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MEMOIRS AND JOURNAL
OF
HUGH JUDGE;
A MEMBER OF THE SOCIETY OF FRIENDS,
AND MINISTER OF THE GOSPEL;
CONTAINING
AN ACCOUNT OF HIS LIFE,
RELIGIOUS OBSERVATIONS,
AND
TRAVELS IN THE WORK OF THE MINISTRY.
BYBERRY: .
PUBLISHED BY JOHN AND ISAAC COMLY.
J. Richards, Printer, Philadelphia.
1841.
CONTENTS.
Early life page 1. His learning to be a miller, 6. Silent worship,?.
First apjK-arancc in the ministry, 9. Removal to Pikeland, 10. Join-
ing Friends and marriage, 10. Removal to Concord, 11. Visiting
families, 13. First visit to Hopewell, Virginia, 16. Removal to Bran-
dywinc, 25. Voyage to Nantucket and letter to Edward Hatton, 26 —
to his wife, 28. Certificate to perform a religious visit to the South-
ern States, 30. Tj^ayels in Virginia, 33— N. Carolina, 38— S. Caroli-
na, 40. Return home, 48. At neighbouring meetings, 49, 50. Fly in
the wheat and rctlections, 51. Exercises, Deaths, Visit to Concord,
*2 52, 3. Wm. Jackson's visit, reflections, 54, 5. Meeting of millers, 60.
^ Mary Ferris, 61-3. Joujiie^Jo^Duck Creek in Delaware on account
of coloured people, 68. Burial of Samuel Starr, 71. Do. Robert Val-
es: entine, 72. Letter to Joseph Townsend, 73. Deep exercises, 74. Death
cc of Anna Byrnes, 82. Yearlyliiecting in Philadelphia, 84, 5. Discour-
— agements about temporal matters, 88. Cautionary Remarks on con-
versation, 92. Quarterly meeting, — Job Scott, 95. Conference at
White Clay Creek, 96. Visit of Richard and Thomas Titus, remarks,
^ 99. Burial of Edith Sharplcss, and testimony concerning her, 100.
in Letter to Thomas Byrnes, 102. Thomas Colley, 104. VjsitJa,Baltj-
^ more Yearly Meeting, 108. Second letter to Thomas Byrnes, 111.
§ On Gospel ministry, 115. Visit of Charity Cook and companions, 116.
Letter to Norris Jones, 117. On ministry, 120. Address to his chil-
dren, 122. Dj^niel Offley, 124. Decease of John Perry, 125. Mourn-
■ ful Reflections, 127. On industry and charity, 130. Moderation and
O Fashions, 132. Remarks on Social converse, 135. On charity and
ii unity, 137. Jo urney to Mary land. 139. Letter to Sarah Harrison,
'^ 140 — to a young man, 142— to Peter Yarnall, 142. Wet seasfln,145.
•^ Thomas Carlton's, 146. Reflections on the declension of society,
^ 147, 8. Remarks on lifeless formality, 150. Yearly Meeting, 152.
■r Letter to Charity Cook, 155. Low season, 158. Visit to aged people,
-J 163. At London Grove, 164. Spring meeting at Philadelphia, 166.
Address to his children, 167. Low state of society, 169. Accident to
his wife, 170. Visit to H. West, 171. Visit to Salem Quarter with
Eli Yarnall, 172. On contentment, 176. On pride and fashions, 177, 8.
Vis iting families at W hite Clay Creek and Wilmington, 179. Jour-
ney to New York and New England m 1790, 180 — ^Rahway, LoTig
Island, 183— New York Yearly Meeting, 185— Rhode Island, 186-8.
Account of Norris Jones, 190. Wheat failure in New England, 193.
Silent Meetings, 197. Kennebeck country, exposures, 200. Remark,
able conyinccment, 201,2. Searching labours at Hailestown, 204
iiV CONTENTS.
Customs in new settlements, 206, 7. Superficiiil papers of acknow-
ledgment, 208. Close trials at Hailestown, 211— and at Dover, 213.
Explanation of Friends' principles at Greene, 215. Letter to his wife,
218. Remarks on reading the scriptures, plainness, &c. 223. Rich-
ard Mott, 224. New York state, Vermont, travels there, 227 to 231.
Review of his journey and return home, 231. Attended Long Island
Yearly Meeting, 1792; Letter to his son Thomas, 232. His removal
to New Rochelle, 234. Mary Griffin, Yearly Meeting, 235, 6. Yearly
Meeting of ministers and elders. New York; committee appointed to
visit select meetings, 237, 8— proceedings, 239, 40. Letter to .John
Kendall, 241. Removal to N.York, 243. Yellow fever there in 1798;
his children sick, 244. Visit to the western parts of N. York state,
245 to 253. Journey to Upper Canada, 254. Religious opportunity
■with Indians and others, at St. Regis, 259. Remarks on early set-
tlers, 261. Accident, and remarks thereon, 267. Cautions to travel-
ing Friends, 268. Preparative meeting at Adolphus-town, 269. Re-
view of his labours, 273. Cautions, 275. Return home, 277. Improve-
ment of time, 279. Second visit to New England, with Willet Hicks,
280. Return by way of Vermont, 286. Death of Gervas Johnson, 287.
Letters to his son, 288. Visit to the upper Quarters on Yearly Meet-
ing's committee, 289. Remarks, 292, 4. Yellow fever in New York,
295. Death of his daughter, Esther, 301. Removal to Little Falls in
Maryland, 302. Baltimore Yearly Meeting, ib. State of society, 305.
Removal to Baltimore, 306. On social converse, 308. Letter to
Friends, 312. Death of Jacob Lindlcy and Thomas Scattergood,316.
Journey to Ohio, 317. Removal there, 319. Barnesville, 320. Attend-
ance of the Yearly Meetings of Philadelphia, New York and Rhode
Island, 321-5. Mount Pleasant, 325. Visit to Alum Creek and Owl
Creek, 327. Visit with his wife to Baltimore Yearly Meeting, 329.
Lcwistown, 330. Return home, 335. Visit in Ohio to families and
meetings, 336. Journey to Baltimore, 338. Indiana Yearly Meeting,
340. Visit to Indiana, 341. Sickness of his wife, 346. Journey over
the mountains eastward, 348. Death of his wife, 349. Journey to
Pennsylvania, New York, &c. 351. On Job Scott's Salvation by
Christ, 352. Letter from John Hunt, of Darby, 354. H. J.'s answer,
and account of Elias Hicks, 356. His attending Philadelphia and
New York Yearly Meetings, 360. Account of his severe illness, 362.
Family visits, 364. His death and burial, 368. His daughter's ac-
count of him, 369.
APPENDIX.
Memoir of his wife Susanna Judge, 371. Death of Joseph West,
374. Job Scott's letter to her, 376. Yearly Meeting of 1791, Robert
Neabit, 386. Her journey to Carolina, 392. Her death, 395.
MEMOIRS AND JOURNAL OF
HUGH JUDGE.
The parents of Hugh Judge emigrated from Ire-
land, and settled in Philadelphia. They were of the
Roman catholic profession of religion, and were said
to be very strict in their adherence to the customs
and ceremonies of that church. They had two sons,
of which Hugh was the younger; and they were both
baptized in their infancy. After the death of his fa-
ther, Hugh was placed out apprentice by his mother,
Margaret Judge. His elder brother was said to be
an uncommonly promising youth; but he died at
about the age of eighteen years. His death made a
deep impression on Hugh's mind, and he felt his sit-
uation as being almost alone in the world, having no
relative in this country but his widowed mother. It
is probable that this was the season of Divine visita-
tion to his soul, alluded to in the following brief nar-
rative of his carl}^ life.
It is said Hugh Judge had no personal acquaint-
ance with Friends in his youth, perhaps during his
apprenticeship: but as he grew towards manhood,
observing them to be a plain, honest people, he was
induced to go to their meetings. This he did for
some time, without the knowledge or consent of his
mother, who was exceedingly opposed to his reli-
gious scruples, and leaving the catholic church. At
length, however, she became better reconciled to his
change; and after he came forth in the ministry, she
attended a Friends' meeting in Philadelphia, where
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Hugh appeared in testimony. In the afternoon, as
they were sitting together, she drew her chair near
to him, and, turning her head on one side, looked
him full in the face, addressing him in these words:
" Hughey, dear, 1 was afraid for you to day; — indeed
I was. You know you had no edecation at all, — at
all, for that business. But I thought you made out
very well, — indeed I did, Hughey."
If this anecdote is correct, it must have been a
satisfaction to Hugh that his mother was thus far
reconciled to his coming amongst Friends. No ac-
count is found among his papers of the day of his
birth; it appears, however, from a comparison of
dates, to have occurred in or about the year 1750.
From some detached memorandums, a part of
which are lost or wanting, we have collected the fol-
lowing vsketch of his early life and first appearance
in the ministry, as written by himself.
•' In the days of my youth, being placed out ap-
prentice to earn my living, I was deprived of the
portion of learning which I ought to have had; and
which, if I had had the opportunity, I should have
taken without iinich difliculty. What little time I
went to school, I learned fast. I believe I was but
one day in learning my letters, and in less than a
week I got to reading, in which I took great delight.
But I think I did not go to school more than one
month in the quarter, and then I had to work hard
in the mornings before I went: for, although I was
but young, perhaps about twelve or thirteen years of
age, )'et a portion of work was allotted me every
morning; not only to make fires and to fodder the
c.rcalurcs, but also to tbrcsh twenty-four sheaves of
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wheat: and being in the winter season, it required
my rising before day in order to accomplish my task
of work before I went to school. But the Lord in-
clined my heart to seek him in those my youthful
days; though at times, through hard usage, I revolt-
ed and gave myself up to a reprobate life. Some
times 1 was tempted to run away, not caring much
what became of me, and thinking 1 could not fare
much worse if I spent my days in a prison. But
thou, Father, restrained me, for thou hadst a work
for me to do; and as thou wast preparing me for it,
thou turnedst those crosses and disappointments into
blessings. Thou wast my father and my friend, for
I had none to cry unto but thee, and thou didst hear
me and comfort me. Thou madest hard things easy,
and bitter things sweet, and thou reconciled me to
my situation.
As I grew up, I had this consolation, that I was
faithful in my master's business. He was for the
most part a quiet, inoffensive man; but my mistress
and myself were too much of a temper to agree well
together; until Truth took hold of my mind and
chained down my strong passions, which with hers
used to rise very high at times. She was a woman
of ungovernable passion, and would sometimes break
out upon me in great rage about my work, although
I was but young in years. Oh! the injury done to
youth, by being placed under such who have no
government of their own tempers! I believe many
have been ruined thereby, and driven into things
that have brought lasting shame and disgrace upon
them. It was nothing short of the goodness of the
Shepherd of Israel that kept me from falling into
gross enormities: for even when I was tempted
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thereto, he raised an abhorrence in my mind against
it. He stepped in between, as it were, and would
not suffer me to fall into the jaws of the devourer.
Oh! matchless, unfathomable love! What shall I ren-
der, — what have I to render unto thee, Father of
mercies, for all thy benefits? My tongue and my
pen are far too short to set forth one half thy praise.
It is thine own works that praise thee, and I record
it to thy honour.
During those days of the tendering visitations of
Divine love to my soul, 1 used frequently when I
went out to work in the fields, to take my book
along with me, and when I had a little leisure, I
found great satisfaction in reading.
In the neighbourhood where I lived, there were
many young people, who used frequently to collect
together and make merry nights, as they called them.
Their amusements were such as card-playing, sing-
ing, dancing, &c. in which I also took much delight,
and often went to these night meetings; insomuch
that there was a prospect of my becoming a profi-
cient in these vanities. But, to the praise of the
ever worthy name of my God, be it spoken, — he left
me not, but followed me with reproof; his light and
his Truth showing mo that the course I was pursuing
led down to the chambers of death, and thither I was
hastening, if I continued in that way. This alarmed
me, and caused me to bemoan my situation; so that
under these convictions I endeavoured to keep from
going into com])any. Sometimes, I concluded I would
associate with them no more; and in order to shua
them on the first day of the week (for it was cus-
tomary for us to collect together on that day) I have
at times taken my book and gone from the house,
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either into the woods or to some place where they
could not find me; and there I have sat and read for
hours together. At these seasons I was often deeply
affected, and particularly so on reading in the New
Testament; especially concerning the sufferings of
Jesus Christ; — severely condemning in my own
mind the conduct of the Jews towards him, and say-
ing at times within myself, that had I lived in those
days, I would have been his follower: not knowing
that it was his holy Spirit that was then offering to
be my leader, director and support in the way of life
and salvation.
blessed Shepherd of Israel, how tenderly thou
didst deal with me in those days of my childhood!
Thou tookest me by the hand as a most tender father,
to lead me out of the vanities and follies and sin-
pleasing pleasures to which 1 was prone by nature.
Thou corrected me in mercy, and in great loving-
kindness thou reproved me. In the riches of thy
adorable goodness, thou revealedst thy son Jesus
Christ in me, and caused me clearly to understand
that thou wast speaking to me by and through the
spirit of thy son in my heart. Here I saw that it
was this which had been and was still smiting me
for my evil ways, and bringing sorrow over the mind
for speaking and doing amiss; — and that this was and
is the only means offered by God for our reconcilia-
tion to him. I saw that there was power in that
which smote for sin, to deliver from it, and I under-
stood what I read of Christ that all power was given
unto him of the Father.
Oh! this was indeed a glorious day, never to be
forgotten by me while I retain my memory. Oh!
what rejoicings of soul I felt! What ravishings oi
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love swallowed me up, as it were, in the embraces
of heavenly goodness! Many blessed and glorious
seasons I had both by night and by day; for the
goodness of God was great towards me, a poor igno-
rant lad. He was my comfort, my rejoicing, and my
song all the day. He made hard things become easy
to me, and reconciled me to my outward condition.
I went through my work cheerfully, and with in-
tegrity of heart; for he taught me to be honest and
just to all men, and to observe the injunction, to do
as I would be done by. Thus, having the Lord, my
greatest good, before mine eyes always, when I turn-
ed to the right hand or to the left, behold I saw him,
and his presence was with me in an admirable man-
ner, insomuch that the time of my servitude went on
without my thinking much about it, and I served it
out with honour and reputation.
But I did not stay one day after I was free from
my apprenticeship; for, having some time before fix-
ed in my mind that I would go and get insight or
acquaintance with the milling business, I according-
ly went to Samuel Levis, a miller, at Springfield, and
agreed to stay with him for one year. I was to find
myself in clothes, and when I worked out of the mill,
he was to give me wages. The milling business
seemed to come naturally to me, and I improved fast
in a knowledge of it; so that when my year was up,
I went and hired for chief miller at a mill on Wes-
sahickoii creek, about eiglit miles from Pliiladclphia.
During the last two years, 1 had attended Friends'
meetings constantly on first-days. I was often deep-
ly thoughtful, and cried to the Most High for pre-
servation. I had not much thought about joining
Friends, and knew nothing of the order of society;
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but was fully satisfied with their manner of worship.
I remembered what was said by the son and sent of
the Father, that God was a Spirit, and they that wor-
shipped him aright, must do it in spirit and in truth; —
also that he was seeking such worshippers, and where
they were thus met and gathered into his name, he
was in the midst of them. Oh! what an excellency
appeared in the order, to be waiting on God in the
silence of all flesh, — truly and humbly waiting upon
the alone Object of adoration and worship! Oh! what
refreshing; seasons I have witnessed, when there has
not been a word spoken. Here, I was clearly shown
that many had come to the experience of the apostle,
when he said, " We are of the circumcision that wor-
ship God in the spirit, rejoicing in Christ Jesus, and
have no confidence in the flesh." glorious day
indeed ! having the Lord, most high, for their teacher,
as he had spoken by the mouth of his inspired pro-
phet, that he would teach his people himself, and
that they need not say, one to another, Know the
Lord; " for," said he, " they shall all know me, from
the least of them unto the greatest of them." This
I saw clearly to be the case, and my soul rejoiced
greatly and thanked the God of heaven for so great
a favour, bestowed on me a poor, unworthy creature.
Not intending to write a minute history of my
life, I only mean to give a touch here and there of
my coming along in a religious line, for my own
satisfaction. If my dear children should outlive me
and take good ways, it may also be satisfactory to
them to look over these minutes of their father's
journey through life.
It was in the 11th month, in the year 1772, that I
first appeared in the work of the ministry, whilst I
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lived at the last mentioned place on Wessahickon.
I was in Philadelphia on a first-day, but had neglect-
ed going to meeting in the morning. Having re-
ceived a letter from an intimate acquaintance, I took
the morning to answer it, and intended going out ol
town in the afternoon. But being detained longer
than I expected or intended, by reason of a very
heavy gust and shower, I did not leave the city till
afternoon meeting broke up, and felt dissatisfied with
myself for missing both meetings; a thing that I had
not lately done before. However, in company with
a young man, I set out, and walked smartly on the
way homewards, until 1 felt a stop in my mind, and
great weight came over my .spirit: but I kept going
on, and said nothing to my companion for a good
while. By the time we got out of town, I believe
the young man perceived that something was the
matter witli mc, for I was shut up from conversa-
tion; and, being under great exercise and perturba-
tion of mind, this language arose in me. Return to
the city. I could not tell for what; but the more I
strove to j)ut it by and go forward, the heavier it
grew. At last, seeing no other way to have peace,
I saiil, I believe I must go back to the city: which
the young man soon agreed to, as he lived there.
Accordingly, we turned back, and when we got into
town, being in Second street, 1 found Friends were
going to evening meeting; which I had not thought
of till then. So I concluded I wouhl also go to the
meeting, and did so; but had not the least thought
of having any thing to say, till the meeting was ga-
thered. 'I'lien 1 felt the power of God to be upon me
in such a manner as I had never felt it before. I
trembled exceedingly, though I strove against it; bui
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all to no purpose. Now was the time of proving, —
now the full time was come. I thought, if I had been
at a little meeting in the country, it would not have
been so hard to deliver what appeared to be my duty
at that time, which was on this wise: Obedience is
required of thee, man, — obedience to the law of
thy God. This arose with great clearness, and some
more which I do not distinctly remember. But alas!
for me: I could not think of speaking in so great a
gathering of people; and then it occurred to my mind
that I vi^as not a proper member. So that I did ab-
solutely refuse, and was going to get up and go out
of meeting; but I durst not, there was such a great
dread over me. 1 therefore kept my seat; though I
could see no way to have peace but by expressing,
what was on my mind, and this was like death to
me at that time. Through my strugglings and striv-
ings against it, I was thrown into great disorder and
distress of mind. Horror and darkness came over
me, accompanied with this language: The fountain
shall be sealed, and thou shall draw no more living
waters therefrom. This was spoken as clear and as
plain to my spiritual senses, as it could have been to
my outward ear; and it was alarming to me. I had
not met with any thing more awakening. I then, and
not before, gave up, and resigned all up, saying, Here
am I, Lord, do with me what thou pleasest. Give
me strength, I pray thee, to do the thing thou re-
quirest of me. My will being thus given up, I felt
the returns of his presence and power, and with great
clearness and an audible voice, I delivered what was
before me, as already mentioned. But Oh! my pen
is not able to set forth the awful, solemn quiet, — the
calm, serene, sweet state of mind that I enjoyed for
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many days; so that it seemed as if 1 had got into an-
other world.
I returned early in the morning to Wessahickon;
and my year being up soon after, I left the place
where I had been hired, not being easy to stay there
any longer, and came to Philadelphia. Some Friends
there took notice of me, and understanding how I was
circumstanced, were thoughtful about me. Several
proposals of business were made, but way did not
open to close in with any of them; until Susanna
Lightfoot, who was then in the city, mentioned that
she had heard her brother William Lightfoot say he
wanted a miller. This information was brought me
by two men Friends, who also told me that if I was
free to go, some Friends wished to see me. Feeling
a perfect freedom to accept this proposal, I went
along with the messengers, and found divers Friends
met together at John Morris's; Susanna Lightfoot
and her husband were two of the number. This was
the first time I ever saw Susanna to know her, and
also the first time that ever I had been reached by
any body's preaching: but now I was much broken
under what she had to say to mc.
After this, I set forward for Pikeland in Chester
county, and reached there in lo.ss than two days. I
soon agreed with William Lightfoot to tend his mill,
and continued with liim about three years and a half.
In tlu! summer of the first year I was there (1773) I
made application, and was received into membership
with Friends at Uwchlan monthly meeting. I stay-
ed with William until I was married to Susanna Hat-
ton, daughter of Susanna Lightfobt, in the Oth month,
177«). 1 then went to live with Thomas Lightfoot,
my wife's step-father, and worked on his farm some-
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what more than one year. In the spring, 1778, we
went to farming upon part of his plantation, at which
we continued for upwards of two years.
I should have noted, that about the time that I was
thinking of taking a wife, and had made some move
towards it, Friends were about recommending me as
a minister: but they concluded it was best to let one
matter be gone through with first. They therefore
put off recommending me till after I was married,
and then I was regularly acknowledged by Uwchlan
monthly meeting as a minister approved by Friends.
In the year 1780, having rented a grist-mill of
Thomas Newlin, near Concord meeting-house, we
removed thither from Pikeland, and resided there
about three years or more. During this time, with
the unity of Concord monthly meeting, I made seve-
ral relisiious visits to Friends. Twice I travelled
into Virginia in the service of Truth; the first time,
having Richard Ridgway for a companion, I visited
all the meetings belonging to Hopewell monthly
meeting, and went over the Alleghany mountains to
see the few Friends who resided there. In this jour-
ney I was from home about seven or eight weeks.
Having Joseph Townsend, a Friend of Concord
monthly meeting to accompany me in my second
journey to Virginia, I visited the families belonging
to Hopewell monthly meeting, before it was divided.
Richard Ridgway also accompanied us in this ardu-
ous service, and I was about seven weeks from home,
in performing it."
It does not appear that Hugh Judge kept any writ-
ten account of these two visits. Among his papers,
however, is found a narrative kept by his companion
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Joseph Townsend, of a considerable part of his second
journey to Virginia, while engaged in visiting fami-
lies. As this is preceded by a particular account of
the rise and progress of a family visit to the members
of Concord monthly meeting, in which Hugh Judge
and himself were both engaged, it is thought proper
to insert it here, with but little abridgment. This
is done to preserve a histor}' of the care, the travailj
and the concern of society for the preservation, en-
couragement, and welfare of its members, at that pe-
riod. To the promotion of these objects, the visiting
of Friends in tlieir families was then thought to con-
tribute much, through the blessing of the heavenly
Shepherd, on the labours of love, the christian sym-
pathy and wholesome counsel thus administered. —
The names of the families visited are retained, with
a hope that some profitable reflections may be asso-
ciated therewith, in tlic minds of some of their de-
scendants, or among the few Friends who may re-
main in those places, at the present day, should this
account fall into their hands.
Joseph Townseiid^s Narrative.
" At Concord monthly meeting, held the 3rd day
of the 1st month, 1781.
The ancient j)ractice of visiting families, as reconi-
mended by the Extracts from our last Yearly Meet-
ing, being wcighlily revived at this, the solid con-
sideration thereof is referred to next meeting.
At the monthly meeting, held at Concord the 7th
of 2d montii, the weighty subject of visiting families
being again revived, was solidly attended to, but the
way not opening, at present, to proceed further there-
JOSEPH TOWNSEND's NARRATIVE. 13
in, it is deferred for another month's weighty con-
sideration.
The 7th of the 3d month. The weighty suhject of
visiting Friends' families, coming again under the
close and solid consideration of the meeting, it was
favoured to appoint Hugh Judge, Samuel Trimble,
Joseph Townsend, James Gibbons, and George Mar-
tin,who were requested to unite with women Friends,
and proceed on that weighty service as the pointings
of best wisdom shall direct; and make report of the
same when they may find their way open therefor.
But the way not then opening for women Friends
to go into a nomination, the matter lay under con-
sideration until the 5th of the ensuing 12th month;
when the following named Friends were appointed
by the women's meeting, to wit: Edith Sharpless,
Deborah Gibbons, Abigail Williamson, Margaret
Brinton, Sarah Talbot, and Rachel Townsend; who
with men Friends concluded to meet at Concord that
day week. At which time Friends met (except two)
and after a time of close searching of heart, and solid
deliberation on the subject, it was proposed to meet
again the fourth-day following, and the two who
were absent to be informed thereof.
The time proposed being the 19th of the 12th mo.
1781, Friends again collected; and after solidly con-
ferring together on the subject, it was thought best
for those who saw their way clear to engage in the
service, to meet at Chichester meeting, on the next
first-day. Accordingly, the following named Friends,
viz: Hugh Judge, George Martin and Joseph Town-
send, Deborah Gibbons, Sarah Talbot and Rachel
Townsend met as proposed at Chichester meeting,
where they had also the company of Samuel Smith
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of Philadelphia. He and Hugh Judge were both fa-
voured in an eminent manner to speak to divei's
states present; also to set forth, in striking language.
the uncertainty of our stay in this perishing world,
and the necessity of being in readiness for that final
change which was hastening on us all. The meet-
ing then concluded in solemn supplication. In the
afternoon, we sat with the families of John Smith
and William Lamplien.
12th mo. 24th. Second-day morning, Friends col-
lected at Francis Townsend's, where Abigail Wil-
liamson met with them, and they proceeded to visit
the families of Nathan Pennell, Jacob and Charles
Dingee's, John Buckly, Deborah Sumption, and Ben-
jamin Reynolds. Next day, visited the families of
Joseph Smith, Prudence Ford, Nathaniel Squibb,
John Rhoads, and Francis Townsend. 26th. Had
opportunities in the following Friends' families:
Robert Booth, William Eyre, John Eyre, William
Booth, Samuel Carpenter, Prudence Shelly, and Ed-
ward Grissle.
27th, and fifth of the week. Rachel Townsend
being unwell, the resl proceeded in visiting the fam-
ilies of John Talbot and George ^Martin; then attend-
ed meeting at Chichester. In the afternoon, had re-
ligious opportunities with Richard Dutlon's and Jo-
nathan Richards' families. Thence George Martin
and Sarah Tall)ot returned home, and the rest had a
solid season with Hannah Button and her family, in
the evening. Lodged there, and next morning had
a sitting with Jacob Hibbcrt and Uis family, where
G. Martin and S. Talbot again met ^s. Thence we
went to Hannah Rigby's, Patience McClaskey^s, and
Thomas Wilson's, where John Eyre joined us, and
OF A FAMILY VISIT. 15
went in company to visit the families of Isaac Pen-
nell, Joseph Brown, and Joseph Askew.
The service now appearing to be generally gone
through in this branch of the monthly meeting, we
went home with John Eyre in the evening. As we
had been favoured to unite in a harmonious labour
for the discharge of religious duty, and the promo-
tion of Truth and righteousness from place to place,
through the course of this visit thus far, and now
being likely to separate for some time, our minds
were humbled, and drawn into solemn silence to-
gether. Under a thankful sense of Divine favour,
earnest desires were raised, and awful supplication
to Him who had been our support in every trial, that
we might be preserved in that love which we had so
evidently experienced while together in this service.
27th. Hugh Judge and Deborah Gibbons returned
home; but we, apprehending a visit to the school at
Chichester might be profitable, attended thereto, and
it was a time of favour. Friends then having in a
good degree discharged their duty so far, appeared
to feel released so as to return to their several hab- .
itations.
The committee having proposed to meet at the
time of our monthly meeting at Concord held the
9th of the 1st month, 17S2, to deliberate on the fur-
ther prosecution of the object of their appointment; —
toward the close of said meeting, Hugh Judge opened
a prospect which had for a considerable time attend-
ed his mind of paying a visit to the members of
Hopewell montlvly meeting, in Virginia, and some
other meetings thereaway. His concern being united
with, the following Minute was made.
" Our friend, Hugh Judge, laid before this meet-
16 JOSEPH tovvnsend's narrative
ing a religious concern to pay a visit to most, or all
Friends' fiimilics within the compass of Hopewell
monthl}'' meeting in Virginia, with some meetings
on his journey. Which having engaged our solid at-
tention, we unite with iiini therein; — he being a min-
ister in good esteem amongst us, who much desire
his preservation in the Truth, and safe return with
the reward of peace."
Hugh Jud<2;e left home in order to cngaoie in this
visit, on the 29th of the 1st month, 17S2, and came
to my house that evening; in the course of which,
he proposed my accompanying him in the journey.
After some deliberation on the subject, I felt willing
to engage with him in the concern, and next day
about noon we set out, the weather being very cold,
and reached Isaac Taylor's near the Gap tavern. —
Next day, we crossed .Susquehanna on \he ice, and
reached York-town: lodged at Eli.sha Kirk's; and
on the 1st of 2d mo. wc proceeded to the mountain,
which was said to be ten miles over. We ascended
at a place called Nicholson's gap, and passed the
night on the mountain at a place where the people
did not seem prepared to accommodate travellers.
This, with the severity of the cold weather, was
very trying to us. Next day we crossed the river
Potowmac, and lodged at Edward lieeson's, in the
edge of Virginia; and on first-day attended the meet-
ing of Friends at Middle Creek; from thence we
reached Richard Ridgway's in the evening.
2d mo. 4th. We sat with Friends at their month-
ly meeting at Hopcvvt'li. It waa large and measur-
ably owned by the Divine presence; and my com-
panion, Hugh Judge, having laid his minute before
the meeting, Friends united with him in his concern,
OP HUGH judge's TRAVELS. 17
and appointed Richard Ridgway to accompany us in
performing the same. There was likewise a woman
Friend at this meeting, with a minute from Fairfax
monthly meeting, under something of the like con-
cern. The meeting also appointed a number of
Friends to engage with her, as way might open. —
At the close of the meeting, we all conferred to-
gether, and two of the women Friends appeared dis-
posed to go with our company to Smith's creek,
about fifty-five miles distant from Hopewell. We ac-
cordingly set out next morning, and lodged the first
night at David Brown's; where we m.et with several
Friends from York county, on a committee of the
Quarterly meeting, who were going to the same place,
and whose company was truly acceptable. Next day,
we came to a place called Stover's-tovvn, or Strasburg,
mostly settled by Dutch people of different denomi*
nations; and the minds of some Friends being turned
towards the inhabitants of that place, a public meet-
ing among them was proposed to be held that after-
noon. This being approved, and notice given, great
numbers assembled, and the opportunity was a time
of favour, though laborious; I trust, however, that it
will not be easily forgotten by a remnant. That
evening, we arrived at Joseph Allen's within the
verge of Smith's creek meeting.
7th. Tjiis morning, being five in number, we en-
tered upon the arduous work for which we had left
our several habitations, and sat with the family of
Fldward Bond: then attended their week-day meet-
ing, and went home with Jacob Rambo, eight miles.
After a religious opportunity with his family, we
went twelve miles, most of the way through unin-
habited pine woods, to Solomon Mathews' at Lin-
2^
18 JOSEPH townsend's narrative
veil's creek. Next morning it was thought best that
a public meeting should be held at that place, which
was appointed to be held at two o'clock in the after-
noon, and notice given to the neighbours. In the
mean time we rode six miles to Townsend Mathews',
who lived in a remote place, and had an instructive
time in his family: then returned and attended the
appointed meeting, at which numbers of other socie-
ties were present. It was a solid and instructive
opportunity, in which much labour was bestowed in
6rder that a reformation might take place among
them. In the evenino; we rode ten miles towards
Smith's creek, and had a sitting in John Moore's
family, where we lodged. The day following, we
visited the families of Thomas Embree, Thomas
Moore, Sarah Hawkens, Griffith Dawbin, Joseph
Mathan}^, and Lydia Allen.
10th of the month, and first of the week, we visit-
ed Isaac Smith's and Joseph Allen's families in the
morning; then attended Smith's creek mecting,which
was large, numbers being present of other societies,
amongst whom the everlasting gospel was freely de-
clared, in order to stir up the careless professors of
Christianity. We went home with Jackson Allen,
and in the afternoon had a solid season in his family.
Tbis appeared to be the last family of the members
of that branch of the montlily meeting; and' on con-
ferring together, the Friends of ihe other committee
who liad joined us, not seeing their way clear to pro-
ceed further with us, proposed returning to Hope-
well; and we, intending for Stafford, ninety miles ^
distant from this placb, set out early next morning;
and crossing the South mountain, came to Jacob Fal-
lis's, twenty-seven miles. We had an opportunity
OF HUGH judge's TRAVELS. 19
with his family, and proposed having a public meet-
ing, to be held next day at Jeremiah McCoy's, on
the south branch of the river Shenandoah, near the
Three-topp'd mountain, so called, and quite out of
the settlement of Friends, Several persons being
employed in giving the necessary information, we
went on to J. McCoy's and lodged there. Next
morning, numbers collected at the meeting; it was a
closely exercising time, and held more than an hour
in silence, occasioned as we thought by the great stu-
pidity and rawness among them, manifested by their
restless disposition. At length authority was given,
with great clearness, to show the necessity of true
humility, and the advantage of \yaiting upon God in
solemn, awful silence, in order to be qualified to wor-
ship him acceptably; and also showing the difference
there was between christians of the letter and chris-
tians of the spirit; likewise distinguishing the true
ministers of Christ from those who preach for hire.
After which, my dear friend Hugh Judge was led in
a remarkable manner to treat plainly on what had
appeared to him (during the painful feelings he had
suffered among them) to be their situation,'in regard
to a spirit of strife, envying;, discord, and evil speak-
ing one of another, which prevailed in the neigh-
bourhood.
Soon after the meeting ended, we got on our horses
and left the place, without entering into much con-
versation. In the afternoon we set out to cross those
mountains called the Blue Ridge, which were ex-
ceedingly difficult, as we had no pilot, and onl}' a
narrow path that in many places winding among
rocks was scarcely to be discovered, by reason of its
being grown up with bushes, and interrupted by
20 JOSEPH townsend's narrative
abundance of trees lying across it, together with the
roughness of the rocks and stones, and the cavities
between them; all these, with the steepness of the
hills, made it seem dangerous. In this day's travel,
was brought fresh to my remembrance the experience
and observations of John Woolman, when placed in
somewhat similar circumstances; and had to believe
with him, that those who have never seen such places,
have but an imperfect idea of them. But we were
preserved in safety (though late at night before we
got over, and the weather very cold) " through the
kindness of Him whose works in these mountainous
deserts appeared awful," towards whom our hearts
were turned, I trust as his was, during this day's
travel.
Having arrived on the other side, we had several
streams of water to cross, being the upper branches
of the river Rappahannock, through which we had
no fording place, and the night being dark and cold,
we got considerably wet and our garments much fro-
zen about us. These things increased the unpleasant-
ness of our situation; but through mercy we were
enabled to reach John Garwood's before midnigbt,
where we were kindly entertained. We were now
within the verge of Culpepper meeting, and conclu-
ded to have a public meeting at the meeting-house
at two o'clock in the afternoon. It was accordingly
held, numbers of the inhabitants of other persuasions
being present (for there were hut two families 6f
Friends who kept up tliat meeting) but the oppor-
tunity proved to be a distressing time to our minds.
We afterwards had a sitting in the family of John
Garwood; anti next morning proceeded thirty miles
to a place called Mount Pony, where we had a re-
OP HUGH judge's TRAVELS. 2\
ligious opportunity with Jonathan Bishop and his
family; and in the evening reached John Strode's.
On the 15th of the 2d month, we arrived at Pop-
lar Quarter, in Stafford, and visited the families of
William Wright, Robert Painter, John Paxson, and
Daniel Antrim. Next day, we had opportunities with
the families of George Shinn, John Holloway, Wil-
liam Branson, Isaac Holloway, Isaac Green, Thomas
James, Esau Holloway, and John Green. The 17th,
being first-day, vi^e attended Stafford meeting; which
was said to be much larger than usual, many of other
societies attending: but it was a time of sorrow and
close exercise to us, from a sense of the great oppres-
sion of our fellow creatures, held in bondage among
them. The meeting concluded in solemn supplica-
tion, and upon the whole was believed to be a favour-
ed time.
Under a belief that it would be profitable to have
an opportunity with the members selected by them-
selves, a meeting for them was proposed at three
o'clock in the afternoon; at which time they gene-
rally attended with their families. It was an open,
favoured opportunity, and I believe was to general
edification and comfort: my companion being con-
cerned to labour amongst them, in gospel love, for
their preservation in the Truth, particularly the be-
loved youth. After meeting, they took leave of us
in an affectionate manner; and Hugh Judge appre-
hending himself not fully clear without returning to
see a family we had visited the day before, we attend-
ed thereto, and had a precious season that I hope
will have a good effect. In the evening we sat with
the family of George and John Fallis, which com-
pleted the service in this quarter.
22 JOSEPH TOWNSEND S NARRATIVE
Next morning we set out for Crooked Run, and
arrived there the 19lh. In the afternoon we visited
the families of Hobert Hanna, Andrew McCoy, and
Jacob INIcCoy. 20th. In the morning, sat with the
families of Thomas Fossit and his mother, Caleb An-
trim and Isaac and Hannah Painter. Then attended
their week-day meeting at Crooked Run, which was
an edifying season. In the afternoon, had opportuni-
ties in the families of John Haines, Levi Haines,
Joseph Haines, John Smith, Jesse Holloway and
Thomas Farnley; also proposed a public meeting to
be held at the meeting-house at two o'clock to-mor-
row afternoon, and general notice to be spread thro'
the neighbourhood. 21st. We visited the families
of Eunice Walton, Robert Haines, James Swayne,
Aaron Gregg, Robert Ray, Anthony JNIoore and John
Painter. Then attended our appointed meeting,
which was large, and in a good degree quiet. Under
the influence of the Divine presence, the testimony
and doctrine of Truth flowed freely to the people; in
an humble sense of which, praises ascended to his
holy Name. In the evening we had a sitting with
the family of Margery Ellis. Next morning we rode
a considerable distance and visited the family ofThos.
McClun, which was the last of the members of that
meeting.
We then proceeded to Mount Pleasant, and on the
way had a solid opportunity at David Pancus's, who
lived at Zane's iron works, where we had tiic com-
pany of Isaac Z:m(' jun'r, and Charles Logan, the
latter from Philadelphia. We spent a short time
there, in viewing the wonderful works of Providence,
and likewise the works of men: after which we vis-
ited the families of Josepii Rakeslravv,Thomas Wood,
OF HUGH judge's TRAVELS. 23
John Antrim, Andrew Longncre, John Brock, John
Fossitt, George Read, and Jolm Fossitt jun'r. 23d.
We visited the families of Jonathan Lupton, Richard
Fossitt and Richard Fossitt jun'r; then attended a
public meeting we had appointed, at Mount Pleasant
meeting-house. After which, we went home with
Nathan Pusey and had a sitting in his famil}': thence
to Jolin Lupton's, within the limits of Centre meet-
ing, and had an exercising oj)portunity in his family.
The next day, being first-day, in the morning we sat
with the families of Joshua Woodrow and Isaac Steer;
then attended Centre meeting which was held in si-
lence.
A consideration of leaving my companion and re-
turning home in order to attend our ensuing month-
ly meeting at Concord, having been divers times for
several days past weightily before me, I now found
it best for me to give up thereto, though much in the
cross to my own inclination. After the meeting at
Centre, being at a Friend's house, I laid my prospect
before Hugh Judge, for his advice and sympathy. —
And although it was a matter very unexpected to
him, vet he submitted thereto; and that evenina: we
parted in great nearness of affection, which had been
our daily experience from the time we left home.
A solitary condition seemed now to be my lot,
with a long and tiresome journey before me; and as
I went on I had often to ruminate upon what Jiad
passed, and also to examine whether my conduct
generally had been consistent with the profession
and appearance I had made. I returned by way of
Fairfax, Pipe Creek and Warrington, and reached
Concord monthly meeting in good season. I found
that the visiting committee whom we had left there,
24 JOURNAL OP HUGH JUDGE.
had made considerable progress in the family visits
during my absence; having visited the families of
Birmingham preparative meeting generally and some
part of those of Concord. The remainder, it was
concluded to leave until Hugh Judge's return, which
was near the middle of the 3rd month. Then we
finished the remaining families of Concord monthly
meeting; and in a general conference of the commit-
tee on the subject, it appeared safe to report to the
meeting, that the visit was performed to general
satisfaction."
In a memorandum found among Hugh Judge's pa-
pers, immediately following a reference to his visit
to the families of Hopewell monthly meeting, he
says, " I also, in company with Isaac Jacobs, visited
Friends in Bucks county. We were at their Quar-
terly and monthly meetings; and also at Crosswicks
Quarter in New Jersey; being out from home better
than two weeks."
"After this, in company with divers other Friends,
I attended a general meeting at Cecil, in Maryland;
and the week following was at the monthly meeting
held at Little Creek, in Delaware. I also was at di-
vers meetings round that neighbourhood, not need-
ful to be mentioned; as my main end in writing is
to let my children and others see a little how I have
got along in my religious concerns. Tliis, I think
I have felt it right for mc to do, whether I shall ever
put it in better order to be read, or not."
By Ihc minutes of Wilmington monthly meeting
it appears tbat on llic IMh of the Sib month, 1783,
Hugh Judge attended with a certificate of removal
JOURNAL OP HUGH JUDGE. 25
from Concord monthly meeting, recommending him
as a minister well approved, with Susanna his wife
and their four minor children. Hugh had previous-
ly rented a mill on the Brandy wine creek, near which
he resided with his family, and diligently attended
Wilmington meeting. But his health was on the
decline, so that in the 6th month, 1784, he informed
the monthly meeting he had a prospect of going to
Nantucket on account of his weak state of health,
and that if he should recover and gain strength, he
had a prospect of visiting some meetings thereaway.
Joseph Tatnall proposed to accompany him, and
they were set at liberty by their friends to pursue
the prospect. Of this journey he wrote the follow-
ing narrative:
" Having been in but a poor state of health for
some months past, it was thought best, with the ad-
vice and consent of my friends, to try what a little
relaxation from business would do towards restoring
me again. For this purpose, a voyage to Nantucket
was proposed, and Friends gave me a certificate of
concurrence, in case I should feel my mind drawn
to visit some meetings; though I desire not to put
forth a hand to so great a work until the full time
of ripeness comes. My wife gave me up cheerfully,
and we left home the 23rd of the 6th month, 1784.
We went on board the brig Manilla, bound for Bos-
ton, captain Starbuck, commander, and my health
soon began to improve; so that Instead of wanting a
nurse, I had to be nurse to the friend who went as
my companion; he being very poorly most of the
way, with something like an ague.
On the 29th, in the evening, I landed on Nantuc-
ket, leaving Joseph on board the brig till next day.
3
26 JOURNAL OP HUGH JUDGE. 1784
The water was very rough, but I was tired of the
ship; so with the captain and several of the passen-
gers I went on shore, though not without getting
wet with the spray occasioned by the dashing of the
water against the boat. On landing, I met with
Samuel Hopkins and Phineas Buckley, and we were
truly glad to see each other. We were very kindly
entertained at the house of William Rotch, and on
the 30th, attended their meeting to satisfaction. We
stayed about two weeks on the island, and were at a
number of meetings; then crossed over to New Bed-
ford, and spent six days about that neighbourhood.
Thence to Newport, on Rhode Island, where we
made a short stay and attended two meetings. A
stage boat being ready to sail, bound for New York,
we agreed to go on board, and had a pleasant passage
of about thirty-four hours sail. We landed in New
York on seventh-day, and on third-day morning fol-
lowing, took the land stage from Rahway, and reach-
ed our homes on fifth-day morning in time for attend-
ing meeting. I was five weeks from home, and tra-
velled by land and water about one thousand miles,
and my health appeared much improved by the jour-
ney. After my return, we moved into our own house
to live. It was but a small, yet convenient and good
habitation; not grand, but plain and becoming my
station."
During the voyage to Nantucket, Hugh Judge
wrote several letters, from which the t'ollowing is
extracted :
l)n hoard ihe Manilla, iith mo. 1784.
Dearly beloved brother, Edward Hatton, — I left
my family well, except our youngest child, which
has been poorly for some time; so that I have been
JOURNAL OF HUGH JUDGE. 37
thoughtful whether I shall ever see it again. But
let that be as it pleases Divine Providence, I feel per-
fectly easy in mind, fully believing that if it should
please Him who gives life to take it from us, it can-
not go in a better time than infancy. I am therefore
at times made willing to resign all into his holy hand,
in the renewals of whose love, I salute thee, with de-
sires that we may so walk in true obedience to him,
as to be counted worthy of his protection and accep-
tance when this mortal must put on immortality, and
death be swallowed up of life. Surely they only are
wise, who are found watching when their Lord Com-
eth, and in faithfulness are discharging the duty of
wise stewards, according to the measure of grace re-
ceived. It is these that will be entitled to the invi-
tation, " Come, ye blessed of my Father, — ye have
been faithful in a few things, I will make you rulers
over more." Here is encouragement, diligently to
observe his pointings and faithfully to obey his com-
mands; and not like some of old who were pleading
excuses when bidden to the wedding. Yet I know
it is sometimes hard getting over this kind of fleshly
reasoning; but those who give way thereto and get
into a doubtful or unbelieving state, will not grow in
the Truth, nor arrive at a full stature in Christ.
In the spiritual voyage, there are so many shoals
and bars and rocks, lying so far out from the shore
and so hidden, that it requires great judgment and
watchful care to steer clear of them all. Ag-ain, some-
times by crowding too much sail, there is damage
sustained; and at other times, by reefing sail, there
is time lost. Yet, notwithstanding doubts and fears
and dangers surround, there is that felt and known
;vt seasons which is over all, even the power of God,
28 JOURNAL OP HUGH JUDGE. 1784
that gives victory over all changeable things, and
makes the weak strong, to the confounding of the
wise and prudent of this world, who cannot under-
stand the language of that pure, holy Spirit, which
speaks in the silence of all carnal reasoning. When
the true Shepherd puts forth his own sheep, he goes
before them, and his voice is intelligible to the wait-
ing, attentive mind; but the voice of a stranger they
will not follow.
I long to be of the number of those that are divest-
ed of all selfishness, both of flesh and spirit; who are
resigned to the Divine will in all things, and careful
not to go before, nor yet to loiter behind the true
Guide. The eyes of these being anointed with the
true eye-salve, they discover the adversary in all his
approaches and transformations, and are" enabled to
say, " Get thee behind me, satan, for thou savours
not the things that are of God."
Oh! how I desire to see that day more and more
come, when righteousness shall cover the earth, as
the waters cover the sea. I sometimes think, had
all those who profess the Truth been faithful to their
principles, it would have arisen more conspicuously
than now appears. Alas! too many who might have
shone as sons of the morning, througli unfaithfulness
and disobedience, have fallen as on mount Gilboa,
where there is neither dew nor rain, nor fields of
ofl'ering!
On hoard the Manilla, Glh vio. 29th, 1784.
Dearly beloved wife, — Through the riches and
goodness of Him whose mercies are over all his
works, I have been favoured since I left home, with
an increase of health; and have very often reniem-
JOURNAL OF HUGH JUDGE. 29
bered thee and the dear children. Both by day and
by night, waking and sleeping, my spirit has been
with you, in the bonds of natural as well as spiritual
affection. But, dear heart, thou knowest the Rock
of refuge, — thou knowest tlie pilgrim's pillar to lean
upon. Cleave to Him; for he will not leave thee
nor forsake thee: he will be a covert from every
storm, and a shelter from the heat. Hast thou not
known a feeding upon the dainties of his table? Then
was thy soul humbled and ready to say, Draw me, and
1 will run after thee.
But notwithstanding we are sometimes favoured,
through the goodness of God, to see the riches and
fatness of the promised land, yet, my dear, we must
not always expect to draw as from the breast, and be
dandled as on the knee. In our probationary state,
we meet with suffering seasons, and times of drought,
even to the calling in question of the favours we have
enjoyed. Neither need we marvel at these trials and
provings of our love, and of our steadfastness; for it is
the way in which the purifying power works for our
refinement. Therefore, look forward, and so walk as
we have Christ for an example; not regarding what
the accuser of the brethren shall say in times of weak-
ness and stripping; for then it is he comes in as a
flood as if to draw us back, or raise a spirit of mur-
muring in us. Oh! how I long to be more and more
redeemed from every thing that has a tendency to
eclipse the beauty and excellency of a life devoted
to a humble walking with Christ!
My dear love to all my children, friends and neigh-
bours. I remain thy affectionate husband,
Hugh Judge.
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In the 9th month, 1784, Hugh Judge produced
minutes from Nantucket and Dartmouth monthly
meetings, expressive of his gospel lahours among
them being satisfactory. In the monthly meeting
held in the 10th month, with the approbation of the
preparative meeting, he opened his prospect of a visit
to the Southern provinces. The minute made on the
occasion shows the care and deliberation of Friends,
in so weighty a concern, and says " sympathy and
concurrence were expressed," and a committee " ap-
pointed to inquire whether any thing is likely to
obstruct his having a certificate, and prepare one ac-
cordingly." At the ensuing monthly meeting, a cer-
tificate was produced by the committee, and adopted:
it being as follows:
From our monthly meeting in Wilmington, New-
castle county on Delaware, held the 10th of the 11th
month, 1784,
To our friends and brethren in the Southei'n
governments.
Dear friends, — Our beloved friend, Hugh Judge,
informed us that he has had drawings on his mind,
at times, for several years past, to pay you a religious
visit in gospel love; now these may certify that he
is a Friend in unity whom we esteem. His public
appearances in the ministry among us are sound,
lively and edifying; — his conduct and conversation
corresponding with our christian profession. We,
therefore, concurring with his concern, recommend
him to the guidance and direction of best Wisdom
and to your christian regard, with desires for his pre-
servation in the way of Truth and righteousness, and
subscribe ourselves your afiectionate friends.
JOURNAL OP HUGH JUDGE. 31
Signed in and on behalf of our meeting aforesaid,
by John Perry, Daniel Byrnes, Zechariah Ferris,
Griffith Minshall, Vincent Bonsall, Thomas Shipley,
James Gibbons, Joseph West, Benjamin Mendcnhall,
Caleb Seal, Thomas Wollaston, William Canby, Ja-
cob Starr, Joseph Chambers, Joseph Tatnall, Ephraim
Yarnall, Samuel Canby, James Marshall, John Yar-
nall, Philip Jones, William Starr, Gerrard Blackford,
Joseph Shipley, Isaac Starr, John Phillips, Gerrard
Blackford jun'r, Robert Phillips, John Serrill, James
Andrews, Peter Cook, John Kendall, Abraham Bon-
sall, John White, John Martin, John Levvden, Wil-
liam Byrnes, Cyrus Newlln, John Milner, Ambrose
Taylor, James Harlan, Abraham Reynolds, Edward
Hewes, Daniel Britt.
Susanna Judge, Hannah West, Ann Harlan, Han-
nah Mendenhall, Edith Ferris, Rebekah Shipley, Jane
Starr, Mary Canby, Elizabeth Tatnall, Sarah Richard-
son and Rebekah Wood.
On the 24th of the 11th month, I left home in
company with James Marshall, William Canby and
Samuel Canby, and next day attended Uwchlan meet-
ing; dined with brother Robert Hatton and wife and
stayed till next morning; when, after a time of Di-
vine favour in a religious opportunity, in which all
present were broken into tears, we went to C. Jones's
in company with brother Robert. After dining there
we had a season of retirement, wherein Divine good-
ness was pleased to favour with his heart-humbling
power, to our solid comfort and satisfaction; after
which my dear friends of Wilmington parted with
me in much love and great tenderness, the like I had
never before known, — our souls and spirits being
united together in dear love. In the afternoon, C.
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Jones went with us to see Robert Valentine. Next
day, my companion, Isaac Jacobs, being ready, after
a solemn opportunity in his family, in which brother
Robert appeared to the tendering of many minds, we
went on to Susquehanna, but could not get across
that night. In the morning, 2Sth, we got to York-
town meeting in good season. Here we met with
Ann Jessop on her way to Philadelphia. It was a
low time with me in both fore and afternoon meet-
in 2;s.
On third-day, the 30th, we got to Pipe Creek, and
attended their meeting next day; then went, in com-
pany with Ruth Kirk and William Farquhar and
wife, to Bush Creek. Lodged at Robert Miller's,
and attended their fifth-day meeting. Thence set
out for Fairfax; but in crossing Manoquasy creek,
the water was so high that we got wet. On seventh-
day, the 4th of 12th month, we had a comfortable
time at the select meeting at Fairfax; and the meet-
ing on first-day was large, but to me a suffering time.
Ruth Holland and Isaac Everit appeared in testi-
mony, but my companion and I were both silent. —
The Quarterly meeting on second-day was large and
to «yood satisfaction, in which Isaac Jacobs had a
short, lively testimony. The Extracts being forgot,
the meeting adjourned till next day, when it was a
favoured season; in which Truth rose into dominion,
and much tenderness appeared in the meeting; so
that the solid part of Friends were comforted to-
gether. Tlic extracts being read and considered,
Friends apjjoinied a solid committee to visit the
monthly meetings. We stayed their fourth-day
meeting, at which was a marriage. It was a large
gathering, and through Divine favour many hearts
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were much tendered. On fifth day, in company
with John Hough, Mahlon Janney and wife, we
were at Goose Creek meeting; it was also large and
to good satisfaction. Next day, we had an appoint-
ed meeting at South Fork, to which more people
came than the house would hold. Isaac had a very
open time in public testimony, and I believe the op-
portunity was profitable to many. Divine goodness
was pleased to own us, for which I desire to be
thankful, and to return him the praise who is forever
worthy. ' Often since I left home, as well as on the
present occasion, I have admired at the continued
regard of the all-wise Jehovah toward the children
of men.
11th. We set out for Crooked Run, and attended
meeting there next day; but it was a low, exercising
time till near the close, when life seemed to arise,
and it ended to satisfaction. Went home with An-
drew McKoy, who had been with us for several
days. Next day, set out for Smith's Creek, forty
miles; Richard Ridgway, Thomas Fawcet and other
Friends, accompanying us. 14tli had an appointed
meeting there, in which a marriage was accomplish-
ed that had been intended on the fifth-day following;
but at the request of several Friends the young peo-
ple consented to proceed at this meeting, and kind
Providence was pleased to favour us with a solid,
comfortable opportunity, many others being present.
The young people spoke feelingly, much to my sat-
isfaction, and all ended well. We lodged at Jackson
Allen's, and next day bent our course for the South
mountain, the foot of which we reached about sun-
set, and sought for lodging there; but both the place
and people were so very poor, we had to seek other
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quarters. After giving our horses a little that we
had with us, and eating a morsel ourselves, we set
off for the next stage, called the Swift Run Gap,
about six miles, having the mountain to cross. We
arrived there safely; but though it was a poor place,
it was much better than the former, for we got a
tolerably good bed, and corn-blades for our horses:
but they had no bread, milk, cheese nor butter for
us. I asked whether we could have some water
boiled, which they did in a large kettle, for they
were entire strangers to tea and tea-tackling, having
nothing of the kind. However, getting some hot
water, I made some tea in a quart mug; and, having
tea and sugar, as well as bread and meat with us, we
fared pretty well on our own.
16th. Set out before sunrise, and called at several
places before we could get any breakfast, or any
thing for our horses to eat. At length we obtained
some corn-blades for them, and a broken kettle to
boil water for ourselves a breakfast. So sorrowfully
poor is the situation and condition of many of the
inhabitants of old Virginia, that travellers are hard-
ly beset to get a little refreshment; yet they abound
with negroes, and their land in many places is al-
most worn out; so that it keeps them bare and busy
in order to get a little for themselves to live on; and
if this is the case with them that come in first for
what is raised, how must we suppose the poor slaves
fare? They are indeed to be pitied, — many of them
being almost naked: so that my heart has been filled
with sorrow as I rode along, in beholding the situa-
tion of tbn poor blacks. In the afternoon we reach-
ed Kli/.abctli Hastings'; and on the I7th, had a meet-
ing at their meeting house, called Douglass's, to which
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there came about seventeen persons. My dear com-
panion was favoured to open to them the necessity
of experiencing their hearts to be made clean by the
operation of the grace of God; and recommended
them to take heed to the light of Christ in them-
selves. Here we met with Robert Pleasants and a
committee of the Quarterly meeting, appointed to
visit the particular meetings belonging thereto: and
indeed there is great need of Friends' care; for it
appears that the meeting at this place is not kept up
to reputation. So great is the departure from our
christian profession, that my heart was pained to be-
hold the declension, so that such who ought to be
way-marks to others do not even keep to the plain
language. In the evening, we had a sitting in the
family, several of the neighbours being present, some
of whom were religiously disposed, and it proved a
satisfactory time; divers of them being broken into
tenderness, took leave of us affectionately. ISth, Be-
fore leaving the house where we lodged, I felt my
mind engaged to admonish the Friend to more watch-
fulness, which I hope may have a good effect, as it
produced a degree of tenderness and contrition. We
then parted under a sense of Divine favour, and rode
to Ashley Johnson's, at Camp Creek, about twenty
miles. Here were good quarters, both for man and
beast; and it afforded satisfaction to find some real
Friends, which I thought the man and his wife and
three children appeared to be. We attended their
meeting on first-day, and in the evening had a meet-
ing at our lodgings to good satisfaction.
20th After a parting opportunity with the fami-
ly, we set out for Genito, forty miles, and reached
Thomas Pleasants'. 22d. Had a meeting at Genito,
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and lodged at Samuel Pleasants, on the south side
of James' river. Then rode to Amelia, thirty-five
miles, and had an evening meeting there; but not
feeling clear, we had another next day. We then
rode fifteen miles and lodged at a man's house who
was not a member, but both he and his wife are seek-
ing for Truth, and we had a comfortable opportuni-
ty with them and their family. Next day, we rode
upwards of fifty miles to William Johnson's, where
we heard of our beloved friends, Edith Sharpless
and Sarah Talbot, who had been on a religious visit
to Friends in North Carolina, and were on their re-
turn homewards.
On first-day morning, the 26th, we set out early
and went about fourteen miles to see the above-
named Friends. Our meeting was to mutual satis-
faction; and as they had not heard from their fami-
lies since leaving them till now, I had letters for
them both, which were truly acceptable. We at-
tended meeting with them, in which our dear friend
Edith Sharpless was led largely to speak of the way
of life and salvation. We also had a sitting with
them in the family where we lodged. Second-day,
the 27th, we spent in their company and in writing
to our families; as the young man who came with
the women was about to return, they expecting to
take the meetings generally in Virginia, and to at-
tend Warrington Quarterly meeting. After parting
with them, on the 28th, wc had a meeting at South
river, whicli was large and to good satisfaction; and
we were glad to find a number of Friends who ap-
peared to be livingly concerned for the honour of
Truth. Next day we had a meeting at Hill's Creek,
and the day following went to Bannister, where
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there are a few in membership with Friends, and
the monthly meeting of South river had some time
back indulged them with holding a meeting; but
through their negligence in attending it, Friends
grew uneasy, and appointed a committee who were
there at this time to inform them that Friends of
the monthly meeting thought best it should be laid
down. Indeed, I thought it was quite time; as they
seemed to have very much lost the Friend, if ever
they had any of it about them; for they did not so
much as keep to the plain language. In the even-
ing we had a free conference with them, in which
some profitable hints were dropped, pointing out
their great departure from our christian profession.
We left them and the committee together, and next
morning had an opportunity with the man in whose
house we had lodged, about his black people, of whom
he had eight. After considerable time spent with
him, he agreed to manumit seven of them, the other
one he declared he would not at this time; so we left
him and rode to Robert Paine's at Dan river, where
we lodged.
These meetings in Virginia were mostly low and
suffering seasons. Indeed, it is cause of mourning
and lamentation to beiiold the departure, in those
parts, from our christian profession; particularly on
remembering the accounts of the labours bestowed
by George Fox and many other eminent sons of the
morning, as well as others of later time. I was many
times ready to cry out with the prophet, saying, "The
ways of Zion do mourn, because none come to the
solemn feasts: all her gates are desolate: her priests
sigh; her virgins are afflicted, and she is in bitter-
ness."
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1st mo. 1st, 1785. We set out before day, and travel-
led fifty miles to Christopher Hiatt's,3nd the next day
we attended Newgarden meeting, in which I was si-
lent. On second-day we were at Deep river monthly
meeting, which was a suffering time inwardly and out-
wardly; there being a great storm of snow, the people
were very cold, the house open, and no conveniency
of having fire. Third-day, we were at Springfield,
and fourth-day, at Muddy Creek meeting. Things
carry a different appearance here to what they did in
Virginia. Here is a large body of Friends, many of
whom appear livingly concerned for the right order-
ing of things amongst them. After meeting, we went
home with a woman Friend, whose husband was not
a member, but very kind to Friends. We had some
friendly conversation with him concerning his hold-
ing a black man in bondage, and proposed to him to
set him free, his wife being very willing: but he dis-
covered an unwillingness to let him go free, and we
laboured with him till late bed-time. When we part-
ed I told him to think deeply of it till morning, when
I expected he would be willing to set him free. In
the morning, I desired Isaac Jacobs to write a manu-
mission, and soon after it was done, the man came in.
After a pause, it was proposed that he should sign
it, which he did, and had it witnessed bj^ several
Friends. lie then called in his coloured man, and
told him what he had done. So, sitting a little while
in stillness, we were comforted together under the
sensible feeling of the ownings of Truth.
On sixth-day, the 7th, we had a meeting at Deep
Creek, and in the evening another about four miles
off amongst some Baptists. Next day had a meeting
at one Freeman's; a methodist. Then attended meet-
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ing at Tom's Creek on first-day to pretty good vsatis-
faction. On second-day we returned to Joel Sanders'
at Deep river, fifty miles; having travelled last week
upwards of one hundred miles, and been at seven
meetings, exclusive of opportunities in families.
On our way to Tom's Creek, we had the Yadkin
river to cross twice, which was somewhat difficult
by reason of the ice driving with astrong current:
but we got safely over through the favour of kind
Providence, who has been kind to us in our passing
along from place to place. Sometimes we have met
with rough fare, — often lodging in open cabins where
we could count the stars as we lay in bed; — the wind
blowing in upon us, so that sometimes (knowing how
apt I had been to take cold) I have thought 1 could
not escape. Yet to my admiration, I have been won-
derfully favoured with health. But it is all owing
to the goodness of the Lord who is just and equal in
all his ways; requiring no more of any of us than he
enables us to perform. How often have I been hum-
bled under a sense of his goodness and mercy to me
a poor creature, unworthy of the least of his favours
and manifold mercies! I often wish that I and all
others that are concerned to travel in the work of the
ministry, may be kept in an humble dependance upon
Him who puts his servants forth and goes before them.
Oh! what need there is for all such to wait to hear
the voice of the true Shepherd, even before leaving
their habitations to travel in Truth's service, in order
to know the right time to set out, which is a great
thing; but it is what we all should endeavour to be
well assured of before we set out. And then, when
we move from a real sense of duty to him and that
he requires it of us, being careful to wait to feel him
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in all our movements, he will not fail to manifest
himself in times of close trial. For nothing else is
able to bear us up, but his invincible arm of saving
help. When we are brought into suffering with the
seed, it requires deep attention to the holy Shepherd,
with a steady watch over every thing that arises at
such seasons; for there will arise the likeness of
things in heaven and in the earth; because that part
in us which cannot endure suffering, will try many
ways to get from under it before the right time. —
And I have sometimes seen the danger of kindling
a fire and walking by the light of our own sparks.
Oh! that we may be preserved out of every extreme,
and every by-path.
11th. We parted with our esteemed friend John
Lynch, of South River in Virginia, he having been
with us near two weeks, and his company truly ac-
ceptable to us. Next day we set out for South Caro-
lina, and after travelling about one hundred and sixty
miles, we reached James Hawkins' on the 15th. —
Next day, attended Cane Creek meeting, to our satis-
faction. 17th, had a meeting at Benjamin Johnson's,
made up chiefly of those not professing with us; but
they sat solid and quiet, and it ended to general satis-
faction; many of llic people taking their leave of us
in an allcctionate and friendly manner. This was a
day of hard labour, but 1 felt comforted in a belief
that kind Providence owned us. We then returned
to James Hawkins' and had a refreshing time in the
family. He had three hoj)eful sons living with him;
the eldest of which is, I think, as solid a young man
as I liave lately met with. He has been with us for
several days, and I have seldom seen a smile on his
countenance.
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ISth. We had a second meeting at Cane Creek,
much larger than the first; and through heavenly
regard it was a time of refreshing to many, both
Friends and others. Praises be given to the Lord
who is forever worthy. Next day we were at Pad-
get's Creek meeting; it was large, though a season
of hard labour for the most part; but on the whole,
it was a good meeting. So we took leave of Friends
under a sense of heavenly regard, to the tendering
of many hearts. On fifth-day, the 20th, we had a
meeting at J\tud-lick, or Little river, where but few
Friends live, and the meeting is held only by indul-
gence. The morning was wet, and it seemed doubt-
ful whether any would attend for awhile, but those
who came with us; however, after a time the people
gathered, till the cabin was filled. In the afternoon,
though still raining very fast, we rode home with
Samuel Pearson to Bush river, about twenty miles;
and it was well we did so, for that night the waters
raised very high, so that we could not have crossed
many of the streams without swimming our horses.
On sixth-day, crossing Bush river in a canoe, we at-
tended a meeting there to good satisfaction, and re-
turned to Samuel Pearson's, who with his wife, Mary,
were very kind to us: their hearts and house seemed
open to entertain Friends. Mary is a precious, choice
Friend, who has a valuable gift in the ministry. It
is refreshing to poor travellers to meet with those
who are alive in the Truth; and herein is that saying
verified, "As iron sharpeneth iron, so doth the coun-
tenance of a man his friend." Oh! that all who pro-
fess the blessed Truth were but faithful to their prin-
ciples, what a bright, shining people we should be,
even as a city set on a hill, which cannot be hid. —
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But alas! many are grown dim-sighted through un-
faithfuhiess; and I have often regretted the great
slackness of many, who appear to rest satisfied with
having been born members of society, and who have
not been concerned to know the regenerating power
of Christ to redeem them from the propensities of
their animal nature.
23rd. Again at Bush river meeting which was
large, many beside Friends attending, even more
than the house could hold. Through Divine fiivour,
it was a good and satisfactory meeting. On second-
day, we had thought of setting forward towards Pe-
dee; but as I had, for several days past, felt my mind
turned towards the Baptists of this neighbourhood,
I could not feel clear to go on; so, on mentioning it
to my companion, we had a conference with some
Friends, who expressed their satisfaction and unity
with the prospect. A friend undertook to speak to
some of the elders of the Baptist societ}^, who ap-
peared very willing, and a meeting was appointed
on fourth-day, the 2Gth, at which time we attended,
having a few solid Friends with us. As we drew
near the place, I felt my mind exceedingly humbled,
and my prayers ascended to the Fountain of all sure
help, that the cause of Truth and righteousness might
not suficr by us that day. I felt very little and low;
but when we came to the house, two of their elders
told us they would leave the ordering of the meeting
to us: so we went in, the people following us, and I
sat down with my mind turned towards Him who
can fit and (pialify for every work and service that
he requires of us. Ability was given to labour faith-
fully amongst them; and to the praise of his great
name, it may be said. Truth reigned that day. The
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people behaved in a sober and orderly manner; many
of them appeared solid, and the meeting ended to
u-eneral satisfaction.
On fifth-day, the 27th, we attended their prepara-
tive meeting at Bush river, and their select meeting
next day. We had now been at most of their meet-
ings; in two of which we understood there were no
Friends in the station of elders and ministers, in both;
and we were concerned to point out to Friends the
necessity of having elders in such meetings, and also
of considering the cases of some who had for several
3'ears appeared in the ministry to good satisfaction,
but through neglect had not been brought forward
to be recommended in due season. Friends were now
stirred up to more faithfulness in these and several
other respects; for it was evident they had been too
remiss, and by this means some Friends had been
kept out of their proper places in the church, longer
than was for their own good or the good of society.
I was glad we were at their little meeting, and had
some service there. On seventh-day was their month-
ly meeting, which was large, and through Divine
goodness extended, it was a profitable season. We
returned to Samuel Pearson's, and attended their
first-day meeting, which was larger than at any time
before, and through the goodness of the holy Shep-
herd we were much favoured together; under a thank-
ful sense whereof many hearts were engaged to bow
before him and praise his worthy name. Feeling
quite clear and easy to leave the place, we parted
with Friends under a grateful sense of Divine re-
gard; Isaac Cook and Charity his wife who is a liv-
ing minister, going with us to David Jenkins' where
we lodged.
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31st. In company with Nebo and Zimri Gaunt,
and Isaac and David Jenkins, we set out earh' and
rode upwards of fifty miles that day; lodged in an
open cabin where nobody lived; putting some old
grass between us and the ground, and making up a
large fire, we lay with our feet toward it, and through
mercy, were preserved from taking cold. Next day,
we rode twenty-two miles to Camden, and after din-
ner, ten miles further in the rain, and lodged on the
floor, with some sort of a bed under us, and our feet
toward the fire; which we found much the best way
to lie, to keep from taking cold. Nebo Gaunt and
David Jenkins parted with us at Camden, and the
others travelled on with us about thirty-five miles,
on fourth-day, being hindered in crossing a river
where was but one small canoe, and we had to go
over one at a time and swim our horses by the side.
On fifth-day we reached Christopher Clark's, and
next day had a meeting at Pedee, which was a poor
one; Friends having declined at that place. From
thence we rode about sixty-five miles to Holly Spring,
and attended their meeting on first-tlay, in which we
were both silent. On second-day, we had a meeting
at Back Creek; third-day, at Marlborough; fi)urth-
day, at Providence; fifth-day, at Deep river; and
sixth-day, at New Garden; the two last were very
large and to good satisfaction. On seventh-day we
attended the select Quarterly meeting of ministers
and elders held at Centre.
First-day, the 13lh of 2nd mo. 1785, the meeting
was very large, but was disturbed in the forepart by
the untimely gathering; yet toward the close we were
favoured with the overshadowing wing of heavenly
regard. Next day was held the Western Quarterly
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iiieeting, which was much crowded, and there was a
large appearance of solid Friends who liave the cause
of Truth at heart, and the husiness was conducted to
a good degree of satisfaction. We then had meetings
at Sandy Creek, Cane Creek and Rocky river to good
satisfaction. Lodged at David Vestali's near Rocky
river; he is a choice elder; I wish there were more
of his stamp. On fifth-day we attended a meeting
held at the house of Nathan Dixon, to which many
of the neighbours came; and though a time of hard
labour, yet I hope it was a profitable season. Thence
about fifteen miles to Cornelius Tyson's, where we
had a meeting. But few Friends reside here, and
the meeting was chiefly made up of other people who
behaved soberly. I believe it was a good meeting
to many of them, and that the Lord has a seeking
seed in this place.
In this journey, I have often had to admire the
goodness of the Most High to me, a poor weak in-
strument. As I sat in a Friend's house, my mind
was so covered with a renewed sense of his goodness
and mercy that I felt all that was sensible in me
humblingly bowed before him, and earnest breath-
ings of soul were raised that I might be preserved
to the praise of his ever worthy name, who alone
remains to be worthy of all glory, honour and re-
nown, and be it rendered and ascribed now and
forevermore. Amen.
