^fS" Elder Northfield's Home; OR, Sacrificed on the Mormon Altar. A STORY OF THE BLIGHTING CURSE OF POLYGAMY. BY A. JENNIE BARTLETT. NEW YORK: 21 PARK PLACE. 1882. Copyright, 1882, by A. J, SWITZER. PREFACE, Sad as the scenes depicted by the succeeding pages may seem, revolting though they appear to a right-minded community, savoring as they do ot barbarism and superstition, and displaying tyranny and oppression which our so-called free America should blush to tolerate, yet not one representa- tion of the workings of Mornionism and Polygamy has here been given "which has not its parallel in actual life in Utah at the present day. The pollution of the marriage relation, the wife literally giving away (being forced to do so) other so-called wives to her husband, the invasion of her home-happiness by those fiendish attributes — hate and jealousy — the neglect and often cruelty woman must suffer from him who should love, cherish and honor her, by the forcing of young and innocent girls into re- pulsive matrimonial alliances — these are not vagaries of fancy, portrayed to excite the emotion of sensation-loving minds, but facts, which exist in defi- ance of our laws to the contrary in our otherwise glorious republic. This horrible system is said to have had its origin with Joseph Smith, the great founder of Mormonism, and Avas introduced by him as a religious in- stitution, to screen his own wrong-doing from public censure. It was claimed by him to be the direct revelation from God, and as founders of new religions are often believed in by their followers as almost supernatural or infallible, so the followers of this man received his teachings with the unreasoning faith that fanaticism and religious excitement will sometimes produce in even the most well-balanced minds. So polygamy was established as an important doctrine in the religion of the LatteV-Day Saints. The women are taught that only by patiently bearing their cross, submitting to and obeying -their husbands, and advancing his interests, can they hope for happiness in the future life. If the question arises, why are they so simple-minded as to receive, and submit to such teachings? the answer is apparent. They know no other life; they receive no other instruction than that which instills the Mormon religion into their minds. All the influences by which they are surrounded from very infancy, tend toward deceiving them into a belief in their religion. They have been kept ignorant by the authorities lest a culti- vation of the intellect stir up rebellion against their oppressors. For a suc- cessful reign of tyranny and oppression, ignorance in the subjects is a neces- sity. All despotic rulers know this, and as the recent slave-holder of the South allowed the poor African no opportunity to obtain an education, lest he rise up and defy him, as the Roman priesthood discourage any education in the church save a strictly Romish one, lest it loose its power over its vast dominion, so the Mormons look upon education in their subjects as destruc- tive to their institutions. Tliere have always been men and women in the Mormon Church who did not believe in the religion they professed to accept. But though broken- hearted, though stung to madness, though plunged into the deepest despair 938602 ^'^ 4 PREFACE. by tlieir wrongs, yet the possibility of liberatincr themselves from their bond- age scarcH'ly occurred to the women, aixl indeed has not existed many years. If a de^iperate soul sought relief from her troubles in flight from the Terri- tory, she was jmrsued, not by the blood-hound that scented the African refiigee, but by the l)loo(l-hf)un(l in human form, wiio sought to capture her and return her to the miseries of Mormon life. And this was done in the name of religi(jn! The hearts of these women cry out in anguish for deliverance. Their prayers to a merciful Father ascend day and nighr, that his hand will relieve them from the sorrows of their life. They look towards the government with hope for themselves, as each law is passed for the suppressing of polyg- amy. But their hope is turned to despair as they Avitness the inabilityof Congress to enforce the laws it passes, and the successful defiance of the law- breaking citizens of Utah. But they can only suffer in silence. They dare not raise their voice to plead their own cause. More helpless are they than the negro slave, for they are of the weaker sex, and must submit to the j)Ower of physical might. Will our nation suffer this wrong to go oii, to perpetuate itself, to increase and spread as it is rapidly doing now? "Will it at a fearful sacrifice of money and life, by one of the mightiest, grandest movements a nation ever made, abolish one terrible curse to our country, and ignore the existence of its equal, when a comparatively insignificant strutrgle would suffice to exterminate it? Is the freedom of "the black man and his redemption from ignorance to be considered more imperative, more desirable than the freedom of women from the most degrading life a woman can lead? Were the cries of the slave under the lash more jiitiable than are the heart miseries of these women? Were the separation of husband and wife by the stern decrees of the auction block more to be deplored and abol- ished than the constant misery of u polygamic life? Is not this slavery of the West a much more despicable one than that of the South, in that it' is a slavery of defenceless women, a doubly debasing institution, and in that the Borrows of the victims are brought upon them by their own husbands? Again, the slavery of the South, though justified by its" participants, was not adopted a.s a religious ordinance. In Mormondom liearts are wantonly crushed, homes polluted, the basest of wickedness perpetrated, and all in the name of religion. What blasphemy against a just and i)ure God! Where in all the enlightened countries of the globe, can be found so foul a stain, as that whi<;h blackens the otherwise fair fame of our nation? Will our government weakly allow its laws to be trampled under foot and ignore the defiance of a body of men, fast increasing in numbers and influ- ence? Let it attack this great evil with the energy which characterized the putting down of the rebellion and the blotting out of slavery, or even with the same relentless persistence with which the poor Indian"is driven from T.lace to ])lace on his native soil, and polygamy will be a thing of the past, fhen will the United States stand pro'udly' forth, the grandest, noblest nation on the globe. Elder Northfield's Home; OR, SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. CHAPTER I. ^ ^ TTTELL, Marion, here we are ! — trunks packed ; fare- ' » well calls made; passages engaged; tears all shed ; — wish I were sure of the last. how hard I find it to leave my dear home and country, much as I always wished to go to America, and to have a home with aunt Wells ! But you, Marion, seem so very happy. I wonder if I should be in such a delightful frame of mind if I were on the eve of marrying a Mormon elder, and emigrating with him to Zion, as you call it, where the people are all of one faith, the women dress so simply, and think and care for nothing but their religion. I am afraid I should make a poor saint, Marion. I couldn't give away all my fine dresses, jewelry and ornaments, as you have done ; I should keep them, and at least dress in them once in a while, if but to admire myself and not forget how I used to look when I belonged to the world, and I should not want to attend meetings so constantly. This emigrating to Zion seems to me altogether uncalled for. The new people seem to be a (5) 6 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME; OR, very good, religions people, with many good precepts in their doctrine. But there is much in their belief that calls for an amount of faith wliich I am incapable of exercising. I do not see why these other denominations are not quite as likely to tide us safely into heaven as Mormonism, and certainly their ways are much pleasanter." "Ah, Elsie," responded Marion, "you seek to get into heaven by an easy way. 'Straight is the road, narrow is the way, and few there be that find it.' Doesn't Christ say 'follow me,' and was his life here on earth an easy one? Did he not say, ' Thy will, not mine, be done? ' Did he not cast in his lot with the despised and lowly, and should the disciple be above his Master? Are we to expect to wear the crown, if we do not bear the cross, in this life? I am filled with peace and joy, the more so the more sacrifice I make for the kingdom. I never knew such happiness before, and I feel like being just as holy and obedient to God as possible. The greatest pleasure I have now is in attending these meet- ings. The Spirit of God is powerfully manifested, and as you know, many who come to scoff go away converted, or thoughtful at least, and you, Elsie, I think, cannot deny that the power of God is with them, as though they were his chosen people." " Yes, Marion, I must admit the meetings have an influ- ence over me when I am present, and the elders seem to prove all they say from the Bible, and I can't for my life reason their arguments away. But when I am alone I begin to think for myself, and somehow I can't have faith in these divine revelations to Joseph Smith and Brigham Young. I know, as they say, the Bible says ' your young men shall dream dreams, and your old men shall see visions.' I know they say, ' If men were inspired in olden times, why not now? ' Perhaps ^lormonism is the true religion ; but I can't believe that our own dear mother, that dear old aunt Eunice. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 7 that Agnes Ainsworth, who died so s\veetl.y, after living such a good life, and that our minister, and all the good people "\ve know, must be shut out of heaven because they were not gathered into the Church of Latter-Day Saints. Their idea of a new dispensation is not clear to me. But I have not received so many private lectures on the subject as you have, Marion. After so much conversation as you have enjoyed with Elder Northfield, you ought to understand the myste- ries of the doctrine perfectly. O, do not try to hide your blushes ! They are very becoming — or would be if you were not so plainly dressed, and if the effect were heightened by some of the vanities you have discarded and packed in my trunk. It would be but a poor reward for all his devotion, his earnest love-making and missionary zeal, if you did not sympathize with him in his religion, which seems to be a part of himself. But I can't help thinking that he has rather neg- lected me, and that if some of these hours devoted to 3^ou had been spent in preaching to me, he might have been rewarded for the sacrifice by adding another convert to his list." " I wish he had, Elsie ; indeed I do." " Well, but you did not seem to wish so then, Marion." " I will not be so selfish any more, and I will ask him on the voyage to teach you, and explain all these things, for some- how I am not good at explaining them myself, though they are so clear to me as Henry expounds to me the doctrine." " God grant, dear sister, that you may always be as happy in your religion as you are now ! I never thought we should be separated, but I cannot go with you to Utah, for I am not a Mormon — unless Henry converts me on the way, and I fancy his bride will have most of his attention, as she has heretofore." " 0, I pray you may yet see the light and go with me ! The separation from you is the only cloud in my sky. -With you and Henry, I should be happy anywhere ! " 8 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, "IMarion, forgive mc if I say nnytliing to grieve 3'on, but to-morrow I give you to Henry; and this is our last confi- dential talk while you are mine, and perhaps for a great ■while, for we shall scarcely be alone hereafter, and some- thing tells me our old confidence will not be the same after you are married, so I want to tell you all my thoughts to- night. Are you sure that your happiness, peace, and joy come from this heavenly love entirely ? I observe that "when Henr}^ is the speaker in the meetings you are aroused to much more enthusiasm for your religion than at other times. Now might you not mistake your happiness, and love for him, and your interest in everything that interests him, your sympathy with him in all he thinks and believes, for religious devotion ? Are you sure you know your own heart, Marion? " " 0, sister, how can^'€)U ask me ? " "I did not mean to pain you, but I feared your religion alone might not always give you such peace. I hope, with all my soul, it will. It is very beautiful to think so." "I know it will, Elsie! I love Henry, O, so much! You cannot think how much. I love him even more than I love you, Elsie! but I truly believe I love God and my religion more. Plenry himself has taught me that ' whosoever leaveth not father and mother, sister and brother, huslmnd and wife, for God and the gospel, is not wortliy to be reck- oned a saint.' I think — yes, I think — I would leave them all if God required the sacrifice." "Then, Marion, dear, I did you injustice in my thoughts, and with all my heart I hope, in your new life, you will be, ,as you seem now, perfectly happy." " Except for the thought of leaving 3'ou behind ; and one other thing which of course it is very silly to mention, or to be troubled with. But I will open my heart to you, as you have to me, on this last night we may be alone together. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 9 Of course it cannot be true — it must be a scandal — the report we heard of some of the saints in Utah having more than one wife. But once in a while — only once in a great while — my heart suddenly sinks, so that it seems as if I should faint, and the thought of that report flashes into my mind, and I dismiss it as suddenly. Then I am all right again. I have talked with Henry about it, and he says it is a foul slander against the church of God. That always God's chosen people have suffered persecution for righteous- ness sake, and he quoted the words, ' Blessed are ye when men shall revile you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely for my name's sake.' Henry does not in the least believe that, or any other wickedness is sanctioned there. You know the saints are not popular, and many are poor, and public opinion is against them. But in the Celestial Kingdom, they will have honor enough to compensate for all their trials here. Henry says if he for a moment sup- posed that this rumor was true, he never could believe in Mormonism. When we were in London, at the conference, we went together and asked an elder from Utah, and he was astonished and indignant, and denied it positivel3^ So of course there can be no truth in the rumor, and I feel that it is wicked to even think of such an unholy thing. I resolve never to think of it again, but still the thought comes like a bUick shadow across my path. Now, Elsie, can it be pos- sible, do you think, that such a thing is practised there?" " Of course it cannot be, Marion ! I do not for one mo- ment doubt the elder's word. I wonder you even think of it at all — though the possibility of such a thing would be terrible to 5^ou, of course, as you are to be a Mormon elder's wife. These men are good, moral men, I do not doubt in the least, however mistaken they may be in their belief, and as they study the Bible, and take everything so literally, they would be the last to disregard its plain teachings on 10 ELDER XORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, that subject. Wh}^ ! only tlie vilest of men could be guilt}' of such a crime, and certainly these Mormons we have seen are hitelligent, noble-minded men. Your own promised husband is a man of whom a woman might well be proud, Marion. I respect him as I respect few men, and admire his kind- heartedness, his intellect, his untiring zeal for ' the truth,' as he calls it, and think it is very noble of him to sacrifice his position and fine prospects as he did, for what he deemed his duty, and cast in his lot with this people. If I must lose my sister, I could not have chosen better for her. But O, if he were not a Mormon, and would not take you away from me to that wild and far away place ! Marion, darling I when shall I ever see you again after you leave me in New York!" "Come with me, Elsie! 0, that you might be persuaded to give up all for religion ! You would be so much happier ! See how I am changed— naturally not light-hearted like you, rather inclined to sad, morbid feelings; but they are all gone, and now I am much the happier of the two. Cast away your doubts and go with me to Utah, and you Avill then see and know for yourself the beauties of religion, I do believe. O, my dear sister, w^on't you — won't you come with us?" " I can't, Marion, I can't ! I shiver at the thought, though why I don't know ! " Then these twin sisters mingled their tears in silence, and their hearts were knit together in the purest and strongest of sisterly love. Made orphans two years before, by the death of a kind and loving father, they became more dear to each other in their common sorrow, and were one, in heart and soul, as sisters seldom are. Reared in comfort in a happy home in England, and with no care or thought of poverty, it was a great change to find with their father's death, they were nearly penniless. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 11 Charles Wescott fully lived up to his income, and in- dulged himself and daughters to many luxuries and extrav- agances which were usually confined to people in a higher grade of social life. He literally took " no thought for the morrow," and his young and sorrowful daughters found that they were dependent on their own exertions for their daily bread. Elsie obtained a situation as teacher in the public schools, and Marion was kindly employed by her friends to teach music to their children. Recently a sister of their mother (who died during their infancy) had written to them from her home in New York, begging them to come to her, as she had just lost by death her only daughter, and her elegant home was desolate and lonely. They resolved to go, as soon as they could properly conclude their engage- ments. Meanwhile a crisis came in one life at least. They had heard of the Mormons, or Latter-Day Saints, and their curiosity was excited. One day as they returned from their labors to their boarding-place, and entered the parlor, they found there a gentleman, plainly dressed in black, bending over a large Bible lying open on the table. As he rose and apologized for his presence, and begged them to remain, he displayed a fine form, and handsome, thought- ful face. His eyes, large, dark, and full of a pleasant light, seemed to look beyond the surface, into the inner life. His forehead, high and intellectual, was shaded by soft w^avy black hair, and as his lips parted in a smile, they disclosed the whitest and firmest of teeth. Soon he was on pleasant terms with his new friends, talking with them familiarly. As Elsie saw Marion's eyes light up, and her cheeks glow with enthusiasm, she did not fail to notice the glances of admiration the gentleman bestowed on her. At his request Marion seated herself at the piano. Her golden hair would stray from its fastenings, and peep out in little rings about her neck and forehead. Her color came and w^ent and con- 12 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME stantly changed lier face from the paleness of marble to the loveliest pink. Pier sky-blue eyes glanced shyly up as she spoke. Elsie came near, with her auburn hair and fair, piquant face, her large brown eyes beaming with love and pride in Marion's accomplishment. Their new acquaintance joined them in their songs and displayed much musical talent. Thus the hour before tea rapidly passed, and then Mrs. Newton, the lady of the house, appeared and intro- duced the new-comer as Elder Northfield. Great w^as the surprise of Marion and Elsie to learn that their new ac- quaintance was a Mormon elder, and that lie was to hold a meeting that evening in a small hall. They resolved to attend. Mrs. Newton accompanied them. There were as- Bembled only a few people, for the pastors of the churches were universally opposed to the new movement and had warned their flocks against it. The young elder, after an earnest prayer, in a clear and attractive way proclaimed the doctrines of his belief, and, with Bible in hand, proved every assertion from its pages. Verse after verse, chapter after chapter, he readily turned to or repeated, until it seemed that they were listening, not to his words, but to the words of the Bible brought forth in a new light, and by one filled with inspiration from on high. His eloquence and earnest- ness increased as he proceeded, till his flice was transformed and his eyes were filled with what seemed a heavenly light. His words carried more or less of conviction to every heart. The deepest silence reigned. All eyes were riveted on the speaker, and breathlessly they listened to his closing appeal to cast away their sins, enter the true Church of God, and enjoy that wonderful abiding peace — the fullness of joy. He ofi'c'rcd a sliort prayer, appointed another meeting, and gave out a closing iiynm, wiiich was sung by the whole congre- gation. As Marion listened to his voice among the others, its sweetness thrilled her through and through, and she felt SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 13 that to cast her life in with such a people, to be filled with the same holy joy with which this man was blessed was then her greatest desire. The meetings continued and increased in size and interest, in spite of the efforts to oppose them. Marion became a con- vert to the new faith. Mrs. Newton also cast her lot with the saints, and Elsie attended the meetings faithfully with her sister, but she did not come into the faith. The elder, Marion, and Mrs. Newton, who, with Elsie, then comprised the family, labored with her, to bring her into the church, a saved and happy member. All to no purpose, however. She resisted all their arguments and earnest appeals, and failed to have faith in the divine revelations. This was a cause of grief to Marion, and also to her sister, who had heretofore never essentially disagreed with Marion. Soon the admiring glances, and slight attentions of the elder, to the golden-haired Marion, gave place to long con- versations and quiet walks, and often Elsie would miss her sister, who would return and blushingl}'' confess that the elder had been explaining to her more fully some points in the doctrine ; or that the elder had asked her to walk with him, and she had just returned. At length Marion confided to her sister that Elder Northfield had asked her to be his wife, and that she had promised him, and they were to be married and emigrate to Zion as soon as he should be per- mitted to leave the missionary work in other hands. She earnestly pleaded with her sister to accompany her, but Elsie sorrowfully refused, and said she would go with them to New York, and there remain with her aunt. There were a number of Mormons — elders and converts — on board the sailing-vessel, besides Elder Northfield and his bride, who, with Elsie, had left the shores of their native England, and were sailing across the ocean to America. Elsie's predictions were fulfilled as to the elder's devotion 14 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, to Marion on the voyage, to tlie exclusion of everything else, save always his religion. He evidently had given up all attempts to convert her to the new faith, and slie was glad, for she was secretly wearied with it, and regarded it as very annoying to herself, and as being the cause of her separation from her sister, who w^ould leave her soon among perfect strangers with not one face near her on which she had ever looked before. Elsie's heart was very heavy at times, and all Marion's cheerfulness and joy could not dispel the gloom. She watched her sister and her husband, in their relations with each other, with an anxious mother interest, to assure herself that Marion's fond anticipations were realized. She was satisfied. Elder Northfield was by his wife's side almost constantly, except when engaged in conversation with the elders, some of whom were from Salt Lake City, and now returning, after having converted many to the new faith who were about to emigrate in great numbers to Utah. Elsie soon conceived a great dislike for one elder on account of a foolish infatuation he did not attempt to conceal, for a pretty girl who was young enough to have been his daughter. Marion had not noticed this, for her own love affairs had so engrossed her attention, and she had the most unbounded faith in all the elders, and in Elder Parker especially, as he was directly from Zion and had lived on intimate terms with Brigham Young himself. She was one day talking of the elders to Elsie and casually spoke of Elder Parker's wife. '' Elder Parker's wife, Marion ! Has Elder Parker a wife ? " " Certainly, and five children. Why do you seem so as- tonished? I see. You think strange of his leaving her to come to England and preach the gospel. Think of the sacrifice it must have been for him to leave her and his little ones, of whom they say he is very fond. I am told that his wife, who is very devoted to him, even urged him to accept the mission, and accounted herself happy and SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 15 honored in giving him up for the church. O, Elsie ! Could I ever be willing to part with my Henr}^ if it were my duty! I fear I am not submissive enough, but hope I shall become willing to do, or be anything in God's hands, when I am fairly within the fold in Zion. But speaking of Elder Parker, now how happy his family will be made by his arrival. I quite like to think of it, and imagine the meet- ing between him and his wife." Elsie thought she would not like to imagine or witness a meeting between him and his wife at that moment, for on deck the lovers were standing, hand in hand, and at the elder's whispered words the color came into the' girl's face and then left her quite composed. She did not directly answer Marion, but from that time she began to lose faith in the goodness of the Utah Mormons, though she still be- lieved her countrymen and women were honest and sincere, though they might have been deceived. Marion's husband she believed was a good man. He had become converted and joined the saints in England, and on account of his talents and zeal, hM been ordained elder, and had acted efficiently in that capacity. He believed in his religion as devoutly as he did in his Marion. He loved it as he did Marion. He endeavored to conscientiously obey every word of counsel, from those above him in the church. He de- voutly believed all they taught, and accepted their teach- ings as being the revealed will of God to man. El-sie began to notice a cloud on his brow, and a sorrow- ful glance occasionally at Marion, when the latter did not observe him. She saw him holding a great deal of very earnest conversation with the elders, and by his appearance he was antagonistic to all the others. They appeared to change the subject as Marion approached her husband, and he lovingly took her arm in his. Jealously watching every- thing likely to affect Marion, it made her uneasy. Marion 16 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, at last seemed to notice a change in her husband, or in his ways, and said to Elsie, " I wish Henry would not talk with the elders quite so much, though I fear it is wrong for me to wish that. I am so selfish that I want him with me all the time. Of course it is right that he should learn all he can from them and talk with them a great deal. I am glad he is so devoted to his religion." A day or two later she said to Elsie : " Elsie, do 3'ou know what the word polygamy means? I went up to the group of elders to speak to Henry, and I heard the word polygamy uttered two or three times, and then something about Abraham and the olden time, and that was all I heard, for they noticed me then and stopped talking. Henry did not leave them and join me as he often does ; but they asked me to be seated with them, and although I would like to have stayed with my husband, I saw that I was inter- rupting their conversation, so I came away. I will ask Henry when he comes what they were talking about. Have you any idea, Elsie, what the word polygamy means ? " "I am sure I cannot tell you, Marion, its meaning. Probably it is one of the terms peculiar to the Mormon faith, like many others that are not common among the ' world's people.' " Elsie's heart was filled with terrible forebodings, as what she saw and heard recalled the old scandal concerning the saints in Utah. She had some idea of the meaning of the word, but would not needlessly alarm Marion by telling her fears. O why had she been so sure there was no truth in the report! Why had she quieted Marion's fears, which might have been fostered and prevented her marriage and emigration ! Why had she — so faithless as regarded their doctrines — trusted implicitly in their goodness and morality ! Why had she not remained away from their meetings and kept Marion away ! No, that would have been impossible. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 17 Marion would have followed Elder Northfield anywhere. His influence was stronger than hers. Since he looked at her with those fascinating eyes, Marion had become another person. Elsie mourned that her sister was lost to her, and looked with dread upon Marion's future. Then she tried to reason away her fears and believe all was well. She told herself no religious society could be so degraded in this en- lightened age as to adopt such a practice. The United States Government would not allow it, of course. And Elsie nearly persuaded herself that her fears were groundless. When Marion was alone with her husband, she asked him what the elders meant by the word polygamy, and of what they were speaking, and why they so suddenly stopped at her approach. A look of annoyance and sadness came upon Elder Northfield's face, and his only answer was to caress his young wife. She repeated her question. "Ask me to- morrow, Marion," he said. " But, Henry, cannot you tell me now ? " and the blue eyes were filled with the tears that had been gathering all day. " No, dearest, I can't tell you now. You love me enough to wait for my answer, I know." " Yes, Henry, but it is strange you cannot tell me now. Is it something dreadful? You look so strange. Is it — is it—" " Come, Marion, let us join Elsie now and think of some- thing else." The next day Marion came to Elsie, with weary step and faltering lips. Her face had lost all its happiness— her eye all its brightness. Pale and sad, she laid her head on Elsie's shoulder, and after a deep sigh she said : " I came to tell you, Elsie, that I have found out what the word polygamy means." " Have you ? " said Elsie. " I have found out, too, my poor child ! And what are you going to do about it? " 2 18 ELDER XORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, "Do? What can I do, Elsie? There is nothing that I can do ; but ! thank heaven ! /shall never know by expe- rience what it means. My dear, dear Henry ! He will be true to me, and me alone." " How can you be sure of that? " " I have his word, and he never broke it, and I trust him '- but I will tell you all about it. O, I am so miserable, to think that the religion I have loved so well has proved to have such a terrible curse attached to it! Just think of it! Henry tells me that the saints (are they saints or are they sinners ?) have as many wives as they please and can sup- port, and the more they have, the more honor to them in the Celestial Kingdom. Even Elder Parker, whom I have esteemed so highly, has three wives at home, and on arriving at Salt Lake City will take another, the pretty young En-Hsh girl you and I have seen with him on deck. Elsie, I think this is terrible! My faith in everything about Mormonism is shaken now — and I did so love my religion. I thought they were all so good, and Henry did, too. He never be- lieved in polygamy being a doctrine of the saints. They always denied it to him, and since we have been on board this vessel, the elders have faithfully labored with him, to convince him that it is right. At first he was shocked. But ! Elsie ! Here comes the worst trial of all ! I can see that gradually they are influencing him and weakening his scruples. He places such implicit trust in all the higher authorities, and iu their divine inspirations, that he has hitherto accepted anything that they have taught him. They are now working hard to prove to him that plural marriages are ordained of heaven. They are very skilful, and talk about Abraham and all the men in the old Bible times having more than one wife and being blessed of God. They say this new dispensation is to resemble the old one, and Henry is going to get a copy of the revelation, and we SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 19 are to peruse it together. He believes all the other doctrines just as firmly as ever, while 1 begin to feel doubtful of cvery- thino:, just as you always have. He does not yet believe in polygamy, but says they make it look so plausible that he cannot answer their arguments. He dreaded to tell me, be- cause he knew of my horror at the thought, before we left England, but he assured me with the strongest of promises that never would he enter into polygamy, and I should be his only wife. He cared not for so high a place in the king- dom, if I only were at his side. The plural wife system is as utterly repugnant to his feelings as it is to mine, and although others may be justified in it, he never could. He thinks they are in error, and will see their wrong; but they tell him when he has read the revelation, he will be fully convinced. Now, it looks to me like wickedness, instead of error. I can look at it in no other way, and the whole of this belief that did look so bright to me now looks dark. I thought he would leave the Mormons if this were true, but I see he has no thought of it. He believes they are in the main right at least. O! now I dread to enter Zion as much as I did desire to do so ! To live in the midst of polygamy, though I know I never shall enter it! I have perfect faith that Henry will always be mine alone, or my heart would surely break. Those poor women ! Though they say it is part of their religion, and they are contented and happy, as they consider it tlie will of heaven, and they submit, and God blesses them. O! I never could submit — never! if I knew I should not enter heaven ! O ! Elsie ! Elsie ! How little I thought when I left my home, such a ha^ipy bride, that I should so soon be so miserable ! " And Marion laid her head in Elsie's lap, and sobbed, while Elsie stroked her golden head, and called her by the many endearing names she had been wont in their girlhood days. " Marion," said Elsie, when the storm of grief was 20 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, over, and the tearful eyes and bowed head were at last raised, "Marion, you must not go to Salt Lake City! You must never live in the midst of such w-ickedness and misery. There can be no happiness for my darling sister there." " Elsie, you forget that I am married, and that where my husband goes, I must go. Where he goes, I want to go, and in his hands lies our future," Marion answered with some spirit. " Your husband must not go to Utah. He must not take you away from me, to a place where you W'ill be unhappy. I could give you up if I felt sure your own life would be the peaceful one you have thought it would. But to go now, Marion — no, Elder Northfield must not take his bride to any but a happy home. Persuade him to remain in New York. He can easily find employment there. Plead with him not to go to Utah. Use all your influence — and it is great, Marion — to persuade him to give up his project of emigrating to Zion. He loves you too much, I do believe, to refuse your earnest entreaties." " No, Elsie," sadly answered Marion, " you are wrong. I did not think I would tell you, but I will. I did ask him not to go to Utah, but to remain in New York, and though he did not positively refuse me, I can see that he considers it our duty to go on, and duty to him is law. Much as he loves me, I believe he loves his religion better, and it grieves him to see me so sad, especially after his repeated promises not to bring sorrow to my heart. So I will not trouble him more than need be, for this has been a trial to him, too. I mean to go with him clieerfully, and after a little, I dare say I shall become quite contented again, and perhaps when I know more of Mormon life, it will appear less repugnant to me. Certainly my own home mny always be a happy one, and if other women are not made miserable by polygamy, SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 21 why should I make myself miserable by my sympathy for them ? " " 0, " thought Elsie, " that I could have Marion's confi- dence in her husband. Oh, that I could feel sure as she does, that her husband never will bring sorrow to her heart. He means all he says, no doubt, now, but in the coming 3'ears, in the midst of Mormon influence, and with all his faith in Mormon teachings, will he still be true to my darhng? 0, why did I not see all this and prevent it?" It was this dark foreboding, this unspoken dread, that caused Elsie to resolve to prevent her sister from ever arriv- ing; at her intended destination* With this resolution she sought an opportunity to con- vince her brother-in-law of the imhappiness he was bring- ing to his wife. Believing that Marion had not allowed him to know the intensity of her disappointment and sorrow, she felt sure his heart would be easily touched by a plea for her, and he might be persuaded for her sake to abandon his purpose of spending his life in Utah. But Elsie was the one person with whom Elder Northfield did not care to be left tete-d-tete. He avoided her clear, penetrating eyes, and shrunk from the scorn with which he knew she would treat the new doctrine. Uneasy and dissatisfied himself, and un- comfortable at the thought of his young wife's sadness, he did not wish to be made more so by Elsie's sharp arguments or appeals, so he took good care not to be alone with her during the few remaining days of the voyage. This she ob- served, but consoled herself by thinking that when they ar- rived at New York, where all the Mormons on board were to remain for a few days, until the arrival of the next emigrant vessel, and then journey together to Utah — there at her aunt's he could not so easily avoid her. In this, also, she was to be disappointed. 22 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, CHAPTER II. THE voyage had been a tiresome one, as all voyages were in the days of slow sailing vessels, and now as they were Hearing land, a general cheerfulness pervaded the whole ship. Anticipations of meeting friends, excitement of life in a new countr\^, and last visits with acquaintances formed on the voyage, caused a lively, pleasant excitement, quite in con- trast with the former monotony on board. Elder Parker and his infatuated English girl were rapturously happy, and were thinking of celebrating their marriage immediately after their arrival in New York. All the Mormon elders were very jovial now (save, perhaps, Elder Northfield), and even Elsie and Marion had regained some of their former good spirits, and were anticipating much pleasure in spending some days together with their aunt and seeing the attrac- tions of the great American metropolis. But one day Elder Northfield came to his wife, saying, " Marion, I have made excellent arrangements for our accommodations on our ar- rival in New York, close by the Mormon boarding-house and publishing rooms. Tliere is no room for us at the boarding- house, but Elder Crosby promises to secure us board in a private Mormon family, near where he is to board, and where Elder Parker will take Carrie w'hen she becomes his wife." " 0, Henry, I never for a moment supposed we would go anywhere except to my aunt's. She expects us and will be very much disappointed if we do not go to her home. And Elsie will be there — and — and — I thoudit — " Marion's SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 23 voice failed her, and her e5^es filled with tears. This new trial was too much for her composure. " Why, Marion, I thought you would be pleased with the arrangement, and supposed you expected to give up all Gen- tile associations. You know, dear, we are to give up the world. You have sacrificed all for religion, haven't you, Marion, and cast in your lot with mine ? And the elders all very much disapprove of associating with the world's people, and we cannot directly disobey counsel. Besides, I think in your state of mind, you are much better off entirely away from all Gentile influence. I am sure you will be quite contented there. The elders say it is a very pleasant boarding-place. We will look over the city together, and cannot my darling be happy with me? Marion, I am quite jealous of Elsie. I did think you loved me more than any one else, but if Elsie is necessary to your happiness, what can I infer from that?" " nothing, Henry, only that I am to go so far away from her, and perhaps never see her again, and you know she is so very dear to me, and we never have been separated. I do love you best. O, please do not doubt that, and I wdll will- ingly go wherever you think best. But it is a disappoint- ment to me, for we should have such a pleasant visit alto- gether at my aunt's ; but as you say I am perhaps better away from such influence, for I am so in doubt about the doctrines that it would require but little to take away all my faith. As I am to be a Mormon, I shall be happier in be- lieving in Mormonism than in rebellion against its teachings. Henry, believe that I do love you with my whole heart, and where you go I will go." For reply her husband tenderly drew her to him and pressed a kiss upon her lips. " But, Henry," Marion resumed, " I wish Elder Parker and Carrie were not going to be near us. Somehow I feel such a 24 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, disgust for that man. And that pretty girl who seems so happy and so perfectly trustful in the future — how I pity her — to be a man's fourth wife ! All living wives, too. She cannot know what she is doing. She must be a weak- minded person, it seems to me, to ever become resigned, and even happy in contemplation of the future." " Perhaps, Marion, she is wiser than you in accejDting the doctrine so implicitly. It may be no other Mormon woman looks at polygamy with the horror you have of it. They tell me the women of Utah are happy and contented in their life and religion, and I hope my wife will become again the trustful, happy believer in the faith that she was before this revelation was made known to us." " My fiiith may come back to me as I once believed, but never 1 never ! can I believe in polygamy or accept it as from God. But it is not necessary for me to believe in that, Henry, because we are never to know personally what it is." "No, darling; no other shall ever enter my home or my heart. You are the only one I shall ever call ' wife.' " It was on one of the sunniest mornings of early spring that an elegant private carriage w^as driven up to one of the New York hotels and a sad-faced lady, clad in the deepest of mourning, alighted and entered the house. After search- ing the register, with a dissatisfied look, she requested to be shown to the room of Miss Elsie Wescott. Just as she reached the door, it opened, and standing just within stood Marion. She had regained much of her former sprightliness in the excitement of her arrival, and some remark of Elsie's had caused a smile to light her whole face ; her hair was allowed to fall in wavy masses down her shoulders, and a ray of sunlight made it sparkle and shine like burnished gold. Each stood gazing at the other for a few seconds, when the elder lady exclaimed : " I know this is Marion !" SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 25 "And I know this is aunt Wells ! Elsie! Elsie! Aunt has found us before we have had time to find her." And the sad-faced lady, after lavishing kisses and caresses on the two, took one face between her hands and said : " You, Marion, are like your mother, my dear sister Marion, as I last saw her, and you, Elsie," as she gently caressed Elsie's auburn hair, " are like my own dear Lillian, who has left my heart so desolate, and who now lies by her father's side. How I shall love you both, and how I thank God for sending you to me in my loneliness. I should not have waited till to-day had I known of the arrival of your vessel yesterday. I was very fortunate in finding out your hotel — but we will not talk any more here, for I shall have you in my own home presently, and your own home, too, it must be. And ! my darlings ! I do hope you may be so happy there that you will not leave it for many years. Kow, how soon can you be ready to go with me? You are mine now. Tell me that it is so, Elsie — Marion." " I will be yours, ! so gladly, aunt," said Elsie ; ^' but Marion belongs to another. She is spending this morning with me in this my room ; but her husband is coming to take her away in a few hours, and my twin-sister is soon to be separated from me, perhaps forever." " ! Marion ! Is this true ? And you are so young to be a wife! Why did you not tell me and spare me this disap- pointment ? " " I did not know it myself for a certainty the last time I wrote you, and then afterwards I thought I would rather tell you than write it. I scarcely realize all that has passed myself." And Marion spoke truly. It seemed to her that all things had so changed since the day she first met Elder Northfield that years, instead of a few short months, must have passed. 