind, as she saw the last chair deposited on a furniture cart, 
 
B E U L A H . 477 
 
 and borne away. Charon looked up at her mournfully, as if to 
 ask : 
 
 " Are we homeless ? Where shall we wander ?" She stroked 
 his head, and went into the flower garden to gather a last bou- 
 quet from plants she had so carefully tended. An early frost 
 had nipped the buds, but the chrysanthemums were in all their 
 glory crimson, white and orange. She broke some of the 
 beautiful clusters, and with a long, lingering look, turned away. 
 The black mourning veil was thrown back from a pale, calm face; 
 and as she walked on, reflecting upon the future, which stretched 
 dimly before her, she exclaimed : 
 
 " Why should I wish it otherwise ? The arms of a merciful 
 God will shield me, under all circumstances. My life was not 
 given for a mere holiday. So I but do my duty faithfully, all 
 will be well. Ah, truly, I can say : 
 
 " ' Let me, then, be up and doing, 
 
 With a heart for any fate ; 
 Still achieving, still pursuing, 
 
 Learn to labor, and to wait!' 
 
 Yes, learn to labor and to wait. The heart cries out fiercely 
 for its recompense ; is loth to wait. But I can conquer even 
 this. I will be patient and hopeful. Duty is its own recom- 
 pense." 
 
 Mrs. Asbury spared no exertion to make the orphan happy in 
 her house. She treated her with the gentle frankness which cha- 
 racterized her deportment toward her daughters ; and to identify 
 her with her own family, often requested her to assist in her 
 household plans. She thoroughly understood and appreciated 
 Beulab's nature, and perfect confidence existed between them. 
 It was no sooner known that Beulah was an inmate of the house, 
 than many persons, curious to see one of whom rumor spoke so 
 flatteringly, availed themselves of the circumstance to make her 
 acquaintance. Almost unconsciously, she soon found herself the 
 
4:78 B E U L A H . 
 
 centre of a circle of literary people, whom she had ofteu heard 
 of, but had never known previously. Gradually, her reserve 
 melted away, and her fine colloquial powers developed them- 
 selves ; but she wearied of the visitors wearied even of the 
 themes discussed, and having passed her life in seclusion, found 
 in solitude a degree of enjoyment which society could not confer. 
 Helen had married a planter, and resided at some distance from 
 the city, but Georgia and her husband remained at home. Thus, 
 imperceptibly, time wore on. Eugene often came and spent an 
 hour with Beulah ; and still more frequently, Cornelia was sent 
 to while away an evening with her merry prattle. Very steadily, 
 Eugene advanced in his profession ; the applause of the world 
 cheered him on, and an enviable reputation was his at last. 
 Grasping ambition lured him, step by step ; and it was evident 
 that he aimed at a seat beside Reginald Lindsay. Rejoiced at 
 his entire reformation, and proud of his success, Beulah con- 
 stantly encouraged his aspirations. Antoinette was as gay and 
 indifferent as ever, and Eugene divided his heart between his 
 child and his ambition. 
 
 By a system of rigid economy in the disposal of her time, 
 Beulah not only attended to her school duties, her music, and her 
 books, but found leisure, after writing her magazine articles, to 
 spend some time each day with the family under whose roof she 
 resided. Dr. Asbury's health was rather feeble, and of late his 
 eyes had grown so dim as to prevent his reading or writing. 
 This misfortune was to a great extent counterbalanced by his 
 wife's devoted attention, and often Beulah shared the duties of 
 the library. One bright Sunday afternoon, she walked out to 
 the cemetery, which she visited frequently. In one corner of a 
 small lot, inclosed by a costly iron railing, stood a beautiful 
 marble monument, erected by Mr. Grayson over Lilly's grave. 
 It represented two angels bearing the child up to its God. Just 
 opposite, in the next lot, was a splendid mausoleum of the finest 
 white marble, bearing in gilt letters the name " CORNELIA GRA- 
 HAM, aged twenty-three." It was in the form of a temple, with 
 
B E U L A H . 479 
 
 slender fluted columns supporting the portico ; and on the ornate 
 capitals was inscribed in corresponding gilt characters, "Silentio! 
 Silentio /" At the entrance stood two winged forms, crowned 
 with wreaths of poppies ; and a pair of beautiful vases held 
 withered flowers. Beulah sat on the marble steps. Before her 
 stretched aisles of tombstones ; the sunshine sparkled on their 
 polished surfaces, and was reflected as from countless mirrors. 
 Myrtle and laurel-trees waved gently in the icy north wind, and 
 stately, solemn cedars kept guard in every inclosure. All was 
 silent and still, save those funeral evergreen boughs which stirred 
 softly as if fearful of disturbing the pale sleepers around them. 
 Human nature shrinks appalled from death and all that accom- 
 panies it ; but in the deep repose, the sacred hush, which reigned 
 over the silent city, there was for Beulah something inexpressibly 
 soothing. In a neighboring lot she could see a simple white slab 
 Eugene had erected over the remains of the friend of their child- 
 hood. Her labors ended, the matron slept near the forms of 
 Lilly and Cornelia. Here winter rains fell unheeded, and here 
 the balmy breath of summer brought bright blossoms and lux- 
 uriant verdure. Mocking-birds sang cheerfully in the sentinel 
 cedars, and friends wandered slowly over the shelled walks, re- 
 calling the past. Here there was no gloom to affright the timid 
 soul ; all was serene and inviting. Why should the living shrink 
 from a resting-place so hallowed and peaceful ? And why should 
 death be invested with fictitious horrors ? A procession entered 
 one of the gates, and wound along the carriage-road to a remote 
 corner of the burying-ground. The slow, measured tread of 
 the horses, the crush of wheels on the rocky track, and the 
 smothered sobs of the mourners, all came in subdued tones to 
 Beulah's ears. Then the train disappeared, and she was again 
 in solitude. Looking up, her eyes rested on the words above 
 her : " Silentio 1 silentio 1" They were appropriate, indeed, upon 
 the monument of her who had gone down into the tomb so hope- 
 lessly, so shudderingly. Years had passed since the only child 
 had been laid here ; yet the hour of release was as fresh in Beu- 
 
4:80 B E TJ L A H . 
 
 lah's memory as though she had seen the convulsed features but 
 yesterday ; and the words repeated that night seemed now to issue 
 from the marble lips of the statues beside her : " For here we 
 have no continuing city, but seek one to come." With her cheek 
 on her hand, the orphan sat pondering the awful mystery which 
 darkened the last hour of the young sleeper ; and looking back 
 over her own life, during the season when she " was without God 
 and without hope," she saw that only unbelief had clothed death 
 with terror. Once she stood on this same spot, and with 
 trembling horror saw the coffin lowered. Had death touched 
 her then, she would have shrunk appalled from the summons, 
 but now it was otherwise. 
 
 " I am the resurrection and the life, saith the Lord ; he that 
 believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live ; and 
 whosoever liveth and believeth in me, shall never die." 
 
 She believed ; and while a beautiful world linked her to life, 
 and duty called to constant and cheerful labor, death lost its 
 hideous aspect. With a firm faith in the Gospel of Christ, she 
 felt that earth with all its loveliness was but a probationary 
 dwelling-place ; and that death was an angel of God, summoning 
 the laborers to their harvest-home. She had often asked what 
 is the aim and end of life ? One set of philosophers told her it 
 was to be happy. Another exclaimed it was to learn to endure 
 with fortitude all ills. But neither satisfied her ; one promised 
 too much, the other too little, and only in revelation was 
 an answer found. Yet how few pause to ponder its signifi- 
 cance. With the majority, life is the all : the springtime, the 
 holiday ; and death the hated close of enjoyment. They forget 
 that: 
 
 " Not enjoyment, and not sorrow, 
 Is our destined end or way ; 
 But to act, that each to-morrow, 
 Find us further than to-day." 
 
