niM M !! nil I'lWf'ww'ww w'y' / •f*«(*tM«f*f«^«^fHi*fM«**f**«WMi«t**t«MM««MMMM«Ma«MM<«MMM«t* \ sl:tiHtSt9*n9ttlU9U?'*nH!PI!i!fH:itl; iMWkMMMMt W>ll*t»<*»*«tM>M***«#f»<>W*<<><*»**»»««»<*«*I«« »««»>'«""»» '****"**«»*'■"»*< OFTHl UNIVBRSirr A, OP . ■'-"'^^'-e,-^^; ALICE GARY ■ ^^ .^'^L^J'^^ ^^^ ^"^^ "^^ ^^ ' '" J. Mix -ffu vnv -ni. ^^v vis^ v^ M^ THE POEMS OF ALICE AND PHCEBE GARY WITH INTRODUCTION AND NOTES BY KATHARINE LEE BATES PROFESSOR IN WELLESLEY COLLEGE » NEW YORK THOMAS Y. CROWELL & COMPANY PUBLISHERS Copyright, 1903, By THOMAS Y. CROWELL & CO. ^^3 PREFATORY NOTE. This volume is made up of material contained in the following original issues : — Poems of Alice and Phcebe Carey. Moss and Brother, Phila- delphia. 1850. 12mo. Lyra and Other Poems. By Alice Carey. Redfield, Clinton Hall, New York. 1852. 12mo. Poems and Parodies. By Phoebe Carey. Boston: Ticknor, Reed, and Fields. 1854. 12mo. Poems. By Alice Cary. Boston : Ticknor and Fields. 1855. 12mo. It will be noticed that the name of the authors was spelled "Carey" in the first three of these volumes, but with the fourth, as in subsequent issues, the " e " was omitted. The earliest of these books had on its title-page the motto — " in their delicious clime Mocking the birds with more melodious songs," and carried the following "Advertisement": — " The publishers but comply with the general desire in issuing this first edition of the collected writings of the ' two sisters of the West,' Alice and Phcebe Carey, whose occasional contributions to the literary journals have within a few years secured for them a rank among the most popular writers of their sex in this country. It is believed that these leaves, gathered into a volume, rw8O4095 iv PREFATORY NOTE. will more than confirm the favorable judgments awarded to them upon their original and separate appearance." This paragraph, dated Philadelphia, October, 1849, was followed by a " Notice of the Authors," taken from Gris- wold's Female Poets of America. The poems contributed by Alice Gary to this first vol- ume are ninety-one in number. Lyra included seventy- two poems, of which the author retained all but fourteen in her collection of 1855. To these she added a Mexican romance in blank verse, amounting to some two thousand lines, and sixty-five new short poems, with twenty-four reprints from the volume of 1850. Alice Gary's poems are placed here in the original order of the volumes of 1850 and 1855. The few poems from Lyra which were not included in the volume of 1855 are. grouped directly before The Maiden of Tlascala. Phoebe Gary contributed to the initial volume forty- five poems. Nine of these she reprinted, four years later, in Poems and Parodies, bringing the full count for the volume up to seventy-three. Her poems are given here in the original order. In cases where the sisters used the same poems in successive volumes, this collec- tion holds to the order of their first appearance, although the revised form, as foot-notes point out, is often adopted. These original texts have been scrupulously repro- duced. The punctuation is often at fault and, in other respects, the volumes show signs of careless proof-reading. A copy of the 1850 volume in the Boston Public Library has certain manuscript emendations, which suggest, by their character, an author's corrections. The handwrit- ing is not that of Alice Gary, but shows some resem- blance to Phoebe's script, so far as this can be determined from a single signature. These emendations are retained in foot-notes. CONTENTS. POEMS BY ALICE GARY. From Volume of 1850. PAGE Keats . 7 Hannibal's Lament for his Brother 10 The Wreck 12 I Would Tell Him That I Love Him 15 The Spectre Woman .16 The Past and Present .17 Death of Cleopatra 18 Palestine 20 Napoleon at the Death of Duroc 21 The Orphan Girl 22 The Homeless 23 A Norland Ballad . .24 Morna .27 Alda 28 The Pirate 29 The Orphan's Dream of Love ...... 31 The Blue Scarf ......... 33 The Stranger's Epitaph 35 The Betrayal 37 The Children 38 To Mary 40 The Lover's Vision 41 Melody 42 To Lucy 43 An Evening Tale 44 Sailor's Song 46 The Old Homestead . . . . . . . .47 Lights of Genius 49 I Know Thou Art Free 49 A Good Man 50 Hymn of the True Man 61 V vi CONTENTS. PAGE Hymn of the Student of Nature 52 Life's Angels 53 The Pilgrim 54 Pitied Love . 57 Alone by the Tomb 59 Two Visions 60 LostDillie 62 Pictures of Memory 63 The Two Missionaries .64 Leila 65 The Handmaid 66 The Poor 67 Heaven on Earth 68 Far Away . 69 The Better Land 70 First Love 70 The Mill-maid 71 Love 72 Death . 73 The Charmed Bird 73 Pride . 74 Missive 74 One Departed 75 Musings by Three Graves 76 To the Evening Zephyr 79 Answer 80 Eesponse 81 The Sailor's Story 82 A Lock of Hair 85 Visions of Light 86 A Legend of St. Mary's 88 The Novice of St. Mary's 90 Helva 91 The Time to Be 92 Eloquence 93 To Elma 95 To Flora 96 Myrrha 97 To Myrhha 97 To the Spirit of Truth 98 To 99 The Two Lovers 100 Abjuration 101 Old Stories 103 CONTENTS. vii PAGK Spectres 104 Lucifer 105 Be Active 106 Death's Ferryman 107 Watching . . . . 108 On the Death of a Child 109 Cradle Song 110 Seko Ill The Deserted Fylgia 112 Music 113 Orphan's Song • 114 Bridges 115 Book of Light , . 115 The Child of Nature 116 Where Rest the Dead ? 117 From Volume of 1855. Lyra : A Lament 118 In Illness 120 Hymn to the Night 122 The Minstrel 125 Hyala 127 Grand-dame and Child 129 Agatha to Harold ......... 131 Legend of Seville 133 To the Winds 135 Annuaries 136 Lost Light 147 Paul 149 To the Spirit of Gladness 150 The Tryst 151 Jessie Carrol 153 Hyperion . . 160 The Daughter 162 Annie Clayville 164 • Yesternight 166 Winter 167 Wood Nymphs 170 October 172 The New Year 173 In the Sugar Camp 177 Rhyme of My Playmate 178 The Coming of Night 180 viii CONTENTS. PA6B Fire Pictures 181 The Wood Lily 182 To the Spirit of Song 183 A Christmas Story 184 The Haunted House 186 The Murderess 187 Content 188 Of One Asleep 189 Dissatisfied 190 Dying Song 191 Lily Lee • . . .192 Miracles 193 Tokens 194 To the Hopeful 195 Going to Sleep 196 The Dying Mother 197 The Lullaby .198 Glenly Moor 199 Rosemary Hill . 200 My Brother 202 Nellie, Watching 203 Rosalie 206 Justified 207 Isidore's Dream 209 Burns . . . . » 210 The Emigrants 211 Rinaldo 212 Juliet to Romeo . . . ' 213 Of Home . . , 214 My Friend 215 Parting and Meeting . „ 216 A Ruin , ... 218 The Poet 219 Aspirations 220 Changed 222 Weariness 223 Edith to Harold 224 Parting with a Poet . . ... . . • . . 225 The Reclaiming of the Angel 226 Adelyn 227 Madela 228 The Broken Household 229 Parting Song 230 Tbe Bridal of Woe , , , 232 CONTENTS. ix PAGE A Dream Untold 233 The Convict 235 Sick and in Prison 236 Longings 237 Remorse 239 Despair 240 Respite 241 Of One Dying 242 May Verses 243 Wurtha 244 The Shepherdess 245 Washing the Sheep 246 George Burroughs 247 Luther 248 The Evening Walk 249 My Mother 251 Last Song 252 Weariness 253 Perversity 253 When My Love and I Lie Dead 254 Hidden Light 255 Devotion 255 Prophecy 256 Light and Love 257 A Retrospect 257 The Homeless 258 A Prayer 259 Kindness 260 Enjoy 260 April 261 At the Grave 262 Mulberry Hill 262 A Rustic Plaint 263 The Spirit-haunted 264 Ulalie 265 On the Picture of a Magdalen 266 Death Song 267 Young Love 267 The Morning 268 Awakening 269 Times 269 The Prophecy 270 Worship 271 Only Two 272 X CONTENTS. PAGE Nobility 273 Doomed 274 The Way 274 Thisbe 275 Safe 276 Adelied . 276 What an Angel Said 277 My Playmate 278 The Workers 278 Looking Back 279 Hymn 280 Poems from "Lyra" not included in Volume op 1855. Leilia 280 Milna Grey . 281 The Betrothed 284 The Good Angel 285 My Friend and I 286 Out by the Waters 287 Love's Chapel 288 Fallen Genius 289 Dying 290 Harriet 291 Falmouth Hall 292 Song 294 Live and Help Live 294 To Elmina 295 Homesick 296 The Maiden of Tlascala 296 CONTENTS. XI POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. From Volume of 1850. PAGE A Story 349 The Lovers 354 Our Homestead 356 The Followers of Christ . . ' 357 Sonnets 361 Sympathy 362 Memories .......... 364 Moralizings .......... 365 Dreaming of Heaven 367 Morning Thoughts 367 Resolves 368 The Mariner's Bride 369 The Prisoner's Last Night 370 Song of the Heart 371 Man Believes the Strong 372 The Christian Woman 373 The Homesick Peasant 375 Homes for All 376 Harvest Gathering 377 Life is Not Vanity 378 Prayer 379 Morning 380 Burial Hymn • . 381 Song of the Reformed 382 The Cold Water Army 383 Coming Home 384 The Reefer 385 A Time to Die 386 Death Scene 387 The Place of Graves 388 Parting and Meeting 388 Death of a Friend 389 Love at the Grave . . 390 Strength of Sin 392 The Women at the Sepulchre 393 Melody 394 Changes 394 Fears 396 xu CONTENTS. PA01 The Watcher 397 Chalmers 398 Song 399 The Confession 400 The Ills of Life 401 The Bride 402 Remembrance 404 From Poems and Parodies. Poems. Entering Heaven . 405 Our Baby . . . . .407 The Outcast 408 The Life of Trial 409 Our Friend 410 The Convict's Child . ; 411 At the Water's Edge 412 Dead 413 The Watcher's Story 414 Dreams 418 Prophecies 419 The Poem 420 To One Who Sang of Love 421 Archie 422 Maiden Fears 423 The Unguarded Moment 424 Nelly 425 Burning the Letters 426 A Lament 427 The Lullaby 428 Left Alone 430 The Retrospect 431 One Shall Be Taken 431 The Brothers 432 Remorse 433 Prophecy . 434 The Dreamer 435 The Consecration . . 437 Drawing Water 438 Solemnity of Life 438 My Blessings 440 Sabbath Thoughts .441 CONTENTS. xiii PAGE Nearer Home 442 Hymn 443 Sowing Seed 443 The Baptism 444 The Hosts of Thought 446 The Book of Poems 449 To Frank 450 Dawn 451 Parodies. Martha Hopkins 452 Worser Moments 455 The Annoyer 456 Samuel Brown 458 Granny's House 459 The Day is Done . . .463 John Thompson's Daughter 464 Girls Were Made to Mourn 466 To Inez 468 To Mary 469 The Change 470 He Never Wrote Again . . 472 The Soiree . . 473 The City Life 474 The Marriage of Sir John Smith 475 Ballad of the Canal .476 I Remember, I Remember 477 Jacob 478 The Wife 479 A Psalm of Life 479 There 's a Bower of Bean-vines 480 AMien Lovely Woman ........ 481 Shakespearian Readings 481 ALICE AND PHCEBE GARY. These authors fill a place in our literary history out of proportion to their actual achievement. The poetry of the West began in the Ohio valley, in that old brown homestead, with cherry branches brushing the window- panes and a sweetbrier climbing to the eaves, where Alice and Phoebe Gary passed their earlier girlhood. As the pioneer singers of the West, as lyrists praised by Poe and Whittier, as women of letters who lived by their pens and gathered about them the most notable society of New York a generation since, they have peculiar claims upon remembrance and esteem. Better artists of a later date have won less recognition. The story of the Gary sisters has become a part of our literary tradition. The Gary family claimed descent from Sir Robert Gary, who, in the reign of Henry V, accepted on behalf of English valor the challenge of a haughty knight-errant of Aragon and vanquished the boaster at a public tilt in London. Sir Robert's father had lost, through his loyalty to Richard II, the ancestral estates, but the young king, delighted at this feat, restored a portion of them to the champion, and authorized him and his pos- terity to wear thenceforth the arms of the humbled knight of Aragon. Alice and Phoebe Gary, especially the latter, were proud of this doughty ancestor. When they had established their New York home, the coat of arms was framed for their library wall, and Phoebe had it engraved on a seal ring which she wore until her death. The American immigrant was one John Gary, who taught the first Latin class in Plymouth colony. His son Joseph moved to Gonnecticut, where the family remained for several generations, well-to-do, public-spir- ited, and pious. There were Yale graduates among them and men of professional eminence. The original settler in Ohio was Ghristopher Gary, to whom a grant of land XV xvi INTRODUCTION. there, in Hamilton County, had been accorded in recom- pense for his services in the Revolutionary War. It was one hundred years ago, in 1802, that the long journey to the Western wilderness was undertaken. The adventures of emigrant wagon and flatboat were probably more keenly enjoyed by Robert Gary, then a lad of fifteen, than by his father, who knew himself to be facing hard- ship and danger and, at the best, a life of rugged toil. The land on which " Uncle Christopher," as the neigh- borhood came to call the old soldier, finally set up his household gods was on the Hamilton road, about eight miles north of that thriving settlement, protected from the Indians by Fort Washington, which has grown into the city of Cincinnati. Robert Cary, after bearing arms, as was due to his name, in the War of 1812, married and went into debt for a quarter section of his father's land. It took years of laborious farming and frugal housekeep- ing to make the soil his own, but meanwhile there was plenty of happiness in the little brown homestead which he had built for his bride. In this his nine children were born, soon overflowing, for childish frolic, into the ampler barn, where doves and swallows were as much at home as they. The poems of the Cary sisters abound in fond memories of their childhood in Clovernook, — the orchard trees, in whose tops they had seen their brothers rocking; the mossy-stoned well, with its rude sweep, set up by their father's hand ; the broad hearth, where all the family gathered at evening, tranquillized by the mother's voice and smile. Outside were woods and corn-fields, grazing cattle, and " meadows full of songs." The joyous years were, after all, these years of strug- gle toward prosperity. It came at last, but brought deep shadows with it. By the autumn of 1832 the great result of eighteen years of unremitting industry and economy was attained. The farm was paid for, and a more spacious house, built of brick and well porticoed, stood ready for occupancy. Triumphantly the family removed to their new roof -tree, — the father and mother careworn and workworn, but with smiles for the merry troop of children that reached from grown daughters to mere toddlers. Alice, born April 26, 1820, came fourth in the list. Of her three elder sisters, Rowena, Susan, and Rhoda, the last was her closest friend and associate. INTRODUCTION. xvii A brother, Asa, intervened between Alice and Phoebe, whose birthday was September 4, 1824. Phoebe's intimate in the group was the second boy, Warren, two years her junior. The pet of the household was the blue-eyed and golden-haired Lucy, three years old, the only one of the children who resembled their beautiful mother. Elmina was the baby. An unbroken band, the family entered into their new home with bright anticipations of better days. In a little more than a year Rhoda died, and a month later little Lucy. The mother followed, and soon a stepmother of uncongenial temper made the new house unhomelike and enhanced the children's sense of loss and desolation. Alice and Phoebe especially, with their craving for books and their awakening impulse toward song, suffered from the hard, narrow, utilitarian rule of this stranger, to whom housework was the whole duty of woman. Their own mother, after her busiest and weari- est days, had been wont to take time from the night for reading, but her successor would let no candles be wasted on such folly, and it was by light of " a saucer of lard with a bit of rag for wick " that Alice and Phoebe made acquaintance with the new English and American poets. Two years before her death Alice Gary, as quoted by Mary Clemmer Ames, thus summarized her girlhood: " I don't like to think how much we are robbed of in this world by just the conditions of our life. How much better work I should have done, how much more success I might have won, if I had had a better opportunity in my youth. But, for the first fourteen years of my life, it seemed as if there was actually nothing in existence but work. The whole family struggle was just for the right to live free from the curse of debt. My father worked early and late ; my mother's work was never done. The mother of nine children, with no other help than that of their little hands, I shall always feel that she was taxed far beyond her strength, and died before her time. I have never felt myself to be the same that I was before Ehoda's death. Phoda and I pined for beauty; but there was no beauty about our homely house but that which nature gave us. We hungered and thirsted for knowledge ; but there were not a dozen books on our family shelf, not a library within our reach. There was little time to study, and had there been more, xviii INTRODUCTION. there was no chance to learn but in the district school- house, down the road. I never went to any other — not very much to that. It has been a long struggle. Now that I can afford to gather a few beautiful things about me, it is too late." The poetic feeling of the Gary sisters seems to have been an inheritance from their father. Their mother's mind turned rather to the ethical questions of the day, but the dreaming, nature-loving temperament belonged to Robert Gary. The school readers and copy-books of Alice and Phoebe showed, even in childhood, crude at- tempts at verse. Alice, four years the elder, was natu- rally the first adventurer. The swiftly successive deaths of those three members of the household who were pecul- iarly dear to her, occurring as these did in the most sensitive period of her girlhood, stamped her early songs with a monotonous melancholy. This strain of mourn- ful sentiment was unfortunately emphasized by an un- happy love affair. She yielded her whole heart to a man who never came back to claim it. She trusted and waited, until she chanced, in a newspaper, upon the an- nouncement of his marriage. This blow was the final impelling force that drove her out from the rustic seclu- sion of Clovernook to make a literary career for herself in New York City. It was in 1850 that Alice Gary made her daring plunge. During the fifteen years that had elapsed since the death of her mother, she had learned to versify so effectively that the journals of her neighboring city, Gincinnati, of the Universalist church, in whose faith she had been bred, and even such eastern magazines as the Boston Ladies^ Repository and Graham^s of New York printed her work. Phcebe followed her lead, and Griswold rep- resented both the sisters in his " Female Poets of Amer- ica." In reviewing this anthology, Poe gave the palm to Alice Gary's ''Pictures of Memory." "In all the higher elements of poetry," he wrote, " in true imagina- tion, in the power of exciting the only real poetical effect — elevation of the soul in contradistinction from mere excitement of the intellect or heart, — the poem in ques- tion is the noblest in the book." Meanwhile private words of appreciation and encour- agement were seeking the Ohio singers out. Whittier INTRODUCTION. xix wrote to them. Horace Greeley, then editor of the Neio York Tribune, went out from Cincinnati to see them in their home. And, in 1848, Griswold approached them with a plan for securing the publication of a joint vol- ume of their poems. Out of the resultant correspondence have been preserved three letters from Alice Gary : July 3, 1848. Mr. Griswold : It gives me great pleasure to com- ply with the request of your very obliging letter by plac- ing at your disposal the poems in your possession. I have also taken the liberty of sending you some other specimens, which, to quote Willis, I prefer to remember as my own. Not that I wish to press for the admission of a larger number, or dictate to your better judgment, but that you may have an ampler field from which to select. Should you elsewhere meet with anything from either of our pens in time to serve you, it will be at your disposal. With regard to the prefatory notes, I have only to say that we are sisters, and were born in a pretty and secluded district in the vicinity of Cincinnati, where we still live. Our educational attainments are limited to the meagre and iufrequent advantages of an obscure district school, whence we w^ere removed altogether at a very early age. With nothing from which to draw but our own hearts, subjected to the toils and privations of poverty and orphanage, with neither books nor literary friends to en- courage our predilections, we have been, and still are, humble worshippers of the glorious Temple of Song. We write with great facility, often producing two or three poems a day, and never elaborate. Very respectfully, Alice Gary. P.S. — Permit me to add a word with reference to publishing our poems in a collected form. We have some three hundred and fifty, exclusive of our early produc- tions, which those in your possession, as to length and ability, fairly represent. I think they would make a readable book, and our cir- cumstances urge their publication if it would be in the least to our pecuniary advantage. A. C. XX INTRODUCTION. Jan. 26, 1849. Mr. Grtswold : I can never sufficiently thank you for the kind interest you take in myself and sister. . . . We think of visiting the Eastern cities next summer, when I hope for the happiness of seeing you — in the mean- time, I shall not fail to exert myself to more fully merit the very flattering opinion you are pleased to express of me. I am very happy to avail myself of your obliging offer to secure for us a more available disposal of our poems. Any arrangements you may find it convenient to make will be gratefully endorsed by us — but I must protest ao-ainst your giving yourself any trouble on our account. We have until quite recently written gratuitously, but are now receiving a trifling remuneration for our corre- spondence — to give you an idea of its amount, I will state that we write alternately for the National Era every week for two dollars an article ! We have several other engagements on terms a trifle in advance of those stated, and as we are dependent on our poems almost exclusively, it is advisable that we make the best disposal of them. Be assured that I shall be most happy to number you among my correspondents, and shall gratefully and proudly receive any communication with which you may be pleased to favor me, but business must plead my excuse for so early an intrusion upon your notice. It would certainly be a gratification to me to have our poems, or rather a selection from them, issued by one of our Eastern publishers, and if you can dispose of the copyright so as to ensure you a compensation for editing the work, and will consent to edit it, we shall be content to receive whatever more there may be, or if nothing more, to receive nothing. Should you be able to make such arrangements, we will immediately set about the preparation of the volume. We have selected " Wood- notes" as a title — what do you think of it? Any sug- gestions you may make with reference to the proposed volume will be gratefully received. I cannot close without again offering my grateful acknowledgments for the kind favor with which you have been pleased to honor me, and expressing the hope you may be speedily restored to perfect health, I am, with sincere regard. Very truly yours, ^^^^^ ^^^^_ INTRODUCTION. xxi March 25, 1850. Dear Sir : . . . "Well, how could I hope that it would be otherwise? I am but a simple and uncultured girl, and am perhaps best off in the shadow of my native hills. Again I beg your forgiveness, and promise that I will not listen to my heart again — not in this letter, certainly. I half envy you the privilege of going abroad. I have sometimes hoped to see something of the great world beside in dreams, but I never shall. You must not, my dear Mr. Griswold, flatter yourself that I look any better than my daguerreotype — it is very correct, the expres- sion not perfectly so, perhaps, as I changed countenance a little during the sitting. I hardly know how to describe myself, and am half inclined to cut from the letter of a friend a description which he tells me he has just been giving Whittier of me, for, strange to say, he has not flattered me. ... I am five feet, two inches in height, not heavy, and not very thin, don't know how much I weigh, have black eyes, and hair darkly brown, am a brunette, and decidedly plain, having seen my twenty-ninth birthday. ... I am sometimes passion- ately fervent in piety, and sometimes rebellious as the fallen. I love with deepest intensity, but do not hate, those I do not like I am indifferent to. . . . Mr. AYhit- tier kindly proffers his aid and assistance in the getting up of the proposed work — advises me not to be in a hurry, which I shall not be ; strongly recommends Ticknor. . . . And so you do not like my rhymeless efforts. The two pieces you speak of are in my own opinion among the best things I have written, as also in the opinion of some whose opinion I value highly. I am glad you have told me what you think. I agree with you that lyrical composition is my forte, if I have any, but I am accus- tomed to let my thought flow as it will. Among literary artists I have no place. Mr. Whittier has just favored me with some very good advice ; I hope I shall profit by it. He extends us a cordial invitation to visit himself and sister at Amesbury, which I hope to be able to accept. I am sensitive to a painful degree, and have never had a correspondent, save yourself, of whom I could say they have written nothing I could wish unwritten. . . . You think Phoebe more grave than I. She is less so. xxii INTRODUCTION. Her daguerreotype does not do her justice. Her coun- tenance in conversation is almost mirthful. She has dimples which show themselves constantly, is very sar- castic (though she denies it), and enjoys the reputa- tion of being a wit. She is less [sic] and younger than I. . . . Ever sincerely yours, Alice Gary. The temperament of Phoebe Gary was blithe and sturdy, with a vein of practical good sense. She was still a child when the family afflictions came, and thus suffered no such deep and lasting grief as did the impres- sionable girl of fifteen. Phoebe, too, had escaped the pangs of love betrayed. Her attitude toward Dan Gupid, indeed, was from the first almost to the last saucy and defiant. She made fun of romance, she derided in verse and in speech the lordly ways of husbands, and she avowed in middle life that she had "never loved any man well enough to lie awake half an hour to be miser- able about him." When asked by some impertinent if she had ever been disappointed in her affections, Phoebe replied promptly, " ISTo ; but a great many of my married friends have." Her epistolary comment at the con- cluded arrangement for that first volume of poems is characteristic : ''Alice and I have been very busy collecting and re- vising all our published poems, to send to New York. Eev. R. W. Griswold, quite a noted author, is going to publish them for us this summer, and we are to receive for them a hundred dollars. I don't know as I feel better or worse, as I don't think it will do us much good, or any one else." Not even Griswold's faith in the Gary sisters carried him to the length of publishing their full count of three hundred and fifty poems. Of the one hundred and thirty- six that he selected, two-thirds were by Alice. About thirty of these are on themes connected with death — pictures of dying-beds, meditations in graveyards, mourn- ing for the lost, longing to die. The best that can be said for them is that they are sincere, springing from actual experience of bereavement. The sentiment may be weak ; it is not false. "The Orphan Girl," "The Homeless," INTRODUCTION. xxiii is Alice Cary herself. The lines " To Lucy " directly refer to her little sister of that name. The " Myrrha " elegies commemorate Rhoda. Of the remaining poems, nearly half have to do with the fruitless Avaiting, the blighted hopes, and broken hearts of maidens abandoned by their lovers. The autobiographic tone is heard through them all, although the circumstances are varied. Sometimes the forsaken girl lives on " through long weary years " alone ; sometimes " With a cheek grown thinner, whiter, And the dark locks put away From a brow of patient beauty, Dwells the maiden of my lay — Dwells she where the peaceful shadow Of her native hills is thrown. Binding up the wounds of others All the better for her own." Usually, however, the unrewarded watcher droops and dies, and it may chance that the troth-breaker, "the haughty child of pride — The angel of delusive dreams," comes to weep above her deathbed or her burial-mound. Here, too, the writer has dipped the pen in her own heart. The events of her youth had been the death of mother and sisters, the desertion of her worldly minded wooer. How little else had come into that se- questered life the narrow range of this first volume testifies. Religious sensibility is present everywhere, and some half dozen poems are the direct expression of Christian devotion. As many more champion philan- thropic and ethical movements of the time. Other themes are drawn from the most striking figures of his- tory, — Hannibal, Cleopatra, Napoleon. A few pseudo- romantic ballads of feeble construction, a few personal addresses to friends, two or three songs for children, "Pictures of Memory," and the first draft of "The Old Homestead" nearly complete the reckoning. There is something very touching in the intellectual and artistic poverty of the work. The sentences are often ungrammatical, and the vocabulary is sometimes inexact. The Xorse king, for example, strides over the lintel, supposing it to be the threshold. The volume is xxiv INTRODUCTION. a confusion of rhythmic echoes, — of Byron, Bulwer, Mrs. Hemans. " The Two Missionaries " sets one re- peating " By Nebo's lonely mountain." " Seko " owes its existence to " The Skeleton in Armor." The sentiment and even the diction of Longfellow are sometimes all but appropriated, as in " Visions of Light," " Old Stories," and that stanza of " Eloquence " which tells of " muffled footsteps In the corridors of crime." The author acknowledges in a footnote her " indebted- ness to Coleridge for one or two passages" in "Pitied Love," but there is no such owning up to her close imi- tation, in " Musings by Three Graves," of Gray's " Elegy in a Country Churchyard," though she has taken over his stanza, situation, mood, epithets, the very twilight shadow and sombre cadence of his monody. A wavering Shelley note, mingled with a hint of Keats, is manifest in " Two Visions," but the most extraordinary exhibition of innocent plagiarism may be found in the initial poem of the volume. This lament on the death of Keats is a dexterously woven web dyed through and through in the rich colors of the " Adonais " and " Eve of St. Agnes." Here and there the poetic " shreds and patches " are clearly discernible. The ode " To a Skylark " yielded the "embodied joy" and "sunken sun." The opening line of " Hyperion " is altered from " Deep in the shady sadness of a vale " to " Deep in the shady cincture of the vale." " Thanatopsis " gave suggestion, by " Old Ocean's gray and melancholy waste " for "Along the gray and melancholy air." The " Ode to a Nightingale " contributed the idea of a cheating Fancy, and " Lycidas " could not well refuse ^^ the eyelids of the morn;" since the phrase was already INTRODUCTION. xxv borrowed from the book of Job. The close of the poem is frankly reminiscent of " Alastor " : — "And Silence, too enamoured of that voice, Locks its mute music in her rugged cell." But while this lyrical composite betrays the writer's ignorance of literary rights, it reveals the height of her aspiration and the glow of her poetic sympathy. The simpler verses in the collection, however, pleased the rank and file of her readers more. There were many who prized the pathos of her melodies, and others who enjoyed their true touches of outdoor beauty, so that the publication of the volume secured Alice Gary a certain modest standing as a poet. Phoebe Gary's literary talent was generally looked upon, from the first, as slighter than her sister's. Her dominant tone is the religious and the ethical. She was in full accord wiih the impetuous reformers of her day, and denounced in rhyme, as roundly as Whittier himself, slavery, the gallows, war. She sang the praises of the cold water army and exhorted the winebibber. Pity for the poor and wretched, for the criminals made by law, and the outcasts of society, rings in her verse with no uncertain sound. Her poems on death are less numerous than her sister's, and, written as several of them were on occasion of the loss of friends, take on a more pro- nounced character of consolation and of heavenly hope. " The Place of Graves " describes the resting-spot of her mother, Rhoda, and little Lucy. The love sentiment is but a minor interest in Phoebe Gary's poetry, although she had something more akin to dramatic imagination than Alice possessed and could vary her situations more easily. A few of her love lyrics, however, take their color from Alice. The general tone of Phoebe's contri- bution to this first volume is bracing. She does not dwell on vain regrets nor cherish pathos for its own sake. She has a healthful relish for life, with all its brisk activ- ities. Alice loved to sing of twilight and moonlight. Phoebe praised the early morning. Her grammar and her metaphors are as uncertain as her sister's. Her verses savor more of energetic speech than song. Her diction is generally commonplace, though sometimes ris- ing to dignity. She is more independent of her models xxvi INTRODUCTION. than Alice, although it startles one to catch the note of Hogg's '' Skylark " in a " Song of the Reformed." The occasional echoes of Moo4-e and Hood and Whittier are less obtrusive. Upon the publication of this volume, the two sisters, with their precious hundred dollars, took a momentous trip to the East and, in acceptance of a twice-urged invita- tion, went to see Whittier, somewhat to the scandal of his Quaker women-folk. His account of that brief visit is embodied in his memorial poem for Alice Gary, " The Singer." Years since (but names to me before), Two sisters sought at eve my door ; Two song-birds wandering from their nest, A gray old farm-house in the West. How fresh of life the younger one, Half smiles, half tears, like rain in sun ! Her gravest mood could scarce displace The dimples of her nut-brown face. Wit sparkled on her lips not less For quick and tremulous tenderness ; And, following close her merriest glance, Dreamed through her eyes the heart's romance. Timid and still, the elder had Even then a smile too sweetly sad ; The crown of pain that all must wear Too early pressed her midnight hair. Yet ere the summer eve grew long Her modest lips were sweet with song ; A memory haunted all her words Of clover-fields and singing birds. Her dark, dilating eyes expressed The broad horizons of the West ; Her speech dropped prairie flowers ; the gold Of harvest wheat about her rolled. Fore-doomed to song she seemed to me : I queried not with destiny : I knew the trial and the need, Yet, all the more, I said, God speed ! INTRODUCTION. xxvii With such encouragement as this, it was easier for Alice Cary to bid farewell to her native meadows and, in the late autumn, take a humble place among the literary workers of New York City. The two elder sisters had married, but the two younger, Phoebe and Elmina, joined her in the spring of 1851. The Ohio nest had lost its song-birds for good and all. In process of time, the old homestead passed from the father to the brothers. There is now no descendant of the family who cares to occupy it, and, in the spring of 1903, it was purchased by a be- nevolent citizen of Cincinnati to serve as a home for the blind. This was done at the instance of two other de- voted Ohio sisters, Georgia and Florence Trader, the elder of whom is herself bereft of sight, — sisters who have already rendered noble service to the blind of Cincinnati. No disposition of Clovernook could be more fitting. The small flat, up two flights, in an unfashionable quar- ter of New York, was maintained by the determined pen of Alice Cary. In 1852 she published three volumes. The most successful of these was " Clovernook ; or. Recol- lections of our Neighborhood in the West." This fresh, candid account, in pleasant prose, of rural Ohio life, took so well that a second series was issued the next year, followed, in 1855, by "Clovernook Children," addressed to younger readers. In 1859 appeared a fourth volume of the same general tenor, "Pictures of Country Life." Of less fortunate augury was " Hagar : a Story of To- day." The main theme is the history of a simple village maiden forsaken by her plighted lover, an elegant young clergyman, who, haunted by remorse, ultimately goes mad. The treatment is uneven, the structure weak, the effect melodramatic. With characteristic resolution, Alice Cary kept on to the end of her life, trying to write prose fiction. Her short stories, printed by the leading magazines and journals, were better than her novels, which invariably lack unity and human truth. The amiable characters die lingering deaths ; the tyrants, slovens, and hypocrites are overdone. The plots are ill proportioned and incoherent, the style uneven, the tone depressing. The third venture of 1852 was a second volume of poems, "Lyra." This already showed advance in firm- ness and grace of workmanship. The author had evi- XX viii INTR OD UC TION. dently been pouring over pastoral elegies, Elizabethan as well as Georgian, with the result that the more elab- orate odes of the book confuse the reader by their throng of echoes. The Gary sisters were, in the finer sense of the term, spiritualists, and certainly this volume is a haunted house murmurous with poet ghosts, — Spenser, Marlowe, Jonson, Fletcher, Milton, Coleridge, Shelley, Keats. Yet through all the literary phraseology of shepherds and reeds, flocks and folds, Endymion, Pro- teus, Thisbe, Nereides, shine out vivid glimpses of genu- ine Ohio fields and woods. Artificial as these longer poems are, they witness to a higher poetic sense in Alice Cary than is usually attributed to her. They reveal her quest for a finer artistic beauty than the hard pen-driven conditions of her daily life ever allowed her to attain. In the shorter lyrics and the ballads, as well as in these ostentatious elegies, the old melancholy persists. She longs for the rest of the grave, portrays scenes of death and burial, and never tires of telling the tale of unre- quited love. Jessie Carrol watches in vain "From the Valley of the West " for the faithless Allan Archer, the dying Madela calls on a lover who does not come, Agatha pines away for a rec- reant Harold. The volume which Alice Cary published in 1855 was substantially a collection of the poems of her youth. Twenty-four were garnered from that eventful first book, and fifty-eight from " Lyra." The new poems are sixty- six in number, the last being an ambitious blank-verse romance of about two thousand lines, based on an episode in Prescott's " Conquest of Mexico." But not the far-off Golden Age of Tezcuco, not those strange Aztec names which, the author naively confesses, she has not in every case known how to pronounce, could divert her from her one and only theme. The maiden of Tlascala is wooed, won, and forsaken by the proud Hualco, with the antici- pated results of her pitiful death and his unavailing remorse. Although the writer states in her grateful dedication to Mr. Griswold that she " could never learn to blot or to revise/' many of the poems reprinted in 1855, especially INTRODUCTION. xxix the odes from " Lyra," had been worked over, shortened, and much altered in detail. The new poems show a new influence, that of Mrs. Browning, and still strive to fol- low in the footprints of Keats, but, taken as a whole, they suggest development toward simplicity and individ- uality — a development attested by the later work. Al- though continually contributing verse to the periodicals, it was not until 1866 that Alice Gary published another volume of poems, " Ballads, Lyrics, and Hymns." Two years later came "A Lover's Diary," called out by the death of the youngest sister, Elmina, whose invalid life had found shelter in the pretty home on Twentieth street, bought and furnished by unflagging literary toil. This home, with its informal Sunday evening receptions, had become a social centre for many of the choicest men and women of New York. Sought out by delightful friends, surrounded by the opportunities of a great city, here the sisters lived a quiet, industrious life. They would rise before five in their country-bred fashion, and ply their pens all day as diligently as if these had been knitting-needles, save as Alice snatched a little time for the housekeeping, and Phoebe, more willingly, for the sewing. The elder sister, on whom the main burden had always rested, endured this strenuous pace for but a score of years. After months of illness she died, on February 12, 1871. Her funeral was almost like a tri- umph, so great and so distinguished was the concourse gathered in honor of the gentle singer of Clovernook. Nor should it be forgotten that, like one of her own hero- ines, she had sent from her dying-bed for the false lover of her youth, who, a gray-haired, prosperous widower, came at the summons to receive her full forgiveness. Phoebe's list of publications is short beside that of her more resolute sister. Her second volume of verse, " Poems and Parodies," came out in 1854. The parodies, with little redeeming salt of wit, must plead guilty to the sin of poetic irreverence. Byron, Moore, Willis, Mrs. Hemans, Bayard Taylor — personal friend though he was — are perhaps fair game, but toward such lyrical genius as that of Poe's " Annabel Lee," such sacred sorrow as that of Bryant's " The Future Life," of Words- worth's " Lucy," and James Aldrich's " A Death-bed," toward Shakespeare, flippancy is all but profane. The XXX INTRODUCTION. worthier half of the volume includes a few poems in merry, teasing vein, but the book opens rather ominously with a succession of thirteen dirges. The fervor of re- ligious feeling, so notable in Phoebe Gary's first volume, finds keener expression in this. " Nearer Home," though its thought would seem to be peculiarly obvious, struck to the popular heart. Phoebe Gary published but one more volume of original writing, "Poems of Paith, Hope, and Love," in 1868. Meanwhile, although by no means as indefatigable as Alice, she kept herself busy with literary work of a mis- cellaneous sort. She wrote short stories for the periodi- cals, and articles to order. With Alice she edited " The Josephine Gallery " and " From Year to Year." She com- piled, with her friend and pastor. Dr. Deems, " Hymns for all Ghristians." Her mirth and fun made her the life of the home on Twentieth street. One of her pet cronies was the ingenious Mr. Barnum, who enjoyed her piquant comments when personally conducted through "the greatest show on earth." It was she who sug- gested, in reference to the marriage of the skeleton man and the fat woman, that they must have " loved through thick and thin." Well content with life as she found it, she had no sentimental concern about her state of spinster- hood, and laughed away all wooers until, when already entered into the vale of the forties, she sacrificed a new affection to the old. She dismissed an acceptable suitor rather than leave Alice, whose strength was then per- ceptibly on the wane. The sisters, despite all temperamental differences, had held closely together through life, and in their deaths they were not divided. The younger did not survive the elder for six months. On the closing day of July Phoebe Gary died, and was laid beside Alice in Greenwood. Death and burial, which had borne so large a share in the poetic sentiment of both, were theirs at last. Posthumous vol- umes of their poems, for adults and for children, were issued under the editorship of their friend Mrs. Mary Glemmer Ames, who was also to become their biographer. Her intimate account bespeaks all honor for the women, while, as poets, they stand for a good and gracious in- fluence in their generation and a fragrant memory down the years. KATHARINE LEE BATES. ALICE GARY DEDICATION TO THE VOLUME OF ALICE GARY'S POEMS PUBLISHED IN 1855. To RUFUS WILMOT GEISWOLD. My dear Friend : It is not to avert the censures of so judicious a critic that I dedicate to you this collection of my poems. You were the first to praise my simple rhymes, years before I met or dreamed of meeting you ; and since we became personally acquainted you have always been ready to counsel and encourage me in those literary pursuits to which I was led by the natural inclination of my mind, and which at too early an age, perhaps, I adopted as the principal means of hoped-for usefulness and happiness. I have been pleased, therefore, with the thought, that in such an inscription as this I might express something of my gratitude to you, and my respect for you. I know, indeed, that it is not an unusual distinction to have been an object of your kindly interest — that there are many among our younger authors who owe much to your wise advice and generous aid — so that if all who are in this way your debtors were so to manifest their feelings, you would be wearied with such displays of their considera- tion ; yet this is the only manner in which I can render you that homage which is due for your genius and worth, especially from me, who am under so many obligations to you; and I feel assured that you will receive my 4 DEDICA TION. offering with as miicli satisfaction as if it conferred on you more than on myself a desirable honor. Of the character of these Poems I have little to say: I submit them to the world's judgment, not without fears that the favor with which a considerable number of them have been received, as from time to time they have been separately printed, will not be preserved when they are read in so large a collection. It may be a woman's weakness, but I confess that I could never learn to blot or to revise, and after any effusion of a moment has gone from my hands, have had no heart to look at it w^ith the cold curiosity of a critic. " What is writ is writ," I have been content to say, adding with a just sense of its faults, " Would it were worthier," yet rarely or never feeling in the mood to destroy and re-create. Neverthe- less, while the pieces in this volume have, for the most part, their original imperfections, I am not without a pleasing belief that time and pains have done away with some of my earlier faults, and that they will still enable me to improve. I feel very sensibly that I have not redeemed the kind prophecies of my friends, nor fulfilled the hopes I have had and have now for myself. Born and reared in the midst of rural occupations, and all my most cherished memories keeping me still familiar with woods and fields, I have drawn from my own past the imagery and chief accessories of my poems, which have therefore in this respect a certain genuineness. It will be perceived that I have not often attempted new rhythms, but have been content in some cases to set my thoughts to music with which the world has sweetly rung for ages. The longest of these poems is based on an episode in Mr. Prescott's admirable work, " The Conquest of Mexico," and is composed in the main with fidelity to DEDICATION. 5 the representations of Prescott, Clavigero, Lord Kings- borough, and the few other authors within my reach who have written of Aztec history and civilization. I am not confident that I have always correctly under- stood the proper pronunciatiion of Aztec names, but I have as far as possible avoided the use of those which seemed the most difficult. To the objection sometimes urged against such themes, based on the idea that poetry has to do only with a high cultivation, accommodated to our own notions of taste and justice, I cannot assent; human nature is nearly the same in all conditions, and in every condition has elements of beauty, not less poeti- cal because displayed sometimes amid barbaric splendors and savage superstitions. I will not dwell further upon these poems — the writ- ten cloud and sunshine of so much of my life — but respectfully and gratefully dedicate them to you, as a memorial of our long existing friendship. A. C. New York, October, 1854. POEMS BY ALICE GARY. -o-oXKoo- KEATS* Till the future dares Forget the past, his fate and fame shall he' An echo and a light into f eternity. — Shelley. Across the southern hills comes the 3"0ung May, In her lap bearing, wet with honied showers, White and blue violets, open to the day, Blush roses, and the yellow cowslip flowers ; But from her o'er-full arms they lean away Toward the melodious shadows of warm June, Where their first love a pallid ghost doth stray Like a lorn maiden wailing 'neath the moon. A very queen of beauty doth she move, Waving her vermeil-blossomed wand in air; While Hope with crimsoning cheek, and soft-eyed Love, Sprinkle the yellow sunshine of her hair With winking flower-stars, and the blue above With its dropped hem of silver, beauteously Edged with the sea-green fringes of the grove, Tents her about with glory fair to see. Alone I sit, and yet not all alone. For unsubstantial beings near me tread ; At times I hear them piteously moan — Haply a plaint for the o'er-gifted dead, That, to the perfectness of stature grown. Had filled the vacant heart of Time for aye With a deep sea of melody unknown. And sunken from the embracing light of day. * Revised as " Hyperion " in volume of 1855. + Misprint for " unto." 7 8 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. And yet alone, for not a human heart Stirs with tumultuous throbbings the deep hush ; Almost the blue air seems to fall apart From the delirious warble of the thrush — A wave of lovely sound untouched of art, That floats above me like embodied joy ; for such wasteless dowery, to impart Delight so dainty and without alloy ! Deep in the shady cincture of the vale I hear a long and melancholy cry, As a lost spirit might in anguish wail, Clinging to sin, yet longing for the sky : And o'er the hill-tops, crowded with verdure pale, A gnarled oak lifts above its fellow trees Its gray head, palsy-stricken by the gale, Defiant of the lapse of centuries. A golden cloud above the sunken sun Holds the first star of the night's solemn train. Clasped from the world's profaneness, like a nun, Behind the shelter of the convent pane : Did the delicious light of such a one Fleck his dark pathway with its shimmering fire, Whose fingers, till life's little day was done. Clung like pale kisses to the charmed lyre ? 1 've read, in some chance fragment of old song, A tale to muse of in this lovely light. About a maiden fled from criiel wrong Into the chilly darkness of the night ; Upon whose milk-white bosom, cold and long. Beat the rough tempest ; but a waiting arm "Was reaching toward her, and in hope grown strong, Fled she along the woods and through the storm. But how had he or heart or hope to sing Of Madeline or Porphyro the brave. While the dim fingers of pale suffering Were pressing down his eyelids to the grave ? How could he to the shrine of genius bring The constant spirit of a bended knee, Ruffling the horrent blackness of Death's wing With the clear echoes of eternity ? KEA TS. 9 Hark ! was it but the wind that swept along, Shivering the hawthorn, pale with milky flowers ? The swan-like music of the dying song Seems swimming on the bosom of the hours. If Fancy cheats me thus, she does no wrong — With mists of glory is my heart o'erblown, And shapes of beauty round about me throng. When of that mused rhyme I catch the tone. lost and radiant wanderer of the storm, Beauty eternal shines along the wave. That bore thee on like an o'ermasteriug arm To the blind silence of the hungry grave ; Nor genial spring, nor summer sunshine warm, Broken to flakes of gold by boughs of gloom, Hath power to make life's frozen current warm, And the dark house of dust to re-illume. Tell me, ye sobbing winds, what sign ye made, Making the year with dismal pity rife, When the all-levelling and remorseless shade ' Closed o'er the lovely summer of his life? Did the sad hyacinths by the fountains fade, And tear-drops touch the eyelids of the morn, And Muses, empty-armed, the gods upbraid, When that great sorrow to the world was born ? Did Death stoop softly, and with gentle tone Sweetly dispose his pallid limbs to rest, As down the shadowy way he went alone, With Love's young music trembling in his breast ? Then sunk as fair a star as ever shone Along the gray and melancholy air ; And from Parnassus' hoary front, o'ergrown With plants immortal, moaned infirm Despair. Weave close, ye woods, your blooming boughs to-night, Shut from my sense the joyous insect choir, And all the intense stars whose wannish light Checkers the wavy grass like spots of fire : Nature for my sad thought is all too bright, And half I long for clouds to veil the sky, And softly weep for the untimely blight Of all of him I sing of that could die. 10 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The yellow leaves that covered up his grave Are hidden by the monumental stone ; Immortal amaranths o'er his slumber wave, And fame's deep trumpet to the world has blown The echoes of his lyre. In her mute cave, Silence shall lock my little song away. And the vain longing for the fount that gave His name to glory, perish with the clay. HANNIBAL'S LAMENT FOR HIS BROTHER. In the rich shadows of a gorgeous tent Sat the famed chief of Carthage, as through bars Of heavy gold the day's last beams were sent ; And Eve, in her tiara of bright stars And garniture of purple, to her breast Like a fond mother, took her child to rest. The boding phantom of his bosom brings The Alps before him, with their icy crags, For victory, with her broad and starry wings, Is settling brightly on the Roman flags ; And as the silent shadows round him close. His voice finds way through barriers of woes : — *' My lost, my fallen brother ! can it be That the proud beauty of thy brow is dim, Bright victor of fierce battles ? Is the dust That hides the commonest soldier, strewed o'er thee ? And must thy falchion ignominious rust ? Yet, he fell bravely, not unworthy him Who was the offspring of a battle-star. And cradled in the bloody arms of war ! And 't is my joy that he was not of those Who shrink from peril ; with a stoic's pride He bared his bosom to his country's foes. And, rushing to the combat, fought and died! Lost star of glory ! in my childhood's time Thou wert my sweetest counsellor and guide ; And in the freshness of my manhood's prime I wooed thee to my bosom as a bride : But thou, whose banner in the dust is veiled, With thee the aim of my existence died ; HANNIBAL'S LAMENT FOR HIS BROTHER. 11 And Fear, that never until now assailed, Sits like a mocking demon by my side ! " For hungry wolves, the Spartan mothers tore The babes from their warm bosoms, every day ; And if they smiled not, they at least forbore To give vain sorrow an o'ermastering sway : And have I more to sacrifice than they ? Yes, time, in part, their losses might restore, But mine must be remediless for aye. " I hear the constant singing of the streams, Down in the vineyards, beautiful and wide, — thou embitterer of my goldenest dreams, I thought to conquer thee before I died ! Ye gods ! must I be rifled of that joy. And taunted like a beardless, love-sick boy ! Yet have I battled with Rome's chiefest men. And triumphed gloriously ; her brazen gates Had not availed her haughty spirit then, Had I led firmly onward, — but the Fates Make me their sport and plaything, when one blow, Dealt by the hand of her eternal foe. Had crushed her power and placed her at my feet, — Her mighty heart my pillow : this were sweet ! " Gaul's proudest chivalry I 've met in fight. And trampled them as reeds upon the plain ; Slaughtered at bay, and hunted down in flight. They cried for quarter, but they cried in vain ; And the blue waters of the Rhone that night Stood red and stagnant, choked with heaps of slain ! " Were there no spectral shadows gliding there, baffled champion, for thy country's weal ? No semblances of " angels with bright hair Dabbled in blood," to fix the damning seal To a close-hugged ambition ? Better dwell The lowliest shepherd of Arcadia's bowers, Than mount to where the insatiate fire of hell. Like to a serpent's tooth, the heart devours ! 12 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. THE WRECK. Veiled were our topsails to the blast; our helm was lashed a-lee ; And fearlessly our vessel drove before a stormy sea, — O, safely in our midst that night had lain an empire's crown ; Eor every mariner had said our vessel must go down ! Some shrieked aloud; some humbly knelt, who never knelt before ; And some, with outstretched arms, looked forth toward the viewless shore ; And rougher still the rough wind blew, and heavier roll'd the sea. Till every heart was poured in prayer, God of the storm, to Thee. At length about the middle watch, an aged man and Eight in the solemn hush, stood up, and said he could not pray ; And while, above our gallant deck, the mountain-billows broke, Each soul forgot the storm, while thus the trembling sin- ner spoke : — '^ I 've been a rover of the seas these four-and-forty years. And, in their darkest hours, my eyes have been ashamed of tears ; But now I fain would give myself an offering to the deep, If I could say the prayers you say, or weep as you can weep. '' The blackest clouds along the sky, through which the thunders roll. Are calm as peace, when measured with the tempest in my soul : Once, when my heart was innocent, and joyous as a bird's, My mother taught me how to pray — I cannot say the words. THE WRECK. 13 " 'T is well that mother died so soon, for oft, I know, she smiled, And talked about the happiness that waited for her child ; And I have been long years of those whose troublings never cease, Aside from Virtue's pleasant ways and all her paths of peace. " My spirit grew the house of pride ; I scorned our hum- ble cot. And deemed that, for my lowliness, the world had loved me not. Once, when the night was dark, like this, the thunder's roll as deep, There was a whisper in my heart that would not let me sleep. "I knew 't was Satan telling me. Thou shalt not surely die; And yet I went, as goes the bird, down to the serpent's eye. Hard by my father's cot there dwelt a harmless man, and old. Whose house was filled with merchandise and shining heaps of gold. " That night I sought his dwelling out, and with a stealthy tread. Winding the gloomy passages, I stood beside his bed. I said the night was dark with storm ; but, by the light- ning's beam — (Oh, would to Heaven the arm upraised had withered in its gleam) — " I saw him : I have been, since then, in lighted halls of mirth — In deserts vast, and palaces, and caverns of the earth — A thousand and a thousand times I 've sailed across the deep. And that old man has with me been, awake^ and in my sleep. 14 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. "Almost my heart misgave me once, so wan he looked, and old; But when I turned to flee away, I saw the cursed gold ; And so I slew him — twice he stirred, and once he feebly cried. As with a rough and heavy stone I smote him till he died. "Then clutching, in my bloody hands, the prize, I fled away ; But shapeless things had followed me, that I could never slay. Three days in the thick woods I hid, afraid of every sound. And o'er and o'er I washed my hands in every pool I found. " My guilt upon the withered leaves * seemed writ, as on a scroll. And every wandering wind I met was questioning my soul : I thought the dead man's gold so thrilled the marrow in my bones. And, seeking out a lonesome cave, I hid it in the stones. "But still there were accusing tongues in herb, and flower, and tree. And so I left the haunts of men, and wandered on the sea " — Just then our fated vessel struck upon a rocky shore, — One shriek arose, and all again grew silent as before. I floated, as by miracle, upon the off-torn deck, And knew not any living soul was with me on the wreck ; But when the morn, with misty eyes, looked down upon the tide, That old man, with his arms across, was sitting at my side. * Corrected to " each withered leaf," in the Boston Public Library copy. / WOULD TELL HIM THAT I LOVE HIM. 15 I WOULD TELL HIM THAT I LOVE HIM. I WOULD tell him that I love him, but I know my tongue would fail, For his heart is proud and haughty, and would scorn the simple tale ; Since my feet have never wandered from the home where I was born, Save among the pleasant meadows and the fields of yellow corn. No ! my lips shall never speak it, for he knows I love him now ! He has seen the burning blushes on my cheek and on my brow; He has heard my accent falter when he said that we must part. And he must have read the writing that is written in my heart ! Unlearned am I in eloquence, save that of gentle words, And I never harked to music that was sweeter than the • birds' — 0! if his haughty mother knew I loved but half so well. She would hate me with a bitterness that words could never tell ! I Ve left my gentle sister and her ever warm embrace When I knew that young Sir Richard would be coming from the chase ; For somehow oft it chances in our rambles that we meet, And I think — shall I deny it? — that a stolen kiss is sweet ! Last night I dreamed I stood with him before a man of prayer. With the garland of white blossoms, that he gave me, in my hair ; And he called me by a dearer name than sister, or than friend — ! how I wish so sweet a dream had never had an end ! 16 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Not for his lordly castles and his acres of broad land Do I love young Kichard Percy ; for with but his heart and hand, A cabin in the wilderness, a cavern by the sea, Or a tent in the wide desert, would be home enough for me. THE SPECTRE WOMAN. Along the hollow chancel the winds of autumn sung. And the heavy flitting of the bat was heard the aisles among ; The sky was full of stars that night, the moon was at the full, And yet about the old gray church the light was some- thing dull. And in that solemn churchyard, where the mould was freshly thrown. Wrapped in a thin, cold sheet, there sat a lovely maid alone : The dark and tangled tresses half revealed her bosom's charms. And a something that lay hidden, like a birdling in her arms. By that pale, sad brow of beauty, and the locks that fall so low. And by the burning blushes in that lovely cheek, I know She hath listened to the tempter, she hath heard his whisper dread, When the " Get behind me, Satan," hath been all too faintly said. It was not the willows trailing, as the winds among them stole. That was heard there at the midnight, nor the digging of the mole ; Nor yet the dry leaves dropping where the grass was crushed and damp, And the light that shone so spectral was not the fire-fly's lamp. THE PAST AND PRESENT. 17 The pale moon veiled her beauty in a lightly passing cloud, When a voice was heard thrice calling to that woman in the shroud ! But whether fiend or angel were for her spirit come, The lips that could have told it have long been sealed and dumb. But they say, who pass that churchyard at the dead watch of the night. That a woman in her grave-clothes, when the moon is full and bright. Is seen to bend down fondly, but without a mother's pride. Over something in her bosom that her tresses cannot hide. THE PAST A:N^D PRESENT. Ye everlasting conjurers of ill. Who fear the Samiel in the lightest breeze, Go, moralize with Marius, if you will, In the old cradle of the sciences ! Bid the sarcophagi unclose their lids — Drag the colossal sphinxes forth to view — Rouse up the builders of the pyramids, And raise the labyrinthian shrines anew ; And see the haughty favorite of the fates — The arbiter of myriad destinies : Thebes, with her "feast of lights" and hundred gates,' And Carthage, mother of sworn enmities, Not mantled with the desolate weeds and dust Of centuries, but as she sat apart, Nursing her lions, ere the eagle thrust His bloody talons deep into her heart ; — Then say, what was she in her palmiest times That we should mourn forever for the past? In fame, a very Babylon — her crimes Thfe plague-spot of the nations to the last ! And Rome ! the seven-hilled city; she that rose Girt with the majesty of peerless might, 18 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. From out the ashes of her fallen foes — She in whose lap was poured, like streams of light, The wealth of nations : was she not endowed With that most perilous gift of beauty — pride ? And spite of all her glories blazoned loud, Idolatrous, voluptuous, and allied Closer to vice than virtue ? Hark ! the sounds Of tramping thousands in her stony street ! And now the amphitheatre resounds With acclamations for the engrossing feat ! Draw near, where men of war and senates stood, And see the pastime, whence they joyance drank, — The Lybian lion lapping the warm blood Oozed from the Dacian's bosom. On the bank Of the sweet Danube, smiling children wait To greet their sire, unconscious of his fate. Oh, draw the wildering veil a little back, Ye blind idolators of things that were ; Who, through the glory trailing in their track. See but the whiteness of the sepulchre ! Then to the Present turning, ye will see Even as one, the universal mind Rousing, like genius from a reverie. With the exalted aim to serve mankind : Lo ! as my song is closing, I can feel The spirit of the Present in my heart ; And for the future, with a wiser zeal. In life's great drama I would act my part: That they may say, who see the curtain fall And from the closing scene in silence go. Haply as some light favor they recall, Peace to her ashes, — she hath lessened woe ! DEATH OF CLEOPATRA. The stars of Egypt's haughty crown Were settled on the brow, And many a purple wave swept down From royal dust below. DEATH OF CLEOPATRA. 19 Girt with the realms that owned her power, Enthroned in regal pride, With priceless kingdoms for a dower, Imperial beauty died. The spoils of cities overthrown Her broad dominion lined ; With pearls her palaces were sown As blossoms by the wind. Her merchant-ships on every sea The royal flag unrolled, Laden with spices heavily And fragrant oil and gold. And yet from all the proud array That gather round a throne, The queen imperious turned away, Sickened, and died alone. How died she ? Through her chamber dim Did songs and victories roll ? And were there fervent prayer and hymn Said for the parting soul ? Not so : they brought her robes of state. And decked her for the tomb, And, cumbered with the gorgeous weight. She proudly met her doom : And o'er the hand of heavy clay That once had guided wars. In all their mocking beauty lay The purple and the stars. Earth lent her soul no power to stem Such stormy waves as were ; And the sweet star of Bethlehem Had risen not for her. Thou, who daily givest its beams, Be the dark sins forgiven Of her whose wild and mystic dreams Were all she knew of Heaven. 20 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. PALESTINE. Bright inspiration ! shadowing my heart Like a sweet dream of beauty — could I see Tabor and Carmel ere I hence depart, And tread the quiet vales of Galilee, And look from Hermon, with its dew and flowers, Upon the broken walls and mossy towers O'er which the Son of man in sadness wept, The dearest promise of my life were kept. Alas ! the beauteous cities, crowned with flowers, And robed with royalty ! no more in thee. Fretted with golden pinnacles and towers. They sit in haughty beauty by the sea : Shadows of rocks, precipitate and dark, Eest still and heavy where they found a grave ; There glides no more the humble fisher's bark. And the wild heron drinks not of the wave. But still the silvery willows fringe the rills, Judea's shepherd watches still his fold ; And round about Jerusalem the hills Stand in their solemn grandeur as of old ; And Sharon's roses still as sweetly bloom As when the apostles, in the days gone by, Kolled back the shadows from the dreary tomb, And brought to light life's immortality. The East has laid down many a beauteous bride In the dim silence of the sepulchre. Whose names are shrined in story, but beside There lives no sign to tell they ever were. The imperial fortresses of old renown — Rome, Carthage, Thebes — alas ! where are they now ? In the dim distance lost and crumbled down ; The glory that was of them, from her brow Took off the wreath in centuries gone by. And walked the Path of Shadows silently. But, Palestine ! what hopes are born of thee — I cannot paint their beauty — hopes that rise. NAPOLEON AT THE DEATH OF DUROC. 21 Linking this perishing mortality To the bright, deathless glories of the skies ! There the sweet Babe of Bethlehem was born — Love's mission finished there in Calvary's gloom, There blazed the glories of the rising morn, And Death lay gasping there at Jesus' tomb ! NAPOLEON AT THE DEATH OF DUEOC. Thou who movest through the tent-lights, Like a cloud among the stars, With the flags about thee streaming Like the shadows of red Mars ; Art thou he who lately slumbered By the Nile with turbans red, While the children of the desert Wailed about thee for their dead ? Yes, thou 'rt he whose standards fluttered Where the Rhine's bright billows flow, And where brave men left their footprints Eed in Hohenlinden's snow ! He, upon whose shattered columns, Darkened by the artillery's frown, At the awful Beresina, Victory's starry wings came down ! Erom the plains of Rio Seco To Siberia's mountain heights, Glory with thy name is blended. Hero of a thousand fights ! Yet thou movest through the tent-lights Like a cloud among the stars, With the flags about thee floating Like the shadows of red Mars. 22 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. One thy great soul loves is dying, One of courage true and tried, And the spirit faints, and triumph Fails before affection's tide. Hark ! the bursts of lordly music On the midnight rise and fall ! Wounded Eagle of the Legion, Wilt thou answer to its call ? Yes, the Imperial Guard are flying Toward the dark tent of the king ! Death hath taken home his captive, Is the tidings which they bring ! Therefore moves he through the tent-lights Like a cloud among the stars. With the flags about him trailing Like the shadows of red Mars ! THE ORPHAN GIUL* My heart shall rest where greenly flow The willows o'er the meadow — The fever of this burning brow Be cooled beneath their shadow. When summer birds go singing by. And sweet rain wakes the blossom, My weary hands shall folded lie Upon a peaceful bosom. When, Nature, shall the night begin That morning ne'er displaces, And I be calmly folded in Thy long and still embraces ? Dearer than to the Arab maid, When sands are hotly glowing. The deep well and tented shade, Were peace of thy bestowing. * Reprinted in the volume of 1855 without the third stanza. THE HOMELESS. 23 My soul was once a house of light, Whose joy might not be spoken ; But Fancy wore a wing too bright, And now my heart is broken ! But where the violets darkly bloom. And greenly flows the willow — Down on the pavement of the tomb, There waits a quiet pillow. THE HOMELESS. As down on the wing of the raven Or drops on the upas-tree lie, So darkness and blight are around me To-night, I can scarcely tell why ! Alone in the populous city ! No hearth for my coming is warm, And the stars, the sweet stars, are all hidden On high in the cloud and the storm ! The memories of things that are saddest. The phantoms unbidden that start From the ashes of hopes that have perished, Are with me to-night in my heart ! Alas ! in this desolate sorrow. The moments are heavy and long ; And the white-pinioned spirit of Fancy Is weary, and hushes her song. One word of the commonest kindness Could make all around me seem bright, As birds in the haunts of the summer. Or lights in a village at night ; But lacking that word, on my spirit There settles the heaviest gloom, ^nd I sit with the midnight around me. And long for the peace of the tomb. 24 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. A NOEL AND BALLAD* The train of the Norse king Still winds the descents, Leading down where the waste-ridge Is white with his tents ; The eve star is climbing Above where they lie, Like hills at the harvest-time. White with the rye. Who comes through the red light Of bivouac and torch, With footsteps un slackened By fasting or march? Majestic in sorrow, No white hand, I trow. Can take from that forehead Its pale seal of woe : Past grooms that are merrily • Combing the steeds, To the tent of the Norse king He hurriedly speeds ; A right noble chieftain, — That gloved hand, I know. Has swooped the ger-falcon And bended the bow. Out speaks he the counsel He comes to afford — " As loves this engloved hand The hilt of my sword — As loves the pale martyr The sacrament seal — My heart loves my liege lord And prays for his weal. ^' I once wooed a maiden. As fair to my sight * As the bride of the Norse king I plead for to-night ; * Given here as reprinted, with a few verbal changes, in the volume of 1855, A NORLAND BALLAD. 25 As thou dost, I tarried, Her fond faith to prove, And the wall of the convent Grew up 'twixt our love. " Hold we to our marching Three leagues from this ridge, And we compass our rear-guard With moat and with bridge: Give one heart such shriving As priest can afford, And a sweet loving lady The arms of her lord ! " felt you sweet pity For half I have borne, The scourgings, the fastings, The lip never shorn ; You fain would not linger For wassail's wild sway, But leaping to saddle. Would hold on the way." Outspoke then the Norse king, Half pity, half scorn, " Go back to thy fasting And keep thee unshorn ; No tale of a woman Pause I to divine ; " And from the full goblet He quaffed the red wine. Then fell sire and liegeman To feasting and song ; I ween to such masquers The night was not long : And but one little trembler Stood pale in the arch, When gave the king signal To take up the march. If danger forewarn him, The omen he hides, 26 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And mounting right gaily, He sings as he rides : " Now, bird of the border, Look forth for thy chief ; By the bones of St. Peter, Thy watch shall be brief ! " " Stand forth, wretched prophet," He cries in his wrath, As his foam-covered charger Has struck on the path Leading down to his castle ; " Stand forth ! here is moat, Here is drawbridge — we charge Back the lie in thy throat ! " " Pause, son of the mighty. My bode is not lost Till the step of the master The lintel has crossed ; And then if my counsel Prove ghostly or vain " — The king smiled in triumph And flung down the rein. Lo ! passed is the threshold, None answer his call ; Why starts he and trembles ? There 's blood in the hall ! His step through the corridor Hurriedly dies, 'T is only an echo That answers his cries. One pale golden ringlet That kissed the white cheek Of the beautiful lady They find as they seek : There was mounting of heralds In hot haste, I ween. But the bride of the Norse king Was never more seen. MORNA. 27 MORNA. Alas ! 't is many a weary day Since, on a pleasant eve of May, I first beheld her ; slight and fair With simple violets in her hair, And a pale brow of thought beneath, That never wore a prouder wreath ; And roses hanging on her arm, Fresh gathered from the mountain side ; And wherefore, by her mien and form She is not mother, wife, nor bride? Surely the hopes of childish years Still freshly on her girlhood rise ; But no, her cheek is wet with tears — What do they in those heavenly eyes ? The mournful truth they well belie ; The roses, and the child-like form, I know thee, by that look and sigh, A pale, sweet blossom of the storm. And see ! she pauses now, and stands Where step save hers has scarcely trod, And softly, with her milk-white hands, Lays down her blossoms in the sod. There is no marble slab to tell Who lies so peacefully asleep ; 'T is written on the heart as well, Of her who lingers there to weep. One evening in the accustomed vale I missed the blossoms from the turf. For Morna's lovely brow was pale, And cold as ocean's beaten surf. That night I learned, beside her bier, The story of her grief in part. — For much, that mortal might not hear, Lay hidden in her broken heart. She was the child of poverty. And knew from birth its friendless ills ; But never blossom fair as she Grew up among her native hills. Sweet child ! she early learned to sigh ; The roses on her cheek grew pale ; 28 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. It matters not to tell thee why — ^ Who is there will not guess the tale? He was the haughty child of pride — The angel of delusive dreams ; And therefore was she not a bride Who slumbers by her native streams. The weeds of desolate years o'erspread The pathway where so oft she trod ; No mourner lingers o'er her bed, Or bears fresh blossoms to the sod. ALDA.* You would have loved her, had you seen ; The beauty of her life was prayer ; The sweet sky never wet with showers A bed of yellow primrose flowers As sunny as the lovely sheen Of her loose hair. O'er the low casement her soft hands Twined tenderly the creeping vines ; Out in the woodland's shady glooms Loved she to gather summer blooms, And where, from yonder valley lands, The river shines. The rain was falling when she died. The sky was dismal with its gloom. And autumn's melancholy blight Shook down the yellow leaves that night, And mournfully the low winds sighed About her tomb. At midnight, near the gray old towers That lift their lordly pride so high, Was heard the dismal raven's croak. From the red shadows of the oak, And with her pale arms full of flowers, The dead went by. * Reprinted in volume of 1855, THE PIRATE. 29 An old man now, with thin white hair, Oft counts his beads beneath that tree ; Sometimes when noontide's glow is bright, And sometimes in the lonesome night, He breathes the dead girl's name in prayer On bended knee. A shepherd boy — so runs the tale — Once, as he pent his harmless flocks. Crossed the sweet maid, her lap all full Of lilies pied, and cowslips dull, Weaving up fillets, red and pale, . For her long locks. Sweetly the eve-star lit the towers, When, homeward riding from the chase, Down from his coal-black steed there leapt A courtier gay, whose dark plumes swept A cloud of ringlets bound with flowers. And love-lit face. Summer is gone — the casement low, With dead vines darkened — winds are loud ; Alda, no more the gray old towers Shut from thee heaven's sweet border flowers. Comb back the locks of golden glow, And bring the shroud. THE PIRATE. Elzimina ! maid of ocean, With the bosom of soft light, Seest thou, settling down between us. Stormy, never-ending night ? Through thy curtains of pale splendor, As the rosy lamp-light falls. Comes there not a memory, tender, Of my dungeon's stony walls ? 30 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Elzimina ! maid of ocean, I can see thee, pale and meek, Wiping with thy amber tresses The salt waters from thy cheek — Struggling like a beam of brightness Towards my closing prison-door. With thy arms of tender whiteness Stretched to clasp me once, once more ! Elzimina ! maid of ocean. But the love of heaven's sweet shore Or the dread of hell could tempt me That dark parting to live o'er. Will there not some mystic token Fill thy heart with bitter pain When the sod lies cold and broken Where thy head so oft hath lain ? Elzimina ! maid of ocean. Rising from the hills I see, Thin and white, the mists of morning. That shall never set for me ! Wrecks of vessels lost and stranded Filled thy soft heart with alarm, And the gray wings, beating landward, Warned the sailor of the storm. When, lovely maid of ocean. From the rocking deck with me. Saw ye last the fiery sunset Paint the arteries of the sea ? When the red moon's reddest shadow Like a mantle clasped thy form, And the green waves like a meadow Rose and fell before the storm. Elzimina! dream of beauty, 'Neath the lips that dare not speak, Like the moonlight's falling crimson Burned thy lily brow and cheek. Destiny than will is stronger. And thy gentle eyes must weep, When my red flag lights no longer The blue bosom of the deep ! THE ORPHAN'S DREAM OF LOVE. 31 Elzimina! maid of ocean, Farewell now to thee and hope, E'en thy white hands cannot save me From the coiling gallows rope. From the scaffold, newly risen. Creeps a shadow, dull and slow. O'er the damp wall of my prison — God have mercy on thy woe ! THE OEPHAN'S DREAM OF LOVE. Oh ! how my very heart could weep To think that none will see nor know ; Love's fountain may be still when deep. And silent, though it overflow. But blossoms may unheeded grow, Whose leaves the sweetest balm enfold, And streams be noiseless in their flow That wander over sands of gold. O love ! thou word that sums all bliss — Thou that no language ever told — Best gift of brighter worlds to this, — They err, and oh ! their hearts are cold. Who hope to speak thee : — such would seem A thing too little worth to prize. And mine is an ideal dream The world can never realize ! They find, whose spirits blend with mine, Thy best interpreter a sigh ; Bring their wreath offering to the shrine. And lay their hearts down silently. There comes at times, on viewless wings. And nestles in my heart, a bird — Of Heaven, I think — for oh ! it sings The sweetest songs I ever heard. When first it came, 't was long ago. For childhood's years were scarcely by, Summer and evening time, I know. For stars were floating in the sky. With sunbeams on the hills at play. 32 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And gathering moss and braiding flowers, I had been out the long, long day Till twilight came with dewy hours ; And treading carelessly along The pathway, through the starlit glen, I heard this sudden flow of song, Which I had never heard till then. I recked not of the time I stayed Enraptured, so the melting lay With sweetness filled the thickening shade ; But when at length I turned away The stars had streaked with silver beams The dusky mantle midnight wore, And I was dreaming such sweet dreams As I had never dreamed before ! I Avas an orphan — childhood's years Had passed in heaviness of heart ; No second self had soothed my tears, Or in my gladness bore a part. But then — perchance the thought was w^eak, Though vainly by the lips supprest. For aught of which the heart can speak Is never long a secret guest — I thought that there might yet be won What in the world is daily found, " Something to love, to lean upon, To clasp affection's tendrils round." 