Qass__ Book COPYRIGHT DEPOSIT 1 would have all "who love me rememier. that I am absent from the body, present with the ; LIFE AND LETTERS OF MRS. JEANETTE H. PLATT COMPILED BY HER HUSBAND. >OFWA? PHILADELPHIA: E. CLAXTON & CO., 930 MARKET STREET. 1882. Entered according to the Act of Congress, in the year 1882, by CYRUS PLATT, in the office of the Librarian of Congress at Washington. All rights reserved. COLLINS, PRINTER. PREFACE. " That she hath done shall be spoken of for a memorial of her." THERE are those who, though dwelling in the shadow, look ever into the sunshine. Earthly vicissitudes do not disturb their joy. To them decay and death suggest only the burgeoning of a new spring, and the promise of an ever-recurring life. Of such was she whose life is commemorated in these pages, illustrating her own words, "We may always see through tears a bow of promise in every cloud that darkens our way." To this happy temperament, united with rare personal attractions, she added an unfaltering trust in her heavenly Father. Thus was formed the substratum of a character and life worthy of all imita- tion. More worthy, more beautiful, perhaps, because found in that sphere of comparative seclusion which is bounded by the domestic and social relations of life. Though her distinguished qualities brought her into intercourse with eminent persons, the fact that her career was not public will render the secrets of her success more welcome to the large majority of women whose lives lie in the retirement of private life. After arriving at a responsible age, in the varied relations of daughter, wife, mother, and friend, we find her always the burden- bearer. In these pages those similarly situated will be thankful to learn the way and spirit in which she carried these burdens, and " how she walked beside the sad and weary with words of cheer and of comfort." These memorials develop the fact that, while lacking the appli- ances of wealth, a home may be the radiant centre of intelligence, (iii) IV PREFACE. refinement, and happiness. Annoyances and trials become "as steps unto Heaven" in a household administered by one who, like our friend, remembers God as a"" very present help;" or the rule of whose life is, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness." Obedience to this command was her only method. This released her from that bondage to domestic and social routine by which so many, not apprehending this "secret of the Lord," are oppressed; and these pages will attest to the "all things added" both to herself and family. Referring to what this course enabled her to accomplish, that gifted daughter of the Church, Mrs. E. B. Benjamin, writes, "I am amazed, as I have learned more and more of her extensive correspondence and of her wide- spreading sympathy, amid unceasing family cares, at the power held by one woman, who, in simple, childlike faith, followed the Master whithersoever He led. The very number of her letters tells a story of faithfulness. ' ' Among the letters a large number will be found addressed to her nephew, manifesting the great love she bore the sister who was the mother of the young man. These letters are so full of interests vital to the young, so over- flowing with love from the mother-heart, so full of glimpses of her beautiful home-life, that a large space is given them. One marked feature of her usefulness appears in her constant circulation of such books as are elevating, and particularly such as are aids to religious life. Conscientious, some may think severe, in her discriminations, neither the popularity of a book nor an autHor prevented her protest, if she apprehended immoral or un- spiritual tendencies. In this connection the same may be said of her relation to certain popular amusements and practices. Those who are wavering as to these will be greatly strengthened by her well-defined opinions. In neither word nor conduct was she du- bious or hesitating as to any practice she believed to be detrimental to a pure and earnest Christianity. At the present time, when many pious and intelligent Friends PREFACE. V are reopening the question of rejecting the ordinances of Baptism and the Lord's Supper, the reader will be interested to find Mrs. Platt at an early age giving deep and earnest thought to this sub- ject. These investigations resulted in her entrance into that re- ligious communion at whose portals stand these ordinances like the pillars of Jachin and Boaz of old, bringing with her the ardent, spiritual life, and insight of the revered people she left. These papers are the memorials of a representative of the true coming woman. Spiritual and intellectual liberty, activity and growth, are now recognized and appropriated by women as never before. These, with a correct and strong intuition, she claimed as her birthright. A faithful daughter of the King, these pages will develop how that relation made royal the lowliest duties of life at the bidding of her loyal heart, and with the touch of her loyal hands. H. C. McCABE. Giving to this work the spare minutes and hours of the past four years and a half, accumulating the material for it, but failing the promised assistance to arrange it for publication, it seemed inevit- able that it should remain incomplete for a long time, if not for- ever. But at the hour of greatest despondency help providentially came. Two dear and loving friends of the departed one, agreed to assume the difficult task of selecting from the mass of papers at hand, and of arranging- them for publication ; and it is but just that the valuable and timely assistance, so freely and cheerfully given, should here be acknowledged. Some may be disposed to criticize this work, and to say that most of the letters herein published were strictly private, and never intended for the public, and to so expose the writer's secret thoughts and expressions of affection is indelicate, and not what she would have approved, that she would have shrunk from such exposure of her inner life. VI PREFACE. To this we reply : so fully was Mrs. Platt imbued with the spirit of charity, in the most comprehensive Gospel sense of that word, that, if convinced that anything she had ever written or said would give pleasure and do good to others, she would not only willingly, but gladly, consent to have it so used. With discreetness in conversation, she combined the utmost fear- lessness and frankness in giving expression to her thoughts and feelings. Her kindly, loving words were always the promptings of her warm, generous heart. It may not be inappropriate to say that the compiler's first pur- pose was to prepare a small memorial volume for the use, first, of her children and grandchildren, and so preserve for them her pre- cious letters; and, second, to give a copy to each of her friends who would appreciate such a book. But, as the work progressed, the material increased to such an extent as to make it difficult to decide what to reject, all seeming so excellent. Therefore, following the advice of those whose judgment and correct taste could not be questioned, and whose opinions were that the papers would, if pub- lished, make a contribution to Christian literature too valuable to be lost, and should, by all means, be given to the public, the decision was made to publish the papers as now presented. Mrs. Platt's life not being an eventful one, the narrative will be of interest chiefly to her relatives; but it serves the purpose of connecting links between the different periods of her life, and helps to show the stages of development of her bright and beautiful Christian character. C. P. DELAWARE, OHIO, September, 1882. CONTENTS. PAGE I. Introductory Letters from Rev. E. H. Canfield, D.D., and Rev. S. H. Tyng, Sen., D.D 17 II. Parentage Birth Biography of early life Visit to Lancaster and Cincin- nati, O., 1831-32 Baptism Illness of her brother James III. Letters to Mary H. Christmas, 1839 Devotion to her brother James His death, 1840 Letters from Mrs. Bedell and Rev. Dr. Tyng ... 29 IV. 1840-1846 Point Pleasant Letters to her sister Martha My birthday, 1843 Clear views of the doctrine of justification by faith Visit to Harrisburgh, Lewisburg, and Blue Hill A literary hermit Letter to E. G. H. Brookfield Rev. D. A. Tyng Death of her parents Let- ters to H. W. B. and Mrs. R. Harrison, "mother" Marriage of her sister Martha a great loss Letters to her sister M. and Rev. Dr. Damon 37 V. Comes to Ohio First impressions Happiness of her sister, Mrs. Canfield, in her New Home. Oct. 1846 March, 1847 VI. New acquaintances Engagement Letters to her husband before mar- riage Strength of religious character Return to Brookfield -via Lake Erie and New York Marriage and return to Ohio. 1847 7 (vii) Vlll CONTENTS. VII. PAGE Happiness of her married life Birth of first child Visit to Columbus Rev. D. A. Tyng Rev. Dr. Canfield returns East with his family Birth of second child Pleasant visit from W. A. P. and wife Letters to her sister Martha. March, 1848, to December, 1850 ... 80 VIII. Trip to New York Spends the summer in New York, Philadelphia, and New Jersey Lines fallen in pleasant places Heaven is our home Can- not love each other too much, but must love God supremely. May to September, 1851 89 IX. Letter from Mrs. Canfield describing a visit from Rev. S. C. Damon A valued old friend The love of Christian friends A realization of the heavenly meeting Mrs. Canfield to Rev. S. C. Damon A beautiful prayer Sunnyside Rev. E. H. C. to Mrs. Platt Mrs. Platt to her sister A blessing. 1851101854 99 X. Goes to New York Illness and death of her sister Martha Beautiful ex- amples of sisterly affection A privilege to see a Christian die. August, 1855 105 XI. Visit to Gambier Diocesan Convention Pleasant greetings Trip to Mis- souri with her cousin Mrs. Maccracken W. A. P. Gratitude for atten- tion A night of diversion Hurrah for Ohio girls and Iowa develop- ment St. Louis First impressions of Missouri Rose Hill Beau ideal of a country house Her aunt's delightful home Her uncle's missionary work. May, 1856, to Oct. 1858 ill XII. Letters from Dr. Tyng at Gambier and New York First letter to Rev. S. C. Damon after marriage Pleasant reminiscences A peep at my children Twenty-two years have passed, but friendship remains as fresh and strong as ever. June, 1 860, to September, 1861 . . . .119 XIII. Trip to Philadelphia General E An agreeable travelling com- panion Brookfield Burlington Kindly greeting Not a day older Contentment. September to November, 1863 . . . . .128 CONTENTS. IX XIV. PAGE A hospitable house Death of her husband's mother Letters to her daugh- ter E. Her husband Rev. Dr. Damon Not a Yankee woman born to command Numerous household duties, sixteen knees and one hundred toes To her son H., on the importance of a godly life To S. C. D. Model friendship, warm, pure, and true Visit from Samuel Damon Letter to Brother John Floating island Pictures of her children Not " book children" A happy family Views of dancing To Rev. S. C. D. Her daughter E. in New York A happy Christmas Attention to Mr. P y He becomes interested in the P. E. Church Gift of a Prayer Book Birthday letter to her daughter E. Delightful visit from Rev. Dr. Damon, wife, and son, and Rev. Dr. Canfield To L. E. S. Mat- rimony Mistakes and missteps Happiness not the great object of life A fearful venture No true union of hearts and hands without God's blessing. September, 1864, to January, 1872 133 XV. Goes East with Mrs. McC. A loving arrangement Congenial spirits St. Barnabas House, N. Y. Atlantic City The wide, wide ocean De- lightful meeting of friends W. J. Allison The Dewdrop Miss Harland, her former Bible-class teacher Hulmeville Boat ride on the Neshaminy Up the Hudson Mott Farm, Highlands A picture Giving pleasure. June to September, 1872 ...... 162 XVI. Letters to Mrs. Maccracken S. C. D. L. E. S. H. P. Death of her brbther John Our loved ones who have gone before are still near to us Visit to Toledo George Eliot's books Opinion of other authors A happy home Views of marriage A higher school Old Florence dial, " I count the hours that shine." September, 1872, to December, 1874 . 169 XVII. Trip to Philadelphia First grandchild A tiny bud Bishop Jaggar, his consecration Return home with her daughter and child. March to June, 1875 185 XVIII. Letters to Dr. Damon Jean P. S. A six months'-birthday, a sixty years' birthday, the happiest, gladdest, brightest of her life A word picture Taine's English literature To F. W. Damon, Mrs. W. B. M. Last letter to her husband Thirtieth anniversary Facing life's sunset To Rev. G. W. D. November, 1875, to July, 1877 19 X CONTENTS. XIX. PAGE Letters to a nephew J. H. C. Heait-ta-lks Deep interest in the spiritual development of the son of her dearly-loved sister. 1865 to 1874 . . 209 XX. Correspondence with Mrs. E. Bedell Benjamin Valued letters Bright points of light Bible studies Raven's food Pictures A white raven Home pictures. 1871101875. . . ... . . 252 XXI. Letters to Miss Snell Treasures of friendship A Mayflower Afraid of N. E. college air New England greatness Nest robbed The mother's lot. 1873 to 1874 271 XXII. Miscellaneous Christmas eve, Christmas day, a joyous season all over the house A nice long breakfast F. W. D.'s sketch of a Christmas scene in Ohio Letter to Bishop Bedell To President Merrick Autumn of life John S. Hart Questions for the pulpit Criticism of " Middle- march" " Sex in Education" Letters to a godchild, with a tribute to her brother * 277 XXIII. Sympathy for the afflicted Letters from Mrs. Preston, Mrs. C. Todd, Mrs. Merrick Bishop Mcllvaine To Mrs. McC., Mrs. L. C. From Bishop Jaggar, Miss Snell .......... 299 XXIV. Correspondence with Mrs. Anne E. Thomson Beloved, sympathetic friends Death of Bishop Thomson of the M. E. Church Oneness in all sor- row Stricken hearts comforted My little comfort; poem by Mrs. T. Mrs. Plait's last letter of sympathy. 1870-77 307 XXV. Obituary Closing days Instructions for burial 1877 Private paper to her husband. 1848 315 XXVI. Sympathy Consolation Letters from James C., Dr. Merrick, Mrs. La Croix, Dr. Damon, Rev. C. T. W., Bishop Jaggar .... 320 CONTENTS. XI XXVII. PAGE Tributes From S. C. D. A sister's tribute, poem From Mrs. R., Mrs. E. V. F., E. H. C. Mrs. A. T., a beautiful picture J. H. C., F. \V. D., music and poetry Her life a lesson and inspiration From a student Deep sorrow A model wife Ladies' Missionary Society, Mrs. J. H. Platt scholarship H. C. M. E. G. H. S. R. B. Reminiscences, strong Christian principle, consideration for the aged Original poem . 328 4 APPENDIX. The old parish church The funeral of Dr. Dorr ..... 344 INTRODUCTORY. 17 I. " The memory of the just is blessed." Introductory Letters from Rev. E. H. Canfield, D.D., and Rev. S. H. Tyng, Sen., D.D. THE idea of perpetuating, in this form, the life of this noble woman, was suggested by the following circumstance : The day after she had "entered into rest," two personal friends called to tender their kindly sympathies. They said, "This griev- ous loss is not yours alone, Mr. Platt ; it is our loss ; it is a loss- to the whole community." Thence came the thought, " If this be so, do not such rare and beautiful traits of character belong in a certain sense to the church and all who will receive the truth as it is in Jesus, as set forth in< the life of this true * member of Christ and child of God ?' Why not let her ' light so shine before men that they, seeing her good works, may glorify our Father which is in heaven,' to whom she ever ascribed all the glory for all that she possessed of the graces of the Spirit. And how can that better be done than by a memo- rial volume?" The more the idea was dwelt upon, the more appropriate it seemed to be to render a memorial of such a life, and when it came to be spoken of, first in the family, and then to the dear friends of the departed one, all gave such cordial approval to the plan as to lead to the resolve to attempt its execution. Then came the ques- tions, "How shall it be done? How can such a character and life as was Mrs. Platt's be even faintly portrayed, and who is com- petent and willing to undertake the difficult task?" l8 INTRODUCTORY. Proposals were made to her own sisters and to other relatives and friends of her early days, but all seemed to shrink from it as a subject they did not feel equal to, realizing how impossible it would be to attain a result that should not, after all, prove only shadowy and inadequate. This conviction is well expressed in a letter from one who knew her well, Rev. Dr. Canfield. He writes : "Mrs. Mitchell informs me that you contemplate preparing a brief biography of your sainted wife. If her true character, spirit, and life could be set forth even approximately, on paper, no biog- raphy ever written would excel it in bright and wholesome lessons. This, I am persuaded, no pen can do. " For six or seven years before you first saw her at my house, I had frequently met her in society and in her home at Burlington and Brookfield. The first time we met (in 1838 or 1839) I felt that she was endowed with rare charms and attractions. My admiration grew with our further acquaintance, and ripened into the most un- reserved confidence and affectionate regard. During her residence with us in Delaware, of over a year before your marriage, I was sick a large part of the time, while her sister was also laid aside from active duty. She was nurse- to both of us and jto the baby, and, at the same time, housekeeper, and the centre of attraction in the parish. I shall never forget her nights of uncomplaining, cheerful watchfulness, and her days of earnest, cheerful sympathy and care. She never tired, never evinced the faintest symptom of selfishness. I have never met, nor heard of, her equal in this respect. And yet, with all this, she contrived to keep up an interest in much of the literature of the day, and to flood every social circle in her way with brightness. It was not a blaze of mirth that marked her presence, but a radiance of just that degree and quality of light which clothes every object in its best color, and gives it its most attractive form. This pervaded her whole life's history. You know what I mean, but none except personal friends can be made to understand it. After you have done all in your power, you must fail of presenting anything like a just portrait of the original." Failing to find any one willing to undertake the work, it seemed to devolve upon the writer to do as best he could ; and he deemed it the better plan to make it a work of compilation from her num- erous letters, written to her own loved ones, and to dear, valued INTRODUCTORY. 19 friends, and so let her own thoughts thus freely expressed delineate her beautiful character. The large number of her letters, returned and in possession, brought with them the realization of the difficulties to be overcome. At the same time, there also came an overwhelming sense of the vast amount of work accomplished by Mrs. Platt during her mar- ried life in the way of correspondence. How she found opportunity for so much letter-writing as she accomplished, and yet neglected no daily household duties, which, with the care of seven children, would seem to have been sufficiently numerous to occupy all her time, one can hardly understand. Her family duties were never slighted, for she lived eminently in the present, and acted upon the injunction, "Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might." It may not be inappropriate, in connection with this point, to mention that Mrs. Platt was impressed with the belief that her days upon earth were to be few ; and after marriage she often spoke of it, not, in any sense, with a gloomy foreboding, but as an event to be provided for in all her plans. This seemed strange in one so endowed with physical and mental energy, and whose enjoyment of life was so vivid and intense. The following note to her sister, Mrs. Mitchell, with its accom- panying tribute to Mrs. Platt's character, is from the pen of the venerable Dr. Tyng, whose acquaintance began in her childhood days, and who was ever afterward warmly attached to her and deeply interested in the development of her character. IRVING COTTAGE HOME, Oct. 4, 1877. MY DEAR FRIEND : I have thought much of the best way to do something more in remembrance of our dear Jeanette some tribute which I should have great pleasure in preparing as I may have opportunity. . . . . A small volume might be prepared which would make a handy gift, and, perhaps, a useful book for other rising girls: such ex- amples are very vital and effective, because within the reach of and attainable by all. With much regard, Your faithful friend, STEPHEN H. TYNG. 20 -INTRODUCTORY DR. TYNG. Subsequently, in Nov. 1878, Dr. Tyngsent the following: "In my residence and ministry in Philadelphia from 1829, Mrs. Platt was under my observation and pastoral notice and care for some years. She was thirteen years of age at the time of my first personal acquaintance with her. She had a sister very near her own age, subsequently married to Rev. Dr. Canfield. The two sisters were entirely united in mutual affection, and very similar in external character and education. They appeared together in such perfect equality and unity of taste and experience, that they seemed rather as twins than as differing in age. Their place of birth and early education was the quiet and beautiful town of Burlington, in New Jersey, on the Delaware River. Here Jeanette, of whom I now particularly speak, grew up in a happy childhood, active and sprightly in temperament and habit, accustomed to exercise in the open air, and though small in figure, yet full of health and youthful vigor. Her form was remarkable for symmetry and grace; her features were delicate and attractive, and she became in her lively but soft and pleasing manners, welcomed in society, and was en- compassed always with friends. Thus she came under my notice, at the period I have stated, the joy and idol of a large circle who delighted in her society, and were made happy by her presence. "Her parents were of the Society of Friends; and the calm and gentle manners of the females of that society were united in her with strong intelligence and agreeable powers of conversation. She was very precocious in mind and character, and, at the period of my first acquaintance with her, appeared in information and de- portment quite in advance of her actual age. Both of these sisters became, quite early, true disciples of Jesus and ' daughters of the Lord Almighty.' Their brother, James Hulme, was a young man- of eminent piety and of unusual intelligence, though having no par- ticular advantages of early literary acquirements. This dear young man consecrated himself to the ministry of the Episcopal Church, and rapidly grew in knowledge and character adapted to the sacred ministry which he desired, but for the public exercise of which his life was not prolonged. Under his personal influence, to a great extent, the religious character of these sisters was formed and their religious intelligence advanced. They constituted a threefold cord which is not quickly broken. Their separation from the religious body to which their parents belonged, and in connection with DR. TYNG. 21 which their early years had been spent, was, doubtless, trying to their affection. But there was nothing in the parental care under which they had been nurtured to enhance the difficulty; and brother and sister came forward together to connect themselves with the Protestant Episcopal Church. They were earnestly attached to each other, and in their mutual love and fellowship they found great comfort and support." 22 THE HULME FAMILY. II. " With my whole heart have I sought Thee. O let me not wander from Thy commandments." Parentage Birth Biography of early life Visit to Lancaster and Cincinnati, O., 1831-32 Baptism Illness of her brother James. OCTOBER 3, 1782, in the beautiful little city of Burlington, New Jersey, John Hulme, the son of George and Jeanette Hulme, was born. George Hulme was a Friend or Quaker, and his wife, Jeanette Neale, a member of the "Church of England"; for those were days when the Episcopal Church of this country was still a recog- nized'part of the mother Church. The ancestors of the Hulme family came to this country from Cheshire, England, about 1700, and settled in Middletown town- ship, Bucks County, Pennsylvania. They were possessed of energy and intelligence, and by marriage connected with some of the best families of the country. John Hulme, the elder brother of George Hulme, was a man of much influence socially and politically, a prosperous business man, a member of the Legislature of Pennsyl- vania, the founder of Hulmeville, Bucks County, and for many years the President of the Bucks County Bank. George Hulme moved to Burlington, New Jersey, when quite a young man, married, and resided there until his death in 1808. He, while deficient in the business talents of his brother, was a man of marked literary tastes, and though living at a period when the practical duties of life called for constant energy and diligence, he found time to read all the best histories of his day, and stored his memory with the ancient and more modern poets, having the Iliad, Odyssey, Cicero's Orations, Milton's and Young's poems, BIRTH OF JEANETTE HULME. 23 so entirely his own, that he would entertain his little family by the hour with his favorite passages. A favorite book for his evening reading was "Hervey's Meditations on the Starry Heavens," to which his two children were required to give patient attention, and to which they learned to listen with especial delight. It was not strange, therefore, that they grew up with tastes similar to those of their parents. His wife was a woman of fine sensibilities, intelligence, and deep piety. Her children from their earliest years received from her the most careful religious instruction; and the Bible, even then more than a hundred years old, from which the daily lessons were read, still remains a treasured memento of her faithful teachings. Through years of patient suffering, her lovely Christian character endeared her not only to her two devoted children, but to all who had the privilege of knowing her. With such teaching, and such examples, their son John grew to manhood, a man of earnest, conscientious character, intelligent, and energetic, but without especial attachment to either the Church of his mother or to the Society of Friends, until, at the age of twenty-two, he married Martha Craft, of Burlington, a member of the Society, and from that time became in all except actual mem- bership a Quaker. His children were all brought up as members of the "meeting," but as they attained the age to act for them- selves they returned to the Church of their grandmother, becoming earnest Episcopalians. From the time of his marriage in 1804 John Hulme's family resided in and near Burlington, where all of their children were born. These were eight in number: Sarah, George, James, John, Jeanette, Martha, Annie, and Ellen, of whom only two survive. In the year 1840 the family moved to a beautiful place on the banks of the Delaware River, near to Burlington, known as "Point Pleasant," where they lived happily for five years, until April, 1845, when they moved to Brookfield, Pa., of which place, and of the sorrow that came to the family there, more extended informa- tion is given hereafter. Their fifth child and second daughter, the subject of these memoirs, was born Feb. 25, 1816, and was named for her sainted grandmother. She was a beautiful, sprightly child, with a sweet 24 SCHOOL-DAYS. voice, and a winning joyousness of disposition, which, with an ever overflowing kindness of heart, made her most attractive. Her sister, Martha, two years her junior, was quite as remarkable for her gentle, quiet, and studious habits, and the very contrast in their character seemed a bond of union between them. Rarely are found two sisters so unlike, yet so warmly united in tender love as were these. This sister in early life developed a talent .for writing both poetry and prose, and became the author of several books published by the American Sunday School Union ; in one of which she gives this loving and truthful picture of Jeanette when a school-girl: "At school her beauty and sprightlinessmade her the pet of all ; it was she who contrived all our amusements, planned all our excursions into the neighboring country, drew up all our petitions for a holiday or a walk, and, indeed, it was im- possible for any party of pleasure to succeed without her. She was full of life and gayety, and her sparkling and innocent vivacity could enliven the dullest hour. I do not say she always studied when she ought, or did not sometimes disturb our gravity during school hours by her mirth, and thus occasion herself trouble, as well as the rest of us ; but then she was always sorry for her offence, and so anxious that we should not share her punishment that we could not but forgive and love her still. "Our teacher was tenderly attached to her light-hearted pupil, and sought most anxiously to implant in her young breast those holy principles of conduct that would give a right direction to the warm impulses of her nature, and make them productive of real good to herself and others. Her prayers and efforts seemed for a time unsuccessful, but such precious seed is never sown in vain. Jeanette left school a gay, attractive girl, still without any founda- tion for happiness but the ' broken cisterns ' of earth. How little could any human eye foresee how peculiarly one so fitted to shine in scenes of pleasure and to win the admiration of a flattering world would need the support that only the Gospel can afford !" From a letter written by her old school friend (now Mrs. H. W. B. ), giving some illustrations of Mrs. Plait's character when a school-girl at Trenton (N. J.). After speaking of her lovely quali- ties, she says : " Her compositions were always good and original, displaying at that time her gift for writing, which she improved in after years. When our teacher concluded the week by reading our VISIT TO OHIO 1831. / 25 essays on Saturday morning, Jeanette's, racy and entertaining, were always reserved to the last as a special treat." In the autumn of 1831 she went in company with Mr. and Mrs. S. F. Maccracken to Lancaster, Ohio, to visit her cousin, Mrs. M., the journey being made in their own private carriage. Mrs. M. was a lady of education, strong character, and strict religious principles, and was warmly attached to her young cousin. Under her care and instruction Jeanette remained for some months, when a promised visit to her father's only sister, in Cincinnati, was claimed, and in the following summer she left Lancaster for that city. A daughter of this aunt thus writes about this visit : "I shall never forget the day we received notice that she would leave Lancaster, nor the anxiety of my mother about that journey which then took nearly two days. It was at noonday when the distant sound of the horn announced the approach of the stage in which we expected her. Myself and sisters were looking forward with expectations of great pleasure to the arrival of a cousin, daughter of our mother's only and dearly loved brother. It was a lovely June day. Our garden was fragrant with roses that ran in luxuriant beauty over all sides of the house. We stood in the door as our father and mother went out to the garden gate to welcome the young stranger. I well remember how she threw her arms around my mother's neck and their tears flowing together; the one shedding those of warm affection, the other of devout thank- fulness 'that the Lord had brought the dear child' in safety to loving hearts. How beautiful she looked when, throwing off her bonnet and cape, she stood with her dark curls flowing over her neck and shoulders, and her face beaming with smiles.* "When the hour for evening prayer came, she knelt by 'dear Auntie;' and my father in his fervent words 'thanked the Lord for his protecting care in the safe arrival of the young stranger who had come for a time to be one of us.' "But these days of pleasant intercourse were but few, and the joy- ousness of her spirit was soon subdued, as she joined my mother in watching by my bed of almost fatal illness. What a comfort * Her eyes were of a lively blue, which, with her soft complexion, gave one the impression of a blonde, notwithstanding the dark brown color of her hair, which was abundant and curling. She was rather below medium height. 26 CONVERSION. she was! Tender, gentle, and loving, ever ready to do anything to aid my mother in her cares. All this was a new life to her, and the words of daily prayer that rose from anxious hearts in that dark hour, seemed to waken new sympathies in her heart, and struck that cord of deep spiritual sensibilities that was to vibrate through all the coming years of that beautiful life. " I had hardly regained strength to leave my room, when the angel of death that had passed me by laid his cold hand on bur beloved father, and with only three days' illness took him from us. Jeanette was everything to mother then, and when the time came for her to return home, she left us with new and serious thoughts of woman's true life before her. Some time after her return home she wrote my mother : ' The first really serious thoughts I ever had, dear Auntie, were when with you I learned that there was something else to live for than a life of selfish enjoyment.' In the month of August, 1832, she returned home under the care of some friends of her father." And now the blessed teachings of Jeanette's childhood came back, and accompanied by those of the Holy Spirit, not only dis- covered to her the unsatisfactory nature of all earthly joys, but convinced her of her own heart's deep sinfulness, a sense of which caused her to pass through a period of painful depression and suf- fering. When she finally emerged from this sorrowful struggle, it was to enter into the fulness of a light and joy which followed a very marked conversion. And so, while still in life's beautiful springtime, she gladly turned from all that had once so satisfied her, to find Jesus; sat down at his feet, and bent her young neck to receive His yoke, that became ever afterwards as easy to her love as were His burdens light to her soul. Her Christian course was onward and upward ever after, as with full consent she consecrated to God all her power of winning notice and affection, her brilliant conversational talents, and those natural gifts that had rendered her so fascinating as a companion and friend. It was with a deepening religious experience that she now approached the season of her public consecration of herself to Christ and his Church ; and the occasion to her was one of deep solemnity and much earnest feeling, when, at the age of eighteen, with her brother John, she was baptized, and afterwards with him BAPTISM^CONFIRMATION. 27 confirmed by Bishop Doane in St. Mary's Church, Burlington; three members of their family having before united with St. Andrew's Church, Philadelphia, then under the pastoral care of Rev. Dr. G. T. Bedell. Something of the deep feeling with which she entered on this public profession of Christ is manifested in the following extract from a letter, requesting her eldest sister to be one of her witnesses on this occasion: "It is my earnest request that, if in the future you should find me in the smallest degree deviating from the right path, you will immediately, with all the faithfulness which as a sister and witness may be expected from you, remind me of the solemn vow, promise, and profession that I have made. I am so surrounded by temptations, and so easily turned aside, that I very much fear you will often be pained by my inconsistencies. May we trust only to that strength which is made perfect in weakness." Scarcely had the first question of every renewed heart, " Lord, what wilt Thou have me to do?" passed her lips, before a path of self-denying duty opened before her, and for which her natural powers eminently fitted her. It was not to glorify Him in the midst of the temptations of society, and to "adorn the doctrine of God her Saviour," in the discharge of a public station that the Lord now called his young servant, but placed her instead in the chamber of sickness and death. Affliction followed affliction in the circle of those dear to her, and as she was again and again called to an unusual ministry of sorrow, the bright and cheery love and devotion she brought to this altar of sacrifice, told how true and sincere had been her final dedication to Christ. No hand could now so well smooth the pillow, or administer consolation to the sick and dying as hers. It was to her that the weary eye turned for comfort. It was her voice that, though her own heart was bursting with its suppressed anguish, could still speak in cheer- ful tones the words of consolation. Among the sad duties assigned to her during these years was that of enlightening and solacing the weary days of a beloved in- valid brother, who, being laid aside from active duty, passed through months and years of languor and disease, and having "en- dured as seeing Him who is invisible," at length found rest in the bosom of his God. Her elasticity of spirits and vivacity of manner were all brought into use to beguile and support the patient sufferer. 28 FAITHFUL TO DUTIES. How much these were to him, springing, as they did, from the never-failing hopes of the Gospel, only those to whom God hath appointed days of weariness and pain can appreciate. In addition to this constant sorrow, the loved mother, by reason of ill' health, became unable to fulfil her duties, and then Jeanette was the burden-bearer in that home. She was beloved by brothers and sisters who were older, and looked up to for direction and affec- tion by those who were younger. [This biographical sketch is taken principally from her sister Martha's book before referred to, and from notes furnished by her cousin, Rebecca S. Price.] LETTERS TO MARY HARRISON. 29 III. " There shall be no more death." Letters to Mary H. Christmas, 1839 Devotion to her brother James His death, 1840 Letters from Mrs. Bedell and Rev. Dr Tyng. TO MARY HARRISON. BURLINGTON, Nov. 1838. IT is a great secret, dear Mary, that I am writing to you to-night, no one does, no one must know anything about it I am writing just to please myself. To begin with myself as most important, I am in the kitchen seated on my "high stool" by the breakfast table writing to cousin Mary. Father and mother are in the parlor, the former reading newspapers; the latter, perhaps, darning stock- ings. A. and E. are at present making sundry noises upstairs, indicating a preparation for bed. (N. B. "Luce" has just called down for me to "excuse the interruption of her shoe falling down the 'hole,' and begs I will remember to bring it upstairs when I come.") James and I went to Philadelphia, as aunt told you; though it was inconvenient to leave home so unexpectedly at this season, I thought it right to go with James. It took me several days to feel at home in Philadelphia, as you know I do so dislike a city; and just as I was beginning to feel comfortable father wrote down to know if one of the other girls could not take my place, as I was wanted at home. Ann brought me the message on Monday, stayed the night, and took me off next morning to the boat before 6 o'clock; I say "took," for I am sure I would never have done all this but for her perseverance; she slept with me in a little bed in James's room, and had me bright and early awake, dressed, and 30 SELF-CONDEMNED. walking to the boat while the moon and stars were yet shining brightly. Father brought James home on Friday; he had been somewhat better during part of his visit, but that day was quite un- well. . . . Early on Monday morning Eliza (our girl) was taken sick and obliged to leave us ; our washerwoman stayed till noon, and from that time I have been mistress of the kitchen no envia- ble situation, I assure you, in buckwheat-cake times! To, be sure we have a nice little black girl who will run whenever and wherever I wish, but she cannot work. Truly, a woman's life is trying ! so much do we have to do and bear for the "lords of creation!" One poor finger is burnt here, another there my face suffused with a blush too deep and durable to be natural. Oh ! I cannot tell you half my troubles in this way ; suffice it to say, I am cook. But what is worse than all I am cross, selfish, and everything that is unpleasant and wrong, and yet think myself everything that is nice. Of one thing I am assured, I never knew myself before, would never have believed I had such a bad disposition. I do "hope" I shall not feel this way when I am an "old maid." . . . . I am not patient and kind, seeking first to make those around me happy, but selfish, so selfish, I get worried and tired, and sadly out of humor with myself and everybody ; those about me know but little how I feel : dear James said to me to night as I was "fixing him in his bed," " Jeanette, this has been one of my bad, cross days, and yesterday was one of yours." I have often intended to write what I would not say. Will cousin Mary remember me daily? I will not thank, you, can only say, the Lord will repay. May He be our ruler and guide, that we may so pass through things tem- poral, that we finally lose not the things eternal ! We are ignorant, proud, and averse to all that is good.; our only trust is in Him who is "the way, the truth, and the life," who loves us as we are, and who is leading us by ways we know not to Himself. .... Sarah Richards and Matt, left us this morning in early boat ; I am glad I can say my temper rather improved while she was here, and the last few days I have not been so cross ; this is owing, I think, partly to the happy influence of writing to you, dear cousin, and this is another reason why you must let me write to you often. I am still mistress of the kitchen, and am considered to have brought the art of cooking almost to perfection this, I believe, is John's testimony, though only borne when he sees I am in a NINE DEAR COUSINS. 3! "bother," which is quite often enough for comfort. Indeed, I despair of ever keeping house like cousin Rebecca, so calm, quiet, and everything that is right, who is not only happy herself but dif- fuses happiness to all around. But it is a great comfort to have such "nice" relations, even if you are not "nice" yourself. You must expect to see me look and act ten years older (quite matronly, etc. etc., now that I have assumed such new responsibilities). It is now high time to call me "our old cousin Jeanette" but re- member, though I am so old and venerable, my young relations are as dear as ever; I am as much interested in their happiness, and hope yet to prove to them how useful and happy old maids can be. BURLINGTON, April 3, 1839. . . . . Dear Mary, there were nine of us ! Nine dear cousins professed the faith of Jesus, by partaking of the emblems of his broken body and shed blood ! Oh ! may not only these, but all dear to us, all united by the ties of kindred, know the ful- filment of our Saviour's promise, "Whoever shall confess me be- fore men, him will I also confess before my father which is in heaven." .... You ask after James's health? This week he has seemed much better, has been able to go into the garden a few minutes at a time, and yesterday took with John his first walk this year; went about a half square without much fatigue. But, dear, it has been just so all winter; some weeks of comfortable health, and others of suffering and weakness. I do not think I shall leave him this summer. He told me one evening, when quite unwell, that I must try and keep my spirits up, that he de- pended upon me, he said, "I feel more comfortable with you than any one else. You must try and stay with me as much as you can." SUNDAY EVE, Nov. 3, 1839. . . . . And now, how can I tell you what I wish to? Dear Mary, mother is well. Again her pleasant smile, gentle voice, and all, all she ever was, is with us, bringing joy and gladness to our fireside! How can we express our thankfulness to "Him from whom cometh every good and perfect gift?" She returned from Cousin Patty's on Friday last perfectly well; we had heard she 32 CHRISTMAS A NEW PLAN. was better, and were prepared to find her somewhat so but to find her well, perfectly restored! Dear Cousin, it has seemed too, too good to be true, and until to-day I have not fully believed it. It is, I think, just one year since I wrote to you of mother's sickness, told you (who I knew would so kindly listen) all my fears, my griefs and sorrows. I remember I thought at first we never should be happy again, but this was only a transient feeling. I hope I then felt ''All is well." CHRISTMAS, 1839. I awoke this morning some time before the other girls, and as I watched the morning light grow brighter and brighter, I remem- bered it was the cheerful Christmas day, I thought of all that was to have been, and all that is, of those sources of joy, reasons for joy, that never can be taken away. It must ever be a "cheerful" day ! None other can tell us so of Him who became man ! Who took upon him our nature, that he might not only be all powerful as our God, but all sympathy as man, our " brother !".... I determined before I left my bed that this should be quite a nice sort of Christmas, that I would try a new plan, and see how "things would do." And you don't know-how "nicely" they have done ! I concluded to try and make myself happy by making others so. Now, this is a very fine thing to talk about, but quite another thing to do, at least so says my experience. I only ask credit for the resolution, for I must say, I have been several times very naughty, and I am quite sure I heard some one say something about "her being cross." And "Annie," who dined with me, again and again said, "You are the queerest, the very queerest, girl I ever did see." Indeed, dear Mary, I have made up my mind that "Annie" is right. All that I attempt to say is, that I am to no one more queer than to myself " a contradiction of contra- dictions." .... I send you " Mrs. Breckenridge." There is a something in it, dear Mary, that reminds me of " ourselves." Some say it is a book about nothing, but it is not so to me, "she lived and died." This may be, must be, all that can be said of any one of "us." There is that fear, doubt, and timidity in her re- ligious character that make her seem like a friend. I can say I trembled for her when I found she was passing through the "dark valley," and I never shall forget that her end was "peace." It JAMES HULME HIS DEATH. 33 seemed to say to me the weakest, the most fearful, most sinful, shall be more than conquerors through Him who loved us. But little is said of her, but to me that little is much. It re- minded me of our long conversation last summer. She, 'tis said, was always afraid to whisper, even to her dearest friend, her re- ligious joys often afraid to tell her sorrow or the joy and peace He had given, lest she should be found offering "strange fire" on His altar. And yet she found there had ever been underneath her the "everlasting arms." Jeanette was especially devoted to her brother James. While an invalid at home, and gradually passing away from earth, she was his unwearied nurse, his cheering companion, and trusted counsellor. His frequent depression was in some measure owing to his having been obliged to relinquish his cherished hope of preaching the Gospel of Christ, by reason of failing health. One day during his illness (he was confined to his bed but a single day) he spoke of their having been all so happy together, and then, referring to his present weakness, he added, "Jeanette tries to get me to live day by day 'as thy days, so shall thy strength be.' ' She said, " You will find it so, dear; I am sure you will." With the most touching simplicity he replied, "Jeanette tells me I shall." Then preparing to lie down, he said in a tone of the utmost tenderness, "I think we shall know each other hereafter; I know we shall." His head rested on that sister's bosom when he passed away, gently as an infant falling to sleep, on the 2pth of February, 1840. To MRS. GEORGE HARRISON, on the death of her brother James. BRISTOL, Pa., March, 1840. MY OWN DEAR COUSIN : . . . We assemble around the table, gather around the hearth, and are almost cheerful. We are not unhappy. Is not our dear one missed ? Oh ! look into each heart, as the vacant seat, the deserted chair, the absent quiet, gentle, and lovely face, all tell the precious one has left us. Left us? No, not left us. God has taken him ! He now rests on the bosom of his Redeemer. Oh, my dearest cousin, we dare not weep ; we do not wish him 3 34 LETTER FROM MRS. BEDELL. back. Long has he been going home, and now he is safely folded in his Father's arms in that rest which remaineth for the people of God. Not for any righteousness which he has done, not for any merit in himself, but for his Saviour's merit, for the sake of the blood shed, the Lamb slain. This was his only hope. "The blood of Christ cleanseth from all sin." "Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord." Thy JEANETTE. From MRS. BEDELL, widow of Rev. G. T. Bedell, D.D., Rector of St. Andrew's Church, on the death of James Hulme, to his eldest sister. March, 1840. Still confined to the house by sickness, I assume, my afflicted friend, to express on paper the feelings of a heart that has learned to sympathize in the bitterness of experience. Bitterness did I say? And has the Christian's cup of affliction no ingredient but bitterness? Where are the "everlasting arms?" Where the faith that looks beyond the grave, sees the captive drop his chains of earth, and, washed in the blood of the Lamb, mount higher and higher to mansions prepared in the skies ? A faithful follower of the Lamb, he is not in the grave, but now with robes made white, realizes those ecstatic joys found in the society of saints and angels ; the mere -anticipation of which makes all things worthless to them that remain. Your brother's life was a beautiful unbroken consistency, exhibit- ing in death that soft mellow light, which, like the rays of the set- ting sun, we linger and love to look upon. The light is now gone forever ; but far above our world will it rise in resplendent glory. And shall we mourn for this? The obituary in the "Recorder," my dear friend, has awakened sad but sweet reminiscences; and having just heard that you had re- turned to the city, I lay it down to give expression to my thoughts as they arise, feeling that we can reciprocate sympathies. One still remains unuttered sweeter than them all ; they have met! Ah, enviable privilege! Pastor and people, one by one. There was "no mourning there!" Our journey, my friend, will soon be over, and we too shall know and be known. Blessed anticipation! Life REV. DR. TYNG TO JAMES HULME. 35 the only shadow, the dark valley between ; death and the grave the open door to eternal joys. In faith and hope, my Christian friend, we '11 journey on, in weariness refreshed with Gospel con- solations, till our convoy is sent to bring us, too, to the consumma- tion of the glorious promises. With kindest regard to your afflicted sister, I remain yours in bonds of Christian love. P. BEDELL. A few days before the death of James Hulme the following letter was written to him by the Rev. Dr. Tyng: PHILADELPHIA, Feb. 25, 1840. MY DEAR FRIEND AND BROTHER : I wrote you a few lines some weeks ago, wishing to do some little thing, by the blessing of God, to encourage and edify you in your time of trial. I have since heard frequently of you and of your con- dition. Painful as it is even for a season to be separated from those we love, I cannot but praise God that you are apparently so near the beholding of Jesus in his glory, and sitting at His feet, to go no more out from him. How happy is the prospect! How precious will be the sight and the possession of that adorable Lord as your own forever! He loved you before the foundation of the world;, and He will love you when the world has ceased to exist. He assumed, in a solemn and everlasting covenant, all your responsi- bilities, both of suffering and obedience, and finished his under- taking with infinite perfection. He sought you when you were lying in your actual guilt, ready to perish, and led you to make a mutual agreement with Him, that you would be His, and He would be yours forever. And though you could bring Him nothing, and could do nothing for him, He entered with you into an everlasting partnership in which His riches of righteousness were to make up for your total insolvency, His power to supply your entire weakness, His wisdom to guide your erring ignorance, and His permanence and unchangeable purpose to overrule and govern your fickleness and unstable spirit. . . . He put into your possession His un- limited atonement, His almighty power, His actual conquests, His eternal habitation. . . . Now, are you not rich? Are you not full? May you not reign in life as a king, by Him, even. Jesus Christ? 36 UNUTTERABLE BLESSEDNESS. But does Unbelief ever say, "How can all this be? I have brought Him nothing? I have done nothing for Him?" And does Despondency echo, "Amen, so it is? How can you rejoice in hope of the glory of God?" Let Faith answer, "My blessed partner does not require anything, He finds everything. He ex- pects nothing, He brings the whole. He is the same yesterday, to-day, and forever. What He was when he first loved me, He will remain to me forever, the source and fountain of all that I need, of all that I can desire. And I fly from my sins to Him ; and if I could find excellences in myself, I would fly from them, too, just as certainly, and cast myself, poor and naked, upon Him, that he might do all the work, and have all the glory." Oh, how can I but say to you in such circumstances, not "poor James, I am sorry for you," but "rich James, happy James, I rejoice for you, and rejoice with you." What a portion is yours! The King of angels and saints stands by you, to guard, to keep, to bless, and to perfect you. Oh, my happy, happy brother, to have found this perfect Jesus, or to have been found by Him ! How precious He is now to you ! How inconceivably sufficient for your waiting soul ! Now sing songs of praise in the house of your pilgrimage ; rejoice and be exceeding glad, for great indeed is your portion and your prospect. Forget yourself in person, and think of your- self in partnership. Renounce all that could in any sense be called your own, that you may seek only the things which are Jesus Christ's. Look as simply -as possible to His works as past, as present, and as to come. Will He lose a soul He has loved ? Has He died in vain ? He holds you in the hollow of His hand as a jewel of His electing love Be of good cheer, then; the Lord is with you. You will soon wear the crown which His righteousness has merited, and which His hand will bestow. And soon some of us will come after you. What glory will open upon you! How affecting is the thought! A thin veil, just ready to drop from its own weakness and decay, is all that hides from you the glory of that countenance that fills the heavens with bliss. How you will wonder! How you will adore! "Is this my Saviour? my Jesus? my own Lord forever? Oh, blessedness unutterable ! What a portion, what a change for my weary, empty, helpless soul !" Well, my dear brother, all this is yours. Be of good cheer, then, writes your affectionate friend and pastor, STEPHEN H. TYNG. POINT PLEASANT. 37 IV. " Casting all your care upon Him, for He careth for you." 1840-1846 Point Pleasant Letters to her sister Martha My birthday, 1843 Clear views of the doctrine of justification by faith Visit to Harrisburgh, Lewisburg, and Blue Hill A literary hermit Letter to E. G. H. Brookfield Rev. D. A. Tyng Death of her parents Letters to H. W. B. and Mrs. R. Harrison, "mother" Marriage of her sister Martha a great loss Letters to her sister M. and Rev. Dr. Damon. FROM HER SISTER MARTHA. POINT PLEASANT, May 20, 1840. MY DEAR SISTER JEANETTE : . We have missed you much ; it seems as if all the light and life of the house were gone. I do not think there has been a loud laugh heard since you left. Laughter and merriment went with you, and I am about forming the opinion that, as a family, with the exception of yourself, we are remarkably grave. I, at least, am so, who sometimes fear that I am getting wild. But you are the spirit that rules, and, when left alone, there is no danger of levity with me. You are the sunshine, and I the shadow. . . . . Point Pleasant looks beautiful this morning so beautiful that it gives me painful feelings. What a coloring the heart can throw over the brightest scenes ! Truly, our own minds make this world. In looking around on all that is so fair, the eye of faith dwells with comfort at least it ought to be with happiness on that bright, fair home above, into which sin and death cannot enter. " No sorrow dims the air Breathed by our loved one there." But forgive me for this sad strain a shadowing out of some of the many feelings that have oppressed me. [This sadness must have been inspired by the recent death of their brother James.] 38 KITCHEN EXPERIENCE. TO MARTHA HULME. POINT PLEASANT, January 2, 1841. Well, dear Primrose, you may be glad enough you were making a visitation to your married sister, instead of a "child at home," for like as not you would have been waked up by this time. Dear me! we have had all sorts of a time to-day. " My sister she took sick, and I was very poorly;" and "auld Robin came a-courting of me." Yes, this is all true, just as you see, only you must make auld Robin come before the people all took sick. Well, just to tell you about it. mother got off to the party in the " harracane" No. i, New Year's day, 1841 (I want to write the 41 very often, for somehow I don't make very good looking 4i's), and left me sole occupant of the spacious kitchen of Point Pleasant for the day. Commencing at 10^ o'clock I made thirty-one pies! Mince pies? Yes, thirty-one mince pies! Was not that enough of itself to make me begin to be " poorly." To be sure, for the sake of exactness, I must say sixteen were little patty-pan pies the size of my thumb. And then I said I was sole occupant of the kitchen. Mary Ann and Phoebe were both there. I had a fine time after all, as I told mother last evening. By begging and bribing I had dry wood cut by Bill to fit the oven, and dry wood cut to fit the stove, and plenty of it, too ! I told mother she could not conceive of the quiet satis- faction, the delightful, aye, joyful feelings I experienced to see the fires "go" as they did ! And then the pork that I never got boiled enough ; ah ! it boiled that day. The stove was hot, so that both oven doors might be left open; and the boiler, with a snug little piece of pork in the bottom, covered with water, with plenty of room to do as it pleased, was cheerfully fixed in its place. Yes, cheerfully, for crack ! crack ! went the dry wood in the stove, bubble, bubble, the boiler of pork, whiz! whiz ! the little sticks of the pie oven. Moreover, your humble servant was warm ! And then the thirty-one pies began to make. Miss Jeanette made, rolled, and put the crust in the dish, and then it was handed over to Miss Phcebe (who presided over the ornamental depart- ment), who filled, clipped, picked, and pricked, and landed it safely in the oven. Of course we had no dinner, not having time. John had gone to attend to a goose with Frank, and Miss E., why, LAST LOOK OF THE PAST. 39 in the midst of all the "harracanes" she took and went to church! We stopped the rolling and picking about 12 o'clock, and sent for Miss Anne to come and take a "snatch" standing. The blow- ing of the wind, the whirling of the snow, rocking of the trees, etc., being just as they were, all expectation of seeing Miss E. was cut off; when lo ! she was descried on a blow, making to (as the sailors say) the green gate. She had arrived in time to get a piece of "snatch," and declared "the day was fine for walking," "couldn't tell how it made her feel" to hear the hail and snow jostle together, and ring and tingle as it fell on her umbrella. We were tired enough by night. In the midst of all, the "country cousins" arrived! By 5 o'clock felt done over, what with one thing and another/ Now, you will hardly believe that new year's day is recorded as one of the most sober of my life. There has been something in the last look of the past, and the first word of the present season, that has found its way even to my feel- ings, long to be remembered. How wisely have our daily crumbs been meted to us! As our old friend passes away forever, his last word is heard: "Behold, I come quickly;" and as we close our eyes with a sense of what we are within, and what may be without, the gentle whisper of him who supplies the place of our departed friend is in our ear: "As thy day so shall thy strength be;" "My grace is sufficient for thee, my strength is made perfect in weak- ness." May these blessed promises speak to two of "the least," even as they should, as they were freely given ! Where am I, dear Matt ? My letter is April-like, begun in smiles and likely to end in tears. The name of the author explains all. . . . . 'Tis now ii P. M. ; the day is past, and we had a com- fortable time of it, after all Good night, dear Prim- rose ; have not time to say one word about your letter. JEANETTE. In concluding a letter to her sister Martha, she writes on Jan. 18, 1841. DEAR MATT : . . . . There are two or three little things I want you to remember, as kind of directions: "Earth has no sorrow that Heaven cannot cure;" "Let patience have her perfect work;" 40 OLD OLNEY HYMN-BOOK. "The trial of our faith being much more precious." Aunt Price sent me her old Olney hymn-book ; let me send you a verse or two. Through all the various shifting scenes Of life's mistaken ill or good, Thy hand, O God, conducts unseen The beautiful vicissitude. Thy ways, O Lord, with wise design Are formed upon thy throne above; And every dark unblending line Meets in the centre of thy love. It does seem to me you are afraid to enjoy all the privileges of the glorious Gospel. . . Has He not said, " I will never leave thee?" You will be able to bear and surfer all that His love for you deems necessary. With every temptation there will you know there will be a way of escape. SISTER JEANETTE. Mrs. Platt's character, was many sided, each of which in its full development seemed to stand out clear and distinctive and none more so than was the " joyousness" of this nature, as if way down in her heart was some hidden "spring of joy" that, bursting out in childhood's happy years, had been coursing its way all through this checkered life, with waters so bright and sparkling in their flow as to make glad and beautiful all around to her it had become a 11 joy to think the best she could of human kind." This playful joyousness is well expressed in two letters written from Point Pleasant to her sister Martha. TO MARTHA HULME. POINT PLEASANT, May 27, 1841. DEAR PRIM: Though quite late to begin to write this evening, with the ex- pectation of being sleepy very soon, I am, nevertheless, once again in my old seat, at the old stand, writing my first letter of the sum- mer of 1841. Right glad am I that it is honored with the dedica- tion of sister M. May it be ominous of good. Surely, dear Prim, you will think I need all the good omens touching this matter. Remember last summer. But never fear; I rather think, unless HOUSE-CLEANING. 41 you object, the dedication of this will answer for all the year's epistles. But the future is unread. Well, the little basket was handed me by Henry, last evening, saying, "Mrs. Welch desired him to bring it out." I had for- gotten all about the ruffles, and was sure Prim had come, and made quite a fuss, with the basket in my hand, running about to inform father and all interested. Well, pass over the disappointment. It has seemed, to me at least, a most wondrous long time since you all went away. We seem to have had quite a summer. I can only say 'tis now mowing-time, the clover being cut daily on the lawn ; can't say we have thought as much about you as you might suppose, for we have not had time. The day you left (only last Friday), I really had the headache, and thought I felt quite as badly as other people do when they have been doing almost every- thing in one day, and slept but little during the night. Mary was sick, and went to bed. I "poked" about awhile, and then thought I would try and see if a little could not be done towards house-cleaning, and took in hand the washing of the Richard-room windows. About 9 o'clock Mary joined me, declaring she was well ; and in process of time A. and E. entered upon duty, and things began to go on swimmingly. It was quite funny to see what order was preserved, almost an unbroken silence reigned, disturbed only by the pouring of water, wringing of cloths, rubbing of brushes, etc. This was the more worthy of notice, as the contribution on the part of each individual was a free-will offering to house-cleaning, no one saying to the other, "such and such things will we do," or "shall be done." We worked right merrily till night-fall; with returning health, I suppose, came returning spirits. From Mrs. Richards' room we passed to the entry ; from thence, eastward, down the four steps, by way of the closets (not at all to be forgotten), through the wide entry passing my room ; then, turning to the north, en- tered mother's apartment, and after a thorough amendment and improvement, commenced Anne's, taking up the white-washing branch, Jeanette officiating ; the long entry then followed, and the whole matter came to an end with the southeastern extremity of John's room, at a little before 7 o'clock P. M. What think you? I have been thus minute, dear Prim, as the history of one day will tell for all the others since you left. We have been very 42 POWER OF ASSOCIATION. busy. On Monday I hired a washerwoman, and took Mary to assist with the parlors, and finished all that part of the house, in- cluding the porticos, with the Robber room, that day, the washer- woman helping towards the end. Tuesday morning ironed and tied up flowers and vines. At the dinner-table father announced that he was going to Mt. Holly, and would take any of us. Jeanette went, taking Mary Ann. Stayed to tea a "most nice" visit, quite dusty enough going, but a dear little shower before return. Home 10 o'clock a little sleepy last mile or two. I can't tell any more now, Dear Prim. . . . My epistle is like the "Brief Reply" as to length, but unlike that production its merit must consist in its truth, You will surely consider it an unexpected and unmerited favor that is, if you can read it. ... My letter might have been a very serious one, and altogether different in its character; but it is the passing hour with JEANETTE. TO MARTHA HULME. POINT PLEASANT, Monday Eve, March 7, 1842. DEAREST PRIM : . . . Tell sister she will not believe how often- one has said to another, "brother and sister are coming up to stay, on the ist of April." Are there any rosebushes (roots, large) in market yet? With every returning spring, every changing circumstance, my en- joyment in these things remains the same, or is, perhaps, greater. If Anne would like to get one for the Point, let it be a climber. The power of association ! what seems to stay its current, or rather causes it to flow with such unmingled sweetness? We cannot tell in word, dearest sister. It is a joy with which even a kindred heart "intermeddleth not;" the constant, abiding, feeling assurance that " There everlasting spring abides, And never-withering flowers, Where saints immortal reign." Is it, beloved sister, that we have not yet learned the deceitful- ness of our hearts, and know not "what manner of spirit we are CONSECRATION. 43 of," that makes one feel that you and I do not need to "climb where Moses stood, and view the landscape o'er," to make us feel that there are joys " eye hath not seen, nor ear heard ;" and, look- ing upon Him as the "author and finisher," who declares, "Be- hold, I come quickly," causes us to long, at least, to respond, "Even so, come, Lord Jesus!" These feelings cannot be repressed. If I know my own heart, here they are, oh, are they not unto "the praise and glory of His grace?" Is not this a golden period? Is not He passing by? The Lord, the Lord merciful and gracious. Will not the bright- ness of the season gild many a future hour of darkness and de- spondency? Shall not the remembrance be as "songs in the night?" "streams in the desert?" Yes, dearest sister, we will re- member this, through all the way in which the Lord our God shall lead us ; when He shall prove us and try us as silver is tried, that we may receive the crown of life, and be " presented faultless be- fore the presence of His glory with exceeding joy." I feel that I have much yet to learn of the one great lesson, the nothingness of self, the all-sufficiency of Him. Yes, much, much, before I shall see Him as He is, and be "satisfied with His likeness." May the comfort in the views of truth which we have received ever be ours ! Your own sister JEANETTE. In the following we see how truly she felt the need and the worth of consecrating to God that exuberant flow of spirits which enlivened all her conduct, rendering her the delight of her friends by both pen and presence. TO MARTHA HULME. Tuesday morn, just before father leaves. . "Just before father leaves !" Of course you say Jeanette always writes in a hurry, and that is the reason why her letters look and are what they are. How could I help doing so, when father has just told us at the breakfast table that he goes? Now, dear Matt, I am not only ashamed, but grieved, on account of the folly and volatility these said letters manifest. Shall I never be serious? 44 MERCIFULLY ORDERED. Why cannot I write at least in the same spirit as Martha? Not like, but as she writes? I was "very high" all last week, though with- out any apparent cause had nothing to worry me, and felt con- tented and happy; and such was the way this happiness was mani- fested, both in conversation and writing ! If my happiness springs from a pure source, would not it be shown by "a meek and quiet spirit?" This is my "besetting sin." I ask not to be other than I am as to natural disposition and faculties given by Him who be- stoweth gifts according to His own will, but I ask that all may be directed, regulated, and controlled by deep, abiding religious principle. Where, well may you ask, is the progress towards this end? If our trust was not in "the tender mercies," where would be our hope? TO HER SISTER MARTHA. DEAR MATT : . . . Do stay (though we miss you sadly) as long as you can enjoy yourself. I fully accord with you in your estimate of true wisdom in our use of the present. It certainly is your part. Your having at last learned this truth I hope proves that its sister truth is also embraced. Let the morrow care for the things of itself; "sufficient to the day is the evil thereof;" "take no thought for the morrow." If you were a friend instead of sister, I might say your last letter, from some cause, awoke a cord of sympathy between us before untouched. To one who has been led to find her peculiar joy in the Christian walk from the view of her cove- nant God in his "parental character," and ruler of "particular providences," your words could not fail to be understood. You know there are many, and have been many, sorrows and joys of your heart with which I cannot intermeddle. We may sympathize yet not share. It seems to me that this is the first emotion of the heart that has beat so close to mine from childhood, in which I shared. You see, dear Prim, what magic power your one little sentence about the Divine condescension has wrought. "Mercifully or- dered" never forget this, and the stream of quiet happiness shall flow with you to life's end. Each little event, joy or sorrow, as well as the whole train, ordered, disposed, and suited to each "son and daughter" as they are brought home to glory! Oh, the riches of the wisdom and mercy of our covenant God ! JACOB'S vow. 45 MY BIRTHDAY. " Daily Food," Job v. 19. February 25, 1843. "And behold I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land ; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of. . . . . "And Jacob vowed a vow, saying, If God will be with me, and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat, and raiment to put on, " So that I come again to my father's home in peace; then shall the Lord be my God: .... and of all that thou shalt give me, I will surely give the tenth unto thee." Gen. xxviii. 15, 20-22. My daily reading, my birthday portion ! I know not that I have anything to record this day. Quietness seems to rest upon my heart. The return of this season comes not as it was wont to do, reviving hopes and fears, youth's doubts and anxieties for the un- tried future, which made me feel the preciousness of that Arm on which I might rest as a refuge, that Wisdom infinite in which I might trust, "casting all my care upon Him who careth for me;" and rejoicing in that I could (by grace) say, " My times are in thy hand." But is it not my birthday still? And as my years pass away, is it not more and more a Bethel, on which I see inscribed what "the Lord has done for me?" So far as this life is concerned, I seem to have not one desire. My birthday with all my other days is before Thee. Oh, that "the life which I now live in the flesh I might live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." May Jacob's God be my God I May my portion in this life be as years "few and evil," so that at last I may but come to be a partaker of His inheritance, with "Abraham and Isaac, in the kingdom of our Father." I come to Thee, O my Father, through that open door of access which Jacob's vision showed forth Jesus Christ. In Him I may hear Thy voice and live ; yea, find Thee my Covenant God. In Him I come before Thee, "justified from all things;" in Him as 46 BIRTH-DAY ANNIVERSARY. my surety I enter into covenant with Thee. Oh, let Thy words, spoken to Jacob, be also to me ! " And, behold, I am with thee, and .will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land ; for I will not leave thee until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of." I would receive it as Thy promise to me in Jesus. It is enough. Every desire of spirit and body is satisfied in this. My soul, my body, I commit anew to Thy hands; and, with Jacob, vow my vow. "If God will be with me, and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat, and raiment to put on, so that I come to my Father's house [heavenly Father, John xiv. 2] in peace: then shall the Lord be my God ;" and this, my birthday, shall be as a Bethel, a "stone, which I have set for a pillar;" "and of all that Thou shalt give me, I will surely give the tenth unto Thee." This promise is made only in the strength of my Lord God, making mention of His righteousness, His only. In Him every care shall be satisfied, every want supplied, and I shall be with "full salvation blest;" "kept by the power of God through faith unto salvation," i Peter i. 5. My Father in heaven, I ask no more on this my birthday, but that Thou wilt, indeed, "be with me, and keep me in all places whither I go," until my feet enter into the New Jerusalem. "Be- cause Thou hast been my helper, therefore, under the shadow of thy wings will I rejoice;" "goodness and mercy have followed me all the days of my life;" "in the multitude of the sorrows I have had in my heart, thy comforts have refreshed my soul." I have never tasted of the cup of sorrow but it has been to my lips as drops from the "fountain of life," the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. Oh, what can I say! What can I render for creation, preserva- tion, and all the blessings of this life; but, above all, for Thy in- estimable love in redemption, by Jesus Christ! " Angels, and living saints, and dead But one communion make : All join in Christ, their living Head, And of His love partake. All glory be to Thee, Q Lord most high !" Ever may I be Thine, O my Saviour, and one with him who sleeps in Jesus! JEANETTE HULME. JUSTIFICATION. 47 FROM A LETTER TO HER SISTER. This review of her Christian experience shows how clearly the doctrine of justification by faith was revealed to her. July 9, 1843. DEAR SISTER: The sacred bond that makes us all one in Christ Jesus, is, I be- lieve, pure, deep, and abiding. It rests upon a, foundation above all change. None can boast of higher, purer love. It is sufficient for our hearts to know, " Now we are the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be; but we know that when He shall appear, we shall be like Him." Compared with this, every other thought and feeling is as nothing. It is now eight years since, by the waters of baptism, I was united to the visible Church of Christ, and my name registered in St. Mary's Church, Burlington I look back to it as a day of days partaker in a transaction which men and angels wit- nessed. Henceforth a member of Christ's Church militant, I was, I trust, taken and sheltered and fed, and my feet guided thus far. Exceedingly ignorant of many things, and but imperfectly ac- quainted with any of the foundation doctrines of the Christian's joy and hope, I only knew that I desired to do that which was right. Four years passed with alternate seasons of light and darkness, hope and fear, when the Holy Spirit bade me answer: " What is the foundation of your hope? Are you in Christ Jesus?" Three months (in 1839) that I cannot even now dwell upon known only to Him who, " when our spirit is overwhelmed within us, knoweth our path" found me at their close rejoicing in the triumphant answer: "He that believeth is justified from all things!" and, "Whom he justifies, them will he also glorify." " There is, there- fore, now no condemnation to them which are in Jesus Christ," "heirs of God, and joint heirs with Christ," they can "never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of His hand." The doctrine of justification by faith was then, through no human instrumentality, perceived and received in all its richness of com- fort and joy. It is the foundation of the believer's rest in his 48 DR. BETHUNE PREACHES. Saviour, the entrance into the glorious liberty of the children of God. This was the Gospel which I then received, in which I have rejoiced without one faltering moment ever since. No darkness, no sorrow, no sinfulness and wretchedness of self can turn the believer's eye from the joy that flows from Him who " abideth faithful."* .... That the Lord God of Israel may ever keep us all, is the prayer of JEANETTE. She goes to Harrisburgh and Lewisburg, Pa., to visit relatives, and from there writes the following letters to her sister Martha: HARRISBURGH, PA., May 30, 1844. DEAREST SISTER : I well know you will be grateful to hear from us, even if it is only a few lines. Such a gloomy beginning has ended in a bright and pleasant day (how like life!). Mary has not even complained of fatigue, though the latter part of the way was rough. But such a ride! such views bursting upon us of the unsurpassed valley of the Susquehanna! such hills and mountain tops; such bright green fields and dotted corn crops; such mingled rocks and peaceful streams; and and more than the heart can feel or words can tell. I enjoyed it all intensely We had our dinner soon after we arrived, and then I read a little, and had the snuggest nap, cut out my cape, and prepared to sew perfectly at home. The house is full, a "Sunday Convention" being held. Mr. Chester, from B , here, etc. etc. Dr. Bethune preached this evening. I made Mr. G take me. Oh, what a sermon ! What can we call these showers by the wayside, these unexpected blessings? "Not slothful in business; fervent in spirit; serving the Lord." The cares and duties of life not hindrances but helps, a preparation (to the child of God) for rest in the heavenly seats above. I have not time to speak of it. I rejoice in all those things, in every view and aspect of which he spoke last night. Why do we ever distrust our Father's wisdom? . . . . To say that I have wished for you through all the pleasant day, cannot tell how I longed to see through your eyes, or rather by them. But if this communion of spirit among the RIDE ON CANAL PACKET. 49 beauties of this perishable world is better not for us, shall we not together wonder and adore in that "better country," at His right hand, where there is "fulness of joy and pleasures for evermore?" What a proof of immortality is the yearning, undying sense of the beautiful and glorious! I have most wondered, and most enjoyed, that I could yet feel all this even more than ever. But this will not do; you would rather I would say good-night. TO MARTHA HULME. LEWISBURG, PA., Monday morning, June 3, 1844. DEAREST SISTER: . . . . The canal boat! Did any of you ever go in a canal boat? A home and not a home, a house and not a house. Eating, sleeping, drinking, everything, all in an inch of room, seemingly. Tiny windows with tasselled red curtains, etc., "play-pretense" like. I declare I did not feel myself at home enough to take my bonnet off, though a girl did sit sewing in the corner, as if she had lived there a year. I was too much amused to laugh. Such a baby-house affair I never saw. And yet it was a regular, well-built, handsomely furnished packet. But the scenery! On the deck I went, and on the deck I would stay, save time to enjoy the best supper since I left home. It was almost sunset when we started. It was not a canal, it was a beautiful stream of deep water, along which we glided so softly and quietly that the song of every bird and the rustling of every leaf were distinctly heard. I sat in the bow of the boat, and, of course, forgot that there were freight, passengers, ar anything else behind me. To talk was impossible. You know how even common objects appear in the soft light of sunset. The farm yards, with the chickens getting ready to sleep; cows return- ing from the green fields, across the pretty bridges that here and there were above our heads; barns, houses, rose bushes and trees, woods and openings; villages and towns in the distance; and above all, and behind all, the glorious mountain heights ! And then, the noble river, with its little green islands and jutting rocks, was all the time just at our side; the wash of every wave that turned aside from rocky peaks was easily heard. Would that I could tell you, that you could feel with me all that I felt ! Think I could not, but every now and then I said, "If Matt were only here!" 4 50 CLOSE QUARTERS. Soon the farm-yards all disappeared, and the wild mountain scenery took their place. But this will not do. Do not talk to me of the North River, Boston, or any other place. Here were not, here and there, the grand and beautiful, but all, all was beauty and loveliness in its highest sense, though ever-changing and various. So slowly, too, we passed along, every object fully enjoyed. Three sunsets and two sunrises we had that evening behind the hills. At last the sun was gone, and the moon with her one bright star, as they never were before, came up from behind the opposite hills. At one time we were in midnight darkness, at the base of frowning rocks, while the outline of some noble hill was pictured for us in the sparkling river by our side. I cannot tell you At last we were advised to go to bed, and after such a hint I concluded to retire. To bed did I say? to shelving I call it. Such a time ! Two ladies, sisters, under the care of Rev. Mr.ratton, of North- umberland, shared our end of the room. The gentlemen had an- nounced to us that the captain had promoted them to more than half the ladies' drawing room (all was an inch, as 1 told you). Sure enough, inside the door were four shelves, and beyond a so- called curtain, flimsy-flamsy blue worsted, stuck up with forks! separating the end of our shelves from the gentlemen's heads, making a turning-round place called a room. Two of the shelves were just beyond suffocating distance from the ceiling; the other two on the cushioned seats below. Of course ladies and gentlemen were taking off boots and shoes at the same time. I helped the big strange lady to her upper shelf, fixed Mary below mine, and then stood upon a stool to aim at mine. But it would not do at all ; and we all burst out in an unsuppressed fit of laughter, in which, of course, the gentlemen tried not to join. A large woman fromthe chambermaid's room was summoned, who lifted me up. But I had left the shutter open to have a little moonlight in our end, and the ladies said I must not sleep with my head that way, or I should be made sick; and so I prepared to turn round. The strangers opposite insisted it could not be done; but at last it was accomplished, and my head was turned just not to touch the gen- tleman (because of the curtain), when down went one corner of the shelf over poor Mary! crash went the little window! and through the blue curtain I seemed determined to go. Then came peals of laughter from the piles of gentlemen beyond (the room was BLUE HILL, NORTHUMBERLAND. . 