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 The Cocoon
 
 "/ am a cocoon; or must I ,vay in a cocoon?'
 
 The Cocoon 
 
 A Rest-Cure 
 Comedy 
 
 By 
 
 Ruth McEnery Stuart 
 
 Author of "Sonny," "Sonny't Fathtr," etc. 
 
 New York 
 
 Hearst's International Library Co.
 
 Copyright, 1915, by 
 HEARST'S INTERNATIONAL LIBRARY Co., INC. 
 
 &U righti rtttrutd. Including thi translation into 
 ianguagti, including thi Scandinavian,
 
 Oh, some seek bread no more life's mere sub- 
 sistence, 
 
 And some seek wealth and ease the common 
 quest; 
 
 And some seek fame, that hovers in the distance ; 
 But all are seeking rest. 
 
 FREDERICK LANGBRIDGE. 
 
 2228501
 
 The Cocoon
 
 THE COCOON 
 
 Seafair Sanitarium, Va., 
 
 Feb. 17, 1913. 
 My dear Jack: 
 
 I am a cocoon; or must I say in a cocoon? 
 Is the cocoon the shell or the shell and the 
 worm? Dictionaries are downstairs and " hours 
 for consultation " limited. I saw that posted on 
 the wall as I came through the corridors, but 
 maybe it doesn't refer to the dictionaries. Any- 
 way, I'm it the poor worm going into oblivion 
 to get its wings. 
 
 It's on the roof the cocoonery and the co- 
 coons are of the long and narrow variety. Ba- 
 sically, they are single cots into which a certain 
 youth of mountaineer suggestions and seolian 
 drawl tucks every human worm which comes up 
 for transformation. Officially he is " roof -stew- 
 ard." 
 
 .When I reached his domain this morning I 
 I
 
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 fairly gasped over the wonder and beauty of the 
 scene. All the south, sea-space, sky and water, 
 "wedded in infinity." The east, nearly all sea. 
 West, likewise. Then the solid north, a rim of 
 vari-tinted green, vivid pines straggling down to 
 the w-ater's edge; hoary live-oak bearded with 
 Spanish moss, dignifying without breaking the 
 line, and offering a fine foil to the gnarled 
 but resolutely young magnolias which stand 
 around like the urban bachelors who live in our 
 city clubs, groomed to the limit, erect, polished, 
 even offensively redolent of the perfumes with 
 which they naively embalm the cherished re- 
 mains of their dead but unburied youth. 
 
 Between green of shore and blue of sea is a 
 strip of gleaming sand, white enough to delight 
 a dentist and, to my mind, grimly suggesting the 
 perpetual border war between the two elements 
 confronting each other, the sea tirelessly aggres- 
 sive, the land showing its teeth and holding its 
 own. 
 
 But the most wonderful thing of all is the 
 smell or, I do believe I must make that plu- 
 ral, for even now as I sniff, there come to me 
 hints of mingled sweets. First, permeating all
 
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 things, is the ubiquitous pine which sings itself 
 into your consciousness, titillating your ears 
 with needly cadences; but before you can say, 
 " How sweet the pine is ! " you are realising 
 roses and daffodils. I could go out now and 
 gather a bathtub of jonquils within a stone's 
 throw of the Sanitarium; this, with the beauty 
 and music of the sea thrown in. Oh, the sea! 
 How I love it! 
 
 Do forgive so much description, dear Jack. 
 You know I'm not given to it, and I'll probably 
 never offend in this way again, but just now, at 
 first, let me share my delight with you. 
 
 Really, when I came up and looked around 
 and sniffed, I fairly giggled with pure sensuous 
 delight. I wanted to be good as I stood there. 
 It is heavenly, Dear; yes, even Heavenly with a 
 capital H. 
 
 And, by the way, lest I forget: I've arranged 
 to have my mail sent up by hand from the village 
 postoffice, addressed simply to the Sanitarium, 
 Suite 99. And you, Dear, are to direct all mail 
 simply to Seafair, Va., P. O. Box 21. I watched 
 the Titian-haired Juno who sorts the mail in the 
 rotunda here, and I saw her and the blond
 
 4 THE COCOON 
 
 youth, her assistant, hesitate and smile orer cer- 
 tain letters, even holding one up to the light 
 before consigning it to its pigeon-hole. I 
 couldn't stand that, so remember Box 21. I 
 chose the number for good luck, all threes and 
 sevens, whether you add or multiply. 
 
 I see you smiling over that " bathtub of jon- 
 quils," dear Jack. You think I'm exaggerating 
 again, but I'm not. Why, I actually saw a bath- 
 tub filled with them, in the suite of one of the 
 patients. 
 
 Isn't it strange how gossip reaches you before 
 you get your hat off? When I arrived yester- 
 day after mail-time, Dear, or you should have 
 had a letter the " Keceiving Matron " took me 
 around, showing me rooms. I wanted a private 
 bath, of course, and the only one nearly avail- 
 able was, is, in the south tower, to be vacated 
 " to-morrow," which is to-day, and I'm to be in it 
 presently. The present occupant was on the 
 roof cocooning, so I didn't meet her. 
 
 You'd like my little suite a fairly largish 
 sitting-room with a bay-window to the seaward 
 side ; an alcove holding a narrow bed ; a few ta- 
 bles and things ; a row of electric buttons and
 
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 the bath. And it's No. 99, don't forget, or yes, 
 you may forget. Your number is 21 (box). 
 
 Well, the bathtub there was filled with jon- 
 quils. In all my life, I have never seen so many 
 together before. 
 
 It seems that the present No. 99 we go by 
 numbers here, like convicts the present 99, I 
 say, is a little queer and she strolled out into the 
 gardens and began to gather and she didn't know 
 when to stop and that's why she's leaving. 
 The " patrol " nurse who promenades the pergola 
 called to her that there was reason in all things 
 and she replied that there was a reason why she 
 kept on gathering, but she didn't say what it 
 was. 
 
 So she not only gathered until dark but, when 
 the moon rose, she went out again and again, just 
 in her nightie, and the last time she came in with 
 her lap full, she lost her way, poor dear, and 
 walked through the lobby where the men were 
 smoking and it didn't look well. Fve seen 
 her to-day and she is beautiful but sad. I'm 
 hoping she'll leave the jonquils, for I'd like to 
 inherit them. Poor little sister ! 
 
 But I began telling you about the roof and the
 
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 cocoonery, and, by the way, the cocoon is the 
 shell. I didn't have to " consult " ; I remem- 
 bered. 
 
 Well, I'm happy to say, it's my first prescrip- 
 tion, the roof. I begin cocooning to-morrow 
 morning. Indeed, it's my only prescription, ex- 
 cepting sundry rubs and sprays and girdles and 
 kneadings just a few little things like that, 
 not counting the sea treatments, " sand-sop- 
 pings," and a lot of perfectly fascinating bare- 
 foot stunts. Nothing to swallow and gag over. 
 I noticed the word " thermo-electric " on my 
 treatment-card and it looks a bit scary, but I 
 don't mind, so long as I don't have to swallow 
 the thing and you not here to wrap it in pre- 
 serves and to fan me and change the subject. 
 
 I've got old Dr. Jacques for my physician and 
 I was greatly complimented at his taking me, 
 for he assumes only special patients now. He 
 just walks around, smiling in his white halo, and 
 seems to impersonate the love of God, all un- 
 consciously, of course. 
 
 He took me on sight, just as you did, poor 
 Jack, on my looks. You see, you were not here
 
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 to warn him. He looked me over, really sci- 
 entifically, and then he turned his kind old eyes 
 on me and they seemed to say, " Crawl in, little 
 one, and forget. Be a worm for a while." 
 
 Of course, I am in a sense honoured in being 
 his patient and yet, I don't know exactly. Un- 
 fortunately, or fortunately, according to how one 
 looks at it, I overheard him say to one of the 
 young doctors of the staff when he'd been putting 
 me through my paces, " I think I'd better handle 
 that little brand myself." Just that way he said 
 it and what do you suppose he meant? Did he 
 refer to some special brand of woman or of 
 nerve tire or the kind of brand one snatches 
 from the burning or just a common, every-day 
 firebrand? In other words, does he regard me 
 as an interesting patient or an element of dan- 
 ger? Maybe I'll ask him when I know him 
 better, though I doubt it. Haloes always silence 
 me, somehow, and, too, there is a note of finality 
 in all he says. And yet he isn't without humour 
 either. 
 
 For instance, seeing his professional glance 
 turned upon me this morning, I said playfully,
 
 8 THE COCOON 
 
 " When you look at me that way, doctor, it seems 
 to me you can see right through me. How's 
 my vermiform appendix to-day? " 
 
 " Oh, it's just as I expected to find it," he 
 smiled out, " curled with a curling-iron and tied 
 with a blue ribbon " ; and then, lest I should pre- 
 sume upon his condescension, perhaps, he added 
 as he rose to go : "A few weeks on the roof for 
 you and then, we'll see. Maybe you'd like to 
 go sand-sopping on the beach a little later." 
 
 " Oh, I'd love that," I replied. 
 
 " Yes, they all love it from the roof and after 
 a while they love it for itself. That's where we 
 give them their final tan and their grit " 
 
 " I brought my sand and grit with me," I 
 vulgarly interrupted, but he was gone and I felt 
 like a glib little fool, as I so often do. Evidently 
 he thinks me frivolous just because I play around 
 a tragic situation. 
 
 There are boats to hire at the pier, both sail 
 and row boats, but to go there one must have a 
 doctor's permit. It seems that some nervous 
 patients haven't been able to resist the call of the 
 deep as they heard it at the pier, and so
 
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 Feb. 18. 
 
 My dinner-tray came in just here, yesterday, 
 and after dinner there were things to do, not by 
 me, just to me treatment-card obligations, you 
 know, steamings and things, and that's why I 
 sent only the telegram. I've been on the roof all 
 this forenoon and it's great. I just went up and 
 nodded to the seolian youth whose name, by the 
 way, I find to be Jefferson Davis Beauregard 
 Johnson, and in a jiffy he had me tucked in quite 
 out of sight, out in the full sunlight with all 
 possible wind-exposures, one of a row of the most 
 uninteresting and non-committal cocoons you 
 ever saw. 
 
 At first glance, it looked like a prospect of a 
 survival of the fittest and as if you might be at 
 this moment taking all the chances there are of 
 early widowerhood; but not so. The comfort of 
 the worm is beyond words. The fluffy com- 
 fortables which cover us are riotous in colour 
 and design, but I soon forgot the green dragons 
 which were chasing red vultures through a purple 
 expanse over my submissive person when I was 
 submerged in the lulling softness of their un-
 
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 dersides while the unadulterated air of heaven 
 was mine for the breathing. 
 
 My first impulse was to study astronomy. I'll 
 never have such another chance, I know, unless 
 I prove too good for this world and go to live 
 among the stars and, even then, the perspective 
 would be lacking. But while I was trying to 
 locate Jupiter and to find Saturn's rings, I fell 
 asleep and slept nine hours. Think of it ! I who 
 haven't been able to snatch two consecutive hours 
 for a year. 
 
 When I came to, I didn't know where I was for 
 a minute and then there issued from the cocoon 
 next to mine a sudden snort and I dodged and 
 drew in my head. I had just poked it out the 
 least bit. You see, you can't tell a thing about 
 the occupants of these cocoons from their out- 
 sides. It's a case of " All cocoons look alike to 
 me." 
 