0, if love's dreams be all so sweet As those which then to me were given, Two kindred spirits, when they meet. Must surely taste the bliss of heaven ! It may be, why I scarcely know. But so to me it never seemed. It may be fancy made it so. But as I wandered on, I dreamed That everything I looked upon Was full of loveliness and light; The starry wreath that night had on Before had never shone so bright. And with such blessings in his path, I marvelled man should ever sin — Oh ! earth a crowning radiance hath When all is light and peace within ! THE BLUE SCARF. 33 But since that vision of the glen Long weary years have o'er me flown, And left me what they found me then, Within the wide, wide world alone. THE BLUE SCARF. The soldier of an elder clime — His bosom seamed with scars — Has oft beguiled my wanderings With legends of the wars. Once as we slacked our bridle-reins To gain a rising hill, He told a tale of other times That I remember still. Sunset was slanting rosily, And every cloud on high Was like a floating pyramid Of blossoms in the sky. " There 's something," said the aged sire, " In everything I see That brings again the lights and shades Of other days to me: " For one, of all my brethren The bravest in the fight. Stood with me in the crimson haze Of just so sweet a night. We heard, against the shelving rocks, The dashing of the seas. And saw the summer sun go down From just such hills as these. " There never was a stronger arm In any field of war. Nor heart that beat more fearlessly Beneath a knight's broad star. For ever in the hottest fight We saw his scarf of blue: His eye repelled the curious — His name we never knew. 34 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. " He never joined in reveliyj And never wept the slain, And never either smiled or sighed For any loss or gain : For when the wings of victory- Were shining o'er our host, I 've seen him in his tent as sad As if the day were lost. " Once grappling with an enemy Whose fingers, dropping blood, Left on his flaunting scarf their print — I slew him where he stood. For this he seemed to love me more Than aught of living breath, And at the peril of his soul Thrice rescued me from death. " And when all hacked with gaping wounds That left me many a scar. The long and weary march was his Of the blue scarf and star. And when sweet voices called me back From warfare's stern array, He girt my heavy armor on And shared my homeward way. " The old ancestral hills, at last, That overhung the sea, Were reached, and eve put on a smile As if to welcome me. Then said the knight, most mournfully, ^ Our path is one no more ; Thine to yon ancient castle leads. And mine is by the shore.' " When at the morning hour I saw The heavy shades of night Break sullenly and roll away Before the welcome light. Without a hand upon his rein. As there was wont to be. His steed, with all his housings on. Stood champing by the sea. THE STRANGER'S EPITAPH. 36 " And there, all wet and tangled, lay The bright blue scarf he wore, Among the sea-weed and the sand. Washed out upon the shore. there were dark imaginings — They may have been untrue — For blent with that insignia Was all we ever knew." THE STRANGER'S EPITAPH. 'T IS but a sad and simple line, Portraying well the sleeper's doom ; I pray it never may be thine — Stoop down and read it on her tomb. She gave it me the night she died ; I never thought to know the rest. Believing that her maiden pride Was fain to lock it in her breast. " She perished of a broken hecwt,'' — In truth a sad and simple line ; If this her story doth impart, I pray it never may be mine ! The time I never shall forget. When, with her dark eyes full of tears, She told me that the seal was set Upon the limit of her years : And even ere she ceased to speak What secretly before I knew. The hectic deepening on her cheek Attested that the words were true. It was not that she feared to lie On the cold pillow of the tomb ; But sometimes, though we scarce know why, The heart is full, and tears will come. Whatever griefs were hers to bear. They surely had no taint of sin; 36 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. A temple outwardly so fair Could only have been pure within : And sometimes when the fountain stirred Too palpably within her breast, A sigh, a tear, a broken word, Have left her secret more than guessed. As from this vale we watched the stir Of the light billows of the sea, Both sadly musing — I of her. And she of anything but me — She warbled something in a tone As light and joyous as a bird's, (It never sounded like her own Unless the heart were in the words,) Something of summer fruit and flowers. Of waving meadows and ripe grain — Of home and hearth, and wedded hours, Then pausing suddenly — " 'T is vain, 'T is more than vain," she sadly said, " To nurse these haunting visions now : The nuptial and the bridal bed Were never meant for me and thou. thou for whom I could have died, I am as nothing unto thee ! Well, hast thou not another bride. And wherefore should I care to be ? '' Then placing her thin hand in mine. Half sad, half playfully, she said, " I fain would have this simple line Upon my tomb when I am dead." Another evening came — the breeze Was lightly sporting with the wave, And wild birds dropping in the trees. Whose shadows rested on her grave. Three summer-times the grass had grown Unshaven on her lowly bed. And autumn's yellow leaves been strown As often o'er the slumbering dead, When on the evening of a day As beautiful as that she died, A harper and a maiden gay, — Haply she may have been his bride. THE BETRAYAL. 37 Haply a sister, or a friend, I know not, — but her joyous laugh She checked, and here I saw them bend To read the stranger's epitaph. And both alike were young and fair, And both were happy, it may be, And yet, though lightly touched of care, Some dark thread in the destiny Of one must surely have had place — Leaning against this solemn yew. And muffling from the light his face, He wept as man may scarcely do ; It-seemed as if some thought of pain By the sad epitaph was stirred, For oft he turned, then came again, And read it over word by word. The twilight's rosy hours went by, And evening deepened into gloom ; The last stars trembled in the sky. And still I saw them by the tomb. And once since then in every year. What time the reaper loves to see, I note the self-same minstrel here. And marvel what his grief can be. She perished of a broken heart — We can but guess the harper's fate ; But surely thus to die apart Were better than to meet too late ! THE BETRAYAL.* Tell me when the stars are flashing In the northern sky so blue, Or when morning's tender crimson Sweetly burns among the dew. Comes there no reproachful whisper Erom the mornings and the eves. When Hope's white buds into beauty Opened like the faint young leaves ? * Given here as reprinted, with slight changes, in the volume of 1855. 38 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Ay, thou feel'st, despite thy silence — That betrayal burns thy cheek ; Even to Love's forgiving bosom There be thoughts thou canst not speak From the roses of that bridal, The dark price of nameless woe, Thou mayst not unbind the curses Till thy last of suns is low ! Lost and broken is the music That with beauty filled the night, — Melted from the frozen branches Are the frost-stars glistening bright, — When a maid with trembling bosom Watched a ne'er returning steed. Cleaving through the silver shadows, On and on, his shaft-like speed ! Faint against the ringing pavement. Fainter still the hoof-strokes beat ; Scarcely can she tell the shimmer Of the flint-sparks from the sleet. Years are gone : the village hilltops Redden with the sunset's glow ; With a lap all bright with blossoms Still the summers come and go. With a cheek grown thinner, whiter, And the dark locks put away From a brow of patient beauty, Dwells the maiden of my lay — Dwells she where the peaceful shadow Of her native hills is thrown. Binding up the wounds of others All the better for her own. THE CHILDREK Come, sit down, little children. Beneath these green old trees. There 's such a world of sweetness In the kisses of the breeze : THE CHILDREN. 39 Now push away the tresses From your young and healthful brows, And listen to the music Up above us in the boughs. How pleasant is the stirring Where the leaves are thick and bright; And the wings of birds are floating, Like the golden summer light. The fragrance of the brier-rose Is sweet upon the air ; And the pinks and dark-leaved violets Are scattered everywhere. The lilies hang their silver cups Close to the water's edge, And the pebbles are veined deeply As the berries in the hedge. But where yon winding pathway Along the hill is trod, 'T is the mourner's heavy footstep That has worn away the sod. The smooth white stones, like spectres, Are standing in the shade, To mark the narrow chambers Where the old and young are laid. There hides the deadly night-shade Where the tall and bent grass waves ; And willow's tresses, long and sad, Are trailed above the graves. Not with the gentle falling Of the early summer rain ; Not with the pleasant rushing Of the sickle in the grain ; Nor when the crimson mantle Of the morn is o'er them spread, Shall the pale hands be unfolded From the bosoms of the dead. But there 's a morn appproaching When the sleepers shall arise. And go up and be with angels In the ever-cloudless skies. 40 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Oh, earth is very beautiful With sunshine and with flowers ; But there 's a world, my little friends, Of purer hearts than ours. TO MARY* Oh, will affection's tendrils twine About that summer-time for aye, When, midway 'twixt thy home and mine The quiet village churchyard lay ! — With stars beginning to ascend. The nighthawks scooping through the air — Dost thou remember, oh, my friend, How often we have parted there ? That summer was a sunlit sea, Reflecting neither cloud nor frown, Yet in its bright wave noiselessly Some ventures of the heart went down ; Blest be the one that still outrides The silent but tumultuous strife Of hopes and fears, the heaving tides. That beat against the shore of life! The flowers run wild that used to be So softly tended by thy hand — Colors of beauty struck at sea. And drifted backward to the land ; Breathing of havens whence we sailed, Visions of lovelight seen and fled. Swift barks of gladness met and hailed. Of beacon fires, and land ahead ! To-night, sweet friend, the light and shade Are trembling softly in my heart ; A hush upon my soul is laid — Our paths henceforth must lie apart ; In the dim chamber where I sit. Fears, hopes, and memories rise and blend, Like cloud wastes with the sunshine lit — Only with them art thou, my friend ! * Given here as reprinted, with a few verbal changes, in the volume of 1865. THE LOVER'S VISION. 41 THE LOVER'S VISION.* The inist o'er the dark woods Hangs whiter than snow, And the dead leaves keep surging And moaning below ! Who treads through their dim aisles ? Now answer me fair — 'T is not the bat's flabby wing Beating the air! A sweet vision rises, Though dimly defined, And a hand on my forehead Lies cold as the wind ! I clasp the white bosom, No heart beats beneath ; From the lips, once so lovely, Forth issues no breath. The red moon was climbing The rough rocks behind, And the dead leaves kept moaning, As now, in the wind ; The white stars were shining Through cloud-rifts above, When first in these dim woods I told her my love. Half fond, half reproachful. She gazed in my face. And, shrinking, she suffered My fervid embrace : And speaking not, lingered With love's bashful art. Till the light of her dark eyes Burned down to my heart ! * Given here as reprinted, with a few verbal changes, in the volume of 1855. 42 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Like the leaf of the lily When Autumn is chill, The tiny hand trembled That now is so still ; And I knew the sweet passion, Her lips only sighed, In the hush of her chamber The night that she died! O'er the shroud of the pale one I made then a vow To kiss back the crimson Of life to her brow ; If she from the still grave Would come, as she hath, And walk at the midnight This lone forest path. The cloud-rifts are closing. The white stars are gone; But the hushed step of darkness Moves solemnly on. I call the dead maiden, But win no reply — She has gone, and forever, — Would I, too, could die. MELODY. Where white in the jungles Lay bones of the dead. All night the wild lioness Howled as she fed : The wind hot and sultry. And scarcely awake, Through the dust of the desert-sand Crept like a snake. But a beacon gleamed redly The blue rocks along. Where a golden-tressed maiden Sat singing her song : TO LUCY. 43 With her passionate warble The white sea-mist stirred, And a boat to the desert shore Flew like a bird. The deep burning blushes That cover her brow, In a lover's embraces Are all hidden now. Wild rover of ocean, Proud scorner of storms, Guard fondly the treasure Thus clasped in thine arms. As the eyes of the pilgrim, Wherever he be, Turn, down-trodden city Of beauty, to thee : Turn thou, in life's pauses Of dimness arid care, To the sweet love of woman, That all things will dare! '? TO LUCY. The leaves are rustling mournfully. The yellow leaves and sere ; For Winter with his naked arms And chilling breath is here. The rills that all the autumn-time Went singing to the sea, Are waiting in their icy chains For Spring to set them free. No bird is heard the livelong day Upon its mates to call. And coldly and capriciously The slanting sunbeams fall. There is a shadow on my heart I cannot fling aside ; Sweet sister of my soul ! with thee Hope's brightest roses died. 44 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. I 'm thinking of the pleasant hours That vanished long ago, When summer was the goldenest, And all things caught its glow : I 'm thinking where the violets In fragrant beauty lay, Of the buttercups and primroses That blossomed in our way. I see the willow, and the spring O'ergrown with purple sedge ; The lilies and the scarlet pinks That grew along the hedge ; The meadow, where the elm tree threw Its shadows dark and wide. And sister-flowers in beauty grew And perished side by side : O'er the accustomed vale and hill Now Winter' g robe is spread ; The beetle and the moth are still, And all the flowers are dead. I mourn for thee, sweet sister, When the wintry hours are here ; But when the days grow long and bright, And skies are blue and clear — Oh, when the Summer's banquet, Among the flowers is spread. My spirit is most sorrowful That thou art with the dead. We laid thee in thy narrow bed When autumn winds were high — Thy life had taught us how to live, And then we learned to die. AN EVENING TALE.* Come, thou of the drooping eyelid. And cheek that is meekly pale. Give over thy pensive musing And list to a lonesome tale ; * Reprinted under title of " The Convent " in the volume of 1855. AN EVENING TALE. 46 For hearts that are torn and bleeding, Or heavy as thine, and lone, May find in another's sorrow Forgetfulness of their own. So heap on the blazing fagots And trim the lamp anew. And I '11 tell you a mournful story — I would that it were not true ! The bright red clouds of the sunset On the tops of the mountains lay, And many and goodly vessels Were anchored below in the bay ; We saw the walls of the city, And could hear its vexing din, As our mules, with their nostrils smoking, Drew up at a w^ayside inn : The hearth was ample and blazing, For the night was something chill. But my heart, though I knew not wherefore, Sank down with a sense of ill. That night I stood on the terrace O'erlooking a blossomy vale. And the gray old walls of a convent, That loomed in the moonlight pale — Till the lamp of the sweet Madonna Grew faint as if burning low, And the midnight bell in the turret Swung heavily to and fro — When just as its last sweet music Came back from the echoing hill, And the hymn of the ghostly friars In the fretted aisle grew still — On a rude bench, hid among olives, I noted a maiden fair. Alone, with the night wind playing In the locks of her raven hair. Thrice came the sound of her sighing, And thrice were her red lips pressed With wild and passionate fervor To the cross that hung on her breast : 46 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. But her bearing was not the bearing That to saintly soul belongs, Albeit she chanted the fragments Of holy and beautiful songs. 'T was the half hour after the midnight, And, so like that it might be now, The full moon was meekly climbing Over the mountain's brow — When the step of the singing maiden In the corridor lightly trod, And I presently saw her kneeling In prayer to the mother of God ! On the leaves of her golden missal Darkly her loose locks lay, And she cried, " Forgive me, sweet Virgin, And mother of Jesus, I pray ! " When the music was softly melting From the eloquent lips of morn, Within the walls of the convent Those beautiful locks were shorn: And wherefore the veil was taken Was never revealed by time, But Charity sweetly hopeth For sorrow, and not for crime. SAILOE'S SONG. Ha ! the bird has fled my arrow — Though the sunshine of its plumes, Like the summer dew, is dropping On its native valley blooms : In the shadow of its parting wing Shall I sit down and pine, That it pours its song of beauty On another heart than mine ? From thy neck, my trusty charger, I will strip away the rein. But to crop the flowery prairie May it never bend again ! THE OLD HOMESTEAD. 47 With thy hoof of flinty silver, And thy blue eye shining bright, Through the red mists of the morning Speed like a beam of light. I 'm sick of the dull landsmen — 'T is time, my lads, that we Were crowding on the canvas, And standing out to sea ! Ever making from the headlands Where the wrecker's beacons ride Red and deadly, like the shadow Of the lion's brinded hide ; And hugging close the islands, That are belted with the blue. Where a thousand birds are singing In the dells of light and dew ; Time unto* our songs the billows With their dimpled hands shall keep, As we 're ploughing the white furrows In the bosom of the deep ! In watching the light flashing Like live sparks from our prow, •» With but the bitter kisses Of the cold surf on my brow, May my voyage at last be ended, And my sleep be in the tide, With the sea-waves clasped around me. Like the white arms of a bride. THE OLD HOMESTEAD.f When first the skies grow warm and bright And fill with light the hours, And, in her pale, faint robes, the Spring Is calling up the flowers, — * Corrected to "to " in the Boston Public Library copy. t This Doem «-'as rewritten by the author in later years, and a fifth stanza was added. 48 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. When children, with un slippered feet, Go forth with hearts of glee, To the straight and even furrows Where the yellow corn must be, — What a beautiful embodiment Of ease, devoid of pride, Is the good old-fashioned homestead. With doors still open wide ! But when the happiest time is come That to the year belongs. Of uplands bright with harvest gold, And meadows full of songs, — When fields of yet unripened corn And daily garnering stores Remind the thrifty husbandman Of ampler threshing-floors, — How pleasant, from the din and dust Of the thoroughfare aloof. Seems the old-fashioned homestead, With steep and mossy roof ! When home the woodsman plods, with axe Upon his shoulder swung, And in the knotted apple tree Are scythe and sickle hung, — When light the swallows twitter 'Neath the rafters of the shed, And the table on the ivied porch With decent care is spread, — The hearts are lighter and freer Than beat in the populous town. In the old-fashioned homestead, With gables sharp and brown ! When the flowers of Summer perish In the cold and bitter rain. And the little birds with weary wings Have gone across the main, — When curls the blue smoke upward Toward the bluer sky. And cold along the naked hills And white the snow-drifts lie, — / KNOW THOU ART FREE. 49 In legends of love and glory They forget the cloud and storm, In the old-fashioned homestead, With hearth-stone ample and warm ! LIGHTS OF GENIUS* These are the pillars, on whose tops The white stars rest like capitals. Whence every living spark that drops Kindles and blazes as it falls ; And if the arch-fiend rise to pluck. Or stoop to crush their beauty down, A thousand other sparks are struck, That Glory settles in her crown. The huge ship, with its brassy share. Ploughs on to lead their light its course, And veins of iron cleave the air To waft it from its burning source ; All, from the insect's tiny wings. And the small drop of morning dew, To the wide universe of things. The light is shining, burning through. The light that makes the poet's page Of stories beautiful as truth. And pours upon the locks of age The glory of eternal growth.f I KNOW THOU AET FREE. I KNOW thou art free from earth's sordid control, . In the beautiful mansions above — That sorrow can never be flung o'er the soul That rests in the bosom of Love. I know that the wing of thy spirit is furled By the palm-shaded fountains of bliss. That erst in its strife for the bright upper world Was bruised and enfeebled in this. * Given here as reprinted, shortened, and improved, in the edition of 1855. t Changed to " youth " in later editions. 50 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. For oft as I gaze on thy dwelling of light, When the glory of stars is on high, I hear in my visions, as glowingly bright. The flutter of wings in the sky : And in the sweet islands that slumber afar From the tomb and the desert and sea, With glory around thee that nothing can mar. My soul hath revealings of thee. But still like a captive confined from the day, My heart doth in bitterness pine ; And sigh for release from its prison of clay. And a blissful reunion with thine : Save when I am come to the heavenly shrine To pour supplication and prayer. For then doth my spirit seem nearer to thine, And lay down its mantle of care. A GOOD MAN. A MAN he was, of thin and silver hairs, Whose pious hands and never wearied feet Kept from a sacred field the enemy's tares, And nursed to vigorous growth the precious wheat. Though he had loved and kept the rule of right. After the strictest manner, from his youth. Often his prayer went up for larger light. And deeper, holier reverence for truth. Hard by the village church his mansion stood. Modest of bound, yet hospitably wide ; His highest eloquence was doing good, His simple meekness the rebuke of pride. Oh ! vainly cheerful glowed the evening fire, Amply in vain the housewife's board was spread. That night when homeward came the toil-worn sire And told his children the good man was dead. HYMN OF THE TRUE MAN. 51 Within God's holy temple there was woe — Woe that the Book of Life might scarce assuage ; The tremulous voice was dumb, and the white flow Of reverend locks swept not the sacred page. Oft had that man of God, while living, said, " Wherefore, my children, do you vainly weep ? The friend you mourn so sadly is not dead, But only fallen in the Lord asleep I " For he had preached, with zeal that would not cease, Christ and the resurrection, not in vain ; For, like a benediction full of peace. Came the blest memory to the weeping train. And they rose up with souls less sadly dim. Young men, and maidens, and the bowed with care. Feeling that death had only been to him God's hour of answer to a life of prayer. HYMN OF THE TRUE MAN. Peace to the True Man's ashes ! Weep for those Whose days in old delusions have grown dim : Such lives as his are triumphs, and their close An immortality. Weep not for him. As feathers wafted from the eagle's wings Lie bright among the rocks they cannot warm, So lie the flowery lays that Genius brings, In the cold turf that wraps his honored form. A practical rebuker of vain strife. Bolder in deeds than words, from beardless youth To the white hairs of age, he made his life A beautiful consecration to the Truth. Virtue, neglected long, and trampled down. Grew stronger in the echo of his name ; And, shrinking self-condemned beneath his frown, The cheek of harlotry grew red with shame. 52 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Serene with conscious peace, he strewed his way With sweet humanities, the growth of love ; Shaping to right his actions, day by day. Faithful to this world and to that above. The ghosts of blind belief and hideous crime. Of spirit-broken loves and hopes betrayed, That flit among the broken walls of Time, Are by the True Man's exorcisms laid. Blest is his life who to himself is true. And blest his death — for memory, when he dies. Comes, with a lover's eloquence, to renew Our faith in manhood's upward tendencies. Weep for the self -abased, and for the slave, And for God's children darkened with the smoke Of the red altar — not for him whose grave Is greener than the mistletoe of the oak. HYMK OF THE STUDENT OF NATUEE. . ** I have learned to lean on my own soul, and not to look elsewhere for the reeds that a wind can break." — Bulwer. I KNOW my humble lineage — that my way Has led among life's valleys, and does still ; But destiny is as the potter's clay. And we can make it glorious if we will ! Smiles settled on the lips of one who died In the quick tortures of a fiery bed ; And they by less severe ordeals tried May surely to an equal strength be wed. True, many that I deemed my friends are gone. But, Nature, thou at least wilt still be kind ; For from thy naked bosom I have drawn The sweetest draughts I ever hope to find. LIFE'S ANGELS. 63 Out in the tents of summer I have heard Music that made me happy, not of art, But the wild song of some sweet-throated bird, That flowed, as all things best do, from the heart. I will not chase the phantoms that are fled, Nor like a love-sick dreamer pray to die, Though I may have no shelter for my head But the blue curtain of God's equal sky. But in some flowery nook, away from care, Fanning * my heart down to a pulse more even, I '11 build me beautiful palaces of air For my soul's children, beings sweet as heaven. And these shall be my friends, for friends like these Can trouble with no yearning to depart. And the cold kisses of the mountain breeze Wake not the tale of Indusf in the heart ! LIFE'S ANGELS. O STILL, and dumb, and silent Earth, Unlock thy dim and pulseless arms; Wandering and weary from her birth. Thy child seeks refuge from life's storms ! Still from my heart a shadow lifts, And through my soul a lost voice thrills. As the soft starlight's golden drifts Sweep nightly o'er the western hills. Life has its angels, though unkept The lovelight which their beauty brings. And though the blue heavens are not swept With the white radiance of their wings. '&"■ * Corrected to " Taming " in Boston Public Library copy, t Corrected to " Judas " in Boston Public Library copy. 54 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. But a dark shadow — not the grave's — Has clasped the one I love from me, And winds have built their walls of wave * Between us in the eternal sea. I dare not drink the mantling cup, Nor light the shrine in Love's sweet name, Lest from the dark be lifted up Pale hands to smother down the flame. The music on the lip of morn, Wings glancing on the summer air, Love's rose-crown — all things earthly born — Are links that bind me to despair. Whene'er the fires of sunset's glow Stream bright across some silver cloud, I think about the wavy flow . Of long loose tresses o'er the shroud. No more I tremble with sweet awe. For all life's shining waves grow dim, When there one burning star I saw Quench its bright axle to the rim. Borne down and weary with life's storms, Earth, receive me to thy breast ; Unlock thy dim and pulseless arms. And cool this burning heart to rest. THE PILGRIM. The child of an Eternal Sire ! Great waves of burning desert sand And mountains with their tongues of fire Are but as dew-drops in His hand. O'ershadowed by the gallows tree, And moaning like the hunted Jew, * Probably a misprint for " wall of waves." THE PILGRIM. 65 Our guilt is like a mighty sea, With God's sweet mercy shining through ! How deep that mercy, and how wide ! The child of lost and recreant years Can in a Father's bosom hide His sins, his sorrows, and his tears! Once, when the noontide's fervid rays Like sickles in the dim grass lay, Bent forward on his staff to gaze For the loved city far away, — I crossed a pilgrim, and I knew, jNIore by an instinct of the soul Than by his white hairs, thin and few, That he might never reach the goal. And when I saw him onward start, With fainter hope, and step more slow, God knoweth that wdthin my heart The measure could have gauged his woe ! For I have seen all sad above, And all below in bitterest strife, When e'en the planet of my love Sat darkly in my house of life. And sometimes, my poor bleeding feet Far from the cooling fountain wave, I 've thought no shadow half so sweet As that which darkened o'er the grave ! The temples, palaces, and towers Of the old time I may not see, Nor 'neath my reverent tread thy flowers Bend meekly down, Gethsemane ! By Jordan's wave I may not stand, Nor climb the hills of Galilee, Nor break with my poor sinful hand The crosier of apostasy ! 56 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Nor pitch my tent 'neath Salem's sky, As faith's impassioned fervor bids, Nor hear the wild bird's startled cry From Egypt's awful pyramids. I have not stood, and may not stand Where Hermon's dews the blossoms feed, Nor where the flint-sparks light the sand Beneath the Arab lancer's steed. Woe for the dark thread in my lot. That still hath kept my feet away From pressing toward the hallowed spot Where Mary and the young child lay. But oh ! I thank the gracious Power, That I, in nature's ponderous tome, Can find a splendor in the flower, A glory in the stars of home. And haply o'er those planets bright. That in the blue vault nightly spring. Are farther worlds of larger light, Each counted as a little thing By Him, who day's wide splendor planned. And gave, to glorify the night, Those visible jewels of His hand — Saying at first, Let there be light ! But with great systems for His care. Beyond the farthest star we see, He bends to hear the pleading prayer Of every sinful child like me. And in the ashes of the fears That darken o'er the closing strife. Faith, with her soft eyes full of tears, " Strews blossoms from the Tree of Life. PITIED LOVE. 57 PITIED LOVE.* Faintly the sunset's sinking fires Redden the waters, and above Tip the gray oaken boughs like spires, While, struggling like despair with love, Are rustling shadows dropt with gold. Deepening and nearing with the night, Until at length they close, and fold In their embrace the fainting light. Up from the river blue mists curl, The dew shines in the vale below. And overhead, like beads of pearl, The white buds of the mistletoe. Lo ! while the shade and light ingrain, A dryad dweller of the tree, Like the hushed murmur of soft pain, Is pouring its sweet note for thee. Lone one, beneath whose drooping head The red leaves of the autumn lie, — The winds have stooped to make that bed, lonesome watcher of the sky ! Lifting his head a little up From the poor pillow where it lay, And pushing from his forehead pale The long damp tresses all away : He told me, with the eager haste Of one who dare not trust his words, He knew a mortal with a voice As low and lovely as that bird's. But that he saw once ifi a dell Separate from that a weary space, A pale, meek lily, that as well Might woo that old oak's green embrace, *The author acknowledges her indebtedness to Coleridge for one or two passages \n\h\iY>o&m.— Author^s Note. . . r r -o 58 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. As for his heart to hope that she. Whose palace chamber ne'er grew dim, Would leave the loves of royalty To wander through the world with him. Once, leaping in a murderous cave He saved her from an outlaw band, And with such tenderness she chid When twice he kissed her lily hand. With the sweet burden as he flew, He dared to gaze upon her face, And she forgave him, though he drew Closer and closer the embrace. Why shook the fair form with alarm ? The proud Earl Say to meet her came, And shrinking from that boyish arm, Her cheek grew darkly red with shame ! And he, scarce knowing what he did. But feeling that his heart was broke. Fled from her pitying glance, and hid In the cold shadows of that oak ; Where, as he said, she came at night And clasped him from the bitter air, With her soft arms of tender white. And the dark beauty of her hair. But when the morning lit the spray. And hung its soft wreaths o'er his head, The lovely lady passed away Through mist of glory, pale and red. So bitter grew his heaving sighs. So mournful dark the glance he raised, I looked upon him earnestly. And saw the gentle boy was crazed ! How fair he was ! it made me sad, And soft as sad my bosom grew, ALONE BY THE TOMB. 59 To think no earthly hand could build That beautiful ruin up anew. But pointing where the full moon's light Lay redly on the village hills, I told him that my hearth that night Was brighter : — How my bosom thrills, Remembering how he hid his face In earth's cold bosom, cold and bare. And told me of the warm embrace That meekly, sweetly kept him there. Closer the dismal raven croaks — Flutters the wild-bird nigh and nigher — A colder shadow than the oak's Has stilled that bosom's pulse of fire. ALONE BY THE TOMB. Where solemn and heavy the shadow Of the old gray church is spread, And the grass is crushed down and faded, I muse on the early dead. Not the voiceless peace of my chamber, Nor the song, nor the hearth of light, Nor the vistas of golden visions. Could quiet my soul to-night. I would think of the meekness and beauty Of gentle and noiseless lives, And not of the thwarted endeavor Of the spirit that hopes and strives. Of the sweetness of household duty ; Of the loves that never depart ; And not of the plummet of agony, Sounding the depths of the heart. 60 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. The starlight is dimly burning In the leaves, but the birds are still, And no light gleams from the chambers, Narrow, and low, and chill. I can hear the dull bat flitting. And the wind in the chancel moan — O how can my feet walk firmly The valley of shade alone ! Sole friend of my heart, be with me In the time of the parting strife, And read me the simple story Of the Cross, from the Book of Life. 'T will strengthen me more than the greenness Of the rosied hills above. To die on that pillow of beauty — The bosom of faithful love. TWO VISIONS. I SAW a shadow through the sunshine pass, Bright and unsteady, but without a sound, As a sleek serpent might divide the grass. Writhing and quivering with a mortal wound ; So came the thing, or shadow, nigh and nigher — But my eyes, weary with excess of pain, Could tell not whether scales or sparks of fire Glistened and glinted on its tortuous train. 'T was gone, and where it vanished from my view I saw a red and horrible mist arise. And as it drifted thinly, straining through The fixed and ghastly shining of dead eyes. And there were worms of shifting hues that lay Catching the radiance of the sinking sun. As sick to dizzy death I turned away, Loosening a helm, close where a fountain run TWO VISIONS. 61 There was a woman with pale woe distressed, 'Neath her long tresses, damp with evening's breath, Clasping a youth all softly, whose torn breast Was crimson with the bitter blood of death. And as she looked upon him, her sweet eyes Grew moist with tenderer sorrow than might suit The severance of worn and common ties ; But though her frail frame shook, her lips were mute. He died, and rude men covered him away From her embraces, with the common dust ; And though her cheek grew whiter than the spray Of the vexed ocean, she forebore to trust Her sorrow to the consonance of words ; But, weaving up his name with her sad song — A broken warble like a wounded bird's — She passed unconsciously the worshipping throng. But of her sufferings the elaborate tale Were a dark story that I cannot write ; Enough that in the thin grass of a vale Quiet and lonesome, azure-leaved and white, The violets are spreading o'er two graves. One newer than the other. When the fold Of a bright banner to wild music waves, I think about those locks of paley gold, Like the dissolving beam of a faint star ; And of the dying heart they clasped away From the red shadow of the wing of war. So strong of my strange vision is the sway. There was a murmur through the shaken plumes Of the green forest, and along the sea. O'er the iced mountains, through the cavern glooms, Touching the lost heart of humanity. 'T was like the voice of a hair-girdled John In the dim wilderness crying, Prepare the way, That the blind children of men may look upon The shining glories of the risen day. His cold dissecting-knife in Nature's breast, Unlocking the joints and laying the arteries bare, 62 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Of hidden knowledge limited not the guest,* But with their pale smile in his silver hair, He cross-examined the stars, resolved the plans Of their far orbits, difficult and vast ; And in the charnel, loosening the bands, Wrenched the dark secrets from the unanswering past. And when that soul of fire its aim had gained, Conning to wisdom even the martyr's blood, With the soft links of love mankind were chained Into one universal brotherhood. In the sweet pauses of the heart of prayer The air was full of music, meek as mild. The light wind drifting back the golden hair From her white bosom, sat a little child. And the wild warble of the morning bird Was hushed in its melodious throat, to trace The windings of her song, while all who heard Pined for the beauty of her soft embrace. Down to the stony floor of the blue sea Sunk the dim ghost of suffering and crime ; And he of the white tresses bent the knee In reverent worship of the type sublime. LOST DILLIE. Don't you remember the old apple tree That grew in the edge of the meadow ; And the maiden whose thitherward straying with me Threw over the sward but one shadow ? Was it the blush of the apples that over us hung, Which threw o'er her cheek its soft splendor ; And the wild birds around us that lovingly sung, Which made her low warble so tender ? You remember the bridal-time, bright with the flow Of the cup as deceitful as cheery. And the neat little cabin-home, always aglow With the sweet smile of Dillie, my dearie ! * Corrected to " quest " in Boston Public Library copy. PICTURES OF MEMORY. 63 When the wine smothered love's passionate flame, Her blue eyes droo})ed mournful and lowly ; How sadly she watched for the footstep that came Each night-time more slowly and slowly ! The path going down to the apple tree still Winds over the slope of the meadow ; The dear little cabin peeps over the hill — But the roses run wild in its shadow ! Don't you remember the ivy-grown church We used to tliink lonesome and dreary ? Beneath the blue marble, just under the birch, Lies Dillie, lost Dillie, my dearie ! PICTURES OF MEMORY.* Among the beautiful pictures That hang on Memory's wall, Is one of a dim old forest, That seemeth best of all : Not for its gnarled oaks olden, Dark with the mistletoe ; Not for the violets golden That sprinkle the vale below. Not for the milk-white lilies That lean from the fragrant hedge, Coquetting all day with the sunbeams. And stealing their shining edge ; Not for the vines on the upland Where the bright red berries be. Nor the pinks, nor the pale, sweet cowslip. It seemeth the best to me. I once had a little brother. With eyes that were dark and deep — In the lap of that old dim forest He lieth in peace asleep : Light as the down of the thistle. Free as the winds that blow, We roved there the beautiful summers. The summers of long ago ; * Given here as reprinted in the volume of 1S55. ^4 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. But his feet on the hills grew weary, And, one of the autumn eves, I made for my little brother A bed of the yellow leaves. Sweetly his pale arms folded My neck in a meek embrace, As the light of immortal beauty Silently covered his face : And when the arrows of sunset Lodged in the tree-tops bright. He fell, in his saint-like beauty, Asleep by the gates of light. Therefore, of all the pictures That hang on Memory's wall, The one of the old dim forest Seemeth the best of all. THE TWO MISSIONAEIES. In the pyramid's heavy shadows, And by the Nile's deep flood, They leaned on the arm of Jesus, And preached to the multitude : Where only the ostrich and parrot Went by on the burning sands, They builded to God an altar, Lifting up holy hands. But even while kneeling lowly At the foot of the cross to pray, Eternity's shadows slowly Stole over their pilgrim way: And one, with the journey weary. And faint with the spirit's strife, Eell sweetly asleep in Jesus, Hard by the gates of life. Oh, not in Gethsemane's garden. And not by Genesareth's wave. The light, like a golden mantle, O'erspreadeth his lowly grave ; LEILA. 65 But the bird of the burning desert Goes by with a noiseless tread,- And the tent of the restless Arab Is silently near him spread. Oh, could we remember only, Who shrink from the slightest ill, His sorrows, who, bruised and lonely, Wrought on in the vineyard still — Surely the tale of sorrow Would fall on the mourner's breast, Hushing, like oil on the waters, The troubled wave to rest. LEILA.* Gone from us hast thou, in thy girlish hours. What time the tenderest blooms of summer cease ; In thy young bosom bearing life's pale flowers To the sweet city of eternal peace. In the soft stops of silver singing rain. Faint be the falling of the pale-rose light O'er thy meek slumber, wrapt away from pain In the fair robes of dainty bridal white. Seven nights the stars have wandered through the blue, Since thou to larger, holier life wert born ; And day as often, sandalled with gray dew. Has trodden out the golden fires of morn. Oft, ere the dim waves of the sea of woe Clasp the green shore of immortality. Life, like a planet cursed, lays down its glow And blindly wanders o'er immensity. And, from thy starless passage and untried. Faith shrank alarmed at feeble nature's cry. Ere yet life's broken waves had multiplied The intense radiance of eternity. * Compare with "Leilia." 6Q POEMS BY ALICE CARY. But now, on every sunbeam leaning bright Across the white mists, trembling o'er the sea, My soul goes forth, as on a path of light. Questioning all things beautiful of thee. Nor shall distrust or doubt my spirit move. Doomed though it be the seal of woe to wear ; Since the blest memory of deathless love Stands like a star between me and despair. THE HANDMAID.* AVhy rests a shadow on her woman's heart ? In life's more girlish hours it was not so ; 111 hath she learned to hide with harmless art The soundings of the pkimmet-line of woe ! Oh what a world of tenderness looks through The melting sapphire of her mournful eyes ; Less softly-moist are violets full of dew, And the delicious color of the skies. Serenely amid worship doth she move, Counting its passionate tenderness as dross ; And tempering the pleadings of earth's love. In the still, solemn shadows of the cross. It is not that her heart is cold or vain. That thus she moves through many worshippers ; No step is lighter by the couch of pain. No hand on fever's brow lies soft as hers. From the loose flowing of her amber hair The summer flowers we long ago unknit, As something between joyance and despair Came in the chamber of her soul to sit. In her white cheek the crimson bnrns as faint As red doth in some cold star's chastened beam ; * Eepriuted in the volume of 1855. THE POOR. 67 The tender meekness of the pitying saint Lends all her life the beauty of a dream. Thus doth she move among us day by day, Loving and loved ; but passion cannot move The young heart that has wrapped itself away In the soft mantle of a Saviour's love ! THE POOR. Cradled in poverty — unloved, alone. Seeing far off the wave of gladness roll ; Sorrow, to happier fortune never known, Strikes deep its poison-roots within the soul ! What need is there for rhetoric to seek For the fine phrase of eloquence, to tell Of the eye sunken, and the hueless cheek. Where naked want and gnawing hunger dwell ? Down in the lanes and alleys of life's mart Are beds of anguish that no kind hands tend ; And friendless wanderers, without map or chart, Urged to despair, or, worse, a nameless end ! Their very smiles are bitter, in whose track The fountains are with penury made chill ; For by their smiles, their sighs are driven back To stifle in the heart-strings, and be still ! The poor are criminals ! The opulent man Is unsuspected, and must needs be true ; Such is the popular verdict, such the plan That gives the loathsome hangman work to do ! If he who treads the convict's gloomy cell. To soothe Heaven's vengeance with officious prayer, Had dealt as kindly with him ere he fell. Haply his presence had been needless there ! 68 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Oh there is need of union, firm and strong, Of effort vigorous and directed well ; To rescue weakness from oppressive wrong Would shake the deep foundations of dark hell ! Dear are the humble in God's equal sight, And every hair upon their heads He sees, Even as the laurel freshening in the light, That trails along the path of centuries ! Then treat them kindly, for the selfsame hand, (And with as large an exercise of power,) That makes the planets in their order stand, Gives its meek beauty to the desert flower. HEAVEN ON EARTH. Oh, in this beautiful world I fain would deem Some things, at least, are what they seem to me ; That deepest joy is no ideal dream, Linking the thought to something yet to be. That in the living present, we can find Enough to smooth the way beneath our feet, — That where heart blends with heart and mind with mind, Even life's bitterest bitter hath a sweet ! I 've dreamed of heaven — the full and perfect bliss That waits the spirit in a larger sphere ; And, looking up, have found enough in this To realize the rapturous vision here ! God hath made all things beautiful — the sky. The common earth, the sunshine, and the shade; And with affections that can never die. Hath gifted every creature He hath made. Oh they but mock us with a hollow lie. Who made this goodly land a vale of tears ; For if the soul hath immortality, This is the infancy of deathless years. FAR AWAY. 69 And if we live as God has given ns power, Heaven is begun : no blind fatality Can shut the living soul from its high dower Of shaping out a glorious destiny ! EAR AWAY. Far away, far away, there 's a region of bliss Too bright for our vision to view. Though faintly its glories are mirrored in this, As the light of the stars in the dew. The loved and the loving of life's early day, Who left us in sorrow and gloom. Are all in that beautiful land, far away, Where the roses are always in bloom. 'T is true we have moments of bliss, even here. But brief is the shadowless sky ; Por hope, when the brightest, is mingled with fear. And to live, is to know we must die. The sunshine is followed by darkness and storm, And friendship endures but a day, And, oh ! while the kiss of devotion is warm, The loved and the trusted betray. How oft, when the bride with her garland is crown'd, The roses are brought from the grave ! And the sunniest fountain that ever I found Had the serpent concealed in its wave. Then why should I mourn thee, lost friend of my soul ? Death cannot divide us for aye. Though dark are the billows between us that roll. We ^11 meet in that home far away. 70 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. THE BETTER LAND. Know ye the land where the roses and lilies Are bright on the hills, as the wing of a bird, — Where down in the depths of the beautiful valleys The song of the worshipper always is heard ? 'T is up where they mourn not o'er time and its fleetness, But, free from the cumbering cries * of the clod, Their songs are the chains that in rapturous sweetness Link men to the angels, and angels to God ! Sometimes with the eve in her starry tiara And mantle of gold sitting down in the west, Like echoes of harps from a far-away prairie, Faint melodies float from the land of the blest. And sometimes, when sighing for one who would love me And share with me always in sadness or glee, I see, from a soft island floating above me, A pale hand of beauty that beckons to me ! FIRST LOVE. Father of light, thy child recall, She hath known of earthly bliss the all ; She hath loved and been beloved. — Schiller. Come with me, dear one, from these haunted dells ! Still doth she linger, oh ! so sad and meek ; Though joy no more her maiden bosom swells. Nor kissing zephyr crimsons her white cheek. In the cool shade of my delicious bower This mournful whisper of the past shall cease ; There will I fold thee to my heart, pale flower ; Come, lovely trembler, give thyself to peace. Sweet-throated birds with glowing wings are there, Filling the woods with beauty all day long ; ♦ Corrected to " cares " in the Boston Public Library copy. THE MILL-MAID. 71 How softly thou wilt swim away from care, Upon the charmed wave of some blest song. Faintly her young heart trembles, and the fringe Lifts from the dewy wells of her clear eyes : Her thin cheek deepens to a pale rose tinge — And doth she love him ? Hush ! that look replies. The golden tissue of love's web was crossed With a dark sorrow, in this very vale ; Gone is the beautiful dream, its love-light lost. The winding sheet were scarcely now so pale. And the sweet, passionate pleading all is vain, Young wooer, of the eloquent lip and eye; Her heart clings closer to its tender pain If joy but whisper ; leave her, then, to die. For still she lingers in this haunted spot. The light wind playing with her yellow hair. And nestling to her cheek, she heeds it not ; Then leave, oh ! leave her — all her world is there ! THE MILL-MAID.* Now comb her golden hair away ; Meekly and sorrow-laden She waited for the closing day — Poor broken-hearted maiden! The ring from off her finger slip, And fold her hands together ; No more love's music on her lip Will tremble like a feather. Each Sabbath-time along the aisle Her step more faintly sounded. The light grew paler in her smile, Her cheek less softly rounded ; ♦ Reprinted in the volume of 1855. 72 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. But never sank we in despair Till with that fearful crying, " The mill-maid of the golden hair And lily hand is dying ! " When the dim shadows of the birch Above her rest are swaying, The pastor of the village church Shall bless the place with praying: Deeming the voiceless sacrifice A loved and lovely blossom. Blown by the winds of Paradise To Jesu's folding bosom. The mill-wheel for a day is still, The spindle silent lying, The little homestead on the hill Looks sadder for her dying ; But ere the third time in the spire The Sabbath bell is ringing, Not one of all the village choir Will miss the mill-maid's singing. LOVE. Nay, do not pity me, that not a star Hangs in the bosom of my stormy sky, Nor winglet of white feathers flutters by. Nor like a soft dream swims or near or far The golden atmosphere of poesy. Down in the heart from frivolous joys aloof Burn the pale lires, whose keen intensity Flames through the web of life's discolored woof, And lights the white walls of eternity. Alas ! the ravishment of Love's sweet trust May charm my life no more to passion's glow ; Nor the light kisses of a lip of dust Crimson my forehead with the seal of woe ; Well, were it otherwise, 't is better so ! THE CHARMED BIRD. 73 DEATH. With your pale burden, gently, gently tread — She came to us a bride a year ago And now Love's sweet star crimsons the pale snow, About her early, melancholy bed. Why weep ye for her ? She hath done with pain, And meekly to our common portion bowed. Unthread the roses from the shining train Of her long tresses, and prepare the shroud ! Her heart was full of dreams of heavenly birth, While in the borders of dim life she stayed, Like some young lily golden dews had weighed Down to the chilly bosom of the earth. For but the wing of death, while here she trod, Eested between her beautiful life and God. THE CHAEMED BIRD. " Mother, oh mother ! this morning when Will And Mary and I had gone out on the hill, We stopped in the orchard to climb in the trees. And brake off the blossoms that sweetened the breeze, When right down before us, and close where we were. There fluttered and fluttered a bird in the air. " Its crest was so glossy, so bright were its eyes, And its wings, oh ! their color was just like the skies ; And still as it chirped, and kept eddying round In narrower circles and nearer the ground. We looked, and all hid in the leaves of the brake. We saw, don't you think, oh ! the ugliest snake ! " Caressingly folding the child in her arms, With thoughts of sweet birds in a world full of charms, "My child," said the mother, "in life's later hours Remember the morning you stopped for the flowers ; And still when you think of the bird in the air. Forget not, my love, that the serpent was there.'' 74 POEMS BY ALICE GARY, PRIDE. There is a pride of heart, a damning pride, To which men sacrifice, that I detest; And Peter-like, what thousands would have lied Even with profanation, or confessed The Lord of glory with a burning cheek, If Pilate and the Rulers heard them speak. Man sees his weaker brother faint and die, And coldly passes on the other side ; Because within his bosom darkly lie The poisoned shadows of that Upas, pride, Which, since from bliss the rebel angels fell. Trail downward to the very gates of hell ! When, with the blushes burning on her cheek. And her dark locks unbound, the sinful came. And humbly sat herself at Jesus' feet. Did He reproach her with her life of shame ? But for the many who aside have turned, How hardly is that beautiful lesson learned ! MISSIVE. Know thou this truth, which the creeds cannot smother, Wherever man is found, there is thy brother ; God his blest sire is, earth is his mother — Where most degraded, thy zeal most increase ; Aid him and help him, till, ceasing to falter, He shall come up to humanity's altar, " Bearing white blocks for the city of Peace.'^ Shrink not away from the common and lowly — Good deeds, though never so humble, are holy ; And though the recompense fall to thee slowly. Heroes unnumbered before thee have trod; By the sweet light of their blessed example. Work on — the field of love's labor is ample — Trusting Humanity, trusting in God ! ONE DEPARTED. 75 Fight down the Wrong, howe'er specious its bearing, Lighten the burdens about thee by sharing, Fear not the glorious peril of daring, Be it the rack or the prison's dull bars ; Hands are stretched out from the graves of past ages To brighten with holy deeds history's pages — Martyr-fires burn as intensely as stars. Never sit down by the wayside to sorrow — Hope is a good angel, whence we may .borrow Beauty and gladness and light for the morrow. However dark be the present with ill ; And the far waves of Time's sorrowful river. Wandering and weary and moaning forever, Break on the rock of Eternity still. ONE DEPARTED. Blest inspiration of unworthy song, A heart of tender sadness wooes thee back ; If in blind weakness I have done thee wrong, Accord me sweet forgiveness ! Like the track Of a bright bird, whereon soft notes are cast — The time, the place is where I saw thee last ! Life has been weary with me since we met. Though in it moments of deep joy there lie. Soft, as we see in cloud-rifts, cold and wet, Blue shifting patches of the summer sky : For oft, thy gold locks wet with my salt tears, Thy gentle semblance from the dust appears 1 In the cold mists of morn, at evening soft. When odors make the winds so heavy-sweet, Stretching my arms out, I have called thee oft, And night has heard the soundings of my feet Where the blue slabs of marble, icy chill. Keep in thy breast life's azure rivers still ! Like the faint dim vibrations of a lay We sometimes half remember, half forget, 76 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Thou, in the winding-sheet long wrapt away, Troublest my heart with wildering beauty yet: Nor have I ever met with mortal form Sweet as thy shadow to my clasping arm ! Fade back to ashes, visitant divine, Unutterably radiant as thou art, If ever smile of dewy l\^, save thine, Hath touched the darkened ruins of my heart ! Thou wert'in thy young life, and still dost seem, The sweet and passionate music of a dream. Sleep seals thy gentle eyes, but we are wed ; Thou wait'st my coming — shall I traitor prove To the deep slumbers of the bridal bed, And the birth-chamber of immortal love ? No ! as the sweet rain visits the pale bloom, I will come softly to thee in the tomb ! MUSINGS BY THREE GRAVES * The dappled clouds are broken ; bright and clear Comes up the broad and glorious star of day ; And night, the shadowy, like a hunted deer, Flies from the close pursuer fast away. Now on my ear a murmur faintly swells, And now it gathers louder and more deep. As the sweet music of the village bells Rouses the drowsy rustic from his sleep. Hark ! there 's a footstep startling up the birds, And now as softly steals the breeze along ; I hear the sound, and almost catch the words Of the sweet fragment of a pensive song. And yonder, in the clover-scented vale — Her bonnet in her hand, and simply clad — * Eeprinted in the volume of 1855. Compare with Gray's " Elegy in a Country Churchyard." MUSING BY THREE GRAVES. 77 I see the milkmaid with her flowing pail : Alas ! what is it makes her song so sad ? In the seclusion of these lowly dells AVhat mournful lesson has her bosom learned ? Is it the memory of sad farewells, Or faithless love, or friendship unreturned ? Methinks yon sunburnt swain, with knotted thong, And rye-straw hat slouched careless on his brow. Whistled more loudly, passing her along, To yoke his patient oxen to the plough. 'T is all in vain ! she heeds not, if she hears, And, sadly musing, separate ways they go, — Oh, who shall tell how many bitter tears Are mingled in the brightest fount below ? Poor, simple tenant of another's lands. Vexed with no dream of heraldic renown ; No more the earnings of his sinewy hands Shall make his spirit like the thistle's down. Smile not, recipient of a happier fate. And haply better formed life's ills to bear, If e'er you pause to read the name and date Of one who died the victim of despair. Now morn is fully up ; and while the dew From off her golden locks is brightly shed, In the deep shadows of the solemn yew, I sit alone and muse above the dead. Not with the blackbird whistling in the brake. Nor when the rabbit lightly near them treads. Shall they from their deep slumbering awake. Who lie beneath me in their narrow beds. Oh, what is life ? at best a narrow bound, Where each that lives some baffled hope survives — A search for something, never to be found. Records the history of the greatest lives ! 78 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. There is a haven for each weary bark, A port where they who rest are free from sin ; But we, like children trembling in the dark, Drive on and on, afraid to enter in. Here lies an aged patriarch at rest. To whom the needy never vainly cried. Till in this vale, with toil and years oppressed, His long-sustaining staff was laid aside. Oft for his country had he fought and bled, And gladly, when the lamp of life grew dim, He joined the silent army of the dead — Then why should tears of sorrow flow for him ? We mourn not for the cornfield's deepening gold, Nor when the sickle on the hills is plied ; And wherefore should we sorrow for the old, Who perish when life's paths have all been tried ? How oft at noon beneath the orchard trees, With brow serene and venerably fair, I 've seen a little prattler on his knees Smoothing with dimpled hand his silver hair. When music floated on the sunny hills. And trees and shrubs with opening flowers were drest, She meekly put aside life's cup of ills. And kindly neighbors laid her here to rest. And ye who loved her, would ye call her back, Where its deep thirst the soul may never slake ; And Sorrow, with her lean and hungry pack. Pursues through every winding which we take ? Where lengthened years but teach the bitter truth That transient preference does not make a friend ; That manhood disavows the love of youth, And riper years of manhood, to the end. Beneath this narrow heap of mouldering earth, Hard by the mansions of the old and young. TO THE EVENING ZEPHYR. 79 A wife and mother sleeps, whose humble worth And quiet virtues poet never sung. With yonder cabin, half with ivy veiled. And children by the hand of mercy sent, And love's sweet star, that never, never paled, Her bosom knew the fulness of content. Mocking ambition never came to tear The finest fibres from her heart away, — The aim of her existence was to bear The cross in patient meekness day by day. No hopeless, blind idolater of chance, The sport and plaything of each wind that blows, But lifting still by faith a heavenward glance, She saw the waves of death around her close. And here her children come with pious tears. And strew their simple offerings in the sod ; And learn to tread like her the vale of years, Beloved of man, and reconciled to God. Now from the village school the urchins come, And shout and laughter echo far and wide; The blue smoke curls from many a rustic home. Where all their simple wants are well supplied. The labored hedger, pausing by the way. Picks the ripe berries from the gadding vine : The axe is still, the cattle homeward stray. And transient glories mark the day's decline. TO THE EVENING ZEPHYR.* I SIT where the wild bee is humming, And listen in vain for thy song ; I 've waited before for thy coming. But never, oh ! never so long. * Reprinted in the volume of 1855. 80 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. How oft with the blue sky above us, And waves breaking light on the shore, Thou, knowing they would not reprove us, Hast kissed me a thousand times o'er ! So sweet were thy dewy embraces, Thy falsity who could believe ! Some phantom thy fondness effaces — Thou couldst not have aimed to deceive ! Thou toldest thy love for me never, But all the bright stars in the skies, Though striving to do so forever. Could scarcely have numbered thy sighs. Alone in the gathering shadows, Still waiting, sweet Zephyr, for thee, I look for the waves of the meadows, And dimples to dot the blue sea. The blossoms that waited to greet thee With heat of the noontide opprest, Now flutter so lightly to meet thee, Thou 'rt coming, I know, from the West. Alas ! if thou findest me pouting, 'T is only my love that alarms ; Forgive, then, I pray thee, my doubting, And take me once more to thy arms ! ANSWER. BY MAJOR G. W. PATTEN, U. S. A. Oh ! sweet as the prayer of devotion Comes thy song, fair enchantress, to me ; And cleaving through mists of the ocean I quicken my pinions for thee. I know that no day-breeze has dallied Unreproved, with thy ringlets of jet, Since the moon when so gaily I sallied From thy lips with my dew kisses wet. RESPONSE. 81 That I love thee, I cannot dissemble — I would not if even I might ; At thy touch doth my light pinion tremble, And my voice murmurs low at thy sight. Though born for the pathways of heaven, My wing ever shadows the lea, If I rise with the light clouds of even, I soar but to wander to thee. I We sported in evergreen bowers With blossoms sweet-scented and gay, And I 've toyed, mid those beautiful flowers. With beings as peerless as they : But naught did I ever discover, Whose nature seemed nearer divine. Than the lip of my warm-hearted lover When its kisses are mingled with mine. Then no more " where the wild bee is humming," Stay to " sit " and to " listen in vain ; " I shall come — even now am I coming, To fondle and fan thee again. RESPONSE. O'er clouds of carnation and amber Shone faintly the first gentle star, As I caught from the hush of my chamber Thy answering song from afar. If false thou hast sweetly dissembled. Light spirit of mountain and sea, And I — how my glad bosom trembled At even that whisper from thee ! Stoop down if thou wilt, breezy rover, To the blossoms thy pathway along, But lightly, my dewy-lipped lover. And oh ! sing them not such a song. 82 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. For never an elfin nor fairy, Nor warbler with wing on the sky, Nor white-bosomed bird of the prairie Could love thee so fondly as I. Not a moment the day-breeze has trifled "Unreproved with my ringlets of jet," Since the moon when my fond heart was rifled, The moon when as lovers we met. Chanting over thy song of devotion, I '11 watch from the hill-tops each day. For the path through the white mists of ocean Where thy pinion is cleaving its way. Till the last summer-bee ceases humming — The last bird goes over the sea. Since thou sayest, "I will come, I am coming," I '11 wait, my sweet Zephyr, for thee ! THE SAILOR'S STORY. Night is falling, clouds are sweeping, And, ere morning, there may be Many a brother sailor sleeping In the white arms of the sea. But with courage tempest-daring, Hearts through all things true and warm, Warily our vessels wearing,. We may weather out the storm. And, as o'er each other rising. Billows sweep our deck, as then. Even as impulses of sorrow Cross the souls of wicked men; Listen, comrades, to a story Which the night with hope may arm — Heaven's soft rainbow, dropt with glory, Hangs its beauty o'er the storm. THE SAILOR'S STORY. 83 In the shadows of dark sorrow, By the river of wild woe, Once there was a weary mortal Ever wandering to and fro. Ever wandering, ever gazing. Half in love and half in dread, On the blue and sunken hollows Of that wretched river's bed. For within those grayish caverns. With each billow's fall and rise. Coils of green and yellow serpents Lifted up their hungry eyes. Sadly dwelt he, wrapt from sunshine, With a right hand maimed and dumb. Crying often at the noontide, " Will the morning never come ? " Once a sailor, lost, benighted, Drifting on the whirlpool's rim. Shouted for the help that came not — Messmates, think you that was him ? With his long locks, briny, tangled. Clasping a torn bosom round. Washed upon the cold, wet sand-beach, Once a dying man was found ; Where the plumes of pale-pink sea-weed Drifted like a sunset cloud, And the mists of woe's wild river Hung about him like a shroud. '& Morning, like a woman, clasped him With her hair, a golden train, And kissed back the living crimson To his palid cheek again. But, as near that solemn river Wearily and slow he trod. 84 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Pitying eye of mortal never Kested on that child of God. So the burning of roused hatred In his heart dried up the dew, And the very milk of kindness Bitter in its fountain grew. But with light upon their bosoms Burning, burning evermore, Birds that nested in the blossoms Haunted that wild river-shore — Telling their sweet-throated story, From their morning beds of dew, Upward, on their wings of glory. Farther, farther as they flew. From that heart, despised, despising. Went a yearning for their song, Like the sorrowful uprising Of a passion smothered long. As through waves of light uplifted On and on he saw them swim, He forgot the boat that drifted. Helpless, on the whirlpool's rim. And his thoughts, like winged swallows From their dark home, rise and rise O'er that river's sunken hollows. Shining with the hungry eyes. Plunging in, like a Leander With a heart on fire, he flew. And the waves before him parted, Like a mist of sun and dew. Once, a steed with smoking haunches, And his loose mane streaming back, To the rider's light caresses Bounded on a pathless track. A LOCK OF HAIR, 85 With his glossy neck strained forward, And an eye of ocean blue, Through the ringing, mo6nlit forest Like an ebon shaft he flew. Like the wild mane of the courser Flowing on the wind upborne, Went the wild song of the rider, Flowing from a lip unshorn. Something of a wretched river Dimly moaning far behind, And of birds with burning bosoms, Was that music on the wind. Pushing back a cloud of ringlets Bound with blossoms pale as snow, Softly blushing, fondly gazing Toward the line of woods below ; Waited in her bridal chamber One whose faith was never dim — Eager horseman — frighted bosom. Dost thou tremble so for him ? A LOCK OF HAIE. Three times the zephyr's whisper, And the soft sunlit showers. Have called up from their slumber The early spring-time flowers, — Three times the Summer wild-birds Have built among the trees. And gone with the dull Autumn Three times across the seas, — Since this bright lock was severed In the hopelessness of bliss : 0, there 's a world of eloquence In simple things like this ! 86 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. What a tumult of strange feelings It wakes within my brain ; Half joyous and half sorrowful — Half rapture, half of pain. One moment I am dreaming Love's broken chain is whole, And echoes of lost music Are trembling in my soul. Another, and I 'm sitting Where the lights of memory burn, And thinking of the summer-times That never can return. Oft in the solemn watches Of the long and weary night, No link beside has bound me To the morning and the light. 'T is strange my heart will vibrate From gladness to despair. Whenever I am thinking of This simple tress of hair. VISIONS OF LIGHT.* The moon is rising in beauty. The sky is solemn and bright. And the waters are singing like lovers That walk in the valleys at night. Like the towers of an ancient city, That darken against the sky. Seems the blue mist of the river O'er the hill-tops far and high. I see through the gathering darkness The spire of the village church, And the pale white tombs, half hidden By the tasselled willow and birch. * Eeprinted, without the last stanza, in the volume of 1S55. VISIONS OF LIGHT. 87 Vain is the golden drifting Of morning light on the hill ; No white hands open the windows Of those chambers low and still. But their dwellers were all my kindred, Whatever their lives might be, And their sufferings and achievements Have recorded lessons for me. Not one of the countless voyagers Of life's mysterious main Has laid down his burden of sorrows. Who hath lived and loved in vain. From the bards of the elder ages Fragments of song float by, Like flowers in the streams of summer. Or stars in the midnight sky. Some plumes in the dust are scattered, Where the eagles of Persia flew. And wisdom is reaped from the furrows The plough of the Eoman drew. From the white tents of the Crusaders The phantoms of glory are gone. But the zeal of the barefooted hermit In humanity's heart lives on. Oh ! sweet as the bell of the Sabbath In the tower of the village church. Or the fall of the yellow moonbeams In the tasselled willow and birch — Comes a thought of the blessed issues That shall follow our social strife. When the spirit of love maketh perfect The beautiful mission of life : For visions of light are gathered In the sunshine of flowery nooks. Like the shades of the ghostly Fathers In their twilight cells of books ! 88 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. A LEGEND OF ST. MAEY'S.* One night, when bitterer winds than ours, On hill-sides and in valleys low, Built sepulchres for the dead flowers. And buried them in sheets of snow, — When over ledges dark and cold, The sweet moon, rising high and higher, Tipped with a dimly burning gold St. Mary's old cathedral spire, — The lamp of the confessional, (God grant it did not burn in vain,) After the solemn midnight bell, Streamed redly through the lattice-pane. And kneeling at the father's feet. Whose long and venerable hairs, Now whiter than the mountain sleet. Could not have numbered half his prayers, Was one — I cannot picture true The cherub beauty of his guise ; Lilies, and waves of deepest blue. Were something like his hands and eyes ! Like yellow mosses on the rocks, Dashed with the ocean's milk-white spray, The softness of his golden locks About his cheek and forehead lay. Eather, thy tresses, silver-sleet, Ne'er swept above a form so fair ; Surely the flowers beneath his feet Have been a rosary of prayer ! We know not, and we cannot know, Why swam those meek blue eyes with tears ; But surely guilt, or guiltless woe, Ha4 bowed him earthward more than years, t Peprinte4 in the volume of 1855, A LEGEND OF ST. MARY'S. 89 All the long summer that was gone, A cottage maid, the village pride, Fainter and fainter smiles had worn, And on that very night she died ! As soft the yellow moonbeams streamed Across her bosom, snowy fair, She said, (the watchers thought she dreamed,) " 'T is like the shadow of his hair ! " And they could hear, who nearest came, The cross to sign and hope to lend, The murmur of another name Than that of mother, brother, friend. An hour — and St. Mary's spires. Like spikes of flame, no longer glow — No longer the confessional fires Shine redly on the drifted snow. An hour — and the saints had claimed That cottage maid, the village pride ; And he, whose name in death she named, Was darkly weeping by her side. White as a spray-wreath lay her brow Beneath the midnight of her hair, But all those passionate kisses now Wake not the faintest crimson there ! Pride, honor, manhood, cannot check The vehemence of love's despair — No soft hand steals about his neck. Or bathes its beauty in his hair ! Almost upon the cabin walls AYherein the sweet young maiden died. The shadow of a castle falls. Where for her young lord waits a bride ! With clear blue eyes and flaxen hair, In her high turret still she sits j 90 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. But, ah ! what scorn her ripe lips wear What shadow to her bosom flits ! From that low cabin tapers flash, And, by the shimmering light they spread, She sees beneath its mountain ash, Leafless, but all with berries red. Impatient of the unclasped rein, A courser that should not be there — The silver whiteness of his mane Streaming like moonlight on the air ! Oh, Love ! thou art avenged too well — The young heart, broken and betrayed. Where thou didst meekly, sweetly dwell, For all its sufferings is repaid. Not the proud beauty, nor the frown Of her who shares the living years. From her the winding-sheet wraps down Can ever buy away the tears ! THE NOVICE OF ST. MARY'S. FROM " THE MONASTERY " OF SIR WALTER SCOTT. Dark in the shade of the mountains. From a valley full of flowers. Rose up, in the light of the setting sun, St. Mary's chapel towers. The bell of the old gray turret Was tolling deep and slow. And friars were telling their beads, and monks Chanting their hymns below. But the breath of the silver censers. As they swung in the twilight dim. And the sacred hush as the beads were told, And the chant of the golemn hymn ; HELVA. 91 And the golden light of the sunset Might bear to the heart no joy, Of one whose mantle of coarsest serge Betokened a novice boy. Pale was his brow, and dreamy, And his bright locks yet unshorn : He had but given his mother's smile For the convent's gloom that morn. 0, why are his pale hands folded In the chill of the cloister's gloom ? Why loses his cheek its roundness, And his lip its rosy bloom ? Let Mary of Avenel answer, As she sits in the twilight dim. In the leafy shade of her garden bower Does she wait for the convent hymn ? No, her young heart softly trembles From its even pulse of joy. As she hears a step, but 't is not the step Of St. Mary's Novice Boy ! HELVA.=* Her white hands full of mountain flowers, Down by the rough rocks and the sea, Helva, the raven-tressed, for hours Hath gazed forth earnestly. Unconscious that the salt spray flecks The ebon beauty of her hair — What vision is it she expects, So meekly lingering there ? Is it to see the sea-fog lift From the broad bases of the hills, Or the red moonlight's golden drift. That her soft bosom thrills ? * Reprinted in the volume of 1865. 92 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Or yet to see the starry hours Their silver network round her throw, That 'neath the white hands, full of flowers, Her heart heaves to and fro ? Why strains so far the aching eye ? Kind nature wears to-night no frown, And the still beauty of the sky Keeps the mad ocean down. Why are those damp and heavy locks Put back, the faintest sound to win ? Ah ! where the beacon lights the rocks, A ship is riding in ! Who comes forth to the vessel's side. Leaning upon the manly arm Of one who wraps with tender pride The mantle round her form ? Oh, Helva, watcher of lone hours. May God in mercy give thee aid ! Thy cheek is whiter than thy flowers — Thy woman's heart betrayed ! THE TIME TO BE * I SIT where the leaves of the maple And the gnarled and the knotted gum Are circling and drifting around me, And think of the time to come. For the human heart is the mirror Of the things that are near and far ; Like the wave that reflects in its bosom The flower and the distant star. And beautiful to my vision Is the time it prophetically sees, As was once to the monarch of Persia The gem of the Cyclades. * Reprinted, without the tliird stanza, in tUe yolume of 1855. ELOQUENCE. 93 As change in the order of Nature, And beauty springs from decay, So in its destined season The false for the true makes way. The darkening power of evil, And discordant jars and crime. Are the cry preparing the wilderness For the flower and the harvest-time ; Though doubtings and weak misgivings May rise to the soul's alarm. Like the ghosts of the heretic burners, In the province of bold Keform. And now as the summer is fading. And the cold clouds full of rain. And the net, in the fields of stubble And the briers, is spread in vain — I catch, through the mists of life's river, A glimpse of the time to be. When the chain from the bondman rusted, Shall leave him erect and free — On the solid and broad foundation, A common humanity's right. To cover his branded shoulder With the garment of love from sight. ELOQUENCE. LiKEST the first Apostle, Fearless of scoffs he stood. Preaching Christ and the resurrection To the eager multitude. The light on his broad clear forehead Fell- not from the gorgeous pane, As he spoke of the blessed Jesus, Who diedj and is risen again, 94 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. How beautiful on the mountains The feet of the righteous are ; How sweet is the silver singing Of lips that are used to prayer. Will the rain of the dull, cold autumn Awaken the sleeping flower ? Or the heart of the sinful soften, Though the godless preach with power ? But the light of the golden summer Will ripen the harvest grain. And words that are fitly spoken Will meet a response again. And the hearts of a thousand bosoms Shrank frightened and trembling back, Like a fawn in a heath of blossoms. With the hunters on its track. For they heard, as the full tone deepened To eloquence sublime. Echoes of muffled footsteps In the corridors of crime ; And saw the low-voiced Tempter Thence lure the weak to die, As the bird in narrowing circles Goes down to the serpent's eye. But when of Heaven's sweet mercy He bade them not despair. Bright through the vaulted temple Floated the wings of prayer. As home I journeyed slowly From the multitude apart, Messengers good and holy Kept knocking at my heart. When sleep descended brightly, I heard the anthem's roll, And all night my heart beat lightly To the music in my soul. TO ELM A. 95 TO ELMA. How heavily the sea-waves break ! The storm wails loud and deep ; Wake, sister, from thy slumber wake, For, oh ! I cannot sleep. My head is resting on thine arm, Thy heart beats close to mine ; But, oh ! this weary night of storm — How can such peace be thine ? Thou answerest not — again I hear Thy breathing, calm and deep ; No sorrow hast thou, and no fear — I wish that I could sleep ! They tell of warning lights that gleam, And ghosts such nights that glide, And dreams — ay, once I had a dream — 'T is more than verified ! Louder against the flinty sand I hear the dashing seas ; No angel holds my trembling hand Such fearful nisrhts as these. •^to^ Why strive to cheat myself, or hark To hear the tempest laid ? 