IDE L BRARY 3 1210019304813 ' : ffl I : m m '-'-'"''' NHEIM [See page 307 NOW, WHAT IS THERE FOR ME TO DO?" THE OLYMPIAN A STORY OF THE CITY BY JAMES OPPENHEIM AUTHOR OF "THE NINE-TENTHS" COPYRIGHT. 1912. BY HARPER ft BROTHERS PRINTED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA PUBLISHED SEPTEMBER. 1912 G M TO L. S. G. AND A. H. G. CONTENTS CHAP. PAGE I. ADVENTURE i II. THE SEA-CITY 13 III. THE OUTSIDER 24 IV. GLIMPSES OF THE DARK 35 V. GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT 43 VI. BESS: A SHOP-GIRL 54 VII. AN EVENING WITH LADIES 68 VIII. THE BRAIN-BROKERS 75 IX. THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER 84 X. FRANCES 94 XI. CLERKS 104 XII. ALTERCATION WITH A LADY 117 XIII. THE SLOW WAY 129 XIV. TROUBLE BEGINS 144 XV. TROUBLE CONTINUES .156 XVI. THE FAVORITE 171 XVII. THE WOMAN 179 XVIII. THE RIDE 192 XIX. THE RETURN 209 XX. SUCCESS 213 XXI. THE RIVAL 224 XXII. QUICKSANDS 237 XXIII. PENDLETON 246 XXIV. THE SKYROCKET 259 CONTENTS CHAP. PAGE XXV. THE CLIFFS 269 XXVI. A FAIRY TALE 286 XXVII. THREE HARD HEADS 299 XXVIII. FAME 313 XXIX. KIRBY YES-AND-NO 322 XXX. THE LAKE ^,, . v 336 XXXI. THE MACHINE .' >.>Xi 349 XXXII. KATIE 361 XXXIII. WIPING UP THE FLOOR 372 XXXIV. A NEW LIFE-WORK .-.-.- 383 XXXV. THE ERRAND 397 XXXVI. THE SKYSCRAPER 408 THE OLYMPIAN THE OLYMPIAN ADVENTURE FINALLY at ten-thirty of the cool October night Kirby and the New York traveling salesman were left alone in the smoking-compartment. Kirby was not pleased at this; it seemed to necessitate either talking or going to bed, whereas, all he wanted was to sink back in the leather cushions and let the rhythm of the car-wheels blend with the rhythm of Mrs. Hadden's voice as he had heard it the day before the strange and thrilling woman voice speaking to the man in him : " Kirby, you are going to be a great man. I expect you to rise to the top capture the city. And I give you ten years. Even then you'll only be thirty-four." Mirrors over the nickeled wash-basins threw back myriad electric lights, and the air was blue with tobacco-smoke; in the smoke he wanted to visualize the liquid blue eyes, the full lips, the light golden hair of this woman who had awakened him, who had chained on his armor and set lance in his hand to send him forth on youth's great modern adventure, the City. Her voice on summer nights was remembered; the pressure of her hand had gone into his brain and made him powerful. And the fact that she was Professor Hadden's wife and all of twenty- eight years old made no difference: she was woman and he was twenty-four. i THE OLYMPIAN However, the salesman had that essential humanness that finds it intolerable to be alone with another and not speak. "Say," he exclaimed, pressing his nose against the dark mirror-like window, "don't miss this quick." Kirby, flushed with vexation, leaned over the perfumed fellow, and looked. A vision shone and passed, swal lowed in night; the sublime spectacle of window-lit mills at the riverside girdling with darkness the fierce flaming of the Bessemer converter, whose several swelling tongues of fire licked at the flaring clouds and crumbled in showers of golden snow. Against that burning a lone some one-armed telegraph-post was silhouetted, a voice in the darkness, passing. Then heaven and earth grew black again; and Kirby saw merely himself and the sales man gazing back from the night. "You know what mills those are?" "No," murmured Kirby. "Steel steel, man!" Kirby felt a wave of excitement pass over him. "Not the American Steel Company?" "The same sure!" "You mean Jordan Watts's mills those?" "Goodness, they're all his, except the piker inde pendents." It was a dramatic moment for Kirby, expected yet un- looked for. He had known, of course, that the train would pass the mills; had he been more alert he should have watched after leaving Pittsburgh. Now he was shocked out of his reverie, and sat back thrilling. For in his pocket he carried a letter from Mrs. Hadden ad dressed to the great captain of industry, Jordan Watts. Every phrase in it came clear: "You may remember me; at least your daughter Mary will. For she and I worked together at Halsey Street Settlement, and you gave me valuable advice concerning boys' clubs. But that seems long ago. Since then I ADVENTURE have married Professor Hadden, of Trent Academy, Trent, Iowa. ... I am writing this to introduce to you Kirby Trask, a young man of twenty-four, the most promising young man in this Middle Western town. Indeed, he is most remarkable!" Then followed glowing praise that made Kirby 's cheeks burn when he thought of it; and then, finally: "He will be quite alone in the city and must make his own way. Therefore I am taking the great liberty of asking Mr. Trask to send this letter to you with his address, for I know that you will understand his difficult undertaking. Most faithfully, JANICE WOODS HADDEN." It was an admirably tactful letter; not a request or direct suggestion in it, merely a hint of possibilities. In fact, Mrs. Hadden cleverly put the responsibility on the shoulders of the steel magnate. The salesman was still talking. "Wonderful, ain't it, how those fellows rose to the top: messenger-boy to millionaire." He chuckled, and blew out smoke. "But them days are over. It takes pull now pull! All the push in the world won't help a fellow. ' ' That was it. Kirby nodded assent. But what if he, lucky mortal, had this "pull" because the woman he wor shiped was fond of him? Those mills might yet flame for him, a night advertisement in the skies of America, and travelers would say: "Sure! Kirby Trask he owns 'em all." Kirby felt a little drunk; he pulsed all over with the young man's dream, and he ached for the morrow. Four hundred miles down the shining tracks stood New York with its aspiring millions: what if he, a fresh- blooded Westerner, attacked the metropolis and took it by storm? He had exactly a hundred dollars in his pocket; but he had youth, untried power, soaring ambi tion and he had been sent out by a woman. No me dieval youth lusted for battle more than he did, and he believed that the day of great deeds had not yet passed over. Mrs. Hadden knew 2 3 THE OLYMPIAN "I give you ten years. Kirby, you are going to be a great man." The steady talk of the salesman broke in again: "Now, just take fellows like you and me. If we rise to five thousand a year at forty we're lucky. Ain't it so? Say, it's your first time in New York, ain't it?" Kirby paled. Was it written all over him that he was a provincial? What was it? Perhaps his clothes, his best, most uncomfortable and looking stiffly new. Perhaps his shyness and diffidence that made him stammer and stumble. Perhaps the atmosphere of rawness and failure that enveloped him. For this man beside him was dif ferent; there was about him an air of success, a suavity and ease of manner, a flow of talk, a well-fed, well-kept exterior, all of which seemed to belong distinctly to a city of theaters, restaurants, and hotels. Yes, and a city of many women easily conquered. Kirby felt a choke in his throat. "Yes," he began, and found to his horror that a pro found emotion welled through his voice, something un canny contrasted with the glib ease of the traveling man. "Yes I'm just starting out " "Middle West?" The other eyed him mercilessly and, as Kirby thought, with amused scorn. "Yes, Iowa." The traveler laughed easily. "Lord, New York has every kind except New-Yorkers. No one was ever born in that little old town. But all the kids of creation come there think they're goin' to set the Hudson on fire. Like as not," he chuckled, "they'll be glad to clerk at ten per. New York's the frozen beauty, all right, and has the cold-shoulder game down to a science." Kirby tried hard to maintain his twenty-four years, but every word made him more of a boy. Tears of shame sprang to his eyes; he felt that speech was impossible; he had a twinge of homesickness; and, above all, he 4 ADVENTURE wanted to get away and hide himself. His dreams seemed to come crashing down about him, and he knew then that he was a lonely lad going to a place of strangers. And home, with every turn of the wheels, was fading in the remote West. He arose, almost falling with the motion of the car. His voice was trembling. "It's late guess I'll turn in." The mirror gave him a flash of himself a thin, middle-sized young man with a stocky head; . . . the heavy hair was black, the lips sharp, the chin strong, and the eyes were a powerful gray. It seemed absurd that that imaged youth, that five-feet-nine of human flesh, should deem himself a coming master of America. Well, he didn't. He bolted out of the door. And coming out he stepped into the narrow precincts of that modern mystery, the "sleeper." For the green curtains were drawn over the two layers of berths, and he passed through the hush of sleep, the consciousness of stretched and sleeping forms on either side. Here an arm projected through the curtain-slit, hanging idly; up on the racks were hats, on the floor were shoes, ready to meet half-way in the morning on a human being, but now oddly far apart; a snoring came from the distance, and the weird, smothered speech of some dreamer, babbling from subliminal depths; and withal, the car swayed, the wheels thumped, bearing the sleeping and the waking through the perils "of dark space. Kirby was over whelmed by the approach of the negro porter, who stepped like the master of these mysteries, the wand-waving genie of this passing realm. "Good night, suh," he whispered under the lowered gas light. "Pants pressed, suh?" Kirby was miserable. He didn't want his trousers pressed, of course; but what would the porter think of him? He spoke tragically. "All right yes press 'em." 5 THE OLYMPIAN Above all things he must show his American equality, which meant doing what proper and prosperous people did. And not knowing the formula, he had to follow the porter's lead. Kirby had a lower berth. He doubled up to get in; then he felt blindly and unavailingly for the push-button that releases an electric light, and in his misery did not dare call the formidable porter. Instead, he undressed in a darkness occasionally flash-lit with some passing lamp, stuffing his clothes in a corner and fearfully secreting his money under his pillow. Now, under soft covers, plunging head first through space, he felt crudely alone. He was nested in peril, the next swing of a curve might shoot the car over an em bankment or bring a telescoping crash. Momently he might be utterly annihilated or caught in burning wreck age. Or a hand might search under his pillow for his fortune. Was that keen-eyed salesman reliable? Why was he staying up? The young man felt penned in a dan gerous kennel, where even sitting up straight bumped his head. He was tired, however, and the wheel-rhythm was soothing. Strangely, then, he felt the full miracle of railroading: the red-hearted seventy-ton engine panting on ahead, releasing its hoarse whistle at bridge and cross ing and curve, and now and then beating its melancholy bell; and he, softly on his back under covers, borne wingedly over a third of a continent. The woodwork creaked, the wheels sang their clanking monotone, and right under his ear he could hear space flow. He felt then as if he were a soul going all alone on its journey through the infinite, passing from mystery to mystery. For a long time, through a night of strange romance, he merely dozed, woke, and dozed again. Once the grinding of brakes aroused him, and he pulled up the shade; and, gazing out, he saw cobblestones beneath a blue-rayed arc- lamp, and on the corner a saloon and three men standing 6 ADVENTURE before it. It seemed to him that life was very fantastic those three awake out there and he gliding past on a bed, all ignorant of the other's destinies. Again he awoke to gaze out on flowing blankness, and then sharply a lonely lighted shanty clinging to the hillside something warm and human stowed away in the night. And then again he saw a lonesome trolley-car that fled up the mountain side like a startled animal. Kirby was creedless ; he came, however, of pious stock, hardy John Browns of the wilder ness, almost fanatical in their prayer and ritual. Kirby had been brought up in no belief; save that he was alive and young and here was life to be lived at top-notch American speed. Nevertheless, the religious streak per sisted, and he felt keenly the mystery of being borne living through the human-dotted night. His dozing kept shuffling his impressions: now it was the flaring sight of a train hand passing the stopped train with searching torch, now the photographed illusion of the New York sky-line, now a scene of boyhood. But one sharp feeling persisted namely, that he was breaking with his entire past and merely by this ride plunging into a revolutionary future. This night was the vague link between the two. And that past, of course, was all that was familiar, homely, tried; it had its pains and miseries, but they were enfolded in something luminous. His had been a slow boyhood, with long delays of sickness and poverty. His father, a high-school teacher, had died when Kirby was ten, and the three thousand dollars of insurance had been dropped by his mother in the American lottery, the get-rich-quick scheme. It was Florida land, "The land," according to the prospectus, "that will make old age happy." Instead, it made young Kirby miserable, for the boy was compelled to bear the double shame of doing menial work and of seeing his mother do washing in the kitchen-tub. Later his two sisters became teachers, somewhat relieving him, but even during the high-school course at Trent Academy he had kept a cow and peddled 7 THE OLYMPIAN milk to the neighbors. Besides, he was twenty-two when he graduated, at least four years older than the average, and he felt the difference keenly. Trent had always been puzzled about Kirby. His eyes, and sometimes his temper, aroused expectations; his actions denoted listlessness and sloth. He was awkward and shy and seemingly indifferent. But later they learned his secret that only a big, overwhelming job could bring out his power. At the call he suddenly de veloped a huge, crushing strength, a bull-headedness that broke its way blindly. There was in the last year of high school a State debate. Kirby got into it, worked like a demon, and nearly crushed his audience with his sledge hammer logic. This seemed to vitalize his whole nature, so that he made a brilliant academic finish and elicited from Professor Hadden the remark "His is the finest mind I have ever dealt with." The town was prepared for miracles. Instead, there was a relapse. Kirby became a reporter on the Trent Blade, and did only fairly. The work was petty and did not grip him. It did, however, bring him in contact with commercial travelers and the occasional public men who passed through Trent from city to city. And from these, and from the Associated Press despatches and the Sunday specials, he began to get a vision of that magnet of Amer ican youth, New York. Out there was something as big as his desire, as huge as his latent strength; there was the seat of power. Trent grew too small for him a chrysalis that hemmed in his wings. But two years passed over, and he did nothing. And then came Professor Hadden's new bride, late in the spring. The strange, shy young man stirred her idle mind; his powerful head, his amazing gray eyes suggested possibilities when contrasted with his thin awkwardness. She ensnared him, drew him close, and "discovered" him. His fresh and unspoiled emotions delighted her; his pas sionate speechlessness was thrilling. She knew there was 8 ADVENTURE a great man hidden in him, hidden deep, indeed, by the pettiness of Trent. So she revealed New York to him: Forty-second Street and Broadway flaming by night; the diamond-sparkling horse-shoe of the opera; the brilliant tides in and out the midnight restaurants. Her spirit seemed to have partaken of the ambition of the sky scrapers and the conquest-courage of the Wall Street pit; she told him of young men who had come out of the West and seized on power. New York, to her, through the meeting of a thousand streams of humanity, had become a mad human tornado that might suck any one to the top. There Kirby belonged there in the embattled center of civilization. He worshiped Janice Hadden, dreamed of her, loved her. He was roughly tender with her, whimsically obedient. She had come down like a flaming star into his night, and she whispered the way up to those inaccessible regions. She evoked his full power and gave him the daring self- reliance of youth. Plunging now head first through dark ness, his hand under his pillow, he recalled bit by bit their last night together the walk in the campus under the elms and the maples. Wind blew leaves over them, and the rapid clouds let through rushes of moonlight; they walked close, whispering with sad tenderness. At the gate came the inevitable good-by. They stood for some time, face to face, lingering, and then the sudden moon light revealed Janice, her face startlingly beautiful with pendant tears. It was too much for Kirby; he put his hands on her shoulders and kissed her forehead. In the swift darkness the woman laughed softly, pressed his hand, and fled. But he was sure then that he knew what life is. The last secret had been revealed. A woman had knighted him and sent him forth. This memory was exquisite and submerged all others. And so he fell asleep and dreamed. He was in a palace, clanking from chamber to chamber in full armor, the plates of mail clattering like wheels turning. Somehow 9 THE OLYMPIAN he was flushed with some stupendous victory. He opened door after door, but in each room there were spangled women lying asleep on couches, and he sought further. At last his heart swelled with poignant ardor, for at the end of a long hall were two great doors of green bronze. He strode up and pulled at the handles. He sweated and toiled and groaned, yet thrilling more and more. Unex pectedly, then, the doors gave inward, and he was dazzled with white light. He entered. Janice was seated on a throne, a crown on her head, her robes glorious with the beating glare of the room. He saw tears in her eyes; she rose, stepped down, held out her arms. He was enfolded close, as if his armor were gone, and he felt faint. She was whispering : ' ' You are the conqueror of the world. ' ' And he replied: "I conquered all to come to you." Their lips met; he heard her breathe something of love, undying love. But then there was a shaking of the door and some thing crawling in sudden darkness. Kirby's heart stood still. "What do you want, Professor Hadden?" he asked. "I want my daddy," came the reply. Kirby rubbed his eyes, rose on his elbow, and blinked. Something was crawling into the berth. It was quite horrible, with all his hundred dollars under his pillow. He watched, unable to move. And then he smiled with divine amazement. A tiny boy of three, in a nightgown, was settling down at the window and peering out. The blur of brown dawn was in the berth, and he could see the sleepy little face and the large round eyes gazing on the misty speeding scenery. The beauty of a shy, wet flower in a rock cranny was in the graceful pose and the fresh face. Kirby felt his feverishness leave him; coolness, rather, and un troubled beauty were in his heart. Smiling tenderly, he watched the cherubic visitant. But the child was lost in the queer accidents of the mist the brown crosses of fences leering out, the green blur of trees, the little farm houses hugged in arms of vapor. 10 ADVENTURE Slowly then to Kirby came a noise in the corridor, a hurry, an agitation, the mix of startled voices. "Oh no, ma'am; no, ma'am," said the porter, huskily, "no one could fall off de train. Dis is a vestibule-car. De little person's done climbed into de wrong pew." The porter was unsuccessfully smothering his laughter. A woman's voice came, sharp with terror: "John, I know he's been killed, I know it!" Then a man's voice, exasperated: "Don't lose your head, Dorothy. He was running right after me when I climbed in." Mirth rose excitedly in Kirby's breast. He poked head out and called: "There's a boy in here." He was confronted by a disheveled young woman in a nightgown, and her face dismayed him with its fright. "Let me see." She rudely tore the curtains apart, carelessly disclosing Kirby, leaned over, and, with a cry of relief, seized up the boy: "Freddy!" The boy was amazed. "I want to stay with my father" was the last Kirby heard him say. "I told you not to lose your head," said the man. The porter leaned in, chuckling, and addressed Kirby as if Kirby were really a man worth confiding in. "Yo* see, his dad had him in de wash-Toom and come back before him, and de little person done got lost. So he picked you for a daddy. All berths look alike to him." He roared with laughter. Kirby felt flattered. Life, after all, was rather pleasing. He settled himself against the window and looked out. The landscape of New Jersey revolved outside, incredibly fast near the window, exceedingly slow at the horizon; and on the turning land farms came and went; and now a mill-town with lighted ii THE OLYMPIAN kitchen windows, and now a desolate wood full of the wraiths of the mist, and now a clanking bridge over the patient level of a river. Mills were at work, with shadowy forms in the gas-light ; smoke began to curl heavily from isolated shanties. Dawn, welling voluminously through the at mosphere, touched earth with the sweet joy of expectation. On this day a young knight was to mount horse, set lance, and plunge into the first mele'e. It was inevitable now; there was no escape, no drawing back. The train was plunging heavily through the morning straight to its roar ing terminal. "Yes, suh," Kirby heard the porter say to some awak ened sleeper down the corridor, "we'll be in New York in jes' two hours." II THE SEA-CITY " \ X TELL," said the traveling salesman, "here we are! VV What do you think of that?" He pointed over the gray river at the New York sky-line. "Ain't she the big girl? Gee! I'm stuck on her." Thus, like a master of ceremonies, he introduced New York to Kirby. They were standing at the front gates of the ferry, which punctually at seven-ten was moving out of the Jersey slip. Again Kirby wished himself rid of this glib mouthpiece; yet, in a way, he would have hated to be alone. Several emotions clashed in him: there was the sheer physical relief of being out of the train, of breathing fresh air and seeing distance all around his head; there was the sharp exhilaration of the inlander smelling the sea for the first time, with a dawning realization of the flowing vastness of the earth; there was the sky-hung beauty of New York. But, insistently breaking its way through all, there was a feeling of growing panic, the raw recruit marching inevitably into the first dread perils of war. Kirby 's thought was: "Now I'm up against it." He might have been catching the first whiff of the anaesthetic as he lay inescapably on the operating-table. "Where you going first?" asked the salesman. Kirby's face flushed. "I don't know," he stammered. "Breakfast?" "Yes yes." Again the salesman took his measure with amused 13 THE OLYMPIAN tolerance. All he saw was a yokel who was woefully ignorant. "Well, you want to cut across to Broadway," he said, pleasantly, "and try Childs'. Can't miss it white front, lots of plate-glass, right near the head of Cortlandt. I'd be with you, but I've got a wife up in Harlem, so I'll beat it up the elevated line and let her scramble some eggs forme. Gee! I'm like a fish dropped in water again." These words went through Kirby as through a sieve. His emotions were overwhelming. Salt water washed breakingly against the prow of the boat, and with the cool sea-wind there was a gray, slow-moving heaven, spilling between cloud-gaps shafts of luminous sunlight that traveled slowly, lighting up one scene after another a passing tug with shining brass railings, a group of red roofs, a far-seen deep-cut street, the smokes about a red gas-works, even, a moment, rare sight! flashing the windowed heights of the World Building and tipping the top with molten gold. Like shifting scenes the city came and went, yet ever the gray block of towering buildings, piled one on another, the pyramidal city of the sea; and at its base the black wharves and the masts, funnels of the sea-going liners, low, squalid streets of red, all risen from the busy gray river-waters. The weave of harbor craft around the swimming ferry spoke of immense hu manity in motion; and the sky-hung city under its gray clouds stood like the very House of Civilization. It was not what Kirby expected; it was too real, sharp, and varied. One could not lay hands on it. It seemed to mean that there were big brains in the world; huge, powerful dreamers who had projected this immensity and ruled it from the tower-tops. Kirby's vision of a golden metropolis of cloud melted away. He felt like a burglar about to break into a guarded mansion. The boat nosed into the slip and bumped still; the gates parted. "Hustle!" cried the salesman. "Hustle!" 14 THE SEA-CITY Unconsciously he sounded the keynote of New York; unconsciously he took up the New York pace and tore over the cobblestones and up Cortlandt Street as if time was being cornered by a broker, with the price soaring. Kirby flew after him through the dingy, sleeping street until they paused under the Sixth Avenue elevated road. "Good luck," cried the New-Yorker. "Remember Quids', white front, right near the head of the street. Be spry, look where you're going, and beware the 'con' men." He laughed at his early-morning wit. "You're all right; just keep a-shoving and a-pushing. S'long!" And he sprinted breathless into the ghostly limbo of New York, like foam melting back into the sea. Once vanished, when does a New-Yorker ever reappear? Lugging his heavy suit-case past the closed shops, Kirby was lonelier than ever before in his life. He stopped at the corner of Broadway to get his bearings: half- empty cable-cars were passing him up and down the long, gray canon, skyscrapers towered above his five-feet-nine of man, the early-morning shadows were dark and long, and he seemed to stand in the deep pit of a deserted city. The morning rush had not yet begun. This was the mere shell of the city, like clothes over a chair-back waiting the wearer. Kirby felt as if he had been ensnared by some uncanny power; he could not cease staring, he could not stop the throb of fear in his heart. His loneliness was terrific, not a soul he knew, not even a path he knew out of this labyrinth. The city was too big; it seemed to extend to immense distances, infinite spaces. He could not believe that it was his old familiar self set down in this stone fastness. Then he saw Quids', and almost laughed. It was a friendly haven ; he could go in there and hide. The mere action brought relief. He purchased a morning paper and stepped into the shining imitation-marble, glassy, porcelain-tiled restaurant and sat down at a glistening THE OLYMPIAN table. A tired waitress hovered over him, soothing him vaguely with her femininity. He spoke with effort. "A cup of coffee two four-minute boiled eggs toast." While he waited he glanced at the newspaper. The head-lines meant nothing to him, and yet seemed to shelter him from the ruthless city: "Big Fire in Forty-second Street," "The President's Message," "Girl Found Dead in East River," "Danby Wins Divorce." Then he awoke and turned to the advertising section. "Boarders Wanted." Evidently there were plenty of places. 64th St., 115 West. Large, pleasant room, suitable for i or 2; excellent table; moderate. 720! St., 152 West. Cultured surroundings for girls studying music, art, opera, concerts; references; moderate. And so it ran for over a column. It was fascinating. It gave visions of comfort, sunniness, security, somewhere in the stone wilderness. Somewhere he could find warmth. Mrs. Hadden had suggested the neighborhood of Twenty- third Street West as being central and cheap. Kirby marked a couple of advertisements and ate his breakfast. He had no desire to leave his haven, but when he ven tured out he had the amazing experience of stepping into a different city, as if the sea-city changed like the sea itself. For now the morning rush was under way; from Brooklyn, Jersey, Staten Island, and Harlem the population was coming, coming, jamming the clanging cars, pouring up side streets, clanking down Broadway, as if some great hand had opened all the flood-gates. Sunlight traveled over the bobbing heads; the air was full of bustle and awakened energy; great deeds were afoot; world labor was under way; humanity was going to its day's work. Kirby 's loneliness sharpened; he longed to be one of these. They were all inside the machine, they all had a 16 THE SEA-CITY share in the glorious action of the metropolis; but he was outside, a stranger, without foothold, without even toe hold. He wedged his way through against the downward- striving stream; he could have taken a car had he not been enchanted by this drive of the multitude ; he merely wanted to go on and on, breaking deeper and deeper into this tumultuous city. That he could ever find con nections in this rush and bigness, become a part of it, and be recognized in it, seemed quite hopeless. He passed City Hall Park, saw the flags flapping on towers, the bend of trees in the breeze, beheld faces at windows, passed endless plate-glass of sparkling shops, then followed Broadway into the wholesale district. Huge building operations were under way, great blotches of the earth torn out, swarming with men and carts, drills and engines; half -built skyscrapers showed their steel skeletons against the gray clouds. Despite its largeness, Kirby could feel that it was a city in process, unfinished, full of pioneering, with a dream-world before it. And the peril of it was evident the peril of crossing the street, of the high buildings, the hollow cellarage. So that the pride, the stride of these perishable inhabitants was astounding. They took it all for granted: newsboys shouted, young girls flaunted ribbons and with poised heads met the world; men swaggered, smoking, ogling; drivers swore; policemen breasted the stream of traffic in mid-gutter. Out of the heavens like a spider dropping on its own unraveling thread a man astride a beam, clutching a derrick-rope, was lowered from the fifteenth story of a skeleton skyscraper to the street. People paused, looked up. Kirby stopped, holding himself together, a little dizzied. Down came the spider, grew into a man, stepped off on the pavement huge, overalled, grimly smiling swore gently, and went into the building. His non chalance, careless courage, familiarity with death, amazed the young Westerner. THE OLYMPIAN Then, as he stepped on, a feeling of unreality possessed him. All, all was unreal. It was as if, like Alice, he had stepped through the looking-glass and was wandering in the depths of a reflected world; or as if he were a pilgrim elbowing a proud remote people ; or as if he were in a city hung in the skies with mammoth shadow-depths. It was hardly real enough to hate ; but he knew that it was cruel and bitter, and he knew his own atomic insignificance. That he should have dreamed of conquering the illimitable ! His heart ached as he turned in at dirty Twenty-sixth Street. There were three-story red-brick dwellings, there were faded brown-stone houses. All was dingy respec tability. Suddenly he had a sense of revolt. He felt that he could not live in this dirty stone honeycomb. Many labels were over door-bells: "Room and Board," "Gentlemen Boarders Wanted," "Rooms for Rent." But the houses seemed repulsive; all save one, English basement with brass railings, immaculately neat and cur tained, and touched with a healing repose that its excited dirty neighbors lacked. There was no label over the bell, but there was a flaunting, mysterious red sign in the window a sign supplementing the label in the other houses. "Of course it will be too expensive." Kirby smiled grimly as he pulled the bell-handle. To his astonishment a stout, suspicious-eyed butler opened the door and glared at Kirby's clothes. "Well!" he snapped. Kirby quailed. "I came" he hesitated "to see about renting a room." The butler looked as if his ears belied him. The insult made him tingle. " Do you take this for a lodging-house?" he cried. Kirby began to grow angry; his temper gave him courage. "You have a sign in your window," he said, hotly. 18 THE SEA-CITY It was the butler's turn to tremble. "A sign?" "Yes, a red sign." The butler stared at Kirby and snorted a "Huh!" of relief. Then he spoke tartly to the point. "That, young fellow, is a garbage sign; it's a sign for the passing garbage man. Now clear out of here! The idea!" And the door slammed in Kirby's face. The amazing insolence of this New York lackey was a death-blow to Kirby's American equality. He knew now that a superior breed of men existed. And yet he was joyous. Lightly he swung along the street, stopping to glance at the paper again for the "ads" he had marked. He tried the first house. It was a four-story faded brownstone with a high stoop. The fat, unkempt landlady opened the door half-way and stood guarding it. "Yes." Her face was flabby, but her red-rimmed eyes were keen. "Everybody in this city," thought Kirby, "is suspi cious." "I'm looking for a room," he said. 11 With board?" "Well perhaps." "It's the only kind we take. How much do you want to pay?" She, too, was measuring him from head to foot, a dis concerting process. He felt his cheeks getting hot. "Oh about seven." He was ashamed of his poverty. "Later," he added, but without conviction, "I'll pay more." "Eight's our lowest. The skylight room's taken." He was abashed; she spoke as if eight were the lowest level of poverty. " It '11 be all right," he muttered. "Alone? Just you?" "Yes." 3 J 9 "You're lucky to come this morning. I've only one room left. And the demand grows." She led the way up the faded carpet of the stairs, and Kirby could see her slippers almost flapping off with each step. The house smelled damp and dusty, as if there were no ventilation. It was depressing. On the top floor, in the larger luminousness of a sky light, she unlocked and opened a front door and disclosed a tiny hall-bedroom, with narrow, white-covered iron bed, washstand, and chair. The walls had a dirty green- patterned paper; the window was curtained with tawdry imitation lace. There was not space for a trunk; hardly space for a shelf with hooks and cotton curtains for the hanging of clothes. Kirby thought of his spacious, clean, sweet room at home, the ample bed, the elm branches swaying outside the open windows, the spaciousness and peace. A lump rose in his throat; his eyes dimmed. He had indeed broken with his past. And was it worth the while? "This is the room," said the independent woman. "Eight dollars a week which includes breakfast and supper on week-days and three meals on Sundays. It's dirt cheap at that, with the cost of living rising every day. What are your references?" Kirby could only say, humbly: "I'm a stranger here. I come from Iowa." Something in his voice made the woman examine his face again. She saw the gray eyes. She spoke more softly. "That's all right, Mister. Pay me four dollars de posit and I'll take you as you are." He was grateful for the sympathetic tone. He paid, and she shuffled off, leaving him the room key and a house key. Then he shut the door and stood in a dream of the past and present. Hucksters shouted on the street, the voices of children rose in the air, somewhere a street-organ was grinding out a melancholy tune, bells of the rag-man 20 THE SEA-CITY jangled, and in the distance rose and fell the thunder of the elevated train. Beneath all was the persistent un dertone of a great city, the muffled clamor, in all directions life palpitating, and Kirby enmeshed in the heart of it. But this was a refuge, this room. He washed the soot out of his ears and nose and mouth and stretched himself on the cotton-smelling bed. It was lunch-time, but he was too tired to go out, and yet he could not sleep. The streets, the crowds, the sky-line, the swaying sleeper with its visions of the night, kept beating through his brain like the endless tramp of a procession. The hours passed, the afternoon waned. At last, stiff and cold, he aroused himself, cleared off the washstand, and used it as a desk. He wrote briefly to Jordan Watts; he wrote weariedly, feeling impotent and worn, and that very little help could come from any man in this immensity: DEAR SIR, I am taking the liberty of sending you the inclosed note from Mrs. Hadden. She requested me to do so as soon as I reached the city, and to give my address. It is given above. Sincerely, KIRBY TRASK. Then he drew from his pocket Janice Hadden's letter, and gazed at the handwriting. It meant little to him now. He was too feverish and weary to care. A little later darkness came, and he glanced from the window at the gas-lit street and the passing people. Evidently they were hurrying home after the day's work. He watched them listlessly, lost in himself. The supper-bell sounded; he took coat and hat and descended to the basement. But supper was a blur to him; merely knife-clanking, tongue-clacking strangers about the long white table, under flaming gas, and a powerful lard-and-cabbage smell from the kitchen. He 21 THE OLYMPIAN bolted his meal, arose, put on hat and coat, and escaped to the cool street. Again a change had come to the city. Something subtly beautiful was abroad, something mysterious, hint ing of romance. It was the call of the women. Now the population was freed of its toil, and the woman's time had come. Kirby was twenty-four again, a young man. He heard the primitive call and began to glow, to feel his blood quicken and life surge through him. The work-a- day world was left down-town, and now the women ruled the splendors of the night. Kirby, looking to the east, saw Broadway flaring across the mouth of the street; and, like a fragile insect driven mysteriously, inevitably, with out thought, without hesitancy, he hurried toward the lights. Swiftly he turned the corner and hastened along Broad way. A few blocks brought him into the heart of the theater district, the white-light district. Glowing globes suspended before theater entrances, sparkling shop win dows, brilliant restaurants, and on the housetops a blaze of advertisements, made the thoroughfare a canon of fire; gold and orange and blue beat upon the pavements, and through the radiance the laughter-smitten crowd was flowing up and down. The cars were lit; cabs and carriages rolled past with glimpse of lace and shining eyes ; in the restaurants Kirby saw bare shoulders and scintillant beauty; and all about him, pressing close, brushing his elbows, glancing daringly into his daring eyes, were the faces of women and girls. The display of wealth in garments and buildings was dazzling; he saw now what the toil down-town meant. It was all for the women, said his young man's heart. And here they were, secretly giving him their laughing eyes. He wandered aimlessly, feeding his starved heart on these faces; through him and them the night drifted with mysterious beauty; they were combed by some uniting miracle. He heard the strange laughter that 22 THE SEA-CITY seemed about to reveal the secret of existence; he saw golden hair and blue eyes, dark hair and black eyes, warm- tinted cheeks and shadowy foreheads. His spirit seemed to wake and laugh; he felt young, handsome, masculine; he throbbed with pride, a young man tasting life. This, then, was the real New York the New York revealed to him by Janice Hadden and the phantas magoria of the day was merely an unrolling dream that awoke into this splendor of the night. This was the magic city he had come to conquer, the cloud-metropolis of the Arabian Nights that was his empire. The theaters swallowed this crowd, and at once another filled the streets. The underworld was awake, flooding the empty streets with its strange inhabitants. Vice stalked the stone pavement, in spangles and crass attire, with painted cheeks and bold eyes. Again and again Kirby was accosted by some woman of the dark. Not now the dart and swift passing, but the slow glide and slow swerve of the head. It was late when he groped for his room and unlocked the door. But, lying in the hard bed, he was only aware of his youth, his untried power, his boundless dreams. He imaged Janice Hadden again, all in white light, her arms drawing him tenderly close. And he heard her whisper "I give you ten years. Kirby, you are going to be a great man." Her soft laughter evoked his own. He thought: "Wait till I see old Watts." And again he resolved to go forth and attack the strange metropolis and take it by storm. Ill THE OUTSIDER AT five-thirty the next morning Kirby was up, writing letters. First he got the letter to his mother and sisters out of the way a tedious chronicle of food, shelter, and health, with an American prospectus of New York as The Young Man's Friend, The Chance of a Lifetime. It was necessary to reassure a doubting family. That done, he drew forth a fresh sheet and smiled. How should he address her? He wanted to write "Dear Janice," but he didn't dare. "Mrs. Hadden" was too formal, "Aunt Janice" made her impossibly old. Finally he wrote " Dear Friend," but even then he wondered what the professor might say. Janice, when she received the letter, thought it was very "young" and destroyed it before her husband knew of its existence. The reason was very simple. Kirby felt not the least bit romantic, yet deemed it necessary to pre serve the King Arthur atmosphere of the kiss on the campus. To do this he had to press the loud pedal of his emotions; he had to pump. As, for instance: "You cannot know what your least glance means to me; I am kept brave in these strange surroundings. I feel I am a man and can conquer anything. Brave the stings and scorns of time. I had a dream about you in the sleeping-car. But I cannot write it out. It was the most beautiful dream I have ever had. You were on a throne, and I had just conquered the world " 24 THE OUTSIDER Surely Kirby was an odd mixture of arrested adolescence and precocious manhood. For a male of twenty-four he was at times strangely boyish, unformed, yet at other times he seemed almost overdeveloped. But this had always been the contradiction in his character; it ac counted for his spells of listlessness, his occasional blush ing shyness, his four years over the average age in high school; and then again the emotion he had stirred in Janice Hadden, the daring of his dreams, the power he occasionally flashed, the ambition that paused at no limit. This morning Kirby was in a jolly mood. Opening his eyes at five he had become at once wide awake, with the acute sensation of life having become intensified. Tugs on the river were bellowing against the mist, stray cars awoke echoes in the unfooted streets, the milkman drew up and rattled his tin dipper in the can, but otherwise the roaring tides of the city were still merged and lost in the level seas of sleep. All that bright life was peacefully unconscious, as though the stars had not yet been called into the skies. Yet now at five Kirby could feel the turn ing of the tides the inevitable resurgence and flood and it seemed as if the awakening of millions of people added life to life, till there was a welling of energy that in toxicated, a telepathic impact that excited each nerve; a call to action and to work. It was like the adding of rain drops to rain-drops into a heaven of cloud until the currents of the morning electrified the mass. Kirby was one of these drops, and the lightning played in and out of him. The result was that all his bull-headedness was fully aroused. He was alert, decisive, clear-eyed. Thought came easily; courage was natural. He was thoroughly himself that is, his self had broken through two or three layers of shyness and fear. He even looked different, taller, head erect, gray eyes sparkling. He felt now that he knew the spread of the city; hence, that he knew how to attack it. Why wait for a remote 25 THE OLYMPIAN Jordan Watts? He was an American young man, used to standing on his own feet, fighting his own way. Jordan Watts had done this himself. Surely the world would never get too old for the hero, the man who carved his destiny out of fate and circumstance. There were a hundred possibilities; notably, there was reporting. He must build on his experience; make re porting for the Trent Blade the first step toward reporting for the New York Sun. And he would take the bull by the horns go straight to the city editor and ask work. That was the American way. His pluck would be obvious to the seasoned and sere New-Yorker, the effete Easterner. "Grit," he told himself, repeating the current slogan- words of American youth. "Nerve. Stick-to-it-iveness. Push. Get-there. Smile." Of course, all else failing, there yet might descend from the skies the giant mailed, hand of the steel magnate. At six-forty he had outgrown his room; he yearned for more kingdoms to conquer. So he descended light- footedly through the musty, slumbering house and en tered the dining-room. Sparkling sunlight was in the street, driving from east to west, and the low room was luminious with side-light. Only one boarder was at the table; Kirby sat opposite him. This boarder was a bright-eyed youth, cheaply but smartly attired. A quarter stick-pin was in his scarlet tie; his collar kept his head high; his blue eyes bristled and snapped; his tilted nose had an air of delightful impudence; and the cupid's bow of his 'mouth had scornful curling ends. Over his low forehead was a thatch of yellow hair. Besides, he had freckles. Kirby was for the moment a hearty Westerner. "Good morning," he said, cheerily, and held out his hand, which the other took with rather dampening sus- piciousness. " My name is Kirby Trask." " They call me Si," murmured the youth, as if he were bored, " but I am also known by the name of Kelly." 