 But I tell you, Jack, that snort was terrific 
 and so near! It transformed the cocoonery for 
 me. It became instantly a menagerie of wild 
 beasts. I lay very still, my heart thumping and 
 imagination running riot for about ten minutes 
 1 it seemed an eternity when suddenly, with-
 
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 out any warning, the covers of the snorting cot 
 flew up, and with a gymnastic spring there 
 stood, within three feet of your wife, a brigand, 
 if there ever was one deep-set eyes, long ring- 
 lety hair, loose joints, square shoulders and 
 the whole, six feet six I should say, and lower- 
 ing. 
 
 My heart didn't get any better as he unfolded 
 and stood. You see, I had fallen asleep thinking 
 of butterflies in the making and I half expected 
 to see wings emerge, figuratively at least, as the 
 layers would begin to unroll. 
 
 I don't know who he is, the brigand, but he's 
 somebody, if only a high adventurer. But while 
 I was recovering from him, he having in the 
 meantime stalked away, the cot next beyond his 
 changed contour and an old lady sat up, labor- 
 iously pulled herself together, gathered up a Bos- 
 ton bag, a hot water bag in a knitted case, a 
 tippet, a plaid shawl and a copy of the Transcript 
 and toddled away. She was almost too true to 
 type. I wished there might have been something 
 missing, but there never is, not in ye Bostonian. 
 Of course, I know just about what she had in her 
 bag, but I'm not telling.
 
 12 THE COCOON 
 
 Well, then I found myself guessing and I've 
 been at it ever since. Lots of colourless bromidic 
 people here and several delicious sulphites 
 already in my eye, besides the brigand. Oh, it's 
 immense! No more astronomy for yours truly. 
 I fear you are badly married, Jack dear, for your 
 wife is of the earth earthy, so easily is she seduced 
 from the way of high thinking ! 
 
 It's the charm of uncertainty. A star is al- 
 ways a star, and when you know it and its rou- 
 tine, its very consistency makes it a dull jewel ; 
 but this menagerie it keeps you guessing. 
 You know there's a human worm in every cocoon 
 and the very fact of its being there proves that 
 it's in the play; one of the dramatis personae in 
 the great tragedy of " Life and Death." We're 
 all in it, whether we realise it or not. I know 
 I'm cast for something and sometimes I'm afraid 
 to stir lest I jostle my cap and ring my bells. 
 Of course mine must be a comedy part with my 
 playful nose and yellow hair. 
 
 There's a lot of printed matter distributed here, 
 Jack. It's a bit didactic, but wholesome. You 
 know how I hate that word, wholesome. For
 
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 years it ruined my celery and now it threatens my 
 spinach which we are urged to devour, because it 
 contains iron, forsooth. I always suspected that 
 it exuded its own arsenic for colouring and seized 
 it voraciously in consequence. 
 
 Another thing, letter-writing is discouraged. 
 Hence this longest-letter-I've-written-in-a-year. 
 I can't help it. I'm made that way. No more of 
 our old cipher for me excepting the one word 
 " Wad," and you'll never forget precisely what 
 it means, " I am sorry, Husband of my Heart, 
 but money wholly dissolved. Kindly remit." 
 Ordinary letters, italics or capitals, as usual, to 
 indicate the urgency of action ; " wad " so 
 meaning just general exhaustion ; <e wad " thus 
 in italics, pretty hard up ; but " WAD," all 
 capitals well, it wouldn't hurt to telegraph re- 
 lief to the capital "WAD." But I'm going to 
 be economical. I know this is costing you a lot. 
 
 And don't worry. I'm comfy to a degree. My 
 wee bed is semi-soft and ultra-clean and is con- 
 veniently placed for forbidden reading in bed; 
 and as for service, pressing a button in reach of 
 my hand over my pillow will bring me anything
 
 14 THECOCOON 
 
 from a growing orchid to a masseuse in livery, 
 with her bottle of cocoanut oil and alcohol 
 and her smile. 
 
 I've been here hardly two days and I'm on to 
 that institutional smile and, frankly, I'm too 
 tired to stand much of it, and that isn't all. One 
 official visiting lady I say she's official, just 
 from the consistency of her service well, she 
 doesn't hesitate to tell you that she loves you. 
 She has told me so twice already and I was be- 
 ginning to wonder if perchance I might be so 
 obviously lovable that strange women were be- 
 ginning to tell me so, when the loving visitant 
 happened to cross the roof, passing between our 
 cots, and I heard a voice say in a muffled tone, 
 "Aren't you glad she loves you? " and the gen- 
 eral titter which followed gave me my cue. 
 
 I don't intend to stand it, dear Jack. If she 
 tells me she loves me to-morrow, I'll say, " Oh 
 thanks, awfully. So you told me yesterday." 
 And I don't think she'll keep it up. 
 
 It's not because the poor thing is wall-eyed 
 and her braids don't match her hair, nor yet on 
 account of her parenthetical smile which is the 
 worst ever. I realise that she is smiling against
 
 THECOCOON 15 
 
 big odds and I give her credit for it ; but no living 
 woman shall by word or act make love to me ; no 
 woman, and only one man. 
 
 Don't think I am unkind. I know she's my 
 sister and so is a Zulu grandmother and I have 
 brotherly or sisterly love for them both, in a way 
 far away. I'd like a sort of foreign missions 
 relation with them. She quotes Scripture, too, 
 and of course she has a right to; but you see, I 
 have my own Bible and I'm too tired. If she 
 says any more Bible at me, I'm going to say, 
 " Yes, and you'll find the same thing in the 
 Koran," and that'll frighten her into silence. 
 It's a safe thing to say to almost anybody. 
 
 Sanitariums, or sanitaria, are supposed to be 
 monotonous and maybe they are, after a while, 
 not at first. Anyhow I don't mind. I can just 
 turn out the light and unchain my mind and here 
 you come, smiling, smoothing my hair and telling 
 me how lonely the canary-cage is without me, till 
 I fall asleep. " Loved by thee," as Browning 
 says. Your desolate, loving wife, 
 
 BLESSY. 
 P. S. 
 
 If this letter is dull, dear Jack, remember it's
 
 16 THE COCOON 
 
 just the introduction. When these sulphites be- 
 gin moving, things are sure to hum. But I 
 started this postscript to remind you, dear, to 
 change your underthings with the weather. 
 Three thicknesses in the bottom drawer, begin- 
 ning at the left end; thin, thicker, thick. It's 
 thicker weather now, middle of the drawer and 
 thick threatening, I see by New York papers. 
 Isn't it funny for thick to be thicker than thicker? 
 Gracious, how I miss you! 
 
 Suite 99, Seafair Sanitarium, 
 SEAFAIR, Va., Feb. 19, 1913. 
 
 I went down to supper to-night, John (you 
 know how forlorn I feel when I call you John), 
 and I have seen the other patients as they fore- 
 gather at feed-time and well ! 
 
 Pamphlet No. 1 says they "do not take any 
 insane here " and, of course, I believe them, but 
 it takes faith. The dining-room is handsome 
 and well-appointed, but I don't want to go into 
 it ever again not ever ! It's the most depress- 
 ing ! You know how jolly we are always at table. 
 Well, I went down just to be cheered up, and 
 ye gods! One would have supposed speech had
 
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 been forbidden. An occasional remark, yes, 
 about as long as, " Pass the panada," or, 
 " Poorly, thank you," but nothing beyond. Ac- 
 tually, I could hear them swallow. 
 
 Of course I couldn't see myself, but if I looked 
 as if I belonged to that crowd, God help me. 
 Not that I blame them. If people are miserable 
 well, they are miserable and of course the ob- 
 ligatory smile doesn't apply to the patients. I 
 nearly wrote inmates, although prisoners would 
 be even better, for it's quite the thing for one to 
 ask another what he's " in for." 
 
 Of course the wretched souls come to the din- 
 ing hall to be nourished, and doubtless they are. 
 I scorn to be " nourished." Don't bite your 
 moustache. I see you doing it. If I'm ridicu- 
 lous, that's what you get for marrying an idiot. 
 
 Feb. 20. 
 
 (And the sea growly.) 
 
 I wouldn't mail that little scrap, dear Jack 
 or even sign it. It was like the sea to-day, 
 grumpy and besides, idiot is such an outland- 
 ish word to end a letter with. 
 
 Suppose we don't write any more formal let-
 
 18 THE COCOON 
 
 ters. Let's just take our pens and write as we 
 say things when you are on your side of the 
 library table and I'm stirring the fire. I seem 
 to be stirring fire all the time, one way or an- 
 other. 
 
 The name of it's nostalgia, the thing I've got, 
 but " taking me out o' this," as Bridget says, will 
 cure it, so let's forget it; but it's awful while 
 it lasts simply awful. Napoleon had it at St. 
 Helena and they say it's epidemic at all the 
 American pleasure resorts excepting Keno.* 
 
 My loneliest times here are the meal hours, or 
 " service for one " on a tray. Ugh ! And all the 
 perfectly digestible foods, so offensively inoffen- 
 sive ! I stood it for two days ; then I drove down 
 to the village and bought some horseradish and 
 French mustard and Worcestershire sauce and 
 some tabasco. I got the tabasco just to put on 
 the tray and to hear you say, " Kindly pass the 
 hell-fire, Blessy dear." Oh, how I do miss your 
 dear language! 
 
 " What do I do with these things? " Why, I 
 just take one after the other and sprinkle them 
 promiscuously over these blameless viands and 
 
 * The divorce colony.
 
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 put the dishes on the radiator for a little while 
 and I've been quite successful thus far. The re- 
 sults have all been savoury and I've named 
 them " revolt " under a general head and they 
 agree with me, so don't worry. It is a sort of 
 character-building with a temperament. The 
 day I'm just tame-good, look for me to die; and 
 you'll be better off, maybe, but I dare you to be 
 happier or busier. 
 
 I won't mail this to-day. I have to go now, 
 for mine hour is come, so saith the treatment- 
 card, and in ten minutes I'll be taking " salt 
 spray followed by 1, 2, 3," these numerals, if you 
 care to know, standing for patting, rolling and 
 putting to sleep in a specially temperatured room, 
 a sort of cooling-oven which reminds me of the 
 old t( Pat-a-cake, pat-a-cake, baker's man," in 
 which the cake finally arrives at similar treat- 
 ment in the last line, you remember, " Roll 'em 
 an' roll 'em an' stick 'em an' stick 'em an' toss 
 'em in the oven ! " 
 
 I've had only one of these, and when I'd been 
 
 turned into the oven, I really felt as if I needed 
 
 \ 
 only a little sugar and cinnamon sprinkled over 
 
 me to make me worth a penny apiece.
 
 20 THECOCOON 
 
 And now adieu for to-day. No dates or obli- 
 gations. So even this hug will be cooled before 
 you get it, like the memory of the embrace of a 
 dead wife. Oh, how I love to hate this place ! ! ! ! 
 
 BLESSY. 
 
 (I feel like signing myself Cussy, instead of 
 Blessy, I'm that rebellious.) 
 
 Feb. 21st, 
 Dear Jack : 
 
 A choppy sea, spurty showers and short 
 answers from everybody. 
 
 When I wrote that about short answers I had 
 forgotten my chamber-maid. She, who is the 
 soul of amiability and altogether a delight in 
 her naive talk, says, " It looks like as ef it's 
 a-fixin' to rain," but she says it as a bird sings. 
 These musical southern voices have something 
 elemental about them. Sometimes they seem 
 even verging on tears, without being depressing, 
 either. 
 
 She calls back, " Oh revore ! " as she goes out, 
 after sweeping my room. I asked her this morn- 
 ing what she had said, feigning not to have 
 heard, and she replied chuckling softly, " Oh
 
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 I say 'oh revore' just for style. Some says, 
 ' Over the river ' an' again some says, l Olive 
 oil,' but I say ef you say a thing, say it right." 
 You see, she comes of the poor white class of 
 the hills which knows no caste and, really, I en- 
 joy it. This institution is a godsend to these 
 people. They come from the turpentine coun- 
 try, most of them, and strongly suggest the 
 Craddock types. 
 