 The path of Christianity is neither all sunshine nor all shadow, 
 
BEULAH. 481 
 
 checkered certainly, but leading to a final abode of unimaginable 
 bliss, and with the Bible to guide her, the orphan walked fear- 
 lessly on, discharging her duties, and looking unto God and his 
 Christ to aid her. She sat on the steps of the sepulchre, 
 watching the last rays of the setting sun gild the monumental 
 shafts that pointed to heaven. Her grave face might have told 
 the scrutinizing observer of years of grief and struggle ; but it 
 also betokened an earnest soul calmly trusting the wisdom and 
 mercy of the All-Father. She sighed as she thought of the 
 gifted but unhappy woman who slept near her, and rising, walked 
 on to Lilly's tomb. Ten years had rolled their waves over her 
 since that little form was placed here. She looked down at the 
 simple epitaph : " He taketh his young lambs home." The 
 cherub face seemed to beam upon her once more, and the sweet, 
 birdlike tones of her childish voice still lingered in the secret 
 cells of memory. She extended her arms, as if to clasp the 
 form borne up by the angels, and said tremulously : 
 
 " Lilly, my sister, my white-robed darling, but a little while, 
 aud we shall meet where orphanage is unknown I ' He doeth all 
 things well I' Ah, little sleeper, I can wait patiently for our 
 reunion." 
 
 As she turned her steps homeward, a shadowy smile stole over 
 her features, and the lines about her mouth resumed their wonted 
 composure. 
 
 " Beulah, father has been asking for you," said Georgia, who 
 met her on the staircase. 
 
 " I will go down to him immediately," was the cheerful 
 answer, and putting away her bonnet and shawl, she went at once 
 to the library. The doctor was leaning very far back in his 
 favorite chair, and she saw at a glance he had fallen asleep. 
 
 Mrs. Asbury sat at a table, weighing out some medicine he had 
 directed sent to a patient. She looked up as Beulah entered, 
 smiled, and said in an undertone : 
 
 " My liege lord is indulging in a nap. Come to the fire, dear, 
 you look cold." 
 
 21 
 
482 BEULAH. 
 
 She left the room with the medicine, aud Beulah stood before 
 the bright wood fire, and watched the ruddy light flashing gro- 
 tesquely over the pictures on the wall. The gas had not yet 
 been lighted ; she crossed the room, and sat down before the 
 window. A red glow still lingered in the west, and one by one, 
 the stars came swiftly out. She took up a book she had been 
 reading that morning, but it was too dim to see the letters, and 
 she contented herself with looking out at the stars, brightening 
 as the night deepened. "So should it be with faith," thought 
 she, " and yet, as troubles come thick and fast, we are apt to 
 despair." Mrs. Asbury came back and lighted the gas, but Beu- 
 lah was too much absorbed to notice it. The doctor waked, and 
 began to talk about the severity of the winter further north, and 
 the suffering it produced among the poor. Presently he said : 
 
 " What has become of that child, Beulah do you know, 
 Alice ?" 
 
 " Yes ; there she is by the window. You were asleep when 
 she came in." 
 
 He looked round and called to her. 
 
 "What are you thinking about, Beulah ? You look as cold 
 as an iceberg. Come to the fire. Warm hands and feet will aid 
 your philosophizing wonderfully." 
 
 " I am not philosophizing, sir," she replied, without rising. 
 
 " I will wager my elegant new edition of Coleridge against 
 your old one, that you are ! Now, out with your cogitations, 
 you incorrigible dreamer !" 
 
 " I have won your Coleridge. I was only thinking of that 
 Talmudish tradition regarding Sandalphon, the angel of prayer." 
 
 " What of him ?" 
 
 " Why, that he stands at the gate of heaven, listens to the 
 sounds that ascend from earth, and gathering all the prayers 
 and entreaties, as they are wafted from sorrowing humanity, 
 they change to flowers in his hands, and the perfume is borne 
 into the celestial city to God. Yesterday I read Longfellow's 
 lines on this legend, and suppose my looking up at the stars 
 
BETJIAH. 483 
 
 recalled it to my mind. But Georgia told me you asked for me. 
 Can I do anything for you, sir ? Are there any prescriptions 
 you wish written off?" She came and stood by his chair. 
 
 " No, thank you, child ; but I should like to hear more of 
 that book you were reading to me last night that is, if it will 
 not weary you, my child." 
 
 " Certainly not here it is. I was waiting for you to ask me 
 for more of it. Shall I begin now, or defer it till after tea ?" 
 
 " Now, if you please." 
 
 Mrs. Asbury seated herself on an ottoman at her husband's 
 feet, and threw her arm up over his knee ; and opening "Butler's 
 Analogy," Beulah began to read where she left off the previous 
 day, in the chapter on " a future life." 
 
 With his hand resting on his wife's head, Dr. Asbury listened 
 attentively. At the conclusion of the chapter, she turned to the 
 dissertation on " personal identity," so nearly related to it, and 
 read it slowly and impressively. 
 
 11 It is remarkably clear and convincing," said the doctor, 
 when she ceased. 
 
 " Yes; his argument, that death, instead of being an abnormal 
 event, is as much a law of our nature as birth (because neces- 
 sary to future development), and that as at maturity, we have 
 perfections, of which we never dreamed in infancy, so death may 
 put us in possession of new powers, by releasing us from the 
 chrysalis state, is one which has peculiar significance to my 
 mind. Had Cornelia Graham studied it, she would never have 
 been tortured by the thought of that annihilation which she 
 fancied awaited her. From childhood, this question of ' perso- 
 nal identity ' has puzzled me ; but it seems to me, this brief trea- 
 tise of Butler is quite satisfactory. It should be a text book in 
 all educational institutions ; should be scattered far and wide 
 through the land." 
 
 Here the solemn tones of the church bells told that the hour 
 of evening service drew near. The doctor started, and said, 
 abruptly : 
 
484 BEULAH. 
 
 " Bless me ! Alice, are we to have no tea to-night ?" 
 
 "Yes, the tea bell rang some minutes ago, but Beulah had not 
 quite finished her chapter, and I would not interrupt." 
 
 As they walked on to the dining-room, he said : 
 
 "You two are going to church, I suppose ?" 
 
 " No, I shall remain with you," answered his wife, gently. 
 
 " You need not, my dear. I will go with you, if you prefer 
 it." 
 
 Beulah did not look up, but she knew that true-hearted wife 
 was unspeakably happy ; and understood why, during tea, she 
 was so quiet, so unwontedly silent. 
 
 CHAPTER XXXIX. 
 
 " I WISH Hartwell would come borne, and attend to his busi- 
 ness," muttered Dr. Asbury, some weeks later ; and as he spoke, 
 be threw his feet impatiently over the fender of the grate, look- 
 ing discontented enough, 
 
 " He will come, sir ; he will come," answered Beulah, who sat 
 near him. 
 
 " How do you know that so well, child ? Why do you sup- 
 pose he will come ?" asked the doctor, knitting his bushy grey 
 eyebrows. 
 
 "Perhaps, because I wish it so very much ; and hope and 
 faith are nearly allied, you know ; and perhaps more than this 
 because I have prayed so long for his return." 
 
 She sat with her hands folded, looking quietly into the glow- 
 ing grate. The old man watched her a moment, as the firelight 
 glared over her grave, composed face, and tears came suddenly 
 into his eyes. 
 
 "When Harry Hartwell died (about eighteeo months since) 
 he left his share of the estate to Guy, It is one of the finest 
 
B E U L A H . 485 
 
 plantations in the State, arid for the last three years the crops 
 have been remarkably good. The cotton has been sold regu- 
 larly, and the bulk f the money is still in the hands of the 
 factor. Yesterday I happened to pass the old house, and rode 
 in to see how things looked ; positively, child, you would 
 scarcely recognize the place. You know the Farleys only occu- 
 pied it a few months ; since that time it has been rented. Just 
 now it is vacant, and such a deserted looking tenement I have 
 not seen for many days. As far as I am concerned " 
 
 Here a servant entered to inform the doctor that he was 
 wanted immediately to see one of his patients. He kicked off 
 his slippers, and got up, grumbling : 
 
 " A plague on Guy's peregrinating proclivities. I am getting 
 too old to jump up every three seconds, to keep somebody's baby 
 from jerking itself into a spasm, or suffocating with the croup. 
 Hartwell ought to be here to take all this practice off my 
 hands." 
 
