IDEAL THE LIBRARY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA LOS ANGELES GIFT OF Robert B. Campbell THE WANE OF AN IDEAL A NOVEL FROM THE ITALIAN BY CLARA BELL REVISED AND CORRECTED IN THE UNITED STATES NEW YORK WILLIAM S. GOTTSBERGER, PUBLISHER II MURRAY STREET 1885 Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1884 BY WILLIAM S. GOTTSBERGER in the Office of the Librarian of Congress, at Washington THIS TRANSLATION WAS MADE EXPRESSLY FOR THE PUBLISHER of S. (o T7T&E THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. CHAPTER I. THERE was not a soul in all Fontanetto and the neighborhood who did not know the " little doctor." For twenty years he had been known by that name, ever since he had come there as the parish doctor. He was then a young man of about thirty, gallant, gay, and the best of good company. To distinguish him from his predeces- sor, the new-comer was dubbed with the nickname of " Dottorino" in some sort as a pet name, he was such an engaging man, and the name had clung to him ever since, in spite of years and the changes in his person, which entered a crying pro- test against the diminutive. When I first knew him he may have been fifty, tall, stout, and burly. His broad shoulders, 775344 2 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. thick neck, powerful build, and coarse rough hair, revealed a robust constitution ; but a certain heaviness in his eyes, the flabbiness of his cheeks, the slowness of his speech with a hesitation as if he had a difficulty in grasping the thought he wished to utter, and a queer squeak in his voice, made him seem older than he really was. But for all this he was none the less popular, and the gen- try of the vicinity were always glad to have the little doctor at their dinners and evening parties only not by their bedside when they were ill. The little doctor knew of but one method of treatment, namely : the purgative ; and he pre- scribed it for every kind and form of disease. When he was sent for to see a sick person, before he set out, before he even asked his symptoms, he began by stating positively : " A good strong dose that is what he wants !" He commonly mistook the cause for the effect and with regard to that ef- fect he was pleased to be highly facetious ; the doctor's jokes were known far and wide. As he went along he would stop at a tavern, call for drink, and then say to the host : " Put it down against me ; I will pay you with a visit the next time you want a pill." And he would laugh, and THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 3 the host laughed too. He had not always legs enough to carry him upstairs to see his patient ; but what was the good of looking at him ? He could quite as well prescribe for him at the door. He would ask the people of the house : " What is the matter with him fever ? Give him a purgative. Headache ? delirious ? give him a rattling dose ; that will cure him of his delirium. An overloaded stomach that is the whole secret." More than once the parish board had talked of remonstrating with the Dottorino. But then the gentry made much of him, and it never was al- lowed ; and he himself, when it came to his ears, exclaimed with his usual jollity : " But what next ? The parish ought to thank me I help to fertilize their land. It is to me that they owe the juicy artichokes, the gigantic cab- bages, the asparagus as thick as a cudgel that they see on their tables. ..." It was impossible to get this great baby to be serious about anything. He laughed with you over your aches and pains, bringing out jest upon jest, till you ended by opening a bottle to the health of the little doctor whose joviality put you in such good spirits. Besides, in case of grave illness, the 4 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. more important folks who had horses at their command, could fetch the doctor in an hour from Borgomanero; and the little doctor, being a superior man, owed him no grudge. He let his patients recover under any one in whom they be- lieved when they were ill, without declining on that account to eat and drink with them when they got well again. Whatever the time of day, or wherever he might be, the doctor always dressed in black ; indeed, in an old suit of dress clothes, much too short and too tight He wore an enormous white handker- chief folded into a cravat which went two or three times around his throat, while the ends, tied into a tight knot, made a lump on his neck, so that the whole looked like a small goitre, When the Dot- torino laughed this knot bobbed up and down, as if it were some portion of his person, and shared in his hilarity ; when he drank it rose and fell with a calm chuckle, as it were, of beatitude, as though it knew good wine when it tasted it ; and when the doctor was drunk and his whole person became limp and unsteady, that knot, too, oscil- lated with a languid and piteous air. On the top of this ceremonial costume he wore a chimney- THE \VANE OF AN IDEAL. 5 pot hat, too wide in the brim and too low in the crown, and always a little cocked over the left ear. From the first day when the little doctor set foot in Fontanetto no one could remember ever having seen him in any other dress. He had married and had a son ; then he was left a widower ; and he had appeared in the same clothes at the wedding, at the christening, and at the funeral. For twenty years he had walked over hill and dale, by night and by day to the houses of the peasants who needed his services, and always in black dress clothes with a tall hat ; it was as though he had been born in them and it was certain that he would die in them. If the little doctor had al- tered his mode of dress it would have been like a revolution in the little township. CHAPTER II. THE doctor had remained unmarried with his one boy. " A widower has his own value in the market," he used to say, "but with a baby on his hands he is an unsaleable article. A man by himself is worth a good dowry, but a man and a half is worth nothing." At first he left the child in care of the woman who had wet-nursed it ; it could remain with her for a few years. At last, however, when the boy was six, he was forced to take him home ; and can you not imagine the trouble he had with him. He was a little wildling, an untamed little savage. No sooner had he got home than he cried the whole of one day for his nurse, scream- ing as loud as he could for his "mamma I want my mamma." The Dottorino, hapless man, was not a woman, that he could stay coaxing a baby ; he locked him up in one of the rooms and went about his business. When he returned in the evening all the neighborhood had gathered round THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. f the house with their noses pointing up to the win- dows. The child had been screaming for some hours, and the stairs were crowded with women who were pitying it and discussing what was to be done. The doctor had been drinking with his patients' sick-nurses ; he was coming home in the best of humors. You may fancy what his feelings were at hearing those howls and at seeing these inquisitive good folks putting their noses into his private concerns. But he was not the man to make a scene ; he pointed to the street-door as he addressed the gossips : " I am the master here, perhaps you know," he said. " I will undertake to manage my own child and no one need interfere. If you do not know what parental authority is go and learn. Now then, be off, in less than no time ! Brrrrr !" When he had gone in and shut the door upon them the child began to yell more loudly than ever ; his cries were shrieks of pain, and so des- perately piercing that they were heard from one end of the village to the other. By degrees they died away, and at last ceased altogether. Then the Dottorino came out, very red in the face, 8 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. and his hands and his voice shook as he said to , two obstinate old women whom he had not been able to turn out: " Go and see if you can bring him round, and find me a girl to mind him or else. ..." Next morning all the gossips of the village came in procession to the doctor's house to offer him nursery girls. He had by this time recovered his temper. " Give me," he said, " the youngest and best looking." He was a man of taste and appreciated beauty, even of a rustic order. But the first damsel did not value the doctor's attentions and at the end of a few days she left. Then he found some who were more tractable and who stayed nay, who would very gladly never have left, but those he himself dismissed. He had no intention of marry- ing again or adding to his responsibilities. He had learnt by experience that there is no more thankless task than that of bringing up a family. The one child he had was an ungrateful little rascal. If he only heard his father's step he would begin to tremble and try to hide. If the doctor spoke he would start as if a pistol had been THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 9 fired off close to his ear, and always answered in monosyllables, while the servant girls would chat and laugh at his jokes. Still the maids were constantly changing ; the luckless doctor was at his wits' end to get a ser- vant who would stay. On one occasion he was two months without a woman in the house, and he had to send the boy to school every day to get him out of the way. But " Heaven helps the light-hearted," says an Italian proverb. One day he was sent for to see a young girl who was ill. He found her sit- ting in the sun, outside the kitchen door, and trembling with fever. He ordered her the usual purgative and then he asked the old woman who was standing by her side : " Is she your daughter ?" " No, sir," replied old Lucia ; " she came to us from the foundling hospital at Novara. My daugh- ter-in-law lost all her babies ; so when the last one was born she thought she would get a child to nurse ; and then from day to day she put off tak- ing her back again, and she ended by keeping her altogether. When they would not pay us any longer for keeping her we sent her to the silk mills, IO THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. so that she might earn something. She has been at it now for six years, tying the silk ; she began early." " And do you like working at the silk mills ?" the doctor asked the sick girl. Her only reply was a wriggle of her whole body ; whether it was meant for an answer or was a more violent shiver it was impossible to decide. " She talks very little," said the old woman, who, on the contrary, talked a great deal. "It i from having her head full of the whizzing and whirling of all those bobbins and spindles even day. It makes you feel stupid. I know, for 3 tried it for two years when I was a girl ; I always had a roaring in my ears as if it was pouring in torrents, and night and day I saw the spokes of the wheels flying round and round before my eyes, like souls in torment." " How much a day does she get ?" asked the doctor. " Twenty centimes. She is only thirteen." " Twenty centimes a day, exclusive of Sundays and the regular holidays ; that is sixty francs a year," said the doctor making a rapid calculation. " If you will let her come to me for the same THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. II money I will take her to do the odd jobs in my house, and to mind my little boy. The work will not break her bones." " But she does not know how to cook," ob- served Lucia. " You will teach her what you can while she is ill, and as soon as she is well you can bring her to me." "Well yes," said the old woman, still doubt- ful. " But at the mills they will raise her wages when she is grown up." " She is not strong enough to go on working at the mills ; you will always have her at home ill, and so she will earn nothing," replied the Dot- torino, rising to go. But this last argument had convinced Lucia ; she turned to the girl and said : " Well, would you like to go and be the Signor Dottore's servant? Answer, La Matta, would you ?" The girl only shrugged her shoulders, as much as to say she did not care. T2 CHAPTER III. A MONTH after this Lucia brought the young girl to the doctor's house in her holiday dress, her shoes in her hand and her feet bare, with all her little belongings tied up in a handkerchief knotted at the corners, and installed her under her new master. In her remote youth Lucia had herself been in service with a family at Novara and she had learnt enough of cooking and management to put' the girl in the way of discharging her duties. Her pupil, to be sure, stultified by the six long years she had passed in the midst of the confusion and din of the mills, always stood with her mouth open after listening to her instructions as if she had not understood ; but when once she had fairly learnt a thing she could repeat it to all eternity with the minutest exactitude, exactly like a machine. She brought the same painful attention that she had been forced to give to her work at the silk mill to bear on every little task the THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 13 unremitting watchfulness which was required to join the threads, keeping one eye as it were on the spool and the other on the spindle, catching the thread if it broke with nimble fingers, a quick eye and strained absorption of mind a tension of fibre and nerve beyond her years. When once she had been taught to dust the legs of a table from the right hand to the left, no change of con- ditions could ever have led her to do it in the op- posite direction, or to leave one of the legs un- touched. When the doctor beat her for he even had his ugly moods and felt that he must have it out with some one La Matta crouched under his hand, and howled if she was hurt; but she made no complaint and never asked why she was punished so ; on the other hand if her master praised her cookery and said : " You did that very well," she would shrug her shoulders as much as to say it was no concern of hers ; or reply : " I did not know it." When as a new-born babe she had found her miserable home in the foundling hospital, her first protectress was a sentimental nun who had be- stowed on her the inappropriate name of Amata. The peasant woman who had taken her out to 14 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. nurse, and all the family, had simplified this to La Matta the idiot and in spite of the remon- strances of the good Sister and afterwards of the inspector at the mills, they had persisted in their blunder with the obstinacy that is character- istic of peasants, so that all the neighborhood be- lieved it really to be her name. One day Gio- vanni, the doctor's little lad, asked her : " Why do they call you La Matta /" " I do not know," said the girl. " Is it your name ?" " No. My name is La Mata." "But Mata is not a name." " I do not know." Giovanni succeeded in arriving at some ex- planation from a school-fellow or from the Sister who taught the village children, and on his return home he went into the kitchen to repeat it in triumph to the girl. But she only said : " It is all the same ; La Mata or La Matta." " But it is not La Mata at all ; your name is Amata; L'Amata is