'T is not the storm, and not the dark, That makes my heart afraid ! For if my ear, in tempest strife, Is quickened to its roll, 'T is that the promise of my life Is broken in my soul. Yet speak to me ! and lay thy hand Upon my aching brow — I' ve nothing on the sea or land To love or cling to now. 96 POEMS BY ALICE CASy. TO FLORA. Away with regal palaces And diadems of gold : There 's nothing in the world so sweet As love's embracing fold. I care not if the sea be rough And if the sky be dark, If thou, beloved of my soul, Art with me in the bark. Blest inspiration of my song ! I would not leave thy side, To wear the stars of royalty, And be a monarch's bride. May thy fond arms encircle me As time goes smoothly by, And may thy faithful bosom be My pillow when I die. The time to come with flowers we '11 sow As all the past has been. And though our cabin may be low, The angels will come in. If bitterness our cup shall fill And evil angels send. Oh ! what a sweetener of the ill To know we have a friend. Of Heaven above I ask but this Of happiness conferred — One heart that feels diviner bliss Whene'er my step is heard. TO MYRRHA. 97 MYRRHA. I 'm thinking, my sweet Myrrha, Of that happy time in youth, When all the world appeared like thee, In innocence and truth. Oh ! when around the shining hearth, At night, we used to meet. There was music in the treading Of the little naked feet. And I am thinking, Myrrha, Of the smiles and kindly words, That ever lulled us to our sleep, And called us with the birds. I think, until it almost seems The kiss is on my brow ; — Alas ! 't is only in my dreams ; I have no mother now ! I am thinking of the Sabbath, When, alone and sad, I trod A path each day is w^earing down More deeply in the sod. Sometimes, I have been happy since, And trust I yet shall be ; But never, sister of my soul ! Have I forgotten thee. TO MYREHA. The love where Death has set his seal, No age can chill nor rival steal, Nor falsehood disavow. — Byron. Yes, the living cast me from them, As the rock the clasping wave ; Once there was one who loved me - She is buried in the grave. 98 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. In the play-haunts of my childhood, She was always by my side; Oh ! she loved me in her lifetime, And she loved me when she died. God knoweth my dark sorrow When I knew that all was o'er, And called her every lovely name, But she could speak no more. I could not, dare not, look upon The strife, the parting dread ; But my heart I felt was breaking. And I knew that she was dead. They told me she was passing Through the golden gates of day, When the hand that meekly clasped my neck Fell heavily away. I forgot the harp of Gabriel, The glory of the crown — When the foldings of the winding-sheet Had wrapt her still heart down. Shall I gather back my broken hopes From her cold sepulchre ? No ! none have loved me in their lives Or in their deaths like her. TO THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH. Bright-winged spirit of the sky. Beautiful and holy. Pass thou not neglectful by The despised and lowly. Where the mourner by the tomb Sits, the dark unheeding, With the white down of thy plume Bind the heart from bleeding. TO . 99 Like the sweet light of the stars, Pierce the gloomiest prison, Leaving broken bolts and bars Cerements of the risen. Where along the furrowed soil Corn and rice are springing, Let us hear the child of toil At his labor singing. Though the downy lip of youth Whiten with vain terror With thy sacred wand, Truth ! Smite gray-bearded Error. Eight in Superstition's frown Be his doom alotted, And to lower the coffin down, Hangman's cords be knotted. Where the progeny of sin Hold their horrid revels, In the Master's name go in, And rebuke the devils. Surely the " good time " is nigh For thy wide diffusion ; Else God's promise is a lie, And our faith, delusion. TO . Haply beneath heaven's equal beams There lies some green and peaceful isle, Where, gathering up my broken dreams, I yet may smile, or seem to smile. Away, false hope, nor blind my eyes ; I feel, I know my doom of ill ; Unbind thy web of hollow lies. And let my heart bleed as it will. 100 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. I know that I am changed — that years Have left their shadows on my brow, And the dim traces of some tears — But these to thee are nothing now. I 'm sitting on the mossy stone, Where we have talked of love till death, And thinking, but alone, alone, And thou — ah ! who has broken faith ? I will not tell thee not to go, Nor ask thee yet to think of me ; My doom of dark and hopeless woe Has been too much entwined with thee. For if thou seest, from me apart, A sunnier path than both have known, I '11 fold the darkness to my heart, And sit, as now, alone, alone. THE TWO LOVERS. Singing down a quiet valley. Singing to herself she went, And, with wing aslant, the zephyr To her cheek with kisses leant. Dainty, with the golden blossoms Of the mulberries'* silver braid. Were the windings of the valley Where the singing maiden strayed. Where the river mist was climbing Thin and white along the rocks. On a hollow reed sat piping. Like a shepherd to his flocks, One whose lip was scarcely darkened With the dawn of manhood's pride. With his earnest eyes bent downward To the river's voiceless tide. ♦Corrected to "muUens' " in the Boston Public Library copy ABJURA TION. 101 Answering to his pleading music Smiled a lovelit, girlish face, Folded by the placid waters In their chilly, cold embrace. Like the summer sunshine parted By the white wing of a dove, Like the mist that sweetly trembles Round the pensive star of love j Were the pale and wavy ringlets Drifting on the pearly tide. While the music, wilder, deeper, On the hushed air rose and died. Treading down the golden blossoms Of the mulberries' * silver braid, Struck a steed, with lordly rider. Toward the half enchanted maid. Like a rose-cloud from the sunset, Like the love-light from a dream, Fled the wildering shade of beauty From the bosom of the stream. Haunted by the cherub shadow He could woo not from the wave, Day by day the boy grew sadder And went pining to the grave. Singing down the quiet valley, Singing as the day grows dim. Walks the maiden, but her visions Blend not with a thought of him ! ABJURATION. Haunting phantom, I abjure thee ! Thou shalt never vex me more; Though the past was sweet as summer. Better far to look before. ' Corrected to " muUens' " in the Boston Public Library copy. 102 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Who would sit in memory's chambers, Mantled from the loving light, With the sea of life before them, Broad, and beautiful, and bright ? Wherefore in the port of sorrow Should our moorings longer be ? Helmsman, ho ! heave up the anchor ! Now, my messmates, for the sea! Up, my chamois-footed reefer ! Let the canvas be unfurled — Moth will fret away the garment Faster than the wearing world ! Though our bark is not too steady, And our compass sometimes errs, Never let the sail be slackened — Storms make skilful mariners: True, beneath these waves of beauty. Far from wind and tempest-frown When the sky was full of sunshine Many vessels have gone down. Happiness is not in wooing Phantoms to the vacant breast ; But in earnest, healthful striving And in blessing we are blest. Are we ready ? are we freighted ? Not with odors, not with gold ; But with bright hopes for the future — With true hearts and courage bold ! Downward from the shore of sorrow Fresh the seaward breezes spring ; And our flag is up and waving, Like some proud bird's open wing. When the showers of evening crimson Fall like roses on the sea ; Rocking o'er the glad, free billows. Oh, how sweet my dreams will be ! OLD STORIES. 103 OLD STORIES.* No beautiful star will twinkle To-night through my window-pane, As I list to the mournful falling Of the leaves and the autumn rain. High up in his leafy covert The squirrel a shelter hath ; And the tall grass hides the rabbit, Asleep in the churchyard path. On the hills is a voice of wailing For the pale dead flowers again, That sounds like the heavy trailing Of robes in a funeral train. Oh, if there were one who loved me — A kindly and gray -haired sire, To sit and rehearse old stories To-night by my cabin fire : The winds as they would might rattle The boughs of the ancient trees — In the tale of a stirring battle My heart w^ould forget all these. Or if, by the embers dying, We talked of the past, the while, I should see bright spirits flying From the pyramids and the Nile. Echoes from harps long silent Would troop through the aisles of time, And rest on the soul like sunshine. If we talked of the bards sublime. But, hark ! did a phantom call me. Or was it the wind went by ? Wild are my thoughts and restless. But they have no power to fly. * Reprinted in the volume of 1855. 104 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. In place of the cricket humming, And the moth by the candle's light, I hear but the death watch drumming - I 've heard it the livelong night. Oh, for a friend who loved me — Oh, for a gray-haired sire. To sit with a quaint old story To-night by my cabin fire. SPECTRES. Once more the shadows darken Upon life's solemn stream — Once more I 'm in my chamber To ponder and to dream. Down in the mist- white valley. Across the hills afar. The rosy light is gleaming From Love's descending star, I hear from yonder parlor A prattler cry, " He 's come ! " Oh, there 's a world of comfort — I wish I had a home ! All last night, round about me The lights of memory streamed, And my heart to long-lost music Kept beating as I dreamed. We live with spectres haunted That we cannot exorcise — A pale and shadowy army Between us and the skies. Conjured by mortal weakness. In their cerements they start From the lonesome burial-places Of the dead hopes of the heart. LUCIFER. 105 They will meet thee, fellow-pilgrim, For their graves are everywhere. And thou canst not lay them better Than by labor which is prayer. LUCIFER. Usurper of the throne of God, From heaven's high battlement cast down, What spot of earth hast thou not trod, Wearing rebellion as a crown ? Like some bright meteor of the air Streams o'er the world thy robe of flame ; Ruined, fallen, yet as angel fair, I breathe my curses on thy name ! The broad road going down to death. What thousands but for thee would quit, And climb to the green hills of faith. From the black ashes of the pit. Once, when through Mercy's gates ajar, I heard salvation's anthem flow, Thy fire-wing led me, like a star. Back to the wretched gates of woe ! 0, Holy Spirit, cease to grieve That slighted offer of thy grace ; My heart is breaking to receive The beauty of thy sweet embrace. I cannot, will not let thee go. Has been my cry — nor shall it cease. Till the wild billows of my woe Shall bear me to the shore of peace. Go lay thy forehead in hell's coals. Proud scorner of the bended knee. For broken faith and perjured souls Charged all their awful guilt to thee. 106 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. And when at last the quick and dead Are summoned to the judgment bar, If there shall be a crime more dread Than all the rest, to answer for — Thine is it ; for no evil hand. Save that which opened first the grave, Could ever sink the accursed brand In the crouched shoulder of the slave. BE ACTIVE. Thou who silently art weeping. Thou of faded lip and brow, Golden harvests for thy reaping Wave before thee even now. Fortune may be false and fickle — Should you, therefore, pause and weep ? Taking in thy hand the sickle, Enter in the field, and reap. Though the garden, famed Elysian, May be shut from thee by fate, Thou hast yet a holier mission Than to linger at the gate. When so oft the rosiest morning Slumbers in the tempest's arms. Should the cloud of dismal warning Eill the soul with vague alarms ? Brightest visions from thy pillow "^ May have vanished, still thou 'rt blest, While the waves of time's rough billows Wash the shores of endless rest. Should the powers of darkness blind thee, Should their whispers fill thy heart. Say thou, Satan, get behind me ! And the tempter will depart. * Probably a misprint for " pillows." DEATH'S FERRYMAN. 107 Then, to every fortune equal, Let us combat to the last, That life's marches in the sequel May retrieve the wasted past. DEATH'S FERPvYMAN.* Boatman, thrice I 've called thee o'er, Waiting on life's solemn shore, Tracing, in the silver sand. Letters till thy boat should land. Drifting out alone with thee, Toward the clime I cannot see, Read to me the strange device Graven on thy wand of ice. Push the curls of golden hue From thy eyes of starlit dew, And behold me where I stand. Beckoning thy boat to land. Where the river mist, so pale, Trembles like a bridal veil, O'er yon lowly drooping tree, One that loves me waits for me. Hear, sweet boatman, hear my call ! Last year, with the leaflets, fall. Besting her pale hand in mine. Crossed she in that boat of thine. When the corn shall cease to grow. And the rye-field's silver flow At the reaper's feet is laid. Crossing, spake the gentle maid : Dearest love, another year Thou shalt meet this boatman here — The white fingers of despair Playing with his golden hair. * Keprinted in the volume of 1855. 108 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. From this silver-sanded shore, Beckon him to row thee o'er ; Where yon solemn shadows be, I shall wait theS — come and see ! There ! the white sails float and flow, One in heaven and one below; And I hear a low voice cry. Ferryman of Death am I. WATCHING.* Thy smile is sad, Elella, Too sad for thee to wear, For scarcely have we yet untwined The rosebuds from thy hair. So, dear one, hush thy sobbing. And let thy tears be dried — Methinks thou shouldst be happier. Three little months a bride. Hark ; how the winds are heaping The snow-drifts cold and white — The clouds like spectres cross the sky - Oh, what a lonesome night ! The hour grows late and later, I hear the midnight chime : Thy heart's fond keeper, where is he ? Why comes he not ? — 't is time ! Here make my heart thy pillow. And, if the hours seem long, I '11 while them with a legend wild, Or fragment of old song — Or read, if that will soothe thee. Some poet's pleasant rhymes : Oh, I have watched and waited thus, I cannot tell the times ! * Reprinted in the volume of 1855. ON THE DEATH OF A CHILD. 109 Hush, hark ! across the neighboring hills I hear the watch-dog bay — Stir up the lire, and trim the lamp, I 'm sure he 's on the way. Could that have only been the winds So like a footstep near ? No, smile, Elella, smile again, He 's coming home — he 's here ! ON THE DEATH OF A CHILD. Vain it were to say that night Folds away the morrow — Oh, you cannot see the light Through this aching sorrow ! Beauty from your lives is borne, Brother, sister, weepiog ; But the cherub boy you mourn Is not dead, but sleeping. Folded are the dimpled arms From your soft caressing ; Yet our God in darker forms Sendeth down his blessing. Death, a breeze from heaven astray, Still, with wing the fleetest, Drifts the lovely flowers away. Where hope clings the sweetest. Strong to change, but not destroy While the paley winglets Veil the forehead of the boy Bright with golden ringlets. Faith, though dumb at the great loss Which hath made you weepers, Closer, closer clasps the Cross Down among the sleepers. 110 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And though Avild your anguish be, And your hearts all broken, " Suffer them to come to me," Hath been sweetly spoken. CRADLE SONG. Weary of the mother's part? My sweet baby, never ! I will rock thee on my heart Ever, yes, forever ! Loveliest of lovely things, Pure as the evangel ! — 0, in everything but wings Is my babe an angel ! Blue as heaven is are the eyes, 'Neath the lids so waxen. And the gold of morning lies In the ringlets flaxen. •^ft-" Fragrant shrub, or tropic tree, Never yielded blossom Half so lovely, sweet, as thee, Sleeping on my bosom ! When thy little dimpled cheek Mine is softly pressing, Not a wish have I to seek Any other blessing. Art thou, little baby, mine ? Earlier love effacing : One whose smile is like to thine, Chides this long embracing. No ! as drops of light and dew Glorify each other. So shall we life journey through, Father, child, and mother. SEKO. Ill SEKO. Bright dames had kept the knight Long at the wassail ; Therefore his courser white Flew toward his castle. Deep moaned the ocean flood, Howled the wind hoarser — Kight through the ringing wood Struck the gay courser. Hoof-strokes had trod the flowers Where the rein slackened ; Fierce flames had left the towers E/uined and blackened. One look of mute despair Gave he lost splendor ; One cry rose Avildly there, Wildly, but tender. Up from the dismal rocks Rose the sad echo — Maid of the golden locks, Dewy-eyed Seko ! Once more with smothered pain Writhed his lip slightly, Then 'neath a tightened rein Flew the steed lightly. Hushed be thy stormy wrath, Desolate bosom ; Low in thy mountain path Lies the lost blossom. Pale uncaressing lips Wait for the lover, Pale as the plume that dips Softly above her. 112 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Bright o'er the icy rocks Of the roused echo Lay the long golden locks Of the dead Seko. Drifting like silver rain Down o'er his master Went the white courser's mane- Wof ul disaster ! THE DESERTED EYLGIA.*t Like a meteor, radiant, streaming, Seems her hair to me. And thou bear'st her feet like lilies, Dark and chilly sea ! Wannish fires enclasp her bosom. Like the Northern Light, And like icicles her fingers Glisten, locked and white. On the blue and icy ocean, As a stony floor, Toward thy boat, dying Viking, Walks she evermore ! Like a star on morning's forehead, When the intense air. Sweeping o'er the face of heaven. Lays its far depths bare — Is the beauty of her smiling. Pale and cold and clear — What, fearful, dying Viking, Doth the maiden here ? * " A Scandinavian warrior, having embraced Christianit}', and being attacked by disease which he thought mortal, was naturally anxious that a spirit who had accompanied him through his pagan career should not attend him into that other world, where her society might involve him in disagreeable consequences. The persevering Fylgia, however, in the shape of a fair maiden, walked on the waves of the sea. after her Viking's ship." — Author's Note. t lleprinted in volume of 1S55. MUSIC. 113 Hath the wretched hell-maid, Belsta, Ever crossed her way, Weirdly driving herds of cattle. Cattle dark ai;d gray ? Hath she seen the maids of Skulda Draw from Urda's well Water where the awful snake-king Gnaws the roots of hell ? Hath she seen the harts that ever Haunt the ashen tree. Keeping all its buds from blooming ? Viking, answer me ! Moaningly his white lips tremble. But no voice replies — Starlight in the blue waves frozen, Seem his closing eyes. Woman's lot is thine, Fylgia, Mourning broken faith. And her mighty love outlasting Chance and change and death! MUSIC. There is music, deep and solemn. Floating through the vaulted arch When, in many an angry column, Clouds take up their stormy march O'er the ocean billows, heaping Mountains on the sloping sands, There are ever wildly sweeping Shapeless and invisible hands. Echoes full of truth and feeling From the olden bards sublime. Are, like spirits, brightly stealing Through the broken walls of time. 114 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. The universe, that glorious palace, Thrills and trembles as they float, Like the little blossom's chalice With the humming of the mote. On the air, as birds in meadows — Sweet embodiments of song — Leave their bright fantastic shadows Trailing goldenly along. Till, aside our armor laying, We like prisoners depart. In the soul is music playing To the beating of the heart. ORPHAN'S SONG. On the white cliffs of the ocean The sea-bird rests her wing : For the meek and patient camel Of the desert, there 's a spring : But the shore hath rocks as steady Whereon weary feet may stand. And fountains flow more sweetly From the meadow than the sand. We are orphans, poor and homeless, And the tempest whistles loud ; But the stars of heaven are hiding In the meshes of the cloud. With the sleet our locks are stiffened. And our path is white with snow. And we leave the print of naked feet Behind us as we go. But we 've honest hearts, my brothers, And sinewy hands beside. And our mother's benediction That she gave us when she died; And whatever may befall us. We will never bow our souls But to Him who kept the Hebrews In the furnace of hot coals. BOOK OF LIGHT, . 115 BRIDGES. My friend, thou art mournful and heavy, That life is a transient breath — Disheartened, it may be, with hearing The moan of the river of death. Up ! work out the fate of a hero. Or perish at least in the strife ; Even we may be builders of bridges Eor the passage of souls into Life. As the wave of existence is drifting And rushing to darkness and death. Let us hew, with the sword of the spirit, White blocks from the deep mine of faith. The rainbow shall o'erarch our bridges, Olives the pathway shall pave, And the beautiful stone of the corner Rest on the floor of the grave. Like bright birds under the rafters Shall hover the good deeds we do, And the fair pillars shine with the beauty Of lives to humanity true. My friend, wilt thou lend me thy counsel ? And then, if thou wilt, we will strive O'er the river of death to build bridges, That souls may o'erpass it and live. BOOK OF LIGHT. Gextlest sister, I am weary — Bring, oh, bring the Book of Light ! There are shadows dark and dreary Settling on my heart to-night. 116 PQEMS BY ALICE CARY. That alone can soothe my sadness, That alone can dry my tears, When I see no spot of gladness Down the dusky vale of years. Well I know that I inherit All that sometimes makes me blest j And in vain I ask my spirit Why this feeling of unrest. But all day have been around me Voices that would not be still, And the twilight shades have found me Shrinking from a nameless ill. Seeing not despair's swift lightning — Hearing not the thunders roll, Hands invisible are tightening Bands of sorrow on my soul. Out beneath the jewelled arches Let us bivouac to-night, And to soothe days' dusty marches Bring, oh, bring the Book of Light ! THE CHILD OF NATUEE. Haste, haste, my gentle sisters, Break away from slumber's chain. The light of morn streams redly Through my chamber lattice pane ! I hear the wild birds calling With their sweet throats all in tune 'T is the goldenest of the mornings Of the merry month of June ! On the horizon's blue edges The sweet light dimly burns. And the summer dew is dropping From the roses' crimson urns. WHERE REST THE DEAD? 117 Leaving toilet and mirror — With the sunshine on the hill I will let the breezes dally With my tresses as they will ! The spray-wreaths of the fountains In the light of such a morn, Must be like the snowy fleeces Of the lambs among the corn. Why should the heart be folded In the mantle of dim care, In so glorious a temple For the offering up of prayer ? WHERE REST THE DEAD? Answer, thou star whose brightening ray Foretells the gathering shades of night, If so ^t is given thee, where are they Who pass from mortal sight ? We know in some green isle of bliss, Where clouds and tempests never roll, There is a holier home than this — A triumph for the soul ! The early birds, the summer flowers, The tearful spring-time has restored; But when shall they again be ours O'er whom our love was poured ? We look to see the spirit's track, And hear the stir of wings above. And call, but win no answer back, Nor token of their love. While kindred smiles and tones of mirth Are mingling brightly as the waves. There still rests darkly on our hearth A shadow from the graves. 118 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Answer, thou star whose brightening ray Foretells the gathering shades of night. If so 't is given thee, where are they Who pass from mortal sight ? LYRA: A LAMENT.* Maidens, whose tresses shine. Crowned with daffodil and eglantine, Or, from their stringed buds of brier roses, Bright as the vermeil closes Of April twilights after sobbing rains, Fall down in rippled skeins And golden tangles low About your bosoms, dainty as new snow ; While the warm shadows blow in softest gales Fair hawthorn flowers and cheery blossoms wdiite Against your kirtles, like the froth from pails O'er brimmed with milk at night, When lowing heifers bury their sleek flanks In wdnrows of sweet hay or clover banks — Corme near and hear, I pray, My plained roundelay. Where creeping vines o'errun the sunny leas, Sadly, sweet souls, I watch your shining bands, Filling with stained hands Your leafy cups with lush red strawberries ; Or deep in murmurous glooms, In yellow mosses full of starry blooms. Sunken at ease — each busied as she likes. Or stripping from the grass the beaded dews, Or picking jagged leaves from the slim spikes Of tender pinks — with warbled interfuse Of poesy divine, That haply long ago Some wretched borderer of the realm of woe Wrought to a dulcet line ; — If in your lovely years There be a sorrow that may touch with tears * Printed in " Lyra" and revised in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. LYRA: A LAMENT. 119 The eyelids piteously, they must be shed For Lyra, dead. The mantle of the May Was blown almost within the summer's reach, And all the orchard trees, Apple, and pear, and peach, Were full of yellow bees. Flown from their hives away. The callow dove upon the dusty beam Fluttered its little wings in streaks of light. And the gray swallow twittered full in sight ; Harmless the unyoked team Browsed from the budding elms, and thrilling lays Made musical prophecies of brighter days ; And all went jocundly. I could but say, Ah ! well-a-day ! — What time spring thaws the wold. And in the dead leaves come up sprouts of gold, And green and ribby blue, that after hours Encrown with flowers ; Heavily lies my heart From all delights apart, Even as an echo hungry for the wind. When fail the silver-kissing waves to unbind, The music bedded in the drowsy strings Of the sea's golden shells — That, sometimes, with their honeyed murmurings Fill all its underswells ; — For o'er the sunshine fell a shadow wide When Lyra died. When sober Autumn, with his mist-bound brows. Sits drearily beneath the fading boughs. And the rain, chilly cold. Wrings from his beard of gold, And as some comfort for his lonesome hours, Hides in his bosom stalks of withered flowers, I think about what leaves are drooping round A smoothly shapen mound. And if the wild wind cries Where Lyra lies. Sweet shepherds softly blow 120 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Ditties most sad and low — Piping on hollow reeds to your pent sheep — Calm be my Lyra's sleep, Unvexed with dream of the rough briers that pull From his strayed lambs the wool ! Oh, star, that tremblest dim Upon the welkin's rim. Send with thy milky shadows from above Tidings about my love; If that some envious wave Made his untimely grave, Or if, so softening half my wild regrets, Some coverlid of bluest violets Was softly put aside, What time he died ! Nay, come not, piteous maids. Out of the murmurous shades ; But keep your tresses crowned as you may With eglantine and daffodillies gay. And with the dews of myrtles wash your cheeks, When flamy streaks, Uprunning the gray orient, tell of morn — While I, forlorn. Pour all my heart in tears and plaints, instead, For Lyra, dead. IN ILLNESS * No harsh complaint nor rude unmannered woe Shall jar discordant in the dulcet flow Of music, raining through the chestnut wings Of the wild plaining dove. The while I touch my lyre's late shattered strings. Mourning about my love. Now in the field of sunset. Twilight gray. Sad for the dying day. With wisps of shadows binds the sheaves of gold And Night comes shepherding his starry fold Along the shady bottom of the sky. * Printed in " Lyra" and revised in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here, IN ILLNESS. 121 Alas, that I Sunken among life's faded ruins lie — My senses from their natural uses bound ! What thing is likest to my wretched plight? — A barley grain cast into stony ground, That may not quicken up into the light. Erewhile I dreamed about the hills of home Whereon I used to roam ; Of silver-leaved larch. And willows, hung with tassels, when like bells Tinkle the thawing runnel's brimming swells ; And softly filling in the front of March The new moon lies. Watching for harebells, and the buds that ease Heart's lovelorn, and the spotted adder's tongue, Dead heaped leaves among — The verdurous season's cloud of witnesses ; Of how the daisy shines White, i' the knotty and close-nibbled grass; Of thickets full of prickly eglantines. And the slim spice-wood and red sassafras, Stealing between whose boughs the twinkling heats Suck up the exhaled sweets From dew-embalmed beds of primroses. That all unpressed lie. Save of enamored airs, right daintily, And golden-ringed bees ; Of atmospheres of hymns, When wings go beating up the blue sublime From hedgerows sweet with vermeil-sprouting limbs, In April's showery time, When lilacs come, and straggling flag-flowers, bright. As any summer light Ere yet the plowman's steers Browse through the meadows from the traces free. Or steel-blue swallows twitter merrily. With slant wings shaving close the level ground, Where with his new-washed ewes thick huddled round, The careful herdsman plies the busy shears. But this was in life's May, Ere Lyra was away ; And this fond seeming now no longer seems — ■ 122 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Aching and drowsy pains keep down my dreams ; — Even as a dreary wind Within some hollow, black with poison flowers, Swoons into silence, dies the hope that lined My lowly chamber with illumined wings, In life's enchanted hours, When, tender oxlips mixed through yellow strings Of muUeinstars, with myrtles interfused, Pulled out of pastures green, I gaily used To braid up with my hair. Ah, well-a-day ! Haply the blue eyes of another May, Open from rosy lids, I shall not see, For the white shroud-folds. If it thus must be. Oh, friends who near me keep To watch or weep, When you shall see the coming of the night Comfort me with the light Of Lyra's love. And pray the saints above To pity me, if it be sin to know Heaven here below. HYMN TO THE NIGHT.* Midnight, beneath your sky, Where streaks of soft blue lie Between the starry ranks Like rivers with white lilies on their banks, Frown not that I am come, A little while to stay From the broad light of day. My passion shall be dumb. Nor vex with faintest moan For my life's summer flown The drowsy stillness hanging on the air. Therefore, with black despair Let me enfold my brow — I come to gather the gray ashes now That in the long gone hours * Printed in "Lyra " ftnd revised in the volume of 1855, The revision is giveg here. HYMN TO THE NIGHT. 123 Were blushing flowers. Give me some gentle comfort, gentle Night, For their untimely blight, Feeding my soul with the delicious sounds Of waters washing over hollow grounds Through beds of hyacinths, and rushes green With yellow ferns and broad-leaved flags between ; Where the south winds do sleep, Forgetting their white cradles in the deep. The future is all dim, No more my locks I trim With myrtles or gay pansies, as I used, Or with slim jasmines strung with pretty flowers. As in the blessed hours Ere yet I sadly mused. Or covered up from my lamenting eyes The too sweet skies. With withered holly or the bitter rue. As now, alas ! I do. Since Lyra, for whose sake the world was fair, Is lost, I know not where, Ah me ! my sweetest song Must do his beauty wrong — To his white hands I give my heavy heart, Saying, Lovely as thou art, Be kindly piteous of my hapless woe ! — Full well I know How changed I am since all my young heart-beats Were full of joyance, as of pastoral sweets The long bright summer times When Love first taught me rhymes. Yet, dear one, in thy smile The light they knew erewhile My eyes would gather back, and in my cheek Beneath thy lip the flush of spring would break. Come, thou, about whose visionary bier I strew in softest fear Pale flowers of mandrakes in the nightly dreams, That fly when morning streams Slant through my casement and fades off again, Soothing no jot my pain — Come back and stay with me 124 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. And we will lovers be ! In the brown shadows of the autumn trees, Lingering behind the bees Till the rough winds do blow And blustery clouds are full of chilly snow, We '11 sing old songs, and with love ditties gay Beguile the hours away. And I with ivy buds thy locks will crown. And when in all their pretty lengths of gold Straightened with moisture cold Sorrowfully drop they down. My hands shall press them dry, the while I keep Soft watches for thy sleep. Weaving some roundelay, Of that pale huntress, haply, whose blue way Along the heavens was lost. Finding the low earth sweeter than the skies — Kissing the love-lit eyes Of the fair boy Endymion, as he crossed The leafy silence of the woods alone, In the old myth-time flown ; Haply of Proteus, all his dripping flocks Along the wild sea-rocks Driving to pastures in fresh sprouting meads. His sad brows crowned with green murmurous reeds For love of Leonora — she for whom The blank blanched sands were shapen to a tomb. Where, under the wild midnight's troubled frown, With his pale burden in his arms, went down Her mortal lover. Moaningly the waves Wash by two lonesome graves ; One holds the ashes of the beauteous boy Whose harmless joy Of playing the fifth season in the sun. Was all untimely done. Away, my dream, away ! Like young buds blackened in the front of May And wasted in the rude and envious frost, My early hopes are lost. Oh angel of the darkness, come and make. For pity's sake, My bed with sheets as white as sheets may be, THE MINSTREL. 125 And give me sweeter grace to go with thee, Than e'er became my life. No lures have I, To draw thee nigh, Of beauty, wit, or friends to make ado ; Haply, or one or two. Seeing me in my shroud, would sigh, "Alas!" As for a daisy gone out of the grass Wherein bloomed better flowers. If so it fall, It were an end befitting most of all The close of my bad fortunes. Thou Hearing my pleading now, Knowest well how true I speak, There be no prints of kisses on the cheek I hide against thy bosom, praying to go Down to the chamber low, Where I shall be wed With Lyra, dead. THE MINSTREL. Beneath a silvery sycamore His willow pipe I saw him playing. The heifer down the hill was straying — Her lengthening shadow went before, Toward the near stubble-land : the lowing Of labored oxen, pasturing. Called her that way. The wind was blowing, And the tall reeds against a spring Of unsunned waters, slantwise fell. But you might hear his song right well — " I would that I were bird or bee, Or anything that I am not — Sweet lady-love, I care not what, So I might live and die with thee." The grass beneath its flowery cover Was softly musical with bees ; But well-a-day ! what sights may please The eyes of an enchanted lover ? In dusty hollows, here and there, Among gnarled roots the flocks were lying, O'erclomb by lambs ; and homeward flying, 126 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The birds made dusky all the air; The yellow light began to fade From the low tarn — the day was o'er; And still his willow pipe he played, Under the silvery sycamore: " I would that I were bird or bee, Or anything that I am not — Lost Lady-love, 1 care not what, So I might live and die with thee." Down through the long blue silences Came the owl's cry ; fire-flies were trimming Their torches for the night, and skimming Athwart the glooms ; between the trees. Went the blind, wretched bat : Ah me, The night and sorrow well agree ! The meadow king-cups and the furze Were pretty with the harvest dew, And in the brook the thistle threw The shadows of its many burs. I wis, he lovely was to see. In the gray twilight's pallid shade, As on his willow pipe he played. Crowned with " buds of poesy " — " I would that I were bird or bee. Or anything that I am not — A sound, a breeze, I care not what, So I might live and die with thee." Faint gales of starlight from above Blew softly from the casement light Across the pillow, milky white. Where slept the lady of his love. The floating tresses, black as sloe. Fell tangled round the dainty snow Of cheek and bosom. Gentle seemed The lady, smiling as she dreamed. But not of him her visions are. Who, for the sake of the sweet light Within her casement, vexed the night — Her thoughts are travelers otherwhere. HYALA. 127 At midnight on a jutting cliif, A raven flapped his wings and cried ; Faintly the willow pipe replied — The hands upon its stops were stiff. Under the silvery sycamore The mournful playing was all done — If there be angels, he was one, For surely all his pain was o'er. At morn a lady walked that way. And when she saw his quiet sleeping, Upon the flowers, she fell a-weeping, And for her tears she could not pray. I had been little used to speak Of comfort, but was moved to see Her piteous heart so near to break. For the pale corse beneath the tree ; And so, to soothe her grief, I said The way he died, and told his song ; " Alas, he loved me well and long," She sighed ; " I would that we were wed As lovers use, or else that I AVere anything that I am not. Or bird, or bee, I care not what. Here in the pleasant flowers to die." The mist, with many a soft fold, shrouds The eastern hills, birds wake their hymns, And through the sycamore's white limbs Shines the red climbing of the clouds. Making my rhymes, I heard her sigh, " Ah, well-a-day, that we were wed As lovers use, or else that I Here on the pleasant flowers were dead ! " HYALA. Low by the reedy sea went ancient Ops, Tracking for crownless Saturn : quietly From her gray hair waned off the sober light. For Eve, that Cyclops of the burning eye, Slow pacing down the slumberous hills, was gone. 128 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Under the black boughs of a cedarn wood, Weary of hunting, Dian lay asleep, Kissed by the amorous winds. Close to her feet, Cropping the scant ambrosia, lo came, Her slender neck hung round with modest bells Of asphodel, the gift of Jupiter, Who, for the jealous love that Juno had. Made her the milk-white heifer that she was. So slept the huntress while, hard by the wood Where the slant sunset lay in crimson gores Athwart the dimness, that most chaste of maids Whom Dian loved, cold-bosomed Hyala, Stood leaning on her slack bow, all alone — Her forehead smooth as ice, and ivy -bound, And in her girdle of blue hyacinths Three sharpest arrows. All unconsciously, Tripping bare-footed through the violets, Idalia, fairest shepherdess of all — In her white hands her silver milking-bowl. And on her lip the music of a heart Hungry for love — crossed the near field, her song Sweetly dividing the blue silent air : " fair Scamander, bed of loveliness, When wilt thou give my naked limbs to lie Among thy marriage pillows, white as foam ! " In the pale cheek of Hyala burned out An angry color, as she saw her sit Singing and milking in her silver bowl. One lily shoulder, under rippling lengths Of dropping tresses, pressing light the flank Of a plump goat, with eyes as black as sloe. And hoofs of pinky silver, dimpling deep The wild green turf thick-sprouting on a ridge That topt a flowery slope in Thessaly. Scorn curled the lip of listening Hyala, And drawing from her belt the nimblest shaft. Straight from her steady hand it sped and sunk Deep in the forehead of the harmless beast. That moaning fell, and bled into the grass : So Hyala went laughing on her way. GRAND-DAME AND CHILD. 129 GEAND-DAME AND CHILD. The maple's limbs of yellow flowers Made spots of sunshine here and there In the bleak woods ; a merry pair Of blue-birds, which the April showers Had softly called, were come that day ; Another week would bring the May And all the meadow-grass w^ould shine With strawberries ; and all the trees Whisper of coming blooms, and bees Work busy, making golden wine. The white-haired grand-dame, faint and sick, Sits fretful in her chair of oak ; The clock is nearly on the stroke Of all the day's best hour, and quick The dreamy house will glimmer bright — No candle needed any more. For Miriam's smile is so like light, The moths fly with her in the door. The lilies carved in her chair The grand-dame counts, but cannot tell If they be three or seven ; the pair Of merry blue-birds, singing well, She does not hear ; nor can she see The moonshine, cold, and pure, and bright, Walk like an angel clothed in white, The path where Miriam should be. Almost she hears the little feet Patter along the path of sands ; Her eyes are making pictures sweet. And every breeze her cheek that fans, Half cheat her to believe, I wis. It is her pretty grandchild's kiss. The dainty hood, her fancy too Sees hanging on the cabin wall, And from her modest eyes of blue. Fair Miriam putting back the fall 130 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Of her brown hair, and laughing wild — Her darling merry-hearted child, Then with a step as light and low As any wood-birds in the snow. She goes about her household cares. " The saints will surely count for prayers, The duties love doth sweeten so," Says the pleased grand-dame ; but alas ! No feet are pattering on the grass, No hood is hanging on the wall — It was a foolish dreaming, all. The morning-glories winding up The rustic pillars of the shed, Oj^en their dark bells, cup by cup, To the June's rainy clouds ; the bed Of rosemary and meadow-sweet Which Miriam kept with so much care, Is run to weeds, and everywhere Across the paths her busy feet Wore smooth and hard, the grass has grown And still the grand-dame sits alone, Counting the lilies in her chair — Her ancient chair of carved oak — And fretful, listening for the stroke Of the old clock, and for the pair Of blue-birds that have long been still ; Saying, as o'er the neighboring hill The shadows gather thick and dumb — " 'T is time that Miriam were come." And now the spiders cease to weave. And from between the corn's green stems Drawing after her her scarlet hems. Dew-dappled, the brown-vested Eve Slow to his purple pillows drops ; His tired team now the plowman stops ; In the dim woods the axe is still. And sober, winding round the hill. The cows come home. " Come, pretty one, I 'm watching for you at the door," Calls the old grand-dame o'er and o'er, " 'T is time the working all were done." AGATHA TO HAROLD. 131 And kindly neighbors come and go, But gently piteous ; none have said, " Your pretty grandchild sleepeth so We cannot wake her ; " but instead Piling the cushions in her chair, Carved in many a quaint design Of leaves and lilies, nice and fine, They tell her she must not despair To meet her pretty child again — To see her wear forevermore, A smile of brighter love than when The moths flew with her in the door. AGATHA TO HAROLD* Come there ever memories, Harold, Like a half-remembered song From the time of gladness vanished Down the distance, oh, so long ! Come they to me — not in sadness, For they strike into my soul, As the sharp axe of the woodsman Strikes the dead and sapless bole. Just across the orchard hill-top, Through the branches gray and bare. We can see the village church-yard — I shall not be lonesome there. When the cold wet leaves are falling On the turfless mound below. You will sometimes think about me, You will love me then, I know. In the window of my chamber Is a plant with pale blooms crowned — If the sun shines warm to-morrow. In that quiet church-yard ground I will set it; and at noontimes, When the school-girls thither wend, They will see it o'er me blossom And believe I had a friend. * Printed in "Lyra" and revised in the volume of 1855. The revision is givea here. 132 POEMS BY ALICE CARY, Knowest thou the time, oh Harold, When at many a green mound's head Read we o'er the simple records Love had written of the dead. While the west was faintly burning, . Where the cloud}^ day was set. Like a blushing press of kisses — Ah, thou never canst forget ! " Thou art young," thou saidst, " thy future All in sunlight seems to shine — Art content to crown thy may time Out of autumn love like mine ? Couldst thou see my locks a fading With no sorrow and no fears ? — Por thou knowest I stand in shadows Deep to almost twice thy years." In that time my life-blood mounted From my bosom to my brow. And I answered simply, truly — (I was younger then than now) — " Were it strange if that a daisy Sheltered from the tempest stroke, Bloomed contented in the shadow Of the overarching oak ? " When the sun had like a herdsman Clipt the misty waves of morn, By the breezes driven seaward Like a flock of lambs new-shorn ; Thou hadst left me, and oh, Harold, Half in gladness, half in tears, I was gazing down the future O'er the lapses of the years ; To what time the clouds about me — All my night of sorrow done — Should blow out their crimson linings O'er the rising of love's sun ; And I said in exultation, " Not the bright ones in the sky. Then shall know a sweeter pleasure Than, my Harold, thou and I." LEGEND OF SEVILLE. 133 Thrice the scattered seed had sprouted As the spring thaw reappeared, And the winter frosts had grizzled Thrice the autumn's yellow beard ; When that lovely day of promise Darkened with a dread eclipse, And my heart's long clasped joyance Died in moans upon my lips. Silent, saw I other maidens To a thousand pleasures wed — "Save me from the past, good angel ! " This was all the prayer I said. Sometimes they would smile upon me As their gay troops passed me by, Saying softly to each other, " How is she content to die ? '' Oh, they little guess the barren Wastes on which my visions go. And the conflicts fierce but silent That at last have made me so. Shall the bright-winged bird be netted Singing in the open fields, And not struggle with the fowler. Long and vainly ere it yields — Or the heart to death surrender Mortal hoping without strife ? But the struggle now is ended — Give me, God, a better life ! LEGEND OF SEVILLE. Three men that three gray mules bestrode Went riding through a lonesome road — Dust from the largest to the least Up to the fetlock of each beast. The foremost was a stripling pale; " Comrades," he said, " within our hail I see a hostel, white as snow — 'T is nightfall — shall we thither go ? '* 134 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. " Nay," said the other two, " in sooth 'T is white enough, but of a truth, Too lowly for our courtly need — We '11 gain a fairer with good speed." So, pa^t the hostel white they rode, These men that three gray mules bestrode, Till led the pale young moon afar, By her slim silver horn, one star. Right wistfully then looking back. Cried out the middle man, " Alack ! I spy a rude black inn — shalt see If the host have good wine for three ? " " Now," said the hindmost, " by my troth Shamed is ray knighthood for ye both." — So, pricking sharply, on they rode, These men who three gray mules l3estrode. Close where a whimpering river lay Stood huts of fishers ; all that day Drying their loose nets in the sun. They told how murders might be done. A moorish tower of yellow stone Shadowed that river-bridge, o'ergrown With lichen and the marish moss — Forward the stripling rode to cross. Close came the others man by man. But farther than the shadow ran. The legend says, they never rode. These men who three gray mules bestrode. TO THE WINDS. 135 TO THE WINDS.* Talk to my heart, oh winds — Talk to my heart to-night ; My spirit always finds With you a new delight, Finds always new delight, In your silver talk at night. Give me your soft embrace As you used to long ago. In your shadowy trysting place. When you seemed to love me so — When you sweetly kissed me so, On the green hills long ago. Come up from your cool bed, In the stilly twilight sea, For the dearest hope lies dead, That was ever dear to me ; Come up from your cool bed. And we '11 talk about the dead. Tell me, for oft you go. Winds, lovely winds of night, About the chambers low With sheets so dainty white, If they sleep through all the night, In the beds so chill and white : Talk to me, winds, and say. If in the grave be rest ; For, oh, life's little day Is a weary one at best ; Talk to my heart and say If death will give me rest. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1865. 136 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. ANNUAEIES. I* A YEAR has gone down silently To the dark quiet of the Past Since I beneath this very tree Sat hoping, fearing, dreaming, last ; Its waning glories, like a flame, Are trembling to the wind's light touch — All just a year ago the same, And I — oh! I — am changed so much! The beauty of a wildering dream Hung softly round declining day ; A star of all too sweet a beam In Eve's flushed bosom trembling lay ; Changed in its aspect, yet the same. Still climbs that star from sunset's glow, But its embrace of beauteous flame No longer clasps the world from woe. Another year shall I return, And cross the solemn chapel floor. While round me memory's shrine-lamps burn — Or shall this pilgrimage be o'er ? One that I loved, grown faint with strife. When dropped and died the tenderer bloom, Folded the white tent of young life For the pale army of the tomb. The dry seeds dropping from their pods, The hawthorn apples bright as dawn, And the gray mullen's starless rods, Were just as now a year agone ; But changed is everything to me. From the small flower to sunset's glow Since last I sat beneath this tree, A year — a little year — ago. * This first " Annuary " was reprinted with some verbal changes, in the volume of 1S55, from the volume of 1850. The first, second, third, and fourth were printed in " Lyra," as well as in volume of 1855, ANNUARIES. 137 I leaned against this broken bough, This faded turf my footstep pressed ; But glad hopes that are not Uiere now, Lay softly trembling in my breast — Trembling, for through the golden haze Rose, as the dead leaves drifted by. As from the Vala of old days, The mournful voice of prophecy. Give woman's heart one triumph hour, Even on the borders of the grave, And thou hast given her strength and power The saddest ills of life to brave; Crush that far hope down, thou dost bring To the poor bird the tempest's wrath, Without the petrel's stormy wing To beat the darkness from its path. Once knowing mortal hope and fear, Whate'er in heaven's sweet clime thou art, Bend, pitying mother, softly near. And save, O save me from my heart ! Be still, oh mournful memory. My knee is trembling on the sod — The heir of immortality, A child of the eternal God. II. When last year took her mournful flight. With all her train of woe and ill. As pale possessions sweep at night Across some lonesome burial hill — My soul with sorrow for its ;uate. And bowed with unrequited wrong. Stood knocking at the starry gate Of the wild wondrous realm of song. Hope from my noon of life was gone. With all the sheltering peace it gave. And a dim twilight stealing on. Foretold the night-time of the grave. 138 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Past is that time of wild unrest, Hope reillumes its faded track, And the soft hand of love has prest Death's deep and awful shadows back. A year agone, when wildly shrill The wind sat singing on this bough The churchyard on the neighboring hill Had not so many graves as now. Yet am I spared — God knoweth why, And by the hand of fancy led, The same as in the years gone by, Musing this idle rhyme I tread. When the May-morn, with hand of light, The clouds about her bosom drew, And o'er the blue, cold steeps of night Went treading out the stars like dew — One, whose dear joy it had been ours Two little summer times to keep. Folded his white hands from the flowers, And, softly smiling, fell asleep. And when the northern light streamed cold Across October's moaning blast, One whose brief tarrying was foretold All the sweet summer that was past, Meekly unlocked from her young arms The scarcely faded bridal crown, And in death's fearful night of storms The dim day of her life went down. Above yon reach of level mist Bright shines the cross-crowned spire afar. As in the sky'si clear amethyst The splendor of some steadfast star ; And still beneath its steady light The waves of time heave to and fro, From night to day, from day to night, As the dim seasons come and go. Some eager for ambition's strife, Some to love's banquet hurrying on. ANNUARIES. 139 Like pilgrims on the hills of life We cross each other, and are gone ; But though our lives are little drops, Welled from the infinite fount above, Our deaths are but the mystic stops In the great melody of love. III. Vailing the basement of the skies October's mists hang dull and red. And with each wild gust's fall and rise, The yellow leaves are round me spread ; 'T is the third autumn, aye, so long ! Since memory 'neath this very bough, Thrilled my sad lyre strings into song — What shall unlock their music now ? Then sang I of a sweet hope changed. Of pale hands beckoning, glad health fled, Of hearts grown careless or estranged, Of friends, or living, lost, or dead. O living lost, forever lost, Your light still lingers, faint and far, As if an awful shadow crossed The bright disk of the morning star. Blow, autumn, in thy wildest w^ath, Down from the northern woodlands, blow ! Drift the last wild-flowers from my path — What care I for the summer now ! Yet shrink I, trembling and afraid From searching glances inward thrown ; What deep foundation have I laid, For any joyance not my own ? While with my poor, unskilful hands. Half hopeful, half in vague alarm. Building up walls of shining sands That fell and faded with the storm, E'en now my bosom shakes with fear. Like the last leaflets of this bough. 140 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. For through the silence I can hear, " Unprofitable servant, thou ! " Yet have there been, there are to-day In spite of health, or hope's decline, Fountains of beauty sealed away From every mortal eye but mine ; Even dreams have filled my soul with light, And on my way their splendor left. As if the darkness of the night Were by some planet's rising cleft. And peace hath in my heart been born. That shut from memory all life's ills, In walking with the blue-eyed morn Among the white mists of the hills. And joyous, I have heard the wails That heave the wild woods to and fro. When autumn's crown of crimson pales Beneath the winter's hand of snow. Once, leaving all its lovely mates. On yonder lightning-withered tree. That vainly for the springtime waits, A wild bird perched and sang for me ; And listening to the clear sweet strain That came like sunshine o'er the day, My forehead's hot and burning pain Fell like a crown of thorns away. But shadows from the western height Are stretching to the valley low, For through the cloudy gates of night The day is passing, solemn, slow. While o'er yon blue and rocky steep The moon, half hidden in the mist, Waits for the loving wind to keep The promise of the twilight tryst. Come thou, whose meek blue eyes divine, What thou, and only thou canst see, 1 wait to put my hand in thine — What answer sendest thou to me ? ANNUARIES. 141 Ah ! thouglits of one whom helpless blight Had pushed from all fair \\o\)e. apart, Making it thenceforth hers to tight The stormy battles of the heart. "Well, I have no complaint of wrath, And no reproaches for my doom ; Spring cannot blossom in thy path So bright as I would have it bloom. IV. Oh, sorrowful and faded years. Gathered away a time ago, How could your deaths the fount of tears Have troubled to an overflow ? I muse upon the songs I made Beneath the maple's yellow limbs, When down the aisles of thin cold shade Sounded the wild bird's farewell hymns. But no sad spell my spirit binds As when, in days on which it broods, October hunted with the winds Along the reddening sunset woods. Alas, the seasons come and go. Brightly or dimly rise and set The days, but stir no fount of woe. Nor kindle hope, nor wake regret. I sit with the complaining night. And underneath the waning moon. As when the lilies large and white Lay round the forehead of the June, What time within a snowy grave Closed the blue eyes so heavenly dear, Darkness swept o'er me like a wave. And time has nothing that I fear. The golden wings of summer's hours Make to my heart a dirge-like sound, The spring's sweet boughs of bridal flowers Lie bright across a smooth-heaped mound. 142 . POEMS BY ALICE GARY. What care I that I sing to-day Where sound not the old plaintive hymns, And where the mountains hide away The sunset maple's yellow limbs ? V. On the brown, flowerless meadow lies The wraith of summer ; oat flowers bright Nod heavy on her death-blind eyes, Smiling with melancholy light. And Autumn, with his eyelids red Drooped to her beauty, sits to-day, His sad heart sweetly comforted By storms upon their starless way. Seasons continuous, mingling, thrill Our souls, as notes that sweetly blend, Until we cannot, if we will. Tell where they or begin or end. And while the blue fly sings so well, And while the cricket chirps so low : In the bright grass, I scarce can tell If there be daisy-flakes, or snow. But when along the slumberous blue, And dreamy, quiet atmosphere, I look to find the April dew, I know the Autumn time is here. The lampless hollow of the skies Is full of mists, or blank, or dun ; Where all day, soft and warm, there lies A shadow that should be the sun. The winds go noiseless on their way. Scarcely the lightest twig is stirred ; Not through the wild green boughs of May Slips the blue lizard so unheard. Under the woolly mullen, flat Against the dust, together creep The shining beetles ; and the bat Is drowsing to his winter sleep. ANNU ARIES. 143 The iron-weeds' red tops are down, Wilted from all their summer sheen The fennel's golden buds are brown, And loneliest in all the scene : Hither and thither lightly blows A white cloud o'er the darkening wood, Like some unpastured lamb that goes Climbing and wandering for food. But plenty gladdens all the world, For corn is ripe, if flowers be o'er ; Autumn, with yellow beard uncurled In summer's grave-damps, sigh no more ! Sigh no more, Autumn ! sigh no more — For if the blooming boughs have shed Their pleasant leaves, the light will pour So much the brighter on thy head. And while thy mourning voice is staid I '11 play my pipe, so adding on Another to the rhymes I made Ere youth, my pretty mate, was gone. Winds, stirring through the pinetops high, Or hovering on the ocean's breast. Blow softly on the ways that lie Sloping and brightening toward the West. Blow softly, for my thoughts would sweep, Upon your still and beauteous weaves, Back to the woodlands green and deep, Back to the firesides and the graves — The firesides of the rosiest glow. The graves wherein my kindred rest ; Winds of the jSTorthland, softly blow. And bear me to the lovely West. There linger sweetest voices yet. That ever soothed from grief its pain ; There glow the hills with suns long set, And there my heart grows young again. The hope which in the crimson boughs Shut up her wings dim years away. 144 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Sits with her wan and crownless brows Leaned on the sodded grave to-day. For when the last sweet vision died She nursed for me, there fell a night Cloudy and black enough to hide Her smile's almost eternal light. When the unkenneled whining winds, Went last year tracking through the snow, My heart was comforted with friends Gone on the last long journey now — Who in the middle heavens can view The noontide sun without a sigh — A yearning for the faded dew Where morning's broken splendors lie. And from the glory up above, My eyes come down to earth and mark The pain, the sorrow for lost love — The awful transit to the dark. Weak and unworthy, still I live, Harvests and plenteous boughs to see ; My God ! how good thou art to give Such blessings as I have to me. Oh ! add to these all needful grace — Divide me from that proud disdain, Climbing against the sunless base Of an eternity of pain. VI. Once more my annual harp ! alas, 'T is the sixth season nearly run Since the brown lizard through the grass Crept slow, and took the autumn sun: Since the wild maple boughs above Shook down their leaves of gold and red, The while I made ray song of love — If there be angels overhead. •■is^ Methinks before their watchful eyes They well may cross their wings and rest; ANNUARIES. 145 What need they guardians in the skies Who with a human love are blest ? Ah me ! what wretched storms of tears Have made maturer life a dearth, — For the white visions of young years Grow dimmer than the common earth ? In vain ! the sw^art October brings, In its rough arms, no April day — The ousel plunges its wild wings But in the rainy brooks of May. The rose that in the June time rain Comes open, could not, if it would Shut up its red-ripe leaves again. And go back to a blushing bud. And when the step is dull and slow^ And when the eye no longer beams With the glad hopes of years ago, What purpose has the heart with dreams ? Away, wild thoughts of sorrow's flood — Wild dreams of early love, away ! In calm and passionless womanhood. Why come ye thronging back to-day ! And you, ye questionings that rise. Of life and death and hope's surcease. Seal up again your mockeries — Peace, peace ! I charge you give me peace ! And let me from the pain and gloom Gather whatever seems like truth, Forgetful of the opening tomb. Forgetful of the closing youth. Fain would my thoughts a searching go For one who left me years away — Haply the unblest grasses grow Upon his sweet shut eyes, to-day. Oft when the evening's mellow gleam Falls slantwdse o'er some western hill. And like a ponderous, golden beam Lies rocking — all my heart grows still. 146 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Listening and listening for the fall Of his dear step, the cold moon shines Betimes across the southern hall, And the black shadows of the vines O'erblow the mouldy walls, and lie Heavy along the winding walks — Where oft we set, in Mays gone by, Streaked lady-grass and hollyhocks. Within a stone's throw seems the sky Against the faded woods to bend, Just as of old the corn-fields lie ; But we, oh, we are changed, my friend ! Since last I saw these maples fade, The locusts in the burial ground Have wrapt their melancholy shade About a new and turfless mound. And one who last year heard with me The summer's dirges wild and dread, Has joined the peaceful company Whom we, the living, mourn as dead. Turning for solace unto thee, Oh, Future ! from the pleasures gone, Misshapen earth, through mists I see. That fancy dare not look upon. God of the earth and heaven above. Hear me in mercy, hear me pray — Let not one golden strand of love From my life's skein be shorn away, Or if, in thy all-wise decree. The edict be not written so, Grant, Lord of light, the earnest plea That I may be the first to go. And when the harper of wide space Shall chant again his mournful hymn. While on the summer's pale dead face The leaves are dropping thick and dim - When songs of robins all are o'er. And when his work the ant forsakes. LOST LIGHT. 147 And in the stubbly glebe no more The grasshopper his pastime takes — What time the gray-roofed barn is full, The sober smiling harvest done, And whiter than the late washed wool, The flax is bleaching in the sun — The friends who sewed my shroud, sometimes Shall come about my grave: in tears Repeating over saddest rhymes From annuaries of past years. LOST LIGHT. So, close the window ! gray and blank the sky Slopes to the nightfall, and the wintry woods Stand black and desolate ; I shall not see Spring, like a sunrise running o'er the hills, Nor yet the lark, for love's insanity Fly at the stars, singing his heart away. In other seasons, I was little used To miss the wild green boughs : thick flaws of rain Fell round me like the moonlight. Once, I know, A mower brought me some red berries home. And in bright plaits I wore them in my hair, Playing along the meadow-side all day. I wish that time were back. A foolish thought ! Its faith and love are fallen to dead dust Where hope sets slips of roses all in vain ; And as the stormy, dull, and gusty eve Shuts in the day, my day is closing too ; The playing in the meadows is all done. Mine is the common error, to have given, For shallow possibilities, the straight And even chance of every probable good — From fields of flowers to have but singled out The bright one that was deadly, and to strive Through prayer and passion vainly to win back My blind way into peace, crying to be Needless of all excuse — to be a child. 148 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Treading cool furrows scented with crushed roots, To chase the stubble for the humming bird, And sing out with the homely grasshopper. That once sweet music, April's pleasant rain. Plashing against the roof, grown thick with moss, Comes to me as though muffled by the clods. The tall reeds slant together as the winds Go piping through them, shepherding the lambs Where tiny fountains lie in hollow grounds, Rimmed round with uncropt daisies and bright grass. Birds mate and sing together, blossoming twigs Swing down with golden bees,, the anthills swarm. And the black spider in his loom of limbs Weaves busily. The sad crow calls alone, The milk-maid plats her straw, the heifer's low E-uns through the twilight, quick the harmless bat Flattens his thick damp wings against the pane. Love makes its lullaby, brown crickets run Along the hearth-light, proud bright hollyhocks Grow in the village garden with the corn. Lilies o'ertop the meadows, rough wild trees Sprout out with verdure ; for the pleasant time. Glossy with purple plaits, out of their holes Snakes travel limberly ; blood-hungry beasts Lean their great foreheads close and lovingly ; Moles wallow toward the light ; the sentinel cock Cries all the watches ; yet no more the morn. Upright and white, smiles, gathering out the stars That redden, crown-like, round her yellow hair. But, prone, along the earth, from hill to hill, Slips noiselike,"* like some earth-burrowing thing. That only lifts its pale throat in the sun. Oh, if I dared to say these blushes climb Up to my cheek from a heart full of sin, Something might yet be done — my blind eyes be Couched to some apprehension of delight. Only the bad go sidling to the truth Through fate, necessity and evil chance. Saying, " I trifled with a tempting thing — Berry or leaf — an ugly-headed worm — Call it a viper — say I kissed its mouth, Or once, or twice, or of tener, if you will — * Perhaps a misprint for " noiselessl}'." PA UL. 149 And what of that, if it was but a part That needs must be in life ? Am I to blame ? Shrinking, yet drawn along by baffling power, Even as the shamble's bloody enginery Winds close against the windlass the beast's head.'' Ay, who can be absolved by conscience so, Or bring the lost light back into the world ! PAUL. Crossing the stubble, where, erewhile. The golden-headed wheat had been, I saw, and knew him by his smile. Night, sad with rain, was flowing in — I drew the curtains, soft and warm. And when the room was full of light, We sat — half listening to the storm, Half talking — all the dreary night. From their wet sheds, we heard the moan Our oxen made — a pretty pair — And heard the dead leaves often blown In gusty eddies, here and there. The dull-eyed spider ran along The smoky rafters ; the gray mouse Crossed the bare floor ; and his wild song The cricket made through all the house. Twisting the brown hair into rings, Above his meditative eyes, I counted all the long-gone springs That we had sown with flowers ; his sighs Came thick and fast, as well they might, But when I said, how on, and on, For his sake, I had kept them bright — The slow, reproachful smile was gone. 150 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And seeing that my spoken truth Glowed in my silent looks, the same, All the proud beauty of his youth Back on his faded manhood came. About my neck he clasped his arm, As in affection's morning prime, And said, how blest he was — that storm Was sweeter than the summer-time ! But when I kissed him back, and said — The embers never cast a gleam Through our low cabin, half so red', Sleep vanished — all had been a dream. TO THE SPIRIT OF GLADNESS * Underneath a dreary sky. Spirit glad and free. Voyaging solemnly am I Toward an unknown sea. Falls the moonlight, sings the breeze, But thou speakest not in these. In the summers overflown What delights we had ! Now I sit all day alone. Weaving ditties sad ; But thou comest not for the sake Of the lonesome rhymes I make. Faithless spirit, spirit free. Where mayst thou be found ? Where the meadow fountains be Raining music round. And the thistle burs so blue Shine the livelong day with dew. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THE TRYST. 151 Keep thee, in thy pleasant bowers, From my heart and brain ; Even the summer's lap of flowers Could not cool the pain ; And for pallid cheek and brow What companionship hast thou ? Erewhile, when the rainy spring Filled the pastures full Of sweet daisies blossoming Out as white as wool ; We have gathered them and made Beds of Beauty in the shade. Would that I had any friend Lovingly to go To the hollow where they blend With the grasses low, And a pillow soft and white Make for the approaching night. THE TRYST.* The moss is withered, the moss is brown Under the dreary cedarn bowers, And fleet winds running the valleys down Cover with dead leaves the sleeping flowers. White as a lily the moonlight lies Under the gray oak's ample boughs ; In the time of June 't were a paradise For gentle lovers to make their vows. In the middle of night when the wolf is dumb. Like a sweet star rising out of the sea, They say that a damsel at times will come, And brighten the chilly light under the tree. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1865. 152 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And a blessed angel from out the sky Cometh her lonely watch to requite ; But not for my soul's sweet sake would I Pray under its shadow alone at night. A boy by the tarn of the mountain side Was cruelly murdered long ago, Where oft a spectre is seen to glide And wander wearily to and fro. The night was sweet like an April night, When misty softness the blue air fills. And the freckled adder's tongue makes bright The sleepy hollows among the hills. When, startled up from the hush that broods Beauteously o'er the midnight time. The gust ran wailing along the woods Like one who seeth an awful crime. The tree is withered, the tree is lost. Where he gathered the ashen berries red. As meekly the dismal woods he crossed — The tree is withered, the boy is dead. Now nightly, with footsteps slow and soft, A damsel goes thither, but not in joy ; Put thy arms round her, good angel aloft. If she be the love of the murdered boy. For still she comes as the daylight fades. Her tryst to keep near the cedarn bowers. Bear with her gently, tenderly, maids. Whose hopes are open like summer flowers. JESSIE CARROL. 15 JESSIE CARROL* I. At her window, Jessie Carrol, As the twilight dew distils. Pushes back her heavy tresses. Listening toward the northern hills. " I am happy, very happy, None so much as I am blest — None of all the many maidens In the Valley of the West," Softly to herself she whispered ; Paused she then again to hear If the step of Allan Archer, That she waited for, were near. " Ah, he knows I love him fondly ! — I have never told him so ! — Heart of mine, be not so heavy. He will come to-night, I know." Brightly is the full moon filling All the withered woods with light, " He has not forgotten surely — It was later yesternight ! " Shadows interlock with shadows — Says the maiden, " Woe is me ! " In the blue the eve-star trembles Like a lily in the sea. Yet a good hour later sounded, — But the northern woodlands sway ! — Quick a white hand from her casement Thrust the heavy vines away. Like the wings of restless swallows That a moment brush the dew, And again are up and upward, Till we lose them in the blue. Were the thoughts of Jessie Carrol For a moment dim with pain, Then with pleasant waves of sunshine, On the hills of hope again. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. (K 154 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. " Selfish am I, weak and selfish," Said she, ''thus to sit and sigh: Other friends and other pleasures Claim his leisure well as I. Haply, care or bitter sorrow 'T is that keeps him from my side, Else he surely would have hasted Hither at the twilight tide. Yet sometimes I can but marvel That his lips have never said. When we talked about the future Then, or then, we shall be wed ! — Much I fear me that my nature Cannot measure half his pride. And perchance he would not wed me Though I pined of love and died. To the aims of his ambition I would bring nor wealth nor fame. Well, there is a quiet valley Where we both shall sleep the same ! " So, more eves than I can number, Now despairing, and now blest, Watched the gentle Jessie Carrol, From the Valley of the West. II. Down along the dismal woodland Blew October's yellow leaves, And the day had waned and faded, To the saddest of all eves. Poison rods of scarlet berries Still were standing here and there, But the clover blooms were faded, And the orchard boughs were bare. From the stubble-fields the cattle Winding homeward, playful, slow, With their slender horns of silver Pushed each other to and fro. Suddenly the hound up-springing From his sheltering kennel, whined, As the voice of Jessie Carrol Backward drifted on the wind — JESSIE CARROL. 155 Backward drifted from a pathway Sloping down the upland wild, Where she walked with Allan Archer, Light of spirit as a child ; All her young heart wild with rapture And the bliss that made it beat — Not the golden wells of Hybla Held a treasure half so sweet ! But as oft the shifting rose-cloud, In the sunset light that lies, Mournful makes us, feeling only How much farther are the skies, — So the mantling of her blushes. And the trembling of her heart, 'Neath his steadfast eyes but made her Feel how far they were apart. " Allan," said she, " I will tell you Of a vision that I had — All the livelong night I dreamed it, And it made me very sad. We were walking slowly seaward. In the twilight — you and 1 — Through a break of clearest azure Shone the moon — as now — on high ; Though I nothing said to vex you. O'er your forehead came a frown. And I strove, but could not soothe you — Something kept my full heart down ; When, before us, stood a lady In the moonlight's pearly beam. Very tall and proud and stately — (Allan, this was in my dream I — ) Looking down, I thought, upon me, Half in pity, half in scorn, Till my soul grew sick with wishing That I never had been born. ' Cover me from w^oe and madness ! ' Cried I to the ocean flood, As she locked her milk-white fingers In between us where we stood, — All her flood of midnight tresses Softly gathered from their flow, 156 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. By her crown of bridal beauty, Paler than the winter snow. Striking then my hands together, O'er the tumult of my breast, — All the beauty waned and faded From the Valley of the West ! " In the beard of Allan Archer Twisted then his fingers white, As he said, " My gentle Jessie You must not be sad to-night ; You must not be sad, my Jessie, You are over kind and good. And I fain would make you happy. Very happy — if I could ! " Oft he kissed her cheek and forehead, Called her darling oft, but said. Never, that he loved her fondly. Or that ever they should wed ; But that he was grieved that shadows Should have chilled so dear a heart, That the time, foretold so often, Then was come — and they must part ! Shook her bosom then with passion. Hot her forehead burned with pain, But her lips said only, " Allan, Will you ever come again ? " And he answered, lightly dallying With her tresses all the while. Life had not a star to guide him Like the beauty of her smile. And that when the corn was ripened And the vintage harvest prest. She would see him home returning To the Valley of the West. When the moon had veiled her splendor, And went lessening down the blue, And along the eastern hill-tops Burned the morning in the dew, They had parted — each one feeling That their lives had separate ends ; JESSIE CARROL. ■ 157 They had parted — neither happy — Less than lovers — more than friends. For as Jessie mused in silence, She remembered that he said, Never, that he loved her fondly. Or that ever they should wed. 'T was full many a nameless meaning My poor words can never say, Felt without the need of utterance That had won her heart away. ! the days were weary ! w^eary ! And the eves were dull and long. With the cricket's chirp of sorrow, And the owlet's mournful song. Out of slumber oft she started In the still and lonesome nights, Hearing but the traveler's footstep Hurrying toward the village lights. So moaned by the dreary winter — All her household tasks fulfilled — Till beneath the last year's rafters Came the swallows back to build. Meadow-pinks, in flakes of crimson, Through the pleasant valleys lay. And again were oxen ploughing Up and down the hills all day. Thus the dim days dawned and faded To the maid, forsaken, lorn. Till the freshening breeze of summer Shook the tassels of the corn. Ever now within her chamber All night long the lamp-light shines. But no white hand from her casement Pushes back- the heavy vines. On her cheek a fire was feeding, And her hand transparent grew — Ah, the faithless Allan Archer! More than she had dreamed was true. No complaint was ever uttered, Only to herself she sighed, — . 158 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. As she read of wretched poets Who had pined of love and died. Once she crushed the sudden crying From her trembling lips away, When they said the vintage harvest Had been gathered in that day. Often, when they kissed her, smiled she, Saying that it soothed her pain, And that they must not be saddened — She would soon be well again ! Thus nor hoping nor yet fearing, Meekly bore she all her pain, Till the red leaves of the autumn Withered from the woods again ; Till the bird had hushed its singing In the silvery sycamore, And the nest was left unsheltered In the lilac by the door ; Saying, still, that she was happy — None so much as she was blest — None of all the many maidens In the Valley of the West. III. Down the heath and o'er the moorland Blows the wild gust high and higher, Suddenly the maiden pauses Spinning at the cabin fire. And from out her taper fingers Falls away the flaxen thread, As some neighbor, entering, whispers, "Jessie Carrol lieth dead." Then, as pressing close her forehead To the window-pane, she sees Two stout men together digging Underneath the church-yard trees. And she asks in kindest accents, " Was she happy when she died ? " Sobbing all the while to see them Void the heavy earth aside ; Or, upon their mattocks leaning. Through their fingers numb to blow^^ JESSIE CARROL. 159 For the wintry air is chilly, And the grave-mounds white with snow. And the neighbor answers softly, " Do not, dear one, do not cry ; At the break of day she asked us If we thought that she must die ; And when I had told her, sadly, That I feared it would be so, Smiled she, saying, ' 'T will be weary Digging in the churchyard snow ! ' Earth, I said, was very dreary — That its paths at best were rough ; And she whispered, she was ready, That her life was long enough. So she lay serene and silent. Till the wind, that wildly drove, Soothed her from her mortal sorrow, Like the lullaby of love." Thus they talked, while one that loved her Smoothed her tresses dark and long. Wrapped her white shroud down, and simply Wove her sorrow to this song : IV, Sweetly sleeps she : pain and passion Burn no longer on her brow — Weary watchers, ye may leave her — She no more will need you now ! While the wild spring bloomed and faded, Till the autumn came and passed, Calmly, patiently, she waited — Rest has come to her at last ! Never have the blessed angels, As they walked with her apart. Kept pale Sorrow's battling armies Half so softly from her heart. Therefore, think not, ye that loved her. Of the pallor hushed and dread, Where the winds like heavy mourners, Cry about her lonesome bed, 160 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. But of white hands softly reaching As the shadow o'er her fell, Downward from the golden bastion Of the eternal citadel. HYPEEION* In the May woods alone — yet not alone, For unsubstantial beings near me tread — At times I hear them piteously moan, Haply a plaint for the o'ergifted dead. That, to the perfectness of stature grown, Had filled for aye the vacant heart of time With dulcet rhythms, and cadences unknown, In all the sweetest melody of rhyme. And yet alone, for not a human heart Stirs with tumultuous throbbings the deep hushj Almost I hear the blue air fall apart From the delirious warble of the thrush — A wave of lovely sound, untouched of art, Going through air — " a disembodied joy : " But in between each blissful stop and start, (Belike such sweet food else our hearts would cloy,) From the thick woods there comes into the vale A long and very melancholy cry. As of a spirit in that saddest bale — Clinging to sin yet longing for the sky. Across the hill-tops crowned with verdure pale, A gnarled oak stands above the neighboring trees, Rocking itself asleep upon the gale — The proudest billow of the woodland seas. A thin dun cloud above the sunken sun Holds the first star of evening's endless train. Clasped from the world's profaneness, like a nun Within the shelter of the convent pane. * A revision of " Keats." HYPERION. 