 This girl, whose name is Malviny-May long 
 i asked me what my given name might be 
 she pronounced it "giving" and when I told 
 her " Doriana Myrtilla," she repeated slowly, 
 " Do-ry-any Myr-til-ly, I'd never get that pro- 
 nounced in Kingdom come, so I reckon I'll stick 
 to the Mrs." And so to test her, I added in a 
 friendly way, " I have been called Blessy for 
 short," which pleased her, for she answered, 
 " Well, that's somethin' like. An' now, Blessy 
 Heminway, if you'll gether up yore frock-tail 
 so's I can pass this sweepin'-broom around them 
 doll slippers o' yores, we'll git shet o* some of 
 these germs we hear so much about," and there 
 wasn't the ghost of a smile on her face when she 
 said it. I should say the mountaineer's first
 
 22 THECOCOON 
 
 characteristic is seriousness. I find it here just 
 as in the valleys of the Catskills and Adiron- 
 dacks, seriousness and anemia. Somehow they 
 seem correlated. 
 
 I went down to the Swedish house yesterday, 
 Jack, and it's great fun. You know the " Swed- 
 ish " is a system of physical exercises and 
 " treatments " as they are called, same as Chris- 
 tian Science, only different quite different. 
 
 You remember the quaint little cottages we 
 saw in Sweden, or more particularly in Norway 
 at Frognasaeter near Voxenkollen, out from 
 Christ! ania. Well, this Swedish headquarters 
 is like these all wood-carving over rafters and 
 everything, mostly grinning grotesques. Even 
 the drinking-water is drawn from the mouth of 
 a depressing gargoyle which appears nauseated, 
 and it is disagreeable. The poor thing is sick 
 at a stomach which he has not. 
 
 But the treatment-room with all its para- 
 phernalia in action is tremendous. Everything 
 goes by electricity ; no end of whizzing, whirring, 
 jostling contraptions at once. The one most in 
 demand now, at which women wait in line for 
 their turns, is a pair of jolting arms to which the
 
 THE COCOON 23 
 
 patient presents her hips for their elimination. 
 They do a lot of fantastic manipulations, these 
 wooden arms do, and I'm told they are guaran- 
 teed to remove every hip utterly if faithfully 
 applied, so that the modish hipless garments 
 will fit. If hips come back into fashion, no 
 doubt some other part of the anatomy will go 
 out, so there will always be work for the elimi- 
 nators to do. 
 
 In the old days our grandmothers were hour- 
 glasses; now we are lead pencils, and I wonder 
 what our daughters will be, or even ourselves 
 next. This navigating in one trouser-leg can't 
 last forever. 
 
 But the star performance in the " Swedish " 
 is the flesh-reducing horse, a wooden beast with 
 the head of a nightmare. When I saw it, an 
 amazonian lady with loose red curls was in the 
 saddle and the fiery untamed going at full gal- 
 lop; but the humour of the picture lay in the 
 rider's serious expression of Sphinxlike deter- 
 mination. I didn't get on to what it all meant 
 at first, none of these things being labelled, and 
 so I was quite ingenuous when I remarked audi- 
 bly, " This is all very well, but I should find it
 
 24 THE COCOON 
 
 monotonous not getting anywhere." To which 
 the rider replied without change of muscle, " Oh, 
 hut I do. I've got down from 301 to 289 in 
 19 days." Then I understood and I smiled back : 
 " I wonder, if I were to get into the saddle and 
 turn his head the other way, if I might get up 
 from 93 to 120 in five weeks? " And not a soul 
 laughed. This is a deadly place. 
 
 You see, I've shortened the time, Jacky dear. 
 I can't stay away from you for three months, 
 not from you! If I'd married anybody else 
 or if I were anywhere else but not here and 
 from Jack Heminway! Nixy! 
 
 She rides of Tuesdays and Saturdays and I'm 
 going to stop in on my way to the " Facial " 
 on those days. Why! she's as good as a movey 
 with a chance for variation. Forgive this ref- 
 erence to my own treatments. Any ordinary 
 wife in a reformatory like this would fill up her 
 letters with institutional detail about herself, 
 but you'll never have another reference from me, 
 unless some accident should happen as, for in- 
 stance, I should be electrocuted in the " static " 
 or sun-struck in the solarium or moon-struck in
 
 THE COCOON 25 
 
 the lunarium or dessicated in the dryair-ium or 
 yard-broke, falling off the roof. 
 
 Oh, yes, I'm resting! Resting for all I'm 
 worth I mean to say for all you are worth 
 resting just as strenuously as our leisure folk 
 generally pursue their leisure, though differ- 
 ently, somewhat. " Rest is a change of activ- 
 ities." Yes, I'm resting. 
 
 Do stop asking me if I've called on that Miss 
 Carter. Four letters from you and Carter in 
 three of them. Realise, please, dear Jack, that 
 I've just come. But I'll go surely. Who is 
 she? 
 
 Suite 99, Feb. 2Sth. 
 (And the sea flirty.) 
 
 You see, Dear-dear, I'm doing as I suggested, 
 just writing and stopping any old time. It's 
 more like life than formal letters. I just put in 
 a date once in a while as the German frau drops 
 a raisin in her dough " for a change." 
 
 Would you believe it, Jacky dear? I'm hav- 
 ing fun. 
 
 Something's doing. Something not scheduled
 
 26 THE COCOON 
 
 in the " rest-cure," although legitimately born 
 of it. Of course, I wanted to tell you, first thing, 
 to make it respectable. 
 
 Listen; they don't know I'm married, here. 
 They think I'm your sister, Miss Heminway. 
 Even the doctors think so, and I'm in for it. I 
 didn't understand it, for a while. And that 
 isn't all; there are complications. It's this 
 blonde hair, Jack or partly that the com- 
 plications. 
 
 The mistake happened naturally enough when 
 I arrived. The office clerk pushed the big book 
 over to me and said, " Sign please," and so I did 
 dutifully, writing my full name unabashed, 
 Doriana Myrtilla Van der Weyden Heminway, 
 just so. If he had said " Register," I'd have 
 written proudly " Mrs. J. Dartmouth Hemin- 
 way," but a signature is a signature and he said 
 " Sign " said it in a voice accustomed to com- 
 mand. It seems that you didn't explain that 
 your sister, Miss Heminway, decided at the last 
 not to come with your wife and I'd forgotten 
 all about it. 
 
 Now, Jack, was it my fault the mistake? 
 And am I to blame if I don't look married? I
 
 THE COCOON 27 
 
 didn't make my profile. Of course, nothing 
 serious is happening but be still. Don't 
 wriggle. And don't rush a letter down here in- 
 quiring about your " wife " ? I may ask you to 
 do it, when the time is ripe but not yet. 
 Trust things to me. 
 
 There are already two men in the case, three, 
 I mean, for of course you are always in it 
 with me. Two besides. But remember, there's 
 safety in numbers, 
 
 Goodnight, dear, 
 
 My head is on your arm, 
 
 BLESSY. 
 
 Written in Diary, March 1st. 
 Dear old Book of my Heart: 
 
 Five years and three weeks have passed since 
 your last date, just before my wedding. Five 
 years! And I've never needed you since not 
 until now and I don't need you yet ; but I shall. 
 So I'd better reopen my account with you, now 
 while I'm calm, so that I can rush in on short 
 notice and have heartthrobs charged to my ac- 
 count on your trusting pages instead of send-
 
 28 THECOCOON 
 
 ing everything home to dear, patient, long-suf- 
 fering Jack. 
 
 I know already from the way things are going 
 that I'll soon need some such outlet, just as in 
 the old turbulent days of our courtship when 
 you and I and no one else but God knew how 
 utterly wretched I used to get, doubting Jack's 
 love, mainly. What a simpleton I was, to be 
 sure ! But how can a woman know a man until 
 she's married to him? I've been with Jack now 
 steadily, summer and winter; here, there and 
 everywhere ; in sickness and in health ; in season 
 and out of season ; and I've never needed another 
 confidant and don't need any now, excepting 
 for his protection, darling husband that he is. 
 
 But I know myself and I know there are sure 
 to be little things I oughtn't to bother him about 
 at long range and yet they'll be things I'll never 
 be able to cast aside without a spark of sympa- 
 thy and just the telling them out to you will 
 help us all round. It'll even warm you up, 
 little Book, after all these years of cooling, al- 
 though one would think the ardour of those 
 early red-hot pages, many even blurred with
 
 THECOCOON 29 
 
 scalding tears, might have been counted on as a 
 perpetual guard against chill. 
 
 I shall have no more anguish to bring your 
 dear pages now, thank God, for the day of doubts 
 and misgivings is past. How often I've laughed 
 since at my crazy outpouring to you on that 
 silly occasion when he (" he " is always Jack, of 
 course) when he, I say, took Lydia Lawrence 
 home from the barn dance and I engaged my- 
 self to Don Macintosh, in rage and spite, that 
 same night on my way home to Aunt Helen's 
 where I was staying. Oh, how I messed you all 
 up, page after page, before I got out of that 
 tangle ! 
 
 No, this won't be anything like that, surely. 
 I believe I'm really engaging you for my dis- 
 couragements, not one of which must go to Jack 
 again. I'll tell him the things that count and 
 any foolishness which would seem horrible un- 
 less he knew it, like my playing on the roof. If 
 I'd had you, I'd never have railed against this 
 place to him as I did the other day and I mean 
 never to do so again. I know he hates our dear 
 little home without me there ; but he never says
 
 30 THE COCOON 
 
 so now, though he wanted to break np and go to 
 a hotel to live till I'd served this sentence but 
 I wouldn't let him. 
 
 I think his own evening lamp and his books 
 and papers and the phonograph if he's lone- 
 some make a more wholesome and sane en- 
 vironment for a man with a sick wife than the 
 rotunda of a hotel with its vulgar dress parade 
 and Jack thinks so too, now. 
 
 There are fleas in this jail, Bookie! Now, 
 that's a thing I'll never tell Jack, for I know it 
 would worry him. I caught one day before yes- 
 terday and missed about seventy, I should say, 
 before I caught this one and the rest must have 
 got scared and hopped off, for I didn't feel them 
 again. They blow over from the Downer ken- 
 nels on Frog Island, whenever a strong wind 
 favours them, so they are high-class fleas with 
 the blood of the best registered hounds in their 
 veins, which is small comfort to us roofers when 
 they drop in on us. 
 
 No, he'll never know about the fleas unless he 
 sneaks in and confers with you again. That's 
 the one unworthy thing I've known Jack Hemin- 
 way to do in these five years to run across you
 
 THE COCOON 31 
 
 looking in my bureau drawer for his mileage- 
 ticket and to gloat over my last heart-throb 
 and then to make amends by giving me those 
 pearls. I've noticed very often, Book of my 
 Heart, that untimely gifts of gems are apt to 
 represent a husband's shortcomings but one 
 little thing like that in five years and three 
 weeks isn't a bad record for my Jack and then 
 I have the pearls. 
 
 The time he brought me that emerald pen- 
 dant just out of a clear sky, no birthday or any- 
 thing, I looked around to see what he'd been up 
 to, but he was so dear and the emeralds so be- 
 coming that I grew ashamed and forgot all 
 about it. 
 
 Seafair, Va., March 2nd. 
 
 (And the sea roaring.) 
 Dearest Jack: 
 
 Perhaps an occasional conventional beginning 
 may be a good thing, just as we dress for dinner 
 once in a while when we're camping in the 
 mountains so the chipmunks will know what 
 class of people they are entertaining. 
 