 He put on his overcoat, and went out. 
 
 Beulah sat quite still for some minutes after his departure ; 
 then glancing at the clock, she started up suddenly. 
 
 " Where are you going, my dear ?" said Mrs. Asbury, looking 
 up from a letter she was writing to Helen. 
 
 " To walk." 
 
 " But Mr. Leonard is coming here this afternoon to see you j 
 he requested me to tell you so." 
 
 " I don't want to see him." 
 
 " But, my dear, he has already called several times recently 
 without seeing you." 
 
 " And if he had any penetration, he might perceive that the 
 avoidance was intended. I am tired of his frequent visits and 
 endless harangues, and he might see it if he chose." She looked 
 rather impatient. 
 
 Mrs. Asbury had sealed her letter, and approaching the rug 
 where Beulah stood, she laid her soft hand on her shoulder, and 
 said gently : 
 
486 B E U L A II . 
 
 " My dear child, do not think me officious, or prompted by 
 mere idle curiosity, if I ask, do you intend to reject him ?' ; 
 
 " Why, ma'm, I have rejected him once, and still he forces his 
 society upon me. As to staying at home to see him, I won't do 
 it." 
 
 Mrs. Asbury seemed surprised, and said, smilingly : 
 
 " Upon my word, Beulah, you seem fastidious, indeed. What 
 possible objection could you find to Hugh Leonard ? Why, my 
 dear, he is the best match in the city." 
 
 " I would about as soon think of marrying the doctor's arm- 
 chair, there." 
 
 Beulah went to her own room, and put on her bonnet and 
 cloak. Charon very rarely attended her in her rambles ; he had 
 grown old, and was easily fatigued, but this afternoon she 
 called to him, and they set out. It was a mild, sunny evening 
 for winter, and she took the street leading to her guardian's old 
 residence. A quick walk soon brought her into the suburbs, 
 and ere long she stood before the entrance. The great central 
 gate was chained, but the little side gate was completely 
 broken from ;ts hinges, and lay on the ground. Alas 1 this 
 was but the beginning ; as she entered, she saw, with dismay, 
 that the yard was full of stray cattle. Cows, sheep, goats, 
 browsed about undisturbed among the shrubbery, which her 
 guardian had tended so carefully. She had not been here since 
 he sold it, but even Charon saw that something was strangely 
 amiss. He bounded off, and soon cleared the inclosure of the 
 herd, which had become accustomed to grazing here. Beulah 
 walked slowly up the avenue ; the aged cedars whispered 
 hoarsely above her as she passed, and the towering poplars, 
 whose ceaseless silvery rustle had an indescribable charm for 
 her in summers past, now tossed their bare boughs toward her 
 in mute complaining of the desolation which surrounded them. 
 The reckless indifference of tenants has deservedly grown into 
 a proverb, and here Beulah beheld an exemplification of its 
 truth. Of all the choice shrubbery, which it had been the labor 
 
B E U L A H . 487 
 
 of years to collect and foster ; not a particle remained. Roses, 
 creepers, bulbs all were destroyed, and only the trees and 
 hedges were spared. The very outline of the beds was effaced 
 in many places, and walking round the paved circle in front of 
 the door, she paused abruptly at the desolation which greeted 
 her. Here was the marble basin of the fountain half filled \vii.h 
 rubbish, as though it had been converted into a receptacle for 
 trash, and over the whole front of the house, the dark glossy 
 leaves of the creeping ivy clung in thick masses. She looked 
 around on all sides, but only ruin and neglect confronted her. 
 She remembered the last time she came here, and recalled the 
 beautiful Sunday morning when she saw her guardian standing 
 by the fountain, feeding his pigeons. Ah, how sadly changed 1 
 She burst into tears, and sat down on the steps. Charon ran 
 about the yard for some time ; then came back, looked up at the 
 sombre house, howled, and laid down at her feet. Where was 
 the old master ? Wandering among eastern pagodas, while his 
 home became a retreat for owls. 
 
 " He has forgotten us, Charon I He has forgotten his two 
 best friends you and I who love him so well ! Oh, Charon, 
 he has forgotten us !" cried she, almost despairingly. Charon 
 gave a melancholy groan of assent, and nestled closer to her. 
 Five years had gone since he left his native land, and for once 
 her faith was faint and wavering. But after some moments she 
 looked up at the calm sky arching above her, and wiping away 
 her tears, added, resignedly : 
 
 " But he will come 1 God will bring him home when he sees 
 fit I I can wait I I can wait 1" 
 
 Charon's great, gleaming black eyes met hers wistfully ; he 
 seemed dubious of his master's return. Beulah rose, and he 
 obeyed the signal. 
 
 " Come, Charon, it is getting late ; faut we will come back 
 some day, and live here." 
 
 It was dusk when she entered the library, and found Mrs. 
 Anbury discussing the political questions of the day with her bus- 
 
488 BE IT L AH. 
 
 band. She had just finished reading aloud, one of Reginald's 
 Congressional speeches, and advocated it warmly, while the 
 doctor reprobated some portion of his course. 
 
 "You have had a long walk," said Mrs. Asbury, looking up, 
 as the orphan entered. 
 
 "And look, for the universe, as if you had been ghost-seeing," 
 cried the doctor, wiping his spectacles. 
 
 " I would rather meet an army of ghosts than see what I have 
 seen !" answered Beulah. 
 
 " Good heavens 1 In the name of wonder, what have you 
 seen, child ? ' A rattle-snake, or a screech-owl ?" 
 
 He put his broad palms on his knees, and looked mockingly 
 curious and startled. 
 
 " I have been out to see the old place, sir ; found the gate 
 broken down, the front yard full of cows, and everything going 
 to destruction, except the trees and hedges. Sir, it makes me 
 feel very sad. I can't bear to have things go on this way any 
 longer. It must be rectified." 
 
 " Bless my soul, that is easier said than done ! The place is a 
 perfect owl-roost, there is no denying that ; but it is no business 
 of ours. If Farley, or his agent, suffers the property to go to 
 ruin, it is his loss." 
 
 " But I love the place. I -want to save it. Won't you buy it, 
 Dr. Asbury ?" 
 
 " Won't I buy it ? Why, what on earth do you suppose I 
 should do w.ith it ? I don't want to live in it ; and as for any 
 more investments in real estate, why, just excuse me, if you 
 please ! Insurance and repairs eat up all the profits, and I am 
 plagued to death with petitions in the bargain." 
 
 " Then, I must buy it myself !" said Beulah, resolutely. 
 
 " In the name of common sense, what will you do with it ?" 
 
 " I don't know yet ; keep it, I suppose, until he comes home 
 again. How much do you suppose the Farley s ask for it ?" 
 
 " I really cannot conjecture. But, child, you must not think 
 of this. I will see the agent about it, and perhaps I may pur 
 
BEULAH. 489 
 
 chase it, to oblige you. I will not hear of your buying it. Guy 
 certainly cannot contemplate heathenating much longer. There 
 is that eternal door-bell again I Somebody that believes I am 
 constructed of wire and gutta-percha, I dare say." 
 
 He leaned back, and watched the door very uneasily. A ser- 
 vant looked in. 
 
 " Mr. Leonard, to see Miss Beulah." 
 
 " Thank heaven it is nobody to see me 1" The doctor settled 
 himself comfortably, and laughed at the perturbed expression of 
 Beulah's countenance. 
 
 " Ask him to excuse me this evening," said she, without rising. 
 
 " Nay, my dear ; he was here this afternoon, and you had 
 gone to walk. It would be rude not to see him. Go into the 
 parlor ; do, my dear ; perhaps he will not detain you long," 
 remonstrated Mrs. Asbury. 
 
 Beulah said nothing ; she set her lips firmly, rose, and went to 
 the parlor. 
 
 " I will wager my head he won't stay fifteen minutes, after he 
 gets a glimpse of her face. Hugh ought to have sense enough to 
 see that she does not fancy him," said the doctor, laughing. 
 
