w r ! 1 A^ Al _^_- u. , m ^^^ "T ,■ i ^^^ ^ ^ ^^S X 3 S ^^^ ^ 7 = _^^-» r~ 6 1 ^^^^^ p- 3 = =^= - 1 3 THE LIBRARY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA LOS ANGELES I' *' V- -"^ / t, %'■ l Lay s'hi^/ , 'f_ Mtddle Age: ' and Other Poems, By James Hedderwick, ll.d. WILLIAM BLACKWOOD & SONS, EDINBURGH AND LONDON. 18 89. I HE Volume, entitled 'LAVS OF MIDDLE AGE, and OTHER POEMS,' -was originally published by Messrs. Macnnillan & Co. as far back as 1859. It has long been out of print, and the Author has found occupation for the leisure of his more advanced years in preparing the present Pocket Edition for the press. "While the 'Lays' are largely nnade up of reflections appropriate to 'Middle Age,' they were mainly suggested by incidents or events — personal or public — either occurring when they were written, or remennbered from a prior date. The several interesting decades which have since elapsed have been quite as fruitful of themes inviting poetical treatment, but no attempt has been made to encumber the poem, view^ed in its homogeneous character, with addi- tions in which the standpoint would necessarily have been different. Accordingly, the first and leading section of this little Book is simply a reprint of the work of thirty years ago, with a few trifling emendations. As regards the 'Other Poemis,' a good many alterations have been made. Some have been altogether omitted, and their places supplied by a 918CG1 select number written at various tinnes, although, ■with one exception, previously printed elsewhere. The portion of the Volume thus re-edited has also been differently arranged and grouped; while the Pieces which are new to this edition are, for the guidance of the reader, marked, with an asterisk. It nnay be observed that the work and worry of Journalism, in the midst of which most of the following pages were composed, are unfavourable to any considerable achievement in the field of polite letters. Of this the Author is abundantly, if not painfully conscious. But however far he may have fallen short of his own poetic desires and. ideals, there are, he may be pardoned for stating, sonne things included in this re-issue which have won commendation in very grati- fying quarters ; and he, therefore, ventui-es to express a hope that, in the form in >ArhiGh they are now presented, they may meet with an equally synnpathetie and. perhaps wider welcome. The few pictorial embellishments with which the letter -press is interspersed are from the pencil of a young Scottish artist, Mr. David Gauld. RocKBANK House, Helensburgh, N.B, €ni^%ih. LAYS OF MIDDLE AGE. PAGE PAGE Reconciled, I Too Much we Marvel, 43 The Release, 3 Sunshine and Storm, 45 Thought Pictures, 4 A Brighter Clime, 46 Nature Inexhaustible, 6 Severed, 48 Books, 7 From My fVindow, 49 A Dark Background, 9 Helpless, SI Up the Stream, lO Rich Only, S2 The Inner Life, 12 Whom have I Known ? 54 A Miser's Treasure, 13 Heart-Ache, 55 Cheerfulness in Age, IS Epithalamium, 57 The New Cemetery, i6 In the Street, 58 Once and Again, i8 The Revolt, 60 Hereditary Monarchy, 19 Victory, 61 Passed Away, 21 When ? 63 Confidential, 22 The Resumption, 64 In Vain, 24 Where are the Friends ? 66 Alone, 25 The Inevitable, 67 Genius and Presumption 27 Too Eager, 69 Posthumous, 28 Sabbath in the Country, 70 The Crown of Song, 3° The Grave, 72 War, 31 A Contrast, 73 After the Fight, 33 The Eclipse, 75 Consolation, 34 Poetic Melancholy, 76 The Majority, 36 Under the Waves, 78 Changed Scenes, 37 The New-Year, 79 Aspiration, 39 When I Reflect, 81 Fame, 40 Middle Age, 87 Unwritten Fancies, 42 MISCELLANEOUS. Wailing for the Ship, Sorrow and Song, The Twin Sisters, The Sky-Lark, By the Sea-Side, The Stars, PAGE PAGE hip, 87 In the Night, 102 90 To a Cotuslip, los 92 The Emigrants, 107 95 Shakespeare, 109 98 Household Words, "3 100 Any Man of Himself, 117 First Grief, Home Trial, ELEGIAC. PAGE 123 127 Flo's Photo, Storm and Calm, PACE 134 142 TWO ODES. PAGE Victoria, 149 A Midsummer Day's Dream, 157 Lays of Middle Age: and Other Poejns. LAYS OF MIDDLE AGE. I.