26 THE OUTSIDER "Fresh morning, isn't it?" Kirby rubbed his hands and smiled. Si Kelly nodded, but without much assurance. Silence fell, while Kirby revolved in his mind the odd fact that New-Yorkers were icicles. Why was it? Why could they not be open, warm, democratic? A waitress with a pudgy, weary face now brought in Si's breakfast. The latter glanced at her with charming impudence. "Well, Gert, how was the racket?" "i was up till three," she answered, wearily. "Hot time?" "Oh, fair to middlin'." He winked at her, and evoked a tired smile. "You want to go out with me some night. Say" he waved his hand flatly "I know a swell joint over to Ninth Avenue where the dames do a regular joy dance. You and me for that ! How about it? Are you on?" "Oh you," she laughed, joyously," I wouldn't let my grandmother go with you." And out she went. Si leaned toward Kirby with sudden intimacy. "Gert's all right," he said, "only they're working her good looks off of her. Chee! this is a burg for work, though. Now jes' think of me, a bloke gettin' a measly dozen bones a week for hittin' stuffed packing-cases on the ground floor of a Jew's dry-goods store. I'm losing my youth. Huh! a shipping-clerk! Wait a week. You'll lose me." This amazing revelation, and also the implied threat, so perplexed Kirby that he could only say: "Where you going?" Si screwed up his eyes and wiggled ringers over his left ear. "An inside tip keep it under the lid. Spot lights." "The stage?" "Sure. I met a feller doin' a coon act; said he needs a buffer. Me for the buffer. Believe me, there's nothin' 27 THE OLYMPIAN in the shipping-clerk spiel. S'long. Do you hear the morning whistles all a-blowin' ? Exit." With one last mouthful, a whisk of the napkin, a "Ta ta" and hand-wave, he vanished. And Kirby ate his breakfast joyously. He felt he had a new clue to New York. These folk were frozen because they suspected others of being suspicious, but once break the crust and they were familiar spirits. Well, Kirby was young, after all. Stepping out into the buoyant morning, he released a smothered laugh of joy. People were hurrying through the vitalized air ; he hurried with them. A Russian news vender at the corner sold him a paper and gave him directions; and he stood quite a handsome young man in derby and long overcoat at the busy street-crossing. Beyond him the trees of Madison Square Park glistened freshly, and four-walling the Square rose brownstone houses and business buildings into the brilliant blue of the morning. Blue and white twistings of smoke faintly aspired toward the heavens, and one great wash of sun went sparkling over every little object on the ground, throwing tiny cool shadows. The air was fresh, cleansing the lungs and the mouth. A car stopped, and Kirby got on, and with the action he seemed to catch the very spirit of New York. For the car was black with people, most of them reading papers the clerks, mechanics, and girls who were the ad vance-guard of the morning. And Kirby, holding his paper under one arm and hanging nimbly on a strap, seemed to merge with this routine of the cars, giving him self up to the irresistible suction that drew large popula tions into the red struggle of the metropolis. He was of a city that went to work. By the gods, he would get some work himself, know the joy of creating one good thing in the world production! Broadway shifted by, crowded scene by scene, and at City Hall, cutting toward the east, he burrowed through 28 THE OUTSIDER the human torrent that Brooklyn was gushing over the Bridge. Tall buildings looked down on the marchers, waving their tower-held flags as guidons to the host. Life stirred around and in Kirby. He breathed faster, felt adventurous, smiled happily. Yes, this was News paper Row; to these buildings the snapped-up news of the world flowed through wire-nerves, and the vast drama of man in the very act was bunched on the clanking presses and then sown through the sleeping city. He held it under his arms the miracle ; he held the last twelve hours of the tragi-comedy of the human race. How wonderful, then, to become a cell in the nerve-center. That was his place. Glowingly he entered the shabby red-brick build ing of the Sun. Two flights up steep, boxed stairs he came on the large, dirty room, with its flat desks beyond the entrance railing, all lit dingily by the dull windows. At once he was back on the Trent Blade the same lovely odor of printers' ink, damp paper fresh from the press, and stale tobacco smoke. He stood looking. The place was quite empty, save for a boy sprawling under a green-shaded light over an opened newspaper. The boy, interrupted, was of course annoyed. "Who yer lookin' for?" "The city editor." "He's out." Kirby felt unreasonably angry. "When will he be in?" "C>h couple of hours or so." And the boy read on. Kirby turned swiftly and sought the street. He might have known, of course. Yet he was dreaming; he was a reporter sitting deep in the night scribbling in a flood of golden light, or plunging down perilous midnight streets to look critically on the lurid gas-lit murder. Yes, he was a soul plunging alone into the cavernous underworld of sin and death and sleep. The morning was yet young and glad; so adventurously 29 THE OLYMPIAN he turned down eastern side streets and wandered deep into a huge new region. And as he walked he was amazed. The narrow streets zigzagged into each other; the squalid five-floor tenements had their fire-escapes loaded with household furnishings and refuse; the dirty shop-fronts had street displays of red blankets, strings of shoes, glass cases of brassware. Mud was in the gutter, and resting in it were lines of push-carts laden with] food and cheap knickknacks and hardware and haberdashery. All was like a little old city out of the wreckage of ancient Europe. But most amazing were the people a slow, turgid, intermelting mass, outrageously un-American; men in filthy clothes, with flowing luminous beards and greasy faces ; fat women in shawls, a baby slung over the shoulder; children in red darting between the crowded legs; beautiful black-eyed girls, well-dressed, pushing through on the way to work. And there were cries in an alien tongue, shrill-voiced bargainings, bristling gossip. Again Kirby had a sense of unreality. The congestion and poverty were monstrous. How could people live this way? His notion of poverty was owning a little house, having many children, and just scraping along. That was American poverty. This surely was imported. Yet here a whole world was going on, a mere pocket of New York. The vastness of the city overwhelmed him. It was the House of All Comers, and into it poured America and Europe. He feared to go on lest again he lose his pride and abase himself before the startling immensity of life. He re gained City Hall at ten-thirty. A dozen men now sprawled, feet up, papers spread, at the desks of the Sun office, passing affectionate blasphemy to each other. Reporters, surely. And at once their warm comradeliness made Kirby feel bitterly outside again. "He's in now," said the boy. "What's your name?" "Mr. Trask." 30 THE OUTSIDER "Business?" "Personal." "Oh, all right." As Kirby waited, his heart started to thump against his' ribs. The right word and bearing might land his future; he must be wary. Then he was motioned in to the roll- top corner desk of the city editor, and confronted a solid individual whose eye bored through him. Yet his reception was flattering. "Be seated, Mr. Trask. Now, what can I do for you?" Kirby's voice sounded queer to himself. "I'm looking for work as a reporter." "Experienced?" "Yes out on my home-town paper, the Trent Blade, Trent, Iowa." "Oh, indeed!" The words seemed to pat his back, and hope swelled in him. "I'm willing to begin Kirby was ready to clean spittoons, but the city editor cut him off pleasantly. "Just give me your name and address, Mr. Trask." He drew out a slip of paper and a pencil and jotted down the facts. Then he spoke with a finality that terminated the interview: "Of course, as you know, we're crowded just at present. You might drop in again in about three months. Glad to have met you, Mr. Trask." Kirby wanted to launch his crushing logic, but somehow he rose like an automaton, smiled good morning, walked with cruel self-consciousness past the office-boy, and sped miserably to the street. Something big and beautiful was cracking and breaking within him. So he rushed to the next place, a dark wood-partitioned interior, creaking crazily to the thump and thunder of presses and a hurry of men in and out. A red-headed boy played with him as if he were a top. "What '11 yer have, anyway?" Kirby gulped a lump. THE OLYMPIAN "I'd like to see the city editor." "After a job? What?" "Yes." The boy rubbed his head and spoke reassuringly: "Oh, you'll get it in the neck," disappearing on the last word. Tears came into Kirby's eyes, and the fear in his heart went stabbing through his self-confidence. Then an abrupt, busy man dashed through the swing-doors and confronted him sharply. The editor seemed to give one probing glance that showed that Kirby was the lesser man, and hence beaten, and he did not again look at the applicant. "You want a reporting job?" "Yes." "It's no use. Don't waste your time and mine. We're choked." He started to go, but Kirby strained forth one desperate sentence : "But I've been a reporter before." The other wheeled around. "Where?" "On the Trent Blade." "The Trent BLADE!" the editor cried in amazement. "Yes, Trent, Iowa." "If such a place exists," said the other, sententiously, "you'd better go back there." And he left Kirby hanging, as it were, in mid-air. Three other papers whisked him out just as rapidly and effectively, and, standing buffeted by the swift crowd of Park Row, he felt like lying down and weeping. He got the first twinge of the misery of the unemployed that feeling of being cast out, exiled, and then hunted down to his death. He was not wanted in the tremendous in dustry of the city; he was a lonely stranger in town. Suddenly the romance of the city was shattered for him, and he felt that he was in a huge, dirty, noisy pit of stone, where greedy animals fought each other. 32 THE OUTSIDER He was too sick at heart to look further that day. His self-respect was breaking down, and the disillusionment was annihilating. After swallowing a tasteless cup of coffee and a portion of ham and beans in a cellar lunch room he went back to his room and flung himself on the bed. A terrible homesickness filled him with self-pity. It was too hard, too bitter cruel. By contrast the friendliness of the known people of Trent, the open skies, the sheltering trees, the sweet routine and amplitude of his home, the worrying care of his mother, and the eager praise of Janice Hadden, seemed like the glory of the world that he had thoughtlessly cast away, the pearl he had flung to the hog-pen. He had ruined his bright life; he was a failure. Just outside, bells jangled, children shouted, wheels hit the cobblestones, horses clanked. His spirit grew deathly sick. He did not want to face the strangers at supper; never theless he took his place, and the plates, the cutlery, the food, the faces, passed around him like a remote phantasm. Si's "Hello" went unheeded. He sat and ate of bitter bread. Next to him a smooth-faced man tried hard to be friendly : "My name is Marston, Freddy Marston. I'm a floor walker at Marshall's. Say, do you play pinochle, Mr. ?" "Trask. No," was all Kirby could utter. After a little while the unabashed floor-walker came back at him, whispering: "You'll want to meet the girl opposite some time. She's a model in Wall & Hansel's suit department. Cissie Clay." Kirby glanced up and saw a shapely woman with a crass exterior beauty directly across the table. She looked at him familiarly. He took a last spoonful of bread-pudding and excused himself. Cissie watched him go, and spoke to Marston: 33 "The kid's homesick. My! he's almost suicidal." No Broadway for Kirby that night. He wanted to hide his head. He walked himself tired through lamp-lit side streets, and was indifferent to the love-making in the shadows. And, back in bed, every nerve was jarred by the ceaseless night noises, the voices, car-thunder, and rattle. He felt feverish, as a man does in the initial stages of some devastating disease. In the morning he came down with a cold in the head, snuffling, so homesick that he looked self-conscious. Si's wit was spun to the empty air, and finally in disgust he leaned forward and snapped: "Say, you, you look like a stuffed monkey." Kirby smiled miserably and sought the boundless refuge of the streets. At least in the crowds he could hide him self; at least here a perfect secrecy, and no one prying into his heart. This was the home of all the unfriended and the ruined; he traveled with them through the cruel splendors of success. That morning he tried the monthly magazines, but though the assistant editors were kindly they held out no hope to him, and he was confronted with that insoluble problem of the homeless how to spend his idle time. There were as yet no nickel theaters, where an afternoon could be sat out swiftly; there were only the streets and the hall-bedroom, preferably the streets. So he wandered the friendless thoroughfares till he was sick in body and mind and ready to drop with fatigue. And that evening he ate in a cheap restaurant, for he could not abide facing the curiosity of the boarders. IV GLIMPSES OF THE DARK IT was the next morning that Kirby thought of looking through the "help wanted" column of the newspaper. He ran through the alphabet accountants, bookkeepers, canvassers, clerks, managers, salesmen, stenographers, sales-managers but in almost each case previous ex perience was one of the conditions. He was practically inexperienced. It was a bitter thing that experience was demanded, and yet no chance of securing experience granted. One had to start somewhere. Only one "ad" looked promisirg. It ran: CITY SALESMEN wanted by a large typewriting concern. Experience desirable, but not absolutely necessary. Apply at 10.00 A.M. to MR. CASTLETON, Hadley Typewriter Co., 315 Broadway. Kirby plucked up desperate courage and applied. At least thirty other young men were there ahead of him, jamming the anteroom. And they looked so well-dressed, smirky, and successful that he felt like a vagrant in the throng. In and out the front office they went, one by one. It was after eleven when the office-boy motioned to Kirby. Mr. Castleton was a stout, brisk, mustached man with dark eyes ringed with signs of dissipation. He was much too affable, much too obsequious. Kirby felt that sales men must be hard to get. Mr. Castleton drew a long, black cigar from his mouth and waved the hand that held it. 4 35 THE OLYMPIAN "Have a seat, Mr. " "Trask." "Glad to know you. Castleton's my name. Well, sir, I've got an A i proposition to lay before you." Kirby became suspicious at once, showing the first genuine traces of New-Yorkism. He listened in stolid silence. "You see, our machine's new to the market. But already it's selling like hot cakes. Ever seen it? Only machine with back-stop, tabulator-key, reversible ribbon, and ball-bearing joints." Suddenly he seized on his desk, pulled, and a lid rose, bringing with it a hidden type writing-machine. "Ain't she a beauty? Easy action, durable a quick seller. Never ran a machine, did you?" "No I didn't." "Oh, that's all right. We want talkers, not typers." He laughed briskly, then he turned sharply and laid a hand on Kirby 's shoulder. "You can make big money in this. Twelve a week salary, ten per cent, on each machine, and they sell for a hundred. I've seen men make sixty, a hundred, two hundred a week. Just takes nerve and a taking way. How about it?" All at once that excitation of American business something of the circus, something of the gambling-table began to invade Kirby. Anything seemed possible. "What would I have to do exactly?" he asked. "Just this. We give you a territory say five square blocks and you go from office to office and ask for the boss. Of course, you've got to have a knack it takes manners, insistence, and you've got to make people in terested. Want to dress well, of course; be a top-notcher; joke with the stenographers, take 'em out; worm your way. How about it?" That "How about it?" settled the case. Through it leaked the distressing eagerness of Mr. Castleton, and in a flash Kirby knew that the work was impossible for him. He saw himself going into offices, overcome with shyness 36 GLIMPSES OF THE DARK and rudely ejected. He saw himself changing into an oily, glib lackey. "By God!" he thought, "I'd rather break stone. That's honest, at least." A moment of his concealed decisiveness came to him. He rose and looked Mr. Castleton in the eye; and when Kirby really looked, the lookee usually crumpled a little. "No. I can't take it. Thanks." And out he went. "The son-of-a-gun," thought Mr. Castleton. Nevertheless, when Kirby reached the street he was quite desperate. The cold in his head was worse, making him feel detached from his body, floating in space; and the misery of his outcast state became a bitter taste in his mouth. After a futile afternoon he went home, meditating on suicide. He could end all, after all. He could drop the city under him, the city with its insane gesticulations. However, he would try once more, and he would take anything. Anything to tide him over, to restore his self- confidence, to give him time to turn about. Even manual work, which at least was healthy and honest. So the next morning he answered an "ad" for a shipping-clerk with the Curley Manufacturing Company of Green Street. But when he got there he saw standing in the gray drizzle of the gray street lined with loft-buildings at least a hundred men fighting about the entrance and several policemen trying to preserve order. The sight amazed him. He drew his coat-collar higher and turned away like a dog that is beaten. For now he understood. He belonged to the army of the unemployed; the vast disorganized army that slinks through the cold and wet outside the warm, immense, busy machinery of our industrialism, trying to beat its way in to get merely bread and a bed the hunted hunters, sink ing, many of them, down into the easeful slime of vagrancy and criminality. This, then, was the cellarage of the beautiful heaven-kissed city, the foul foundations flowing with bobbing heads and beseeching hands and hoarse cries for mercy. Monstrous poverty! Monstrous in- 37 THE OLYMPIAN justice! Kirby could understand now why the papers were full of suicide, murder, rape, and burglary. It was the struggle for existence laid bare; yes, thought young Kirby, it was human nature laid bare ; the claws and fangs, the animal ancestry revealed. And he felt now that to succeed one had to be pitiless, hard, selfish. As for himself, if he ever got in he would stay in, hook or crook. Necessity made this the only way. It was the first emergence of ruthlessness in Kirby's character, the first definite result of the impact of New York. Yet he had the grace at that moment to prefer suicide. What else could he do? To go on much longer would destroy the best in him the human spirit until he was a mere whining beggar. Better to die, and an end of it. It was five that afternoon when he turned in at Twenty- sixth Street. The rain had ceased, the heavens cleared; but the pavement was still wet, and all the westward street glowed with a divine rosiness. Still beauty was in the evening skies; exquisite light bathed the happy walkers. But, for all that, Kirby felt the tears of despair ; the soft beauty of the street-lamp, a bit of luminous gold lost in the last of the day, made him yearn for arms about his tired head and the kiss of woman's love. Yes, he must end it all. His heart could endure no more. He climbed the steps, unlocked the door. Blinking through the shadows, he saw the fat landlady waddling toward him, cutting off escape. ' ' Letters for you, Mr. Trask. ' ' She held out two envelopes: He took them, glanced. One was an unfamiliar hand writing, the other that of Janice. At once his heart bounded; blood rushed to his head. "Thanks," he cried, and fled up the stairs. The note from Janice was brief: DEAR KIRBY, I was delighted to get such a hopeful letter. By now you must be on your way up. And even if you aren't, 38 GLIMPSES OF THE DARK dear boy, remember that you and I know what is possible, and that it is a mere matter of time. Months even oughtn't to discourage you. If they do, write me write me candidly for I want you to know that I am your best backer, and that nothing shall shake my faith in you. All goes well here, though I envy you the great city. Your friend, JANICE WOODS HADDEN. He laughed out loud, he kissed the signature, and a gust of joy swept him. "Oh," he murmured, "you came in time, Janice, and I love you!" Then eagerly he tore open the other letter. And he read his fortune in it. MY DEAR MR. TRASK, My daughter remembers Mrs. Hadden very well. Can't you come up and dine with us at seven on Friday night? Yours sincerely, JORDAN WATTS. The letter was in one handwriting, the signature in another. Well, the mailed hand had descended from heaven to scoop up an unfortunate from the muck of the city. It was unbelievable. Kirby got up, tore off his coat, slapped his knees, cried "Hell! hell! hell!" and danced kickingly up and down. Now he was himself radiant, powerful, the man of destiny. The cellarage of the city was forgotten; he was to ascend at one leap to the high places. Such an invitation could mean nothing else. One of the masters of America, a man who could make and unmake human beings by a nod of his head had asked him to dinner. What a wonderful woman was Janice. The cold in Kirby's head seemed to depart, and he came down to supper with flashing eyes and superb poise "Good evening," he called to Si, gaily. "How are you?" to the floor- walker. "It's cleared up fine!" he announced, to the whole table. 39 THE OLYMPIAN In fact, he was sharing his joy with these good people, these excellent housemates. "Must have struck oil," whispered Cissie to Si. "Or a dead uncle," quoth Si. The floor-walker was thrilled to find another Ear in the world. He now pointed out the other boarders. That girl there worked in a box factory, poor thing! Had the skylight-room on Kirby's floor. Next her sat a stone mason; then the stone-mason's helper skinny, but good- natured; the middle-aged lady there was a Southerner, Mrs. Waverley, taught in a school for girls; that fellow was a carpenter; and the elderly sorry-looking old lady at the top of the table was a translator. "Used to do books, made loads of money. Now she gets five a column translating for the Weekly Digest. Knows personally a big gun named Howells, feller who writes books or something." Kirby was delighted. Under the gas-flames they sat there so palpably human. It was charming to be breaking bread with them. After supper he met Si in the hall. "Say, Si," he remarked, brilliantly, "come to a show with me." "Oil," thought Si, "or uncle." What he said was: "I'm on. Joy for us." They became part of brilliant Broadway, and sat through a comic opera, a thing of tights, kicks, horse play, rose-lit singing, and vulgar jokes. Gazing down from the balcony, Kirby watched the apparition of a girl singing and dancing before a black curtain, the spot-light daubing her eyes and mouth with gold and the footlights splashing light up to the fringes of her short ballet-skirt. And he was a youth gazing on the beauty of woman, the mystery of that loveliness of ardor and joy and agility that flares in beating light and vanishes. He felt subtly intoxicated. Emerging on Broadway, with heads in the swim of lamp-light and the far darkness up and down and a 40 GLIMPSES OF THE DARK large October moon looking out of the loneliness of space on the golden crowding of the street, he was bewitched by the unreality of life, the bulk of beings pushing this way and that into mystery and oblivion. "Let's go somewhere." He pressed Si's arm. "Say," burst out Si, "I'll show you life!" That was what Kirby wanted. They stepped over to Sixth Avenue and down marble steps into a cellar. Smoke and lights swallowed them, warmth and noise, the smell of beer and tobacco. At long tables alcoved by leather- cushioned seats along the wall sat men and women. The women were a spangled lot, with flaring cheeks and brilliant eyes. Kirby and Si sat down. "What '11 yer have?" asked Si. Now Kirby never drank; but, looking about him, he saw that every one else did. "Oh, anything." "Two Fast Freight cocktails and a box of Natchi cigar ettes," said Si to the waiter. Kirby admired the dash and worldliness of that order. Soon he was sipping the flaming stuff and trying to smoke. "Gee!" said Si, "but you're a hot sport. Hold it like this, for God's sake, before any one spots you." The cocktail gave him a slight sensation of convulsions around the chest, but he sipped on. "Oh, hell, take a gulp," cried Si, "don't play with it." He took a gulp ; and in a few moments his skull began to feel too tight, and his spirit floated in space. He looked about him and was aware that all along he had been a boy. Life was here life! Now he was a man. He was pro foundly amazed by this spectacle of women; it was devilish dashing to be here, devilish damned dashing! Cocktail the second followed cocktail the first. Kirby began to hug Si affectionately. "Say, Si, I'm glad I'm glad I'm glad t' meet you." Si arose. "Holy smokes," he muttered. "Just as I'm gettin' THE OLYMPIAN ready to show him de real t'ing he goes back on me and gets drunk. Gee! I'm glad I hit the spot-light to- morrer. Trask, you come home!" He got Kirby into the street with difficulty ; the moon lurched with them over the housetops, as, linked, they ambled down Twenty-sixth Street. Kirby was solemn. "You don't want to think I'm drunk," he whispered. "You are drunk!" said Si. "Ah, now, Si, don't think I'm drunk. Just a little just a little just a little happy. Ta-ha-ha!" "Quit your laughing." "What 'd Janice say," said Kirby, chucking Si under the chin, "if she saw me now. Happy? Well yes. But don't think I'm drunk. Ta-ha-ha!" " Want to shut up now. We're goin' in the house." Kirby climbed infinite stairs. At the second landing a door was open, and he saw the Southern woman glancing out. Her gray eyes steadied him, and when he fell on his bed he thought: "Is it so, after all? I, drunk?" and fell into a heavy sleep. V GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT WHEN Kirby awoke uncannily in all his clothes, with a binding headache and a bitter taste, he remem bered the gray glance of Mrs. Waverley and was horrified. " I did get drunk I, Kirby Trask. And she knows it." His headache was bad; he almost shed tears. But he arose stiffly, flung cold water over his head, undressed, crept into bed, and slept till noon. Then amazingly he opened eyes with the singular sensation of having become more of a man. A profound self-satisfaction filled him a buoyant and braggart spirit. He stretched himself luxuriously and laughed softly. No search for work this day; no humiliations; he was stepping at last into his natural sphere. There was nothing to do but wait for the splendid even ing; then he should ascend into the Fifth Avenue man sion and commune with familiar spirits. What could be simpler than an American meeting an American? There was no reason for feeling nervous. Watts and he were merely two Americans equals. The only difference was that Watts had many million dollars. Otherwise he was a human being. He would go to him as an equal; doubtless he would be received as an American. He leaped out of bed and went to the window. The houses opposite were nearly lost in mist, and the strange change in the world affected him deeply. Yes, he thought, but the power of Watts! For four days Kirby had been swept cruelly around in the drifting chaos of the city; 43 THE OLYMPIAN and here was a man of the tower-tops with unbelievable power over that chaos, employing thousands of human beings, going his way over the world like a king, whose glance of approval could make a young man. Any mis step might lose all; but the right word would act as a charm. Then easily he should realize his big ambitions, himself seize on huge power, get his hand on the lever, fulfil his American youth's destiny. He would have luxury, fame, and his whole nature flowing in stupendous pulsations. Yes, his empire waited for him; a magic circle opening at a word. He was mentally intoxicated again, a young god of power. He laughed, dressed, went gaily out. But looking skyward he saw the sun a tiny yellow ball with an aura of faintest gold infinitely far away in the mist, and a burst of nervousness drenched him. He kept reassuring himself : "But he's only a human being." Thus, pumping up gaiety and courage, he took lunch, loitered about, bought a new necktie and collar, and finally jwent into a barber-shop. This worked his undoing. He could not resist that heart-reading barber: "Manicure your nails?" "All right." "Shoes shined?" "Sure." It was most embarrassing, and Kirby felt the coarse emotions welling from his heart. He was pain fully self-conscious. Then came a last blow to his tottering pride. "Say," cried the amazed barber, "don't you ever get a hair-cut?" The insult rankled, yet Kirby feared to offend a bandit whose razor rested lightly but ominously on his distended throat. "I haven't time," he said, weakly. "It 11 only take ten minutes." " No next time." His cheeks grew hot, for shame was in his voice. The barber spoke threateningly: "Then you'll have a shampoo. You need it." 44 GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT He compressed his lips, shook his head. He could not trust himself to speak. Whereupon the Spaniard sighed, and Kirby nerved himself for the slash. He was sin gularly helpless. He had delivered himself as if tied and bound into the hands of three strangers. The barber had his head, the bootblack his feet, and a manicure with a mountain of yellow hair, partly her own, possessed his fingers. It was like a three-ring circus a delicious agony. But the barber only sighed again, his professional pride in danger of breaking, suddenly sat Kirby up, and desper ately compromised by soaking Kirby's head with bay-rum and violet water and plastering the heavy hair down tight on either side a startling part. When Kirby emerged, with coat and hat brushed, he looked like an advertisement of linen collars, and he smelt . . . The experience had been crushing; he hurried home in a state of collapse and tried vainly to wash out the perfume and to get his hair wavy. Then he lay down and awaited the dreaded hour. As the long minutes passed he began trying on manners as if they were clothes. At the least, he now concluded, he must expect something stern and business-like, some thing coldly magnificent, coolly keen. He must meet proud power with callous reserve that is, if old Watts didn't see how he shook. A cold sweat broke out on him, his heart began to hop. And everything he did made him feel worse. Looking m the glass revealed his agita tion, lying still gave him time to count his heart-beats, whistling was evidence that his courage needed keep ing up. Six came; six ten; six twenty; half past. Then he was sure he was late, and sprinted out, hurrying blindly and with ^humping heart through the vaporous mystery of Fifth Avenue. The swift action gave a delighted relief; he began to feel that he could rush Watts before the old man had a chance to thumb him down. The streets sped, and here was the corner, the big brownstone house 45 THE OLYMPIAN with the glass-and-iron doors. An excited joy inundated him, and he gave a last look at his watch. It registered ten minutes to seven. Kirby lost his nerve completely. Ten minutes more to wait! He went trembling up and down Fifth Avenue, eying the house with sickly terror every time he passed. His breath steamed; he was aware now that the wet pavement was necking his shiny shoes and the dampness wilting his tie; overhead the double-globed electrics were pouring through the mist, light flowing like a waterfall through its own vapor; lamps of cabs came staring past; and the city seemed to sink deeper and deeper into sub merged depths of mystery. Kirby kept trying to nerve himself, to key himself up, and, when some hidden church bell mournfully tolled seven, thrice he approached the doorsteps and retreated. He tried to smile, to make his eyes flash. He said out loud: "He's only a human being." And up he went and pushed the bell-button. Now the deed was done; he was trapped. Slowly the door opened, and an unexpected butler barred the way. He had not thought of a butler. "Mr. Watts in?" he heard his voice rasping. The butler saw the face and was naturally suspicious. "Did you desire to see him poisonally?" "Yes." "On what business?" "He's expecting me." Kirby 's voice shook. "What's your name, may I arsk?" "Mr. Trask." "Oh." It was an oh that punctured the young man's breast. "Step in the hall, and I'll see." Kirby sank into a hall-seat, helpless and unnerved. As the murderer, strapped in the electric chair, knows that struggle is useless and that in a moment there will be a shock and that the sooner over the better, so Kirby sat 46 GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT ready. The butler stepped into a dark room, emerged again, climbed the curving stairs, and Kirby's hair stood on end when he found a pair of eyes in that darkness watching him. If his lips had only been pliable he would have smiled to think that he was regarded as a burglar until he could prove his innocence. Down came the butler and murmured: "You will step this way, sir, if you please." He arose, took long, deliberate steps, and climbed. He was ushered into a large reception-room, glowing in corners with soft electroliers and center-lit by a glassy chandelier ; a rug stretched on the highly polished floor; the furniture was covered with light-pink satin, and heavy curtains hung over the immense windows. This room gave off into a music-room that was softly lighted. The easy luxury of it, after Kirby's hall-room, was over whelming, but Kirby dashed in. At once the rug slipped under him and he almost took a header. He was unused to polished floors, but he gained a sudden respect for them and trod gingerly. Then he sat down, sure that the butler had seen the slip that had given him away yes, that had laid bare