PORTRAIT OF LORD LYTTON— ■' OWEN MEREDITH." LUCILE OWEN MEREDITH tVAjr, let the stricken deer go weep. The hart uttgalled play : For some must ivateh ivhile some nnist sleep : Thus runs the world aruay." Family Edition. Fully Illustrated by H. N. Cady. With Border by W. St. John Harper. ■-■--ooks Take a heavy-wing'd flight, and grow busy as rooks ; And the postman (that (lenius, indifferent and stern. Who shakes out even-handed to all, from his urn. Those lots which so often decide if our day Sliall be fretful and an.\ious, or joyous and gay) Brings, eachmorning.more lettersof one sort or other Tnan Cadmus, himself, put together, to bother The heads of Hellenes ; — I say, in the season Of Fair Mav, in May Fair, there can be no reason Why, when quietly munching your dry-toast and butler. Your nerves should be suddenly thrown in a flutter At the sight of a neat little letter, address'd In a woman's handwriting, containing, half guess'd. An odor of violets fa'int as the Spring, And ((Xjueltishly seal'd with a small signet-ring. L UCILE. 1 But in Autumn, the season of sombre reflection. When a damp day, at breakfast, begins with dejec- tion ; Far from London and Paris, and ill at one's ease. Away in the heart of the blue Pyrenees, Where a call from the doctor, a stroll to the bath. A ride through the hills on a hack like a lath, A cigar, a French novel, a tedious flirtation. Are all a man finds for his day's occupation. The whole case, believe me, is totally changed. And a letter may alter the plans we arranged Over-night, for the slaughter of Time— a wild beast. Which, though classified yet by no naturalist. Abounds in these mountains, more hard to ensnare. And more mischievous, too, than the Lynx or the Bear. in. I marvel less, therefore, that, having already Torn open this note, with a hand most unsteady. Lord Alfred was startled. The month is Sei)tember ; Time, morning ; the scene at Bigorre ; (pray remem- ber These facts, gentle reader, because I intend To fling all the unities by at the end.) He walk'd to the window. The morning was chill : The brown woods were crisp'd in the cold on the hill : The sole thing abroad in the streets was the wind : And the straws on the gust, like the thoughts in his mind. ^^iil^ m L UCILE. Rose, and eddied around and around, as the' leasing Each other. The prospect, in truth, was unpleasinjr : And Lord Alfred, whilst moodily gazing around ii, To himself more than once (vex'd in soul) sigh'f! " Confound it ! " What the thoughts were which led to this bad inter- jection, Sir, or Madam, I leave to your future detection ; For whatever they were, they were burst in upon, As the door was burst through, by my lord's Cousin John. Cou.siN John. A fool, Alfred, a fool, a most motley fool \ Lord Alfred. Who.' John. The man who has anything better to do ; And yet so far forgets himself, so far degrades His position as Man, to this worst of all trades, Which even a well-brought-up ape were abo\e. To travel about with a woman in love, — Unless she's in love with himself. Alfred. Are you here then, dear Jack ? John. Indeed ! wh\ Can't you guess it } Alfred Not I. L UCILE. 9 John. Because I have nothing that's better to do. I had rather be bored, my dear Alfred, by you, On the whole (I must own), than be bored by my- self. That perverse, imperturbable, golden-hair'd elf — Your Will-o'-the-wisp— that has led you and me Such a dance through these hills— Alfred. Who, Matilda } John. Yes ! she. Of course ! who but she could contrive so to keep One's eyes, and one's feet too, from falling asleep For even one half-hour of the long twenty-four? Alfred. What's the matter ? John. Why, she is— a matter, the more I consider about it, the more it demands An attention ii does not deserve ; and expands Beyond the dimensions which ev'n crinoline. When possess'd by a fair face and saucy Eighteen, Is entitled to take in this very small star, Already too crowded, as /think, by far. You read Malthus and Sadler ? Alfred. Of course. John. To what use. When you countenance, calmly, such monstrour abuse ■'\"A JO LUCILE. Of one mere human creature's le<;itimatc space In this world? Mars, Apollo, Virorum ! the case Wholly passes my patience. Alfred. My own is worse tried. J(JHN. Yours, Alfred ? Alfred. Read this, if you doubt, and decide. John {rfadttig the letter). " I hear fj'om Bigorre you are there. I a)ii tolit )'o!( are gonig to marry Miss Darcy. Of old — " What is this ? Alfred. Read it on to the end, and you'll know. John {continues reading"). "When we parted, your last words recorded a Tcm' — W^hat yo7i will" . . . Hang- it ! this smells all over, 1 swear. Of adventures and violets. Was it your hair You promised a lock of ? Alfred. Read on. You'll discern. John (continues). " Those letters I asic you, my lord, to return." . . . Humph I . . . Letters ! . . . the matter is worse than I guess'd ; 1 have my misji^ivings — WL: ^ ii«.r-^- J' ^jtisa L UCILE. 1 1 Alfrkd. Well, read out the rest. And advise. John. Eh ? . . . Where was I ? . . . {^continues) " Miss Darcy, perchance. Will forego one brief page from the summer romance Of her courtship." . ■ ■ Egacl I a romance, for my part, I'd forego every page of, and not break my heart ! Alkrkd. Continue! John {rciuring}. -Am/ spare you one day from your place At her feel." ... Pray forgive me the passmg grmiace. I wish you had MY place 1 {7-eads) '• I trust you will feel I desire nothing much. Your friend" .. . Bless me ! " Luetic f The Comtesse de Nevers ? Alfred. Yes. John. , . What will you do ^ Alfred. You ask me just what 1 would ratht-r ask vou. r You can't "'o. L UCFLE. John. Alfred. I must. John. And Matilda ? Alfrel^. Oh, that You must manage ! John. Must 1 ? I decline it, though, flat. In an hour the horses will beat the door. And Matilda is now in her habit. Before I have finish'd my breakfast, of course I receive .A. message for " dear Cousin Jo/in .'" ... I must leave At the jeweller's the bracelet which vo// broke last night ; I must call for the music. " Dear Alfred is right : The black shawl looks best : 7e//// I change it ? Of course I can just sto[), in passing, lo order the horse. Then lieau has the mumps, or St. Hubert knows what ; IV/// \ seethe dog-doctor?" Hang Beau! I will nof. Alfred. Tush, tush I this is serious. John. It is. Al.FRKl). \'ery well. You must think — John. What excuse will you make, tho' ? Alfred. Oh, tell Mrs. Darcy that . . . lend me your wits. Jack! . . . the deuce ! Can you not stretch your genius to fit a friend's use ? Excuses are clothes which, when asked unawares. Good Breeding to naked Necessity spares. You must have a whole wardrobe, no doubt. John. My dear fellow, Matilda is jealous, you know, as Othello. Alfred. You joke. John. I am serious. Why go to Luchon ? Alfred. Don't ask me. 1 have not a choice, my dear John. Besides, shall I own a strange sort of desire, Before 1 extinguish forever the fire Of youth and romance, in whose shadowy light Hope whisper'd her first fairy tales, to excite The last spark, till it rise, and fade far in that da\\n Of my da\ s where the twilights of life were first drawn lt'#1 -i^' rl£^.^««.^ 14 LUCILE. ,^^y By the rosy, reluctant auroras of Love : In short, from the dead Past the gravestone tt) move ; Of the years long departed forever to take One last look, one final farewell ; to awake The Heroic of youth from the Hades of jov. And once more be, though hut for an hour. Jack — a boy ! John. You had better go hang yourself. Alfred. No ! were it i)ut To make sure that the Past from the Future is shut. It were worth the step back. Do you think we should live With the living so lightly, and learn to survive That wild moment in which to the grave and its gloom We consign 'd our heart's best, if the doors of the toinb Were not lock'd with a kev which Fate keeps for our sake ? If the dead could return, or the corpses awake ? John. Nonsense ! Alkkkd. Not wholly. i'hr man wh(i gets u]) .•\ rill'd guest from the han(|uet. and drains otf his cup. Sees the last lamj) extinguish 'd with chrcrfuliiess, goes Well contented to bed. and enjoNs its repose. W '7"%. ■m L UCILE. 15 ^" But he who hath supp'd at the tables of kings, And yet starved in the sight of luxurious things ; Who hath watch'd the wine flow, by himself but half tasted. Heard the music, and yet miss'd the tune ; who hath wasted One part of life's grand possibilities ; — friend, That man will bear with him, be sure, to the end, A blighted experience, a rancor within : You may call it a virtue, I call it a sin. John. I see you remember the cynical story Of that wicked old piece of Experience— a hoary Lothario, whom dying, the priest by his bed (Knowing well the unprincipled life he had led. And observing, with no small amount of surprise, Resignation and calm in the old sinner's eyes) Ask'd if he had nothing that weigh'd on his mind : " Well, . . . no," . . . says Lothario, " I think not. I find. On reviewing my life, which in most things was pleasant, I never neglected, when once it was present. An occasion of pleasing myself. On the whole, I have naught to regret ;" . . . and so, smiling, his soul Took its flight from this world. Alfred. Well, Regret or Remorse, Which is best ? i6 L UC/LE. John. Why, Regret. Alfred. Xo ; Remorse, Jack, of course ; For the one is related, be sure, to the other. Regret is a spiteful old maid : but her brother, Remorse, though a widower certainly, yet Has been wed to young Pleasure. Dear Jack, hang Regret ! John. I^ref ! you mean, then, to go ? Alfred. Brcf! I do. John. One word . . . stay ! Are you really in love with Matilda.'' Alfred. Love, eh "^ What a c|uestion ! Of course. John. Were you really in love With Madame de Nevers ? Alfred. What ; Lucile? No, bv Jove, Never really. John. She's pretty .' Alfred. Decidedly so. At least, so she was, some ten summers ago. L UCILE. As soft, and as sallow as Autumn— with hair Neither black, nor yet brown, but that tinge which the air Takes at eve in September, when night lingers lone Through a vineyard, from beams of a slow-setting sun. Eyes— the wistful gazelle's; the fine foot of a fairy ; And a hand fit a fay's wand to wave,— white and airy ; A voice soft and sweet as a tune that one knows. Something in her there was, set you thinking of those Strange backgrounds of Raphael . . . that hectic and deep Brief twilight in which southern suns fall asleep. John. Coquette ? Alfred. Not at all. 'T was her one fault. Not she ! I had loved her the better, had she less loved me. The heart of a man 's like that delicate weed Which requires to be trampled on, boldly indeed. Ere it give forth the fragrance you wish to extract. 'T is a simile, trust me, if not new, exact. Women change so. John. Alfred. Of course. John. i8 L UCILE. :\?^ I believe that, last year, the Comtesse de Nevers'"' Was at Baden the rage — held an absolute court Of devoted adorers, and really made sport Of her subjects. Alfred. Indeed I John. When she broke off with you Her engagement, her heart did not break with it ? Alfred. Pooh ! Pray would you have had her dress always in black. And shut herself up in a convent, dear Jack ? Besides, 't was my fault the engagement was broken. John. Most likely. How was it? Alfred. The tale is soon spoken. She bored me. I show'd it. She saw it. What ne.xt } She reproach'd. I retorted. Of course she was vex'd. * O Shakespeare ! how couldst Ukju ask " What's in a name?" 'T is the devil 's in it, when a bard has to frame English rhymes for alliance with names that are French : And in these rhymes of mine, well I know that I trench All too far on that license which critics refuse, With just right, to accord to a well-brought-up Muse. Yet, tho' faulty the union, in many a line, 'Twixt my British-born verse and my French heroine, Since, however auspiciously wedded they be, There is many a pair that yet cannot agree. Your forgiveness for this pair, the author invites. Whom necessity, not inclination, unites. i2«|^ IHp- -V- L UCILE. 19 Iwasvex'dthatshewasso. She sulkU ho did 1. If 1 ask'd her to sing, she look'd ready to cr>-. 1 was contrite, submissive. Shesoften'd. I harden d. At noon I was banish'd. At eve 1 was pardon d. She said I had no heart. 1 said she had no reason I swore shetalk'd nonsense. She sobb'd I talk d treason. In short, mv dear fellow, 't was tune, as you see. Things should come to a crisis, and finish. T was By who.n to that crisis the matter was brought. She released me. 1 linger-d. I lingered, she thought, With too sullen an aspect. This gave me, of course, The occasion to fly in a rage, mount my horse. And declare myself uncomprehended. And so We parted. The rest of the story you know. John. No, indeed. Alfred. Well, we parted. Of course we could not Continue to meet, as before, in one spot. You conceive it was awkward? Even Don Ferdi- nando Can do, you remember, no more than he can do. I think that I acted exceedingly well. Considering the time when this rupture befell. For Paris was charming just then. It deranged All my plans for the winter. I ask'd to be changed Wrote for Naples, then vacant-obtam'd ,t-and so Join'd my new post at once ; but scarce reach d ,t, when lo ! ■0' 20 L UCILE. My first news from Paris informs me Lucile Is ill, and in danger. Conceive what I feel. I fly back. I find her recover'd, but yet Looking pale. I am seized with a contrite regret ; I ask to renew the engagement. John. Alfred. And she ? Reflects, but declines. We part, swearing to be Friends ever, friends only. All that sort of thing I We each keep our letters ... a portrait . . . a ring . . . With a pledge to return them whenever the one Or the other shall call for them back. John. Pray go on. Alfred. My storv is finish'd. Of course I enjoin On Lucile all those thousand good maxims we coin To supply the grim deficit found in our days, When Love leaves them bankrupt. I preach. She obeys. She goes out in the world ; takes to dancing once more, — A pleasure she rarely indulged in before. I go back to my post, and collect (I must own 'T is a taste I had never before, my dear John) Antiques and small Elzevirs. Heigho ! now. Jack, You know all. John {affcr a pause). You are reallv resolved to gfo back } LUCILE. Alfred. Eh, where ? John. To that worst of all places— the past. You remember Lot's wife ? Alfred. 'T was a promise when last We parted. My honor is pledged to it. John. Well, What is it you wish me to do ? Alfred. You must tell Matilda, I meant to have call'd— to leave word- To explain— but the time was so pressing— John. My lord, Your lordship's obedient ! I really can't do . . . Alfred. You wish then to break off my marriage ? John. No, no ! But indeed I can't see why yourself you need take These letters. Alfred. Not see ? would you have me. then, break A promise my honor is pledged to ? John {humming). And away ! said the stranger " . n " Of, off. 22 LUCILE. Al.FRKD. Oh, ^ood I oh, you scoff ! John. At what, my dear Alfred ? ALFRKI). At all things ! John. Indeed.? Alfred. ^'es ; I see that your heart is as dry as a reed : That the dew of your youth is rubb'd off you : 1 see You have no feeling left in you, even for me ! At honor you jest ; you are cold as a stone To the warm voice of friendshij). Belief you have none ; You have lost faith in all things. You carry a blight About with you everywhere. Yes, at the sight Of such callous indifference, who could be calm ? T must leave you at once, Jack, or else the last balm That is left me in Gilead you '11 turn into gall. 11 rartless, cold, unconcern 'd . . . • John. Have you done .-' Is that all ? Well, then, listen to me ! I presume when you made Up your mind to propose to Miss Darcy, you weigh 'd All the drawbacks against the equivalent gains, ICre you finally settled the jjoint. What remains \\\\\ to stick to vour choice ? You want money : 't is here. 11^/ rs?^-.5 f L UCILE. 23 A settled position : 't is yours. A career : You secure it. A wife, young, and pretty as rich. Whom all men will envy you. Why must you itch To be running away, on the eve of all this, To a woman whom never for once did you miss All these years since you left her !> Who knows what may hap ? This letter — to ;//<— is a palpable trap. The woman has changed since you knew her. Per- chance She yet seeks to renew her youth's broken romance. When women begin to feel youth and their beauty Slip from them, they count it a sort of a duty To let nothing else slip away unsecured Which these, while they lasted, might once have procured. Lucile's a coquette to the end of her t^ngers, I will stake my last farthing. Perhaps the wish lingers To recall the once reckless, indifferent lover To the feet he has left ; let intrigue now recover What truth could not keep. 'T were a vengeance. no doubt — A triumph ;-but why x^msx you bring it about. You are risking the substance of all that you schemed To obtain; and for what ? some mad dream you have dream 'd. Alfred. But there's nothing to risk. You exaggerate, Jack. You mistake. In three days, at the most. 1 am back. f LUCILE. John. Ay, but how ? . . . discontented, unsettled, upset. Bearing with you a comfortless twinge of regret ; Preoccupied, sulky, and likely enough To make your betroth'd break off all in a huff. Three days, do you say ? But in three days who know'S What may happen ? I don't, nor do you, I suppose. V. Of all the good things in this good world around us, The one most abundantly furnish'd and found us. And which, for that reason, we least care about, And can best spare our friends, is good counsel. no doubt. But advice, when 't is sought from a friend (though civility May forbid to avow it), means mere liability In the bill we already have drawn on Remorse. Which we deem that a true friend is bound to in- dorse. A mere lecture on debt from that friend is a bore. Thus, the better his cousin's advice was, the more Alfred Vargrave with angry resentment opposed it. And, having the worst of the contest, he closed it With so tirm a resolve his bad ground to maintain. That, sadly perceiving resistance was vain. And argument fruitless, the amiable Jack Came to terms, and assisted his cousin to pack A slender valise (the one small condescension Which his final remonstrance obtain 'd). whose di- mension ^ ^ L UCILE. 25 Excluded large outfits ; and, cursing his stars, he Shook hands with his friend and return'd to Miss Darcy. VI. Lord Alfred, when last to the window he turn'd. Ere he lock'd up and quitted his chamber, discern'd Matilda ride by, with her cheek beaming bright In what Virgil has call'd ' Youth's purpureal light' (I like the expression, and can't find a better). He sigh'd as he look'd at her. Did he regret her ? In her habit and hat, with her glad golden hair. As airy and blithe as a blithe bird in air. And her arch rosy lips, and her eager blue eyes, With their little impertinent look of surprise, And her round youthful figure, and fair neck, be- low The dark drooping feather, as radiant as snow,— I can only declare, that if / had the chance Of passing three days in the exquisite glance Of those eyes, or caressing the hand that now petted That fine English mare, I should much have re- gretted Whatever might lose me one little half-hour Of a pastime so pleasant, when once in my power. For, if one drop of milk from the bright Milky Way Could turn into a woman, 't would look, I dare say, Not more fresh than Matilda was looking that day. ""% L UCTLE. But whatever the feeling that prompted the sigh With which Alfred Vargrave now watch'd her ride by. 1 can only afifinn that, in watching her ride. As he turn'd from the window, he certainly sigh'd. CANTO II. I. Letter from Lord Alfred Vargrave to THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS. " BlGoRKK, Tuesday. "Your note, Madam, reach'd me to-day, at Bi- gorre, And commands (need I add ?j my obedience. Be- fore The night I shall be at Luchon — where a line, If sent to Duval's, the hotel where I dine. Will find me, awaiting your orders. Receive My respects. " Yours sincerely, "A. Varoravk. •' I leave In an hour." II. In an hour from the time he wrote this, Alfred Vargrave, in tracking a mountain abyss, (iave the rein to his steed and his thoughts, and pursued. ri^ L UCILE. 27 In pursuing his course through the blue soHtude. The reflections that journey gave rise to. And here { Because, without some such precaution, I fear You might fail to distinguish them each from the rest Of the world they belong to; whose captives are drest, As our convicts, precisely the same, one and all. While the coat cut for Peter is pass'd on to Paul ) I resolve, one by one. when I pick from the mass The persons I want, as before you they pass. To label them broadly in plain black and white On the backs of them. Therefore whilst yet he's in sight. I tirst label niv hero. ■£#■--?'] The age is gone o'er When a man may in all things be all. We have more Painters, poets, musicians, and artists, no doubt. Than the great Cinquecento gave birth to; but out Of a million of mere dilettanti, when, when Will a new LEONARDO arise on our ken ? He is gone with the age which begat hun. Our own Is too vast, and too complex, for one man alone To embody its purpose, and hold it shut close 28 L UCILE. '% In the palm of his hand. There were giants in those Irreclaimable days ; but in these days of ours, In dividing the work, we distribute the powers. Yet a dwarf on a dead giant's shoulders sees more Than the 'live giant's eyesight avail'd to explore ; And in life's lengthen'd alphabet what used to be To our sires X Y Z is to us A B C. A Vanini is roasted alive for his pains, But a Bacon comes after and picks up his brains. A Bruno is angrily seized by the throttle And hunted about by thy ghost, Aristotle, Till a More or Lavater step into his place : Then the world turns and makes an admiring gri- mace. Once the men were so great and so few, they ap- pear, Through a distant Olympian atmosphere. Like vast Caryatids upholding the age. Now the men are so many and small, disengage One man from the million to mark him, next mo- ment The crowd sweeps him hurriedly out of vour com- ment ; And since we seek vainly (to praise in our songs) 'Mid our fellows the size which to heroes belongs. We take the whole age for a hero, in want Of a l)etter ; and still, in its favor, descant On the strength and the beauty which, failing to find In any one man, we ascribe to mankind. «S^l> L UCILE. 29 IV. of those men who Alfred Vargrave was one achieve So httle, because of the much they conceive. With irresolute finger he knock'd at each one Of the doorways of life, and abided in none. His course, by each star that would cross it, was set, And whatever he did he was sure to regret. That target, discuss'd by the travellers of old. Which to one appear'd argent, to one appeared gold. To him. ever lingering on Doubt's dizzy margent, Appear'd in one moment .both golden and argent. The man who seeks one thing in Hfe, and but one. May hope to achieve it before life be done ; But he who seeks all things, wherever he goes. Only reaps from the hopes which around him he sows A harvest of barren regrets. And the worm That crawls on in the dust to the definite term Of its creeping existence, and sees nothing more Than the path it pursues till its creeping be o'er. In its limited vision, is happier far Than the Half-Sage, whose course, fix'd by no friendly star. Is by each star distracted in turn, and who knows Each will still be as distant wherever he goes. Both brilliant and brittle, both bold and unstable .i^amk^ 30 L L CILE. Indecisive yet keen. Alfred Vargrave seem"d able To dazzle, but not to illumine mankind. A vigorous, various, versatile mind ; A character wavering, fitful, uncertain, As the shadow that shakes o'er a luminous curtain, Vague, flitting, but on it forever impressing The shape of some substance at which you stand guessing : When you said, " All is worthless and weak here, " i^ehold ! Into sight on a sudden there seem'd to unfold Great outlines of strenuous truth in the man : When you said, " This is genius." the outlines grew wan. And his life, though in all things so gifted and skill'd. Was, al best, but a promise which nothing fulfill'd. VI. In the budding of youth, ere wild winds can de- Hower The shut leaves of man's life, round the germ of his power Yet folded, his life had been earnest. Alas ! In that life one occasion, one moment, there was .When this earnestness might, with the life-sap of youth. Lusty fruitage have borne in his manhood's full growth ; But it found him too soon, when his nature was still The delicate toy of too pliant a will, The boisterous wind of the world to resist, L UCILE. 31 Or the frost of the world's wintry wisdom. He miss'd That occasion, too rathe in its advent. Since then. He had made it a law, in his commerce with men. That intensity in him, which only left sore The heart it disturb'd, to repel and ignore. And thus, as some Prince by his subjects deposed. Whose strength he, by seeking to crush it, disclosed. In resigning the power he lack'd power to support. Turns his back upon courts, with a sneer at the court, In his converse this man for self-comfort appeal'd To a cynic denial of all he conceal'd In the instincts and feelings belied by his words. 'Words, however, are things : and the man who ac- cords I To his language the license to outrage his soul, lis controll'd by the words he disdains to control. And, therefore, he seem'd in the deeds of each day, The light code proclaim'd on his lips to obey ; And, the slave of each whim, follow' d wilfully aught That perchance fool'd the fancy, or flatter'd the thought. Yet, indeed, deep within him, the spirits of truth. Vast, vague aspirations, the powers of his youth. Lived and breathed, and made moan— stirr'd them- selves — strove to start Into deeds— though deposed, in that Hades, his heart, .B:'?^- LUCILE. Like those antique Theogonies ruin'd and hurl'd Under clefts of the hills, which, convulsing the world. Heaved, in earthquake, their heads the rent caverns above. To trouble at times in the light court of Jove All its frivolous gods, with an undefined awe. Of wrong' d rebel powers that own'd not their law. For his sake, I am fain to believe that, if born To some lowlier rank (from the world's languid scorn Secured by the world's stern resistance), where strife. Strife and toil, and not pleasure, gave purpose to life. He possibly might have contrived to attain Not eminence only, but worth. So, again, Had he been of his own house the first-born, each gift Of a mind many-gifted had gone to uplift A great name by a name's greatest uses. But there He stood isolated, opposed, as it were, To life's great realities ; part of no plan ; And if ever a nobler and happier man He might hope to become, that alone could be when With all that is real in life and in men What was real in him should have been reconciled ; When each influence now from experience exiled Should have seized on his being, combined with his nature, J^^^ f^ rjf. L UCILE. And form'd, as by fusion, a new human creature : As when those airy elements viewless to sight (The amalgam of which, if our science be right, The germ of this populous planet doth fold) Unite in the glass of the chemist, behold ! Where a void seem'd before, there a substance appears, From the fusion of forces whence issued the spheres ! VII. But the permanent cause why his life fail'd and miss'd The full value of life was,— where man should resist The world, which man's genius is call'd to com- mand, He gave way, less from lack of the power to with- stand, Than from lack of the resolute will to retain Those strongholds of life which the world strives to gain. Let this character go in the old-fashion'd way. With the moral thereof tightly tack'd to it. Say— " Let any man once show the world that he feels Afraid of its bark, and 't will fly at his heels : Let him fearlessly face it, 't will leave him alone : But "t will fawn at his feet if he flings it a bone." VIII. The moon of September, now half at the full. Was unfolding from darkness and dreamland the lull Of the quiet blue air, where the many-faced hills ( ■J*8^ 34 LUCILE. Watch'd, well-pleased, their fair slaves, the light, foam-footed rills. Dance and sing down the steep marble stairs of their courts. And gracefully fashion a thousand sweet sports. Lord Alfred (by this on his journeying far) Was pensively puffing his Lopez cigar. And brokenly humming an old opera strain, And thinking, perchance, of those castles in Spain Which that long rocky barrier hid from his sight ; When suddenly, out of the neighboring night, A horseman emerged from a fold of the hill. And so startled his steed, that was winding at will Up the thin dizzy strip of a pathway which led O'er the mountain — the reins on its neck, and its head Hanging lazily forward — that, but for a hand Light and ready, vet firm, in familiar command, Both rider and horse might have been in a trice Hurl'd horribly over the grim precipice. IX. As soon as the moment's alarm had subsided, And the oath, with which nothing can find unpro- vided A thoroughbred Englishman, safely explodt^d. Lord Alfred unbent (as Apollo his bow did Now and then) his erectness ; and looking, not ruder Than such inroad would warrant, survey 'd the in- truder. n ^''^ ^^ ,--;?555^:' •^ f L UCILE. 35 Whose arrival so nearly cut short in his glorj' My hero, and finish'd abruptly this story. The stranger, a man of his own age or less, Well mounted, and simple though rich in his dress, Wore his beard and mustache in the fashion of France. His face, which was pale, gather 'd force from the glance Of a pair of dark, vivid, and eloquent eyes. With a gest of apology, touch'd with surprise. He lifted his hat, bow'd and courteously made Some excuse in such well-cadenced French as be- tray 'd, At the first word he spoke, the Parisian. XI. I swear I have wander'd about in the world everywhere ; From many strange mouths have heard many strange tongues ; Strain'd with many strange idioms my lips and my lungs ; Walk'd in many a far land, regretting my own ; In many a language groan'd many a groan ; And have often had reason to curse those wild fellows Who built the high house at which Heaven turn'd jealous, Making human audacity stumble and stammer \ 36 LUCILE. When seized by the throat in the hard gripe of Grammar. But the language of languages dearest to me Is that in which once, O ma toiite cherie, When, together, we bent o'er your nosegay for hours, You explain'd what was silently said by the flowers. And, selecting the sweetest of all, sent a flame Through my heart, as, in laughing, you murmur'd Je t'aiine. XII. The Italians have voices like peacocks ; the Spanish Smell, I fancy, of garlic ; the Swedish and Danish Have something too Runic, too rough and un- shod, in Their accent for mouths not descended from Odin ; German gives me a cold in the head, sets me wheez- ing And coughing ; and Russian is nothing but sneez- ing i But, by Belus and Babel ! I never have heard, And I never shall hear (I well know it), one word Of that delicate idiom of Paris without Feeling morally sure, beyond question or doubt, By the wild way in which my heart inwardly flut- ter'd. That my heart's native tongue to my heart had been utter'd ; And whene'er I hear French spoken as I approve, I feel myself quietly falling in love. ip' LUCILE. 37 XIII. Lord Alfred, on hearing the stranger, appeased By a something, an accent, a cadence, which pleased His ear with that pledge of good breeding which tells At once of the world in whose fellowship dwells The speaker that owns it, was glad to remark In the horseman a man one might meet after dark Without fear. And thus, not disagreeably impress'd. As it seem'd, with each other, the two men abreast Rode on slowly a moment. XIV. Stranger. I see, Sir, you are A smoker. Allow me ! Alfred. Pray take a cigar. Stranger. Many thanks I . . . Such cigars are a luxury here. Do you go to Luchon } Alfred. Yes ; and you } Stranger. Yes. I fear Since our road is the same, that our journey must 38 L UCILE. Somewhat closer than is our acquaintance. You see How narrow the path is. I'm tempted to ask Your permission to finish (no difficult task !) The cigar you have given me (really a prize I) In your company. Alfred. Charm'd, Sir, to find your road lies In the way of my own inclinations ! Indeed ■ The dream of your nation I find in this weed. In the distant Savannahs a talisman grows That makes all men brothers that use it . . . who knows.'' That blaze which erewhile from the Boith't'arf out- broke, It has ended where wisdom begins. Sir, — in smoke. Messieurs Lopez (whatever your publicists write) Have done more in their way human kind to unite, Perchance, than ten Prudhons. Stranger. Yes. Ah, what a scene I Alfred. Humph ! Nature is here too pretentious. Her mitn Is too haughty. One likes to be coax'd, not com- pell'd, ' To the notice such beauty resents if withheld. She seems to be saying too plainly, " Admire me !" And I answer " Yes, madam, 1 do : but you tire me." s I LUCILE. 39 Stranger. That sunset, just now though . . . Alfred. A ver}' old trick ! One would think that the sun by this time must be sick Of blushing at what, by this time, he must know Too well to be shock'd by — this world. Stranger. Ah, 't is so With us all. 'T is the sinner that best knew the world At Twenty, whose lip is, at sixty, most curl'd With disdain of its follies. You stay at Luchon? Alfred. A day or two only. Stranger. The season is done. Alfred. Already ? Stranger. 'T was shorter this year than the last. Folly soon wears her shoes out. She dances so fast. We are all of us tired. Alfred. You know the place well.' Stranger. I have been tnere two seasons. .] 'F (71) f ^ 40 LUCILE. Alfred. Pray who is the Belle Of the Baths at this moment ? Stranger. The same who has been The belle of all places in which she is seen ; The belle of all Paris last winter; last spring The belle of all Baden. Alfred. An uncommon thing ! Stranger. .Sir, an uncommon beauty ! . . . I rather should say, An uncommon character. Truly, each day One meets women whose beauty is equal to hers. But none with the charm of Lucile de Nevers. Alfred. Madame de Nevers ! Stranger. Do you know her ? Alfred. I know, Or, rather, I knew her — a long time ago. I almost forget. . . . SlRANGER. What a wit ! what a grace In her language ! her movements ! what play in her face ! And yet what a sadness she seems to conceal ! L UCILE. 41 Alfred. You speak like a lover. Stranger. I speak as I feel, But not like a lover. What interests me so In Lucile, at the same time forbids me, I know. To give to that interest, whate'er the sensation, The name we men give to an hour's admiration, A night's passing passion, an actress's eyes, A dancing girl's ankles, a fine lady's sighs. Alfred. Yes, I quite comprehend. But this sadness— this shade Which you speak of ? ... it almost would make me afraid Your gay countrymen, Sir, less adroit must have grown, Since when, as a stripling, at Paris, I own I found in them terrible rivals,— if yet They have all lack'd the skill to console this regret (If regret be the word I should use), or fulfil This desire (if desire be the word), which seems still To endure unappeased. For I take it for granted. From all that you say, that the will was not wanted. XV. The stranger replied, not without irritation : " I have heard that an Englishman— one of your nation, ,> -9=^ /. UCILE. I i)resume — and if so, I must beg you, indeed, To excuse the contempt which I . . . Alfred. Pray, Sir, proceed With your tale. My compatriot, what was his crime } Stranger. Oh, nothing I His folly was not so sublime As to merit that term. If I blamed him just now, It was not for the sin, but the silliness. Alfred. How } Stranger. I own I hate Botany. Still, ... I admit. Although I myself have no passion for it. And do not understand, yet I cannot despise The cold man of science, who walks with his eyes All alert through a garden of flowers, and strips The lilies' gold tongues, and the roses' red lips. With a ruthless dissection ; since he, I suppose, Has some purpose beyond the mere mischief he does. But the stupid and mischievous boy, that uproots The exotics, and tramples the tender young shoots, For a boy's brutal ])astime, and only because He knows no distinction 'twixt heartsease and haws, — One would wish, for the sake of each nursling so ni])|/d. To catch the young rascal and have him well whipp'd ! ^^^ I LUCILE. 43 Alfred. Some compatriot of mine, do I then understand. With a cold Northern heart, and a rude English hand. Has injured your rosebud of France ? Stranger. Sir, I know But little, or nothing. Yet some faces show The last act of a tragedy in their regard : Though the first scenes be wanting, it yet is not hard To divine, more or less, what the plot may have been. And what sort of actors have pass'd o'er the scene. And whenever I gaze on the face of Lucile, With its pensive and passionless languor, I feel That some feeling hath burnt there . . . burnt out, and burnt up Health and hope. So you feel when you gaze down the cup Of extinguish'd volcanoes : you judge of the fire Once there, by the ravage you see ; — the desire, By the apathy left in its wake, and that sense Of a moral, immovable, mute impotence. Alfred. Humph! ... I see you have finish'd.at last, your cigar. Can I offer another "i Stranger. No, thank you. We are Not two miles from Luchon. p-*^^ 44 Z UCILE. Alfred. You know the road well ? Stranger. I have often been over it. XVI. Here a pause fell On their converse. Still musingly on, side by side, In the moonlight, the two men continued to ride Down the dim mountain pathway. But each, for the rest Of their journey, although they still rode on abreast, Continued to follow in silence the train Of the different feelings that haunted his brain ; And each, as though roused from a deep revery. Almost shouted, descending the mountain, to see Burst at once on the moonlight the silvery Baths, The long lime-tree alley, the dark gleaming paths. With the lamps twinkling through them — the quaint wooden roofs — The little white houses. The clatter of hoofs, And the music of wandering bands, up the walls Of the steep hanging hill, at remote intervals Reach'd them, cross'd by the sound of the clacking of whips ; And here and there, faintly, through serpentine slips Of verdant rose-gardens, deep-shelter'd with screens Of airy acacias and dark evergreens, They could mark the white dresses, and catch the light songs, ^ f ^i^ L UCILE. Of the lovely Parisians that wander'd in throngs, Led by Laughter and Love through the cold eventide Down the dream-haunted valley, or up the hillside. XVII. At length, at the door of the inn I'Herisson, ( Pray go there, if ever you go to Luchon !) The two horsemen, well pleased to have reach'd it, alighted And exchanged their last greetings. The Frenchman invited Lord Alfred to dinner. Lord Alfred declined. He had letters to write, and felt tired. So he dined In his own rooms that night. With an unquiet eye He watch'd his companion depart ; nor knew why, Beyond all accountable reason or measure. He felt in his breast such a sovran displeasure. " The fellow's good-looking," he murmur'd at last, " And yet not a coxcomb." Some ghost of the past Vex'd him still. " If he love her," he thought, " let him win her." Then he turn'd to the future— and order'd his din- ner. XVIII. O hour of all hours, the most bless'd upon earth. Blessed hour of our dinners ! The land of his birth ; The face of his first love ; the bills that he owes ; The twaddle of friends and the venom of foes ; The sermon he heard when to church he last went ; Wk. 5^ ^^*-^!^ 46 L UCILE. The money he borrovv'd, the money he spent ; — All of these things a man, I believe, may forget. And not be the worse for forgetting ; but yet Never, never, oh never! earth's luckiest sinner Hath unpunish'd forgotten the hour of his dinner '. Indigestion, that conscience of every bad stomach, Shall relentlessly gnaw and pursue him with some ache Or some pain ; and trouble, remorseless, his best ease, As the Furies once troubled the sleep of Orestes. XIX. We may live without poetry, music, and art ; We may live without conscience, and live without heart ; We may live without friends ; we may live without books ; But civilized man cannot live without cooks. He may live without books, — what is knowledge but grieving ? He may live without hope, — what is hope but deceiving ? He may live without love, — what is passion but pining ! But where is the man that can live without dining } XX. Lord Alfred found, waiting his coming, a note From Lucile. " Your last letter has reach'd me," she wrote. ■' This evening, alas ! I must go to the ball. LUCILE. 47 And shall not be at home till too late for your call ; But to-morrow, at any rate, sans f ante, at One You will find me at home, and will find me alone. Meanwhile, let me thank you sincerely, milord. For the honor with which you adhere to your word. Yes I thank you. Lord Alfred ! To-morrow then. "L." XXI. I find mvself terribly puzzled to tell The feelings with which Alfred Vargrave flung down This note, as he pour'd out his wine. I must own That I think he, himself, could have hardly explain'd Those feelings exactly. "Yes, yes," as he drain'd The glass down, he mutter'd. " Jack's right, after all. The coquette !" " Does milord mean to go to the ball ?'" Ask'd the waiter, who linger'd. " Perhaps. I don't know., You may keep me a ticket, in case I should go." XXII. Oh, better, no doubt, is a dinner of herbs, When season'd by love, which no rancor disturbs. And sweeten 'd by all that is sweetest in life. Than turbot, bisque, ortolans, eaten in strife ! But if, out of humor, and hungry, alone, A man should sit down to a dinner, each one Of the dishes of which the cook chooses to spoil With a horrible mixture of garlic and oil. 48 L UCILE. The chances are ten against one, I must own, He gets up as ill-temper'd as when he sat down. And if any reader this fact to dispute is Disposed, I say ..." Allium edat ciciitis Noceritius f" Over the fruit and the wine Undisturb'd the wasp settled. The evening was fine. Lord Alfred his chair by the window had set, And languidly lighted his small cigarette. The window was open. The warm air without Waved the flame of the candles. The moths were about. In the gloom he sat gloomy. XXIII. Gay sounds from below Floated up like faint echoes of joys long ago. And night deepen'd apace ; through the dark avenues The lamps twinkled bright ; and by threes, and by twos. The idlers of Luchon were strolling at will, As Lord Alfred could see from the cool window- sill. Where his gaze, as he languidly turn'd it, fell o'er His late travelling companion, now passing before The inn, at the window of which he still sat. In full toilet,— boots varnish'd, and snowy cravat, Gayly smoothing and buttoning a yellow kid glove, As he turn'd down the avenue. Watching above. i?59Rl L UCILE. From his window, the stranger, who stopp"ci as he walk'd To mix with those groups, and now nodded, now talk'd, To the young Paris dandies. Lord Alfred dis- cern'd, By the way hats were Ufted, and glances were turn'd. That this unknown acquaintance, now bound for the ball. Was a person of rank or of fashion ; for all Whom he bow'd to in passing, or stopp'd with and chatter'd, Walk'd on with a look which implied ..." I feel flatter'd !" XXIV. His form was soon lost in the distance and gloom. XXV. Lord Alfred still sat by himself in his room. He had finish'd, one after the other, a dozen Or more cigarettes. He had thought of his cousin : He had thought of Matilda, and thought of Lucile : He had thought about many things : thought a great deal Of himself : of his past life, his future, his present : He had thought of the moon, neither full moon nor crescent : Of the gay world, so sad ! life, so sweet and so sour ! He had thought, too, of glory, and fortune, and power : Hkt -■Mm ^' ^■f- 50 L UCILE. Thought of love, and the country, and sympathy, and A poet's asylum in some distant land : Thought of man in the abstract, and woman, no doubt, In particular ; also he had thought much about His digestion, his debts, and his dinner : and last, He thought that the night would be stupidly pass'd If he thought any more of such matters at all : So he rose, and resolved to set out for the ball. XXVI. 1 believe, ere he finish'd his tardy toilet. That Lord Alfred had si)oird, and Hung by in a pet, Half a dozen white neckcloths, and look'd for the nonce Twenty times in the glass, if he look'd in it once. I believe that he split up, in drawing them on. Three pairs of pale lavender gloves, one by one. And this is the reason, no doubt, that at last. When he reach'd the Casino, although he walk'd fast. He heard, as he hurriedly enter'd the door, The church clock strike twelve. XXVII. The last waltz was just o'er. The chaperons and dancers were all in a flutter. A crowd block'd the door : and a i)uzz and a mut- ter Went about in tht> room as a young man, whose face ■■'^l rj^ast L UCILE. 