right." " Ah well ! I do not know," was La Matta's conclusion, but she looked at the little fellow THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 15 \vith a long pathetic gaze and then smiled to herself. One day on his return from school Giovanni found her with her face and eyes swelled with crying and the streaks left by tears on her cheeks. " What is the matter ?" he asked. She put her hand to her left shoulder, writhing to show that it was painful. "You have hurt yourself?" he said. " Yes," nodded La Matta. " Did you tumble down ?" " No, it was when he was beating me he pulled my arm." " Who ?" " He," she replied in a low voice, as though afraid that the doctor would hear her. She never called him anything but he. " You are crying because he beat you ?" " No, it is the pain that I am crying for." But at this catechism, which showed that some one cared for her, she smiled through her tears. That even- ing before putting the child to bed she said : " Look here," and unfastening the body of her dress she uncovered her child's bosom and shoulder 16 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. which was terribly swelled and black with bruises. The two looked at each other in dismay. " What ought to be done to it ?" asked Gio- vanni. " I do not know." And then they looked at each other again. Presently Giovanni had an idea. " I will ask the school-mistress to-morrow morning," he said. The girl smiled gratefully, covered up her innocent nudity and took her bruises to bed. By the next morning the swelling had greatly increased ; the arm was too stiff to move and the poor child was in a high fever. There was nothing for it but to keep her in bed and send for her fos- ter-mother to nurse her. It was Lucia however who came, since her daughter was at work in the fields and was busy all day. When Giovanni came home from school he said "The school-mistress says you ought to put arnica on your shoulder." The girl threw off the coverlet that the remedy might at once be applied ; but Giovanni was obliged to say, somewhat mortified : " I have not got any arnica." They looked at THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. I/ each other in silence ; and the boy went on : "I have not got any; and I do not know what it is." And La Matta answered : "I do not know." And she pulled the bed- clothes over her again CHAPTER IV. THE incidents mentioned in the last chap- ter took place when Giovanni had been at school only a few months. But as time went on and he made good progress, his companions began to regard him with admiration, tried to keep up with him, administering now and then a friendly thrashing to which he replied with cuffs and thumps that were apt to leave their mark on the recipient He learnt all their games and before long was their leader in them all. Jumping, run- ning, catching and being caught, shouting with all the power of his boy's lungs these delights were new to Giovanni, who until now had lived alone. He became so greedy of them that his 18 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. games with his school-fellows were not enough for him, and when he got home, the doctor was no sooner out of the house, than he tried to coax La Matta into playing with him. " Quicker ! Quicker ! catch me if you can !" And the girl would take the smallest steps she could with her long legs, because she saw that the child was enchanted to think that she could not overtake him. Or he would harness her with her back bent, her head down. "You shall be my horse," he would say; then, taking a run from the other end of the room, with one leap he was astride. The girl, who was but a lank and feeble creature, bent like a spring under the sudden weight and her ribs seemed likely to crack. Not unfrequently her eyes were full of tears as she painfully straightened her overgrown length and she exclaimed : " How heavy you are !" with an admiring smile. The Dottorino was not the man to neglect the small mercies that Providence had granted him, and he never sent anything away from table that could pamper the appetite of his maid of all work. Consequently La Matta grew and grew, but as slender as a lath and so thin that it was grievous THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 19 to see her ; particularly when she had been play- ing for any length of time with Giovanni ; her bones seemed positively to stand out and creak with leanness, and she would sometimes throw herself on the edge of the hearth and declare she could run and play no more. But then the little boy would exclaim : "Then I will go and play with Rachel," and the girl would start up like a dying ass at a kick from its master, and be the first to say : " No, come along, I want another game." Rachel was the daughter of a small proprietor who in that humble neighborhood was looked upon as a perfect nabob. He had purchased an old bat- tered castle from the impoverished lords of the soil, for something under a hundred thousand francs; a sort of fortress with turrets, and an outer wall, and a moat, and a draw-bridge ; and there he had set up for a great man, with a good cook, a newspaper, and a few friends, with whom he drank and played cards, or, when the weather was gloomy, discussed all the impor- tant questions of the day in domestic and foreign politics. The doctor was one of the most assiduous 2O THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. visitors to the lord of the castle who rejoiced in the very unlordly name of Pedrotti. " The Dottorino knows the age of every bottle of wine in my cellar," the great man would say; and the doctor made them grow old very rapidly, without any contradiction from the owner ; in re- turn for which forbearance he was always ready to say : " How young our friend Pedrotti looks for a man of forty !" taking from his years those he was prepared to add on to his vintages. Such little amenities, which ingratiate a guest with his Am- phitrion, came as easily to the parish-doctor as though he had lived at court for years. On polit- ical questions he was never pig-headed ; whatever his host's views were he was always ready to en- dorse them. Then he never failed to know when Pedrotti was in the humor for a hearty laugh, and laid himself out to indulge him even at the sacri- fice of his own dignity, and of other things besides. In short, there could not be a more delightful companion, and the lord of the castle, not ungrate- ful, would say : " But why do you not bring Giovanni, doc- tor ? The fine gentlemen of old were free enough with their coin to keep themselves amused ; and THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 21 though you amuse me for nothing, it is at any rate but fair that I should give you and your son a din- ner now and then." Giovanni dined in the kitchen, and after dinner he played with Rachel who was nearly of the same age as himself; and when he went home after dining at the castle he had fine stories for La Matta of the games they had had, and elaborate descriptions of the little girl's dolls and finery. For a time La Matta had listened to all this and said nothing; but she had not taken any pleasure in hearing of all these fine things, and one day she retorted with a smile of triumph : " But you cannot jump upon Rachel's back and make a horse of her !" " No," said the boy, " she is too little and her frock is too nice." " I am nearly fifteen," La Matta observed with a proud laugh, and she looked down on her shabby skirt with a glance of intense satisfaction. When Rachel was nine years old she was sent to school at Novara and the dinners at the castle lost their charm for Giovanni. In the winter especially, when he could not go into the garden, he generally ended by going to sleep in one cor- 22 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. ner of the room and when he had to be waked there was scolding, grumbling, and kicks all the fuss and difficulty that usually attend the waking of a lad from the bliss of his first sleep. To avoid these scenes Signer Pedrotti used to send him home as soon as dinner was over, then there were four hours that he must spend alone with La Matta. By way of passing the time he bethought himself of teaching her to read. The girl was quite ready to play at so quiet a game, and after several lessons she had mastered the letter O. Whether Giovanni wrote it or pointed it out in large print, she recognized O and repeated O, O, grinning with delight. But there was more diffi- culty with the other letters, and the lad, soon out of patience, wearied of the attempt and invented other amusements. CHAPTER V. FOUR years slipped away ; Giovanni had gone through the four classes of the elementary school and all Fontanetto talked of his remarka- ble aptitude. But out there in the country there was no opportunity for further study. " I cannot afford to send him to study at a great school ; I will send him out to keep sheep, like the sons of the patriarchs," said his father very philosophically. But he did not waste his breath in saying this to the country louts ; he knew too much not to be well aware of the value of breath, and he never spent it in vain. He said this to his richer neighbors. Signer Pedrotti, the height of whose ambition was a tricolor ribbon, understood that a merciful providence had here given him an opening for gaining credit among his neighbors as a generous and liberal-minded man. So one even- ing he proposed to the other magnates of the dis- trict that they should subscribe in equal propor- tions to bear the expense of sending " the poor 24 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. boy who had displayed so much intelligence," to school. Six of them agreed and a convent of Lay Friars was presently heard of at Novara, where the terms were only forty francs a month, and the teaching very good. When all was settled the six patrons sent for the little doctor and Giovanni, and Signer Pedrotti, taking up his parable, shed from sublime heights their united beneficence on the head, so to speak, of the beneficiary. "To be rich is not enough," he said. "To spend it liberally and judiciously, that is the im- portant thing. This boy will be grateful to us all his life for the benefit we are about to confer on him. We will make a doctor of him to cure our peasant children when the Dottorino here shall have eaten his last dinner and ordered his last pill." The doctor laughed heartily at the joke, and when their mirth had subsided the lord of the castle proceeded to unfold the scheme . . . the con- vent, the forty francs a month, the four years of schooling without holidays, the university educa- tion which would follow, etc., etc. The doctor's expressions of gratitude were such as to satisfy his patrons, who remarked, to his credit, that he THE 'WANE OK AN IDEAL. 2$ was not one of those poor but proud men who give themselves the airs of expatriated princes, so that you never know where to have them. As to Giovanni, he knew several little shep- herd boys who rolled down the slopes, slept on the grass, scampered over hill and dale and made holiday the livelong day ; and he would have pre- ferred his father's original plan of sending him out to mind the sheep. But he was quite ready to adapt himself to the view that he was to become a doctor, beginning by going to school at Novara, and taking an altogether new start in life. When the boy was gone the doctor's house was as silent as the tomb, and La Matta, contrary to all her former habits, took to neglecting her duties and spoiling her dishes, and would have be- come no more than a careless slattern if she had not had an energetic master, who at the cost of exciting his nerves and disturbing his bile, found means of correcting her which left their marks for a time and made her understand the necessity of taking pains with her work. Still, when she was alone she would often sit in ecstatic reverie, gazing at the chests and the tables over which the child had so often leaped, and she would smile to her- 26 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. self as if she could see him before her. One day, when by chance she raised her eyes to the baker's shop and caught sight of an O in among the let- ters of his sign-board, she felt as pleased as though she had met with an old friend ; she repeated it again and again, as if she could not tire of the sound, and after that she looked at all the shop signs and when she found an O would fix her eyes on it quite lovingly, and then they would fill with tears as if she had been gazing at the sun. Sometimes, on a Sunday, she might go to see her foster-mother, and if the doctor were dining out she stayed to share the family polenta. The fos- ter-mother took no notice of her ; in the open season she was in the fields from dawn till sunset, or carried baskets of stones down from the hills ; in the winter she sat spinning in the cow-shed till midnight, and always had arrears of sleep to make up, which stupefied her. She made up for lost time, to some extent, on Sundays, in church, where she slept through the service. Old Lucia, on the con- trary, who did the house work, always had some- thing to teach La Matta ; on high festivals she took her with her to church, and by dint of get- ting her to repeat the Latin prayers she had at THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 2/ last succeeded in making her learn them by heart. The girl did not understand a word of them, nor the old woman either for that matter ; but what did that signify? so long as "the One above" un- derstood ? And so La Matta devoutly repeated her jumble of gibberish to persuade the Almighty to bring Giovanni home again. Now and again she would ask Lucia how much she had got laid by in the savings bank, and then she went through distracting calculations to find out whether she had enough to buy a rocking-horse that Giovanni had once coveted in a shop at Borgomanero. After that rapid growth of late girlhood La Matta grew no more; she remained at something above the middle height of woman, but she never grew fat. Her shoulders and hips were broad, but they were bony, and she had none of that fullness of curve which give grace and beauty to woman- hood. She was dark, with an immense quantity of coal-black hair, which by a copious application of oil and pomatum she reduced to some approach to smoothness. Her eyes too were black, large, and deep-set, with long, thick lashes and heavy eyebrows that met over the bridge of a short and rather snub nose. Her high cheek-bones, powerful 28 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. jaw, and thick lips which showed her large white teeth, gave her the appearance of a mulatto. Within the memory of old Lucia there had been at Novara a negro, in the service of a family of rank who displayed this exotic specimen on the foot-board of their state carriage. Lucia had her suspicions that this negro was responsible for La Matta's existence. CHAPTER VI. AT length Giovanni came ' home ; but he was so tall, and spoke in such a big voice, that La Matta no longer dared to offer him the plaything he had longed for. His education in the convent had made him more shy than ever ; he greeted his father