 " I should very much like to see the man she would fancy," 
 answered his wife, knitting away busily on a purse for some 
 sewing society. 
 
 "Oh, Alice ! do you wonder she does not like Hugh Leonard ? 
 He is a ' catch/ as far as position, and money, and a certain sort 
 of talent, and is very clever, and upright, I know ; but he does 
 not suit Beulah. If she would not marry Reginald, of course she 
 won't marry Hugh." 
 
 " Jangle," went the door-bell once more, and this time the 
 "doctor was forced to leave his chair and slippers. 
 
 The winter had been very gay, and without doubt, the belle of 
 the season was Claudia Grayson. She had grown up a brilliant, 
 imperious beauty. Petted most injudiciously by Mr. and Mrs. Gray- 
 son, the best elements of her character, instead of being fostered 
 and developed, were smothered beneath vanity and arrogance ; and 
 
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490 BEULAH. 
 
 soon selfishness became the dominant characteristic. To those 
 whom she considered her inferiors, she was supercilious and over- 
 bearing ; while, even in her adopted home, she tyrannized over 
 both servants and parents. Flattered and sought after in 
 society, she was never happy, unless the centre of a gay circle. 
 Ere long, she discovered the heartlessness of her admirers ; 
 learned the malice and envy of the very people she visited most 
 intimately ; and once acquainted with their natures and habits, 
 she found her greatest amusement in ridiculing those, who did 
 precisely the same thing the moment she left .them. Beulali had 
 never been able to conquer her feelings sufficiently to enter Mrs. 
 Grayson 7 s house ; but she had met Claudia several times. The 
 latter, when accompanied by any of her fashionable acquaint- 
 ances, always shrank from recognizing her ; and finally, thinking 
 any allusion to former years, and the Asylum, a personal insult, 
 she passed her, without even a bow. The first time this oc- 
 curred, Beulah was deeply wounded ; she had loved Claudia very 
 warmly, and her superciliousness was hard to bear. But the 
 slight was repeated several times, and she learned to pity her 
 weakness most sincerely. 
 
 "Ah!" thought she, "how much better it was that Lilly 
 should die, than live to grow up a heartless flirt, like Claudy ! 
 Much better, little sister ! Much better !" 
 
 It was the morning after her walk to the old home of her 
 guardian, that Dr. Asbury threw down the paper on the break- 
 fast-table, with an exclamation of horror. 
 
 " What is the matter, George 1" cried his wife, while Beulah 
 grew deadly pale, and clutched the paper ; her mind, like 
 " Hinda's," 
 
 " Still singling one from all mankind." 
 
 " Matter ! why poor Grayson has committed suicide shot 
 himself last night, poor wretch I He has been speculating too 
 freely, and lost every cent ; and, worse than that, used money to 
 do it that was not his. He made desperate throws and lost all; 
 
B E U L A II . 491 
 
 and the end of it was, that when his operations were discovered, 
 he shot himself, leaving his family utterly destitute. I heard 
 yesterday that they would not have a cent ; but never dreamed 
 of his being so weak as to kill himself. Miserable mistake !" 
 
 "What will become of Mrs. Grayson and Claudia?" asked 
 Beulah, sorrowfully. 
 
 " I don't know, really. Mrs. Grayson has a brother living 
 somewhere up the country ; I suppose he will offer them a home 
 such as he has. I pity her ; she is a weak creature weak, mind 
 and body ; and this reverse will come very near killing her." 
 
 For some days nothing was discussed but the " Grayson 
 tragedy " It was well the unhappy man could not listen to the 
 fierce maledictions of disappointed creditors and the slanders 
 which were now heaped upon his name. Whatever his motives 
 might have been, the world called his offences by the darkest 
 names, and angry creditors vowed every knife, fork and spoon 
 should come under the hammer. The elegant house was sold 
 the furniture with it ; and Mrs. Grayson and Claudia removed 
 temporarily to a boarding-house. Not one of their fashionable 
 intimates approached them no, not one. When Claudia went 
 one day to her mautuamaker, to have her mourning fitted, she 
 met a couple of ladies who had formerly been constant visitors 
 at the house, and regular attendants at her parties. Unsuspect- 
 ingly, she hastened to meet them, but, to her astonishment, 
 instead of greeting her, in their usual fawning manner, they 
 received her with a "very cold bow, just touched the tips of her 
 fingers, and gathering up their robes, swept majestically from the 
 room. Rage and mortification forced the tears into her eyes. 
 
 Mrs. Asbury had never admired Mrs. Grayson's character ; 
 she visited her formally about twice a year ; but now, in this 
 misfortune, she alone called to see her. When Claudia returned 
 from the mantuamaker's, she found Mrs. Asbury with her mother, 
 and received from her hand a kind, friendly note from the girl 
 she had so grossly insulted. Beulah was no flatterer; she wrote 
 candidly and plainly; said blc would have called at once, had 
 
492 BETJLAH. 
 
 she supposed her company would be acceptable. She would 
 gladly come and see Claudia whenever she desired to see her, 
 and hoped that the memory of other years would teach her the 
 sincerity of her friendship. Claudia wept bitterly, as she read it, 
 and vainly regretted the superciliousness which had alienated 
 one she knew to be noble and trustworthy. She was naturally 
 an impulsive creature, and without a moment's hesitation, dashed 
 off an answer, all blurred with tears, begging Beulah to overlook 
 her " foolishness," and come to see her. 
 
 Accordingly, after school, Beulah went to the house where 
 they were boarding. Claudia met her rather awkwardly, but 
 Beulah kissed her as if nothing had ever occurred to mar their 
 intercourse ; and after some desultory conversation, asked her 
 what they expected to do. 
 
 " Heaven only knows ! starve, I suppose." She spoke gloom- 
 ily, and folded her soft white hands over each other, as if the 
 idea of work was something altogether foreign to her mind. 
 
 "But, Claudia, I reckon you hardly expect to starve," an- 
 swered Beulah, who could not forbear smiling. 
 
 "Dear knows what is to become of us I am sure I don't I 
 Mamma has a brother living in some out-of-the-way place up the 
 country. But he does not like me thinks some of his own 
 children ought to have been adopted in my place. Heaven 
 knows I have made nothing by the operation, but a great disap- 
 pointment, he need not be uneasy about the amount I am to get. 
 But you see they don't want me, having an old spite at me, and 
 rnamma dislikes to ask them to take me ; besides, I would almost 
 as soon be buried at once as go to that farm, or plantation, or 
 whatever it is. They have written to mamma to come, and she 
 does not know what to do." 
 
 " You arc a good musician, are you not ?" 
 
 "No, not particularly ; I never could endure to practise." 
 
 " Don't you draw and paint finely I have heard that you did ?' ; 
 
 "Yes, but what good will it do me now, I should like to 
 know ?" She twirled her little plump, jewelled fingers indolently. 
 
BEULAH. 493 
 
 " It might do you a great deal of good, if you chose. You 
 might support yourself by giving lessons," said Beulah, decisively. 
 
 She drew up her shoulders, frowned and pouted without 
 making any answer. 
 
 " Claudy, you do not wish to be dependent on a man who dis- 
 likes you ?" 
 
 " Not if I can help myself I" 
 
 " And you certainly do not wish to be the means of prevent- 
 ing Mrs. Grayson from having a comfortable home with her 
 brother ?" 
 
 Claudia burst into tears ; she did not love her mother, did not 
 even respect her, she was so very weak. and childish ; yet the 
 young orphan felt very desolate, and knew not what to do. 
 Beulah took her hand, and said kindly : 
 
 " If you are willing to help yourself, dear Claudy, I will gladly 
 do all 1 can to assist you. I think I can secure you a situation 
 as teacher of drawing, and, until you can make something at it, 
 I will pay your board ; and you shall stay with me, if you like. 
 You can think about it, and let me know as soon as you decide." 
 
 Claudia thanked her cordially, and returning home, Beulah 
 immediately imparted the plan to her friends. They thought it 
 would scarcely succeed, Claudia had been so petted and spoiled, 
 Beulah sat gazing into the fire for awhile ; then, looking at the 
 doctor, said abruptly : 
 
 " There is that Graham money, sir, doing nobody any good." 
 