51 Lord Alfred had seen ere he enter'd that place, But a few hours ago, through the perfumed and warm Flowery porch, with a lady that lean'd on his arm Like a queen in a fable of old fairy days. Left the ballroom. XXVIII. The hubbub of comment and praise Reach'd Lord Alfred as just then he enter'd. -Mafoi!" Said a Frenchman beside him, ..." That lucky Luvois Has obtain'd all the gifts of the gods . . . rank and wealth, And good looks, and then such inexhaustible health ! He that hath shall have more ; and this truth, I surmise. Is the cause why, to-night, by the beautiful eyes Of la charviante Ljicile more distinguish'd than all, He so gayly goes off with the belle of the ball." " Is it true," ask'd a lady aggressively fat. Who, fierce as a female Leviathan, sat By another that look'd like a needle, all steel And tenuity—" Luvois will marry Lucile ?" The needle seem'd jerk'd by a virulent twitch. As though it were bent upon driving a stitch Through somebody's character. " Madam," replied, Interposing, a young man who sat by their side. -J~^TTBii^3rifc^ 52 Z UCILE. And was languidly fanning his face with his hat, " I am ready to bet my new Tilbury that, If Luvois has proposed, the Comtesse has refused." The fat and thin ladies were highly amused. " Refused ! . . . what ! a young Duke, not thirty, my dear, With at least half a million (what is it }) a year I'" " That may be," said the third ; " yet I know some time since Castelmar was refused, though as rich, and a Prince. But Luvois, who was never before in his life In love with a woman who was not a wife. Is now certainly serious." XXIX. The music once more Recommenced. XXX. Said Lord Alfred, " This ball is a bore I" And return'd to the inn, somewhat worse than be- fore. XXXI. There, whilst musing he lean"d the dark valley above. Through the warm land were wand 'ring the spirits of love. A soft breeze in the white window drapery stirr'd ; In the blossom'd acacia the lone cricket chirr'd ; The scent of the roses fell faint o'er the night. And the moon on the mountain was dreaming in light. ^'s*:,.-. " A monient or so It hovered, then pass'd into shadow."— Page 53. m L UCILE. 53 Repose, and yet rapture ! that pensive wild nature Impregnate witli passion in each breathing feature ! A stone's throw from thence, through the large lime-trees peep'd In a garden of roses, a white chalet, steep'd In the moonbeams. The windows oped down to the lawn ; The casements were open ; the curtains were drawn ; Lights stream'd from the inside ; and with them the sound Of music and song. In the garden, around A table with fruits, wine, tea, ices, there set. Half a dozen young men and young women were met. Light, laughter, and voices, and music, all stream'd Through the quiet-leaved limes. At the window there seem'd For one moment the outline, familiar and fair, Of a white dress, a white neck, and soft dusky hair. Which Lord Alfred remember'd ... a moment or so It hover'd, then pass'd into shadow ; and slow The soft notes, from a tender piano upflung, Floated forth, and a voice unforgotten thus sung :— " Hear a song that was born in the land of my birth ! The anchors are lifted, the fair ship is free. And the shout of the mariners floats in its mirth 'Twixt the light in the sky and the light on the sea. tv .IS \ w ii. .K 54 Z UCTLE. " And this ship is a world. She is freighted with souls, She is freighted with merchandise : proudly she sails With the Labor that stores, and the Will that con- trols The gold in the ingots, the silk in the bales. " From the gardens of Pleasure, where reddens the rose, And the scent of the cedar is faint on the air. Past the harbors of Traffic, sublimely she goes. Man's hopes oer the world of the waters to bear ! ' Where the cheer from the harbors of Traffic is heard. Where the gardens of Pleasure fade fast on the sight, O'er the rose, o'er the cedar, there passes a bird ; 'T is the Paradise Bird, never known to alight. " And that bird, bright and bold as a Poet's desire. Roams her own native heavens, the realms of her birth, There she soars like a seraph, she shines like a tire, And her plumage hath never been sullied by earth. "And the mariners greet her; there's song on each lip, For that bird of good omen, and joy in each eye. And the ship and the bird, and the bird and the ship. Together go forth over ocean and sky. m^A' i ' " / r To pass, unannounced, her young mistress's door. The old woman had fondled Lxicile on her knee When she left, as an infant, far over the sea. In India, the tomb of a mother, unknown, To pine, a pale flow'ret. in great Paris town. .She had sooth'd the child's sobs on her breast, when she vead The letter that told her, her father was dead. An astute, shrewd adventurer, who, like Ulysses, Had studied men, cities, laws, wars, the abysses Of statecraft, with varying fortunes, was he. He had wander'd the world through, by land and by sea, And knew it in most of its phases. Strong will. Subtle tact, and soft manners, had given him skill To conciliate Fortune, and courage to brave Her displeasure. Thrice shipwreck'd, and cast by the wave On his own tiuick resources, they rarely had fail'd His command : often bafifled, he ever prevail'd, In his combat with fate : to-day flatter'd and fed By monarchs, to-morrow in search of mere bread. The offspring of times trouble-haunted, he came Of a family ruin'd, yet noble in name. He lost sight of his fortune, at twenty, in France : And. half statesman, half soldier, and wholly Free- lance, Had wander'd in search of it, over the world, Into India. iiui scarce had the nomad unfurld Mis wandering tent at Mysore, in the smile Z UCILE. 63 Of a Rajah (whose court he controll'd for a while, And whose council he prompted and govern'd by stealth Scarce, indeed, had he wedded an Indian of wealth, Who died giving birth to this daughter, before He was borne to the tomb of his wife at Mysore. His fortune, which fell to his orphan, perchance Had secured her a home with his sister in France, A lone woman, the last of the race left. Lucile Neither felt, nor affected, the wish to conceal The half-Eastern blood, which appear'd to bequeath (Reveal'd now and then, though but rarely, beneath That outward repose that conceal'd it in her) A something half wild to her strange character. The nurse with the orphan, awhile broken-hearted. At the door of a convent in Paris had parted. But later, once more, with her mistress she tarried. When the girl, by that grim maiden aunt, had been married To a dreary old Count, who had sullenly died, With no claim on her tears— she had wept as a bride. Said Lord Alfred, " Your mistress expects me." The crone Oped the drawing-room door, and there left him alone. V. O'er the soft atmosphere of this temple of grace Rested silence and perfume. No sound reach 'd the place. In the white curtains waver'd the delicate shade 64 LL'CILL. Of the heaving acacias, through which the breeze play'd. O'er the smooth wooden floor, pohsh'd dark as a glass, Fragrant white Indian matting allow'd you to pass. In light olive baskets, by window and door. Some hung from the ceiling, some crowding the floor. Rich wild flowers pluck'd by Lucile from the hill, Seem'd the room with their passionate presence to All: Blue aconite, hid in white roses, reposed ; The deep belladonna its vermeil disclosed ; And the frail saponaire, and the tender blue-bell, And the purple valerian, — each child of the fell And the solitude flourish'd, fed fair from the source Of waters the huntsman scarce heeds in his course, Where the chamois and izard, with delicate hoof. Pause or flit through the jiinnacled silence aloof. VI. Here you fell, by the sense of its beauty reposed, That you stood in a shrine of sweet thoughts. Half unclosed In the light slept the flowers : all was pure and at rest ; All peaceful ; all modest ; all seem'd self-possess'd, And aware of the silence. No vestige nor trace Of a young woman's coquetry troubled the place. He stood by the window. A cloud pass'd the sun. A light breeze uplifted the leaves, one by one. jft«»rr -•^^■^-*-'^~~-g-- L UCILE. 65 Just then Lucile entered the room, undiscern'd By Lord Alfred, whose face to the window was turn'd In a strange revery. The time was, when Lucile, In beholding that man, could not help but rev'cal The rapture, the fear, which wrench'd out ever}- nerve In the heart of the girl from the woman's reserve. And now — she gazed at him, calm, smiling, — per- chance Indifferent. VII. Indifferently turning his glance, Alfred Vargrave encounter'd that gaze unaware. O'er a bodice snow-white stream'd her soft dusky hair ; A rose-bud half blown in her hand ; in her eyes A half-pensive smile. A sharp cry of surprise Escaped from his lips : some unknown agita- tion, An invincible trouble, a strange palpitation. Confused his ingenious and frivolous wit ; Overtook, and entangled, and paralyzed it. That wit so complacent and docile, that ever Lightly came at the call of the lightest endeavor, Ready coin'd, and availably current as gold. Which, secure of its value, so fluently roll'd In free circulation from hand on to hand For the usage of all. at a moment's command ; 66 LUCTLE. For once it rebell'd, it was mute and unstirr'd. And he look'd at Lucile without speakintr a word. Perhaps what so troubled him was, that the face On whose features he gazed had no more than a trace Of the face his rememljrance had imaged for years. Yes ! the face he reincnilier'd was faded with tears : Grief had famish'd the figure, and dimm'd the dark ■ eyes. And starved the pale lips, too accjuainted with sighs. And that tender, and gracious, and fond coquctterie Of a woman who knows her least ribbon to be Something dear to the lips that so warmly caress Every sacred detail of her exquisite dress. In the careless toilet of Lucile, — then too sad To care aught to her changeable beauty to add — Lord Alfred had never admired before ! Alas ! poor Lucile, in those weak days of yore, Had neglected herself, never heeding, nor thinking (While the blossom and bloom of her beauty were shnnking) That sorrow can beautify only the heart- Not the face — of a woman ; and can but imi)art Its endearment to one that has suffer'd. In truth (iriefhath beaut v for grief; l)ut gay youth loves gay \()uth. > ^ ^ ••/ ^Jfe^ •^- / UCILE. IX. 67 The woman that now met, unshrinking, his gaze, Seem'd to bask in the silent but sumptuous haze Of that soft second summer, more ripe than the first, Which returns when the bud to the blossom hath burst In despite of the stormiest April. Lucile Had acquired that matchless unconscious appeal To the homage which none but a churl would with- hold- That caressing and exquisite grace — never bold, Ever present — which just a few women possess. From a healthful repose, undisturb'd b\ the stress Of unquiet emotions, her soft cheek had drawn A freshness as pure as the twilight of dawn. Her figure, though slight, had re\ived everywhere The luxurious proportions of youth ; and her hair — Once shorn as an offering to passionate love — Now floated or rested redundant above Her airy pure forehead and throat ; gather'd loose Under which, by one violet knot, the profuse Milk-white folds of a cool modest garment reposed, Rippled faint by the breast they half hid, half dis- closed. And her simple attire thus in all things reveal'd The fine art which so artfully all things conceal'd. X. Lord Alfred, who never conceived that Lucile Could have look'd so enchanting, felt tempted to kneel «V*^ fiii^^agiferif^f^rr.-i-^---^ 68 Z UCILE. At her feet, and her pardon with passion im- plore ; But the calm smile that met him sufficed to restore The pride and the bitterness needed to meet The occasion with dienitv due and discreet. " Madam," — thus he began with a voice reas- sured, — "You see that your latest command has secured My immediate obedience — presuming I may Consider my freedom restored from this day. " — " I had thought," said Lucile, with a smile gay yet sad, " That your freedom from me not a fetter has had. Indeed ! ... in my chains have you rested till now ? I have not so flattered myself, I avow ! " " For Heaven's sake, Madam," Lord Alfred re- plied, '• Do not jest I has the moment no sadness }" hi- sigh'd. " 'T is an ancient tradition," she answered, "a tale Often told — a position too sure to prevail In the end of all legends of love. If we wrote. When we first love, foreseeing that hour yet re- mote, Wherein of necessity each would recall From the other the poor foolish records of all Those emotions, whose pain, when recorded, seem'd bliss. Mi i \ •VT^ LUCILE. 69 :JSt Should we write as we wrote ? But one thinks not of this ! At Twenty (who does not at Twenty ?) we write, Believing eternal the frail vows we plight ; And we smile with a confident pitv, above The vulgar results of all poor human love : For we deem, with that vanity common to youth, Because what we feel in our bosoms, in truth, Is novel to us — that 't is novel to earth. And will prove the exception, in durance and worth, To the great law to which all on earth must in- cline. The error was noble, the vanity fine ! Shall we blame it because we survive it ? ah, no ; 'T was the youth of our youth, my lord, is it not so ?" XII. Lord Alfred was mute. He remember'd her yet A child — the weak sport of each moment's regret. Blindly yielding herself to the errors of life, The deceptions of youth, and borne down by the strife And the tumult of passion ; the tremulous toy Of each transient emotion of grief or of joy. But to watch her pronounce the death-warrant of The illusions of life — lift, unflinching, the pall From the bier of the dead Past — that woman so fair, And so young, yet her own self-survivor ; who there 70 L UCILE. Traced her life's eijitaph with a finger so cold ! 'T was a picture that pain'd his self-love to be- hold. He himself knew — none better — the things lo be said I'pon subjects like this. Yet he bow'd down his head. And as thus, with a trouble he could not com- mand, He |)aused, trum])ling the letters he held in his hand, "You know me enough," she continued, "or what I would say is, you yet recollect (do you not, Lord Alfred }) enough of my nature, to know That these pledges of what was pt-rhajis long ago A foolish affection, I do not recall From those motives- of prudence which actuate all Or most women when their love ceases. Indeed, If vou have such a doubt, to dispel it I need lUit remind you that ten vears these letters have rested lMircclaim"d in \()ur hands." A rt-j)roach seem'd suggested By these words. To meet it. Lord Alfred look'd up. (His gaze had been fix'd on a blue Sevres cup With a look of profound connoisseurship — a smile Of singular interest and care, all this while.) He look'd up, and look'd long in the face of Lucile, To mark if that face by a sign would reveal At the thought of Miss Darcy the least jealous l)ain. ^ fr /. VCILE. 71 -im He look'd keenly and long, yet he look'd there in vain. *' You are generous, Madam," he murinur"d at last, And into his voice a light irony pass'd. He had look'd for reproaches, and fully arranged His forces. But straightway the enemy changed The position. XIII. " Come : " gayly Lucile interposed. With a smile whose divinely deep sweetness dis- closed Some depth in her nature he never had known, While she tenderly laid her light hand on his own, " Do not think I abuse the occasion. We gain Justice, judgment, with years, or else years are in vain. From me not a single rei)n)ach can you hear. I have sinn'd to myself— to the world— nay, I fear To you chiefly. The woman who loves should, in- deed. Be the friend of the man that she loves. She should heed Not her selfish and often mistaken desires, But his interest whose fate her own interest in- spires ; And, rather than seek to allure, for her sake. His life down the turbulent, fanciful wake Of impossible destinies, use all her art That his place in the world find its place in her heart. I, alas !— I perceived not this truth till too late ; i'^^ "i^j^ 72 LUCTLE. I tormented your youth, 1 have darken'd your fate. Forgive me the ill I have done for the sake Of its long expiation ! " XIV. Lord Alfred, awake, Seem'd to wander from dream on to dream. In that seat Where he sat as a criminal, ready to meet His accuser, he found himself turn'd by some change. As surprising and all unexpected as strange. To the judge from whose mercy indulgence was sought. All the world's foolish pride in that moment was naught ; He felt all his plausible theories posed ; And, thrill'd by the beauty of nature disclosed In the pathos of all he had witness'd, his head He bow'd, and famt words self-reproachfully said, .•\s he lifted her hand to his lips. 'T was a hand White, delicate, dimpled, warm, languid, and bland. The hand of a woman is often, in youth, Somewhat rough, somewhat red, somewhat grace- less, in truth ; Does its beauty refine, as its pulses grow calm, Or as Sorrow has cross'd the life-line in the palm "-' XV. The more that he look'd, that he listen'd, the more He discover'd perfections unnoticed before. L UCILE. 73 I Less salient than once, less poetic, perchance, This woman who thus had survived the romance That had made him its hero, and breathed him its sighs, Seem'd more charming a thousand times o'er to his eyes. Together they talk'd of the years since when last They parted, contrasting the present, the past. Yet no memory marr'd their light converse. Lu- cile Questional much, with the interest a sister might feel. Of Lord Alfred's new life,— of Miss Darcy— her face, Her temper, accomplishments — pausing to trace The advantage derived from a hymen so fit. Of herself, she recounted with humor and wit Her journeys, her daily employments, the lands She had seen, and the books she had read, and the hands She had shaken. In all that she said there appear'd An amiable irony. Laughing, she rear'd The temple of reason, with ever a touch Of light scorn at her work, reveal' d only so much As there gleams, in the thyrsus that Bacchanals bear, Through the blooms of a garland the point of a spear. But above, and beneath, and beyond all of this, To that soul, whose experience had paralyzed bliss, A benignant indulgence, to all things resign'd, \t 74 L UCILE. P A justice, a sweetness, a meekness of mind, Gave a luminous beauty, as tender and faint And serene as the halo encircling a saint. XVI. Unobserved i)v Lord Alfred tlie time fleeted by. To each novel sensation spontaneously He abandon'd himself with that ardor so strange Which belongs to a mind grown accustom 'd to change. He sought, witli well-practised and delicate art, Trf surprise from Lucile the true state of her heart ; But his efforts were vain, and the woman, as ever. More adroit than the man, baffled every endeavor. When he deem'd he had touch'd on some chord in her being. At the touch it dissohed, and was gone. E\er Hee- ing As ever he near it advanced, when he thought To have seized, and proceeded to analyze aught Of the moral existence, the absolute soul, Light as vapor the phantom escaped his control. X\ll. From the hall, on a sudden, a sharp ring was heard. In the passage without a quick footstep there stirr'd. At the door knock'd the negress, and thrust in her head, "The Duke de Luvois had just enter'd." she said, ' And insisted " — " The Duke I" cried Lucile (as she spoke The Duke's ste|). approaching, a light echo woke) /t^^>. 'Jt* /. UCILE. " Say I do not receive till the evening. Explain, As she glanced at Lord Alfred, she added again, " I have business of private importance." There ciiue O'er Lord Alfred at once, at the sound of that name. An invincible sense of vexation. He turn'd To Lucile, and he fancied he faintly discern'd On her face an indefinite look of confusion. On his mind instantaneously flash'd the conclusion That his presence had caused it. He said, with a sneer Which he could not repress, " Let not ;;/ LUCILE. — The time to reflect. Luvois. Say — One word ! May I hope ? The reply of Lucile was not heard By Lord Alfred ; for just then she rose, and moved on. The Duke bow'd his lips o'er her hand, and was gone. XX. Not a sound save the birds in the bushes. .A.nd when Alfred Vargrave reel'd forth to the sunlight again, He just saw the white robe of the woman recede As she enter'd the house. Scarcely conscious indeed Of his steps, he too follow' d, and enter'd. XXI. He enter'd Unnoticed ; Lucile never stirr'd : so concentred kwA wholly absorb'd in her thoughts she appear'd. Her back to the window was turn'd. As he near'd The sofa, her face from the glass was reflected. Her dark eyes were fix'd on the ground. Pale, dejected. m ■ Let us part without bitterness. Here are your letters." — Page 8i. Z UCILE. 8i And lost in profound meditation she seem'd. Softly, silently, over her droop'd shoulders stream'd The afternoon sunlight. The cry of alarm And surprise which escaped her, as now on her ann Alfred Vargrave let fall a hand icily cold And clammy as death, all too cruelly told How far he had been from her thoughts. XXII. All his cheek Was disturb'd with the effort it cost him to speak. " It was not my fault. I have heard all," he said. " Now the letters — and farewell, Lucile ! When you wed May — " [snaps The sentence broke short, like a weapon that When the weight of a man is upon it. " Perhaps," Said Lucile (her sole answer reveal'd in the flush Of quick color which up to her brows seem'd to rush In reply to those few broken words), " this farewell Is our last, Alfred Vargrav^e, in life. Who can tell ? Let us part without bitterness. Here are your letters. Be assured I retain you no more in my fetters ! " — She laughed, as she said this, a little sad laugh. And stretched out her hand with the letters. And half Wroth to feel his wrath rise, and unable to trust His own powers of restraint, in his bosom he thrust The packet she gave, with a short angry sigh, Bow'd his head, and departed without a reply. -s^-. 82 Z UCILE. XXIII. And Lucile was alone. And the men of the world Were gone back to the world. And the world's self was furl'd Far away from the heart of the woman. Her hand Droop'd. and from it. unloosed from their frail silken band, Fell those early love-letters, strewn, scatter'd, and shed At her feet — life's lost blossoms ! Dejected, her head On her bosom was bow'd. Her gaze vaguely stray'd o'er Those strewn records of passionate moments no more. From each page to her sight leapt some worri that belied The composure with which she that day had denied Every claim on her heart to those poor perish'd years. They avenged themselves now, and she burst into tears. CANTO IV. 1. Letter from Cousin John to Cou.sin Alkred " HiGOKRE, Thursday " Time up, you rascal ! Come back, or be hang'd Matilda grows peevish. Her mother harangued ^^w^^^ LUCILE. 83 For a whole hour this morning about you. The deuce ! What on earth can I say to you ? — nothing's of use. And the blame of the whole of your shocking be- havior Falls on ///(•, sir ! Come back, — do you hear? — or I leave your Affairs, and abjure you forever. Come back To your anxious betroth'd ; and perplex'd " Cousin Jack." II. Alfred needed, in truth, no entreaties from John To increase his impatience to fly from Luchon. All the place was now fraught with sensations of pain Which, whilst in it, he strove to escape from in vain. A wild instinct warn'd him to tiy from a place Where he felt that some fatal event, swift of pace, Was approaching his life. In despite his endeavor To think of Matilda, her image forever Was effaced from his fancy by that of Lucile. From the ground which he stood on he felt himself reel. Scared, alarm'd by those feelings to which, on the day Just before, all his heart had so soon given way. When he caught, with a strange sense of fear, for assistance At what was, till then, the great fact in existence, 'T was a phantom he grasp'd. / % 34 LUCII.E. Having sent for his guide, He order'd his horse, and determin'd to ride Bacl< forthwith to Bigorre. Then, the guide, who well knew Eveiy haunt of those hills, said the wild lake of Oo Lay a league from Luchon ; and suggested a track By the lake to Bigorre, which, transversing the hack Of the mountain, avoided a circuit between Two long valleys ; and thinking, " Perchance change of scene May create change of thought," Alfred \'argrave agreed. Mounted horse, and set forth to Bigorre at full speed. IV. His guide rode beside him. The king of the guides ! The gallant Bernard ! ever boldly he rides, Ever gayly he sings ! For to him, from of old. The hills have confided their secrets, and told Where the white partridge lies, and the cock o' the woods ; Where the izard Hits fine through the cold solitudes ; Where the bear lurks perdu ; and the lynx on his prey At nightfall descends, when the mountains are gray ; Wiiere the sassafras blooms, and the blue-bell is born, And ilu- wild rhododendron first reddens at morn ; Where tlie source of the waters is fine as a thread; L UCILE. 85 How the storm on the wild Maladetta is spread ; Where the thunder is hoarded, the snows lie asleep. Whence the torrents are fed, and the cataracts leap ; And, familiarly known in the hamlets, the vales Ha\'e whisper'd to him all their thousand love-tales ; He has laugh'd with the girls, he has leap'd with the boys ; K\er blithe, ever bold, ever boon, he enjoys An existence untroubled by envy or strife, While he feeds on the dews and the juices of life. And so lightly he sings, and so gayly he rides, For Bernard le Sautkur is the king of all guides ! V. But Bernard found, that day, neither song nor love- tale. Nor adventure, nor laughter, nor legend avail To arouse from his deep and profound revery Him that silent beside him rode fast as could be. Ascending the mountain they slacken'd their pace, And the marvellous prospect each moment changed face. The breezy and pure inspirations of morn Breathed about them. The scarp'd ravaged moun- tains, all worn By the torrents, whose course they watch'd faintly meander, Were alive with the diamonded shy salamander. They paused o'er the bosom of purple abysses. 86 L UCILE. % And wound through a region of green wildernesses ; The waters went wirbling above and around. The forests hung heap'd in their shadows profound. Here the Larboust, and there Aventin, Castellon, Which the Demon of Tempest, descending upon. Had wasted with fire, and the peaceful Cazeaux They mark'd ; and far down in the sunshine below. Half dipp'd in a valley of airiest blue, The white happy homes of the village of Oo, Where the age is yet golden. And high overhead The wrecks of the combat of Titans were spread. Red granite and quartz, in the alchemic sun. Fused their splendors of crimson and crystal in one ; And deep in the moss gleam 'd the delicate shells. And the dew linger'd fresh in the heavy harebells ; The large violet burn'd ; the campanula blue ; And Autumn's own flower, the saffron, peer'd through The red-berried brambles and thick sassafras ; And fragrant with th)me was the delicate grass, And high up, and higher, and highest of all, The secular phantom of snow ' O er the wall Of a gray sunless glen gaj^ng drowsy l)elow, That aerial spectre, reveal'd in the glow Of the great golden dawn, hoxt-rs faint on the eye, And appears to grow in, and grow out of, the sky And plays with the fancy, and baffles the sight. Only reach'd by the vast rosy ripple of light. And the cool star of eve, the Imperial Thing, '//•<^; /T^^T /'sS.-Ji-.l L UCILE. 87 Half unreal, like some mythological king That dominates all in a fable of old. Takes command of a valley as fair to behold As aught in old fables ; and, seen or unseen. Dwells aloof over all, in the vast and serene Sacred sky, where the footsteps of spirits are furl'd 'Mid the clouds beyond which spreads the infinite world Of man's last aspirations, unfathom'd, untrod. Save by Even and Morn, and the angels of God. VII. Meanwhile, as they journey 'd. that serpentine road. Now abruptly reversed, unexpectedly show'd A gay cavalcade some few feet in advance. Alfred Vargrave's heart beat ; for he saw at a glance The slight form of Lucile in the midst. His next look Show'd him, joyously ambling beside her, the Duke. The rest of the troop which had thus caught his ken He knew not, nor noticed them (women and men). They were laughing and talking together. Soon after His sudden appearance suspended their laughter. VIII. " You here ! . . . 1 imagined you far on your way To Bigorre !'" . . . said Lucile. '• What has caused you to stay ?" " 1 am on my way to Bigorre," he replied, "But, since wi'wav would seem to h^ yours, let me ride r 88 L UCILE. For one moment 't)esicle you." And then, with a stoop, At her ear, . . . "and forgive me !" IX. By this time the troop Had regather'd its numbers. Lucile was as pale As the cloud 'neath their feet, on its way to the vale. The Uuke had observed it, nor quitted her side, For even one moment, the whole of the ride. Alfred smiled, as he thought, " he is jealous of her !" And the thought of this jealousy added a spur To his firm resolution and effort to please. He talk'd much ; was witty, and quite at his ease. X. After noontide, the clouds, which had traversed the east Half the day. gather'd closer, and rose and in- creased. The air changed and chill'd. As though out of the ground. There ran up the trees a confused hissing sound. And the wind rose. The guides sniff'd. like chamois the air, And look'd at each other, and halu-d. and there Unbuckled the cloaks from the saddles. The white Aspens rustled, and turn'd up their frail leaves in fright. All announced the approach of the tempest. Erelong Thick darkness descended the mountains .unong ; L UCILE. 89 And a vivid, vindictive, and serpentine flash Gored the darkness, and shore it across with a gash. The rain fell in large heavy drops. And anon Broke the thunder. The horses took fright, every one. The Duke's in a moment was far out of sight. The guides whoop'd. The band was obliged to alight ; And, dispersed up the perilous pathway, vvalk'd blind To the darkness before from the darkness behind. And the Storm is abroad in the mountams ! He fills The crouch'd hollows and all the oracular hills With dread voices of power. .A. roused million or more Of wild echoes reluctantly rise from their hoar Immemorial ambush, and roll in the wake Of the cloud, whose reflection leaves vivid the lake. And the wind, that wild robber, for plunder de- scends From invisible lands, o'er those black mountain ends ; He howls as he hounds down his prey ; and his lash Tears the hair of the timorous wan mountain-ash. That clings to the rocks, with her garments all torn. Like a woman in fear ; then he blows his hoarse horn. go L UCIl.E. And is off, the tierce guide of destruction and terror. Up the desolate heights, 'mid an intricate error Of mountain and mist. XII. There is war in the skies ! Lo ! the black-winged legions of temjjest arise O'er those sharp splinter'd rocks that are gleaming below In the soft light, so fair and so fatal, as though Some seraph byrn'd through them, the thunder- bolt searching Which the black cloud unbosom'd just now. Lo ! the lurching And shivering pine-trees, like phantoms, that seem To waver above, in the dark ; and yon stream. How it hurries and roars, on its way to the white And paralyzed lake there, apjiall'd at the sight Of the things seen in heaven I XIII. Through the darkness and awe That had gather'd around liim, Lord Alfred now saw, Reveal'd in the fierce and evanishing glare Of the lightning that momently pulsed through the air, A woman alone on a shelf of the hill, With her cheek coldly propped on her hand, — and as still As the rock that she sat on, whicii beetled ai)ove L UCILB. 91 The black lake beneath her. All terror, all love Added speed to the instinct with which he rush'd on. For one moment the blue lightninj; swathed the whole stone In its lurid embrace : like the sleek dazzling snake That encircles a sorceress, charm "d for her sake And lull'd by her loveliness ; fawning", it play'd And caressingly twined round the feet and the head Of the woman who sat there, undaunted and calm As the soul of that solitude, listing the psalm Of the plangent and laboring tempest roll slow From the caldron of midnight and vapor below. Next moment from bastion to bastion, all round, Of the siege-circled mountains, there tumbled the .sound Of the battering thunder's indefinite peal. And Lord Alfred had sprung to the feet of Lucile. XIV. She started. Once more, with its flickering wand, The lightning approach'd her. In terror, her hand Alfred \'argrave had seized within his ; and he felt The light fingers that coldly and lingeringly dwelt In the grasp of his own, tremble faintly. " See I see! Where the whirlwind hath stricken and strangled yon tree I" She exclaim'd, ..." like the passion that brings on its breath "T~~ftar'""''' i" 92 L UCILE. To the being it embraces, destruction and death ! Alfred Vargrave, the lightning is round you !" " Lucile ! I hear — I see — naught but yourself. I can feel Nothing here but your presence. My pride fights in \ain With the truth that leaps from me. We two meet again 'Neath yon terrible heaven that is watching above To avenge if I lie when I swear that I love, — And beneath yonder terrible heaven, at your feet, I humble my head and mv heart. I entreat Your pardon, Lucile, for the past — I implore For the future your mercy — implore it with more Of passion than prayer e\er breathed. By the power Which invisibly touches us both in this hour. By the rights I have o'er you, Lucile, I demand " — " The rights !". . . said Lucile, and drew from him her hand. " Yes, the rights I for what greater to man ma\ be- long Than the right to repair in the future the wrong To the past ? and the wrong I have done you, of yore. Hath bequeath (1 to me all the sad right to restore. To retrieve, to aiiiLiul .' 1, who injured your life. Urge the right to repair it. Lucile ! Be my wife, My guide, my good angel, my all u]wn earth. And accept, for the sake of what yet may give worth To my life, its contrition !" L UC/LE. 93 He paused, for there came O'er the cheek nf Lucile a swift flush like the flame That illumined at moments the darkness o'erhead. With a voice faint and marr'd by emotion, she said. '■ And your pledge to another?" XVI. " Hush, hush !" he exclaim'd, " My honor will live where my love lives, unshamed. 'T were poor honor indeed, to another to give That life of which v^z^ keep the heart. Could 1 live In the light of those young eyes, suppressing a lie? Alas, no ! your hand holds my whole destiny. I can never recall what my lips have avow'd ; In your love lies whatever can render me ]iroud. For the great crime of all my existence hath been To have known you in vain. And the duty best seen, And most hallow'd — the duty most sacred and sweet Is that which hath led me, Lucile, to your feet. O speak ! and restore me the blessing I lost When I lost you— my pearl of all pearls beyond cost ! And restore to your own life its youth, and restore The vision, the rapture, the passion of yore ! Ere our brows had been dimm'd in the dust of the world. When our souls their white wings yet exulting un- furl' d ! For your eyes rest no more on the unquiet man. The wild star of whose course its pale orbit outran. M:>^ Whom the formless indefinite future of youth, With its lying allurements, distracted. In truth I have wearily wander'd the world, and I feel That the least of your lovely regards, O Lucile, Is worth all the world can afford, and the dream Which, though follow'd forever, forever doth seem As fleeting, and distant, and dim, as of yore When it brooded in twilight, at dawn, on the shore Of life's untraversed ocean ! I know the sole path To repose, which my desolate destiny hath, Is the path by whose course to your feet I return. And who else, O Lucile, will so truly discern. And so deeply revere, all the passionate strength. The sublimity in you, as he whom at length These have saved from himself, for the truth they reveal To his worship ?" XVII. She spoke not ; but Alfred could feel The light hand and arm, that upon him reposed. Thrill and tremble. Those dark eyes of hers were half closed ; l>ut, under their languid mysterious fringe, A passionate softness was beaming. One tinge Of faint inward fire flush'd transparently through The delicate, pallid, and pure olive hue Of the cheek, half averted and droop'd. The rich bosom Heaved, as when in the heart of a ruffled rose- blossom A bee is imprisoned and struggles. .tidqe:^, ■— ^ "^^■^-<^' ..-/a*^^ L UCILE. XVIII. 95 Meanwhile, The sun, in liis setting, sent up the last smile Of his power, to baffle the storm. And, behold ! O'er the mountains embattled, his armies, all gold. Rose and rested : while far up the dim airy crags. Its artillery silenced, its banners in rags, The rear of the tempest its sullen retreat Drew off slowly, receding in silence, to meet The powers of the night, which, now gathenng afar. Had already sent forward one bright, signal star. The curls of her soft and luxuriant hair, From the dark riding-hat, which Lucile used to wear. Had escaped ; and Lord Alfred now cover'd with kisses The redolent warmth of those long falling tresses. Neither he, nor Lucile, felt the rain, which not yet Had ceased falling around them ; when, splash"d. drench'd, and wet. The Due de Luvois down the rough mountain course Approached them as fast as the road, and his horse, Which was limping, would suffer. The beast had just now Lost his footing, and over the perilous brow Of the storm-haunted mountain his master had thrown ; But the Duke, who was agile, had leap'd to a stone, And the horse, being bred to the instinct which tills 96 L UCILE. v^. The breast of the wild mountaineer in these hills, Had scrambled again to his feet ; and now master And horse bore about them the signs of disaster, As they heavily footed their way through the mist, The horse with his shoulder, the Duke with his wrist. Bruised and bleeding. XIX. If ever your feet, like my own, O reader, have traversed these mountains alone. Have you felt your identity shrink and contract At the sound of the distant ;ind dim cataract. In the presence of nature's immensities ? Say, Have you hung o'er the torrent, bedew'd with its spray. And, leaving the rock-way, contorted and roll'd. Like a huge couchant Typhon, fold heap'd over fold,' Track'd the summits, from which every step that you tread Rolls the loose stones, with thunder below, to tlie bed Of invisible waters, whose mystical sound Fills with awful suggestions the dizzy profound ? And, laboring onwards, at last through a break In the walls of the world, burst at once on the lake ? If you have, this description I might have withheld. You remember how strangely your bosom has swell'd At the vision reveal'd. On the overwork'd soil Of this planet, enjoyment is sharpen'd by toil; \ m.'^ Z UCILE. 97 Sfi And one seems, by the pain of ascending the height, To have conquer'd a claim to that wonderful sight. XX. Hail, virginal daughter of cold Espingo ! Hail, Naiad, whose realm is the cloud and the snow ; For o'er thee the angels have whiten'd their wings. And the thirst of the seraphs is quench 'd at thy springs. What hand hath, in heaven, upheld thine expanse? When the breath of creation first fashion 'd fair France, Did the Spirit of 111, in his downthrow appalling. Bruise the world, and thus hollow thy basin while falling ? Ere the mammoth was born hath some monster unnamed The base of thy mountainous pedestal framed ? And later, when Power to Beauty was wed. Did some delicate fairy embroider thy bed With the fragile valerian and wild columbine ? ^1 I^ut thy secret thou keepest, and I will keep mine ; For once gazing on thee, it flash'd on my soul, All that secret ! I saw in a vision the whole Vast design of the ages ; what was and shall be ! Hands unseen raised the veil of a great mystery For one moment. I saw, and I heard ; and my heart Bore witness within me to infinite art, ■*^-_j5:* 98 LUCILE. In infinite power proving infinite love ; Caught the great choral chant, mark'd the dread pageant move — The divine Whence and Whither of life ! But, O daughter Of Oo, not more safe in the deep silent water Is thy secret than mine in my heart. Even so. What I then saw and heard, the world never shall know. XXII. The dimness of eve o'er the valleys had closed. The rain had ceased falling, the mountains reposed. The stars had enkindled in luminous courses Their slow-sliding lamps, when, remounting their horses. The riders retraversed that mighty serration Of rock-work. Thus left to its own desolation. The lake, from whose glimmering limits the last Transient pomp of the pageants of sunset had pass'd, Drew into its bosom the darkness, and only Admitted within it one image — a lonely And tremulous phantom of flickering light That follow'd the mystical moon through the night. XXIII. It was late w-hen o'er Luchon at last they descended. To her chalet, in silence. Lord Alfred attended Lucile. As they parted she whisper'd hmi low. " You have made to me, Alfred, an offer I know All the worth of, believe me. I cannot reply Without time for reflection. Good-night I^not good-by." --^s^^l^^^^i^ ,f^ .^,1 L UCILE. 99 \^ " Alas ! "t is the very' same answer you made To the Due de Luvois but a day since," he said. " No, Alfred ! the very same, no," she replied. Her voice shook. " If you love me, obey me. Abide My answer, to-morrow." XXIV. Alas, Cousin Jack I You Cassandra in breeches and boots ! turn your back To the ruins of Troy. Prophet, seek not for glory Amongst thine own people. 1 follow my ston'. CANTO V. I. Up !— forth again, Pegasus ! — " Many 's the slip," Hath the proverb well said, " 'twixt the cuj) and the lip !" How blest should we be, have I often conceived, Had we really achieved what we nearly achieved ! We but catch at the skirts of the thing we would be, And fall back on the lap of a false destiny. So it will be, so has been, since this world began ! And the happiest, noblest, and best part of man Is the part which he never hath fully play'd out : For the first and last word in life's volume is- Doubt. The face the most fair to our vision allow'd Is the face we encounter and lose m the crowd. I' « X loo LUCILE. The thought that most thrills our existence is one Which, before we can frame it in language, is gone. Horace ! the rustic still rests by the river, But the river flows on, and flows past him forever I Who can sit down, and say ..." W' hat I will be, I will •• ? Who stand up, and affirm ..." What I was, I am still " ? Who is it that must not, if question 'd, say . . . " What 1 would have remain'd, or become, I am not " ? W'e are ever behind, or beyond, or beside Our intrinsic existence. Forever at hide And seek with our souls. Not in Hades alone Doth Sisyphus roll, ever frustrate, the stone. Do the Danaids ply, ever vainly, the sieve. Tasks as futile does earth to its denizens give. Yet there's none so unhappy, but what he hath been Just about to be happy, at some time, I ween ; And none so beguiled and defrauded by chance. Hut what once, in his life, some minute circum- stance Would have fully sufficed to secure him the bliss Which, missing it then, he forever must miss. And to most of us, ere we go down to the grave. Life, relenting, accords the good gift we would have ; But, as though by some strange imperfection in fate. The good gift, when it comes, comes a moment too late. ";.