—R E CONCILED. Oi UR loved one lay in depth of suffering, And there was suffering in all the rooms, Wide-eyed suspense amid the sickly glooms, And faltering prayers which no relief could bring. We saw the agony we could not ease, As of one drowning in the sight of shore. At length came lessening pain with more disease- Came the calm end — a calm unknown before — A calm rebuke to mortal sorrowing. Lays of Middle Age. Even as in tears we gazed, the silent balm Fell sweet within, for we began to see A preparation in the agony, Until we knew to uplift the grateful psalm, Reading God's mercy in the tortured breast, And thinking all was right when all was still. How could we part with him we loved the best ? But came the calm upon the mighty ill, And we were sadly calm to see him calm. Thoughts of that hour have tuned my soul to know The beauty palaccd in the face of Death. How easeful is the absence of all breath ! How soothed the pulse whose tides have ceased to flow ! Who brands with ' tyrant ' him w ho bears release Up to the martyr's stake, and isles the deep Through all its raging waste with shores of peace ? O angel Death ! that bringest healing sleep To bosoms wounded with a hopeless woe ! Lays of Aliddle Age. II.— The Reiease. L *IKE a world-weary student, free to rove For ease and health by fair poetic streams, To cull the flowers that only grow in dreams, For simple tastes to censure or approve. Would I with grateful heart make sorrow sweet. The fitful blooms which now in pride I twine For thee, dear Friend ! may wither at thy feet: Yet haply may'st thou, in their transient shine. See gleams of beauty through thine eyes of love. No coming darkness striketh needless fears : Yet, looking onward o'er life's glittering meads, I spy a road and wonder where it leads. A chill is wafted from the fleeting years. Great Heaven ! what doom it were to walk alone To the final Mystery ! but hand in hand, \Vith all the generation journeying on. We face with courage due the shadowy land. And scarce would lag behind our marching peers. 4 Lays of Middle Age. And so, best loved ! each sad and gradual trace Our future may reveal of springtime past Will catch a soothing from the splendour cast On Autumn woods. Though each with each keep pace, And age Init mark our long companionship, If mellowing love of mine new joy illume Within thy soul, and crown with smiles thy lip, To my unstraying eyes through life shall bloom A youth of beauty in thy matron face. ///.— Thought Pictures. 1\ OON walks the earth in Summer's sultry pride. Bewildcr'd butterflies of many hues Flatter the flowers to yield their huncy-dews: Where the leaves tremble and the shadows hide Are voices wrestling for the mastery Of fluted melody in feather'd throats: White sails are gleaming on the quiet sea : Along the craggy shore the white gull floats : For clinging odours scarce a breeze can glide. Lays of Middle Age. The tawny herd-boy wields his wand of power O'er nibbled mountain steeps ; nor knows nor thinks How bless 'd his station, nor what golden links Of memory he forgeth hour by hour : The fragrant kine lie languid in the heat : Half hid in leaves and smoke the village dreams : The river glideth at the angler's feet : Child-voices cheer the glade where beauty gleams In many a sunny glint and simple flower. Meet scenes to environ a poetic home ! Ye, from lone impulse of the beautiful, I joy to paint, even under skies made dull By hovering smoke, amid a dreary boom Of city traffic sounding evermore, Happy to feci that round about me lies A world as fresh and splenditl as of yore, Whence come sweet airs like breaths from Paradise, And thoughts like sunbeams gladdening as they come ! Lays of Middle Age. IV.— N A TURE InEXHA USTIBLE. Vv ILED by the charm that lies in measured tones, I grow enamour'd of a patient tune ; Yet lives there now a beauty in the moon, Or any music in the night wind's moans. That has not wrought enchantment many a year ? Seen was the universe with clearer eye, And heard its melodies with finer ear. By generations in the dust that lie. And lo, their laureates on immortal thrones !' Thus mused I wandering in the year's sweet prime, At feud with slavery of commonplace — Seeking how I my casual lay might grace With thoughts new-borrow'd from the l)U(lding-timc. The poet's richest harvest is the Spring. Yet every opening flower I spied was wreathed With some old bard's most gentle fancying, Like the soft incense whicli itself outhrcathed. Oh, wherefore load it witli superfluous rhyme? Lays of Middle Ai::;e. Athwart my dawn of hopes there crept a chill, Like morning frost among the youngling buds ; But when I look'd upon the lands and floods, And the clear azure, arch'd from hill to hill, To win new larks to heaven — that hour there came, Like a rich bride to her adorer's arms, A summer feeling, like a glow of shame, To think how I had wrong'd great Nature's charms, Renew'd and beauteous for the poet still. V.