51 crowded, three rows on either side). But no harm was done. Mary called the maid again, who, half asleep, came loudly scold- ing that if the lady " had only been aisy and not kept frisking so," it would not have happened. But when she found I had to be lifted from the corner in which I had taken refuge, she laughed outright, and set me down in a great hurry. I slept on the floor, and will tell the rest another time. TO MARTHA HULME. LEWISBURG [PA.], June 27, 1844. DEAREST SISTER : . . . The shower seems going up the river, and I find a few moments before dark. If you only could see our beautiful showers hanging along the hill-tops, or spreading in the distance like a veil of mist along the noble river, marking its outlines for miles ! I still enjoy the country so very, very much. On Tuesday morning James and Mary, Mr. Graham, and Jeanette left for a day's ride in the country, particularly to visit the Blue Hill, at Northumberland. I would simply remark that on all such occasions I lose my per- sonal identity. Can you see your primpy (true) old maidy sister seated in an elevated four-wheeled buggy, without a top, one seat,, drawn by two spirited grays, and the driver and companion, the rosy-faced, curly-headed, admired, and respected George Wash- ington Graham! is that your sister Jeanette? I say, no. If I could but give you a miniature picture of the extended and truly beautiful view that the Hill presents from its top, where a summer-house has been erected at the expense of an old man,*who' lives, Jimmy Wells-like, hard by! But I cannot. Mr. G. told me the old man was a "woman-hater." But would you believe it ? after admitting us to a dirty, musty, old garret, and unlocking his great boxes of books, containing a most valuable library of histories, etc. etc., as we were turning away he said, " The book you have in your hand I wish you to keep," addressing me. I was * This old man and "Blue Hill" added to the celebrity of Northumberland, where the distii.guished Dr. Priestley lived and is buried. Blue Hill stands out in bold grandeur where the northern and western branches of the Susquehanna two noble rivers unite and flow into the Chesapeake Bay. 52 . A LITERARY HERMIT. amazed ; but, of course, exceedingly gratified. It is a volume of bound " Magazines of European Literature ; or a collection of select and interesting pieces, either original or versions from the Italian, German, and Spanish, Paris, 1802." I asked him to insert my name and date. He took up from a dirty old kind of a desk a pen, and, inquiring the name, wrote under his own beautifully written name "J. Mason, 1804" the following, "Jane Eppy /" What Mr. Graham and I did with our faces, who were looking over his shoulder, .1 cannot tell. My name was then written on a piece of paper and placed before him, and he neatly wrote, " Jeanette Hulme, June 25, '44." But what think you? is there not a secret sympathy between two old folks when thrown together? It seemed so to me Saturday morning. Beloved sister, the package has just come. Have waited all this time to hear from you so long ! But what shall I say? How deeply I am distressed ! Oh, I can never leave you and home again while I have a father's house on earth ! I cannot do without you, and this must be our last separation. I have suffered so much from excitement since here. Do not distress yourself as to the cause, which is altogether inward. It is not, as in your case, my heart or faith that fails, but the whole nervous system. I become so mentally wretched while morally peaceful and happy. You know you have seen me in times past. If I am a heart to you in your moments of weakness, you are a hero to me, my strength, my wisdom, my unerring guide. Oh, how I have missed you and longed for you ! And yet, the necessities <$f this heart, its weakness and longings, no human eye, not even the nearest my heart, can ever read. Bitter moments have passed in this place and all along my journey here. Brightness and darkness, how, as ever, contrasted ! The sunny side has always been turned to you in my letters, the other waits till I see you. TO HER COUSIN, E. G. H., in Philadelphia. POINT PLEASANT [N. J.], Dec. 26, 1844. MY DEAR NEDDY: It is too late to wish you a "happy Christmas," but not too late to say that you have been much in my mind of late Do you go to any Bible class? Where? Who is the teacher? BROOKFIELD. 53 Will you not try and hear Dr. Tyng as often as you can'? Are there any evenings in the week at your disposal? Could you ever get to his Wednesday evening lectures or Friday night prayer- meetings ? Do you find any time to read ? Is there any library to which you can have access? Tell me all about yourself, what doing, thinking, feeling Only live near to Him and you can never fall. It may be that you will soon learn more and more of the weakness and vileness of your heart. Oh, let not this keep you away from Jesus ("Saviour!") It should only drive you the closer to His cross. And when tempted by the enemy to despond, and feel " I cannot be His child how can I go to Him feeling thus?" Oh, turn from the tempter and answer every doubt, yes, every sense of sin and guilt with this one blessed truth : "Jesus hath died !" Ten thousand are now around the throne who have only obtained the victory in this way. They have all come out of "much tribulation," have "washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb." With much affection I am, dear Neddy, as ever, sister JEANETTE. . Brookfield was the name given to a large estate, beautifully situ- ated in Montgomery County, Pa., twelve miles from Philadelphia, purchased by Mr. Hulme, and where the family removed in April, 1845 with bright anticipations of a happy life and an increase of fortune, but where they met the deepest sorrow of their lives in the death of both father and mother. The mother died April, 1845 > the father the July following. It was here that these letters were written to Mrs. H. W. B., of Trenton. The correspondence was voluminous, but only a few extracts are given. It was at this beautiful home that that earnest, talented, and much lamented young clergyman, Rev. Dudley A. Tyng, met his death in after years by a painful accident. He was a frequent visitor of the Hulme family and a dear friend of Mrs. Platt. After he came to Ohio she was much interested in his work, and their occasional meetings here were mutually pleasant. 54 LETTERS TO H. W. B. TO H. W. B. BROOKFIELD, Aug. 27, 1845. . . . . "Your visit was so pleasant. We often say our Trenton friends were with us in the one only bright week of this summer. A week between the dark and sorrowful past and coming future. Sometimes I think I don't want you to come again would have your recollections of your school-friend's home only pleasant. You can come and see us now, but not our home. Can we ever have a home again? This question constantly presses itself upon my heart, dear H. you too have lost your father, and with him your childhood's home. Tell me how you live and what you live for now." .... " I am sorry I have spoken as I have in this letter. The darkness of these days I know will pass away ; neither would I call my parents back. Long years of tenderness, though marked with times of heartfelt sorrow, bound our parents together, and in death they have not been divided. Side by side they sleep with their most precious, gifted child, our absent brother James." .... " Every one knows I naturally possess no decision and stability of character; and I, this day, fear I am as much the creature of impulse and circumstances as was the school-girl of fourteeen years ago. 1 live by reliance upon others. After brother James, sister Martha made me all I am; rather, all that is seen right about me is the effect of their influence or reflection of their qualities She is, indeed, all you say, all that woman can be And dear H. you will understand something of my feelings when I tell you I am going to lose her by giving herto another." .... Again referring to the change wrought by her father's death, she says: "Oh, Hannah, great has been the change, powerful the cause that has made me feel I could not live here now ; all is as beau- tiful, but where is the answer in our own hearts! No, we cannot stay here without our father!" .... "I am so much pleased that you like 'Anne Sherwood.' It is my pet of all Martha has written. The temperament, character of the little girl is, indeed, her own. Many of the incidents at school actually occurred Clara Norris's friendship ; she could tell you a long story; and then the brother is our own James his love of SAD THOUGHTS. 55 flowers, the hours spent with his young sister in their little garden, all just as they were, true. Anna is not Martha (she says) but another sister (herself). Is it any wonder that she loved flowers? her old 'roots,' some of which she even carried here, seem part of her- self; or rather their tender stems and delicate growth speak of one who watched and trained them, while his step grew more feeble and his eye too dim to see beauty in any outward thing besides. In February, when the snow had covered our little garden, just two weeks before we moved to our beautiful home at Point Pleasant (when we almost hoped he would be with us) he fell asleep in per- fect peace." .... October, 1845. "Your letters are so pleasant and warmly welcomed ; indeed, it seems all a dream that I have met 'Hannah Wilson' again; and then, too, just at this point, this most dark and desolate period of my life. There is a meaning in this to those whose all of earthly happiness is gathered from the 'little things' of passing moments. They do not draw from the past nor borrow from the future. 'That which Thou givest them they gather." How, why, or what they live for they hardly know. But, dear Hannah, I did not mean one sad thought should come before you in this letter. You speak of my visit to Trenton to be sure I think of it and hope to go ; and Martha, too, for a short time but I cannot say I expect to be there. It will be another dream, and somehow dreams never do me good. With Ann Imlay, you think 'we three might almost fancy ourselves school-girls again.' I don't need Ann to make me quite do this; whenever we meet, mind and heart seem to run back again the fourteen years to the warm, fresh feelings of girlish days." The person addressed in these letters as " Mother," was a very dear Quaker cousin, several years older than Jeanette, and in whose family she was a frequent and welcome visitor. The endearing title of "mother" shows how fondly and lovingly they were at- tached. She was the mother of Edmund and Mary Harrison, whose names appear in some of the letters. 56 LETTERS TO COUSIX REBECCA. TO MRS. REBECCA HARRISON, after the death of the writer's parents. BROOKFIELD, Sept. 25, 1845. DEAR MOTHER: Now I want thee here just by me to tell thee all I have to say. I will not thank thee and dear cousin George for the invitation, or rather, welcome, thy letter contained ; nor attempt to say how freely I accept and truly appreciate all this. Cousin Maria, too, insists part of the winter shall be passed with her, and says how very glad her mother will be to have me with them just as long as I can stay. And two weeks, as soon as I am at liberty, my Trenton friend claims. I think we are all much happier than when I wrote last. The heaviest clouds, I trust, have passed away, and at times something of our wonted cheerfulness returns. I believe we have all decided to leave as soon as arrangements will permit, after brother and sister go to the city Nothing has been settled definitely, . and every plan may be changed. Can't thee come and see us, dear mother? I long to see thy quiet face about us again. Is it not time for thee to look after thy vegetable-soup patient? We should all be so glad to see thee here. I really feel sorry that I was not with you all the time of Jeanette's quilting. I quite long to be once more settled among you. I may go away often to other places during the winter, but there will be my home. It is so pleasant to feel I am not to go so far away from all my friends. I want to be with Martha, but at present feel ncx inclination for a western home. It was very different to talk about a year's visit to Martha, and to talk about a home for life. I am too old to enjoy the thought of forming new friendships among those who have never even heard of me. Sometimes I think I shall not go at all. , Oh, my heart has been so desolate, so objectless ! After one, and another, and another were taken from me, my beloved father seemed the one object left for me to live for. I felt I was essential to his happiness and comfort ; I knew he thought so. - But now all is gone, and no one human being needs my love and service. It is vain for dear, dear Martha to tell me I am essential to her happiness, and always shall be. I know this is not so ; in Mr. Canfield she has all. But why talk thus? Dark as the future now is before my eyes there is THE VALUE OF FRIENDS. 57 One who can bring light out of darkness, and cause our greatest sorrows and trials to work together for our highest good. I know all is safe in His hands. Oh, that I could always feel this and en- joy that sweet submission which flows from such belief! Pray for me, dear mother, and when you all kneel around the footstool of His grace, remember your lonely orphan child ; and may the prayers offered and the kindness shown be returned fourfold into your own bosom 1 God only can repay. To Him who will soon bring us all to the possession of our one glorious, eternal inheritance, be all honor and glory for all He has done for me, for all He will ever do ! With my deepest love to each one, I am, as ever, dear mother, thy own JEANETTE. TO MRS. REBECCA HARRISON. BROOKFIELD, Oct. 20, 1845. DEAR MOTHER: I cannot tell thee how grateful thy kind letter was to this heart, how often, again and again, its affectionate expressions have come before me, yesterday, and to-day. It seems, to me I never knew the value of friends before, never felt their love. If thee could know how the little circle at Hulmeville seems to me how near; thee would feel and know a daughter's love is indeed thine. I don't know what I should have done through this summer, in this darkest and most desolate period of my life, had I not had thy heart, and the Hulmeville home, and beloved ones to turn to. I knew that, till death should call the last of them away, I should never feel quite alone. Oh, that I could be thankful as I ought for all my mercies left ! I could have wept when thee spoke of wishing "to feel that my stay with Martha was to be a visit, not for life;" just as I feel. I cannot bear the thought of separation from thee and thine perhaps forever in this life. I want to feel that thee wants, yes, needs me back again, and that I can be much to those who have a parent's place in my affections. It is too far away. My desire is, at least, to be near thee till death sepa- rates With respect to ourselves I hardly know what to say. As the 58 A FATHER'S HAND DIRECTS. season advances we more and more feel how lonely and desolate is our fireside. All seem vacant places, never again to be filled in time. Not one arrangement for the winter has yet been made. We are hurrying our preparations, sewing, quilting, etc., for dear Martha, sewing for John and ourselves, hoping to be able to leave by the last week in November or first in December. As soon as anything definite is known I will let thee know. My home is with you all, and though other friends may call me much away, it will be only visiting. I do not expect now to go out with Martha. She will probably-not go to housekeeping till the ensuing autumn, and I shall not join her till then. This pleases me much. I shall, perhaps, then feel that I can say good-bye. Martha says she is certainly coming to see thee some time before she leaves. We often wish for thy pleasant, cheerful face amongst us. Lonely and dreary are many days. I sometimes wonder if I shall ever be my- self again. But this is wrong. A Father's hand has done all this. Oh, that we may "be still, and know that he is God! He is ever faithful to His promises;" "all shall work together for good ;" "heavi- ness may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." " His grace is sufficient, His strength is made perfect in weakness." Oh, my dear mother, if I could but feel that my heart, as earthly ties are broken, was drawn nearer to a Saviour's love ! But I never seemed, in myself, so altogether wrong, so far from what I ought to be, as I do now; so selfish, so full of wants, and weaknesses, and unbelief. * May we all at length be taught to suffer and do all His will, and to live only for His glory. TO H. W. B. January, 1846, from Burlington, when there on a visit. " Indeed, dear girls, when Burlington gets in all her beauty next summer you must come. I want to show you your friend's native place. If I will promise you a warm welcome, you will not mind its being a plain one. You would soon get used to Aunt W.'s neat little sitting-room even to be wedged into Aunt A.'s tiny parlor; nothing of these would be so bad if our timid but intelligent warm- hearted Scotch cousin happened to be in her brightest mood. You TO HER SISTER MARTHA. 59 would learn from all this what I have always told you, that ours is a plain family, boasting of nothing but its freedom from pretension. Refinement of heart, and cultivation of taste and mind, such as would fit us for any station in life, was our dear father's wish for his children. ' Thy friend and thy father's friend forsake not' enjoins the man of all wisdom, and I cannot tell you how near to orphan hearts these relations of our dear parents have become. Never can I forget when in our beautiful but desolate home their kind urgent invitation came to us last fall to pass the winter with them the delicacy, the love it showed us we three girls when in my room (where you first slept, dear H.) and we sat down and wept long, like very children. Ah, it would ill become us to feel any pride now, with our future uncertain prospects. ' The peace of God which passeth all understanding' I trust will ever be our portion, whatever may be our situation and condition in life. This blessing is enduring riches and perfect happiness ! We know this, and all the future is left without a doubt or fear in His hands. Whoso dwelleth in the defence of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. JEANETTE." TO MRS. CANFIELD. BROOKFIELD, Tuesday afternoon, June 2, 1846. MY EVER PRECIOUS SISTER : Soon as I received your last letter I felt I must write immediately; though when I finished my former one I said to E. "I don't know that I ever want to write to M again." You know that, by constitution, realization of realities is always sudden, deep, and (in mercy) momentary with me. Separation all in the present all in the future our life my life came upon me. Do not blame it could not have been met before, any more than turned aside from then. Blessed be His name, who so early in life bestowed His grace upon me, so that at such times I have ever been taught to "be still, and know that He is God." Merciful, too, that pro- vision of my nature (which some count weakness) that thoughts and emotions so soon pass away; that whenever the spirit is pressed till, to itself, there seems no life in it, it finds the power to rise 60 SUFFERING REMOVED. again, and renewed strength and vigor flows into it. I know nature does much, but I trust grace aids in this. You will learn from this, dearest, that I have, can have, nothing now to learn from separation* from you; and that all the bitterness of the trial has passed by. I realize all the changes of our position now, but know, too, the character of the deep unquenchable love that will ever, ever continue while life endures. "Like waters that pass away," so soon has the suffering of this period been taken from me; and perfect contentment, quiet, and peace take their place again. But it is all over. I feel assured you are in the path where God has placed you, and where He will take care of you; and if I am His, " The Lord my pasture shall prepare, and feed me with a shepherd's care." Among the thoughts, I was sure you were lost forever; that our own old Martha, my sister, henceforth would be, could only be, some other person. Your letter from Washing- ton forever sets this at rest; you will always be the same. TO MRS. CANFIELD, at Delaware, O. BROOKFIELD, August 24, 1846. . . . . But it will be strange, indeed, if you and I are not happy together. Your marriage has broken me up; may be I shall get back to be myself again with you. I have never for one moment yet realized your new position. This is one reason why I have so seldom written to you, and my letters have been such lifeless things. I was always writing to somebody else ; you were "passing the winter with Mrs. Richards," or "away from home at school," to come back after a while. I have not been able to think about you at all. But I must wipe away these tears, and say, as I have often and truly said, "Never have I spent a happier summer than the past" simple, natural pleasures, such as God can pour into the heart when he takes away care and sorrow, and gives it to feel the quiet joy of country life, when the feet and hands are busy, trying to lose sight of self in thinking of and doing for others And now, dear, dear M., when shall we see each other face to face? Oh, I dare not think of it. All, all seems like a dream that * Refers to her sister's marriage the month before to Rev. Dr. Canfield. TO REV. S. C. DAMON. 6 1 you have gone ; that I am going to you; above all that your home is in the far West. We shall be happy, I know ; but, dearest, do not count my happiness by your own. This you must remember. I mention this that you and brother C. may feel I anticipate no great things for myself in this way. I dread, more .than words can tell, having a home among those who know nothing of me stran- gers. You know what you have always been to me, what being with you must be. It was a little thing for one who took all with her to leave old things, sacred and endeared associations. She went to begin life anew. The difference is in the heart. God has made that difference; He, too, will make the happiness, different in kind, perhaps, not in degree; for He is fully able to satisfy and fill the soul. TO THE REV. S. C. DAMON, of Honolulu. BROOKFIELD, Montgomery County, Pa., Aug. 29, 1846. Yes, my dear friend, "S. C. D.," this is now the home of some of those Burlington friends who have never forgotten you. Time, it is said, softens every backward view, so that the further we ad- vance on life's journey the brighter, more precious become scenes left far behind. Then, surely, the converse of mind with mind, the communion of Christian hearts, and the social fellowship of friends in the house of prayer, and at the family fireside can never be forgotten. And if friendship in its purity that power of appre- ciation and understanding, that congeniality of spirit which binds the heart to some who cross our path, while others pass on forgot- ten if this power be of divine origin, come from heaven, then ''to heaven it returneth;" and there will be its fruition of enjoyment, when we "shall sit down with Abraham, and Isaac, and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven." The deeper, more sacred gift of the heart, love, is indestructible ; it is here tried and purified, then hath in heaven its perfect rest. And why may not the same be said of friendship? Do not you, and she who shares your distant home, often believe this as your memory dwells upon many left behind? Dear friends, I do feel that heart will blend with kindred heart as we unite in ascriptions of praise to the Lamb who washed us and redeemed us to God with His blood; and deeper will be the notes 62 A BEAUTIFUL HOME SADDENED. of joy, sweeter, higher the songs of praise that, saved forever, by our side are those we knew and loved and prayed for here. Will there be future recognition? It may be so; it can do no harm to think so (if "Scripture is silent,") while the soul looks for- ward to "that rest" as deriving its source and fullness of joy from the presence of the Lamb slain, the beholding of His face in right- eousness. Many friends our friend, "S. C. D" can never be forgotten. Early in the spring your letter was received. Why has it not been answered sooner ? Not because it was not truly appreciated. Brother gave it to me in "the Union," just as we were getting in the carriage to drive home; and if you had seen and heard all that Jeanette and Martha said (occasionally appealing to John, who was with them,) as they rode along, you would know tidings of a distant friend are "good news." But I could not answer it; the thought of it would make my heart swell with emotion too painful. 1 can only say we are orphans. In April, 1845, we moved to this more beautiful home than Point Pleasant. Our beloved, patient mother was taken that month ; our father the July following. In the first case there had been feeble health all winter ; in the other agonizing illness for two weeks. We had known sorrow before, but this was a far deeper drinking of the cup, and for a long time our hearts refused to be comforted. Not that the hand of the Lord was not with us; oh, no! His mercy held us up, and never for one moment forsook us. Blessed be His name, we do not sorrow for these as those without hope. We laid them down to rest, we trust, sleeping in Jesus until the resurrection morn. The family of relatives with whom you stopped in Hulmeville (the Harrisons as dear to my heart as our own)-^-have also suffered much in the death of the only daughter and a younger son, a youth of seventeen years. This, you know, was to me as the loss of a brother and sister ; for years I had been loved and considered as such. But blessed are the dead who die in the Lord. They were early called, and fitted, we trust, for their Saviour's kingdom. "How grows in paradise our store!" may we well exclaim, as we glance over the six years since you left this country. You, too, dear friend, have begun your treasure there, and have given back to God one precious gift of His love, your first-born little boy. A LOVES THE CHURCH. 63 deeper shadow must have been cast over the mother's heart, because separated from her family and nearest friends in the hour of trial. But she had, I doubt not, all that could be given by the watchful love of him for whose sake home and kindred had been forsaken ; and, above all, the support and comfort of a Saviour's love. Let us not murmur under the chastenings of the Lord, nor faint when we are rebuked of Him. If Christ is our portion, " the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed." What has become of the prayer-book I gave you ? Do not think that I am less an Episcopalian than in other days. Ex- perience has only more and more taught me the beauty and excellence of the visible church of Christ of which I am an unworthy member. Her liturgy and articles need only to be examined to be respected and loved. Under the protection of the God of salvation she will not be destroyed, -though at times she is cast down by the power of enemies within and without her border. How I should like to drop in and sit an evening with you and your little ones. Will' you never come to America again? Your home seems to be one of the far-off, green spots of our world, and I know you fill just the little niche marked out for you by the hand that "chooses the bounds of our habitation." The Lord is with you. I can imagine your ways and manner of doing good to the poor homeless sailors. Nature, as well as, I trust, grace, fits you for your high and useful vocation. Be not weary in well-doing ; the sown seed will spring up, though the blossom and perfected fruit may never be perceived by your eye till you behold them flourishing in the paradise of God. The bread by your hands is literally "cast upon the waters," but it is to be found "after many days." But I must come back to our own family circle and tell you something of our dear sister Martha. Her home is in Ohio. Last May (1846) she was married to a clergyman of our church, the Rev. E. H. Canfield, a native of Arlington, Vt. He was for some years connected with Mr. Uobbs' school; taught at Bristol College, opposite Burlington. His church is in Delaware, the county town, north of Columbus. Dear Martha is very happy ; she insists that I shall pass this winter with her. Our little family are willing pro- vided I come back in the spring. I have no desire to go am much 64 LIFE'S SHADOWS FELT, NOT SEEN. too old to like new places but I want to be with this dearest sister; though my heart must ever cling to scenes of childhood's days; here my youth has passed, and earthly joys and hopes have passed. I have but few family cares, though housekeeper; and, for the first time in my life, know the pleasure of attempting out-door use- fulness. Oh, it is comparatively easy to have the hands and feet busy in well-doing; but who shall order the heart and purify its motives, so that it can always testify "the love of Christ constraineth me?" I must say farewell. If we never again speak face to face, it will be but as a day before the morning of eternity shall open upon us. That you and yours, and all dear to us, may be forever in Him, and have part in the first resurrection ever prays Your friend, JEANETTE HULME. Sept. 7, 1846. Before closing my package for our distant friends I must say a few more words, though my letter is already long enough to prove I am just the Jeanette of past days. The shadows that have fallen upon my heart through life are felt, not seen. How sure I am that friend "S. C. D.," wife, and I, might again pass hours together of no common social enjoyment. All changes would be forgotten. Oh, how sweet is the hope of that "better country" to which, I trust, we are hastening ! Christ is our hope, may we be found in Him! Do write very soon, everything about self, wife, and little ones. Do not address "Miss Jeanette;" though I am an "old maid," I am not particular in demanding respectful titles. You will write to old friends who must learn from your letters they are not for- gotten. Again let me say how I should love to see you and your little family. Do you not remember I promised to join you and wife if I should outlive family claims? Those may prove prophetic words, and my days may close on those distant Islands. Has not the providence of God registered stranger events? My heart is now much divided. John and E. "must have Jeanette here," Martha "must have her in the West." But the days may come when- none may be left to claim my services and love, and A DIVIDED HEART. 65 He who has in love and mercy chosen all my changes may appoint me some service amid new and distant scenes. He doeth all things well. Pray that I may be wholly His; then it will matter not whether I have compassed oceans and seas to do His bidding, or only learned to "stand and wait;" I shall be His forever, through the riches of His grace. TO MRS. CANFIELD AT DELAWARE, OHIO. Sept. 1846. MY OWN DEAREST ONE: It is now decided I shall probably leave home early next week. Do not think about our meeting. I do not feel as if I can write one word. Oh, ever since your first letter in the summer, fixing the idea of my being with you this winter, how divided has been this heart ! The last few weeks I cannot describe. Sometimes I thought I should never get to you. Everybody opposed, every one had some objection. John was distressed about the sickness; all said I should be sick, and only increase your trouble. He seems half sick with the thought of separation, and is really much troubled about my leaving him considers his "claims far above any body's else," etc. / have not been afraid of the sickness, but would not, for your sake, seek danger; and so would not take the responsi- bility of deciding contrary to their .wishes. I will come and do what I can. All our lives are in His hand who "chooses all our changes." We are able to say, "This God is our God forever and ever." Happy, blessed is our lot, whatever may be earth's portion measured out to us, while hastening on to our inheritance above. " I will never leave thee nor forsake thee" is our promise. May only His will be done! The thought of all the illness about you has made us very sad, but I hope this will find things much better. I am in all things, as ever, Your own 66 OHIO COLUMBUS DELAWARE. V. " In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths. The Lord shall guide thee continually." Comes to Ohio First impressions Happiness of her sister, Mrs Canfield, in her New Home. Oct. 1846 March, 1847. IN the month of October, 1846, Miss Hulme came to Delaware, having for escort Mr. P. B. Wilcox, of Columbus the journey be- ing made by stage coach. Arriving at Columbus she was the guest of Mr. J. W. A.'s family for one night, and often spoke in terms of grateful recollection of the courtesy there extended to her an entire stranger. Her graceful figure and beautiful face encircled, as it then was, by natural curls, with the addition of her entertaining conversation, won the admiration of these new acquaintances, and established them as enduring friends. A gentleman living there afterwards spoke of meeting her on the street at that time, but not knowing who she was, he could not resist the impulse to turn and look at her again, so deeply impressed was he with the beautiful figure and sweet face that had just passed him. How it should increase our admiration to know that she had con- secrated these charming gifts to the service of Him, whose faithful servant she was, and whose hand was now guiding her to the place where the happiest days of her life were to be passed. Her first letter to home friends from Delaware was to her brother John, which is here given. DELAWARE, O., Oct. 19, 1846. My first letter was to be to you, dearest brother; now what shall it be about? I would not write last week, because I wanted to be able to see things and people in their true light, and Mattie said, "No, not till after Sunday." It needed but one glance as Martha met me at the door, to put all thoughts of sickness and sadness far away. From morning to A TRIAL HEART LONGINGS. 67 night her cheerful voice and laughing tone (she laughs all the time, and Mr. C. says no day without a laugh has passed since she left us!) plainly declare she has all her heart can wish. I believe it. Do not think the wealth of the Indies could add one item to her happiness. And (between ourselves) in one sense it would make no difference if every relative and friend lived in the furthest corner of the world. Her husband is the whole of life to her. I have not felt jealous. I knew it must be so, and love this sister of my childhood so much that I cannot but enjoy the sight and thought of her perfect happiness. I say perfect, because she has all this world allows. I mention this more for the sister's sake than to please you. I can imagine your smile. It is well for old maids and bachelors to smile; I smile, too. But the truth remains: the Creator of the heart has ordained its sources of happiness; these neglected, or by the providence of His hand turned aside, its deep- est joys and brightest hopes can never be known. Not in theory, only practically, am I an old maid. I have thought of you and dear E. oh, how much ! for the first day or two not without tears that would start. It is all well. But the trial of leaving you, and quiet eastern settled life, with its thousand sacred associations, was more than I can ever tell. My whole journey here, and the heart longings for you the first few days must not be remembered or spoken of .... I can't describe this town Delaware; as a county-seat it is much smaller than I expected perhaps as large as Lewisburg or larger but full of business and activity; a mixed population, preaching on Sunday in four different languages I feel " all strange," and can't tell about the people yet. I found elegant cards of invi- tation to Miss P.'s wedding on Wednesday eve. I had to go. With a bow of white ribbon, white gloves, and a home-heart, I was ushered into the "ladies' room," among a group of laughing faces. I am sorry I cannot describe this evening, but really my feelings made me too much out of place to enjoy or understand anything. . . . . I looked all about to see if there was one looking like a friend for me, gentleman or lady. I saw none. But more of the young folks hereafter, when I get acquainted. I may like many when I know them. The church is a beautiful Gothic building, of gray stone, with arched, many-paned windows, etc., in perfect keeping with the 68 LONELINESS COLUMBUS. design. The wedding party came into the church after the usual lecture, which we attended. When the sweet rich tones of the organ first struck upon ray ear, there came a rushing recollection of old St. Mary's ("our old choice"), and your place and mine, and many faces never more to be seen on earth. Oh, what loneli- ness! How far from home I seemed! I cannot mingle with strangers. My happiness was found for me in our own quiet neighborhood the past year, and in old tried friends. But I know the same hand can give the same degree of happiness here. I felt sure of this yesterday, when in our most comfortable, well-finished basement a Bible class of intelligent girls was put under my care. Everything about the church pleases me You will have to come yourself to take me home, I am sure, dear brother. So contrive this winter to lay by just twice twenty- five dollars, and come for me next May Can I ever live in the West? It is no place for old maids with Eastern hearts, though "little women" are much liked. The first real frost last night. Saw no country to be compared in point of beauty and attractiveness with our own ; nor one view superior or equal to Prospect Hill. Tell E. to look, ride about, and enjoy it while she may Columbus, one of the fairest spots ever seen, East and West meet. Refinement, luxury, education, and taste, with independence, activity, and spirit of pro- gress; and New Haven houses, yards, grounds, etc. ! It was not long before she became interested in parish work, identifying herself with the rector's plans and rendering efficient service in the Sunday-school and church, and soon, too, became a general favorite with both old and young. TO HER SISTER. DELAWARE, March 10, 1847. DEAR SISTER : Martha, as usual, is sitting by, dressed in "brown striped wrapper," busily engaged with a large volume of Washington Irving's works, open at "Tales of a Traveller." Mr. C. Platt brought this book last evening, with the fifth part of " Dombey and Son"," which he read to me. We did not like tne parts at all, but hearing they were reading it at home made us want to look it over. DICKENS. 69 \ It is nothing to read to one's self, but is in interest above most other books to listen to in the family circle. Poor little Paul ! How often I thought of brother John's voice and manner of read- ing his sweet, sad story, as the new reader read the many beautiful passages last evening. The whole character of the child has deeply interested us. The longing of his gentle spirit, the quickened sense of the beautiful and undying, the infantile purity of his heart, and all, all that spoke of a spirit too finely tuned for an earthly home brought back with thrilling power one taken from our side our brother. Can it be that a mind can conceive images utterly strange to the heart ? It seems as if Dickens must be a better man Private boarding cannot be found; no pleasant houses can be rented ; cooks and chambermaids are things unknown by name. But notwithstanding all this a fine hotel is finishing; and if Miss Harland will not stay long with her old Eastern friends we will engage she shall be as comfortable and pleasantly fixed for summer months as she can expect or wish, considering she is in "the West," occupy- ing the place of huts and wigwams, forests, and Indian trails a few years ago. Everybody who can should pass some time in our "far West," and at least glance at this noble portion of our State, and see its moving, working, settling power as plans and people are worked up and moulded into social and civilized life. Are you not all coming this summer? You and brother certainly will; but more of this hereafter. 70 NEW ACQUAINTANCE. VI. " I being in the way the Lord led me." "The days of thy mourning shall be ended." New acquaintances Engagement Letters to her husband before marriage Strength of religious character Return to Brookfield via Lake Erie and New York Marriage and return to Ohio. 1847. WHETHER to lift the veil that should always sacredly conceal from other eyes that interval between acquaintance, plighting of troth, and marriage, and reveal any part of what then occurred, is a question that has been many times turned over in the mind, doubtful of its propriety. But as the object in this memorial is to set forth the life and character of our loved one as it was a "living epistle," testifying to the truth and power of the religion of our Lord and Saviour, under all circumstances so much of what then passed, as will do this, is here given. Her affections were bestowed with all the devotion and sincerity of her earnest nature, fully and freely, with but one condition "My God must be thy God." And this position was inflexibly taken: "Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, could separate her from the love of God." This point decided, there was ever after not for time only, but, as was believed, for eternity, perfect oneness in all things. The strength and depth of this mutual love being made more abiding and endearing through her decision, and the love of God constraining. *Her religious convictions and principles were manifested in her letters written previous to marriage; not in any sense obtrusively, but naturally, in simplicity and Godly sincerity. The following extract is from her first letter: August, 1847. Oh, no ! emotions such as these cannot be told, can only be read by Him whose hand formed the heart "the harp of thousand, thousand strings" who tunes those strings, and ever holds them MY GOD MUST BE THY GOD. 71 in His hand, so that no breath can pass upon them, no chord can vibrate, but at His will. Yes, he knows our hearts. Oh, let us give those hearts into His holy keeping. Then earth can have no sorrow that His face cannot brighten, no temptation.that His grace cannot "make a way of escape" for, and no good that He will not freely bestow. Deep, sure, abiding peace through the fleeting days yet yours here, and in your eternal life to come glory and joy ever- lasting. Oh, shall not this be your chosen portion? Yes, He knows our hearts, and I trust will guide us in all things as shall be for our best and highest good. Shall we not in all things say, "Be Thou our guide?" Forgive me for saying so much, but should I not speak now? Must not this my first letter tell, as did my first words, "My God must be thy God?" Oh, for one to whose words of love my heart has so strangely, willingly listened ! I seem to have but one desire. May the Spirit of all grace guide that one into all truth ! Think not, when duty is but a task, and the heart seerns to turn blindly, wilfully away from the view of eternal things, that God has turned from you, or that His ear has not heard the faint desires you may have expressed, and the imper- fect resolutions you have formed. Oh, no! "He waits to be gracious." He is only, while holding you in His hand, showing you yet deeper and deeper views of 'what the heart of man is, and how utterly unable to help itself without His grace. That grace is ready to be poured out, that at such a moment, all ruined, dark, and ignorant as he is, man may have a helper. The Son of God suffered and died; He listens; "we are saved through Him." Forgive me, I did not want to preach. This is but the expression of my heart. [The tenor of these letters to her husband before marriage will be better under- stood when it is known that he had not yet ratified and confirmed the solemn vow that was made in his name at baptism.] August, 1847. . . . . There are thoughts that will press upon the heart, thoughts of you, of ourselves; and why shall I not tell them? . . . Let us each have this privilege upon all subjects, re- serving only thoughts, the expression of which lessens their sacred- ness or destroys their feeling power. "The rosebud is no sooner 72 A SOCIAL RELIGION. unfolded to the glare of day than its perfume is lost." The deep recesses of the heart where the eye of God only can penetrate, the secret workings of the immortal mind, the transactions of the soul of man with its Maker cannot, perhaps, ought not to be exposed to any mortal eye. The depths of the soul are open only to its God. Oh, blessed is the privilege to man when he begins to look within, that he can bow before and pour out his whole soul unto a God that knows and can understand him ! And when this God is re- vealed and we behold Him in "the face of Jesus Christ," "God our Saviour," and learn and believe that with His knowledge of us is joined infinite power to do all for us and in us; oh, has not the soul found its all-sufficient, its satisfying portion? May this be your chosen portion, "Israel's God" your God, Jesus your tried, valued, ever precious Saviour The subject of religion can never be put from the lips of those who rightly love each other; "out of the abundance of the heart" the mouth must speak. Its helps, its comforts, its consolations, its power to shield us against the tempter's designs and the corruptions of our own hearts, our secret foes within, the world without, its strength in our hour of weakness, its joys in our moments of sorrow, its peace and blessed hope in darkest days of despondency and want, its strength in life, its power in death, surely of all this the heart must speak. The religion of Jesus is a social religion ; hearts that feel its power must speak of its worth, must say to all about them, "come" (Rev. xxii. 17.) .... There are some things that need not, cannot be told. . . . . Thoughts that lose their sacredness when revealed should be known only to God. August 22, 1847. Is Jennie H. a quiet, thoughtful, reflective being? Then, indeed, she is changed. Does she seem to herself other than a bird of passage through life's scenes of joys and sorrows, daily gathering up the crumbs of happiness let fall for her from a Heavenly hand, and drinking of all the little streams of pleasure that spring up in her path, unquestioning whence they came or how long their con- tinuance? For sorrow, painful thought, and anxious care already known dare not look back ; for experience of all life is, cannot look forward, but who only tries to learn day by day, hour by hour to NEW, DEEP HAPPINESS. 73 trust her happiness, her earthly, her eternal all into her heavenly Father's hand, her Saviour's keeping. Such she has been; how is she changed, and why? Oh, will that change cloud that blessed source of happiness that has been her portion since her first child- hood days? Or will emotions stirring the depths, quickening and expanding the immortal nature, but lead that nature yet nearer and nearer to God the eternal source of love ? Such, dear friend, is one of the deep questionings which the "old me" permits. How does my heart reply? It knows not how to answer; it can only pray that the good, ever-watchful Shepherd will not suffer His erring, feeblest lamb to wander from His side .and choose any pasture, however fresh and green, that He has not provided for her ; nor drink of any earthly stream un- blessed by His choosing, approving love. Oh, if in His sight our hearts are one. and if hereafter one shall be our path through life, shall not that path lead us to one eternal, heavenly home? When the hour of rest from all earthly things has come, and my spirit waits to take its eternal flight, and life with all its scenes passes before my eyes, how shall this transaction appear? Has it hasted and helped the soul, or has it marred and bound and darkened that spirit in its heavenly journey? The love that you offer, the new, deep happiness which you open before me presses this question upon me. If I am dear to you, if my earthly all of happiness is in your hands, turn not away, the answer is with you not to be made to me, but to be found in your life, to be answered to your God, our God. In September, to make preparations for her marriage, she started for Philadelphia, in company with Mr. S. L. and C. H., going via Sandusky and Lake Erie to Buffalo and New York. She writes: ON BOARD STEAMBOAT BUFFALO, Sept. 16, 1847. . . . We are comfortably fixed for our lake ride, a beau- tiful day, bright sky, and fair winds being given us. The rfde to Mansfield in the stage was uncomfortable, and made me quite un- well from a feeling of faintness and extreme weakness. Mr. H was very kind, supporting me with his arm. I can never forget his 74 SOUL LONGINGS HOW SATISFIED. kindness. No father could more tenderly have held his daughter. I don't know when little kindnesses have touched me more than those of the Delaware friends of yesterday. Indeed, I dared not think of all, all the goodness, the "loving kindness," which a Heavenly hand has measured out to me through all my past life. The last loving acts: my home among strangers; the many hearts so strangely turned to me; the realization, in its deep- est, fullest sense, of the orphan's sweet promise, "When thy father and thy mother forsake thee, then the Lord will take thee up;" the gift of your love, with its new, strange, immeasurable joys Oh, my pen must stop, I cannot tell you. He who reads our hearts only knows what your love has given to me. I receive it as His gift, am not afraid to use it, not afraid of abusing it, for He holds it in His hand. It is sanctified by his highest blessing, the blessing of His grace. It will bind our hearts to Him ; it is linked with immor- tality. Oh, how can, how does, that heart live that is bounded by earthly hopes and desires; that cannot look beyond and feel the immortality of its love! It is not that I "love you so much," so very much, but that the love I do bear you is so filled with yearnings, longings, and depths of spiritual meaning, that prove it belongs to the soul, the immortal part of our nature that nature which can only be fully satisfied when we shall awake in the likeness of God, and mortality shall have put on immortality. Is it not so? .... I have just come from the upper deck, where my heart, mind, and quiet thoughts have had deepest enjoyment. I cannot tell you how beautiful this lake appears to me. Your own heart can know how I have watched the clouds, gilded by the setting sun, the spreading sails of the bird-like vessels that seem floating about, the soft moonlight on the sparkling waters, with the glorious wake of light; the twinkling stars above, and the musical splashing of the waters below; all is beautiful. Thursday morning. Such a sweet sleep as I had last night ! How was it with thee? .... I must feel that you are happy, I hop*e very happy. The blessing of God, the quiet peace, hope, and loving trust which His grace bestows, the bright dawning of all this is surely yours. Yours, too, dearest, will be the noontide light. Dim, gray morning light must give place to the glories of noon. The sun rises but to continue his shining; so the Sun of LAKE ERIE A MORNING KISS. 75 Righteousness, Jesus our Saviour, has never cast one beam of light and hope upon any heart, but that heart was to be made all light, all joy, all peace, through the fulness of His grace. "His sins, which are many, are all forgiven." The cloud of darkness, cold- ness, and ignorance has been taken away from between him and his God. Almighty, sovereign grace has turned his feet, and lifted up his face toward heaven. The dimness of the new light may not make this plain to him, but henceforth his path will be as "the shining light, which shineth brighter and brighter unto the perfect day." Beloved one, this is God's testimony, God's covenant, sealed with the blood of His beloved Son. Surely it is to us a "sure foundation." Trusting here, we shall "never perish, but have everlasting life." How beautiful is this morning ! How much I am enjoying this homeward trip homeward? no, my home is only with thee and in thy love. Our boat is very full. After breakfast we enjoyed the charming view for a long time; kind Mr. L. finding me a quiet spot on the forward deck, and then standing a quiet protector at my side, while I indulged my own selfish thoughts and fancies, with my face turned toward the broad, blue lake, with its floating clouds and silvery mists. Soon a little girl who was a night-neighbor (and who somewhat surprised and bothered me for a public morning kiss before breakfast), came to us bringing her father, a pleasant, gentlemanly man from Cleveland. She would come to- "that lady," her mother said, for she "could not like the old people." Now, only see how full of conceit your Jennie is. I had better seal my letter or I shall have but little time to give dear Martha. Strange that any one could come between that loved sister and Jennie. But "mysterious is His power" that brings wandering hearts together, and by that sweet sympathy those "nature-links and silken ties" which His own hand forms, binds them together never to be severed by earthly hands. "They err who tell us love can die; With life all other passions fly, But love is indestructible; Its holy flame forever burneth, From heaven it came, to heaven returneth." 76 LAKE ERIE PLEASANT THOUGHTS. TO MRS. E. H. CANFIELD. STEAMBOAT BUFFALO, Thursday Morning, 10 o'clock, Sept. 1847. DEAREST SISTER: I have folded my other letter, and now promise a few lines to you We had a hurried dinner at Mansfield ; and then pleasant seats in the most comfortable cars, and a ride through the most interesting part of Ohio. Sandusky plains with their neat farm-houses and pretty villages, crossed at sunset hour, are no common ride. I felt myself again, and enjoyed it much, very much. Too late for a boat at Sandusky; all night at the "Porter House;" pleasant sleep, though in a too small room. After breakfast Will and I strolled up the streets and saw Mr. Campbell's pleasant house; tell "L." I like Sandusky very much. We came on board our boat at 8 o'clock. O, this lake-travelling! I cannot tell you how charmed I am with it ; the lake itself is perfectly beautiful ; and such pleasant company, such beautiful sights and sounds; and oh, such pleasant thoughts and bright, bright hopes ! Dear M. I am another being, live in another world ; and if the glowing pictures were not lighted from heaven, if the bright hopes did not rest on God, my heart would fail with its own new joy. Oh, how can that heart love that cannot look beyond this world and feel the immor- tality of its love! You will be surprised that I am so happy; but I do not feel to be going away from all of you; the home of my heart is forever fixed. Oh, how strange, how mysterious all this for me ! I cannot write to you now, such thronging thoughts will come; I shall soon, very soon be with you; I do, I must feel this; this homeward journey seems but steps onward in the path that will soon put me by your side, dearest sister. Is it strange to say this? I cannot help it. Rev. Mr. and Mrs. Wheat, from Nashville, Tenn., are in our company. Mr. Howard introduced me to them ; most pleasant and intelligent people. If it were not for the attractions of my pen I should have had such pleasant long talks with divers young and old folks, who are so kind and friendly to your sister. I am just as full of " conceit" as ever, tell brother C . Dear brother C ! 'twas too bad not to bid him good-bye. Love, much love to him, and a thousand kisses to darling Jamie. I mean to see BROOKFIELD BEST EARTHLY GIFTS. 77 him again before he gives you one of those pretty teeth he has been promising us so long, see if I don't. Here comes Mr. L . Almost to Buffalo the pleasantest trip, the most beautiful scenery, all and everything so pleasant ! Much love to dear E and Elmora, and all who ask if you have heard from me. Tell Elmora I carried her flowers in my hand all day, and now they lie quietly in one corner of my travelling-bag, with their sweet wishes still echoing in my heart. Good-bye, dear, dear sister ! we must meet soon. I have only left you for a little while. God bless you and yours ! Your own JEANETTE. TO MR. PLATT. BROOKFIEI.D, 28 Sept. 1847. The new sweet happiness that your love gives me, ever causes my heart to tremble with emotion too deep for words. With grate- ful wonder it asks, "Is this your heart, Jeanette Hulme of other days? Is this the heart that 'could not love?' that 'love could never make happy?' that had never been made happy by offered love.?" Oh, I am now- a full believer in the existence and power of love. I now understand all that the poets have ever sung of its sweet influence ; more, all th^t the Sacred Word has declared of its power. Is it not God's highest, holiest, best earthly gift to man? In a dark world ruined by sin, has it not survived "the fall," and lived to bless God's fallen children with the sweetest joys that now this earth can know? Oh, may that love which He has thus, given us for each other, but lead our hearts to Him, the giver of the gift ! Oh, may we day by day remember His favor only can make the gift a blessing ! Together may we seek that favor ! TO THE SAME. BROOKFIELDj Sept. 30, 1847. It is very pleasant to be again in the midst of our little circle of dear ones. I enjoy every kind look and word, feel every little pleasure, as never before. My heart seems new-strung and new- tuned for joy. There is a brightness cast over earthly objects such 78 PRECIOUS, GLORIOUS PROMISES. as I have never seen before I try to remember and look to the First cause of all this joy. I know that God has ordered and ruled all the changes of my life, and would look first to Him, and then, trusting to His approval, hoping for His blessing, cling, as woman's love only can, to the earthly object which He has given her. The remainder of my life is bound up in another The deep unselfish interest which all around me take in my happi- ness, their pleased willingness that I should let my heart dictate in every future plan, their single desire that their sister should be happy. I must feel this. It is well for Jennie that this is so. Is it not another evidence of the watchful love of Him who knows her heart, and fits all the little circumstances of her daily life in accord- ance with the nature He has given her? This visit home, instead of being, as I feared, painful, from so many causes, is made so comforting, so filled with sweet pleasures. Try to be thankful for me, try to help me to be more thankful. How slowly we- measure the blessings from His hand! How coldly we count them over! How feebly speak their praises ! Blessed is that word of promise that speaks of One who "died for our sins," who knoweth our infirmities, and who "ever liveth to make intercession for us." Surely we need His grace. Without Him we are forever lost; with Him, His grace in our hearts, "there is no more condemna- tion." Our names "are written in the Lamb's book of life," and we "shall never perish, neither shall any man be able to pluck us out of His hand." For time, for eternity, we are saved. Beloved one, is not the one first object of our future life to be, seeking this to be our portion ? Oh, let us now and ever strive, day by day, to know and do His will, who has given us such precious, glorious promises to win our hearts to Him. Never think that my happiness will require aught beside my own dear one; or that any sorrow or sickness can make my heart turn away from my chosen home. That home is with thee ; thy people are to be my people, my God thy God ; " whither thou goest, I will go; where thou diest, will I die, and there will I be buried." I trust this is Jennie's love; she could not love less, she can give no more. MARRIAGE RETURN TO OHIO. 79 BROOKFIELD, Oct. 4, 1847. Discomfort and petty annoyances we must expect, wherever we may be, under any circumstances. Thorns will grow about the roses; rainbows cannot be made without clouds. Earthly care and sorrow must follow us, increase upon us every step we tread in that new life. Shall we turn back? Yes, beloved one, if we rely on our own strength, far, far better. It is God's grace that must sweeten every care, that must overcome all the evil that is in ourselves, so that our love for each other shall always increase, giving such peace and comfort as outward circumstances cannot disturb. It is the belief that we know and feel this that quiets my trembling heart, that drives away dark doubts, and enables me to continue true to all my love has promised. God's grace assisting, I will try to be to thee all that I ought. But, oh, how many dis- appointments thee will meet ; how many inconsistencies, weak- nesses, and infirmities thee will find in me! The marriage took place on Tuesday, the gth of November, at twelve o'clock, in the church of the Epiphany, Philadelphia, the Rector, Rev. J. H. Fowles, officiating. The late Dr. John A. Little, then a medical student in the city, accompanied the bridegroom as a friend;, there were no bride's- maids nor groomsmen ; the family assembled in the vestry-room, and all went together into the church, forming a group in front of the chancel. The same day they started for Ohio, accompanied by Mrs. Platt's younger sister, going by way of Baltimore and Pittsburg, stopping at the latter city a few days to visit the family of Mrs. Platt's cousin, Jas. S. Craft, Esq., brother of Mrs. Maccracken, of Lancaster. When they arrived in Delaware, Mrs. Platt, having turned from the loved and sacred associations of her eastern home, adapted herself with rare grace and wisdom to the scenes and duties in the new life before her. Duties which were to develop the charms and excellencies of her earnest Christian character, as well as to show that the experiences of her early life had eminently fitted her for this new sphere of usefulness. 80 DELAWARE NEW BLESSINGS. VII. "Lo, children are a heritage of the Lord." Happiness of her married life Birth of first child Visit to Columbus Rev. D. A. Tyng Rev. Dr. Canfield returns east with his family Birth of second child Pleasant visit from W. A. P. and wife Letters to her sister Martha. March, 1848, to December, 1850. TO MRS. REBECCA HARRISON. DELAWARE, O., 25 March, 1848. DEAR MOTHER: IT is nearly two months since I said, "I will write to Cousin Rebecca now." We have been housekeeping just that long, and the first thing I wanted to do after we found ourselves in our own cottage, was to write to thee and tell thee how I wanted to have thee here, to See how snugly, comfortably, and nicely we were fixed. I know thee would have a mother's happiness in the home of one thee has so long, so tenderly loved. I can see thy quiet smile in thy assurance of my happiness ; yes, I feel it. The same hand Divine, the same grace that taught us how to sorrow together, would now, does now, enable us to share in each other's joy. Dear mother, if thee has ever asked for me days of quiet peace and happiness, that the gladness of youth might be restored, and care and sorrow pass away, thy wish has been fulfilled. I know thee will recognize the hand that hath done this, and truly rejoice, even though tears will mingle. "He maketh sore, and bindeth up; He woundeth, and His hands make whole." We often smile together as we act upon thy well-remembered precept given to me: "Take each pleasure, and enjoy it as it comes." So we have, and few have ever had sweeter daily bless- ings than thy child. When I wrote first to thee, the first excite- ment of my new situation, with all its trembling hopes and fears for untried days and scenes before me, had not passed away. There were so many mingled emotions, I hardly knew how to CONTENTMENT. 8 1 speak or feel. All that excitement has gone, and I know how I should and do feel now. What about my little home, thee asks? I wish I could send thee a picture of it; not that it is so pretty, but that thee could, by mind's eye, now and then peep in and see us just as we are. It is a Yankee cottage, with parlor, dining-room, kitchen, and little chambers (sleeping rooms, I should say) all arranged on the first floor. The front door opens into a short hall eight or ten feet wide; by its side is my room, bed, etc. ; back of that is the parlor, and a door from that opens into a little guest chamber. Still back of these is a snug little dining-room and a kitchen. In the latter is a pump of hard water, and a cistern with a pump of soft water, with a door opening into the wood-house. So thee sees, though it is a little house, it is very convenient. Oh, how I wish I could see thee at our little table and by our fireside ! I have a good girl young, but so willing and obliging. But what of the husband? I can only say thee ought to see and know him. Thee must some day know him and judge for thyse'lf. He is all that I could ask, that thee, and all who love me, could desire. I felt this the first evening in our own home, as we all bowed at the family altar, and tried to dedicate ourselves and all that we are and have to Him who has so blessed us with His favor. It is in his own family that his true domestic character is seen and felt. You may think, dear mother, I dwell too much on present joys and comforts, living in a world of change, where man is born to trouble, sorrow, and death. But is not the future with God? And will He not prepare us for all His will? For all that He sees necessary for us? I hope, I trust in Him. Affectionately thine JEANETTE. A LETTER WRITTEN TO HER SISTER, after the Birth of her first Child, while Visiting her Sister Martha. Sunday Afternoon, September 7, 1848. MY DEAR SISTER : I will begin a letter, but Doll seems to be saying, in the next room, " it will not be finished very soon." Just look round Matt's little dining-room. M has come in from a nap up-stairs, and 6 82 BAPTISM FIRST CHILD. is rocking herself, watching Master Jim and his pranks, and talking to her girl, who sits near with the strange baby going to sleep in her lap; that is, if Jimmy's running, driving, and boyish noise will let her. Now he is on the floor with my little girl (nurse), trying for the first time to play with his " builder's blocks," this rainy after- noon. -M is talking baby to him as fast and bright as ever, and looks very bright and happy, though she says her old wrapper and uncombed hair are disorderly enough. . . . On Friday, just after dinner, Miss Doll and I arrived with our wardrobe to stay till Monday, husband's business unexpectedly calling him to Co- lumbus for several days. It has been very pleasant, though so strange, to be together again, and with our babies. Our husbands being both absent, I was often reminded of our long baby-house plays, with our dolls and cradles, years, years ago. Especially at night, when Matt, with her boy-baby and crib, had one side of the bed, and Jeanette and basket and baby the other. But, dear sister, these are the light thoughts and fancies that float about these new circumstances. There is deep reality felt, to begin life over again in the life of a little immortal one, to feel all that you should be, all that she must be, your influence linked to her for eternity, these are thoughts that must turn the soul to its resting-place. Last evening, about 8 o'clock, brother Canfield returned, driving home husband's horse and buggy, leaving Nell to come on Monday with Mr. Platt. I will leave her to tell you all the Convention matters. Has she written to you of last Sunday and the Bishop's visit? He came on Saturday evening, preached next morning, baptized our little Ellen Hulme in the afternoon, and preached and confirmed in the evening. E was anxious the baptism should not be postponed, as she wished brother C to stand sponsor with mother Lamb and herself. So she arranged matters, and we % rode to church, and returned not much fatigued. Felt as if I must be present in the evening, and went, leaving baby with nurse. My first absence (three hours), and baby not quite five weeks' old ! I have so very much to be thankful for ! My whole sickness seemed a sweet season of new experiences of God's mercies. Why /so favored, so comforted on every side? so undeserving. Oh, my dear sister, whatever the untried future may show me of life's cares and struggles, I must always look back to these past few months as containing for me greater happiness, COLUMBUS A HAPPY FAMILY. 83 sweeter joys, than my words can tell. I do not believe that two of Adam's children, with all their sins and infirmities, ever were happier in each other than your sister and her stranger husband have been. 1849, January 10. TO HER HUSBAND'S MOTHER, at Columbus, on the Birth of F. S. . . . As I am the aunty, on the girl side, I write at once to offer heart and hand to my new niece. I bespeak her, for N.'s special friend and confidante : she must depend upon this younger daughter for help in romps and games, etc. I cannot be very sorry with those who regret that the " son is a girl." A woman is one of the best gifts that can be given to this world of suffering, though many unworthily bear the name ; so give plenty of welcome to this little girl on our behalf. From a Letter to MRS. GANFIELD, written while on a Visit to Columbus. COLUMBUS, November 6, 1849. MY DEAR SISTER : I am in sister Fanny's* pleasant quiet chamber, which you, I think, introduced to us before we came to Ohio. Every visit that I make I think she and her whole household the happiest little community. F. is certainly one of the loveliest women I have ever known. I remained at home a week after brother C left, expecting a visit from niece Helen G. She did not come. E. and I, with the nurse, were packed by husband in the stage for Columbus. He was unable to bring us in the private carriage. The weather is the pleasantest I ever knew this season of the year warm sunshine, with autumn's hazy veil, that dimly softens every pretty scene. We have ridden out nearly every day, and " done up" a great.deal of visiting for me. Fanny is such a gen- eral favorite that her friends share in the universal good-will given her Last Saturday afternoon we all went to Mr. J. W. A 's to * The wife of W. A. P., formerly Fanny A. Hayes, of Delaware, Ohio. 84 COLUMBUS A DISCIPLINED HEART. tea, one of the pleasantest, most refined, and intelligent families I have ever been in. In the evening I was with E. (would not send her home, nurse not knowing the way) in the study up-stairs, where Mrs. A joined us, saying, "Who do you think is down stairs?" Of course I guessed the one I most wished to see. "Yes," she said, and hurried down to send him up. Ellie was delighted, and it was all so pleasant. He had, though tired with the week's hard business, ridden down in beau fashion to see his little wife and baby. He went home early yesterday; will come for us the last of this or early next week. TO HER HUSBAND. November 9, 1849. . What a truly American family the K.'s are ! the mother a fine specimen of an American gentlewoman, yet knowing how to do and doing all kinds of household work, such as cheese and butter-making, etc. Accordingly, the daughters are thor- oughly indoctrinated in all kinds of kitchen and household duties, an admirable plan for any, especially for a Western family, where "help" is such an uncertain commodity. > Tuesday evening we were invited to a tea-party at Mrs. G 's. [Here follows a description of the party.] Was much pleased with Miss Lizzie B. A few young ladies came after tea, making our number about thirty. Thursday evening we were invited to a charade party at Mr. H.'s. I will describe this when I get home. Mr. Tyng (Dudley) came and took tea with us that evening. He never appeared to so much advantage before, I thought. I went to see Mrs. Tyng yesterday ; was much pleased with her. And now does dear husband think wife has been so very, very happy in the midst of all this round of visiting that her quiet little Delaware home is often out of mind ? Oh, no ; he knows better the heart that is all, all his own. It was not a joyous, girlish heart, that was given him, that could be dazzled by the seeming pleasures of such scenes ; but a heart that had long been disciplined by life's dull cares and heavy sorrows (by the grace of God, I trust, not all in vain). She gave herself to him, that in him she might find all that she gave; in seeking to make him happy, day by day; the full, deep happiness her own heart sought. She has proved her HOME COMFORTS. 85 trust, and knows the pure, deep affection, and her own true source of earthly happiness. Oh, that she could ever remember "the Giver of every good and perfect gift!" that her heart had some return of gratitude ! Oh, 'tis but an ungrateful, selfish heart that is all your own, dear husband. Thy own JENNIE: Rev. Mr. Canfield resigned the rectorship of St. Peter's Church, Delaware, in November, 1849. ar >d removed, with his family, to Philadelphia, and afterwards to New York. TO E. H. CANFIELD. DELAWARE [O.], December 4, 1849. MY DEAR BROTHER: . . . . I am now as well and bright as I was sick and cross the weeks you were with us. Must not my health be sound, and my temper pleasant? I had the hard part to bear, however brother and husband may have suffered. That was a bad, bad cold, and I felt miserably enough. Our dining-room is so warm and pleasant from the drum, E. and I have moved in the little settee and rock- ing-chairs, and pass most of our time here. Wish you could see how cheerful and sunny it is, and how happy and playful is E., and pleased and pleasant is her mother, and better and nicer than any- body is her father. Just now it is a pleasant time at "our house." From a Letter to MRS. REBECCA HARRISON, written the day before the birth of her second child. DELAWARE, Sunday morning, May 12, 1850. The sweet tones of our church bell are wafted over the blossomed trees, and bright green dooryards, with their bursting buds and flowers just opening into spring; and the little birds are nestling about, trying their first May-day songs. All nature seems so bright and beautiful to the outward eye, as I sit in my quiet chamber, reminding of that eternal Sabbath of rest, when from all nations and people shall be gathered the Redeemed of the Lord, and all shall together sit. down to "the marriage supper of the Lamb." 86 A SNUG LITTLE DINNER. Shall not we be there, beloved one, mother still, ever, in all the kind affections of thy absent relative's heart? My beloved husband has just left me for church, and little daughter has been sent away, that some moments of this quiet hour may be passed with thee. How seldom we by outward means 'converse with each other ! How very long it is since I have heard one word from thee ! Yet I know how often thy affectionate thoughts have crossed these mountains, and rested on me, my husband, and my child. I know, without a doubt, that everything concerning me is dear in interest to thee I feel this morning that I am giving almost my last time to thee, and yet the "dread and fear" come not with the thought. I seem content to lie in my Heavenly Father's hands, believing all will be well for me, my husband, and my child Through my Saviour's blood that alone can cover my guilt, and His prevailing righteousness that alone can find me acceptance with God, I trust all will be eternally well with me, whatever may be my Heavenly Father's will. "The blood of Jesus Christ cleanseth from all sin." With sincere affection, Thy JEANETTE. To HER HUSBAND, while he was at Dayton attending the Episcopal Convention. Ii P. M., Tuesday, September 24, 1850. . The idea that Mr. French can so nicely take a line has just dawned upon my mind. I do not think I shall like keep- ing house without my husband at all William and Fanny came at the appointed hour one o'clock. It was one of the brightest, nicest little visits ever had from them only you were not here. W. seemed to regret this much. He drove down to the hotel, leaving his horses and carriage, and returned bringing Mr. Burchard, who happened here on his way to Columbus. He had dined, but sat down with us. A snug little dinner husband's ham and grapes much praised. H. was napping up stairs when Fanny came, did not wake and make his appearance till during dinner; was praised enough to satisfy even me "a noble, lovely boy." But your darling N. was a great object of attraction, "so THE HAPPIEST WOMAN. 87 changed, so pretty," "so picture-like, with her little curly head." She took at once to her pretty aunty, and her pretty little baby, and loved "the baby, baby," almost as she does her little brother; sat on Fanny's lap to look at pictures, etc. F.'s baby is one of the brightest little ones for two months I have ever seen a lovely little bud of her pretty mother. DELAWARE, September 26, 1850. MY OWN DEAR HUSBAND i Will not complain that he gets letters too often, even if they are not worth much N. was tired and sleepy on my lap, when her little brother cried to come, too. We could not make him comfortable with her there. She could not bear to go ; when I told her how it was she slipped down of her own accord, looking so lovely and happy in this her first effort to give up her own comfort for another's good. I have never distinctly seen before the yielding of her selfish nature as was plain there. Oh, that our prayers may daily follow her infant steps, and hallow all the life she is with us! that a heavenly prin- ciple may be even now given her in her first days ! Here, dear husband, is our only strength. When I think of the fountain of wisdom and strength that is ever open to us, for us to draw from, I feel sure that even our children may be brought up, in all things, " in the way they should go." Our very weakness and ignorance in ourselves may be thus our strength in the Lord. "The boy," too, is so lovely all the daylong. With such a husband, and such children, surely, surely I should be the happiest woman ! Am not I ? Who is happier? TO MRS. CANFIELD. [DELAWARE], Sunday Morning, December 22, 1850. I have laid down "the little book" and its companion, and have been sitting here in our quiet little parlor, wondering if I should do wrong to write to you to-day, my own precious sister ! " Sweet counsel" we have taken together in years past, talking away many an hour of holy time, and enjoying communion of heart and mind, thought and feeling, as few sisters have done, I think. 88 TURNING A CROOK. May we not do so now, though rivers and mountains are between ? We are not separated, only cannot seem to see face to face, that is all. Blessed thought, we can never be separated ! We dwell in the same Father's house, are daily fed and sustained by the same Heavenly hand ; and soon, through the riches of His grace, "equal to the angels," shall dwell together forever and ever This is the busiest portion of life I have ever seen. We are turn- ing a little crook, dear husband and I, just now. No doubt better times are beyond, but they are not to be seen as yet. . . . I cannot say that I desire to remove East, for I dare not take the responsi- bility of deciding where it is best for me and my children to dwell. I only pray that we may ever clearly see and follow, as did Israel of old, heavenly counsel; journeying and resting, just as the cloud of God's presence covers us and goes before us (Num. 9). "If we should ever remove to any place, and so clearly see by the com- forts that come upon us that we are right, as may brother C and Mattie now," said 1 to Mr. P., when reading your letters; but the words died from my lips, as I remembered that "the sorrow of your life" had met you just there. My health is very good I take all the out-door exercise I can, though it is but little. He who lays upon us our burdens, fits us for them. 1 should never have thought that I could bear the care and confinement as I have done this winter, indeed this whole year, I may say Do not grieve over any- ' thing said, knowing the hand that has guided my path only measures out just what we need in infinite love VISIT TO NEW YORK. 89 VIII. " My presence shall go with thee and I will give thee rest." Trip to New York Spends the summer in New York, Philadelphia, and New Jersey Lines fallen in pleasant places Heaven is our home Cannot love each other too much, but must love God supremely. May to September, 1851. MAY ayth Mrs. Platt went to New York, in company with Mrs. Judge Williams, taking the two children, E. and H. (three years and one year old), to visit her sister, Mrs. Canfield. Mr. Canfield was then rector of St. Peter's Church, New York. FROM HER FIRST LETTER TO HER HUSBAND. NEW YORK, May 29, 1851. Mrs. Williams, I believe, telegraphed to Delaware this morning, so you already have learned of our safe arrival yesterday at 3^ o'clock, instead of early in the morning, as you and we expected. " The Empire" lake boat lost time in giving us a safe trip, through rain and fog, Monday night; so that made us later than usual in reaching Albany. [Here they were detained and had to take a slow boat to New York. The H. R. R. R. was not then built.] We drove to Judkin's Hotel, Mrs. Williams sent for Henry B., a carriage was engaged for me, and soon we were driving past the church and parsonage. I knew the church and saw Canfield on the door-plate, so stopped the driver, at the same instant saw E. running down the steps and Martha sitting at the chamber win- dow, having been wild in exclamations that "our poor Jeanette was riding by! stop her! stop her!" I will pass over, dear hus- band, the meeting, the kissing, and all the baby greetings. In all, in everything, how much, how very much, I missed your presence. Mrs. Williams told me plainly I should not say anything of this 90 NEW YORK JENNY LIND. to the Canfields, when they would be so rejoiced to see me; so I tried to be good and forget I had "a gude man" far, far away. The house is so nice everything is comfortable, brother C. and M. so very kind, Martha full of consideration, as she always was; had a nurse engaged and already in the house, whose work she made it to take the entire charge of me and my children, wash, iron, and keep my room in order. Brother C. said I should have all comfort and freedom in my visit that it was no more than dutv to try to pay back old debts for the baby trottings I had given Master James, etc. etc. So I found there was no use to object to their increased expenses. Aunt Peggy is here talks of going home soon. How happy we all are to be thus together I cannot tell. M. says, " tell brother P. I am so much obliged to him for sending Jeanette and babies here." Brother C. went out yesterday morning and purchased tickets to a Jenny Lind concert of sacred music, and took us all to Castle Garden in the afternoon. This is why I did not get my letter off in the first mail after my arrival. You will excuse, I know, for hearing Jenny sing instead of your hearing Jeannie talk, though I hope you will always like the talker best. Now, as to the journey how the children behaved, etc. They were as good as children could be under the circumstances. The night we were in the cars will not soon be forgotten. I was so anxious lest H. should have an attack of croup. It rained in tor- rents ; the heat and impure air was stifling insi.de, yet the rain and damps, poured in too much if the least crack was open. But all was "well." E. slept all the time did not even wake up when carried at midnight nearly a square in the rain "changing cars." H., too, was just himself, so good and attractive to every one; and your wife, "if I must say it," won praise all around. I began to think other folks thought she was a "good mother," whatever kind of wife she might be. I must tell you: when we were sitting in the cars in the dark depot at Albany, waiting for Mr. W. to come and get us out, in the crowd of passengers that streamed by us, stopped a handsomely dressed old gentleman from one of the front cars, where we had been part 'of the night; "Madam," he said, without turning his face towards us, but stopping at the end of our seat, " I must give commendation." (Speaking slowly and distinctly), "Of all the A LOVING MOTHER. 9! ladies I have ever seen travel with children you excel!" and on he went, before I had time to recover in the least from my surprise. We had never noticed him, and I scarcely know what he meant, unless he thought I was very patient when trying for so long a time to get the babies to sleep. They were worn out with the day's railroad jarring, and would not compose to sleep. I made a bed on two seats facing each other, and sat for hours, indeed all night, on the floor between them, patting first this, and then that one, as they stirred. But I was much too anxious not to feel patient and forgetful of self. There was no sacrifice of feeling at all; I was all the time trying to rest my care upon the Almighty arm beneath us. I was, dear husband, greatly indebted to you for the helps of that night. I took your pennies, as Ellie calls them, and paid for a good supper at Syracuse, when many went without any. I knew I must eat if I would be able to worry with my babies all night, and that you would say this, whatever the cost might be. [This was before the comfort of sleeping cars was known.] Thursday Evening, June 5, 1851. MY OWN DEAR HUSBAN-D : It is, indeed, "cheering news" to say "we have a letter!" Yours came this afternoon, so full of comfort, kindness, and every good thing for your wife. Oh, I do always feel as if I were so much too poor a wife for you to have. May our separation be indeed blessed and sanctified to our souls' health ! Pray for me, that my heart may be kept in "peace" and "quietness" in the midst of the excitement of city life. Pray for me. God bless and keep our beloved children ! I will try to watch over them, feeling that I am to be both father and mother It is hard to be from your side, dear love, who are more than all others to me ; but I am not unhappy. It is so very pleasant to be again one of this old sisterhood, and have around me the voices, and see the faces that have looked upon me since my in- fancy. Being married has sobered, more than dampened, the joy of being together Your not "half good enough" wife, JENNIE. 92 REV. DR. TYNG. Tuesday Morning. . . . . While we are all blessed with perfect health, our separation from each other must not be a subject of complaint, should it, dear husband? Every lot has its "crooks," every family has its troubles, every condition in life its difficulties. Com- pared with all I see and know of others, I must say, "The lines have fallen to us in pleasant places !" Our losses in earthly wealth have never in the least diminished our happiness ; so that, though poor, yet have we been very rich ! Oh, that we could more simply, more singly in all our steps, " seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness." Then God's blessing, " which maketh rich, and He addeth no sorrow with it," would follow us all our life, and bring us all at last safely to our eternal, heavenly home! Let us, then, try to pray one for the other. Would that I was to you all that I ought to be, my own chosen husband ! All that I should be ! I who have been learning so many, many years, under the Heavenly Teacher. Yet what know I? What am I but a monu- ment of the forbearance and goodness of " the Covenant God." NEW YORK, June 16, 1851. Sister, brother, and I walked over to Dr. Tyng's church. How I want you to go there and hear and see him. Your wife owes much to him ; more instruction than from any other human teacher. His sermon was to the young, and my mind was carried back to years ago, when an uninstructed, light-hearted girl sat before him, receiving (through Divine influence, I trust) with such eagerness the blessed truths of "the glorious Gospel" which he taught. I had not heard him before yesterday for many years. He was just the same, surrounded by one of the most fashionable congregations, and with crowds around him of attentive listeners, as when he was minister of the little flock of Epiphany (Philadelphia), with only twelve communicants. I met him at the door of the vestry-room, and he was very glad to see me. He and every one exclaims, " How well you look; not a day older." So much for the good care taken of your wee wife. He said he would come out and take tea with us Monday evening. J. H. P. A LESSON FULLY LEARNED. 93 NEW YORK, Friday Morning, June 27, 1851. MY DEAR HUSBAND : I feel so very sorry there has been so much delay in my letters, that you have so often to look in vain for them. I trust this will not be again. Yours, mailed June 2jd, came yesterday. I cannot tell how your letters are received, or what your wife thinks of them, their value to her. If you knew all this I am sure you would be fully repaid for sending tlem. She always cries over them, I will tell you that. You ask me, dear love, to tell you all my heart, " all I think" from day to day. It would be such a poor story of one thing over and over: "I miss you, I miss you so much." This is one reason I have written so seldom, and my let- ters have been so lifeless and dull. I have not written all my heart. You were giving up so much home comfort in sparing so long away from you your little ones and wife, that I could not bear to have you know how little of happiness it was procuring for her. And yet you always said this would be so, did you not? 