 " That is just what I have been telling you for the last sis 
 years. I have invested it carefully, until it has almost doubled 
 itself." 
 
 "It would make them very comfortable," continued she 
 thoughtfully. 
 
 " Make them very comfortable I" repeated the doctor, 
 throwing his cigar into the grate, and turning suddenly toward 
 her. 
 
 11 Yes, Claudia and Mrs. Grayson," 
 
 " Beulah Benton I are you going insane, I should liko tc 
 
494 B E U L A H . 
 
 know ? Here you are, working- hard every day of your life, 
 and do you suppose I shall suffer you to give that legacy (nearly 
 nine thousand dollars!) to support two broken-down fashionables 
 in idleness ? Who ever heard of such a piece of business since 
 the world began ? I will not consent to it ! I tell you now, 
 the money shall not leave my hands for any such purpose." 
 
 "I don't want it myself. I never shall touch a dollar of it for 
 my own use," said she, resolutely. 
 
 " All very fine now. But wait till you, get superannuated, or 
 such a cripple with rheumatism that you can't hobble to that 
 schoolhouse, which you seem to love better than your own soul. 
 Wait till then, I say, and see whether some of this money will 
 not be very acceptable." 
 
 " That time will never come, sir, never 1" answered Beulah, 
 laughing. 
 
 " Beulah Benton, you are a simpleton !" said he, looking 
 affectionately at her from beneath his shaggy brows. 
 
 " I want that money, sir." 
 
 " You shall not have one cent of it. The idea of your playing 
 Lady Bountiful to the Graysons ! Pshaw 1 not a picayune shall 
 you have." 
 
 " Oh, sir, it would make me so very happy to aid them. 
 You cannot conceive how much pleasure it would afford me." 
 
 " Look here, child, all that sort of angelic disinterestedness 
 sounds very well done up in a novel, but the reality is quite 
 another matter. Mrs. Grayson treated you like a brute ; and it 
 is not to be expected that you will have any extraordinary 
 degree of 'affection for her. Human nature is spiteful and unfor- 
 giving ; and as for your piling coals of fire on her head to the 
 amount of nine thousand dollars, that is being entirely too 
 magnanimous !" 
 
 " I want to make Mrs. Grayson amends, sir. Once, when I 
 was maddened by sorrow and pain, I said something which I 
 always repented bitterly." As Beulah spoke, a cloud swept 
 across her face. 
 
BEULAII. 495 
 
 " What was ir, child ? what did you say ?" 
 
 " I cursud her ! besought God to puiiish her severely for her 
 unkindness to me. I hardly knew what I was saying ; but even 
 then it shocked me, and I prayed God to forgive my passion. 
 I shudder when I remember it. I have forgiven her heartless- 
 ness long ago ; and now, sir, I want you to give me that money, 
 If it is mine at all, it is mine to employ as I choose." 
 
 " Cornelia did not leave the legacy to the Graysons." 
 
 " Were she living, she would commend the use I am about 
 to make of it. Will you give me five thousand dollars of it ?" 
 
 " Oh, Beulah, you are a queer compound ! a strange being 1" 
 
 " Will you give me five thousand dollars of that money 
 to-morrow ?" persisted Beulah, looking steadily at him. 
 
 " Yes, child, if you will have it so." His voice trembled, and 
 he looked at the orphan with moist eyes. 
 
 Mrs. Asbury had taken no part in the conversation^ but her 
 earnest face attested her interest. Passing her arm around 
 Beulah's waist, she hastily kissed her brow, and only said : 
 
 " God bless you, my dear, noble Beulah 1" 
 
 " I do not see that I am at all magnanimous in giving away 
 other people's money. If I had earned it by hard labor, and 
 then given it to Claudy, there would have been some more show 
 of generosity. Here come Georgia and her husband ; you do 
 not need me to read this evening, and I have work to do." She 
 extricated herself from Mrs. Asbury's clasping arm and retired 
 to her own room. The following day, Claudia came to say that, 
 as she knew not what else to do, she would gladly accept the 
 position mentioned as teacher of drawing and painting. Mrs. 
 Grayson's brother had come to take her home, but she was 
 unwilling to be separated from Claudia. Beulah no longer 
 hesitated, and the sum of five thousand dollars seamed to poor" 
 Claudia a fortune indeed. She could not understand how the girl, 
 whom she and her mother had insulted, could possibly have the 
 means of making them so comparatively comfortable. Beulah 
 briefly explained the circumstances which had enabled her to 
 
496 B E U L A H . 
 
 assist them. The bulk of the money remained in Dr. Asburj's 
 hands, and Claudia was to apply to him whenever she needed it. 
 She and her mamma found a cheaper boardiug-house, and 
 Claudia's duties began at once. Mrs. Grayson was overwhelmed 
 with shame when the particulars were made known to her, and 
 tears of bitter mortification could not obliterate the memory of 
 the hour when she cruelly denied the prayer of the poor orphan 
 to whom she now owed the shelter above her head. Beulah did 
 not see her for many weeks subsequent ; she knew how painful 
 such a meeting would be to the humbled woman, and while she 
 constantly cheered and encouraged Claudia in her work, she 
 studiously avoided Mrs. Grayson's presence. 
 
 Thus the winter passed ; and once more the glories of a 
 southern spring were scattered over the land. To the Asburys 
 Beulah was warmly attached, and her residence with them was 
 as pleasant as any home could possibly have been, which was 
 not her own. They were all that friends could be to an orphan ; 
 still, she regretted her little cottage, and missed the home-feeling 
 she had prized so highly. True, she had constant access to the 
 greenhouse, and was rarely without her bouquet of choice 
 flowers ; but these could not compensate her for the loss of her 
 own little garden. She struggled bravely with discontent; tried 
 to look only on the sunshine in her path, and to be always cheer- 
 ful. In this she partially succeeded ; no matter how lonely and 
 sad she felt, she hid it carefully, and the evenings in the library 
 were never marred by words of repining or looks of sorrow. 
 To the close observer, there were traces of grief in her counte- 
 nance ; and sometimes when she sat sewing while Mrs. Asbury 
 read aloud, it was easy to see that her thoughts had wandered 
 far from that little room . Time had changed her singularly since 
 the old Asylum days. She was now a finely-formed, remarkably 
 graceful woman, with a complexion of dazzling transparency. 
 She was always pale, but the blue veins might be traced any- 
 where on her brow and temples ; and the dark, grey eyes, with 
 their long, jetty, curling lashes, possessed an indescribable 
 
B E U L A II . 497 
 
 charm, even for strangers. She had beeii au ugly child, but 
 certainly she was a noble-looking, if not handsome woman. To 
 all but the family with whom she resided, she was rather 
 reserved; and while the world admired and eulogized her talents 
 as a writer, she felt that, except Eugene, she had no friends 
 beyond the threshold of the house she lived in. As weeks and 
 months elapsed, and no news of her wandering guardian came, 
 her hope began to pale. For weary years it had burned brightly, 
 but constant disappointment was pressing heavily on her heart, 
 and crushing out the holy spark. The heart-strings will bear 
 rude shocks and sudden rough-handling, but the gradual tight- 
 ening, the unremitted tension of long, tediously-rolling years, 
 will in time accomplish what fierce assaults cannot. Continually 
 she prayed for his return, but, despite her efforts, her faith grew 
 fainter as each month crept by, and her smile became more 
 constrained and joyless. She never spoke of her anxiety, never 
 alluded to him, but pressed her hands over her aching heart and 
 did her work silently nay, cheerfully. 
 