26 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME '' But tell me of your husband and what this separation means. What is your new name?" " I am Marion Northlield noAV, aunt Wells, and my hus- band is — is — " O how Elsie pitied her sister, as she saw how she dreaded to utter the word Mormon. Marion seemed to choke, and her eyes sank beneath the gaze of her aunt. Elsie longed to help her, but was silent. " My husband is a Mormon elder, and we are on our way to Salt Lake City," Marion answered. " Marion ! You the wife of a Mormon elder ! Elsie, tell me, can that be true! My sister's child a victim of that greatest curse and blight of our country, not even excepting slavery !" " Yes, aunt, it is too true," said Elsie, " and Marion is soon to be in the midst of it." " No, never, if I can save her ! Child, you must never go to Salt Lake City ! You must never leave me ! You poor de- luded girl ! Would you ruin your life ? Would you be for- ever miserable in polygamy ? " " No, aunt Wells, polygamy will never make me misera- ble, except as I may sympathize with others if I see them suffering from it. My husband will never enter into it. He dislikes it as much as I do, and only on our vo3"age from England did we learn that it was one of the doctrines of the saints. I have his most solemn assurance that never will he take another wife while I live, and I know he will be true to me and his word. I shall go on with him to Salt Lake City, aunt Wells. He considers it his duty to go there, and it is my duty to go with him and also my desire." Mrs. Wells was astonished at the change so suddenly come over Marion, as she answered her with so much wounded dignit)\ Her blue eyes, so mild and timid a moment before, now flashed with resentment at her aunt's imjDlied scorn for SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 27 her husband and his religion. Her slight figure was drawn up to its utmost height as she tried to control her anger. " Forgive me, Marion, for having offended you ; but, my dear, let me tell you what I know. I know other young, trusting wives, who were as sure of their husband's fidelity as you are of yours, and I know how cruelly they have been deceived. One of my dearest friends — my little Lillian's governess — married a Mormon elder, who promised with all a lover's w^armth and enthusiasm as your husband has promised. That man has broken his vow and his young wife's heart by marrying two more wives since he arrived at Salt Lake City. She lives utterly neglected, I have heard, wdth her two little ones, a few miles from the city, striving by every means to keep herself and babes from starving, and yet she was as young and, perhaps, as fair as you are. That man is Elder Parker. Do you wonder at the horror I have of seeing my sister's child — her own image — exposed to such sorrow? Do you wonder that I have no confidence in the promises of a Mormon ? " Marion had sank into a chair and looked so miserable and frightened that her aunt's heart ached for her. " My dear, I would not torture you with my fears — I grieve to do it — but you know less of Mormonism, probably, than I do, although you are a Mormon yourself. You know little of the influence that will be brought to bear upon your husband when directly under Brigham Young's con- trol. You know not how almost impossible it is for a man to withstand the constant commands and counsels to marry again. No doubt, Marion, your husband is sincere now, but in the years to come, when the roses have faded from your cheeks, and the sparkle gone from your eye, when lines of care and sorrow have come into your face, will he be more true than every other man just as honorable and sincere as he now is?" 28 ELDER NORTHFIELd's HOME ; OR, " Yes, I believe he will, and I cannot bear that you should ppeak so of him. Please do not any more. I see no reason for your trying to destroy my fiiith in my husband. I think it is wrong — unkind of you." " It would be, Marion, the most cruel wrong I could do you were it not to save you from greater trouble. It is not your faith in your husband as a man, as a husband, that I would weaken ; but your faith in him as a Mormon." "And if you succeed, aunt Wells, what will you have gained, except to have made me miserable, and needlessly so?" " I will have gained everything, child — everything for you. I will have saved you from a miserable existence — from a life of grief and despair. I will have secured to you the happiness and confidence you heretofore have enjoyed in your husband. For with the influence you must have over him, the horror you will have of a life in polygamy, you will, through some means, persuasion, or stratagem, or rebellion, even, keep him away from that city where my poor friend's life and so many others have been wrecked." "Aunt Wells, you do not know my husband. He does love me — Elsie will tell you so — with his whole heart, but he loves God most, I believe, and what he thinks it his duty to do, that he Avill do. I have grieved him enough by rebel- ling against his wishes and his religion, and I cannot be- lieve, as you would have me, that his vow to me will be broken. I do not believe in this religion as I did before we learned of polygamy. I hate that ; but before I was so happy in the new faith, and was so glad at the thought of gather- ing with all the saints, prophets and apostles, under the direct guidance of the great leader of the Mormon Church, that I cannot throw away all my hopes of happiness yet. If I could believe as you do, aunt Wells, that my hus- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 29 band would ever take another wife, all would be changed. No ! I believe I should not change ! I should love him still ! " "But, Marion, you will at least try to persuade him. There is room and a welcome for you all at my home ; there is employment or business enough in New York for Elder Northfield. I want you near me ; Elsie wants you. Do not leave us without at least trying to prevent it." Marion threw her arms around her aunt's neck, and said : " Dearest aunt ! How I should love you ! How I wish it might be as you say ! How I suffer at thought of parting with Elsie ! I know you say all this for what you tliink is my own good. But I believe you are mistaken: you do not know my husband. Elsie knows him, and she does not think this of him, I am sure. I have willingly con- sented to go with him to Utah, and in return he has prom- ised to devote his life to me and my happiness. How can I thwart the most cherished desire of his heart? How can I ask him to make such a sacrifice for me, and be unwilling to make any for him ? It will seem like disputing his faith- fulness to me to ask him to remain. I know it would break my heart to lose his confidence, and I will not deprive him of mine. Please, dear aunt, do not look at it in such a terrible light. I feel sure my life will not be ruined, but I look forward to a happy home of our own, whatever our surroundings may be." At her aunt's recital of a passage in Elder Parker's his- tory, Marion's faith had failed her in spite of herself, and she was sick at heart with terrible fear and apprehensions for her own future. Only for a moment, however, for her love for her husband conquered every doubt, and she was again the confiding, hopeful wife. Her aunt felt how ut- terly useless it was to entreat her further. Elsie had lis- tened eagerly to the conversation, hoping her aunt's argu- 30 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, mcnts wonld be effective. Marion's answer was so decided, and so evidently final, that her aunt and sister felt that there ■was no more to be said. They sat in silence for a few moments ; then Mrs. Wells said : " Why are we wasting our time here? I came to bring you home with me, and you will go, will you not, Marion, if only for a few hours ? " Marion readily assented, and soon with Elsie was en- joying the beauties and comforts of their aunt's elegant home. It was to be Elsie's home, but Marion did not covet it, for no place, however beautiful, could be home to her without the one who was to henceforth share her joys and sorrows. Her aunt exerted herself to give her niece all the pleasure her house, with its books, its music, its flowers, and its beautiful grounds, could afford, in this her first visit in the new world. But the hours soon fled, and Mrs. Wells sent her carriage back to the hotel Avith Elsie and Marion, saying, " During your stay in the city, Marion, you must come and see us every day, and your husband also shall be welcome." At the hotel Elder Northfield had just arrived, and was searching for Marion, when she returned and explained the cause of her absence. Elsie noticed the fond smile as he greeted his wife, and the tenderness with which he wrapj ed her in her cloak and arrangCv^. the cushions and blankets of the carriage with the utmost care for her comfort, and his devotion inspired her with hope that after all, Marion's life might be an exception to that of most Mormon women. Marion, too, now seemed to have forgotten the unpleasant- ness of her aunt's first conversation, and in her pleasure at being again united with her husband after a few hours' sepa- ration she did not notice the sadness that would come into Elsie's voice as she said, "Good-bye, darling; come and see me to-morrow." " Yes, Elsie, if I can," she replied, and she left her sister, SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 31 who returned to her aunt, little thinking this was their final parting. But Marion grew very thouglitful as the events of the day came back to her, as she thought of all her aunt's words, and she could not repress her sadness at the thought of tliat wronged wife suffering in Utah. She thought of the bride Carrie, who was to be taken by that heartless husband as a fresh insult to the miserable woman he had promised to love and cherish till death did part. She remembered the reverence with which she had looked up to him, and now her soul was filled with contempt. An involuntary sigh es- caped her. " Marion," said her husband, "you seem thoughtful and sad. You should have been made happy by a visit to your aunt. Has anything unpleasant occurred? What have they been saying to you to make you look so gloomy ? " "Aunt Wells has been telling me a sad story of a friend of hers who, when a bride, went to Utah." " Is that the way in which she entertained you ? Really, I think she might have shown more tact and chosen some subject more pleasant and quite as appropriate to your cir- cumstances. No wonder you look sad. I see. She is one of the many persecutors our faith has, and has chosen to show her love for her niece by attacking her religion. I do not—" " ! Henry ! She would never persecute any one. She is so good and kind I cannot help loving her. I wish you had seen her. But she was very much astonished — yes, and even shocked — to learn that I had married a Mormon. Of course, it made me very angry at first to listen to her attacks on the Mormon elders, and I could not answer her pleas- antly ; but when she told me what she knew of them, and especially of her friend who was so cruelly treated — and, Henry, let me tell you, this friend was the first wife of Elder 32 EI.DKR NORTH FIP:I-1)'s HOME; OR, Parker, and now lie cruelly neglects her and leaves her to sufler alone and support her two children — when she told me this I could not be angry with her, and did not wonder at her prejudice against all Mormons. And, indeed, Henr}^ I fear there are many bad men in the Church. Aunt Wells has the advantage of living in this country and knowing more of the native Mormons than you and I do." " There are some bad men in every church. Even among the twelve apostles there was a traitor; but, Marion, you have only heard one side of Elder Parker's story. I have been told that his first wife has caused him a gregit deal of trouble, and has been so rebellious and wicked that it was impossible for him to live with her. His other two wives live together most harmoniously and are quite willing he should take a fourth. I see no motive but a bad one in your aunt talking to you in the way she has. To say notliing of the insult of inviting j^ou to her house and making your visit unpleasant, the inference from her words was not what was due to your husband." "O, she meant no disrespect to you, Henr}^, and wishes you to come with me to her house any time." "Marion, tell me, did she try to destroy j'our faith in me ? Did she intimate that your husband would ruin his wife's happiness as others have ? Did she tell you I would break m}^ vow to my wife?" "She said I never could be happy in Utah, and showed me how much misery there was, and begged me to persuade you to remain here. She told me there was room in her home and a welcome for us all, and you could easily find employment or business in the cit}', and she wanted me near her and Elsie." " Marion, you have not answered me ! Did your aunt try to make you believe I would ever take another wife?" Marion was frightened at the anger she saw in those deep, dark eyes, and she answered : SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 33 " She said no doubt you wore sincere and honorable now, but she feared 3^ou would not love nio so much when I am older and less attractive, and that it would be almost impos- sible for you to withstand the commands and counsel to marry." "And you allowed her to talk to you thus ! " " 0, please do not look so angry. No ! I did not allow her, but told her I thought she did very wrong to talk to me so, and that it was to no purpose, for I would not even ask you to give up going to Zion when I knew how your lienrt was set on going, and I assured her that nothing could ever make me doubt my husband's fidelity to me alone. She asked my forgiveness for having offended me, and I could not refuse to go with her, as she seemed so disappointed in losing me. She said no more on the subject, and made my visit a very agreeable one -asking me to come every day to see her and Elsie." The anger had all died out of Elder Northfield's eye as Marion told him of her assurances to her aunt of faith in her husband, and given place to a look of great tenderness as he said : " God bless my darling wife. She shall never regret her trust in me." They were silent a few moments ; then Elder Northfield said : "Marion, do you wish to go to your aunt's every day while we are in New York ? " " I— I— think I should like to, but perhaps I had better not." " I thought when you were telling me what she said to you we would neither of us go there, but you shall do as you please. I think, however, judging from this first visit, that her society will not conduce to your happiness, and the less you are with her the better. Intercourse with Gentiles 3 34 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, is very elTective to destroy tlie saints' peace of mind, for they are so prejudiced and opposed to the Mormons that they will use every means in tlieir power against them. The elders will condemn us if we do not withdraw from the world. Elsie, I think, is a hindrance to you in the exercise of your faith, and I hope when we are safely in Zion, away from all these influences, to see you again the happy enthu- siast you once were." " Henry, do you wish me to keep away from Elsie and aunt Wells?" "Not altogether, Marion. It would be cruel to deprive you of your sister's society entirely. I w^ill not ask that sacrifice; but you know my views in regard to the matter, and I believe it is for your good to avoid them as much as you can, but let your own heart dictate to you, my dear. I want you to be happy. It is for you to decide what will most conduce to your happiness in the end." But Marion was spared the trial of holding herself aloof from her aunt and sister or disregarding her husband's wishes. Her course was decided for her, and she had no choice but to acquiesce in the decision. Henry Northfield, though not a man of abundant means, was not as poor as many of the emigrants were. He had given liberally, according to his means, for the benefit of the Church and assistance of the poorer emigrants, but had not, like many in his circumstances, given his all. In this he had been slightly censured by the higher authorities of tlie Church, and accused of a lack of faith, but still he prudently withheld something for the future wants of himself and wife. Thus he had been able to emigrate with the other elders and a few of their converts at his own expense, independent of the emigration fund, and with much less discomfort and privation than usually fell to the lot of Mormon emigrants. Their journey from New York to Utah, however, was to be SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 35 postponed till the arrival of the next emigrant vessel, and made in company with the poorer en)igrants. But the dis- pensations and revelations of the Mormon Church are sub- ject to many sudden changes, which would seem very human were they not so positively divine. A message was received that night from Brigham Young directing the Mormons who might be in the city on their way to Zion not to tarry, but to gather immediately to Zion without any delay. Marion had not accompanied her husband to the meeting that evening, but had remained at her room, arranging for her temporary stay in the city. It "was late before he re- turned, and she would have been lonely, but slie had that day made the acquaintance of Carrie, Elder Parker's bride, and now was being entertained by the latter, who had also remained at her boarding-place while Elder Parker attended the meeting. She had come into Marion's room to chat with her. Marion grew quite interested in Carrie, who was gratifying her curiosity and interest by being very commu- nicative in regard to her circumstances and expectations. Carrie seemed quite resigned to being the fourth wife, for she said she was not fourth in her husband's affections, but was, he had told her, the first and only one he had ever really loved. She was not aware that each of his previous wives had received the same assurance and been made to believe it. As for his other wives, she should not have the least jealousy for them — poor things — but should be very kind and indulgent to them, though she should take care that they understood her position with relation to them, as Elder Parker had decided that she was to be mistress of the house. There were three children belonging to the two wives, but she did not care for that, as she liked children, and presumed they were very attractive. She knew she should love them, for they were her dear husband's children. She expected to 36 ELDER XORTIIEIEED's HOME; OR, take life cnsy, for, of course, the other wives vrould not ex- pect much of lier in the domestic line, ns she was so young, and her time wouhl he so entirely devoted to her hushand. She had sacrificed all for Mormonism and Elder Parker, in- cludinp^ father, motlier, hrother and sisters, much against their wislies, hut tliesc separations were as nothing when weighed in tlie balance of duty and religion. In short, Carrie was quite as contented and self-satisfied a person as one might wish to meet with. Marion wondered at her tranquil frame of mind, but could not but admit that, as her husband had intimated, she was the wiser of the two, and that it was well to believe that what must be, was what one desired should be. Elder Northfield returned to a very cheerful wife late in the evening, and was quite prepared to sympathize with her mood, as he joyfully told her of the word of command from the head of the Church, and that they were to resume their journey towards Zion by daybreak the next morning. It liad not occurred to Elder Northfield in his preoccupation that to Marion this would be the most unwelcome news — that it meant final separation from her loved sister and a closer contact with a system from which, in its best phase, she shrunk. He did not realize how utterly bereft of enthu- siasm Marion was in the religion which had once been so dear to her. He could not know the repugnance which a womau felt towards coming in close contact with what she felt to be a great wrong to her sex. His devotion to his re- ligion and desire to gather to Zion were so great that all obsta- cles in the way were completely lost sight of, and he could not sympathize with her in her grief, as it seemed that so suddenly cutting all the tics that bound her to her former life was like the cutting of her heart-strings. And worst of all, it was impossible for her to see Elsie again. Had she only known sooner she might have spent that evening in a SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 37 last visit with her sister. 0, how could she part with Elsie with no farewell word! How could she leave her so soon, perhaps forever ! Why must they he constantly controlled in every movement by the Mormon authorities! Rebellion was working in Marion's heart, and all her husband's sym- pathy and kindness could not lift her load of sorrow. Her hope in the future forsook her for the time, and all looked dark. But she bravely tried to cast her sorrow from her for her husband's sake, and set about undoing the Avork of the evening and preparing for her journey. The next morning Elsie, leisurely sipping her coffee in her aunt's pleasant breakfast room, received the following letter : " My Dear Sister :— I pity you for the sorrow and grief you will feel when you read this letter, and realize that Marion is gone — when I tell you that as you read I shall be journeying fast on my way to Salt Lake City. O, Elsie! Elsie! Would that this night, instead of writing to you, I might have your arms twined lovingly once more about me, that I might lay my cheek against yours, and be comforted in my trouble as I have so often been. To leave you without a vrord, without one farewell kiss, seems cruel to us both. I had hoped for so much pleasure with you and aunt Wells before I left you! I thought that not quite yet must the saddest side of Mormonism be thrust upon me— a little while longer I might be in the world if not of it, and enjoy something of its pleasures. For I must admit, Elsie, that the world gives me more pleasure now than my religion does. You remember that on the evening before we left England, you expressed your fear that my religion alone would not always give me the peace I then enjoyed. Little did I then think how soon your fear would become a reality. Now there is little m it that seems 38 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME J OR, attractive. O, that I might have the unwavering faith that I once had, and this trial of leaving you would not seem so great. Still I have no doubt that I shall recover my usual spirits soon. I have been trying to hide my feelings from Henry, as he seems so troubled and sorry for me, though before he realized how I would take it, he was very much delighted that we could so soon proceed to Zion. He only learned of the change in the plan to-night at the meet- ing, and returned very late — too late for me to go to you ; and besides there was no time, for we had immediately to repack all our goods preparatory to an early start. I can only write you a farewell, Elsie, in the small hours of the morning, and it must be brief, for Henry insists that I shall try to get some sleep before I start. De:ir aunt Wells ! Tell her how I regret that I can see no more of her. Ask her to forget and forgive the resentment I showed in return for her kind interest in me. Assure her of my thankfulness that my sister has found so good a friend and protector in her, and do not either of you let your hearts be troubled for my future. Sad though I am at leaving you, and dreading to come face to face with polygamy, yet I have no apprehen- sions of evil coming across my own pathway, and I leave you, Elsie, with confidence that when the present trial is over, and we are finally established in a home of our own, I shall be again the cheerful Marion who left dear old England with you. And now I must stop writing. How can I say farewf^il ! I leave you, Elsie, now, not as I once thought I slioukl, for my religion's sake, but for my hus- band's. And with him I cannot be unhappy, I feel sure. I know in the future you will not forget me, and sometimes perhaps we may be permitted to write to each other. God IdIcps you, and grant that we may meet again, if not in this world, in the eternal world never to part. "Marion." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 39 Elsie read this letter ; then without a word, but with a face showing the intensity of her emotions, she placed it in her aunt's hands, and repaired to her own room, there to calm her sorrow, and struggle with her hatred of a religion which had bereft her of her dearest friend. 40 ELDER NORTHFIELD'S HOME ; OR, CHAPTER III. EMIGRATION to the west in those days was not the easy matter it is to-day, for only a part of the jour- ney could then be performed by rail. Instead of crossing the plains with the rapidity and comfort that the introduction of the great Pacific Railway gives, the emigrants slowly travelled with ox-teams, advancing as far as might be by day, and pitching their tents and camping out for the night. There was much of hardship, privation and weariness in even the most well provided of companies, of which the little band of Mormons now gathering to Zion was one. But of the sufferings from cold, hunger and overpowering fatigue, of the deaths from exposure, from sickness, and from the wolves whicli attacked the larger and poorer emi- grant parties, they knew comparatively nothing. There was much in the novel method of travelling that exhila- rated and interested Marion at first, and all were so cheerful and jovial and seemed so happy in the thought that tliey were "a day's march nearer home," as they sung in their meetings by the way, that she caught the infection, and much to the joy of her husband began to look upon her new life with much less of her late discontent, and som>e- tliing of her old belief in the faith v.'as revived as she ear- nestly desired and sought that it might be. What one wishes to believe one will more readily believe, and i\Iarion wished to believe in Mormonism. Elder Northfield con- gratulated himself that complete isolation from Gentil3 companionship, and a strong Mormon influence v/crc doing SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 41 their work as he had predicted. And he looked forward to a time when Marion would be filled with the same zeal and love for her religion that characterized her in the days of lier conversion to Mormonisni. That time never came. Day after day and week after week passed, and the mo- notony of the journey increased. The women and children grew very weary, and the longing to arrive at their destina- tion grew intense. The men strove to make them as com- fortable as might be, and tried to cheer them by songs and prayers, and assurances of the happiness in store for them just a little ahead in Zion. The heat of summer had now arrived, and in the burning sun they slowly advanced across the prairies. At last the end of the journey came, and as the sun was slowly sinking in the west, the travellers came in sight of the Great Salt Lake valley. Here before them in all its verdure lay the haven they had sought. In the dis- tance, like a silvery sheet, lay the beautiful Salt Lake. And down in the valley, now shrouded in gloom from the ever- lasting hills surrounding it, lay the Zion of their hopes. Marion did not wonder that with their belief the Mormons called this place the " chamber of the Lord in the moun- tains," for it did seem like a chamber or room, so shut in was it from the rest of the world. As she stood by her hus- band's side, gazing with him at the promised land, now just before them, she felt that, after all, her reluctance and dread of entering this city had perhaps been entirely unreasonable. Certainly there was nothing in the sight before them to inspire one with dread. On the contrary, everything had a very peaceful look, as the elders had always represented. As for her husband, he took Marion's hand tightly in his and gazed with all the delight and satisfaction that the full realization of his long cherished hope could give him. "Marion," said he, reverently, "thank God that at last wo beheld this beautiful place, and may we go no more out of it forever." 42 ELDER NOKTHFIELD's HOME; OR, Suddenly a change came over Marion. She withdrew her hand from liis. "No!" she exclaimed, excitcdl}', "do not say so! "as at that moment they saw Elder Parker advancing towards them. "Marion, tell me," said her husband, "what do you mean ? " " Five minutes ago this place looked to me like the abode of peace. Now, as I look down there, it seems to me I see sorrow and misery on the faces in those homes. I do not wish to stay here forever, Henry, and the sight of Elder Parker often fills me with the strajigest of gloomy feelings." " Then we will not see him. We will walk directly on to the wagons." And they did so ; for as it was impossible to find homes for themselves that night, the party had decided to camp where they were, and early in the morning descend into the city. In those days the city was not composed of well-built houses, but principally of small low buildings of wood or even logs. It was, however, beautifully laid out, with wide streets and walks, and streams of water from the mountains were running through the streets. Small trees were extend- ing their branches, and giving promise of beautiful shade in future years. Every spot of land seemed to be in the highest state of cultivation. As Marion descended into the valley and entered the city the next morning with her husband, she noticed all these things. Nothing escaped her. This was to be her home — probably for life. She was now in the Zion for which she had so joyfully left her native country. She thought of the day she bid farewell to all that had been dear to her in England (save her sister), and was impressed with the change that had come over her since that time. She felt the SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 43 contrast between the joji'iil anticipations of that time, and the gloominess of their realization. She thought of tlie sys- tem the knowledge of which had taken away all the pleasure of her religion, all the brightness there had once seemed to be in it, and destroyed her faith in everything pertaining to the doctrines of the Latter-Day Saints. She shrank from a more familiar knowledge of its workings, and weary and worn-out with her journey though she was, the prospect of rest did not dispel the sadness from her heart. But work for the mind and body are excellent remedies for mental depression, and Marion found plenty of work awaiting her, A house had to be secured, which was, very difficult, for each man built his own, and seldom had any one a house to let. Toward nightfall, however, Elder Northfield succeeded in obtaining the use of a small log house towards the out- skirts of the city. It was not a very attractive place in itself, but the wearied emigrants approached and entered it with thankfulness that even such a shelter might be theirs. They gathered to the spot all they had been able to bring with them, and what they could there obtain with the now faiUng resources of their pocket book, for the furnishing of their home. And although used to better surroundings, Marion experienced the same pleasure all young house- keepers feel in arranging their first home. She cheerfully made the best of everything, and exerted her feminine in- genuity in supplying many a deficiency and concealing the roughness of both house and furniture. When all was done, she was pleased with her success, and looked to her husband for the approving smile, which he did not fail to give, say- ing, "Marion, humble though this all is, we can be happy here." And Marion in her heart could at that moment echo the words. Early the next morning Elder Northfield set out to look about the city for employment, and Marion busied herself 44 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, pleasantly about her domestic duties. It was nearly noon Avlien she heard a knock at the half-open door, and ap- proachinoj her visitor she found him to be a small boy who liad evidently made an attempt to array himself in a proper visiting toilet. His straw hat, which was minus the rear portion of the brim, had been carefully cut around the edge, thereby alleviating in a degree its ragged appearance. His hair, too, had evidently undergone the clipping process re- cently, and that, too, by unskilled hands, judging from the lack of uniformity in its length. The eyes were gray, and the fLice, which had been made to shine with soap and water, was rather a prepossessing one. A respectable jacket, evidently a borrowed one, from its size and the length of the Rlceves, was buttoned around the boy. Of the pantaloons not much could be said, for there was but little of them vis- ible, but beneath their ragged extremities were feet which, though bare, were comparatively clean. The hands were also clean, and Mrs. Northfield considered him quite an in- teresting person, especially after he politely removed his hat and proved that his conversational powers were equal to the occasion, without requiring much assistance from her. He was familiar with the place and its former occupants, with her neighbors, and much that was transpiring about town, and entertained his hostess with his information till she began to weary of him. He had told her his name was Johnnie Mordaunt. At last Marion said: "Well, Johnnie, don't you think your mother vrill want you at home by this time? " "0, no; she will not miss me, there's so many others." " How many are tlicre? " "Well, only sixteen now, since Juba got married and Willie and Tommie died of scarlet fever; but you see there's four or five of us fellows all just about of a size, and it makes it mighty handy when one of us wants a vacation, as I did this mornin'." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 45 ''Sixteen children ! Do they all belonp; to one mother?" " Why, bless you, no! There's four of 'em. Tliere's Sarah — I belongs to lier, and six others are hern. Mnrtha she's got four; Jemima three — darn 'em, we fellers can't have a thing that they won't smash — and Mary Ann has two little squalling things. We fellers, you see, aint l)ig enough to work, so the women set us to tendin' their babies. There's fiye of 'em haye to be run after, kept out of the molasses-jug and the pig-pen, and rocked to sleep by us boys; and I'm hayin' the worst of it, 'cause, somehow or other — I don't know how — the young ones all take to me lately, and act afraid of t'other boys. I dispect 'em of doin' somethin' on the sly to make 'em 'fraid of 'em. I remember I did once, but I never would ag'in, if I was goin' back thar. It's too mean." "What do you mean by saying ' If you were going back there?'" "Now you's hit it, and I'll tell you. This morning I dressed the twins — they're Martha's — pulled Sammy — he's ours — out of the swill-pail and cleaned him up ; heard Mollie crying and found her with lier finger shut under the window and a pan of milk spilt over her: got dad's watch away from Jerry (Jerry he's Jemima's boy) and then started on a run after Willie and Pete down to the brook. My ma and the others' mas came out and scolded me for letting the children go, and they say I sassed 'em. I told 'em I wouldn't take care of children any more, and they said if I wouldn't I'd have to get another home. So I thouglit maybe I'd find some of these emigrant folks that would like a boy like me and that is what I's been up to this mornin'." " Have you called on any of the other emigrants?" "La! yes. One man told me I was a naughty boy and I must run home to my mother. At another place the woman said, ' What a horrible looking child,' and I didn't stop to 46 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, talk with her. At another, the woman took quite a fancy to me, for I told her all my troubles, and I was a goin' to stay with her, but first I knew in come two or three children ; then their noise set a bab}^ to screaming somewhere in the house and I thought I'd better get out of there. Then I come here, and I've been here long enough to see your children, if you had any, and I seem to like here pretty well, so if you'd like to have me I'll stay and be your boy. My folks can spare me out of sixteen, when you haint got an}', and I'll be a fust-rate boy. I can do any kind of work, and like all kinds, but minding children." Here the boy paused, more from lack of breath to pro- ceed than from any other cause. Marion really pitied him in his struggle for freedom. He seemed confident that he would be appreciated, and apparently thought this child- less home would be benefited by his adoption. Marion quite disliked to undeceive him. She explained to him that, although she should no doubt like him very much, their circumstances were such that they could not do more than support themselves at present, and that she really did not need help, as her labors were not hard. Johnnie looked very much disappointed and surprised, but was comforted by an invitation to remain to dinner, wdiich he accepted, and soon proved that his troubles had not destroyed his appetite. He left Elder Northfield's house after dinner rather discouraged in his attempts at finding a new home and somewhat inclined to follow the advice he there received to return to his home and family cares. In the afternoon another caller made an appearance. This time it was a little girl, plainly but neatly clad, with a very sober, pinched face,.^which would have been pretty had not sorrow, so painful to see in the young, been written there. She modestly explained that her name was Ella Atwood, and that she lived in the next cottage. Her mother had SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 47 sent her to ask if she could be of any service to her new neighbors, and would luive come herself, but Nettie was very poorly that day and she could not leave her. She would be glad if Mrs. Northfield would call upon her soon. Mrs. Northfield promised to call, and inquired who Nettie was. " Oh," said Ella, "she is my sister, and she is going to die. She was married two years ago — and I remember how much William loved her, and how good he was to her ; but now he has taken another wife and has treated Nettie very cruelly. The elders called her a rebellious wife and coun- selled William to leave her. The doctor says she has the consumption, but mother says Nettie is dying of a broken heart. Mother has tried to have William come and see her, and he has promised to come, but Nettie says he will not come till too late." " Has your father more than one wife ? " Marion could not help asking. "Yes; Hither has two wives; but he is kind to us all, though mother has not been the same since his other wife came. She never sings now, and so often says to me, ' My poor little Ella.' I wonder at that, for father's other wife never troubles me any, only as I see mother is more unhappy when she is near. Mother never goes to walk now with father, because she does not like to go with his other wife. They do not seem to like each other, but now she has been very kind to Nettie, and I think mother likes her better." " Have you a brother or sister besides Nettie? " " No, ma'am ; no real brother or sister since Neddie died. He was my baby brother; but now the other wife has a baby, and I play with him a great deal. He is very fond of me, but mother does not seem to love him at all. I thought she would after Neddie died, but she never pets him. She is willing I should, though, and I'll bring him some time to see you if you would like me to." 4.S ELDER KORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OP., Marion assured the child tliat slic would like to sec the baby — " fatiier's other ^vi!■e's baby " — and Ella soon departed. That night Marion and her husbanlit, and thonii;]! vainly trying to repress lier tears, searched for something of her former finery, witliout, however, much hope of finchng anytliing, for she had given everything of that description to Elsie. But there at the bottom of a large box lay a small one, enclosed in a wrapping of paper. Marion opened it meclianically, and what was her surprise to see a beautiful necklace, with jewelry to match ! It was one which had been given her b}^ a dear friend in England, and she sup- posed it w\as in Elsie's possession now. With the jewelry was a folded paper, containing an old-fashioned gold ring and these words: "I cannot take these, Marion, for some time I believe you will want them. Who knows but you may find them at just the right time to adorn your fair beauty for some festive gathering of the saints? Wear them, dearest sister, and be happy if you can." jMarion threw herself on to her pillow then and sobbed, though not entirely from grief. But at her husband's ap- proach, she wiped away her tears and put on the ornaments, •which she had once given up forever, as she had thought, and in her youthful beauty, brightened by her ornaments, and Vvith all traces of her tears vanished, Elder Northfield looked at her with all a lover's enthusiasm as he said : " You are beautiful, my Marion ! Take care that you make no con- quests to-night." *' Never fear, there is no one here for me to conquer," she laughingly replied. *' Nevertheless, I predict that you will be the belle of the evening." " Well, at any rate you shall not be neglected." Elder Northfield's prediction was fulfilled in a certain sense. Marion fully intended at first thought of that ball to spend much of her time in cultivating an acquaintance with the ladies, for she was not prepossessed in favor of the 70 ET.DER NORTIIFIELD's HOME; OR, ]\Ionnon men, ai»d intended to dance but very little. She, liowever, found iH^'selfdancini^ in nearly every set with much more i)lensure than she thou^dit possible for her in dancing witli Mormons. Her partners, however, slic was able to select, and she accepted few but very young men, for she de- t< rmined not to dance ^vith any man who was liable to be neglecting his wife or wives by dancing witli her. Her hus- band, whom she had "not neglected," watciied her and the admiration she excited, and was truly proud of her beauty and grace. He had scarcel}' seen her so gay in spirits since they left England, and he fondl}^ rejoiced in her apparent happiness. The women watched her, too, as she gracefully moved about, and some were envious of her. Injustice to them, however, it: should be said that many saw with glad- ness that one woman among them had not lost her youthful sjtirits or her fresli young beauty by sorrow. Brigham Young was there with several of his wives, and after dancing once witli eacli of them, lie considered hin:isolf at liberty to dance with whom he would. He sought the reigning beauty of the evening, whom he recognized as a witness of the quarrel between his two little sons, and honored her by ask- ing her to dance with him. She refused liim, as she had the other older men who had asked her. Her husband was sliocked at her refusal to dance with their leader, who seemed very much astonished and not a little piqued. No native Mormon woman would have dared refuse a dance to the prophet, even if the great honor did not make it unde- sirable to do so, and Marion was slightly censured by a few ladies with whom slie was on speaking terms, and later, by her husband, al of whom tried to convince her of her rash- ness. Slie told her husband privately tluit she did not wish to dance with polygamists, and certainly not with tlie greatest of them. The last hour before they left the hall Marion would not dance. She wished to watch the people, SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 71 "who were a study to her in their variety of costumes, moods, and manners. She did not fail to see that not all, and in- deed few, were as happy as she, if their faces were an index of their hearts. The " wall flowers " were very numerous, and as Marion realized it, she felt guilty at having danced all the evening, while so many had scarcely danced at all. Many of them looked much more as if they had come to a place of mourning than to a place of amusement. Marion watched the long rows of women as they sat by the wall talking sadly together in twos and threes. There was no life, no animation, no cheerfulness, and, Marion thought, no hope on their faces. They could sit there and see their hus- bands, once so devotedly dancing attendance upon them, but now apparently unconscious of their existence, all ab- sorbed in the charms of a later wife, or some maiden who has captivated the truant husband's fancy, and who would eventually possess a place in his home as well as his heart. AVhat wonder they looked with sadness upon the scene and upon their own future? What wonder that every spark of hope and joy had died in their hearts ? Why should they not solace themselves with the only comfort the ball-room gave them — the opportunity to tell each other their sorrows and comfort each other? Among this class at last Marion espied her callers, the Mrs. Smiths, or at least three of them, Caroline, Ellen, and Josephine ; but where was Ruth ? The former three were eagerly watching some of the dancers, and at last Marion, with difficulty, recognized Mrs. Ruth dancing with a man whom, on inquiry, she learned was her husband. Evident! 3^ the suit which was to eclipse the bride's had been manufactured, and Ruth was resplendent in it, and appa- rently had regained something of her former favor with her husband. Now, where was the black-eyed destroyer of the family peace ? Marion inquired, and she was pointed out to her, dancing very contentedly with a much younger man 72 ELDER NORTHFIELD's IIOMI: ; OR, than y.r. Smith. This v;as the man who " sliould have been licr liusband," and the lour first wives were a little chagrined to see how little taken down the fifth was at Ruth's fine appearance. Sh.e manifested no resentment, no sense of neglect by her husband, or, indeed, any other emotion con- cerning the matter, and apparently was enjoying the evening very much. The sequel to this story may as well be given here. The plan of the four wives worked well, too well for the happiness of three of them, for Ruth became again the reigning favorite, something very singular in Mormon life, but resulting partly from a quarrel between the last wife and the husband, and partly from Rutli's great effort to attract and please. The man upon whose help the wives counted did not fail them, and the result was, as they hoped, a divorce, which could always be obtained by paying Brig- ham Young ten dollars. But now a new trouble arose, for Ruth received all her husband's attentions to the entire neglect of the others. These attentions, however, were abundantly offset by the persecutions of the jealous sister wives, who had placed her in that position. But to return to the ball room. Marion liad not seen her friend Carrie since their arrival in tlie city, and she was quite curious to know how she succeeded in carrying out her doniestic plans. Carrie was here to-night dancing nearly every figure. At last Marion found an opportunity to speak with her, and the young wives were soon interchanging ac- counts of life in Zion. It seemed from Carrie's tale that the proverb was verified, which says, "The course of true love never did run smooth." " I never was so surprised in my life," she said, "as I was at the way Elder Parker's otlier wives received me. They would hardly speak to me, and when I attempted to assert my right as mistress of the house, they laughed at me and called me a child, and as such they have treated me ever since. They send me on errands, and SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 73 somehow or other they make me go. T have nothing to say about how things shall go in the house, for when I gave any directions about anything they would proceed to work in just an opposite way. For instance, if I said we would liave certain dishes for dinner, they immediately cooked something else. If I try to cook anything myself, they send me away, telling me they will do the cooking, and I mny wash dishes, sweep, etc., for that is little girls' work. If I attempt to speak when we have callers, they immediately commence talking and drown my voice. In short, they treat me in such an insulting way that I am miserable, and •why should they do it? I have never done the least thing in the world to injure them." " Only to win their husband's affections," said Marion. Carrie opened her eyes in astonishment at this, but did not reply. Marion inquired, " But why do you not go to your husband with your troubles and have them righted by his interference ?" " I have been to him and he tried to set things right, but they made him believe that I mistook even their kindness to me for ill-treatment, and now he says if I get into trou- ble with the other wives I must fight it out. He does not believe in interfering in such matters. But there is one way that I hope will bring me out of my troubles. I have half persuaded him to give n^e a house to niyself, and even if I don't see so much of him, I shall not be tormented by his wives. I think he will do this for me, for he is very fond of me, you know." " Well, Carrie, I hope he will do so for your sake, and for the sake of the other wives, for I reall}" pity you and every other woman who is not the onl}^ wife." Elder Parker soon came up to them, and after a few mo- ments general conversation, they separated and returned to their homes. And thus had passed Marion's first evening 74 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, in piililic pocicty of Salt Lake City. After all, as she laid aside lier ornaments and tliouglit of Elsie, she felt that she •would give all the pleasure of a hundred such evenin^is for one quiet hour with her sister. But she never could have Elsie again, and she must not think of her so much. She had given up all for her husband, and did not regret the sacrifice. , SACRIFICED ON THK MORMON ALTAR. 75 CHAPTER V. SINCE her aunt had told her something of the early his- tory of her friend, Elder Parker's first wife, Marion wished to visit her for her aunt's sake, and, if possible, be of some service or comfort to her in her trouble. She had been in the city several weeks, however, before an opportunity was presented. But one day some acquaint- ances were going out into the country, and as their way was directly through the little village where she had learned that the forsaken wife lived, she accompanied them as far as the village, which was but a few miles out of the city. She inquired of the villagers for the cottage of Mrs. Parker, and following the directions received, she made her way to the poorest dwelling place the village contained. Her own humble home seemed elegant by comparison. This one seemed scarcely more than a hut, with its low roof and two small windows. The yard was the redeeming feature of the place, for it was swept free from litter, and the grass was grav- ing with all the thrift and verdure of the Salt Lake Valley. There were white cotton curtains at the windows, which, if ragged, were very clean, and pressed against the window panes were two small, pinched faces, with pale cheeks and large black eyes, which, with the locks of raven black hair that hung in a long curly mass down the shoulders of the girl, and the gaunt wistfulness of the boy, gave them a look of weirdness. Marion's summons was answered by the mother, a counterpart of the girl, except that the black eyes were sunken, the jetty locks abundantly streaked with grey, 76 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, althon^rli tlic v.-omnn Imd not yet passed her youth ; tlie thin face had lines of misery and sorrow on it, and, altop^ether, slie had tlie ap;)earance of more wretcliedness than Marion liad ever seen on tl)e face of woman. Iler eyes liad a lumted look, and had a Ldeam of wildness in them tliat made Marion feel almost afraid of her. She very coldly but courteously invited her visitor to enter and be seated, offering her the only whole chair in the room. Marion ftlt that she was con- sidered an intruder, and hastened to apologize for her visit by referring to her aunt in New York, and saying she had come hoj)ing to cheer and comfort her, as she knew her aunt "Nvould gladly do, if it were in her power. She spoke of the love and pity with which her aunt had referred to the friend of her earlier days, and then it was that the cold stony look on the woman's face gave place to a softer expression, and pressing her handkerchief to her eyes, she wept without re- straint. The little ones looked astonished and frightened, as though tears were strangers to their mother's eyes. Marion gently stroked the bowed head, with its wealth of jetty and silvery hair, and said, " Forgive me, if I have made you sad. O, what have I done ! I sou.ght to comfort you, and I have only added to your grief." "You have comforted me, do not think you have not. These tears are the first I have shed for many a month, but somehow the}' relieve my aching heart. Some of my misery seems to have gone with them. To know that one of my former friends, one of the friends of my happier da^'S, even one whose counsel I heeded not, whose kind, loving entreaties I resisted, and thus ruined my life, both in this world and in the next — that she remembers me is a comfort, indeed. But tell me of little Lillian, the child I loved so, and whose nurse I was for tliree years. Let me think — how many years have passed since then? Sometimes I am confused and can't remember; but isn't she nearlv grown_, almost a young kdy?" SACRIFICED ON TKE MOHMON ALTAR. 77 "She was quite grown, and a beautiful irirl, my clear friend ; but a few months ago sl)e w^is laid in tb.e grave." An expression of sadness came over the poor woman's face, but it was onl}^ momentary, and she remarked : " There is nothing for which to mourn in that. I envy her the assurance that her child can never suffer a wretched womanhood. Perhaps I am wicked, but I often think as I look at my Edith, I would thank God to take her away from all misery and wickedness. And I have had times of terri- ble temptation, when I think I have hardly been myself, and have prayed God to keep me from doing anything dread- ful. But what am I saying,'' she cried, excitedly, "and whom am I saying it to? Are you a Mormon woman or are you a Gentile? Gentiles seldom come here ; but you do not look like the Mormon women. You look young, fair, and happy, except as I see your pity for me in your face." " I am a Mormon woman, and yet I am not a Mormon, for I do not believe in their religion now, although I did be- lieve it once, before I knew polygamy was a part of it. I have lately come from England with my husband and twin sister, whom I wish you might see." Marion sought to interest her in other topics than her own troubles. " Elsie is almost the image of the lost Lillian, aunt Wells says, and she has come to make her home with her. Aunt wanted me to remain with her, too, but — " "And why didn't you ? Why have you come to this in- fernal place — this hell upon earth ? Why have you come to a place where women are little better than slaves; yes, even worse than slaves ; where not their bodies, perhaps, but their very souls, their hearts, are cruohed ? Why were you de- luded by their fanatical teachings and their falsehoods? Where and what is your husband? " " He is in the city, and he is a Mormon. He still believes in the religion." 