'Tis just so, dear husband. I am not, cannot be, happy away from your arms, my own rightful place and home. I cannot. I do try. For your sake, because of your sacrifice, I have tried. Now, dear love, do not regret this experiment, as paying out so much for nothing. It is not so. Perhaps none of us would ever have been entirely satisfied if this trial had not been made. It will never have to be repeated. The lesson is fully learned, "Whom God hath joined together let no man put asunder." For my own pleasure, or for the pleasure of others, separation from you will not be asked again. I do not say this to my sisters (I did not wish to say it to you). I want to be just as happy as I can, for they are very kind ; but I know they all guess this, though they cannot know how half-hearted I feel, or how little I enjoy anything I see. . . . . I would rather be with the children, hear our N. prattle, and H. laugh and crow, than see all the sights New York can produce. H. has two teeth ! tell grandma. You would be quite satisfied with the admiration he excites, "the noble boy," and the notice Miss N. gets, " the curly-headed wee girl." They seem quite well now, but the heat is getting so great that I am anxious to leave soon. Sister went back to Brookfield yesterday Bishop Burgess and Dr. Dyer dined with us yesterday. 94 BURLINGTON DEAR FRIENDS. BURLINGTON, N. J., July 7, 1851. On Saturday morning last we left New York in the 8 o'clock Amboy cars, and arrived here at noon Well, here we are in old Burlington. Oh, how I wished for you ; how I do wish for you, your voice, your heart, your arms, dear love ! Here, amid these old scenes, where your wife romped and played in childish days, and walked, and talked, and lived her girlhood hours. I want the quiet smile, the gentle ways, the loving heart, of my choice. How great would be the pleasure if you were only with me ! It is so pleasant to visit again these old scenes. HULMEVILLE, July 13, 1851. " I stood up on both feet, and climbed on top of the stool, dear papa," H. would like to say to you, dear husband. This was done to-day, just as I was telling cousin R. that, though he could be stood in a corner, and stand alone, yet he never attempted to use his feet before My visit to Mount Holly proved a very pleasant one. They all so much want to know my husband. I have promised them at least a call from him, with his wife. The Burlington visit was so delightful ! everybody so glad to see me. Thee must know these kind and dear relatives. Indeed, dear husband, do let me have some time of thine for thee to see and know my friends, when thee comes. When will that be? How I long to be once more in my old place ! The time seems very long since I left, though it is now passing very happily. Sunday Morning. . . . . How has passed this Sabbath with you, dear hus- band ? I feel as if in spirit we have been much together. Oh, how blessed is the thought that we are " one" in the faith of the Gospel; that we are one for eternity; that heaven is our home, our eternal home; that our union here is but to help prepare and bring us to that home ! God grant us His grace ! His help be with us through all our earthly days, and safely bring us and ours to heaven at last ! BROOKFIELD NOT A DAY OLDER. 95 BROOKFIELD, July 23, 1851. I have just been sitting in the very parlor in the same spot where we sat side by side four years ago ! with hearts full of hopes and fears, the future all untried, our mutual love all untested, and many tender mercies of our Covenant God all unknown. We were strangers to each other then, dear love, compared with now. What rich blessings were before us 1 How freely have they been measured out to us in our love for each other, and in the gift and enjoyment of our dear children ! God has blessed us ! I will say, we have been, are rich. Happiness is wealth so great, so rare, that few possess it. It is ours. Oh, that "the blessing of the Lord" might, as it is designed, "lead us to repentance." I have finished my journey home, and now we are "over the mountains," E. says, "all at Aunt Sarah's house." Both children seem half wild with delight to get where there is so much room. H. creeps around our large room, and Nell races around the house flits about among the trees "like a wee fairy," they say. From the first night she has taken a great fancy to Aunt Sarah. On Monday we left Hulmeville with John, and drove to Capt. Hutchinson's beautiful home near Bristol; here we stayed Monday night. Early Tuesday morning John, N., and I went in boat to Trenton, dined with my old schoolmate, Hannah B., and was met by Mr. H. (our host) in the carriage on Bristol wharf at 4.30 P. M. This morning we all came to Philadelphia, dined with Mrs. Char- lotte C., and came up in the 3 o'clock cars, and arrived in this old home once more at 5 o'clock. Charlotte was delighted to see us. I begin to think, dear husband* that you have a right good- looking wife; she must be so, from all I hear about her. " Why, Jeanette," Lottie exclaimed, "not a day older, I declare! a bit younger, if anything; age twenty, I should think! I need not ask you if you have been happy in your distant home, away from all your family; your face answers that question fully. And what kind of a husband you have, too." Friday morning. Here, dear husband, where you slept, in the guest-chamber of your love-dreams, sits your wife Jennie. The morning is charming. We had a restless night with H., but a ride this morning has cured, almost, the boy, and refreshed greatly the mother. Her heart cannot be fully cheered until its mate, its better 96 TRUE CONJUGAL AFFECTION. part, shall come. I feel now that the time is near, is it not, dear husband? We do all so long to see you; not that I want to shorten my visit my friends will not consent to that but cannot you make arrangements to stop all work and recruit awhile? Do try and spare us a good long visit I feel as if we must talk together this quiet Sabbath morning. Your letter came to my hand yesterday, dearest. Call it what name you may, it is very precious to your wife, each and every part the "cross" and all other "moods" of its writer, only feel- ingly, thoughtfully showing the devoted love of his heart. You shall not speak lightly of, or scold, these letters. They are mine, are from my husband, who is perfectly understood as he is dearly loved H.'s heart will never forget his father, even if his tongue cannot remember his name. It will take but a moment to recall him, I am sure. Mary says he still calls "papa, papa," often I try not to anticipate our meeting. This separation is so long, it is so hard to be apart from thee and thy tender, loving heart, my own dear husband. I fear we shall both look forward expecting too much in our longed-for reunion. We cannot love each other too much; I know this. The Bible everywhere sanctions deepest, devoted conjugal affection, comparing such love to that with which "Christ loved the Church" dying for it. But we must love our God supremely, love each other in Him as His, seeking His glory in and through our love. We must never expect too much of earthly happiness. It is here I fear we shall err in our expected meeting. This is never promised the children of God; but they are constantly told of sorrow, disappointments, "tribulations," that shall follow their steps. They must be disturbed and thwarted in every dream and scheme of earthly enjoyment, or else they would never turn with longing eyes to "that better country" they profess to seek. Oh, let us ever remember this. We have all been merci- fully spared in health so far, but the future is only with God, hid from us. In what sorrow might be our meeting! How sweet is dear brother's oft-repeated petition, "Choose for us all our changes." May this be the prayer of our hearts; then shall we be prepared alike for joy or woe. Does this all seem strange to you, dear love? Life has taught me this. I want to try to live day by day, and hour by hour. I have long tried to do this. A WHOLE WOMAN. 97 And how many mercies have followed me ! How bright and happy has been my daily path since cheered by your fond love, my dear- est, earthly gift ! [Mrs. B., one of the ladies who has rendered, valuable assistance in this work, says of this letter: " I think this is one of the loveliest letters I have ever read."] TO MRS. J. MURRAY. BROOKFIELD, July 29, 1851. I wonder if I shall be believed when I say the quiet speaking, friendly face of one I do love, has flitted before me so very often since I left my Western home. I believe I have compared her with every nice body I have met, and she has not suffered one bit. I think she is the most whole woman among them all. You may think me a poor judge, and so we may not agree. But I shall not yield my opinion even to you. Now, after truthfully telling the above, I need not say I have wished often to find a moment to write to you. The moment would not come until we were settled in the house, closets, and drawers of our family home. Is this home, think you? You know well it is only a pleasant resting place for the body. I am less than half here. I cannot help it, cannot help being only half happy when everybody is doing their best to make me altogether so. It is delightful, more pleasant than I can tell, much more than I expected, to get back again, and have these dear old family faces around me. I tell them so, not adding what my heart will always say, "If we were only all here." How I wish you were here, the country is so beautiful. When will your visiting time come? Come it will, I know. Your whole life is not to be one sowing for others' good without any reaping time for yourself. See if a good time is not coming when you shall be as rich as wise. How? Oh, I cannot tell how. It is only for me to tell I feel it must be so. I mean rich in \\\&poor but convenient kind of riches. You are rich now in the best of riches, I hope. Wealth is not happiness, but is not happiness wealth ? When any one asks concerning my Western possessions, I tell the old story, how happy I have been there. I have not seen two people "better off" than Mr. P. and I. 7 98 ROCK OF AGES. " Do I not wish to live here?" I should like to be near these early friends. In times of sickness who can take the place of fami- liar faces and voices that have spoken about one from infancy ! But so far we have been preserved from sickness, or any real afflic- tion, while the " hand of God has been heavy" upon many of these dear families who have "suffered as Christians." We shall be comforted on every side, and helped in every time of need, if our strength and hope are rightly placed on the " Rock of Ages," live where we may. How I wish you could hear the sweet songs these little home birds are giving us. If seems as if the five years' practice had truly made them perfect in the art of song. Our old cook says, "Everything and everybody is glad to see you." I tell you this that you may not be sorry for having given yoilr help and kind wishes in getting Jeanette and her children off. Very affectionately your friend, J. H. P. [She returned home with her husband from this visit in Sep- tember, and wrote the following letter to her sister S. : ] DELAWARE, September, 1851. This is only to tell you we arrived safely on Tuesday afternoon. The journey was extremely fatiguing to me. E. was so good and patient, but H. was all unrest for "Mary! my Mary!" holding up his little hands toward the window, begging to be taken out. Poor baby, how he will miss his own Mary [nurse], and all the loving faces that always smiled on him ! Not more than his mother. Oh, my dear sister, I cannot tell you, you will never know here how sweet will be the pleasure of remembering this visit. I dare not speak. May all the unwearied kindnesses, the patience with my careless, bad ways, the loving words given to the stranger babies, all, all that you have done, and wished to do for me, be rewarded fourfold into your own bosoms. We shall meet where these dread- ful partings will never come. God grant it for Jesus' sake ! I shall soon, I doubt not, feel myself again. I cannot write more now. God bless you ! bless me ! Ever, ever remember in prayer SISTER JEANETTE. FROM MRS. CANFIELD. 99 IX. " Comforted together with you by the mutual faith both of you and me." Letter from Mrs. Canfield describing a visit from Rev. S. C. Damon A valued old friend The love of Christian friends A realization of the heavenly meeting Mrs. Canfield to Rev. S. C. Damon A beautiful prayer Sunnyside Rev. E. H. C. to Mrs. Platt Mrs. Platt to her sister A blessing. 1851 fo 1854. FROM MRS. CANFIELD. NEW YORK, December 12, 1851. MY DEAREST SISTER: I feel as if I could settle down to no quiet employment until I have poured out my heart to you, who will more perfectly than any one else understand me. This morning at nine o'clock I actu- ally kissed good-bye to our old friend Mr. Damon ! Last night we entertained him, his wife, and son Samuel under our roof; and the last voice I heard out of my own room was his, sounding so fami- liarly, and yet so strangely, in my house. That sleep was banished you can well imagine. A week since, on opening our door to say good-bye to a lady visitor, my eyes fell on a gentleman just about to ring. I forgot where I was, and who I was, when Samuel Damon unchanged in person, voice, or manner; looking as if he had left us only yester- day stood before me. My loud exclamations brought out Mr. C. and Ellie, and there was a general confusion for a time Jem- mie, for some curious reason, clinging round his neck, as if he had been an old friend. He sat an hour with us; and what an hour it was! Oh, how we wished for you! He talked of you constantly, making all manner of inquiries about your appearance, home, hus- band, children, everything. I don't think his interest in us has lessened one jot by ten years' absence. Mrs. Damon says our letters were opened more eagerly than those from his own sisters; and all I have seen of him proves that he really, truly loved us, as Christian friends may love 100 THE HEAVENLY MEETING. I went on Friday morning to see Mrs. Damon, hoping they would return with me; but other friends took them from us. He went on Saturday to Washington, stopping at Phila- delphia and Burlington, visiting all his old friends there; and yes- terday afternoon they came to us, and sailed to-day at 2 o'clock. Ten years have left no trace on him. Mrs. Damon has grown pretty, and I liked her very much. She is just the wife he needed. The boy looks very much like him. They left their youngest son of three years in Honolulu, fearing the effects of a change to a cold climate. They like the Islands very much feel that it is home, and would not return on any account to this country. They have never had a day's sickness. The box he sent us, that was lost, contained some very valuable things* coral, native bed-spread, etc. Only think, they passed through New York when you were here; but he was sick and did not know we were living here. The only drawback to the pleasure of the visit was your absence. He told me to say to you that it was the only plan he failed in executing in all his life. He had determined to see you, and was disappointed begged me to write to you at once, and send him your answer. He remembered all your funny sayings and doings. Last evening we went to lecture once more together ; not to the session room, but to our church, to hear my husband preach. He was much pleased with the lecture put his arms round me in the old queer way, and told me so. Oh, it was all so natural, so queer, so excit- ing! I scarcely dared to think or feel while they were here, and after they were gone I just gave up, and went to bed for an hour or two. Father, mother, brother, home, girlhood and its scenes, the living and the dead, the past, present, and future, all seemed to mingle in an overwhelming tide, and I almost sank beneath its irresistible force. You, you will understand it; there needs no lengthened explanation. If I could only have had you here! To see them all at our table ! Was I not right to kiss him good- bye? He turned, after passing the yard gate, to remind me again to write to you and give you his love. When shall we meet again? Probably no more on earth; but oh, there is one home for us all, when our Master's work is done. This meeting made me realize more than I had ever done, what the heavenly meeting will be, if we are so blessed as to reach that blessed country. A PLEASANT DREAM. IOI MRS. CANFIELD TO REV. S. C. DAMON. NEW YORK, ST. PETER'S RECTORY, Feb. 7, 1852. MY DEAR FRIEND: Your brotherly epistle was most welcome. I wished to write you immediately, and have talked of it again and again, but the many engagements and interruptions of city life have prevented. In my position duties press so upon one another that it is difficult to find time for any claims but those arising from one's immediate family and parish. My distant friends are as dear to my heart as ever, but I seldom find time to tell them so. You, I suppose, are safely "at the haven where you would be;" and, I trust, found your little boy well. You did not say one word in your epistle about little Samuel, from which we inferred that he had entirely recovered from his indisposition. Jemmie still remem- bers him and you, and says, "Mother, didn't I cling round his neck?" Pray, what do you think? The beautiful prayer in our liturgy prescribed to be used for a family gone to sea, was offered in one of the Episcopal churches in this city the Sunday after you left, for you ! Now, don't let your Congregational scruples be shocked. It was most sincerely offered by some, I know. Your visit still seems like a dream to me a very pleasant one, I assure you. From the pleasure it afforded me I seemed to catch a glimpse of the happiness of the world above. For oh, if it be so sweet to meet Christian friends here, in the midst of the painful memories, changes, and conflict of this mortal life, what must it be to sit down with them in the kingdom of our Lord, when death is passed, our warfare ended, our tears forever wiped away, and a cloudless eternity before us ! Jeanette, in a hurried letter, speaking of your vjsit, says, "I cannot talk about it. How very, very pleas- ant it must have been ! I should have been so much delighted to see him. But we shall meet no more for only a hurried interview, but for an eternal day." I cannot help regretting still that you did not see her; but, per- haps, it has been for the best. It is very pleasant to feel that we are all laboring for the same Master, though at different posts and in different ways, and are all looking forward to the same home. 102 MRS. CANFIELD TO DR DAMON. I am quite sure, if we are so blessed as to reach that home, we shall know and love each other there Your ideas with respect to the authorship of " Sunnyside" were not correct. It was written by the daughter of Professor Stuart, of Andover. It has created quite a sensation in our community. I think it ends ajmost too well to be natural, the daughters are married too well, in a worldly point of view. However, it is said to be entirely true. Thank you for your kind expressions of interest in my husband. I do not think your estimate of him at all exaggerated. He is a fearless, uncompromising preacher of the truth, *he simple, pure Gospel of our Redeemer; and that, too, in a position where it has been seldom thus proclaimed. I should not be at all surprised if you were to " fall in love with him," for I know one who did it before you. He has a great work to do, and is very busy, heart and soul, in it. It is a work worthy, infinitely worthy of all man's physical and mental energies. I want to know how you found all at home ; how your congre- gation has prospered during your long absence ; and what your little boy thought of your return. Tell Mrs. Damon, with my love, that I read the Thanksgiving sermon with much interest, and was much pleased with it. I hope she will- send me any other production from the same source that may appear in print. I shall always be interested in seeing them. . . . . E. sends her love to you all. Tell Sammie that Jemmie is very busy pasting pictures into a blank book to make a scrap-book. He reads very well now, and is beginning to write in a copy-book. M. still screams at the sight of a gentleman, but is beginning to like her own sex. I hope she may retain some- thing of this aversion when she reaches girlhood It is now four o'clock ; my good husband left immediately after breakfast, and has not been home since, visiting the people, I sup- pose. If he were here he would send a message, for he feels much interested in my " friend Damon." Now do let us hear from you soon, and, if I do not prove a good correspondent, do not set it down to the want of inclination. Our wannest love to your good wife. SISTERLY AFFECTION. 103 FROM REV. E. H. CANFIELD TO MRS. PLATT. BROOKLYN, December 24, 1853. MY DEAR SISTER : I am down in our back parlor all alone, writing by gaslight, the rest of the family still in bed ; the hour 6 o'clock But I do not write to give you news, that others have done better than I can, I write because I must. I have been thinking of the Christmas seasons we were together in Delaware, while lying awake this morning, and my heart has said more than once, "Oh, that you were here now !" There is nothing of an earthly nature that your sister Martha so much longs for as a sight of your face. Sometimes, as we talk about you, she becomes intensely excited, and says she shall fly, or do some unheard-of thing, if she and you are kept at this distance any longer. She often says she would surrender all her comforts here and go back to Delaware for the sake of being where she could have an occasional talk with you. I have been sympathizing strongly with this feeling this morning, and I write merely for the purpose of saying so, and wishing you a truly happy Christmas and New Year The past year has been crowned with blessings to me The lines have fallen to us in very pleasant places. If you were where we could see you occasionally, we could ask nothing more. Your absence creates a blank in Martha's heart which nothing can fill. But I must stop. I learn that you have promised to come East next spring, if we do not go West. This is some comfort. TO MRS. CANFIELD FROM MRS. PLATT. August, 1854. . . . . This darling girl ! I believe I welcome each new gift for immortality with more and more love., I believe this baby is to be a blessing, a blessing to the world, if her life is long ; a sanctified blessing to her parents, if early called home. Wednesday morning. Last evening your very kind letter to Mr. P. came. How sweet is this warm expression of sisterly love and sympathy ! It is a blessing to have a sister ! Dear little M. shall have this baby to call her sister cousin, tell her. I do not know about the name. I think she will not look a bit like 104 A HAPPY CIRCLE. any of our family ; for that reason I care less about her being Jeanette On Sunday eve I went out to tea with the family; was carried by the most willing arms; since then have walked, and joined them at every meal. Nurse takes baby. Grandma is staying this week with us. I wish you could all of you look in upon our happy circle. Has not your distant sister been encompassed by prayers? Have not those prayers been heard? Dear Christian sisters! FROM A LETTER TO HER SISTER S., written in the autumn or early winter of 1854. Wednesday morning. I wish, dear sister, you could peep into our cozy little nursery this beautiful morning ! I have turned the "library" into a nurs- ery. The sitting-room, or as the English would say "Living room" with its great bay-window, was much too cold, though the grate is so large. But this little nook of a room is just the thing for winter. In one corner stands J.'s crib darling baby I wish you could know her! But we have to give up this home. It has been sold, and we must leave in April. Do not say a word of sorrow or regret. I know of no family so blessed of God as we; such perfect health and happiness. Having these, shall we be troubled because we have not earthly possessions or a settled home? Our "Inheritance" is above, I trust. J. H. P. ILLNESS OF MRS. CANFIELD. 105 X. " Very pleasant hast thou been unto me, thy love to me was wonderful." Goes to New York Illness and death of her sister Martha Beautiful examples of sisterly affection A privilege to see a Christian die. August, 1855. IN the month of August, 1855, Mrs. Platt went to Brooklyn, N. Y. , taking with her E., eight years old, and J., one year, to be with her loving sister Martha during an illness, which proved to be her last. She remained until after her death; the following letter was written in her sister's room, where she was in constant attend- ance upon her. TO HER HUSBAND. August 9, 1855. I dare not write about our beloved one to-night, and yet I must. Oh, could you have seen her lovely welcome, and the happiness my coming gave her! my precious sister. We drove to a friend's house, where we were kindly cared for, opposite the Rectory. John, poor John [her brother], is sitting by me. She does not know he is here. They only let her see me and sister E. She says, "I want quiet, no scenes, no excite- ment; I do not want to see Jemmie [her own son, eight years old]. I am glad Mattie is in Burlington, I do not need to see Dr. Tyng" (he was all afternoon with brother C.); "he can tell me nothing I do not know." So the dear one lies wjth her hands peacefully spread, waiting the Lord's will. Brother C. has been over since tea; one after another we have talked together. God giving us strength, we have prayed and resolved that the beloved one's will shall be carried out! No word shall be said! no token shall be given! '"The Angel of the Covenant," even our own Blessed Redeemer, her 106 A GREAT PRIVILEGE. God and our God, shall have her all in His own holy keeping. If it is His will to carry her to His bosom, sparing her all earthly agony of one parting, His will be done ! nay more, this is our will. She must leave us, is passing down into "the valley" even now, on her Saviour's arms, we all know. She may live thirty-six hours. Dearest, I know your deep anxiety for me and the children. Place yourself in brother C.'s place, and feel was there one to whom you could turn as he did to me? "Oh, Jennie, Jennie, how I have wanted you, you to speak to, to go to!" Oh, I am so thankful, so grateful, to think I was helped here now! I did not think of being any help, with my crying little ones, and wondered at your prayer the morning I left: " May those who go, be a blessing where they are called." Friday [August 10], 12 o'clock. Our precious one knows all. I have just left her. Calmly, more calm than in health, she asks for each article of her own, and names the loved one she wishes to have them. Oh, what a privi- lege to see a Christian die! "Oh, Jinty darling," said she to me (sending all away but our own two selves), and laying her gentle hand on my face, "Oh, what you have been to me! This face, the sunshine of my life." "Yes, and what you have been to me, my guide and example always ; and now, oh what a bright light at this dark moment for me to follow !" I replied, " I shall soon follow you; you are. now my example. I will do as you do now when I get in the 'dark valley;' for I shall never be able to say more than you now do." " I want, I only want to do right and feel right." August 14, 1855. I felt last night that I could not go away to sleep out of this house after hearing th t e doctor's opinion, but dreaded that I must for the children's sake. Brother C promised to come for me any moment, if there was any change Yesterday she was much distressed by her "poor mouth" and sore back. Her greatest difficulty now is in her mouth and throat. Here it must end, I suppose. She did not talk much yesterday, except about her poor mouth ; now and then speaking of mother, and father, and brother. TRUST IN A PERFECT SAVIOUR. 107 It seemed to us that, unconsciously to herself, she was drawing nigh to those who have "gone before." I leaned over and slipped my hand under the nurse's, just as I was going to bid her good night. She exclaimed, without seeing me, "Ah, that's Jinty ! Come around, Jinty ! Have you heard from home ? How is your husband ? Had the chills ? Is he with his mother? Who takes care of him? How are H. and F. ? Good-night." This morning, when I first came in her room, with my white wrapper and blue sack, she exclaimed, with an expression of de- light, " Oh, Jinty, what a beautiful color ! You look like a genie, or a fairy." Thus, even in death, the sister of her love and admi- ration was the " delight of her eyes," as she said. BROOKLYN, August 23, 1855. I did not write yesterday. Our beloved sister has been gradually failing since Sunday night ; still lingers with us, though on the border of "the spirit land." She speaks of father, mother, James, and this morning of "a beautiful little girl," as if already in view of and communion with the "shining land beyond the flood." Yesterday, at noon, there was for a short time a perfect return of reason and mental vigor. She asked for her husband ; and, when all had left the room but him and me, she asked, what was the matter with her? was she very sick ? .was she dying? At once she understood all, and, closing her eyes, she. added, "Well, I am a poor, miserable, utterly worthless sinner; but I perfectly trust in a perfect Saviour. His blood, His righteousness, on these I trust ; and I am not afraid to enter the grave and gate of death. " ' I rest my soul on Jesus, The spotless Lamb of God.' I know He will never leave me." Then, when alone with me, she again requested that I would be a sister to her husband,. and see by every means that her dear children were trained up for the Lord ; ever having kept before them the meeting of their mother in heaven. She thus was per- mitted to comfort us, and left for our help her dying testimony of the power and grace of that Saviour whom she has followed since her eleventh year. I08 A PEACEFUL DEATH. August 24, 1855. I finish the letter brother C. sent to you yesterday before it was closed. Our beloved one entered into "rest" at 6 o'clock yester- day evening. Peacefully as an infant falls to sleep in its mother's arms, so our sister passed away on " the Everlasting Arms." The funeral will take place this afternoon in the church. Dr. Tyng (according to her request) performing that portion of the service belonging to the Church, and Dr. Cutler will accompany brother C to Burlington to-morrow morning, and finish the service at the churchyard of St. Mary's, where sleep our other precious ones. I shall not go to Burlington ; my only desire is for the quiet of my own home. August 25, 1855. . I want to get home ; I am very sad and lonely. Through all this great trial I have turned in vain to see one familiar face that cared for me. Tell Mrs. Murray how I longed for her quiet, sym- pathizing look ! Many kind friends ministered to our dear one, and stood by us through these long, distressing days; But I felt as if to the parish I was "only Mrs. Canfield's poor little sister from Ohio." I have felt such loneliness as I never knew before. But for these children, what comforts they have been ! Nettie has two teeth lower ones ; has improved every day since we came ; has enjoyed so much being Carried up and down the cool streets in her nurse's arms. She has felt none of the gloom and sadness that poor E. has seen, though I have tried by every means in my power to keep her out of the circle of its influence. Ellie looks badly, and has not been well these few past days. It would have been an unspeakable comfort to me if we could have been to- gether, and I know of no one who could better comfort brother C by sympathy than yourself. But this was denied. I hope you will write to him a full, private letter of your sympathy and prayers in his great bereavement. He wanders about, hardly knowing what he is doing. I cannot get him to sleep of nights. I have been with him parts of every night, and tried in every way to soothe and comfort. God will comfort him, I know ; and days of brightness, I hope, will again come over his path. But never more can such sister's love be given back to me. The only eye that NO COMMON LOVE. 1 09 from infancy my faults had no power to dim, the only heart that has loved as if no imperfection could be mine ! Dearest, it is not that I do not value the deep, true lovfe that God has given to me in you, or that I am not grateful for the happy days that have been found at your side. But this was no common sister ; the love she gave to me was no common love. I feel, oh how I feel her loss ! Think of all the many, many years that our thoughts and feelings blended, and the current of our lives was as one ! Think what she has, what she has not been to me ! Since her eleventh year my ex- ample and guide, the counsellor and comforter of all my youth ! In my faithlessness I have said, "Can I ever get Home without her?" God forgive this sinfulness ! Is she not my example still? "Her memory/' Dr. Tyng said, "could only lead upward and onward every one whose heart had loved her." " Jinty, seas cannot divide us." I know it. It is only " Jordan's wave" that now separates us. We are now " one army of the living God." " Angels, and living saints and dead, But one communion make." Since I have been yours, dear husband, I have kept back not one thought that has been in my heart, which is so wholly yours ; and I must say what I now think not entirely new, for a shadow of it has seemed upon me all this spring, notwithstanding I have been in perfect health. I shall not be very, very long behind my sister. Our family have an organization (some members of it) that was not made for long life. The never-ceasing action of the whole nervous system in power and force that cannot long continue. I would not pain you, darling. We and ours are in His hand. I do not dare say this because I feel the meetness for heaven that has so long been her's. Oh, no, no. May now her spirit, her words, her whole life and death, be sanctified and blessed to me ! In her own loved hymn : t " Nearer, my God, to Thee, Nearer to Thee ; E'en though it be a cross That raiseth me; Still all my song shall be, Nearer, my God, to Thee." 110 HOME. RETURNS HOME. Friday Morning, August 31, 1855. I have just put J. ipto her crib. E. has gone over to bid a littl< friend good-bye. Z. C. has gone over to New York to engage state-rooms on the North River boat, .and I have a moment to give to you Brother W. called again this morning. [They go to Vermont and stay a few days, when she leaves for home with W. A. P. Wednesday evening she writes : ] I am very sorry to disappoint you, and make our stay from home still longer, though glad to have a little time to see Vermont, and hope to feel the benefit from that fresh, invigorating air, so as not to come home looking quite so badly as I now do. The dear boys, how I do want to see their faces ! But not so much as I do their "papa's." GAMBIER. Ill XI. " In sure dwellings and in quiet resting places." Visit to Gambier Diocesan Convention Pleasant greetings Trip to Missouri with her cousin Mrs. Maccracken W. A. P. Gratitude for attention A night of diversion Hurrah for Ohio girls and Iowa development St. Louis First impressions of Missouri Rose Hill Beau ideal tf a country house Her aunt's delightful home Her uncle's missionary work. May, 1856, to Oct. 1858. MRS. PLATT goes to Gambier with the Rev. Mr. McElroy and wife to attend the Diocesan Convention. TO HER HUSBAND. GAMBIER, May 4, 1856. Our ride was very pleasant, though long as to time ; we arrived here at 5^ o'clock. I think I never had so long and pleasant a ride. I was not at all sick ! We stopped and ate our lunch under the trees ; afterward stopped an hour at some tavern for the horses to get their dinner and rest. A very pleasant driver, but poor horses you would think, though Mrs. McElroy and I said we were so well satisfied with them so soon as we saw their heads; we like to go slow and sure. How constantly you are in my thoughts, connected with the en- joyment of every religious service, and the meeting and greeting of every dear old friend. "Like me, like my husband" my heart seems to say. And Mrs. Day, too, and her beautiful sister, how my heart warmed to them, as they so kindly met me and looked " so disappointed that Mr. P. had not come." Everybody (so many, I mean) has met me so kindly, and says, "I am so glad_>w* are here!" I suppose my pale face called for this change, they think. And, oh, // is so very pleasant to see so 112 WESTWARD A LOVING BROTHER. many that I know so well, that are dear from associations with those who can never more meet below ! / do feel so grateful to you, darling, for the kind consideration that urged me off, at such a sacrifice. I fear both Marys will have chills, and then how will you get on? Poor Nettie, who will look after her ? Who? God. Is not His eye over you all ? I leave you all in His holy keeping. Pray only that the Blessed Spirit of all Grace may rest upon every member of this Convention, and every visitor in this parish. Miss Battersby and I went to the 6 o'clock prayer-meeting how delight- ful ! Afterwards Mr. French, Mr. Burr, Mr. Roberts, and Mr. Stiirges walked nearly home with me. Mrs. French and all her family are here; I am so glad to see them. 1858. In the autumn of this year Mrs. Platt went with her cousin, Mrs. Maccracken, of Lancaster, O., to visit an aunt in Missouri, whose husband, a Baptist minister,* had gone there some years before, as a missionary. The journey was made partly for the benefit of her health. From letters written to her husband during this trip the follow- ing extracts are" taken: COLUMBUS, Sept. 21, 1858. I have just laid down "Two Millions," not dollars, but a little poem. My heart and head are full of you, my husband, you your own self has stood out before me at every page by way of strongest contrast. Judge for yourself; I send the book. Brother W. met me at the station. No own brother could more tenderly care for me in every little nameless attention the seat in the carriage, the driving, "not too fast, Jemmy" (to the driver), insisting upon almost carrying me up stairs to choose where I would sleep, etc. etc I accept all easily, if not gracefully, as to your wife. . . . . E., H., F., J., H., how they all come about me! I have just one prayer: " Thy almighty arm, oh, keep it continu- ally around these precious little ones 1" "If the Lord keep not the house, the watchmen watch in vain." But He is our "keeper," and I can, and do, perfectly trust Him * Rev. Wm. Welch. He was employed by the American S. S. Union for a number of years. HURRAH FOR OHIO GIRLS. 113 We have just had a nice long talk about his loneliness. It makes my heart ache to see how solitary in heart he is. [This brother, W. A. P., had but recently lost his wife the Fanny of other let- ters a lady of most superior heart and mind culture.] . . . . I do like him. Take him all in all, he is a superior man. The kindness which God has put in his heart to ever feel towards me only his half brother's wife, I can never forget. She went from Columbus to Lancaster via Zanesville, and writes from Lancaster as follows : September 23d. The hotel at Zanesville was very full, but the landlord said he would do all in his power to make me comfortable. "Would I object to using a room with another lady?" " No, not at all, if she was decent and nice." " She was." So I had a night of as great diversion and entertainment as you ever heard of. She was a young Mrs. M., born and brought up in Beverly, Ohio ; married and moved to Iowa. I wish you could have peeped in. This was her first trip home with a baby two years old. She stayed in the room to watch the child, and I went to bed soon after tea, because so tired, with pillows tucked under my head. I perched myself for a life picture of rural Iowa life. I wish you could have seen speaker and listener, and heard the peals of laughter from the top of the straw. She was very young eighteen or twenty; a plain, unhooped, simple country girl ; but, if a speci- men of native Ohio culture, then hurrah for Ohio girls after this, and Iowa development! Their little settlement was log and board houses, with near 200 inhabitants only. She gave a minute de- scription of "our Lyceum," which meets every Wednesday night, in which women take part in debate and write essays. "Why," I said, " how many women have you, out of the 200 men, women, and children, that are able to 'write essays?' ' "About five." "What do you do with your baby when you 'debate' and read your own ' essays ?' ' " Oh, I set her down, or hand her to some- body. " "What kind of questions do you discuss? Give me a specimen, do." "Moral suasion; capital punishment; women's rights. We are all great women's rights folks." 114 RICH IN BLESSINGS. But I must leave the rest till I see you. It was certainly the best evening's entertainment I have had for a long time, completely diverted and restored me. I was questioned and talked to sleep, and awoke this morning in time to see " Lilly Doll" take her bath. In justice to Mrs. M , of Millersburg, I must say the questioner was your wife, as she only asked one question : " Does your hus- band live on a farm ?" When I awoke yesterday morning the pain was all gone, and I was much stronger, and so thankful. The ride to Zanesville made me "sea-sick," but still I enjoyed it much. As we drew near to the city memory went back to the first time I saw it, now more than twenty years, then twelve years ago a bride with you. Mind went to and fro over all this space, counting up and com- paring. Shall I tell you the sum I made ? It was this : that, though childhood, with its sunny gayety, and youth with its bright- ness, are no more mine, I am now, with you and our precious children, richer, fuller, happier in earthly stores than I could ever count before. But I am very tired and must rest. Your own JENNIE. FROM CINCINNATI. September 27, 1858. . . . . I feel that your prayers, darling husband, encircle me, and Jesus, our blessed Saviour, has been very near "about my path" all this day. I did so dread the ride, and never felt so "down," as I did last Monday; but I really feel to-night no worse, and hope I shall be held safely in His hand to my journey's end. The doctor said the journey was often a tonic and would help. . He did not say, " Don't go on." John Maccracken met us at the Broadway House. MISSOURI ROSE HILL. 115 TO HER HUSBAND. ROSE HILL, Mo., October i, 1858. I am not sure this will go to the office to-day. " Hickory Grove" (the post-office) is some four miles distant. When Willie learns the way he will be post-boy. Our ride to St. Louis was long all day and night to 4 o'clock in the morning of Wednesday. The cars are very wide, and seats comfortable. You know I can curl up like a kitten, and can make a bed of one seat as nicely as on a parlor sofa. Indeed, it seemed that I gathered strength and improved all the way from Lancaster. Monday I could not sit up, but lay down on the seat all the way to Cincinnati ; was carried in and out of the cars ; but I feel better now. We went to the "Planters' House," St. Louis, for breakfast, and left by the North Missouri Railroad for Wright City. Here Aunt S , and " Sam," with his wagon, met us, and we arrived safely at Rose Hill about 5 o'clock P. M. We did not think well of Indiana. Illinois we passed over in the dark. The great prairies in the moonlight reminded me of the ocean and its vastness. There was cultivation everywhere, not unlike passing through Ohio. Some elegant residences in the suburbs of St. Louis, and richly cultivated grounds. But all this was left behind as we went on; crossed the great Missouri River in a steam ferry-boat. The face of the country is most beautiful, such rich pasture lands and beautiful wooded spots here and there. Cousin S insists that "Missouri is the most beautiful country she has ever seen." But I d.o not quite agree with her. I should put on more hills and add other varieties to suit my taste, though it is greatly superior to anything we have seen yet on this trip. Dearly as I wanted to see Aunt Sarah, I had a sort of dread of her Missouri home. This feeling did not lessen as we drove through the woods and over the prairies for six miles, and saw the rude log-houses and rude improvements. Judge, then, of the as- tonishment and delight when, coming through a bit of woods, her home stood before us, the very sweetest, neatest, beau-ideal of a country house ever seen anywhere. Built of wood, painted white, projecting roof, with "curly-cues" all round its edge, a portico Il6 BEAU IDEAL OF A HOME. in front, embowered with honeysuckle and climbing roses, with seats to lounge on after dinner. Green shutters, and all fresh and clean, as if only painted yesterday. A spacious lawn all round, ornamented with the choicest shrubs and evergreens, interspersed with clumps of native forest trees ; the whole inclosed with a neat paling fence, with clean-kept gravel walks leading from the door. In front a little gate leads into the "park," and this spot is the most beautiful of all, a real park of native forest, trimmed out to suit the taste, with here and there some native cedars planted, to give variety and greenness through the winter. Through this the carriage drives to the house from the public road, entering by a large gateway. On one side of the lawn stand old apple-trees loaded with choice fruit, the ground covered with fallen apples. Also peaches, finest " Late Heath," and large red varieties; butter pears, too, luscious, such as I have never seen west of Philadel- phia markets. Oh, how I have wanted to put some to your mouth fill your hands and pockets. Behind the house is Aunt S 's well-tilled garden, very large, and full of everything, from borders of choicest flowers to musk melons and onions, sage and salsify. There is no house in sight, or sound of a neighbor. Solitude reigns, yet no solitude at all, for the birds and insects, katydids, crickets and grass-hoppers, bumble- bees and yellow-jackets, wasps and butterflies, are jumping, spring- ing, flying, and singing all over and everywhere. (I took a wasp out of my bed last night, not admiring such company, though I am lonely at night.) The furniture of the house compares favorably with out door " improvements," having been transported from the Jerseys. You remember aunt's well-kept and even beautiful hair-seat sofa, work- ing chairs, etc. There is a parlor, large dining-room, study, kitchen, pantry, wash-room, with etceteras below, and seven sleep- ing-rooms above, neatly finished and furnished. Such is part of the sunny side of this home. The shady side is the condition of the society around. How they all want Cyrus Platt to move his family here ! There is a neat farm, Aunt S says, she has her "eye on for you." You must certainly all see this spot, dear husband. I feel much stronger this morning. I lay down and rested most of yesterday, and talked to uncle and all as fast as tongue could go ! Paper, is full, with much unsaid. A RIDE ON THE PRAIRIES. 117 [A sheet is added, dated Saturday morning, in which she regrets the long time we shall have to wait before hearing from her, as they send to the post-office but three times a week ; gives directions about some household affairs, and adds: ] I am so grateful for all the deliverances of our journey, and all the health and "well-doing" you and the dear children have en- joyed in my absence. I shall ever feel deeply indebted to cousin Sarah for this trip, so profitable to my health. October 4, 1858. Uncle tries to be a great tease. He insists that now I am shut up, away in Missouri, you will run away with the babies to Cali- fornia, etc. I only laugh and wonder if any other wife knows the perfect trust, and rest, and love I have in thee. I do so begin to long for my own dear husband, and feel, if God is pleased to spare me to get home, I shall cling closer, and more truly value all I have in thee ! I am so thankful the precious children do so well without me dear little J. and baby H: such wee ones to leave so long. "Un- less the Lord keep the house, the watchmen watch in vain." May we both be made truly grateful for His protecting care while thus separated one from the other ! My health still improves. Yester- day I ventured a six-mile ride with uncle and Willie to his churches on the great prairie, and I felt no inconvenience from the twelve- mile ride. . . . . I have not selected a farm yet. As a result of all I have seen, Ohio and Ohio people and Delaware have greatly risen in my estimation. Only duty, as in dear aunt Sarah's case, could bring me to place my family among these Missourians. Even such a beautiful home as this could not lure me. I can understand how uncle wanted to come and preach the Gospel and close his life among his family kindred (his brothers and sisters are settled all round). As early as 1817 the land of this farm was "entered" for him, without the remotest idea that he should ever live upon it. He and wife went out from Philadel- phia to St. Louis as missionaries about this time. They returned East, and remained till after her mother's death; then, in 1826, came back with family and settled on this farm, and planted these trees that are now so large. Aunt felt that their four children could Il8 LONGINGS FOR HOME. not be properly educated here, so again removed East, and uncle became general agent for the American Sunday-school Union for twenty years, until his age showed it was no longer his duty to be so actively employed and exposed by travel. In 1848 they settled finally at Rose Hill, and everything in and out of the house looks as if they had always lived here. Such order and neatness not a chip or a bit of paper blowing about out of place house, barn- yard, chicken-yard, all the same. I think aunt feels lonely, and longs for company of her own people. How much she seems to enjoy our visit ! I do want to gratify her as long as we can, but think we must talk about turning homeward next week, though we have decided nothing yet, nor spoken to dear aunt. Cousin Sarah is very feeble. I feel that they may never meet below again, and shall wish them to be together as long as they can. I inclose Mrs. Ruffner's letter; is it not kind and friendly? I do hope gousin S will be well enough to stop at Louisville and see her on our return. Aunt S has just come in and asks, " Have you given my love to Mr. Platt, and told him to kiss all the babies for me?" Cousin Sarah unites in aunt's message. I am pretty well, with kisses for the children*. CINCINNATI, Tuesday Evening, Oct. 19, 1858, Broadway Hotel. We reached this city this morning at 5 o'clock, and found your two letters. My heart was filled with longing to get home, and I felt that I could not put my bonnet off, but go straight through alone. But cousin S. seemed so disturbed, so unwilling, after all her extreme kindness, I did not see how to disappoint her in her plans for here and Columbus, especially as she determined she could not go to Delaware with me, but would see me to Columbus, and stay with me at brother William's all night, and, as a favor, asked me to stay and go with her. How could I refuse ? . . . . We took a carriage and drove around the city and the beautiful suburbs; but I can truly say I could only enjoy the ride with my eyes, for I feel so sad and disappointed, and long to get away to you. . . . . We shall leave to-morrow at 9 A. M., and stay with cousin until Thursday A. M. She will then go to Lancaster, and your wife to you. The poor children ! I am so sorry to disap- point them so many times. REV. DR. TYNG. 119 XII. " He that walketh with wise men shall be wise." Letters from Dr. Tyng at Gambier and New York First letter to Rev. S. C. Damon after marriage Pleasant reminiscences A peep at my children Twenty-two years have passed, but friendship remains as fresh and strong as ever. June, 1860, to September, 1861. REV. DR. TYNG came to Gambier to deliver an address at the Commencement, and while there Mrs. Platt sent him an invitation to make her a visit. This is his reply : GAMBIER, June 21, 1860. Mv DEAR JEANETTE : I was grateful for your very kind note, received just as I left home, on Friday, last week. I was engaged on Sunday for Cleve- land, but a breaking up of two trains on the road detained us for four hours, and I was obliged to spend Sunday in Pittsburg. I came here on Monday, where I have been lecturing to the students in the seminary, twice a day, through the whole week. To-morrow I have three engagements, and must return home on Monday. I should have great pleasure in visiting you if it were possible. But I find no convenience in getting to you from here, and my engage- ments at home compel my haste. I am e.ven more immersed and overwhelmed in labors as age comes upon me. Cares in great numbers come upon me, and though memories of the past are very pleasant, and anticipations of the future are still brighter, I am not without a share in the annoyances and trials of life. I feel always sure, however, that it is resistance which makes affliction, and that perfect submission to God's will is and must be perfect peace. Speak of rne kindly to your husband, and teach your children to know me, and do not yourself forget Your faithful and loving friend, STEPHEN H. TYNG. 120 DR. TYNG A GRATEFUL HEART. FROM DR. TYNG. NEW YORK, July 21, 1860. MY DEAR JEANETTE : Your letter was a great pleasure and comfort to me. Amidst the snows of winter few flowers bloom: for love extended to age the heart is peculiarly grateful. You were always attractive and dear as a girl; but, when we were acquainted, you were encompassed also with friends and family, who were very dear, too. Many have gone; many have changed their relations to us. New scenes and new persons have been thrown around us both. But your tender remembrance of me is the more grateful amidst this revolution. I am rejoicing to hear of your contentment and happiness, though God has been pleased apparently to make your circumstances moderate. I pray that your children may have much cause to rise up and call you blessed. To train a family for Christ and glory is no small responsibility. The Lord bless you in all He has given you. Your kind notice of my one book in your possession leads me* to add three more of mine, which I have sent by express Let us purpose in a simple purpose to live for Jesus, to drink of His cup, and to be baptized with His baptism, as He shall deem best. He is to be honored by us ; the way is of little consequence. He can do us no harm in any way. Let us love to glorify Him. Love'to your husband and children. Your ever faithful friend, STEPHEN H. TYNG. HER FIRST LETTER TO MR. DAMON AFTER HER MARRIAGE A RENEWAL OF THE CORRESPONDENCE. DELAWARE, OHIO, January 14, 1861. REV. S. C. DAMON [HONOLULU.] MY DEAR OLD FRIEND: "There is a Providence that shapes our ends." Does not the same guide the pen? prompt it? Or why should I write to you to-day? My heart is not a bit warmer, truer, or more full of interest for you and yours, than it has been these twenty-two years. The desire and intention to write is no DR. DAMON HISTORY OF HOLDEN. 121 stronger than for five years, since when your last has been looking me in the face every time my portfolio opened. Here are the "second causes." Delaware, Ohio, a half-country, half-village home; din- ner time; a pattering rain, with January sleet, all over the lawn and old oak trees ; a bright wood fire in the little back bedroom aunty's* room. A dear old aunt in the great focking-chair, with knitting and newspaper on the stand at her elbow. A plate, with knife and half-pared great apple, is brought in from the dinner- table by a little " mother," who fills the small rocking-chair, coax- ing " father" to sit down and eat his apple, too. " No, must get back to business." The door closes, and the apple-paring goes on for one minute ; put down to open the door for a three-year old curly head, leading in baby F , fourteen months old to-day. The latter, after pulling about the tongs, and trying to get the shovel, was sent off to the dining-room to get dinner with his nurse, Mary. The former, never still, climbed up into the rocking-chair, and made piano of mother's back. Then the apple was finished, divided, and handed round with the remark, "Only think, Aunt Clara, that young lady I met the other evening, just from Connecticut, never heard of Holden, Mass., or Oxford! I was hunting up something to say to the Quaker stranger, and spoke of dear old friends coming from these places. Martha's old school friend, Celia Campbell, came from Oxford, and my Honolulu friend, Mr. Damon, from Holden. Do you know anything about Holden? Why, I have a book on the shelves that will tell about it! Jump down, H ; let me get it, 'History of Holden.' ' Jeanette and Martha, with the author's kind regards, 1841.' You must see the letter he wrote me, June 24, 1846, so very kind and brotherly. It is in my port- folio. I have been always going to answer it." With moistened eyes the letter was read, and then the pen came on this sheet, and would turn words to say, "Just as warm and true is the regard (why not say affection ?) 'Jeanette' retains for her friend, ' S. C. D.,' this day, as when they rambled over the lanes and fields of old Burlington, or knelt together in the little Presbyterian prayer- meeting : just the same." The form, the features, and heart of my old friend are before * Her husband's Aunt Clara. 122 A PEEP AT MY CHILDREN. me, fresh as in daily intercourse. It seems as if he could step in this very afternoon and take that vacant chair. How pleased and interested in this old aunt he would be, to hear her say, as she did to me just now, "Tell him I am just as much interested in his Holden history as if I was a Massachusetts woman." Ah, there are hearts that never grow old ! and this aunty is one of them. Old age is beautiful in her. In the hushed evening hour He spares her to us to show us how full of comfort and support He can make life's close, when from the days of youth the Creator has been remembered. (Here she comes to my table, looking for a pencil to make some extracts from your book.) Twenty years taken down, dusted, and put back, has this little book passed through my hands, scarcely opened ; now it comes fresh with interest, almost hal- lowed with never-dying associations of the past. Yes, never-dying ! My precious sister 1 it seems but yesterday that we three were together. You want to take a peep at my children? I wish you could after they are all asleep for the night ; that is the time I most enjoy looking at them. Come up into the boys' room, and see if they are not two fine-looking fellows. No need to step lightly ; school all day, with skating and sliding, and home chores, give sound slumber. Is not that shaggy head big enough for a Webster? Sound-looking enough for a President? I hope not. Their mother's only prayerful wish is, that God will accept her boys ; call and fit them for ambassadors for Christ. This is quiet, thoughtful H. See mirthful, laughter-loving F. ! His face is hardly at rest even when asleep ; arm over his brother's neck, promptings of a heart full of affection. His hair is soft and light, with blue eyes. H has soft, brown eyes, the gentle expression, some think, of his Aunt Martha. His hair is as brown as his mother's used to be. But come across the hall and see our girls. Take them to your heart as your own, too, if God has not lent you any. E., my eld- est, first born ! words can never tell how dear is this child to me. I have from the first hour of taking her to my bosom tried to hold her lightly, as loaned a little while only, to be trained for the Master's service, here or there, as He will. Should her life be pro- longed you may have her as a fellow-worker for Christ in the Sand- wich Islands. Shall she be educated for a teacher? or what post will you assign her? I could not let her go to any other foreign ANOTHER JEANETTE HULME. 123 field without much grace being given; but your Islands have seemed very near and very inviting ever since you made home there. And the little fingers have traced out their bearings ever since the geography came into her hands. "O mother, do write that letter to your friend Mr. Damon!" she has said a thousand times. This little sister by her side, J. we call her, but she has not a bit of mother about her; very beautiful as a baby, but now baby loveli- ness has given place to a strong-willed, determined, quiet, self- reliant look. "Our oaken twig," I often call her, and wonder what are the storms and tempests that little heart is to brave. With religious principle she will be fully able to bear all that the provi- dence of God lays upon her. Will you have her, too ? But here in the nursery come. Here is your old friend herself, with curly head, nestled among the pillows I cannot describe her. In her I see myself as others see me. God sparing her life there will be another Jeanette Hulme. Will you like her? And now the crib. Ah, this is the child among them all ! Months of ill health and tedious confinement to the house and couch preceded the birth of this precious baby boy. His mother looks upon him as coming for some special mercy and comfort, and regards him as all the Lord's. I wish you could see him see us all ! Now, my children are just like all other children, doubt- less, only in their mothers' eyes. Remember this, and when you come to see them don't expect too much. You know well just what an impulsive, undisciplined mother they have. Twenty-two years! the changes, "sundry and manifold changes of the world," as one of our collects beautifully says what record shall this page bear? "Whoso offereth thanks he honoreth me;" with thanksgiving must begin and end all my testimony of "all the way which the Lord God hath led me these forty years," to humble and prove me. Ah, dear friend, I am the same ; I have only all this time been learning more and more of His long-suffer- ing patience. Oh, the power, the fulness, the preciousness of a Saviour's love ! The thirteen years of married life have been full of blessings, though chequered with care and disappointment in regard to outward prosperity. My husband is not rich; a golden portion is not to be our lot, I often assure him. But that does not belong to happiness. Discipline, trial, must come in some form ; and want of riches is the very least ill earth can know. 124 KENYON COLLEGE. What of the outward changes in your old friend Jeanette? She often gives a look, not a sigh, saying, "This is Mrs. Platt, I suppose." Jeanette Hulme has gone, I told you ; you may find her hereafter in her daughter H. I do not know that the mother is sobered a whit; and if the eye is dimmed, so that I hear talk of "spectacles coming," not a sunbeam can stray into her apartment, or flower open at her feet with tint unseen or unfelt. The chestnut curls are gone, turned into thin bands that are marbled over with silver threads. Never mind ; in half an hour's time you would get used to all changes, and have just as pleasant times with her as twenty- two years ago. Come, try it. Is it not time to visit the States again? Does not friend Julia want to see her friend again? Is it not time to bring the boys for school to prepare for college ? Their college is in Ohio, Gambier, Knox County, good for sound learn- ing, better for healthy moral influences, best for the quickening graces of the Holy Spirit that year after year are showered upon that institution. There is a good grammar school connected with it. May I not have your boys to go to school, and spend vacations with me? I will make them Episcopalians? Certainly. Their father ought to have been one.(?) I have learned to value our church more and more, year by year; not others less, but her more. What has become of your prayer-book? Don't you want a new one? Is the "Daily Food" worn out? Mine is now open before me, the daily companion since childhood. This little col- lection from the "exceeding great and precious promises," how enriched and hallowed by associations of the past ! What helpers in time of need ! The Psalms for the day, as appointed in the prayer-book, have made my daily Bible reading now for the last few years. Meet me here with fervent prayer for each other's soul's welfare, and for the families committed to our care. I say nothing on the state of our beloved country, so torn with dissensions ; the newspapers can better show you this. God reign- eth. I am, though no longer a Quaker, nor a "peace" woman, yet for peace, and tell my husband we will run away to Canada or the Sandwich Islands. But I must stop ; my pen has run freely as if you were at my side. Can you read these outpourings of an old friend's heart? s. c. D. THE SEAMAN'S CHAPLAIN. 125 TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, OHIO, September 4, 1861. MY DEAR FRIEND : It is just three months to-day since you came (for your package was like a visit from yourself). The pleasant picture, so very pleasant to see again, though its original can be no more fresh in recollection than before. I know just how you looked look. There are faces that never grow older in expression, and I am sure Julia says yours is one of these. I see the preacher in my picture, and the echo of his Sabbath duties seems yet on his heart as he rests in the artist's chair. I see no trace of years or care ; only the sober, tranquillized mark of holy work; the seal of Christ's ambassador. It seems to me I never saw you sit still long enough to make a picture ; and if the body rested, the countenance was ever changing, and the lips never quiet in repose. I believe you were almost as great a talker as I. Julia will tell me, "That is just like him now." I know it, am quite sure my picture tells more than the truth about his sobriety. Even in the pulpit, although I never saw him there, I know just how he looks, in spite of the picture's tale. "It is his father!" was the first exclamation, as I took it from the envelope. Not a bit of age about it; every feature just as when I said good-bye, long years ago ; but calm, quiet re- flection, where I had only seen the living, changing light of warm, impulsive thought and action. "The Seaman's Chaplain" ought to be just as the picture tells ! I don't believe he is, in spite of all endeavors. I never saw "the Chaplain!" I know that, I know that, and so am so glad and thankful for your kind thought of sending the picture. And now I want the boys, one by one,'S , E , F , and W , as you are willing to spare their pic- tures to me. I suspect that I shall find my young companion, " S. C. D.," among them, in parts or as a whole, more than in the calm, reflective Chaplain's face, now before me. Let me see for myself. It is said if children in feature resemble one parent, in character they are like the other. I have a yearning desire to see S , your eldest. I saw his name enrolled among your col- lege youth, and said, " Can it be ? His father seemed but as a college youth the other day !" 126 A NURSERY MOTHER. Why have I delayed this answer so long three months ? You have asked that question so many times as I have passed by from my nursery mantel ; but, when I have stopped and looked, I have not seen impatience or reproach, but the same appreciating, sym- pathizing look that would greet me, had you in reality just come in and sat down with my little group. I am a nursery mother ; six little ones keep me very close, and all out-door duty is left for some one else to do. This summer my work has been nursing the sick, first one little one and then another. As I have said, all this you have seen (through your picture), and many a cheering, helping word seemed given by the old friend of youthful days. I tbink I hear you say, "Look not on the things which are seen." "We walk by faith." "We have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities." "Looking unto Jesus," Jeanette, "so let us run." Yes, a glance at the well-remembered face has helped through many a weary hour of nursery duty and indisposition. So you and Julia may learn how even the picture of a Christian brother can do good. I seem to see and know all your boys. Never fear for F , "the doll-lover." His gentleness will be a shield, and his affec- tionate, domestic disposition make mother and sisters wherever he goes. Our precious brother James was such a child as your boy. I have never met such another character in man as was his, so noble, pure, and manly. "To the pure all things are pure," and I think the world deals kindly by such. I have much more fear for those independent boys who have always seemed above pets. Your family circle seems complete in comfort and happiness. I am sure our island friend is a happy, and ought to be a most thank- ful, man I really feel like lingering about this page, as loath to shut the study-door where I have made a call, although I know time is pre- cious, and I have already made a long visit to my friend. I can- not make you know how near to us Honolulu seems since your letter came. If I were rich I know well you should soon see hus- band, six babies, and all at your door. I would just " flee away" from this torn, distracted country, bleeding away her very life- blood. I will not write upon this theme, the newspapers will give you every particular. You will remember your own country on the coming fast-day (September 26), I know. TWILIGHT PLEASURES. 127 Nurse has just taken baby F off for a walk to see his grandma. He is just beginning to talk the sweetest baby age. H has gone, too. J is laughing away under the trees below my win- dow, trying to fix up a great flag of her brother's. E says she is going to write herself to you. She is but a careless writer, as you will see, although a good student when in school. What are those trees about the Bethel and Sailors' Home? They look like elms. Do you have such beautiful autumns as we ? Such changing verdure ? Do you have any of our out-door sounds, so pleasant to my ear at twilight, seeming to sing of autumn's ap- proach and the past summer's ripe old age? My favorite cricket, and other tiny humming things, do you have them ? 128 PHILADELPHIA. XIII. " But the very hairs of your head are all numbered." Trip to Philadelphia General E An agreeable travelling companion Brookfield Burlington Kindly greeting Not a day older Contentment. September to November, 1863. THURSDAY, September 17, 1863, Mrs. Platt started for Philadel- phia, taking her son H with her as escort and companion. Her health was much impaired, and the trip was made on that account and to visit Eastern friends. The following letters were written to her husband : PHILADELPHIA, SPRUCE STREET, September 19, 1863. A child's gleeful voice below my window makes me, oh, so hungry for my own home babies ! How I longed for F.'s pattering feet and M.'s calling papa, papa, this morning! And dear N. 's morning face each and all. There is no home without you all ! My eye is very weak from the tire of the journey, and I cannot write long. We arrived safe and well at five o'clock last evening. John, Anna, and Fred. W. were at the depot. At Crestline we went first and selected our seats, which I took while H. went to the ticket office. When he was gone I said to a passenger, " Do we check our baggage in or out of the cars ?" He instantly arose and asked, " Can I do anything for you, Madam?" 1 replied, "I am afraid my little boy may forget about the bag- gage." "Let me go, describe him," and away he sprang. In a few moments he was back, and we were off. He had met H. getting in the car without thinking of the baggage, and found the two trunks put away as uncalled-for baggage ! Only by making the porter, with his commanding manner (feather, hat, and officer's uniform), could he get our trunks at all. ' What a silly wife and boy," you will say. Never mind. The almost mishap gave us AN AGREEABLE COMPANION. 129 one of the most gentlemanly and kindest escorts I ever had, Gen- eral E , from the command of the fleet on the Mississippi. I could fill my letter in telling you of his pleasant attentions and our talks. I showed my colors, of course, and found he had just such "treason" at home in his Philadelphia wife. When a child he lived just below Burlington, on the opposite side of our river. His father was a Quaker! His wife an Episcopalian. When fifteen years old he and his brother went to Illinois, and settled at Bunker Hill. He was now on his way to Philadelphia to see an aged mother, eighty-four, "a most wonderful woman; no son could stay long away from her," as he said. She had lost the staff of her old age in an elder brother, that fell in this war last spring. Yet, though her heart was crushed, she only longed for more sons to battle for their country ! There, that is patriotism enough for you ! Before we separated the General asked me to call and see his mother, and said the acquaintance should not end for any fault of his! I thanked him in your stead, and said, "My husband is greatly indebted to you for his wife's comfort and pleasure of this journey." He will call here, if possible, but has but a few days three or four and then must go back to duty. He is about forty-five, " a real Western man," he affirms, though so much to and from Philadel- phia, visiting his mother and old-home relations. His wife is a member of Dr. Neville's congregation. They have no church near them, but she can never lose her attachment to her church. He was so simple and unobtrusive in manner, and yet so interesting and entertaining. Was it not pleasant for me ! His home is an hour and a half's ride from St. Louis, and we are to call on our way to uncle W 's. The oddest part of the coincidence is, that when I came to tell John about him, it proves that John's most intimate friend's wife and General E 's wife are sisters. So John will call on him this evening, if possible. His mother is a sister of Colonel Davenport's widow, "superior family," sister says. But about the journey. We did not get to Pittsburg till 9 o'clock ; "missed connection ;" had to go to a hotel and wait till 3 o'clock in the morning. But the four hours' rest was so refreshing to me. Here the General was so pleasant, getting the room, selecting his 9 130 MOUNTAIN SCENERY. own near, that we might feel his protection, if we needed any- thing ; going with us to our door, and calling for us next morn- ing ; showing H. how to pay his bill, and learn to be "escort to a lady," in such a fatherly way. I was so glad we missed connection ; this gave us the mountain scenery by daylight. Ah, I cannot make you know how my eyes feasted on the glorious sight. It rained, forcing down the clouds upon the valleys, hung the mountain -tops with fleecy mist, then dim sunshine painted the clouds above. You must see to under- stand what we enjoyed ! From Harrisburg we had sunshine spreading such beauty over the farming landscape. How H. en- joyed the sight of the "great barns," " big rivers, bridges," etc. ! September 25, ... Yesterday we all took tea with cousin Thomas Hayes. How I wanted thee with me, to see the pretty Quaker cap on a young cousin, Elizabeth Hulme, invited to meet us. We are invited to take tea with her next "third day." BURLINGTON, October 5, 1863. I wished so much to write to you on Saturday, but it was impos- sible in daylight, and I do not use my eyes after. There is so much I shall have to leave to tell " face to face," you are so constantly in my thoughts. When going about old Brookfield, how, how I longed for your presence, to cheer and comfort, under the tide of sad recollections ! The day proved cold and drizzling ; everything seemed in unison. The cloud that fell over the beautiful country home, when our beloved father was borne away, lingers as on that day. The lawn has been beautified in these years ; shrubbery grown, and vines planted by my own hand. Honeysuckles have climbed to the chamber windows, and the ivy to the roof. A hand- some tenement- house stands near " Caroline's kitchen j" but the lady owner met us in mournful dress and tearful eyes, with almost the first words, " Oh, how we want to sell, Mrs. Platt ! we have known so much sorrow I cannot stay." Three times death has entered. So, like our family and Dudley Tyng's, they had found the pressure of sorrow obliging them to leave. H. seemed much interested, went by himself, tell N. , to the spring-house, where she watched the butter- making, and all over the great barn, with its " marble sills," etc. BURLINGTON SO LITTLE CHANGED. 13! How beautiful is this dear old place, Burlington, with its great shade-trees and quiet homes ! How I wish you were with me to enjoy the greetings ! Everybody exclaims, " How well you look !" I do believe they think my husband the best care-taker in the world. Indeed, dearest, I am very much better ; every day, for the past week, seemed to add to my strength. Oh, I do so hope to come back and be well enough to pay, in some measure, for all the sacrifice you now make. BURLINGTON, October 12, 1863. If you do not write often, your letters are worth so much when they do come ! Many thanks for yours of 4th, nine long pages. [Here she writes about Rev. Mr. Noakes' coming to Delaware, and describes his family. Suggests to call Mr. Ufford.] How I long to see thee again ! sometimes almost impatient, and want to hurry through the rest of my visit. But it would be a pity not to try to see all who are expecting to see me. You cannot imagine how much pleasure this visit gives. I tell them there is quite a sunny side to staying away so long. And these sixteen years have really passed more lightly over me than any one per- son I have met! (So much in praise of my husband's care.) Notwithstanding all that has been heard of the cares, reverses, and vexations of " Jeanette Hulme's" married life, "out in the West," I hear not one word of all this now. I am surprised to hear all the astonishment expressed at my appearance, "so little changed !" (of course you know that means compared with other people.) Poor John's delight is really childish to have me with him again; and no "body about" makes it seem to him "like old times." I have several times bowed to persons (gentlemen, old faces, remember), and they have given a bewildered look, and returned, "Good-morning, Miss Hulme!" Saturday evening we took tea with an old friend, and she said, " Put down the curls, and we have her just the same as twenty years ago." Now, I have given you all this nonsense just because it is about your wife, and that you may know she has much improved in health by all your privations in sparing her How does poor M. get on with no mother? And E., is she most tired out ? 1 32 VACANT CHAIRS. PHILADKLPHIA, October 23d, 1863. We returned from Pennsylvania to Burlington yesterday, and found yours of Sunday waiting me. Many thanks for its cheer- ful, bright strain, which cheered me so much about home. It does seem so dreadful for a mother to be so far from such a wee, wee baby, as our darling. I sometimes feel I cannot stay from her another moment. . . . . Is it worth while to inquire the price of carpets in Philadelphia, or can we get along without any, even if we do move? Darling husband, I think I "hate" a bare floor, ugly house, and shabby furniture, as much as any one can ; yet, so sure am I these things have nothing to do with happiness, I can be thankful, most thankful, without them, and look back and know, " for richer, for poorer, for better, for worse," my lot has been a blessed one with thee. I cannot make you understand how this has been again and again impressed upon me, as I have gone from house to house of these cousins. I believe there is not one fireside that has no vacant chair, no home that death has not entered ; and I hear the same story from each, and see the quivering lip and tearful' eye of agony. Almost all of these young cousins have beautiful homes of their own, but what care I for this? Would I exchange our unbroken band for houses, or lands, or anything^earth can give? God has blessed my married life above all others I have seen here, though He has withheld wealth. WEST PHILADELPHIA, November 7, 1863. What a letter was yours of the 4th, so full of comfort and en- couragement ! Just every word I needed better than a thousand "doctors." I have been quiet and resting all the week, and am much better. It was all "over-tax" of strength not fully estab- lished. Your bright, patient, loving letter, will complete the cure. I trust I will not " fix the day" as you say, "Do not" but hope to see you the last of next week Aunt Price sends her "love," and says, " Tell him he is the second best husband ever was." How they all want to see you ! [She returned home Saturday, November i4th, "looking well, but has not recovered her nervous strength," as my journal has it.] HOSPITALITY. 133 XIV. "Every wise woman buildeth her house. She openeth her mouth with wisdom, and in her tongue is the law of kindness." A hospitable house Death of her husband's mother Letters to her daughter E. Her husband Rev. Dr. Damon Not a Yankee woman born to com- mand Numerous household duties, sixteen knees and one hundred toes To her son H., on the importance of a Godly life To S. C. D. Model friendship, warm, pure, and true Visit from Samuel Damon Letter to Brother John Floating island Pictures of her children Not "book chil- dren" A happy family Views of dancing To Rev. S. C. D. Her daughter E. in New York A happy Christmas Attention to Mr. P y He be- comes interested in the P. E. Church Gift of a Prayer Book Birthday letter to her daughter E. Delightful visit from Rev. Dr. Damon, wife, and son, and Rev. Dr. Canfield To L. E. S. Matrimony Mistakes and missteps Happiness not the great object of life A fearful venture No true union of hearts and hands without God's blessing. September, 1864, to January, 1872. MRS. PLATT'S house was ever the home of hospitality, and was not long at a time without one or more guests either her own or her children's friends. She used to say she would much rather entertain than visit her friends. Nothing seemed to give her more real pleasure than to have a house full of guests. Her inexhaustible fund of conversation, her genuine kindness of heart, and her skill in directing all matters pertaining to the culinary art, made it easy on her part, and pleasant and agreeable to her friends to be enter- tained by her. During the spring, summer, and fall of this year, she had abund- ant opportunity for the exercise of these gifts and the enjoyment of this privilege, as she regarded it, by entertaining rather an unusual number of her old friends of former days. There was a continuous succession of beloved relatives, dear friends, and valued acquaintances throughout the entire season. Among others, the Rev. E. W. S., who had but recently returned from his mission in China, in whom and his work Mrs. Platt felt 134 TI *E CHRISTIAN'S HOME. a special interest, and also because he was godfather to one of her daughters. These numerous visits made this an unusually busy summer with Mrs. Platt, and left her but little time for letter writing. FROM A LETTER TO HER DAUGHTER E., while on a visit at Lancaster, Ohio, September 27, 1864. . . You will go out to Mt. Pleasant, and stand where your mother did when a young girl, and thought the view so beau- tiful. All my young companions of that walk are gone from earth, I suppose Would you like to write to H., and tell him of the confirmation, and your wishes for yourself and your brother? I merely suggest this, darling; do not think you ought to do it unless you feel like it. I hope and pray, and do believe your decision will be blessed to H. and F., though we may not immediately see the good. Let us pray for them. No prayer is in vain it is always answered, though not always in our own way, in our time. How did you spend your Sunday? We had two such good ser- mons; in the morning from "There remaineth, therefore, a rest to the people of God." He said, " No face should wear so bright a smile; no step should be so elastic as the Christian's, who walks with such a hope before him." What if he does have "fears within and foes without?" What nerves the soldier in battle, the mariner in tempest, but the hope of rest and peace at last? The weakest, feeblest child of God has Home and Rest secured to him; his Saviour's gift, bought for him by His precious blood. ON THE DEATH OF HER HUSBAND'S MOTHER, MRS. HARRIET LAMB. DELAWARE, O., Sept. 26, 1865. DEAREST SISTER: You have been wanting to hear from me, I know, since the few lines before the funeral, but it has seemed as if I had no heart to write. This providence has seemed to come so very near us ; Jesus passed by. It has seemed as if we might touch the hem of His garment, and He healed and strengthened and blessed as never A FELT LOSS. 135 before; as if we must listen, must consider, must hear, " Arise, for this is not your rest." Not an afflictive bereavement; oh, no; there is too much to bless His holy name for; but a very sorrowful one; a sad, sad loss that it would not be right to be insensible over. The whole of her sickness and death, the whole of her chequered pilgrim-way as it is now laid open before us, seemed to take us with her to the very confines of the " Border Land," so that we must cry, "My Father, the chariots of Israel and the horsemen thereof!" Oh, as with the Prophet of old, we were permitted to "see" so much, so may a "double portion" of her spirit be upon us evermore. May we henceforth look up continually to " The Hills whence cometh our strength;" and in the full belief, "I am a stranger with Thee, and a sojourner as all my fathers were." All my well-springs are in Thee. Wean us from what is perishable, and as prop after prop which has blessed and gladdened our pilgrimage falls, oh may we more and more "dwell in the secret place of the Most High, and abide under the shadow of the Almighty." Here no continuing city, journeying unto the place of which the Lord hath said, "I will give it you." I have felt this loss as never a loss before ; not stunning and overwhelming as when one of our own dear parents was taken, but a sense of loss. Then, we were all together; now I am away from you all, alone on the "Ocean of life." In myself so weak, so helpless, so utterly incapable of the great charge given me the leading and guiding these eight immortal beings. Oh, it is a sad, sad loss to lose her ceaseless prayers for me and mine, and that interest that is so akin to a mother's, that love that seems so like the same, which only a grandmother can give. This summer she has been more than ever to us all. I fully believe she acted under the sense that she was living her last days, and doing her last work for us. Pages could not tell you of all the beautiful little acts that in this light are now seen. So touching and so tender was her interest in dear H. when he went into the country; such constant questions and counsel given' about him. I was impressed at the time, and said to his father, "Grandma seems somehow to look back and put H. in your place when you went out to meet the world at fourteen years of age. H. is all the time on her heart." And again and again she made errands to see me just to say she 136 GRANDMOTHER'S BLESSING. "feared N. was getting discouraged about going east to school;" would not I try to help her keep in courage ; better days would come, etc. etc. I am so glad she took this little one in her arms, and she too has had a grandmother's blessing. All her papers and letters had been looked over, arranged, and marked, "read Jan. 1865." Her three volumes of journals memorandums, she called them from 1828 to within four days of her death, had been all read over last Dec. (31), when she adds: "Sat. 3ist. Clear and cold. The last day of the year. When I look back upon the past year, I see much to be thankful for. My Heavenly Father has seen fit to afflict, has taken from me my eldest sister by death, and I have been brought low by sickness, near death to all human appearances, but God in mercy spared me and crowned me with blessings, so mercifully sparing my children, and so mercifully pro- viding for them. I have attended church thirty- eight times, have read many excellent books; many favors and blessings has He bestowed. I desire this night to record my thankfulness and gratitude to my Heavenly Father for every blessing to me and my children. Oh, may we all begin the new year with an humble dependence on His love, trusting in His mercy and goodness for time and eternity. Amen. Have read my Bible through by course (precious Bible), and have read 3030 pages of other reading. Saturday evening, loP. M., 1864." "1865, Sunday morning. Clear and cold. Attended church, but, oh, the disappointment ! was taken ill and helped out of church. My poor shattered frame seems tottering. May my Heavenly Father spare me for every event of His Providence." The remainder of the letter lost. [She died on Monday, Sept. 4th, at 3 o'clock P. M.] GRACIOUS PROTECTION. 