his vulgar poverty. If he could have felt worse, he would have; but he simply couldn't. He had seen pictures of Jordan Watts that suggested massive proportions. Instead of that, suddenly, a little fellow in a dress-suit came shambling in, momently wiping drops of blood from his underlip with a stained handker chief. Kirby gave a sickly grin; keyed up for something tremendous, he was disconcerted by this poor, suffering mortal. "Mr. Trask?" The voice was worried. "Glad to see you." He offered a hand, his left, and Kirby tried to rise and take it. It was limp and felt fishy. "You must pardon me," said Jordan Watts. "I had a tooth pulled this afternoon and my mouth's bloody." Then Kirby saw a tear in the magnate's eye. This was 47 THE OLYMPIAN wonderful that a tear should be in one of the wealthiest eyes in the United States. That it sprang, as it were, from the yearning abyss that had held a tooth made no difference. It was just a human tear, the same as drop from you and me. Kirby felt like dropping one himself. This was the worst disillusionment of all. Toothache, tooth pulled, bloody lip, a tear. And it was for this that he had come to New York and spent a tortured day of keying up. It should have made him feel easy and equal; it only added confusion to his unnerved condition. He pitied himself now out of the depths of his heart. "We all come to it sooner or later," Jordan Watts was saying. Then Kirby was aware that some one else had entered the room, a young woman who stepped lightly up. Kirby could not tell whether she was short or tall ; that she was slender, that she was young, was patent. He was aware of dark eyes, and thought she was plain-faced. Her dark hair escaped him. "Mary," said old Watts, "this is Mr. Trask." She nodded slightly. Like Janice, she was affected by the visible emotionalism in his quivering lips, flashing eyes, and flushed cheeks, and by his passionate speech- lessness. Then quiet reigned. Whereupon Mary said: " I think we could go down." And Jordan Watts muttered: "Yes, let's go down." They started; Kirby forgot, and the rug slipped; he balanced himself wildly, loosed an uncanny laugh, and passed down in a dream. He was desperate now, and didn't care what happened. But hardly had they seated themselves at the flashing table when two others entered, a keen-eyed, smooth- shaven young man in a dress-suit and a young woman in an evening gown with only bunches of lace dividing bare arms from bare bosom. Kirby had nerved himself for a 48 GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT tete-a-tete with Watts; remotely he figured on Mary; he was quite unprepared for a tableful. He shuffled to his feet, nodding, as old Watts murmured: "My daughter Alice and her intended, Mr. Cutler. Mr. Trask." Their eyes seemed to use him as if he were an opera- glass and they were looking through at some interesting spectacle on the wall. And suddenly he blushed to the roots of his hair, for he was aware for the first time that he had on a business suit. "Why in God's world," he cried to himself, "did I let myself get into this?" An invisible lord of food shot a plate of oysters down before him, and he began grinning at an outlay of forks, knives, and spoons that presented the great puzzle which for which? Slyly he watched the others, and matched them. This was followed by his first cold consomme, and it tasted villainous. Yet eat it he had to. After that he lost all consciousness of eating, merely lunging, lifting, chewing. The young couple kept up a lively talk as if he were absent some vague stuff about a Mrs. Payson and the dreadful trouble she was enduring in arranging a cotillion and like a fascinated creature he kept his eyes on the nakedness of the young lady. Mary tried to be good to him. She took the first break in the conversation. "And how is Mrs. Hadden?" Kirby almost dropped a knife. "Oh," he grinned, "she's all right." A pause. Then sudden cotillion again. All at once, then, the atmosphere sharpened. It seemed like a new voice speaking. It was Jordan Watts asking: "Where did you say you came from, Mr. Trask?" He turned and confronted a new face. The eyes were sharp, probing to the secret recesses of his brain, and he noticed now the big, bulky forehead and the grim mouth only half hidden in the little graying beard. There was a 49 THE OLYMPIAN terrific drive of power in the face, something big and appalling, like a force of nature. Kirby came to himself. Yes, this was the steel magnate. "Trent, Iowa," he answered, like a schoolboy, straight ening up stiffly. "Large place?" Watts snapped. "It's yes well, ten thousand." "A village," said Watts. "What do you manufacture there?" Kirby racked his brain. What in the world did they manufacture there? "Oh well it's" sweat bathed his forehead "why, furniture." He felt that the young couple were enjoying this hugely, for they were listening attentively. He would have given his right hand to escape. "And the crops this year how are they?" The eyes ransacked him. "I" he laughed uneasily "I don't know." "Why, of course they were good," cried Jordan Watts; "this has been a banner year for crops in the Middle West." Kirby knew he was giving himself away, that he looked ignorant and little before this trained power. But the questions came crashing. "What have you been doing?" As if to say, how in thunder have you, an American youth, been dawdling around when you should have been mastering your environment? "I I've been a reporter since I left the academy." "Reporter? In Trent?" "The Trent Blade." "Republican or Democrat?" "Independent." " Didn't stand for anything, you mean. How long were you there?" "Nearly two years." So GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT "Large staff?" "Three of us." "I see. And that academy; what did it stand for in training vocational, or cheap, vague radicalism?" Kirby looked at him appealingly. "I really couldn't say." Jordan Watts gave him a keen glance, relaxed into misery, said, worriedly, to Mary: "I'll have to see that dentist again to-morrow," and attacked some Nesselrode pudding. The terrible interval was short; Kirby waited in a trance, quite oblivious of the others and eating nothing. Then came the eyes again and the dynamic voice: "Tell me this, Mr. Trask " But Mary was ready; she saw that Kirby was being vivisected. "Oh," she said, lightly, "let's talk of something else, father." He turned on her and spoke sharply. "Please don't break in, Mary. I'm trying to find out about something." Then he resumed the assault. "What's the price of a pair of horses in the Middle West?" Kirby swallowed a lump. "I don't know." "Well, when I was last there it was three hundred dol lars; here it's four hundred and fifty. You don't know?" And then the miracle came. Kirby grew red, felt hot, and all his tremendous temper went to his head. Like a bull he leaned, his face livid. "Mr. Watts, I don't CARE what horses cost either here or in the Middle West." He put a fist on the table, ready for battle. But all at once a delighted laughter went up from the young people and rolled into a shaking roar of mirth from the old man. "Good!" cried Mary. Watts leaned and patted Kirby on the shoulder. 5 Si THE OLYMPIAN "You're right. Come along to the library, and we'll have a talk." Then Kirby laughed, too. It was delicious. He felt himself again. Proudly he rose, proudly he strode after Jordan Watts into the leathery, table-lit library, and sank into a deep chair. Only Mary followed. And, seated there in the soft twilight, he saw Mary's face transformed. He had thought her plain, but now it was as if a light had been turned on inside her. Her eyes shone with radiance, her cheeks glowed, she seemed hauntingly beautiful. "You mustn't mind dad," she said, seating herself on the arm of her father's chair. The old industrial captain drew her close, with startling tenderness. "Mustn't, eh?" he said, rubbing her cheek against his. "Mustn't, Meg?" A rhythm of warmth enfolded Kirby, and the missed loveliness of home and the old comfort and love became real again. Mary stirred him profoundly, and not as Janice had; not as a woman out of the days of knighthood, but as a lovely girl. Yet he felt that he was younger than she. The telephone-bell rang; Mary leaned and picked up the instrument, half -seated in an exquisite posture of grace and eagerness. "Hello. Yes. Yes, it is. Just a moment." Her voice was musical. She turned to her father and spoke easily: "Long distance Chicago." Kirby was thrilled. Chicago, a thousand miles away, was on the wire, and these people took it as a matter of course. Jordan Watts spoke with a magnetic Hit in his voice: "Hello. Yes. Hello, Jim. The Brandon Works? Wire Spielmann. Say I order no action on option till I reach Indianapolis. Get that? Good by, Jim; take care of yourself." 52 GLIMPSES OF THE LIGHT That was all. Yet, had the magic carpet lifted Kirby until he saw America lying like a map beneath him, he could not have been more amazed. He was hardly an atom in one great city, but Watts seemed not only to handle New York but to reach lightly out over a third of a continent to sway another city, as if he had a universal mind darting down now here, now there, over the world. It was a dramatic act of stupendous power; and yet it was a moment of quiet, one moment in the passing night. The butler now entered bearing a card on a tray. Watts picked it up. He was annoyed. "It's Van Ambridge of the Manufacturers' Association. Why does he come now?" He glanced at Kirby. "But show him in." Kirby rose. "I'd better go," he murmured. Watts rose, too. "I'm sorry this happened. But come again. I'm glad to have met you." Mary followed him to the door, helped him into his coat. "Remember me to Mrs. Hadden," she said. "It was good of you to come. You must come some other time." He pressed her hand, and her eyes glistened. Wonder ful possibilities stirred in him. She was simple; she was radiant. "Good-by," he said. "Good-by." She herself opened the door, and, stepping out, he knew that she waited before closing it. He was strangely thrilled as he stepped buoyantly into the mist. Then, all at once, horror swamped him. He had not asked Jordan Watts for a job, hadn't even dreamed of asking. And a little voice told him that they would never ask him to call again, he who was so palpably ig norant and countrified, he who was merely one of the great swarm that buzzes in the light around a millionaire. S3 VI BESS: A SHOP-GIRL A>L the radiance in Kirby's nature sparkled out the next morning. Now that he got a backward glance on his experience he found it funny, a farce in which he had played the part of unconscious humorist. His nervous frenzy, his disillusionment, his clothes and his manners now seemed exquisitely amusing. But most amusing of all had been the alacrity with which he had been ushered in and then handed out without even a chance to put his problem before old Watts. And it was this that had brought him to New York with high hopes. "Una!" he thought, sardonically, "the game is up. K. T. is done for." And it was really so. He had not "made good"; like young Parsifal, he had not asked the one question that would have made the future for him; the great moment had come and passed, and he was left to work his way alone. That he could do this with any immediate success he now doubted; four days of job-hunting had shown him the difficulty of breaking into the magic circle of business. Even if he found work it meant drudging along for years before he could advance. Yes, he was beaten; and ad mitting it brought a great relief. Matters surely could get no worse. He then decided that he would cease corresponding with Janice Hadden. She had sent him out to conquer, and he could not write back that he had failed ; it would be better to go his own way without the weak pathos of showing 54 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL himself broken. Besides, the image of Janice was fading; he could not recall her face; he felt that he had quite outgrown the ardent youth on the campus. And, more poignant reason, there was the personality of Mary Watts a girlish loveliness that possessed him and obliterated all else. He felt that he had met a new type of woman and henceforth could not be satisfied with any dissimilar kind. He had no inkling as to wherein this newness lay ; she was merely different, suggesting marvelous possibilities. It was as if his mind was amazed with the newly revealed woman in the world. That he could meet her again appeared remote; nevertheless, he fed himself on hope. He now felt distinctly older, rich in experience, and, hence, more decisive and more callous. There remained but one thing to do, and he would do it search for work until he found it, take any job, and peg away until his footing was firmer, until he made friends and possibly had saved a little money. With this feeling he now broke the last tie that held him to the past and ceased to care what Trent thought of him. He was a New-Yorker; he could do as he pleased, and New York would mind its own business and care not a rap for his failure or success. So that morning at breakfast, when Freddy Marston, the floor- walker, said to him, "Say, Trask, are you looking for a job?" he replied, eagerly: "Sure. Do you know of any?" "Why," said Marston, raising an interrogating fork, "don't you come into the store?" "Can I get in?" "Oh, I can fix that!" Marston's cut-away seemed to expand. ' ' Of course it's start low, and toe the mark, with your insides full of patience. But there's a future; / started as cash-boy." Then, just as Kirby felt elated, the floor-walker added: "Now I'm getting eighteen a week." "How long were you at it?" asked Kirby, sharply. "Oh let's see just twelve years." 55 THE OLYMPIAN Kirby choked over a spoonful of egg and blew little bits on the table-cloth. Marston felt injured. "I wasn't suggesting," he said, tartly, "that you start as a cash-boy. But of course " "What could I start at?" "Mentioning my name to Mr. Spiegel, and speaking bright, you might start almost as anything. But of course " " Oh, forget it," cried Kirby, lightly. "Take me along. I'm spoiling for a job." So they went together up Broadway until they reached the big block building of Marshall's, with its enticing window displays of women's dresses on large-eyed wax models, men's shirts and ties, books and stationery, furniture for furnishing a four-room flat, all garnished with imitation autumn leaves and backed by mirrors. A stream of shop-girls and salesmen went blackly down the side street and into the rear entrance. It was just ten minutes of eight. There came a humiliating moment for Mr. Marston. "I I've got to go in the back. But you trudge around till a little after eight, go in the front, and ride to the eighth floor. Ask for Mr. Spiegel, and mention me." That going to the back entrance marked him with something servile, and he vanished quickly. Kirby paced lazily along Broadway. He was becoming enough of a New-Yorker to go through crowds as if they did not exist, through streets as if there were no back ground of stony distances; only shop windows and an occasional fresh face caught his eye. He began to take it all for granted; the spectacle of the tumultuous city had ceased to be amazing. It was eight-thirty when Kirby stepped into the store. Shop-girls were laughing and gossiping together behind the heaped counters; floor-walkers paraded the empty aisles. A quivering expectation was in the air, a sense of preparation for exciting events. Here and there an early 56 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL shopper was matching samples or inspecting goods. To Kirby the crowded display was extraordinarily lavish, as if all the riches of the world had been gathered together to be poured out to a moneyed city. There was some thing Oriental in this gathering of the products of manu factory and mill, mine and the fields of earth; like a gor geous Eastern fair when the caravans come together. He wondered where all the money came from to make these things and to buy them, for he wanted some himself. The elevator took him up to the eighth floor, and he entered a network of partitioned offices. A boy asked him for his card. ' Oh, just tell Mr. Spiegel Mr. Trask was sent by Mr. Marston." A minute passed, and he was ushered into the seated presence of a singularly tall and attractive young man, smooth-shaven and hazel-eyed. Mr. Spiegel motioned him into a chair. "What can I do for you?" he asked, agreeably. "Mr. Marston sent me "Marston? Which Marston?" There was another swift shrinkage of the floor-walker. Kirby began to feel nervous. "He's floor-walker, men's furnishings." "Oh yes!" But such an absent-minded exclamation. "And what for?" Kirby became painfully self-conscious; he was asking for work again. "He thought possibly you had an opening a place with a future in it." "How old are you?" asked Mr. Spiegel. Kirby flushed. "Twenty-four." Mr. Spiegel looked at him keenly. "I don't suppose you'd care to sell behind a counter." "No," said Kirby, eagerly, "not unless I had to. I'd like a job where there's a chance of working up." 57 THE OLYMPIAN "Well,." said Mr. Spiegel, "it just happens that I have some such job. We need a young man in the buyers' department to meet the outside salesmen when they come in and make them feel at home; then a little clerical work for the buyers. It's not hard, and it may lead to some thing better. But it pays nine a week." Kirby's heart shrank. "I pay eight board," he said. Mr. Spiegel smiled and spoke kindly. "Would ten do for a while to tide things over?" So Kirby got his first job. Coming down in the elevator he had a glimpse of moons of light strung along the ground- floor ceiling; and down in the mellowness the sparkle of metal and bright cloth and a fierce intermoving mass of humanity, a tumult of faces, an interior electric-lit city. A great hum arose from the multitude, a joyous clash of sounds the women buying, buying, for the ever-hungry homes and the splendors of their nights. He was to be a part of the machinery that decked out the women of the city in jewels and fine cloth for the joy of men's love. It was not Utopian, but it was a foothold, and Kirby was sane after his harsh job-hunting. He bought an alarm- clock at a loaded counter and went home with an uneasy sense of responsibility. At six-thirty, then, on Monday morning his alarm-clock shot him out of bed; at ten minutes of eight he and Marston became part of the stream that flowed past the time-keeper in the back entrance. He now found that the rear of the store was walled off for the employees, with special lunch and rest and cloak rooms, and he took the employees' elevator to the seventh floor. A long partition made a sort of hallway along the line of the buyers' offices, and he entered this. Here a glib youth expounded his duties that he was to meet each salesman, take his card to the proper buyer, and show him in ; that he was to add up a column of figures if a buyer so re quested, or get a box of matches; that he was to run er- 58 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL rands for his many masters. Oh yes, there were at least thirty buyers. In plain English, then, he was to be the office-boy. Kirby's heart sickened. He, an office-boy, he who had come to the city to ride it like a galloping cavalry-man. He waited around nervously till ten-thirty. Salesmen began to arrive, sleek and unctuous individuals who used him as a door-knob on the buyers' offices gave him a twist, and passed in. A great crowd came, elbowing him, making it impossible to select the new from the old. Thus came luncheon. He ate across the street and was back in half an hour. Then the afternoon was infinitely tedious, with sleepy offices gathering dust and nothing to do but pace up and down or sit and glance surreptitiously at a copy of the New York Commercial and the Hotel Register. Time melted into eternity; six o'clock came and went a dozen different quarter-hours; and at last when he hur ried with the eager crowds down the lamp-lit streets he felt as if he had been released from a jail The next day was still more hateful. He rebelled against the routine ; the monster that seized on him at the rear entrance at eight sharp and swallowed him into abysmal depths, disgorging him, weary and exhausted by sheer idleness, at six in the evening. He was part of a senseless clock-work, a cog. He had his place now in the toiling city, but got no joy of it. It was cruel, sense less, impersonal. It treated him as if he were mere hands without heart or brain. One buyer sent him on an errand to a floor-walker on the first floor, and he had the curious shame of passing bareheaded through the hatted throng a flaunting symbol of his servility and the fact that he was less than the least of these. He felt, too, the keen difference between himself and the other employees. No use to continue the fiction of equality: they were different; they had not his sensitive high-mindedness, his emotional richness. And he had revealed to him a moral breaking-down that 59 THE OLYMPIAN shocked his heart. Going up and down the elevators, he heard now and then mere boys and girls flinging suggestive jibes at each other, a primitive freedom of language he was unused to. Some of the girls seemed to make advances, to come three-quarters of the way. At home it was the men who did the wooing and the courting, and this reversal of relationships threatened to cheapen his natural reverence for women. So shocked was he that he spoke of it to Marston at noon in the cheap and flaring side-street restaurant. , "But are those young girls like that?" Kirby asked. "Some are, some aren't," said Marsten. "There's the straight ones, just like everywhere; but throw a lot of young folk together in factory or shop, especially a bunch of girls who ain't got nothing in the world, and Lord! what happens ? Why, the older women pass on the word to the younger, and tell 'em how to have a good time safely. Can you blame 'em? Look at the life they lead. Lord, most of 'em can't marry; they've got to have fun at least once in a lifetime. Miss Wiggins, the millinery buyer, was right. At a blow-out she got up and said: 'Girls, we might as well get a little bit of every kind of a good time.' That's the stuff. Why shouldn't they ?" "And what did the girls say?" asked Kirby. "Oh, some got red in the face; but most of 'em giggled. Gee!" he laughed, "you're the innocent child." And he went on to tell Kirby of his relationship with some of the girls until it seemed to the young man that the sidewalks had slid back and disclosed a cavernous sub terranean world of bacchantic people, a population ruin ing beneath the quiet homes. And New York seemed terrible again pent civilization shattering itself on the stones, a swirling humanity sinking for lack of work into vagrancy and crime, and for lack of love into free abandon. Kirby felt stunned; he could think of nothing else that afternoon. And then came a new experience. There was a girl employed in a clerical capacity in one 60 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL of the buyers' offices; he had heard her called "Bess," and he had noted casually that during the idle hours she would come out and glance at him and then retire. Now, at four, she came down through the shadow and light of the open doors, and he saw that she was pitiably slender and frail, a mere girl of about seventeen. Her yellowish-brown hair was stuffed out with puffs and <( rats," her face was faintly powdered; but her green dress was rather shabby, and her large dark eyes shone with a starved look. She seemed a desperate, wild little being. She came up, trying to amble nonchalantly, in the manner of the shop-girls. "Got any elastics?" she asked. She meant to be im pudent, but failed. Kirby felt a sharp pity acting like an astringent on his heart. He looked at her softly. "No but can I find some for you?" "Oh, never mind! Say, you're new." "Yes my second day." "Rotten, ain't it?" A warmth of sympathetic comradeliness went through him. "Yes, it's rotten." "Ever go out at night?" "A little." She came nearer; her manner was distinctly caressing. "You ain't never worked in a place like this before?" He smiled. "How do you know?" "Oh, you're not our kind. You're a gentleman, Mr. Trask." " His eyes became misty. "No, I'm not. I'm just a poor fellow who has to earn his living." He found it curiously easy to talk to her. "Oh no," she said, "you're a gentleman. I know what 61 THE OLYMPIAN they're like. Lots of the girls here have gentleman friends." He did not then understand the term, but an impor tant fact dawned on his slow mind. Through this girl he got a clue to the starved girlhood of the city manless, toiling through the long hours, living alone, with hearts starved for even a shabby imitation of divine love, who lean from open windows into the summer night and hear the city passing by and see the sky-line tremulous with lights and behold youth swirling in the glitter at the street end; the spirit of youth denied its undying rights; joy, laughing joy, and sparkling pleasure, and the long night of love. He noticed the sudden mantling of her cheeks when she said "gentleman friends." She glanced away with girlish shame. "And you haven't any?" he asked. "I?" she laughed, strangely. "No not exactly." She seemed to be waiting as if for an invitation, and on a generous impulse Kirby spoke. "You don't get out much, do you?" "No." "Neither do I. Let's go to a show to-night." She laughed, giving him her eyes and their happy radiance. "You take me to-night," she said; "I'll take you to-morrow!" She left him then, and he stood thrilled, yet perplexed at this new entanglement. Was it possible that he would be enmeshed in a marriage that would further bind him to a life of treadmill poverty? Or what did Bess mean? But he still retained enough of the beautiful generousness of youth to feel joy in the thought of giving this girl joy. And he tingled with the romance of an evening with a strange girl in the strange city. They met at the rear entrance and went close together through the happy, swarming streets. The evening was sharp and cold with greenish skies over the black sky-line 62 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL and the clear gold street-lights over the black silhouettes of the crowd. A smoky red was in the west. Bess shivered in her thin coat. They went into a plushy red dining-room on Broadway and found a corner table. Then they faced each other, smiling excitedly. Looking at her face, he had the illusion then that the city's nights were gathered in her eyes, that all the tremulous beauty that drifted down Broadway through the canon of fire was caught and made intimate, terribly personal, in this thin, flaming girl. Night had come, and had offered him a woman. He learned then about herself; how she had come from a poor family in Albany and lived alone on West Nine teenth Street, and the struggle of it. "There's no use, Kirby," she said. "A girl can't live on six a week. Two goes for room; and out of the four comes clothes and food and fun and doctor and dentist. I've got to walk to work; and I eat ten-cent breakfasts and lunches and spend a quarter for supper. See this hat? It meant a couple of weeks without breakfast. But eating and rent alone come to over five dollars. So I do my own washing." "Where?" "Oh, in my room at night. It takes ages to save up for a pair of shoes." And yet, thought Kirby, she worked in a very cara vansary of luxury; daily she passed up and down among furs and silks, silver and gold, groceries and meats; passed through without touching, but with her heart touching, her heart reaching out and finding that it remained empty, craving hungrily. "Do you blame them?" Marston had asked. At least Kirby could not blame Bess. They went to a variety show, seated together in the balcony, and now and then she leaned against him. And the glamor of the stage awoke in their hearts an enchant ment they shared together. 63 THE OLYMPIAN The streets were brilliant with pleasure-seekers afoot and the whirl of carriages; the restaurants asked them in, but they went by happily, two lost in an uninhabited wilderness, just two in the sharp night with the stars spangling the heights of blue-black space. West Nineteenth Street was shoddy, dark, after the radiant avenue. He took her to the doorstep of the cheap red-brick house. Then he paused. "But you're coming up?" she whispered. Her voice was almost frightened. In the uncertain rays of the gas-lamp beside him he saw her tremble as she glanced down the gray flagging. Not a soul was in sight up and down the shadows of the street. "You'll want something to drink," she added. "All right," he said, and followed. She unlocked the door, and the hall-light flickered; they passed up the creaking stairs to the top floor, and in the darkness she laughed nervously until she found the keyhole of her room. Then she lit the gas, disclosing the shabby room, shabbier than Kirby's, with broken pane of glass and crumbling, broken walls. "Take the chair," she murmured. "I'll sit on the bed." He sat down awkwardly. He was unused to sitting in girls' bedrooms, and he felt shy. Then Bess began humming, got on her knees, leaned under the bed, and drew forth a bottle. Kirby felt a chill tingle along his spine. "What's that?" he asked. "Whisky?" "No it's a cocktail ready mixed." He almost choked. "Oh, none for me." "Really? Come," she coaxed, "just a little." "No. Not a drop." She gazed up at him, her lips parted, her eyes glistening. She was still on her knees. "I'm sorry," she said. "I didn't know." 64 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL She rose, then, as if bidding him good night; and he rose, too. "Good night," he said, taking her hand. Her fingers clasped his and held them. They stood close together. "But you go with me to-morrow, Kirby?" "Yes yes," he murmured. "Good night." His heart ached; and then she leaned, drew him close, and kissed him. "Good night, Bess!" he said, chokingly. And out he went. He heard her dull sob as he went down the stairs. Out in the street he walked as if he were a somnambulist. It seemed as if the city had been a woman taking off layer after layer of her clothing until now she stood half naked. "So this is life," thought Kirby. It was a sober, almost a sanctified young man who went to bed on Twenty-sixth Street that night. And the next night he seemed to see the city entirely nude. For Bess took him to a dance-hall on Eighth Avenue spangled, glittering Eighth Avenue, with its saloons and halls and cheap shops gleaming like an imita tion Broadway, a jewel of paste, and the young girls passing in their made-up beauty like ten-dollar-a-week imitations of the pictures of society women in the papers. Here in candy-shops youth was drinking ice-cream soda, and in the shadows of the street a boy's arm went round a girl's shoulder, and the urge of the race became audible in laughter and twining speech. The dance-hall was a flight up, and very large. Several hundred crowded it shop and factory girls, clerks and young salesmen and factory hands. A small orchestra played the lilting street tunes of the day, and there was the sway of the two-step and the waltz. Kirby could not dance well ; he did the best he could, however, for Bess. 65 THE OLYMPIAN Liquor went about freely, served on side-tables; but Kirby kept to soft drinks, though Bess had a cocktail. Then toward midnight a change came over the dancers : the music grew more exciting, the steps flew faster, and a new dance began. "That's the ' Shivers,' " said Bess. "Come on, I'll show you." Her voice had changed; instead of being timid and sweet, it now was brazen and loud. He started down the floor with her and then said he wanted to watch. Bess flew off with another man. Kirby was disgusted with the dance, which seemed vulgar, but it gave way to another called the "Nigger," and this to a third; and Kirby stood rooted to the spot, aghast, hardly believing his eyes. A riot of dancing began; the music was working on the raw nerves of these drudges, these who had drudged all day until their cravings were fierce and unquenchable and who needed burning stimu lants to refresh them; and so they danced until they got "inside" the music and gave way to its frenzy. Girls fainted, others seemed in a trance, there were voices sound ing unspeakable things, and then in the pandemonium scenes of naked shame. It was like the religious rites of a savage tribe, an elemental sex dance. Kirby got a glimpse of a transformed Bess, a wild little panther, drunken and bacchantic, and he stumbled down the stairs into the clean air. He felt a little crazed. So this was civilization, he thought, this that drove human beings into horrible savagery! And this was life! The last vestige of his innocence seemed swept away, the last remnant of his youth. Now, surely, his eyes were open; he saw the thing from top to bottom, the mad, fantastic beast- struggle that seems respectable in the busy streets. "Now I know the real New York," he said to himself again. Yet the real New York slept sweetly in several million rooms, and on the morrow would arise refreshed and 66 BESS: A SHOP-GIRL swarm to work, the men to the mills and offices, the women to the kitchens and the markets, and the little children crowding at the gates of the democratic school the chil dren pressing against the gates of light. In their faces was the real New York. Kirby, surely, had merely seen New York of the night. But his soul was outraged. He could have wept for the lost innocence of the world. And he knew then that his job was unendurable. Yet in a little while he, too, would sink with these submerged creatures; he, too, a victim of the long, dull day, the crushing pacing of the treadmill. The next morning he sought Mr. Spiegel. "Do you think," he asked, "there is really a future for me here?" "Do you?" asked Mr. Spiegel. "I don't know." "Well, to tell you the truth," said the other, "for a young man of ability and ambition there's not much ahead. I'll be frank with you. You might in eight or nine years be a floor- walker; in fifteen or twenty a buyer. You're quite right. I can see you're up to something bigger." So Kirby resigned on the spot, got his hat and coat, went down the front elevator, and mingled with the hatted crowd, again a free American citizen. He was glowing with happiness. "I'm jobless again, thank God!" But he was not the same Kirby that entered Marshall's on Monday morning. 6 VII AN EVENING WITH LADIES IRBY now grew painfully thin; he went around with jaw set, unsmiling, and gray eyes haunted and tragic. "Gee ! he's the regular magic kid," said Cissie Clay, to the elderly translator. "Now you see him, now you don't; up and down, sweet and sour, proud and humble. First I thought he was homesick; then I thought he struck oil; then I knew he was looking for a job. But now jilted, or I'm one bad guesser. He's Mystery; and my heart is his!" Miss Peck listened attentively. They were sitting in the brocade-covered parlor after supper Cissie Clay shining over the whole sofa with her superb thirty-eight-inch bust and Miss Peck shrinking on a rocker, a tiny woman with large moon-face and thin, gray hair. "You think, then," said Miss Peck, "that it's unre quited love?" "Sure," said Cissie, who liked plain English "the go-by, the cold shoulder, the Broadway stare, the nix-kid, the wrong number. Well, I'd black his shoes for him and wash his face and comb his hair did you ever see such hair on a man, Miss Peck ? and get good cookery for him all for love. Lord, those gray lights of his!" "Unrequited love," sighed Miss Peck. "Who's that in the hall?" It was a young man looking for his rubbers under the hat-rack. Miss Peck arose and went out. "Are you looking for something, Mr. Trask?" 68 AN EVENING WITH LADIES "Rubbers," muttered Kirby. "You're not going out in this rain?" she said, sym pathetically. "I don't know," he mumbled. "Mr. Trask!" She leaned near. "Do come up I want to read something to you." He wanted desperately to say no, but he was in that critical, emotional condition where a "no" would sound like a bull blowing a bad temper through his nose; he could not trust himself to say it. So he followed her meekly up the stairs. Kirby was beginning to be unhinged by the officious kindliness of the boarders; their stupid bungling merely made him lonelier. And as for glib Marston, he and Kirby spoke not to each other. Marston was deeply offended, for Kirby had actually left the job which Mar ston had provided for him. So, thought Kirby, that ends Marston. It was simply unearthly the way people in New York leaped from nothingness into flesh and blood, stirred one up, and vanished a city of ghosts. The sales man on the sleeper was no more; Si was gone; Marston was in the very act of disappearing; and Bess and Mary, where were they? These two young women, who in the space of a few days had overmastered his spirit with profound joy and grief. Most of the night before he had lain staring at the silvery play of the street-light on his ceiling, the faint luminousness in the lost room, too aroused to sleep, too shocked to desire rest. It was as if surgery were being performed upon him, some vivisector sharply knifing youth out of his heart. His mind was full of echoes of the Old Testament vanity, vanity, the vale of tears, a world of perdition and sin. He lay on the midnight bed breathing with pain beneath the hidden procession of the stars, earth under him passing on in the rank and file of the army of eternity. For his young man's heart had still the purity to ache in his breast with the tragedy of 69 THE OLYMPIAN Bess the tragedy of young, budding beauty smirched and broken, of youth with its rich possibilities wrecked in our swift industrialism. Over that dance of Bacchantes, that dance that seemed to go footing on at the base of his brain, rose only one face of untroubled sweetness, the face of Mary Watts ; and for the first time Kirby was puzzled by that ancient injustice that crushes a Bess and shelters a Mary. Thinking, he sickened of the city; he yearned with homesickness. It seemed as if he must die if he found no quiet hand to soothe him, no hushed voice to pour peace into his heart. That was it; no one here understood him. And so the boarding-house began to seem very hateful to him. This heavy-handed kindness bruised when what he needed was healing. And his money was dwindling, and there was no hope of work. He was surely in a desperate plight. How, then, could he face Miss Peck and say no to her without storming? What he desired was to go raging up and down the house driving the amazed boarders before him. Miss Peck had a rear room on the third floor. She turned up the gas over a kitchen table white with manu scripts, and then confronted the miserable young man. "Sit down," she said, softly, and then, drawing from the table a huge bundle of papers tied with a pink ribbon, she heaved a sigh of sadness. "Do you know, Mr. Trask, you're the first young man I've read this to." Not knowing what was coming, Kirby clutched the arms of his chair and tried to smile. Miss Peck untied the bundle, straightened the papers. "It's my epic," she said, breathlessly. Kirby stared at her. "On India ' Kalam of India,' " she continued. "My life-work fifty thousand lines in blank verse." The blood rushed to Kirby's head. What was she up to now? Somehow the pathos escaped him; at least he 70 AN EVENING WITH LADIES did not know that a thousand shabby New York boarding- houses served as dusty pigeon-holes for countless master pieces tragedies, novels, epics writ in heart's blood by pitiable incapables. There was Miss Peck fading before him, after years of seeing India in blank verse, toiling alone at her kitchen table to add dust to dust; and all that Kirby saw was a tedious old maid suddenly become terrific. She glanced at him knowingly, and spoke under her breath. "It's on unrequited love, Mr. Trask. ' ' Then she rose. "This is the prologue: Bombay, the slumberous city by the sea, Bombay, with towers and turrets in the sun." Kirby's mind soon grew blanker than the verse, save that he was aware of quite a bombardment of Bombays. This was impossible; his heart was breaking. "Do you care for it?" he heard, and he grew ruthless. "Yes, and thank you for reading it! Thank you very much!" And he stalked out. He was simply starved for lack of some one to confide in, some human being who vibrated with him and could release the white passion of his heart. He hurried down the dim-lit hall to the upward-curving stairway, but the front-room door was, as always, half open, and he met the gray eyes of Mrs. Waverley. "Is that Mr. Trask?" she asked. Her voice had the magic Southern lilt, like little waters purling over stones in sunlight. Its charm pervaded him, and in a flash he remembered how this woman had been quietly watching him. "Yes, it's I," he said. She laughed softly. "Come in do." He entered. A folding-bed stood closed against one THE OLYMPIAN wall, covered with drapery, and to fight off the chill a little gas-stove burned cheerfully beside the unused grate. The room was exceptionally neat and cozy, charged with ' ' atmosphere, ' ' with vital personality. The furniture, too, seemed very comfortable. Beside a center-table on which stood a reading-lamp, Mrs. Waverley sat in a rocker, a book on her lap. The lamp-light and the little flare from the stove both played upon her, softening her. Kirby noticed for the first time that she wore glasses, but her gray eyes shone through so liquidly that they seemed mere shadows. "You must pay me a little visit," she said. Again he was aware that her voice was gentle and low and cool, and he felt as if scales were dropping from him. "Draw up that arm-chair; it will just fit you." His lips quivered as he sank deep in the cushions, close to her. Then he heard the rain slashing the windows and felt warm and snug. She smiled. "We out-of-town people ought to get to know each other. I have to read in the evening for lack of com pany. And that's not easy after a day of teaching and correcting papers." A feeling of ease began to soften him. Then she looked up at him, her clear eyes resting on his, and he knew that she read him through and that she understood. He vaguely smiled back; and for the first time in New York the unconscious intimacy of home returned to him. He could tell this woman all; she knew. "You've been looking for work, haven't you?" "Yes," he murmured. "And found none?" Tears of self-pity dimmed his eyes. "I worked three days at Marshall's." She laughed softly. "That was hardly the place for you, was it?" The idea of this stocky-headed young man cramping 72 AN EVENING WITH LADIES his nebulous volcanic temperament into a department store was diverting. He caught the lovely amusement of it all, and now genuinely smiled. "I could have blown up the place!" he said. ' ' Indeed !' ' she laughed. ' ' You're quite capable of that ! But have you tried Atwood's?" "No. Who are they?" She arose and fetched the morning paper, then opened it to the advertising pages. Then she smiled at him. "It sounds too American to be anything but a fraud. But I know a young man who got work through them. Here it is: 'Atwood's, Brain Brokers. We Find the Right Man for the Right Job. Are You Hiring Brains? Come to Us.' Isn't that delightful?" He laughed with pleasure. "What must I do?" "Well," she said, "there's a five-dollar fee, and then a percentage of the first year's salary. But it's worth try ing, isn't it?" He noticed then her delicate hands and the wedding- ring on the left, and the fact that she was a widow and yet remained clear-eyed and strong-fibered affected him pro foundly. All his inmost thoughts found expression, for he knew then that she would understand the worst in him as she divined the best in him. He told her of his migration from the West, his hunt for work, his evening at the Watts', his job at Marshall's, and glanced even with delicate slants at the experience with Bess. It was nearly midnight when he finished, and he felt then as if he had cleansed the wounds that were festering within him. " It's not a bad start," she said. "You've got to know life somehow. Now there's just one thing to do, I take it. Get what work you can to tide you over, give you a basis of livelihood, and grope your way to something else." They rose, and she drew near and placed her hands on his shoulders. 