 .Well, guess who they are, Dear the two
 
 32 THECOCOON 
 
 men? But how could you, not knowing any- 
 body here? So I'll up and 'fess. One is an 
 Englishman, Canadian, that is, and a gentleman ; 
 and the other? the BKIGAND who isn't 
 a brigand at all. I take delight in writing him 
 so, though. It makes things go faster. 
 
 The Canadian I said he was a gentleman, 
 and after that he's a poet ~nd a soldier, that is 
 to say, he writes delightful verse and reads it 
 divinely to your " sister " on the roof and, 
 for the soldier part, he's an ex-Something-or- 
 other of the English army. Personally, he's a 
 widower (I suspect) and pompous or, no, not 
 at all pompous for an Englishman and his 
 favourite pastime, when not reading to her, is 
 to inspect your sister covertly from behind his 
 book. 
 
 He is tall, square-shouldered, spare and grace- 
 ful, with that fine masculinity which seems to 
 despise personality even while engaged in its 
 highest expression; and he is so unequivocally 
 well bred that one feels a sort of protection in 
 his presence. Indeed, you see he resembles you, 
 Dear, in several respects besides his taste in 
 women.
 
 THE COCOON 33 
 
 The Brigand is, of course you'll agree, utterly 
 unlike him in these qualities, though a good sort, 
 I'll venture. He is a tireless talker in about 
 s'teen queer lingos, largely Pacific slope slang, 
 I heard a man say, and he can rattle pidgin 
 English so fast that, if you shut your eyes, you'd 
 expect on opening them to see a pigtailed Mon- 
 golian standing before you. As to the polite 
 languages, I don't know. I should say he'd 
 picked up all he knows chiefly well, not from 
 books. 
 
 When a muffled voice asked this morning on 
 the roof what we thought of him I answered 
 quickly from under cover, " I should say he's 
 a promoter from Everywhere," which brought 
 down the house, otherwise, shook the cocoons. 
 
 He has a Chicago accent, owns a banana 
 plantation, edits a Free-thought paper, has been 
 confirmed in the Episcopal Church, was later 
 ordained to the Campbellite ministry, then be- 
 gan to dabble in Buddhism and now boasts Pan- 
 theistic leanings ; and from his fluent pronounce- 
 ments upon Free Trade and Single Tax, not to 
 say Home Rule and Universal Peace, one comes 
 to think of him as a sort of composite.
 
 34 THE COCOON 
 
 I haven't " met him " exactly. Of course, we 
 all nod to each other in passing. It seems to 
 be a sort of " misery loves company " etiquette. 
 And yet, although she has but this negligible 
 acquaintance with him, the Brigand is pursuing 
 your sister, all the same, and a huge, swarthy 
 girl from Butte, Montana, is pursuing him. I 
 hate to say a thing like that about any woman, 
 but truth is truth. She is interesting picto- 
 rially; not otherwise. She wears long, black 
 braids down her back, tied with red bows, and 
 strides like an Amazon, in the wake of the 
 Brigand. 
 
 She's in for somnambulism and I'm afraid of 
 her. She plays the flute, which is incongruous. 
 She even plays it in her sleep, would you believe 
 it? Fortunately it is a soft-toned flute, but any 
 flute playing irresponsibly up and down the 
 corridors at midnight is trying to nervous 
 patients. I don't like it particularly, myself, 
 and I find it bothers me almost more when it 
 isn't playing than when it is. I've been kept 
 awake quite a little, really, just dreading that 
 imminent flute playing outside my door at all
 
 THECOCOON 35 
 
 hours and picturing to myself the wide-open, 
 unseeing eyes of the somnambulist. 
 Kemember Edward Lear's limerick? 
 
 " There was once a young lady of Butte 
 Who played on a silver-gilt flute." 
 
 Well, here she is, in life, though I never 
 thought of her till this minute. Our poor player 
 is pathetic enough. She carries that flute where- 
 ever she goes. They did try to wrest it from her, 
 tactfully, one night, but it waked her and she 
 threatened to leave, which, of course, they 
 wouldn't hear to, as she has the most expensive 
 suite on the floor. 
 
 They do say that she played at the Brigand's 
 door, one midnight, in the absence of the patrol- 
 nurse who had gone to answer a bell; but they 
 can't suspect her of anything underhand when 
 she plays the flute and is sound asleep besides. 
 
 The things she plays sleeping are the weird- 
 est, like the wails of a lost soul. I'm telling 
 you about this girl oh, yes, she's a girl any- 
 where between thirty-nine and forty, but dis- 
 tinctly girlish, more's the pity because the
 
 36 THECOCOON 
 
 patrol says she told her that the Brigand was her 
 fiance". 
 
 She sand-sops on the beach and when I look 
 down upon her, her red bow stands out among 
 the soppers like a beacon. By the w r ay, sand- 
 soppiug is especially recommended for insomnia, 
 and I can see how it might be lulling. 
 
 The patients are undressed in little bath- 
 pavilions and each has an attendant who leads 
 her or him out barefoot over the warm sand to 
 the sop-holes, which really look more like graves 
 than anything else, being about half full of a 
 sort of loblolly of hot-ish wet salt sand. As the 
 patient is laid in place, the sop-robe, which I 
 find is popularly called a shroud and opens at 
 the back, is pulled away and fresh covering of 
 sand heaped over him until the entire garment 
 is freed, and he lies snugly imbedded. There 
 are some, I know, who insist upon a sleeve and 
 free arms and who take a book along, but sleep 
 soon overtakes them; and the attendants have 
 very watchfully to guard against their sleeping 
 into rapidly rising tides, for it has happened, 
 once at least, that one found himself embarrass-
 
 THE COCOON 37 
 
 ingly undressed by a single swish of an incom- 
 ing wave, with some resulting confusion. 
 
 Talking of the Butte, she's frightfully unpop- 
 ular, somehow, and so, of course, I warm to her. 
 They never told her about her playing at the 
 Brigand's door; but of course he knows it and 
 he runs for his life when she looms in sight. 
 
 Well, these are the dramatis personae of my 
 little comedy, up to date these with the usual 
 lot of subordinates, soldiers, chorus-girls, etc., in 
 this case trained nurses, doctors, tray-boys and, 
 of course, worms mainly worms. All the 
 stars are worms, you understand. 
 
 There's an antiquity-shop in the village, Dear, 
 and I've found a perfectly lovely pair of George 
 Washington andirons, just iron, but with a ped- 
 igree to make your hair curl. I haven't bought 
 them yet, exactly, but wad, Dear no, WAD 
 please. You see, they are the only pair and I'm 
 not the only woman of taste in this calaboose. 
 We'd never forgive ourselves if we let them slip. 
 
 Do let me alone about that Miss Carter. Of 
 course, I intend to look her up; but remember, 
 there are hundreds of people here and she never
 
 38 THE COCOON 
 
 shows herself. If she came to the roof or took 
 treatments we might run against each other. 
 
 I do meet a few semi-amusing people when we 
 are going around in our sheets, in the treatment- 
 rooms, but the greatest time is when we are only 
 a row of heads poking out of the tops of the 
 thermo-electric cabinets. It's really the only so- 
 cial function on the card, so necessarily limited. 
 
 There are a lot of them in line and sometimes 
 all are occupied and, as the line curves like a 
 crescent, it's sort o' sociable. I said to a dis- 
 tressed face topping the box next to mine the 
 other day, "Are you a whole woman, or just a 
 head? I'm only a head myself or a bust, rather ! 
 Everything else is steamed away and it's a 
 great relief." She didn't answer, but, from the 
 glance of alarm she gave the attendant, I am 
 sure she was glad I couldn't get out of my 
 steamer. 
 
 I don't know whether it's pathological or only 
 logical that these people should show no sense 
 of humour whatever, but it's tiresome, either 
 way. 
 
 They say she's a beauty, that Carter girl, but 
 they tap their foreheads when they mention her,
 
 THE COCOON 39 
 
 so I can't say I'm thirsting for that visit, exactly 
 but I'm going don't worry. " A friend of a 
 friend of Oglesby," you say? Of course, I'll go, 
 Dear. 
 
 And remember, WAD, and as I'm not tele- 
 graphing it, there'll be no time to spare. Georgie 
 will be divine, holding our logs, while Martha 
 smiles on him from the screen. 
 
 March 5th, or 6th. 
 
 (Sunshine tempered by a mackerel sky 
 and cocoonery in fine form.) 
 
 I'm having fun! 
 
 It's intrigue, Jack, and your " child wife " is 
 the conspirator. I've already explained that 
 everybody avoids the Butte (Do let me write her 
 thus, henceforth. I started to spell it " Beaut," 
 but that would be unkind. She's as plain as a 
 hippopotamus, though unlike). 
 
 Also, I've told you how she can always be 
 spotted in a landscape by her long braids which 
 look like jute. Indeed, a very young fellow here 
 who has one of those finnikin little minds that 
 run to trivial jokes, took out his note-book as 
 she passed, one day, remarking, " I'm just writ-
 
 40 THE COCOON 
 
 ing down jute as a handy rhyme for Butte." 
 
 " Yes, and brute is another/' I threw back at 
 him. I couldn't help it. I hate underbred per- 
 sonalities. He writes squibs for humour-pages 
 and has an expression of expecting-to-be-laughed- 
 at whenever he opens his mouth and I imagine 
 price-tags on all his little jokes mainly " 30c." 
 I know he hates me, but I'm not worrying, but 
 I don't see why he keeps hanging around. They 
 say he was a cracker-jack reporter before he 
 fell ill. He's here " recuperating," of course. 
 Everybody is. 
 
 But the conspiracy: 
 
 The Brigand, you know, is an unequivocal 
 person. He either loves or he hates; and just 
 as violently as he detests the Butte, he admires 
 your sister; and, strange to say, equally is the 
 Butte distasteful to the Canadian. 
 
 She's a parlour-elocutionist, poor huge thing, 
 and she recited one of the Canadian's poems in 
 the chapel here the other evening in a sort of 
 vaudeville of resident talent, did it " with mo- 
 tions " and awful flights, and when she had done 
 the author was not there. He had escaped 
 through an open window, into the night
 
 THE COCOON 41 
 
 I had. heard the poem before in the poet's 
 cultured voice, on the roof, and even I suffered 
 in her rendition. Her notes were as the winds 
 of March shrieking through the garden of the 
 gods. 
 
 But I keep getting away from the conspiracy 
 and the fun. 
 
 You understand, Dear, the object of the co- 
 coonery is rest-in-the-open. No cocoon is sup- 
 posed to become a social centre. Well, mine 
 was being threatened. It's considered quite 
 allowable for a comrade to stroll along and stop 
 for a word occasionally, unless the worm is 
 closely veiled and, of course, excepting in a 
 certain " Silent Section " to which I never go. 
 It's too deathlike. 
 
 But I have tried to hide tried variously. 
 I've gone up early before the crowd and had 
 Beauregarde Davis tuck me in and I've 
 changed my location, but somehow ? 
 
 It's my hair, Jack. You always declared it 
 was luminous and I believe you are right. Cer- 
 tainly, its slightest vagrant strand will catch 
 the sunlight, somehow. I often believe myself 
 safely hidden in my bunk and the first thing I
 
 42 THECOCOON 
 
 know, a tall shadow looms and a Voice asks if 
 it is intruding (" ahsks " it, in fine limpid Eng- 
 lish), and I tell the social lie universal and be- 
 fore you could say Jack Robinson, the Canadian 
 has camp-stooled himself beside me and is 
 " ahsking my candid opinion " of an original 
 poem which he " reads " from an imaginary 
 book, or regaling me with anecdotes of well 
 known personages, none of whom has he pro- 
 fessed to know, which is very modest of him. Of 
 course, I like it. Who wouldn't and he the 
 most attractive man here? 
 