with no sort of effusion, and he scarcely noticed the girl, just nodding to her and saying : " Oh ! it is you !" La Matta replied laughing, but with tears in her eyes ; and all the time she was in the kitchen, getting the dinner ready, she laughed and cried together repeating an imitation of that nod of THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 2C/ Giovanni's. She dared not address another word to him, and as she heard him speaking she kept saying to herself: "Oh, Madonna Santa! Madonna Santa!" She could not convince herself that that tall figure, that voice and that conventual garb were those of the little boy who had so often jumped on her back in his romps. Giovanni's patrons were curious to see their protege, and all in turn asked him to dinner. At every house he met the very same company, and the same conversation repeated itself again and again: "They hoped that Giovanni was duly grateful for all the favors conferred upon him, since without his benefactors' generosity he would be to this day a peasant among paupers and sheep." ..." Instead of which, here he was, a gentleman among gentlemen," added Signer Pedrotti with pregnant sarcasm, "for he sits with his elbows on the table and has not as yet said thank you to any one." Giovanni colored, but he did not cease to be taciturn and clownish, or to knit his brows as if he were angry. Signer Pedrotti was the last to give him that 3O THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. solemn dinner, because he wished at the same time to celebrate the return of his daughter Rachel from school. When the Dottorino entered the huge dining-room at the castle, the master of the house was rocking himself in an American chair near the glass doors that led into the garden. They were open, and the sun, gliding in between the leaves of the creepers of the verandah, danced in chequered lights through the gloom of the in- terior and sported on the walls and floor in disks of every size, played in arabesques of light and shade over the arabesques of the damask table- cloth and drew sparks from the plate and glass that were laid for dinner, while one steady ray fell on Signor Pedrotti's manly breast and there ended as though it had pierced him like a blade of pol- ished steel. It was a bright picture a summer scene and luxurious withal ; it ought to have produced a soothing effect on any one, especially after a walk under a scorching August sun. But Giovanni did not seem to feel it so ; he hung back as if he hoped to make his escape, and a hot flame of color rose to his cheeks as he uneasily gripped his hat the cocked hat of the Order of Lay Friars. At a cor- THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 31 ner of the table, straight, fresh, and smiling, he saw Rachel, the companion of his childish sports, over whom he had been wont to domineer with all the tyranny of superior strength and daring, and who now quelled him by the power of her superior position and beauty. She was plainly dressed in the uniform of her school a cambric frock with a wide pleated frill, and she had stuck a scarlet verbena flower in her hair ; but her brilliant color- ing and slim figure gave the simple dress a fitness that looked like luxury. Her complexion had that dazzling whiteness and rosiness that in a very young girl are enough to make her beautiful, or at any rate to make her seem so. Her hair was of a rich gold color, her eyes blue, her lips scarlet ; it was one of those bright-hued faces which strike at first sight and by the side of which the hand- somest brunette is eclipsed. " My daughter," said Signer Pedrotti with pride, and the Dottorino, after declaring that she was an angel, sang with an air of gallantry : " Set tu dal del discesa, o in del son io con te?"* and Signer Pedrotti laid down his newspaper to laugh the more at his ease. * Art thou come down from Heaven, or am I in Heaven with thee? 32 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. But while the doctor, pressing his hands to his heart and giving himself operatic airs, repeated the refrain : " Son io, son io, o in del son io, son to con te" his eyes fell on his unworthy son, who had shrunk, blushing deeply, in his grotesque priest's uniform, as close as he could squeeze himself against the door-post, as if he were trying to van- ish into the wall. It is disappointing when a man has been so lucky as to make himself popular with all his neighbors to find his only offspring so degenerate that he cannot even appreciate his father's graces, much less imitate them ; and the Dottorino, wounded in his paternal soul at per- ceiving that Giovanni seemed mortified rather than radiant at finding himself there with him, went up to him and nipping him by the ear said : " Come here, you bear, and kiss your bene- factor's hand, and pay your respects to his daugh- ter, your benefactress." But Giovanni in his awkwardness had no idea how to perform the ceremony required of him. He turned redder than ever, till the veins on his forehead stood out and his eyes felt as if they would start out of his head, and he drew back, without a word or scarcely a bow. The doctor THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 33 who felt that it was now his part to make com- pensation to his patron for this school-boy loutish- ness, gave him an indignant shove saying: " Go, you young cub; I could not believe that you were a son of mine." Giovanni stumbled against the table, making a great tingling and clatter; then, recovering his balance, he stood stock-still, without even raising his eyes ; but his hands shook and his lips quivered, and he had turned as pale as if he had suddenly lost every drop of blood in his body. " Let him alone, Dottore," said Signer Pedrotti, shrugging his shoulders. " He has been badly brought up, but he has plenty of brains and in time he will know better. We will make a great man of him yet." The other guests now began to arrive; they admired Rachel, paid their compliments, talked loud, discussed the news, and Signer Pedrotti re- peated the doctor's neat sentiment: " Set tu dal del disc e set, o in del son io, son io con te. . ." at which every one laughed, and clapped and ap- plauded the doctor's pretty wit ; only Giovanni stood immovable by the table, awkward, uncom- fortable, pushed against by one, stared at by an- 34 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. other who laughed at him to his face neglected and despised by all. Rachel, however, looked at him with compassion, and no sooner had her father and the others fairly started a conversation among themselves than she went up to the lad and said : " Would you like to go out into the garden for a little while ?" He half raised his eyes, glanced at the space between himself and the verandah, and seeing that it was crowded with his benefactors, he rushed past them, without saying a word, without turning round, out of the glass door, and only stopped when he was fairly outside ; thankful to find him- self out of that room. Rachel had followed him, and, like him, was somewhat discomposed by this little scene. " All the roses are over," she said, pulling a few leaves from a rose-bush near at hand. " Do you see how that medlar tree is loaded with fruit ?" And as she spoke she went slowly forward looking round at Giovanni as though to suggest that he should accompany her. He followed her; but he still felt his humiliation and could hardly manage to reply that indeed there was a great THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 35 quantity of fruit. Then, hearing the dinner bell, he turned to go in again, as if he were in a hurry to escape. Some of the company had their children with them, and Signor Pedrotti had had a separate table laid for the young people and for Giovanni. Rachel, to whom her father pointed out a place at the bigger table, said to the lad : " We must ask you to be so kind as to keep an eye on these young gentlemen, or who knows what mischief they might not be at," and she pointed to a chair that had its back to the grown- up company, where he would escape inspection and comment. Giovanni felt a genuine relief at finding him- self thus isolated, and he thanked her simply and not in the least awkwardly ; and after the meal, during which, being out of sight he was also out of mind, when the whole party were bustling in and out of the garden with the coffee cups, he went up to Rachel and asked her whether she had enjoyed her dinner. " Very much thank you ; and you ?" " Oh ! I was most comfortably placed," ex- claimed Giovanni gratefully. " Thank you a 36 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. thousand times for having put me with the little ones." There was a short silence ; then he went on again : " Will you say good-night to your father forme; I do not wish to disturb him." And he hurried away as if he were flying from the spot. La Matta was astonished to see him return so early, for the sun was still high; and she muttered, as was her habit: " He likes being at home better than going to the castle." She stood gazing for some minutes at the door of the room into which Giovanni had retreated; and then exclaimed with a sigh : " What a pity it is that he never plays any games now !" And that evening she did not go out to gossip with her neighbors. Rachel had any number of relations at Borgo- manero, at Boca, at Maggiore, at Orta ; she was always driving about with her father and paying visits, and the Dottorino had been too deeply humiliated by his son's behavior at the castle ever to wish to take him there again on the few oc- casions when its proprietor, in the intervals of his visits, invited him to dine there. " Never again till he has shed the garb and THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 37 the manners of a Lay Friar, will you see him here with me," the doctor said to Rachel when she en- quired for him. CHAPTER VII. THE vacation came to an end and Gio- vanni went to Turin to study at the university without seeing the companion of his childhood any more. But he no sooner made a friend than he talked to him of her and of the delights of their childish play ; and then he would describe how she had grown up during the years when he was at school ; expatiate on her beauty, her grand air and her dignified demeanor. Still, the whole truth as to their one and only meeting he never had the courage to confess ; not even the fact as to his luckless conventual dress ; he preferred to be communicative on the subject of his dreams and hopes. His ecclesiastical garments were now shed and left behind with the memories of school and his loutish timidity; the life of the university, the adoption of a dress like everybody else, the 38 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. liking of his acquaintances and the consideration which his talents did not fail to gain for him, were pleasing to his naturally bold spirit. Notwith- standing his intense admiration for Rachel, he did not fail to throw himself into all the pleasures that surrounded him ; and so far as the narrow limits of his purse allowed, he was ready to pay for his experience of life. He was eager to rid himself of his awkwardness, his simplicity, and the novice- like bashfulness of which he was so much ashamed. He must be handsome, smart, elegant, to present himself before her ; he must learn to talk with ease and ready wit, and must have passed his ex- aminations in such a way as to promise well for his future. He would say to his friend : " Look at so and so, who is now delegate of a college and who has written this or that he is the son of a dairy- woman ; and so and so, who is now a minister, was a tailor's apprentice." And then he would mention Rossini, Beethoven, Haydn, and above all Shakespeare ; he felt that he too could rise. "I will be a great lawyer like Brofferio.* I will make fifty thousand francs a year. Crowds * Bvofterio was then at the height of his glory. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 39 shall come to hear me conduct a case, all Fonta- netto will want to be there. ..." But at this time he said nothing about mar- riage ; life was no less than a love-poem ; Rachel should learn to feel the same admiration for his talents, for his triumphs of eloquence, for his glory, as he felt for her beauty. He said of her with ingenuous sincerity: "She is so white and fair and her clothes are so sweet and seemly, her ways and actions are so delightful, that it all goes to one's head ; I hardly dare speak to her, it seems too bold ; she is made of superior stuff to us. I blushed to hear my own big voice after hearing her speak, and was ashamed of my own clumsiness as I watched her move so softly and gracefully. I felt as though if I held her hand I should leave the mark of my fingers on it; but indeed I should as soon think of doing such a thing as I should of shaking hands with the queen." Or he would point out some lady passing in her carriage : " There. She is like that only fresher ; and like that only fairer ; and like that only. . ." And the third had some defect, or lacked some perfection. But he did not feel that any such gulf yawned between him and these 4O THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. fine ladies as parted him from Rachel. It never occurred to him that he was measuring the dis- tance under more favorable circumstances. Autumn came, and with it the long vacation ; and Giovanni went home to Fontanetto. When the lord of the castle informed his daughter that the student was in the neighborhood and that he had invited him to dine on the next day, Rachel exclaimed compassionately : " Oh dear, papa, could you not have left him alone ? He is so shy that he is miserable when he is with other people." "Yes, he is shy, and it becomes him," replied Pedrotti. " I cannot endure a forward lad. He knows his position and keeps his place. This shows that he has good sense, and if he always behaves so he will get on ; well, we shall see. For at any rate I shall give him a place at the children's table that he may take no nonsense into his head ; I have asked our friends to bring their children on purpose, as they did last year." Rachel was satisfied ; sure now of having secured her old friend a position where he would be spared humiliation, she breathed more freely, saying : THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 4! "Nothing could be better," and she went about her duties as mistress of the house. She dressed with as much simplicity as ever ; a light muslin frock with no flouncing or frilling, quite independent of the prevailing fashion ; a neat crimped collar, such as she had always worn at school, a little white apron edged with lace, and a flower in her hair. And she came down-stairs smiling and received the first arrivals with many blushes and some reserve but without awkward- ness, and with the ease and grace that were natural to her. From time to time she glanced out at the court-yard, a little anxious as to Gio- vanni's first appearance. . .Would there be a repe- tition of the scene of last year ? She wished to avert that but did not know what to do. CHAPTER VIII. THE doctor was late. Signor Pedrotti began to glance