19th. We were at Spring meeting, which was a
large gathering of Friends and others, and through
the merciful regard of our holy Head, it was a season
of Divine favour. Much tenderness appeared in the
meeting, and the living were engaged to j)raise his
great and worthy name. Next day, being first-day.
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we attended meeting; at Eno, which was low and
exercising for the most part, but ended to the solid
satisfaction of the honest-hearted. In the afternoon,
had a satisfactory meeting at Hillsborongh with the
town's people. Next morning we parted with Friends
at Eno and set forward towards Contentney; where
we arrived on fourth-day, after travelling more than
one hundred and fifty miles. Here, understanding
the Eastern Quarterly meeting for Perquimons coun-
ty, was to be held on seventh-day, we concluded to
try to get there, about one hundred and forty miles.
Accordingly, with close travelling we reached the
widow Nicholson's a little before meeting time;
v/here, leaving our horses, we walked to the Quar-
terl}'^ meeting held at Little river. It was large and
solidly conducted, and we had good service for Truth,
so that I could say I was glad we were there. The
first-day meeting was also large, and through the
goodness of the heavenly Shepherd, it was a favour-
ed season, in which Truth reigned, whereby light
spirits were kept down, the honest-hearted were
made to rejoice, and the holy Arm was magnified.
On second-day, the 2Sth, we had a meeting at the
Narrows of Pascjuolank, whicfi I hope was profitable
to many. Next day, the 1st of 3d month, 17S5, we
were at Newbcgun Creek meeting in the morning,
and at Simon's Creek in the afternoon; both to good
satisfaction. Fourth-day, at the monthly meeting
held at Wells's, which was large, and the forepart
satisficlory ; but business was not transacted with
that life I could wish, though there appeared to 1)C a
number of concerned Friends. Next day we had a
meeting at Old Neck, in which I was silent. Joseph
Henley and Aaron Morris who had been with us
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several days, after meeting took their leave, and we
went on to Tliomas Newby's. 4th, we were at
Pineywoods naeeting, which was large and much la-
bour extended, though not so open as some others.
Next morning, my companion feeling easy to leave
the other meetings in Carolina, we parted, he going
on for Virginia, and I to Richsquare, with Josiah
White as a companion. On first-day, the 6th, I at-
tended the meeting at Richsquare in silence, to the
disappointment of many who appeared to have come
for no other end than to hear preaching.
7th. Rode to Jackswamp, thirty miles, and next
day had a meetii^ with Friends there to pretty good
satisfaction. Then went on to Petersburg, and lodged
at Edward Stabler's, where I received letters from
home, being the first since leaving my family, and
they were truly acceptable. 10th, rested and wrote
to my dear wife and friends at home. 11th, rode to
Robert Pleasants', where my wife's brother Thomas
Hatton lived, and we were truly glad to see each
other. On first-day, I was at Curies meeting in Vir-
ginia, where I again met my companion, Isaac Jacobs.
On third-day, the Mth, we had a meeting at Wain-
oke in the morning, and another in the evening at
a friendly man's house among some Baptists and
Methodists, to good satisfaction. Fourth-day, had
a meeting at Philip Johnson's, a Methodist: many
people attended and behaved well, and the meeting
ended to general satisAiction. Fifth-day, we were
at Skimeno meeting, and in the evening had an op-
portunity w^ith Friends by themselves, — a time, I
hope, which will not soon be forgotten. On sixth-day
we rode to Black Creek about forty miles, and next
day had a meeting with Friends there. First-day,
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we were at White Oak Swamp meeting, which was
large, though but few Friends, and it was to me a
solid, good meeting.
23d. Had a meeting with Friends at Cedar Creek,
in which I was silent. Next day one at Caroline:
and the day following had a meeting at the house of
a friendly man, to which many of tiie neighbours
came and two Baptist preachers. It was a solid,
good time. In the evening we had a satisfactory
opportunity with the family. On first-day, the 27th,
we were at a meeting at Staflbrd, which was a low
time. Next day, we rode to Alexandria, forty-two
miles, and on third-day had a meeting with the few-
Friends there, to good satisfaction. Thence to Bal-
timore, and attended their week-day meeting; then
crossed Susquehanna and lodged at Kichard Rey-
nolds. On seventh-day, being very stormy with
snow and hail, we reached John Jones's near Not-
tingham; and on first-day, the 3d of the 4th month,
I got home to my dear vvife and children, and was
joyfully received by them and Friends.
My companion stayed till third-day, and then we
parted; having travelled together upwards of four
months, a distance of about two thousand three hun-
dred miles; during which time we were remarkably
favoured to get along without a day's sickness. To
tlic great Preserver of men be the praise.
At our week-day meeting the 7th of 4th month,
I felt my iiciut filled with gratitude and praises to
God for his merciful regard and care over me, sup-
porting and carrying me through this great journey,
and l)ringing me safely back to my dear wife and
children.
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I3th. Was our monthly meeting, which was at-
tended by our friend Daniel Byrnes from Philadel-
phia, on his way to Chester river meeting in Mary-
land: he had some public service amongst us, and in
transacting the business a concern was felt and ex-
pressed for the good of our members; which being
taken into solid consideration, Friends judged it
might be useful to the youth especially, to revive
some of the former advices handed down from the
Yearly Meeting. Accordingly, meetings were ap-
pointed for that purpose, in order that Friends might
be more select: the first was at White Clay Creek
on sixth-day, and attended by a committee appointed
for the purpose. It was a favoured, good meeting;
that at Wilmin<2;ton rather low and exercising.
20th. In company with Joseph West, I attended
the preparative meeting of Friends at Chester, which
to me was a low, suffering season. Next day was at
a week-day meeting in Philadelphia, which was also
exercising and silent as to myself In the afternoon
I attended the meeting for sufferings, and spent most
of the day following in the city. Poverty and bar-
renness of spirit has been my experience both in and
out of meetings for several weeks past. Returned
home on seventh-day. First-day, was silent in both
our meetings. 24th. Saw peach blossoms for the
first this season; vegetation very backward; frequent
rains, but clears up cold.
In the 5th month, our Quarterly meeting was at-
tended by several Friends from the city, of whom
Hannah Cathrall had acceptable service amongst us.
She was also much favoured in testimony at our
monthly meeting at Wilmington on fourth-day; at
which our esteemed friend Joseph West obtained a
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certificate to accompany our beloved friend Samuel
Smith of Philadelphia, to the Yearly Meeting in
Virginia.
6th mo. 15th. A marriage was accomplished at our
meeting; many gay people attended, and the weather
being warm there was much use made of their fans,
which greatly distressed my mind. I was concerned
to open a view of the awfulness of spiritual worship,
and how careful we all should be when we assembled
to perform such a solemn duty, that we might not
disturb the solemnity of the meeting, but endeavour
to compose our minds with awful stillness; and then
I did believe there would be less fluttering of these
gaudy fans, which to me looked more like a flock
'of butterflies, than worshippers of God. However
lasting tlie caution may be, I must leave, but for that
time they fell, so that before meeting was over there
was scarcely one to be seen.
In the latter end of the 6th month, in company
with Joseph Tatnall, I went to father Lightfoot's and
spent part of three days with them to pretty good
satisfaction; was also at the marriage of Abraham
Sharpless. On the 25th, I received the sorrowful
tidings of the sudden death of Robert Mendenhall
of Concord, occasioned by a fall out of his riding
chair as he was taking it to be mended. He lived
but about three hours, and was not willing to be
removed to his house, as he apprehended it would
throw him into racking pain, and perhaps deprive
him of his senses which he was then favoured with;
so he chose to stay where he was, though it might
look hard for him to die in the road. After taking
leave of his wife and children who were present, he
quietly exj)ire(l. A meeting was held on the occa-
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sion of his funeral, which was a solemn, awful season.
A strikin<5 instance of what poor, uncertain beings
we are! Happy for those who are found watching.
We also attended an evening meeting at Milltown,
held at Richard Downing's malt-house. It was large,
and through Divine favour, doctrines suitable to the
states of the people were delivered among them.
In the 7th month, the weather was warm and dry,
furnishing a favourable time for gathering in harvest.
In the spring there was a prospect of great crops; but
in many places Providence has permitted or sent a
check, gently admonishing us to take heed to our
ways. A worm and a fly have appeared in many
parts of Chester county and parts adjacent; and in
Maryland soir^sthing like a blight. Oh! that man-
kind were so wise as to turn from the evil of their
ways, at these gentle admonitions, before the rod is
laid on more severely. I believe it is in mercy that
the Almighty thus shows us how soon he can send
forth his armies and destroy all our labour. But it
seems as if the degeneracy and hardness of heart have
become so great, that I fear such mild means will not
do; so that the hearts of a remnant are covered with
mourning on beholding the prevailing corruptions,
and the spreading of covetousness, luxury and pride
to a very great degree. Oh! that there was more
of a disposition to hear the rod and him who hath
appointed it.
7th mo. 7th. This day I felt the humbling good-
ness of the Almighty, and strong cries were raised
in me that I might be more and more redeemed from
the world and the things thereof, thou everlast-
ing, holy Shepherd, keep me, I pray thee, from going
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astray. Strengthen me in thy truth, so that I may
with more firmness maintain the watch.
10th. Our first-day morning meeting was very
large and silent. In the afternoon there was some
public service, and it was a good meeting to some
of the beloved youth. Oh! that it may be lasting as
a nail fastened in a sure place. I feel great love to-
ward the youth, especially of this place, and my heart
is often filled with solicitude for their welfare; the
gospel flows freely for their sakes, and the Divine
arm is stretched out to gather them. Oh ! that they
would obey the calls of Heavenly love to their souls.
holy Father, take the reins into thine own hands,
and govern their affections; illuminate their under-
standings and cause them to see the excellency of
walking in thy Truth.
13th. In our monthly meeting which was large,
our friend John Sanders had some public service, and
the business was conducted to satisfaction. On the
21st, James Robinson and Elizabeth Wilson were
married at our fifth-day meeting, and many people
besides Friends attended. It was a profitable season,
in which heads of families were reminded of the re-
ligious care which Job had for his children. When
the days of their feasting were over, Job sent and
sanctified them, and he rose up early in the morning
and oflered burnt oHcrings according to the number
of them all; for Job said. It may be that my sons
have sinned, and cursed God in their hearts. Thus
did Job continually. The subject was enlarged ui)on
to the solid satisfaction of Friends. Oh! that we had
morn .lobs among us who were truly concerned to
intercede for the transgressing people.
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22d. I attended the burial of a young man at Cen-
tre, who was well two days before and in our town;
his death was very sudden indeed; and of late there
has been many such alarms. By a letter from a friend
in Philadelphia last week I was informed of three
sudden changes; — doctor Moore, after about three
days illness; — John Wharton who was at his burial,
was next day a corpse; and George Mifflin who was
well at breakfast, died before dinner time. Oh! that
these awful calls of mortality may be as watchwords
to survivors, also to make ready; for surely blessed
are those who when their Lord cometh shall be found
watching and waiting for him.
23rd. I was at Concord, visiting some of my old
neighbours and friends, and returned to our meeting
at Wilmington on first-day, which was large and
much favoured to the tendering of many hearts; in
the afternoon, silent. Oh! that Friends and others
were more acquainted with true silence. I often re-
gret the loss sustained in our meetings for want of an
awful, humble, reverent waiting upon the Lord; con-
fiding in his gracious promise that " they who wait
upon him shall renew their strength; they shall mount
up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be
weary; they shall walk and not faint." A glorious
day indeed, when mankind come to know the Lord
to be their teacher, and to be of the circumcision that
worship God in spirit, rejoicing in the Lord, and
having no confidence in the flesh.
28th. Our fifth-day meeting was smaller than com-
mon, being a busy time of the year, and Friends be-
ing weak, let the world get master of them. The
worldly spirit tells them it will not do to leave it, or
they will lose greatly thereby; but it does not tell
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them that the world wounds them greatly, and that
through an anxious care for it, they lose in the best
sense. Surel}' there is a want of living faith in the
sufficiency of that Power that clothes the lilies, and
feeds the young ravens.
31st. Our afternoon meeting was attended by our
dear friend William Jackson, who was much favour-
ed in testimony from these words, "The well is deep,
and thou hast nothing to draw with." This continues
to be a mystery to the reasoning part in man, as it
was to the woman to whom Jesus said, " If thou knew
the gift of God, and who it is that asketh of thee, thou
wouldst have asked of him, and he would have given
thee living water." Now to those that lack this
knowledge, it may in truth be said, " The well is
deep, and they have nothing to draw with;" neither
can they until it is given them of God, with whom
remains to be the spiritual key that can alone unfold
the Divine mysteries, contained in the scriptures of
Truth; which the carnal man with all his study, art
and contrivance, cannot come at. But many, it is to
be feared, now as formerly, by undertaking to inter-
pret them to suit their own imagination, do wrest
them to their own destruction. Oh! that all were
careful not to meddle with tilings out of their reach.
Oil! that there was but a coming to Christ, the true
and living way, then surely there would be a drink-
ing of the living waters, whereof if a man drink ex-
perimentally, he will not tliirst any more after the
muddy, or mixed waters of scholastic learning. But
many are feeding so largely upon the tree of know-
ledge that it hinders them from receiving the true
•light and sense of spiritual things; for " if any man
will be wise (in Divine things) he must first l)econic
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a fool;" ho must know a death unto self in every
part thereof, before he can know a living unto righ-
teousness. Many, I believe, have come so far as to
receive the ministration of John's baptism, whose
commission was to baptize unto repentance, but he
had not power to give this gift, and he let them know
clearly that they must look for another, even a bap-
tism that had the power of cleansing. But many
have rested short of this, and being satisfied with the
first tendering or watery dispensation, have not been
deeply concerned to experience a thorough cleansing
of the floor of the heart, and to know the wheat gath-
ered into the garner; but the chaff to be burned with
the unquenchable fire of the baptism of Christ.
I have known some who were graciously called,
and did greatly rejoice in the breaking forth of the
day of God's eternal power in their souls, — a time
wherein the world and all the glory thereof appear-
ed as nothing in their view, so that they might win
Christ, the beloved of their souls; yea, and for a time
they walked humblyj so that there was a prospect of
their becoming useful in the church. But latterly
when I have looked upon them and beheld their con-
duct and conversation, a fear has seized me, that they
have not been so faithful and so fully dedicated as
they ought to be. How sorrowful that any of the
Lord's visited children should (like some of old) go
back to the world, and dwindle as withered branches!
But if any that have been grafted into the true and
living Vine, abide not therein, — if they submit not
to the thorough cleansing and pruning, they separate
themselves and are cast forth as branches that are
withered. On the other hand, those that abide in
Christ, the vine, know the living sap to flow in them,
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and bring forth fruits to the glory of tlie heavenly
Husbandman.
9th of 8th mo. My friend W. C. being very sick,
I went to see him, and as I was sitting by him keep-
ing off the flies, I felt a sweetness accompanying my
mind, and leaning down said to him, it is pleasant
to sit by thee. After awhile he said, " My time
will not be long, but when I shall go, I do not see,
whether to-night or not." After remarking to him
that none of us know how soon we may be called
hence, he said, " I expect my Redeemer will convey
my soul into the chambers of everlasting glory," —
As I sat still and quiet by his bed-side, I felt the
humbling power of Truth, and therein the breathing
cries of ni}' soul ascended to the Lord for preserva-
tion, and that I might yet more and more be instruct-
ed in the great work of the ministry; being led to
behold the glorious excellency thereof, fiu', yea, very
far exceeding all the painting and eloquence of man's
wisdom, which are at most but as sounding brass or
a tinkling cymbal. A heavenly season it was — the
horizon appeared clear, and the glory of the Lord
shone round about me; — my soul was prostrated in
solemn, awful stillness, and I was as it were swallow-
ed up in raptures of joy. This may appear strange
to those who are ignorant of such sublime enjoy-
ments; but it is known to the begotten of the Father.
It i.s a stale in which all flesh keeps silence in the
presence of God; and in which there is as it were a
standing on mount Pisgah, beholding the blessed
.<»tate of tiie promised land, and the inhabitants of
New Jerusalem. Well might Moses tremble at the
awful siglil of the bush burning and not consumed.
Oh! the iUh']) luyslcry! hid from the world, but re-
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vealed unto babes, I felt no pain, no weariness, du-
ring this heavenly season; my mind was greatly re-
freshed, and the body also; sleep departed from me,
nor did it seem as though 1 should ever know the
want of it, could I have continued in this happy
state; for I had a sight of the perpetual day, wherein
neither the light of the sun nor of the moon, is want-
ed, for the Lord God and the Lamb is the light there-
of. my soul, dwell humble and low before the
mighty God of Jacob, that so when the time comes
in which thou shalt be dislodged from this sliell of
mortality, thou mayst take thy flight to this heaven-
ly, blest abode and peaceful inheritance, to join the
glorified host in celebrating his name who lives for-
ever and ever.
10th. Felt easy and quiet in mind, but not without
some trials. Went to see my beloved friend, John
Perry, who had been poorly, and we had some edi-
fying conversation together.
11th, and fourth of the week, was our monthly
meeting, the forepart of which was a pretty solid
time: but a case came before it which had heretofore
occasioned different sentiments, and operating in the
same wa}' again, the weight gradually departed from
the meeting, — and some painful sensations were felt.
1 was much concerned that the authority of Truth
might be supported, and desired Friends to labour
for more stillness. I saw clearly that some hurt
themselves and the meeting by so many proposals
being made, some for one thing and some another.
After a time, more calmness ensued, and we got the
matter referred to a committee.
12th. Our fifth-day meeting was small, silent and
as dull as I have lately known it. Next day, I felt
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some strivino; between nature and grace: and the day
following, more evenness of mind, but thought, on
close examination, that too much liberty had been
given to that unruly member, the tongue. Too much
freedom in conversation often hurts; be more careful
in future.
15th. Laboured for stillness; but next day, gave
too much place to fleshly weakness for a short time,
yet through mercy, was enabled to overcome. Our
morning meeting was large and a good time, I be-
lieve, to many, in which I had some public service.
John Perry and 1 went to see J. R. and had satisfac-
tion therein.
17th. A day of renewed favour, and my heart
much tendered.
18th. Sing praises to the Lord. I had this day to
admire his great goodness. my soul, dwell low-
before the high and holy One, from whose eye not
any thing can be hid. What a mistaken notion it is
in poor mortals to rest satisfied if they can conceal
their faults from one another, and not appear uneasy
to commit gross things in the sight of heaven! Oh!
how great folly for man to think he will escape the
righteous judgment of God! to which he will surely
be brongliL for every secret fault: for his Maker will
be his judge, and he will take vengeance on his ad-
versaries; he will cause tiiem to tremble when he
arises to make his mighly power known. Who shall
dwell with devouring fire and everlasting burnings?
None surely, but those whose hearts are upright be-
fore the Lord. Oh! that I may be one of tiiis num-
ber, is what I am dcM'ply concerned for. Thou know-
est, O Fatlier, the uprightness and integrity of my
heart. It is naked and bare before thee, thou King
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of saints. Oh! spare me not, if there be any thing
remaining in me unsubjected to thy holy will. Wash
me, I pray thee, from all iniquity, and purge me from
all sin.
19th. Surely it is a great thing to have our con-
versation in heaven! Whilst we are here tossed about
as from wave to wave, what need there is of an holy
watch over every part of our conduct! The enemy
of all good seems busy in drawing away the mind,
and diverting it from its proper business. I never
spend the day with more solid peace and satisfaction,
than when I rise thoughtful and continue under a
humbling sense of Truth. Here something fresh and
green is felt springing up, and the mind is preserved
clean and sweet. Is it not more reasonable to believe,
while this is the case, that our thoughts and conver-
sation will be upon heavenly objects, or in heaven?
And although this may be and is hard for men of cor-
rupt minds to understand, or come at, yet there are
those livingly exercised minds who know it is attain-
able. Blessed forever be the name of the Lord, for
his great condescension, in favouring his poor unwor-
thy creature man with a living holy principle of light
and of life in himself; and by carefully observing and
following this light, he is directed in the way to holi-
ness and purity, without which no man shall see the
Lord.
20th. Deeply thoughtful about meeting this morn-
ing; — the weather being very warm, which has a
stupifying effect on some, and occasions drowsiness,
which it is grievous to see in our meetings. Another
thing affects me with sorrow, to see so many of the
young women sit fanning themselves, as if they were
in a play room. I do believe nothing but custom can
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reconcile such an indifferency in our solemn meet^ i
ings. I hope the concerned part of Friends will /
persevere in a faithful admonition of such as give
way to this unseemly indulgence, till the evil is con-
quered and ahandoned.
21st. A proposal was made for the millers to get
together and tix the price of wheat; but I felt a re-
luctance lest something should appear that might be
unsavoury, or that would hurt my testimony; there-
fore excused myself. But they would not take a
denial; so I went in fear, and just before I entered
the room, I cried to the Holy One for help and pre-
servation. When men get to conversing about world-
ly matters, there is seldom much edification to be had.
I feel a prohibition in my mind against being in pub-
lic throngs, unless there is a real occasion; for a good
state of mind is sooner lost than found.
22nd. Rather poorly; spent most of the day in re-
tirement and reading. A time of renewed favour.
Well might the highly favoured Paul say, he delight-
ed in the law of God after the inward man; having
happily experienced that by it he was set free from
the law of sin and death. What an advantage arises
by retreating a little from the many noises of the
world, endeavouring to have the mind gathered into
stillness, — wailing to hear the gracious words that
proceed from the Saviour's lips! Here Christ con-
verses with the soul; here, he strengthens and con-
firms it in the way of life and peace, and gives it
courage to go on boldly; here, he whets and sharpens
our love and zeal. What a favour it is, my soul,
that thy greatest good calls thee aside, as the disci-
ples were taken aside when the deep mysteries of the
gospel were explained to them. Oh! that thou niayst
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lentleavour to hold th3'self in readiness, so that when
he calls for thee, thou mayst arise and go with him,
though it may be as into the desert.
12th mo. 8th. After meeting, I went to see Mary
Ferris who was not expected to continue long. I
found her very low, but quite sensible, though a good
deal uneasy. After sitting awiiile in the room, I felt
my mind drawn forth to supplicate the holy Name
on her behalf: and on parting with her she express-
ed thankfulness for the opportunity. It seems to go
hard with some to submit to the final stroke. What
an awful sight it is to behold the agonies of death
upon the human frame! thou greatest Good, pre-
pare me for my latter end. Enable me, I pray thee,
through the various trials of this life, to walk in thy
holy fear. M}' mind is often deeply concerned to
know the victory over the frailties of human nature,
and thus to have the sting of death removed; that so,
when the solemn, awful hour arrives that dust must
return to dust, I may look with steadfastness unto
God my saviour.
Sixth-day. Rose this morning rather hastily after
I awoke; for which I did not feel so pleasant for some
time: yet through the course of the day heavenly re-
gard was near. My heart was often filled with Di-
vine love, and strong cries were raised in me for
preservation. I felt deeply engaged for Friends of
our meeting, and in a particular mannerYor the be-
loved youth, who are made near to my life, in which
I feel a travail for their eternal good.
Seventh-day. The affairs of this life had too much
place in my mind this morning. 1 endeavoured to
keep them down, but for some time found it difficult;
yet through holy help the victory was at length ob-
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tained. How much easier it is to go through the
business of the day when the mind is kept above it,
than when it is suffered to crowd in ! and when this
is the case, how it unfits for Divine meditation and
heavenly contemplation. My cries are to thee,
Father, for help, that I may be kept in a frame of
mind fit to receive Divine impressions.
This afternoon I had to take one of our children
in hand for disobedience, and the rod had to be used
prett}* smartly before submission was effected; but
I trust it was done in coolness, for I never think it
right to lift the hand in chastisement without feeling
quite calm, because then it is that we are best capable
of correcting, and best know when to begin and when
to stop. There were tears dropped from both parties,
and my heart breathed to God for wisdom to know
how to act in the station of a father. It is undoubt-
edly a great mistake in parents to put off correcting
their own children, or others under their care, till
they feel the warmth of their tempers to get up. —
More hurt than good is often done by such chastise-
ments; and we are told the wrath of man worketh
not the righteousness of God. How careful, then,
ought we to be, lest, instead of convincing their judg-
ments and softening their tempers, wo iiarden them!
It is a great thing to know how to go in and out be-
fore our families; but it is a greatjer thing wisely and
prudently to do it: too few, I fear, lay it enough to
lieart. The great I AM bore this testimony to the
character of Abraham: " Sball I hide from Abraham
that thing which I do? for I know him, that he will
command his children and liis household after him."
Oh! that we had more Abrahams amongst us, and
fewer Elis; surely the reformation would go on more
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prosperously than it seems to do at present. But
whilst I am penning these remarks, I feel concerned
for myself lest I should be found wanting in these
respects. Lord, grant that I may come up in faith-
fulness before thee.
Our beloved friend Mary Ferris departed this life
about nine o'clock this morning.
First-day. Very wet, and has been so for a day or
two past, with pretty smart frosts in the creek, more
like the breaking up of winter than the beginning
of it. Some unwell this morning, but got to meet-
ing, which was large on the men's side, — the women
rather thin; the fire of their zeal too much put out by
the rain. By an over-hasty move to read the Lon-
don epistle, the solemnity of the meeting, I thought,
was hurt; as it held but a little more than one hour.
It is a more weighty thing than many seem aware
of, to move in a solemn meeting.
At two o'clock a large number of Friends and
others met at the house to attend the funeral of Mary
Ferris, and we were favoured with a solemn, good
meeting. The living presence and power of the
Lord were felt amongst us to the tendering of many
hearts. The subject of repentance was largely treat-
ed on; as also the necessity of having oil in our ves-
sels; — the glorious and blessed state of those who
Averc thus provided, was largely spoken of, and also
the lamentable situation of such who lacked that liv-
ing virtue, in the solemn, awful time when the voice
is heard, " Behold the bridegroom cometh, go ye
forth to meet him." The people were earnestly
pressed to examine their stock now whilst the com-
passion of the King immortal and everlastingly glo-
rious, was extended. In this communication, I stood
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longer than I had lately done in public testimony, and
felt an increase of matter flow toward the people; yet
with awful dread and fear lest I should exceed the
bounds of true gospel liberty; and the meeting end-
ed with supplication and thanksgiving to the Lord
Almighty. The evening was spent in much still-
ness, — the young people and my wife in reading
their books, and when nearly time to retire, I de-
sired them to give attention while I read the Lon-
don general epistle; which I believe was seasonably
done.
Second-day, the 12th. Felt rather poor in spirit,
which I have before found to be the case after favour-
ed meetings; yet I was therewith content, and my
mind felt quiet and easy. In the afternoon, I went
into Wilmington on business, and stayed longer in
the evening than was pleasant to myself. After my
return I retired to bed early without much conver-
sation. I very unexpectedly felt a solemn quiet in
my mind, such as I had not lately experienced. My
breathing was free and easy, and I was clear of any
sensible pain of the body. In this state, the prospect
of eternity was opened before me, and the blessed
state of the redeemed was brouglit into my view. —
My mind was carried above these lower regions, and
led to view the holy city where God is exalted in
majesty, and Christ reigns with him in glory, — where
the angels stand befoi-c liis throne praising him, and
the elders fall down and worship before him. Here
I lay for some time, ravished and swallowed up, as
it were, with the living ])resence and brightness of
his excellency, liut I remembered I was in the
body, and had the j)ainful separation to undergo; yel
thought, if it should please Providence to take me
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before morning, the way seemed clear, and I had no
sense of guilt upon me. Yet a consideration arose,
that perhaps my feelings and prospect might be dif-
ferent, if nature was reduced to that state in which
I expected no other than to go, and every breath to
be the last. Awful is the prospect and truly hum-
bling the consideration! I then fell asleep under an
awful sense of the goodness of God to my soul. My
heart is filled with admiration to think that the high
and holy One who inhabiteth eternity, is thus pleas-
ed to favour poor mortals with a foresight and fore-
taste of the joys which are hereafter to be revealed
to those who hold out to the end.
Third-day. 13th. Rather a low time through this
day. In the evening, had the company of a Friend
from near Winchester in Virginia, who gave me some
account of my acquaintance there.
14th. Early this morning I was favoured to feel
the incomes of the heavenly presence to the tender-
ing of my spirit; but for want of keeping strictly on
the watch, the weakness of human nature gained a
little ascendency; yet discovering it in its early ap-
pearance, I was enabled to keep it under foot. —
Monthly meeting was largely attended; at which we
had the acceptable company and service of Deborah
Bassett from Jersey. Near the close, our friend Jo-
seph West who is a member of the meeting for suf-
ferings, by its direction laid before us a concern which
Friends had felt for the black people in this govern-
ment, as also for the two monthlymeetings of Friends,
as nothing had ever been done by them in laying be-
fore the men in power the grievances of this long
injured people. The subject spread weightily over
the minds of many Friends, and some lively obser-
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vations were made. Friends united in appointing
a committee to lay the matter before Duck Creek
monthly meeting, in order to unite (if way opened)
in petitioning the Assembly on behalf of the poor
black people.
Fifth-day, 15th. Samuel Nichols and Ftuth Men-
denhall were married at our meeting, which was a
favoured season. John Saunders appeared in testi-
mony, and I had to remind fathers and mothers of
the united concern and christian care of Isaac and
Rebekah toward their son Jacob on the weighty sub-
ject of choosing a wife, that he might get one who
believed in the same supreme, eternal God, and wor-
shipped him in the same way. The matter opened
and spread in the view of my mind more extensive-
ly than ever it had done — and the youth were re-
minded how highly Jacol) was favoured, no doubt in
part on account of his ready obedience to the solid
counsel and advice of his worthy parents; for obe-
dience to them is next unto God.
16th. Strong desires arc raised at times, that I may
be j)reserved steadfast through the various trials and
changes of this life. I often feel jealous of myself,
and afraid I shall fail of reaching the port of stability
and peace; yet at other times, I am favoured to feel a
spark of living faith, whicli animates and strengthens
to press forward, endeavouring to forget those things
that are behind, and to get nearer and nearer to the
j)ure immortal spring of Divine life, which can alone
keep all sweet and clean. I think I sec clearly, at
times, tiie excellency of being redeemed from these
lower enjoyments. But whilst we are in these taber-
nacles, we must take care of them, and provide for
others under our care: and herein I see a snare of
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extending our prospects beyond true bounds. Ah!
indeed were we bounded by Truth, as we ought, what
a little would serve? The great matter appears to be,
to keep the mind as much as possible out of and above
tliose things which are to perish with the using.
1 7th. Felt tenderness of spirit, and at times earn-
estly desired to be more redeemed from every thing
that has a tendency to bring leanness over the mind,
or to separate from the Divine presence. my Sa-
viour, I love to feel thee near. How deliglitful to
hold converse with thee, blessed guest indeed, de-
serving the uppermost room in the heart, swept and
garnished!
Remarkably wet, though moderate weather, more
like spring than winter; — the roads extremely muddy.
First-day, ISth of 12th mo. Our meetings were
both large, but silent in the morning. Near the close
of that in the afternoon, I said a little to a particular
state which had been much with me during the meet-
ing-
19th. Felt a good degree of sweetness to accom-
pany my mind, and prayed for preservation. Spent
part of the evening in town in conference with the
committee respecting our attending Duck Creek
monthly meeting.
20th. Rather more hurry the forepart of the day
than was pleasant; yet hope I was favoured in a good
degree to keep on the watch. In the afternoon, re-
ceived information from the meeting for sufierings
that Duck Creek monthly meeting had sent a petition
to be approved in order to be laid before this govern-
ment. On which our committee again met, and con-
cluded that some of our number should attend Duck
Creek monthly meeting next seventh-day.
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21st. Rose thoughtful this morning, but too soon
gave way to the weakness of liuman nature. Oh!
that I may receive sti'ength to withstand the accuser
of the brethren who is ready to come in when we are
off the watch, to wound and to destroy 4hat sweet
peace which the spiritually-minded delight to feel.
More hurr}' in the afternoon than was profitable; so
that the mind as well as the body was affected. For
when one is oppressed, the other cannot be cheerful
and easy; — they being so nearly connected, feel with
and for each other. thou holy, pure, invisible Be-
holder, redeem me and mankind universally more
and more from the love of this world, and engage
our minds more deeply to seek for and press after
that treasure which waxeth not old.
22d. Meeting silent, but I was favoured to feel a
travail for the good of those assembled. In the af-
ternoon, in company with Joseph West and Joseph
Tatnall, rode to John Lewden's near Christiana-
bridge on our way to Little Creek. Next day rode
to Ezekiel Cowgill's, and on seventh-dp.y, the 24th,
attended the monthly meeting. After a weighty
conference with Friends, a committee was appointed
to unite with us in proceeding as Truth may direct.
25th. Rode to Duck Creek meeting on our way
homeward; a small meeting and silent. Thence to
Daniel Corbit's at Apj)oquiniminck, and next day
home, feeling well satisfied that I had attended to
the appointment.
27tii. I'avoured with a solid, composed mind, hea-
venly goodness being near.
2.sth. In company with Joseph Tatnall, I attended
White-clay Creek mccling, in silence: it being a low
time witji me. Returned home, and felt the incomes
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of holy goodness to the tendering of my spirit, under
which my cries ascended to God on high for preser-
vation.
29th. Meeting large, and a solid, good time. The
living presence and power of the Highest were felt
amongst us to the tendering of many hearts. Surely
he is forever worthy to be waited on. Oh! may all
who are engaged in his work and service wait to feel
his quickening, living virtue to put them forth. Oh!
may it be my constant care diligently to attend to
the voice of the true Shepherd; then all will be well,
whether little or much is said. I wish to be perfect
in so great a work as that of the ministry. Lord,
help thou me, for thou art the best instructor. In-
strumental help is good under thy direction; but
when no man speaks to me, thou reminds me of my
misses, in the most tender manner. Oh! continue
thy help and thy fatherly regard.
This evening I was informed there was to be a
ball, or dancing frolic in Wilmington, which made
me feel exceedingly sorry.
'30th, Being very wet, I was mostly at home; and
next day was favoured to feel a good degree of sweet-
ness cover my mind. In the evening had the com-
pany of Joshua and Edith Sharpless, whom I was
truly glad to see.
1st mo. 1st, 1786. Our meetings were both large,
and our beloved friend Edith Sharpless, was much
favoured therein. In her public testimonies, the gos-
pel current ran strong toward the youth; at which I
greatly rejoiced, and breathed earnestly to the Foun-
tain of all perfection, that their hearts might be open-
ed to receive the doctrines of Truth in the love of it.
3nd. Felt the reviving presence of Divine love to
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accompany my mind, and often breathed to the Holy
One for preservation, and that my dwelling might
be nearer and nearer to the pure immortal spring
which alone can keep me clean.
3rd, Had communion with the Beloved of souls.
Well might one of old say, " It is better to be a door-
keeper in the house of God, than to dwell in the tents
of wickedness." Oh! tlrat all men were partakers
of that sweet peace, quietude and composure of mind
that I sometimes feel; surelj^ they would value it
above all outward treasure. thou Fountain of life,
thou enricher of thy saints, draw me nearer and
nearer to thyself, that I may hear thy voice, for it is
sweet, and behold thy countenance for it is altogether
lovely.
Sth. The current of love that I often feel, I believe,
is opened by Him who is emphatically called Love.
I trust he has kindled a holy flame of love in my
heart, which length of time and distance of place
cannot abate, while I keep my place and rank in
righteousness. It is thus the children of the heaven-
ly Father's family, are brought nearer and nearer
together in spirit; for this is the operation and this
the effect of that holy cementing virtue of pure love.
It is huml)lingly astonishing to contemplate the good-
ness of the holy, pure IJcing, who in tlio riches of his
grace has made us heirs of so great salvation. And
even whilst wc are outwardly, as it were, tossed
from post to pillar, wc arc at times favoured with
this sensation, supernatural to mere human concep-
tion, that God is in us and we are in him. Thus the
prayer of Christ is verified in us, " That they all may
be one; as thou Father art in mc and I in thee, that
they may be one in us."
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7th mo. 20th, l7S6. Samuel Starr, of Duck Creek
in Delaware, was buried. He left home the week
before, and went to Philadelphia on business; where
he vvais taken unwell and closed his life. To survi-
vors, it seems like a sudden and unexpected call, ad-
monishing us of the great need we have to endeavour
to be ready, as we know not the day nor the hour
we may be brought before the great Judge of quick
and dead. Awful is the contemplation of meeting
the pure and holy Being who is terrible in majesty;
yet now is the time for us to prepare for that solemn
season. Oh! that we may watch continually unto
prayer; and in order to aid us therein, let our thoughts
be familiar with the grave; let us often, as it were,
converse with the dead, and seriously turn our views
toward eternity. Tiiis great subject is kept at too
great a distance from us; and we are too apt to point
out death as a frightful thing, too shocking to be con-
templated, although we know it is certain to overtake
us all. But to a true christian, the death of the body
is among his minor cares. His great concern is to
have his peace made with his God, so as to know the
sting of death taken away; and when this evidence
is vouchsafed, he can meet death with a calmness and
patient resignation becoming the character he bears:
adopting the language of the apostle, " death, where
is thy sting? grave, where is thy victory?"
23d. We had ihe company of Thomas Scattergood,
of Philadelphia, and Mary Swayne from New Gar-
den, at our meeting this morning. The gathering
was large, and they both appeared in testimony.
Our beloved friend Kobert Valentine departed this
life on the 21st, and was buried to-day. Our worthy
friend James Thornton was at the funeral and was
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much favoured in testimony. Robert has not had
much sound health since his return from a relisriouS
visit to England; but he is now delivered from all
his afflictions, and, I have no doubt, has received a
crown that shall never be taken from him. Oh! hap-
py change! Oh! welcome hour! when we from earth
to heaven thus ascend. Awake, slumbering mind,
arise and see how vast thy work! how great is He
whom thou so little knows!
2Sth. A season of sinking and depression of mind,
the most humbling I have lately known. Oh! that
I maybe preserved! Help, Lord: for without thy
aid, I am undone. Let not the sins of my youth
hinder my prayers from coming before thee. Lord,
I pray thee, forgive all my transgressions, and pardon
all mine iniquities. Prepare me for thy kingdom,
and fit me for thy glorious habitation; that so when
the awful moment of my dissolution arrives, I may
have notbing to do but cheerfully resign my soul
unto thee.
29th. Rather more in the hurry of business than
was best. Much conversation about worldly matters
often hurts the mind. I endeavoured to get out of
it, and in the evening' was favoured with a calm.
8th mo. 1st, 178G. I wrote as follows: Dear friend,
Joseph Townscnd,! received thy kind remembrance,
and feel a care (without some ai)ility more tban for
writing's sake) to avoid every apjiearancc of formali-
ty, and a superficial friendship, which cannot be to
edification. Notwithstanding this, my regard and
esteem for \hvv. is not lessened. In every dispensa-
tion of proving, no way should be looked for to gain
relief, until we patiently wait the time appointed. —
Can we believe it is for our cleansing, tbat lie who
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is willing to receive us as sons, deals thus with us?
Let us then, like obedient children, submit cheerful-
ly to that power which alone is able to fit us for the
society of the just. If we are brought under the rod,
and bear it reluctantly, what praise have we? surely,
none. Being forced to submit to it, we are con-
demned in ourselves. A child who does willingly
what it is bid, and readily obeys the commands of its
superiors, gains the pleasing smiles of its parents:
but one who refuses, often incurs their displeasure,
and frequently has the rod held over it.
If our spiritual senses are clear, we shall see that
Omnipotent Goodness deals more equally with us,
than we do with ourselves. All his rebukes are in
love and mercy; though at the time we suffer them,
we are ready to cry out under the pain and travail,
necessary for the redemption of the soul; — which is
a work of infinite concern, claiming our closest ap-
plication and daily inquiry into the progress thereof.
Yea, clear I am, that nothing should be suffered to
hinder us from questioning ourselves, respecting this
important work: no palliating or soothing will do.
" If we would judge ourselves," said one formerly,
'' we should not be judged." The unwillingness of
our nature to look at its own imperfections, hinders
us from making application for a remedy. Our neg-
lect, on this hand, requires rigorous treatment to
awaken us, and show us the dangerous situation we
are in. There is no state more absolute than self-
righteousness; and is there any that prevails more
among the professedly religious part of mankind? I
often see its snare, and beg to be delivered from its
poison.
Let us then, my dear friend, in good earnest put
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up our pra}''ers for eye-salve, that we may see clearly
througli the slender walls and flimsy covering of self-
suflicicncy, and of every spirit that would in the least
degree derogate from, or infringe upon the preroga-
tive of God. It is under a heart-felt travail of soul,
that I ardently wish we may press through the crowd,
so as to lay hold on the everlasting covenant of peace:
for here we have no continuing city. Seeing this is
the case, what ought to be suffered to engross our
attention, or to hinder us from seeking one that hath
foundations, the maker and builder whereof is God;
and in which hallelujahs and praises do forever re-
sound. H. J.
8th mo. 1st. Such were the feelings of my spirit
that I could scarcely refrain from going down on
the bended knees of my body, to implore Almighty
(ioodncss to protect and keep me in the way that is
vvcll-pleasing to him. I often fear, lest through any
part of my conduct, I should bring a stain on the
pure Trutli I make profession of. thou that hast
hitherto been with me, continue thy merciful regard,
I pray thee, lest I fall. I crave thy help, for my
weakness is great, and I feel unable to go forward
without thy holy aid. Hear the voice of my cry,
Lord, and open thine ears to my prayers; let them
come before thee, if I am worthy of thy regard. For
mine enemies arc fierce against me; they seek my
civerthrow; they have digged a pit for my soul; they
iiavc laid snares to entangle mc. But Father, my
trust is ill ilico: let nie never be confounded or put
ti. >*liaini;. Tiien will I praise thee and declare of thy
inarvelloiis works; even in the face of mine adversa-
ries will I speak of lliy mighty power, Lord.
^<\. I had a satisfactory opportunity with Gerard
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Blackford's wife, who is in a declining state of health.
It was comfortable to hear her express her grateful
sense of the tender dealings of the Lord with her
from her youth. She said she had had many seasons
of sickness in years past, when her children were
small about her; adding, '•' I then requested to be
with them awhile longer. I have now been spared
to see them that are living grown up. I have no
more request to make for staying here in this world.
I am willing to go, and hope the Lord will be with
me." To her daughter who was present, she said,
" If thou walks in sobriety and truth. He will be with
thee, and reward thee for thy care towards me." —
There was not much said; but the tendering good-
ness of the Most High was felt, and an evidence given
that he was near. Blessed forever be his holy name,
who leaves not those that wait upon him.
3rd. Our fifth-day meeting large, and I believe a
good time to many: at the close of the meeting for
worship, our select preparative meeting was held.
It was a solid, profitable season; and I wish to profit
by these times of close examination. After this, I
was at their fore and afternoon meetings at Darby
on first-day, to a good degree of satisfaction; then at-
tended the Quarterly meeting in Philadelphia, where
the business seemed to be done too superficially. The
wisdom of the creature, which is foolishness with
God, was plainly to be seen: yet the Lord has an
honest seed that lies groaning under the weight and
testimony of the law. May these exercised minds
be Divinely supported, and in his own time enabled
to go forward. At the youth's meeting, the day
following, it was a searching, solid season.
loth. A sorrowful instance of the falling away of
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one who has long been a professed advocate for the
Prince of peace; which occasions great sorrow to
faithful Friends. Alas! we are none of us safe, any
longer than whilst on the watch. Oh! that I may
be taken out of time, before the adversary prevail
against me, so as to bring reproach on the blessed
Truth. I feel that I am weak, and attended with
many infirmities, and it often seems as if the enemy
was seeking to overthrow me. Self, that great ad-
versary of goodness, is not sufficiently mortified and
kept under. Yet I have, at times, a view of the meek,
lamb-like nature, and long to be more and more cloth-
ed therewith. Lord, forgive all my sins, and give
me strength to maintain the watch against the ene-
mies of my peace. How exceedingly unsafe it is to
flatter one's self, when we have a place in the minds
of the people, and are esteemed by them as upright
and just; while yet they do not know our hidden im-
jjcrfcctions and secret failings! But God searches tlie
lieart, and tries the reins, and shows unto man what
is his thouglil: may this jirayer be mine, " Cleanse
thou me from secret faults."
12th. I attended our select Quarterly meeting at
Concord, whioli was a profitable season; — went home
witii 'i'homas I'iVans, and was at Middlctown meet-
ing on fir.st-day. It was, I think, a good time to many.
Next day, several I'^riends from neighbouring meet-
ings attended our Quarterly meeting at Concord, and
also the youth's meeting; in both which they had
acrcplablc service, and it was a satisfactory season
of edification.
At our monthly m(!cting, the IGth, we had the
rom|)-my of ll;uiii:ih Calhrall and William Savory,
fron) IMiibidcipliiii, to our comfort. Next day, I went
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with them to Kennet monthly meeting, and the clay
following, attended Bradford monthly meeting. It
was to me an exercising tim.e; many seemed to do
meeting business in the same spirit and disposition
that they transact their outward and temporal affairs;
which never will do much good in the church. The
spirit of Truth must be waited for, and its quicken-
ing influence felt, before we can rightly move in sup-
port of the discipline, or advancement of the Lord's
work. On seventh-day, 1 was at the select Quarter-
ly meeting at London Grove; was also at the Quar-
terly and youth's meetings there, and returned home
on third-day evening following.
25th. In company with John Perry, I rode to
White-clay Creek, and visited the families of John
Sanders, Joseph Chambers and Caleb Harlan. Next
day, had a religious opportunity with Jacob Starr's
family to good satisfaction, after which we returned
home. Our meetings at Wilmington on first-day,
the 27th, were both large, and owned by the Divine
presence. I wish such seasons, wherein the hum-
bling power of Truth is felt, were not so soon forgot
as sometimes seems to be the case; so that with sor-
row it may be observed, as it was concerning Ephraim
of old, their " goodness is like the morning dew." —
My heart often yearns toward the youth of this place.
They are near to my best life, and 1 feel a continual
care on my mind for their good. My prayers fre-
quently are offered in secret on their behalf, that the
heavenly Shepherd may keep them from going astray;
that their minds may become more and more weaned
from the pleasures and profits of this world; that all
the glory thereof may be stained in their view, and
the eye of their understandings opened to behold the
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glorious beauty there is in the Truth. God of all
power and wisdom, prepare of them for honourable
and useful stations in the church, — prepare and quali-
[y of both sexes among them for the great work of
the ministry in this place, that thy great name may
be exalted and th)* church and people edified.
2Slh. I believe an humbling time is coming upon
many parts of this land, and that the pride and haugh-
tiness of many of the stout ones will be brought down;
for I verily believe many will be swept away by a
sore disease. But, Lord, be gracious unto those
who have waited for thee. Be thou their arm. every
morning, — their salvation also in the times of trouble.
At the noise of the tumult, the peo])le fled; at the
lifting up of tiiyself, the nations were scattered. —
Surely those will be blessed who are found watching
at such a lime, and waiting for the coming of the
Lord, being ready to receive him in the way of his
juiigmcnls.
30th. Comforted in a renewed feeling of the
strengthening, enlivening power of Truth; bringing
to my remembrance the gracious promise of my (lod,
wIrmi he spake to me on this wise, " In blessing, I
will bless thee; and in multiplying, I will multiply
thee." To this promise, whenever it has been mer-
cifully revived, for about two years past, has this
addition l)ecn made, " Although thy beginning has
been sniidl, yet if thou art faithful, thy latter end shall
greatly increase.'' My trust is in thee, Father; let
U)e never be confounded nor jnit to shame.
31 St. A w<>l niorninu;; but few women attended
our meeting: the mt.'u turned out as usual, but more
punctuality to the time of gathering is needful. It
often luirt.s meetings very much when Friends neg-
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lect to meet at the time appointed. I was exercised
on this subject, and thought I should have something
to say on it; but about the time I was expecting to
stand up, a stranger who was with us, appeared in
solemn supplication. So I thought it better to bear
my burden, than to offer it after such a weighty ser-
vice; for I have often thought it should be something
very pressing and clear to put any forward in speak-
ing after such solemn appearances, when a meeting
is well left in silence.
9th mo. 2nd. Yesterday, my beloved friend John
Perry spent some time with me, in conversation that
was edifying; but my mind was in a low state. What
greater trial can a religious person pass through, than
to feel as if left without the comfortable presence of
Divine Goodness; — left to struggle alone, according
to apprehension, with the powers of darkness! Yet
not alone, or the soul could not stand: but these deep
suft'erings, when patiently endured, tend to purif}^ it
from dross and imperfection, and induce it to place
its whole dependance on God only. Under these
close trials and provings, while self remains unmor-
tified, how doth the creature cry out, and look for
some easier way than to pass through the fire of tri-
bulation! Yet surely those who patiently and resign-
edly submit to the baptismal influence and refining
operations of the Holy Spirit, will be blessed.
3d. Our meetings large. I had public service in
the morning; and it was a time of renewed confirma-
tion, strength and consolation to my mind. Oh! that
I may be kept humble and low, wholly trusting in
God; for herein there is safety. Oh! that I may be
more and more clothed with humility, and emptied
of every thing of self, — proud self, the greatest ene-
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my we have to war with! How it will arrogate to
itself even the praise and worship that belong to the
Supreme Being, and rob him of his honour! It loves
to hear itself highly spoken of. — to receive greetings
in public places, — to have the uppermost rooms at
feasts, and the chief scats in the synagogue. Lord,
discover this enemy to me at all times and in all its
windings; and enable me to trample it under foot as
in the dust.
5th. Low in mind, but sensible of Divine good.
This is a favour, supernatural to human conception,
to know that God is in us and we in him. Oh! that
mankind universally were sensible of this great mer-
cy, that he condescends to dwell in us, and walk in
us. Surely a due sense of his Divine presence, ever
with us, would produce fruits of love, meekness, gen-
tleness, puience, brotherly kindness, charity. Was
this the case with all professing Christianity, envy
with all its evil on's])ring would be rooted out; —
tale-bearing and evil speaking one of another, would
cease; — the rending, devouring nature of the wolf
being subdued, it would dwell with the lamb; — the
spotted leojiard would lie down with the harmless
kid. and ihe calf and the young lion, and the fiitling
together, — and llie innocence and gentleness of the
little child would lead them. What a blessed state
of mind to individuals! and what a happy condition
of the human family, when this glorious gospel day
is more and more risen, — when righteousness shall
be the girdle of their loins, and faithfulness the gir-
dli- of their reins. Then, nothing will hurt nor des-
troy in nil Ciod's holy mountain; because the earth
will be fdled with the knowledge of the Lord, even
as the waters fill and cover the seas. Ephraim will
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then no more envy Judali, nor Judah vex Ephraim.
Lord, hasten the coming of this glorious day in our
souls, that we may be of one heart and one mind.
10th. Our meeting large and favoured. I felt deep-
ly concerned that I might be preserved from a hasty
or forward appearance in the ministry; and very de-
sirous that in all my movements In this great work,
the evidence might accompan}^ that it was the put-
ting forth of the holy Shepherd. I sometimes see
a danger of moving from too small a motion, and
speaking of former views without their being open-
ed in new life. No ministry is so sweet, lively and
edifying as that which arises from the pure life, with-
out any mixture of human contrivance. Any, even
the least confidence in the ability of the creature
without Divine aid, hinders the flowing forth of the
pure stream of love and life. Father of all good,
empty me of all dependance and every thing that is
not of thee; reduce me yet more and more to the
nothingness of self, that so thy holy power and life
may be felt and appear in all my labours to promote
thy blessed cause.
13th. At our monthly meeting, the ancient prac-
tice of visiting families having been revived in our
preparative meeting, was laid before this, and spread
weightily over the minds of many Friends. After
a time of solid deliberation, the concern was feeling-
ly concurred with, and Friends were desired (if any
felt it lively on their minds) to make a free-will of-
fering of themselves to the service. At length, our
friend John Perry in a solid manner ofiered himself.
Feeling the subject to be very weighty, my mind
was deeply humbled, and my spirit conirited before
the Lord, with inward cries that I might be rightly
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directed, till I saw the waj- clear to give up to the
service, in which I felt peace. John Sanders also
offered to join in the work; and tlie concern was
opened to women Friends, who were not then pre-
pared to go into an appointment; so the matter rested.
In the evening, being in company with several
Friends, I thought we indulged too freely in conver-
sation, which afterward gave me some uneasiness. —
I know I have need to take care in this respect. It
is a good thing at all times to have an inward sense
of Ilim by whom words and actions are weighed. —
For want of this abiding sense of the fear of the Lord,
we may exceed in social converse, so as to make work
for repentance. I never close my eyes in the even-
ing with so much sweetness and quietness, as when,
on looking over my past conduct, I have been care-
ful liirough the day to keep my tongue as with a
bridle, and so to take heed to my ways that no guilt
of wilful disobedience occasions a sting or uneasiness
to the mind. Thus, bringing our deeds to the Light,
and feeling peace within our souls, in what a pro-
found rpiiet the mind settles, sweetly enjoying the
presence of its greatest good, without fear or anxiety.
But wc sometimes feel love and fear, as it were, mix-
ed together; at other times we feel fear without love,
and at limes love witliout fear. These dillcrent feel-
ings call for deep self-examination. my greatest
Good, thy chastisements are in tender mercy. I am
never treated with greater tenderness and love, than
when tiiou takes me in h.nul thyself; for thy rebukes
are all in fatherly kindness and tender love to my
loul.
l/illi. Heard of the dccea.se of Anna Byrnes, wife
of William. She was a choice young woman, and
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one in whom I had great comfort. They were a
hopeful couple; but now she is gone, having depart-
ed in peace and quietness, as one falling into a sweet
sleep, leaving her husband almost overwhelmed with
grief under so great a loss; — stripped as in an unex-
pected moment of an endearing and beloved wife,
who was ready at all times to share with him in sor-
row and care, as well as in joy. Next day, the corpse
was brought to Wilmington and interred; after which
a meeting was held, that was thought to be a solid
and good opportunity, though an unusual thing at
this place. I went home with the mournful and dis-
tressed young widower, and stayed all night with
him. My sympathy was deeply and sensibly felt
to flow towards him, and my prayers for him w^ere
ofl'ered in secret on this wise: Lord, soothe thou
his grief; allay his pain; heal. Oh! heal the bleeding
wound. Be thou his arm of support every morning,
his salvation in this the day of his deep distress. Oh!
give him lo feel and to acknowledge with thy ser-
vant David when he said, " I know, Lord, that all
thy judgments are right, and that thou in faithfulness
hast afflicted me." And again, "I esteem all thy pre-
cepts concerning all things to be right; and 1 hate
every false way."
17th. Attended White-clay Creek meeting, and
had an open time there. My mind has been for
some days past in a lively, active state of feeling;
something fresh and green frequently springing up.
As I have been engaged about my outward concerns,
some portion or other of scripture, having a strength-
ening tendency, has often occurred to my mind. —
The following often revives, " God is my salvation:
I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord Jehovah
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is my strength and my song; he also has become my
salvation." Lord, for all thy many mercies, both
former and latter, my soul bows before thee, and ac-
knowledges that thou art good, — worthy forever to
be had in high renown, and to be feared, worshipped
and obeyed in all things. By thy outstretched arm,
I have been brought out of the house of bondage;
yea, by thy mighty power, thou' hast broken the
Ijands of iniquity. Oh! that I may never forget thy
merciful kindness to me, tiiy righteous acts, and thy
wonders in the deeps. When thou clothedst thyself
as with a cloud, and thick darkness was as thy hiding
place, yet, Lord, thou rememheredst mercy, and
spake comfortably to me out of thy holy hill of Sion.
A sense of thy goodness, thy majesty, and thine ex-
cellency, bows my soul as in the dust. Lord, I
liave waited for thy salvation; save me in the day of
trouble; cover mine head in the day of scorching
heat; let the canopy of thy love be over me, and hide
me as in tlie hollow of thine hand. And now, Lord,
let me intercede for my dear wife and tender chil-
dren, that they may live in thy holy fear, and receive
the knowledge of thy Truth in tlieir inwanl parts;
fiirich tlu'ir licarts with thy grace, that they may
grow uj) in good liking before thee, and tiiat thy
blessing may rest upon them.
22(1. Si'f out with several other Friends to go by
water to I'hiladeljiliia, to attend Yearly Meeting. —
The wind being ahead we did not get to the city till
midnight; next day, attended select meeting which
was a solid lime. On first-day, at Pine Street meet-
ing, our friend .lames 'J'iiornton was much Awoured
in testimiiny, and .Tob Scott, a Friend from New
Kngland, closed in supplication. In the afternoon
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at the Bank meeting, a Friend appeared in a long
discourse that wanted life, and brought exercise over
many minds. I attended Market Street meeting in
the evening, in which our friend John Storer, from
England, was Divinely favoured on the subject of
silent worship.
As I had opportunity in the course of the day to
observe some mistakes in others, I earnestly craved
of the high and holy One, to be preserved in my
proper place in those great meetings. I have often
mourned to see and hear some Friends so frequent
in speaking at those solemn seasons, and I have often
been distressed, and sometimes ashamed on their ac-
count. Silence and solemnity are better than words
without life and power. Oh! that I may keep a
watchful care over myself.
On second-day morning there was a public meet-
ing held at each house, and the Yearly Meeting busi-
ness began at three o'clock in the afternoon. It was
opened under a solid covering; and, to the praise of
Him who dwells on high let it be recorded, that we
were favoured through all the sittings till sixth-day
evening, when the meeting closed about nine o'clock.
It is a great thing to keep in our proper places, and
to be ready to receive instruction, as well as to give
advice.
During the time of Yearly Meeting, Joseph Mit-
chell of Rhode Island, who came as companion with
Job Scott, was buried at Buckingham in Bucks coun-
ty. He had been sick but a short time. Oh! what
a stroke it will be to his wife, his family and friends
at home! Our aged friend, Sarah Massey, also was
buried on the 29th. Her departure is rather cause
of joy than grief, being fully persuaded she was pre-
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pared for the awful change, and knowing that she
had longed to be at rest with her God. When I look
towards my own final close (as is frequently tlte case
with me) I sometimes am ready to wish to be dis-
solved, so as to be delivered from the trials, beset-
ments and temptations of this life, arid centred in
peace with Him whom my soul loveth.
10th mo. 3rd. Have laboured under discourage-
ments, both inwardly and outwardly: but my trust
was reposed in my God, and to him I looked for
help and deliverance. This afternoon, feeling a little
relief, I enjoyed some rays of Divine light for a short
season, and was enabled to pray for preservation, and
that I might be preserved from murmuring at the
dispensations of Providence. I fully believe, as said
of old, that "all his ways are judgment: a God of
truth, and without iniquity, just and right is he." —
Oh! what a blessed state it is, to be ready to meet
with calmness (if not with cheerfulness) the varied
trials we have to pass through in this probationary
stale. The deepest su fieri ngs, patiently and rightly
endured, I believe, brings us nearer and nearer to
our greatest Good. Why then, are we so unwise as
to ("omplain, and grow weary of sulVcring? Yet the
flesh is weak, and unwilling to sufi'er. Oh! that I
were brought more into the state of a little child,
and to have no will of my own distinct from, or op-
posed to, the will Divine, liut I look lo him wiio
knows lh(' hearts of all men, with earnest desires that
he would nplioM me by lla: I'ight liaiul of his power,
ill all the trials and besetmcnts which may befall me.
I am well a.ssure(l liiat nothing can hnppen to me
without iiis notice or permission, and surely he will
not sutler more or greater trials to come upon me
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than he will give me strength and patience to endure,
as I put my trust in him.
4th. Was favoured to feel holy goodness near me,
to my great comfort and satisfaction. Oh! what shall
I render unto the Lord for all his benefits towards
me? 'Tis his arm that supports me in the day of
trouble, and my soul shall praise him; for he has
done great things for me.
5th. Our meeting rather dull and silent: a lively
exercise too much wanting. To perform Divine
worship acceptably is a solemn duty; and, without a
very strict watch is maintained, the mind is liable to
be carried away upon objects very foreign from the
business for which we profess to meet. Were we
more inward and spiritually-minded in our daily
walking, what a lively travail of soul would be felt
in our religious assemblies! Were even those who
stand as heads of the tribes of our Israel, to sit under
a right exercise of mind in our meetings, would not
the holy cementing virtue of Truth spread as from
vessel to vessel? But for want of this, a mournful
feelfng of languor often prevails. The children look
up, and as it were, cry for bread, when there is none
to brake and give them. Lord, look down from
thy holy habitation upon thy flock and family. —
Arouse the careless, and bring down the lofty from
their seats. Preserve and nourish thy lambs and the
sheep of thy pasture; and oh! keep my soul from
falling to the right hand or to the left, that I ma}'
walk uprightly before them.
8th. Daniel Haviland, from the eastward, attended
both our meetings, and had public service therein. —
Next day I felt tenderness and contrition of spirit,
and a hope revived that I should be helped, both in
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spiritual and temporal things; for I have been closely
tried in both.
How soon the flourishing prospects of mortals are
cut oi3'! Information is just received of a great flood
at and about Baltimore; a considerable part of the
town under water, so that they had to take women
and children out of their houses in boats. Several
lives lost; also a new mill, and several mill-dams
swept away. Surely, in these visitations there is
something very serious, to a reflecting mind. If we
were truly humbled under them, heavier calamities
might be prevented.
10th. It is a favour to begin and end each day un-
der a sense of the presence of the great I am. To
be a true christian requires great watchfulness and
humility, and is of more importance than many seem
aware of. They that are in Christ (and this is what
makes a christian) Paul said, arc new creatures. Old
things are done away, and all things become new,
and all things of God. It is to be feared that ver}"-
few experimentally know this to be the case with
themselves. For my part, I acknowledge myself to
he behindhand; the infirmities of the flesh not yet
wholly subdued; anger, resentnient, selfishness and
pride, sometimes have too much place in my mind,
and occasion a daily warfare.
1 lib. At our monthly meeting, John Sanders ob-
tained a minute to visit the branches of Exeter month-
1} nu'cting, also some of the meetings in Abington
and Bucks (iuarlors. Women's meeting likewise
appointed two Friends, Hannah West and Deborah
Gibbons, to join men Friends in the family visit.
12tb. I have felt much discouraged of late, in re-
gard to making a living for my family and paying my
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just debts. Business is very dull; little or nothing
to be made; high rents and interest money to be paid.
Many have failed in their business of late; and 1 have
been deeply thoughtful on this subject, amidst my
discouraging prospects, lest the Truth should sufter
reproach through any part of my conduct. The pre-
ciousness of its testimonies comes near to my best
life; and I would rather be taken away than live to
reproach them. But although trials and gloomy
prospects attend, I have no intention to murmur or
repine: for why should I doubt the sufficiency and
protecting care of Him who has kept me from fall-
ing to this day. He hast cast up a way for me here-
tofore, even when no way appeared, both before and
since the time of my marriage and settlement. Oh!
may my trust and confidence be reposed in his kind
and ever watchful providence over me.
Meeting silent to-day; but an humbling time to
my mind, in which I was made thankful in feeling
Divine regard to be near. When Paul was under
trials, being buffeted by the opposing spirit of the
thorn in the flesh, it was said in answer to his pray-
ers, " My grace is sufficient for thee." Surely, this
grace is all-powerful for us now, as it was then for
the apostle. Oh! for a living, abiding faith in its
operations, and its preserving power. '•' Believest
thou that I am able to do this?" said Christ to one
' that was asking a favour of him. His answer was,
"Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief," He
had faith, but he felt his own weakness. When I
consider the great works done by faith, I earnestly
desire to be enriched with this mestimable gift. Man
may believe all the scripture records by hearsay, and
yet lack this living, operative faith that works by
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love to the purifying of the heart. What advantage
shall we reap by confessing to all the truths of the
gospel, and acknowledging our belief that Christ suf-
fered without the gates of Jerusalem for the sins of
the whole world, unless we know him really come
in our hearts, by his spirit and power there, to put
an end to sin and finish transgression in us? Thus,
as the body of corruption is brought under, we ex-
perience a new life unto righteousness, and are cre-
ated anew in Christ our saviour, to love and good
works. This is necessary for all to know who pro-
fess the name of Christ. To say we know him, and
pretend to serve him, when at the same time we have
not known a change of heart from under the domin-
ion of vile affections, is an absurdity, and will prove
but a sandy foundation.
13th. Laboured for settlement and stability of mind.
To obtain the victory over wandering and improper
thoughts, is no small step towards perfection. There
are'thrcc kinds of silence; the first, from action; the
second, from speaking; and the third, from thinking.
The last is the most dillicult to attain; so that perhaps
few of those, esteemed as spiritually-minded chris-
tians, liave fully arrived at this degree of perfection.
The apostle speaks of " every thought being brought
into subjection to the obedience of Christ." To at-
tain this .state, requires close watchfulness and hum-
ble de|)r:ndance upon the aid of Divine grace. By
these means, vain and wandering thoughts will be
overcome an<l banished from our hearts. However
narrow and trying tliis path of inward self-denial may
be, it is the j)alh |)reparcd by the Holy One for his
chcscn sons and daiigbtcrs to walk in. The con-
current testimony of all who have been acquainted
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therewith is, that the farther they have travelled in
it, the easier and more delightsome it has become to
them. " Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me
to be meek and lowly, and ye shall find rest unto
your souls: for my yoke is easy, and my burden is
light." Gracious invitation — blessed promise! Oh!
that we may accept the one, and thus come to possess
and enjoy the other.
15th. On looking over this day's account, I charge
myself with speaking rather too smartly to some of
my famil}', on their backwardness in getting ready
for meeting in proper time. Coming late to meet-
ings is a practice against which 1 have had a testi-
mony ever since I attended meetings from a religi-
ous concern. When Friends, time after time, are
late in getting to their religious meetings, it is an
evidence not only of weakness, but of spiritual sick-
ness; or, their motive for attending is not well ground-
ed, though they may come every meeting day. The
dictates of Truth duly followed, would lead to punc-
tuality in observing the hour appointed, as well as
diligence in the performance of this solemn duty. —
" We owe it to God, and good example," as William
Penn justly observes.
16th. I do not know that I could spend this day
more carefully and circumspectly, if I had it to go
over again; except that in one instance I fear my
temper rose too high. I find it needful daily to la-
bour to keep down every appearance of anger, know-
ing that the wrath of man cannot work the righteous-
ness of God. This evening, as I sat alone, earnest
desires were raised in my soul, that I might be doing
my day's work in the day time. Oh! what an inex-
pressible comfort and satisfaction will it be to meet
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with that blessed welcome of " Well done, good and
faithful servant." JNly mind was also humbled un-
der a renewed sense of the continued regard of Him
who lives forever and ever; — whose mercies are al-
wavs sure, and his compassion fails not towards his
little, dependant children. my soul, surely thou
hast cause to bow in deep, heart-felt gratitude before^
the great and Holy One of Israel, who has done great
things for thee; surely thou hast cause to say, the
Lord is good, and worthy to be praised forever: for
where had I been long ere now, had not his merciful
hand and arm been stretched out for my redemption?
Surely I can say of a truth, " He raiseth up the poor
out of the dust, and lifteth up the beggar from the
dunghill, to set them among princes."
ISth. If William Penn's caution in regard to the
use of the tongue were well observed, that is, to think
twice before we speak once, we should not only speak
twice the better for it, but many times should find it
better not to speak at all, especially when excited by
passion or impatience. When I am with my boys
at work, 1 find it requires great watchfulness lest I
say or do any thing that may produce lightness and
vanity in them, or show quickness of temper and
harshno.-is of expression; so as to lay waste in their
minils the precious testimony given me to bear. —
Young people and even ciiildren are quicksightcd
and ol)scrving. Friends in the ministry, in a par-
ticular manner, have need to be very circumspect,
both at home and abroad. My concern is that my
carriage and deportment may correspond with the
station I liil in society. The apostle doubtless saw
the necessity of keeping the body under, " lest (said
ho) after I have jjrcachcd to others, I myself should
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become a cast-away." I wish all who are engaged
in the work of the ministry, may be alike thoughtful
and careful. It has often grieved me when I have
observed lightness in any of these. I do not mean
to condemn cheerful, pleasant conversation, that is
innocent and edifying. There is a liberty in the
Truth to those that dwell in it; but I want all to be
careful not to abuse this liberty. Some people seem
to have a propensity, or a life in relating anecdotes
of what they have heard this, that, or the other friend
say; and it may be the truth they are thus relating;
but if it has a tendency to raise lightness in the minds
of the hearers, they had better be silent. Let edifi-
cation be the leading object of social conversation,
and discretion will be given to order it aright. Then
will be known even as the psalmist says, " to him
that ordereth his conversation aright, will I show the
salvation of God."
19th. Had a good meeting; and in the afternoon,
we who were separated to the work made a begin^
ning in the family visit. In fifteen days, we visited
about one hundred families and parts of families of
our members. John Perry being then quite unwell,
we postponed the remaining visits. In this service,
we witnessed seasons of renewed favour, in which
the baptizing power of Truth was felt to the tender-
ing of many minds. In some places, it seemed like
a time of searching out the hidden things of Esau.
Surely no service in the church is so deeply hum-
bling as this: to be truly honest, and place things
where they properly belong, giving every one their
due, is a work that requires close attention to the
Divine Guide. Although some few seemed shut up
as in their shells, yet in general, Friends' hearts and
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houses were open to receive us, to my humble ad-
miration. May the praise be given to Him who was
not wanting in furnishing with fresh supplies from
place to place, to minister to the states of the people.
I believe it right to mention a circumstance that
occurred some days before we set out on this famil}'
visit, and which brought me into deep concern, so
that I thought I could not go. Being called upon
for a sum of money very unexpectedly, I knew not
where to obtain it (although I made many efiforts)
and to take it out of our small stock, would prevent
us from going on with our milling business to much
purpose. While I was under great concern and anxie-
ty about it, a stranger who was not a member spoke
to me at the close of our meeting on this wise; " I
want you to come to my house in the morning about
ten o'clock." I accordingly went; when he said to
me, " I have a sum of money, which I have a mind
you should have on loan, and that without interest."
I was fdied with admiration and gratitude, and could
but look uj)on this as a providential act of favour to
me. Surely I have cause reverently to bow before
God; his continued care and kindness toward me
are great. He casts up a way, even marvellously so,
where no way aj)peared. Surely there is no occasion
to distrust his all-sufliciency ; for he will not leave
nor forsake those that i)ut their trust in him. My
mind being tiius relieved, I felt perfect liberty to
proceed on the visit, with a belief that I should be
Divinely helped to discharge my duty.
31st. Our beloved friend, Thomas Evans of Mid-
dlelown, was buried. He was taken unwell in Phila-
delphia, during the week of the Yearly Meeting, and
continued there until his close. He was an elder in
good esteem.
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At our Quarterly meeting held at Concord in the
11th mo. 17S6, we had the companj^ of Job Scott,
John Storer, and Isaac Potts. On first-day, the 12th,
I accompanied Job Scott to Birmingham meeting,
which was held in silence. Next day, John Storer
was much favoured in testimony at the Quarterly
meeting for business; also the day following at the
youth's meeting. Our friend, Abraham Gibbons was
there on his return from a religious visit to Nova
Scotia. On fourth-day, the 15th, Job Scott attended
our monthly meeting at Wilmington, which was a
favoured season, though Job was silent.