73 THE OLYMPIAN "Kirby," she said, simply, "I'm glad you came." His voice was almost inaudible. "So am I." They stood so a moment, and her gentle spirit seemed to envelop him like a spring rain-cloud ; he felt the sweetest joy faintly stirring through him. Her alien and exotic charm had not been spoiled by the city; it seemed to re tain something of sunny woodland and silent meadow. He felt caught up in arms that caressed, in a spirit that released his own and set him free. "Goodnight!" "Goodnight!" She laughed again, and he turned and went up. Long and healing sleep came to him. VIII THE BRAIN-BROKERS /^VERNIGHT the rain changed to sleet, and the next \^J morning the pavements were coated with thin ice and the world was dark. Kirby boarded a lighted car that seemed to bump deeper and deeper into a brown dinginess of shadow-lost buildings. Getting off at Duane Street he found Broadway sluffing and slipping by, horses fall ing in the gutter, and umbrellas zigzagging over curveting forms. He pushed his way into the twelve-story Miller Building, treading over the muddy shoe-prints on the marble floor, and took the elevator to the fourth story. Opening a door marked "Atwood's" he immediately found himself running a gantlet of young American braves. For the entrance-hall, lighted, was lined on either side by bright young men who took his measure visibly and audibly ; as, pulling a neighbor's sleeve, "Soft !" or, heads together, "Looks easy," or, addressed to space, "Green." Kirby was depressed. By the time a brisk boy stopped him at the end of the corridor he was ner vously on edge. "Write yer name on this slip." Kirby did so. "Hold still a minute; I'll fix yer." In thirty seconds a private-office door was opened for him, and he stepped into the electric-lit presence of a Mr. Cobb, a smart and fiery interviewer. He seemed full of springs, as if he could leap up and down with smiling strenuosity. 75 THE OLYMPIAN "Bad morning, Mr. ah ah" he consulted the in formation slip "Trask. You show the proper enter prise in venturing out in such weather. ' ' He pounded the desk emphatically with his fist. "It spells Success. Big Business is looking for Push and Pluck. For Brain and Brawn. The Get-There-and-Get-Back Booster. If you are the right sort we can help you; if not, you are wast ing your time here." Now Kirby knew that Mr. Cobb was pulling the usual string of pearls from his conjuror's mouth, and yet he began to flush with excitement. Suddenly Mr. Cobb eyed him and sprang, as it were, upon him. "What's your specialty?" "I've been a reporter." Mr. Cobb seized a pencil and made entries. "Where?" "Trent, Iowa." "Oh, new here?" "Yes." "College graduate?" "Trent Academy." "References?" Kirby spoke nervously. "I have a letter from the head of the academy, and. from the editor of the paper, and from the head of our First National Bank." "Good. Very good. You must put these in our possession. Now what are you looking for? Remember that Big Business can get cheap help all it wants; but Big Business depends for its continuance and expansion on Brains, and Brains are at a premium, Mr. ah ah Trask. It is our business to find the Brains, to put the right Man in the right Place. What is your place?" "Something with a future; I'd be willing to start on twelve a week." "You don't know shorthand, do you?" "No." 76 THE BRAIN-BROKERS "A pity, Mr. Trask. I have a rare opening; a private secretaryship to J. J. Harrington. You know J. J., don't you?" Of ' course everybody knew J. J., for Harrington's Magazine was the first in a new field the popular ten- cent monthly. This was Mr. Cobb's star play, to dazzle the new-comer, for J. J.'s secretaries lasted about a month, the demand was perpetual, and Mr. Cobb never lacked a rare opening for his young men. Kirby was impressed. He nodded. "A great American," continued Mr. Cobb, "one of the chiefs of our commerce. Not only the proprietor of the most popular magazine in the United States, but head of the New Storage Battery Street Car Company and the Harmon Airship Company. He is growing like a tropical plant, and the young man who associates himself with J. J. Harrington to-day will be a Captain of Industry to-morrow if he has Brains and Applies Himself! Too bad you aren't a stenographer. Oh, well ! Perhaps some thing else. We have openings in every direction." And just as Kirby got vistas of gigantic industrialism with step-ladders to the top lofts the contract was pushed under his nose.. "Sign here," said Mr. Cobb. It seemed a privilege to sign away ten per cent, of the first year's salary and to pay the five-dollar fee. Where upon Kirby was ushered into the hall and told to wait, that he might not miss the Opportunity when it came along. So he took his place among the young men, and doggedly he held it till lunch-time, and then after lunch until the office-boy briskly put him out. "Say, you, there's nothing doing. Gee! some folks is regular plants." Two more such days followed, and he began to glow with anger. Thrice he asked for Mr. Cobb and was told bruskly that Mr. Cobb was busy ; and, finally, waylaying him in the hall at lunch-time, Kirby was met with an indignant stare and a sharp: 77 THE OLYMPIAN "You surprise me. Patience, young man, patience." He began to have a feeling that he had been duped, that the brain-brokers had been chiefly concerned in getting the five-dollar fee and had no intention of finding a place for him. For not only was there a palpable scarcity of jobs, but all the opportunities went to quite a different type of young men. Once again Kirby felt almost a class-difference in clothes and manners. For these others were the Ready-Made Young Men, the youth of the land who heeded the uplifted forefinger of the Captain of Industry in the advertisement, "You Can Succeed"; they had about them an air of success, the alert eye and the strenuous manner, the polished shoes and fresh shirt, the shaved face and the close-cut hair. Their brisk exteriors seemed to be saying: "See, we are subservient, ready, bright, cheerful; we believe in 'Smile,' 'Do it now,' 'I'm a-hustling,' 'Nothing succeeds like the appearance of success.' " Who could resist these products of the commercial school and the correspondence course these cheerful Americans? Yet Kirby found, through chance words with this man and that, that many of these fellows kept bobbing up every few months with the same eternal smile, after being fired from place after place bright failures that briskly made a circuit of the low places, shedding an empty radiance on an office and failing with a cheer that made their exits like promotions. Thin Kirby and a stout young man named Latham sat there like dark spots on the sun while these brilliant evanescent flames played about them. Luckily a great snow-storm swept the city on the third afternoon; and these young men, thinking that nothing could develop, stayed at home. Kirby was quite alone in the hall, desolated by the blind rush of snowflakes on the windows. All at once Mr. Cobb appeared, glancing eagerly. His gaze rested on Kirby with exasperated disappointment, 78 THE BRAIN-BROKERS and he went back to his office. A moment later he re appeared, desperately scratching his head. "Say," he began, "there's a hurry call here. You're not just the man but, say, it's a clerk job down the Continental Express Company, Broadway, below Wall. Say, how about making a bluff at it?" Kirby rose stiffly, his hands nervously eager to throttle the brain-broker. "What does it pay?" he asked, suspiciously. "Oh, ask twelve to start. Here's the slip. 'Phone if you get it. If you don't, say account the storm we're short, but to-morrow we'll send 'em a crackerjack." Kirby thought to himself, "I'll get that job to spite you," and went out into the whirling whiteness of Broad way. But few people were on the street, bumping each other in their hurry. The great snow-sweeper went rasp ing along the car-tracks, blowing clouds of snow like a buffalo snorting in the dust; truckmen sat aloft their trucks in oil-suits; the shop windows were white with mist and stringy with clots. The winds lifted at the corners, piling the snow in drifts, and Kirby had hard footing down the long stretch to Wall Street. There where the skyscrapers looked down on the dwarfed steeple of Trinity Church, as if our modern industrial civilization here showed that it had outgrown the creed of two thousand years, snow was blowing about the graves; and Kirby, glancing through the iron fencing, felt that his own great hopes were buried with the dead. A little further on, between two tall modern towers, stood the express company's five-story building, old, brownstone, faded, but brilliantly gas-lit. Kirby tramped over the sawdust of the first floor and climbed the tall stairway to the third floor. He pushed open a dim glass door and entered a middle office, with dark air-shaft and gas-jets burning. Steam- heat bubbled joyously from a radiator, and the room 79 THE OLYMPIAN smelt strongly of mop and the brown slop-water of the scrubwomen. An old clerk was seated next the door. "I want to see Mr. Bradsley," said Kirby. The old clerk ran his pen through his white hair and spoke in a piping voice. "Through that door there." Kirby opened a door into a large rear room. Fifty men were standing or sitting at desks, each beneath a shaded electric-bulb, scratching at ledgers and sheets of paper; and in the corner, beside the snow-dimmed pane, sat the chief clerk, dominating all. Kirby approached him. Bradsley was a big, bluff, half-drunken man, with large mustaches dirty at the ends; egg and ink spots were on his cheap coat; and he had a soft and rotund belly like an exaggerated gnome astride a beer-barrel. Bradsley was jovial; he took the slip, bade Kirby be seated. "Ever clerked before?" His voice seemed foggy with liquor, and Kirby got an alcoholic whiff. Then Kirby lied cheerfully, being now somewhat seasoned in trade. "Oh yes, I clerked on a newspaper in Iowa." Bradsley's eyes lit up. "Iowa, hey? You hail from there?" "Yes." "What town?" "Trent." "God damn it, do you know Clayton Jones there?" Kirby felt a thrill of apprehension; his lie might find him out. "Yes," he murmured. "Man, he's my wife's second cousin! And I why, I come from Ames. Welcome, fellow Westerner!" Kirby was engaged on the spot, and finished out the day at a standing-desk, with a high stool, in the office he had first entered. His duty "was to transcribe figures in red ink from one ledger to another, and his salary was twelve 80 THE BRAIN-BROKERS to begin. He felt thankful and at the same time tri umphant. He telephoned Mr. Cobb: "I secured the position easily." "Amazing," said the resilient brain-broker. "It's a Start in Life. You can pay us the sixty dollars commission cash, or we'll take a six-per-cent. note for sixty days." The last word was decidedly with the brain-broker. A gong sounded at five, and at once like the heart that fails a thousand pens dropped from hands in the five floors of the building, a hum of gaiety hit the walls of the hall and rebounded up and down the corridors and the stairs, and Kirby was part of a downward-dropping cas cade of human jocularity. He .felt gay, triumphant, secure. Little voices sang in his ear: "Now you're in at last. Now you have a warm berth. Now you can live. No more hunting; no more underworld. You belong. New York absorbs you." He went out, a five-foot-nine slip of the resistless crowd. The heavens were clearing, letting through a waning moon that peered crookedly over the black top of a skyscraper, a ragged silver passing by; and the people went harden ing the snow beneath them and loosing a mist of breath up through the lamp-light. Kirby wedged into the jammed car, warm with human beings, and it was wonder ful to know himself alive. Standing there, his gray eyes sparkling among the warm faces, he passed with the car through a momentous half- hour of life. Now the wonder of the work-freed city going home was his; he had crept inside; he had been accepted at last and had his place; supper waited for him and the freedom of the night, and no toil till the morrow. A weight of worry was lifted from his mind. It was as if for weeks he had been battering despairingly at the gates of the city, and that now the gates had opened and he had entered. Descending at Twenty-sixth Street, he hurried west, almost sprinting. The march of men and women under 81 THE OLYMPIAN the lights suggested comrades; were they not all hastening to the arms of the women or the faces of the children? He saw the glow in kitchen and parlor window, and he loved the busy evening life happy stir at stoves, bright circles of the tables. It now belonged to him. Excitedly he climbed the stairs. The door of the third- floor front was open, and in the rocker, lamp-flooded, sat Mrs. Waverley. She looked up eagerly. She saw his bright face. Her own lit up. "Yes," he cried, with a deep burst of feeling, "I've got it!" "A job?" "Twelve a week Continental Express Company clerking." It was glorious to have some one waiting to hear this. "Oh, good!" she cried, and rose from the rocker. "Kirby," she said, "we've got to celebrate!" So they went out and had an amazing table d'hote dinner in a West Twenty-fifth Street Italian restaurant, sixty cents apiece, with red or white wine, and a glittering rush of food oysters and soup, perfect rectangles carved by some uncanny process from curved fishes, slices of beef, halves of spring chicken, withered salad sprinkled with suspicious-looking dressing, ice-cream and demi-tasse of coffee. They ate straight through with deliberate joy, and the wine warmed them on. All about them sat a queer people: the emptyings of studios whose waking seemed to come with the night young men and women morbidly absorbed in each other; all those whom need only has shunted away from steep-priced Fifth Avenue. And back in Mrs. Waverley's room they sat late, dilating on the future. And when Kirby got up to go Mrs. Waverley took his hand in both of hers and said: "You've started in now, and, oh, I expect much of you." (How like what Janice had said; how different in its im plications with the morrow's work hanging over his head !) "The job's not your size, Kirby we'll neither of us forget 82 THE BRAIN-BROKERS that. But it's a start; you've gotten in. Now stay in, and feel your way to something better. You're going to do it, aren't you?" His eyes glistened; his voice deepened. "I am," he said, and hurried to his room. Before lighting the gas he glanced out at the levels of snow, the lined window-sills, and, over all, the drop of the jagged moon, silver among the bristling stars. Then, breathing deep of happiness, he turned back, flooded the room with light, and did a dramatic and significant thing he set his alarm-clock for seven. Without knowing it, by that small action he brought to an end his initiation into that civilization that centers in New York; by that he irrevo cably merged himself with the life of the city. He had become one of the drudges. 7 IX THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER KLRBY became part of a new routine now it was: up at seven; breakfast at seven-thirty; the ride in the packed cars at eight; the march into the express building with a thousand other men at eight-thirty; and then the long day. At first he rebelled; the hours were intolerable, the childish work unendurable; he would slip from high stool to floor and on again, with the back of his head aware of the clock on the wall. He would pause to dream or to sharpen pencils. He would pour out his troubles to Mrs. Waverley in the evening. But gradually he accepted his lot, and found his work so mechanical that he could trust it to his hands and leave his mind free for day-dreaming. It was as if the smooth belting of business had taken him on like a grain of dust and had traveled along over the wheels with easy and endless stride, bearing him round and round with the dropping days on and on to the end of his life. The job was petty, and hence his gradual acceptance of it was perilous. For accepted pettiness always made Kirby indifferent and listless, quenched his ambition, stopped his growth. He was really in danger of being a clerk all his life. Nothing stirred him; not Mrs. Waverley, not the memory of what Trent expected of him, not his glowing expectations of greatness through Jordan Watts. In a way he accepted Bradsley's favorite phrase: "Time heals all wounds." Time had certainly healed his wounded 84 THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER pride. He had become a mere unit among the millions of drudges, and he came and went dully. It was as if his spirit slept within him. Mrs. Waverley would say "Kirby, are you looking around you? Do you hear of nothing?" "Oh," he would reply, nonchalantly, "something will come my way." He had no faith in this, however, but he didn't care. All came to death in the end; why should he strive? There seemed no reason for ambition. During the year he was raised to fifteen dollars a week, and now he felt inde pendent, able to keep decently clothed, housed, fed, and amused; why should he break up this easy security? He knew only too well the bitterness of being an outsider. He would never be one again. In fact, he now was in a mental state equivalent to that of his last two years in Trent careless and indolent activity with no thought of the future. His appearance changed again; more neat ness in clothes and manners, less life in the eyes, and no large emotions. A certain exterior hardening now showed, as if he were acquiring a protective shell. He was ex actly like thousands of other young men in New York. The months passed. Spring came with Sunday excur sions with Marston, and sometimes with Mrs. Waverley; summer followed, with Mrs. Waverley gone back to Kentucky for a vacation; dull days, hot nights, during which Kirby learned to dissipate with one of his fellow- clerks; autumn and Mrs. Waverley returned together. There was only the two-weeks break of his vacation, and this he spent in Asbury Park, loafing on the sands and bathing in the sea. And all this time Kirby was learning to know New York, her seasonal moods winter, when she was keen and cold, gemming her white forehead with stars ; spring, when she pinned wild roses on her bosom and breathed with restless sweetness down her cool alleys; sum mer, when her eyes glistened with ardent midnight passion and her hair glimmered with the lightnings and the northern 85 THE OLYMPIAN lights; autumn, when she seemed to swing to and fro in the gale, tossing up and catching reddened leaves, her cheeks flushed, and singing her children back to work. And all the time the great sea stirring in her heart. Kirby began to know it all and accept it as he accepted his work. It was one of the commonplaces of his life. He did not see the crowds with thousands of eyes passing him; no spectacles of gigantic enterprise suggested a city hung in the skies. He had worn down a few pathways through the city, and kept to these, shuttling from home to work and back again and threading his favorite section of Broadway. However, several events flashed out like scarlet in the gray procession of the days. Late one winter afternoon Bradsley sent him on an errand to the basement. This was the shipping-department, with platforms stacked with boxes and crates, opening out on the lower rear street to the west of Broadway; the huge express wagons backed into this, the steaming horses stood blanketed, and there the bitter, husky drivers sweated and lifted and shoved and cursed in the winter gloom under the warm offices. Passing through he saw that these great out-door fellows glanced at him contemptuously, as if they scorned clerks, and he felt subtly that scratching mechanically with a pen might not be man-size work. It was a glimpse into a different world the world of hard labor, of severe poverty ; the world of mine and mill and the city street, where the dangerous and dirty work of civilization is done. Under his light and sheltered work were these bitter, dark foundations. It gave him a few days of uneasiness. Of a different sort was another event. It was the be ginning of the Mary myth. For, glancing through the picture supplement of a Sunday paper, he found a page of "Rich Women in Settlement Work"; among them was a poorly reproduced photograph of Mary. This he cut out and kept in his pocketbook and often surreptitiously while he clerked, and nearly every night before retiring, 86 THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER he took this out and wove a myth about it. He used the faded picture as a model from which his mind painted woman. Mary's beauty thus increased from day to day, till she was a creature of witchery and grace, the dream of ardent loveliness that haunted him. He thought of her coming into the office by some divine accident and glancing at him with tender pity and wistfulness; or, walking in Central Park when the long line of carriages sweeps up and down loaded with the filled gowns of the city, he ex pected to see her eyes lift and gaze yearningly into his own. Or perchance late at night he would pass up Fifth Avenue and see fire darting from a window of the Watts mansion ; whereupon he would scale the wall, smash a pane of glass, dash through the dead house crying ' ' Mary ! Mary !" find her lying unconscious on the floor, and bear her through smoke and flame to the cheer-ringing street. He had, of course, no faith that he would ever get to know her; she was worlds away; but was it not exquisitely pathetic to live in a state of thwarted love? Of course, he really thought this was love, whereas it was the idle dream of an idle young man. And the worst of it was that he actually did come across her. Passing the department stores on West Twenty- third Street one free Saturday afternoon he was opposite Stern's when a carriage stopped and Mary glided over the sidewalk and vanished among the shoppers. He saw her distinctly, and the shock was ghastly. After the Mary of his imagination she was rudely plain-faced and almost vulgarly flesh and blood. From then on the Mary myth waned. And so he worked, a clerk among clerks, keeping to himself, making few friends. The other clerks paid little attention to him: they thought him a little unpleasant; they felt a temperamental difference that jarred on their worldliness. There were, however, in the same office two clerks of a different sort, father and son, the Fergusons Old and 87 THE OLYMPIAN Young Ferg, as they were called. Old Ferg, white-haired and nearly sixty, sat next the door; his son Edward sat beside him. Edward was a silent, lanky fellow, stoop- shouldered with years of desk- work. His face was mus cular in its leanness, his eyes a sad brown, his hair stiffly hung over his high, narrow forehead. And this sad clerk was a mystery that arrested Kirby's attention now and then, but he made no effort to meet him. Edward's secret was that he only lived when he went away on his two-weeks' vacation. There was something untamed and savage in his nature, something akin to the instinct of honking geese in autumn skies; the keen, out door freshness that animals seem to lap up; the flavor of berries or sea-winds or sun on pine-needles. He desired to be a cell in the wild nerve of nature, sharing every sting and thrill of the life of earth. To put such a man in the city was to make him acutely self-conscious, re pressed, shy. It was hard for him to speak a whole sen tence straight to another human being. He was really a wild-hearted creature caught in the web of industrialism. Naturally he felt drawn to silent, emotional Kirby; there were points where the characters of both met. But Edward was ordinarily so shy, so deep in his rut, that he could not make the effort to break into a new relationship. However, deep in the autumn, coming back from two weeks of hunting in the Canadian wilderness, he was brown, and his eyes had some of the light of a wild animal ; he walked with free stride; he carried a spaciousness of atmosphere; he smelt gloriously of sunburn and the woods. Kirby was just hanging hat and coat in the wardrobe when Edward came in. "Back again," he said, gaily. "Back in the mill." His free spirit was infectious. "Where have you been?" asked Kirby. "Canada hunting moose." And his lips seemed loosened. He told crisply of his experience. 88 THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER Kirby was powerfully drawn, released some of his locked-up magnetism, and as a result they went to lunch together. "Well, at least," said Edward, "I don't live in a board ing-house. It's no place for a human being. The food is like our jobs rut stuff." Kirby laughed. "Where do you live?" "In a place you never heard of Nestwood, just out side the city. I tell you what," he said, gaily, "suppose you come up and have a real home meal for a change come to-night. Frances will be delighted to see a new face." So that evening, a perfect evening of autumn, they went out into the soft light, with the people all about them swimming, as it were, at the bottom of a sky-well of floating peace, bright and busy life throbbing on the earth in harvest-time, and took the Third Avenue Elevated up through the city and over the gray level of the Harlem River, and on through the new and half-built Bronx. Then at 17 7th Street a crosstown car to Jerome Avenue, and the trolley there north to its lonely terminus at the city limits 2426. Street passing through open country and the silent color-splashed woods of upper Van Cort- landt Park. The cool breath of the woods, the odors of damp earth and withering leaves, the sight of shadowy wood-aisles that were balm to stone-encompassed city eyes, the im mense quiet after the noise of down- town, brought sweet and deep emotions to Kirby. He breathed larger, the pressure of life relaxed, and he felt an innocent happiness. Then, stepping off the car onto the dirt road, he saw the hill-perched suburb rising beyond the woods, little frame houses half lost in trees, and the rectangular blocks with their little paved gutters and glistening street-lamps. They cut across an empty lot, brushing through dusty richness of aster and goldenrod and bramble, and Edward 89 ^THE OLYMPIAN pointed to the neat green two-family house, with its upper and lower porch, standing over the gutter at the end of the path. A giant oak-tree shadowed it from the back; through the high heavens floated crimson and golden cloud, and the sun spilled a ruddy splendor from the west on house and tree and glistening blade of grass. Kirby was amazed by the profundity and richness of his emotions, and wondered why in this hush of beauty the blue curling smoke of a chimney brought tears to his eyes. It was Earth, whose passion and dream and warm soil had created and sustained him, Earth taking him back, sap of her sap. And it was harvest, the rich profusion of the life that flowers out over the wild breast of Nature. Kirby's deepest instincts vibrated to this; he felt elemental, as if his roots reached down deep in the passionate ground beneath him. He seemed to have come to a paradise. Edward unlocked the front door, and then pushed the bell-button of the second floor, and at once at the dark top of the stairs a shadowy form appeared. "Edward you?" Kirby was struck by the passionate quality of the voice. "Yes." Edward began to ascend, and spoke awk wardly. "I've brought some one home to supper, Fran." "To supper?" Amazement, almost anger, was in the tone. "But I didn't expect any one." "Oh, Mr. Trask will take pot-luck." Edward tried to put it lightly. "He'll have to," she said, with some asperity. "No, don't kiss me." She stepped back swiftly into the warm-lit shadowy dining-room; Edward followed; and Kirby, abashed, as tounded, blushing with angry embarrassment, emerged behind him. Edward spoke with annoyed impatience. "This is Mr. Trask, Frances." "Oh, good evening," she said, coldly. Kirby nodded. And Edward had said that Frances 90 THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER would be glad to see a new face! How would she act if she were sorry? Lord, what a firebrand! She turned to Edward again. "Did you bring my crochet-needle?" "No," he said, guiltily; "I forgot." "Naturally" her voice was cuttingly sarcastic and here I am shut up at the end of the world!" Her candor before a stranger was almost uncanny. She stepped back in the light then, and Kirby saw that she was not tall, but she was lissome, able-bodied, with dark, thin face very expressive at the eyes and lips. He began to feel a poignant fascination: and she was a powerful hater, which meant that she was also a powerful lover. At any rate, she could never be indifferent, never be un interesting. She broke the painful hush with a snap. "Well, I may as well get supper!" And out she went in a savage, impulsive way into the lighted rear kitchen. The two men stepped out on, the upper porch and saw Earth fading in warm twilight, with the lighted cars passing on Jerome Avenue and a dog swiftly stirring through the lost goldenrod of the empty lot. They were speechless with guilty discomposure. Then Edward said, awkwardly: "I'm sorry she'll soon come round." "Oh, I shouldn't have come," Kirby replied. "Supper!" they heard her call, and came back and took their places. But already a change had come over her; Kirby noticed that she wore a sprig of goldenrod in her hair and a little sparkling necklace round her throat. These had not been there before, and might have been a token of truce, for she was full of excited animation. Gracefully she waited on the men, passing to and from the kitchen; and when she sat under the low radiance she seemed to delight in cross-questioning Kirby, in drawing out his history, in getting his opinions on New York and the express job. Kirby felt as if she were casting a spell THE OLYMPIAN on him; he, too, grew unusually communicative, and talked with buoyant gaiety. He got a clue to the fact that this passionate woman was childless, that she saw little of her husband, and that only when he was tired with work; that she had some of Edward's native savagery; and that, shut away in this lonesome suburb, she smoldered, an intense rebel, ready to explode. "Yes," she said, "it's a dog's life up here. I don't care what people say; I know it's a shameful thing, but, oh, I want money, money; I want luxury and servants and everything. I could loll Edward sometimes," she laughed, "for being a clerk!" Edward looked sad and thoughtful, whereupon she came round and smacked his face maliciously. They went into the parlor and settled down on the old horsehair furniture. "Aren't they hideous?" she cried. "They're a wedding present from Edward's parents. I hate them. Some day I'll but, you'll see!" "Oh, come now, Fran!" murmured Edward. "Oh, you think it isn't in me but it is. I'm a dan gerous woman, Mr. Trask. He doesn't know me any more than he knows Latin." Edward released a disc on the phonograph, and the sweet, tragic notes of "Aida" shook the frame house. Kirby watched Frances. She sat leaning forward, her face on her two fists, and in her eyes and quivering lips some dream, perhaps, as of Vikings stealing women. Yes, there was something of the Norse in her. "Now, I don't want any more music," she said. "I want to talk." She talked with Kirby, and he told wryly of the dis comforts of boarding-house life. "Why, that's worse than here," she said. "I once did it myself, and I know. Why don't you come and live with us? We have an extra room, and the money would 92 THE YOUNG NEW-YORKER help, and you and Ed could go to work together and come back together. I mean it. I'm not joking. Come and see the room." Edward heartily seconded this, for he felt that Kirby would freshen Frances and keep her out of her morbid moods. It would disperse her loneliness. He showed Kirby the large neat room off the dining-room which contrasted vividly with the Twenty-sixth Street place; and when Kirby stood at the door, ready to go, Frances gripped his hand hard, with a final: "It's the thing to do for all of us!" Edward took him to the car, and treading blindly through the lot, lost in the charm of this place, with its immense spread of starry skies, its balmy silence, its sweet odors, and the little music of wind in the grasses and the far woods , Kirby felt that it would be heavenly to live here. B e- sides he felt stirred by Frances as by great, clashing music. The ride was long back into the human-pulsing city, which to-night seemed over-bright and crassly spangled, like a woman of the streets, bold and impudent. It was nearly midnight when Kirby climbed up through the boarding-house. Mrs. Waverley was still sitting up, so he stepped in a moment. "You look happy to-night!" she said. " I am, Aunt Annie," he laughed. And then he told her of the visit and the offer of bed and board. And Mrs. Waverley thought: "I shall miss him badly, but it may be best for him. They'll keep him home nights." For she was worried by his night habits, as she was worried by his listless indifference to his future. "I'd go, Kirby," she said. "Try it, anyway." "I will, Aunt Annie!" Her eyes gleamed at him fondly. "Oh, Kirby," she sighed, "when will I ever get to un derstand you?" HQ lay awake late in the night thinking of Edward's strange wife. 93 X FRANCES FOR a while, after moving up to Nestwood, Kirby seemed each night to go back to some far-off pas toral ancestry. The autumnal torches of the wood were waved by the wind against the conflagration of the sunset, and in the circle of singing fire the house stood hushed among the goldenrods and asters, its windows shining, and a dark woman leaning over the upper porch and watching, watching. Homing birds darkened the upper skies ; belated songsters twittered in the ghost atmosphere ; some dog barked; chimneys smoked; and the human being seemed to open and feel the warm flow of Earth's multitudinous life. After the pent-in clash of down-town, the commuting toilers came into the easy, undulant rhythms of peace. Then, in the dark dining-room, they sat out the last of the light, two tired men waited on by the woman who emerged and vanished, a shadow in the shadows. The simplicity and hush of such life seemed ancient as the Earth. When their food disappeared in dusk, light blazed for them, with amazing reality of shining faces; and then there was the evening in the sitting-room. Frances sewed, Edward opened a book on American pioneers, and Kirby sat watching the woman and now and then speaking low with her. However, the excited animation of that first night did not return to her; she seemed perpetually bleak and desperate. Her burst of interest in Kirby had evidently 94 FRANCES passed, and he became as another lay figure in the furni ture of her life. She often spoke with bitterness. One morning, just as Kirby and Edward stood at the door ready to go, she suddenly turned from the window, crossed the room in a strange, impulsive way, almost dancing savagely, flung her arms about her husband's neck, kissed him, and then drew back her head and exclaimed, fiercely: "My God! Why doesn't it thrill me any more when you put your arms around me?" Edward was startled; he smiled grimly. Then gently he released himself. "I've got to hurry, Fran!" "I wish," she said, tearfully, "your old building would burn up!" But Edward, too, had swiftly changed. The liquid freshness of his Canadian outing had faded; day by day he sank deeper into the rut of the years, and became at last again the shy, ego-centric clerk, tragically sad. He found it hard to be pleasant with Kirby, the choke of tragedy in his throat incessantly making him abrupt. Nor was there much to say; both shared the same life a life that offered no surprises, no changes, and, hence, no need of discussion and planning. And Kirby found that Edward had been a clerk for eleven years. It seemed that when Edward was fourteen his father had bought him his first pair of long trousers, and the awkward lad by merely plunging his thin legs into cylin ders of cloth had veritably stepped into manhood. He became a wage-earner, clerking with a steamship company till he was seventeen, and then going into the express-com pany office with his father. And so for eleven years a wild-hearted creature had struggled feebly with one foot in a trap. His marriage had but enmeshed him the more. At twenty-one, with a salary of twenty dollars a week, the highest he could hope for in years, he had felt powerfully 95 THE OLYMPIAN that he should not marry. Marriage meant narrowing life into a cheap flat, and no children; for an industrial civilization that keyed up the standards of life in sanitation and comfort and pleasure, and at the same time grudgingly paid its servitors the least possible wage, seemed to make childlessness for many imperative. He had not wanted to marry; but one day, in a cheap restaurant, he had met Frances, a girl alone in the city, and the acquaintanceship had flamed into passion, and, despite his rebellious struggling, the elemental drive of love had forced him on, just as the pressure of the city had pushed him into his clerkship. Naturally the romance faded in the suburban two-family house, and the barren wife of the ill-paid clerk had become a thwarted, desperate woman. She was bitter, full of an intense apathy, hateful of herself and the stupid neighbors and the lonesome suburb, sometimes hateful of her husband, a leashed menace. So, as the rich autumn despoiled itself, flung its riches to the dust, and grew nakedly aged and wintry, and all the country-side was bare, Kirby lost the pleasure of home coming ; now a chill settled on his spirit, and he felt as if he were going out to something dead and forlorn. He grew restless in the long evenings, and wanted again the sparkling laughter of excited Broadway, the pagan abandon of the New York night life. He felt, as he put it, as if he would jump out of his skin. Yet, nevertheless, he could not bring himself to the breaking-point. The spell of Frances persisted the spell of a witch that drew him morbidly to her. He could easily imagine the eruption of lava and smoke and flame that would ensue from some passionate precipitation. And such an event would whirl him into a madness of passion and love that he had never before experienced; this woman had it in her to be a terrible lover, ready to ruin herself and the world for an enchanted hour. Sometimes, and especially when she was listening to 96 FRANCES music, he saw the promise in her eyes. Sometimes she seemed to gaze at him as if she were planning an escape through him. His heart beat hard, and he was flushed with swiftened blood. Yet the routine went on, as if endlessly. And this routine was hardest to bear on Sundays. On that day the bell of the alarm-clock was mute; all slept late, and arose yawning with an extra fatigue; breakfast was slip shod; and then Kirby and Frances and Edward settled down on the horsehair furniture and passed several pounds of Sunday newspaper to each other. There was the comic supplement, with its dreary primary-colored repetitions of horse-play; the magazine section, with its quarter-page headings of "Scientist Claims He Has Triumphed Over Death," "This Heiress Left Millions for a Coachman's Love," "Does Your Heart Ever Feel as if Needles Were Darting Through? Read This," "Vivisector Baring a Monkey's Brain" a riot of brash sensationalism that gave dull throbs of excitement to dusty hearts. And so they read themselves stupid, and arose yawning, in their Sunday best, and took the car to the city. This car was crowded with consciously ap pareled folk stupid with the same Sunday process, and they had the fussily dressed and tearful children with them to give an air of restlessness. The city seemed queerly dead traffic stopped, the streets hushed in Sabbath; and one might feel the un nerving of millions of people who had nothing to do. The lower city was uncanny, undressed; the tall buildings empty; the streets bared. Thus they crossed the Bridge and penetrated to the mean back street of Brooklyn where Edward's father lived. It was a tiny frame house ; and there was the stout mother and the flabby unmarried sister. Dull greetings passed, and they sat down to the inevit able dinner a heavy soup, a two-rib roast, a vegetable like cauliflower or spinach, and pudding or ice-cream. Used 97 THE OLYMPIAN to light lunches, all felt the enervation of a full dinner, and at once scattered over the house, stretched on bed and lounge, and slept heavily for an hour. Then came the long ride back through the forlorn, dark ening city. Only supper brought relief; by very reaction the splash of gay light, the spread of cold meats and cheese and pickles, brought a wild joyousness. The only fresh note in these Sunday excursions as the winter deepened was an outburst of complaints from Old Ferg. He was nearly sixty, and had clerked for forty-four years a whole lifetime. Now, after decades of soundness, he began to ail, to complain of pains in his heart. The stout mother urged him to see a doctor, and Old Ferg's opinion was that "once you start with doctors you're done for." Every other Thursday Edward got notice of the meeting of his lodge, but he never went. However, one Thursday evening toward the end of November, he decided to go. As a result, for the first time Kirby and Frances were left alone with each other. It was a startling night ; a great wind blew crazily around the house, making it tremble and creak; the night was loud with clash of boughs and the shrill cries of the gale; and so the front sitting-room seemed to bubble with warmth, a glowing and hushed heart in the storm. So when they heard the front door slam they stepped back from the hall, acutely aware that they were shut in together. For several hours now they would be alone, and the wild night whirled around them like a scarf winding them close. "Did you close the door?" asked Frances. >_ The strange ness of her voice thrilled him. "Yes. It's shut tight." "Br-r-r!" she said, "I'm chilly!" She stepped into the sitting-room and passed over to the radiator. Warmth rose from it in visible waves. She stood, her hands held over it, her lissome body erect. 