at the clock on the chimney-piece and to count the five-minutes as they passed. The com- pany had already done more than allude to the quarter of an hour's grace after which no one could ever be expected to wait, and had taken to wandering up and down the room, inspecting the names laid on the napkins, glancing at the pict- ures, drumming on the window panes, talking spasmodically and demeaning themselves like spirits in torment. A storm was evidently brew- ing which would not fail to fall on the head of the hapless scape-goat. Rachel foreseeing it pulled a few flowers out of the large bunch that decorated the centre table and put them into a smaller vase which she set in the middle of the children's table; in the kindliness of her soul, she thought she was providing some amends for the rebuffs under which the hapless victim was doomed to suffer. While she was still leaning busily over the table, THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 43 she heard a pleasant voice with a clear ring in it like the upper notes of a tenor, which said : " We are very late I am afraid. I found that my father did not come in, so I came on to make our excuses. . ." Rachel turned round in surprise and saw at once that the little priestling of the past year had developed into the handsome young man who stood before her ; but Giovanni had trusted too much to his presence of mind, and when he found himself face to face with her he turned scarlet. He did not dare hold out his hand, but paused at some little distance, bowing low and trying to think of something to say, some address which should not be absolutely commonplace but with- out success. All that suggested itself was simply this: " How do you do, Signorina ; I hope you are well ?" He had grown a great deal, and was of a very good height, straight and well built. His neck was long and his head small ; his hair was black, thick, and curly, his eyes dark and deep-set, his cheek bones were rather strongly marked and had a bright patch of color below the eyes, such as an 44 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. actor puts on to give brilliancy to his glance. And his look was in fact fiery and eager, with a sparkle that gave the lie to his bashfulness if it did not entirely conceal it. His lips, again, were brightly red and dewy, his teeth large and white, with a most engaging smile an attractive mouth alto- gether, which it was a pity to think should ever be hidden under a moustache. He was, in short, a remarkably handsome young fellow ; but beauty, which is often a snare to a man, sat lightly on him because he was perfectly unconscious of it, or at least he did not regard it as ground for vanity. He still thought himself far beneath Rachel, and his fixed purpose was to raise himself to her level by his talents, by steady work, by the hardest and most difficult means and not by good looks. " Very well, thank you, Signor Giovanni, and you ?" replied Rachel, slightly dashed and blush- ing as deeply as himself. But these simple words gave Giovanni the keenest pleasure, because they were said in a way that suggested to his mind that the companion of his childhood had begun to feel a little conscious in his presence that he was man enough for her to blush at his address as she would at that of any other man. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 45 While these brief salutations were being ut- tered the Dottorino arrived, and all the party sought their places at the table. Rachel did not know what to say to this elegant young gentleman who was to be put to sit with the children ; and she remained standing between the two tables in the greatest embarrassment. But Giovanni, who had not altogether got rid of his shyness, and was still delighted to escape the intolerable patronage of his benefactors, made an effort to reassure Rachel and himself. " I hope," he said, and his voice was slightly tremulous, " that I am not to be separated from my little friends. We made acquaintance last year. . ." The little ones stared with open eyes and mouths ; they did not recognize this grand gen- tleman. Giovanni seated himself among them and proceeded to help them. He cut up the meat on their plates, gave them each a piece of bread, and then tried to recall himself to their re- membrance. " Once upon a time there were six little chil- dren. . ." and he went on to describe their various tricks, making each in his turn feel a little ashamed ; 46 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. " and there was one boy much bigger than they were, dressed like a priest with a long gown like this, and a hat like this. . ." and he sketched a caricature of himself. The children then remembered him and there was such laughing and chattering and merriment that at the other table they could not hear each other speak for the noise. The doctor's jokes, which for thirty years had never failed of success, could not raise the faintest titter. And so by degrees the solemn discussion of polit- ical or municipal affairs was given up, and all these grave dignitaries members of the town or of the Provincial Council, and secretaries of paro- chial boards were sitting with their heads and ears turned to the children's table, only too glad when they caught a few words that supplied a clue to the cause of all this mirth. Signor Pedrotti, how- ever, did not take this sudden metamorphosis in his protege with so good grace as his colleagues. His view of things was that he should always be visibly and obviously the patron, shedding the condescending dew of encouragement on a youth unconscious of his own value, and having all the credit himself of discovering an unappreciated THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 47 genius. He expected that Giovanni should be so overcome by reverence and respect as not to dare speak in his presence without being first spoken to ; and the lad's newly-acquired independence seemed to him a lack of deference. He thought he would have him under his own eye to keep him in order so he said with some irony : "Since you are so merry there come here; come and make us laugh too." Giovanni, in the strictness of his rectitude had all the inexperience of eighteen, he felt the offen- siveness of this speech, as though his patron had said: "Come and play the fool," and had added: "as your father does." Now, to play the parasite as his father did was the thing he held in the greatest horror ; he was always on his guard against it, and was defiant in sheer dread of being servile. However, he rose to obey, but he registered a vow to himself that he would not " lend himself to the mean part of a buffoon." The seat which was offered to him was, as it happened, next to Rachel ; perhaps be- cause it became her, as mistress of the house, to make room. But the guests at the upper 48 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. table were none the gayer for Giovanni's join- ing their circle. He was on the defensive, and became very reserved and serious, as beseemed a young gentleman among his seniors. He opened a conversation with his young hostess on books and reading ; and being strictly classical, a purist and a puritan in matters of taste, he ran down the modern school, and raved about i Promessi Sposi, especially enlarging on the improvements in the second edition. Rachel had read Manzoni's novel at school, but she had heard nothing about the editions, and knew of no difference between them ; so, thinking to make herself agreeable to her guest, she said she had read the first and desired nothing better than to make herself acquainted with the second ; expressing her ardent regrets at having reached the age of discretion in ignorance of the correct version of i Promessi Sposi. Gio- vanni eagerly offered to lend it to her, and she ac- cepted with no less eager acknowledgements. But Signor Pedrotti interposed : "What need," said he, "could there be for a second edition ?" The literary discussion was quite out of the or- dinary groove of ideas at Fontanetto, and disturbed THE WANE OF AX IDEAL. 49 the philosophy of the lord of the castle. He regarded all literary folk as a useless and idle crew, he could not understand how any one should spend money on books, " which, even if you read them, are no manner of good when once they have been read," and he exclaimed in solemn tones : " Good Heavens ! How can such people earn enough to live on ?" adding sternly: " They would do better to work for their bread." When he came in from walking through his fields and plantations he would take up the news- paper for which he subscribed, and say as he un- folded it : " Now let us see how geese are crammed." This was a joke of the Dottorino's that Pe- drotti had appropriated some ten years since, and which the doctor never failed to applaud as a bril- liant flash of original wit. When he had disposed of the Promessi Sposi Signor Pedrotti turned to the lady next to him and remarked with a roguish air : " I had my table made a metre longer this summer, but before I have the pleasure of receiv- ing my friends again I must have the doors made wider." This was a facetious allusion to the crin- 5O THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. olines, and of course every one laughed at his wit ; while the doctor hummed the refrain of a song that was just then popular at Novara comparing the clouds of skirts that were in fashion to the tail of a comet, and they all laughed again. Then they talked about the comet, which was the great event of the season ; and told stories of the superstitions of the peasants. It was an omen of ill, of an epidemic, of a great war, or a famine etc., etc. But in spite of the laughter there was a shade of uneasiness on some faces sup- pose the peasants were right after all ! " Old Castalda," said Pedrotti, " told me the other evening that the comet swept the court- yard with its great tail ; and fell to crying : ' The worse for us, whatever shall we poor mortals do ?' I asked her why. ' Don't you see,' she said, ' it will sweep away the harvest.' What an idea. Ha, ha, ha!" He expected a response from the doctor, and seeing him intent on his conversation with his neighbor he called out to him : " Do you hear, Dottorino, the comet is to sweep away the har- vest !" " Indeed ! I should be glad to have all that is THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 5 I left after the sweeping," the doctor hastened to re- ply, having made the same remark at home. This answer satisfied Pedrotti, who was always flattered by any suggestion that others wanted or wished for anything he possessed. He led the laugh, and indeed, at this rate, there was no reason why they should cease to laugh for the rest of the even- ing. Meanwhile the choicer souls had found them- selves in perfect agreement Just opposite Gio- vanni sat the wife of the secretary to the town council who took no part in the general diversion. She was a woman of about forty ; tall, thin and fair, but so sunburnt as to look at a distance fresh and rosy, thus encouraging her pretensions to ju- venility. She always sat with downcast eyes ; al- ways spoke with her lips pursed up, and so sour an expression that she seemed to spite everybody ; but as a matter of fact she was always saying kind and even pretty speeches : " Rachel dear, you look as fresh as a flower to-day," but in a tone that might have implied : " What on earth in- duced you to dress yourself such a figure?" Then she had a mania for singing the most la- mentable and time-honored songs : 4 * 52 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. " Non mi cliiamate piu biondiua bella." And here the doctor invariably whispered to his next neighbor that it was many years since any one had thought of such a thing. " Chiamatemi biondina sventurata."* This lady began a sentimental discourse on music for Giovanni's benefit. " I feel music," she began, " I feel it so deeply that I suffer under it. It always makes me cry. Last year, on the lake of Orta, we went out one night in a boat and played and sang by moonlight. A flute oh how delicious the tone of a flute is ! " lo t'amerb finche le rondinelle!" Giovanni, finding himself treated for the first time in his life as a man, and taken into the con- fidence of a lady of so much importance, thought he could not do better than agree entirely with her sentiments on music. He quoted vehemently from an article he had read in a Milan newspaper, and declaimed against Wagner a tirade to which the lady listened with no more than the vaguest comprehension. He talked rather loudly to give * " Call me no longer fair and beautiful, call me henceforth, alas, the hapless fair." THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 53 himself courage and also to seem quite at his ease, making rather a display of his contempt for the frivolous subjects that were occupying the atten- tion of the rest of the company, and defiantly keeping his share of the conversation on the higher level of art and literature, as much as to say: "This is my element; and I cannot descend to your petty interests." At last Pedrotti lost patience : " It seems to me," he said, " that you think rather too much of politics, and music, and things that do not concern you. You would do better to leave the fine arts to finer folks and attend a little more to your studies, or all the sacrifices that have been made for you will be thrown away." Giovanni, who had colored, turned pale with rage. And he was on the point of replying in- dignantly, but at that instant Rachel placed a dish of bonbons before him and asked him with a smile to take one. " Thanks," said he, but without attending ; .and he put out a tremulous hand to pass the dish to his neighbor and utter the retort he had on the tip of his tongue. But Rachel insisted. "You will not refuse me?" said she. 54 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. No, he did not refuse, he took one the first that came, and again put out his hand to pass the dish. She, however, recommended a different variety ; a chocolate bonbon. He was forced to accept and to thank her. Signor Pedrotti meanwhile had plunged into another subject; he was discussing the fluctuation of wealth ; to which the doctor with his unfailing readiness contrasted the stability of poverty, a joke which, happening to be new, produced a dazzling effect. Giovanni at length saw that Rachel's ma- noeuvre had been intended only to avert a war of words between her father and himself; and he thought it a miracle of readiness and tact. " She is a perfect lady," he thought to himself, and he felt more ashamed than ever of his timidity and of his affected boldness. He desired above all things to be a real and perfect gentleman ; but he saw that he fell short of it, and he no longer dared to assert his pretensions. Face to face with Rachel he felt his smallness and was humiliated. He would have been only too glad if he could have achieved some heroic adventure to raise himself in the young girl's estimation; but, in reality, he scarcely dared to say half a dozen words to her, THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 55 nor did he venture to offer her his hand when he took leave ; though ever since he had come in, nay even before, he had been burning to do so. Rachel herself was as gracious and kind as she could be over their parting; and when she was alone, just before going to rest, she sat down on the edge of the bed, slightly pensive as she re- membered that only the day before she had ex- changed a few jesting speeches with a young law- yer of the town, a man of about thirty who had seemed disposed to pay her some attention ; and a sudden disgust, a blind impulse of rage surged up in her soul against that young man ; if he had been by, she could have slapped him. CHAPTER IX. DURING the days that followed Rachel could not get the thought of Giovanni out of her head ; the lad's eager speech had made a great impres- sion on her. He must certainly be wonderfully familiar with art and letters to be able to talk like that. Her father was an old man and lived buried in a village ; he was incapable of appreciating him; that young fellow was really immensely clever. . . Then as she thought of the mortifications to which his patrons had subjected him, her blood boiled ; she felt that their injustice and cruelty were quite preposterous. The slightest allusion to the allowance they made him she felt as an insult, and in her eyes Giovanni was one of society's vic- tims a noble victim, enduring his torture with a dignity that was nothing less than sublime, curb- ing his youthful ardor of indignation and smother- ing his justifiable pride out of respect for his seniors. She idealized him into a martyr and a hero. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 57 She had guessed, too, that he loved her, and she was proud of it ; every time they happened to meet she was prepared for "a declaration," and when that should come she promised herself that she would make up to him for all the humiliations he had endured. This was a bold scheme, for which she could find no precedent in the few love stories she had read, nor in the confidences of her school friends ; in these the young girl invariably repulsed the first whispers of a lover, and only responded to the second. Now, she had deter- mined to answer at once : " Yes, I love you, be- cause you are poor and unfortunate, and I am ready to share your poverty and your misfor- tunes." And so, anticipating this " declaration," she did her utmost to perform the part of a love-sick maiden. She would say very frankly : " I cannot bear people who are rich and ignorant. I will never marry any but a man of talent. The pov- erty of genius is a noble poverty ; all the greatest men have been poor." Then she was always talking of Giovanni ; not that she ever felt bold enough to utter his name she spoke of him as the doctor's son, and her 58 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. friends would say : " You are in love with that doctor's son." Her chivalrous partisanship never led her to the length of confessing this openly, but in her childish quixotism she was very well content that it should be guessed at. Her father contemned this young fellow while she loved him ; it was an indemnification. She carried this sentimentality into everything she did ; she adopted a motto which she wrote at the top of her note-paper, and on her music, and in her books ; in short, every- where : " Poor and destitute art thou, O phil- osophy !" Then she took a fancy to that imbecile in- vention, the language of flowers, of which school- girls are so fond, and always wore a symbolical blossom in her dress ; flowers sometimes so strange as to invite inquiry. For a time she always dis- played a tulip, meaning a declaration of love the declaration she was expecting from Giovanni ; then, she appeared with a carnation pinned head downwards. " Why do you wear your pink upside down ?" " It stands for unrequited love." One day, when she felt very desperate, she THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 59 stuck a thistle into her dress that pricked her friends when they embraced her. This was the emblem of grief. She worked herself the most wonderful collars, on which, instead of the usual arabesques or lace patterns, she embroidered pansies with a sentimental motto, or doves with a note in their beaks with some illegible posy ; all of which was labor lost, since the minuteness of the work made the intention invisible; as to Giovanni, he lived too retired a life for the gossip of the girls, who understood all these whimsical- ities, ever to reach his ears. He, for his part, shut himself up with his flame, smarting under his inferior position. During these vacation months he spent the greater part of the day in solitary wanderings across the country, thinking, dreaming, building endless castles in the air. He dreamed of a time when he should have finished his studies and achieved something great; something what precisely he did not know his visions varied with the mood he was in or the books he had last read. One day he would dream of the triumph of some grand dramatic piece, an- other of gaining some great case as a pleader ; or of bringing out a book which should be applauded 60 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. by all the critics, or of being unanimously elected deputy, and returned as member to parliament by the devotion and respect of the whole district ; then he would have succeeded in carrying some important measure, against all hope, by a splendid display of parliamentary eloquence. Sometimes again his dreams were of battle, and of heroic courage ; he saw himself wounded, decorated on 'the field, and promoted to high rank the man on whom the eyes of Italy were fixed. And when he had reached the crowning glory of his dream he threw himself at Rachel's feet saying : " I have done all this only to make myself worthy of you." The Rachel of his visions always received him kindly, tenderly, nay, with gratitude they were alone in those dreams, and mastered by his pas- sion, she yielded to his embrace and confessed that she yes, she too, had always loved him, and that she had waited because her faith in him had never failed. At length he became so entirely absorbed in these imaginings that he avoided meeting any one for fear of interrupting them ; he had created a world of illusion in which he was exquisitely THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 6 1 happy, in that haven of bliss his shyness and lout- ishness caused him no embarrassment or blushes ; he saw himself as he would like to be, and he was content By degrees he persuaded himself that this phantom existence had its foundation in real- ity ; that Rachel knew all about it since, in it, he told her everything ; and he ceased to regard it as a fabric of his fancy, but thought of it as a secret in which she was a sharer. One evening, as he was going up the hill, he met Rachel with a party who were coming down from seeing the vineyard. She felt herself color, she lost the thread of the sentence she was utter- ing, and was altogether so much agitated by see- ing him that she dared not raise her eyes, and barely greeted him with a slight bow. In point of fact setting aside the circumstance of her being in love with him there was no reason why this young lady, the only child and heiress of the richest proprietor in the district, should bow at all more effusively to this impecunious student ; but Giovanni had so merged their two lives in his love dreams, had made himself so completely one with her, that at last he had persuaded himself that there was a real chain between them, and her dis- 62 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. tant greeting had the effect on his nerves of a drenching from head to foot with a pail of cold water ; it startled him as something extraordinary it was an infidelity, a desertion. He was sore and unhappy ; he went over all his reasons for thinking that Rachel loved him : the flowers that she had placed before him with her own hands when he had sat at the side-table ; the sweatmeat she had pressed upon him to save him from his skirmish with her father. . . . These were all ; but on these slender materials, followed by her cold bow, he constructed a whole romance of love and faithlessness, in which he played the interesting part of the victim ; and the next morning, hap- pening to be Sunday, he went to church and seat- ing himself at the end of Signor Pedrotti's seat, in the attitude affected by disconsolate lovers, he kept his eyes fixed on Rachel throughout the service with a mournful and reproachful gaze, which dis- turbed Rachel greatly. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 63 CHAPTER X. WHEN Giovanni was about to return to college he was once more bidden to dine with Signer Pedrotti. The doctor was jubilant as he delivered this invitation. A good dinner was always a joy- ful event in his eyes. Giovanni, on the contrary, was painfully excited, and indulged in the wildest schemes and visions which deprived him of sleep. Thus, the next day, when the time came to make his appearance at his patron's house he was quite exhausted by having lain awake all night with his thoughts, in a fevered alternation of lovers' day-dreams indignation, reproaches, re- conciliation over which he had shed torrents of hot tears in the confidence of his pillow. This time he was very certain that he must utter the secret which was tormenting him ; he thought that after all he had suffered it would be easier to speak than to be silent. " Why did she bow so coldly ? How have I offended her ? Has she forgotten that she placed 64 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. those flowers for me on the side- table ? Can she think that I could fail to understand what she meant by those flowers ? They were a confession, a promise. . ." And he felt as though he were actually pouring all this out to Rachel herself who could not did not, wonder after all that had passed between them. But, as often occurs with castle-builders, all his visions vanished at the first touch of reality. He no sooner saw the table laid, the customary guests, the regular force of children, Rachel's face with its polite smile, than he knew he had dreamed dreams, and that there was nothing between him and the young girl that was not perfectly common- place. The discovery mortified him ; he was dis- couraged, dejected, and took no pains to seem at his ease as he had on the previous occasion. See- ing him sit with his eyes cast down, silent, and eating nothing, Signor Pedrotti felt that he could forgive his protege and he had no objection to re- sume the role of patron, to give him some en- couragement, and to predict a brilliant future for the lad. "You must become a great man and justify the confidence I have shown in you. I shall THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 6$ have the glory of having discovered a hidden jewel. . . ." When the lord of the castle pitched his ad- dress in this key Giovanni did in fact feel much encouraged, not only with regard to his career in life, but in his hopes of love for Rachel. " If he has confidence in me. . ." thought he and the bitterness, the insolence, the mortification under which he had smarted vanished from his memory. The Dottorino, always eager to amuse his host, played the jester as usual, and by the end of din- ner the company had become so jolly that the presence of a young girl was inconvenient ; indeed, that of a lad whose experience of life was as yet an unknown quantity to them, rather paralyzed the merriment of the older men. The whole party went to take their coffee under the verandah, and Pedrotti said to the two young people : "Just go and see that the little ones do not get into mischief and climb up the terrace bank." The lovers went as they were bidden, without looking at each other. The way from the verandah to the terrace was along a straight path over- 66 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. arched with creepers ; they were still under the eye of their elders ; but above all they were in- tensely conscious of each other's presence. The dinner had been a long business, and in autumn the days are short ; it was growing dusk, the terrace at the bottom of the garden looked out over the plain, and the sun which was rapidly set- ting, had already sunk behind the hills at the back of the castle. The children, disturbed at their play, ran up a side path and continued their game a lit- tle way off and the two young people stood lean- ing over the parapet of the terrace. The fields were deserted and silent ; hardly a cricket or a cicala was to be heard prolonging its shrill chirp after the noisy concert of its hushed companions, or a frog croaking from time to time in the pond, with the chattering of the children in the upper path. The waters of the Sissone, at some little distance, made a sound like a saw. The balustrade was overgrown by a Virginia creeper and the leaves, though they had not yet fallen, had turned bright red. It struck Giovanni that it was just here that he had dreamed of making his confession and clasping Rachel to his heart in an ecstasy of love. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 6/ He looked at her so strange to him, so dig- nified and so handsome, and his vision seemed nothing less than preposterous. He was ashamed at the mere remembrance of it, and he wanted to make some commonplace remark for fear that Rachel should guess his madness; but he did not know what to say. Under the verandah they could see the tiny lightning of the fusees, and then they died out and the steady sparks of the men's cigars burnt, like fiery eyes that watched them from afar. A loud laugh reached their ears, and all that Giovanni could find to say in an agitated tone was: " How they are laughing !" Rachel made no reply but "yes," and she smiled at her companion, as though to qualify the abruptness of the monosyllable. As their eyes met Giovanni remembered how he had looked at her in church, and the same feelings came over him, but minus the courage to speak which had then fired his spirit. Rachel too had blushed crimson, and she bent forward to gaze at the view and hide her glowing color. Giovanni perceived that she was experiencing some new sensation now that she was alone with him ; he looked at 68 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. her and trembled. Rachel's blushes and agitation were caused by him they were for him and they should not elude him as his dreams had done. Still, he could find nothing to say, indeed he was not sure that he could command his voice to speak. Those starry cigars disturbed him, and every now and then one of the little ones would rush at him and throw its arms round his knee: and hide behind his legs, while the pursuer skip- ped round him shouting with glee. All this dis- concerted him and jarred upon him, and mean- while his heart was beating wildly, his throbbing pulses deafened him, and he felt his senses failing him as if he were fainting. He took one step towards Rachel as though to exclaim : ' I love you," but a sudden gush of tears welled up in his heart ; he did not speak but bent his face over the marble parapet, sobbing as if he were broken- hearted. Rachel looked round. " Giovanni ! oh what is the matter ?" she asked, but her voice too was choked with tears. That instant all his doubts were solved. Gio- vanni drew himself up with flashing eyes and flaming cheeks : " The matter is that I am a THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 69 fool a madman. . ." he began with a passionate impulse. Two of the children came tearing down upon them, laughing and shrieking, and drove them against the balustra.de; and all the glittering cigars danced before his eyes. "That that. . ." he went on in a low voice, and he came to a full stop. There they stood, side by side, with their heads bent ; but he held out his hand to her for the first time to say good-night, and Rachel gave him hers. They were both as cold as ice and both trembling. Giovanni grasped her fingers with a desperate grip ; then, in a voice as thick and tremulous as that of a drunkard, he said : " I cannot tell you what is the matter," and he fled, almost running, till he was within reach of those cigars which seemed ready to consume him. Later in the evening, when he was away from the young girl, walking home along the dark lanes with his father who stumbled and tottered in his gait, Giovanni was seized with a sort of fury against himself, calling himself an idiot, and shed- ding tears of rage to think that he should have let 7O THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. such an opportunity slip without saying all that weighed on his heart ; and now it would be a whole year before he could see Rachel again. And Rachel, at the same hour, had locked herself into her room, dissolved in tears, and crying for pardon to the young man for having failed to find some kind word of consolation, for having stood there like u simpleton or a woman devoid alike of heart and sense. They loved each other and they knew it, and what more can two souls want in this world to make them happy and they were both miserable. CHAPTER XI. MANY a time when he was away in Turin Gio- vanni felt a passionate desire to write to Rachel. But he knew that she could not receive a letter by post without the risk, or indeed the certainty, of discovery. The post-office official of Fontanetto was the baker, who also dealt in groceries and hardware ; his wife and daughter took the greatest interest in all the letters that came and went ; they THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 7. knew the handwriting and correspondents of all the gentry in the neighborhood, and it was quite beyond all hoping that a letter from Turin, ad- dressed to Signorina Pedrotti, should pass through their hands without giving rise to gossip and en- quiry, even before it reached the castle. All the same he could not resist the impulse to express on paper the fever that was devouring his heart : " I love you, Rachel; with all the ardor of a first passion ; I love you, and my love is hopeless. Tell me that you love me say only once that you love me. . ." And he found a comfort in hear- ing his own voice as he read the vehement appeal aloud, again and again. Sometimes, instead of writing, he would read some appropriate epistles from la Nouvelle Heloise, or les Confessions d'nn Enfant du Siecle or Jacopo Ortis, and he could have believed that he had written them himself and was in all the misery that they expressed, so utterly melancholy was he under the influence of his suppressed passion. Then he would read the answers of the hapless ladies to whom they were addressed, and pity Rachel as if the letters were hers and insuperable obstacles stood between her and her lover. 72 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. The autumn holidays however brought him a less romantic vein of ideas. It was an eventful year in Fontanetto ; a grand festival was to be held, in honor of the transfer thither of the sacred body of St. Alexander. All the authorities and all the squireens had their houses filled with guests Avho sat round their hospitable boards by dozens, while superfluous covers were laid for unexpected visitors. Strangers poured in from every town within reach, even from Novara. At the castle were two ladies, a mother and daughter, from Milan, and with them a Swiss. The Swiss lady was the governess, but Signer Pedrotti did not like that this should be known and he introduced her to every one with an important air, as if she were some great personage who had come all the way from Zurich, and rushed to Fontanetto, to do honor to the bones of St. Alexander, and the savory meats prepared in the castle kitchen. The festival lasted three days ; but it kept the whole country side in excitement all through the month of August and even longer. There is greater individual freedom at a din- ner of fifty people than at one of ten, no doubt. Giovanni and Rachel soon found themselves prac- THE WANE OF AX IDEAL. 73 tically tete-a-tete in the midst of the noisy crowd. The surroundings however were not sufficiently poetical to encourage the lad to give utterance to the expressions of devotion that he had composed the previous evening; he was forced to fall back on something less high flown : " Do you know I wanted to write to you from Turin indeed I did write several times." " Good Heavens ! but no letters ever reached me !" exclaimed Rachel, terrified at the notion of those effusions in the hands of heaven knows who. "Do not be uneasy," Giovanni hastened to add. " I wrote, but I did not send the letters." " Then why did you write them ?" " Because I felt that I must I had so much to say to you." Then after a short pause he went on, lowering his voice : " And you did you never feel so ?" " You ask too much," said Rachel with a blush a blush which meant yes, that she too had written, that she was a little ashamed of it, but that she longed to give him those suppressed documents and to read his. Giovanni had to a great extent conquered his 74 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. schoolboy bashfulness ; he dared to look his pretty neighbor straight in the eyes, and he did not blush ; she, on her part, ventured to glance at him from time to time, and the oftener when they happened to be at some little distance apart ; and they said all sorts of tender things with their mel- ancholy gaze ; words could not have been more eloquent, they understood each other now; in their mute dialogue each said to the other: " If only we were alone !" Every evening Rachel went to walk or sit on the terrace at the bottom of the garden and Gio- vanni would pass up and down the road on the further side of the moat with his eyes fixed on her ; while she gazed after him as long as he was in sight ; and he would turn round at every step, linger to look back, and at last, at the bend in the road, when he had passed and repassed till it was quite dark and they could hardly see each other, he would take off his hat very slowly, so as to pro- long the bow to which she responded with a slight sign of recognition. The possibilities of that twi- light meeting formed the subject of their wakine dreams all day. After the first time, they had each, without any agreement, returned at the same hour, THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 75 she to the terrace, and he to the road below ; and the same performance always was repeated he walked up and down, they gazed and bowed at parting; but it was an exquisite joy, and they were both wretched when by some accident one or the other failed to keep the unspoken tryst. The day after such an absence the defaulter put on every demonstration of guilt and penitence and the other, who had been punctual, gave signs of indignation. In short, by dint of glances which, however, at such a distance had no more expres- sion than a stare they succeeded in agitating each other in turns, in feeling rapture or misery, and in stirring up that tempest of emotions which makes young hearts beat wildly and leaves them passive victims of admiration, love, and longing. CHAPTER XII. THE feast of St. Alexander was over; and was even ceasing to be the sole theme of conversation ; every one who happened to have a plot of vines on the sunny slope of the hill was beginning to think of the vintage. The Dottorino did not own a single leaf or stem in all the vegetable kingdom; the carnation that bloomed on the window ledge in a broken bowl was La Matta's property, and the bowl even had been only hypothetically his, since he had never paid for it. But the doctor was no less the soul of the vintage than he was of the dinner-table. " You may trust me to eat none of your grapes," he said. " The fox who only discovered that those grapes were sour that were out of reach was not half so acute as I am. He did not know that even those in the basket are always sour. Graves are never ripe enough for me till they have been through the wine-vat." And of course the proprietors did not fail to produce a bottle of the THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 77 ripe grape and taste it with him ; they knew too well its happy effects on the doctor's jolly soul to withhold this encouragement. One day Giovanni and his father happened to meet on the high-road and the doctor proposed that his son should accompany him to Signer Pedrotti's vineyard where they were about to pull the white grapes, spending the day there. Rachel would not go out on the terrace that evening then. Giovanni felt a sudden deference to the paternal desire. . . He only turned round and walked by his side till they reached the vineyard, it is true, then they parted and took different paths, the old man making at once by the shortest way to the lodge in the grounds. All the rank and fashion of Fontanetto were present and Giovanni could catch fragments of conversations through the vines. " They are as sweet as honey," said the secre- tary's grim-visaged wife in the tone in which she might have said : " They are poison." " I always want the bunches that are out of reach," said a young shrill voice. " Then there is one that will make your mouth water," remarked Rachel, stooping down and thrusting one arm as far as she could stretch 78 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. through the branches that trailed over the ground, while she supported herself with the other on the burnt chalky earth. But the bunch was far, far in quite on the further side of the vine-row and she could not gather it. She felt something hot touch her hand and some one grasped it for an instant ; when she drew it back she saw that she held a carnation. " What is the matter ? What made you cry out ?" asked her companion. " I scratched myself among the branches," re- plied Rachel who had recognized the burning lips and the carnation as those of Giovanni. Then, as she moved on, looking for the best bunches of grapes, she gradually increased her pace till, stooping once more, she disappeared un- der the trailing boughs of the vines and was lost among them. There was nothing to hinder her ; in a vineyard everyone goes where he pleases. She had acted without any distinct plan ; she only knew that Giovanni was there and her heart prompted her to escape from the crowd. In a moment he had caught sight of her pretty head through the vines, crowned with leaves like a young Bacchus. He gazed at her with eager and THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 79 melancholy eyes, and his fixed gaze attracted her irresistibly. With her head bent, her cheeks scar- let and with a slow reluctant step, she walked tow- ards him as though in a mesmeric trance ; he bowed low and lifting the branches that were in her way made an arch under which she passed in silence. The boughs fell again, and the pair stood face to face ; pale now, tremulous and palpitating, alone in the alley between the vine rows, where the grapes had all been plucked. Giovanni took her hand and said : " I am going the day after to-morrow then, for a year, we shall not meet again." Rachel bent her head but she said nothing. Giovanni's tall figure was very close to hers, and his face, bending above her head, tingled with a vehement longing to clasp her in his arms ; his warm breath fanned the tendrils of her wreath and she felt it on her ear and throat. Rachel sighed deeply, as if she had some great trouble on her mind. He too sighed ; and then, as though to give some relief to the oppression that weighed on them both, he drew her arm through his own as if she were his wife, but without leaving go of her hand. bO THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. "You are mine always mine?" he asked in a whisper. "Yes, yes," replied Rachel with another sigh, and then she added : " We will be like a brother and sister." It was a phrase she had picked up from some novel. To Giovanni it was the most delicious evidence of childlike innocence ; a strain of heavenly poetry. He felt that he ought to go down on his knees to her for that speech, and he promised her that he would indeed always love her so. At that moment he really believed him- self capable of such sublime heights. After this they found no more to say ; they walked on in silence both very grave and both much troubled in soul ; pressing each other's hands to gain cour- age, and as serious and mute as though they had performed some solemn rite. When they reached the end of the alley they separated. They had clung closely together until then, but now, at the moment when he bent down to kiss her, Giovanni was suddenly conscious of the open sky, and the wide world around them, he drew her aside under a cherry tree from which the despoiled branches of a vine hung in festoons. There, under the THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 8 1 green vault, hidden from the world and the all- seeing sky, he spread his arms with a beseeching gesture ; he wanted Rachel to nestle in them of her own free will. She flew to his heart, and he clasped her with a vehemence that gave the lie to their fraternal projects ; but their souls were inno- cent; and the Cherubim and Seraphim, the Thrones and Dominions nay the eleven thou- sand virgins themselves, might have looked down on that passionate and desperate embrace without a blush. When the doctor and his son came home from the vineyard La Matta was diligently watering and weeding her carnation. She had counted its flowers again and again ; and she was sure that one was missing. That morning Giovanni had gone out for his walk with a carnation in his but- ton-hole and La Matta was singing and laughing with all her heart and watered her plant with more satisfaction than ever, and counted its flowers once more. When Giovanni came in the .girl went out to meet him with a broad smile on her face ; but the next instant she had ceased to smile and went back to her kitchen the carnation was gone. 82 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. Later in the evening the Dottorino was stand- ing at his front door ; all the party who had re- mained to dine up at Pedrotti's vineyard were coming home down the hill and when they reached the doctor's house they paused to say good evening. La Matta was at the window again, but she was not singing now. She looked down on the Signorina Pedrotti, and seeing how tall and hand- some