—BOOKS. A. S mong the wondrous growths of some hot clime The traveller pauses, wilder'd with excess Of trackless herbage, plants of gaudy dress, And stately palms — so L through prose and rhyme, Thick as the forest with its drowsy plumes, In vain essay to compass in a life The magic splendours and immortal lilooms Scattered o'er pages as the foliage rife Of smothering summers faint with musk and thyme. Lays of Aliddle Age. What need of more? In the celestial bowers Must new stars blossom? Must the burden'd shore Of the world's continents hunger for more Far-stretchint; wealth of shells? Must vernal hours Alive with birds for richer music pine? WTierefore more books? WTiy dip another pen In the ink that burns by alchemy divine Like Danae's fount, when our tired age of men Is drench'd and flooded with its aureate showers? Ah me ! we wander in a tangled maze. There is no waste. So, let the eternal gold From genius' mint he scatter'd myriadfold: Never a star was launcITil but its tine rays Took some small shade of darkness from the night; The stream that sings imseen among the ferns Bears welcome increase to the ocean's might ; Even the minutest flower the sense discerns Enriches all the breaths of summer days. Lays of Middle Age. VI.— A Dark Background. \J NE said to me, with the meek plea in his face Of faihng health, ' I have a picture, sir, I wish you much to see. ' At secret stir Of sympathy, I sought his dwelling-place WTiere poverty sat bare. From childhood's eyes Yearn 'd looks of age and urged him to fresh toil. The canvas show'd ' A Dream of Paradise,' Fairly conceived, and colonr'd well in oil, With Eve's young blush, and Adam's lofty grace. It was the only sunshine in the room. For all the rays of gladness from around Were gathcr'd in itself. The garden-ground Uewy and prank'd with tlowers of wondrous bloom, The skies cerulean, and the first fine forms Of all humanity, shone like a gleam Of peaceful azure 'mid a rack of storms. Much talk'd he of the beauty of his dream — Much saw I of the sadness of his doom. lo Lays of Middle Age. Some faults the picture had ; but when he roll'cl A paper forth and read — ' A poor attempt, From every sin of genius quite exempt ; ' And added, ' It of course came back unsold,' I had no eyes but for its loveliness, No feeling but of sorrow for the tear That came in witness of his dumb distress. Ah me ! that Paradise so sweet and clear ! The sickly artist and the children old ! VI I. — Up the St re a m. M, USING on aged faces, oft I read Their history backward. Woman ! whom I see Like dry fruit wrinkled, I can trace in thee The maiden beauty that was thine indeed ; Smooth thy scored forehead, and about it braid Soft girlish tresses ; open wide thine eyes ; Round out thy cheeks for artless blushes made; Ruby thy lips to smile at flatteries; And row thy mouth with pearls of native lirced. Lays of Middle Age. 1 1 Thou walk'st as under burdens. \Mio so light In the old century, when thy nimble feet Leapt to untiring violins in the fleet And boisterous country-dance ? Oh age's spite ! Dost frown upon the joys 'twas thine to share ? Thou art grave now ; yet, at Medean touch Of fancy, I can see thee young and fair. In jewell'd splendour, mocking age's crutch, And whirling in the mazes of the night. WTiat rivals once had barter 'd half their gains And all their sleep for thy conceded kiss ! Do these old lips their low-breathed ardours miss, And fondly mumble still of love and chains ? I plump them back to rosebud poutings, bland And beautiful in maidhood, and I own The charms that put a price upon the hand Thou gav'st, in pity of his constant moan, To him, now old, who laughs at love-sick swains ! 1 2 Lays of Middle Age. VIII.— The Inner Life. ± ROM lender thinkings to the eye's fine lid A dew comes sweetly. Unforgotten sights, Escapes of travel, chance-spent glorious nights With those whose memory like a pyramid Is broadly based and higher than all mists. Our daily lot of fortune or of wrong, We tell in fearless prose though the world lists. But all have secrets which, like griefs in song, Disguised are utterM or kept always hid. Some early cross or long-repented sin Cowers in the heart, of daylight eyes afraid; Some life-aim miss'd, or failure bitter made By jeering tongues; some grovelling shame of kin Draining mute drops ; some haunting form and face More precious than the spoils of many books; — All these wc lock as in a secret place The letters of dead loves, for aching looks When clouds of loneliness make gloom within. Lays of Middle Age. 13 But even the silent treasury of the breast, By pride lone-sentinell'd, has a secret spring WTiich lays it open. Music's sorrowing, Through echo of some voice long years at rest, May touch it groping in the tearful dark. Some tale which has a mystery of truth May on a sudden hit the invisible mark. And charm the cloister'd memories of youth To tears which but to weep is to be blest. IX.