 Besides, he is, in some occult way, appealing. 
 I can't quite describe it. It's the intangible 
 something that made me guess him to be a 
 widower. Sometimes I suspect that he has a 
 secret sorrow and when he gets pretty close, as 
 in reciting some delicate passage with telling 
 effect, I feel half frightened lest he should sud- 
 denly entrust me with some awful confidence. I 
 don't mean a declaration. That would be un- 
 speakable and would instantly quash all these 
 merriment proceedings, for, of course, in such a 
 calamity, I'd have to reveal myself in my true 
 colours.
 
 THE COCOON 43 
 
 As things are now, my position is wholly neg- 
 ative and I've done nothing. They take me 
 for a girl and I just drift along and I'm tell- 
 ing the only person who would have a right to 
 object. But, of course, the Canadian will never 
 do anything impulsive or ill-advised not a 
 gentleman of English blood; and taking him by 
 and large, he contributes greatly to my semi- 
 contentment here. 
 
 All of which, though very pleasant, isn't ex- 
 actly restful, you'll agree, and I'm doing this co- 
 coon stunt to get well and strong doing it for 
 you, Beloved, and for nations yet unborn, if 
 the gods are kind, and I owe it to you and to 
 them to do it as expeditiously as possible. You 
 understand, don't you, Dear? 
 
 And isn't it great that there's nothing wrong 
 with me but tire just tire? and "With rest 
 and sane living" there's hope for everything. 
 I'm so glad we had this all threshed out before 
 I came to this place so I don't have to take any- 
 body into my confidence, and I tell you, Jacky 
 dear, this girl business has its advantages. It's 
 the first time in five years when I've been among 
 strangers over-night that some one haen't asked
 
 44 THECOCOON 
 
 me if I had any children. I suppose it would 
 be expecting too much to have the world realise 
 how this question stabs the childless woman. 
 
 And it has other advantages, too, this being 
 a girl again other advantages besides the 
 questionable one of the personal tribute of the 
 detached male. Of course I realise I'm declin- 
 ing the open gate for these diverting byways, 
 but I'm escaping all the same. 
 
 I notice that the women exchange glances and 
 edit their recitals about their surgical experi- 
 ences when I appear, and one good woman even 
 remarked in a stage whisper quite in my hear- 
 ing, " Sh ! She's only an innocent girl an' I 
 know I wouldn't thank anybody for telling my 
 daughter such things. I think the less a girl 
 knows about life the better for her. She ain't 
 half so liable to turn against it." 
 
 " That's just w r hat I always say," agreed her 
 neighbour. " I know when I was married, I 
 didn't know a thing. Why, I was 'most as tall 
 as my mother when I used to slip out into the 
 cabbage-patch and search any suspiciously big 
 heads to see if I could find any trace of the 
 babies, I was that pure-minded and it was
 
 THE COCOON 45 
 
 just as well. Now they tell me the girls and 
 young men go together to eugenic play-acting 
 and lectures. I can't help wondering what 
 they'll have to talk about after they get married. 
 They'll discuss books then, I reckon." 
 
 " Yes, and that ain't the worst of it," sighed 
 the other, shifting an ice-bag on her person as 
 she spoke, " that ain't the worst of it. They say 
 the girls are losing interest, now everything is 
 explained. I suppose if I'd known as much be- 
 forehand as I do now, I wouldn't be holding ice- 
 bags over surgeon's stitches the way I am to- 
 day. I'd 've had the foresight to keep clear of 
 it and yet, taking it all in all, I'm glad I 
 didn't know any better, for I've got nice children 
 if I do say it; but if things keep on the way 
 they're going, we'll have a race of old maids, I 
 suppose." 
 
 This was down on the beach porch, and w r hen 
 presently the speakers went in, a superior voice 
 threw out from behind a book : " Where do you 
 suppose those ladies are from? " and instantly a 
 mannish chirp from a nest of quilts in a steamer- 
 chair replied: 
 
 " Oh, they're from Bungaloton down in Bun-
 
 46 THE COCOON 
 
 galocust County where they cultivate Bunga- 
 lotus flowers for eastern bungalos." And push- 
 ing back the covers, the little joke-man emerged 
 and tripped away, looking like a picked chicken. 
 You know he's lost his hair. He is funny! 
 
 But oh, Jack, isn't the average American a di- 
 verting creature ! Living in New York as we do, 
 with picked minds for daily social fare, and go- 
 ing to hear the questions of the hour threshed 
 out by the picked of the picked and presented 
 coherently, it is delicious to come across the un- 
 tutored play of thought in the remote fringes of 
 progress. 
 
 As I lay in my bunk, reflecting on this na'ive 
 discussion, I sent up a little prayer and thanks- 
 giving, too, on our account, yours and mine. 
 Isn't it a blessing to know that we are eugen- 
 ically sound, you and I, so we needn't fear when 
 we know he or she is on the way to us or 
 they! How I'd love for it to be they! Two 
 you's or two me's or one of each of us ! 
 
 Oh, if only this may be our reward for this 
 incarceration! My prospective wellness for its 
 own sake pales before this looming joy. Think 
 of longing to be well, just to be strong enough to
 
 THECOCOON 47 
 
 assume the master pain, Dearest but oh, the 
 master reward! 
 
 You know how I always longed for a boy 
 or boys but I want to tell you now that I'm 
 quite willing to have anything you want, even 
 just one girl (one at a time, I mean) ; but don't 
 require me to bequeath the poor little thing my 
 yellow hair. I know whereof I speak and yel- 
 low hair on the head of an even semi-serious 
 woman with a suspicion of an intellect is a fear- 
 ful handicap. I'm feeling it right now, in this 
 warfare. 
 
 If, for instance, I were a dark-haired, demure 
 woman with a profile like Dante or George Eliot 
 or Seneca, I could lie out in my cocoon and take 
 all the benefactions of the roof without inter- 
 ruption; or if my soul matched my giddy little 
 head throughout (I don't deny that even it has 
 its yellow-haired side) things would be simpli- 
 fied and I'd take the roofs chances of fun with- 
 out a qualm. 
 
 But to return to more worthy thought I'm 
 reading up on eugenics like mad. Got the book 
 out o' the library here. Maybe when the time 
 comes for us, we'll have arrived at something
 
 48 THE COCOON 
 
 definite, so that I can say to you, in effect, " If 
 you'll keep your hands off my boy, I'll promise 
 not to interfere with your girl," which will mean 
 that I can have my dark-haired, high-fore- 
 headed, intellectual little son, just like you 
 and won't it be too cunning if he's just near- 
 sighted enough to have to wear your specs? You 
 know, dear, near-sight in youth means normal 
 vision at the other end, when gifts are sparse 
 and precious, so there's no harm in wishing our 
 Junior to have your dear eyes to begin with. 
 
 Oh, Jack, when I think of him, I can hardly 
 wait; and even if you insist on thinking my 
 trivial hair onto his innocent head, I'll not say a 
 word. Isn't it great fun to blame you if he in- 
 herits my hair? Oh, Jack! 
 
 But talking about the children, Jack, a new 
 thought has come to me here, out of the blue, a 
 great thought. You see, with no invitations or 
 telephones or anything to break the monotony, 
 whenever I'm not doing anything formal, I'm 
 thinking and most of all, I think of the home, 
 our dear home in which we have realised so 
 much of joy, and which has yet, in some intangi-
 
 THE COCOON 49 
 
 ble way, failed of the full satisfaction it prom- 
 ised. 
 
 And from that I began to consider other 
 homes, as they appear, modest homes chiefly, 
 looking for joy-signs, and then, getting down and 
 down in the scale, I seemed to come to great 
 places where numbers of people lived together 
 only because there seemed no other way, until I 
 found myself standing at the door of an orphan 
 asylum. 
 
 I needn't tell you I hadn't sought the asylum. 
 To me they are dreadful places. Mother used 
 to be on the Board of Lady Managers of a lovely 
 one when I was little, a great stone mansion set 
 in grounds, with gardeners, and flower-beds in 
 long rows and fancy shapes and there were 
 "modern improvements," I remember, artificial 
 aeration and cooking and sewing classes, and 
 what they had the nerve to call " family pray- 
 ers " because all the little uniformed orphans 
 used to shout " Amen ! " as they rose from their 
 knees and filed out in procession, looking so seri- 
 ous and weak-eyed and clean. 
 
 Mother used to take me with her on Board
 
 50 
 
 days, sometimes, and I remember the girls sit- 
 ting on benches in the yard crocheting yards 
 and yards of cotton lace of the same pattern, 
 and sometimes mother would buy it and have it 
 sewed on my pantalettes, and whenever I wore 
 them, I'd seem to see the pale girls in rows at 
 work, sometimes measuring their lace, one with 
 another, and talking a little lower than the chil- 
 dren I knew talked when they were together. 
 
 I remember even the baby ward as a depress- 
 ing place each baby tagged with its name and 
 number and one day when I was there I 
 begged to hold one of the babies and the nursery 
 matron put a big-eyed, serious little thing in my 
 eager twelve-year-old arms and I began to love 
 and to hug it as we always had done our home 
 babies. 
 
 At first, the little thing braced itself against 
 my chest and eyed me wonderingly but pres- 
 ently, while I caressed it, it flung its thin arms 
 around my neck with a little cry and nearly 
 choked me to death and wouldn't let me go till 
 the matron cautiously forced its grip. 
 
 I was crying, too, when finally she took it 
 from me, for I was a sensitive little creature and
 
 51 
 
 I suppose, even then, strongly maternal. And I 
 am the same yet, Jack. Why, half my joy in 
 life now is in mothering you when you have 
 colds and things; and no one will ever know 
 what satisfaction I took in your bone-felon, 
 Jack. 
 
 It gave me my first chance to lose sleep on 
 your account, and sometimes it seems to me the 
 life of a woman is never full until she has some- 
 thing to lose sleep over once in awhile 
 something she loves. Not that I'd have you ever 
 get another bone-felon, for anything on earth; 
 but really, when you got better of that, and, as 
 Bridget would say, "middlin' independent," I 
 was lost for a while. 
 
 Then, you remember, you got the canary, and 
 we amused ourselves with his notes and his daily 
 needs for a while. But he was a bachelor bird 
 and he soon became monotonous, until the day 
 God sent me enlightenment and I knew that the 
 brave little fellow was singing his heart out to 
 some remote, abstract mate, and I went out and 
 brought home that cage of lady birds and let 
 him choose his partner and we started them in 
 housekeeping.
 
 52 THE COCOON 
 
 And then came the nest-making and watching 
 then the stirring and the joy of the little ones. 
 Oh, Jack, it's the way of life ! The only way to 
 fulness of joy! The young birds in the nest! 
 The children, the children! 
 
 In my study of homes, joy seemed to follow 
 the perambulator. Children's voices singing un- 
 der trees. The playing of " scales " on cracked 
 pianos. A rain-washed doll lying inside a small 
 gate joy-signs, all. 
 
 Only when I got to the imposing portal of the 
 big house where the unclaimed or unwanted 
 were collected, unparented and unloved ; only in 
 the affluent, poor, crowded, lonely asylum were 
 the joy-notes all missing. Even when the young 
 things took out their second-hand toys to play 
 (permission accorded with a glance at the clock 
 by a perfectly proper starched person in charge) 
 I noticed that there was slight interest shown 
 in them. The children all seemed to have their 
 eyes on the clock, too, for putting-away time. 
 