22d. Havino; laboured under much discouragement
for some time past in relation to my outward circum-
stances, — business continuing dull, and having high
rent and interest to pay, — I opened my situation to
two of my friends, who recommended patience to
me. I know this is an excellent plaster for many
sores: may the Lord grant me a larger portion of it.
I sometimes, under my gloomy prospects and the in-
creasing expenses of my family, feel like Peter when
he was beginning to sink; and like him I cry out for
help. When this is mercifully afforded, hope and
faith revive, so that I feel ready to defy all the pow-
ers of darkness, discouragement and opposition. But
my trust is in God, and I spread forth my cause be-
fore him; entreating him to sustain me through all
by the right hand of his power.
23d. Felt holy goodness near; for which favour I
desire to be thankful. Some distant parts brought
fresh into view; and although at present I see no
way to move forward, I find peace in standing re-
signed; believing that if He who has raised me from
^ow degree, has any further service for me abroad^
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he will make way for it in his own time which is
ever best. I feel strong desires raised at times, that
I may do my day's work, and every part of it, in the
proper season; not leaving the forepart for evening,
but endeavouring to keep even-handed: so that when
the closing hour comes, there may remain no uneasy
sensations, but conscious of having done to the best
of my understanding, I may receive the answer of
Well done.
24th. A time of renewed favour; had a good meet-
ing: blessed be the name of the Most High, and that
forevermore. Praise him, my soul, for he is good;
and that thou knowest right well. The Lord is good
to the humble; he will exalt the lowly. He will bless
the meek with his presence, and the meek shall in-
herit glory; whereas shame shall be the promotion
of fools. thou that inhabitcst the praises of Israel,
who art glorious in power and in might, redeem thou
my soul from corruj)tion; wash me thoroughly from
every sin; exalt thy power yet more and more, and
make thy name glorious; let it be exalted and extol-
led: for it is thine own works that praise thee. Oh!
may I ever remember, that it is by thy grace 1 am
wliat I am.
LTilh. By ajipointment from our last montlily meet-
inc; several Friends attended a meeting of conference
.il \N hitoclay Creek, in order to spread the concerns
of the Yearly Meeting, by reading the extracts. John
Storcr was with us, and I thought it a good lime. —
Oh I tli;il it may be blessed to the people. Surely
\\u- rci^anl ol the heavenly Father is great to the
w<»rkman.shi|) of his holy hands. Were we all truly
.sen.sible thereof, and walked accordingly, we should
certainly have belter times than we now liave. But
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1 feel my own weakness, and that I am not able to
take care of myself without the aid of Divine grace.
'Tis thou, Lord, that upholdcst me by thy free
spirit, and restorest unto me the joys of thy salva-
tion. I will praise thee for thy great mercies, and
for thy goodness to me in days past, as well as pre-
sent. Oh! let all that know thee, praise thy name;
and let the isles wait for thy law. Then shall the
inhabitants of the wilderness sing thy praise, and the
people whom tliou hast redeemed shall magnify thy
power. Thy saints shall bow before thee, waiting
for thy instruction, and shall move under thy hea-
venly influence.
How reviving to the soul, wheri it is favoured with
the compan)7 of its chiefest Good ! How pleasant are
the hours when the Beloved comes into his temple!
Many precious and blessed seasons do the children
of men miss of, by being so much outward in their
minds, — so much occupied with the cares, and cum-
bers, and amusements of this world.
26th. Our first-day meetings, morning and after-
noon, were large and solid; — to me a time of great
humility of heart and contrition of soul, with inward
cries to the Fountain of goodness, for his Divine
preservation, and protecting care over me. Next
day, we again entered on the remainder of the fami-
ly visit, and continued from day to day, till we had
visited twenty-four families; being all that belong to
our particular meeting, except a few that were from
home. In this labour, we often had cause to bless
the holy name of Him who lives forever, in that he
was graciously pleased to be near in the needful time.
my God, thou never disappoints those that trust
wholly in thee. Oh! that I may be made and kept
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truly sensible of my own imperfections and nothing-
ness without thee; that so my dependance may be
altogether in thee alone. I never feel so easy and
quiet in mind, after speaking, as when my attention
has been closely kept to the Divine motion, deliver-
ing only those things that arise in the pure openings
of Light and Life. In this watchful state, from very
small beginnings, considerable enlargements have
been known. All the operations of the Divine gift
of gospel ministry arc wonderful, and out of the reach
of the carnally-minded man. Oh! that I may be
wholly weaned from all self-sufficicnc}^, that great
enemy to the purity of gosj)cl worship and ministry.
The Gth of the 12th month, 1 attended Concord
monthly meeting, and thought there was a want of
fathers in the church. Yet I am sometimes comfort-
ed in believing, tliat in most places there are some
of the youth under the preparing hand. Next day,
I was at Uwchlan monthly meeting, and had satis-
faction in being there: after which, I made a visit to
father Liglitfoot'S to our mutual joy and comfort, and
returned home on seventh-day.
1st month 5th, 1787. I have often thought, that
Friends render themselves less useful in the neigh-
bourhoods where they reside, by neglecting small
intimations of love or duty towards their friends and
neiglil)()urs, than they otherwise would be, if they
were honest aiul faithful. Were we all subject to
that Power which has ellected a reformation in our-
selves, it would animate and quicken us with a lively
concern for our fellow creatures, when we see them
remiss in their duties. I have frequently, on missing
a Friend from meeting, let him know my concern on
his account. But alas! for want of obedience to little
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manifestations of duty one towards another, we do
not advance so as to become as pillars in the Lord's
house. Hence, it is evident that fathers and mothers
in the church are wanting; upright, honest-hearted,
concerned Friends are much needed in most places.
Yet there are a few, who go mourning on their way,
on account of the low state of society. These are
engaged often to weep as between the porch and the
altar, and to intercede for those who are lukewarm
and indifferent, that they may be quickened to more
diligence.
In this month, Richard and Thomas Titus, from
Long Island, being on a religious visit in these parts,
were at our meeting on first-day, also had a meeting
with the youth, to good satisfaction. I wish every
such opportunity may be blest to them.
Friends who are engaged to labour in Truth's ser-
vice, have need to be very careful they do not get
baffled by taking in too many prospects at once;
neither should they suffer themselves to be drawn
aside by other Friends laying out work for them.
Sometimes Friends may get bewildered for want of
attending to the pattern showed them in the mount.
We never get along with more solid satisfaction to
our own minds, and to feeling, concerned Friends
among whom our lots may be cast, than when we
keep simply and singly to the openings of Truth. By
this means, we are kept from burdening our friends,
both at home and abroad. Oh! that these remarks
may be treasured up by myself and all others con-
cerned in the important work of the ministry.
20th. I attended the burial of my dearly beloved,
and much esteemed friend, Edith Sharpless, wife of
Joshua. Her removal, being sudden and unexpect-
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ed, deeply affected my mind. I mourned the church's
great loss. I loved her as a sister, and respected her
as a mother, whose example was very precious. —
When I met her in a distant part of the continent,
hundreds of miles from our dear connexions and
friends, how did our souls rejoice in seeing and feel-
ing each other in the precious life of Truth! Dear
Edith, I have known thee, when under the direction
of Him who raised thee up, and whom thou delighted
to serve, — to stand as upon the holy mountain; from
whence thou hast sounded forth a clear and certain
sound, in the strength and power of Him who clothed
thee with majesty and zeal. Thou wast bold and
undaunted in his cause; thou regarded not the face
of man. How have the stout-hearted been made to
bow under the power of the Word that flowed thro'
thee! The hard and rocky heart has often been pier-
ced, and obliged to confess that thou spake as one
having authority. But to the tender babes and lambs
of Christ, thy words drojiped as the rain; yea, thy
speech distilled as the dew, — as the small rain upon
the tender herb, and as the showers upon the grass.
Oh! how sweetly comforting, strengthening and re-
viving, hast thou been instructed to hand forth doc-
trine to those who were inquiring the way to Zion!
Surely, thou wast a well-instructed scribe; thou hadst
the tongue of the learned; thy bow abode in strength,
and thou wast enabled skilfully to handle the bright
sword, and the glittering s])car of Divine Truth.
my dear friend, when I think of the loss sustain-
ed by thy removal from us, I weep, and my heart
seems melted with sorrow; — but not on thy account;
nay, verily. It is scaled upon my spirit, that the
God whom thou didst serve, has taken thee to him-
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self, and that thou now enjoyest the blessed mansion
of eternal glory. And though thou hast, as it were,
stepped aside out of sight, yet I feel thy spirit near
in the seed of life, and my spirit is as sensibly united
with thine as ever it was when thou wast in the body.
Had it been the will of God to have spared thee long-
er with us, how agreeable it would have been to have
thy sweet and instructive company and service. But
it is right for us poor worms in deep humility to say.
Not mine, but thy will, Father, be done.
She was justly ranked among the worthies in our
Israel, and was worthy of double honour, for the
work's sake in which she faithfully laboured. Sure-
ly, she will remain fresh on the minds of those who
had an intimate knowledge of her, and were in some
good degree acquainted with her worth: yea, as long-
as we remain here below, she will be present with
us in endeared remembrance. David mourned over
persons of less account in religious matters, and we
may well mourn the loss of our dearly beloved friend.
She is taken away from us in a low time in society;
yet surely. He who has called her home to himself,
knows best what is best for us. 'Twas his power
that nised her up, and qualified her for usefulness
in his church and family; and he can raise up others
in her stead.
In the early part of the 2d month, I accompanied
our beloved friend, John Tovvnsend, of London, ta
Darby meeting; and the same afternoon we visited
four families, to good satisfaction. Next day, we
were at a meeting at Providence, and rode to Martha
Sharpless's, where we had a favoured time with her
family in the evening. The day following, were at
the select Quarterly meeting at Concord, which was
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small by reason of the wet weather. On first-day,
we attended Chichester meeting; and in the evening,
JohnTownsend had a meeting appointed at a Friend's
house, between Concord and Chichester; to which a
good many people came, considering the wetness
of the evening, and John was favoured in testimony
amongst them. He is an example of industry: the
like I have not lately witnessed. On second and
tliird-days, we attended the Quarterly and youth's
meetings at Concord, which were solidly conducted.
John Tovvnsend came home with me, and next day
was at our monthly meeting, where he had good ser-
vice: Oh! that it may be blest to the people.
While I was from home, one of our children got
badly burned; which had a humbling reach on my
mind when I saw the dear, suffering babe. I was
ready to think it was a lesson of reproof to me; for
I had been for several days remarkably cheerful, and
sometimes thought I carried it rather too far. There
is a liberty in the Truth, and among the friends of it;
yet I am very sensible at times, as Paul was, that
there is need of care lest we abuse this liberty.
About this time, I wrote to my young friend,
Thomas Byrnes, as follows:
Dear friend, — Thou art still in my rcmembrante,
and at times, I feel anxiously desirous that thou mayst
bo preserved out of the ways of lolly. Thou seest,
dear child, that many, yea, very many are walking
in the broad way of lilxjrtinism; gratifying the lust
of the flesh, the lust of the eye and the pride of life;
living as without the knowledge of Ood in the world,
and nc'glcrting the great concerns of the world'^to
come. Oh! Ihat thou may beware, lest through the
power of persuasion thou shouldst be drawn aside in-
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to things which will hereafter bring thee into anxiety
and distress. I am in earnest, dear Thomas, when I
put thee in remembrance, that thou canst not begin
too soon to fear and serve him who made thee for a
purpose of his own glory. Thy heavenly Father
hath pronounced the man blessed, vA^o walketh not
in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the
way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scorn-
ful; but his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in
his law doth he meditate day and night. Mayst thou
therefore be concerned to be of this number; know-
ing that it will be of more avail to thee when thou
comest to the close of time, than ten thousand worlds.
Farewell.
3d mo. 5th. How sweet to me is thy presence,
God of truth! I pray thee, continue thy loving kind-
ness and mercy toward me. If the world frown upon
me, leave me not: my soul trusteth in thee, let me
never be put to shame; for thou art my God, my
hope, and my song all the day. And, Father of
mercies, I beseech thee, look down upon the beloved
youth of this place. Thou hast made them feel near
to my spiritual life; Oh! enrich their hearts with thy
grace, that so they may be willing to follow thee in
the regeneration, not regarding what the world may
say of them. Father, I pray thee, stain the glory
of this world in their view, and teach them to set a
riglit value on thy manifold favours and blessings,
both spiritual and temporal, that are bestowed upon
them. Draw them, as with the three-fold cord of thy
love, that with alacrity of heart they may run the
ways of thy commandments, and become prepared
to stand for thy great and holy name, w'hen the heads
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of those who are now concerned for the support of
thy testimonies, may be laid low.
16th, Being in the mill at work, I wrote as I felt,
thus: God of love, mercy and truth, pardon all
my iniquities, and forgive all my sins. Thou alone
knowest my heart; it is naked and bare before thee;
cleanse thou me from secret faults. Lord, redeem
me from all iniquity, and purge me from every sin.
When I was in deep distress, I cried unto thee, and
thou heardest my voice; thou sentest forth the ar-
rows of thy quiver, and discomfited my soul's ene-
mies; yea, when the floods of sorrow compassed me
about, and my heart was ready to faint, tbou girdedst
me with strength and sustainedst me. Thy goodness
and thy mercies toward me cannot be numbered; Oh!
may a sense of thy loving-kindness dwell with me
continually; that I may praise thy name forever and
ever.
About the beginning of the 4th month, in company
with Joseph West and James Robinson jun'r, I rode
to a meeting at Chichester appointed for our friend
Thomas Colley from England. He came home and
took tea with me that evening; and on seventh-day
the select Yearly meeting began at Wilmington at
three o'clock in the afternoon. On first-day our
meetings were both large; two public meetings were
also held on second-day, one of which was silent; —
a remarkable circumstance, but all in wisdom, no
doubt. Thomas Colley had very acceptable service
in two of the sittings: he is a favoured instrument;
being led in an especial manner towards people of
other societies, but not in so close and searching a
way to our own society, as some other Friends. —
Herein the excellency of the gospel appears, as each
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one endeavours to keep his place and occupy his gift
in the ministry. In this great work, I felt but as a
child to Thomas Colley ; and am desirous that I may
ever be sensible of my own littleness. My dear
mother-in-law, Susanna Lightfoot, used to say, " The
way to be truly great, is to be truly humble." I
wish to be more and more so; but am often ready to
fear that I shall never arrive to the excellent state I
have seen, my weakness is so great. Many of late
appear to have made shipwreck of faith and a good
conscience, in divers places. These things are mourn-
fully discouraging, yet I know the pure Truth re-;
mains the same, though all men should forsake it. — '
Oh! that I may be kept from falling a prey to self-
righteousness which gets into high places now as
formerly. When I have the wormwood and the gall
in remembrance, and in humility keep the body un-
der, I am enabled to place things where they proper-
ly belong; to give praise to whom praise is due, and
honour to whom alone it is due. As God is the only
object of adoration, so it is his own works that praise
him. But such is the weakness or pride of the crea-
ture, if not kept in proper subjection, that it will be
taking or assuming to itself the gifts and qualifica-
tions of the Spirit: and surely, it is a high offence to
attempt to deck self with that which is not its own,
nor ever intended for it. Thus, it is said the Lord
hates robbery, but he loves true judgment.
When I take my seat in the upper gallery in our
meeting-house, and cast my eyes over the meeting,
beholding the poor lads toward the far side of the
house, and remember how it was with me when of
their age and circumstance, my heart is often filled
with tenderness and melted with contrition. Under
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these feelings, fervent cries ascend in my heart to
the Lord Almighty, that he may he graciously pleas-
ed to extend tlie visitations of his love unto the souls
of the poor youth, as he did to mine, and that he may
bring them by his outstretched arm to know him to
be their Saviour. It was he that raised me up from
low degree in the world, when I was poor and des-
pised among men. When I reflect on his goodness
and his tender visitations to my soul, and that thro'
obedience I should be counted worthy to have a part
in the ministry, it is humblingly marvellous in my
view, and my heart is tilled with praises to him who
dwells on high, and is worthy to be served, honour-
ed and obeyed in all things.
5th mo. 1st. In the mill, I wrote thus: When I
consider thy greatness, my God, I am humbled,
and no strength rcmaineth in me. thou whose
height is above the highest heavens, and who also
hast thy ways in the great deep; the mountains are
weighed by thee, and the hills as in a balance. Thou
walkcst through thick darkness, and thine eyes pierce
through the shades of death. In vain doth man en-
deavour to hide from thee, for thine eye seeth all his
ways. Thou corroctest the folly of man, and abhor-
rest the imaginations of his evil heart. Thou show-
cst him what is good, and thou givest him a capacity
to choose. Thou instructcst those that fear thee in,
righteousness, and leadest them in the paths of up-
riglilncss. Thou tcachest thy children thy law, and
thy babes thy statutes. Thou clothest thy saints
vvilli righteousness as a garment, and girdest them
with strength. Who can contemplate thy mighty
power, and not abhor themselves? Who can behold
thy glory and not lay their mouths in the dust? Oh!
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continue thy favour and thy loving-kindness unto
thy servant, and grant thy blessing to my offspring.
In the 5th month, I attended our Quarterly meet-
ing at Concord, and was comforted in being with
Friends, although I had not much public service. —
At the youth's meeting on third-day, the clouds
showered down heavenly rain in a plentiful manner
to various states then present. Eli Yarnall was large
in communication on the knowledge of God, as being
the only true foundation of the christian's solid com-
fort and lasting peace. Several other testimonies
were borne, tending to stir up the pure mind, and
encourage to faithfulness in our duties to Him who
has done great things for us. At this Quarterly
meeting, testimonies wxre read and approved con-
cerning our dear friends, Robert Valentine and Edith
Sharpless.
After our monthly meeting on fourth-day, I rode
to Darby, and next day attended meeting in Phila-
delphia. It was large, I believe, from an expectation
of hearing the two English Friends who are intend-
ing shortly to leave this land; but they were both
silent, to my satisfaction. In the afternoon, I was
at the meeting for sufferings; and took tea with John
Storer at a Friend's house, where I felt myself to be
of very little account. After spending the evening
with them, I took leave of the two English Friends
John Storer and Thomas Colley, as never more ex-
pecting to see them.
Soon after I got home, a sense of my own weak-
ness and unworthiness took such deep hold of my
mind, together with fears of not holding out to the
end in faithfulness, that I was almost ready to wish
for some cave or desolate remote place to flee to,
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never again to be seen or heard of. I thought no
mortal could have a lower opinion of me than I then
had of myself. Yet at other times, I have found
enough to do to keep down proud self, that loves to
hear its own praise, and thinks well of all it does.
Oh! what need of strict watchfulness! My desires
are to be preserved in a line of conduct consistent
with the station I occupy in society, so as to bring
no reproach on the Truth I make profession of. —
Rather let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth,
than that I should forget the goodness of the Holy
One to me, and that it is by him I am kept from
falling.
6th mo. 5th. Left home in company with my dear
friend Nicholas Wain, intending for Maryland Year-
ly Meeting to be held at Baltimore. In the evening,
we arrived at the lower ferry on Susquehanna river,
and had to lodge there against our inclination. In
this day's journey, I observed in many places the
trees were stripped of their leaves by worms, so that
their api)earance was to me the occasion of solemn
and awful reflections. To a humble mind, there is
something of Divine admonition in beholding the
havock made by these worms. How easily they
could destroy the grain also, if commissioned by
heaven so to do! 1 believe it is Divinely intended
that we should learn instruction by these providen-
tial occurrences; for it is as easy for Him whose ar-
mies they are, to send them on the fields of wheat,
ami :illn\v (liL-m to destroy the stalTof life, as it is for
them to eat up the tender twigs and leaves of the
trees in the woods.
Tiie morning was rainy and the river rough, but
we crossed in safety, and rode twelve miles to Bush-
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town to breakfast. Then travelled through the rain
and reached Baltimore in the evening; where we
lodged at John Brown's, who with his wife v/as very-
kind to us. We attended their fifth-day meeting
next day, at which my friend Joseph Townsend was
married to his second wife, a daughter of George
Mathews. On sixth-day I was at their meeting for
sufferings, and as its name, so it proved to me. Next
day, was at the select meeting, a meeting for wor-
ship and also for business. They were exercising to
some minds, as were also divers sittings of the Year-
ly Meeting, on account of some appearances by way
of ministry that brought death instead of life. My
desires were that I might learn instruction by the
things that I suffered, and that silence might seal my
lips, rather than I should burden the living seed. A
large number of Friends from our Yearly Meeting
attended this, and were of use; as Friends here ap-
peared but weak in the exercise of the discipline. —
On seventh-day I got home and found all well.
14th. Our meeting was remarkably small, particu-
larly on the men's side. It affected my heart with
sorrow the greater part of the time of the meeting,
in reflecting that a people favoured as we are, should
be so neglectful of our duty. I remembered what
our forefathers underwent in supporting this chris-
tian testimony, by keeping up their religious meet-
ings; also what Christ said, " Other men have la-
boured, and ye are entered into their labours." For
years past, I have been clear in the judgment, that
if Friends had been faithful to their principles, the
priests of all ranks in Christendom would not have
continued to stand in the estimation they do at this
day; and the light of the glorious gospel of Christ
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would have arisen to a much greater degree. But,
alas! many are no more than nominal professors, or
members by birth-right; and too many have rested
at ease, without coming any further. Many are
neglected in their youth, and grow up to be men and
women, who can scarcely give any reason of the hope
of their faith. Surely, a time is coming that will
bring us back to our fundamental principle — that
will awaken the stupid, the careless and the negli-
gent. Oh! the inditferency of many of our members,
with respect to the due, timely and wakeful atten-
dance of our religious meetings! What a contradic-
tion it is to our holy profession, to forsake the assem-
bling of ourselves together for mutual edification!
We profess to place full confidence in the supreme
Lord and Law-giver, as the teacher of his people
himself; — we profess to owe to him the tribute of
gratitude for his manifold favours, — and yet neglect
to hold up this i)ublic standard to the woi'ld, of ac-
knowledging our trust in his providence and our
obligations for his blessings. Is it any marvel, then,
that a cloud so often hangs over our assemblies; and
that, instead of enjoying the sweet incomes of the
Divine presence, we are fed as with the rod? Some-
times, when I am sitting in our fifth-day meetings,
and look over the house, I have been ready to think
a stranger would hardly believe that same house is
so well (lllcd on first-day mornings. On this and
other deficiencies, I have often been led into mourn-
ing, and my heart has been pained because of the
hurt (if the daughter of my people, — the weakness
and the wounds which indiflerency and lukcwarm-
ncss have made in our society. Yet surely, the
gathering love of the everlasting Father is hovering
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over us for good, and would, if attended to, work
our deliverance from all hindering things.
To Thomas Byrnes, Baltimore.
Brandywine Mills, 6th mo. 20t.h, 1787.
My dear young friend, — Thou art almost daily in
my remembrance, and I can do no less than manifest
my regard and care for thee, in spending a little time
to write to thee. I shall treat thee with the same
freedom, as if thou wast my own son; for I think I
could hardly feel more concern for thee, hadst thou
sprung from my own loins. Dear child, when I was
last in town, the tears frequently flowed from my
eyes on thy account; but I said, what can I do for
him? I must leave him here in a place that looks
like leaving a lamb in the midst of wolves. But I
remembered there was an all-seeing, protecting God
who delivered David, when a youth as thou art, out
of the paw of the lion, and out of the paw of the bear:
and I cried to him to preserve thee also. This, I am
satisfied, he will do as thou makest it thy study and
care to fear and serve him as David did. Doubtless
he is as able and as willingly disposed, as ever he
was, to manifest his fatherly care over all those that
seek him early. Let it then be tliy engngement to
remember thy Creator with reverence and fear; as-
sured that the fear of " the Lord keeps the heart
clean;" yea, that it is as a " fountain of life to pre-
serve from the snares of death."
Thou art now grown to the years of maturity and
manhood; and though thou art fatherless, yet remem-
ber thou hast an aged mother who loves thee. Suffer
me to intreat thee not to grieve her righteous soul,
nor bring down her gray hairs with sorrow to the
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grave: but yield thyself to be actuated and governed
by the dictates of Divine grace, — the principle of
Divine light and life bestowed upon thee, and do not
stifle conviction, by disregarding its illuminations.
Let not the ardour of youth prompt thee to neglect
thy duty, — thy indispensable duty to Him who form-
ed thee for a purpose of his own glory. Remember
him, fear and serve him at all times; for thou know-
est not ho\T soon thou mayst be brought before his
dreadful tribunal.
There are those around thee who will be artful in
persuasion, to draw thee in the way that they go;
but they cannot force thee. Do not suffer thyself to
be carried away by their intreaty. The power of
acting or withholding lies in thy own breast; and if
thou wilt but attend to the voice of wisdom, thou
wilt be preserved. Hear now this language which
she utters: " INIy son, if thou wilt receive my words,
and hide my commandments with thee, so that thou
incline thine ear unto wisdom, and apply thine heart
to understanding; yea, if thou criest after knowledge,
and liftest up thy voice for understanding; — if thou
seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid
treasures, — then shalt thou understand the fear of the
Lord, and find the knowledge of God. For the Lord
giveth wisdom; out of his mouth cometh knowledge
and understanding. He layeth up sound wisdom for
the righteous; he is a buckler to them that walk up-
rightly. He keepelh the paths of judgment, and
prescrveth the way of his saints. Then shalt thou
understand ri«j;htcousness, and judgment, and equity;
yea, every good path. When wisdom entereth into
thy heart, and knowledge is pleasant unto thy soul, —
discretion shall preserve thee, — understanding shall
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keep thee; — to deliver thee from the way of evil
men, from the man that speaketh froward things; —
from those who leave the paths of righteousness to
w^alk in the ways of darkness; — who rejoice to do
evil, and delight in the frowardness of the wicked; —
whose ways are crooked and they froward in their
paths. To deliver thee from the strange woman,
even from the stranger which flattereth with her
words, (0 my dear child, give attention to this)
which forsaketh the guide of her youth, and forget-
teth the covenant of her God. For her house in-
clineth unto death, and her paths unto the dead. —
None that go unto her return again, neither take
they hold of the paths of life. But do thou walk in
the way of good men and keep the paths of the righ-
teous; for the upright shall dwell in the land, and the
perfect shall remain in it; but the wicked shall be
cut off from the earth, and the transgressors shall be
rooted out of it."
I might copy much more of the words of wisdom
as applicable to thy case; and which I hope thou wilt
attentively read. Read it often, and be not backward
in letting me know whether thou receives my letters
or not.
30th. I am still deeply concerned for thy preser-
vation; for 1 think I often see thee in very great dan-
ger. Thou art surrounded with temptations; many
endeavouring to draw thee from the paths of piety
and virtue. Dost thou not see thyself exceedingly
exposed; and that if thou art not very watchful and
careful, they will prevail against thee, to the wound-
ing of thy own soul? But if thou duly remembers
and fears the Lord who beholds us at all times, those
temptations will never be able to overcome thee. —
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Thou can hardly be more closely tried than Joseph
was; and though ihy trials may not be in the very
same way as his was, yet every thing that leads from
the holy command, or manifested will of God, if
yielded to, is a transgression and will ultimately
prove our ruin. So that I wish thee to be always
fortified with that grace which induces to say on the
presentation of every temptation, " How can I do
this wickedness, and sin against God?"
Whatever arguments may be used to draw thee
into things inconsistent with our religious principles
and holy profession, yield not thereunto, I affection-
ately intreat thee; for, the moment thou does so,
thou loses ground, and thy strength goes from thee,
as Samson's did. Mark the consequence, — blind-
ness, derision and shame. So that thou canst not be
too careful: to tamper at all with temptation to evil,
is to lose ground; and it is vain for any to imagine
they can go only so far and no farther. I know
what I say by sad and sensible experience; having
trod the path of youth and exposure to dangers be-
fore thee, as well as felt the chastising rod for trans-
gression. Thus, in pure love and good will, I am
led deeply to feel for and to desire the preservation
and the good of all; and particularly those who feel
to me as my own children. Oh! that it was in the
power of my pen to convey to thee the tender feel-
ings of heart I am now possessed of, on thy account:
surely, they would then have place with thee.
Remember my love to Jolui McKim, Joseph
Townsend, William 'I'rimble, and their families. — ■
With the salutation of dear love to thyself, I bid thee
farewell, and remain thy unfeigned friend,
Hugh Judge.
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7th mo. 3(i. Early in the mornino-, as I was busy
in the mill grinding a grist, I felt the humbling power
of Truth, to my great comfort. As I dwelt under
this, the spirit of supplication was furnished me, dn
behalf of the gathered churches and of mankind
generall}', to my great refreshment. It is often mar-
vellous to me that I feel such a flow of love and good-
will to mankind universally; even when I am quite
alone. It is said some of our early Friends were led
to proclaim the everlasting gospel, under such feel-
ings when alone, as though they had been in a large
meeting. This is no longer a mystery to me; al-
though it is too deep to be fathomed by the wisdom
of this world. They cannol, with all their learning,
comprehend the ministry of the gospel. It is a Di-
vine gift; and if humbly and faithfully attended to,
it exceeds all others in doctrine, and for edification.
Perhaps it never flows purer, than through what men
may esteem weak instruments. Yet 1 am fiir from
thinking that those who have a large share of learn-
ing, and are rightly called to the work of gospel
ministry, cannot preach the gospel in purity. I be-
lieve, when literary acquirements come to be truly
sanctified by the power of Truth, they are of use:
but they must by no means be leaned to; if they
are, they become snares, and oftentimes bring a vail
over the understanding. I make these remarks for
the sake of others as well as myself; for I count it a
favour to see where there are dangers, and a great
mercy to be preserved from falling into them. But
we all need watchfulness, and the brotherly care one
of another.
5th. Preparative meeting, the time of answering
our Queries. I dread getting into formality in doing
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our meeting business. I often feel a care lest I should
get in a way of speaking too easily, or too frequently
in our meetings.
For several evenings past, I liave sat up alone till
a late hour; not at work, but feeling so much of the
aboundings of Divine love, life and goodness, that I
seemed almost loth to let nature have its portion of
bodily rest. My God, my rock, the everlasting Arm
of sure defence, gives me a foretaste of the joy and
peace which will hereafter more gloriously abound.
9th. Charity Cook, Rebecca Fincher and Zimri
Gaunt, from South Carolina, came to my house: they
being on a religious visit to Friends in these parts.
Next day I went with them to White-clay Creek
meeting, and the day following they were at our
monthly meeting. On fifth-day, I accompanied them
to Chichester; sixth-day, at Providence, and seventh-
day at Darby. From this place I had intended to
return home; but hearing that my beloved friend,
Norris Jones was in jail, 1 went to see him; found
him brave and cheerful. The judge had committed
him for not taking what is called the test. I hope
he will continue to stand firm in obedience to the
convictions of Truth, and that Divine goodness will
su|)port him. I took the Carolina friends to Reuben
Haines's; i)ut Margaret not being at home, it appear-
ed best to seek other (juarters, and I went with them
to David Bacon's, where I left them under his care;
l)ut they were taken to Jonathan Dawes's, where they
had their lodgings. Oh! that I may ever be kind to
strangers who have left all tliat's near and dear to
them, for ti>c good of others.
Next morning, 1 left Philadelphia early, and took
breakfast at Isaac Lloyd's, where I had a religious
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opportunity with him, his wife and their three eldest
children: then went on to Chester meeting, where
my mind had been drawn for some time, and I was
glad I was there. Called to see the widow Robinson,
at Naaman's Creek, and had a comfortable opportu-
nity with her and some of her children, who were
much tendered in spirit. Returned home in the
evening.
After I got home, I wrote to my dear friend Nor-
ris Jones as follows: 7th mo. 21st, 1787. My dear
friend, I salute thee in a degree of that sympathy
and unity which makes the church of Christ a com-
plete body. I may say thou art very often in my
thoughts, as I pass about my business concerns, with
earnest desires that thou mayst stand upright as the
palm tree, in the pi'esent trying dispensation; and I
have no doubt, thou wilt be directed in that wisdom
M^hich is pure and certain. Every advancement of
our christian testimonies has been from small begin-
nings: and great advancements have been made, as
those who have been called thereto have stood faith-
ful, keeping the eye single to Him who has called
them. Herein they have known an increase of
strength, and a willingness to suffer for the Truth;
the threatenings or caresses of their adversaries being
equally unavailing to move them froni their integri-
ty. My dear friend, attend singly to the voice of
the everlasting Shepherd in all thy movements, that
so thou may not have cause for an uneasy sensation
in the day of thy enlargement. My heart feels with
and for thee. May thy trust and confidence be in
the power of the Highest, so shall the arms of thy
hands be strengthened l)y the mighty God of Jacob,
and thou wilt yet have to tread upon the high places
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of the earth, in the power of Him who is able to do
more abundantly for us than we can ask or think.
For some time past, I have felt some religious con-
cern springing up in my mind with freshness and
greenness, and some distant places have been brought
into my view. This prospect has all been kept to
myself, and I am very desirous to be directed aright
therein, that I may not only have a clear view of the
parts to be visited, but the time when to make it
known. However trying it may be to human na-
ture, to part with endeared connexions,' a dearly be-
loved wife who studies to render my life as happy
as our present circumstances admit, and tender chil-
dren — when I look over them with a prospect of
leaving them, it humbles me deeply, — yet to thee,
my greatest Good, I resign all, — I give them all
up. Be thou their Father, and my support, — their
God, and my everlasting Rock. Cause me, I hum-
bly beseech thee, to know thy will, and give me
strength to do it; that I may not run at uncertainty,
nor go when and where I have no l)usiness.
l.')tii. Our fifth-day meeting was small, — many
seats empty. Oh! tiie halvelings that worship when
it suits their outward conveniency, if they worship
at all. My soul is grieved on account of their great
slackness, because they neglect the assembling of
tlicmselves together for that solemn and sacred duty.
If we come when it suits us, and stay away when it
suits our outward business, can we expect to be fa-
voured with the strengthening, comforting influence
of the Divine ])resenc(! when assembled? But what
can be done to persuide the poor (Quakers? Many
of them who are so called, are willing to be consider-
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ed as Friends of Truth, and yet do so greatly neglect
their religious duty, that it manifests their disregard
of the testimonies for which our worthy forefathers
so deeply sufiered. When I view the situation and
state of many under our name, this portion of scrip-
ture is often revived in my mind: " Blow the trum-
pet in Zion, and sound an alarm in my holy moun-
tain; let all the inhabitants of the land tremble; for
the day of the Lord cometh, for it is nigh at hand;
a day of darkness and of gloominess, — a day of clouds
and of thick darkness, as the morning spread upon
the mountains: a great people and a strong; there
hath not been ever the like, neither shall be any
more after it, even to the years of many generations."
And again, "Blow the trumpet in Zion; sanctify a
Hist; call a solemn assembl}^; gather the people; sanc-
tify the congregation; assemble the elders; gather
the children, and those that suck the breasts. Let
the bridegroom go forth of his chamber, and the
bride out of her closet. Let the priests, the minis-
ters of the Lord, weep between the porch and the
altar, and let them say, Spare thy people, Lord,
and give not thy heritage to reproacii, that the hea-
then should rule over them. Wherefore should they
say among the people, Where is their God.^"
26th. In our meeting, I had some public service;
but was rather afraid I raised my voice in some part
thereof, faster than the gift arose. It is a necessary
attainment to move in the ministry just as the gift
moves, and not to get above it. When matter gra-
dually rises, and life and power increases, with a fer-
vency of mind willing to do all the good it can, with-
out great watchfulness and care, what is delivered
will be in the mixture, even after a clear and right
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beginning. Creaturely activity, and going before
the guide, must be guarded against. I never close
with more satisfaction and solid comfort, than when
1 have kept to the opening, raised only with it, and
closed when it closed. It is a great thing to be " a
workman approved of God." I want to be more
perfect. Sometimes, when I have stood up, having
little before me to utter, yet the intimation being
certain, as I have carefully kept to the gift, doctrine
has opened and spread to my humble admiration. —
Here, the small cloud, like a man's hand, arising out
of the sea, and being filled by the ocean of Divine
love, waters the thirsty ground. But it is unsafe to
move while there is agitation within, or, as it were,
many voices and different sounds. I love to feel a
solemn quiet, a perfect calm, before I stand up, clear
of all flutter and agitation; for this, if given way to,
puts the body in commotion and disorder also; and
moving in this state is going on uncertain ground.
It is better to wait till all these commotions are pass-
ed by, and the still small voice of Divine power is
felt to move and to put forth. I have sat by Friends
who seemed to be in a great fever or state of agita-
tion, previous to standing up to speak; which has
given me much concern and exercise. Even after
such have stood up, it has seemed as if I could not
travel with them in the life. Again, there are ap-
pearances in the ministry, in which every thing in
me gives way, and my sjiirit bears them company
throughout. This is edifying and comfortable. —
Others again, I hear, l)ut cannot feel them; and some
bring death and heaviness instead of life and peace.
Ob! that the pure gift in us all may be deeply and
duly attended to, both in speaking and in hearing.
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29th, Being first-day, \Ve had the company of John
Forman at both our meetings, in which he appeared
in testimony. In llie afternoon was a season of re-
newed favour to my soul, for which I wish to be
thankful to the Author of every good and perfect
gift, whose bounty is great in causing his glorious
light to shine in and upon the heart. What unfathom-
able love! my soul, dwell low before him. Here
is thy safety, thy strength, and thy sure defence.—^
Here, the enemy cannot come at thee; here, no di-
vination nor enchantment Can prevail against thee.
The cunning archers, with all their dexterity, will
never be able to molest thee whilst thou dwellest in
the low valley of humility. Here, thou wilt see the
glory of the Lord, as the glofy of Lebanon. my
soul, praise thou the King immortal, for his mercies
endure forever. Whilst thou hast strength and abili-
ty given thee, praise his hoi}'-, holy name, and tell
of his wondrous works. He hath redeemed thee
from the low pit, and brought thee out of great dark-
ness. I will speak of his goodness; and in the con-
gregations of his people I will declare of his marvel-
lous works. In the night season also will I medi-
tate upon him, and praise his name who is forever
worthy.
If these memorandums of the state of my mind
should fall into my children's hands when I am gone,
I do most earnestly, tenderly, and affectionately in-
treat them to make God their choice, and serve him
with a perfect and an upright heart, clear of all dis--
simulation or false show: for the hypocritical heart
is an abomination to him; his curse is in the house
of the wicked; but he will bless the generation of the
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just. Therefore, turn to him with your whole heart,
whatever may be your circumstancts in life. Keep
God always before your e^'es; forsake him not, and
he will not leave you, but will be your sure reward.
But if you forsake him, he will turn his hand against
you, and as with an east wind he will blast you,
causinu vour name to rot as doth a ararment.
My dear children, I have no prospect of leaving
you an earthly inheritance. If I can be favoured to
bring vou up in the fear of the Lord in a reputable
way, it is all I wish; more than this oftener proves
a snare than otlierwise. I have known men of large
estates, come to nothing; and those of small begin-
nings to advance greatly. So that my solid advice
is, that you faithfully serve the God of your father,
and maintain a daily conversation with him. This
is of infinitely more value than all the treasures here
below. I estCLin it more than gold; yea, than much
fine gold.
What I have written has been done in simplicity
much as I felt, and what arose in my mind at the
time. Had I had the command of the pen, as some
have, when the vein has been open, I could have
written more on some subjects; but I have mostly
made it a point to lay down my pen when the sub-
ject has closed; knowing that the products of human
contrivance too frequently lead the mind astray from
God. My dear children, let me again intreat you to
pursue, with unremitting diligence, the path of truth;
and if you do so faithfully, you will be admitted to
drink of that river, the streams whereof make glad
the heritage of God. Herein is true joy and gladness,
attended willi the voice of melody. Keep near to
Truth and its friends, and by no means turn aside
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from the holy commandment. Do not rest content-
ed with a birth-right in the society of Friends; your
father purchased his right through obedience and
faithfuhiess to nianifested duty. Sceic to become
fixed immovably upon that foundation which has
been the support of the righteous in all ages. Keep
near to the ev^erlasting Arm of sure defence; and
seek to be endued with that wisdom which is pure,
and is able to direct you in all things. The advan-
tages arising from a constant adherence to the holy
oracle, is far superior to all other instructions, how-
ever excellent in their place. You have this Divine
guide with you wherever you go, a justifier for well-
doing, and a condemnor for the contrary. In con-
versation, be watchful: remember you are in the
presence of the high and holy One. Every evening,
when retired from business, carefully look over the
actions of the past da}^; bringing every part thereof
to the standard of Truth, by which all are to be tried.
If, on an impartial review, you find you have not
been so careful as would have been best, humble
yourselves before God, and pray to him for forgive-
ness, and for strength to act more consistently with
his will. It is also of singular advantage, to bear
continually in our remembrance that we are but so-
journers here; even as the apostle says, " Here we
have no continuing city." Oh! may you be con-
cerned to seek one to come, whose maker and build-
er is God.
Sth mo. 11th. At our select Quarterly meeting at
Concord, we had the company of our friends, John
Forman and Daniel Offley. On second-day follow-
ing, the business of the Quarterly meeting was trans-
acted to good satisfaction, Next day, at the youth's
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meeting, our beloved friend Daniel Offley was mucii
favoured in public testimony, as also at our monthly
meeting the day following. JNly soul greatly rejoic-
ed, when he was instructively directed to salute the
dear youth of this place. Oh! may it fasten "as a
nail in a sure place." I believe there is at this time,
some as powerful ministers in our religious society,
as ever there was since we were a people. 1 also,
think there is a great work on the wheel, and that
the time is near wherein many will embrace the
Divine principle of light and life in the soul. This
I greatly rejoice to behold with an eye of faith;
whether I may live to see it or not, I must leave.
The glorious light of the everlasting gospel will rise
yet higher and higher; and many will be brought
within the blessed inclosure of the fold of Christ. — -
Even among those who have been opposers of the
coming of the spiritual kingdom of God, there will
be raised up such as will proclaim the glad tidings
of peace and salvation.
20lh. I attended the Western Quarterly meeting,
at which was my beloved friend, William Savery,
who was silent; — but next day at the youth's meet-
ing, he had good service. I returned home on fourth-,
day, the 22d, and went to see my aged, much afflict-
ed friend, John Perry, lie appeared very desirous
to be cnaliled to bear his trials with j)atience and re^
signation; saying, "■ If he that was perfect unto sal-
vation cried out. My God, why hast thou forsaken
me? well may I feel the like state." lie appeared
also 1o suder much pain and bodily distress; but con-^
tinned till tiie ;jOlh ol the JSth month, when he quiet-.
\y departed this life; and there is no doubt that all
is well with him. We shall greatly miss himj but
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it is a favour to him that he is released from his great
bodily affliction; having suffered abundance from a
ca.icerous humour in his eye. To his friends here,
he was a bright example, in his diligence and con-
stant attendance of all our meetings, being a lively
waiter therein. He was zealous in the support and
maintenance of the discipline of the churoli; know-
ing no man in judgment. In our monthly meetings,
he often called on Friends to feel after the life; and
he was concerned to have things kept clean and sweet
within the pale of society. He filled the station of
an elder honourably for many years; and it may in
truth be said of him, that he was "a man fearing God,
and hating covetousness." There was no flattery or
dissimulation about him; but he was indeed a faithful,
upright standard-bearer. To him that saying was
applicable, '"' The path of the just is as the shining
light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect
day." His removal will be much felt in this place;
but, having lived to a good old age, he is now fallen
asleep in the arms of everlasting m.ercy. He died
in peace with God, and in near and dear unity with
his brethren; leaving a good name behind him; and
no doubt witnessed what he had often expressed, "It
is the end that crowns all."
9th mo. 1st. It has been a time of close searching
of heart to me, and I have had to scrutinize some of
my late public services: but it is good to be searched
to the very bottom. I am often fearful of my stand-
ing, and concerned lest I should grow faster in the
top than in the root of true gospel ministry, and thus
speak of things whereof I have not had experience.
But my cries are to the Lord, the searcher of hearts,
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that he would take away every superfluous part, and
preserve me from a superficial, lifeless ministry. The
cares of this life, and the difficulty of getting along
therewith in connexion with the openings of religi-
ous duty, often bring me very low in mind. But at
times I am encouraged in a belief that the Lord my
God will help me, and make way for me: therefore
will I trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord is my
Shepherd, I shall not want. Althougli he permits me
to be closely tried, yet he will not forsake me. His
presence is more to me than all things here below.
At his right hand there is fulness of joy;, therefore,
my soul, trust thou in him, and lean on the breast
of thy Beloved, who found thee in the wilderness,
and brought thee up out of deep waters. my Fath-
er, may I ever be ready to answer thy calls,; for thou
hast a right to mc and all that I have. Set me at
liberty, and I will serve thee to the utmost of my
power, by day and by night, in this the land af my
nativity, or wheresoever thou art pleased to send me:
only make me sensible it is thy holy will; so that I
may not run when thou sendest me not; nor speak,
when thou speakest not by me. Thou, Father,
knowest my heart, and the integrity thereof; thou
triest the heart and the reins. Oh I cleanse me yet
more and more from all iniquity, and purge me from
every sin, from all mixture of flesh and spirit, so that
1 may be perfect before thee, — that when thou calls,
1 may answer, and be ready to follow thee whither-
soever thou leadest me. Or, when the last trump is
sounded, and the shout of the archangel is heard, that
I may be ready to meet thee in the chariot prepared
to receive my soul, and convey it to the regions of
celestial glory; where, with the redeemed host, it
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shall forever praise thy name, bowing with llw eld-
ers and the saints before thy throne, and worshipping
thee, the Lord God and the Lamb, to whom be lion-
our and dominion now and forcvermare. Amen.
3d. Rose about one o'clock this morninu;, being a
little hurried with grinding some wheat for one of
my neighbours. After I got the mill set to work, I
retired to the house and sat down in a thoughtful
frame of mind, in which 1 felt a deep concern for
preservation. Earnest breathings of soul ascended
from my heart to Him who is above all, that he
would be graciously pleased to support me under all
my difliculties, and a hope revived that he woidd not
leave me.
6th. At our preparative meeting was. Mary Swayne,
who had acceptable service, and mau}'' minds were
comforted through her lively ministry. In the after-
noon, in company with Samuel Canby, I had a Hivour-
able opportunity with a young man who has latterly
attended our meetings, and appears to be deeply
thoughtful under religious exercise. Several others,
I believe have been Divinely visited and awakened
to a sense of their states and conditions. Oh! that
they may be preserved in this their infant state of
religious experience.
I have often mourned as I have sat in our meet-
ings, under a sense of great unfaithfulness in some,
occasioning death and darkness to be felt when we
come to offer the tribute of worship to the Supreme
Being. Our worthy predecessors could speak of the
mighty power of God that was felt to cover their as-
semblies. But it is seldom that we can speak of much
but poor, low times; and the fault, I am sure, lies at
our doors: for He who was with them remains to be
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unchangeably the same, full of grace, mercy and
truth. Alas! it is to be feared that many whom we
might suppose were spiritually-minded men and wo-
men, know but little about the spirituality of true
religion. Hence, the children are frequently crying
for bread, and few or none seem prepared to break it
unto them. Under a view of these things, this lan-
guage sometimes arises, " How hath the Lord cover-
ed the daughter of Zion with a cloud !" The cause
centres in our deficiency. Too many among us are
like a people formerly of whom it was said, They
drew- near with their mouth, and with their lips pro-
fessed to honour God; but their hearts were far from
him, and their fear towards him was taught by the
precepts of men. Alas! for those who rest content-
ed with a mere nominal profession of the Truth; —
steering their course in a line of conduct so that they
can just hold their right in society without coming
under censure; yet know or care little about the fun-
damental principle of Truth, or the narrow way of
self-denial in wliich it leads. Surely, the time com-
eth that will prove wdio are, and who ai'c not, true
and faithful unto God.
Again, when I behold our beautiful youth declin-
ing; from the plainness and simplicity of Truth, I
mourn over them. How easily arc they ensnared
and taken captive, yielding to the lusts of the flesh,
the lust of the eye, and the pride of life! But though
I mourn over the dear children, I greatly pity many
of them whose parents have neglected their duty, —
their religious duty toward them. These parents are
much to blame; they have indulged their vanity in
derkinn and adorning their children in early life,
with gauily apjjarol, in order to make them admired
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as beautiful; and thus, instead of suppressing the
seeds of pride and vanity in thoir youthful minds>
they have been the instruments of nourishing and
encouraging them. Oh! sorrowful reflection! But
it brings me to consider my own children, and the
necessity of f;iithfulncss. I have now six; five of
whom are girls. When I look forward and view
them growing up, thinking also of the testimony I
sometimes have to bear, I am almost ready to trem-
ble. Weakness is ours, and temptations are all around
us; example and imitation are powerful to influence
not only the minds of children, b'-it of parents. O
Father, preserve me and mine in thy pure fear and
counsel, with all those that put their trust in thee.
Though many opposing things, like satans, appear as
if desirous to sift us as wheat in a sieve, yet let thenri
never prevail against us.
16th. In company with Samuel Canby, I visited
the widow Potts's family, and had a good, open time
of communication among them; was glad I attended
to the intimation.
19th. Several Friends called, on thoir way to the
Yearly Meeting, among whom were Kiohard Ridg-
way from Virginia, and Rees Cadwalader from Red'
stone, Pennsylvania, who stayed our meeting on fifth-
day. Next day, my wife and I with several other
Friends went on board Joseph Tatnall's shallop, and
had an agreeable sail to Philadelphia. We went to
the widow Kmlen's, who gave us a hearty welcome.
On the 22d, select meeting began; it was larger than
I have seen, and to me was an instructive time: I
wish to improve by such opportunities. Our friends,
William Matthews, Zachariah Dicks, Patience Bray-
ton, Hebekah W>ight, and Ann Jessop, having j\ist
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arrived from England, were acceptably with us; also
several Friends from neighbouring Yearly Meetings.
Through the several sittings of this large Meeting,
we had seasons of renewed favour, and a good degree
of brotherly condescension appeared in transacting
the business thereof. On the 30th, we reached home,
and my heart was filled with j)raise and thanksgiving
to the ^lost High, for his many mercies and favours
bestowed upon me.
10th mo. Gth. I attended a meeting at Middletown,
aj)j)ointed for our friends Charity Cook and Rebecca
Fincher; and another next day at Concord, where
Charity had a close testimony to bear. In the even-
ing I returned home; finding it really needful to at-
tend to my business. Truth leads to inchistry; and
1 believe that no truly religious man or woman can
be neglectful of their outward aflairs. TJie principle
we profess leads to do justly; and if we are faithful,
we sliall be just in our dealings and business. But
there is danger of erring in judging one another;
wbile in regard to ourselves we may know whether
justice rules in our hearts. When tbou art lioinsr to
speak of another's concerns, sec thou to thyself first,
and remember tbat with the measure thou metest to
another, tbou slialt be measured again. This great
proof of a true christian, is much wanting in the
world. Were we as tender of our neighbour's char-
acter and credit as of our own, tilings would carry a
very dilferent apj)earance from what they do in ma-
ny j)l;ices. We bave a great partiality for ourselves
and those we tbink well of; and this sometimes is
carried so far that we arc blind even to real faults.
This is a selfishness tbat induces us to tbink we see
faults in those whom we do not esteem, where per-
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haps there arc none. There is in some professedly
refined and religious persons, a secret emulation that
leads them, when speaking of others, to say they do
not want to injure them or lessen their standing, hut
go on to wound them deeply hy telling things to their
disadvantage, which they say are true. These are,
in fact, more dangerous than open enemies. " The
words of a tale-bearer are as wounds, and they go
down to the innermost parts."
How excellent the state described by the apostle,
« If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature;" he
is come to the experience of newness of life, and
knows the ground of the heart changed, from whence
those weaknesses and failings spring. Oh! the ex-
cellency of becoming truly subject to the cross of
Christ! Oh! the beauty and safety of being wholly
subject to the government of the Prince of peace!
What love! what harmony! what concord, brother-
ly affection, sweetness and tenderness towards one
another! Here it is that charity is known to cover
a multitude of faults, rather than expose them to the
view of others. Here the strong bear with the infirm-
ities of the weak, and seek to help and restore them
in the meekness of wisdom. Well might one of old
exclaim, " Behold, how good and how pleasant it is,
for brethren to dwell together in unity!"
11th. Our meeting was very large, occasioned by
a marriage; but it was a low, trying time. There
was, however, an appearance by way of ministry and
in supplication, in which I had no share; perhaps the
fault was my own. I wish it may nev.er become a
cross to me, at home or abroad, to sit in silence. I
believe there is no ministry more sweet and edify-
ing, than that which is in the cross to our natural in-
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clinations and wills. Self then has little or no part in
the business; but our greatest care is to be rightly di-
i^ected, both as to time and expression. Oh I the purity
of the gospel commission! the living spring of gos-
pel ministry! There is scarcely any outward thing
more comforting and reviving to my mind, than to
\vitness the savour of life accompanying old age; and
when it is otherwise, it has the contrary effect. Of
this I was renewcdly made sensible at our last Year-
ly Meeting, in hearing some of our ancients speak in
the life and power of Truth. It renewedly animated
me to pursue, witii holy firmness and unabated zeal,
the path of duty in the openings of life.
In the evening, after the family were gone to bed,
as I was sitting alone, with my mind turned towards
Him u])on whom I delight to wait, I was led to view
the depraved state of many of the inhabitants of this
place and of our land. Oh! how moving it is to be-
hold the great departures from the holy command-
ment! Surely, the vial of indignation is nearly filled
Up, and ready to be poured forth upon the transgress-
ors. I am pained in beholding the abominations that
prevail in this land; and what greatly odds to my af-
fliction is, that the pcoi)le who jn'ofess the knowledge
of God in spirit, are so easily drawn into the prevail-
ing customs, and foolish fashions of the times. Great
is the dcj)arturc, even among Friends, from christian
simplicity and plainness, and from true moderation
in dress and address, household furniture, business
and other things. (Jrcat provision is made to satisfy
lustful cravings, and it may be said in truth, there is
"fulness of bread and al)undance of idleness" among
the people. During the troubles of the revolution, it
was a time of humiliation with many, in which they
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entered into covenant with the high and holy One;
concluding if they were favoured with the necessa-
ries of life, such as food and raiment, they would
therewith be content. But now, since peace has been
restored, there is too much of a returning to former
practices, — too soon forgetting the rod and him that
appointed or permitted it. On this account, a rem-
nant are clothed with mourning; for, have we any
more reason to expect to escape the just judgments
of God, than those who have gone before us, whilst
we are in the transgression of his holy law? We
find, in different ages and periods of time, that in-
finite Goodness has manifested his displeasure with
wrong things, warning his people against continuing
in evil practices: and when they turned therefrom at
his reproof, he was merciful and extended his love
and favour to them. But if they continued in those
things for which they had been reprove^, his judg-
ments were sent amongst them. Oh! that we may
call to mind former things, and be wise in this the
day of his mercy, lest heavier judgments than we
have yet known, come upon us. Happy will those
be wdio are so wise as to take warning, and turn from
their evil ways, while the day of his long-forbearance
continues, and turn to him with the whole heart.
16th. The most solid moments of Divine instruc-
tion and enjoyment are often when I am alone. I now
know the truth of that saying, " Never less alone,
than when alone;" for I delight more and more in
the sweetness of Divine union and communion that
is felt in quietude. Herein I have fellowship with
those who have lived retired from the world, and as
strangers in it; of whom, the apostle says, the world
was not worthy. I find it safest for me to avoid for-
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mal visits, as much as may be. This arises principal-
ly from a care lest I be drawn into too much fami-
liar conversation, to the impoverishing of my mind.
But I make it a constant practice, because a useful
one, after I have been in company, to take an impar-
tial view of what has passed; and often feel like a
child brought before its parents for reproof or cor-
rection, if due. Oh! what need of prudent care and
watchfulness in all our words and actions, so as not
to hurt others, nor bring condemnation on ourselves!
ISth. Another large fifth-day meeting, at which
was a marriage. A young woman repeated this text,
"Brethren, mind your calling;" which was enlarged
upon by another, showing the condescending regard
of the Almighty in offering sufficient means to the
children of men to bring them from under the power
of sin, into tlie glorious liberty of the sons of God; —
and that all might come to experience this by taking
heed to the life and virtue of their calling; this being
the door of entrance by which grace comes to work
in us. It was also shown that none need expect sal-
vation that are neglectful thereof, seeing that grace
does not force men and women: and notwithstanding
it is powerful in its operations and persuasions, yet
if it meets not with the free will of the creature,
which is the ground upon which it works, it grows
not into stature. Yet it remains in man, and at times
arises as a witness testifying against his evil ways;
but for want of true subjection to its call, which is to
virtue and to holiness, man is not benefited, neither
is the work of regeneration and newness of life
brought forward. For, if a man, instead of sowing
his seed, keeps it locked up, he receives no increase
therefrom; and yet the life remains in the seed, and
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would grow had it soil suitable to work upon. It is
even so with the Divine principle of light and life in
the hearts of the children of men; where it meets
with a free, open reception, and the mind submits to
it, it springs up and grows unto maturity, becoming
a savour of life unto the living. Its operation is
also set forth in a lively manner, in the parable of a
woman's taking a little leaven and putting it in three
measures of meal, till the whole was leavened. This
shows the necessity of our co-working with grace,
in order that we may happily experience renovation
of heart.
19th. I find it needful to take care lest the Spirit
should be grieved by too much social converse. It
is much easier to lose a calm state of mind, than to
gain or regain it. Some persons seem as if they
never knew when to stop talking; and such often
speak on subjects of little or no instruction or real
use. Scarcely any thing renders company more
disagreeable, than a person who seems to delight in
nothing more than to hear his own voice. While
another is speaking, the impatience of such a one
will be almost ready to take the words out of the
other's mouth, as if fancying he could relate it better,
or in a more proper manner. In some, this is weak-
ness; in others, it is pride, conceit, and arrogancy.
If thou wouldst be fit company for the wise, never
offer thy sentiments without duly weighing them;
neither interrupt a person older than thyself, while
speaking, however disagreeable the subject may be
to thee: but when he stops, if thou canst modestly
put it by, and introduce something more edifying,
thou are justifiable in so doing. True religion is the
best regulator in all things. A truly religious person
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knows a bridle to the tongue, and judges when to
speak and when to be silent. Where such have not
liberty to enter into social conversation, they will
sit silent, or until they see a vacancy of modestly
withdrawing. Study to keep peace in thy own
breast; and in so doing thou wilt enjoy sweetness.
It is said, inward peace is a continual feast, even of
the best of dainties. But how many are strangers
to the peace of a meek and quiet spirit, even among
those professing to be enlightened people, for want
of being still and communing with their own hearts.
Oh! how they miss of many heavenly seasons of Di-
vine communion!
At our Quarterly meeting at Concord in the 11th
month, we had the acceptable company and labours
of love of Mark Reeve and Richard Wood from
New Jersey, and of Thomas Thornburg and his com-
panion Jacob Hunt, from North Carolina. While at
Concord, I went to see Mary Newlin, now in her
ninety-ninth year, and had a religious opportunity
with her. The above-named Friends also attended
our monthly meeting at Wilmington, and had good
service in the meeting for worship. How many fa-
voured opportunities wc are blessed with! There
are many up and down who would gladly receive
the crumbs that fall as it were from our tables. There
is scarcely a month passes, but what one or other
calls to sec us in a religious line. Surely, where
there is much given, there will be much required.
Oh! that we may make a proper improvement of
these favours, and of the lengthened out mercies of
the holy One of Israel.
15lli. This evening, as I sat in silence, my mind
was solidly comforted, as well as humbled under a
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consideration of the tender dealings of the Lord my
God towards me, a poor creature; he has raised me
up as from nothing, and favoured me with a house
and heart to entertain his servants and messengers.
Oh! may I ever bless his holy name, whose kindness
to me is great indeed.
29tii. Wherever there is the least spark of the
light of the gospel, I feel united to it; and can say, I
love all those who love its appearance. Among pro-
fessing christians, there are different circumstances
in respect to education, and a traditional belief in
some things, such as outward orders and opinions.
One believes one thing to be a Divine ordinance,
which another does not; and every one appears zeal-
ous for their own way of thinking. Here there is
danger of letting in prejudices against those that are
not of the same mind: for when self-justification gets
up, and people conclude others are wrong that think
not as they do, a judging and censuring ensues, and
charity, or Divine love, rules not in such selfish
minds. Oh! how much heart-burning and animosi-
ty prevail in what is called the christian world, one
against another, on account of difference of opinion,
even in non-essential things! This has not its foun-
dation in pure love, for love seeketh the good of all,
and unites with the good in all. We are all brethren
by creation, and Oh! that we were all so by regene-
ration and the renewing of the Holy Spirit; for it is
by the cleansing, sanctifying virtue thereof, that we
are brought to the experience of passing from death
unto life, and then we love the brethren with a pure
love, and are careful of judging and condemning one
another. Herein is the glorious excellency of true
gospel unity, — the unity of the Spirit, which is main-
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tained in the bond of peace. This cementing virtue
binds together the members of the true church, and
makes them one in Christ, the head.
But there is danger of taking up a rest short of
this blessed and necessary attainment: for, however
high our profession or pretensions to religion may
be, if we are not crucified with Christ, — if we have
not put off the old or selfish man, with his corrupt
deeds, — if we do not know a dying daily unto sin
and sinful motions, and living unto God a new life
of righteousness, — there is reason to fear that we
know little of the work of regeneration. I believe
there are many who have been awakened and brought
to see their wretched state and condition; and thus,
feeling the terrors of the Lord for sin, have been
humbled into a state of repentance; but not abiding
under the power of the cross, they have been ready
to conclude that the work of regeneration had been
cfl'ected; and thus have mistaken the beginning of it
for the end. But this great work, in which the soul
knows a progression from under the servitude of sin,
which is a state of darkness, disobedience, insensi-
bility and irrcli<2;ion, is tyj)ically set forth in the jour-
neying of the children of Israel from Egypt to the
promised land. We know they did not, in the day
they entered upon their journey, reach the borders
of the promised land; neither do wo, in the day that
we believe and turn our faces toward Zion, arrive at
once to a state of jjerfect redemption. Our selfish
nature and our earthly propensities to evil, are to be
gradually c()nf|ucred and overcome, by our cleaving
to and working witli the grace of God that l)rings
salvation, and teaches us to deny all ungodliness and
worldly lusts, and to live soberly, righteously, and
godly in lliis j^resent world.
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In the latter end of the 12th month, with the con-
currence of Friends, I took a journey into Maryland,
on a religious visit; was out about four weeks, and
returned home near the end of the 1st month, 1788.
While I was absent, three Friends of our meeting
were removed by death, in one day. How exceed-
ingly uncertain are all things here below! Well
might the prophet say, "All flesh is grass, and all the
goodliness thereof is as the flower of the field," which
soon withereth and is no more. So is man; even the
most blooming among the sons of men are soon
brought down from their lofty seats. Seeing there
is no period of life exempt from the stroke of death,
let us labour with all diligence to make our calling
and election sure; not suSering the world with its
gilded baits to divert us from following Him who
hath called us with an high and holy calling, to come
out of darkness into his marvellous light, in order
that we may become heirs of God and joint-heirs
with Christ.
In my late little journey, it has appeared to me
that the life of true religion is at a very low ebb in
many places. Mankind too generally are serving
the world and themselves; the consequence of which
is, a neglect of duty toward their great Benefactor.
What must the end of such a life be! Awful is the
consideration, when we remember that He who sus-
tains the character of the Lord of hosts, has declared
that he will not give his glory to another, nor his
praise to graven images. May his dedicated chil-
dren with firmness and constancy pursue the path
which leads to the enriching crown of eternal ex-
cellency, which the Lord hath in store for all them
that truly love and fear him.
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Letter to Sarah Harrison, a 77iinisier of the gos-
pel, on a religious visit to the churches in the
south.
Brandy wine Mills, 10th of 3rd mo. 1788.
I suppose by this time almost any body or any
thing, however rough, coming from these parts,
would be acceptable to my dear friend, who has had
many baptisms and plungings into Jordan; not only
for those who have never been availingly quickened,
but also for such who have, by their disregard to the
holy command, fallen asleep. Well, however trying
the path may be, I wish thou may be faithful to thy
Lord and Master, who has called and sent thee forth
to labour in that distant part of his vineyard. Do
not let in discouragements, nor give way to them
when they arise, so as to hinder thee from comply-
ing with the clear openings of duty. Put on strength
in the name of the Most High; and fear not men nor
devils, let as many of them as may, combine together.
Be thou valiant in thy Master's cause; and whatso-
ever he bids thee do, that observe and do; and then,
I doubt not, he will gird thee with strength upon the
right hand and on the left; — he will be mouth and
wisdom, tongue and utterance; and, in the midst of
all thy tri:»ls, he will stay thee with flagons and com-
fort thee with his love; so that with one of old thou
wilt have to sing this song, and say, " God is my
salvation; I will trust and not be afraid, for the Lord
.lehovah is my strength and my song: he also is be-
come my salvation."
I know I am writing to one whose experience far
exceeds mine; yet believe thou wilt be willing to
receive this as the cdect of true regard. Please re^
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member my dear love to thy companions, — to Chari-
ty Cook who has left a sweet savour behind her, —
also to Ann Jessop, Zachariah Dicks and others, in
thy freedom, who may inquire after me. With the
salutation of near and dear love, in which my wife
joins, I remain thy true friend,
Hugh Judge.
3d mo. 15th. Notwithstanding there is great oc-
casion for mourning and lamentation, in viewing the
state of society, yet there are seasons in which we
have cause humbly 1o acknowledge the goodness of
the Lord our rigliteousness, in that things are not
worse with us than they are; especially when we
consider what a mixed multitude we are, many hold-
ing their rights in society, as they do their estates,
only by birth, and knowing little or nothing about
the prijiciple. I have often thought, there is great
omission and neglect in Friends' families with re-
gard to the discipline and instruction of their youth.
Hence, many are brouglit up in great ignorance and
rawness, in relation to our religious principles and
testimonies. But though weakness is ours, yet the
Source of strength remains open to them that seek it
in humility. I think sometimes, that there are more
observing eyes upon us who have come into the so-
ciety on the ground of convincement, than upon
others, and that a small fault or fiiiling is more seen
and noticed in us. My soul is at times bowed in tra-
vail on behalf of such, in a particular manner, that
they may keep their ground in the Truth; they are
(if it is possible to distinguish any difference of feel-
ing) nearer to my heart than any class in the church;
I mean such as have been gathered by the outstretch'
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ed arm of the Most High, and brought from the sinks
of corruption, or the barren mountains of empty-
profession, into a nearer union with the everlasting
Bridegroom of souls.
4th mo. 14th. To a young man who had gone to
reside in a populous, mercantile city, I wrote thus:
Let not the pleasing things of this fading world di-
vert thee from thy duty, thy indispensable duty, to
Him to whom we are indebted for all the good things
we enjoy. I am ready to say in the language and
feelings of a father to thee, my son, be watchful.
It would greatly wound my heart to hear of any
breach made by thee. Do not suffer thyself to be
drawn aside by the lovers of pleasure. Go not with
the licentious and the vain. Their unrestrained,
loose, presumptuous ways, avoid as thou wouldst
deadly poison; for their steps lead down to the cham-
bers of death. Thou art now grown to years of ma-
turity, and capable of considering the end for which
thou art placed here in this world, to glorify that
God who giveth thee life, breath and being; before
whom we must all stand sooner or later, to give a
just and true account of the deeds done in the body,
and to receive a reward according thereunto. There-
fore, my dear young friend, do not risk the salvation
of thy immortal soul for the sake of a few short-lived
pleasures. Thou knowest we cannot conceal the
most secret fault from the penetrating eye of Him
with whom we have to do.
Letter to Peter Yarnall, dated.
Brandy wine Mills, Glh mo. ith, 1788.
Dear friend, — Love, duty and gratitude bind me
10 acknowledge the receipt of thy truly acceptable
letter of Ith mo, 2Sth, last; in the reading of which,
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I felt my hope and faith revived in the belief that
I was not, as I had been ready to conclude I was,
wholly forsaken: blessed for ever be the name of the
Most High. He has stood by me in the midst of
my tossings, which have been many and various, and
supported me by his own riglit arm, or I sliould have
sunk, never more to have arifi-in again. Oh! saith
my soul, may I be found in some degree worthy of
his continued love and favour. Having no prospect
of being exempt from burdens, exercises and trials
whilst I inhabit this mortal tabernacle, I am often
engaged to beg for patience that I may bear with
some degree of resignation whatever may befal me.
The present day is a trying one, in various respects.
It is, as thou observes in regard to changing habita-
tions; some say, come here, and others, there: and
when i have given way to their opinions, I have aK
most got lost; for as yet I have never seen my way
from this place. The love and travail that I feel for
the people in and about this place, are beyond ex-
pression. Stillness is indeed the ground of safety.
But I sometimes think I am both blind and deaf
with respect to moving; while yet the nature and
state of outward things seem to call for it; rents be-
ing high, and little or no business to be done. But
whenever I look that way, the people, and the youth
in particular, are brought into view, with this lan-
guage. Canst thou leave them?
Dear Peter, when thou art favoured to approach
the throne of God, the Father of all our sure mer-
cies, mayst thou remember me. I sometimes think
that if I am saved and kept in my proper place, it
must be through the intercession of my friends; for
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I believe the effectual, fervent prayer of those that
are in favour with the great I AAF, availeth much.
I was truly glad to hear thou hadst thoughts of be-
ing at the Yearly Meeting in JNIai-yland: for I rejoice
at others moving forward in their day's work, how-
ever behindhand I may be with mine. I hope thou
wilt be encouraged to do whatever thy hands find to
do. Remembering at this time, one omission of mine
when at Bay-side, on the Eastern Shore, I am free
to mention the circumstance. We went there in the
morning to meeting, and returned in the afternoon
before wc got dinner, so that we were not in any
Friend's house belonging to Bay-side meeting; be-
ing cramped for time as meetings were laid out. I
mention this, that if thou hast not been there, thou
may think twice before thou deprives thyself of an
opportunity of seeing some of those Friends in their
families. They live remote, and have very little of
Friends' company; and I have understood others
have done as I did, which lias not felt so pleasant to
me at times when I have thouglit of their situation.
It is possible to make more haste than good speed.
With the sahitation of dear love to thyself and com-
panion, I conclude, and am thy sincere friend,
Hugh Judge.
11th. At our monthly meeting, Zachariah Ferris
was recommended as a minister. JNIay he be kept in
a steady depcndancc upon that Arm of power which
can preserve in every trial.
IGlh. I feel at no time more suitably qualified for
ihc work of the ministry, than when the most humbled
under a sense of my own nothingness, and the awful-
ncss of the work. In this state there is an entire de-
jiondann^ upon holy lu'lp. It is a great thing, and
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will be found so in the day of awful account, to steer
clear of mixing the flashes of our own imagination
with the openings of Truth; and this is sometimes
done by standing too long. It is a brave thing to
begin in the life, to move in it, and to end in it,
to cast anchor in deep water; — or, in other words,
while there is solemnity over the mind and over the
meeting:. What a sweetness there is to be felt, and
a secret rejoicing before God; having evidence that
we have been preserved, not only in standing up, but
also in sitting down! I have known lively testimo-
nies much hurt by over-standing the right time of
closing. Oh! that all may be preserved from offering
strange fire before the Lord.