137 TO HER HUSBAND, while on a business trip in New York, Philadelphia, and thence to West Virginia. DELAWARE, November 16, 1865. You do not know how I did reproach myself for falling asleep just as the omnibus came for you last night. The same heart, but not quite the same body as eighteen years ago ! H. and 1 awoke quite early, and had a pleasant little chat about " father." I think he is very much interested and anxious to do in your absence all he can for you in every way. I hope we shall yet have uncommon help and comfort in our boy, notwithstanding all our oft misgivings and sense of our own infirmities. The knowledge of our weakness as parents ought only to bring a bless- ing, for "when we are weak, then are we strong" "in the Lord and in the power of His might." Saying good-bye, and locking the door, did not awaken H. How we have followed you! "The angel of the Lord encampeth round about them that fear Him, and delivereth them." Unto His gracious protection we daily commend you. You are safe under his eye, and ever remember "the eye of the Lord is ever upon them who fear Him." " The veil of night is no disguise, To screen from Thy all-searching eyes; Through midnight shades Thou find'st Thy way, As in the blazing noon of day." So we followed you in your night journeys, feeling you were safe in His holy keeping. May His peace be with you, and save you from all anxiety and fear. You will be glad to know we have had prayers this morning. I asked H. if he could not take your place, but "he thought he could not read well enough." I said, then, "but do not you think we ought to have prayers in father's absence?" "Oh, yes," he promptly replied, "certainly." So I took your place. 138 TRUE PROSPERITY. TO HER HUSBAND. DELAWARE, November 17, 1865. " He bids His angels pitch their tents Round where His children dwell ; What ills their heavenly care prevents No earthly tongue can tell." So it must have been "all for the best" that you were detained at Dunkirk Business has been dull ; but never mind ; he has the best pros- perity who rightly enjoys just that success God sends him. "The silver and the gold are mine," He declares. Can He not bestow it just where He pleases? "No good thing does He withhold from them that walk uprightly." So, if wordly prosperity is with- held from us, it must be that it would be an ill to us, and some way a hindrance to us or our children, in the struggle on toward the Heavenly Home. November 29, 1865. BELOVED HUSBAND: Your long, most welcome letter from Baltimore came to-day. How my heart goes with you! "God bless and keep my precious husband!" is ever the prayer. How He has kept you thus far! I know well how much this separation from home has cost you. I could cry over your letter of to-day, so keenly can I feel for you. But with you, I do truly feel you must be "only in the line of duty," and your present steps "ordered by the Lord." But I cannot bear to hear of the "ten days more of absence." I, too, should praise the merciful loving-kindness that has softened your absence by causing the voice of joy and health to continue in our household. "To His watchful providence we owe it." la it not only an answer to your prayers that doubtless have gone up un- ceasingly for us? Day by day do we implore, in particular, grace and protection for the beloved absent member of our household. "Direct him in all his ways; defend him from all dangers and adversities; and prosper the work of his hands in the business before him, according to Thy holy will." This is our prayer for you, beloved husband. I hope your mind will be easy about your NOT A YANKEE WOMAN. 139 business. Ever remember what a Father we have to trust in. How safe, if He is graciously pleased to take us and all things belonging to us, under His fatherly care and protection. God will "prosper your way," will grant success or disappointment, as He knows best for us all I am so sorry you had such a cold, forlorn time in old Baltimore. I do not think it a sunny place. It seems, in recollection of "eighteen years ago," a mazy, bewildered sort of city. I would not go back and be the bride of eighteen years ago, rather than the wife of eighteen years, with all their cares and changes. How have these eighteen years tried, tested,, proved the companion, then so new and strange by my side ! How eighteen times dearer is he ! TO REV. S. C. DAMON, Honolulu. DELAWARE, March 5J 1866. MY DEAR FRIEND: One, two, three letters of July, September, and November from you, and not one word of answer written ! But who can tell the unwritten, winged thoughts that have gone to your sunny isle? Just by my side is the sole cause of my silence, wee Clara Thomp- son, sleeping in her crib. I never can do anything with a baby in my arms. You must ever remember / am not a Yankee woman, with the faculty to marshal duties about her, and command her forces so that every duty has its true place, and nothing is left un- done that ought to be done. Some women are born generals for family government, and how splendidly they can rule and reign in their sphere! But alas! that is not /. While I have profound admiration and respect for such, I might as well wish I were the glorious sun, or the gentle moon, or some bright particular star, as to covet their great gift. My duties out-general me completely. Some creep out of sight, and are day by day among the things "left undone that ought to be done." Now this cannot be the sixteen elbows that must be kept in, sixteen knees that must not be let out, or the eighty, no, one hundred, toes that must be covered, etc. etc. So it comes that sisters grieve, and cousin* scold, and friends far over the waters wonder, "Why does not Jeanette write?" With the thermometer marking 11, 12, 15 below zero, it is easy to see what duties must be done. 140 FIFTIETH BIRTHDAY. Do you know I celebrated (or the children did) my fiftieth birth- day last week? Now make just as much as you possibly can out of Miss Smith's* romance-description ; I am delighted with it. "'Tis distance lends enchantment to the view;" I am sure not a word of mine shall dispel this enchantment. It is so pleasant to be looked at through her kind, partial eyes. I wonder she could see I was "short and rather stout." Never mind, dear old friend, I guess you and I will know each other even if all Miss Smith's en- chantment falls away, and only a little old lady " short and stout," with spectacles and silver hair, stands before you when we meet face to face. Shall that ever be here? The Honolulu Bishop causes ecclesiastical breezes in our beloved church, but I am like the famed bird that seeks to bury her head, and so, of course, I know nothing about these things. If I did, they should not get into my letters to you. They who may next meet in the "happy land," where there are no differences, surely need not fall out by the way, with the great ocean between them. "One faith, one Lord, one baptism," that is enough for common ground between us. TO H. P. MY DEAR SON: As I read the verse of my " Daily Food," this morning, you were so before my mind. It is this, "Whosoever shall confess me before men, him will I confess before my Father which is in heaven." Now, why do not you decide to be on the Lord's side, and "openly renew the solemn promise and vow that was made for you" when a helpless infant you were consecrated to God, and thus confess your Saviour before men, so that at the last great day He will also confess you before His Father and the holy angels? Surely you are not too young? You are not ready? Ah, when will you be more ready? When you are yet nearer manhood? Will you be any nearer God then? God calls you now. The church calls you now. And here your feeble mother's voice calls you to come, "for all things are ready." "Just as you are, without one plea." You can never make yourself better. You * From the Sandwich Islands, she visited friends in Delaware, where Mrs. Platt met her. TO H. P. GODLY COUNSEL. 141 can never be more ready. My dear boy, the Bishop's visit is a call from God. A call to you. Oh, ask God to help you decide. He never turned away His gracious ear from the feeblest, faintest, cry to Him for help. Say -'Lord, help me to see and do my duty; help me to obey Thy call; wash me and make me clean, and give to me Thy Holy Spirit." Long has that blessed Spirit waited at the door of your heart. Many, many times has he spoken in that "still small voice/' "My son, give me thy heart." Oh, listen and follow now as you will wish you had done when you come to die. If God spares you to a long life, yet the hour of death will soon come. Then you may look back to this very period of your early youth as the most important moments of your whole life when God set before you Life and Death, and your choice was made forever. God will help you. He spared not His own Son, but freely gave Him to die for the chief of sinners. How .He loves you, and longs to take you to His love, and make you truly His own child ! Only be willing; that is all that you can do. Pray to Him in your own room: pray to Him as you "walk by the way;" pray to Him when about your daily work, "Lord, make me to hear and follow Thee." You do not need to seek counsel of any earthly friend. God will hear and teach you Himself, and enable you to now so choose Him that "you may continue His forever, and daily increase in His Holy Spirit more and more until you come unto His everlast- ing kingdom." MOTHER. To MY BELOVED SON H. 21 March, 1866. TO REV. DR. DAMON. DELAWARE, OHIO, Sunday Afternoon, Jan. 6, 1867. MY DEAR OLD FRIEND: God has placed dear, loving, sympathizing companions along our pathway, that we may help each other ; and truly it does, as you say, "serve to rest burdens and lift clouds," to sit down and hold converse with them. Distance and time cannot les- sen true friendship ; this is not more trite than true. I also believe people do not jostle together and become friends by 142 S. C. D. MODEL FRIENDSHIP. accident. I do love to look back and see His ruling hand in the sweet friendships of my chequered life, always remembering with thankfulness my old friend, "S. C. D." From their ear- liest years my children have heard me speak of this friend of my youth. They are pleased to call it " mother's model friend- ship." Well it is a boon I ask for each of them^ that God will give them just such a friend. Somehow I fancy the present gen- eration cannot find any such friendships warm, pure, and true all the more unselfish and uncommon, because it was without one tinge of "love." My beloved husband and your dear wife can go back and enjoy with us this old friendship of our youth. I say such friendships are rare. I wish S. (Mr. Damon's 'eldest son) had asked me "what kind of relations we are to each other?" I like to answer that question, and am never daunted by the knowing smile that comes to the listener's face. It only proves what I said, that young folks now-a days cannot understand or appreciate such friendships. Perhaps there will never be another " S. C. D.," or " J. H. ;" I guess not. How much we all did enjoy S.'s visit ! The children caught the cousinly feeling at the first sight of him. They feel that they shall meet again. I know that he will never come to the States without looking up these " doubtful cousins," as he may consider them. I could not be with him and enjoy his society as I could wish, because my precious babe was so feeble, demanding every thought, filling every moment with such care and sadness, as I can never make you know by words. Only some such experience can show the sorrows, the anxiety, the anguish of my heart over that pre- cious baby's life ! She was never well, never grew, never held up her head, or sat up for a moment ; but lay upon my lap for near thir- teen months, with her tiny hands clasped, as her little sister said, "as if always praying to God." Beautiful folded flower, not to open here, but to bloom and expand in the Paradise of God. "The Lord gave," and I bless Him for His gift. Her feeble, suffering life, only for a moment, had a mission. I trust its sorrows did draw her mother's heart nearer, and yet nearer the one great Sympa- thizer, a link most sweet and blessed. I look back now and wonder how I lived those thirteen months, only as I know His grace was sufficient, and I bless Him for that gift. The Lord gave, the Lord hath taken ; blessed be indeed His holy name. Oh, how TO S. DAMON. 143 unceasingly do I rejoice over our tender, helpless lamb, now in the Good Shepherd's bosom. And her precious, beautiful death, with all the household band around her, was made a blessed call to one of the number. "Seek ye my face;" to which his heart, through grace, then responded, "Thy face, Lord, will I seek." TO SAMUEL DAMON, SON OF THE REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, OHIO, January 26, 1867. MY DEAR SAMUEL : It seems but the other day since you were with us, and that you may flit back any day. These cousins will ever remember your most pleasant visit, How much you lost in not getting home for the "silver wedding!" My first thought was, "Samuel is not home yet." The account was so pleasantly given, so vivid, we could see it all, and do most heartily join in the kind greetings and best wishes to the honored pair. What a store of shining tokens was showered upon them ! Not more numerous, I trust, than their bright, happy days to come. What fine times you and Miss Smith must have in comparing notes of travel over the States ! Please give our love to her ; I hoped to see her relatives here, and ask them for any word for her, but we have been almost snow-bound for several weeks. If you were here now we could give you a taste of one of our sports I guess you cannot enjoy at home, sleighing, sledding, skating, and snow-balling. All over our country there has been more snow than usual, as doubtless you see by the papers. Cousin James, at Williams College, tells us the folks thereabouts have been truly snow-bound, the drifts ten feet high in some places. Your next visit must be in winter. Before the snow the girls and boys had good skating on our river. The mill-pond makes a beautiful skating spot. All the cousins mounted skates but little M , and father and mother often joined them as lookers-on. I said that was the only thing that made me feel I thought I had lost by being young so many years ago. Girls did not skate then ; I should so have enjoyed that sport. This remark gives the children a look of doubt, but I tell them I was not always such a " fat little woman." N , F , J , H , and F are all in school. 144 NOT A PERFECT MOTHER. Little M is my constant companion. She says she is in the First Reader, and is making a quilt. Cousin F , "the black- eyed charmer," is quite well. She passed the holidays in Cincin- nati with a young friend, on one of those beautiful hills you re- member about that city. She is truly as lovely in mind and heart as she looks, and that is saying a good deal, is it not ? The dinner-bell summons me. TO HER BROTHER JOHN HULME. Sunday next before Easter, April 14, 1867. MY DEAR BROTHER: We had "Floating Island" for dinner, and I always call that "Uncle John's dish." We said we wished you could come in and take dinner every Sunday with us, and I laughingly added, "I suppose that is just about as often and as much as he can stand the children" for you must always bear in mind my children are by no manner of means book children, though the youngest wee one can, and at this very moment is saying over the catechism as nicely, almost as if she were fifteen years old, instead, of only five, a month ago. I do think you would love them all, yet often be sorely vexed and annoyed with them too. Perfect children have perfect moth- ers. That is what your sister is not. Only think, you have never seen this little M. ! I wish you were sitting with me now, and the door open for you to hear her and her father with the catechism. She is always full of delight when her "turn" comes, and really learns readily. She is such a wee slight child, I often look at her and try to feel the loan may not be for many years. F. , the boy you wished "thrown out of the window," is a grand little fellow, as frank and generous by nature as his name implies. His mother's special admiration, as you can see. Then comes H., which should be J., for here is the mother all over again. An easy, careless, good natured, unambitious child, just as content at the bottom as at the head of her class. How often she reminds me of my school days at James Taylor's school in the "old Academy," with "M., Lottie," and all the other girls above me, and dear Martha, the youngest, at their head, and I as RICHES NOT THE BEST BOON. 145 happy and unconcerned as a butterfly. I do not worry about the ignorant little thing, knowing life may have many sober days for her yet, and some girls do get along without knowing anything scarcely. But above her is Miss J., by name but no real "Jeanette" in her. I guess, the prettiest and brightest and may be you would say the worst of the family, with a strong, mighty will for good or evil, and about as comfortable for me to undertake to rear and train as it would be easy for a mouse to "raise" an elephant. Yet she is a wonderful child to depend upon and take comfort in, I assure you when she pleases to be "a good girl." F. is "Uncle John," and has developed his musical talents. Just out of babyhood he could keep "time" on a drum most won- derfully, if it deafen his hearers. An old violin fell into his hands, and now he is taking a few lessons, "the best player in town!" and music is the talent of this town. I should observe that this new stranger teacher is very anxious to get a class, and can promise much more, I guess, than he can perform. You have drawn "The Admiral." Dear boy, I ask no "promo- tion" for him but the honor that cometh from above. That God may bless and keep him, and "deliver him from evil," and fit him for His work, whatever that may be. We were so much pleased and obliged for your kind interest and nice talk with the Bishop about Annapolis, etc. How I do wish you could run down to that old city and see H. Mr. P. 's description of the old houses, quiet streets, old church and church ways, made me think it must be like Burlington some. In this very letter I would put a note big enough to take you there, if . Ah, what an "if" that is! It keeps us out of a new house a piano for the girls, which they want "so much" "a pony carriage for father" and a host of other things useless to mention. Yet with this great "if" always about us, tell me where there is a happier family? more richly blessed than we? Riches is not the best boon man can have; some men can afford to be made rich nit does not ruin or hinder their pilgrim march. But we must know by this time that riches would not do for us. I mean you and me, dear brother, our family. He has withheld it, and hedged us up from it on every side, seemingly, so that it can never come to us. Why is it? "No good thing will he with- 10 146 OBERLIN RECTORY. hold," we are expressly told. Why is it? Why but that riches, more or less, would be "no good thing," but an evil for us. Ah, that Father's love we cannot doubt, never never never. There" is a little book I want you to get and carefully read for my sake because I like it so much "Goulburn's Thoughts on Personal Religion." Do get it. What a long scribbling ! I wonder if you will have patience, and can read it. What did I give you all these nieces' and nephews' pictures for? I am sure I do not know. May be it was to let you see how rich a man you really are. Who can tell how many comfortable firesides, with easy chairs, gown, and slippers, may await "Uncle John"? Then only more and more "trust and not be afraid." Your loving sister, JEANETTE. You see I do not name niece N. with the other children. She has slipped away from childhood almost through girlhood into woman- hood still a very busy school girl, but old enough and c6mpanion- able for any Uncle John. With her husband and youngest child she went to Cleveland to attend the Diocesan Convention, stopping at Oberlin, to visit the family of Rev. W. C. F , from where this letter to her daughter E. was written : OBERLIN RECTORY, June 2, 1867. DEAREST DAUGHTER: I dare say everything is doing well at home. I never can doubt your real heartfelt interest, if you do seem to forget for a moment sometimes. One reason for this is, that God made your childhood so full of heavy care in helping a weak mother in so many ways, with the very sweetest consideration. I can truly say this, and do fervently pray your future, even down to good old age. if God spares you, may be full of the richest blessing of Him who has said, " It is good for a man to bear the yoke in his youth." What a delightful home this is ! Father and I are enjoying every moment of our visit At Wellington we stopped a few moments to see the B.'s. P. was dressing, but came out at once VIEWS OF DANCING. 147 to greet us, with the hearty exclamation, "You darling woman, how glad I am to see you !" . . . The eight-mile stage ride was shortened by a talk with an old man who used to attend Mr. French's church, now living in Mis- souri. He spoke very highly of Mr. French. Mrs. F. and Fanny met us with the warmest welcome. The little girls came running after them down the walk, the picture of health. What a sweet spot this church and rectory is ; all my anticipa- tions are more than realized in everything. S. is at home, and goes to Convention to help his father. He is a fine-looking, manly boy. I like W. very much, such a good, true, intelligent boy, seventeen last March. F. is not fifteen yet. I like her much, too ; indeed I like them all. HER VIEWS OF DANCING, AS EXPRESSED IN A LETTER TO HER DAUGHTER E. DELAWARE, OHIO, August 14, 1867. MY DEAR DAUGHTER: I have thought much, and I hope prayerfully, about your danc- ing, since our last conversation, when you said you had thought the whole matter over, and could go from your closet asking God's presence in a dancing party, and that you did not think it wrong for you to dance. You added, "I want to do what is right, and wish to know my duty." Now, if this is honest, and you really desire to know your duty, as I believe you do, then you will be surely guided. No one ever yet asked wisdom of Him who giveth, upbraiding not, and his petition was not heard. No one ever asked, " Lord, teach me," but he was surely directed, and shown the right way. After you had told me you had come to the above conclusion, " having thought the whole matter over," on the afternoon of the day, when by faith you had looked again upon the death and pas- sion of our Saviour, Christ, who did humble Himself, even to the death upon the cross, for us miserable sinners, who lay in darkness and the shadow of death, that He might make us children of God, and exalt us to everlasting life, your words seemed impossible, and most deeply pained me, coming from my own child, one whom I had prayed for and sought to influence aright from her earliest 148 OPPOSED TO DANCING. years. How imperfect, vain, useless all my mother-life for her ! In bitterness of heart I could say, "As well, perhaps, for her, if she had been these nineteen years without this mother." But I have been comforted. At the "great day" of reckoning, when our own stewardship is given up, it may be remembered, not what I have done, but what I sought to do for my children. In looking back to that Sunday afternoon of "thought over the whole matter," I must speak plainly, my dear daughter, and say, the subject was not properly "thought over," with your Bible on your knees, the only true way to go to God for His blessing and guidance. Your heart can answer, you had no opportunity nor was time sought to thus think over your duty; that afternoon was spent with , who has been taught opposite views from your mother and pastor, hearing her views, and being strengthened in what you hoped was right ; was this seeking to learn your duty from God ? I did think I would leave you henceforth to the Great Teacher, and never allude to this subject again ; but father and I, after pray- erful consideration, decided that our duty requires us to request you not to dance. We ask that this amusement may be laid aside, cheerfully, we hope, for our sakes, in respect to -our principles, which we cannot give up; only for so long as we shall live, or you shall live with us. It cannot be very long before we shall be done with our counsel, and you are free to follow your own wishes. We may be wrong. Another generation wiser and better may see that these convictions of ours are but old-fashioned notions, and not the will of the Lord. It would be much easier now to. think this and yield to my chil- dren's wishes but I cannot. From my childhood I have been taught to believe that dancing was an amusement that belonged to the world's people, and was renounced in Baptism for our children as of the "vain pomp and glory of the world." Such a little cross to take up for Jesus' sake ! For Him who gave His life a ransom. " As by the light of opening day, The stars are all concealed ; So earthly pleasures fade away, When Jesus is revealed." Defend, O Lord, Thy servant with Thy heavenly grace, that she may continue Thine forever, and daily increase in Thy Holy Spirit more and more until she come into Thy everlasting Kingdom. LIFTS AND HELPS. 149 TO HER HUSBAND IN NEW YORK. October 8, 1867. We are getting on surprisingly. I am almost rested. Many little "lifts" and "helps" have come to me in a nice visit on Sat- urday evening from Mrs. K. , and the call on Hattie G., a chat in the street with M. L. and Mrs. T., and a call yesterday upon Mrs. R. She was at my side at the ' Lord's Table" on Sunday, and I felt drawn to tell her how glad I was she was able to get out. She spoke so feelingly of the little book "Loving Clmst" I had given her, and said I could not know how much good that book had done. She had loaned it first to Mrs. C., then to that poor lingering sick youth D., who read it, sent it back, and then went again for it, saying he wanted to commit some of it to memory. I told her he shall have it, and I would get her another. So will you please go to the A. T. S. and get some and send at once, as Mrs. R. goes on her journey soon. And, then, can't you get me a copy of "Words of Jesus" for her? Buy it as a thank-offering for a safe journey, and send it with the others. [A few days previous to the date of this letter her husband had gone to New York, taking with him their daughter E., who remained from home one year.] TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, O., Sunday Afternoon, Nov. 3, 1867. MY DEAR OLD FRIEND: I have not " waited a year before answering your scrap," as you asked that I would not, but much longer than I wished, I assure you; for I laid down yours of June z6th with the intention of writing immediately. All these months have passed, and now I am daring to take holy time in talking with you. Won't you listen? Suppose you have gone into your study for an hour of rest between the day's labors, and I have come in unbidden and seated myself at your table by you, determined for a talk, would you turn me out? For years I thought it very wrong to write a letter on Sunday. Do I now love and honor the day less? I hope not. I often write letters now to my dear absent children or hus- band when from home, and feel this is not wrong in His sight who 150 HILLTOP THE OTHER SIDE. made the day for man. "Sunday letters," I tell the children, and always try to make them such; just as we should hold Sunday talk if together. Now, if with you to-day, I think the very first thing I should tell you would be why I had not written before. I have been in the kitchen all summer more than at my writing-table. A good ser- vant who had been for years with us in that department, went to be with an invalid mother, and we could fill her place only with a "Topsy" of eleven years. I have written scarcely to my sisters. Our Mary comes back next week, so you may answer this imme- diately, and hope for a reply. I have never lost sight of you, if I have said nothing; and there is always special remembrance on the holy day that the Lord will refresh you and yours with His grace, and abundantly own and bless your labor of love "making request with joy." Partakers of the common salvation is a living bond time and distance touch not. I do not know how it is with you, but I feel that / have reached the hilltop, and am going down the other side. May be you are only on the top, you speak of such unbroken health and vigor. So I want to tell you this side of the hill is just as pleasant as the other. Morning has its freshness and beauty, but evening has the glory of the day; and this side of the hill has all that sunset glory. Gleams from the Golden Shore, I think it must be. I have always admired old age and everything that was its type. When we reach fifty years I think we can begin to spell out for ourselves the meaning of that period of life, and can guess its joys and sor- rows, its helps and comforts. Slow learners we are of all the les- sons of life, even under such a Teacher. Yet if He be our Master we do learn, "increase in the knowledge of Him." Ah, it is this which shortens the way, that makes the heart warmer and brighter as years increase. In youth we may believe in Him, trust Him ; but we do not know Him as in later years. When the burdens, cares, and sorrows, the sins we find in ourselves, and the imperfection in all about us, have made us lean on Him, and turn to Him for sym- pathy and help then we begin to taste the riches of His grace, as the young pilgrim never can. You see in church papers all the church news, and much to make the heart sad. "Ritualism" how sad ! But I am not turned from PRAYER BOOK APPRECIATED. 151 my faith in my church; though I would rather, much rather, turn back to Quakerism than go to Ritualism. Give my love to Samuel ; tell him he owes me a letter. He said when he became rich he should return and live in the United States; so I may expect to see him again. Indeed, I feel as if I should see you all at my fireside; if not, a little while and we meet on "the other side." TO HER DAUGHTER E., WHILE ON A VISIT TO NEW YORK. DELAWARE, Christmas week, 1867. DEAREST DAUGHTER : Every letter, with its account of your visit, has been enjoyed more than I can tell. I don't really believe you have had more pleasure than I; even your "details" paid three times for sparing you And now about our Christmas. F. and S. came Tuesday P. M., and we all went to church in the evening, even F. and M. The church was prettily dressed ; the service, of course, was perfect, and Mr. Ufford's sermon was most excellent. Mr. P came a few days before, and sat with us the preceding Sunday. On Christ- mas day he was present, and joined us in the communion. He says, that little Prayer Book I gave him after his wife's death was just what he wanted. He had never seen one before, almost all his ancestors being Congregational preachers. He had studied it with the Bible, bought another for his little son of eight years, and in the last three months, lying on his sick bed, had taught him the Creed, Confession, and Collects. In all my life I never heard such intelligent appreciation of our Prayer Book as from this man who had never seen one before, or been in an Episcopal church six months ago. It had been years since he had regularly attended the house of God, nursing his invalid wife, and not fully satisfied with the Congregational Church, of which he was a member ; but, through his wife's death, and that little Prayer Book, the Blessed Spirit has been pleased to awaken him to newness of life and fresh purposes to follow Christ. Away from any ministers or church, he learned what was expected of an Episcopalian, and began to read to his relatives (good Baptist and Presbyterian people) the daily lessons and family prayer, as ordered in the Prayer Book. I was 152 A MERRY CHRISTMAS. so glad I had never written to him one word about our Church or Prayer Book, but our letters had been touching personal religion only, for it is manifest no human influence has directly moved him; neither can I tell how I came to think of sending that little Prayer Book as a reminder of one who was so much with his departed wife, only that it was the ordering of the Lord. I felt great pity for him, but knew nothing of what I have told you when I said, "Bring Mr. , and come to church, and then come home with us and pass the rest of Christmas day." He said, " I will ;" so he joined us at dinner, and Mr. G. G., of N. Y., who is so kind to his old mother. He is not quite well, and is on a visit here. Mrs. S. came and cooked our dinner, so I could go to church comfortably. Our party only numbered seventeen to dinner. Mr. C. and Kitty, and all the G.'s, Judge M. and sister joined us at supper, making twenty-one. But F. and A. helped, and with a good cook I have had less care and a more "merry" Christmas day with the little ones. They carried the old folks with them, and you never saw games "go off" as ours did, with Dr. G., Mr. P., and your father and mother in the midst of the fun. J. and I slipped out and fixed the supper table. You know I always call it the " remnant supper," but this time it was made fresh by a splendid basket of grapes in the centre, brought by Kitty C. as her Christmas present. Mrs. I. sent over a beautiful iced citron-cake, which we highly orna- mented with red drops and bits of uncle W.'s candy gift. The cake basket was full of jelly-cake, doughnuts, citron-cake, and fruit- cake, Mrs. I. sent over ; a dish of candy, one of nuts and figs ; custard from dinner, cranberry jelly, etc. etc. ; turkey remnants, etc. The table was beautiful Harry M., too, was here. And then there was in one corner a table full of right little ones, who did so enjoy the evening. It was a very happy Christ- mas. Somehow you and dear H. did not seem quite away, but present all day; constantly before us in our prayers through all the services, and with us in the home circle too. I seemed to be able to give you both up to His holy keeping, greatly helped through sister E.'s sweet picture, which I first saw at midnight the night before. There had not been a moment all day, but as soon as the com- pany had all gone I brought the " little book," and, though it was near n o'clock, even M. stopped to hear cousin F. read it in her HONOR THE LORD. 153 rich, sweet voice. It proved too much for M., who sobbed aloud in my lap. Thank Ellen, and tell her I think the children will not forget it. The picture is full of high and holy sentiment. It is framed and hangs in our new dining-room i r P. M. Mr. P y has been here again this evening. I wish you could hear him talk about our church. Just what the Prayer Book has taught him. He seems so full of comfort and satisfaction in all he sees in her spirit and offices. "This I like about your church," said he ; " it cannot matter a rushlight who or what kind of a preacher reads your service, you can worship God just the same." Give my love to H., and a mother's best Christmas wishes. I hope, indeed I feel, that you did both meet us on that day at the Lord's table. I give you both to Him and His care, rejoicing in the assurance that "though an host should encamp against you," with God on your side, I fear no evil. TO E. WHILE VISITING RELATIVES ON LONG ISLAND. DELAWARE, O., May 4, 1868. C . Just one little verse seems to run through my mind in answer to a portion of your letter: "I would rather be a door- keeper in the House of my God than to dwell in the tents of wick- edness. " It is, no doubt, very unpleasant to go to a church a stranger "without a seat;" but it is infinitely better than to stay away. Indeed, darling, God must have some special object in these little circumstances that He has permitted now to surround your path ; some purpose of love. Now He is proving you and testing just how much His feeble Lamb cares for her Shepherd's voice, and the ordinances of His house. "He that honoreth me I will honor," declares our lesson for this morning. If you are only enabled to leave but this testimony: that God's house and law are dearer to you than any earthly good; that you would rather "be a doorkeeper" take the meanest, low- est seat in His courts than ever to be shut out and numbered with those "without." Then my dearest daughter has "Honored" Him, and He will honor that testimony by making it a blessing to those about her eternal good flowing from this visit of her twen- tieth year. 154 GRATITUDE FOR MERCIES. BIRTHDAY LETTER TO HER DAUGHTER E. IN NEW YORK. DELAWARE, O. (Aug, 9. 9th Sunday after Trinity, Aug. 9, 1868. MY OWN DEAR CHILD: I cannot make out twenty years since dear grandma first laid my tiny daughter in my arms. Twenty years ! Twenty years of mer- cies so unnumbered, so unacknowledged ! With thanksgiving would I remember the Divine loving One that has so far "brought up" my frail tender babe to woman's estate; for the pain, sorrow, and death she has escaped, for all the evil that has been kept from her; for, above all, beyond all, that I trust He has revealed Himself to her, "called her by His grace," and begun in her His own most blessed work which should be in her as the "shining light which shineth more and more unto the perfect day ;" for the blessing she has been to her mother; for the love and care, the example of patience to her brothers and sisters; for the days of weary care which her unselfish devotion and tender consideration cheered; for the "times of sickness" brightened by her presence; the bur- dened nights shared beyond her strength; for all, all she has been to us, I thank the Giver. You have been very much in our hearts, dearest daughter, on this your first birthday away from mother. When the result and meaning of all the appointments of this life shall appear, as it will one day, then may this present separation show a blessing gained ; a blessing from Him who declareth "When thy father and mother forsake thee, then the Lord will take thee up." May every lonely feeling have been made the Good Shepherd's call "come to me;" may you have learned more of that "Friend who sticketh closer than a brother," than you ever knew before; telling Jesus everything. The more frequently we go to Him, the more intimately we shall know Him; and the more intimately we know Him, the more we shall love, serve, and become like Him. Oh, whatever leads you to go more to Him, to become more inti- mately confiding with Him, is the blessing of your life. We sent a little book as a birthday token, which I hope you have received. Father said after dinner, I must write to N. Of course my full heart was ready for a word with you, as this sheet now shows. Your loving, grateful MOTHER. COUNTRY COUSINS., 155 TO HER DAUGHTER E. DELAWARE, O., August 23, 1868. nth Sunday after Trinity. How near you are brought by the collect for the day as your "weekly remembrance" comes round. Not that each child is not daily remembered; how earnestly the petition went up this morn- ing to "Him who declarest his Almighty power chiefly in showing mercy and pity," that He would grant unto our absent child such a measure of His grace, that she, running the way of His com- mandments, may obtain His gracious promises and be made par- taker of His heavenly treasures through Jesus Christ our Lord. Absent or present, this is the fulness of all we ask for each child. When I opened my portfolio, I found this little scrap "At Evening," so pretty and in harmony with your selection from "Each day a little life, fresh from the Master's hand." FROM A LETTER TO E. AND J. WHO WERE VISITING FRIENDS IN COLUMBUS. DELAWARE, December 28, 1868. . . . . It is very pleasant to think of you both as having such a grand time ; a full payment for sparing you. Tell J. I can well imagine the enjoyment of the opera music, and your mother's old song ; ' Robin Adair." That simple air brings back many years of my girlhood. Your Aunt Martha and I sang it up and down the house with hearts as young and gay as yours are now. I want you to get a great deal of gladness and cheer to bring back with you from all the bright Columbus cousins. Always claim and keep your own true ground as "the country cousins." They are not expected to know "city ways." Remem- bering this will give you ease and comfort wherever you are ease which comes from a mind unruffled and a heart at "Peace." In the month of June, 1869, Mrs. Platt had the pleasure of en- tertaining her old and warm-hearted friends, Rev. Dr. Damon and wife, with their son Frank, from Honolulu, and, at the same time, the Rev. Dr. Canfield, her brother-in-law. The mutual enjoyment afforded by this visit, the brilliant and deeply interesting conversation, the pleasant reminiscences of past 156 A MOTHER'S MEMENTO. years, the genial manners of Dr. Damon, his stories of Sandwich Island life where he had then been for some thirty years, cannot be described, but may be faintly inferred from the correspondence with him. So intense was Dr. Damon's enjoyment of this visit, that he would often jump up from his seat and walk around at a lively pace to give vent to his exuberance of feeling; his happiness seemed to be com- plete. It was indeed to them "The feast of reason and the flow of soul." BIRTHDAY LETTER TO E. AT HOME, Aug. 9, 1869. MY DEAREST DAUGHTER: In church to day your birthday came many times before me, thought going back and stretching forward twenty-one years! God has been very gracious ! The tiny babe that dear grandma said "you can scarcely hope to rear;" then the very little life began of which I so often thought, "twenty years are so long time to come, I shall not live to ever see her twenty-first birthday;" yet how very gracious has God been. It seems as if He has fulfilled all all my petitions for you! With thanks, then, for all His past, I would leave securely all the future with Him. Whether one or both "wake or sleep" when twenty-one more years shall have been numbered, the same infinite love and power and tenderness shall keep us. . "He is faithful that promised." There is One knows all my thoughts and wishes for you. I wanted to write these few words for you to put away as a little memento of mother and your birthday and this Holy communion Sunday. Our dear old honored church is just now passing through a "fiery trial" from foes within and without, and papers are tinged with the bitter controversies; but she has withstood more than this, and if her Great Head is with her, if her doctrines and usages are in accordance with His holy word, then she shall stand, even unto the end. The older I grow the more and more I love her ways; I believe no church more clearly holds forth "Jesus Christ and Him cruci- BEST TO FOLLOW DUTY. 157 fied;" and the more spiritual a mind becomes the more she is un- derstood and loved. As to Baptism. The term "regenerate" I do not care one pin am not the least interested in the matter if weak brothers are offended and stumble at its use, better take it away for them ; it can never hurt me. An old Bible and an old English word, used when the modern meaning was not attached to it. It did not then mean renovation, only a change of state or place. The Jewish children were admitted into the "old dispensation" through circumcision, our children into the "new dispensation" through baptism. I see no difference. Then and now children were made members of the visible family of God, and promises were sealed to them and made sure if they kept their part of the covenant promised for them by their sureties. TO HER HUSBAND IN NEW YORK. August 31, 1869. Yours from Canton just come ; so sorry you have had headache to trouble your visit. But better there with H. than among strangers in New York. So a loving Providence arranges all our "changes" for us, giving not one needless pain or trial. The " pitifulnes" of His love how little can we measure it ! How wholly may we trust it, and not be afraid How always best it is to follow on, step by step, in simple, plain duty, leaving God to provide for all result. TO H. P. IN MICHIGAN. DELAWARE, Easter Evening, April 9, 1871. MY DEAR H. : We followed you, and fixed you in Jonesville, and hope soon, very soon, to hear from you I was going to say I was anxious to know all about the final arrangements you and Gen- eral G. made. But I cannot be anxious, " remembering the spar- rows," as Miss L. M. says. Just look at it: "Are not five spar- rows sold for two farthings ? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God. 'Ye are of more value than many sparrows." Noth- 158 SPARROW DOCTRINE. ing, then, that touches the life of an immortal being can be unno- ticed, uncared for, by the one "our Father." This is simply im- possible ; so, my dear boy, I know God cares for you ; that He is "about your path and about your bed," your never-failing Guardian and Guide. Through all the various propositions that have lately perplexed us, to know what was best for you, the one only prayer has been, " Lead him just where Thou wilt be nearest to him, to keep him from evil !" J. has just come in with N. and says, " Do tell him to write to me," and so you must. Always remember father, and I will give way for letters between you children. We want you all to be very much to each other, and, as a family, to stand by each other through all the long years to come, when we are gone. Your loving MOTHER. TO L. E. S. "HAPPY NEW YEAR." DELAWARE, OHIO, June 2, 1872. MY DEAR FRIEND : I must call you that ; what else can I say of one God has led so close to my lonely brother's life, bringing such freshness and pleasant intercourse to him ? Having such faith in the "sparrow doctrine," as I call it, I can see no jostling together by chance of human beings immortal. We are never out of our Father's sight and guidance. Nothing can touch our hearts or life and He not see, permit, and mean to bless, if we simply look to and trust in Him. So your friendship at this time for dear brother is from Him. John is one that makes much of his friends ; that rare, pure, single-hearted nature, with youth all past, he still remains "an orphan boy" in so many, many things, and God takes care of him as such, I feel very sure, for " He knoweth our frame" and " re- membereth." Dependent and burdened ones He keeps closest in His care. But I want to thank you for your letter, and the frank, free man- ner with which you take me as an old friend. A little, undignified body, as I am, can appreciate no other style. WOMAN'S LOVE. 159 Despite the disavowal, I do assume that a young man, right- minded and true-hearted, is, at twenty-five, somewhat concerned in matrimony; for, unless a loving Father has laid some barrier across his path, or filled his hands and heart with care of other loved ones, surely he must be waiting and watching for his Eve. Yes, Eve. Does not God love and care for man's wants now? Re- deemed and brought back to Him by the blood of Jesus, are we not the objects of His tenderest care ? You will smile, but I be- lieve there are Sarahs, Rebekahs, Rachels, and Ruths now upon the earth whom God has selected, fitted, and holds waiting for His bidding, for that state in life to which it shall please God to call them. Oh, if woman had not this anchor of trust and faith, could she ever take that one step that seals her happiness or misery for life? For " How strong and beautiful is woman's love, That, taking in its hand the joys of home, The tenderest melodies of tuneful years, Yea, and its own life also, lays them all, Meek and unflinching, on a mortal's breast; Reserving naught, save that unspoken hope Which hath its rest in God." If you have read "Pink and White Tyranny," I think you will so feel with "John" strong, true, but poor deluded "John" that you will see how a man needs God's help when looking for his Eve. The book has its faults, but is, I think, a true picture of married life, where a man has blindly followed his mere fancy the end of many a "falling in love." "Poor John." If you were sitting here I could tell you just where I think he began his mistakes and missteps that led to such dreadful shipwreck. He belonged to "the people of God." Two cannot walk together happily long, unless they are agreed. No woman can be in her homelife all she ought to be, unless God be her helper. It is impossible. It was due John's blessed Master to make sure that " Lillie" loved Him; that was the first duty. How can a man or woman step on heaven- ward, with his closest clinging companion's face turned the other way? Do you say that miserable Lillie would have deceived him and "put on religion" to gain her end ? I cannot think so. John had an unseen Friend too near. One who never permits an ill to l6o TRUE MARRIAGE. come to those who wholly put their trust in Him. Now, I do not say that He never permits a sorrow, or pain, or trial. Remember, He holds our complete history in His hand, and He has placed each one in this brief life on probation for discipline. No doubt many a soul has been prepared for eternal life through the sorrow and pain, the crossed purposes and disappointments of married life. He knows what we each need, what discipline is best, what will be safest, and soonest fit us for our Home above. The one great truth golden truth brought out in "Pink and White Tyranny" (would that it were graven upon every young ear- nest heart ! ) is this : The great object of life is not happiness. And when we have lost our own personal happiness, we have not lost all that life is worth living for. No, the very best of life often lies beyond that". When we have learned to let ourselves go, then we may find that there is a better, a nobler, and a truer life for us. .Of one thing, "Friend L.," be very sure: There is One who tenderly cares for our happiness here with infinitely more than the most loving mother's care. If we do "acknowledge Him in all our ways, He will direct our paths." This is His own promise that has never failed. Through pain, disappointment, and the darkest earthly trial, our happiness will be safe. He will see to that. And when He has brought about your heart and life the circum- stances that seek a close companion, He will "provide," and guide your every step, if you commit all to His hands. And He only can help. Our own or another's wisdom may utterly fail. The "little step" is a fearful venture; with all the light we can, by closest intercourse before marriage, gain, there is, must be, utter ignorance. There may be a few years, perhaps, of "smooth sail- ing," but every life has its stormy days of peril sooner or later, when the one close companion is tested and tried. I do not believe any "union of hearts and hands" is truly blessed, that has not God's blessing upon it. So our dear old church en- joins all persons to look at this subject "reverently, discreetly, advisedly, soberly, and in the fear of God." True marriage should be the "dwelling together as fellow-heirs of the grace of life." Now what can I say, why all this long, long New Year's letter goes to you, so unstudied, so free, as if to a young brother? Again AN OLD PILGRIM'S WORDS. 161 I say, God only can help and guide when two seek to put on " that harness which the minister of death alone unlooseth, and whose power doth aid or mar the journey of the soul to heaven." If an old pilgrim's words ever can give a gleam of light, do write to Your old true friend, J. H. PLATT. ii 1 62 TRIP TO NEW YORK. XV. "As in water, face answereth to face, so the heart of man to man." Goes East with Mrs. McC. A loving arrangement ^Congenial spirits St. Bar- nabas House, N. Y. Atlantic City The wide, wide ocean Delightful meet- ing of friends W. J. Allison The Dewdrop Miss Harland, her former Bible-class teacher Hulmeville Boat ride on the Neshaminy Up the Hud- son Mott Farm, Highlands A picture Giving pleasure. June to September, 1872. [MONDAY, June 17, Mrs. Platt started for New York, met Mrs. McCabe at the station, who was also going without an escort. The two were mutually pleased at the happy providence that thus made them companions for the journey. Mr. P. went with them as far as Crestline.] TO HER HUSBAND. NEW YORK, June 20, 1871. The night you left me at Crestline I did so want to run after you, and say "a good good-bye" in the hall, and not in kind Mrs. McCabe's presence. If I had been sure that I could find you, I believe I would have tried. We heard the cars go out that car- ried you away. I was so glad you were there, and had kindly waited to see us "all fixed." We did not sleep very much, but rested, and at 3 A. M. were up dressing, and all ready for the 4 o'clock cars. The morning was so lovely ! Indeed, that whole day of car ride was beautiful beyond description ! To see sunrise and sunset upon the mountains, those grand old "^everlasting hills !" Was it not a loving arrangement that made one so con- genial as Mrs. McCabe my companion ? There was such perfect unison in our enjoyment of everything. We were detained near Wooster two hours, "a freight train off the track." I went into a roadside house and had my tea-bottle A CHARMING HOME. 163 filled with milk ; so we had a good breakfast. We supposed the detention would break connection, and give us hours at Pittsburg ; but no, a "special car" took us right on without waiting even for dinner (" twenty minutes"). Mrs. McC. went out and brought in some large strawberries, rolled in sugar ; I never saw finer ones. So our dinner was delicious. It was dark when we reached Altoona. By that time our heads were tired out looking at beautiful views I kept little Kittie such a sweet, good child and Mrs. McCabe went into the supper-room and brought a pitcherful of hot tea, and such biscuits as are only found in that "mountain home." So we were re- freshed, and soon after "settled" for the night At 3 A. M. we were awakened by some one asking for New York, or Philadelphia? and the Philadelphia ones were hurried out in the last car, and that was the last I saw of dear little sleeping Kittie and her mother. At 6.30 we were in Jersey City, and sister E. stood waiting on the New York side. The last few hours' ride was full of weari- ness; but, with E.'s cheering face, and a good breakfast brought to my bed, I was very much rested, and to-day begin to feel some- what like myself. You may laugh, but I am charmed with sister E.'s home and the whole household arrangements, her wonderful children, her sweet, young helpers, all, everything. I do not wonder N. lost her heart here, at all. Nobody had told me anything about this Home. FROM MRS. PLATT TO MRS. McCABE. NEW YORK, Saturday, A. M., 304 Mulberry St. MY DEAR MRS. McCABE : I missed you and dear little Kitty very much. Is it not wonder- ful what one presence, one titled personage, can bring us? Honor and comfort seemed to depart with my friend's separation. The New York conductor was not at all impressed by my "long journey ticket;" and though, I believe, the only lady left, I seemed evi- dently but an ordinary, lonely old person in his august eyes. So I was left to count up just how tired my heart was, until I saw my dear sister's patient face waiting for me on the New York shore, at 164 SEED TIME. 6 o'clock. I can never think of our brief journey together but as days full of God -sent mercy and comfort, " the sure provision" of Him who knew just my need for heart, soul, and body, out of all the world of human beings, selecting for companion just the one. You speak of the cool Philadelphia breezes. What can I say as tribute to this sea-air and night-breeze ? In comparison Ohio nights seem one smother. I am much, very much, pleased with this dear sister's work for the Master, such pure, true, unselfish life-work for the "poor always with us." If the heat will permit, cannot you call and look over this institution when in New York ? I may go to New Jersey next week, hoping to return and finish my visit hereafter. What will be your address at the end of four weeks ? With kiss to dear, sweet Kitty, Affectionately, J. H. PLATT. / ST. BARNABAS HOUSE, N. Y., June 23, 1872. MY OWN DEAR HUSBAND : How thought was turned back' to you and each dear child separated from me to-day. May God, our own covenant-keeping God, hold each beloved one in His safe and holy keeping ! I suppose you are going over your usual Scripture reading about this time. This morning I had the Old Women's Bible Lesson in the "sewing-room." I think all the work is blessed here. All must bring a blessing upon giver and receiver, if done unto Him and in His name. I have not been out of the house; these have been just days of blessed rest. I love the services with these poor women and children, gathered in to partake of the feast of the " glad tidings." Oh, what sowing of the seed it all seems ! seed that cannot perish, but must spring up, bud, and bloom in many and many a heart to life eternal. God's blessing rest upon this mission of love to His poor ! These little children are wonderful ; how they interest me ! I want to send them off some of them are so sweet to those who have no children. How well they behave ! their interest in the service is so heartfelt ; the wee-est ones singing away ; each chant the Te Deum, too, with little, folded hands, with all their might AN OLD TRUE FRIEND. 165 their singing so sweet and full ! Some of them only three and a half years old A little boy of eight or nine years came in from the street this morning and stood just before m during service. Every place did he find, and every chant sing with all his might. BURLINGTON, N. J., July i, 1872. MY PRECIOUS HUSBAND : I was so glad to get your letter of the 2yth on Saturday eve. . . . My Sunday was very much as the last in Delaware, just resting, my head not able to go to church in the burning sun. Was better toward evening ; went with Jane, and sat in the same little Presbyterian church where Martha and I sat side by side so often, "testifying" against " Puseyism" (Ritualism) A good night's sleep has made me myself again this morning. Oh, I was so homesick all yesterday ! Such a heart-longing for you, my own precious husband, and all the dear children. You are ten thousand times more to me than "Eastern friends." Still, I think it was right to come now. God will overrule this sum- mer's visit, and count it among the "all things" that "work together for good." .... To-day came this letter from Miss Harland. I think I shall accept her invitation. I long to try the ocean breezes upon this poor head, and is not this present opportunity laid at my door ? [Miss Harland was in former days her Sunday-school teacher, and ever after a firm, true friend. The scholar was the first to enter the " heavenly rest," the teacher following soon after. Miss Harland died in Philadelphia. Mrs. Platt went to Atlantic City, as the guest of Miss Harland, in company with her sister S. and cousin J. A.] ATLANTIC CITY, July 3, 1872. Wanting to get a letter to you I have left my bed a little after 3 o'clock this morning, hoping, too, to see an ocean sunrise. . . . My room has the sunset sweep. A full view of the wide, wide ocean ! . Who can guess its glory, its soulful meaning, its resting power ! . . . . We arrived here at n o'clock. How glad Miss Harland was ! You should 1 66 THE DEWDROP. have seen her delight over your wife, so glad, so glad I was not at all like my picture, " not changed one bit ; the same face ; the same expression," etc. etc Tell Mrs. Tuttle my old friend, W. J. Allison, is here, friend Gurney's guest, who has a cottage. He is only a wreck of my old friend, all from two strokes of paralysis. Jane and I called to see him last evening. What a favor to get here ! How much good has been planned out for this visit ! Our Father's love, who can measure it? ATLANTIC CITY, July 7, 1872. I began this, so far as date, yesterday, in answer to your good, long letter of last Sunday! I was so delighted to hear all about your Sunday with A. and M. F. How nicely "our girls" do ! I read most of your letter to Miss Harland. She thinks there are not many girls equal to ours. We are sure of this fact I can imagine Dr. Ufford's good sermon upon " My peace I give unto you." I have heard nothing of preaching, since I left home, at all to be compared to our pasture food at home. I doubt if, in all the country, there are many better preachers than ours A little party from Burlington, W. J. Allison and family, joined us here on Saturday. He and wife are "approved preachers" in the Society of Friends. He was brother James's schoolmate and friend; and his wife "the Dewdrop," as he has always called her is a most winning and lovely woman. I remember her as the pretty little Quakeress bride, long years ago. They invited us in to a " reading of the Scriptures," Saturday morning. A chapter was read most beautifully ; and then, after a silence of a few mo- ments, Rebecca (the wife) kneeled by her husband's side (he a great invalid, in an easy chair), and, laying her hand on his, she " poured out her heart in supplication and praise." Miss Harland and J. and others were present. It was "good to be there. '' July 8, 1872. Yesterday Miss Harland and I went to our church. The service was so pleasant and refreshing. Gathered from all parts of our country, yet all meeting and joining in our common service "with one accord," as if brethren of one household, children of one Father, coming unto Him through the same "household words." HOMESICK. 167 [Returned to Burlington, July 9th, with J.] I do think the sea-air and bathing helped me, but the expense was too great. If you can find time to go to Martha's Vineyard I would rather save now, that we may go together there, our "silver wedding" trip, you know. And now will try to finish up peeps at old friends. I am so glad and thankful that you all are so good in trying to get on so nicely "without mother." This thought is half the pleasure of my visit. HULMEVILLE, July l6, 1872. Your letter and dear H 's came last Saturday, just as I was leaving for Pennsylvania. Is not the dear boy a comfort? and that is not half a word to tell what he is to us. And, best of all, we cannot see and feel his sense of what he owes his earthly parents, and not believe that the same strength and "help" that have given to him this appreciation, will draw him more and more to his one Eternal Father in heaven Yesterday, early after breakfast, Charley, Winnie, and Carrie H. took me a boat-ride up this beautiful creek, Neshaminy, in a little row-boat with white awning over it. We floated along up the stream, under hanging trees, two miles ; then climbed up some rocks, and saw such a miniature cascade as our children never saw. From somewhere a hillside spring comes tumbling down a ravine from broken rock to rock, dashing, splashing, gushing over mossy stones, drooping ferns, and little "teaberry" vines. Always run- ning away, until held still by Jack Frost in midwinter. Now, all this sounds perfect in beauty. But what moment or scene is per- fect in enjoyment ? I hope these dear children the willing, toil- ing rower thought cousin Jeanette did most heartily enjoy her ride ; -and so she did, in a sense, but I never was so wholly home- sick in my longing for some of my own far home ones as I was when gliding up that beautiful stream. I just kept saying, over and over, "How he, my own dear husband, >how they, my own dear children, would have enjoyed this ride !" One thing, I think, is very certain, I will never visit alone again. It does not, cannot pay. 1 68 TRUE PLEASURE. MOTT FARM, HIGHLANDS, N. J., Aug. 6, 1872. . . . . Do you remember my pet "piece," from Appleton's Journal, "Berkshire Glorified?" Well, I have seen it all, and actually "made the picture" that headed the article (a lady re- clining upon her elbow on a couch, looking out upon the loveliest landscape). Never were so beautiful views, as are all over this Highland farm beside the Hudson. But sunshine and shadow go together. The strong breeze upon the boat, coming up the river last Thursday (August i), gave me a cold, and without being, per- haps, actually sick, I have been upon the bed until a few hours ago this evening, and have gone through all the Western and Eastern remedies, closing with quinine Well, I am so heart-full of thankfulness to be well again. The very least possible ill was permitted to come to me from such ex- posure ; I am sure of this. And such good, loving nursing as I have had here ! But such thoughts of home ! Yet God has ever kept me peaceful in and through all this separation, in the full belief it was His will, and the ordering of His loving providence, that I could have no one of my own precious flock with me on the journey. It is, must be, "all well." It does seem and sound dreadfully self-conceited, but I think it, and so say it (as I have ever said all things to you, dear husband) I think this journey has been so pleasant, given so much pleasure to so many, wherever your wife has. been. Yes, I count this first among the gains. I came to give others pleasure, and have been permitted to do so. Expect to go back to New York on Tuesday next. [Her husband joined her in New York about the first of September, and they passed some two weeks together visiting friends in New York, New Jersey, and Philadelphia, returning home September I3th.] AN INVITATION. 169 XVI. " The lips of the righteous feed many." Letters to Mrs. Maccracken S. C. D. L. E. S. H. P. Death of her brother John Our loved ones who have gone before are still near to us Visit to Toledo George Eliot's books Opinion of other authors A happy home Views of marriage A higher school Old Florence dial, " I count the hours that shine." September, 1872, to December, 1874. TO MRS. S. C. MACCRACKEN. DELAWARE, OHIO, September 25, 1872. MY OWN DEAR COUSIN : MY first exclamation, when I saw your letter, was, " She is in Columbus now; I shall see her !" I think it must have been that very day I had said to my husband, " I think I must see cousin Sarah, if only for one night, so soon as you can spare me the pen- nies to take me to Lancaster." So, when I read that you were in Columbus, I was sure to see you, I thought. Oh, why did not you come? Only an hour's ride ; an easy carriage always at the depot to carry passengers to their places. Dear cousin, I do so want you to see me in my own home once more (a hired house, to be sure, but my home still, and husband and children all my own). Cannot you come? The weather is so lovely now. Let John or Willie bring you to Columbus, and I will meet you at our depot. The change will do you good. If you cannot possibly, then I must go to you for one night. I cannot stay longer, for only think I left them all for three months, less two days ! And they were all so good in trying to do without me ; but I cannot, ought not to leave them again. Yet next week I may be (Wednesday night) in Columbus, in order to attend the wedding of F. S., our niece. Now, if you write me you cannot possibly come this autumn, then, if I 1 70 DEAR OLD FRIENDS. can find the spare pennies, I think I must run to Lancaster for one little peep at you. But, indeed, I hardly ought to leave home even for so short a visit ; and you ought to come here, if possible. We have open fires, and you shall have a lower room, where you can lie down all you need. Do come. You see I am not telling you by letter all about my visit, for I want to see you and tell this face to face. I did not get back until 1 7th of September ! When parting from Miss Harland, of Phila- delphia, the day I left (i6th of September), she said, " If I ever come to Ohio I want to see Mrs. Maccracken. She was so kind to your sister, going to her at once, soon as she heard of her trouble." She sent for me to visit her a week at the seashore (Atlantic City), and she seemed to think I was the same child I was forty years ago ; and I think every moment of the visit was a delight to her. I divided my time among the dear old friends and relations at Hulmeville, Pa., Mount Holly, N. J., Burlington, Tren- ton, Philadelphia, New York, Vermont, and a week among the Highlands, up the Hudson near Peekskill. How much I owe for such a summer ! I was three weeks with Jane, and then we were in Vermont together. She is more lovely than ever. We often talked of you, and again and again I said, " I am going to write cousin Sarah to day." But, indeed, I scarce could write to these dear children half the letters I ought. They would not let me write "the weather was too hot, and I must rest my eyes," they said Try a week with me. You shall be quiet as you please. We are in the "Burned House" again. TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, O., November 6, 1872. MY DEAR FRIEND : I am so glad and pleased grateful, too for being thus made one of that little, inner circle to whom family joys and sorrows are told. You knew I should so appreciate your last letter, telling of S 's marriage, and I was so glad you spoke out, that you were all so happy, and do not hesitate to say so to inner friends. I have not had your experience, but your letter expresses, I am sure, my own testimony, if God shall so bless my children in a " helpmeet." GOOD OLD BIBLE STORY. . 1 71 The other day a mother said, "A wedding-day is to parents a sad, tearful day, such a giving-up day !" I could not see it so; and just then your letter came, showing I was right. Believing that all our " earthly steps are ordered," looking at all our children's sur- roundings as of the Lord's planning, when such a gift comes as your letter tells of, surely parents can only rejoice. When the holy estate is " entered into, not unadvisedly or lightly, but rever- ently, discreetly, advisedly, soberly, and in the fear of God," surely we may count upon His benediction who graced Cana's marriage-feast, and believe that .He will add His grace, "that so living together in this life, in the world to come we may have life everlasting." I believe that "matches are made in heaven" for all who want His help, and, if our children look to Him, we may promise them, as of old, "The Lord God of heaven shall send His angel before thee," and He will truly tell "whom the Lord hath appointed out." "The thing proceedeth from the Lord." I more and more like the good old Bible story, with its holy and comforting suggestions, and I now join with you all in the general family joy and welcome to this " our first daughter." To L may she be a Rebekah indeed, his continual comforter and joy; and to his parents, " better than seven sons." How long it seems since I have talked with you on paper ! Yet, as time rushes on as it does, more and more, faster and faster, after we go beyond fifty years (do not you feel this hurry of time ?), our hearts draw closer to the old, old friends of our youth, and we can never forget them, nor can they seem very distant, so much and so often are they in our thoughts, "even though there be no spoken or written words. Always believe that of me. How often I thought and spoke of you this summer, passing some weeks in old Burlington with "Cousin J ," worshipping with her in the little Presbyterian church, sitting in the same old pew where sister Martha and I so often sat by her fa'ther, listening to the faithful preaching of the Gospel. Mrs. V R is more lovely than when she came to Bur- lington a blushing bride, so young and fair. Such a sweet, hal- lowed look, I never saw before ; and her talk so tender and true of the husband gone before ; so full of the brightness of hope. Her whole heart is absorbed in the work of leading on her children to the same heavenly home. 172 OLDTOWN FOLKS. I had a delightful summer, from the igth of June to the i5th of September, away from my own little band of home ones. But our darling N was a wonderful mother, and housekeeper, too, aided by her willing helpers ; and no one was sick, or suffered from my long absence, and only goodness and mercy followed each member of the divided family. Friends carried me about every- where ; one week I was among the Pennsylvania relatives, then at the seaside, Atlantic City, with a dear old friend, who used to be my Bible-class teacher, and has never lost her interest in me ; some weeks with dear sister E in New York, and with her a week among the Highlands, with excursions up and down the beautiful Hudson. I met all Mrs. Stowe's " Oldtown Folks" in Arlington, Vt. What a wonderful people are the dwellers in that beautiful Vermont valley ! What scenery is theirs, those Green Mountain views, painted before me in ever-living freshness ! I have heard some people say past pleasures are like a dream. Not so with me, as living present pictures stands this past summer. There was so much to enjoy ; little surprising pleasures at every step ; and that I could still enjoy all, was not too old, that was the most surprising of all. Thanks for the sight of the old home-picture, with the mother and brother standing in the yard. The old house looks full of broad hospitality, with rooms to hold children and grandchildren. Does your mother still live ? I am just going to write to F ; all summer I have had to neglect him, with many other correspond- ents. You may well be proud or thankful over F 's college course. May the Good Shepherd keep him very close to His side 1 I have not half told you of my Eastern trip, or of my very pleasant return home with my dear husband. You need never assure him of your full appreciation of the Episcopal Church ; he knows you almost as well as does his wife, and with almost the same liking. TO MR. L. E. S. DELAWARE, February 22, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND : You know I thank you for giving to me what no other could. How much we all owe to you! The Lord "will recompense." It was His hand that marked out and led your path into that of our NEARNESS OF DEPARTED FRIENDS. 173 dear brother's, and made your fresh young life so much, so very much to him. Again, I say, I know God will repay, and give back to you in happiness all that you were able to give to that dear lonely one. May the memory of this friend, to whom you minis- tered, be ever as a sweet call to trust wholly "our Father which art in heaven." Yes, trust wholly, believing that He " careth for you" with infinite pity and boundless love. This dear brother's life its gentle, peaceful, even tenor how God ever "tempered the wind," and sheltered, guided, and guarded ; cared for him with more than a mother's care, supply- ing every want, raising up just such friends as would give joy and comfort, and then crowning all with calling home before one cold evening shadow touched him, taking him into His "presence, where there is fulness of joy, and pleasures for evermore."* How I wish you could sit down by me, and let me talk about dear John ! Call him John ; was not that the name you used ? He would like to be remembered* much, and often talked about. You and I do not know how thin may be the separating veil be- tween the seen and unseen worlds; how near freed, blessed spirits are permitted to come ; how closely they watch and wait, and enter into the happiness of the loved ones left behind. I have no theories, am no spiritualist, but I see nothing in the Bible to forbid the thought that our loved ones know and love us still, and may not be far away. Does not this help to make our lives pure, pa- tient? Are not these our friends, "gone before," as- bright links that hold us to the Home above? Were you here I would go back to childhood's days, and tell you of your friend. He and I were in the middle of "our eight." In all my life no other heart has so blindly loved me, as if I had no fault, and so foolishly praised and admired. My coming to this Western home was, I doubt not, one of the hardest trials of his life. Heavy cares kept us much apart. How I thank the loving Hand that brought him here, and gave to us and him that delightful visit ! Somehow I felt that he might never come again. I went with him on his homeward route to Columbus, and can never forget the thoughts when parting in the depot. I will tell you some time of this. You see that I look forward to a friend- * Her brother John died three weeks before the date of this letter. 174 SAFE FROM ALL EVIL. ship " between us as long as life shall last." I wish my home was nearer, so that you could take my dear absent brother's seat at our table and fireside, and see how warm and true a brother's welcome is yours ! Our last brother is now gone ! How fast grows the Home- gathering above ! Let me take his place, as far as an elder sister can. You little know how fond and deep was his love for his "young friend L." How much he talked and wrote about you ! It almost made me sad, and I often gently tried to prepare him for changes that I thought must come in time. Not that this friend- ship would dim, but that there would come to the so much younger one a nearer and dearer, a more engaging tie. But he could never see this. His childlike trust, and clinging, dependent, almost as a woman's, nature, would never take in this future trouble, and it was never to come. And he is now shut in forever, safe from all evil ! Sister writes, how gentle, quiet, peaceful came the last, as an infant's slumber oji the mother's bosom. Ah, our Saviour is all in all, everything we need, every moment of our life. And can we believe that, having watched and guarded and guided our slip- pery feet all along the journey of life, the last steps are not most precious in His sight, that He deserts the soul then? Let this calling home of your beloved friend, watched by you, be an un- forgotten, dying testimony, that He is faithful that promised, "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." .... Again I thank you for your letter, and the little playful note I was just going to answer when the sad tidings came. Cannot you come before summer? How much I want to see one whom I feel that I so well know ! Please accept our home as a sister's house during your yearly vacations, and as often at other times as pos- sible. Warmest welcome awaits you from us all. Your friend's sister, JEANETTE H. PLATT. GOD S WAYS. 175 [1873. 1 July Mrs. Platt went to Toledo, O., for a ten days' visit to her son and other friends there.] TO H. P. [TOLEDO] July 8, 1873. Sitting in Mrs. W.'s little room, with the sweet "Psalms for the day" open before me, how full of the dear boy I am leaving, are my thoughts (I should be glad to meet you every day in some of the daily Psalter words). May we not all take up David's words, " I waited patiently for the Lord, and He inclined unto me and heard me. He brought me also out of the horrible pit, out of the mire and clay, and set my feet upon the rock, and ordered my goings." " Thou art my helper and Redeemer, O my God." Jesus is, indeed, a Rock. The blest one whose feet have been set upon that Rock is everlastingly safe ; sooner or later there will be "put a new song in his mouth, even a thanksgiving unto our God." GOD'S WAYS. How few, who from their youthful day, Look on to what their life may be, Painting the visions of the way In colors soft and bright and free ; How few, who to such paths have brought The hopes and dreams of early thought ! For God, through ways they have not known, Will lead His own. What matter what the path shall be? The end is clear and bright to view; He knows that we a strength shall see, Whate'er the day shall bring to do. We see the end, the house of God, But not the path to that abode ; For God, through ways they have not known, Will lead His own. " As thy days, so shall thy strength be." Your loving MOTHER. 176 THE HELPER AND COMFORTER. TOLEDO, July, 1873. MY PRECIOUS BOY : Mrs. W. is busy, and I take this quiet moment to write good-bye. How much comfort and pleasure have come to mother through this little visit, planned and brought about through your kind thoughtfulness and love ! I leave you all in His hands with the one mother-prayer, " Father, bless and keep him, and make every surrounding of his life only more and more to fit and mould him for the Home beyond !" Never be "cast down" through manifold temptations. I want you to mark what Goulburn says on this subject (page 208), and all the sweet Bible testimony ; and may Jesus, the one Helper and Comforter, aid and uphold you ! We must give up ourselves to God to be sanctified, Jesus' blood, Jesus' power. " By little and little" that is God's plan He accepts and loves us for His dear Son's sake, not for anything in us. Our "surety" stands for us. God is reconciled to us. He only calls upon us to let Him save us, by our accepting the full "cup of salvation." There may be much, much that you do not now see clearly, or feel deeply ; but, darling boy, the blessed one Teacher " guides into all truth." The feeblest, most ignorant, stumbling lamb, is closest kept beneath the Good Shepherd's eye and care. TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, O., August 12, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND : My last letter to F , I hope, you took as part answer to yours, waiting so long for answer. I have been from home several times this summer, and really can write so little when visiting or under the pressure of home care. Though these dear girls are helpful, still it is, "Mother, mother," much as when they were all wee ones ; and, as you know, I am no geqeral, and cannot marshal about duties and claims as some women can. Your last letter came to me in Springfield, Ohio, when trying to comfort our dear old friend and daughters, lately called to part from his wife, his closest, loving companion for so many years. I think dear F met him at our house. On Friday I returned, in A BUSY MAN. 177 time for our two August birthdays N 's and J 's. H came home, so we have been again "all, all here," save the little lamb in the Good Shepherd's bosom. Does not old age have its own peculiar joy? far, far more good, true, and beautiful than youth can know. You and dear Mrs. Damon have still another joy, I can only imagine, as yet, that of being grandparents. To look upon one's life renewed, and begun again in children's chil- dren, must wonderfully touch and stir the heart, I am sure. I cannot tell how many pictures I have of my old friend's island home, quite perfect in every touch and tint. F 's last letter to his " cousins" pictured the rooms, the yard with its trees and fountains ; I see it all, and you all only seem just in another street, that is all. Every face, too, seems near to view ; the queenly grandmamma and happy grandpa, and every face, seated at the same table, when S , H , and the baby came home. If Mr. Platt and I could join you at your pleasant water- ing-place on the beach ! How tempting the spot, from your de- scription ! I think you must be a general, indeed, to order all the reading and work you had in hand, that sunny afternoon, when you held before you "a sermon finishing, the newspapers, a volume of Bushnell's Sermons, and one of George Eliot's novels; also edit- ing the 'Friend,' and watching the inrolling breakers." Surely a picture of a busy man. No one beyond his father and mother can so rejoice over your dear F 's recovery as I. May He who has formed that beautiful nature ever watch and keep him from harm. I feel, dear friend, that the world has so much jar for such a one. But "He knows our frame;" He has bestowed upon your boy the nature that shall best accomplish His holy will and pleasure, to honor and glorify Him here and hereafter. I am so glad that he is now with you. What help, strength, and tone your climate must give! But do be careful about his return to book-work. I could wish that he might have entire rest one year at least. He is so very young, such a critical age. The loss of a year will only tell for good at thirty years. If he could plod over work but this he cannot do. His whole soul will be in his work, and whether he should thus tax and test his strength I much question. I wish he could tramp around on some civil engineering duty, or some not bookish employment, 12 178 BOOKS CRITICISED. nor preaching duty, either, but just to wait for riper age, and then turn back to study and his chosen blessed life-work. Through F I have come to know his Amherst friend, Miss S , and she may come to Delaware this autumn. I owe him much, for I do so very much admire this sweet, strong, young "Mayflower" girl. I am not afraid of her, though she is a true Yankee girl, with ever so much "faculty," I dare say. . . I am not sensible enough, or something, to like George Eliot's books have no sympathy with any character she draws. I have not seen one true woman of her creation. She herself is not a woman as God made and means and helps woman to be. She cannot write of women; she may write of men, perhaps. We have just begun her "Middlemarch," but I read it under protest, and just because it was so praised to me by good judges, and it was H 's birthday gift to N . I don't mean to like it! ("There, that is silly woman," you say.) She has a work, too, by Miss Al- cott, and the sweet "Songs of Seven," illustrated. But let me tell you of two little readable books indeed: "Gra- ham and I," covering, I think, in truth and beauty the ground of "Gates Ajar;" the other is a pretty sparkle (I wish I could hear F read it to you all, with S and H ) called " Mrs. Jerningham's Diary." I cannot make my good husband believe his wife was cast in the same mould as poor, silly Rosabel Jerning- ham; yet I know she was in some respects in that "to live" was so much to her, and that the sky, grass, and butterflies were a full world to her. I really wish you could see this little book, though it is only a sparkle, a bit of spray, or bubble-picture. Tell F his "uncle and auntie" are still reading Froude. I saw a notice the other day of a book I want much, "Memo- rials of a Quiet Life" (English), by A. J. C. Hare, author of "Walks in Rome." It is said to be "a most charming exemplifi- cation of a true married life," "the depth and sweetness, the perfect union, absence of selfishness, beautifully pictured in this record of real life." Have you seen this book, or "Old Kensing- ton," by Miss Thackeray? F will like all her pleasant Eng- lish stories. F. is deep in Prime's "I go a-fishing," and Howells's ''A Chance Acquaintance." Truly we seem like friends not so far separated, when we so often read the same books with the same taste. HEDGED IN. 179 I smiled over your question, " Have you seen Bushnell's Sermons on the New Life?" Why, one of these sermons is on my mind and heart never to be forgotten. (F has, I know, my account of it; ask him for it on the text, "I girded thee," etc., "God's plan in every man's life.") It was read to me by a young friend; it is wonderfully full of help and comfort, and clear, striking thoughts. In a former letter you asked, "Why such a business-like request for our Christmas pictures?" You know, I supposed you were on your way to the States when I wrote, and that Mrs. Damon would open the letter and hand over to your printer the Bequest. They came safely. Who does not rather like his own picture more especially when painted by partial love? TO L. E. S. Thursday morning, September 2, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND : I am always glad to hear from you, one so near to our own chil- dren now, even as one of them You wish you could peep into our happy home? Yes it is a happy, "happy home." And will you always think of this home as showing one fact God is the Father of the family that trusts in Him. So far as they simply, singly cling to Him, they shall be blessed and happy, despite every earthly surrounding of care, anxiety, and pain. God chooses the discipline for each house- hold. He has hedged me and mine about with straitened cir- cumstances. That He saw was necessary and best for these chil- dren. The hedge has been a loving guard to keep off many an evil. It has bound us more and more to each other, and, I trust, turned our eyes more and more up to Him through the riches of His grace. Poverty may become a household blessing, though no young heart can believe this. You ask, "What am I to do till next summer?" Almost anything but live in the future. The past and present are enough, and it is impossible to paint domestic happiness; it can only be felt. Im- agination's colors are always borrowed never true. 