#■ ^JS^ It L UCILE. loi The Future's great veil our breath fitfully flaps, And behind it broods ever the mighty Perhaps. Yet I there's many a shp 'twixt the cup and the lip ; But while o'er the brim of life's beaker I dip, Though the cup may next moment be shatter'd, the wine Spilt, one deep health I'll pledge, and that health shall be thine, O being of beauty and bliss I seen and known In the deeps of mv soul, and possess'd there alone ! My days know thee not ; and my lips name thee never. Thy place in my poor life is vacant forever. We have met : we have parted. No more is re- corded In my annals on earth. This alone was afforded To the man whom men know me, or deem me. to be. But, far down, in the depth of my life's mysten*-, (Like the siren that under the deep ocean dwells. Whom the wind as it wails, and the wave as it swells. Cannot stir in the calm of her coralline halls, Mid the world's adamantine and dim pedestals; At whose feet sit the sylphs and sea fairies ; for whom The almondine glimmers, the soft samphires bloom) — Thou abidest and reignest forever, O Queen Of that better world which thou swayest unseen I My one perfect mistress ! my all things in all I Thee by no vulgar name known to men do I call : f % I02 L UCILE. For the Seraphs have named thee to me in my sleep, And that name is a secret I sacredly keep. But, wherever this nature of mine is most .fair, And its thoughts are the ])urest — belov'd, thou art there I And whatever is noblest in aught that I do, Is done to exalt and to worship thee too. The world gave thee not to me, no I and the world Cannot take thee away from me now. I have furl'd The wings of my spirit about thy bright head ; At thy feet are my soul's immortalities spread. Thou mightest have been to me much. Thou art more. And in silence I worship, in darkness adore. If life be not that which without us we find — Chance, accident, merely — but rather the mind, And the soul which, within us, surviveth these things. If our real existence have truly its springs Less in that which we do than in that which we feel. Not in vain do I worship, not hopeless I kneel I For then, though I name thee not mistress or wife, Thou art mine — and mine only, — O life of my life I And though many 's the sli]) 'twixt the cup and the lip" Yet while o'er the brim of life's beaker I dip, While there's life on the lip, while there's warmth in the wine, One dee|5 health I'll pledge, and thai health shall be thine ! I ^■^ ( 1 v I ;-f^'*^^,.^^.^'\.^ L UCILE. II. 103 This world, on whose peaceable breast we repose Unconvulsed by alarm, once confused in the throes Of a tumult divine, sea and land, moist and dry. And in tiery fusion commix'd earth and sky. Time cool'd it, and calm'd it, and taught it to go The round of its orbit in peace, long ago. The wind changeth and whirleth continually : All the rivers run down and run into the sea : The wind whirleth about, and is presently still'd : All the rivers run down, yet the sea is not fill'd : The sun goeth forth from his chambers : the sun Ariseth, and lo ! he descendeth anon. All returns to its place. Use and Habit are powers Far stronger than Passion, in this world of ours. The great laws of life readjust their infraction, And to every emotion appoint a reaction. III. Alfred Vargrave had time, after leaving Lucile, To review the rash step he had taken, and feel What the world \now\A\\2l\^c?\X<^" his erro7ieoiis position." Thought obtruded its claim, and enforced recogni- tion : Like a creditor who, when the gloss is worn out On the coat which we once wore with pleasure, no doubt. Sends us in his account for the garment we bought. Ev'ry spendthrift to passion is debtor to thought E;*^ 104 L UCILE. IV. He felt ill at ease with himself. He could feel Little doubt what the answer would be from Lucile. Her eyes, when they parted— her voice, when they met. Still enraptured his heart, which they haunted. And yet. Though, exulting, he deem'd himself loved, where he loved, Through his mind a vague self-accusation there moved. O'er his fancy, when fancy was fairest, would rise The infantine face of Matilda, with eyes So sad, so reproachful, so cruelly kind, That his heart fail'd within him. In vain did he find A thousand just reasons for what he had done : The vision that troubled him would not be gone. In vain did he say to himself, and with truth, " Matilda has beauty, and fortune, and youth ; And her heart is too young to have deeply involved All its hopes in the tie which must now be dissolved. 'Twere a false sense of honor in me to suppress The sad truth which I owe it to her to confess. And what reason have I to presume this poor life Of my own, with its languid and frivolous strife. And without what alone might endear it to her. Were a boon all so precious, indeed, to confer, Its withdrawal can wrong her } It is not as though I were bound to some poor village maiden, I know. Z UCILE. 105 Unto whose simple heart mine were all upon earth, Or to whose simple fortunes my own could give worth. Matilda, in all the world's gifts, will not miss Aught that I could procure her. 'T is best as it is ! " M, In vain did he say to himself, " When I came To this fatal spot, I had nothing to blame Or reproach myself for, in the thoughts of my heart. I could not foresee that its pulses would start Into such strange emotion on seeing once more A woman I left with indifference before. I believed, and with honest conviction believed, In my love for Matilda. I never conceived That another could shake it. I deem'd I had done With the wild heart of youth, and looked hopefully on To the soberer manhood, the worthier life, Which I sought in the love that I vow'd to my wife. Poor child ! she shall learn the whole truth. She shall know What I knew not myself but a few days ago. The world will console her— her pride will support— Her youth will renew its emotions. In short, There is nothing in me that Matilda will miss When once we have parted. 'T is best as it is !" VI. But in vain did he reason and argue. Alas ! He yet felt unconvinced that V was best as it was. Out of reach of all reason, forever would rise That infantine face of Matilda, with eyes '7^'' io6 LUCILE. So sad, so reproachful, so cruelly kind, That they harrow'd his heart and distracted his mind. VII. And then, when he turned from these thoughts to Lucile, Though his heart rose enraptured, he could not but feel A vague sense of awe of her nature. Behind All the beauty of heart, and the graces of mind, Which he saw and revered in her, something un- known And unseen in that nature still troubled his own. He felt that Lucile penetrated and prized Whatever was noblest and best, though disguised, In himself ; but he did not feel sure that he knew, Or completely possess'd, what, half hidden from view. Remain 'd lofty and lonely in her. Then, her life. So untamed, and so free ! would she yield as a wife, Independence, long claimed as a wom,in ? Her name, So link'd by the world with that spurious fame Which the beauty and wit of a woman assert. In some measure, alas ! to her own loss and hurt In the serious thoughts of a man ! . . . This re- flection O'er the love which he felt cast a shade of dejection, From which he forever escaped to the thought Doubt could reach not. ..." I love her, and all else is naught I" -!b^ L UCILE, 107 His hand trembled strangely in breaking the seal Of the letter which reach'd him at last from Lucile. At the sight of the verj^ first word that he read. That letter dropp'd down from his hand like the dead Leaf in autumn, that, falling, leaves naked and bare A desolate tree in a wide wintry air. He pass'd his hand hurriedly over his eyes, Bewilder'd, incredulous. Angr)^ surprise And dismay, in one sharp moan, broke from him. Anon He pick'd up the page, and read rapidly on. IX. Thp: Comtesse de Nevers to Lord Alfred Vargrave. " No, Alfred 1 If over the present, when last We two met, rose the glamour and mist of the past, It hath now rolled away, and our two paths are plain, And those two paths divide us. " That hand which again Mine one moment has clasp'd as the hand of a brother, That hand and your honor are pledged to another ! Forgive, Alfred Vargrave, forgive me, if yet For that moment (now past!) I have made you forget What was due to yourself and that other one. Yes, ?**- 108 •L UCILE. If Mine the fault, and be mine the repentance ! Not less, In now owning this fault, Alfred, let me own, too, I foresaw not the sorrow involved in it. " True, That meeting, which hath been so fatal, I sought, I alone ! But oh, deem not it was with the thought Or your heart to regain, or the past to rewaken. No ! believe me, it was with the firm and unshaken Conviction, at least, that our meeting would be Without peril to yoii, although haply to me The salvation of all my existence. " I own. When the rumor first reach'd me, which lightly made known ' i. To the world your engagement, my heart and my •'^^1 mind Suffer'd torture intense. It was cruel to find That so much of the life of my life, half unknown To myself, had been silently settled on one Upon whom but to think it would soon be a crime. Then I said to myself, ' From the thraldom which time Hath not weaken'd there rests but one hope of escape. That image which Fancy seems ever to shape From the solitude left round the ruins of yore. Is a ])hantom. The Being I loved is no more. What I hear in the silence, and see in the lone \'oi(l of life, is the young hero born of my own Perish"d youth : and his image, serene and sublime. ■:^--a?f.ir;-.a,^-. L UCILE. 109 In my heart rests unconscious of change and of time. Could I see it but once more, as time and as change Have made it, a thing unfamiliar and strange. See, indeed, that the Being I loved in my youth Is no more, and what rests now is only, in truth. The hard pupil of life and the world : then, oh, then, I should wake from a dream, and my life be again Reconciled to the world ; and, released from regret, Take the lot fate accords to my choice.' " So we met. But the danger I did not foresee has occurr'd: The danger, alas, to yourself 1 I have err'd. But happy for both that this error hath been Discover'd as soon as the danger was seen ! We meet, Alfred Vargrave, no more. I, indeed. Shall be far from Luchon when this letter you read. My course is decided ; my path I discern : Doubt is over ; my future is tix'd now. " Return, O return to the young living love ! Whence, alas ! If, one moment, you wander'd, think only it was More deeply to bur)- the past love. " And, oh ! Believe, Alfred Vargrave, that I, where I go On my far distant pathway through life, shall rejoice To treasure in memory all that your voice Has avow'd to me, all in which others have clothed To my fancy with beauty and worth your betrothed ! rar^— -*^ I lo Z UCILE. In thf (air morning- light, in the orient dew Of that voung life, now yours, can you fail to renew All the noble and pure aspirations, the truth. The freshness, the faith, of your own earnest youth ? Yes ! you will be happy. I, too, in the bliss I foresee for you, I shall be happy. And this Proves me worthy your friendship. And so — let it prove That I cannot — I do not — respond to your love. Yes, indeed ! be convinced that I could not (no, no, Never, never!) have render'd you happy. And so, Rest assured that, if false to the vows you have plighted, You would have endured, when the first brief, excited Emotion was o'er, not alone the remorse Of honor, but also (to render it worse) Disappointed affection. " Yes, Alfred ; you start .•' P.ut think ! if the world was too much in your heart. And too little in mine, when we parted ten years Ere this last fatal meeting, that time (ay, and tears I) Have but deepen 'd the old demarcations which then Placed our natures asunder; and we two again. As we then were, would still have been strangely at strife. In that self-independence which is to my life Its necessity now, as, it once was its pride, fe^ Jf..,-^ w LUCILE. Ill Had our course through the world been henceforth side by side, I should have revolted forever, and shock'd Vour respect for the world's plausibilities, inock'd. Without meaning- to do so, and outraged, all those Social creeds which you live by. " Oh ! do not suppose That I blame you. Perhaps it is you that are right. Best, then, all as it is ! " Deem these words life's Good-night To the hope of a moment : no more ! If there fell Any tear on this page, 't was a friend's. " So farewell To the past — and to you, Alfred Vargrave. " LuciLE." X. So ended that letter. The room seem'd to reel Round and round in the mist that was scorching his eyes With a fiery dew. Grief, resentment, surprise. Half choked him ; each word he had read, as it smote Down some hope, rose and grasp'd like a hand at his throat. To stifle and strangle him. Gasping already For relief from himself, with a footstep unsteady. He pass'd from his chamber. He felt both oppress'd ='-vgg3s»;.««^ m 112 LUCILE. And excited. The letter he thrust in his breast, And, in search of fresh air and of solitude, pass'd The long lime-trees of Luchon. His footsteps at last Keach'd a bare narrow heath by the skirts of a wood : It w^as sombre and silent, and suited his mood. By a mineral spring, long unused, now unknown. Stood a small ruin'd abbev. He reach "d it, sat down On a fragment of stone, 'mid the wild weed and thistle. And read over again that perplexing ei)istle. XI. In re-reading that letter, there roll'd from his mind The raw mist of resentment which first Tiiade him blind To the pathos breath'd through it. Tears rose in his e\es, And a hope sweet and strange in his heart seem'd to rise. The truth which he saw not the first time he read That letter, he now saw — that each word betray 'd The love which the writer had sought to conceal. His love was received not, he could not but feel. For one reason alone, — that his lo\e was not free. True ! free yet he was not : but could he not be Free erelong, free as air to revoke that farewell, And to sanction his own hopes ? he had but to tell LUCILE. "3 The truth to Matilda, and she were the first To release him : he had but to wait at the worst. Matilda's relations would probably snatch Any pretext, with pleasure, to break off a match In which they had yielded, alone at the whim Of their spoil'd child, a languid approval to him. She herself, careless child ! was her love for him aught .Save the first joyous fancy succeeding the thought She last gave to her doll ? was she able to feel Such a love as the love he divined in Lucile ? He would seek her, obtain his release, and, oh ! then. He had but to fly to Lucile, and again Claim the love which his heart would be free to command. But to press on Lucile any claim to her hand. Or even to seek, or to see her, before He could say, " I am free ! free, Lucile, to implore That great blessing on life you alone can confer." 'T were dishonor in him, 'twould be insult to her. Thus still with the letter outspread on his knee He follow'd so fondly his own revery. That he felt not the angry regard of a man Fix'd upon him ; he saw not a face stern and wan Turn'd towards him ; he heard not a footstep that pass'd And repass'd the lone spot where he stood, till at last A hoarse voice aroused him. 1^ ¥ 114 LUCILE. He look"d up and saw. On the bare heath before him, the Due de Luvois. XII. With aggressive ironical tones, and a look Of concentrated insolent challenge, the Duke Address'd to Lord Alfred some sneering allusion To "the doubtless sublime reveries his intrusion Had, he fear'd, interrupted. Milord would do better. He fancied, however, to fold up a letter The writing of which was too well known, in fact, His remark as he pass'd to have failed to attract." XIII. It was obvious to Alfred the Frenchman was bent Upon picking a quarrel ! and doubtless 't was meant From hii)i to provoke it by sneers such as these. A moment sufficed his quick instinct to seize The position. He felt that he could not expose His own name, or Lucile's, or Matilda's, to those Idle tongues that would bring down upon him the ban Of the world, if he now were to fight with this man. And indeed, when he look'd in the Duke's haggard face, He was pain'd with the change there he could not but trace. And he almost felt pity. He therefore put liy "\ "The Duke Addressed to Lord AUred some sneering allusion." — Page 114. LVCILE. "5 "•K Each remark from the Duke with some careless reply. And coldly, but courteously, waving away The ill-humor the Duke seem'd resolved to display. Rose, and turn'd, with a stern salutation, aside. XIV. Then the Duke put himself in the path, made one stride In advance, raised a hand, fix'd upon him his eyes. And said . . . '• Hold, Lord Alfred I Away with disguise ! I will own that I sought you a moment ago. To fix on you a quarrel. I still can do so Upon my excuse. I prefer to be frank. I admit not a rival in fortune or rank To the hand of a woman, whatever be hers Or her suitor's. I love the Comtesse de Nevers. I believed, ere you cross'd me, and still have the right To believe, that she would have been mine. To her sight You return, and the woman is suddenly changed. You step in between us : her heart is estranged. You ! who now are betrothed to another, I know : You ! whose name with Lucile's nearly ten years ago Was coupled by ties which you broke : you 1 the man I reproach'd on the day our acquaintance began : You ! that left her so lightly, — I cannot believe That you love, as I love, her ; nor can I conceive ii6 LUCILE. Vou, indeed, have the right so to io\f her. Milord, 1 will not thus tamely concede, at your word. What, a few days ago, I believed to be mine ! I shall yet persevere : I shall vet be, in fine, A rival you dare not despise. It is plain That to settle this contest there can but remain One way — need I say what it is ?" XV. Not unmoved With regretful respect for the earnestness proved By the speech he had heard, Alfreri \'argrave replied In words which he trusted might yet turn aside The quarrel from which he felt bound to abstain. And, with stately urbanity, stro\e to explain To the Duke that he too (a fair rival at worst !) Had not been accepted. XVI. " Accepted ! sav first Are you free to have offer'd .'" Lord Alfred was mute. XVII. " Ah, you dare not rejily !" cried the Duke. " Why dispute. Why palter with me .' \'ou are silent ! and why .- Because, in your conscience, you cannot deny "T was from vanity, wanton and cruel withal, And the wish an ascendency lost to rtwiU, That you stepp'd in between nu- and her. If, milord, \l£k i m >-,??=-^ L UCILE. 117 You be really sincere, I ask only one word. Say at once you renounce her. At once, on my part, I will ask your forgiveness with all truth of heart, And there can be no quarrel between us. Sa\ on !" Lord Alfred grew gall'd and impatient. This tone Roused a strong irritation he could not repress. " You have not the right, sir," he said, "and still less The power, to make terms and conditions with me. I refuse to reply." XVIII. As diviners may see Fates they cannot avert in some figure occult. He foresaw in a moment each evil result Of the quarrel now imminent. There, face to face, 'Mid the ruins and tombs of a long-perish'd race. With, for witness, the stern Autumn Sky overhead. And beneath them, unnoticed, the graves, and the dead, Those two men had met, as it were on the ridge Of that perilous, narrow, invisible bridge Dividing the Past from the Future, so small That, if one should pass over, the other must fall. XIX. On the ear, at that moment, the sound of a hoof, Urged with speed, sharply smote ; and from under the roof ( )f the forest in view, where the skirts of it verged On the heath where they stood, at full gallo)) emerged A horseman. --•^t-^^-- ^*^afc-^^=ig:^ I. r CI I.E. ^;.u^ A ^uitk' lie appear'd, by the sash Of red silk round the waist, and the long leathera lash \\'ith the short wooden handle, slung crosswise behind The short jacket ; the loose canvas trouser, confined liy the long boots ; the woollen capote ; and the rein, A mere hempen cord on a curb. L'p the i)lain He wheel'd his horse, white with the foam on his flank, Leap'd the rivulet lightly. turn"d sharp from the bank, And, approaching the Duke, raised his woollen capote, Row-'d low in the selle, and deliver'd a note. The two stood astonish'd. The Duke, with a gest Of apology, turn'd, stretch'd his hand, and possess 'd Himself of the letter, changed color, and tore The page open, and read. Ere a moment was o'er His whole aspect changed. A light rose to his eyes. And a smile to his lips. While with startled sur- prise l.ord Alfred yet watch'd him, he turn'd on his heel, And said gayly, " A pressing request from Lucile ! Vou are quite right, Lord Alfred ! fair rivals at worst. Our relative ])la(( may perchance be reversed. LUCILE. 119 You are not accepted— nor free to propose ! I. perchance, am accepted already; who knows? 1 had warn'd you, milord, I should still persevere. This letter— but stay ! you can read it— look here !" XXI. It was now Alfred's turn to feel roused and enraged. But Lucile to himself was not pledged or engaged By aught that could sanction resentment. He said Not a word, but turn'd round, took the letter, and read . . . The Comtesse de Nevers to the Due de Luvois. " Saint Saviour " Your letter, which foUow'd me here, makes me stay Till I see you again. With no moment's delay 1 entreat, I conjure you, by all that you feel Or profess, to come to me directly. . " LUCTLE. XXII. " Your letter !" He then had been writing to her ! Coldly shrugging his shoulders. Lord Alfred said. " Sir, Do not let me detain you !" The Duke smiled and bow'd ; Placed the note in his bosom ; address'd, half aloud, A few words to the messenger. ..." Say your despatch Will be answer'd ere nightfall ;" then glanced at his watch. And turn'd back to the Baths. ■■■:?if*^U»«i LUCILE. XXIII. Alfred Vargrave stood still. Torn, distracted in heart, and divided in will. He turn'd to Lucile's farewell letter to him. And read over her words ; rising tears made them dim ; " Doubt is over ; my future is fix' d now" they said. " My course is decided^ Her course ? what ! to wed With this insolent rival ! With that thought there shot Through his heart an acute jealous anguish. Bui not Even thus could his clear worldly sense quite excuse Those strange words to the Duke. She was free to refuse Himself, free the Duke to accept, it was true : Even then, though, this eager and strange rendez- vous How imprudent 1 To some unfrequented lone inn. And so late (for the night was about to begin)— She, companionless there !— had she bidden that man ? A fear, vague, and formless, and horrible, ran Through his heart. XXIV. At that moment he look'd up, and saw. Riding fast through the forest, the Due de Luvois. Who waved his hand to him, and sped out of sight. The day was descending. He felt 't would be night Ere that man reached Saint Saviour. w LUCILE. 121 XXV. He walk'd on, but not Back toward Luchon : he walk'd on, but knew not in what Direction, nor yet with what object, indeed. He was walking ; but still he walk'd on without heed. XXVI. The day had been sullen ; but, towards his decline, The sun sent a stream of wild light up the pine. Darkly denting the red light reveal'd at its back. The old ruin'd abbey rose roofless and black. The spring that yet oozed through the moss-paven tloor Had suggested, no doubt, to the monks there, of yore, ■ The sight of that refuge where, back to its God How many a heart, now at rest 'neath the sod. Had borne from the world all the same wild unrest That now prey'd on his own ! XXVII. By the thoughts in his breast With varying impulse divided and torn, He traversed the scant heath, and reach'd the forlorn Autumn woodland, in which but a short while ago He had seen the Duke rapidly enter ; and so He too enter'd. The light waned around him, and pass'd Into darkness. The wrathful, red Occident cast One glare of vindictive inquiry behind, -^^ . ^^^Mll ^fe^^ 122 LUCILE. As the last li^ht of day from the high wood dechned, And the great forest sigh'd its farewell to the beam. And far off on the stillness the voice of the stream Fell faintly. XX vm. O Nature, how fair is thy face. And how light is thy heart, and how friendless thy grace ! Thou false mistress of man I thou dost sport with him lightly In his hours of ease and enjoyment ; and brightly Dost thou smile to his smile ; to his joys thou in- clinest. But his sorrows, thou knowest them not, nor di- vinest. While he wooes, thou art wanton ; thou lettest him love thee ; But thou art not his friend, for his grief cannot move thee ; And at last, when he sickens and dies, what dost thou } All as gay are thy garments, as careless thy brow ! And thou laughest and toyest with any new-comer. Not a tear more for winter, a smile less for summer I Hast thou never an anguish to heave the heart under That fair breast of thine, O thou feminine wonder ! For all those— the young, and the fair, and the strong. Who have loved thee, and lived with thee gavly and long. ^OT^ij^ L UCILE. ^^^ J(t 123 And who now on thy bosom lie dead ? and their deeds And their days are forgotten ! O hast thou no weeds And not one year of mourning.— one out of the many That deck thy new bridals forever,— nor any Regrets for thy lost loves, conceal'd from the new, O thou widow of earth's generations ? Go to ! If the sea and the night wind knew aught of these things. They do not reveal it. We are not thy kings. CANTO VI. I. "The huntsman has ridden too far on the chase. And eltrich, and eerie, and strange is the place ! The castle betokens a date long gone by. He crosses the courtyard with curious eye : He wanders from chamber to chamber, and yet From strangeness to strangeness his footsteps are set ; And the whole place grows wilder and wilder, and less Like aught seen before. Each in obsolete dress. Strange portraits regard him with looks of surprise, Strange forms from the arras start forth to his eyes ; Strange epigraphs, blazon'd. burn out of the wall : i t '-IU \ Jii^&l 124 LUCILE. % The spell of a wizard is over it all. In her chamber, enchanted, the Princess is sleep- ing The sleep which for centuries she has been keeping. If she smile in her sleep, it must be to some lover Whose lost golden locks the long grasses now cover ; If she moan in her dream, it must be to deplore Some grief which the world cares to hear of nc more. But how fair is her forehead, how calm seems her cheek ! And how sweet must that voice be, if once she would speak ! He looks and he loves her ; but knows he (not he !) The clew to unravel this olrl mystery .■* And he stoops to those shut lips. The shapes on the wall, The mute men in armor around him, and all The weird figures frown, as though striving to say, ' Halt .' invade not the Past, reckless child of To- day ! And give not, O madman f the heart in thy breast To a phantom, the soul of whose sense is possess d Bv an Age not thine own .' ' " But unconscious is he. And he heeds not the warning, he cares not to see Aught but one form before him ! " Rash, wild words are o'er ; And the vision is vanish'd from sight evermore ! And the gray morning sees, as it drearily moves L UCILE. 125 O'er a land long deserted, a madman that roves Through a ruin, and seeks to recapture a dream. Lost to life and its uses, withdrawn from the scheme Of man's waking existence, he wanders apart." And this is an old fairy-tale of the heart. It is told in all lands, in a different tongue ; Told with tears by the old, heard with smiles by the young. And the tale to each heart unto which it is known Has a different sense. It has puzzled my own. 11. Eugene de Luvois was a man who, in part From strong physical health, and that vigor of heart Which physical health gives, and partly, perchance. From a generous vanity native to France, With the heart of a hunter, whatever the quarry. Pursued it, too hotly impatient to tarry Or turn, till he took it. His trophies were trifles : But trifler he was not. When rose-leaves it rifles. No less than when oak-trees it ruins, the wind Its pleasure pursues with impetuous mind. Both Eugene de Luvois and Lord Alfred had been Men of pleasure : but men's pleasant vices, which, seen Floating faint, in the sunshine of Alfred's soft mood, Seem'd amiable foibles, by Luvois pursued With impetuous passion, seemed semi-Satanic. 5 5J 126 L UCILE. Half pleased you see brooks play with pebbles ; in panic You watch them whirl'd down by the torrent. In truth. To the sacred political creed of his youth The century which he was born to denied All realization. Its generous pride To degenerate protest on all things was sunk ; Its principles each to a prejudice shrunk. Down the path of a life that led nowhere he trod, Where his whims were his guides, and his will was his god. And his pastime his purpose. From boyhood possess'd Of inherited wealth, he had learn'd to invest Both his wealth and those passions wealth frees from the cage Which penury locks, in each vice of an age All the virtues of which, by the creed he revered. Were to him illegitimate. Thus, he appear'd To the world what the world chose to have him appear, — The frivolous tyrant of Fashion, a mere Reformer in coats, cards, and carriages ! Still 'Twas this vigor of nature, and tension of will. That found for the first time— perhaps for the last- In Lucile what they lacked yet to free from the Past, Force, and faith, in the Future. '^¥^ L UCILE. 127 And so, in his mind, To the anguish of losing the woman was join'd The terror of missing his life's destination, Which in her had its mystical representation. And truly, the thought of it, scaring him, pass'd O'er his heart, while he now through the twilight rode fast. As a shade from the wing of some great bird ob- scene In a wide silent land may be suddenly seen. Darkening over the sands, where it startles and scares Some traveller stray'd in the waste unawares. So that thought more than once darken'd over his heart Yox a moment, and rapidly seem'd to depart. Fast and furious he rode through the thickets which rose Up the shaggy hillside : and the quarrelling crows Clang'd above him, and clustering down the dim air Dropp'd into the dark woods. By fits here and there Shepherd fires faintly gleam 'd from the valleys. Oh, how He envied the wings of each wild bird, as now He urged the steed over the dizzy ascent Of the mountain ! Behind him a murmur was sent From the torrent— before him a sound from the tracts /',r 123 LUCILE. Of the woodlands that waved o'er the wild cata- racts. And the loose earth and loose stones roU'd mo- mently down From the hoofs of his steed to abysses unknown. The red day had fallen beneath the black woods. And the Powers of the night through the vast soli- tudes Walk'd abroad and conversed with each other. The trees Were in sound and in motion, and mutter'd like seas In Elfland. The road through the forest was hol- low'd. On he sped through the darkness, as though he were foUow'd Fast, fast by the Erl King I The wild wizard-work Of the forest at last open'd sharp, o'er the fork Of a savage ravine, and l)ehind the black stems Of the last trees, whose leaves in the light gleam 'd like gems. Broke the broad moon above the voluminous Rock-chaos — the Hecate of that Tartarus I With his horse reeking white, he at lastreach'd the door Of a small mountain inn, on the brow of a hoar Craggy promontory, o'er a fissure as grim. Through which, ever roaring, there leap'd o'er the limb of the rent rock a torrent of water, from sight. €' ■ A door closcil 1-uvois was alone with l.ucile."— Page 129. LUCILE. 129 Into pools that were feeding the roots of the night. A balcony hung o'er the water. Abov'e In a glimmering casement a shade seem'd to move. At the door the old negress was nodding her head As he reach'd it. " My mistress awaits you," she said. And up the rude stairway of creaking pine rafter He follow'd her silent. A few moments after. His heart almost stunn'd him, his head seem'd to reel, For a door closed — Luvois was alone with Lucile. In a gray travelling dress, her dark hair unconfined Streaming o'er it, and toss'd now and then bv the wind From the lattice, that waved the dull flame in a spire From a brass lamp before her — a faint hectic fire On her cheek, to her eyes lent the lustre of fever : They seem'd to have wept themselves wider than ever, Those dark eyes— so dark and so deep ! " You relent } And your plans have been changed by the letter I sent }" There his voice sank, borne down by a strong in- ward strife. Lucile. Your letter! yes. Duke. For it threatens man's life- Woman's honor. ,^_ 130 LUCILE. Luvois. The last, madam, not ! LUCILE. Both. I glance At your own words ; blush, son of the knighthood of France, As I read them ! You say in this letter . . . '• / ktioii' Why now yon refuse me ; 7 is {is it not so?) For the man who has trifled before, wantonly. And no7U trifles again with the heart you deny To myself. But he shall not! By mans last wild law, I will seize on the right (the right, Due de Luvois!) To avenge for you, woman, the past, and to gi-^e To the future its freedom. That man shall not live To make you as wretched as you have made me !" Luvois. Well, madam, in those words what word do you see That threatens the honor of woman ? LUCILE. See ! . . . what, What word, do you ask } Every word ! would you not. Had I taken your hand thus, have fell that your name Was soil'd and dishonor'd by more than mere shame If the woman that bore it had first been the cause Of the crime which in these words is menaced ? You pause ! \ %..- L UCILE. I3i Woman's honor, you ask ? Is there, sir, no dishonor In the smile of a woman, when men, gazing on her, Can shudder, and say. "In that smile is a grave " ? No ! you can have no cause, Duke, for no right you have In the contest you menace. That contest but draws Every right into ruin. By all human laws Of man's heart I forbid it, by all sanctities Of man's social honor ! The Duke droop'd his eyes. " I obey you," he said, " but let woman beware How she plays fast and loose thus with human de- spair. And the storm in man's heart. Madam, yours was the right, When you saw that I hoped, to extinguish hope quite. But you should from the tirst have done this, for I feel That you knew from the first that I loved you." Lucile This sudden reproach seem'd to startle. She raised .A. slow, wistful regard to his features, and gazed On them silent awhile. His own looks were down- cast. Through her heart, whence its first wild alarm was now pass'd, Pity crept, and perchance o'er her conscience a tear, Falling softly, awoke it. However severe, Were they unjust, these sudden upbraidings. to her ? 5^ 132 /- UCILE. Had she lightly misconstrued this man's character. Which had seem'd, even when most impassion 'd it seem'd. Too self-conscious to lose all in love ? Had she deem'd That this airy, gay, insolent man of the world. So proud of the place the world gave him, held furl'd In his bosom no passion which once shaken wide Might tug, till it snapp'd, that erect lofty pride.-' Were those elements in him, which once roused to strife Overthrow a whole nature, and change a whole life ? There are two kinds of strength. One, the strength of the riser Which through continents pushes its ])athwav fnr- e\er To fling its fond heart in the sea ; if it lose This, the aim of its life, it is lost to its use. It goes mad, is diffused into deluge, and dies. The other, the strength of the sea ; which supplies Its deep life from mysterious sources, and draws The river's life into its own life, by laws Which it heeds not. The difference in each case is this : The river is lost, if the ocean it miss ; If the sea miss the river, what matter } The sea Is the sea still, forever. Its deep heart will be Self-sufficing, unconscious of loss as of yore ; Its sources are infinite ; still to the shore, With no diminution of pride, it will say. ( LUCILE. 133 • I am here ; I, the sea ; stand aside, and make way !" Was his love, then, the love of the river ? and she. Had she taken that love for the love of the sea ? At that thought, from her aspect whatever had been Stern or haughty departed ; and, humbled in mien, She approach'd him, and brokenly murmur'd, as though To herself more than him, " Was I wrong ? is it so ? Hear me, Duke ! you must feel that, whatever you deem Your right to reproach me in this, your esteem .1 may claim on cvic ground — I at least am sincere. You say that to me from the tirst it was clear That you loved me. But what if this knowledge- were known At a moment in life when I felt most alone. And least able to be so ? a moment, in fact. When I strove from one haunting regret to retract And emancipate life, and once more to fulfil Woman's destinies, duties, and hopes "i would you still So bitterly blame me, Eugene de Luvois, If I hoped to see all this, or deem'd that I saw For a moment the promise of this, in the plighted Affection of one who, in nature, united So much that from others affection might claun. If only affection were free ? Do you blame The hope of that moment } I deem'd my heart free $ 134 /. UCILE. ^r From all. >aving sorrow. I deem'd that in mc There was yet strength to mould it once more to my will. To uplift it once more to my hope. Do you still Blame me, Duke, that I did not then bid you refrain From hope ? alas I I too then hoped I" LuvoiS. Oh, again, Yet again, say that thrice blessed word ! say, Lucile, That you then deign'd to hope — Lucile. Yes ! to hope I could feel. And could give to you, that without which, all else given Were but to deceive, and to injure you even : — A heart free from thoughts of another. Say, then. Do vou blame that one hope .'' Lrvois. O Lucile ! Say again." She resumed, gazing down, and with faltering tone, " Do you blame me that, when I at last had to own To my heart that the hope it had cherish'd was o'er. And forever, I said to you tlien. ' Hoi)e no more ' ? 1 mvself hoped no more I" With but ill-sui)i)ress'd wrath riie Duke answer'd ..." \V!iat. then ! he recrosses your path This man, and you have but to see him, despiti- Of his troth to another, to take back that light I.UCILE. 135 1 Worthless heart to your own, which he wrong'd years ago !" Lucile faintly, brokenly murmur'd . . . •' No ! no ! T is not that— but alas !— but I cannot conceal That I have not forgotten the past— but I feel That I cannot accept all these gifts on your part- In return for what . . . ah, Duke, what is it ? . . . a heart Which is only a ruin I" With words warm and wild, " Though a ruin it be, trust me yet to rebuild And restore it," Luvois cried ; "though ruin'd it be. Since so dear is that ruin, ah, yield it to me !" He approach'd her. She shrank back. The grief in her eyes Answer'd, " No !" An emotion more fierce seem'd to rise And to break into flame, as though fired by the light Of that look, in his heart. He exclaim'd, " Am I right ? You reject mc ! accept Jtiin ■'" " I have not done so," She said firmly. He hoarsely resumed, " Not yet- no ! But can you with accents as firm promise me That you will not accept him ?" " Accept ? Is he free ? Free to offer ?" she said. " You evade me, Lucile." He replied ; " ah, you will not avow what you feel ! i-,6 Z UCILE. He might make himself free ? Oh, you blush— turn away ! Dare you openly look in my face, lady, say I While you deign to reply to one question from me ? I may hope not, you tell me : but tell me, may he ? What ! silent ? I alter my question. If quite Freed in faith from this troth, might he hope then ?" " He might," She said softly. VI. Those two whisper'd words, in his breast. As he heard them, in one maddening moment re- least All that's evil and fierce in man's nature, to crush And extinguish in man all that's good. In the rush Of wild jealousy, all the tierce passions that waste And darken and devastate intellect, chased From its realm human reason. The wild animal In the bosom of man was set free. And of all Human passions the fiercest, fierce jealousy, fierce As the fire, and more wild than the whirlwind, to pierce .Anil to rend, rush'd ujioii him ; fierce jealousy. swell'd By all passions bred from it, and ever impell'd To involve all things else in the anguish within it, .Vnd on others inflict its own pangs I At that minute What pass'd through his mind, who shall say ? whr may tell LUCILE. 137 The dark thoughts of man's heart, which the red glare of hell Can illumine alone ? He stared wildly around That lone place, so lonely ! That silence ! no sound Reach'd that room, through the dark evening air, save drear Drip and roar of the cataract ceaseless and near I It was midnight all round on the weird silent weather ; Deep midnight in him ! They two, — lone and to- gether. Himself, and that woman defenceless before him ! The triumph and bliss of his rival tlash'd o'er him. The abyss of his own black despair seem'd to ope At his feet, with that awful exclusion of hope Which Dante read over the city of doom. All the Tarquin pass'd into his soul in the gloom. And, uttering words he dared never recall. Words of insult and menace, he thunder'd down all The brew'd storm-cloud within him : its flashes scorch'd blind His own senses. His spirit was driven on the wind Of a reckless emotion beyond his control ; A torrent seem'd loosen'd within him. His soul Surged up from that caldron of passion that hiss'd And seeth'd in his heart. VII. He had thrown, and had miss'd His last stake. 138 LUCILE. For, transfigured, she rose from the place Where he rested o'erawed : a saint's scorn on her face; Such a dread vade retro was written in Ught (^!i her forehead, the fiend would himself, at that sight, Have sunk back abash'd to perdition. I know If Lucretia at Tarquin but once had look'd so. She had needed no dagger next morning. She rose And swept to the door, like that phantom the snows ?>el at nightfall sweep o'er them, when daylight is gone. And Caucasus is with the moon all alone. There she paused ; and, as though from immeasura- ble, Insurpassable distance, she murmur'd — " Farewell ! We, alas I have mistaken each other. Once more Illusion, to-night, in my lifetime is o'er. Due de Luvois, adieu I" From th',' heart-breaking gloom Of that vacant, reproachful, and desolate room, He felt she was gone — gone forever I IX. No word. The sharpest that ever was edged like a sword. Could have pierced to his heart with such keen ac- cusation As the silence, the sudden profound isolation. In which he remain'd. ^ri^^^iS^ r L UCILE. 139 " O reluin ; 1 rtpeiil !" He exclaim'd ; but no sound through the stillness was sent, Save the roar of the water, in answer to him. And the beetle that, sleeping, yet humm'd her night hymn : All indistinct anthem, that troubled the air With a searching, and wistful, and questioning prayer. •■ Return," sung the wandering insect. The roar Of the waters replied. " Nevermore! nevermore !" He vvalk'd to the windo\\ . The spray on his brow Was flung cold from the whirlpools of water below ; The frail wooden balcony shook in the sound Of the torrent. The mountains gloom'd sullenly round. A candle one ray from a closed casement flung. O'er the dim balustrade all bewilder'd he hung, \aguely watching the broken and shimmering blink Of the stars on the veering and vitreous brink Of that snake-like prone column of water; and listing Aloof o'er the languors of air the persisting Sharp horn of the gray gnat. Before he relinquish'd His unconscious employment, that light was e.\- tinguish'd. Wheels, at last, from the inn door aroused him. He ran Down the stairs ; reached the door— just to see her depart. Down the mountain the carriage was speeding. \ f\ 140 Z UCILE. His heart Pealed the knell of its last hope. He rush'd on ; but whither He knew not — on, into the dark cloudy weather — The midnight — the mountains — on, over the shelf Of the precipice — on, still — away from himself ! Till, exhausted, he sank 'mid the dead leaves and moss At the mouth of the forest. A glimmering cross Of gray stone stood for prayer by the woodside. He sank Prayerless, powerless, down at its base, 'mid the dank Weeds and grasses ; his face hid amongst them. He knew That the night had divided his whole life in two. Behind him a Past that was over forever : Before him a Future devoid of endeavor And purpose. He felt a remorse for the one. Of the other a fear. What remain 'd to be done? Whither now should he turn ? Turn again, as be- fore. To his old easy, careless existence of yore He could not. He felt that for better or worse A change had pass'd o'er him ; an angry remorse Of his own frantic failure and error had marr'd Such a refuge forever. The future seem'd barr'd By the corpse of a dead hope o'er which he must tread w LUCILE. 