17th. A remarkable wet season. Flax and barley
much beat down. The past winter killed much of
the wheat, the remainder is now threatened with
mildew; and in some parts of Bucks county it is said
the crops are almost wholly cut off by an insect called
the Hessian fly. When I attended Long Island Year-
ly Meeting some years ago, this insect was there,
and destroyed most of their wheat. Surely, these
things ai-e intended for our instruction. If we would
but hear the rod and him that appointed it, heavier
chastisements might be prevented. Fulness of bread
and abundance of idleness hath prevailed in the land,
and I believe the inhabitants thereof will be brought
down. It seems to me that a day of humiliation and
deep distress is coming upon us.
7th mo. 10th. At our preparative meeting, the
Queries were read and answered. It was a close,
searching time, in which Friends seemed willing to
get to the bottom of things, and not gloss over smooth
answers, as is too much the case in some places. A
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consideration concerning the use of fans in our so-
lemn meetings, claimed tlie deep attention of some
minds; and it was judged unbecoming the occasion
of our assembling together to wait upon God. As
the women were most implicated in this custom, the
subject was weightily laid before their meeting; and
a belief was entertained, that as Friends keep under
this concern, it will be productive of good.
Oh! that Friends every where and in all things,
did but live answerable to their holy profession!
Were they but duly subject to the Divine principle
and power that first gathered our worthy predeces-
sors from amongst the nations, what bright and shin-
ing lights they would be in this day! We are a large
body of people, scattered pretty much over this con-
tinent, and did we live up to the principles we make
profession of, what an influence our example would
have among others! What a terror and check to evil-
doers! for there is a dignity in the Truth, and a no-
bility in living answerable thereunto, which keeps
transgressors in awe. But, alas! there is such a mix-
ing with the people of the land, that our society is
falling far behind what our forefathers were, in many
respects.
20th. Being first-day, I was at Kennet meeting in
the morning; had hard work, but the meeting ended
to the solid comfort of some minds, and the holy
Arm was magnified. In the afternoon, I attended a
meeting at Thomas Carlton's. The old man being
unable to get out. Friends appointed a meeting at his
house, to be held once a month. It was a good op-
portunity, and I returned home in the evening, most
of the way after sunset; but the ride was agreeable,
having the company of .Tohn Kendall, John Way and
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John Haines, three clean-spirited young men who
had had a desire for some time to attend the after-
noon meeting at Thomas Carlton's, and had con-
cluded to go this day without knowing of my being
there. May the arm of everlasting kindness be round
about them.
2 1st. liy the operative effects of the power of Truth
in the obedient mind, victory over wrong things is
not only obtained, but strength, wisdom and under-
standing are furnished, so as to keep the ground we
have gained, and to move forward in what is called
the Lamb's warfare, under his direction and govern-
ment. We have few (if any) greater enemies to con-
tend with, than the undue love of those things be-
longing to this world, with which we are connected.
They lie close to us, and in times of seeming pros-
perity and peace, we are too apt to become too much
attached to them: they prevail over us, like the old
inhabitants of Canaan did over the Israelites. But
it is throujsh inattention and unwatchfulness in us,
as it was in them. We see in many instances, where
there has been a fair beginning in a religious life, and
for a time a hopeful circumspection, that for want of
watchfulness and a steady care, the mind becomes
gradually weakened, and a withering ensues; till, at
length, numbness and insensibility bring forth sor-
rowful fruits of defection from the purity of Truth.
Yet some of these, as to outward appearance, mani-
fest some zeal and exactness for outward order and
discipline in society: but the life being wanting, their
labours in a public or private capacity do not profit.
If we are useful members of the church of Christ,
there must be a warfare maintained against the spirit
of this vvorld in all its forms and shapes, until we
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obtain a complete victory over it. Even the lawful
things appertaining to this life, if suftered to gain an
undue ascendency, bring the mind into captivit}"^; and
thus '' the cares of this world, the deceitfulness of
riches, and the lusts of other things, entering in
(through unwatchfulness) choke the word, and it
becometh unfruitful." Thus also, the work of re-
formation is kept back, both in individuals and in
the community. The pleasing prospect of accumu-
lating wealth, and obtaining estates for posterity, has
carried away many, even of our society, from the
principles of our holy profession. Hence, the de-
partures from moderation, plainness and simplicity
among us. The children of such, must have an edu-
cation answerable to their expected fortunes (so call-
ed;) and in acquiring it, many are grievously expos-
ed to temptations which, it is to be feared, produce
ruin and destruction to their immortal souls. For,
not content with what they can acquire at home,
they must be sent abroad to become more learned,
to -gain information and a knowledge of the world,
and to become more polished in their manners. —
Since my acquaintance with Friends, I have known
plain and goodly lads or young men, sent over sea
for this purpose; who, on their return, have very
much, and in some cases altogether, banished the
very apj)c;irancc and plain language of Friends.
From tlicsc and other causes, on looking over so-
ciety, I have observed the withering and declension
that have taken place in some families, whose fore-
fatlicrs were renowned for their worth in our religi-
ous community. I could name many in city and
country, where whole families are almost extinct, as
to any prospect of being useful in the church. Sure-
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ly, the defect is not in the principles of Truth we
make profession of. Surely, our christian discipline,
if duly and properly exercised by faithful Friends,
under the influence of meekness and wisdom, would
go to prevent such departures from the plainness and
simplicity and moderation of Truth.
27th. A few days ago, I went to Philadelphia to
try to get my rent lowered, and this day I received
a letter to that import, which has been some relief to
my mind. Since I have lived at Brandywine, I have
been oppressed with high rents, and in the difficul-
ties consequent thereon, I have often remembered
these expressions of the prophet, " What mean ye,
that ye beat my people to pieces, and grind the faces
of the poor?" I believe renters are too generally
oppressed by their landlords in many places, and that
it is an evil in the land, arising from covetousness.
My heart feels for the poor, the widows and the fa-
therless; and the distresses of the oppressed are at
times heavy upon my spirit.
8th mo. 29th. My beloved friends, Norris Jones,
Sarah Harrison, and Lydia Hoskins, came to Wil-
mington. They have been from home nearly twelve
months in Truth's service, southward to Carolina and
Georgia. They attended our meeting on first-day,
in which Norris appeared in a few words to my com-
fort and rejoicing. Sarah Harrison not feeling easy
to return home, but having her mind drawn towards
Friends on the Eastern Shore of Maryland, they all
set out to travel that way on the 2nd of 9th month,
1788. I accompanied them as far as Chester river,
and was at five meetings with them. The seed of
life lies low in many places, and they that are bap-
tized into a feeling sense thereof, must go down into
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a state of deep su fieri ng. Such appeared to be the
case witli dear Sarah Harrison. Oh! that all those
who are rightly called abroad in the work of the
ministry may be strengthened and supported by the
right arm of Divine power, so that they may stand
valiantly for the testimony of Truth, and be able to
quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
9th mo. 22nd. I am sometimes alarmed with an
apprehension, that there are many amongst us who
are trusting too much in a lifeless form, and whose
religion consists only in moral rectitude, or outside
appearances. Oh! how weak and vain, for any to
suppose that He who created the heavens and laid
the foundations of the earth, will be diverted with a
fair outward appearance. He hath declared, saying,
" I the Lord search the heart, and I try the reins,
even to give every man according to his ways, and
according to the fruit of his doings." Now, can it
be possible tbat any person, on serious reflection, will
suppose tbat a form, even of godliness, will do any
tiiin<r without the substance? I sometimes fear that
there arc some among the many names to religion,
that are so far deceived as to think the observance
of rules and orders, as held forth by the society of
which they are members, will stand in their account
as suflicient for their salvation; while yd the strong
man armed kecpcth the bouse of their hearts, and
their goods are at a supposed peace. , But what can
these rationally promise to themselves? Surely the
day will come when they will find that they have
been crying peace, peace; when in reality it was not
so. How bard it is to j)ersuade such superficial minds
of the necessity of looking into their own hearts, and
examining into the bottom of their conditions; al-
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though their eternal salvation is concerned in it. —
Oh! the deceivahleness of unrighteousness, and a
state of false security, that induce people to flatter
themselves that all will be well with them, if they
keep out of gross enormities, allhongh they take their
pleasure in the things of time and sense; they eat,
drink, clothe and adorn themselves as they like, — go,
come, and do as they please, and say their money and
their time are their own: and what will they do in
the end thereof, when weighed in the awful balance,
and are found wanting? These are aptly described
by a late author who says, " The greatest part in our
age and place, have stopped short of the Truth and
substance, by resting in the outside of things: and
therefore Paul, that great preacher of inward, spi-
ritual religion, has taken much pains both with Jew
and Gentile, to convince them of their gross igno-
rance in this particular. For if the latter were, in
general, ignorant of the true God, the former wor-
shipped him not in sjiirit and in truth. If the latter
bowed down to stocks and stones, the former idolized
their forms of worship, instead of worshipping God
through their forms; and so all had sinned, and come
short of the glory of God. The Jews esteemed them-
selves the chosen, the temple of the Lord, and the
seed of the covenant; and they pleaded their circum-
cision, their priesthood, their temple-services, and
their ordinances of Divine institution, as marks of
their election. And a peculiar people they certain-
ly were, but no otherwise elected to salvation, than
as they continued in the grace, and walked in the
light and love of God. For ' he was not a Jew who
was one outwardly; neither was that circumcision
which was outward in the flesh: but he was a Jew
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who was one inwardly, and circumcision was that
of the heart, in the spirit, and not in the letter.' "
These solid remarks, it would be well for all to ob-
serve, who make profession of the pure, holy Truth;,
for, it is to be feared that many are valuing them-
selves, or resting merely on having a birth-right in
society, or on the uprightness and integrity of some
of their ancestors. But it is clear that nothing short
of inward purity of heart will do for any of us. Oh!
may we more and more press after it.
lOLh mo. 1st. Our Yearly Meeting closed. Some
matters of great concern were considered and result-
ed in much brotherly harmony. The injurious prac-
tice of trading in, and using distilled spirituous li-
quors, was solidly before the meeting. Friends' sen-
timents were freely expressed, and great unanimity
appeared to use endeavours to have this mighty evil
done away from among us. It was directed that
committees be appointed by Quarterly and monthly
meetings, to treat with such who are importers and
retailers of an article so injurious to our country.
The eyes of the people are getting open on this sub-
ject, as well as on the slave trade, and to see that
both are monstrous evils. Oh! the streams of iniqui-
ty which flow from them!
Another matter of weight and importance that
came before the Meeting was, that our brethren of
Maryland had appointed a large committee to attend
our Yearly Meeting, with a proposal for an arrange-
ment to be made between the two Meetings. A large
committee was appointed on the subject, who very
unanin^ously agreed that a benefit would arise to so-
ciety, for Friends on the west side of Sus{}uehanna
to be united to Maryland Yearly Meeting. This pro-
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posal met with general approbation, as the concern
appeared to be quite ripe. A committee of men and
women Friends were appointed to attend Warring-
ton and Fairfax Quarter, and also the next Yearly
Meeting in Maryland. May best wisdom influence,
and be a spirit of judgment to them that sit in judg-
ment on a matter of so great magnitude.
In the course of this large Yearly Meeting, I think
I have seen wherein many (and some of those not
in the lowest stations neither) might come forward
with greater clearness and brightness in church gov-
ernment. Much speaking in meetings of business,
without great care and caution, has a tendency to
lessen, rather than increase solid weight. I am re-
newedly confirmed in the experience of the ajjostle,
that five words spoken in and with a right under-
standing, far exceed thousands delivered without it.
Oh! this great lesson of silence! I have feared that
some who propose it to others, know too little of it
in practice themselves. Wait, or " tarry ye at Jeru-
salem, until ye be endued with power from on high."
This Divine injunction clearly points out the necessi-
ty we are under of experiencing the re-animating life
and power of Truth for every service, and not to
presume to move from any former openings. I had
occasion to fear there were some Nimrods amongst
us, — mighty hunters before, the Lord; not patiently
waiting for him to put forth and go before them. It
has been my particular care and concern for some
years (however I may miss it at other times) when
at these great Meetings, to labour after silence, pa-
tient, solemn silence: for it is astonishing to observe
how frequent some are in speaking. There is great
danger of getting into a habit of it. Surely, the life
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is more than meat, and better than words. The im-
patience of the creature needs to be carefully watch-
ed, and its subtil influence guarded against at all
times, both in speaking and in hearing: for nothing
short of a true sense of feeling can enable any to dis-
tinguish between the true and false spring of minis-
tr}', and of speaking to business. In some places
there is much windy, chatfy stufT handed forth for
gospel ministry, and with many people it passes. —
But there are yet preserved amongst us (and it must
be acknowledged a great mercy and favour to the
church) such who can try words, as the taste tries
meat. May the number of these be increased every
where, is the devout wish and prayer of my soul.
11th mo. 22nd. What greater satisfaction can we
meet with in our passage thro' the mists and glooms
of an exercising pilgrimage, than to see and hear of
the constancy and firmness of one another in the liv-
ing way of salvation! However varied may be our
trials, both inwardly and outwardly, if we can be fa-
voured with strength and patience, in the midst of
them all, to keep our confidence and trust fixed in
the sulliciency of that Arm that ever has and ever
will bring salvation to his people, — all will be well.
Notwithstanding we may have to pass as through the
fire and the water, yet surely He who has called is
able to keep us, and will do it, if we on our part do
but comply with his holy commands; and continue
in true subjection to that jjowcr which crucifies to
the world, and the world unto us, with all its affec-
tions and lusts. Oh! that we may ever cheerfully
obey the voice of the holy Shepherd, in all things,
small as well as great. It is certainly the way to
advance forward. Perfect wisdom tries those whom
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he designs for useful purposes, in small thini^s: of
this we have a lively instance in the case of Moses.
" What is that in thy hand?" said the adorable voice
to him. "A rod," was his answer. The next com-
mand was, " Cast it on the ground." Which being
done, " it became a serpent, and Moses fled from be-
fore it." But being ordered to put forth his hand,
and take it by the tail, he obeyed; and it again " be-
came a rod in his hand." Here he saw a manifesta-
tion of the invincible power of the Almighty. Again,
the Lord said to him, "Put now thine hand into thy
bosom;" he 'obeyed, and on taking it out without
bidding, " behold, his hand was leprous as snow."
The next command was, "Put thine hand into thy
bosom again." He did so, and " it was restored whole
as the other." There is something deeply instruc-
tive in this account. Had Moses refused to comply
with these small requisitions, he would not have seen
those great miracles wrought; nor would he have
been likely to be prepared for obedience to greater
commands. Oh! the excellency of obedience to every
clearly manifested Divine requiring! It is indeed
better than all the sacrifices we can propose or offer
instead thereof.
Letter to Charily Cook, South Carolina, llth mo, 26, 1788.
Beloved friend, — I received thy kind and affec-
tionate letter a few days back. 1 greatly desire that
all who have been favoured with a clear and distinct
knowledge of the Truth, and way of life and salva-
tion, may carefully walk therein, and not rest con-
tented with an outside profession of religion, as it is
to be feared too many do. To those in this state it
may be said now, as it was formerly, "Arise ye and
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depart; for this is not your rest, because it is pollu-
ted." And yet how many there are that have the
form of godliness, but exceedingly lack (if not deny)
the power thereof: and without this power, the most
specious pretensions and outside profession will prove
but as the sandy foundation, in the day that is ap-
proaching; because every man's work will be tried
of what sort it is, and every one's foundation will be
proved, and that as by fire. For the day of the Lord
will burn as an oven, and all that is proud, and all
that does wickedly, will be as stubble. It makes me
at times ready to tremble, when I consider how easi-
ly many become settled on their lees, and like Moab
of old, are not willing to be emptied as from vessel
to vessel: therefore they get into a state of ease and
indifference, and their "taste remaineth in them, and
their scent is not changed." On behalf of these easy,
careless, unconcerned ones, I mourn as in secret
places: and yet they pass along among men, accord-
ing to outside appearance, as children of the light,
and they can tithe the " mint, anise and cummin,"
which appears to be all their righteousness, or near-
ly so; wiiile the weightier matters of the inward,
Divine laws of justice, mercy and truth, are verv
much neglected. All! these outside religionists,what
will become of them in the day of solemn reckon-
ing, when the awful command is heard, " Steward,
give up thy stewardship, for thou niayst be steward
no longer?"
I marvel not tliat thou hast felt stri|ii)cd and poor;
for it is a patii in which I believe all who dwell with
the seed of life, have to travel. But if we are buried
with Christ, the seed, in baptism, is it not more like-
ly tliat we .shall in due time rise with him in the
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likeness of his resurrection? for we need not expect
to reign with Christ, without we do know a suffer-
ing with him. The seed, thou knowest, dear Ciiari-
ty, is under great oppression in many minds. It is a
time wherein the state of things is very low in many
places^, and on account thereof, the faithful labourers
have frequent occasion to remember, and in some
measure to feel what Jeremiah said under like pros-
pects, "Oh! that mine head were waters, that I might
weep day and niglit for the slain of the daughter of
my people." I verily believe, that the state of the
church in most places that I am acquainted with, re-
quires that we who are exercised in the line of the
ministry should be deep and weighty in our minds,
before God; willing to go down again and again into
deep exercise and travail of spirit for the cause and
testimony of Truth. And Oh! that we may be pre-
served from moving, or being moved, until we feel
the re-animating and re-anointing power of Truth,
and know the holy Shepherd to go before us, open-
ing the way in all our labours to promote his glori-
ous and blessed cause. I write not these things, as
supposing thou dost not know them; but because
thou knowest them, I am desirous of encouraging
thee in the arduous labour and faithful discharge of
thy religious duties; so that in all things thou mayst
be rightly instructed and qualified to divide the word
of Truth, giving to each state their portion of meat
in due season. And be not cast down nor discoura-
ged, even when opposing spirits seem suffered to
buffet and try thee. "Satan hath desired to have you
that he may sift you as wheat," is a state experien-
ced by the dedicated servants of Christ, in all ages:
but how encouraging to feel the spirit of supplica-
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tion that our "faiih fail not." Yet let us remember
that all this is preparatory to a work and service in
the church, as we stand faithful; for "when thou
art converted, strengthen thy brethren."
Remember my love to dear Mary Pierson, whom
I consider as a mother in Israel, also to her husband
and family; for I have not forgot the kindness I re-
ceived under their roof. My love also to thy hus-
band and children, to Zimri, and to all who love the
Lord in sincerity.
Hugh Judge.
I2th month, 4th. A low time again. I sometimes
think in these stripping seasons that my mind is like
a ship at sea without a steersman; for I am tried (I
was going to say) beyond measure: but that would
not be quite safe; as we believe our gracious God
docs not permit us to be tried beyond what he gives
ability to bear. This, however, is certain; that I am
weak, and not able to endure much. The very things
that I see to be wrong in others, I am too often guil-
ty of myself. Yet I think the enemy is fiercer against
me, than many others. Rut herein also I may miss
it; because I am not acquainted with the trials of
others: therefore why should I judge of things out
of my rcacli? Let me then come home, and stay
there, minding my own proper business; and that
is, to take care of myself. This is what I want to do,
but of myself I am not able. At times, my strength
seems so little and my weakness so great, that I
would fain die, if I could come at it. But this is not
for me to choose. What is that in us which would
wish for exemption from sullrrings before the full
time arrives? He that desireth wages liefore he earns
them, is not just. This I see to be wrong; its origin
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is from beneath; for whatsoever is born of the flesh
is fleshy; we see it so. But in the midst of all our
tossings and weakness, what a favour it is that this
knowledge is given us, or at least not taken from us,
That we can distinguish between what is born of the
Spirit, and what is not. So that still we have cause
to say, " Thanks be unto God for his unspeakable
gift."
When I can feel a little strength in the inner man,
I am led to crave that the Arm that is mighty to
save, and which has raised me up from low degree,
may still be near and support me in the time of trial:
and sometimes I am favoured to feel a spark of liv-
ing faith, that He who has plucked my feet out of the
miry clay, will not forsake me. When this hope
revives, all the tossings and cogitations of the mind
are soon silenced; the mists and fogs of doubts and
fears fly as chaff before the wind, or as driven stub-
ble before the whirlwind. Then this saying is un-
derstood, " One shall chase a thousand, and two put
ten thousand to flight." Wherefore, considering and
looking back over the path I have had to walk in, I
have abundant cause to bless the name of the ever-
lasting Father, who has never failed me in the time
of need, and I believe never will, if I forsake him
not. Surely I may say with David, " The Lord is
my shepherd, I shall not want. He maketh me at
times to lie down in green pastures; and leadeth me
beside the still waters." Therefore, let the inhabi-
tants of the rock sing, let them shout from the top
of the mountains; let them say. The Lord reigneth
in Sion, and his tabernacle is in Jerusalem; his cove-
nant is an everlasting covenant, even the sure mer-
cies of David.
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Sth. I felt my mind impressed with an humbling
sense of the goodness of Him who liveth forever and
ever, and my heart was filled with praises to his holy
name. One of my reasons for penning down some
of my feelings is, that my children may see a little
of my private meditations and views, when I am laid
in the silent grave. I can assure you, dear children,
tliat I esteem those feelings of Divine and heavenly
regard to my soul, far before the treasures of this
fading world. Were it not that the mighty, ever-
lasting Father, whom I have endeavoured to serve
from my youth up, is graciously pleased, at times,
tlius to favour me with his heart-tendering love and
soul-sustaining power, I should not have been able
to get through the varied trials which have fallen to
my lot thus far in my pilgrimage through time. But
blessed be the day, wherein the Lord was graciously
pleased to open my understanding to see the glori-
ous excellency of an inward acquaintance with, and
knowledge of, his pure, holy Truth.
17S9, 1st mo. 1st. The ice generally gone out of
the creek; — a remarkable time, more like spring
weather, than winter.
How good it is to retire into stillness! As food to
the body, so is quietude to the mind. Retirement
introduces to a school of great instruction, when we
thus bring our deeds to the light, and examine our
own hearts thereby. Oh! that mankind did but
know the value of frequently being still, — so that
by retiring into themselves, they might find and read
the law that is written in their inward parts, even the
law of the Spirit of life that sets free from the law
of 8in and death.
4tl». Being first-day, I thought we had a good
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time at morning meeting; afternoon, it was held in
silence, as many of our meetings are of late; for
which I have felt thankful. I do not wish the peo-
ple to be burdened with preaching, but that it may
always be acceptable and edifying. Some children
and servants are so fond of going on errands, that
they are ready to set off with half their message, be-
fore they clearly understand what they are to say or
do. So one of old was in great haste to carry tidings
when he had no tidings ready. Oh! the excellency
of patient waiting, till we clearly understand the
nature and object of religious concerns, and feel it
rather of necessity than otherwise, before we move.
And Oh! that all who are called to the great and
important work of the ministry, may keep their eye
single to the honour of the great name, and count
self of no reputation: for we may be well assured,
that when the creature becomes pleased with the
apprehension that it is in esteem amongst Friends,
on account of the ministry, there is danger of going
from the simplicity of the gospel. This disposition
that loves to hear itself and its labours spoken well
of, ought always to be strictly guarded against; other-
wise it may be prompted to study to please man,
and thereby gradually go from the pure openings of
Truth. We should learn that humility in which we
can hear ourselves spoken of with approbation or
disapprobation, with equal indifierency, as to our
labours in the gospel.
17th. In company with AVilliam Canby, I set out
for Birmingham. On the way, we had a comfort-
able, refreshing opportunity with dear Jane Gibbons.
I lodged at Joshua Sharpless's; and in the course of
the evening, as 1 looked over the dear children, my
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heart and my eyes were full, in the remembrance
of their worthy mother, Edith Sharpless; the effects
of whose religious, godly care over her children, I
thought, were plainly to be seen among them. Next
morning, on our way to Birmingham meeting, we
stopped to see Mary Ncwlin, within a few weeks of
a hundred years old. We had a refreshing season
with her and several others who were present. It
was really pleasant to be in her company, she being
quite sensible, lively and green in the Truth. Went
to meeting, and had some public service therein, but
it was a laborious time. After visiting several other
families, we returned home; and I was well satisfied
that I had been to see some of my aged friends, I
can say from experience, it is good to attend to small
intimations of duty; for if we are not faithful in the
little, wc need not expect to be intrusted with more.
As the fruit of a tree gradually ripens, so do liv-
ing concerns in the minds of those who are careful
patiently to wait, with their eyes steadily looking
unto Him who is the author of all right concerns,
that he may be pleased to preserve them till the full
time comes to move forward therein.
After this, I went in company with Joseph Ship-
ley to Chester meeting on first-day; and next day was
at the monthly meeting held at Providence, where I
met my dear friend Norris Jones, who spent third-
day with me in visiting several Friends' families.
Next day was at Concord preparative meeting, in
which endeavours were used to stir up the pure mind
by way of remembrance. On fiftli-day, wc were at
Darby montiily meeting, — from whence I returned
home with a jjcaceful mind, and was well satisfied in
looking over this little journey. Although the seed
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lies low in some places, yet I believe there is a rem-
nant who have an eye to the honour of Him who is
above and over all worthy forever to be feared, lov-
ed, honoured and obeyed.
Our Quarterly meeting in the 2d month was held
at Darljy. The select mectuig on seventh-day was
a searcliing time; may it not be forgotten. Gracious
goodness is still showing us the necessity of coming
more and more into the substance and life of things,
that we may stand before him uncondemned in the
day when he will plead for the honour of his Truth.
I lodged at John Iluntjr's. and attended Darby meet-
ing on first-day, silent. On second and third days the
meetings were large and solid. We got home to our
montlily meeting next day, and had the company of
John Simpson, Samuel Wilson, Huson Langstroth,
and Rebekah Chambers, who came with us from the
Quarterly meeting, and we had a good time.
3d mo, 2d. Last third-day, I left home, and after
calling to see several friends, went to John William-
son's, at Newtown. His mother lived with him, and
is now in her ninety-fifth year. She is woiitlerfully
favoured with her understanding, memory and hear-
ing, and appeared truly rejoiced that I came to see
her. In an opportunity with the family in the even-
ing, she spoke in a lively manner. On fourth-day,
I was at Newtown meeting, which was a good time
to some. On fifth-day, I attended Willistown meet-
ing, and was glad I was there. Then went to see
Amos Yarnall and wife, and had a comfortable op-
portunity in their room. Sixth-day morning I called
to see JNIargaret Lewis, widow of Nathan Lewis; she
is an aged woman, but green and lively in spirit. —
Attended Goshen meeting, and went to see the widow
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of Thomas Goodwin, who is very helpless, being up-
wards of eighty; but I believe near to be gathered
into the kingdom, like a shock of corn fully ripe. —
What a mercy it is to be kept near the immortal
Fountain of love to advanced age! This I believe is
the case witli those ancient Friends I have named,
whom I have for some time past been desirous to
see in their habitations, and also to be at those three
meetings. On my return, I felt the reward of sweet
peace, and thankfulness of heart for the favour of my
heavenly Father, bestowed on me, a poor creature.
Oh! that I may ever remember my low beginning,
so that I may be kept truly humble, as one of the
qualifications of a gospel minister. When 1 consider
the kindness of Friends to me, my heart is overcome,
to think that one who has been raised as it were from
the duniihill should have such favours shown him.
But it is the Lord's doings, and it is marvellous in
mine eyes. Surely I can say with the apostle, What
I am, I am by the grace of God.
On first-day, I was at London Grove meeting, and
visited <ome Friends whom I love in the truth. I
can say from experience for the encouragement of
others, that it is good to attend to small openings of
duly, as well as greater. Gentle intimations to go
and see a neighbouring meeting, or a private friend,
if attended to, will receive a sure reward. We serve
a good Master, who is a bountiful rewarder of all
those who (according to the measure received) let
their obedience keep pace with knowledge. He
never fails, on his j)art, to give such to drink sweet-
ly of the gcnilc streams of Shiloh's brook, to the
gladdening and rejoicing of their souls; causing them
to make sweet melody in their hearts to their God
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and King, who has redeemed them from the low pit
of pollution. dear soul, whoever thou art that
hast been washed from the filth of corruption, ever
remember the loving-kindness of the Lord thy God
to thee. If thou livest under a feeling sense of thine
own nothingness, he will keep thee lively and green,
and thou wilt know a hungering after a daily supply
of that bread which comes down from above; by the
living virtue of which, as it is feelingly experienced^
there will ascend a sweet smelling savour of spiritual
worship unto God, that he will have respect unto, as
he had to the firstlings of the flock which Abel of-
fered. Oh! that all who have known the Arm of
everlasting kindness, mercy and love, stretched out
for their gathering, may keep down to the Seed of
life, wherein alone stands our safety, our strength,
and our preservation.
5th. Our meeting to-day was silent, except a few
words communicated by dear William Canby. May
we in silence more and more learn the counsels of
wisdom, even the deep things of God, which are by
no other means so likely to be attained, as in pro-
found silence. In this state, the mind is drawn, at
times, to view things with great clearness, and is car-
ried above these lower regions, to see and contem-
plate things of a higher nature. The apostle could
tell some in that day, that they were come to mount
Sion, to the city of the living God, to the general
assembly and church of the.first-born: all of which
is to be come at and known in the silence of all flesh,
our own wills being subjected and brought to be as
nothing. Oh! the wonderful privileges of the gospel.
The more any are emptied of self, the more they are
filled with Christj and from being sons of men, they
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become sons of God, heirs and joint-heirs with Christ.
Oh! that the minds of men were more raised above
these lower enjoyments, to contemplate on things
that are indeed excellent! Many are slaves to earth
and earthly things; the mind, like the inn of old, has
no room, and there is scarcely time to spare to think
seriously on things that are durable. Great hurt and
loss is thus sustained by letting the mind so constant-
ly run after the gain and pleasures of this fading
world. Was not this the case, how many more
bright and shining lights there would be, than what
there now is, in the great cause of truth and righte-
ousness in the earth! My soul travails for greater
redemption both in myself and others.
24th, I got home from attending the Spring meet-
ing of ministers and elders in Philadelphia. At this
meeting, Samuel Smith obtained a certificate to visit
the ])rethren on the other side of the water. Our
beloved friend and brother in tlie Truth, Job Scott,
and his companion, Daniel Aldrich, were at this
meeting, on their way to the southern states. Thus,
the servants are moving about, some one way and
gome another, in the cause of truth and righteousness.
Oh! that the labours of love bestowed, may prove
efl'ectual to the gathering of many to the true Shep-
herd and the one sheep-fold. " I am the door," said
Christ; "by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved,
and shall go in and out, and find pasture." How
clear it is, that the soul-sustaining food, the bread
from heaven, is no further known, than as we are
united to Christ. The more we are influenced by
the holy Spirit, the clearer we see that all true riches,
all riglit knowledge^, all comfort and consolation come
from God. It is impossible for the children of men
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to attain to any degree of the riches and joy of the
holy Spirit, in any other way than hy Divine inspi-
ration. All knowledge and understanding, without
this, is from beneath; and the wisdom of this world,
instead of bringing people to God, leads them to a
greater distance from him.
4lh month Gth. Happy are tiiey that fear always,
that set the Lord always before them, and who have
him in all their thoughts from morning till evening,
when they lie down and when they rise up, and as
they move on through the business of the day. Oh!
all ye inhabitants of the earth, come away from your
toys and your pastimes, your sports and diversions; —
come, ye dreamers, ye speculators, — come, enter into
your own souls and be still, that ye may know God:
there tlie true knowledge of him is to be found, and
not in the regions of self-imagination. However
high the tower may be that ye have been labouring
to build, know assuredly that confusion will attend
it: it is but Babel still. Come, then, thou toiler, en-
ter into thyself, that thou mayst know, as thou art
passing along, an acquaintance with the best of com-
pany. Oh! come, my dear children, fear God al-
ways, and keep him continually before your eyes,
that he may direct you in all your goings. If I have
not an earthly inheritance to leave you, I leave you
this counsel. I have never sought the honours and
riches of this world; but from my youth up, I have
sought an acquaintance with my God; and I have
now for many years past (to the praise of his ever-
worthy name be it spoken) found that which my
soul thirsted after. Therefore, whatever station you
fill in this life, whether as masters or servants, de-
vote a part of your time to wait upon Him who made
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you. I do know that this advice is good. The satis-
faction that my soul has partaken of, at such seasons,
I hope never to forget. But I would recommend to
you most earnestly, to go through the course of your
whole business daily as though you saw the Almigh-
ty with your outward eyes. Endeavour to have an
inward sense of his being always present with you,
the overseer of all your ways, words, and actions.
This will tend to keep the heart clean.
my dear children, and all who may read these
lines, let me intreat you to bow to the power of God
in you; for this is the way to become co-workers
with the holy Spirit. Never be ashamed of the cross
of Christ; give up your wills to its requirings. Re-
member, the Lord loves a cheerful giver. Believe
mc, you cannot begin too early to wear the yoke of
Christ and to bear his cross. Do not, I intreat you,
trifle with a matter of such momentous consequence.
Eternal life is purchased upon no other terms than
what are laid down in the gospel; namely, the sell-
ing of all. If you love any thing more than Christ,
you render yourselves unworthy of him. And what
will all the world signify in a day that is hastening
upon us all, if he should hide his face from us, — if
he should say, I know you not? Therefore, while
you have time and ojjportunity, obey the gracious
calls of heaven, and close in with (he offers of his
love, tliat thereby you may be enabled to work out
your soul's salvation with fear and trem])ling.
15lh. At our monthly meeting, our friend Zacha-
riah Ferris had a certificate granted, to visit Friends
in New York and New England governments; Robert
Johnson of White-clay Creek to be his companion.
The state of our religious society, at times, appears
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niournfully low. To look at our meetings on first-
day morning, we show out large. Those in the after-
noon, and on other days of the week, are often small:
and while this is the case, leanness will he likely to
be our portion. The frequent, or even constant at-
tendance of first-day meetings, while others are ne-
glected, looks at best but like offering the lame of the
flock; I mean by those whose religious principles
enjoin them to attend all their meetings. Yet I am
sensible that barely going to meetings will do little
for any of us; but when it becomes a matter of indif-
ference to men and women^ and they Can go or stay
at home as it suits them, feeling nothing to bind them
to this reasonable duty, they are of little worth in
society; for those who are slack in the attendance of
meetings, are often idlers when there, and frequently
subject to drowsiness or other weaknesses. Surely,
there will a day of awakening overtake the profes-
sors of Truth; — a day of purging and cleansing the
camp. We are become a great multitude, — a large
body of people; and I often see and feel that things
are much in the mixture among us. Many are em-
ployed in the discipline of the church who are not
sound, healthy members of the body; whereby weak'
ness is increased in society: for how can a man be
supposed fit to labour for the restoration of offend-
ers, when he is unfaithful to his Maker, a delinquent
himself, and a poor example to his own family.^ A
fountain cannot send forth salt water and fresh at the
same time. The gospel direction remains unaltera*
bly the same, " First cast the beam out of thine own
eye, then shalt thou see clearly to cast the mote out
of thy brother's eye." I feel more and more a care
in naming Friends to weighty services in society;
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and believe a caution is necessary on this head, in
most of our meetings for discipline. It is a weighty
thing to undertake to be mouth for the holy Spirit,
in separating Friends to services in his church.
5th mo. 3d. In company with my wife, I attend-
ed Chichester meeting; and as we were coming home
in the afternoon, the horse took fright and ran vio-
lently down hill with the chair, in a very bad piece
of road. My dear wife was thrown out, and fell with
great force on her head and shoulders; by which she
was so stunned, that 1 thought she was killed. After
some time, she came to, so that we got her home, it
being but about two miles. The thought of being
stripped, as in the twinkling of an eye, of a beloved
companion, deeply affected my heart; but I looked
to Him for help^nd support, who has all power in
heaven and earth, and the arm of his everlasting kind-
ness was underneath. Ilcr understanding did not re-
turn till next morning; when she knew where she
was, but remembered nothing of what had happened,
although she felt herself verv much bruised. The day
following, my spirit was depressed and covered with
a weight of awfulness, in thinking of the danger we
were in, and how narrowly my dear wife escaped be-
in<'- killed. Oh! that I may never forget the hand
that interposed and the j)owcr that protected. I give
thee thanks, Majesty of heaven, that we were not
dashed to pieces, or crippled for life. Merciful kind-
ness indeed! praises, praises be to thy holy name,
and that forevermore.
5th. I went to see Hannah West, who appeared to
be near her close; yet she had her undersliinding
clear and sound. As 1 sat by her she took hold of
my hand, and asked me how it looked to me: I told
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her I had no doubt all was well with her. "And will
be so?" said she. I answered, yes. After a pause, she
said, "' I don't know why I am held in this way. I
have seen a glorious state; but my example has shone
but glimmeringly to what it might have done, had I
been enough given up. I feci a great concern for
our women's meeting, yea, for all our meetings. —
Oh! that women elders may be faithful: fori have
had a prospect that the labours of some that are now
living will be blessed; and that Truth will yet pros-
per in this place, and among women Friends, by the
faithfulness of some that are little thought of." She
then mentioned a piece of writing she had prepared,
which she said might be made such use of as Friends
thought proper after she was gone; and named Mary
Canby to liave the care of it. She then added, " I
have thought much of thy neighbour's daughters,
whose appearance indicates a deviation from the pu-
rity of our principles and profession. But I have had
a comfortable hope that their father will do as Abra-
ham formerly did, command his household after him.
I know he has his exercises, and they will be likely
to increase."
This opportunity was a heart-melting time to those
present. Oh! the excellency of having the mind
calmly composed at such an awful season, when the
prospect is at hand of entering another state of being,
never to be changed!
9th. Our Quarterly meeting of ministers and el-
ders was held in the new house at Concord. On
second and third days, the meetings were very large,
and attended by divers Friends from neighbouring-
Quarters, whose company and labours of love were
comforting. Dear Peter Yarnall also attended our
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monthly meeting next day, and was a son of consola-
tion to my mind.
15th. In company with my beloved friend and
true yoke-fellow, Eli Yarnall, I set out to attend Sa-
lem Quarterly and general meeting; but the shallop
getting aground, we returned to Wilmington. Next
morning, three young men took us over the river in
their boat; when near the mouth of Salem creek, as
the wind was calm, and seeing a goodly looking house
on the east side, we pmposed to the young men to
land us near it. We accordingly went ashore on
firm ground, and set forward toward the house; but
when we got to it, to our great surprise, found it
empty and uninhabited. Nor was this the worst;
for, as we went on towards some plantations which
we saw at a distance, we found ourselves hemmed in
by water on every side; the banks being so exceed-
ingly broken, the waters surrounded the piece of land
on which we were, forming an island. Here we tra-
velled from ditch to ditch, looking for some way to
get ofi", but all our efforts were vain; till, at length
we saw at a distance a man and a lad on horseback,
to whom we called and made signs. It happened
they were coming to leave some horses on the island,
and take others off. So we met them at an old cause-
way; but seeing the difliculty of their crossing, we
thougbt it by no means prudent to venture, as we
must have been to our middles in mud and slush. —
We therefore waited till the lad went three or four
miles round for a small boat, in which we crossed
the water and went to the man's house. There we
rested awhile, and the woman hastened to prepare
us some bacon and eggs; she and her husband being
very kind to us, would f\in have us stay all night;
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but we, acknowledging their kindness, offered to pay
them for their trouble; which they refused, saying
we were heartily welcome. We then moved on to
a Friend's house about two miles, where we had
thoughts of staying the night; but being very coolly
received by the woman of the house, we went on to
a tavern and hired a wagon to take us to Salem, where
we arrived about sun-set, and lodged at the house of
our friend, John Redman, where we were kindly en-
tertained. On first-day morning we attended Salem
meeting, and Alloways-crcek in the afternoon; both
of which were large. On second-day, were at the
Quarterly meeting at Salem, which was large and
solidly conducted. The general meeting on third-
day was very large, and held near four hours, in great
stillness, considering the mixed multitude. On fourth-
day we attended a meeting at Pilesgrove, in which
the doctrines of Truth flowed freely towards the
people. Here, we parted with many Friends in
much nearness of spirit, and returned to Joshua
Thompson's at Salem.
21st. We went on board the boat, and crossed the
river so as to reach our meeting at Wilmington, tho'
rather late. After meeting, I parted with dear Eli
Yarnall, whose company had been very acceptable.
He has a good gift in the ministry, — is solid and
weighty in his spirit, and a man of good understand-
ing. I have no doubt, as he dwells near the Arm
that is mighty to preserve, he will be of much use
in his day. I have also been much comforted in be-
ing with Friends over the river; especially in seeing
so large a number of goodly-looking 5'^oung men and
women, whose quiet deportment in those large meet-
ings was a great satisfaction.
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24th. Meetings silent. The people's minds are
too much outward, gazing and wishing to hear words.
Silence is as death to the natural mind. To the mind
that has no understanding in spiritual things, silence
is very unwelcome. I feei a deep and daily care to
set before the people an example of humble silence;
yet I would not wish to withhold from them their
due. It is a great thing, and will be found so, to
stand clear on every hand. Let me often examine
myself: if I appear in public testimony, am I careful
to look well to the moving cause? Do I feel the en-
gaging love of Christ to draw me forth; and then to
speak only as the Spirit giveth utterance, without
any contrivance, art or study of the creature? Is the
mind humbled under the awfulness of appearing in
the assemblies of the Lord's people; amongst whom
there are lively, feeling members who can try words
as the mouth tasteth meat? Or, is tlie creature pleas-
ed with the character of being a minister of the gos-
pel? my souJ, thy safety is in an humble, careful
walking before God. If thou seek honour in any
other way, than in deep humilit}', thou wilt be mis-
taken in the pursuit; thou wilt weary thyself foir
nought. remember, there is no true honour, but
that which cometh from above; even as thy God hath
said, '^Thcm that honour me, I wUl honour; but they
that despise me shall be lightly esteemed."
3lst. Came homefrom Philadelphia last evening; — '
was at meeting there on fifth-day, in which I had
something to say for the encouragement of those who
mourn as between the j)orch and. the altar. Oh! the
condescending goodness of the high and holy One,
to the poor and needy in sjjirit who pant after his
living j)resence as Uavid did, when he said, " My
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soul tliirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall
I come and appear before God?" ye children,
born of the incorruptible seed and word of life, keep
near the Kock that hath sustained you in your infant
state; hold fast that wliich ye have received, let what
may happen to you in passing through the ruggecl
paths of this life. Oh! keep humble, and abide in
the root and foundation of the true church, against
which none of the powers of evil shall ever be able
to prevail.
In the morning, I attended the burial of Sarah
Williamson at Newtown. The company and meet-
ing was very large; and, through condescending love,
we had a solid, edifying season together. After which,
in company with my beloved friends, Eli Yarnall and
James Emlen, I came to their afternoon meeting at
Middletown; in which there was some public service
in a close, plain way.
On the Sth of the 6th month, in company with
Joseph Tatnall, I attended Goshen general meeting,
and next day, a like meeting at Uwchlan. The day
following was at our monthly meeting. It appears
to me the minds of Friends are too much outward^
and therefore I should not marvel if faithful minis-
ters were more and more led into an example of si-
lence in our religious assemblies.
25th. He who formed us, knows best what is best
for his children and people; he leads them at times
as in the deeps, in the midst of the paths of the sea,
to make himself a glorious name. If we are so wise
as patiently to submit to the means proposed for our
cleansing and purifying, we shall be able to say with
the apostle, that all things work together for good to
them that love and fear the Lord : and the more we
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are given uj) in heart to serve him faithfully, the
clearer we shall see that all he does is well done, and
shall come to know that all his ways are ways of
pleasantness, and all his paths are peace.
7th mo. 3rd. A contented mind is seldom found
among the great of this world; but is what we all
should kecj) in view, and earnestly press after. It
is a treasure more likely to be found in solitary cot-
tages, than in palaces and courts. I sometimes have
near fellowship with those who have retired from the
world, that they might more abstractedly and de-
votedly serve God. thou travelling pilgrim, who-
ever thou art, keep moving forward, however slow
thy progress may be. The ladder which Jacob saw,
the top of which reaches up to heaven, must be gra-
dually ascended; but every round thou gainest, thou
must endeavour to keep with firmness; even in thy
deepest trials, thou must not let go thy hold. Be
well assured thy God will not leave thee, if thou art
constant in thy love to b.im, and provest it by meek-
ness and patience under suflering. But carefully
guard against murmuring or complaining, even when
thou mayst feel as if stripped to the root, and left (to
thy own apprehension) destitute of every sensible
feeling of Divine good. Do not enter into imperti-
nent queries why it is thus with thee, but in holy
patience possess thy soul in quietness and in humble
confidence, wherein is thy strength, until He is pleas-
ed to arise for thy deliverance and enlargement, as
with healing in his wings, who remains to be over
all, God blessed forever.
Our Quarterly meeting in the lllh month, ap-
pointed a committee to visit the monthly meetings,
in order if jiossiblc to stir Friends up to a more due
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observance of the weighty concerns of the body, as
handed forth from time to time in the Extracts. It
is much to be desired that a sense of the necessity
of arising out of the state of ease into which we as a
society have fallen, may spread weightily over the
minds of Friends; especially such as are active in the
affairs of Truth. I verily believe, did ministers, el-
ders, overseers, and active members, live nearer to
the Fountain of light and life, a greater travail of
spirit would be felt for the arising and spreading of
the principles of Truth and righteousness. But the
minds of many are so incumbered with the concerns
of this life, that they are too seldom in a condition to
feel after the state of the church. One has his farm,
another his merchandise to attend to; and instead of
seeking 7??'*/ and principally the kingdom of God and
his righteousness, — the riches, the honour, the pomp
and greatness of this world, have the first place in the
pursuits of many, some in one way and degree, and
some in another. I marvel, at times, to behold men
of understanding, and such above all others who are
willing to be looked upon as religious men, and al-
ready have a competency, and more than they will
ever need, — I say 1 marvel to see such pursuing with
avidity the accumulation of worldly property, as if
they expected to live here forever. I see no class
of people more anxious to get riches than those who
already have abundance. Is not pride at the bottom
of all this? What care and pains parents take to bring
up their children in pride and higlimindedness, even
from their very infancy ! Look over our professedly
religious assemblies, and see how our children are
decorated in costly apparel, feeding the vain mind
in them. Our young men and young women, too
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generally speaking, have lost the marks of christian
plainness and simplicity, into which Truth led our
worthy forefathers, and would still lead us. See our
young men with their foolish cuts, their fallen down
collars, their douhle-hreasted waist-coats with two
rows of shining huttons, and their unreasonably large
shoe-buckles. Our young women, if j)ossible, exceed
in vanity and in their extravagant Jicad-dresses, as
well as their costly, gay and changeable apparel. —
Where are their guardians, their parents and care-
takers? To see a plain father and mother, with a
flock of gay children about them, has an unpleasant
appearance, and bespeaks a want of christian disci-
pline and order in families. Surely, there will be a
day of winnowing; our Jerusalem will be searched
as with lighted candles; and the Lord will cleanse
the camp, my peojjle, come and let us return unto
the first principle of our holy profession, the light of
Truth in our own hearts. Let us cleave to the law
and testimony of our God with our whole mind and
strength; lest he take unto himself his great power,
and with a threshing instrument beat us to ])ioces,
and cast us off' as being unworthy to bear his name;
so that we shall become as a by-word and a hissing
among the nations. Wherefore, come, my people,
my fellow j)rofessors of every rank and station, and
whilst the long-forbearance; loving-kindness and ten-
der mercy of our gracious Benefactor are toward us,
let us repent and jiut away the evil of our doings
iVom i)efi)rc his eyes; and, with huml)lc fear and
deep reverence, let us walk in the narrow way which
leads to life and ])eace, unto which he is calling us.
He will not fail to be gracious unto those who seek
!)ini; he will amply reward them for all their trials,
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sorrows and exercises. There is not a tear that falls
from the eyes of these penitent and sincere-hearted
ones, but what he regards. Wherefore, ye mourn-
ing remnant, faint not nor be discouraged on account
of the great declension which ye behold; but hold
fast that which ye have received, and be firm unto
the end, knowing that he is faithful who hath called
you. Be not impatient under sufferings which arise
from the present state of society ; but rather rejoice
that you are counted worthy to feel sympathy with
and for the Seed of the kingdom in the hearts of the
people.
1st mo. 13th, 1790. Our montlily meeting gave
me a certificate to visit Friends in New York and the
New England governments. This concern had rest-
ed with me at times for more than eight years, with
ardent desires to be rightly directed, and to know
the right time of moving therein. Previous to enter-
ing on this extensive journey, it appeared right for
me to visit the families of this monthly meeting;
which being united with, my beloved friend Samuel
Canby oftbred himself to bear me company in the
service. In the afternoon we went to White-clay
creek and visited three families; and continued in-
dustriously engaged therein till the 16th, when we
closed our visit to the families of that branch. I was
truly glad of being once more amongst Friends, and
believe Truth owned our labours.
30th. This week we have visited upwards of eighty
families at Wilmington; and have cause to be thank-
ful to the Shepherd of Israel, who was graciously
pleased to be near, favouring us from place to place
with his good presence to the comforting of many
hearts.
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2nd mo. ISth. Last night my beloved friend Job
Scott lodged at our house, and attended our meeting
to-day, in which he had good service. He is on his
way homeward, having been engaged for near a year
past in a religious visit to the southern states.
27lh. Last evening as I was sitting alone (the fami-
ly gone to bed) with my mind turned toward Him
who dwelleth on high, and also with those that are
poor and of a contrite spirit, — and thinking of the
greatness of the embass}' in prospect, I was almost
induced to desire that this cup might pass from me:
but the example of the holy pattern was revived in
my remembrance, Not my will, but thine be done.
My heart was much broken, and it was a season of
renewing of covenant with the God of my life. I
resigned myself with my dear wife and little ones,
once more unto him, with fervent desires that he
may keep them under liis paternal care, and be a
wall of defence round about them to protect them
from the chilling blasts of this world.
Account oftny Journey to New York and Neia
England.
On the 2d of the 3d month, 1790, having the Con-
currence of Friends, I left home in company with
Joscj)h Tatnall, and went to Concord, where we at-
tended their monthly meeting. Next day we went
to father Lightfoot's at Pikeland, and the morning
following took a solemn leave of him and his dear
wife; she appeared to be so far gone in a consump-
tion that I never expected to see her again in this
life; but I have no doubt that her close will be to
her eternal gain. We then were at meetings at Pro-
vidence, Potts-town, North Wales, Horsham, Ply-
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inouth, Germantown, Frankford, Abington and By-
berry; some of which were laborious seasons, and in
one place I was silent, to tiie great disappointment
of many. Wc then had meetings at Middletown,
Plumstead, Richland, BLickingham,Wrigh(stown, the
Falls, and Bristol. Here Joseph Tatnall left me and
returned home, expecting Norris Jones to join me as
companion in this journey; but his bodily indisposi-
tion increasing, he was unable to leave home. It was
very trying to me to be thus left alone, and more
especially as 1 felt dull and depressed; having been
much exercised in passing through the meetings of
Abington and Bucks Quarters, by reason of the low
state of society, for the life of true religion seemed
to be under suffering.
25th. I crossed the river Delaware, and attended
the week-day meeting at Burlington; after which
Phineas Buckley went with me to Trenton, where
we had a meeting and stayed till over first-day. The
meeting on first-day morning was very large; there
being no other public meeting held in the town that
morning, the people were generally present, and be-
haved with as much becoming stillness as could be
expected, considering that many both in-doors and
out, stood several hours. The God of mercy and
love was near to help, and Truth was over all; bless-
ed be his holy name, who gives strength to the weak,
and those that have no might of their own, but who
with humble confidence trust in him from day to day
with all their heart, not leaning to their own under-
standing. My soul had abundant cause to bow in ad-
oration toward his holy sanctuary, and to worship his
all-glorious name, who is God, blessed forever. In
the evening, we had a meeting at Lamberton, about
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a mile below Trenton, in which the doctrines of the
gospel flowed freely towards the people in the fresh
extendings of love, and they were invited to come
unto Christ, the alone sure teacher, nigh in the heart.
After visiting the few families of Friends in that
town, we went to Robert White's at Stony-brook,
and attended their meeting on fourth-day. Here I
met with my beloved friend Samuel Emlen on his
return from New York, much to my comfort and
satisfaction. Robert White then went with me to
Joseph Moore's, who with his wife were very kind;
their hearts and house being open to all that love the
Truth. Next day, being the 1st of the 4th month, I
was at Kingwood meeting, which I sat in silence.
After having a meeting at Joseph Moore's house on
sixth-day, I returned and had another meeting at
Kingwood; also stayed their meeting on first-day,
not feeling easy to leave them sooner. Thence, hav-
ino- two meetings on the way, I went to the monthly
meeting at Ilardwich, which was very large, by rea-
son of notice having been spread of a stranger being
there. I was altogether silent and well satisfied, al-
though it was a great disappointment to many.
4th mo. 9th. In company with Jacob l^undy, a
sweet spirited old man, I went to Mendham and was
at two meetings there. Thence, Richard Dell accom-
panied me to Plainfield, where and in the neighbour-
hood I had several meetings, and believed there
was a seeking people in those parts. On the 15th I
was at Rahway, silent: next day I had two meetings
on Staten Island; and on seventh-day had a meeting
in the court-house at Amboy in the morning, and
another at Woodbridgo in the afternoon. Next day
attended the two meetings at Rahway; in the first, I
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had a few words, but was silent in the afternoon. —
Then went on to New York, and was at their Quar-
terly meeting, hut I had not any thing to offer by
way of ministry: returned again to Rahway Quarter,
in company with dear Wm. Jackson and his wife, who
were removing from Long Island to his native place
in Chester county, in best wisdom, I believe. I was
truly glad of William's company at New York and
at this Quarterly meeting held at Rahway which I
attended; but it was to me a sufi'ering time, which I
endured in silence, having nothing to deliver to the
people. It seemed to me that many Friends were
rich and full, or thought themselves so, and if stran-
gers would not preach, they would preach them-
selves. Oh! that it may never be a cross to me to
sit in silence.
On the 28th I returned to New York, and was
quite unwell at Edmund Prior's, wliere I remained
till the 30th, when I crossed over to Long Island,
and was at Newtown meeting, where I had some
little to offer by way of testimony, though in much
weakness: indeed it was a trying time to me, hav-
ing no steady companion to travel with me, and
an extensive journey before me. After having an
appointed meeting at Flushing, I was at Westbury
on first-day; both these meetings were silent, and I
believe rightly so. I then rested at Thomas Titus's
till third-da)% when I had a meeting at Matinicock
to good satisfaction; next day at Cowneck, and fifth-
day at Flushing monthly meeting: dined at John
Bowne's, the house first opened on Long Island for
Friends to hold meetings in, upwards of one hundred
years ago, and now possessed by the fourth genera-
tion since that time. There are yet two large oak
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trees standing in the lane wliere George Fox had a
meeting. By letters from Brand}' wine, received
while here, I was informed of the decease of my dear
friends, Rachel Lightfoot and Eleanor Robinson. Oh !
that these solemn calls may be a means of stirring
up the careless and lukewarm to prepare to meet the
Judge of quick and dead; and also to wean the minds
of all ranks more from earth and earthly things, indu-
cing them to press after durable treasures and righ-
teousness. Happy for those who when their Lord
cometh, shall be found watching and ready for their
final change.
5th mo. 7th. I had a meeting at Westchester, on
the main land; and being very unwell with some-
thing like the influenza, I was taken by my kind
friend James JMott to New York. After being a day
or two in town, I grew better, so that I attended the
meeting for sufferings and their week-day meeting.
Recovering my health and spirits, I set out for Ma-
maroneck, and lodged at my dear friend Jas. Mott's.
On the 13th, I attended Purchase monthly meeting;
next day, I was at Shapaqua monthly meeting, and
the day after, I had a meeting at Aniawalk in the
morning, and one at Joseph Weekes' in the after-
noon. Tiience, taking meetings at Peachpand, Val-
ley, Oblong, ]iranch, and 7Vj)oquage, I reached tho
(-iuai-terly meeting at Nine Partners; my beloved
friend James IVIott continuing; with me. Wo then
attended the monthly meetings of Nine Partners,
Creek, and Cornwall, — the last on the west side of
the river Hudson. Sonic of these were trying, ex-
ercising meetings to me, tliere being too little of a
right zeal in transacting the afl'airs of discipline. Af-
ter this, we crossed the North river and rode about
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sixty miles to James Mott's at Mamaroneck; and
ihence went over to Long Island to attend the Year-
ly Meeting. In crossing the North river, we were
in the greatest danger I ever experienced on the wa-
ter. There were ten of us came to the ferry to cross,
but the boat could take but two at a time, and that
was too many. James Mott and myself ventured
first; but the horses could not stand across the boat,
and there was only an old man and a lad to row.
When we got about a quarter of the way across, I
expected no other than to be sunk or thrown over-
board, for the water came in upon us fast. It was an
humbling time, but through the kindness of Provi-
dence we got over safe, and sent a ])etter boat for
the rest. I had now become considerably revived
in body and mind; my great and good Master being
exceedingly kind to me. Through his adorable mer-
cy and loving kindness, I have been renewedly fa-
voured to see, that without the quickening virtue of
Truth, we can do nothing as it ought to be done.
Too few are sufficiently divested of self, in its vari-
ous shapes and workings. There is a warmth and an-
imation that proceeds from creaturely activity; and
this seems to pass with many for the gospel power.
But there is a vast difference between this creaturely
warmth and the animation and power of the true gos-
pel of Christ. Oh! that all who undertake to minis-
ter or speak in the assemblies of the people, may
know their own spirits entirely subject to the power
of Truth, so that creaturely zeal and activity may
have no place in the Lord's work.
The Yearly Meeting closed on fifth-day, the 3rd
of the 6th month, 1790. Having heard that my be-
loved friend Norris Jones was not likely to be able
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to travel with me as a companion, I returned home
with my dear friend James Mott, to whom I felt
nearly united, and proposed his going with me to
Rhode Island Yearly Meeting. This proposal he
acceded to, and we set out the day following to trav-
el through Connecticut; reached Newport on third-
day following, and put up at the widow Rodman's.
On fourth-da}^, the 9th of 6th month, we attended the
select Yearly Meeting of ministers and elders; next
da}', a public meeting for worship, also a public meet-
ing on sixth-day morning. In the afternoon the busi-
ness of the Yearly Meeting was opened; and continued
by adjournments till the third-dav following, when it
closed. Next day, we had a meeting on Canonicut
Island; and thence visited the meetings al South
Kingston, ujiper and lower house. Westerly and
Hopkinton; staying two nights at Thomas Wilber's,
which was very good quarters for us poor travel-
lers.
There are very few Friends in these parts; the
meetings were made up chiefly of other people, and
the public service in them was mostly towards these,
who behaved solidly and well. There appears to be
an open door among some tender spirited people
hereaway, to whom my heart was nearly united in
travail for their welfare. There is no doubt the Lord
liath a seed that he will bring out of Egypt with a
strong hand and a strctclicd-out arm. Had Friends
ke'^jt their ])hxces in the Truth, they would have been
a blessing to the ])cople around them, and especially
to sincere-hearted, inquiring minds. But alas! the
poor Quakers (as they arc called) seem almost worn
out or dwindled away in these meetings. The cares
of (he world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the love
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of Other things, have cliokecl the good seed; and there
is occasion deeply to mourn on account of the state
of society in these parts. Yet the Lord hath not heen
left without a witness, and a seed in most places, al-
though the remnant is small. For these my soul
has been clothed with concern, tiiat they may be
preserved in firmness; and my prayers have been of-
fered up to the God and Father of all our sure mer-
cies on their behalf. •
Gth month 21st. We were at Richmond; a close,
searciiing time, but ended to good satisfaction. A
good many who were not Friends and some members
of the other meetings, attended this; among the rest'
a coloured man and his daughter, who had followed
us to six meetings on foot. He was a goodly looking
person,jis was also the daughter. Next day we had a
large meeting at Greenwich: the public service began
with these words of Christ, " Whom do men say that
I the son of man am?" which were enlarged upon,
and the opportunity ended to good satisfaction; fur-
nishing renewed cause to be humbly thankful to the
Father and Fountain of all good, who is the strength
of the poor, and the joy of the upright in heart. 23d
had a meeting at Warwick, a small town where but
one or two of our meml>ers reside at present. Forty
years ago, there w^as a considerable meeting of Friends
here, but now dropped, only as travelling Friends
appoint meetings. Among those who attended our
meeting, there appeared some tenderness, and an open-
ness to hear the doctrines of Truth. Next day, we
were at Cranston meeting; a good time to some pre-
sent. Lodged at Sylvester Wcekes'; himself and wife
having lately come amongst Friends. In the even-
ing, we went to see a Friend who had been confined
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to the house and disabled from walking for a number
of years; his complaint being rheumatic. His limbs
are very much drawn up, and yet for the most part,
he is clear of pain. It was truly instructive to me
to be with him, and to see him so remarkably plea-
sant and cheerful; bearing his affliction with great
patience and calmness. He is an elder in good es-
teem, and much missed in the little meeting he be-
longs to; his name is Ephraim Crandal.
25th. At Foster meeting, which has been lately
estaijlished, and a few tender people belong to it. —
Dined at James Pearce's, a man just received among
Friends; he has several hopeful children who were
very tender and kind. We lodged at John Green's,
who was not a member nor any of his family, but
they attend Friends' meetings and were very kind.
In the morning we had a solid opportunity with them,
and then went ten miles to a meeting appointed at a
Friend's house. It was a good time: blessed be the
name of the Most High, who is ever near to help
those that put their trust in him. This meeting held
near four hours, and yet when we attempted to close
it, the people seemed as if they did not wish to move.
On first-day, the 27th, we were at Greenwich, a very
large meeting, supposed to be eight hundred present,
and it was a favoured season in which the Divine
power was magnified. We then rode to Thomas
Hazard's, and next day were at South Kingston
monthly meeting, — a searching time. On third-day,
we had a large and satisfactory meeting at a place
called Updike Newton, held in a friendly man's
house. Many of the people were much broken, and
two of their teachers expressed great satisfaction and
unity with the service of the meeting. There was
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an invitation sent us from the Baptist society to come
and have a meeting in their house, but as meetings
were laid out for us, we could not accept thereof. —
A door appears open for Friends' doctrines in those
parts. We then had meetings at Scituate, Glouces-
ter, Uxbridge and Northljridge; in the last of which
I was silent. After meeting, no one asked us home
with them: a bad sign, when Friends get out with
silent meetings! To what else can we attribute such
neglect of the poor servants?
7th mo. 2d. We were at Leicester; a large gath-
ering made up chiefly of other people, there being
but few Friends there: but it was a good, open time,
which is often the case among strangers. When I
first sat down in this meeting, and for some time after,
I felt as much reduced in mind as I almost ever re-
member; insomuch that I was ready to wish the meet-
ing had not been appointed. It seemed as if the Ploly
One had left me, and that the testimony would suffer
that day. These considerations and feelings exer-
cised me very much for a short time; but as I en-
deavoured to have my mind gathered into stillness,
I felt inwardly strengthened, and strong cries ascend-
ed frojii my deeply humbled soul, for holy help from
the Divine fountain: and, blessed forever be his ex-
cellent name, I never yet knew him ta fail when the
creature is brought to see and to feel its own noth-
ingness. Next day, I had another meeting with
Friends of Leicester, which I trust will not soon be
forgotten by some. Thence to Bolton on first-day,
where I had a little to offer in a close, plain way. —
We then returned and had a second meeting at North-
bridge, which was a searching, close time.
After meeting, I received a letter from Alexander
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Wilson, givinsr an account of the death of my beloved
friend and brother in the Truth, Norris Jones, who
was expected to have been my companion in this
journey. Although he had been for some time poor-
ly, yet he laid the concern before Friends, and ob-
tained their certificate, intending to meet me at Long
Island Yearly Meeting, or about that time. But his
weakness increasing, prevented him, until the 2Sth
of the 5th month last, when he left Philadelphia, and
came on as far as William Smith's at Rahway, where
he closed his days in sweet peace with his heavenly
Father. He was a clean-spirited, upright-hearted
man, who loved the Lord and his blessed cause of
truth and righteousness, I loved him as a brother,
to whom I could unbosom myself freely. He was a
tender, sympathizing friend, without dissimulation;
and though his removal is a loss to the church, I be-
lieve it is his eternal gain. Dear Norris, thou hast
been to me a very pleasant friend; our love to each
other was sincere as the love of David and Jonathan.
But thou art gone before me; thou art entered into
rest, never more to fear; thou hast fought the good
fight; thou hast kept the faith, and hast received the
crown of righteousness which God had in store for
thee, and for all that love him. There was not any
thing ai)Ie to separate thee from his love; the frowns
and imprisonment of men could not move thee from
thy steadfastness; llioii wast kept above and over them
all; because He who is strons;er than all ruled in thv
heart. Oh! how was mj^ soul united with thee in
that day, because thou wast willing to sulfcr for the
testimony of a good conscience. But thou art now
delivcreil out of thy trials and provings, and hast as
it were stepped aside behind the vail, so that I shall
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not see thee with my outward eyes; yet with mine
inward and spiritual senses I behold thee, and have
unity with thy spirit, enjoying thee in the seed of
life.
7th month 6th. We were at Mendon, the state of
that meeting appeared very low; next day at Upper
Smithfield, and the day following at Lower Smith-
field, silent, to the mortification of many. Here Job
Scott met us and we went home with him: next day,
he and his wife accompanied us to a meeting held at
a Friend's house, in which Job had good service, but
I had no public testimony to bear. Our next meet-
ing was in the edge of Connecticut, held in a Baptist
meeting-house, my companion James Mott sat at my
left hand and the priest on my right; but lie felt to
me no more than a little boy, as to any fear of man.
When I closed my testimony and sat down, he said
"Amen, friend; that doctrine will stand in heaven
and earth." We parted friendly, and lodged that
evening at the house of a man who had been convin-
ced of Friends' principles for some years, but had not
yet joined them in membership. Like many others,
he lias become too talkative, and is likely to dwindle
as to the life of religion. On first-day we had a large
meeting in his barn, that held upwards of thi'ee hours.
There is a tender, seeking people in these parts who
are growing weary of the priests, and incline to go
to Friends' meetings. On second-day, we had a meet-
ing in a friendly man's house at a place called Porn-
fret, the first Friends' meeting ever held in that part
of Connecticut. Here also there is a seeking seed.
13th. Having no meeting appointed, we went in
search of an old man lately received into member-
ship, but who through bodily indisposition, did not
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get out to meetings. At length we found him in a
remote ph\ce, fifteen miles from meeting; with him
and his family we had a comfortahle opportunity, and
were glad we found them out. We parted with them
in tenderness and rode ahout seven miles to dine with
a young man and his wife who were inclining to
Friends: then went on to Benjamin Batty 's, where
we lodged. Next day, we were at their week-day
meeting; but the Friend's house where their meet-
ings are usually held, not being large enough to con-
tain half the people that assembled, it was held in the
woods, and continued about three hours and a half.
Next day, being the 15th, we attended Providence
week-day meeting, in which I was silent: stayed two
days at JSIoses Brown's, and were at their first-day
meetings in which both morning and afternoon I had
public service. Daniel Offley had lately passed thro'
Providence and was gone northward; intending also
for some of the upper meetings in York government.
On second-day, the ISth, Moses Brown and his son
Obadiah went with us to Swanzey meeting; a close,
searching time. Next day at Taunton, a poor place!
My impression was, that the meeting there ought to
have been laid down some 3'ears back. We then had
meetings at Freetown, Tiverton and Little Compton;
but so low is the state of things in these parts, that
I was ready to say, " By whom shall Jacob arise, for
he is small?" After a large and satisfactory meeting
at Portsmouth, we went to the widow Rodman's at
Newport, who with her lovely daughters received
us very cordially. On first-day, the 25th, we sat in
silence in both meetings at Newport; next day, visit-
ed several Friends and their families, and the day
following attended their monthly meetingw Fourth-
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ilay, were at Providence monthly meeting; fifth-day
and sixth-day, at the monthly meetings of Smithficld
and Uxbridgc. In these meetings I had to bear tes-
timoi]y against the practice which Friends follow in
relation to burials. It is customary in many places
hereaway to hold meetings on account of the inter-
ment bothof Friends and others. MinisteringFriends
are sent for, sometimes at a considerable distance, to
attend these funerals; the corpse is taken into the
meeting-house, and after meeting exposed to view to
all present that choose to look at it. On these ac-
counts my mind was closely exercised; but when
people get, as it were, ri vetted to customs, its hard
to break them off. There is danger of these things
becoming flat, lifeless and formal.
The parts of New England where we have been,
are generally a very rough, stony country. We ride
day after day, and see very little but stone fences. —
But notwithstanding they have stones in such abun-
dance, they build almost altogether frame houses and
barns: it is very rare to sec a stone house in town or
country places. The land aj^pears to be strong, and
yet they raise little or no wheat; and about Provi-
dence town, very little rye is raised. The corn, bar-
ley and oats look well, and there is abundance of good
flax. They say they cannot raise wheat, because it
blasts; and of latter years, the rye also is often sub-
ject to blight. The country is much overrun with
barberry bushes, which are thought to be injurious
to the raising of grain. Moses Brown, near Provi-
dence, told me, that when he first settled where he
now lives, he raised abundance of good rye; but of
latter )'ears, he has quite given out trying to raise it;
and he imputes the failure to the great increase of
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barberry bushes. Rve and corn flour mixed together
is their common bread; and there is very little wheat
flour bread to be seen. Rhode Island is a rich, fer-
tile spot of land; and yet they cannot raise wheat;
and very little rye. Newport, was formerly a brisk
place for business, but is now fast going to decay, and
the trade carried on at Providence, a flourishino; town
at the head of Narraganset bay.
Sth mo. 1st, being first-day, I was at Lower Smith-
field meeting the second time, and had a little to say
among them. In the afternoon, at Providence, where
1 met with John Elliott and NVilliam Wilson of Phila-
delphia who were there on a religious visit. At Swan-
zey monthly meeting, next day, I had to bear my
testimony against the formal way of conducting fu-
nerals, and also to hold up to view the ancient reli-
gious concern and practice of visiting Fi-iends' fami-
lies; which is very much lost sight of in this land. I
believe Friends have sustained great loss for want of
keeping tliis concern alive; a sense of this has fre-
quently covered my mind as I have travelled along
visiting meetings. The discipline also appears to be
at a low ebb in many of the monthly meetings we
have attended. A kind of formal acknowledgment
for outgoing in marriage is very generally accepted;
and seldom that any are disowned for that breach of
our good order. Thus, weakness ensues; and Friends
making the way so easy for this class of offenders to
be retained, opens a door for more outgoings than
otherwise would be.