she was, and how well dressed, she reflected with stupid satisfaction : " She cannot play with Giovanni now-a-days." At this moment Giovanni himself stepped out on the balcony of his room, calling out : "Good evening." "Good evening," answered one and another, and then, after the rest, Rachel's voice, clear, but somewhat tremulous, said : " Good evening," and she glanced up at Giovanni and smelt at a carnation. Next morning, when Giovanni went to the window to gather another carnation, he found nothing, not even the cracked bowl. La Matta never would understand his enquiries nor tell him what had become of the carnation plant. She only shrugged her shoulders and said : " I do not know." But, in fact, Giovanni hardly dared THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 83 to question her very closely, La Matta was so excessively cross during those few days. She eat nothing and her eyes were always red with crying. Some one was ill, perhaps, at her foster-mother's. CHAPTER XIII. YEARS went by. Giovanni proved indeed that his talents were exceptional ; he studied indefatiga- bly, spoke well, wrote, elegantly, and was not a bad poet. As he grew older and learnt more, his love too throve and grew, and was a serious motive in his life. As the lad became a man and knew more of the world, his judgment ripened, and his passion, while it was less romantic, was deeper and truer. The fraternal relations he had accepted in a moment of youthful aberration now made him smile. He had returned to Fontanetto every autumn, but now that he was a man and, indeed, for that very reason he never found himself alone with Rachel. Nevertheless they felt them- selves bound to each other just as much as though they had been betrothed. Their eyes, which never failed to meet as though an electric current flashed between them, their hands, which clasped and clung so eagerly, held them as securely as a pledge in words could have done. They had long THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 8$ memories of their patient and romantic love and it had all been like this speechless. Even Signer Pedrotti was effusive about Gio- vanni and appeared to be very fond of him ; in- deed, when his college life was over and Giovanni came home loaded with laurels, he was so affec- tionate to him that the lad grew quite confident. It was evident that there was nothing he would like better than to call him his son. Now it was the eve of Giovanni's departure for Milan where he was about to enter on his career as a lawyer. He had eaten his last dinner at the castle and matters were just where they had so long been ; but Signor Pedrotti had that evening been particu- larly friendly to his protege; he had embraced him repeatedly, speaking of him as : " our young avvocato." " You are now launched on a splendid career," he had said. " You are not to disappoint me you know. Remember that I have promised myself that I shall see you a great man. I have put my faith in you, and now that you have won your laurels it lies with you to do me credit." Then he had embraced him once more and added : " Who knows whether we may not see 86 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. you deputy some day and have to apply to you for all that concerns the welfare of our part of the country ? Who knows I say if only you are determined . . . Where there's a will there's a way." All this was said with an air of thorough good faith, but his real motive was rather to remind Giovanni of the share he had had in planting that crop of laurels and to patronize the young man, than genuine admiration. Giovanni however took it all for gospel. " I put my faith in you where there's a will there's a way." He had the will to win Rachel ; and if her father had faith in his talents, why should there not be a way too ? And Rachel herself per- haps thought the same for she smiled as she saw her father so affectionate in his demeanor towards her lover. Presently, as Rachel handed him his coffee cup, Giovanni whispered : " I must speak to you before I leave." " Speak," she said standing for a moment as if to hand him the sugar. "No, no; alone!" She did not seem at all angry, but looked at him doubtfully, as much as to say it was impossible. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 87 " It is dark," she murmured, " we cannot go out in the garden." " No, not now, but to-morrow if you will go out on the terrace I will cross the river by the bridge where the water is low and under the wall. . ." He could think of no way of raising himself to a level that would make him worthy of Signer Pedrotti's daughter but by quitting his home and her, and working long and bravely in one of the great cities of Italy ; but he dreaded lest, during his absence, while he was only laying the founda- tions of their future, another suitor a rich pro- prietor perhaps should come to ask Rachel's hand and carry her off. This thought chilled his soul and damped his courage. He felt that he must drag it out of his heart like a thorn. He there- fore made up his mind first to claim a solemn promise from Rachel, and then prefer his suit to her father and carry her pledge with him as a talisman. The next day Rachel had a headache and pre- ferred sitting in the air quietly on the terrace while her father went with some friends up to the vineyard, where the leaves were now all fallen and 88 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. the vines no longer offered any retreat for lovers ; where the must was already fermenting in the vats, and the masters found nothing to do but to play a game of besique in the deserted lodge with all the windows shut. Giovanni made his way across the little bridge and under the terrace wall where he was half hidden by the brambles that grew over the bank. Rachel leaned over the parapet, looking as pale and worn as though she really had a bad headache. It was the same quiet hour, the air was as damp and still, the autumn shadows as softly gloomy, as on a similar occasion three years before ; but in those three years their spirits had developed and ripened ; Giovanni was a lawyer and two and twenty. There was no hesi- tation now, no seeking for words and phrases; they spoke with the ready flow of love and mutual confidence. They could not even reach to take hands, but he looked up at her with ardent eyes, and he said to her in his 'enchanting voice: " Listen, Rachel ; I want you to give up loving me as a brother. We are no longer two simple children ; you know you must feel that such love as that is not what I want of you." "No, yes, I know," sighed Rachel, bashful and THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 89 blushing, but utterly sincere. He gazed into her eyes, putting into that gaze all the passion that he would fain have put into a kiss if only he could have reached her ; then he went on : " Will you allow me to ask your father to promise you to me before I go ?" " Oh yes, yes !" whispered Rachel tenderly. Giovanni went on as if he were talking to himself rather than to her, perfectly happy at receiving this consent which so fully assured him of her love : " I hope, my darling, that you may never have reason to repent of your words. You will see that this is not a mere boyish fancy on my part. I am confident that I shall make myself a name and a position worthy of you. You cannot know no one can think, what strength and courage your love has given me. If I ever do anything worth doing I shall owe it all to you, for it was the thought of you that spurred me to a noble ambi- tion ; to hard work and high aims ; and to win you I hope and intend to conquer a place in the world, and earn wealth." He spoke humbly but with such a ring of pas- sion in his voice that Rachel's heart thrilled as she 9O THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. listened. She answered only with those ardent eyes of hers and he went on : " Do you think that I should ever have worked, that I should at this moment have taken my de- gree, if it had not been for you ? I have the seeds of every evil passion in my soul, and at Turin there are temptations enough to debase any man. If I had not fed on that one desire that has ab- sorbed all my being I should have taken life lightly enough, have wasted all my best years, have dis- gusted your father and the others, and have come back here to mind sheep, as my father used to say ; or have sunk to the level of those degraded creat- ures who swarm in great cities, alternating between misery and vice. It is you who have saved me and spurred me to good issues and you still must be my guardian spirit, standing as the prize and goal of all my efforts, as the reward, the hope, the delight and the repose of my life." He threw up his hands as if beseeching her to clasp them across the space that divided them ; she leaned over and stretched down, but they could not join. A terrible discouragement came over her lover as he saw how fatally they were parted. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 91 " And if after all," he exclaimed, " your father refuses me ?" " For pity's sake do not think of such a thing!" she cried. " It would be dreadful." " But if he did, tell me, what would you do ?" " I should die," she whispered. "No, no, that is mere romance," answered Giovanni impatiently. " Besides I will not have you die ; you must live and be mine at all costs. You will say that you will." "Yes." " Even if your father forbids it." "That would be impossible." " Why ?" " Why . . . because ... I do not know ; but I could not disobey my father. I have always done as he wished, and he has always been so kind to me. . ." Then as if to drive away such dismal thoughts she added : " But we will not think of anything so miserable. He is so affectionate to you ; and to-day he said he had put his faith in you. What makes you fancy he can refuse you ?" "To be sure," replied Giovanni, "we will not forecast evil." Then making an ineffectual attempt to scale the wall he asked her : " You love me ?" 92 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. She held her fingers to her lips and shed the kiss upon him, as it were, not smiling but gravely, with the deep emotion with which we seal some solemn act. Giovanni pulled himself so far up the wall as to reach the tip of her toes that peeped through the spaces between the balustrades, and with his free hand he clasped her foot and kissed the fingers that had touched it. The plain below floated in a sea of mist ; even the white line of the high-road was scarcely visi- ble on the other side of the moat ; but through the fog, backwards and forwards, they could dis- tinguish a figure which stood still from time to time opposite Rachel, looking first at her and then down into the water. " Good-bye," murmured Rachel, " I must be going. Some one is watching us." " Oh never mind her ; it is La Matta." 93 CHAPTER XIV. GIOVANNI spent the night in arranging every- thing for his departure. He was not going back- to the college so he was to have an allowance no longer from his patrons. He was going to the office of a famous lawyer in Milan, where he would first learn his business and then take work in the courts ; he had no fears for the future ; his life at school and at college had been a succession of triumphs ; the position of Berti, the great man under whom he was about to enter life, would smooth his way; and love was jubilant in his heart. The doctor came in late that evening; he had been drinking with one and another and was in capital spirits. As he passed by the kitchen door he fancied that he saw, sitting on the hearthstone where the fire was out, a crouching creature rocking itself and wailing. " It must be the cat," thought the doctor, whose sense of proportion was some- what obscured, and he went his way. But it was 94 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. not the cat; the crouching figure on the hearth never stirred till morning. Giovanni sang a love song as he dressed ; his fine tenor notes had never sounded clearer or richer. He was still singing as he went down-stairs and out into the road ; in the silence of the early day the solitary voice was heard till it died away in the distance. He wandered along the foot-paths that zigzagged up the hills, still singing, spouting poetry, building castles in the air interrupting himself, beginning again from the foundations anxious and impatient. Finally, at ten o'clock, he went to the castle and asked to speak to the mas- ter. But the mere sight of the servant who showed him in quelled his confidence. He crossed the deserted dining-room, and the great dusty side- boards, the piles of china, the cupboards full of plate, depressed him deeply. What a gulf, good heaven ! between all this splendor and his destitu- tion ! Then they went through a large drawing- room with the blinds down and the shutters closed ; and the huge sofas in the holland covers with their obese and puffy cushions, looked to his fancy in the dim light like a party of corpulent county magnates gravely waiting till he should THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 95 have preferred his petition to discuss it among themselves. At length he reached Signor Pedrotti's study, which looked cold and stern in its naked- ness. There were a few chairs and a writing-table ; but on each side of this table stood a set of shelves with an endless array of deed boxes, and on each box was written in large Roman type the name of an estate. Signor Pedrotti was writing in a ledger; he looked up for a moment and said : " Ah, you are off then ? Wait a moment till I have finished this note." Giovanni's courage had entirely oozed out ; he felt his heart beating now that the time had come for facing the great question. He stood mechanically reading the names of the deed boxes: // Gentilino, la Peveraccia, Sant' Antonio al Fosso . . . They were but small properties, still they were properties ; he knew them all well, but he knew nothing of their value ; he counted the boxes there were fourteen and they were to him as fourteen enemies standing there to convict him of his indigence. Signor Pedrotti closed his ledger and looked up, saying, as he turned to Gio- vanni : 96 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. " Then you are off, my boy v> "Yes to start on my career," replied Gio- vanni. " And you have come to take leave ?" asked the elder, for the sake of saying something. "Yes. . ." " Have you been to say good-bye to the Count Valle, and to the vicar ?" " No, I came first to you." "That is well, thank you. Will you stay to breakfast? Then you can say good-bye to Rachel." Giovanni /elt himself turn cold. His hands were like ice, and damp with chill dews, and his heart leaped so violently that his breath came short and his voice shook. Still, his patron's friendly tone was encouraging, and fully resolved to speak, he said : " No, thank you. I came in fact to speak to you . . . about a matter of great importance . . . to me. . ." ''Speak out; if I can do anything," answered his host with a patronizing air. Then, seeing that he was timid, he added : " Do not be afraid ; your future is secured ; you have excellent capabilities THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 97 and you are beginning under a capital man. Work, keep up your courage, and you will see ; you know that I have always believed in you. The world is for the young, my dear boy." " Yes but the old that is to say those who are a little older must help them a little." " They have helped you as it seems to me," said Pedrotti, taking umbrage at the luckless epithet old, and at the idea that Giovanni did not duly appreciate his past favors and was about to ask for more. " Yes, and whatever I am I owe to you," said Giovanni, more and more nervously. " But you know we all have our dreams and aspirations I want to achieve something further." " That is very right. Ambition is what makes great men and great deeds," said Pedrotti senten- tiously, quoting from his newspaper. " Indeed, it makes me very happy to hear you say so ; for I have an ambition a great ambition," stammered Giovanni, who could no longer control his beating heart or his quavering voice. "Well and good, and may I be informed of what this great ambition is ?" 