 CHAPTER XL 
 
 THE day was dull, misty and gusty. All the morning there 
 had been a driving southeasterly rain ; but toward noon, there 
 was a lull. The afternoon was heavy and threatening, while 
 armies of flense clouds drifted before the wind. Dr. Asbury had 
 not yet returned from his round of evening visits ; Mrs. Asbury 
 had gone to the Asylum to see a sick child, and Georgia was 
 dining with her husband's mother. Beulah came home from 
 school more than usually fatigued ; one of the assistant teachers 
 was indisposed, and she had done double work to relieve her. 
 She sat before her desk, writing industriously on an article she 
 
498 BEULAII. 
 
 had promised to complete before the end of the week. Her head 
 ached ; the lines grew dim, and she laid aside her manuscript 
 and leaned her face- on her palms. The beautiful lashes lay 
 against her brow, for the eyes were raised to the portrait above 
 her desk, and she gazed up at the faultless features with an ex- 
 pression of sad hopelessness. Years had not filled the void in 
 her heart with other treasures. At this hour it ached with its 
 own desolation, and extending her arms imploringly toward the 
 picture, she exclaimed sorrowfully : 
 
 " my God, how long must I wait ? Oh, how long I" 
 She opened the desk, and taking out a key, left her room, and 
 slowly ascended to the third story. Charon crept up the 
 steps after her. She unlocked the apartment which Mrs. 
 Asbury had given into her charge some time before, and raising 
 one of the windows, looped back the heavy blue curtains which 
 gave a sombre hue to all within. From this elevated position 
 she could see the stormy, sullen waters of the bay breaking 
 against the wharves, and hear their hoarse muttering as they 
 rocked themselves to rest after the scourging of the tempest. 
 Grey clouds hung low, and scudded northward ; everything 
 looked dull and gloomy. She turned from the window and 
 glanced around the room. It was at all times a painful pleasure 
 to come here, and now, particularly, the interior impressed her 
 sadly. Here were the paintings and statues she had long been 
 so familiar with, and here, too, the melodeon which at rare inter- 
 vals she opened. The house was very quiet ; not a sound came 
 up from below ; she raised the lid of the instrument, and played 
 a plaintive prelude. Echoes, seven or eight years old, suddenly 
 fell on her ears ; she had not heard one note of this air since she 
 left Dr. HartwelPs roof. It was a favorite song of his ; a Ger- 
 man hymn he had taught her, and now after seven years she sang 
 it. It was a melancholy air, and as her trembling voice rolled 
 through the house, she seemed to live the old days over again. 
 But the words died away on her lips ; she had over-estimated 
 her strength ; she could not sing it. The marble images around 
 
BEULAH. 499 
 
 her, like ghosts of the past, looked mutely down at her grief. 
 She could not weep ; her eyes were dry, and there was an intol- 
 erable aching at her heart. Just before her stood the Niobe, 
 rigid and woeful ; she put her hands over her eyes, and drooped 
 her face on the melodeon. Gloom and despair crouched at 
 her side, their gaunt bauds tugging at the anchor of hope. The 
 wind rose and howled round the corners of the house ; how fierce 
 it might be on trackless seas, driving lonely barks down to ruin, 
 and strewing the main with ghastly upturned faces. She shud- 
 dered and groaned. It was a dark hour of trial, and she 
 struggled desperately with the phantoms that clustered about 
 her. Then there came other sounds : Charon's shrill, frantic 
 bark and whine of delight. For years she had not heard that 
 peculiar bark, and started up in wonder. On the threshold stood 
 a tall form, with a straw hat drawn down over the features, but 
 Charon's paws were on the shoulders, and his whine of delight 
 ceased not. He fell down at his master's feet and caressed them. 
 Beulah looked an instant, and sprang into the doorway, holding 
 out her arms, with a wild, joyful cry : 
 
 " Come at last ! Oh, thank God ! Come at last P Her face 
 was radiant, her eyes burned, her glowing lips parted. 
 
 Leaning against the door, with his arms crossed over his broad 
 chest, Dr. Hartwell stood, silently regarding her. She came 
 close to him, and her extended arms trembled, still he did not 
 move, did not speak. 
 
 " Oh, I knew you would come ; and, thank God, now you are 
 here. Come home at last !" 
 
 She looked up at him so eagerly ; but he said nothing. She 
 stood an instant irresolute, then threw her arms around his neck, 
 and laid her head on his bosom, clinging closely to him. He 
 did not return the embrace, but looked down at the beaming 
 face, and sighed ; then he put his hand softly on her head, and 
 smoothed the rippling hair. A brilliant smile broke over her 
 features, as she felt the remembered touch of his fingers on her 
 forehead, and she repeated in the low tones of deep gladness : 
 
500 BEULAH. 
 
 " I knew you would come ; oh, sir, I knew you would come 
 back to me !" 
 
 " How did you know it, child ?" he said, for the first time. 
 
 Her heart leaped wildly at the souud of the loved voice she 
 had so longed to hear, and she answered, tremblingly: 
 
 "Because for weary years I have prayed for your return. Oh, 
 only God knows how fervently I prayed ; and he has heard me." 
 
 She felt his strong frame quiver ; he folded his arms about her, 
 clasped her to his heart with a force that almost suffocated her, 
 and bending his head, kissed her passionately. Suddenly his 
 arms relaxed their clasp ; holding her off, he looked at her 
 keenly, and said : 
 
 "Beulah Benton, do you belong to the tyrant Ambition, or do 
 you belong to that tyrant, Guy Hartwell ? Quick, child, decide." 
 
 " I have decided," said she. Her cheeks burned ; her lashes 
 drooped. 
 
 " Well I" 
 
 " Well, if I am to have a tyrant, I believe I prefer belonging 
 to you ?" 
 
 He frowned. She smiled and looked up at him. 
 
 " Beulah, I don't want a grateful wife. Do you understand 
 me?" 
 
 "Yes, sir." 
 
 Just then his eyes rested on the portrait of Creola, which 
 hung opposite. He drew back a step, and she saw the blood 
 leave his lips, as he gazed upon it. Lifting his hand, he said 
 sternly: 
 
 " Ah, what pale spectres that face calls up from the grim, 
 grey ruins of memory! Doubtless you know my miserable his- 
 tory. I married her, thinking I had won her love. She soon 
 undeceived me. We separated. I once asked you to be my 
 wife, and you told me you would rather die. Child, years have 
 not dealt lightly with me since then. I am no longer a young 
 man. Look here." He threw off his hat, and passing his fin- 
 gers through his curling hair, she saw, here and there, streaks of 
 
B E IT L A H . 501 
 
 silver. He watched her as she noted it. She saw, too, how 
 haggard he looked, now that the light fell full on his pale face. 
 The splendid, dark eyes were unaltered, and as they looked 
 down iuto hers, tears gathered on her lashes, her lips trembled, 
 and throwing her arms again round his neck, she laid her face 
 on his shoulder. 
 
 " Beulah, do you cling to me because you love me ? or because 
 you pity me ? or because you are grateful to me for past love 
 and kindness ? Answer me, Beulah." 
 
 "Because you are my all." 
 
 " How long have I been your all ?" 
 
 " Oh, longer than I knew myself I" was the evasive reply. 
 
 He tried to look at her, but she pressed her face close to his 
 shoulder, and would not suffer it. 
 
 "Beulah?" 
 
 " Sir." 
 
 " Oh, don't ' sir' me, child! I want to know the truth, and 
 you will not satisfy me." 
 
 " I have told you the truth." 
 
 " Have you learned that fame is an icy shadow ? that grati- 
 fied ambition cannot make you happy ? Do you love me ?" 
 
 "Yes." 
 
 " Better than teaching school, and writing learned articles ?" 
 
 " Rather better, I believe, sir." 
 
 "Beulah?" 
 
 " Well, sir." 
 
 " You have changed in many things, since we parted, nearly 
 six years ago ?" 
 
 "Yes, I thank God, I am changed. My infidelity was a 
 source of many sorrows; but the clouds have passed from my 
 mind; I have found the truth in holy writ." Now she raised 
 her head, and looked at him very earnestly. 
 
 " Child, does your faith make you happy ?" 
 
 "Yes, the universe could not purchase it," she answered 
 solemnly. 
 
502 BEULAH. 
 
 There was a brief silence. He put both hands on her shoul- 
 ders, and stooping down, kissed her brow. 
 
 " And you prayed for me, Beulah ?" 
 