161 Did the delicious light of such a one Fleck his dark pathway with its shimmering fire, Whose lingers, till life's little day was done. Clung like charmed kisses to his wondrous lyre ? I 've read, in some chance fragment of old song, A tale to muse of in this lovely light. About a maiden, flying from deep wrong Into the chilly darkness of the night. Upon whose milk-white bosom, cold and long. Beat the rough tempest ; but a waiting arm Was reaching toward her, and, in hope grown strong. Fled she along the woods and through the storm. But how had he or heart or hope to sing Of Madeline or Porphyro the brave, While the thin fingers of wan suffering Were pressing down his eyelids to the grave ? How could he to the shrine of genius bring The constant spirit with the bended knee, Euffling the horrent blackness of Death's wing With the clear echoes of eternity ? Hark ! was it but the wind that swept along, Shivering the hawthorn hedges, white with flowers ? The swan-like music of the dying song Seems swimming on the current of the hours. If Fancy cheats me thus, she does no wrong — For mists of glory o'er my heart are blown. And shapes of beauty round about me throng. When of that mused rhyme I catch the tone. Tell me, ye sobbing winds, what sign ye made, Making the year with dismal .pity rife. When the all-levelling and remorseless shade Closed o'er the lovely summer of his life : Did the sad hyacinths by the fountains fade. And tear-drops touch the eyelids of the morn. And Muses, empty-armed, the gods upbraid. When that great sorrow to the world was born ? Ere Fame's wild trumpet to the world had thrown The echo of his lyre, or fortune bless'd, 162 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Pausing where " men but hear each other groan," He felt the daisies growing on his breast. Then sunk as fair a star as ever shone Along the gray and melancholy air ; And from Parnassus' hoary front, o'erstrown With plants immortal, moaned infirm Despair. Weave, closely weave, your vermeil boughs to-night, Fresh-budding red woods — hide the crooked moon, Soft-shining through the sunset, slim and bright As in some golden millet field at noon. Might shine a mower's scythe. Too much of light Rains through the boughs, too much is in the sky, To sort with singing of untimely blight, And mourning all of Genius that can die. THE DAUGHTER.=«= Alack, it is a dismal night — In gusts of thin and vapory light Bloweth the moonshine cold and white Betwixt the pauses of the storm. That beats against, but cannot harm The lady, whose chaste thoughts do charm Better than pious fast or prayer The evil spells and sprites of air — In sooth, were she in saintly care Safer she could not be than now With truth's white crown upon her brow — So sovereign, innocence, art thou. Just in the green top of a hedge That runs alolig a valley's edge One star has thrust a shining wedge. And all the sky beside is drear — It were no cowardice to fear If some belated traveler near. To visionary fancies born, Should see upon the moor, forlorn With spiky thistle burs and thorn, ♦ Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THE DAUGHTER. 163 The lovely lady silent go, Not on a " palfrey white as- snow," But with sad eyes and footstep slow ; And softly leading by the hand An old man who has nearly spanned With his white hairs, life's latest sand. Hope in her faint heart newly thrills As down a barren reach of hills Before her fly two whippoorwills ; But the gray owl keeps up his wail — His feathers ruffled in the gale, Drowning almost their dulcet tale. Often the harmless flock she sees Lying white along the grassy leas. Like lily-bells weighed down with bees. Sometimes the boatman's horn she hears Rousing from rest the plowman's steers, Lowing untimely to their peers. And now and then the moonlight snake Curls up its white folds, for her sake. Closer within the poison brake. But still she keeps her lonesome way, Or if she pauses, 't is to say Some word of comfort, else to pray. For 't is a blustery night withal. In spite of star or moonlight's fall. Or the two whippoorwills' sweet call. What doth the gentle lady here Within a wood so dark and drear. Nor hermit's lodge nor castle near ? See in the distance robed and crowned A prince with all his chiefs around. And like sweet light o'er sombre ground A meek and lovely lady, there Proffering her earnest, piteous prayer For an old man with silver hair. But what of evil he hath done O'erclouding beauty's April sun I know not — nor if lost or won. 164 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The lady's pleading sweet and low — About her pilgrimage of woe, Is all that I shall ever know. ANNIE CLAYVILLE.* In the bright'ning wake of April Comes the lovely, lovely May, But the step of Annie Clayville Falleth fainter day by day. In despite of sunshine, shadows Lie upon her heart and brow ; Last year she was gay and happy — Life is nothing to her now ! When she hears the wild bird singing, Or the sweetly humming bee. Only says she, faintly smiling. What have you to do with me ? Yet, sing out for pleasant weather, Wild birds in the woodland dells — Fly out, little bees, and gather Honey for your waxen wells, Softly, sunlit rain of April, Come down singing from the clouds, Till the daffodils and daisies Shall be up in golden crowds ; Till the wild pinks hedge the meadows, Blushing out of slender stems, And the dandelions, starry, Cover all the hills with gems. From your cool beds in the rivers, Blow, fresh winds, and gladness bring To the locks that wait to hide you — What have I to do v/itli spring? * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. ANNIE CLAYVILLE. 165 May is past — along the hollows Chime the rills in sleepy tune, While the harvest's yellow chaplet Swings against the face of June. Very pale lies Annie Clayville — Still her forehead, shadow-crowned, And the watchers hear her saying, As they softly tread around : Go out, reapers, for the hill tops Twinkle with the summer's heat — Lay from out your swinging cradles Golden furrows of ripe wheat ! While the little laughing children, Lightly mixing work with play, From between the long green winrows Glean the sweetly-scented hay. Let your sickles shine like sunbeams In the silver-flowing rye. Ears grow heavy in the cornfields — That will claim you by and by. Go out, reapers, with your sickles, Gather home the harvest store ! Little gleaners, laughing gleaners, I shall go with you no more. Round the red moon of October, White and cold the eve-stars climb, Birds are gone, and flowers are dying — 'T is a lonesome, lonesome time. Yellow leaves along the woodland Surge to drifts — the elm-bough sways, Creaking at the homestead window All the weary nights and days. Dismally the rain is falling — Very dismally and cold ; Close, within the village graveyard By a heap of freshest mould. With a simple, nameless headstone, Lies a low and narrow mound. And the brow of Annie Clayville Is no lonorer shadow crowned. 166 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Kest thee, lost one, rest thee calmly, Glad to go where pain is o'er — Where they say not, through the night-time, " I am weary," any more. YESTEKNIGHT* Yesternight — how long it seems! — Met I in the land of dreams, One that loved me long ago — Better it had not been so. Eor, we met not as of old — I was planting in the mould Of his grave, some flowers to be, When he came and talked with me. White his forehead was, and fair, With such crowns as angels wear, And his voice — but I alone Ever heard so sweet a tone ! All I prized but yesterday In the distance lessening lay, Like some golden cloud afar. Fallen and faded from a star. Hushed the chamber is, he said, Hushed and dark where we must wed, But our bridal home is bright — Wilt thou go with me to-night ? Answering then, I sadly said, I am living, thou art dead ; Darkness rests between us twain. Who shall make the pathway plain ? Ah ! thou lovest not, he cried, Else to thee I had not died ; Else all other hope would be As a rain-drop to the sea. * Printed in "Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. WINTER. 167 Farther, dimmer, earth withdrew, Lower, softer bent the blue, And like bubbles in the wine Blent the whispers, I am thine. Angels saw I to their bowers Bearing home the sheaves of flowers, And could hear their anthem swells, Reaping in the asphodels. O'er my head a wildbird flew, Shaking in my face the dew ; Underneath a woodland tree, I, my love, had dreamed of thee. WINTER.* Now sits the twilight palaced in the snow. Hugging away beneath a fleece of gold Her statue beauties, dumb and icy cold, And fixing her blue steadfast eyes below ; Where, in a bed of chilly waves afar, With dismal shadows o'er her sweet face blown. Tended to death by evening's constant star, Lies the lost Day alone. Where late, with red mists thick about his brows, Went the swart Autumn, wading to the knees Through drifts of dead leaves, shaken from the boughs Of the old forest trees, The gusts upon their baleful errands run O'er the bright ruin, fading from our eyes — And. over all, like clouds about the sun, A shadow lies. For fallen asleep upon a dreary world, Slant to the light, one late unsmiling morn. From some rough cavern blew a tempest cold. And tearing off his garland of ripe corn, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the i olume of 1856. 168 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Twisted with blue grapes, sweet with luscious wine, And Ceres' drowsy flowers, so dully red, Deep in his cavern leafy and divine, Buried him with his dead. Then, with his black beard glistening in the frost, Under the icy arches of the north, And o'er the still graves of the seasons lost. Blustered the Winter forth — Spring, with your crown of roses budding new. Thought-nursing and most melancholy Fall, Summer, with bloomy meadows wet with dew. Unmindful of you all. Oh heart, your spring-time dream will idle prove, Your summer but forerun your autumn's death, The flowery arches in the home of love Fall, crumbling, at a breath ; And, sick at last with that great sorrow's shock. As some poor prisoner, pressing to the bars His forehead, calls on Mercy to unlock The chambers of the stars — You, turning off from life's first mocking glow Leaning, it may be, still on broken faith. Will down the vale of Autumn gladly go To the chill winter. Death. Hark ! from the empty bosom of the woods I hear a sob, as one forlorn might pine — The white-limbed beauty of a god is thine. King of the season ! even the night that hoods Thy brow majestic, glorifies thy reign — Thou surely hast no pain. But only far away Makest stormy prophecies ; well, lift them higher, Till morning on the forehead of the day Presses a seal of fire. Dearer to me the scene Of nature shrinking from thy rough embrace. Than Summer, with her rustling robe of green. Cool blowing in my face. WINTER. 169 The moon is up — how still the yellow beams That slantwise lie upon the stirless air, Sprinkled with frost, like pearl-entangled hair, O'er beauty's cheeks that streams ! How the red light of Mars their pallor mocks, And the wild legend from the old time wins, Of sweet waves kissing all the drowning locks Of Ilia's lovely twins ! Come, Poesy, and with thy shadowy hands Cover me softly, singing all the night — In thy dear presence find I best delight ; Even the saint that stands Tending the gate of heaven, involved in beams Of rarest glory, to my mortal eyes Pales from the blest insanity of dreams That round thee lies. Unto the dusky borders of the grove Where " gray-haired Saturn, quiet as a stone," * Sat in his grief alone. Or, where young Venus, searching for her love, Walked through the clouds, I pray, Bear me to-night away. Or wade with me through snows Drifted in loose fantastic curves aside From humble doors where Love and Faith abide. And no rough winter blows, Chilling the beauty of affections fair. Cabined securely there, — Where round their fingers winding the white slips That crown his forehead, on the grandsire's knees, Sit merry children, teasing about ships Lost in the perilous seas ; Or listening with a tremulous joy, yet deep, To stories about battles, or of storms, Till weary grown, and drowsing into sleep. Slide they from out his arms. * From Keats's " Hyperion." In " Lyra," where the poem appeared in 1852, the phrase was given without quotation points, and with '• silent " for " quiet." 170 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Where, by the log-heap fire, As the pane rattles and the cricket sings, I with the gray-haired sire May talk of vanished summer-times and springs, And harmlessly and cheerfully beguile The long, long hours — The happier for the snows that drift the while About the flowers. Winter, will keep the love I offer thee ? No mesh of flowers is bound about my brow ; From life's fair summer I am hastening now. And as I sink my knee. Dimpling the beauty of thy bed of snow — Dowerless, I can but say — Oh, cast me not away ! WOOD NYMPHS.* Wood nymphs, that do hereabouts Dwell, and hold your pleasant routs, When beneath her cloak so white, Holding close the black-eyed Night, Twilight, sweetly voluble. Acquaints herself with shadows dull ; While above your rustic camp, Hesperus, his pallid lamp For the coming darkness trims. From the gnarled bark of limbs Rough and crabbed — slide to view ! I have work for you to do. To this neighborhood of shade Came I, the most woful maid That did ever comfort glean From the songs of birds, I ween ; Or from rills through hollow meads. Washing over beds of reeds, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. WOOD NYMPHS. 171 When, to vex with more annoy, Found I here this sleeping boy. I must learn some harmless art, That will bind to mine his heart. Never creature of the air Saw I in a dream so fair. Wood nymphs, lend your charmed aid — Underneath the checkered shade Of each tangled bough that stirs To the wind, in shape of burs, Kough and prickly, or sharp thorn — Whence the tame ewe, newly shorn. Stained with crimson, hurries oft, Bleating toward the distant croft — Dew of potency is found That would leave my forehead crowned With the very chrisms of joy — The sweet kisses of this boy. These quaint uses jon must know — Poets wise have writ it so. When the charm so deftly planned Shall be wrought, I have in hand. Work your nimble crew to please, Mixed along of sweetnesses. This it is to bring to me Fairest of all flowers that be — Oxlips red, and columbines. Ivies, with blue flowering twines, Flags that grow by shallow springs. Purple, prankt with yellow rings ; Slim ferns, bound in golden sheaves ; Mandrakes, with the notched leaves ; Pink and crowbind, nor o'erpass The white daisies in the grass. Of the daintiest that you pull, I will tie a garland full, And upon this oaken bough Drooping coolest shadows now. Hang it 'gainst his face to swing, Till he wakes from slumbering; 172 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Evermore to live and love In this dim consenting grove. Shaggy beasts with hungry eyes — Ugly, spotted, dragonflies — Limber snakes drawn up to rings, And the thousand hateful things That are bred in forests drear, Never shall disturb us here ; Por my love and I will see Only the sweet company Of the nymphs that round me glide With the shades of eventide. Crow of cock, nor belfry chime, Shall we need to count the time — Tuneful footfalls in the flowers Ringing out and in the hours. OCTOBER.* Not the light of the long blue Summer, Nor the flowery huntress. Spring, Nor the chilly and moaning Winter, Doth peace to my bosom bring, Like the hazy and red October, When the woods stand bare and brown, And into the lap of the south land, The flowers are blowing down ; When all night long, in the moonlight, The boughs of the roof-tree chafe, And the wind, like a wandering poet, Is singing a mournful waif ; And all day through the cloud-armies. The sunbeams like sentinels move — Eor then in my path first unfolded The sweet passion-flowers of love. With bosom as pale as the sea-shell, And soft as the flax unspun, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THE NEW YEAR. 173 And locks like the nut-brown shadows In the light of the sunken sun, Came the maiden whose wonderful beauty Enchanted my soul from pain, And gladdened my heart, that can never, No, never be happy again. Away from life's pain and passion, Away from the cares that blight, She went like a star that softly Goes out from the tent of night. But oft, when the fields of the Autumn Are warm with the summer beams, We meet in the mystic shadows That border the land of dreams. For seeing my woe through the splendor That hovers about her above. She puts from her forehead the glory, And listens again to my love. THE NEW YEAK. Like the cry of Despair, where the war-weapons rattle, Or the moan of a god in some mythical battle. Rung out o'er the senses of pain and of swouning Above the death woe of immortal discrowning. There came yesternight in the midst of my dreaming A wail, waking visions of terrible seeming. The fires of the sunset had burnt from the shadows Their leashes, and slipt, they ran over the meadows. Deepening up from the dulness and grayness of ashes To the hue of that deep wave the night-time that washes. Where sorrow's black tresses are gathered up never. But sweep o'er the red pillows ever and ever. Thus startled from slumber, I fearfully listened : The frost had been busy, and phantom-shapes glistened. Along the cold pane where the dead bough was creaking, When, close in my chamber, I heard a low speaking ; And I said, " Wherefore com est thou, mystical spirit ? Have I evil or good at thy hands to inherit ? " 174 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Like a rose-vine entwining some ruinous column, The sweet and the lovely were over the solemn^ As fell through the silence this cadence, replying ; " Watch with me, oh mortal, watch with me, I 'm dying ! " And I answered, " I will, by the blessed evangel ! " Unknowing my guest whether demon or angel. It seems, as I sat with the sad darkness holding Communion, I almost could hear the shroud folding About the still bosom and smoothly wound tresses That love might imprison no more with caresses — The half smothered sobs, and the orphan-like calling. With passionate kisses the dust over falling. " Art thou dead ? " I said, " thus doth my watch have its ending ? And needest thou not any more my befriending ?" " Nay, not dead, but fallen, and mortally wounded," The death-subdued accent along the dark sounded — " Claimest thou of me largess ? " " Yes," said I, " thy story. So number me swiftly the days of thy glory." Along the wild moorland the wind whistled dreary, And low as a death-watch my heart beat a-weary, As like one beside the hushed portal of Aiden, Awaiting the accent to soothe or to sadden, I sat in expectancy, charmed and holy. Till thus spake the spirit, serenely and slowly : '^ On a bed of dead leaves and a snow-pillow lying. The winds stooping round him, and sorrowful crying, His beard full of ice, his hands folded from reaping. My sire, when I woke into life, lay a-sleeping, And so of my brief reign was given the warning, Ere yet I beheld the sweet eyes of the morning. 'Blow winds of the wilderness,' cried T, ' and cover With dim dust the pallid corpse under and over. For through the bright gates of the orient, sweeping, The heralds of day come — I would not be weeping; ' And putting away from my lip sorrow's chalice, I left him beside the blue wall of my palace. THE NEW YEAR. 175 So, a twelvemonth agone, with my young wing expanded, On the shores of my kingdom, a monarch I landed ; Star-lamps were aglow in the cloudy-lined arches, As I sent the first embassy hours on their marches ; And day, softly wrapped in a fleece that was golden. Came up when my council with light first was holden. The silvery rings of two moons had their filling, When the north drew his breath in so bitterly chilling, And clad in a robe of red hunter-like splendor. On a hollow reed piping a madrigal tender, Through meadow and orchard, came March, his loud laughter. Half drowned in the whine of the winds, crouching after. Next came from the south land, one, fair as a maiden, Her lap with fresh buds and green sprouting leaves laden ; Her slight dewy fingers with daffodils crowded, Her lip ever smiling, her brow ever clouded ; But the birds on her flowery wake that came flying, Beside a thick blossoming hedge, found her dying. Blown, like a silvery cloud o'er the edges Of morning, the elder-blooms swayed in the hedges, The quail whistled out in the stubble, and over The meadow the bee went in search of the clover ; When came, with a train of delights for her warders, The dewy-eyed May, up the green river borders. Bright ridges of bees round the full hive were humming, Away in the thick woods the partridge was drumming ; The rush of the sickle, the scythe-stroke serener. Were pleasantly mixed with the song of the gleaner. When under the shadows of full-blowing roses The days of the virginal June had their closes. When oxen unyoked laid their foreheads together, And berries were ripe for the school-boys to gather ; When sultry heats over the hill-tops were winking, And down in the hollows the streamlets were shrinking; When birds hushed their musical glee to a twitter, Came July, with a mist of gold over her litter. 176 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Like the slim crescent moon through an amber-cloud shining Above the brown woods when the day is declining, Among the ripe wheat-shocks the sickle was glowing, And over the summer dark shadows went blowing, When, crowned with the oat-flowers, heavy and yellow. Came August, her cheek with the summer's sun sallow. About the next comer deep calmness was lying, And yet from her presence the wild birds went flying, As out of the orchards and grape-woven bowers. She gathered the fruit with no sigh for the flowers, And shook down the nuts on the withering mosses, Unmindful of all the bright summer-time losses. When harvesters home from the cornfield were bringing The baskets of ripe ears, with laughter and singing. What time his past labor the husbandman blesses In cups of sweet cider, just oozed from the presses. Beneath the broad forest boughs, saddened in seeming, And hooded with red leaves, October sat dreaming. Winds for the dead flowers mournfully searching. Tall phantoms that out of the darkness came marching. Clouds, full of blackness and storms, fleetly flying, Or on the bleak edges of winter-time lying. Quenching with chilly rain Autumn's last splendor — These were the handmaids that came with November. Making the gentle kine, sorrowful lowing. Turn from the tempest so bitterly blowing — Kow lying on slopes, to the southern light slanted. Now filling the woods with hymns mournfully chanted, I saw — my steps weakly beginning to falter — The last Season lay his white gift on the altar. Then I knew by the chill through my bosom slow stealing. And the pang at my heart, that my dark doom was sealing, And seeing before me the ever-hushed portal, I sought to reveal to some pitying mortal. The while from my vision the life-light was waning The gladness and grief of my bright and brief reigning. IN THE SUGAR CAMP, 177 Ah, many a poet I had whose sweet idyls Made vocal the chambers of births and of bridals, And many a priest, too, both shaved and unshaven, To hide in the meal of the world the Word's leaven ; But still at the church and the merry mirth-making, With the good and the gay there were hearts that were breaking. Deeds darker than night and words sharper than daggers Have peopled my wilderness places with Hagars, The wayfaring man has been often benighted. Where never a taper for guidance was lighted, But over the desolate cloud and the scorning Has risen the gladness that comes with the morning. On the white cheek of beauty the blushes have trembled, Betraying the heart that would else have dissembled. When the eloquent whisper of young Love was spoken ; But oh, when the burial sod has been broken For dear ones, with hands folded close for the sleeping. The nights have been dismal with comfortless weeping. Thus, mortal, I give to your keeping this story Of transient dominion — its sadness and glory, And while my last accents are mournfully spoken. The sceptre I swayed, in my weak hand is broken, And darkness unending my gray hair is hooding. And over, and round me, the midnight is brooding.'' The silence fell heavy : my watching was over. The old year was dead, and though many a lover He had in his lifetime, not one would there tarry To mourn at his death-bed — for all must make merry About the young monarch, some grace to be winning, With welcome or gift, while his reign was beginning. IX THE SUGAR CAMP. Upon the silver beeches moss Was drawing quaint designs. And the first dim-eyed violets Were greeting the March winds. 178 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. 'T was night — the fire of hickory wood Burned warm, and bright, and high — And we were in tlie Sugar Camp, Sweet Nelly Grey and I. 'T was merry, though the willows yet Had not a tassel on ; The blue birds sung that year, I know Before the snow was gone. Through bunches of stiff, frosty grass The brooks went tinkling by ; We heard them in the Sugar Camp, Sweet Nelly Grey and I. Broken and thin the shadows lay Along the moonlit hill, For like the wings of chrysalids The leaves were folded still. And so, betwixt the times we heaped The hickory wood so high. When we were in the Sugar Camp, Sweet Nelly Grey and I. I said I loved her — said I 'd make A cabin by the stream, And we would live among the birds — It was a pretty dream ! I could not see the next year's snow Upon her bosom lie — When we were in the Sugar Camp, Sweet Nelly Grey and I. EHYME OF MY PLAYMATE. Alas ! his praise I cannot write, Nor paint him true for other eyes ; For only in love's blessed light Could you have known him good or wise. Beside him from my birth I grew. E'en to the middle time of youth. RHYME OF MY PLAYMATE. 179 And never was there heart so true, Though shy of all the shows of truth. Silent he often sat, and sad, While on his lips there played a smile, Which told you that his spirit had Some lovely vision all the while. Like flowers that drop in hidden streams, Low under shelving weights of ground. His thoughts went drooping into dreams Though never trembling into sound. The common fields, the darkening woods. The silver runnels and blue skies. He mused of in his solitudes And gazed on with a lover's eyes. The hollow where we used to stray, Gathering the rush with purple joints — Till from the haycocks thick and gray, The shadows stretched in dusky points. And homeward with their glittering scythes The mowers came, and paused to say Some playful reprimand (the tithes Of our thus idling all the day) — * Lay green beneath the crimson swaths Of sunset, when I thither came, And the thick wings of twilight moths Flitted in circles all the same. And the brown beetle hummed upon The furrow as the day grew dim, As, when in sunset lights long gone, I trod the meadow-side with him. The swallow round the gable led Her fledgling brood, but far and near, O'er wood and wold there seemed to spread A dry and dreary atmosphere. * Between this stanza and the next some Unes have apparently fallen out. 180 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Unpraised but in my simple rhymes, With sullen brow and footsteps slow, Along the wilds of burning climes Alone, unloved, I saw him go. No heart but mine his memory keeps — The world will never hear his name, Dreamless he lingers by the steeps Whereon he might have climbed to fame. THE COMING OF NIGHT. As white as the moonlight that fell at her feet She stood, but for blushes, as many and sweet As the tops of the blossoms that grew in the wheat. And softly caressed me — Her eyes on the light of the valley hard by ; I rose for the bidding, and kissed back the sigh And the speaking to silence, that said " I would die Where the love-story blessed me ! " The wind sung her lullabies out of the trees With starlights betwixt them — her head on my knees, She said to me only such sad words as these — "Farewell, I am going." And so fell the watches, and so on the night. Came wider and wider the daybreak so white, Till shadows of flying larks went through the light Where the shroud must be sewing. I felt on my bosom the burden grow cold. And holding her closer, said, " Sweet one, behold, The sunrise is turning the woodside to gold. And birds go up singing ! " She smiled not, and knowing my terrible loss, I made her a pillow of loveliest moss. And laid her down gently — her white hands across, While mine fell a wringing. FIRE PICTURES. 181 I gathered her black tresses up from the ground, Away from her forehead their beauty I wound And when with fair pansies and roses I bound Their dim lengths from straying, And smoothed out her garment so soft and so white, Lying there in the shadows of morning and night. She looked like a bride gone asleep in the light Of the sweet altar-praying. I knelt to the white ones who live in the blue, And told them how good she had been and how true, And then there was nothing more that I could do, The need was all over — Low down in a valley of quietest shade With blossoms strewed over the shroud which I made On a bed very narrow and still she is laid, To sleep by her lover. PIRE PICTURES * Ix the embers all aglow, Fancy makes the pictures plain. As I listen to the snow Beating chill against the pane — The wild December snow On the lamp-illumined pane. Bent downward from his prime, Like the ripe fruit from its bough, As I muse my simple rhyme I can see my father now, With the warning flowers of time Blooming white about his brow. Sadly flows the willow tree On the hill so dear, yet dread. Where the resting places be, Of our dear ones that are dead — Where the mossy headstones be, Of my early playmates dead. * This poem is gnven here as it appeared in " Lyra." When reprinted in the volume of 1855 the fifth stanza was dropped. 182 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. But despite the dismal snow, Blinding all the window o'er, And the wind, that, crouching low, Whines against my study door, In the embers' twilight glow I can see one picture more. Down the beechen-shaded hills. With the summer lambs at play. Run the violet-nursing rills Through the meadows sweet with hay, Where the gray-winged plover trills Of its joy the live-long day — Seeming almost within call, Neath our ancient trysting tree, Art thou pictured, source of all That was ever dear to me ; But the wasted embers fall, And the night is all I see — The night with gusts of snow Blowing wild against the pane, And the wind that crouches low, Crying mournfully in vain. And the dreams that come and go Through my memory-haunted brain. THE WOOD LILY. Betwixt the green rows of the corn, Ne'er grew a wild blossom so sweet — Her mother's low cabin was gay With the music that followed her feet Combing now the white lengths of the wool With hands that were whiter than they ; Spinning now in the mossy-roofed porch Till the time when the birds go away. TO THE SPIRIT OF SONG. 183 Her hair was as black as the storm ; No maiden in all the green glen Was so pretty, so praised, or so loved: We called her the Wood Lily, then. The church wall, so gray and so cold. Is streaked with the vines which she set, And her roses beside the arched door, In summer half smother it yet. And often with pitiful looks They pause, who put by the lithe shoots, As if something said, " It were well, If Lily lay down at the roots.'' Dull spiders reel up their white skeins On the wheel where she comes not to spin. And her hands have pulled all the bright flowers From the locks that are faded and thin. And if you go near to the door. You will choke with the coming of sighs, For by the dark hearth-stone she sits All the day, singing low lullabies, So low, they may scarcely be heard, While the smile of her lip and her brow, Like sunbeams have gone under clouds — And this is our Wood Lily, now. TO THE SPIRIT OF SONG.* Come, sweet spirit, come, I pray. Thou hast been too long away ; Come, and in the dreamland light, Keep with me a tryst to-night. AVhen the reapers once at morn Bound the golden stocks of corn. Shadowy hands, that none could see, Gleaned along the field with me. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 184 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Come, and with thy wings so white Hide me from a wicked sprite, That has vexed me with a sign Which I tremble to divine. At a black loom sisters three Saw I weaving ; Can it be, Thought I, as I saw them crowd The white shuttles, 't is a shroud ? Silently the loom they left, Taking mingled warp and weft, And, as wild ray bosom beat, Measured me from head to feet. Liest thou in the drowning brine. Sweetest, gentlest love of mine, Tangled softly from my prayer. By some Nereid's shining hair ? Or, when mortal hope withdrew. Didst thou, faithless, leave me too, Blowing on thy lovely reed, Careless how my heart should bleed? By this sudden chill I know That it is, it must be so — Sprite of darkness, sisters three, Lo, I wait your ministry. A CHEISTMAS STORY.* 'T IS Christmas Eve, and by the firelight dim, His blue eyes hidden by his fallen hair, My little brother — mirth is not for him — Whispers, how poor we are ! Come, dear one, rest upon my knee your head, And push away those curls of golden glow, And I will tell a Christmas tale I read A long, long time ago. * Printed in *' Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. . A CHRISTMAS STORY. 185 'T is of a little orphan boy like you, Who had on earth no friend his feet to guide Into the path of virtue, straight and true, And so he turned aside. The parlor fires, with genial warmth aglow, Threw over him their waves of mocking light, Once as he idly wandered to and fro, In the unfriendly night. The while a thousand little girls and boys, With look of pride, or half-averted eye. Their hands and arms o'erbrimmed with Christmas toys, Passed and repassed him by. Chilled into half-forgetf nines s of wrong. And tempted by the spleiidors of the time, And roughly jostled by the hurrying throng, Trembling, he talked with crime. And when the Tempter once had found the way, And thought's still threshold, half-forbidden, crossed, His steps went darkly downward day by day. Till he at last was lost. So lost, that once from a delirious dream, As consciousness began his soul to stir. Around him fell the morning's checkered beam — He was a prisoner. Then wailed he in the frenzy of wild pain, Then wept he till his eyes with tears were dim. But who would kindly answer back again A prisoner-boy like him ? And so his cheek grew thin and paled away. But not a loving hand was stretched to save; And the snow covered the next Christmas-day His lonesome little grave. Nay, gentle brother, do not weep, I pray, You have no sins like his to be forgiven. 186 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. . And kneeling down together, we can say, Father, who art in Heaven. So shall the blessed presence of content Brighten our home of toil and poverty, And the dear consciousness of time well spent, Our Christmas portion be. THE HAUNTED HOUSE. The winds of March are piping shrill, The half-moon, slanting low. Is shining down the wild sea-hill Where, long and long ago, Love ditties singing all for me. Sat blue-eyed Coralin — Her grave is now beneath the tree Where then she used to spin. Three walnut trees, so high and wild, Before the homestead stand — Their smooth boles often, when a child, . I 've taken in my hand ; And that the nearest to the wall. Though once alike they grew. Is not so goodly, nor so tall. As are the other two. The spinning work was always there — There all our childish glee. But when she grew a maiden fair, The songs were not for me. One night, twice seven years 't has been, When shone the moon as now. The slender form of Coralin Hung swinging on the bough That's gnarled and knotty grown; in spring When all the fields are gay With madrigals, no bird will sing Upon that bough, they say. THE MURDERESS. 187 And through the chamber where the wheel With cobwebs is o'erspread, Pale ghosts are sometimes seeu to steal, Since Coralin is dead. The waters once so bright and cool, Within the mossy well, Are shrunken to a sluggish pool ; And more than this, they tell, That oft the one-eyed mastiff wakes, And howls as if in fear, From midnight till the morning breaks — The dead is then too near. here. THE MURDERESS.* Aloxg the still cold plain o'erhead, In pale embattled crowds. The stars their tents of darkness spread, And camped among the clouds; Cinctured with shadows, like a wraith, Night moaned along the lea; Like the blue hungry eye of Death, Shone the perfidious sea ; The moon was wearing to the wane. The winds were wild and high, And a red meteor's flaming mane Streamed from the northern sky. Across the black and barren moor, Her dainty bosom bare ; And white lips sobbing evermore. Rides Eleanor the fair. So hath the pining sea-maid plained For love of mortal lips, Riding the billows, silver-reined. Hard by disastrous ships. * Printed in " Lyra " and, revised, in the volume of 1S55. The revision is given •e. ; 188 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Why covers she her mournful eyes ? Why do her pulses cease, As if she saw before her rise The ghost of murdered Peace ? From out her path the ground-bird drifts With wildly startled calls, The moonlight snake its white fold lifts From where her shadow falls. Ah me ! that delicate hand of hers, Now trembling like a reed, Like to the ancient mariner's Hath done a hellish deed ; And full of mercy were the frown Which might the power impart To press the eternal darkness down Against her bleeding heart. CONTENT. My house is low and small, But behind a row of trees, I catch the golden fall Of the sunset in the seas ; And a stone wall hanging white With the roses of the May, Were less pleasant to my sight Than the fading of to-day. From a brook a heifer drinks In a field of pasture ground. With wild violets and pinks For a border all around. My house is small and low. But the willow by the door Doth a cool deep shadow throw In the summer on my floor ; And in long and rainy nights When the limbs of leaves are bare, I can see the window lights Of the homesteads otherwhere. OF ONE ASLEEP. 189 My house is small and low, But with pictures such as these Of the sunset and the row Of illuminated trees, And the heifer as she drinks From the field of meadowed ground, With the violets and pinks For a border all around, Let me never, foolish, pray For a vision wider spread. But contented, only say. Give me, Lord, my daily bread. OF ONE ASLEEP.* Once when we lingered, sorrow-proof, My gentle love and me^ Beneath a green and pleasant roof. Of oak leaves by the sea, Like yellow violets, springing bright From furrows newly turned. Among the nut-brown clouds the light Of sunset softly burned. Then veiling close her pensive face In clouds of transient flame, The silent child of the embrace Of light and darkness came : We saw her closing now the flower And warning home the bee, Now painting with a godlike power The arteries of the sea ; And heard the wind beneath night's frown Displacing quick her smile. Laughingly running up and down The green hills all the while ; Love to our hearts had newly brought Sweeter than Eden gleams. And no dark underswell of thought Troubled the sea of dreams. * Printed in " Lyra " and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here, 190 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Low down beneath an oaken roof Of dim leaves by the sea — Where then we lingered, sorrow-proof, My gentle love and me — While sunset softly lights the bower, And wave embraces wave, The shadow of the passion flower Lies darkly on his grave. And musing of his pillow low, His slumber deep and long, My heart keeps heaving to and fro Upon the waves of song. No more through sunset's sinking fire Are Eden-gleams descried, The sweetest chord of all life's lyre Was shattered when he died. Yet not one memory would I sell, However woeful proved, For all the brightest joys that dwell In souls that never loved. DISSATISFIED.* For me, in all life's desert sand No well is made, no tent is spread ; No father's nor a brother's hand Is laid in blessing on my head. The radiance of my mortal star Is crossed with signs of woe to me. And all my thoughts and wishes are Sad wanderers toward eternity. Stricken, riven helplessly apart From all that blest the path I trod ; Oh tempt me, tempt me not, my heart, To arraign the goodness of my God ! For suffering hath been made sublime, And souls, that lived and died alone, Have left an echo for all time, As they went wailing to the throne. * Printed in "Lyra" and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. DYING SONG. 191 There have been moments when I daued Believe life's mystery a breath, And deem Faith's beauteous bosom bared To the betraying arms of Death ; For the immortal life but mocks The soul that feels its ruin dire, And like a tortured demon rocks Upon the cradling waves of fire. To mine is pressed no loving lip. Around me twines no helping arm : And like a frail dismasted ship I blindly drift before the storm. DYING SONG.* Leave me, leave me ! my o'er-wearied feet, my beloved ! may walk no more with thee ; For I am standing where the circles meet That mortals name, Time and Eternity. Tell me, tell me not of summer flowers In vales where once our steps together trod; Even though I now behold the shining towers That rise above the city of our God. I know that the wide fields of heaven are fair — That on their borders grief is all forgot, That the white tents of JDeauty, too, are there — But how shall I be blessed where thou art not ? Over the green hills, that are only crossed By drifts of light, and choruses of glee. How shall I wander like a spirit lost, And fallen and ruined, missing, mourning thee ! If any wrong of mine, or thought, or said. Has given thee pain or sorrow, forgive ! As wilt thou not, my friend, when I am dead, And by my errors better learn to live. * Printed in '' L3ra," as wt'll as in the volume of 1S55. 192 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. There is not found in all the pleasant past, One memory of thee that I deplore, Or wish not to be in my heart at last, When I -shall fall asleep to wake no more. Then leave, oh leave me ! though I see the light Of heaven's sweet clime, and hear the angel's call, Where there is never any cloud nor night. Thy love is stronger, mightier than all ! LILY LEE.* I DID love thee, Lily Lee, As the petrel loves the sea, As the wild bee loves the thyme, As the poet loves his rhyme, As the blossom loves the dew — But the angels loved thee, too ! Once when twilight's dying head Pressed her saffron-sheeted bed. And the silent stars drew near, White and tremulous with fear, While the night with sullen frown Strangled the young zephyr down, Told I all my love to thee. Hoping, fearing, Lily Lee. Fluttered then her gentle breast With a troubled, sweet unrest. Like a bird too near the net Which the fowler's hand hath set ; But her mournful eyes the while. And her spirit-speaking smile. Told me love could not dispart Death's pale arrow from her heart. Hushing from that very day Passion pleading to have way — * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. MIRACLES. 193 Folding close her little hand, Watched I with her, till the sand, Crumbling from beneath her tread, Lowered her softly to the dead, Where in peace she waits for me — Sweetest, dearest Lily Lee. As the chased hart loves the wave, As blind silence loves the grave, As the penitent loves prayer, As pale passion loves despair, Loved I, and still love I thee, Angel-stolen Lily Lee. MIRACLES. An old man sits beside a wall, Where grow two hollyhocks — one tall And flowerless, one bright and small. His hair is full of silver streaks, The tears are running down his cheeks. And his lip trembles as he speaks. " Come, little daughter Maud, I pray. And tell me truly why you stay So often and so long away." A moment, and two arms, so fair, Are round his neck — a sunny pair Of eyes look on him — Maud is there. "See, pretty dear," the old man said, " These hollyhocks, one fresh and red With youthful bloom — the other dead. " The stony wall whereby they be, Is the hard world, and you'll agree The hollyhocks are you and me. 194 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. " My weary, worn out life is done, With all of rain, and dew, and sun, Thine, darling, is but just begun. " So take my staff and hang it high, And. kiss me: jSTay, you must not cry, I 've nothing left to do but die ! " And Maud hath made her blue eyes dry, And in a whisper makes reply, " And if you die, I too must die ! " That night, beside the stony wall. Where grew two hollyhocks — one tall And flowerless — one bright and small — Covered with moonshine they were found, Lying dead together on the ground, Their arms about each other wouud. What miracle may not be true. Since oft the hardest one to do Is done — the making one of two ? TOKENS. Truth, with her calm and steady eyes. Looked sternly in my face one morning. And of the night, that closes on Life's worn out day, I saw such warning As sunken cheeks and gray hairs give. And faint smiles fading into sorrow ; And hiding from the light my face, I cried, "Oh night, that knows no morrow! Gather your solemn clouds away ; And leave me and my youth together. And make its joys grow thick and bright As apples in the summer weather." And night was silent, and the sea Was silent, and the eyes of heaven Shut under lid-like clouds, and thus An answer to my prayer was given. TO THE HOPEFUL. 195 I in a vision went, and saw From the low grave, asunder breaking, A face of beauty smiling like A baby's in the cradle waking ; And heard a voice that said to me "Stay, if thou wilt, among the living; But earth thy ancient mother is, And rest is only of her giving. Plain is the creed of nature's book, Daily you read the truthful story That when the day is dim with clouds The twilight has the most of glory. The tassel of the corn must fade — The ear will grow not in its shadow, And for the winter snow there blooms So much the brighter harvest meadow. So, send no more instead of praise Through God's good purposes, a sighing, The gray hairs and the fading cheeks Are tokens of the glorifying." TO THE HOPEFUL.* Hark ! for the multitude cry out, Oh, watchman, tell us of the night ; And hear the joyous answering shout. The hills are red with light ! Lo ! where the followers of the meek, Like Johns, are crying in the wild, The leopard lays its spotted cheek Close to the new-born child. The gallows-tree with tremor thrills — The North to mercy's plea inclines ; And round about the Southern hills Maidens are planting vines. * As printed in " Lyra," the poem had two additional stanzas, which were dropped from the reprint in the volume of 1855. 196 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The star that trembled softly bright, Where Mary and the young child lay, Through ages of unbroken night Hath tracked his luminous way. From the dim shadow of the palm The tattooed islander has leant, Helping to swell the wondrous psalm Of love's great armament ! And the wild Arab, swart and grave, Looks startled from his tent, and scans Advancing truth, with shining wave. Washing the desert sands. Forth from the slaver's deadly crypt The Ethiop like an athlete springs. And from her long-worn fetters stript, The dark Liberian sings. But sorrow to and fro must keep Its heavings until evil cease. Like the great cradle of the deep, ' Eocking a storm to peace. GOING TO SLEEP.* Now put the waxen candle by, Or shade the light away. And tell me if you think she '11 die Before another day. She asked me but an hour ago. What time the moon would rise. And when I told her, she replied, "How fair 't will make the skies." Then came a smile across her face, And though her lips were dumb I think she only wished to live Until that hour were come. * Printed in " Lj'ra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THE DYING MOTHER. 197 And folding her transparent hands Together on her breast, She fell in such a tranquil sleep As scarce seems breathing rest. Was that the third stroke of the clock ? The hour is almost told. — Above yon bare and jagged rock Should shine the disk of gold. The moon is coming up — a glow Euns faint along the blue, How soft her sleep is ! shall I call, That she may see it too ? Nay, friend, she would not see the light, Though called you ne'er so loud, So bring of linen, dainty white, The measure of the shroud. The drowsy sexton may not wake, He must be called betimes, 'T will take him all the day to make Her grave beneath the limes ; For when our little Ellie died, The days were, oh, so long ! And what with telling ghostly tales. And humming scraps of song. To school-boys gathered curiously About the bed so chill, I heard him digging till 'the sun Was down behind the hill. Oh, do not weep my friend, I pray. This rest so still and deep Keeps all the evil things away That troubled once her sleep. THE DYING MOTHER.* We were weeping round her pillow. For we knew that she must die ; It was night within our bosoms — It was night within the sky. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855 198 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. There were seven of us children — . I the oldest one of all ; So I tried to whisper comfort, But the blinding tears would fall. On my knee my little brother Leaned his aching brow and wept, And my sister's long black tresses O'er my heaving bosom swept. The shadow of an awful fear Came o'er me as I trod, To lay the burden of our grief Before the throne of God. Oh ! be kind to one another, Was my mother's pleading prayer, As her hand lay like a snow-flake On the baby's golden hair. Then a glory bound her forehead, Like the glory of a crown. And in the silent sea of death The star of life went down. Her latest breath was borne away Upon that loving prayer. And the hand grew heavier, paler, In the baby's golden hair. THE LULLABY. I HEAR the curlew's lonesome call. The cushat crooning in the tree — The sunset shadow on the wall Fades slowly off — come nearer me. Sweet Mary, come and take my hand And hold it close and kiss my cheek - The tide is crawling up the sand — 0, Mary, sweetest sister, speak. GLENLY MOOR. 199 And say my fears are all untrue, And say my heart has boded wrong — How slow the light fades — never grew A twilight half nor half so long. And Mary smiling a sad smile, Looked wistful out into the night. Combing the sick girl's hair the while, (Death-dampened) with her fingers white. And still the curlew's lonesome call Went on — the cushat wildly well Crooned in the tree, and on the wall Darker and darker shadows fell. How gustily the night-time falls ! Dear Mary, is the milking past ? And are the oxen in their stalls — Hark! is 't the rain that falls so fast ? Kneel softly down beside r\\j bed — (How terrible the storm will be,) And say again the prayer you said Last night ; but, Mary, not for me. The cushat still went crooning on — The curlew made her lonesome cry — The sick girl fast asleep was gone — That prayer had been her lullaby. GLENLY MOOR.* The summer's golden glow was fled, In eve's dim arms the day lay dead. Over the dreary woodland wild. The first pale star looked out and smiled On Glenly Moor. Nor lonely call of lingering bird, Nor insect's cheerful hum was heard, ♦Printed in " Lj'ra,"' as well as in the volume of 1855. 200 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Nor traveler in the closing day Humming along the grass-grown way Of Glenly Moor. No voice was in the sleepy rills, No light shone down the village hills, And withered on their blackening stalks Hung the last flowers along the walks Of Glenly Moor. Within a thin, cold drift of light The buds of the wild rose hung bright, Where broken turf and new-set stone Told of a pale one left alone In Grlenly Moor. All the clear splendor of the skies Was gathered from her meek blue eyes, And therefore shadows dark and cold Hang over valley, hill, and wold In Glenly Moor.. And the winged morning from the blue Winnowing the crimson on the dew May ne'er unlock the hands so white That lie beneath that drift of light In Glenly Moor. EOSEMAEY HILL.* 'T WAS the night he had promised to meet me, To meet me on Rosemary Hill, And I said, at the rise of the eve-star. The tryst he will haste to fulfil. Then I looked to the elm-bordered valley, Where the undulous mist whitely lay, But I saw not the steps of my lover Dividing its beauty away. * Printed in "Lyra" and, revised, in the voluoje of 1855, The revision is fol- lowed here. ROSEMARY HILL. 201 The eve-star rose red o'er the tree-tops, The night-dews fell heavy and chill, And wings ceased to beat through the shadows — The shadows of Rosemary Hill. I heard not, through hoping and fearing, The whippoorwill's musical cry, Nor saw I the pale constellations That lit the blue reach of the sky. But fronting despair like a martyr, I pled with my heart to be still, As round me fell, .deeper and darker, The shadows of Rosemary Hill. On a bough that was withered and dying, I leaned as the midnight grew dumb. And told my heart over and over, How often he said he would come. He is hunting, I said, in dim Arnau — He was there with his dogs all day long — And is weary w^ith winging the plover. Or stayed by the throstle's sweet song. Then heard I the whining of Eldrich, Of Eldrich so blind and so old, With sleek hide embrowned like the lion's. And brindled and freckled with gold. How the pulse of despair in my bosom Leapt back to a joyous thrill, As I went down to meet my dear lover, Down fleetly from Rosemary Hill. More near seemed the whining of Eldrich, More loudly my glad bosom beat ; When lo ! I beheld by the moonlight, A newly made grave at my feet. And when with the passion-vine lovely, That grew by the stone at the head. The length of the grave I had measured, I knew that my lover was dead. 202 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. MY BROTHER. The beech-wood fire is burning bright 'T is wild November weather — Like that of many a stormy night We 've sat and talked together. Such pretty plans for future years We told to one another — I cannot choose but ask with tears, Where are they now, my brother ? Where are they now, the dreams we dreamed That scattered sunshine o'er us, And where the hills of flowers that seemed A little way before us ? The hills with golden tops, and springs, Than which no springs were clearer ? Ah me, for all our journey ings They are not any nearer ! One, last year, who with sunny eyes A watch with me was keeping. Is gone : across the next hill lies The snow upon her sleeping. And so alone, night after night, I keep the fire a-buraing. And trim and make the candle light, And watch for your returning. The clock ticks slow, the cricket tame Is on the hearth-stone crying. And the old Bible just the same Is on the table lying. The watch-dog whines beside the door, My hands forget the knitting — Oh, shall we ever any more Together here be sitting ! NELLIE, WATCHING. 203 Sometimes I wish the winds would sink, The cricket hush its humming, The while I listened, for 1 think J. hear a footstep coming. Just as it used so long ago ; My cry of joy I smother — 'T is only fancy cheats me so. And never thou, my brother ! NELLIE, WATCHING. You might see the river shore Erom the shady cottage door Where she sat, a maiden mild — Not a woman, not a child ; But the grace which heaven confers On the two, I trow was hers : Dimpled cheek, and laughing eyes, Blue as bluest summer skies. And the snowy fall and rise Of a bosom, stirred, I weet. By some thought as dewy sweet As the red ripe strawberries. Which the morning mower sees; Locks so long and brown (half down Erom the modest wnld-flower crown That she made an hour ago. Saying, '•' I will wear it, though None will praise it, that I know ! ") Twined she round her fingers white - Sitting careless in the light. Sweetly mixed of day and night — Twined she, peeping sly the while Down the valley, like an aisle. Sloping to the river-side. Blue-eyes ! wherefore ope so wide ? They are fishers on the shore That you look on — nothing more. 204 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Pettishly she pouts — ah me ! Saucy Nellie, you will see Ere an hour has fled away, Little recks it what you say — That those eyes with anger frowning Darkly, will be near to drowning, And the lips repeating so Oft and proudly " Let him go ! " Will be sighing. Ah, I know ! I have watched as you have done This fair twilight, pretty one, Watched in trembling hope, and know Spite of all your frowning so. That the wave of sorrow, flowing In your heart, will soon be showing In the cheek, now brightly blushing, — Hark ! 't is but the wild birds hushing To their nests — and not a lover Brushing through the valley clover! Purple as the morning-glories Round her head the shadows fall ; Is she thinking of sad stories. That, when wild winds shriek and call, And the snow comes, good old folks, Sitting by the fire together, Tell, until the midnight cocks Shrilly crow from hill to hill — Stories, not befitting ill Wintry nights and wintry weather ? The small foot that late was tapping On the floor, has ceased its rapping, And the blue eyes opened wide, Half in anger, half in pride, Now are closed as in despair. And the flowers that she would wear Whether they were praised or no, On the ground are lying low. NELLIE, WATCHING. 205 Foolish Nellie, see the moon, Round and red, and think that June Will be here another day, And the apple-boughs will grow Brighter than a month ago : Beauty dies not with the May ! And beneath the hedgerow leaves, All the softly-falling eves, When the yellow bees are humming And the blue and black birds coming In at will, we two shall walk, Making out of songs or talk Quiet pastime. ISTellie said, " Those fine eves I shall be dead, For I cannot live and see Him I love so, false to me, And till now I never staid Watching vainly in the shade." " In good sooth, you are betrayed ! For I heard you, careless, saying, ^ 'T is not / for love that pine,' And I 've been a long hour staying In the shadow of the vine ! " So a laughing voice, but tender. Said to Nellie : quick the splendor Of the full moon seemed to fade, For the smiling and the blushing Filling all the evening shade. It was not the wild birds hushing To their nests an hour ago. But in verity a lover Brushing through the valley-clover. Would all watches maidens keep. When they sit alone and weep For their heart-aches, ended so ! 206 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. ROSALIE. From the rough bark green buds were breaking ; The birds chirped gaily for the taking Of summer mates ; April was trilling, Like a young psaltress, to the wind, That stopt from dancing to unbind The primrose ; for the thawing weather The runnels brimmed. We were together — I singing out aloud, she stilling Her hurried heart-beats. While, that day, Idly I hummed the poet's rhyming. Her thoughts were all another way. Where the white flower of love was climbing Through sunshine of sweet eyes — not mine ! AVe were divided by that light : > The self-same minute we might twine Our distaffs with new flax — at night Put by our wheels at once ; the gloaming Fall just the same upon the combing And braiding of our hair — in vain ! Our hearts were never one again. Beneath the barn-roof, thick with moss, Eumbled the fanmill ; uncomplaining, The oxen from its golden raining (One milky-white, the other dun) Went the long day to plow across The stubble, slantwise from the sun. The yellow mist was on the thorns, And here and there a fork of flowers Shone whiter than, athwart the showers Of winnowed chaff, the heifer's horns. And while the springtime came and went With showery clouds and sunny gleaming, We were together : she a-dreamiug, I scarcely happy, yet content. Alone beside the southern wall I digged the earth ; the summer flowers In pleasant times, betwixt the showers, I sadly planted, one and all ; JUSTIFIED. 207 And when they made a crimson blind Before the window with their bloom, I spun alone within the room — Right hardly did the wisps unbind, So wet they were with tears. Ah, me ! Blithe songs they said the winds were blowing — From where the harvesters were mowing — I only cared for Rosalie. 'T was autumn ; gray with twilight's hue, The embers of the day were lying ; Athwart the dusk the bat was flying, And insects made their faint ado. So evening sloped into the night, And all the black tops of the furs Shone as with golden, prickly burrs, So small the stars were, and so bright. \ Close by the homestead, old and low, A gnarled and knotty oak was growing. And shadows of red leaves were blowing Across the coverlid of snow. Awake, sweet Rosalie, I said. The moon's pale fires run harmlessly Down the dry holts — awake and see ! She did not turn her in the bed. My heart, I thought, must fall abreaking : All — all but one wild wish — was past : For that white sunken mouth, once speaking, To say she loved me, at the last ! Two comforts yet were mine to keep : Betwixt her and her faithless lover Bright grass would spread a flowery cover ; And Rosalie was well asleep. JUSTIFIED. Come up, my heart, come from thy hiding-place : Stern memory grows importunate to make Hard accusation ; and if that I be Not grossly misadvised, thou 'rt much to blame. 208 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Was 't thou, that on a certain April night, When sweetnesses were breaking all the buds, And the red creeping vines of strawberries Hung out their dainty blossoms toward the sun — When first the dandelion from his cell Came, like a miser dragging up his gold, And making envious the poor traveler, And the wild brook — thou wottest how it ran, Betwixt the stubbly oat-field and the slope Where, free from needless shepherding, that night The sheep w^ent cropping thistle leaves, and I For the soft tinkling of their silver bells Staid listening, so I said, and said again. To be unto my conscience justified — Was 't thou that tempted me to let the dew Of midnight straiten all my pretty curls. And woo the bat-like clinging damps to come And bleach the morning blushes from my cheeks ? Ah, me ! how many years since that same night Have come and gone, nor brought a fellow to it ! Thou need'st not shake so, guilty prisoner. For though those white hairs round my forehead teach A judgment cold and passionless, and though The hand that writes is palsy-touched, withal, I cannot wrong so deeply, grievously, The glorifying beauty of the world, As to declare that thou art all condemned ! Yet stay, I pray thee : make some sweet excuse To that staid saintly dame. Austerity ; For she and I have been a thousand times At variance about her sober rule. Once when I left my gleaning in the wheat, (The time was June, sunset within an hour,) And underneath a hedge, that rained down flowers Of hawthorn and wild roses in my lap. Sat idling with young Jocelyn, till that The shadows of the mowers, stretching out Like threatening ghosts, did cut our pastime off, She rated me so mercilessly hard That I was fain with fables to make peace. I said that I was tired, and that a bird. Soft-singing in the hedge, drew me that way ; And then I said I looked for catydids, ISIDORE'S DREAM. 209 (It was three months before their chirping time,) And that 't was pleasant to look thence and see The snnshine topping all the wide-leaved corn, And the young a])ples on the orchard boughs With the betraying red upon their cheeks. What other most improbable conceits I told to her, I now remember not; But I remember that her frowning brows So chid me to confusion that I said It was not Jocelyn that kept me there ! She smiled, and we since then are enemies. Silent ? thou hast no eloquence to win Her cold regard upon my waywardness. Well, be it so ! and though the great wide world Stare blank that I do soften judgment so, Thou stand'st acquitted, yea, and justified. ISIDORE'S DKEAM. I WANDERED in a visionary field : Lilacs were purpling out, the ousel, fleet. Plunged in the rainy brook ; the air was sweet With sprouting beech buds ; and the full moon sealed The red-leaved book of evening with pure white ; The golden falling of a bridal night Were scarcely to a lover's eyes so fair — And yet my thoughts clung, bat-like, to despair. I would not see the green and pleasant grass. But willows dim and cypresses instead ; I said they made me sad, and sighed, Alas ! And said. Another year I should be dead, And rest from labor and be done with care — That the May moon would wrap my grave with light ; And picking in my lap the daisies white, I braided such a crown as corpses wear. Walking the visionary meadow o'er, My wreath upon my arm, and sighing so. And praying to be dead, the day-break snow Blushed red as any rose: "Come, Isidore — In the dim rainy East an hour agone 210 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. The sun was traveling ; wake, I pray thee, sweet ! One kiss before we part, perhaps to meet Xext in eternity." My dream went on The same sad way when I was wide awake. And still through all the days and nights I sigh, And try to make my heart believe that I Am grieved for anything but love's sweet sake. BURNS*! He died : he went from all the praise That fell on ears unheeding. And scarcely can we read his lays For pauses in the reading. To mourn the buds of poesy, That never came to blushing •, For who can choose but sigh, ah me ! For their untimely crushing ! And when we see, o'er ruins dim, The summer roses climbing. We sadly pause, and think of him, The beauty of whose rhyming Spread sunshine o'er the darkest ill, — Alas ! it could not cover The heart from breaking, that was still Through all despairs a lover — A lover of the beautiful. In nature's sweet evangels; For his great heart was worshipful. For men, and for the angels. The rank with him was not the man, He knew no servile bowing ; And wee things o'er the furrow ran Unharmed beside his plowing. * Written on reading in the Letters of Burns, " We have no flour in the house^ and must borrow for a few days," — Authot^'s Note. t Compare Mrs. Browning's poem on "Cowper." THE EMIGRANTS. 211 Lights flowing out of palaces Dimmed not the candles burning, Whereby the glorious mysteries Of music he was learning ; And not with envious looks he eyed The morning larks upgoing, From meadows that were all too wide And green for peasant mowing. For by his cabin door the green Was pleasant with the daisies ; And o'er the brae, some bonny lass Was happy in his praises. Oh Thou who hear'st my simple strain, The while I muse his story — Here knew he all a poet's pain, Grant now he have the glory ! THE EMIGRANTS. Don't you remember how oft you have said, Darling Coralin May, " When the hawthorns are blossoming we shall wed, And then to the prairie away ! " And now, all over the hills they peep, Milkwhite, out of the spray. And sadly you turn to the past and weep. Darling Coralin May. When the cricket chirped in the hickory blaze. You cheerily sung, you know, — " Oh for the sunnier summer days, And the time when we shall go !" The corn-blades now are unfolding bright. While busilv calls the crow ; And clovers are opening red and white. And the time has come to go — To go to the cabin our love has planned. On the prairie green and gay, In the blushing light of the sunset land, Darling Coralin May. 212 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. " How happy our lives will be," you said, Don't you remember the day ? " When our hands shall be, as our hearts are, wed ! " Darling Coralin May. " How sweet," you said, " when my work is o'er, And your axe yet ringing clear. To sit and watch at the lowly door Of our home in the prairie, dear." The rose is ripe by the window now. And the cool spring flowing near ; But shadows fall on the heart and brow From the home we are leaving here. RINALDO. A fisherman's children, we dwelt by the sea, My good little brother Rinaldo and me. Contented and happy as happy could be — Of blossoms no other Was fair as the bright one that bloomed on his cheek, And gentle — oh never a lamb was so meek — I wish he were living and heard what I speak. My lost little brother ! One night when our father was out on the sea. We went through the moonlight, my brother and me, And watched for his coming beneath an old tree, The leaves of which hooded A raven whose sorrowful croak in the shade So dismally sounded, it made us afraid, And kneeling together for shelter we prayed From the evil it boded. At the school on the hill, not a week from that day, The thick cloud of playing broke wildly away. And the laughter that lately went ringing so gay Was changed to a crying, And leaping the ditches and climbing the wall, 'Twixt home and the schoolhouse came one at our call, And told us the youngest and best of them all, Rinaldo was dying. JULIET TO ROMEO. 213 There was watching and weeping, and when he was dead 'Neath that tree by the seaside they made him a bed ; A stone that was nameless and rude at his head — His feet had another ; And the schoohnaster said, though we laid him so low, And so humbly and nameless, we surely should know For his beauty, where only the beautiful go — My good little brother. JULIET TO EOMEO. Nay, sweet, one moment more, thy lips, mayhap, Will soothe this heavy aching in my brows — Stay, while the twilight in the dusky boughs Sits smiling with the moon upon her lap. And dost thou kiss me to be free to go ? How royally the purple shadows sway Across the gorgeous chamber of dead day ; Now pr'ythee, stay, while they are shining so. That kiss has made me better — I shall be Quite well anon — nay, gentle Romeo, I hear the vesper-chanting, soft and low — When the last echo dies thou shalt be free. Could that have been the owlet's cry ? the light Is scarcely faded from the hill-tops yet, 'T is not a half hour since the sun was set ; Wait dear one, for the dim concealing night. y, iWi. u-iJ-v^ viiiii v^wj_Lv^v^i.i.j.j.j.i^ -'■'^O^ The bell is striking ; hark ! 't is only nine, I counted truly, love, it was not ten — Would you be falsest of all faithless men, And leave me in the lonely night to pine ! I hear the watch-dog baying at the moon, And hear the noisy cock crow loud and long He cannot cheat me with his shrilly song — I know the midnight has not come so soon. 214 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. What ruddy streaks are running up the sky - Is that the lark that past the turret flies ! Ah me, 't is morning's golden-lidded eyes Peeping above the hills ; so, sweet, good-by ! OF HOME. My heart made pictures all to-day Of the old homestead far away. It is the middle of the May, And the moon is shining full and bright — The middle of May, and the middle of night. Darkly against the southern wall, Three cherry-trees, so smooth and tall, Their shadows cast — we planted all. One morning in March that is long gone by, - My brother Carolan and I. I hear the old clock tick and tick In the small parlor, see the thick Unfeathered wings of bats, that stick To moon-lit windows, see the mouse, Noiseless, peering about the house. I 'm going up the winding stairs, I 'm counting all the vacant chairs. And sadly saying, " They were theirs, — The brothers and sisters who no more Go in and out at the homestead door." I hear my sweet- voiced mother say, " Leave, children, leave all work to-day, And go into the fields and play." And the birds are singing where'er we go — How beautiful, to be dreaming so ! And yet, while I am dreaming on, I know my playmates all are gone ; That none the hope of our childhood keep. That some are weary, and some asleep. And that I from the homestead am far away This middle of night, in the middle of May. ilfY FRIEND. 215 MY FRIEND. Along the west the stormy red Burned blackest gaps afar and near ; Across the coverlid of snow We saw the shadows come and go, But no one to his neighbor said His saddest fear. Peered from his hole the bright-eyed mouse, The winds were blowing wild and wide, Up the bleak sand the tide ran white And icy as the full moon's light, And in his lonesome hollow house The brown owl cried. We knew her pain and care were o'er, AVe knew that angels led the way. Yet wept, and could not choose but weep The while we saw her go to sleep For the long night that falls before The eternal day. The starlight glimmering faintly through The window, shone beside her bed, But ere the solemn time had worn To the white breaking of the morn, It faded off. Alas, I knew That she was dead. I put my hair before my eyes. And all my soul to sorrow gave ; My only comfort was to know That she no longer saw my woe — All heaven was gone out of the skies Into the grave. From off the windy threshing floors The dust in golden flaws was blown. The cock crew out, flail answered flail, And limbs of apples, red and pale, Beside the open cottage doors, Together shone. 216 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. They kissed me, saying I must know How sober plenty smiled for me, But round my mortal life there lay And shall do till my dying day, Thy still and awful shadow, oh Eternity ! PARTING AND MEETING. Like music in a reed, the light Was shut up in the dim, wild night ; And 'twixt the black boughs fell the snowing The black March boughs together blowing. Till hill and valley all were white. The windows of the old house glowed With the dry hickory, burning brightly. As in the old house burned it nightly ; So little cared they that it snowed — The two my rhyme is of. If tears Or shadows filled the eyes, else lit With sunshine, it were best unwrit. And all about sweet hopes and fears Were best unsaid, too. Tares will grow In spite of the most careful sowing ; We find them in the time of mowing, Instead of flowers, we all do know. So it were better that I write No whit about the lady's sighing ; 'T were better said she had been tying, To make it pretty for the night. Buds, white and scarlet, in her hair ; — And that the ribbon she should wear Had sadly vexed her — not a hue. Purple nor carmine that would do ; Or that the cowslips of the May, Her little hand had freely given — Nay, more, the sweetest star of heaven — To gain a rose the more that day For her sad cheek : so foolish runs PARTING AND MEETING. 217 In all of lis the blood of youth Ere wintry frosts or summer suns Bleach fancy's fabrics, and the truth Of sober senses turns aside The images once deified. It was a time of parting dread — For middle night the cock was crowing, The black March boughs together blowing, The lady mourning to be dead ; And idly pulling down the 'flowers, Tied prettily about her hair — Alas ! she had but little care For any bliss of future hours ! That parting made the world all dim To her, which ever way she saw ; I know not what it was to him — Haply but as the gusty flaw That went before the buds — if so, Hers was a doubly piteous woe ! And years are gone, or fast or slow, And many a love has had its making Since these two parted, at the breaking Of daylight, whiter than the snow. Again 't is March : the lady's brows Are circled with another light Than that of burning hickory boughs. Which lit the house that parting night. And they have met : the eyes so sweet In the old time again she sees — Hears the same voice — and yet for these Her heart has not an added beat. If there be tremblings now, or sighs, They are not hers ; she feels no sorrow That he will be away to-morrow, Nor joy that bridal mornings rise Out of his smiling — she is free ! Oh, give her pity, give her tears ! By one great wave of passion's sea. Drifted alike from hopes and fears. 218 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. A RUIN * A SILVER mist tlie valley shrouds, The summer day is nearly by ; Like pyramids of flowers, the clouds Are floating in the sunset sky. Now up the hills the white mists curl, The dew shines in the vale below, And on the oak, like beads of pearl. The white buds of the mistletoe. The rustling shadows, dropt with gold. Among the boughs of green and white, Are mingling softly, soon to fold In their embrace the fainting light. "Lone one, above whose solemn brow The oak leaves wave so green and slow. Night, gloomy night is darkening now : Sweet friend, arise and let us go." Lifting his head a little up From the poor pillow where it lay. And pushing from his forehead pale The long, damp tresses all away — He told me with the eager haste Of one who dare not trust his words, He knew a mortal with a voice As low and lovely as a bird's ; But that he saw once in a dell Away from them a weary space, A fragile lily, which as well Might woo that old oak's green embrace. As for his heart to hope that she. Whose palace chambers ne'er grew dim, Would leave the light in which she moved To wander through the dark with him ; For that, once being out to sow The rows of poppies in the corn, She crossed him, and he, kneeling low. Said, " Sweetest lady e'er was born. Have pity on my love ; " but quite Her scornful eyes eclipsed the day ; * This poem is substantially a revision of " Pitied Love," see p. 57. THE POET. 219 And passing, all the hills grew bright, As if the spring had gone that way. And he, scarce knowing what he did, But feeling that his heart was broke, Fled from her pitiless glance, and hid In the cold shadows of that oak, Where, as he said, she came at night, And clasped him from the bitter air, With her soft arms of fairest white. And the dark beauty of her hair. But when the morning lit the spray, And hung its wreath about his head, The lovely lady passed away. Through mists of glory pale and red. So bitter grew his heaving sighs. So mournful dark the glance he raised ; I looked upon him earnestly And saw the gentle boy was crazed. How fair he was ! it made me sad. And sadder still my bosom grew. To think no earthly hand could build That beautiful ruin up anew. THE POET.* Upon a bed of flowery moss, With moonbeams falling all across, Moonbeams chilly and faint and dim, (Sweet eyes I ween do watch for him) Lieth his starry dreams among, The gentlest poet ever sung. The wood is thick — 't is late in night, Yet feareth he no evil sprite. Nor vexing ghost — such things there be In many a poet's destiny. Haply some wretched fast or prayer. Pained and long, hath charmed the air. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 220 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Softer than hymenial hymns The fountains, bubbling o'er their rims, Wash through the vernal reeds, and fill The hollows : all beside is still. Save the poet's breathing, low and light. Watch no more, lady -r- no more to-night ! — Heavy his gold locks are with dew, Yet by the pansies mixed with rue Bitter and rough, but now that fell From his shut hand, he sleepeth well. He sleepeth well, and his dream is bright Under the moonbeams chilly and white. • The night is dreary, the boy is fair — Hath he been mated with Despair, Or crossed in love, that he lies alone With shadows and moonlight overblown — Shadows and moonlight chilly and dim ? And do no sweet eyes watch for him ? Nay, rather is his soul instead With immortal thirst disquieted, That oft like an echo wild and faint He makes to the hills and the groves his plaint ? That oft the light on his forehead gleams. So troubled under its crown of dreams ? Watch no more, lady, no more, I pray, He is wrapt in a lonely power away ! Sweet boy, so sleeping, might it be That any prayer I said for thee Could answer win from the spirit shore, This were it, " Let him wake no more ! " ASPIRATIONS. The temples, palaces and towers Of the old time, I may not see ; Nor 'neath my reverend tread, thy flowers Bend meekly down, Gethsemane ! ASPIRATIONS. 221 By Jordan's wave I may not stand, Nor climb the hills of Galilee ; Nor break, with my poor, sinful hand, The emblems of apostacy. Nor pitch my tent 'neath Salem's sky, As faith's impassioned fervor bids ; Nor hear the wild bird's startled cry, From Egypt's awful pyramids. I have not stood, and may not stand. Where Hermon's dews the blossoms feed ; Nor where the flint-sparks light the sand. Beneath the Arab lancer's steed. Woe for the dark thread in my lot. That still hath kept my feet away From pressing toward the hallowed spot, Where Mary and the young child lay. But the unhooded soul may track Even as it will, the dark or light, From noontide's sunny splendors, back To the dead grandeur of old night. And even I, by visions led. The Arctic wastes of snow may stem ; The Tartar's black tents view, or tread Thy gardens, oh Jerusalem ! O'er Judah's hills may travel slow. Or ponder Kedron's brook beside. Or pluck the reeds that overgrow The tomb which held the Crucified. And does not He, who planned the bliss Above us, hear the praise that springs From every dust-pent chrysalis, That feels the stirring of its wings ? 222 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. CHANGED. Alas, the pleasant dew is dry, That made so sweet the morn ; And midway in the walk of life He sits as one forlorn. I know the time when this was not, When at the close of day He brought his little boys the flowers Ploughed up along his way. The ewes that browsed the daisy buds Erewhile (there were but twain), Are now the grandams of a flock That whiten all the plain. The twigs he set his marriage-day, Against the cabin door, Make shadows in the summer now. That reach across the floor. The birds with red brown eyes, he sees Fly round him, hears the low Of pasturing cattle, hears the streams That through his meadows flow. He sees the pleasant lights of home. And yet as one whose ills Seek comfort of the winds or stars. He stays about the hills. The once dear wife his lingering step A joy no longer yields ; No more he brings his boys the flowers Ploughed up along the fields. WEARINESS. 