We then were at meetings at Long Plain, Accush-
net, Newtown, Aponeganset, New Bedford and Cen-
tre; the last so large that many could not get into the
bouse, and it held near four hours; during which the
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people were very quiet, considering how warm the
weather was. It was a season of favour, furnishing
renewed cause of gratitude and praise to the name of
our God. Next day, we had a favoured meeting at
Accoaksett; tlicn attended the Quarterly meeting held
on Rhode Island; in relation to which and other meet-
ings for discipline, I would say, I love to feel weight
in transacting the business; and that when Friends
speak to subjects under consideration, they do it from
feeling more than from sense. When the wisdom
from beneath rules in any of our meetings, the true
life is hurt. There are some men and women of
natural parts who love to have their way in meetings
of business; and it goes very much against the grain
for such to be crossed, and to have to submit their
judgment to such as have grown up under them. I
do not know that I ever met with so much of tliis
disposition as in these parts. Some of them treat
meeting business as they would law matters.
On looking over the state of society in this land,
it may truly be said, " the harvest is great, and the
faithful labourers few." There i« great need to in-
tercede with the Lord of the harvest to send forth
more well qualified labourers. Such who are skilful
and weighty in the exercise of the discipline, would
be of great use. Oh! that there was more of a living
zeal amongst this people. But, alas! the cares of the
world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the unlawful
love of other things, have greatly prevailed, like a
torrent bearing down all before it, in places, to the
great damage and wounding of individuals, and the
weakness and injury of society. Oh! how hath the
gold become dim, and the fine gold changed! The
precious sqds of Zion, comparable to fine gold, how
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have they fallen as in the streets of mystery Babylon,
of whose golden cup many have taken deep draughts!
But notwithstanding this is sorrowfully the case, yet
the JNIost High hath a seed preserved who have not
bowed the knee to Baal, nor kissed his image. The
prayers and tears of these ascend before him as sweet
incense, and he regards their intercession on behalf
of his heritage. I have felt with and for these, and
they are near to me in the seed and covenant of love
and life.
After attending the monthly meeting of Accoak-
sett, and the first-da}' meeting at Aponeganset, an
third-day, the 10th of the Sth month, we went on
board a packet bound for Nantucket; but the wind
and tide being against us, at Wood's Hole we came to
an anchor, and went on shore at Nonemesset Island,
twenty miles from Bedford. Lodged at Paul Rob-
inson's, the onl}' house upon the island; and next
day went on board, having a favourable time to get
through the Hole: but the captain having to turn in
to Wood's Harbour, we were detained so that we
had to go on shore on Martha's Vineyard, and lodged
at William Coffin's, the only Friend living on the
island. Next morning, the wind was high and the
sea rough, so that the packet could not come to us.
Several jjioposals were made for a meeting on this
island, but I could neither see nor feel any thing
about it. The example of other Friends who had
appointed meetings here was advanced, but that did
not move me. What may be right for one in such
cases, docs not make it so for another. On sixth-day,
the 20th, our packet came and took us from our pris-
on; the sea was rough, but through the kindness of
Providence we landed safely on Nantucket in the
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afternoon. We made our home at Thomas Rotch's,
vvho married a daughter of the widow Rodman, of
Newport, Rhode Island. They are a kind, tender-
spirited young couple. We were at eight meetings
on Nantucket, hesides the monthly and preparative
meetings, also visited many families there. Several
of the public meetings were held in solemn silence;
a lesson too little learned even by those professing
to have come to " that within the vail." When si-
lence becomes ofibnsive or irksome to a people pro-
fessing the spirituality of the gospel, it is an evidence
that vital religion is wanting. This is mournfully
the case in some parts of New England. There is
scarcely any thing more injurious, poisonous and de-
structive to us as a people, than the undue attach-
ment to things in themselves lawful and proper when
received with gratitude and used to the honour of
the great Giver. But when we make idols of them,
thdy lead our minds to bow down and worship them.
It has become so very laudable to be rich in the things
of this world, that with many every nerve and sinew
and all the faculties of body and mind, are enlisted
in the pursuit of wealth. He that hath not riches is
the world's poor and despised man: and yet it is a
solid truth that a little is enough for a true christian.
9th mo. 1st, We left our kind friends with the
evidence of peace, and sailed for Wood's Hole, which
we reached about noon. In the evening we reached
Richard Lake's at Falmouth, where we lodged. Next
day, we spent in visiting some sick and aged people,
to good satisfaction; — one man and his wife, in their
ninety-fourth year each; both of them had their un-
derstanding quite well. When we parted, the old
man said with much brokenness, "One thing I have
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to say to thee, that is, as Joseph said to the butler,
When it is well with thee, remember me." 3cl. We
attended Falmouth monthly meeting; then went on
to Yarmouth, and were at their meeting on first-day;
a poor place, low down on Cape Cod. Between Fal-
mouth and Sandwich is a neighbourhood where the
people have great difficulty in getting water. Some
have dug eighty feet without finding any: the water
they use is chiefly got from ponds. It appears to be
a poor sandy soil, producing little; so that many go
eight miles or more to the salt marshes for what hay
they use. To see and know the difficulties and hard-
ships our fellow-creatures labour under, leads into a
sympathy with them. Those who are situated in a
more fertile soil, with plenty of good water and other
comforts and conveniences, ought to be very thanklul
for these blessings.
Thence we took meetings at Sandwich, Pembroke
and Boston; and so on to Lynn and Salem. In pass-
ing through this land, I have remembered the ac-
counts of what Friends formerly sufiered here; but
I am afraid their sufferings are too much forgotten by
the present generation. Times have greatly changed
since Friends were called from town to town, and
whipped severely, on account of their religion; and
yet the principle of our profession is the same. But
where is tlic zeal and fiiithfulness among us now,
that then shone so brightly in those devoted servants?
9th mo. 14th. Had a meeting at Newbury, chiefly
made up of others, as but few Friends reside there;
then, taking meetings at Almsbury, Newton and
Hampton, we reached the monthly select meeting
at Berwick; wliich was a time of close labour. A
committee having been appointed by the last Yearly
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Meeting of ministers and elders at Rhode Island to
visit the Quarterly and other select meetings, as way-
opened, some of them were present; of whose com-
pany and labours I was glad: Isaac Lawton from
Rhode Island, Daniel Aldrich from Uxhridge, and
Jeremiah Hacker from Brunswick, being of the num-
ber. 19lh being first-day I was at Berwick meeting,
silent; next day at their monthly meeting, which was
a time of close labour. We then went on to Fal-
mouth in the District of Maine, and were at their
monthly meeting; to which came a proposal from
Durham preparative meeting to divide the monthly
meeting in two, and a committee was appointed. On
the following day, we were at the select Quarterly
meeting; — a close, searching time as I have lately
been at, and not without cause. It was declared that
there was a light, chaffy ministry among them. —
Meeting for business on seventh-day was a highly
favoured season, as was also the meeting on first-day,
which was very large, supposed to be upwards of
fifteen hundred people: but Truth reigned over all j
blessed forever be the name of our God.
On second-day, the 27th, parting with our dear
friends, Isaac Lawton, Daniel Aldrich and Samsoa
Sherman, of the committee, and Benjamin Alley,
Daniel Alley and Micajah Collins, who came with us
from Lynn, — we had a meeting at Windham; next
day at Falmouth; then rode to Jeremiah Hacker's;
and on the way I felt the Divine presence to be with
me, to the comfort and rejoicing of my heart; so that
tears of thankfulness rolled down my cheeks, and my
soul adored him who is my helper, my strength and
my deliverer. On fifth-day we attended Durham
meeting; and next day set out for Vassalborough,
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fifty miles, mostly through a newly settled country.
On first-day, the 3d of 10th month, we were at Vas-
salhorough meeting; next day, at Fairfield, fifteen
miles up Kennebeck river; went over a rough road,
but was glad I was there. After meeting, we visit-
ed nine families, and when I went to bed, I expected
no other than that I should take a great cold; for the
house was very open, the wind having free passage,
the weather also was cold, with hard frost. But I
remembered, soon after I lay down, that he in whose
cause I was engaged, and for which I had left all that
is near and dear in life, was able to preserve me: and
«o with my mind turned towards him, I fell into a
sweet sleep, and received no harm. Indeed, 1 find
no lodging too hard, nor provision too coarse, if it is
but clean: I can eat a hearty breakfast by candle-light,
of fried turnijjs, potatoes, carrots, &c. with bread as
coarse as any I ever saw, — but all sweet and good,
and ought to be received with thankfulness; since all
the creatures of God are good. Friends who travel
in Trutli's service should not be difficult to be pleased;
especially when in new-settled places. The jjcople
are glad to get some sort of cabins to shelter them
from the weather, and something (though coarse and
rough) to satisfy hunger. Under a sense of sympa-
ihv w iib tlicm, I have felt greater sweetness and sat-
isfaction in some such places, than where they have
fared more sumptuously. This is the country where
David Sands spent so much time in a field of religious
ialiour, and many were convinced by his ministry;
some of whom have stood faithful, but others have
fallen b;ick.
After visiting all the families of Friends at Fair-
field, wc returned to Vassalborough and were at their
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week-day meeting; lodged two nights at Ilemming-
ton Hobby's; then, leaving our kind friend, we rode
to Winthrop, where we had a meeting with the few
Friends and some friendly peoi)Ie, to good satisfac-
tion. On sixth-day we went to Pownalborough, and
had a meeting in tlic court-house. Only a few mem-
bers live here, but the meeting was made up of many
sorts, and, through the blessing of Divine Goodness,
it was a favoured season, wherein Truth was over ail
and the holy arm was magnified. We were next at
Georgetown, Durham and Lewistown; then rode to
John Winslow's at Falmouth. After visiting some
families, we went upwards of twenty miles to a place
called the Desert, and had a meeting among some
friendly people. I noticed one very raw looking
woman with a child in her lap, who sat staring at us
in the time of silence, as if she did not know what it
meant to be sitting still: but before meeting was over,
she was exceedingly broken, and wept till the floor
was wet with her tears. After this meeting we re-
turned to John Winslow's, through a storm of wind
and rain, although the people pressed us to stay with
them; but it was such a mucky, uncomfortable place,
that we chose to return to belter quarters for poor
travellers.
10th mo. 15th. We were at the select meeting at
Falmouth, and next day, their monthly meeting; a
close, searching time, but I hope to the profit of some
present. Although we had intended to proceed from
the Desert to Sandwich in New Hamj)shire, yet not
feeling easy so to do, we gave up to return to FaU
mouth, and had to believe it was right we came. —
Here we met with a )'oung married woman with her
husband, removing to the east to settle on a farm he
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had purchased. She informed us, that three or four
months back she was at a meeting where we were,
being then a gay Presbyterian, but was so effectually
reached that she threw of her gay apparel. She is
now a plain, goodly Friend, though not yet a mem-
ber, and uses the plain language with great propriety.
She told us the change in her views took place in
the absence of her husband (he being gone to the east
to improve his land) and that she dreaded to see him
when he returned; but to her great surprise and com-
fort, he showed little or no dislike to her change, but
met her with great cordiality. He is a goodly man,
and my heart yearned for their preservation.
On second-day, the ISth, we rode towards Ber-
wick, forty-two miles, and lodged at Peter Morrel's;
next day, were at Kittcry meeting, silent. We then
attended the select and monthly meetings at Dover,
also the Quarterly meeting held there. In several of
these meetings I was silent, and satisfied in being so,
as believing it was riglitly ordered of the Lord. —
Friends minds are too much outward, when strangers
come amongst them: many, instead of keeping their
eye to him who fills the clouds, are looking to the
clouds only. A lamentable condition! to turn from
the Lord who promises to teach his people himself,
and to be looking, craving and longing to hear words
from his poor servants. I have thought of David's
desiring to drink of the water of the well of Bethle-
hem; but when it was brought to him he durst not
drink thereof. Oh! that all mi<>;ht be careful how
they give way to unwarrantable cravings, lest the
worthies in our Isi-ael, at the risk of the inward life,
should be drawn forth to satisfy them with that which
is not lawful nor Divinely required at their hands. —
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There is deep instruction and caution in this passage,
even for goodly minds to attend to.
On first-day the meeting at Dover was very large,
it was supposed near two thousand people: I had
large, open service therein from these words; Christ
" came to his own, and his own received him not;
but as many as received him, to them gave he power
to become the sons of God." I had also, in the
course of my communication, to set forth Friends'
belief respecting baptism. It was a good day, where-
in the holy arm was magnified. After dinner, two
young men, one of whom was a lawyer, made me a
visit. The lawyer expressed his great satisfaction in
being at the meeting, and particularly witli that part
of my testimony on baptism. He said he had never
heard that subject opened so much to his satisfaction
before, neitlicr had he been acquainted with Friends'
doctrine on that head. He appeared to be convinced
of the Truth, and I felt that I loved him; but the cross
will be great, if he is faithful. Next morning early,
we went to Thomas .Tones's, where a large number
of Friends from different parts were making ready
to move homewards; and we had a solid, refreshing
time together. In the afternoon, we rode to Jona-
than Dame's, and had a meeting there on third-day.
While in tlie neighbourhood of Dover, I was
brought under a very close trial, in parting with mj-
dear friend James Mott, who thought it right for him
to set his face homewards; and my mind did not feel
easy without returning back again to the eastern
country. Under these prospects, my soul was deep-
ly humbled. Our spirits had been as it were knit
together, and we had travelled in great unity and
harmony for upwards of five months. But, labour-
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ing after resignation, we took leave of each other in
that uniting love which had hound us together, and
it was a tendering time with us both.
After attending Dover week-day meeting, I had a
meeting at Lee, and another at Joshua Folsom's, at
Epping; also one in a Preshyterian meeting-house
near there. I lodged two nights at Joshua's, and
thought his was as goodly a family as I have lately
met with: one of his daughters is in the station of an
elder, and another has appeared in the ministry, —
solid, goodly women. On first-day, Joshua went
with me to a meeting at Chichester; but not feeling
clear, I requested Friends to come together at ten
o'clock next morning, which they did, and it was a
very close, searching time, things appearing to be
much out of order among them. In the evening I
had another opportunity with them, in which I had
to tell them ])lainly, that there was something like a
dead carcass among them, which stank; that I believed
there was drunkenness among them, and that Truth's
testimony suffered reproach by their suffering such
things to remain. Alter meeting, I took one plain
man aside and told him I was apprehensive he was
one that took strong drink to excess; and he owned
it was so. Next day, we went on to Hailcstown,
and were at two meetings there; then to IIoj)kinton,
where there is no meeting of Friends, lint not feel-
ins: clear of Ilailestown, we returned and had a meet-
ing there on seventh-day, with Friends by them-
selves. It was a searching season, in which the sub-
ject of Saul's history was opened, from the lime of
his being chosen king of Israel, — his first and second
offence, — the cause of his rejection, — the call of Da-
vid, — Saul's j)ersccuting him, and seeking to take his
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life, — David's gradual increase, even while under suf-
fering, — Saul's tolal overthrow, and David's coming
to the crown — all these were opened in such a clear
manner as I had never known before. After meet-
ing, I stopped some of tlieir most active members,
and let them know that my spirit had been clothed
with deep mourning since I came amongst them; —
that if I was wrong in the close testimony I had borne
I wished to be told of it; but if I was right, it was
time for them to see to it; for I did believe things
were very much out of order. I even had to tell
one Friend, it was my solid judgment, that he had
nothing to do with the ministry, nor discipline. In
this plain and close way I had to labour among them.
After which, several Friends expressed their entire
satisfaction with what I had done and said, and that
I was not alone in regard to one then present, who
had been desired by me to be silent. Alas! how sor-
rowful! when the life is gone, to keep on acting with-
out it. When self thus gets to work in the church,
the living members are borne down, and go mourn-
ing on their way. Notwithstanding it is close work
to deliver such things as I had to do here, yet it is
best for Friends to be faithful: it gives those that have
been bowed down a great relief. IVIy soul has cause
to magnify and praise the name of the Most High,
who strengthened me with the right arm of his pow-
er, in this arduous service.
I stayed meeting at Hailes-town, first-day morning,
and had one at Hopkinton in the afternoon. On third-
day, was at Northfield, where no F'riends' meeting
had been held before; then went to Gilmanton and
had three meetings with some friendly people, to
good satisfaction. Here Joshua Folsom left me, and
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on seventh-day morning the 13th of the 11th month,
I set out for Sandwich, having Daniel B. Alley, a
tender-spirited young man from Lynn, to he my com-
panion. We had five meetings in and about Sand-
wich, the last of which was in a Baptist meeting-
house. Thence, going by way of John Winslow's
at Falmouth, we attended Durham monthly meeting
on seventh-day, the 27th. It was a time of suffering,
inwardly and outwardly: the weather was very cold,
and the night following it began to snow, which con-
tinued most of first-day, yet we attended Durham
meeting. We then went on to Georgetown, and had
a meeting there on third-day. On fourth-day, the
1st of 12th month, we crossed Kennebeck river in no
small danger, as the ice was driving in great bodies,
and our boat but indifferent. But through favour we
got over safely, and reached George Ramsdale's that
evening. Next day, we set out for Broad Cove in
Bristol township, Maine, about thirty miles. In this
neighbourhood, we had three meetings; but it appear-
ed to me to be as poor and dark a place, as to religion,
as any I have yet been at: nevertheless, I was glad 1
was there, for if I did no good, I think I received
some. My sympathy was awakened toward the peo-
ple, many of whom are very poor; depending upon
fishing in the summer, they neglect to till the earth,
and so raise but little bread corn. Hence it comes
to i^ass that before iiarvcst comes round many arc put
to ir for bread: their bouses arc also very open and
cold; yet with all their privations, they seem to en-
joy themselves quite as well, if not more contentedly
than we do in our fertile and plentiful country. In-
deed, there is greater sweetness of friendly feelings
and innocent simplicity, to be witnessed in some of
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their homely cottages, than in many of our fine
houses. In this eastern land, I have this remark that
wherever I go, the people aj)pear loving and kind,
and as if doing the best they can to entertain us. My
healtii also is remarkably good, and my sleep sweet —
for all which favours I feel thankful to the great Fa-
ther of the whole human family.
On second-day, after another heavy show storm,
and the weather very cold, we left Bristol and re-
turned to George Ramsdale's, where we were very
kindly received. Fourth-day, the 8th, we crossed
Kennebeck river on the ice, and had a meeting at
Bordingham, and another next day in the same neigh-
bourhood. 10th. Had another meeting in the court-
house at Pownalborough, the chief town of Lincoln
county; and on first-day, were again at Vassalborough
meeting, — a very stormy, snowy day, and continued
so on second and third days. After which we were
at the monthl}^ meeting there, and had two meetings
at Reuben Fairfield's, seven miles off — also several
others in those parts, most of them to good satisfac-
tion. The snow being upwards of two feet in depth,
and the ways not much broken, we got about with
great difficulty. As soon as the weather appears set-
tled, the people join their teams together and break
the roads from one neighbourhood to another. They
have long, hard winters here, yet I do not see that
any weather stops the men from working out. They
live hard and work hard; many of their houses are
very open, but they keep great fires, otherwise they
could not keep warm. This eastern country is a
great place for saw-mills, and the people raft abun-
dance of logs and lumber down the Kennebeck and
its waters, likewise haul great quantities to the land-
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ings. They have opportunity of improving the use
of water power to a vast extent, particularly near the
tide way; and if this was a wheat country, mills might
be constructed to great advantage. As yet, however,
they do nothing towards raising wheat, except a lit-
tle, called summer wheat, and that nearly as dark as
our r\-c. Corn and rye mixed together form their
principal bread, with no small share of bran in it; but
it makes a strong, healthy food.
The 2nd of the 1st month, 1791, we were again at
Vassalborough meeting and went to John Tabor's,
who had just returned from the west; he having been
two nights at my house during his journey, brought
me good accounts from home, and a number of let-
ters: with him I spent near two days; then set for-
ward to a town called Greene, on the east side of An-
droscoggin river, where we had a meeting on seventh-
day, held at the house of Cyrus Deane, who with his
amiable wife are both convinced of Friends' princi-
ples. We then took meetings in our way to Ber-
wick, where we attended their monthly meeting on
seventh-day, the 15th. It was a day of silent suffer-
ing; for I have observed in many monthly meetings
in this land, Friends are in the practice of receiving
papers of acknowledgment for almost all offences,
however slight tlie ground of sincerity — some say,
cut off none, under a pretence of charity. Thus the
discipline of the church is prostrated, weakness en-
sues, and offences are multiplied. For I verily be-
lieve the ready reception of superficial acknowledg-
ments is not only a great hurt to the individuals, by
settling them in a false rest, before they have proper-
ly felt the sore, but also to the meetings who thus
daub with untemj)ercd mortar and plaster u^j breaches,
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crying, peace, peace; when it is not so. I also be-
lievCj that through the unwarrantable tenderness or
indulgence of some unqualified Friends who bear too
much sway in our meetings for discipline, — many
more go out from amongst Friends, or violate the
rules and testimonies of the society, than what would
be the case if the discipline was duly maintained in
the authority of Truth.
1st month 16th, I was at Dover, and next day at-
tended an adjournment of the select meeting. It was
a remarkably stormy day, and the snow so drifted
that the ways were very difficult to travel; but wc
got on to the select meeting at Amesbury, which
was a close, searching opportunity. Next day, their
monthly meeting was a time of great suffering and
exercise, by reason of a forward, unsanctified spirit,
which has borne rule in that meeting, to the wounding
of the honest hearted: these have been borne down,
so that they seemed unable to hold up their heads,
and were clothed with deep mourning. 2 1st, was
the select Quarterly meeting; at the close of which,
I requested the ministers and elders of Amesbury
monthly meeting to stop, together with the commit-
tee of the select Quarter, appointed in the 9th month
last, to visit the select preparative meetings belong-
ing thereto. In this opportunity, I let the elders
know my mind freely and fully, concerning one of
their ministers who was then present, and whose
conduct had greatly wounded the living meml)ers of
the monthly meeting. This was the second opportu-
nity with the Friend; and as in the former, so now,
I had to tell him plainly before them all, that he had
nothing to do with the ministry nor with the disci-
pline, — that his meddling therewith did a great deal
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of harm, — that he had gone from the truth, — and that
at present he liad neither lot nor portion in the ser-
vice, but was in the gall of bitterness and the bond of
iniquity. It was a close time; but the elders stood
plumb and upright, uniting with what I had said and
done, and told him their minds freely. He was also
desired by the elders of the meeting he belonged to,
for time to come to be silent, both in the ministry
and in the discipline of the church.
my soul! thou hast cause to bow in humility,
reverence and fear, before the mighty God, who was
near in this day of close engagement. He made me
bold in his cause, and clothed me with zeal for his
truth as with a garment. I acknowledge his marvel-
lous kindness in that he sustained me when I was en-
gaged witli those who have stood opposed to good
order and discipline. He was to me mouth and wis-
dom, tongue and utterance, and he tauglit my liands
to war and my fingers to fight in the glorious cause
of truth and righteousness, when I had to deal plain-
ly with the workers of iniquit}', and to lay open the
evil of their doings. Blessed forever be his holy
name.
After the Quarterly meeting at Ham])ton, I had
meetings at Amesbury, Newton, Newbury, Dover,
Muaderborough, Lee, Jonathan Dame's and Joshua
Folsom's. Thence to Hampton and Amesbury again,
and so on to Salem, having John Tabor, John Win-
slow and Nathan Breed in company. After attend-
ing tlieir fourth-day meeting, we went to Lynn, and
was at the monthly meeting on fifth-day. Next day,
had a meeting with the youth, and the day following,
with the heads of families. On first-day, notice hav-
ing been spreatl, there was a very large gathering of
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people, thought to l)e the largest that had ever heen
at Lynn. On second-day morning, parting with my
beloved young friend and companion, Daniel B. Al-
ley, who had been acceptably with me for about three
montiis, I set out for Hailes-town, about eighty-five
miles distant. Several of the Quarterly meeting's
committee were in company, and we went in a sleigh,
the weather still very cold. On the IGth of 2nd mo.
attended the monthly meeting at Ilailes-town, wiiich
was to me a deeply exercising, silent, suSering time.
The case in which the advice and assistance of the
Quarter was required, coming before the meeting,
some time was spent in a weighty consideration of
it; and there being a solemn covering over the meet-
ing, it was hoped and expressed that if Friends kept
in the quiet, they might get along to satisfaction.
There had been a proposal from the select meeting
to the monthly meeting preceding the Quarter, for
some Friends to be a])pointed to the station of elders.
As soon as this minute was read, a Friend from a
neighbouring meeting (not one of the committee) set
things a going like wild-lire; and those who stood
opposed to the appointment of elders, again rose up,
and attempted to throw the meeting into confusion.
The committee of the Quarterly meeting, however,
made a proposal to give those Friends who appeared
uneasy, an opportunity of giving the reasons of their
dissatisfaction. This was agreed to, and a time ap-
pointed; so the meeting went on with its other busi-
ness. In the evening, those persons, the committee
of the Quarter, and divers other Friends, came to-
gether, and full opportunity was given to advance
all their objections; which they did very minutely:
but alas! they were very frivolous and light, like
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the persons who made them, for there was not one
solid Friend among all the objectors.
This grievance had existed in that meeting for
some 3'ears, so that no Friends coukl be got forward
in the station of elders, by reason of a forward, ca-
villing spirit that stood opposed to the judgment of
solid Friends, and the advice of the body. Indeed,
the meeting had become split and divided into par-
ties; so that a number of their active members were
as great enemies to good order and discipline as 1 ever
was acquainted with. After hearing the objectors,
the committee adjourned till next morning to con-
sider the matter of a high charge brought against one
of the Friends proposed for an elder, by the Friend
who had produced the excitement in the meeting,
liut this charge, on examination, was found to be
entirely false; and the Friend (l)elonging to Dover
inonthly meeting) was rebuked for his forwardness
and disorderly proceeding. Oh! how lamentable!
when those in high stations in society, instead of en-
deavouring to promote peace and harmony and order
in the church and in families, give way to a wrong
spirit, and therein foment disturbances, break the uni-
ty, and scatter and divide the flock! After the com-
mittee had heard and considered the objections, find-
ing th.em fdsc and unfounded, they unitedly agreed
that the Friends who had l)een proposed for elders,
be brouglit forward and appointed. This judgment
was put in writing and sealed up, to be opened in
their next monthly meeting to be held at Amesbury,
or Ilailes-town.
After visiting some families, we set out early on
sixth-day morning for Doven, in order to attend the
monthly meeting held there next day. In the morn-
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ing we had an opportunity with the select members,
before the meeting for business came on; in which
the committee laid before them the conduct of the
Friend abovementioned; and he was desired to be
silent in the ministry and discipline, till things were
better with him than at present. He was also told
that he had meddled in matters where he had no pro-
per business, to the grief and wounding of many
Friends, and that his conduct at Hailes-town ought
to be condemned. When the monthly meeting for
discipline came on, it was conducted to good satis-
faction, and they got through with nmch business in
good season. Some Friends afterwards remarked,
that had the Friend who was so ])lainly dealt with
in the morning been at liberty to go on as he used
to do, they should not have got through in less than
two days. In the evening, an opportunity was had
with said Friend and the elders; in which it was ob-
served to them how convincing it must be that he
was wrong, in that when he was still and quiet, the
meeting had got along without difliculty; but that
his meddling in the manner he had heretofore done,
was the cause of disorder and confusion. This may
truly and humbly be said to be a good day, in which
Truth came into dominion over all, and was exalted
above all: glory everlasting, and high praises be given
unto the Lord our God, who was near to help in this
the day of close engagement, in which those two
great champions, J. D. and J. N. were put down. —
They had been a gi-eat exercise and burden to the
living for years past, taking part in wrong things,
pleading for fleshly liberty, and striking at the foun-
dation of order and discipline in society, tending to
lay it all waste: but now they were brought down as
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with the sling and smooth stone of the power of
Truth, placing judgment upon them in its own au-
thority.
On lirst-day, the 20th, I was at Dover meeting,
silent; thence to Portland on third-day, and Falmouth
monthly meeting on fourth-day; in which I had close,
laborious service. 1 was also silent at Durham month-
ly and first-day meetings; at the latter of which, there
was a Friend from some distance (not recommended)
who spoke and gave uneasiness. After bearing with
Iiim some time, I thought it right to request him to
sit down; which he did very soon. At the close of
the meeting, I stopped him and the elders, in order
that if they thought I had gone too far, they might
say so: but so far from that, they were fully united
with what I had done. They further said, the Friend
had been laboured with in order to induce him to be
still: and he was now desired to let the ministry
alone, as having no lot nor part in it at present. Some
very close and trying labours have fallen to my lot
since I have been in this land, but I have been mar-
vellously helped and preserved. Blessed be the name
of Israel's Rock, who has been near to assist in the
time of trial.
3d mo. 1st. Had a meeting at a place called Little
River, and one next day at Freeport; then back to
Durliam where was a marriage consummated. 4th.
Had a meeting at the house of a man measurably con-
vinced of the Truth. But there are many such up
and down who come not forward in the work of reno^-
vation. The seed springs up, but for want of depth,
it grows not to maturity. Many arc like NicodC'
mus of old who came to Jesus by night; many are
willing to partake of Divine favours, wjio are not
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willing to endure the cross. They turn from the
baptism of the cross and self-denial; and the first na-
ture tries many ways to save itself and its own life:
it wants to retain its beloveds and to keep its posses-
sions; though such are willing to pass for religious
men and women, and yet truckle and cringe to many
of the ways and customs of the world.
Ill company with Micajah Dudley of Durham, and
Richard Holder of Lynn, I had five meetings in and
about the town of Greene, in which we were favour-
ed with the living presence and power of God, and
Truth reigned over all. The openness and attention
of the people to hear the doctrines of Truth, are great
indeed. Many of them are very much of strangers
to Friends and their principles; having heard them
spoken against, as they have confessed to us. Hence
we have found it a duty at the close of some of our
meetings, to open to the people the views and doc-
trines of our religious society on divers points; with
which they have appeared well satisfied. At one of
those meetings in Greene, we had the company of
the priest, his wife and a deacon, together with a large
number of his hearers. At the close of this meeting,
it was mentioned to the people, that the society, call-
ed Quakers, had been charged with denying the scrip-
tures; but the truth was, that so far from that, there
was no people valued them more highly than we did.
Yet we did not give them the appellation wliicli
other societies did, b}' calling them the word of God,
and the only rule of faith and practice; because there
was that which was before the scriptures were, and
which we valued above them, as it was that by which
we come to a right understanding of the scriptures,
even that quick and powerful Word which was in
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the beginning, and by which the worlds were made.
Many other views opened with great clearness, and
were laid down to the general satisfaction of the peo-
ple. But the priest being touched in a tender spot,
entered into some conversation, striving to suj)port
the doctrine he had been endeavouring to propagate,
and to hold the people in blindness and ignorance,
telling them that the scriptures are the only infallible
fule, and that we could have no knowledge of God
but by them. The people gathered round us and
were very quiet and attentive. The priest even went
so far as to assert that there was no salvation but by
the scriptures. He was asked what had those to di-
rect them, who lived before the scriptures were writ-
ten? and what must become of thousands now on the
earth, who were never likely to be benefited by
them, or to see them? But he seemed at a loss for
an answer, and several times contradicted himself,
which he was reminded of. lie was also asked what
scripture the apostle could have turned to (when
the Spirit fori)id him going to a certain place) in
order to know whether he should so or not. It was
further remarked, that before the scriptures, the pa-
triarchs had something to direct them, as the apostle
hail, which was the Spirit of God; and Iw that the
holy men were moved who wrote the scriptures, and
without the Sjiirit we could not come to a right un-
derstanding of them. In conclusion, the priest was
advised to give over preaching for hire, and remind-
ed that the ministers of Christ did not study their
sermons, — that the gospel was a free gift, and that
no iu:m liad a right to preach, but such as were called
of God, as was Aaron. Thus things were laid close
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home to him, before his hearers; and his deacon
urged him to go: so we parted friendly.
Wliile in this neighbourhood, we made our home
with dear Cyrus and Mary Dcane, who from being
gay Presbyterians have become solid Friends, having
received the Truth in the love of it. They live en-
tirely from among Friends, and I felt much for them.
When we took leave of them it was an affecting time,
in which prayer and supplication was offered on their
behalf. From Greene we went on to Winthrop and
had a meeting; and thence to John Tabor's near Vas-
salborough. In this neighbourhood we spent eight
days, and were at seven meetings, using great indus-
try. On sixth-day, the ISth, after a heart-tendering
time at Remington Hobby's, several dear friends
being present, we again set out for Winthrop, where
we had a meeting in the evening; but not feeling-
clear of the place, we stayed over first-day, and had
another large and favoured meeting with the people.
Thence to Jeremiah Hacker's at Lewistown, and
after a meeting there, we went on to Durham, where
we sta3'ed their montlily and first-day meetings; in
both which, I found it my place to set an example
of silence. After visiting some families, and all the
select members, we set out for Falmouth, and were at
meeting there, in which I v/as silent. Then to Port-
land on the 1st of the 4th month, 1791, and had a
meeting in the Presbyterian meeting-liouse; but it
was a low time, the people appeared raw, and were
going out and in most of the time. After visiting
the few families of Friends in Portland, we attended
Windham meeting on first-day; — at the close of
which, it was proposed to have another meeting there
next day; but the town having the grant of the house
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to do their business in, we were put by. Seeing how
things were through the weakness and indulgence of
Friends, I let them know that such an instance of the
use of Friends' meeting-houses, I had not before
known, and that the weight of my concern must fall
on them, as I felt clear of Falmouth.
4th mo. 5th. Had a meeting in a Friend's house
at Gorham, which was a good open time; then rode
twenty miles to Robert Boody's, on our way to
Sandwich in New Hampshire. Early next morning,
having yet about forty-five miles to go, we set out and
got along without a pilot about half way, when we
had the road to break for four or five miles, as no
body had been along it all winter, and the snow was
yet about two feet deep, mostly through pine woods.
In about four hours we got through to where the
road was again broken; and thence about six miles
to a house where we obtained lodging. In the even-
ing we had a religious opportunity with the family,
and went to bed without supper, though not without
the offer. After breakfast next morning, we set for-
ward, and reached the widow Sarah Beedy's at Sand-
wich before noon. While here, I wrote home as
follows:
Dearly beloved wife, Susanna Judge, — Yes, dear-
ly beloved and longed for, my joy and my crown, I
salute thee in the fresh arisings of that love and life
which the children of our heavenly Father, through
his holy goodness and love, feel to abound in them;
not by imagination, but through the operation of the
Word of power and of might, by which they have
been, in the long-suffering of God to thcm-ward,
(luickcncd to a lively and blessed hope. In that, I
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say, which spreads over sea and land, and which
springs in my heart and flows towards thee and our
children, and all my friends at home, especially those
of the circumcision of faith in Christ, without spot,
without mote, interruption, or any hindrance, this
love streams towards thee, and thou art brought near
to me in the covenant of light and life; and I feel thee
daily in the seed, wherever I go. Thou art fresh
and precious with me, and in my nearest and most
solemn approaches before the most mighty, pure and
holy One, I have had thee and ours brought into re-
membrance: and in the melting love of Christ, our
holy head and high priest, my heart has been dis-
solved, and my soul poured out as waters before God
on your behalf. The Lord is my witness howl long
after you all: and though my body is here, my spirit
is often with you, and desirous to see you; which I
hope and believe in the Lord's time (which is the best
time) I shall, and shall rejoice and be refreshed and
comforted in you, and in thee, my dear heart.
The service in which I am engaged, is what keeps
us apart; and it is the Lord's work and not man's; and
for this end has he committed unto me a dispensation
of the gospel of Christ, counting me worthy who
was unworthy. But he hath, through the blood of
the everlasting covenant, washed away my old sins,
and hath sanctified the vessel, fitting it for the ser-
vice whereunto he hath appointed and chosen it in
Christ, according to his good pleasure, — to whom be
dominion and praise, majesty and power, now and
forever — Amen. It is often marvellous to me, that
I should have any thing to do in so great a work;
but herein is the wisdom of the Most High displayed.
He hath chosen the poor, the weak, the low and
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mean things, to confound the wisdom of the wise,
and to bring to nought the understanding of the pru-
dent, that no flesh should glory in his presence; but
that every mouth should be stopped, and all flesh
should keep silence before him.
If we can believe that this is the cause of our so
long separation, which I as yet have had no room to
question, let us endeavour to stand in that which
gives ability to resign each other up to the Lord,
whose we ought ever to be. And as we stand, move
and act in that which gives sight, sense and a right
understanding, we shall see, feel and enjoy one an-
other; having fellowship with each other in the pre-
cious unity of the one, eternal Spirit, by which we
are baptized into the living body of which Christ is
head: and as we abide here, we are made to eat and
drink together of that bread and water which the
world knows not of. I know that we are bound up
together in the bundle of pure love, and I feel for
thee and with thee, as I love thee dearly with our
children. But as near and dear as you are tome,
you must be parted with for the Truth's sake; for
this is and ought to be nearer than all. It is my life,
my joy and my rejoicing, to see Truth prosper. Was
it not for this, thine and thS children's sake, I should
be willing to be dissolved, that I might be with
Christ out of the reach of temptation. But for the
Truth's sake, I am not only willing to stay, till it
may i)lease the Lord most high to say, Put thy robes
from ofi'tbee; but I am cheerfully given up to spend
and be spent; knowing that the strength of my days
and the flower of my years, cannot be devoted to a
better ])urpose. (ilory, honour and everlasting high
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praises be given and ascribed to Israel's Rock who
is forever worthy.
I am comforted, yea, I greatly rejoice, over and
above and through all the hardships and perils that
attend me, and which have been many and of various
kinds, — some amongst false brethren, some in the
waters, in the cold, in hunger and fasting, and in the
wilderness and deserts of new countries, — I say, I
rejoice through and over them all, and I know thou
wilt joy with me in the God of our salvation, in that
there are many, up and down, turned to the Truth,
and who have not only heard, but obeyed the call.
How long they may stand, we know not, but some
of them look very hopeful and promising, and their
love toward the instrument quite enough. Thus, in
seeing the fruits of the labour blessed, I am revived
and encouraged; and believe, if 1 faint not, it will add
to my glory in the day of Christ. Yet in all this, the
instrument is nothing; and I glory in none of these
things, but in the cross of Clirist, by which I am
crucified to the world and the world to me.
We have been very kindly entertained by this
goodly widow, Sarah' Beedy, and I hope the Lord
will reward her for her tenderness towards us. We,
had a meeting here yesterday, which was a good,
open time. Indeed there is an open door in this
neighbourhood, to receive the doctrines of Truth. —
When I was here a few months ago, there were forr
persons convinced. There are great stirrings in the
minds of the people in this land. I have sometimes
thought there is a time at hand, in which there will
be a great gathering to Christ, the one true Shepherd,
and into the one true sheep-fold. Oh! glorious day,
when they who have been afar off, shall be brought
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nigh, — when they shall sit under his shadow with
delight, and his food shall be sweet to their taste. —
When 1 have been among people of other societies,
I have felt the doctrines of Truth to flow in a free,
open channel, by way of information, and invitation
to come to Christ, the living, eternal substance. —
Surely, mystery Babylon will come down. Her
merchants, her traffickers and her traders are fast
losing credit; large meeting houses are unoccupied,
because the people are dissatisfied with their teach-
ers. They begin to see through their blind guides;
and there are great splittings, rendings and dividings
among them. One friend told me he knew of twenty-
seven towns where the priests were discharged. Oh!
may the Lord carry on and hasten his own work. —
With endeared love to thee, my beloved spouse, and
our dear childi-en, with all friends, I conclude, and
am thy afl'ectioriate husband, in deep travail of spirit
according to my measure for Sion's beauty, and that
none who love her may fail of the salvation that is
witliin her gates. Farewell in the Lord.
Hugh Judge.
At the close of the meeting held at Sarah Beetly's,
the attention of the people was called to a considera-
tion of the frequent reading of the scriptures, and
tliat parents and heads of families ought to promote
this christian duty in their families. Those who pro-
fessed the scriptures to be their only rule of faith and
])racticc, were queried with, why they did not walk
by tlieir rule? and it was remarked that many who
professed the christian name were in the use and
practice of things that were introduced in the dark
night of apostacy; and that for want of examining
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the ground from whence they sprang, they were con-
tinued in: but that it was not so in the beginning. —
God made man upright, but he has sought out many
inventions. In the beginning when man learned of
his Maker, his language was thee and thou to one
person; it was so throughout the law, the prophets,
and the gospel. So, when man learns of his Maker,
he still says thee and thou to one; also Jirst-6ay,
.yeco;2(/-day, &c. and first month, second month, &c.
There was no Sunday, Monday, March, April, &c.
in the beginning, when men spake a pure language;
Init these names have sprung from heathen idolatry,
and the worship of the sun, moon, &c. Israel of old
was commanded not to learn the ways of the heathen,
no, not so much as to take the names of their gods
into their mouths: but now, christians, so called, can
adopt and continue in the practice of names and
things derived from heathen idolatry without exam-
ining from whence they came. What foundation
have they in the scriptures, for their bowing, scraping,
and using the terms, sir, madam, mister, misses, &c.
Were people more solid and weighty in looking into
Ihe ground and motive of these and many other cus-
toms and practices, they would see there was room
for great reformation. For, we have not only the
scriptures to go by, but thei^e is the true light that
lighteth every man coming into the world. But if
people counted such things as those abovenamed, to
be little things, they were not only easier to put
away, but as christians they ought not to meddle
with, nor be in the practice of little, low and mean
things which have not their origin in a pure source;
for there was something noble and dignified in the
nature of Christianity The people were quiet and
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attentive, while these views were opened to them,
on subjects that perhaps they had never heard, nor
thought on before.
After tarrying six or seven days in and about Sand-
wich, in which time we had some precious opportuni-
ties witli the people, we took our leave of Friends in
near love and fellowship, and set out for Gilmanton.
After having two meetings there, we went to Meader-
borough and Rochester, where my dear companion
Richard Holder, who had been with" me about two
months, left me and returned home. Taking Dover
meeting on the way, I attended the monthly meet-
ings at Berwick, Falmouth and Durham, John Tabor
and Peter Morrell in company; then returned to John
Winslow'sat Falmouth; he and his wife Lydia being
with us. They have been as brother and sister to me
for a number of months past. I had made my home at
their house whenever in the neighbourhood, and John
had been with me as a companion for more than three
months at one time. Their habitation was a place of
rest to my often fatigued body and deeply exercised
mind.
5th mo. 1st. I was at Portland meeting; and at-
tended the adjourned monthly meeting at Falmouth
on the 4th; then went on to Berwick and Dover,
where Benjamin Alley from Lynn met me. On
third-day, the 10th, was at Newbury-port, where 1
found my dear fiicnd Daniel B. Allc}-, who accom-
panied us to Lynn. Here I met with my beloved
friend Richard Mott, son of my worthy friend James
Mott. He had left all that was near and dear to him,
and come on upwards of two hundred miles to bear
me comj)any. What manner of love is this, to in-
duce a friend to come so far, as a companion to so
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poor a creature as I am! But I was truly glad to
see him. We attended the select and monthly meet-
ings at Lynn; after which we proceeded to visit the
families of that meeting, and had some favoured op-
portunities. A gracious visitation of Divine love
seemed renewedly extended, especially to the dear
youth, many of whom appeared to be much tender-
ed and in a hopeful way. Oh! that they may be pre-
served. During this family visit, my beloved com-
panion, Richard Mott, in much fear and dilTidence
opened his mouth in a few words by way of minis-
try, to my satisfaction and rejoicing.
After visiting nearly all the families at Lynn, in
company with Henry Oliver we set out for Dover,
and were at their monthly meeting; thence to Hamp-
ton and were at two meetings there, and so back to
the Quarterly meeting at Salem. Then, taking leave
of our dear friends about Lynn and Salem, we set
forward for the Yearly Meeting at Newport on Rhode
Island, which we attended. This meeting was to me
an exercising, laborious time: the life and power of
Truth seemed at a low ebb, and the discipline of the
church appeared to be managed too much in the wis-
dom and strength of the natural man. The minds of
Friends are too much turned to the letter, to the
written code, and not enough to the Spirit; there-
fore a state of formality and death ensues. Oh! the
great want there is of centring down to the root of
life in meetings for business, that there may be solid
weight felt in managing the affairs of society, and in
the government of the church. Almost throughout
this Yearly Meeting, the state of things in relation
to the maintenance of christian discipline, is mourn-
fully low among Friends,
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At this Yearly Meeting, I met with my beloved
friend Joshua Sharpless, of Concord, by whom I re-
ceived letters from home. iSIary Ridgway and Jane
Watson, from Ireland, were also there, and Samuel
Emlen and Thomas Scattergood, from Philadelphia.
I have now spent more than one whole year with-
in the compass of this Yearly Meeting. Before I
arrived in this land, I thought and believed there was
a large field of labour, and I have found it so, great-
ly to my humbling: but I think I have not eat the
bread of idleness, since being here. My soul has
often been bowed in deep concern for my own pre-
servation, when I have considered how soon other
ministering Friends have got along through this
countr}', while I have been travelling backwards and
forwards, sometimes in the society and sometimes
out; visiting all the Quarterly and monthly meetings,
and some of them several times over. But I have
endeavoured to keep my eye steadily to my good
Guide; and not let the intreaties or persuasions of the
people influence me, even when Friends have men-
tioned having meetings at this place or the other:
and I do not remember a single instance in all my
travels in this land, of turning to the right hand or
the left, but where I have felt my mind drawn. —
Blessed forever be tlie holy name of Him who is
strength in weakness, riches in ])overty and a very
present heij^er in every needful time.
After the Yearly Meeting was over, we spent about
a week on the Island; tlicn, taking leave of our
beloved friends, the widow Rodman and her amiable
daughters, where we had been very kindly entertain-
ed, we went to Providence and were at their week-
day meeting. Here wc found our dear friend Job Scott
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under very close exercise that seemed as much as
he could wade under; his wife also was very poorly.
Thence, taking Smithfield and Leicester on our way,
we passed on to Richmond, in New Hampshire, and
had two meetings there on first-day. We then set
out for Hoosack, in New York state; and on our
way had to cross a great and rough mountain, over
which there was only a blind foot path; and in going
twelve miles, we met with but two small habitations.
After a meeting at Hoosack, we went thirty miles
to White Creek, where we had two meetings. —
Thence to Danby, in Vermont, and so to Queens-
bury, Stillwater, Saratoga, Albany, Coeyman's Pa-
tent and Hudson. The distance of these places be-
ing far apart, we travelled hard, and in three weeks,
rode upwards of four hundred miles, and attend-
ed fifteen meetings. My companion Richard Mott
said we drove too hard; but I felt anxious to get
through the service, so as to return home to my fa-
mily. But this way of taking meetings where set-
tled and no where else, seemed to me to be like fly-
ing along to very little purpose or real satisfaction.
7th mo. 12th. We left Hudson and went to Kline-
kill and New Britain, thence back to the monthly
meetino; at Hoosack, of which Robert Nesbit is a
member: he was about to make a religious visit to
Pennsylvania. We then had meetings at Nine Part-
ners, Little Nine Partners, Chesnut Ridge and Creek;
in several of these 1 was silent, under a sense that
the people were too little acquainted with and accus-
tomed to silence. On seventh-day, the 2^3d, we cross-
ed the North river to New Marlborough, and attend-
ed meeting there on first-day, silent. Next day, we
were at their monthly meeting held at Cornwall,
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which was a painful, exercising time. On third-day,
we crossed the river, and were at Oswego week-day
meeting next day. Here we parted with Tiddeman
Hull and Isaac Hallock, who had been acceptably
with us for several days. Thence to Apoquage,
Cornwall in Connecticut, and back to Oblong, w^here
Peter Lossing met us; and so on by way of the Val-
ley and Amawalk to the Quarterly meeting at Pur-
chase, where I again met with my dear friend James
Mott, to our mutual comfort and rejoicing. In the
select meeting, I had close searching service, as has
often been the case with me in meetin2;s of like kind.
Tiience we rode to James JNIott's at INIamaroneck,
and on seventh-day, the 6th of 8th month, I crossed
the sound to Long Island; attended Jericho meeting
on first-day, and went to see my beloved friend Phebe
Prior, who was in a low, declining way at her mo-
ther's. Returning from Long Island, I spent near a
week at James Mott's and attending meetings in the
neighbourhood.
8th mo. 14th. After the meeting at Mamaroneck,
which was a good time to some present, I set out
with James Mott, and rode near thirty miles to
Robert Underbill's at Amawalk; next day crossed
the Highlands and travelled near forty miles to Zo-
pher Green's. On third-day, the 16th, attended a
select meeting at the Creek meeting-house, in which
there was some close doctrine from these words,
"They have set up kings but not by me, and princes
but I knew it not." Next day was the Quarterly
meeting of ministers and elders at Nine Partners, a
close, searching time on account of a barren, lifeless
ministry; but consolatory to the little, living chil-
dren, with whom my soul was nearly united in the
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fellowship of the gospel. The business of the Quar-
terly meeting occupied two days, and the day follow-
ing was the monthly meeting. In some of the last
meetings I was silent, and I believe rightly so as to
ministry. We then went to the Branch meeting on
first-day, and were at Oblong on second-day at their
monthly meeting. Here James Mott left me and
returned home, and his son Richard joined me as
companion again. My mind being still drawn toward
the Cohoos country to the north, we set out from Ob-
long on third-day afternoon, the 23rd of the 8th mo.
and attended East Hoosack meeting on fifth-day. —
On our way we dispersed several books, and fell in
company with a committee of the Yearly Meeting
who were on a visit to the remote meetings.
On our way from Hoosack to Saratoga, we had a
meeting from amongst Friends; a large collection of
people, who were very attentive to the doctrine de-
clared among them. At Saratoga we attended a meet-
ing for worship, which was a solemn time, and next
day their monthly meeting. Thence proceeded to
Danby in Vermont, forty miles, and were- at their
first-day meeting on the 4th of the 9th month. Next
day, we went on towards Strafibrd and Sharon, where
there are some friendly people, with whom we had
two meetings: then to lake Champlaln upwards of
one hundred miles, through a newly settled and set-
tling country. On the 10th we arrived at Monkton,
and had a meeting next day among a few Friends
who reside there. They are upwards of a hundred
miles from monthly meeting; but they are not stop-
ped from going to meetings on account of a little
rain, or muddy weather; even tender women walk
many miles on foot. The land here appears to be
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good, and I have no doubt that in time it will become
a great country: but there are not many Friends as
yet settled here, and no meeting established. We
had several other meetings in and about this neigh-
bourhood and near the lake, finding great openness
to hear the doctrines of Truth; and on fifth-day, the
loth, set out on our return to Danby, where we had
several meetings, one of which was for the youth,
and it was a favoured season. Blessed be the Lord
my God.
After being at five meetings about Danby, we came
again to Saratoga, and were at divers meetings there:
then, without much delay, we came on to Nine Part-
ners and attended the week day meeting at the
Creek, where we met our beloved friends, Mary
Ridgway and Jane Watson, to our mutual comfort
and reviving. After attending several meetings in
the neighbourhood, we came on by way of Ama-
walk, Shapaqua and Purchase, and so on to the
peaceful habitation of my much beloved friend James
Mott, at Mamaroneck, who with his dear children
have been truly and affectionately kind to me. After
staying one night, I crossed over to Long Island,
and spent a few days with some dear friends there,
also attended the monthly meetings at Wcstbury and
Jericho. Returning again to Mamaroneck, and taking
a few meetings in those parts, I attended the Quar-
terly meeting in New Yorkj after which 1 went to
Oblong and was at the Quarterly meeting there, in
the beginning of the 11th montli. Thence back to
James Mott's, where I tarried one night; and, next
morning, parting with him and his family in much
nearness and love, I went on to tlie city, Richard
Mott still accompanying me. On first-da}', I attend-
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ed Iheir two meetings in New York, and spent the
next day in visiting some of my dear friends there.
In a review of this long and arduous journey, I am
not conscious of having spent any idle time in any
place; for idleness becomes not a people fearing God,
much less those who are engaged on the errand of
the gospel. It is really a good thing to husband time
well on all occasions. While I have been engaged
in visiting different parts of the country, I am not
sensible of having stayed half a day too long in any
place; and Oh! that I could say I had left no place too
soon. But, being led in a different track from many
others who have visited those parts of latter time,
and unusual for me, I confess that at low seasons and
under the pressure of exercise, I have sometimes let
in fears lest my brethren at home should be uneasy
with my long absence, and so have left some places
sooner than I otherwise should have done; for I
greatly value the unity of the brethren.
On third-day morning, the Sth of the 11th month,
1791, taking leave of my beloved friend and com-
panion Richard Mott, and many other dear friends,
I set out for home, having the agreeable company of
Adam Mott, son-in-law, and Robert Mott, son of my
valued friend James Mott; and on sixth-day, the
11th, arrived at Brandy wine, where I was tenderly
and affectionately received by my beloved wife, chil-
dren and friends, who all seemed truly glad of my
safe return, as I also was to see and feel them in the
living Truth. Our meeting was to mutual satisfac-
tion, comfort and rejoicing, with thanksgiving to the
Lord our God who had thus favoured us once more
to meet and enjoy one another in the precious unity
of the love of Christ. Oh I my soul, bow low before
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the Holy One of Israel, and praise him who remains
to be everlastingly worthy. Surely, I may utter the
language, Return, my soul, to the place of thy rest,
for the Lord hath dealt bountifully with thee.
Next day, being seventh of the week, I attended
our Quarterly meeting of ministers and elders at
Concord, returning home in the evening. On second-
day, was at the Quarterly meeting for business, and
next day, the youth's meeting. Fourth-day was our
monthly meeting, at which I returned my certificate,
with others obtained abroad during my late journey.
Next morning, my beloved friends, Adam and Rob't
Mott, concluded to return home, and we took leave
of each other in near love and affection.
In the year 1792, Hugh Judge attended the Year-
ly Meeting held on Long Island, in the latter end of
the 5th month. He was from home about six weeks,
attending that and some other meetings in the neigh-
bourhood. During this journey, he placed his son
Thomas apprentice with a Friend at Rahway. The
following salutary advice is taken from his first lek-r
ter to him, dated, Brandywine mills, 6th mo. 22nd,.
1792. After mentioning several removals by death,
he adds: "How needful and right it is for all of us
to fear always, not knowing how soon we also must
go; and how watchful over our words and actions we
ouglit always to be! I wish thee, my dear child, to
remember thy Creator in the days of thy youtli,and
often to ihink on his great name, that so if thou
shouldst live, thou mayst grow up in good liking be-
fore himj walking in his holy fear, and remembering
that he sees thee always. Keep out of all idle com-
pany^ lie as much in the company of the Fricnda
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thou livest with, as thy business and leisure will ad-
nnit, and let thy obedience and attention to them be
the same as to me and thy mother. Go not out at
any time without their leave; do nothing that would
grieve them, or occasion anxiety to their minds. —
How joyous to us it will be to receive good accounts
of thee; and I am not afraid that it will not be the
case, if thou only does as well as thou knows how.
My dear son, be faithful and trusty in whatever
thou art set about; do just the same behind their
backs, as thou would, knowing thy master and mis-
tress were looking at thee. This will make them
love thee the more. When masters find they can
trust their apprentices, they are easy in their minds,
and then things go on pleasant and agreeable to all.
As thou art concerned to fear the Lord and serve
him, he will preserve thee; for it is his fear that
keeps the heart clean. Oh! remember him in thy
lying down and in thy getting up, and throughout
the whole day. Take delight in reading the scrip-
tures and other good books, and improve thyself in
writing; for this purpose thou can retire up stairs
alone, first-day mornings and afternoons, and other
leisure times."
7th month 16th. For some time past, it has been
with me a close, stripping season, a time of proving;
all in best wisdom, no doubt. The furnace is good,
but where are they that love to go into it? We are
willing to be with Christ, the seed, when we can join
in singing, Hosanna, in the highest: but when sufier-
ing comes, how many then turn as it were their
backs upon him. Oh! may I never be of this num-
ber. The language of my heart is often on this wise:
" If I forget thee, Jerusalem, let my right hand for-
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get its cunning, and my tongue cleave to the roof of
my mouth." This language was used when the true
Israel were in captivity; and is there not occasion
painfully to adopt the same language, when we con-
sider the low state of society, its mixtures, and its
captivity to things that lead to weakness and confu-
sion? "By the rivers of Babylon we sat down, yea,
we wept when we remembered Zion; we hanged our
harps upon the willows in the midst thereof." Great
have been the favours shown to us; blessing upon
blessing has been heaped upon us; but where are the
returns of gratitude, of humility and of good fruits,
answerable thereunto? My soul is often clothed
with mourning on account of the low state of things;
the seed surely is in captivity in many minds. Yet
I believe there is a precious remnant up and down,
who have not bowed the knee to Baal, nor kissed
even his image: witii these I haA'^e near fellowship,
and my pra)'ers are that they may be kept in a state
of humble walking before God. And though their
trials within and without are many, yet the horn of
Israel remains to be their safety, and he will be their
feeder, their keeper and everlasting care-taker and
redeemer.
In the 11th mo., 1792, I removed with my family
to reside at New Rochelle, in the state of New York,
about twenty miles from the cit}^, and by certificate
from Wilmington monthly meeting, we became mem-
bers of Mamaroncck particular, and Purchase month-.
ly meeting. Not long after we became settled here,
I visited the families belonging to this monthly mcet-i
ing.
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5th mo. 22d, 1793. The state of things inward and
outward has been such with me for some time, that
I have frequently been brought very low in my
mind, and ready to say, how is it possible for me to
get along? When things that are apparent and those
that are not, are suffered to have too much place in
our thoughts, the mind becomes exceedingly tossed,
like a ship without an anchor. Many are the hidden
and deep trials which some pass through, unknown
to mortals, and was it not for the Arm that is mighty
and willing to save, they would be swallowed up. —
But what a mercy, that the Power which formerly
stilled the boisterous sea, is yet graciously pleased to
be near in times of close trial! My soul is humbled
under a sense thereof, and may I be more and more
concerned to walk humbly before him.
23d. Received some encouragement to-day, under
the ministry of our ancient, beloved friend, Mary
Griffm, from Nine Partners. She is in the eighty-
first year of her age, and on her way to Long Island
Yearly Meeting. What a favour, to be lively and
green in old age! In the afternoon, we crossed the
sound, in company with divers Friends; and next
day I rode in Adam Mott's chair with Mary Griffin
to Westbury. We travelled in much stillness and
quietude, and my heart was humbled and my spirit
contrited before the great Preserver of men. The
select Yearly Meeting was to me an exercising time:
although there was considerable said by way of min-
istry, there was too little of the solid, baptizing pow-
er of life to be felt. Oh ! the emptiness of mere sound,
without life and substance! I am often deeply pain-
ed on account of a superficial ministry among us. —
True and living silence is too little known in many
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of our religious meetings. Sometimes, when there
ijeems to be something solid and weighty settling
over a meeting, up starts one and another, and away
it goes, to the wounding of those who love to feel,
more than to hear. Oh! that I may, while seeing
and feeling the mistakes of others, be more and more
armed with care and fear on my own account. I
think I have had some sight and sense of the excel-
lenc}^ of that ministry which is clear of all mixture,
proceeding only and alone from the pure unfoldings
of Truth; and I long for stability in and attention to
the precious gift, so as to minister in that ability only
which God giveth,that he in all things may be glori-
fied.
24th. After a meeting for worship, the business
of the Yearly Meeting was opened. Some testimo-
nies were borne with which I felt near unity, and
the meeting adjourned to second-day morning. On
first-day, attended meeting morning and afternoon.
How often, for want of a deep labour and travail in
awful, solemn silence, and a willingness to go down
into suffering, we may miss of many precious oppor-
tunities!
In the 10th month, 1793, while the city of Phila-
delphia was visited with the awful scourge of the
pestilential yellow fever, my spirit was often clothed
with solemn weight and reverential awe before God:
under which, at times, I was drawn to implore his
favour, and that he would be graciously pleased to
be near to the deeply afflicted, and humblingly tried
inhabitants of that once and long highly favoured
city; and also that he would not altogether remove
his loving kindness and tender mercies from its often
visited, but too disobedient and rebellious children.
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In the 11th month, 1794, being at Nine Partners
Quarterly meeting, 1 met with Joseph Cloud, a Friend
from Carolina on a religious visit to these parts. He
was on his way eastward, and Daniel Titus and my-
self accompanied him to some meetings in Connecti-
cut; the first was at Litchfield, where no Friends re-
side; thence to West Hartford, where there were a
few friendly people, who have since become mem-
bers of our religious society, to the number of thir-
teen. Joseph then had a meeting in the city of Hart-
ford; after which we took leave of each other in near
fellowship, he going on for Rhode Island, and Daniel
and myself returned to West Hartford, where we
had an evening meeting with those friendly people
and others, and it was a comfortable opportunity:
next morning we bent our course homeward.
At the Yearly Meeting of ministers and elders
held in New York in the latter end of the 5th mo.,
1795, a weighty exercise prevailed, in consideration
of the many weaknesses and departures among us as
a people generally, from the simplicity and purity of
our holy profession. Under this exercise, it was be-
lieved that ministers and ciders had also, by giving
way to a worldly spirit and the improper pursuit of
temporal things, been drawn into deviations from the
standard of righteousness becoming their stations:
hence, that many had become weak and deficient in
that religious concern and circumspect walking, ne-
cessary for the discharge of their several duties as
overseers of the flock. This defect among ministers
and elders was considered as one great cause of the
general weakness of our society, so evident, not only
in manifest deviations from our religious principles
and testimonies, but also in the sensible want of the
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arising and circulation of Divine life in our religious
meetings. Under the travail and exercise of the
meeting on this concern, a proposal was made and
united with to appoint a committee to visit the Quar-
terl}' and preparative meetings of ministers and el-
ders, and the members thereof, as Truth might open
the way, in order for the stirring up of Friends to
faithfulness in their several stations, and their help
and encouragement therein. The committee appoint-
ed to this service were, Gideon Seaman, Trip Mo-
sher, Silas Downing, Hugh Judge, Edmund Prior,
Anne Willis, Zebulon Hoxsie, Naomi Halstead, Elias
Hicks, Joseph Walters, Hannah Hoag, Huldah Hoag,
Rufus Hall, John Upton and Mary Field.
About the middle of the 7th month, in company
with part of the said committee, I crossed over to
Long Island, and we entered on the service of visit-
ing the ministers and elders of Westbury monthly
meeting, and thence to others on the Island. But,
alas! in some places there did not appear to be a pro-
per openness to receive counsel and admonition. —
The present is a day of great declension, in many,
from that plainness and simplicity which Truth leads
into. But in regard to the use of superfluities, Friends
do not all see alike; and some plead for things that
are common among mankind who live in conform-
ity to the customs of the world. When such are
spoken to, though in ever so tender a way, they
seem as if they could not bear it. Ah! there is too
much of a disposition to remain in their strong holds,
and to love smooth things. I believe a time is coming
when we shall he torn to pieces, more than we have
been for a long time; and it is often the desire of my
mind that wc may be so wise as to be willing to part
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with those things which are not according to Truth,
while the clay of mercy and forbearance continues.
While on this little journey, we attended their se-
lect preparative meeting, also the monthly and sev-
eral meetings for worship. The state of things in
relation to the pure standard of Truth, is but low on
the Island; and yet there is one here and another
there, that has the cause and testimony at heart, but
they have much to endure and are oft times ready to
faint under the many discouraging things that abound.
On second-day, the 27th, I returned home, in com-
pany with several of the committee from the Island;
and we had a season of conference at my house at
New Rochelle; thence proceeded to visit several
families of ministers and elders belonging to our
monthly meeting; after which, attended our Quarter-
ly meeting held at Purchase, in the beginning of the
8th month.
At this Quarter, a committee of the Yearly Meet-
ins: attended, with the Extracts and advices from that
body; in accordance with which, and the concern for
improvement and reformation among our members,
a committee was appointed to visit the families of
Friends within the limits of the Quarter, as way
might open.
After the public meeting at Purchase, I set for-
ward W'ith some of the committee appointed by the
select Yearly Meeting, of whom Elias Hicks, a faith-
ful Friend of Long Island, seemed the most steadily
devoted to the service, and we attended the select
preparative meeting held at Creek; then the Quarter-
ly meeting held at Nine Partners. We then set
out, the weather being very warm, and reached Hud-
son in the evening of the 7lh of the Sth month; next
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day travelled on toward Easton, and visited nearly
all the families of select Friends within the limits of
that Quarter, Rufus Hall and Zebulon Hoxsie being
with us. After which w^e visited the remaining min-
isters and elders belonging to the monthly meetings
of Nine Partners Quarter. Although, in passing
along from house to house and from place to place,
we had to believe that it was a right concern, yet in
many places great weakness abounds. It is a lament-
able state of ministers and elders in some places, per-
haps too generally, that in some measure they let go
their exercises when strangers come to sit in their
meetings, and indulge themselves in looking to be fed
by the labour of such strangers. Many other weak-
nesses prevail, yet there are livingly exercised Friends
in most of the meetings, with whom we felt near
unity and tender sympathy.
Our last Yearly Meeting having likewise given
directions to the Quarters to appoint committees to
visit the families of Friends within their limits; and
I, being named on that appointment, in company
with other Friends of the committee, visited nearly
all the families of Purchase and Oblong monthly
meetings. Thus, much labour and care are bestowed
on us as a religious society, and yet it must be ac-
knowledged that the state of things is low among us.
But 1 sometimes think that if this care and pains
were not taken, we should be likely to be in a much
worse condition than we are now: so that there is
cause of encouragement to labour and not fi\int. —
From the observations and feelings attendant on these
visits, I am induced to believe, the love of this pre-
sent world wounds us deeply, as a people; for the
accursed thing of coveting to be rich is in the camp.
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ilence, it is no marvel that things are as they are,
and that many of the youth are much departed from
plainness; but they are still much more easily wrought
upon, than overgrown worldlings. Oh! the earth,
and the earthly minded! how callous and impenetra-
ble to the tendering impressions of Divine love! My
spirit mourns over them.
1796, 1st mo. 3d. In keeping a regular journal of
my life and religious exercises, for a considerable
time past, both before and since I removed from
Brandyvvine, my pen has been mostly silent, except
the few brief memorandums preceding; yet, at times,
I have not felt satisfied to let it entirely drop. The
path I have travelled in, has been a very trying one;
that few of my friends knew how I have felt. 1 have
endeavoured to pass along so that my countenance
might not discover to others the inward state of my
tribulated soul; but when retired alone, I have often
poured forth my tears and my cries before the God
of my life, the Fountain of light and life, beseeching/
him to be near me and sustain me, so that my soul
may not sink, never more to rise.
I have had no minute to travel for upwards of three
years past; but have been at all the Quarterly meet-
ings belonging to our Yearly Meeting, and some
of them several times; also to a number of the month-
ly meetings. These visits have mostly been made
in attending to appointments of the Yearly and Quar-
terly meetings.
The 24th of the 10th month, 1796, in a letter to
my beloved friend, John Kendall, I wrote as follows:
In the fresh feeling of that which in days past made
thee preciously near to me, have I again taken up
the pen to salute thee with a few lines. Neither time
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nor distance can obliterate that friendship which hath
its foundation, not in empty form, but in the truth
of Jesus Christ, which maketh near and dear one unto
another in that which is immutable, and knows no
change. As we are concerned to keep under the in-
fluence of that love which first gathered us, we shall
be preserved in a green and growing state, bringing
forth fruits of acceptance, seasoned with the salt of
the everlasting covenant, to the praise of him that
hath called to virtue and to glory. I am induced
hereby to ask thee, as though thou wert my own
son, and as such I claim thee in the Truth, how thou
art getting along? I mean not as to temporals (tho'
that be right to be regarded in its place) but in rela-
tion to thy progress in the Truth; and because thy
soul's welfare is the most important inquiry. It will
be found by and by, to be a brave thing which will
stand to our account, that we be found faithful stew-
ards. Many trials attend us in this state of being;
and some seem to have a larger share allotted them
than others. Oh! that they may have this happy
effect, to fix us deeper and deeper upon that founda-
tion which stands sure, and against which, all the
combined dark powers, visible and invisible, will
never be able to prevail. I am in some measure sen-
sible, that the desire of thy heart is to be found faith-
ful; and as this desire is accompanied with obedience,
a growth and enlargement will be known; victory
and conquest over weaknesses will be attained. So
that there is encouragement to press through the
many bcsetmcnts from within and without, and to
trust in the sufficiency of that Arm of power, which
never yet failed any who leaned thereon, nor never
will. My love reaches strongly towards thee and
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thine. I wish your increase in the increase of God,
and that as you grow in years you may grow in
grace, and in the true and saving knowledge of Him
who lives forever and ever.
In the 5th month, 1797, I removed to the city of
New York with my family, and diligently attended
our religious meetings as they came in course; but
was very little from home in Truth's service, until
after the yellow fever had subsided, which prevailed in
the latter part of the summer and fall of this year, and
carried ofl' many of the inhabitants. It was a solemn
and awful season of mortality, — which ought not soon
to be forgotten.
Again, in the Sth month, 1798, the yellow fever
prevailed in New York, and there was an awful dread
felt throughout the city, go where one would. About
the middle of the month, there were sixty-three died
in twenty-four hours. Three of our children, being
young people grown up, were taken down in one
day, and had the fever very violently. Our son lay
fourteen days entirely helpless; and the greater part
of that time his life was despaired of. When the
black vomit began, I very much gave over thinking
he would recover. Our situation was then truly
awful. INIy dear wife and myself were alone with
them five days and five nights, and no one came to
see us. There were but few Friends in town, and
at that time some in every family were unwell. —
In five or six days, our daughters showed favourable
symptoms of recovery, but our son grew worse; and
for ten nights, I never had my clothes ofi", neither
do I believe in all that time I had ten hours sleep:
indeed, sleep seemed entirely to have departed from
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my eyes, my anxiety for my son was so great,
having but the one. In the fore part of his illness,
even as Jacob wrestled with the angel, so did I in
fervent prayer night and day; and in all this time he
was growing worse and worse. And now while I
am penning this account, my eyes and heart are full,
in a fresh remembrance of the adorable loving-kind'
ness and mercy of my God. But I found my duty
called for resignation, and the sacrifice of my will,
desires and affections. One night as I was sitting by
his bed-side watching him alone, my mind became
awfully clothed with the power and virtue of Truth,
and I was enabled to offer him up. 1 then felt and
knew what resignation was, and this language ran
through me with power: ' When Abraham offered
Isaac in figure, he was restored to him again.' My
soul bowed in solemn worship, reverence and fear;
and I now thought I could go through in doing the
needful for him, should he close his life before morn-
ing. I then had every thing planned in my mind
how his body should be laid out, that there might be
as much quietness as possible; for in this dreadful
fever the custom was, as soon as the breath was gone,
to have them away for interment as quickly as pos-
sible. But in this awful crisis, after my mind became
perfectly resigned, the disorder seemed to al)ate, and
my dear son was at length restored.
my soul, thou hast great cause to bow low be-
fore the Judge of all the earth, for his love and mer-
cy to me-wards, and in that he was graciously pleased
to spare our dear children and bring them all through
that sore disorder.
Before my children were taken ill, I had been a
good deal among the sick and distressed, and had
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witnessed some of the most awful, moving scenes
that ever my eyes hcheld, and the greatest distress
in the hour of death. In one instance, a man lay
dying left quite alone; his wife had stayed with him
as long as she could, heing in a critical state herself
They were young people but entire strangers to me,
but being informed of the circumstance, I went to
see him, and such another sight I never beheld. I
stayed with him till he expired, assisted in getting
his corpse to the grave-yard, and felt amply reward-
ed in the consciousness of having done what I could
for a fellow-creature in distress.