'Tis as the subtle perfume of a flower held too closely for any sight. I like air castles and pretty bubbles of all kinds except these. How l8o A HIGHER SCHOOL. strange, you say, and wonder why and how all this can be true. It is because true marriage touches our own higher nature. Its happiness comes from an unseen spring and source God's pro- mised blessing upon a true union. His blessing cannot be imag- ined, which He says is that "blessing that maketh rich." It is not a torrent of joy that must flow in upon the life, soon as the tie is made. Oh, no, no. It comes rather like the unseen dew, or little rivulets fed from ten thousand springs hid quite away from sight. It is the joy, peace, rest, and hope that patience gives. Long suf- fering and self sacrifice, self-forgetfulness, consideration, all summed up in loving another better than ourself. Do you wonder that there are but few very happy marriages? Fallen creatures in a fallen world yet every true marriage may be very happy, because God has honored, owned, and blessed this "holy estate." Being married is like going into a higher school, of more diffi- cult lessons, with better rewards and honors ; but to be never more alone; with seat-mate to learn out of the same book, stand by us in every lesson, divide every reproof, and share every smile of the Teacher, until both hear the dismissal, "Well done, good and faithful;" "the school is out" forever, and the Eternal Home is gained, to go out no more. "To wait till next summer seems so long?" Well, high school lessons are pretty hard, sometimes. Can scholars be too fully pre- pared ? I guess not. They can never fail under such a Teacher, trusting themselves wholly to His care, guidance, and "very present help." Asking Him He will fit you and dear Nellie for each other, and make these long, long months of patient waiting no loss indeed, but a great gain every way. She read to me your thought about the master-workman of that beautiful structure erecting in your city. What a faint picture it is of the Mind that has planned out each life ! Not the outline only, but the filling up each shade and touch ; all who shall cross our path, each life that shall touch ours, and every surrounding circum- stance marked out. God has a plan in every man's life, Bushnell shows us from the Bible, and I believe He has ["L. E. S." was the " friend" of Mrs. Plait's daughter N., and became Mrs. P.'s son-in-law.] WE GIRLS. l8l w TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, O., March 30, 1874. MY DEAR FRIEND: I feared my letter to F , written on the bed, would make you anxious to hear again. I am now very much in usual health, and, when the warm days give back the spring birds and blossoms, my strength will all be here, too, I hope. What do you think of your old friend's disregard of your two most kind and considerate letters waiting for answer so long ? It was so thoughtful in you to write of F 's health and great success in teaching. How glad and thankful we all were ! " Why, then, not write at least one word, and say 'thanks'?" Your two letters stood before me in the open desk all winter ; day after day I was surely going to reply. Will you look back a little with me for the reason (not excuse) of the delay? In the first place, you should remember that my head "only can hold one idea at a time," as my dear husband has always de- clared. N.'s friend's visit, and the important result to us, seemed to take away, for a time, all thought of other things. I could not see how I could give away our N. He came in September. Then the neuralgia came to my head and face, and I was too good-for- nothing to write. You know the past winter has been to business men a " panic winter," and our children concluded to help their father by trying Mrs. Whitney's "We Girls" in our house. So our good servant left, and the girls have managed household mat- ters ever since. Of course the home circle was kept as busy as bees. H , F , and M were in school, and J going on with her German and drawing lessons. Every moment has been brimful of care and hurry ; so day after day letter-writing was crowded out. There waits, too, a sweet letter from Miss S , for weeks and weeks, for answer. Will you not try to understand and believe the heart true and warm, though the hand stopped, and no word reached you all these weeks and months ? Please do not punish us by doing as you have been done by. 182 SHINING HOURS. TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, O., December 13, 1874. Third Sunday in Advent. MY DEAR OLD FRIEND: I come for a few Sunday words, just as I should sit by you and friend Julia in your study, and talk on this holy day. Why not? Are our fingers more holy than our tongues? Well, I should say first, forgive my long silence and seeming neglect. Your three letters, so full of loving interest in us all, were fully appreciated. Never mind the silence; I was wearied and worn out, and cannot write letters, even to dearest friends, when the heart is too full for words. And if I could, I would not would not give one shade of care to my far distant friends through the recital of little passing trouble of mine. I like the old Florence dial motto: "I count the hours that shine." But who can tell which are shining hours of our life? A ray from the Eternal Day will so change all earthly reading that our highest joys will be seen to spring from the deepest, darkest sorrows of this life, no doubt. I wrote to dear F in August or September, and mentioned to him my summer worries. He could better understand, for I think God gave to him something of a woman's heart, or at least the power to understand her, not com- mon to all men. His last letter was so full of loving sympathy and interest, so like himself. There is but one " our F " in all the world. N wants me to promise her a little visit about March or April. Her father and J passed last Sunday with her in her new home in Philadelphia, and declare she is perfectly happy, "happy as two children," her father said, and added, "I would ask nothing more for her." Yet her surroundings are plain and simple ; she has not married wealth or showy position, only an earnest, loving Christian man, who thinks there never was nor will be another such perfect being as his wife N . They attend Dr. Bedell's old church, St. Andrew's, where I first went to the Episcopal Sunday-school and Bible-class. When sister Sarah mar- ried, in 1827, she took me to Philadelphia to go to school, and my home was with her for some time. Dr. Bedell baptized her, THE LITTLE SESSION ROOM. 183 Martha, and brother James; so you see old St. Andrew's holds for us many sacred associations. I wish you could see our H now; you remember the curly- headed, blue- eyed little girl of eleven or twelve? She is now our sunshine, as is no other child. She was one of the nine confirmed in October last, as noticed in the "Standard of the Cross." When are you and friend Julia coming to the States again? Are we not to meet again here? Since your last visit, and dear F 's, your Island home seems so near;' I seem to really see you all, ray thoughts visiting you so often. Is not F now quite well? His letter spoke of so much comfort in his present work. Please tell us all about him; we all love him so much. Lottie C., my old schoolmate, passed two weeks with us in Octo- ber. I tried to get her to begin a letter to you ; I wanted to send you a joint letter. She looks so well ; her face has more expression, v and really I think her as pretty as at sixteen. She has scarcely a gray thread through her soft light hair. (My head is almost snowy.) Cousin Jane A. passed May here. What would Mr. Hodge do without her Bible-class and constant help in the little church in old Burlington? She says Mrs. Van Rensselaer grows more and mote lovely as she gets nearer and nearer her home beyond. It is long since you, Martha, and I used to meet for prayer and praise in that little "Session Room!" Is it long? " Now, Lord, what wait we for? On Thee alone Our hope is all rested; Lord, seal us Thy own! Only Thine own to be, Only to live to Thee; Thine, with each day begun, Thine, with each set of sun, Thine, till our work is done. Then, Lord, then bear Thou us Safe through the flood ; In Thy courts welcome us Bought with Thy blood ; Once prisoners, now unbound, Once lost, and by Thee found, Brought home from sin and fears, Brought home from death and tears, Home, for unnumbered years." 1 84 MY JEWELS. Tell dear F we often say, " F was with us this time last year." We are in the midst of Christmas hurries; he knows what that means in our household. All my summer distress and fears are gone, and God has wonderfully delivered us from evil. My "jewels" are still all mine; only one has doubled, she says, and one the Good Shepherd is holding in His bosom. A TINY BUD. 185 XVII. " The Lord shall increase you more and more, you and your children." Trip to Philadelphia First grandchild A tiny bud Bishop Jaggar, his conse- cration Return home with her daughter and child. March to June, 1875. [MARCH 26, 1875, Mrs. Platt went to Philadelphia. Her daughter E.'s first child was born on the 24th.] PHILADELPHIA, March 30, 1875. MY DEAR HOME ONES : You must all feel that you are helpers in this time of need by doing without mother's letters. Remember this, you cannot know how glad they are, and how very thankful I am to be " brought" here now, that you were all well enough ; and I, for this that all the sisters are together once more, but one, of the old home band, of the old fireside ! I found E. so bright and doing well ; and the wee one, the dear little stranger, waiting for her grandmother's welcome ! Such a tiny, tiny creature as you cannot picture at all ; yet so perfect in her miniature, and her mother so happy, and her father so proud, and grandma, so thankful her little life had been spared thus far. The doctor had no expectation of her life at first, said it was a "tiny bud, opened too soon for March winds." L says, "I thought, at once, I knew what would please and soothe E in this parting from this countless treasure, to have this little one, given to us, enrolled among the fold of the Good Shepherd, wel- comed into church below, and received into our ' Father's House' above, 'to go out no more.' So I went for Dr. Paddock [his min- ister]. ' Too late,' they said, when he came. But he touched the eyelid and said, ' No ; hand the water. What name ?' ' Jeanette Jeanette Platt,' said Anna B. ('for I thought,' she said, 'How pleased C. would be were he standing by')." Since the next morning, the doctor tells me, he has had no 1 86 A COMFORT. anxiety for the child's life. God grant it may be spared ! I would like to have it given to dear E., to return to her something of that gift God gave me in her mother. But He knows just what is best for us all. It is " immortal till its work be done." One great good her little life has already accomplished, living to greet her grand- mother ; to fill her young mother's heart with such great, sweet, tender joy; and all her future we leave to Him whose "lamb" she is PHILADELPHIA, April 13, 1875. So much has passed since I wrote, dear husband ! Through all I have been "kept," though often trembling and afraid, dis- couraged, and longing for home. Still, they all say, " It is such a mercy and comfort you are with us." Dear E. said, "I never could have got through all if you had not been here." So you and I must be thankful that I came ; thankful that, though feeling so "good-for-nothing," I can still be of some use. But lam not strong enough to enjoy these changes, 'even with N. and her baby, away from husband and the home children. I feel so alone, like as if in a dream, restless, and wanting to wake up and see you all, and find myself in my own home, with familiar surroundings, and the dear old faces about me. Do not think I am at all unhappy. Oh, no, no. In time, under God's blessing, the old-time feeling will come back, doubtless. . . . . I begin to hope the child will live, though to me its life has seemed scarce possible. It sleeps and eats well, and that is all we can ask for now, and must leave it in its Maker's hands. She will live out all her mission here. PHILADELPHIA, April 21, 1875. MY DEAR HUSBAND: Never have we been kept in more entire oneness than through these past weeks of separation, not able to speak to one another ! You can never know what these weeks have been, so thronged with sorrow, pain, and heart loneliness, and longing for you and home, with the quiet routine of my own home life "so feeble, too totter- ing in strength for any such visit." I have thought it again and again, but dear sister E. has so often said, "It is such a great mercy CHOICEST BLESSINGS. 187 you are here !" So if I have been of any use let us thank our Father for this, and for His loving " Help" so constantly granted me and you in the trial of this separation. I have begun a tonic that has greatly helped me, and, oh, I am so glad to feel the "lifting up," and something of the old self coming back. You do not know how glad. Such utter weakness and weariness, head and eye trouble, I could only "look up towards the Hills." Dared not dwell upon home or husband, or the dear ones there. But His mercy was never removed. He has been always mindful of His covenant and pro- mise ! Often feeling too miserable to "cry," my heart could only say "my soul hangeth upon Thee." But I have not been laid by at all, and have gone from day to day through all that came before me; but never in all my life have I so needed the petition in our family prayers, "Grant us patience and minds always contented with present conditions," so homesick have I been, or could have been! I believe this is our last separation "here." I have not the strength. Now, my head and eyes are getting as usual,, so that this morning I sat down with Daily Food and Psalter, like old times. I have read nothing. All this shows, I hope, why, when all the clear home ones have so much cheered and helped me, no responses came to them. Even postal card I dare not write the least effort with my inflamed eye would bring the neuralgia. Could enjoy nothing, only the thought and trust that He who had led and helped me here would hold and keep me to the end. And now all this while, how in sympathy we have been ! Wordless sym- pathy ! You have been so unwell, and suffering so much under all your heavy business cares and anxieties. And I taken from you just then and all alone, "yet not all alone," for I know He who led the wife away eame Himself, and has been The One ever Present Helper in your time of need. Thus being taught what He can be in darkest hours, our present separation may yet be counted among the choicest blessings of our life. Our school life of discipline for our future eternal Home. E. sits by making a bonnet for mother, while dear little "baby Jean" sleeps near us. On the i5th she began to improve, and I could see that she was really growing, and took heart for the little lamb. God would spare her life I knew if He had any mission for her, but such a frail thread that life seemed. 1 88 HEARING PORT. PHILADELPHIA, May 6, 1875. Yours of Monday came this morning, and I hasten a few words by the return mail. We will think over the whole matter, seeking direction from the One "Wonderful Counsellor," and surely we shall then be "led" in "the right way." .... We all owe to her [E.], to the utmost of our power, our personal loving care and attention, this summer of her feeble health, and first experience of baby care. You know it was the sense of this that brought me here, and the help of your frequent words when I was doubting my strength, and battling with my disinclination. " You will have strength given," you would say. And so it has been. Often my heart has failed utterly, but as often risen up again, with the sense of His help and care. This separation was our mutual sacrifice for the child who was our loving helper, our unwearied sympathizer and comforter, from her very earliest years. What she was to her mother only One knows! Our time to repay is shortening Let us then do all we can, and God, our own covenant-keeping God, will supply our lack in His fourfold measure E. is feeble and needs a mother. God has permittted me to come, and He has helped us both to endure thus far; and now what is His further will? Surely He will make all plain, very plain. I am so sorry for your continued ill health, and I not present; but that, too, He has permitted, I cannot, dare not doubt. Too long has He cared for and planned for us old pilgrims for us to dare to doubt His love and tender care! If He continue to us as a family His richest spiritual blessings, let all things else go ! Yes, all things, and the "letting go" will prove at least to be among the wonderful "working together for good" of our chequered lives. Vessels so near in port care but little for smattering winds and threatened storm ! Dear husband, hold on! steady! steady! behold the Pilot near! Nay, He has His hand upon the helm! All will "be well," soon very soon forever well ! Don't ask of Him why or where- fore. He cannot err. Love is the meaning of all He does or per- mits to come to His children. PHILADELPHIA, May , 1875. Sister Mitchell has sent you to-day Bishop Jaggar [his photo- graph] to look at. You cannot help but like him, and so will all the dear children. (How I want to look into each home-face !) A HOUSEHOLD WELCOME. 189 May God lead dear little M. and F., too, unto serious consideration of their duty and blessed privilege to now his first visitation take upon themselves the solemn vows we once promised for them ! His manner is quiet and most winning. I hope all our children will learn to know and love him. .When he met me, he referred to our letter as of so much comfort and, help such a pleasure, for we "promised him a household welcome!" Just when he was hesi- tating over and sorrowing at the thought of all the severed rela- tions here, in his prosperous parish work. He spoke again and again of our letter. Was it not well we followed that "sudden impulse" to write? What little "acts of kindness" may be chosen, like the ravens of old, to carry help and comfort! How beautiful was the Consecration Service! and most impres- sive. Mr. Clark, from Colorado, was here (sister saw him). I inclose for Dr. Ufford the notice or programme of the services at Holy Trinity. Please give him my love, and say I would like to write, but my eyes and strength forbid now. June zd, Mrs. Platt returned home from Philadelphia, bringing her daughter E. and the grandchild, all three needing rest and re- cuperation. The daughter remained all summer, and returned the last of August with her husband. BISHOP JAGGAR. XVIII. " At evening time it shall be light." Letters to Dr. Damon Jean P. S. A six months' birthday, a sixty years' birth- day, the happiest, gladdest, brightest of her life A word picture Taine's Eng- lish literature To F. W. Damon, Mrs. W. B. M. Last letter to her husband Thirtieth anniversary Facing Hfe's sunset To Rev. G. W. D. November, 1875, to July, 1877. MRS. PLATT took a lively interest in Bishop Jaggar from the time he was first spoken of for the office ; and, after his election, wrote him of her interest, thanking him for accepting, and assuring him of a warm welcome to our rural households in Ohio. To this the Bishop was pleased to return this reply : DEAR MRS. PLATT : I have no words which will convey to you the peculiar pleasure which your letter gave me. It is very hard to break up the ties which bind me to my people here, and enter upon a new and untried field of labor. But your thoughtful words, and their promise of a "household welcome," assure me of a sympathy which I shall much need, and create in me already a "home feeling" towards Delaware. I shall hope, if permitted to labor in your diocese, that you will count me always your sincere friend. THOS. A. JAGGAR. PHILADELPHIA, February 4, 1875. The Bishop made his first visit to Delaware on Saturday and Sunday, October 2d and 3d (1875), at which time Mrs. Platt had the pleasure of entertaining him, and had great enjoyment in the visit. THE BIRD BOOK. 1 9! TO REV. S. C. DAMON. Friday morning, November 5, 1875. MY DEAR FRIEND : I cannot let Mr. Platt's few lines go to you with no word from me, thanking you for your welcome letter of September I5th. tell- ing of dear F 's restored health and plans. I am so glad and thankful. May all the pain and dark of his life have been in the morning the dawn; and in the evening-time may there be light, even the one " shining more and more unto the perfect day." His is a nature to suffer or enjoy to an intensity many cannot know. You can never tell me too much about this dear boy. I do hope much to see him again here. His plans are not fully laid, you say; but he hopes now to have one or two years for rest before completing his studies. How glad I am. Time enough for him to begin life- work at thirty. More and better work for his Master may be his for all these long years of waiting preparation. Let him remember who waited and waited, with such a mission before Him, for the three years of working. You cannot know how near Honolulu is to us. Indeed, heart- spirits know nothing of such barriers as oceans and mountains. And now my dear husband .has just lived on your fair islands. He finished the Bird book only last evening, and I can truly say it has been an evening delight now for some weeks' reading to me. I kept it, thinking he might be interested in it, and would like to read it to me, but I did not guess how great would be his quiet pleasure in its descriptions. I have never seen him more interested in a book. I call it the "Bird Book," for I declare the writer seems more birdlike than woman. She sings and soars in her de- scriptions, and floats about among your island glories as if she had no body to tire or feel a pain. I cannot at all understand how she could do all, or a tenth she did, unless her nature, as well as name, be Bird.* Mr. P., last evening, put down the book to open your last "Friend," and said, "Tell him of my pleasure in his notice of the book." So many thanks for the book and papers that come * The Hawaiian Archipelago : or, Six Months on the Sandwich Islands," by Miss Bird, an English lady; a very entertaining book, published in England, and given to Mrs. Platt by Mr. Damon. 19 a SWEET SIXTY. so duly, telling us of your home ! How much we all owe you ! and like to owe you ! N and baby returned to Philadelphia in September, taking our H with her for the winter. How we missed our sunny- hearted girl ! But H brought us another daughter, some weeks ago, that we love very much. She was an orphan, a sweet, true- hearted, Christian girl. They are as happy as can be. They live in Toledo. TO HER GRANDDAUGHTER, JEANETTE P. S. DELAWARE, O., Leap-year day, 1876. DEAREST GRANDDAUGHTER: I think you would have clapped your hands if you could have seen grandmother's birthday table. Your little picture stood highest, gracing all with the flowing curls and sweetest arch look. It is just a lovely picture, and 1 send herein ever so many kisses and thanks for it. A six months' birthday is a great day ; but grandma's birthday was a sixty years'. When you reach the "sweet sixteen" this will seem like almost living before the flood. But grandmother writes it for you, that this old birthday was the very happiest, gladdest, brightest birthday of her life. " Sweet sixty," as grandfather whispered early in the morning. Oh, it is ever and ever so much brighter and better than "sweet sixteen !" All behind lies so quiet and calm ; the rough places passed, all smooth ; the dashing waves all stilled ; the few little ripples re- maining sparkling with the golden light of eternity the eternal day ; floodtide steadily, surely bearing on and on toward the " shining shore," almost insight; the " City which hath founda- tions, whose builder and maker is God." There are so many birth- days in our household year, grandma always thinks may be her's can be passed without remembering ; but this birthday was full of pleasant little surprises, beginning with its eve, which opened a great box from Springfield friends. There were oranges, lemons, Malaga grapes, pine-apples, preserved ginger, etc. etc. If you only could have been in your " high chair" and seen my birthday dinner-table ! Aunt J. made it so beautiful while I went out for a walk on one of our most lovely days, with the birds beginning to sing, all about, on the 2th of February. A WORD PICTURE. 193 Just before my plate, on the table-cloth, a device in glowing autumn leaves, "60." These bright leaves and evergreens were all about in vases, etc. The centre pyramid was oranges, lemons, and bunches of beautiful grapes ; while all around my plate stood the pictures of my absent children. Aunt J. can " fix things beautifully." Not a party, only the dear old every day faces. All day long the sitting-room table was piled up with grandma's love tokens. Uncle F. said, " It seems to me sixty is the time only to eat." Not true at all. Have I not your lovely picture, and church and parsonage, sermons and essays, dress, etc., from aunt S. ; and last, but almost first, one grand, big book, "Taine's English Litera- ture," with its fly-leaf inscription, a word-picture (the prettiest pic- ture grandma ever made), which I copy for you to keep, because you may never see the painter : " To my foster-mother. In memory of the winter mornings when, before the open fire, and with cur- tains drawn, we sat with Chaucer, Spenser, Milton, and the king of poets Shakespeare himself." But I must close. Your loving GRANDMOTHER. TO F. W. DAMON. DELAWARE, OHIO, Sunday afternoon, May 21, 1876. I cannot let this dear young brother go to you, and not carry one word of loving message, dear Frank. We are so glad to hear all he tells of your health, happiness, and great success in your work as a teacher. And now you propose to "rest and study in Europe some months, and then back to old Andover" for prepara- tion for your great life-work, telling the old, old story as preacher of the Gospel. How glad, how thankful "Aunt Jennie" is for you, dear boy, you cannot know. Make Him your all in all, then health, happiness, "all things are yours." And this is "the baby* of the family." What a grand man he is going to make ! In voice and face he must be your father all over again, as he was when a boy of nineteen years. How very like him ! in many traits, too, and manner, at times. Tell dear * His brother Will, who made Mrs. Platt a visit on his way home to the Islands from Amherst College. '3 194 A WHOLE-HEARTED BOY. Mrs. Damon I do not wonder she could trust him away so far from home and home influences. He seems to want to do right so sim- ply, as if good principles had been, by Grace, engrafted from ear- liest years ; and yet with so free, full, youthful a nature, gay as a bird, sportive as the spring wind. It is good to see a whole-hearted, out-and-out boy, with such tokens of what the man may be. May the Good Shepherd shield him from all harm! How many times I have smiled and mused over his gay fun with these children, as if they were very cousins indeed. I do not know who likes him best; each teases and bothers him all the time, just as if they had been playmates from earliest childhood. Surely friendships run on and on through all time into the life eternal beyond! Now are you planning to slip by us as your father has done? Surely not. Will you want to go to Europe without a peep at Aunt Jennie? She has counted her threescore years; and her life has run on so swiftly, with such fulness, I think already she has lived two lives, two long, full lives. Every year she knows there seems less and less strength, though she is very well. Stop and see us if you can; if not possible, shall we not meet again in our Father's house ? A letter from sister E., New York, last week, says, "I had such a nice visit from Dr. Damon. I don't think he is a day older. I told him he must see you before his return home." I think he will, though he persists in saying no, for want of time. He must make time for a little peep in July. [Her last letter to her husband, written from Toledo where she was on a visit to H. Written on the anniversary of her marriage.] TOLEDO, Nov. 9, 1876. This day is very much the same day as when we two went to- gether to the old Epiphany, on this eventful morning, thirty years ago ! But how much nearer we are to each other ! What priceless blessings God had in store for us that day 1 And through all the blessed experiences from His hand, how graciously, through His mercy, has He revealed Himself to us! How tenderly He has cared for our poor, helpless children's wayward, straying feet blessing, guarding, "hedging them in" from the Evil One on every side ! And above all, to one and another, touching their hearts, FACING LIFE'S SUNSET. 195 and drawing them to choose the way of Life, so that now only two of all our eight stand without, not yet having taken upon themselves the vows of His service, and entered upon the privileges promised them in baptism. Oh, we have been wonderfully blessed! No matter if silver and gold have been withheld. If we count for anything the domestic peace and truest happiness always ours, and the unseen spiritual blessings of our home, then we two owe Him thanks and love in measure, it seems, above all others. And now, having been blessed so far, can we think He will drop us from this help and care? Never, never! The roughest part of our path is passed. We have gained the hill-top, and now we are facing life's sunset, and softer and smoother will be the road to our more and more enfeebled feet ; our hearts growing stronger and stronger in the light of the eternal day just beyond. No matter what He may permit to come as the test and trial of our faith, His word stands sure : " The path of the just is as the shining light, which shineth more and more unto the perfect day." TO F. W. DAMON. TOLEDO, OHIO, November 18, 1876. MY DEAR FRANK : Yours from New York, of 5th of November, found me here ; come to welcome a little grandson of five weeks, leaving H and M housekeepers at home. It was beginning to seem long not to hear from you ; but I knew why you could not write. Yes, I have shut my eyes many, many times to see " rosy pictures," in which you were the central figure, in all these days since you left us. How favored you are ; how happy all the little arrangements of these weeks. I like to look at them as arrangements from our Father's hand. I believe He gives to His children all that is good and beau- tiful ; every earthly good that is safe for them to have ; and never denies or disappoints, except for their highest good. You said my words had cheered you ; why I cannot see how that could be, with my " eyes shut." I have never seen any need of Aunt Jennie's words. The charming Damon home, in Philadelphia, that welcomed you and all the Centennial delights for your taste. Then 196 BEST EARTHLY GIFT. the New York friends, showing to you the " fairest flower of Chris- tian refinement and culture;" with the ocean all bridged over, through the full, dear letters from home. I have not thought I could say a word that there could be any need of, so rosy and beautiful have been all my "eyes-shut" thoughts of you. No, I do not tremble, and "fear some reverse may come, because this is not Eden," as some would say. All your present seems as a sweet compensation from a Father's hand, according to His own word. " Heaviness may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning" for all who put their trust in Him. I am so glad, so very glad for all your bright present, dear Frank ; and of all your future I read, "Whoso dwelleth under the defence of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty." "The Lord shall preserve thy going out, and thy coming in, from this time forth forever- more." And now over the sea stand Dr. Bacon's friendship and home- shelter, and dotted all about the world are firesides with loving hearts, for your father's sake, waiting your coming ; and more, and best of all, shrined and hidden it may be, now, there is pre- paring for you that companionship, God's best earthly gift to man, the little hand that shall clasp yours, stepping into your path, that you two may henceforth dwell together " as fellow-heirs of the grace of life." No matter where she is, she may be the fair child who played with you at your father's door ; or the little maiden whose mental development you watched and guided in the school- room ; no matter where or who she is, is she not in His keeping? Enough for you to know Tupper's curious old line holds a beautiful truth, though we smile : "If thou art to have a wife, she is on the earth. Pray for her." You are now in dear old Amherst. If you can find leisure for just a word again, before sailing for Europe, I shall be glad to hear how the sorrowing household now are. Though always glad to do so, I do not expect to hear from you often. Through your dear father I may hear sometimes; and the little island "Friend" may tell something of your outside life. Our friendship does not de- pend upon written words, we know. You cannot be so silent, or go so far that love and prayer cannot follow you, dear Frank. A SPECIAL MISSION. 197 TO F. W. DAMON IN EUROPE. DELAWARE, OHIO, Monday, November 27, 1876. MY DEAR FRANK: Your letter came on Saturday, and now here is your pilot-postal; how thoughtful ! And now a few words from the new home, and then I can leave you in His care. I do that now. How very near you were in my thoughts all yesterday, the dear boy on the sea. Our little Litany petition, how you seemed in it: "That it may please Thee to preserve all who travel by land or by water." How cut off from human help in peril, but how secure ! Cradled in His care was my only feeling. I say feeling rather than thought, for is not His tender compassionate care to some natures a sense, a feeling? This sensible nearness to God our Saviour we cannot tell, can only feel its meaning; the relationship of nature-fellowship of humanity with sympathies Divine a mystery baffling description, but an intelligible possession to all who are in Christ Jesus. "And God, even our own God, shall give us His blessing." What rest! And, then, so able to succor. His compassion, his experience, reaching into the darkest nights of the soul, so that He feels for us and knows us as we can make no other friend feel and know. Our lesson yesterday was St. John's beautiful and precious Good-Shep- herd chapter, and it brought back your Sunday with us, and that sermon we heard together. I said, "he has been put forth," but One has gone before. F is in New York, so I taught his Sunday-school class. How eager and pleased they looked when I mentioned the Island friend who had once taught them, and his letter written just as he was about to sail for Geneva. All knew just where Geneva was, and I rather promised them they should see you again when God brought you back to this country. For will you not try to come to us for a season, think you, in these days while "Aunt Jennie" is here? I feel sure you will want to come. If it be true that "a brother is born for adversity," how true 'tis an auntie may have a special mission. I think I have. All that God has done for me, all that I am, make my vocation, comforter in sickness or sorrow; my affinities are there. I cannot help this. Other homes full of joy and gladness may open to you in all these days of joy, "so sunny 198 MRS. S1GOURNEY. and bright," as you say; but let me have the shaded days, when you long most for the dear "own home" far away. (How glad I was, how I thanked Him for inclining your feet to me when sick and suffering in the past.) Promise me this all I ask. TO MRS. W. B. M. DELAWARE, OHIO, January 28, 1877. " How strong and beautiful is woman's love! That, taking in its hand the joys of home, The tenderest melodies of tuneful years, Yea, and its own life also, lays them all, Meek and unblenching, on a mortal's breast, Reserving nought save that unspoken hope Which hath its root in God." " A maiden hand, Fresh from its young flower-gathering, girding on That harness which the minister of death Alone unlooseth; and whose power doth aid Or mar the journey of the soul to heaven." DEAR COUSIN "BESSIE:" The above lines have been running through my thoughts ever since my cousin left us yesterday morning. Old-fashioned Mrs. Sigourney's sentiments seem just as sweet, pure, and beautiful as when, a young girl of your age, I pasted them in my old scrap- book ; though now my head is white with sixty summers! I want so much to tell you how glad and happy I am for all that you propose to try to do for this dear young cousin whom God has made so lonely, by calling home mother and grandmother, the wife of his bosom, and the invalid father. Surely, having known sorrow so early and in such fulness, he is prepared to appreciate the hap- piness before him, as from the one blessed "Giver of every good and perfect gift." No earthly happiness is true and lasting that does not rest upon the foundation of God's blessing. My cousin tells me you know this; I am so glad. Then you must both be happy, and every pain or care that may be permitted to cross your path will only more and more bind and weld you to each other. Let me assure you that the husband of thirty years is thirty times more, thirty times better and dearer than he was on the wedding- TO REV. S. C. D. 199 day. The first year is said to be the hardest in the happiest mar- ried life; no year holds our happiness secure without the divine Helper's aid and blessing. "Willie" has been nurtured as the child of prayer since his grandmother took him, a babe, to her arms. No doubt a rich legacy is his from the young Christian mother so early called away. My home was then in the East, I did not meet her at all, but have heard much of her loveliness; and I want you to know and love her sisters, for "W. B." must be very near their heart the sainted sister's only child. And whenever in the future you may feel a longing for an old face, for mother or grandmother, will you not say, " I must go to Delaware, to Cousin Jeanette ?" I do not like to travel at all, even to visit grandchildren. Somehow our whole household feel drawn to you ; so this perhaps too sober letter carries to " Cousin Bessie" our warmest, loving greeting and welcome. "Willie's" "Cousin Jeanette." TO REV. S. C. DAMON. DELAWARE, O., February 15, 1877. MY DEAR FRIEND : Thanks for your letter. From hands so busy a letter counts a large gift. After sending my letter, written while F was with us, I felt almost sorry that I did not wait for more quiet and col- lected thought and feeling about the dear boy; for could any one born under New England skies understand my words? You and Mrs. Damon would smile over the warm, unstudied, impulsive word- ing, " If words had any meaning," etc. Well, I don't care, words are miserable heart-pictures. I could not tell my feelings ; only One knows my joy in seeing for myself that he was quite well again, as He only knew the pain of that visit when he was such a sufferer, and I had so many fears. I knew He heard prayer, the parents', the friends' pleading prayer, and did hope much; but, to see the answer in all its fulness, indeed words could not tell my joy. How very soon the "afterwards" came with its "peaceable fruits of righteousness !" No doubt God meant, through the dark hour and discipline of youth, to lead his soul up into the higher, better, and happier earthly life than he could have found without 200 NORMAN MACLEOD. that pain. Or, better still to say, He chose that way, so it was the best and most blessed. You ask, do I often hear from him? No; because I told him my love does not in the least depend upon his frequent letters. How close to you all he keeps ; and what a consolation to his mother to know this, now that "the ocean is bridged over," as he said when he received the first mail from the island loved ones. How much the home-love deepened in the last three years ! I liked to watch him talking of you all ; his love for father and mother is no common love of an absent boy ; and first and closest in his heart are his island friends. How could you say those words of " thanks" and " obligation ?" Love brings its own return, does it not ? And you forget that pile of obligation our monthly " Friend" has laid up now for years upon years. And do I ever say a word about thanks and obliga- tion ? Can't you try to be as good as I am ? You do not know how near to our home is your roof-tree ; how often we talk of you all, especially when reading a book that we like, and want so much to share with you. The children have read to me lately a sweet Quaker story, "Aftermath; or, a Story of a Quiet People." I wonder if you have it? It is not by a Quaker author, but is about Quakers, leading the reader into the calm, restful atmosphere of a Quaker home, so true to life, as my child- hood knew the dear old Quakers. How I do love and honor them in their calm, peaceful life ! You would like this simple story, I am sure. And now of evenings my husband is reading to me the " Life of Norman Macleod." You have read it? I have no words to tell my delight in this man. What a rounded character ! How full of human nature, yet controlled by grace ! I get another lesson from his life not to try to read the future of children while they are being led through their first tottering, uncertain steps. Had I been his mother, when he was in Weimar, I should have lost all heart by disappointment and fear for him. Yet we see how in all he was being led by his Master's hand ; and did not that very ordeal fit him a necessary preparation for that station in life to which God had called him to work for him ? And I do stand with him in his loyal love for the Established Church (you know I would). How strong and noble was his adherence, unselfish, THOMAS GUTHRIE. 2OI and manly! "There is life in the old Church yet," he said. I knew little before; this is the first I have read of the "disruptive controversy." And Norman Macleod held on, parting from such a grand man as Chalmers. Yes, I should have been with him, just as I honor now those who hold on to the dear old English Church, above "Reform;" rather without "Reform." Not that she is perfect, but she holds the truth, and has pointed and trained many sons and daughters for the heavenly Home ; and my Quaker taste loves her old, old paths, as she is. We are not yet through the first volume. Do you know of some book that can tell me just how these parted parties worked since 1843, an< ^ now ^ n J 877? and about the Church in Scotland now? Last evening my husband brought in the "Autobiography of Thomas Guthrie." I wonder why I feel (not think) I shall not like him half so well as Norman Macleod? Have only turned the leaves yet ; shall be glad to read it; but guess he is not one of my kind of men. Did he stand with Chalmers and the Free Church? I ought to say here that Norman Macleod has been brother to my heart ever since years ago I read his "Wee Davie." A heart and hand that could give to a simple story of a blacksmith's baby-boy such power to soothe and comfort, are surely worthy of honor and love. What a talk over my book ! leaving little room to tell how our "week of prayer" brought your island so close to us. In the Methodist and Presbyterian churches meetings have continued since. Now the evangelist, the Rev. Mr. W., is here for a month, holding meetings daily in the Presbyterian church. I attend when I can. I hope great good may be done. Crowds are drawn to listen, and the old, old story is told in simplicity and earnestness. May the Holy Spirit touch and raise every heart in -our congrega- tions ! H.'s baby, Kenneth, and the mother, we hope to have with us as soon as the weather is warm enough. They let grandmother name him, and is not my Scotch name pretty ? If ever another such honor comes to me I mean to count a Norman in our house- hold. How strong are the associations of childhood. The Sun- day-school story-book, that dear Martha and I liked best of all, "Anna Ross," had in it two brothers, Kenneth and Norman Mur- ray, children of a Manse ; and these noble boys have kept their 202 THE ALPS. place in my heart all these long years. That story-book, I think, did more for me in its impressions for good than any sermon, per- haps than all the sermons I ever heard. Story-books, prayerfully written, may be chosen channels for great good. Are the story- books of this day prayerfully written ? I want to send you some autumn leaves that dear F - , with our children, gathered. TO F. W. DAMON IN SWITZERLAND. DELAWARE, OHIO, March 8, 1877. MY DEAR How happy I was to stand by you at your open window, and drink in the mystical, dreamlike scenery of winter in the Alps! Your word-picture gave me all, all, even to the heart-throb of unison as we gazed with feeling, rather than thought, in the noon- tide stillness, glad sunshine, and the air "so full of blessing." I can hear the birds that wake you in the morning, watch the burst- ing buds on the hawthorn hedge, "peopled with busy workers," and count with you daily the fresh flowers opening their eyes to the sun. Surely I am doubly rich in having my spring-time come thus early. Is it the words, the feeling, or the air, that makes your Geneva picture all a poem, full of sweetest melody? See "the Alps in snowy beauty, the silver lake mirroring the white-spread sails, under the light and sunshine of the quiet noon; the roofs of Geneva gleaming white all along the mountain base; and over the cathedral towers the mist hovers like incense, and the very air is full of calm and blessing." Now is not this a poem ring and music strain? It is to my ear and heart, dear boy. In silence we stand, with hearts going out far, far beyond and above things seen the beautiful here, from our Father's hand, faintest type and shadow of the glories of that better country eye hath not seen, nor ear heard; and our souls find rest in the words of the little Collect: "O God, who hast prepared for those who love Thee such good things as pass man's understanding, pour into our hearts such love towards Thee, that we, loving Thee above all things, may obtain Thy promises, which exceed all that we can desire ; through Jesus Christ our Lord." HENRY MARTYN. 203 You say truly, " Christian friendships are not for this life alone." Indeed, so imperfect and weak are we, so bungling are our words, so hard is it to perfectly understand and read each other's hearts and natures, must we not know true friendship is begun much more for there than here , when we shall see eye to eye, and face to face, and know each other even as we are known? Why should we not often dwell upon, in quiet thought, or in fellowship of words, the unseen world that may lie so very near us? In such moments may not the unseen ministry come very close? that cloud of witnesses, clearing Faith's vision, and touching Hope's wing. Our Elder Brother will be all in all. And shall not congenial spirits find out each other? Friends here are not made, but found, 'tis said. I have thought dear Martha (the sister your father liked best, only liking me because I was her sister) would find Henry Martyn first of all friends, delighting in fellowship with one who had touched her young life, and moulded her spirit, under God. How she loved to repeat his favorite hymn (152, Prayer Book), "The God of Abraham praise!" There was something in the sacrifice his tender, delicate nature endured, in giving up home and friends and the one dearer than life, for Christ's sake, that knit her to him in strongest sympathy. How she longed and prayed that she might be a missionary, too, from her earliest childhood ! I think you told me you had not seen the life of H. Martyn. How I wish you could look over the large English edition that Martha read. "Did I en- joy it as much as she?" No, we were not alike; the great unlike- ness make us the one we were. Naturally I do not like to look up so high to mortals. I would rather an out-and-out angel at my side, or an out-and-out brother man with angel spirit (felt, rather than ever seen or heard). "Dreadful! Aunt Jennie?" No, I don't mean anything dreadful at all. My husband has just been reading to me the "Life of Norman Macleod," and /like him ever so much better than Henry Martyn, and I cannot help it. He helps me more. Not through saintliness, but his noble manliness. You are drawn closer and closer to such a life through the magnetism of such a nature; such fulness of sympathy, such broad, grand charities and true unselfishness, so very human, therefore so brother-like ; on all sides the touch of humanity, far from perfection, capable of mistakes, only a frail, mortal, fighting brother-soldier of the church militant at your side; 204 QUIET PEOPLE. yet strong in the grace of God, upheld and upholding others, and glorying only in the Cross of Christ. You have time to read only in the line of study, I suppose. Some day you will enjoy Norman as I have, and his noble loyalty to his dear old church. And then- to see how sweetly went out his earthly life; one moment here, the next there, in His presence where there is fulness of joy and pleas- ures for evermore. I am glad you are busy with your French, German, and Italian. It is a kind Providence indeed that has led you on to all you have and may possess. I see the great gain coming from a life of travel, a rounded education, taking away all narrowness and implanting true brotherhood of feeling and sympathy with all sorts and condi- tions of men. Years ago we were interested in " Bruse's Home Life in Germany," little thinking I should ever have a boy of mine passing his Christmas-tide in that genial, charming home life, chat- ting with D'Aubigne's wife, and taking sweet counsel with Pere Hyacinthe ! (Now tell me, is he very happy with his wife? a model husband? the envy of every Romish priest? Just "woman's ques- tions;" you will please answer. And do describe his preaching.) And those dear Scotch friends did they know my Norman? And the old church of his love and trust, where stands it now in Scot- land ? I kept with him, though Chalmers and all others went over into the " Free Church." Don't laugh and say, " You don't know anything about those Presbyterian Church matters." Of course I do not ; but my Quakerism likes best old quiet " established" ways and things. By the way, I think you would much enjoy a little English story-book about the "Quiet People" of my childhood, and the going over to the old English Church. It is called "After- math ; a Story of a Quiet People;" just a woman's simple story, but there is a character in it as artless, sweat, and pure, as Shakes- peare's Imogen. I like the atmosphere and interest of the book very much. May I hand it to you some day ? Friday, P. M. What a talk about the Scotch minister! but not at "the open window." We had turned our backs upon the fair Geneva scene and were talking face to face, when you could only see Aunt Jennie, faults and all. Can we tell how much we owe to the power of imagination? I asked myself this last evening, rest- ing on the lounge before the open fire ; a dull, rainy evening, hus- I LIKE EARTHLY PEOPLE. 205 band at the table by me writing to his Indian friend, the Rev. Enmegahbowh, H chatting with a friend in the parlor, M gone to an evening meeting at the Methodist church, F k to the laymen's prayer-meeting in our own church, and F going to sleep over his physiology in the corner. I closed my eyes and was with you. Since the "week of prayer" our little city has had evening ser- vices in several churches. Then came an evangelist to the Presby- terian church for a month. Earnest, interceding prayer has gone up for His blessing. Is He not always more ready to hear than we to pray? I think every Christian heart has felt the holy influence of prayer and His fulfilled promise, " My doctrine shall drop as the rain, my speech shall distil as the dew ; as the small rain upon the tender herb, and as the shower upon the grass." I should like to hear more about the Armenian Church, where you find work for the blessed Master, all about what you do ; all about "your own self," as the children say. You "have the Episcopal service." I am glad. Now, not only in spirit, but in psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs, we cart be often together on the Lord's day. "Don't I think," you ask, you "have a won- derful father and mother?" Indeed I do, and that they have a wonderful boy, too. You see, he in a real sense belongs to me, and is there not always a glamour over all our own possessions ? I don't at all believe he is an angel, but I like him better than if he were more perfect. (That is "dreadful doctrine," too!) I like earthly people so much. Now don't be spoiled by my fine speeches, but soar away high above Aunt Jennie's standard. Tell me that you keep quite well ; and do take plenty of exercise daily. Much as I enjoy a letter from you, do not give one when you are pressed for time; never in moments stolen from out-door exercise or sleep. Dear boy, I shall love you all the same with no letters. I' know how busy you are, and all the home letters you have to write; then how much I thank you for these words before me, and the Geneva blossoms from your hand ! I will divide them with M , H , and J . She, J , has had a busy, happy winter. My tears are hardly dried over my birthday letter from her. What is more beautiful than a daughter's love? Daily in my prayers I leave you wholly to the Elder Brother's care and love. Underneath you are " the everlasting arms." 206 SUNBEAMS. TO REV. S. C. DAMON her last to him written six weeks before her entrance into life eternal. DELAWARE, OHIO, July 6, 1877. MY DEAR FRIEND: I wonder if I can answer your kind note of April, with all this chatting in the hall close by ? J , M , M , and baby Kenneth ; J has found her trunk of old letters and composi- tions, and I hear merry laughter as Martha reads, under old dates, "jolly things." How much, how much we owe to these fresh young hearts buds and blossoms that make fragrant our old lives! Every day I think I do not count up these treasures as I should, with return of love and gratitude. H is expected to-morrow for a week's vacation from his office ; F and F are at the store, Cousin J. is with a book on the parlor lounge below; so you may glance at your distant friends this charming summer afternoon. Daughter H is with a friend in Mt. Vernon, O. Sister Mit- chell has been a month with her stepson in Columbus, also giving me several weeks. Dr. Canfield was here last week. So you see there have been many reunions. Thanks for sending to me my dear sister's letter of March, 1853." How like her own heart is this letter! How long it seems since she went away! Oh so very much longer than the time until we meet. When she was called home, what heart-loneliness was mine! I remember saying to Dr. Tyng, " How can I get on with- out this sister!" I did not know what comforters sharers in joys and sorrows, sunbeams all about my path were growing up at my side, these dear children, these daughters, so much more than sis- ters could be. And you and Mrs. Damon are becoming rich in daughters, too. His blessing surely rests upon you and yours, dear friend. As for F , does the sun shine upon a more happy fellow ? Indeed it seems like dazzling high noon all the time with him. I rejoice for his present golden days with the most cultured, scientific, and earnestly religious minds of our age. Was there ever' a more favored boy? Who can wonder if he become enchanted under some lotus spell? You must please thank him for his joint letter A MOTHER'S TREASURE. 207 to "Aunt Jennie" and the " cousins." We shall wait to answer it, should we ever be favored to see him again, and he come down to mortals out of the enchanted land. You ask if we see his letters that are published in the " Friend?" Indeed we do, reading them with delight, as from one whom we dearly love, whose life we believe God will make noble and grand with His blessing, even that blessing that " maketh rich and addeth no sorrow." The "Friend" with letter No. 5 has just been opened. You must tell me from time to time' if you please, of his movements. Where is he now? I am sure these "Friend" letters, and what you may please to say, is all we should expect from him. My only one fear for him is that he may be overcrowded with work or study. He has made Geneva, Switzerland, so near to us. I am trying to per- suade a youth just graduated from the college here to go to that beautiful city to complete his education. His father, Mr. G , was once an admirer of Mrs. Hyacinthe he tells me, and he is sure she would become his friend. H and M have been saying, "I am going to write to Cousin Will Damon," for ever so many months. A little while a g J' said, "Mother, / will write to Will;". so I now think he will get a cousin's letter soon. Oh how glad I am to have this "dear girl back ! She was gone one whole year. But the tears will come at the thought of sparing her again ; yes, though I see all the good, great and lasting good, I trust this year of separation has given. And I see how He has sheltered one so defenceless, guard- ing from every harm amid such danger ; so that I have her returned to me all my own, with no heart-ruler coming between us. You may laugh ; I am willing to spare my dear boys, but want to always keep these daughters, selfish as this sounds. You do not know what it is to own a daughter, read and hold her nature in your hand, know her possibilities for misery or happiness; only a mother can understand what I mean. I ought to say, the "Mary and Kenneth" of my letter mean H.'s sweet wife and baby; the " Cousin Jennie" is a young Phila- delphia cousin. N and babies are at Atlantic City. 208 SOUL HYMNS. FROM MRS. PLATT TO REV. GEORGE DUBOIS, a young Methodist Minister. DELAWARE, July 23, 1877. DEAR MR. DUBOIS: I am tardy with my thanks for your two books from the brother- in-law's library. The rich, pure soul-hymns are the more sacred, and filled with more power, from having about them, here and there, the little imprint of what God made them to another soul, one now on " the other side," in His presence, where there is fulness of joy. So many of his marked passages seem perfect. Over and over again I have read this : " Man's weakness, waiting upon God, Its end can never miss; For men on earth no work can do More angel-like than this." And " 111 that He blesses is our good, . An unblest good is ill ; And all is right that seems most wrong, If it be His sweet will." When the books came our house was full, our summer reunion of children and grandchildren giving me no leisure, so I let your other book slip at once into a "mission," I hope. Poor Mr. G. (Rev., I believe) called to return a book of mine by the same author, and I ventured to put into his hand-your book. Was I very wrong? .... , Have you ever seen Norman Macleod's "Wee Davie," a tiny book? When Mrs. T returns it I want to send it to you. WONDERFUL LOVE. 2Op XIX. "I will surely show thee kindness for Jonathan's sake." Letters to a nephew J. H. C. Heart-talks Deep interest in the spiritual devel- opment of the son of her dearly-loved sister. 1865 to 1874. The manuscript copies of these letters were sent to her nephew for review. He returned them with the following appreciative note. May 27, 1881. MY DEAR UNCLE : You have given me such pleasure-pain, such sweet bitterness in the task which you assigned me ! Just at the close of my fourth year here, a year which God has kindly crowned with marked success in a life which has already become an absorbing passion, surrounded by those to whom my heart goes out in such a sincere, tender, helpful, affectionate interest, you place before me the loving words of one who, perhaps, more than all others, except my own parents, would have delighted in this success in the path Which she herself pointed out to me years before it seemed to be among even the possibilities. What a night this has been, as alone in my library, with the evidence of my daily life thrust aside, I have opened my heart to all the influences of her counsel, the sweet words of the days gone by. With all the keenness of my appre- ciation, how far short I fell of the wonderful love for me of this foster-mother. How little did I realize its depth and strength ! As years have broadened and deepened my experience, as I find my own children about me, I begin to see how much we all lost when this pure, earnest, all-loving spirit left us. I wonder now that you, of whose very self she became a part, and whose daily life she ever cheered, did not suspect, long before we lost her, the presence of hidden and angelic wings. The compiler was obliged to give up the work of copying per- sonally the following letters of Mrs. Platt to a favorite nephew. He gave them for this purpose into the hands of a beloved friend 14 210 A LOVING TRIBUTE. of hers. What he says of them is such a fitting preface, and such a loving tribute to their author, I take the liberty of inserting it here: "As you read the letters over you will see revealed anew the sweet and lovely character of her who was so unspeakably dear to us. It seems almost as if you could hear her voice, so natural to herself is all the written thought and sentiment. Her letters were always what she herself said genuine letters should be, 'heart- talks.' It islhis that gives them their preciousness. Sometimes it is almost startling, the unreserve with which she speaks. Her brain and heart appeared almost as one, so inseparably were they blended. What one thought the other felt, and both were always visible in her letters. Throughout this entire correspondence what strikes one the most forcibly is the clear, serene faith in God's providence, that nothing could ever darken. Again and again she tries to im- press on her young nephew the lesson which she herself had learned long before, and found so full of consolation and peace. This illimitable faith in God was, I think, the grand attribute of her character. Lying at the very foundation of her being, and per- vading all her life, it was this, perhaps, above all things else, that rendered companionship with her so elevating and inspiring. To live within her influence was to dwell in an atmosphere not alto- gether earthly." TO HER NEPHEW, at Williams College, Massachusetts, where he had entered the fall previous. DELAWARE, March 12, 1865, Wednesday before Easter. MY DEAR J. : A few hurried lines from sister E., received Monday, informed me of your intention to be confirmed on last Sunday morning in your father's church. The notice came too late for me to be with you in spirit; but I cannot tell you, dear boy, how often since unbidden tears of joy have come. My precious sister's prayers thus fulfilled ! May she not, nay, must she not, have been with that "cloud of witnesses" hovering o'er? In her own sweet words: A MOTHERS PRAYER. 211 " O dwellers of the skies ! If from our sight the mist that dims it flee, Angelic forms, bright spirits should we see, Heaven's blessed band, in rapture hovering o'er. Oh ! should the seal that binds our listening ear Melt now away, what music should we hear ! What sounds of joy from every golden lyre, Soft breathing forth the spirit's kindling fire ! New songs of praise to Christ, the Lamb, are given, And lofty strains sound through the court of Heaven. Deep, fervent prayer, Breathe forth for those thus kneeling there ; For they have turned from earth with solemn vow, To make the Lord their God their portion now. Oh, many foes will seek to lead astray, Therefore for these lift up thy heart and pray ! A rugged path it may be theirs to tread, A bitter cup to drink of anguish dread ; A few short years may cloud each youthful brow, So brightly fair, so clad in beauty now. Oh, therefore pray that to each soul be given Strength to endure till rest is gained in Heaven ; Hope that may live when earthly pleasures fade, Peace that may bless when foes the breast invade." These words may be familiar, but I could only speak my heart in her thoughts. There remains yet one other wish unfulfilled; that God will call you by His grace to preach the unsearchable riches of Christ, to stand in her beloved brother's place, who Dwells amid the throng That Jesus' praises sing. May the Lord bless thee and keep thee, my sister's precious boy, and guide thee into all His holy will ! A mother's prayer en- circles you. Lean on your Saviour's arm, youn shield and guide ; Fear not your spirit to His care confide; He shall protect you through the years to come, To find at last one rest, one heaven, one home. Dear James, these are your aunt's loving thoughts for you, that would thus go to you. I do not expect reply ; you can have but little time for letter-writing, and I have become a real old lady as 212 SEVENFOLD REGRET. to correspondence, and very seldom write, amid my sevenfold baby cares. But I expect fully the time will come that Aunt Jennie and thee will know and love each other well. If I am called away, these cousins, children of your mother's nearest, dearest sister, will be dear to you, and you will ever seek their highest good in years to come. From a letter to her nephew, written the next day after he had left her house, where, with his father and sister, he had been visit- ing for a few days. The visit was highly enjoyed by Mrs. Platt. It gave her great d.elight to entertain the husband and children of her own dearly-loved sister once more. DELAWARE, May 3, 1865. MY DEAR BOY : We did, indeed, sadly miss you. Sevenfold regret was ex- pressed in seven different ways by the seven. M wanted to go up to "M 's bed" soon as she awoke, and begged her father to say no more about such a bad story, when he proceeded to say you were all gone in .the cars. They will never forget your pleasant visit, not one of them. I believe God's blessing will rest t upon it. A bright, brave, manly spirit, joined with an earnest desire to do only right, will ever hereafter be before the boys in their own cousin James. God bless you, dear boy, and everywhere make you His chosen messenger for good ! . . . I was so glad you had that talk with N about dancing, on your way home from Dr. M 's. You hold just your mother's views, and I believe mine are the same, and it seems strange N does not think and feel with us. But you can hardly take into account the force of surrounding influence of companions and older church members, not only our own people, but of other denominations, too. When your mother and I came first to Dela- ware we found mothers attending a "female prayer-meeting," with most earnest prayers for their daughters' conversion ; and the next day, perhaps, fixing them for a dancing party! "Could see no more harm in dancing than talking away an evening," etc. I do not know of one here who holds the pure, true, old-fashioned views of "Annie Sherwood." Did you know that "Annie's" A BLESSED TREAT. 213 school history and character was a living portrait of your mother? All the characters were drawn from life. How very pleasant to look back over your visit, though it was so hurried and confused, of necessity. There are some who always pay for pleasure ; T am one. But a pleasure that is not worth pay- ing for, is to me scarcely worth having. I am almost well again, and am only so glad and thankful that you came. DELAWARE, Independence Day, 1865. MY DEAR NEPHEW : i The kittens, chickens, Mary in the kitchen, and I, are keeping house. Uncle, with the seven, has gone a carriage load of the younger, gentler kind, and a wagon-load with provision baskets, F. and F. G., and H. following for a family drive and picnic in the woods, near a beautiful spring some miles "down country." So I am going to make a little visit to Williamstown this very pleas- ant summer morning. I have taken the little room by the parlor for my own this sum- mer, so you may drop in at any time and see how much more quiet and orderly and comfortable we seem, now that our yard is made ' comparatively private, sodded and grassed, with the door of my little room opening on the old porch, with its pleasant shade of vine leaves, and clustering bunches of fruit, hanging-baskets, etc. Your visit (in April) was all hurry-flurry, with no quiet moment; but never mind, it was all, every moment, full of enjoyment to me and mine. To N especially it was a blessed treat. The warm brotherly interest of one older, yet a companion in age, was so new and pleasant] a fresh spring of enjoyment, I guess she never knew before. I believe she is always liked and greatly respected, for her points of character are those of genuine true worth. Hers is a peculiar character, certainly like neither father nor mother. Yet I do not fear for her happiness, even in a temporal view. Her truthfulness, frankness, and want of secretiveness, I consider all as safeguards and warrants. of happiness. Such characters are never renowned for wisdom or power; they may be imposed upon, but they never impose upon others, and may pass along life with heart "void of offence toward God and man ;" so with inward peace and quiet, and far less trial and temptation than fall to the wise and 214 GOOD OLD TRUTHS. wary. Observation and experience lead me to think the maker of such characters keeps them under His more especial care. I must look upon your acquaintance as a source of pleasure and supply of need given from His hand Wednesday, July 5th. I could not but look out with you on the calm Sabbath scene, and hear all the sweet country sounds, with good old "Coronation," that met your ear when you last wrote. My heart home has ever been in the country. "God made the country," and man the busy, smoky, jostling town, sung Cowper ; and so say I. But as we get on and on through life's journey we more and more learn that the soul's happiness and holiness depend so little upon exter- nals, surrounding circumstances. It seems, indeed, that the most favorable periods to the poor pilgrim's view, when he feels just ready to exclaim, "This is the gate of heaven," now I can rest, rest, and hold close communion with God then it is our great enemy, "as an angel of light," is permitted to come especially near, to mar and spoil what is enough like Eden to be his especial hate. It is a long way on the Christian journey before we can fully learn and believe this, and know it is in the fiery furnace, lion's den, or Peter's prison cell, that the soul feels the sweetest peace and closest communion with God our Saviour. God places each child, doubtless, in just those circumstances most favorable for his growth in grace, so that with a cheerful heart and willing feet we have only to daily strive to "do our duty in that slate of life unto which it shall please God to call us," as teaches our in- valuable catechism. You must not forget your mother's prayer-book, while feasting on the good old truths of Congregationalism. The more the one is learned and tried and proved, the more strong and pure and true will the other appear, our own old paths. I have not a fear for you, dear boy. God will guide and keep you, and teach you all His holy will. Your whole future is safe with Him. Mrs. Platt had written to her nephew asking him to become sponsor for her youngest child. This letter is in reply to his ob- jecting to assuming that responsibility, because of the geographical A HIGH CALLING. 215 distance between the families, and the probability that they would never be much nearer. The child died in infancy six months afterwards. DELAWARE, Day after Christmas, 1865. Truly, most deeply, can I enter into all your feelings about "the great responsibility," the "most solemn duty of the Christian guar- dianship" of a child. If another can so estimate, how must this press upon a parent's heart! You can never know, dear boy, until you come to bear that relation to a child the anxious, agonizing moments, sleepless hours, when the care of children can only be borne as it is carried to Him who has said, "casting all your care upon Him." Yet, if only faithful, it is a high calling and most blessed privilege to thus receive these little ones as from Him, simply believing His own word, "Take this child, and nurse it for me, and I will give thee thy wages." It is a loving and beautiful provision of our church that provides for parents, helpers, in their children's sponsors. Parents cannot turn aside from their care and duty; God has laid it upon them. Is it not the same voice and leading hand calling to duty when a parent says, "Will you be sponsor to my child?" and a little lamb of His fold is thus carried to you for your prayers and Christian guardianship so far as He enables you ? I think so, and that no Christian has the right to turn away in any case. He can only do for the child all that is in his power. Hindering circumstances are not of his appointment. Personal unfitness can be supplied from Him "who strengthened all." If a child grows up knowing she has her sponsor's prayers, God has cast a shield and blessing about her path, though she may never see that sponsor's face, nor hear one advising word from his lips. Perhaps our loved little one may be early called to the Good Shepherd's sheltering arms, and will need no earthly guardianship or care. Certain it is, dear James, she can have no other sponsor but you besides her father no other godfather. So while I love and honor your motives, and fully "believe you acted in refusing, only in accordance with what seemed duty," "the only course that seemed right," I am not at liberty to accept your refusal. We want some one to be here when we are gone. I was intending to write you, when her father suddenly decided upon the day of leaving for his Eastern trip, and 21 6 OUR NURSERY. the baptism we did not wish put off. He might never return. So in the hope you would yield to our request her father stood in your place, with her aunt H and sister N . And the baptism is entered in the family Bible as above. "Parents shall be admitted as sponsors if it be desired." But we desire you, and no other, dear boy, and so I will it shall stand, for the next five years at least. Then, should this little lamb be spared, and you still continue to urge release from our wishes, we will again consider the subject. Till then, though this may be a point of difference between us, it is not going to do a bit of harm. I was very naughty not to tell you (when I wrote to ask you) that the baby had already been baptized, was I? I don't think so. It was only the wisdom of the serpent, and harmlessness of the dove. If I had said, "It is passed, you would, I know, decline at once, without even considering the subject. No one would even an old and mature Christian seek such a responsi- bility, or accept it, unless he felt God, by his providence, called him to the duty. N felt even more averse than you do, and nothing I could say moved her. But the Rev. Mr. French, a dear family friend, providentially coming, said a few words that helped her much ; and she at last consented, in hope and belief that you would be with her as a helper by your prayers and counsel, in the years and duties to come. Should the parents be called away, I have fullest confidence this, their earnest, prayerful wish, will bind you in these loving Church bonds to this orphan child, and our N will not be alone with her sacred cares and duties. I wish you could just peep into our nursery this evening. At our left father and F are deep in backgammon. H on the right, lost in "Our Young Folks." H is knitting away, and J has just come in from putting M to bed, and says it is "not near bedtime, she has had so little time to read to-day." F sleeps on the lounge close by, and your little C sleeps sweetly in her crib. She is the most lovely, though not at all the most beautiful, baby we ever had. I never had such comfort in a little one. Monday morning. I am always so glad to hear from you. Busy boy, that you are, I cannot expect to hear often ; and then you will have to take a MY LIFE WORK. 217 poor, short reply, not an answer at all. Since Christmas I have had no nurse, and baby used up pretty much all the time, as there is no child I am willing to keep from school. So I must just be nurse till one turns up, which, I trust, will be soon ; for, indeed, I do not love to sit all day and rock babies, and answer questions to a noisy group of little ones, who seem to think " mother" means a body to answer questions, tie shoes, and settle differences from morning till night. But yet I do most heartily (if not always most patiently) accept this as my life-work, and feel constantly to count over my treasures and call out, " Who, who is richer than I?" It seems like but poor work, doesn't it? But if I am fit for nothing higher? Well, I am fully persuaded of this: God sur- rounds each child with just those circumstances that, with His blessing, will most surely and safely bring him home at last. How I wish you were here to keep the feast of Lent with us. 'Tis truly a precious, consecrated season, this yearly "protracted meeting" of our beloved Church. Friday, March 23, 1866. I hardly know how to lay down baby; yet, as Quakers say, am so "drawn" to say a few words to thee. Just because in a letter received lately from sister E she mentions, " J has been reading ' Goode's Better Covenant,' and likes it so much ; you know how much his mother loved it." I am so glad you have read this book, so great a favorite of your dear mother and myself. It was one of the books she "drank in" her own expressive phrase. You are almost, if not the only, young person that has been drawn toward this book, as I have heard, for so many years; though I have urged so many, and offered my dear old copy in vain. I began to settle down into the conviction that the taste of young people had changed entirely. I wish you had my old books, with their pencilled margins by your dear uncle's hand.* There were six years that he waited, after he had to put by all hope of entering the ministry. I can see him now that feeble frame, lovely face, in its clear, childlike expression, so full of noble, manly thought, sitting in quiet thought over these books and his little paragraph-Testament. There is another book he liked much, * Her brother, James Hulme. 2l8 A MISSION OF LOVE. published about the same time with "Goode's Better Covenant," "Russell's Letters, Practical and Consolatory; Designed to Illus- trate the Nature and Tendency of the Gospel." Its motto, "These things we write unto you, that your joy may be full;" with an in- troductory essay by the Rev. H. Boardman, of Philadelphia (Pres- byterian, you know). There, I have given most of the title page. If you should like ever to have it, and it is not within reach, let me loan you these dear old volumes. I am so glad you like these old things, dear, dear boy ! It seems as if in you, her own boy, we were again side by side, reading and feasting, as in days never to return. That precious, precious sister ! But who, who would call her back to earth ? No ; rather let us all press on to join her at the marriage supper of the Lamb. Darling baby is very unwell, and I have had broken rest for many nights, so cannot be very bright, though with unchanging love. DELAWARE, June 10, 1866. Sunday after Trinity. MY OWN DEAR J. You are never altogether out of sight and mind. Believe this when weeks pass, and no tidings reach you of our loving interest. The past has been a season of unusual care and anxiety, my own and baby's health so poor; the little darling so feeble and back- ward in every respect; now past ten months, yet seeming in strength and intelligence a babe of three or four. The doctor took her en- tirely from my care, and now, weaned, we see improvement; but not in strides, but slow, not quite imperceptible creeps. But I think the conflict, the bitterness of struggle, is past. I trust His peace has come for the darling ; and I have been brought to just leave her in his hands, who doeth all things well. She has been sent to us on some mission of love; I know this. If I cannot wholly read it here, I shall know hereafter. " Sweet to lie passive in His hand, And know no will but His." I owe you two or three letters ; it is too bad. N 's school will -close in a week or two, then she will write. With school and A MISSIONARY SPIRIT. 219 baby care, dear child, she has always a burden large as she can carry. How I wish you could come and see her this summer. Do you know you can never do so much for our N in any other way? It would cheer and comfort, reward and bless her, in the fullest sense, "so it would," as children say. Now, won't you come? Think how many, many years / went without seeing my precious sister's boy. And now the sweet intercourse seems to bring the mother back. Your letters, I cannot tell you how in spirit they are hers. The often playful manner is all "Aunt Jennie." So you see, these letters in a very sacred, loving, and also in a very selfish, conceited sense, must be uncommonly pleas- ant to me. By this time you have heard of your father's unexpected visit. I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed it. He was always a pleas- ant brother to me, and I think this visit he was more as in days past. For, dear boy, the calling away from his side such a spirit as your mother's, left a mark, a loss; a sad, sad loss to him it was. I think the holy influences that were at work about his path this winter have not passed in vain, but left upon him a refreshed, re- vived spirit in his Master's work. No doubt you too are a blessing now to him, a real helper and sharer in his work, unseen, unguessed, but yet direct, powerful influence for good from above; the return of the wife's prayers, through her own boy, upon the best beloved of her heart. You like Henry Martyn just with your mother's warmth. I never liked memoirs, as a general thing ; she always did. Per- haps all she became in religious character (so remarkable Dr. Tyng always considered her) was, humanly speaking, formed by this sainted man of God, Henry Martyn. I think she honored and revered him, as she did no other, as the holiest, most truly devoted of men. From the time she knew him (through his memoir) her whole heart glowed with a missionary spirit. To go to Persia, to teach those dark children of Jesus how her heart longed to be permitted to do this! How well, how well I remember! She was then but a child in years. She gave herself up to the Lord for this work, and all her home work, infant-school, Sunday-school, and Bible class, etc. etc., afterward was done with the same burning, loving, consecrated missionary spirit. I must copy for you some day a piece of poetry, her favorite at that early period. 220 HONOR THY GRANDMOTHER. Did you ever put upon your shelves "Cecil's Remains"? James's little favorite. I am so sure, from the cast of your mind, that you will like it. And " Payson's Thoughts," that was another of his little books But I must get my long dozy letter to the mail. DELAWARE, December 23, 1866. Fourth Sunday in Advent. I had not a moment when I sent off your little book to tell you why I sent it. I do so love to feel that you and M. are grouped with our own little ones this blessed gift-season, and always remem- ber you in some token of no value, only as Aunt Jennie's gift with her true love. A country village is no place for suitable selections. Miss Proctor has written some sweet poetic verses, if she is a Ro- manist; I thought you would think so. Was tempted to send a copy of the "old-fashioned" Poems by Mrs. Hemans, but the copy was so badly bound. Besides, I had not time to trace out in its margin all the pencil-marks made by your dear mother in the whole family copy which was hers and mine, a Christmas gift from our brother James so many, many years ago. This was her favorite book of poetry; "answering spirits" I always thought them. What readings and talks we had over those little volumes ! No one speaks of Mrs. Hemans these days. Nevertheless, some day you shall own a copy (if you have not one already) just for the mother's sake. This letter is in reply to one from her nephew telling of his Chistmas vacation, passed at his grandmother's house. DELAWARE, February 4, 1867. I am always so glad to hear from you. I do believe the older we grow the more we turn to young hearts. I am glad you felt it was right to pass your vacation in A . Not until you number as many years as they, can you know how much comfort and delight is the boy grandchild and grand-nephew to the grandmother's and old aunty's heart. Next to a mother^are duty and honor due a grandmother. It is but a little way that they can be with us on life's path. Mine were called hence before my remembrance; and my children are without theirs. I well remember your Aunt P., SWEET- REST, HOPE AND PEACE. 