223 WEARINESS. Oh, still, and dumb, and silent earth, Unlock thy dim and pulseless arms ; Wandering and weary from my birth, I seek for refuge from life's storms. For a dark shadow — not the grave's — Has clasped the one I loved from me. And winds have built their walls of waves, Between us in the eternal sea. No flowery, sheltering nook have I, Wherein to lay my weary head ; Nature's fair bosom is drawn dry, While I am hungry and unfed. Oh, for the dream of long ago, When to my raptured eyes 't was given. To see, in this wild world below, Only a lower range of Heaven. And still, sometimes, the shadow lifts. And through my soul a lost voice thrills. What time the sunset's golden drifts Come sweeping from the western hills. But, in the noontide's broader beam, I see how well the shadows lie, And, turning from the twilight dream, I bow my face to earth and cry. Borne down, and weary with the storms, 0, earth ! receive me to thy breast, Unlock thy dim and pulseless arms. And cool this burning heart to rest. 224 POEMS BY ALICE CART. EDITH TO HAROLD.* Speak soft, and smile when you do speak, I pray, For though I seem as gentle as the moon In her white bed of clouds, or thrice as gay As any robin of the April woods, You must not trust me wholly ; I am like Some mountain creature that will not be tamed, But goes back to its nature when your hand Caresses it most fondly. Even a look May put between my heart and all the world The heavy memory of my monstrous wrongs. And make me hate you, sweetest, with the rest. The fatal malady is in my blood, And even when Death shall shear away the thread That holds my body and my soul in one. No flowers but poison ones will strike their, roots In my earthed ashes. 'T is a dreadful thought — The last May grass on little Thyra's grave Was full of violets — so bright and blue ! Nay, frown not, for the prohecy is true. Look at me close, and see if in my eyes Are not the half -reproachful, half -mad looks Of beasts too sharply goaded — I do fear The loosing of all fair humanities. Tell me you love me, kiss my cheek, my mouth, And talk about that meadow with the brook Brimful of sleepy waters, over which A milk-white heifer leaned her silver horns. Wound bright with scarlet flowers, and where the sheep Graze shepherdless, save when of fairest nights Some honest rustic walks and counts his lambs. So making pastime with his lady-love. The starry lighting of whose golden hair To his pleased eyes makes all the meadow shine. Once, when we stood before the eastern gate Of Hilda's castle, you did tell it me. With your white fingers combing the long mane Of your brown charger — dead in the last war. It was a pretty picture, and the end Was harmless, happy love. It gave my heart For a full hour such pleasant comforting, * See Sir Bulwer Ly tton's " Harold, the Last of the Saxon Kings." — Author's yote. PARTING WITH A POET. 225 That I did after make the story mine, And feign to be the damsel by the brook ; For of my shepherd I could be the queen, As, sweetest, Harold, I may not be yours. PARTING WITH A POET * All the sweet summer that is gone, Two paths I sighed to mark — One brightly leading up and on. One downward to the dark. No prophecy en wrapt my heart. No Vala's gifts were mine ; Yet knew I that our paths must part — The loftier one be thine. For not a soul inspiredly thrills, Whose wing shall not be free To sweep across the eternal hills. Like winds across the sea. And, wheresoe'er thy lot may be. As all the past has proved, Love shall abide and be with thee, For genius must be loved. While I, the heart's vain yearning stilled. The heart that vexed me long, Essay with my poor hands to build The silvery walls of song. Still, through the nights of wild unrest, That softer joyance bars, Winding about my vacant breast The tresses of the stars. While at the base of heights sublime, Dim thoughts forevermore Lie moaning, like the waves of time Along the immortal shore. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 226 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. THE RECLAIMING OF THE ANGEL * Oh smiling land of the sunset, How my heart to thy beauty thrills — Veiled dimly to-day with the shadow Of the greenest of all thy hills ! Where daisies lean to the sunshine, And the winds a plowing go, And break into shining furrows The mists in the vale below ; Where the willows hang out their tassels, With the dews all white and cold, Strung over their wands so limber, Like pearls upon chords of gold ; Where in milky hedges of hawthorn The red-winged thrushes sing. And the wild vine, bright and flaunting Twines many a scarlet ring ; Where, under the ripened billows Of the silver-flowing rye. We ran in and out with the zephyrs — My sunny-haired brother and I. Oh, when the green kirtle of May time. Again over the hill-tops is blown, I shall walk the wild paths of the forest And climb the steep headlands alone — Pausing not where the slopes of the meadows Are yellow with cowslip beds. Nor where, by the wall of the garden, The hollyhocks lift their bright heads. In hollows that dimple the hill-sides, Our feet till the sunset had been. Where pinks with their spikes of red blossoms, Hedged beds of blue violets in. While to the warm lip of the sunbeam The cheek of the blush rose inclined, And the pansy's soft bosom was flushed with The murmurous love of the wind. ♦ Printed in " Lyra " and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. ADELYN. 227 But when 'neath the heavy tresses That swept o'er the dying day, The star of the eve like a h)ver AVas hiding his bhishes away, As we came to a mournful river That flowed to a lovely shore, " Oh, sister," he said, "I am weary — I cannot go back any more ! " And seeing that round, about him The wings of the angels shone — I parted the locks from his forehead Atid kissed him and left him alone. ADELYN. Come, comb my hair, good Hepsiba, The sun is going down. And I within an hour must wear My pretty wedding-gown ! 'T is bleached white upon the grass, The rainy grass of May, Go bring it, my good Hepsiba, It is my wedding-day. And Hepsiba looks out and sees, Behind the windy hill. The cloudy sun go down, and hastes To do the bride's sweet will. And from her sick-bed Adelyn Was softly lifted down. To have her black hair combed so smooth, And wear her wedding-gown. Oh ! never o'er the windy hills Came clouds so fast and dread, And never beat so wild a rain Above a marriage-bed. 228 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Unpastured o'er the dry, brown sands, The noisy billows crept, The cattle lowed, but Adelyn Through all the tumult slept. XJpon her sweet shut eyes they laid The roses from her hair, And when the bridegroom kissed her cheek, She never looked so fair. At morning, he who came to meet The bridal train so brave. Hung willows in his boat, and rowed A corse across the wave. MADELA.* "Oh, ray dear one ! oh, my lover! Comes no faintest sound to you, As I call your sweet words over, All the weary night-time through ! Drearily the rain keeps falling — I can hear it on the pane ; Oh, he cannot hear my calling — He will never come again ! " So a pale one, lowly lying On her sick bed, often cried — " Come, my dear one, I am dying ! " But no lover's voice replied. "When the morning light is shining Over all the eastern hills. Thou, whose heart is still divining Every wish in mine that thrills — If he come, and I am dying, If my hands be cold as clay. And my lips make no replying To the wild words he will say. As he fondly bends above me, Just as you are bending now, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THE BROKEN HOUSEHOLD. 229 Saying how he used to love me, Pressing kisses on my brow — Take this ringlet ere from twining Dampened in that dew so near; He has often praised its shining — Will he when I cannot hear ? Give it softly to his keeping, Saying, as I would have said, 'Go not through the world a-weeping For the dear one who is dead ; ' And, as you the shroud upgather, That shall hide me from his eyes, Tell him of the pitying Father — Of the love that never dies." Through the eastern clouds the amber, Burning, tells the night-time past ! Dark and silent is her chamber — She is sleeping well at last ! Is 't the white hand of her lover Puts her curtain's fold away ? Is it he that bends above her. Saying, " Dear one, wake, 't is day ! " No ; the wind, despite Death's warning, 'T is, that in her curtain stirs. And the blue eyes are the morning's. That are bending down to her's. Lay the hands, for love's sake lifted Oft in prayer, together bound. While the unheeded ringlet drifted Lightly, brightly, to the ground. THE BROKEN HOUSEHOLD.* Vainly, vainly memory seeks, Round our father's knee, Laughing eyes and rosy cheeks Where they used to be : Of the circle once so wide. Three are wanderers, three have died. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1S55. 230 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Golden-haired and dewy-eyed, Prattling all the day, Was the baby, first that died ; Oh, 't was hard to lay Dimpled hand and cheek of snow In the grave so dark and low. Smiling back on all who smiled, Ne'er by sorrow thralled, Half a woman, half a child, Was the next one called : Then a grave more deep and wide Made they by the baby's side. When or where the other died Only Heaven can tell ; Treading manhood's path of pride Was he when he fell ; Haply thistles, blue and red. Bloom about his lonely bed. I am for the living three Only left to pray ; Two are on the stormy sea; Farther still than they. Wanders one, his young heart dim Oftenest, most I pray for him. Whatsoe'er they do or dare, Wheresoe'er they roam. Have them, Father, in Thy care, Guide them safely home ; Home, oh, Father, in the sky. Where none wander and none die. PARTING SONG * Behind their cloudy curtains, Over sunset's crimson sea. Like fires along a battle field, Intensely, mournfully, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. PARTING SONG. 231 The radiant stars are burning That will burn no more for me. Ere on yon path of glory, Which still the daylight warms, Walks silently the midnight, With the silence in her arms, I shall be where longings trouble not, Nor haunting fear alarms. Nay, weep not, gentlest, dearest. When joy should most abound, That the dewy, tender clasping Of thy arms must be unwound ; We have journeyed long together In life's wilderness profound. Like the shining threads of silver W^hich the showers of summer leave, When to webs of beauty woven By the golden loom of eve. Is the path that lies before me now — Then, dear one, do not grieve. Mortality has been to me A wheel of pain, at best, And I sink, although thy gentle love Has soothed and almost blest, As a pilgrim in the shadow Of the sepulchre, to rest. Not when the morn is glowing. Like a banner o'er the brave. Nor when the world is bathing In the noontide's amber wave, Will I come, oh Love, to meet thee From the chamber of the srrave. &' But through the silver columns Leaning earthward from the arch, When the pale and solemn army Of the night is on the march, 232 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. I will glide, oh Love, to meet thee, Froin the shadow of the larch. As the poet's bosom trembles With some awful melody. Till he hears the dark procession Of the ages sweeping by, Lo! my heart is trembling, beating, To the music of the sky. THE BRIDAL OF WOE.* Dimly the shadows stretch across the seas, With glistening frost the window pane is white ; And the blind winds go moaning through the trees — Oh ! 't is a mournful night ! Under the rafters, where, in summer's heat, The twittering swallow hung her nest of clay, The new-milked heifer, sheltered from the sleet, Chews the sweet-scented hay. On southern slopes, hard by the leafy wold. Where the stray sunbeams all the day kept warm, Instinct is shepherding the harmless fold From the ice-bearded storm. The watch-dog, shivering couchant on the sill. Watches the moon, slow sailing up the sky. Nor answers, calling from the churchyard hill, The owlet's frequent cry. In the dim grass the little flowers are dead. No more his song the grasshopper awakes, And the pale silver of the spider's thread. No wanton wild-bird breaks. * Printed in "Lyra" and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. A DREAM UNTOLD. 233 Yet does my soul, whose flights have sometimes stirred The cloud that curtains back eternity, Lie wailing in my bosom, like a bird, Driven far out at sea. On such a night my heart was wed to pain, And joy along its surface can but gleam. Like the red threads of morning's fiery skein Along the frozen stream. A DEEAM UNTOLD.* Bexeath the yellow hair of May The blushing flowers together lay. The winds along the bending lea, Kept flowing, flowing like a sea That could not rest, When first a maid with tresses brown. And blue eyes softly drooping down. Sat in her chamber high and lone. Locking a sweet dream, all her own. Within her breast. The elms around the homestead low All night went swaying to and fro, And the young summer's silver rain Kept beating on the window pane, ■ So soft and low. It could not trouble the fair maid Who tremblingly and half afraid Lay gazing on the village lights, That glimmered o'er the neighboring heights. In sleepless woe. The summer's tender glow is fled. The early budding flowers are dead, But others, with their leaves scarce paled, And their flushed bosoms all unveiled. In bloom remain ; * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1S55. 234 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The hills are white with ripened rye, The quails from out the meadows fly ; The mower's whistling, blithely gay, Makes answer to the milkmaid's lay, In vain — in vain ! 'T is one of autumn's lonesome eves, And eddying drifts of withered leaves Are scattered in the woods behind. By the damp fingers of the wind ; But hope dies not, And happy maids and youths are seen Together straying on the green, While trembling hand and blushing cheek Tell better far than words can speak. Each other's thought. Winter is come — the homestead low Is whitened by the falling snow; In the warm hearth the cricket cries, And the storm-shaken bough replies ; The watch-dog's bay Is answered from the neighboring hill — " 'T is very dark, the night is chill," Is by the pale lips faintly said. Of her beside whose dying bed They kneel to pray. Morning is up — her wing of fire Is shivering o'er the village spire. And in the churchyard down below Shining along the mounds of snow Serenely bright ; The maiden with the hair so brown, And blue eyes softly drooping down, Her dream, whate'er it was, unknown, Shall lie beneath the cross of stone, Ere close of night. THE CONVICT. 235 THE CONVICT * The first of the September eves Sunk its red basement in the sea, And like swart reapers, bearing sheaves, Dim shadows thronged immensity. Then from his ancient kingdom, Night Wooing the tender Twiliglit, came. And from her tent of soft blue light, Bore her away, a bride of flame. Pushing aside her golden hair. And listening to the Autumn's tread, Along the hill-tops, bleak and bare. Went Summer, burying her dead ; The frolic winds, out-laughing loud, Played with the thistle's silver beard, And drifting seaward like a cloud. Slowly the wild-birds disappeared. Upon a hill with mosses brown, Beneath the blue roof of the sky, As the dim day w^ent sadly down. Stood all the friend I had, and I — Watching the sea-mist of the strand Wave to and fro in Evening's breath, Like the pale gleaming of the hand That beckons from the shore of Death, Talking of days of gladness flown. Of Sorrow's great o'erwhelming waves, Of friends loved well as they were known. Now sleeping in the voiceless graves ; And as our thoughts o'erswept the past, Like stars that through the darkness move. Our hearts grew softer, and at last We talked of friendship, talked of love. Then, as the long and level reach Back to our homestead slow we trod. We gave our fond pure pledges each, Of truth unto ourselves and God. * Printed in "Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1S55. 236 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Forth to life's conflict and its care, Doomed wert thou, oh my friend, to go, Leaving me only hope and prayer To shelter my poor heart from woe. " A little year, and we shall meet ! " Still at my heart that whisper thrills — The spring-shower is not half so sweet. Covering with violets all the hills. Dimly the days sped, one by one. Slowly the weeks and months went round, Until again September's sun Lighted the hill with moss embrowned. That night we met — my friend and I — Not as the last year saw us part : He as a convict doomed to die, I with a bleeding, breaking heart — Not in our homestead, low and old. Nor under Evening's roof of stars. But where the earth was damp and cold, And the light struggled through the bars. Others might mock him, or disown. With lying tongue : my place was there, And as I bore him to the throne Upon the pleading arms of prayer, He told me how Temptation's hand Pressed the red wine-cup to his lip. Leaving him powerless to withstand As the storm leaves the sinking ship ; And how, all blind to evil then, Down from the way of life he trod, Sinning against his fellow-men — Reviling the dear name of God. SICK AND IN PRISON. Wildly falls the night around me. Chains I cannot break have bound me, Spirits unrebuked, undriven Erom before me, darken heaven; Creeds bewilder, and the saying Unfelt prayers, makes need of praying. LONGINGS. 237 In this bitter anguish lying, Only thou wilt hear my crying — Thou, whose hands wash white the erring As the wool is at the shearing ; Not with dulcimer or psalter, But with tears, I seek thy altar. Feet that trod the mount so weary, Eyes that pitying looked on Mary, Hands that brought the Father's blessing Heads of little children pressing. Voice that said, " Behold thy brother," Lo, I seek ye and none other. Look, oh gentlest eyes of pity Out of Zion, the glorious city; Speak, oh voice of mercy, sweetly ; Hide me, hands of love, completely ; Sick, in prison, lying lonely, Ye can lift me up, ye only. In my hot brow soothe the aching, In my sad heart stay the breaking, On my lips the murmur trembling. Change to praises undissembling ; Make me wise as the evangels, Clothe me with the wings of angels. Power that made the few loaves many, Power that blessed the wine at Cana, Power that said to Lazarus, " Waken ! " Leave, oh leave me not forsaken ! Sick and hungry, and in prison, Save me Crucified and Eisen ! LONGINGS. I AM weary of the mystery Of life and death, and long to see Into the great eternity : 238 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The locked hands loosed, the feet untied, The blank eyes re-illumined, The senseless ashes deified. For as the ages come and go, The tides of being ever flow. From light to darkness, ending so. A little gladness for the birth, For youth a little soberer mirth. For age, a looking toward the earth — A listening for the spirit's call, A reaching up the smooth, steep wall Of the close grave — and this is all. Hoping, we find that hope is vain ; Are pleased, and pleasure ends in pain ; Loving, we win no love again. We bring our sorrow, a wild weight, Praying inexorable fate To comfort us, and when we wait — Winning no answer to the quest. Madly with angels we contest, Asking if that which is, is best. So life wears out, and so the din Goes on, and other lives begin The same as though we had not been. True, here and there in time's dead mould. There stands some obelisk of gold, For which, God knoweth, peace was sold. For they must meet their fellows' frown. And wear on throbbing brows the crown. O'er whom death's curtain shuts not down. Others for fame may do and dare. For me it seems enough to bear The ills of being while we are : REMORSE. 239 Without the strife, to leave behind A name with laurels intertwined, To be of evil tongues maligned. And had I power to choose, to-day, Some good to help me on my way, I truly think that I would say — "Oh thou who gavest me mortal breath. And hold'st me here 'twixt life and death, Double the measure of my faith ! " REMORSE. Break sweetly, red morning, I shudder with fear, Eor dreaming at midnight My darling, my dear. My Mary, my lost loving Mary, was here. Soft smoothing my pillow. Soft soothing my woe. She folded the coverlid. Dainty as snow, About my chill bosom, and kneeling so slow. Meek clasped she together Her hands, lily white. While the flow of her tresses, All golden with light Of the world where there never is any more night. Fell over my forehead. And bathed it like dew. As the pale mortal sorrow In lifetime she knew. Was mixed with the fond whisper, " Pray I for you." And therefore this tremulous Shudder of pain Shakes my desolate bosom ; This agonized rain Fills my eyes, that I thought not to vex me again. 240 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Break sweetly, red morning, Break sweetly, I pray ; In the darkness of midnight As moaning I lay. Fled this vision, this beautiful vision away. On a hill where the larches Trail low to the ground. Till the moon lights but faintly The headstones around. Fast asleep lieth Mary beneath the hushed mound. In her white shroud she lieth Beneath the cold stone — My life was the shadow That darkened her own, And my death-crown to-night is of thorns I have sown. DESPAIR* Come, most melancholy maid, From thy tent of woeful shade. And with hemlock, sere and brown, Keep the struggling daylight down. From thy pale unsmiling brow Wind the heavy tresses now, And in whispers sad and low I will tell thee all my woe. The path watched and guarded most, By an evil star is crossed. And a dear one lies to-day Sick, in prison, far away — Naked, famished, suffering wrong; Dreamed I of him all night long. And each dreary wind o'erblown Seemed an echo of his moan. When he left me, long ago. Brown locks, touched of summer^s glow, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. RESPITE. 241 Beautified his boyish brow — Thinned and faded are they now. Seeing clouds like oxen stray Through the azure fields all day, And the lengthening sunbeams lie Like bright furrows of the sky, Underneath an oaken roof We were sitting, sorrow-proof — Cheating I with tales the hours. Heaping he my lap with flowers. As yon elm, the ivied one. Came between us and the sun. And the lambs went toward the fold, I remember that I told. How the robin and the wren, Friendless and unburied men Cover with the leaves of flowers From the twilight's chilly hours. Now along the level snow Glistening the frost specks glow, And the trees stand high and bare, Shivering in the bitter air — Come, oh melancholy maid. From thy tent of woeful shade, That in whispers, sad and low, I may tell thee all my woe. EESPITE* Leave me, dear one, to my slumber. Daylight's faded glow is gone ; In the red light of the morning I must rise and journey on. I am weary, oh, how weary ! And would rest a little while ; Let your kind looks be my blessing, And your last " Good-night " a smile. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1865. 242 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. We have journeyed up together, Through the pleasant day-time flown ; Now my feet have pressed life's summit, And my pathway lies alone. And, my dear ones, do not call me, Should you haply be awake, When across the eastern hill-tops Presently the day shall break. For, while yet the stars are lying In the gray lap of the dawn, On my long and solemn journey I shall be awake and gone ; Far from mortal pain and sorrow, And from passion's stormy swell, Knocking at the golden gateway Of the eternal citadel. Therefore, dear ones, let me slumber — Faded is the day and gone ; And with morning's early splendor, I must rise and journey on. OF ONE DYING.* In the blue middle heavens of June The sun was burning bright, What time we parted — now ! alas, 'T is winter-time and night. The swart November long ago. With troops of gloomy hours. Went folding the October's tents Of misty gold, like flowers. The wind hangs moaning on the pane. The cricket tries to sing. And a voice tells me all the while. It never will be spring ; * Printed in " Lyra " and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. MAY VERSES. 243 It never will be spring to her, For in the west wind's How, I hear a sound that seems to me Like digging in the snow. She will not have to lay away The baby from her knees — The wild birds sung his lullaby Last Slimmer in the trees ; The cedars and the cypresses. That in the churchyard grow — But little Alice will be left — How shall we make her know, When she shall see the pallid brow, The shroud about the dead, That the beloved one is in The azure overhead ? For scarcely by the open grave, Have we of larger light And clearer faith, the strength to shape The spirit's upward flight. MAY yEESES.=* Do you hear the wild birds calling — Do you hear them, oh my heart ? Do you see the blue air falling From their rushing wings apart ? With young mosses they are flocking, For they hear the laughing breeze. With dewy fingers rocking Their light cradles in the trees ! Within Nature's bosom holden. Till the wintry storms were done, Little violets, white and golden, Now are leaning to the sun. •• Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 244 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. With its stars the box is florid, And the wind-flower, sweet to view, Hath uncovered its pale forehead To the kisses of the dew. While thousand blossoms tender, As coquettishly as they, Are sunning their wild splendor In the blue eyes of the May ! In the water softly dimpled — In the flower-enameled sod — How beautifully exampled Is the providence of God ! From the insect's little story To the fartherest star above, All are waves of glory, glory. In the ocean of his love ! WURTHA* Through the autumn's mists so red Shot the slim and golden stocks Of the ripe corn ; Wurtha said, " Let us cut them for our flocks." Answered I, " When morning leaves Her bright footprints on the sea. As I cut and bind the sheaves, Wurtha, thou shalt glean for me." " Nay, the full moon shines so bright All along the vale below, I could count our flocks to-night ; Haco, let us rise and go. For when bright the risen morn Leaves her footprints on the sea. Thou may'st cut and bind the corn, But I cannot glean for thee." * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THE SHEPHERDESS. 245 And as I my reed so light Blowing, sat, her fears to calm, Said she, " Haco, yesternight In my dream I missed a lamb, And as down the misty vale Went I pining for the lost, Something shadowy and pale, Phantom-like, my pathway crossed, Saying, ' In a chilly bed. Low and dark, but full of peace, For your coming, softly spread, Is the dead lamb's snowy fleece.' '^ Passed the sweetest of all eves — Morn was breaking, for our flocks : " Let us go and bind to sheaves, All the slim and golden stocks ; Wake, my Wurtha, wake" — but still Were her lips as still could be. And her folded hands too chill Ever more to glean for me. THE SHEPHERDESS.* Sat we on the mossy rocks In the twilight, long ago, I and Ulna keeping flocks — Elocks with fleeces white as snow. Beauty smiled along the sky ; Beauty shone along the sea ; " Ulna, Ulna," whispered I, " This is all for you and me ! '^ Brushing back my heavy locks. Said he, not, alas ! in glee, "Art content in keeping flocks With a' shepherd boy like me ? " - Shone the moon so softly white Down upon the mossy rocks, Covering sweetly with her light Me and Ulna, and our flocks. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 246 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Running wild about our feet Were the blushing summer flowers — " Ulna," said I, " what is sweet In this world that is not ours ? " Thrice he kissed my cheek, and sighed, These are dreary rocks and cold — Oh, the world is very wide, And I weary of my fold ! Now a thousand oxen stray That are Ulna's, down the moor, And great ships their anchors weigh, Freighted with his priceless ore. But my tears will sometimes flow, Thinking of the mossy rocks Where we sat, so long ago, I and Ulna, keeping flocks. WASHING THE SHEEP. " Oh, Jesse, go and wash the sheep — The hills are white with May, The mossy brook is brimming full — 'T is shearing time to-day. And I will bring my spinning-wheel, And tie the bands anew. And when to-night, the lilac buds Break open with the dew, I '11 come and meet you, as I used. The summer eves ago. When first you loved me, Jesse dear — Or when you told me so." ^T was Emily, the fair young wife Of Jesse thus who spake ; And, kissing her, he straight became A shepherd for her sake. She heard him singing to the sheep, Across the hills, all day, « GEORGE BURROUGHS. 247 As one by one he plunged them in The rainy brook of May. But ere the eve, the shadows fell, The sun in clouds was gone, And dreary through the western woods, The windy night came on. Her gold curls beaten straight beneath The rain that wildly drove, Sad Emily along the hills Went calling to her love; And calling by the brooks of May, The grassy brooks o'erfull, What sees she 'mid the new-washed lambs, Gleam whiter than their wool ? Oh never winter frost, nor ice, So filled her heart with dread ; And never kissed she living love As then she kissed the dead ! GEORGE BURROUGHS.* Oh, dark as the creeping of shadows, At night, o'er the burial hill. When the pulse in the stony artery Of the bosom of earth is still — When the sky, through its frosty curtain. Shows the glitter of many a lamp, Burning in brightness and stillness. Like the fire of a far-off camp — Must have been the thoughts of the martyr. Of the jeers and the taunting scorn. And the cunning trap of the gallows. That waited his feet at morn, * No purer hearts or more heroic spirits ever perished at the stake than some crushed and broken on the wheel of bigotry during the Puritan Eeign of Terror. Among them I would instance the Rev. George Burroughs, who prayed with and for his repentant accuser the day previous to his e.xecution, and whose conviction demonstrated the righteousness of God to the Rev. Cotton Mather. After his execution, to which he was conveyed in an open cart, Mr. Burroughs was strijiped of his clothing, dragged by the hangman's rope to a rocky excavation, in which, being thrown and trampled on by the mob, he was finally left partly uncovered. — Author's Note. 248 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. As, down in his lonesome dungeon, The hours trooped silent and slow. Like sentinels through the thick darkness, Hard by the tents of the foe. Could he hear the voices of music Which thrilled that deep heart of gloom ? Or see the sorrowful beauty That meekly leaned by the tomb ? Could he note in the cold and thin shadow That swept through his prison bars. The white hand of the pure seraph That beckoned him to the stars. As, roused to the stony rattle Of the hangman's open cart. He smothered, till only God heard it, The piercing cry of his heart ? Can Christ's mercy wash back to whiteness The feet his raiment that trod. Whose soul from that dark persecution, Went up the bosom of God ? Hath he forgiveness, who shouted, " Righteously do ye, and well. To quench in blood, hot and smoking. This firebrand, which is of hell ? " Over fields moistened thus darkly Wave harvests of tolerance now — But the tombstones of the old martyrs Sharpened the share of the plough ! LUTHEE. Oh ages ! add with reverend light New splendors to the name of him Who fought for conscience a good fight, And sung for truth the morning hymn! Who, when old sanctions like a flood Drove wrathful on, to work his fall. Put forth his single hand and stood Sublimer, mightier than they all. THE EVENING WALK. 249 Stood, from all precedent apart, The double challenge to prefer — A conflict with his own weak heart As well as with the powers that were. Who spake, and, speaking, clave in twain The mocking symbols in his way; Who prayed, and scoffing tongues grew fain To pray the prayers they heard him pray. Who, guided by a righteous aim, Enkindled with his mortal breath A beacon, on the cliffs of fame. That shines across the wastes of death ; From cell to old cathedral height, From cowled monk to vestal nun, As, through, the cloudy realms of night, The fiery seams of daybreak run — Till in the pilgrim's way, the reeds Like unto strong red cedars thrive, And free from wrappings of old creeds The corpse of thought stands up alive. Gone from the watchings of the night. The wrestling might of lonely prayers ; — Oh, ages ! add your reverend light To the great glory that he bears ! THE EVENING WALK. " Mother, see my cottage bonnet ! Never was it bleached so white ; I have put fresh ribbons on it, And three roses for to-night. Think you, mother, they will fade For a half hour in the shade ? " 'T was the coaxing Adelaide Thus who said, the bonnet tying Close about her golden hair. 250 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Waiting not for a replying To her questions, she must wear The new ribbons and the flowers — • None would see them — 't was her mood On the hill-side near the w^ood She would be the next two hours. " If you want me, mother dear — Call, I shall be sure to hear." So said joyous Adelaide — Pretty, self-deceiving maid. Many times before that day She had gone the self -same way, Singing, skipping here and there, Where a daisy bloomed, or where Patches of bright grasses lay. She would pout if you should say Sweeter music twilight cheers Than the birds make, and with tears Tell you, it is not the truth She has ever seen a youth Driving cattle any night Down a meadow full in sight — Down* a meadow thick with flowers Driving cattle, brown and white, Slowly towards a shallow well, Hedged with lilies all around, Brighter than the speckled shell Of the " sweet beast " Hermes found. What deceitful hearts are ours ! For 't is true, say all she can, That the farm-boy, Corolan, Drives at night his cattle so — Silent sometimes drives them, slow — Sometimes trilling songs of glee — Treading very near the shade Where, unconscious, it may be, Sits the blushing Adelaide. The huge leader of the flock Often with a golden strand. Made of oat straw, gailj^ bound His black forehead round and round, MY MOTHER. 251 Close to Corolan doth walk, Gently guided by his hand. Haply 't is but for the pleasing Of his own eyes he doth make The gold cordage, and for sake Of the green and flowery dells His white oxen wear the bells, And the song may be for easing A young heart that loves the flowing Of soft sounds in solitudes, And the lonesome echoes going Like lost poets through the woods. Or all haply, happens so — For the maiden says with tears, " On the white necks of the steers Silver bells make music low When the pastured cattle go Toward the spring — but not a sound Sweeter, ever echoes round" — So it cannot be she hears ! And if thither Corolan strays. She has seen him not, she says ; And if eyes so bold and bright As you hint of, pierced the shade, She would not be night by night On the hill side. Adelaide Surely would not so declare If she saw young Corolan there. So we will not wrong the maid Guessing why the cottage bonnet Had fresh flowers and ribbons on it, Or for what the hill side shade Pleased her — beauteous Adelaide. MY MOTHER. 'T WAS in the autumn's dreary close, A long, long time ago : The berries of the brier-rose Hung bright above the snow, 252, POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And night had spread a shadow wild About the earth and sky, When, calling me her orphan child, She said that she must die. She rests within the quiet tomb, The narrow and the chill — The window of our cabin home Looks out upon the hill. Oh, when the world seems wild and wide, And friends to love me few, I think of how she lived and died, And gather strength anew. LAST SONG.* The beetle from the furrow goes, The bird is on the sheltering limb, And in the twilight's pallid close Sits the gray evening, hushed and dim. In the blue west the sun is down, And soft the fountain washes o'er Green limes and hyacinths so brown As never fountain washed before. I scarce can hear the curlew call, I scarce can feel the night wind's breath j I only see the shadows fall, I only feel this chill is death. At morn the bird will leave the bough. The beetle o'er the furrow run, But with the darkness falling now. The morning for my eyes is done. Piping his ditty low and soft If shepherd chance to cross the wold, Bound homeward from the flowery croft, And the white tendance of his fold, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1865. PERVERSITY. 253 And find me lying fast asleep, Be inspiration round him thrown, That he may dig my grave down deep, Where never any sunshine shone. WEARINESS* Gentle, gentle sisters twain, I am sad with toil and pain, Hoping, struggling, all in vain, And would be with you again. Sick and weary, let me go To our homestead, old and low. Where the cool, fresh breezes blow — There I shall be well, I know. Violets, gold, and white, and blue, Sprout up sweetly through the dew — Lilacs now are budding, too, — Oh, I pine to be with you ! I am lonely and unblest — I am weary, and would rest Where all things are brightest, best, In the lovely, lovely West. PEEVERSITY.* If thy weak, puny hand might reach away And rend out lightnings from the clouds to-day. At little pains, as, with a candle flame Touching the flax upon my distaff here Would fill the house with light, it were the same — A little thing to do. It is the far Makes half the poet's passion for the star. The while he treads the shining dewdrop near. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 254 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Of mortal weaknesses I have my share — Pining and longing, and the madman's fit Of groundless hatreds, blindest loves, despair — But in this rhymed musing I have writ Of an infirmity that is not mine : My heart's dear idol were not less divine That no grave gaped between us, black and steep ; Though, if it were so, I could oversweep Its gulf — all gulfs — though ne'er so widely riven ; Or from hot desert sands dig out sweet springs ; For I believe, and I have still believed. That Love may even fold its milk-white wings In the red bosom of hell, nor up to heaven Measure the distance with one thought aggrieved. Why should I tear my flesh, and bruise my feet, Climbing for roses, when, from where I stand, Down the green meadow I may reach my hand, And pluck them off as well ? — sweet, very sweet This world which God has made about us lies, — Shall we reproach him with unthankful eyes ? WHEN MY LOVE AND I LIE DEAD. When my love and I lie dead, Both together on one bed, Shall it first be truly said, " Fate was kindly : they are wed ! " When they come the shroud to make Some sweet soul shall say, '^ Awake From your long white sleep, and take Feast of kisses for love's sake." And though we nor see nor hear — Safe from sorrow — safe from fear, Both together on one bier. We shall feel each other near. Oh my lover, oh my friend. This I know will be the end — Only when our ashes blend Will our heavy fortunes mend. DEVOTION. 255 HIDDEN LIGHT. The rain is beating sullenly to-night; The wild red flowers like flames are drenched away ; Down through the gaps of the black woods the light Strikes cold and dismal. Only yesterday It seems since Spring along the neighboring moor Washed up the daisies, and the barks of trees Cracked with green buds, while at my cabin door The brier hung heavy with the yellow bees. Now all is blank : the wind climbs drearily Against the hills, the pastures close are browsed ; Snakes slip in gaps of earth, gray crickets cry. Ants cease from running, and the bat is housed. No bright star, throbbing through the dark, one beam Of comfort sends me from its home above — I only see the splendor of a dream, Slowly and sadly fading out of love. I only see the wild boughs as they blow Against my window, see the purple slant Of twilight shadows into darkness go ; And yet again the whistling March will plant The April meadows, wheat fields will grow bright In their own time, the king-cups in their day Come through the grass ; and somewhere there is Light If my weak thoughts could strike upon the way. DEVOTION. Within a silver wave of cloud The yellow sunset light was staid, As on the daisied turf she bowed : I saw and loved her as she prayed - Thy holy will on earth be done. As in the heavens, all-hallowed One ! No evil word her lip had learned ; Her heart with love was overfull : 256 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. No scarlet sinfulness had turned Her garment from the look of wool : Give us, oh Lord, our daily bread ; Keep us and guide us home, she said. No violet, with head so low. Were sweetly meek as she in prayer; Nor rising from the April snow A daffodilly, half so fair. As her uprising from the sod, Fresh from communion with her God. PROPHECY* I THINK thou lovest me — yet a prophet said To-day, Elhadra, if thou laidest dead, From thy white forehead would he fold the shroud, And crown thee with his kisses. Nay, not so — The love that to thy living presence bowed, When death shall claim thee will be quick to go. Shall the wood fall to ashes, and the flame, Feeding on nothing, live and burn the same ? So, with my large faith unto gloom allied, Sprang up a shadow sunshine could not quell, And the voice said, Would'st haste to go outside This continent of being, it were well — Where finite, growing toward the Infinite, Its robe of glory gathers out of dust, And, looking down the radiances white, Sees all God's purposes about us, just. Canst thou, Elhadra, reach out of the grave. And draw the golden waters of love's well ? His years are chrisms of brightness in time's wave- Thine are as dewdrops in the nightshade's bell ! Then straightening in my hands the rippled length Of all my tresses, slowly, one by one, * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. A RETROSPECT. 257 I took the flowers out. Dear one, in thy strength Pray for my weakness. Thou hast seen the sun, Large in the setting, drive a column of light, Down through the darkness ; so, within death's nighty Oh, my beloved ! when I shall have gone, If it might be so, would my love burn on. LIGHT AND LOVE. Light waits for us in heaven : Inspiring thought ! That when the darkness all is overpast. The beauty which the lamb of God has bought Shall flow about our saved souls at last. And wrap them from all night-time and all woe : The spirit and the word assure us so. Love lives for us in heaven : Oh, not so sweet Is the May dew which mountain flowers inclose Nor golden raining of the winnowed wheat, Nor blushing out of the brown earth, of rose, Or whitest lily, as, beyond time's wars. The silvery rising of these two twin stars ! A EETEOSPECT.=* Down in the west, the sunset gold Is fading from the sombre cloud, And a fixed sorrow, hushed and cold. Is closing round me like a shroud ; Closing with thoughts of twilight hours, When gaily, on the homestead hill, Two children played among the flowers — I would that they were children still. For as I scan with tear-dimmed eyes The future, till life's sun hangs low, No white hand reaches from the skies, With chrisms of healing for our woe. * Printed in " Lyra " and, with the omission of the last quatrain, in the volume of 1855. The second version is given here. 258 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. And though it may be either mind Has grown with toil and years and strife, Experience, like a blightning Avind, Has made a barren waste of life — A barren waste, whose reach of sands Lies glowing in the noontide heat, Where no bright tree of blossoms stands, Dropping cool shadows round our feet. THE HOMELESS. As down on the wing of the raven, Or drops on the upas-tree lie, So darkness and blight are around me To-night, I can scarcely tell why ! Alone in the populous city ! No hearth for 7ny coming is warm. And the stars, the sweet stars, are all hidden Away in the cloud and the storm ! The thoughts of all things that are saddest. The phantoms unbidden that start From the ashes of hopes that have perished, Are with me to-night in my heart ! Alas ! in this desolate sorrow, The moments are heavy and long ; And the white-pinioned spirit of Fancy Is weary, and hushes her song. One word of the commonest kindness Could make all around me seem bright As birds in the haunts of the summer. Or lights in a village at night. A PRAYER. 259 A PRAYER. Forgive me, God ! forgive tliy child, I pray. And if I sin, thy holy spirit move My heart to better moods : I cannot say, Disjoin my human heart from human love ! If, in the rainy woods, the traveler sees. Through some black gap, a splendor fair and white, Shining beneath the wild rough-rinded trees. His steps turn thither. Through the infinite Of darkness that would else be, as we pass From silence into silence, round our way, Love shineth so. Doth not the mower stay His scythe, if that a bird be in the grass ? If God be love, then love is likest God, And our low natures the divineness mock, If, when we hear the blest " Arise and walk,'^ We turn our faces back against the sod. The plowman, tired, among the furrowed corn, Leans on the ox's shoulder ; done with play, Childhood among the daisies drops away Into the lap of sleep, and dreams till morn. It is as if, when angels had their birth. The one with heaviest glory on its wings, Dropt from its proper sphere into the earth. Where, piteous of our mortal needs, it sings. Sings sweeter melodies than winds do make, Playing their dulcimers for the young May ; Blessed Forever ! if sometimes I take Their beauty round my heart — forgive, I pray ! 260 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. KINDNESS* In the dull shadows of long hopeless strife I talked with sorrow — round about me lay The broken plans and promises of life, — When first thy Kindiiess crossed my friendless way. Then felt I, hushed with wonder and sweet awe, As with his weary banners round him furled Felt ocean's wanderer, when first he saw The pale-lipt billows kissing a new world. The joy, the rapture of that glad surprise, Haply some heart may know that inly grieves, Some sad Ruth bowing from love-speaking eyes Her trembling bosom over alien sheaves. ENJOY. That the dear tranced Pleasures of a night Puts on her hood of thorns at break of day — Passing the cornfields, and the hedges gay With honeysuckles, straight : her feet, so white, Buried down deep in dust — aside from all The sweet birds making love-songs in the woods. The way-side cottage with its cold green wall Of moss against the sun, the fennel buds Fringing the hay-fields — all of us do know; And yet, for that we are not always blest. Shall we be always weepers, and so burn Our dainty bodies, slacking with our tears The scorched stones our stumblings overturn. And making double measurements of woe ? Nay, I do rather deem that road the best. Which hath good inns beside ; where oftenest cheers The well, where man and beast may drink their fill, Nor stint belated travelers one whit ; * Printed in "Lyra " and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. APRIL. 2G1 And all the house is with white candles lit When day burns down, and where the housew^ife still Hath some red earthen pot of marigolds That look like, sunshine when the withered wolds Are under the flat snow. For is it wrong If human needs have human comforting ? Or shall the sweetness of our winter song Keep the green April buds from blossoming ? APRIL. If, in the sunshine of this April morn, Thick as the furrows of the unsown corn, I saw the grave-mounds darkening in the way That I have come, I would not therefore lay My brow against their shadows. Sadly brown May fade the boughs once blowing brightly down About my playing ; never any more May fall my knocking on the homestead door. And never more the wild birds (pretty things) Against my yellow primrose beds their wings May nearly slant, as singing toward the woods They fly in summer. Shall I hence take moods Of moping melancholy — sobbings wild For the blue modest eyes, that sweetly lit All my lost youth ? Nay ! though this rhyme were writ By funeral torches, I would yet have smiled Betwixt the verses. God is good, I know ; And though in this bad soil a time we grow Crooked and ugly, all the ends of things Must be in beauty. Love can w^ork no ill ; And though we see the shadow of its wings Only at times, shall we not trust it still ! So, even for the dead I will not bind My soul to grief : Death cannot long divide ; For is it not as if the rose that climbed My garden wall, had bloomed the other side ? 262 POEMS BY ALICE GARY, AT THE GRAVE. The grass grew green between us, and I said There is no soul to love me — peace is lost; Over my heavy heart my hands I crossed, And mourned the sun away : " She is not dead But sleepeth only ; time is as a wall Where death makes rents, and thro' which come and go Hourly, the spirits which ye mourn for so. Faithless, and faint, and blind." As if a call Came out of heaven, I lifted up my eyes. And thought to see white wings along the air ; The many stars, the single moon, were there — Seeing not, I felt, the might that deifies. The darkness had the quality of light; I knew no soul that God had made could die — That time is knitted to eternity. And finite drawn into the Infinite. The violets of seven bright times of bloom Lay purple in the moonlight as before, But I, who came a mourner, mourned no more; An angel had been sitting at the tomb — The stone was rolled away. A temple gate, O'errun with flowers, and shining with the light Of altar-fires, life seemed to me that night. Where, for the marriage crowning, lovers wait. MULBEERY HILL.=* Oh, sweet was the eve when I came from the mill, Adown the green windings of Mulberry Hill : My heart like a bird with its throat all in tune, That sings in the beautiful bosom of June. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. A RUSTIC PLAINT. 263 For there, at her spinning, beneath a broad tree, By a rivulet shining and blue as the sea. First I saw my Mary — her tiny feet bare. And the buds of the sumach among her black hair. They called me a bold enough youth, and I would Have kept the name honestly earned, if I could ; But, somehow, the song I had whistled was hushed, And, spite of my manhood, I felt that I blushed. I would tell you, but words cannot paint my delight, When she gave the red buds for a garland of white, When her cheek with soft blushes — but no, 't is in vain I Enough that I loved, and she loved me again. Three summers have come and gone by with their charms, And a cherub of purity smiles in my arms, With lips like the rosebud and locks softly light As the flax which my Mary was spinning that night. And in the dark shadows of Mulberry Hill, By the grass-covered road where I came from the mill, And the rivulet shining and blue as the sea, My Mary lies sleeping beneath the broad tree. A RUSTIC PLAINT. Since thou, my love, didst level thy wild wings To goodlier shelter than my cabin makes, I work with heavy hands, as one who breaks The flax to spin a shroud of. April rings With silvery showers, smiles light the face of May, The thistle's prickly leaves are lined with wool. And their gray tops of purple burs set full ; Quails through the stubble run. From day to day Through these good seasons I have sadly mused. The very stars, thou knowest, sweet, for what. Draw their red flames together, standing not About the mossy gables as they used. 264 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. No more I dread the winds, fhough ne'er so rough : Better the withered bole should prostrate lie ; — Only the ravens in its black limbs cry, And better birds will find green boughs enough. THE SPIRIT-HAUNTED * O'er the dark woods, surging, solemn. Hung the new moon's silver ring ; And in white and naked beauty, Out from Twilight's luminous wing. Peered the first star of the eve ; — 'T was the time when poets weave Eadiant songs of love's sweet passion, In the loom of thought sublime. And with throbbing, quick pulsations Beat the golden web of rhyme. On a hillside very lonely With the willows' dewy flow Shutting down like sombre curtains Round the silent beds below. Where the lip from love is bound, And the forehead napkin-crowned, — I beheld the spirit-haunted — Saw his wild eyes burn like fire, Saw his thin hands, clasped together, Crush the frail strings of his lyre, As, upon a dream of splendor His abraded soul was stretched, And across the heart's sad ruins Winged imaginations reached Toward the glory of the skies — Toward the love that never dies. In a tower, shadow-laden. With a casement high and dim, Years agone there dwelt a maiden, Loving and beloved by him. ♦Printed in "Lyra" and, revised, in the volume of 1855. The revision is given here. ULALIE. 265 But while singing sweet one day A bold masker crossed her way. Then — her bosom softly trembling Like a star in morning's light — Faithless to her mortal lover Fled she forth into the night, — A great feast for her was spread In the Kingdom overhead. Woe, oh woe ! for the abandoned ; Dim his mortal steps must be; Death's high priest his soul has wedded Unto immortality ! — Twilight's purple fall, or morn, Finds him, leaves him, weary, lorn. In her cave lies Silence, hungry For the beauty of his song ; Echoes, locked from mortal waking, Tremble as he goes along. And for love of him pale maids Lean like lilies from the shades. But the locks of love unwinding From his bosom as he may, Buries he his soul of sorrow In the cloud-dissolving day Of the spirit-peopled shore Ever, ever, evermore. ULALIE.* The crimson of the maple trees Is lighted by the moon's soft glow ; Oh, nights like this, and things like these, Bring back a dream of long ago. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. 266 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. For on an eve as sweet as this — Upon this bank — beneath this tree — My lips, in love's impassioned kiss, Met those of Ulalie. Softly as now the dewdrops burned In the flushed bosoms of the flowers, Backward almost seems time to have turned The golden axis of the hours, Till, cold as ocean's beaten surf, Beneath these trailing boughs, I see The white cross and the faded turf Above lost Ulalie. ON THE PICTURE OF A MAGDALEN. To be unpitied, to be weary, To feel the nights, the daytimes, dreary. To find nor bread nor wine that 's cheery. To live apart, To be unneighbored among neighbors, Sharing the burdens and the labors, Never to have the songs of tabors Gladden the heart. To be penitent forever. And yet a sinner — never, never At peace with the Divine Forgiver — Always at prayer. Longing for Mercy's white pavilion, Yet all the while a stubborn alien. Uprising proudly in rebellion. Hell, Heaven, to dare. To feel all thoughts alike unholy, To count all pleasures but as folly. To mope in ways of melancholy. Nor rest to know ; To be a gleaner, not a reaper, A scorner proud, a humble weeper. And of no heart to be the keeper, This is my woe ! YOUNG LOVE. 267 DEATH SONG.* Friexd, if there be any near, Is the blessed summer here ? Is 't the full moon, are they flowers, Make so bright, so sweet the hours ? Is 't the wind from cowslip beds, That such fragrance o'er me sheds ? my kindred, do not weep ; Never fell so sweet a sleep Over mortal eyes. At night. All the hills with snow were white And the tempest moaning drear — But I wake with summer here. Haste, and take my parting hand ! We are pushing from the land. And adown a lovely stream Gently floating — is 't a dream ? For the oarsman near me sings. Keeping time with snowy wings. Stranger, with the wings of snow, Singing by me as we row. Tell my dear ones on the shore, I have need of them no more ; Weeping will not let them see That an angel goes with me. YOUNG LOVE.t Life hath its mefnories lovely. That over the heart are blown, As over the face of the Autumn The light of the summer flown ; * Printed in " Lvra," as well as in the volume of 1S55. t As printed in" Lyra," this poem had a third stanza, which was dropped ifl the reprint of 1855. 268 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Kising out of the midst so chilling That oft life's sky enshrouds, Like a new moon sweetly filling Among the twilight clouds. And among them comes, how often, Young love's unresting wraith, To lift lost hope out of ruins To the gladness of perfect faith ; Drifting out of the past as lightly As winds of the May-time flow: And lifting the shadows brightly. As the daffodil lifts the snow. THE MORNING. Break, morning, break, I weary of the night, Longing to see and know the truth of things. To gather faith up, as the bird her wings. And soar into the kingdom, where is light. Arise, oh Sun ! for while the midnight lay Along the path we traveled — dense, profound. The hands and feet of my sweet mate were bound. And he is prisoned till the break of day. Shadows, wild shadows, from the air be gone — Where shaken boughs of golden lilies stood, Came up a black impenetrable wood. When love was lost — I cannot journey on. By the King's palace low my knees I bow. On the dark porch beside the palace white Waiting the morn which shall husk out the light From the thick shell of darkness round me now. TIMES. 269 AWAKENING. His hair is as white as the snow, And I am his only child — (How wild the storm beats on my chamber low — ) When we parted last he smiled. He smiled, and his hand was laid Like the summer dew on my head — ('T is a fearful night, I am half afraid,) God bless you, my child, he said. On the meadow the mist hung low, The beauty of summer was o'er, And the winds as they went to and fro, Shook the red-rinded pears at the door. How well I remembered* it all. The brier-buds close at the pane. And the trumpet-vine tied to the wall — I never shall see them again. I must sink to the shadowy vale — 'T is dreary alone to go, temper, sweet Pity, my tale. His hair is as white as the snow. TIMES. Times are there when I long to know The mystery beyond life's wave, Even at the awful price, to go Unmated through the grave. Times when our loves and hatreds, all Of level vast, or skyey steep. Seem only like the meadow wall A very lamb might leap. ♦ Probably a misprint for "remember," 270 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Times, when within my heart the grain Of faith into a mountain grows, As suddenly as in the rain The bud becomes a rose. Times, when in fancy's shining fold Joys out of heaven are drawn to me, As stars in twilight's net of gold Out of the sunset sea. Times, when rebellion so abounds Within me, I, though Satan's mark, Would twist his fiery wings to crowns. And glorify the dark. Times, when I feel myself a wreck And hear a voice say in my heart, " Better a mill-stone round thy neck, Than being what thou art." So am I driven upon life's stream. By every wave, by every breeze. From good to ill — my life a gleam Between the darknesses. THE PROPHECY. We two were playmates, — Rosalie Had lived full three years more than I. One wild March day she said to me, '' Sweet, would you grieve if I should die ? " The black cock clapped his wings and crew Loud, from the willow overhead : I laughed for the good sign — she drew Her gold hair through her hands and said, The while the tears came, " We shall play Under these boughs no more ! " Alas ! I know now that she saw that day The daisies in the churchyard grass. WORSHIP. 271 I tried to see the squirrel climb The silver beech-bole, — tried to see The bees, thick-flying, — all the time My eyes were fixed on Kosalie. A week or more the March had worn Upon the April's flowery way, — And pale, and all her long locks shorn. On our low bed sweet Kosy lay. Across her pillow in bright strands I saw them fall (and wept to see). The self-same way her little hands Had twined them 'neath the willow tree. I had been with her all the night ; Softly she slept the time away. In the wet woods before the light The little brown birds sang for day. Over the locks that lay across The pillow where so well she slept, Long years has grown the churchyard moss, — One golden tangle only, kept. WOUSHIP. I HAVE no seasons and no times To think of heaven ; sometimes at night I go up on a stair of rhymes. And find the journey very bright: And for some accidental good. Wrought by me, saints have near me stood. I do not think my heart is hard Beyond the common heart of men, And yet sometimes the best award Smites on it like a stone ; and then A sunbeam, that may brightly stray In at my window, makes me pray. 272 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The flower I 've chanced on, in some nook Giving its wild heart to the bee, Has taught me meekness, like a book Of written preaching ; and to see A corn field ripe, an orchard red. Has made me bow with shame my head. Of stated rite and formula, A formal use the meaning wears ; When mostly in God's works I see And feel his love, I make my prayers, And by the peace that comes, I know My worship is accepted so. ONLY TWO. When the wind shall come again, The last leaflet will be cleft From the bough that chafes the pane Only two of us are left. Two of us to smile or weep : All the others are asleep. Ah, the winds more softly blow, But the wild rain falls instead ; And the last sad leaf must go : All its pretty mates are dead. So I sit in musing sad, Of the mates that I have had. And the while I make my rhymes, Harking to the dim rain fall, In between my dreams, sometimes. They come smiling, one and all — They of whom we are bereft : Only two of us are left. Many a time we lay across Beds of softest, whitest down, As it made the low roof moss Green upon a ground of brown. They who close beside me lay Do not hear the rain to-day. NOBILITY. 273 NOBILITY. Hilda is a lofty lady, Very proud is she — I am but a simple herdsman Dwelling by the sea. Hilda hath a spacious palace, Broad, and white and high ; Twenty good dogs guard the portal — Never house had I. Hilda hath a thousand meadows — Boundless forest lands ; She hath men and maids for service — I have but my hands. The sweet summer's ripest roses, Hilda's cheeks outvie — Queens have paled to see her beauty — But my beard have I. Hilda from her palace windows Looketh down on me. Keeping with my dove-brown oxen By the silver sea. When her dulcet harp she playeth. Wild birds, singing nigh, Cluster listening by her white hands — But my reed have I. I am but a simple herdsman. With nor house nor lands ; She hath men and maids for service — I have but my hands. And yet what are all her crimsons To my sunset sky — With my free hands and my manhood Hilda's peer am I. 274 POEMS BY ALICE GARY, DOOMED* Oh demon waiting o'er the grave, To plead against thy power were vain ; Turning from heaven, I blindly gave My soul to everlasting pain. Take me and torture me at will — My hands I will not lift for aye, The flames that die not, nor can kill, To wind from my poor heart away ; For I have borne and still can bear The pain of sorrow's wretched storms. But, love, how shall I hush the prayer For the sweet shelter of thy arms ? Oh home ! no more your dimpling rills Would cool this forehead from its pain ; Flowers, blowing down the western hills, Ye may not fill my lap again ; Time, speed with wilder, stormier wings, The smile that lights my lip to-day. As like the ungenial fire that springs From the pale ashes of decay. ! lost, like some fair planet beam. In clouds that tempests over-brim. How could the splendor of a dream Make all the future life so dim ! THE WAY. I CANNOT plainly see the way, So dark the grave is ; but I know If I do truly work and pray. Some good will brighten out of woe. For the same hand that doth unbind The winter wiuds, sends sweetest showers. And the poor rustic laughs to find His April meadows full of flowers. * Printed in " Ljra," as well as in the volume of 1855. THISBE. 275 I said I could not see the way, And yet what need is there to see, More than to do what good I may. And trust the great strength over me ? Why should my spirit pine, and lean From its clay house ; or restless, bow, Asking the shadows, if they mean To darken always, dim as now ? Why should I vainly seek to solve Free will, necessity, the pall ? I feel — I know — that God is love. And knowing this, I know it all. THISBE* Subset's pale arrows shivering near and far ! — A little gray bird on an oaken tree, Pouring its tender plaint, and eve's lone star Resting its silver rim upon the sea ! Tn dismallest abandonment she lies — The undone Thisbe, witless of the night, Locking the sweet time from her mournful eyes. With her thin lingers, a most piteous sight. O'er her soft cheek the sprouting grasses lean. And the round moon's gray, melancholy light Creeps through the darkness, all unfelt, unseen, And folds the tender limbs from the chill night. Pressing your cold hands over rushy springs, And making your chaste beds in beaded dew. About her, Nereides, draw your magic rings. And wreath her golden-budded hopes anew. For by the tumult of thick-coming sighs. The aspect wan that hath no mortal name, I know the wilful god of the blind eyes Hath sped a love-shaft with too true an aim. * Printed in "Lyra" and, revised, in the volume of 1S55. The revision is given here. 276 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. SAFE. Oh, stormy wind of winter-time, Moan wildly as you will ; His rest you cannot trouble now, His heart you cannot chill. Lean to the earth, oh, summer corn, Before the dim wet blast ; His eyes have seen the golden calm Of harvests never past. Deep in your bosom fold, oh earth. Your shining flowers away ; His steps are in the lily fields Of never ending May. Draw your red shadows from the wall, Oh beauteous ember-glow ; Drift cold about his silent house, Oh white December snow ; Across the sparkle of the dew Dry dust in whirlwinds pour ; Hide, new moon, in the cloudy skies — He needs your light no more ! ADELIED.* Unpraised but of my simple rhymes She pined from life, and died, The softest of all April times That storm and shine divide. The swallow twittered within reach Impatient of the ram. And the red blossoms of the peach Blew down against the pane. * Printed in " Lyra," as well as in the volume of 1855. WHAT AN ANGEL SAID. 277 When, feeling that life's wasting sands AVere wearing into hours, She took her long locks in her hands And gathered out the flowers. The day was nearly at the close, And on the eave in sight. The doves were gathered in white rows With bosoms to the light ; When first my sorrow flowed to rhymes For gentle Adelied — The light of thrice five April-times Had kissed her when she died. WHAT AN ANGEL SAID. I DREAMED of love ; I thought the air Was glowing with the smile of God — An angel told me all the sod Was beauteous with answered prayer — I looked, and lo ! the flowers were there. I could not tell what place to tread, So thick the yellow violets run ; Along the brooks, and next the sun The woods were like a garden bed ; And whispering soft, the angel said, (While in his own he took my hand,) "Dear soul, thou art not in a dream. All things are truly what they seem — Thou art but newly come to land, Throusrh shadows and across the sand." 'J3' I felt the light wings cross my face. My heavy eyes I felt unclose, And from my dreaming I arose. If I had dreamed, and by God's grace, Saw glory in the angel's place. 278 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. MY PLAYMATE. I LITTLE care to write her praise, In truth I little care that she Should seem as pure in all her ways, To others, as she seems to me. At morn a sparrow's note we heard. His shadow fell across her bed, She smiled and listened to the bird ; And when the evening twilight red. Fell with the dew, he came again, And perching on the nearest bough. Higher and wilder sang the strain — She did not smile to hear him now. Many and many years, the light Thin moonbeams, sheets for her have spread; And scented clovers, red and white. Have made the fringes of her bed. Small care for sitting in the sun Have I — small care to war with fate : The wine and wormwood are as one, Since thou art dead, my pretty mate. THE WORKERS. Who are seers and who are sages ? They who know and understand - Not the sphinxes of old ages, With their dead eyes in the sand. Every worm beside you creeping, Every insect flying well, Every pebble in earth's keeping. Has a history to tell. LOOKING BACK. 279 The small homely flower that 's lying In your pathway, may contain Some elixir, which the dying Generations sought in vain. In the stone that waits the turning Of some curious hand, from sight Fiery atoms may be burning. That would till the world with light. Let us then, in reverence bowing, Honor most of all mankind, Such as keep their great thoughts plowing Deepest in the held of mind. LOOKING BACK. I HAVE been looking back to-day Upon life's April promise hours, Its June is with me now, but May Left all her blushes in the flowers. A still and sober gladness reigns Where there was hopeful mirth, ere while Hardly the soul ilTS wisdom gains — Through suffering we learn to smile. The heart that went out beating wild With visions of the bliss to be, Has come back weary, like a child That sits beside the mother's knee. The vision of a coming bliss — A bliss from earth that never springs — In youth was but the chrysalis That time has gloritied with wings. And if I see no longer here The splendor of a transient good, A cloud has left my atmosphere. And heaven is shining where it stood. 280 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. HYMN. Bow, angels, from your glorious state If e'er on earth you trod, And lead me through the golden gate Of prayer, unto my God. I long to gather from the Word The meaning, full and clear. To build unto my gracious Lord A tabernacle here. Against my face the tempests beat, The snows are falling chill, When shall I hear the voice so sweet. Commanding, Peace, be still ! The angels said, God giveth you His love — what more is ours ? Even as the cisterns of the dew O'erflow upon the flowers. His grace descends ; and, as of old, He walks with men apart, Keeping the promise, as foretold, With all the pure in heart. LEILIA.=* Gone from us hast thou, in thy girlish hours. What time the tenderest blooms of summer cease In thy young bosom bearing life's sweet flowers To the good city of eternal peace. In the soft stops of silver singing rain. Faint be the falling of the pale red light O'er thy meek slumber, wrapt away from pain In the fair robes of dainty bridal white. * A revision of " Leila," printed in the volume of 1850. MILNA GREY. 281 Seven nights the stars have wandered through the blue, Since thou to larger, holier life wert born; And day as often, sandaled with gray dew, Has trodden out the golden fires of morn. The wearying tumult of unending strife, The jars that through the heart discordant ring, Drive the dim current of our mortal life Against the shore where reigns unending spring. And though I mourn for Leilia, she who died When all the tenderest blossoms ceased to be, Her being's broken wave has multiplied The stars that shine across eternity. MILNA GREY. Burned the blushing cheek of morning Soft, beneath the locks of Day, As within his noble garden Stanley mused of Milna Grey. Heedless of the bright laburnums Raining on his path in showers ; Of the lilacs faint and tender, And the peach-wands full of flowers ; Of the red-winged thrush's singing ; Of the wind, whose separate trills Broke the mists to golden furrows Up and down the peaked hills — Heedless of the huntsmen riding With their hawks and hounds away, If the lattice lights be darkened With the locks of Milna Grey. " Ere the sun, so brightly rising. Dimly down the west shall go, I will tell her all my story — It can add not to my woe." Warmer, broader, fell the sunshine, Birds and bees about him flew, 282 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. And the flower-stocks on the borders Dript no longer with the dew. Suddenly his wan cheek flushes And his step turns half awaj^ ; Slowly down the alder shadows Walks the lovely Milna Grey ; Sadly then his heart misgave him, And his lip an utterance found, Only said, " Why, gentlest Milna, Is thy brow with sorrow crowned ? " Not as his, her bosom trembled — Not as his, her glances fell, As she answered, sweetly, meekly, " Though the tale be sad to tell ; Something in the slips so silken Fallen uncurled adown thy cheek — Something in thy blue eyes, Stanley, Wins what else I w^ould not speak. A bright path through years of darkness Is cleft open by thy smile. And I feel life's blossoms slipping Through my fingers as erewhile. As my thoughts in pensive gladness Over barren reaches flow To a shrine of w^ondrous beauty. Broken, ruined long ago. By the gray w^all of the churchyard Where the red-stalked creeper clings, And the wild-breeze in the larch-boughs Oft in summer stops and sings ; In the rains of seven dim autumns Has the throstle sadly cried. And the white grass fallen above, him, Who to me has never died. Yet my love was not as mortals'. In hope's sweetest passion nursed — Dreams and prophecies forewarned me Of our dark doom from the first. Oft my lost one smiled, to soothe me. Saying, faith is strong to save. And though life, he knew, was turning The dark furrow of the grave, Seemed he scarce to heed the fading MILNA GREY. 283 Of the day, or night hard by — Folding down the golden shadows Of love's twilight in our sky — But, more leaning on God's mercy, As the mortal fainter grew. Went he close to death's still water, And the angels took him through. Even as some young bough of blossoms Stricken into pallid stone, Was my heart transformed thenceforward, And my nature left alone." Sorrow fixed the brow of Stanley, And his cheek grew white with woe, As he answered — oh, how sadly ! — " Milna, this was long ago. Life is charmed — is there nothing For which thou would'st love recall — Or, alas, too fondly faithful, Hast thou, Milna, buried all ? Wilt thou, when the star of twilight Breaks in beauty through the blue. Meet me here beneath the alders ? — I would tell a story too." So, from out the pleasant garden Passed they, as the lingering mist From the eastern hill-tops lifted, Musing of the twilight tryst. Slowly to the sad, and gaily To the gay, sped on the hours, Till the bees went humming homeward From the softly closing flowers ; Till the daylight waned and faded, And the sun grew large and set, And the rooks in long rows gathered Gloomily on the parapet. In the blue wake of the twilight Brings the star the try sting hour — On her knees her white hands folded, Milna waits within her bower. Scarcely heeding how^ the shadows Dark and darker round her fall — 284 POEMS BY ALICE GARY, Haply she but hears the throstle Singing by the churchyard wall ! With the dews the red laburnums, And the golden rods were bent, But no step disturbed the silence, And the midnight came and went. Stanley, blue-eyed, gentle Stanley, If he liveth, none may say. But within the pleasant garden Never walked he from that day. In his stall his black steed fasted, Drooping lowly from his pride. And his lithe hound stayed from trailing, Crouching, whining, till he died. And the mournful tears of Milna Often for lost Stanley fell, As in part she guessed the story That he never came to tell. THE BETROTHED. I HAVE acted as they bid me. He said that he was bless'd. And the sweet seal of betrothal On my forehead has been press'd ; But my heart gave back no echo To the rapture of his bliss. And the hand he clasped so fondly Was less tremulous than his. They praise his lordly beauty. And I know that he is fair — Oh, I always loved the color Of his sunny eyes and hair ; And though my bosom may have held A happier heart than now, I have told him that I love him, And I cannot break the vow. THE GOOD ANGEL. 285 He called me the fair lady Of a castle o'er the seas, And I thought about a cottage Nestled down among the trees ; And when my cheek beneath his lip Blushed not nor turned aside, I thought how once a lighter kiss Had left it crimson-dyed. What care I for the breathing Of wind-harps among the vines ? I better love the swinging Of the sleepy mountain pines, And to track the timid rabbit In the snow shower as I list. Than to ride his coal-black hunter With the hawk upon my wrist. Fain would I leave the grandeur Of the oaken-shadowed lawns. And the dimly stretching forest, Where the red roe leads her fawns. To gather the blue thistle And the fennel's yellow bloom, Where frowning turrets cumber not The path with gorgeous gloom. Let them wreathe the bridal roses With my tresses as they may — There are phantoms in my bosom That I cannot keep away ; To my heart, as to a banquet. They are crowding pale and dread, But I told him that I loved him, And it cannot be unsaid. THE GOOD AKGEL. Like a prophetess of sorrow Dying day foretells the night. And adown the eastern hill-tops Floats and falls the deep'ning light ; 286 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Floats and falls the light so golden From the full, uprisen moon, And the little birds are nestled In the bosom of young June. I am sitting where so often I have sat in summers gone, Down the dim and solemn future, Fixedly, gazing, on and on. I can see sweet gleams of sunshine Drifting through a valley wide, Where a thousand hopes aforetime — Ventures of the heart have died. Then a phantom hand of darkness Comes between the moon and I, And the stars, like pallid spirits, Wander, aimless, through the sky. And the dreary winds about me, Sigh and moan in under breath, As, sometimes, unwary watchers Hold their prophecies of death. Rise not like a far-off planet. Time of beauty vanished long, Come not back, lost voice, to haunt me Like a half -remembered song. And if down the long, long future, No sweet Eden smiles for me, Save one from the past, good angel, This is all I ask of thee ! MY feie:n'd and I. March is piping Springtime's praises. Night by night the new moon fills — Soon the golden-hearted daisies Will be over all the hills. Oh ! the winds are dreary, dreary ! 'T is a long and lonesome night : And her heart, she said, was weary — Weary, waiting for the light. OUT BY THE WATERS. 287 Soft the lovely Suiimier weather Bloweth up the southern heights, When the blue-bell in the heather Blooms beneath our lattice lights. Dismally the winds are crying; I am reft, she said, and lorn, And my heart is sad with sighing, Sighing for the distant morn. Blithely will the birds keep singing, Till the Autumn, sad of mien. Comes his yellow chaplet swinging, 'Gainst the Summer's robe of green. Drearily the wind is blowing — Long and lonely is the night ; Keep me not, she said, from going — Going where 't is always light. Blisses, hope has not foretasted, Fill with sweetnesses the skies ; There young love is never blasted — There the Summer never dies. Have the rough winds ceased their blowing — Doth the morning break? she said; The life-tide was outward flowing — She w^as dying — she was dead. OUT BY THE WATEES. The hedges of roses and islands of gold Have floated and faded away from the sky, And I long, as their vanishing glow I behold. For a home where the beautiful never shall die : For a home, where the children of sorrow shall cease To mourn over dreams that are broken and gone; Where the wings of the soul may be folded in peace By the rivers that always flow shiningly on ! 288 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. I 'm sitting alone in a deep bosomed vale, On a bank of fresh moss that hangs over a rill ; And catching at times, from the wings of the gale The laughter of children at play on the hill. For the wandering spirit of beauty is back With fragrance and verdure for hill-top and tree, Leaving sunshine and blossoms, and birds on her track, And filling the young heart with innocent glee. I forget the dark lessons of history's page In listening to footsteps so careless and light : I forget the deep plottings of manhood and age — Their scorning of weakness, and trampling of right : There 's a cloud on the moon ! but the light is so sweet, ('T is one of the Spring-time's most beautiful eves) I can tell every blossom that lies at my feet, And the birds that are up o'er my head in the leaves. Oh I love to be out by the waters at night As they trip to the sea on the bright-tinted sands : And deem their glad billows are children of light With songs on their lips and the stars in their hands. LOVE'S CHAPEL. As if soft odors from the vales of bliss Pressed open, dear one, the pearl gates above, Came in the Hybla sweetness of thy kiss. The gentle, gentle meaning of thy love. Then felt I as some mortal maid who lies Beneath a rose-roof bower that sunshine warms, Who, having charmed a god from the blue skies, First feels his gold locks trembling in her arms. Haste ! bring me river-lilies pale as snow, Meek wood-flowers faintly streaked with jet and blue. Blush-roses gathered where the west winds blow, And little moss-cups dripping wet with dew. FALLEN GENIUS. 289 And when the silver ring of the new moon Hangs o'er the dark woods sloping to the sea, When hope lies dallying in the lap of June, I '11 twine a chapel for my love and me. A quiet chapel 'neath the quiet boughs, Whose dusky beauty makes the days like eves, Where kneeling softly we may make our vows In the pale light like broken lily leaves. Feeding my heart with dreams of that dear hour, Nor pain, nor alien sorrow, nor dim fear Shall cross the threshold of our chapel bower. Till that sweet time, oh gentle love, be here ! As suddenly the brown leaf-buried root, When the spring thaw brings down the genial shower, Into the blue air lifts its tender shoot. Crowned with the beauty of its perfect flower : So is my hope, long buried under fears. And walled from sunshine by the helpless night, Crowned with the beauty of its primal years, Uplifted softly to the loving light. FALLEN GENIUS. No tears for him ! — he saw by faith sublime Through the wan shimmer of life's wasted flame, Across the green hills of the future time, The golden breaking of the morn of fame. Faded by the diviner life, and worn. The dust has fallen away, and ye but see The ruins of the house wherein were borne The birth-pangs of an immortality. His great life from the wondrous life to be. Clasped the bright splendors that no sorrow mars. As some pale, shifting column of the sea. Mirrors the awful beauty of the stars. 