 "Yes, evening and morning. Prayed that you might be 
 shielded from all dangers, and brought safely home. And there 
 was one other thing, which I prayed for not less fervently than 
 for your return : that God would melt your hard, bitter heart, 
 and give you a knowledge of the truth of the Christian religion. 
 Oh, sir, I thought sometimes that possibly you might die in a 
 far-off land, and then I should see you no more, in time or eter- 
 nity! and oh, the thought nearly drove me wild! My guardian, 
 my all, let me not have prayed in vain." She clasped his hand 
 in hers, and looked up pleadingly into the loved face; and, for 
 the first time in her life, she saw tears glistening in the burning 
 eyes. He said nothing, however; took her face in his hands, 
 and scanned it earnestly, as if reading all that had passed during 
 his long absence. Presently he asked : 
 
 " So you would not marry Lindsay, and go to Congress. Why 
 not ?" 
 
 " Who told you anything about him ?" 
 
 " No matter. Why did not you marry him ?" 
 
 " Because I did not love him/ 7 
 
 " He is a noble hearted, generous man." 
 
 "Yes, very; I do not know his superior." 
 
 " What ?" 
 
 " I mean what I say," said she, firmly. 
 
 He smiled, one of his genial, irresistible smiles; and she smiled 
 also, despite herself. " Give me your hand, Beulah ?" 
 
 She did so very quietly. 
 
 " There is it mine ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir, if you want it." 
 
 " And may I claim it as soon as I choose ?" 
 
 " Yes, sir." 
 
 She had never seen him look as he did then. His face kin- 
 dled, as if in a broad flash of light; the eyes dazzled her, and 
 
B E U L A H . 503 
 
 she turned her face away, as he drew her once more to his 
 bosom, and exclaimed : 
 
 "At last, then, after years of sorrow, and pain, and bitter- 
 ness, I shall be happy in my own home ; shall have a wife, a 
 companion, who loves me for myself alone. Ah, Beulah, my 
 idol, I will make you happy!" 
 
 The rain fell heavily, and it grew dark, for the night came 
 rapidly down. There was a furious ringing of the library bell, 
 the doctor had come home, and, as usual, wanted half a dozen 
 things at once. 
 
 " Have you seen Dr. Asbury ?" 
 
 "No. I came directly to the house; saw no one as I entered; 
 and hearmg the melodeon, followed the sound." 
 
 "What a joyful surprise it will be to him!" said Beulah, clos- 
 ing the window, and locking the melodeon. She led the way 
 down the steps, followed by her guardian and Charon. 
 
 " Suppose you wait awhile in the music-room ? It adjoins the 
 library, and you can see and hear, without being seen," suggested 
 she, with her hand on the bolt of the door. He assented, and 
 stood near the threshold which connected the rooms, while 
 Beulah went into the library. The gas burned brightly, and the 
 doctor sat leaning far back in his arm-chair, with his feet on an 
 ottoman. His wife stood near him, stroking the grey hair from 
 his furrowed brow. 
 
 " Alice, I wish, dear, you would get me an iced lemonade, will 
 you ?" 
 
 " Let me make it for you," said Beulah, coming forward. 
 
 " Not you ! At your peril, you touch it. You are over fond 
 of the sour, miss. Alice knows exactly how to suit me." 
 
 " So you have turned homoeopathist ? take acids to " 
 
 "None of your observations, if you please. Just be good 
 enough to open the shutters, will you ? It is as hot in this 
 room, as if the equator ran between my feet and the wall. 
 Charming weather, eh ? And still more charming prospect, that 
 I shall have to go out into it again before bed-time. One of my 
 
504: B E U L A II . 
 
 delectable patients has taken it into his head to treat his wife 
 and children to a rare show, in the shape of a fit of mania-a- 
 potu ; and ten to one, I shall have to play spectator all night." 
 He yawned as he spoke. 
 
 " You have an arduous time indeed," began Beulah ; but 
 he hastily put in : 
 
 " Oh, of all poor devils, we pill-box gentry do have the 
 hardest times ! I am sick of patients : sick of physic ; sick of 
 the very sound of my own name." 
 
 " If my guardian were only here to relieve " 
 
 " Confound your guardian I Don't mention him in my pre- 
 sence. He is a simpleton. He is what the ' Ettrick Shepherd ; 
 calls a ' Sumph.' You have no guardian, I can tell you that. 
 Before this, he has gone through all the transmigrations of 
 ' Indur/ and the final metempsychosis, gave him to the world a 
 Celestial. Yes, child, a Celestial. I fancy him at this instant; 
 with two long plaits of hair trailing behind him, as, with all the 
 sublime complacency of Celestials, he stalks majestically along, 
 picking tea leaves. Confound your guardian. Mention his 
 name to me again, at the peril of having your board raised." 
 
 " George, what is the matter with you ?" asked his wife, 
 smiling, as she handed him the lemonade he had desired. 
 
 " This prating young woman is, as usual, trying to discourse 
 of Alice, this is just right. Thank you, my dear." He 
 drained the glass, and handed it back. Beulah stood, so that 
 the light shone full on her face. He looked at her a moment, 
 and exclaimed : 
 
 " Come here, child. What ails you ? Why, bless my soul, 
 Beulah, what is the matter ? I never saw the blood in your 
 face before ; and your great solemn eyes seem to be dancing a 
 jig. What ails you, child ?" He grasped her hands eagerly. 
 
 " Nothing ails me ; I am well " 
 
 " I know better 1 Has Charon gone mad and bit you ? Oho! 
 by all the dead gods of Greece, Guy has come home. Where is 
 he ? Where is he ?" 
 
BEULAH. 505 
 
 He sprang up, nearly knocking his wife down, and looked 
 around the room. Dr. Hartwell emerged from the music-room 
 and advanced to meet him. 
 
 " Oh, Guy ! You heathen 1 you Philistine 1 you prodigal !" 
 He bounded over a chair, and locked his arms round the tall 
 form, while his grey head dropped on his friend's shoulder. 
 Beulah stole out quickly, and in the solitude of her own room, 
 fell on her knees, and returned thanks to the God who hears and 
 answers prayer. 
 
 CHAPTER XLI. 
 
 IT was a sparkling August morning one of those rare days, 
 when all nature seems jubilant. The waters of the bay glit- 
 tered like a sheet of molten silver ; the soft southern breeze 
 sang through the tree-tops, and the cloudless sky wore that 
 deep shade of pure blue, which is nowhere so beautiful as in our 
 sunny South. Clad in a dress of spotless white, with her luxu- 
 riant hair braided, and twined with white flowers, Beulah stood 
 beside her window, looking out into the street below. Her 
 hands were clasped tightly over her heart, and on one slender 
 finger blazed a costly diamond, the seal of her betrothal. She 
 was very pale ; now and then her lips quivered, and her lashes 
 were wet with tears. Yet this was her marriage day. She had 
 just risen from her knees, and her countenance told of a 
 troubled heart. She loved her guardian above everything else; 
 knew that, separated from him, life would be a dreary blank to 
 her ; yet, much as she loved him, she could not divest herself of 
 a species of fear, of dread. The thought of being his wife 
 filled her with vague apprehension. He had hastened the mar- 
 riage ; the old place had been thoroughly repaired and refur- 
 
 22 
 
506 BE TIL AH. 
 
 Dished, and this morning she would go home a wife. She 
 clasped her hands over her eyes ; the future looked fearful. 
 She knew the passionate, exacting nature of the man with 
 whose destiny she was about to link her own, and she shrank 
 back, as the image of Creola rose before her. The door opened, 
 and Mrs. Asbury entered, accompanied by Dr. Hartwell. The 
 orphan looked up, and leaned heavily against the window. Mrs. 
 Asbury broke the silence. 
 
 "They are waiting for you, my dear. The minister came 
 some moments ago. The clock has struck ten." 
 
 She handed her a pair of gloves from the table, and stood in 
 the door, waiting for her. Beulah drew them on, and then, with 
 a long breath, glanced at Dr. Hartwell. He looked restless, and 
 she thought sterner, than she had seen him since his return. 
 He was very pale and his lips were compressed firmly. 
 
 "You look frightened, Beulah. You tremble/' said he, 
 drawing her arm through his, and fixing his eyes searchingly on 
 her face. 
 