141 m To attain it. Life's wilderness round him was spread. What clew there to cling by ? He clung by a name To a dynasty fallen forever. He came Of an old princely house, true through change to the race And the sword of Saint Louis— a faith 't were dis- grace To relinquish, and folly to live for ! Nor less Was his ancient religion (once potent to bless Or to ban ; and the crozier his ancestors kneel'd To adore, when they fought for the Cross, in hard field With the Crescent) become, ere it reach'd him, tradition ; A mere faded badge of a social position ; A thing to retain and say nothing about, Lest, if used, it should draw degradation from doubt. Thus, the first time he sought them, the creeds of his youth Wholly fail'd the strong needs of his manhood, in truth ! And beyond them, what region of refuge ? what field For employment, this civilized age, did it yield. In that civilized land ? or to thought ? or to action ? Blind deliriums, bewilder'd and endless distraction ! Not even a desert, not even the cell Of a hermit to flee to, wherein he might quell Jrif y^^^&Sa^ ■:^£^n^^ €:■ M^ Z UCILE. The wild devil-instincts which now, unreprest, Kan riot through that ruin'd world in his breast. So he lay there, like Lucifer, fresh from the sight Of a heaven scaled and lost ; in the wide arms of night O'er the howling abysses of nothingness I There As he lay, Nature's deep voice was teaching him prayer ; But what had he to pray to ? The winds in the woods, The voices abroad o'er those vast solitudes. Were in commune all round with the invisible Power That walk'd the dim world by Himself at that hour. But their language he had not yet learn'd — in de- spite Of the much he had learn'd — or forgotten it quite. With its once native accents. Alas ! what had he To add to that deep-toned sublime symphony Of thanksgiving? ... A fiery finger was still Scorching into his heart some dread sentence. His will. Like a wind that is put to no purpose, was wild At its work of destruction within him. The child Of an infidel age, he had been his own god. His own devil. He sat on the damp mountain sod. And stared sullenly up at the dark sky. I ■«*j6i.':>- .j-::.'-^' ^*5a^ L UCILE. 143 The clouds Had heap'd themselves over the bare west in crowds Of misshapen, incongruous potents. A green Streak of dreary, cold, luminous ether, between The base of their black barricades, and the ridge Of the grim world, gleam'd ghastly, as under some bridge. Cyclop-sized, in a city of ruins overthrown By sieges forgotten, some river, unknown And unnamed, widens on into desolate lands. While he gazed, that cloud-city invisible hands Dismantled and rent ; and reveal'd, through a loop In the breach'd dark, the blemish'd and half-broken hoop (Jf the moon, which soon silently sank ; and anon The whole supernatural pageant was gone. The wide night, discomforted, conscious of loss. Darken 'd round him. One object alone— that gray cross — Ghmmer'd faint on the dark. Gazing up, he de- scried Through the void air, its desolate arms outstretch \1 wide. As though to embrace him. He turn'd from the sight. Set his face to the darkness, and tied. XII. When the light Of the dawn grayly flicker'd and glared on the spent Wearied ends of the night, like a hope that is sent -JBtJW.'J. .[3^. It ^s?''**'*'*- 1-< ^^^^^ 144 LUCILE. To the need of some grief when its need is the sorest, He was sullenly riding across the dark forest Toward Luchon. Thus riding, with eyes of defiance Set against the young day, as disclaiming alliance With aught that the day brings to man, he perceived P\iintly, suddenly, fleetingly. through the damp- leaved Autumn branches that put forth gaunt arms on his way. The face of a man pale and wistful, and gray With the gray glare of morning. Eugene de Luvois, With the sense of a strange second sight, when he saw That phantom-like face, could at once recognize. By the sole instinct now left to guide him, the eyes Of his rival, though Heeting the vision and dim. With a stern sad inquiry tix'd keenly on him. And, to meet it, a lie leap'd at once to his own ; A lie born of that lying darkness now grown Over all in his nature ! He answer'd that gaze With a look which, if ever a man's look conveys Mure intensely than words what a man means, con- vey 'd Beyond doubt in its smile an announcement which said, " / have triumph' d. The question your eyes would imply Comes too late, Alfred Vargrave /" 'J "i^j^C ^^'"•^^wSfTiT'^^^"- ^r^-^j^^^'^"^" LUCILE. And so he rode by And rode on, and rode gayly, and rode out of sight, Leaving that look behind him to rankle and bite. XIII. And it bit, and it rankled. XIV. Lord Alfred, scarce knowing. Or choosing, or heeding the way he was going, By one wild hope impell'd, by one wild fear pursued. And led by one instinct, which seem'd to exclude From his mind every human sensation, save one The torture of doubt— had stray'd moodily on, Down the highway deserted, that evening in which With the Duke he had parted ; stray'd on, through rich Haze of sunset, or into the gradual night. Which darken'd, unnoticed, the land from his sight. Toward Saint Saviour ; nor did the changed aspect of all The wild scenery round him avail to recall To his senses their normal perceptions, until, As he stood on the black shaggy brow of the hill At the mouth of the forest, the moon, which had hung Two dark hours in a cloud, slipp'd on fire from among The rent vapors, and sunk o'er the ridge of the world. Then he lifted his eyes, and saw round him un- furl'd. -Sat 'Mr: 146 L UCILE. In one moment of splendor, the leagues of dark trees, And the long rocky line of the wild Pyrenees. And he knew by the milestone scored rough on the face Of the bare rock, he was but two hours from the place Where Lucile and Luvois must have met. This same track The Duke must have traversed, perforce, to get back To Luchon ; not yet then the Duke had return 'd ! He listen'd, he look'd up the dark, but discern'd Not a trace, not a sound of a horse by the way. He knew that the night was approaching to day. He resolved to proceed to Saint Saviour. The morn Which, at last, through the forest broke chill and forlorn, Reveal'd to him, riding toward Luchon, the Duke. 'Twas then that the two men exchanged look for look. XV. And the Duke's rankled in him. XVI. He rush'd on. He tore His path through the thicket. He reach'd the inn door, Roused the yet drowsing porter, reluctant to rise, And inquired for the Countess. The man rubb'd his eyes. The Countess was gone. .\nd the Duke ? I ^tWy-'^^F^ LUCILE. 147 The man stared A sleepy inquiry. With accents that scared The man's dull sense awake, " He, the stranger," he cried, *' Who had been there that night !" The man grinn'd and replied With a vacant intelligence, " He, oh ay, ay ! He went after the lady." No further reply Could he give. Alfred Vargrave demanded no more. Flung a coin to the man, and so turn'd from the door. "What! the Duke then the night in that lone inn had pass'd ? In that lone inn — with her !" Was that look he had cast When they met in the forest, that look which re- main 'd On his mind with its terrible smile, thus explain'd ? The day was half turn'd to the evening, before He re-enter'd Luchon, with a heart sick and sore. In the midst of a light crowd of babblers, his look. By their voices attracted, distinguished the Duke, Gay, insolent, noisy, with eyes sparkling bright, With laughter, shrill, airy, continuous. Right Through the throng Alfred Vargrave, with swift sombre stride, ^it<- ft^r:---^>t-, .ci> I I4S L UCILE. elided on. The Duke noticed hini, turn'd, stepp'd aside. And, cordially grasping his hand, whisper'd low, " O, how right have you been ! There can never he — no, ]S|ever — any more contest between us ! Milord. Let us henceforth be friends !" Having utter'd that word. He turn'd lightly round on his heel, and again His gay laughter was heard, echoed loud by that train Of his young imitators. Lord Alfred stood still. Rooted, stunn'd to the spot. He felt weary and ill. Out of heart with his own heart, and sick to the soul With a dull, stifling anguish he could not control. Does he hear in a dream, through the buzz of the crowd, The Duke's blithe associates, babbling aloud Some comment upon his gay humor that day ? He never was gayer : what makes him so gay.^ 'T is, no doubt, say the flatterers, flattering in tune. Some vestal whose virtue no tongue dare impugn Has at last found a Mars— who, of course, shall be nameless. The vestal that yields to .\L-irs only is blameless ! Hark ! hears he a name which, thus syllabled, stirs All his heart into tumult ? . . . Lucile de Nevers With the Duke's coupled gayly, in some laughing. light, .ijr ~^:,T^..^ "^1^" i L UCILE. U9 Free allusion ? Not so as might give him the right To turn fiercely round on the speaker, but yet To a trite and irreverent compliment set I XVIII. Slowly, slowly, usurping that place in his soul Where the thought of Lucile was enshrined, did there roll Back again, back again, on its smooth downward course O'er his nature, with gather'd momentum and force. The world. XIX. " No !" he mutter'd, " she cannot have sinn'd ! True ! women there are (self-named women of mind !) Who love rather liberty— liberty, yes ! To choose and to leave— than the legalized stress Of the lovingest marriage. But she— is she so ? I will not believe it. Lucile ? Oh no, no ! Not Lucile ! " But the world ? and, ah, what would it sa\- ? O the look of that man, and his laughter, to-day 1 The gossip's light question ! the slanderous jest ! She is right ! no, we could not be happy. "T is best As it is. I will wTite to her— write, O my heart ! And accept her farewell. Oicr farewell ! must wt part — Part thus, then —forever, Lucile ? Is it so ? Yes ! I feel it. We could not be happy, I know. 'T was a dream I we must waken !" k^-\ f- .-^rs^^s^ii^,. 150 LUCILE. XX. With head bo\v"d, as thoiig-h Bv the weight of the heart's resignation, and slow Moody footsteps, he turned to his inn. Drawn apart From the gate, in the court-yard, and ready to start, Postboys mounted, portmanteaus pack'd up and made fast, A travelhng-carriage, unnoticed, he pass'd. He order'd his horse to be ready anon : Sent, and paid, for the reckoning, and slowly pass'd on. And ascended the staircase, and enter'd his room. It was twilight. The chamber was dark in the gloom Of the evening. He hstlessly kindled a light. On the mantel-piece ; there a large card caught his sight — A large card, a stout card, well printed and plain, Nothing flourishing, flimsy, affected, or vain. It gave a respectable look to the slab That it lay on. The name was — Full familiar to him was the name that he saw, 1-^or 't was that of his own future uncle-in-law, L UCILE. 151 '^^;'^ Mrs. Darcy's rich brother, the banker, well known As wearing the longest philacteried gown Of all the rich Pharisees England can boast of ; A shrewd Puritan Scot, whose sharp wits made the most of This worid and the next ; having largely invested Not only where treasure is never molested By thieves, moth, or rust ; but on this earthly ball Where interest was high, and security small, Of mankind there was never a theory yet Not by some individual instance upset : And so to that sorrowful verse of the Psalm Which declares that the wicked expand like the palm In a world where the righteous are stunted and pent, A cheering exception did Ridley present. Like the worthy of Uz, Heaven prosper'd his piety. The leader of every religious society. Christian knowledge he labor'd through life to promote With personal profit, and knew how to quote Both the Stocks and the Scripture, with equal ad- vantage To himself and admiring friends, in this Cant-Age. XXI. Whilst over this card Alfred vacantly brooded, A waiter his head through the doorway protruded : "Sir Ridley MacNab with Milord wish'd to speak." ■^<^ 152 LUCILE. Alfred Vargrave could feel there were tears on his cheek ; He brush'd them away with a gesture of pride. He glanced at the glass ; when his own face he eyed. He was scared by its pallor. Inclining his head, He with tones calm, unshaken, and silvery, said " Sir Ridley may enter." In three minutes more That benign apparition appear'd at the door. Sir Ridley, released for a while from the cares Of business, and minded to breathe the pure airs Of the blue Pyrenees, and enjoy his release, In company there with his sister and niece. Found himself now at Luchon— distributing tracts Sowing seed by the way, and collecting new facts For Exeter Hall ; he was starting that night For Bigorre : he had heard, to his cordial delight, That Lord Alfred was there, and, himself, setting out For the same destination : impatient, no doubt I Here some commonplace compliments as to " the marriage" Through his speech trickled softly, like honey : his carriage Was ready. A storm seem'd to threaten the weather : If his young friend agreed, why not travel together ? With a footstep uncertain and restless, a frown Of perplexity, during this speech, up and down i - TT7 L UCILE. 153 Alfred Vargrave was striding ; but, after a pause And a slight hesitation, the which seem'd to cause Some surprise to Sir Ridley, he answer'd— " My dear Sir Ridley, allow me a few moments here — Half an hour at the most — to conclude an affair Of a nature so urgent as hardly to spare My presence (which brought me, indeed, to this spot). Before I accept your kind offer." " Why not ?" Said Sir Ridley, and smiled. Alfred Vargrave. before Sir Ridley observed it, had pass'd through the door. A few moments later, with footsteps revealing Intense agitation of uncontroU'd feeling, He was rapidly pacing the garden below. What pass'd through his mind then is more than I know. But before one half-hour into darkness had fled. In the court-yard he stood with Sir Ridley. His tread Was firm and composed. Not a sign on his face Betray'd there the least agitation. " The place You so kindly have offer "d," he said, " I accept;" And he stretch'd out his hand. The two travellers stepp'd Smiling into the carnage. And thus, out of sight. They drove down the dark road, and into the night. a 2^^ 154 LUCILE. 1 % Sir Ridley was one of those wise men who, so fat As their power of saying it goes, say with Zophar, " We, no doubt, are the people, and wisdom shall die with us," 'I'hough of wisdom like theirs there is no small sup- ply with us. Side by side in the carriage ensconced, the two men Began to converse, somewhat drowsily, when Alfred suddenly thought — " Here's a man of ripe age, At my side, by his fellows reputed as sage. Who looks happy, and therefore who must have been wise. Suppose I with caution reveal to his eyes Some few of the reasons which make me believe That 1 neither am happy nor wise? 'twould relieve And enlighten, perchance, my own darkness and doubt." l"or which purpose a feeler he softly put out. It was snapp'd up at once. " What is truth ?" jesting I'ilate Ask'd, and pass'd from the question at once with a smile at its utter futility. Had he address'd it To Ridley MacNab, he at least had confess'd it Admitted discussion ! and certainly no man Could more promptly have answer'd the sceptical Roman Than Ridley. Hear some street astronomer talk .' 4 L UCILE. 15: Grant him two or three hearers, a morsel of chalk, And forthwith on the pavement he'll sketch you the scheme Of the heavens. Then hear him enlarge on his theme I Not afraid of La Place, nor of Arago, he ! He '11 prove you the whole plan in plain A B C. Here 's your sun— call him A ; b's the moon ; it is clear How the rest of the alphabet brings up the rear Of the planets. Now ask Arago, ask La Place. (Your sages, who speak with the heavens face to face !) Their science in plain A B c to accord To your point-blank inquiry, my friends ! not a word Will you get for your pains from their sad lips. Alas ! Not a drop from the bottle that's quite full will pass. 'T is the half-empty vessel that freest emits The water that 's in it. 'T is thus with men's wits ; Or at least with their knowledge. A man's capa- bility Of imparting to others a truth with facility Is proportion'd forever with painful exactness To the portable nature, the vulgar compactness. The minuteness in size, or the lightness in weight Of the truth he imparts. So small coins circulate More freely than large ones. A beggar asks alms. And we fling him a sixpence, nor feel any qualms. 156 Z UCILE. But if every street charity shook an investment, Or each beggar to clothe we must strip off a vest- ment, The length of the process would limit the act ; And therefore the truth that 's summ'd up in a tract Is most lightly dispensed. As for Alfred, indeed. On what spoonfuls of truth he was suffer'd to feed By Sir Ridley, I know not. This only I know, That the two men thus talking continued to go Onward somehow, together — on into the night — The midnight — in which they escape from our sight. XXIII. And meanwhile a world had been changed m its place. And those glittering chains that o"er i)lue balmy space Hang the blessing of darkness, had drawn out of sight. To solace unseen hemispheres, the soft night ; And the dew of the dayspring benignly descended, And the fair morn to all things new s:mctiop. extended. In the smile of the East. And the lark soaring on, Lost in light, shook the dawn with a song from the sun. And the world laugh'd. It wanted but two rosy hours F'rom the noon, when they pass'd through the thii k passion (lowers W^ w-^J^e ' And will wander no more ? ' laugh'd Matilda."— Page 157. L UCILE. 157 Of the little wild garden that dimpled before The small house where their carriage now stopp'd, at Bigorre. And more fair than the flowers, more fresh than the dew, With her white morning robe flitting joyously through The dark shrubs with which the soft hillside was clothed, Alfred Vargrave perceived, where he paused, his betrothed. Matilda sprang to him, at once, with a face Of such sunny sweetness, such gladness, such grace, And radiant confidence, childlike delight, That his whole heart upbraided itself at that sight. And he murmur'd, or sigh'd, " O, how could 1 have stray'd From this sweet child, or suffer'd in aught to invade Her young claim on my life, though it were for an hour. The thought of another?" " Look up, my sweet flower !" He whisper'd her softly, " my heart unto thee Is return'd, as returns to the rose the wild bee !" " And will wander no more ?" laugh'd Matilda. " No more," He repeated. And. low to himself, " Yes, 't is o'er ! My course, too, is decided, Lucile! Was 1 blind To have dream'd that these clever Frenchwomen of mind W ^<<5^R5S!Si- J^ ^^m^i^ - -^ -■^^-- ■< i^S L UCILE. Could satisfy simply a plain English heart, Or sympathize with it ?" XXIV. And here the first part Of this drama is over. The curtain falls furl'd On the actors within it — the Heart, and the World. Woo'd and wooer have play'd with the riddle of life,— Have they solved it ? Appear ! answer, Husband and Wife I Yet, ere bidding farewell to Lucile de Nevers, Hear her own heart's farewell in this letter of hers. The Comtessk de Nevers to a Friend i\ India. " Once more, O my friend, to your arms and your heart, And the places of old . . . never, never to j^art ! Once more to the palm, and the fountain I Once more To the land of my birth, and the deep skies of yours ! From the cities of Europe, pursued by the fret Of their turmoil wherever m\' footsteps are set ; From the children that cry iox the birth, and be- hold. There is no strength to bear them — old Time is so old ! -^ ><££Skc« • L UCILE. 159 From the world's weary masters, that come upon earth Sapp'd and mined by the fever they bear from their birth ; From the men of small stature, mere parts of a crowd, Born too late, when the strength of the world hath been bow'd ; Back,— back to the Orient, from whose sunbright womb Sprang the giants which now are no more, in the bloom And the beauty of times that are faded forever ! ro the palms ! to the tombs ! to the still Sacred River ! Where I too, the child of a day that is done. First leapt into life, and look'd up at the sun. Back again, back again, to the hill-tops of home I come, O my friend, my consoler, I come I Are the three intense stars, that we watch 'd night by night Burning broad on the band of Orion, as bright ? Are the large Indian moons as serene as of old. When, as children, we gather'd the moonbeams foi gold ? Do you yet recollect me, my friend ? Do you still Remember the free games w^e play'd on the hill, 'Mid those huge stones up-heap'd, where we reck- lessly trod O'er the old ruin'd fane of the old ruined god ? .-^yi^r^ia^ 1 60 LUCILE. How he frown'd while around him we carelessly play'd ! That frown on my life ever after hath stay'd, Like the shade of a solemn experience upcast F'rom some vague supernatural grief in the past. For the poor god, in pain, more than anger, he frown'd, To perceive that our youth, though so Heeling, had found, In its transient and ignorant gladness, the bliss Which his science divine seem'd divinely to miss. Alas ! you may haply remember me yet The free child, whose glad childhood myself I forget. I come — a sad woman, defrauded of rest : I bear to you only a laboring breast : My heart is a storm-beaten ark, wildly hurl'd 0"er the whirlpools of time, with the wrecks of a world. The dove from my bosom hath flown far away : It is flown, and returns not, though many a day Have I watch'd from the windows of life for its coming. Friend, I sigh for repose, I am weary of roaming. 1 know not what Ararat rises for me Far away, o'er the waves of the wandering sea : I know not what rainbow may yet, from far hills. Lift the promise of hope, the cessation of ills : But a voice, like the voice of my youth, in my breast ^- A/;- r ^. L UCILE. Wakes and whispers me on — to the East I to the East I Shall I find the child's heart that I left there ? or find The lost youth I recall with its pure peace of mind ? Alas ! who shall number the drops of the rain ? Or give to the dead leaves their greenness again ? Who shall seal up the caverns the earthquake hath rent ? Who shall bring forth the winds that within them are pent ? To a voice who shall render an image ? or who From the heats of the noontide shall gather the dew ? I have burn'd out within me the fuel of life. Wherefore lingers the flame ? Rest is sweet after strife. 1 would sleep for a while. I am weary. " My friend, I had meant in these lines to regather, and send To our old home, my life's scatter'd links. But 't is vain ! Each attempt seems to shatter the chaplet again ; Only fit now for fingers like mine to run o'er, Who return, a recluse, to those cloisters of yore Whence too far I have wander'd. " How many long years Does it seem to me now since the quick, scorching tears, While I wrote to you, splash 'd out a girl's prema- ture Moans of pain at what women in silence endure I ^.^: ,*£r 162 LUCILE. W^^ To your eyes, friend of mine, and to your eyes alone. That now long-faded page of my life hath been shown Which recorded my heart's birth, and death, as you know, Many years since,— how many ! " A few months ago I seem'd reading it backward, that page ! Why explain Whence or how? The old dream of my life rose again. The old superstition ! the idol of old ! It is over. The leaf trodden down in the mould Is not to the forest more lost than to me That emotion. I bury it here by the sea Which will bear me anon far away from the shore Of a land which my footsteps shall visit no more. And a heart's requiescat I write on that grave. Hark ! the sigh of the wind, and the sound of the wave. Seem like voices of spirits that whisper me home ! I come, O you whispering voices, I come ! My friend, ask me nothing. " Receive me alone As a Santon receives to his dwelling of stone In silence some pilgrim the midnight may bring : It may be an angel that, weary of wing, Hath paused in his flight from some city of doom. Or only a wayfarer stray'd in the gloom. This only I know : that in Europe at least Lives the craft or the power that must master our East. W^ W~5^ LUCILE. 103 Wherefore strive where the gods must themselves yield at last ? Both they and their altars pass by with the Past. The gods of the household Time thrusts from the shelf ; And I seem as unreal and weird to myself As those idols of old. " Other times, other men. Other men, other passions ! " So be it ! yet again I turn to my birthplace, the birthplace of morn. And the light of those lands where the great sun is born ! Spread your arms, O my friend ! on your breast let me feel The repose which hath fled from my own. " Your LuciLE." P/ ^^-m ~i^^ PART II. « CANTO I. Hail, Muse ! But each Muse by this time has. 1 know, lieen used up, and Apollo, has bent his own bow All too lonjif ; so I leave unassaulted the portal Of Olympus, and only invoke here a mortal. Hail, Murra\- ! — not Lindley, — but Murray and Son. Hail, omniscient, beneficent, great Two-in-One ! In Albemarle Street may thy temple long stand I Long enlighten'd and led by thine erudite hand. May each novice in science nomadic unravel Statistical mazes of modernized travel I Mav each inn-keeping knave long thy judgments revere. And the postboys of Europe regard thee with fear ; While they feel, in the silence of baffled extortion. That knowledge is power ! Long, long, like that portion Of the national soil which the Greek exile took In his baggage wherever he went, may thy book ^ i '^-IL.J"^: AiSZir L UCILE. 165 "^ Cheer each poor British pilgrim, who trusts to thy wit Not to pay through his nose just for following it ! May'st thou long, O instructor ! preside o'er his way. And teach him alike what to praise and to pay I Thee, pursuing this pathway of song, once again I invoke, lest, unskill'd, I should v/ander in vain. To my call be propitious, nor, churlish, refuse Thy great accents to lend to the li[xs of my Muse ; For I sing of the Naiads who dwell "mid the stems Of the green linden-trees by the waters of Ems. Yes ! thy spirit descends upon mine, O John Mur- ray ! And I start — with thy book — for the Baths in a hurry. ■■vv " At Coblentz a bridge of boats crosses the Rhine. And from thence the road, winding by Ehrenbreit- stein. Passes over the frontier of Nassau. (•' N. B. No custom-house here since the Zollverein." See Murray, paragraph 30.1 " The route, at each turn. Here the lover of nature allows to discern. In varving prospect, a rich wooded dale : The \ ine and acacia-tree mostly prevail In the foliage observable here ; and, moreover. The soil is carbonic. The road, under cover Of the grape-clad and mountainous upland that hems i66 L UCILE. Ri)un(l this beautiful spot, brings the traveller to — "EMS. A Schnellpost from Frankfort arrives every day. At the Kurhaus (the old Ducal mansion) you jniy Plight florins for lodgings. A Restaurateur Is attach'd to the place ; but most travellers prefer (Including, indeed, many persons of note) To dine at the usual-priced table d'hote. Through the town runs the Lahn. the steep green banks of which Two rows of white picturesque houses enrich ; And between the high road and the river is laid Out a sort of a garden, call'd • Thk Promenade.' Female visitors here, who may make up their mind To ascend to the top of these mountains, will find On the banks of the stream, saddled all the day long. Troops of donkeys — sure-footed — proverbially strong , " And the traveller at Ems may remark, as he passes. Here, as elsewhere, the women run after the asses. ll W '.Mid the world's weary denizens bound for these springs In the month when the merle on the maple-bough sings, I'lirsued to the place from dissimilar paths liy a similar sickness, there came to the baths Four sufferers — each stricken dee]) through the heart, L UCILE. 167 Or the head, by the selfsame invisible dart Of the arrow that flieth unheard in the noon, From the sickness that walketh unseen in the moon, Through this great lazaretto of life, wherein each Infects with his own sores the next within reach. First of these were a young English husband and wife. Grown weary ere half through the journey of life. O Nature, say where, thou gray mother of earth, Is the strength of thy youth ? that thy womb brings to birth Only old men to-day ! On the winds, as of old. Thy voice in its accent is joyous and bold ; Thy forests are green as of yore ; and thine oceans Yet move in the might of their ancient emotions : But man— thy last birth and thy best— is no more Life's free lord, that look'd up to the starlight of vore. With the faith on the brow, and the tire in the eyes. The firm foot on the earth, the high heart in the skies ; But a gray-headed infant, defrauded of \outh. Born too late or too early. The lady, in truth, Was young, fair, and gentle ; and never was given To more heavenly eyes the pure azure of heaven. Never yet did the sun touch to ripples of gold Tresses brighter than those which her soft hand unroll'd From her noble and innocent brow, when she rose, An Aurora, at dawn, from her balmy repose. j^rasixs£i_ _z::r? i68 LUCILE. And into the mirror the bloom and the blush Of her beauty broke, glowing ; like light in a gush From the sunrise in summer. Love, roaming, shall meet But rarely a nature more sound or more sweet — Eyes brighter — brows whiter — a figure more fair — Or lovelier lengths of more radiant hair — Than thine. Lady Alfred ! And here I aver (May those that have seen thee declare if I em That not all the oysters in Britain contain A pearl pure as thou art. Let some one explain, — Who may know more than I of the intimate life Of the pearl with the oyster, — why yet in his wife, In despite of her beauty — and most when he felt His soul to the sense of her loveliness melt — Lord Alfred miss'd something he sought for : in- deed, The more that he miss'd it the greater the need ; Till it seem'd to himself he could willingly spare All the charms that he found for the one chaiin not there. IV. For the blessings Life lends us, it strictly demands '{"he worth of their full usufruct at our hands. And the value of all things exists, not indeed In themselves but man's use of them, feeding man's need. Alfred \'argra\'e, in wedding with beauty and youth, I lad enil)i'aci-(l both vVmbilion and Wealth. \'et in truth ;>^. ^s^:..-. LUCILE. 169 i UnfulfiU'd the ambition, and sterile the wealth (In a life paralyzed by a moral ill-health), Had remain'd, while the beauty and youth, unie- deem'd From a vague disappointment at all things, but seem'd Day by day to reproach him in silence for all That lost youth in himself they had fail'd to recall. No career had he foUow'd, no object obtain'd In the world by those worldly advantages gain'd From nuptials beyond which once seem'd to appear. Lit by love, the broad path of a brilliant career. All that glitter'd and gleam'd through the moon- light of youth With a glory so fair, now that manhood in truth . Grasp'd and gather'd it, seem'd like that false fairy gold Which leaves in the hand only moss, leaves, and mould ! V. Fairy gold ! moss and leaves ! and the young Fairy Bride ? Lived there yet fairy-lands in the face at his side ? Say. O friend, if at evening thou ever hast watch 'd Some pale and impalpable vapor, detach'd From the dim and disconsolate earth, rise and fall O'er the light of a sweet serene star, until all The chill'd splendor reluctantly waned in the deep Of its own native heaven } Even so seem'd to creep O'er that fair and ethereal face, day by day, Wiiile the radiant vermeil, subsiding away, ^^X (/H' I' L i'CILE. ibi Hid its light in the heart, the faint gradual veil (if a sadness unconscious. The lady grew pale As silent her lord grew : and both, as they eyed Each the other askance, turn'd, and secretly sigh'd. Ah, wise friend, what avails all experience can give? True, we know what life is — but, alas ! do we live ? The grammar of life we have gotten by heart, But life's self we have made a dead language^an art, Not a voice. Could we speak it, hut once, as 't was s]5oken When the silence of passion the first time was broken ! Cuvier knew the world better than Adam, no doubt : Hut the last man, at best, was but learned about What the first, without learning, enjoy d. What art thou To the man of to-day, O Leviathan, now .•' A science. What wert thou to him that from ocean First beheld thee appear ? A surprise, — an emotion I When life leaps in the veins, when it beats in the heart, \\ luii it thrills as it fills every animate ])art, Where lurks it ? how works it ? . . . we scarcely detect it. liul li'fe goes : the heart dies : haste, O leech, and dissect it ! 'I'his accursed assthetical, ethical age Ilalh so finger'd life's hornbook, so blurr'd ever)' "4 LUCILE. lyr That the old glad romance, the gay chivalrous storv With its fables of faery, its legends of glorj-, Is turn'd to a tedious instruction, not new To the children that read it insipidly through. We know too much of Love ere we love. We can trace Nothing new, unexpected, or strange in his face When we see it at last. 'T is the same little Cupid, With the same dimpled cheek, and the smile almost stupid. We have seen in our pictures, and stuck on our shelves, And copied a hundred times over, ourselves. And wherever we turn, and whatever we do. Still, that horrible sense of the dqa coiinu .' r, VI. Perchance 't was the fault of the life that they led ; Perchance 't was the fault of the novels they read ; Perchance 't was a fault in themselves; I am bound not To sav : this I know — that these two creatures found not In each other some sign they expected to find Of a something unnamed in the heart or the mind |j And, missing it, each felt a right to complain Of a sadness which each found no word to explain. Whatever it was, the world noticed not it In the light-hearted beauty, the light-hearted wit. Still, as once with the actors in Greece, 't is the -^m: 172 L UCILE. Each must speak to the crown with a mask on his face. Praise followed Matilda wherever she went. She was flatter'd. Can flattery purchase content ? Yes. While to its voice, for a moment, she listen'd, The voung cheek still bloom'd, and the soft eyes still glisten'd ; And her lord, when, like one of those light vivid things That glide down the gauzes of summer with wings Of rapturous radiance, unconscious she moved Through that buzz of inferior creatures, whicli proved Her beautv, their envy, one moment forgot 'Mid the many charms there, the one charm that was not : And when o'er her beauty enraptured he bow'd, (As they turn'd to each other, each fiush'd from the crowd,) And murmur'd those praises which yet seem'd more dear Than the praises of others had grown to her ear. She, too, ceased awhile her own fate to regret : " Yes ! ... he loves rpe," she sigh'd ; " this is love, then — and vet — .' " Mi I .^^ .\h, \\\-AKyct ! fatal word I "t is the moral of all Thought and felt, seen or done, in this world since the Fall ! h stands at the end of each sentence we learn It flits in the vista of all we discern ; It leads us, forever and ever, away To find in to-morrow what flies with to-day. 'T was this same little fatal and mystical word That now, like a mirage, led my lady and lord To the waters of Ems from the waters of Marah ; Drooping pilgrims in Fashion's blank, arid Sahara ! VIII. At the same time, pursued by a spell much the same, To these waters two other worn pilgrims there came : One a man, one a woman : just now, at the latter. As the Reader I mean by and by to look at her And judge for himself, I will not even glance. / IX. ' " Of the self-crown'd young kings of the Fashion in France Whose resplendent regalia so dazzled the sight. Whose horse was so perfect, whose boots were so bright, Who so hailed in the salon, so marked in the Bois, Who so welcomed by all, as Eugene de Luvois ? Of all the smooth-brow'd premature debauchees In that town of all towns, where Debauchery sees On the forehead of youth her mark everwhere graven, — In Paris I mean, — where the streets are all paven By those two fiends whom Milton saw bridging the way ''^^ /T^ -''f^^^PtW* 174 LUCILE. From Hell to this planet,— who, haughty and gay, The free rebel of life, bound or led by no law, Walk'd that causeway as bold as Eugene de Luvois ? Yes I he march'd through the great masquerade, loud of tongue, Bold of brow : but the motley he mask'd in, it hung So loose, trail'd so wide, and appear'd to impede So strangely at times the vex'd effort at speed. That a keen eye might guess it was made — not for him. But some brawler m.ore stalwart of stature and limb. That it irk'd him, in truth, you at times could divine, For when low was the music, and spilt was the wine, He would clutch at the garment, as though it oj)- press'd And stifled some imi)ulse that choked in iiis breast. What I he, . . . the light sport of liis frivolous ease I Was he, too, a ])rey to a mortal disease ? Mv friend, hear a parable : ponder it well : For a moral there is in the tale that I tell. One evening I .sat in the Palais Royal, And there, while I laugh'd at Grassot and Arnal, My eye fell on the face of a man at my side ; Every time that he laugh'd 1 observed that lie sigh'd. As though vex'd to be pleased. I remark'd that he sat L UCILE. 175 111 at ease on his seat, and kept twirling his hat la his hand, with a look of unquiet abstraction. I inquired the cause of his dissatisfaction. '■ .Sir," he said, " if what vexes me here you would know. Learn that, passing this way some few half-hours ago, 1 walk'd into the Frangais, to look at Rachel. (Sir, that woman in Phklre is a miracle!) — Well, I ask'd for a bo.x : they were occupied all : For a seat in the balcony : all taken I a stall : Taken too : the whole house was as full as could be,— Not a hole for a rat I I had just time to see The lady I love tctc-a-tctc- with a friend In a box out of reach at the opposite end : Then the crowd push'd me out. What was left me to do ? I tried for the tragedy . . . que voulcz-vous ? Every place for the tragedy book'd ! . . . mon ami. The farce was close by : ... at the farce mc void ! The piece is a new one : and Grassot plays well : There is drollery, too, in that fellow Ravel : And Hyacinth's nose is superb ! . . . Yet I meant My evening elsewhere, and not thus, to have spent. Fate orders these things by her will, not by ours ! Sir, mankind is the sport of invisible powers." I once met the Due de Luvois for a moment ; And I mark'd, when his features I fix'd in my com- ment. O'er those features the same vague disquietude stray /W''- >*t 176 LUCILE. [ had seen on the face of my friend at tlie play ; And I thought that he too, very probably, spent His evenings not wholly as first he had meant. XI. ( ) source of the holiest joys we inherit. O Sorrow, thou solemn, invisible spirit I 111 fares it with man when, through life's desert sand. Grown impatient too soon for the long promised land. Me turns from the worship of thee, as thou art. An expressless and imageless truth in the heart. And takes of the jewels of Egypt, the pelf And the gold of the Godless, to make to himself A gaudy, idolatrous image of thee, Antl then bows to the sound of the cymbal the knee. The sorrows we make to ourselves are false gods : Like the prophets of Baal, our bosoms with rods We may smite, we may gash at our hearts till they bleed. Hut these idols are blind, deaf, and duml) to our need. Tlie land is athirst, and cries out ! . . . 't is in vain ; The great blessing of Heaven descends not in rain. XII. It was night; and the lamps were beginning to gleam Tlirough the long linden-trees, folded each in his dream. { r % Z UCILE. From that building which looks like a temple . . . and is The temple of — Health? Nay, but enter ! I wis That never the rosy-hued deity knew One votary out of that sallow-cheek'd crew Of Courlanders, Wallacs, Greeks, affable Russians, Explosive Parisians, potato-faced Prussians ; Jews — Hamburghers chiefly ; — pure patriots, — Sua- bians ; — " Cappadocians and Elamites, Cretes and Arabians, And the dwellers in Pontus "... My muse will not weary More lines with the list of them . . . cur fre- imicre ? What is it they murmur, and mutter, and hum } Into what Pandemonium is Pentecost come 1 Oh, what is the name of the god at whose fane Every nation is mix'd in so motley a train ? What weird Kabala lies on those tables outspread ? To what oracle turns with attention each head ? What holds these pale worshippers each so devout, And what are those hierophants busied about ? XIII. Here passes, repasses, and flits to and fro. And rolls without ceasing the great Yes and No : Round this altar alternate the weird Passions dance, And the God worshipp'd here is the old God of Chance. Through the wide-open doors of the distant saloon Flute, hautboy, and fiddle are squeaking in tune ; ^ ■■ . — 1 "^ZeSfi- 178 LUCILE. And an indistinct music forever is roU'd, That mixes and chimes with the chink of the gold, From a vision, that flits in a luminous haze. Of figures forever eluding the gaze ; It fleets through the doorway, it gleams on the glass. And the weird words pursue it — Rouge, Impair, I't Passe ! Like a sound borne in sleep through such dreams as encumber With haggard emotions the wild wicked slumber Of some witch when she seeks, through a night- mare, to grab at The hot hoof of the fiend, on her way to the Sab- bat. XIV. The Due de Luvois and Lord Alfred had met Some few evenings ago (for the season as yet Was but young) in this selfsame Pavilion of Chance. The idler from England, the idler from France Shook hands, each, of course, with much cordial pleasure : An acquaintance at Ems is to most men a treasure, And they both were too well-bred in aught to W- tray One discourteous remembrance of things pass'd away. 'T was a sight that was pleasant, indeed, to be .seen. These friends exchange greetings; — the men who had been ^ L UCILE. 179 Foes so nearly in days that were past. This, no doubt. Is why, on the night I am speaking about. My Lord Alfred sat down by himself at roulette, Without one suspicion his bosom to fret. Although he had left, with his pleasant French friend, Matilda, half vex'd, at the room's farthest end. XV. Lord Alfred his combat with Fortune began With a few modest thalers — away they all ran — The reserve follow'd fast in the rear. As his purse Cirew lighter his spirits grew sensibly worse. One needs not a Bacon to find a cause for it : 'T is an old law in physics — Natw-a abhorret Vacuum — and my lord, as he watch'd his last crown Tumble into the bank, turn"d away with a frown Which the brows of Napoleon himself might have deck'd On that day of all days when an empire was wreck'd On thy plain, Waterloo, and he witness'd the last Of his favorite Guard cut to pieces, aghast ! Just then Alfred felt, he could scarcely tell why. Within him the sudden strange sense that some eye Had long been intently regarding him there, — That some gaze was upon him too searching to bear. I So LUCILE. He rose and look'd up. Was it fact? Was it fable ? Was it dream ? Was it waking? Across the green table, That face, with its features so fatally known — Those eyes, whose deep gaze answer'd strangely his own — What was it ? Some ghost from its grave come again ? Some cheat of a feverish, fanciful brain ? Or was it herself — with those deep eyes of hers. And that face unforgotten ? — Lucile de Nevers ! Ah, well that pale woman a phantom might seem, Who appear'd to herself but the dream of a dream ! 