'asked the lord of 7 98 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. the castle very graciously. " Do you want to sit in parliament ?" "No I want to marry your daughter," whispered Giovanni almost inaudibly. Signer Pedrotti sat bolt upright ; he fixed a stony eye on the young man and for a few minutes was absolutely speechless. Then he repeated, as though he was not sure that he had heard : " Marry my daughter !" Giovanni bowed as a guilty culprit might, and proffered his best argument from the very bottom of his heart : " I love her so. . ." "You. do me too much honor," said Signer Pedrotti sarcastically. " And she loves me," said Giovanni, in whom indignation had almost revived his courage. " I am delighted to hear it but do you know what my daughter's fortune will be ?" " I have not asked her and I would marry her if she had no more than I have myself." " Oh, very good, then we will discuss the sub- ject another time." And the worthy gentleman rose as much as \o put an end to the interview. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 99 But Giovanni had recovered his presence of mind under this discourteous refusal and he persisted. " I shall be quite satisfied if you will promise not to make her marry any one else, and promise me that I may win her when I have made a name and a fortune." " Oh, I cannot discount bills that do not fall due for so long," said Pedrotti with a shrug and moving towards the door. " Did you not say that you had faith in me ?" asked Giovanni in reproachful accents. "We have had enough of this!" exclaimed Pedrotti, stamping with rage. " I have listened to you too long already. Do you suppose that because you have won that sprig of bays that we have paid for you are a made man ? My daughter is not for you neither now nor at any time ; get that well into your head. I mean her to marry some one worthy of her and of me." " But I might become worthy of her," urged Giovanni quivering with indignation. " Merciful Heaven !" interrupted the elder, flinging his words in Giovanni's face like a blow. "Merciful Heaven ! the Dottorino's son worthy of my daughter ! Never ! Be off with you, and 7* 100 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. never let me see you anywhere near my house again. Good God !" And he shut the door himself on the unhappy lover with a slam that was more eloquent than words. CHAPTER XV. GIOVANNI almost flew across the fields, home ; his face was flushed and his nerves all jarring with rage. He rushed up into his own room, and slammed his door with a vehement bang, as though he, in his turn, were slamming it in the face of the rich man who had scorned him. Then he sat down to write to Rachel : " Your father is a wretch, a heartless wretch ;" and he went on to relate in hot wrath, all the in- terview with the lord of the castle, with no end of " I said to him," " and then he replied." However, when he had written a few sentences, and paused to recollect the exact order of the dialogue, it struck him that he was putting himself in the wrong by thus abusing the father in writing to the THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. IOI daughter; he felt that it was beneath him, and began again, uttering what in fact lay nearer to his heart. " We were far too hopeful yesterday evening ; we shut our eyes to the possibility of evil, and the evil has fallen upon us and found us unprepared. Your father has refused the promise I entreated of him, and has shut me out of his house for- ever. " I am deeply hurt ; if, nevertheless, I may fix my hopes on you I shall not be crushed. I shall feel quite capable of proving that talents are a match for wealth. But you said one dreadful thing yesterday you said that you could not re- sist your father's will. Will you obey him then ? Will you reject me, to marry some rich man, some landowner, or fund-holder ? J have no heart to think of it. I hope for I ask I claim your promise to be mine and to wait for me. It is a bold request, and the promise on your part will be no light matter ; think of it seriously. Much and desperately as I love you, I could not bear to cheat you of your pledge under an illusion. The day of fulfilment must be a distant one, you will have to wait for years ; but I feel that I have the energy 102 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. and capacity to make a brilliant position. Still, I must have something more than a name and a good income before I can again face your father after all he has said to me ; I must have funded capital to lay in the other scale, and balance that detested fortune that he is to give you ; and such a capital is slow in accumulating. " It must be long, perhaps very long, before I can claim the fulfilment of that tender promise ; and meanwhile we must live apart and no one will ever mention my name even, in your hearing. Your father will urge the claims of other suitors dearer to his fancy, and you will have to reject them not without a struggle, while he will guess the reason of your refusal, and there may be scenes of strife that will embitter your life. It is much, too much, to ask of a weak woman's heart ; and even as I ask this utmost favor in the name of love of our love I hardly dare hope that you will grant it. " Still, if you feel that you are strong enough for such a sacrifice write one word, simply 'yes,' and slip it into the volume of 1 Promessi Sposi that I lent you and which I will desire La Matta to fetch, as an excuse for sending her to your THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. 103 house, where I should have the door shut upon me. " Oh Rachel ! if I should find that line in your writing I will bless you from the bottom of my soul ; and it will give me such courage, such energy, that I shall feel myself master of the world. I will spend every hour, every minute of my life in toil, in the hope of making you some return for your disinterested sacrifice, and when I have won you I will devote my leisure to worship- ping you. " But in truth I dare not hope it. You are a woman, and young. Your father loves you truly, and it becomes you to obey him. It is your duty, and I know it, my darling. The little book will come back to me without bringing me any such joy. But I shall still feel that you love me, that you are suffering grieving, but resigned, and that you have abandoned me to my fate. It will be a terrible blow and will leave a deep wound but indeed I love you so that I shall forgive you." When he had sealed this letter he went in search of La Matta. He found her in the kitchen, huddled on the hearth and rocking herself dolefully. IO4 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. He roused her and said, very distinctly, that she might not misunderstand him : " Go up to the castle, and say that I have sent you to ask for a book that I lent to the sig- norina." La Matta sat stolidly sulky, with her head down, as if she did not intend to stir. " Do you understand ?" asked Giovanni. She gave a wriggle : " I do not know," she muttered. But Giovanni was in no mood to be patient, and he went on in an angry tone : " But it is absolutely necessary that you should do this errand. Repeat what I say : ' Signer Gio- vanni has sent me. . ." La Matta looked him hard in the face; she saw that he was pale, agitated and trembling; and she repeated her lesson with all the attention of which she was capable. When she had said it Gio- vanni went on, giving her his letter : " When you are shown in to the signorina and there is no one by to see, give her this letter ; but mind that no one sees it." La Matta took the letter doubtfully, and set out slowly and unwillingly. THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. IO$ " Make haste !" Giovanni cried after her, " for Heaven's sake hurry !" For a minute or two she mended her pace ; but no sooner had she turned the corner than she stopped, took the letter out of her pocket, turned it over and examined it closely, trying to read the address but the only letter she could recognize was the O, so she pocketed it again with a sigh and slowly made her way to the house. Giovanni meanwhile was counting the minutes, and fuming with impa- tience ; at length, utterly incapable of controlling himself, he set out to meet the girl as she returned. He saw her loitering on her way back along the edge of the castle moat, with her head sunk and a heavy step. She no sooner caught sight of him than she turned round as if she wanted to escape; but he overtook her, and seized the book. " No, no, I will carry it," said the girl. But Giovanni would not yield. She put out her hand to snatch it back ; she was trembling and seemed frightened. " Why should you carry it ?" she said. " It is my place to carry it." Giovanni however kept possession of it, and ran home clutching the volume with both hands. 106 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. When he reached his room he anxiously opened it it contained nothing he shook it nothing fell out. Pale, gasping, and with trembling hands, he turned over all the leaves one by one he found nothing. " I knew it !" he groaned. " She told me that she could not resist her father." And then he added : " She too ! Well she will see ! . . ." He went out and hastily paid his calls ; taking leave of his patrons, with abrupt audacity, talking excitedly of his future prospects and certain suc- cess. There was a defiance in his manner which to these worthy folks seemed very strange. " So much the better, my boy, go on and prosper," they said. " If you make a fortune so much the better for you. I only hope you may." But when his back was turned they shook their heads : " What has come over him ? He seems as if he had been drinking." Giovanni went home in a carriage he had hired to carry him to the railway station at Borgo- manero. On going into his room to fetch his luggage he discovered La Matta, who was once THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. IO/ more examining the volume she had brought back from the castle. " Let that alone," he exclaimed angrily ; and snatching it out of her hand he flung the precious second edition of / Promessi Sposi on to the top shelf of the bookcase. Then he took a hasty leave of his father, got into the vehicle and was gone. " She too ! Well she will see !" he muttered once more as the crazy conveyance carried him past the castle moat. Either Rachel had been convinced by her father's vulgar arguments, or she had submitted, though unconvinced, to the weight of his authority. In either case she did not love him with such passion as he had hoped ; she had not per- fect faith in him. His soul was filled with bitterness at the thought, but his courage was not quenched ; on the contrary, it spurred him to work harder than ever to conquer a position in society that he might be able to say to her : " You see, you were wrong to distrust me." He had thought that he needed her promise to keep up his resolution, but now the very lack of that promise gave force to his will because it made him fear that success would come too late. He IO8 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. must make haste to be rich and famous as soon as possible, while Rachel was still young, and before anyone else should marry her. The idea seethed in his blood like a fever. To his heated fancy the long future and the flying present were but one ; he felt as though he must always run, fly, hasten, never lose an instant ; as though he were starting on a race with some im- aginary rival. The jog-trot of the sorry beast that dragged him to Borgomanero made him writhe with impatience; when he had started in the train the engine seemed as slow as the horse. He could not sit still ; he opened and shut the window, looked at his watch, and at the time-table, counted the stations, calculated the minutes the train was late, and when they reached Novara complained to the porter that they were ninety - five seconds behind time. Those two minutes were lost out of his future. IO9 CHAPTER XVI. THE early days of Giovanni's residence at Milan were like a pail of cold water on his ardor. Signer Pedrotti, in recommending the poor boy to the avvocato Berti a month before, had writ- ten : " Remember that he has nothing but what he may be able to earn in your office ; kindly try to find him as cheap a lodging as possible, with such board as is within the means of an indigent lad as he is." The lawyer paid him a salary of fifty francs a month, and he had taken a room quite close to the office from a maker of wooden clogs and lasts. It was not a room properly speaking ; indeed, only two years since it had been part of the shop. Then the last-maker had married and he had cut his shop in two horizontally, setting up the con- jugal couch in the upper room thus obtained. Then the wife, who was of an economical turn, 110 THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. had thought it possible to divide off a portion of this mezzanine apartment and make two of it. Thus, out of a single shop, they had ended by making a shop and two bedrooms. The first cabin, however, was only a sort of open loft into which you put your head through a large hole in the floor as you mounted the spiral stairs that led up to it. This had not prevented the owners from putting up a bed against one wall, and a rickety table against the other, which, with two chairs, constituted a furnished apartment that they let at twelve francs a month. Notwithstanding the paucity of furniture the room was not empty. The walls and ceiling were lined with huge bunches of lasts and sabots, tied together by the heels so that they stuck out in every direction like the spines on a burr. All round the arch of the shop window which gave light to the upper floor, on each side of the stairs, and from the opening into the loft, hung these feet innumerable, of all shapes and sizes ; you had to mount carefully for fear of hurt- ing your head and take every precaution with a lighted candle. This was the lodging assigned to Giovanni ; but he was not fastidious. " It is cheap," he said, THE WANE OF AN IDEAL. I I I