 Do I seem to be turning ultra-sentimental 
 I who am so frivolous generally? I am light 
 and volatile, Dear, but maybe it's mainly on the 
 surface.
 
 THE COCOON 53 
 
 Frivolity blooms in my hair, I know, and 
 dances in my feet and rings in my laughter, but 
 my heart is in the right place, Dear, and there 
 are times when it suffers and is lonely over 
 things which my head and my feet and my voice 
 ought to be able to help. 
 
 " What am I driving at? " I'm coming to 
 that, now. 
 
 It's adoption, Jack. To keep waiting, year 
 after year, until God in His own good time may 
 or may not give us a child fashioned after our 
 own selfish pattern, seems to me to be behaving 
 like selfish pigs and the orphan asylums filled 
 to overflowing with little tagged, love-needing 
 babies, already born babies who don't under- 
 stand a caress till they are taught. 
 
 Don't you think maybe we've thought of the 
 children just for our own sakes, Dear? I've 
 often wondered whatever became of the baby 
 who clung to my neck that time. Mother never 
 allowed me to go to the baby-ward again, be- 
 cause I talked in my sleep that night. 
 
 Think of our home, Jack, and our hearts and 
 all the warm room in them ! Maybe we've been 
 a wee bit too worldly, you and I not that I'm
 
 54 THE COCOON 
 
 half ready to turn ultra-pious. I'm not that 
 sort. But suppose we keep our eyes and hearts 
 open for the little one we so need and who needs 
 us. We'll be sure to find it or even them, in 
 time, if our hearts are wide open. 
 
 Miss Penny Perkins told me last winter that 
 in her settlement work she sometimes comes 
 across darling little cherubs which she has to 
 "place," and she is always sorry when she is 
 obliged to send them to the big mansions with 
 the long rows of little white beds. 
 
 Think it over, Dear, and don't answer till you 
 are good and ready. Of course, our own, if 
 Heaven be so good, will come along, just the 
 same, and have something to inherit beyond self- 
 ishness. 
 
 We'll tell him or her I'd just as lief have it 
 a little girl, first; you always wanted a girl, and 
 I'm not keen about a boy till there's some chance 
 for him to take after you so we can tell her, 
 I say, that she's " adopted," and give her to un- 
 derstand that adoption is a high honour and 
 means that she was " chosen " and for love of 
 us all and we can train her to be a good older 
 sister Oh, Jack! Oh, I'm sure we'll be do-
 
 THE COCOON 55 
 
 ing right, and happiness will flow in to us as 
 a gift of Heaven, as it always does when we for- 
 get all about it and get busy doing something 
 worth while. 
 
 I feel ever so much better, now it's all out, 
 Dear. I fancy it won't attract you much, at 
 first, but once you let the thought in, it grows 
 on you. You see, for one thing, taking the self- 
 ish side, there's surety in it. We know we can 
 have our pick of adoptable babies and we can 
 begin to get ready at once. And don't let's tell 
 a soul ; not even your sister Laura. 
 
 We'll find the baby I'll go reconnoitering 
 first, then I'll call you in and we'll select to- 
 gether and I'll fit her out in dinky little 
 clothes, and, if necessary, we'll even take her 
 away for a little trip to get her chubby and 
 strong before we invite the relations in. 
 
 Oh, Jack, when I think of it, and how near it 
 may be, I can hardly wait to get out of this 
 place. But, of course, I must get especially 
 well for all these kinds of motherhood. And 
 you'll have to hurry and make money, for they 
 say the cost of a motor-car isn't in it with the 
 modern perambulator and all it means.
 
 56 THE COCOON 
 
 Buy a Montessori book, right off, Jack, and 
 let's study it up. We'll give the little thing the 
 best there is in life, if we know how. 
 
 But dear, dear! Where did I leave off? Oh, 
 yes. I was telling you about the Canadian and 
 the roof comedy when I got off on the subject of 
 the children and that's always a labyrinth in 
 which I'm lost. 
 
 But listen, now, Jack and follow me closely, 
 for I need your support and your sympathy. 
 Realise the situation. If it isn't the Canadian, 
 whose name, by the way, is Archibald La Rue, 
 followed by an alphabet some habitant blood 
 there, I suspect I say, if it isn't he, it's some- 
 body else. Several of the youngish M.D.'s have 
 a way of coming, especially an awfully nice fel- 
 low called Welborn and conspicuously unmar- 
 ried, somehow. Well, they just stroll along and 
 chat a moment, generally making it known that 
 they want to make sure I am comfy, don't you 
 know? 
 
 The Bandit Brigand, I mean to say 
 never comes, and never will. I have some force 
 of character left. Occasionally the wee joke- 
 man happens along, sparkles like a firefly and
 
 THE COCOON 57 
 
 flits. He is so short that standing is the social 
 attitude for him. 
 
 Well, now listen: (and try not to blame me 
 too much; it's every bit for you). 
 
 I want to go home. I must be let alone and I 
 positively will not go into that dreadful " Silent 
 Section," where those long-haired men and short- 
 haired women foregather with their writing-pads 
 to let each other alone. By the way, they say 
 lots of poets and other cranks come here just to 
 work. They're the chief Silent Sectioners. 
 But I'll protect myself in the open. I'll study 
 the stars or say the multiplication-table both 
 ways, beginning in the middle, if I want to. 
 Since I'm to be a worm, I'll turn like one. 
 
 Well, here's what I did : 
 
 I drove to the village and bought one of those 
 hideous jute braids such as those with which our 
 poor negro women disfigure their heads, and I 
 tied a huge red bow on the end of it, exactly like 
 the Butte's got early into my cot and, giv- 
 ing Beauregarde Davis time to get busy at the 
 opposite end of the roof, I watched my chance 
 and slipped the braid out over my pillow, pulled 
 in my head and went to sleep.
 
 58 THECOCOON 
 
 It was my best day. Not a soul came. 
 
 For three consecutive forenoons I worked this 
 trick, with slight variations three blissful 
 mornings. But yesterday ah, woe is me! 
 While I lay, fairly soaking rest and giggling in 
 my soul over it, I was suddenly roused by a fa- 
 miliar tread and opened my eyes to see through 
 my veil whom but the Canadian, stopping short 
 in his walk and looking from my cot to another 
 across the roof from which the Butte herself was 
 rising ! 
 
 Of course, the game's up. I lay breathless 
 and waited, but not for long. Before I could 
 still my thumping heart, the Brigand loomed, ap- 
 proached gingerly, looked both ways and 
 snorted. (He hasn't the breeding of the Cana- 
 dian. ) 
 
 Then the two men went their separate ways. 
 They are not friends. And, by the way, I was 
 right. The Brigand is a promoter and from 
 about everywhere. He is said to be at this mo- 
 ment dickering with old Dr. Jacques for this sea- 
 front, either with or without the Sanitarium. 
 
 It seems he represents " Eastern Capital " and 
 his Company wants to establish an "Amphibi-
 
 THECOCOON 59 
 
 ous Motor" plant, and the exceptional sea-and- 
 sky space attract them here, with the further 
 advantage of a deep channel near shore, so that 
 their " Amphibs " may plunge from aerial 
 heights, diving like sea-gulls. 
 
 Won't it be fun for the patients, if they build 
 it next door, so to speak? The Doctor owns a 
 mile or so of frontage here and backage, too, 
 for that matter. They say there's any kind of 
 mine one might ask for on his land, and so it be- 
 hooves him to sell any frontage he can spare to 
 finance the mines. I'm trying to talk business, 
 Dear. I made all that out of my own head 
 about " financing " and it sounds pretty well 
 to me. He does own the land. 
 
 But think what fun it will be when the Am- 
 phibs give a regatta ! They watch the porpoises 
 now, the poor patients do, but Mr. Porpoise 
 won't be in it with the 'Phibs. 
 
 He's really great fun, the Brigand, loud as 
 loquacious and, with it all, he's as artless as a 
 school-boy. By the way, Dear, I've been intend- 
 ing to ask you, what is the meaning of " Western 
 Reserve"? I know I've heard the expression 
 somewhere. Well, he hasn't it.
 
 60 THECOCOON 
 
 I wonder what makes me meander so when I'm 
 writing to you. I seem to be leaving myself on the 
 roof, in sight of the Butte, and with my replica 
 of her braid in full evidence; but not so. She 
 couldn't have seen it from her cot, if she'd been 
 looking, and when she rose, it was no trick at all 
 for me to shift my position and haul in my cable. 
 Then, when she had gone and my neighbours had 
 dispersed, I rose and casually strolled away. 
 
 But I was excited. I felt like an adventuress, 
 and cruel, which is worse. When I got to my 
 room, I threw myself on my bed, fairly shivering 
 from mixed emotions, chiefly terror. I simply 
 couldn't be caught at this sort of thing. And 
 my escape was narrow, assuming that it was an 
 escape. 
 
 I was no company for myself, I assure you, 
 so I rang and cancelled my supper-tray order and 
 dressed and went down to the dining-room, my 
 second appearance there. 
 
 I wore that dream-chiffon and your pearl 
 heart, slippers to match the dress and my ma- 
 donna expression. And, Jack, if looks count for 
 anything, no one would have believed me crim- 
 inal, even if I'd been caught in the act.
 
 61 
 
 If I'd been arrested in Hell ('sense the word) 
 and said I was trying to find Heaven and had 
 lost my way, Pluto would have dropped his fork 
 and bowed politely while he called Proserpine 
 or one of the children to hold off the dog and 
 see ine safely out, unmolested. I'm sure of it. 
 
 It was a pretty big bluff, for my size, Jacky 
 dear, but I was hard-pressed. At the dining- 
 room door, whom should I meet but the Cana- 
 dian, face to face, and from his frank smile I 
 read that all was well in that quarter. With 
 the gentlest bow r , almost as deferential as an 
 American's, he came forward : 
 
 " We've been missing you, Miss Heminway? " 
 (Rising inflection.) 
 
 " pleasant on the roof, to-day?" (My in- 
 flection Englished up also.) 
 
 " Lonely," was his answer. ( His very first 
 personality.) 
 
 " Lonely inside, too ! " No, Jack, I didn't say 
 it. It said itself just took my honest tongue 
 and used it, and I was as powerless to help it as 
 I would be to darken my hair or pull down my 
 nose or turn that crazy dimple wrong-side out 
 into a peak.
 
 62 THE COCOON 
 
 Telling it now, the whole episode sounds in- 
 ane, but it was exciting, and as it has afforded 
 me my only uninterrupted rest since the first 
 day, perhaps it was justified. 
 
 Anyway the jute braid has served its limit, but 
 I have another scheme for to-morrow or, maybe, 
 next day. 
 
 I may take a day off, just showing up casually 
 in the interval, to ward off suspicion and, too, 
 to get over all this a little. It has given me a 
 terrible shake-up. 
 
 But I'm really improving wonderfully, Jack, 
 although my rest seems a little broken, as one 
 might say. Indeed, there are times when I feel 
 almost too well. 
 
 "All the functions smart," said the old Doc- 
 tor yesterday. He's an old dear, but he hasn't 
 the social vernacular. He little knows what a 
 " smart function " means to me or why I'm 
 here. 
 
 In one sense, I'm having a perfect rest, for 
 I am resting ab-so-lute-ly from the things I 
 care for most even resting from my Beloved. 
 And I'm resting from responsibilities (plural, 
 observe) from the trivial things which wear
 
 THE COCOON 63 
 
 on one, like gnats getting into one's eyes. 
 