'Neath those features so calm, that fair forehead so hush'd, That pale cheek forever by passion unflush'd, There yawn'd an insatiate void, and there heaved A tumult of restless regrets unrelieved. The brief noon of beauty was passing away, And the chill of the twilight fell, silent and gray, O'er that deep, self-perceived isolation of soul. And now, as all round her the dim evening stole. With its weird desolations, she inwardly grieved For the want of that tender assurance received From the warmth of a whisper, the glance of an eye, Which should say, or should look, " Fear thou naught — / am by !" > £. L UCILE. i8i And thus, through that lonely and self-fix'd ex- istence, Crept a vague sense of silence, and horror, and distance : A strange sort of faint-footed fear,- -like a mouse That comes out, when 't is dark, in some old ducal house Long deserted, where no one the creature can scare, And the forms on the arras are all that move there. In Rome, — in the Forum, — there open'd one night A gulf. All the augurs turn'd pale at the sight. In this omen the anger of Heaven they read. Men consulted the gods : then the oracle said : — " Ever open this gulf shall endure, till at last That which Rome hath most precious within it be cast." The Romans threw in it their corn and their stuff, But the gulf yawn'd as wide. Rome seem'd likely enough To be ruin'd ere this rent in her heart she could choke. Then Curtius, revering the oracle, spoke : " O Ouirites ! to this Heaven's question is come : What to Rome is most precious ? The manhood of Rome." He plunged, and the gulf closed. The tale is not new ; But the moral applies many ways, and is true. How, for hearts rent in twain, shall the curse be destroy'd .'' 'T is a warm human life that must fill up the void. ^ I ^ z-:"^:^^. ..^ i8: L UCILE. Thorough many a heart runs the rent in the fable ; But who to discover a Curtius is able ? XVII. Hack she canit- from her long- hiding-place, at the source Of the sunrise ; where, fair in their fabulous course. Kun the rivers of Eden : an exile again, To the cities of Europe — the scenes, and the men. And the life, and the ways, she had left : still op- press'd With the same hungry heart, and unpeaceable breast. The same, to the same things ! The world, she had quitted With a sigh, with a sigh she re-enter'd. Soon flitted Through the salons and clubs, to the great satis- faction Of Paris, the news of a novel attraction. The enchanting Lucile. the gay Countess, once more To her old friend, the World, had re-open'd her door ; The World came, and shook hands, and was pleased and amused With what the World then went away and abused. Kroni the woman's fair fame it in naught could detract : ■'1' was the woman's free genius it vex'd and at- tack'd With a sneer at her freedom of action and speech. r^S^-v- L UCILE. 183 But its light careless cavils, in truth, could not reach The lone heart they aim'd at. Her tears fell be- yond The world's limit, to feel that the world could re- spond To that heart's deepest, innermost yearning, in naught, "r was no longer this earth's idle inmates she sought : The wit of the woman sufficed to engage In the woman's gay court the first men of the age. Some had genius ; and all, wealth of mind to confer (^n the world : but that wealth was not lavish'd for her. For the genius of man, though so human indeed. When call'd out to man's help by some great hu- man need, The right to a man's chance acquaintance refuses To use what it hoards for mankind's nobler uses. Genius touches the world at but one point alone Of that spacious circumference, never quite known To the world : all the infinite number of lines That radiate thither a mere point combines, But one onlv, — some central affection apart From the reach of the world, in which Genius is Heart. And love, life's fine centre, includes heart and mind. And therefore it was that Lucile sigh'd to find Men of genius appear, one and all in her ken. When thev stoop'd themselves to it, as mere clever men ; i rm 184 LUCILE. Artists, statesmen, and they in whose works are unfurl'd Worlds new-fashion'd for man, as mere men of the world. And so, as alone now she stood, in the sight Of the sunset of youth, with her face from the light. And watch'd her own shadow grow long at her feet, As though stretch'd out, the shade of some other to meet, The woman felt homeless and childless : in scorn She seem'd mock'd by the voices of children unborn ; And when from these sombre reflections away She turn'd, with a sigh, to that gay world, more gay For her presence within it, she knew herself friend- less ; That her path led from peace, and that path ap- pear'd endless : That even her beauty had been but a snare. And her wit sharpen'd only the edge of despair. '^ % XVIII. With a face all transfigured and flush'd by surprise Alfred turn'd to Lucile. With those deep search- ing eyes She look'd into his own. Not a word that she sale!. Not a look, not a blush, one emotion betray'd. She seem'd to smile through him. at something beyond : When she answer'd his questions, she seem'd to respond LUCILE. 185 To some voice in herself. With no trouble descried, To each troubled inquiry she calmly replied. Not so he. At the sight of that face back again To his mind came the ghost of a long-stifled pain, A remember'd resentment, half check'd by a wild And relentful regret like a motherless child Softly seeking admittance, with plaintive appeal, To the heart which resisted its entrance. Lucile And himself thus, however, with freedom allow'd To old friends, talking still side by side, left the crowd By the crowd unobserved. Not unnoticed, however, By the Duke and Matilda. Matilda had never Seen her husband's new friend. She had follow'd by chance. Or by instinct, the sudden half-menacing glance Which the Duke, when he witness'd their meeting, had turn'd On Lucile and Lord Alfred ; and, scared, she dis- cern'd On his feature the shade of a gloom so profound That she shudder'd instinctively. Deaf to the sound Of her voice, to some startled inquiry of hers He replied not, but murmur'd, " Lucile de Nevers Once again then.> so be it !" In the mind of that man. At that moment, there shaped itself vaguely the plan Of a purpose malignant and dark, such alone «^''-.42'; Wt£^-' fe'. f ■•*.' % i8f. L UCfLE. (To his own secret heart but imperfectly shown) As could spring- from the cloudy, fierce chaos of thought By which all his nature to tumult was wrought. XIX. " So !" he thought, " they meet thus : and reweave the old charm ! And she hangs on his voice, and she leans on his arm. And she heeds me not, seeks me not, recks not of me ! Oh, what if 1 show'd her that I, too, can be Loved by one — iier own rival — more fair and more young ?" The serpent rose in him : a serpent which, stung. Sought to sting. Each unconscious, indeed, of the eye Fix'd upon them, Lucile and my lord saunter'd by. In converse which seem'd to be earnest. A smile Now and then seem'd to show where their thoughts touch'd. Meanwhile The muse of this story, convinced that they need her. To the Duke and Matilda returns, gentle Reader. XX. The Duke, with that sort of aggressive false praise Which is meant a resentful remonstrance to raise I'Vom a listener (as sometimes a judge, just before Me pulls down the black cap, very gently goes o'er LUCILE. 187 The case for the prisoner, and deals tenderly With the man he is minded to hang by and by), Had referr'd to Luoile, and then stopp'd to detect In the face of Matilda the growing effect Of the words he had dropp'd. There's no weapon that slays Its victim so surely (if well aim'd) as praise. Thus, a pause on their converse had fallen : and now Each was silent, preoccupied, thoughtful. You know There are moments when silence, prolong'd and unbroken, More expressive may be than all words ever spoken. It is when the heart has an instinct of what In the heart of another is passing. And that fn the heart of Matilda, what was it ? Whence came To her cheek on a sudden that tremulous flame ? What weighed down her head ? All your eye could discover Was the fact that Matilda was troubled. Moreover That trouble the Duke's presence seem'd to renew. She, however, broke silence, the first of the two. The Duke was too prudent to shatter the spell Of a silence which suited his purpose so well. She was plucking the leaves from a pale blush rose blossom Which had fall'n from the nosegay she wore in her bosom. ^ I i83 L UCILE. " This poor flower," she said, " seems it not out of place In this hot, lamplit air, with its fresh, fragile grace ?" She bent her head low as she spoke. With a smile The Duke watch'd her caressing the leaves all the while, And continued on his side the silence. He knew This would force his companion their talk to re- new At the point that he wish'd ; and Matilda divined The significant pause with new trouble of mind. She lifted one moment her head ; but her look Encounter'd the ardent regard of the Duke, And dropp'd back on her floweret abash'd. Then, still seeking The assurance she fancied she show"d him by speaking. She conceived herself safe in adopting again The theme she should most have avoided just then. XXI. " Duke," she said, . . . and she felt, as she spoke, her cheek burn'd, "You know, then, this . . . lady.^" " Too well !" he return'd. Matilda. True ; you drew with emotion her portrait just now. Luvois. With emotion .•• 3^\s^ L UCILE. Matilda. Yes, yes ! you described her, I know. As possess'd of a charm all unrivall'd. Luvois. Alas! You mistook me completely ! You, madam, sur- pass This lady as moonlight does lamplight ; as youth Surpasses its best imitations ; as truth The fairest of falsehoods surpasses ; as nature Surpasses art's masterpiece ; ay, as the creature Fresh and pure in its native adornment surpasses All the charms got by heart at the world's looking- glasses ! " Yet you said," — she continued with some trepida- tion, " That you quite comprehended" . . . a slight hes- itation Shook the 'sentence, ... "a passion so strong as " . . , Luvois. True, true ! But not in a man that had once look'd at you. Nor can I conceive, or excuse, or . . . " Hush, hush !" She broke in, all more fair for one innocent blush. " Between man and woman these things differ so ! It may be that the world pardons . . . (how should I know?) f- '^^ vR^iV' ^*ril3W^QR5Sfc^ Jw 190 Z UCTLE. In you what it visits on us ; or 't is trut; It may be, that we women are better than you." Luvois. Who denies it ? Yet, madam, once more you mis- take. The world, in its judgment, some dit^erence ma\- make Twixt the man and the woman, so far as respects Its social enactments ; but not as affects The one sentiment which, it were easy to prove. Is the sole law we look to the moment we love. Matilda. That may be. Yet I think I should be less severe. Although so inexperienced in such things, I fear I have learn 'd that the heart cannot always repress Or account for the feelings which sway it. " Yes ! yes ! That is too true, indeed !" . . . the Duke sigh'd. And again For one moment in silence continued the twain. XXII. .At length the Duke slowly, as though he had needed .\11 this time to repress his emotions, proceeded : •' ,A.nd yet ! . . . what avails, then, to woman the gift V){ a beauty like yours, if it cannot uplift Her heart from the reach of one doubt, one despair. One pang of wrong'd love, to which women less fair Are exposed, when they love?" \ ^^ L UCILE. 191 With a quick change of tone, As though by resentment iinpell'd, he went on : — ' The name that you bear, it is whisper'd, you took From love, not convention. Well, lady, . . . that look So excited, so keen, on the face you must know Throughout all its expressions, — that rapturous glow— Those eloquent features — significant eyes — Which that pale woman sees, yet betrays no sur- prise," (He pointed his hand, as he spoke, to the door. Fixing with it Lucile and Lord Alfred) . . . "before. Have you ever once seen what just now you may \iew In that face so familiar ? . . . no, lady, 't is new. Young, lovely, and loving, no doubt, as you are. Are you loved ?" XXIII. He look'd at her — paused — felt if thus far The ground held yet. The ardor with which he had spoken, This close, rapid question, thus suddenly broken. Inspired in Matilda a vague sense of fear. As though some indefinite danger were near. With composure, however, at once she replied : — " 'T is three years since the day when I first was a bride. And my husband I never had cause to suspect ; Nor ever have stoop'd, sir, such cause to detect. Yet if in his looks or his acts I should see — F ig2 LUCILE. See, or fancy — some moment's oblivion of me, I trust that I too should forget it, — for you Must have seen that my heart is my husband's." The hue On her cheek, with the effort wherewith to the Duke She had uttered this vague and half-frighten 'd re- buke. Was white as the rose in her hand. The last word Seem'd to die or*' her lip, and could scarcely be heard. There was silence again. A great step had been made By the Duke in the words he that evening had said. There, half drown'd by the music, Matilda, that night. Had listen'd, — long listen'd — no doubt, in despite Of herself, to a voice she should never have heard. And her heart by that voice had been troubled and stirr'd. And so, having suffer'd in silence his eye To fathom her own, he resumed, with a sigh : XXIV. •' Will you suffer me, lady, your thoughts to invade By disclosing my own ? The position," he said, " In which we so strangely seem placed may excuse The frankness and force of the words which I use. You say that your heart is your husband's : you say That you love him. You think so, of course, lady . . . nay. Such a love, I admit, were a merit, no doubt. il i /sSSTi^ ^^^^ L UCILE. 193 But, trust me, no true love there can be without Its dread penalty — jealousy. " Well, do not start ! Until now — either thanks to a singular art Of supreme self-control, you have held them all down Unreveal'd in your heart, — or you never have known Even one of those fierce irresistible pangs Which deep passion engenders ,' that anguish which hangs On the heart like a nightmare, by jealousy bred. But if, lady, the love you describe, in the bed Of a blissful security thus hath reposed Undisturb'd with mild eyelids on happiness closed. Were it not to expose to a peril unjust. And most cruel, that happy repose you so trust. To meet, to receive, and, indeed, it may be. For how long I know not, continue to see A woman whose place rivals yours in the life And the heart which not only your title of wife, But also (forgive me !) your beauty alone. Should have made wholly yours ?— You, who gave all your own ! Reflect ! — 't is the peace of existence you stake On the turn of a die. And for whose — for his sake ? While you witness this woman, the false point of view From which she must now be regarded by you Will exaggerate to you, whatever they be. The charms I admit she possesses. To me They are trivial indeed ; yet to your eyes, I fear ^'^i^&...y^:«i»^- :^v. 1 94 LUCILE. And foresee, they will true and intrinsic appear. Self-unconscious, and sweetly unable to guess How more lovely by far is the grace you possess. You will wrong your own beauty. The graces ot art. You will take for the natural charm of the heart ; Studied manners, the brilliant and bold repartee. Will too soon in that fatal comparison be To your fancy more fair than the sweet timid sense Which, in shrinking, betrays its own best eloquence. then, lady, then, you will feel in your heart The poisonous pain of a fierce jealous dart ! While you see her, yourself you no longer will see, — You will hear her, and hear not yourself, — you will be Unhappy ; unhappy, because you will deem Your own power less great than her power will seem. And I shall not be by your side, day by day. In despite of your noble displeasure, to say • You are fairer than she, as the star is more fair Than the diamond, the brightest that beauty can wear ! ' " XXV. This appeal, both by looks and by language, in- creased The trouble Matilda felt grow in her breast. Still she spoke with what calmness she could — " Sir, the while 1 thank you," she said, with a faint scornful smile. " For your fervor in painting my fancied distress : Allow me the right some surprise to express I •iir.' Z UCILE. 195 At the zeal you betray in disclosing to me The possible depth of my own misery." " That zeal would not startle you, madam," he said, '• Could you read in my heart, as myself I have read, The peculiar interest which causes that zeal — " Matilda her terror no more could conceal. " Duke," she answer'd in accents short, cold, and severe, As she rose from her seat, " I continue to hear; But permit me to say, I no more understand." •' Forgive !" with a nervous appeal of the hand. And a well-feign'd confusion of voice and of look, " Forgive, oh, forgive me !" at once cried the Duke. " I forgot that you know me so slightly. Your leave I entreat (from your anger those words to retrieve) For one moment to speak of myself, — for I think That you wrong me — " His voice, as in pain, seem'd to sink; And tears in his eyes, as he lifted them, glisten'd. XXVI. Matilda, despite of herself, sat and listen 'd. XXVII. " Beneath an exterior which seems, and may be. Worldly, frivolous, careless, my heart hides in me," He continued, " a sorrow which draws me to side With all things that suffer. Nay, laugh not," he cried, " At so strange an avowal. t? iq6 L UCILE. fS-Jv " I seek at a ball, For instance, — the beauty admired by all ? No ! some plain, insignificant creature, who sits Scorn 'd of course bv the beauties, and shunn'd by the wits. All the world is accustom 'd to wound, or neglect. Or oppress, claims my heart and commands my respect. No Quixote, I do not affect to belong, I admit, to those charter'd redressers of wrong ; But I seek to console, where I can. 'T is a part Not brilliant, I own, yet its joys bring no smart." These trite words, from the tone which he gave them, received An appearance of truth, which might well be be- lieved By a heart shrewder yet than Matilda's. And so He continued . . . " O lady I alas, could you know What injustice and wrong in this world I have seen ! How many a woman, believed to have been Without a regret, I have known turn aside To burst into heartbroken tears undescribed ! On how many a lip have I witnessed the smile Which but hid what was breaking the poor heart the while !" Said Matilda, "Your life, it would seem, then, must be One long act of devotion." " Perhaps so," said he ; " But at least that devotion small merit can boast. ^ '* JlfffF^ i^vr^ .fisiss!^ LUCILE. 197 if ^;;^ day at the how For one clay may yet come, most, — When, perceiving at last all the difference great ! — Twixt the heart that neglects, and the heart that can wait, 'Twixt the natures that pity, the natures that pain. Some woman, that else might havepass'd in disdain Or indifference by me,— in passing that day Might pause with a word or a smile to repay This devotion, — and then "... XXVIII. To Matilda's relief At that moment her husband approach'd. With some grief I must own that her welcome, perchance, was ex- press'd The more eagerly just for one twinge in her breast Of a conscience disturb'd, and her smile not less warm. Though she saw the Comtesse de Nevers on his arm. The Duke turn'd and adjusted his collar. Thought he ■' Good ! the gods fight my battle to-night. I foresee That the family doctor 's the part I must play. Very well ! but the patients my visits shall pay." Lord Alfred presented Lucile to his wife ; And Matilda, repressing with effort the strife Of emotions which made her voice shake, murmur'd low 19^ L UCILE. %., Some faint, troubled greeting. The Duke, with a bow Which betoken'd a distant defiance, replied To Lucile's startled cry, as surprised she descried Her former gay wooer. Anon, with the grace Of that kindness which seeks to win kindness, her place , She assumed by Matilda, unconscious, perchance, Or resolved not to notice, the half-frighten'd glance That foUow'd that movement. The Duke to his feet Arose ; and, in silence, relinquish'd his seat. One must own that the moment was awkward for all: But nevertheless, before long, the strange thrall Of Lucile's gracious tact was by every one felt. And from each the reserve seem'd, reluctant, to melt : Thus, conversing together, the whole of the four Thro' the crowd saunter'd. smiling. XXIX. Approaching the door, Eugene de Luvois, who had fallen behind. By Lucile, after some hesitation, was join'd With a gesture of gentle and kindly appeal Which appear'd to imply, without words, "Let us feel That the friendship between us in years that are tied. Has survived one mad moment forgotten," she said, " You remain. Duke, at Ems ?" He turn'd on her a look "And still watching Matilda, she answered, 'I too.' "—Page 199. Z UCILE. 199 Of frigid, resentful, and sullen rebuke ; And then, with a more than significant glance At Matilda, maliciously answer'd. " Perchance I have here an attraction. And you ?" he return'd. Lucile's eyes had foUow'd his own, and discern 'd The boast they implied. He repeated, " And you.-*" And, still watching Matilda, she answer'd, " I too." And he thought, as with that word she left him, she sigh'd. The next moment her place she resumed by the side Of Matilda ; and soon they shook hands at the gate Of the selfsame hotel. XXX. One depress'd, one elate, The Duke and Lord Alfred again, thro' the glooms Of the thick linden alley, return'd to the Rooms. His cigar each had lighted, a moment before, At the inn, as they turn'd, arm-in-arm, from the door. Ems cigars do not cheer a man's spirits, expcrto ( Me intserum quoties f) crede Roberto. In silence, awhile, they walk'd onward. At last The Duke's thoughts to language half consciously pass'd. Luvois. ( )nce more I yet once more ! Alfred. What } %k 200 LUCILE. LuvoiS. We meet her, once more, The woman for whom we two madmen of yore (Laugh, mon cher Alfred, laugh !) were about to destroy Each other ! Alfred. It IS not with laughter that I Raise the ghost of that once troubled time. Say ! can you Recall it with coolness and quietude now ? LuvoiS. Now .' yes ! I, mon cher, am a true Parisien : Now the red revolution, the tocsin, and then The dance and the play. I am now at the play. Alfred. At the play, are you now } Then perchance I now may Presume, Duke, to ask you what, ever until Such a moment I waited . . . LuvoiS. Oh ! ask what you will. Franc Jen! on the table my cards I spread out. Ask! Alfred. Duke, you were call'd to a meeting (no doubt You remember it yet) with Lucile. It was night When you went ; and before you return 'd it was light. iimi^^'' w >/- t t. n 3^ '"^Q^ L UCILE. 201 We met : you accosted me then with a brow Bright with triumph : your words (you remember them now?) Were " Let us be friends !" Luvois. Well? Alfred. How then, after that Can you and she meet as acquaintances ? Luvois. What! Did she not then, herself, the Comtesse de Nevers, Solve your riddle to-night with those soft lips of hers? Alfred. In our converse to-night we avoided the past. But the question I ask should be answer'd at last : By you, if you will ; if you will not, by her. Luvois. Indeed ? but that question, milord, can it stir Such an interest in you, if your passion be o'er ? Alfred. Yes. Esteem may remain, although love be no more. Lucile ask'd me, this night, to my wife (understand To my zvife !) to present her. I did so. Her hand Has clasp'd that of Matilda. We gentlemen owe Respect to the name that is ours : and, if so, To the woman that bears it a twofold respect. ^ -^1^ L UCILE. m^MT Answer, Due de Luvois ! Did Lucile then reject The proffer you made of your hand and your name ? Or (lid you on her love then relinquish a claim Urged before ? I ask bluntly this question, because My title to do so is clear by the laws That all gentlemen honor. Make only one sign That you know of Lucile de Nevers aught, in fine. For which, if your own virgin sister were by, From Lucile you would shield her acquaintance, and I And Matilda leave Ems on the morrow. XXXI. The Duke Hesitated and paused. He could tell, by the look Of the man at his side, that he meant what he said, And there flash 'd in a moment these thoughts through his head : " Leave Ems ! would that suit me ? no ! that were again To mar all. And besides, if I do not explain. She herself will . . . ei puis, il a raison ; oti est GentilJwinme avatit tout !" He replied therefore, " Nay ! Madame de Nevers had rejected me. I. In those days, I was mad ; and in some mad reply I threatened the life of the rival to whom That rejection was due, I was led to presume. She fear'd for his life ; and the letter which then She wrote me, I show'd you ; we met : and again My hand was refused, and my love was denied. ,^ 1^ L UCILE. 203 And the glance vou mistook was the vizard which Pride Lends to Humiliation. " And so," half in jest, He went on, " in this best world, 't is all for the best ; You are wedded (bless 'd Englishman !), wedded to one Whose past can be call'd into question by none : And I (fickle Frenchman !) can still laugh to feel I am lord of myself, and the Mode : and Lucile Still shines from her pedestal, frigid and fair As yon (^erman moon o'er the linden-tops there ! A Dian in marble that scorns any troth With the little love-gods, whom I thank for us both. While she smiles from her lonely Olympus apart. That her arrows are marble as well as her heart. Stay at Ems, Alfred Vargrave !" xxxii. The Duke, with a smile, Turn'd and enter'd the Rooms which, thus talking, meanwhile, Thev had reach'd. XXXIII. Alfred \^argrave strode on (overthrown Heart and mind!) in the darkness bewilder'd, alone : " And so," to himself did he mutter, " and so 'T was to rescue my life, gentle spirit ! and, oh. For this did I doubt her? ... a light word — a look — ^ Jf , % 204 L UCILE. The mistake of a moment I . . . for this I for- sook — For this ? Pardon, pardon, Lucile ! O Lucile !" Thought and memory rang, like a funeral peal, Weary changes on one dirge-like note through his brain, As he stray'd down the darkness. XXXIV. Re-entering again The Casino, the Duke smiled. He turn'd to rou- lette. And sat down, and play'd fast, and lost largely, and yet He still smiled : night deepen'd : he play'd his last number: Went home : and soon slept : and still smiled m his slumber. XXXV. In his desolate Maxims, La Rochefoucauld wrote, •■ In the grief or mischance of a friend you may note. There is something which always gives pleasure." Alas ! That reflection fell short of the truth as it was. La Rochefoucauld might have as truly set down — " No misfortune, but what some one turns to his own Advantage its mischief : no sorrow, but of it There ever is somebody ready to profit : No affliction without its stock-jobbers, who all (iamble, speculate, play on the rise and the fall s h h' - mon. Seem so shrewdlv familiar. " Neglect not this warning. There were rumors afloat in the Citv this morning /#'-'flSftaBi? .^ LUCILE. 213 Which I scarce like the sound of. Who knows ? would he fleece At a pinch, the old hypocrite, even his own niece ? For the sake of Matilda I cannot importune Your attention too early. If all your wife's fortune Is yet in the hands of that specious old sinner, Who would dice with the devil, and yet rise up winner, 1 say, lose no time ! get it out of the grab Of her trustee and uncle, Sir Ridley MacNab. 1 trust those deposits, at least, are drawn out, And safe at this moment from danger or doubt. A wink is as good as a nod to the wise. Verbum sap. I admit nothing yet justifies My mistrust ; but I have in my own mind a notion That old Ridley's white waistcoat, and airs of devo- tion. Have long been the only ostensible capital On which he does business. If so, time must sap it all. Sooner or later. Look sharp. Do not wait, Draw at once. In a fortnight it may be too late. I admit I know nothing. I can but suspect ; I give you my notions. Form yours and reflect. My love to Matilda. Her mother looks well. I saw her last week. I have nothing to tell Worth your hearing. We think that the Govern- ment here Will not last our next session. Fitz Funk is a peer, You will see by the Times. There are symptoms which show 214 L UCILE. That the ministers now are preparing to go. And finish their feast of the loaves and the tishes. It is evident that they are clearing the dishes, And cramming their pockets with bonbons. Your news Will be always acceptable. Vere, of the Blues. Has bolted with Lady Selina. And so, You have met with that hot-headed Frenchman "1 I know That the man is a sad mairvais snjet. Take care Of Matilda. I wish I could join you both there ; But, before I am free, you are sure to be gone. Good-by, mv dear fellow. Yours, anxiously, "John." II. This is just the advice I myself would have gi\en To Lord Alfred, had I been his cousin, which. Heaven Be praised, 1 am not. But it reach'd him indeed In an unlucky hour, and received little heed. A half-languid glance was the most that he lent at That time to these homilies. Pri/niau dcmcntat Qucm Dens inilt pcrdere. Alfred in fact Was behaving just then in a way to distract Job's self had Job known him. The more you 'd have thought The Duke's court to Matilda his eye would have caught. The more did his aspect grow listless to hers, And the more did it beam to Lucile de Nevers. And Matilda, the less she found lo\r in the look ■^ ^ ^ /<^Sr^a»» *':^- LUCILE. 215 Of her husband, the less did she shrink from the Duke. With each day that pass'd o'er them, they each, heart from heart, Woke to feel themselves further and further apart. More and more of his time Alfred pass'd at the table ; Played high ; and lost more than to lose he was able. He o-rew feverish, querulous, absent, perverse, — And here I must mention, what made matters worse. That Lucile and the Duke at the selfsame hotel With the Vargraves resided. It needs not to tell That they all saw too much of each other. The weather Was so fine that it brought them each day all to- gether In the garden, to listen, of course, to the band. The house was a sort of phalanster>- ; and Lucile and Matilda were pleased to discover A mutual passion for music. Moreover The Duke was an excellent tenor : could sing " Ange si pure " in a way to bring down on the wing All the angels St. Cicely play'd to. My lord Would also at times, when he was not too bored. Play Beethoven, and Wagner's new music, not ill ; With some little things of his own, showing skill. For which reason, as well as for some others too. Their rooms were a pleasant enough rendezvous. 2l6 Z UCILE. Did Lucile. then, encourage (the heartless cociuctte I) All the mischief she could not but mark ? Patience yet I III. In that garden, an arbor, withdrawn from the sun. By laburnum and lilac with blooms overrun, P'orm'd a vault of cool verdure, which made, when the heat Of the noontide hung heavy, a gracious retreat. And here, with some friends of their own little world, In the warm afternoons, till the shadows uncurl'd From the feet of the lindens, and crept through tht- grass, Their blue hours would this gay little colony pass. The men loved to smoke, and the women to bring. Undeterr'd by tobacco, their work there and sing Or converse, till the dew fell, and homeward the bee Floated, heavy with honey. Towards rve there was tea (A luxury due to Matilda), and ice. Fruit, and coffee. 'i2 "EffTrepe, -av-a cptpFic ! Such an evening it was, while Matilda presided O'er the rustic arrangements thus daily provided. With the Duke, and a small Cierman Prince with a thick head. And an old Russian Countess both witty and wicked, And two Austrian Colonels, — that Alfred, who yet Was lounging alone with his last cigarette. w L UCILE. 217 Saw Lucile de Nevers by herself pacing slow Neath the shade of the cool linden-trees to and fro. And joining her, cried. " Thank the good stars, we meet ! I have so much to say to you !" " Yes ? . . ." with her sweet Serene voice, she replied to him ..." Yes ? and 1 too Was wishing, indeed, to say somewhat to you." She was paler just then than her wont was. The sound Of her voice had within it a sadness profound. " You are ill?" he exclaim"d. " No !" she hurriedly said, " No, no !" " You alarm me !" She droop'd down her head. " If your thoughts have of late sought, or cared, to divine The purpose of what has been passing in mine, My farewell can scarcely alarm you." Alfred. Your farewell ! you go ! Lucile ! Lucile. Yes, Lord Alfred Alfred. The cause of this sudden unkindness. Reveal ^a«-. .^SS!\i-. { 218 LUCILE. LUCILE. Unkind ? Alfred. Yes ! what else is this parting ? LUCILE. No, no ! are you blind ? Look into your own heart and home. Can you see No reason for this, save un kindness in me ? Look into the eyes of your wife — those true eyes Too pure and too honest in aught to disguise The sweet soul shining through them. Alfred. Lucile ! (first and last Be the word, if you will !) let me speak of the past. I know now, alas I though I know it too late, What pass'd at that meeting which settled my fate. Nay, nay, interrupt me not yet ! let it be I I but say what is due to yourself — due to me, .And must say it. He rush'd incoherently on. Describing how, lately, the truth he had known. To explain how, and whence, he had wrong'd her before. All the complicate coil wound about him of vore. All the hopes that had fiown with the faith that was fled, " And then, O Lucile, what was left me." he said, " When my life was defrauded of you, but to take That life, as 't was left, and endeavor to make 1^ iife L UCILE. Mg Unobserved by another, the void which remain'd Unconceal'd to myself ? If I have not attain'd, I have striven. One word of unkindness has never Pass'd my Hps to Matilda. Her least wish has ever Received my submission. And if. of a truth, I have fail'd to renew what I felt in my youth, I at least have been loyal to what I do feel, Respect, duty, honor, affection. Lucile, I speak not of love now, nor love's long regret : I would not offend you, nor dare I forget The ties that are round me. But may there not be A friendship yet hallow'd between you and me ? May we not be yet friends— friends the dearest ?" " Alas !" She replied, " for one moment, perchance, did it pass Through my own heart, that dream which forever hath brought To those who indulge it in innocent thought So fatal and evil a waking ! But no. For in lives such as ours are, the Dream-tree would grow (Jn the borders of Hades : beyond it, what lies ? The wheel of Ixion, alas ! and the cries Of the lost and tormented. Departed, for us, Are the days when with innocence we could dis- cuss Dreams like these. Fled, indeed, are the dreams of ;;// life ! Oh trust me, the best friend you have is your wife. i^ ■^Fs: L UCILE. ^'■^^}^Ml And I — in that pure childs pure virtue, I bow- To the beauty of virtue. I felt on my brow Not one blush when I first took her hand. With no blush Shall I clasp it to-night, when I leave you. " Hush ! hush 1 I would say what I wish'd to have said when you came. Do not think that years leave us and find us the same ! The woman you knew long ago, long ago, Is no more. You yourself have within you, I know, The germ of a joy in the years yet to be, \Vhereb\ the past years will bear fruit. .\s for me, I go my own way, — onward, upward I •' O yet. Let me thank you for that which ennobled regret. When it came, as it beautified hope ere it tied, — The love I once felt for you. True, it is dead, But it is not corrupted. I too have at last Lived to learn that love is not — (such love as is past. Such love as youth dreams of at least) — the sole part Of life, which is able to fill up the heart ; Even that of a woman. " Between you and me Heaven fi.xes a gulf, over which you must see That our guardian angels can bear us no more. ; L UCILE. We each of us stand on an opposite shore. Trust a woman's opinion for once. Women learn By an instinct men never attain, to discern Each other's true natures. Matilda is fair, Matilda is young— see her now. sitting there !— How tenderly fashion'd— (oh, is she not ? say. To love and be loved !" He turn'd sharply away— " Matilda is young, and Matilda is fair ; Of all that you tell me pray deem me aware ; But Matilda 's a statue, Matilda 's a child ; Matilda loves not — " Lucile quietly smiled As she answered him :— " Yesterday, all that you say Might be true; it is false, wholly false, though. to-day." " How ? — what mean you ?" " I mean that to-day." she replied, " The statue with life has become vivified : I mean that the child to a woman has grown : And that woman is jealous." " What ! she ?" with a tone Of ironical wonder, he answer'd— " what, she 1 She jealous ! — Matilda ! — of whom, pray ? — not me !" " My lord, you deceive yourself ; no one but you Is she jealous of. Trust me. And thank Heaven, too, nt^- ^:--s:;^ii«.v '•*^^*'^ 222 LUCILE. That so lately this passion within her hath grown. For who shall declare, if for months she had known What for days she has known all too keenly, I fear, That knowledge perchance might have cost vou more dear?" " Explain ! explain, madam !" he cried in sur- prise ; And terror and anger enkindled his eyes. " How blind are you men !" she replied. " Can you doubt That a woman, young, fair, and neglected — " " Speak out !" He gasp'd with emotion. " Lucile ! you mean — what? Do you doubt her fidelity ?" " Certainly not. Listen to me, my friend. What I wish to explain Is so hard to shape forth. I could almost refrain From touching a subject so fragile. However, Bear with me awhile, if I frankly endeavor To invade for one moment your innermost life. Your honor, Lord Alfred, and that of your wife, Are dear to me, — most dear ! And I am con- vinced That you rashly are risking that honor." He winced, And turn"d jiale, as she spoke. She had aim'd at his heart, And she saw, by his sudden and terrified start, That her aim had not miss"d. ■' // ^^ L UCILE. 223 " Stay, Lucile !" he exclaim'd, " What in truth do you mean by these words, vaguely framed To alarm me ? Matilda ? — my wife ? — do you know ?" — •' I know that your wife is as spotless as snow. But I know not how far your continued neglect Her nature, as well as her heart, might affect. Till at last, by degrees, that serene atmosphere Of her unconscious purity, faint and yet clear, Like the indistinct golden and vaporous fleece Which surrounded and hid the celestials in Greece From the glances of men, would disperse and de- part At the sighs of a sick and delirious heart, — For jealousy is to a woman, be sure, A disease heal'd too oft by a criminal cure ; And the heart left too long to its ravage, in time May find weakness in virtue, reprisal in crime." " Such thoughts could have never," he falter'd, " I know, Reach'd the heart of Matilda." " Matilda? oh no ! But reflect ! when such thoughts do not come of themselves To the heart of a woman neglected, like elves That seek lonely places, — there rarely is want- ing Some voice at her side, with an evil enchanting To conjure them to her." ;^S*w^^•,• i>rr**J&»o.-. Vl-CSb-'s^flul^ 224 LUCILE. " O lady, beware I At this moment, around me I search everywhere For a clew to your words " — " You mistake them," she said. Half fearing, indeed, the effect they had made. " I was putting a mere hypothetical case." With a long look of trouble he gazed in her face. "Woe to him, . . ." he exclaim'd . . . "woe to him that shall feel Such a hope ! for I swear, if he did but reveal (^ne glimpse, — it should be the last hope of his life!" The clench'd hand and bent eyebrow betoken'd the strife She had roused in his heart. "You forget," she began, " That you menace yourself. You yourself are the man That is guilty. Alas ! must it ever be so.' Do we stand in our own light, wherever we go, And fight our own shadows forever? O think I The trial from which you, the stronger ones, shrink. You ask woman, the weaker one, still to endure ; You bid her be true to the laws you abjure ; To abide by the ties you yourselves rend asunder. With the force that has fail'd you ; and thai too, when under The assumption of rights which to her you refuse. The immunity claim 'd for yourselves you abuse I ^ ^ Z UCILE. 225 Where the contract exists, it invoh'es obhgation To both husband and wife, in an equal relation. You unloose, in asserting your own liberty, A knot, which, unloosed, leaves another as free. Then, O Alfred ! be juster at heart : and thank Heaven That Heaven to your wife such a nature has given That you have not wherewith to reproach her, albeit You have cause to reproach your own self, could you see it !" VI. In the silence which foUow'd the last word she said. In the heave of his chest, and the droop of his head. Poor Lucile mark'd her words had sufficed to im- part A new germ of motion and life to that heart Of which he himself had so recently spoken As dead to emotion — exhausted, or broken ! New fears would awaken new hopes in his life. In the husband indifferent no more to the wife She already, as she had foreseen, could discover That Matilda had gam'd, at her hands, a new lover. So after some moments of silence, whose spell They both felt, she extended her hand to him. . . . VII. Well: 226 LUCILE. " Lucile," he replied, as that soft quiet hand In his own he clasp'd warmly, " T both under- stand And obey you." •' Thank Heaven !'" she inurinur'd. •• O yet. One word, I beseech you ! I cannot forget," He exclaim 'd, " we are parting for life. You have shown My pathway to me : but say. what is \our own }" The calmness with which until then she had spoken In a moment seem'd strangely and suddenly broken. She turn'd from him nervously, hurriedly. "Nay, 1 know not," she murmur'd, " I follow the way Heaven leads me ; I cannot foresee to what end. I know only that far, far away it must tend From all places in which we have met. or might meet. Far away ! — onward — upward I" A smile strange and sweet As the incense that rises from some sacred cup And mi.xes with music, stole forth, and breathed up Her whole face, with those words. " Wheresoever it be, May all gentlest angels attend you !" sigh'd he, " And bear my heart's blessing wherever you are !" And her hand, with emotion, he kiss'd. w "You have shown My pathway to me : but say, what is your own ?"— I'age 226. "J?- . fc/.^ L UCILE. 227 From afar That kiss was, alas ! by Matilda beheld With far other emotions : her young bosom swell 'd, And her young cheek with anger was crimson'd. The Duke Adroitly attracted towards it her look By a faint but significant smile. X. Much ill-construed, Renown'd Bisho]) Berkeley has fully, for one. strew'd With arguments page upon page to teach folks That the world they inhabit is only a hoax. But it surely is hard, since we can't do without them, That our senses should make us so oft wish to doubt them ! ca:;to hi. I. When first the red savage calFd Man strode, a king. Through the wilds of creation— the very first thmg That his naked intelligence taught him to feel Was the shame of himself ; and the wish to con- ceal Was the first step in art. From the apron which Eve \^^ i 228 LUC I I.E. In Eden sat down out of hg-leaves to weave, To the furbelow'd flounce and the broad crinoline Of niv ladv . . . you all know of course wht)m I mean . . . 'I'his art of conceahnent has greatly increas'd. A whole world lies cryptic in each human breast ; And that drama of passions as old as the hills, Which the moral of all men in each man fulfils, Is only reveal'd now and then to our eyes In the newspaper-files and the courts of assize. In the group seen so lately in sunlight assembled, 'Mid those walks over which the laburnum-bough trembled. And the deep-bosom'd lilac, emparadising The haunts where the blackbird and thrush flit and sing. The keenest eye could but have seen, and seen only. A circle of friends, minded not to leave lonely The bird on the bough, or the bee on the blossom ; Conversing at ease in the garden's green bosom, Like those who, when Florence was yet in her glories. Cheated death and kill'd time with Boccaccian stories. But at length the long twilight lUore deeply grew shaded, And the fair night the rosy horizon invaded. And the bee in the blossom, the bird on the bough, M'. L UCILE. 229 Through the sliadowy garden were slumbering now. The trees only, o'er every unvisited walk. Began on a sudden to whisper and talk, And, as each little sprightly and garrulous leaf Woke up with an evident sense of relief, They all seem'd to be saying . . . "Once more we're alone, And, thank Heaven, those tiresome people are gone !" HI. Through the deep blue concave of the luminous air, Large, loving, and languid, the stars here and there. Like the eyes of shy passionate women, look'd down O'er the dim world whose sole tender light was their own. When Matilda, alone, from her chamber descended, Andenter'd the garden, unseen, unattended. Her forehead was aching and parch'd. and her breast By a vague inexpressible sadness oppress'd : A sadness which led her, she scarcely knew how, And she scarcely knew why . . . (save, indeed, that just now The house, out of which with a gasp she had tied Half-stifled, seem'd ready to sink on her head) . . . Out into the night air, the silence, the bright Boundless starlight, the cool isolation of night ! Her husband that day had look'd once in her face. And press'd both her hands in a silent embrace. 