I might write largely respecting that awful season
of mortality, and describe many things of which I
was an eye and ear witness, but the above ma)^ suf-
fice at present. I will only add, that although I felt
from day to day, in going from place to place, a great
vireight of awe and dread upon me, to the bowing of
my spirit, and have even as it were tasted the disor-
der in my stomach, yet I was preserved from the
least feeling of slavish fear. It was the Lord's do-
ings and marvellous in mine eyes; to Him be glory,
honour and praise, forevermore.
In the 12th month, 1798, 1 set out on a visit to the
western parts of New York state, and went by way
of Nine Partners and Hudson, having Tiddeman
Hull for a companion. We were at the monthly
meeting at the latter place, in which I was silent, be-
ing the seventh silent meeting since I left home; but
others were not silent, and this monthly meeting held
till near sunset. My mental stock seems small; but
I find with frugal iiv I have sufiicient to live on from
day to day; which is a favour. There is bread enough
in the Father's house and to spare, and a little of the
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right kind is sufficient. After being at a number of
meetings, we came to Coeyman's Patent and were at
a meeting there. The day was very stormy; and as
we were going from the meeting, there being five of
us in a sleigh, the young man drove so fast down
hill, that he overset us, and I was much hurt in the
fall, so as for awhile to be almost breathless. Being
desirous, however, of getting on our journey, I con-
tinued travelling, though in grcat pain. The roads
between Coeyman's and Otego were very difficult, be-
ing mostly a wilderness countr}^, and the more so to
me on account of the pain I suffered from my hurt.
At Otego, there is a small meeting of Friends, the
greater part of them being such as have lately come
into society. We had a comfortable opportunity with
them, and they were loving and kind to us. Taking
leave of them in near affection, we set out for Una-
dilla, between thirty and forty miles. On the way
we found some settlements which were mostly new;
and the huts people have put up to live in are gen-
erally covered with bark: but few of them have any
chimnies, or much fire-place, except a back stone
jilaced against the logs a little higher than the back
stick, so that there is plenty of smoke in the room.
We also passed through a vast tract of uninhabited
woods. In this wilderness country we lodged one
night at a friendly man's cabin of one small room, in
which was a weaver's loom and four beds. In this
place ten or twelve of us slept, and rested well. But
when the mind is intent on the great object of fulfil-
ing its duty, no bed is too hard, nor food too coarse;
these things are considered as nothing, not worth
minding.
l.st mo. 10th, 171)9, wc arrived at Unadilla; next
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day we spent in hunting up some of the scattered
sheep of the family; some of whom have lost every
mark of the Friend. There are but few families of
members settled here, and they are a great way from
any meeting; so that they seem indeed as slieep with-
out a shepherd; for, either not being acquainted with,
or inattentive to the Divine principle and sure Guide
within, and being so remote from society, and its aid
and care (which are precious) they are really in a
sufferins; condition. How has all that is tender with-
in me been moved in pity and sympathy, since be-
ing in these remote and new settlements! And how
frequently have the privileges and advantages of
many been brought into view; among which the be-
ing near to meetings and amongst Friends, are not
the least.
We lodged at a Friend's house (if house it may be
called) that had not a single pane of glass in it, and
no way for light when the door was shut, but what
came down the hole in the roof where the smoke
went out. Yet the Friends were very kind, the wo-
man having six children, one of which was an infant.
I thought the hardships which women go through in
this western world, were little known or thought of
by their sisters in New York. Next day, being the
12th, we had a meeting made up of various descrip-
tions of people. After a time of deep exercise. Truth
rose into dominion, and we had a good meeting. —
Many of the people here appear to be but little ac-
quainted with the way of Friends; yet there is great
openness for hearing Truth's testimony. We spent
the afternoon in visiting some friendly families, to
some relief of mind as well as considerable satisfac-
tion. There being a remarkable thaw for the time
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of year, we found it difficult getting about in our
sleigh.
13th. Being first-day, we had a meeting a few
miles westward, in a school-house; then went on
till we came to Oneida, where we fell in com-
pany with John Upton, Adam Harkness, William
Odell and John Barker, who were on their way
to Genesee. So we travelled together about sev-
enteen miles and put up at an inn, where we lodg-
ed. Next morning we rose early, but it rained
so that we did not set out till ten o'clock, and
then got on about twenty-four miles to comfortable
quarters at a tavern. We travelled but slowly, the
snow being much gone, the weather more like spring
than the middle of winter; and people ploughing and
sowing rye. We had to walk much of the way, the
horses having enough to do to drag the sleighs and
ba2;gage. However, we got on with tolerable cheer-
fulness; for, being intent on trying to fulfil our duties,
things which would otherwise be accounted hard,
were made easy. Those who go forth in the service
of the gospel, or on business of the church, should
well consider the motive: when this is ascertained
to be right, as they keep their eye single to their
mission and their Master's honour, his Divine sup-
port will not be withheld. My soul has, from day
to day, renewed cause to worsliip toward his holy
sanctuary, the place where his honour dwclleth. Oh!
how I long, even with tears, that my children may
grow up in his holy fear, as willows by the water-
courses; making choice of him for their rock, — a
rock sure and steadfast, even when every other prop
fails.
This afternoon we crossed the Cayuga lake on the
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ice. It was with some difficulty we got the horses
on the ice, the edges being much broken. There ap-
peared to be considerable risk and danger, as there
were many air-holes; but we got safely over, it being
near one mile wide. Settlements are made on both
sides of the lake and some stately houses erected,
particularly on the east side. The snow being so
nearly gone, we concluded to leave our sleighs, and
go on horseback.
21st. Setting out very early, before day-light, we
missed our way, and had to return some distance;
but getting on the right road, about ten o'clock we
reached Geneva; a small town delightfully situated
on the bank of the Seneca lake. This lake is said to
be about forty miles long, and is wider than the one
we crossed: it does not freeze over in winter, and I
observed plenty of wild fowl on it. We stopped to
feed at Wells's, an old settlement of the Indians, who
were driven off in the time of the war. As they had
taken part with the British, all their buildings, im-
provements, and even their orchards, were destroy-
ed by the Americans. Such is the rage and madness
of war! Passing by Canandaigua lake, we came to a
town of the same name,where were some large wood-
en buildings, for stones appear very scarce here. We
then entered the wilderness again, and after some
tedious travelling, reached a friendly man's house
near ISIud-creek in the Genesee country, where we
were kindly received and entertained. Being very
weary, I rested tolerably well, although our room
was very open and exposed to the wind and cold.
But my greatest Good was kind to me, and I renew-
edly found that saying true. His loving kindness is
better than life, and the lifting up of the light of his
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countenance, than great riches. The secret prayer of
my soul is that I may cleave more closely to him, so
that I may be thoroughly purged from every defile-
ment. I view with awfulness, at times, that state of
purity which stands justified in his holy sight; and
feel fervent desires that I may become victorious
over all the powers of corruption. The example of
the holy Jesus is a pure one, and he says. Follow me;
the apostle also exhorts to walk after or according to
his example who was meek and lowly. In this state
I want to dwell, so as to know Jerusalem to be a
quiet habitation, a tabernacle never to be taken down,
not one of her stakes ever removed, nor any of her
cords broken. Seeing this state is attainable. Oh! let
us press after it with earnestness and diligence; let
us not give out striving against all that would oppose
or hinder; for, greater is he that is in us, than all the
powers of the world; and our holy pattern hath said,
"Be of good cheer, 1 have overcome the world."
After breakfast we had a solid and good time with
the family, none of them being members; then went
to see another friendly famil)', which was also a ten-
dering opportunity. We then passed on six or seven
miles through the woods to a Friend's house, where
we had a meeting in the afternoon, chiefly for the
members of our society, thinking it best first to sit
with them alone that we might feel a little together.
It was a season in which the canopy of Divine kind-
ness was spread over us, and the life and virtue of
Trulli were felt, baptizing us together in much ten-
derness and sympathy of feeling. In the evening we
went to AbrAam I^apham's, where we lodged. In
this settlement there are as yet but few Friends, per-
haps about a dozen heads of families, but a consider-
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able number of friendly disposed people: so tbat it
looks likely, if Friends who are here keep their
places, in time there will be a great increase. There
is also a fair prospect of our Yearly Meeting's be-
coming a large extensive one, by settlements and
convincements in these western territories. The face
of the country appears very level and the soil good;
but it lacks living springs and good water,
23rd. We visited families; but as they lay wide
from one another, we made but slow progress. There
was, however, much sweetness to be felt in their
lonely cottages, and an openness to receive the coun-
sel of Truth; so that our feelings and service were
very different from what is often witnessed amongst
those who are full of themselves, as also of the riches
of this world. Hence, it may be said, Truth has great-
er place among the new settlers and remote inhabit-
ants, than in populous cities and old settled places.
Next day, word having gone forth that strangers
were in the neighbourhood, and it being the day of
their mid-week meeting, it was the largest collection
of people that had been known in the settlement.
The meeting held about three hours, in which doc-
trine flowed freely, and utterance was given to de-
clare the word of life, with much openness to hear
and receive the Truth. In the evening, we had an
opportunity in the family where the meeting was
held, a considerable number of people staying, among
whom were several sprightly young men. The wing
of ancient Goodness was spread over us, to the ten-
dering of most present, and the Lord's arm was
magnified. It is his own works that praise him; and
the more humbled and lowly we keep, the better for
us: watchfulness is our state of safety, and that aba-
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sedness in which no flesh can glory in the Divine
presence.
24th and 25th. We visited some distant members,
and were well satisfied in our labours. Next day,
being first-day, in the morning we had a very open
opportunity with a considerable number at our lodg-
ings, and then a very crowded meeting, which held
upwards of three hours. Some came more than
twelve miles to the meeting, and it was a time not
soon to be forgotten. Much might be said of it, but
it is enough to saj^-, that Truth was over all, in a very
extraordinary degree, to the honour and glory of
the everlasting Shepherd of his flock and family.—'
Towards evening, we had another comfortable op-
portunity with divers people who had stayed with
us. We then rode six or seven miles to the house of
a friendly man who had been confined to his room
and bed for some years; with him and his family we
had a sitting to good satisfaction, and lodged there.
30th. We returned to our kind friends at the Onei-
da settlement; where three of our company left us.
On our way hither, wc came by one of the wonders
of nature,— a very large sulphur spring. As we were
crossing a considerable brook, the smell of brimstone
was so strong, that it led us to inquire for the cause;
when, walking a little way up the stream, wc found
sulphur in great plenty. Wc were also informed of
the salt springs in this country where they make
great quantities of good salt; likewise of an alum
spring and an oil spring.
Of latter time, I have not seen much or any ad-
vantage of saying or writing about poor, low, dis-
tressing seasons of mental poverty. I endeavour in
every state, as Paul said, to be therewith content; and
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in timeiS of fasting, that it is best to wear the sack-
cloth underneath, and as much out of others sight as
may be. Experience has also taught me that in plen-
tiful seasons of abounding, it is best to live frugally
as well as honestly; for extremes on either hand are
of little use. There is a blessed medium or middle
path, in which I endeavour to walk. It is in uner-
ring wisdom that we are often emptied and tried;
for, if we are the ministers of Christ, and are con-
cerned to preach him and not ourselvesj we must be
willing, in our measures, to partake of his sufferings
for his body's sake, which is the church; and so
must every living member of the body.
From Oneida, we went to the settlement of the
Brothertown Indians, and thence through New Hart-
ford, Whites-town, German Flats, and so on to Gal-
way. We then took meetings on our way to the
Quarterly meeting held at Saratoga the 13th of the
2nd month. It is the life and power of Truth that
crowns all our labours; acting out of it is at best but
sound without substance; but when the life accompa-
nies the words, it answers to or reaches, the life in
those that hear. That which proceedeth from God
gathers to him; and when the worcPis preached in
the demonstration of the Spirit and with power, the
life is raised into dominion, and a solemn covering is
felt to spread over a meeting, under which worship,
adoration and praise is offered up to him who sitteth
upon the throne. From the Quarterly meeting at
Saratoga, we returned home.
Some Account of my Journey to Upper Canada.
In the Sth month, 1799, 1 opened a concern in our
monthly meeting at New York, to visit the northern
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parts of our Yearly Meeting, and obtained a minute
for that purpose; but the yellow fever again break-
ing out, and Friends so generally leaving the city
that our meeting became very small, and my family
remaining in town, I was not easy to leave home,
until the Sth of the lOth month. Then, after a solemn
opportunity in the family, I took leave of our dear
children, and, accompanied by my wife, went to the
select and monthly meetings at Purchase. On the
10th my dear wife left me and returned homewards,
and I went on to Shapaqua monthly meeting; was
also at Amawalk and the Valley meetings, and had
a comfortable opportunity with the family of Daniel
Haviland, he being from home on a visit to Friends
westward. On the 14th, was at Oblong monthly
meeting, and next day at their select preparative
meeting, which was a refreshing time; thence to the
monthly meeting at Nine Partners, after which I
parted with a committee of our last Yearly Meeting
who were on a visit to the several monthly meetings
of Nine Partners and Purchase Quarters, in order to
make arrangements for the establishing of another
Quarterly meeting. I have felt myself among the
weak, yet ha\ie I been sensible of the Divine pre-
sence being near, which has borne me up above some
discouraging thoughts; and if I can only be favoured
from day to day to get a little of the heavenly bread,
or the manna that falls about the tent, I hope tiiere-
with to be content; for a small portion thereof will
keep the soul from famishing.
10th mo. 18th, I reached Hudson, and next day in
company with John Alsop rode to Cocyman's Patent,
and attended tlicir first-day mecti<ig; next day, had a
meeting at Rensselacrville,and so back to Coeyman's
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and Hudson, attending meetings. Here we again met
the committee who attended the monthly meeting;
then, parting with them, John Murray jun, and my-
self set out northward, and were at Saratoga meeting
on first-day, in which I sat silent, as was the case at
several of the preceding meetings in coming along,
and but little to offer in divers others: but I was
well satisfied, believing I had endeavoured to attend
to the motion of life; and when that is known, whe-
ther it be to speak or sit silent, we feel in ourselves
the reward of peace. The work of the ministry is a
great work; and how exceedingly careful we ought
to be, lest the Beloved be stirred up before he is
pleased to arise: where this is the case, there is dan-
ger of speaking when we had better be still.
On second-day, the 28th, we set out for lake Cham-
plain, with a view to get to Peru monthly meeting
on the west side. On reaching the ferry, they were
not able to cross the lake on account of the wind be-
ing high and setting against them; so we stayed all
night there, and next morning went to Ferrisburg
meeting. 11th mo. 1st, we had a meeting at Monk-
ton; next day, an appointed meeting at Ferrisburg
in the morning, and another at Monkton in the af-
ternoon. On first-day, the 3d, we had a meeting at
Starksborough in the morning, and one in the after-
noon in a school house, from amongst Friends, about
seven miles northward. William Odell being on a re-
ligious visit in these parts, was at the last four meet-
ings, and had good service. Next day, had a meet-
ing in the mountains, at a place called Lincoln, where
a few families of young Friends reside; it was a pro-
fitable season, in which much tenderness appeared
among them. Thence to the select preparative meet-
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ing at Danby, and next day the monthly meeting;
also, on first-day, the 10th, was again at Danby meet-
ing, which was large and held three hours or more;
being a solid, good meeting. The more we are di-
vested of all that is selfish, the more gloriously does
Divine grace display itself in and through us. To be
emptied of ourselves, and filled with the Divine ful-
ness, is a mystery too few understand. My soul is
often bowed in deep concern, that I may be preserv-
ed so as to move and act only under the influence
and direction of the great Lord and Lawgiver, whose
prerogative it is to speak through us to the people.
May my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth, ra->
ther than knowingly to offend, or slide into a cus-
tomary or habitual way of speaking, from no better
ground than the crcaturely workings in the imagina-
tion. Oil! how awful the service of gospel ministry!
how solemn and how pure!
nth mo. 11th. We set out for Easton Quarterly
meeting, which we attended, and also the youth's
meeting; the latter was a painfully exercising season.
When the servants do not keep tlieir proper places,
disorder often ensues. How good is that exhortation,
Study to be quiet, and mind thy own proper business!
The meeting was large, and the time thereof much
taken up in such a way as caused many solid Friends
to mourn. I was favoured to sit in silence. After at-
tending an adjournment of the select meeting, I re-
turned to Danby, and attended their first-day meet-
ing, which was large, and favoured with the over-
shadowing wing of Divine love. That afternoon rode
to Rutland, in Vermont; and next day, travelled up-
wards of forty miles and lodged at a Friend's house.
Xhc latter part of this day's journey was very labo-
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rious and fatiguing; but the mind being preserved in
calmness, could acknowledge the loving kindness of
the Most High in supporting through trials. 19th,
we got to Nicholas Holmes's to dinner, then went on
to the ferry, where we had to remain till next morn-
ing, among a very rough company, some of them up
all night playing cards and making a noise. How
heavy did my heart feel, to think that beings formed
for the height of happiness that men are, should thus
spend their time in folly, sin and wickedness! Nicho-
las Holmes and Elihu Hoag being now my compa-
nions, we crossed the lake and reached Peru, in the
evening of the 20th. Next day, attended the prepar-
ative meeting of Friends, which was a good time to
some present.
22nd. We left Peru, and went on to Plattsburg, a
village near lake Champlain at the mouth of Saranac
river, and a place of considerable business. Here we
dined at an inn, and some of the respectable men of
the place invited us to their houses, and were desi-
rous we should have a meeting among them. But
the way not appearing clear to us. we went on and
lodged at a dutchman's in a log house, where we had
mush and milk for supper. Next morning, we set
out very early and entered a new and almost unin-
habited tract of countr}^, through which we rode
about thirty miles, the roads in places almost impas-
sable, till we came to a house where we thought of
staying all night, as it snowed fast. But there was
no quarters for poor travellers there, nor any shelter
for our horses. We were directed to a house about
three miles further where we could be accommodated;
but the path lay tjirough a piece of thick hemlock
timber, and the night came on so that we could not
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see one another; and worse than this, we lost the
path, and were some time hampered among bushes
and the tops of trees blown down. We were now
on the descent of a considerable hill, and apprehend-
ed ourselves in danger of falling into some precipice
or more difficult place. Concluding we must be near
the house we aimed at, we shouted aloud several
times for help; at length we were answered and a
man came to us from the tavern, which was but about
half a mile ofT. So that we arrived safe without any
damage; and truly when I got into the house, my
soul was bowed in deep reverent thankfulness to
the great Preserver of men, for his protecting care
over us.
23d. Being first-day, it was proposed to journey
on, but I felt a stoj) in my mind. A meeting was
then agreed to be held about four miles on our road,
and notice spread to meet at one o'clock. A consid-
erable number of people collected, for such a newly
settled place; and though tho}^ were great strangers
to Friends, yet we had a comfortable opportunity
with them, to our satisfaction. On second-day morn-
ing early, we set forward, and rode twenty miles be-
fore we found a place to bait our horses; and a poor
place it proved to be, where wc could obtain nothing
for ourselves, and only some wild, coarse hay for our
horses. Besides this, the people being French, we
could not understand each other, and therefore could
get but little direction about the road. We had now
to ford a river, that appeared somewhat dangerous,
and it fell to my lot to venture first, and I got safely
through, the rest of our company then followed, and
met with no difficulty. We went on about a mile,
?ind came to another river, not so wide but deepep
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than the first; the bank was also very steep. I got
down the bank, and tlie other Friends pushed my
mare down after me: so I mounted her as she stood
in the water, and got through with safety, the others
following me. We had now an exceedingly miry
way to pass through for several miles, and abundance
of trees lay across our path; these, together with vast
multitudes of the roots of beech and birch trees, seem-
ed extremely difficult for our horses to travel through;
indeed I was often afraid they would break their
legs. However, through Divine kindness, we got
through without much damage, though not without
much fatigue. A little before night we reached a
tavern in a village called St. Regis, on a point of land
between a creek of the same name and the river St.
Lawrence. The wife of the inn-keeper was an In-
dian squaw, and they had a great deal of company,
Indians and others. The house being large, we had
a room to ourselves; and as we were strangers, divers
of the Indians wished to be with us in our room, and
the more so, as we were of the society of Friends. —
So we admitted them; and as the master of the house
understood their language well, througli him as in-
terpreter, we had considerable conversation together.
After supper, we had a religious opportunity with
all that were in the house, Indians and others; but
as I had never spoken by an interpreter, I was a good
deal afraid of beginning; however, on proceeding, it
was made easier than I had expected, and I got thro'
with the Indians (speaking by short sentences, as the
interpreter could not deliver long ones) to consider-
able satisfaction. I then addressed the other people
who had been spending the evening in drinking, fid-
dling, dancing and card-playing, and reminded them
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what a bad example they were setting the poor In-
dians, and that it was enough to disgust the Indians
against Christianity, when the professors thereof act-
ed so inconsistently. Things were laid close to them;
and one elderly white man, acknowledging the truth
of my remarks, gave many thanks for the advice and
counsel given them.
One of the Indian chiefs also, through the inter-
preter, expressed his thankfulness for the opportu-
nity, believing the Great Spirit had put it into our
hearts to give them good advice. There are, beyond
doubt, some solid, feeling people among them; and
I could but observe the wide difference between
what the Indians said in return, and what was said
and done by our own colour. On the whole, I felt
well satisfied that we were among them. But what
a lamentable thing it is, that the poor natives have
such bad examples set them by those professing faith
in Christ; and that, instead of spreading the know-
ledge of God among the heathen, the white people
corrupt them greatly, introducing among them all
manner of wickedness and the most degraded and
corrupt conversation! I could but exclaim, Oh!
Christendom! thy impieties, thy sins and thy abomi-
nations are great! what must and will thy judgments
be in the day of thy visitation!
Having agreed with some of the Indians (one of
whom used no strong drink of any kind) to take us
across the river St. Lawrence, this morning the 26th
of tiie 11th month, 1799, we went on board the ca-
.nocs, three of them being lashed together, and had
two Indian men and a squaw to take us over. The
wind being ahead, it took them near four hours to
go about three miles; but they managed well, and
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we thought ourselves safer with them than with
those of our own colour, though we could not under-
stand them, nor they us. Being so long on the wa-
ter, we got very cold and considerably wet, but were
landed near a public house, where we got some re-
freshment. We were now in Canada, and travelled
on about eleven miles, when we put up and had to
stretch our weary limbs on hard straw beds that
were none of the cleanest. However, I have found
it best for me to put up with those things quietly
without finding fault, which often sours the minds
of people, inducing them to speak evil of Friends as
a difficult people to please. Next day, we travelled
about thirty miles, and put up at a Dutch tavern
where we had good quarters. The day following we
set out early, took breakfast at Johnstown, and leach-
ed our friend Joshua Wing's, where we were kindly
and cheerfully received and entertained.
So far as we have travelled, the country is level
and the soil appears to be very good; considerable
settlements are making, but there seems to be a
scarcity of good water, and few running streams:
their mill-seats are chiefly on the river St. Lawrence,
and not many of them; yet where they are improved
they are very valuable. I observe, the first settlers
in new countries are generally people in low circum-
stances; and they have many difficulties and hard-
ships to encounter. When amongst them, I have
often felt great tenderness towards them. Their fare
being every way hard, they are low and poor and
feel themselves so: some of them have large families
about them to provide for, and little to do it with.
Many of them feel humbled under the trials of their
situation; and I have found their minds more tender
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and open to receive the truths of the gospel, than
those in old settled places. For where riches flow
in, without great care, they captivate and steal away
the affections and the tenderness of feeling. Riches
are a great snare to the un watchful; for, as Augustine
says, he who loves not God over and above all, loves
him not at all. Why should the sons of men so uni-
versally pursue with eagerness the things of time?
Is it because they think to find happiness in the en-
joyment thereof? Do riches give happiness? No;
they oftener bring discontent, and destroy true har-
mony and peace. Where the mind is bent after the
pursuit of wealth, that love which is due to the su-
preme Lord and Law-giver, becomes rooted out;
and out of the enjoyment of his presence, there can
be no true happiness here, nor hereafter. Where
men keep the world in its proper place, possessing
what they have as though they had it not, it is then
a blessing to them, and to others that they are stew-
ards over it. These are true philosophers, though
too few in number, who view and estimate things as
they really are. Far the greater part of mankind
are pursuing the world in order to be great, pomp-
ous, and to make themselves a name of distinction;
which often makes them proud and disdainful. Oh!
the folly, the great folly in beings formed for immor-
tality, to descend so as to be grovelling continually
in the low things of time! Raise thy ideas, man,
towards heaven; look beyond the things that vanish,
or perish with the using; seek durable riches and
riglitcousncss: then shalt thou enjoy the earth with
pleasure, and the fruits of the field with delight. I
am fully of the mind, there is no people enjoy this
life with greater satisfaction, than those whose minds
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are least in the earth, raised above it and kept out of
it. Those who walk in the fear of God enjoy this
life most truly; they pass the time of their sojourn-
ing here with an eye to the recompense of reward,
and are looking forward to that city which hath
foundations, and whose maker and builder is God.
29th. It snowed all day, so we rested at our kind
friend's; our horses also needed rest. But I was
mindful of the neighbourhood, and being remote from
a settlement of Friends, proposed having a meeting
appointed, which was accordingly done and notice
spread. Next day we attended it; and though it con-
tinued snowing, a considerable number assembled,
and it was a good meeting, in which Israel's Shep-
herd was near to help and instruct. We dined with
the family where the meeting was held, about four
miles from Joshua Wing's, and had a comfortable
sitting with them afterwards. On first-day, the 1st
of 12th month, we had a meeting at Joshua Wing's,
which was large and favoured. Next day, having
Mathew Howard for a guide, we travelled most of
the day through the wilderness in search of one Jo-
seph Day, a Friend. In the evening we found him;
but, poor man, he had no way to keep us nor our
horses. I wanted to stay a little with him and his
family, although our company urged to go on; but
two men happening to pass by the hut or cabin, we
hailed them and inquired where our horses could be
taken care of. One of them agreed to keep them
that night; so we let him take them along, concluding
to walk on after awhile. Then, taking a little re-
freshment (having passed the day without any) we
had an opportunity with Joseph and his family; after
which, we walked near two miles through the woods;
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and tired enough I was before we got to our quar-
ters, as the snow was of considerable depth. We lay-
down on the boards and slept sweetly; what a fa-
vour! Next morning, the young people gave us
some breakfast early, which we eat by fire-light, for
Ihey had no candles, being poor and beginning in
the woods. So we paid them well for what we had,
and set out on our wilderness road. After travelling
eighteen miles, we stopped to bait our horses on
som.e oats we had with us; and the man having kill-
ed a fat doe, they gave us some fried venison that
relished well. After a solid opportunity here,"we
parted with our kind guide, Mathew Howard, who
had come forty miles through the wilderness with
us. It was now past two o'clock, and we had
eighteen miles to go through an uninhabited wilder-
ness to reach Kingston mills, with no track but a
foot-man's. A very tedious time we had, and did
not arrive at the mills till eight o'clock in the even-
ing. Here again we lodged on the floor; but my
mind being calm and peaceful, the wilderness and
the floor were pleasant to me. Many times, in pass-
ing along through these rough ways, my heart was
contrite and my eyes were full; so that I was enabled
to sing praises to his most holy Name, who is wor-
thy thereof forever and forevermore.
4th. Left our quarters early and went to Kings'-
ton, seven miles, to breakfast. This village stands
on the banks of lake Ontario. After refreshing our-
selves and horses, we went on to Aaron Brewer's,
where we were kindly received: next day, had a
meeting at his house, to which came a considerable
number, inasmuch as the morning was stormy, and
the notice short. The Spirit of Truth was exalted
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Over and above all human forms and inventions, and
the meeting ended well. On sixth-day, we set out
for Philip Borland's, where we arrived at five in the
evening, and were heartily received. The road from
Kingston has been generally good, on the side of the
bay of Canty, and the country is considerably settled,
their improvements looking well for the time. The
settlers are chiefly from the United States, but they
have to go through a seasoning, being subject to fe-
ver and ague for awhile, — as the country is flat, and
but few streams of running water. Seventh-day, I
rested, and being much alone, I enjoyed the presence
of my great and good Master; feeling an engagement
of mind for preservation and right direction in the
great and weighty service^of the gospel.
On first-day, the 8th, we attended meeting in
Friends' new meeting-house at Adolphus-town, Up-
per Canada; in which I was silent, and felt thankful
in believing I was preserved in my proper place. In
the afternoon, we crossed the bay of Canty and went
ten miles up the bay to Daniel Way's, where there
are a few members of our society: next da}", we had
a meeting in the afternoon, which was a satisfactory
opportunity. On third-day, we crossed the bay on
the ice and returned to John Borland's; and next
day, were at Friends' meeting-house again, which
was a good time. We also had meetings the two fol-
lowing days; the latter at Daniel Haight's was a pro-
fitable season. On first-day, the loth, we were again
at the meeting-house, — a season of much favour, in
which doctrine flowed freely, to the praise of the
Helper of his people. In the afternoon, we visited
several families, some of which were precious oppor-
tunities. Next dav, after a tendering season in the
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family of David Barker, and another visit to a mem-
ber, we crossed the bay of Canty on the ice and rode
to West Lake. On third-day, the 17th, had a large
meeting in the neighbourhood, in which many were
broken into tenderness. What a mercy it is that the
Most High is pleased to look down upon us in our
low estate, and favour us with the visitations of his
love! In the afternoon and next day, we visited fa-
milies to our satisfaction: on fifth-day, had a large
and favoured meeting at East Lake; the people be-
haved well, though but little acquainted with the
way of Friends. Next day we returned to West Lake
to a meeting appointed at two o'clock; to which
came a much larger number of people than to the
first we had there. One*man of the Baptist persua-
sion was so reached, that when I took my leave of
him after meeting, the tears rolled from his eyes as
fast as one could well follow another. These meet-
ings iiave all been precious seasons; the Lord's truth
and power reigned over all, and great strength and
clearness were given to labour in word and doctrine.
Glory to his most excellent name forever: *it is his
own works that praise him.
21st. We returned to Philip Borland's, having
passed an industrious week, and had some precious
opi)ortunities. At one meeting, after I had been on
my feet about half an hour, and a solemn, good cov-
ering prevailed, all of a suddt-n I noticed alarm in
the countenances of divers of the people. I was stand-
ing with my back towards a window which opened
to the road, and which many of the people faced. —
On turning my eye round, I saw tlic occasion of the
alarm; — a sleigh was coming towards the house, and
the horse on full run with it; and just as it reached
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the yard, it overset. Feeling great weight on my
mind and concern for the meeting, I spoke to the
people as soon as I could, that a few only of those
sitting near the door should go out, and the rest en-
deavour to be as slill as possible. However, the alarm
was such that I thought best to sit down. Being un-
der no small concern, and keeping quiet in mind, I
was favoured to continue inwardly attentive to the
motion of life. Those who had gone out soon re-
turned, and the people who were overset in the
sleigh escaping without much hurt, also came in, and
all settled down so quietly, that I thought it remark-
able how quickly the meeting recovered from the
jostle. I again stood up and observed to the people,
that it ought to excite thankfulness in us all to the
Preserver of men, that there had been no lives lost,
nor much damage sustained by the accident. As I
made these remarks, many minds were tendered; and
I then proceeded with the subject I was on when I
sat down, and which still dwelt with me in a lively
manner; — doctrine flowed freely thereon, and the
Lord favoured us with a blessed opportunity till the
close of the meeting, which was under a solemn cov-
ering.
It seems right for me here to advert to the neces-
sity there is for all who are engaged in the important
work of the ministry, to know the" ground on which
they stand, move and act; — to keep the eye singly
attentive to the motion of Divine life, and to mind
with watchful care the opening, arising and spread-
ing of the pure gii't. Under this exercise, the mind
is kept in a solemn, attentive, awful calm, and can-
not be easily jostled, when circumstances which are
not pleasant occur. It is not unusual, amongst peo-
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pie who are almost or altogether unacquainted with
our way and manner of worship, and who are great
strangers to silence and an inward exercise, that a
little thing gives them alarm, or diverts their atten-
tion. As there is great allowance necessary to be
made on account of the bias and prejudice of educa-
tion, so we ought to exercise much patience with
others under such circumstances; inasmuch as some
know how it has been with themselves in earlier life.
I am also drawn to leave another caution to those
who travel in Truth's service in new countries. —
There are many infants and sucking children brought
to meetings in newly settled places, and at times
some of them are very noisy. But when we consid-
er that it is the people we are drawn to visit, and
were they not to bring their infants with them, we
should have very few of that class of mothers at
meeting, — we should also remember, that the first
settlers in new countries are generally those who are
in low circumstances, but are glad of the opportunity
of going to meetings: so that great tenderness is due
them, and we ought to bear and forbear. In a mul-
titude of instances of this kind of meetings, when the
mind has kept to its right exercise, I have rarely
found that the service or the meeting has been hurt
by the dear babes. But in some cases of Friends
travelling among the back inliabitants of new coun-
tries, hurt has been done by sharply rebuking the
mothers for bringing their little children to meetings;
and some have been disgusted and railed on Friends
on this account; so that their minds have been shut
up against Truth's testimony: therefore, on this and
some other subjects, tlicre is great need to exercise
tenderness and care, lest we block up our way in.
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the minds of the people, and render our service use-
less.
On first-day, the 22d, we attended their meeting
at the meeting-house; it was large and a highly fa-
voured season, in which the gospel flowed freely to-
wards the people with great clearness and authority.
Next day, had a second meeting at Grassy Point, to
which there came a larger number of people than at
the first, and we had a precious season. On third-
day, we had a meeting on the other side of the bay;
fourth-day, attended Friends' meeting and the pre-
parative meeting also. At this preparative meeting,
a proposal was made for holding a regular meeting
in the middle of the week, which they had not here-
tofore done. This proposal was cordial I}- united
with, as a number of the members had been previ-
ously exercised with the same concern, and a meet-
ins was now concluded to be held in future on the
fourth day of the week.
It may seem strange to some who may not be ac-
quainted with the circumstances, how a preparative
meeting should be held, and not a meeting in the
middle of the week. A few years past, our Yearly
JNIeeting sent a committee to visit the Friends settled
in Canada, who reported their situation and circum-
stances to that body. The subject being weightily
before the meeting, and much sympathy felt towards
Friends in these remote settlements, another com-
mittee was appointed to make them a second visit,
to whom authority. was given in the wisdom of Truth,
to open and establish a preparative meeting among
them somewhat different from others, in order to
meet their situation. As Friends settled here were
90 remote from any established meeting for disci-
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pline, the}' were allowed to accomplish their mar-
riages under the care of this preparative meeting,
which appointed overseers, and was authorised to
treat with offenders, and to visit those who might
request to become members — and in either of the
last two cases, when they came to a judgment, they
were to forward the same to the monthly meeting
of Nine Partners, of which this preparative was con-
sidered a branch. And inasmuch as Friends in these
parts were few in number and considerably distant
from one another, they were only enjoined to meet
on the first day of the week: yet it was left with
them to feel after their strength, and the right time
to hold a meeting in the middle of the week. And
now, their numbers having increased, and a meeting-
house being built in a more central place, it appear-
ed to be the right time to have a week day meeting
established at Adolphus-town.
Next day we set out for Kingston, and rode thirty
miles; lodged at Joseph Farris's; and the day fol-
lowing had a large meeting in that neighbourhood,
amongst a people very little acquainted with Friends,
but it ended well. On seventh-day, I rested at
Aaron Brewer's, and wrote home to my dear wife
and friends. Aaron and his wife are tender, kind
Friends; they came into society by convincement,
and appear to be well grounded in the principles of
Truth: they arc also very useful in the neighbour-
hood, and a meeting is kept up at their house. In a
little review of my labours and travels in this land,
my soul has great cause to worship God in deep hu-
mility and fear; for he it is that clothes with strength
from day to day, to j)roclaim his everlasting Truth
in the demonstration of the Spirit and with povvec^
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Blesssed be his excellent and holy name, who will
yet exalt the standard of Truth and make it glorious.
29th. Attended meeting at Aaron Brewer's in the
forenoon, and had another in the afternoon a few
miles westward: both were large and higlily favour-
ed opportunities. Truth's testimony reigned triumph-
antly over all, and the holy arm was magnified. —
Near tlie close of the afternoon meeting, a Metho-
dist teacher stood up, and wished liberty to speak a
few words; and no one making any reply, he pro-
ceeded, and told the people to lay aside their preju-
dices, and receive the things they had heard deliv-
ered; for he had to testify among them that the
truths of the everlasting gospel had been preached
to them. After adding a little more he sat down,
and seemed much affected, having delivered himself
in a tender, feeling manner; and I felt well satisfied
that what he said did no hurt to the meeting. When
he rose, a Friend who sat next me made a motion
for me to request him to sit down; but I thought it
would be less likely to interrupt the solemn cover-
ing that was over the meeting, to let him alone; and
so 1 believe it proved. There is great need of care
on all hands. This man had with him most of his
hearers, and divers of them were in a tender, seek-
ing state; some having lately left them and come to
Friends' meetings — so that his testimony would be
likely to be confirming to those newly convinced.
May the Lord prosper his own work.
On second-day, Philip Darland and wife being with
us, we returned to. their house through a tedious
snow storm, but did not arrive there till late at night.
This morning, Nicholas Holmes and Elihu Hoag
tooi leave of me, in order to return hom.e, but Elihu
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came back before noon. Next clay, 1 rested at Philip
Borland's, being fully of the mind that rest is as ne-
cessary as labour: for it is sometimes needful to re-
tire, in order to see and understand what is proper
and right for us to do. It has become customary
with some Friends who travel in Truth's service,
to push on as fast as they well can, in order to get
through an extensive visit in a short time. But for
some years past, I have not been able to see that such
running visits will answer for me. It was the track
I first set out upon; but I found there was need to
watch against self in all its shapes, and to be careful
that nothing actuates us like glorying that we have
performed a long journey in a short time. I there-
fore leave it as a caution, that nothing like haste to
get through in a short time should have place in our
religious engagements. It is not enough anly to
feel a draught (o a place, but when there (especially
when remote from home) it is needful to feel after
the mind of Truth, that we may know what there is
for us to do. Even to this day, whenever 1 look
back over my visit to the southern states, it affords
me but little satisfaction, because I went through in
more haste than I think was best. But in my visit
to the custern states, it was quite difl'erent. I took
time, moved slowly, and felt my way from place to
place; and some of the ground I went over several
times, the last visits being generally the most favour-
ed. So that I have this counsel to those who travel
in the service of the gospel, that when we are clear-
ly convinced and give up to the call to go forth, let
us endeavour strictly to attend to the directions of
the great Law-giver and Shepherd, who puts forth
his own and goeth before them.
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The 1st of the 1st mo. ISOO, we attended their
fourth-day meeting at Adolphus-town, chiefly in si-
lence. Being about to leave these parts, on a review
of my public labours among the people, I have often
been led to enlarge on the doctrine of baptism, and
to show the wide difference between that of John
which was outward and elementary, and that of Christ
which is spiritual and saving; — that John's ministry,
as he was the forerunner of Christ, was only prepa-
ratory, and that he stood as with the forefinger point-
ing to Christ, and directing those whom he baptized
to the Lord Jesus to be baptized of him, as the great
fulfiller of the law and the prophets, the antitype, in
whom all the shadows and figures do end; — and that
now, under this glorious gospel dispensation and son-
ship, there was no more need of the outward form
and outward water. For Paul justly observed, that
the kingdom of heaven stands not in meats and
drinks, and divers washings and carnal ordinances;
but in righteousness and peace and joy in the holy
Spirit. I have also often been largely opened to set
forth the gospel state, which is a pure state, inward-
ly felt and experienced, as true obedience is yielded
to the gift of Divine grace manifested in man, which
puts an end to sin, and brings in everlasting righte-
ousness. Many times, in treating upon these things,
my mind has likewise been livingly opened to set
forth the true spiritual worship, which stands in the
true and perfect obedience; keeping to an inward
watchfulness and exercise in the pure measure re-
ceived of God, and out of all and every thing that is
of self and self-workings. Here, many times, the
true church and true worship were exalted over and
above the false church and false worship; and the
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testimony of Truth was held up to the people against
priestcraft, hireling ministry, wars and fightings, and
oaths and swearing. The views of Friends on these
subjects, and their reasons for refusing to join in with
them, were advanced, and the power of Truth often
rose high with clearness and Divine authority. And
although meetings have frequently held from two
and a half to three hours, the people continued in
great stillness and attention. Let all the praise be
given to the Lord Most High, who is forever wor-
thy. Amen.
2d. We set out in order to see Friends at Niagara,
and the first night lodged at a very poor tavern;
Philip Borland, Elihu Hoag and myself being in
company. There was a good many people there who
soon fled as chaff before the wind; and we lay down
on the floor before a great fire in the common room.
After awhile there came another rough company,
intending as we thought to have a high time of low
diversion; but on finding who was there they soon
went off. Next morning early vvc set out, and before
noon reached the head of the bay, or carrying place
between the bay of Canty and lake Ontario. We had
travelled several miles on the ice, but now found it
getting weaker, so that it was unsafe to venture fur-
ther on it; so we again crossed the bay, though not
without danger, and put up at a tavern. On seventh-
day, a motion was made to have a meeting in the
neiglibourhood, and we stayed till next day, that no-
tice might be spread. On first-day, the 5th, a large
collection of raw people got together, and it seemed
in the public service like beating upon rocks; liovv-
ever, we were not dissatisfied that we had a meeting
with them, concluding Truth's testimony did not
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Suflfer thereby. Next day, we went on to David Bar-
ker's, and again attended meeting at Friends' meet-
ing house on fourth-day; it was an open, good time,
to the tendering of many hearts. Thence, accompa-
nied by David Barker and wife, we went to West
Lake and had a large meeting that held upwards of
three hours; it also was a highly favoured season.
We then visited a number of families, several of
them newly convinced persons, who will, if faithful,
come forward in the Truth: after which we returned
to David Barker's. In the retrospect of the week
past, I do not see that I could have spent it more to
my satisfaction. But, my soul, keep upon the
watch; for thou knowest not how soon thou mayst
take the last step in time; and it is an awful consid-
eration to pass from visible to invisible things.
In passing through this country, I have endea-
voured to demean myself amongst the people as be-
comes an ambassador of Christ. I find it needful and
right to put up with such fare as tliey have with
cheerfulness, though it may sometimes be coarse.
We do not go from house to house for the sake of a
living, but for the good of souls, — for the honour of
God and the peace of our own minds: and feeling
the love of Christ in our hearts to draw us among
the poor, why should they be faulted in entertaining
us, when they do the best they can under their pre-
sent circumstances? I am the more particular in leav-
ing these remarks, because much hurt has been done
by a fault-finding disposition in some travellers, even
in Truth's service. In some instances, where the in-
strument has been much favoured in meeting, but
coming to a house where things were not to their lik-
ing, for want of a patient guarded care, there have
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been evidences of a will not sufficiently subdued.
Here barm has been done, and the service of such
very much laid waste. Let us, therefore, who are
concerned to travel on Truth's account, gird up the
loins of our minds, watch and be sober; let us en-
deavour, through meekness, gentleness and long-suf-
fering patience, to exemplify the doctrines of Truth
that we are called to publish, and in all our conduct
to support its precious testimonies in the eyes of the
people.
12th. Again at Friends' meeting house, a large
gathering and highly favoured opportunity, not soon
to be forgotten by some present. It was a parting
season, in which much tenderness appeared, the love
of Christ cementing our spirits in the gospel of peace.
The two following days, we visited some families
and rode to Aaron Brewer's near Kingston. 15th.
Had a meeting at his house, to good satisfaction;
next day, after a baptizing time in the family, we
set out for Elizabeth-town, and had a tedious ride of
upwards of fifty miles, the snow being deep and the
roads not beat, till we reached Mathew Howard's,
where we tarried till the 19th and had a meeting in
the neighljourhood, which was a solid, profitable sea-
son. After dinner, we had an opportunity in Ma-
thew's family, and took leave of each other in near-
ness of afl'cction. The snow was falling and the roads
heavy, but we set out and travelled about fifteen miles
in a sleigh; there being four of us in company, Philip
Borland, Elihu Hoag, Samuel Howe and myself.
2.'Jd. After a tedious, fatiguing journey, the snow
being deep and the road not much broken, we reach-
ed Montreal, and put up at a private house where
they were all French people. They were civil to us;
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but it was an evening in which my mind was cloth-
ed with sorrow, in reflecting upon the great super-
stition that prevails among the people. The old wo-
man of the house wore her crucifix hanging round
her jieck, and the younger branches of the family
were very merry all the evening. If I could have
conversed with them, I should have mentioned some
things for their consideration: but as they could nei-
ther speak English nor understand it, I sat quiet-
ly sorrowing for the evils, blindness and ignorance
that are owing to the abominations of priestcraft.
My soul pities them, and my prayers are that their
eyes may be opened to see, and their hearts to un-
derstand the things that belong to their everlasting
peace.
On second-day morning, the 27th, we left INIont-
real, and crossed the river St. Lawrence on the ice,
it being about five miles wide; thence going by way
of St. Johns, we reached Nicholas Holmes's at Fer-
risburg in Vermont, on the 29th. After calling at
Thomas Robinson's, where I received letters from
home, we went on, and reached Hudson* meeting on
first-day, being the first we had attended since leav-
ing Mathew Howard's, in Canada. On second-day
evening, the 3d of 2d month, we got to Isaac Hal-
lock's, and after the Quarterly meeting at Nine Part-
ners, I came directlv home, where I found my fami-
ly in good health, and glad to see me safely return-
ed. My ride on horseback was somewhat fatiguing,
yet on the whole, I had no cause to complain, for
marvellously kind has the holy Shepherd of Israel
been, in supporting and bearing me up through many
hardships, and permitting me to return to my dear
family and friends in peace; so that I can say, Re-
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turn, my soul, to the place of thy rest; for the
Lord hath dealt bountifully with thee.
In a retrospect of the loving kindness and tender
dealings of my God, I can say he is a good Master,
and rewardeth his servants to the full. The just
throughout all generations past, have had to speak
well of his name, and so will the faithful throughout
all succeeding times. He is God, and changeth not;
his ways are ways of pleasantness and all his paths
are peace; if we, on our part, are but faithful to him,
we shall fuid them to be so. The more attentive we
are to his holy counsel, the greater will be the flow
of sweet peace to our souls. The more we are given
up to follow him in the way that he is graciously
pleased to lead us, the more nearly we become uni-
ted to him who is the living Vine. Here, we know
our abiding to be in him, the way, the truth, and the
life; and here, as obedience keeps pace with know-
ledge, there will be a bringing forth fruits to the glo-
ry of the Father and the comfort of our own souls.
Much has been done for us, and where much has
been forgiven, how ungrateful should we be, if we
did not love much. Oh! that the called of God every
where may become the chosen of iiim, — that they
may grow up in good liking before him, as willows
by the water-courses, and that they may be as the
good ground, bringing forth some thirty, some six-
ty, and some an hundred fold. Then would tlicir
peace flow as a river, and their righteousness as the
waves of the sea; their bread would be sure, and
their waters would not fail.
New York, 3d mo. ISth, ISOO, Oh! the precious-
ness of time! how silently it flies from us! and when
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gone, can never be recalled. Too little do we value
it when present, and too little are we concerned to
improve it when we have it. man, awake! and
look upon thyself but as a transient sojourner here
in this house of wastage. Thy final home is to be in
another region, when dislodged from this shell of
mortality. Then, if the present time has been well
used and rightly improved, thou wilt take thy flight
out of the reach of woe, pain and anxiety, to join the
heavenly host in praising thy God, thy saviour, and
thy king. But how little do the children of men,
multitudes of them at least, think of the great con-
cerns of the coming world! How lavishly do they
sport away their precious time! Job describes their
folly in these words: "They send forth their little
ones like a flock, and their children dance; they take
the timbrel and harp, and they rejoice at the sound of
the organ; they spend their days in mirth, and in a
moment go down to the grave." Is not this too just-
ly applicable to the conduct of very many of the in-
habitants of this city and parts adjacent, who live as
without God in the world? I allude not to the most
abandoned and lowest class of the people; but to the
giddy and gay world who consider themselves as the
polite and refined part of the community. Behold
their amusements, their pomp and their folly; see
their pride, their wantonness and extravagance; par-
ticularly among fashionable females, as if all their
care and concern were for this world only. Alas!
what does Christianity do for them ? and how are
they to be brought down so as to see the value of
time, and rightly to improve it.-* But there are yet a
remnant who are preserved in much simplicity and
meekness, and these are as the salt of the earth, or
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as the ten righteous in the days of Abraham. May
their numbers and their zeal for Truth and righteous-
ness increase.
Having for some time had drawings of love to
make another religious visit to some parts oi New
England and the northern parts of our Yearly Meet-
ing, I laid my concern before Friends and obtained
their concurrence and certificate. With Willet Hicks
for a companion, I left New York in the fore part of
the 6th month, and went by water to Newport on
Rhode Island. Arriving there a few days before the
Yearly Meeting began, we attended some meetings
on Canonicut island and in the Narraganset country,
where we met with Nathan Hunt and his companion,
from Carolina. After one of the meetings on Can-
onicut, there were two sudden deaths of two women
who were apparently well at the meeting; one of
which died the same evening, and the bther the next:
which brought fresh to my remembrance the service
of the day, in whicli Nathan Hunt was very particu-
lar on the subject of making ready for the awful
change that awaits us all. Indeed, ihe great business
of life is to prepare for death; and how great is the
necessity for us to watch and be sober! Too few of
us arc sufllciently engaged to live in such a manner
from day to day, that death shall be no terror to us.
We attended the Yearly Meeting at Newport,
which closed on fourth-day evening, the 18th. Next
day was their week-day meeting, which was a fa-
voured season: we have also had many precious op-
portunities in families, some of them not soon to be
forgotten. On sixth-da}'^, we had a meeting at Comp-
ton, which was large, and the power of Trutla was felt
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to be over all. Next day, at Accoakset, there were
supposed to be near two thousand people, and good
authority was given to labour among them on Truth's
account. On first-day, the 22d, we were at Centre
in the morning, and at Newtown in the afternoon.
In the first, Willet appeared very acceptably. On
second-day, we were at Aponcganset monthly meet-
ing, and next day, at Long Plain and Accushnet;
then returned to William Rotch's at New Bedford,
from whence we sailed for Nantucket.
7th month 1st. Attended the Quarterly meeting
held there, and next day the public meeting, at which
many who were not members were present, and it
was a good time. 3d. We had three meetings; one
at nine o'clock, the next for heads of families, at
eleven; and one at five for the children and youth.
It is a great thing to keep in our proper places, and
speak only as the Spirit giTelh utterance; for words,
without the sealing evidence of Trutli, are poor. I
see more and more clearly the necessity for those
who go forth in the awful service of the gospel, to
keep near to the heavenly Instructor, the pure open-
ings of the living Spring, from whence right ability
is derived to labour successfully in the church of
Christ. After two otlier public meetings, one of
which was for other societies, we left Nantucket on
the 5th and landed at New Bedford in the evenino-.
Next day attended meeting there; and on the 7th
Willet Hicks went on for Boston, and thence to re-
turn home. It has been a time of improvement to
him; he has a precious gift, and his appearances have
been to good satisfaction. We parted in near fellow-
ship; and, with Thomas Rotch for a companion, I
set out for Lynn and Salem early the next morning.
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Thence taking meetings in the way, we reached Fal-
mouth monthly meeting on the 23d, at the close of
which, I had an opportunity with the select mem-
bers. Next day had a meeting at Portland in Maine,
and parted with Thomas Rotch who was returning
homeward.
25th. John Tabor went with me to Durham month-
ly meeting, and so on to the meetings eastward, till
we came to Vassalborough, where we had a meeting;
and thence by way of Bristol to Camden, on the 7th
of the 8th month, where, in the afternoon we had a
meeting beginning at four o'clock that held till after
seven. Then,~having two or three others round the
neighbourhood, on first-day we had two meetings at
Camden, in which Truth's testimony rose high, and
great brokcnness appeared. Friends and others took
their leave of us with much affection and tenderness,
and we went on about ten miles; lodged at a public
house; and on second-day morning, set out for one of
the back towns where none of our members live. —
Here, we appointed a meeting at four in the after-
noon, to which there came a considerable number of
people. It was attended with hard labour for some
time, but Truth came over all, and it ended to satis-
faction. The people seemed very unwilling to let
us go, but we left the place and rode some miles to a
tavern, where we lodged. To go into a place and
have but one meeting, seems like giving a very hun-
gry person a small piece of bread, which only in-
creases his hunger. When I have had one meeting
in such places, it seems to make way for more. —
Here, we found a luiniber of tender people, several
of them considerably convinced of Friends' princi-
ples, and it appeared to me that if some one suitably
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qualified was to spend some time round al)out in
these parts and have meetings, a number of them
would come forward in the way of Truth.
12th. We have had two meetings to-day; and it
is admirable how strength is given to go through the
service, which is sometimes very laborious. Meet-
ings sometimes hold three hours or more, and the
sweat rolls from me till my shirt might be wrung.
Next morning, we set out for Pownalborough, and
after having several meetings, we attended the select
meeting at Vassalborough on the 19th, and next day
the monthly meeting. After that we were industri-
ously engaged in holding meetings, some of which
held near four hours, and yet the people behaved
well, and were quiet to my admiration, especially
considering the very warm weather and the crowd-
ed houses. On first-day, the 24th, we had two meet-
ings, between which I received a letter from my
wife, giving account of the decease of our dear babe,
about six montlis old. Although she is gone from a
world of troubles to a state of everlasting rest and
peace, yet nature has its ties, and no doubt it should
be so, when kept within proper bounds: but it is a
brave thing to say on such occasions, Thy will be
done.
28th. We have had meetings steadily, every day.
Many are convinced of the Truth; whether they
will come forward to the acknowledgment thereof,
we must leave: we know the increase is of God. Oh!
how unwilling many are to take up the cross, — to
take the cup of suffering and to be baptized with the
holy Spirit. Nature shrinks; it draws back: altho'
we know there is no other way to reign with Christ,
but 80 far as we die to sin, are buried with him by
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baptism into death, our wills nailed to the cross, and
by the circumcising power of Truth, every desire
that is out of, or contrary to, the will of God, cut off:
for surely the highest anthem we can sing is, Thy
will, Father, be done. Sometimes, when the tran-
scendent excellency of a will-less state appears. Oh!
how strong are my desires to attain thereunto, —
to have no will distinct from or out of the will of
God, — to feel no power to think, speak, or act, but
what comes from him, that he in all things may be
glorified. And he is not, neither can he be glorified
by us, any further than he rules and acts in us. If
the Lord .Tesus could do nothing of himself as a man,
how much less can we wlio have fallen so far short
of the glory of God !
By way of Portland, I went to the Quarterly meet-
ing held at Berwick; thence to Lynn and Salem, and
so to the monthly meeting held at Almsbury, having
Micajah Collins with me as a companion. At Salem
I also visited a number of families, making my home
at my kind friend Mathew Purinton's. After being
industriously engaged in attending meetings and in
family visits, I came to Henniker and Weare in the
latter end of the 9th month. In those places amd in
neighbourhoods around them, I had ten meetings;
three of which were quite out from among Friends.
They were precious seasons; thcLord's living power
and presence were felt, and the testimony of Truth
was exalted over and above all types, shadows, and
lifeless forms and ceremonies. The people were
mostly entire strangers to Friends; and notwith-
standing the meetings held near four hours each,
and a consideral)le number of small children were
there, yet they were remarkably quiet opportuni-
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ties. Several of the principal men of the town at-
tended, and one who was a justice of the peace was
much tendered. There appeared to be an open door
in tliese parts for hearing gospel Truths, as much so
as I have lately known, without interruption of any
kind. Although I have had seasons of deep poverty
in this land, yet I have also known as glorious riches
as I ever experienced. But I have learned that it
is best, in times of mourning and want, to keep the
sackcloth underneath, and at other times of abound-
ing, to wear my best garments frugally. By a me-
dium of this kind, we are kept from undue depres-
sion of spirits, on the one hand, and from raptures
or transports on the other. For so sure as any are
arrayed with the King's robe, and put on the King's
horse, they must alight, stand on the ground again,
and have the robe taken ofi': all this is in wisdom. I
have sometimes thought, that some have made their
way through life more gloomy than it would have
been, by suliering their minds, in seasons of favour,
to be too much elated. Through adorable goodness,
mercy and love, I have known a willingness wrought
in me to return to the King's gate, as a place of safe-
ty, where we are less likely to forget ourselves than
in times of sumptuous fare.
10th mo. 7th. I left Weare in New Hampshire,
and in two days reached Sharon in Vermont, where I
had two meetings among the few Friends and others
there: thence, having two meetings on the way, we
went to Grand Isle in lake Champlain, attended their
week-day meeting, and so on to Peru, where we had
two meetings and visited a number of families. Then,
crossing the lake again, we arrived at Ferrisburg on
the :?Oth, and after taking meetings in those parts of
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Vermont, came to the Quarterly meeting at Easton
in the 11th month. Thence to Greenfield, a newly
settled place about thh'ty miles westward, where I
was at two meetings; and, having another meeting at
East Greenfield on the way, I returned to Saratoga
monthly meeting.
11th mo. 20th. Attended Easton monthly meet-
ing, and next day that at Qaeensbur}^; thence to a
little meeting about fifteen miles further north, near
lake George. From this place I bent my way home-
ward, where I arrived about the 1st of 12th month,
ISOO, to the mutual joy of myself, my family and
friends.
Of the two following years of Hugh Judge's life,
there does not appear to have been any account kept
by way of a journal. From a few letters written
by him during this period, we learn that he passed
through some very close trials in relation to his tem-
poral affairs, and the support of his large family. In
the Gth mo, ISOl, he addressed a letter to his friends
John Kendall and wife, of Mill Creek, Lancaster
county, Pennsylvania; in which he says, " I often
feel )'ou near, in that which knoweth no change.
Although we have not the opportunity of personal
converse, yet as we are endeavouring to follow our
holy Leader, I trust we shall not forget each other,
though far separated in body, but something will be
known of what the apostle says of being present in
the spirit, serving the Lord; and in serving him
there is great delight. Let us then endeavour to live
near him in spirit; for he remains to be the Rock
and stay of all who trust in him; and he has never
failed any of these, nor never will. He is indeed the
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mighty helper of his people; and although trials at-
tend us in this probationary state, even some of a
very close nature, yet as we endeavour to keep the
faith and to aljide in the patience, all these sorrows
and troubles will flee away, as the chaff before the
wind. JNIay nothing ever be able to separate us from
the love of God: and let us bear in remembrance,
that the crown is at the end of the race"
In the autumn of this year. New York was again
visited with sickness which was very mortal: Hugh
Judge's health also became impaired; and this, with
some other concerns both of a civil and religious na-
ture, induced him to take a journey during the 9th
and 10th months as far as Baltimore; his daughter
Susanna accompanying him. In this tour he attend-
ed a number of meetings, some of which were ap-
pointed by his friend Richard Mott, who was out
on a religious visit southward. He also visited his
friends about Brandywine and Wilmington, and at-
tended the Yearly jNIeeting held in Baltimore; soon
after which, he returned to his family in New York.
About this time his son Thomas removed to Bal-
timore, in order to get into business in that mercan-
tile city. In a letter from his deeply exercised fa-
ther, dated in the 12th month, ISOl, arc these em-
phatic expressions: " My dear child, my prayers are
day and night for thee. Keep steady and sober in
every part of thy conduct, as this is the only thing
thou hast now to recommend thee." A few days af-
ter he wrote thus: " We have just received accounts
from Ireland, giving information that our worthy
friend Gervas Johnson is removed from works to
rewards. A happy and blessed change to him, no
doubt; for he served God in his generation, and has
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fallen asleep in the arms of everlasting mercy and
love. Blessed is that servant who, when his Lord
Cometh, shall be found watching."
In his letters to his son, dated in the 3rd month,
1802, after repeatedly cautioning him to have as lit-
tle to do with the banks as possible, he says, " I am
very sensible, my son, that thy anxiety will be great,
yet I don't want thee to let that anxiety over-rule
judgment, prudence and caution. Suffer not thy mind
to run out too much; but move along quietly. It will
be the joy of my heart to see thee doing well; and
the way for it is to cleave to thy Maker with all thy
heart, and crave his blessing. I was lately informed
that J. B. has failed a second time. He was doing
well and in very good credit, — had got through all
his difficulties and was likely to make a very hand-
some estate; but he run out into speculation, and has
now lost all. Such is the folly of man, — who is not
content when doing well. I hope, my dear son, thou
wilt let all thy movements be marked with prudent
circumspection. Run no risks at all, but move on
slow and sure. Eye the heavenly Director within
thee, in all thy temporal concerns, and do nothing
contrary to the sense of Truth: then thou wilt do
well, and the Lord will bless thee, and prosper the
work of thy hands."
At the Yearly Meeting held in New York in the
latter end of the 5th month, 1803, considerable ex-
ercise was felt and expressed on account of the state
of our religious society within its limits. Under a
precious fueling of that love which unites the fami-
ly together in the bonds of christian fellowship, the
absent members were tenderly felt for, and a ferven-
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cy of desire experienced for the welfare of the flock
and family at large. A statement of deficiencies ex-
isting in the society, and a minute of advices was
drawn up by the clerk on behalf of the meeting. To
accompany this with the extracts sent down to the
Quarterly and monthly meetings, as way might open
to visit them, the following named Friends were ap-
pointed as a committee, viz. Gideon Seaman, Hugh
Judge, Enoch Borland, Thos. Titus, Thos. Rotch,
William Mitchell, Joseph Wilber, Joseph Byrd,
William Valentine, Isaac Leggctt, Stephen Rogers,
William Odell, Isaiah Quinby, and Willet Hicks.
Of this visit Hugh Judge says,
On the 25th of the 7th month, I left home in or-
der to attend our Quarterly meeting held at West-
bury on Long Island. It was a favoured season
throughout: when the Extracts were read, and the
statement of society as therein represented spread
before the meeting, a remarkably solid feeling was
produced. Those of the Yearly Meeting's commit-
tee who attended had good service, and Truth rose
into considerable dominion over all of an opposite
nature. After the youth's meeting on sixth-day, I re-
turned home, and made preparation for leaving my
family, to join the committee on a visit to the upper
Quarters. On third-day, the 2d of the Sth month, we
attended the select meeting at Purchase, and next
day the Quarterly meeting for discipline; five of the
Yearly Meeting's committee were there, and it was
also a favoured time. Thence, I went on for Nine
Partners, and was at Oswego meeting on first-day, in
which I was silent. Next day the Quarterly select
meeting began, and that for business the day follow-
ing. Six of the committee were present, but it was
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rather a laborious time; the meeting being hurt by
a long communication before men and women part-
ed. The Quarterly meeting at Stanford began on
fifth-day, the 11th, and was a solid, lively season
throughout; Friends were comforted together, the
testimony of Truth was exalted, and the holy name
was magnified. It is a good thing for Friends to
keep solid and weighty in their meetings for church
government, and to speak only as the spirit of Truth
gives utterance.
After this meeting the joint committee of men and
women Friends conferred together and concluded to
attend Oblong monthly meeting, to be held on the
15th. Having my daughter Susanna with me, on
her way to Daniel S. Dean's boarding school, I went
on to Mark Collin's, where 1 parted witli her; and
next day, reached Enoch Dorland's at BccUman-
town. On first-day, I was at Apoquague meeting,
silent; — and next day, attended Oblong monthly
meeting with the committee. Tiiro' adorable con-
descending goodness, we had a precious season, the
most so of any I remember to have known in that
place. After meeting, several of the committee con-
cluding to return honie, and as others had gone on to
Easton Quarter, there did not appear to be a clearness
to move forward at this time to the other monthly
meetings. As the alarm of the yellow fever had
spread in the city, I felt my mind drawn to be with
my family, so I set out homewards on third-day, and
as I was riding alone, my mind was preserved in
much quietness, sweetly enjoying the enriching pre-
sence of the Lorii, my gracious preserver.
On fourth-day evening, the 17th, I reached home,
found my dear wife and family well, and in a com-
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fortablc degree of quiet composure; tho' very much
stripped of their neighbours and friends, who were
very generally gone out of town. On my way home,
some Friends rather wondered at me, as I was out,
to venture into the city at such a time; but what
they said against my going in had no solid weight
with me. I endeavoured to keep my mind calm and
quiet, and therein found safety, and was best able to
judge what appeared right for me to do. As to slavish
fear, I was preserved from it entirely: what a mercy!
I remembered the case of the three children in the
furnace, and that of Daniel in the lion's den, and that
their trust being in God, he preserved them: and
my mind was renewedly confirmed in the belief that
his power was the same now, without any diminu-
tion. Oh! it is a good thing to go up to Bethel, and
there renew covenant with him. What matter where,
or when we close our days, if we are but ready!
This is the one thing needful. I was fully persuaded
that my God whom I endeavoured to serve, could
preserve my life, if it was his will, here in town as
in any other place, and my soul enjoyed his presence
from day to day. Glory be to his excellent name
forevermore. Amen.
I may here make some general observations that
occurred in passing through those four Quarterly
meetings. It was evident that the concern of our
late Yearly Meeting for the good of its members,
was owned by the holy Head of the church; and
good authority was given to labour in the exercise
and concern, as it was felt in the Yearly Meeting
when the state of society was before it. As the sub-
jects of this concern were opened and spread in the
Quarters under a degree of the same precious feeling
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and covering, and Friends united therein, the hearts
of many became deeply sensible that Israel had re-
volted, and gone after other lovers, — that they had
delighted themselves in the children of strangers, —
and that strangers had devoured their strength, and
we knew it, though they might not have been sen-
sible of it. In the Quarterly meetings of Westbury,
Purchase, and Stanford, the testimony of Truth rose
triumphantly over all; they were good seasons, let
the event prove as it may. In those meetings, many
of the members joining in the living travail, and
some of them manifesting the same by throwing in
their mites into the public treasury, we became one
another's helpers in the Lord. But at the other
Quarter, their own members did not seem to take
hold of the concern so as to help on the work: busi-
ness dragged on, and it was a dull time, the clerk
not appearing to be suitably harnessed for the busi-
ness of the day. It is of great advantage to meetings
to have lively-spirited clerks. When the mind of the
clerk is impressed in a lively manner with the sub-
ject before the meeting, and he reads or moves in its.
service, a degree of the same animating life is dif-
fused through or over the meeting. But when his
mind is barren, or unimpressed with a sense of the
importance of the concern, the very sound of his
voice seems to spread death or dullness.
Another remark seems right for me to make in
relation to the meetings for worship, or, as sometimes
called, youth's meetings, on the day following the
meetings for business. They appeared to me to be
more than enough, and tiiat the time will come when
it will be right lo discontinue them. In regard to the
meetings for business, it is in my apprehension very
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improper for meetings for discipline to lean to tiiis,
that, or the other Friend. It is equally dangerous for
individuals to be leaning or depending on the senti-
ments of one another; and where it is given way to,
it brings weakness and a cloud over the meeting.
There can be no man set up for head, or president,
in the church of Christ. " One is your Master, even
Christ, and all ye are brethren." Some Friends
have a singular faculty of concealing their senti-
ments (if they have any) till they hear the opinions
of others; and they will very rarely offer their views
till they find (as they think) the current, and then
go with it. This class is not of much, if any real use
in matters of discipline, especially in cases that are
of weight and importance. If we have no other or
better judgment than that which we form by pick-
ing a little here and there of other people's, it is but
little worth. A feeling mind, under religious exer-
cise and concern, expressing itself in broken accents,
as Truth influences, carries evidence of more weight
in a meeting, than all the flowery orations or fine
speeches of tliose who have words at command. —
'' My Father workcth hitherto," said the holy Jesus,
" and I work." And again he declared, " I can do
nothing of myself." Oh! the depth of the doctrine!
What a solemn caution to his followers, not to at-
tempt to do any thing in his church without him.
If I have a sentiment given me, when matters of
weight are before us, shall I conclude, because that
sentiment (if offered) may cross the opinions of
others, that it will not be received, but be rejected, and
I appear foolish? Or, will it not be safest and right,
if I have received a sentiment in the pure openings
of Truth, although it may not accord with the views
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of others, to offer it in the simplicity? For what can
be a clearer demonstration that our wills are not suf-
ficiently subjected, if we feel hurt when our pi-os-
pects are put by? Is it not an evidence that some
pride remains about us? When I offer my sentiment,
and it accords with the current of the meeting, and I
feel any thing like being lifted up, or discover some-
thing in myself like feeding thereon, or being pleas-
ed, — this is of the creature; and here self is alive j
mortification then is needful. Now, while the seeds
of pride remain, there is work for self-denial.
It is the state of a christian to hold self in no re-
putation, and to have no will out of the will of God.
The blessed Jesus declared he came not to do his
own will, but the will of him that sent him. I have
often thought, and renewedly so of latter time, that
too little of a will-lcss state is known and manifested
in our meetings for discipline. Too man}^, by and
through the will of man, are brought into activity in
church affairs; even such as have known but little of
the baptism of the holy Spirit and of fire. These can
and do speak and act much in the same spirit and
disposition of mind that they manage their ordinary
temporal affairs. I believe through this door much
weakness hath entered into our society, and contin-
ues among us. Paul said, " the natural man perceiv-
eth not the things of the spirit of God, neither can
he know them, because they are spiritually discern-
ed;" and it is equally true that the church of Christ
never has been, and never can be built with human
materials.
Put thy mouth in the dust, man, and keep si-
lence before the Lord; look on that of which thou
wast made, and be humbled. The spirit of God ruling
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and acting in thee, is thy only life, the life of thy
immortal soul; and this thou receivest not from thy
progenitors, as any inheritance of theirs to transfer
through the medium of generation: but it is the
breath of the Almighty, the eternal wisdom of God,
who, after he had created man and woman, breathed
into them the breath of his own life, and they became
living souls. Why should man who is beholden to
another, be proud of that which he receives, when it
is in the power and at the will of the proprietor to
take it again at his pleasure? There is not a greater
vanity among rational beings, let it appear in what
shape it may, than pride; and in professedly religi-
ous characters it is a monster of great deformity: but
humility raises the dignity of human nature, and is
beautiful in all its appearances.
8th mo. 21st, being first-day, our meeting was very
small. In the morning sitting, this language was re-
vived among us, " It is better to trust in the Lord,
than to put confidence in man; yea, it is better to
trust in the Lord, than to put confidence in princes."
In the afternoon, none of our men elders attended.
22nd. The alarm of the yellow fever took place
in the 7th month, while I was from home. It began
at and about Coffee-house Slip; and the people from
the eastern parts of the city thronged to the north
side for refuge, but the alarm soon spread and drove
them from thence. A great part of the city is now
in a manner deserted. The fever continues to pre-
vail, and it is a solemn, serious time. People are yet
daily moving out, and great is the consternation that
abounds. Our neighbours in Pearl street have nearly
all left town, so that it seems very desolate and lone-
ly, and we may truly say, " How doth the city sit
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solitary that was full of people!" Oh! that the in-
habitants did but fear the rod and him that hath ap-
pointed it! Oh! that they were rightly engaged to
sanctify a fast, to bow before tiie Lord God of hosts,
and to let him be their fear and their dread.