221 though all the circumstances of my sorrowful visit to Vermont* are indistinct. Yet her simple kind attentions, our many little chats together as I lay sick upon "the alcove" bed (in her room, I guess) I do well remember. She gave me a tiny Methodist hymn- book, in which I wrote her name, as a parting gift. To do all in your power to cheer and comfort these aged relatives is just what your dear mother would wish. Consideration was, perhaps, the beauty of her character. You have indeed been snow-bound all over New England, and everywhere almost. -We have stood 28 below zero one day, the next 32 above! That is Ohio weather; I don't love it, though I do love Ohio. The young folks have had plenty of sleighing, too. You seldom get to Episcopal service, do you? How sweetly suggestive of comfort and hope was the Collect for yesterday ! (4th Sunday after Epiphany). It seemed sent to comfort me. Will you not every Sunday remember me and mine, in reading with me the "Collect, Epistle, and Gospel for the day"? DELAWARE, March 2, 1867. You cannot well understand how I enjoyed your letter ; how it comforted, soothed, and refreshed my fainting heart, being sent to me on a day when I most needed its setting forth of the precious old truths truths the more and more precious the longer tried and tested. Every word I appreciate, and thank you for with all my heart. I believe your letter just lifted my feet, and fixed my eye upon the Helper, and sweet rest and hope came back, and there has only been peace ever since. Help and direction seemed to pour in, whether I looked at God's Word, or opened other books, or tried to read the whispering voice of His providence. All said, " He abideth faithful." " Wherefore doubt, O ye of little faith?" Goulburn's "Thoughts on Personal Religion." You will not at all like his views on the sacraments. But, indeed, this does not taint the book, nor make it less wonderful as a practical help and comfort to all earnest Christian people. Since seventeen years of age, when I read (rather studied) Dr. Tyng's "Law and the * This refers to Mrs. Plait's visit in September, 1855, immediately after the death of her sister, Mrs. C. 222 TOM BROWN. Gospel," I have never met with any book that I thought ought to so benefit me. Everyone may not like it, but I wish you could see it, and read carefully a few chapters at least. I should put " Devo- tional Reading" to be read first, but the author does not. N thinks the chapters on prayer the best she ever read upon that sub- ject. "Alms-giving" and "Temptation" I like so much, too. Here and there I meet with a sentence /should not have said. I think it cannot be read without a blessing to an earnest, prayerful mind. DELAWARE, March n, 1867. MY OWN DEAR : With my foot on the sewing-machine, which I ought to be turn- ing this moment, I am going to say, your good- night sleepy kiss just reached me I only sawj^w, in "Tom Brown at Rugby." His genial naturalness, his warm whole-heartedness, his above all pretence and shams, his out and out boyishness in his love of all out-door things and doings, in the way he walked into everybody's good graces, and took hearts by storm, because his own unselfish nature made him able to give everybody his own due, and understand and draw out all the good in those about him ; above all, his genuine truthfulness, that could not put on or deceive, even if he wanted to do so ; all his first letters the very words and thoughts seemed as if "our Jeems" wrote them. I declare, Tom went right into our hearts, so much so that I could bear with a good deal from him at Oxford all the first volume. But sad (for him) to say, patience died out in the second, and you disappeared, and I about gave up my pet Tom altogether. My former letter was written before I read the last volume ; yet it is so well written, and contains some excellent sentiments. But some- how I dare to question its usefulness. Such drinking and carousing, and billiard-playing and gambling ! and Tom giving countenance far too much and too often, and he a professedly religious boy, too. I was so sorry, and ashamed of him so often. What do you think about "Oxford" Tom? J heard your letter, as I read it to N , and seized a pen and scribbled off a letter in a few minutes, saying she " would not let me read it for the world j" so I let her send it just as it is. I will remember you to "Delaware friends." You could not THE RIGHT WAY. 223 have a more lovely, simple-hearted, cultivated cousin, than our F S . She is a lovely girl by nature, and through grace, I trust. J permits me to put this in her "delicately-tinted" envelope. Saturday Morning. MY DEAR BOY: (I wonder if you would rather not I should use this address ? Just what your mother would say comes always before me when I am thinking of speaking to you.) I am so glad to have you write to N . Our cousins are very much as brothers and sisters, and it is something to have such an elder brother come into the family just as character is fixing for life. You said something in N 's letter about my not thinking your playful "talk very like that which a C should write." Now I think a letter is but a free, full, outspoken talk from heart to heart, as though seated side by side. Any way that is perfectly natural is the only right way, and the sure way to gain the reader's heart ; and that must be first done if ever we hope to influence for good, don't you think so? When the influence is gained, then advice and counsel will be received and followed, not till then. It was your cheery, pleasant, unsolemn manner that took the hearts of all these cousins. DELAWARE, July 29, 1867. . Now I have given you quite a peep into my nursery, for which you must tell me all about yourself and your poor back. Does it pain you all the time? Is it more easy when you lie down? How many weeks and months of your dear mother's life were passed on the sofa! Nearly all her books and bits of poetry were written on her portfolio as she reclined. How her loving heart would mourn over your present trial, if she could now be busy about you ! Ah ! God has not permitted you to know the sooth- ing, helping comfort of a mother's love. But may she not now minister to her precious boy? I know, dear child, she is not troubled about you. On " the other side" she sees'things not as we look at them. Every appointment, every pain from that Father's hand, she knows is sent in love. "Forever with the Lord," "knowing as she is known," that tender mother's heart that was 224 A PURE UNSELFISH WOMAN. so torn with anguish when she saw her children suffer here, now trusts them to the Lord. " He doeth all things well." Does reading increase the pain in your back ? I wish I knew what kind of books you like. People differ in taste for books as much as taste for food. Surely, in this world of books, everybody can be suited. A new book seldom gets into my hands before it is old. Last week I was charmed with " Memoir of Cousin Alice." She was a woman above women ; yet your mother was high above her. Yes, high above. "Alice B. Haven" was "our Martha" from earliest childhood, in principle too lofty, too pure, too unsel- fish for mortals to appreciate. Yes, that was your mother, lost to you until she welcomes you to her heavenly home. For this week's reading on the table is "Catharine," by Adams (author of "Agnes and the Little Key"); you will not like that, but under it is the "Diary of Kitty Trevyllan." I suppose you have read it? If not, I guess you would like the simple, sweet, quaint old English style. I like it so much, even better than the "Chronicles." So far as I have looked into it "Kitty" is sweet and fresh as a primrose; with a heart so unworldly, a real rest to look into in these days of artificial goodness, worldliness, expedi- ency, that cover everything and almost everybody "The Bow in the Cloud," by Macduff, is a little book so full of comfort. Ask your father to bring it to you, and look it over for my sake. DELAWARE, November 10, 1867. 2 1st Sunday after Trinity. MY OWN DEAR J. : Is it easy to believe a call is thoroughly appreciated and enjoyed, when there is not one outward sign of response? Your letter was so welcome, so son-like in its loving thoughtfulness of my missing the dear elder children, I simply could not answer have not been troubled at my seeming neglect, for I am sure every loving, generous act has its reward from Him who notices every cup of cold water given in His name. Doubtless the reward has re- turned unto your own bosom. It may have been in the sweet peace and "quiet mind" (as the little Collect for to-day has it) "through Jesus Christ our Lord," shed down upon you these past weeks. LITTLE THINGS. 225 My good Mary has not come back yet, and with N away it has been impossible to write letters. Some days I am a little too tired ; but still we have done wonderfully, and the children have learned much that is useful .... When the hour for church came the bed seemed the place most suitable, and I do not know how I got ready and went only as helped and influenced by One who loves and knows what is best for us. How refreshed I came home! with new life, new strength, new hope. Truly "they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength." " Who is made unto us wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption," was the theme. The Lesson was Naaman's story. To "go and wash" seemed such a little thing; so are kneeling in the house of prayer, searching the Word, but little things; yet God has joined unto these little acts His richest blessing. Sunday Evening. I was interrupted, but will try to finish now, though my eyes do not like lampliht. I did not mean by my "weariness" of this month that the soul was cast down. There are times, after many years have passed, when you will find the body seems to triumph; its needs, wants, weaknesses,, overpower the spirit, but All unseen the Master walketh By the toiling servant's side, and as the day, so is his strength. I have thought a good many times to-day, after the refreshment of the sanctuary, there may have been many others thus helped and blessed through the house of prayer. How great the honor, how unspeakable the privilege, to be made the bearer of these messages of love and mercy ! the position and work that angels might covet. "Beautiful" indeed are their feet. It may be as well not to know your future work, while storing your mind and preparing for life's battle; yet my prayer is that the Lord will permit you, and call you to His service. The following letter answered one in which was reflected a long, trying, though not severe, illness, in the midst of many self-assumed duties outside of college work, and in the very busiest part of senior year; in every respect the most intense of her nephew's academic 15 226 SAFELY KEPT. life. Impatient at what seemed to him undue dependence on his father's care than which none could be more loving and gen- erous he had already determined to sever his connection with home as soon as he should be graduated ; and, in a half-morbid way, could see nothing but years of drudgery and toil for mere existence. This was the feeling which prompted the expression about another visit to Philadelphia, to which reference is here made, and which colored the entire letter. The portion about "early engagements" sprang out of some merry banter in a previous letter of Mrs. Platt's, in which she played upon the expression "heart disease," which her nephew had written her he sometimes feared. DELAWARE, January 21, 1868. MY OWN DEAR J : If I thought you were all quite over the cold, and the strong well senior was up, I would begin my letter one way, and not as I am going to just as I felt when I laid down your sheet of the i2th. (If there is no kind of chime in your heart, just lay it away until the next cold comes.) " Poor, motherless boy!" I said; and before me seemed those yearning, tender, loving, trusting eyes; that only belonged to your mother. What the writer of that letter would have been to her ! the answering heart-beat that would have gone out ; the wrestling prayer for God's best blessing upon him; for His guardianship over his health, outwardly in his body, and inwardly in his soul ; that He would keep his feet, so that every moment of his life, which had been given through her, and counted and loved as part of her very self, should be laid at the Redeemer's feet, used only for His glory. Nearly "through college." Oh, what would not that mother be to you now, dear boy! We would not call her back, we need not. More than mother's love, more than mother's sympathy, more than mother's power, encircles you, "about your path, about your bed," keeping you in all your ways. He took her in love from you; for are not all His dispensations only love towards His chil- dren ? And He Himself, therefore, will supply your every want. Now you stop and wonder, "What did I write, that brought all this tide of feeling over Aunt Jennie?" Nothing at all; it just EARLY ENGAGEMENTS. 227 came. But you are your mother's own child, and, write as you will, your letters always say, "Martha, Martha," to me. You speak of your "glowing plans" for vacation five weeks. I was going to say, when fiftieth Christmas holidays are reached, how few glowing plans would come through the tide of past ex- periences that must come over them. But, then, I don't know that the glowing principle ever does get old, does it? Never mind about the Western cousins. What is denied one vacation may be fully granted at another time. This Christmas was not the time, you see. So I think we should try to take all, little and great, " crossed purposes," in the very childlike spirit so often and much enjoined for our feeble imitation ; as the baby, with one look up to his mother's face, forgets the toy forbidden, and takes up an- other to his heart's content. I am so glad N is with M , and in good, kind care. How shall I repay the ten thousand kindnesses shown her during this visit? "Critical" Miss H has written me such pleasant words about her; "everywhere leaving pleasant impressions," John says, and Dr. B , etc. How does this make her mother feel? Humble, grateful to the loving Hand that has so marked this dear child's unselfish devotion, and weary tasks for her mother and little brothers and sisters, and kept it from doing her any harm, and now gives to her this full reward, in which her mother, too, so largely shares. She is now just at the age when, perhaps, young life is fullest. I rejoice for these few months untouched by care. Why do you say, " It may be years before I shall be ever able to make even such a hasty trip to Philadelphia again?" I have no faith in " Sheldon water" for a Buckeye boy. What he wants is the old .Delaware spring, with powerful curative properties as Virginia's White Sulphur, from which his auntie daily carried the little "sulphur stones" to bathe his baby face. And now about "early engagements." Who said Aunt Jennie doesn't like them ? I do not like long engagements ; I know they seldom have a happy end. I do not want any child of mine, or you, dear J., to try it. I will not trust myself to write upon this theme, pages would have no end. But I am alone by my little open fire, and I suppose you have run away from your books (senior studies never stop, I believe), and close by my chair are trying to gravely listen to what I say upon this " merry theme." 228 PRAYERS ANSWERED. Ah, dear boy, is this a " merry theme ?" He who has so wonder- fully strung and tuned these hearts of ours only knows their deep, deep needs. With my fingers in your hair I would lovingly say to you, dear boy, marry young. Never until then will your one great early loss be soothed and supplied, and your heart-longings be stilled. It is God's gift, sweetest, dearest, most 'precious gift, this human love. Yes, with God's blessing, with His favor and friend- ship and love, sweetly intermingled with life's duties, lessening every burden, hallowing every trial, diminishing every cross, every heart must testify, "holy," blessed " estate of matrimony." Some natures seem as if they can afford to live alone (not because they have so much heart); some seem to have been called to live alone, and to such He can make good even that which he pro- nounced was not good. I will tell you just what I would do, if I were you ; I would settle it that I was to be married, and leave the whole matter with God. How? Do you ever see a book that has decidedly had its day, " Tupper's Proverbial Philosophy?" Well, somewhere in his own odd way he says this thought (not his words, I guess): " If I am to have a wife she is now upon the earth; I will pray for her." I know of a young maiden who did thus pray for the one who was to be her companion, when there was no desire, thought, or imagination who that one was to be. To-day she looks back over many, many chequered years of " His ways not as our ways," and believes the true deep happiness of her married life is the present answer to those girlish prayers. The young Christian should leave all the future with his God. " Give us this day our daily bread" means the soul's needs as well as the body's. He arranges all the events of our pilgrimage for us. Who shall be the closest, nearest companion, the helper.or the hin- derer, can that escape His care? We go on, in our daily work for Him, in "that station of life to which He has called us;" and when His time, His way, has come, surely as was His promise of old, " He will send His angel before," and discover the fair Rebekah, or meditative Isaac. "The thing proceedeth from the Lord." And now unto Abraham's God I commend thee. May "the Lord, before whom I walk, send His angel with thee, and prosper all thy wayl" HANDS FULL. 2 29 DELAWARE, Whitsunday, May 31, 1868. I believe there are as noble, pure, and perfect women now walk- ing the earth as in Bible days, or any period of earth's history. And this is the observation and actual knowledge of a very narrow life, shut up in a secluded home. In such a little, little circle I know of married women and young girls so high, so noble, so un- selfish, so devoted, that no man is able to measure them ! There, that is just my opinion of "woman." Ruined and fallen as she is, "first in the fall," she still holds her heaven-appointed place mid- way between man and angel only as much below angels as man is below her. You laugh? Well, I can afford to let you laugh, as you are only a poor man ! Well, let this now truly "merry theme" pass. I did not mean to say half a dozen words, but see how; the pen has run on, in scarcely a Sunday talk; only, to me, this topic has a sacred side. But now to the children. N not at home yet! with such heart-longings for her. Still her father insists we ought to let her remain for the benefit of a summer in the East, and all my friends here, who know of her close confinement and devotion as a sister and daughter these years, say to me, "O do let her stay longer!" But I am getting homesick for her. Can't you bring her home this month? Dear J., you can do nothing this summer that, I be- lieve, will be so full of real work for the Master as a visit to these western cousins. J needs you (what is an own cousin worth, if he is not to use?) She is fast getting on out of childhood. What a check, close intercourse with a manly cousin would be to a pretty, wilful girl, who is inclined to feel older than she is ! Ah, my hands are more than full. A poor, weak mother that never was "trained," or touched in character herself by any but heavenly discipline, w.hat can she, does she, know of training chil- dren ? And seven immortals in her charge ! If she could not "go and tell Jesus," if power was not promised to the faint, and strength to them who have no might, she would be without hope indeed. M and F , and H (dear "mother's girl"), what good seed your visit might drop into their hearts ! a bright, brave Christian cousin's visit, without one word directly spoken to them! 230 MONEY OR LOVE WHICH? Her nephew graduated in June, 1868, and in September went to C , Iowa, and accepted a situation with a Railway Construction Co. This letter is in reply to one received from him at that place. DELAWARE, October 16, 1868. MY DEAR J. : I had just written my last letter to N , and said, "Bring home, be sure, J 's address," when J bounced in with, "A curiosity, mother; a letter from cousin J !" Of course I opened //. "Particular Nell" would not have said no. I just want to shake you for not telling us at once your whereabouts soon as you reached your quarters. It was shameful. Were you afraid of being flooded with letters from your native town? There is no way to get over this treatment but to take that shaking. When can that be? Now, I do not like plans, so do not say, "Plan a visit to us Christmas holidays;" but I do say, "In your heart deter- mine, D. V., 'I will see dear auntie and cousins before the new year.' " That will be only sensible (very important for a half Yankee), and only loving and right (which is more important for a half Jerseyman). Dear J., I must see you soon. Now I beseech you, don't take a Yankee look over the question "it will cost too much." And, as for wisely laying up, which is worth most, a heap of money or a heap of love? Now I will give till Christmas to solve that question. I answer your note to N by return of mail. Don't be scared. I write few letters, my eyes are so bad ; and I am getting too old for much letter-writing. And it has been impossible to find the time this year past, with dear N away. How I have missed N words cannot tell. But her. father had decided a summer East for her. It had to be. With you we enjoy the daily report of General Convention mat- ters. Ah, our beloved Zion is passing through troublous days, fiery trial. But "He sitteth as a refiner and purifier;" that is the comfort, the hope. In six troubles He has' stood by her, in seven no evil shall touch her. The Lord reigneth. I am glad you are West, glad you have this season for waiting upon the Lord. I want you to take full time to " walk about Zion A QUIET TALK. 23! and go round about her; tell the towers thereof, mark well her bulwarks, consider her palaces." You are in the Good Shepherd's hands. If He needs you He will call you. And even as St. Paul you will testify (Gal. i. 15, 16). Laid at His feet are the mother's prayers for her darling boy. His eye is upon those prayers. Every desire of them will be answered in His way, His time. DELAWARE, January 10, 1869, First Sunday after Epiphany. MY OWN DEAR J. : I have not forgotten your letter all this time not at all. Early in November, our faithful servant Mary, who has been with us about four years, was married ; since, a family of eleven, and no " help," has left me no leisure for letter-writing. A peep at yours of November 2&th brings back the old question, " Why did you attempt to change your handwriting?" It was good in itself, and so like your mother's. I cannot, will not, try to like your present style. "Then let it alone!" do you say? So I will. I inclose Mary G.'s card, recommending her as a good teacher to improve your present curious girlish style. I hate back-hand, as I always told her ; but she declares it was born in her, and she never could write any other way. You can't say that. But don't be moved from anything by a woman's words never ! Well, you did not come Christmas, as you ought; and I may as well slip by' the precious season, and bring you at my side this very Sunday afternoon, with a peep at each one of us. You and I are at the great dining-table in the dining-room for quiet talk, away from the little ones, F and M , who are with their father in the nursery. He has just finished reading a library book to them, and has opened his commentaries and books to prepare the usual Sunday afternoon Scripture lesson for the family, which we have before church in the evening. N was busy with her book when I passed through the parlor, " Goulburn on the Study of the Bible," I think. What comfort I have in her, now I have her back, no words can tell. Her health has never been so good, and her whole character has so matured and strengthened by the discipline of her twelve months' visit. I say discipline, for the dear child saw life in many aspects. There were many shades and lines a 232 A TREASURE. mother could not have chosen for her to see. But infinitely more tender love than mother's guided all, and, I trust, brought to her and those visited His own rich blessings, even that blessing "that maketh rich, and no sorrow is added to it." I understand this child now as I never did before. All these years of training she has been almost incomprehensible, with a childhood and girlhood so totally unlike my own. But I see now, she is her father's child. And God has given me in her just what I most needed, and what is best for these brothers and sisters. Such patient thought- fulness and gentleness, what a treasure at the 'head of such a turbu- lent household, under such a mercurial mother ! I would not now alter one trait of disposition, if I could, for all the world. Above all, there seems to have been such a deepening of the religious character, what and all I had so often begged for her. Oh, shall I not tell of His praise, who has done this, with thankfulness, and trust Him more and more wholly ? . . . . I greatly enjoyed the "week of prayer," going of evenings into the little Presbyterian meetings (Mr. Ufford has no meetings). I suppose it was observed in , and that our prayers often mingled. This morning Mr. Ufford's sermon brought you very near, when so touchingly speaking of the great need of laborers in the Lord's vineyard. Oh, that the Lord would call my own dear boys ! that he would accept you for His work ! If He has denied to you those gifts and that grace that would fit you for that service, then I desire to say for myself and for your mother, His will be done! Then be "diligent in business," and consecrate at least one-tenth of your increase to send some other young laborer to do the work not permitted you. I laid by for you, dear, this old letter of your uncle's. May God speak to you through the words of him called to minister in the upper sanctuary ! May his mantle fall upon you his perfect consecration to God ! My heart is too full for words upon this theme. Mrs. Platt most earnestly and prayerfully desired that her nephew should consecrate his life to the service of our Lord and Saviour in the work of the ministry. She frequently spoke of it, and often mentioned the subject in her letters to him. In a letter, dated Easter Monday, April 18, 1870 (he was still in Iowa), she writes : HANNAH'S 'PRAYER. 233 Yes, I want this burden to be laid upon you to the very utmost. "Why, Aunt Jennie !" Yes, I do, dear boy; for I think God is giving you this fulness of business life that your active spirit may be satisfied to come back to a student's quiet, reflective life, with such freshness of joy, such restful comfort, as you have never yet known or guessed. That is what I wish, that is what I believe for you, the precious child of my sainted sister's prayers ! This business portion of your life was necessary training ; part of His plan for fitting you for His highest service. He is preparing you, who called you by His grace, and revealed His Son in you, that you may preach Him among the heathen (Gal. i. 15, 16). /may not live to see it, but I fully believe the time will come when you will testify, with St. Paul, as a preacher of the Gospel, "And they glorified God in me." Come and take up your abode in Gambier Seminary. Who can tell ? God may draw my own dear F to follow. Do I see any present indications in that direction in him? Not any. But "with God all things are possible." Hannah's prayer was heard; her boy was accepted and called to His temple service. Hannah's prayer must ever follow my boys and you as long as I live, joining your own mother's one desire for you ! Oh, I would rather my son should "be a doorkeeper" in the service of the ministry, take the lowest position in earnest work for Jesus, than accept for him the highest place that man can offer. But I leave all to Him who is wonderful in counsel. The call can only come from Him. I do not speak thus to my boys ; but you are now choosing life-work in one sense. May God hold and guide your feet and heart ! A BIRTHDAY GIFT. " If we suffer we shall also reign." MY DEAR J. : I found among my papers the inclosed. It seems as if fresh from your mother's pen. Such a true picture of that heart ! I felt that the child who was, as she said, "a part of myself," ought to have these verses in his keeping. In all the sufferings God may call you to know, you can herein read from whence you derive the capacity of suffering. I will not add my poor words. May she, being dead, yet speak and comfort ! 234 POEM. THE HOME-CIRCLE. They meet once more around the hearth, Within their children's home, Where, 'mid their own sweet household mirth, Is heard no jarring tone. The lamp sheds down its cheerful light On youth and beauty there, On manhood in his conscious might, On woman, gentle, fair. The father with a smile of pride Looks on each form so dear, And strives his tenderness to hide, To check the starting tear. Long years of sorrow, toil, and pain Are all alike forgot; His home, his loved, his all remain, Earth has no happier lot. The mother's heart with love o'erflows, Sweet tears of rapture rise ; Bliss deep, untold, her bosom knows, Bound by these tender ties. She gazes on that happy band, And thinks of years to come, And prays that to a brighter land The Lord may lead them home. And they who thus from childhood's years, Have shared one common home, United in their hopes and fears, Nor wish from thence to roam. Oh, brightly do their bosoms glow With joy, untouched by care, And sweetly do their voices flow, So gently mingling there. A few short years have winged their flight How desolate that hearth ! How lonely is that home, once bright, Hushed are the sounds of mirth. There is no form within its walls Once seen amid that throng, Deserted are its empty halls, Unheard youth's merry song. POEM THE HOME CIRCLE. 235 That father's smile, that mother's voice, Have passed from earth away; And they who did once here rejoice, The young, the fair, the gay, Their joyous meetings now are o'er, Around thy hearth, sweet home; Wide-scattered o'er their native shore, In distant climes they roam. Some 'mid the dreams of youth and love Have sunk to peaceful sleep, While lone and sad in heart they rove Who, true, their memories keep. Soft eyes that then so brightly shone, Arg dimmed by silent tears; So changed those brows, we scarce would own The friends of early years. _^ And must swift time such changes bring, Thus sever strongest ties ? Thus pass away each cherished thing We love below the skies ? Yes, 'tis the voice of God doth speak To every fainting breast, " In heaven a lasting portion seek, This, this is not your rest." And shall the loved ne'er meet again, That happy, blessed band ? Oh, when the Lord doth come to reign, They shall together stand. Tho' severed wide their sleeping dust May rest on shore or sea, Earth shall resign its precious trust Then shall their meeting be ! If by one Lord, one Saviour led, They pilgrims dwell below United in one common Head, One joy, one hope to know, Then shall all sorrow ever flee And gladness, peace, be given; Oh, joyful shall their meeting be, All saved, all blest in heaven ! PHILADELPHIA, Jan. 25, 1837. MARTHA C. HULME. 236 A YEAR OF TRIAL. The severe illness of his father following his withdrawal from his old parish in B. and other changes in family affairs, had com- pelled her nephew to resign his place in what even then seemed the " Far West," that he might be nearer the home family, and at liberty to respond to any call that might come. He had been studying law in the leisure hours since graduating, and in the spring of 1871 entered an office in J., M., to complete this work. The change involved a painful struggle, especially in necessarily deferring his marriage. It is, doubtless, to all this that reference is made in the two following letters. The first was written just after a visit to Delaware, on his way from the East to his new field of labor. DELAWARE, Sunday afternoon, April 16, 1871. Yours of the ^Ifrnade you very near. How often my precious sister's boy is before me ! Your letter gave me much pain sym- pathy, but not sorrow, nor regret, nor doubt; not one shade of doubt as to your plain duty, or as to God's overruling blessing that will surely be the end of all this year of trial. One has placed you in the furnace who ever will sit by. The fire can burn no higher than He wills; -it can rise only to that point necessary for highest good. Do you know, I believe this will be the enviable year of your life! Not only when we can look back over all the way the Lord God has led us, but even here Jesus would never suffer such pain and trouble to come to his young child if He was not holding in His hand some great good He Himself will give as the great gain, the end, the true meaning. For you there is nothing but to "endure as seeing Him who is invisible." Not a distrust should you suffer. For has He not all power? Can He not take care of all that is upon your heart? You should not say, "and if." The future is dead, the past is dead; your duty is now only with God's present. If you nobly battle as a brave soldier of Christ Jesus, swiftly and sweetly will the three hundred and sixty-five days pass away; more and more learning just what the Saviour is in "the time of trouble," the meaning of " a very present help." Forever you will look back upon this one year as the brightest and happiest of your life below. I am sure of this; God's Word is full of this testimony. I cannot, will not, think of you as suffering. I will not so doubt AN ENVIABLE YEAR. 237 His goodness who has said, "I will not leave you comfortless." He is able to so keep in perfect peace, in the peace which passeth understanding, ever a poor, trembling woman's heart that wholly trusts in Him, that she can "glory in tribulation." I say again, this is an enviable year; a year of walking "not by sight;" a year shut up to but one arm for support, and that the blessed Master's; but one bosom on which to pour out sorrow, and that the dear Redeemer's. How angels must watch ! How they could covet such mortal privilege ! How about your path may hover that mother's spirit ! God bless and help and keep you! I have no fear for you, my precious boy. And now God's one way of healing and helping a bleeding heart is through that heart's trying to help others. May He lead you into a year of fulness of work for Him! One little mite in this direction will be, I think, your answer to your young cousins' longing to see you. We are all settled so snugly in our pleasant little new home, which N calls "Oak-Tree Lodge." Oh do come and see us very soon ! V DELAWARE, Sunday afternoon. " That we may perceive and know what things we ought to do and have grace to perform the same." My sister's precious boy, how through and through my heart has been this one prayer for you all this day, and ever since you left! That God will " keep you from all things hurtful," and lead you to follow only His holy will. Then all will, must be forever well. " God has a plan in every man's life (I wish you would borrow from some minister's library Bushnell's sermon upon Isaiah xlv. 5, "I girded thee, though thou hast not known me." You would so surely find such sweet comfort and help in the great thoughts of that sermon). You said you should go to church this morning, and you were before me through all the services. The fulness of the sweet Psalter-promises seemed all for you: "My hope is in Him; He only is my strength and salvation ; He is my defence, so that I shall not fall." Did not you mark that promise, " Thy loving- kindness is better than the life itself?" That is, God, our own covenant God, will make up for all losses, all crosses, in the life 238 SUCH A FATHER ! % of a soul that simply trusts in Him, and seeks first to do His will. So that we cannot, dare not, say, "this cross-event, this unchosen course will make me miserable." God, our tender-loving Father, with more than mother's love, never led or suffered a child of His to go into a path that would make him miserable; or where he would not be happier than in any other path. For He Himself can make up for all loss. I can only pray for you. May His peace wholly possess your soul ! * His wisdom be a shield and guard about every thought, desire, and purpose, so that you shall not fall. I do not write this for any answer, but from the fulness of my love and sympathy. The heart is often too sore for words for mortal" ear. But "when my spirit was overwhelmed within me, Thou knewest my path." It is just here, in and through such experiences, that we come to know and prove our Saviour's tender love and sympathy, as we never knew before. God will direct your steps; I feel so sure of this. He will not "suffer you to fall," and "though you fall you will arise again," for He upholds you with His>Dwn hand. Her nephew wrote of the great kindness of his new acquain- tances, and of the warm friends he made among them, especially of the family of the senior partner of the firm with whom he was studying. Their house became a veritable home to him. DELAWARE, April 23, 1871, Second Sunday after Easter. Your letter of last week to J (parts of which she let us share with her) was such a comfort to me. It seemed a comment upon these words of our lesson this morning, "I did know thee in the wilderness, in the land of great drought." Your letter seemed to verify this declaration. How God has already shown His loving, ever mindful care over His tried servant ! How many little helps and avenues of refreshment have been opened to you ! Surely from no other's hand than "the Giver of every good and perfect gift." I knew He would care for you; yes, care even for your happiness such a Father as He is ! How often you are in my thoughts ! And in church, this morn- ing, how the above words brought you so near ! I am going to GRAND OLD TRUTH. 239 mail a little old book for your Sunday meditations, though I sup- pose you can have but few spare moments on that day. I send it for two reasons : because its quaint, old-fashioned style teaching of the grand old truth, " God's sovereignty and wisdom," took possession of my own heart, I think, when I was about your age. I had it from our Scotch uncle's library, Cousin J 's father, a forlornly printed old leather-bound book ; but what beauty and freshness have again and again come over my path through its les- sons ! It touched my heart and life for help, perhaps, more than any other next the Bible. That is one reason ; and I fancy your long attendance upon good, sound, strong, Congregational preach- ing, while at college,* will prepare you to appreciate Thomas Bos- ton's sermon, or treatise. But if you do not happen to fancy it I should better say, have any relish for it consider that a sure, good reason for not reading it, according to Goulburn's theory, which I think good sense and correct. His (Goulburn's) "Thoughts on Personal Religion," and ".Pursuit of Holiness," "written for busy business men;" if you have not yet read them, get them from your good minister, most useful books published for many a day, I think, with many, many who have read them. May God ever bless and keep you ! Over-work and anxiety brought on an attack of brain fever. Though he quickly rallied, he was obliged to go slowly with his work, and wrote despondingly of future strength and usefulness, and even of prolonged life. The following was part of the reply : WHITSUNDAY, May 27, 1871. " Man is immortal till his work is done." MY OWN PRECIOUS J. : I am not going to answer your last except for a few brief words. My heading is a fact you will not dispute. If premonitions were God's plan for showing and preparing us for His future will con- cerning us, again, again, and again would my life have been closed long years ago. That is not God's usual plan. " Go work in my vineyard; I may call thee in the morning, noon, or midnight." * Williams College, Massachusetts. 240 A PREDICTION. "As thy day so shall thy strength be ; for my grace is sufficient ; my strength is made perfect in weakness." " Foredate the day of woe, Thou alone shall bear the blow." " Strength is promised, strength is given, When by God the heart is riven." I know, dear boy, that you have no dread ; nor have you the right to look ahead. Life is a wide, wide sea just now, a raging sea to you. What can a poor, tempest-tossed mariner see ahead ? Exhausted and blinded by the storm is he, with no hold but the strong, firm grasp of the Pilot's hand. But, oh, how safe ! DELAWARE, Sunday eve. . . . . Were you to sit down in a professor's chair, in some Western college, would not this life-work be as much to your taste, and in your line of talent ? Next to preaching comes teaching, as I reckon. An educator of the mind and heart is only one remove from the soul-trainer, soul-seeker, Christ's own ambassador. I cannot think the law just suited to your excitable temperament. But you will, I have not one doubt, follow on to know just what He has for you to do. There is one Eye always upon your path ; can there be a misstep and He not see, not prevent, if it be best ? Any disappointment, pain, or care touch the life of His child, and He not interpose, if it be best ? Away from all second causes, turn ever and only to the one Governor supreme. Be assured your present was part of His plan, and therefore right and best. No matter if you cannot see and understand it now. God is a Father, desiring the happiness of His children ever ; never willingly afflict- ing, or giving or permitting one pain that could be safely spared a child. So, for some reason seen by Him, your highest happiness required the present trial, to be a gain to earthly happiness, as well as eternal gain, I doubt not. In a letter to her nephew, under date June 8, 1871, his aunt manifests her anxiety for his health, urging him to take his father's advice, and go abroad and rest from head-work a while. She writes: OUR FATHER'S LOVE. 241 I am tempted, if I knew Miss C 's address, to ask her opinion and help. In any event, failing or carrying out your present plans, your future needs sound health. No one has a right to take into a family impaired health. Oh what sorrow, care, and wretchedness come from forgetting this ! You have been overtaxed. I am not in the least alarmed. You are not any more excitable in nervous organization than was your mother; and what seasons of wretched- ness and depression of spirit, nights without sleep, etc., did God safely bring her through! So will He uphold you; He knows your frame, He ever " remembereth." "Man is a harp of a thousand strings," and every string has been strung and tuned by God. The Maker's eye is ever upon His instrument; no breath can touch, no chord can vibrate, and He not know, permit nay, more, cause sweetest music for His ear. Love is the meaning of all He does. He who made you is fitting you for His own service here, and your home hereafter, by all these passing trials and crossed purposes. He is satisfied ; He would not change or leave out one trial. So strong, so true His love, " He never spares us for our crying." Now / think you should listen to your father, me, and your physician, and go with this little party to Germany for your health. Dr. H. goes in July. I think he wants another gentleman in his party of four. [From letters without date.] . . . . God has a plan of life mapped out for each of our dear children, if we can only spell out His will and way. When did children more need than now to be taught the sanctity and reverence of Christian worship? Who can turn from these crowded popular meetings all about us to the "Cqmmon Prayer" of our dear old church, and not rejoice in the calm and quiet, the patient expectation and rest of her services, and feel her spirituality too deep for noise or surface-ruffling? What a gay, easy, light-hearted, sweet-hearted boy is to his mamma! Laugh away; you do not know how pleasant to an old heart it is to see life over again through young eyes and feelings. And as yet has not tasted one shade of care or crossed pur-\ 16 242 COMMENCEMENT. poses; just can look out upon life from nineteen happy years. But, dear J , the untried light that comes before such eyes can be but as the cold gray dawn to the noontide sun. The joy, the hope, the rest, the peace of later years so much the better! that joy which comes after sorrow, the rest and peace after conflict. Years only grow golden as they stretch on and on, and begin to catch the gleams of eternal day. DELAWARE, June 26, 1871. MY OWN DEAR J. : . . . Don't you want to run down to keep "the Fourth" with the children? Come, spend a week. If not a week, then four days ; if not four days, then one day, the Fourth. We always have a family picnic in the woods. Come. Tuesday morning. To-morrow the maidens are, in all their glory of dress and exhibition and glowing speeches, going processionally into the Opera House, etc. etc. Thursday comes the College day, with grand Commencement doings beneath the College trees. And sprinkled in and through the three or four passing weeks (moonlight, of course with consequences), rides (daylight and moonlight), with divers evening entertainments, etc. etc., until our little town is wholly demoralized in a light but sober sense of that word. I guess one mother will be glad when they are all gone. We are the quietest of villages after Commencement. Come and see; do, dear J. Mrs. Platt sent. her photograph to her nephew, that had just been taken. He wrote his appreciation of it, and says: "It is a per- fectly ideal picture." The childlike simplicity with which she writes about it is only equalled by the sincerity of her acceptance of this "freshness" as another of God's blessings. DELAWARE, September 7, 1871. MY OWN J. : I suppose I may call you that for a while longer? I am so glad /or your happiness in Miss C . The peace and rest after our life-storms, oh how sweet ! MY PICTURE. 243 I am glad you liked my " picture," for picture it is ; not by the face that the glass mirrors, but of the heart that God has had in His holy keeping, now near fifty-five years. My husband is amused at my " liking so well my own picture." It is true it was a sur- prise and delight to me, as it can be to no other. I did not suppose it possible that a face that has passed through so many old, old days, could ever show forth in this life such young, fresh look ! Features that have so often quivered in untold anguish in moments when, overwhelmed within me, God only knew my path ; eyes that had rained so many tears ; heart that has carried so many cares and burdens, that my old face could thus bear so true, true testi- mony to the unseen, loving One, always my present help, always my comforter, always under me the everlasting Arm, wiping away every tear, carrying for me every burden, soothing every sorrow,, and through and by every step of my earthly life drawing me yet nearer and nearer to the joy and peace and rest of the heavenly home ! Yes, my " picture" is to me a delight and joy in its out- spoken testimony to the love and power of "the God of my life." Lay it away, dear J., (1 cannot endure photograph albums), in your trunk or drawer; and, whenever God sends sorrow or care upon you, look at and read the help and joy God gave me, poor weak woman. God make it a little comforter to you long after I am not here ! With this prayer it goes to all who love me. My picture* was taken for N 's " birthday surprise," and was addressed " To my first and best." Easter, P. M., 1872. MY DEAR J. : Many thanks for kind sympathy ! We came through the fire unharmed. | "As, seeing Him who is invisible," we could not for one moment doubt. It was His permission, our Father's, His whom we "had been so long time with," and could not distrust His love 05 His wisdom. In many respects, for many reasons, this * The same picture that is alluded to in the correspondence with Mrs. Benja- min. The engraving in this book is a copy of it, but lacking in that radiant ex- pression that is peculiar to the original photograph. f Refers to the burning of the family house, that occurred but a short time before. 244 A QUIET REST. is a trying dispensation ; but, as I said, from our Father's hand, so wise and good, Even crosses, from His sovereign hand, Are blessings in disguise. . . . . I think I wrote you our dear J was confirmed the fifth Sunday in Lent; to-day her "first communion." Oh, may it be to her as the sight, by faith, of Jesus ; the clasping of His loving hand; never to let go; to be led by him on and on, from strength to strength, until she come unto His everlasting king- dom! NEW YORK, 304 Mulberry St. [St. Barnabas], June 24, 1872. We owe all you say, the children and I. This season has been such a hurry and press from the " burning-out," my thought to come East, sicknesses, etc. etc. The children will not be satisfied with bits of notes, or even your pictured face; nothing will longer answer but the looking upon you face to face, nothing else. Leaving in May for New York, I found J sick in her school- nursery at Cleveland ; brought her home, and waited to settle the dear ones once more in our own home, and came on here last Wednesday. Since then I have had just one long, sweet, quiet rest in the peaceful sanctuary of this Home.* I feel as if no one (though my dear N was so wholly captivated) has ever told me of this work for the blessed Master. I can only declare my whole assent and heart is with this precious sister and her sweet young helpers. God bless them, and ever make them a blessing ! Her nephew was admitted to the bar in June, 1872 ; visited his aunt again in September, and went to , where he located and commenced the practice of law. This letter, from his aunt, refers to his approaching marriage with the " Miss C." of a former letter : * St. Barnabas House, one of the missions of the Church in New York, under the management of the Sisterhood of the Good Shepherd, of which Mrs. Plait's younger sister is the Presiding Sister. SWEET OLD BIBLE STORY. 245 DELAWARE, October 29, 1872. Surely I can take your long, good letter to J , as answer to mine. A letter to her child is always the same or better than a letter to the mother. . . . . What mother was ever wholly satisfied with a son's decision at first? No girl is quite good enough for her boy. All she can promise is, to take his wife to her heart, and hope and pray and believe all is for the best in God's hands, all in His ordering. My dear boy, again I tell you, your own loving mother's prayers are about your path and about your bed. Never, never will your earthly happiness be forgotten of God. I am sure of this ; sure as was the promise of old, "He shall send His angel before thee," and "with thee, and prosper thy way" (Gen. 24). It maybe that all your need is treasured up in this strange maiden to us all, and she is to become the helper, rest, and comforter, to fill the mother's and aunty's place, even as Rebekah was the appointed "comforter after the mother's death." I love that sweet, old Bible story. I want no one to ever come as new son or daughter into my house- hold unless "sent" by Abraham's God. I have great comfort and pleasure in seeing you, as I do, in your sew room. Take care, and do not try to be over-busy. Is the race won always by the swiftest ? A HAPPY NEW YEAR. DELAWARE, Sunday eve, January 5, 1873. I suppose this will find you back again at your post, in daily round of duty, the happy Christmas meeting all over. How many, many times we all have talked of you, you cannot guess this Christ- mastide; though it has been weeks since we have written you, and F 's letter remains yet unanswered. We knew you and she were together, and it could not matter what the rest of the world did or said, or whether anybody ever wrote another letter. Well, dear boy, I trust your Christmas week was very happy. Won't you write soon and tell us all about it? I wonder if next Christmas we shall not have you and F with us? To be so near as , and yet not with us for our Christmas, seems too, too bad. But I hope you were far happier than we could have made you, and the 246 A "LOVE CHRISTMAS." Christmas meeting and joy a real foretaste and token of the many long years you are to pass "as fellow-heirs together of the grace of life." But why has this long silence come, with no letter written you or her? Well, let me try to tell. The first week in December N was sick in bed. Of cours'e all our little Christmas preparations had to wait. Then, just as that week closed, came a note from my dear old friend's son, F D (of Honolulu), saying he was not well, and wanted to come home; and he turned to ours as the home next his own, so far away. He left last Tuesday. How much we all enjoyed his visit ! He seemed somehow in your place. He goes 'home for a year next summer, then hopes for a year in Germany to perfect in languages, then back for a theologi- cal course in a New York seminary (Presbyterian), and then to Japan or China to translate and preach the Gospel. What a marked-out career! Ah, how many tread the path they mark out for .their feet? Seldom do we do just what we think we shall in youth's young dreams! Each soul has the lesson to learn sooner or later, " It is not in man that walketh to direct his steps." . . DELAWARE, January 9, 1873. ., I have been trying to find the leisure to reply to your welcome letter of December 18. Christmas, always a busy season, this year had added cares and calls upon me. To help through this dull business season the children concluded to give up our faithful ser- vant, and divide all household work among them. With H and M in school, and J with her father's books in the store, N and I are kept very busy indeed, finishing the odds and ends the others leave undone. H d came home for Christmas week, and we were "all, all here," but the little lamb waiting in the Good Shepherd's bosom. It was, perhaps, the very happiest Christmas of my life, the crown- ing joy being the presence of the four oldest children with me at the Lord's table. Oh, may He keep them unto the end, faithful unto death! Our Christmas-day was quiet; no guest but Uncle . We determined to signalize this "panic winter" by keep- ing a " Love Christmas," our presents to be love only. So under this motto were hung the nine stockings, and he who found the A ROSY PLAN. 247 leanest stocking had secured the largest share of love, of course. But despite our best laid plans there seemed no one's stocking full of love, the dear children's busy fingers and loving hearts finding about the usual display of tokens. What a charming Thanksgiving you must have had! Indeed, dear J., I can and do readily believe all- you tell me of your pre- sent happiness. God has set His seal of approval and blessing upon "the holy estate," entered into in His fear, looking up to Him for guidance and blessing. Earth sees no purer happiness than they know who are thus bound, " With hands entwined to lift their being higher." DELAWARE, January 20, 1873. MY DEAR J. : We did chat over your pleasant "whole story," reading and re- reading your letter. Much was said; the last words were your good, quiet uncle's, "Well, tell J. I only hope he may have as much happiness as I have had." Dear boy, we like all your rosy plan but one part, and that must be changed. We will not make any changes now, but if "the best laid plans of mice and men gang aft aglee," of course bad plans will change. So we all believe you and F will surely see this aunt, uncle, and cousins before you get home from the June festival. June is the time to visit Dela- ware, not cold, dreary December, so much too far off. And then I am in the mother's place, and you must let me see and welcome first of all your bride. s Of course this will come about; I feel sure of it. Never mind being poor, that is nothing; "a man 's a man for a' that." Two people, loving truly, can help each other in every way. The "holy estate" has God's blessing. Nevermind how much wise, far-sighted man may grumble over the folly of young people "beginning with nothing." He who watches, caring for the tiny sparrow and her nestlings, so that not one can fall without His will, won't He provide for all the need of His children? 248 AN INVITATION. This letter is addressed to Miss C., the " friend" of her nephew: DELAWARE, April 20, 1873, First Sunday after Easter. My DEAR F.: When you reach where I stand in years and family cares, you will think of Aunt Jennie and say, "Ah, yes, I know now very well why she did not write the letters she wished to." Your sweet letter, so satisfying to my heart in every way, has been just before me ever since it came, its claims, and my desire to reply. I will not cover my paper telling why. ' You will believe me, trust me, love me, just as if I was your good, regular, corresponding auntie ! You may as well learn early that Aunt Jennie does nothing in a regular, proper time or way; and just take her for what she is, trying to forget what she is not. I miss our dear N very much. We had to change our home this spring, too ; and my hands and heart have been full, indeed. J.'s J. will be here directly, and I had to steal, as you see, some Sunday time, to beg you to assert your right and power over him to change his plans for the day (rather the days following), so that we shall have you both, as our own dear children, with us soon after the marriage as possible. I claim this. He must bring you to rest (for one or two weeks, if possible) with us, as if in his own mother's house. Do convert him to this arrangement, and slip away from your own home right here, without stopping once by the way. DELAWARE, May 8, 1873. Divers letters from you must have been lost on the way to us, for we cannot pick up the thread of your intentions at present, and make it join where your last letter broke off. Please bind together for us, " My house," " fairly under way," " to be ready by ist of June !" You have found that pot of gold surely, and I am so glad I like the beginning after the good old fashion, standing shoulder to shoulder, accepting every care and burden that comes with "the holy estate." Where there is independence of mind, wil- lingness to live for each other's happiness, just slipping into every circumstance of that "station in life into which it has pleased God to call" us, with all the unselfishness of true love, then almost Eden PLEASANT SURPRISES. 249 happiness is found again on earth. Now this is true, for I have tried it. God, our covenant-keeping God, bless you and yours more and more, until you come into His heavenly kingdom. DELAWARE, June 2, 1873. MY OWN DEAR J. : Hurrah ! Now I had to begin just that way to get " hurrah !" out of mind, for, I declare, ever since your last letter, with plan for the little house, with "guest-room," "closets," " yard with small fruits," etc., I have just wanted to call out, " Hurrah, J. !" How pleasant it all looks ! Dear boy, don't be afraid to look at and dwell upon pleasant things. Life here may be a vale of tears : what are tears but the drops that make the rainbow? There is a smile hid away behind every tear, if man would only learn how to look for it. Life is full of pleasant surprises in our heavenly Father's own keeping. He opens His hand and bestows them upon every prepared heart, wherever He sees good things cannot harm. What good life of joy, peace, and love has been Aunt Jennie's ! Yet have there been no tears? I am so glad, so very glad, you are to be no longer the lonely, motherless boy. "For this cause" a wife is more than mother, sister, all. God, our covenant-keeping God, bless and keep you both, and make you only a blessing to each other ! DELAWARE, July 28, 1873. MY DEAR J. AND F. : Right glad were we all to get a peep at you both, through the lines of i6th July, /believe "honeymoon month" has least sun- shine in it of all the married-life year. So the first year of adjust- ing to each other is the one hardest year. After that, all the ins and outs of each other being fully settled, side by side life runs on and on, more and more a mirror of the rest, peace, and happiness of the life beyond the River. Her nephew and Miss C. were married at C. L., Iowa, in June preceding the date of this letter. They resided in , Michi- 250 SUMMER CARES AUTUMN QUIET. gan, until June, 1877, when they removed to a more Western State, where he accepted the Chair of History and English Lan- guage and Literature in the State University, thus fulfilling his aunt's second, almost prophetic, choice, of life-work for him, teaching. DELAWARE, March i, 1874, Second Sunday in Lent. . . . . N wants you all to come to her wedding before very long. She has promised to go this spring. You ask how I am to get on without this dear, ministering child ? Ah ! I do not yet see. For a long time I felt too selfish ; but, to see her content and happiness over her new hopes and plans, has fairly driven away every feeling but thankfulness for her joy. Surely, one who has so faithfully "borne the yoke in youth," will be cared for, and blessed with His own best blessing. She wants only the most simple, quiet wedding at home, with only nearest relatives present. DELAWARE, Sept. n, 1874. MY DEAR J. : This is your dear mother's birthday, and it must not fully close before I say a few words about, her grandson, "J. A. C ." Why it seems but as yesterday morning that, after a long, very anxious night, waiting and watching for "first tidings" in the little Rectory dining-room, I was at last invited to see the mother and boy baby. So near to death had come the life most precious to me, I almost had hard thoughts toward the baby, and meant to only steal in for a kiss to the mother, with little notice for the new- comer. But before the door, sitting erect on a neighbor's lap, with great brown eyes wide open, fixing themselves upon Aunt Jennie, as if just waiting and watching for her appearance, was your lord- ship. I never shall forget my first sensations ! , You wonder why I have so long delayed my thanks for baby's picture. I am fast becoming an old lady, and letter-writing gets crowded out of daily duty easily. The truth is, this summer has been too full of absorbing cares and anxieties. Now autumn quiet has come, and with it the time and inclination for writing. Three weeks ago dear N came flitting home "just to see mother, because she heard she was not well." Then H WILLING TESTIMONY. 251 joined her, and one Sunday we were all together in God's house, and all around the family board and family altar. In the confusion incident to moving to a new home most of the letters after this date were lost but to the day of her death not a letter lost its charm or beauty. Her nephew and his wife loved this aunt most sincerely, and the news of her death was a heavy blow. They bear most willing testimony to the wonderful depth and rich- ness of her affectionate sympathy, and to the purity and all-pervad- ing power of her spirituality. " She was not of us though with us," they write, "a child of God who ever walketh with the Father, a spirit among the stars though seemingly mortal. Truly, of such is the Kingdom of Heaven." 252 REV. DR. BEDELL. -XX. "They that feared the Lord spake often one to another." Correspondence with Mrs. E. Bedell Benjamin Valued letters Bright points of light Bible studies Raven's food Pictures A white raven Home pictures. 1871 to 1875. CORRESPONDENCE WITH MRS. E. BEDELL BENJAMIN. Parts of this correspondence are wanting, But, as the sense is not impaired, it is given as it now stands. Mrs. Benjamin is the daughter of that eminent man of God, the Rev. G. T. Bedell, D.D. His memory is still dear to many yet living, who listened to his earnest, soulful preaching from the pulpit of old St. Andrew's, Philadelphia. Of this church he was the be- loved Rector from May, 1822, until August, 1834, when he entered into rest. He was also the father of Bishop Bedell. Mrs. Platt's early associations with Dr. Bedell gave her an espe- cial interest in his daughter. She loved to speak of those early days, when her sisters and brother James were members of St. Andrew's as well as herself, when it was their privilege to be in- structed in Gospel truth, and in the way of holy lives, and to talk together of the words that fell so lovingly, and yet with such clear convincing power. FROM MRS. E. B. BENJAMIN in answer to a request for Mrs. Platt's letters. MR. CYRUS PLATT: DEAR SIR: If I have any of Mrs. Platt's letters they are in Strat- ford, at our country home. We shall return there in a few days, and I will immediately examine my papers, and, if I have preserved the letters, will send them to you without delay. Those that I re- ceived were, I think, during a long illness, and, it is possible, may not have been kept. Of this I cannot be sure till I return. They PRAYER FOR HELP. 253 were very gratifying to me, and I remember were placed among papers "to be kept" ; so that I hope I shall find them as I labelled them. A memorial of Mrs. Platt will be not only a comfort to her immediate friends, but valuable to the Christian world. You are probably aware that I had never seen Mrs. Platt, at least not to remember her. though she had some recollections of me as a child. But her character as a woman and a Christian is one of the bright points of light in this dark world. It was a privilege to have her so long with you, and a greater one that she will be yours forever. Pardon me for venturing on so sacred a subject, and believe me truly your friend, E. BEDELL BENJAMIN. NEW YORK, April 24, 1879. FROM MRS. E. B. BENJAMIN. STRATFORD, CONN., May 6, 1879. Mv DEAR MR. PLATT: As soon as possible after my return I looked for Mrs. Platt's let- ters, as requested, and found them safely preserved. In re-reading them they seem to need some explanation even to you, for the kind, loving, and encouraging tone my dear friend used to me may seem strange; also the calling of herself my "Raven." Perhaps you recall all the circumstances, but as I cannot know that, I will make my story as short as possible. I never knew Mrs. Platt, and do not remember to have seen her, though I have a faint memory of a Martha Hulme, who, in my childhood days, stood for my idea of a saint. Your dear wife must have had the same characteristics. I judge this, not only from her letters, but from the exquisite little picture she sent me. I never saw any other photograph with such an illuminated expression. A halo of divine love seemed to rest upon it. Our correspondence began in this way : Once on Christmas eve, probably in '71 or '72, I felt weary and discouraged. The Christ- mas work had tired me, and I prayed that night for direct help and for some encouragement, that I could not fail to understand. I do not recall the words, only the feeling. Like many others, I 254 PRAYER ANSWERED. forgot my prayer, for I had no direct answer. Three weeks passed ; then I took up the " Standard of the Cross," and in it was the kindest and most satisfactory notice of my " Eleven Months in Horeb," expressing thanks to me for it. I did not know who wrote it; but was transfixed with self-reproach when I read the editor's note : " This was sent seventeen days ago, but was strangely delayed in the mail." It must have been written immediately after my prayer for encouragement, and delayed, perhaps, to try my faith. I expressed my feelings about it in the lines which you may have seen, beginning " Not a sparrow falls without your Father," Christian, read that written word ; Say not thy Father hath not heard Thy prayer; It is there, there ; And He will answer in His time, Not thjne. The lines had no merit, except as expressive of the feeling that had taken such possession of me. I concluded, poor as they were, to send them to the paper through which God had answered me. When I sent them, I asked Mr. French to whom I was indebted for the notice of my book. He sent me Mrs. Platt's name and address. The next mail, after the publication of the notice, brought me thanks for the lines from one of God's people in Ohio, who, too, had been weary and discouraged, and to whom they spoke in her time of need. As soon as another mail could bring me a letter from Wisconsin, another Christian wrote me a similar letter of thanks. Both these writers were strangers to me, and I may never see them till we can talk with unhesitating faith in the land of joy. All these incidents were so remarkable that I think I mentioned them in a letter I at once wrote to Mrs. Platt. To me the fact of a person being a Christian is all the introduction I need. I wrote and talked to her as to a friend, sure of sympathy. Her lovely reply you will find among the letters. From that time she called herself my "Raven." She had brought me the food I needed from the Lord's full treasury. Then because, I suppose, of my antecedents in my father and mother dear Mrs. Platt seemed to have very exaggerated views RAVENS' FOOD. 255 of my attainments, both as a Christian and a writer. She asked for all I had written. I believe I sent her some leaflets and a child's story. But how far beneath her I felt in her manifest nearness to her Saviour, the life of consecration to Him, her beau- tiful life of care and her ministry of love, as developed naturally in her letters ! During our correspondence I was ill four or five years of illness from the effects of a sudden fright, producing congestion of the brain, etc., so that I could by no means keep up such a correspondence as I desired. But my "Raven" never neglected me ; the Lord's food often came in sweet words of help. The news of her death came to me very suddenly. Even now I cannot bear to think of what it must have been to miss her sweet presence. My thoughts were much with you at the time, but I do not remember to have written. Perhaps you feel as I do when a dear Christian goes home; I recall our Lord's words, "If ye loved me, ye would rejoice, because I go to my Father." Ah, it takes great love to rejoice when one has gone, but I try to. Then I always fancy the circle that will gather around father and mother, and give them tidings of their children. And when one has gone whom I have seen recently, I am glad to think how delighted dear mother will be. And now, my friend, as one and another joins the throng of redeemed saints, will you not think how your own bright, beautiful treasure will watch for those who will bring her tidings from her home? Such thoughts seem to bring me nearer to those whose life-work is over. Last winter I hoverd on the very threshold ; I thought I should soon be with them all. It was an experience for which I am thankful. The Lord must have had work for me to do here, as I was brought back again to do a Raven's work to those who need me. I had no idea of giving you so much to read. Mrs. Platt's let- ters to me may not be suitable for publication, but you will enjoy reading them. Please remember me to "Nellie," whom I saw once. Extract of a letter to MRS. BENJAMIN from MR. PLATT. The photograph you allude to has been admired as a picture, more than any other ever taken by the artist, as he informed me, and has been widely sought for. About a week previous to her last sickness, sitting in her place at the table, engaged in animated 256 HEAVENLY BEAUTY. conversation, her face shone with a more than usual radiant bril- liancy that seemed to come from above, and I regretted afterwards not having given expression to the thought, "My dear, you are really becoming more beautiful as you grow older." Little did I think the bright and beautiful face before me was so soon to shine with much greater brilliancy in the realms of glory. This called from Mrs. B the following response: May 26, 1879. MY DEAR MR. PLATT: Thank you for your most interesting, double letter! Every word about your wife is of exceeding interest. How wonderful must be the halo that now rests upon her brow ! Our ideas of perfect beauty must fall so far short of the reality that I ask some- times whether the fair for.ms and fair earth that seem so lovely to us, are so also to the on-lookers. But I really have no time to-day to let my pen run on in con- verse with a Christian friend. Of course use the letters in any way you see fit. I wrote the long explanation to make them plainer to you. Any part of our intercourse is at your service. I rejoice to think that we shall have some records of so lovely a life FROM MRS. BENJAMIN TO MRS. PLATT, in answer to a proposal that she should adopt two children. March 10, 1872, 281 4th Ave., N. Y. Thank you, dear Raven, I don't want any little boy and girl. I said to Fred just now, " Dear, I 've had an offer of a little boy and girl to bring up; when would you like to have them? "After I'm dead," was the reply; " but excuse me now." I have one darling, precious boy, whom I undertook to so shield from evil and overwhelm with good, that I thought he would be perfect. But I cannot do the same work for the little ones you recommend to my care. A STORY. 257 I sent to your daughter to come to me, for I do not leave my sofa. I hope she will come. I cannot write much while lying down. Thank you for your trouble. I have a theory about a deeper meaning to it than I have dared to express, because I do not find sufficient authority. Sometime I hope to develop it. But I will leave it to you, your kind words about the Horeb, and the reception of this, show me that you will find out all that is in it. I am going to send you a little package by express; in it you will find a copy of the "Church in the Wilderness," in which I have corrected one or two typographical errors; with the greatest care they crept in. By this copy you can correct those that you use. Then you will also find an old, worn book, which is my copy of Horeb, with the badly written, contracted, confused notes of my study for the class, who reviewed it after it was published. Please do not lose it; I value it as a record of past days. If of no help, do not try to decipher it; but if it will be, in your present teaching, I shall make no farther apologies, only ask you to make use of it and to return when finished, or whenever you can spare it. I have some idea sometime of adding notes to the Horeb, and then shall want these memoranda. Also I send a set of questions which I wrote for the Sunday- school of a friend, who wanted something easier and more thorough than the introductory notes of the Horeb; they might help you, as review questions. Lastly, I have a story to tell you confidentially about a few lines which I inclose Now for my story. I tell you as one Christian friend may speak to another. Last Christinas eve I was so utterly wearied with the selection and putting up of many presents, that when I tied the last package, I felt, as I suppose all women do sometimes, that life and its tasks were more than I cquld endure, a want of something to help. And so I prayed for some bright, pleasant thing to come to me personally, because I was tired of taking care of everybody. It was a childish thought, but a part of the "story." The next day was a bright and happy Christmas, and I thought perhaps that was my answer; but it did not satisfy me. Then in a day or two I forgot all about it, like other sinners. Nearly three weeks after I took up the "Standard of the Cross," and read your lovely notice of my little Horeb book. That was the sort of help I wanted, the very best kind, to know that I was working for my 17 258 COMMUNION OF SAINTS. Master. I read that the notice had been seventeen days in the mail ! and I had forgotten to watch for the answer to my prayer ! It must have been written very soon after the weary night when I wanted help. Shall I thank you, or the Holy Spirit, who put it in your heart? I cannot tell you what it was to me, nor how I reproached my faithless heart. " Not a sparrow falls without your Father" came in my mind. I thought of my childish prayer, how it had been cared for and answered, and so the words came to me which I send to you. I wrote many verses, and after a little hesitation selected four, and sent them to the "Standard," which had been the medium of my help. I put E. B. B. as usual, not thinking any one knew of those being my initials. In a few days a letter came from a Christian friend in Ohio, whom, like your- self, I have never seen, thanking me for them; they were just what she needed, so she said. The next day a letter came from Wisconsin, from another Christian friend, also personally a stranger, thanking me for them. This is my story, dear friend. When your letter came I deter- mined to tell you, for now I know I have another friend for both worlds. Oh, how wonderful is this communion of saints ! We do not need to see each other here ; the soul-sympathy is founded on our union with the Lord. " Y.e in me, and I in you;" "this is my commandment, that ye love one another." You loved mother, too ! dear, precious, faithful mother. I think I will put in the package some lines that I said to her one wakeful night, when the moonlight just enabled me to distinguish her features in a superb portrait I have of her by Huntingdon. This is the third sheet, and I must stop. You -will understand all this, I know. FROM MRS. BENJAMIN. NEW YORK, Nov. 24, 1871. MY DEAR MRS. PLATT: I hardly know where to begin to thank you for your kind sym- pathy in my beloved studies. Your second expression of it came to me yesterday, and made me very thankful that the work of my little book has begun. It is such a privilege to help in the study of the Scriptures. It is a duty so delightful, so interesting, so fascinating, A NEW REVELATION. 259 that I have a daily thanksgiving that, in my little corner of the vineyard, among the humblest of the laborers, there is a continual feast. When I once begin on my one theme, " Christ Jesus every- where, from Genesis to Revelation," it is hard for me to stop. My second book has been a long time in following the first, because, like the other, it was written in weekly lessons for my Bible-class, printed on single sheets for their use, then revised, corrected, re- written, verbal notes added, and so prepared for publication. It gives a more thorough set of questions, for you see I find out what has been blind, unnecessary, or confused, and what needs expla- nation, but it takes a long time All this accounts for the tardy appearance of the " Sequel to the Horeb." It is a more difficult book than the other, because the subjects are more diffi- cult ; but I think that a class who have been through the first one, will have no trouble with the second My case is a little different; for, thanks to a loving Father, who knows the need others have of my good spirits, I have no depression. I have rarely felt happier than since rest has become a duty. My sofa- life two months now is a new revelation to me ; so many dear friends, so many loving letters, so much tenderness, I do not at all understand it; but simply accept everything, and thank Him. I was rather overworked with headwork, which took away my strength. And then in September I had a fright in church a sudden crash just behind me too long a story to tell; it literally finished me. I have never felt able to sit up since, though I strug- gled for four months. In January I sent for my present physician, who said I ought to have "given up" at the time. My neck, which was injured in the accident, is not allowed yet even to try to hold my head up. He expects to cure me; meanwhile I enjoy a great deal. I cannot do anything much, but see a few friends, write a little, read a little, etc. I dare not go into the subjects of your letters. The only photograph extant of past years was taken when I was twenty, and has been photographed from a daguerreotype. It was taken for a friend, whose sister I had been with in her last illness; he wanted to have the two together. Then I send a fright, which a travelling photographer took of me, sitting by my desk where my books grew, with back to my balcony window. The bookcase was mother's, and stood in her 260 HOREB SEARCH THE SCRIPTURES. room in New York, as also the chair in which I am seated. That 's all I can send no calm, fair St. Andrew's look like yours. I carry your little notice in my porte-monnaie, and when I feel faithless I read it. I have often wanted to tell you how much good you did, but hesitated because I had to say so much about myself. You will forgive that part, I know. Mr. French told me who wrote it. Now, my dear friend, may our Father have you in his holy keeping, and '' perform all your petitions." A copy of Mrs. Platt's notice of Mrs. Benjamin's Question Book herein referred to, from the " Standard of the Cross," January 27, 1872. "ELEVEN MONTHS IN HOREB." To THE EDITOR OF " THE STANDARD OF THE CROSS" : In some of the recent issues of your paper is an advertisement of Mrs. Benjamin's Question Book, " Eleven 'Months in Horeb." I want to commend this book to other households. For more than a year it has most pleasantly marked our Sunday afternoons. In a family Bible class we have found it all and much more than Bishop Bedell's prefatory note claims, though we used it in the most simple, unstudied manner, making it the text-book for the entire family. We can never forget these pleasant household gatherings with the little learners scarce able to read, and tempo- rary guest and "stranger with us;" so voluntary, too, and seeming full of interest, and all the interest due the book alone, not to the leader at all. No previous study was enjoined. Each brought his Bible with any book of reference he chose (but the Bible is enough). The author in these "Questions" opens "The Book," " Searches the Scriptures," unfolds the plan of salvation, and brings out to clear view the "Leader of the Hosts of Israel," in a simple, natural manner, level to the comprehension of all. The mere turning of "The Sacred pages" searching for the multiplied "references," familiarity with God's Word, is surely gain. The theme of these Lessons is new, and it is wonderful what freshness and attractive- ness "Eleven Months in Horeb" brings for the unstudied study of ANOTHER WORLD. 261 the Bible, and proves that "all Scripture is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness." SUBSCRIBER. SUNDAY AFTER CHRISTMAS, 1871. FROM MRS. .PLATT TO MRS. BENJAMIN. MY DEAR FRIEND : How worthless a Raven for a correspondent ! Nothing "proper" can be expected. A Dove-friend would have sent a word of thanks for the picture,* if she could' not write a long letter. All this time, from the tenth of March, I have just been hoping for the moment to thank you. With so many sorrowful letters that must be written, promising dear N.'s help in so many ways, the pleasant rest and change that writing to you always is, never came. Your Raven's life has been caged about with many circumstances not of her own choosing, but His that "chooses our changes," and means love in every appointment. Does not God grant to every child of His some loving life-teacher, to walk beside, to check, and guard, and keep from evil? Straitened circumstances he chose for me. This has been, no doubt, a hedge against many an evil (to me), and the bestower of countless good. I can see this even now, without waiting for the hereafter. When my eye rested upon the picture "before the desk," with all the beautiful home-surroundings, I said, in delight, "Another world ! Just my beau ideal ! But God arranged for both ; she cannot be happier." I am sorry for the bad taste that calls my picture a " fright." But is it my picture? The " little girl" face, as I remember, has not changed at all ; never a baby face, but earnest and thoughtful as a child, as this other picture of "twenty years." I am delighted with all my pictures; and I have a new, fresh one, that you have never seen This glimpse came in a note from my dear N. Mr. Benjamin can fill it out, doubtless ; so can I. N. wondered I had not told her of my pictures. This is why : I wished her to see ray friend without any preconceived fancy, so I didn't allude to the last letter and pictures. Her call was de- layed ; she was sick. She did not tell me a word about your * Mrs. B.'s photograph. 262 A SOFA LIFE. health. I hope warm May breezes will greatly help your case, and the " sofa-life" be ended ; yet He knows best. Can one write and do more for Him, say any words more for His honor and glory, than this record of a " sofa-life" ? "I simply accept every- thing, and thank Him." I thank Him, too, for grace so mani- fested. You do not need my two poor little children, if you have already "one darling, precious boy." .... Something else I want. Some day, when one of those "dear, good, minis- tering friends" sits by your sofa, asking, "What can I do for you?" say first this : "A lady begs me to tell her of all that I have writ- ten. She knows I ought not to write much, and wants one of my friends to give her the names of my books for children, etc. etc. Take this pencil now, and I will tell you." Dear Mrs. Benjamin, cannot you do this? Do you not often write for the " Parish Visi- tor"? I sometimes think so. If all these many weeks have passed without a letter, constantly, almost, are you in my thoughts. Your old "question book" is such a help. The young girls look for " This is Mrs. Benjamin's comment 3" "Mrs. B suggests this," etc. etc. It is simply that old book His help sent an old teacher, unfit and unable to study for herself. We are only over the 2ist Lesson ! More and more I like the book, its plan of Bible study, bringing the Saviour always before us, opening the whole Bible fresh and full of Him. Even with such a teacher these young learners never tire of this searching the Scriptures. Can you spare the book any longer ? Surely, in this very letter I should return the " only photograph extant of past years." Your loving, grateful Raven, J. H. P. DELAWARE, OHIO, May, 1872. FROM MRS. PLATT. DELAWARE, OHIO, Nov. 18, 1872. DEAR MRS. BENJAMIN : I am sure you would be pleased with the family greeting of your "New Question Book" this morning, The advertisement had not been noticed in the " Churchman" yesterday. Without a Bible- ELIJAH'S RAVENS. 