230 LUCILE. And repronchfuUx noticed her recent dejection \Vitii a smile of kind wonder and tacit affection. He, of late so indifferent and listless I ... at last Was he startled and awed by the change which had pass'd O'er the once radiant face of his vountc wife.^ Whence came 'J'hat long look of solicitous fondness "■:... the same Look and language of quiet affection — the look And the language, alas ! which so often she took For pure love in the simple repose of its purity — Her own heart thus lull'd to a fatal security ! Ha ! would he deceive her again by this kindness } Had she been. then. O fool ! in her innocent blind- ness The sport of transparent illusion.? ah folly ! And that feeling, so tranquil, so happy, so holy. She had taken, till then, in the heart, not alone Of her husband, but also, indeed, in her own. For true love, nothing else, after all, did it jirove Hut a friendship profanely familiar r '■ And love 't . . . What was love, then } . . . not calm, not secure- scarcely kind ! l)Ut in one, all intensest emotions combined : l.ife and death : pain and rapture." Thus wandering astray. Led by doubt, through the darkness she wander'd away. All silently crossing, recrossing the night, I * •• :' -Si t \ LUCILE. 231 ^^iar^i; With faim, ineleoric, miraculous light. The swift-shootiiig stars through the infinite burn'd. And into the infinite ever return 'd. And silently o'er the obscure and unknown In the heart of Matilda there darted and shone Thoughts, enkindling like meteors the deeps, to expire, Leaving traces behind them of tremulous fire. IV. She enter'd that arbor of lilacs, in which The dark air with odors hung heavy and rich, Like a soul that grows faint with desire. T was the place In which she so lately had sat. face to face With her husband, — and her. the pale stranger detested. Whose presence her heart like a plague had infested. The whole spot with evil remembrance was haunted. Through the darkness there rose on the heart which it daunted Each drean,' detail of that desolate day. So full, and yet so incomplete. Far away The acacias were muttering, like mischievous elves, The whole story over again to themselves. Each word,— and each word was a wound ! By degrees Her memorv mingled its voice with the trees. Like the whisper Eve heard, when she paused by the root I 232 L UCILE. Of the sad tree of knowledge, and gazed on its fruit, To the heart of Matilda the trees seem'd to hiss Wild instructions, revealing man's last right. which is The right of reprisals. An image uncertain, And vague, dimly shaped itself forth on the curtain Of the darkness around her. It came, and it went ; Through her senses a faint sense of peril it sent : It pass'd and repass'd her ; it went and it came Forever returning ; forever the same ; And forever more clearly defined ; till her eyes In that outline obscure could at last recognize The man to whose image, the more and the more That her heart, now aroused from its calm sleep of yore, From her husband detach'd itself slowly, with pain. Her thoughts had return'd, and return'd to. again. As though by some secret indefinite law, — The vigilant Frenchman — Eugene de Luvois I VI. A light sound behind her. She trembled. By some Night-witchcraft her vision a fact had become. On a sudden she felt, without turning to view. That a man was approaching behind her. She knew By the fiuttering pulse which she could not restrain. And the quick-beating heart, that this man was Eugene. I>'l 1^- '1^ L UCILE. 233 Her first instinct was flight ; but she felt her slight foot As heavy as though to the soil it had root. And the Duke's voice retain'd her, like fear in a dream. VII. " Ah, lady ! in life there are meetings which seem Like a fate. Dare I think like a sympathy too } Yet what else can I bless for this vision of you } Alone with my thoughts, on this starlighted lawn, By an instinct resistless, I felt myself drawn To revisit the memories left in the place Where so lately this evening I look'd in your face. And I find, — you, yourself — my own dream ! " Can there be In this world one thought common to you and to me.' If so, . . . I,who deem'd but a moment ago My heart uncompanion'd, save only by woe, .Should indeed be more bless'd than I dare to believe — — Ah, but ime word, but one from your lips to receive "... Interrupting him quickly, she murmur'd, " I sought. Here, a moment of solitude, silence, and thought. Which I needed." . . . " Lives solitude only for one } Must its charm by my presence so soon be undone .' Ah, cannot two share it .' What needs it for this.'— I 234 LUCILE. The same thoug-ht in both hearts, — be it sorrow or bliss ; If my heart be the refiex of yours, lady — you, Are you not yet alone, — even though we be two ?" " For that,'" . . . said Matilda, ..." needs were, you should read What I have in mv heart " . . " Think you, lady, indeed, You are yet of that age when a woman conceals In her heart so completely whatever she feels From the heart of the man whom it interests to know And find out what that feeling may be ? Ah, not so. Lady Alfred ! Forgive me that in it I look. But I read in your heart as I read in a book." " Well, Duke ! and what read you within it ? unless It be, of a truth, a profound weariness. And some sadness ?" " No doubt. To all facts there are laws. The effect has its cause, and I mount to the cause." \' 1 11 . Matilda shrank back ; for she suddenly found That a finger was press'd on the yet bleeding wound She, herself, had but that day perceived in her breast. "You are sad," . . . said the Duke (and that tinger yet press'd With a cruel persistence the wound it made bleed) — • You are sad, Lad\- Alfred, because the first need < \ ^ Z UCILE. 235 Of a ) oun^^ and a beautiful woman is to be Beloved, and to love. You are sad : for you see That you are not beloved, as you deem'd that you were : You are sad : for that knowledge hath left you aware That you have not yet loved, though )0U thought that you had. Yes, yes ! . '. . you are sad— because knowledge is sad !" He could not have read more profoundly her heart. " What gave you," she cried, with a terrified start, •' Such strange power ?' . . . •• To read in your thoughts ?" he exclaim'd. " O lady,— a love, deep, profound— be it blamed Or rejected,— a love, true, intense— such, at least. As you, and > ou only, could wake in my breast !" " Hush, hush ! . . . 1 beseech you . . . for pity 1" she gasp'd. Snatching hurriedly from him the hand he had clasp'd In her effort instinctive to tly from the spot. •'For pity?" ... he echoed, "for pity! and what Is the pity you owe him ? his pity for you ! He, the lord of a life, fresh as new-fallen dew ! The guardian and guide of a woman, young, fair, And matchless ! (whose happiness did he not swear To cherish through life?) he neglects her — for whom ? r \ II 236 L UCILE. For a fairer than she ? No ! the rose in the bloom Of that beauty which, even when hidd'n, can prevail To keep sleepless with song the aroused nightin- gale, Is not fairer ; for even in the pure world of tiowers Her symbol is not, and this poor world of ours Has no second Matilda ! For whom ? Let that pass ! 'T is not I, 't is not you, that can name her, alas I And / dare not question or judge her. But why. Why cherish the cause of your own misery ? Why think of one, lady, who thinks not of you ? Why be bound by a chain which himself he breaks through ? And why, since you have but to stretch forth your hand. The love which you need and deserve to command. Why shrink ? Why repel it ?" " O hush, sir ! O hush !" Cried Matilda, as though her whole heart were one blush. " Cease, cease, I conjure you, to trouble my life I Is not Alfred your friend ? and am I not his wife .^" IX. " And have I not, lady," he answer'd, ..." respected His rights as a friend, till himself he neglected Your rights as a wife .' Do you think 't is alone For three days I have loved you .'' My lo\e may have grown, I admit, day by day, since I first felt your eyes. In watching their tears, and in sounding your sighs. i% .^S^!^ ^ L UCILE. 237 Til r.ut. O lad\- ! I loved you before I believed That your eyes ever wept, or your heart ever grieved. Then I deem'd you were happy — I deem'd you possess'd All the love you deserved,— and I hid in my breast My own love, till this hour— when I could not but feel Your grief gave me the right my own grief to re- veal ! 1 knew, years ago, of the singular power Which Lucile o'er your husband possess'd. the hour In which he reveal'd it himself, did I,— say !— By a word, or a look, such a secret betray ? No ! no ! do me justice. I never have spoken Of this poor heart of mine, till all ties he had broken Which bound j7;//r heart to him. And now— now, that his love For another hath left your own heart free to rove, What is it,— even now,— that I kneel to implore you ? Only this. Lady Alfred ! ... to let me adore you Unblamed : to have confidence in me : to spend On me not one thought, save to think me your friend. Let me speak to you,— ah. let me speak to you still ! Hush to silence my words in your heart, if you will. I ask no response : I ask only your leave .^s^^.> -^^^^^ 238 Z UCILE. To live yet in your life, and to grieve when you grieve \ ^ 3^ "Leave me, leave me!" . . . she gasp'd, with a voice thick and low From emotion. " For pity's sake, Duke, let me go I I feel that to blame we should both of us be. Did I linger." " To blame ? yes, no doubt !" . . . answer'd he, •' If the love of your husband, in bringing you peace. Had forbidden you hope. But he signs your re- lease By the hand of another. One moment ! but one ! Who knows when, alas ! I may see you alone As to-night I have seen you .' or when we may meet As to-night we have met ? when, entranced at your feet. As in this blessed hour, 1 may ever avow The thoughts which are pining for utterance now .^" "Duke! Duke!" . . . she exclaim 'd . . . "for Heaven's sake let me go ! It is late. In the house they will miss me, I know. We must not be seen here together. The night Is advancing. 1 feel overwhelm 'd with affright ! It is time to return to my lord." " To your lord ?" He repeated, with lingering reproach on the word, " To vour lord ? do you think he awaits you, in truth ? Z UCILE. 239 r'^^Bi Is he anxiously missing your presence, forsooth ? Return to your lord ! . . . his restraint to renew ? And hinder the glances which are not for you ? No, no ! ... at this moment his looks seek the face Of another ! another is there in your place ! Another consoles him ! another receives The soft speech which from silence your absence relieves !" XI. " You mistake, sir !" . . . responded a voice, calm, severe, And sad, ..." You mistake, sir ! that other is here." Eugene and Matilda both started. " Lucile !" With a half-stifled scream, as she felt herself reel From the place where she stood, cried Matilda. " Ho, oh ! What! eaves-dropping, madam.''" . . . the Duke cried ..." And so You were listening.'" " Say, rather," she said, "that I heard, Without wishing to hear it, that infamous word, — Heard -and therefore reply." " Belle Comtesse," said the Duke, With concentrated wrath in the savage rebuke, Which betray'd that he felt himself baffled . . . " you know That your place is not here!' 240 L UCILE. " Duke," she answer'd him slow, " My place is wherever my duty is clear ; And therefore my place, at this moment, is here lady, this morning my place was beside Your husband, because (as she said this sht- sigh'd) 1 felt that from folly fast growing to crime — The crime of self-blindness — Heaven yet spared me time To save for the love of an innocent wife All that such love deserved in the heart and the life Of the man to whose heart and whose life you alone Can with safety confide the pure trust of your own." She turn'd to Matilda, and lightly laid on her Her soft quiet hand. . . . " 'T is, O lady, the honor Which that man has confided to you, that, in spite Of his friend, I now trust I may yet save to-night — Save for both of you, lady I for yours I revere : Due de Luvois, what say you? — my place is not here?" xn. And, so saying, the hand of Matilda she caught, Wound one arm round her waist unresisted, and sought Gently, softly, to draw her away from the spot. The Duke stood confounded, and foUow'd them not. But not yet the house had they reach'dwhen LuciU- ^ L UCILE. 241 ¥. Her tender and delicate burden could feel Sink and falter beside her. Oh, then she knelt down, Flung her arms round Matilda, and press'd to her own The poor bosom beating against her. The moon, Bright, breathless, and buoyant, and brimful of June, Floated up from the hillside, sloped over the vale. And poised herself loose in mid-heaven, with one pale. Minute, scintillescent, and tremulous star Swinging under her globe like a wizard-lit car, Thus to each of those women revealing the face Of the other. Each bore on her features the trace Of a vivid emotion. A deep inward shame The cheek of Matilda had flooded with flame. With her enthusiastic emotion, Lucile Trembled visibly yet ; for she could not but feel That a heavenly hand was upon her that night. And it touch 'd her pure brow to a heavenly light. "In the name of your husband, dear lady," she said ; " In the name of your mother, take heart ! Lift your head. For those blushes are noble. Alas ! do not trust To that maxim of virtue made ashes and dust. That the fault of the husband can cancel the wife's. ^^^mmf 242 Z UCILE. •ifrt. yk Take heart ! and take refuge and strength in your life's Pure silence,— there, kneel, pray, and hope, weep, and wait !" "Saved, Lucile !" sobb'd Matilda, "but saved to what fate ? Tears, prayers, yes! not hopes." " Hush !" the sweet voice replied. " Fool'd away by a fancy, again to your side Must your husband return. Doubt not this. And return For the love you can give, with the love that you yearn To receive, lady. What was it chill'd you both now .^ Not the absence of love, but the ignorance how Love is nourish 'd by love. Well! henceforth you will i^rove Your heart worthy of love, — since it knows how to love." XIII. " What gives you such power over me, that I feel Thus drawn to obey you .' What are you, Lucile ?" Sigh'd Matilda, and lifted her eyes to the face Of Lucile. There pass'd suddenly through it the trace Of deep sadness ; and o'er that fair forehead came down A shadow which yet was too sweet for a frown. " The pupil of sorrow, perchance " . . . she replied. " Of sorrow ?" Matilda exclaim'd . . . " O confide To my heart your affliction. In all you made known 1 " And here, side by side, Hand in hand, the two women sat down."— Page 243. S?^T**V^ -f^^^Mk. L UCILE. 243 I should find some instruction, no doubt, for my own !" " And I some consolation, no doubt ; for the tears {^f another have not tlow'd for me many years." It was then that Matilda herself seized the hand Of Lucile in her own, and uplifted her ; and Thus together they enter'd the house. XIV. 'T was the room Of Matilda. The languid and delicate gloom Of a lamp of pure white alabaster, aloft From the ceiling suspended, around it slept soft. The casement oped into the garden. The pale Cool moonlight stream'd through it. One lone nightingale Sung aloof in the laurels. And here, side by side. Hand in hand, the two women sat down undescried. Save by guardian angels. As, when, sparkling yet From the rain, that, with drops that are jewels, leaves wet The bright head it humbles, a young rose inclines To some pale lily near it, the fair vision shines As one fiower with two faces, in hush'd, tearful speech. Like the showery whispers of flowers, each to each Link'd, and leaning together, so loving, so fair, So united, yet diverse, the two women there % 244 LUCILE. Look'd, indeed, like two flowers upon one drooping stem. In the soft light that tenderly rested on them. All that soul said to soul in that chamber, who knows ? All that heart gain'd from heart ? Leave the lily, the rose Undisturb'd with their secret within them. For who To the heart of the flow'ret can follow the dew? A night full of stars ! O'er the silence, unseen, The footsteps of sentinel angels, between Tlie dark land and deep sky were moving. You heard Pass'd from earth up to heaven the happy watch- word Which brighten'd the stars as amongst them it fell From earth's heart, which it eased ..." All is well ! all is well !" CANTO IV. I. The Poets pour wine; and, when 'tis new, all decry it. But, once let it be old, eveiy trifler must try it. And Polonius, who praises no wine that 's not Massic, Complains of my verse, that my verse is not classic. And Miss Tilburina, who sings, and not badly, My earlier verses, sighs " Commonplace sadly ! " I LUCILE. 249 Which was making some noise in the passage with- out. A sound English voice, with a round EngUsh accent, Which the scared German echoes resentfully back sent ; The complaint of a much disappointed cab-driver Mingled with it, demanding some ultimate stiver ; Then, the heavy and hurried approach of a boot Which reveal'd by its sound no diminutive foot : And the door was flung suddenly open, and on The threshold Lord Alfred by bachelor John Was seized in that sort of affectionate rage or Frenzy of hugs which some stout Ursa Major On some lean Ursa Minor would doubtless bestow With a warmth for which only starvation and snow Could render one grateful. As soon as he could. Lord Alfred contrived to escape, nor be food Any more for those somewhat voracious embraces. Then the two men sat down and scann'd each- other's faces ; And Alfred could see that his cousin was taken With unwonted emotion. The hand that had shaken His own trembled somewhat. In truth he descried. At a glance, something wrong. •' What's the matter ?" he cried. What have you to tell me ?" John. What ! have you not heard ? 250 Heard what ? L UCILE. Alfred. John. This sad business- Alfred. I ? no, not a word. John. You received my last letter } Alfred. I think so. If not, What then ? John. You have acted upon it .'' Alfred. On what ? John. The advice that I gave you — Alfred. Advice ? — let me see ! You always are giving advice. Jack, to me. About Parliament, was it .•' John. Hang Parliament ! no, The Bank, the Bank, Alfred ! Alfred. What Bank > John. Heavens ! I know You are careless ; — but surely you have not for- tjotten, — ^&.' I LUCILE. Or neglected ... 1 wariVd you the whole thing was rotten. You have drawn those deposits at least ? Alfred. No, I meant To have written to-day ; but the note shall be sent To-morrow, however. John. To-morrow ? too late ! Too late ! oh. what devil bewitch'd you to wait ? Alfred. Mercy save us ! you don't mean to say . . • John. ■' Yes, I do. Alfred. What ! Sir Ridley } . . . John. Smash'd, broken, blown up, bolted too. Alfred. But his own niece ? ... In heaven's name, Jack . . . John. Oh, I told you The old hypocritical scoundrel would . . . Alfred. Hold ! you Surely can't mean we are ruin'd ? John. A fortnight ago a report about town Sit down 252 LUCILE. Made me most apprehensive. Alas, and alas ! I at once wrote and warn'd you. Well, now let that pass. A run on the Bank about five days ago Confirm'd my forebodings too terribly, though. I drove down to the City at once : found the door Of the Bank clos'd : the Bank had stopp'd payment at four. Next morning the failure was known to be fraud : Warrant out for MacNab ; but MacNab was abroad : Gone — we cannot tell where. I endeavor'd to get Information : have learn'd nothing certain as yet — Not even the way that old Ridley was gone : Or with those securities what he had done : Or whether they had been already call'd out : If they are not, their fate is, I fear, past a doubt. Twenty families ruin'd, they say : what was left,— Unable to find any clew to the cleft The old fox ran to earth in,— but join you as fast As I could, my dear Alfred .^* ^■■' He stopp'd here, aghast At the change in his cousin, the hue of whose face Had grown livid ; and glassy his eyes fix'd on space. ■ These events, it is needless to say, Mr. Morse, Took place when B.id News as yet travell'd by horse ; Ere the world, like a cockchafer, buzz'd on a wire, Or Time was calcined by electrical fire ; Ere a cable went under the hoary Atlantic, (Jr the word Telegram drove grammarians frantic. rbri^rsrJBsaSffi'ssss.-ts^s&iiSSi^.i- m: L UCILE. 253 " Courage, courage !" . . . said John, ..." bear the blow like a man !" And he caught the cold hand of Lord Alfred. There ran Through that hand a quick tremor. " I bear it," he said, " But Matilda ? the blow is to her !" And his head Seem'd forced down, as he said it. John. Matilda ? Pooh, pooh ! I half think I know the girl better than you. She has courage enough— and to spare. She cares less Than most women for luxury, nonsense, and dress. Alfred. The fault has been mine. John. Be it yours to repair it If you did not avert, you may help her to bear it. Alfred. I might have averted. John. Perhaps so. But now There is clearly no use in considering how. Or whence, came the mischief. The mischief is here. Broken shins are not mended by crying — that's clear ! One has but to rub them, and get up again, # 254 L UCILE. And push on — and not think too much of the pain. And at least it is much that you see that to her You owe too much to think of yourself. You must stir And arouse yourself, Alfred, for her sake. Who knows ? Something yet may be saved from this wreck. 1 suppose We shall make him disgorge all he can, at the least. " O Jack, I have been a brute idiot ! a beast ! A fool I I have sinn'd, and to her I have sinn'd I I have been heedless, blind, inexcusably blind I And now, in a fiash, I see all things I" As though To shut out the vision, he bow'd his head low On his hands ; and the great tears in silence rolTd on, And fell momently, heavily, one after one. John felt no desire to rind instant relief For the trouble he witness'd. He guess'd, in the grief Of his cousin, the broken and heartfelt admission Of some error demanding a heartfelt contrition : Some oblivion perchance which could plead less excuse To the heart of a man re-aroused to the use Of the conscience God gave him, than simply and merely The neglect for which now he was paying so dearly. So he rose without speaking, and paced up and down L UCILE. 255 The long room, much afflicterl, indeed, in his own Cordial heart for Matilda. Thus, silently lost In his anxious reflections, he cross'd and recross'd The place where his cousin yet hopelessly hung O'er the table ; his fingers entwisted among The rich curls they were knotting and dragging : and there. That sound of all sounds the most painful to hear. The sobs of a man ! Yet so far in his own Kindly thoughts was he plunged, he already had grown Unconscious of Alfred. And so for a space There was silence between them. VII. At last, with sad face He stopp'd short, and bent on his cousin awhile A pain'd sort of wistful, compassionate smile, Approach'dhim,— stood o'er him, —and suddenly laid One hand on his shoulder— " Where is she ?" he said. Alfred lifted his face all disfigured with tears And gazed vacantly at him, like one that appears In some foreign language to hear himself greeted. Unable to answer. " Where is she ?" repeated His cousin. He motion 'd his hand to the door ; " There, I think," he replied. Cousin John said no more. ^ * ..,^23^1 ^-^^^-^"fc'.r'i 256 Z UCILE. And appear'd to relapse to his own cogitations, Of which not a gesture vouchsafed indications. So again there was silence. A timepiece at last Struck the twelve strokes of midnight. Roused by them, he cast A half-look to the dial ; then quietly threw His arm round the neck of his cousin, and drew The hands down from his face. " It is time she should know What has happen'd," he said, . . . " let us go to her now." Alfred started at once to his feet. Drawn and wan Though his face, he look'd more than his wont was — a man. Strong for once, in his weakness. U])lifted, filTd through With a manly resolve. If that axiom be true Of the " Sum quia cogzto," I must opine That " id sum quod cogito ": — that which, in fine, A man thinks and feels, with his whole force of thought And feeling, the man is himself. He had fought With himself, and rose up from his self-overthrow The survivor of much which that strife had laid low. At his feet, as he rose at the name of his wife, Lay in ruins the brilliint unrealized life L UCILE. 257 Which, though yet unfulfiU'd, seem'd till ♦hen, in that name, To be his, had he claim'd it. The man's dream of fame And of power fell shatter'd before him ; and only There rested the heart of the woman, so lonely In all save the love he could give her. The lord Of that heart he arose. Blush not. Muse, to record That his first thought, and last, at that moment was not Of the power and fame that seem'd lost to his lot. But the love that was left to it ; not of the pelf He had cared for, yet squander'd ; and not of him- self. But of her ; as he murmur'd, " One moment, dear Jack ! We have grown up from boyhood together. Our track Has been through the same meadows in childhood : in youth Through the same silent gateways, to manhood. In truth. There is none that can know me as you do ; and none To whom I more wish to believe myself known. Speak the truth ; you are not wont to mince it, I know. Nor I, shall I shirk it, or shrink from it now. In despite of a wanton behavior, in spite Of vanity, folly, and pride. Jack, which might Have turn'd from me many a heart strong and true m 258 L UCILE. As your own, I have never turn'd round and miss'd YOU From my side in one hour of affliction or doubt By my own blind and heedless self-will brought about. Tell me truth. Do I owe this alone to the sake Of those old recollections of boyhood that make In your heart yet some clinging and crj'ing appeal From a judgment more harsh, which I cannot but feel Might have sentenced our friendship to death long ago.' Or is it . . . (I would I could deem it were so I) That, not all overlaid by a listless exterior, Your heart has divined in me something superior To that which I seem ; from my innermost nature Not wholly expell'd by the world's usurpature? Some instinct of earnestness, truth, or desire For truth.-* Some one spark of the soul's nativt- tire Moving under the ashes, and cinders, and du^t Which life hath heap'd o'er it? Some one fact to trust And to hope in } Or by you alone am I deem'd The mere frivolous fool I so often have seem'd To my own self.-*" John. No, Alfred ! you will, I believe, Be true, at the last, to what now makes you grieve For having belied your true nature so long. Necessity is a stern teacher. Be strong ! " Do you think," he resumed . . . " what I feel whiU I speak \ L UCILE. 259 Is no more than a transient emotion, as weak As these weak tears would seen to betoken it ?" John. No ! Alfred. Thank you, cousin ! your hand then. And now I will go Alone, Jack. Trust to me. VIII. John. I do. But 'tis late. If she sleeps, you '11 not wake her ? Alfred. No, no ! it will wait (Poor infant !) too surely, this mission of sorrow ; If she sleeps, I will not mar her dreams of to- morrow. He open'd the door, and pass'd out. Cousin John Watch'd him wistful, and left him to seek her alone. IX. His heart beat so loud when he knock'd at her door. He could hear no reply from within. Yet once more He knock'd lightly. No answer. The handle he tried : The door open'd : he enter'd the room undescried. No brighter than is that dim circlet of light '$ 26o LUCILE. Which enhaloes the moon when rains form on the night, The pale lamp an indistinct radiance shed Round the chamber, in which at her pure snowy bed Matilda was kneeling; so wrapt in deep prayer That she knew not her husband stood watching her there. With the lamplight the moonlight had mingled a faint And unearthly effulgence which seem'd to acquaint The whole place with a sense of deep peace made secure By the presence of something angelic and pure. And not purer some angel Grief carves o'er the tomb Where Love lies, than the lady that kneel'd in that gloom. She had put off her dress ; and she look'd to his eyes Like a young soul escaped from its earthly disguise ; Her fair neck and innocent shoulders w^ere bare, And over them rippled her soft golden hair ; Her simple and slender white bodice unlaced Confined not one curve of her delicate waist. As the light that, from water reflected, forever Trembles up through the tremulous reeds of a river. So the beam of her beauty went trembling in him. Through the thoughts it suffused with a sense soft and dim, Reproducing itself in the broken and bright Lapse and pulse of a million emotions. LUCILE. 261 -^1 That sight Bow'd his heart, bow'd his knee. Knowing scarce what he did, To her side through the chamber he silently slid, And knelt down beside her— and pray'd at her side. XI. Upstarting, she then for the first time descried That her husband was near her ; suffused with the blush Which came o'er her soft pallid cheek with a gush Where the tears sparkled yet. As a young fawn uncouches. Shy with fear, from the fern where some hunter ap- proaches, She shrank back ; he caught her, and circling his arm Round her waist, on her brow press'd one kiss long and warm. Then her fear changed in impulse ; and hiding her face On his breast, she hunglock'd in a clinging embrace With her soft arms wound heavily round him, as though She fear'd, if their clasp were relax'd, he would go : Her smooth naked shoulders, uncared for, convulsed By sob after sob, while her bosom yet pulsed In its pressure on his, as the effort within it Lived and died with each tender tumultuous minute • O Alfred, O Alfred ! forgive me," she cried— " Forg-ive me ! " .-"S^ts^^ •^^ 262 LCCn.E. f " Forgive you. my poor child I" he sig-h'd ; " But I never have blamed you for aught that I know. And I have not one thought that reproaches you now." From her arms he unwound himself gently. And so He forced her down softly beside him. Below The canopy shading their couch, they sat down. And he said, clasping firmly her hand in his own, " When a proud man, Matilda, has found out at length. That he is but a child in the midst of his strength, But a fool in his wisdom, to whom can he own The weakness which thus to himself hath been shown .•' From whom seek the strength which his need of is sore, Although in his pride he might perish, before He could plead for the one, or the other avow 'Mid his intimate friends ? Wife of mine, tell me now. Do you join me in feeling, in that darken'd hour. The sole friend that caft have the right or the power To be at his side, is the woman that shares His fate, if he falter ; the woman that bears The name dear for /ter sake, and hallows the life She has mingled her own with, —in short, that man's wife .''" '• Yes," murmur'd Matilda, " O yes !" " Then," he cried. "This chamber in which we two sit side bv side \ i LUCILE. 263 < !»> (And his arm, as he spoke, seem'd more softly to press her), Is now a confessional —you, my confessor !" " I ?" she falter'd, and timidly lifted her head. " Yes ! but first answer one other question," he said : " When a woman once feels that she is not alone ; That the heart of another is warm'd by her own ; That another feels with her whatever she feel, And halves her existence in woe or in weal ; That a man for her sake will, so long as he lives. Live to put forth his strength which the thought of her gives ; Live to shield her from want, and to share with her sorrow ; Live to solace the day, and provide for the morrow ; Will that woman feel less than another, O say, The loss of what hfe, sparing this, takes away ? Will she feel (feeling this), when calamities come. That they brighten the heart, though they darken the home ?" She turn'd,like a soft rainy heaven, on him Eyes that smiled through fresh tears, trustful, tender, and dim. " That woman," she murmur'd, " indeed were thrice blest!" " Then courage, true wife of my heart !" to his breast As he folded and gather'd her closely, he cried. " For the refuge, to-night in these arms open'd wide To your heart, can be never closed to it again, And this room is for both an asylum ! For when ^'M 264 L UCILE. I pass'd through that door, at the door I left there A calamity, sudden, and heavy to bear. One step from that threshold, and daily, I fear. We must face it henceforth : but it enters not here. For that door shuts it out, and admits here alone A heart which calamity leaves all your own !" She started . . . " Calamity, Alfred ! to you ?" " To both, my poor child, but 'twill bring with it too The courage, I trust, to subdue it." " O speak I Speak !" she falter'd in tones timid, anxious, and weak. " O yet for a moment," he said, " hear me on ! Matilda, this morn we went forth in the sun. Like those children of sunshine, the bright summer flies. That sport in the sunbeam, and play through the skies While the skies smile, and heed not each other : at last. When their sunbeam is gone, and their sky over- cast, Who recks in what ruin they fold their wet wings ? So indeed the morn found us, — poor frivolous things I Now our sky is o'ercast, and our sunbeam is set. And the night brings its darkness around us. Oh, yet. Have we weather'd no storm through those twelve cloudless hours } Yes ; you, too, have wept I L UCILE. 265 " While the world was yet ours, While its sun was upon us, its incense stream'd to us, And its myriad voices of joy seem'd to woo us. We stray'd from each other, too far, it may be. Nor, wantonly wandering, then did I see How deep was my need of thee, dearest, how great Was thy claim on my heart and thy share in my fate ! But, Matilda, an angel was near us, meanwhile. Watching o'er us, to warn, and to rescue ! " That smile Which you saw with suspicion, that presence you eyed With resentment, an angel's they were at your side And at mine ; nor perchance is the day all so far, When we both in our prayers, when most heartfelt they are. May murmur the name of that woman now gone From our sight evermore. " Here, this evening, alone, I seek your forgiveness, in opening my heart' Unto yours, — from this clasp be it never to part ! Matilda, the fortune you brought me is gone. But a prize richer far than that fortune has won It is yours to confer, and I kneel for that prize, T is the heart of my wife !" W'ith suffused happy eyes She sprang from her seat, t^ung her arms wide apart. And tenderly closing them round him. his heart Clasp'd in one close embrace to her bosom ; and there :/! 266 L UCILE. Droop'd her head on his shoulder ; and sobb'd. Not despair, Not sorrow, not even the sense of her loss. Flow'd in those happy tears, so oblivious she was Of all save the sense of her own love ! Anon, However, his words rush'd back to her, " All gone, The fortune you brought me !" And eyes that were dim With soft tears she upraised : but those tears were for him. '- Gone I my hujband ?" she said, " tell me ah see ! I need. To sobei this rapture, so selfish indeed. Fuller sense of affliction," " I'oor innocent child !" He kiss'd her fair forehead, and mournfully smiled, As he told her the tale he had heard — something more The gain found in loss of what gain lost of yore. " Rest, my heart, and my brain, and my right hand for you ; And with these, my Matilda, what may I not do ? You know not. I knew not myself till this hour. Which so sternly reveal'd it, my nature's full power," " And I too," she murmur'd. " I too am no more The mere infant at heart you have known me be- fore, 1 have suffer'd since then, I have learn'd much in life. () take, with the faith I have ])ledged as a wife. J L UCILE. 267 The heart T have learn'd as a woman to feel ! For I — love you. my husband !" As though to conceal Less from him, than herself, what that motion ex- press'd, She dropp'd her bright head, and hid all on his breast. " O lovely as woman, beloved as wife ! Evening star of my heart, light forever my life ! If from eyes tix'd too long on this base earth thus far You have miss'd your due homage, dear guardian star. Believe that, uplifting those eyes unto heaven. There I see you, and know you, and bless the light given To lead me to life's late achievement ; my own. My blessing, my treasure, my all things in one !" XII. How lovely she look'd in the lovely moonlight. That streanVd thro' the pane from the blue balmy night ! How lovely she look'd in her own lovely youth. As she clung to his side full of trust, and of truth ! How^ lovely to him, as he tenderly press'd Her young head on his bosom, and sadly caress'd The glittering tresses which now shaken loose Shower'd gold in his hand, as he smooth'd them ! XIII. O Muse, Interpose not one pulse of thme own beating heart A. ^ 5^Ii. ^^ 26S Z UCILE. Twixt these two silent souls ! There's a joy beyond art, And bevond sound the music it makes in the breast. Here were lovers twice wed, that were happy at least ! No music, save such as the nightingales sung, Breath'd their bridals abroad ; and no cresset, up- hung, Lit that festival hour, save what soft light was given From the pure stars that peopled the deep-purple heaven. He open'd the casement : he led her with him, Hush'd m heart, to the terrace, dipp'd cool in the dim Lustrous gloom of the shadowy laurels. They heard Aloof the invisible, rapturous bird. With her wild note bewildering the woodlands : they saw Not unheard, afar off, the hill-rivulet draw His long ripple of moon-kindled wavelets with cheer From the throat of the vale ; o'er the dark-sapphire sphere The mild, multitudinous lights lay asleep, Pastured free on the midnight, and bright as the sheep Of Apollo in pastoral Thrace; from unknown Hollow glooms freshen'd odors around them were blown L UCILE 269 Iiitermittingly ; then the moon dropp'd from their sight, Immersed in the mountains, and put out the hght Which no longer they needed to read on the face Of each other's life's last revelation. The place Slept sumptuous round them ; and Nature, that never Sleeps, but waking reposes, with patient endeavor Continued about them, unheeded, unseen, Her old, quiet toil in the heart of the green Summer silence, preparing new buds for new blos- soms, And stealing a finger of change o'er the bosoms Of the unconscious woodlands ; and Time, that halts not His forces, how lovely soever the spot Where their march lies — the wary, gray strategist Time, With the armies of Life, lay encamp'd — Grief and Crime, Love and Faith, in the darkness unheeded ; matur- ing, For his great war with man, new surprises ; securing All outlets, pursuing and pushing his foe To his last narrow refuge — the grave. XV. Sweetly though Smiled the stars like new hopes out of heaven, and sweetly Their hearts beat thanksgiving for all things, com- pletely -^- 2 70 LUCILE. Contiding in that yet untrodden existence Over which they were pausing. To-morrow, resist- ance And struggle ; to-night, Love his hallow'd device Hung forth, and proclaim 'd his serene armistice. CANTO V. r. When Lucile left Matilda, she sat for long hours In her chamber, fatigued by long overwrought powers, 'Mid the signs of departure, about to turn back To her old vacant life, on her old homeless track. She felt her heart falter within her. She sat Like some poor player, gazing dejectedlv at The insignia of royalty worn for a night ; Exhausted, fatigued, with the dazzle and light. And the effort of passionate feigning ; who thinks Of her own meagre, rush-lighted garret, and shrinks From the chill of the change that awaits her. II. From these Oppressive, and comfortless, blank reveries, Unable to sleep, she descended the stair That led from her room to the garden. The air, With the chill of the dawn, yet unris'n, but at hand. .Strangely smote on her feverish forehead. The land \ "The air, With the chill of the dawn, yet unris'n, but at hand, Strangely smote on her feverish forehead."— Page 270. L UCILE. 271 Lay in darkness and change, like a world in its grave : No sound, save the voice of the long river wave. And the crickets that sing all the night ! She stood still, Vaguely watching the thin cloud that curl'd on the hill. Emotions, long pent in her breast, were at stir, And the deeps of the spirit were troubled in her. Ah, pale woman! what, with that heart-broken look. Didst thou read then in nature's weird heart-break- ing book? Have the wild rains of heaven a father ? and who Hath in pity begotten the drops of the dew? Orion, Arcturus. who pilots them both ? What leads forth in his season the bright Mazaroth ? Had the darkness a dwelling,— save there, in those eyes ? And what name hath that half-reveal'd hope in the skies ? Av question, and listen ! What answer? ^ The sound Of the long river wave through its stone-troubled bound. And the crickets that sing all the night. There are hours Which belong to unknown, supernatural powers, Whose sudden and solemn suggestions are all That to this race of worms,- stinging creatures that crawl. ^1 272 Z UCILE. Lie, and fear, and die daily, beneath their own stings, — Can excuse the bHnd boast of inherited wings. When the soul, on the impulse of anguish, hath pass'd Beyond anguish, and risen into rapture at last ; When she traverses nature and space, till she stands In the Chamber of Fate; where, through tremulous hands. Hum the threads from an old-fashion'd distaff un- curl'd. And those three blind old women sit spinning the world. III. The dark was blanch'd wan, overhead. One green star Was sHpping from sight in the pale void afar ; The spirits of change, and of awe, with faint breath. Were shifting the midnight, above and beneath. 7 he spirits of awe and of change were around, And about, and upon her. A dull muffled sound, And a hand on her hand, like a ghostly surprise, And she felt herself fix'd by the hot hollow eyes Of the Frenchman before her: those eyes seem"d to burn, And scorch out the darkness between them, and turn Into fire as they fix'd her. He look'd like the shade Of a creature by fancy from solitude made. And sent forth by the darkness to scare and oppress Some soul of a monk in a waste wilderness. i J ? L UCILE. "iTh " At last, then— at last, and alone,— I and thou, Lucile de Nevers, have we met ? " Hush ! I know Not for me was the tryst. Never mind ! it is mine ; And whatever led hither those proud steps of thme. They remove not. until we have spoken. My hour Is come ; and it holds thee and me in its power. As the darkness holds both the horizons. T is well ! The timidest maiden that e'er to the spell Of her first lover's vows listen'd, hush'd with de- light. When soft stars were brightly uphanging the night, Never listen'd, I swear, more unquestioningly. Than thy fate hath compell'd thee to listen to me !" To the sound of his voice, as though out of a dream. She appear'd with a start to awaken. The stream, When he ceased, took the night with its moaning again. Like the voices of spirits departing in pain. " Continue," she answer'd. " I listen to hear.' For a moment he did not reply. Through the drear And dim light between them, she saw that his face Was disturb'd. To and fro he continued to pace. With his arms folded close, and the low restless stride Of a panther, in circles around her, first wide. Then narrower, nearer, and quicker. At last "^:^ 274 L UCILE. He stood still, and one long look upon her he cast " Lucile, dost thou dare to look into my face ? Is the sight so repugnant ? ha, well I Canst thou trace One word of thy writing in this wicked scroll, With thine own name scrawl 'd through it, defacing a soul ?" In his face there was something so wrathful and wild, That the sight of it scared her. He saw it, and smiled. And then turn'd him from her, renewing again That short restless stride ; as though searching in vain For the point of some purpose within him. " Lucile, You shudder to look in my face : do you feel ' No reproach when you look in your own heart ?" " No, Duke, In my conscience I do not deserve your rebuke : Not yours !" she replied. " No," he mutter'd again, " Gentle justice ! you first bid Life hope not, and then To Despair you say ' Act not ! ' " He watch'd her awhile With a chill sort of restless and suffering smile. They stood by the wall of the garden. The skies. Dark, sombre, were troubled with vague prophecies Of the dawn yet far distant. The moon had long set. ^^^ ,^^ L UCILE. 