78 ELDER XORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, "Then God i^ity you! for he will break your heart some day, as mine has been broken." " No, my friend," said ^Marion, though at the thought her heart sank, " my husband will never forsake me. A kinder, truer, nobler man never lived, and he has rej^eatedly prom- ised me, by all that is sacred, nev«r to take another wife." "And you believe him ! " exclaimed the woman. "Yes, I believe him. I know others have been deceived, and many a man has made such a vow only to break it, but my husband is not like other men. He will be true to me, I know. He does not believe in polygamy himself, although a devoted Mormon in other res])ects." "My poor child, poor child. I wish I had the same faith for you that you have for yourself. Now I see the secret of your happy face. You have hope. Other Mormon women have no hope. God grant you years of just such security as you feel now. I would not destroy your fiith in your hus- band and make you unhappy, but I have known men just as noble and good, as you say your husband is, when they came here, but I never knew one to remain many years noble and good. When I married Elder Parker, I believe no nobler, more honorable man, than he, ever lived. He was deceived and deluded into believing in Mormonism, but he promised me never to enter into polygamy, and I believed him, and sacrificed everything for him. Look at me now, friendless and alone ; look at my children, look at our home, and tell me if you wonder that I have no faith in the promise of a Mormon." " Have you no friends in the village? " IMarion asked. " Not an open friend. No one dares to have much to do with me, for fear of getting into trouble, and I dare not speak unguardedly, for the same reason. But still I am not entirely forsaken, for the people show me great kind- nesses, secretly. I have for years kept my sorrows locked SACRIFICED ON THE MOHMON ALTAR. 79 in my own heart, and now it seems sucli a comfort to have one to sympathize with me, that I can liardly refrain from intruding my sorrows upon you, and asking you to help me about a matter that gives me some hope for my children. I need a friend, and if you will be that friend to me, God will reward you." " I will be your friend, and will do anything in my power for you, and in return I hope you will have perfect confi- dence in me, and tell me anything that it will comfort j^ou to confide in me. Tell me of your life and troubles here, if you will." " First, let me send my little ones away, for God knows they are sad enough, at best, without hearing their mother's troubles." She sent her children to play in the garden, and then re- sumed: " I was alone in the world, my father and mother being dead, and my only brother, who, though very fond of me, was in California, and is there still. Your aunt gave me a home and employment in her family, caring for and teach- ing her little girl. She made me very happy, treating me more like an elder daughter than like a governess. She cul- tivated my taste for music and books, and with her I went into the society in which she moved. There I met a man with whom I might have been this day living a happy wife. I know now that my heart was not wholly my own, though I would not, at the time, have admitted it, even to myself. But Mormonism was then agitated in New York, and, con- trary to Mrs. Wells' advice, I went with some young friends to their meetings, at first purely from curiosity concerning them. " But there was something about their religion and their earnestness, that fascinated me, I do not know what. It seems to me now that I could not have been in my right mind. 80 ELDER NCRTHFIELD's HOME; OR, " I soon l)ccame acquainted with Elder Parker, a hand- some young preaclier, and my acquaintance with him grew into an engagement to marry him, not, however, without hit; most solemn promise never to enter into i)olygamy. *' When Mrs. Wells knew this, she tried by every means in her power to dissuade me from my })urpose. She told me then that the young man of whom I spoke had asked her permission to pay his addresses to me. But it was all too late. I was completely infatuated with my new religion and my new friend. I lell my old friend and benefactor with tears, and it seemed to me I could hardly part with darling little Lillian ; but I came to Salt Lake City and married Elder Parker. He was very devoted to me, and I felt sure, as you do now, that though other homes were polluted by polygamy, mine never would be. But by and by he be- gan to be out evenings a great deal, and v»'hen I asked him where he had been, he evaded re])lying. He seemed to grow 6o cold, too, in his manner towards me, and, after a while, he never played with our baby, or noticed him at all. If he cried, instead of taking him up and amusing him, as he had done, he would take his hat and leave the house. ! the sadness of my heart then, as I feared I was losing my hus- band's love. How I tried with all my power to win him back to me! How I exerted myself to perform a thousand little offices of love for him, as only the most devoted of wives will do ! But he never knew it. He appreciated none of my kindness and devotion to him. Still, I did not dream that he had so soon forgotten his vow as to be seeking another wife. The truth was thrust upon me rudely enough. Ono of those creatures, who, being miserable herself, wished to see all other women miserable, said to me one day, ' How- soon is your husband's other wife coming to live with you ? He has been courting her quite long enough, I should think.' *' I told her she was altogether mistaken, my husband was SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 81 not thinking of taking another wife. We hoth became some- what excited, and ahnost quarrelled, and she left me. "After she had gone, 1 began to think of what had passed, and O! the misery of that hour, dreading to hear my hus- band's footsteps, yet longing for him to come and tell me my fears were groundless. Hundreds of little actions and circumstances, before unnoticed, recurred to me, all lending to awaken my fears that my visitor had spoken truly. '• Why had I been so blinded before ! And ere the sun had set I felt almost sure, as it went down and its brightness faded, tliat all the brightness of my life had faded with it. But not quite sure: hope was not quite dead. At first I tliought I would demand of my husband where he spent his evenings; then I resolved to wait and watch; but I did not have to wait long, for that very evening he coldly and cruelly told me that he had decided to take another wife. Then my heart turned to stone. I felt as though it were another woman asking him how he could break his vow so solemnly made. He answered 'that that was not now bind- ing upon him, as the elders, ajiostles, and even Brigham Young, had plainly assured Inm that it was his duty to take raiother wife and live up to his privilege, as his circum- stances were good, and that by so doing he would exalt both liimself and me in the Celestial Kingdom. An earthly prom- ise was inconsiderable compared to the duty of obeying lieavenly laws. He was only perforniing a duty which was painful to him, as Avell as to me, and tlie less said about it the better. Then my anger rose, and never was a woman jnore enraged than I. For the moment I was in a periect frenzy of madness. I asked him wljy, if it was only a ])ain- ful duty to take a second wife, lie did not take her at once without neglecting his other wife week irfter week, and giving her only cold and often unkind words and devoting his entire time to the new wife. I told him that the alacrity 6 82 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, with which he dressed himself with the utmost care, the pleasure noticeable in his preparation to visit his betrothed, and his constant attendance upon her, showed that he was performing this painful duty with commendable cheerful- ness. Indeed, I said I never knew him to perform a painful duty so cheerfully, and I thought God would reward him, though not in the way he expected. I told him he was a base hypocrite to pretend that it was his duty. I told him that I regretted the day I ever met him ; I regretted the day I was born ; he had ruined my happiness forever. My anger then gave way to grief, and I burst into tears, and kneeling at his feet, begged and plead with him by the memory of our former happy life and home, by the love which I knew^ he had borne me and our boy, by all that was sacred in family associations, not to bhght my life. I asked him to forgive my angry words and love me again and me alone. I prom- ised him that no earthly means should be unused by me to make his life and home happy. It seems as though no man could have been cruel enough to refuse such pleading. But this man was. He coldly told me to get up and not behave in that manner ; such tragic scenes would have no effect on him. I then rose from my knees and cursed him. I told him that I hated him more than I ever loved him. I said I would rejoice to see him suffer as he had caused me to suffer. But I told him I would thwart his plans. He never sliould have a second wife w^hile I lived, for I never would place the hand of another woman in his in marriage cere- mony, and I knew^ that was an essential part of the service. My reason was not jealousy then, for my love had all turned to hate, and it was my very hatred towards him that prompted mv wish to give him all the trouble in my power. That was very little, however, as it proved. He then, pale with wrath, ordered me to my room, and threatened that I should find myself in greater trouble if I behaved in that SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 83 way. I replied tliat there could be no greater trouble, that death itself would be happiness compared with it, but that I was glad that he had suggested my leaving the room, as I had polluted myself and innocent babe long enougli by remain- ing in the room with such a devil as he — yes, I used the word; no word could be bad enough to express my hatred of him — and catching my babe in my arms I darted from the room. As I passed him, he raised his arm, I think, to strike me, but he did not. I wished he would — I wished he would strike me dead. I went to my room, and there re- mained the most of the time for a week. I prepared my husband's meals as usual, but never joined him at the table. He did not see me or my boy during the week. He proba- bly never missed us, so engrossed was he in the attentions to his new duty. I was sure, however, that he could never marry without first divorcing me, for I would never give him a wife, and I knew he Avould dread the publicity and talk a divorce would occasion. None but a Mormon woman could know what I suffered. I cannot tell it. No human tongue can tell. I felt forsaken by man and by God. I hated everybody. I hated God, and at times, even my little boy. I think tliere was never a woman whose heart was more full of misery and fiendishness than mine was then. I was a Mary Magdalene, but never have I, and never can I, by the casting out of the wickedness within me, become the gentle woman she became. My heart was hardened never to soften. I might say I have no heart. Well, in about a week my husband called me to come down from my room. I went. He had just come in apparently, and was dressed iu a new suit of fine broadcloth. He presented a very elegant appearance. Beside him was a young woman, also well dressed, and very good-looking. She, however, ap- peared nervous and timid. He presented me, then, to his second wife, and delivered a little speech regarding kind- 84 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, ness in the flimil}^ and the courtcs}^ due from one "wife to another, and ended b}^ saying lie hojjcd I Avould do my duty as a faithful wife should under the circumstances. It seems that he dreaded the pubhcity that he feared might be given to our affairs, and the reproach of having a rebellious wife, and had flown to Brother Brigham for counsel. He was then in good favor with Brigham, and ic was arranged the ceremony should be performed without my assistance, on the plea that as I had so wantonly disgraced my religion and marriage covenant, I was no longer worthy to be con- sidered Elder Parker's wife, and that he sliould then for the time being be considered a single man and be married as one. But if I afterwards came to terms and submission, as no doul)t I would when I found resistance useless, then I was to be reinstated in my position as first wife, and thus all disagreeable remarks and notoriety would be avoided. Brigham was very accommodating towards my husband, and were it generally known, no doubt he would have gotten himself into trouble, for many women would willingly be temporarily divorced to avoid the terrible ordeal of giving her husband another wife. " ' Yes,' I said, ' I will do my duty towards her and towards you, too. I will send you where you belong and will pre- vent her from ever feeling the misery I feel now. If I had seen you die when I loved you and you loved me, that would have been no trouble. O, yes, I will be good to her,' and I shudder to tell it, but wliile sjieaking I had seized a lo:ided revolver, which my husband kept in a corner of an old secre- tary near me, and was raising it to aim at his liead, v/hen I seemed to realize what I was doing and I threw it on the floor, and was darting from tiie room, wlien he seized me and dragged me to my room, hurting and bruising me severely. He locked me in with my child. Days passed, and I scarcely touched food or drink. A scanty allowance of bread and BACFvIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 85 water was doled out to ns daily, but my babe ate most of it, for I could not eat. God only knows wby or bow I was again kept from a terrible crime. I could not bear, as my beautiful boy played around me in bis cbildisb innocence, or slept in my arms so pure and sweet, to tbink tbat he would grow up to break some woman's heart — to change, perhaps, from a kind, honorable man to a man like what his father now was. " I wanted always to think of him as pure and innocent as he Avas then ; I could not if he grew up. Now, if he died, God would take him, and he would eternally be pure and free from sin and misery. " I had a bottle of laudanum in my room, and was almost irresistibly filled witli an impulse to give him one last, long, eternal sleep. But God, if he had forsaken me, had not for- saken my boy, and something stayed my hand. And lest I should yield to temptation, I threw the bottle from my window, and saw it shivered to atoms on tlie stones below'." Here the speaker paused and pressed her hands to her burning brow. Then she pressed one hand to her heart, and Marion feared she would faint. " My poor friend," she said, " don't tell me any more. It is hurting you." "0, don't stop me! don't stop me!" she cried. "You don't know what you do. I must tell all. I WMst tell it all for their sakes," as she pointed towards the garden, where her children had gone. " Have you seen a large brick house on the side of one of the mountains, just out of the city? " Marion replied affirmatively. " Do you know what that building is ? " " No," said Marion, " 1 do not." " Then I will tell you, for I know. It is where they carry the women when their ndseries, and sorrows, and unuttcr- a.ble agony of mind robs them of their reason, "\^^hen Brig- 86 ELDER noktiifield's homz ; OH, ham Young, by inculcating a system and religion that he says comes from God into the minds of his dupes, has ruined the lives, the hopes, the reasons of his subjects, one by one, he kindly provides a place where they can be cared for, away from the rest of mankind, where they will cease to annoy their unfortunate friends. "His generosity is vSo great that the insane asylum is free to all, and its annual expenses are met by tithing the peo- ple to an amount far greater than its expenses. Any surplus, however, goes to the Church, and as Brigham is the Church, you see he is very generous. "Well, after I saw^ the laudanum bottle in a thousand pieces, I remember nothing more till I found myself inside that building. When you come there 1 will take you into my room, for I shall go there again, I think, before long. You will come, too, though not for man}* years ; but you arc a Mormon's wife, you know." Marion was now thoroughly frightened at the woman's words and manner, and tried to quiet her, asking her to finish her story at some other time, but she would not be interrupted, and went on. '• They were kind to me there, and after a while I realized that my baby was not with me. I asked for him, and they promised that next day he should be brought to me. And he was, but where he had been meantime I did not know, and do not to this day, nor how long I had been there. I think, however, not many weeks. The keepers are very care- less there about keeping doors and gates locked, and one evening I wandered out unnoticed, and walked on and on ■with my boy, till I came to this place. A kind man, now moved away from here, befriended me and took me into his house, and his wife cared for me and nursed me through a sickness, during which I came near to death's door. When my strength began to come back to me, they came and laid SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 87 in my arms my little babe — my Edith. From that time I have lived for my children's sake, and I have hope for them. When I recovered I took this cottage, or hut, as it is, in com- parison to my former home, and the people of the village have very kindly given me employment enough to barely support myself and children. They can do no more, for they are poor themselves ; besides they fear the wrath of Brigham Young. Many of these women are kind and piti- ful to me in secret, but their husbands warn them against me, as I am regarded a rebellious woman. I do not, or, rather, have not cared what I did or said to influence any one, Mormon or Gentile, against Mormonism, and they fear my influence somewhat, poor as I am. But I must say that I have opened my door in the morning and there found a pile of wood which I know no woman brought. I have found my house repaired, and by no woman's hands, on re- turning from a day's work out. I have found food and warm garments for my children on my doorsteps, and tracks of large feet in the snow near the door. I have been overpaid repeatedly for work by the Mormon men. Yes, thank God, there are some whose natural humanity and kindness of heart even Mormonism has not destroyed. I hate to think of the time when these men will have lost all the better part of their natures. " But I must hasten with my story. The authorities at the asylum supposed I had returned to my home, but did not trouble themselves to ascertain positively. So Elder Parker did not know I had left the asylum till my babe was several weeks old and I was established in my new home, and then he did not trouble himself to inflict his presence upon me, for he was no doubt devoting all his time and at- tention to his new wife, as he had formerly be5n devoted and kind to me. " At length, however, he came and informed me that I 88 ELDER NORTRFIELD's ROME; OR, was practically divorced from him, wliich I very well knew. My own course had caused this result, as my conduct was bevond forgiveness. He soon left mo, and I have scarcely seen liim since ; but I was told that he soon took still another wife, and then I wondered how mucli that pale-faced, fright- ened girl suffered. Not as I did, I feel sure, for she was not the first wife. '' I have of late lived in constant fear and apprehension of being robbed of my cliildren. While Elder Parker was in England, I breathed more freely ; I have not been so guarded as I otherwise should have been, and I did not know that he had returned until one day, a few weeks ago, he came here, and I nearly fainted as I saw him look at my Edith, and stroke and caress her curly hair. He then threat- ened that unless I ceased to say such wicked things against the Mormon Church, he w^ould punish me by taking away my children. He had Brigham Young's advice for so doing. I was terribly frightened, but I have since the day I first took my little girl in my arms, resolved that they should not grow up Mormons. My girl must never suffer as I have, my boy must never cause the anguish his father has caused. The friends who took me in, in my trouble, are still my friends, though many miles from here. They have aposta- tized and are Gentiles now, and live in the southern part of the State. They have promised to take my children and keep them till some emigrant parties shall pass through their place, and they can send them to my brother in Cali- fornia. I have heard from him through them, and he re- quests me to send them to him, and he will rear and educate them with his own children. He also earnestly requests me to come, too, but that cannot be. All that I seek now is my children's safety from this hot-bed of iniquity and misery. Some day they will carry me back again to that house on the mountain-side, and then my children will come to you; SACRIFICED ON THE MOUMON ALTAR. 89 thoy know the way into the city ; and you will in some way see tliat they are conveyed to my friend, whose address I will give you. Will you— will you do this for me? " And the woman paused, and her eager eyes searched Marion's face for an answer. '' I will with all my heart," said IMarion. *'And you must do it as secretly as possible, lest their father learn of it and prevent it." IMarion assured her she would fulfil her trust to the best of her ability. " I do not think," said the mother, " that Elder Parker cares enough for the children to wish for them, as his family is already so large. I only fear that he will take them to prevent their ever going to the Gentile world. Mormons hate apostates with a dreadful hatred, and there has been a time when to apostatize was to risk one's life. There is too much to be told of Mormon life by an apostate Mormon to allow him to enter the Gentile world, and only Elder Parker's almost perfect indhference to me and my children gives mo liope that they will escape without his knowledge. I have trained them up to hate Mormonism, and have tried to givo them all the knowledge of the ways of the Gentile world that I could, but that is of no avail if they remain here. Edith v;ill be forced to marry, and Francis will grow up a Mormon." " But," said Marion, "since your brother has so kindly of- fered you a home with him, why do you not go with your children and live the rest of your life peacefully? Why stay here and be so miserable? Or, if you can find a way to go to New York, I know my aunt will receive you and yours with joy. She would only be too happy to save you from this life, and have you with her again. Won't you let me vrrite to her about you? " " No ! no ! I will not ! You must not think of escape for me. I do not want to enter the Gentile world again. It 90 ELDER nortiifield's noME ; OR, would only make me more miserable. There is no happi- ness for me anywhere in this world or in the next. Why I am a murderer, did you know it? I wanted to take two lives, and nearly did. I am a murderer at heart. He has made me one. I was good once. I was kind once. I never spoke an unkind word to him till — till — I told you when. No, such a woman as I must stay where misery is at home. My brother must never see the wreck his sister is, and I would not go back such as I am now to burden your aunt after leaving her as I did. Besides, I could not escape and my children, too. He would find it out if I attempted so much, and we should all be brought back. But if any- thing should happen to me, he very likely would not know it; and if he did and were told that friends had taken the children, I think he would not interfere or burden himself with their support. I shall not be here long. I may be in the asylum ; I may be in a narrower asylum. But wher- ever I am, if you know, don't let him know. I don't like the way he looked at Edith. I am troubled with fear that if the children remain here long he may get them away from me and then they will be lost. I had rather see them dead. Yes, dead !" she cried wildly, and Marion was again frightened at the gleam in her eye and the wild tones of her voice. At last her mind seemed to be relieved, as she had told her story, and as Marion assured her that she would fulfil her request, she seemed satisfied and sank back into her chair exhauisted by her excitement. Marion then told her of Elder Parker's last wife, of whom she was ignorant, and gradually led the conversation to other subjects, telling her of all that had happened in the city recently that she thought would interest her. Marion secretly resolved to write to her aunt, informing her of her friend's circum- stances and state of mind, that she might persuade her to leave Utah. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 91 She did not wonder now at her aunt's horror of the Mor- mons. She felt alarmed at the wildness of the woman's manner during her story ; and then how she longed for the means to make her and her children more comfortable, but her husband's income would scarcely suppl}^ their own wants. She could only give her kind words and sympathy, and amusement to her children by telling them story after story, till their wan faces glowed with interest and amuse- ment. But these attentions were worth more than money, and the mother received that for which she hungered — as she had never hungered for bodily food — heartfelt sympa- thy and promise of help in the fulfilment of the greatest wish of her heart. The few hours still left before her de- parture passed rapidly, INlarion striving by every means in her power to interest and please her hostess. The chil- dren showed her their little gardens, and were delighted with the interest she took in them, and altogether, that day was remembered by mother and children as an oasis in the desert of their lives. When Marion and her husband sat down that evening for their usual chat, she rehearsed the events of the day and repeated the story she had heard, and reminded him of what he had said in New York about there being two sides to the woman's story. But he could not believe that Elder Parker would ever treat a wife so cruelly, and thought her mind was in such a disordered state that she did not know what she said. Marion was grieved to find that he disap- proved of the part she had promised to take in getting the children away from Mormonism. But as the scheme was probably but a fancy of a disordered mind, and Marion was so anxious about it, he kindly promised at least not to in- terfere if the opportunity ever presented itself, which he did not expect. 92 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME; OH, CHAPTER VI. MARIOX sa^ so many children of all sizes pla3ung about the streets at all hours of the day that she at last in- quired why they were not at scliool and where the school buildings were. She had not seen one there. She was told that there were no schools; that Brother Brigham did not approve of educating their children. They were to be un- like the world's people — not seeking worldly wisdom, but wisdom from on liigh. It was sufficient for the girls to be taught reading, writing, housework, and needlework, and the boys sliould go so far as to learn a little arithmetic. The parents were expected to teach tliem, but especially to in- struct them in the religion of the Church. Schools had been attem]ited, but had been broken up or given up, because tlie pnrents were counselled to keep their children at ]H)m3. Education was a stepping-stone to apostasy. The leaders knew this, and did not mc ;n that th's stepping-stone should be furnished the people. Tlie theatre, however, which was a much-patronized institution, was a source of educali:)n in itself to the people. For there scarcely any but Gentile pla3"S were acted, and on the stage was depicted Gentile life, domestic, social, and ])ublic, which liad its charms to those wljo knew personally nothing but Mormon life, and doubly BO to those who had come from homes pure and sacred to one wife and mother to homes where j^olygamy reigned. The theatre, if a ])leasure to the Gentile world, was to the Mormon world like a glimpse into some far-off land, which to many seemed like a paradise, to others like the home of SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 93 their earlier days, and to still others it had no meanii'ig, save the amusciiicnt of the hour. The theatre fostered a taste for reading on the part of the young, but that taste could not be gratified, for there were no books to be had, save a few concerning the doctrines, rules, etc., of the church. If books were brought in by Gen- tiles, the authorities suppressed their reading, and in some cases even destroyed the books. Any one seeking an edu- cation was sneered at and ridiculed ; in fact, education was very unpopular. But in spite of all this, Marion conceived the idea of gathering as many children together as she could for tlio 2:)ur]jose of a school. She meant to be very wary fJiout it, and began by having them come to her two or three hours each day for the purpose of learning to sing. She was actuated by a desire to benefit the children, whom she felt should not be left to spend their time in the streets learning mischief and viciousness, by the hope of increasing their income, if ever so little, and by her love of teacliing. She readily obtained Elder Northfield's consent to her pro- ject, and easily found twenty-five children who were glad to come and whose parents were glad to send them to her. Little Johnnie Mordaunt was one of the number, and r.er young neighbor, Ella Atwood, another. Eila by this time had become a frequent visitor and often came with " father's other wife's baby.'' IMarion found her young flock composed of a great variety in respect to size, disposition, cul.ure, and natural refinement. Some were almost unmanageable in the exuberance of tlieir delight; but through the influence of story-telling and singing, sne was ab.e to quiet them all and send them home the first day very much interested in the new institution and ready to sound the praises of their friend and teacher. The school grew and progressed, until her little home was 94 ELDER XOnTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, full to overflowing, and she worked with all her migl;t to teach tliem what she could. No children were ever more eager to learn than they. She felt tliat she was rewarded for her work by the pleasure of hearing them sing, although rude and inharmonious voices were mingled with the clear and sweet tones of others. They were also slowly learning to read, and she gave them as much general information as she could and dared. ]\Iarion took a great deal ol jjleasure in her new enterprise, and soon loved many of her pupils very much. She had begun to feel quite secure in being un- molested by the authorities, when one day her husband re- turned and told her that he had been visited that day by Brigham Young and counselled to put an end to the school that was in progress at his house. Said Elder Northfield, " He told me that he had heard my wife was very weak in the faith, and asked me if it were so. I could only reply that it was. Then he said, ' I am very sorry for your sake, and for hers, too ; but she must stop that school. We want no v;oman with Gentile faith or inclinations teaching our children. They take naturally enough to the ways of the world without help in that direction.' He seemed a good deal vexed with me for allowing you to teach the children, knowing as I did that ycu were not a good Mormon. I am very sorry, my dear, for I see that you have taken so much pleasure in it, and I really think it a good thing for the children; but Brother Brigham does not know what you may be teaching them, and there is nothing to do but to send your children home when they come to-morrow, and really, Marion, I think it is for your good to do so, for I fear you have overtaxed yourself. You have worked very Lard —too hard for your strength, I fear." Marion was very indignant and very much disappointed, but, as her husband had said, tliCre was nothing for her to do but to submit. So very sadly she parted with her little SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 95 flock the next da}^ and some of the little ones cried bitterly because they could not come to school any more. But she had made warm friends for herself among the little folks, and they never forgot her or ceased to love her. Soon after the closing of the school Ella Atwood came run- ning into Marion's house, exclaiming, " O, Mrs. Northfield ! Please do come home with me ; Nettie is dying !" Mrs. North- field had become acquainted by this time with Mrs. Atwood and her daughter Nettie, who had been wasting away with consumption. Both mother and daughter were women of refinement, and their companionship had become a pleasure to Marion. She made haste to return with Ella to the sor- rowing home. There the second wile by every means in her poweV was kindly assisting the first in her eObrts for the dying sufferer's comfort, and the first wife's child was caring for the second wife's baby. Kindness and good-will reigned tliere ; but it was not a result of Mormonism — it was in spite of it. There are noble instincts and pure emotions whose brightness cannot be obscured by even that dark cloud — polygamy. Marion pressed her lips to the marble forehead of the dying girl, and the eyes opened with an eager, expectant look. They feared she would not speak again, but she said, "I thought he had come. He will come. I will wait for- him." She closed her eyes again. Her breathing became more labored. There was a sound of wheels at the door and a strong young man, with a look of remorse and grief on iiis face, entered, and kneeling by the bedside, took one emaci- ated hand in his, pressed it gently to his lips, and exclaimed : "0 God! I have killed her!" She opened her eyes and smiled. She beamed on him a look of unutterable- love and murmured : " I knew you would come; I waited for you." "0, Nettie, my darling, my own dear wife! Would to God I dared ask you to forgive me ! I did not mean to be 96 ELDER T-TORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, cruel to you. I did not know wliat I Vv'a3 doing. I lovo you and you alone. I was o:dy infatuated for a time with the other '' — ;he did not say wife). " Nettie, my sweet wife, can you forgive me?" Slu- reached up her frail arms, and, clasping them around his neck, drew his face down to liers. Tnen her arms dropped— and Nettie was dead. But that her last moments liad been happy ones there could be no doubt, for 0.1 her face was a look of perfect peace, and her lips wero almost wreathed with a smile. There came a time when Marion could no longer go to the homes of sorrow and mourning, carrying pity and com- fort with her — a time when her little friends, who came often to see lier, were sent quietly away — when the rooms of her cottage were darkened, and the footsteps about the houso were light and voices soft and low. There came to that humble, but happy home, a new light, a new care, a new and strong tie, to bind yet firmer the hearts of husband and "wife. And as the young mother beheld her baby boy, a new tenderness came into her heart, a new joy into her life, and to the father liis home became more sacred, more dear for the new treasure it contained. Marion's life in Salt Lake City had not been the happy one she had pictured for herself, for her surroundings had been such as to cause great sadness through her sympathy for the sorrows of oth.ers. That such an evil should exist under the name of religion ; that the Government would ]>crmit a system so wicked to enslave tlie minds of men and blight the happircss of women, and more personally tliat her husband should still be blinded by a belief in a religion which had proved itself so utterly devoid of morality and humanity— these tilings had given J^Iarion many a bitter thought, many a heartache. She longed that the scales might fall from her husband's eyes, and that he might see SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 97 as she did the utter depravity of the religion she had once loved so dearly ; then together they might leave this people and once more live in the Gentile world. Her former lies of friendship might be renewed, and the society of her sister again become a pleasure to her. But of all tins she had no hope. Thoughts and longings for it were all she indulged herself. But now her mind and heart were filled by her care for her little son Forest. Her home, with its priceless treasure, was the centre of her ambition. There she forgot the out- side world, with its sorrows and disturbances, and lived in a little world of her own. She became much happier than before her babe was born, and their comfort and happiness was increased still more by on improvement in their pecu- niary circumstances. Elder Northfield went into business for himself in the city and succeeded even beyond his hopes. In later times Marion often accused herself of selfishness at that time in driving every unpleasant thought from her and giving herself up so entirely to the enjoyment of her own blessings to the exclusion of everything else. But one unselfish mission was not entirely excluded— that was, the fulfilment of her promise, if ever it became neces- sary, to the forsaken Mrs. Parker, with regard to her chil- dren. It was far from her thoughts, however, one day, when she found at her door Francis and Edith Parker, more thin and haggard than ever, and wdth a somewhat ragged, ne- glected appearance, wliich had not been noticeable when she saw them before. She was shocked and frightened at sight of them, but gave them a warm welcome, and proceeded to open one of two letters, which the boy handed her, and read the following : " My Dear Kind Friend :— I cannot live any longer. I am not going to the house on the mountain side. It is too 7 large. I want rest. I want my children safe. I have tried to think and plan what you shall do with them, and how you will save them. I know you will save them from Mor- monism somehow, for you have promised m,e, but I have forgotten how. My memory is gone. But it will not be in the way I save myself, I know. I have been sick, but I am going to take some medicine that will cure me. I shall not be a Mormon woman then. I shall not be here, but ! don't let him know I am gone. I don't know where I shall go, or I would tell you ; but God bless you and the children, and some time, when Edith is a happy woman and Francis a noble man, I will go and see them and know what you have done for them and me. I wanted to write something else, but I can't think what it was. My memory is poor. Perhaps I will write again. The children will bring it to you. Now good-bye." There was no name signed, but Marion well knew who the writer was, and realized the awfulness of its import. She knew the woman's reason had quite departed, and that she would, if not prevented, put an end to her life. She trem- bled, but controlled herself enough to question the children. She asked what their mother had said to them as they came away. They answered that she had told them to carry her letter to Mrs. Northfield, in the city ; that she bid them good-bye over and over again, and kissed them and cried over them, and even called them back once to put her arms tight around them both, so that they could hardly breathe, and then she had said, "God bless and keep my darlings,'' and they came away frightened. They thought their mother was sick, and had sent for Mrs. Northfield to come to her. She then asked them about the other letter, which she now opened. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 99 The boy said a few weeks ago she had told him if ever he went into the city he must take that letter to Mrs. North- field, for she wanted it, and as he knew where she kept it, he took it, put it in his pocket, and brought it with him. He did not know what it was. It proved to be a letter from the apostate friend in Southern Utah, urging her to come to him, with her children, as secretly as possible, that he might send them all to her brother in California. It was expected that in a few weeks an emigrant party would pass through the place, travelling towards the West, and he wished her to join that party. He spoke of her brother's kindness and love for her, and of his probable disappointment if she did not avail herself of this means of escape. Enclosed in this was a letter from the brother to his sister, which proved the sincerity of all that the former had written. Marion felt that something must be done immediately. She told the children to remain in the house, and she would see about caring for their mother. She bade them on no account to leave the house or to be seen at the windows. She provided them with food and drink, and bade them not to be frightened if she did not return to them that night. Wonderingly, they promised obedience, and Marion left them, taking her babe with her. She proceeded immedi- ately to her husband's place of business, told him what had occurred, and placed in his hands the letters the children had brought. He was forced now to admit that the story— at least a part of it— that the unfortunate woman had told his wife was not the fancy of a disordered brain, and that the Gentile friend and brother in California were realities. But the children at his house— children of a Mormon elder I his wife about to conceal their whereabouts from their father, about to send them privately to the Gentile world ! His wife 100 ELDEll NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, instead of building up the Church performing an act directly to militate against it! The situation was appalling. Elder Parker's first wife insane and perhaps destroying herself, and he ignorant of it and of the whereabouts of his children ! His duty seemed plainly to be to inform Elder Parker of the circumstances, deliver his children up to him, and advise him to see that the poor woman was cared for, and this he tried to persuade Marion was the right way for them to act in the matter. But she was almost frantic with grief and horror at the thought, and reminded him of his promise at least not to interfere with the fulfilment of her word to Mrs. Parker. At last, at her earnest entreaty, he left his business, and pro- curing a carriage drove with Marion rapidly to the humble home of the suffering woman. Two or three women and a physician emerged from the house as they approached. They stopjDed to speak with the physician and make inquiries. '"Are 3'ou this woman's husband, sir?" said he. Elder Xorthfield was thankful that he could reply nega- tively, but said that they were friends. *' If you were, I was about to suggest that you immediately retrace your steps, as her greatest trouble is the fear of his presence and his possession of her children, who she says are safe with friends in the city. At least she should be allowed to die in peace." "She has taken poison," he continued, "and cannot live but a few hours. She is conscious at intervals, and evidently perfectly sane, which has not been the case with her of late." He would recommend that her most earnest request be complied with, namely, that Elder Parker should not be in- formed of her death, and that every means be taken to pre- vent the fact from coming to his ears. The villagers would SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON' 'ALTAR. , , , , , 3,01, aid her in that, and kindly and quietly give her a t)nrial there. The pliysician passed on, and tremblingly Marion entered Avith her husband. Two women made way for her, and she kneeled by the dying woman's bedside, but she was unconscious. She soon, however, opened her eyes, and now the wild gleam of a few months past was not in them, and a smile of recognition lighted them, but she was too weak to speak, save in short, faint whispers. Marion beckoned her husband to approach. He did so, and she turned to the woman and said, " Here is my hus- band, and we have come to try and help you. Your chil- dren are at my liouse, and are safe." " Will he help me ?" And she bent her searching eyes on Elder Northfield as she gasped the words. " Yes, my poor woman, I will help you. What can I do for you ? " said he, so touched by the sight that he could not refuse her. "Keep them away from him," she said, wdth great effort. " I wdll, if possible, and will see them safe with your Gen- tile friend, though my conscience tells me I am interfering with what I should not, and doing wrong, but for your sake I promise that your children shall leave the Mormons if I can accomplish it." " God will bless you," she said, and she never spoke again. She sank into a stupor from which she did not rouse, and soon her sorrowful life was at an end. But who shall say that this woman was a self-murderer? Who shall say that she was not a victim of polygamy rather than of her own hand? Who shall say that the sin of her death lay not rather at the door of a false religion than to her charge? May it not be that a pitying God, a loving Father, saw her infirmities, had compassion on her weak- ness, and tenderly gave her rest and peace where sorrow is ,102 ... . ELDL^ NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, unknown, where " the wicked cease from troubhng and the weary are at rest? " Elder Northfield and his wife left the dead to be cared for by the kind women of the village, and hastened home to care for the living and fulfil their duty to them. Elder Korthfield was terribly harassed in mind. His conscience reiDroached him for having promised to perform an act which would be treason to the Church and to one of its ciders. He considered it a sin to aid in sending any one from the Church into the world, thereby ruining the salvation of the soul. He was as ever a very devout Mormon, and duty had always been law to him. Conscientious in the extreme, yet with those dying eyes looking at him so pleadingly, those ice-cold lips making one last earthly request, humanity conquered his fanaticism, and he could not refuse. Little did he think when he left the city with Marion that he should return to take the responsibility into his own hands, which he had been so shocked to learn she had undertaken. But by the memory of that dying mother he could not betray his trust, and accordingly next day arranged his affairs to leave in other hands during his absence, and pre- pared to start in the evening with his young charges, to place them himself in the possession of their Gentile protector. But he was saved the commission of this sin against the Church and his conscience kept free from guilt, and Marion was called to meet one of the greatest disappointments she had ever known. Elder Parker, in spite of the precautions taken to the con- trary, learned of the death of his wife, through some means, and soon proved that his indifference to her children was not so complete as she thought. He learned that the vil- lao^ers were about to burv her, and did not consider himself under any obligation to interest himself further, but sought to learn where the children were. The people of the vicinity SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 103 could only tell him they were with friends in the city, that a man and w^oman named Northfield had been there, and might know where they were. He repaired to Elder North- field's house, arriving in the evening while he was out making arrangements for an immediate departure. Marion was wrap- ping up the little ones warmly for their journey, when on answering the summons at the door she was confronted by Elder Parker. He made his object known, and Marion's hope was gone. She thought of the poor mother's anguish through fear of this event, and wondered if in the other world she now looked down and beheld what was trans- piring. She boldly plead for the children, depicting that mother's sorrow and misery, and hoped to touch the heart of her listener. She begged that the dying request might be granted. She argued that he had children enough and to spare, and begged that these two might be allowed to go to the home so amply provided for them. Her arguments were of no avail, though she was glad to notice his evident uneasiness at hearing of his wife's sufferings. He mani- fested much anger towards her for the part she had taken in the proceeding, and she generously and skilfully contrived to make it appear that she was the principal offender in the case, that no blame might fall on her husband. Elder Parker left her, saying that he would send Carrie next day for the children. Soon after his departure, Elder North- field entered. He was surprised to learn how matters stood, but Marion could hardly feel kindly towards him when she observed that he appeared to feel relieved, as the responsi- bility that had so troubled him was taken from him. Marion passed a sleepless night. Not so her husband ; he could now rest, for he had a clear conscience, and although he remembered with pity the dying woman, he Avas glad to be honorably exempted from fulfilling his promise to her. 104 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, The next day Carrie came for the children. She was now in a house of her own, and was willing and ghid to under- take their care. Slie was a kind-hearted woman, and rather loneh^ as her husband's devotion was beginning to flag, and at best was to be divided among three. Sorrowfully Marion joarted with her little charges, though she felt sure that Carrie would be kind to them. But one thought sadly im- pressed her. They were after all to grow up Mormons, and the mother's fears for them would undoubtedly be realized. Not even her last wish while upon earth could be granted. Elder Northfield was now in trouble, and called down upon himself the indignation of Brigham Young and the Church. Kotwithstanding Marion's attempt to prevent any blame from falling upon him, the truth came out, and he was called to meet in conference with the Church authori- ties. He was accused of treason to the Church, and of being next door to apostacy. He positively denied the latter charge, declaring that he was never more determined to de- vote himself to his religion than then. He expressed his sorrow and humility at having allowed a dying woman to persuade him to undertake an act for which his conscience condemned him even at the time. He asked forgiveness of the Church for the offence, as he had done of God, and promised in future .to be influenced only by his duty towards God and the Church. The duty of obedience was then urged upon him, in living up to all the requirements of the religion. Reference was made to his wife, who had been the means of leading him to sin, and the strong lan- guage used against her nearly destroyed all the humility and penitence he had experienced. Although she had been the cause of his humiliation, yet he could not bear that one word should be said against her. He was reminded of his lack of dignity in allowing a woman to govern his actions, and urged to act upon the principle that the man is the SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 105 ruler of his wife or wives, and that his word should be the law to be unquestionably obeyed. A woman's salvation de- pended upon her obedience to her husband, and he who did not secure this failed in his duty towards her. His spiritual advisers went still farther and recommended him to take a step in advance in atonement for his sin and enter into polygamy. This was recommended for the benefit of his wife, also, '* for," said they, '' the sooner such women as she are forced into it the better. Nothing cures them of their opposition to the system sooner than being forced to submit to it. Besides, he was abundantly able to provide for an in- creased family, and while so many men were nobly struggling in poverty to support from two to eight or ten wives, it was a reproach to one of his income to remain longer with only one. He should see to it that he was building up his king- dom. Elder Northfield could hardly refrain then from de- claring his intention of never entering into polygamy, and telling them of his promise to that effect. Their exhorta- tions were at war with his better nature, and he felt antago- nistic to them. He tried to conquer this feeling, believing it was wicked to indulge in resentment against God's chosen servants. He tried to receive their counsel in a proper spirit. He replied that he would think of the matter. He hoped thus to satisfy them without open opposition. He now felt that he and his wife were placed in a very uncom- fortable position. He felt obliged to tell her what had been said to him, to warn her against any remark which might attract attention to her views. They agreed that they could not be too careful, and Clarion was very much troubled, though she comforted herself by calling to mind her hus- band's words, "Cost what it may, I will never take another wife." The excitement and interest in their case gradually dimin- ished, although frequently persecuted by suggestions of polygamy. These were a source of perplexity and torment 106 ELDER NORTHFIELDS HOME; OR, to Elder Northfield, who wished to be regarded, and wished to be, a devout Mormon. But he could not think of break- ing his vow to Marion, and thus blasting her young life. He did not either feel that God called him to take that step, though he dared not condemn it in others. And thus time passed on and another little one came to them— a second Elsie— frail and tender— a delicate flower which bloomed only for a time. She learned to lisp the names of papa and mamma, to wind her little arms lovingly around their necks, to play in her baby glee with little Forest, and then their hearts were called to mourn, for baby was no more. This was their first real sorrow. That strong man sobbed and shook with grief as his pet w^as laid away, and the young mother felt that henceforth her home was deso- late without its cradle, the little dresses, and the prints of baby fingers. Owing to the non-existence of regular mails, Marion had heard from and written to her sister but seldom ; and even had it been possible, her husband w^ould have discouraged a frequent correspondence, for he noticed Elsie's letters always seemed to make Marion more sad and discontented with her present life. Elsie was still living with her aunt, and ex- pressed her perfect content with everything, save her sepa- ration from her sister. Elder Northfield had long ago given up all hope of Marion ever again believing in the faith, but hoped that she would eventually become at least resigned and contented. He was still prospering in business, and the manner in which they were now able to live formed a strong contrast to their humble beginning. Forest was now a beautiful lad of four years, with golden hair and blue eyes like his mother's. He was the joy and pride of that home. But deep down in the hearts of father and mother was written the memory of the little girl that died, and her place could never be filled by another. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 107 CHAPTER VII. PEACEFULLY, almost happily, at times, were the days of Marion's life passing now, but her clear sky was darkening, a cloud was gathering, a storm was about to burst over her head and well-nigh overwhelm her. For a time, after the indignation brought upon them by the unsuccess- ful attempt to send Elder Parker's children into the Gentile world, Marion was troubled and annoyed by visits from pro- fessed friends, both male and female, who labored with a true missionary zeal to convince her of her remissness in duty and her sinful selfishness in insisting on being the only wife. Some of the brethren told her she was a curse instead of a blessing to her husband, and that but for her influence over him he would undoubtedly go on to the performance of his duty. Marion felt to thank God for this influence. She gradually withdrew herself from all society, as much as was possible, save that of her friend, Mrs. Atwood, and the young wife of Elder Atkins, with whom she had formed a strong friendship. She remained exclusively at home, find- ing her pleasure there in the home cares and society of her husband and little boy. Francis and Edith Parker came often to see her, and sometimes Carrie came with them. At length and by degrees a change seemed to come over Elder Northfield. His natural cheerfulness was departing, and he had an appearance of mental depression which aroused Marion's anxiety for him. She could not interest him in conversation, and if she talked to him he seemed pre- occupied in other matters. He often forgot to take his little 108 ET,DER KORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, bo}^ in his amis for a frolic, on returning home at nighty as he always had done, and tlie little fellow's loud demonstra- tions of jo}" at papa's return fell unnoticed on his car. Oi'ten did the child go to him with some request, and after trying in vain to attract his attention, he went discouraged to his mother with his wants. Elder Northfield sat reading now a great deal, but Marion had asked him on one or two occa- sions what he had been reading, and he could not tell her. He was kind as ever, and at times caressed her in the ten- derest manner ; again, almost extravagantly expressing his love for her and calling her by many endearing names. Not- withstanding this, at other times he seemed to have forgotten her very existence, so preoccupied was he. At first Marion did not appear to notice the change, striv- ing by every means to make him more cheerful, but as she fiiilcd in tliis, she asked him why he seemed so troubled. She inquired if his business affairs were perplexing him. He answered that he had met with some losses and was a little emharrassed, but hoped to get through all right. She tried to encourage him to think all would be well, and even if the worst came, they would only be obliged to go back to their old humble way of living, and that would not he so very dreadful, for had not some of their happiest days been spent in tliat humble cottage, where they first made a home for themselves? But he did not seem much comforted, although he fondly kissed his wife and called her his comforter. As the weeks passed he became more depressed, and his nights were rest- less, liis sleep troubled. One evening Marion approached the chamber where ho had repaired, and opened the door unnoticed by him. He was kneeling at the bedside. INIarion caught these words : "My God, if it is possible,. let this cup pass from me and my poor Marion. Nevertheless, not our will, but thine, be SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 109 done. Teach me my duty, God, and give me strength to do it. But let me not bring sorrow on that loving heart. Stay my hand, if thou wilt, but, God — " Marion heard no more:- she turned and fled, her heart filled with the most terrible forebodings. She caught up her boy and wildly kissed and caressed him. She could not think; she felt stunned. She tried to still the beatings of her heart. At last she had discovered the cause of her husband's strange mood. She divined the truth. As continued washing wears the hardest rock away, so the perpetual influence of the Mor- mon leaders had their effect at last on their victim. Con- stant and unceasing, for nearly four years, had been their efforts to convert him to a practical belief in the one doc- trine he had never embraced. Skilful had been their argu- ments and apt their presentations of Bible examples, and an important point was gained when they had convinced him that any man was justified in taking more than one wife. It was long, however, before he could be made to believe it was his duty to enter personally into polygamy. They, however, accomplished that in time ; but with his intelHgence and the natural nobility of his character, it never could have been accomplished, except through the fervor of his religion and his implicit faith in the higher authorities. His sacred vow and promise to his wife was of no account compared with his duty to his religion, and as it was made with a belief in its righteousness at the time, he was completely absolved from its fulfilment by the appearance of new light. Without obeying the commands of God, neither he nor his wife could ever enter the Celestial Kingdom ; therefore it was manifestly his duty, for her sake as well as his own, to obey. He had once been guilty of treason against the Church, and bitterly repented it, vowing thenceforth to perform every duty faithfully, as it was made known to him. Except his unfaithfulness in this affair, he had been a most conscien- 110 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, tious member of the Mormon Church, and now he believed it his duty to obey counsel, but it involved the breaking of his vow to Marion, and perhaps the breaking of her heart. Within his soul raged a terrible contest between love and duty. At last a crisis came. The patience of the Apostles was exhausted with the obstinacy of their intended convert, and he was voted a disgrace to the Church. His soft-heartedness and regard for his wife, and his fidelity to his promise to her, were ridiculed, and he was accused of submitting to woman's government. Then Brigham Young interested himself personally in the matter, and commanded Elder Northfield to take another wife, under penalty of expulsion from the Church. Said he, " If he will not obey, he is no Mormon, but a vile hypocrite, and will end in apostatizing. We will have no men in the Church who set themselves up above their leaders, or who will be governed by a Avife instead of the church. Let him go to the d 1, where he belongs, if he will not obe}^ counsel." Now he could only choose between obedience to the com- mands laid upon him and the giving up of his religion. The former involved the striking of a death-blow to his do- mestic happiness, the latter a giving up of all hope of hap- piness in the Celestial Kingdom for himself and her, too, for he believed that outside the Mormon Church there was no salvation. One course excluded, perhaps, all happiness in this world, and the other all happiness in the eternal world. Which should he choose? Abraham was willing to sacrifice his best beloved for his religion, and he would be doing no more in obeying Brigham Young's command. Should he wish to do less? Was not hesitating a proof of more love for an earthly idol than for God? Might it not be that if God saw his sub- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. lU mission and his willingness to go forward in the perform- ance of his duty, his hand, like Abraham's, would be stayed, and as Isaac was saved from being offered up a sacrifice, so might his best beloved escape ? So far had Elder Northfield's fanaticism carried him. This Avas the power a despotic religion exercised over the mind of man, blinding him to all sense of right, all instincts of reason, and investing the basest of crimes with the virtue of sacrifice and religious devotion. This was the religion which made men morally and mentally strong, to become weak tools in the hands of their leaders, — that worked upon the minds of men of the more emotional and religious nature, with the greatest success, making of them the most fanatical con- verts. Elder Northfield was now in that frame of mind which determined him to let nothing stand in the way of duty, and he resolved to obey at the expense of everything. He went to God in prayer for help and strength. To him there was no blasphemy in praying for strength to strike a death- blow to a loving, trustful heart, no mockery in asking God's blessing on his course, no inconsistency in imploring that if need be his heart might be hardened, lest it fail him in the performance of his duty. His mind was made up, and as Marion had once said, " Duty was law to him." He now felt a sense of relief in at last being able to decide, and decide aright, even at the ex- pense of his feelings. He felt that God would approve of his course, and even if he did not interpose, as in the case of Abraham and Isaac, yet his blessing would rest upon them, and in the end all would be well. Marion now knew that her husband had been persuaded or compelled to contemplate entering into polygamy. Her trust in him had been misplaced ; her faith had proved a vain one. Notwithstanding his oft-repeated promise, not- 112 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME) OR, withstanding his indignation that her aunt should think him capable of such faithlessness, now he was about to prove tlie truth of her conviction. The words of her aunt came back to her : " You know not how almost impossible it is for a man to withstand the con- stant counsels and commands to marry again. Will he be more true than every other man just as honorable and sin- cere as he now is ? " She thought of the many expressions of confidence in her future happiness that she had uttered, and of the never- wavering faith and trust she had given her husband, of his love and affection for her, and she could not believe that he would consummate the project he now undoubtedly enter- tained. Such wretchedness she never knew before. She felt that her heart would be crushed with its load of misery, but 3'et she hoped. Seldom comes a time, a situation, where there is no hope — no single gleam to keep the pulses of life throbbing, the beatings of the heart stirring. Dark indeed, even with Egyptian darkness, the hour which is cheered by not one ray of light to magnify and catch at, as a drowning man catches at a straw. Such utter darkness had not yet come to Marion's heart. She^ knew her influence over her husband, she knew his tenderness towards all mankind, and especially towards herself. She knew his natural humanity^ which lie could not crush out, had once, when weighed in the balance with duty and fidelity to the Church, turned the scale in favor of humanity, and that sympathy for misery had overbalanced all other considerations, and she hoped it might again. She knew his sorrow for that act, his strong faith, and his conscientiousness, yet she could not believe he would ruin her happiness forever. He had been besieged and persuaded, until he could resist no longer, but she had never plead with him. He had never listened to her entreaties, her side of the question had not SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 113 been presented to him. First, she would try the surest way to accomplish her purpose. She would still her beating heart and calmly reason with him. She would ask God to help her, and taking her Bible, try, as she never had done before, to show him his error from God's word. If she could only persuade him that Mormonism was a delusion, or even that it would be right for him to renounce his intention, she knew he would do so. She must stifle every emotion, keep her mind clear in spite of anything he might say to excite and terrify her, and with all her skill make one desperate effort to save herself. Failing in this, she would appeal to his sym- pathy, and at her pleadings, her loving entreaties, her sor- row, his heart would relent, and surely he could not deny her. Then they would forever leave that place where she had seen so much sorrow, and again be happy in the Gen- tile world. Elder Northfield now entered the room, with a troubled but determined look. " Marion," said he, with a husky voice, " I have something to tell you — something you will not like to hear. You have asked me what has been troubling me of late, and expressed Buch a brave spirit at the prospect of trouble in business, that I have hope that you will bear this trouble bravely, although of a different nature. The thought of it has made me wretched night and day for months. My own dear wife, God knows I would save you from it if I could ! " " You can, Henry ! O, you can, if you will ! I know what your trouble is. I know that you are deluded into believing that you must take another wife. I heard you asking God to give you strength to ruin my life, if need be. I heard you ask God to stay your hand. He will not stay it if you de- liberately decide to let it fall and crush me. I heard you pray God not to let you bring sorrow on that loving heart. He will let you do it, if you will. It is not God that is doing 8 114 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, this ; it is you. You are breaking your vow to me. You are forever blighting my happiness, and, I believe, your own, too. Is it a kind and just God who bids you do this thing? Is it a merciful Father who commands you to cause such misery to fall on one whom you should cherish and shield from trouble ? Is it a pure religion which leads you into such gross immorality? O, my dear husband, you are de- ceived ! How can you believe that such miserable teachings are divine ! Why will you not use the reason God has given you, and from it decide what is right ? Why ignore one of God's best gifts, and trample it under foot? If He gives revelations to the heads of the Church, He also gave you a mind and heart. Were they allowed to exercise their natural functions, you never could come to this. But your mind has become warped, you cannot see things in their right light. You are stifling all the good instincts of your heart, and think, in doing so, you are doing God's will." " Marion ! Marion ! You do not know what you are say- ing. The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked. We should not follow our inclinations, but our con- victions of duty. Although my heart aches for you, yet my conscience tells me I am right. If I could bear all your part of this trouble, as well as my own, I would gladly do it. Do you suppose I could ever have come to this decision if I had not believed it to be my duty ? We must crucify our own wills and inclinations, and be willing to obey God, no matter what the sacrifice may be, and in the eternal world our re- ward will be sure." " Does God delight in seeing his children inflict trouble on themselves and their dear ones ? " asked Marion. "Whom He loveth. He chasteneth," answered her hus- band. " Then let Him chasten. Do not take the chastening rod from His hands." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 115 "But He works through His children, and commands them, and they must obe3^" " Is God pleased to see the Hindoo mother throw her in- nocent babe into the Ganges as a sacrifice to appease His wrath? Does He delight in seeing the men and women of heathen lands throw themselves down for the wheels of Jug- gernaut to crush them ? Is He honored and pleased at the lifelong tortures men inflict on themselves in the hope of thereby gaining greater happiness in Heaven ? Or does He look upon the cruel wickedness in the Mormon church with any degree of pleasure because the participants fancy they are doing His will ? " " Marion, it is simply blasphemous for you to associate the religion of the Latter-Day Saints with heathenism, in the way you do. You never did so before, and would not thus denounce Mormonism now were it not that you so shrink from bearing the cross." " I never felt the necessity of it so strongly before, although my convictions have been the same since we first arrived in this city. But I have forebore to trouble you 'with my opinions, believing it to be useless to try to persuade you to renounce your rehgion, until now you propose to make a living sacrifice of me. I can't submit without an effort to show you that you are wrong, without a struggle to save myself and you, too, from future trouble, for I do believe that there will come a day before you die when you will bitterly repent it if you take this step." " I would give every dollar I possess, or ever hope to pos- sess, Marion, to see you again rooted and grounded in the faith as you once were. It is the lack of faith that gives rise to such opinions as yours. If you could believe in Mor- monism as I do, you would cheerfully submit to everything that was for your highest good and glory. You would bear this cross for Christ's sake. You would look beyond this 116 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, short life; and even if the consciousness of having done right failed to give you peace and joy here, you would be sure of happiness hereafter." *'But, Henry, what does the Bible say? Does it not say *Aman shall be the husband of one wife?' Does it not everywhere teach that plural marriages are wrong? " " My dear, was not Jacob a tried and faithful servant of God, blessed with visions from Heaven ? Did he not take first Leah, then Rachel, to wife ? And we have no intima- tion that God disapproved of his course. Abraham, too, the most favored of all God's servants, lived up to this doctrine. And what is more, Sarah, his first wife, gave unto him Hagar, another wife. No doubt she did it cheerfully, and God blessed her abundantly and in a wonderful manner." " But that was in the old dispensation before Christ came and taught differently. You know before His coming it was said ' an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth,' and God's servants were allowed to indulge in revenge against their enemies, and He even led them in battle to destroy them ; but Christ says, ' but I say unto you that you shall love your enemies, and do good to those that despitefully use you and persecute you.' All things were changed by his coming, and nowhere in the New Testament can be found any authority for this doctrine." " But, Marion, your own admission of a change, caused by a new dispensation, confounds your argument. We are living in a still newer dispensation — the last one — and it is changed from Christ's dispensation somev/hat, though re- sembling both that and the first. If we are to follow the last, then we are to follow the teachings and commands given in the new revelations. These last revelations of God to man are more binding upon us than the Bible by your own arguments. The Book of Mormon and the divine reve- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 117 lations to Joseph Smith on celestial marriages arc later authority than the Bible." "I was not thinking of man's dispensations, but of God's. I cannot believe that God gives revelations in these days; but if so, he would have selected men more pure and holy than Joseph Smith or Brigham Young to receive them. We both know that in all the years we have spent here, we have seen many actions of Brigham Young's and the Apos- tles which were very questionable for saints." "Certainly; even God's chosen servants sometimes sin. They are human and liable to err ; but that does not prove that they are not, in the main, right. We are not to judge those God has set over us. And as to the revelations, there is no reason why God should not give them in these days as well as in farmer times. But why argue the question further, Marion? It only distresses us both. I see my duty, and hard though it is, I must do it. I must do it for your sake, as well as mine ; for though you do not believe it, if we go into the Gentile world our souls are lost; but if I live up to the light given me, God will bless me and my house and thus bring us all into his kingdom. How can I hesitate between happiness here for my darling and eternal happiness for her ? that you might look far enough ahead and see as I do what will be for our happiness in the end ! " During this argument Marion had gradually become more and more hopeless, until at last she quite despaired of suc- cess. She was utterly wretched now, and very weak from her excitement and great effort to hide her emotion. Elder Northfield had been surprised at her calmness, and greatly relieved. He expected the wildest storm of grief, and dreaded exceedingly the effect the knowledge might have upon her. He had beforehand steeled his heart against her pleadings, lest his strength should fail him. But she had 118 ELDER NORTHFIELd's HOME ; OR, been so calm and composed, giving way to no emotion, that he now felt that he had been unnecessarily rigid. He thought the worst was now over and she would gradually look at the situation in a more favorable light. He little knew of the hope that was the secret of her calmness, nor realized that her self-control was like a desperate effort for dear life. She tried to rise from her chair, but fell back into it. She attempted to speak, but could not. Her husband sprang to save her from falling, and taking her in his arms, he gently laid her on a sofa, saying, '' My poor wife ! I pity you ! God knows I do ! " He procured a stimulant for her and she was soon able to speak. She wound her arms about his neck and plead with all the eloquence of her soul. Her appeal to his reason had been in vain ; now she appealed to his heart. As those blue eyes, so full of terror and anguish, looked into his, and those quivering lips begged and plead that he would keep his promise to her, his composure gave way, and he saw that all her former calmness was caused by her agony. She reminded him of his promise, of her never- failing devotion to him, of all she had given up for love of him, when all hope in her religion had failed her. She en- treated him, by the memory of all their past happiness, their little boy, their happy home, to relent and go into the Gen- tile world with her and their boy. Then it was that he hesitated. How could he dash the cup of happiness from her lips ? How could he reward all her faithfulness to him by breaking her heart? His deter- mination was weakening, and at the risk of their eternal salvation, he was almost persuaded to grant her request. He looked into her agonized face and felt that he could not refuse her; but as fate would have it, at that instant a leaf from a worn-out book of Mormon doctrines and revela- tions fluttered to his feet. His eye was arrested by a sen- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 119 tence in the latter part of the revelation on celestial mar- riages. He read these words : "And again, verily, verily, I say unto you, if a man have a wife, who holds the keys of this power, and he teaches unto her the laws of my priesthood, as pertaining to these things, then shall she believe and administer unto him, or she shall be destroyed, saith the Lord your God. For I will destroy her, for I will magnify my name upon all those who receive and abide in my law." Elder Northfield read these words and he was himself again. He had almost yielded to the temptation of his wife's entreaties, but was saved as by a miracle from falling again a victim to the nobleness of his own heart. Still he was pitiful and tender, but determined. " My darling," said he, " your pleadings correspond with my own inclinations, and I had almost yielded to the temptation, and thus ruined our hope for eternity, but this piece of paper has saved me. Believe me, I never loved you more than I do now, and if I did not love you thus, I might relent, for, dearest, you cannot know how hard it is for me to refuse you. I would willingly sacrifice everything in this life for myself to save you this pain ; but how can I sacrifice everything in the next life for us both to grant your request? My poor Marion ! Try to not think hard of me ; try to love me just the same ; try to believe that it is not my wish to bring this trouble upon ycy, and I will make it as light as I can. My love shall always be yours and yours alone. I only think of this as a painful duty which must be fulfilled." He took Marion's cold hand closely in his, but there was no answering pressure, and her lips could not form the answer he craved. Her affection had received almost its death- blow, and days passed during which she scarcely spoke or had strength to walk about the house. She sat in an easy- chair or reclined on her sofa, and seemed not to realize what 120 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, was going on around her. For the first time in her life her boy had no power to interest her, and his loving prattle fell unheeded on her ear. If her husband approached her she gave no sign of pleasure; when he left her she showed no regret. Her senses were stunned, and she was capable of but little emotion. But as her strength gradually returned, her realization of the situation came back to her. Hearts may break, all human hopes may die, all interest in life depart, and yet the body will live on; and one may wish for death, and wish in vain. Marion's friend, Mrs. Atwood, heard of her illness, and divining the cause hastened to her to offer comfort and sym- pathy. It was what Marion needed. She had her husband's sympathy and pity, but she did not care for that. It was no comfort to her. How could he know what she suffered? But this woman had been through the gUme trial, and could offer genuine sympathy from the sadness of her own heart. How she wept for Marion's grief, and Marion wept, too. These were the first tears she had shed since that evening, which now seemed so long ago. But they did her good, and soon she was able to be again about the house, but was the very ghost of her former self, with no interest, no animation, no pleasure in anything. It made Elder Northfield's heart ache to see how she suf- fered, but yet he did not reproach himself at all as being the cause. And he expected that soon she would be more re- signed and cheerful. There had passed no word between them on the subject during the time, but he had been goaded on by the authorities to the immediate consummation of his intention, and now felt obliged to speak again to her on the subject. He said he had no one in view for a wife, and asked her if she had any choice in the matter; if so, he would en- deavor to gratify her wishes. He told her then how matters had stood with him for years, and how he had fought against SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 121 it, both with his advisers and himself; how at last he was obliged b}^ Brigham Young's command to marry, and that without delay. " I have no choice," said Marion, " and only one request, that you say no more to me about it, but do as you will, only give her a house of her own. You can afford it, so please do not bring her here." "It shall be as you say, Marion," and the subject was dropped. The dut}' of finding a woman who was willing to enter into matrimony on short notice now occupied Elder North- field's attention; but he had little difficulty, for Brother Brigham was always an efficient helper in such matters, and he had a blooming young woman, by the name of Helen Crosby, already for him, and all counselled to marry. As Elder Northfield was an attractive person, and his worldly prospects all that could be desired, the candidate for his affec- tions made no opposition to his suit, and the pathway began to grow smooth to his feet.' Certainly it was pleasanter to sit and converse with the gay and sprightly Miss Crosby than to spend his evenings with his sad-faced wife, who scarcely ever spoke, except to her boy or in answer to some question. Her apparent wretch- edness was a continual reproach, and the hours spent in her society were anything but a pleasure to him. Still he kindly tried, by every means in his power, to soften her grief, till he saw that it w^as useless, and no effort of his could lift the veil of sadness from her heart. He became discouraged, and decided that all he could do was to leave it to time to bring about a change. He now devoted himself quite zealously to his betrothed. He must not marry in ignorance of his intended bride's qualities, disposition, etc., and as time was short, it must be improved. So evening, after evening found him in Helen's 122 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, parlor, and it must be confessed that the time slipped rapidly away, until a late hour, very often. There was no love be- stowed upon her, of course, for his love was always to be Marion's, and Marion's alone. This duty, that had caused him so many sleepless nights, so much grief, that had been undertaken at last almost by compulsion, was becoming less painful, and was performed with commendable alacrity and diligence. In a word. Elder Korthfield became quite infatuated with his betrothed. He never had believed any other woman but Marion could ever have his love, but without his realizing it this woman had gained an influence over him which he would never have thought possible. Her slightest wish was law to him. She could make him happy by a word or ex- tremely uncomfortable by a look. She enjoyed exercising her power over him, and was in no haste to enter the matri- monial state, lest the present agreeable state of things be- come changed. And during this time Marion saw all. She knew all that was transpiring, though no word was spoken. She knew her husband had lost the look of trouble and perplexity he had worn so long, and that his sorrow for her grief was forgotten. Although never actually unkind to her, yet he was very un- mindful of her, and she knew her place in his affections had been usurped by another. She avoided seeing him leave the house, evening after evening, in such a pleasant preoccupied way, that told so much. A thousand little actions of his were like fresh stabs to her already bleeding heart. No little loving attentions, like those of former days, were attempted now, and Marion could not have received them, if they had been offered her. Her husband was her own no longer. She felt as though she were divorced from him. It was not enough that he should take another wife, as a matter of duty, but he had also transferred his affections to her, and Marion was no SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 123 longer loved by her husband. An unloved wife was she now, and she drank the cup of bitterness to the dregs. As long as her husband loved her the darkness was not quite com- plete, although she had thought it could not be greater, but now all she could hope and wish for was death. She prayed that God in his mercy would take her and her boy from the bitterness of this life and give them rest and peace. She never complained, and her husband, when he thought of her at all, thought she was getting resigned, and would in time "get used to it," as other wives did. And when he told her that on the following day he was to be married to Helen Crosby, he was gratified to observe no indication of pain at the information. He did not know that she had come to that point where she could suffer no more ; that her heart had become seared with its burning and pain. He asked her if she felt able to go with him to the Endow- ment House and perform her part in the ceremony, and she answered that she would go. He kissed her and called her his brave wife, but his words and caress seemed but mockery to her, and she shrank from them. On the following day she gave her husband a second wife. She placed the hand of Helen Crosby in his, and he was married to her for time and eternity. There was no essen- tial difference between the bridegroom of that occasion and the bridegroom of Gentile life. There was no reason to think the young pair were not in the same blissful state of mind commonly supposed to belong to their existing circum- stances. Very happy the bride seemed to be, and what was it to them that a woman, once far lovelier and fairer than she, and of a much nobler nature, stood by their side a crushed, a wretched being? They did not know it. Their fascination for each other completely blinded them to every- thing else. Had it not been so, neither could have been so heartless. 124 ELDER XORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, In the days that followed, Marion saw very little of her husband. For this she did not care, now that he was hers no longer ; but those who frequented the ball-room, the theatre, and the social entertainments, saw him with his bride among the gayest of the gay. He had obeyed divine commands and was now happy. His conscience was at rest, and life was now a pleasure to him. About this time Marion received a letter from her sister. It was written on the anniversary of Marion's wedding-day, and much was said in it about the lives of both since their separation. Elsie tenderly referred to the loss of her little namesake, but congratulated Marion that her life had been free from the trouble that she and tlieir aunt had so strongly apprehended. She acknowledged the injustice done Marion's husband in believing he would be untrue to her, and spoke in glowing terms of the force of character he proved to pos- sess to enable him to stand firm for the right in the midst of such overwhelming influence. She said: "Now, Marion, after all these years have passed and still you are the first and only one in your husband's affections, I can lay aside my fears for you and believe that you were right in trusting 60 implicitly in his word. I feel hke begging his pardon for misjudging him in the way I did." Then she confided to her sister the events of her own life — the emotions of her own heart. Happily had passed the years with her at her aunt's home, and now a new joy had come into her life — a new gift was bestowed upon her. It was the love and de- votion of one of God's noblemen, and Elsie was soon to unite her destiny w^ith his in marriage. The wedding-day was appointed, " and," wTote Elsie, " the only impediment to my perfect happiness on that day will be the absence of my sister Marion. But I know^ her thoughts will be w4th me, and with all her heart and soul she will wish me joy, although I cannot hear her lips express her sentiments. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 125 Think of me that day, darling sister, and pray that I may be as faithful a wife as you have been, and that my hus- band's devotion may continue through the coming years as Elder Northfield's devotion has endured for you." At the reading of this letter Marion was taken out of her- self, and her sister's interests were hers for the time. But ! the bitterness of her heart as she read the undeserved praises of her husband and realized that her aunt's predictions were fulfilled, and that haunting spectre of her life, which, how- ever, she never believed would take its abode in her home, had at last blighted her life as it had so many before her. By accident, as she was leaving the room, and unnoticed by her, the letter dropped from her hands, which were filled with letters and papers. Elder Northfield entered, and ob- serving the post-mark, opened and read the letter. He could not tell why he did so, for he usually avoided Elsie's letters, but this one he read from beginning to end. He heartily wdshed he had not, however, for it made him very uncomfortable. He could not get it out of his mind, and although he sought the companionship of his bride to dispel his uneasiness, yet the effects of that letter lasted many a day. Marion's callers had become very infrequent, in conse- quence of her seclusion from all society ; but now, since the great change in their lives, she had often to go through the ordeal of entertaining company. Some came to ofier sym- pathy and comfort. Among this class were Mrs. Atwood, the wives of Elder Atkins, and Carrie Parker. Carrie could now sympathize with her, for she had tasted of the cup of sorrow, and her once fond husband had added another wife to his list, another jewel to his crown, another subject to his kingdom, and Carrie was ruthlessly thrust aside. She now devoted herself to the children she had taken to her heart, and in them she found much comfort. There were other 126 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, callers who came or were sent to labor with Marion to recon- cile her to her lot and exhort her to submission and religions devotion. And still another class, who came out of curiosity to see how the rebellious wife appeared, and " whether she would now hold up her head and boast that her husband would never be a polygamist." Among this class came two of the Mrs. Smiths, Ellen and Josephine, and they were hardened enough to taunt her of her faith in her husband. Marion's heart had been too dead to be stirred by anger, but this insult awakened her indignation and resentment. A new life seemed to be given her. Her blood boiled and surged through her veins till it seemed that it was turned to fire. Her eyes kindled, her pale cheeks crimsoned, and Marion was changed. Her visitors departed, astonished and not a little taken aback. The change in her was too great for even her husband not to observe it. He had meant to tell her of his intention of bringing Helen there on the fol- lowing day that his wives might become acquainted, but something in her voice and looks deterred him from pro- posing that she make some friendly advances towards the new wife as he had intended. But in a few days he told her of his wish to bring Helen there for a call, and requested that she would receive her graciously. He took close obser- vation of his wife now, and gave her more thought and at- tention than he had before since Helen had first occupied his mind. He was shocked to see how changed she was. Her eyes had lost their pleasant light, and her lips were drawn as with great suffering. Her cheeks were thin and hollow, and were either deadly pale or glowing with the excitement of inward pain. He thought of his beautiful and happy bride of five years before, and to his credit it may be said that he was touched by feelings of remorse. Marion said, " Bring her if you wish," but she did not care to make any attempt towards cultivating an acquaintance. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 127 Her husband thought she was trying to be reconciled and would overcome her sadness in time. He pitied her now that lie thought of her, and sought to make their conversa- tion cheerful. It was his first heartfelt attention for a long time, but it only made Marion more miserable, for it soft- ened the hardness of her heart and rendered her more sensi- tive to grief. She could have borne insult better, for anger would have stifled more torturing emotions. 128 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, CHAPTER VIII. MARION had consented to the bringing of the second wife into her home, but she felt that she could not endure the painful ordeal that was expected of her. She grew almost frantic as she paced her chamber till the small hours of the night. She longed for escape. She could not remain in that house after it had been polluted by the en- trance of her husband's new wife. She resolved to take her child and steal away in the darkness, make her way out of the city in the direction of Southern Utah, and journey cau- tiously and secretly to the house of the man who befriended one wretched woman in her trouble. He would help her out of the Territory, she felt sure, and she would go into the Gentile world — not among her friends — no, Elsie should never know her situation, no matter what she suffered. She and aunt Wells must never know of her humiliation and trouble, if they never heard from her again. Elsie was very happy now, and her happiness should not be clouded by her sister's trouble. In the Gentile world, among strangers, she would find employment, and there rear her little son away from all Mormon influences. Her husband would not care. He did not love her, and she did not love him now. She woke her slumbering boy with difficulty. He thrust his fists into his big blue eyes and rubbed them till the tears came. His mother told him wonderful stories to keep him awake, while she combed his long curly locks and washed his chubby face. She dressed him with all a mother's care, and then made up a bundle of a few necessary articles of clothing. SACRIFICED ON THE MORrilON ALTAR. 120 "Forest," said slic, " clo you want to go with mamma to see Mrs. Atwood? " "O yes, mamma! and Ella and Robbie, too. Cut why don't you wait till morning? I'm so sleepy." " It is morning, dear, but very early ; and I do not want to disturb the rest, so my boy must be very still." " I'll be very still," said he, " and I'll take my new cart in the carriage and show it to Robbie, and we'll play with it." But in spite of Forest's promises, tvro or tliree peals of laughter escaped him, as he thought and talked of the fun he was to have with Robbie. Clarion was alarmed lest he had av/akened the house, but lier fears were groundless, and with what money she had in her possession, her jewelry, and her bundle, they quietly de- scended the stairs, and carefully undoing the fastenings of one of the outer doors, they stood free, with only the blue sky above them. " Why, mamma, where is the carriage and where is papa? " asked Forest. " Hush, my child, we are going to walk, and papa is not going with us." " Then I can't carry my little cart." "0, yes, you can; we will draw it," said Marion, willing to do anything to hush the child. She procured the cart in great fear of being discovered, and carried it with one arm, in spite of its weight, lest the sound of its wheels should be heard, and with the other hand almost dragged her child along. When the}'' had proceeded some distance, she put it on the ground and they drew it, and soon as Forest grew tired and sleepy, she persuaded him to leave it by the roadside, and then they hastened on. She felt that she must see her friend, Mrs. Atwood, again, and thither she was going to bid her farav/ell. She had some 9 130 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, difficulty in arousing the inmates of the house, but finally succeeded. Mr. Atwood was not at home, Marion knew. He with his second wife had gone on a visit to her friends, and Forest was much disappointed to learn that Robbie had gone with his mother. Had they been at home, Marion would not have dared approach their cottage. Mrs. Atwood was astonished and alarmed to receive a visit from her friend at that unseasonable hour, but she gave her a kind welcome. Marion was so exhausted with her excitement and long, hurried walk, that she could hardly speak. Mrs. Atwood kindly bade her not to try to talk, but rest a few moments, and then tell what had brought her there. She obeyed, and as her glance wandered around the room it rested on more than one reminder of her happier life in the. cottage she had just passed. There were the books she had given Ella from which to learn to read. These reminded her of her little school, that was such a pleasure to her. Here was a picture, sketched by her one leisure afternoon ; and now her eyes rested on a picture of herself and husband, taken long ago, when they were happy and true to each other. She reached out her hand and asked for it. Her friend gave it to her. Her eyes were riveted on that face, beaming with tenderness and love. His expression had changed since the days there portrayed. Marion could not take her eyes from that face. "He loved me then," she murmured. " Yes, and he will love you again," said her friend. " Do you believe that? " asked Marion. " I do, and think he will come to his senses sooner or later, and realize that his infatuation for Helen is only an infatuation, and that it is only Marion whom he really loves." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 131 Into Marion's heart there came a gleam of hope at the thouglit. '• If I could have helieved tliat," said she, " I should not have heen here now. I would Avait patiently for yenrs, ar:d endure almost anything, if I knew he would cc n.e back to me at last, and be mine alone again — if we could have the same happ}^ life we lived in that little cottage yonder. But it never can be ! " Then she told Mrs. Atwood of her project, and that she had come to bid her a final farewell. " My poor, dear friend,'' said Mrs. Atwood, " you must not think of anything so rash. In your condition you will perish before you can complete such a journey, and with that little bo}^ you will surely fail in your attempt. Wait till you are better able to undertake it, and if you are not less unhapp}^, I will help you all I can to get away from Mormon life. But, Marion, I believe brighter days are com- ing for you. It is always darkest just before the day, you know. Nettie's husband repented of his neglect to her, you know, even though at the eleventh hour. But his repent- ance is sincere, I have no reason to doubt, and another man may repent at an earlier hour. Your husband may be that man, Marion. I have hope for you yet." And Marion began to have hope for herself. "Yes," she said, "he may repent at my dying bed; that would be worth a great deal. Would it be worth waiting a lifetime for, or will my life be a short one, as I sometimes think and hope? If he should repent in time to give me a little happiness before I die, it would be worth living for." Marion had thought all love for her husband had died in her heart, but at sight of his picture, old memories were re- vived, and her old love with them. She felt now that slie could not leave her husband. She loved him still, and would patiently wait and hope to win him back to herself. 