98 FRANCES From the center-table the Welsbach lamp threw an intense underlight on empty rocker and Morris chair. The Morris chair was directly against the table, where Edward could get illumination for reading; the rocker faced it. Kirby paused near the table, looking at her, and sud denly she turned, and he seemed to see that light of the first night flashing in her eyes, as if again she was dreaming of Vikings stealing women yes, as if she longed for such brutal manhood, such savage mating. And he remembered a bit out of Norse mythology, the galloping through the air of the Valkyrs on their black horses bearing the slain warriors to Valhalla. It was as if in the whistling wind outside they passed on the wild last ride, the breastplated women, speared, with stream ing hair under their helmets, bearing the dead to the North. "What a night!" he murmured. "I like it I love it!" she said, savagely. "It's big it's splendid. That's the way I'd like to live not this way!" Then Kirby felt as if a beautiful peril were overwhelm ing him, for she advanced slowly toward the table, put a hand on it, leaned a little, and mused. Neither spoke for a space, but stood with heads in shadow and their hands staring with light. The walls seemed to shake with sudden buffets of wind, the windows rattled, and Kirby felt his head getting hot. Then all at once she looked up at him. "How old are you, Kirby?" He spoke under his breath, almost stammering. "Twenty-five." "Have you ever loved a woman?" His heart shook like the walls. He could hardly set his lips for speech. "No not exactly." "I wonder if you really could but, no," she said, pas- 8 99 THE OLYMPIAN sionately, "men don't know how to love they don't know how!" Her voice changed. "Go and see if the door is shut." He tried to smile. "It is." "Go and see, anyhow." He went out; when he returned she stood with her sew ing in her hands. "Are you going to sew?" he asked. She glanced down at rocker and Morris chair. "No. I'm not going to sit there to-night. For I've sat there with him until " She broke off, musing. He had come very close, and now she lifted eyes that were full of a wild dreaming. "Twenty-five," she said, hauntingly. "And never loved a woman." The sewing dropped from her hands, and she stood as if waiting for some terrible great deed, as if she watched Kirby to see if he belonged to the Vi kings. Blasts of wind seemed to rock the house, and their lonely contact was an exquisite agony. He reached slowly, inevitably, took her hands, drew her round. Then, remembering Janice on the campus, he reached and kissed her forehead. Whereupon, amazingly, she seized his head in her hands, lifted it, and kissed him on the lips. 1 ' Frances !' ' he cried. But she had slipped away and stood looking at him with tremulous bitterness. "I wanted," she said, with her brutal candor, "to see if it thrilled me." He was aghast and frozen at this revelation of cold bloodedness. "And it " he began. "No," she said, with wonderful tenderness. "I'm a fool, Kirby, a fool of a woman. I've treated you badly. I'm going to bed, but, oh" she sighed "I just had to see!" too FRANCES She left him standing there speechless, shocked out of his illusions, almost remorseful; for at last the sane thought came to him that perhaps it was not the noblest thing in the world to lend himself to the breaking-up of a friend's home. He was astounded to think how he had slipped into this entanglement; and he went to bed, sobered, resolved to return to the city. Yet he stayed on, and the house became more desolate than ever. Frances now paid no attention to him; she seemed to be in a fearful trance; and Kirby felt that just as her woman's body was barren, so was the house and their hearts and minds. He began to be a little afraid of her; the air was charged with the oncoming of some terrible event. It was probably this feeling of being caught in a Greek tragedy that kept him from leaving; it was as if he had to see it out. On the evening of the ninth of December, a cold and windy night, Kirby and Edward stepped off the car at the terminal at quarter to seven. There had been a block on the line. They stepped silently over the road to the little eminence of the empty lot, and then stopped. "That's strange," said Edward. In the center of the lot a great bonfire roared, scattering sparks. Almost in terror they stepped forward and saw, on the burning heap, the horsehair sofa of the sitting- room. "Good God!" gasped Edward. "It's Frances!" And then they were struck stock still by the wild sight in the December evening, the leaping flames, and the sudden revealing of a woman new to them a wild creature, crouching, hair loosened in wind, flame-lit eyes dilated, lips parted living as she hadn't lived for years. They felt as if their bodies were in the fire as they came up. "But that is our furniture," said Edward, mechanically. It was too astounding to believe. "I couldn't stand them any longer, Eddy," she cried, 101 THE OLYMPIAN fiercely, and yet with strange exultation: "I've seen them too long." And he could not be angered, for he understood; she was burning up the barren years. And it seemed to Kirby that evening that Edward found his wife newly beautiful and alluring; a fresh passion went into their tamed love a gust of joy. Like the mirth of Christmas morning, which is partly the strangeness of a green tree and the glitter of lights in over-familiar sur roundings, so bringing the miracle of new environment, was the mirth of these three forced to sit in the dining- room because the parlor was utterly empty, looking, as Frances put it, as if the flat's six rooms were teeth and one of them had been pulled out. And she told with excited laughter how she had come to her sudden decision, how she had called up Olsen, the Swede, from the floor be low; 'how she had forced the trembling man to lug the furniture, piece by piece, into the empty lot, where, against his terrified protests, she had set fire to the heap. Kirby sat watching her like a pupil being taught about life. Was she human ? For to the young man the spec tacle of the fire and its reaction on this stale couple crashed through all his experience and his traditions. It was unimaginable; it made life fantastic. But it was as a brand lighting luridly the submerged depths of his mind, so that he was forced to look inward. With that fierce flame beating in, he lay awake long that night; inklings of startling truth came to him. The life of the treadmill, dream-led adventurous human nature harnessed for too long a time, led to just this. For eleven years Edward had clerked. In ten more years Kirby, too, might be such a thwarted soul. Sharply he knew, then, that he was a failure, and he felt that for the first time he began really to see himself and his work. For nearly a year he had been in a strange trance; but now his eyes were open, and he decided on the morrow to look with clear 102 FRANCES vision on the trap that held him. For trap it was; Frances might burn furniture, but what did that avail her? Her husband's salary was still twenty a week, and there was no future and no escape. Kirby's year of in dolence was being shaken out of him. XI CLERKS IF anything, Edward and Frances felt more bitter than usual in the morning, but it was a tender bitterness, shot through by a gentler regard for each other. The worst of it was that they would have to tell the family about the destruction of the wedding gift; and such a recital to people who had no adventure in them would rob the event of its beauty make it a sordid and ugly, even a wicked thing. Then there was the cost of new furni ture; perhaps enough savings to jeopardize Edward's next vacation. And then, worse yet, the fire had lit up the tragedy of their lives, so that they had to look it in the face; this made it all the harder to go on, yet there was nothing to do, no escape. It would be folly to leave a position that paid more than he could hope for elsewhere, and in the cold of the morning they heard wagon-wheels whistling in the ruts, and the sound of it set their teeth on edge they seemed, if anything, in a harder predicament than before. For previously they had tried to fool themselves; now the truth was in each other's eyes, and they had to live with it. And not only the truth of their home life; that whole day Edward saw his environment with a new and stabbing vividness. But the dark winter morning began in the most or dinary way. Olsen had not yet started the hot-water heater, and when, at six-twenty, the alarm-clock went off and Edward snatched it from the chair beside him and stuffed it under his pillow, Frances slipped out savagely 104 CLERKS on a floor that burned like ice and into air that was freezingly bitter. "I'll light the stove," she gasped, inserting her naked feet into slippers and hustling on a pink wrapper. " Now, Ed, don't fall asleep." She dashed from the room which gave directly into the kitchen, and stood with teeth clicking as she lit the stove. Kirby was already in the bath-room, shaved, and nearly dressed when Edward slipped in, gray with fatigue. "Cold," said Kirby. He looked at Edward's face sharply ; he, too, was awake and aware this morning. They heard Frances muttering "Br-r-r! I think it's colder in here than outdoors." Edward took out his shaving apparatus; the clear water was burning cold. Frances appeared in the doorway. "The milk's' frozen look." She held up the bottle, from the neck of which the frozen cream protruded like a jack-in-the-box. "I'll heat some water for you, Ed." He felt too bitter to speak. "Haven't time!" he muttered. "Get the breakfast." A little later, facing the naked and uncannily cold sitting-room, they drank hot coffee and ate hot oatmeal. Not a word was said. Then, in the creaking silence, the radiator began to thump. "I suppose," thought Frances, "the letter-carrier '11 get here around noon, and nothing else will happen to-day. Lord, I'll die again of the excitement." They rose, and while the men muffled their throats and got on coat and hat she strode to the window, shuddering. "This place," she thought, "looks worse than ever; it's as lonesome as a toothache." She breathed on the frosted pane, rubbed a spot clear, and peered through on the shabby hill-perched suburb the mean, poverty-stricken frame houses, the narrow lamp- lit streets, the naked trees. THE OLYMPIAN "Nothing but dogs here," she thought "human or the other kind." The men now stood at the door, and she suddenly turned, glided over, reached, and kissed her husband. "Good-by," she murmured, with despairing sadness. "Good-by." He was, she thought, with a pang, exceedingly good to her. Not one complaint over her wild, unnatural deed. And he looked so shabby and hopeless. He smiled sadly, and then he and Kirby went down the stairs and cut across the empty lot, avoiding little patches of ice, in a wintry gray world still spotted with street lights. But they could not avoid the ashes and charred wood, the heap huddled like freezing beggars keeping each other warm, a foot of a chair, the blackened sofa-frame, the runners of the rocker where Frances had sewed night after night, and bits of upholstery and little scattered and matted lumps of horsehair. To Edward it was his inner life lying before him. They hurried by, speechless. A lighted car was waiting at^the lonely terminal on Jerome Avenue, and the motor- man and conductor were inside, with shut doors, swinging their arms and dancing up and down. The two got in, but likewise were too cold to sit. They stood moodily passing weather words with the conductor down a twenty-minute stretch of bleak Bronx bareness. Laborers got on, numbers brought the illusion of warmth, but at 17 7th Street they had to change cars, waiting six long minutes at the open corner for the trolley to bear them crosstown. Then at Third Avenue they purchased newspapers and climbed to the Elevated station, and in the warm and crowded car they tried to relax and to read the news as they were borne past thousands of people eating breakfast. They got off at Hanover Square, emerging suddenly small in the bottom of that high region of skyscrapers. Broadway was still gray and cruelly wind-swept, and a 106 CLERKS crowd of stenographers and clerks hurried along the pavements and into the doorways. And they noticed with new vividness the brilliant gas-lit building and felt like cogs clicking back into a machine as they joined the throng of men that tramped across the sawdust of the first floor and up the tall stairs. As ever, they pushed open the dim glass door and en tered the middle office, its air-shaft window reflecting the burning gas-jets. As ever, the steam-heat bubbled joy ously from the radiator, and the room smelt strongly of mop and brown slop-water. And they took off coat and hat, carefully placed them in the wooden wardrobe, pulled out their keys, unlocked their desks. And Kirby sat down, glancing about, his mind scratched by every one of these little facts; but Edward stood in a dream. One fierce thought was uppermost in Edward's mind; he had gone through this whole morning process for exactly eleven years, day after dull day, just as precise and unfailing as his alarm-clock; and he hated it, he now knew, with all his heart and soul. He hated it. And he knew, more than ever, that he only lived two weeks out of the year. For fifty weeks he was a machine; for two fierce summer weeks he was that mystery him self. That strange fellow who discarded linen collar, polished shoes, necktie, and all decency and went, in corduroy and woolen, gun in hand, a free man in the Canadian wilderness a silent man, with nostrils breath ing balsam, with heart leaping, tracking the moose in trails beyond the lights, where a newspaper's best use was to wrap up a cold lunch, where a clerk ceased to be an ink-stained cipher and became a careless god for whom the earth and the heavens were spread. The anemic, smart-dressed young fellows could never have divined the wild streak in Young Ferg. They dis liked his silence, being very voluble themselves. In fact, a group of these undersized and flabby young men now entered, quenching cigarettes against the desks, striking 107 THE OLYMPIAN folded-arm and leg-crossed attitudes toward each other, and with nimble gaiety passing wit on the Big Three of Clerkdom gambling, whisky, and women. "Gee! but she was a pippin how about it?" "Did y' hear? Brant's got in bad on B. &. F. margin. The loan-shark for him!" "Here comes Bradsley; drunk again!" And this was a fact, for Bradsley came in jovially, foggy and groggy with liquor. " 'Lo, Ferg," he said, groping past the dreaming clerk. " How's yer dad?" "Not down yet!" muttered Edward. But just then Edward's father came in, in his light, tripping way, hopping almost like a bird, with head cocked to one side, a dry, dry little man, threadbare, with little grizzled beard and fluffy white hair, and pulpy, colorless face. His bright, small eyes were bloodshot; he had a nervous habit of rubbing his hands together, hands in- eradicably stained with record-ink. Openly Edward tolerated his father; secretly this morn ing he despised him. "He has the soul of a slave, he's a cog. Eleven years," he thought, darkly, "I've been like him but he's been at it forty-four." And suddenly he saw himself clerking on and on for thirty-three more years and gradually turning into this dry little thing, his skull stuffed with tariff schedules, his fingers black with ink, running his pen through his hair, whenever he was puzzled, till his scalp itched. Why, hav ing squeezed all the humanness out of himself, had his father forced Edward at fourteen to go clerking likewise? Poor automaton, thought Edward, bitterly, so meagerly educated that he plopped at every stranger this revelation of genius in the family: " I have a daughter, sir, who can play things right off by ear!" They called him Old Ferg; he was a fixture in the busi ness; he would be here to-day, to-morrow, and then again 108 on Monday morning. Carefully reaching his coat over a nail, he turned to Edward and spoke perfunctorily. ' ' How's Frances ?" "Oh, all right!" But Edward's temples began to throb; he had half a mind to tell his father immediately of the fire and have it over with. How should he word it? how give sane ex pression to such a bewildering event? And, as he stood bursting with vague speech, he saw again those wild flames lighting up not only the tragedy of his life, but revealing a new Frances. His heart grew small in his breast; he was cruelly realizing, as never before, what it meant to Frances to remain barren, to stay childless, to have an empty house and vacant heart to brood all day over a discontented clerk who did not thrill her when he kissed her. But, he asked himself for the millionth time, how could they have children on a salary of twenty dollars a week? And the one solution seemed impossible. How could he give up his two weeks' hunting-trip that is, how could he give up his real life? Marcellus, the Spanish clerk, once confided to him how his wife had broken her health by ridding herself of the unborn; yet Marcellus deemed it wise to smoke a certain domestic brand of ten-cent cigar "to keep up with the bunch" and be a "sport." Was the hunting-trip more justifiable? Then he noticed his father opening his desk, and decided that he could not tell the impossible news now. Instead he remembered family courtesy. "How are the folks?" he asked. Old Ferg spoke lightly: "Mother expects you and Frances and Mr. Trask over Sunday to dinner, as usual, but she told me to tell you she's ordered a two-rib roast. She's all right, but I guess I'm a bit upset." "What's the matter?" asked Edward, carelessly, sitting down and pulling out a bunch of printed tariff sheets. 109 THE OLYMPIAN "Pain in the back of my head and in my heart." Edward had heard this so often of late that he paid no attention. But Kirby, forced to listen, turned round now and looked, as if for the first time, at the white-haired father. He had just seated himself, a large ledger open at his right, loose sheets at his left, and a blotter spread before him. This blotter, Kirby noticed, was simply crusted with ink-spots. The old clerk set a pen between his teeth, then suddenly grabbed it, struck it into the well, lifted it, slung off a flash of ink on the blotter, leaned to the right, and wrote. Each dip in the ink-well repeated this process. The machine, thought Kirby, which had run smoothly for years and would doubtless run on for years more, had begun its day's work. Kirby felt an intolerable pity for this man, and for Edward, and for these others, and for himself. Acutely he saw the life of clerks. Now a gong sounded; idle clerks scurried to desks, hands arranged papers, and over all the five floors of the building an army of pen-points began the march of their measureless routine across the clock-paced hours. In evitable this: a host of grown men submitting to child's work long-drawn-out, work that wore the nerves raw, so that at night they craved strong drink, the game of chance, and the dive-met woman. Edward, more than Kirby, knew why they did it, even as he knew why he did it. The public schools had made them too respectable for manual work and unfit for anything else. That was it! Genteel! genteel! That was the word that directed their lives, that kept them from sinking into the working class, down among the people who are honestly poor, who make no pretense of prosperity, that made them cling like a faded fringe to the dust-dragged skirt of the middle class. A faded fringe, with manicured nails, shaved and perfumed face, smart clothes, a "flat," not a "tenement," and a general veneer to hide their bitter poverty. What was the future no CLERKS for them ? Look at Old Ferg at sixty getting forty dollars a week! An icy sleet smote the rear windows behind Bradsley's desk, wind howled down the air-shaft, but the steam bubbled through the radiator-valve; and Edward and his father, side by side, worlds apart, and Kirby and the dim others, toiled busily in the ever-increasing warmth. Illimitable time seemed to engulf them, broken only at ten-thirty by cheerful Howard, secretary to the traffic- manager, a robust young Westerner. He tapped Old Ferg on the shoulder. "What should the rate on fourth class be, Chitiwa to Greensdale?" Old Ferg leaped up, still the automaton, thumbing off each phrase on his right-hand fingers: "If," Kirby heard, dimly, "the rate from Chitiwa to Paxley is forty-three cents, then Chitiwa to Greensdale ought to be forty-five. The Interstate Commerce Commission ' It seemed endless, but at last Howard went, and illimit able time engulfed them again. The sleet smote, the radiator bubbled, the pens scratched. Then queerly, without warning, there came a hitch, as if an earthquake had swallowed the building. It was only Old Ferg uttering one syllable, but it held something so startlingly intimate and unbusiness-like that Edward felt the blood leave his cheeks. His father had merely cried low: "Ed!" He wheeled, looked sharply. The pen dropped from his father's hand, and slowly the wizened clerk crumpled in his chair, face purple. The convulsed hands seized the chair-arms. Edward felt his own feet harnessed to the floor; he could not rise for a moment. ' ' What's happened ?" he muttered. ' ' Look look out !' ' He expected his father to go into convulsions, and tried to hold him back with words. The old clerk gasped: in THE OLYMPIAN "My head fetch me home, Eddy." The "Eddy" brought an unexpected bitter sob to Edward's throat. Clenching his fists, he leaped up, con fused. And a thrill went subtly over the third floor; the human drama halted the army of pen-points; clerks began to rise here and there; there was a crowding-in, a startled whispering, exultant and fearful: "It's Old Ferg! He's got a stroke!" Kirby looked up, half -crazed with a strange delight; but only half -drunken Bradsley acted, first forcing a pocket-flask between the clenched teeth, then sending Marcellus to 'phone for a taxicab. The flabby faces suddenly became intensely human, tariffs and schedules were struck underfoot, and a lovely girdle of grief and exaltation was put about the old clerk. It was all "Eddy, get him home; Eddy, get a specialist; Eddy, this and that." The silent son had taken on new manhood in that place. Old Ferg smiled back at their eager remarks: "How d'yer feel? Better, eh? You're all right! It'll soon pass! See you Monday!" But they did not fool him. As four lifted him up, " Good-by," he murmured. "Good- by." In a flash his meaning to the office became apparent the fact that he was the future of these young men, that this was life for them. Some of them cried strangely as he was borne away. The machine had run down after forty -four years of service. Old Ferg's clerkship was over. As the taxi fled up the skyscraper-canon and over Brooklyn Bridge, softly bumping, sleet streaking and dimming the windows, and the icy wind breathing sharply through the door cracks, Edward held his father in his arms, Kirby sat opposite in the strange gloom, and none of them spoke. Pity and love for the poor thing swelled the son's heart. What a life! What an end to it all! This poor worn-out drudge, whose grizzled beard tickled 112 CLERKS his fingers. What was it all for? Just that tariffs and schedules in intricate thousands might die in that head? Poor, worn-out clerk ! They were in Brooklyn. Up the mean back street in the tiny frame house the stout mother, the unmarried sister who played tunes right off, were waiting. The wheels grated against the curb, the chauffeur, dripping ice, jerked the door open, and sleet fell with his words. "Want to come quick!" Swiftly they bore him, slipping on icy pavement, and up ice-sheathed steps. The chauffeur rang the bell. They waited, and the stricken man groaned, and Edward felt faint, for the door opened on a crack; it was his mother. " Mother, dad " he began. "John!" she shrieked. Kirby sat in the cold parlor for hours, now exalted, now feeling stunned. It was unbelievable that this thing had happened ; the mystery of events overwhelmed him. For a year he had sat in a seemingly endless routine, and now at once an earthquake-upheaval had changed life into some thing exciting, dramatic, wonderful. And last night there was the fire! By what coincidence could two such catastrophes come to one family overnight? Were there prearranged miracles in the world? Or was this life, a smoldering in a family for years, breaking out now here, now there, at the moment of combustion ? How lucky that Edward had said nothing to his father about the furniture ! He was spared that, at any rate! But what would come of all this? Did it not mean merely the pinch harder, the misery keener? What if the old clerk died? At any rate, he, Kirby, was done with such an existence; the world tragedy that underlay its smooth pettiness seemed to explode through his heart. Several times, chilled to the bone, he decided to slip away; he did not belong here. Yet he felt caught in "3 THE OLYMPIAN strong currents that bore him against his will. He stayed on; darkness came. Then some sobbing female shuffled along the hall, fumbled, lit the hall gas - jet, and passed on. The light fell across the dingy parlor, and Kirby watched it illuminating the faded pattern of the carpet. All at once he heard doors opening and shutting and muffled sobbing. For a moment his lips twitched bitterly and his heart overflowed painfully in his breast. Then he heard steps on the stairs. Could it be Edward? He went out in the hall. Edward was descending; and, looking up, he saw the lean face transformed, lit, the eyes wonderful. A blaze of power was in the features. , "My father is dead," said Edward. And a sob escaped Kirby ; but he did not know then or later what had lit up the lean clerk's face. It had been a simple, a universal matter. Edward had sat out the afternoon in a dark corner of the dim, familiar, bedroom, with center-jet burning low, double bed and threadbare furniture; and the room had seemed strange and new to him. He sat as if through endless time. The windows shook and rattled, wind whistled in the chimney, and spurts of smoke came through the open register. The doctor had been leaning over the bed. Edward could only see the humped covers over his father's feet. The doctor rose, turned softly, and nodded. Ed ward knew what it meant. He pulled out his watch and saw the time clearly it was seven minutes after six. He rose gently and tiptoed across the room. "Yes," whispered the doctor, "it's over." "Tell my mother," said Edward, quietly. The doctor stepped out. Edward was alone. He leaned over the bed. This was his father, and yet not his father; he was amazed that he had felt pity before. Suddenly his heart was lifted with awe and reverence. Whence came this majesty to the face of a common clerk ? Was it possible that his wizened father had carried about 114 CLERKS with him, under schedules and ink-stains, something mar velous and benign ? Had his son never known him? Was there not something great in an old clerk slipping away from his desk and the measured hours to go on this impossibly wild adventure? He looked, he leaned, he touched dry lips to the cold forehead, and he cried softly like a lonely child. Yet even then an odd exultation began to rise in his heart If this is the fate of man : to break loose from all things, and risk all on the tremendous peril of the Unknown, why wait till death to do it? Through slanting sleet, over the black lot, and toward lonely street-lamps and the lights of Olsen's house, Kirby and Edward made their way; and Edward was brimmed with the excitement of bearing great news. " Oh, Fran," he thought, " you'll open your eyes at this !" They tramped up the stoop, stamped on the mat, opened the lower door, climbed the steps. She heard them coming, flung wide the upper door, and cried: "You're late, Ed!" Her dark, pale face in the half-light was passionate with relief. "Yes," he said, quietly, "but I've got something to tell you." ''What is -it?" she snapped, sensing something tremen dous in his tone. "It's father" "Father?" She had expected something else. He almost smiled. "Got a stroke." "And now now?" Her voice thrilled with a sort of tragic pleasure. After months of gray days, at last some thing red and bleeding. What though it was tragic? Then to Edward's amazement and Kirby's and hers Edward gave a lurch forward, buried his head on her shoulder, and sobbed hoarsely. 9 H5 THE OLYMPIAN "Dead, Frances he's dead!" She hugged him convulsively, her throat choking her. She helped him into the warm dining-room. Then he turned, seized her, whispered, strangely: "Frances." "Yes?" "I'm not going to wait till I die." "Eddy," she cried, "what do you mean?" They stared at each other, exultation in their eyes. Again he saw the woman who crouched over the flaming furniture. "You mean" she was breathless "we'll leave here go West?" "Yes lumbering, anything man's work." And so eleven years and a barren future were set on fire and sent blazing to the four winds For they had learned from death to take risks. And Kirby saw all, heard alt. Like a great knife slashing, his bonds were cut; he was free; power filled him. He was human, and before a mighty deed he became mighty. He could have laughed and cried with joy, for he was done with drudgery. " YOU MEAN WE'LL LEAVE HERE GO WEST?" XII ALTERCATION WITH A LADY KIRBY had a vivid dream that night. He was on the sleeper again, coming to New York, and the traveling salesman was saying: "Wonderful, ain't it, how those fellers rose to the top messenger-boy to millionaire." And Kirby, looking out of the window, saw the fire of the steel-mills. And he was thinking over again that those mills might yet flame for him, a night advertisement in the skies of America. His excitement grew tremendous. He saw the great city lying below him in the night, the irregular building-humped darkness showered with glit tering lights, miles of lights beating against the vast star- flecked sky. He was to take that teeming metropolis by storm, for Janice had said: "Kirby, you are going to be a great man. I give you ten years. Even then you'll only be thirty-four." .And he went into the dazzling room of the throne, and Mary Watts enfolded him, whispering: "You are the conqueror of the world." He awoke, pulsing with exultation. He leaped out of bed, his whole being crying out for achievement and action. Now he was himself again, powerful with a huge crushing strength and the bull-headedness that broke blindly through opposition. The demon of greatness danced through his brain. "I know I've got it in me," he told himself. "I could rip up the whole city this morning." 