263 class teacher's gifts or calling (though once your dear mother's pupil), I was induced lately to begin a Bible-class .for young girls, aged eighteen or nineteen. I could think of no question-book so easy and pleasant as "Eleven Months in Horeb." We had tried it in our family in a simple, unstudied way, through a year of de- lightful Sunday afternoons, the father being class-leader, so sorry when through the last lesson, and unable to unite upon any other book to follow it. Again and again it was said, " If only Mrs. Benjamin would write another !" Then I began the Sunday-school Bible-class, glad to go back over the book, with some study, if possible. We have had over two months' lessons, and not yet quite finished the fourth lesson, so suggestive is the book, even in a poor, untrained teacher's hand. "The Journeyings of the Children of Israel" has been made such help and comfort to me, I felt that these dear children must stop and understand all I could teach, and not pass along so fast through the introductory lessons. Only yesterday we turned back to the last questions of the fourth lesson, looking at the manifestations of His gracious presence with the journeying people, and comparing Num. ix. , 15-23; Psalms cxxi. , and xlviii., 14, etc. To an old pilgrim what a beautiful and precious picture of truth is Num. ix., iS- 2 3 ! But I only intended to write one word of our thanks and welcome for "The Church in the Wilderness." When this morning my daughter called out, "Mother, mother, here is a notice of another book like 'Eleven Months in Horeb!'' She was answered, "I am so glad ; I was going to write and beg Mrs. Benjamin to give us a question-book on the Journeyings of the Children of Israel." FROM MRS. PLATT. DELAWARE, Dec. 10, 1872. DEAR MRS. BENJAMIN: How can I thank you for all the kind words said, and the express package? The letter: Elijah's ravens could not know their mis- sion, nor be made glad and thankful that God used them; but then, Elijah saw them, doubtless, and said, "Only ravens!" and they were spared the discomfort of being taken for soaring eagles. Your "old book," full of critical notes and valuable records, all 264 CHURCH IN THE WILDERNESS. you say of my power of appreciation and "sympathy in your be- loved studies," show you do not know your Raven. While most grateful and thankful, I ought to say, for my own comfort, that I am no teacher, no student am only what an impulsive, untrained, unreflective nature has been taught by all His gracious lessons by "the way," over a path fifty-five years long. Nothing ever learned from study of books, no culture, no wealth, no position but, this is your Raven. The glad tears will come when I think what God made that little notice in the "Standard" say to you. Your sweet "story" shows, indeed One is always near to hear and answer, " knowing our frame," ever "remembering," and "touched" with our every want and need. You cannot know how your little verses spoke to me. "On my own text!" I exclaimed, when I first saw them in the " Standard" the "sparrow-doctrine," as I called it. Oh, what help and com- fort has not that text been to me ! How many, many times have I tried to show its help to others! Could you spare a few copies to give away? Should not a sparrow-doctrine fly abroad? I will be very careful of the "old book." It must greatly help with my class. Please send for it, if needed before we finish "Horeb." Looking to the second volume we can leave "the journeyings," and hasten on now. The "easier questions" would have been such help. Having never taught a Bible-class, nor written questions, I wanted such questions so much. I am tempted to prove the need by showing you (if I can find a page) my "Introductory Questions!" (They must make you smile, indeed.) The questions were to bring to the children's notice what I wanted them to know, no matter how asked tired Saturday evenings' work for the morrow. Thanks for the corrected copy of "The Church in the Wilder- ness." just begun in our Sunday afternoon family class. It is, I am sure, just what we need, and we like it so much. How I wish I could say what it is, so as to induce others to try its help. Would that little " Standard" notice you like, said over in better words by you, do any good now in the " Churchman"? I know nothing of such matters cannot "write." Sometimes the heart has to speak, not the head. The moonlight lines to your sainted mother what a beautiful EDWARDS'S REDEMPTION. 265 picture came ! the restless sleeper and the speaking portrait in the moon's soft veiling. And old, old pictures, too, so fresh and bright of other days, so distinctly can I recall that mother's sweet, earnest face, and the face of the little daughter long buried pictures, yet now fresh before me. May I again speak of my class? (Shut up to only nursery work for twenty-four years, Sunday-school work seems so full of fresh interest now.) With intelligent Christian mothers several edu- cated in a" church seminary, and communicants in our church yet not one knew of the first promise of a Saviour, and "thought Jesus began His work for man's redemption when born in Bethlehem." There have been so many changes and plans, and "improved"(?) methods in the Sunday-school, but have children been taught the Bible? And now, dear Mrs. Benjamin, what are you going to do next? Did not little sparrows once suggest? May I tell the theme for your next book? I want "Edwards's History of Redemption" to suggest all I would say. Could not this be made a question book, showing his views of truth, or portions of his views, so far as sus- tained by Scripture, giving texts and explanatory notes, like your other volumes, with " The Desire of all Nations," or "Shiloh" for the book's name? I am not acquainted with Edwards's works. When a young girl, I read, not studied, this one book of his (pub- lished by the American Tract Society, I think). I had not opened it for thirty years, when I borrowed it from our minister upon be- ginning my class. Since, I have been longing to ask you to try to do something with it for the' young of our day; for a glance at it now shows how its grand, clear views of truth touched, strength- ened, guided, and held my faith through all these long, long, chequered years. I had almost forgotten this old book did not know what it had done for me. It may be that there is already some book for the young, covering this ground, showing His "salvation from generation to generation," "the work of redemp- tion a work carried on from the fall of man to the end of the world," as Edwards- says. Recently a popular young D.D. (a visitor) told us in his sermon, in substance, that "scarcely any- thing of God was taught in the old Dispensation," "that He was almost left vindictive in character," etc., until Jesus came and the 266 MY IDEAL OF HEAVEN. apostles preached! As if the glory and "light" of him to come did not flood the Old Testament! Now, will you not think over my desire about the old book? And can you excuse all this freedom? (Are Ravens proper birds?) There is another kind of work on my heart for you. May I some time tell you of it? I trust the winter in the city may be a great restorative. Very tenderly must the blessed Master watch over His tired-out laborers. How closely He comes, what words He whispers to the face "turned to the wall!" So may He ever watch and bless you! With grateful love, Your Raven friend, JEANETTE H. PLATT. FROM MRS. BENJAMIN TO MRS. PLATT. 281 FOURTH AVENUE, NEW YORK, Jan. 3, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND : I can't fancy you quite a Raven, though you did indeed feed me when I cried for food. How often I have thanked you ! Now I thank you again for your kind letter, which I received the day after I had sent the messenger after my book. Such a dreadful- looking old book ! I'm so glad it may help you, and I sent to-day the leaflets which you wanted, with some of another kind. Thank you for the picture ! a dear, lovely face, bearing a sort of St. Andrew's impress, with no mark of "twenty-four years of nursery work." I wish I had one to return, but I have not had one taken for years. So far I wrote the day after yours came ; then I was called away, and have not been well enough since to write at all. I wish I could follow your suggestions about the questions ; the plan you propose is very interesting, though I am not familiar with the book, and therefore could not follow your idea entirely. But I can do no more until I recover from a sort of nervous prostration, which pre- vents either work or pleasure. I am just to keep still, mind and body. It 's considerably harder than working ; for my ideal of heaven has never been rest, but strength to work. I have not attained the beautiful devotional strength of the wounded soldier : BIBLE STUDIES. 267 " I am not eager, bold, Nor strong, all that is past; I am ready not to do, At last, at last. " My half day's work is done, And that is all my part ; I give a patient God My patient heart ; "And grasp His banner still, Though all its blue be dim ; These stripes, no less than stars, Lead after Him." That seems to me the height of patient love. If we only could remember -that God does not really need our work ! He can do without us. All I can do at present is to finish a children's story, which was to have been out for Christmas, but which is not yet completed. It is simple, just a happy home-picture. I believe those melan- choly saints of children are monstrosities. Thank you again for all your kindness about my books. I do think a few lines from you in the "Churchman," or in any religious paper, would help very much. Unfortunately the books are, as Rev. Dr. Lundy says, "what teachers call hard." They do not seem so to me, because they can be taught superficially or closely. A friend of mine .often took two or three lessons each Sunday, and galloped through the " Horeb" at railroad speed, saying it was one of the easiest books she had ever seen. I liked your questions extremely, but am not quite sure about "When was the term of man's life shortened?" (Gen. vi., 3). After studying that, I remember that I decided that it meant that there should be one hundred and twenty years before the flood, during which, doubtless, offers of mercy were made to the world. I may be wrong, but Methuselah only died the year of the flood. Abram lived one hundred and seventy-five years, Isaac one hundred and eighty, etc. The first redeemed soul, I suppose, was Abel ; and the idea of the interest of the angels is beautiful. You believe, then, that the angels and redeemed souls have intercourse before the final bliss of heaven ? I suppose there is some intercourse, but 268 FRIENDS FOR BOTH WORLDS. you know the saints are not yet in full reception of the promise (Heb. xi., 39, 40). I have just re-read your letter. It tells a different story of my Raven, different from what she tells of herself. Thank you for it all, dear friend. I will read Edwards's book. But why will not you do the work you propose to me, and which I wish I could do ? What is the other thing? And will anything make question-books pay their expenses ! The plates of my last cost $428 ; when will thirty-five cents a copy pay even for paper and binding? And even if I could afford to pay expenses, would it be the best ex- penditure of so much money? Is it not melancholy to bring dol- lars and cents into notice when one only desires to work for Jesus? I must stop. I would gladly hear from you again, though I may not be able to reply ; for I ought really to take all my strength to finish "Brightside : from Christmas to Easter." We shall meet some time and talk it all over, when we shall know why we were held back in this life. Very truly your friend for both worlds, LILLY B. BENJAMIN. FROM MRS. PL ATT. DELAWARE, Whitsunday, June I, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND: You often seem very near, and I want to speak with you. To- day, when coming home from Sunday-school, with Bible and the precious old question book in my hand, I felt I must tell you again how much I owe for the loan of this book, .and how much we all owe the author of " Horeb." Suggestions rather than questions a kind of lamp-like power shining upon Scripture truth, giving out to the most thoughtless, unlearned eye that looks, gleams of hidden precious spiritual meaning. I have not time to copy, and the notes and comments, etc., seem more the author's right from her own "old book." Shall you mind if the back comes back to you a little more worn and worsted, thus going about doing good in the Master's name? If you could only look in upon and know this little western class of six and their teacher, you might despair of your book, or any book for study helping them: often no previous study, perhaps the question-book BLESSED WORK. 269 not opened at home ! bright, intelligent, educated(P) girls of seven- teen and eighteen years. (Western material must be taken as it is.) Now, is not this the question for your comfort, dear Mrs. Benjamin? if this question-book, prepared as loving service for the Master, can interest, help, and bless in such a class, what may it not do when properly used, under favoring circumstances and by skilful teachers? To-day we had the 28th Lesson, "Our Saviour." I wish you could have looked upon the sweet/ young, earnest faces, as their Bibles were searched and the precious references read. Will you not pray for this little class, that the Spirit of all grace may accompany and bless more and more your questions, that the "Eleven Months in Horeb" may be to each one the beginning of a new life of love, joy, peace, and trust in their risen, loving, living Saviour? They are all communicants, of our church. Soon all will be out on life's stream in earnest, immersed in care and re- sponsibility. Only a passing moment are they held through your book in a Sunday-school Bible-class. I cannot but believe these "Horeb Lessons" will go on and on in blessing, the influence descending upon children's children. Yes, I hope all this, for I know the power of early impressions upon the most thoughtless " butterfly nature." It was God who put the plan of this book into your heart, I am sure. Blessed work ! to be the chosen hand to open the Bible, turn its pages, pointing continually to "the Lamb of God which taketh away the sins of the world," to eager, lodging, prepared hearts. This, under God's blessing, I trust, your book is doing here. Our Sunday-school uses the popular "National" questions, but I never want to try to teach through any other books than " Horeb," and its companion, "The Church in the Wilder- ness." Indeed, I am so old these teaching-days seem a kind of "borrowed time." Were not the priests set aside from active temple-service after their fiftieth year? You wonder, perhaps, how we like the second volume? Now and then we have been able to have our Sunday afternoon lessons. We hope to begin in earnest after dear N. comes home. She is in Philadelphia now. " Brightside" came to us. Many thanks for the book, and still more thanks for what it is, "good children that do not die," and all the beautiful home-pictures, sweet, good, loveJy, yet common enough and life-like to be all true. 270 A WHITE RAVEN. Who wrote the ''Pillar of Cloud" verses, "Just what they needed, wonderfully fitted"? Thanks, too, for being on my side, and making Henry and Mary not go to Sunday-school. There may be such a shady side to Sunday-schools that good parents may keep their children at home (teach them themselves), and not sin, I think. Did you ever see a raven painted white ? Well, here is your Raven, so pictured in her nest by a loving young painter, that did not care to keep true to nature* (son of a dear, old friend of near forty years), passing his Amherst vacation with us last Christmas, his father, editor of the little island paper, "The Friend." " Dis- tance lends enchantment," a white raven ! I hope these balmy days are making you so much better. Whither your summer flitting, may. I ask? The Sandwich Islands are "a perpetual May; no heat, no cold, the one blessed sunny spot of this world," my friends think Want to go ? With true and grateful love, Your RAVEN. FROM MRS. BENJAMIN. , Feb. 7, 1875, 281 Fourth Avenue, N. Y. DEAR MRS. PLATT : I inclose one of the few efforts I have been able to make^ Al- though the word is not well chosen, for this was no "effort," it simply came to me, and I wrote it down. I am still an invalid, though nearer recovery than ever before. When you have done with that dreadful little note-book, will you please send it to me by express? Have you tried the "Church in the Wilderness" ? I want to know if you like it? My letters are limited to necessi- ties ; so, with love, I am truly yours, E. B. BENJAMIN. * Refers to a description of herself, by F. W. D., at the time he passed his Christmas vacation with us. See XXII., page 285. LETTERS TO MISS SNELL. 271 XXI. " The lips of the righteous know what is acceptable." Letters to Miss Snell Treasures of friendship A Mayflower Afraid of N. E. college air New England greatness Nest robbed The mother's lot. 1873 to 1874. THIS correspondence with Miss S. grew out of her interest in F. W. D. the son of Mrs. Platt's Sandwich Island friend, while he was at college in Amherst. There were numerous letters between them, from which these few extracts are taken. Mrs. Platt's anticipated pleasure of meeting Miss S., so frequently mentioned, was never gratified. AMHERST, MASS., November, 1878. MR. PLATT: DEAR SIR: In answer to your request just received I forward with this, those of your wife's letters which I have preserved. It is through these alone that one of my most pleasantly remembered friendships was made. I keep them among the treasures, which keep ever near me friends of the past years, and should dislike to lose one of them. If you will return them, when you have obtained what you wish, I shall be truly grateful. Yours respectfully, S. C. SNELL. DELAWARE, OHIO, March 17, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND: Surely Amherst must keep a warm, loving place in my heart. I would like to meet you so much. Have you no curiosity to peep at Western people? Next summer when Professor Snell proposes 272 AM H ERST. some little trip, can I not persuade you to suggest Ohio, to visit dear Frank's* "Aunt Jennie?" Say yes, and then I will begin to prepare you for the real life we live; not like dear Frank's painted pictures. Do come and see. In a former letter you wrote the "Daily Food" text for me (25th February), my own birthday text! This little text-book has been a companion since my sixteenth year. How many, many copies have bound dear friends to the giver; and how many of those dear oiies now are with Him who is the Bread of Life ! So, dear young friend, you came to me filling one vacant place, using my own little book. May He bless this little bond, and let us be- come fellow-helpers on the pilgrim-path Zionward ! DELAWARE, April 7, 1873. MY DEAR FRIEND: I am so sorry I did not talk to F more about his dear Am- herst friends. He so often mentioned them as such dear, good friends as no other college boy ever had. Still, I do not half know them. He read me some Amherst letters. A lovely letter came the day after his arrival in Delaware; it was directed in care of our postmaster. Was not that letter from my Miss S. C. Snell? (I took no notice of the name, though I remember well the spirit of the letter.) I do not wonder that he seemed jaded and wearied. Partings with him mean much. I can never forget his good-bye to us ! A tap at my chamber door showed the dear boy had rushed back again, when some distance from the house, once more to say good- bye; and the beseeching words, "Oh, Aunt Jennie! you will not forget to pray for me?" I can well understand the Amherst partings , You will smile at my asking to know what is best; but, dear Miss Snell, -I was born out of New England, does not that explain? Please always remember this fact. I feel sure I shall see you in Delaware, and it may be this very summer. You have not yqt asked Professor Snell? He may come West and leave you with us while he goes to the Mammoth Cave in July, who can tell? "In a year or two" your Western tour "may come round?" Ah, I * Mr. Frank W. Damon. NEW ENGLAND CULTURE. 273 dare not look ahead so far. Please plan to see us as soon as you can. DELAWARE, May 13, 1873. MY DEAR MAYFLOWER : You cannot help your inheritance of wisdom, and I cannot help liking you in spite of it ! I guess this last fact proves you some- what a degenerate, for I cannot even appreciate "wise people." I am dreadfully afraid of New England college atmosphere. The people of those favored spots seem to live in another world, so far above the common. I have listened with profound reverence, wonder, and admiration to descriptions of their social gatherings, etc.; the kind of family reunions where everybody knew every- thing, where book topics, or the world's passing events of deepest nature, were playfully bandied about, as children would discuss "Mother Goose's Melodies." Dear me, is not that truly another world? Oh to be an unseen listener, with even culture enough to only half comprehend ! Strange to say, after this, / want to go to Amherst; and I shall not feel a bit afraid of Professor Snell's family, not one of them ! I put in my plea of ignorance, and feel sure New England greatness will cover all. I made a visit to Arlington, Vermont, last summer; I think I can never go again so near and not try to see Amherst. Many thanks for the kind invitations to your home. Two strong barriers are upon this project: I am too old to love to travel, with poor head for railroad vriear; and have "no money." Western people generally have plenty, so I guess. We do not belong East or West, just a little household all by ourselves. I am delighted with the plan of teaching in Minnesota. A New Englander never can half appreciate himself until he stands upon Western soil, is planted, takes root, and grows there. Such room to grow! with God's sunshine, balmy breezes, nutritious earth, as can be found nowhere else. With such room to work for the blessed Master! One single true life lived among these Western people, what unconscious influence, what power for good! I hope you will come; and you- will never dare go by us without stopping, I am sure. Where was the fit reply that should at once have thanked you for your last long letter, so very welcome, with the warm invita- 18 274 A MAY-FLOWER BLOSSOM. tion to our dear N ? We have changed our home, and this household has been in such confusion as your eyes never saw. Let- ters, except to absent children, had to wait. How glad I should have been for N to see you all, and dear F 's college home. But this could not be. She is now in Philadelphia; will- be home early in June, I hope. You speak of N 's visit to the Amherst home as "quite a descent from New York palaces !" Her visit in New York was with her dear auntie, whose life-work is the care of helpless women and poor children in a Home, 304 Mul- berry Street, once a grand old house, but now old and forlorn, situated in the midst of want, misery, and sin of all kinds. But my sister is perfectly happy. I wish that you could call and see her work (St. Barnabas House). .... DELAWARE, September i, 1873. MY DEAR MAYFLOWER : Does not some invisible bond seem to keep you and dear F near each other? Your letters keep coming together. Both friends greeted me through the same mail last week I hope "another moving" is not in the needed discipline of the coming year. A May-flower in March or April would have special wel- come, surely. Do try us. I want these young girls to see and know what a brave New England girl can do when she has a will. Who can tell what inspiration may not corne to us through a May- flower blossom? I suppose a Yankee girl knows exactly what she can and cannot do. (They all have wise mothers, you see.) Here are N , J , H , and M , waiting for your inspiring visit, dear Mayflower. Not one of them is in any "rut." Could they be put in one, think you ? We do not think Miss Alcott throws much light on "Work" for girls, nor " Other Girls," nor "We Girls." No ; we are all just waiting, as I said, for our one May- flower, to show us all we so much want to know. You will have to come, now I have so clearly shown this western visit a duty, a Bible "opportunity" (Gal. vi. 10). DELAWARE, November 24, 1873. MY DEAR MAYFLOWER : Don't be frightened ; we will just take you in as " a poor speci- men of a New England girl," and secretly rejoice that you are WELCOME TO OHIO. , 275 such, too, for I am dreadfully afraid of New England's "perfect woman, nobly planned." But why has " niece Sabra's" little letter waited so long for reply, ever since 3d October? Because all let- ters have waited. Sickness in the family, and household changes; early, severely cold weather, that always makes me half sick ; all this has kept me from writing many letters. I wanted to respond at once, and say how glad we shall be to welcome you to Ohio. Do tell us where your home is to be, how near us? Tell Mrs. Snell this is to be the home when you want to rest, or if you are sick at all. We are " plain, kind people," that will take good care of you. I am glad you know something about "no help," as these panic times and dull business winter the children have sent away our good servant, and for weeks now we have been trying "We Girls" life. Alas, that "we girls" in the book, and "we girls" in Dela- ware, Ohio, should be so unlike ! You have read the book ? Then come and see for yourself the difference. I hope "Cousin F." has prepared you for Ohio mud. How you will miss clear, crisp New England winter ! Winter is the most dismal time to see Ohio. But we will try to keep you warm ; though Ohio people never are snugly " fixed up" for winter, and so " freeze up" when the thermometer leaps down to 14 or 28 below zero. Then likely the next week, or sooner, we put up our windows to let in the mild air and sunshine ! So we have variety, surely. DELAWARE, October 19, 1874. MY DEAR MAYFLOWER : What a blossom you are ! You cannot know how pleased I was to see your letter of October 8th. I wrote to F this summer, "Oh, do not let Miss Snell forget 'Aunt Jennie.' Tell her all this time her letter stands before me, in my open desk, just waiting for hand-time; the heart made response at once, long, long ago. I do want to meet her very much." About the time your letter came an invalid cousin called for all my time. She only lingered a few weeks after her return home. Then I had weeks with neu- ralgia, an old visitor, and the rest of the winter was the trying to get back to my usual strength. In April my nest was robbed, and our eldest birdie was carried 276 THE MOTHER'S LOT. off! For twenty-five years she had been our household help and comfort. For a long time before, and long after, I had to try hard not to be selfish. Never sweeter song than Jean Ingelow's "Seven Times Six" : "The mother's lot, Her lot to bear, to nurse, to rear, To love and then to lose." But now the dear girl is so happy in her new home ; her mother is happier, too, for this nest-stealing ! Why do we sit down in dis- couragement when we come to a rough step in our path ? Always there is the Helper's hand ; always the listening heart may hear. "Love is the meaning of all He does or permits." You smile, and wonder I give all these family details. Dear Mayflower, I want you to see just why your letter remained unanswered. Not quite strong for some years, though the past year there has been less and less strength, and letter : writing almost ceased, except to absent children. My "worries" seem all over (New England people don't worry, I know) ; and I hope kind, true friends, will let me write to them, though I have seemed so bad and neglectful ! You are coming to Cleveland ? Now you will come to Delaware, if possible ? Would I go near Amherst and not look up F 's " dear Miss Sabra?" Ever found a Mayflower in October? Was it not a rare, pre- cious blossom? Just so I prize your last; so kind, so very kind to let the little thread of loving interest run on and on, just the same, over all these silent months. Cannot I see and thank you face to face ? HAPPY CHRISTMAS. 277 XXII. " He that abideth in me and I in him the same bringeth forth much fruit." Miscellaneous Christmas eve, Christmas clay, a joyous season all over the house A nice long breakfast F. W. D.'s sketch of a Christmas scene in Ohio Letter to Bishop Bedell To President Merrick Autumn of life John S. Hart Questions for the pulpit Criticism of " Middlemarch" " Sex in Education" Letters to a godchild, with a tribute to her brother. CHRISTMAS was for Mrs. Platt the most joyous season of all, and she ever entered into preparations for its observance with all the energy and zest of her active nature prompted by her warm and generous heart to unusual efforts, to make every one happy ; her skilful fingers and inventive genius making ample amends for lack of means, in supplying love-tokens for the children and dear friends whom she wished to have remembered. She wanted all to be "happy" at Christmas (she preferred to use the term "happy Christmas" instead of "merry") and they were so; a happier family than hers was not to be found; and it came to be regarded as a favor to be invited to Mrs. Platt's Christ- mas gatherings, where her own bright and joyous spirit diffused happiness and good cheer to all herself the centre of all attrac- tion, because so loving and kind to every one. The two following descriptions of Christmas eve and Christmas day were found among her papers and marked, "Because about the family I would like to arrange and copy for these dear chil- dren. Feb. 21, 1877. Mother." "FAMILY INSPIRATION." OAK GROVE, Christmas Eve, 1859. Surely this is the evergreen season ! I had stolen on tip-toe into dear aunty's room, hours before she sent word "Come to my room before you go to sleep." But the curly heads and shaggy 278 "THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS." locks, braided bands and first silken threads, blue eyes and brown eyes how they had kept watch, as if sleep was not to come all night. "Mother, I cannot get to sleep,." was repeated from bed, couch, and crib, for baby's wide-open eyes spoke plainly as words could tell, that he knew this was Christmas eve. Then the finish- ing touches that "would take but one minute" but how many " one minutes" did the little time-noter count all unheeded ! Half- score white rabbits waiting for mother "just to finish" pink eyes from the bead string "to go where the pins are stuck," with great ears to find their delicate -lining from the "pink tissue-sheet." Balls wanting "just two more stitches," dolls' shoes and hoods, "all done but bows and tassels." Tiny cloaks and aprons finished "all but buttonholes." Twelve-year-old fingers had helped till long past bed-time, and countless little parcels had been tied and marked amid much secrecy and hidings from each other, as six pairs of little fingers collected their offerings for sister Nellie to mark. The Christmas tree is wanting this year, but Christmas bower and table, with its snowy cloth and cedar wreaths, stand ready, and now the nursery store is collected and arranged for the eager morning eyes. Who could tell all that there is on and about that table ! And the gathering continues until breakfast hour next morning. For this table Hood and Holland sang, Ruskin painted, Taylor saw "Northern Lights," Abbott told inimitable stories, and Mother Goose immortalized herself in "Rhymes." The sewing machine stitched dressing gown, quilted hoods, fastened gauntlets on tiny gloves, bound slippers, and tucked plaits up and down baby aprons. Candlesticks with candles that would do to light fairies to bed. Irons for dolls' laundry-work. Bright cup and spoon god- mother's first gift for "the first Christmas," with its accompany- ing gay rattle, just now held far above more costly gifts. A glit- tering toy tea service and china closet stowed away in box, with its cotton and moss packings. Dolly rolling in great easy chair on one side, dolly in her new curtained bed on the other, with wicker cradle for the third, " Mamma's cup for coffee," Nellie's vase for flowers, aunty's box for matches, cap for grandma, home-made portfolios for artists' efforts that will need direction "this is a horse and this a dog" here a dappled cow on wheels, there a gray IT WAS ALL A PICTURE. 279 horse on rollers, and last named, but to be "first in estimation, under the table Howard's skates "for sister," wheelbarrow for Fred, and papa's first Christmas gift to each new-comer the "treasure box" of building blocks. No mention- is made of pink-eyed rabbits, or woolly dogs, or furry cats, or the little parcels of kitchen-made cornucopias filled with candy, with their red and blue ribbons hanging out Jane and Bridget's contributions or the great basket of ginger nuts, ginger men, and horses. Above all, nurse has hung the favorite nursery card-picture of the "Infant Redeemer" Joseph and Mary with the babe lying in a manger. "Twelve o'clock" said the hurrying timepiece, and now the mother stepped about once more to see that all was ready. One moment at the table, with heart too full for words what a store of heart affections was symbolized there in those "Christmas gifts !" "Hallowed and accepted," she prayed, "through the great heaven- sent gift we and ours; make all these children' Thine; accept this gift to Thee." And then dear old aunty's* room was stealthily visited, that light slumber might not be broken. It would not do on Christmas eve to tell of the thoughts that came and tears that fell as the eye took note about that room ! It was all a picture a picture of the outward decaying life, of the inward never-dying soul the woodfire embers had been covered, the andirons drawn together, crossed with shovel and tongs, as I suppose New England homestead fires were left seventy years ago, when Clara, " our raven-head," was rocked asleep on the mother's knee, and while father laid down newspaper for the pen and paper to plan and draft aircastles and airy fortunes in the "Golden far-off West." The sickly child that mused in the old settle corner while the others talked and planned, and wished only that she might live to see that "Land of promise." That toilsome journey was made at last * Her husband's aunt on the maternal side, the oldest child of his grandfather, Judge Wm. Thompson. His was one of the " forty families" from New England that first settled in Wor- thington, O., in 1803. "Aunt Clara" was a gentlewoman of lovely disposition, who, though so slight in figure and delicate, yet survived all but two of her father's family of nine, living to the age of eighty-one years. She was a frequent guest at our house, and a source of much pleasure and com- fort to Mrs. Platt. 280 PEACEFUL SLUMBER. with head in mother's lap, while active brothers and sisters climbed the mountain-sides "ahead," and at every stopping-place of rest for the burdened animals returning to the great wagon with hats, hands, and aprons full of wood-trophies for the darling sister. "Backwoods" air and cabin life put fresh vigor in the frame, and the child, so long and unweariedly nursed, was spared to be nurse for all the family, and to return again to her native hills with hus- band's strong arm to lean upon, and to "endure as seeing Him who is invisible" long years of lonely widowhood; spared, yes spared even a little longer to show to us how beautiful, how blessed is old age, when the Creator has been remembered from youth's first days. One glance at the pillowed head told all this. The rocking-chair stands before the fire ; daily newspapers (al- ways read) ; the daily memorandum-book, where the coldest and the hottest days were always noted ; the well-stored portfolio, ever ready for response to letters from absent friends; the warm wrap- per, with its sober facings ; the drab shawl, so smoothly folded ; everything laid away as if " to-morrow" might never come for the wearer; the Prayer-book, so time-worn ; and the large-print Bible, first and last in the hands each day, all spoke. But the little table, beside the bed, told why I was to come. There had been days of unusual feebleness, when little feet had lovingly carried breakfast, dinner, and supper to that fireside ; and all Christmas preparations had been kept out of sight and sound as much as possible. But the evergreen season could not draw nigh unnoticed by that heart so warm, and fresh, and true to all that is sweet and lovely. The trembling fingers had been busy, too. Cushions and needle-books for all the family who could prize them, with their softened shades of drab and brown, quaint in color and design, with bits of fringe and tassels, and silken cord trimmings, that might have been used for a grandmother's wedding gown, and told many a tale of olden time. Here they lay, each marked for the Christmas table. Peaceful slumber ! The snowy head, the deeply furrowed brow, the dimmed eyes, what are these but tokens of the eternal youth soon to be thine ? Twice blessed is this Christmas eve, with its two almost angel guests ! The aged pilgrim drawing nigh, and the tiny voyager so lately left the gates of Heaven. Hearts never grow old. Love CHRISTMAS EVERYWHERE. 281 cannot die. The joys, the influence, the memories of Christmas, are they not " evergreen ? v J. H. P. DELAWARE, OHIO, January 17, 1860. CHRISTMAS. It is Christmas all over the house; Christmas all through the town ! Down at , where the inverted breakfast plate covers only golden gifts; round at Widow S 's cabin corner, where Benny's threadbare stocking holds peanuts and gingerbread ; over at Dr. G.'s, where the good father spares no expense or trouble in helping the children see his fatherland and its Christmas tree ; Christmas candles, and Christmas made merry half the night. What fairy land ! Fairies work, when at last the opened door unlocks a day's mystery, and music bids Christmas eve begin. The enchanted tree, and its moss-side lake below, with magnet swans and ducks floating about in miniature imitations of nature. What do not those children see? It is Christmas morning even in Friend Levis's* quiet mansion, where the gentle mother has taken down from the highest shelf the tiny cups and saucers of purest china, with their curious little teapot, a perfect cauliflower, with bright-green leaflets covering all but spout and lid ; the play-table, before the parlor fire, holds all these ; and on each plate, cup, and saucer-picture, are bits of broken candy, nuts, and raisins, grapes that have travelled many a mile from their warm, native clime, with doughnut boys and girls, fresh-made yester eve. Even Quaker schools are closed ; and, although all outward observance is unseemly, the children must have holiday ; and there must be muffins for breakfast, mince pie and cranberry tarts for dinner, and little cousin guests for a "baby tea." But here is Christmas in our own hf5me. Baby, your crib will be overturned, I fear, in the general rush to get mother's first Christmas kiss. " Cannot wait to get dressed." "Softly! Christmas will last all day." Nurse should have a dozen hands, stockings, shoes, and aprons, all to be again and * Of Burlington, New Jersey. 282 BEAUTIFY THY SANCT.UARY. again assorted. Baby, you are ready first to claim your papa's kiss. "We meet in aunty's room for prayers this morning; you need not bring the books ; all know this morning's hymn and tune; all can join in the thanksgiving." " Hark, the glad sound, the Saviour comes ; The Saviour promised long. Let every heart prepare a throne, And every voice a song. " Our glad hosannas, Prince of peace, Thy welcome shall proclaim ; And Heaven's eternal arches ring With Thy beloved name." To our prayers, O Lord, we join our unfeigned thanksgiving, because Thou didst give Jesus Christ, Thine only Son, to be born, as at this time for us, made very man, without spot of sin, to make us clear from all sin. Therefore, with angels and archangels, and all the company of heaven, we laud and magnify Thy glorious name, evermore praising Thee. Yes, this is "a nice long breakfast," H. See, that tell-truth face [the clock] from out the ivy wreath, almost time for church ! Never mind snow-shoes; Father has promised a ride to-day. F. has al- ready stationed himself at the lawn gate on the look-out, and H., too, is ready now to join him and give directions. They shout " the omnibus is coming." The boys get in. The old ladies* will be ready, bonnets on, folded handkerchiefs, and prayer- books and crutch in hand. " There is plenty of time; the omni- bus cannot turn in that narrow lane, but must go around and down the other street before it calls again for you." "I will meet you at the church must tie up a box for aunty that the express-man carries to some little ones whose dear father is to-day suffering many, many miles from home." The church is beautifully decorated, "the fir tree, the pine tree, and the box together to beautify the place of Thy Sanctuary." How sweetly soothing, how full of joy are these services! How near He comes! In the manger and on the cross " Was ever love like Thine." * Referring to the Misses Bills, two old ladies well known, members of the church, who lived near to us. A CHRISTMAS DINNER. 283 H.'s restlessness is quieted, and J.'s wandering eyes are fixed as though even they could catch to-day something of the blessed spirit of " Her sweet communion, solemn vows, Her hymns of love and praise." Church is out, and grandma joins the little flock. How they press and crowd about her, each eager to secure her ear and whis- per of "the ride" in store. Now grandma, the old ladies [Misses B.], mother, and children are all in, and the "all ready" word is given. Rough roads, rat- tling pannels, and clattering windows, "all the better, a thousand times better than a carriage ride," the majority (the children) de- cide, and the minority look too happy to dissent. The crutch is tightly clasped, and grandma's bonnet is held with both her hands; the young feet, despite all mother's steadying, seem rather dancing than having a Christmas ride. Some, at least, are glad when home is reached. Now the bower table is visited, and grandma's cap must be tried on, and packages that have traveled seven hundred miles, and waiting only for her presence, are to be opened. F. has read his name, and with puzzled look begs mother see, and say how could "Sunday last all the week?" N. has found a box of winter buds and flowers that the postman has brought from her dear aunt's garden among the beautiful hills where the Schuylkill takes its wind- ing way. The mother gives one glance at them, and sees again her own old home, close by that spot its Christmas gatherings and old associations clustering around "The Eldest" "Immortal" as are these flowrets' name. The dinner is ready, and grandma takes the seat of honor, while mother asks if she is not proud to-day; is sure she may be. Dear Aunt Clara can leave her easy chair, and join - our group at the table. Only one strange guest is present, and he, perchance, may be even now more than a friend to one of the three sisters opposite, dear orphan girls whose home is with loving hearts now beneath our roof [the Misses Franks]. The cottage neighbors our guests to-day [the Misses Bill] have long been as familiar friends, so attractive to our little ones has been their humble home with its canary cage, rare garden flowers, and kind words of welcome; children are never "in the way" there. 284 PRECIOUS MEMORIES. Grandma's " boys" are all together, and mother's too, all but baby. The Christmas dinner table will hold all; even playmate Charley has been gathered in. One frolic-making uncle and two beloved aunts, who best love Christmas on the eastern side of the "mountain," and one detained by loving friends to grace and cheer a motherless home, we do not count with us to-day. We cannot see them, yet do we not feel them here? And one more; the soft loving eyes looking from that life-like picture [her sister, Mrs. Canfield]. " The image of the dead, On whose calm, speaking face The light of heaven is shed ; She seems an angel guest, With eye and brow of love, Sent from the pure, the blest, To lift our hearts above." Oh, what memories cling around thee, companion sister ! Child- hood's best loved, most loving friend. The distant mountain home amid the "groves of rustling pines" to-day keeps Christmas for thy beloved motherless ones. How my heart yearns for them. Would that I could count them here. " We are all here. Each chair is filled we 're all at home, Even they the dead the dead so dear; Fond memory, to her duty true, Brings back their faded forms to view; How lifelike through the mist of years, Each well-remembered face appears ; We see them as in times long past ; From each to each kind looks are cast, We hear their words, their smiles behold, They are round us as they were of old. We are all here. O then, that wisdom may we have That gives a life of peace below, So in the world to follow this, May each repeat in words of bliss, We 're all all here.' " AN OHIO CHRISTMAS. 285 The following description of a Christmas at our home, by F. W. Damon, is taken from "The Friend" for February, 1873, pub- lished in Honolulu, by Rev. S. C. Damon. F. W. D. was our guest during the Christmas-tide of 1872-73. AMERICAN HOME LIFE AT CHRISTMAS. Miss Fredrica Bremer, in her book entitled " The Homes of the New World," has sketched many charming and delightful homes scattered through America, from the Atlantic to the Falls of Min- nehaha, in Minnesota. To understand and appreciate the Ameri- can people, it is requisite to visit them in their quiet rural homes, away from the great centres of business and lines of railroad travel. One of our correspondents has briefly sketched one of these homes situated in Ohio, the very heart of the nation, which may be taken as a type of ten thousand such in other parts of the widely extended country. "Aunt Jennie" and "Little M." are names we shall not erase, because they are too typical, although the characters are not fanciful, for they are like the "Oldtown Folks" of Mrs. Stowe, which are said to be found in every town in New England. If our limits would allow, we might set over against this sketch of a Christmas scene- in Ohio, a New England Thanksgiving sketch. The family are busy for the near-coming Christmas-tide: the great Birthday has its meaning here. Christmas brought , with a young friend from Columbus. They managed to keep the house very lively. The whole family entered with zest into all the Christmas festivities. Christmas eve we went \o service in the prettily decorated church, when the Rector gave us an excellent sermon. Early Christmas morning we heard "Little M." singing carols, in her pure sweet voice, urging us all to hurry for our gifts. Twelve full stockings in a row, with a table brimming over with presents, showing the love of the family in as beautiful a way as I have ever seen manifested. ' The stranger within the gates' was not at all forgotten Every now and then there would be a ring at the door, and an express- bundle incoming, which would call forth a chorus of de- lighted "Ohs," and "Ahs." We were fairly flooded with pre- sents. Christmas morning service again in the church, with a Pastoral 286 TO BISHOP BEDELL. letter from the Bishop, who is at present in Europe. We had dressed the parlor and dining-room with greens. Everything said a right " Merry Christmas." The dinner was indeed bounti- ful. "Aunt Jennie" beamed on us all from her lovelit eyes. Her face is wonderfully beautiful and refined, with its soft lines lighted with the beauty of an inner peace and harmorty, set in its framing of natural curls, touched as yet only here and there with the silvery sheen of passing years, and her voice, so sweet and tender, touching one like music. I have rarely known a mother who lived as much in her children. In the evening our games occupied us until the hours were getting small again. I know you will forgive my dwelling so much on this home- picture, there is so much of beauty in it. The mother with her girls, as bright and hopeful as the youngest of them. The family group in the fire-light, or busy fingers and bright faces over the home-made Christmas gifts, or the two full pews at morning service. I cant't forget them. We have a few moments, now and then, for books and authors. With the business and pleasant homely cares of life, there are such aspirations to take the bright and beautiful things in books and music. The mother-presence at the head, guides and directs all. We are reading aloud Owen Meredith's "Lucille." This morning we have been reading one of Edward Garrett's quiet English stories. DELAWARE, December 4, 1868. RT. REV. G. T. BEDELL, D.D. : DEAR BISHOP: I hardly, indeed do not know why, in listening to your sermon last evening, the hearing was of the present; the seeing, of the long, long past. A group of young girls, " Phoebe," "Fannie," and Jeanette, round the evening study-table, with its green cover. The "game of spelling" from the box of alphabet, the terrible dread lest the poor speller should be found out, in pre- sence of the learned boy-student, who, not condescending to notice "such little girls," was not so deep in his book that he could not now and then offer a suggestion, or give a smile at some signal failure. Fresh, as yesterday, the people and appointments of the simple, tasteful Christian, home of that beloved pastor, where I THE BEARER OF GOOD TIDINGS. 287 first saw my Bishop, near forty years ago ! His father's church, in its never-to-be-forgotten gbrgeousness to young Quaker eyes with the massive columns, and drapery of purple and gold, and the awe-giving inscription over the chancel. Too young and careless to care for sermons, the speaking presence of the preacher, the intonations of that most loving voice, in entreaty and warning, will live forever, "yet speaking," thus showing forth the power and honor the Master sometimes chooses to put upon "earthen ves- sels." Dear old Bristol College, in hallowed, buried memories, came again, in the cheerful bustle of commencement-day. The flitting to and fro of the important seniors ; the rustic platform, and the rustic crowd gathered about it ; the speakers and speeches of that day ; the rough little ferry-boat, with its over-load of young folks carrying their picnic dinners, to be eaten under the campus trees, with meetings and greetings; the voices, the faces so soon to pass from earth what calls the echo, but the one old truth, " They e"rr who tell us love can die !" So remembering and listening last evening, I saw that G. Thur- ston Bedell of the past was the Bishop before me; and I wondered if the Chief Shepherd always sent with "the feet" made "beauti- ful," bearing "good tidings," a cheering sense of the worth of their high mission? As if He who watches and guides the spar- row's wing, could leave a toiling Bishop's heart without all needed cheer ! Coming from church I heard again and again, "the Bishop's very best sermon!"* "He should preach that sermon in every parish." May it carry with it impressions for good, never to pass away ! Must not this be sealed with His promise, " My word shall not return unto me void?" Going about these western parishes, never think to measure the comfort and good dispensed by the courteous greetings and words given back. In the coldest parishes there are many warm hearts that welcome their Bishop's visits, were the signs and words wanting? The Good Shepherd's blessing comes "upon the evil and the good." He directs a bishop's feet to the feeding of many a famishing lamb ; a bishop's reward, when they that be teachers "shall shine as the brightness of the firma- ment ; and they that turn many to righteousness, as the stars for- ever and ever." I hardly know how I have dared to say all this to you so freely, 288 AUTUMN OF LIFE. dear Bishop. Perhaps because it has been denied me the comfort- able home-appointments that would let us always beg you and Mrs. Bedell to be our guests in Delaware. And I wanted you to be- lieve, in memory of the past, and in fullest appreciation of the present, warmest welcome must be ever yours, from J. H. P. As the passing breeze, that asks no notice, please look upon these impulsive words. Friday, October 20, 1871. DEAR PRESIDENT MERRICK : Will you and Mrs. Merrick have this picture? [her photograph]. Please keep it as a reminder of your kindness, the little railroad ride, and our broken talk of Tuesday last. Your words about " the autumn rest," so "soft and sweet," as type of the "decline of life's long pilgrimage," found such answer in my own heart, calling up these treasured verses. I do not know who wrote them, but my picture says them, because they are the true expression of my whole heart. Gratefully yours, JEANETTE H. PLATT. [On the back of the note was written : " Not for ' the al- bum' ; please fold them away together," referring to her por- trait and the accompanying poem. The verses alluded to are the following : ] THE AUTUMN OF LIFE. Fling down the faded blossoms of the spring, Nor clasp the roses with regretful hand ; The joy of summer is a vanished thing; Let it depart, and learn to understand The gladness of great calm, the autumn rest, The peace of human joys the latest and the best ! Ah, I remember how, in early days, The primrose and the wild flowers grew beside My tangled forest paths, whose devious ways Filled me with joys of mysteries untried, And terror that was more than half delight, And sense of budding life, and longings infinite. AUTUMN OF LIFE. 289 And I remember how, in life's hot noon, Around my path the lavish roses shed Color and fragrance, and the air of June Breathed rapture; now those summer days are fled, Days of sweet peril, when the serpent lay Lurking at every turn of life's enchanted way. The light of spring, the glow, are o'er, And I rejoice in knowing that for me The woodbine and the roses bloom no more ; The tender green is gone from field and tree ; Brown, barren sprays stand clear against the blue, And leaves fall fast, and let the truthful sunlight through. For me the hooded herbs of autumn grow, Square-stemmed and sober-tinted ; mint and sage, Horehound and balm such plants as healing know; And the decline of life's long pilgrimage Is soft and sweet with marjoram and thyme, Bright with pure evening dew, nor serpents' glittering slime. Around my path the aromatic air Breathes health and perfume, and the turfy ground Is soft for weary feet, and smooth and fair, While little thornless blossoms that abound In safe, dry places, where the mountain side Lies to the setting sun, and no ill beast can hide. What is there to regret ? Why should I mourn To leave the forest and the marsh behind ; Or towards the rank, low meadows, sadly turn ? Since here another loveliness I find, Safer, and not less beautiful, and blest With glimpses, faint and far, of the long-wished for Rest. Is it an evil to be drawing near The timeiwhen I shall know as I am known ? Is it an evil that the sky grows clear, That sunset light upon my path is thrown ; That truth grows purer, that temptations cease, And that I see afar a path that leads to peace ? Is it not joy to feel the lapsing years Calm down one's spirit ? as at eventide, After long storm, the far horizon clears, The skies shine golden, and the stars subside; Stern outlines soften in the sunlit air; And still, as day declines, the restful earth grows fair. 19 290 JOHN S. HART. And so I drop the roses from my hand, And let the thorn-pricks heal, and take my way Down hill, across a fair and peaceful land Lapt in the golden calm of dymg day; Glad that the night is near; and glad to know That, rough or smooth the way, I have not far to go. OAK HILL, October 25, 1871. MRS. J. H. PLATT Will please accept our thanks for the beautiful picture and the pleasant verses, received through the mail a few days since. Bless- ings on you and your respected husband j and, if your path be "down-hill," may it be " across a fair and peaceful land Lapt in the golden calm of dying day." Kindly yours, F. MERRICK, F. S. MERRICK. We first saw the above verses in 1870, in the Sunday School Times, which was then published by the late Hon. John S. Hart, at that time Principal of the State Normal School, at Trenton, N. J. I wrote to him, inquiring if he knew the author, and received the following reply: TRENTON, N. J., Nov. 19, 1870. MR. C. PLATT: DEAR SIR: Your favor of the i4th is received. The selection, "The Autumn of Life," was made by me. My cousin, Rev. A. M. Morrison, had cut it from some religious paper, and showed it to me. I admired it so much that I published it in the Sunday School Times. None of us know who is the author. We would like to know very much. Yours truly, JOHN S. HART. Mr. Hart wrote again, under date of December 15, to Mrs. Platt, as follows: WHAT IS TRUE PREACHING? 2QI DEAR MADAM: I return the poem as requested. It seems to have given you some surprise that a "man" should have admired these verses. Are we poor masculines, in your eyes, so utterly devoid of taste and judgment? What will you say when I tell you that I have read the poem aloud, at a large dinner-table, as the best way of con- tributing my share to the social enjoyment, and that I have in like manner read it to several other groups of friends ? Yours very truly, JOHN S. HART. I have the impression that these Questions were written for pub- lication, but do not know that they were published. QUESTIONS FOR THE PULPIT. March 10, 1873. What is preaching the Gospel? What is meant by "And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all men unto me?" (St. John, xii. 32.) What does "attractions" of the Cross mean? Can man be drawn by the preaching of the duty of self-examina- tion,- self-denial, introspection? Are men ever made better by the preaching that they are grievous sinners? Is there not full knowl- edge of this in every heart without feeling of the fact? Is a man saved through looking at himself? A sick man cannot feel his own pulse. Is not Jesus the beginning and all "the way" of the soul's return to God ? What kind of preaching can best lead a ruined man to know himself? Should not all preaching only shut him up to the One Teacher the "Light of Life?" Should not ministers prepare their sermons as "workmen" under the Spirit, remember- ing that He saves lost men by taking of the things of Christ, and showing them unto him. " Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God." Mrs. Platt was "pure in heart" to an eminent degree. Purity of thought, motive, and desire were leading characteristics; and this made her quick to detect, and prompt and fearless to condemn whatever was impure in books or papers. Acting under this prin- ciple, she was moved to write the following: 2Q2 SOUL LEPROSY. July 22, 1874. To THE EDITOR OF THE CINCINNATI DAILY GAZETTE : As I put away to-day's issue from our children's eyes in sicken- ing disgust, I ask, can there be any possible good wrought out of all this horrible evil? This open outrage upon all decency the disgusting revelations that cover more than one page of our usually most welcome paper. I know nothing of "Henry's" philosophy, that Mrs. Woodhull carries out; but has not George Eliot's Middlemarch a taint that if received and followed may develop just such evil? The power of that book every reader admits, but do the young see, though they may forever feel, the subtle evil hid among its thrilling pages? The author thrusts at the sanctity of married life "the holy estate" declared to be " honorable among all men." God has so blessed marriage, that no two persons can enter into it "reverently, discreetly, advisedly, soberly, and in the fear of God," that He will not mercifully, with His favor, bless and keep them in harmony and happiness. A " Dorothea" and "Casaubon" may exist. The Doctor's and Laura's unhappiness is a possible phase of married life, but which can never come to earnest true natures, fearing God. God always moulds two natures into harmony, or He Himself supplies what is lacking in each other, through His bestowed patience, forbearance, and pitying love, and fills up the measure of household joy in even richer, deeper fulness. What is "magnetic affinity," and all that may belong to such things? As I believe Middlemarch to teach, surely this is the theory, "Two natures meeting and finding 'magnetic affinity,' its fascinations and delights," have the seal of their Maker's ap- proval upon their course. Is not this just soul leprosy? To be pointed out and shunned as such? Has not the taint touched the minds of many to the life-long peril of their domestic happiness? It is asked, may not a man find affinity "the electric-thrills" with' a woman not his wife? May not "Dorothea" be miser- able in her husband's society, and yet very happy in the presence of his "young cousin," and still be so good and loving? The only answer is No! ntver! Every true wife or husband SEX IN EDUCATION. 293 would meet such iniquitous suggestions with the Saviour's words- "Get thee behind me, Satan !" J. H. PLATT. TO EDWARD H. CLARK, M.D., Author of the little book, Sex in Education." DELAWARE, O., Aug. 4, 1874. E. H. CLARK, M.D. : DEAR SIR : Your " Sex in Education" has just been read by an unlearned western mother, who wants to tell you that her experi- ence, as the mother of five daughters and three sons, proves to her the truth of the statements, convictions, and conclusions of your book. Surely every true, watchful mother, who has raised daugh- ters to maturity, must agree with you. If it is not asking too much, will you please say where can be found the best attempt at reply to your book, by "Yankee wo- men," and the name of their publication. MRS. CYRUS PLATT. DR. CLARK'S REPLY. BOSTON, Aug. 23, 1874. MRS. CYRUS PLATT, DELAWARE, OHIO: DEAR MADAM : Accept my thanks for your note of August 24, and for your appreciation of my essay upon " Sex in Education." Five or six replies have been published, none of which seemed to me of sufficient force to merit an answer. Perhaps the best one is "Sex and Education," edited by Mrs. Julia Ward Howe, and published in Boston. " No Sex in Education" has been published in Philadelphia. Very truly yours, E. H. CLARK. Mrs. Platt was very much interested in Kitty C., her godchild, and always remembered her at Christmas and birthdays, sending books or other tokens, with little notes written in her playful, affectionate manner. From some of them these extracts are taken : 294 A SONG OF PATIENCE. DEAR KITTY: What can a young girl do with this "Winter Idyl"* of the Quaker poet? so much too dry and old for her; but say over its pretty name, and peep at its pleasant snow-pictures, and believe that it carries to her bright, best, and loving wishes, from heir GODMOTHER. Christmas, 1875. December 23, 1876. DEAR KITTY : If only I were a fairy godmother, quickly this little knife would turn into a beautiful book ! The world should be full of books and flowers. Poor "Johnny" ! How much he is in our thoughts. It seems so sad to have to suffer in this joyous season. Christmas always brings back past days, and how plainly I see the beautiful baby boy, with fairest face and flowing curls, every one admiring and wanting to caress him. Indeed he was a most beautiful baby, and sweetest little boy, and his voice so full of birdlike music. The children had a "singing- school" in those days. " Little Drops of Water" they were trying to learn. " Johnny" was but a wee fellow one Christmas time, and had joined them in the parlor, where they were trying the tune. " Oh, that's not right," he said ; and I called from the next room, "Please, Johnny, you show them how;" and I can never forget the tones of that childish voice, so clear and sweet in " little deeds of kindness, little words of love." What a song of patience and sweetness has been his whole life thus far ! No winter wind or biting frost of suffering has stopped his trust and hope, or. taken the cheer out of his voice, or the smile from his lips for every one. I wonder if he calls his a very blessed, happy, useful life? Is not he blessed and happy who ministers to the highest good of those about him ? Surely; your dear brotherf has unconsciously done this, is doing it now, though he may feel all "laid away." * Whittier's " Snow Bound." f The death of this young man occurred soon after that of Mrs. Platt. One who was intimate in the family, and much with him during his last days, writes : " From early childhood, on through twenty years, his physical sufferings were A SUPERIOR LETTER. 295 You can better tell him this that I am trying to say ; won't you please do so ? With my love and loving best wishes for yourself, J. H. P. FROM MRS. DR. McCABE, returning a letter inclosed to her, written by Mrs. Platt to her daughter N , and to her husband, Mr. S TUESDAY MORN. MR. PLATT: MY DEAR SIR : I do not know that I ever saw a letter from a mother superior to the one inclosed. I have always valued- her little notes and occasional letters; but of all I have seen from her pen, this is the most remarkable. There is not only love and 4visdom, but an indescribable power of love and wisdom, as though she were only a conduit, and life directly from Christ, flowing through her to those dear children. Such honor have mothers. Evidently her whole being was roused, and her- sanctified mother- heart spoke divinely. While she writes such words of trust and strength, how plainly one hears her cry out of the depth of help- lessness, like an undertone, into the ear of God ! When I see such exhibitions of grace, I "am glad, and rejoice in the Lord." The letter of mine .... refers to a deep trial into which the eminent Mr. S. came. I told her that his dear friend said it was " lest his leaf should wither in the sun of his great popularity." Most truly, H. C. McC. constant, and frequently intense. Mrs. Platt watched him and sympathized with him most tenderly. He was wont to relieve days, and even sleepless nights of pain, in exercising his inventive genius, and in gratifying his aesthetic taste, by making articles to bestow upon the objects of his unselfish affection. His patience and cheerfulness, as he saw hope after hope depart, were to many both a wonder and an inspiration. Long before his death he had passed the Jordan of doubt and fear. t Without impatience or repining at such a life of suffering, he fell asleep, a complete victor through the crucified One." 296 BAPTISM OF SUFFERING. ' TO MRS. DR. McCABE. March 6, 1877. MY DEAR FRIEND : Resting on my lounge, listening to daughter's reading the Psalter for this morning, poor Mrs. S seemed so present the sacred words and thoughts a kind of refrain about the touching story you hinted to me last evening. I never felt a stronger throb of sym- pathy. Next to God, a woman knows her sister-woman ; and a pilgrim nearing home must so know and feel that "Hisways ; " always so "high above our ways," are always most loving and equal. No staggering or bewilderment of head or heart under that touch of anguish the "heaviness for a night" can cast the faintest shadow upon the work for her Master she was trying to do. He would not permit that ; and so soon He sent the " joy in the morn- ing." Thanks to Him, for the sister- voice that testified of His love in sheltering His chosen " from the scorching midday sun. "Hereafter" she would see that act was the fullest, deepest, th crowning love-measure of His hand toward her. Now I think I can listen and try to follow all she may speak or write, as never before, after this baptism of suffering. May not this passage of her life teach as her words and daily walk before never could do? We cry, "God forbid that I should glory, save in the Cross !" and he answers us in ways that we know not. Few hearts can safely bear high noon of a successful work, or an exalted position before man! . Then the "staining" comes, self falls, and the Healer, Helper, and Restorer is glorified and exalted all in all. " What is perfected piety but perfected self-renunciation, and per- fected dependence upon the appointed Saviour? The last remnant of a rebellious spirit that is shaken off by man, is self-dependence." I want to call last evening's call all my husband's (he proposed it, returning from Prof. W.'s). All winter I* have been hungry to see you. You cannot think this? O yes, you will, when I tell you of the attractions of soul to soul, that come not frorn any earthly bond of fellowship, oneness of work, or any seeing eye to eye, or being often face to face : it is felt, not explained by earthly language ; it hints of the holy communion of the Better Country, where spirits congenial shall know each other even as they are known where those who have been permitted to touch us for PRECIOUS RECOLLECTIONS. 297 good here, may, perhaps, become our appointed leaders and guides to heights of knowledge and joy, that " eye hath not seen, nor ear heard," of " the things which God has prepared for them that love Him." But I " took my pen" only for a few words, to beg that when you hand about to Christian friends some subject for secret prayer, you will link my name in the sacred circle though I am not with those who work, but those who only "stand and wait." Your loving friend, J. H. P. FROM MRS. DR. McCABE TO MRS. SAYRE AND THE MISSES PLATT. Sabbath Afternoon, August 26, 1877. MY DEAR YOUNG LADIES : I have taken an hour on this, your dear mother's first Sabbath in her new home, to express something of my sympathy to those whom she holds dearest. It was in the early spring I had some very pleasant hours of com- munion with your mother. She then told me, as though she had it specially to communicate, that her stay here would not be pro- tracted. I endeavored to dissuade her, but her manner was so positive and peculiar, always replying, "No; !/ soon. Blest Father, if thy will it be That thou by stripes my spirit heal, Give me some other woe to feel But spare my one sweet babe to me ; 312 THE SPARROW'S VOICE. This dove here nestled on my breast, Whose little cares with day were done; So like the dear departed one Who left me for the purer rest; My little comfort in the way That 's grown so strangely dark to me : And I will consecrate to Thee My life and all I have and may. DELAWARE, OHIO, March n, 1871. The following note was in acknowledgment of a little poem sent by Mrs. Thomson, called "The Sparrow's Voice." DELAWARE, OHIO, Jan. 6, 1875. MY DEAR FRIEND : I cannot touch your " Sparrow's Voice" without starting tears grateful, loving, soothing tears so sweetly did your little missive minister to a burdened heart. I wanted to tell you this long ago, but this is the first opportu- nity. "Little acts of kindness" do not fly about our world "at random sent," but at "the dear Lord's" bidding, who ever " knoweth when one little sparrow falls to the ground." Ah ! yes, yes, well may we " fold our wings wherever we happen to be at twilight, for the Father is always watching !" So I took the tiny book and little sparrow's song as coming straight from " the dear Lord caring for me." Many loving thanks to the kind heart through whom He sent it. Matt, x., 29. If there is one verse of God's word that has been made more precious than another, more as the guiding star of hope to my life, it is the above.* The sparrow doctrine, as I have always called it I think the blessed Master meant the lowly, feeble, and the not mighty ones, to take such comfort fr*om His words about the sparrows. "Two sold for a farthing;" "all over the world are found." * This little poem, " The Sparrow's Voice," was found somewhere by Bishop Thomson, and Mrs. Thomson had it published in tract form. Mrs. Platt was very fond of it, and she used to distribute them (the tracts) wherever she thought they would do good. GIVE ME THE MIND OF CHRIST. 313 God's intimate knowledge, His loving care how clearly told ! In grateful love, J. H. P. FROM MRS. THOMSON TO MRS. PLATT. July 12, 1876. MRS. C. PLATT: DEAR FRIEND : I have to-day finished reading your most de- lightful book, and, with many grateful thanks, return it. I believe that I can truly say I have never before read a book with more intense and delighted interest ; nor one, except the " Book of books," from which I humbly and sincerely trust I have derived more pure, spiritual good. What an indescribable charm there is in a beautiful, consecrated life ! There is nothing that I desire in life more ; but oh ! how very, very far I am from possessing it. That four years of wedded happiness ; the charming home-life in Alton ; the death of the beloved husband ; the silent dropping away of nearly every one that she loved on earth ; her prayers, her devotedness ; her perfect trust in, and submission to, her blessed Father's will; and, at last, her own going home to the beautiful beyond ; how inexpressibly touching and beautiful, even wonderful it all is ! I could not read a number of lines for weeping ; and oh ! how many, many prayers I breathed for just such a spirit as hers ; and, last night, in the soli- tude of my own home, I besought God to implant within me the mind of his dear Son, the same that actuated every motive and deed of her life ; and promised that, henceforth, my life, my strength, and whatever talent I may possess, should be devoted more freely to His service. Oh ! that I may have strength given me, divine strength, to enable me to keep this promise ; I so often fail in my good resolutions, and promise of future good, that I am often quite discouraged. I think that I have never needed the lesson that this sweet life-story has taught me more than now. As the "days go on and on," it seems more difficult for me to walk alone, and the end of the road so far away. I had hoped it would be different, but I have never shed more tears of heartfelt loneliness than within the past few months. Each burden seems heavier, and 314 SPIRIT LONGINGS FOR JOY. I each time more severe ; and I am often -so hungry for the tender, beautiful affection that was mine but four short years. I premise, though, if I had more of the love of Him who is all love and compassion, I might suffer, and yet " learn how sublime a thing it is to suffer and grow strong." Pray for me, dear friend, that His grace may be given me ; and every other gift and grace that may give me, if even but a faint resemblance to her whose memorial I have read with the purest, sweetest pleasure. Again, and yet again, I thank you for the pleasure you have given me in this precious book ;* and may you yet witness some of its fruits in my own life. Affectionately, MRS. A. E. THOMSON. DELAWARE, May 30, 1877. MY DEAR MRS. PLATT: At last I am glad to return to your possession your most beautiful book. I fear you may have needed it. Mrs. B , for whom I borrowed it, being a teacher in the Female College, finds but little time for reading; and, as this is a large volume, she was not able to finish it sooner. Hence the delay to return it. She expresses herself as delighted with the story, and desires to possess a copy of her own. I trust it may fall with such a blessing on others' lives as it has on mine. Its sweet, pure influence is about me day by day. I trust that you are well, and able to drink in the inspiration afforded by these perfect days. It is strange, while yet so sweet ; they, too, are saddening. Some one has beautifully said, that these longings, that steal over our spirits in these lovely spring days, are the desires the spirit feels to dwell amid the permament joys of the "beautiful beyond." I believe it. Affectionately, MRS. ANNE E. THOMSON. * " Memorials of a Quiet Life," by Augustus L. C. Hare. OBITUARY. 315 XXV. " If ye loved me ye would rejoice, because I go to my Father." Obituary Closing days Instruction for burial 1877 Private papers to her husband. 1848. THE closing days of Mrs. Platt's life are well described in the obituary notice prepared by a dear and loving friend, from which we make the following extracts : The early advantages she enjoyed, both in her home and under such ministries as those of Drs. Bedell and Tyng, were improved by her in a very beautiful culture of both mind and heart ; and the channels of thought, then cut deep, have ever since flowed out with a richness and beauty that have charmed, as well as made better, all with whom she has associated. She held an easy, graceful pen ; and if, with her clear perceptions of truth, and the power of rich and abundant language with which she was endowed, her path had led out into literary fields, she could have writ- ten her name there, too, in no unenvied place. But it was with very marked and rare grace that she turned from all this, to wear even more proudly the crown of wife and motherhood. Her virtues many, like a string of valued pearls worn gracefully through life, have been left to her children undimmed dnd without one tarnish. Her sickness was of little more than a week's duration ; at first not regarded serious, but, four days before her death, assuming dangerous symptoms. She seemed to know from the first she would not survive ; but death held in it no alarm for one so ripe for heaven, and she calmly talked of it to her weeping husband and children, as if she were only going a little before to some new home, where she expected soon to welcome them all so gladly once more ; and while her enjoyment of life, with its innocent pleasures, 316 HOME AT LAST. was intense, and her attachment to family and friends stronger than words could express, yet so clear and comprehensive were her conceptions of the inexpressible joys and pleasures of life with Christ in the glory beyond, that she was ever ready to go when He should call. This was beautifully evidenced during her later hours, when, with radiant face, she raised up and said, "O, I should so dearly love to stay with you all a little longer, but I am willing to go; I am ready." Soon after this her eyes were fixed intently upward for some moments, as if permitted a view of the beautiful and glorious home awaiting her, giving no heed to the question, "What do ypu see, my dear?" There then burst forth from her lips, as if by inspira- tion, " Shekinah ! Shekinah ! Shekinah !" These were her last ; she had no " parting words" of admonition, they were faithfully given all along the path of life. This community, with her family, stand to-day bereaved ; and in homes all over our city, where this ministry of her love has been felt in the past, an answering chord of sympathy has been struck, which tells of other hearts that ache, and that will miss in the future the beautiful friendship that was ever fully worthy of a place beside her home-loves. Yes ! sweet friend, we will miss you ; the hand we have just laid down was joined in such a close fellowship of joys and sorrows that the years will seem long in which we will wait for you. And thus passed away this beautiful life at eleven o'clock on the morning of Tuesday, August 21, 1877. Thursday, 23. The body of our precious one was gently laid in the grave by loving hands at that still and quiet hour " When shadows lengthen, and the sun Is parting from the sky;" there to " Rest from labors wrought from dawn lo set of sun, From work that only ended when another was begun," and there to await the resurrection in the last day, when it shall come forth a more beautiful a glorified body. INSTRUCTIONS FOR BURIAL. 317 The burial services were conducted in accordance with her own wishes, as expressed in a paper written by her several years ago indorsed on the outside " Private paper for my husband concerning burial. JEANETTE PLATT." A copy of it is here given: PRIVATE PAPER. Sunday, July 25, 1852. I have been spared from expected sickness another week. What more does m y soul desire this day but in the holy words, "My soul cleaveth unto the dust; quicken Thou me according to thy word." How every moment, even some midnight hours, have been filled with anxiety to set my earthly house in order before my confine- ment, to have every want of my beloved husband and precious children anticipated and supplied. Now, when the Sabbath comes, where is the same peal, where the " lifting up of the head unto the hills" for heavenly aid to set my spiritual house in order! Ah, "my soul cleaveth unto the dust, but quicken thou me, O Lord !" In my Daily Food for yesterday was the confession of David's hope, "I said, I will confess my transgression unto the Lord; and Thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin." Here is my hope through Jesus Christ my Lord. Rev. vii., 14, 15. This verse for to-day is the one I have often thought I should wish used in mentioning me as "absent from the body." I should wish no honor paid to my perishing body, only in the constant remembrance that soon it shall be made a "glorious body," "like His." I would have every one who loves me re- member that I am absent from the body, present with the Lord. I would wish no funeral hymns sung to speak of the grave and death; but let the life and light of the Glorious Resurrection swell every heart with praise and heavenly hope, as joyful voices in joy- fulness sing " Who are these in bright array, This innumerable throng, Round the altar night and day Tuning their triumphant song?" Hymn 201. 31 8 HELPED AND COMFORTED. MY CHOSEN TEXT. " They have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb. Therefore afe they before the throne of God." Rev. vii., 14, 15. I would wish no service of any kind at the house. In silence let my friends meet and bear the body to God's house. Follow the freed spirit. J. HULME PLATT. This paper was inclosed in another, on which was written as follows: May 19, 1873. I have opened to-day this "Private paper." Wonderfully has God helped me and comforted me on every side since penning those words nearly twenty-one years ago ! I indorse what I then said every word concerning my burial, whenever it shall please God to call me hence. "Absent from the body, present with the Lord," I trust through His abounding grace in Jesus Christ our loving Lord. JEANETTE H. PLATT. I want nothing upon my stone but " JEANETTE PLATT, WIFE OF CYRUS PLATT." In the summer of 1848, Mrs. Platt placed in my hands a sealed letter, with this inscription written on the envelope : "Not to be opened till earth's deepest sorrow rests upon Cyrus or Jeanette. SUNNY COTTAGE, DELAWARE, O., May 1 8, 1848." It was carefully laid away, and not opened until some weeks after she had entered into rest. It was written three months previous to the birth of her eldest child, and reads as follows: PRAYER. 319 " SUNNY COTTAGE," Friday afternoon, May 18, 1848. I have opened this package of my letters [probably letters to her husband previous to marriage], and my eye has again, for the first time, glanced upon that written those months ago. Words can never tell the rush of feelings. Before our Father's throne, in that Ear that alone can hearken to the heart's inmost depths, I have poured out my burdened soul Lord, bless us, yet further bless us'; sanctify us, all that we are, all that we shall ever have to Thy own glory ! Spare us to each other this precious gift of mutual, earthly love ; Thy gift, yet more and more binding our souls to Thee. But, Father, not our will, but Thine be done ! Separated at thy call, one to enter into that glory prepared for those who love Thee above ; the other to more glorify Thee below, meekly bearing the cross given by a Saviour's loving hand. God bless that one ! Bless him as I know Thou canst bless the bleeding, broken heart ! He that taketh one can, will uphold the other. Yes, can abun- dantly supply "all need." Oh, how thou hast blessed us ! Sweet- est, deepest, purest wedded love, sanctified by every spiritual bless- ing Thou hast given us, making us one in Thee. Thine we are ; Thine be all we shall ever have ! Our babe unborn Thine before its birth, the workmanship of Thy hand oh, take it to Thyself before I know a mother's love, or give it to me to behold Thy saving love upon it through each of its earthly years. It is, oh make it, wholly Thine. JEANETTE PLATT. 320 SYMPATHY. XXVI. " That ye may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble." Sympathy Consolation Letters from James C., Dr. Merrick, Mrs. La Croix, Dr. Damon, Rev. C. T. W., Bishop Jaggar. FROM numerous letters, expressive of sympathy, received after our dear one had entered into rest, the following are selected for their valuable testimony to her true Christian character : FROM JAMES CANFIELD. LAWRENCE, KAN., Aug. 21, 1877. MY DEAR UNCLE : What can I say how can I write? Were I with you I could do no more than let the grasp of the hand and tearful eyes tell their own story of sympathy and affection, of which I know you do not need assurance. And now, eight hundred miles away, with but this poor medium of ink and paper, my pen falters over words that must seem only too formal and cold. I feel as though I could never open another telegram. So sud- den so most entirely removed from any thought or dream of mine it came like a flash from a clear sky. Aunt Jennie's fresh- ness and vivacity, her heart-youth, her very loveliness of nature and character, which so drew all to her, and which must have been the great comfort and inspiration of your own life in many a trying hour, all these seemed perennial, as though they could never cease to be with us and for us. It seems like the "untimely" end, rather than the gathering in of the ripened sheaf. Yet the precious legacy of her life and death ! So pure, so trusting, so faithful, so unselfish ; such continual reliance on Him who alone can now comtort and strengthen you ; such devotion to His service and His truth ; such an earnest striving to follow the AN IRREPARABLE LOSS. 321 dear Masfer ; such perfect and childlike faith ; such a quiet resting on His promises ; such unmurmuring submission to His will ; rare, indeed, almost unequalled. The longer I live without her, the more I think of her; the more her whole character grows upon me ; the more does the loss of my own dear mother grow upon me. Can I say more or better than to write how much alike these two dear sisters seem to me, and how keenly this later loss recalls the first You are constantly in our mind and prayers. We send most sorrowful, yet loving, greetings to you all. May God bless, com- fort, and keep you ; lift up the light of His countenance upon you ; and give you peace, both now and evermore. Amen, (r Thess. iv. 13). From one who was a member of our family for a few weeks while attending college. August 24, 1877. 9 I have just learned of your great bereavement, and hasten to send a line of sympathy, though it amounts to so little in your deep grief. I deeply regret I did not get around to see Mrs. Platt when I was last in town. Meeting so many old students at Com- mencement absorbed what little time I had. Every one will bear testimony to the rare charms of person, mind, and heart, which characterized Mrs. Platt. Her spirit was like a poem May God bless you, and temper the stroke, as He only can. Affectionately, J. M. DE C . FROM DR. AND MRS. MERRICK. DELAWARE, August 24, 1877. MR. CYRUS PLATT AND FAMILY : VERY DEAR FRIENDS: We hesitate to obtrude ourselves upon your notice at such a time of deep and sacred sorrow, and yet we desire to express our sincere sympathy with you in your irreparable loss. God has taken from you the light of your eyes and the joy of your hearts. But it is the Lord, and shall He not be allowed 21 322 COMFORT. to do what seemeth to Him good ? If earth is less to you hence- forth, heaven will be all the dearer. You have an additional motive to live for that better world. God comfort you in this your great trial, and sanctify it to your highest good. Most sincerely yours, F. AND F. S. MERRICK. FROM REV. C. T. WOODRUFF. NEW YORK, Aug. 30, 1877. MY DEAR MR. PLATT : My thoughts and prayers are continually of and for you and your desolate family, for I feel myself a large share in your grief, and mourn for Mrs. Platt as one might do for an only sister. With the exception of my loved wife, no person living could, by departure, cause such a void as she has made. Such a combination of rare excellences I never saw among all my' friends and acquaintances ; *and she realized my ideal of all that human nature is capable of being in the sphere of her life. Seeing and knowing what I did of her, of yourself, of your children, I have often fancied what the joy and love of the family circle must have been, and have longed to look in upon you and enjoy it with you. And now I would fain come to you in your bereavement, and pour into your bleeding hearts some drops of precious consolation. It is comfort that you need, I know ; comfort, that lays her gentle hand upon the quivering chords of the torn heart, and hushes them to peace, taking away the sting of death. Our God is "the God of all comfort;" "a very present help in trouble." He does not keep trouble from us, but He is ever present to help, and therein is abundant comfort. And then it comes to pass that the loss of our loved ones gives us a deeper sense of the value of the Gospel I mean the Gospel as a whole. It is found, at such times, to possess attractions, and to yield consolations which the world cannot offer. When a gloom rests upon all surrounding things, and a sense of want almost op- presses us ; when the house is desolate, though full of friends ; when the life of the house has departed, and darkness hangs over the vacant seat, then the fulness of the Gospel is realized ; then it is seen that the heart, though torn open as by violence, cannot be opened too wide for the grace of God to fill. Then its precious PRECIOUS GOSPEL PROMISES. 