— A Miser's Treasure. J. N z. small chamber, cobwebb'd 'gainst the sky, WTiere the celestial lights forgotten were. Sat one of juiceless veins, a usurer. Gloating on gold with hungry hand and eye. For him the world had naught of beauty save The yellow shimmer of his counted heaps. Nor music but the chink his guineas gave : These drank he madly in his tortured sleeps, And ever as he drank his life ran dry. 14 J^ays of Middle Age. For him the seasons pattern'd all in vain The joyous fields. In vain for him the streams Made breezy melody. No voice of dreams Came to him from the sea. The russet wain, Ringing through woodland lanes, was naught to him. For him the grove was tuneless, and the skies, Bounteous in showers, were vile. His vision dim Saw not the flowers laugh up with licjuid eyes At balmy whisper of the summer rain. His neighbours wonder'd who might be his heir, They call'd him ' miser,' ' wretch,' ' poor grubbing worm,' ' His mind,' said one, ' is crooked as his form. And more of earth. ' Another envying sware, ' By Heaven ! his very face — his every look Is stamp'd with greed. ' To gibes he was a stone : But from a secret drawer he sometimes took, For tearful gaze when he was quite alone, A fadetl writing and a lock of hair ! Lays of Middle Age. 1 5 X. — C HE EK FULNESS IN AgE. I PASS' D a pleasant evening with Leigh Hunt. The room was squared with books, 'mong which I spied Rows of the Tuscan poets. On each side The fire we sat ; — he, as appear'd his wont, Sipping refreshful draughts of sober tea. Wiry and thin, a figure tall he show'd, Unbent with years. His gray hair lankily Over his ears hung straight. His dark eyes glow'd. He wore the conscious poet in his front. He talk'd with store of happy similes Of his own toils ; of trials all but past ; Of honours coming to his age at last ; Of stubborn heights surmounted Ijy degrees ; Of Keats, love-sicken"d with the beautiful ; Of all poetic sweets on I lybla hived ; Of him whose conquering eye was crown and rule — Kean — how immortal could his art have lived ! To listen well was all my art to please. 1 6 Lays of Middle Age. Some men there are of prompt achieving mind \NTio wait not any gale to waft them on, But move like ships that walk the seas alone, And take its ancient uses from the wind : He, the fine bard of tragic Rimini, Seem'd one of these on that delicious night. I mark'd his soul of native buoyancy, And I was cheer'd from sitting in the light Of his white hairs, and wish'd me of his kind. XL— The New Cemetery. A. S any lawn this burial-place is even. Save the white head-stones with their dates of woe, It yields no sign of those who rest below. To mourning eyes no outward mark is given That the smooth sward holds all the heart regrets. The graves are level as the empty beds That stand at home with unstirr'd coverlets; Or as the prairie-turf the traveller treads Where never spade has delved or [jloughshare driven. Lays of Middle Age. 1 7 Our simple fathers in their church-yards old O'er the loved dead heap'd up the grassy mound, As they would shape the sleeper underground For friends in dewy twilight to behold. O fitting couch for grief to lean upon ! It caught an earlier greeting from the day, A later blessing from the setting sun. Earth's kindly sob it seem'd o'er kindred clay. The heaving turf lay lightly on the mould. But here the callous grass shows no more sorrow Than o'er the drown'd the placid ocean-plain. It swells not up to meet the eyes' sweet rain. What footing may the mounting spirit borrow From this roll'd flat? The dead are blotted out — Buried, and earth no richer — vague their sleep ! We try to trace our own, almost in doubt If they are there. To-day we idly weep, Or faintly murmur of a golden morrow. i8 Lays of Middle Age. XII.