290 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. What was Love's lily pressure, what the light Of its pleased smile, that a chance breath may chill ! His soul was mated with the winds of night, And wandered through the universe at will. Oft in his heart its stormy passion woke, Yet from its bent his soul no more was stirred, Til an is the broad green bosom of the oak By the light flutter of the summer bird. His loves were of forbidden realms, unwrought In poet's rhyme, the music of his themes, Hovering about the watch-fires of his thought, On the dim borders of the land of dreams. For while his hand with daring energy Fed the slow fire that, burning, must consume, The ravishing joys of unheard harmony Beat like a living pulse within the tomb. Pillars of fire that wander through life's night, Children of genius ! ye are doomed to be, In the embrace of your far-reaching light, Locking the radiance of eternity. DYING. Light comes no more to thy weary eyes When moons are filling, or morn unfolds ; Thy feet have struck on the path that lies Bordering the Eden that faith beholds. Why dost thou linger and backward gaze To the hills now lying so faint and far. Where plowing a furrow through golden haze. Came up the beautiful morning star. That star that paled in the sky and fled, Ere yet the blossoms of spring were blown; The stormy wings of the night o'erspread The mists of glory that round it shone. HARRIET. 291 But though the light of the day is gone, The valley of shadows is bright with dew, And where the river of death moans on. The angels are waiting to take thee through. I think of the visions of bliss we wove In the faded beauty of years o'erflown, That thou hast been crowned with a crown of love, And I am a dreamer of dreams alone. I think of the children that climb thy knees, And how dim the light of the hearth will be, In the time that prophecy plainly sees When the circle is narrowed away from thee : And question the bodiless shapes of air That hover about when the soul is sad, To know why the angel of death should spare The worn and weary instead of the glad. But they answer not, and I only know. Seeing thee wasted and pale with pain. Where the rivers of Paradise sweetly flow, They never say I am sick again. HAREIET. Down the west the gust is rushing Through the twilight's cloudy bars, And the crescent moon is pushing Her slim horn between the stars. Now the winter night is falling O'er the hills of crisped snow. But she hears, she says, the calling Of an angel, and must go. She is pale and very weary. But her thin lips never moan. And though night is chill and dreary, Fears she not to go alone. 292 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Surely, when the shroud shall cover Her meek beauty, death subdued, Troin his eyes who ivas her lover, He will love her angelhood. He that, for the wine-cup's kisses Sold away her gentle love — Not alas, for holy blisses. Earthly, or of heaven above. Morning sadly, dimly presses Up the orient, and the few Belated stars their yellow tresses Gather from her pathway blue. Broader now the light is falling, And the day comes on and on, As the angel skyward calling, Calls no longer — she is gone. FALMOUTH HALL. 'T WAS just a year at the summer's tide, And DOW was the leaflet's fall. Since the lady Camilla, a blushing bride, In the graceful beauty of matron pride, First came to the Falmouth Hall. The air was chilly, the winds were high, Lifting and drifting the leaves ; The hills were bare, for the ripened rye In the golden gales of the warm July Was bound into silver sheaves. Sir Philip is mounting his courser fleet, Though dismally falls the night, Nor heeds at all if his glances meet The locks of the lady, the pale and sweet. That darken the lattice-light. FALMOUTH HALL. 293 The lady was lovely — her lord was true, As the maids of the mansion say, But cold as sleet were his words, and few. As he struck through the fall of the night, and flew From the home of his sires away. Hath he gone to the field of the holy war ? He hath nor helmet, nor sword, nor star. Doth he go as a jousting knight? And when will he tighten his flowing rein At the gate of the Falmouth Hall again, And the heart of Camilla be light ? 'T was the middle watch by the castle clock, 'T was the middle watch, and the plumed cock Crew shrilly as cock may crow. When a voice to my lady did sweetly call, Who lovingly leant from the castle wall, As if to her lord below. 'T was the middle watch of the chilly night, In the time of the leaflet's fall, Wlien my lady appeared in her robes of white, And the watch-dog woke as in sudden fright. And howled from the Falmouth Hall. But the tale may be of the lowly born. For the lip of the lady was curled in scorn At the breath of the lightest word, Though the picture that lay on her heart at morn Was not of her absent lord. The legends of Falmouth mansion say Sir Philip perished in some dark fray. For a bird, with a blood-red plume. Oft came in the mists of the morning gray Where the ancient lord of the mansion lay, And sang on the cross of the tomb. 294 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. SOXG. Come to my bosom, thou beautiful bird, My soul with thy seraph-like singing is stirred : Say'st thou we never more, never shall part — Light of the wilderness, joy of my heart ? Are thy capricious wings never to fly ? Sing me the blessed words — sing till I die ! Oh, I have thought of thee, long weary years, Nursing thy memory only with tears ; My heart dreaming dreams of thee, sweeter than dew. Beating, where thousands were, only for you : Said'st thou thou lovest me in thy soft strain ? Tell me the blessed w^ords, tell them again ! Spring in her robe of Light, Summer with flowers. Autumn with golden fruit, Winter's lone hours ; These on their fleeting wings came and went by, Finding their welcoming only a sigh. Say'st thou thou lovest me fondly and true ? Tell me the blessed words — tell them anew. The earth, like an angel, sits mantled in light. The skies are grown bluer, the stars are more bright ; And leaves by the breezes are freshlier stirred, Because of thy singing, my beautiful bird : Surely such happiness soon will be o'er — Tell me the blessed words, tell them once more ! Earth henceforth has nothing of sorrow for me ; My bosom, sweet minstrel, thy pillow shall be ; The goldenest morning that ever has smiled, Were dim in thy presence, young fawn of the wild : Oh, if your heart for me beat as you say, . Tell me the blessed words, tell them for aye ! LIVE AND HELP LIVE. Mighty in faith and hope, why art thou sad ! Sever the green withes, look up and be glad ! See all around thee, below and above, The beautiful, bountiful gifts of God's love ! TO ELMINA. 295 What though onr hearts beat with death's sullen waves ? What though the green sod is broken with graves ? The sweet hopes that never shall fade from their bloom, Make their dim birth-chamber down in the tomb ! Parsee or Christianman, bondman or free, Loves and humanities still are for thee ; Some little good every day to achieve, Some slighted spirit no longer to grieve. In the tents of the desert, alone on the sea. On the far-away hills with the starry Chaldee ; Condemned and in prison, dishonored, reviled, God's arm is around thee, and thou art his child. Mine be the lip ever truthful and bold ; Mine be the heart, never careless nor cold ; A faith humbly trustful, a life free from blame — All else is unstable as flax in the flame. And while the soft skies are so starry and blue ; And while the wide earth is so fresh with God's dew, Though all around me the sad sit and sigh, I will be glad that I live and must die. TO ELMINA. Soft dweller in the sunset light. How pleads my heavy heart for thee. That some good angel's hand to-night Gather thy sweet love back from me. For down the lonesome way I tread, No summer flower will ever bloom — All hope is lost, all faith is dead — Thou must not, canst not, share my doom. Nay, let me send no shadow chill To the blue beauty of thy sky ; Fain would I shape my song to still Thy sad fears like a lullaby. 296 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Not in thy memory would I seem As one that woe and sorrow claim — Think of me, dear one, as a dream That faded when the morning came. HOMESICK. The lamps are all lighted — how brightly they gleam ! The music is flowing, soft stream upon stream, While youths and fair maidens, untroubled with care, Half blush as they whisper, How happy we are ! Well, braid up your tresses with gems as you may, My light through the dances, and smile and be gay ; The glow of the roses, the flow of the wine, Are not for a bosom so weary as mine. give me a cottage half-hid in the leaves. With vines on the windows, and birds on the eaves, And a heart there whose warm tide shall flow like the sea. But never, never, for any but me ! THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA.* A ROMANCE OF THE GOLDEN AGE OF TEZCUCO. White-limbed and quiet, by her nightly tomb Sat the young Day, new-risen ; at her feet, Wrapt loose together, lay the l3urial clouds ; And on her forehead, like the unsteady crown Of a late Avinged immortal, flamed the sun. All seasons have their beauty : drowsy Noon, Winking along the hilltops lazily ; And fiery sandaled Eve, that bards of eld. Writing their sweet rhymes on the aloe leaves,t Paused reverently to worship, as she went, * The notes affixed to this poem are Alice Gary's. t The ancient MSS. of the Mexicans werefor the most part on a fine fabric made of leaves of the aloe. It resembled the Egyptian papyrus, and was more soft and beautiful than parchment. The written leaves were commonly done up in volumes. — Prescott. THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC A LA. 297 Like a worn gleaner, with a sheaf of corn Pressed to her bosom, lessening, clown the west ; And thou, dusk huntress ! through whose heavy locks Shimmer the icy arrows of the stars — About whose solemn brow once blinded Faith Wound the red shadows of the carnival, Till o'er its flower-crowned holocaust waxed pale The constellation of the Pleiades — * Fair art thou: but more fair the rising day! And day was fully up : Along the hills, Black with a wilderness of ebony, Walked the wild heron ; and in Chalco's wave Waded the scarlet egret, while the Light, Flitting along the cloisters of the wood, Softly took up the rosaries of dew ; From stealthy trailing on the hunter's path The ocelot drew back, and in her lair Growled hungry, lapping with hot tongue her cubs ; While the iguana, gray and rough with warts, Checkt round with streaky gold, and cloven tongued, Crept sluggish up the rocks — a poison beast ; And the slim blue-necked snake of Xalapa Lifted its limber folds into the light. From his black cirque of rocks, stood up alone The monarch of the mountains ; t on his breast, The fiery foldings of his garment, bracked And seamed with ashes, and his gray head bare, * On the termination of the great cycle of fifty years, says Prescott, there was celebrated a remarkable festival. The cycle would end in the latter part of Decem- ber, and as the dreary season of the winter solstice approached, and the diminished Hght of day gave melancholy presage of its quick extinction, their apprehensions increased ; and as the last days arrived, they abandoned themselves to despair. The holy fires were sufi'ered to go out in their temples, and none were lighted in their dwellings. Everything was thrown into disorder, for the coming of the evil genii, who were to descend on, and desolate, the earth. On the evening of the last day a procession of priests moved toward a lofty mountain, two leagues from the city. On reaching its summit, the procession paused till midnight, when, as the con- stellation of the Pleiades approached the zenith, the tiew fire was kindled on the wounded breast of the victim. Southej" describes the scene, in Madoc: "On his bare breast the cedar boughs are laid ; On his bare breast dry sedge and odorous gums Laid ready to receive the sacred spark, And herald the ascending Sun, Upon his living altar." The flame was soon communicated to a funeral pile, on which the body of the slaughtered captive was thrown, and as the light streamed toward heaven, shouts of joy and triumph burst from the countless multitudes. Thirteen days were given up to festivity. It was the national Jubilee of the .\ztecs. like that of the Romans or Etruscans, which few alive had seen before, or could expect to see again. t Pojahtecate. 298 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The while, with crystals rough, Chinantla's pride,* Sat, chiefest of a shining brotherhood, His turquoise eyes fast shut 'neath mossy lids, Regardless of the clamorous sea that lay Twining her wild green hair about his feet, Betwixt her heavy sobs, for love of him — Flat all her monstrous length along the sands. Joyous, the ranks of cedars and of pines Shook their thick limbs together, as the winds Toiled past them toward the red gaps of the hills. Through which the Morning came, and, where, for hours Tanning her cheeks with kisses, they would stay. But to the hopeless heaven itself were sad : The darkened senses fail to apprehend The elements of beauty ; the dull gaze Is introverted to the world within, Whose all is ruins — seeing never more The all-serene and blessed harmony That lives and breathes through Nature : to the air Giving its motion and its melody, The trees their separate colors, the wild brooks Their silver syllables, 'gainst fruitless stones Joining bright grasses, knitting goldenly The clear white of the day's departing train Into the blank, black border of the night. Dew raining on the dust, and on the heart The comfortable influences of love. So, things which if left single, had been bad, Grow in affiliation, excellent. Mindless of all the beauty of the time. Prone on the wasting ruins of a shrine Beared by the priests of IIometeuli,t long Gone down in still processions to the dark. Lay fallen Hualco — his unmailed arms Prostrate along the dust, while, like live coals, His eyes, no longer shadowed by a crown, Deep in their blue and famine-sunken rings Burned hungry for the life of Maxtala,J — • * Pojahtecate. t The general name by which, according to Lord Kingsborough, the deity was known to the Mexicans. X Maxtala, Maxtlaton, or Maxtla, was successor of the Tepanec conqueror, and his tyranny Avas evinced first against the son of the defeated and slain sovereign, whom he made an exile and a fugitive. THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC ALA. 2'J9 In wrappings of the sunrise purples, grand, In awful desolation, glorious. Is not the eagle hovering toward the sun In broken flutterings to keep its hold Up level with the mountains, more sublime Than in the steady flight of stronger wings ? Thus in his exile, thus in solitude, His manly port was nobler than a king's. Not his the vain and groveling lust of power That rounds the ambitious aims of selflshness: His broken people he would fain have built Into a mighty column, that should stand, The beacon of the unborn centuries ; From the blind statues where Idolatry Sunk tleep her bleeding forehead in the dust, He would have stript the wreaths voluminous. And on the altar of the living God, Laid them, a broidery for the robe of faith. As Thought went searching through his soul, his face Now with the piteous pallor of despair Was overspread, and now was all transformed Into the stormy beauty of roused hate. Such change is seen when o'er some buried fire The gust shoves heavy, and the quickened sparks Burn red together in the ashen ground. Fragments of temples, sacred to the rites Of the departed Aztecs, round him lay, Lapsing to common dust ; and, great and still, AVith snowy mantle blown along the clouds, Iztacihuatla * listened to the stars. And cast the terrible horoscope of storms. From its rough rim of rocks stretching away. Dark, to the unknown distance, lay the sea, AYhere that lost god t took refuge, whose black beard Heavy with kisses of the drowning waves. Back from his wizard skiff of serpent skins * Called afterwards by the Spaniards, Sierra Nevada. t Quetzalcoatl. god of the air. who visited the earth to instruct the people in the arts of civilization. Incurnnecarf«, lis quoted by Lord Kingsborough, in bis Antiquities of Mexico. THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 315 Bought at so great price of earthly fame. But its rough, thorny wood, so heavy once, Had budded bright with many a regal flower. The heir of kingly generations laid . His crown upon her lap, for her sweet eyes, And, for the zoning of her fond arms, gave The warrior's belted glory : lovers they, And blessed both — he calm in manhood's pride. She trembling at the top of ecstacy. How shall I paint the dear delicious hours ! Xo lilies swimming white in summer's waves, iS"o dove, soft cooing to her little birds. No hushes of the half reluctant leaves. When the south winds are wooing, passionful, Xo bough of ripe red apples, streaked with white And full in the fall sunshine, were so fair. The blushes of a thousand summertimes. Blent into one, and broken at the core. Were in its sweetness incomparable To the close kisses of the mouth we love. In the voluptuous beauty of the clime. That prisons summer everlastingly, Tangling her bright hair with a thousand flowers. Some large and heavy — reddening round her brows, Like sunset round the day, what time she lies. The cool sea billows climbing to her arms — Some white and rimmed with gold, and purple some, Soft streaked with faintest pink, and silver-edged. Some azure, amber stained, and ashen some, Dropt with dull brown and yellow, leopardlike, With others blue and full of crescent studs Or jetty-belled, fringed softly out of snow — So prodigal is nature of her sweets — Dwelt they, the past, the future, all forgot. " Henceforth thy love, soft-burning like a star. Shall stand above my crown and comfort me," Hualco said, and Tlaara's soft cheek Flushed out of olive, scarlet, and her heart Drank in the essence of all happiness. It was as if humanity attained The stature of its immortality. And earth were gathered up into the heavens. For Love makes all things beautiful, and finds 316 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. No wilderness without its pleasure tent, While G-enius goes with melancholy step Searching the world for the selectest forms Of high, and pure, and passionless excellence — Large-browed, unmated Genius — yearning still For the divinities which in its dreams Brighten along the mountain-tops of thought. She could not pause, but birds pecked round her feet, Fluttering and singing ; if at eve she walked. The clouds rained tender dews upon her head ; Meeting a hungry lion in the woods. Grinding his tusks, he crouched and piteous whined, Then turned his great sad face and fled away — Love was her only armor, yet he fled. Her wheel spun round itself ; the trickiest goat Stood patient for the milking ; jubilant. The smooth-stemmed corn its gray-green tassels shook, As she went binding its broad blades to sheaves. Sunshine which only she could see, made fair Even alien fields ; and if Hualco sighed. She put a crown of kisses on his brow. And drew him, with her smiling, from the thoughts That wandered toward Tezcuco's palaces. And for the vague, unfriendly fear, that made His lessening love a possibility, She gave into his hand the secretest key Of her heart's treasury. Sometimes they walked Between the moonbeams slanting up the hills, In ways of shadow, edged with white cold light. Or sat in solitudes where never sound Fed the dumb lips of echo ; but the flat Of desertness, low lying, bare, and brown. Their praises like a verdurous meadow drew. And the black nettle and rude prickly burr Challenged of each some tender eloquence. Along their paths mute stones grew voluble, And sweeter voices than of twilight birds, Filling Olintha's mountain solitudes. Flowed out of silence to their listening : For silence hath a language and a glance May burn into the heart like living fire, Or freeze its living currents into ice. Sometimes he told of maidens, fair as she, THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 317 That for his sake had folded in their arms The awful flames of martyrdom ; but quick The piteous flowing of her gentle tears Dried, in the burning crimson of his kiss. •What was 't to them, that in the hemlock woods* Sad priests kept fast and vigil, with stooped brows Under their hoods of thorns, low from the light, As once the chieftain of the Aztec hosts Heard the wild bird, responsive to his thought, Still sadly crying o'er and o'er, " Tihui," f Warning from Aztlan all his tribe away ? So they, in every murmurous wdnd, could hear The sanctifying echoes of their hopes ; Daily, the tremulous arch above the world, Resting upon the mountains and the waves, For love's sake deepened its eternal blue ; In the red sea of sunset, not a star Swam in its white and tremulous nakedness, Doubling the blessed pulses in their hearts. That seemed not for that office specially made ; Such wondrous power hath that fair deity. Pictured sometimes as tyrannous as fair — If right or wrongfully, I cannot tell. But I do truly think there be few hearts For which at some time he had not unloosed The blushing binding of his nimble shafts. Poor Tlaara forgot that ugly death Burrowed in mortal soil, when that her lord Kissed her, and called her "sweetest;" all her joy Was basemented upon a smile of his ; And if he frowned, the sun shut up his light. Ah, Tlaara, thou dream'st ; awake, be wise ! Already the sleek, golden cub, erewhile Fondled and hidden in thy bosom, growls. As some poor spinner puts a little wool Among her flax, to save the web from fire. So she has tried to twist with her poor name Some little splendor. Fate has baffled her ; But when the mists of tears shall clear away, She may attain to such majestic heights And atmospheres of glory as shut up * For an account of the remarkable fasts kept, solitary, in the forests, by the Mexican priests, in times of extraordinary calamity, see Clavigero, i. 236. t "Let us go." — Clavigero, i. 112. 318 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Life's lower planes, with all the murmurs made O'er the death-fluttering of fledging hopes — All discords horrible, and rude complaints. That rise, when at some direful exigence Even courage staggers in its way, and lays, Bestial, its radiant front against the dust. Loud bellowing out its awful pain, alone. When a friend dies, while yet the face has on The smiling look of life, 't is wise to lay The shroud about it, and so go again. Among what joys are left, with decent calm. When that which seemed the angel of our heaven Shuts close its wings, and its white body shrinks To a black, glistering coil, ^t is little safe To wait the growth of fangs. And when we find That which, a little distant, seemed to us The clambering of roses on the rocks. To be the flag of pirates, shall we stay Hugging the coast, and, dropping anchor, hunt The bones of murdered men ? or shall we wait — Deserted and betrayed, and scarce alive — To front the arrows of Love's sinking sun, And tempt the latest peril ? Just as well The obstinate traveler might in pride oppose His puny shoulder to the icy slip Of the blind avalanche, and hope for life ; Or Beauty press her forehead in the grave, And think to rise as from the bridal bed. But woman's creed knows not philosophy — Her heart-beats are the rosary that tells Her love off, even to the cross ; and verily In telling this, and telling only this. Can they fill out her nature : so again Come we to our sweet truster, Tlaara. " What ! goes my lord alone ? " So spake she once ; " The spinning work is done, the milking past. And past the busy cares. See ! the green hills Sit in the folding even-light, so fair. The dark house could not hold me, but for thee. Nay, chide me not, I will not speak a word. But walk so softly, love — blest, oh so blest. Treading the earth thy steps make proud before me ! " She stood on tiptoe, waiting for the kiss THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 319 To give her, in the accustomed way, reply. But there was silence at the first, and then The sullen answer, " I would be alone." The world fell sick and reeled before her eyes. And in the dead and heavy atmosphere. Where heaven had based itself a moment past, A vulture spun down low, as if its wings Could make no further head — all else was blank. Poor simple girl ! a little while the tears Flowed faster than the blossoms from the bough 'Gainst which she leaned, despairing. A great woe Crushes the fading of a century Into a moment ; and fair Tlascala, Smiling so lately through the purpling light, Lay like a shoal of ashes, dry and bare. But hope, however smitten or borne down, Is quick to right herself, and once astir The world grows young again. And Tlaara Chid presently her sighs and tears away, For the seductive whispering, which said, For her sake crown and kingdom had been lost ; Chid them away with quivering lip, and smiled, And sought in cares, against her lord's return, To wile the lengthening absence. As the bird, Wounded, not death-struck, gathers up its wings, True to its instinct, she, still true to hers. Gathered up all her courage. He, the while. Her lord, Hualco, with drooped eyes, and brow Sullen with sorrow and remorseless pain. Talked to his troubled soul in this wild sort : " So I am he, who in yet beardless years Did plot the ways to unkingdom Maxtala ; To measure his vile body with my sword. And find what space would rid the world of him ; Ay, he who even thought to be a king — Pining and love-sick in a peasant's cot, Where I can never rightly apprehend The distances betwixt me and my crown. A king ; my crown ! Nay, it was all a dream. That went before me from my youth till now — More than a dream, it was a life-long lie Reaching into the vale of years, and still A brightness, wrapping up some old white hairs ! 320 POEMS BY ALICE CARY, And can I see it fading, and yet smile ? It is as if a corpse had power to feel The tying of its hands. My brain must crack, Or I must slip the dusty leash I wear, And run into the dark. " See ! the dead day Drifts out in scarlet light, and the round moon Whitens like day-break through the sullen clouds. I scarce can see our cabin through the gaps Of hills and woods, the night comes on so fast. Yes, I can see it now — the heavenly eyes Of that sweet lady, pretty Tlaara, Ilkimining the window toward the sea. She loves nie, even me, who have beside No love in all the world ; her little hands Part softly back the redwood's rosy limbs. Low swinging in the winds, lest they should hide This sullen, crownless front — dear Tlaara ! — And from that listening I was near to be Plucked off by devils ; I was well nigh blind. Still gazing upon laurels that were knit With the white light of immortality. Sweet Tlaara, be patient, while I mourn These last weak tears behind the heavy hearse That bears the old dream from me : then again I will go singing, as we walk at eve Under the raining of the forest flowers. And count my homely verses once again By the brown spots our gentle leopard has, And beauty to our cabin will return." Poor Tlaara, her tamest goat came close, And leaned his head against her, and the wind Rested a little, kissing her wet eyes, And blowing down her hair, the while she stood. Her sad thoughts dropping in the well of love, To tell how deep it was ; an evil sign — Only despair can take its measurement. A little time ago the sun came up. Shearing the curly fleeces from the hills ; !N"ow he is dead, and the pale widowed west Hath slid the burial earth upon his face. " Blind eyes of mine," she cries, " you cannot see, Though he should rise and climb the heavens again^ THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC A LA. 321 In the dim days to come ; nor if, at night, Under the silver shadows of the clouds, With some red blushing star the moon keeps tryst — No more, oh never more ! blind, blind with tears ! Earth is stript bare of beauty, and, oh, lost ! I have forgone, close gazing upon thee. The way struck open through the grave to heaven, And needs must vaguely feel along the dark ! " " Forgive me, sweet, the shadow of a crown Swept through love's sunshine, and my heart grew chill " — So said the recreant prince, half penitent — " But not, my little empress, false to thee, Nay, look upon me close and tenderly, For I am like the child that pettishly Slips down the nurse's knees, and straight climbs up, Ending his pout with kisses — pry thee, smile. And think this transient mood the thing it was, A hollow bubble on the sea of love, Which thou mayst break for pastime, pretty one.^' As one, close pressing to the fountain's brim. Crumbles the black earth off into the wave. And with an empty pitcher goes away — So turned she, thirsting, from the fount of joy. " Sweet Tlaara, thou wrongst me," he replied ; " Thy hands put down the flames of martyrdom. Dilating for me like the eyes of fiends. And with their gentle tendance through long days And nights of exile, made me strong enough To repossess a kingdom, that, henceforth. Shall brighten round thy beauty ; on thy lip I press the seal of true allegiance. My joy, my queen forever : Art content ? Or shall I swear, by every soldier's tomb, Sunken along the war-grounds of the past, My soul is thine henceforward, nor in heaven. Nor in the heaven of heavens, is light enough To sweep thy shadow from my royalty. Command it, and I make the sweet oath o'er. Till yonder brightly rising planet creeps Into the rosy bosom of the morn. And the day breaks along the orient, White as the snow-top mountain. Dost thou weep ? 322 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Well, let thy tears wash out the sad mistrust, Darkening the beauty of serener faith, And we be lovers as we were before. My life, young empress, is involved in thine As water is in water : mingling waves, Catching one light and shade, our lives shall flow Till they strike broken on the ice of death. But this, our happy summering of love, Must sometime have its ending. Yesterday We had been just as ready as to-day. To-morrow will not be a better time. So let it touch its limit, here and now." " Oh, my Hualco, oh my best beloved, If thou wilt leave me, yet remember thou. When glory shall grow heavy in thy hands. And, with its burdening circle, thy brows ache, That sober twilight, when, erewhile, weak arms Folded them up, thus, with a crown of love. Oh, think of her who, pressing down thy cheek. Dared to look up into thy eyes for hope. Even though she felt its lately crimsoning flowers. Burned to gray ashes, cold beneath her lip. Think how her trembling hand swept off thy locks, As one who lays the shroud back from her dead. And gives the last wild kisses to the dust." So Tlaara made answer, seeing not How night stretched tempest-like along the sky, And in the blustery sea the tumbling waves Shattered the gold repeatings of the stars, As through the rents of darkness they looked out; Only the silence heard the anguished cry — " Clasp me a moment longer ; once again Kiss me, and say you love me ; once, once more. Put back this fallen hair, as yesternight ! Is it not white and heavy, like dead hair ? This burning pain must bleach the blackness out. I cannot hear you speak ; I cannot feel Your kisses — closer, sweet ! nor yet — nor yet ; I cannot see the eyes that said to mine Their speechless love so kindly — God ! his needs Are all above my answering — take me Thou." The harvester is pleased who finds a flower Blood-red or golden, in the dusky wheat, THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 323 Rustling against his stooping, but the child Laughs for its beauty, and forgets to glean, Crumbling its leaves with kisses manifold, Till in her pastime, idly curious. She turns it inside out, and finds it black And rough with poisonous blisters. Such a child Was Tlaara, and such a flower, her love. She saw no more the hills of Tlascala Crooking their monstrous bases in and out, To give the light capricious stream its will — Nor saw nor heard the never weary sea, Fretting its way through marl and iron sand To fiery opal and bright chrysophrase : For 'twixt her eyes and all the sweet discourse Nature, our quiet mother, makes for such As wrap their pained brows in her green skirts, Fear, like a black fen, stretched for muddy miles. She only saw Hualco's glorious fate, And in its shadow a poor peasant girl. Pining forlorn. Over all sounds she heard, Traveling across the wild and piny hills. And over many a reach of juniper, Prickly with brier and burr, the voice of war. Kegal with sunbeams, which the journeying days Trenched in their ancient snows, the mountains seemed To mock her low estate ; though when Love's tongue Talked of the self-same splendor once, they stood Serene like prophets, under whose white hairs The lines of victory-seeing thoughts are fixed. Beyond their bright tops great Hualco strained His staring eyes, in one far-reaching look. Fixed on that glittering pinnacle, a throne ; All hope, ail love, all utmost energy. To one determined purpose crucified. So in her pictures Fancy fashioned him ; Nor did she with deceiving colors paint. A nation from its slumbering was roused. And centering to one mortal blow the strength Of all its sinews. On ten thousand shells The strings were stirred,' axes were set to edge ; The while the morning music of the horn Went doubling on the track of Tyranny, And startling up the echoes, that ran wild 324 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Along the trembling hill-tops, in full cry. Kuffled lay Pazcuaro's silver waves Under the storm melodious, and the belt Of black and shaggy pines that Arrio wore, With deadly spears of itzli, bristled bright; For the roused realm was risen to replace The usurped scepter in the kingly hand Of its long exiled but true sovereignty. So ended "the sweet summering of love " — The royal lover of the forest maid Went back as from imprisonment, like him — The wondrous Mexic of the olden time — Changed to the morning star,* henceforth to shine Serenely in the sky of victory. The maiden went again to solitude, To fight alone the conflicts of the heart. And pray that Homeyoca would, in love. Crop the wild thoughts that climbed about a throne, And modulate her dreams to qualities Befitting chaste and sad humility, — But oftener to cry in bitterness. As Totec t from the house of sorrow cried. The blue-eyed spring with all her blowing winds. And green lap brimming o'er with dainty sweets. Wakened no dulcet light about her heart ; Kor nimble dance of waves, at shut of eve. Under the charmed moonlight, nor the groves, With all their leafy arches full of birds, — Not maddened Jurruyo's wild sublimity, When, from his hell of lava tossing high His fiery arms, that redden all the heavens — As, from his forehead, down his beard of pines, Trickle the blood-like flames — could fix her gaze. Or keep her thoughts from wandering on the way The footsteps of her kingly lover went. The goats grew wild, for Tlaara forgot The times of milking ; idle stood the wheel, A loom for spiders ; to the heavy length Of the dark shadow, keeping pace wdth death. Her sighs drew out themselves, and listening low * Tolpicin, the first Mexican king, it was believed, was changed into Venus, the Morning Star, to which a slave was sacrificed on its first appearance in every autumn. — Lord Kingshorough. t Lord Kingshorough, vi. 179. THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 325 She leaned against the faded face of earth, As if its great dumb breast could move with life. The lost wayfaring man, whose scanty lamp In the wild rainy middle of the night Burns sudden out — waits patient till he sees The white-horned Daybreak pierce the cloudy east, Traveling alone and slow, and the wet woods AV^hich from his mottled forehead parted, black. Swing goldenly together. But, alas ! In the white dome of gentle womanhood Love's sunrise knows no fellow. Sweetest heart ! How could she look for comfort ? idols made Ko answer to her praying; and at last. Out of this sorrowful continent of life Her visions failed of resting : mortal love Drew back the hopes which vine-like clomb against The columned splendors of eternity. Forgive her. Thou, whose greatest name is Love, If, with her heaven of ruins coupled against The chasms that divide us from thy throne. She saw imperfectly — saw not at all — For, 'twixt the fartherest reach of human eyes And the eternal brightness round about thee. There lies an unsunned shoal, a blank of gloom. Which no keen continuity of thought Can burn or blast its way through, till the grave Opens its heavy and obstructive valves. Sometimes she plaited berries in her hair. And, sitting by the sea, called on each wave, As it had been her lover, to come up And put its quieting arm around her neck, And hug her close, and kiss her into sleep ; " It is our fault, and not the gods," she said, " If we outstay our pleasures, pining pale In barren isolation, when one step Divides us only from the realm of rest — Is it not so, oh great and friendly sea ? " But the waves put their beaded foreheads down Against the moon, late v/asting in their arms. Now blushing, bashful, for her beauty's growth, And left her waiting on the wild, wet bank. Her meditations all uncomforted. Sometimes a kindly memory would pluck 326 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. A sunbeam from the midday of her love, And grief was awed to silence, and her heart Hushed into pulseless calm, as is the bard What time some grander vision than the rest, Swims, planet-like, along his starry dreams. Oh, what a terrible day for Maxtala Was hovering in the rousing of that host, That, robbed unjustly of its majesty. Cried, like a whelpless lioness, for blood ! As the cencoatli,* with its fiery coils Illumining the darkness, warns aside The step of the unequal traveler, So might the glitter of that hydra's front, Under its bossy wilderness of shields. Have warned the tyrant from the onslaught off. For stripling lovers, maidens all the day Busied themselves with plumes, or, sedulous, Wrought into bracelets gems and precious stones; Some green like emeralds, some divinely white, And some with streaky brown in grounds of gold, With milky pearls, and sea-blue amethysts, All curiously interwoven, meet to please The princely eyes of the discrowned king. Through the green passes of Tlacamama Struck the white f columns of young warriors, Eager to wheel into the battling lines — Armed with the triple-pointed tlalochtli, The maquahuitl, and the heavy bow Strung with the sinews of sea-cow, or lynx ; While stern old men, their gray hairs winding back, With most serene and steady majesty. From helms of tiger's or of serpent's heads. Went forth to death as to a festival. Along Mazatlan's summits, wild and high. The gathered legions hovered like a fleet. Dark in the offing. Ensigns mingled bright, Above the long lines lifted, as sometimes A cloud of scarlet hooded zopilots X Hangs mute along the sky, foretelling storms. * A serpent that in the dark shines like a glow-worm. t When first going to war, 3'oung men were dressed in a simple costume of white. — Claviyero, i. 365. X Before a storm, these birds are often seen flying in vast numbers, high under the loftiest clouds. THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC ALA. 327 Tizatlan's heron, wild and sad, was there, There coiichant lay Tepeticpac's fierce wolf. The bundle of sharp arrows in his paws, With Mexic's dread armorial hard by — The eagle and the tiger, combatant ; While, under the sea-city's golden net, Ocotelolco's green bird, on the rock. In lonely beauty waited for the storm. Quick sweeping like a sea loosed from its bounds. So was Hualco's kingdom repossessed. So was the tyrant Maxtala o'ercome. Oh ! it was piteous when the fight was done. And the moon stood, o'er the disastrous field. In pale and solemn majesty, as one Fresh from the kisses of the dead, to see His harmless corse decked out with all the shows Befitting the fair form of royalty, While all his locks, torn from their net of gems, In bloody tangles hung about his eyes. Blind, but wide glaring, and his unknit hands Clutched at the dust in impotent despair. And he whose hunger-sunken eyes erewhile Burned through the forests, where he wandered once Like a lamenting shadow — was a king ; And the delights and pastimes of a court, The expulsive might of absence, and the pride, Unfolding and dilating, ring by ring. Under the sun of triumph — these, ere long, So ministered to soft forgetfulness. That the low echo of forsaken love Smote on his heart no longer, and the eyes That of his praises gathered half their light, With sorrowful reproaches vexed no more. Cold god, reposing in the northern ice. Whose white arms nightly reach along the heavens ! Search out the stars, malignant, that so oft Have crossed the orbit of divinest bliss. And draw them, with some pale enchantment, down From the good constellations — all their lengths Of shining tresses, making them so fair. Coiling, like dying serpents, as they sink. 'T is not so much premeditated wrong That fills the world with sorrow and dismay, 328 . POEMS BY ALICE GARY. As influences of demons, mischievous, Hurrying impassioned impulses to acts That fast and penance never can undo. This is my theory, and right or wrong, 'T is surely higher pleasure to believe That men are better than they seem, than worse. And he, this prince of whom my story is. Was a good prince, as princes be, and gave. On every day, sweet alms and charities, That made him named of thousands in their prayers ; His reign with deeds of glory was so strewed That they still shine upon us from the past, As emeralds and ivory shine along The sand-track of some perished caravan. Houses of skulls, that ere while all the hills Made ghastly white, he levelled, and, instead, Walled with tazontli, pinnacled with gold; And strong with beams of cedar and of tir,. Along the ruins, sacred temples rose ; * About his throne stood lines of palaces Kissing the clouds, exceeding beautiful With porphyry columns, and lined curiously With that white stone dividing into leaves ; And baths and gardens, and soft-flowing streams, Made all Tezcuco's vale a goodly sight. Schemes pondering, or infirm or feasible. To make his subjects happy, still he dwelt In that unrufiied air that may be peace, But was, nor then, nor ever will be, bliss. And all his people loved him more than feared, Nor looked upon his crown with envious eyes : Shall the small lily, growing in the grass. Be envious of the aloe's dome of flowers. That keeps the blowing winds from its sweet home ? Or shall the soft cenzontli hush its song And pine, in the green shelter of the bough. For that the eagle, silent on the rock. Can dip his plumage in the sun at will? Once, feasting with the lord of Tepechan — A vassal warrior, whose mighty arm Had hewn his way to many victories — * lie dedicated his temples, says Prescott, to the unknown God — the Cause of Causes, THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC A LA. 329 To do him honors, with her ministries, There came a damsel so exceeding fair, That, with the light of her dark eyes withdrawn, A shadow over all his kingdom went ; But in his heart, (for love is prophecy,) He felt that she already was elect The bride of him whose festive guest he was. So, to himself, to justify his thought, He said,* "This old man must not wed this maid, For that the grave will cover him too soon, And so, young beauty be made desolate : And yet, perchance, not absolute for that, (For all the burdening weight of threescore years Lies like a silver garland on his brow,) But that I know he cannot have her love, Or having, could not keep it : that were false To all of Nature's unwarpt impulses ; It is as if a budding bough should blush Out of a sapless trunk ; it cannot be — Else is harsh violence to reason done. And all true fitness sunken from the noon Into the twilight of uncertainty. Can the dull mist, where the swart Autumn hides His wrinkled front and tawny cheek, wind-shorn, Be sprinkled with the orange light that binds Away from her soft lap, o'erbrimmed with flowers, The dew-wet tresses of the virgin year ? Or can the morning, bridegroomed by the sun. Turn to the midnight, and be comforted I So for their larger amplitude of weal, This vagrant fancy — for "t is nothing more — Must not or ever shall be consummate. For this true soldier — ah, a happy thought I — I '11 make an expedition presently ; For now that I bethink me, in the wars His arm might wield a heavy truncheon yet ; 'T were good, I think, he wore his helmet up — A brow so rounded with grave majesty. Would strike a sharper terror to the foe Than all the triple weapons of a host. This strength of his 't were pity not to show. * This carious history, so similar to that of David and Uriah, is related by Prescott. 330 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. He hath no lack of courage, but alas ! He does not know his own supremacy; Aware of it, I '11 even dare be sworn This harmless stratagem were rated right; I '11 make a hint of it in some soft way ; And, for the princess, there may chance to be Some vacancy i' the court — some office slight, Meet for the gracing of her gentle hands. If it so fall — I know not if it will, (I think my women a full complement,) — She shall not want my kingly privilege For any pretty wilfulness she choose To wing the hours and make away the grief That needs must follow the great embassy, (Forced on alone by sharpest exigence,) That takes this old man back into the field. For he will scarcely hope to come alive, I sorely fear, from the encounters fierce And perilous offices of bloody war." When sleep that night came down upon the eyes Of the good prince — for he was good, withal, And did such acts as are immortalized — He saw this famous lord of Tepechan Thrust sidelong in a ditch, his white hair stirred Under the bowlings of a mountain dog. That surfeited upon his shrunken corse ; But the maid came to him in fairer guise — He heard her singing through the palace walls. Her locks down-flowing from a wreath of pearls. This was a dream, and when the king awoke He said 't was strange, indeed 't was passing strange, Nay, quite a miracle, that sleeping thoughts Should take no guise or shape of reasoning That ever hath possessed our waking hours. But balance, rather, on insanity ! If dreams are not the mirrors of the past, They sometimes do forerun realities ; And ere the day, white in the orient then. Folded with striped wings the evening star, The lord of Tepechan had taken his mace. And sadly the fair maiden, in his shield. Was weaving feathers for the field of war. And if the king had any troabling thought THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC A LA. 331 Of the old love, awakened by the new, He said, 'T was pity it had ever been — Unequal loves were never prosperous : Yet it was scarcely love — the chance caprice Of hours of indolence — by Tlaara Doubtless forgotten, for the self-same moons Had filled and faded over her and him ; That woman's heart at best was like the stream Which in its bosom fondly takes the flowers, Sown idly on its margin by the winds, Or palely simple, or of gorgeous pride ; And even if some chance wave of her life Had closely held his image for a while. The tender pallor of her transient grief. Under the summer's golden rustling. Had long flushed back to beauty. But at worst, Say that she loved, and of desertion died ; Why, thousands, perished in the wars, wer^ ne'er With pious tears lamented : and his realm Had right to claim a princess for its queen ; And if long centuries of joyance sprung, And flourished, from one little profitless life, Who would dare call the sacrifice unjust ? And thus he laid the ghost of memory. So like a very truth a lie may seem I think the elect might almost be deceived. Love, that warm passion-flower of the heart, Nursed into bloom and beauty by a breath. Even on the utmost verge of human life Dims the great splendor of eternity. True, some have trodden it beneath their feet, Led by that bright curse, Genius, and have gone On the broad wake of visions wonderful. And seemed, to the dull mortals far below, Unravelling the web of fate, at will. And leaning on their own creative power, Defiant of its beauty : but, alas ! Along the climbing of their wildering way. Many have faltered, fallen — some have died, Still wooing, from across the lapse of years. The roseate blushing of its virgin pride. And feeding sorrow with its faded bloom ; For not the almost-omnipotence of mind 332 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Can from its aching bind the bleeding heart, Or keep at will its mighty sorrow down. Our mortal needs ask mortal ministries, And o'er the lilies in the crown of heaven. Even in ruins, love's earth-growing flower. While we are earthy, showeth eminent. When the calm beating of the pulse of time That keeps right on, nor for our joys or griefs Quickens or flags, had measured years, unblest Or bright, as fate their passage made, Hualco's fair and gentle servitor, Faithless and recreant to the veteran chief. Within the folding arms of royalty Sheltered the blushing of her crowned brows. And Tlaara ! Ah, could they only feel. Who are the ministers of ill to us. That we are hungry while they keep their feasts ; That in our Ijearts the blood is warm and bright. Though our cheeks shrivel, and our feeble steps Crack up the harvestless ridges where we starve ! — For desolate, wronged Tlaara was left Only the wretched change of misery. The imperial triumphs sounded through the hills, With undertones of the perpetual songs Of gayety, and splendor, and delights, Or, right or wrong, that most in palaces Have had dominion from the earliest time ; And she as one doomed, innocent, to death, Fast in the shadows of his columns chained, Saw her brief visions faded to the hues Of fixed and damnable realities. Night had shut up her little day of love With all its leafy whispers ; in her sky The sunset like a wivern winged with fire Had burned the flowery thickets of the clouds And left them black and lonesome, and, like eyes In the wide front of some dead beast, the stars. Filmy and blank, stared on her out of heaven. I said she knew the change of misery, The pain but not the glory of the crew Of rebel angels, whose undying pride Like a bruised serpent towers against their doom, Even while their webbed and flabby wings, once bright, THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 333 Lie wrinkling, flat, on waves of liquid fire. Sometimes she told the imbetraying ghosts Of her dead joys — the story of her life, Portraying, phase by phase, from love to hate : ''The day," she said, " was over: on the hills The parting light was flitting like a ghost; And like a trembling lover eve's sweet star, In the dim leafy reach of the thick woods, Stood waiting for the coming down of night. But it was not the beiauty of the time That thrilled my heart with tempests of such joys As shake the bosom of a god, new-winged. When first in his blue pathway up the skies. He feels the embrace of immortality. A moment's bliss, and then the world was changed — Truth, like a planet striking through the dark, ' Shone clear and cold, and I was what I am, Listening along the wilderness of life For the faint echoes of lost melody. The moonlight gathered itself back from me. And slanted its pale pinions to the dust; The drowsy gust, bedded in luscious blooms. Startled, as at the death-throes of all peace, Down through the darkness moaningly fled off. God, hide from me the time ! for then I knew Hualco's shame of me, a low-born maid. I could, I think, have lifted up my hands. Though bandaged back with grave-clothes, in that hour, To cover my hot forehead from his kiss. And yet, false love ! I loved thee — listening close From the dim hour when twilight's rosy hedge Sprang from the field of sunset, till deep night Swept with her cloud of stars the face of heaven, For the quick music of thy hurrying step. And if, without some cold and sunless cave Thou hadst lain lost and dying, prompted not. My feet had struck that pathway, and I could, With the neglected sunshine of m}^ hair. Thence clasped thee from the hungry jaws of death, And on my heart, as on a wave of light. Have lulled thee to the beauty of soft dreams. " Weak, womanish imaginings, begone ! Let the poor-spirited children of despair 334 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Hang on the sepulchre of buried hope The liery garlands of their love-lorn songs. Though such gift turned on its pearly hinge Sweet Mercy's gate, I would not so debase me. Shut out from heaven and all the blessed saints, I, from the arch-fiend's wing, as from a star, Would gather yet some splendor to my brows, And tread the darkness with a step of pride. For what is love ? a pretty transiency. An unsubstantial cheat, which for a while Makes glad the commonest way, but like the dew Which sunbeams reach and take from us, it fades - Our very smiles do dry and wither it. What is 't to leave the washing of my cheeks Out of its flower-cups, and go mateless on Across the ages to eternity ? Farewell, my prince, my king, a last farewell ! My love is all for fame, and from this hour Against my bosom with a fonder clasp Than ever given to thee, I treasure it. Thy queen is fair — I give thee joy of her, And in the shadow of thy royal state Stoop low my knee to say I do not hate her ; She has no measure in herself wherewith To gauge my nature : she is powerless To lift her littleness into my scorn ; Xo thought of hers outreaches a plume's length — If any time I cross or tread on her, 'T is that I see her not more than the worm Knotting itself for anger at my feet — My feet, now planted on the burnt, bare rocks, Under whose bloodless ribs the river of death Runs black with mortal sorrow. Vex me not With your low love ; my heart is mated with The steadfast splendor of the world of fame. What care have I for daisies or for dew. The quail's wild whistle or the robin's song, Or childhood's prattlings, sweeter though they be Than rainy meadows, blue with violets ? The' walls built firm against the massy heights That stay me up so well, are seamed with gold, Sparkling like broken granite, and green stalks Run up the unfrequent paths, lifting their blooms THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC A LA. 335 Into the long still sunshine, where no change Shall ever earth them up. It is in vain Ye tempt me from my steady footing back To the dim level of mortality. What ! think you I would leave this pain-bought place For Love's soft beckoning ? Nay, ye know me not. Though the wild stormy North with fretful wings Flew at my fastness till it toppled hard Against hell's hollow bosom, even then Rocked like the cradle of a baby-god, I would not yield my glory a hair's breadth. But gathering courage like a mantle up. Would smile betwixt the harmless thunderbolts." So, with a thousand idle vagaries. She cooled the lire, slow-burning out her life ; And when the fit was gone, there came remorse, And she would say, " Forgive me, piteous gods ! I had a maddening fever in my brain That made me turn the horny point of hate Which should have been bent sharpest on myself, Against the heart of my sweet lord, the king. Nay, wherefore should I ask to be forgiven ? A maniac's bitter raving is not prayer — That is a hope, concentrate and sincere. That reaches up to heaven ; words that are lipt By the anointed priesthood, day by day, May need more to be prayed for than the curse Of a profane, unmeditative mood. " Mine ! he is all mine ! she may bear his name. Or in the golden shadows of his crown Strut a brief day ; more, call herself his wife, If that a sound can give her any joy ; But if, from the close foldings of my heart, She can undo his love and make it hers. And me forgotten — then she has more skill Than any woman here in Tlascala. In some green leafy closet of the woods I will go fast, till that the maiden moon, Walking serene above her worshippers. With some cold angry shaft shall strike me dead. My cunning soul shall free my body yet From these wild wasting pains, and from the scorn Of that bad woman whose most wicked wiles 336 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Have wronged the excellent king, and me have wronged. But that is nothing : why should I have said That I had any harms ? they all are his. Else will I go into some ngly cave Where vipers lodge, and choke them till they sting And make me but a spirit. I will build A palace with a window toward the earth, And train white flowers — my lord loves best white flowers — And if there be a language more divine Than love knows here, I '11 learn it, though it take Half the long ages of eternity." There came into the groves of Tlascala An old man from the wars, where he had worn Commands and victories, and won such fame That with the names of gods his, intertwined, Was seen in temples, yet by some great pain So bowed, that even the basest jjitied him ; And he, to soothe her grief with other grief, Eecited all the story of his life : How a king's hands unlocked from his gray hairs The clasped arms of tenderness, and struck His bright hopes into ruins, so that life Had lingered on, a sorrowful lament, Waking no piteous echo but the grave's. " But thou," he said, " fair maiden, thou and I — Complainings ill befit the sunset time That folds earth's shadow, like a poison flower, And leaves life's last waves brokenly along The unknown borders of eternity. 'T is an extremity that warns us back From staggering on, alas ! we know not what. With hatred's damning seal upon our souls. How shall we ask for mercy ? Shall the gods Forgive the unforgiving ? or sweet Peace The red complexion of the scorner's cheek Fold to her quiet bosom ? Nay, my child, We have not in the world an enemy Bad as that pride, which sets its devil strength. Against the grave, the gods, and everything. Then she who was so meekly calm before, Half rising out of death, as if that plea Tightened the coil of woe about her heart, THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 337 Answered, " What demon comes to torture me ? Forgive ! The word sounds well enough, in sooth ; But say it to the tigress, when she licks Their streaky beauty from the smoking blood That drenches her dead cubs ; and will she fawn, And her fierce eyes grow meekly sorrowful, And her dilated nostril in the dust Cower humbly at your feet ? I tell you, no ! — That is a word for injury to use In penitent supplication ; not for her, Whose heartstrings quiver in the torturer's hand. I know no use for it ; nor gods nor men. Require of us forgiveness of a foe Till his true grief give warranty to us That the forgiven may be trusted too. Dying ! thou sayest I 'm dying ! yes, 't is true ! I feel the tide outflowing! — and for this Shall I in womanish weakness falter out, * See, piteous gods ! how I forgive this man. And lovingly kiss his murderous hand, withal, And so, sweet Homeyoca, rest my soul ! ' Urge me no longer ! in the close, cold grave The heart is done with aching, and the eyes Are troubled with love's changes never more. The palace splendors cannot reach me there, Nor pipes nor dances wake my heavy sleep — The dead are safe. Look, friend, is that the day Breaking so white along the cloudy east ? Not since the fading of my lovelit dream Have I beheld a light so heavenly. Nature seems all astir ; the tree-tops move As with birds going through them, and the dews Hang burning, lamp-like, thick among the leaves All the long year past I have risen betimes. For sake of morning purples and rich heaps Of red-brown broideries — shaping in my thought The gorgeous chamber of a queen, the while I penned my goats for milking; but till now The sun streaks have run glistering round the rocks, Or doubled up the clouds like snakes, dislodged. Once, I remember, when I staid, alone. Hunting along the woods — my playfellows Gone homeward, dragging cherry -boughs and grapes — 338 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. A brooding splendor, large about me shone, As if the queen moon met me in my way, And in her white hands held me for an hour. That night my mossy bed was covered bright With skins of ounces ; drowsing into sleep, I heard the simples simmering at the fire ; Heard my scared housemates whispering each to each That I was marked and singled out for harm. Like buds that sprout together on one bough. Brightening one window, so we grew and bloomed — I and those merry children ; some are gone To the last refuge — some contented stay Along the valleys where the hedgerows keep The summer grass bright longest. When we played On hill or meadow, oft I left the sports To climb the rough bare sea-cliffs ; when we sung I mocked the screaming eagle ; when we sought Flowers for our pastimes, I was sure to bring The brightest and most deadly — 't was the bent Of my audacious nature. Like the dove. That foolish sits upon the serpent's eggs, Nor, till she feels beneath her pretty wings The stirring of the cold white-bellied brood, Flies to the shelter of her proper home, So has it been with me ; soft, I untied The hands that set the pitfall. I am down, Yet proud Hualco, girt in armor, fears To leap into the dark with me, and take The embrace of my weak arms. Erect and free He dare not mock me, fallen and in bonds ; For who would tempt the hungry lioness With the fresh look of blood ? Though I were dead, If he were near, my stagnant life would stir, And I would close upon immortal power To crack the close grave open and come up. To scare him whiter than his marriage bed- It cannot be, if justice be alive. That he shall hover, ghoul-like, round my corse, And blight the simple flowers I change into; It cannot be that the great lidless eye Of Truth will never stare into his heart. And search its sinful secrets, withering off The leprous scales of perjury wherein THE MAIDEN OF TLASCALA. 339 They are peeled up. " Ye hated, monstrous things, Whose trade is torment, in your troughs of fire Kock idly, drawing back your ugly heads Into their proper caverns : no sharp tooth Wounds like the stinging of a conscience roused ! Leave him to that : he cannot 'scape it long. I pray no mercy ; beyond mortal strength Men may be tempted — I am human, too. If, thirsting in a desert, one draw near With golden cups of water in his hands, How hardly do we fill our mouths with dust ; If fever parch us, pleasant is the dew Of kisses dropping cold against the cheek ; And brows like mine that the wild rains have wet. Take kindly to the shelter of a crown. Plead with me as you will : since love is lost, I have small care for any blackest storm That e'er may mock my gray unhonored hairs. Life's unlinked chains, in the quick opening grave. May rust together — this is all my hope. I scorn thee not, old man ! no haunting ghost. Born of the darkness of love's perjury, Crosses the white tent of thy dreaming now ; And if thy palsy-shaken years, or death, Move thee, in solacing confessional, To register forgiveness of all foes — I speak not now, my friend, to keep thee back. But for myself — I tell thee, I have loved, More than I have the gods, this faithless king, And feeling that for this my doom was sealed. Have 1 in sorrow cried unto the saved, ' From the high walls of Mercy lean sometimes. And, parting the thick clouds that roof the lost. Give me the comfort of some blessed sign That tells me he is happy.' That is passed ! Pray, if thou wilt — my lips are dumb of prayer.'* Struck with the lovely ruin, ebbing life Sent for a moment its live currents back, Swelling his shrunken veins to knotty blue; And a faint hope illumined his old eyes. As if the sea of anguish lost a w^ave ; And kneeling humbly at her feet, he said — 340 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. " Ye gods ! reach lovingly across the grave To the great sorrow of this death-winged prayer, And for its sake about this sweet soul wrap Blest immortality ! be piteous, Heaven, For she is murdered by inconstancy ! Bend softly low, and hear her cruel wrongs Plead for her who will plead not for herself. " I had a wound erewhile, and now, alas ! It bleeds afresh to see her die so proud ; Yet doth she make pride beautiful, and lies Drowsing to death in its majestic light, Like a bee sleeping in a golden flower. The hot salt waters brim up to my eyes. To think of her, so fit for life's delights. Buried down low in the brown heavy earth, Where the rude beast may tread and nettles grow I have seen death in many a fearful form, For I have been a soldier all my life ; Have pillowed on my breast a thousand times Some comrade in his last extremity; But now my heart, unused to such a strait, Plays the weak woman with me. • Fighting once In the thick front of battle, I beheld Oar grim foe open wide his red-leaved book ; I felt his cold hand touch me ; saw him fix His filmy eyes and write, I thought, my name; Yet I was calm, and laying down my lance. Sought to embrace him as a soldier should. I was young then, and fair luxuriant locks Hung thick about my brows ; life had no chance I feared to combat with a single hand ; Now I am better s^Dared — old and unfit For wars or gamesome pastimes — but have lost The sweet grace of a brave surrendering. Oh, I have scarce a minute more to live ; I feel the breaking up of human scenes ; Time, block your swiftly moving wheels, I pray, And make delay, for pity ; Evening, keep Your blushing cheek under the sun awhile. And give my gray hairs one repentant hour ! My vision cannot fix you, my sweet child ; Undo my helm, and lay it with my bow — Nay — 't is no matter — lay it anywhere. THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC ALA. 341 So, sit and sing for me some mournful song, And I will grow immortal, in the dream That you are that most fair and gentle maid Who tended once the chief of Tepechan." I know not if 't is true, they often say Of this intenser action of the mind. That it is madness : she of whom I sing, Lost, loving Tlaara, in realms apart From joy or sorrow, made herself a world, Nor sight she saw nor sound she heard they knew Who followed, pitying, all her wayward steps, Or added wonder at her strange wild words. One sunny summer day in Tlascala, Midway from its warm fields to where its peak, That slept in songs eternal, calmly shone. She from a mountain gazed, as set the sun, Down on the mightiest and the loveliest land In history seen or in prophetic dreams. But not Tezcuco Chalco, Xalcotan, Upon whose waves gay moved the fishers' boats, Nor towers, nor temples, nor fair palaces. Nor groves that rose in green magnificence. One glance could win from her far-looking eyes. In natural music died the beautiful day. Grew black the bases of the terraced hills. And their mid regions, of a slumberous blue, Faded to roseate silver toward the skies. Along whose even field the horned moon Walked, turning golden furrows on the clouds. At last was set the night's most dark eclipse. And yet she saw, or seemed to see arise Tezcuco's capital, within whose walls What maddening scenes her jealous fancy drew ! The midnight passed, and lifting up her eyes, From that long vigil, she beheld afar The awful burning of volcanic fires, Which seemed as if had fled ten thousand stars From all their orbits, leaving heaven in gloom. Save where they crashed in terrible fire alone. Crashed in tumultuous rage ; as if each one. Fearful of Night, claimed the most central heats. She saw unmoved, for now was left no more Or fear or hope — the ultimate secret read 342 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. Of that too common but dread history. She only said, how cahnly ! " The slim reed That grows beside the most untraveled road, With its wild blossoms yet may bless the eyes Of some chance pilgrim ; over the dead tree Mosses run bright together ; in the hedge The prickles of the thistle's bluish leaves Hold all day, spike-like, shining globes of dew ; Even from the stonyest crevice, some stray thorn May crook its knotty body toward the sun, And give the ant-hill shelter, but my death Will desolate no homely spot of earth. No eyes, when I am gone, will seek the ground ; No voice will falter, when the flowers come up — * If she were only with us ! such a time We were so blest together.' I would leave (My frailty and my follies all forgot) A pleasant memory somewhere. As we look With pining eyes upon the faded year. Forgetful of the vexing winds, that took The green tops of the woods down ; picking bare The limbs of shining berries and gay leaves — So would I leave some friend to think of me. The wild bird, when its mate dies, stays for grief, Sad, under lonesome briers ; but, mateless, I Fall like a pillar of the desert dust. Struck from its barren drifting in the waste — No twig left wilting, with its root unearthed. White bleaching in the sun — no insect's wing, Trembling, uncertain for its lighting, lost. Like to the star that in night's black abysm Trails itself out in light, the human heart Wastes all its life in love — that sacrifice The consummation of diviner bliss Than he can feel, who, looking from a dream Sees palpable, his soul's unchambered thoughts Moving along the ages, calm and bright. Like mighty wings, spread level. It is well Earth's fair things fade so soon, else for their sake Mortals would slip from their eternity And pleased, go downward from the hills of heaven, Hurtled to death like beasts ; nay, even they, Decked for the shambles, impotently shake THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC ALA. 343 The flowers about their foreheads — madly wise. Oh, Love, thou art almost omnipotent! Thy beauty, more than faith or hope, at last, Lights the black offing of the noiseless sea. 'T is hard to leave thy sweetest company And turn our steps into the dark, alone: If he were waiting for me I could pass Death and the grave — yea, hell itself, unharmed. In the gray branches of the starlit oaks, I hear the heavy murmurs of the winds, Like the low plaints of evil spirits, held By drear enchantments from their demon mates. Another night-time, and I shall have found A refuge from their mournful prophecies." Then, as if seeing forms none else could see, With deepening melancholy in each word. She said, "Come near, and from my forehead smooth These long and heavy tresses, still as bright As when their wave of beauty bathed the hand That unto death betrayed me. Nay, 't is well ! I pray you do not weep ; no other fate Were half so fitting for me. On the grave Light, from the open gate of Peace, is laid. And Faith leans yearningly away to heaven ; But life hath glooms wherein no light may come. There, now I think I have no further need — For unto all, at last, there comes a time When no sweet care can do us any good ! Not in my life that I remember of. Could my neglect have injured any one, And if I have, by ray officious love. Thrown harmful shadows in the way of some, Be piteous to my natural weaknesses — I never shall offend you any more ! " And now most melancholy messenger. Touch mine eyes gently with Sleep's heavy dew ; I have no wish to struggle from thy arms, Nor is there any hand would hold me back. The night is very dismal, yet I see. Over yon hill, one bright and steady star Divide the darkness with its fiery spear, And sprinkle glory on the lap of earth. And the winds take the sounds of lullabies. 344 POEMS BY ALICE CARY. Fretf al of present fortune are we all, Still to be blest to-morrow ; through the boughs Murmurous and cool with shadows, we reach out Our naked arnis, and when the noontide heat Consumes us, talk of chance, and fate. Even from the lap of Love we lean away- Like a sick child from a kind nurse's arms, And petulantly tease for any toy A hand-breadth out of reach ; and from the way Where hedge and harvest blend, irregular, Their bordering of green and gold, we turn And climb up ledges rough and verdureless. And when our feet, through weariness and toil. Have gained the heights that showed so brightly well, Our blind and dizzied vision sees, too late. The forks of thickets running in and out Betwixt their jagged bases, and glad springs, Wooing the silence with a silver tongue. And then our feeble hands let slip the staff. That helpt our fruitless journej^ and our cheeks Shrivel from smiles and roses ; so our sun Goes clouded down, and to the young bold race. Close treading in our footsteps, we are dust. Thus ends the last delusion ; well — 't is well." A moment, and as some rough wind that sweeps The sunshine from the summer, o'er her face Came the chill shadow, and her grief was done. Maidens, whose kindling blushes softly burn Through nut-brown locks, or golden, garlanded. Bright for the bridal, take with gentlest hands, Out of your Eden, any simple flowers. And cover her pale corse from cruel scorn, Who, claiming in your joy no sisterhood. Took in her arms the darkness which is peace ; And that the bright-winged ministers of God Shall, when she wakes in beauty out of dust, Make kindly restoration, pray sometimes. And when that she was dead and in her grave, A blaming and a mourning melancholy. Sweetly commending all her buried grace. Darkened the pleasant chambers of the king, Till in the ceremony of his prayers. Often he stopt, for " amen " crying out, THE MAIDEN OF TLA SC A LA. 345 •' Oh, Tiaara ! best, gentlest Tlaiira ! " Yet pain had still vicissitudes of peace. Until Remorse, with lean and famished lips. Hung sucking at his heart ; then came Despair, And, from his greatness sorrowfully bowed — Like to the feathered serpent,* that of old Went writhing down the blue air, weak and bruised, To hide beneath the sea the emerald rings Erewhile uncoiled along the level heavens — Went he from splendor to the deeps of woe. No white dove, rustling back the darkness, came, Raining out lovely music from its wings Upon his troubled soul, as once there came To Colhua's mountain children; he was changed — Not in his princely presence ; not like him. Who, fasting in the mount of penitence. Fell in temptation, and was so transformed To a black scorpion ; but his youth of heart Dropt off, as from the girdled sapling drops The unripe fruitage ; hope was done with him. With calm, deliberative eyes, he looked Upon the kingdoms, parceled at his will; Over his harvests saw the sun go down. As though his rising on the morrow brought The issue of a battle ; as one lost, Who, by the tracks of beasts w^ould find his way To human habitations, so he strayed Farther and farther from the rest he sought. From the sweet altar where the lamp of love Burned through the temple's twilight, his sad steps Thenceforward turned aside, and entered in That dreadful fane, reared sacredly to him Of the four arrows and blue twisted club. Whose waist is girdled with a golden snake, While round his neck a collar of human hearts Hangs in dread token of his murderous trade. The green-robed goddess of the fiery wand That on the manta's fleeces rides at night Across the sea-waves, beckoned him sometimes, And he would fain have gone, but that a hand Like that which she of Katelolco held Back from the river of Death what time she heard * Quetzalcoatl, the god of air. 346 POEMS BY ALICE GARY. The dead bones making prophecies of war, Still held him among mortals ; but he saw, Lovely as life and habited in snow No youth upon whose forehead shone the cross, Such as to that pale sleeper gave the power To lift the cold stone of her sepulchre And bear her mournful warning to the world. For his soul's peace he built a rocky bower And dwelt in banishment perpetual ; Wronging his marriage-bed, for solitude, Uncomforting and barren. When the morn, Planting carnations in the hilly east, Peeped smiling o'er the shoulder of the day, He set his joined hands before his eyes, Sighing as one who sees, or thinks he sees, The likeness of a friend, untimely dead. Nightly he watched the great unstable sea Kneel on the brown bare sand and lay his face In the green lap of Earth — his paramour — And sobbing, kiss her to forgiving terms. Then straightway, cruel and incontinent, Go from her — tracking after the white moon ; Music constrained its sweetest melodies To please his lonesome listening — all in vain; Beauty grew hateful, and the voice of love, Shrill as the sullen bickering of the storm. Close-neighboring his rocky prison-house. Under the vaulted ceiling of a tower. Bright with all fragrant woods and shining stones, Dwelt priests, in the dim incense, whose clay pipes And rosy jangling shells, mixing with hymns. Told to their melancholy king what times To give his homage to the Invisible. But from the darkening wake of his lost love, The wild and desolate echoes evermore Went crying to the pitying arms of God ; And the crushed strings of his complaining lyre Under the kissing hands of poesy Thrilled never with such sweetness, as erewhile. Beneath the bloomy boughs of Tlascala. PHCEBE GARY PHCEBE GARY POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. 3i*iO<^ A STORY. While silently our vessel glides, To-night, along the Adrian seas, And while the lightly-heaving tides Are scarcely rippled by the breeze — Thon, who, with cheek of beauty pale, Seem'st o'er some hidden grief to pine, If thou wilt listen to a tale Of sorrow, it may lighten thine. 'T was told me, sadly choked with tears ; My eyes, it may be, too, were wet ; For, through the shadowy lapse of years. My memory keeps the record yet. And he who told it long ago, Though scarcely passed his manhood's prime, He seemed as one whose heart with woe Was seared and blighted ere its time. And as he told his story o'er. Long vanished years came back to me ; For he had crossed my path before, Upon the land and on the sea. When first by chance I saw his form, 'T was on the raging waves at night. And if at all he saw the storm, He recked not of its angry might. For while the dark and troubled skies Rung with accents of despair. He never raised his tearful eyes, Nor lifted up his voice in prayer. Once, thirsting for the cooling well. Beneath a fierce and burning sun, 349 350 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. And listening to the camel's bell, That music of the desert lone, We reached a spot whose fountain made An Eden in that barren land ; And there, beneath the palm-tree's shade, We saw the lonely stranger stand. And once, when twilight closed the flowers, I marked him on dark Jura's steep. And twice amid thy sacred bowers, Gethsemane, I saw him weep. But when I saw the mourner last. And heard the story of his woes, 'T was where the solemn cypress cast Its shadow o'er man's last repose. The sun had faded from the sky. With all his bright and glowing bars, And solemn clouds were gliding by, In spectral silence o'er the stars. And there, beside a grassy mound. In agony for words too deep. And eyes bent sadly on the ground, I saw him clasp his hands and weep. Though I had seen him on the sea Unmoved, when all beside were pale, And weeping in Gethsemane, I never asked nor knew his tale. But now, beside the tomb, at last. By kindly looks and words, I sought To learn the story of the past. And win him from his troubled thought. With lips all breathlessly apart. He listened to each soothing word ; The chord was touched within his heart, — The long untroubled fount was stirred. " Companioned only by the dead. So many years I 've lived alone, I hardly thought," he sadly said, " To hear again a pitying tone. But, stranger, friend, thy words are kind. And since thou fain wouldst learn my grief;, It may be that my heart will find, A STORY. 351 In utterance of its woes, relief. Life's brightest scenes will I recall, And those where shade and sunshine blend, And, if my lips can speak it all, I '11 tell it even to the end. My childhood ! it were more than vain To tell thee that was glad as fleet ; While innocence and youth remain, Thou knowest that life's cup is sweet. ^' But when the soul of manhood beamed, In after years, upon my brow, — (I know how darkly it is seamed With scars of guilt and sorrow now), — When, with the summer stars above, And dew-drops shining in the vale, I told the story of my love To one who did not scorn the tale ; And when, in happiness and pride, Such as I never knew before, I bore her to my home a bride. The measure of my bliss ran o'er. Oh, in that bower of Eden blest, I fain would linger with my song ; It irks me so to tell the rest — The serpent did not spare it long. " It was the eve of such a day As on creation dawned of old. And all along the heavenly way The stars had set their lamps of gold. That night I stood amid the throng Where banquet flowers were sweetly strown, Where wine was poured with mirth and song, And where the smile of beauty shone. When lost in pleasure's maze, and when My heart to reason's voice was steeled, I tasted of the w^ixe-cup, then — I tasted, and my doom was sealed ! That night the moments passed more fleet Than with my bride upon the hills ; That night I drank a draught more sweet Than water from the living rills. 