 41 Yes. Oh, yes. I believe I am frightened," she answered, 
 with a constrained smile. 
 
 She saw his brow darken, and his cheek flush, but he said no 
 more, and led her down to the parlor, where the members of the 
 family were assembled. Claudia and Eugene were also present. 
 The minister met them in the centre of the room ; and there, in 
 the solemn hush, a few questions were answered, a plain band 
 of gold encircled her finger, and the deep tones of the clergy- 
 man pronounced her Guy Hartwell's wife. Eugene took her 
 in his arms and kissed her tenderly, whispering : 
 
 " God bless you, dear sister and friend 1 I sincerely hope that 
 your married life will prove happier than mine." 
 
 Their congratulations wearied her, and she was glad when the 
 carriage came to bear her away. Bidding adieu to her friends, 
 she was handed into the carriage, and Dr. Hartwell took the 
 seat beside her. The ride was short ; neither spoke, and when 
 the door was opened, and she entered the well-remembered 
 
BEULAH. 507 
 
 house, she would gladly have retreated to the greenhouse, and 
 sought solitude to collect her thoughts ; but a hand caught hers, 
 and she soon found herself seated on a sofa in the study. She 
 felt that a pair of eyes were riveted on her face, and suddenly 
 the blood surged into her white cheeks. Her hand lay clasped 
 in his, and her head drooped lower, to avoid his searching gaze. 
 
 " Oh, Beulah ! my wife ! why are you afraid of me ?" 
 
 The low, musical tones caused her heart to thrill strangely ; 
 she made a great effort, and lifted her head. She saw the 
 expression of sorrow that clouded his face ; saw his white brow 
 wrinkle ; and as her eyes fell on the silver threads scattered 
 through his brown hair, there came an instant revolution of feel- 
 ing ; fear vanished ; love reigned supreme. She threw her arms 
 up about his neck, and exclaimed : 
 
 " I am not afraid of you now. May God bless my guardian 1 
 my husband 1" 
 
 Reader, marriage is not the end of life; it is but the beginning 
 of a new course of duties ; but I cannot now follow Beulah. 
 Henceforth, her history is bound up with another's. To save her 
 husband from his unbelief, is the labor of her future life. She 
 had learned to suffer, and to bear patiently ; and though her 
 path looks sunny, and her heart throbs with happy hopes, this 
 one shadow lurks over her home and dims her joys. Weeks and 
 months glided swiftly on. Dr. Hartwell's face lost its stern rigi- 
 dity, and his smile became constantly genial. His wife was his 
 idol ; day by day, his love for her seemed more completely to 
 revolutionize his nature. His cynicism melted insensibly away ; 
 his lips forgot their iron compression ; now and then, his long- 
 forgotten laugh rang through the house. Beulah was conscious 
 of the power she wielded, and trembled lest she failed to employ 
 it properly. One Sabbath afternoon, she sat in her room, with 
 her cheek on her hand, absorbed in earnest thought. Her little 
 Bible lay on her lap, and she was pondering the text she had 
 heard that morning. Charon came and nestled his huge head 
 against her. Presently she heard the quick tramp of hoofs and 
 
508 BEULAH. 
 
 whir of wheels ; and soon after, her husband entered and sat 
 down beside her. 
 
 "What are you thinking of?" said he, passing his hand over 
 her head, carelessly. 
 
 " Thinking of my life of the bygone years of struggle." 
 
 " They are past, and can trouble you no more. ' Let the dead 
 past bury its dead !' " 
 
 " No, my past can never die. I ponder it often, and it does 
 me good ; strengthens me, by keeping me humble. I was just 
 thinking of the dreary, desolate days and nights I passed, search- 
 ing for a true philosophy, and going further astray with every 
 effort. I was so proud of my intellect ; put so much faith in my 
 own powers ; it was no wonder I was so benighted." 
 
 " Where is your old worship of genius ?" asked her husband, 
 watching her curiously. 
 
 " I have not lost it all. I hope I never shall. Human genius 
 has accomplished a vast deal for man's temporal existence. The 
 physical sciences have been wheeled forward in the march of 
 mind, and man's earthly path gemmed with all that a merely 
 sensual nature could desire. But looking aside from these chan- 
 nels, what has it effected for philosophy, that great burden, 
 which constantly recalls the fabled labors of Sisyphus and the 
 Dauaides ? Since the rising of Bethlehem's star, in the cloudy 
 sky of polytheism, what has human genius discovered of God, 
 eternity, destiny ? Metaphysicians build gorgeous cloud pa- 
 laces, but the soul cannot dwell in their cold, nlisty atmosphere. 
 Antiquarians wrangle and write ; Egypt's moldering monuments 
 are raked from their desert graves, and made the theme of scien- 
 tific debate ; but has all this learned disputation contributed one 
 iota to clear the thorny way of strict morality ? Put the Bible 
 out of sight, and how much will human intellect discover con- 
 cerning our origin our ultimate destiny ? In the morning of 
 time, sages handled these vital questions, and died, not one step 
 nearer the truth than when they began. Now, our philosophers 
 struggle, earnestly and honestly, to make plain the same iuscruta- 
 
BEULA1I. 509 
 
 bk- mysteries. Yes, blot out the records of Moses, and we would 
 grope iu starless night ; for notwithstanding the many priceless 
 blessings it has discovered for man, the torch of science will never 
 pierce and illumine the recesses over which Almighty God has 
 hung his veil. Here we see, indeed, as ' through a glass, 
 darkly.' Yet I believe the day is already dawning, when scien- 
 tific data will not only cease to be antagonistic to scriptural 
 accounts, but will deepen the impress of Divinity on the pages 
 of holy writ ; when ' the torch shall be taken out of the hand of 
 the infidel, and set to burn in the temple of the living God ;' 
 when Science and Eeligion shall link hands. I revere the lonely 
 thinkers to whom the world is indebted for its great inventions. 
 I honor the tireless laborers who toil in laboratories ; who sweep 
 midnight skies, in search of new worlds ; who upheave primeval 
 rocks, hunting for footsteps of Deity ; and I believe that every 
 scientific fact will ultimately prove but another lamp, planted 
 along the path which leads to a knowledge of Jehovah 1 Ah ! 
 it is indeed peculiarly the duty of Christians, 'to watch, with 
 reverence and joy, the unveiling of the august brow of Nature, 
 by the hand of Science ; and to be ready to call mankind to a 
 worship ever new I' Human thought subserves many useful, 
 nay, noble ends ; the Creator gave it, as a powerful instrument, 
 to improve man's temporal condition ; but oh, sir, I speak of 
 what I know, when I say : alas, for that soul who forsakes the 
 divine ark, and embarks on the gilded toys of man's invention, 
 hoping to tireast the billows of life, and be anchored safely in the 
 harbor of eternal rest 1 The heathens, ' having no law, are a 
 law unto themselves ;' but for such as deliberately reject the 
 given light, only bitter darkness remains. I know it; for I, too, 
 once groped, wailing for help." 
 
 " Your religion is full of mystery," said her husband, gravely. 
 
 "Yes, of divine mystery. Truly, 'a God comprehended is no 
 God at all 1' Christianity is clear, as to rules of life and duty. 
 There is no mystery left about the directions to man ; yet there 
 is a divine mystery infolding it, which tells of its divine origin, 
 
510 BEULAH. 
 
 and promises a fuller revelation when man is fitted to receive it. 
 If it were not so, we would call it man's invention. You turn 
 from Revelation, because it contains some things you cannot com- 
 prehend ; yet you plunge into a deeper, darker mystery, when 
 you embrace the theory of an eternal, self-existing universe, hav- 
 ing no intelligent creator, yet constantly creating intelligent 
 beings. Sir, can you understand how matter creates mind ?" 
 
 She had laid her Bible on his knee ; her folded hands rested 
 upon it, and her grey eyes, clear and earnest, looked up reve- 
 rently into her husband's noble face. His soft hand ^wandered 
 over her head, and he seemed pondering her words. 
 
 May God aid the wife in her holy work of love. 
 
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