117 THE OLYMPIAN And he thought of New York again as a waterspout lifting into the clouds, and he a drop sucked precipitously to the top. Where had he been this whole year? How absurd to accept an easy defeat. Well, he was wiser now, he was older, he knew more of lif e, he was ' ' onto the ropes ' ' ; once again he would plunge in, and, beating down the opposition of others, seize upon power. These other men had as many weaknesses as he; and if he were armed with his will-power, how could they withstand him? He was only twenty-five; he was fresh and new. The moment for action had come. And the morning seemed to bear out his impulsive anticipations. For when he reached the office he found that he was a popular hero. The third floor mobbed him. A death-notice had appeared in the morning papers, and the clerks divined that Kirby had had the rare luck to be in at the finish. They surrounded him with funereal gaiety, and his gray eyes flashed, his head was erect, his arms folded. "Yes," he said, speaking from independent heights to the drudges, " the old man's dead. Died at seven minutes past six. Ed was in with him at the time. No, didn't say a word; fell asleep." "Well," said Bradsley, with all the grace of half an hour in the company of Scotch whisky, "let's take up a collec tion, boys, and buy Old Ferg a whopper of a wreath." He waved his hand expressively. '"We Mourn Our Loss' roses and lilies and forget-me-nots." In the thrilling silence the company indulged in pro found and original thought, which, at last, leaped into utterance : "We all come to it in the end," said Marcellus. "Of course," said Bradsley, sagely, "he couldn't expect to live forever." "At that," murmured another, "sixty years is a life time." A fat round boy spoke: 118 ALTERCATION WITH A LADY "As long as a fellow must die, he couldn't pick an easier way than that. Quick and clean, and no fussing and no rotting." "Gee!" said another and everybody concurred in this "life's a funny thing." "Wonder who'll get his job!" murmured Marcellus. But Bradsley sounded the deeper note: "He was always the same worked hard, knew his business, never was unkind to a cat. Sober and honest and saving. He was good, was Old Ferg. This place will seem different without him." And indeed it did. The closed desk, the empty chair gave the dull ache of loss, the tragedy of change. Fan tastic mystery engulfed the tariff department, and after the first heartiness of morning, induced by sleep and breakfast, there was a bewildering sense of a wrong world, of an inevitable and cruel process against which the caught soul struggled vainly. Clerking, gambling, dissipating might be petty things, but clerks were marvelous creatures emerging from infinite darkness and passing on to infinite darkness. The brightness of New York was but a flash on the way, as if a starry hand dipped them in the flash and took them out again. Yet they had to go on penning the rate from Chitiwa to Paxley, from Council Bluffs to Dead- wood. Did the unillumined Darkness hear their pen- points scratching? This dull feeling of amputation, this social pain, as it were, threatened Kirby's self -enlargement more than once during the morning; but when the noon gong sounded he buttoned up his jacket, straightened his tie, patted down the wavy hair over the right temple, and went through the crowding clerks to Bradsley's desk. Bradsley was lighting his noon cigar, half of which he smoked before lunch and half after. ' 'Lo, Trask !" he said. Then Kirby's bearing impressed him, and he looked up. "I've been wanting to tell you something," Kirby 119 THE OLYMPIAN began. He stopped and blushed. In spite of every thing, the moment grew ominously important; he was about to snap the smooth belting of a year. "Always glad to hear," Bradsley muttered, uneasily. "You see," blurted Kirby, "I've got to leave here." Bradsley's forehead wrinkled. "What do you mean? Leave your job ?" "Yes." "What's up? Pay too low?" "Well, no" "Got some other job?" "Not just yet, but" "Treated you right, haven't we?" "Yes." "No kick coming?" "No" Bradsley leaned toward him, beaming. "Then don't be a damn fool. You're good for eighteen by spring latest, fall. Bellows, General Traffic-Manager, started as a clerk. Great chance for the unusual man. Just take another think,. eh?" Kirby's eyes flashed, and he caught his man in the pupils, whereupon Bradsley looked away quickly. Kirby's voice was as decisive as ten-pins dropping. "No, Mr. Bradsley, I'm leaving." "Sure," murmured Bradsley, nervously. It was a test of power. Yes, Kirby had it in him. He rose gaily and went to lunch. He felt now an inde pendence that was delightful. There was something heroic in leaving warm security and plunging into the bitter 'dark a sublime foolhardiness; but he was going to do it. With his year's savings they ran to less than sixty dollars and with the hard-shelled strength that now seemed his, he felt that he could beat down a hundred Bradsleys. Effort that afternoon seemed a waste of time, so Kirby didn't over-indulge. He would begin to-morrow morning 120 ALTERCATION WITH A. LADY by bullying the Brain-Brokers; they would find that he was not the young man of a year ago. Besides, he him self would advertise; and in the broadcast pen-scratching, which seemed already to have forgotten Old Ferg, whose loss meant merely one pen-point the less, Kirby secretly wrote samples, as: A Young Man of education and native power who wants a job that is big the bigger the better which words set him dreaming, until he mentally added: "This young man is a born master of men; he craves the chance to swing some big enterprise in the American con quest of the commerce of the world; he wants to organize industry into an Empire of the West." Finally the magic word "Napoleon" came to him. He leaned against the desk, drunk. He saw himself sitting at a mahogany desk in a splendid office, such as the express-company President had; a stenographer sat at his left, a high official at his right; reports and mail were stacked before him; he was telephoning Chicago. On the wall hung a map showing branches of the industry all over the world; and there were photographs of the mills. A hundred thousand men were under his generalship, and he had a power of life and death over these and remote populations. He could imagine what these clerks would say then yes, and what Trent would say then. But he would be as inaccessible to these as a star. He took a down-town supper that night, for he was bound for Mrs. Waverley. He needed to tell some one who would share his vision, and back him with belief. Aunt Annie knew; yes, she alone knew. His supper ran to seventy cents more than he had ever spent before; and when the waiter wisely brought change of the dollar in dimes, Kirby felt so capitalistic that he waved his hand and said: "Keep it!" 121 THE OLYMPIAN Whereupon the waiter helped him on with hat and coat as if he were an invalid. The night was soft, the air wet with the melting of the snow, and a faint mist went up and gave halos to the lamps. Emerging at Twenty-sixth Street, Kirby found a heavy slush slapping under his rubbers, and upper Broadway was a fairyland of vaporous fire. There was just the beginning of the night stir glide of cab and the slosh of little feet with skirts held high. After two steady weeks of the suburb he heard again the calling of the women, an added excitement. He was not joyous, he was not happy; it was a spirit of hard triumph and dizzying enterprise. And the city under the mist seemed like a brilliant gem to be fastened in his shirt-front. The landlady opened the door for him. "Well!" she said, wiping her red-rimmed eyes with her apron. "You're a stranger. Must be two weeks now." "Is Mrs. Waverley in?" he asked, with hard excitement. The abruptness cut her off. "She's been in a week waiting for you I guess." He hurried up the stairs, stepped with manly pounding stride down the hall to the open door. "Aunt Annie!" he called. The gas-stove burned at her feet, the lamp at her side, and in the softening radiance she sat, her gray eyes lifting. Relief and happiness were in her voice. "Kirby?" He came in; and she rose, taking his hand. She was going to ask him where he had been this fortnight, but she saw his hard, flushed face, his brilliant eyes, his new erectness of carriage. He was a new Kirby. "Why," she murmured, "what has happened, Kirby?" "Aunt Annie," he cried, squeezing her hand, "I've chucked my job!" She felt the tingle of a new excitement. "Your job? Really?" "Yes. I'm through. Sit down, and I'll tell you!" ALTERCATION WITH A LADY She sat down with mingled emotions. There was something unpleasant about Kirby this evening; besides, the news was unexpected; and she reflected, too, that he had not thought it worth while to consult with her in advance. "I suppose," she said, "you've found something else, then." "No. But I'm going to." Her heart pained her. "Then why did you leave?" He was aware now that she was vaguely displeased; and he thought: "There's the woman of it. Just at the moment I need her most she flunks." It made expression hard. "Oh, you see, it's like this! You know Old Ferg Edward's father well, he got a stroke yesterday and died ; and so Ed and his wife are leaving for the West. If they could leave, I could." Mrs. Waverley looked at him, amazed. He had spoiled his case in the stating of it. All the grandeur behind the last two days was belittled into something sordid. Mrs. Waverley had been told more than once of the old man; this brutal statement of his death shocked her inexpres sibly. But she only murmured, with forced tranquillity: "What has that to do with your leaving?" "Oh," he said in an off-hand way, "I made up my mind to quit and go out after something big. I'm ripe for it. And I know I can do it." "But there's nothing in view." "There will be." "You tried that a year ago." "I'm a year older now. I know the game." "And what sort of a job can you get with your experience?" "I don't know." "Neither," she said, with a strange tremor in her voice, "do I." 123 He glanced at her then, and saw that her cheeks were pink, her eyes dangerously flashing. It nettled him; it all came down to the fact that women were unreliable. Then this gentle woman spoke with an anger that was astounding. "Kirby, I don't like you when you talk and act this way. It's not like you." He felt hot all over. "Does any one expect me to be a drudge all my life? I've got to make a break some time." " I've told you that right along. But this isn't the way." "What's the way?" Involuntarily rudeness crept into his voice. Her eyes grew moist, but she spoke sharply. "Just as I told you you must train for something else. You can't expect the world to be anxious to get incom petence and inexperience. You've got to acquire some specialty to lift you above the level of the clerks." "Edward and his wife " he began. "What's good for them," she interrupted, "may not be good for you. Besides, you're not leaving New York ; you're just one among thousands of untrained young men." He winced; she had never spoken before with such directness. It made him angrier. "And what can I train for?" "Well, even why, even shorthand. Didn't you tell me a year ago that if you had known stenography you could have become secretary to Mr. Harrington?" He started up, plunged his hands into his trousers pockets and walked up and down. "Oh," he exclaimed, exasperated, "I was green then. There's nothing in it." ' ' What of it ? Many men start that way. It's a handle, at least, to some of the big things." ' ' Now, when ' ' he paused ' ' could I find time for that ?' ' 124 ALTERCATION WITH A LADY "At night. Your work doesn't tire you, and you might do it instead of She was going to add "running around," but she desisted. He understood, however, and grew a little pale. "I gave up my job to-day," he said, in a hard voice. "So we might as well think of something else." She spoke slowly: "I think you could get it back." "Ask Bradsley, after to-day? No; I'm not a beggar." She rose then. "Kirby," she said, "it's a big thing to admit you're wrong when you are wrong." "But I'm not wrong." Then there was a desperate silence. He could not imagine himself leaving the room without saying good night and shaking her hand. Yet he could not bring himself to do it. He stood there, head high, face hot a powerful belligerent. She looked at him, and then she suppressed a smile. "Think it over," she said, quietly. "Now it's getting late, and you won't be home for over an hour. Good night." He took her hand limply, tried to say something and failed, stumblingly seized on hat and coat, and left. And he felt that he had dealt her a blow in the face, that he had been inexpressibly rude to her. Pride fell clattering around him; dreams of conquest crumbled; he was merely an ordinary fellow who had lost his temper. And Mrs. Waverley was thinking: "Goodness, if he ever gets going, nothing will stop him! But I'd be sorry for him and those about him. It would make him monstrous." Yet she laughed delightedly, for she remembered how he stood there too high and mighty and too angered to bid her good-by. She was very fond of Kirby Kirby, in the mean time, got no further than Broadway. It was only a little after nine, and he remembered a " Guth- 125 THE OLYMPIAN rie Commercial School ' ' on West Twenty-third Street. He hurried over. The school was on the second floor of the corner building, a plate-glass loft above the flaring shop fronts. He ascended the wooden steps and entered the little office. A girl with a golden pompadour and discon certing blue eyes looked up from a flat desk. "Mr. Guthriein?" "Do you want to enter the school?" "I'm inquiring." " He's dictating in the next room. You can step in and wait for him." Kirby went in. Five gas-jets burned, the air was stuffy and slightly perfumed with the cheap cologne of the students, and the plate-glass window was misty. At two long board-tables, supported by wooden horses, sat fifteen or sixteen girls and boys on kitchen chairs busily penciling note-books. Often they stuck the pencils in their mouths, and when he entered a phalanx of girl-eyes wheeled round on him. But Mr. Guthrie, walking with long-legged strides up and down the bare floor, never noticed. He was a tall Englishman, with flowing mustaches and mild, blue eyes. His left hand held a watch, and his right a text-book. He was dictating slowly and studying the second-hand. "HOLBROOK & Co., "Indianapolis, Ind. "GENTLEMEN, In reply to your favor of the isth inst., we beg to say that car-load lots of lumber at this season are quoted in the market at an advance of, etc." At the end of the letter Mr. Guthrie looked up and spoke sadly: "That was only at the rate of fifty words a minute." Kirby now noticed that the girls stuck pencils in their artificial hair and that many were strenuously chewing 126 ALTERCATION WITH A LADY gum. They eyed him curiously and gossiped together. He saw, too, on the wall a placard: On the Great Clock of Time there is but One Word Now. And another: NAPOLEON ON CONFIDENCE Be happy. Do not allow yourself to be easily affected. Take care of your health. Fear nothing, and never doubt success. This American optimism made him uneasy. It was getting altogether too commonplace for him. Then Mr. Guthrie approached him. "Did you want to see me?" "Yes about entering the school." Mr. Guthrie turned to his students. "You can transcribe now." They shuffled out noisily, laughing and chatting, and Kirby heard in an adjoining room the immense clatter of typewriting machines. He sat down beside the sad Englishman. "What are the terms?" he asked. "Ten a month." "And for how long?" "It depends on you. We have bright pupils who do it in four or five." "You get a position for each graduate?" "Try to. That, too, depends on the pupil. You've got to be up to the mark." "And when could I begin?" "Anytime. I'll give you a circular." Kirby 's heart had been sinking; now it seemed to drop out of his diaphragm and vanish into an abyss. Clerking was bad enough, but to shut himself in with these gum- chewing, cheap-scented girls and these slangy impudent 127 THE OLYMPIAN boys was asking too much of him. The pettiness of such dictations, such mass-typewriting! And that afternoon he had imagined the mahogany office and the Napoleonic leadership. Yet the next morning a haggard young man came humbly to Bradsley. "Mr. Bradsley," he said, "I made a mistake yesterday. I shouldn't have given up my job. Is it too late to stay ?" Bradsley jumped up and thumped him. "Glad to hear it. Glad you came to your senses." And (that evening a timid fellow came into Mrs. Waver- ley's room. "Aunt Annie," he said, with quivering lips and liquid eyes, "I'm keeping the job, and I'm going to learn short hand." She rose, laughing strangely. She seized his hand in both of hers. "You've done a big thing, Kirby. And it means you are going to be really a great man." Joy came to them, fresh, reconciling joy; they over flowed with tender and wistful comradeship. And Kirby never forgot her words. XIII THE SLOW WAY FOUR or five months, Guthrie had said. But when Kirby asked for a diploma at the end of the fourth the sad Englishman laid a hand on his shoulder. "But, my dear boy, you're not fit yet. I couldn't possibly send you out for another month." At the expiration of the fifth he heard the same news, and so at the end of the sixth. He grew suspicious, he felt that Guthrie was making money out of him ; but he needed a diploma. It was autumn before he got it. These months were a burden to him. He now loathed his clerkship with the same bitter intensity that Edward had shown; it was a daily torture. He could only scratch away savagely, sustained by a feeling that in ten days or a couple of weeks he would be free. And he became irritable and bad-tempered, an impatient, growling young man. The other clerks began to fear him, espe cially after one hot morning. Bradsley had not yet come ; but Tom, Bradsley's big athletic son, was sitting at his desk, and the fifty others lounged near. As Kirby passed the desk Tom muttered audibly: "Trask would be all right if he didn't have a swelled head." Kirby turned on him and thundered: "Get up, and I'll beat you." Tom arose with alacrity, and in a second they were at it all over the floor, knocking down stools, dislodging clerks. Then Kirby closed in bull-headedly and knocked 129 THE OLYMPIAN the big fellow down. He stayed down, ominously. Frightened clerks administered whisky; but Kirby stood, fists ready, glowering at the roomful. Luckily Tom came to before his father entered, and nothing was said. Marcellus, however, summed up the general attitude: "Gee! that Trask is a savage." Kirby felt relieved for several days. He had shown publicly his feeling for the whole place. And after that the clerks left him alone, a proud, impatient, haughty fellow, dropping venom from his pen. The pity was he couldn't write in red ink or blood. Fortunately he was very busy five nights a week at school. Ardently, then, on Saturday night he went to theater and the Tenderloin, and on Sunday roughed around with tedious Marston; for he was now back at the boarding-house. The Fergusons had long since departed, striking out for new Oklahoma, where by lot they secured a bit of ground in a projected town and lived gaily in a tent with thousands of other settlers while the frame houses went up. Mrs. Waverley, too, had gone. It was most unexpected, but she had been offered the position of principal in the girls' seminary in her Kentucky home-town, an offer too good to refuse. She and Kirby corresponded. Worst of all, Kirby's mother became seriously ill in the summer, and finally he was summoned. But when he reached Trent she was already dead, and he followed the coffin to the little cemetery. Trent seemed a pitiable place, amazingly shrunken and provincial, full of small gossip and prying eyes. The Haddens were away, the newspaper had changed hands, and the people who knew him greeted him without ardor; he walked among them, a failure, a "bad lot." Even his sisters seemed petty. The eldest had married and now lived in Chicago; the youngest planned to teach in Pueblo, Colorado. He was terriblv shocked at the sight of his mother's face. 130 THE SLOW WAY He had always thought of it as round and comely, the eyes full of smothered power. Now it was a mass of wasted wrinkles, and he could not imagine that those lips had once kissed him. Life seemed sharply tragic; all came to this. And he knew she had died disappointed in him, that he had brought her only heart-sickness and trouble. He scourged himself because his letters to her had been cold and perfunctory. And so he returned to the city, dressed in black, re morseful, restless, lonesome. But as he worked on he began to be absorbed by the school. The bright, thin life of these girls and boys seemed pitiable. It was here as in all the commercial schools. A lot of school-children who were ignorant of even the primary requirements of commerce, such as arithmetic, spelling, and grammar, were here ground through a rapid mill that gave them skilled ringers without skilled minds. So the city was flooded with cheap workers, most of whom sank into the ranks of copyists earning, by the tedious and lengthy toil of typ ing addresses on circulars or filling in typewritten blanks, a salary of not more than a dollar a day. A thousand addresses, for instance, brought a dollar. The type writer employment agencies were crushed with applicants who daily sat herded together waiting an opportunity, or pounded the streets desolately, looking in at shop windows, or mobbed any office that had advertised. In the end many had to go into the department stores. Like the clerks, they were raised to something higher without the education to sustain them. But a swift, half- baked commercialism cheerfully ground them out and took their ten dollars a month. He got to like them in a way, but he thought that a talk on manners, gum-chewing, loud talking, clean nails, tidy hair, might have helped. The atmosphere of the school was cheerful. He was taught that "Specialization is the trend of the times"; that ' ' the fingers must be trained until they become supple, 10 131 THE OLYMPIAN I strong, efficient"; that you must "never miss the big chance, yet never lose sight of details"; that in typing "inflexibility is stagnation"; and there was a wealth of poetry in this: "Have you ever noticed how the master violinist holds his bow? The wrist is so flexible that it might be hung with a single silken strand yet there is power there, but it is controlled power." He liked to think of violin-playing in hanging his fingers over the keys in speed practice, when over and over again at a speed of one hundred words a minute he typed this famous line: "Paul hit the yellow cur a whack on the head." A sentence, according to Guthrie, that tunes the typist up to the speed key. Or the classic: "Now is the time for all good men to come to the aid of the party." Or this masterly composition, which holds amazingly every letter of the alphabet: "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog." These sentences ran through his head at night; ever afterward, looking at a typewriter, his lips mumbled them. And as to the stenography, he got a habit which never left him, of tracing with his finger, on desk or table, short hand characters when he heard people formally speaking. Yet, withal, the noisy typewriter-room, the stuffy dictation-room exercised subtle charms over him. He was fascinated by the typewriting machine, which seemed, as indeed it was, a wonderful thing : painful pen-scrawling of ages back to hieroglyphs on stone now superseded by the light touch of keys and the swift emergence of neat and line-locked print; but, stranger still was shorthand, which made the fingers nearly as fleet as thought, surely as fleet as speech; the words dropped from the dictator's lips to the stenographer's note-book, caught on the fly, as it were, and saved in their very arrangement. Out of this grew the speed of modern business, which made it possible 132 THE SLOW WAY for an executive to weave gigantic correspondences be tween himself and the world and yet be free for other work And the typed screed flew from sender to receiver, a permanent record Kirby was to be one of the flying shuttles in this miracle. It seemed to add to business a touch of the Arabian nights part of the new mysteries of transportation and telephone and telegraph and all the instruments that draw earth's ends together into a common council-room, a sort of town- hall-meeting of the world Space was shrinking, time extending, and a vague brotherhood loomed through the crass interweaving of buy-and-sell And so the months passed. Finally, in September, Guthrie gave Kirby a diploma with an affectionate pat on the back. "Mr. Trask," he said, "you're the finest mind I've met on this side the Atlantic." It was reminiscent of a remark by Professor Had- den. On the next morning Kirby got leave of absence from Bradsley and went to the Brain-Brokers. The same gantlet of Ready-Made Young Men lustrously brightened the entrance-hall; there were faces there he had seen before; the same office-boy barred the way, but Mr. Cobb had departed. In his place was a superb young man of the Gibson type. However, the phonograph-record was the same; only the horn was changed. "Atwood's," he said, "is a clearing-house for Brains the link between the Job and the Man. You see, what we try to do is find the Man " As the bright formulas were reeled off by this com fortable mouthpiece Kirby felt, with a new thrill of power, how he had grown since he sat here in this same chair two years since, a young man, shy and heart-sick, overwhelmed with cheap talk. He broke in with cold impatience. THE OLYMPIAN "Mr. Dwight, I know that, but I've come here for a job. Have you anything open?" The record stopped as if the needle were stuck. Mr. Dwight felt uncomfortable before the gray eyes. He puffed on his cigar, thwarted. "Eh, you've been a clerk, then?" "Yes. But I want something better." Then Mr. Dwight brightened, as if sudden light soaked his brain-cells. "Know shorthand?" "I do," said Kirby, grimly. "Lucky, that! We have a rare opening a secretary ship to J. J. Harrington, proprietor of Harrington's Magazine, the New Storage Battery Street Car Company, the Harmon Airship Company. You know J. J., don't you ?" Kirby had a feeling of unreality, as if time had stood still. At the same time he smelt a rat. What was this perpetual bright secretaryship that dangled before each applicant? He grinned at Mr. Dwight. "You had the same job open when I was here last." The Gibson face lacked human expression. There was a cough and a hasty, "Surely. The man who went in then has by now gone on, gone up who knows?" Well, Kirby didn't know, and neither, of course, did he know that one couldn't throw a stone in New York with out hitting a J. J. secretary. "Oh, I'll try it," said Kirby, with grim condescension. He began to think that J. J. was a modern myth gener ated by commercial hysteria. So he tried it, ferrying that morning to Long Island City and getting a train out to Inwood. He bought a copy of Harrington's at the station news-stand and spent the three- fourths-of-an-hour ride in studying possibilities. The magazine was cheap, crisp, popular, sprinkled with illustrations, a lean slice of reading-matter between thick 134 THE SLOW WAY chunks of advertising. There were five short stories with titles and underlines indicating love, adventure, horse play, and "problem"; several bright articles, garnished with photographs, on musical comedies, how shoes are made, the conquest of the air, women geniuses; some nondescript thumpety-thump love- verse; a serial of au tomobile love ; and a picture section of stage beauties. It was all clever, readable, and slightly sensational, and it was indubitably American ; the reading-matter merely a flashy excuse for that great modern institution of Advertising whereby the manufacturer displayed his wares in obscure corners and over the immense distances of the States. Each copy of the magazine was a clever salesman, and Kirby understood that Harrington's had a circulation of four hundred thousand. Four hundred thousand sales men creating and stimulating appetites and needs. For these advertising pages were gay and terse, pungent with excitable newness. It was a joy to bathe in such endless optimism and enterprise and to know that the whole world was eagerly begging to serve you for the sake of your health and happiness. It inspired confidence in a country palpably hustling, alive, groaning with wealth it wanted to share with the reader, secrets it desired to impart (at two or three dollars per), advice it languished to give. "Were it not for Acid Mouth your teeth should last 100 years. . . . Dentacore." "The John Mattress smile in the morning means a day of clean work and clear thinking." "Cheer up! Get a SOG. bottle of Kleenit anywhere." "Just ask your doctor what he thinks of Jaundice-Juice." "Don't Meddle with a Corn. Don't Pare it." "Why Kill Yourself by Smoking a Strong Pipe?" "A sheep wears his wool on the Outside. That's where it is in Warren Underwear." "Tell me your foot troubles. It will ease Your Mind; / will ease Your Feet." 135 THE OLYMPIAN "Woman's Fight with Dirt has always been an Unequal One." "There is nothing so stimulating to jaded nerves as the weird strains of impassioned martial music." And then the clothing advertisements with clean-shaven, shoulder-padded, perfectly fitted wax figures, and the get- rich-quick schemes with their opium-dreams of opulence and ease, and the patent medicines. All these were the modern embodiment of ancient lures the fountain of youth, alchemy, the tree of knowledge, Aladdin's lamp. Emerging from a half -hour bath in the lambent pages, one felt that luscious beatitude had been for years ignorantly missed; but it was not too late, however; six postal-cards and a few money-orders would bring the bliss of angels or millionaires by fast freight or swift express. And presiding over these lures, gathering them from far cities, binding them and showering them on four hundred thousand homes, sat J. J. Harrington. It was like sitting unperturbed in the core of a scarlet cyclone, accelerating the whirl of color by divine command. Kirby felt intoxicated and perturbed. He was ' ' up against the real thing" again not a Jordan Watts, an Olympian, but a near-Olympian, a power raised above the multitude. Like a man with the flames of whisky running through him, craving a greater stimulus, so in Kirby grew a hard excitement, a spirit of trampling enterprise. But he quivered with subdued fright at the thought of facing the great J. J. Inwood was revealed in mild September sunshine. To the left of the station, bisecting the tracks, ran a dusty village street of cheap, dim stores and paint-peeled boarding-houses; but to the right rose an eminence on which stood the model factory of Harrington's a long, narrow, three-storied cement building with superb, pillared porticoes at either end. Far up the track stood the red brick, three-acre factory of the storage-battery street-cars and the airships. Smoke ascended in the soft liquid 136 THE SLOW WAY light of early Autumn, and facing the factories, over the tracks, a deep and tranquil wood was fading into brown and crimson. Peace and silence; the station was empty save for a sleepy ticket-seller; wooden cases were stacked before the closed door of the baggage-master's room; the rails flashed and tremulated with sun; and the shadow of the cement building lay coolly on its green, sloping lawn. Then a buckboard clattered over the railroad crossing, and the impact of hoofs died in the dust beyond. Kirby felt as if he had reached the Undisturbed the profundity of rural peace. And Harrington's became unreal again, the weav ing shadows of windy trees, the St. Vitus' dance of phantoms. Smilingly he approached the portico, entered a cool hall, ascended a broad flight of steps to a large center hall on the top floor. Shadow and coolness were here, and shafts of moted light from opened office doors. A boy sat at a desk dreamily counting the number of words in a type written manuscript ; save for the mumble of his lips, the stillness all but obliterated the faint rumblings of a printing-press in the basement. The click of Kirby 's heels echoed through the place; the boy glanced up, fatigued. "Mr. Harrington in?" "Which Mr. Harrington?" This was disturbing. "Mr. J. J." "Gone to the city." Kirby had a tendency to collapse. He had nerved him self for an ordeal. The withdrawal of the moment of climax left him weak. "Whom can I see, then?" "Well, there's Mr. Martin Harrington, the Managing Editor." The boy trudged lazily into a corner room; and Kirby, waiting, heard dull voices, and then from another room THE OLYMPIAN the low drone of dictation to some stenographer. The fact that soon he, too, might sit at the feet of some master and be dictated to and have to go out then and transcribe painfully at a typewriter was unpleasant. He knew, too, that he was inexperienced; that Atwood's had sent him out without even testing him, that he had "nerve" to try for so high a position, that probably he would flunk when it came to the scratch. For he had found in school that it was one thing to write shorthand and quite another to read what he had written; those gentle little curves could tease the mind stupid. Hearing that dictation- drone, his blood froze with bad omens. He would have to "bluff" superbly to hold his first job. "Well, then I'll bluff," said the American in Kirby. " It's a game of bluff from start to finish. They all do it they have to." The advertisements of Harrington's had been working while he waited. The office-boy now appeared. "All right," he said, and Kirby followed. He entered a cool corner room, with open windows on two sides. Mar tin Harrington sat at the flat center desk, manuscripts and letter-files heaped before him. He was an exceeding tall and thin individual, with large, dark, suspicious eyes and a nervous manner. "Atwood's sent me," said Kirby. There was a slight aristocratic contempt in Martin's voice. "Oh, a stenographer!" Kirby winced. There was a cruel difference between being a stenographer and being a secretary. , "They said Mr. Harrington wanted a secretary." "He does. What experience have you had?" Kirby was ready for that. "I've been two years with the Continental Express Company, and I've worked on a newspaper a couple of years." 138 THE SLOW WAY He did not say that shorthand was a fresh acquisition. "Well," said Martin, "I might try you." He pushed a button, the office-boy appeared, and a note book was secured. Kirby stretched it on the flap of the desk, and sat, pencil in hand, waiting. He went hot and cold by turns, acutely aware that he was alone in the world, that nothing could help him that the soul of man passes through life in utter naked loneliness. "Bluff" would not make legible confused notes. But so much depended on his success; it would open up such a tre mendous chance! Sitting there, it seemed that this es tablishment swung in the circle of the mighty, and the gates might open if he won through this test. At one stroke he would be lifted into the world he had dreamed of, far out of the ranks of the drudges, with countless possibilities a step ahead. And his consciousness of this magic opportunity made him exquisitely nervous. Luckily Martin was slow at composition ; the letter was brief, covering the rejection of a manuscript, and Kirby scrawled it down blindly, with the cold sweat on his forehead. "You'll find paper and a typewriter in the next room," said Martin. Kirby went into the little office, which was bare of all save a desk and the machine, but it was some time before his trembling fingers could tap the keys, and thrice he spoiled a sheet. Finally he desperately thumped out the letter, and took it, flushed and hot, to the Managing Editor. Martin sniffed at it. "It'll do, I guess," he said, vaguely, whereon Kirby 's heart gave a leap of triumph, but he added: "Of course, you'll have to see J. J. I haven't anything to do with his secretaries." This was painful; so was the tinge of contempt about his secretaries. "When can I see him?" Kirby asked, chokingly. THE OLYMPIAN "Couldn't say." "Is he in mornings?" "Sometimes sometimes not." "Will he be in to-morrow morning?" "I wouldn't dare predict. You'll have to take pot- luck." Evidently J. J. was the wind that bloweth where it listeth. Kirby went home crestfallen. However, in the morning he decided not to report to Bradsley at all, but to camp out on the trail of the Captain of Industry. But in the vacant hall the boy said, cheer fully: "Just left for the city. No, won't be back to-day." There was nothing to do but vanish gracefully and come again on the morrow. He took the eight-o'clock train, and the office-boy was gleeful at his reappeararice. "Nothing doing. J. J.'s in New York." Kirby got wildly hot. What high and mighty folk were these that made the race dance attendance on them, spend ing time and money on train-trips? What did old J. J. think that he, Kirby, was? "But" he spoke sharply "he's coming back, isn't he?" The boy was abashed. "Well," he said, meekly, "if he comes he'll be on the eleven-forty train." Kirby went out and cooled himself in the woods, crash ing through the undergrowth, startling squirrels, breaking in on the liquid notes of birds. He was aroused, deter mined, mad as a bull. He'd show old J. J.! He exhausted the woods by ten, and tried the village. Its heavy tranquillity goaded him ; he was for shooting it up, Western style, the dead 'burg' ! A cobbler was tapping shoes; a harness-maker mending harness; a shoe-store was dustily idle; a general store quavered with the passing voices of loungers; the post-office was asleep; the restau rant dirty and empty; the drug-store in a trance. And, 140 THE SLOW WAY oh, the boarding-houses with shut windows and the label "Boarders Wanted" on the porch-post! He went back to the dead station. Sun glanced blind- ingly along the endless rails, and heat throbbed upward fromUhem in metallic waves. He sat down on a packing- case, moodily waiting, and little gusts of warm air blew in his face. All nature was in a Sabbath doze. A sparrow preening himself on the glistening telegraph-wire was an important visitant. Then the telegraph-key began clicking, the baggage- master strolled up from the street and unlocked his door, and a commercial traveler, with valises in both hands, ambled onto the rusty-red platform. The rails now began to hum, a whistle blew in the distance, and at the tracks' end a diminished locomotive appeared, belching convolu tions of gray smoke. Momently the engine grew, with thunder and clang of bell, until it loomed, a rushing one- eyed dragon, rolling immensely and hotly by with swift revealing of passenger-cars, and stopped. The conductor swung off the steps, watch in hand; the engineer tinkered at the huge wheels. It was the rushing spirit of the modern world, the distances telescoped in its speed. And the whole continent was weaving with the winged carriers, that made one city the suburb of another. Kirby had arisen, and stood grimly, his excitement hard and taut. A bulky, healthy, middle-aged gentleman swung off, valise in hand, nodded genially to the baggage-master, and passed swiftly. Kirby fell into step with him. "Mr. Harrington?" Then sparkling little black eyes were turned to him, and with them a charmingly gracious smile on the smooth- shaven, slightly wrinkled face. The smile, the glance, were disarming. Kirby felt a sunny warmth of pleasure. "Yes," said J. J., in a voice full of enchanting rhythms, a voice wondrously alive, rich, and unique, "what can I do for you?" 141 THE OLYMPIAN "Atwood's sent me for the secretary position." "Indeed. Well, walk along with me!" J. J. walked swiftly; Kirby had to energize to keep up. And J. J. plied him with questions: "Where were you born, Mr. " "Trask. Kirby Trask. I was born in Trent, Iowa." "Middle Western town. American family?" "Yes. New Englanders that pioneered in the West." "Anglo-Saxon stock," said J. J. "That's the kind we need. It's the backbone of Western civilization. Do you mind telling me your age?" The polite grace of this was healing and lovely. "After all," thought Kirby, "the great men are simple; it's only the underlings that are holier-than-thou." ""I'm twenty-six." "And you've had what experience?" Kirby told him briefly ; they now swept past the cement factory and took a gravel path that led up the slopes behind the building to a large Colonial house at the top. "Are you married?" asked J. J. "No not yet," Kirby smiled. "Excellent. Not afraid to use your brains?" "I hope not." "Nor of hard work and long hours?" "No, indeed." "There's only one type of man I can use. One who could rise to the top." Kirby 's soul dilated ; was he not this man ? "That's the only kind of job I want." "Have they tried you at the office?" "Mr. Martin did." "Satisfactory?" "He said so." They reached the steps of the porch. J. J. turned, beaming at him. "Suppose we try, beginning to-morrow morning, at twenty a week?" 142 THE SLOW WAY Kirby's heart took a flier. "Yes." "Of course, you'll have to move to Inwood at once. I begin early. How early could you start in the morning?" "Any time you say," gasped the drunken fellow. "Seven even?" "Surely." "Be at this house, then, seven A.M to-morrow. Good day, Mr. Trask." He vanished, smiling. What could be easier? what more natural? what more satisfactory? "This is glorious," thought Kirby, "glorious." He trod on air; he exulted in every fiber. Yes, he had broken in; he had "nailed the job." The gates, at last, had opened. Genius was to have its fling. J. J., like all great men, had probed by a mere glance of eyes his power and his possibilities. It was an unbelievable miracle. Yes, he'd begin work at dawn if necessary, or at two in the morning. He looked down on the express job as from a mountain- top. Down there were the poor drudges, the humdrum existence of the petty crowd. "Glorious," he laughed, "glorious, and twenty a week!" As for the pesky shorthand and typewriting well, what was the use of thinking of unpleasant things? XIV TROUBLE BEGINS MORNING and Kirby got up together, and both were a little gray. When the alarm-clock scalped Kirby of sleep at four-thirty, the room was still dim with the street-lamp, and Kirby had to light the gas to dress. Then he stuffed pajamas and comb and brush in the suit case, snapped it shut, took a last look at the room, and went down through the halls, under stains of light, with hard excitement. He felt a bitter strength sustaining him, as if he were nerved against a charge of murder or a surgical operation. A light burned in the dining-room, and from the lighted kitchen, where poor Gertie, the waitress, was up an hour ahead of her time to get some breakfast for "the young gentleman," came a penetrating, pungent odor of coffee. "All right, sir," she called in, desolately, and brought in a tray of breakfast. He glanced at her and saw that the last two years had despoiled her completely of what beauty she had. Her stringy hair was matted about the temples; rings were brown under the faded eyes; her form was unshapely; and she slouched about, a broken house- slave taking to herself, as it were, all that dirt of life which, cast off by the strong and lucky, yet engulfs humanity. "So you're leaving us." She sniffed a little. It meant, plainly, "You are going on to glory, but for me there is neither success nor love ; merely day after day of the mop, the towel, the broom, the dish, and the bed." Just for a 144 TROUBLE BEGINS moment Kirby felt that modern moral squirming which makes the poor a Banquo's ghost at the feast of the fortunate. He felt an unpleasant twinge at the mon strous inequality; but, after all, he had not made the world. Besides, he had enough troubles ahead. So, dragging his heavy suit-case, he went out through the gloom of the street. In the first dim heave of dawn the street-lamps flamed sharp; here and there an all-night restaurant flooded the pavement with an oblong of light, and he felt as if he were stealing through sleep like some plotter of the Underworld. On the ferry were laborers muffled up against the cold sea-wind, and as the boat put out on the waters, dawn of the saddest, most delicate gray and white was tremulous on the two misty cities and the hurrying tides. The ferry whistled hoarsely, per sistently, against the low fog, and tugs passed like phan toms with eyes of vaporous fire. The lighted train was filled with silent, fatigued la borers who sank luxuriously in the bubbling, steamy warmth. Kirby, his nose on the closed window, felt that life was hard and fearful. He got glimpses of toiling night-shifts in the illumined factories, saw dim canals emerging as on a photographic plate in the growing light, and^eheld bare fields and shabby suburbs. Again he was breaking irrevocably with the past, and plunging through the dawn to a vague and troublous future, to a self-pre cipitated destiny that might involve destruction and death. At least it would involve transcribing shorthand notes, and at the moment he could think of nothing more horrible. A grim, nervous, excited young man, then, lugged a suit-case past the cement building and up the gravel path. Sleep possessed the blank-windowed house, and Kirby pushed the bell-button lightly. Then in the silence a chain clanked, a key turned, and the door opened. A sad old butler, with cheeks covered, as it were, with a red frost, looked down at the intruder. MS THE OLYMPIAN "Are you the new secretary?" he asked, as if he were compelled to put this melancholy question every morning. "Yes," said Kirby. "Well, then," said the butler, "you're to leave your hat and coat on the rack here and take your note-book and pencil them was Mr. Harrington's orders and go to the second floor to the last room to the right and knock on the door." Kirby froze. "His bedroom?" he murmured. "Oh yes, sir." "You're sure?" "Oh yes, sir. All his secretaries go to his bedroom. This way, sir.." Kirby suppressed a hysterical laugh. Note-book and fountain-pen in hand, he ascended the soft-carpeted stairs and tripped guiltily along the hushed hall. It was five minutes to seven. What was going to happen next in this mad-house? He studied the door for several throbbing minutes, then precipitously knuckled it. A sleepy voice murmured, "Well?" " It's Mr. Trask," he said. His tongue felt par alyzed. "Oh yes, come in!" Just as he pushed in the door, just as he got a vagKc, swift glimpse of an enormous corner room, with four high windows, roll-top desk in the far corner, bureau, revolving cabinets full of books and papers, a screen hiding another corner, and in the very middle a single brass bed with J. J. in it, just as he took his first step and flashed this outlay, J. J. reached his hand to a wall-rack stuffed with manuscripts and papers right above his head and began talking crisply. In horror Kirby realized that he was dictating, and he just had enough presence of mind to stagger across the room jotting with his pen on a bob bing, palpitating note-book. But of what he wrote or how he wrote it he had no least sane inkling. 