 A lion in one's path is worth while if only for 
 the high sport of vanquishing him but gnats ! 
 Servants! Bills! Mistakes in bills! The tele- 
 phone! Wrong wash sent home! Eight wash 
 not sent out! Telephone! Soft ice-cream! 
 Subsided souffl6 ! Wrong entree sent in from ca- 
 terers, doubling home course guests already 
 arriving, too late to change! Telephone! 
 Swapping " days-out " with Bridget ! Telephone 
 won't work! Telephone bill says telephone 
 worked over time! Callers and telephone ad- 
 juster and C. O. D. parcel " to be tried on " all 
 arrive at same moment with Angelic Husband 
 who wonders why wife didn't arrange to have 
 them call separately. Tears! Coaxing! Tem- 
 porary control then hysteria Angelic Hus- 
 band assumes all blame and calls himself a 
 brute ! Reconciliation and gr-r-r-r-eat happiness 
 followed by "nerve disturbance" and then 
 this place! 
 
 Ach! Gnats! Gnats which feed the divorce 
 lawyers and keep institutions like this out of 
 bankruptcy. Gnats ! 
 
 Why, there are times when just the memories
 
 64 THE COCOON 
 
 of them swarm so that I have to take my mind 
 forcibly by the back of its neck and turn it into 
 other channels 'scuse the mixed metaphor 
 but I'm lots better. I even see how I may come 
 to enjoy the gnats, after a while, for your sake. 
 I know a more demure woman with safer lines 
 and quieter colouring might get well faster, but 
 maybe she wouldn't get so jolly well. I begin 
 to feel it sizzling through me already, the gleeful 
 wellness. 
 
 Good night, Boy! 
 Your-hard-put-to-it 
 but DEVOTED, 
 lonely BLESSY. 
 
 Next Day. 
 (And the sea whistling.) 
 
 Well, I really did get to see the Carter last 
 night, Dear, and she's a rare beauty, exquisite 
 as a seashell, but with a haunting something in 
 her face, half like a memory. I seemed to have 
 seen her before, in a dream. Her hands lay in 
 her lap like Easter lilies. She's a great beauty, 
 and isn't it awful? 
 
 " Social overdoing," they say, the same old
 
 THE COCOON 65 
 
 story. I found her amiable but reticent, so I 
 chirped along, and after a while, just to bring 
 her into the talk, I asked her ever so gently what 
 interested her most here and she answered un- 
 blushingly : 
 
 "The hell-hounds!" 
 
 Then, before I had time to recover, she turned 
 her sad eyes upon me and said, " KISMET." 
 
 No, they don't take any insane here. Really, 
 they don't, and I'm beginning to understand. 
 Whenever there's no " organic lesion," whatever 
 that is it sounds like a pianola attachment for 
 an organ anyway, when they don't have it, 
 they get well, and go home cured. They are do- 
 ing it every day. 
 
 And remember, I'm going home with you when 
 you come, Dear, lesion or no lesion. I just 
 thought I'd tell you. I'm tired asking the doc- 
 tor and being put off. But I must make good 
 with these kind people here before I go. 
 
 There's the Brigand and the Canadian 
 and sundry young M.D.'s and the humour- 
 page poet, et als yes, and the poor visiting 
 lady whom I snubbed so successfully that she no 
 longer dares tell me how she loves me. I've even
 
 66 THECOCOON 
 
 come over to her. She's so pitiful. She'd be all 
 right if she were exploiting some other commod- 
 ity, but love! As an advocate of stern and for- 
 bidding DUTY, she'd be perfect. Half the fail- 
 ures in this life are from arbitrary assignments. 
 You see, I'm trying to talk up to your great in- 
 tellect, John Dartmouth Heminway. 
 
 What a terrific chore it must be for a worthy 
 but vinegar-visaged person like that to have to 
 go the rounds in a menagerie like this, and to 
 offer sugar to the beasts only to have them growl 
 at her and show their teeth! 
 
 Life is the great tragedy, beloved; not death. 
 Before I leave this paradise, which it really is, I 
 assure you, to the spiritually discerning, I mean 
 to take that thwarted visiting-lady's freckled 
 hand in mine and tell her I love her, and it will 
 be true. But it must be the very last word, at 
 the door. She mustn't have time for reciproca- 
 tion. I'm too nervous yet. My spirit is grow- 
 ing in grace but the flesh is weak. Here 
 comes the mail ! 
 
 Two Days Later. 
 
 I can't date this. I know it's Saturday and 
 the wind's from the east and something like
 
 THECOCOON 67 
 
 snow-flakes swirl through the air, down here in 
 Virginia, and the sea is a floppy wet blanket. 
 (It's hailing, too, and thundering, inside me.) 
 
 I've done it, Jack, the other trick and I'm 
 nearly crazy ! Did it to-day ! But it was great ! 
 The jute racket was tame to it. Poor Butte! I 
 seem to be making a butt of her, but I'm not. 
 I'm only using the material at hand and if she's 
 material, is it my fault? 
 
 My plan was to work the same trick, from the 
 other end. I pinned one of my yellow curls on 
 her pillow as I sauntered by the cot in which she 
 lay deeply immured, then crawled into my own, 
 and watched the fun. 
 
 I knew her cot by the flute which lay beside it 
 and was fortunate in finding her audibly asleep. 
 She sleeps a good deal now, in the daytime. It 
 was early in the afternoon; only two other cots 
 occupied at our end, and sleep echoes coming 
 from both. 
 
 And so, as I said, I just strolled past her co- 
 coon, stood a moment looking outward till I had 
 managed to drop my veil over the flute, and while 
 I stooped to pick them up together, nothing could 
 have been simpler than to slip the curl with an
 
 68 THECOCOON 
 
 invisible hairpin onto her poor head that is, 
 on the pillow beside it, just beyond her possible 
 field of vision to find my own cocoon, to scram- 
 ble into it and close up, in a position command- 
 ing the situation. 
 
 For an endless time nothing happened and I 
 was finally dropping into sleep from sheer weari- 
 ness, with the flute against my heart, when the 
 fortuitous tramp of the Brigand, who material- 
 ised quite near me pulling his soft hat down over 
 his eyes better to scan the roof, stopped my heart 
 entirely. 
 
 I saw him when he first sighted the yellow 
 curl and began to veer toward it, but before he 
 had reached it, a vociferous snort and then an- 
 other startled the roof. The Butte was dead to 
 the world. 
 
 I never saw the Brigand convulsed before. 
 His great joints fairly rattled and as he sham- 
 bled away, unconsciously grazing my pillow as 
 he passed, I heard him chuckle : 
 
 " Well. That's one on Goldie-locks." 
 
 He never doubted that I was the snorer. I 
 hardly think such snoring is habitual with the 
 Butte. It couldn't be with any woman. It was
 
 THE COCOON 69 
 
 too awful, too cataclysmic to last, but its three 
 or four blasts waked the cocoonery. 
 
 You know the kind like that of your apo- 
 plectic friend who week-ended with us that sum- 
 mer at Oyster Bay. Do you remember how 
 Bridget came running in to us at three o'clock 
 in the morning, crying that there was a hog in 
 the dining-room, and you rushed down to dis- 
 cover that our guest, finding his room rather 
 close, had risen in search of a breeze and had 
 fallen asleep in the veranda hammock? Well, 
 the Butte's snorting was even worse than that. 
 Poor old Hendriksen ! How mortified he would 
 have been if he had known ! 
 
 Well, Jack dear, this is how the comedy of the 
 roof began. As all the cocoons are on a level, of 
 course no one had noticed the curl or suspected 
 anything. When the brief paroxysm had passed, 
 the Butte slept along fairly quietly, although she 
 is one of those whom one can always hear sleep, 
 being as you might say a hearty person. 
 
 But the afternoon was drowsy, warmish and 
 tense, and your sister was getting every possible 
 chance at the sleep she was too excited to take, 
 when things began happening. Several of her
 
 70 THE COCOON 
 
 acquaintances tiptoed inquiringly among the 
 cots, saw the lure, heard the sleep and passed on. 
 
 One even ventured near enough to lay a bunch 
 of roses over her alleged feet and noiselessly 
 creep away. Then presently came the Canadian 
 and I felt myself blushing up to my temples, all 
 alone in my cocoon. His well-bred presence 
 seemed to give the whole thing its proper rating 
 and I was suddenly heartily ashamed of it. To 
 make matters worse, I was supposed to be ex- 
 pecting him, as he had asked the privilege of 
 fetching a bit of verse for my " candid criticism," 
 a poem entitled " The Droning of the Spring." 
 
 After a swift sweeping survey, he sped, camp- 
 stool in hand, straight as an arrow to the cot of 
 the yellow curl where audibly slept the young 
 lady of Butte whose silver-gilt flute lay in my 
 bosom. 
 
 How my heart played upon it, as I watched 
 him! Had it been a stringed instrument, it 
 must have responded with a wail, but my breath- 
 less panic could not call it into life, fortunately. 
 
 I watched him take his seat; saw him open 
 his book and begin to turn pages; then I either 
 heard or imagined that I heard his soft, " not
 
 THE COCOON 71 
 
 intruding? " and in a moment, I fancied myself 
 following the measures of the verse as his well 
 modulated voice rose and fell with the rhythm. 
 I confess, it sounded just a wee bit mellifluous 
 to me, as I listened, but that may unconsciously 
 have been suggested by the title, although I can- 
 not deny that the poem has a honeyed cadence. 
 
 He has talent, this Canadian, if not a glint 
 of genius. You must know him. You'd be thick 
 as thieves in no time. 
 
 The Butte is a sound sleeper if a tragic one 
 and I suspect that the Canadian as an author 
 is a bit egoistic, as otherwise he would surely 
 have divined that she whom he sought was not 
 there. Authors reading their own creations 
 sometimes seem oblivious to the world. So, 
 saturated with his own thought, the poet read 
 on and on. The droning droned out at last, 
 however ; but I soon discerned a resumption with 
 change of metre and all was going evenly once 
 more when there recurred the catastrophe of the 
 snore. I hope never to hear its like again. It 
 was high tragedy and, simultaneously with the 
 explosion, a great arm was thrust out, an arm 
 clad in a grey sweater, and then something
 
 72 THE COCOON 
 
 swirled and a long black braid actually flapped 
 a crimson bow into the face of the gentle Cana- 
 dian ! A confusion of quilts followed, and all in 
 a twinkling, the Butte was standing up, blink- 
 ing and neither Canadian nor camp-stool was 
 anywhere in sight. 
 
 To do her justice, I do not believe the Butte 
 had any idea that anybody had been there, for, 
 after gazing vacantly about her as one dazed, 
 she drawled: 
 
 " Well, I never. Dremp' I was in a saw-mill 
 an' such a funny buzzin', like water over a 
 wheel precizely. Ain't it re-dic'lous! " 
 
 And she was sinking down into her bunk again 
 when she descried the roses, fortunately turning 
 her* back upon my wretched little curl, which 
 flickered like a yellow flame upon her pillow, 
 scorching my eyes and burning into my soul. 
 
 " O-h ! " she gasped. " His yellow roses ! " 
 And burying her face in the flowers, she burst 
 into tears and hurried from the roof. 
 
 Time is up. I'm rushing this to mail. More 
 anon. 
 
 B. 
 
 Written in Diary late that night:
 
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 . 
 
 Oh, you Book of my Heart, chum, pal, confi- 
 dant and before we get through, perhaps my 
 confederate, even my accomplice for aided and 
 abetted by your receptivity and reticence, I could 
 essay anything. 
 
 How glad I am of you! although I come 
 empty to-night, for all that's brewing now I'm 
 telling Jack; and surely there's no news in this 
 reformatory ! 
 