323 truths break upon our vision with all the freshness and power of a new revelation. It is wonderful how the Gospel adapts itself to all conditions of our life, so that we find something written, as it were, expressly for us, in the very circumstances of the moment. We seem not to know the exceeding richness of the promises till, in the hour of sorrow, they fill us with inexpressible comfort. Take the one sweet promise, that " they who sleep in Jesus, God will bring with Him at the last day;" " and so shall they be ever with the Lord." It assures us that, if we are of that happy number, we and they shall live with each other, and all together with Him. It is God's comfort. His way, among others, of cheering our bruised and sorrowing spirits, of banishing every feeling of sad- ness, and making us joy even in the presence of death in our loved circle ! Blessed be God for comfort ! I would not weary you, but hearts are alike, and what has been a source of comfort to me may be such to you, only I cannot say a tithe of what is in my heart. The event has come to us " like a bolt from a clear sky," and we are almost benumbed by it yet. I am, indeed, a mourner with you ; and yet I am comforted, and, as I said, I would fain bring you sweet comfort, so that you shall say, "The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord !" Lift up your heads, dear heart- friends; the loved one has only fallen asleep in Jesus; and, " if she sleep, she shall do well." Let us press on to join her when she wakes, and enter with her into the fulness of heaven's eternal joy. With kindest sympathy and love, truly yours, . C. T. WOODRUFF, FROM MRS. LACROIX. Wednesday, A. M., August, 1877. MR. PL ATT : . In her endeavor to console others in affliction, your dear wife sent me this little book* only a few days ago. It accomplished for my heart, in a great measure, that which she hoped it would. Although, on first hearing of her sickness, and then of her death, it pained me to think that I had not acknowledged her kindness * "Agnes and the Little Key." 324 A MEMENTO OF COMFORT. before it was too late for her to know my appreciation of it ; yet now I am glad to bring to your desolated heart the fact that, among her last acts, was this one of consoling one who was just passing under the rod. She has gone to the world of consolation, or, perhaps, it were better said, to the world where they need no consolation ; and this, for the same reason, that they need no light of the sun. I never met her much, but I met her most years ago, around the death- cradle of a poor little brain-suffering babe, in an old upper chamber of the very poor. Both of our hearts were wrung for that little sufferer and for its mother. The three babes, and one of the mothers at least, are safe. I rejoice to think she now has the sweet privilege of solving the mysteries that surrounded her little one gone before. This inclosed note of hers to me I had laid away among my mementos of comfort, on laying away our " angel of the house- hold ;" but I feel now that it belongs to you, as perhaps the last words she penned. For a close to this, may I refer you to the last paragraph in her note to me ? It is more valuable for being written with her own hand, to you. We should be comforted, since she has awakened in the likeness that satisfies. Yours in sympathy, C. A. LACROIX. This is the note referred to by Mrs. Lacroix : Wednesday, A. M. DEAR MRS. LACROIX: Are not the sacred words true, when " one member suffers, all the members suffer with it" ? So my sympathy has been with you in your present sorjow, very near; for have I not, too, one little babe waiting for me in the arms of Jesus, "the Good Shepherd"? I take the liberty of sending this old book, "Agnes," because its words had great comfort for me once. May our covenant-keeping God sustain and comfort you with His own precious comfort. In Christian fellowship, Yours, J. H. PLATT. WITHIN THE VEIL. 325 FROM REV. S. C. DAMON. HONOLULU, Sept. 20, 1877. MR. PLATT: MY DEEPLY AFFLICTED FRIEND : By yesterday's mail we received the two newspapers announcing the most unexpected intelligence of the death of your dearly beloved and highly gifted wife. I hardly know with what words to express my own sympathy and that of Mrs. Damon to you and your deeply afflicted family of sons and daughters. The long story of our acquaintance is, as you know, peculiar. It is now just thirty-nine years since I became acquainted with Jeanette and Martha Hulme; and with both of them it was my privilege to carry forward a correspondence almost to the very day of their resting from their earthly toils and labors. Their frequent and choice letters have often gladdened my heart, and cheered me forward amid the duties and cares- of life. They were both to me all that two dear sisters could have been ; and I can hardly realize that both have passed within the veil. As your dear wife survived her sister Martha so many years, of course our correspondence has been more recent and fresh ; and yet, in the very last letter, dated only 6th of July last, she alludes to that sister in the most tender manner. You recollect I sent her one of her sister Martha's old letters. She thanked me for that letter of 1833. adding: "How like her own heart this letter! How long it seems since she went away ! O how very much longer than the time until we meet ! When she was called home, what heart-loneliness was mine ! I remember saying to Dr. Tyng, " How can I get on without this sister? I did not know what comfort-sharers in joys and sorrows sunbeams all about my path were growing up at my side. These dear children, these daughters, so much more than sisters could be ! And you and Mrs. Damon are becoming rich in daughters." Jeanette and Martha have passed onward and within the veil, and are now enjoying what they anticipated with so much joy for so many years. I shall never repeat, or hear repeated, the old Hebrew word, Shekinah, without having the scene around the dying bed of your sainted wife recalled to mind. She is now in the presence of her and our Saviour. 326 KINDLY REMEMBRANCE. Already the notice cut from the " Standard of the Cross" is inclosed in a letter to my son Frank, to whom your dear wife alluded most tenderly in her last letter. She loved him and he loved her. They understood and sympathized with each other. His last visit to Delaware will long be remembered by him, and I am sure he will be a true mourner, and I shall be disappointed if he does not write you or your daughters, and convey his sentiments in language more choice and tender than mine. Your daughters and sons will regard themselves as jointly ad- dressed in this letter, in which Mrs. Damon and Willie join with me. Should any more extended notice be ever published relating to your dear companion, I hope you will not fail to send it to my address. I want especially to be remembered to your two daughters, whom it was my privilege to accompany down the Delaware River the morning I visited Philadelphia for the last time. My first visit to that city of "Brotherly Love" is associated with Jeanette and Martha in 1839, and my last in 1876, with your two daughters, so much resembling the former, in years long gone past. It will always afford me great pleasure to receive letters from you or any of your family. Do not imagine my interest in your family will cease now that the one is removed who formed the centre of attraction, esteem, and love. As a mail leaves to-morrow, I have hastened to tender to you and your family my warmest expression of sympathy in this season of your very great affliction. FROM BISHOP JAGGAR. CINCINNATI, Jan. 8, 1878. MY DEAR MR. PLATT : I have had you in mind and heart ever since I learned of your noble wife's departure. The first tidings only reached me in Bos- ton, and surprised me greatly. I tried to see Mrs. Mitchell and failed. Since then, hoping to see you in person, I have delayed writing. But, as I must now defer my visit to Delaware until spring, I cannot forbear writing you, not in formal condolence, but to ENTERED INTO REST. 327 let you know how much I have felt for you, and how much I have thought of your wife's pure face, winning ways, intelligent and sympathetic nature. She was the first to welcome me to Ohio, and,, through her, I received pleasant impressions of my new work and field. Her kind letters I shall keep with special interest. Her last one was full of motherly sympathy, and showed her peculiar intel- ligence. The article in the " Standard" was a true picture of her. I cannot realize that I shall not see her when I go to Delaware. I have but few friends who really enter into, and understand with a personal interest, my trials and perplexities. I always felt that Mrs. Platt was one of the few. We know that she has entered into rest. You do not need con- solation from human friends, for you know who can be "touched with the feeling of our infirmities." But I felt that I must testify to you of my own sense of loss, though I have been reluctant to do it by letter, hoping to do it personally. I met your daughter in Cincinnati, and had mingled sorrow and joy in seeing her. You must miss her especially now. I am sincerely your friend, THOS. A. JAGGAR. 328 JEANETTE AND MARTHA. XXVII. " Them that honor me I will honor, saith the Lord." Tributes from S. C. D A sister's tribute, poem From Mrs. R., Mrs. E. V. F., E. H. C. Mrs. A. T., a beautiful picture J. H. C., F. W. D., music and poetry Her life a lesson and inspiration From a student Deep sorrow A model wife Ladies' Missionary Society, Mrs. J. H. Platt scholarship H. C. M. E. G. H. S. R. B Reminiscences, strong Christian principle, consid- eration for the aged Original poem. TRIBUTES TO THE EXCELLENCES OF MRS. PLATTS CHARACTER. THE Rev. S. C. Damon, D. D., of Honolulu, sent this tribute to the memory of Mrs. Platt, and her loving and devoted sister : "In paying this tribute to the memory of Mrs. Platt, of Dela- ware, I am naturally led to make a passing allusion to her sisters, but especially to Mrs. Canfield, of Brooklyn. These two sisters, Jeanette and Martha, were nearly of the same age, and pre-emi- nently attached to each other even as sisters. As I recall the Hulme family, as it existed nearly forty years ago in Burlington, New Jersey, these two sisters were most charming ornaments to the Quaker household, in which thee and thou characterized the de- lightful social intercourse, and which, to the young theological student, I confess, had a peculiar .charm and attraction. Jeanette was the older of the two sisters, talented and vivacious, less poet- ical and ideal, but rather more practical ; hence the leading genius in domestic affairs, usually presiding at the tea-table. It was a rare privilege to the comparative stranger to enjoy the society of such a refined, religious, and cultured family. The sisters often re- minded me of the two once dwelling in Bethany, respecting whom the Apostle John records this significant testimony and touching tribute: 'Now Jesus loved Martha, and her sister and Lazarus.' JOY OF OUR HEARTS. 329 "Thus reflecting upon the lives and accomplishments of these noble women, the saying of Luther does not appear overdrawn or untruthful : ' There is nothing sweeter on earth than the heart of a woman in which piety dwells.' " TO JEANETTE, A SISTER'S TRIBUTE, FEBRUARY 25, 1841, Thine is no envied lot in princely hall, No name of high renown ; No cringing slaves before thy presence fall, Nor courtly heads bow down. Yet on thy fair, young brow, doth shine A crown more rich, more dazzling bright, Than ever fame's proud hand could twine For glorious prince or valiant knight, For hearts, love's priceless gems, are thine ! Joy of our hearts ! Light of our happy home ! Gladness departs with thee ; . And smiles grow sad when thy gay, laughing tone Bids not our sorrows flee. Thy voice, like some sweet, soothing strain, From each fond brow doth banish care ; The stricken soul forgets its pain, Thy winning words, thy smile to share, Bound with a mighty, magic chain. Flower of our household band ! Charm of our hearth ! What memories round thee cling Of childhood's sunny hours and careless mirth, Untouched by sorrow's sting. Of girlhood's glowing dreams of joy, The young heart's deep, unshaken trust, That time's rude hand doth soon destroy, And lay its idols in the dust, Dimming each hope with stern alloy. Nor these alone a holier tie doth bind Our loving hearts to thee; The memory of the dead is linked with thine, The early called, the free. Pale watcher ! To thy love was given A power to cheer the hours of pain, To point the fainting soul to heaven ; The meek, pure spirit to sustain, \Vhile earthly bonds were gently riven. 330 ENVIABLE HAPPINESS. Blessings be on thy head, companion dear, My cherished one, my own ! Thy smile, thy voice another home may cheer, From our sad fireside flown. . Bright be thy hearth, unknown to care, True love and peace thy steps attend ! Thy joys a kindred spirit share, Till, seeking bliss that cannot end, Ye rise to heaven, and find it there ! MARTHA C. HULME. FROM A FRIEND, MRS. R., TO HER DAUGHTER, REFERRING TO THE DEATH OF MRS. PLATT. WASHINGTON, D. C., August 29, 1877. . . . . Words cannot express how heart-broken I am at the sad news your letter brought me. I cannot believe it yet ; I say it over to myself again and again. I go over all my years of friend- ship; how she came like a ministering angel in that dark hour when we first heard of M 's death ; how, day after day, in the midst of all her cares, she came in to brighten and cheer your father, when he was ill so long. She could do it so easily, so lovingly, in such a Christ-like spirit. What a wonderful, blessed gift it was ! and I am sure many will rise up now, like myself, and call her blessed. "Blessed is he that cometh in the name of the Lord." In His*name she always came, and with His name upon her lips. Oh, I almost envy her the happiness she now enjoys ! I could have wished that she might have been spared to us longer, and to enjoy her children, now grown ; yet we know no happiness earth can give can compare with that she has entered into in Paradise. These words are often said when a friend dies ; but, in her case, they are peculiarly true. Her memory will always be blessed to me, as her life was. FROM MRS. E. V. F. 5 ARLINGTON COURT, CLEVELAND, Aug. 31, 1877. MY DEAR FRIEND : . . For her I know all is joy; but, for myself, it came upon me so unexpectedly that, when I think I cannot see her again ; can never more have those pleasant, helpful, cheery talks that so GLORIOUS TE DEUMS. 331 often cheered and refreshed me, I feel as if I c.ould not have it so. She took such a keen interest in everything ; entered so fully, as no one else has ever seemed to, into all one's joys and sorrows. I am constantly thinking of her. When about some household duty I find myself saying, "Mrs. Platt has done with this," etc. etc. When in church I think of her as singing the songs of heaven, joining in the glorious Te Deums of the "blessed." It seems to me no one ever entered heaven before with such a joyous, happy, rapturous spirit Your feelings, my dear friend, must be so mingled ; in your great love for her you joy with her joy, while tears of anguish and deepest grief fall for yourself and children. How you must miss her ever ready words of comfort, cheer, and counsel; her dear, dear presence ! . . . . Believe me, if our pens have been silent, our hearts have mourned and remembered. I have thought more than once, if we had experienced the loss, how quickly her pen would have dictated precious words of sympathy and conso- lation. FROM REV. E. H. C. SPRINGFIELD, O., Oct. 20, 1877. I have received the very excellent letters you inclosed. What a power of gifts and graces, both natural and bestowed by the Spirit. of her Lord aad Saviour, your precious wife possessed, to win the good to her, and to establish them as enduring friends. FROM S. C. DAMON. HONOLULU, Sept. 29, 1877. MR. PLATT : MY DEAR FRIEND : By a mail leaving last week I wrote you a hasty letter in reply to the announcement of your dear wife's death. I can hardly realize that she has passed away, and that our delight- ful correspondence of more than thirty years must now close. Her last letter to me was written July 6th, only the month before her death. It was one of her most cheery and characteristic letters. I was about to reply, when I received the papers you so kindly 332 SISTERS IN CHRIST. sent. I shall hope to receive letters from you, or your daughters, informing me more particularly about her sickness and death. At least anything published I am confident you will send me. As Mrs. Damon and myself have talked over this matter, spoken of the pleasant correspondence which has existed for so many years, and of our visits to Delaware, Mrs. Damon has ad- vanced the idea that an interesting memoir of your wife, or sketch of her life, might be written, if some one could be found who was in sympathy with her, and appreciated her many excellences. . I have many of her letters, which, if needed, I would gladly return ; or, if not needed for that purpose, I would return . them to you and your daughters that is, if you wish them. . . . Her letters were always fresh and delightful, pervaded, as they were, with so genuine a Christian sentiment. Jeanette and Martha Hulme were to me sisters in the purest and best meaning of that term. They were very sisters in Christ (Mark iii., 35) ; and, in all our correspondence, not a line or Word but of the purest and noblest type of Christian fellowship. I have felt the inspiration of their noble Christian friendship. I esteem it a great privilege and blessing of my life to have been permitted for so many years to have corresponded with two such women, and that our correspondence was continued until death caused its cessation. We often speak of the great loss sustained by each member of your family. I hardly ever knew a mother who lived so much in her children. Remember us most kindly to your sons and daughters. FROM MRS. A. THOMSON, acknowledging the receipt of a Portrait of Mrs. Platt. DEAR MR. PLATT : I am again indebted to you for a very great pleasure. I think no face of earthly friend could have come to me bringing such sweet pleasure as did the one that looked out on me that anniver- sary morning. I thank you, and appreciate the beautiful gift that came to me then with such a flow of tender memories and sacred thoughts, memories that travelled quickly back over the twenty- five years of ouf sweet and uninterrupted communing as friends; sacred thoughts, that reached out into the " beyond," as those PRESENT AND FUTURE BLENDED. 333 dearly remembered eyes seemed to again speak to me from out the "more excellent glory" into whose inheritance she had already come- Just before sitting down to make this acknowledgment to you, while enjoying another look at this picture, it became quite a study to me. Was it imagination, or is there not something a little re- markable about the shading of that face? A soft and beautiful light, as if from above, seems to be falling upon and bathing the upper and farther side of it ; a light so clear and transparent as even to soften and hallow the lingering shadow of earth that still rests on this side. As she sat for that last picture did the two states, ever so near, sweetly mingle and overlap each other in it ? The bright sheen of the spiritual, so nearly perfected in her then, ming- ling with the last faint shadows of earth, then passing away ; the upper windows of the soul all opening to the light that comes "from afar;" the lower ones closing to the damps and dark of earth ? [DELAWARE,] December 3, 1877. FROM J. H. CANFIELD. LAWRENCE, KAN., April 17, 1878. DEAR UNCLE : I have wondered if it were possible to write a life of this dear aunt. It seems to me not. Could you write the life of a ray of sunlight, or' a summer's shower, or a fragrance celestial? Would it be possible to detail the hearts gladdened by the one, the droop- ing hopes and withered lives refreshed and revived by the other, or the fainting souls wafted heavenward by the third ? Will utter unselfishness, modest worth, and thoughts for the welfare and hap- piness of others only, leave behind them a record which can be expressed in type? Can the printed page make us feel the kindly grasp of the hand ; or see again the loving, soulful eyes ; or bring to our hours of sorrow the sympathetic heart ; or to our gladsome days the quick, responsive nature ? Can words express that never- failing interest, that all-embracing anxiety and care; that devoted- ness to all but self; that loyalty to friendship; that eager showing 334 A LIFE WRITTEN IN LIVING LETTERS. of all good ; that silent bearing of many a burden, which create well-springs of joys in the arid desert of this life ? Can anything but the life itself even faintly shadow forth that complete consecration and childlike faith and confidence which marks one who so pecu- liarly " walks with God" ? If no, then you cannot write Aunt Jennie's life, though you may gladden and refresh us with h^r words. But her life is written in living letters in the many hearts which, like mine, thank God for the blessing bestowed on them in her intercourse and love, and which will ever keep her memory green. FROM A LETTER FROM F. W. DAMON. 39 BEHREN STRAUSSE, BERLIN, GERMANY, June 5, 1878. MY DEAR MR. PLATT : . . . . I shall always feel that, among the most rare and beautiful things of my life, was the friendship which your dear wife showed me in the seasons I was privileged to meet her, and which was continued so pleasantly in our correspondence. I have been enabled to meet many earnest, cultured Christian men and women in many parts of the world, and in many ranks of life, but most truly can I say saying it also thoughtfully and sincerely that never have I met with any one who impressed me more by the sweetness, earnestness, and beauty of their "daily walk and con- versation" than did dear Mrs. Platt. Never have I known a life more infused with the spirit of Christianity, and animated by a sweeter and deeper trust than hers. And I am sure all those who have known her, who have watched her in her daily life, and list- ened to her in her written words, must have been impressed by the delicate, exquisite, poetic spirit, which found utterance and expression in all the experiences of life. I feel peculiarly reminded of this, thinking of the last visit I made at .your home in the fall of 1876. Delicate as her perceptions of the beautiful always seemed to me, there seemed at that time something wonderfully striking in all she said, her words, as well as her face, being luminous with a radiant hopefulness, as if gazing on life, and the mysteries of life ; she saw them all with a clearer vision than was given to those about her ; and, as if beneath the jar and noise and confusion of the present, BRIGHT HOPEFUL WORDS. 335 she was listening quietly, restfully, peacefully, to a melody which we could not hear. I recall one conversation in particular, in which she seemed desirous of showing me how she had invested the most practical experiences of life with poetry ; how she had found music often- times in seeming discord, and seen the real in the light of the ideal. What a lesson and inspiration her daily life was for us all in this respect ! And then, too, the sympathy, subtle and refined, which she seemed to have with the world of nature about her. I recall, oh so vividly, her 'bright, hopeful words, in reference to the joy and inspiration which, she said, she found in the calm waiting of the leafless trees in winter for the glory of the spring, seeing, in their seeming death and awakening, a symbol of a higher truth, the picture of a higher resurrection. I would fain talk with you of her who was so dear to you and to us all, but it is but poorly that we can put into words the melody of such a life. I shall cherish in coming years the beautiful picture which I have of "Aunt Jennie" as I saw her last. You will remember, perhaps, how beautiful the autumn was ; how radiant everything seemed to be in the outer world ! But, in looking back, all this seems, as it were, a frame for the sweet, earnest, glorified face and life which seemed even then lighted with the coining of the Heavenly Spring- time. I long to hear, if it be only in a few words, for you all have so much to do, of your welfare and life. J. I know is married, and I am so truly glad to know that so beautifully and fittingly the comfort and strength of a new joy came to help her in the time of your general sorrow and bereavement. Please remember me most kindly to her, and say for me that I hope to write her very soon, and trust that my congratulations will be welcome, though, in time, they may be a little late. And please, dear Mr. Platt, give my warm and hearty love to all the "cousins." I hope to write M. and H. ; and if in any way I can be of service to you or yours in the coming years, I trust you will grant me the privilege. It has given me the greatest pleasure to learn that you were gath- ering together the letters of Mrs. Platt into a memorial volume. Most truly can I echo the sentiment of Dr. Canfield, whicji you copied in your letter to my father. I feel that the world should know something of her rare and beautiful life, and yet how diffi- 336 OUR BEAUTIFUL ISLANDS. cult it is to portray it as it was in reality ! I think I have several letters received from Mrs. Platt since I have been in Europe. They are with my trunk in Geneva, Switzerland, which I left there some time since, and which, owing to my rather migratory life of travel during the past year, I have never sent for. As I trust I a.m set- tled for some time in Berlin, I hope to send for it, and will for- ward the letters to you. Though, perhaps, you have now more than enough material for the memorial volume, yet I am sure you would be interested in seeing them. As you may have learned from my father, I have been, during the present year, attached to the Hawaiian Legation. Our work, during the past winter, having been the negotiating of a treaty of friendship, commerce, and navigation between our little Hawaiian kingdom and the German empire. I have been enabled to see many instructive things in connection with German life, and the winter has been most delightfully spent. I hope to remain in Ger- many for some time to come. I am pursuing my studies at the University here, one of the first in this land of celebrated schools of learning, in the department of philology and history, hoping ultimately to devote myself to teaching as a professor in some col- lege. I am most delightfully situated, and find many interesting friends, so that I have come to feel very much at home in Ger- many. My health is excellent, and my studies and duties most agreeable. From my parents you have, perhaps, heard how, well they are, and how the little grandchildren are fast coming to enlarge our family circle. I trust that it may yet be possible for our family to welcome some member of yours to our beautiful islands, in which you have always taken so kindly an interest, and which are so truly worthy of all the praise they have received. Please, in addition to my kind remembrances to the girls, give my most cordial "aloha" to your sons, whom, I trust, I may have the pleasure of again meeting; also to " Cousin N.," her husband, and little ones. Trusting that I may have the pleasure of hearing from you, and with most earnest wishes for your health and happiness, ! remain, as ever, dear Mr. Platt, Most truly and sincerely yours, FRANK WILLIAMS DAMON. A FRIEND'S LOSS. 337 From a student in college, who was a frequent guest at her house, and in whom Mrs. Platt became warmly interested. August 20, 1878. . . How you have survived the stroke I cannot tell ; you whom she loved with a -reverent, holy, profound, and un- wavering love, such as God has permitted few men here on earth to know. But there must have been some mitigation of the pang in the fact that there have been sympathizing hearts to help you bear your sorrow. I have borne mine alone in such solitude and desolation of heart as only One has understood. All the dark events of her death, too, fell on me like a thunderbolt ; one day the tidings of her illness, the next the announcement of her death ! No last words, no farewell message from those sweet lips ! Oh, how I needed her ! No one knew what she was to me; and surely no one can know what my loss is now, when I never hear her voice any more, nor see her dear face. I had so many things to tell her concerning my stay in B , which I could not write, and other little matters that I had copied with pen and ink, think- ing she would like to see them. And when, in my disappointment, I came away from B , with my hopes all unrealized, it was the thought of seeing her that robbed that parting of much of its pain. But I never saw her again. What I had to tell must remain forever untold ; and the little papers lie in my trunk, I know not where. If I say so little about the memorial volume, I hope you will not misinterpret the reason of my reticence. Her letters to me, to- gether with her precious little relics and mementoes, remain un- touched and unlocked at. Though she left no .message for me, I must tell you the one she left for yourself. It is only a few words, but they embrace much. I do not recall her exact expression, but its purport I remember well; we were speaking of you: "After I am gone, W.," said she, "tell him how I loved him !" And if ever there was a woman whose whole existence was merged in that of her husband and children, surely it was she. I cannot describe the quiet, gentle pride, the tender reverence, the deep, unchangeable affection with which she always mentioned your name. I thank God that I ever saw such a wife. Though any language must fail to embody our conception of her character, I wish you would take down from 22 338 A GRATIFYING TRIBUTE. the shelf the volume of Wordsworth I once gave her (the poet she loved so much), and turn to the stanzas in which Wordsworth cele- brated his own wife, beginning, "She was a phantom of delight." Some of the dear "foster-mother's" characteristics are certainly there recorded. The Ladies' Missionary Society of St. Peter's Church, Delaware, endqwed a scholarship in Bishop Penick's school in Africa, and paid the gratifying tribute to Mrs. Platt's memory of conferring her name upon it, as explained in the following note from their Secretary : DELAWARE, O., April 8, 1879. MR. PLATT : Perhaps it would be a gratification to you and your children to have farther information of the circumstances connected with the naming of the scholarship mentioned to you last Snnday. We had sent the amount necessary for a scholarship at Cape Mount, Africa, under Bishop Penick, without remembering at the time that it was customary to name them. At our last missionary meeting, when the matter was brought up, the thought of your wife was instantly present in every heart, and, on motion, the name of "Mrs. Jeanette H. Platt" was unanimously chosen. A few feeling words were added by Mrs. B. (who was presiding) in memory of Mrs. Platt's active part in the formation of our So- ciety, her unfailing interest in all its doings, and of her having been the only one, thus far, called from our midst, where we still sadly miss her cheery, bright presence, and lovely Christian spirit. Sincerely, MRS. C. H. MCELROY. FROM MRS. DR. McCABE. AT HOME, May [25], Sabbath evening, 1879. MR. PLATT: MY DEAR FRIEND : I really hoped I had kept Mrs. Platt's little notes, but I deeply regret that I find only these.* Hope, when * See letters from Mrs. P. to Mrs. McC., in preceding chapters. COMING LIGHT. 339 I have leisure, I may find others. She usually wrote when any- thing of interest occurred in which we might both participate, a pleasant, little neighborly act, which I always very greatly appre- ciated. It has not, for some years, been my habit to preserve let- ters, even unusual ones, my time has been so short, and my duties so numerous. All such, I have persuaded myself, entered into the building of my soul as a precious stone at the time, and scarcely needed, therefore, to be retained. Such were hers, always em- bodying some useful or beautiful sentiment, a moral to refresh a fellow-traveller by the way, served with dainty grace and good cheer. I remember quite a number of the last year of her life; a little longer, and more detailed than before, regarding herself and friends; not without sorrow, but still cheery with the surely com- ing light. It is one of my luxuries to imagine, sometimes for a moment, listening to what she may say in the interesting future, when I shall be there to hear. FROM MR. E. G. H., TO MR. PLATT. HULMEVILLE, PA., May 19, 1879. The life of our dear cousin is too precious to be allowed to fade from the memory of those of our family, who only knew her through our conversations, and did not know her personally. T9 us, who knew her personally, her memory will never fade. You can see, by these letters, why she was so precious to us. She, by her conversa- tion, her letters,* and her devoted Christian life, brought practical religion into our family, and was continually promoting a spiritual growth of grace among us. I feel that I cannot fully express my gratitude to God that she was permitted to become one almost of our own household. .It was she who first made me realize a Saviour's love, and caused me to daily pray, "Lord, what wilt Thou have me to do?" * Refers to letters of Mrs. Platt returned. 340 NOT A DOUBTFUL RELIGION. This beautiful tribute to the memory of Mrs. Platt and her sister, Mrs. Canfield, is by one to whom they were familiarly known in girlhood days, a devout Methodist. ASBURY PARK, N. J., Sept. 9, 1880. MY DEAR FRIEND: . . . . Memory does for us many precious services. It summons persons and experiences to inspire strength to our faith, motive to duty, and purpose in its pursuit. It was among the blessings of my youth to know and appreciate the domestic and Christian character of your excellent wife. Her wit was the diamond-sparkle of soul and sunshine; it never bore a trace of sarcastic severity, as is too often the case with those thus gifted. It was ever on the surface of her good nature; and, under the halo of its rippling, radiant waves, the household was held in joyous consciousness of her presence. To say she was its brightness expresses only a meagre moiety of the truth Her religion was not the decision of an hour, or the emotion of a moment; it was the movement of the soul to a life-long service. Among her young companions it wore no doubtful aspect. She was known as a Christian who, in accordance with her solemn baptismal vows, renounced "the pomp and vanities of the world;" and did in verity find her happiness, not in worldly amusements, but in the service of Christ. Her younger sister, Martha, who experienced this change of heart and purpose long before her, at the very early age of eight years, was accustomed to associate her little companions in meetings in an upper room, where she read and talked to them of Jesus and His love, and knelt and prayed with them, was in deepest sympathy with her eldest sister at this critical period. She was trained, in her youthful, Christian expe- rience, by that man of God, to whom so many thousands are immediately or instrumentally indebted, Rev. G. T. Bedell, then Rector of St. Andrew's Church, Philadelphia, where the power of his efficient ministry is felt to this day I recall, with great pleasure, the visits of these young ladies to my childhood's home, at Gloucester Furnace, New Jersey; their help in the Sunday-school, and in our prayer and temperance meetings in the school-house, where my father's workmen assem- A RICH INHERITANCE. 341 bled for teaching and worship ; all are held in grateful remem- brance. It was our custom, at the close of these summer inter- views, to go to this school-room (sacred to us because of our childhood efforts there to work for Jesus) and sing, ere we separated, " Blest be the tie that binds Our hearts in Christian love." God accepted these services, honestly, though timidly offered, and we had our reward. These, and all the later efforts in our Christian work, are rolled up, the record is sealed, and, to these precious friends of my youth, "it is eternal day." S. R. B. REMINISCENCES. Memory recalls many incidents manifesting her interest in the spiritual development of her husband's character, as well as the strength and support she was to him. When their own household was first set up, she suggested the Christian duty of commencing with family worship, and overcame his timidity by her strong faith. Not unfrequently, when at his place of business, and oppressed with cares and anxieties, a sealed envelope would be placed in his hands by a messenger, which, on opening, would prove to be a loving : cheery note from his wife, with a selection of choice Scrip- ture promises, exactly suited to the occasion. She seemed gifted with a spirit of divining and ministering to his wants. No richer inheritance could descend upon the daughters of our country than this faculty of ministering to the spiritual needs of their husbands or brothers. A beautiful trait in Mrs. Platt's character was her love for, and heartfelt interest in, old people, those who had " gained the hill-top, and were facing life's sunset." She seemed to have a special mission to them, which it gave her great delight to fill, either by the bright, cheery visit and loving words that were so natural to her, or by the kindly written letter. Often it would be the well-filled plate of Thanksgiving or Christmas dinner, carried by her own hands to some poor neighbor, in ministering to whom she took as much real pleasure as in the social enjoyments of life. 342 ORIGINAL POEM. An aged colored woman, yet living, was often the thankful re- cipient of these favors. So quietly were these little deeds of kindness done that very often her own family knew nothing of them until she would be missed, and the inquiry made, "Where is mother?" The answer revealed an errand of mercy to some needy or dependent neighbor. Pages could be filled with the recital of these missions, illustrat- ing her characteristic unselfishness. " To bestow attentions upon the aged of the neighborhood, is it not a special Christian duty too little thought of? Without needing the attention given the sick, their infirmities exclude them from the places and pursuits which once claimed and interested them. They sit alone in the midst of a younger generation, necessarily more or less desolate in the happiest homes." ORIGINAL POEM TO THE MEMORY OF MRS. PLATT. Contributed by one who knew her intimately. These verses, though no worth they claim Such as befits the poet's art, I write with reverent hand and heart, And consecrate them to her name ; Yet cannot rest my faith in song, But tremble, lest my words should prove But hollow echoes of our love, And thus should do her memory wrong. I wandering, too, amid the eclipse Where Death has passed, am lost to speech; A hand seems evermore to reach From out the dark to seal my lips. The world is changed and backward borne, Now she is gone who wrought our dream, And shed upon our paths the gleam And freshness of perpetual morn. But is she gone? Is not this pain That baffles tongue to be defined But some distemper in the mind, Delusion of a clouded brain? A VITAL PRESENCE. 343 .We pause, and turn, and mutely gaze, To see her glide before our view In light and music to renew The ministries of other days. But vain the dear-sought evidence ! Immutable is the decree : She ne'er shall manifested be To these dim instruments of sense ; And rushing with impetuous roll The tides of grief their barriers mock, And with one wild, tumultuous shock, Break up the fountains of the soul. Oh, Thou to whom we lift our prayer, Give us resigned this cup to drink, Nor let our sacred sorrow sink Into the gloom of chill despair. But that we upward may be led To win bereavement's destined gains Believing that Thy love ordains The holy mission of the dead, Let Thou the influence that survives Of her white-souled existence here Flow on a vital presence clear, Around, beneath, and through our lives ; That she may still with us abide In spirit, as the years proceed, Commingling in our thought and deed, And walking ever by our side, The radiant source of self-same powers, And gentle attributes divine, That, hallowed as the gifts of Thine, Celestialized this earth of ours. 344 THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. APPENDIX. THE. talent for ready writing in the Hulme family was not limited to the two sisters Jennette and Martha. Their brother John excelled in the power of graphic description. He made no pretensions to any merit in this direction, but several of his articles were published in New York, Philadelphia, and Burlington papers, and were favor- ably received. He wrote one entitled "The Old Parish Church," which was published first in the " New York Church Journal" in 1863 and copied by others. In a letter Mrs. Platt wrote to him she says of this story, " I do not know which I like best, your picture or ' The Old Parish Church.' Never try another story never you cannot equal this if you try again ever so much. I think it one of the prettiest things we ever wrote that is, any of the family ever wrote. I have a wonderful pride in it, consider it a kind of family, not personal affair as if not at all your own genius, but only the family inspira- tion that happened to light upon you at that time ! Please never try again. ' The Old Parish Church'* will do for reputation made now. But I do not feel one of its faults if it had a thousand. Head, heart, and eyes are completely blinded by the old memories called up from the buried past as I read it." THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. In a pleasant rural city, situated on the banks of the noble Del- aware, and on a broad and beautiful street, stands the Old Parish Church. It is one of the oldest in the Diocese, and owes its foun- dation and nursing care to the "Venerable Society for Propagating the Gospel in Foreign Parts." The corner-stone of this old church * Old St. Mary's, Burlington, N. J., of which the Rev. Dr. Wharton was the " Old Rector." THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 345 was laid on the 25th of March, 1703, the feast of the Annunciation, by that godly and zealous missionary of the Church of England, the Rev. John Talbot. The first sermon in it was preached on Whitsunday, 1703, by the Rev. Mr. Keith, another devoted mis- sionary from the same Venerable Society. Mr. Talbot was its faithful minister from 1702 till 1724. He reports daily Morning and Evening Prayer, with preaching every Sunday morning, and catechizing in the afternoon. Several other ministers succeeded Mr. Talbot, among whom were Messrs. Heath and Odel, till 1795, when the " Old Rector" (who preceded the late and last Rector) was called by the vestry to the rectorship. He was only required to give one service on Sunday morning, but generally the church was open for evening service on Sunday afternoon. On July 4, 1797, an oration was delivered in the church by the Hon. William G , at which the Jersey Blues attended, commanded by Capt. Mel . A stage was erected over the chancel rails, on which the orator stood, while behind .him a man held aloft our glorious flag, which he waved over the orator's head during the whole speech. In 1799 there was a funeral procession to the old church, where an eulogy was delivered on the death of Washington by the Hon. William G . The church (with governor's pew) was draped in mourning, and the choir performed an anthem called the " Dying Christian," our igist hymn. In 1814 (in the evening) a Thanksgiving service was held in honor of the declaration of peace. The church was crowded to suffocation. The governor's pew was a large, square pew, in the centre of the church, sur- mounted by a canopy. The massive silver communion service was. a royal gift of England's good Queen Anne ; and the rich crimson damask hangings for the pulpit, reading-desk, and communion- table, the gift of the lady of Governor Franklin, England's last colonial governor. The old church (as I first remember it) stood parallel with Broad street, with the chancel at the east end, and only one door at the west end, opening to the one long narrow aisle, on each side of which were the old-fashioned, high-backed pews. There was a narrow gallery at the west end over the door, in the centre of which, and projecting from the wall, in the form of a half circle, was the organ gallery, inclosing the small, but sweet-toned organ; and on each side of the organ were pews and seats for the Sunday- 34^ THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. school. The open belfry, containing the honored old bell, was then on the west end of the church ; and often have I stood, on a calm Sunday morning, looking up to it, as it swung to and fro, giving forth its solemn invitation to all the inhabitants: "This is the day the Lord hath made, prepare ye to come up to worship in His holy temple." For generations has the old bell sounded forth, and for generations it was the only bell. How applicable to it is the song of the " Old Church Bell" : " For full five hundred years I've swung In my old gray turret high, And many a different theme I've sung, As the time went stealing by ! I've pealed the chant of a wedding morn, Ere night I have sadly tolled, To say that the bride was coming, love-lorn, To sleep in the churchyard mould ! Ding, dong ! my ceaseless song ! Merry and sad, but never long." In the old rector's time there was no announcement of the ser- vices, but the bell regulated them ; for instance, if the bell did not ring at eight o'clock in the morning of Sunday, there was no ser- vice. If it did not ring while the people were leaving the church after morning service, there was no evening service. The bell, in those days, could be heard not only over the town, but at the dis- tance of four miles in the country. In the winter the church was warmed by two old-fashioned ten-plate stoves for wood, one at each end of the building, with the pipe protruding through the window, and from which, early on Sunday morning, dense vol- umes of smoke might be seen issuing. At the time of the tolling, or "the people's bell," as it was called, at twenty minutes past ten, the old sexton might be seen hurrying to and from the stove to the pews, with little square boxes, pierced on the top with small holes, and which contained in a vessel inside hot ashes and coals to warm the feet of dainty ladies. Then he ascends to the gallery, takes hold of the bell-rope, and fixes his eyes upon the rectory, which is in view from either of the large, old-fashioned windows in the gallery. At this time the lady organist perches herself upon the high musical stool, the boy is at the bellows handle, and all await the old rector. And soon the venerable-looking man ap- THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 347 peared ; short in stature, with a firmly-knit frame, his small, well- turned head, thinly covered by his silvered locks, with a pleasant and genial face, and a smile which spoke only love to all. He is first seen issuing from the rectory, and approaching the church with his peculiar, quick, short step. Just when he is opposite the old academy (upon whose site now stands the new cathedral) the Sunday-school children come rushing forth, and the sexton begins the last, or minister's bell. The old rector has a smile for each of the teachers, puts his hand upon the head, and blesses all the children within reach ; but on the boys and girls go, rushing up the one narrow, uncarpeted gallery stairs with great noise, and barely time to be seated and quiet before the old rector arrives at the door. Then the bell ceases, the little organ pours forth its sweet notes in the opening voluntary, and the sexton descends to follow the rector down the narrow aisle, who goes shuffling along from one side of the aisle to the other, stumbling against the half- open pew doors, bowing to every one whose eye he could catch, and always ending with a low bow to the family of the late Senator W. , who occupied the large, square pew at the point where he turned to enter the chancel. But what a singular interruption to the progress of the rector down the aisle took place on one Sunday ! There was good Mrs. Captain R. (long since in Paradise), whose little dog, named "Count," was very fond of going to church, and always would go, if not watched closely and shut up. On the day mentioned the dog followed his mistress unperceived, went in, and lay down by the door of the pew, where he was much more quiet than some people in church. Unfortunately for this quiet, as the old rector passed down the aisle, he stumbled against the partly opened pew door, when instantly the dog, thinking his mistress's domain in- vaded, flew out, and catching the rector by the skirt of his gown, bit and barked most furiously. The old rector was terribly fright- ened at being thus assailed by an infidel dog in the holy temple, and cried out most lustily, "Get out, get out." The dog snapped and yelled, and in the midst of the din the sexton came to the rec- tor's relief, and the dog was taken out of the church, while, all unconscious of the confusion below, the organ was pouring forth its sweet voluntary, and the scene was entirely too much for the risibles of many of the congregation, whose heads were bowed low behind their high-backed pews. 348 THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. The old rector was once a priest of apostate Rome, but becoming enlightened, and the scales having fallen from his eyes, he came into the holy Catholic and Apostolic Church, and was admitted to the diaconate by that great patriarch of the American Church, Bishop White. I can remember how the old rector kept Good Friday. On that solemn day pulpit, reading-desk, and commu- nion-table, stripped of their rich crimson covering, stood forth naked and bare, and the congregation wore black clothing. On Christmas eve, in the old rector's time, the bell would ring forth at ten o'clock, and would be rung at intervals all night long, the parishioners sending to the vestry-room cider, apples, doughnuts, and mince pies, to refresh the ringers. On Christmas day the old rector had both morning and evening service; and, as it was the only occasion when the church was open at night throughout the year, it was usually crowded. The old church was always dressed for Christmas, and the manner of dressing it was this : the sexton having bored holes in the tops of the pews, about two feet apart, would insert first a branch of laurel, then of spruce, and then of box, and the congregation might be said to be sitting in and sur- rounded by a miniature forest. Wreaths of ground or running pine were festooned over the hangings of the pulpit and reading- desk, and a wreath twined around the chancel rails. Then the two beautiful chandeliers of cut-glass, with pendent drops, which excited my warmest admiration when lighted, were also dressed with wreaths of running pine ; they contained a double row of wax candles, which shed a rich, mellow light on all around. There were branches with wax candles on the pulpit and reading-desk, and in addition to these, in the back of every alternate pew, the sexton stuck a little tin candlestick, into which he put a tallow candle. These were greatly in the way ; and I remember a lady who, in tossing her head about during service, managed to get her feathers in a blaze, which was quickly extinguished, however, by a gentleman sitting behind her. The last time the old rector preached on Christmas night the church was crowded, and. for the first time our exulting 46th hymn was sung. From a child music had great charms for me, and I can drink in the sweet sounds of any instrument with delight, though the great and grand organ moves me most. I remember a\ this time the beautiful, lively prelude, and when the choir broke THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 349 forth in the chorus, "Shout the glad tidings, exultingly sing," I thought I had never heard anything so beautiful. Years afterwards, when I listened to the sweet birdlike notes of the " Swedish Night- ingale," as she poured forth her soul in that sublime passage of the " Messiah," "I know that my Redeemer liveth," I feel I could not have enjoyed it more than when, with childlike simplicity, I listened to this exulting hymn. By the time the choir had sung the first verse, and had reached the second time the joyful chorus, almost every one had turned to gaze up into the organ-loft, and so continued until the hymn was finished. Of all who composed the choir on that Christmas night, but one remains on earth. The churchyard contains the sleeping dust of all the others. I well remember the remark of one, a stranger, who was present : " Did you notice the countenance of Maria C., as she sang? She looked as if she felt every word. With what a joyful expression her face was lit up !" Most true, she did feel; and most exultingly did she pour forth her sweet voice in praise of her adorable Redeemer.' Like Dorcas, she was known for her good works of love and charity. At the head of the Sunday-school, Dorcas Society, and as tract distributor, she labored with untiring zeal and energy; but soon she was missed from all her works of love, and her sweet voice was no longer heard in the choir. A painful disease had seized her, and, after month's of suffering, she fell asleep in Jesus. A plain, white marble slab, still to be seen in the old churchyard, in these few words describes her whole life : " She walked with God, and was not." And there, too, was Mrs. Fannie Mel. ; her joyous, pleasant face is still before me, lighted up with evident pleasure as old women came to her in the Sunday-school to be taught to read the Holy Scriptures. For a time she was the organist, and with what a master-hand she touched the keys of the sweet instrument ! The first time I heard " Cantate Domino" it was played by her, and I well recollect her full, clear voice in the piano passage, "Praise the Lord upon the harp; sing to the harp in a psalm of thanksgiving." But soon the aged women missed her in the Sun- day-school, the organ was mute, and silent was her voice, for she had winged her way to Paradise, there to touch a golden harp in united praise with the redeemed in the grand hallelujah chorus for- 350 THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. ever and forever more. On a beautiful spring morning I saw her coffin placed before the chancel in the old parish church. Another presided at the organ, and the 1251!} hymn was sung, "When those we love are snatched away." The whole hymn was sung as a solo by Miss W., daughter of the late Senator W. ; and as her rich, sweet voice broke forth, now rising, now falling in the solemn air of good old "Revelation," there was not a dry eye among all those who had come to pay the last tribute of affection to one they loved and mourned. I would yet mention one among the few who are left of the members of the old parish church, dear Aunt P. She is every- body's Aunt P., and all who know her love her. Not a child who visits her brown-stained, time-worn house, but receives from her a smile and kind word, and they are never sent empty away. She never turns her face " from any poor man." If Aunt P. has nothing beside, a cup of cold water is given in His name. I could fill pages with the stories of Christmas-tide she has told me in that same dear old brown house, but time would fail me. Aunt P. prides herself upon being a Low Churchwoman, and is terribly afraid of what she calls High Churchism and Puseyism, but I well know there is no one that loves the Church at heart more truly than Aunt P. Many are the changes and chances of this mortal life through which she has passed. In her younger days she was careless and inattentive to the things that make for her peace, but there came a time when she longed for something better and more lasting than this world can give. Then, as she had never entered into the spirit of the sublime liturgy of the Church of her fathers, she conceived the idea that it was formal and spiritless, and the old rector's sermons cold and dull, and she must stray into strange pastures, to be fed by strange shepherds ; but this was only for a short time, for she never felt at home there, or quite right about the matter. She also thought she had dressed too gay, and there would be a merit in dressing a little plainer. One Sunday morning she left home with a heavy heart, undecided whether she would go to church or stray again into strange pastures. Just as she reached the corner of the street where she must determine, the old bell began to toll. Every stroke of the bell pierced to the heart, for it seemed to say, " Come, come ; this is the way your fathers trod : come, come." Instantly she turned and took her way up to the THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 351 old church. The old rector began the service, and in the first words he uttered Aunt P. saw there was no merit in dress, or in any works of her own : " Rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the Lord your God ; for He is gracious and merci- ful, slow in anger, and of great kindness." Aunt P.'s tall form is bowed a little ; she is beginning to see as through a glass darkly, and the next moment she is upon her knees, joining in the "Gen- eral Confession" with heart and soul, as she had never done be- fore. The old rector proceeds with the service, and Aunt P. per- ceives new beauty in the Gloria in Excelsis : "O Lord, the only begotten Son, Jesus Christ ; O Lord God, Lamb of God, Son of the Father, that takest away the sins of the world, have mercy upon us." She feels these most comfortable words the Church has given to her sinful, penitent children, arid tears are falling. Still the service goes on, and, when the inimitable Litany is reached, Aunt P. is on her knees again. "O God, the Father of,Heaven;" "O God, the Son;" "O God, the Holy Ghost;" "O holy, blessed, and glorious Trinity, have mercy upon us, miserable sin- ners." Lower and lower bows the head, and tears are flowing fast, and still the Litany proceeds : "Remember not, Lord, our offences ; neither take thou vengeance of our sins. By Thine agony and bloody sweat; by Thy cross and passion; by Thy pre- cious death and burial, good Lord, deliver us." And now, as with a live coal from the altar, Aunt P.'s heart is melted and broken. With streaming eyes she looked upward, and with faith beheld the cross and Him who hung thereupon, not only for her sins, but for the sins of the whole world, and now she found peace in believing. Never again did she wish to roam from the old parish church. Never again did she want to forsake "the Church of the Living God, the pillar and ground of the Truth." How often have I seen her (as the late and last rector pointed his hearers to the cross, and to the cross alone, for safety and refuge) looking upwards as with the eye of faith, to Him who sitteth at the right hand of God, and seeming to say, "In my hand no price I bring, simply to Thy cross I cling." Dear Aunt P. is fast verging to the age of fourscore years, yet is still able to walk two miles to worship in the holy temple, and to "render thanks for the great benefits received at His hands." Long may she be spared ! Many will miss her, and one most, when she is taken to her glorious rest. 352 THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. The old parish church once possessed a clerk, an excellent man, and there may be some who will remember in the Te Deum his loud response, "Vouchsafe, O Lord, to keep us this day without sin." He was a singer also, and sat in the choir. One morning, while the Litany was being said, and just where it changes from deprecation to supplication, he happened to cast his eye upon his note-book "We sinners do beseech Thee to hear us, O Lord God ; and that it may please Thee to rule and govern Thy holy Church universal in the right way." The congregation were quite startled and electrified by the old man's loud and sonorous "Good Lord, .deliver us." The old rector was becoming more and more aged, at the time of which I speak, and, his memory failing, it was thought best to let the clerk give out the psalms and hymns. Before this change was made, many little lively conversations took place across the church between the rector and the clerk. The rector would announce the psalm he had intended, but when he came to order the hymn, he would again give out the same psalm or the wrong hymn. A short pause would occur, and then the clerk would call across the church, " It was the i2pth hymn, sir." The old rector, peering through his spectacles again at the paper, called back to the clerk, "Ah, I see! you're right, sir you're right!" At these times the old-fashioned high-backed pews an- swered a good purpose for all those whose risibles were easily affected. But on one Sunday morning the scene exceeded all that had gone before. Every one knows that organs in country towns especially will get out of order. On this morning the choir found the organ in a terrible condition, for one of the largest bass pipes would go, and bass it was all the time, the instant there was any wind in the bellows. The choir got along as well as they could, but the bellows-blower was a mischievous boy, and all this trouble was fine fun for him, so he took care to have the organ full of wind after the Gloria Patri was finished. When the old rector stood up to announce his text, the bass pipe continued to sound with a great noise. He cleared his throat and tried to begin ; but all in vain ; still the organ kept on. At last, becoming a little impatient, he raised his voice and called to the clerk, "Can't that organ be stopped?" when the clerk instantly responded, "No, not till the wind is out of the bellows." This was too much for the risibles THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 353 even of the most devout, and again the high-backed pews were a convenient refuge. Of course, after a time the wind did get out of the bellows, the refractory pipe ceased roaring, and the rector went on with his sermon. The Communion in his time was administered four times in a year, and the Ante- Communion Service was only read at these times. On one Sunday, Bishop J , of Connecticut, was pres- ent, and sitting in a pew, when, observing that the old rector was about to omit this portion, he rushed from the pew, went inside the chancel, and began the service, to the surprise of every one. I used to sit and wonder (when a youth) if it were possible for any one to be as good as a certain monument portrayed the wife of the Rev. , of South Carolina. Some people have called it hea- thenish. After enumerating her virtues in minute detail, the in- scription ends with these lines : Fair, modest, wise, discreet, true, generous, kind, Pure, virtuous, humble, pious, meek, resigned, To Earth by Fate, by Faith to Heaven allied, She lived to bless, but to be blest she died." The old rector grew more and more feeble and forgetful, and many touching scenes occurred before he went hence and was seen no more of men. On one occasion he attempted to admin- ister the Communion, but, feeling very unwell, forgot himself in the middle of the service. Afte"r saying the prayer, "We do not presume to come to this Thy table," there was a long pause, and finding he did not proceed with the service, one by one of that little flock arose from their knees, and there discovered the dear old man standing beckoning for them to come forward, and hold- ing in 'his hand the paten, with the yet unconsecrated bread, of which he had not himself partaken. Every one of the faithful few was melted into tears; but fortunately another clergyman was pres- ent, who instantly rose, left his pew and entered the chancel, took the old man by the hand, led him to a seat, and then went on with the service. At another time he was reading the Second Les- son, when, just as he had uttered the touching passage, "Fear not, little flock ; it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the king- dom," he instantly fell back in a deathly swoon. The congrega- tion at once rose from their seats, and two or three gentlemen rushed into the chancel, lifted the old rector up, and carried him 23 354 THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. into the little vestry-room back of the pulpit. Everybody was in tears, when the senior warden, the Hon. William C., arose and said in a broken voice, "I would proceed with the service, but my feelings are so acute it will be impossible. The congregation had better retire." After a time the old rector revived from his fainting fit, and was led home by the wardens. As they left the church some of the Sunday-school children gathered round the door, and, as they looked upon the old minister, broke forth into loud crying, " O, we shall never see dear Mr. W. again ! we shall never see him again !" The old rector was much moved, but he was too feeble to lay his hands upon their heads, as he had so often done. No doubt he blessed them in his heart. It was on a beautiful, calm July morning, when many persons might be seen standing in groups around the old parish church. Their conversation is in low tones as they look anxiously and sadly towards the rectory. Close by the side of the church (the spot now covered by the vestry-room) there yawns a new-made open grave. The sexton is seen bustling about here and there, and from his hat there streams a Icfrig black "weeper," as it was then called. One of the sexton's stalwart sons has climbed up into the belfry, and there sits by the dear old bell, with eyes intent upon the rectory. We look into the old church, and the beautiful crimson hangings are displaced, and from pulpit, desk, and communion-table the deepest black depends, and the old rector's pew is lined with black. The red curtains in the half-circle round the organ-loft are gone, and black ones take their place. We ascend the one narrow stair and look into the organ-loft. The old choir have fled, while perched upon the music-stool sits a gentleman a stranger a music-book before him, opened at China, C. M., that plaintive, solemn strain. We leave the church and move on towards the rectory. In the yard, drawn up before the old academy, are the Sunday-school children; but now their voices are subdued and hushed, and the teachers with them are dressed in mourning. We look towards the rectory, and from an open side door we see persons continu- ally passing in and out with weeping eyes. And now the sound of the bell falls upon the ear. Its strokes are slow and solemn, for the dear old bell is muffled. And soon the old rector is seen approaching. Seen, did I say ? Alas ! never more to be seen in this world, he is in his coffin, borne on the shoulders of his faithful THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 355 vestry, while some of the diocesan clergy are the pall-bearers. At the head of the procession are seen two remarkable men ; both most remarkable men in their day and generation. One, a tall, attenuated form, with thin, long, white locks of hair pushed be- hind the ear, and his once erect form bowed down with the weight of more than fourscore years. He comes from an adjoining dio- cese, and is the great patriarch of the Catholic Church in America. The other is the tall, erect, majestic form of the new Bishop of the diocese. The old parish church is crowded to suffocation. The Bishop of the diocese read the service in the church, and the patriarch, with his feeble voice, committed the body of the rector to the ground "Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust." The old rector was sick some three weeks. The Bishop visited him and conversed with him, but the old man dwelt upon just this theme : " I have no merits ; I have no merits of my own. God forbid that I should glory save in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ." What a lesson for that stricken flock ! What a legacy he left them, that meek old man, whose whole life was a sweet savor of humility and love ! Even he had no merits of his own to plead ! The old rector had been dead but a short time when the late and last rector of the "Old Parish Church" was called to the rec- torship. Soon the old church was found too small; the vestry con- sented to its enlargement, and it was altered and enlarged in the form in which it now stands. Years flowed on, and the zealous, untiring, energetic rector, whose motto was "right onward" that " great hearted shepherd," whose love for the lambs of the flock was shown in his whole life had filled the church again to over- flowing. Galleries were erected, but still more room was needed ; then the corner-stone of the new cathedral was laid; after many years of delay it was finished. On a bright morning in the month of August a long procession of surpliced priests and deacons, with the rector at their head, were seen to issue from the vestry- room of the old building and take their way to the new cathedral, and then upon the walls of the old parish church was written "Icha- bod," fpr her glory had departed. But I must speak of one, a young curate, a relative of the rector, and his assistant. Beloved by all the parish, but especially among the poor, for he was ever among them, seeking out the sick and 356 THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. afflicted, and wearing out his young life in his work, I saw him kneel at the chancel to receive the rector's benediction as a loving bridegroom, and in one short year he was lying on the bier before the altar, scarce a bridegroom, scarce a father. The rector loved him much, and his full heart was overflowing with grief. It was on a cold November morning when the' congregation assembled to the burial of the curate. We of the choir were there to sing o'er his loved remains the last parting hymn. There was a new organ and a new organist a tall Dane. The bell ceased to toll, the dirge upon the organ began, the doors opened, and the rector entered, not reading, but sobbing out those inspired words, "I know that my Redeemer liveth." It needed but a sight of the coffin, and to hear the rector's voice, when there came a great out- burst of grief from the whole congregation ; tears were dropping upon the organ keys from the great man, all unused to weeping, and tears were in every eye. With a great effort the rector went through the service, the hymn \yas sung, and then the organ breathed forth sweet minor strains while the body of the young curate was carried to its last resting place. I shall never forget the sight of the rector at this time. Here again, with a great effort, he mas- tered the service, and then stood at the head of the grave till it was filled. A little after this we followed the remains of a beloved brother up to the old parish church, the first link broken in the chain that had bound us together so long as a happy family. He was a can- didate for orders in our Church, and while preparing for the min- istry to win souls to Christ, the All- wise and Merciful thought fit to remove him to join in the heavenly chorus that forevermore goes up to Him that sitteth upon the throne, and to the Lamb forever. " We all do fade as the leaf," saith Holy Writ, and so like the leaf he faded away. We all know there are many almost imperceptible changes of the leaf before on some bright frosty morning it slowly falls to the earth : so was it with this loved one. At first he was able to go up to the holy temple once on Sundays, then only on communion Sundays (the first Sunday in the month), and soon not able to go even then. He was only confined to his room for three days. The last time he was down I found him vainly attempting to ascend the stairs, when I took the poor, emaciated form in my arms and carried him up. He never came down again ; two nights THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. 357 afterwards, in the solemn midnight, the Bridegroom came, and he went forth to meet his Lord. He had been sleeping sweetly, when he awoke and said, "Why have you put out the light? Ah, I know. The world recedes; it disappears" (fainter and fainter grew that loving voice), "heaven opens." It stopped forever in this world, and, leaning upon his faithful sister nurse, he fell asleep in Jesus. It was a part of his favorite hymn, the igist, he was trying to repeat. And was not heaven opening to his view ? For "when Thou hadst overcome the sharpness of death ('O Lamb of God') Thou didst open the kingdom of Heaven to all believers." And so we laid him in the dear old churchyard, the first grave, the first of our family, but many may be found there now. I have but little to say of the late and last rector of the old parish church,' for his life, and great works and labors, are now before the world. By them, "being dead, he yet speaketh." A few things I must nfention as a slight token of affection to the memory of him who, for more than twenty-six years, broke to me the bread of life, the love of whom did grow with my growth, and strengthen with my strength. I was many years younger than I now am, when the late rector preached a sermon in the old church from this text : " Josiah was eight years old when he began to reign, and he did that which was right in the sight of the Lord." Well I remember through all the sermon how many times those loving eyes (now closed forever) were fixed on me ; and well I remember a course of sermons on the Lord's prayer, how excellent and in- structive they were ; also a course of Lenten sermons from the text : " Behold, I was shapen in iniquity, and in sin hath my mother conceived me." Every Sunday morning we had the same text, the same psalm (44), and the same hymn (56). Some of these ser- mons would take him, in his forcible, energetic manner, nearly an hour to deliver. Ah ! and many of them were written in the mid- night hour; yea, far into Sunday morning, after he had returned late in the evening, tired and worn out with visiting, and having the " care of all the churches." I have often thought these words of St. Paul could be well applied to hifn : "In journeyings often, in perils of robbers, in perils by my own countrymen, in perils among false brethren, in weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in fastings often, besides those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches." * 35 S THE OLD PARISH CHURCH. Again, in view of those two great and flourishing institutions, and of the hundreds of young men and maidens gathered around'him, how appropriate are the words of inspired Isaiah : " He shall feed his flock like a shepherd ; he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom." But he has gone ! I saw the old rector's funeral, and I saw, also, the funeral of the late and last rector of the old parish church. Hundreds attended at the old rector's, and thousands at that of the last rector, and both are awaiting the resurrection of the just. One word of the late rector's lovely wife, and I am done. Who is there among us that does not remember that bright, cheerful face, and that form clothed with so much simplicity, though possessing great wealth ? A pattern of humility and godliness to the flock, "in the modesty of her apparel, not with broidered hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array, but which be- cometh women professing godliness with good works." How her swift and ever ready feet went to and fro through all the parish seeking after the sick and impotent, and the suffering seemed for a time to forget their pains, as with light step, cheerful face, and feeling voice, she visited their sick rooms! With what pride she presided over her hospitable mansion, whose wide doors stood ever open, and with what delight she gathered around her the young ladies of the adjoining 'institution, making them feel per- fectly at home, and as if she were a mother to them all ! Well do I remember how quietly she glided in among us in our first great sorrow, our first death, offering her services in any and every way; and striving in her lovely manner to heal those who were wounded and broken in heart. Again at a marriage festival she was with us, rejoicing, and her light, merry laugh might often be heard as she passed from room to room with a cheerful word and smile for every one. But her cup of sorrow was not yet full, " for whom the Lord loveth He chasteneth." In the bloom and beauty of youth a son was cut down. This affliction and great sorrow overwhelmed her for several years, and she was ordered to Europe by her physicians. She Went, and there recovered her health. Then, as she was about returning to him who was as the "apple of her eye," the afflicting news of his death sped across the-Atlantic, crushing her to the earth, never more to rise. She lingered but a few months : " even the grasshopper became a burden, and desire FUNERAL OF REV. DR. DORR. 359 did fail." "The silver cord was loosed, the golden bowl was broken, the dust returned to earth as it was, and the spirit unto God who gave it." Surrounded by most of her faithful, loving children, she sweetly sunk to rest. In a foreign land she sleeps. One line upon her tombstone will tell her whole life : " These from affliction came." And now this poor, imperfect sketch is com- pleted. It may be short, or it may be long, but whenever it may please the All-wise and Merciful to take me hence, let me be buried in the dear old churchyard among the graves of those I have never ceased to mourn. May I depart in the communion of the Catholic Church, in the confidence of a certain faith, and in the comfort of a reasonable, religious, and holy hope ; and may I lie in the shadow of the cross from the spire of the great cathedral, and that from the more humble one of "The Old Parish Church." PARISHIONER. The following description of Rev. Dr. Dorr's funeral is by the same author, John Hulme. It was first published by request of Mrs.*Platt in the "Standard of the Cross" (Ohio paper) in October, 1869. Her brother had sent her the manuscript, not supposing it would be published. It is inserted here at the request of one not a member of the family, who says of it, "This is a better description of the kind than anything I have ever before read." . THE FUNERAL OF DR. DORR. For several years past the Rev. Dr. Dorr, for thirty-two years rector of old Christ Church, Philadelphia, has been steadily failing in health. He died, as our readers know, on the i8th of Sep- tember. " It is something," says a contemporary, " to have been rector of a church founded in 1695, presented with a communion service by Queen Anne in 1719, and possessed of vestry mtnutes reaching almost uninterruptedly from 1717 to the present day. Here the first General Convention of the American Church met in 1785; here Bishop White officiated for sixty-four years ; here President 360 REV. DR. DORR. Washington worshipped, as the colonial governors had done before him ; -here many of the most curious scenes of pre- and post-Revo- lutionary times have occurred and been recorded j and here at this hour 'are clerical labors reproducing in their zeal and self- sacrifice the famous history of the old ministers sent by the Society for the Propagation of the Gospel. But little changed within" or without, solid, and undecayed, old Christ Church still stands, a relic of the past, and a temple of the present. The chime of eight bells still rings as it did in 1754; the pulpit has remained almost unaltered since 1770 ; the library still contains Queen Anne's dona- tion of 1695, and the hospital continues its benefactions, begun in 1772. As with old Trinity, New York, business improvements have long since driven wealthy parishioners to the West End, and left the surrounding region to commerce and the poor. Yet, as with Trinity, many retain their interest and their pews, always striving to reach for at least one Sunday service in the venerable church of ancestral memories." We are indebted to a friend of the "Standard of the Cross" for the loan of a private letter containing so stirring an account of the solemnities at the funeral of Dr. Dorr, that, with permission, we give it to our readers, though not designed for publication : " Monday, 5 P. M. Funeral of Rev. Dr. Dorr. As I turned from Third Street into Church Alley the sound of the bells first fell upon my ear. It was a sort of half peal, with a terrible clash clash clash, and the nearer you came the more dreadful was the sound. It was as if all light, and life, and joy, and hope, and pleasure had forever fled, and naught was left but trouble and sor- row in the world. The church was already densely crowded, the galleries and every available part, except the middle block of pews reserved for the procession. I took my station at the entrance to the middle aisle, and looked around. " The church was hung in deep black, with heavy folds around the tops of the high pillars; the chancel window had heavy folds around it, also the pulpit, lectern, and altar. In the centre of the altar, standing erect, was a large, white cross of exquisite flowers, and at its base a beautiful white crown of the same flowers. The beautiful monument to ' Mrs. Esther Dorr' had also a wreath and a cross of the same beautiful flowers, whilst a splendid wreath of the same adorned the noble monument of ' Captain Dorr.' The REV. DR. DORR. 361 window directly over the rector's pe\v was covered with black, and the pew was also draped. It is now five o'clock, and all this while the bells had kept up their dreadful notes, and the old sexton was hurrying to and fro, and the people still crowded in. Right under the tower, at the west end of the church, is the Bible-class room, and here was the body, surrounded by the afflicted family and the clergy and others. From this room two wide doors open directly into the centre aisle, and the vestries of St. 'Peter's, St. James, and Christ Church enter, two by two, with slow and solemn step. They walk the whole length of the aisle to the chancel, and then open right and left ; these were followed by the clergy, to the number of twenty-five, in their ordinary dress. Then came the surpliced clergy, to the number of thirty; the last six bearing in their arms all that was mortal of the late Dr. Dorr. * I am the resurrection and the life' was heard amidst the solemn strains of the organ, now rising, now falling, as the body slowly passed down the aisle. Next to the coffin, with the eldest daughter, walked the Hon. Horace Binney, Sen., whose once erect and well-knit frame, with lofty bearing, is now slightly bowed with the weight of more than fourscore years and ten. In striking contrast came next the youthful, vigorous, manly form of Mr. Ed. Carpenter, lately mar- ried to the second daughter; and then followed the rest of the mourners. The body is placed before the altar, the surpliced clergy enter within the chancel, the organ ceases its loud wailing, glides into a low minor strain, and the voices of the choir break forth in the solemn chant for the dead, ' Lord, let me know my end, and the number of my days.' It is too dark to see the book, but I know it all by heart. "As I raise my eyes to the gallery, directly over the pulpit, they fall upon a strange sight. Sitting amidst the vast throng, and rock- ing her body to and fro, with an old, white handkerchief to her eyes, which she occasionally removes to look down upon the coffin, was an old, old woman, the very last of Bishop White's old pen- sioners. She seemed to be full of grief, the old body rocking to and fro, and communing within herself, but no one noticed her, and the dirge went on : " 'Hear my prayer, O Lord, for I am a sojourner, as all my fathers were.' 362 REV. DR. DORR. . " 'Yes, here I am, left still a little longer. Good old Bishop White has been gone more than thirty years. I was younger then than what I am now.' "On goes the dirge : " 'Lord, Thou hast been our refuge, from one generation to another.' "'Yes! Yes! I believe him to be my refuge. I have tried to look to the cross, poor old ignorant creature that I am ; and so I try to say, My soul doth wait for the Lord ; in His word is my trust.' " Still on goes the dirge : " 'The days of our age are threescore years and ten ; and though men be so strong that they come to fourscore years' " 'Yes, and I have come to that; I am more than eighty years old. Little did I think I should outlive that good man down there in his coffin ; little did I think I should outlive him.' " Still on goes the dirge : " ' So* teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.' " 'Yes. Yes, I will try to apply my heart unto wisdom. I will try and wait upon the Lord yet a little while, a little longer, and then I shall go where the dear old Bishop and Dr. Dorr, and all of the old pensioners have gone.' "Then we had the beautiful lesson, and then the hymn, 'Rock of Ages.' This was performed in a masterly and touching manner. When they came to the third verse there was a slight pause, and then organ and voices, very slow and solemn, went on, ' While I draw this fleeting breath, When mine eyelids close in death ;' Then a triumphant outburst of organ and voices : ' When I rise to worlds unknown, And behold Thee on Thy throne ;' Again subdued and slow : ' Rock of Ages, cleft for me, Let me hide myself in Thee.' REV. DR. DORR. 363 "During the singing of the hymn it had been growing quite dark, the choir alone being lit up, but from the stained glass chancel window there would come, darting across the great array of surplices (the faces of the wearers being hid in the gloom) an occasional ray of light illuminating the large, white cross and crown upon the black coffin with startling effect. "And now the procession slowly takes its way down the aisle and into the yard, the organ pouring out a great and bitter wailing, and the bells again set up their dreadful clanging. 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