So lately as the 4th of the 7th month, the people
were parading through the streets of the city with
great pomp and splendour, as though they neither
feared God, nor regarded man: and now, behold, at
the lifting up of the rod of the Almighty, they have
fled as chaff before the wind, and as driven stubble
before the whirlwind. The people have more gene-
ral!)' left the city now than they did in 1798; altho'
it was then much more mortal than it has yet been
this season.
31st, was our preparative meeting, — a very small
number attended, but we went through the business
by a little after one o'clock. It is good to have our
trust and confidence in eternal help. Next day, was
our monthly meeting, held in course at Flushing on
Long Island, — a solid, good meeting, tho' a searching
one. My wife and myself attended, as did nearly all
the Friends who stay in town. In the evening, we
returned to the children, and I felt comforted.
9th month Ith. Our first-day morning meeting
was larger than usual, principally made up of young
people, a number of whom were not members of our
society: it was a solid, comfortable time. Afternoon
meeting, small. In the evening, I attended a meeting
at Brooklyn, appointed by Stephen Grellette. The
nunilier of tleaths reported daily, is al)0ut eight to
twelve, and new cases, between twenty and thirty.
These awful visitations are not for nothing. The
universal Parent of mankind afllicteth not willingly.
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nor grieveth the children of men. There is a cause;
and until the cause shall be removed, we may ex-
pect the chastising rod of the Almighty. Our coun-
try has grown very populous; riches from all quar-
ters have been flowing in, and earnestly grasped after
by many among us. The natural consequence is
high living, grandeur, pomp and show, great houses,
rich furniture and costly attire. The fashions and
customs of foreign nations have been introduced, and
have found an easy entrance among the inhabitants.
But lately, when this city was in health, scarcely a
day passed but there were notifications, inviting the
people's attention to the theatre. These places are
frequented, not so much by the lower classes, as by
those esteemed of the highest rank, — people of dis-
tinction, education, and what are called refined man-
ners. In these sinks of corruption, they spend night
after night, unto the last night in the week; and then,
what state must their minds be in to present them-
selves at their places of worship on first-day! While
these practices continue and are thus upheld, together
with balls, dancing and gambling roomg, pleasure
gardens, and many other evils, what calamities and
scourges may we not look for? Surely, unless the
people turn at his reproof, our country is fast ripen-
ing for heavier judgments than it has yet felt. For
God will bring every work of darkness and wicked-
ness to judgment, with every secret thing. How
greatly indeed have all ranks fallen short of the pu-
rity of life and conversation, becoming christians! —
The sober and reflecting heathens (as they are called)
would shudder at many things that are practised by
professing christians. Surely, there is cause for great
mourning and lamentation, by all serious people
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throughout the land, in a view of the backslidden
state of professed Christendom.
8th. This afternoon I attended a meeting appoint-
ed by Stephen Grellette; it was held in a new build-
ing in George's street, in a neighbourhood where are
a number of sailors' boarding-houses, and where the
people do sin with a high hand. Granting licenses
to unprincipled men, and suffering so many taverns
to be kept, has become a great evil. Oh! what places
of corruption to the poor youth who are put to a sea-
faring life! Surely, the mayor, justices and influen-
tial men ought not to suffer such things, but consider
themselves so much interested in the welfare of the
people as to have better order. They should act
under God, as his ministers, so as to be a terror to
evil-doers and a praise to them that do well.
10th. The fever continues to carry off from eight
to ten in a day; and though its progress is slow, yet
if it should go on till cold weather, a large number
of peoj)le will be removed to the silent grave. Yes-
terday morning we were alarmed with a ciy of fire,
which had got to a great head before the people col-
lected. It broke out in a hake-house from the oven,
and ten houses were burnt down before it could be
stopped. This morning an attempt was made to set
fire to a house in Fair street: fire was put to a straw
bed, but was discovered before it broke out in a blaze.
It was thought there were some bad designing per-
sons in that neighbourhood. Our situation is indeed
a serious one; for the people are so gone from that
part of tl)e town that a fire might get to a great head
before much help could be obtained. The wicked-
ness of man is great, and those who wish to have op-
portunity of plundering, arc most to be dreaded.
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lull. This morning we had a second meeting in
George's street. A large collection of people attend-
ed, more than the house could hold: and though it
is considered one of the worst neighbourhoods in the
town, the Lord was graciously pleased to give ability
to labour among them, and to sound an alarm and
solemn warning to the rebellious. Truth's testimony
was above all their wicked spirits and chained them
down; many minds were affected, and, considering
the rawness and ignorance of the people, they con-
ducted far better than I had expected, — and many
of them took leave of us in a friendly, manner.
This morning, my ostler, a coloured man, was ta-
ken down with the prevailing fever. As he had not
lodged in our house, we provided a place for him
where good care was taken of him.
13th. The fever appears to be increasing; thirteen
deaths in the last twenty-four hours. For some time
past, the bells for what is called pul)lic worship, have
not been rung in this city. The appearance of reli-
gion seems almost to fall at such times. Surely, the
religion inculcated by Jesus Christ and his apostles
is too little practically known in its holy reality at
the present day; while yet there is much that may
be called fashionable and speculative religion prevail-
ing. But the people generally are not disposed to
bring their conduct to the standard of Truth, and so
attempt to lower the standard to suit their manner
of life. It is greatly to be feared that multitudes of
professing christians will be found no more favour-
ably circumstanced, than those formerly who drew
nigh with their mouths and honored God with their
lips, but tljeir hearts were far from him. "My sheep,"
says Christ, " hear my voice, and they follow me."
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But where did he ever lead his flock, or any of them,
into throngs of hasiness, commerce and extensive
trade? Where have we an instance of his indulging
them in excess of any kind, in eating, drinking, or
putting on of apparel? Oh! the preciousness of the
redemption held out to view by the gospel, through
the narrow way of self-denial; too few of the chil-
dren of men appear to go deep enough to understand
it. How absurd for men, professing Jesus to be their
example, their Lord, their intercessor and advocate
with the Father, to be always drudging along as if
bound with heavy chains in extensive trade and com-
merce! What more flagrant contradiction to the
doctrine of self-denial, of humility, and of being con-
tent with a plain way of living under the daily cross!
14th, Our meeting small: yet people of religious
thought fulness, at such awful seasons, are brought
nearer to one another in sympathetic feeling, than
when things are passing in their usual course. What-
ever tends to humble the pride of man, may be reck-
oned a favour. In proportion as his greatness is laid
low, his high opinion of himself and of what he pos-
sesses, is reduced, — he is drawn nearer to his JMaker
in the likeness of the image in which man was first
created; and the nearer man is brought to the First
Great Cause, the more his heart is expanded towards
the whole creation of God, and greatly so towards
liis fellow-j)iIgrims on earth.
On the IGth, arrived from Liverpool, our friend
and sister in the Truth, Ann Alexander, on a reli-
gious embassy to this land. As it was not lliuught
prudent to come into town, she landed near the Hook,
and went to John Murray's, who had taken a house
about five miles from the city. In the afternoon,
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Stephen Grellette and I went out to see her, and I
thought the true greeting was known, in which our
spirits saluted each other in the love of the gospel.
On first-day, the 18th, my hired man died with
the prevailing fever. He was a faithful coloured man,
and we did what we coiild for him. Thus, we see
how man is cut down, so that in truth it may be said,
"Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, neither
let the mighty man glory in his strength, nor the
rich man in his fiches; but let him that glorieth,
glory in this, that he understandeth and knoweth
me, that I am the Lord which exercise loving-kind-
ness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth: for
in these things I delight, saith the Lord." What a
lesson is here set before thee, man, incorporating
every needful caution, not to suffer thy mind to go
out improperly after the things that will perish with
the using!
Early in the 10th month, we met with a very close
trial in the removal of our dear daughter, Esther, who
died with the prevailing fever. Although I was as
fully satisfied as I could wish to be, of her soul's en-
tering into its glorious rest, yet I very sensibly felt
the awful stroke that removed her from our sight. —
]\Iy own health had for some days been such, though
not with the fever, that I could not be witli her, du-
ring her illness, so much as I could have wished. —
Ah! we have many trials, but they will all be over
in a while! In the decease of dear Esther, I believe
a lasting blessing has been derived to some parts of
the family. I wish the impressions made, may re-
main through time, never to be eradicated.
In the latter end of the 10th month, the yellow
fever subsided so that the people who had moved
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out of town generally returned to their homes. About
the 1st of the 11 th month, I left New York, and went
by Way of Rahway and Bristol to Philadelphia; and
thence to Radnor, and was at the select meeting at
Uwchlan, also their first-day meeting. From Isaac
Jacobs' at Uwchlan, I went by way of York-town,
where I met my son Thomas, and proceeded to Lit-
tle Falls in Maryland; and after making some ar-
rangements there, returned home.
On the 21st of the 3d month, 1804, I entered on
the farm I had purchased at Little Falls, and went to
work at gardening and farming. INIy family came
on from New York in the 4th month, and we once
more became settled in a retired, country life. Little
Falls meeting was then a branch of Gunpowder
monthly meeting, to which our certificate was di-
rected.
At our Yearly Meeting in Baltimore held in the
10th month, we had the company of John Simpson
and Isaac Bonsall, from Pennsylvania; Ann Alexan-
der from England, and Joseph Cloud of Carolina, on
his return from Europe, homeward. There were
also two women Friends from New York. They all
laboured in the great cause of Truth, and we had a
comfortable season. When the state of society was
before the meeting, it was a solid time, in which
counsel fiowcd freely. But alas! it seems too soon
forgotten. What other people are favoured of the
Lord as Friends are? We not only share with others
in the common blessings liberally handed forth by
the bountiful Dispenser of all good, but we are par-
takers of spiritual blessings to which they are stran-
gers. Our society-privileges are great, and they are
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many. I sometimes awfully remember what the
great Master declared, that where much is given,
much will be required. We have been dug about
and watered abundantly; and if, after all, the crop
brought forth should be unsavoury, what will our
portion be? Oh! that the salvation of the Lord
would come out of Sion, to turn the captivity of the
people as the streams of the south; then would Jacob
rejoice and Israel be glad.
In some parts of Warrington and Fairfax Quarter,
it has been very sickly, and many have been removed
from works to rewards. The church in some places,
has lately been stripped of some of its valuable pil-
lars; may those who survive be deeply sensible of
the need there is to yield unreserved obedience to
the baptizing power of the Holy Spirit, which alone
can prepare others to fill the vacant places of those
who are now no longer amongst us.
1st mo. 13th, 1S07. I have often thought of late,
that if I were safe out of sight, never more to be seen
of mortal men, what a release it would be from the
load of cares and anxieties that crushes me down,
both night and day; insomuch that my life seems al-
most a burden to me: but I keep my bemoanings
chiefly to myself. My health also is affected, and I
have uneasy feelings in my breast, with a constant
pain in my left shoulder. But why should I dwell
on these things? Have I not long known that the
animal man is not immortal; but that an immortal
spirit dwells in him? Oh! how my soul at times
longs to be released from this prison, and to be de-
livered from this heavy load, under which I have
long been oppressed. But I know that my own will
ought not to be done. No mortal knows what I suf-
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fer: yet I will strive to be content, even if I have to
struggle and mourn out the remainder of my days.
But my distressed situation does not arise from the
state of my soul; no: God be thanked, 1 have noth-
ing to trouble me nor to fear on that account, further
than every christian ought to fear, watch and pray
continually, having nothing to depend upon hut the
mercy and forgiveness of God.
2d mo. 4th. It is thought by some who are esteem-
ed wise men, that T. Kirk of York-town has found
out longitude, or a way to ascertain it. If that should
be the case, it may open an avenue of wealth to the
family. T. is full of it: I saw him yesterday, and
told him he was too much afloat, — that I should be
glad to see him a little more solid and settled in
mind; and that there was "many a slip between the
cup and the lip," according to the old proverb.
3d mo. 20th. Who is able to endure the crosses
and afflictions, both inward and outward, that befall
those whom God is drawing out of the spirit of this
world, — out of the broad way of destruction, into
the narrow way of eternal rest and peace? Yet the
Lord is able to uphold the soul that feels its weak-
ness, and waits on him for support; and he will do it,
as he is looked to with an eye of humble, patient
dependancc. When we consider that we are no long-
er safe than while we are on the watch, it is enough
to make us tremble and dwell low in deep humility.
When David of old got upon the house-top, his eye
went roving abroad, — he got off his watch, and fell:
but when he lay low, the arrows of the wicked were
not able to hurt him. Oh! what need there is for
us all to dwell in that which keeps us in an inward
sense of the Lord's power, mercy and goodness!—:
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May we ever have in view the example of him who
said, "Be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."
And again, for our encouragement, he said, "Greater
is he that is in you, than he that is in the world."
Seeing then that these things are so, and that the
Divine promises to his wrestling seed are yea and
amen forever, let us endeavour to hold fast the pro-
fession of our faith without wavering, — not letting
go our hold, nor giving hack in times of trial; — but,
warring a good warfare, let us press forward toward
the mark set Ijefore us, always bearing in mind that
the crown is at the end of the race.
It seems sometimes, when looking at the state of
society, as if they were best off who pass through
life most quietly, without being much known: for,
the greater degree of eminence any are raised to, the
more they are known and observed, and the more
they seem to be envied. It is so in church and state.
Envy begets jealousy, and "jealousy is cruel as the
grave." Cain envied Abel, because to him and to his
offering the Lord had respect. Aaron and Miriam
envied Moses: and many other instances may be
seen in the records of the descendants of Abraham,
showing the baneful effects of envy and jealousy.
What discords and distractions have been worked
up in the family of mankind, by these selfish. pas-
sions! Oh! sweet retreat from the world, how de-
sirable! where the mind, regardless of its smiles or
its frowns, may pass through life in quietness and
peace. But all men cannot thus retire and live un-
seen, unknown. There are stations to be filled, and
duties to be performed, which call some into notice,
and to be publicly exposed; yet surely there is a safe
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path for these, as to the peace of their own minds:
surely a state is attainable in which these can pass
through good report without being puffed up there-
by, and evil report without being hurt or cast down
thereby. This marks the christian: and such often
enjoy solitude, with inward quietude and peace,
amidst all their labours and exposures. How sweet-
ly the mind at intervals drops into that precious si-
lence, in which every thought and every anxiety is
brought into subjection to the Divine will, through
the obedience of Christ!
At the latter end of the 3rd month, ISO", Hugh
Judge in writing to a friend, says, " I have parted
with the place; farming is too hard for me; and my
son talks of going to Ohio. We are about to remove
to Baltimore." In prospect of this, he thus writes
concerning his family: 4th month, 2nd. I embrace
the present opportunity to express the fervent and
ardent desire that attends my mind, that our family
may keep as much as may be to themselves. There
is too much of a party spirit in some places; and
this, wherever it gets place in the mind, is very hurt-
ful. May we be wise as serpents, and harmless as
doves, — swift to hear, and slow to speak. May my
dear children meddle as little as possible with other
people's matters, and keep out of the scat of judging.
Let us turn away from all tale-bearers, and tliose who
gpeak evil one of another;, and let us bear in mind
this important precept, "With what measure ye
mete, it shall be measured to you again." There is
enough for us all to do at home, in our own particu-
lars; we need not go roving abroad for business. If
wc think we see a mote in another's eye, let us re-
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member a greater beam may be in our own. Why
need we make ourselves enemies; we shall have
enough of them, let us do as well as we can. The
more quiet and still we keep, being humble and low,
the better it will be for us.
There is a great fuss and to do about these lower
matters, which arc of little consequence when put
in comparison witli the business of becoming pre-
pared for another world; but this is too much ne-
glected. Oh! time, time! the greatest of treasures,
but few seem to consider its worth. How swiftly
and silently it passes from us! What would a dying
sinner give, or rather, what would ho not give, had
he it in his power, even for a month, or a week (not
daring to ask for years) that he might I'epent and re-
trieve the loss and abuse of the time that is forever
gone! Awful thought! Oh! may we endeavour to
improve every day, and every hour, yet allotted us
in this probationary slate.
Lord Almighty, my greatest and only good, —
my cries are unto thee, and to thee I lift up my
voice. Grant, I pray thee, that thy preserving power
may keep me, and enable me to walk before thee in
awful fear and love; that so when the time arrives
that this tabernacle must return to its mother dust,
the soul may ascend and be admitted into thy glori-
ous habitation. God, I have loved thee from my
youth, — I sought thee in my early years; and, thro'
thy unmerited goodness and mercy, thou hast open-
ed to me the way of life, and guided my feet in the
piaths thereof. Glory, honour and praise to thy ado-
rable majesty: my soul, with all its quickened facul-
ties, shall praise thee. Oh! grant holy and living
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Father, that my children may know the God of their
father and mother, and of their grandmother who
walked before thee in fear, to be their God. Oh!
give them hearts to reverence thee, and to obey thee
in all thy requirings; guide them by thy wisdom,
instruct them in thy law; preserve them from the
snares of the fowler, and the deceitful tongues of
men. Oh! bring down every thing in them that is
lofty or lifted up; lay thy hand upon that which is
high, and by the fire of thy eternal Word let it be
consumed; that so, in deep humility, their hearts
may become fit receptacles for thee, the Lord of life
and glory to dwell in, and that they may thus be en-
abled to show forth thy praise.
Baltimore, 7th mo. 2nd, 1807. As I am hard of
hearing, I share but little in common conversation,
unless when I sometimes ask what is passing. Last
evening, I was in company with a number of such
as were esteemed sober people, who were not only
pleasant and cheerful, but quite merry. They told
me the subject of their conversation; but their mer-
riment brought heaviness over my mind, and I soon
withdrew. Reflecting on the circumstance, I thought
with regret, how much precious time is spent, even
in what is estcenicd sober and respectable company,
with mere trilling subjects and insignificant anec-
dotes, even such as are in reality too low and light
for a christian! Are there not many now, like those
in Solomon's days, whose laughter is like the crack-
ling of thorns under a pot ? Did ancient christians,
when met togotlu-r in a social capacity, use so to
spend their lime? I apprehend not. I am far from
wishing to deprive jieople of innocent, social con-
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verse; but that which at every turn produces mirth
and laughter, is unprofitable, and often loathsome to
a serious mind. " Let your conversation," said the
apostle, " be coupled with fear."
To be reserved in the circle of what may be called
pretty good company, may be viewed by some peo-
ple as stiff and unsociable; and, to avoid incurring
this coarse reflection, wc sometimes converse beyond
proper freedom, to the injury of our better feelings;
and, in consequence of this indulgence, we are not
only impoverished, but are condemned in ourselves,
so as to have frequently to come to the " weeping
cross," or to come weeping to the cross. Were we
more attentive to the " watch" over the state of our
own minds, what plunges and baptisms we might
avoid! But for want of humility and watchful cir-
cumspection, so as to know a bridle to the tongue,
we often make our way through life more thorny
than it would otherwise be. After being in compa-
ny wherein cheerful conversation has been indulged
till it introduced levity and mirth, how confused,
ashamed and condemned have I felt on leaving them,
and as wretchedly poor in mind as it seemed possi-
ble to endure J How have 1 then, as it were, hated
myself, and wept bitterly! But as my foolishness
has been brought to judgment, and my soul deeply
humbled under a sense thereof, through adorable
mercy my wounds have been healed.
5th. The apostle exhorts to " pray without ceas-
ing." Prayer is one of the most enriching exercises
to the soul that it can be engaged in. While in a
state of prayer, it is in a strong castle, secure from
the rage and power of its enemies. The Lord is its
strong tower; and Oh! what precious communion
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the soul hath at such seasons with its Beloved! I
felt the spirit of prayer and supplication in the silent
part of the morning meeting to-day, and willingly
hoped we might have a silent meeting throughout.
But while I was indulging the thought, and that it
was nearly time to close, a person who often speaks
arose, and gave us a lifeless communication of some
length; and when he sat down, a second made addi-
tions that were no better. Thus, the solemnity of
the meeting was disturijed. My spirit was clothed
with mourning, and I felt concerned for the great
cause of Truth, and the good of the people. Alas!
for the state of society and of the ministry among us,
while we have so many man-made elders! I have
long thought, that our religious society suffers ex-
ceedingly in this respect. We have a multitude of
elders, and Friends seem to be adding to the num-
ber from all quarters. Some say, if we cannot get
such as arc qualified, we must take such as we have.
But I am of a different mind. We had better be
without any, than to have those who are worse than
none; and such I consider all those who are puffed
up with the office, and full of themselves, but great-
ly wanting in baptism and depth of feeling; for these
judge of the ministry as they judge of a piece of
cloth, a horse, or a cow. The spirit of true discern-
ing and a deep travail of soul, are much wanting
among many elders; and without the spirit of Christ,
there can be no true judging for Christ. It is the
Spirit that searcheth all things. I am fully sensible
that the state of the ministry is in a poor way; much
right help is greatly needed. There arc here and
there some solid, baptized and qualified ciders; and
as these arc faithful to occupy the talents committed
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to them, they may yet be a blessing to the society,
and a help towards preserving a sound and living
ministry.
Since I removed to Baltimore, I have been heard
but a few times in public vocal testimony in our
meetings; and when I have, it has been of a thun-
dering kind, or somewhat like a fire among stubble.
But when I feel clothed upon with that which is not
of man, I fear neither men nor devils.
At the Yearl)^ Meeting held in Baltimore in the
10th mo. on the application of Miami, West Branch
and Centre monthly meetings, in the state of Ohio,
for the privilege of holding a Quarterly meeting,
Hugh Judge and a number of other Friends were
appointed to visit those meetings, and report there-
on, the ensuing year. No account of this journey
appears to have been preserved, except a short letter
to his wife, giving information of his being taken
sick on the road as he was returning home, and
thereby detained for some time.
In the 7th month, 180S, in a short memorandum,
he says, " What a mercy it is to be preserved! The
minds of the people are too much afloat, even Friends;
too many of whom are not the people they ought to
be, — an inward, spiritually-minded people: instead
of which the}'^ are becoming an outward people; and
it is to be feared that many will be found wanting,
when arraigned before the awful bar of judgment
Oh! the want of weight and depth in our religious
assemblies! What irreverence, leaning, restlessness,
drowsiness, and even sleeping, are often manifest! It
is an awful consideration, what will become of the
formal professors and the hypocrites, when the Lord
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arises to shake terribly the earth, and to render to
every man according to his works."
By the following communication, addressed to
Friends, it seems that some difficulty or misunder-
standing had occurred between a friend of whom
Hugh Judge obtained the loan to purchase the farm
at Little Falls, and himself. The matter appears to
have been left to a reference for settlement, and we
should suppose was decided in his favour; yet for
the sake of unity and hannony in society, Hugh
Judge declares his willingness to sacrifice his pecu-
niary and equitable claims. What a noble testimony
to the peaceable spirit of the Lamb!
"Baltimore, 2nd month 22nd, 1809. Feeling my
mind covered with the calming influence and sea-
soning virtue of Truth, I speak unto you, my dear
friends, and say, I have had no uneasy sensations in
the latter movements I have made in the case be-
tween my friend and myself. I consider the claim
1 have made on him to be a just one, and I have not
had the least uneasiness respecting it. It is but a
small part of what I have sunk, in improving the
farm, — going on it, and leaving it as I did, — exclu-
sive of six years hard labour for myself and my son,
(that is, three years each of us.) Ever since I have
been in the society, which is between thirty and
forty years, I have been endeavouring to promote
peace and harmony in the family. This is the first
time 1 have called on Friends to settle any dificrence
between myself and another member. I greatly de-
sire * peace wilh all men, and holiness without which
no man shall see the Lord.' I consider, not only from
my observation, but from the nature of such busi-
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ness, that It has ahvays a tendency, less or more, to
beget parties, and to create dissension; not to gather,
but to divide; — and these controversies relating to
temporal affairs are of the worst kind. To differ
about the drrt which must soon cover us, is it con-
sistent with the nature and language of that spirit
which breathes " glory to God in the higliest; peace
on earth and good will to men?" God forbid that I
should, in the evening as it were of my days, cause
the harmon)'- of the meeting where I belong to be
disturbed. If my coat is taken, let my cloak go also.
If I am smitten on one cheek, let me turn the other
also. The servant of the Lord ought not to strive in
a spirit of contention. I request that the business
may be settled before this day closes. However try-
ing my situation is, I value the church's peace more
than the gold that perishes. If you, my dear friends,
can't settle it, I hope I can. I would rather beg my
bread, than the cause and testimony of Truth (so far
as it is in my power to prevent it) should suffer.
Hugh Judge.
Be it known unto all, that the foregoing has not
been penned from any feeling of uneasiness or con-
demnation, that I have been sensible of; but wholly
and altogether I am willing to make the sacrifice of
the balance in my favour, which is near four hundred
dollars, and which I calmly and seriously believe to
be equitable and just, in order that the breach may
close, and not grow wider. I am fully satisfied with
the steps which have been taken. It has proved to
me one great thing, — that there are men who regard
truth and justice, more than they do the persons of
men. H. J.
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Baltimore, 9th mo. 17th, 1811. For some time
past, my mind has been in a very tender frame, and
frequently overcome with the love of God to my
soul. Great has been the bowedness, inward exercise
and awful feelings that have attended me, with wor-
ship, adoration and praise to the Lord Almighty.
Tears of gladness have flowed from my eyes; while
the language of my heart has been. Oh! Fountain
pure, sweet and clean! a storehouse inexhaustible —
a table spread with the choicest dainties! At some
of these seasons, it has seemed as if the way was
opening for my enlargement, — for my leaving this
place of confinement, in which I have lain as in the
court of the Lord's house, so called among mine
own people. But I have craved that holy help and
patience may be granted me to wait the full time for
my deliverance.
7ih month 27th, 1812. Solomon says, '*' Rebuke
a wise man, and he will love thee. Give instruction
to a wise man, and he will be yet wiser: teach a
just man, and he will increase in learning." I feel
disposed to give the younger branches of society
every proper encouragement; and I take great satis-
faction in seeing them manifest a concern for the
good of the family; yet this don't hinder me from
seeing wherein they may improve, and be improved.
When I observe a friend coming towards another in
the street, and in order to avoid meeting him, cross
the street or turn a corner, something says, all is not
right. Every thing like shyness one of another,
must proceed from something else than pure love:
for no man can be at peace in himself, who carries
a coal of fire in his bosom. The seed of grace and
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that of enmity cannot grow together; they are di-
verse in their natures, operations and influence. Hu-
mility and dilfidence are graceful in all, more espe-
cially in those who are young, when in the presence
of experienced elders, or those advanced in life.
Baltimore,- Slh month 2nd. In morning meeting,
a subject opened in my mind with clearness, from
these words of Christ, '•' I am the way, the truth and
the life: no man cometh to the Father, but by me."
The motion of life seemed to point to stand up and
deliver it; my mind also was in a sweet quiet state,
suitable to enter on such an awful service. But as I
was careful not to be hasty, my prayers were for
preservation; and whilst in this state of breathing
to God for his protecting care and holy help, — a
friend rose and continued to speak for a considerable
time. After which, altho' the subject was still live-
ly before me, yet the sti-ength of the meeting seem-
ed gone, and the minds of the people were unsettled;
go I kept silence. Oh! how careful should minis-
ters be to move only in the life; then, like the stars
in their courses, one would not run in the way of
another!
3d mo. 21st, 1813. A Friend in the ministry from
New York on a religious visit, attended our meeting
this morning, and was led into the state of things
among us, especially upon the subjects of humility
and love, exhorting Friends not to anger one ano-
ther. It must have come home to some present.
4th month 11th. My soul partook sweetly of the
presence of its greatest Good, and bowed in reverent
thankfulness to the Lord my redeemer: under which
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precious feeling, a hope was renewed that I shall yet
triumphantly reign over all my enemies.
Washington city, 4th mo. 25th, 1814. Yesterday,
our worthy friend and brother, Thomas Scattergood
of Philadelphia, closed with time. He attended sev-
eral sittings of the Yearly Meeting lately held in
that city, and was taken off after a few days illness.
A faithful labourer in the church is removed; and
though a loss to society, no doubt that it is his eter-
nal gain. A number of dedicated servants have late-
ly, in diflerent parts of the vineyard, been called from
works to rewards: but they are taken from the evil
to come.
In the 6th month this year, our dear friend Jacob
Lindley, of Chester county, was suddenly deprived
of life, by a fall from or the upsetting of his chair in
the road; his daughter Sarah being with him, on
their way toward the boarding school at West-town.
Thus, another faithful standard-bearer has been taken
out of the field of service. In the present low state
of things in the church, we cannot but sensibly feel
the loss of such who have stood as faithful watch-
men. Thomas and Jacob were each a few years
older than myself; they are taken, and I am left yet
awhile longer to struggle with the conflicts of this
life. Their immortal spirits are gone to inherit with
the just of all generations.
Seneca, that divine philosopher, says, " Let us live
in our bodies, therefore, as if we were only to lodge
in them this night, and to leave them to-morrow."
Dear Jacob's removal was so sudden that he had
not time or ability to bid his daughter farewell. —
But a sudden death cannot make any difference to a
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real cliristian, as to the slate of the soul. I consider
that a real christian is always ready: he is like a
wise steward, to whom his Lord has intrusted great
concerns; and he has every thing in such order that
it makes no difference to him at what moment his
Lord calls him to account; no, not even if he is ta-
ken when asleep; because he acts always from prin-
cif)le, as if his Master was standing in sight; as in-
deed he is. I have sometimes thought a sudden death
preferable to a lingering one, if I might choose either.
For even persons full of faith and good works, when
they have lain long on a bed of languishing, have been
subject to el)bings and flowings of mind; and whilst
in the body, they have human feelings. Sometimes
their prospects are clear and unclouded; and again
they are subject to fears and doubts: sometimes ta-
king leave of all around them, as if the closing mo-
ment was near, yet, reviving again for a few days,
they have the same feelings of affection at parting to
go through. But there are also some views of a long-
er confinement to a bed of sickness that are worthy
of attention. Such seasons have proved a lasting
blessing to by-standers and survivors; counsel and
admonition that have been given by the sick, have
brought down some stout and haughty minds; im-
pressions have been made on the minds of near rela-
tives which have never been forgotten. So that in
regard to the manner of our being taken out of time,
we ought to rest in the Lord's will, without a wish
of our own, save that we may be prepared for a hap-
py change, come when or in what way it may.
11th mo. 24th, 1S14, 1 left home, in company with
Samuel Hutchinson, and in the evening of the 26th
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arrived at Abel Walker's. Next day, attended Hope-
well meeting, and on the day following set out across
the mountains for Redstone. We reached Jonas
Cattel's in the evening of 12th mo. 2d, and next day
the select meeting was held; also on second-day the
Quarterly meeting for business, both of which we
attended. We then crossed the Ohio river and were
at Short Creek Quarter, also attended their first-day
meeting, and were at a meeting at Fairfield on second-
day. Thence, taking New Garden monthly meeting
on our way, we went to Salem Quarter. These three
Quarterly meetings were divinely favoured, and
Truth rose in an eminent degree. We then went as
far as Kendal, taking meetings on the way, and re-
turned to Short Creek. After a meeting at Joseph
Steer's, we set out for Springfield near Muskingum,
and attended their meeting at the iron works on first-
day. Hence, Robert Ritchie who had been with me
for some time past very acceptably, retuined home.
Having arrived at the extent of my present religi-
ous prospect, and as my horse had failed, it seemed
right for me to spend a little time with tlic few mem-
bers tiint reside here.
1st mo. 21st, 1815. Since being here, I have at-
tended divers meetings, and used some endeavours
to strengthen the things which remain, and seem
ready to die. There is a great struggle between the
two powers; the heavenly and the earthly; and great
IS tlie enmity between the two seeds. Many people
would be Christ's discij)les, if they could be on their
own terms; but the daily cross and self-denial is such
an obstacle in their way, — like a great lion that lies
in their \y.\ih. If the doctrine of self-denial and ta-
king up llic daily cross, could be dispensed with, or
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entirely laid aside, what multitudes would run after
Christ, crying, Hosanna to the Son of David, in a
loud tone: but this entering in at the strait gate, which
strips self of all its worldly greatness and glitter, is
too hard a saying for very many who love this pre-
sent world, better than they love the salvation of their
immortal souls.
During this journey, I had my health very well; I
also had some sweet and precious meetings, and some
very powerful ones. I was favoured to return home
in safety in the latter end of the 2d month, and found
my family well: our meeting again was to our mu-
tual rejoicing.
3d mo. 7th. We have now come to the conclusion
to remove to the state of Ohio, and to set out in next
month. The prospect looks pleasant, though the
journey is long. May the Almighty have us in his
care and keeping.
According to prospect, we left Washington city,
that is, myself, my wife and two daughters, and
in twenty days travelling reached Zanesville, in the
state of Oliio. Here we remained till the 15th of the
8th month, when we took our departure from Zanes-
ville, in order to fix our residence at Barnesville,
where we arrived the 17th before breakfast; having
lodged at a private house about five miles back, by
reason of a great rain that had made the travelling
very laborious. We just put our goods into the
house without order or form, and myself, wife and
two daughters set out for Short Creek, to attend the
Yearly fleeting. On the 19th, select meeting be-
gan; on first-day, the 20th, the meetings for worship
were held in the new meeting-house at Mount Plea-
sant, which were very large, supposed to be between
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two and three thousand people collected. A number
of public testimonies were delivered, but it was not
a time of much solid satisfaction to my mind. The
Yearly IVIeeting for business held all the week, and
closed with one sitting on seventh-day morning. It
was allowed to be a solid, good meeting, and Friends
were favoured to move in a comfortable degree of
precious harmony. What can be a greater proof of
the power of religion on the mind, or the virtue and
efficacy of the Divine principle in the heart, than that
such a large body of people collected together from
all the Yearly Meetings on the continent, and being
accustomed to different ways and manners of doing
business, — should yet so harmonize together! In
this, the wisdom and condescending goodness of God
is to be admired and acknowledged. What a proof
that we are not forsaken!
12th month 10th. I feel satisfied in being here at
Barncsville. We are situated as in the bosom 'df so-
ciety, having a large meeting and a monthly meet-
ing near us. Several strangers have lately passed
through this land, publishing the glad tidings of the
gospel of peace; among whom were Charles Osborne
and Isaac Hammer from Tennessee, and Huldah
Seers, from Virginia.
On the lib of the 4th month, 1S16, I left home,
with the concurrence of Friends, in order to attend
the Yearly Meetings of Philadelphia, New York and
Rhode Island, with some meetings on the way, Rob-
ert Kitcliie being my companion, at least to Philadel-
phia. Wo arrived at York-town in Pennsylvania,
on the 11th, and our horses being unfit for travelling
fartlier, we took stage and reached Philadelphia in
time to attend the Yearly Meeting. After meeting
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with many dear friends, and attending the several
sittings of that body, we went on and were at the
Quarterly meetings of New York, Purchase, Nine
Partners and Stanford, with several other meetings.
In these Quarters, some weiglity cases were con-
cluded to come before the select Yearly Meeting:
Stephen Grellette's concern to visit the West Indies,
and Hannah Field's and David Sands', for Europe.
During this journey, I visited a number of my former
friends and acquaintances; among some of whom I
observed a little more of the world's polish about
their houses and furniture, than formerly: others
maintain their simplicity with steadiness and consis-
tency. I was glad to find that some Friends stand
their ground in the testimony to plainness, and are
not fluttered about with every gale of fashion that
blows. Were there more such, it would be well for
us, as a society, and for the world around us: it is a
testimony of more importance than many seem to be
aware of.
At Nine Partners, we fell in company with Ra-
chel Barnard, of Chester county, who had been on a
religious visit eastward. We also attended several
meetings appointed by her. She attended Ohio Year-
ly Meeting last year, and is a dedicated young wo-
man. Some of these meetings were precious, refresh-
ing seasons.
5th month 25th. The select Yearly Meeting com-
menced in New York. It was attended by a large
number of strangers from different parts. The con-
cerns of David Sands and Hannah Field were open-
ed, and Hannah was set at liberty, but not David. —
At an adjournment of the select meeting on fourth-
day morning, Stephen Grellette was also set at liber-
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ty to visit the West Indies, New Orleans, &:c. Be-
fore the general Yearly Meeting, there was not much
business, but they were rather tedious in getting
through with it.
Soon after the close of the Yearly Meeting, as
Naomi lialstead was about leaving town, she had an
opportunity with her four brothers, two sisters, four
of her own children, and many others who were
present, the room being full. Naomi had consider-
able to say as she was taking her solemn leave of
them: and though I could not distinctly hear one
word, there was such life and power attending, that
all were melted down in tenderness of feeling. It
seemed so much like the voice of an angel, that I
thought myself fully rewarded, if I had met with
nothing more for all my toil. It was a memorable
time. She is a precious, sweet-spirited woman.
After the Yearly Meeting, I visited a number of
my friends and former acquaintance in New York;
also attended their monthly meeting. Great are the
changes since I lived in this place. Willet Hicks
and myself went to see Daniel S. Dean, who lives a
few miles out of town, but is not a member: he took
our visit kind. Ah! what great changes take place
in a few years!*what revolutions in the life of man!
But it will be of small consequence to the world in
a hundred years to come, whether we have lived or
died wise men, or fools; rich men or poor mon.
When in Philadelphia, I was at the house of a
minislcring Friend, who in conversation intimated
that she had but little to say in public. No marvel,
thought 1, whilst thou hast so much of the world's
glitter about thee. Where is self-denial, simplicity,
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and the daily cross? Is it only in word? Alas! for
the day! In profession we are high, but in practice,
too much like other people; not all, but too general-
ly so. Surely, this people will be melted and tried,
and brought back to the christian meekness and low-
liness of mind that adorns our holy profession. We
then, though we may have little to say in public,
shall be preachers of righteousness in life and con-
versation.
In company with Samuel Wood and his daughter,
and some other Friends, I left New York on the
11th of 6th month, and arrived at Newport, Khode
Island, on the 12th. Several of the passengers were
sea sick, but these along-shore voyages agree with
me. In the afternoon, I went to see Thomas Robin-
son, his wife and daughter Abigail, who were all fee-
ble; Thomas in his eighty-sixth and his wife in her
eighty-third j^ear. Thence went to David Biiffum's,
one mile out of town, and took tea. The weather
has continued so long cold, and the frost so severe,
that it looks likely there will be but little fruit, and
the trees seem clothed in their mourning garments.
15th. Select meeting opened at Portsmouth. I
put up at Jacob Mott's old habitation; the house has
been built one hundred and sixty years, and three of
his children now reside there, making the sixth gene-
ration of the Mott family that have inhabited the an-
cient mansion. We dined in the same room that
George Fox dined, and where he used to hold meet-
ings; but the walls could not tell us on what subjects
he treated. At the select meeting, a woman Friend
from Nantucket was set at liberty to cross the ocean,
her name Elizabeth Barker. The aspect of the trees,
both fruit trees and forest, wears a serious appearance,
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and speaks in solemn language to thoughtless man;
as if to show to him who is not deaf to instruction
what the Almighty can do.
On first-day, the 16th, I was silent in both morn-
ing and afternoon meetings. They were very large;
in the afternoon, it seemed as if all the town were
gathering, but there was no settlement in the quiet;
many no doubt came out of mere curiosity, and abun-
dance of gay folks and children assembled. Some
of the servants laboured hard among them, but it
seemed like beating upon rocks. Meeting for busi-
ness began next morning, and the several sittings
thereof were comfortable. Seven Quarterly meet-
ings compose this Yearly Meeting. We stayed their
meeting on fifth-day (the Yearly Meeting closing the
day before) in which Gerard T. Hopkins had con-
siderable to say, also Isaac Thornc jun. On seventh-
day, the 22d, we left Newport; and after being three
nights on the water, we landed at New York on the
25lh. After tarrying in town a few days, I left the
city in company with John Hallock, and came by
water to Amboy ; then took the stage for Crosswicks,
and travelled all night, A Friend then took us to
INIount Holly, where we attended their monthly
meeting, and it was a refreshing time. Thence we
went on to Little Egg Harbour, where John Hal-
lock resides. Here I viewed the salt-works, where
they make about two thousand bushels of salt in a
summer, out of the sea-water that is pumped up in
vats for evaporation. On first-day, I was at their
meeting, and it was a blessed season.
On second-day, the Sth of 7th month, I set out for
Great Egg Harbour, and crossed a ferry three miles
wide; next evening, the 9th, I reached my son Tho-
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mas's at Etna furnace, where 1 tarried a few days.
I4lh. I attended Friends' meeting at Port Elizabeth,
or Maurice river, and dined at Isaac Townsend's. —
Here I met with a daughter of my dear friends, Nor-
ris and Hannah Jones; she is the wife of a son of
Isaac Martin, of Rah way. On the 17lh, I left my
son Thomas's and rode fifty miles; thence pursued
my journey to John Kendall's at Mill Creek in Lan-
caster county, where my horse had been kept during
my journey eastward. After staying a few days with
my kind friends there, I set out on my way over the
mountains and reached home in safety and peace.
In the beginnins; of the 9th month, I attended our
Yearly Meeting at Mount Pleasant. JNleeting for
business opened at ten o'clock on second-day, and it
was a time of favour. There was a large gathering
of Friends, and a goodly appearance of promising
young men. May the Lord clothe them with zeal
as with a garment, — give them a good understanding,
with sound judgment and a clear discerning. After
going through the business which in course comes
before the first sitting, the meeting adjourned to next
day; at which time the state of society was taken up,
and we were favoured with the overshadowing wing
of Divine Goodness. INIany Friends were engaged
in support of our christian testimonies, — much suit-
able counsel was communicated, — and Friends in
every part of the family were encouraged and urged
to greater degrees of vigilance to labour with and
stir up the negligent. Elders and overseers, in par-
ticular, were reminded of the great responsibility
resting upon them, in fulfilling the trust reposed in
them. Advice was also given that meetings should
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be deep and weighty in appointing Friends to fill
those stations.
Late in the season of this year, Hugh Judge had
a small log house built on his lands near Barnesville.
In a letter to his wife, who was travelling in the
southern states as a companion to a ministering
Friend, he dates thus, " Quiet Retreat Cabin in the
woods, 23d of 12th month, 181 G," and says, "I have
got a wooden chimney up, so that the smoke does
not disturb me as before. Thou wilt find it a rough
place to come to, but fine for summer, being open on
all sides. I have no other company than puss, sleep-
ing on the chair by me. It has been a fatiguing time
to me, in passing to and from one cold house to
another. A number of Friends have been concern-
ed for me, and don't like that I should live in the
cabin alone." After informing of the death of sev-
eral friends, he says, " So it is, and so it has been,
and so it will continue to be. From this state of
being, we must all go; and what matter how soon,
or when, or where, so that the day's work is done.
It will certainly be a blessed change, to pass from
earth's to heaven's jo^'s. We are reminded daily,
that here we have no continuing city, and that this
is not our final home; nay, we arc better provided
for. All things here bear one inscription, change
and disappointment ; l)ut the inheritance prepared
for those who through faith and patience hold out to
the end, changes not; it is an enduring substance,
eternal in the heavens." In the 1st month following,
his wife returned home.
In the year 1817, Short Creek Quarterly meet-
ing, on the application of Friends of Alum Creek
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preparative meeting, agreed to establish a monthly
meeting there, and also a meeting for worship and a
preparative meeting at Owl Creek. To attend the
opening of these meetings, a committee of men and
women Friends was appointed. Of a visit to those
places, Hugh Judge gives the following account:
In the 1st month, ISIS, we set out on a visit to
Friends at Alum Creek and Owl Creek, and on third-
day evening, the 20th, reached a friend's house near
Mount Vernon. Next morning we attended meeting
at Owl Creek, it being their preparative meeting. —
That afternoon and next day we spent in visiting
Friends' families; and on sixth-day had an appoint-
ed meeting among them. 24th. We set out for Alum
Creek, and in the evening arrived at Joseph Os-
born's; attended their meeting on first-day, and in
the afternoon and next day we were engaged in
visiting families. On third-day, the 27th, we had
a meeting appointed particularly for the youth and
children; then went on with the family visit; and
next day visited the school, which was large. It was
taught by a very hopeful young man, who was just
married, at about the age of nineteen.
On fifth-day, the 29th, we attended Alum Creek
monthly meeting, which held late, there being a
good deal of business in appointing Friends to re-
cord births, burials, marriages, — taking care of the
poor, &c. There were some goodly looking Friends
at this meeting, and a large number of young peo-
ple; some of whom^appeared hopeful. We had ma-
ny precious opportunities in Friends' families, and
the meetings were owned with the overshadowings
of Divine love. After this we returned to Owl Creek
and stayed their meeting on first-day, the 1st of 2d
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month. The meeting at Alum Creek was very much
made up of Friends from New York state. Thomas
Rotch and another Friend had lately visited both
settlements, having one meeting in each place. We
paid a thorough visit to them; having four meetings
at Alum Creek, and three at Owl Creek, besides
visiting their families and school, and left them well
satisfied with our labours among them. After spend-
ing a little more time among Friends at Owl Creek,
I returned home by way of Zanesville, and attended
our Quarterly meeting held at Short Creek, in the
second month.
In looking over this little journey, I have recur-
red to the meetings appointed for the young people
and children, and not confined to those of our socie-
ty. These have sometimes been among the best
meetings I have had; and I have seen great tender-
ness among them. I have long believed that the
younger branches of society have been too much
overlooked. I have found my mind much ditiwn
toward the neglected classes, the sick, the poor, the
aged,&c. Sometimes, when I have gone into a neigh-
bourhood, I have had two, three, four and sometimes
five meetings, before I felt clear to leave the parts,
and the last meetings mostly the best. Friends who
travel through this countr}', mostly appear to be in
haste; — have a meeting here to day, and away to-
morrow; and sometimes the notice so short, that
general invitation cannot be given. This way of
(ravelling may serve for them t^ say they have been
to such and such places. However, if they have peace
in going on so rapidly, be it so. We cannot give one
another eyes to see, and must let every one move as
they are Divinely instructed. And yet we may r^
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mark for one another's consideration, that a small
lot well worked, often produces more than a large
field, half worked: and how seldom, with some tra-
vellers, do we hear the aged, the sick and the afflict-
ed inquired after! Some of these are gospel duties
worth thinking of. May tliose who are young, and
coming on the stage of active service in the Truth,
improve, even by the shortness of others, and faith-
fully occupy their gifts in all the duties pointed out
to them by the safe and sure Guide.
On the 27th of the 9th month, ISIS, in company
with my dear wife, I left home in order to attend
Baltimore Yearly Meeting, and to visit some other
places. We had a sweet, parting meeting with
Friends; our monthly meeting also the day before
was a heavenly, favoured season. After attending
the Yearly Meeting, we visited our children and a
number of friends, and on the 15th of the 11th mo.
arrived at our son Thomas's, at Lewis-town in the
state of Delaware. On the way, we attended a meet-
ing at Cold Spring, appointed by Huldali Hoag,
from Vermont. She also had an evening meeting at
Lewis-town, and lodged at my son's. On first-day,
the 22nd, my wife and I rode twenty-four miles to
attend Friends' meeting at JSIilford. It was small,
being composed of three men and a lad, one woman
and a few girls: the men were all there but one that
belong to this meeting. We went on thence to at-
tend the Quarterly meeting at Little Creek; at which
was Huldah Hoag and h^r companions, William
Rickman from England, Evan Thomas from Balti-.
more, and several Friends from Jersey. Five month-
ly meetings compose this Qu-artei-, but it is a very-
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small one. There is one coloured man who is a mem-
ber; and in the meeting for business he spake con-
siderably b}' way of exhortation to Friends, — remind-
ing them that we had had a favoured meeting that
day, and pressing upon the young people particular-
ly to regard it so as to improve thereby. Those who
laboured in word and doctrine, he exhorted to be en-
couraged and hold on their way in faithfulness. The
meeting was very quiet while he was speaking.
After the Quarterly meeting at Little Creek, we
attended four meetings on our way back to our son's
at Lewis-town. This is a pleasant place, so far as
pleases the sight of the eye; but there is one main
thing wanting to make it a desirable place for me to
live at: that is, good society, — one of the greatest
sweeteners of life. For what is all the glitter of this
world worth, without good society? And there is no
society really good, without religion. Pure religion
is the first and main pillar, or the main ingredient
in the sweetener of life. It is obtained by seeking
first and principally the kingdom of God and his
righteousness. Let this, my dear chikh-cn, be your
first, your early choice. Seek durable riches and righ-
teousness, — a treasure in the heavens where nothing
can corrupt, nor thieves break through and steal. —
One inscription is marked on all things belonging !o
this life, — disappointment and decay; but in the
enjoyment of vital religion, there is a permanent
support, even amidst all the storms and tempests of
life. Internal and vital religion hath its outward and
visible fruits in a well ordered moral life. One trait
in the character of a truly religious person, is the
due observance and performance of all his duties to
God, his conscience, and the church. May Almigh-
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ty Goodness have you in his keeping, and preserve
you from all the chilling blasts of this world and its
spirit, enabling you to walk before him in fear, and
with perfect hearts doing that which is right in his
sight.
12th mo. 2nd. We attended a meeting at Lewis-
town, appointed by Evan Thomas. There is now
no Friends' meeting within twent}^ miles of this
place; there used to be one within five miles, but it
is dropped, and the meeting house looks like a hab-
itation for bats and owls. On seventh-daj' afternoon,
we rode to a Friend's house about six miles, and
next day sat down with the family in a religious
opportunity. Five members reside here. I pity them
very much. Ah! what privileges we enjoy in our
land! Surely, if they are not improved, they will
add to our condemnation. Oh! how all that is alive
in me has been moved when I have looked over the
dear children, exposed as they are here ! May the un-
slumbering Shepherd of Israel care for them. When
I was here more than thirty years ago, there was
then living a number of what might be called the
nobles in Israel; they are now gone from works to
rewards, and a young generation has grown up, who
hav€ much of this world's glitter about them; such
things as their fathers did well without. Ah! how
true a picture of society in many other places! The
spirit and customs of the world slay thousands of
our society; as does also the unlawful love of lawful
things. I have mourned over the desolations that
have been made, and are still making among Friends.
Here in this land, as in other places where slavery
has prevailed, the church (or vital religion) has fled
into the wilderness. Oh! when will the day come,
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in which man shall not tyrannise over his fellow
man, — when the bonds of oppression shall be broken
and the captives go free? It was said by one former-
ly, that " the real calls of nature constitute the mea-
sure of enjoyment, even as the foot is the measure
of the shoe. The want of necessaries alone, can be
termed poverty."
12th. Slill at Lewis-town. Since being from home,
I have had some heavenly seasons of Divine enjoy-
ment, — the communion and fellowship of the holy
Spirit, which is a rich foretaste of the joy that will
hereafter be fully revealed, if the faith is kept. With
God dwelleth all fullness; and in the enjoyment of
his presence, the soul partakes of that fullness. My
best seasons of heavenly enjoyment are often when
alone: the most profound calmness, the greatest in-
wardness is felt when at home with the Lord. Here,
the soul drinks of that river which makes glad the
whole heritage of God. When all the animal powers
are melted down, when there seems as it were a
union of heaven and earth, — in this state true fel-
lowsliip is known; even according to the prayer of
Christ, that all the members of his family may be
one in the Father and in the son, even as they are
one. In this state of fellowship, there is no use for
words,— it is a state of pure feeling, and heavenly
enjoyment of Divine oneness.
18th. Wc left our son Thomas's, at Lewis-town,
and on the 22nd arrived at our son-in-law, John
Jewetl's, at Deer Creek in Maryland. Here wo
stayed till the 27th of the 1st month, 1819; I then,
went on towards Little Falls; and as I travelled the
road, a precious enjoyment of the Divine presence
overshadowed me. My heart was filled with praises
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to God; the spring of the ministry (as at some other
times) opened with great clearness, and rose to a
considerable height, as though I had been in a large
assembly of people. I thought of William Dews-
berry and other early Friends. INIy soul was clothed
with awful reverence, and bowed in worship, adora-
tion and praise to God the Father. In this state, the
spirit of supplication came upon me, and near access
seemed to be opened to intercede for the church,
that she miajht arise and shake herself from the dust
of the earth, and put on her beautiful garments; that
so she might come up out of her present wilderness
state, leaning upon the breast of her Beloved, and
appear " fair as the moon, clear as the sun, and ter-
rible as an army with banners."
30th, I rode to Gunpowder and attended their
meeting next day, in which I had some service. I
was also at their monthly meeting on fourth-day,
the 3rd of 2nd mo. A number of years has passed
since mj'' being among Friends here; a number of
their children who were then small, are now grown
up; but from their appearance, I should not have
known them to be members of our society, they
have gone so wide into the customs and fantastical
fashions of the times. It is sorrowful; but parents
are to blame, whilst their money not only pays for
the articles, hut for the making of their fashionable
garments. I allude to such as are'in their minority,
and who are provided for by their parents. But
when parents have pursued the world with avidity
and grown rich, the children have taken wing, and
flown away. Surely this society of people will be
awfully visited. Oh! how I pity in my very heart
the youth of some families (for all have not yet
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given way, and let fall our testimony to plainness,— «-
there is a remnant that mourn as between the porch
and the altar, with whom my spirit has sympathy
and fellowship) but when I go into some families
and see plain fathers and mothers, and their minor
children tossed off in the manner of the world, the
lamentation uttered by one of old sometimes revives:
" Even the sea-monsters draw out the breast, they
give suck to their j^oung ones; but the daughter of
my people is become cruel, like the ostriches of the
wilderness." If parents will put such finery on their
children while they are j-oung, — if they will dress
them as their church or presbyterian neighbours do
theirs, — surely their children, as they grow up, will
not wish or like to be singular. Christ says, " Suf-
fer little children to come unto me, and forbid them
not." But it looks as though many parents, instead
of bringing their children to Christ, are driving
them as fast and as far from him as they can. So
that with regard to some it may be said, the leaders
of the people have caused them to err: and where
the head is sick the heart is faint.
Qn fifth-day, the 4th of the 2nd month, I went to
Baltimore, and next day attended the monthly meet-
ing for the Western District; on the day following,
was at the select Quarterly meeting, which was a
close, searching time. On first-day, attended Old-
town meeting, and next day the Quarterly meeting
for business. After this, we stayed in town among
our friends till the 27th of the 2nd month, when we
rode to S. P's. It was very cold; considerable snow
having fallen and drifted, made it dillicult to travel.
In the first week of the 3rd month, we went to Gun-
powder, and spent one night with Oliver Mathews,
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now in his ninety-eighth year; but his faculties were
good, and he enjoyed himself and his friends comfort-
ably, being preserved in a state of much innocency
and sweetness. On second-day, the 8th, I had a
meeting with the children and young people at their
school house near Eli Mathews'; which was a ten-
dering, good opportunity.
On leaving Gunpowder, we went to the city of
Washington and attended Friends' meeting there on
first-day morning — in the afternoon, at Alexandria,
silent. We stayed five days with our daughter Ra-
chel; then returned to Washington and was again at
their meeting. Thence to the monthly meeting at
Indian Spring, — also their first-day meeting follow-
ing: dined with Samuel Snowden, where we met
with Tristram Russel, from Nevv York state, on a
religious visit southward. After a sweet, refreshing
opportunity with Samuel Snowden's family, we re-
turned to Baltimore; and on the 24th of 3rd mo. left
that city, and took our journey over the mountains
to Ohio, where we arrived at our home in safetv.
Stillwater, 5th mo. 16th, 1819. Great is the lov-
ing kindness and mercy of my God toward me. His
favours and blessings have been multiplied; they are
more in number than the hairs of my head. When
I look back to the days of my youth, I am ready
to say. What was I, or my father's house, that he
should take me, a poor lad as from the dust of the
street, or as a beggar from the dunghill, and set me
as amongst the princes of his people; — calling me to
the work of the ministry, and giving me a portion
therein, to declare of his faithfulness and truth, and
of his salvation to the people, and to open the doc-
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trines and mysteries of his kingdom! And his grace
has not been bestowed on me in vain; for what I
am, I am by his grace and good spirit, operating in
and through me. And now, God of my salvation,
1 pray thee, keep me unto the end, — hide me in thy
pavilion, in the secret of thy tabernacle hide me;
that so mine enemies may not prevail against me in
the time of old age, and when my strength faileth.
It was four years last month, since wb came to re-
side in this land, and I am well satisfied in being
here. I view it as the Lord's doings, and that it
was his wisdom and goodness which influenced and
guided us hither. It had been on my mind for some
years, but my family did not seem prepared, so I
was kept back, and as it were in bonds: but now,
earnestly desiring the guidance of Divine wisdom, I
feel at his disposal, and ready to go wherever he may
be pleased to send me.
20th. The humbling goodness of Israel's unslum-
bering Shepherd attends me; from day to day it is
renewed as the morning, and my prayers are for pre-
servation in the path of humility, meekness, gentle-
ness, and every christian virtue. Oh! how I long to
arrive at greater degrees of perfection, and greater
conquests over every thing that is of human nature,
both flesh and spirit!
12th mo. 3d, 1S20. Having opened in our month-
ly meeting, a prospect of duty to visit some meetings,
appoint a few as way might open, and visit some fa-
milies; — and having the concurrence of Friends, I
set out on the service, in company with Dempsey
Boswcll, and visited the families of Somerton meet-
ing, the most southern branch of our monthly meet-
ing; also attended their week-day meeting, which
JOURNAL OP HT/GH JUDGiJ. 337
Was a solid, favoured opportunity. We visited about
thirty families; in many of which we had precious
seasons, and the hearts of Friends were made glad.
It was a time of renewed favour, and a tendering
visitation to the youth and children, of whom there
were several large families. In going through a ser-
vice of this kind, and passing from house to house,
the mind becomes necessarily and properly stripped
of all dependance, and favours, and knowledge that
has been experienced in families that have been vis-
ited; and we have to sit down entirely emptied of
all, and to become as blank paper. There should be
nothing carried from house to house, — but we should
leave every crumb behind. It is one 'thing to tell
people what they are; and it is quite another, to tell
them what they may be, and what the Holy One de-
signs they should be.
In this visit, there was a little handed forth in
every family, as way opened; in some few, the spring
was very low, the waters of the sanctuary being no
more than ankle deep. In such instances there were
no endeavours nor anxiety to raise the spring by
creaturely activity, nor to stir up or awake the Be-
loved before the time: but the care was to move on-
ly in the simplicity and nothingness of self; and so
becoming all things to all men. I believe there is no
service so humiliating to the creature, as visiting fa-
milies, when rightly engaged in. These continual
baptisms are necessary, in order that no flesh ma}'
glory in the Divine presence. How oft was the apos-
tle's experience remembered, where he said, " being
poor, yet making many rich."
9th. We set out for Leatherwood, and visited
several families there; also attended their first-day
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meeting, and had an appointed meeting in the after-
noon at the widow Webster's. They were awaken-
ing seasons, in which considerable tenderness appear-
ed. On second-day, the lllh, we had a meeting at
Henry Bailes's; after dinner we left the place, and
travelled through the snow some distance. Friends
were very kind to us in every place, and we parted
from them in much nearness of spirit.
The remaining account of this visit appears to be
lost or mislaid. In the summer following, about the
last of the 6th month, 1821, Hugh ^i^ulge set out on
a journe}' over the mountains on horse back, having
a friend in compan)\ Of this journey is the follow-
ing brief account:
On first-day, the Sth of 7th month, we got to Dil-
lon's Run meeting, and put up at a Friend's house
where they have eight children, all grown up except
one; they are a goodly famil}', brouglit up in nice
order. We also had an afternoon meeting at Dillon's
Run, and then went on for Back Creek, where wc
had a meeting on third-day; next day at the Ridge,
and the day following, one at Winchester. Thence,
by way of Waterford to New Market, where I at-
tended their first-day meeting, and next day reach-
ed Baltimore. The yellow fever was in town, but I
visited several aged people who appeared near the
end of their days, and divers others who are since
taken to the inclosure of the silent grave. Thus wo
see from day to day that oui- lives hang as by a slen-
der thread.
ISth. I left Baltimore, and rode to my son-in-law
John Jewett's, at Deer' Creek; thence, in company
with my daughter Susanna, I set out next day for
Lewistown in Delaware, to see my son Thomas. We
JOURNAL OF HUGH JUDGE. 339
took Milford meeting on the way, at which there
were only twelve persons, and arrived at Lewis-
town in the evening; found my son and his family
in health, and tarried with them till fifth-day morn-
ing, the 26th, when we set out on our return to Deer
Creek. On first-day, the 29th, I attended Deer Creek
meeting, where Mary Mifflin appeared in testimony.
My daughter Margaret Judge has been on a visit to
New York and thereaway; she has visited the state
prison, poor house, hospital, and other public places,
beside attending Friends' meetings there. She is
now looking towards our Yearly Meeting at Mount
Pleasant, and so on to the opening of that at White-
water. May the Holy One preserve her. In true lit-
tleness is'true greatness.
On my way homewards, I travelled diligently, and
reached our monthly meeting after riding sixteen
miles in the morning previous. At this meeting, I
mentioned my prospect of attending the opening of
the Yearly Meeting, proposed to be held at White-
water, Indiana. My daughter Margaret returned with
me, and we reached my home about a week before
our Yearly Meeting commenced at Mount Pleasant.
After staying a day or two, we set out and attended
our select Yearly Meeting on seventh-day, where we
had the company and services of a number of stran-
gers; Elizabeth Coggeshall and Ann Shipley, from
New York; and William Foster from Europe. But
I was taken with chills and fever so as not to be able
to attend the sittings after second-day. In one week
after the close of the meeting we got home, and I
gained strength so fast that I was able to set out with
my daughter Margaret and a number of Friends, in
order to be at Indiana Yearly Meeting.
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9th mo. 26th. We got to Zanesville, and were at
their meeting on fifth-day. In the evening, at Mar-
garet's request, we had an opportunity with the
members of our society. On seventh-day, we reach-
ed Dry Run settlement, and had a meeting there
next day; though but few Friends reside here. On
second-day, the 1st of 10th month, we got to Fair-
field, and next day to Waynesville. Our company
had now increased to twelve. But in the midst of
eompanj'^, I often feel lonesome; especially when
there is much conversation about trifling things, ex-
citing to laughter; for this is not often improving to
the mind. On the 5th we arrived at White-water,
and I put up at my nephew George Hatton's, two
miles from the meeting house.
At this Yearly Meeting was a large body of Friends,
and a promising appearance of young people. The
business was conducted with weight, and I had a
hope that Friends will get along satisfactorily. The
Meeting closed on sixth-day; and a comfortable de-
gree of brotherly harmony was witnessed through-
out. I stayed over first-day, and attended White-
water meeting, which was large and favoured. After
visiting several Friends, among whom was William
Williams, who was very feeble, I set out for Spring-
borough, about forty miles. Here I stayed several
days; during which I attended Waynesville meeting
on first-day, and thence to the monthly meeting at
Fairfield; — also their first-day meeting, in which
Truth's testimony went forth in great clearness, and
the holy Arm was magnified. I also was at a meet'
ing at Newberry, which was a favoured season, and
much brokenncss of spirit appeared thro' tlie meet-
ing. From thence 1 went on pretty directly homo.
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Having ol)tained the concurrence of our monthly
and Quarterly meetings, I again left home about the
middle of the 12th month, on a religious visit to In-
diana, having Thomas Farquhar of Westland for a
companion.
[ This visit appears to have been an extensive one,
ind yet no account is found among the detached pa-
pers of Hugh Judge, of the extent or service of his
travels, for nearly four months. That it was an ar-
duous journey, thro' a comparatively newly settled
country, undertaken in the depth of winter, for a
man of seventy yeai's or U|)ward, can be readily ad-
mitted: but it must remain unknown to the reader,
unless some one acquainted with the narrative, or
the letters and papers of himself or companion, can
3'et be found to supply the deficiency. The follow-
ing description of some of their difficulties, is glean-
ed froin some letters and papers referring to the
latter end of their travels in Indiana.]
4th mo. 11th, 1822, being furnished with a guide,
we crossed the west branch of Whitewater, where
the stream was about halfway up our saddle skirts
in depth. After a meeting at Milford, we rode four
miles to a friend's house, where we lodged. Next
day, we travelled along the wilderness or Sand-creek
road, about thirtj^-seven miles, and put up at a tavern
in the forks of Clifty-creek; but there was no stable
nor shelter for our horses, and but little to give them:
our own fare was not much better, and a heavy rain
fell in the night. The people, however, taking the
advantage of travellers' necessities, charged very high
for our poor accommodations. 13th, we rode forty,
miles, chiefly thro' the wilderness, to Jesse Moon's,
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where we lodged; he and his wife being members.
Next day, being first-day, we rode about six miles
to another family of Friends, where we had a meet-
ing. These two families were settled between thirty
and forty miles from any other Friends, at a place
called Haw-patch. A great rain having fallen the
last night, the streams were so high that we had to
remain here till the 15th. Three large creeks uni-
ting a little below, form Drift-wood river, which we
hoped to cross at Columbus, about eight miles; but
in this we were disappointed by reason of the flood,
so returned to Jesse Moon's.
16th. We set out returning by the way we came
thro' the widerness, without any thing for ourselves
or horses, and crossed two deep rivers, the first more
than half way up our horses sides; but we got safely
through, and arrived at Geneva, a small town on the
west bank of Big Sand-creek, which is a deep and
dangerous looking stream. Next da}'^, starting very
early, and passing through some beech-wood swamps
which were very tedious, we got to Drift-wood week-
day meeting, which was very small. In the after-
noon and next morning, we travelled diligently till
we arrived at Mathew Coffin's, where we took break-
fast; and then went on with them about twenty miles
to Lick-creek, where West Branch Quarterly meet-
ing w;is held. Here, we parted with Pearson Lacy
who had been our pilot through the wilderness, and
next day attended the select meeting, which was
small, and no Friend in the ministry present, of
their own members. Here we put up at Jonathan
Lindley's, a good place for travellers. 20th. We at-
tended the Quarterly meeting, which was a day of
high favour, that will be remembered for good by
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some present. We also stayed their first-day meet-
ing, and then took our journey toward the Wabash,
visiting a (c\v meetings and some scattered families
by the way.
In this journey, we crossed the east and west forks
of White-river, about forty miles apart. On the west
side of thfe west branch, we got into the wet prairies,
in some places near a mile of water without inter-
mission, and some of the way, very deep. In passing
through one of these, my companion stopped, a'nd
immediately his horse sunk in the mud and water
up to his body. On going a little further, we stop-
ped to consider what was best to be done, as we
appeared to be in danger of losing our lives or our
horses: but our guide told us we were past the worst,
and had better go on. After wading many rods fur-
ther, we got to a little spot of solid ground; but this
was small, and the prairie around us looked like a
little ocean. There were three places so deep that
our pilot's creature swam. Thus, wading mostly
in water or mud, we got along near thirty miles to
the settlement of Friends at Honey Creek. Here
we attended their first-day meeting which was small,
for the creek dividing Friends' settlements, was so
high that none could cross it.
29th. The creek being a little lower^ we got over
on an unfinished bridge, and were taken by a Friend
in his carriage about fourteen miles to a settlement
of Friends near Spring Creek; most of the way over
prairie or glade land that was sandy, dry and rich.
After staying a day and two nights with Friends,
and having two meetings with them, we returned to
Honey Creek, expecting to cross the Wabash to a
preparative meeting, called Union, in the state of
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Illinois. The water being high, we waited a day and
visited some families; then attempted to cross the
river which was falling, yet high. In going along
the shore in order to get to a ferry, we were inter-
rupted by great sluices of water which flowed out of
the bed of the river on the low lands. Having cross-
ed some of them, we came to one that appeared to
be very (\ecv), and our guide turned out. into the
woods where the water spread wider: we followed
him, and after getting through two or three misera-
ble places of mud, or rather of quicksands and water,
we came to one still worse, with limbs of trees in it.
Our guide ventured in and got safe through, my
companion also got through, taking care not to stir
up the quicksand: but my creature sank among the
limbs and sticks, threw me oflf, and in struggling to
get out, fell on me and buried me under the water.
Thomas returned into the slough to my assistance,
and helped me out; but I was much hurt, and ap-
piehensive that some of my ribs were broken. We
found a log on which we crossed the remainder of
this quicksand, but soon found there was another be-
fore us. Thus we were hemmed in, as on every side:
to attempt to go back the way we came was dread-
ful, and to go forward seemed impracticable. At
length, we concluded to get near the bank of the
river, and return if we could. Here we found a log
that appeared to r^^ach nearly across the main sluice
that we had crossed. So we got on it, and our guide,
Moses Hogget, on one side, and Thomas on the other,
endeavoured to steady me across on this log; but I
fell ofl", the log being small and wet, and I wet also;
they, however, caught me and with dilliculty got me
on the log again, and thus we got over safely; Tho-
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mas returning for the horses drove one through, and
rode the other: and though the water was deep, il
was not so bad as the sloughs.
Thus, being rescued from the dangers of the water,
with gratitude to our merciful Preserver we return-
ed about two miles to a Friend's house, where we
changed and dried our clothes; and^thcn rode about
fourteen miles to Joshua Dick's, in a settlement of
Friends near Terman's Creek, five miles from the
Wabash river. Here we stayed all night, and next
morning, the 4th of 5th month, rode to the river
through a heavy rain, with sharp lightning and the
thunder rolling awfully over our heads. In this at-
tempt to cross the river, we were also disappointed;
for the ferry-man told us that if we got over, there
would be much deeper water for us to wade, or swim
through on the other side. We therefore returned
to Terman's Creek settlement, and had two meet-
ings there on first-day. After this, hearing that the
river had not fallen much, and being furnished with
a guide, we returned by another route to Lick Creek,
where we had two meetings on first-day the 12th,
one of them in the afternoon for the youth, a pre-
cious opportunity, not soon to be forgotten. Thence
to Mathew Coffin's at Blue River, where we arrived
about the middle of 5th month. Mathew and his
daughter Priscilla Hunt, with her companion Rachel
Johnson, were about to set out on a religious visit to
the eastern states, and we had some thoughts of ac-
companying them homewards about one hundred and
twenty miles to Cincinnati: but at Drift-wood meet-
ing, I had not had a full opportunity, so as to feel
quite clear of the place, and therefore concluded to
take that and a few other places on my way home.
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By the foregoing account of this journey, my
friends and relatives may understand a little of what
I have passed through, in sufferings with hunger and
cold, — exposed to some heavy rains, — travelling ear-
ly and late, through perils in the wilderness, deep
rivers, and storms of wind, when the trees and limbs
were falling in* every direction, and our lives often
in jeopardy. Yet through mercy we were preserved,
and brought home in safety and peace; to the great
Preserver of men let the tribute of gratitude and
praise be offered.