21% And all in a glimmering light, pale, and wet With the night-dews, the white roses sullenly loom'd Round about her. She spoke not. At length he resumed. •' Wretched creatures we are ! I and thou— one and all! Only able to injure each other, and fall Soon or late, in that void which ourselves we prepare For the souls that we boast of ! weak insects we are ! O heaven ! and what has become of them ? all Those instincts of Eden surviving the Fall : That glorious faith in inherited things ; That sense in the soul of the length of her wings ; Gone! all gone! and the wail of the night wind sounds human, Bewailing those once nightly visitants ! Woman, Woman, what hast thou done with my youth? Give again. Give me back the young heart that I gave thee . . . in vain !" " Duke !" she falter'd. " Yes, yes !" he went on, " I was not Always thus ! what I once was, I have not forgot." VI. As the wind that heaps sand in a desert, there stirr'd Through his voice an emotion that swept every word Into one angry wail ; as, with feverish change, He continued his monologue, fitful and strange. " Woe to him, in whose nature, once kindled, the torch 276 L UCILE. 1 Of Passion burns downward to blacken and scorch ! But shame, shame and sorrow, O woman, to thee Whose hand sow'd the seed of destruction in me I Whose lip taught the lesson of falsehood to mine I Whose looks made me doubt lies that look'd so divine ! My soul by thy beauty was slain in its sleep ; And if tears I mistrust, 't is that thou too canst weep I Well I . . . how utter soever k be, one mistake In the love of a man, what more change need it make In the steps of his soul through the course love be- gan, Than all other mistakes in the life of a man ? And I said to myself, ' I am young yet : too young To have wholly survived my own portion among The great needs of man's life, or exhausted its joys ; What is broken ? one only of youth's pleasant toys ! Shall I be the less welcome, wherever I go, For one passion survived ? No ! the roses will blow As of yore, as of yore will the nightingales sing. Not less sweetly for one blossom cancell'd from Spring ! Hast thou loved, O my heart ? to thy love yet re- mains All the wide loving-kindness of nature. The plains And the hills with each summer their verdure re- new. Wouldst thou be as they are.' do thou then as they do. ¥^^ ^ L UCILE. 277 Let the dead sleep in peace. Would the living divine Where they slumber ? Let only new tlowers be the sign ! ' "Vain ! all vain ! . . . For when, laughing, the wine I would quaff, I remember 'd too well all it cost me to laugh. Through the revel it was but the old song I heard, Through the crowd the old footsteps behind me they stirr'd, In the night-wind, the starlight, the murmurs of even. In the ardors of earth, and the languors of heaven, I could trace nothing more, nothing more through the spheres. But the sound of old sobs, and the tracks of old tears ! It was with me the night long in dreaming or wak- ing. It abided in loathing, when daylight was breaking. The burthen of the bitterness in me ! Behold, All my days were become as a tale that is told. And I said to my sight, ' No good thing shalt thou see, For the noonday is turned to darkness in me. In the house of Oblivion my bed I have made.' And I said to the grave, ' Lo, my father ! ' and said To the worm, ' Lo, my sister ! ' The dust to the dust. And one end to the wicked shall be with the just !" iT' .^1^=— ,._ 273 Z UCTLE. He ceased, as a wind that wails out on the night. And moans itself mute. Through the indistinct light A v'oice clear, and tender, and pure with a tone Of ineffable pity replied to his own. " And say vou, and deem you, that I wreck"d your life ? Alas ! Due de Luvois, had I been your wife By a fraud of the heart which could yield you alone Yox the love in your nature a lie in mv own, Should 1 not, in deceiving, have injured you worse? V'es, I then should have merited justly vour curse, For I then should have wrong'd you I" " Wrong'd ! ah, is it so.'' You could never have loved me }" " Duke !" " Never ? oh no !" (He broke into a fierce, angry laugh, as he said) " Vet, lady, you knew that I loved you : you led My love on to lay to its heart, hour by hour, All the pale, cruel, beautiful, passionless power Siuit up in that cold face of yours ! was this well ? lUit enough ! not on you would I vent the wild hell Which has grown in my heart. Oh that man, first and last He tramples in triumph my life ! he has cast His shadov,- twixt me and the sun ... let it pass I .My hate yet mav rind him I" She murmur'd, " Alas ! "r^-^v LUCILE. 279 These words, at least, spare me the pain of reply. Enough, Due de Luvois ! farewell. I shall try To forget every word I have heard, every sight That has grieved and appall'd me in this wretched night Which must witness our final farewell. May you, Duke, Never know greater cause your own heart to rebuke Than mine thus to wrong and afflict you have had . Adieu !" "Stay, Lucile, stay!" ... he groaned, . . . •' 1 am mad, Brutalized, blind with pain I I know not what I said. I meant it not. But " (he moan'd. drooping his head) •■ Forgive me ! I— have I so wrong'd you, Lucile? I . . !" have I . . . forgive me, forgive me !" "I feel Only sad. very sad to the soul," she said, " far, Far too sad for resentment." " Yet stand as you are One moment," he murmur'd. " I thmk, could I gaze , Thus awhile on your face, the old innocent days Would come back upon me, and this scorching heart Free itself in hot tears. Do not, do not depart Thus, Lucile ! stay one moment. I know why you shrink. 28o LUCILE. Why you shudder ; I read in your face what you think. Do not speak to me of it. And yet, if you will, Whatever you say, my own lips shall be still. I lied. And the truth, now, could justify nought. There are battles, it may be, in which to have fought Is more shameful than, simply, to fail. Yet, Lucile, Had you help'd me to bear what you forced me to feel— •• " Could I help you," she murmur'd, "but what can I say That your life will respond to?" "My life.'" he sigh'd. " Nay, My life hath brought forth only evil, and there The wild wind hath planted the wild weed : yet ere You e.xclaim, ' Fling the weed to the flames,' think again Why the field is so barren. With all other men First love, though it perish from life, only goes Like the primrose that falls to make way for the rose. For a man, at least most men, may love on through life : Love in fame ; love in knowledge ; in work : earth is rife With labor, and therefore, with love, for a man. If one love fails, another succeeds, and the plan Of man's life includes love in all objects ! But I } All such loves from my life through its whole des- tinv .»- C-v I L UCILE. 281 Fate excluded. The love that I gave you, alas ' Was the sole love that life gave to me. Let that pass ! It perish'd, and all perish'd with it. Ambition } Wealth left nothing to add to my social condition. Fame ? But fame in itself presupposes some great Field wherein to pursue and attain it. The State } I, to cringe to an upstart ? The Camp ? I, to draw From its sheath the old sword of the Dukes of Luvois To defend usurpation ? Books, then ? Science, Art.? But, alas ! I was fashion'd for action : my heart, Wither'd thing though it be, I should hardly com- press 'Twixt the leaves of a treatise on Statics : life's stress Needs scope, not contraction ! what rests ? to wear out At some dark northern court an existence, no doubt. In wretched and paltry intrigues for a cause As hopeless as is my own life ! By the laws Of a fate I can neither control nor dispute, I am what I am !" VIII. For a while she was mute. Then she answer'd, " We are our own fates. Our own deeds Are our doomsmen. Man's life was made not for men's creeds, But men's actions. And, Due de Luvois, I might say That all life attests, that ' the will makes the way. ' I L UCILE. m Is the land of our birth less the land of our birth, Or its claim the less strong, or its cause the less worth Our upholding, because the white lily no more Is as sacred as all that it bloom 'd for of yore ? Yet be that as it may be ; I cannot perchance Judge this matter. I am but a woman, and France Has for me simpler duties. Large hope, though, Eugene De Luvois, should be vnurs. There is purpose in pain, Otherwise it were devilish. I trust in my soul That the great master hand which sweeps over the whole Of this deep harp of life, if at moments it stretch To shrill tension some one wailing nerve, means to fetch Its response the truest, most stringent, and smart. Its pathos the purest, from out the wrung heart. Whose faculties, flaccid it may be, if less Sharply strung, sharply smitten, had fail'd to express Just the one note the great final harmony needs. And what best proves there 's life in a heart ? — that it bleeds ! Grant a cause to remove, grant an end to attain, (Irant both to be just, and what mercy in pain I Cease the sin with the sorrow ! See morning be- gin ! Pain must burn itself out if not fuell'd by sin. There is hope in yon hill-tops, and love in yon light. Let hate and despondency die with the night I" Il LUCILE. 283 He was moved by her words. As some poor wretch confined In cells loud with meaningless laughter, whose mind Wanders trackless amidst its own ruins, may hear A voice heard long since, silenced many a year. And now, 'mid mad ravings recaptured again. Singing through the caged lattice a once well-known strain, Which brings back his boyhood upon it, until The mind's ruin'd crevices graciously fill With music and memory, and, as it were, The long-troubled spirit grows slowly aware Of the mockery round it, and shrinks from each thing It once sought,— the poor idiot who pass'd for a king. Hard by, with his squalid straw crown, now con- fess'd A madman more painfully mad than the rest,— So the sound of her voice, as it there wander'd o'er His echoing heart, seem'd in part to restore The forces of thought : he recaptured the w^hole Of his life by the light which, in passing, her soul Reflected on his : he appear'd to awake From a dream, and perceived he had dream'd a mistake : His spirit was soften'd, yet troubled in him : He felt his lips falter, his eyesight grow dim, But he murmur'd . . . " Lucile, not for me that sun's light Which reveals — not restores —the wild ha.'oc of night. I 'A \ ife ^84 Z UCILE. There are some creatures born for the night, not the day. Broken-hearted the nightingale hides in the spray, And the owl's moody mind in his own hollow tower , Dwells muffled. Be darkness henceforward my dower. Light, be sure, in that darkness there dwells, by which eyes Grown familiar with ruins may yet recognize Enough desolation." IX. " The pride that claims here On earth to itself (howsoever severe To itself it may be) God's dread office and right Of punishing sin, is a sin in heaven's sight, And against heaven's service. " Eugene de Luvois, Leave the judgment to Him who alone knows the law. Surely no man can be his own judge, least of all His own doomsman." Her words seem'd to fall With the weight of tears in them. He look'd up, and saw That sad serene countenance, mournful as law And tender as pity, bow'd o'er him : and heard In some thicket the matinal chirp of a bird. "Vulgar natures alone suffer vainly. t^'^ ^ J " Eugene," ^: L UCILE. 285 She continued, " in life we have met once again, And once more life parts us. Yon day-spring for me Lifts the veil of a future in which it may be We shall meet nevermore. Grant, oh grant to me yet The belief that it is not in vam we have met ! I plead for the future. A new horoscope I would cast : will you read it ? I plead for a hope : I plead for a memory ; yours, yours alone, To restore or to spare. Let the hope be your own, Be the memory mine. " Once of yore, when for nmn Faith yet lived, ere this age of the sluggard began, Men, aroused to the knowledge of evil, fled far From the fading rose-gardens of sense, to the war With the Pagan, the cave in the desert, and sought Not repose, but employment in action or thought, Life's strong earnest, in all things ! oh think not of me, But yourself ! for I plead for your own destiny : I plead for your life, with its duties undone. With Its claims unappeased, and its trophies un- won : And in pleading for life's fair fulfilment. I plead^^ For all that you miss, and for all that you need." XI. Through the calm crystal air, faint and far, as she spoke, A clear, chillv chime from a church-turret broke ; J^ 'f^^ie&i 286 L UCILE. And the sound of her voice, with the sound of the bell. On his ear, where he kneel'd, softly, soothingly fell. All within him was wild and confused, as within A chamber deserted in some roadside inn, Where, passing, wild travellers paused, over-night, To quaff and carouse ; in each socket each light Is extinct ; crash'd the glasses, and scrawl'd is the wall With wild ribald ballads : serenely o'er all, For the first time perceived, where the dawn-light creeps faint Through the wrecks of that orgy, the face of a saint, Seen through some broken frame, appears noting meanwhile The ruin all round with a sorrowful smile. And he gazed round. The curtains of Darkness half drawn Oped behind her; and pure as the pure light of dawn She stood, bathed in morning, and seem'd to his eyes From their sight to be melting away in the skies That expanded around her. XII. There pass'd through his head A fancy — a vision. That woman was dead He had loved long ago — loved and lost ! dead to him. Dead to all the life left him ; but there, m the dim Dewy light of the dawn, stood a spirit ; 't was hers ; 1 LUCILE. 287 And he said to the soul of Lucile de Nevers : " O soul to its sources departing away ! Pray for mine, if one soul for another may pray. I to ask have no right, thou to give hast no power, One hope to my heart. But in this parting hour I name not my heart, and I speak not to thine. Answer, soul of Lucile, to this dark soul of mine. Does not soul owe to soul, what to heart heart denies, Hope, when hope is salvation ? Behold, in yon skies. This wild night is passing away while I speak : Lo, above us, the day-spring beginning to break ! Something wakens within me, and warms to the beam. Is it hope that awakens ? or do I but dream ? I know not. It may be, perchance, the first spark Of a new light within me to solace the dark Unto which I return ; or perchance it may be The last spark of fires half extinguish'd in me. I know not. Thou goest thy way : I my own : For good or for evil, I know not. Alone This I know ; we are parting. I wish'd to say more. But no matter ! 't will pass. All between us is o'er. Forget the wild words of to-night. 'T was the pain For long years hoarded up, that rush'd from me again. I was unjust : forgive me. Spare now to reprove Other words, other deeds. It was madness, not love. That you thwarted this night. What is done is now done. €s^^^ 288 LUCILE. Death remains to avenge it, or life to atone. I was madden'd, delirious ! I saw you return To him — not to me ; and I felt my heart burn With a fierce thirst for vengeance — and thus . . . let it pass ! Long thoughts these, and so brief the moments, alas ! Thou goest thy way, and I mine. I suppose 'T is to meet nevermore. Is it not so ? Who knows. Or who heeds, where the exile from Paradise flies ? Or what altars of his in the desert may rise } Is it not so, Lucile ? Well, well ! Thus then we part Once again, soul from soul, as before heart from heart !" XIII. And again clearer far than the chime of the bell. That voice on his sense coftly, soothingly fell. " Our two paths must part us, Eugene ; for my own Seems no more through that world in which henci-- forth alone You must work out (as now I believe that you will) The hope which you speak of. That work I shall still (If I live) watch and welcome, and bless far away. Doubt not this. But mistake not the thought, if I say, That the great moral combat between human life And each human soul must be single. The strife None can share, though by all its results may be knowii. When the soul arms for battle, she goes forth alone. I say not, indeed, we shall meet nevermore. \ ' And again, once again, we shall meet, soul to soul !" — Page 289. L UCILE. 289 For I know not. But meet, as we have met of yore, I know that we cannot. Perchance we may meet By the death-bed, the^ tomb, in the crowd, in the street. Or in soHtude even, but never again Shall we meet from henceforth as we have met, Eugene. For we know not the way we are going, nor yet Where our two ways may meet, or may cross. Life hath set No landmarks before us. But this, this alone, I will promise : whatever your path, or my own. If, for once in the conflict before you, it chance That the Dragon prevail, and with cleft shield, and lance Lost or shatter'd, borne down by the stress of the war, You falter and hesitate, if from afar I, still watching (unknown to yourself, it mav be) O'er the conflict to which I conjure you, should see That my presence could rescue, support you, or guide. In the hour of that need I shall be at your side. To warn, if you will, or incite, or control ; And again, once again, we shall meet, soul to soul !" XIV. The voice ceased. He uplifted his eyes. All alone He stood on the bare edge of dawn. She was gone. Like a star, when up bay after bay of the night, Z UCILE. Ripples in, wave on wave, the broad ocean of light. And at once, in her place, was the Sunrise ! It rose In its sumptuous splendor and solemn repose, The supreme revelation of lig-ht. Domes of gold. Realms of rose, in the Orient ! And breathless, and bold. While the great gates of heaven roU'd back one by- one, The bright herald angel stood stern in the sun ! Thrice holy Eospheros ! Light's reign began In the heaven, on the earth, in the heart of the man. The dawn on the mountains I the dawn everywhere ! Light ! silence ! the fresh innovations of air ! O earth, and O ether ! A butterfly breeze Floated up, fluttered down, and poised blithe on the trees. Through the revelling woods, o'er the sharp-ripplcd stream. Up the vale slow uncoiling itself out of dream. Around the brown meadows, adown the hill-slope. The spirits of morning were whispering, " Hopt- .'" *A He uplifted his eyes. In the place where she stood But a moment before, and where now roU'd the flood Of the sunrise all golden, he seem'd to behold. In the young light of sunrise, an image unfold Of his own youth, — its ardors — its promise of fame — Its ancestral ambition ; and France by the name Of his sires seem'd to call him. There, hover'd in light, '^ /. UCILE. 291 That image aloft, o'er the shapeless and bright And Aurorean clouds, which themselves seem'd to be Brilliant fragments of that golden world, wherein he Had once dwelt, a native ! There, rooted and bound To the earth, stood the man, gazing at it ! Around The rims of the sunrise it hover'd and shone Transcendent, that type of a youth that was gone ; And he— as the body may yearn for the soul. So he yearn'd to embody that image. His whole Heart arose to regain it. " And is it too late ?" No ! for Time is a fiction, and limits not fate. Thought alone is eternal. Time thralls it in vain. For the thought that springs upward and yearns to regain The pure source of spirit, there is no T(30 LATE. As the stream to its first mountain levels, elate In the fountain arises, the spirit in him Arose to that image. The image waned dim Into heaven ; and heavenward with it, to melt As it melted, in day's broad expansion, he felt With a thrill, sweet and strange, and intense— awed, amazed — Something soar and ascend in his soul, as he gazed. — ♦ — CANTO VI. I. Man is bom on a battle-field. Round him. to rend Or resist, the dread Powers he displaces attend. 292 L UCILE. By the cradle which Nature, amidst the stern shocks That have shatter'd creation, and shapen it, rocks. He leaps with a wail into being ; and lo I His own mother, tierce Nature herself, is his foe. Her whirlwinds are roused into wrath o'er his head : 'Neath his feet roll her earthquakes : her solitudes spread To daunt him : her forces dispute his command : Her snows fall to freeze him : her suns burn to brand : Her seas yawn to engulf him : her rocks rise to crush : And the lion and leopard, allied, lurk to rush On their startled invader. In lone Malabar, Where the infinite forest spreads breathless and far, 'Mid the cruel of eye and the stealthy of claw (Striped and spotted destroyers !) he sees, pale with awe, On the menacing edge of a fiery sky Grim Doorga, blue-limb'd and red-handed, go by, And the first thing he worships is Terror. Anon, Still impell'd by necessity hungrily on. He conquers the realms of his own self-reliance, And the last cry of fear wakes the first of defiance. From the serpent he crushes its poisonous soul : Smitten down in his path see the dead lion roll I On toward Heaven the son of Alcmena strides high on The heads of the Hydra, the spoils of the lion : And man, conquering Terror, is worshipp'd by man. \ i LUCILE. 293 A camp has this world beer, since first it began ! From his tents sweeps the roving Arabian ; at peace. A mere wandering shepherd that follows the fleece ; But, warring his way through a world's destinies, Lo from Delhi, from Bagdad, from Cordova, rise Domes of empiry, dower'd with science and art, Schools, libraries, forums, the palace, the mart ! New realms to man's soul have been conquer'd. But those. Forthwith they are peopled for man by new foes ! The stars keep their secrets, the earth hides her own. And bold must the man be that braves the Un- known ! Not a truth has to art or to science been given. But brows have ached for it, and souls toil'd and striven ; And many have striven, and many have fail'd, And many died, slain by the truth they assail'd. But when Man hath tamed Nature, asserted his place And dominion, behold ! he is brought tace to face ' With a new foe — himself ! Nor may man on his shield Ever rest, for his foe is forever afield. Danger ever at hand, till the armed Archangel Sound o'er him the trump of earth's final evangel. 11. Silence straightway, stern Muse, the soft cyml:)als of pleasure. f\ J^^fst» i 294 Z UCILE. He all bionzeii these numbers, and martial the measure I Breathe, sonorously breathe, o'er the spirit in me One strain, sad and stern, of that deep Epopee Which thou, from the fashionless cloud of far time, Chantest lonely, when Victory, pale, and sublime In the light of the aureole over her head, Hears, and heeds not the wound in her heart fresh and red Blown wide by the blare of the clarion, unfold The shrill clanging curtains of war ! And behold A vision ! The antique Heraclean seats ; And the long Black Sea billow that once bore those fleets, Which said to the winds, " Be ye, too, Genoese !" And the red angry sands of the chafed Chersonese ; And the two foes of man, War and Winter, allied Round the Armies of England and France, side by side Enduring and dying (Ciaul and Briton abreast I) Where the towers of the North fret the skies of the East. 111. Since that sunrise, which rose through the calm lin- den stems <)"er Lucile and Eugene in the garden at Ems, Through twenty-five seasons encircling the sun. This planet of ours on its pathway hath gone. And the fates that I sing of have flow'cl with the fates \ ^ ^■:S*P^> LUCILE. 295 Of a world, in the red wake of war, round the gates Of that doom'd and heroical city, in which (Fire crowning the rampart, blood bathing the ditch !) At bay, fights the Russian as some hunted bear, Whom the huntsmen have hemm'd round at last in his lair. IV. A fang'd, arid plain, sapp'd with underground fire, Soak'd with snow, torn with shot, mash'd to one gory mire I There Fate's iron scale hangs in horrid suspense. While those two famish'd ogres — the Siege, the Defence, Face to face, through a vapor frore, dismal, and dun. Glare, scenting the breath of each other. The one Double-bodied, two-headed— by separate ways Winding, serpent-wise, nearer ; the other, each day's Sullen toil adding size to, — concentrated, solid. Indefatigable— the brass-fronted, embodied. And audible «rroc gone sombrely forth To the world from that Autocrat Will of the north ! V. In the dawn of a moody October, a pale Ghostly motionless vapor began to prevail Over city and camp ; like the garment of death Which (is form'd by) the face it conceals. 'T was the breath War, yet drowsily yawning, began to suspire ; L UCILE. Wherethrough; here and there, flash'd an eye of red fire, And closed, from some rampart beginning to bellow Hoarse challenge ; replied to anon, through the yellow And sulphurous twilight : till dayreel'd and rock'd, And roar'd into dark. Then the midnight was mock'd With fierce apparitions. Ring'd round by a rain Of red fire, and of iron, the murtherous plain Flared with fitful combustion ; where fitfully fell Afar off the fatal, disgorged sckarfienelle, And fired the horizon, and singed the coil'd gloom With wings of swift flame round that City of Doom. VI. So the day — so the night ! So by night, so by day. With stern patient pathos, while time wears away, In the trench flooded through, in the wind where it wails, In the snow where it falls, in the fire where it hails Shot and shell — link by link, out of hardship and pain. Toil, sickness, endurance, is forged the bronze chain Of those terrible siege-lines ! No change to that toil Save the mine's sudden leap from the treacherous soil. Save the midnight attack, save the groans of the maim'd. And Death's daily obolus due, whether claim'd By man or by nature. ^ T3t Z UCILE. 297 Time passes. The dumb, Bitter, snow-bound, and sullen November is come. And its snows have been bathed in the blood of the brave : And many a young heart has glutted the grave : And on Inkerman yet the wild bramble is gory. And those bleak heights henceforth shall be famous in story. VIII. The moon, swathed in storm, has long set : through the camp No sound save the sentinel's slow sullen tramp. The distant explosion, the wild sleety wind, That seems searching for something it never can find. The midnight is turning : the lamp is nigh spent : And, wounded and lone, in a desolate tent Lies a young British soldier whose sword . . . In this place. However, my Muse is compell'd to retrace Her precipitous steps and revert to the past. The shock which had suddenly shatter'd at last Alfred Vargrave's fantastical holiday nature. Had sharply drawn forth to his full size and stature The real man, conceal'd till that moment beneath All he yet had appear'd. From the gay broider'd sheath Which a man in his wrath flings aside, even so Leaps the keen trenchant steel summoned forth by a blow. i 298 Z UCILE. And thus loss of fortune gave value to life. The wife gain'd a husband, the husband a wife. In that home which, though humbled and narrow'd by fate, Was enlarged and ennobled by love. Low their state. But large their possessions. Sir Ridley, forgiven By those he unwittingly brought nearer heaven By one fraudulent act, than through all his sleek speech The hypocrite brought his own soul, safe from reach Of the law, died abroad. Cousin John, heart and hand, Purse and person, henceforth (honest man I) took his stand By Matilda and Alfred ; guest, guardian, and friend Of the home he both shared and assured, to the end. With his large lively love. Alfred \'argrave mean- while Faced the world's frown, consoled b\ his wife's faithful smile. Late in life, he began life in earnest ; and still, With the tranquil exertion of resolute will. Through long, and laborious, and difficult days. Out of manifold failure, by wearisome ways. Work'd his way through the world ; till at last he began ( Reconciled to the work which mankind claims from man), After years of unw^itness'd, unwearied endeavor. Years impassion'd, vet patient, to realize ever .J^^, ^M., LU'CILE. 299 More clear on the broad stream of current opinion The reflex of powers in himself — that dominion Which the life of one man, if his life be a truth, May assert o'er the life of mankind. Thus, his youth In his manhood renew'd, fame and fortune he won Working only for home, love, and duty. One son Matilda had borne him ; but scarce had the boy, With all Eton yet fresh in his full heart's frank joy. The darling of young soldier comrades, just glanced Down the glad dawn of manhood at life, when it chanced That a blight sharp and sudden was breath'd o'er the bloom Of his joyous and generous years, and the gloom Of a grief premature on their fair promise fell : No light cloud like those which, for June to dispel, Captious April engenders ; but deep as his own Deep nature. Meanwhile, ere I fully make known The cause of this sorrow, I track the event. When first a wild war-note through England was sent, He, transferring without either token or word, To friend, parent, or comrade, a yet virgin sword. From a holiday troop, to one bound for the war. Had march'd forth, with eyes that saw death in the star Whence others sought glory. Thus, fighting, he fell On the red field of Inkerman ; found, who can tell i M By what miracle, breathing, though shatter'd, and borne To the rear by his comrades, pierced, bleeding, and torn. Where for long days and nights, with the wound in his side, He lay, dark. IX. But a wound deeper far, undescried. In the young heart was rankling; for there, of a truth. In the first earnest faith of a pure pensive youth, A love large as life, deep and changeless as death, Lay ensheath'd : and that love, ever fretting its sheath, The frail scabbard of life pierced and wore through and through. There are loves in man's life for which time can re- I,-, All that time may destroy. Lives there are, though, in love. Which cling to one faith, and die with it ; nor move, Though earthquakes may shatter the shrine. Whence or how Love laid claim to this young life, it matters not now. X. (^h is it a phantom ? a dream of the night ? A vision which fever hath fashion 'd to sight .■* The wind wailing ever, with motion uncertain. «&i^^ LUCILE. 3or Sways sighingly there the drench'd tent's tatter'd curtain, To and fro, up and down. But it is not the wind That is lifting it now : and it is not the mind That hath moulded that vision. A pale woman enters, As wan as the lamp's waning light, which con- centres Its dull glare upon her. With eyes dim and dimmer There, all in a slumberous and shadowy glimmer. The sufferer sees that still form floating on, And feels faintly aware that he is not alone. She is flitting before him. She pauses. She stands By his bedside, all silent. She lays her white hands On the brow of the boy. A light finger is pressing Softly, softly the sore wounds : the hot blood- stain'd dressing Slips jrom them. A comforting quietude steals Through the rack'd weary frame ; and, throughout it, he feels The slow sense of a merciful, mild neighborhood. Something smooths the toss'd pillow. Beneath a gray hood Of rough serge, two intense tender eyes are bent o'er him. And thrill through and through him. The sweet form before him. It is surely Death's angel Life's last vigil keeping ! A soft voice says ..." Sleep !" And he sleeps : he is sleeping. V. Mr 302 Z UCILE. He waked before dawn. Still the vision is there : Still that pale woman moves not. A minist'ring care Meanwhile has been silently changing and cheering The aspect of all things around him. Revering Some power unknown and benignant, he bless'd In silence the sense of salvation. And rest Having loosen'd the mind's tangled meshes, he faintly .Sigh'd ..." Say what thou art, blessed dream of a saintly And minist'ring spirit !" A whisper serene Slid, softer than silence . . . • The Soeur Seraphine, A poor Sister of Charity. Shun to inquire Aught further, young soldier. The son of thy sire. For the sake of that sire, I reclaim from the grave. Thou didst not shun death : shun not life. 'T is more brave To live, than to die. Sleep !" He sleeps : he is sleeping. H XII. He waken'd again, when the dawn was just stee])ing The skies with chill splendor. And there, never flitting. Never flitting, that \ision of mercy was sitting. As the dawn to the darkness, so life seem'd re- turning Wm L UCILE. 3Q3 Slowly, feebly within him. The night-lamp, yet burning, Made ghastly the glimmering daybreak. He said, " If thou be of the living, and not of the dead, Sweet minister, pour out yet further the healing Of that balmy voice ; if it may be, revealing Thy mission of mercy ! whence art thou ?" " O son Of Matilda and Alfred, it matters not ! One Who is not of the living nor yet of the dead : To thee, and to others, alive yet " . . . she said . . . " So long as there liveth the poor gift in me Of this ministration ; to them, and to thee. Dead in all things beside. A French Nun, whose vocation Is now by this bedside. A nun hath no nation. Wherever man suffers, or woman may soothe, There her land ! there her kindred !" She bent down to smooth The hot pillow ; and added ..." Yet more than another Is thy life dear to me. For thy father, thy mother, I knew them— 1 know them." " Oh can it be ? you ! My dearest dear father ! my mother ! you knew, You know them ?" She bow'd, half averting, her head In silence. He brokenly, timidly said, " Do they know I am thus ?" -siiUHiHJHvmu -^!tf!w' 304 LUCILE. " Hush !" . . . she smiled, as she drew From her bosom two letters : and — can it be true ? That beloved and familiar writing I He burst Into tears ..." My poor mother — my father I the worst Will have reach'd them I" " No, no !" she exclaim'd with a smile, " They know you are living ; they know that mean- while I am watching beside you. Young soldier, weep not !" But still on the nun's nursing bosom, the hot Fever'd brow of the boy weeping wildly is press'd. There, at last, the young heart sobs itself into rest : And he hears, as it were between smiling and weeping. The calm voice say ..." Sleep !" And he sleeps : he is sleeping. XIII. And day follow'd day. And, as wave follows wave. With the tide, day by day, life, reissuing, drave Through that young hardy frame novel currents of health. Yet some strange obstruction, which life's self by stealth Seem'd to cherish, impeded life's progress. And still A feebleness, less of the frame than the wi Clung about the sick man : hid and harbor'd within lm'^>' A r \ //; ,:i€ L UCILE. The sad hollow eyes : pinch'd the cheek pale and thin : And clothed the wan fingers with languor. And there, Day by day, night by night, unremitting in care. Unwearied in watching, so cheerful of mien. And so gentle of hand, sat the Soeur Seraphine ! XIV. A strange woman truly I not young ; yet her face. Wan and worn as it was, bore about it the trace Of a beauty which time could not ruin. For the whole ()uiet cheek, youth's lost bloom left transparent, the soul Seem'd to fill with its own light, like some sunny fountain Everlastingly fed from far off in the mountain That pours, in a garden deserted, its' streams, And all the more lovely for loneliness seems. So that, watchmg that face, you would scarce pause to guess The years which its calm careworn lines might ex- press. Feeling only what suffering with these must have past To have perfected there so much sweetness at last. Thus, one bronzen evening, when day had put ou His brief thrifty fires, and the wind was about. The nun, watchful still by the boy, on his own L UCILE. Laid a tirm quiet hand, and the deep tender tone Of her voice moved the silence. She said ..." 1 have heal'd These wounds of the body. Why hast thou con- ceaKd, Young soldier, that yet open wound in the heart ? Wilt thou trust no hand near it ?" He winced, with a start, As of one that is suddenly touched on the spot From which every nerve derives suffering. •• What ? Lies my heart, then, so bare?" he moan"d bitterly. " Nay," With compassionate accents she hasten'd to say, " Do you think that these eyes are with sorrow, young man. So all unfamiliar, indeed, as to scan Her features, yet know them not .•' '• Oh, was it spoken. ' Go ye forth, heal the sick, lift the lo7U, hind the broken .' ' Of the body alone ? Is our mission, then, done, When we leave the bruised hearts, if we bind the )ruised bone ? Nay, is not the mission of mercy twofold ? Whence twofold, perchance, are the powers, that we hold To fulfil it, of Heaven ! For Heaven doth still To us, Sisters, it may be, who seek it, send skill Won from long intercourse with affliction, and art Help'd of Heaven, to bind up the broken of heart. :j^ i^-' '.>.*i ^"Vn' jf^ LCCILE. 307 Trust to me !" (His two feeble hands in her own She drew gently.) "Trust to me!" (she said, with soft tone) : •' I am not so dead in remembrance to all I have died to in this world, but what I recall Enough of its sorrow, enough of its trial. To grieve for both — save from both haply I The dial Receives many shades, and each points to the sun. The shadows are many, the sunlight is one. Life's sorrows still fluctuate : God"s love does not. And His love is unchanged, when it changes our lot. Looking up to this light, which is common to all. And down to these shadows, on each side, that fall In time's silent circle, so various for each. Is it nothing to know that they never can reach So far, but what light lies beyond them forever ? Trust to me ! Oh, if in this hour I endeavor To trace the shade creeping across the young life Which, in prayer till this hour, I have watch'd through its strife With the shadow of death, 't is with this faith alone. That, in tracing the shade, I shall find out the sun. Trust to me !" She paused : he was weeping. Small need Of added appeal, or entreaty, indeed, Had those gentle accents to win from his pale -And parch'd, trembhng lips, as it rose, the brief tale Of a life's early sorrow. The story is old, And in words few as may be shall straightwa)- be told. "4'. 3o8 LUCILE. ■% \ t^ <^*,' Iff it' ■-.'■! A few years ago, ere the fair form of I'eace Was driven from Europe, a young girl — the niece Of a French noble, leaving an old Norman pile liy the wild northern seas, came to dwell for awhile With a lady allied to her race — an old dame Of a threefold legitimate virtue, and name. In the Faubourg Saint Germain. Upon that fair child. From childhood, nor father nor mother had smiled. One uncle their place in her life had supplied. And their place in her heart : she had grown at his side, And under his roof-tree, and in his regard. From childhood to girlhood. This fair orphan ward Seem'd the sole human creature that lived in the heart Of that stern rigid man, or whose smile could im- part One ray of response to the eyes which, abovT Her fair infant forehead, look'd down with a love That seem'd almost stern, so intense was its chill Lofty stillness, like sunlight on some lonely hill Which is colder and stiller than sunlight elsewhere. Grass grew in the court-yard ; the chambers were bare In that ancient mansion ; when first the stern tread Of its owner awaken'd their echoes long dead : Bringing with him this infant (the child of a brother), Whom, dying, the hands of a desolate mother r£^ W' ,.(* ^•n LUC I I.E. 309 Had placed on his bosom. T was said— right or wrong — That, in the lone mansion, left tenantless long. To which, as a stranger, its lord now retum'd. In years yet recall'd, through loud midnights had burn'd The light of wild orgies. Be that false or true, Slow and sad was the footstep which now wander'd through Those desolate chambers ; and calm and severe Was the life of their inmate. Men now saw appear Every morn at the mass that firm sorrowful face, Which seem'd to lock up in a cold iron case Tears harden'd to crystal. Yet harsh if he were, His severity seem'd to be trebly severe In the rule of his own rigid life, which, ac least, Was benignant to others. The poor parish priest. Who lived on his largess, his piety praised. The peasant was fed, and the chapel was raised. And the cottage was built, by his liberal hand. Yet he seem'd in the midst of his good deeds to stand A lone, and unloved, and unlovable man. There appear'd some inscrutable flaw in the plan Of his life, that love fail'd to pass over. That child Alone did not fear him, nor shrink from him ; smiled To his frown, and dispell'd it. The sweet sportive elf Seem'd the type of some joy lost, and miss'd, in himself. a/ 3IO Z UCILE. Ever welcome he suffer'd her glad face to glide In on hours when to others his door was denied : And many a time with a mute moody look He would watch her at prattle and play, like a brook Whose babble disturbs not the quietest spot, But soothes us because we need answer it not. But few years had pass'd o'er that childhood before A change came among them. A letter, which bore Sudden consequence with it, one morning was placed In the hands of the lord of the chateau. He paced To and fro in his chamber a whole night alone After reading that letter. At dawn he was gone. Weeks pass'd. When he came back again he re- turn d With a tall ancient dame, from whose lips the child learn'd That they were of the same race and name. With a face Sad and anxious, to this wither'd stock of the race He confided the orphan, and left them alone In the old lonely house. In a few days 't was known. To the angry surjirise ot half Paris, that one Of the chiefs of that party which, still clinging on To the banner that bears the white lilies of France, Will fight 'neath no other, nor yet for the chance Of restoring their own, had renounced the watch- word '?-"'4^ "And many a time with a mute moody look He would watcli lier at prattle and play."— Page 310. '■•■•■asnKSl^ /;jg^£imJB^M^ LUCILE. 311 And the creed of his youth in unsheathing his sword For a Fatherland fathered no more (such is fate !) By legitimate parents. And meanwhile, elate And in no wise disturbed by what Paris might say. The new soldier thus wrote to a friend far away :— " To the life of inaction farewell ! After all, Creeds the oldest may crumble, and dynasties fall. But the sole grand Legitimacy will endure. In whatever makes death noble, life strong and pure. Freedom ! action ! ... the desert to breathe in - the lance Of the Arab to follow ! I go ! Vra- hi France f" Few and rare were the meetings henceforth, as years fled, Twixt the child and the soldier. The two women led Lone lives in the lone house. Meanwhile the child grew Into girlhood ; and, like a sunbeam, sliding through Her green quiet years, changed by gentle degrees To the loveliest vision of youth a youth sees In his loveliest fancies : as pure as a pearl. And as perfect : a noble and innocent girl, With eighteen sweet summers dissolved in the light Of her lovely and lovable eyes, soft and bright I Then her guardian wrote to the dame, ..." Let Constance (io with you to Paris. I trust that in France I may be ere the close of the year. I confide Z UCILE. My life's treasure to you. Let her see, at your side, The world which we live in." To Paris then came Constance to abide with that old stately dame In that old stately Fauborg. The young Englishman ' T was there their acquaintance That old miracle — Love-at-first- Thus met her. began, There it closed. sight — Needs no explanations. The heart reads aright Its destiny sometimes. His love neither chidden Nor check'd, the young soldier was graciously bid- den An habitual guest to the house by the dame. His own candid graces, the world-honor'd name Of his father (in him not dishonor'd) were both Fair titles to favor. His love, nothing loath. The old lady observed, was return'd by Constance. And as the child's uncle his absence from France Yet prolonged, she (thus easing long self-gratuia- tion) Wrote to him a lengthen'd and moving narration Of the graces and gifts of the young English wooer : His father's fair fame ; the boy's deference to her ; His love for Constance, — unaffected, sincere ; And the girl's love for him, read by her in those clear Limpid eyes ; then the pleasure with which slie awaited Her cousin's approval of all she had stated. p^^^m LUCILE. 