132 ELDER yORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, "When day dawned ^Mrs. Atwood procured a carriafre and ■went witli Marion and Forest to their home. But Marion's cxliaiistion proved too much for her endurance, and ihe felt the pressure of baby hands, life yet had its charms for her, and she was far from wishing now that she and Forest might die. She saw tliat her little one had the deep dark eyes and black curly hair of its father, and was glad it was so. " We have called her Marion. Shall that be her name— chall we have a little Marion? " Marion was pleased at this token of affection, and said: ''If you wish it." " ] do, for INIarion is the sweetest name to me. Now, shaU I take bah 7 away and bring Forest to see you ? " " Yes ; let me see my little boy. Where has he been all this time?" But he was in the room before they could call him. 134 ELDER NORTIIFIELd's HOME; OR, "MaiTima! nianima ! " said lie, " tliey "wouldn't let mc come to see you. Tlicy said I would make a nijise — and see how still I am ! Papa stays liere now all the time, dont he, mamma ? and he sa3'S next time we go to Mrs. Atwood's he will go with us, and we will ride. And he tried to find my cart, and it was all gone, and I couldn't 'member Avhere v/e put it. Can't you find it, mamma? " Her little son's words revived all that had passed during that wretched night that she had attempted to run away from her husband. She felt to thank God now that she had been prevented. Had slie accomplished her object, she would never have known the blessedness of this restoration. Her life would always have been dark; but now there was hope for her. She was exhausted now, and several days passed before the subject of their estrangement was again brought up. Then INfarion was stronger and better aljle to bear it, and her husband spoke freely to her about Helen and his relation to her. " How I ever became so taken up with her I cannot tell. At first I went there from a sense of duty alone, but some- how or other she gained a great power and influence over nie. I was fairly intoxicated with my infatuation for her and knew nothing else. J do not think I really loved her. It seems to me I could not have been in my right mind ; but after a time the scales began to fall from my eyes, and I saw that she had never appreciated my devotion to her and delighted only in the power and position she had ol)tained. I came home and found my Marion too sick to know me and too weak to raise her hand. The sight of my poor brokenhearted wife brought me back to my senses. God only knows tb.e anguish of remorse and penitence that I suf- fered, as I realized what I had done. From that time, Marion, I have tried to atone for my cruelty to you, by watching and caring for you, hoping to bring you back to SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 135 life and health, for, darling, I feared I had killed you. I feared 3^011 would never speak to me again, and 3^ou can- not know how glad I am to see you growing stronger every day. Now, Marion, can you forgive me and be happy again ? " " I can forgive you with all my heart, and I think I can be happy. I thought once that it would be sufficient to make me miserable for life to have you take another wife, even if it was only as a duty; but since I lost your love, and was utterly forsaken for her, I know that I could bear a part of the load, if only the heaviest need not be laid upon me. O, Henry ! You know not my wretchedness, as I felt forsaken and alone with only my boy to love me. You know not how I longed and prayed that I might die and rest from my misery. I felt that I could not bear the ordeal of meeting Helen, and so I stole away. But I am glad, so glad, that I am back again, and to prove how freely I for- give you, I will try to make friends with Helen if you w^ish." " Not at present, Marion. Some time when you are well and strong I would be glad to have you become acquainted, for she, too, is my wife, you know " (Marion could not hear these words without shrinking and disputing them to her- self), " and I have a duty to perform towards her as well as towards you. I have neglected her almost entirely since you have been ill, and she is quite angry with me, and not without some cause. I do not think my neglect could ever grieve her as it has you, yet I have no doubt she has been very lonely, and I am sorry for her; but still my Marion has needed me most, and needs me most now ; and hence- forth, though I have two wives and must do justice to both, my attentions to Helen shall be limited by my convictions of duty. Beyond that I will never go ; but you will see yourself that it would be cruel to her to neglect her entirely, and I am sure you would not wish me to do that." 136 ELDER NORTIiriELD's HOME ; OR, ''No. Now tliat you have made her your Avife yon must trv to do ^^;l•lt. But how can a man do liis duty to one wife without neglecting the other? I think it impossible, and if you try to do justice we shall each have a cross to hear; hut I will try to bear mine patiently, for it is now so much lighter. It does not crush me now. The heaviest part of the hurden is removed, and I can hear the rest. But shall I tell you what I thought when I first realized that you were with me again ? I thought you had repented of it all — that you had at last seen your error, and had forsaken Helen and Mormonism and were ready to leave everything hcne and go with me to the Gentile world. how happy the thought made me ! " "I almost wish it were right, Marion, for your sake — you are so unhappy here — and I would gladly do so. But I cannot helieve that there is any true religion, except this one. It is God's last revelation, nnd though the majority of tho, world does not accept it, God's chosen people were always a little flock, and if I desert the cause I liave es' ponsed and refuse to walk in the light given me I know what my reward will be. I know in taking Helen I did my duty, and sinned only in allowing the matter to he anything but a duty." The roses were not coming hack into Marion's life without the thorns, and with the comfort her husband's words gave her was mingled a good deal of bitterness, as she realized that polygamy was to cloud her domestic happiness, though she believed not to altogether destroy it. And she would liope that some time he might see the fallacy of his whole belief and shake off the fetters that bound him captive to a false religion. As the weeks passed on, Marion was tormented in spite of herself vrith feelings of jealousy and fear of Helen again be- coming a rival in her husband's regard. He was a lover of SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 137 society, r.nd would have been pjlad if he could have taken both wives with him to ])laccs of amusement as other men did. But that was out of the question. jNIarion sometimes accompanied him, but she was anytlnng but happy, and preferred the quiet of her own home and the society of lier little ones. Fear of Helen, however, always ensured a will- ing assent to an}^ request of her husband for her company. But Helen was seen with him oftenest, and she was sup- posed to be his favorite wife; but she knew that she was not — her power over him liad gone. He no longer lingered lover-like, loth to go, but hastened home to Marion. If Marion was jealous of tlie second wife, doubly so now was the second wife jealous of her. This celestial order of mar- riage was poorly calculated to inspire heavenly attributes in its victims. Marion resolved at last to conquer her feelings aTul call upon Helen. She felt that she could not meet her first in the presence of her husband, and therefore said nothing about her intentions to him. With a beating heart she rang the bell at Helen's door, but Helen was not at home, and Marion could not avoid a sigh of relief at being spared an interview with her. She retraced her steps, and passing one of the shops saw tlirough the window her husband and his wife, Helen, ap- parently making purchases together. Tijis was the first time she had ever seen them together since their marriage, and the first time she had seen Helen at all, except on that day Ghe had given her to their husband, and now the sight of her filled her heart with pangs of jealousy and hatred. Was she deceived in her husband and were the hours she supposed he devoted to business spent in attending Helen in her shopping expeditions? And Marion returned to her home, almost ready to give herself up to her old wretchedness. Her husband had seen her as she passed the windows and inquired at night where she had been. 138 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, TIlis led to an explanation, wliicli quieted her fears, and again lier mind vvas at rest. But her life in those days was like a turbulent, fitful stream — now quiet and comparatively peaceful, now agitated by fears and apprehensions and dark- ened by the many heartaches that polygamy in even its most unobjectionable form must cause. An interesting event now occurred in the other branch of Elder Northfield's family. He was presented with a daugh- ter b3^ Helen. His family was increasing, and his kingdom building up now in a manner approved by the Saints. Three additions had been made to it within a year, and he began to be looked upon with favor by the Cliurch authori- ties. He was in good standing now with the Church and considered a good Mormon. There was now a new attraction in Helen's home for him, and she saw with pleasure that her babe was bringing her more of the society of her husband. But Marion could only look upon the little stranger as an intruder, and upon its arrival her heart was filled with feelings of hatred. She considered it a usurper of the affection that belonged to her and her children. It seemed like a new outrage upon her domestic life, and she was very unhappy struggling with her feeling of hatred towards Helen and her child. She knew that she was wrong and despised herself for her unjust senti- ments towards an innocent babe. She tried to put herself in Helen's place and to possess the spirit of kindness toward her and hers. She resolved to do as slie would be done by in Helen's circumstances and conquer her jealousy. She de- termined to crush out her enmity and call upon the other wife and child, hoping that might lead the wa}" to a better feeling among tliem. She found Helen with her bahe in her arms. She received her sister-wife in a cool, suspicious manner. Each tried to speak calmly and regard the other with ease, but both tnew SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 139 from this, their first interview, that there could never exist any feeling of love, or even friendship, between them. IMarion tried to regard the little one with at least the same tender- ness any ordinary babe would have awakened, for she was extremely fond of children, but it was all she could do to pay it the amount of attention she felt necessary. She took it in her arms, and its touch sent a chill through her. She ft'lt her heart harden towards the innocent httle one, and its mother also. She almost dropped it into the arms of the latter, who, being on the alert, did not fail to notice her visi- tor's repugnance. Instead of conquering her animosity, Marion had increased it by coming in contact with its cbjccts. Helen also resented the dislike Marion's face expressed for her little Nell, and from that time they were further than ever from becoming friendly. No further effort was made on either side to that effect, each knowing that any such at- tempt would but augment the unpleasantness of their mutual relations. But Marion went home sad and self-reproachful for her wicked sensations as she held in her arms a babe just as dear and sweet to its mother as her own little Marion was to her, and for aught she knew, just as dear to her husband as was his other babe. In this last thought lay much of the sting, and she became very jealous of little Nell for baby Marion's sake. As the little ones grew older, and were able to lisp a few words, walk about, and frolic and play, Nell became her father's favorite, for she Avas always pleased to see him, always ready to meet him with outstretched arms and a laughing happy face, while little Marion shrank timidly from him, and only the greatest coaxing could bring her to his side. If she was having a merry romp with her mother, suddenly the sound of her father's footsteps would change 140 ELDER KORTIIFIELD S HOME) OR, tlic briglit (lark boauly of her face to a look of fear, as she -watched him and clir.v^ f:ist to her mother's neck. Elder Northlield had often stood an unobserved spectator, -watching her beauty and grace, her sprightliness and sweet •winninir vrays, as slic played v/ith Forest, of whom she was very fond, and wished that he might, for just one hour, have tlie love and confidence of his little daugliter. He envied little Forest. When he spoke to her, hoping to coax her to him, she instantly grew spbcr and ran away to her mother. Tins was a constant source of annoyance to Elder North- field, but more so to the mother, for she most ardently wished her husband to love their little daughter, and she tried to create an affection in Marion for him, fearing baby Nell, with her winsomeness, would supplant Marion in his heart. Cut little Marion could not be made to love and trust in her father to any great extent, and as time passed on Nell be- came more and more the favorite. Elder Northfield now spent more of his time at Helen's home, but she never regained her old power over him. It was his child that brought him there, if he came more than duty compelled him. His first wife continued to be first in his thoughts and heart, although she was often racked with jealous fears to the contrary. Helen's baby she knew had supplanted her Marion, and Helen might yet supjjlant her, as she liad once done. She could not rest, as she had once, secure in her confidence in her husband. Thus matters went on until the little ones were about three years old. Then Helen's health began to fail; she grew rapidly worse, and lier husband felt that it was his duty to attend her as much as possil)lc. Marion compelled herself to wiibmLdy forego her claim to his society, and was now much alone. She tried to school herself to believe that it was her husband's duty to remain by Helen's bedside, as he h:id re- mained by hers, and now into her heart came sympathy for SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 141 the sufferer, and her ill feeling wasr chnngecl to pity. She went with him and tried to administer to the wants of Helen, and show her that she had hanished her unkind feelings towards her and little Nell. Marion really felt regretful now for her past jealousy, and wished to make amends. She did not shrink now from Nell's touch, but gently cared for her as she did for her own darling. Helen's eyes, as she lay on her pillow, followed Marion about, as though she wondered at her kindness, but could not understand that she had forgiven her for becoming her husband's wife. At last one day Elder Northfield entered Helen's room, and taking her hand said : " My poor Helen, can you bear to be told what your phy- sician says? " " What does he say ? Tell me, is there no hope for me ? Must I die?" " We fear you must, and I did not think it right not to tell you. Dear Helen, I am sorry, but I can give you no hope." "Are you sorry ? I did not think you would care. You have not loved mc much since the first few months I knew you." " Forgive me, if I have not loved you as I ought. I have tried to do right, but it was hard sometimes to know what was my duty. I have not meant to wrong any one." '' O my poor little Nell ! " moaned Helen. "Have you any wish or request to make about Nell's future? Marion, I think, is getting very fond of her, and you may rest assured she will be well cared for." " Not by her ! I don't want her to have my child. She does not love her. She hated her the first time she saw her ; I saw it in her eye. I saw her shiver, almost, as she put her out of her arms. Why she came then, I do not know. Why she comes now, and seems kind to me, I do not know. 142 I^LDER NORTHFIELd's HOME ; OR, "She comes now, Helen, because she pities 3'ou, and wishes to show her kind feeling towards you." " But she has always hated me, and my baby, too ; and do you think I would now put my little one in her care? My sister will take her, and you must promise me to send her to mj sister." '•'Cut, Helen, you know how I love her, and how hard it will be for me to part with her." " Yes, I know you love her, and perhaps I should have had more pity for you if you had had more for me. But I know that your love for her is all that has brought you here. Had it not been for her, I should have been utterly neglected. You were all devotion to me till we were married, and led me to expect you would continue to be, but how soon you forsook me ! You gave one wife years of de- votion, but could only give the other a few short months. It was only fair tliat I should have been first in your regard now, but you went back to her again, and she even grudged mo what slight attentions you did pay me. She grudged mo even my baby, my only treasure and jov, and sire shall not have her now. At least you will not refuse this request, now that I am going to die. I suppose she will be glad when I am dead, and no one will mourn for me but poor little Xell and my sister." "Helen, I shall mourn for ycu ; and if you only might live, I think we should all be more happy in our relations to each other than we have been. Try to feel forgiving towards Marion and me. ]\Iarion feels perfectly friendly now towards you." "I never can feel forgiving towards her, even though I am dying. She has wanted all and was willing I sliould have nothing. She has been very selfish, I think, and cannot atone for it now I am dying. But you will grant my request ? " SACRIFICED OiN THE MORMON ALTAR. 143 "Yes, Helen, it shall be as you wisli. God knows I am Boriy enon;^li I liavc not made you any happier. I have made two women miserable, but I tried to do my duty. Our religion leads to these results sometimes, I think, and we musr try to think it is all right, for it cannot always be helped, and although our wives have a cross to bear in this life, in the Celestial Kingdom they will be happy. There is hope for you, Helen. You will have a place there to reward you for ail you have had to bear here, and there we know all these human weaknesses will not trouble us, and we will meet there and be happy." " I do not think much about these things. I suppose it is so, but nothing of that kind seems real to me. I think if she were there with her children, I should not be any happier than I am here. I do not want to die ; I want to live for my baby's sake. O, I can't die!" and Helen went into a perfect paroxysm of grief. Marion, although the greatest sufferer, was not the only one in this case of polygamy, Helen's sorrows, or cross, cs the Mormons spoke of it, had been hard to bear. Her short experience of the system had proved a sad one, and was bringing bitterness into her dying hours. She felt that she had been robbed of her share of happiness, and in the be- yond there was nothing brighter to hope for. Nothing more in this life for her — her only pleasure she must leave. She lay upon her dying bed while the one who smoothed her pillow and watched over her, though bearing the nearest and what should be the dearest relationship to her, performed these offices from a sense of duty, rather than from the promptings of love. Polygamy had hung a pall over this young life, and robbed her death of all rays of light and hope. The husband, too, had suffered. Perplexed beyond measure had he been to decide how to deal justly and fairly with both wives — how to avoid giving pain to either, or ne- 144 ELDER NORTIIFIEI,d's HOME; OR, glectin:? ono for tiio otlier. If his vrivcs could have lived tojxether, gone out together, accompanied him together, his t.isk would have hcen easier; hut he never would try to bring tiiat affliction on Marion, and it would have been equally impossible to persuade Helen to that mode of life. Elder Northfield was not like most Mormon men, who would have "forced then:- into it," and who frequently advised him to that course. He knew their cross must be heavy enough at best, and humanely endeavored to make it as light as was in his power. There was constantly something too notice- able in the appearance of each wife that seemed like a re- proach to him. He was able to make neither happ}', and this consciousness weighed like a millstone about his neck. His domestic happiness had gone in a great measure. Ho did not possess the affection of one of his little daughters, and now his wife was dying with reproaches for him on her lips. He had done his duty, lived up to the light he had received, obeyed divine commands, and this v.*as all the re- ward he had thus flir received. Helen failed rapidly now, and at last it was with real sor- row that her husband closed her eyes in death. Constant attendance upon her and a demand upon his sympathies had awakened something of his former tenderness for her, and could she but have realized it, the pathway to her gravo might have been smoothed a little, but she could only be- lieve that his kindness and sympathy were forced. Marion knew how matters stood, but she could not and would not be jealous of a dying woman, and encouraged her husband to make ever}^ efibrt for the alleviation of her jDain, both bodily and mental. And now came a trial to Marion. She had never been seen with Helen while living — had never been with her except on two or three occasions till her sick- ness ; but now that Helen was dead, she must publicly sit with her husband as a mourner for her. A mourner for her SACniFICED ON THE JIOn:,ION ALTAR. 145 husband's other wife! She was expected to mourn becauso the cause of her sufferhig almost unto death was removed — to mourn because the one who had robbed her of her hue- band's afl'ection was be^'ond the power to v/ound nor further. Her husband, she knew, really grieved for Helen in a meas- ure; but as she thought of the time when his very soul seemed rent by the loss of their little Elsie, she could not but feel to thank God that he did not mourn for Helen as ho had for their babe. Little Marion and her sister Nell had never met before, but now, with one clinging tearfully to iicr father's hand, and the other wonderingiy walking by her mother's side, they together went through with the scenes which in their future lives, as they looked back to child- hood's days, were the first they could remember. The father lifted Nell to look at her mother lying so cold and still. "^lamma, mamma! Do vv'ake up! Do take Nelli" she cried, but no human pov/er could wake Helen now. Little IMarion, on seeing her father lift Nell, turned to her mother and said: "Mamma, lift me, too, please. Mayon wants to see." But the mother did not grant her little one's request ; slie could not bear to impress upon the child's mind a sight of the cold dead face of lier father's other wife. Her early impressions she would not cloud with the horrors of polyg- amy, and she felt thankful that her little son was prevented from being there by a slight sickness. As she stood looking for the last time at Helen, all feelings of resentment had died in her heart. Slie could not hate the dead ; she could only pity and forgive. She mourned that she had cherished such feelings towards one who, though the occasion of her misery, was yet not to blame that she had been the one selected to supplant her in her husband's affections. It v\'as not her l-iult that hatred had existed between them. Poor Helen 1 And now Clarion asked God's forgiveness for the sin of hating her husband's wife. But other feelings of a confiiet- 10 146 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, ing nature entered her heart now. As she saw how tenderly and affectionately her husband led or carried little Nell ; how sweetly trustful she was in him, as her arms were wound about his neck and her cheek lay against his, how slie mourned for the estrangement that forbid any such famil- iarity between him and her little one ! She felt again the old jealousy for Helen's baby, and rejoiced that Nell was not to become one of her family. And as she passed on and realized that she and her husband had beheld his second wife for the last time on earth, in spite of herself a sense of relief came over her. A load seemed lifted from her heart. She felt free. Her husband was again hers, and hers alone. Helen could never come between them now, and Marion was surprised and shocked as she found that her heart was being lifted up towards the lightness of other days. Was it mockery for her to be there, and was it a sin for her to rejoice in her freedom? Marion felt that it was, and con- scientiously and self-reproachfully tried to crush such un- worthy sentiments. But she could not. She was human. God never gave pure womanly instincts to his creatures — filled their very souls with a sense of right and wrong, and then required them to crush these God-given instincts. And Marion's struggle to that effect was in vain, and only filled her heart with a tumult of conflicting emotions, till she was almost unconscious of what was going on about her. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 147 CHAPTER IX. ITTLE NELL was sent to her mother's sister, in adis- ^ tant part of the Territory, and Elder Nortlifield's second home was broken up. Now he had one home, one wife, one family to care for, and as time passed- on he realized much more comfort than he had done in the divided state of mat- rimon3\ He missed his favorite daughter, but little Marion, or Mayon, as they now called her since she had given her- self that name, was becoming less sh}^ of her father, and by degrees lost her fear of him. But she did not love him as she did her mother and brother, and he knew it; but still he became more and more fond of her as she grew older and more beautiful every j^ear. Her large dark eyes were full of light and beauty at times, and again, if anything saddened her, they were filled wuth the most mournful and often re- proachful expression. Her complexion was like a ripe peach, and glowed with the beauty of health, and her hair hung down her shoulders in a shower of dark curls, and clustered about her forehead in little rings which all the combing and wetting in the world could not straighten. But her beauty was not all external. She was full of the graces of a beauti- ful childhood, winning the love of whoever knew her, lirst by her personal attractions, then by the loveliness of her disposition. Mayon had one peculiar characteristic, that of changing suddenly from the gayest of moods, the liveliest frolic, to a strange sadness unaccountable to her parents. At such times she would always seek her mother, lay her head in her lap, and sometimes would even sob and cry 148 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, without being aljle to give any reason for it. Then as sud- denly her mood would change again, and instantly her tears would be dashed away, and, with face radiant as though re- freshed by a summer shower, she would dart awa}^ to hg: play. She had the sweetest of childish voices, and her mother delighted in training it to sing the songs she learned in her younger days. Forest was now a manly little fellow, long ago having been relieved of his golden ringlets, which were lovingly and tearfully laid aside as a tribute to his baby days. The dresses and little half-worn shoes had been put away for '' clothes like papa's " and boots. He was very fond of his mother and Mayon, but his father was chief among ten thousand to him, and his greatest pleasure was to be with him — his greatest ambition to be like him. His father had more influence over him than his mother or sister, and for his sake more than for Mayon's, Mrs. Northfield longed and prayed that he might see his error and free himself from his fanatical belief in Mormonism. She had faith that she could mould Mayon's mind as she wished, and, like another mother, so this one determined that her little girl should never be a Mormon's wife. Her future life was decided upon by lier mother. If her own life must be spent in Mormon- ism, then in the future there was in store for her a separa- tion from this dearest treasure, for cost what it miglit to her, Mayon must never suffer as she had suffered. She must go into the Gentile world wlicn her childhood days were over, and somewhere tliere would be a place for her and a liappy home which no counsel cr command of man could blight. She had tried unsuccessfully to save Francis and Edith Parker from Mormonism ; she would succeed in her plan with her own child. With this end, this separation in view, did this mother bravely rear her little one. She taught her all she could (and Mayon proved an apt scholar), cultivated SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 149 her every gift, and especially her talent for music, and tried hv every means in her power to render her treasure more valuable, her gem more bright, only to part with it at last. This project of Marion's was kept a secret from every human being. She sometimes felt that she was acting as a traitor to her husband in secretly planning the escape of their daughter from ^lormonism, but she was sure a knowledge of her scheme by him would be fatal to its fulfilment. His sense of duty in the matter would outweigh every other con- sideration, and Mayon would be forced to remain in Mor- nionism, and in all probability would suffer the horrors of Dolygamy. Anything was better than that; even death •would she have preferred for her little one. And Mayon •was growing up, all unconscious of the fate her mother was preparing for her, for she tried by every means in her power to render her strong in body and mind and self-reliant, and to give her all the knowledge of the Gentile world that it was in her power to do, that when the dreaded time came, •when she must send her forth from her protecting arm, she might be competent if need be to make her own way in the world. She would have been glad to have sought the society of what few Gentiles there were in the city, but that would have been to attract the attention of the authorities, and after her attempt at making apostates of the little Par- kers, would have excited their suspicions of her intentions with regard to her own children. She now had a little school in her own family and taught Forest and Mayon much more than Mormon children usually learned of books. In one branch, however, they were sadly deficient — that was of the doctrines and teachings of their religion. She en- tirely neglected this branch of instruction, the one con- sidered the most important ; but Elder Northfield tried to be faithful in this matter, and imparted much moral and doc- trinal instruction to his young son. Forest accepted as 150 ET.DER NORTIIFIELD's HOME; OR, eagerly all his father said, as his father had accepted the teachings of Mormonisii^ in his younger days, and he was as devoted a little Mormon as his father might wisli, and inherited his missionary zeal to such an extent as to exer- cise it upon his sister upon all possible occasions. AVhen quite small he would mount a chair and with May on for his audience, would proceed to proclaim to her the myste- ries of the revelations and doctrines of the Latter-Day Saints. Plis gestures amused her, his earnestness inspired her with awe, and her admiration for liim kept her such an attentive audience that Forest thought he had made a deep impression upon her. He longed for the time to come when he should be a man and stand in the pulpit and preach to an attentive throng as Brigham Young now did. He de- lighted in reciting poems or speeches to as great an audi- ence as he could command, or even to an imaginary audi- ence. Mayon, with her dolls, her kitten, and her bird, always formed a part of these audiences, and sometimes the w^hole. There was no doubt that Forest had a talent for public speaking, and liis father look great pride in his son's proclivities, but to his motlier they were a source of trouble. She believed he was destined to exercise a great influence over others, and the indications now were that he would wie'd that influence to perpetuate ]Mormonism in all its frauds. As he grew older he began to take Mayon aside and teach her the doctrines he had learned from his father's lips, until her mind would be full of wonder at the remarka- ble visions and revelations God had sent to men, and her large eyes would dilate with fear, as Forest portrayed the great battle which was coming on the earth between the Saints of the Most High and the wicked Gentiles. Forest enjoyed the impression he made upon his sister's mind ex- ceedingly, but he was not aware how deep was the effect of his words. Much of the time she seemed to have a half- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 151 frightened appearance, and developed a timidity altogether new to her. Her mother watched this new trait with anxiety and wonder. At last, however, she discovered the cause. One morning Mayon awoke screaming with terror. As soon as she could be calmed enough to say anything she exclaimed : " 0, mamma ! I've had a vision ! " "A vision, my child ! " " Yes, mamma, a vision. I saw God coming down from heaven with a great sword in his hand, and he went into the Gentile world, and all the little Gentile children were running away from him and begging him not to kill them. Then I ran after him to plead for the poor little children, and he raised his sword to strike me, and then I screamed and you came then, mamma. 0, will God destroy all the little Gentile children, mamma ? " " Certainly not, Mayon. Why do you think so, and why do you call your bad dream a vision ? " "0, it is a vision, mamma. Forest told me all about visions, and he says they are always true." " Did Forest tell you this, my little girl? " "Yes, mamma, and a great deal more that makes me afraid." *' Tell me what it is." " He says if we don't obey the elders God will destroy us, and that by-and-by all the Mormons will go against all the Gentiles, and they will try to kill each other ; but the Mor- mons will not be killed — the Gentiles will, though, and then there won't be an}^ Gentiles, and there won't be any aunt Elsie, will there, mamma, for you to tell me about? " " My poor frightened Mayon, Forest has told you wrong. There will be no such attempt to kill each other as he has told you, and there is no such thing as a vision in these days." " But, mamma, papa told Forest so himself; but I did not 152 ELDER XORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, think I should liave a vision ; I was afraid of it though. 0, mamma, I think visions is dreadful ! " What could the mother say now to her child? These frightful assertions had their origin from her father's lips, although they had become somewhat distorted in coming to Mayon. How could that mother tell her child that her father's teachings Avere false, and thus destroy the little faith and trust she had worked so hard to establish in her little one? How could she bear that the Mormon doctrines and hideous beliefs should be instilled into Mayon's mind to terrify her young heart? It was hard enough to see that her loved son was growing up a willing victim to the delu- sions of his father's fliith — that he would no doubt be the cause of misery to some woman or women — without sacri- ficing her little girl too. " Mayon," she said, " Forest did not quite understand papa. He did not mean exactly as Forest told you; and what you saw w^as a bad, naughty dream, and no vision at all." "And won't God kill the little Gentile children ? " "No, my dear; God loves little children, no matter whether they are Mormon or Gentile, and He will take them in his arms and bless them." "O, mamma, don't let Him take me in His arms! I am afraid of Him." " No, darling, mamma will keep you from all harm." " But didn't papa say that God would destroy all the little Gentile children? Forest said he did." What could ]\Iarion say now? Her husband had told her son what she w^as now denying to their daughter. The father was making assertions which the mother contradicted. How w\as family government, parental confidence, and do- mestic harmony to prevail, with matters in such a state ? Marion saw that the situation was indeed deplorable. She SACPvIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 153 did not answer Ma^^on's question; and Mayon, after waiting in vain for an answer, said : " I'll ask papa, and lie will tell me." I.Irs. North field hoped, however, that she would forget about it by the time her father returned, for he had gone on a visit to his little daughter Nell. But Mayon did not for- get, and almost the first thing she said to him was : " Papa, did you tell Forest that God would destroy all the little Gentile children?" " Yes, my dear; why do you ask? " "Mamma said Forest didn't understand you, and that God loved all little children, and would not kill any of them. 0, papa! don't let God kill those poor little children." And Mayon's quivering lips and pent-up tears could be controlled no longer. She sobbed and cried, and her father took her in his arms and endeavored to soothe her. " My little girl," said he, " God knows what is best, and my ]\Iayon will be safe in his fold, and the little Gentile chil- dren will be saved, too, if they come into His Church." "But, papa, who told you so? and why did mamma say it wasn't so?" " The men God sent told me so, and mamma denied it be- cause she doesn't believe it." " ! well then, I guess, papa, I don't b'leeve, too. I think those men that said so are naughty men, 'cause mamma caid God loves little children ; and papa, do you love little children ?" "Yes, Mayon, I do." "And you wouldn't want to kill the little children, would you ? " "No, Mayon." "Then God wouldn't, would He? I guess, papa, those men told you wrong, 'cause mamma knows, and she said it wasn't a vision — only a bad, naughty dream.'' 154 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, "Why, Mayon, Avliat did you see in your dream?" ,Mayon then told her dream, and lier father wisely led the conyersation to other matters, and soon she slipped away from him, saying: "Please, papa, don't tell us or any little children what those naughty men said, it makes me so afraid." And well she might be afraid of a belief, called a religion, which had brought, was bringing, and would in the future bring untold misery to her sex. Mrs. Northfield now felt that something must be done to prevent the recurrence of such scenes. She talked with her husband on the subject. Elder Northfield wished to bring up his children in his own religion, and his wife dared not allow him to suspect her determination with regard to Mayon 's future. But they agreed that the teachings of one must not contradict the statements of the other. If hus- band and wife could not agree in this point, each must make some concession in fayor of the other. So they at last agreed that to Marion should be giyen the religious training of their daughter, while the son should be instructed by his father. Thus Marion was bound, to save ISIayon from false teachings, to allow her son to grow up de- ceiving and being deceived ; to allow^ him to be blinded by ]\[ormon absurdities and make no effort to remove the scales from his eyes. How she wished that he was again the little innocent child that fled with her on that terriljle night from their home, that she might have kept him ignorant as he then was of all the superstitions and depravity of Mormon- ism, and that she might have always moulded his mind as she could then. She Avas very sad as she realized the situa- tion ; but even if she could have been allowed to teach her son, in all probability .her influence would have been una- vailing against his father's. He was a beautiful boy, full of noble qualities, and he did SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 155 not realize that his preaching and teaching were having such a painful effect on liis sister, or he would have spared her sensitive feelings. Now, however, he was forl)idden to speak to Mayon on the suhject of JMormon religion, and it Avas never broached in her presence by any member of the fam- ily. If introduced by herself, no encouragement was given her to ask questions, and after a time her interest died away, although she did not entirely forget her " vision." Mrs. Northfield had come to realize that there could be no real happiness for her in the Mormon world. As long as her husband remained a believer in Mormonism, so long would her life be clouded by its effects. There was reason to believe he would be a Mormon till he died, and therefore she could see no great brightness in the world for her. But she had much to comfort and give her peace now in her do- mestic relations. Her husband was again devoted to her, and lier children were a source of pride and pleasure. She might escape any great sorrow, her heart might never again be wrung by its former anguish, but yet there was always the fear in her soul that polygamy would again send its crushing influence to plunge her into her former darkness. The effects of her past misery were lasting, and never, under any circumstances, could she have gained her old lightness of heart. The wound might heal, but the scar disappear, never. Another source of sorrow, unknown, unsuspected by any one, was the separation that she had decreed, in her own mind, should take place between herself and daughter. As long as she could keep her with her, she would, but when the time came, as it would, alas, too soon, that others should seek to link Mayon's destiny irrevocably with Mormonism, then she must send her darling forth alone, and her home would be desolate. 156 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, Marion had not seen little Nell since she was sent to her mother's sister, at the age of three years. She knew nothing of her beyond what her husband told her of his occasional visits, but after the lapse of several years she was to renew her acquaintance with the child in a way she had not ex- pected. Helen's sister died suddenly, and her friends sent word to Elder Northfield to that effect; also, that Kell was unprovided for, and he was requested to immediately assume the responsibility of her care or instruct them how to proceed with reference to her. The way seemed now to open to bring his little daughter home, and the fatlicr was glad that it was so, for his affection for Nell was still strong; but how^ would his wife receive her? Would she be willing to take Helen's child into her home? He stated the facts to Marion ; nobly she answered, "Bring the motherless child home with you, and I will try to be a good mother to her." She feared she never could love Nell very much, but she could at least be kind and fulfil a mother's duty towards her. So Nell came to them, and Mayon had a playfellow and her mother a new care. Mayon received Nell warmly, for she had few playmates of her own age, as her mother wished to keep her secluded as much as was possible from tlieir Mormon surroundings. Nell proved to be a bright, win- some child, when all her moods and whims were indulged, but her temper was almost ungovernable if slie was thwarted or crossed in her desires. She was very selfish, and of an envious, jealous disposition. To offset these defects, how- ever, she was extremely affectionate and kind at intervals, and became much attached to Mayon. But in spite of Nell's fondness for her, Mayon suffered much from her unevenness of disposition, and her little heart was often grieved by Nell's unkindness. The latter would sometimes seek to SACKIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 157 make up for her wrong to her half-sister b}' a spasm of gen- erosity, which would make all riaht again. Nell was a pretty child, with light-brown hair and keen gray eyes. Her face had a bright, piquant look, v.'hich at- tracted people, and although the beauty and regularity of Mayon's features were missing in her, yet slie had a certain beauty of her own. She had been brought up so far in true IMormon ignorance, and could scarcely read at all, while ]\Iayon could read well, and had advanced beyond most children of her age, even in Gentile society, in her knowl- edge of arithmetic and geography. In geography she was esi)ecially interested and well informed, as her mother pointed out to her on the maps her native country, the course she took in sailing from it. New York, her aunt Elsie's home, and the entire Gentile world, and told her of its people, its manners and customs. Mayon was also beginning to" be an apt music scholar. Her father had procured her an organ — a luxury enjoyed by few Mormon children — and he Avas gratified to see that she was making good use of her opportunities. She was very ambitious, and her love for books was only equalled by her love for music. As his two little daughters were brought together. Elder Northfield did not fail to note a wide differ- ence between them in every respect. The culture thjit Mayon's mind had received from her mother gave an acute- ness of intelligence to her that was lacking in Nell. Their dispositions, too, were so totally unlike that often by com- parison Nell became positively disagreeable. Nell did not bring as much happiness to her father's home as he had ex- pected, and not being opposed to education, as njost Mor- mons were, he could see that Mayon's superiority lay to a deirree in the cultivation she had received from her mother in both mind and heart. He desired the same advantages for Nell, and as they could not be obtained outside of his 158 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME; OR, own home, Marion granted liis request and undertook first to teach Nell to read. She proved a dull scholar, and was a great trial to her foster-mother. The latter felt that she was robbing her own child of time that would otherwise be devoted to her, and as only a few years more could be hers to care for and teach Mayon, she could not willinglv devote her time to Nell with no apparent good result. Nell was ver}' capricious and could not be made to study hard by any means whatever. She often was very rebellious and caused Mrs. Northfield a great deal of trouble. The latter was dis- couraged, and her husband became discouraged also. Nell was a perverse, wilful child, who wanted her own way en- tirely, but given that, she could make herself very winsome and sweet. Thus it came about that she was left ver\^ much to her own sweet will and therefore appeared to much better advantage. Marion had given up all society as far as was possible to do without neglecting her duty to her husband, but one in- stitution, namely, the theatre, she assiduously attended with Mayon, young as she was. Her husband nearly always accompanied her, and now Nell went with them wlienever she wished. Elder Northfield often wondered at his wife s fondness for the theatre to the exclusion of every other amusement, and also at her habit of taking Maj^on always, when on all other occasions she insisted on the child's early retiring^. He did not know that she was educatins; her for a Gentile life, and desired to make her familiar with the Gen- tile scenes which were portrayed on the stage. Her means were so limited for teaching her Gentile beliefs, manners and customs that none must be slighted, and many pleasant thoughts Avere awakened in Mayon's mind, many agreeable impressions formed concerning the Gentile world. This was as her mother intended. Although it would not do for her to openly speak to her against Mormonism and in favor of SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 159 Gentile life, yet she could and did constantly throw around her little unseen influences which were doing their work. As long as was possible she had kept her daughter ignorant of the existence of polygamy, but now she nad arrived at the age when, with it all around her, she could not fail to notice the plurality of wives and contrast it with the Gentile custom in that respect as it was portrayed by the theatre, by the few books Marion had been able to put in her hands, and by her mother's description of life in the Gentile world. Of the misery of polygamy she knew nothing, and was too young to realize its existence. 160 ELDER NOniHFIELD's HOME; OR, CHAPTER X. BETWEEN Elder Xorthfield and his wife thero seldom passed any words with reference to polygam\'. Each felt that it was a painful subject to be avoided by them, as they could never agree upon it. ]Marion had no means of knowing whether her husband ever contemplated again en- tering into the patriarchal order of marriage. She was con- stantly in fear of it, however, but never for one moment did she think of interceding to prevent such a calamity again coming upon her, or of obtaining his promise to the con- trary. She knew he would never bind himself again to a course th-it might conflict with his sense of duty, and even if he would, she had learned from past experience that such promises would avail nothing. So she could only wait, and fear, and hope, and accept her fate, whatever it might be. She would not have been surprised at any time had he told her he was thinking of taking another wife, but she was not prepared for the announcement that he one day made to her that on the morrow he was to be married. Marion heard her husband, but she did not comprehend him. The blow fell so suddenly, so heavily, that it shattered her reason for tlie time. '' ^larried — married, did you say? Vvlio is to be mar- ried ? " " I am to be married, my dear wife ; don't you understand^ me?" "Yes, I do. I know you were married. I remember it well. I gave her to you, but I thought she was dead." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 161 "Helen is dead, Marlon, but I am going to take another wife to-morrow. Marion ! Marion ! why do you look at me so? My poor, dear wife! Believe me, I pity you. I have l'>ut this off as long as I could for your sake." And now he threw his strong arms around her, and pressed her lips with kisses. But slie heeded them not. " I have not told you," he continued, "because I wouhi not pain you sooner than need be. I could not bear that you should know what was coming and suffer in anticipation. So I let you be happy as long as I could, Marion, and as it could not be helped, why should I tell you before? It is not my wish to do this, but my duty ; and my love is all your own. I will not for- sake you as I did once for another. Marion ! Marion ! speak to me ! " But Marion could not speak. She did not hear his sad tones as he tried to soften the effects of the blow he had dealt her. He looked into her face, white and immovable as death, and exclaimed : "My God ! have I killed her? " But she had only fainted, and though it was long before *jhe could be brought back to consciousness, yet at last she opened her eyes and at sight of her husband bending over her, anxiously watching for a token of returning life, she turned her face aside and groaned. "Marion," said he. " Don't speak to me ! " she cried. " Don't look at me ! I can't bear it! I expected it, but not Hke this— not thus suddenly. Henry Northfield, you either do not love your wife, or you are crazy ! Yes, crazy with Mormonism ! I could not comprehend what you said at first. Now, I do. I have dreaded it these years, and expected to be al>le to bear it, but now to think of living over the old misery worse than death. I find I cannot bear it, and I will not. If I must be wretched, I will be wretched somewhere else. 11 162 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, Henry, I'll go to-morrow to the Endowment House and give you another wife, and then you may bring her here, devote yourself to her, and make her happy, till duty compels you to take another, and I will go. One wife is enough at a time. Yes, I will take Mayon, and we will go somewhere among the Gentiles. We will separate. We can never be happy together again — we will not try. But my boy ! My Forest ! How can I part with ' him ! O, why was I ever created to be so wretched ! " " Marion, is Forest the only tie that would bind you here ? Have you no love for your husband? Pity me, my wife, and believe that my heart aches for you, and that I feel my load is hard to bear, but God does not willingly afflict. Marion, do you wish to leave me ? " Marion could not answer. At last she said : " I must leave you. I feel that I shall go mad if I stay. Would to God I had never loved you ! " This thrust cut into her husband's very soul. He felt that he did not deserve it. He would not willingly have given the slightest pain to his wife and sought by every means to make her happy, only he had placed his duty to God and religion first, and when that duty conflicted with his happi- ness he had sacrificed the latter. He was very wretched now, and dis«.ppointed at the violence of her grief. He had thought that a second trial of this kind would not seem so hard as the first. He believed something in the Mormon theory of "getting used to it," but he did not know a woman's heart. He did not know that a second crushing blow was more terrible in its effects than the first. " Marion," said he, " let me tell you about the one I have chosen, and I think you will feel better about it." " No need of telling me ; I care for only one thing. Tell rae that, please, and no more. Will she be kind to Forest?" SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 163 " I am sure she will." *'And if not, you will be; and he is not a little child now, or I could not leave him. Perhaps I shall come back again, some time. But tell me one thing more : Henry, will you be happy with her when I am gone? I do not want you to be miserable," and a shade of tenderness came into Marion's voice as she asked this question. " Happy ! Happy without you, Marion ? Never ! Do you realize that you are the only one on earth that I love ? I never have spoken to this young woman but four or five times in my life. I never have whispered one word of love to her. I asked her to be my wife, for I was obliged to ask some one, and after much thought she has consented. Happy with her alone ! Marion, do not think of leaving me ; I cannot let you go ! You must not leave me." And tightly her husband clasped her hand in his. Marion struggled to free herself, and exclaimed : " Stop ! Do not dare to keep me ! I must go ! I must go!" " Marion, we will put off the marriage till you feel better." " I never shall feel better, here. You shall not put the day off; the sooner it is over the better ! Do not fear that I shall make a scene, Henry ; I shall be very calm then, and she will never know what I suffer." In vain did Elder Northfield strive to persuade his wife to relinquish the idea she had conceived, or to allow him to postpone his marriage. He would have insisted on the lat- ter, however, if he had believed that she would adhere to her determination. But he relied on her calmer considera- tion of the matter, and her affection for him, to change her determination, and preparations for the marriage went on accordingly. Mrs. Northfield scarcely realized her situation. She was not quite herself. One thing impressed itself upon her mind 164 ELDER NORTIIFIELd's HOME ; OR, to the exclusion of evcrytliing else: she was to save Mayon from Mormonisni, much sooner than she had expected. She was to go witli her herself to the Gentile world. After all, tlie mucli dreaded separation was never to take place. Ma3'on should be hers alwa3"s. Her beautiful, darling child was not to be sent into the wide world alone, but she was going with her, and together they would escape from this hateful place. One idea filled her mind, and that was their departure from Mormonism. She spent what little time remained in pre^ paring for her departure. She sent to Mrs. Atwood's, asking the gift of the picture of herself and husband, and then clip- j^ing a tress from among her golden locks, which were still beautiful, though of a paler hue now, and one long, shining curl from Mayon 's head, she placed them, with the picture, where he would find them on first entering the house after liis marriage, saying to herself: " He shall not think I went away hating him. If he should grieve for us these little tokens will comfort him." The next day Mayon came to her father with a tearful face. " Papa," said she, " are you going to get another w^ife, to-day ? " ''Yes, Mayon, and she will come home with me to-night. iHow did you know ? Has mamma told you ? " * " No, Forest told me. I go to mamma and she hardly speaks to me, and looks so sad and miserable, and I saw her wipe away some tears this morning, and she shuts herself into her room and into my room, and doesn't let me come in when I ask her. T sat down and cried a little while ago, and Forest came and asked me what I was crying for, and I told him, and asked him what ailed mamma, and he said you were going to get another wife to-day, and that was what she was crying about. Papa, please don't get another wife; it makes mamma feel so bad. We don't want another SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 165 mother, and you can't be mamma's husband and hers, too. Isn't mamma a good enough wife, papa?" ''Yes, child, too good for me to have/' "Is that why you are getting another, then, papa? Do you want tlie new one to do the work and teacliir.g mamma does, so that mamma can go out with you, and always bo dressed nice, and have time to play with us all she wishes? That wouldn't be so bad, but mamma doesn't want her at all, so please— i)lease, papa, don't get her." Elder Northfield had listened till he could hear no more, and untwining her arms from his neck, he put her away from him and hastily left the house. At the appointed hour Marion accompanied her husband to the Endowment House, not, however, without first throw- ing her arms- around his neck and sobbing like a child, with her head on his shoulder. She that day gave him another wife, sealed unto herself a new doom of misery, and hardly knew what she did. She had no interest in the bride, and scarcely saw her or any- thing else. She felt bewildered. Only one thing w^as clear to her: her carriage was to be ready at her door for an im- mediate start towards some Gentile settlement she knew the location of, and she and Mayon were to leave Mormonism forever. But suddenly, as she comprehended some words o'i the closhig part of the ceremony, she became faint, end fell to the floor. Her husband, their husband he was then, left his bride's side and lifted her with all the tenderness he would have felt had she fainted on her own wedding-day. And now came a blank in Mrs. Northfield's life; a long blank to which in the future she looked back with the feel- ing that a part of her life had been lost to her. Her first rational impression, after the ordeal passed in the 1G6 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, Endowment House, was of a small, diml3'-lighted room, plainly furnished, but so pure and neat, with its white mus- lin curtains, its little round table, with its vase of flowers, two or three chairs — one an easy-chair — and the bed of spot- less purity, on which she la3^ She had one glimpse of the outer world through a half-closed shutter. Instead of look^ ing through an open window at summer skies and verdant foliage, as she last saw the face of nature, the window was now closed, a fire was burning in an open grate, and the trees that swayed in the wind were leafless. She compre- hended that time had passed unconsciously to her. She looked about on her surroundings, felt the sweet soothing influences around her, and dropped into a light slumber. Again she awoke, and then all the past came back to her. She was doubtless somewhere in the Gentile world, escaped at last from Mormonism. But where was she? and how did she come there? who was so kindly caring for her? and where was Mayon? Then she thought of her home in Salt Lake City, and of her husband living in their old home with his new wife. She wondered if he missed her and ^layon — if he found the keepsakes she left for him, and cherished them for love of his dear ones. Again she slept, and on again awaking, a new charm had been added to her room. Drawn up before the fire was the easy-chair, and in it the familiar form of Edith Parker. Edith had become a woman now, and all through her child- hood and youth had been one of Marion's few friends. The calm purity that pervaded the room was now increased by the sweet pale face of Edith, which had never outgrown the look of sadness it had worn in her childhood. " Edith," said Mrs. Northfield, " I am glad you came too; but where is Mayon?" Edith's face lit up with glad surprise, as she turned toward the bed and said : SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 167 " Dear Mrs. Northfield, I am so glad j^ou are better. May on is ill the next room, and you shall see her if you will promise not to talk any more now." Marion felt like a willing and obedient child under the influence of sweet Edith Parker, and she gave the desired promise. Edith left the room and soon returned with Mayon, who, fearful of disturbing her mother, came in noiselessly, but with a face radiant with happiness. " Mamma, darling," said she, as she laid her face beside her mother's, "you know your Mayon now, don't you? I have mourned so because you did not know your little girl, and would not have her with you, but they let me come in when you were asleep, and watch you, and I did love to do even that, mamma." But the mother forgot her promise not to talk, and Edith saw she was tiring herself with Mayon, so she gently per- suaded her to send her away, and so weak was the sufferer that she was now exhausted by her excitement. Days passed, and she remained so weak that she could scarcely talk at all. She was unconscious much of the time, but at intervals her mind was clear, though it partook of the feebleness of the whole body. As she lay there watch- ing Edith glide in and out, felt her soft touch on her throb- bing brow, listened to her sweet voice, as she spoke in low tones words of cheer and affection, she seemed to Marion like a ministering angel sent to guard her in her life in a new world. " Edith," said she one day, " your mother is looking down from heaven and rejoicing now to know that at last her little girl has escaped from what she called a 'hell upon earth.' I did not think when I tried to grant her request and send you into the Gentile world that you would wait and go with me — that we should escape together." Edith turned to hide her face from the speaker, but did 168 ELBEPv NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, not reply. As soon as the latter gained strength she spoko again : "I vronder sometimes where I am, but have felt too weak to ask or to care as long as I knew Mayon and I were safe i:i the Gentile world and 3'ou were with us; but now, p]dith, tell me how we came here, where we are, and whose house this is? "Who are the kind people who have taken us in ? " " We are in one of the pleasar.test of places, and Mrs. Mar- thi is the lady of the house. She is very kind, and glad to know you are improving." " Have I been very sick, Edith ? "' " Yes, very ; but you have had excellent medical skill, and we have tried to give you the best of care. Now, can you not rest before you talk any more? Your physician says you must be kept very quiet till you grow stronger. Try to be patient, and when you can talk more I will tell you all about it." She was obliged to rest, but she did not feel satisfied with the meagre information she received. The next day she said to Edith : "Sometimes, when I think it all over, I wish I had not taken this step. I am glad for your sake and Mayon's, but I can never be happy away from my husband. I never could be happy with him, I know nov/, but I know, as I think of it, that he loves me, and I can realize now what pain it cost him to bring this trouble upon me. He did not wish to do it, but was forced into it by his religion. It was not Henry's fault, but the fault of Mormonism. I keep thinking of his assurances that he could not be happy with- out me, and see, as I did not then, how sad he was, and I think I should have pitied ratlier than blame him. If he really was grieved to have me leave him, it was cruel for mo to do so, and I have done worse than he, for I deserted him for my own sake, and he was true in heart to me, though SACRIFICED OX THE MORMON ALTAR. 169 compelled to an act of unfaithfulness by the Church. Somc- tinjes I think I will leave INIayon with you and go back to liim if he would take me back. Do you ever hear from him, Edith?" " Yes, I have heard of him several times." "And I suppose he brought his wife to our home?" " Yes, he brought her there after the marriage." "Yes, but not till after the carriage I had ordered had taken us away. Is he living happily with her now, do you think, Edith, or do you think he would be j^ktd to have me come back ? " " I know he wants you to come back, dear Mrs. North- field, and he is not living with her at all now." ' " Not living with her ! Why not ? Where is she ? " " He did not love her, nor she him, and she wished to go away, and so she went and is with her friends." "And Henry, and Forest, and Nell are living alone. Edith, I hate that wife. I cannot help it; but not so much as I should if she loved him. O, do you tliink I could possibly go back to him ? He has been so kind to me through it all, and some time I believe he wiil be converted back to the Gentile belief. But, Edith, you do not tell me all I wish to know. You do not answer my questions fully. Tell metlio ^vhole now ; I am strong enough to hear it." "If you knew that you could go back to yoar husband to-day, would you be glad to go ? " " I would, I think, if I could leave Mayon and you here. I would rather be separated fron^ her sooner than I expected, if I could leave her in your care, than to take her back. I would rather leave her than to continue this separation from my husband ; but if ^Nlayon had to go back with me I should hesitate. But tell me all about our leaving the Mormon world, and where we are; or, Edith," she exclaimed excitedly, as II new suspicion flashed into her mind, "have we not left it at all ? Where are we ? " 170 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, "My dear friend, try to be calm and I will tell you all. We are still in Salt Lake City. You have not had your reason until now for many months, and here was a quieter, better place for you, and so we brought you here." " Edith, I know where I am now. I am where your mother once told me I should be— in the insane asylum ! I did not believe it then, but she said it would be so, for I was the wife of a Mormon. 0, Edith! You and Mayon are still victims of this cursed religion. Your mother told me she would take me to her room when I came here. Is this the room that was hers?" " Yes, and in your delirium you were constantly calling her to come and take you to her room, so the kind matron gave this room to you." '' Why does not my husband come to see me if, as you say, he wants me back again ? " "He does come every day; but since your reason returned we thought it not safe for him to see and excite you. He came this morning and brought these flowers, and you should have seen how happy he looked when I told liim you were stronger. You have for the past few weeks been very sick with a fever, and we have all been hoping that when it left you your reason would return, as it has." " Tell me, now, why you are with me, and something about the other wife. I would not let Henry tell me any- thing about her." " I am with you because I am in a certain sense the cause of your trouble." " You the cause of my trouble ! " " Yes, my dear, dear friend, can you bear to hear some- thing that will shock you, for I must tell you? " " Yes, tell me ! What have you been hiding from me so long?" " I am your husband's wife ! " SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 171 "You — Edith — my husband's wife! The woman I hate! No, no ! " And Edith feared that reason had again fled as Marion pressed her hands to her brow and her eyes again glowed with the wildnesj of past days. " I love 3^ou, Edith, but I hate my husband's wife! God forgive me for it! You and she cannot be the same! It cannot be that you are so far from being safe in the Gentile world as to have become a Mormon's wife ! And my hus- band's wife ! Edith, how you have made me love you in these few days and now you tell me you are the wife I gave to my husband on that terrible day ! Am I again insane or is it true that you have told me ? I cannot bear to believe it, Edith, for I love you, and how can I ever love my hus- band's other wife? O, Edith ! how could you do it? " " Let me tell you how, and I am sure you will feel better and calmer about it than you do now. It is a long story, but I think it will interest you. " My mother's instructions and influence in favor of the Gentiles never lost their efl*ect upon me. I shall remember to my dying day the repugnance with which I regarded polygamy, as I realized that it had blighted my mother's life and made her the wretched woman she was. She taught me to know the many wrongs which Mormonism brought on my sex, and though too young to fully comprehend her, I have grown up looking upon matrimony in Mormonism as the greatest trouble that could come upon me. But since my father, whom I never could regard with any feeling but aversion for his cruelty to my mother — since he took me to one of his homes, I have expected that sooner or later I should be forced into marriage, as all Mormon girls are. It is a little strange that I have been permitted to wait so long, but it was not without persecution. My father has had several oflers of marriage for me, dating back to my fifteenth 172 ELBri; northfield's home ; on, year. All of lliciii I persistently refused to consider, and thus made him very angry. On two occasions he has treated me very cruchy in consequence of my rebellion against his "wishes, but of his wife Carrie I will say that she has acted tlie part of a mother to my brother and nw, and has always been very kind to us. She never urged me to marry ; and I always felt that I was welcome by her to a home, and in- deed, I believe she dreaded losing me, for my father neglected her almost entirely, although providing the means for oar support. I felt ti)at my father wished me off liis hands, and at last I fell sick, as you remember. You may not know that my foster-mother sent for a young Gentile pliysician to attend me, and concerning liim I have a secret to tell you. He was the first Gentile };erson I had ever become acquainted with, and as I grew able to converse I used to ask him all about the Gentile faith and life, and Carrie would join in the conversation. I learned a great deal from them both that made me long to escape from Mormonism. At last my phy- sician ceased to visit me profes3ionall3% but he frequently called in a friendly manner, and I began to look for his visits with a great deal of pleasure. My father knew of my sickness, but he knew very little of the particulars. It was Carrie to whom I owed my care. But at last lie became aware that I was receiving visits from a Gentile, and he very rudely ordered him never to speak to me again. He then forced me to write a letter, which he indited, requesting my friend never to call upon me again, as it would only be a source of trouble to me. I did not realize at the time how great- an outrage this was upon me, for I did not know that my friendship for my Gentile friend was anytliing more than friendship. As weeks passed, hovrever, I realized that ho was dearer to me than any other friend on earth, and my separation from him was very hard to bear. I do not know "whether my love was returned or not, but I have some SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 173 reason to think it was. I shoukl blush to tell all this to any one but you, but I owe you an unreserved stateiucnt of all that influenced me to marry Elder Northfield, and this was one thing that led to it. Well, my fatlier was so angry at mo and at Carrie for entertaining a Crentile that he declared I should marry the next opportunity. He threatened me with violence if I refused, and so it -was not long before I was persecuted by the attentions of a young man whom I de- tested. I dared not resent his advances, however, for fear of my father, and was obliged to submit to his vehement lovemaking, till at last my father came to me, saying he had had another offer for me, and a much better one, and I was at liberty to choose between the two. So I met Elder North- field, and in a respectful, gentlemanly way, without any pro- fessions of love, he asked me to become his wife. I asked time to consider, and at last consented. Now, I will tell you why I accepted his offer. At first I was shocked at the thought of being the one selected to cause the kind friend of my mother and my childhood the trouble I knew this would cause, and I tried to persuade him for 3'our sake to abandon his purpose of marrying again ; but though he expressed his grief at the necessity of paining you again, yet he assured me that it was his duty to marry, and the ques- tion was not whether he should take a wife or not, but who that wife should be. If I would not accept his offer, ho should seek another ; but he told me that he preferred me to any one else, for the reason that he thought it would give his wife less sorrow, as she was fond of me. He frankly told me that you had his whole heart, and it was only as a matter of duty that he sought another wife ; but, apologizing for making me such an offer, he said he would assure me that all my wants should be carefully provided for. and ho would promise always to be a kind husband if not a devoted one. 174 ST. IVES ^•^ Why," said I, ^'^you shave like an angel, Mr. Row- ley!" " Thank you, my lord," said he. '' Mr. Fowl had no fear of me. You may be sure, sir, I should never 'ave had this berth if I 'adn^t 'ave been up to Dick. We been ex- pecting of you this month back. My eye ! I never see such preparations. Every day the fires has been kep' up, the bed made, and all I As soon as it was known you were coming, sir, I got the appointment ; and Fve been up and down since then like a Jack-in-the-box. A wheel couldn't sound in the avenue but what I was at the window ! I've had a many disappointments ; but to-night, as soon as you stepped out of the shay, I knew it was my — it was you. 0, you had been expected ! Why, when I go down to supper, I'll be the 'ero of the servants' ^all : the 'ole of the staff is that curious ! " ^' Well," said I, '' I hope you may be able to give a fair account of me — sober, steady, industrious, good-tempered, and with a first-rate character from my last place ? " He laughed an embarrassed laugh. '^Your hair curls beautiful," he said, by way of changing the subject. " The Viscount's the boy for curls, though ; and the rich- ness of it is, Mr. Fowl tells me his don't curl no more than that much twine — by nature. Gettin' old, the Viscount is. He 'ave gone the pace, 'aven't 'e, sir ? " '^ The fact is," said I, ^Hhat I know very little about him. Our family has been much divided, and I have been a soldier from a child." ** A soldier, Mr. Anne, sir ? " cried Rowley, with a sudden feverish animation. ^' Was yon ever wounded ?" It is contrary to my principles to discourage admiration for myself ; and, slipping back the shoulder of the dress- ing-gown, I silently exhibited the scar which I had re- ceived in Edinburgh Castle. He looked at it with awe. 175 ''Ah, well!" he continued, ''there's where the differ- ence comes in ! It's in the training. The other Viscount have been horse-racing, and dicing, and carrying on all his life. All right enough, no doubt ; but what I do say is, that it don't lead to nothink. Whereas " " Whereas Mr. Eowley's ? " I put in. "My Viscount ?'' said he. "Well, sir, I did say it; and now that I've seen you, I say it again !" I could not refrain from smiling at this outburst, and the rascal caught me in the mirror and smiled to me again. " I'd say it again, Mr. Hanne," he said. " I know which side my bread's buttered. I know when a gen'leman's a gen'leman. Mr. Powl can go to Putney with his one ! Beg your pardon, Mr. Anne, for being so familiar," said he, blushing suddenly scarlet, " I was especially warned against it by Mr. Powl." " Discipline before all," said I. " Follow your front- rank man." With that, we began to turn our attention to the clothes. I was amazed to find them fit so well : not a la diahle, in the haphazard manner of a soldier's uniform or a ready- made suit ; but with nicety, as a trained artist might re- joice to make them for a favourite subject. " 'Tis extraordinary," cried I : " these things fit me per- fectly." " Indeed, Mr. Anne, you two be very much of a shape," said Eowley. " Who ? What two ? " said I. " The Viscount," he said. " Damnation ! Have I the man's clothes on me, too ? " cried I. But Rowley hastened to reassure me. On the first word of my coming, the Count had put the matter of my ward- robe in the hands of his own and my cousin's tailors ; and 176 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, longed for liis coming, that she miglii, assure liim of lier sor- row and love for him. But he was nearer than she thought. Editli was called out, end returned saying Elder Northiield was at the door and waiting to see his wife, if she was able to benr the interview. Marion signalled for him to come in, and Edith left her, feeling that her presence would be an intrusion. Too sacred for pen to descri'^je was the meeting between husband and wife, and the scene must be left for the imagin- ation to paint. From this time Mrs. Korthfield rapidly gained in strength, and it was not long before she was able to be removed to her home. Then there was great rejoicing in that reunited fomily. Even Nell had missed lier motherly care, and was very happy at her return. She had been quite lonel}' witli- out Mayon, who had begged so hard to go with her mother, that she could not be denied. Edith felt some misgivings now at entering this home a polygamic wife; but she soon settled into her place as assist- ant to her friend and sister-wife in the domestic cares, and in the care of the children. She kept herself secluded, as much as possible, from their husband, avoiding him almost exclusively. Her evenings she spent in her own room, or with the children, never joining Marion when her husband was present. Clarion j)rotesLed against this, but Edith ex- pressed her desire that it should be so, for, although she respected her husband, yet his society revived unpleasant thoughts, and was a source of irritation to her. She wished to live more as a helper in the family and companion to jMarion, than as a wife. She was treated with the utmost kindness by the whole family, and in no respect could Mrs. Northfield look upon her as usurping her rights. Still, had she really been what she seemed — a sister, or merely a dear friend — there would not be the fact for her to realize that CACr.IFICED ON THI^ jrOP.T.ION ALTAI?. 177 bIic Vs'as living in polygam}', that licr husband had a,nothcr There vrcrc 3'et obstaeles in the way of her ]iap])in(s?, and one unknown to any but herself. INIayon was growing older, and uneonscioush' nearing tlic destiny foreordained for her. The ])rospect of the building of the Great Paeific Railway seemed to open the way for the carr3'ing out of Tvli's. Nortli- field's plan. A most formidable undertaking it seemed for Mayon to attempt such a terrible journey as vrould be neces- sary with the facilities for travelling existing then. How h.er object could be accomplished with personal safety to Mayon, and with security from discovery and pursuit from her father and the Church authorities, was a question the mother had been unable to solve. But she believed a way would bo opened before the time came. Therefore the news of a rail- way to be constructed from ocean to ocean, just at that time, seemed to her like help sent from Heaven. Hero was to be provided a Avay of escape for her darling, safe from the perils of the emigrant life, and suTe to succeed in bearing her away from pursuers or enemies. This scheme of Marion's was a heavy burden on her conscience and a weight on her spirits, as she realized that it was deceit and treachery towards her husband. She felt that it was wrong- ing him, to rob him of his daughter just as she bloomed into womanhood, and that in sending her away from her f.itlier's religion and people, she was assuming more than her right in their cliild. She sometimes entertained the thought of confessing to him her scheme for Mayon's future, and trusting to his kindness and affection to allow tlieir child to decide for herself, and she felt sure slie would decide v.'isely. But she knew his unwavering faith, that in i\Ior- monism only lay the salvation of himself and family, and she feared that duty — a terrible word to her — would lead him, against the dictations of his own heart, to use inilu- 12 178 KLDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, enccs or commands which could not be resisted. She dared not confide in him for fear of his terrible religion — a religion which could force a fair young girl into a wretched bond- age, and destroy or outrage every womanly instinct of her soul. Mrs. Northfield could not run that risk. Better, a thou- sand times better, wrong her husband, than wrong her daughter to the extent of blighting her whole life ! Better bring down his anger and indignation, and even the malig- nity of the Church, upon her own head, than allow Mor- monism to bring upon May on what it had brought upon her mother. So the mother carried the burden of her secret year after year. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 179 CHAPTER XL "I^TANY hnnclrcd miles from the scenes portrayed by tho -Lt.1. preceding pages, in a liouse furnished with every luxury and comfort its inmates desired, sat an elderly lady reading stories to two little children, sitting at her feet, and eagerly listening to the words as the}^ fell from her lips. At one side of the room, near a window, a girl, who had out- grown such childish stories, sat poring over a hook of her own, all oblivious of everything else. The lady had a calm, sweet expression, and her eyes had not lost their youthful brilliancy, though her hair was silvery gray. The little girl at the window suddenly tossed her sunny curls from her face, threw down her book, and her blue eyes sparkled, as she exclaimed : " There come mamma and Harry ! I'll meet them first, Dot and Daisy." The stories were miheeded now% and the two little ones scampered away down to the gate, with their sister Lillian, who good-naturedly fell behind and allowed them to win the race. The mother was the perfect picture of health, beauty, and joy, as she received the hearty welcome of her little ones. Harr}', who had previously trudged along demurely by her side, caught the infection of the race, and instituted another, for his own l)ene(it, calling on his mother to catch them. One and all they merrily brought up at the door, wliere the elderly lady stood watching them, with a smile of satisfac- tion. ISO ELDEn NOr.TIIFIELD's JIOME ; OH, " Vv'en, aunt Vrd]?, have these babies been good ? " asked the young n'.olhcr as she caugh.t u;) the liltle twins, who went by the names of Dot and Daisy, and hugged them to her heart. " Very good, IZlsie. And now what letters have you?" '• I have searccly lool:ed at them, but I will now. 0, aunt AYells ! Here is— I do believe this is Marion's handwriting. At hist she has written again. My sister is alive after all! I thank God ! " Marion had not written to her sister for years. Since the receipt of Elsie's letter, which had so wrung her lieart, coming just when her happiness had received its first crush- ing blow, she had wished to keep her in ignorance of her misery and humiliation. Ghc had nothing but sorrow to write, and she could not bear to write it. Thoughts of her cistcr and longing to hear from her had, however, after a lime, almost persuaded her to write, but the dreaded ordeal was put ofT from time to time or forgotten in her family troubles and cares. Go the years had passed, and Elsie feared Marion was dead. She did not cease to write to Marion for a time, but receiving no answer, at last gave up in despair of ever hearing from her again. Elsie, or Mrs. Bernard, whom she had now become, hurriedly opened tho letter and read aloud : '• 11\- Ov;:: Dzxr. Sisrzr. : — Can you forgive the long silence that I have liept these years towards you ? Your letter con- gratulating me upon my husband's faithfulness, and tho neecL'Ssness of your fears for me, came when I was plunged in the deepest of darlmcss by what you tlien — and I always — DU')po3ed impossible, and I have since had not much but corrov/ to wri'.c of and could not bear that you and aunt V/ells L--:o"ld hnov/ of my trouble and humiliation. And novr that I have taken up this task, dear sister, do not, I SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 181 bepf, blame nic too nnich for the selfishness that kept me silent v.'hen it only pained me to speak and prompts me now to write to you when I want your help. I must tell you all that has passed in my life since I last wrote you." Then followed a narrative of the events already known to the reader, written in a way to shield her husband from l)lame as much as possible. Toward the close was the fol- lowing appeal to her sister: " Elsie, judge by the maternal love that doubtless exists in your own heart by tins time what I must feel at the thought of my Ma3'on growing up amid such surroundings, and with a prospect of such a life before her as mine has been. I know your deep love for me has not died, dear sister, and will it prompt you to help me save my little girl from such sorrow as I have known ? I have reared her so far with the prospect continually before me of parting with her when she is grown to womanhood, with the determination, cost what it may, of sending her forth into the Gentile world at last. You are the only one to whom I have confided my plan. I would not dare let any person here know of my determination. Mayon herself does not dream that my assiduity in teach- ing and training her is due partly to my wish to pr.'pare her fur a new and untried life. She is the pride of my life, the joy of my heart, and my home will he desolate when she leaves it; nevertheless I shall be glad. You have repeatedly written deploring our separation, Elsie, and wishing I might come back to you and aunt Wells. Although I cannot come, may I send my child to you ? She will need a shelter, a friend and i)rotector. ^Vill you receive and love her as I know you would me? Inasmuch as you do this kindness unto her you do it unto me. I think she need not be de- pendent on you long for support, for I am trying to rear her with strength of body and njind to make her own way in the world as you and I did. Her father has means to de- 1C2 ELDER NOHTIIFIELD's HOME; OR, frr.y nil licr expense?, but I am not sure that I can appro- l^riatc one dollar to support lier in the Gentile world, although he ^vould deny lier nothing for her lia]'>piness did it not conflict with his ideas of duty. I tremble when I tlnnk of the storm that I sliall raise in his bosom by this long premeditated act of treason to him. I grieve that I must do him this wrong, but there is no help for it. A worse result might come from an abandonment of my pur- pose than all my husband's anger or grief. And he has his heart's desire in our son's belief in the religion, for I grieve to say Forest is growing up an earnest Mormon. Now, I trust to your love, kindness, and generosit}", not to deny me. I know you will open j^our heart and home to my child. I do not know your husband's circumstances, but suppose them to be such that he will not feel the burden, and I trust the love he may have for little ones of his own may prompt his heart towards kindness and pity for mine. I remember dear aunt Wells with affection, and suppose she is with 3'ou now. Ask her if she will in the future bestow the love and care upon my child that she offered me. Tell her I have life-long regrets that I did not heed her warning, and at least make an effort to save myself from the fate she too truly predicted would be mine. And now, dear sister, do not pity me or blame my husband too much, for with the exception of a few months he has been as true and affec- tionate towards me through all my trouble as he was when you knew him in my bridal days. It is not he that has caused so much wretchedness to enter into my life, but the doctrines of INIormonism through his belief in it. He is a victim and a slave to false teaching and fanaticism, and I have faith that the time will come when he will throw off his shackles and stand forth free from the delusions that in- fluence him now. Then he will forgive his wife's deceit in this matter, and we will live in the Gentile world again. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 183 Dear Elsie, I believe I shall again be with you before I die. Now, may I look forward with a definite hope of a home for Mayon with you when the few remaining years that I may still keep her are passed ? May I have the consolation of knowing that when she leaves me she will go to one who will be like a mother to her ? If you say ' yes,' as I feel sure you will, the thought of our coming separation will lose half its bitterness." There was not much more in the letter, and as Mrs. Ber- nard folded it she exclaimed : " Poor, dear Marion ! 0, that she might come too ! How gladly will we receive her child. Do you not say so, aunt Wells?" " Yes, my dear, with all my heart, but you have Walter to consult." '•I know well what he will say, aunt. He will say — " A voice behind her interrupted her and finished the sen- tence. " Extend to the child the warmest welcome, and give her the happiest life that human efforts can secure her." " My noble Walter ! I knew you would say that. But where have you been to hear it all? " " Just behind my wife's chair. As you did not observe my entrance, I raised my finger as a warning to aunt and the children to be quiet, and thus I have heard the whole of your poor sister's story. How a man, made in the image of God, and endowed with the natural gifts and graces that man evidently possesses, can become such a slave to super- stition, stoop to such wickedness in the name of religion, is beyond my comprehension." " We will write directly to Marion," said aunt Wells, "and I will ask the privilege of adopting Mayon as my special charge and giving her every advantage in the way of educa- tion that she may need.*' 184 ELDER KOnXIIFIELD's HOME; OR, " Would you rob us entirely of the pleasure of providing for her?" asked AValtcr Bernard. "You have four little ones of your own, and I should esteem it »a privilege to give to this little Marion what I ex- pected to give her mother." " Be it so, then, aunt," said her nephew, and a message, long and loving, was despatched to a waiting one in Utah, which filled her heart with thanksgivings. As Mayon grew older she did not need to be told of tho saddening effects of polygamy on the Utah wives. She real- ized what was the cause of her mother's i)ast insanity and depressed spirits, and had heard from her lips the story of Nell's mother without, however, being told of the indiffer- ence and neglect that her father exercised towards her own mother. She could not tell her daughter this part of her sad experience for fear she would turn against her father, for whom her affection w^as never very strong. As IMayoii realized the difference between Mormonism and Gentileism she became more and more dissatisfied and regretful that her life was cast in with that people. She knew occasion- ally of some Mormon apostatizing, and never without a wish that it miglit have been her father. Every item of informa- tion with regard to Gentile life she eagerly devoured, and lier mind was constantly exercised with a desire to live in the Gentile world. This was as her mother wished. But the thought had not entered the girl's mind that she mi^ht go out into the world, imless a change came over her father, and thus change their prospects as a family. For this change Mayon hoped. Too much of a child she yet was to look forward with apprehensions to her own malr'monial prospects, and if she thought of them at all, it was witli a purpose never to marry, but always to remain with her mother. But as she observed and realized more of what was SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 185 passing around Iicr she bccnmc more thou^^litful on the sub- ject. A conversation Avith her brother and sister tended to awaken her fears somewhat for her own future. She and Nell were sitting alone one day, busily sewing, when Forest entered. lie had now become almost a man, a very attrac- tive young person, and a great assistant — thanks to his mother's instructions in mathematics— to his father in busi- ness. " Well, girls," said he, "have you heard the latest news?" *' What news, Forest? " the girls asked in a breath. "Alice Clark is to be married to-morrow to John Andross." " Not Sarah Andross' father ! " exclaimed Nell. " The same," said Forest. "Forest, you do not mean it! Alice Clark is not old enough. She is scarcely two years older than vre are," said May on. "'Can't help it. It's a fact."' " It is a shame for that young girl to marry a man old enough to be her father. Indeed his daughter Sarah is older than Alice. Alice to become a fourth wife ! I know it was not her wish. Did the elders counsel her till they made her consent, or did her father bring it about? " "A little of both, I guess." " I know it could not be Alice's wish, and I believe she had no more thought of marrying so young than Nell and I have." "Well, they said she cried and made some fuss, but, like a good girl, concluded to be obedient." " Poor Alice ! " siiid Mayon. "Poor Alice, indeed, jNIayon ! " said Nell. "I don't see why you should make such a fuss over the affair. You know that she will not be nearly as poor when she is John Andross' wife as she is now. Her fjither is very poor, and can hardly support his family, and Mr. Andross has plenty 186 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, of money; aiid as his other wives arc all quite oldish, Alice will get ever3'thing she wants. I have no doubt he will make a great pet of her." " Well said, sister Nell," said Forest. " Besides, are you not aware that it will be much more to her advancement and honor in the Celestial kingdom to have married an elderly man than a young man ? ' Better trust to an old man's head than a young man's heart,' they say." " Better trust neither, if that head or heart belong to a Mormon," said Mayon, spiritedly. " Nell says Alice will be her husband's pet. So she may till he wishes for another pet, then he will break her heart if she loves him, as even our father has almost broken mamma's heart." " Your mother has nothing to complain of," said Nell, who felt this thrust on her mother's account, whose story she had heard from her own relatives in childhood. " She selfishly kept our father almost entirely to herself. If I do not speak of my poor mamma, you certainly need not speak of yours." " Come, come, children," said their brother with a fatherly air, "don't quarrel. Why can't you live in peace? I'll wager my new hat, Nell, that Mayon will put her trust both in the head and heart of some good Mormon before she is three years older." " Never! " exclaimed Mayon, with flashing eyes. "Calm yourself, my little volcano," said Forest; "you certainly would frighten any lover away with such a temper as that." " I tell you, I never wull be a Mormon's wife. I never shall marry. I think all the women here are miserable, and unless papa apostatizes, and we go into the Gentile world, I shall never marry." " Girls and women here do not have the privilege of doing SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 187 as the}^ please in everything, whatever they may do in the Gentile world you are so fond of. Mayon, mamma is spoil- ing: you for Mormon life, and you are a disgrace to your religion." " It is not my religion. I do not believe in Mormonism. I hate it and all its doctrines. God never blesses such a fLiith as this." " But, according to the Bible, he did bless it in the persons of Abraham, Jacob, etc. Mayon, look about you and see how many girls have arrived at the age of twenty without marrying." Mayon could scarcely think of one, and was silent. " If you are so blind as not to see that all girls marry here, and that counsel and commands of elders and parents are to be obeyed, others are not so blind." ^' Do you mean to intimate that I shall be forced into marriage, either by the elders or by my own father? " " I mean to say that I believe he will think it his duty to do what will be for your highest good. And though he, of course, would never exactly compel you to marry, yet he will expect to be obeyed in tlie matter. But, Mayon, do not take it to heart so. You are too young now to think much about such things, and I did wrong to trouble you with the doctrines. I forgot that it was a forbidden subject between us. I do Avish, though, that you and mother could agree with the rest of us on these points. *A house divided against itself cannot stand,' you know, the proverb says. Now let us sign a treaty of peace, and all go out for a walk." " No, Forest," said Mayon, sadly. " You and Nell may go, but I want to talk with mamma." "Then, good-by, little girl. Never mind what I have said." But Mayon was excited now, and no effort of her brother could calm her. She sought her mother and said : 1S3 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, " Mamma, docs any vv-oman escape living in polygam}-? Must every girl licrc marry sooner or later?'' ''Almost every one docs marry, my child." "Then, must my fate be like yours, and must J live to bo jis wretched as most of the women here appear to be? Is there no way of escape for me ? " "Yes, my child, there is a way for you to escape tlie or- dinary Mormon woman's lot. But what has set you to thinking of this?" " Forest has been talking to me. He said he forgot it was a forbidden subject between us. I never thought much about my own future till now; and now he has told me of Alice Clark being about to marry an elderly man with three wives, against her own will, and I feel frightened. A\'ill father al- w^ays believe as he does now, I wonder, and remain here? I would rather die than become the wife of a Mormon." " You never shall be the wife of a Mormon, my dear. Do not fear." " Can you prevent it, mamma, if the authorities should counsel me, as they did poor Alice, and if my father should consider it his duty to command me to marry? Can you save me?" " Yes, my child ; all your life I have looked forward to just such a time to come as you speak of, and I have pro- vided you a way of escape." "Tell me what you mean." " Mayon, my child, you say you had rather die than marry a Mormon. It will not cost you your life to save yourself, but it will cost you your separation from a mother who almost idolizes you. The only one way for me to save you from a life like mine is to send you away from here. Your aunt Elsie will receive you, and our aunt Wells has asked the privilege of giving you an education." *' What, mother ! " exclaimed Mayon in an a^ony of cs- CACniFICED ON THE J.IORMOx^ ALTAI!. 18D citcmcr.t. "Do you mean to send ine awny from you? Must I leave my darling niothcr? Is that the only -way to save me IVom polygamy?" " Yes, my poor ehild. It has saddened my life for years to kno',v that in the future was in store for me and for you til is separation. But I determined it from the very hegin- uing of your life, and I thank God that a way has been opened to help me in the fulhlling of my plan." " Mother, I cannot leave you 1 Come with me ! mother, come with me! " ''And leave your father, Mayon ? He never has intcn- tion;dlv wronged me in any manner. He has never brought trou'ole uj^on me except as it came in consequence of tho ]>cr:brmancc of what he believed his duty. It is not your fitlicr wlio is to blame for all my miser}^ but the faith that he believes in. Do not cherish one hard thouglit towards him, Mayon, for his belief has saddened his life also, though he still clings to it. Could I desert him now? No, M-uyon, it is wri-nging him enough to send his daughter secretly away, as I shall have to do some day. I could not rob him of both wife and child." " AViirhe need you more than I shall? He will still have Edith. Perhaps they would love each other if you left them." Mayon's words unconsciously brought a pang of jealousy to ]Marion's heart — the first she had ever felt for Edith — and they had an effect contrary to Mayon's design. "No, Mayon, tb.ere can never be any love between them. Edith was as much opposed to marriage as my Mayon is ; but she was forced to marry some one, so she accented your f^ither." "Poor Edith! I shall love her more than ever, now I know that," said Mayon. "But, motlier, let me tell my father all about my feelings, and plead with him to leave tho 190 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, Mormons for our sakes, and he can still be a Mormon, al- though in the Gentile world. Then we shall not have to bo separated." " You must never mention it to him, m}^ child. Believe that I know best. No human being this side your aunt Elsie's, except you, knows what I have in my mind, and no one must know, or you cannot escape. Those who aposta- tize and flee from here are if possible overtaken and brought back, and there have been times when to be openly an apostate was to peril one's life. I do not fear danger for you if our plan is not suspected, for I hope the railway will be conipleted long before the time of your journey." "Mother, this is dreadful! I would almost rather stay with you, and risk the consequences. Do you believe my father would wish me to marr}^ against my will?" "I cannot tell, Mayon. I never believed he would ever take another wife, but he has taken two. There is no sacri- fice he would not make for his religion, so I do not feel safe from anything while he believes in Mormonism." " But, mother, if I leave you, you may come to me some time." "Yes, I hope to, my child. I hope that some time your father may be undeceived, and we may again be united in the Gentile world." " 0, mother, mother, I cannot leave you ! " And Mayon, with her head in her mother's lap, as in her more childish days, gave herself up to the most passionate of sobbing and weeping. ]Marion, after a time, though her own heart ached with sorrow and pity for her child, succeeded in calming her, and then she talked to her long and confidentially of their rela- tion to Elsie and her family. She told her much of Edith's sad stor}^ beginning with Edith's mother. What Mayon had learned that day changed her. She be- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 191 came more thoughtful, and seemed older by a j^ear, and the prospect of a coming separation bound her more closely to lier mother, and the latter -was pained to notice that not- withstanding her efforts to lessen in no degree Mayon's re- gard for her father, yet she seemed to shrink from him and avoid his society. This did not altogether escape the father's observation, though he was far from suspecting the cause. But Nell made up in her attentions what was lacking in Mayon, and she installed herself the favorite with him, as she had been in her infancy. Two years passed without any great change in the house- hold. The mother had gained a look of more sadness, which, however, was relieved at times by an expression of happy content, when her face had a far-away look, that Mayon could readily interpret. She knew her mother was seeing in anticipation her child safe and happy with the friends of her own youth, and was herself happy in the thought. Edith had not ceased to appear in the light of a minister- ing angel to the different members of the family, and Mayon l^articularly was drawn towards her more strongly than ever, through her sympathy. She was still as a dear sister to Marion, and the latter was surprised at times as she realized that she was living in love and peace with another wife — something she had thought utterly impossible. But she also realized that this harmonious state of things was entirely due to the peculiar attitude Edith held towards herself and husband. She blessed Edith, and felt that there could be no nobler conduct than hers ; at the same time she pitied her for the blight that had fallen on her so young, and robbed her of all life's natural joys. She endeavored in every possible way to make up for this loss, and repay her for the months of weary watching and care which she had received from her. 102 ELDEr. xonTiiriELD's noME; c:?, So Eaith t^t.s not without many sources of comfort, !