146 TROUBLE BEGINS "My dear Mr. Cuivilier" J. J. was bolstered up in his white nightgown, his hair mussed, his cheeks un shaven "I sat up till one-thirty this morning absorbed in your charming story, 'The Unequivocal Woman.' It quite took my breath away. It has power, grace, style. There is, I feel, no American writer who can so charmingly set forth the complexities and alluring romance of women as you yourself. The narrative, too, has all the qual ities of modern fiction it is brisk, brittle, entrancing. I notice that by some untoward accident I have kept the manuscript four months, thereby delaying a happy half- hour. And so I regret all the more that we can find no place for it in the magazine. Believe me, with best wishes . . . ." Poor Mr. Cuivilier, soon to glow and expand over the opening of this letter, and then to collapse over the end! There was drama here worthy of Kirby's attention, but that young man sat doubled up as if he had the gripes, and on his sweat-dripping face was blank horror, as one who, having emptied a medicine-bottle, suddenly cries: "But I've taken poison; I'm dying." Words, words, words, and here and there one of them in drunken short hand! "My dear Mr. Terhune," J. J. was going on, totally oblivious of such mechanism as a private secretary. But Kirby gasped weakly: "But I didn't get down that first one I mean, all of it." J. J. looked up with eyes blazing. Where was the gracious gentleman of yesterday? "Now you've smashed a whole train of thought," he snapped. "You've choked my subconscious flow. Learn not to interrupt ; leave a blank space and fill in afterward. My dear Mr. Terhune " A wave of nausea threatened Kirby's body; swift death were preferable to this. But J. J. had stopped, wild with exasperation. "I've lost the whole hell -roaring business. Really, THE OLYMPIAN Mr. Trask, this won't do. Do you object to my dress ing?" Kirby switched on a ghastly grin. "No," he whispered. He foresaw a breathing-space. Whereupon J. J. leaped out of bed in his bare feet and began athletic exercises in the center of the room, arms out, over head, hands down till they touched the floor, leg up, foot kicking; but just as Kirby was getting hysterical over this spectacle the Cuivilier letter poured over him again with all its swift, cold beauty. Something snapped in him; a gymnazing J. J. who could combine business with athletics, making his body do one thing while his brain did another, was too much for Kirby 's young mind; he became callous and desperately blithely careless, letting his pen dance as it would. J. J. now pulled a tub of cold water from under his bed, set the screen about it, and, while a crazed Kirby heard the water splash, the swift speech of this amazing man fell like rain over the screen-top. Next, Kirby, glancing up, felt like shrieking, and looked away to save himself. For J. J., clad only in woolen underwear, was leaning toward the mirror over the sink and busily shaving himself. And still the subconscious flowed, flowed forever. Ha, thought Kirby, is this then Big Business? And blithely his pen careened. The man in the death-cell may as well enjoy himself before the execution. He was dimly aware that J. J. was fully dressed, when there was a knock on the door. "Come," cried J. J. "And yet you ought to train yourself in style. Master English, young man, before you attempt to create art The butler entered with a tray of breakfast, and J. J. abruptly wheeled on him. "Pound on Mr. Martin's door!" he shouted, in a rage to the old man. "That stinking son-of-a-gun has got to 148 TROUBLE BEGINS learn to rise early. I've been using my brain for an hour already. For, as Emerson said, you may be a god with the divine afflatus, but you've got to know grammar, too He sat down and broke his eggs, but broke not the flow of eloquence. Then Martin came in, rubbing his eyes. "Father," he murmured. J. J. was just in "what our literature needs," and also his cup of coffee, but he turned with savage grace: "What the hell you want?" Martin was just as hot-tempered. "You said you wanted to see the staff at eight-thirty. Shall I bring them in?" "My God, Martin, you'd make hell stink! Do I want what I want, or don't I want what I want? What do you think of that, Mr. Trask?" Mr. Trask was devoid of thought; he sat there like a hen with its head off, a sick collapse. "Well, you know," cried Martin at the door, "you're always wanting something else "Get out of here!" roared J. J., and, as the door slammed, "Needs fresh vigor, Western snap; our public is getting tired of flabby wish wash. It wants red blood, punch, vim, stuff with the guts And still the nimble pen careened. J. J. now sat at his desk and started, myriad-brainy man: "Change of systems for manufacturing departments. A. Bracket." "What?" burst from Kirby. J. J. turned on him and pounded fist in hand. "Learn this at once bracket everything; a-b-c every thing; one-two-three everything. It's the only way to clarify the brain. You must learn to analyze, to divide a subject into its parts. You can't think otherwise. Good idea! Take this: 'Instructions to the staff I want all employees to learn to analyze. Make no 149 THE OLYMPIAN reports hereafter except in this form.' " He helped Kirby by a map on pad paper: GENERAL SUBJECT {i. First minor heading 2. Second " " 3. Third " 4- Fourth " "'In this way we may by some miracle coerce you to use your brains.' ' He laughed now delightedly, and confided in his secretary. "They're waste-baskets, that's what they are; not editors and managers. They go round and round like a whirlwind of slop- water. I expect something else of you." Came then a timid knock on the door. "Come in," cried J. J., and in filed seven expectant men Martin, managing editor; Edgar, the younger son, manager of the storage-battery street-cars; Boyd, business-manager; Hurley, associate editor; Campbell, assistant editor; Jonison, art editor; Meggs, head of subscription depart ment. J. J. never turned from his desk, but sat pulling at a bunch of reports, glaring and muttering. The seven formed a semicircle behind him. Kirby was incapable of any new emotions, but he thought grimly that this was a scene in a comic opera, and not life. And the seven seemed a little frightened. Silence; then a terrific pounding on the desk, and the bellowing of a bull : "Whose report is this?" The seven craned their necks. "Mine," muttered Boyd, guiltily. Without turning, J. J. flung it to the floor behind him. "Pick that up!" he thundered. 150 TROUBLE BEGINS Meekly Boyd stooped and picked it. Then J. J. wheeled round, an insane light in his eyes, flecks of sali vary foam on his lip corners: " What's in your skull, Mr. Boyd? Mush? If a boy of seven wrote such driveling damned rot, I'd spank him. Minor expenditures! Minor pus! Rotten! Rotten! It stinks!" "I'm sure, Mr. Harrington," said Boyd, gently, "I do the best I can. Every one knows that!" "My grandmother knows it!" roared J. J., and turned to the next. One after the other the reports were flung to the floor; one after the other the seven stooped and picked them up; one after the other received a profane explosion. Were these men or dogs? thought Kirby. A saving anger leaped in him; he'd just like to see J. J. talk to him like that! Then all at once J. J. leaped up, danced in a small circle, shook his fist in the faces of the seven, and gave what seemed to be a series of smothered shrieks. Beginning with a slow glide of "cuss words," taking a slant with choice and surprising obscenity, and beauti fully, by gently ascending curves, rising up and up to the most elemental word in the English language, J. J. bathed the seven in the most amazing profanity of the Western world. Kirby felt the life leave his body, reason de parted, and then he felt a primal joy. He had never witnessed a mind more completely relieved of its feelings; speech could go no further; J. J. was the one man who could totally express himself. And for the first time in his life Kirby felt the tiger joy of seeing human beings trampled. There was something of the jungle in this rending of limb from limb; the sight evoked the baser instincts. It was as if Kirby had tasted blood for the first time in the brute, primitive battles of American business; he got a mouthful of the ruthlessness, greed, rapacity of modern commerce. The fighter awoke in him, the hard, glittering, tigerish hunter, and he lusted THE OLYMPIAN to get into the world-scrimmage himself. He, too, had it in him to trample his way over the fallen bodies of the weak. Without argument the vanquished and cursed seven departed, whereupon J. J. turned to Kirby with a ravish ing smile: "What do you think of them, Mr. Trask? But come, I must catch my train. Put on your hat and coat and walk to the station. I must dictate on the way!" Kirby heard these words, but there was no reason for believing them. Yet in ten minutes he was a gymnast himself, desperately driving his legs along the gravel path to keep up with his cyclonic boss, in one hand near his nose the note-book, in the other his pen. The pen and note-book seemed to keep jumping at each other. Some times they met; sometimes they didn't. Earth rotated about him, a green blur that gave to the red of the station, and suddenly to the red of the train. Subconsciously he was aware of J. J. hanging onto the steps and the conductor crying "All aboard." "This process of making a storage-battery is new discovered by Fenwick not six months ago its use ' B-z-z! the words died, and Kirby, glancing up, saw J. J.'s head projecting from the car platform ten feet away, passing like foam out of earshot. Kirby stood there mentally dismembered. He felt as if he were a nervous wreck; all his strength had left him, and he quivered in every muscle. His brain was like a hollow drum. "Holy mackerel!" he muttered. What manner of mortal was this J. J. ? Was he human at all? Did he keep up this whirlwind speed and energy every day? Where did he get his vitality? Was it necessary to be like this to succeed in business? There was no strenuous President as yet to acquaint the youth of America with the powers of man ; hence, Kirby was dum- founded. Yes, he was dizzy. 152 TROUBLE BEGINS And those shorthand notes what should he do with them? It was a ghastly predicament. Suddenly, then, the noon whistle blew, and out of the building poured a stream of pressmen and the girls of the subscription department. It struck Kirby that he had better find a boarding-house. He turned and staggered up the dusty street and en tered a labeled house. The landlady showed him a little room on the second floor, but he didn't like it. He surmised that the walls were merely laths covered with paper; the whole house had a tremulous fragility. Yet he took the room; he knew of nothing better. Then he went down to the noon meal. About the long table sat a gang of powerful pressmen in overalls, with oily, grimy arms bare to the elbows .... huge chunks of men, roughly jesting; big, elemental comrades with primi tive hunger and health. They looked at Kirby as if he didn't belong, came there by accident, and he felt asham- edly embarrassed, just as he had before the husky express drivers in the Broadway basement. There was some thing small in his fineness, his sensitiveness; something large and of the Earth in their primal roughness. He had come without appetite, but now the sight of food dis gusted him. Huge bowls of large boiled potatoes with the skins on were placed at either end of the table by an iron-muscled Amazon, and then in the center a great platter in which red slabs of beef swam in gravy. At once the pressmen leaned, half rising, forked all they could jab, and began eating like ravening animals. Slop! slop! went their mouths. Kirby, overwhelmed by the morning and by glowing anticipations of note-reading and by this primeval spectacle, sat there like some poor, sick thing left to die by a cruel world. And at one the grueling began. He sat in the bare office at the typewriter and tried to read his notes. He THE OLYMPIAN racked his brain over the curves and angles, the vowels and consonants. Sweat dripped down his white face. All that he made out was "Cuivilier one-thirty morn ing story grace no American writer women your self" "Yes," he thought, "something about rejecting a story; oh yes, liked it, but it couldn't go." Suddenly he laughed, and the room echoed. "I'm not going to lose without a fight," he thought. "I'm going to bluff itl If I don't I'm lost; if I do, well by Jingo! J. J.'s bluff; so am I!" And so through the long afternoon he picked legible scraps from the garbage of his notes, and composed letters with all his ingenuity and imaginative power. Brent, the manuscript-clerk, came in at four o'clock to give him a story for J. J. He beheld the wreck of young life. "Where you stopping?" he asked. Kirby told him. "Oh, you want to come to my boarding-house. It's mighty nice." Kirby eagerly agreed, and Brent promised to wait for him that evening. At six o'clock, still toiling under electric light, he was staggered by the office-boy entering and saying, glibly: "J- J- wants you. Bring your note-book." He went up to the room, and for an hour took dictation. Then he went out. Brent was waiting for him, but Kirby was beyond fresh sensation. As they walked, he heard, dimly: "J. J. is the most godless man I've ever met. He ought to be stood up and shot with a Gatling gun." To this sentiment he heartily subscribed. Then he was aware of a neat dining-room, a hovering family, food, and a room at the head of the stairs. He went straight to bed. It was eight o'clock. TROUBLE BEGINS The day had been a nightmare of excitement, strenu- osity, insanity, terror, toil, and exhaustion. "A little more," he thought, "and I'll go out of my mind. What's that man, anyway? No wonder he can't keep a secretary." He had never been so tired in his life; he had never worked so ruinously. And as he fell asleep two demon shapes glared at him from the foot of the bed one was Seven A.M. To-morrow, and the other was Typewritten Letters which J. J. is Going to Read. XV TROUBLE CONTINUES TWICE the next morning Mrs. Allison awoke Kirby, and finally she had to summon her powerful husband, who pulled the private secretary out of the jaws of sleep as if he had been a tooth. Kirby sat at the edge of the bed and looked with mercy- begging eyes on his tormentor. "Yes," he yawned, "be with you in a minute!" And back he plunged to the balm of the pillow. Mr. Allison, however, was a Son of Duty. He shook the young gentleman vigorously. "J. J.'ll be waiting, Mr. Trask. And you know what that means." The phrase magically brought him to. He felt his heart trying to escape through the prison-bars of his ribs. And as he swiftly dressed he thought : "I've lost my nerve. By now he's read that stuff. But, even if he hasn't, another day like yesterday will drive me mad." There was a smell of burning leaves in the air, per vading the house .... a crisp, searching smell, exquisite, the Earth's incense floating up to the Lord of Harvests. Some where in remote gardens the tranquil gardeners were gathering the bough-lost leaves to send the smokes of peace through the transparent sunshine. For such dreamy quiet, the hush of the hours over the fruitful Earth, the changes of the sun on pasture and hollow wood, Kirby's shredded spirit was aching. J. J. now seemed 156 TROUBLE CONTINUES merely a circus-performer riding the three horses of storage-batteries, airships, and the magazine; a troubled pinch of noise and dust spinning vainly in the silence of engulfing skies. And Kirby thought of his lost clerkship, the calm, unchanging days, the complete mastery of the work in hand, the freedom of the untired nights, and wished himself back in the gliding ease of the rut. He had the weak and dissolving tiredness of the convalescent who tries to walk for the first time and swiftly crawls back to bed. Brent's work did not begin until eight-thirty, so Kirby ate alone at six-thirty with Allison and his stout son. Both were excellent carpenters, tanned and sinewy, fresh with their unhurried outdoor work; they seemed to have absorbed into their fiber the stout grain of oak and maple and pine; they seemed almost odorous of the sun-soaked sawdust that gushed as the teeth bit through the wood. Kirby envied them their sound labor, their powerful handling of things, their healthy, complacent minds. To drive a nail straight, to dovetail moldings, to plane a shingle seemed to put these men into the rhythm of growing Nature. But though he envied them, they in turn showed keen admiration and respect for the secretary of the great J. J. He found that J. J. obsessed Inwood; more, that he was Inwood. The place was but his appendage, the inhabitants either his employees or those who thrived by their presence. J. J. was like a feudal baron with a whole township of peasants dependent upon him. "He's a great man, is J. J.," said Allison. "He's made this place. But he's a queer one. Trouble all the time over to the factories, and he's run up bills with the trades people something amazing hundreds of dollars. They do say he's in financial deep water, what with those crazy airships " He paused, and both he and his son laughed rackingly. "Oh, Lord! When those airships try to fly! For I've noticed God didn't put wings on our shoulders. THE OLYMPIAN And them storage-batteries dreams, as you'll find, Mr. Trask. But now it's twelve minutes of seven." As Kirby hurried through the perfect morning his un quiet was sharpened by these unpleasant tidings. Air ships! How absurd! For the newspapers at this time were blithely ridiculing and helping to kill poor Langley of the Smithsonian, whose assistants were persistently swimming and sinking in the Potomac instead of flying over it. And in such insane enterprise J. J. was engag ing airships and storage-batteries. Kirby had the first dull glimmer of the notion that the whole J. J. institution might be merely a quicksand swallowing money and men and brave ideas. Financial deep water! Was this, then, Big Business, and did its emergence in American life mean merely the ruin of investor and toiler and the blighting of love and hope and quiet joy ? He felt that already some thing good had been killed within him. There was not much time, however, for such reflection. A more immediate terror pressed. "By now," thought Kirby, again, "he's read that stuff. Anyhow, I'm up against another day." He began to feel physically sick as he approached the house; he had a tremendous desire to rid himself of his breakfast. The front door was open, and he entered and hung up coat and hat. Then, quivering with raw excite ment, he mounted the stairs. A low, thin whimpering, as of a soul being tortured to death, came from the shadows of the upper hall. It was a thin, bitter thread of agony, and the sound made his heart stop. Aghast, he took a few steps forward. Then he saw a huge mastiff circling with his teeth the wrist of one of the office-boys. In that clutch the boy could not move and did not dare cry out. The big animal stood quietly, with shining eyes. Kirby was overmastered with horror. "Can't you get loose?" he whispered. "No." The boy breathed hard and whimpered again. "He's Mr. Edgar's this is his door." 158 TROUBLE CONTINUES "Keep still, then!" Kirby knocked, and heard the dog breathing sharply. It seemed hard to knock again. "Yes?" came a sleepy voice. "Come here a moment," said Kirby. The door opened; Edgar was in his nightgown. "What is it?" "Your dog's got hold of one of the boys." Edgar laughed keenly. "He's a dandy watch-dog, all right. Blunt," he called, "come here!" The dog brushed by Kirby and disappeared with his master, and the frightened child scuttered away. Kirby found that his face was bathed in sweat and his limbs trembling as if his muscles were trying to break from the bones. "What a ghastly house!" he thought. "And how cruel!" The little incident seemed like a sudden searchlight turned on J. J.; it was a symbol of this Big Business. Terrorism, force, cruelty. Kirby grew hot with anger. "To thunder with them all!" he thought, and knocked on J. J.'s door. "Come," said J. J., and again, as yesterday, the hand reached up to the rack, and dictation sped Kirby across the room. He had no time for anger or defiance or dread; he could only desperately scrawl and scratch all through the weird process of athletics, bathing, dressing, and break fast. But when, after breakfast, J. J. sat down at his desk and began to finger the typewritten letters which lay there in a neat heap, Kirby felt unnerved again and strove vainly to muster up defiance. He sat there watch ing the fingers dandle the convicting evidence as if he were a cat in the clutch of a snake. "They seem rather crude," said J. J., and looked hard at Kirby. Kirby blushed and swallowed a cough. THE OLYMPIAN "You said," he muttered, "I should leave blank spaces and fill in afterward." J. J.'s eyes twinkled; his voice had the lilt of lovely melody. "I'm afraid, then, that your whole note-book is blank, Mr. Trask." He laughed; Kirby laughed, too. This was delightful. It was generous, intuitive in understanding, merciful. Indeed, through all the rush and drive of work and the profane explosions, J. J. seemed in a golden mood this morning, and Kirby felt that he could almost love this magnetic, charming, terrible, profane, wicked fellow. "I ought to go slower; I ought to remember that you aren't accustomed to my way, Mr. Trask," he said. "But I forget my manners in my work. At such times you must pardon me." Kirby felt that he was liked, and his heart gave a leap of joy. It was intoxicating. The dream of swift domi nance filled him again, running through him like an arous ing liquor. It was as if the tightening pressure of the last twenty-four hours, straining against a trap-door in his mind, had now suddenly broken through, releasing a reservoir of strength beneath that gushed up, wiped away his fatigue and gave him the alert confidence of position and the brilliant joy of success. He was holding down a big job, his employer liked him; so thought came with brittle snap, his eyes glittered, and he jotted down his notes with savage keenness. In fact, the relentless speeding-up that J. J. enforced upon him was already bringing a more rapid perfecting than months of the school. And so, with a growing lustiness, he watched the antics of the industrial captain. The wonder of the place was that each event that came along was unexpected, pulsing with the quality of mystery, romance, adventure. The day was a series of explosive surprises, and the constant stimulation keyed life to an electric tenseness. No drudge-work here, no dull repeti- 160 TROUBLE CONTINUES .tion of the days as in his clerkship. It was all the differ ence between being a ferry captain and a pirate. At nine Martin came in. "Here are five letters about Faversham's story." "Faversham?" cried J. J. "Who the devil's Faver- sham?" "Don't you know? We printed his first story in the September number you know, the story about the drunken father." " That piffle? Well, don't stand there all morning with the juice dripping. Use your brains; be terse." "Aw, cut it!" cried Martin. "I've been trying to tell you for ten minutes ; five people, one in Indian Territory, one in Chicago, one in New York, and two in Ohio have written in praising the story." "Let's see." J. J. glanced at the letters. Then he jumped out of his seat, his brain glowing. "He's the coming man!" he cried. "Take this, Mr. Trask: 'My dear Mr. Faversham, Your story seems to have stirred the animals in great shape. We are hearing about it on all sides. But that does not surprise me; I have felt right along that you sounded a new note the note of social sympathy. I feel that you have a great future before you, that your genius will yet make you a darling of the American people. Come up and take lunch with me. I think we could arrange for a story a month." Thus blithely and easily could this man touch with his finger the trembling skepticism and obscuration of strug gling talent, and evoke, at one light contact, an exultant soul. Kirby thrilled at this modern use of magic. Rub the lamp and, presto! atomic Faversham, doing hack work in a hall bedroom, becomes the great, popular author Everett Hardy Faversham. Of course, if five letters somehow erred in judgment, then a balloon was inflated dangerously, and a Faversham, called to do some thing greater than his power, was doomed to annihilation. 161 THE OLYMPIAN Such instances were common ; the mail was full of them ; but that very morning brought one into the room. J. J. was just in the thick of an amazing article he was dic tating, an article headed "Why Women Can't Ride Astride," and Kirby was just seeing a great light through the words "Women's legs are round, men's flat; hence, only men's legs can get a firm grip on a horse" when J. J., glancing up accidentally, became aware of the old butler standing at the door. He had been there five min utes. J. J. clapped a hand to his head. "My train of thought!" he roared. "Too late. What's the message?" The butler brought a card, and J. J. glanced at it. "Knox! Knox! Has to bring a stink up here. Oh, show him up!" He turned to Kirby. "That fellow will give my whole morning a bad taste." And he stood, facing the door, hands clasped behind his back, chin nestling in his high collar. Kirby looked at him and wondered of what he was reminded .... Yes, Napoleon, a bulkier-bodied Napoleon. It was like a flash in the dark. Now he knew what J. J. was up to. And, in fact, over J. J.'s desk hung a large picture of the Little Corporal. Then a sorry-looking fellow of thirty-five entered. "Good morning, Mr. Knox," said J. J. "Good morning. Mr. Harrington, I came up to see about the stories why you don't take them any more." J. J. spoke eloquently in a hurt voice. "Is there any need to ask? I can't say how disap pointed I am in you. After such high expectations ! You haven't made good, Mr. Knox " And as Knox started to protest J. J.'s hand went up and his voice deepened. "No, no, you haven't made good " "But, Mr. Harrington" "Let me finish. I gave you every opportunity. I singled you out and raised you up. I'm deeply disap- 162 TROUBLE CONTINUES pointed. I expected you to develop, grow, hit harder. But you've lost your punch. You've gone back on me. No, don't break in, please. I'm convinced, Mr. Knox, that you weren't cut out for a writer; some other work you'd better try something else." "But my last story, 'The First-Born'" "That," said J. J., damning it completely, "isn't a story at all. It's a sketch." "It's the same stuff you always took." "Come, come, don't do my thinking for me. Sordid, your writing is sordid. And the public is tired of reading unpleasant things. The tired business man needs re freshment, romance, optimism." Knox spoke quiveringly: "Mr. Harrington, you raised my expectations so in the beginning that I took my wife and child brought them to New York. And now you're throwing me over. What is there for me to do?" J. J.'s voice became soft, melodious: "Why, I'm sorry, Mr. Knox, I'm sorry. This is a hard world, and we all get sandbagged in the end. What more can I say? We all make our mistakes. And if I could put your personal affairs before the good of the magazine, believe me, I would. But you yourself, as a fair-minded man, know that this is impossible." Knox gave him one despairing look, turned, and shambled out, a broken man. Thus neatly and with an easy gesture J. J. stuck a pin through the balloon he him self had inflated, and one of his former great men was blithely dumped into the garbage-heap of the failures. But he did the deed so convincingly, and with such sure touch, that Kirby entirely missed the tragedy of a blighted career and exulted in the free, big power that made or marred little human beings. J. J. seemed some sort of a god who could call a soul into life and then smite it. Kirby was made drunk with the feeling that he shared the power of this god, that he was J. J.'s good right arm, 12 163 THE OLYMPIAN or at least his pen, that he was on the side of the Thunderer and helped to wield Thor's hammer. This feeling was sharpened, and, in fact, all the domi nance and fierce lust of authority was evoked in Kirby by an order J. J. now dictated: TO THE STAFF AND HEADS OF DEPARTMENTS Hereafter all reports and requests will be handed in to Mr. Trask, and come through him to me. You will also consider any orders that he gives as emanating from me. "You see," said J. J., smiling, "I want my secretary to be a real one." So Kirby went down to the factory with a new haughti ness, a new spring in his walk, a new fire in his eye. He typed the order and took copies of it about. The seven received it ruefully, but before the gray eyes of this bull- headed young man they maintained a discreet silence; all save Martin and Brent. Martin muttered: "The old man's crazy. You've only been here a day." Brent looked at Kirby sharply. "Ha!" he laughed. "I wouldn't be surprised if you're going to be the next favorite." "What do you mean?" asked Kirby. "Oh, he's always got one. Boyd was his last. Now look at him. He's leading a dog's life. Watch out, Kirby !' ' Again the notion of quicksands. But Kirby laughed it away; now that he was aroused and had power, he felt that in a pinch he could even flatten the strength of J. J. "I'm not like these others," he told himself. "J. J. is up against something new this time." So he went back to the room of the Superman. But when he reached the open door he heard a string of hot filth and profanity punctured by the angry comments of Edgar. Father and son were damning each other. 164 TROUBLE CONTINUES Kirby entered on the words: "Ought to kick you put. You've not even got the guts of Mr. Trask." This was obvious ; but Edgar, seeing Kirby, grew white- faced, and sputtered: "I won't have you putting him over me. I wouldn't take a hello from him." "Wouldn't . . . you hell-roaring," etc. "I'll make you!" Whereupon Edgar rushed out and slammed the door. To Kirby's amazement, he saw tears trickling down J. J.'s face. The Captain of Industry seemed broken, and in his voice was quivering pathos. "I shouldn't have spoken that way before you; but" he paused and could barely speak "you can't know what it is to be a father." This was wonderful. It showed that the great man had his human weakness, that as a father he failed as most mortals do. But a little later he was dictating a letter to Langley, that " No matter what ridicule and abuse we must endure, I shall go down to everlasting ruin with you to establish your great truth. Man is destined to fly; every element must give before his spirit of conquest; Earth is his . ..." Such were the kaleidoscopic changes of this magical man. He seemed to be everywhere at once, slaying here, upraising there, weeping, laughing, cursing, scheming. Now he was heart and soul in the campaign against child labor, now risking his fortune and his life in pioneering some great new project. Surely, thought Kirby, he was a genius, or at least a near-genius; big enough to fight battles for democracy, to send fine dreams among the drudges, to shed his charm on lonely farms and shabby slums, to stand by a Langley while all the world scoffed, to toil terribly, to swing aggregations of men. Yes, he was typically a big American, not struggling merely for power and money, though he wanted both, but also engaged in a spiritual enterprise a desire to do large and ample deeds, 165 THE OLYMPIAN to create a greater America, to educate the people, to further science and what he thought was democracy. But still, was he truly great? There was a Lincoln who could loaf and invite his soul, be undecided, worried, and wait and wait for the hidden truth, and who had gentle pity and helped men by taking on his own shoulders a part of their guilt and their grief. No, J. J. was not a Lincoln, but a restless half-genius, impatient, cruelly swift, lacking poise. His charm was that of an imaginative boy with a king's power a sort of boy-poet. And this made him a perfect popular editor the magnetic needle deflected by every faint change in the popular current giving up his heart and soul ten times a day to each new scheme that sprang, full-grown, from his heated mind. He could grasp the straw of an idea, and out of this flimsy and sordid material build a glorious cloud-world of vision and color ; and then, like a boy, after the passage of hours or days, when the new scheme began to stale, he flung it petulantly away, already lost in something else. Unreliable, easily promising, rarely performing, lovable, hatable, unique. Talent might suf fer, but his swift responses kept his magazine salable a revel of new sensations for a jaded and overworked people. AndKirby exulted in it; he felt that he now lived where life was hottest, where the speed was greatest, where power went forth changing and manipulating the world. Here he belonged, for just this he had come on his lonely pilgrimage from Trent. And Kirby, inexperienced, felt sure that this violence was a part of greatness. He did not know, of course, that before the financial troubles began J. J. had been one of the sweetest and gentlest of men. The lack of money was poisoning him. But the proof of his power came again and again. Martin stopped in at eleven-thirty and said that Hank, the foreman of the press-room, was raising trouble. He was a little drunk and was going around swearing that he was 166 TROUBLE CONTINUES going to "do" for J. J., knock him down when he met him next. "Tell him to come here at once," snapped J. J. Twenty minutes later he came, an ugly giant slouching through the doorway. He had a great head, black eyes, and unshaven cheeks; he was in overalls, and his bare arms undulated with serpentine muscles; his big fists were clenched, and he kept muttering ferociously. It seemed to Kirby that J. J., who was by far the smaller man, was in real danger. "What the devil you want?" growled Hank, ominously. J. J. merely turned, without rising. "I want you to be a man, Hank, and not a big beast." His voice was sharply quiet. "Jes' get up," muttered Hank, "and I'll make a floor- mop of yer; jes' get up." He advanced slowly. "Hank," said J. J., with wonderful sweetness, "three months ago I called at your house and saw your wife and children." Hank paused at these words, his curiosity aroused. "Your wife is a lovely young woman," J. J. continued, "and the children are as fine as a man could want. They love you, I could see that. You ought to be proud of such a family, yes, instead of breaking their hearts by acting like a big beast. What will your wife say when you come home in this condition ? And what will your own children think of their father?" Hank stared at him, and, being elemental in his emo tions, this primitive appeal stabbed him in his heart. Suddenly his shoulders heaved, and he began to sob heavily. "Beg pardon, Mr. Harrington," he muttered. " Hank, you're a good man at heart. Now you go back to your work and behave yourself. That's all." And out Hank went. J. J. had known exactly the right thing to do; unerringly he touched the central nerve. 