313 At length from that cousin an answer there came, Brief, stern ; such as stunn'd and astonish'd the dame. " Let Constance leave Paris with you on the day You receive this. Until my return she may stay At her convent awhile. If my niece wishes ever To behold me again, understand, she will never Wed that man. " You have broken faith with me. Farewell !" No appeal from that sentence. It needs not to tell The tears of Constance, nor the grief of her lover : The dream they had laid out their lives in was over. Bravely strove the young soldier to look in the face Of a life, where invisible hands seem'd to trace O'er the threshold, these words ..." Hope no more !" Unreturn'd Had his love been, the strong manful heart would have spurn 'd That weakness which suffers a woman to lie At the roots of man's life, like a canker, and dry And wither the sap of life's purpose. But there Lay the bitterer part of the pain ! Could he dare To forget he was loved ? that he grieved not alone ? Recording a love that drew sorrow upon The woman he loved, for himself dare he seek Surcease to that sorrow, which thus held him weak, Beat him down, and destroy 'd him ? News reach "d him indeed, J I 314 Z UCILE. ■'-^' .P< Tlirough a comrade, who brought him a letter to read From the dame who had care of Constknce (it was one To whom, when at Paris, the boy had been known, A Frenchman, and friend of the Faubourg), which said That Constance, although never a murmur betray'd What she sufTer'd, in silence grew paler each day, And seem'd visibly drooping and dying away. It was then he sought death. XVII. Thus the tale ends. T was told With such broken, passionate words, as unfold In glimpses alone, a coil'd grief. Through each pause Of its fitful recital, in raw gusty flaws, The rain shook the canvas, unheeded ; aloof. And unheeded, the night-wind around the tent-roof At intervals wirbled. And when all was said, The sick man, exhausted, droop'd backward his head. And fell into a feverish slumber. Long while Sat the Soeur Scrajihine, in deep thought. The still smile That was wont, angel-wise, to inhabit her face And make it like heaven, was fled from its place In her eyes, on her lips ; and a deep sadness there Seem'd to darken the lines of long sorrow and care. §- w. LUCILE. 3 '5 As low to herself she sigh'd . . . " Hath it, Eugene, Been so long, then, the struggle ? . . . and yet, all in vain ! Nay, not all in vain ! Shall the world gain a man. And yet Heaven lose a soul ? Have 1 done all I can ? Soul to soul, did he say ? Soul to soul, be it so ! And then — soul of mine, whither? whither?" XVIII. Large, slow, Silent tears in those deep eyes ascended, and fell. ^' Here, at least, I have fail'd not "... she mused ..." this is well !" She drew from her bosom two letters. In one, A mother's heart, wild with alarm for her son. Breathed bitterly forth its despairing appeal. " The pledge of a love owed to thee, O Lucile ! The hope of a home saved by thee — of a heart Which hath never since then (thrice endear'd as thou art !) Ceased to bless thee, to pray for thee, save ! . . . save my son ! And if not "... the letter went brokenly on. " Heaven help us !" Then follow'd, from Alfred, a few Blotted heart-broken pages. He mournfully drew. With pathos, the picture of that earnest youth. So unlike his own : how in beauty and truth He had nurtured that nature, so simple and brave ! And how he had striven his son's youth to save S fii^ Y7^r 3i6 L UCILE. From the errors so sadly redeem'd in his own, And so deeply repented : how thus, in that son. In whose youth he had garner'd his age, he had seem'd To be bless'd by a pledge that the jiast was re- deem'd. And forgiven. He bitterly went on to speak Of the boy's baffled love; in which fate seem"cl to break Unawares on his dreams with retributive pain, And the ghosts of the past rose to scourge back again The hopes of the future. To sue for consent Pride forbade : and the hope his old foe might relent Experience rejected . . . "My life for the boy's I' (He exclaim 'd); "for I die with my son, if he dies! Lucile ! Heaven bless you for all you have done ! Save him, save him, Lucile ! save my son ! save my son !" XIX. "Ay!" murmur'd the Soeur Seraphine . . . "heart to heart ! There, at least, I have fail'd not! FultiU'd is mv part .-* Accomplish 'd my mission } One act crowns the whole. Do I linger.' Nay, be it so, then ! . . . Soul to soul !" She kntlt clown, and prav'd. Still the boy slumber'd on. Dawn broke. The pale nun from the bedside was gone. ..- ■? w^rm^'W^ /. UCILE. 3n Meanwhile, 'mid his aides-de-camp, busily bent O'er the daily reports, in his well-order 'd tent There sits a French General — bronzed by the sun And sear'd by the sands of Algeria. One Who forth from the wars of the wild Kabylee Had strangely and rapidly risen to be The idol, the darHng, the dream and the star Of the younger French chivalry : daring in war, And wary in council. He enter'd, indeed, Late in life (and discarding his Bourbonite creed) The Army of France ; and had risen, in part From a singular aptitude proved for the art Of that wild desert warfare of ambush, surprise, And stratagem, which to the French camp supplies Its subtlest intelligence ; partly from chance ; Partly, too, from a name and position which France Was proud to put forward ; but mainly, in fact. From the prudence to plan, and the daring to act, In frequent emergencies startlingly shown, To the rank which he now held, — intrepidly won With many a wound, trench'd in many a scar. From fierce Milianah and Sidi-Sakhdar. .■\11 within, and without, that warm tent seems to bear Smiling token of provident order and care. All about, a well-fed, well-clad soldiery stands In groups round the music of mirth-breathing bands. In and out of the tent, all day long, to and fro. L UCILE. The messengers come, and the messengers go, Upon missions of mercy, or errands of toil : To report how the sapper contends with the soil In the terrible trench, how the sick man is faring In the hospital tent : and, combining, comparing, Constructing, within moves the brain of one man, .Mo\ ing all. He is bending his brow o'er some plan For the hospital service, wise, skilful, humane. The officer standing beside him is fain To refer to the angel solicitous cares Of the Sisters of Charity : one he declares To be known through the camp as a seraph of grace : He has seen, all have seen her indeed, in each place Where suffering is seen, silent, active— the Soeur . . . Soeur . . . how do they call her.^ " Ay, truly, of her 1 have heard much," the General, musing, replies ; " And we owe her already (unless rumor lies) The lives of not few of our bravest. You mean . . . Ay, how they do call her.? . . . the Soeur— Seraphine (Is it not so ?). I rarely forget names once heard." "Yes; the Stfur Seraphine. Her I meant." " On my word, I have much wish'd to see her. I fancy I trace, In some facts traced to her, .something more than the grace Of an angel : I mean an acute human mind. Ingenious, constructive, intelligent. Kind, \ L UCILE. 319 And, if possible, let her come to me. We shall, I think, aid each other."' •' Qui, mon General ; I believe she has lately obtain'd the permission To tend some sick man in the Second Division Of our Ally : they say a relation." " Ay, so ? A relation .-'" '• 'T is said so." " The name do you know ?' " Xofi, moil General." While they spoke )et, there went A murmur and stir round the door of the tent. " A Sister of Charity craves, in a case Of urgent and serious importance, the grace Of brief private speech with the General there. Will the General speak with her ?" •• Bid her declare Her mission." •' She will not. She craves to be seen And be heard." •' Well, her name then.?" " The Soeur Seraphine." ■■ Clear the tent. She may enter." XXll. The tent has been clear'd The chieftain stroked moodily somewhat his beard A sable long silver'd : and press'd down his brow On his hand, heavy vein"d. All his countenance, now 320 Z UCILE. Unwitness'd, at once fell dejected, and drearv, As a curtain let fall by a hand that 's grown weary. Into puckers and folds. From his lips, unrepress'd, Steals th' impatient quick sigh, which reveals in man's breast A conflict conceal'd, an experience at strife With itself. — the vex'd heart's passing protest on life. He turn'd to his papers. He heard the light tread Of a faint foot behind him : and, lifting his head. Said, " Sit, Holy Sister ! your worth is well known To the hearts of our soldiers ; nor less to mv own. I have much wish'd to see you. I owe you some thanks : In the name of all those you have saved to our ranks I record them. Sit I Now then, your mission }" The nun Paused silent. The General eyed her anon More keenly. His aspect grew troubled. A change Darken 'd over his features. He mutter'd . . . " Strange I strange ! Any face should so strongly remind me of Iwr .' Fool ! again the delirium, the dream ! does it stir.' Does it move as of old } Psha I " Sit, Sister ! 1 wait Your answer, my time halts but hurriedly. .State The cause why you seek me ?" " The cause ? ay, the cause .'' She vaguely repeated. Then, after a pause, — .'Vs one who, awaked unawares, would put back The sleep that forever returns in the track m L UCILE. 321 '-ag. 0{ dreams which, though scared and dispersed, not the less Settle back to faint eyelids that yield 'neath their stress. Like doves to a penthouse, — a movement she maile, Less toward him than away from herself; droop'd her head And folded her hands on her bosom : long, spare, f^atigued, mournful hands ! Not a stream of stray hair Escaped the pale bands ; scarce more pale than the face Which thev bound and lock'd up in a rigid white case. She fix'd her eyes on him. There crept a vague awe O'er his sense, such as ghosts cast. " Eugene de Luvois, The cause which recalls me again to your side. Is a promise that rests unfulfiU'd," she replied. " I come to fulfil it." He sprang from the place Where he sat, press'd his hand, as in doubt, o'er his face ; And, cautiously feeling each step o'er the ground That he trod on (as one who walks fearing the sound Of his footstep may startle and scare out of sight Some strange sleeping creature on which he would 'light Unawares), crept towards her; one heavy hand laid Z UCILE. On her shoulder in silence ; bent o'er her his head, Search'd her face with a long look of troubled appeal Against doubt; stagger'd backward, and mur- mur'd ..." Lucile ! Thus we meet then ? . . . here ! . . . thus .'" " .Soul to soul, ay, Eugene, As I pledged you my word that we should meet again. Dead, . . ." she murmur'd, "long dead ! all that lived in our lives — Thine and mine — saving that which ev'n life's self survixes. The soul ! 'T is my soul seeks thine own. What may reach From my life to thy life (so wide each from each !| Save the soul to the soul ? To thy soul I would speak. .May I do so?" He said (work 'd and white was his cheek .A.s he raised it), " Speak to me !" Deep, tender, serene, And sad' was the gaze which the Soeur Seraphine Held on him. She spoke. XXIII. As some minstrel may fling, Preluding the music yet mute in each string, A swift hand athwart the hush'd heart of the whole. Seeking which note most fitly may first move the soul ; R > p 3 -0 P CD CL HI L UCILE. 323 And, leaving untroubled the deep chords below, Move pathetic in numbers remote ; — even so The voice which was moving the heart of that man Far away from its yet voiceless purpose began. Far away in the pathos remote of the past ; Until, through her words, rose before him, at last. Bright and dark in their beauty, the hopes that were gone UnaccompHsh'd from life. He was mute. XXIV. She went on. And still further down the dim past did she lead Each yielding remembrance, far, far off, to feed 'Mid the pastures of youth, in the twilight of hope, And the valleys of boyhood, the fresh-flower'd slope Of life's dawning land ! T is the heart of a boy, With its indistinct, passionate prescience of joy ! The unproved desire— the unaim'd aspiration— The deep conscious life that forestalls consumma- tion ; With ever a flitting delight— one arm's length In advance of the august inward impulse. The strength Of the spirit which troubles the seed in the sand With the birth of the palm-tree ! Let ages expand The glorious creature ! The ages lie shut (Safe, see !) in the seed, at time's signal to put Forth their beauty and power, leaf by leaf, layer on layer, 'x^m^ L UCILE. Till the palm strikes the sun, and stands broad in blue air. So the palm in the palm-seed ! so, slowly — so, wrought Year by year unperceived, hope on hope, thought by thought. Trace the growth of the man from its germ in the boy. Ah, but Nature, that nurtures, may also destroy 1 Charm the wind and the sun, lest some chance intervene I While the leaf 's in the bud, while the stem 's in the green, A Ught bird bends the branch, a light breeze breaks the bough, Which, if spared by the light breeze, the light bird, may grow To bafifle the tempest, and rock the high nest. And take both the bird and the breeze to its breast. Shall we save a whole forest in sparing one seed } Save the man in the boy ? in the thought save the deed? Let the whirlwind uproot the grown tree, if it can ! Save the seed from the north wind. So let the grown man Face out fate. Spare the man-seed in youth. He was dumb. She went one step further. XXV. Lo ! manhood is come. And love, the wild song-bird, hath tlown to the tree, V^ L UCILE. 325 Aiul the whirlwind comes after. Now prove we, and see : What shade from the leaf? what support from the branch ? Spreads the leaf broad and fair ? holds the bough strong and stanch ? There, he saw himself— dark, as he stood on that night. The last when they met and they parted : a sight For heaven to mourn o'er, for hell to rejoice ! An ineffable tenderness troubled her voice ; It grew weak, and a sigh broke it through. Then he said (Never looking at her, never lifting his head. As though, at his feet, there lay visibly hurl'd Those fragments), " It was not a love, 't was a world, 'T was a life that lay ruin'd, Lucile !" XXVI. She went on, " So be it ! Perish Babel, arise Babylon 1 From ruins like these rise the fanes that shall last, And to build up the future heaven shatters the past.'* " Ay," he moodily murmur'd, "and who cares to scan The heart's perish'd world, if the world gains a man ? From the past to the present, though late, I appeal ; To the nun Seraphine, from the woman Lucile !" XXVII. Lucile ! . . . the old name— the old self ! silenced long : Heard once more ! felt once more ! «SI w '^^' 326 Z UCILE. As some soul to the throng Of invisible spirits admitted, baptized By death to a new name and nature — surprised 'Mid the songs of the seraphs, hears faintly, and far, Some voice from the earth, left below a dim star. Calling to her forlornly; and (sadd'ning the psalms Of the angels, and piercing the Paradise palms I) The name borne 'mid earthly beloveds on earth Sigh'd above some lone grave in the land of her birth ;— So that one word . . . Lucile ! . . , stirr'd the Soeur Seraphine, For a moment. Anon she resumed her serene And concentrated calm. " Let the Nun, then, retrace The life of the Soldier I" . . . she said, with a face That glow'd, gladdening her words. " To the Present I come : Leave the Past !" There her voice rose, and seem'd as when some Pale Priestess proclaims from her temple the praise Of the hero whose brows she is crowning with bays. Step by step did she follow his path from the place Where their two paths diverged. Year by year did she trace (Familiar with all) his, the soldier's existence. Her words were of trial, endurance, resistance ; Of the leaguer around this besieged world of ours : And the same sentinels that ascend the same towers And report the same foes, the same fears, the same strife, ^m. LUCILE. 327 Waged alike to the limits of each human life. She went on to speak of the lone moody lord. Shut up in his lone moody halls : every word Held the weight of a tear : she recorded the good He had patiently wrought through a whole neigh- borhood ; And the blessing that lived on the lips of the poor, By the peasant's hearthstone, or the cottager's door. There she paused : and her accents seem'd dipp'd in the hue Of his own sombre heart, as the picture she drew Of the poor, proud, sad spirit, rejecting love's wages. Yet working love's work ; reading backwards life's pages For penance ; and stubbornly, many a time, Both missing the moral, and marring the rhyme. Then she spoke of the soldier ! . . . the man's work and fame. The pride of a nation, a world's just acclaim ! Life's inward approval ! XXVIII. Her voice reach 'd his heart. And sank lower. She spoke of herself : how, apart And unseen, — far away, — she had watch'd, year by year, With how many a blessing, how many a tear, And how many a prayer, every stage in the strife : Guess'd the thought in the deed : traced the love in the life : Bless'd the man in the man's work I (A-.-J LUCILE. "Thy work ... oh not mine! Thine, Lucile !" . . . he exclaim'd ..." all the worth of it thine If worth there be in it !" Her answer convey 'd His reward, and her own : joy that cannot be said Alone by the voice . . . eyes — face — spoke silently All the woman, one grateful emotion ! And she A poor Sister of Charity ! hers a life spent In one silent effort for others ! . . . She bent Her divine face above him, and till'd up his heart With the look that glow'd from it. Then slow, with soft art. Fix'd her aim, and moved to it. XXIX. He, the soldier humane. He, the hero ; whose heart hid in glory the pain Of a youth disappointed ; whose life had made known The value of man's life ! . . . that youth over- thrown And retrieved, had it left him no pity for youth In another ? his own life of strenuous truth .Accomplish'd in act, had it taught him no care For the life of another ? ... oh no ! everywhere In the camp which she moved through, she came face to face With some noble token, some generous trace Of his active humanity . . . L UCILE. 329 " Well," he replied, " If it be so ?" " I come from the solemn bedside Of a man that is dying," she said. " While we speak, A life is in jeopardy." " Quick then ! you seek Aid or medicine, or what .''" " 'T is not needed," she said. " Medicine ? yes, for the mind I 'T is a heart that needs aid ! You, Eugene de Luvois, you (and you only) can Save the life of this man. Will you save it.'" " What man } How ? . . . where } . . . can you ask ?" She went rapidly on To her object in brief vivid words . . . The young son Of Matilda and Alfred— the boy lying there Half a mile from that tent door — the father's de- spair. The mother's deep anguish — the pride of the boy In the father — the father's one hope and one joy In the son : — the son now — wounded, dying! She told Of the father's stern struggle with life : the boy's bold. Pure, and beautiful nature : the fair life before him If that life were but spared ... yet a word might restore him ! The bov's broken love for the niece of Eugene ! '■^i fj .r'' ^ i 330 LUCILE. \ Its pathos : the girl's love for him ; how, half slain In his tent she had found him : won from him the tale; Sought to nurse back his life ; found her efforts still fail : Beaten back by a love that was stronger than life ; Of how bravely till then he had stood in that strife Wherein England and France in their best blood, at last, Had bathed from remembrance the wounds of the past. And shall nations be nobler than men ? Are not great Men the models of nations ? For what is a state But the many's confused imitation of one ? Shall he, the fair hero of France, on the son Of his ally seek vengeance, destroying perchance An innocent life,— here, when England and France Have forgiven the sins of their fathers of yore, And baptized a new hope in their sons' recent gore ? She went on to tell how the boy had clung still To life, for the sake of life's uses, until From his weak hands the strong effort dropp'd, stricken down By the news that the heart of Constance, like his own. Was breaking beneath . . . But there *' Hold !" he exclaim'd, Interrupting, "forbear!" ... his whole face was intiamed With the heart's swarthy thunder which yet, while she spoke, 1 ^ M LUCILE. 331 Had been gathering silent — at last the storm broke In grief or in wrath. . . . " 'T is to him, then," he cried, . . . Checking suddenly short the tumultuous stride, " That I owe these late greetings — for him yqu are here — For his sake you seek me — for him, it is clear, You have deign 'd at the last to bethink you again Of this long-forgotten existence !" " Eugene !" " Ha ! fool that I was !" . . . he went on, . . . " and just now. While you spoke yet, my heart was beginning to grow Almost boyish again, almost sure of otie friend ! Yet this was the meaning of all — this the end I Be it so ! There 's a sort of slow justice (admit !) In this — that the word that man's finger hath writ In fire on my heart, I return him at last. Let him learn that word — Never !" " Ah, still to the past Must the present be vassal ?" she said. " In the hour We last parted I urged you to put forth the power Which I felt to be yours, in the conquest of life. Yours, the promise to strive : mine, — to watch o'er the strife. I foresaw you would conquer ; you have conquer'd much. Much, indeed, that is noble ! I hail it as such. And am here to record and applaud it. I saw Not the less in your nature, Eugene de Luvois, One peril — one point where I fear'd you would fail \9- f*- 5^^ I 332 /. UCILE. ^%V^? To subdue that worst foe which a man can assail, — Himself : and I promised that, if I should see My champion once falter, or bend the brave knee, That moment would bring me again to his side. That .moment is come ! for that peril was pride. And you falter. I plead for yourself, and one other, For that gentle child without father or mother, To whom you are both. I plead, soldier of France, For your own nobler nature — and plead for Con- stance !" At the sound of that name he averted his head. "Constance! . . . Ay, she enter'd my lone life" (he said) "When its sun was long set ; and hung over its night Her own starry childhood. I have but that light. In the midst of much darkness ! Who names me but she With titles of love ? and what rests there for me In the silence of age save the voice of that child .' The child of my own better life, undefiled ! My creature, carved out of my heart of hearts !" " Say," Said the Sceur Seraphine — " are you able to lay Your hand as a knight on your heart as a man And swear that, whatever may happen, you can Feel assured for the life you thus cherish }" " How so.' ' He look'd up. " If the boy should die thus ?" " Yes, I know What your look would imply . . . this sleek stranger forsooth ! 1^ .'^^Sfe L ucriE. 333 ^K. Because on his cheek was the red rose of youth The heart of my niece must break for it !" She cried, " Nay, but hear me yet further !" With slow hea\ \ stride. Unheeding her words, he was pacing the tent. He was muttering low to himself as he went. " Ay, these young things lie safe in our heart just so long As their wings are in growing ; and when these are strong They break it, and farewell ! the bird flies I" . . . The nun Laid her hand on the soldier, and murmur'd, " The sun Is descending, life fleets while we talk thus ! oh, yet Let this day upon one final victory set, And complete a life's conquest !" He said, " Understand ! If Constance wed the son of this man, by whose hand My heart hath been robb'd, she is lost to my life I Can her home be my home ? Can I claim in the wife Of that man's son the child of my age ? At her side Shall he stand on my hearth ? Shall I sue to the bride Of . . . enough ! " Ah, and you immemorial halls Of my Norman forefathers, whose shadow yet falls On my fancy, and fuses hope, memory, past. Present, — all, in one silence ! old trees to the blast Of the North Sea repeating the tale of old days. Nevermore, nevermore in the wild bosky ways 334 Z UCILE. Shall I hear through your umbrage ancestral the wind Prophesy as of yore, when it shook the deep mind Of my boyhood, with whispers from out the far years Of love, fame, the raptures life cook down with tears ! Henceforth shall the tread of a Vargrave alone Rouse your echoes ?" " O think not," she said, " of the son Of the man whom unjustly you hate ; only think Of this young human creature, that cries from the brink <^f a grave to your mercy ! " Recall your own words (Words my memory mournfully ever records !) How with love may be wreck'd a whole life I then, Eugene, Look with me (still those words in our ears I ) once again At this young soldier sinking from life here — dragg'd down By the weight of the love in his heart : no renown. No fame comforts him! nations shout not above The lone grave down to which he is bearing the love Which life has rejected ! ^\\\ you stand apart ? You, with such a love's memory deep in your heart I You the hero, whose life hath perchance been led on Through the deeds it hath wrought to the fame it hath won, By recalling the visions and dreams of a youth, Suchasliesatyour door now: who have but, in truth, iK. L UCILE. 335 To stretch forth a hand, to speak only one word, And by that word you rescue a life !" He was stirr'd. Still he sought to put from him the cup ; bow'd his face On his hand ; and anon, as though wishing to chase With one angry gesture his own thoughts aside, He sprang up, brush'd past her, and bitterly cried. .. No !— Constknce wed a Vargrave !— I cannot con- sent !" Then up rose the Soeur Seraphine. The low tent. In her sudden uprising, seem'd dwarf 'd by the height From which those imperial eyes pour'd the light Of their deep silent sadness upon him. No wonder He felt, as it were, his own stature shrink under The compulsion of th'at grave regard ! For between The Due de Luvois and the Soeur Seraphine At that moment there rose all the height of one soul O'er another ; she look'd down on him from the whole Lonely length of a life. There were sad nights and days, There were long months and years in that heart- searching gaze ; And her voice, when she spoke, with sharp pathos thrill'd through And transfix'd him. " Eugene de Luvois, but for you, I might have been now— not this wandering nun. But a mother, a wife — pleading, not for the son Of another, but blessing some child of my own, His, — the man's that I once loved ! . . . Hush ! that which is done 1 regret not. I breathe no reproaches. That "s best Which God sends. 'T was His will : it is mine. And the rest Of that riddle I will not look back to. He reads In your heart — He that judges of all thoughts and deeds. With eyes, mine forestall not ! This only I say : You have not the right (read it, you, as you may !) To say ... 'I am the wrong'd." " . . . " Have I wrong'd thee.' — wrong'd thcc !' He falter'd, " Lucile, ah, Lucile !" " Nay, not me," She murmur'd, " but man I The lone nun standing here Has no claim upon earth, and is pass'd from the sphere Of earth's wrongs and earth's reparations. But she. The dead woman, Lucile, she whose grave is in me. Demands from her grave reparation to man. Reparation to God. Heed, O heed, while you can This voice from the grave !" " Hush !" he moan'd, " I obey The Soeur Seraphine. There, Lucile ! let this pay Every debt that is due to that grave. Now lead on : I follow you, ScEur Seraphine ! ... To the son Of Lord Alfred Vargrave . . . and then, "... As he spoke L UCILE. 337 He lifted the tent-door, and down the dun smcke Pointed out the dark bastions, with batteries crown'd. Of the city beneath them . . . " Then, there, underground, And valete et plaudite, soon as may be ! Let the old tree go down to the earth— the old tree. With the worm at its heart ! Lay the axe to the root ! Who will miss the old stump, so we save the young shoot ? A Vargrave ! . . . this pays all . . . Lead on I . . . In the seed Save the forest ! . . . "I follow . . . forth, forth! where you lead." XXX. The day was declining ; a day sick and damp. In a blank ghostly glare shone the bleak ghostly camp Of the Enghsh. Alone in his dim, spectral tent (Himself the wan spectre of youth), with eyes bent On the daylight departing, the sick man was sitting Upon his low pallet. These thoughts, vaguely flitting, Cross'd the silence between him and death, which seem'd near. — " Pain o'erreaches itself, so is balk'd ! else, how bear This intense and intolerable solitude, With its eye on my heart and its hand on my blood? Pulse by pulse ! Day goes down : yet she comes not again. Other suffering, doubtless, where hope is more plain. b f'f^ Claims her elsewhere. I die, strange I and scarcely feel sad. Oh, to think of Constance //aes, and not to go mad I Hut Death, it would seem, dulls the sense to his own Dull doings ..." XXXI. Between those sick eyes and the sun A shadow fell thwart. XXXII. 'T is the pale nun once more I But who stands at her side, mute and dark in the door .'' How oft had he watch'd through the glory and gloom Of the battle, with long, longing looks that dim plume Which now (one stray sunbeam upon it) shook. stoop'd To where the tent-curtain, dividing, was loop'd ! How that stern face had haunted and hover'd about The dreams it still scared ! through what fond fear and doubt Had the boy yearn'd in heart to the hero ! (What's like A boy's love for some famous man ?) . . . (^h. to strike A wild path through the battle, down striking per- chance Some rash foeman too near the great soldier of France, And so fall in his glorious regard I . . . < )ft. how oft L UCILE. 339 Had his heart flash'd this hope out, whilst watching aloft The dim battle that plume dance and dart — never seen So near till this moment ! how eager to glean Every stray word, dropp'd through the camp-babble in praise Of his hero — each tale of old venturous days In the desert! And now . . . could he speak out his heart Face to face with that man ere he died ! XXXIII. With a start The sick soldier sprang up : the blood sprang up in him, To his throat, and o'erthrew him : he reel'd back : a dim Sanguine haze fiU'd his eyes ; in his ears rose the din And rush, as of cataracts loosen'd within, Through which he saw faintly, and heard, the pale nun (Looking larger than life, where she stood in the sun) Point to him and murmur, " Behold !" Then that plume Seem'd to wave like a fire, and fade off in the gloom Which momently put out the world. XXXIV. To his side Moved the man the boy dreaded yet loved . . . •• Ah I" . . . he sigh'd. t:^ 340 L UCILE. " The smooth brow, the fair \'argra\-e face ! and those eyes, All the mother's ! The old things again ! " Do not rise. You suffer, young man?" The Bov. Sir, I die. The Duke. Not so young ! The JBOY. So young ? yes ! and yet I have tangled among The fray'd warp and woof of this brief life of mine Other lives than my own. Could my death but untwine The vext skein . . . but it will not. Yes, Duke, young — so young ! And I knew you not .-' yet I have done you a wrong Irreparable ! . . . late, too late to repair. If I knew any means . . . but I know none I ... I swear. If this broken fraction of time could extend Into infinite lives of atonement, no end Would seem too remote for my grief (could that be !) To include it ! Not too late, however, for me To entreat : is it too late for you to forgive .-' The Duke. You wrong — my forgiveness — explain. The Boy. Could I live! Such a ven' few hours left to life, vet I shrink. ^.- LUCILE. 341 ■ Off ! he I falter! . . . Yes, Duke, your forgiveness I think Should free my soul hence. Ah ! you could not surmise That a boy's beating heart, burning thoughts, long- ing eyes Were following you evermore (heeded not !) While the battle was flowing between us : nor what Eager, dubious footsteps at nightfall oft went With the wind and the rain, round and round your blind tent. Persistent and wild as the wind and the rain, Unnoticed as these, weak as these, and as vain ! - Oh, how obdurate then look'd your tent ! The waste air Orew stern at the gleam which said . is there !" I know not what merciful mystery now Brings you here, whence the man whom you see lying low Other footsteps (not those !) must soon hear to the grave. But death is at hand, and the few words I have Yet to speak, I must speak them at once. Duke, I swear. As I lie here (Death's angel too close not to hear!). That I meant not this wrong to you. Due de Luvois, I loved your niece— loved ? why, I love her ! I saw, And, seeing, how could I but love her? I seem'd Born to love her. Alas, were that all ! Had I dream 'd 342 ^^-->*«.;^:r;rF^af,^p%P^?.jL^^^^^7^^^r'-Yli^ L UCILE. Of this love's cruel consequence as it rests now E\er fearfully present before me. I vow- That the secret, unknown, had gone down to the tomb Into which I descend ... Oh why, whilst there was room In life left for warning, had no one the heart To warn me .- Had any one whisper 'd ..." De- part !" To the hope the whole world seem'd in league then to nurse I Had any one hinted ..." Beware of the curse Which is coming !" There was not a voice raised lo tell. Not a hand moved to warn from the blow ere it fell. And then . . . then the blow fell on both ! This is why I implore you to pardon that great injur)- Wrought on her, and, through her, wrought on vou. Heaven knows How unwittingh ! The Duke. Ah ! . . . and, young soldier, suppose That I came here to seek, not grant, pardon .'— The Boy. The Duke. Of wiiom ■* < )f yourself. The Boy. Duke, I bear in my heart to the tomb No boyish resentment ; not one lonely thougin yf %M^ L UCILE. 343 That honors you not. In all this there is naught 'T is for me to forgive. Every glorious act Of your great life starts forward, an eloquent fact. To confirm in my boy's heart its faith in your own. And have I not hoarded, to ponder upon, A hundred great acts from your life ? Nay, all these, Were they so many lying and false witnesses, Does there rest not one voice, which was never untrue ? I believe in Constance, Duke, as she does in you ! In this great world around us, wherever we turn, Some grief irremediable we discern ; And yet — there sits God, calm in Heaven above ! Do we trust one whit less in his justice or love ? I judge not. The Duke. Enough ! Hear at last, then, the truth. Your father and I — foes we were in our youth. It matters not why. Yet thus much understand : The hope of my youth was sign'd out by his hand. I was not of those whom the buffets of fate Tame and teach : and my heart buried slain love in hate. If your own frank young heart, yet unconscious of all Which turns the heart's blood in its springtide to gall. And unable to guess even aught that the furrow Across these gray brows hides of sin or of sorrow. Comprehends not the evil and grief of my life, 'Twill at least comprehend how intense was thi- strife "^ LUCILE. Which is closed in this act of atonement, wherebv I seek in the son of my youth's enemy The friend ol my age. Let the present release Here acquitted the past ! In the name of my niece, Whom for my life in yours as a hostage I gi\e. Are you great enough, boy, to forgive me, — and live? Whilst he spoke thus, a doubtful tumultuous joy Chased its fleeting effects o'er the face of the boy : As when some stormy moon, in a long cloud con- fined. Struggles outward through shadows, the varying wind Alternates, and bursts, self-surprised, from her prison, So that slow joy grew clear in his face. He had risen To answer the Duke ; but strength fail'd every limb ; A strange, happy feebleness trembled through him. With a faint cry of rapturous wonder, he sank On the breast of the nun, who stood near. " Yes, boy ! thank This guardian angel," the Duke said. " I — you. We owe all to her. Crown her work. Live ! be true To your young life's fair promise, and live for her sake !" "Yes, Duke : I will live. I must live— live to make My whole life the answer you claim," the boy said, " For joy does not kill !" Hack again the faint head L UCILE. 345 Declined on the nun's gentle bosom. She saw His lips quiver, andmotion'd the Duke to withdraw And leave them a moment together. He eyed Them both with a wistful regard ; turn'd, and sigh'd, And lifted the tent-door, and pass'd from the tent. XXXV. Like a furnace, the fervid, intense Occident From its hot seething levels a great glare struck up On the sick metal sky. And, as out of a cup Some witch watches boiling wild portents arise. Monstrous clouds, mass'd, misshapen, and ting'd with strange dyes, Huver'd over the red fume, and changed to weird shapes As of snakes, salamanders, efts, lizards, storks, apes. Chimeras, and hydras : whilst— ever the same— In the midst of all these (creatures fused by his flame, And changed by his influence !) changeless, as when. Ere he lit down to death generations of men. O'er that crude and ungainly creation, which there With wild shapes this cloud-world seem'd to mimic in air. The eye of Heaven's all-judging witness, he shone. And shall shine on the ages we reach not— the sun ! XXXVI. Nature posted her parable thus in the skies, And the man's heart bore witness. Life's vapors arise :.» ^^•r:^^ "^ LUCILE. And fall, pass and change, group themselves and revolve Round the great central life, which is Love : these dissolve And resume themselves, here assume beauty, there terror ; And the phantasmagoria of infinite error. And endless complexity, lasts but a while ; Life's self, the immortal, immutable smile Of God, on the soul, in the deep heart of Heaven Lives changeless, unchanged : and our morning and even Are earth's alternations, not Heaven's. XXXVII. While he yet Watch 'd the skies, with this thought in his heart ; while he set Thus unconsciously all his life forth in his mind, Summ'd it up, search'd it out, proved it vapor and wind. And embraced the new life which that hour had reveal'd, — Love's life, which earth's life had defaced and con- ceal 'd ; Lucile left the tent and stood by him. Her tread Aroused him ; and, turning towards her, he said : •■ O Soeur Seraphine, are you happy?" " Eugene, What is happier than to have hoped not in vain ?"" She answer'd, — " And you ?'" \ •J^"^^ i^ "'^ ■',;♦, LUCILE. Yes." ^■^----T-— -T?OT?^.^ 34: "You do not repent ?" "No." " Thank Heaven !" she murmur'd. He musinj^^ly bent His looks on the sunset, and somewhat apart Where he stood, sigh'd, as though to his innermost heart, " O blessed are they, amongst whom I was not, Whose morning unclouded, without stain or spot, Predicts a pure evening ; who, sunlike, in light Have traversed, unsullied, the world, and set bright !" But she in response, " Mark yon ship far away. Asleep on the wave, in the last light of day, With all its hush'd thunders shut up ! Would you know A thought which came to me a few days ago, Whilst watching those ships ? . . . When the great Ship of Life Surviving, though shatter'd, the tumult and strife Of earth's angry element, — masts broken short. Decks drench'd, bulwarks beaten — drives safe into port. When the Pilot of Galilee, seen on the strand, Stretches over the waters a welcoming hand ; When, heeding no longer the sea's baffled roar. The mariner turns to his rest evermore ; What will then be the answer the helmsman must '>^ 348 L UCILE. Will it be ... ' Lo our log-book ! Thus once did we live In the zones of the South ; thus we traversed the seas Of the Orient ; there dwelt with the Hesperides ; Thence foUow'd the west wind ; here, eastward we turn'd ; The stars fail'd us there ; just here land we dis- cern 'd On our lee ; there the storm overtook us at last ; That day went the bowsprit, the next day the mast ; There the mermen came round us, and there we saw bask A siren ? ' The Captain of Port will he ask Any one of such questions? I cannot think so! But . . . ' What is the last Bill of Health you can show } ' Not — How fared the soul through the trials she pass'd } But — What is the state of that soul at the last ?" " May it be so !" he sigh'd. " There ! the sun drops, behold !" And indeed, whilst he spoke all the purple and gold In the west had turn'd ashen, save one fading strip Of light that yet gleam 'd from the dark nether lij) Of a long reef of cloud ; and o'er sullen ravines And ridges the raw damps were hanging white screens Of melancholy mist. " Nunc dimittis !" she said. "O (ii)(i of the living! whilst yet 'mid the dead L UCILE. 349 And the dying we stand here alive, and thy days Returning, admit space for prayer and for praise, In both these confirm us ! " The helmsman, Eugene, Needs the compass to steer by. Pray always. Again We two part : each to work out Heaven's will : you, trust, In the world's ample witness; and I, as I must, In secret and silence : you, love, fame, await ; Me, sorrow and sickness. We meet at one gate When all 's o\er. The ways they are many and wide. And seldom are two ways the same. Side by side May we stand at the same little door when all 's done ! The ways they are many, the end it is one. He that knocketh shall enter : who asks shall obtain : And who seeketh, he findeth. Remember, Eugene !" She turn'd to depart. "Whither? whither.?" . . . he said She stretch'd forth her hand where, already out- spread On the darken'd horizon, remotely they saw The French camp-fires kindling. " O Due de Luvois, See yonder vast host, with its manifold heart Made as one man's by one hope ! That hope 't is your part To aid towards achievement, to save from reverse : Mine, through suffering to soothe, and through sickness to nurse. I go to my work : you to yours." 350 Z UCILE. xxxviu. Whilst she spoke, On the wide wasting evening there distantly broke The low roll of musketry. Straightway, anon, I'>om the dim Flag-staff Batter)' bellow "d a gun. " Our chasseurs are at it !" he mutter'd. She turn'd, Smiled, and pass'd up the twilight. He faintly discern'd Her form, now and then, on the flat lurid sky Rise, and sink, and recede through the mists : !)v and by The vapors closed round, and he saw her no more. XXXIX. Nor shall we. For her mission, accomplish'd, is o'er. The mission of genius on earth ! To uplift. Purify, and confirm by its own gracious gift. The world, in despite of the world's dull endeavor To degrade, and drag down, and oppose it forever. The mission of genius : to watch, and to wait. To renew, to redeem, and to regenerate. The mission of woman on earth ! to gi\e birth To the mercy of Heaven descending on earth. The mission of woman : permitted to bruise The head of the .serpent, and sweetly infuse. Through the sorrow and .sin of earth's register'd curse. The blessing which mitigates all : born to nurse, And to soothe, and to solace, to hel]) and to heal The sick world thai leans on her. This was Lucile. J.^ ^ JoM^ _ J^^- ^ ^ I' r ■'SSii, Z UCILE. XL. 351 A power hid in pathos : a fire veil'd in cloud : Yet still burning outward : a branch which, though bow'd By the bird in its passage, springs upward again : Through all symbols I search for her sweetness--in vain ! judge her love by her life. For our life is but love In act. Pure was hers : and the dear God above, Who knows what His creatures have need of for life. And whose love includes all loves, through much patient strife Led her soul into peace. Love, though love may be given In vain, is yet lovely. Her own native heaven More clearly she mirror'd, as life's troubled dream Wore away ; and love sigh'd into rest, like a stream That breaks its heart over wild rocks toward the shore Of the great sea which hushes it up evermore With its little wild wailing. No stream from its source Flows seaward, how lonely soever its course. But what some land is gladden'd. No star ever rose And set, without influence somewhere. Who knows What earth needs from earth's lowest creature ? No life Can be pure in its purpose and strong in its strife And all life not be purer and stronger thereby. 352 LUCILE. The spirits of just men made perfect on high. The army of martyrs who stand by the Throne And gaze into the Face that makes glorious their own, Know this, surely, at last. Honest love, honest sorrow. Honest work for the day. honest hope for the morrow. Are these worth nothing more than the hand they make weary. The heart thev have sadden'd, the life they leavt- dreary ? Hush ! the sevenfold heavens to the voice of the Spirit Echo: He that o'ercometh shall all things inherit. XLI. The moon was, in fire, carried up through the fog ; The loud fortress bark'd at her like a chain'd dog The horizon pulsed flame, the air sound. All with- out. War and winter, and twilight, and terror, and doubt ; All within, light, warmth, calm ! In the twilight, longwhile Eugene de Luvois with a deep, thoughtful smile Linger'd, looking, and listening, lone by the tent. 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