\Ia- yon's society proving: not the least, as slie was gradually bc- cominc; more womanly and companionable. Nell bad not outgrown her childish shortcomings, but had become more expert in hiding them, till her father had come to believe that she was as sweet in disposition as Mayon, and certainly more winning. Mayon was never winning to him, and it was not lis fault that he did not love her as much as he did Nell, for slie avoided him almost as entirely as Edith did. But when his whole family was assembled and visitors were present, he could look with pride upon Mayon, as he could not upon Xell, fo: it was Miyon who entertained them with music, and ]\Iayon who could converse most intelligently, if occasion required. Elder Northfield wished Nell might add to her winsotneness the culture and intelligence Mayon pos- sessed, and that Mayon would give him the love and coiifi- dence his other daughter bestowed upon him. Forest had inherited his father's e\:)quence in public speaking, and was about to be ordained an elder, and sent to the small villages and towns in the Territory as local mis- sionary. Elder Northfield was still prospering in business, and ap- parently his family was a hap})y one. Forest and Nell, how- ever, were the only really happy ones. Polygamy had clouded the happiness of the others, even the husband and father, for when his dear ones had suffered he had suffered too. But his conscience was clear, and he had much pride in his children, especially in his son. From time to time emigrant parlies from all parts of the Union and from across the ocean arrived in the city. Among them there were many young girls who had left father and mother, brother aiul sister, for their religion's s dee — wives and mothers who forsook even their husbands and little ones SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 193 to gather to Zion. There were men who counted their reli- gion more dear than wives and children and left them all beliind. There were parts of families and whole families, from the gray-headed man to the child too young to lisp its mother's name. For this was a religion that bade men sever the strongest ties of nature and outrage the purest of domestic affections. Strenuous efforts had of late been made to gather in con- verts from all parts of the world, and especially from the United States. Elders and missionaries had been sent out in all directions. The most winning, attractive and persua- sive men were selected for these missions ; also those most talented and intelligent. They were now reaping the fruit of their labors. Although but few were the converts each elder secured, yet their aggregate was a most goodly number. Enlightened New England furnished a small band, for talent, perseverance and persuasiveness will win their way any- where, even though they can work only on the credulity, ex- citability and emotional sensibilities of their victims. Among the band of New England emigrants which ar- rived in Salt Lake City about this time was a young girl named Flora Winchester. It came about that in the pro- viding of temporary homes for the newly-arrived converts Elder Northfield agreed to receive one into his family, and accordingly this one was sent to him. His family were, of course, prepared to receive an emigrant into their home, but they w^ere not prepared for the sweetness and intelligence that came to them in the person of Flora. She was an at- tractive, educated girl, but she had an air of sadness and homesickness, although firm in her faith in the new religion. She was so quiet, so sober and undemonstrative, that Nell voted her a bore, and made little attempt to make a com- panion of her, but Mayon took her to her own heart and the two girls became firm friends. Mayon pitied her for her 13 194 ELDER NORTHFIELd's HOME; OR, apparent loneliness, and was interested in her because she came as a representative of that -world which she was some time to enter. She kept Flora talking by the hour of the Gentile people and their institutions, and felt that she had thus gleaned much worldly wisdom. But of Flora's personal friends and circumstances she was very reticent. Mayon often wondered why she would not speak of her home, her family and friends, but she would not ask about them, for Flora evidently did not wish to speak of them. Mayon was not the only friend Flora made among the young people of the house. Forest began to pay her many little kind attentions in the hope of cheering and lifting the veil of sadness that seemed to hang over her. She received any kindnesses from them in a pretty, grateful way, that won their hearts, but she nevertheless seemed very unhapp}^ Mayon and her mother had many a confidential talk con- cerning the new-comer, and they were sad to think that such a promising young girl should be deluded into believing in such a religion, and that she had been influenced in all probability to leave home and friends for her faith. They longed to try to undeceive her and persuade her to return to her friends. But they dared not say much to her against the religion for fear of the elders, who kept a strict watch over their emigrant converts till they were firmly established in Zion. One day, as Flora returned from a ride with Forest, who had taken her to see the country, she rushed into Mayon's room, which she shared with her, and without re- moving her wrappings flung herself into a chair and burst into tears. They were the first Mayon had seen her shed, and now very much touched, she placed her arm lovingly about Flora and said : " Dear Flora, what is your trouble ? Why are you so sad? Do not tell me unless you wish, but I would so like to com- fort you if I might." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 105 *'I want to see my mother. I w^.nt mv fnthor to look landly on me once more. 1 do miss Jessie and the boys so much. I am homesick here, Mayon, in spite of all your kindness, and now what your brother has said to me makes me feel that I have no right to stay here longer." "What has he said, Flora?" " He says — he says — he asked me to marry him. I did not think of such a thing, and do not love him, though he has been ver}^ kind to me, and you all have, and I feel very grateful for it all ; but I could not give him the answer he wished. How could I marry a man I do not love ? " Poor girl ! She had j'et to learn that Mormon wom.en were expected to do what she felt she could not. " No, Flora, you could not, of course, and I am sorry Forest asked you. I should grieve to zee you become my brother's wife." "Why?" " Because he is a Mormon, and you know mother and T, though Mormons by name, do not believe in the religion ; and. Flora, I wish for your sake you never had, but had re- mained with your father and mother. You cannot tell how I regret that I was not born in the Gentile vv'orld — ho7/ I long to go there away from this false religion and these de- luded and deluding people." " Forest has told me that 5'ou and your mother are not i:i the faith, and that it is a great trial to his father and to him." " Yes, I suppose it is. Mother was once a firm believer in Mormonism as you are, but when she learned that polygamy was one of the doctrines it destroyed her faith in the whole, and poor mother has had enough sad experience to destroy her faith. 0, Flora, how could you have been persuaded to leave your home and join this Church ? " " I will tell you all about it, Mayon. I have not felt like 196 ELDER NORTHFIELd's HOME ; OR, speaking of my family before, and I presume you have won- dered at it; but now I will tell you how it all came about, as near as I can, though I hardly know myself. Elder Korthwmd Elder Burnside came to our village and ap- pointed a meeting. No one knew they were Mormons, and a good many people gathered to hear them preach, among them my brother Carlos and myself. They w-ere very elo- quent and adhered at first to doctrines not particularly strange or ne-w, and they had held several meetings before the people discovered that they were Mormons. When they did make the discovery, however, almost all left the meetings ; but I had become very much interested, and felt that I had perhaps, like others, been prejudiced against the Mormons, and I resolved to continue to attend and learn for myself whether their doctrine was from God or not. My brother would not take me after that, and I was forced to go alone, which I did, till my father forbid my attending the meet- ings again. I disobeyed him once or twice, however, and then it seems that the youngest elder — Elder Burnside — learned that I had been forbidden to attend the meetings, and he called upon me in my father's absence. He asked me to meet him at his boarding-place and he would explain to me all I wished to know. I met him several times, and at last became a believer in the faith." " Flora, how could you believe in polygamy ? " " I did not fully, but he assured me that it would all ap- pear right to me if I held on to my faith. I felt that at last I had been given a clean heart, and entered God's Church. I felt quite happy. Then both elders urged me to leave my home and emigrate w4th a party they were forming to Zion. I could not make up my mind to that for a great while, for I dearl}' loved my friends ; but when I realized that ' Whoso loveth father or mother, brother or sister, more than Me, is not worthy of Me,' I decided to give up everything for my SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 197 religion, find I informed Elder Bnrnside that I would be ready to start with the company. My family did not know what had been going on, I had been so secret about it, and it came like a thunderbolt on them when I told them that I was going to leave them in a few days. My mother wept and plead with me ; my brothers and sister said I should not leave them, and my father kindly tried to reason and per- suade me, till he found how useless it was, for I had made up my mind to brave all this storm, which I knesv would come. At last my father gave way to anger, and he told me if I left his house as a Mormon convert I should never enter it again. He said he would never own for a daughter one who could so demean herself as to become a Mormon. This angered me, and notwithstanding my mother's entreaties, I immediately took with me a few articles of clothing and went to the house of another convert and there remained till we left for Utah, which was in two or three days. The next day my mother came to see me, and I never shall forget our agony as we bid each other farewell. She tried with all her might to persuade me to remain, but I would not. She then said : ' Remember, Flora, that notwithstanding your father's anger, your mother will always love you, and if you ever wish to come back, as I fear 3'ou will, mother's heart and home will always be open to you.' She had come against the commands of my father, who had forbidden any member of his family coming to me, so I did not see my brothers and sister again. I felt that I had given up all for the Lord, and expected to be very happy, but somehow I am not. I long for my home and friends, and sometimes wonder if I have not been foolishly deceived, and if you and your mother are not right.'', " Flora, believe that we are right, and go back to your mother. She will be made so happy, and your fatlier will forgive you and take you back when he sees how penitent you are." 198 rLDER nortiifield's home ; or, "Icanr.ot do that. ]\Iavon, you do not know tlic scorn and derision that would be heaped upon me were I to re- turn. And my pride will not let me go back and ])lead with my father after he has said I never should enter his liouse ap^ain. If he kept his word, what would become of me? Mother and Jessie and the boys I know would wel- come me back, but even with them I could hardly hold up my head, and much less could I acknowledi^e to my father my error, or bear the scorn of my former friends. It was considered by them all a great disgrace to l)ecome a Mor- mon. Asa penitent Mormon among them I never could live. No, Mayon, I cannot go back now." Then Mayon determined, even at the risk of increasing Flora's trouble, to inform her of the sadness of woman's lot there, and to impress U[)on her mind a horror of polygamy, hoj>ing that her fear might actuate her to return to tliC Gen- tile world. She longed to tell her of her intentions vvith re- gard to her own future and i)ersuade Flora to go with h.er to iSew England, but this she dared not do as long as Flora was in any sense a Mormon. Flora listened with a failing lieart to Mayon's description of the lives of th.e women of Utah, but she was not i)ersuaded to abandon her purpose of remaining, now tliat s])e had entered the Church and arrived in the city. She said it was of no use ; she could not go back now ; it was impossible, and she must make the best of it. Mayon was very sad as she confided to her mother her attempt to right the wrong done to Flora and its utter failure. Flora became more gloon^y than before, and Forest avoided her, not from any ill feeling, but his heart was sore with disappointment, and her society now was only painful to him. But Flora's face at length I'rightci^.ed in a manner unsus- pected by her friends. Elder Burnside, who did not arrive with the company, but remained by the way to preach, had SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 199 now returned to the city, and he called upon Flora. As ]Ma3'on and her mother saw the girl's face liglit np, and a flush of joy come to her cheek on greeting the elder, they read the secret of her conversation and attributed her un- willingness to leave Mormonism partly to her unwillingness to leave its young champion. Mrs. Northfield knew too well the influence of the Mormon elder over the one upon whom he bestows his love, and she felt that Flora's case was hopeless. Elder Burnside's visits were often repeated, and the whole family were now sensible that a change had come over her. She was no longer the quiet, sad girl they had known, but was cheerful and even gay at times. Elder Northfield was, however, the only one in the house who re- joiced at this change, knowing, as they did, its cause. Marion, Edith, and May on felt that it was but a sealing of her doom as a INIormon woman, and Forest could only look upon Elder Burnside as a rival in his efforts to win Flora for his wife. It galled him to see that this man's affection made her happy, while his advances had only seemed to in- crease her sadness. Nell became more sociably inclined now towards Flora, but the latter would only confide in Mayon, whom she loved devotedly, although she would not be in- fluenced by her in the matter of the greatest importance. " Mayon," she said one day, " I told you my story, but I did not tell you quite the whole. I could not then. But now all is decided, I will tell you. I am going to marry Elder Burnside." " 0, Flora ! I have known it ever since he came, but I wisli, so strongly, that it was not so. I fear you will in time be miserable. Are you not afraid to trust your happiness in the hands of a man who believes in polyg- amy?" " No, for I think he will do nothing that is not right, and I shall try and trust God for the rest. I cannot, how- 200 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME) OR, ever, think much about the future, I am so happy in the present." Not many days passed before Flora became the wife of Elder Burnside — a beautiful, blushing, happy bride. But, ah! how changed she was ere many years rolled by ! SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 201 CHAPTER XII. OINCE the completion of the railway, Edith, all unknown ^ to any one, had harbored thoughts of leaving the Mor- mon world and attempting to seek a support for herself among the Gentiles. She felt now as some other women felt —that escape was not so utterly impossible for them as it had been hitherto. At last she resolved to speak to Marion about the matter, knowing she would not betray her. Marion was very much surprised, but she felt that the hand of Providence was guiding all things for the best. She then told her of her de- termination with regard to Mayon— of the home that was ready and waiting for her child, and doubtless welcome to her also, as it would have been to her mother. She had cor- responded regularly, though not frequently, with Elsie, and the kind offer of aunt Wells was open for her acceptance at any time. " Now, Edith," said she, '' though I shall sadly miss you, and shall feel doubly bereft if deprived of you and Mayon at once, yet if you might go with Mayon as her protector on her long journey— if you might find for yourself the happiness you deserve in the Gentile world— I shall be content." " I will gladly go with Mayon, and care for her even as her mother would. I do hope for a less sad life than I have known here, but I never expect to find happiness. My father struck a death-blow to all happiness for me years 202 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; CR, Tlicn Marion knew tliat tlic wound in Edith's heart had never healed. No word had been spoken in all these years ; but though Edith could be silent, she could not forget. " 0, the cruelty of this so-called religion ! " said ]\[arion, " to blast, if not in one way in another, the happiness of every woman coming under its iniluence. Why does God allow his creatures to work such wrong? Why will not th.e Government, instead of making now and then a weak effort to abolish polygamy, passing laws which they do not take means to enforce — why does it not make a mighty effort to free us — slaves that we are — as it did to free the poor negro slave from his bondage?" " I have thought of that and have felt almost like doubt- ing God's mercy in allowing this evil to continue, and when I see sweet young girls like Flora V\'inchester, not growing up in it, but coming into it from enlightened New England, I can but wonder at the pow^r for evil it has in the land. That poor child, now so happy, will know, as all others do in time, the wretchedness of a woman's life here. I some- times pray God to spare her if it be possible." " Poor Flora ! It was not love for her religion alone that brought her here. She has too much sense for that, but Elder Burnsidc won her heart, as well as her faith in his teachings. She is blind, and when her eyes are opened it will be too late." Now, these women had another interest in common to bind their hearts more closely. They resolved that when the time came that i\Ia3^on must fly for refuge to her aunt's liome Edith should go also. Edith's heart was lifted up with hope at thought of freedom from a polygamic life, and Marion, though realh" regretting the loss of such a friend as Edith, felt that she should again rejoice in being the only wife of her husband. Mayon was glad to know that when she was obliGjed to leave her mother one familiar and dear SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 203 face might still bo l\y licr side to lighten the grief of the separation. She wns TiOW in stature almost a lA'omnn. A close companionsliip with her mother all her life, nnd a keen realization of the sorrows that surrounded and allected her, had made her very womanly. Her face had the rcjiose of maturity, and her manners the grace of womanly dignity. Her mother realized that her efforts to fit her for a change in her life had 2)robably been the means of liastening that change. For a young lady of Mayon's attractions, her age, and her position in life to re- main long in Salt Lake City without suitors she knew was impossible. So she regretted that May on had arrived at the age when she might fear other eyes would covet her treas- ure — other hands seek to pluck the flower she had so ten- derly reared. May on seemed fully two years older than Nell, who wna but a ft'W months younger. Nell was slight in form and childish in the extreme, but she did not wish, as Mayon did, to be regarded as a child, but was flattered very much by attentions from older people. " Why," exclaimed Mnyon one da}', " was I not made smnll instead of Nell ? She fairly longs to be a grown lady and to be considered one, while I envy her her childisli ap- pearance. She puts on a woman's dress, which gives her the look of an over-dressed doll, and I make myself ridiculous by clinging to a girl's manner of dress, while I am several inches taller than Nell. But, mother, why should we fear so much ? Perhaps no one will ever want me for a wife, and then, mother dear, I can stay with you always." As the mother lovingly caressed the glossy hair, and looked into those large eyes full of a beautiful intelligence, noticed the sweet mouth and ros}" cheeks of her daughter, slie felt that her beauty was fatal to such hopes. That alone would ensure her bondage to Mormonism if she was not saved from it. 204 ELDER NORTHFIELd's HOME ; OR, But neither the mother nor daughter suspected how soon the former's fears were to be realized. Forest was an agreeable young man, fond of compan}', and some of his young friends visited him at his home frequently, spending the evening with the family in the parlor. Edith always excluded her- self from these family gatherings, unless Elder Northfield was absent, except by special request that she would be present. But no other member was missing, and Mayon and Nell were valuable assistants to Forest in the entertaining of his friends. Nell was attractive for her liveliness, Mayon for her music and intelligence. There was one young man — a recently made partner in their father's business — who came oftenest. He was intelligent, and probably a better man could not be found among the Mormons than he. From spending many evenings there he began to call during the day, when at liberty to do so without neglecting his business, and as Ma^^on and Nell usually entertained him, it became evident that one or both attracted him thither. But the mother breathed more freely when she observed that as Mayon gradually withdrew herself and left Nell to entertain their caller alone he came no less frequently. He asked for Mayon, but was apparently not disappointed in the least at her non-appearance, and his visits, and even walks and drives with Nell, appeared to be very enjoyable to them both. Nell was delighted with her admirer, and her little head and heart were quite full of thoughts of him. With these existing circumstances, what wonder that Mrs. North- held received with consternation the announcement from her husband that Edward Ellis had asked him for the hand of his daughter Mayon in marriage. " Our Mayon ! " exclaimed the distressed mother. " Why she is nothing but a child. How can j^ou think of such a thing? " " I know she is a child in years, but she is very womanly SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 205 in her ways, and as this will be a fine settlement for her, and a better man than Ellis cannot be found, I am anxious that she shall accept this offer if she can be persuaded into it." " But we supposed Nell was the one he was seeking, if either. Both are too young, however, to think of matri- mony. Why has he spent so much time with Nell if he wished for Mayon ? " " He accepted her company because deprived of Mayon's, and he has learned a great deal about Mayon from Nell's prattle. I knew he was not trying to win Nell, but he has had his eye on Mayon for a long time." " But Mayon has no idea of anything of the kind, and I think it would only be repugnant to her, and Nell is entirely carried away with him, and not without some reason. I think he has done wrong in allowing her to be deceived so. Why cannot a change be made and Ellis be persuaded in favor of Nell instead of Mayon ? " " Because, unfortunately, Nell is not the one he wants. Why could I not have married Elsie instead of Marion? Because I did not love Elsie, and I did love Marion." " But, Henry, it is not right to urge the acceptance of this offer upon Mayon if she is opposed to it. If it was for Nell there would be no obstacle, for she is more than half in love with Ellis already." " I do not wish to crowd or hurry matters. If Mayon wishes the marriage postponed, I shall not object to a year or two of time for her, but I am determined that she shall not slight this offer, notwithstanding her youth, and I wish the matter to be settled immediately. I have almost given Ellis a promise of Mayon, and he will take it very hard if he is disappointed, so I do not wish him to be refused. I have left her affairs almost entirely to you, Marion, in the past, and have never interfered with your wishes concerning her, but in this matter I feel that I have a father's right and a 206 ELDER NORTIIFIELDS IIOMI!; OR, iiitber's duty to perform, and hope tliat you v.'ill use your efforts to secure my wislies. I count on your help if May on proves obstinate, for it is only her own best good that I seek, and althougli she may at first feel opposed, no doubt she ^vill soon listen to reason and offer no serious objection." " But INIayon is not so ordinary a person that she may not have plenty of good offers of marriage if she does not accept this." " No ; but she cannot have a better one, and 'A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.' " Mrs. Northfield could say no more. Her heart was full. She felt that in this matter as in other matters that affected her vital interests " duty " was to decide against her. " Duty," that stern tyrant of her life, was to wrest from her possession her dearest treasure, or offer it up a sacrifice on the altar of Mormonism. Her husband rose to leave the room, saying: '' Now, ^farion, shall I speak to Mayon about this or will yoa? I hope ere long to see her the wife of Edward Ellis," and turning the speaker beheld Mayon, who had entered the room unnoticed by her father in time to hear his last re- mark. She stood riveted to the spot in terror. Her large eyes dilated till they were immense, and all the roses were gone from her cheek. Her father was frightened at her ap- pearance and hastened towards her, but she avoided liis ap- proach and glided to her mother's side. She kneeled by her in agony, and without a word buried her face in her out- spread liands. The father felt that his presence was unwel- come then and he considerately left them alone. '• 0, mother, I did not think it would come so soon ! " * " Hush, my darling ! Be very guarded in what you say. Perhaps I can save you yet a little. longer." " Do, mother, if you can. How can I leave you now? " Mrs. Northfield told her husband that Mayon wished to put off her decision for a while and in the meantime re- SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 207 quested that slie might not see Ellis. Elder Northfield said he should expect Mayon to be able to decide in a few weeks at most, and lliat he trusted she would decide wisely. And thus ^layon's days of life with her mother were numbered. Nell now became quite forlorn as her supposed lover de- serted her, and she was really to be pitied. But when she learned that Mayon was considering the question of marriage with him her young heart was filled with jealous indigna- tion. "Mayon," she said as she stamped her little foot, "you were all the time playing a game to win. You knew he liked you and meant to increase his desire for his prey by keeping it just out of his reach. I now see what your modest retirement in my favor meant. It meant treachery to me. No doubt you laughed in your sleeve at thought of the dupe he was making of me. But you are welcome to him. Such a deceitful man as he is cannot be much of a prize, and I am glad that it is you who have won him instead of me." "I have not won Edward Ellis. I do not wish to marry him. If I do it will only be in obedience to my father. If you can win him for yourself, Nell, that I may go free in peace, you will do me the greatest favor you ever did. I do not wish to marry for a long time." Nell was rather surprised, but faltered out: " 0, it is too late now. It does very well to say so when all possibility of such a thing is past." "I did not know or suspect it till father told us of his proj)osal for me. I supposed he was given his heart's desire in having your society. Now, Nell, do not torment yourself or me any more, but make yourself attractive and win the prize." " I don't think I could now, and don't know as I care to try," said Nell, petulantly. Edward Ellis did not feel like trusting fully to Mayon's 208 ELDER NORTIIFIELd's HOME ; OR, decision, uninfluenced by lii[,dier authorities, altliough her father was quite determined that he should have her. But he went to Brigliani Young and stated the case, and Brig- ham, as ever, was ready to help on the good work. He had known sonietliing of the Gentile element in Elder Korthfield's family, and was of the opinion that the sooner an unbelieving daughter was settled with a Mormon husband, the better. He therefore interested himself in Ellis' case, and prom- ised to call upon the girl. He did so, and as Mayon went to the door to answer his summons, she experienced, to a de- gree, the same horror that her father's words had caused. He noticed her fear, and in a pleasant, fatherly manner strove to talk with her in such a way as to put her at her ease, but that was impossible, and soon she politely attempted to ex- cuse herself, saying she would call the other ladies of the house. But he stopped her and said she was the one he had called to see. Then he referred to her matrimonial prospects, and congratulated her upon the honor which had been con- ferred upon her, trying to draw her into conversation on the subject. But Mayon could scarcely speak, so great was her agita- tion. He gave her what was considered much good advice, and she could only falter out that she thought she was too young, and wished to wait till she was older. He then asked her how old she was, and though Mayon felt that she could not stoop to answer him, yet she was too frightened to refuse. " 0, nonsense," said he, " you are quite old enough ; be- sides, you look much older than you are. Now I hope you will be a good girl, and make no trouble about this affair. I counsel you, for your own best good in this world and in the world to come, to accept Edward Ellis as your husband, and do not delay your decision, my girl." And with an attempt at a friendly conversation, the great SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 209 head of the Church left the subject, having done this duty in the fear of the Lord (!) It was not till now that Mrs. Northfield became aware of the ordeal her child was undergoing alone, or she would have come to her relief. Now she entered, and as Brigham Young requested to see the whole family then present, Edith and Nell were called and presented to the President. He tried to make himself very agreeable, and manifested some curiosity with regard to Edith, as it had been rumored that she was ill-treated by her husband and his first wife. He impudently asked her, in the presence of them all, if such was the case, and though her eyes shone with anger at his insult, she felt obliged to answer him. She told him that no human being could be treated with more kindness than she received. She feared he would sug- gest to Elder Northfield that he take her out more, and that she could not bear. He then playfully pinched Nell's cheeks and pulled her hair, saying : " This little girl will before many years be contemplating matrimony as her older sister now is." " I am as old as May on now, into a few months," said Nell, feeling hurt at being called a little girl. " Indeed ! " " Yes," said Mrs. Northfield, " Mayon is but little older, though she does not look like it." " Well, well ; Nell, we hope you will soon have the good fortune to receive as good an offer as your sister has." " 0, I do not care for that," said she. " What do you care for ? Riding ? If so, put on your hat and shawl, and take a turn with me." Nell instantly obeyed, feeling very much elated with the honor of riding with Brigham Young. It almost compen- sated for losing the attentions of Edward Ellis. 14 210 " That man's insults are unbearable ! " exclaimed Edith. '' I hope I may never meet him again. Poor Ma3'on, to havo to endure a tite-a-ttte with him." " I thought I should faint," said Mayon. " 0, do you think I shall ever have to be tormented with his presence again ! I believe I could even part with you sooner, mother, easier than I could bear to meet him again." "You shall not meet him again, my child; I will guard against it." The next evening her father sought Mayon, and talked a long time to her in a persuasive w^ay, referring to the pros- pect of her marriage. His words, though kindly spoken, gave her a secret assurance that all opposition on her part would be vain ; though she had suggested to her mother the thought that if she utterly refused, her father "would not force her into the marriage. She could hardly control herself till she was at liberty to seek her mother. She w^as almost frantic with excitement, and almost beside herself with the constant torture she was being subjected to. Her mother feared that in the excitement of her terror she would unguardedly betray her secret, and she decided with Edith that the sooner she w'as sent away the better. She feared for the condition of Mayon's mind if her torture w\as continued, and decided that a final separation from herself would not injure her as this constant harassing on the sub- ject of marriage. Mayon and she both knew that that must come, and perhaps the sooner the better for them both, as matters now stood. ^layon consented, like a poor, frightened child, to any means for her safety, and seeing her half-wild condition, Mrs. Northfield thanked God that even througli her ov/n past trouble He had raised up a friend for her child in this her hour of need ; for Mayon was incapable of caring for GACRIFICED ON THE MOr.:\ION ALTAT7. 211 herself, so p:reat vras lier mental exeitement ; but her motlicr knew she could trust to Edith s clear head and loving heart to sliield her child ironi all harm on the journey. Tliis had come so suddeid}-, that neither of t!ie three could fully realize what had liapi)ened and what was before them, and there was little time to indulge in mourning, f(jr there was much that the loving mother must do for her child, and many preparations Edith wished to make for her own en- trance into a strange land. A letter was dispatel;ed to Elsie, to inform her of the arrival she must immediately cxjiect. Suspicion must not he roused, and so the preparations for the departure had to be made very secretly. Once let Nell become aware of what was going on, and Mayon was lost, for Nell was perfectly in sympathy with her lather and brotlier. At last came the morning of the day previous to the one on which the fugitives were to take their llight. With ]\Irs. Northfield they were assembled in Edith's room, sadly talk- ing of their coming separation, and speaking of the journey they were to undertake on the morrow. '' Hark ! " said Mayon, in a whis])er, " I think I hear foot- Gteps." All listened, hut in vain, and her mother said: "It was only one of your nervous fears, Mayon. No ona can be near us here." Eor Editli's room was in a retired part of the house, where it was seldom any one went exce])t her. They resumed their conversation, and again Mayon's strained cjir caught a sound. " Mother, there is some one listening at the doer. It is Nell's li-ht footstep that I hear. 0, what shall we do if Nell lias heard what v.x* have been saying ! " They watched the street from Edith's window, vrhich com- 212 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, manded a view of it, and soon Nell's figure was seen speeding in the direction of her father's business. Their hearts sank and their hopes failed them, but the mother's love quickened her faculties, and she exclaimed : "Never fear, my dears; I will save you in spite of them all ! I will, God helping me, defy every Mormon in the land but my darling shall escape ! " Her impassioned words revived the courage of Edith and Mayon, and she continued: " You must not wait till to-morrow ; it may be too late. In three hours a train leaves here, and you must go on that train. Get yourselves ready instantly for a start somewhere away from the house. How can we tell but that in a few moments your father will be here, brought by the news Nell has given him, to put an end to it all. Probably he will wait till his return at night, but I dare not risk a moment's delay. Mayon, go to your room and dress quickly for your journey, and leave me to think what to do. 0, God, help me ! God help me now ! " Edith proceeded quickly to dress, while Mrs. Northfield went on as though thinking aloud : "No, there is no hiding place I dare try; no one I dare trust to ask for help. What shall I do? O, where can I hide them? Edith, it will never do for you and Mayon to take the train here ; it will be watched. Henry or Forest will be there, if Nell has turned traitor and told tliem, as we think. You must walk to the next station, for I dare not procure a carriage. You can get there in three hours. Mayon is strong and a good walker, and can do it comfortably; but you, Edith, can you walk so far in three hours? " "Yes, fori shall be walking towards freedom from this bondage. I shall be helping my dear friend, who has been BO kind to me and my mother years ago. Those thoughts will give me strength." SACRIFICED ON THE M0R:M0N ALTAR. 213 " You have not a moment to lose, and I will now go and hasten Mayon." As Mayon proceeded to dress, the hot tears filled her eyes, almost blinding her, and everything she touched was wet with tears. She was sadly in need of help. They made all the haste that desperation could give to their movements, and then the mother left Mayon, to procure the money that was to pay the expenses of their journey. This sum was one which she had been hoarding for years for this very purpose, and which she had accumulated, little by little, by an eco- nomical saving from her own expenses, unknown and un- noticed by her husband. She had within a few days mate- rially added to it, by the sale of her watch and other jewelry, so that now there was enough, and more than enough, to meet the wants of the refugees till other provision was made for them. She now hastened to Edith, and placed in her hands the well-filled purse. They could take no clothing with them, and must give themselves the appearance of being out for a walk merely. Mrs. Northfield was to send their trunks after them. "And Edith," said she, " you must travel as fast as possi- ble. Do not stop over one train anywhere on the journey, for you may be pursued. I think Henry will not go so far as that, but I do not know what his anger may lead him to. I am certain that he will be very angry for once, and not without cause. I dread his wrath." " My poor sister," said Edith, " how will you bear it all, added to your sorrow of losing Mayon ? 0, it seems cruel to leave you to endure the blame alone ! " " I am so used to trouble, Edith, that I can bear this, though my husband's anger and my separation from my daughter will be new troubles ; but do not fear for me. I shall be content when I hear that you and Mayon are safe in New York." 214 ELDER NORTIIFIELd's HOME ; OR, ^layon looked about licr room iliat was so dear to her, where were many little reminders of Flora's ingenuity in the execution of Gentile ideas of little ornaments, and then she thought of Flora's grief and homesickness at lier separa- tion from lier mother, and felt tiiat she too was leaving her native land and all that was dear to her. Why could not she have changed places with Flora and each remained in the home so dear to her? She longed to see her friend once more before she was forever separated from her, but her mother recalled her thoughts to her own affairs, and with her she descended to the parlor, where Edith stood waiting, all equipped for a start. Words cannot paint, pen cannot portray- the agonies of that last farewell, as mother and daughter were locked in one final embrace. "Mother," said Mayon, as the former at last released Mayon's hold on her, " I cannot leave you. I would rather stay and suffer the consequences, mother; let me stay with you ! " Mrs. Nortlifield felt fliint, but she motioned them to go. They turned towards the door, and looking back, Evlith saw the agonized mother's face grow white as marble. She dared not leave her thus, but started back to her. IMayon then darted to her mother again, and with the n:iost passionate grief covered her face with tears and kisses. " Now, ni}^ dear ones, go," said she faintly, and they obeyed. After they had gone, many minutes passed unconsciously to Mrs. Northfield. But nature restored her from her faint- ing fi', and soon Nell entered with a (conscious, guilty look. " Where is Mayon ? " she asked. *' Gone with Edith for a walk," was the answer. " When will they come back?" asked Nell suspiciously. " I cannot tell. They have only just gone out." SACRIFICED ON THE MOR^ION ALTAR. 215 Again hatred came into her heart for this girl, who she knew was seeking to defeat all her hopes and plans. She hated her and feared her. She now continued to keep Nell occupied, and with her, fearing that through her a discovery would he made of Edith's and Mayon's premature flight. As the liour passed, however, when she knew the train would leave the adjoining station, whither they had gone, she trusted they were safely on board and speeding away from all that had made her life so sad. She now, with a sigh of relief, relaxed her efforts to absorb Nell's attention and breathed more freely. She now had leisure to think of her own situation and to dread her husband's return at night. But Forest came without him. " Where is your father. Forest? " she asked. " He had some unexpected business to attend to and took the twelve o'clock train, saying he would be back early to- morrow morning." That mother's heart then sank within her. He would be upon the train with his wife and daughter, and would see them as they stepped into the car at that little unfrequented station. He would bring them back and their lives would be ruined after all her hopes, plans and efforts. During the evening, while locked in her room, she heard Forest and Nell calling to her, and she knew they had missed Mayon and Edith and were seeking them. But she could not answer them. That night was a sleepless one to Mrs. Northfield. At the coming of dawn she expected to see her husband re- turning with the dear ones she had sent away ; but dawn came, and with it her husband, but he came alone. Now her heart gave a great bound for joy. He had no affection- ate greeting for her this morning, but looked very stern. She trembled as she met him. " Marion," said he, " please call Edith and Mayon. I wish to see them this morning before I go to my business." 216 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR. " They are not here, Henry." " Not here ! What do you mean ? You have not accom- plished your wicked scheme already, have you? Where are they ? " " They are on their way to New York, Henry. My dear husband, I beg you will forgive me for doing you this wrong, but I was obliged to do it." " Obliged to do it ! Marion, do not try to excuse your conduct in that way ! Why have you sent our daughter away from me in this way ? Was she not mine as well as yours ? What right had you to rob me of my wife, even though I do not care for her ? Marion, I tell you you have gone too far ! " Her husband's eyes now glowed with anger, and Marion was roused to resentment. Her fear was quite gone. Her trembling ceased, and she boldly plead her cause. " I sent May on away to save her from a wretched life like mine. I repeat, I was obliged to do it. Could I, knowing the curse, the misery, the anguish that would surely come upon her if she accepted the fate you have prepared for her^ could I be justified in making no effort to save her from a life that would be worse than death? Does God give a mother her children and not hold her responsible for what they become in future years ? If you saw a man in certain danger of death and reached out no hand to save him, you would be guilty of murder. If I see my child approaching what is worse than death and calmly and unconcernedly allow her fate to overwhelm her, am I not guilty ? That is why I was obliged to do this. My Mayon I long ago re- solved should never be offered up a living sacrifice, as I have been, to the shrine of Mormonism. I have looked for this day to come for years ; but it came at last sooner than I ex- pected. But I was ready for it, and I do not regret what I have done. I only regret that it must be done, and that I SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 217 have in a certain sense acted the part of a traitor to you, but better that than a lifetime of misery for Mayon." " You speak of a union with Edward ElUs as a lifetime of misery. What reason can you give for tha^> impression? " " Tlie reason that every woman is miserable in polygamy, and this man would in time enter into it, no doubt — every Mormon does. Henry, even though I have had a husband kind as any Mormon husband could be and live up to his reli- gion, have I not suffered a lifetime of misery ? Have I not been robbed of my reason, and almost of my life, by the ter- rible workings of Mormonism ? Tell me, Henry, if you do not believe I have suffered enough to make me fear to ex- pose my beloved daughter to trials like mine? " " Yes, Marion, I admit that you have taken your life very hard, notwithstanding that I have tried to lighten the burden that all Mormon women must bear ; but that does not alter the fact that you have acted very wrongly in sending Mayon and Edith away. Although you do not see it in that light, you have sent them out of God's Church, where alone can be found eternal salvation for their souls. You have basely de- ceived one who has always trusted in you, and never will- ingly wronged you. Marion, I did not think this of you. You have twice in your life determined to desert me, and now you have caused my wife and daughter to do me that wrong. And yet, Marion, you have accused me of not loving you. Have I ever given you the cause for such an accusa- tion that you have given me ? " Henry Northfield when angry could give utterance to the most cruel sayings, and in a calm manner that made every word cut the deeper. Marion felt the pain that no words of his had ever inflicted before on her already aching heart. But for Mayon's sake she could bear them. No mere words of his could bring her back again. " Henry," she said, " you have no right to refer to my 218 ELDER NORTIIFIELDS HOME; OR, acti')ns of those limes. You know that I was goaded ahiiost to madness by my trouble, or I never should have thought of leaving you." "Well, Marion, what is done is done, and I shall not at present try to undo your work, for Ellis would not now accept a wife who had run away from liim, and a wife and daughter who prove what Edith and Mayon have proved themselves to be are not worth pursuing. Mayon never seemed to love me much, though I have had a father's affec- tion for her, and novr she has proved that she has no regard for me. I liave not deserved this. I have tried to be a kind father, and even in this matter have acted only for her best good, if she could have been allowed to see it so." Thus he left her in anger— something that, amid all her troubles, had never occurred before. This came upon her already desolate heart, and it seemed that her burden was greater than she could bear. Could Mayon have looked into her mother's heart, and read the woe and suffering that was borne for her sake, she would have wished to return and suffer with her, rather than that her mother should suffer alone. Years had passed since Mrs. Northfield had been called upon to bear such cleep sorrow as now. Her husband continued his cold, injured manner, and Forest and Nell avoided her as though she had been guilty of some great crime. The Sabbath came, and as Elder Northfield took his Sun- day garments from their place, a little piece of folded paper met his eye, as it protruded from one of his pockets. He mechanically unfolded it, and it proved to be a letter from his daughter Mayon. It was as follows : " Dear Father: Please do not think I do not love you to thus flee away from you. I see that you are determined I shall marry Edward Ellis, even against my wishes. It SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 219 seems to mo, fatlicr, tliat I would ratlier die than marry a IMornion, or a nian I do not love. Polygamy, even with a kind husband as you have been, has made my mother's life miserable, and can 3-0U bhime me for wishing to escape such wretchedness in my own life ? You cannot realize the misery of being forced into a marriage tliat is repugnant to one's feel- m%s. I know you would not wish it if you did. I know, dear fatlier, tliat you seek what you think is for my good, and, believe me, I do not leave you without regret. But, father, ])ut yourself in my place. Imagine that you had the faith I have, instead of the Mormon belief. Try to feel as I do, that what you are seeking for me would be a wretched fate, and then you will freely forgive me, I know, for trying to gave myself. Please, father, think lovingly of Mayon, if you can, and forgive her. But 0, whatever you may think of me and feel towards me, I beg of you, do not be angry with poor mother. Her heart is ready to break with her sorrow at parting with me, and angry words from you would bo cruel. She has only done what she thought was her duty; and though it seems a wrong to you, have not you followed your convictions of duty, even though it brought greater sorrow on mother than this act of hers can possibly bring on you? You were pained to grieve her, and she is very unhai)py to think of being obliged to deceive you, and send me away from you. But mother believed you did not will- ingly afflict her in acting as your conscience dictated, and she forgave you; and how man}' times she has told me, lest I feel hard towards you, 'It is not your father, ^layon, who has done this, but his religion through his faith in it.' Cannot you forgive as mother has, and believe that in wronging you she only followed the dictates of her own conscience, as you have done, and should »ot be blamed? When you thirdv it all over, I am sure you will not wound mother's already aching heart with one unkind word, but 220 will pity her for her loneliness when I am gone, and will try to make up to her for my loss. Do not blame mother for Edith's flight. They tell me she never has been happy in Mormonism since she realized its misery, when a little girl, and she spoke to mother about leaving before she knew that I was some time to go away from here. Mother told her then, and it was arranged that we should go together. Once more, dear father, I ask you to be forgiving and kind towards mother and— " Your daughter, " Mayon." Nobly had Mayon plead for her mother in her calmness, as Mrs. Northfield in her excitement could not plead for herself. Kind deeds were not all on the mother's side, and Mayon had now performed one office of love which went far towards repaying the great debt she owed. Elder Northfield read this letter, and his eyes were opened to the cruelty and injustice of his manner to his wife. Mayon's pleading and expressions of affection touched his heart, and he sought his wife and turned her grief to joy by begging her forgiveness for his unkindness. Although he still believed she had acted very wrongly, yet, as Mayon had suggested, she had forgiven what she considered wTong in him, and he should be no less magnanimous now tow^ards her. Therefore pleasant relations were again established between them. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 221 CHAPTER XIII. HAD Edith and Mayon succeeded in reaching their des- tination in time for the train, they would have un- doubtedly been forced to accompany the husband and father back into Mormonism. But a kind and merciful Providence, often working in mysterious ways, ordered it otherwise. They had proceeded nearly half the distance when Edith, in her fast walking, stepped on a rolling stone and fell, sprain- ing her ankle. She tried to hobble on, but it soon became impossible for her to walk. Here was a new trouble, and an insurmountable one. Edith urged Mayon to go on and leave her, for there was no time to be lost; and if she could not board that train, it might be too late, for there was no other till the next day. "But what will you do, Edith, if I leave you?" " I will wait here by the roadside till some farmer comes along to take pity on me, and take me either to the station or back to the eity. Then I will follow you on the next train, if possible; and if not, it will not matter much if only you are safe. Take tlie purse and hurry on, Mayon." "Never! I will not desert 3'ou ! As you cannot walk, I will stay with you." Mayon had regained her self-possession now that she felt slie had started towards liberty, and acted as the leading one of the two, shice Edith was almost helpless from her pain. They sat down to rest and consider the situation. They were in a part of the highway enclosed by fields and forests, 222 ET.DEU NOnTIIFIELD's HOME; OR, and not a house or human being was to be seen save one little hut in the distance, Mayon spied it and said: " I will tell you what we will do. I will lielp you to walk to that hut, and if it is uninhabited, as I hope, we will se- crete ourselves there till morning, when I hope you will be able to go on. If not, or if we are overtaken before morning, I will go back to my mother, whom I almost feel that I am a coward to leave — whom I had almost rather not leave, even if I must be a INIormon's wife. We will go back, and I will marry Edward Ellis and submit to my fate, ^^'hy should I seek a happier life tlian my mother had ? Why should I deserve it?" Mayon concluded to go first and examine the hut. She came back and reported it empty. Then, with her help, Edith succeeded in walking the intervening distance, and there they hid themselves for the night. The weather was not warm, and they suffered some from cold, though more from their fears. No sleep came to their eyes ; but when morning dawned Edith was able to walk with difficulty to the station, and their hearts were filled with thankfulness that at last they were speeding towards the Gentile world. Later, when Edith learned how they had been delivered from capture, she blessed God for the accident and pain she had been allowed to suffer, and believed more firmly in God's mercy, which she had felt inclined to doubt. '' Lillian," said Elsie Bernard to her daughter, "here is a letter from your aunt ]\larion. Poor Marion ! " '* What does it say, mamma, about ^layon? " '• It says we may expect her immediately, for she will start for New York in a few days." "What! So soon? It can't be those Mormons have driven Mayon from her home alrcad}', by wanting her to marry before she is grown up! " SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 223 '' But it is SO, my dear. My sister writes that they are all in great distress, caused by her father's determination that Mayon shall marry his partner. She is secretly [)lanninj^ to send her to us, and what is more, the other wife Edith is coming with her." ''0 1 am so glad that I shall soon have Mayon here with me; but, mamma, did you ever hear of anything so ridicu- lous as a girl travelling in a friendly manner with the polygamic wife of her father? But aunt Wells will bo glad, will she not, for she is the daughter of her lost Lillian's governess, of whom she was once so lond?" "Yes, Lillian, and we will all be glad that one more soul will escape from Mormonism, and will give her a cordial welcome for her own sake as well as for r.unt Wells'. But let me see the date of this letter. Why, it must have been delayed ! Lillian, they should be here by this time. Every train must be watched, for they are strangers in a strange land, and will not know how to find us." So some member of the family was at the depot, and watched the passengers of every train that might bring them. But two days passed and Lillian began to be im- patient, when she and aunt Wells returned, and as the carriage door was opened Edith and iNLayon stepped out. " Mamma !" exclaimed Lillian, "come and greet Mayon and Miss Parker" (for Edith decided to assume her former name — the name she considered her only lawful one). " Wo only knew them by ^liss Parker, whom aunt Weils declared was her dear Frances. And she could hardly be persuaded tha': it was not her old friend instead of her friend's dau^jhter." The fugitives could ask for no more of love and welcome than they here received. Lillian and ILirry were overjoyed, and tlieir mother, as she warmly embraced her sister's daughter, was blinded by tears of emotion. 224 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, " 0, m}^ child," she said, "would that my dear sister might have come, too. But where are the golden curls and blue eyes that Marion's daughter should have? You are like your father, Mayon." Mayon answered, " Yes, I am like my father. You should see Forest : he has mother's golden hair and blue eyes. He is very handsome." Elsie's heart w^nt out towards Mayon with almost a mother's love, and aunt Wells was almost jealous of her affection for her. When Walter Bernard returned from business, with all the sincerity of his noble heart he welcomed the fugitives to his home, saying to Mayon : " We have regarded you as one of our family for years, you know, and feel now that our absent member has come home. LiUian's happiness will now be complete, I believe, and our friend Edith has always belonged to aunt Wells' family, and as she and her friends belong to us, you see we are now to be a very happy reunited family." As Edith and Mayon sought their rest, the one sharing aunt Wells' room, and the other appropriated by her cousin Lilhan, there were two thankful hearts giving praise to the all-wise Father, who had brought them safely to this haven of rest. Sad were the thoughts of dear ones left behind, but nothing could make them very unhappy in the bosom of such a loving family, and though Mayon's pillow was wet with tears, as she thought of a dear mother far away, yet they were not altogether tears of sorrow. The family life they had now come into, with its perfect love and affectionate spirit, its absence of all jealousy, lack of confidence, fam.ily jarring, and, above all, sad faces, was a delightful study to these young Mormon women, who were themselves inclined to sadness, and who were unaccustomed to seeing happy women, young or old. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 225 Elsie, with her exuberant spirits, smiling face, and playful manner, even at her age, formed such a contrast to her sister, once as fair and gay as she, that they could onl}^ look at her "with wonder, even though they had been prepared for change in ever}^ way' in Gentile life. Aunt Wells, too, though she had passed through life's sor- rows and was nearing the grave, had a look of calm, sweet content that surprised them. They realized then the beauty of these family relations as they could not from the teachings of a mother. Each had been carefully taught in childhood all her mother was capa- ble of teaching of Gentile life, but even from those teachings no correct idea could be formed. Now they were in the world and of the world. Though their mothers had longed in vain for this blessing, the daughters were now enjoying it. Edith gradually lost her quiet sadness, while Mayon, in the warm influence of Lillian's sunny, merry temperament, changed rapidly from a quiet girl, thoughtful beyond her years, to a sprightliness in voice and manner which greatly added to her charms. Thoughts of home and mother, how- ever, oft brought the tears to her eyes and a quiver to her tones. Her first act was to write a long, loving letter to her mother, which was greedily devoured by the latter in her anxiety to know of her daughter's safe arrival. The question of IMayon's education was now to be consid- ered. Lillian had entered a girls' school on the banks of the Hudson a 3'ear previous, and was anxious that Mayon should go there with her when she returned at the close of her present vacation. Mayon shrank from the publicity of a school, and felt that it would be a painful ordeal for her to enter one, ignorant, as she was, of all public institutions, and of the manners and customs of the people. She had been reared in the greatest of retirement, never having been in a school, and 15 226 ELDER NORTIIFIELD's HOME ; OR, was consequently very timid and quite embarrassed with strangers. She believed, however, that all Gentile girls were kind and lovable. Her little experience of them justified that opinion, and she wished she might have courage to be- come one of the great number of pupils at Lillian's school. Her anxiety to obtain an education was very strong, and she was by no means ignorant of the knowdedge that books could give her, for her mother had taught her welL Aunt Wells, with her kind, clear good sense, settled the question by saying : " Mayon's studies should begin not with books or school- life, but she must first learn of our manners, customs, re- ligion, and social life. I say that the coming winter should be devoted to society, pleasure, and sight-seeing in our city. Mayon's first study should be of the geograph}^ of her new home. We must make her life as gay and happy as a young girl's life can be in New York city." " Well said, aunt Wells," said her nephew, who was an important member of that family council. " I am glad j^ou agree with me that the poor girl should not be weighed down with Latin declensions or mathematical problems now, when all her life has been a thoughtful and somewhat sad one. Make her so gay and happy that her voice will ring with laughter as it does now with song." " If only Lillian was to be at home," sighed aunt Wells, *4t would be so much easier for Mayon to mingle in society." But Lillian's whole course of study could not well be in- terrupted, and soon Mayon had to part with her cousin, who had assisted so much in rendering her first few days of life in " the world " very happy ones. Edith would not consent to remain dependent on the bounty of her friends, and insisted on trying to obtain em- ployment ; and at last, to content her, they gave her needle- work to do, and thus she became the family seamstress. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 227 She was treated, liowever, as her mother had been by this same old lady in her younger days, not as a servant, but as a friend and member of the family. She could not be per- suaded away from her life-long habit of remaining at home ; and though ]Mayon was constantly going to see every phase of life and entertainment the city afforded, yet it was only when, with an affectionate caress, she said, " Please, dear Edith, come with me this once," that she yielded. Mayon was fast learning what her friends wished. She became less shy and sensitive in company, with much tact learning to avoid the oddities of manner peculiar to her former life, and to adopt the customs of the people wdth whom she associated. Always graceful, always beautiful and intelligent, and distinguished as being a Mormon refugee, it was no wonder that she made many friends in a short time. The sights and sounds of the city, its schools, libraries, etc., ceased after a time to be such wonderful ob- jects of interest to her as at first. But attendance at church was always a great delight. Never had she heard the preaching of the Gentile religion, and with Edith she drank in every word that fell from the minister's lips ; and though they harmonized with her mother's teachings, yet new light seemed to come to their souls, and they were something like the poor heathen of other lands, receiving with wonder and delight the gospel of Jesus Christ. Whenever they had at- tended worship in Salt Lake City, they had listened to exhortations to duty, obedience and sacrifice, the glory of suffering for religion's sake, until, had it not been for the teachings of careful mothers, they would have never known that there was anything more cheering, more beautiful than these sterner attributes. They were not told of the love of God the Father to his children, and Christ's sacrifice once for all for the world, was not referred to. Now they weie led to realize the beauties of the Gentile religion, and 228 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, many times Mayon's eager, happy face, sometimes tearful, attracted the attention of her fellow- worshippers as she lis- tened with an absorbing interest, all unconscious of her surroundings. As the service closed it was with difficulty sometimes that she could recall her mind to the practical affixirs of life. Edith, too, intensely enjoyed these religious services, and began to experience much of real happiness, which she had said she never expected to enjoy. They faithfully made record of everything of interest in their lives for the comfort of one who had sacrificed so much for her child. When spring came, Edith began to tire of city life, sights and sounds, and longed for the country. She felt a languor and failing of strength, that caused her to contemplate seek- ing occupation out of the city. Though loth to part with her, as she w\as to leave them, her friends thought it wise to grant her request, and seek employment for her with some good family in the country. Dependent she would not be, and they could not persuade her to accept support unearned by herself. Mrs. Bernard found a situation for Edith with a friend of hers some forty miles distant. Her duties were confined to the partial care of two children and assistance in the family sewing. She was very pleasantly situated, and began to recruit in health and strength. Another vacancy was made in the family circle of the Bernards in a few months. During Lillian's long summer vacation she made a new plea for Mayon's companionship in school. " Mayon," said she, " I know you will be happy there, for you love to study so well and there arc so many dear good girls that you cannot feel lonely or timid among them all. You will soon feel perfectly at home, and things will not seem so strange or new as when you first came." *' Yes, Lillian, I dare say I should soon get accustomed to it, and like it very much. I think I should begin to study SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 229 now, for I wish to fit myself for teaching, tmcl should lose no time." "As to the teaching, I am sure there is no need of that; but I will go to aunt Wells with my heart's desire, as she seems to assume the right to guide your interests, and she will not refuse if she knows we both wish it strongly." " I vvill go with you, Lillian, and will be guided entirely by her wishes; but I now feel as though I would really like to try school life. That will be as great a novelty for me as my experiences the past few months have been, for 3"ou know I never entered a school-room till aunt Elsie took me to visit the schools here." Aunt Wells was inclined to grant the request of her nieces, and it followed that one day two happy young girls bid their friends good-bye and entered D Seminary, one as a re- turned member, the other as a new pupil. Mayon endured the scrutiny of a room full of school-girls and a corps of teachers quite bravely. As her classes and lessons were assigned to her, she went to work with a will, and soon the embarrassment of her position wore off and she began to make friends with her schoolmates. She felt that zest and enjoyment in school-life that can only be known by one whose education has been conducted hitherto in private. Life to her was a glorious thing now; she was enjoying all the blessings and advantages, all the joys that she had longed for in Gentile life, save one — the companionship of father, mother and brother. Thoughts of longing for them and shades of liomesickness troubled her at times, in spite of all her liappiness. Mayon had from her first entrance into the school noticed a slight, frail girl, whose graceful, pleasant ways and tone of voice resembled her old friend. Flora Winchester. Then her features reminded her of Flora, though the resemblance was not strong. She heard one of her schoolmates address her as 230 ELDER northfield's home; or, Jessie, then she learned from Lillian that her name was Jessie Winchester. " O Lillian ! " said she, " can it be that she is poor Flora's sister?" And then for the first time she told Lillian the story of Flora Winchester. She resolved to seek her and learn for herself. So Lillian asked Jessie Winchester to come to their room during recreation hour. She complied, and thus began a friendship between Jessie and Mayon which was firm and true, and lasting. " Have 3' on a sister Flora? " asked Mayon. "Yes, I suppose I have. Why do you ask? Have you ever seen her? " " I have seen a Flora Winchester from W , a girl who had a sister Jessie and two brothers. I have seen her, and known her, and loved her. She has shared my home and my room, and was like a sister to me, and is even now dearer than my own half-sister." "0 tell me! where did j^ou see her? It cannot be, then, that she went to Utah if this is true. You are not from Utah, are you?" " Yes, I came away from Salt Lake City a few months ago." " Then, where and how is Flora now? " . " She is there yet, and is the wife of Elder Burnside." *' I knew it! I told mother so. I knew that man had bewitched our Flora, or she never would have left us. O dear I She was the light of our home, and we have not been happy at all since she left; and I think flUher is the most unhappy of us all, though he is still so angry at her that he will not allow her name to be mentioned ; and we are all forbidden to write to her, or to receive letters if she should write. But mother and Carlos did write her two or three letters, notwithstanding, though they never received any answer. It was not long after she went away. Do you know Y/hether she ever received the letters ? " SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 231 " I think she never did," said Mayon. "Father, I know, loved Flora the best of us all; but he is very stern, if offended, though always kind if we obey him. And I believe he would gladly receive Flora to-day if it were not for his will and pride. I am so glad to see one wlio can tell me about her, and one who has been kind to her. How I thank you for being a friend to my sister! Little did I think, when I noticed the tall girl, with large, dark eyes and long curls, among the new-comers here, that she was a friend to my sister. This is the first we have heard from her. Now, please, tell me all about Flora, and I will listen." Then Mayon told the eager, anxious girl all that she knew of her loved sister and how she had vainly tried to persuade her to return to her home. Jessie was affected to tears by Mayon's account of Flora's homesickness, her longing for friends and her marriage. She could not rest till she had gained the consent of Mayon and Lillian to go with her to her home, that her mother might hear from Mayon's own lips Flora's recent history. They lived but a few miles from the school, and Jessie returned to her home every Saturday, there to spend the Sabbath. " Father must not hear a word," said Jessie; " but mother and the boys will be so glad to see you and hear you talk of her. Mother has been almost crazy about her, wondering what has been her fate. Almost any certainty would be better for her than this suspense. We feared she would marry if she went among the Mormons, unless she repented and came back, and father made it almost impossible for her to do that; besides, she is so proud she could never bear the odium that would attach itself to her. Father feels her be- coming a Mormon a disgrace; but if he were not so proud, I know he would be as glad to hear from her as we are. Per- haps in time he will change ; but, dear ! it is too late even now to get her back, but it is such a comfort to meet one 232 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, T^'ho has been a friend to her. Mayon — may I call you Mayon ? I shall always love you for your kindness to my sister." Then she became interested in Mayon's own history, and they talked till the bell rang for prayers. The next week Lillian and Mayon went with Jessie to her pleasant but unpretentious home, there to spend the Sab- bath. Jessie had written that she w^ould bring friends home with her, but had given no further information. When she presented them to her mother, and explained that Mayon had recently come from Salt Lake City and was a friend to Flora there, and that her home had been Flora's home, then the mother threw her arms round Mayon's neck and wept. As soon as she could calm herself she requested Mayon to tell her all she knew of Flora. Mayon did so, and emotions of love, grief, thankfulness and fear for her daughter, filled her heart as Mayon gave the different phases of Flora's his- tory. The existing fact of her matrimonial alliance checked all feelings of hope for her return. It cast a gloom over all contemplation of her daughter. Poor Flora was doubtless eternally lost to them ; but, in spite of the sadness of this conviction, there was comfort in hearing from her and meet- ing one who had been her friend and confidant. Carlos Winchester had just finished his collegiate course, and was now pursuing the study of law with an able lawyer in the village. Leonard, who was the youngest of the family, was preparing for college at the village academy. Their father, wdio was in moderate circumstances, w^as yet able to give his children the advantages of education, though his business did not yield an income sufficient for the indulgence of many luxuries. Unknown to the narrator of Flora's history, also to his family, this man was a listener to the last of her story. His return from business was earlier than usual, or he would not SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 233 have heard Flora's name mentioned, for it had been forbid- den, and never was spoken when there was any danger of being heard by liim. Though outward obedience was yielded him, yet in private it was not seldom that the mother and her three remaining children referred to the missing fourth. Mr. Winchester paused to listen at the door as his ear caught the name, Flora, spoken in unfamiliar tones. He continued to listen till he had learned much that roused his paternal feelings. He left the house unperceived by his family, and returned at supper time. Then was gathered the entire family: the dignified, though kind father; the quiet, subdued mother ; Carlos, with his tall, lithe figure, brown wavy locks, lofty forehead, and kind, clear gray eyes, so resembling Flora's that Mayon almost gave a start at sight of him ; Jessie, whose sweet, graceful ways gave her a strong influ- ence on her brothers ; and Leonard, sturdy, merry Leonard, who tried hard to be quiet and dignified, like his father, but in vain, and who often made his home ring with laughter by the exercise of his fun-loving propensities. Lillian and Mayon soon felt quite at ease with their new friends. Carlos and Leonard were still in ignorance of Mayon's knowledge of Flora or of her former home. Mr. Winchester, after cordially greeting his daughter's friends, soon relapsed into a preoccupied silence, and once, as his wife made some reference to their visitors, he abruptly addressed Mayon as Flora, and immediately recalled the name ; and again, on being asked where a certain acquaintance of the family was, he absently answered, "In Utah," then, seeming very much embarrassed, he emerged from his absent-mindedness and forced himself to become sociable, as was his custom with his family. On the following day the young people were assembled by themselves, and Mayon repeated Flora's story for the benefit of her brothers. They were intensely interested, and there 234 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, were tears in Carlos' eyes and a tremor in his voice as he grasped Mavon^s hand and said, ''God bless you for your kindness to my sister," while Leonard fidgeted uneasily in his chair, and at last exploded with, ''Hang it! why don't the government put a stop to the whole thing? I would like just to put a bullet through that scoundrel Burnside, who robbed us of our Flora." Mayon and Lillian were treated with the greatest of atten- tion, and every possible means was employed to add to the pleasure of their short visit. Each seemed to vie with the other in showing grateful kindnesses to Mayon, and when the three returned to school, the warmest, heartiest hand- grasp was that of Mr. Winchester. Mayon heartily wished she dared speak freely to him of his daughter, but Jessie enjoined her to refrain from such a course. This was only the beginning of an intimate companionship and much time spent in the society of the Winchester family. For Mayon came to them something like a representative of their lost one, and in a certain degree began to fill her place in their hearts. Carlos said she must allow them to regard her as a sister when with them, and, as he had formerly been devoted to his favorite Flora, he now monopolized much of Mayon's time, and delighted in her society ; not, however, exhibiting a warmer feeling than that friendly brotherly interest which had been awakened through his affection for his absent sis- ter. Mayon souglit to learn from her mother's letters of Flora's ])resent circumstances, and to open through their letters a correspondence between her and her family, but she had removed with her liusband to a distant part of the Ter- ritory, and moved again, till Mrs. Northfield had lost all trace of her. She at last was told where they were living, and sent several letters to her address, but received no an- swer; so the efforts to establish a correspondence with her or concerning her were fruitless, and her friends could learn no more of her than what Mayon had told them. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 235 A year passed, and rapidl}^ and profital)ly to Mavon, whose only sorrow was her separation from her mother. They constantly cheered each other, however, with long let- ters of unreserved confidence. Mayon and Lillian, who excelled in scholarship, were among the competitors for prizes, and proved formidable rivids for their classmates. Mayon made good use of her time, and had become a great favorite with teachers and scholars. Even her schoulmates' petty jealousy for the Mormon girl's superiority she warded off by kindly ignoring its existence, and winning the love of all. Although in Mayon's intercourse with the Winchesters no attempt now was made to keep secret from Mr. Winchester her former home and life in Mormondom, yet no word had been spoken by him to any one with regard to Flora. But all were glad to observe that he always listened with peculiar interest to anything Mayon had to say of her life in Utah, though he never had asked her one question on the subject. But one day he invited her to ride with him alone, and then he questioned her concerning the doctrines, regulations and marriage relations of the Church. He asked particularly of the latter, and showed much desire to become informed con- cerning the character of the Mormon men, from Brigham Young down to the most obscure male member of the Church. He sought to learn whether they were, as a rule, kind and humane, or otherwise. Mayon could not give an answer to this question very favorable to the generality of Mormons, but, speaking from her own experience, she had little to say to their discredit. She told him, in the course of their con- versation, of a young girl who came to them from tlie East, deceived into the belief by an elder, and forbidden her father's house in his anger. She spoke in strong terms of the girl's unhappiness and homesickness, of her longing to receive the kind, loving look of her then angry parent, of her 236 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, sorrow at separation from mother, sister and brothers, and of her own effort to persuade her to give up her false religion and return, a penitent, to her father's house. She repeated the reply the girl had made, saying it was too late, for her father had declared she never should enter his house again ; and, though she longed to return to her home, yet it was now impossible, and she would make the best of it. Her companion was silent at Mayon's conclusion, and when he spoke, his voice was husky, in spite of hiniself. Mayon hoped she had softened his heart towards his erring daughter, and not without reason. Though still too proud to speak of her, yet the ice in his heart was thawing. SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 237 CHAPTER XIV. AT the close of Mayon's second year at school Lillian graduated, and with honor, and Mayon knew that when she returned after vacation she must come alone. Therefore graduation day was rather a sad one to her. But Jessie's parents had invited her to spend the summer months at her home, and, as she had never spent much time in the country, she was very glad to accept the invitation. Lillian, and indeed her aunt's whole family, regretted to be deprived of lier society, but aunt Wells said : " It is just wliat she needs. She has become familiar with city life and with school life, and it is time she now enjoyed the delights of the country." So Mayon left the school with Jessie instead of with Lillian as usual. How she enjoyed the pure air, the green fields, the wild flowers and freedom from all the re- straints of school discipline or city conventionalities ! Carlos was also taking a vacation from his studies, and as Jessie was busy mornings assisting her mother about her household duties it fell to Carlos' lot to entertain his sister Mayon, as he called her. So together they read Shakespeare, or took long morning drives or walks in the fields and forests with a view to a practical study of botany. But one, at least, was learning in the close companionship of these sunny daj^s, a lesson of a different character. Carlos did not so often call Mayon, sister, as he had done, and, as he offered her many little tokens of esteem, spoke words expressing his high re- gard for her, he was annoyed to see how composedly she received them, with perfect unembarrassment. They never li:LDER NORTHFIELD S HOME ; OR, called a conscious blush to her check or hesitating tremor in her voice. He knew her heart was stirred by no answering emotion to the sentiment he now felt for her. Perfectly un- conscious Mayon continued to enjoy his society, and received at his hands the many pleasures the country afforded to one "who had never known its attractions. Perhaps a Gentile girl would have seen in his manner more than a brotherly affection, but Mayon did not yet thoroughly understand Gentile life, and anything that seemed strange or peculiar to her in it she attributed to her own ignorance of anything outside Mormonism. "Jessie," said Carlos one day when alone with his sister, " do you think Mayon ever thinks of me in any way but as a brother or intimate friend ? " " Why, Carlos? " innocently asked Jessie. " Because," and then Carlos' cheek reddened — " Jessie, I will tell you a secret. I am tired of being her brother : I — I — I wish to be regarded in a different relation. You under- stand, Jessie. I love IMayon with my whole soul, and I be- lieve she does not suspect it, and cares no more for me than for many another friend. I have tried to give her little hints, but she takes them so exasperatingly cool, and returns my affection in such a wise, sisterly manner, without the slightest shade of embarrassment, that sometimes I get desperate and have to bite my lips to keep them from saying certain things. I think she would be shocked and very sorry, and would go aw^ay from here, and then — Jessie — how lonely we should be ! " " Dear Carlos, I did not think matters were so serious as that. Do not be so hopeless. Even if no such thought has entered Mayon's head there is plenty of time yet for that result, and at least you have the comfort of knowing she is fond of you. Carlos, nothing would suit me better than that you should make Mayon really what she seems, my sister; SACRIFICED OJ\ THE MORMOrM ALTAR. 239 and father and mother I am sure would be very much pleased. Remember, ' Faint heart,' etc., Carlos." "Yes, sister, I will, but I will control my tongue till Mayon's happy summer draws to a close, at least, unless she pjives me more reason for hope." Thus saying Carlos lelt her, but alas for tlie frailty of human resolutions ! Not a week had passed when one day as he and Mayon had seated themselves on a m.ossy bed, by the side of a little fairy stream in a valley thickly wooded with pine, and were analyzing specimens of the forest wild flowers, Carlos be- came so confused as to awkwardly pull the delicate flower to pieces, scattering it upon the ground at his feet, making the most absurd blunders in the use of botanical terms. " Carlos, Carlos," exclaimed Mayon, " what are you saying and what are you doing ? Look at that poor little blossom all torn in pieces. What are you thinking of to destroy it so ? You look as though you would like to annihilate the whole floral kingdom." " Mayon," said he, and he clasped her hand in his, " I will tell you what T am thinking of, if you will hear me. I am thinking of one who came to my home and filled a sister's place in my heart. A dear sister she became too, and I find too dear for my peace of mind, if our present relations toward each other continue. Mayon, I love you with no brother's love. Be a sister to me no longer, but promise to become my wife some time." " 0, Carlos," said Mayon, as she attempted to withdraw her hand, but he held it fast, "I am so sorry. I never dreamed of this. I love you, Carlos, but not in that way. No, I cannot be your wife. I never thought of that. Please do not blame me for letting you say this. How could I know you thought of me in this way ? Please, dear brother, forget it all, and let us be the same to each other as before." Mayon's cheeks were rosy enough now with blushes, and her 240 ELDER NORTHFIELD's HOME ; OR, voice had all the tremor in it that Carlos would have been glad to note in past days. " But, Mayon," said he, " if you have never thought of this, won't you think of it now? You confess that you love me as a brother, and may not time ripen that affection into something stronger? At least, give me some hope, Mayon ! " " I can't, Carlos. O, do try to forget it all and be the same to me as before. You have been such a kind brother to me I feel that it will be hard to lose you, but I am sure if I — if — if I ever marr}^ I must love very differently from this. I should wrong you to give you in return no more affection than I have for you." "But I could win your love in time I do believe, for, Mayon, I would be so kind to you. I would devote my whole life entirely to you. I will wait, so patiently, if at last you will be mine. Mayon, dearest Mayon, let me ask you again, in a year — two years ? " Mayon became very sad now. It wrung her heart to re- fuse this passionate plea for her love, and she was tempted to give him hojie. But she felt in doing so she would be doing wrong, and at last found courage to utterly refuse him. " O please, Carlos," said she, " please forgive me for wounding you. I wish it might be so, but it is impossible. Please do not blame me for letting you come to this, for I never suspected it. I think I had better go to New York now." " No, Mayon, I will be man enough not to trouble you further ; and since you decide against my suit, we will again be to each other as brother and sister, and we will try, as you say, to forget all this; but, Mayon, in spite of all you say, I shall hope that some time you will change. It is not quite impossible that some time you may know that your sisterly love has changed to a warmer sentiment. I shall SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 241 comfort myself with that hope. In the meantime we will try to be happy as we have been." " Shall we go now, Carlos ? " " Yes, Mayon, and we will come again to-morrow and at- tend more closely to our botanical studies. These poor flowers have been torn to pieces as my hopes have : but Bee, they are not quite destroyed, neither are my hopes." They returned to the house, and Mayon spent the after- noon with Jessie as usual. But before her head rested on its pillow she had confided that day's experience to paper for a loving mother's eyes to read, and she felt more tranquil and happy. But though Jessie never referred to the subject she felt sure she knew what had transpired, for she seemed a little sorrowful and thoughtful, though not one whit less kind and affectionate. Carlos, too, did not abate in his zeal for Mayon's happiness, and her heart was touched. As matters stood she was rather glad when the close of her vacation drew near, and she returned to New York for a few days be- fore beginning another school year. The farewells with these friends and the greetings of her uncle's household were hardly over when Mayon received a short letter dated at Salt Lake City, informing her that her mother's health was failing rapidly, and that if she cared for her as a daughter should, she would return immediately, for her absence was a source of much suffering to her mother. Said the writer : " Mrs. Northfield is not fully aware of her own condition, and therefore has probably refrained from alarming you, or requesting you to return. Trusting that you will act wisely and dutifully, these lines are penned by a friend." The writing was unfamiliar and no name was signed to the letter, but Mayon's heart was filled with fear and grief. " my poor mother ! and I have been away from her so long — more than two years since we parted. It is just like her thoughtfulness, to keep me in ignorance of her suffering that 16 242 ELDER NORTHFIELd's HOME J OR, I might not be troubled. But some kind friend has informed me, and instead of going back to school I will go back to my mother, and remain as long as she needs me. Perhaps (with a sigh) I shall remain all m}^ life, but at any rate I have had two beautiful years of life in the world." Her uncle examined the letter and expressed the fear that it was far from a friendly one, but written with the purpose of decoying Mayon into Mormonism again. Mayon said : " If it is so, I can come back again." '' But," said her uncle, " would it not be wise to w^ait till you can write and hear again from your mother? " " O, I cannot w^ait, uncle ! See, the writer says she is fail- ing rapidly, and if I w^ait, I may be too late. My poor mother sick, and with her daughter so many hundred miles aw^ay ! I feel that I was almost cowardly to leave her at all." "But, Mayon, I feel afraid there is something under- handed about this. Anonymous letters are suspicious. It will only require a few days to settle all doubt." " But a few days may be too late. The letter says she is rapidly failing, but is not aware of her own condition. That is why she has not written of it to me ; she did not know her real condition and did not wish to alarm me. O, uncle, please do not refuse your consent to my immediate return to my mother. Think how I have not seen her for two long years, and what if she should die with no Mayon by her Bide and I should never see her again! " " But, my dear, are you not afraid that it will be impossi- ble for you to get away again if you once return ? " "No, I think not, for mother writes that father feels very different now towards me; and even if I never leave Utah again, I must go to my mother. 0, uncle Walter, please let me go." "Well, Mayon, I shall not refuse you, but I am afraid the writer is dealing in foul play." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 243 " No one could do such a cruel thing as that. I think some kind-hearted person has written for mother's sake and mine." The separation from Mayon's new friends was entirely un- locked for, and as she thought that possibly it might be a separation for life, it was a very sad one to them all-. There was not the anguish and agony of fear, however, that made Iier separation from her mother so terrible, and she was not fleeing like a slave or criminal now, but was in God's free land, and could leave with no fear of molestation. Sad thoughts were hers concerning the giving up of her school life and departure with no final farewell to the Winchesters, but they were only fleeting thoughts, for her heart and head were too full of anxiety for her mother and preparations for her journey. Mrs. Northfield was sitting quietly and alone in her little parlor one day re-reading Mayon's last letter, written on the day of Carlos' proposal to her. She laid it down and sat, with eyes closed, thinking. From the expression of her face, though there was a look of longing there, her thoughts were evidently not unpleasant. She had the appearance of rest- ing in mind and body. There was a quick, nervous peal at the door-bell. Slie started, and opening the door, wonder- ingly faltered, " May on, Mayon, can this be you ! " " Mother ! mother ! " exclaimed Mayon, and mother and daughter were again locked in each other's arms. Again their tears mingled, though their lips refused to speak. " You are better, are you not, dear mother ? " asked Mayon as soon as she could speak. " Better ! Wliat do you mean, my child ? " " Have you not been ill ? " " On the contrary, my health has been very good of late — better than usual." 244 ELDER KORTHFIELD's HOME; OR, ''0, I am so glad! I expected to find you sick, perhaps dying. That is why I am here ; but I am glad I am here after^all. O, mother, the years have been long when I thought of you, but so short for the happiness that has been crowded into them ! " " Thank God for that, my darling ; but why did you think I was sick?" "Some one here has written to me, saying my mother's health was failing rapidly and advising me to inmiediately return to her. Uncle was right ; some one has deceived me ; but why should any one do it? " " O, Mayon, I almost wish you had not come, though my heart has ached with my lonehness, and I am so happy to see the face I feared I should never behold again. But I fear there is something wrong about this— some injury con- templated towards you." " Can it be that my father had anything to do with it ? " " No, Mayon. I am so happy of late to see a change coming over him, especially in the last few weeks. I think— I do believe that in time he will see the error of his whole life and apostatize. Mayon, I believe better days are coming. Your father has seen so much dishonesty and avarice in Brigham Young and the councillors and apostles, and so much of the sad results of polygamy, that I think his faitli is wavering. He does not say much on the subject, but I notice he does not attend the meetings as regularly as he has done, and he is studying the Bible a great deal. Thus, Mayon, what has affected his personal interests has affected his' faith somewhat. Some of the most religious men of the church,— men in whom he has always had great faith,— have by their dishonesty been the means of the loss of so much money to him that he was fearful his whole ])usiness would -be swamped. I have been waiting to see how the affair came out before writing to you about it; but though all were SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 245 lost, and we became penniless, I could rejoice if it were the means of opening up the way to our freedom from this re- ligion." "That will be a joyful day if it ever comes," said Mayon ; " and, mother, how will father receive me? I have dreaded to meet him, but perhaps if he is so changed he will receive me kindly." " I think he will, for he has been quite lonely since Nell was married." Nell had been married a few months previous, and was the third wife of a still quite young man. She was yet his reigning favorite, and still looked with favor on Mormonism with all its institutions. She had yet to learn that she was only the plaything of the hour, to be thrust aside as a child thrusts aside a toy that has given him great delight, for a newer and more attractive one. Mrs. Northfield's happiness had not been lessened by Nell's departure, for she had never been a source of pleasure to her, but very many times the reverse. Forest was away from the city preaching in some of the smaller settlements, and the house was quite lonely, though Marion did not feel the loneliness as she would but for her happiness at hope of a change in her husband and her pleasure in her daughter's happy life and prospects. She noticed with joy that a great change had come over Mayon in two years. She was now so happy and buoyant, in contrast to her former depressed manner. Her face had lost its look of fear and dread, and her eyes shone with a new light. Her mind had become stored with knowledge in many departments. The same vigorous health was still hers, and her mother felt that two years of absence had but added so much of beauty, cultivation and goodness to her child. They talked of Edith, who was still in the country earning her own livelihood, of Elsie and her family, of Nell, and of 246 ELDER NORTHFIELD S HOME ; OR, Flora and her friends. There was so much to he said of the occurrences of two years that hours fled unheeded by them both. At last the father's footstep was heard in the hall. "0, let me hide, mother, till you have told him I am here," said Mayon, and she started to leave the room ; but as she opened the door at one side of the room, her father en- tered at the other. He stopped short at sight of Mayon, in bewildered aston- ishment. Mayon turned back to lier father and said : " Father, have you forgiven me ? " "Forgiven you! Yes, my child, I have forgiven you. Have you forgiven me ? " " 0, yes, father, with all my heart." Then he folded Mayon close in his strong arms, and both felt that they were in loving sympathy as they never were before. The mother witnessed their meeting with a heart overflowing with joy. Happiness was at last coming into her life after many years. " Now, Mayon, how came you here, and why did you at- tempt to run away from me a second time? " " I only meant to give mother a chance to tell you I was here before you met me. I confess I did not think you would be so glad to see me." " But I am, my daughter, very glad indeed. I think I was a little mistaken with regard to my ideas of duty. I think now that each one should be allowed to follow the dictates of his or her own conscience, and I regret that I ■book it upon myself to decide and determine upon your course, but I thought I was doing what was for the best at the time." " I do not doubt it, father, and it has resulted, I hope, in no harm." " But, ]\Iayon, you have not told me why you came back to us so unexpectedly." SACRIFICED ON THE MORMON ALTAR. 247 Then Mayon gave an account of the letter, and handed it