352 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. It is a harder task to win Tlie feet, at lirst, from right astray ; Yet if but once we yield to sin, How easy is the downward way! Oh, if the spirit can be won In evil ways to enter in, That first false step may lead us on Through all the labyrinths of sin : And I resisted not the power That drew me first towards the bowl, While firmer every day and hour The chains were fastened in my soul. I saw hope's sunny fountain fail In her young heart who loved me so, As day by day, her cheek grew pale With vigils and with tears of woe. " Oh, if a kind and pitying word. If tones so sweet as thine have been, My erring spirit could have heard. They might have saved me, even then. But no ; they named with scorn my name. And viewed me with reproachful eyes ; For all who saw my guilt and shame But looked upon me to despise. And so I left my home and hearth. For haunts of wickedness and sin. And sought, in wine and stronger mirth. To hush the voice of God within. I have no record in my heart Of how my days and weeks went by, Save shadowy images that start Like spectres still before mine eye. As something indistinct and dim Of sable hearse and funeral pall. Of trailing robes and mournful hymn. My memory keeps — and that is all ! But when, as from a horrid dream, I woke, disturbed by nameless fears, I sought beside the mountain stream My home so dear in earlier years. 'T was desolate — I called my bride, And listened, but no answer came ; A STORY. 353 I made the hills and valleys wide Re-echo vainly with her name ! And when I heard a step draw near, And met a stranger's wondering gaze, I asked, in tones of doubt and. fear, For that sweet friend of earlier days And then I followed where he led ; And as he left that singing stream, I glided near him with a tread. Like guilty spirits in a dream : He brought me to this quiet ground, The last repose of woe and care. And, pointing to that grassy mound ; He told me that my bride was there ! "I've been, for hopeless years since then, A wanderer on the land and sea. And little loved the homes of men, Or in their busy haunts to be ; And should not now have turned to tread This darkest scene of all my woes. But something in my heart has said My life is hastening to its close. And now I have no wish below, And no request for man to keep. If thou, who know'st my tale of woe. Wilt lay me by my bride to sleep." He paused, and, blinded by his tears. Bowed down with sorrow dark and deep, The hoarded agony of years Broke forth, and then he ceased to weep ; But when he raised his eyes again, I saw, what was unseen till now. That death, in characters too plain, Was written on that pallid brow. Three little days ; and then we laid That wreck of manhood and of pride Beneath the gloomy cypress shade, To slumber with his stricken bride. 354 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. THE LOVERS. Thou marvellest why so oft her eyes Fill with the heavy dew of tears — Have I not told thee that there lies A shadow darkly on her years ? Life was to her one sunny whole, Made up of visions fancy wove, Till that the waters of her soul Were troubled by the touch of love. I knew when first the sudden pause Upon her spirit's sunshine fell : Alas ! I little guessed the cause, 'T was hidden in her heart so well. Our lives since early infancy Had flowed as rills together flow. And now to hide her thought from me Was bitterer than to tell its woe. One night, when clouds with anguish black A tempest in her bosom woke, She crushed the bitter tear-drops back, And told me that her heart was broke ! I learned it when the autumn hours With wailing winds around us sighed — 'T was summer when her love's young flowers Burst into glorious life and died : No — now I can remember well, 'T was the soft month of sun and shower ; A thousand times I 've heard her tell The season, and the very hour : For now, whene'er the tear-drops start, As if to ease its throbbing pain, She leans her head upon my heart And tells the very tale again. 'T is something of a moon, that beamed Upon her weak and trembling form. And one beside, on whom she leaned. That scarce had stronger heart or arm — Of souls united there until Death the last ties of life shall part. THE LOVERS. 355 And a fond kiss whose rapturous thrill Still vibrates softly in her heart. It is an era strange, yet sweet, Which every woman's thought has known, When first her young heart learns to beat To the soft music of a tone ; That era when she first begins To know what love alone can teach. That there are hidden depths within Which friendship never yet could reach : And all earth has of bitter woe Is light beside her hopeless doom Who sees love's first sweet star below Fade slowly till it sets in gloom. There may be heavier grief to move The heart that mourns an idol dead, But one who weeps a living love Has surely little left to dread. I cannot tell why love so true As theirs should only end in gloom ; Some mystery that I never knew Was woven darkly with their doom. I only know their dream was vain, And that they woke to find it past. And when by chance they met again, It was not as they parted last. His was not faith that lightly dies, For truth and love as clearly shone In the blue heaven of his soft eyes, As the dark midnight of her own: And therefore Heaven alone can tell What are his living visions now ; But hers — the eye can read too well The language written on her brow. In the soft twilight, dim and sweet, Once watching by the lattice pane. She listened for his coming feet. For whom she never looked in vain : Then hope shone brightly on her brow, That had not learned its after fears — 356 POEMS BY PHOEBE GARY. Alas ! she cannot sit there now, But that her dark eyes fill with tears ! And every woodland pathway dim, And bower of roses cool and sweet, That speak of vanished days and him, Are spots forbidden to her feet. No thought within her bosom stirs, But wakes some feeling dark and dread God keep thee from a doom like hers — Of living when the hopes are dead ! OUE HOMESTEAD.* Our old brown homestead reared its walls, From the way-side dust aloof, Where the apple-boughs could almost cast Their fruitage on its roof : And the cherry-tree so near it grew, That when awake I Ve lain, In the lonesome nights, I 've heard the limbs, As they creaked against the pane : And those orchard trees, those orchard trees I I 've seen my little brothers rocked In their tops by the summer breeze. The sweet-brier under the window-sill, AVhich the early birds made glad. And the damask rose by the garden fence, Were all the flowers we had. I 've looked at many a flower since then. Exotics rich and rare. That to other eyes were lovelier, But not to me so fair ; those roses bright, those roses bright ! I have twined them in my sister's locks. That are hid in the dust from sight ! We had a well, a deep old well, Where the spring was never dry, * Reprinted in " Poems and Parodies." THE FOLLOWERS OF CHRIST. 357 And the cool drops down from the mossy stones Were falling constantly : And there never was water half so sweet As that in my little cup, Drawn up to the curb by the rude old sweep, Which my father's hand set up ; And that deep old well, that deep old well ! I remember yet the plashing sound Of the bucket as it fell. Our homestead had an ample hearth, Where at night we loved to meet ; There my mother's voice was always kind, And her smile was always sweet ; And there I 've sat on my father's knee. And watched his thoughtful brow, With my childish hand in his raven hair, — That hair is silver now ! But that broad hearth's light, that broad hearth's light ! And my father's look, and my mother's smile, — They are in my heart to-night. THE FOLLOWERS OF CHRIST. W^HAT were thy teachings ? Thou who hadst not where In all this weary earth to lay thy head ; Thou who wert made the sins of men to bear, And break with publicans thy daily bread ! Tarning from Nazareth, the despised, aside. And dwelling in the cities by the sea. What were thy words to those who sat and dried Their nets upon the rocks of Galilee ? Didst thou not teach thy followers here below, Patience, long-suffering, charity, and love; To be forgiving, and to anger slow, And perfect, like our blessed Lord above ? And who were they, the called and chosen then. Through all the world, teaching thy truth, to go ? 358 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Were they the rulers, and the chiefest men, The teachers in the synagogue? Not so! Makers of tents, and fishers by the sea, These only left their all to follow thee. And even of the twelve whom thou didst name Apostles of thy holy word to be, One was a devil ; and the one who came With loudest boasts of faith and constancy, He was the first thy warning who forgot, And said, with curses, that he knew thee not ! Yet were there some who in thy sorrows were To thee even as a brother and a friend, And women, seeking out the sepulchre. Were true and faithful even to the end : And some there were who kept the living faith Through persecution even unto death. But, Saviour, since that dark and awful day When the dread temple's veil was rent in twain, And while the noontide brightness fled away, The gaping earth gave up her dead again ; Tracing the many generations down. Who have professed to love thy holy ways. Through the long centuries of the world's renown. And through the terrors of her darker days — Where are thy followers, and what deeds of love Their deep devotion to thy precepts prove ? Turn to the time when o'er the green hills came Peter the Hermit from the cloister's gloom, Telling his followers in the Saviour's name To arm and battle for the sacred tomb; Not with the Christian armor — perfect faith, And love which purifies the soul from dross — But holding in one hand the sword of death, And in the other lifting up the cross. He roused the sleeping nations up to feel All the blind ardor of unholy zeal ! With the bright banner of the cross unfurled. And chanting sacred hymns, they marched, and yet THE FOLLOWERS OF CHRIST. 359 They made a pandemonium of the world, More dark than that where fallen angels met : The singing of their bugles could not drown The bitter curses of the hunted down ! Richard, the lion-hearted, brave in war, Tancred, and Godfrey, of the fearless band. Though earthly fame had spread their names afar. What were they but the scourges of the land ? And worse than these were men, whose touch would be Pollution, vowed to lives of sanctity ! And in thy name did men in other days Construct the Inquisition's gloomy cell, And kindle persecution to a blaze, Likest of all things to the fires of hell ! Kidley and Latimer — I hear their song In calling up each martyr's glorious name. And Cranmer, with the praises on his tongue When his red hand dropped down amid the flame ! Merciful God ! and have these things been done, And in the name of thy most holy Son ? Turning from other lands grown old in crime. To this, where Freedom's root is deeply set, Surely no stain upon its folds sublime ^ Dims the escutcheon of our glory yet ? Hush ! came there no sound upon the air Like captives moaning from their native shore — Woman's deep wail of passionate despair For home and kindred seen on earth no more ! Yes, standing in the market-place, I see Our weaker brethren coldly bought and sold. To be in hopeless, dull captivity, Driven forth to toil like cattle from the fold. And hark ! the lash, and the despairing cry Of the strong man in perilous agony ! And near me I can hear the heavy sound Of the dull hammer borne upon the air: Is a new city rising from the ground ? What hath the artisan constructed there ? 360 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. 'T is not a palace, nor an humble shed ; 'T is not a holy temple reared by hands : No! — lifting up its dark and bloody head Eight in the face of Heaven, the scaffold stands ; And men, regardless of " Thou shalt not kill," That plainest lesson in the Book of Light, Even from the very altars tell us still That evil sanctioned by the law is right ! And preach in tones of eloquence sublime, To teach mankind that murder is not crime I And is there nothing to redeem mankind ? No heart that keeps the love of God within ? Is the whole world degraded, weak, and blind, And darkened by the leprous scales of sin ? No, we will hope that some in meekness sweet, Still sit, with trusting Mary, at thy feet. For there are men of God, who faithful stand On the far ramparts of our Zion's wall, Planting the cross of Jesus in some land That never listened to salvation's call. J^nd there are some, led by philanthropy, Men of the feeling heart and daring mind, Who fain would set the hopeless captive free. And raise the weak and fallen of mankind. And there are many in life's humblest way, Who tread like angels on a path of light, Who warn the sinful when they go astray. And point the erring to the way of right ; And the meek beauty of such lives will teach More than the eloquence of man can preach. And, blessed Saviour ! by thy life of trial. And by thy death, to free the world from sin, And by the hope that man, though weak and vile, Hath something of divinity within — Still will we trust, though sin and crime be met, To see thy holy precepts triumph yet ! SONNETS. 361 SONNETS. I. Down in the cold and noiseless wave of death, Oh, pure and beautiful lost one that thou art, Clasping the anchor of eternal faith Closer and closer to thy trusting heart — Didst thou fade from us, while our tearful eyes, Here on the shore of sad mortality, Gazed sorrowing on that form that ne'er shall rise Till sounds the music of eternity. Then shalt thou take the Saviour's hand in thine, Not with his faith who held it falteringly. But in the trustfulness of love divine, And with him walk the waters of the sea; Till, casting anchor, all thy toils shall cease In the still haven of eternal peace. II. The beautiful measure of thy trusting love Survives the answering faith it knew of old ; Over the heart thy pleadings cannot move. Slowly but sure the closing wave hath rolled : The unpitying eyes thou meet'st burn not more bright, Though now thy lips with eloquent fervor speak, And all thy passionate kisses may not light The crimson fires in the unchanging cheek. How shall I give thee solace ? Had she died. With love's sweet sunlight shining in her eyes, Then might'st thou, casting selfish grief aside, Patiently wait reunion in the skies : For better than the living faith estranged. The love that goes down to the dead unchanged. III. Look once again ! yet mourn in holy trust. Near the still Presence softly, softly tread. Before the dimness of the closing dust Soils the yet lingering beauty of the dead. 362 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Look on the silent lip, whence oft hath flowed Such living truth as man hath seldom taught, And the sereneness of that brow that glowed Earnest in life with pure and eloquent thought ! How silver-white has grown his reverend hair. Serving his Master in the way of truth : For him, an age of active love and prayer Fulfilled the beautiful promise of his youth ; And what a triumph hour is death to those Faithful in life, yet happy in its close ! IV. Let me not feel thy pitying fingers' grasp. Though dewy cool their pressure still may be, Since they have learned to thrill within the clasp Of passionate love that trembled once for me ! Sweep back the beautiful tresses from thy brow. Nor let them, falling o'er me, blend with mine : Dark as the glorious midnight in their flow, — My locks are paler in their fall than thine ! In thy deep eyes are lit the fires divine. That made the heart its early love forget ; So much they mock the softer light of mine I cannot calmly meet their glances yet ; Therefore, until this bitterness shall cease. Leave me, that I may win my heart to peace ! SYMPATHY. In the same beaten channel still have run The blessed streams of human sympathy ; And though I know this ever hath been done. The why and wherefore I could never see : Why some such sorrow for their griefs have won. And some, unpitied, bear their misery, Are mysteries, which thinking o'er and o'er Has left me nothing wiser than before. What bitter tears of agony have flowed O'er the sad pages of some old romance ! SYMPATHY. 363 How Beauty's cheek beneath those drops has glowed, That dimmed the sparkling lustre of her glance, And on some love-sick maiden is bestowed, Or some rejected, hapless knight, perchance, All her deep sympathies, until her moans Stifle the nearer sound of living groans ! Oh, the deep sorrow for their suffering felt, AVhere is found something " better days " to prove ! What heart above their downfall will not melt. Who in a " higher circle " once could move ! For such, mankind have ever freely dealt Out the full measure of their pitying love. Because they witnessed, in their wretchedness. Their friends grow fewer, and their fortunes less. But for some humble peasant girl's distress. Some real being left to stem the tide. Who saw her young heart's wealth of tenderness Betrayed, and trampled on, and flung aside — Who seeks her out, to make her sorrows less ? What noble lady o'er her tale hath cried? Kone ! for the records of such humble grief Obtain not human pity — scarce belief. And as for their distress, who from the first Have had no fortune and no friends to fail — Those who in poverty were born and nursed — For such, by men, are placed without the pale Of sympathy — since they are deemed the worst Who are the humblest, and if Want assail And bring them harder toil, 't is only said, " They have been used to labor for their bread ! " Oh, the unknown, unpitied thousands found Huddled together, hid from human sight By fell disease or gnawing famine, bound To some dim, crowded garret, day and night. Or in unwholesome cellars underground, With scarce a breath of air, or ray of light ! Hunger, and rags, and labor ill repaid — These are the things that ask our tears and aid. 364 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. And these ought not to be ; it is not well Here in this land of Christian liberty, That honest worth in hopeless want should dwell, Unaided by our care and sympathy ; And is it not a burning shame to tell We have no means to check such misery, When wealth from out our treasury freely flows, To wage a deadly warfare with our foes ! It is all wrong ; yet men begin to deem The days of darkest gloom are nearly done ; A something, like the first bright golden beam That heralds in the coming of the dawn, Breaks on the sight. Oh, if it be no dream, How shall we haste that blessed era on ! For there is need that on men's hearts should fall A spirit that shall sympathize with all. MEMORIES. " She loved me, but she left me." Memories on memories ! to my soul again There come such dreams of vanished love and bliss, That my wrung heart, though long inured to pain, Sinks with the fulness of its wretchedness. Thou dearer far than all the world beside ! Thou who didst listen to my love's first vow ! Once I had fondly hoped to call thee bride — Is the dream over ? comes the awakening now ? And is this hour of wretchedness and tears The only guerdon for my wasted years ? And did I love thee ; when by stealth we met In the sweet evenings of that summer-time, Whose pleasant memory lingers with me yet. As the remembrance of a better clime Might haunt a fallen angel. And oh ! thou. Thou who didst turn away and seek to bind Thy heart from breaking, thou hast felt ere now A heart like thine o'ermastereth the mind ; MORALIZINGS. 365 Affection's power is stronger than thy will ; Ah ! thou didst love me, and thou lovest me still. My heart could never yet be taught to move With the calm even pulses that it should, Turning away from those that it should love, And loving whom it should not ; it hath wooed Beauty forbidden — I may not forget — And thou, oh ! thou canst never cease to feel ; But time, which hath not changed affection, yet Hath taught at least one lesson — to conceal; So none, but thou, who see my smiles shall know The silent bleeding of the heart below. MOKALIZi:^GS. Hark to the triumph for a victory won, Shaking the solid earth whereon we stand ! What noble action hath the Nation done. That thus rejoicing echoes through the land ? Hath she beheld life's inequality — How, still, her stronger sons the weak oppress. And, in the spirit of philanthropy. Made the deep sura of human anguish less ? Or hath she risen up, at last, to free The hopeless slave from his captivity ? No, not for these the shout is heard to-night Waking its echoes in each vale and glen. Not that the precepts of the Lord of Light Have found a dwelling in the hearts of men ; 'T is that a battle hath been fought and won. That the deep cannon's note is heard afar. Telling us of the bloody conflict done. That Victory hovers o'er our ranks in war. And that her soldiery their triumph sing In the broad shadow of her starry wing. And war is here ! Impatient for the fight, Our Nation in her majesty arose, 366 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Even as the restless lion in his might Up from the swelling of the Jordan goes, And, with a trampling noise that shook each hill, On to the conflict madly hath she rushed, Vowing to falter not, nor yield, until The life from out a Nation's heart is crushed ; Until her hapless sons are made to feel The bloody vengeance of her iron heel ! And what will be our gain, though we return Proudly victorious from each battle plain ? A weakened Nation will be left to mourn Her bravest heroes in the conflict slain ; Her treasury drained ; our broad and goodly land Filled with the orphan and the widowed wife ; A soldiery corrupted to disband, Unfit for useful toil or virtuous life ; And a long train of evils yet to be Darkly entailed upon posterity ! And this is glory ! This is what hath been To ages back the proudest theme of song. And, dazzled by its glare, man has not seen Beneath its pageantry the deadly wrong. Deeming it fame to tread where heroes trod. In his career he has not paused, or known That all are children of the self-same God, And that our brother's interest is our own ; For man that hardest lesson has to learn, Still to forgive, and good for ill return. But oh ! for all will come that solemn hour When memory calls to mind each deed of sin, And the world's hollow praise can have no power To still the voice of conscious guilt within. And grant, Lord of Love, that it may be My lot, when on the brink of death I press, To think of some slight act of charity. Some pang of human wretchedness made less. So, that in numbering o'er life's deeds again, I then may deem I have not lived in vain ! MORNING THOUGHTS. 367 DREAMING OF HEAVEN. I SIT where the shadows of twilight steal o'er me, While the wildbirds are warbling their last fitful hymn, And I think of the loved who have entered before me That dwelling whose glory shall never grow dim. Forever the land of the spirits seems nearer, When twilight steals over the earth's quiet breast, And the harps of the angels sound sweeter and clearer, What time the last day-beams go out in the west. Oh ! if all my dreams were as bright and elysian As those which the eve to my spirit still brings, I could sit here forever to woo the sweet vision. And dream about heaven and heavenly things ! For I long to be up where the seraphim gather With the ransomed of Zion whom Jesus has blest. And where, in the smile of our heavenly Father, Our purified spirits forever shall rest! MOENING THOUGHTS. Crossing the east with gold and crimson bars, Comes the imperial King of day and light, And, shaken by his tread, the burning stars Drop from the regal diadem of night. Surely the dawn was not more fair than this When Eden's roses in fresh beauty burst, And morning, blushing at her loveliness. Looked down upon the young creation first : When all below was innocent, and when The angels walked in Paradise with man. How equally the gifts of God come down To all the creatures which his hand has made ; The beams that wake the children of renown. Fall softly on the peasant in the glade. The dawn that calls the eagle up to fly From her proud eyrie to the mountain's height, 368 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Visits the lowly lark as smilingly, When from the vale she takes her homeward * flight Morning and life and sunshine, these are things That are not meant to be the wealth of kings ! Freedom at least from homeless poverty, A soul unbowed by fetters or by pain, One heart whose faith has still been true to me. These things are mine, and why should I complain ? Complain ! when God has been so good to me. And when his blessings with my days increase, Giving for every day of misery A recompense of tranquil days of peace : Even as the morning with her smiles and light Is over-payment for the weary night. KESOLVES.t I HAVE said I would not meet him ; Have I said the words in vain ? Sunset burns along the hill-tops, And I 'm waiting here again. But my promise is not broken, Though I stand where once we met ; "When I hear his coming footsteps, I can fly him even yet. We have stood here oft, when evening Deepened slowly o'er the plain ; But I must not, dare not, meet him In the shadows here again ; For I could not turn away and leave That pleading look and tone. And the sorrow of his parting Would be bitter as my own. In the dim and distant ether The first star is shining through. And another and another Tremble softly in the blue ; ♦Corrected to " heavenward " in Boston Public Library copy, t Eeprinted in " Poems and Parodies." THE MARINER'S BRIDE. 369 Should I linger but one moment In the shadows where I stand, I shall see tlie vine-leaves parted, With a quick, impatient hand. But I will not wait his coming ! He will surely come once more ; Though I said I would not meet him, I have told him so before; And he knows the stars of evening See me standing here again, — O, he surely will not leave me Now to watch and wait in vain ! 'Tis the hour, the time of meeting! In one moment 't will be past ; And last night he stood beside me, — AVas that blessed time the last ? I could better bear my sorrow. Could I live that parting o'er ; O, I wish I had not told him That I would not come once more ! Could that have been the night-wind Moved the branches thus apart ? Did I hear a coming footstep. Or the beating of my heart ? No ! I hear him, I can see him. And my meek resolves are vain; I will fly, — but to his bosom, And to leave it not again ! THE MAEINER'S BRIDE. O'er the dark waters now my bounding bark May bear me onward wheresoe'er it will : I care not though the angry sky be dark, Light of my being ! thou art with me still. Yes, let the heaving billows lash the deck, And the red lightning tremble on the seaj 370 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. So that thy faithful arms are round my neck, My heart will never tremble ; — for with thee I know my soul within would still be brave If every gaping billow showed a grave. Once I had feared the raging of the sea, When the wild tempest in its fury burst ; . But, bride of beauty ! standing thus with thee, The angry elements may do their worst. And should our vessel founder on a rock. Or cast us on some desert shore to die, Unshrinkingly my soul will meet the shock, If thou with that inspiring brow art nigh : For, folding thee, my gentle bride, to sleep, Closer, and closer, to this fainting breast, We should go down as calmly to the deep As a young infant to its cradle-rest. And though the water-wraith should stir the sea, And the wild tempest move the waves above. Securely peaceful would my slumber be With thee, my stricken bride of youth and love ; For thou wouldst cheer the darkness of the grave, As the bright sea-star lights the ocean cave ! THE PRISONER'S LAST NIGHT. The last red gold had melted from the sky. Where the sweet sunset lingered soft and warm, A starry night was gathering silently The jewelled mantle round her regal form; While the invisible fingers of the breeze Shook the young blossoms lightly from the trees. Yet were there breaking hearts beneath the stars. Though the hushed earth lay smiling in the light, And the dull fetters and the prison bars Saw bitter tears of agony that night. And heard such burning words of love and truth As wring the life-drops from the heart of youth. SONG OF THE HEART. 371 For he, whom men relentless doomed to die, Parted with one who loved him till the last ; With many a vow of faith and constancy The long, long watches of the night were passed ; Till, heavily and slow, the prison door Swung back, and told them that their hour was o'er. 'T was his last night on earth ! and God alone Can tell the anguish of that stricken one, Fettered in darkness to the dungeon stone. And doomed to perish with the rising sun ; And she, whose faith through all was vainly true, Her heart was broken — and she perished too ! And will this win an erring brother back To the sweet paths of pleasantness and peace ? " While crimes are punished but by crime more black," Will sin, and wickedness, and sorrow cease ? No ! crime will never cease to scourge the land. So long as blood is on her ruler's hand ! And oh ! how long will hearts in sin and pride Reject His blessed precepts, who of yore Taught men forgiveness on the mountain side, And spoke of love and mercy by the shore ? How long will power, with such despotic sway. Trample unfriended weakness in its way ? Hasten, Lord of Light, that glorious time. When man no more shall spurn thy wise command. Filling the earth with wretchedness and crime. And making guilt a plague-spot on the land ; Hasten the time, that blood no more shall cry Unceasingly for vengeance to the sky ! SONG OF THE HEART. They may tell forever of worlds of bloom Beyond the skies and beyond the tomb ; Of the sweet repose, and the rapture there. That are not found in a world of care ; 372 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. But not to me can the present seem Like a foolish tale or an idle dream. Oh, I know that the bowers of heaven are fair, And I know that the waters of life are there ; But I do not long for their happy flow, While there bursts such fountains of bliss below And I would not leave, for the rest above, The faithful bosom of trusting love ! There are angels here ; they are seen the while In each love-lit brow and each gentle smile ; There are seraph voices, that meet the ear In a kindly tone and the word of cheer ; And light, such light as they have above. Beams on us here, from the eyes of love. Yet, when it cometh my time to die, I would turn from this wild world willingly; Though, even then, would the thoughts of this Tinge every dream of that land of bliss ; And I fain would lean on the loved for aid. Nor walk alone through the vale and shade. And if 't is mine, till life's changes end. To keep the heart of one faithful friend, Whatever the trials of earth may be, — On the peaceful shore, or the restless sea. In a palace home, or the wilderness, — There is heaven for me in a world like this ! MAN BELIEVES THE STKONG. Oh ! in this world, where all is fair and bright, Save human wickedness and human pride. Marring what else were lovely to the sight. It is a truth that may not be denied. However deeply we deplore the wrong, Man hath believed, and still believes the strong. When injured and defenceless woman stands, ■ Haply the child of innocence or youth. THE CHRISTIAN WOMAN. 373 And lifts to heaven her pleading voice and hands In all the moving eloquence of truth, Who will believe, in that most trying hour. Her words who is not strong in wealth or power ? Or let the slave, of all on earth bereft, Stand up to plead before a human bar ; And though the fetters and the lash have left Upon his limbs the deep-attesting scar, Who trusts his tale, or who will rise to save From wrong and injury the outcast slave ? If a poor, friendless criminal appear, — A criminal which men themselves have made, By the injustice and oppression here, — Who to pronounce him '^ guilty ^^ is afraid? But who, if rank or wealth w^ere doomed thereby, Would speak that final word as fearlessly ? Oh, where so much of wrong and sorrow are. There must be need of an unfaltering trust In His all-seeing watchfulness and care. Whose ways to man below we know are just ; In Him, whose love has numbered every tear W^rung from his weak, defenceless creatures here. And there is need of earnest, full belief, And patient work, to bring that holier day When there shall be redress for humblest grief. And equal right and justice shall have sway; And we will strive, in trustfulness sublime. Hoping our eyes may see the blessed time ! THE CHRISTIAN WOMAN * BEAUTIFUL as Moming in those hours When, as her pathway lies along the hills, Her golden fingers w^ake the dewy flowers, And softly touch the waters of the rills, * Given here aa reprinted, with a few slight verbal changes, in " Poems and Parodies." 374 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Was she who walked more faintly day by day, Till silently she perished by the way. It was not hers to know that perfect heaven Of passionate love returned by love as deep, Not hers to sing the cradle-song at even, Watching the beauty of her babe asleep ; " Mother and brethren," — these she had not known. Save such as do the Father's will alone. Yet found she something still for which to live, — Hearths desolate, where angel-like she came ; And " little ones," to whom her hand could give A cup of water in her Master's name ; And breaking hearts, to bind away from death With the soft hand of pitying love and faith. She never won the voice of popular praise. But counting earthly triumph as but dross. Seeking to keep her Saviour's perfect ways. Bearing in quiet paths his blessed cross. She made her life, while with us here she trod, A consecration to the will of God. And she hath lived and labored not in vain : Through the deep prison-cells her accents thrill. And the sad slave leans idly on his chain, And hears the music of her singing still ; While little children, with their innocent praise. Keep freshly in men's hearts her Christian ways. And what a beautiful lesson she made known ! The whiteness of her soul sin could not dim ; Ready to lay down on God's altar-stone The dearest treasure of her life for Him, Her flame of sacrifice never, never waned ; How could she live and die so self-sustained? For friends supported not her parting soul, And whispered words of comfort, kind and sweet, THE HOMESICK PEASANT. 375 When treading onward to that final goal, Where the still Bridegroom, waited for her feet ; Alone she walked, yet with a fearless tread, Down to Death's chamber and his bridal bed .' THE HOMESICK PEASANT. Oh ! I am sick of cities ; all night long Orchards and corn-fields waved before my sight, Till the quick moving of the restless throng Broke on that pleasant vision of the night With an unw^elcome sound, and called my feet Back from the meadows to the crowded street. I grew a child of Nature on the hills. Learning no lessons from the lips of Art, And the restraint of cities cramps and chills The warm, impulsive feelings of my heart ; Even the ceaseless stir and motion here Grates with a jarring sound upon my ear. It is not like my childhood : from the trees, And from the flowers that grew beneath my feet, And from the artless whispers of the breeze, I never learned the lessons of deceit : They never taught me that my heart should hide Its thoughts and feelings with a mask of pride. And therefore with the morning I awake. To feel a homesick yearning for the hills — A thirst no water on the earth can slake. Save the clear gushing of my native rills ; And I once more upon their banks would stand, Free as the breezes of my native land. Give me a sweet home, set among the trees. With friends whose words are ever kind and true. And books whose stories should instruct and please, When round the quiet hearth the household drew; For in their pleasant pages I can find All I would learn of cities and mankind. 376 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY, HOMES FOR ALL * Columbia, fairest nation of the world, Sitting in queenly beauty in the west, With all thy banners round about thee furled, Nursing the cherub Peace upon thy breast ; Never did daughter of a kingly line Look on a lovelier heritage than thine ! Thou hast deep forests stretching far away, The giant growth of the long centuries, From whose dim shadows to the light of day Come forth the mighty rivers toward the seas, To walk like happy lovers, hand in hand, Down through the green vales of our pleasant land. Thou hast broad prairies, where the lonely flowers Blossom and perish with the changing year ; Where harvests wave not through the summer hours. Nor with the autumn ripen in the ear ; And beautiful lakes, that toss their milky spray Where the strong ship hath never cleaved its way. And yet with all thy broad and fertile land, AVhere hands sow not, nor gather in the grain. Thy children come and round about thee stand, Asking the blessing of a home in vain, — Still lingering, but with feet that long to press Through the green windings of the wilderness. In populous cities do men live and die, That never breathe the pure and liberal air ; Down where the damp and desolate rice-swamps lie, Wearying the ear of Heaven with constant prayer. Are souls that never yet have learned to raise Under God's equal sky the psalm of praise. Turn not, Columbia ! from their pleading eyes ; Give to thy sons that ask of thee a home ; So shall they gather round thee, not with sighs, * Keprinted in " Poems and Parodies " under the title '* Plea for the Homeless.' HARVEST GATHERING. 377 But as young children to their mother come; And brightly to the centuries shall go down The glory that thou wearest like a crown. HARVEST GATHERING. The last days of the summer : bright and clear Shines the warm sun down on the quiet land, Where corn-fields, thick and heavy in the ear, Are slowly ripening for the laborer's hand ; Seed-time and harvest — since the bow was set, Not vainly has man hoped your coming yet ! To the quick rush of sickles, joyously The reapers in the yellow wheat-fields sung. And bound the pale sheaves of the ripened rye, When the first tassels of the maize were hung; That precious seed into the furrow cast Earliest in spring-time, crowns the harvest last. Ever, when summer's sun burns faint and dim, And rare and few the pleasant days are given, When the sweet praise of our thanksgiving hymn Makes beautiful music in the ear of Heaven, I think of other harvests whence the sound Of singing comes not as the sheaves are bound. Not where the rice-fields whiten in the sun, And the warm South casts down her yellow fruit, Shout they the labors of the autumn done — Eor there Oppression casts her deadly root. And they, who sow and gather in that clime, Share not the treasures of the harvest-time. God of the seasons ! thou who didst ordain Bread for the eater who shall plant the soil. How have they heard thee, who have forged the chain And built the dungeon for the sons of toll ? Burdening their hearts, not with the voice of prayer. But the dull cries of almost dumb despair. 378 POEMS BY PIKE BE CARV. They who would see that growth of wickedness Planted where now the peaceful prairie waves, And make the green paths of our wilderness Red with the torn and bleeding feet of slaves — Forbid it, Heaven ! and let the sharp axe be Laid at the root of that most poison tree ! Let us behold its deadly leaves begin A fainter shadow o'er the world to cast. And the long day that nursed its growth of sin Wane to a sunset that shall be its last ; So that the day-star, rising from the sea, Shall light a land whose children will be free ! LIFE IS NOT VANITY. Are ye not erring teachers Who tell us, that below There is no sparkling fountain Where living waters flow ; That all earth's well-springs bubble up With bitter drops of woe ? That life 's a night of darkness, With scarce a cheering star, — That we cannot make our trials Less bitter than they are, — That we should think of Heaven alone, And Heaven itself is far. No marvel earth is dark to you Who thus in shadows keep, — That you cannot see the day-spring When you close your eyes and sleep ; Or that earth is but a vale of tears For you who sit and weep. ,You tell us of the happiness Of the unchanging sphere. Because the loved and loving there To bless us will be near j PRAYER. 379 If that be heaven, what hinders us To make a heaven here ? Oh, would we rouse from slumber, Life hath something to be done ; We may lose the prize by faltering, Which exertion might have won ; And when we strive to help ourselves, The Lord will aid us on. And if we be immortal, As we believe and know, Then is the life eternal Begun in life below ; And hath it been ordained by heaven, That it should be in woe ? No ! and though trailing shadows O'er our pathway sometimes move, Yet below, as in the life to come, All things are ruled in love, And God will bless as willingly As he will do above ! And if we cheer life's marches, And smooth the path beneath, If we labor for advancement With a true and earnest faith ; We shall stand prepared for lengthened years, Or for the call of death ! PRAYER. Father ! thou didst hear my prayer When I plead with thee to spare, When I asked for length of years, Thou didst pitying see my tears, And thy words in answer were, " Respite from the sepulchre ! " Lo ! no more the prayer I raise : Life hath waned to evil days ; 380 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Veiling in the dust my woes, I would bless the grave's repose ; Sweeter, sweeter would it be, Than a lover's dream to me. Long enough thy child hath been Struggling in a world of sin, Long enough have doubts assailed. Long enough the flesh prevailed. Long enough hath sorrow tried One it hath not purified. In life's hours of rosy dawn, Hope with white hand led me on, Showing gorgeous imagery Of a happier time to be ; But, in noonday's clearer flame. Blest fruition never came. Hastening now towards its close Is the day that brightly rose, And the hope that fled its prime Comes not at the evening time ; Hear me, pity, and recall, Ere the midnight shadows fall ! Willing, eager to depart, Old in years and old in heart. Waiting but the messenger To unseal the sepulchre, Lo ! again to thee I come — Take me. Father, take me home ! MORNING.* Sadly, when the day was done, To his setting waned the sun ; Heavily the shadows fell, And the wind with fitful swell, Echoed through the forest dim Like a friar's ghostly hymn. * Reprinted in " Poems and Parodies." BURIAL HYMN. 381 Mournful on the wall, afar, Walked the evening sentry-star ; Burning clear, and cold, and lone, Midnight's constellations shone ; While the hours, with solemn tread, Passed like watchers by the dead. Now at last the Morning wakes, And the spell of darkness breaks. On the mountains, dewy sweet, Standing with her rosy feet, While her golden fingers fair Part the soft flow of her hair. With the dew from flower and leaf Flies the heavy dew of grief ; From the darkness of my thought, Night her solemn aspect caught ; And the morning's joys begin, As a morning breaks within. God's free sunshine on the hills. Soft mists hanging o'er the rills. Blushing flowers of loveliness Trembling with the light wind's kiss, — 0, the soul forgets its care. Looking on a world so fair ! Morning wooes me with her charms. Like a lover's pleading arms; Soft above me bend her skies. As a lover's tender eyes ; And my heavy heart of pain. Trembling, thrills with hope again. BURIAL HYMN. Earth to earth, and dust to dust ! Here, in calm and holy trust. We have made her quiet bed With the pale hosts of the dead, 382 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. And, with hearts that, stricken, weep, Come to lay her down to sleep. From life's weary cares set free. Mother Earth, she comes to thee ! Hiding from its ills and storms In the shelter of thine arms : Peaceful, peaceful be her rest, Here upon thy faithful breast. And when sweetly from the dust Heaven's last summons calls the just, Saviour ! when the nations rise Up to meet thee in the skies. Gently, gently, by the hand. Lead her to the better land ! SONG OF THE REFORMED. Seeking its place of rest, Each in its quiet nest. All the glad warblers have hushed their last song ; And the first star of night. With her faint silver light, Guideth my homeward steps safely along. Oh ! to that quiet home, With what delight I come. When from the cares of the day I am free ; For with her happy smile, There my young wife the while Sits by the lattice pane watching for me. But when I sought the board Where the red wine is poured. Oft has she fled when my footsteps drew near. And nestling down to rest, Close to that faithful breast, Has my young infant turned from me in fear. THE COLD WATER ARMY. 388 Silently then each day Passed her sad life away — Silently then was our sweet child caressed ; Now our low cabin rings With the glad song she sings, Kocking it nightly to sleep on her breast. There I can see the light Where our warm hearth is bright, Oh! is there bliss more ecstatic above Than this full heart can know, Blest with your smiles below, Wife of my bosom and child of my love ? THE COLD WATER ARMY. Firmly they still have stood, A true and fearless band, For the noble cause of human good Hath nerved each heart and hand. And they fear not the frowns of earth. The mocking sneers of men, For they fight for the sacred home and hearth. For their trampled rights again. In their ranks, no longer thin and weak, Are men of every age, From the stripling slight, with a beardless cheek, To the silver-headed sage. Oh, their hosts would darken the summer sea, Were their banners all outspread, And the dens of guilt rock tremblingly With their firm and heavy tread. They come not, an invading band, With dreams of high renown. To spoil the homes of our happy land. And trample her vineyards down ; But to hunt that monster of sin and crime. Which the slaves of the wine-cup know, 384 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Who tracks his way in a path of slime O'er the fairest flowers below. For undisturbed has he roamed the earth Till his serpent brood have come To nest themselves in the very hearth Of many a once bright home. Yet, hearing the widow's and orphan's sigh, And knowing he wounds to kill, There are those so deaf to a nation's cry They would shield the monster still. But our army follows with noiseless tread Wherever he winds his way, As, feeling the bruise on his venomed head, He shrinks from the light of day ; And ne'er on the unsheathed sword and spear Will their hand relax its grasp. Till they pause, and lean on their arms, to hear The sound of his dying gasp. COMING HOME. How long it seems since first we heard The cry of " Land in sight ! " Our vessel surely never sailed So slowly till to-night. When we discerned the distant hills, The sun was scarcely set. And now the moon of night is passed. They seem no nearer yet. Where the blue Rhine reflected back Each frowning castle wall. Where, in the forest of the Hartz, Eternal shadows fall — Or where the yellow Tiber flowed By the old hills of Rome, I never felt such restlessness. Such longing for our home. THE REEFER. 885 Dost thou remember, oh ! my friend, When we beheld it last, How shadows from the setting sun Upon our cot were cast ? Three summer-times upon its walls Have shone for us in vain ; But, oh ! we 're hastening homeward now, To leave it not again. There, as the last star dropped away, From Night's imperial brow. Did not our vessel " round the point " ? The land looks nearer now ! Yes, as the first faint beams of day Fall on our native shore, They 're dropping anchor in the bay — We 're home, we 're home once more ! THE EEEFEE. Yes, sailor, when the aiigry deep Its war with heaven is waging, I '11 tell thee why I sit and weep When thus the storm is raging. Once when the sea, as now, was tossed With fierce and wild commotion, I stood unheeding on the coast. And watched the troubled ocean. For as the arrowy bolts were hurled In fiery wrath from heaven. We saw afar, with canvas furled, A ship through darkness driven. I had a brother then, whose bark Upon the sea was riding. And when I saw that vessel dark, I knew his hand was guiding. And now, as fiercer came the light. And as the storm grew drearer, We saw her through the gathering night Come near the strand, and nearer i 386 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Already fancy clasped once more The form so fondly cherished, When, reaching to the fatal shore. That vessel struck and perished ! And now, upon the sea, whene'er The black clouds o'er us hover, I see that frail bark strike, and hear The shriek that rose above her ! No change can lull my thoughts to sleep, No time my grief assuages ; And therefore, sailor, do I weep, When thus the tempest rages. A TIME TO DIE. Like the music deep and solemn In some ruined church, Floating over crumbling column And fallen arch ; Through the naked branches trailing Low on the ground. Come the winds of autumn wailing With a ghostly sound. Over all below a feeling Of quiet reigns. Like a drowsy numbness stealing Through the veins. Even the sun, in the dim haze mourning, Hides his head, Like a sickly taper burning Beside the dead. And all day one feeling busy In my soul hath wrought. Till heart and brain are dizzy With the solemn thought. In the shadow of deep dejection I sit and sigh. With but one sad reflection, " A TIME TO DIE ! " DEATH SCENE. 387 O God of the soul immortal ! If death be near, Teach me to tread that portal And not to fear. Keep thou my feet from turning Aside to die ; Let my lamp be filled and burning For the " midnight cry " ! DEATH SCENE.* Dying, still slowly dying, As the hours of night wore by, She had lain since the light of sunset Was red on the evening sky, — Till after the middle watches, As we softly near her trod, When her soul from its prison fetters Was loosed by the hand of God. One moment her pale lips trembled With the triumph she might not tell, As the light of the life immortal On her spirit's vision fell. Then the look of rapture faded, And the beautiful smile waxed faint, As that in some convent picture On the face of a dying saint. And we felt in the lonesome midnight, As we sat by the silent dead. What a light on the path going downward The steps of the righteous shed ; — When we thought how with feet unshrinking She came to the Jordan's tide, And, taking the hand of the Saviour, Went up on the heavenly side ! * Reprinted in " Poems and Parodies." 388 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY, THE PLACE OF GEAVES. How often in the summers gone, I 've stood where these memorials rise, And every time the spot had grown Less and less lonely to mine eyes. The first I ever loved that died Sleeps here, where these sweet roses wave ; A maiden, with life's path untried. She left the sunshine for the grave. And what a place of desolate gloom Seemed then to me the realm of death, Though she I loved went calmly down, In all the truthfulness of faith. The next, a sweet lamb of the fold, An infant, lulled to slumber lay, With her pale locks of finest gold Put softly from her brow away. But when the patient mother prest To her meek lips the bitter cup. And came with those she loved to rest. Till God shall call the sleepers up. Then the dim pathVay grew more clear. That leads through darkness to the light, And death has never seemed so drear. Nor heaven so distant from my sight. PARTING AND MEETING. On the casements, closed and lonesome, Is falling the autumn rain. And my heart to-night is heavy With a sense of unquiet pain. DEATH OF A FRIEND. 389 Kot that the leaves are dying 111 the kiss of the traitor frost, And not that the summer flowers On the bitter winds are tossed. And not that the reaper's singing The time no longer cheers, Bringing home through the mellow starlight The sheaves and the yellow ears. No, not from these am I sighing, As the hours pass slow and dull, For God in his own time maketh All seasons beautiful. But one of our household number Sits not by the hearth-fire's light, And right on her pathway beating Is the rain of this autumn night. And therefore my heart is heavy With a sense of unquiet pain, For, but Heaven can tell if the parted Shall meet in the earth again. But knowing God's love extendeth Wherever his children are, And tenderly round about them Are the arms of his watchful care ; With him be the time and the season Of our meeting again with thee. Whether here on these earthly borders, Or the shore of the world to be. DEATH OF A FKIEND.* Where leaves by bitter winds are heaped In the deep hollows, damp and cold. And the light snow-shower, silently, Is falling on the yellow mould, ♦ Reprinted in " Poems and Parodies," 390 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Sleeps one who was our friend, below ; — With meek hands folded on her breast, When the first flowers of summer died, We softly laid her down to rest. By her were blessings freely strewn, As roses by the summer's breath ; Yet nothing in her perfect life Was half so lovely as her death. In the meek beauty of a faith Which few have ever proved like her. She shrunk not even when she felt The chill breath of the sepulchre. Heavier, and heavier still, she leaned Upon His arm who died to save, As step by step He led her down To the still chamber of the grave. 'T was at the midnight's solemn watch She sunk to slumber, calm and deep : The golden fingers of the dawn Shall never wake her from that sleep. From him who was her friend below. She turned to meet her Heavenly Guide ; "And the sweet children of her love. She left them sleeping when she died. Her last of suns went calmly down. And when the morn rose bright and clear, Hers was a holier Sabbath-day Than that which dawned upon us here. LOVE AT THE GRAVE. Remembrancer of nature's prime, And herald of her fading near. The last month of the summer time Of leaves and flowers is with us here. LOVE AT THE GRAVE. 391 More eloquent than lip can preach To every heart that hopes and fears, What solemn lessons does it teach Of the quick passage of our years ! To me it brings sad thoughts of one, Who, in the summer's fading bloom. Bright * from the arms of love went down To the dim silence of the tomb. How often since has spring's soft shower Revived the life in nature's breast, And the sweet herb and tender flower Have been renewed above her rest ! How many summer times have told To mortal hearts their rapid flight. Since first this heap of yellow mould Shut out her beauty from my sight ! Since first, to love's sweet promise true, My feet beside her pillow trod, Till year by year the pathway grew Deeper and deeper in the sod ! Now these neglected roses tell Of no kind hand to tend them nigh ; Oh, God ! I have not kept so well My faith as in the years gone by. But here to-day my step returns. And, kneeling where these willows wave, As the soft flame of sunrise burns Down through the dim leaves to thy grave, I cry. Forgive that I should prove Forgetful of thy memory ; Forgive me, that a living love Once came between my soul and thee ! * Corrected to " Right " in the Boston Public Library copy. 392 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. For the weak heart that faintly * yearned For human love its life to cheer, Baffled and bleeding has returned To stifle down its crying here. For, steadfast still, thy faith to me Was one which earth could not estrange : And, lost one ! where the angels be I know affection may not change. STEENGTH OF SIN. How lately and this beautiful earth Was shut by darkness from my sight, And all the mighty arch of blue Was sparkling with its worlds of light Waning and waning, one by one They vanished as the day-star rose. Till, lo ! along the distant hills The fire of sunrise burns and glows. And turning from the hosts of heaven To the calm beauty of the earth, I feel what goodness must be His Who spoke its glories into birth. More than our hearts can comprehend, Or our weak, blinded eyes can see. The wisdom and the love of God, How mighty and how vast they be. Too fair for us to hate or leave This world His hand has placed us in, But for the presence and the power Of that most fiery serpent, sin — That first in Eden's peaceful shade Uncoiled its bright and deadly folds, And living still, and unsubdued. Sends its dark poison through our souls. * Corrected to " vainly " in the Boston Public Library copy. THE WOMEN AT THE SEPULCHRE. 393 But from his creatures, blind and lost, God never wholly turned aside, As power to save us from the curse Was sent us when the Saviour died. All that is left us under heaven, Hope of the lost and sin-enslaved. The only Name on earth that 's given, Whereby the souls of men are saved. Thanks unto God, that He was sent A sacred warfare to begin, That in the end shall surely crush And bind the infernal strength of sin ! That by Him it shall be at last Out from this fair creation hurled. Who gave its death-blow when the cross Was darkly planted in the world. And thanks to Him, that when the soul In agony for mercy calls, Right in the shadow of that cross The sunlight of His pardon falls. THE WOMEN AT THE SEPULCHRE. MoRX broke on Calvary, and the sun was flinging The earliest brightness from his locks abroad. As the meek sisters came in sadness, bringing Gifts of sweet spices to anoint their Lord. They who had loved his blessed precepts ever. And linger'd with him when the earth was gloom, They were the faithful who reviled him never, " Last at the cross, and earliest at the tomb ! " I 've sometimes thought I never could inherit A glorious mansion in the skies above : Eor, oh ! how weak and faltering is my spirit. Compared with such undying faith and love ! 394 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. But, Father, cannot all that heavenly meekness, That deathless love which all things could endure, Can it not plead before Thee, for the weakness Of one whose faith is oft so faint and poor ? MELODY. The beautiful eve, in her sparkling tiara. With dew-dropping lingers is closing the flower. Where thou, oh ! my white-bosomed bird of the prairie, Art watching and waiting for me in our bower. My heart, beating quick as the pulse of the ocean, Outstrips e'en my courser, to see thee again ; Though his limbs are as lithe and as fleet in their motion As the barb in the desert, or roe on the plain. My heart feels no presage of evil or danger. For thou never wouldst fly, lovely warbler, from me ; And T hid thee so well that the spoiler and stranger Could track not the windings which lead me to thee. Yet faster, my steed : for the starlight discloses Our bower, but no minstrel its shadows among ; — Yes, something is fluttering like wings in the roses, And, bird of my bosom ! I hear thy sweet song. CHANGES.* Under the evening splendor Of spring's sweet skies. Learned I love's lesson tender, From the maiden's eyes. When the stars, like lovers meeting. In the blue appeared. And my heart, tumultuous beating, Hoped and feared, — * Reprinted in " Poems and Parodies." CHANGES. 395 Then the passion, long dissembled, My lip made known, And the hand of the maiden trembled In my own, — Till the tears that gushed unbidden, Unrepressed, And the crimson blush were hidden On my breast. And there in that vale elysian, Through the summer bland. We walked in a tranced vision. Hand in hand. There the evening shadows found us Side by side, While the glorious roses round us Bloomed and died. And when the bright sun, waning, Dimly burned, — When the wind, with sad complaining, In the valley mourned, — When the bridal roses faded In her hair. And her brow was sweetly shaded With a thought of care, — Then with heart still fondly thrilling. But "with calmer bliss, From the lip no more unwilling I claimed the kiss. Then our dreams, with love o'erladen. Were verified. And dearer to me than the maiden Grew the bride. But when the dead leaves drifted In that valley low. And down from the cold sky sifted The noiseless snow, — 396 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Where the hearts of the faithful moulder With the dead, They made her a pillow colder Than the bridal bed. And there at the spring's returning, With the summer's glow, When the autumn sun is burning, In the winter's snow, — With the ghosts of the dim past ever Gliding round, Walk I in that vale, as a river That makes no sound. FEARS. Fold me closer to thy bosom. Let me feel thy clasping hand ; Wilder grows the night, and drearer — Shall we never reach the land ? Thrice from dreams of broken slumber Have I started in affright ; On the shore I never trembled As I tremble here to-night. Nay, 't is not the haunting beauty Of some lovely vision gone — But the watches wear so heavy ; Leave me, leave me not alone ! Yes, I know the waves are calmer, And the sky has lost its frown. But the sharp reefs, ere the morning We may strike them, and go down ! Said you that the dawn is breaking, With its gray uncertain light ? Look ! I dare not trust my vision — Are the cliffs of home in sight ? THE WATCHER. 397 Hush ! I cannot, listening eager, Hear the heavy billows roar ; We are standing in still water — We are nearing to the shore ! Yes, above us, streaming seaward. Shine the red lights of the tower ; We are anchored — we are mooring — God be praised for such an hour ! THE WATCHER. 'T is the third summer that has gone, Since first upon that sloping hill, He listened for the feet of one W^hose coming he is waiting still. All through the evenings warm and bland, When the red sunset lights the skies, Then first we see the watcher stand, With hope reflected in his eyes : Still waiting through the tranquil hours. Till eve with fingers, fair and slight, Has folded up to sleep the flowers. And left them with the peaceful night. But when the stars like fire-sparks glow In the far pavement of the sky. Then hope, that lingered on till now, Fades slowly from his cheek and eye. And when the still night, wearing on, Has almost broken into day. As if he knew she would not come. He turns with mournful step away. Oh, heavily, and dull, and slow. Such hours of anxious vigil wane : God keep that watcher in his woe, Who looks for coming feet in vain. 398 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. 'T was on the morning of a day- Sweet as the night-time ever nursed, Her white arms filled with flowers of May, He saw the village maiden first. Like the last hues of dying day, Which sunset from his path has rolled. The roses of the summer lay Softly among her locks of gold. Singing a soft and plaintive lay, She won him with her gentle tone. And then he stole her heart away With voice as witching as her own. And once, when the sweet stars as now Look calmly down upon that hill, Their young hearts breathed the tender vow Which one has kept so faithful still. And meeting nightly, 't was not strange, But yet he dreamed not love could wane, Or thought that human hearts might change, Until he waited there in vain. And still, to meet her on that height, He lingers as in summers gone, Till evening deepening into night. He wakes to find himself alone. For none till now have ever told That watcher of expectant hours. How long ago her locks of gold Were braided with the bridal flowers. CHALMERS.* In the hush of the desolate midnight, Leaving no brighter behind, A noble light was stricken From the galaxy of mind. * Reprinted in "Poems and Parodies " with the ortiission of the first and last stanzas. SONG. 399 As the red lights down in the water, When a boat shoots into the sea, Or a star through the thin blue ether, He vanished silently. Not the counsel of ghostly fathers Showed him the way he trod, Not the picture of saints and martyrs, Nor the smile of the Mother of God ; Not the love-lighted brows of kindred, Nor the words of a faithful friend, Opened up the way to his vision. And cheered him to the end. As a God-fearing man, and holy. He had passed through the snares beneath. And he needed no aid to strengthen His soul in the hour of death. The steps of his faith were planted Where the waves in vain might beat. While the waters of death rose darkly, And closed around his feet. Not the " Save, or T perish! " of Peter, Was his as he faintly trod. But the trust of that first blest martyr. Falling asleep in God. And we may not mourn the brightness That is taken from our sky, Which shall teach to the unborn ages The way to live and die. SONG. The first and loveliest star of even Shines on me with its first* sweet light O thou, to whom my heart is given, What visions haunt thy soul to-night ? » Corrected to " faint " in the Boston Public Library copy. 400 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Dost thou, as this soft twilight steals So mildly over hill and plain, Think of the hour we parted last. And wish me by thy side again ? I ask not that thy love should be As deep, as trusting as my own, I do not ask that thou shouldst feel All that my woman's heart has known: But if, for every thousand times My spirit fondly turns to thee. One thought of thine to me is given, I doubt not thy fidelity. Eor me, when on the hills alone, Or treading through the noisy mart, There is no time, there is no place, But thou art with me in my heart. I only think upon the past, Or dream of happier days to be, And every hope and every fear Is something hoped or feared for thee. THE CONFESSION.* In the moonlight of the Springtime, Trembling, blushing, half afraid, Heard I first the fond confession From the sweet lips of the maid. As the roses of the Summer, By his warm embraces won. Take a fairer, richer color From the glances of the sun ; — So as, gazing, earnest, anxious, I besought her but to speak. Deep and deeper burned the crimson Of the blushes in her cheek ; — * Eeprinted in " Poems and Parodies." THE ILLS OF LIFE. 401 Till at last, with happy impulse, Impulse that she might not check. As it softly thrilled and trembled. Stole her white arm round my neck ; — And with lips, that, half averted From the lips that bent above, Met the kiss of our betrothal, Told the maiden of her love. THE ILLS OF LIFE. How oft, when pursued by evils. We falter and faint by the way, But are fearless when, o'ertaken, We pause, and turn at bay. When storms in the distance have gathered, I have trembled their wrath to meet. Yet stood firm when the arrowy lightning Has fallen at my feet. My soul in the shadows of twilight Has groaned beneath its load, And felt at the solemn midnight Secure in the hand of God. I have been with friends who were cherished All earthly things above, Till I deemed the death-pangs lighter Than the pangs of parting love. Yet with one fearful struggle, When at last the dread blow fell, I have kept my heart from breaking. And calmly said. Farewell ! I have looked at the grave, and shuddered For my kindred treading near. And when their feet had entered, My soul forgot its fear. 402 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Our ills are not so many Nor so hard to bear below, But our suffering in dread of the future Is more than our present woe. We see with our vision imperfect Such causes of doubt and fear — Some yet that are far in the distance, And some that may never be near — When, if we would trust in His wisdom Whose purpose we may not see, We would find, whatever our trials. As our day our strength shall be. THE BRIDE. Like the music of an arrow, Bushing, singing from the string. Was the sound in the June roses Of each homeward cleaving wing. Where the leaves were softly parted By a hand of snowy grace. Letting in a shower of sunlight Brightly o'er an eager face ; O'er the young face of a maiden. Touched by changing hope and fear, As the sound of rapid hoof-strokes, Nearing, fell upon the ear. White robes softly heaving, fluttering, O'er her bosom's rise of snow, Spoke the strange and soft confession * Of the beating heart below. And the face had sweet revealings, Sweeter than the lip may speak. For the soft fires of confession Lit their crimson in the cheek. * Corrected to " confusion " in the Boston Public Library copy. THE BRIDE. 403 Not for friend, and not for brother, Kept she eager vigil there ; Not for friend, and not for brother, Gleamed the roses in her hair. Myriad frost-sparks fire-like glittered In the keen and bitter air, And no wild bird, dropping downward, Stirred the branches cold and bare. Flaming in the glorious forehead Of the midnight, high and lone, Starry constellations, steadfast, Yet* like burning jewels shone; When, from a sick couch uplifted, A thin hand, most snowy white, Parted back the curtains softly. Letting in the pallid light. Eyes of more than mortal brightness Spoke the waiting heart's desire. And the hollow cheeks were lighted With a quick, consuming fire. That young watcher in the roses, Of the earnest eye and brow. Keeps again her anxious vigil ; ■ Who shall end its moments now ? Lo! the breast is softly trembling, But with hope that has no fear : By that happy smile the Presence She hath waited for is near ! For a bridegroom hath she tarried ; Bring the roses for her brow ; Though no human passion answers To his icy kisses now. * Corrected to " Set " in the Boston Public Library copy. 404 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Bride of earth ! here, hoping, fearing, Evil were thy days, and vain ; Bride of heaven ! for blest fruition Thou shalt never wait again. KEMEMBEANCE. I HAVE struggled long with weakness, But my heart is free at last ; Never more will it be haunted With the phantoms of the past. Never more, from fairest maiden, The light witchery of a word Shall thrill my heart with rapture, When its magic tones are heard. And that heart, so long made heavy With inquietude and woe, Erom its fetters loosed, is ringing,* Like a quick shaft from the bow. Eorgotten be the trusted That have lightly broke their trust : And the dreams that I have cherished, Let them perish in the dust ! Yet there was one fair maiden. Sweetest vision of my youth. She was lovely when I loved her, And her words were like the truth. And they may have torn her from me ; She was faithful once, I know — No, she smiled beside the altar. And 't was not to hide her woe ! And how can she, smiling, meet me With that fearless, open brow ? 'T was like heaven, of old, to kiss it, 'T would be heaven to kiss it now. * Corrected to " singing " in the Boston Public Library copy. ENTERING HEAVEN. 405 Pause, remembrance, since forever, Leila, dreams of thee are sin — Oh, I thought my heart was stronger Till I paused and looked within ! ENTERING HEAVEN. Softly part away the tresses From her forehead of white clay, And across her quiet bosom Let her pale hands lightly lay ; Never idly in her lifetime Were they folded thus away. She hath lived a life of labor, She has done with toil and care, She hath lived a life of sorrow, She has nothing more to bear, And the lips that never murmured Never more shall move in prayer. You who watched with me beside her. As her last of nights went by, Know how calmly she assured us That her hour was drawing nigh ; How she told us, sweetly smiling, She was glad that she could die. Many times from off the pillow Lifting up her face to hear, She had seemed to watch and listen, Half in hope and half in fear. Often asking those about her If the day were drawing near. Till at last, as one aweary. To herself she murmured low, " Could I see him, could I bless him Only once before I go ; If he knew that I was dying, He would come to me, I know." 406 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Drawing then my head down gently, Till it lay beside her own, Said she, " Tell him in his anguish, When he finds that I am gone. That the bitterness of dying Was to leave him here alone. " Leave me now, my dear ones, leave me, You are wearied now, I know ; You have all been kind and watchful, You can do no more below. And if none I love are near me, 'T will be easier to go. " Let your warm hands chill not slipping From my fingers' icy tips, Be there not the touch of kisses On my uncaressing lips, Let no kindness see the darkening Of my eyes' last, long eclipse. " Never think of me as lying By the dismal mould o'erspread. But about the soft white pillow Folded underneath my head ; And of summer flowers weaving A rich broidery o'er my bed. " Think of the immortal spirit Living up above the sky. And of how my face, there wearing Light of immortality, Looking earthward, is o'erleaning The white bastions of the sky." Stilling then, with one last effort, All her weakness and her woe, She seemed wrapt in pleasant visions But to wait her time to go ; For she never after midnight Spoke of anything below, — OUR BABY. 407 But kept murmuring very softly Of cool streams and pleasant bowers, Of a pathway going up brightly, Where the fields were white with flowers ; And at daybreak she had entered On a better life than ours. OUR BABY. When the morning, half in shadow, Kan along the hill and meadow. And with milk-white fingers parted Crimson roses, golden-hearted ; Opening over ruins hoary Every purple morning-glory, And outshaking from the bushes Singing larks and pleasant thrushes ; — That 's the time our little baby, Strayed from Paradise, it may be. Came with eyes like heaven above her : 0, we could not choose but love her ! Not enough of earth for sinning. Always gentle, always winning, Never needing our reproving, Ever lovely, ever loving ; Starry eyes and sunset tresses, W^hite arms, made for light caresses. Lips that knew no word of doubting. Often kissing, never pouting ; Beauty even in completeness. Overfull in childish sweetness ; — That 's the way our little baby. Far too pure for earth, it may be. Seemed to us, who while about her Deemed we could not do without her. When the morning, half in shadow, Ran along the hill and meadow, And with milk-white fingers parted Crimson roses, golden-hearted; 408 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Opening over ruins hoary Every purple morning-glory, And outshaking from the bushes Singing larks and pleasant thrushes : — That 's the time our little baby, Pining here for heaven, it may be. Turning from our bitter weeping, Closed her eyes as when in sleeping^ And her white hands on her bosom Folded like a summer blossom. Now the litter she doth lie on. Strewed with roses, bear to Zion ; Go, as past a pleasant meadow Through the^valley of the shadow ; Take her softly, holy angels. Past the ranks of God's evangels, Past the saints and martyrs holy, To the Earth-born, meek and lowly ; We would have our precious blossom Softly laid in Jesus' bosom. THE OUTCAST. She died at the middle of night : And brother nor sister, lover nor friend, Came not near her their aid to lend, Ere the spirit took its flight. She died at the middle of night : Food and raiment she had no more, And the fire had died on the hearth before, 'T was a pitiful, pitiful sight. She died at the middle of night : No napkin pressed back the parted lips; No weeper, watching the eyes' eclipse, Covered them up from sight. THE LIFE OF' TRIAL. 409 She died at the middle of night: And there was no taper beside the dead, But the stars, through the broken roof o'erhead, Shone with a solemn light. She died at the middle of night : And the winter snow spread a winding-sheet Over the body from head to feet. Dainty, and soft, and white. She died at the middle of night : But if she heard, ere her hour was o'er, "I have not condemned thee, — sin no more," She lives where the day is bright. THE LIFE OF TEIAL. I AM glad her life is over. Glad that all her trials are past; For her pillow was not softened Down with roses to the last. When sharp thorns choked up the pathway Where she wandered sad and worn, Never kind hand pressed them backward, So her feet were pierced and torn. And when life's stern course of duty Through the fiery furnace ran, Never saw she one beside her, Like unto the Son of Man. Ere the holy dew of baptism Cooled her aching forehead's heat, Heaviest waters of affliction Many times had touched her feet. Long for her deliverance w^aiting. Clung she to the cross in vain ; With an agonizing birth-cry Was her spirit born again. 410 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. And her path grew always rougher Wearier, wearier, still she trod, Till, through gates of awful anguish, She went in at last to God ! OUR FRIEND. We tried to win her from her grief, To soothe her great despair ; We showed her how the starry flowers Were growing everywhere, — The starry flowers she used to braid At evening in her hair. We told her our hearts, for her, Beat mournfully and low ; How lines were deepening, day by day, Across her father's brow ; And how her little brother drooped, — He had no playmate now. And then she spoke of weary nights, Of dull and sleepless pain, And how she grieved that loving friends Should plead with her in vain ; And hoped that when the summer came She should be well again. Still softly singing to herself Sad words of plaintive rhyme. She always watched the sun's soft glow Fade off at eventime, As one who nursed a pleasant dream Of some delicious clime. Thus, sweetly as the flowers that once She wore at eventide. Faded and drooped the gentle girl, A blossom by our side. And her young light of life went out With sunset, when she died ! THE CONVICT'S CHILD. 411 THE CONVICT'S CHILD. Unlock the still home of the dead ; Down to its slumber we would lay One, who, with firm, unshrinking tread, Drew near and nearer day by day. For when the morn of life for her Hid all its beautiful light in tears, The shadow of the sepulchre Wore in her soul no human fears. Even in the spring-time of her youth, Before that she had wept or striven, With all its wealth of love and truth, She gave her young heart up to heaven. Something prophetic of her doom Before her vision sadly rose ; So, ere the evil days had come. She gathered strength to meet their woes. Child of a lost and guilty sire, She felt, what time must darkly prove. That home and hearth were not for her,' Nor the sweet ministries of love. And when her trembling heart at last By maiden hopes and fears was thrilled. Clasping the sacred cross more fast. That pleading for the earth was stilled. Turning from eyes whose tender ray Burned with affection true and deep, Love's passionate kisses never lay Upon her forehead but in sleep. Yet more than mortal may be tried Was she who firmly bore that part, And the meek martyr slowly died In crushing down the human heart. 412 , POEMS BY PUCEBE GARY. Pitying in such a world of storms Tlie woes of that unsheltered breast, Death kindly took her in his arms. And rocked her to eternal rest. Then softly, softly, down to sleep, Lay her where these white blossoms grow, And where the Sabbath silence deep Is broken, by no sound of woe ; — Where near her, the long summer through. Will sing this gently lulling stream ; 'T is the first rest she ever knew Haunted by no unquiet dream. AT THE WATER'S EDGE. There are little innocent ones, And their love is wondrous strong, Clinging about her neck, But they may not keep her long. Father! give her strength To loosen their grasp apart. And to fold her empty hands Calmly over her heart. And if the mists of doubt Fearfully rise and climb Up from that river that rolls Close by the shore of time, — Suddenly rend it away. Holy and Merciful One ! As the veil of the temple was rent. When the mission of Christ was done. So she can see the clime Where the jasper walls begin. And the pearl gates, half unclosed, Ready to shut her in. DEAD. 413 So she can see the saints, As they beckon with shining hand, Leaning over the towers, Waiting to see her land. Saviour ! we wait thy aid, For our human aid were vain ; We have gone to the water's edge, And must turn to the world again. For she stands where the waves of death Fearfully surge and beat. And the rock of the shore of life Is shelving under her feet. DEAD. Dead ! yet there comes no shriek, no tear, — My agony is dumb ; I 've thought, and feared, and known so long That such an hour must come : For when her once sweet household cares Grew wearier every day, And, dropping from her listless hand, Her work was put away, I knew that all her tasks were done. And, though I wept and prayed, I always thought of her as one For whom the shroud is made. She talked of growing strong and well. To soothe our parting pain : I knew it would be well with her Before we met again ; — I knew upon that lonesome hill, Where winter now is drear, They 'd have to make another grave Before another year. 414 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY, I hope that they will dig it there : I would not have it made Between the graves where strangers sleep, Under the cypress shade. I 'd have it where our sisters gone Are sleeping side by side, And where we weeping orphans laid Our mother when she died. There, too, with beauty scarcely dimmed, And curls of shining gold, We covered little Ellie's face, And hid it in the mould. So bring her there, and when they rise Who in the dust have lain. She '11 see her little baby wake, And take him up again. THE WATCHER'S STOEY. She has slept since first the firelight Mingled with the sun's last ray, — If she lives till after midnight She may see another day ; — Though she then could only number A few weary hours, at best. And 't were better if her slumber Could be deepened into rest. When about my neck, all night through. White arms, softly dimpled, lay. Then her face had not a shadow That I could not kiss away : And I knew the simple measure Of her little hopes and fears, Shared in all her childish pleasure, Pitied all her childish fears. But the maiden's deeper yearning Taught her maidenhood's disguise. THE WATCHER'S STORY. 