167 THE OLYMPIAN Kirby's brain was hardly quick enough to react on all these revelations, but again he felt that he could almost love this man. Lunch-time came. "It's late," said J. J. "Come down and have a bite with us." Kirby did so, and at once wished he hadn't. About the table sat six of the cursed seven; J. J.; Kirby; Mrs. Har rington, a stout, faded-faced, silent woman; and a young couple, friends of the family. This was bad enough ; but worse, the table had not the familiar table-cloth, merely doilies under the plates. This made Kirby nervous the table seemed so vulgarly naked. He blushed, and sat with sealed lips, again the outsider. Then, glancing up between courses, he was horrified to see the young lady smoking a cigarette. He had seen women of the streets do this, of course, yet the sight was inexpressibly shocking. It but sharpened his speech- lessness. A discussion was going on about hypnotism. "I've practised it, " said Martin. ' ' Want to see a test ?' ' They did. "Wait till William comes in." William was Martin's valet, and also waited on the table. There was silence while they waited. Finally the kitchen door opened, and pale-faced, servile William came in, a platter on his upraised hand. He had not taken ten steps before Martin murmured: "Sleep, William," and made passes with his hand. William stopped as if brought up by a bullet, platter still upraised, eyes vacant, stiffened into a trance. Then Martin released him, and William went on totally uncon scious of his dramatic act. Kirby felt again that this house was ghastly. He de cided never to eat there again. J. J. started for town after lunch, and Kirby was left alone for the afternoon. He toiled ferociously, and, 168 TROUBLE CONTINUES though by six o'clock he was so fatigued that he thought he should sink asleep over the machine, and though his back and his fingers ached unendurably, he felt brightly happy. He had the feeling that he was coming on. Out in the lovely twilight he and Brent walked home together. The woods were ghostly, and in the orange- colored sky the evening star sparkled alone. "Well, how do you like it?" asked Brent. "Oh, it's great," said Kirby. "I hope you keep on thinking so," said the plain-spoken manuscript clerk. The side street was shaded like a lane by large maple- trees, and they stepped softly over the fallen leaves, clicked the gate, entered the quiet house, and went up and washed. But Kirby's excited mind kept beating on in this nest of peace, this soil-deep harvest-hush. The great evening laid no cool finger to his lips, folded him with no garment of oblivion and homely joy. He went down to the supper-table, buoyant, eager to brag a little. A jolly spirit ruled the room, and Kirby now became thoroughly conscious of its occupants. Last night he had been dimly aware of being introduced to a daughter; to-night, almost with amazement, he noticed her, a girl of eighteen Myrtle Allison. Her brother was teasing her. "You're not dressed up to-night, are you?" Her laugh tinkled delightfully, and she blushed quickly. "Mr. Trask," said Fred Allison, "why do you suppose Myrtle is dressed fit to kill to-night? Can you guess?" "Fred!" cried Myrtle. "Please don't." ' ' Leave the girl be, ' ' said Mrs. Allison, laughing. ' ' Your turn will come next, Fred, if you're not careful." Fred roared with laughter. " Don't you believe it ! Well, sis, what are you blushing about?" She became confused, and looked away. "You're too mean," she whispered, ready to cry. 169 THE OLYMPIAN For she had met Kirby's eyes, and she saw that he saw. Her simplicity and shyness could not bear this candor. Her father swiftly changed the talk to shield her : "Well, what do you think of J. J., Mr. Trask?" But Kirby's desire to boast had faded in this homely atmosphere. " I think he knows how to make people work, ' ' he said, and they laughed with delight. They had barely finished supper when a young man en tered, and Myrtle rose to meet him. And Kirby had revealed to him the exquisite glory of her girlhood. She seemed to hold, for her few moments, the light and vanish ing wonder of youth; in her silvery laughter and the wild- rose coloring of her cheeks, in her slender grace, in her softened hair and the rainy freshness of her eyes, there was gathered for a brief hour the dreams of the fields in April, the float of the clouds at sunrise, the transient and tragic loveliness of the spring. Watching her, Kirby felt the day fall from him; ambi tion, blood-tasting, the mad chaos of J. J., the ruinous power, passed like a dissolving cloud over this young girl. Not since Mrs. Waverley had left him had Kirby felt so cleansed and free. It was as if he had two natures one, the fighter; the other, the tender comrade and lover; and as if it needed a woman or a girl to keep the more gracious one alive. XVI THE FAVORITE KIRBY now rapidly developed that dual personality so common in American life. He was, to use the popular phrase, one man in business, another at home. In the fac tory he was haughty, secretive, decisive, loving to see his will break down the wills of others; he exulted in sheer strength and sly fighting; but when, at the day's end, he stepped down the lane of maples, he was willing to have a young girl take, as it were, his heavy armor from his bruised shoulders, helmet from his head and lance from his hand, and then envelop him in tenderness and song. She had a sweet, clear voice, and often in the crowded front parlor, with the family lounging about, she played on the piano and sang negro songs and some of the senti mental American balladry. George Westcott, her lover, went out to Chicago shortly after Kirby's arrival, and for a time Kirby saw much of her. She would consent to Sunday-afternoon walks along the roads around Inwood, and they would loiter pleasantly along, with the automobiles dusting by them; or some times take a trolley to the sea and spend a few hours on the sand. At such times Kirby was liquid-clear in his emo tions, chivalrous, charming, full of mirth and wistful tenderness. But she was very loyal to Westcott, and their companionship developed little further. Her innocence, her emotions as changeful as the sea, her elusive and quick beauty, her soft voice and gentle manners, brought all that was beautiful in Kirby to the surface and kept it from dying. 171 THE OLYMPIAN "I wonder," said Allison once, "how such a nice, thoughtful fellow ever gets on with J. J." But he did get on, and went with amazing rapidity. Kirby always needed something big to bring him out, and his new job was, in a way, gigantic. It aroused his whole nature and developed one resource after another. It was not long before he was an expert in stenography and typewriting, easily outdistancing the speedy J. J. But he was not content with merely secretarial work and the fun of watching the chameleon changes of the business; he went about, poking in here and there, and mastering this and that detail, the secrets of this and that depart ment. His brain grew active with schemes, and almost daily he had some vital suggestion which J. J. eagerly seized upon, expanded, and put into action. In fact, J. J. found him stimulating. "Mr. Trask," he said, "there's something in you receptivity, sympathy, imagination that gives me fresh ness." And Kirby found that J. J. was a master in absorbing other brains, draining them of their best, and using the fresh strength in his own work. But Kirby, instead of being drained by the process, used the same method himself and drew from others, and even from J. J., ideas and manners and ways of work. It was not long before he became known as J. J.'s favorite, and hence feared. Once or twice he carried tales back that resulted in explosions in the editorial office. Besides that, he showed a native power of his own a haughty hardness, an abrupt speech, a flash of eyes, and overbearing carriage that provoked timorousness in others. He was typically American in the swiftness with which he acquired a whole new set of manners learning a way of eating by watching the staff at table, a way of ridding himself of questioners from Martin, this gesture and lilt of speech from J. J., and that walk from Edgar. As a result, he began to dress more fastidiously, getting 172 THE FAVORITE his clothes made to order, wearing a stick-pin in his tie, and picking colors and cut with expert eye. He also began an acquaintanceship with Hurley, the associate editor, and through him learned how to play golf, a game he didn't much care for in itself, but which brought him in social contact with successful men. In fact, Kirby had no use for games; business was the real game, after all, for it touched all life, whereas a little play game did nothing but bring out a facile skill and ended in a few points either way. Besides, he could never bear to lose. He always lost his temper with the game. The staff was jealous of him, naturally. His rise was a matter of a few weeks; he was young, and they found their years of experience overridden by this haughty young man. But his power was too real to be conspired against, and it grew from month to month. J. J. trusted him implicitly, left much of the correspondence to be answered by his secretary, and, when absent, allowed Kirby to carry on the routine with full authority. He got in the habit, too, of having Kirby investigate various departments and re port on how they worked and what results they showed; and the silent, abrupt, hard young man made the em ployees quail. As, for instance, ringer on report sheet, he might say to Meggs, head of subscription department: "You show two hundred less subscribers this May than last. Why?" Meggs would try to be pleasant. "Lots of reasons, Mr. Trask. Hard times " Kirby would break in: ' ' Wendell's Magazine shows an increase, I'm told. Hard times, Mr. Meggs?" Meggs would color up. "Well, if I must say so, the magazine hasn't been up to the mark lately." "Exactly where?" "Well, human interest " THE OLYMPIAN "That's guesswork. Let me see the circular you sent out this month and also that of last May." Kirby would then study these. "I thought so. Nothing new; same old drool; you'd better have a talk with J. J. Do you think people will bite the same bait twice?" And Kirby would light a whopping big black cigar, for he was learning to be a great smoker now, and a great drinker. First, the terrific drive of work required the whip of stimulation to keep it going, and, second, drinking put him "next" to his associates and the newcomer, and smoking gave him a guard against intrusion. Cigar in mouth, he could take a puff when he was embarrassed for an answer, or when he wanted to stand off an encroaching power. Five quiet puffs would disconcert an unruly or angry man, and they gave Kirby a great air of reserve and aloofness and stored strength. He soon became known by his cigar and the way he twisted up one whole side of his face to keep it in place. There were nights, too, when he reveled in New York to " blow off steam," as he put it. For at times the compan ionship of gentle Myrtle did not rid him of his frenzied but repressed excitement. He fell also into a habit of eating big meals and eating with thoughtless speed. And as a result of the drinking, the food, the more luxurious habits of life, he gradually began to get a little stout, his face filled out, until he looked like a sleek, dangerous fellow, with bristling gray eyes. He was always, however, very handsome in his way, and women invariably were at tracted to him. His power over J. J. was very real. One morning, about three months after Kirby's coming, J. J. was in an unusually tempestuous mood. He found a bad error in one of the letters. Quick as a flash he turned on his secretary. "You damned young " he began, but he got no further. Kirby rose abruptly, his cheeks hot. THE FAVORITE "I resign my job, Mr. Harrington," he snapped, and started for the door. J. J. arose at once. "Mr. Trask." Kirby turned. He saw J. J.'s face, agitated, wistful, almost tearful. "I want to apologize to you," said J. J. "You're quite right. I respect you for your feelings; I think all the more of you." And so Kirby came back, and remained, amazingly, the only uncursed man on the premises. He was kept supremely busy. Sometimes he accom panied J. J. to New York and took dictation on the train; sometimes he was sent alone to the city to interview some author or placate some creditor. When summer came, and J. J. had to be away for several weeks, Kirby was allowed a free hand with routine work ; and in the follow ing summer he was even allowed to put into effect a system he had originated for handling the mail-bags. Naturally, each time he asked for a raise in salary he received it, until at last he had forty a week. Out of this he saved only ten, however, for he was a liberal spender. And all the time he gloried in the work. He had little use for the editorial side of the magazine; he reveled, rather, in the audacity and imaginative greatness of the business, the storminess of J. J., the subjugation of employees by that terrible man, the hand-to-hand con flicts he engaged in with every human being that appeared. There was continual storm and stress in the place; hardly a week went by without J. J. uprooting the methods of work and instituting some new system. "Won't give them time to cake," he said. "A caked thing is dead." And men came and went in swift careers, raised by this magician at one season to be dropped at another. And there were all sorts of problems to be met : there was a vast sum owing to the paper company ; artists and authors were I7S THE OLYMPIAN clamoring for checks, and certain banks refused to make further loans. But Kirby persistently shut his eyes to the fact that he was apparently treading perilously on quicksand. No other man had been a secretary so long ; but Kirby, as he himself knew, was out of the ordinary run. He had no weak kindliness, no qualms of conscience, no woman's intervention to hold him back. He argued that life is a fight, and the victory is with the hardiest fighter; that this is the law of nature, and that it behooves men to live within the law. And so came the autumn of the second year, and then, one morning in October, an unusual occurrence. Kirby was typing in his little office when he heard shouts and a scuffling noise. He went out in the hall just in time to see the door of Boyd's room slam shut. A cowering office-boy greeted him, and the staff and other employees were emerging from the other offices. "What is it?" asked Kirby. "Mr. Boyd and Mr. Martin are scrapping." It was so, really so, and it was delightful. A thrilled group stood there while furniture crashed, glass was shattered, and elemental English pierced the air. Hurley and Edgar took bets. "Ten to five on Martin," said Hurley. "Take you up," cried Edgar; "Boyd knows jiu-jitsu." "Aye," said Hurley, "but Martin has a solar-plexus left." Meggs held the stakes, tittering. "It ain't jiu-jitsu or lefts, "he mumbled; "it's chairs and ink-wells." Crash, bang, and then the impact of bodies on the straining door. "You little English pup," they heard from Martin, "put down that paper-cutter!" "Not till I've jabbed you," said Boyd. "Murder," mumbled Meggs. 176 THE FAVORITE And Kirby felt that now the real spirit of the place was asserting itself in its most normal way; just this was done daily, though without fists and bloodshed. Just then J. J. came swiftly up the stairs. He came rarely, but had a most unfortunate way of coming at the moment of crisis. The group turned pale. "What is it?" asked J. J. They told him, and he knocked vigorously on the door. "Martin," he shouted, "come out of there!" A hush within ; the door opened, and the group, craning their necks, gaped in on a scene of desolate ruin. Chairs lay broken, Boyd's desk was naked, paper strewed the floor, and the walls and floor ran black and red ink. There stood the two combatants, breathing in gasps, clothes torn, fists clenched, like two caught school-boys. J. J. spoke hoarsely: "I can't speak for inexpressible shame two grown men heads of this business to indulge in this disgraceful row. Martin, go up to your room; Boyd, I will see you later." He turned and passed out, Martin following like a whipped dog, and silence returned. But the room had to be rekalsomined, and when Boyd put in a bill for seventy-five cents for having a black eye painted the amount was paid by the cashier and the bill duly entered by the bookkeeper on the books. The next morning Boyd was summoned to J. J.'s room. Kirby was there getting dictation. The former favorite, with his painted eye, came in very quietly. J. J. turned on him: "Have you anything to say?" "Yes," said Boyd, in his low, English voice, "when I came to you I was a decent fellow. Now I'm little less than a beast. I beg to resign my position." "I accept," said J. J. "You can go to-day. Good morning." And, swallowing tears, another broken man passed out 177 THE OLYMPIAN from the room that was a very rack for the cracking and rending of the human soul. J. J. sat in thought a moment, then looked at Kirby. "You could get a stenographer to help you out with my work," he said, "and so be free to carry Boyd's work for a while, until we see whether you are big enough for it. I think you could do it. At least we'll try, at three thousand a year Acting Business Manager. If you make good you get that job." And so Kirby rose. He was twenty-eight. It was another case of a young American put into power without much real foundation of training or experience. In his drunken triumph he carefully forgot the making and breaking of Boyd, as men on the make are apt to do. XVII THE WOMAN A^TER two years of being dictated to Kirby now had the luxurious joy of dictating to another. He would tell the office-boy to ask Mr. Loughlin to come in, and a pale young man, just as tremulous as ever Kirby was, would come in deferentially, pull out the flap of the desk, adjust his note-book, and wait for the terrible Business Manager. Then Kirby, rocking back in his revolving- chair, pulling on a cigar, a letter in his hand and thought knitting his brow, would say: " Take this dictation. Jackson Press Company, Nyack, etc." He felt now that he was a man of standing in the world, and so did the factory; for a man who could run the business on the one hand and on the other keep in the secret counsels of J. J. was a man to be deferred to. The staff was raw with jealousy, but could not even show it. However, there were two yellow streaks in Kirby's triumph. One was the fact that he was only Acting Business Manager; that he was on trial, and that if he failed to make good he would be veritably reduced in rank in the eyes of all, a shame he could not tolerate. The other was the palpable flimsiness of the whole institution. Now that he had control, he could really see the financial undertow, a fierce back-wash of increasing debt that threatened at any moment to drown the entire business. He could not delude himself longer; at short notice the 13 i79 THE OLYMPIAN enterprise might cease, in which case he would be out of work. And he was sane enough to know that with his superficial experience he would not be able to get a position of this kind elsewhere. It meant sinking back to the drudges ; it meant eventual failure. He made his brain sweat over this problem: how to escape upward before he was dragged downward. For some time there was no clue. Then finally he evolved a Machiavellian scheme. It so happened that J. J. had begun a new series of articles in the magazine, on "Captains of Industry," one each on the head of each trust, as sugar, beef, tobacco, wool, oil, and steel. This naturally brought in Jordan Watts. A letter was addressed to him, informing him that the magazine already had material in hand for the article, but preferred to get it from him direct. The answer came from Mary Watts. It ran briefly: " My father, as you know, is opposed to giving informa tion to the press. However, it would be unwise to pub lish an uncorrected statement. If you will send the article to me I will pass upon it." J. J. replied that it would be to Watts' interest to furnish the basis of an entirely fresh article, one convincing in its straightforwardness, and finally Mary answered that the matter had been left in her hands. "I handle at present all the publicity work for my father," and if Mr. Harrington would send a question-blank she would see if it were wise to fill it out. At this point Kirby asked that the matter be put in his hands. J. J. was deeply involved in an airship meet and had little time for formulating question-blanks, hence, in his usual way with Kirby, he consented. Kirby now pushed his scheme, thereby entering the ranks of those fortune-hunters who, like a black swarm, buzz around the hive of the millionaire. And this was the not unnatural outcome of the teachings that had nourished his youth; the cheap American get-there -you-can-succeed 1 80 THE WOMAN philosophy; and the man who but a few years since had wept over a ruined Bess now, by the pressure of savage business, became himself one of those tramplers who make what they are the shop-girl and the drudge. Yet the outcome was so logical that not once did he wince. It was himself against the world; it was crush or be crushed. It was quite natural, too, that he should meet the Watts; they were the peak of the mountain, and no matter which side he climbed they stood there before him. Then what more simple than, having aimed at them once, he should now aim at them again? He had missed the first opportunity through inexperience and ignorance; he was different now; he was a power himself; he was a vital part of the power of the press, a power that could equal at a pinch the power of a millionaire. Clothed with this authority he could speak face to face with Mary or her father, and they who had so charmingly turned him out-of-doors four years ago would have to take cog nizance of him to-day. He remembered Mary as plain-faced and girlish and very lovely in the way she had tried to shield and comfort him. At that time he had felt younger than she; now he felt immeasurably older. If he met her now his de veloped masculinity would overshadow her, and he knew the tricks whereby he could dominate. He surely knew now how he attracted women. Once there had been an explosion in the photograph- room, and Kirby, running out to the end of the hall with fifty others, saw the pall of smoke in the sky-lit room. With splendid incaution he dashed in, crawled on his stomach, and dragged the unconscious photographer out. And the huddled girls of the subscription department wept, not for a burned and overpowered photographer, but for a singed Kirby Trask. He knew this, and, walking out on a warm noon, he could not help but be aware of these girls, lounging in the grass of the railroad embank ment, eating their lunch and gazing after him. He re- 181 THE OLYMPIAN membered, too, Janice and Bess, Mrs. Waverley and Myrtle, even Mary though he tried to forget Frances Ferguson. In fact, Kirby was becoming, in a way, a Richard-the- Lion-Hearted bold, cold, haughty, and yet with such a reckless dash that weaker men followed him and women loved him. "A young devil," said Meggs, and took a certain fearful pride in being ordered about by him. There was curiously some of this reckless splendor even in this new plan, this attempt to rush a millionaire. He did not know, of course, whether Mary was affianced or not he had seen no newspaper report on the subject yet he imagined that she might be. And he was sane enough not to expect anything so extraordinary. What he hoped for was that he might meet Mary, win her friendship, through her insinuate himself into the life of old Watts, show his power, and secure some place in the machinery of the Trust. Once in, he had no doubt of himself. In short, he hoped to escape through Mary up to the top before he was draggged down again to the bottom. The situation was critical and needed desperate action; he was doing nothing dishonest, no, nothing more than thousands of men were doing daily in one way and an other political hangers-on, office-seekers, social climbers, professional men, employees. Yes, it sometimes seemed as if the whole world were doing it; as if all recognized the truth which the commercial traveler on the sleeper had put so bluntly: "It takes pull now, pull. All the push in the world won't help a feller." And this "pull" could only be secured through per sonal alliances. Acquaintanceship, friendship, were the means of rising. So he wrote to Mary: "Mr. Harrington has placed the matter of the 'Cap tains of Industry' article in my hands. We feel that the 182 THE WOMAN question-blank would be unsatisfactory both to you and to us; it might necessitate a lengthy correspondence. It might be wiser, as it would be quicker and easier, to have an interview of twenty minutes. And if you will name a place and date we can dispose of the matter at once." This was a chance shot; if it carried home he might meet her. If he met her she might remember him. Much might follow. He sent the letter on a Saturday; the following Tuesday came the reply, typewritten on note-paper, and signed in Mary's large hand: "I understand that Inwood is a short automobile ride from the city. I will be out there, unless I hear from you, on Wednesday afternoon at three." He could have leaped up and shouted with victorious exultation. Then he had misgivings; he would have pre ferred to meet her in the city where he could see her alone. J. J. might be on the scene to absorb the young woman as he absorbed everything; or the staff might intervene. He decided then to tell no one about the interview, and to leave orders that if on Wednesday after noon any one asked for Mr. Trask he (or she) was to be sent up to the house. The plan was not without its merit, for J. J.'s library on the ground floor needed overhauling, a job that had been deferred from time to time. He could go there and watch from the window and intercept her before she reached any one else. So on Wednesday morning this cheerful, premeditating young man shaved and , dressed with fastidious care, gave his hair the highest excellence of waviness, and went to work feeling like a powerful, smooth-running dynamo. Lunch came, one o'clock, two. He went up to the library. "Where's J. J.?" he asked the butler. "Gone to the city." Fortune smiled upon him. Wonderful, indeed, he re flected, what made for success in this world. There was Brent, for instance, the manuscript clerk, just as fearless, 183 THE OLYMPIAN just as big-brained, just as hard a worker as Kirby. Yet Brent stayed low, couldn't rise, couldn't work out of the rut. Was it that he lacked recklessness? Recklessness ruined as often as made a man, and all the recklessness in the world was impotent against locked doors. It must be then a matter of luck. Kirby was lucky lucky that he went to Atwood's, lucky that the J. J. opening was there, lucky that J. J. liked him, and now supremely lucky that Mary Watts was adventurous enough (or was it curious enough?) to come out to Inwood on a chance letter. The library was a long, dusky room, with high ceiling, with old-fashioned sooty white-marble fireplace, and with many-folding brown shutters on the storm-stained Gothic windows. Unprotected books cluttered wooden shelves to the ceiling; the furniture was old, and the corners care lessly filled with dusty heaps of manuscripts, with stacks of old file-boxes, with creaking revolving-cabinets. The room had no library atmosphere, no inviting radiance of warmth and comfort for the browsing reader. It was more like a cold, forbidding store-room, shadowy and tinged with purple gloom. Yet to-day an atmosphere of romance and secret ad venture pervaded it, like some dark stone tower-room of the Middle Ages where a man and woman whispered to gether in the twilight to keep their voices from echoing through the perilous halls. Charmed and expectant, Kirby fingered gingerly the dusty file-boxes, and ever and again went to the windows and glanced out. He had half a fear that she would not come. The day was gray, silent, as if snow were in the air, and an intimate melancholy lay like an enfolding spirit on the bare slopes, the gravel path, the model factory with its plume of steamy smoke, and the bare woods beyond. A precipitation of sadness and loving gloom lived down wardly on all things, the gray-bosomed, gray-haired ancient sky laying her desolate breast on the wintry 184 THE WOMAN earth. And traced against the gray were the bare branches of the frozen trees. Kirby's spirit was touched by this melancholy, and some of his excitement died in it like a hot flash in its own gray smoke. For a moment he wondered at his own hardness and self -absorption, for the day touched him like a woman, and the hidden beauty of his spirit quivered at the touch. He went back to the file-boxes, and then back and forth. The light seemed to be waning in the growing gloom. "She may not come at all in this weather," he reflected. Then, in the silence, he heard the far chug-chug of an automobile, and glancing out saw a big brown French car stopping before the portico of the factory. A chauffeur got out and went lightly up the steps. Kirby grew hot about the temples, an unexpected feeling of timidity palsied him, and vivid memories of four years ago came back. Then he had nerved himself, and at the crucial moment lost his nerve. After all, he was the same human being. He wished almost angrily that the day had been of a different temper sharp wind and sunshine, storm, anything that could keep a man hardy. This weather was dissolving. Then, as he expected, the chauffeur came down and re- entered the car, which started with a snort. He felt as if his doom were coming toward him; as if unescapable Nemesis were overwhelming him; his blood rushed to his head and he trembled. Now the car was lost under the slope of the hill, now it took the long curve of the carriage road, now it was hidden beyond the house, and now, abruptly, it swept up to the porch and stopped. He got a glimpse of a muffled woman in the rear seat, veil over head, and heavy automobile coat. But he bolted for the door, to intercept the butler, and flung it open. The chauffeur came up, a powerful, clean- faced man, in leather boots, great fur-lined gloves, and heavy coat. "Mr. Traskin?" 185 THE OLYMPIAN "Yes. Miss Watts? Show her in." His voice came in unfamiliar accents. The chauffeur went back, and in the eternity that fol lowed Kirby knew himself for a bold fool. He was glad that he had not the gray eyes of a Mrs. Waverley upon him. Now the woman descended from the car and came with firm tread up the steps. He had the fleeting impression that it was not Mary Watts at all, but some entire stranger. She stood before him, and her voice had a sound, healthy ring: "Mr. Trask?" "Yes," he said, a little huskily. "Miss Watts? Step into the library, please." He closed the door and followed her. With a graceful motion she was unpinning and taking off the veil, and he helped her off with the coat. Then she glanced round and sat down. There was a freedom and health in her mo tions that was sharply, pleasantly perceptible. And then, as Kirby saw the face and the simple black dress for she was in mourning for her sister's death he experienced an unhinging shock. He had made no allowance for the four years that had changed him from a disorganized youth to a powerful man; but these same years had changed Mary. The pleasant, impulsive girl- ishness had fled; she had matured, she was rounded, and her face, which he had thought now plain, now blushingly radiant, was superb; soft, simply waved dark hair over a powerful forehead; large brown, honest eyes; a strong jaw. And yet she appeared very young, as if she knew men, knew manners, knew the ways of the world, but seemed, with large eyes, trying to wonderingly peer into the mysteries of life. It was as if she knew nothing of her own unfolded nature, the generations that were sealed up in her, the woman-mate that lay within her, tranced, waiting the kiss that should waken not only her, but the whole palace of the woman. She had the face and bearing of a woman 186 THE WOMAN who thought, who felt, honest before all things emotion ally, intellectually honest. There was no lie in Mary Watts. And yet through all ran the cloudy wistfulness of an unmated woman. Kirby's abrupt silence, painful with this flood of revela tion, caused her to look up and examine him. She bent forward a little. "I must have met you somewhere." It was half a statement, half a question. He turned red. "You did," he faltered. "Four years ago. I came to your house for supper." She seemed to be reading his soul with those honest eyes. "Four years ago. And what was the occasion?" "I had just come to the city Mrs. Janice Hadden had given me a letter to your father." "I remember." Her soft laughter was clear. "And father was rude to you, until you exploded on him. I've never forgotten that; it was unusual." He began to breathe easier and feel elated. She went on, earnestly: " I really meant to ask you up again, to make up for that night, and I know it's no excuse that I've been simply swept along all this time." He could say nothing. He smiled, and sat down. "And now you're here, interviewing people." "Yes," he said, and he could not help adding, "I'm Acting Business Manager." "In four years. Splendid!" she said, enthusiastically. Then she looked at him and spoke in a probing way: "But does the Business Manager get up articles?" He squirmed inwardly. Her honesty was getting un pleasant. "No," he murmured, trying to smile, "but I'm still doing some of Mr. Harrington's secretarial work." "I see." Speech evidently was at an end. In the waning light he saw her face glistening out of the black shadows. Beauty and life were there, shining in the engulfing 187 THE OLYMPIAN dark, the beam of a lightship on stormy seas. Something profoundly devout was stirred in him, and he felt in the clutch of a huge, exquisite power. Then, to snap the silence, she began a rapid questioning that reminded him strangely of her father. "How long have you been here?" "Two years." "And you started as secretary?" "Yes." "And before then?" He could hardly speak for shame. "I worked with the Continental Express Company." "As a stenographer?" She would have the truth, and out it came: "As a clerk." The words seemed to burn his lips. "Now," he thought, "she'll despise me." "Clerk to Business Manager in four years," she said, meditatively. "That shows power." And there was a hint in her voice that possibly she thought of Kirby as a man inherently great, and, like Janice Hadden, she would have enjoyed projecting him. It showed, too, though Kirby could not glimpse this, that she was looking for real values; that she put crude strength before the weak-spined polish of some of the men of her set. The daughter of a messenger-boy had not grown very far from the common soil. Again there was silence, and Kirby scourged himself because he was proving so unexpectedly the same old two-and-sixpence. He left all the responsibility of com munication with her. She spoke in a changed voice: "Well, we may as well get the business over with, Mr. Trask. What can I tdl you?" This was tonic; the man of action was saved from drowning. "Just this," he said, abruptly. "We want the plain facts of Mr. Watts' life." 188 THE WOMAN " But you have those already." "We may have them wrong." "All right," she said. He got a note-book and took it in shorthand. He had hesitated about doing this, for it would put him in an inferior position ; when he did it finally it was on impulse. But Mary admired this lack of ceremony, this businesslike simplicity. He sat near the window, and now a change of clouds sent on him a pale, whitish light that brought out all the bull-headed strength of his head. She dictated limpidly, slowly, out of a clear mind. And she showed far less false pride than Kirby had. He did not want to admit clerking; she seemed to delight in picturing her father as a poor boy of humble origin, as a messenger, a telegraph operator, a secretary, a superin tendent, a manufacturer. And before she finished Kirby felt definitely how slight the real wall is between the different classes in American civilization, the real wall, for the wall of manners and power and position and comfort was tragic enough, as he knew. There was one part of the narrative that she slurred over, however. It had to do with her father's business methods. He asked a probing question or two, but finally she said, in a quivering voice: " No, publicity hasn't any right there. People wouldn't understand, as I do. Besides, we're giving away millions of dollars to set some things right." This moral viewpoint was new to him. "She's too honest," he thought. "I'd hate to have her investigating me." A blank silence again followed the ending of the inter view. He felt that she was watching him, and, looking up, he saw her face with its cloudy wistfulness. She smiled at him very sweetly, he thought. "Have you ever seen an automobile at close range?" she asked. "No," he replied. 189 THE OLYMPIAN Automobiles were still enough of a novelty at that time to warrant inspection. He helped her into her coat, she put the veil over her head, and they went out. The chauffeur began cranking up the machine, but she showed Kirby the parts. Finally she said: "Get in; I'll run it for you." The chauffeur looked up sharply. "You hadn't better, Miss Watts. You've not really learnt yet." She laughed. "Oh yes, I'm going to do it," and leaped in and took the driving-seat. "Come on, Mr. Trask." He got in beside her, the chauffeur grimly jumped out of the way, and at a twist of her wrist the car leaped from under them and glided easily along the curve of the drive. The action seemed to reveal all her power to Kirby; it appeared to him that it was a powerful human being who so lightly and easily sped the huge car along. And her presence was beginning to fill him with a painful glory his growing emotions threatening to overmaster him. "It's glorious, isn't it?" she exclaimed, as she made a swift circle and the car flew back to the house again. "Some day I'm going out all alone and let out the speed and simply jump the hills. It's a sort of freedom." The car stopped and they stepped down. Darkness was now devouring the world, and here and there a pro testing light appeared in house and factory window. She stood very close to him, and as she said good-by she took his hand and seemed to study him at close range. He felt faint and dizzily happy. Suddenly her personality seemed to invade his, so that he was lost in the tides of her spirit. It was as if the trembling mystery of existence was laid bare for a brief flash, as if the hurried and muffled destiny of humanity revealed its primal light and the far glory that it yearned toward. There was something un dying in the moment; out of the dark a man and a woman emerging, touching hands, glancing in each other's eyes. And all the realities made it more poignant and touched 190 THE WOMAN with wonder the darkening heavens, the clash of the chauffeur's boots on the pebbles, the breathing of the machine, the lights in the growing night. She, too, felt the presence of that remote and far Romance that leaned for a brief moment and lit their faces and passed. "Good-by," she said, wistfully. "You're to get that delayed invitation now, depend upon me. It will come soon. In the mean time, if you must see me any more about the article, come to the city." Her voice seemed like a cloud passing through the cloud of his own spirit. "Good-by," he murmured, breathless. She stepped in, the chauffeur climbed to his seat, she smiled dimly, and then the night took her. He stood, as if his soul had been stripped naked, a quivering human being in the dark. The great primal force of life, the limitless systole and diastole of that power that makes the suns and planets ebb and flow and penetrates the atoms and the mated animals, the pulsing of that swing of all the world which Kirby had thus far felt in dim throbs, but always rid himself of, so that he at last thought he was free of it and could go his hard way untroubled, now clutched him, drenched him, possessed him, and his little vain works crumbled in that Tremen- dousness. He marveled that he had thought of fortune- hunting. He marveled that his little brain had busily schemed. It was as if an earthquake had shattered his career. " That's what a woman is," he told himself with blinding amazement. ' ' And I yes, I 'm a man. She's a woman. ' ' And he felt as if he were the most unfortunate fellow in the world. He had planned without reckoning on Nature. He had thought himself a free master; he was merely an atom in the fury of the suns. AV1U THE RIDS HAD Kirby been told that his honored father had secretly fived a fife of dissoluteness and murder the erode shock would have dazed him less than the dis covery that he was merely that little white animal matt nailed to the flying debris of the stars. Stunned, he saw fife afresh. It was not happiness, there was no rapture in the thoughts th?* Mary evoked, there was merely realization. Her personality spf-med to have saturated his, and the obsession was almost painful. It was exactly as if his work, his schemes, his plots were a lot of Kttle strings he had been tying together, each string leading to some new power out of sight, until fiasdljr, impatient, he had dropped a spark on them, to find, to his honor, that they were fuses that burned rapidly down to mmf that CTpV*dkd a ^ In*. Kf He f elt that somehow he t^fi fumed liiiitMMi * tpmt by "^^MH^HM* twj whole * ** * v^*t)QTi from business success to the following of a woman he had became a helpless slave. Natures such as Kirby's, when once aroused, are hard to quiet. He did his best to putt out from his heart tins woman's power. He told himself that he was adding him self to a whole swarm of suitors; that Mary was too keen not to see through hik fl"d*t'ioii? a*id pretensions; *h^*t even if she favored him she was fike a king's daughter, bound to a high nuMiiagp* ttert he hfU^ nothing to offer such a woman but Ms tmpl^a^fftit self; thpt he ^a