— Once and Again. a NCE as I stray 'd a student, happiest then, What time the Summer's garniture was on, Beneath the princely shades of Kensington, A girl I spied whose years might number ten, With full round eyes, and fair soft English face. A liveried lackey upon either side Her palfrey walk'd afoot. With equal pace Follow 'd a mounted dame at distance wide. They thrid the turfy paths scarce seen of men. From the surroundings of the maiden-child I guess'd her Royal state and destiny. Across the gulf which lay 'twixt her and me, In those green alleys where the seasons smiled Alike on both, though fortune most on her, I dared to look, for she came slowly near. Features like hers were radiant otherwhere. Save for her high-bred pallor, calm and clear, She might have bloom 'd a flower on any wild. Lays of Middle Age. 19 Again I saw her. Alter 'd was her mien. A matron flush upon her aspect show'd The high sun flaming on her noonday road. One call'd her wife — some mother — miUions queen ! No more to her the small birds only sang. The fluttering streets, as she went floating past, Were bank'd with people whose hoarse voices rang With loud ' Victorias !' Ah the difference vast ! — The flaring city and those alleys green. XIII. —Heredita k y Mona R CH Y. VV HEREFORE,'' a vain boy ask'd, 'should England A crown hereditary, to be conferr'd [own Perchance on feeble brows?' A sage who heard Thus answer'd — 'Argued well: the great alone Should hold great sway : our king of men should rule. But which were king should twenty kings arise? To know its greatest men the world is dull, And to the loudest yields the largest prize. Whom, witii thy choice, would'st thi>u this hour enthrone?' 20 Lays of Middle Age. The unripe youth exclaim'd — ' Can our brave land Be barren ever of heroic men ? Live they not now, with sword, or tongue, or pen, To prove their mighty title to command?' ' They live,' repHed the sage, ' and in such force, That each, in virtue of his kingly mood. Heading a party fierce with faction's curse. Might covet triumph through his country's blood, Till order came but from a tyrant's hand.' A mild and temper'd rule is England's dower. Won from a wise and stul)born ancestry. What safety for her charter of the free In strong hands trembling with precarious power? Our old inheritance be still our pride. Happy the land where each may rise and shine. From turmoil safe, uncaring to decide Which in the forest is the tallest pine, WTiich in the garden is the fairest flower. Lays of Middle Age. 2t X I V.—P A S S E D A WA V. P. EACE dwells at last with poor Elizabeth, Wife of my trusted friend. The end has come. There is no tremulous voice to call him home ; And yet he goes, and sits alone with Death, Though useless now his tender ministries. There is no fretting at his absence now ; Vet sits he by her side, and sadly tries To gather soothing from her tranquil brow And stony bosom without pulse or breath. The fever'd watching has been all in vain ; The struggle now has ended in defeat : Yet in her aspect is a rest so sweet That were she waked she might again complain. Oh who could wish to wring her human heart With one pang more? But past is every fear: Still'd by the mystery that wouUl not start Although a cannon thunder'd at her ear — Although her little infant cried with pain. 22 Lays of Middle Age. Ah me ! that one so beautiful should die ! Full on her widow'd husband ere she went, Like light within a shatter'd tenement, Linger'd the last love-lustre of her eye. On the vague threshold of the unseen life She paused ; then feebly from her finger took The golden circlet of the mortal wife. Placed it on his, with reassuring look. And wedded him to immortality. XV.— Confidential. Hj IGH rose the noon. I had an hour to spare In Reginald's garden, trimm'd witli niatcliless grace. Warbled that day a spirit in the place, Like music knowing that the flowers were fair ; And I was happy, but my friend was sad. So spake I rallying — ' Thou art out of tune With this sweet Eden and its voices glad ! What wintry cloud should dim his sky of June, Of health and fortune who has ample share ? ' Lays of Middle Age. 23 Sighing, he said — ' A truth which many prove, With me, too slowly fear'd, has come to pass. As perilous for foot as adder's grass Are all the flowery ways of youthful love. ' * .Sad fate,' said I, ' to love in spite of scorn ! ' ' Thou judgest wrong,' cried doleful Reginald : 'Some leagues away a maiden pines forlorn ; Thither to soothe her I am hourly call'd ; Honour cries ' On ! ' and yet I fail to move ! ' More question'd I. At length he thus explain'd ' I have a cousin whom I once adored. Ere yet I left my teens I long implored, Until her girlish troth at last I gain'd By oaths which time has turn'd to perjuries ! Her beauty now is wither'd to my view, But still her heart is faithful to my lies ! As I wax false she weareth doul^ly true : >Her love is torture now that mine has wanc