415 When a tenderer light came burning In the soft depths of her eyes. Then she wandered down the meadows, Like some restless woodland elf, Or sat hidden deep in shadows, Singing softly to herself, Or repeated dreams elysian From some poet's touching strain, As some vague and nameless vision Were half-formed within the brain. I had counselled, led, reproved her, — Now the time for these was o'er. From a baby I had loved her. She could be a child no more. Then she grew a listless weeper, Scarce her lip might lightly speak. And the crimson glow was deeper In the white snow of her cheek. And sometimes, at midnight waking, I have heard her bitter sighs, And have seen the tear-drops breaking Through the closed lids of her eyes. Sometimes, like a shaken blossom, Moved her heart with visions sweet ; With my hand upon her bosom, I could feel it beat, and beat. While her young face down the meadows Kept in childhood's pleasant track, I could kiss off all the shadows, Other lips had kissed them back ! Oftener then the tear-dews pearly Dropped upon her soft white cheek. Sorrow came to her so early. And her womanhood was weak. Life grew weary, very weary : I had trembled, knowing well Evermore it must be dreary. When the first great shadow fell. It had fallen, — the old, sad story, Hope deferred, and wearying doubt ; From her youth's first crown of glory All the roses had dropped out. 416 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY, Once, when husbandmen were bearing To their barns the ripened ear, And that sorrow had been wearing On her mortal life a year ; As she sat with me at evening, Looking earnestly without, Still half hopeful, and half yielding ' To the bitterness of doubt ; Anxiously towards me leaning, Breaking off a lonesome tune, She asked, with deepest meaning, If the year had worn to June. Said I, roses lately blooming Have all faded from their prime ; And she answered, He is coming ! 'T is the season, 't is the time ! Then she looked adown the valley Towards the pleasant fields in sight, • Where the wheat was hanging heavy And the rye was growing white ; And she said, with full heart beating, And with earnest, trembling tone, " If to-night should be our meeting, Let me see him first alone." So with trust still unabated. With affection deep and true, She watched, and hoped, and waited. All the lonesome summer through. Till the autumn wind blew dreary ; Then she almost ceased to smile. And her spirit grew more weary Of its burden all the while. I remember well of sharing The last watch she ever kept. Till she turned away despairing. Saying sadly while she wept : — " Shut the window ! when 't is lifted I can feel the cheerless rain. And the yellow leaves are drifted O'er me, through the open pane. THE WATCHER'S STORY. 417 Heavy shadows, creeping nigher, Darken over all the walk ; Let us sit beside the fire, Where we used to sit and talk. Close the shutter, through the gloaming My poor eyes can see no more, And if any one is coming I shall hear them at the door. " my friend, but speak, and cheer me, — Speak until my heart grow light ; What if he were very near me, — What if he should come to-night ! It might be so, — ere the morrow He might sit there where thou art, And the weight of all this sorrow Be uplifted from my heart. Idle, idle, long endurance Changes hope to fear and doubt, Saying oft a sweet assurance Almost wears its meaning out. 0, my thoughts are foolish dreaming. Fancies of a troubled brain. Very like the truth in seeming; But he will not come again. Never will his hand caress me, Pushing back this faded hair, Never whisper soft, ' God bless thee ! ' Half in fondness, half in prayer. Well, if he were standing near me. Close as thou hast stood to-day, Could I make the Father hear me. Could I turn from him to pray ? " my friend, whose soul was never On such waves of passion tost. Plead for Heaven's sweet mercy ever, That I be not wholly lost ! Talk to me of peaceful bosoms. Never touched by mortal ills ; Talk of beds of fragrant blossoms, Whitening all the fadeless hills. 418 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY, Promises of sweet Evangels, Blessed hope of life above, eternity, angels ! Turn my thoughts from human love ! " DEEAMS. Whate'er before my sight appears, One vision in my heart is borne, — Two sweet, sad faces, wet with tears, Seen through the dim, gray light of morn. And half o'ershadowing them, arise Thoughts, which are never lulled to sleep, Of one, whose calm, rebuking eyes ' Are sadder that they do not weep. friend, whose lot it might not be To tread, with me, life's path of ills ! friend, who yet shalt walk with me The white path of the eternal hills ! Gone are the moments when we planned Those sweet, but unsubstantial bowers. In some unknown and pleasant land. Where all our future wound through flowers. Into the past eternity Have faded all those hopes and schemes ; That summer island in the sea Slept only in our sea of dreams. 1 know not if our hope was sin. When that fair structure was upbuilt ; But this I know, that mine has been The bitterest recompense of guilt. And the wild tempest of despair Still sweeps my spirit like a blast ; Tears, penance, agonizing prayer, — Could you not save me from the past ! PROPHECIES. 419 PROPHECIES. An urn within her clasped hands, Brimful and running o'er with dew Spring on the green hills smiling stands, Or walks in pleasant valley -lands, Through sprouting grass and violets blue. And but this morn, almost before The sunshine came its leaves to gild. In the old elm that shades our door. There came a timid bird to build. time of flowers ! time of song ! How does my heart rejoice again ! For pleasant things to thee belong ; And desolate, and drear, and long. To me was Winter's lonesome reign : Since last thou trodd'st the vale and hill, And nature with delight was rife, A shadow strange, and dark, and chill. Has hung above my house of life. But now I see its blackness drift Away, away, from out my sky ; And, as its heavy folds uplift, There shines upon me, through the rift, A burning star of prophecy : My heart is singing with the birds. Life's orb has passed from its eclipse ; And some sweet poet's hopeful words Are always, always, on my lips. thou who lov'st me ! my friend ! Whate'er thy fears, where'er thou art, As these soft skies above thee bend. Does not their pleasant sunshine lend A gleam of sunshine to thy heart ? Sweet prophecies through all the day Within my bosom softly thrill. And, while the night-time wears away, My sleep with pleasant visions fill. 420 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY, And I must whisper unto thee, Thou, who hast waited long in vain ; Though distant still the day may be, It shall be in our destiny To tread the selfsame path again ; And over hills, with blossoms white, Or lingering by the singing streams, That path shall wander on in light, And life be happier than our dreams ! THE POEM. I AM dreaming o'er a poem Of affection's strength sublime ; Loved, because that once I read it In the dear, dear olden time. While you sat and praised my reading Of the poet's touching rhyme. And how often, very gently. Did you check my cadence, when I read the sweetest verses Over to you once again ! I have read that blessed poem Many, many times since then ! Then you softly closed the volume. When I paused at the last line, While your eyes said sweeter poems, — Poems that were more divine ; And all Hybla sweets were clustered On the lips that dropped to mine. This is over now, all over, — And 't is better thus to be ; Yet I often sit and wonder Who is reading soft to thee. And if any voice is sweeter To thy heart than mine would be ! TO ONE WHO SANG OF LOVE. 421 TO ONE WHO SANG OF LOVE. Thou hast sung of love's confession Out beneath the starry skies, Of the rapture of the moment When tlie soul is breathed in sighs, And the maiden's trembling trans^Jort As she blushingly replies To the worship of a lover. Breathed from speaking lips and eyes. By the earnest tender pathos Of thy every witching line, Such an hour of bliss ecstatic Has surely once been thine : And I would that Heaven might answer This earnest wish of mine. That thy star of love and beauty May wane not, nor decline. Listening to the first confession. Lingering o'er the first fond kiss, — What an age of bliss is crowded In an hour of life like this ! Surely thine at such a moment Has been perfect happiness, And the maiden, the fond maiden, 0, I cannot guess her bliss ! Sometimes to my heart in slumber Thought so like the truth will steal, That the pressure of sweet kisses On my brow I almost feel ; And I dream fond lijDS -have uttered What they might no more conceal ; But I cannot, no, I cannot. Make such blessed visions real. 422 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY, AKCHIE. TO be back in the beautiful shadow Of that old maple-tree down in the meadow, Watching the smiles that grew dearer and dearer, Listening to lips that drew nearer and nearer ! to be back in the crimson-topped clover, Sitting again with my Archie, my lover ! for the time when I felt his caresses Smoothing away from my forehead the tresses, When up from my heart to my cheek went the blushes. As he said that my voice was as sweet as the thrush's, - When he said that my eyes were bewitchingly jetty. And I told him 't was only my love made them pretty. Talk not of maiden reserve and of duty. Or hide from my vision such wonderful beauty ; Pulses above may beat calmly and even, — We have been fashioned for earth, and not heaven ; Angels are perfect, — I am but a woman ; Saints may be passionless, — Archie is human. Talk not of heavenly, down-dropping blisses, — Can they fall on the brow like the rain of soft kisses ? Preach not the promise of priests and evangels, — Love-crowned, I ask not the crown of the angels ; All that the wall of pure jasper incloses Makes not less lovely the white bridal roses. Tell me that when all this life shall be over, 1 shall still love him, and he be my lover, — That in meadows far sweeter than clover or heather My Archie and I shall sit always together. Loving eternally, wed ne'er to sever, — Then you may tell me of heaven forever ! MAIDEN FEARS. 423 MAIDEN FEARS. He knows that I love him ; 0, how could he tell What I thought I would keep In my bosom so well, By guarding each action, Each, word, I might say ! Yet he knows that I love him, — O, woe to the day ! To hide it I tried By each innocent art, And thought I had kept it Down deep in my heart : Yet vain was my effort, My pride through the past, Since my weakness, my folly. Have shown it at last. 'T was last night that he learned it, When down in the grove He whispered me something Of hope and of love ; 'T was not that I faltered, I dared not to speak, — But the blood mounted up From my heart to my cheek. Not mine was the fault That such weakness was shown, — 0, he should not have kissed me By starlight alone ! And I thought, till I saw How he guessed at my love, I thought that the shadows Were deeper above ! Nay, thou canst not console me, My hopes are undone ; He will say that too lightly My heart has been won ; 424 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. And this spot on my forehead Forever will burn, For he knows that I love him, — He will not return ! He will say 't was unmaidly Thus to reveal What I might not, I could not, That moment conceal ; And the heart he has won Will cast lightly aside ; — O, I would, ere he knew it, I would I had died ! thou who hast never Been faithless to me, , Crushed, bleeding, and broken My heart turns to thee : Friend, counsellor, sister. Through all things the same Let me hide in thy bosom My blushes of shame ! THE UNGUAEDED MOMENT. Yes, my lips to-night have spoken Words I said they should not speak ; And I would I could recall them, — Would I had not been so weak. that one unguarded moment ! Were it mine to live again, All the strength of its temptation Would appeal to me in vain. True, my lips have only uttered What is ever in my heart : 1 am happy when beside him. Wretched when we are apart ; Though I listen to his praises Always longer than I should, Yet my heart can never hear them Half so often as it would ! NELLY. 425 And I would not, could not, pain him, Would not for the world offend, — I would have him know I like him, As a brother, as a friend ; But I meant to keep one secret In my bosom always hid, For I never meant to tell him That I loved him, — but I did. NELLY. I 'm glad you " don't love him," I really did fear (Nay, frown not so terribly, Nelly, my dear ;) His voice was so witching, His eyes were so bright, , Though you did not yet love him, I feared that you might ! So you 're candid, now, Nelly, You 're telling me true, " His voice never sounded Bewitching to you." Yet I sometimes have thought. When you heard his soft tone. That a little more tenderness Spoke in your own. And you 're sure you don't care, now, My dear little elf, "Who else he talks love to. So 't is not yourself." Sometimes when your forehead Such crimson would take, I suspected — no matter, I 've made a mistake. Nay, do not now, Nelly, 0, do not be mad ! Since you say you don't love him, It makes me so glad ; 426 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Because I would never Have told it, you see, But honestly, darling, He 's talked love to me ! Are you glad he has done What you wished him to do, — That he talked about love To another than you ? Yes, you surely must feel Quite a sense of relief ; — But those tears are not joyous, That sob is like grief ! He said he had hidden it Long in his breast ; — How you tremble ! — nay, listen, I '11 tell you the rest. * He said, just as true As I sit here alive. That he loved you, dear Nelly, — Aha ! you revive ! BUENING THE LETTEES. I SAID that they were valueless, — I 'd rather have them not, — All that since made them precious Was, or should have been, forgot ; I would do it very willingly, And not because I ought, — But I did not, somehow, find it Quite so easy as I thought. One was full of pleasant flattery ; — I do not think I 'm vain. And yet I paused a moment To read it once again. One repeated dear, old phrases I had heard a thousand times ; I had read him once some verses. And another praised my rhymes. A LAMENT. 427 One was just exactly like him, — Such a pretty little note ! One was interspersed with poetry That lovers always quote. I don't know why 1 read them Unless 't was just to know, Since they once had been so precious, What had ever made them so. I had told him when we parted, To think no more of me ; And I 'm sure he 's nothing to me, — Indeed, why should he be ? Yet the flame sunk down to ashes. And I sat and held them still ; But I said that I would burn them, — And, some other time, I will ! A LAMENT. Once in the season of childhood's joy, Dreaming never of life's great ills, Hand in hand with a happy boy, I walked about on my native hills, — Gathering berries ripe and fair, Pressing them oft to his smiling lip. Braiding flowers in his sunny hair. And letting the curls through my fingers slip. Watching the clouds of the evening pass Over the moon in her home of blue ; Or chasing fireflies over the grass. Till our feet were wet with the summer dew. Now I walk on the hills alone, Dreaming never of hope or joy, And over a dungeon's floor of stone Sweep the curls of that happy boy. 428 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. And every night when a rose-hedge springs Up from the ashes of sunset's pyre, And the eve-star, folding her golden wings, Drops like a bird in the leaves of fire, — I sit and think how he entered in, And farther and farther, every time, Followed the downward way of sin. Till it led to the awful gates of crime. I sit and think, till my great despair Rises up like a mighty wave, How fast the locks of my father's hair Are whitening now for the quiet grave. But never reproach on my lip has been, Never one moment can I forget. Though bound in prison and lost in sin, My brother once is my brother yet. THE LULLABY. Through the open summer lattice. Half revealed and half in shade. Yesternight I saw a mortal Whose remembrance will not fade. Little birds their heads had hidden Under wings of gold and brown ; Lily bells and luscious blossoms Softly had been folded down ; Fountains with their quiet dropping Only lulled the drowsy bees ; And the wind was lightly going In and out the tops of trees ; But the pale and restless creature — Had she dreamed too much before ? - Seemed as one whom sleep would visit Never, never, never more. THE LULLABY. 429 Rocking by the summer lattice, Rocking to and fro, she sung, O, the saddest, saddest music Ever fell from mortal tongae ! So she strove to hush the crying, Bitterer that 't was faint and low, Of the little baby pressing Close against her heart of woe. And her words were very mournful, And so very, very faint ; She was keeping doAvn her anguish, That no ear might hear her plaint. " Lullaby, my wretched baby ; Go to sleep and sleep till morn ! Lullaby, my wretched baby ; Would that thou hadst not been born ! " Mock me not with open eyelids, For thine eyes are soft and blue ; While in mine the midnight blackness Deepens, looking down on you. " Time shall bind about your forehead Sunny hair in golden bands ; Tangle not my raven tresses With your soft and clinging hands ! " Lullaby, my wretched baby ; O, how long the watches seem ! Lullaby, my wretched baby ; Dream and smile, and smile and dream ! " the sad eyes of my mother ! my brother, proud and brave ! the white hair of my father. Drooping sadly toward the grave ! " my sister, pure as heaven, Here thy head in sleep has lain ! ISTever on this wretched bosom Canst thou pillow it again ! 430 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. " Lullaby, my wretched baby ; Live I only for thy sake ! Lullaby, my wretched baby ; Sleep, and dream, and never wake ! " LEFT ALONE. She ^s left me here alone again : 'T will be a weary lot. Through all this cheerless winter time To live where she is not ; To sit, where once we used to sit. With smileless lip and dumb ; To count the moments since she went, And know not when she '11 come ! We talked through all the summer time, We 'd talked through all the spring, Of how upon the winter hearth We 'd make a pleasant ring ; Of how with loving words and looks The time should all be sped ; — The firelight's glow is mournful now, The books are all unread. We never were together long. We have not been so blest ; I might have known this hope of ours Would perish like the rest : And half I trembled all the while, And feared it would be so ; — The hand of fate would press me back From where her feet must go. If there shall ever be a time. When, as in days that were, My soul can whisj^er all its dreams And all its thoughts to her, — When I can share her heart's sweet hopes, Or soothe its bitter pain, — I would the hours were past till then, And that were come again ! ONE SHALL BE TAKEN. 431 THE RETROSPECT. As one who sees life's hopes have end, And cannot hush the bitter cry, Thou weep'st for that lost vale, my friend, Where childhood's pleasant places lie; And looking down the sloping track Where now our lonesome steps are told, Wouldst softly roll the seasons back, And leave us children as of old. Nay, weave sweet fancies as you will. Yet what is childish happiness To such great rapture as can fill The heart of womanhood with bliss ? And though the trials which years must bring Have come, and left thee what thou art. Think what a great and wondrous thing Is victory o'er the human heart ! Life's sparkling wine for us is dim. Only the bitter drops remain ; Yet for the brightness on the brim, Who would not drink the draught of pain ? And not in even ways, my friend. Attains the soul to regions higher ; If step by step our feet ascend, Their path must be a path of fire ! ONE SHALL BE TAKEK Dear friend, whose presence always made Even the dreariest night-time glad, — Whose lengthening absence darkens o'er The little sunshine that I had, — My heart is sad for thee to-night. And every wretched thought of mine Reaches across the lonesome hills, That lie between my home and thine. 432 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. woods, wherein our childish feet, Gathering the summer blossoms, strayed ! meadows white with clover-blooms ! soft, green hollows, where we played ! Can you not cool that aching brow. With all your shadows and your dew j And charm the slow and languid step Back to the joyous life it knew? Most loved, most cherished, since that hour When, as she blest thee o'er and o'er, Our mother put thee from her arms, To feel thy kisses never more ; And i, that scarce were missed, am spared, While o'er thy way the shadow lies. Infinite Mercy surely knew Thou wert the fittest for the skies ! THE BROTHERS. We had no home, we only had A shelter for our head : How poor we were, how scantily We all were clothed and fed ! But though a wretched little child, I know not why or how, I did not feel it half so much As I can feel it now ! When mother sat at night and sewed, My rest was calm and deep ; I did not know that she was tired, Or that she needed sleep. She wrapped the covering round our bed, In many an ample fold ; She had not half so much herself To keep her from the cold. I know it now, I know it all, — They knew it then above, — REMORSE. 433 Her life of patient sacrifice, And never-tiring love. I know, for then her tasks seemed done, — We all were grown beside, — How glad she must have been to go, After the baby died ! I do not care to deck me now With costly robe or gaud, — My mother dressed so plain at home. And never went abroad. I do not even want a shroud Of linen, white and pure, — They made our little baby one That was so coarse and poor. I had another brother then, I prayed that God would save ; I knew not life had darker dooms Than lying in the grave. I did not know, when o'er the dead So bitterly I cried, I 'd live to wish a thousand times The other, too, had died. KEMOESE. SWEETEST friend I ever had. How sinks my heavy heart to know That life, which was so bright for thee, Has lost its sunshine and its glow ! 1 cannot think of thee as one Sighing for calm repose in vain ; Nor of the beauty of thy smile, Faded and sadly dim with pain. Thou surely shouldst not be to-day Lying upon the autumn leaves. But in the borderfields of hope, Binding the blossoms into sheaves. 434 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. For, with a shadow on thy way, The sunshine of my life is o'er, And flowery dell and fresh green holt Can charm my footsteps nevermore ! And if I have not always seen The beauty of thy deeds aright, — If I have failed to make thy path As smooth and even as I might, — Hot thine the fault, but mine the sin, And I have felt its heaviest curse Fall on the heart that aches to-day. With vain repentance and remorse, — A heart that lifts its cry to thee. Above this wild and awful blast. That sweeping from the hills of home. Brings bitterest memories of the past. O, sweet forgiveness, from thy love. Send to me o'er the waste between ; Not as thou hop'st to be forgiven. For thou hast never bowed to sin. Pure as thy light of life was given. Thou still hast kept its steady flame ; And the chaste garment of thy soul Is white and spotless as it came. PEOPHECY. No great sea lifts its angry waves Between me and the friend most dear, And over all our household graves The grass has grown for many a year. With all that makes the heart rejoice, The days of summer go and come ; No feeble step, no failing voice. Saddens the chambers of our home. THE DREAMER. 435 Yet, though I know, and feel, and see, God's blessings all about my way, The burden of sad prophecy Lies heavy on my soul to-day. These awful words of destiny Are sounding in my heart and brain: "Not an unbroken family Shall summer find us here again ! " God ! if this indeed be so, Whose pillow then shall be unprest ? Whose heart, that feels life's pleasant glow, Shall faint, and beat itself to rest ? Eternal silence makes reply. We may not, cannot, know our doom ; No voice comes downward from the sky, No voice comes upward from the tomb. Yet this I would not ask in vain : Hide from my wretched eyes the day When by our household graves again The turf is lightly put away ! First from our home, though all descend At last to that one place of rest, solemn Earth ! mighty Friend ! Take me and hide me in thy breast ! THE DREAMER. Blow life's most fearful tempest, blow. And make the midnight wild and rough ; My soul shall battle with you now, — I 've been a dreamer long enough ! Open, sea, a darker path. Dash to my lips the angry spray ; The tenth wave of thy fiercest wrath Were nothing to my strength to-day ! 436 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Though floating onward listlessly When pleasant breezes softly blew, My spirit with the adverse sea Shall rise, and gather strength anew. Wake, soul of mine, and be thou strong ; Keep down thy weakness, human heart ; Thou hast unnerved my arm too long, foolish dreamer that thou art ! For I have sat and mused for hours Of havens that I yet should see, Of winding paths, of pleasant flowers, And summer islands in the sea, — Forgetful of the storms that come, Of winds that dig the ocean grave, And sharp reefs hidden by the foam That drifts like blossoms on the wave, — Forgetful, too, that he who guides Must have a firm and steadfast hand, If e'er his vessel safely rides Through storm and breaker to the land, — Idly and listless drifting on. Feeding my fancy all the while. As lovesick dreamers feed upon The honeyed sweetness of a smile. Fool that I was, — ay ! Folly's mock, — To think not, in those pleasant hours, How barks have foundered on the rock, And drifted past tlie isles of flowers ! Yet well it were, if, roused to feel, 1 yet avert such fearful fate, — The quick, sharp grating of the keel Had been a warning all too late. But courage still ; for whether now Or rough or smooth life's ocean seems, To-day my soul records her vow, Hereafter I am done with dreams ! THE CONSECRATION. 437 THE CONSECRATIOK O SOUL, that must survive that hour When heart shall fail and flesh decay ! God, angels, men, are witnesses Of vows which tliou hast made to-day. What solemn fears this hour are born, What joyful hopes this hour are given ! Thought reaches down from heaven to hell, And up from farthest hell to heaven. Before my fearful vision "pass Those star-like souls, grown darkly dim, — The sea of mingled glass and fire, The saints and priests with conquering hymn. God ! shall I go down with those. Wandering through blackness from their place, Or up with the redeemed and saved. Who stand before their Father's face ? For now my eyes have seen the truth, This is thy sure and just decree: " If I shall turn again to sin. There is no sacrifice for me ; " And the baptismal touch, which lay So lightly on the brow beneath, Shall be omnipotent in power. To press me surely down to death. Its seal shall be a diadem, To shine amid the angel choir. Or on my forehead burn in hell. An everlasting crown of fire ; And all who hear my vows to-day Shall hear my final sentence read : God, angels, men, are witnesses At the great judgment of the dead. 438 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. DRAWING WATER. I HAD drunk, with lip un sated, Where the founts of pleasure burst ; I had hewn out broken cisterns, And they mocked my spirit's thirst : And I said, life is a desert. Hot, and measureless, and dry ; And God will not give me water. Though I pray, and faint, and die. Spoke there then a friend and brother, " Rise, and roll the stone away ; There are founts of life upspringing In thy pathway every day." Then I said my heart was sinful, Very sinful was my speech ; All the wells of God's salvation Are too deep for me to reach. And he answered, " Rise and labor, — Doubt and idleness is death ; Shape thee out a goodly vessel With the strong hands of thy faith." So I wrought and shaped the vessel, Then knelt lowly, humbly there, And I drew up living water With the golden chain of prayer. SOLEMNITY OF LIFE. Whether are cast our destinies In peaceful ways, or ways of strife ; A solemn thing to us it is. This mystery of human life. SOLEMNITY OF LIFE. 439 Solemn, when first, unconscious, dumb, Within an untried world we stand, Immortal beings that have come Newly from God's creating hand. And solemn, even as 't is fleet, The time when, learning childish fears, We cross, with scarcely balanced feet, The threshold of our mortal years. 'T is solemn, when, with parting smiles, We leave its innocence and truth, To learn how deeper than the child's Are all the loves and fears of youth. It is a solemn thing to snap The cords of human love apart ; More solemn still to feel them wrap Their wondrous strength about the heart. 'T is solemn to have ever known The pleadings of the soul unmoved, — Solemn to feel ourselves alone ; More solemn still to be beloved. It is a solemn thing to wear The roses of the bridal wreath, — Solemn the w^ords we utter there. Of faith unchanging until death. Solemn is life, when God unlocks The fountain in the soul most deep, — Solemn the heart-beat, when it rocks A young immortal to its sleep. 'T is solemn when the Power above Darkens our being's living spark, — Solemn to see the friends we love Going downward from us to the dark. O human life, when all thy woes And all thy trials are struggled through, What can eternity disclose More wondrous solemn than we knew ! 440 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. MY BLESSINGS. Great waves of plenty rolling up Their golden billows to our feet, Fields where the ungathered rye is white, Or heavy with the yellow wheat ; Wealth surging inward from the sea, And plenty through our land abroad, With sunshine resting over all, That everlasting smile of God ! For these, yet not for these alone. My tongue its gratitude would say : All the great blessings of my life Are present in my thought to-day. For more than all my mortal wants Have been, God, thy full supplies ; — Health, shelter, and my daily bread. For these my grateful thanks arise. For ties of faith, whose wondrous strength Time nor eternity can part ; For all the words of love that fall Like living waters on my heart ; For even that fearful strife, where sin Was conquered and subdued at length, Temptations met and overcome. Whereby my soul has gathered strength ; For all the warnings that have come From mortal agony or death ; For even that bitterest storm of life. Which drove me on the rock of faith. For all the past I thank thee, God ! And for the future trust in thee, Whate'er of trial or blessing yet, Asked or unasked, thou hast for me. SABBATH THOUGHTS. 441 Yet only this one boon I crave, — After life's brief and fleeting hour, Make my beloved thy beloved, And keep us in thy day of power ! SABBATH THOUGHTS. I AM sitting all the while Looking down the solemn aisle. Toward the saints and martyrs old, Standing in their niches cold, — Toward the wings of cherubs fair, Veiling half their golden hair. And the painted light that falls Through the window on the walls. I can see the revered flow Of soft garments, white as snow. And the shade of silver hair Dropping on the book of prayer. I can hear the litany, " Miserable sinners, we ! " And the organ swelling higher, And the chanting of the choir. And I marvel if with them. In the new Jerusalem, I shall hear the sacred choir Chant with flaming tongues of fire ; If I e'er shall find a place With the ransomed, saved by grace ; If my feet shall ever tread Where the just are perfected ? Not, my soul, as now thou art; Not with this rebellious heart ; Not with nature unsubdued, Evil overshadowing good ; Not while I for pardon seek With a faith so faint and weak ; Not while tempted thus to sin, From without and from within ! 442 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Thou whom love did once compel Down from heaven to sleep in hell ; Thou whose mercy purged from dross Even the thief upon the cross, Save me, thou bleeding Lamb, Chief of sinners though I am, When, with clouds about thee furled, Thou shalt come to judge the world ! NEAEER HOME. One sweetly solemn thought Comes to me o'er and o'er, — I am nearer home to-day Than I ever have been before ; — Nearer my Father's house Where the many mansions be ; Nearer the great white throne. Nearer the jasper sea ; — Nearer the bound of life Where we lay our burdens down; Nearer leaving the cross, Nearer gaining the crown. But lying darkly between, Winding down through the night, Is the dim and unknown stream That leads at last to the light. Closer and closer my steps Come to the dark abysm; Closer death to my lips Presses the awful chrysm. Father, perfect my trust ; Strengthen the might of my faith ; Let me feel as I would when I stand On the rock of the shore of death, - SOWING SEED. 443 Feel as I would when my feet Are slipping o'er the brink ; For it may be I 'm nearer home, — Nearer now than I think. HYMN. God of the Sabbath, calm and still, Father, in whom we live and move. How do our trembling bosoms thrill With words which tell us of thy love ! Thine heralds, speaking of the tomb, The organ's voice, the censer's flame, The solemn minister's shadowy gloom. Awe us, and make us fear thy name. The earthquake, opening deep its graves. The lightning, running down the sky, The great sea, lifting up its waves Speak of thine awful majesty ! But once thou cam est in Eden's prime, Lord of the soul, to talk with men. And in the cool of eventime Thou seemest with us, now as then. For when our trembling souls draw near. And silence keeps the earth and sea. Thou speak' st, with no interpreter To stand between our hearts and thee ! SOWING SEED. Go and sow beside all waters, In the morning of thy youth, In the evening scatter broadcast Precious seeds of living truth. 444 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. For though much may sink and perish In the rocky, barren mould, And the harvest of thy labor May be less than thirty-fold, Let thy hand be not withholden, Still beside all waters sow, For thou know'st not which shall prosper, Whether this or that will grow, While some precious portion, scattered. Germinating, taking root. Shall spring up, and grow, and ripen Into never-dying fruit. Therefore, sow beside all waters, Trusting, hoping, toiling on ; When the fields are white for harvest, God will send his angels down. And thy soul may see the value Of its patient morns and eves. When the everlasting garner Shall be filled with precious sheaves. THE BAPTISM. From the waters of aflB.iction, From her baptism of dark woe. With her sweet eyes very mournful, ' And her forehead like the snow. Came she up ; and, 0, how many In such hours of trial are seen. When they faint with mortal weakness. Knowing not whereon to lean ! With her face upon my bosom, Said she then in accent sad. As she wound her arms about me, I was all the friend she had. THE BAPTISM. 445 And I told her — pushing backward From her forehead like the snow, All her tear-wet tresses, dripping With that baptism of dark woe — How, in all that great affliction, Loving hands had led her on, When she came up from the waters. Led her when her feet went down, — And that only the good Father, He who thus her faith had tried, Could have brought her through the billows Safely to the other side. And I told her how life's pilgrims Crossed that solemn stream beneath, To a brighter pathway leading. Up the living hills of faith. Lifting upward from my bosom Then her forehead like the snow, I will weep, she said, no longer. Therefore rise and let us go ! And, as one who walks untroubled By no mortal doubt or fear. Oft we heard her far above us. Singing hymns of lofty cheer, — Till with feet that firmly balanced On faith's summit-rock she trod. And beheld the shining bastions Of the city of our God. Then her voice was tenderer, holier, She grew gentler all the while ; It was like a benediction But to see her patient smile. As she walked with cheerful spirit Where her daily duties led, " Father, keep me from temptation," Was the only prayer she said. 446 POEMS BY PHOEBE GARY, Often made she earnest pleading, As she went from us apart, To be saved through all her lifetime From the weakness of her heart. And she prayed that she might never, Never in her trials below. Bring her soul before the altar, Wailing in unchastened woe. So her hands of faith were strengthened, And when clouds about her lay, From her bosom all the darkness She could softly put away. Smilingly she went unaided, When we would have led her on. Saying always to our pleading, Better that I go alone. Turned she from the faces dearest When her feet more feebly trod. That she might not then be tempted By a mortal love from God. So the Father, for her pleading, Kept her safe through all life's hours, And her path went brightly upward To eternity through flowers. THE HOSTS OF THOUGHT. How heavy fall the evening shades. Making the earth more dark and drear, As to its sunset sadly fades This, the last Sabbath of the year ! Oft, when the light has softly burned Among the clouds, as day was done, I Ve watched their golden furrows turned By the red plowshare of the sun. THE HOSTS OF THOUGHT. 447 To-night, no track of billowy gold Is softly slanting down the skies; But dull-gray bastions, dark and cold, Shut all the glory from my eyes. And in the plain that lies below, What cheerless prospect meets my eye I One long and level reach of snow, Stretching to meet the western sky ! While far across these lonesome vales, Like a lost soul, and unconfined, Down through the mountain gorges wails The awful spirit of the wind. When, yester-eve, the twilight stilled, With soft, caressing hand, the day, Upon my heart, that joyous thrilled, A sweet, tumultuous vision lay. To-night, in sorrow's arms enwound, I think of broken faith and trust. And tresses, from their flowers unbound. Hid in the dimness of the dust. And hopes that took their heavenward flight, As fancy lately gave them birth. Slow through the solemn air to-night Are beating backward to the earth. memory, if the shadowy hand Lock all thy death-crypts close and fast, Call not ray spirit back to stand In the dark chamber of the past ! For trembling fear, and mortal doubt, About me all day long have been ; So even the dreary world without Is brighter than the world within. Pale hosts of thought before me start : for that needed power I lack, To guard the fortress of my heart, And press their awful columns back! 448 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. O for a soul to meet their gaze, And grapple fearless with its woe ! As the wild athlete, of old days, In the embraces of the foe ! Thoughts of the many lost and loved, — Each unfulfilled and noble plan, — Memories of Sabbaths unimproved, — Duty undone to God or man ; — They come, with solemn,' warning frown, Like ghosts about some haunted tent.; And courage silently goes down. Before their dreadful armament. friend of mine, in years agone, Where'er, at this dark hour, thou art, Why hast thou left me here alone, To fight the battles of the heart ? Alone ? A soft eye's tender light Is turned to meet my anxious glance ; ^ And, struggling upward from the night, My soul hath broken from the trance. Love is omnipotent to check Such 'wildering fancies of the brain ; A soft hand trembles on my neck, And lo, I sit with hope again ! Even the sky no longer seems Like a dull barrier, built afar ; And through its crumbling wall there gleams The sweet flame of one burning star. The winds, that from the mountain's brow Came down the dreary plains to sweep, Back, in the cavernous hollow, now Have softly sung themselves to sleep. Come, thou, whose love no waning knows, And put thy gentle hand in mine. For strong in faith my spirit grows, Leaning confidingly on thine. THE BOOK OF POEMS. ■ 449 And in the calm, or in the strife, If side by side with thee I move, Hereafter 1 will live a life That shall not shame thy trusting love. Memory and fear, with all their powers, No more my soul shall crush or bend; For the great future still is ours. And thou art with me, my friend ! THE BOOK OF POEMS. On the pages whose rhymed music So oft has charmed thine ears, I have gazed till my heart is filling With memories of vanished years ; And, leaving the lines of the poet, Has sadly turned to roam Away to that beautiful valley • In the sunset land of home ! land of the greenest pastures, land of the coolest streams, Shall I only again be near you In the shadowy light of dreams ? Shall I only sit in visions By the hearth in the lattice-pane. And my friend of the past, my brother, Shall w^e meet not there again ? As a sweet memorial ever This book to my heart will be ; But I never can read its pages So far from home and thee ; For the words grow dim before me, Or tremble on my lips, And the disc of life's orb of beauty, Is darkened with woe's eclipse. So forever closed and clasped Shall the volume lie unread, 450 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. As might in some ancient cloister The gift of the saintly dead, Till our hands shall open its pages Once more beneath that dome That hangs over the beautiful valley. In the sunset land of home ! TO FRANK. 'T IS three years and something over Since I looked upon you last, But I only think about you As I saw you in the past. And when memory recalls you, As she has done to-day, You 're just as young, and just as small, As when you went away. I can see you hunt for flowers In the meadows green and sweet. Or go wading through the hollows, With your little naked feet j — Or peeping through the bushes That hedged the garden round, To see if any little birds Were in the nest you 'd found. And I know how in the clover. Where the bees were used to come. You held them down beneath your hat, To hear their pleasant hum. And how in summer evenings. Through the door-yard wet with dew. The watch-dog led you many a chase, — He 's growing older too ! DA WN. 451 I know when on the dear old porch We coaxed you first to walk, And treasured every word you said When you began to talk. We asked you what you meant to be, And laughed at your replies, Because you said, when you grew up To manhood, you 'd be wise. And may you pray the God of love, And I will pray him too. To make you wise in every thing That makes man good and true ! DAWN. The sunken moon was down an hour agone ; — And now the little silver cloud, that leant So lovingly above her as she went, Is changing with the touches of the dawn : For from the clasped arms of the sweet night, Lo ! the young Dawn has gently stolen away And stars, that late burned with an intense ray, Fade to a wannish, melancholy light. A moment, smiling on the hills she stands. Parting the curtains of the East away ; Then lightly, with her white caressing hands. Touches the trembling eyelids of. the Day ; And, leaning o'er his couch of rosy beams, Wooes him with kisses softly from his dreams. 452 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY, PARODIES. ^I^iOC MAETHA HOPKINS * A BALLAD OF INDIANA. From the kitchen, Martha Hopkins, as she stands there making pies, Southward looks, along the turnpike, with, her hand above her eyes ; Where, along the distant hill-side, her yearling heifer feeds. And a little grass is growing in a mighty sight of weeds. All the air is full of noises, for there is n't any school, And boys, with turned-up pantaloons, are wading in the pool; Blithely frisk unnumbered chickens, cackling, for they cannot laugh : Where the airy summits brighten, nimbly leaps the little calf. Gentle eyes of Martha Hopkins ! tell me wherefore do ye gaze On the ground that 's being furrowed for the planting of the maize ? Tell me wherefore down the valley ye have traced the turnpike's way, Far beyond the cattle-pasture, and the brickyard, with its clay ? Ah ! the dog- wood tree may blossom, and the door-yard grass may shine. With the tears of amber dropping from the washing on the line, And the morning's breath of balsam lightly brush her freckled cheek, — Little recketh Martha Hopkins of the tales of spring they speak. * Parodied from Bayard Taylor's " Manuela, a Ballad of California." MARTHA HOPKINS. 453 When the summer's burning solstice on the scanty har- vest glowed, She had watched a man on horseback riding down the turnpike-road ; Many times she saw him turning, looking backward quite forlorn. Till amid her tears she lost him, in the shadow of the barn. Ere the supper-time was over, he had passed the kiln of brick. Crossed the rushing Yellow River, and had forded quite a creek, And his flatboat load was taken, at the time for pork and beans. With the traders of the Wabash, to the wharf at JSTew Orleans. Therefore watches Martha Hopkins, holding in her hand the pans, WTien a sound of distant footsteps seems exactly like a man's ; Not a wind the stove-pipe rattles, nor a door behind her jars, Bat she seems to hear the rattle of his letting down the bars. Often sees she men on horseback, coming down the turnpike rough. But they come not as John Jackson, she can see it well enough ; Well she knows the sober trotting of the sorrel horse he keeps. As he jogs along at leisure, with his head down like a sheep's. She would know him ^mid a thousand, by his home-made coat and vest ; By his socks, which were blue woollen, such as farmers wear out west ; By the color of his trousers, and his saddle, which was spread, By a blanket which was taken for that purpose from the bed. 454 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. None like he the yoke of hickory on the unbroken ox can throw, None amid his father's cornfields use like him the spade and hoe ; And at all the apple-cuttings, few indeed the men are seen That can dance with him the Polka, touch with him the violin. He has said to Martha Hopkins, and she thinks she hears him now, For she knows as well as can be, that he meant to keep his vow. When the buckeye tree has blossomed, and your uncle plants his corn. Shall the bells of Indiana usher in the wedding morn. He has pictured his relations, each in Sunday hat and gown. And he thinks he '11 get a carriage, and they '11 spend a day in town ; That their love will newly kindle, and what comfort it will give, To sit down to the first breakfast, in the cabin where they '11 live. Tender eyes of Martha Hopkins ! what has got you in such scrape ? 'T is a tear that falls to glitter on the ruffle of her cape. Ah ! the eye of love may brighten, to be certain what it sees. One man looks much like another, when half hidden by the trees. But her eager eyes rekindle, she forgets the pies and bread. As she sees a man on horseback, round the corner of the shed. Now tie on another apron, get the comb and smooth your hair, 'T is the sorrel horse that gallops, 't is John Jackson's self that 's there ! WORSER MOMENTS. 455 WORSER MOMENTS * That fellow's voice ! how often steals Its cadence o'er my lonely days ! Like something sent on wagon-wheels, Or packed in an unconscious chaise. I might forget the words he said When all the children fret and cry, But when I get them off to bed, His gentle tone comes stealing by, And years of matrimony flee, And leave me sitting on his knee. The times he came to court a spell, The tender things he said to me, Make me remember mighty well My hopes that he 'd propose to me. My face is uglier, and perhaps Time and the comb have thinned my hair. And plain and common are the caps And dresses that I have to wear ; But memory is ever yet With all that fellow's flatteries writ. I have been out at milking-time Beneath a dull and rainy sky, When in the barn 't was time to feed. And calves were bawling lustily, — When scattered hay, and sheaves of oats. And yellow corn-ears, sound and hard. And all that makes the cattle pass With wilder fleetness through the yard, — When all was hateful, then have I, With friends who had to help me milk, Talked of his wife most spitefully. And how he kept her dressed in silk ; And when the cattle, running there. Threw over me a shower of mud. That fellow's voice came on the air, Like the light chewing of the cud. And resting near some speckled cow, The spirit of a woman's spite, * Parodied from N. P. Willis's " Better Moments." 456 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. I Ve poured a low and fervent vow To make him, if I had the might, Live all his lifetime just as hard. And milk his cows in such a yard. I have been out to pick up wood, When night was stealing from the dawn, Before the fire was burning good. Or I had put the kettle on The little stove, — when babes were waking With a low murmur in the beds, And melody by fits was breaking Above their little yellow heads, — And this when I was up perhaps From a few short and troubled naps, — And when the sun sprang scorchingly And freely up, and made us stifle, And fell upon each hill and tree The bullets from his subtle rifle, — I say a voice has thrilled me then. Hard by that solemn pile of wood. Or creeping from the silent glen. Like something on the unfledged brood, Hath stricken me, and I have pressed Close in ray arms my load of chips. And pouring forth the hatefulest Of words that ever passed my lips, Have felt my woman's spirit rush On me, as on that milking night, And, yielding to the blessed gush Of my ungovernable spite. Have risen up, the red, the old, Scolding as hard as I could scold. THE ANNOYER.* " Common as light is love, And its familiar voice wearies not ever." — Shelley. Love knoweth everybody's house, And every human haunt. And comes unbidden everywhere, Like people we don't want. * Parodied from a poem by N. P. Willis "with the same title and same motto. THE ANNOYER. 457 The turnpike-roads and little creeks Are written with love's words, And you hear his voice like a thousand bricks In the lowing of the herds. He peeps into the teamster's heart, From his Buena Vista'*s rim. And the cracking whips of many men Can never frighten him. He '11 come to his cart in the weary night, When he 's dreaming of his craft ; And he '11 float to his eye in the morning light Like a man on a river raft. He hears the sound of the cooper's adze. And makes him, too, his dupe. For he sighs in his ear from the shaving pile, As he hammers on the hoop. The little girl, the beardless boy, The men that walk or stand. He will get them all in his mighty arms, Like the grasp of your very hand. The shoemaker bangs above his bench, And ponders his shining awl, For love is under the lapstone hid, And a spell is on the wall. It heaves the sole where he drives the pegs, And speaks in every blow, Till the last is dropped from his crafty hand And his foot hangs bare below. He blurs the prints which the shopmen sell, And intrudes on the hatter's trade, And profanes the hostler's stable-yard In the shape of the chamber-maid. In the darkest night and the bright daylight, Knowing that he can win, In every home of good-looking folks Will human love come in. 458 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. SAMUEL BROWN * It was many and many a year ago, In a dwelling down in town, That a fellow there lived whom you may know, By the name of Samuel Brown ; And this fellow lived with no other thought Than to our house to come down. I was a child, and he was a child. In that dwelling down in town, But we loved with a love that was more than love, I and my Samuel Brown, With a love that the ladies coveted Me and Samuel Brown. And this was the reason that, long ago. To that dwelling down in town, A girl came out of her carriage, courting My beautiful Samuel Brown ; — So that her high-bred kinsman came * And bore away Samuel Brown, And shut him up in a dwelling-house, In a street quite up in town. The ladies not half so happy up there, Went envying me and Brown ; Yes ! that was the reason, (as all men know. In this dwelling down in town), That the girl came out of the carriage by night, Coquetting and getting my Samuel Brown. But our love is more artful by far than the love Of those who are older than we, — Of many far wiser than we. And neither the girls that are living above, Nor the girls that are down in town. Can ever dissever my soul from the soul Of the beautiful Samuel Brown. * Parodied from Poe's " Annabel Lee." GRANNY'S HOUSE. 459 For the morn never shines without bringing me lines From my beautiful Samuel Brown ; And the night 's never dark, but I sit in the park With my beautiful Samuel Brown. And often by day, I walk down in Broadway, With ray darling, my darling, my life and my stay To our dwelling down in town, To our house in the street down town. GKANNY'S HOUSE.* Comrades, leave me here a little, while as yet ^t is early morn, Leave me here, and when you want me, sound upon the dinner-horn. 'T is the place, and all about it, as of old, the rat and mouse Very loudly squeak and nibble, running over Granny's house ; — Granny's house, with all its cupboards, and its rooms as neat as wax. And its chairs of wood unpainted, where the old cats rubbed their backs. Many a night from yonder garret window, ere I went to rest. Did I see the cows and horses come in slowly from the west; Many a night I saw the chickens, flying upward through the trees. Roosting on the sleety branches, when I thought their feet would freeze ; Here about the garden wandered, nourishing a youth sublime With the beans, and sweet potatoes, and the melons which were prime ; When the pumpkin-vines behind me with their precious fruit reposed. When I clung about the pear-tree, for the promise that it closed, * Parodied from Tennyson's " Locksley Hall." 460 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. When I dipt into the dinner far as human eye could see, Saw the vision of the pie, and all the dessert that would be. In the spring a fuller crimson comes upon the robin's breast ; In the spring the noisy pullet gets herself another nest ; In the spring a livelier spirit makes the ladies' tongues more glib ; In the spring a young boy's fancy lightly hatches up a fib. Then her cheek was plump and fatter than should be for one so old, And she eyed my every motion, with a mute intent to scold. And I said. My worthy Granny, now I speak the truth to thee, — Better believe it, — I have eaten all the apples from one tree. On her kindling cheek and forehead came a color and a light, As I have seen the rosy red flashing in the northern night ; And she turned, — her fist was shaken at the coolness of the lie ; She was mad, and I could see it, by the snapping of her eye. Saying I have hid my feelings, fearing they should do thee wrong, — Saying, " I shall whip you, Sammy, whipping, I shall go it strong ! " She took me up and turned me pretty roughly, when she 'd done. And every time she shook me, I tried to jerk and run ; She took off my little coat, and struck again with all her might. And before another minute I was free and out of sight. Many a morning, just to tease her, did I tell her stories yet. Though her whisper made me tingle, when she told me what I 'd get ; Many an evening did I see her where the willow sprouts grew thick. And I rushed away from Granny at the touching of her stick. GRANNTS HOUSE. 461 my Granny, old and ugly, my Granny's hateful deeds, the empty, empty garret, the garden gone to weeds, Grosser than all fancy fathoms, crosser than all songs have sung, 1 was puppet to your threat, and servile to your shrewish tongue. Is it well to wish thee happy, having seen thy whip decline On a boy with lower shoulders, and a narrower back, than mine ? Hark, my merry comrades call me, sounding on the din- ner-horn, — They to whom my Granny's whippings were a target for their scorn ; Shall it not be scorn to me to harp on such a mouldered string ? I am shamed through all my nature to have loved the mean old thing; Weakness to be wroth with weakness ! woman's pleasure, woman's spite, Nature made them quicker motions, a considerable sight. Woman is the lesser man, and all thy whippings matched with mine Are as moonlight unto sunlight, and as water unto wine. Here at least when I was little, something. 0, for some retreat Deep in yonder crowded city where my life began to beat. Where one winter fell my father, slipping off a keg of lard; I was left a trampled orphan, and my case was pretty hard. Or to burst all links of habit, and to wander far and fleet, On from farm-house unto farm-house till I found my Uncle Pete, Larger sheds and barns, and newer, and a better neigh- borhood. Greater breadth of field and woodland, and an orchard just as good. Never comes my Granny, never cuts her willow switches there ; Boys are safe at Uncle Peter's, I '11 bet you what you dare. 462 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. Hangs the heavy fruited pear-tree : you niay eat just what you like ; 'T is a sort of little Eden, about two miles off the pike. There, methinks, would be enjoyment, more than being quite so near To the place where even in manhood I almost shake with fear. There the passions, cramped no longer, shall have scope and breathing space. I will 'scape that savage woman, she shall never rear my race ; Iron-jointed, supple-sinewed, they shall dive and they shall run ; She has caught me like a wild goat, but she shall not catch my son. He shall whistle to the dog, and get the books from off the shelf, Not, with blinded eyesight, cutting ugly whips to whip himself. Fool again, the dream of fancy ! no, I don't believe it 's bliss, But I 'm certain Uncle Peter's is a better place than this. Let them herd with narrow foreheads, vacant of all glo- rious gains. Like the horses in the stables, like the sheep that crop the lanes ; Let them mate with dirty cousins, — what to me were style or rank, I the heir of twenty acres, and some money in the bank ? Not in vain the distance beckons, forward let us urge our load. Let our cart-wheels spin till sundown, ringing down the grooves of road ; Through the white dust of the turnpike she can't see to give us chase : Better seven years at uncle's, than fourteen at Granny's place. 0, I see the blessed promise of my spirit hath not set ! If we once get in the wagon, we will circumvent her yet. Howsoever these things be, a long farewell to Granny's farm : Not for me she '11 cut the willows, not at me she '11 shake her arm. THE DAY IS DONE, 463 Comes a vapor from the margin, blackening over heath and holt, Cramming all the blast before it, — guess it holds a thun- derbolt : Wish 't would fall on Granny's house, with rain, or hail, or lire, or snow. Let me get my horses started Uncle Peteward, and I '11 go. THE DAY IS DONE* The day is done, and darkness From the wing of night is loosed, As a feather is wafted downward From a chicken going to roost. I see the lights of the baker Gleam through the rain and mist. And a feeling of sadness comes o'er me, That I cannot well resist. A feeling of sadness and longing ^ That is not like being sick. And resembles sorrow only As a brick-bat resembles a brick. Come, get for me some supper, — A good and regular meal, That shall soothe this restless feeling, And banish the pain I feel. Not from the pastry baker's, Not from the shops for cake, I would n't give a farthing For all that they can make. For, like the soup at dinner. Such things would but suggest Some dishes more substantial. And to-night I want the best. * Parodied from Longfellow's " The Day is Done." 464 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Go to some honest butcher, Whose beef is fresh and nice As any they have in the city, And get a liberal slice. Such things through days of labor, And nights devoid of ease, For sad and desperate feelings Are wonderful remedies. They have an astonishing power To aid and reinforce, And come like the " Finallj^, brethren,'^ That follows a long discourse. Then get me a tender sirloin From off the bench or hook. And lend to its sterling goodness The' science of the cook. And the night shall be filled with comfort, And the cares with which it begun Shall fold up their blankets like Indians, And silently cut and run. JOHN THOMPSON'S DAUGHTER.* A FELLOW near Kentucky's clime Cries, " Boatman, do not tarry, And I '11 give thee a silver dime To row us o'er the ferry." " Now, who would cross the Ohio, This dark and stormy water ? " " 0, I am this young lady's beau, And she John Thompson's daughter. "We 've fled before her father's spite With great precipitation, And should he find us here to-night, I 'd lose my reputation. * Parodied from Campbell's '* Lord TJllin's Daughter." JOHN THOMPSON'S DAUGHTER. 465 "They 've missed the girl and purse beside, His horsemen hard have pressed me, And who will cheer my bonny bride. If yet they shall arrest me ? " Out spoke the boatman then in time, " You shall not fail, don't fear it j I '11 go, not for your silver dime, But for your manly spirit. " And by my word, the bonny bird In danger shall not tarry ; For though a storm is coming on, I '11 row you o'er the ferry." By this the wind more fiercely rose, The boat was at the landing, And with the drenching rain their clothes Grew wet where they were standing. But still, as wilder rose the wind. And as the night grew drearer. Just back a piece came the police, Their tramping sounded nearer. " 0, haste thee, haste ! " the lady cries, " It 's anything but funny ; I '11 leave the light of loving eyes. But not my father's money ! " And still they hurried in the face Of wind and rain unsparing ; John Thompson reached the landing-place. His wrath was turned to swearing. For by the lightning's angry flash, His child he did discover ; One lovely hand held all the cash, And one was round her lover ! " Come back, come back," he cried in woe, Across the stormy water ; " But leave the purse, and you may go. My daughter, my daughter ! " 466 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. 'T was vain ; they reached the other shore, (Such dooms the Fates assign us,) The gold he piled went with his child, And he was left there, minus. GIRLS WERE MADE TO MOURN* When chill November's surly blast Made everybody shiver, One evening as I wandered forth, Along the Wabash River, I spied a woman past her prime. Yet with a youthful air. Her face was covered o'er with curls Of well selected hair ! Young woman, whither wanderest thou ? Began the prim old maid ; Are visions of a home to be, In all thy dreams displayed ? Or haply wanting but a mate. Too soon thou hast began To wander forth with me to mourn The indifference of man ! The sun that overhangs yon fields. Outspreading far and wide. Where thousands by their own hearth sit, Or in their carriage ride, — I Ve seen yon weary winter sun Just forty times return ; And every time has added proofs. That girls were made to mourn ! O girls ! when in your early years. How prodigal of time ! Misspending all your precious hours. Your glorious youthful prime ! * Parodied from Burns's "Man was Made to Mourn." GIRLS WERE MADE TO MOURN. 467 Thinking to wed just when yon please, From beau to beau you turn, Whicli tenfold force gives nature's law, That girls were made to mourn ! Look not on them in youthful prime. Ere life's best years are spent ! Man will be gallant to them then, And give encouragement ! But see them when they cease to speak Of each birthday's return ; Then want and single-blessedness Show girls were made to mourn ! A few seem favorites of fate, By husband's hands caressed, But think not all the married folks Are likewise truly blest. For, oh ! what crowds, whose lords are out, That stay to patch and darn. Through weary life this lesson learn, That girls were made to mourn ! Many and sharp and numerous ills, Inwoven with our frame ! More pointed still we make ourselves, Regret, remorse, and shame ! And man, whose heaven-erected face The smiles of love adorn, — Man's cold indifference to us Makes countless thousands mourn ! If I 'm designed to live alone, — By nature's law designed, — Why was this constant wish to wed E'er planted in my mind ? If not, why am I subject to Man's cruelty or scorn ? Or why has he the will and power To make me for him mourn ? See yonder young, accomplished girl, Whose words are smooth as oil, 468 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Who 'd marry almost any one To keep her hands from toil ; But see, the lordly gentleman Her favors don't return, Unmindful though a weeping ma And bankrupt father mourn ! Yet let not this, my hopeful girl, Disturb thy youthful breast ; This awful view of woman's fate Is surely not the best ! The poor, despised, plain old maid Had never sure iDeen born, Had there not been some recompense To comfort those who mourn ! death ! the poor girl's dearest friend, The kindest and the best ! Welcome the hour my weary limbs Are laid with thee to rest ! The young, the married, fear thy blow From hope or husbands torn ; But oh ! a blest relief to those In single life who mourn ! TO INEZ* Nay, smile not at my garments now; Alas ! / cannot smile again : Yet Heaven avert that ever thou Shouldst dress, and haply dress so plain. And dost thou ask, Why should I be The jest of every foe and friend ? And wilt thou vainly seek to see A garb, even thou must fail to mend ? It is not love, it is not hate, Nor low Ambition's honors lost, That bids me loathe my present state. And fly from all I loved the most. * Parodied from Byron's " To Inez." TO MARY. 469 It is the contrast which will spring From all I meet, or hear, or see : To me no garment tailors bring, — Their shops have scarce a charm for me. It is a something all who rub Would know the owner long had wore ; That may not look beyond the tub, And cannot hope for help before. What fellow from himself can flee ? To zones, though more and more remote, Still, still pursues, where'er I be. The blight of life, — the ragged Coat. Yet others wrapt in broadcloth seem. And taste of all that I forsake ! 0, may they still of transport dream. And ne'er, at least like me, awake ! Through many a clime 't is mine to go. With many a retrospection curst ; And all my solace is to know, Whatever I wear, I 've worn the worst. What is the worst ? Nay, do not ask, — In pity from the search forbear : Smile on, — nor venture to unclasp My Vest, and view the Shirt that 's there. TO MAEY.* Well ! thou art happy, and I say That I should thus be happy too ; For still I hate to go away As badly as I used to do. Thy husband 's blest, — and 't will impart Some pangs to view his happier lot ; But let them pass, — 0, how my heart Would hate him, if he clothed thee not ! * Parodied from Byron's " Well ! Thou art Happy." 470 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. When late I saw thy favorite child, I thought, like Dutchmen, " I 'd go dead," But when I saw its breakfast piled, I thought how much 't would take for bread. I saw it and repressed my groans Its father in its face to see. Because I knew my scanty funds Were scarce enough for you and me. Mary, adieu ! I mu st away ; While thou art blest, to grieve were sin, But near thee I can never stay. Because I 'd get in love again. I deemed that time, I deemed that pride, My boyish feeling had subdued, Nor knew, till seated by thy side, I 'd try to get you, if I could. Yet was I calm : I recollect. My hand had once sought yours again, But now your husband might object, And so I kept it on my cane. I saw thee gaze upon my face. Yet meet with neither woe nor scoff; One only feeling couldst thou trace, A disposition to be off. Away ! away, my early dream, E/cmembrance never must awake ; O, where is Mississippi's stream ? My foolish heart, be still, or break ! THE CHANGE.* In sunset's light o'er Boston thrown, A young man proudly stood Beside a girl, the only one He thought was fair or good ; * Parodied from Mrs. Hemans's " The Traveller at the Source of the Nile." THE CHANGE. 471 The one on whom his heart was set, The one he tried so long to get. He heard his wife's first loving sound, A low, mysterious tone, A music sought, but never found, By beaux and gallants gone ; He listened and his heart beat high, — That was the song of victory ! The rapture of the conqueror's mood Rushed burning through his frame, And all the folks that round him stood Its torrents could not tame, Though stillness lay with eve's last smile Round Boston Common all the while. Years came with care ; across his life There swept a sudden change, E'en with the one he called his wife, A shadow dark and strange. Breathed from the thought so swift to fall O'er triumph's hour, — and is this all ? No, more than this ! what seemed it now Right by that one to stand ? A thousand girls of fairer brow Walked his own mountain land; Whence, far o'er matrimony's track, Their wild, sweet voices called him back. They called him back to many a glade Where once he joyed to rove, Where often in the beechen shade He sat and talked of love ; They called him with their mocking sport Back to the times he used to court. But, darkly mingling with the thought Of each remembered scene, Rose up a fearful vision, fraught With all that lay between, — 472 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. His wrinkled face, his altered lot, His children's wants, the wife he 'd got ! Where was the value of that bride He likened once to pearls ? His weary heart within him died With yearning for the girls, — All vainly struggling to repress That gush of painful tenderness. He wept ; the wife that made his bread Beheld the sad reverse. Even on the spot where he had said "For better or for worse." O happiness ! how far we flee Thine own sweet path in search of thee HE NEVER WEOTE AGAIN.* His hope of publishing went down, The sweeping press rolled on ; But what was any other crown To him who had n't one ? He lived, — for long may man bewail When thus he writes in vain : Why comes not death to those who fail : — ■ He never wrote again ! Books were put out, and " had a run," Like coinage from the mint ; But which could fill the place of one, That one they would n't print ? Before him passed, in calf and sheep, The thoughts of many a brain ; His lay with the rejected heap : — He never wrote again ! He sat where men who wrote went round, And heard the rhymes they built ; ♦ Parodied from Mrs, Heroans's " He Never Smiled Again." THE SOIREE. 473 He saw their works most riclily bound, With portraits and in gilt. Dreams of a volume all forgot Were blent in every strain : A thought of one they issued not : — He never wrote again ! Minds in that time closed, o'er the trace Of books once fondly read, And others came to fill their place, And were perused instead. Tales which young girls had bathed in tears Back on the shelves were lain : Fresh ones came out for other years : — He never wrote again ! THE SOIEEE.* This is the Soiree : from grate to entrance, Like milliner's figures, stand the lovely girls ; But from their silent lips no merry sentence Disturbs the smoothness of their shining curls. Ah ! what will rise, how will they rally. When shall arrive the "gentlemen of ease" ! What brilliant repartee, what witty sally, Will mingle with their pleasant symphonies ! I hear even now the infinite sweet chorus. The laugh of ecstasy, the merry tone, That through the evenings that have gone before us In long reverberations reach our own. From round-faced Germans come the guttural voices, Through curling moustache steals the Italian clang, And, loud amidst their universal noises, From distant corners sounds the Yankee twang. * Parodied from Longfellow's " The Arsenal at Springfield." 474 POEMS BY PHOEBE CARY. I hear the editor, who from his office Sends out his paper, filled with praise and puff, And holy priests, who, when they warn the scoffers, Beat the fine pulpit, lined with velvet stuff. The tumult of each saqued, and charming maiden, The idle talk that sense and reason drowns, The ancient dames with jewelry o'erladen. And trains depending from the brocade gowns, — The pleasant tone, whose sweetness makes us wonder, The laugh of gentlemen, and ladies too, And ever and anon, in tones of thunder. The diapason of some lady blue, — Is it, man, with such discordant noises. With pastimes so ridiculous as these. Thou drownest Nature's sweet and kindly voices, And j arrest the celestial harmonies ? Were half the wealth that fills the world with ladies, Were half the time bestowed on caps and lace. Given to the home, the husbands, and the babies, There were no time to visit such a place. THE CITY LIFE * How shall I know thee in that sphere that keeps The country youth that to the city goes. When all of thee, that change can wither, sleeps And perishes among your cast-off clothes ? For I shall feel the sting of ceaseless pain. If there I meet thy one-horse carriage not ; Nor see the hat I love, nor ride again. When thou art driving on a gentle trot. Wilt thou not for me in the city seek, And turn to note each passing shawl and gown ? You used to come and see me once a week, — Shall I be banished from your thought in town ? * Parodied from Bryant's " The Future Life." THE MARRIAGE OF SIR JOHN SMITH. 475 In that great street I don't know how to find, In the resplendence of that glorious sphere, And larger movements of the unfettered mind, Wilt thou forget the love that joined us here ? The love that lived through all the simple past, And meekly with my country training bore, And deeper grew, and tenderer to the last. Shall it expire in town, and be no more ? A happier lot than mine, and greater praise, Await thee there ; for thou, with skill and tact, Hast learnt the wisdom of the world's just ways, And dressest well, and knowest how to act. For me, the country place in which I dwell Has made me one of a proscribed band; And work hath left its scar — that fire of hell Has left its frightful scar upon my hand. Yet though thou wear'st the glory of the town, Wilt thou not keep the same beloved name. The same black-satin vest, and morning-gown. Lovelier in New York city, yet the same ? Shalt thou not teach me, in that grander home. The wisdom that I learned so ill in this, — The wisdom which is fine, — till I become Thy fit companion in that place of bliss ? THE MARRIAGE OF SIR JOHN SMITH.* Not a sigh was heard, nor a funeral tone. As the man to his bridal we hurried ; Not a woman discharged her farewell groan. On the spot where the fellow was married. We married him just about eight at night. Our faces paler turning, By the struggling moonbeam's misty light. And the gas-lamp's steady burning. ♦ Parodied from Wolfe's "The Burial of Sir John Moore." 4T6 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. No useless watch-chain covered his vest, ISTor over-dressed we found him ; But he looked like a gentleman wearing his best, With a few of his friends around him. Few and short were the things we said. And we spoke not a word of sorrow, But we silently gazed on the man that was wed. And we bitterly thought of the morrow. We thought, as we silently stood about, With spite and anger dying, How the merest stranger had cut us out. With only half our trying. Lightly we '11 talk of the fellow that 's gone, And oft for the past upbraid him ; But little he '11 reck if we let him live on. In the house where his wife conveyed him. But our heavy task at length was done, When the clock struck the hour for retiring ; And we heard the spiteful squib and pun The girls were sullenly firing. Slowly and sadly we turned to go, — We had struggled, and we were human; We shed not a tear, and we spoke not our woe. But we left him alone with his woman. BALLAD OF THE CAKAL.* We were crowded in the cabin, Not a soul had room to sleep ; It was midnight on the waters. And the banks were very steep. 'T is a fearful thing when sleeping To be startled by the shock, * Parodied from James T, Fields'g " Tbe Tempest." / REMEMBER, I REMEMBER. 477 And to hear the rattling trumpet Thunder, " Coming to a lock ! " So we shuddered there in silence, For the stoutest berth was shook. While the wooden gates were opened And the mate talked with the cook. As thus we lay in darkness, Each one wishing we were there, "We are through ! " the captain shouted, And he sat down on a chair. And his little daughter whispered, Thinking that he ought to know, " Is n't travelling by canal-boats Just as safe as it is slow ? " Then he kissed the little maiden. And with better cheer we spoke. And we trotted into Pittsburg When the morn looked through the smoke. I REMEMBER, I REMEMBER * I REMEMBER, I remember, The house where I was wed. And the little room from which, that night. My smiling bride was led ; She did n't come a wink too soon, Nor make too long a stay ; But now I often wish her folks Had kept the girl away ! I remember, I remember, Her dresses, red and white, Her bonnets and her caps and cloaks, — They cost an awful sight ! ♦ Parodied from Hood's lyric of the same title. 478 POEMS BY PHCEBE GARY. The " corner lot " on which I built, And where my brother met At first my wife, one washing-day, — That man is single yet ! I remember, I remember. Where I was used to court. And thought that all of married life Was just such pleasant sport : My spirit flew in feathers then. No care was on my brow ; I scarce could wait to shut the gate, — I 'm not so anxious now ! I remember, I remember, My dear one's smile and sigh ; I used to think her tender heart Was close against the sky ; It was a childish ignorance. But now it soothes me not To know I 'm farther off from heaven Than when she was n't got ! JACOB* He dwelt among " apartments let,'* About five stories high ; A man I thought that none would get, And very few would try. A boulder, by a larger stone Half hidden in the mud. Fair as a man when only one Is in the neighborhood. He lived unknown, and few could tell When Jacob was not free ; But he has got a wife, — and O ! The difference to me ! * Parodied from Wordsworth's " Lucy." A PSALM OF LIFE. 479 THE WIFE * Her washing ended with the day, Yet lived she at its close, And passed the long, long night away, In darning ragged hose. But when the sun in all his state Illumed the eastern skies, She passed about the kitchen grate, And went to making pies. A PSALM OF LIFE.f WHAT THE HEART OF THE YOUNG WOMAN SAID TO THE OLD MAID. Tell me not, in idle jingle. Marriage is an empty dream, For the girl is dead that 's single, And things are not what they seem. Married life is real, earnest ; Single blessedness a fib; Taken from man, to man returnest, Has been spoken of the rib. Not enjoyment, and not sorrow. Is our destined end or way ; But to act, that each to-morrow Nearer brings the wedding-day. Life is long, and youth is fleeting. And our hearts, if there we search, Still like steady drums are beating Anxious marches to the church. * Parodied from James Aldrich's " A Death-Bed." t Parodied from Longfellow's *' A Psalm of Life." 480 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. In the world's broad field of battle, In the bivouac of life, Be not like dumb, driven cattle ! Be a woman, be a wife ! Trust no Future, howe'er pleasant ! Let the dead Past bury its dead ! Act, — act in the living Present; Heart within, and Man ahead ! Lives of married folks remind us We can live our lives as well. And, departing, leave behind us Such examples as will tell ; — Such examples, that another. Sailing far from Hymen's port, A forlorn, unmarried brother. Seeing, shall take heart, and court. Let us then be up and doing. With the heart and head begin ; Still achieving, still pursuing. Learn to labor, and to win ! THEEE 'S A BOWER OF BEAN-VINES * ft There's a bower of bean-vines in Benjamin's yard, And the cabbages grow round it, planted for greens ; In the time of my childhood 't was terribly hard To bend down the bean-poles, and pick off the beans. That bower and its products I never forget. But oft, when my landlady presses me hard, I think, are the cabbages growing there yet, Are the bean- vines still bearing in Benjamin's yard ? * Parodied from a songr in Moore's " Lalla Rookh " : " There's a Bower of Roses by Bendemeen's Stream." SHAKESPERIAN READINGS. 481 No, the bean-vines soon withered that once used to wave, But some beans had been gathered, the last that hung on, And a soup was distilled in a kettle, that gave All the fragrance of summer when summer was gone. Thus memory draws from delight, ere it dies, An essence that breathes of it awfully hard : And thus good to my taste as 't was then to my eyes, Is that bower of bean- vines in Benjamin's yard. WHEN LOVELY WOMAN.* Whex lovely woman wants a favor, And finds, too late, that man won't bend, What earthly circumstance can save her From disappointment in the end ? The only way to bring him over. The last experiment to try. Whether a husband or a lover. If he have feeling, is, to cry ! SHAKESPERIAN EEADINGS.t Oh, but to fade, and live we know not where, To be a cold obstruction and to groan ! This sensible, warm woman to become A prudish clod ; and the delighted spirit To live and die alone, or to reside With married sisters, and to have the care Of half a dozen children, not your own ; And driven, for no one wants you. Round about the pendant world ; or worse than worst * Parodied from Goldsmith's stanzas of the same title. t The first is parodied from " Measure for Measure," III. 1, 116-131 ; the second from "A Midsummer Night's Dream," II. 1, 152-101 ; the third from "Twelfth Night," II. 4, lOT-115. 482 POEMS BY PHCEBE CARY. Of those that disappointment and pure spite Have driven to madness : 'T is too horrible ! The weariest and most troubled married life That age, ache, penury, or jealousy Can lay on nature, is a paradise To being an old maid. That very time I saw, (but thou couldst not,) Walking between the garden and the barn, Reuben, all armed ; a certain aim he took At a young chicken standing by a post, And loosed his bullet smartly from his gun, As he would kill a hundred thousand hens. But I might see young Reuben's fiery shot Lodged in the chaste board of the garden fence. And the domesticated fowl passed on, In henly meditation, bullet free. My father had a daughter got a man, As it might be, perhaps, were I good-looking, I should, your lordship. And what 's her residence ? A hut, my lord, she never owned a house. But let her husband, like a graceless scamp. Spend all her little means, — she thought she ought, And in a wretched chamber, on an alley. 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