Stillwater, 4th month 1st, 1823. For more than a
week past, my dear wife has been unwell; and her
disorder (which assumes the appearance of cholera
morbus) has increased to an alarming degree. She
had this complaint when we lived in Washington
city, and was thereby brought, as it were, to the
point of death, while I was in Pennsylvania. About
four or five years ago, she had the same disease, and
was so ill that the doctor gave her up, desiring me
to send for our children. It was a season of close
trial to me; my soul was deeply bowed, and I was
brought on my knees !)y her bed-side: an awful,
solemn time it was, in which prayer was offered up,
that if it was consistent'with the Divine will to spare
my wife a little longer, the cords of life might be
lengthened; for we were not then prepared to meet
the awful stroke. The expressions used at that sea-
son were singular, and I have often since viewed
them so, but as they arose they went forth from me,
and 1 have never had cause to believe otherwise than
that they were from the inspiring Spirit of God in
me. I do not say that it was in answer to the request
JOURNAL OP HUGH JUDCJE. 347
that was then made; but a change took place in my
dear wife from that moment, to our admiration and
grateful acknowledgment, and she recovered in a
short time, without taking any more of the doctor's
medicine. From this circumstance, we were remind-
ed of the truth of that saying, " It is better to trust
in the Lord, than to put confidence in man."
In relation to my wife's present indisposition, I
have no will out of the Divine will, knowing thai
the Judge of all the earth will do right. Not long be-
fore she was taken sick, we being alone in the even-
ing, wei'e conversing on the subject of the removal
of Deborah Gibbons, of Pennsylvania; an account of
her death having lately been received. It was re-
marked that she was one of our early and particular-
ly intimate friends, and almost the only one of our
old acquaintance that had remained till now; — also
that we ourselves were now numbered amongst the
old people, being upwards of seventy, and that we
should not be alarmed at what may happen to us
here in this uncertain state: to which my dear wife
replied that she was not alarmed; and this seemed to
be her state of mind during her illness, which con-
tinued for about two weeks, and then she gradually
recovered.
The IGth day of the 10th month, in the afternoon,
as we were sitting together, engaged in conversa-
tion, there was an awful flash of lightning and clap
of thunder took place so instantaneously that it made
us all start from our chairs. It struck a green ches-
nut tree not far from our house, and shivered it all
to pieces, — the like I think I had aever seen before.
One large piece was thrown into our yard, and the
jar was so great on the cabin we live in that a pane
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of glass was broken in the lodging room; yet we
were mercifully preserved without harm.
11th mo. 2Sth, 1824. The voyage through life is
but short by comparison, to those that live longest;
but it has proved a rough one to some of us. This
world has few or no real charms in it: a shade soon
comes over all our pleasant things. Even when the
sun appears to rise bright and clear, how soon the
clouds arise, and hide it from us. All things here be^
low bear one inscription, — change and disajjpoint-
inent. These reflections have arisen on hearing of
the death of another of my dear friends at Mill Creek
in Pennsylvania; but I am fully satisfied that her
husband and children's loss is her eternal gain; and
that she now enjoys a heavenly inheritance, out of
the reach of pain and sorrow.
The 7th of the 6th month, 1826, my wife and I
set out from our son-in-law, A. Thomas's, at Still-
water, (where we had resided some time,) with a
prospect of going to Baltimore, and to visit our chil-
dren and friends; that day we went to St. Clairsville,
and next day attended Friends' meeting there. In
the afternoon, ther weather being very warm, a friend
kindly helped us along with his carriage to Wheel-
ing; next morning we rode to Washington to break-
fast, and thence to Thomas Farquhar's at Wcstland,
where we lodged. First-day, tlie 10th, we attended
meeting there, and went on to Caleb Hunt's. Here
I put myself under the care of a doctor who thought
he could help my hearing, and we stayed some time,
attending meetings as they came in course. But the
love of the world, the deccitfulness of riches, and the
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lust of Other things, prevent many Friends from du-
ly attending their religious meetings here as well as
in other places.
In about five weeks after we left home, we arrived
in Baltimore, and were at meeting there; and on the
22d of the 7th month, we reached our son-in-law
John Jewctt's, at Deer Creek.
Besides visiting our children and acquaintance, I
was at a number of meetings, and had some service
on Truth's account, in divers places.
From some documents found among his papers, it
appears that Hugh Judge during this visit sent home
for a certificate of removal to some meeting within
the limits of Baltimore Yearly Meeting; but owing
to the disunity and misunderstandings that were
spreading in society, although a certificate was pre-
pared, it was not sent after him. In a letter directed
to him, dated Stillwater, 2d month ISth, 1827, 'le
writer, in relation to the prevailing dissentions in
society, says, "As thou art out of it, it is my opinion
thou hadst better continue where thou can remain
quiet, until things get a little more settled here."
No account is found of the remainder of this visit,
nor of the return of Hugh Judge and his wife to their
residence at Stillwater, in Ohio: but it appears likely
that they set out in the spring, 1827, and reached
home in the summer following, where they were in
the Sth month. His wife, whose health had been for
some time declining, departed this life and finished
her probationary course in the 9th month, 1827. —
She was a woman who was much respected and be-
loved by all who knew her, being religiously con-
cerned for the support of the testimonies of Truth
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in accordance with our profession. In short, her char-
acter may he expressed in a few words, tliat she was
a humhle and experienced christian.
In a letter from a Friend to Hugh Judge, dated
12 mo. 1S27, this testimony is borne to her memory
and worth: " As a shock of corn fully ripe, so we
trust she has been gathered into the garner of ever-
lasting rest and peace. Amidst all thy trials and pri-
vations it must be a consolation to remember this,
and to believe also that our loss is her eternal gain.
Those who most intimately knew her, and had ex-
perienced her worth, will more especially feel a void
not easily to be supplied. In common language we
may say, she was a great woman, — and that she has
left behind her few that were her equals. My spirit
was clothed with much tender solicitude on her ac-
count, when she was last with me, and 1 felt as tho'
I would like to watch over and assist her, as a daugh-
ter, the few remaining days she might remain in this
probationary state."
That she was an excellent wife, mother, neighbour
and friend, many testimonials might yet be given by
survivors. But to her husband, with whom she had
shared the joys and soitows, the trials and vicissitudes
of more than half a century of years, the bereavement
of a sympathising affectionate spouse must have been
keenly felt; more especially as his hearing was much
obstructed and his health and strength declining with
ase and infirmities.
Being thus left as it were alone (for his children
were all married and settled) Hugh Judge again un-
dertook the arduous journey of crossing the moun-
tains, witli some prospect of making his home with
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his children at Deer Creek in ^Maryland, at least for
a season.
On the 16th of the 1st mo. 1828, being on his way
at Brownsville in Pennsylvania, he thus wrote in
reference to the state of society: "What a gloomy
clay we live in! Darkness seems to cover the earth,
and gross darkness the people. Happy are they who
have got beyond it all, out of the reach of the noise
and strife of tongues. I have known the society for
nearly sixty years, and I never knew any thing to
equal it. Where, or in what the storm will end,
there is One only knows. But this is sealed on my
mind, that what is of God will stand, and what is not,
will fall to i)ieees like an old rotten building. The
church of Christ was never built up with blood and
violence. Wherever force and violence were used,
the true church retired into suffering: for Christ is
the prince of peace, not of confusion."
After spending some time in Philadelphia, New-
York, Darby and some other places, he arrived at
Deer Creek in Maryland about the middle of the
11th mouth, much worn down with a heavy cold and
hard travelling. In a letter to his son, residing at
Flushing in Ohio, dated the 25th, he says, " It is in-
teresting to me to understand how things are pass-
ing. I wrote thee from Darby, and expected to meet
a return here, but none has come, neither has my
certificate arrived. It is hardly likely that I shall
see Ohio this winter, without some suitable company
should offer. My age and infirmity, with the cold
blasts of the winter gales, forbid the undertaking. —
Hast thou got thy dear mother's grave made uj) and
sodded? Last night I suffered much pain, but am
better to-day. Elias Hick^ is here; he rgmcnibers
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you all affectionately, and sends his love with mine
to you and other friends."
The following memorandum is found among his
papers, and indicates the tender state of his mind: it
is dated
"Deer Creek, 1st mo. 20th, 1S29. How often are
my heart and eyes filled, not only in the remem-
brance of, but with humble gratitude for, the Lord's
continued care over me! Surely, I can say, his lov-
ing kindness is better than life, and the lifting up of
the light of his countenance, than great riches."
In the spring following, he returned to his son-in-
law, Asahel Thomas's, at Stillwater; and not long
after, as appears from the date, he wrote the follow-
ing, which he calls a statement of facts:
3d mo. 31st, 1829. I have been repeatedly asked
if I knew any thing respecting Job Scott's essay,
called Salvation by Christ; and as its genuineness
has been called in question by some, I think right to
give the following statement of facts concerning it.
I am, perhaps, the only Friend in the slate of Ohio,,
that ever saw it as it came from Job's pen. When I
lived in the city of New York, the meeting for suf-
ferings in New England sent that part of Job Scott's
Journal which is now in use, and the piece above
alluded to, to the meeting for sufferings in New
York for its examination; and I was a member of that
meeting at the time. After giving that attention to.
the business which is usual, the whole was placed
with a large committee, of whicli I was one. The
Journal part was soon examined and returned; the
Essay on Salvation was retained, and the committee
gave close attention to it, examining it very minute-
ly, paragraph by paragraph- It was samei time oa
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hand, and I read it so as to become fully acquainted
with it in every part. After a full, free and open
discussion, there were a considerable number of
Friends of the first standing who wished to have it
printed and given to the public: but there were some
others who held back; not but that we were all fully
united with Job Scott in his views in every part of
the essay: the only difficulty with those who held
back was the language he used in calling man the
mother of Christ.* Yet even in this we believed we
*"It may be thought by many, that Christ is not tlic son of any
but God and the virg-in Mary: but Christ himself positively declares,
he that docth the will of his Father, "the same is iiis brother and
sister and mother.'" Shall we suppose he only meant, that they were
dearly beloved by him, and owned as i/they were his nearest rela-
tions? But vcrilj', he meant as he said: and had he not carefully
confined his words to a strict meaning, he might have culled such his
father too. But in the spiritual sense in which he was speaking, no
man can possibly be his father, but God. It is true tiiat we read of
his father David. In regard to his outward genealogy and descent,
David was his fbrefatlier; but in regard to his [spiritual] birth in
man, none can be Christ's father but God only." " But though,
speaking of the inward, no man can be his father, yet man can and
nmst be his " ?wo///t'r," as well as "sister and brother," if ever he
come to be truly regenerated and born again of the "incorruptible
seed and word of God." This state " invariably takes place in every
soul that becomes the mother of Christ, which every one doth that is
" born again," or is born of God. For this new birth, or birth in
man "of the incorruptible seed of God," is as real a birth as is our
first birth, or birth into this world."
" Hence, every man in whom this (new) birth is brought forth, is
truly the mother of Christ. God alone is ihe father of every such
joint heir with the blessed Jesus; the person in whom he is thus be-
gotten, is his mother; tiie begotten in every such soul is his brother
and sister."
Paul "travailed in birth" with the little children spiritually, that
Christ might he formed in them." Gal. iv. 1!). See Salvation by Christ,
page 509-14, Journal, last edition, 1831, — Eds.
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fully understood him and thought him correct; but
some thought the time was not then come to publish
it, though it might come when it would be right to
have it printed. With this view, it was returned to
Friends in New England.
Since the essay was published in Philadelphia by
Emmor Kimber, a copy has been sent to me; and
on carefully reading it, according to the best of my
recollection, I do not perceive any change made in
any part of it, and believe it is substantially correct
as it came from Job Scott's hand. I may further
add, that when I was in New York last spring, I had
a conference with a few friends yet living who were
on the committee of the meeting for sufferings with
myself, and we were of one mind that the printed
essay on Salvation by Christ, is the same that was
before the committee in manuscript, and that it is
genuine.
4th mo. 21st. My mind has often been clothed,
for months past, with something deeply and hum-
blingly impressive, under a belief tliat some awful
judgments are impending, and that some of those who
occupy the foremost ranks in society will be removed
as stumbling blocks of offence out of the way.
A letter from his friend John Hunt, of Darby, da-
ted 2d of 3d mo. 1S30, says, "I was glad on receiving
a few lines from my worthy friend Hugh Judge, in-
forming of thy safe arrival home to thy friends; but
sorry on account of thy trials and besetments on the
journey. I am fully decided in my judgment, that
no Friend should undertake so long a journey with-
out a suitable conipanion; especially one of thy ad-
vanced age. I was also sorry to hear of thy trials
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and losses after getting home; but rejoiced to hear
that thy mind was supported through and over all."
"I have just now received information of the de-
cease of our mutually beloved, ancient friend Elias
Hicks, who departed this life last seventh-day even-
ino-. I was lately told that just as he had finished a
very excellent letter to thee, he arose from his seat,
and on going across the room the said letter dropped
from his hand on the floor; which some of the family
observing, went to him, but he could not speak. But
though his body received a paralytic stroke, his mind
was alive in the best things, and he departed in peace,
after laying about thirteen days."
" We have passed through a very great shock and
trial in the loss of our precious daughter, Hannah
M'llvaine, after a very short illness. She departed
this life the 11th of 10th month last, in the forty-
fourth year of her age; leaving a very affectionate
husband and nine children; and such a house of
mourning I think I never beheld. The evening be-
fore, she went over to their brother Richard's, and
in a short time was seized with violent pain. Three
doctors were called in who did every thing as they
thought for the best, but no relief could be had. To-
wards morning we were sent for, — and found her
quite sensible; but she departed about ten o'clock,
as easy as if going to sleep."
" Our best wishes are for thy preservation ; as we
are all on the decline of life, and verging towards
the close, according to the course of nature we must
ere long leave the present scene. We often think
of thee; and thy firm faith, with unshaken confidence
in that Divine Arm of power which hath been with
thee from youth to advanced age, bearing thee up,
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supporting and comforting thee through this proba-
tionary state, hath often been encourasing; to our
minds. In love, we remain thy friends,
John and Rachel Hunt."
To this letter, he wrote the following reply:
To John and Rachel Hunt, Darby.
Goshen, near Bariicsvillc, 6th mo. 9th, 1830.
My dear friends, — Your truly acceptable favour
of 3rd mo. 2d came to hand after long delay some-
where. Ah! that great and good man, our mutual
friend and elder brother E. H. is now no more in the
society of men. We are well assured he has closed
in peace. On his account there is no cause to mourn,
but to rejoice; on the church's account we sorrow,
and liave cause to sorrow, but not to murmur. God
forbid. We should have been willing to have him
longer in the field of labour, in this the day of Ja-
cob's troubles and Joseph's fears; but God saw it best
to take him from us, — to take him to himself. Hav-
ing served God in his generation, he has fallen asleep
in the arms and bosom of everlasting love. What a
favour! He is now out of the reach of the illiberal
tongues. Blessed indeed are the dead who die in the
Lord, from henceforth and forever, who are gone to
rest and their works do follow them. How truly
may these scriptures be applied to our worthy friend,
" They that are planted in the house of the Lord,
shall flourish in the courts of our God: they shall yet
bring forth fruit in old age, they shall be fat and
flourishing." <'His bow abode in strength, and the
arms of his hands were made strong in the Lamb's
warfare by the mighty God of Jacob; from thence is
the shepherd, the stone of Israel. The archers shot
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at him, and sorely grieved him;" but his abiding and
abode was in the life and power of the eternal Word,
which kept him over and above them all. And it is
in a measure of the same life, light and power in
which he moved and acted, that we enjoy him, and
in which he is present. Although the body be dead,
and the curtain dropt between us, yet he has, as it
were, only just stepped into an adjacent room. Many
sons have done valiantly in the present day, but he
has (as it were) stood at the head in the great and
good, and glorious cause. His trumpet gave a clear
and certain sound; he filled his post with dignity and
honour; he is numbered with the Lord's worthies,
and his name is enrolled in the Lamb's book of life.
He was pleasant and cheerful, but not light; solid
and grave, but not gloomy. He had regard to the
holy Master's direction, not to appear unto men as
those that mourn, but to wash and anoint. He had
learned and knew how to wear his best garments
frugally and sparingl}-, and to keep the sackcloth
underneath, out of sight. Let us endeavour in our
measures to follow him as we have every reason to
believe he followed Christ. And Oh! may the spirit
that rested upon him, descend upon the Elisha's. —
He will live in the minds and affections of hundreds,,
to whom he has been a blessing in the hand of God.
How sweetly have I known him to sing to that Rock
that followed Israel, which Rock was Christ, the wis-
dom and power of God! When I have known him
to be clothed with zeal as with a cloak, when we
have been in service together from home, how hath
all the living powers of my inmost soul been bowed
in adoration, worship, obedience and praise to that
Power which raised, him up, and committed unto him
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a dispensation of the gospel to preach. Let us then,
my dear friends, endeavour to finish our course, as
we have every reason to believe beyond all doubt,
he has, in well-doing, — that we may meet the bless-
ed welcome of "Well done, good and faithful ser-
vants." May the eternal God be our refuge, that
we may know the everlasting arm to he underneath.
Let us be strong in the Lord and in the power of
his might, for he it is that shall tread down our ene-
mies.
I shared with you in the close trial of your dear
daughter's sudden removal; — a spear which must
have gone deep into your reins. No marvel that it
was a house of deep mourning, and that the neigh-
bourhood felt it. My feeling with and for her bo-
som consort, has been of a very tender nature. A
double portion of care and charge now falls upon him
for those tender motherless children. Greet him in
my name and say, the Lord giveth and taketh away;
blessed be his name forever. My love is to the chil-
dren; their loss is great, may they be sensible of it,
and do nothing now she is gone, that they know
would grieve her if she was with them; and may they
do all they can to help and comfort their dear father.
It is jiiven me to believe that there is no cause to
mourn on dear Hannah's account: she is taken away
from the evil to come; not in anger nor displeasure,
but in mercy; and Oh! that it may be sanctified to
her family, — to her brothers and sisters. The Lord
uttereth his voice many ways in love and mercy, for
his very name and nature is Love. In a very par-
ticular and especial manner, let me say to dear Nao-
mi whose soul has been humbled within her, That
no time is better to give up, than when the humi)ling
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hand of God's power is felt,— and that the Lord de-
lighteth in a cheerful giver. Give my love to her,
her husband and children.
We see, my dear friends, how soon a shade comes
overall pleasant things here, — all for some wise pur-
pose: but you know the Rock that is sure and stead-
fast, wherein to trust; so that with David you can
say, "Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me."—
When it is well with you, think of me; — when the
sceptre is held out, and you are favoured to step into
the King's courts, beg for me, for I need your pray-
ers. I live on my own farm alone, and go but little
from home. There is great safety to the mind in
being alone, and sometimes I can say, never less alone
than when alone. In near and dear affection, I bid
you farewell. Hugh Judge.
In the spring, 1831, Hugh Judge again crossed the
mountains in order to attend the Yearly Meetings of
Philadelphia and New York. In a letter written
at Darby, 25th of 4th month, he says, " I am far from
being well: the heavy cold I took on my laborious
journey, the season of the year, with the badness of
the roads after we left the turnpike and the carriage
at the foot of the Alleghany mountain, — was almost
too much for the old man. A very racking cough
took place, which kept my throat and breast exceed-
ing sore, and brought on some fever. I left the city
a few days past; the Yearly Meeting was large, and
closed on sixth-day evening. The business was con-
ducted in a comfortable feeling of harmony and bro-
therly condescension: but I thought the waters of
the sanctuary did not rise very high. I had nothing
to do in the line of the ministry; my small service
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lay in the meetings for business and the select meet-
ings. I have appointed no meetings since I have
been out. In a few days, I think of setting out for
New York."
After attending New York Ydarly Meeting, Hugh
Judge went back to Philadelphia and passed the sum-
mer and autumn among his friends in Pennsylvania
and Maryland. He returned to Ohio early in the
year lS32,and attended the Yearly Meeting at Mount
Pleasant in the Sth month following, of which he
kept this account: "On seventh-day, at the tenth
hour, our Yearly select meeting opened, and a favour-
ed time it was. 26th, being first-day, I attended the
meeting at Mount Pleasant, and it was very large,
but an exercising time, — being so long in gathering,
with such a continual going out and in. Some of the
Servants stood forth in public testimony, but it seem-
ed almost like beating the air — the afternoon meet-
ing not much better. Second-day, at ten o'clock, the
Yearly Meeting for business opened, and a good
time it was. A large number of Friends came to-
gether,with a promising appearance of hopeful youth,
and we were favoured to move on through the sev-
eral sittings in brotherly love and harmony. The
meeting for worship on fifth-day was also a good
season; it was large and remarkably still and quiet.
I was silent in the meetings for worship, my service
lay much in the meetings of business."
In the 11th month, I attended the Quarterly
meeting atWaynesville, which was large, being com-
posed of eight monthly meetings; but it was a com-
fortable season. On first-day, I was at two meetings
at Springborough, that in the afternoon for the chil-
dren and youth was large, and a favoured opportu-
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nity. Next day I returned to Indiana, and on the
20th of 11th mo. was at Goshen meeting the third
time. It was their preparative meeting, but was very
small, only about seven of each sex present. Alas!
when will this stumbling-block of slackness in at-
tending meetings in the middle of the week be re-
moved out of the way? When the Lord shall roar
out of Zion, and utter his voice from his holy moun-
tain, the sinners in Zion shall be afraid, fearfulness
will surprise the hypocrites.
23d being first-day, I was at two meetings at Rich-
mond; the afternoon meeting being for the people
of colour, was a good time, in which considerable
tenderness appeared amongst them.
12th mo. 1st. The Quarterly meeting of business
began, at Richmond. This Quarter is composed of
two monthly meetings only, Whitewater and Mil-
ford, and there was little business before them, except
the Extracts and epistles from the Yearly Meeting.
The select meeting was held the day before, and was
small, a number of the members being absent. On
the 6th, I attended the Ridge meeting, and was well
satisfied in sitting with them in silence, as I have
also been in passing their late Quarterly meeting in
silence as relates to the ministry.
14th. I attended the Quarterly select meeting at
Westfield, — a small meeting, but it was a refreshing
time to Friends, and we were comforted together.
The Quarterly meeting for business next day was an
excellent, favoured season, as was also the first-day
meeting at the same place. These meetings will not
be very soon forgotten by some who were there. —
On third-day, the 18th, I had a meeting held at one
Hancock's, and next day attended the week-day
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meeting at Elk. I was well satisfied in being at the
two last places, though I thought it seemed like ta-
king a final leave of Friends there.
Of the long and severe illness which Hugh Judge
suffered during the latter end of the year 1833, and
beginning of '34, the only notice we find is contained
in a letter to his friends, John and Rachel Hunt, of
Darby; from which the following is extracted, dated
near St. Clairsville, Ohio, 24th of 1st mo. 1834.
"My dear friends, — You have been so fresh in my
thoughts, that I have taken the pen in hand to say
so, though I can write but a few words at a time, —
the weakness is such in my right hand. You are
amongst those I have long known and loved. Friend-
ship, founded in the Truth, as David's and Jonathan's
was, is firm, — the same in cloud}^ weather as in open
sunshine. I have been going, in thoughts, from house
to house amongst your children. The Lord has bless-
ed )^ou and yours, and it humbles your souls. God
is love; and they that dwell in love dwell in him:
and it is their dwelling in him, the true Light, that
keeps them fresh and green; in which state, there is
a bringing forth acceptable fruits.
I wish to hear from you, as I never expect to see
you. You have heard, it is likely, of my long ill-
ness: for days and nights together, all but gone; and
I wanted to go. 1 told those about me that this was
not my home, — I had been a long journey, and that
this was not my home, — I wanted to go home. In
this I did not sin, nor displease my God, in my
anxiety for the soul to be with the redeemed. But
the Judge of all the earth knew better than I, that
here was something yet for me to do. 1 was so far
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gone, that it took two or three to lift me in and out
of bed; and what little I took, they fed me as I lay;
for I could not put my hand to my mouth. But at
length I began to mend; and am gaining so that I
get to meeting sometimes, — though the doctor for-
bids my going out till warm weather. I have an ex-
cellent home at L. P.'s, two miles west of St. Clairs-
ville, — a retired room, — fire night and day in it, and
one of the sons lodges in it on a trundle bed with-
in call. The Lord be thanked. He has done great
things for me; — the God of my youth, — of my mid-
dle age, — and now of my declining years; being now
in my eighty-fifth year. Praise his name forever:
his mercies arc new every morning, and his com-
passions fail not.
My love reaches to the children of God every
where, who are "born again, not of corruptible seed,
but of incorruptible, by the word of God which liv-
eth and abideth forever." God does not change; he
cannot change; his Truth does not change. My dear
love is to all that love the Lord Jesus Christ. Say
to Friends, "Keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond
of peace." Friends every where dwelling together
in the love of God, they will make a great conquest
over their opposers.
When it is well with you, think of me, and let me
have your pravers that I may hold out to the end.
As way opens therefor, you may let some of my
friends know how I am, and have been; — as much
like one risen from the dead as any I have known.
Keep to God's holy teachings. Blessed are the peace-
makers; for they are the children of God; — not the
peace-breakers.
It would be a feast to my eyes to see you; a more
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luxurious feast than the banquet of wine that Esther
made for the king. Dear hearts, — we shed showers
of tears; — at times, of sorrow and of heart-humbling
distress; — and sometimes, showers of tears of hum-
bling. joy and gladness in the Lord our God, who
has kept us to this da}^, through the great variety of
trials and conflicts which we have passed. Glory,
glory to his most holy name, and that forevermore.
Farewell. H. J.
St. Clairsville, the 15th of the 4th month, 1834. I
am yet continued here, and am on the gaining hand,
as to bodily strength; — am moving about from one
place to another, attending meetings and visiting
some Friends in their families, who are confined at
home through infirmity, and never likely to get out
again. In some of these visits, we have been com-
forted together in the sweet fellowship of the gospel
spirit of love; and more especially as they had not
expected to see me again. Indeed, I am a wonder to
myself, that I can go about, — a miracle, that I have
been raised up, when so short a time past I could not
put one foot before the other. I have not yet ven-
tured on horseback, neither is it likely I shall soon,
if ever; but I have the use of my right hand, and I
wish to be thankful for this and every other bless-
ing. I am better than I ever expected to be, but I
am still weak and feeble.
Oh! how forcible are right words! I think Solo-
mon says that words fitly spoken are like apples of
gold in pictures or baskets of silver. What a bless-
ing is the precious gift bestowed on us, of sympathy
and fellow-feeling for and with one another! There
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is a union of souls, in which the life reaches to the
life; and in this life, the true light, the greenness and
freshness is known. I am very desirous that Friends
every where may love^ne another, keeping the uni-
ty of the spirit in the bond of peace; they will then
make a great conquest over their enemies. Oh! what
a precious thing it is for brethren to dwell together
in the true unity!
17th. Next week, I expect to leave home and
spend some time in the neighbourhood of Short
Creek. My friends will have to help me from place
to place; for I have no horse nor carriage of my
own. When I was so low, I never expected to ride
any more, and so parted with both the creature and
the gig, and rather at a low rate in order to raise
some money to pay the doctor's and nurse's bills,
which were very high. But my soul has much cause
to bow in reverence to that God who has done great
things for me, a poor creature. It is his own arm
that has brought salvation to my soul in the day of
trouble. Oh! let me praise his holy name forever, for
he has covered my head in the day of many battles.
It was he that took me by the hand when I was a
poor lad; he led me about and instructed me; he
kept me as the apple of his eye. Therefore will I
mention the loving kindness of the Lord, and the
praises of my God.
In closing the memoirs and journal of the life of
Hugh Judge as collected from his papers in the fore-
going pages, the testimony of a friend well acquaint-
ed with him from early life may be added; which
states that " he was industriously engaged as a trav-
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eller in the line of the ministry, and on other reli-
gious services, from his marriage to the death of his
wife, notwithstanding the many difficulties, perplex-
ities and infirmities that he was subject to." Also,
after her decease, he was frequently from home on
Truth's account, and on social and friendly visits, as
appears by the preceding brief memorandums; but
he seems to have very much declined keeping a
journal, for several of the latter years of his life;
or^if he penned such accounts, they have been lost
or mislaid in his various removals from place to
place.
In the latter end of the Sth month, 1S34, he at-
tended most of the sittings of the Yearly Meeting
held at Mount Pleasant, Ohio, and appeared to take
a lively interest in the concerns and welfare of so-
ciet}^. The very large promiscuous gatherings of
people who assemble on first-day at Mount Plea-
sant, at the commencement of the Yearly Meeting
continued to be an exercise to his mind, on account
of the irregularity and unsettlement apparent on
these occasions; and also the holding of a public
meetins: about the middle of the week of the Year-
ly Meeting, he expressed his dissatisfaction with.
His remarks on these subjects appeared worthy of
consideration.
After the meeting, he prepared for a journey east-
ward over the mountains, and went on to Redstone
or Brownsville where he attended meeting; also an
afternoon meeting appointed by a friend, and appear-
ed well satisfied therewith. No person having ofler-
ed as a companion for him from Ohio, and his friends
being concerned about his going such a long journey
alone, a young man of that neighbourhood agreed to
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accompany him as far as Winchester in Virginia. On
this occasion Hugh Judge manifested his confidence
in the care of an overruling Providence, and his will-
ingness to travel alone, saying that if he died on the
road, heaven was as near at one place as another.
Of this journey, the friend above alluded to re-
marks, that Hugh Judge " having a desire to pay
another visit to some of his particular friends in
Maryland and Pennsylvania, tho' his bodily sj^stem
appeared to be nearly worn out and exhausted, he
accordingly set out for that purpose and crossed the
mountains, not having any regular companion until
he reached Baltimore, where he remained some time.
During his stay in that city, it appeared probable that
he would close his earthly pilgrimage there, from
his general debilit}^ of body: but, on recovering a
little, he proceeded on his journey to Deer Creek
and Nottingham; and after attending the Quarterly
meeting at the latter place in the 11th month, he
went on to John Kendall's, near Kennet Square, in
Chester county, where he expected to remain for
some time.^'
On fifth-day, the ISth of the 12th month, he at-
tended the meeting at Kennet Square, and appeared
in testimony among them in a lively manner. On
the day following, he remained at his lodgings and
rested; where he wrote the following note, as the
last act of his pen, to which he subscribed his name:
" 12th mo. 19th. 1834. Had poor rest some part
of last night, and hard cough. After dinner, I lay
down and fell asleep, — and awoke with these ex-
pressions: ' This land is stained with blood, for
which it will be visited.' Hugh Judge."
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On seventh-day, the 20th, he went into the village
of Kennet Square on some business, and as he re-
turned, called to see Martha Lamborn, an old ac-
quaintance and particular friend. With her he was
very open and cheerful in conversation, mentioning
several circumstances of ancient date, of which they
both had recollection: among other things he re-
marked that his name was signed on three marriage
certificates of her brother Joseph Townsend. On ta-
king his leave of her, he intimated that he would
call again. After returning to John Kendall's, he
eat his supper and went to bed as usual; but about
three o'clock in the night, he made some little noise
or stir, so as to waken the young man who lodged
in the same room with him. The family were col-
lected as soon as possible; but before they reached
his bed-side, the vital, spark had fled, and a lifeless
corpse remained.
Thus closed the life of Hugh Judge, on the 21st
of the 12th month, 183 1, and on the 23rd his re-
mains were interred in Friends' burying ground at
Kennet Square; being about the eightj'-fifth year
of his age, and having been a minister upwards of
sixty-two years.
One of Hugh Judge's daughters, in speaking of her
parents, says, " I have few reminiscences of my be-
loved parents suitable for historical record. That
they laboured, suiTered, wept and died, as man has
ever done, is the amount of what may be said of our
poor perishing race. However, something more is
due to their memory.
They were eminently endowed with minds supe-
rior to many; and this superiority was disciplined
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and sanctified by the hallowing influence of the gos-
pel. Perhaps few men have possessed in a greater
degree the principles of christian philanthropy, than
my father. His charity was of an active and efficient
character, — seeking out and relieving (when in cir-
cumstances to do it) the bodily wants, and adminis-
tering to the spiritual conditions of the poor and af-
flicted. And if unable of his own store to administer
to their outward necessities, he applied with ardour
to those who were better provided with the good
things of this life, endeavouring to enlist them ac-
tively in the cause of suffering humanity.
My father was a christian that read the bible with
deep attention; — he also read the scriptures to his
children and family, and impressed on their minds
a reverence for the sacred truths therein contained.
He likewise endeavoured to lead us in the way we
should go; occasionally assembling us together for
religious instruction, which was of incalculable im-
portance to us. From one of these family meetings I
date my first remembered serious impressions, when
my beloved father bowed in solemn prayer before
the throne of God, and supplicated for the tender
mercies of the everlasting Jehovah on behalf of his
family and children. Then was my youthful heart
touched by the finger of Divine love, and the im-
pressions then made have never been effaced.
Oh! that the society of Friends, as a people, would
make a more decisive stand in support of Truth's
testimony with regard to family worship. How
many of their children might have been snatched as
brands from the burning, if they had been accustom-
ed from early life to hear their parents read, and,' as
divinely qualified, expound the scriptures of truth tg
370 JOURNAL OF HUGH JUDGE.
their tender minds! Had they also beheld the glo-
rious truths therein contained exemplified in the pri-
vate walks and daily conversation of their parents,
what a numerous company of christian reformers
might have been raised up to promulgate the great
principles of Truth and righteousness in the earth!
The last visit my dear father paid me was mark-
ed by the following incident. My mind was at that
time labouring under deep, dark, and gloomy fore-
bodings: spiritually, the heavens above were as brass,
the earth beneath, as iron, and to me there appeared
no way of escape. I had not communed with him,
nor any other human being, in relation to my state
of mind; but on taking leave of me, when his aged
arms for the last time enfolded his almost despairing
daughter, his language was thus: "My daughter, the
blessing of the Lord is upon thee. He will forgive
all thy backslidings, and love thee freely. The light
of his countenance v/ill shine upon thee, and thou
shalt yet be able to proclaim of his mere}'" and good-
ness to others." But I then thought, surely this is
impossible. Yet I have since learned, that what man
considers impracticable, God, in the vast resources
of his own mighty power, can accomplish; and he
has accomplished, and will continue to carry on to
perfection that which his own right hand has plan-
ned, until it shall have attained to the full stature of
a man in Christ.
APPENDIX.
A BRIEF MEMOIR
Of Susanna Judge, ivife of Hugh Judge.
She was the daughter of Jesse and Susanna Hat-
ton, and from the best accounts obtained, was born
in Ireland in or about the year 1753. Her parents
were in low circninstances in the world, yet her
mother was frequently from home, travelling in the
service of Truth, being a minister of good standing
in society. In the year 1759, her fatlier died; and
in the year following, her mother crossed the atlan-
tic on a religious visit to Friends in America, in
which she was erigaged about two years, and then
returned to her nativp land. The recital of these
circumstances ma}'' lead some tender feeling mind to
sympathise with orphan children, and especially fe-
males who are thus deprived of a mother's care. In
a better state af society than the present, when or-
phan children will be more particularly cared for,
the place of parents may be more fully supplied.
In the year 1763, her mother was married to
Thomas Lightfoot, of Uwchlan, Chester county. He
took a voyage to Ireland for that purpose; and in the
following year brought his wife, her daughter Susan-
na and several of her sons, to this country, and set-
tled with them at his farm in Uwchlan. Here, under
the care of her excellent mother, Susanna appears to
have been educated in the plain style of Friends, and
accustomed to habits of industry, in all the branches
of housewifery on a farm.
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She was married to Hugh Judge in the 9th mo.
1776, and appears to have been a faithful companion
to him, especially in the domestic department of a
married life. Of her it may be said, "she looked
well to the ways of her household and eat not the
bread of idleness: her children also rose up and call-
ed her blessed."
Her husband being much from home, in the work
of the ministry and the service of society, a great
weight of care and responsibility rested on her in
his absence. Her prudence and circumspection,
however, in the management of their affairs, was a
great blessing. Of the state of her mind, on some of
these occasions, she wrote as follows: "7th month,
19th, 1784. I often think I have more to war with
than others, and am ready to cry out, my weakness
is so great. I seem stripped and divested of every
good faculty, and I dare not write of that which I
have not feelingly experienced to be the Truth.
1st month, 12th, 1785. This day was our month-
ly meeting, which was a proving season to me; in-
somuch that I was ready to say in the depth of my
anxiety and distress. Open unto me thy judgments,
Lord; and let not thine hand spare, nor thine eye
pity, until I am made what thou wilt have me to be.
Oh! that I could walk softly before him all the days
of my appointed time, and even lay my mouth in
the dust, keeping silence before him: yctd i^joice
at the prosperity of Truth in the hearts of others."
To lier husl)and while on a religious visit in the
southern States, she wrote thus:
I desire that thou may grow, stronger and strong-
er in Christ, thy holy head and liigh priest, who has
indeed wrought wonders for thee, in leading thee
MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE. 373
out of the house of bondage from under the cruel
taskmaster, and has put a new song in thy mouth, as
on the banks of deliverance. As I believe thou hast
set out with full dedication of heart to do whatever
thy hand shall find to do, so I wish thou may be en-
couraged faithfully to discharge thy duty: and do
not hurry overmuch, so as to injure thy health, or
mar the work through an over anxiousness to get
home. I get along much better than I expected; in-
deed I often fear I live too easy, and that 1 am not
enough sensible of the many hardships to which thou
and other dear servants are exposed.
The 14th day of the 3rd month, 1790. Under a
feeling of my own insufficiency and weakness, the
choice which Solomon made when God appeared to
him at Gibeon, has been brought to my view, with
some degree of life and encouragement. He request-
ed not long life, nor riches nor honour, but he asked
for a wise and understanding heart to go out and
come in before the people. And surely I have great
need earnestly to make the same request. The dif-
ferent dispositions I have to do with require a stea-
dy watch and uniform conduct, of which I am not
capable, without Divine assistance.
4th mo. 29th. My barren state of mind seems al-
most like the heath in the desert that knoweth not
when good cometh. I am traversing a long and drea-
ry wilderness, through repeated disobedience and re-
voltings; and yet through all I do feel a love to the
cause of Truth, with sincere desires for the prosper-
ity thereof.
On the 1st of the 5th month, my dear step-mother
Rachel Lightfoot departed this life. Several times
the day before, she expressed a desire to be released,
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and said it would be to her a joyful change. After
the funeral, 1 returned home to Brandywlne, and
found the neighbourhood in mourning on account of
the sudden removal of our beloved friend Joseph
West. He departed on sixth-day evening, in great
tranquillit)'^ of mind, and assurance of a happy admit-
tance where the wicked cease from troubling and
the weary soul finds rest. He was ill about a week,
his disorder being very severe; yet he was perfectly
sensible to the last. After taking leave of his wife
and giving her his last advice, he said he had now
done with her and all the world. His corpse was
carried into the meeting house on first-day after-
noon, and a large and solemn meeting held, in which
Daniel Offley appeared in testimony, beginning with
the words of the prophet, " The righteous perisheth,
and no man layeth it to heart." A short notice of
his deatli ajjpeared in one of the public papers which
says, " The body was then conveyed to the Friends*
burial ground, attended by a numerous concourse of
sorrowing friends, and there committed to the silent
grave. By this event, his wife is plunged in sorrow,
and the congregation of which he was an honourable
and exemplary member, is left as a flock without a
shepherd, and christians of all denominations join in
the general mourning. If the prayers of his friends,
the most unremitted attention of his j^hysicians, and
the wishes of all who knew him, could have length-
ened his life, he would have still lived; — but they
availed not."
Soon after this afflictive event, I received a letter
from my dear husband who was travelling on a re-
ligious visit in New England, in which he says, "My
soul is in deep mourning, but not on dear Joseph
MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE. 375
West's account; no — all is well with him, I am as-
sured. But Oh! the church's great loss; and thou,
O Wilmington, in particular — one of thy bright stars
is taken away, — a pillar tiiat stood many a storm.
Mine eyes have often shed tears when I have looked
over thee, — and now in a very plentiful manner.
Oh! that this unexpected stroke may have an hum-
bling, and an awakening reach upon those that are
behindhand with their day's work. In this case,
there is no cause to mourn for the dead, — but for
the living. It seems as if the everlasting Father
was taking the work into his own hands, to bring
down high looks and lofty spirits, for the sound of
mortality is heard in many places; — may the living
lay it to heart."
In the 6th mo. she thus wrote to her husband who
was still on a religious visit in New England: "Two
days ago, I received thine; and when I read of the
great danger thou wast in on the water, tears of
lliankfulness flowed from my eyes, and I felt grati-
tude to the great Preserver of men, who often sees
meet to try his chosen servants, even as it were to a
hairs-breadth, and in many ways, both inwardly and
outwardly. I feel near sympathy with thee in thy
deep wading and many exercises, meted out to thee
in infinite wisdom. I have no doubt, that thou hast
often to drink of the wormwood and the gall; — but
canst thou ask or expect any other? Has it not been
the experience of the faithful in all ages? The ser-
vant is not greater than his Master. I earnestly
wish for thy encouragement, and that thou mayst
witness the angel of the Divine presence to encamp
round about thy dwelling, — enabling thee to press
through all opposition, so that thou mayst indeecj
376 MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
know a treading on scorpions, and over all the pow-
er of the enemy, and that finally thou may have to
rejoice that thy name is written in the Lamb's book
of life.''
The following instructive and sympathizing letter
from Job Scott, claims a place in these Memoirs.
Portsmouth on Rhode Island, 11th of 8th mo. 1790.
Dear friend, Susanna Judge, — I left home yester-
day and came on this island last evening, to attend
our Quarterly meeting: the select meeting begins
to-day. I left my family and am myself about as
well as usual (of late.) I expect thy dear husband is
somewhere on the island — he has been several times
at our meeting at Providence, and I have been with
him at divers other meetings, besides our last Year-
ly Meeting. I believe he has had his health on the
whole very well since he left thee. He has been
several times at my house, with his choice compa-
nion James Mott, from New York government, a
friend I deai-ly love and highly pAze. They seem
to me to travel in true harmony, both wishing and
aiming at the good of the great good cause. I have
often felt at least a little for thee in his absence; and
have much desired thou may be wholly (not in part
only, but wholly) resigned to thy present allotment:
all must and will work together for good to thy soul,
if rightly improved. Thou art in a ncigliljourhood,
I believe, of kind friends, which is no small comfort
under such circumstances as thine. Trust thou in
God, and he will uphold thee; — strive to nurture thy
dear babes in the fear and admonition of the Lord,
and he will bless thee, and help thee to guide and
guard thy household: the weight of jt may be hear
MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE. 377
vy on thee, — but pressure, if rightly borne, bows us
to the Root, whence all our help arises. Tlie Root
bears lis, not loe it, — and if we are not bowed to it,
we know sensibly but little of its supporting influ-
ence.
Here is the great failure in all christian societies,
and too much so in almost all individuals of all so-
cieties: they begin, many of them, in some degree
more or less, in the spirit; but not keeping close
enough to it, nor singly dependant on its aid, they
are attempting (an impossibility) to be made perfect
by the flesh; that is, by creaturely activity, out of the
life, or at best in the mixture. Oh! how this mars
the work and dims^the lustre, even of some that are
in a good degree truly the Lord's anointed. May
we, as a people known of him, and having known
him and been instructed by him above all the fami-
lies of the earth, ever lie low before him and be no-
thing without him; yet ready and willing to follow
and obey him, and that in all things and wherever
he leadeth. Indeed, tho' I have quite unexpectedly
written as I have on the great loss sustained by not
bowing to tlie Root, and knowing ourselves wholly
borne by it, my fears have been more that thou
would err and suffer loss by an unwillingness to fol-
low the Captain of our salvation fully, than that thou
would be over active in religious performances any
way. Some err on the right hand, some on the left,
and some on both. Some are now too slow; anon
they are too fast; and perhaps rarely find the holy
safe medium; or, however, do not steadily abide in
it. Oh! the want of patience in waiting to know, and
therein steadily going through from the beginning
to the end of our exercise and duty! My poor soul
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378 MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
knows something of it, and has, through wounds and
pangs and perils, been made earnestly to groan for
deliverance from my own will, my own choice, my
own activit}'-, my own backwardness, my own incli-
nation to hold the helm, in any respect, or in any
degree. But, alas! shall I ever attain to, so as to
abide in this holy habitation? Surely, 1 shall be hew-
ed and hammered, turned and overturned, and dis-
tressed all the days of my life, unless I do attain it;
for m}' God will not give solid settlement to my
soul without it. I have seen it, — I have seen it, — I
have clearly discerned the beauty and preciousness
of it — may I never sit down short of it, and may all
the many thousands of Israel more and more labour
after it.
But why should I say all this to thee? I thought
to have told thee a little of thy dear husband's get-
ting along; and lo! my pen has been directed in an-
other line, and I alwaj's find it safest to yield to in-
ward direction, when pretty well assured it is of the
right kind. Here now is a place where we often
Btumljle: we too often cither take something for Di-
vine opening and direction which is not so, and too
eagerly and readily catch at it, — or too long stand
doubting, withholding, turning the fleece, and ask-
ing greater assurance than we ought to look for. Be
thou, dear Susanna, aware of the latter extreme. Had
thy dear mother stood, and continued thus looking
for a removal of every doubt, difiidcnce and difficul-
ty, I believe she had never been the instrument of
good to so many thousands, as she has been; and yet
I think few have been more careful not to move
without Divine direction than she was. May this
part of her example too, be duly followed. But there
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is a sale and precious medium, — let us labour to
learn it, love it, and ever live and act in it.
If thou art a widow longer than thou at first ex-
pected to be, may thou remember, thou art never
quite right, but when thou canst say from the heart,
"Thy will be done;" and this must be in all things.
Though I hope my dear friend Hugh will be favour-
ed to find, and attend to the right time of returning
to thee, I would by no means encourage long visits
where short ones will answer the end, and afford
peace of mind; nor yet would I have any make more
haste than good speed. Oh! iho jjreclous 7nedium!
I believe thou may rest assured, thy husband is tru-
ly desirous of being more and more acquainted with
it, and of keeping more and more steadily in it; and
if he is enough singly and attentively reliant upon
that whereby alone he can truly learn it, I trust this
journey will be attended with improvement to him-
self, as well as to some others.
Such as travel abroad and are sometimes a good
deal favoured, often hear things through the weak-
ness of others, which tend to build up that which
our gracious Shepherd has for many years, through
various deep probations, been turning his hand upon
us to bring down and destroy in us. This requires
o-reat watchfulness and abasement in such as hear
such things. Oh! are any of us sufficiently humbled?
1 often fear I am not; and sometimes that I never
shall be. I have thought if Friends where I have
travelled, had been as ready to speak freely to me
of misses as of my hits, it might have tended to
make me hit oftener, and saved themselves from
some misses. But let men say or do whatever they
may, our God, if we attend closely, will humble us, —
3S0 MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
will keep and preserve us. This has been the tra-
vail in degree of my soul, when abroad on Truth's
errand; and this I am persuaded firmly is in degree
the travail of th}'*dear husband. May he see of the
travail of hTs soul and be satisfied: may he learn by
the things that from day to day, and from trial to
trial, he suflfereth: and mayst thou be favoured to
give him up with such cheerfulness as that thou may
receive him again in the right time, with fulness of
true joyfulness. He don't travel through our land
without his conflicts. He is led in a very close line,
and there is cause enough for it: but it requires great
care, caution, patience, charity, and attention, — pure
and deep attention to the Divine gift and opening,
to get safely along in such a line. My soul has wor-
ship])ed in deep prostration before the Lord, and been
engaged in solemn intercession that he may be kept
and directed in safety and usefulness in all his step-
ings, — preserved from all that would in any wise
mar or obscure, or hurt his service. When he keeps
down to tlic precious life, and steps along in a low
place, I feel deep and endeared unity with him and
with the gift bestowed on him; and perhaps as much
so when he feels in himself as if he makes little out,
as at any time. Oh! I love the lowly, humble, care-
ful traveller. I love to travail with him here in that
which is within the vail, — which the vulture's eye
sees not. And here I sometimes see excellency,
where many see nothing but a visage marred, de-
formed, and uncomely in their view. Here I have
sometimes deep fellowship in suficring; and on the
contrary, I sometimes can feel or find but little to
own or rejoice in, in the labours of some, even when
there is loud acclamations of applause from the mul-
MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE. 3S1
titude of Friends and others. However, I would not
too far prefer my own sense of things, — my feelings
are as they are, — and I wish lo learn more nothing-
ness. This is a lesson I am but learning; and this
I believe thy beloved has in degree learned, and is
wishing to learn. I think I know he is; and hope all
the powers of darkness and seduction may be utter-
ly unable to draw him from it, or stop his progress
in it. I should have been glad to have been more
with him, but believe he takes the will for the deed;
and as I trust he mostly finds kind friends in his tra-
vels, I have been easier in being prevented going
more with him, than I otherwise should have been.
I this minute hear that he got on this island last
evening. Benjamin Swett is also on; he crossed the
ferry in the boat with me and several other Friends
last evening. Joshua Brown, I hear, is gone east-
ward, as is I suppose Elizabeth Drinker.
FrieiyJ.s arc gCucrally well, after a very general
il.lnesg, My fam.lly I left all about,— .my dear wiia
feeble all summer after the meazles, which she had
with considerable violence soon after I returned
home. We were nearly all sick together; but let us
rejoice in tribulation, inward and outward, and press
forward through all to the mark, — the prize of the
high calling. My love is dearly to many dear friends
amono- you. I need not name them; but do tell thy
dear children I love them, and much wish them to
be good children; obey their mother, love one an-
other, and serve their Creator now in the days of
their youth. And now, having thus far unexpected-
ly, if not too far, enlarged, I bid thee, with the salu-
tation of endeared and affectionate good will, fare-
vvell — and rest thy friend, Job Scott.
3S2 MEMOIR OP SUSANNA JUDGE.
Sth mo. 12th. In our religious meetings, we often
sit in silence from week to week, except when a
stranger drops in, which is very seldom. I often think
of what has been in time past sounded in our ears,
that there would be a famine of hearing the Word
in this place. That we may improve under this dis-
pensation, is my serious wish and desire.
Again in the 9th month, she gave this excellent
advice in a letter to her husband, still absent in New
England: " Mayst thou witness a perfect victory
over every weakness and infirmity of flesh and spi-
rit, growing stronger and stronger, from one degree
of grace unto another, until thou attain to the stature
of a perfect man in Christ, and become skilful in di-
viding the word aright. I find by thy letters, that
thou art led in a close line, and I have no doubt there
is cause for it: but, as observed in the preceding
letter, " it requires great care, caution, patience, cha-
rity, attention, — pure and deep attention to the Di-
vine gift and opening, to get safely along in such a
line of service." I fervently desire thy preserva-
tion from every thing that would hurt or obscure
thy service, and that thou may " know thy urim and
thy thummim to be with thy Holy One." And as
thou keeps down to and with the precious gift be-
stowed on thee, there is not a doubt remaining with
me, that thou wilt be preserved in usefulness in all
thy steppings along, to the honour of his great name
who hath marvellously called thee to this work, and
also to thy own solid and substantial peace; and thus
be favoured to return at the right time to our mutual
joy and rejoicing."
nth mo. 14th. As to the state of my mind, I am
still tottering along, though at times almost without
MEMOIR Oi* SUSANNA JUDGE. 383
hope of ever attaining to be even a door-keeper in
the house of the Lord. My spiritual enemies seem
to increase, and so bear me down at times that I have
not strength enough even to groan for deliverance.
But Oh! that I may not faint nor grow weary in
this combat, which I feel to be sore and hard for the
creature to endure. But " why should a living man
complain, — a man for the punishment of his sins?"
This language of the prophet has of late sometimes
saluted mine ear, and tended in some measure to
calm my mind, and raise a hope that I am not utter-
ly cast off and forgotten.
29th, Oh! that I may have an unshaken confi-
dence in that mighty arm of power that has hitherto
helped us and cast up a way where no vvay appear-
ed, even as to the things of this life. May we ever
retain in remembrance his many mercies and favours,
and commemorate the same with hearts filled with
gratitude and love, is my sincere desire. This eve-
ning, my soul is humbly bowed, under a grateful
sense of the many blessings conferred on us by our
gracious Benefactor.
1st month, 22nd, 1791. It continues to be with
me the most .trying time I ever knew. The heavens
seem as brass, and the earth as iron; so that I can
adopt the language of poor Job when in deep afflic-
tion, — " mine eyes are foul with weeping, and on
my eyelids is the shadow of death," All outward
help seems removed; yet a humble hope attends my
mind that I shall be preserved in patience and resig-
nation; — a state which, through adorable goodness,
mercy and loving kindness, I have very much expe-
rienced during the present trying dispensation.
384 MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
At our monthly meeting to day, Zachariah Ferris,
thro' his friend Samuel Canb}^, laid before Friends
a concern to visit the meetings in New Jersey and
some in Chester county. He returned a few weeks
ago from his southern journey, and produced satis-
factory accounts of his religious labours in that part
of the vineyard. Since which, on his returning from
White-clay creek, he was overset and got very much
hurt; so that he has not been able to walk since.
But he believes he will be made whole if he is set
at liberty to go to Jersey; his faith indeed appears
to be stronger than that of some of his friends.
5th mo. 4th. I am still floating as on the surface,
in a state of fears and doubtings, and often ^made to
cry out in secret, Who shall deliver me from the
body of this death? Weakness is my portion, yet 1
feel sin to be exceeding sinful: but Oh! the snares,
temptations and discouragements to which I am sub-
ject. Yet I desire to be willing to endure every re-
fitiing operation which the great Refiner may see
necessary for one that hath so much dross remain-
ing. It is nevertheless with reverence of soul that I
can acknowledge, I have not a hard Master to deal
with; for at seasons he is pleased, in his infinite con-
descension, to cause the clouds of doubt and dark-
ness to be dispersed, and a glimpse of hope to arise
for my encouragement. In such seasons I remember
it is said, " He that goeth forth and weepeth, bear-
ing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with
rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him."
Our friend Zachariah Ferris has, according to his
faith, marvellously recovered of his hurt and lame-
ness, so as to walk almost as well as before. He set
out on his journey to the Jerseys about the middle
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of this month, liaving Robert Johnson for a com-
panion.
6th mo, 25th. In the great work of regeneration,
there is a state of suffering before a state of rejoic-
ing; for they that will reign with Christ, must suf-
fer with him; and the servant is not greater than
the Master. Of late I have often thought, that to be
made feelingly sensible of our own insufficiency and
weakness, was a great favour conferred by our all-
wise Creator. This tends to our preservation: for,
however we may at seasons be Divinely illuminated
and favoured with good, yet if we do not maintain
the watch in an humble sense of our own inability
to keep ourselves, our enemy self may get to work,
and wound our peace by marring the good work
that has been begun in us. Oh! that every motion
and action of an independent selfish nature may be
slain in us.
7th mo. 2nd. I am glad to hear that dear Richard
Mott has put his hand to the gospel plough; may he
never look back. There is indeed great need of faith-
ful labourers in this our day, who will not flinch in
the time of trial. May he hold on his way in the
Truth, and experience a growth from stature to sta-
ture, until he shall arrive at a state of manhood in
Christ, and become skilful in dividing the Word
aright.
8th mo. 1st. I feel this language to spring up in
my heart. Thy will, Lord, be done. I can ac-
knowledge that he has done much for me and my
family, and all we can do in return is small indeed;
yet such is his love and condescension, that a free-
will oflering, though it be but a turtle dove or a
young pigeon, is as acceptable to him as larger sa~
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crifices. May we remember this, even when diseoa-
ragements arise and seem to surround us.
Philadelphia, 10th mo. 1st. I have renewed cause
to acknowledge that God is good, and experimental-
ly to know that his mercies fail not; therefore are
the sons of wrestling Jacob not consumed. We have
been favoured, through the several sittings of this
Yearly Meeting, with the continuation of his hea-
venl}^ regard and notice. Notwithstanding the many
deficiencies complained of, and the manifest declen-
sion of our society in general, yet hath he been
pleased, in great love and condescension, to appear
amongst us and make himself known by the break-
ing of bread, to the refreshment of the weary travel-
lers Sion-wards.
Our friend Robert Nesbit, from New England,
has been very acceptably exercised, at least to the
living part of the body of Friends; altho' some who
are looked upon as among the leaders of the people,
could hardly bear his plain dealing. He is greatly
concerned for the support of our christian testimony
to plainness and simplicity; and was much distress-
ed with the appearance of the assistant clerk, which
he observed was not consistent with the station he
filled. He said it was like holding out a precedent
by that Yearly Meeting to encourage libertinism,
while they were remonstrating against it. After he
had relieved his mind, he told Friends he was now
a member of that Meeting and under their care for
the present, and that he stood open to his friends;
but withal told them he felt that which bore him
above the fear of man. Several expressed their un-
easiness with the assistant clerk's appearance; others
thought private labour would have been much bet-
MEMOIR OP SUSANNA JUDGE. 387
ter, (which it is said has not been lacking.) It made
some stir in the Meeting; but our worthy friend
James Thornton wisely settled the matter, without
lessening the weight of Robert's concern and testi-
mony.
In a letter to her son Thomas, dated at Philadel-
phia, 7th month 3rd, 1792, are these expressions of
maternal solicitude for his welfare and preservation.
It was directed to the care of Hugh David, at Rah-
way, where he was placed apprentice. " My dear
son, thou art daily the object of my deep thoughtful-
ness, being anxiously concerned for thy preservation
from every hurtful thing. my dear child, love re-
tirement; — be not anxious to enlarge thy acquaint-
ance, but be contented to stay much at home. Be
faithful in thy master's absence as though he were
present; — be courteous and obliging to all about thee,
and those with whom thou art necessarily in compa-
ny; but beware of too great familiarity with any.
Be much in the company of thy master and mistress
at suitable seasons; and when it is otherwise and
thou art at leisure, seek not other unsuitable compa-
ny, but rather retire alone and amuse thyself with
thy books or pen. Mayst thou keep near to that
which has often melted thee into great tenderness of
spirit, even thy Maker's love. Mayst thou dedi-
cate the flower of thy youth wholly to him: thou
art not too young to make this dedication; — an ear-
ly sacrifice is truly well-pleasing and acceptable to
him. I feel thee near and precious to my life; and
Oh! that thou may ever dwell in his holy fear, who
preserves his humble dependant children out of
every snare and temptation."
By the preceding Journal and Memoirs of her hus-
388 MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
band, it may be remembered that they removed from
Brandywine, to New Rochelle, and thence to New
York city. As Susanna wrote but little, no account
is found of her life and state of mind during this in-
terval, till 1st mo. 31st, 1800, when she thus address-
ed her husband who was from home on a religious
visit to Canada and the northern part of New York
state, " I have hitherto been supported beyond my
expectation; therefore have great cause to be thank-
ful and put my whole trust and confidence in that
almighty Arm of power which hath hitherto helped
me in the needful time. We have been favoivred
with the company of dear Sarah Talbot, of Chester
county, on her return from England. She stayed
about a week, until her husband came to her. She
retains her integrity, sweetness and simplicity, and
is considerably improved in her gift."
" It is cause of humble thankfulness that thou, my
dear, art so supported through heights and depths,
and favoured with health. May thou continue, with
unreserved dedication of heart, to follow the captain
of thy salvation wherever he may be pleased to lead
thee in the clearness: then all will be well, whether
thy stay be longer or shorter. The Lord has indeed
done much for us, — which demands grateful returns
on our parts. This I am fully sensible of; and how-
ever short I may fall of coming up in the full dis-
charge of my own duty, I much wish to encourage
thee in fulfilling thine, and hope when permitted to
return to us, thou may bring no burdens of omission
with thee."
8th mo. 1800. I often tliink of the journey thro'
this life, as being short, at most: and what matter is
it, what we pass through here, — whether the road lie
MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE. 389
strewed with roses or with thorns, — whether pros-
perity or adversity attend us, — provided we are suffi-
ciently concerned to obtain an eternal inheritance
in that city which hath " no need of the sun, neither '
of the moon, to shine in it; for the glory of God
doth lighten it, and the Lamb is the light thereof;"
and where " God shall wipe away all tears from every
eye, and there shall be no more death, neither sor-
row, nor crying, nor pain;" but the redeemed shall
enjoy the full fruition of all their painful labours.
9th mo. 9th. Four persons are reported to have
died lately in this city, under all the dreadful symp-
toms of the yellow fever; yet the physicians flatter
the public that as the season is advanced and the
weather remarkably cool, it will not spread much:
but how far is only known to Him who weigheth
the mountains in scales, and the hills in a balance,
and who will certainly do right. Happy for those
who put their trust and confidence in him alone, the
true Physician of value.
I have lately had account from Ireland, that my
brother Joseph Hatton was removed from works to
rewards on the 10th of the 4th month last. Thus,
one passeth away after another; and happy will it
be for those who make a right improvement of these
awful warnings, — having this language deeply im-
pressed on the mind, " Be ye also ready," for ye
know not at what hour the messenger cometh.
Again, in the year 1803, the yellow fever appear-
ed in New York, in relation to which, Susanna Judge
wrote thus in the 9th mo: "The alarm of the fever
continues to prevail, insomuch that many have fled,
and divers of our neighbours are going to look for
places of refuge: for my part, I see no cause for
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390 3IEM0IR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
such a general consternation, although things begin
to wear a melancholy appearance. However, thro'
it all, my mind remains in perfect quiet, as respects
the sickness, let the event be as it may."
It will be recollected, that they removed from
New York to Little Falls, in Maryland, in the year
1804. While here, Susanna Judge accompanied E.
C. on a religious visit to a number of meetings in
and south of Baltimore. While out on this journey,
S. J. writes, " I sincerely wish she had a more suit-
able companion, one that could hold up her hands,
and help her in the work. Ah! how far short I am
of what I might have been! I feel as if I had much
to do, and the day is far advanced."
It should have been noted in the proper place,
that Susanna Judge was appointed to the station of
an elder in the church, while residing in New York;
and again while a member of Baltimore Yearly Meet-
ing; and it is believed she was usefully engaged in
the services devolving on that office in society, her
judgment and feeling sympathy with relation to the
ministry being remarkably clear and lively.
After their removal to Ohio in the spring of 1S15,
the loss of her services in society was realized in
Baltimore and its neighbourhood; insomuch that a
Friend remarked at the Yearly Meeting held in that
city in the 10th month, that Susanna Judge was very
much missed in that annual gathering, — that her ab-
sence was sensibly felt in the several sittings there-
of, and often expressed out of meetings. This shows
in some degree, her character and standing among
Friends during the few years she was a member of
that Yearly Meeting. Her quiet spirit, and her unas-
suming manners were not calculated to attract much
MEMOIR qP SUSANNA JUDGE. 391
notice; and it is to be regretted that so few testimo-
nials of her worth and services in society, civil and
religious, are now to be found on record for the ben-
efit of survivors.
For some time, their residence was at Barnesville,
in Ohio, whence she dated a letter to her husband
while out on a religious visit to the Yearly Meetings
of Philadelphia, New. York, and New England, in
1816. In this she mentions being engaged with other
Friends in visiting families: and in the 7th month,
adds, "We had a remarkably cold spring here; the
fruit of every description entirely cut off with severe
fi-osts. Orchards that have never been known to fail
before, wholly destitute: and the dry weather, in the
lower parts of the State, has ver}' much hurt the crops
of corn. In some places, the small grain is entirely
destroyed by a worm whicli is called the army-worm.
Being unable to walk to meeting, I have missed at-
tending many, since thou left home. My dwelling,
spiritual!}^, has been in a barren land; where there
seems to be neither dew, nor rain, nor fields of offer-
ings. But may the God of all grace, mercy and truth,
have thee in his holy care and keeping, and richly
furnish thee unto every good work, to the praise of
his own great name, and the peace and consolation
of th}^ own soul, — so prayeth thy affectionate wife,
Susanna Judge."
The following expressions, in reference to their
settlement in Ohio, are from one of her children in
a letter to her, received near the close of the year
1816: "I hope and trust thou art more comfortable
in every ivay, than formerly; and that thy last days
will be thy best days in an outward sense. For thy
mind was always centred in God for comfort and
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consolation in seasons of close trial, else what would
have become of thee many times?"
In the fall of the year 1816, Susanna Judge set out
on a journey to Carolina, as companion to a minister-
ing Friend. The following short account of part of
this visit, is taken from her letters to her husband.
" On the Alleghany mountain, the axle-tree of our
carriage broke; and had not a man who was at work
on the road kindly assisted us, we should have been
in a bad fix, as the people say. We made out to get
it to a smith's shop, where it was mended by next
morning, and we proceeded twenty-four miles to one
Steward's, five miles below the foot of the Allegha-
ny: here the roads parted, one to Winchester, and
the other called the nigh way between the moun-
tains. The latter was preferred, as least expensive,
and a rough way it proved. On the 25th of the 10th
month, we arrived at Westfield, in Stokes county,
North Carolina. Next day, we visited three fami-
lies, and went six miles to Jehu Jackson's, a kind
friend near Westfield meeting house. Here, we met
with Isaac Hammer, of Tennessee, who is out on a
religious visit, with an extensive prospect. He had
appointed a meeting at the Hollow, which we at-
tended; then went to Hunting-creek and Deep-creek.
I thouglit it was a low time at each place, tho' Isaac
Hammer and Ruth laboured honestly in two of the
meetings, — the other was silent. After meeting at
Deep-creek we rode ten miles to a tavern and lodged;
next day we travelled forty miles to Robert Stew-
ard's at Deep river, where the select Yearly Meet-
ing was held, and we stayed there till after the first-
day meeting: then went to New Garden, to the house
of our kind friends, Timothy and Judith Russcl, from
MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE. 393
Nantucket. They remember thee, as do many others
in this land.
On second-day, the 4th of the lllh month, the
Yearly Meeting began. It was said to be small, in
part occasioned by the great scarcity of provender;
the crops in many places having been very much in-
jured by the extreme drought in the forepart of the
season, and by the early frost this fall. The Friend
vi'here we stayed, used to feed twenty-five horses;
he now told us he could not keep one: so they were
sent six miles to Robert Steward's, who has a mill,
and kindly offered to take good care of them.
This Yearly Meeting I think was a good one; and
though not a great deal of preaching, yet there were
divers living testimonies borne by some of our wor-
thy ancients; among whom was Ann Jessop, in the
seventy-eiglith year of her age. Charity Cook, Silas
Holloway, Edward Brookes from Wilmington, Del-
aware, and our dear Ruth, who was enabled to lift up
her voice like a trumpet, so that we thought she was
distinctly heard by all. The Yearly Meeting at New
Garden closed on the 7th, and we went on thence
fourteen miles to Centre, where the Western Quarter
was held. After that meeting, we parted with Chari-
ty Cook and Isaac Hammer, — they going for Bush
river in South Carolina, and we turned our faces
eastward. On the way, w^e had meetings at Provi-
dence, Cane-creek, Long's, Rocky river. South Fork,
Spring Meeting (where David Vestal lives) and Eno.
From thence we travelled two hundred and fifty
miles to Rich-square, and had a fatiguing time for
the poor horses, by reason of the weather's changing
from pretty severe cold (for the season) to very
\varm, remarkably so for this country; so that we
394 MEMOIR OF SUSANNA JUDGE.
had to tarry to let them rest. We attended Rich-
square meeting on first-day, the 24th of the 11th
month; and that afternoon rode seventeen miles to
Eli Copeland's, who had waited on us from New
Garden.
On second-day, the 25th, his son John accompani-
ed us forty miles to the hospitable mansion of Axiom
Newby's widow, in Perquimons count)^ This was
like a pleasant home to us, for they are a lovely fam-
ily; and it is refreshing to weary travellers, — like a
brook by the way, — sometimes to fall in with such
kind families, where not only the outward man is
abundantly furnished with comfortable accommoda-
tions, but a fellow-feeling and near sympathy is felt
with tried minds. Yet, with all these, we are re-
minded that this is not the place of our rest.
Dost thou remember Silas Holloway? He was at
the Yearly Meeting at New Garden; he is advanced
in age, near fourscore, and very feeble in body, but
appears to be strong in the Lord and in the power
of his might, like a shock of corn nearly ripe for the
heavenl}^ garner. Also dear old David Vestal ap-
pears to have nothing to do but render up his ac-
counts with joy. He desired me to tell thee that he
was still moving in the body, and he hoped his love
to Truth and Friends was as strong as ever.
11th mo. 27th. We attended a meeting at Beech
Spring, and next day one at Sutton's Creek; in both
of which Ruth laboured faithfully to discharge the
trust committed to her, and I hope she will enjoy
the reward of peace; though the state of the church
is such that we cannot expect great things. As to
myself, if I can but move along so as to do no harm,
and receive a little benefit, it is all 1 look for. Oi>
JviEINtOIR OF SUSAN>fA JUDGE. 395
the 29th, we attended the select Quarterly meeting
at Piney Woods, and next day that for business; and
I thought dear Ruth was remarkably favoured in the
latter, to the edification I hope of many.. On first-
day, the 1st of i2th mo. we attended Piney Woods
meeting, and next day had a meeting at Bass Creek;
one at the Narrows on the day following, and one at
New-begun Creek on fourth-day, the 4th; another
at Simons' Creek on fifth-day, and the next day at
Little river. We lodged at the house of our kind
friend William Carter, who with his wife received
us affectionately. She had lately joined Friends, and
appeared to be a plain, exemplary woman. We ex-
pect to return by way of Winchester."
No account is given of the remainder of this jour-
ney, nor in her own hand-writing, of the remainder
of her pilgrimage here below. By reference to the
preceding account of her husband's life and travels,
it appears that she several times accompanied him
across the mountains to visit their children and
friends in Pennsylvania and Maryland. But among
other infirmities of age and the decline of life, her
eye-sight was so much impaired that it became diffi-
cult for her to see with clearness so as to go about,
or to know persons. An instructive reference is made
to this circumstance in the following extract from a
letter to her, dated 5th mo. 24th, 1S22.
"I often think of and sympathise with you in
your present allotments; — one of you almost void
of hearing, and the other nearly deprived of sight — •
two of the most essential senses that render social
communication both a blessing and a delight. But
shall we murmur at these things? God forbid. Rather
let us consider them as a cause of rejoicing; being in-
396 MEMOIR OP SUSANNA JUDGIE.
structed and taught to be content with the dispensa-
tions of a wise and gracious Providence, who is able
to sanctify all our afflictions by turning them into
blessings, and to settle us in the full belief that all
these things will work together for the good of those
that love and fear him. This brings us to fulfil the
apostle's advice, to " rejoice evermore; pray without
ceasing, and in every thing give thanks." In the love
and fellowship of the gospel, I am thy affectionate
friend, Elias Hicks.
Susanna Judge died at their residence in Ohio, in
the 9th month, 1S27, aged about seventy-four years.
Among the testimonies concerning her, the fol-
lowing is from one of her children. " My dear mo-
ther was a woman of a sorrowful spirit, at times. —
With me, she effected more by her tears and expos-
tulations, than others could by severity and stern-
ness. I believe her to have been a deeply exercised,
pious woman, and that she held much sweet union
and communion of soul with her God. She read the
scriptures much; and her life was a practical com-
ment upon the great truths therein contained. Her
faith, her works and her love were known to her
God, and he graciousl}^ manifested to those whom
she left behind, that her soul as it left its tenement
of clay was received into the mansions of everlasting
rest. Not only, during her last illness, did she speak
of the presence of her Saviour, but the calm sereni-
ty of her mind was marked on her placid counte-
nance, even after the spirit had returned to him who
gave it. She was lovely in life, and in death the ex-
cellency of her glory departed not from her."
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