 Oh, yes, there is, too. It's bats! I counted 
 sixty-seven as they flapped out of a broken pane 
 in the attic of the ten-pin alley yesterday. 
 Sixty-seven! Think of it! And sixty-six of 
 them I counted through the veil I flopped over 
 my head after number one. I'm afraid of a bat 
 as far off as I can distinguish one from a bird, 
 and that's about as far as I can see him. I be- 
 lieve Jack would almost send for me, if he knew. 
 Anyway, he'd worry. Every now and then we 
 have bat-scares down at Oyster Bay, when one 
 strays into our room in the night so Jack 
 knows ! 
 
 Even if they don't tangle themselves up in 
 women's hair, they look evil and I notice the art- 
 ists generally work them into any abominations
 
 74 THE COCOON 
 
 of desolation they are trying to picture, so I say 
 no bats for me! I even put out my light last 
 night and gave up reading lest one should dash 
 into my hair through the open window. They 
 may be devils, but these will be doing angels' 
 work if they get me more sleep. 
 
 Think of fleas and bats in this immaculate 
 place! I was wondering this morning how that 
 flea must have felt, finding himself in my cool 
 cambric and lace nightie-sleeve after being blown 
 out of the warm coat of those Frog Island col- 
 lies. I said it out aloud, not realising the pres- 
 ence of Malviny-May, who was brushing up my 
 hearth, until I saw her straighten up and lean 
 on her broom, as she chuckled: 
 
 " Frog Island fleas ! Yes, I know that's what 
 they say ; but have you took notice that the wind 
 that would blow 7 em from Frog Island would 
 have to pass over our Seafair stables? not 
 sayin' anythin'. But I know I haven't never 
 put my foot on Frog Island, but many a Sunday 
 evenin' have I caught a lively flea on my collar, 
 just passin' our barn an' no wind blowin' 
 neither not makin' any remarks. Of course, 
 you never know what's in the wind, an' it could
 
 THECOCOON 75 
 
 lift fleas off'n those kennels, if there was any 
 there, an' drop 'em on our barn if it was nec- 
 essary, I s'pose." 
 
 Then languidly resuming her sweeping, she 
 hesitated, but just for a moment. 
 
 " Dr. Welborn did have one o' the varmints 
 under a microscope here a while back an' I heard 
 'em discussin' the circulation of its blood which 
 he allowed me to put my eye to the glass an' look 
 at, an' it cert'n'y did circulate fine ; an' I told 'im 
 he hadn't ought to miss the chance to send a 
 drop of it down to the laboratory to find out 
 whether it was blue pedigree Collie blood or such 
 common red as our Seafair mongrel pups might 
 supply, an' I wish you could 'a' heard 'em laugh ; 
 not that I see where the joke come in. 
 
 " Michael, our head stable-man, he brags that 
 he's got more kinds o' dog in his stable than all 
 the Downer an' Leffingwell kennels put together 
 an' they're all in five dogs, no two alike. He 
 allows he likes 'em that a-way because he says, 
 in a mixed drink is every kind of a drunk. He 
 runs on just to pass the time, Michael does." 
 
 Really, Bookie, this strikes my funny-bone so 
 that I'm tempted to tell Jack about it. I really
 
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 must but we'll keep the bats to ourselves. 
 Dear old Jack! And to think how I used to 
 doubt him and fairly writhe in jealousy. Noth- 
 ing on earth would have power to make me dis- 
 trust him now nothing! Isn't that sort of 
 faith great? And we've arrived at it through the 
 daily wear and tear of five long years of steady 
 companionship. This is our first separation and 
 God grant it may be brief ! 
 
 Why, my faith is such that if Jack were to 
 break an engagement to dine at home in New 
 York on account of "a Directors' meeting" 
 ( which, of course, should not occur at the dinner 
 hour) and I should learn that he had gone to 
 Coney Island with a chorus girl, I'd know she 
 had been needed at the meeting and that they 
 were holding it down by the sea for business rea- 
 sons. Of course, Jack never does anything like 
 that. I'm only imagining an extreme case. 
 
 And so, Bookie, dear, I hope you realise that 
 the temperamental little goose who bedaubed 
 your pages with ill-founded anguish in our cal- 
 low days comes back to you now a happy woman, 
 secure in the faith of the best man on earth. 
 
 I've just sent him one letter at the last mail-
 
 THE COCOON 77 
 
 ing moment and then kept on writing him a vol- 
 ume right out of my heart, to go to-morrow, tell- 
 ing him of all my frivolities. It's a test of con- 
 fidence to write page after page of volatile stuff 
 to a serious-minded man like Jack, but I know 
 him and I can hear him chuckle over my giddiest 
 escapade. 
 
 His mother wore her hair in bandeaux over 
 her ears and dressed in gros grain silk with 
 cameo brooch and lace fichu every day, and she 
 read " Jay's Morning and Evening Exercises " 
 to liim, daily, and selections from Paley's " Evi- 
 dences " on Sundays and he married me for a 
 change, Jack did. And he got it, too, poor Jack ! 
 
 But here I sit gabbling and I promised myself 
 to take some of these New York roses to that 
 poor Miss Carter Jack will waste his good 
 money sending me flowers for every anniver- 
 sary 
 
 To-day is the sixth anniversary of the fourth 
 and last time I engaged myself to him after 
 that dreadful row that started by his refusing to 
 tell me his fraternity pass-word, you remember. 
 Oh, Bookie, wasn't I a little idiot? 
 
 And Jack never forgets any of them and these
 
 78 THE COCOON 
 
 four, with our wedding-day and Christmas and 
 New Year's and Easter and my birthday and off 
 and on occasions, why they keep him busy. 
 Somehow, his commemorating all our re-engage- 
 ments as he does always seems a gentle reproof 
 to me, but I don't let on. 
 
 But I really must go, or the wee Carter 5 !! be 
 in bed. I'll take her some of Jack's chocolate 
 creams, too, I believe, poor distrait little human ! 
 She has evidently worked on Jack's sympathies 
 through her friends, for he confesses he doesn't 
 know her. He's a dear, softie old saint is my 
 Jack! 
 
 Think of a man in his position bringing home 
 whining little gutter kittens in his overcoat 
 pocket ! Three of them I've wrestled with, given 
 the bottle to and seen die, in these five years ! 
 
 I never could stand cats and neither could 
 Jack, till his sister gave me Muff and of course 
 Muffly couldn't be given away; but Jack can't 
 stand to see anything suffer, and, I tell you, 
 Bookie, he's had lots of it from me. I've been 
 little better than a whining sick kitten to him 
 more than once, dear, dear Jack! 
 
 All the women like Jack, and I'm glad of it.
 
 THECOCOON 79 
 
 I'm proud to have him popular that is, general 
 popularity. It's funny how these slight, thin- 
 haired, near-sighted men like Jack always make 
 good with women. I've noticed it and I suppose 
 it's just because they're clever and don't seem to 
 care a cent and then they have ways. 
 
 I often wonder what I'd have done if I'd mar- 
 ried that handsome noodle, my sister Mary's hus- 
 band. (He asked me first. Then he sobered 
 down and came to himself and got a far better 
 wife, lucky man!) He suits her down to the 
 ground and he's the pattern of a brother-in-law; 
 but for daily fare, all that ponderous present- 
 ment of good looks as compared to my Jack ! ! ! 
 But I must go ! 
 
 Five O'clock next Morning Daylight, 
 
 and I haven't closed my eyes. 
 Oh, my heart, my heart! 
 What shall I do? Where go? 
 Oh, Book-of-my-Broken-Heart ! All night 
 long I've lain here in cold storage staring out 
 over the sea all night but once when I just 
 couldn't stand it a minute longer and I got up, 
 threw on my cloak and started for the roof. I
 
 80 THE COCOON 
 
 had to get away from everything for a while, 
 and I thought the stars might help, but it was 
 no use. Everything seemed deceitful and catty. 
 Even the sea was purring. 
 
 Besides, I soon found I wasn't alone. Several 
 of the patients sleep up there. I knew it, but 
 I'd forgotten. And in the alcove beyond the 
 south tower two people were huddled close to- 
 gether, whispering. He looked half like Dr. 
 Welborn, somehow, the man did, and something 
 told me she was that smiling girl that works 
 the static, that pretty one that colours so 
 when she speaks; but I may be doing her injus- 
 tice. If it was she, no doubt they'd come up 
 here to consult about some case. The days are 
 so full. 
 
 Isn't it strange how I can prate of casual 
 things this way and my heart breaking? 
 And I find that the roof-steward sleeps inside, 
 just as the doctors do. It's as if the medical 
 profession were turning their patients out-of- 
 doors and then getting into their beds. 
 
 Any old talk, dear Book, about any old thing 
 just to keep from thinking. Oh, oh, oh!!! 
 If only I could wake and find it all a dream !
 
 THE COCOON 81 
 
 She hadn't gone to bed, the little Carter. I 
 saw her yes, I saw her looking like a saint 
 out of Heaven, sitting there with her light 
 turned low and, oh, dear heart of me, how can 
 I tell it! 
 
 I had already given her the flowers and the 
 chocolates when she turned up her light, and 
 there lay at her elbow a letter addressed to her 
 in my Jack's writing unequivocally his 
 and on the same stationery he uses to me and 
 the envelope torn wide open lying there before 
 me. 
 
 And, as to my one little box of chocolates, 
 why, she had stacks of empty boxes exactly like 
 it, from the same New York house, and all. Of 
 course, this doesn't prove anything, and yet, one 
 would be a fool not to 
 
 Oh, well ! What's the dif ' ! But isn't it aw- 
 ful! 
 
 I mean what I say. I really don't care, if he 
 wants to start this sort of thing but what 
 does he want with a crazy woman? 
 
 What do you think she said when I gave her 
 the bonbons? 
 
 " Oh, how candied of you ! " She smiled the
 
 83 THE COCOON 
 
 words out, and then, knitting her brows and 
 looking troubled, she added : " But why didn't 
 you telegraph them to our foreign missions? We 
 feed our heathen too much meat." Then, with 
 another smile which was like the opening of the 
 heavens, she piped: "Do you tango?" 
 
 Oh, I don't know what I answered. I prob- 
 ably assured her that that was what had brought 
 me to this, tango and bunny-hug and the rest of 
 it which isn't so very far from the truth, fig- 
 uratively, at least. 
 
 But oh, my Jack, what does it all mean? Why 
 did he go out of his way to assure me that he 
 didn't know her? Such gratuitous lying! I 
 hadn't asked him and it isn't as if I were sus- 
 picious or jealous ! 
 
 Oh, if you could only advise me, dear little 
 Book, but you are so still. Why don't you say 
 something! Ah, yes, I can imagine you answer- 
 ing me : " Steady, now, Blessy, steady. Don't 
 go off half-cocked. Eemember the old days. 
 Wait and see. No doubt there'll be some ex- 
 planation." 
 
 As if there could be any explanation of per- 
 fectly simple English. " Don't know her" means
 
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 don't know her, and can't mean anything else. 
 Letters and candy mean letters and candy 
 and can't be twisted to mean anything else. 
 
 No, I believe in looking a thing squarely in 
 the face. I may be a fool, but I'm no coward. 
 But he'll never hear me whimper. We'll see to 
 that, you and I, dear Book. 
 
 But, right now with me on the shelf and 
 away off here, too far for him to comfort me in 
 my trouble and after all I've just been writing 
 him about the children and everything : 
 
 Oh, Jack, how could you ! 
 
 There's one thing I'm glad of, though. He 
 knows I haven't been moping while he's having 
 a good time, leading a sort of double life. Yes, 
 I know it's strong language but we mustn't 
 be afraid of the truth. Double means not single 
 and he hasn't had an eye single to the woman of 
 his life. I call that doubleness. 
 
 I wonder what he writes her and if he tells 
 her anything about me? It would be sort of 
 awful if he did and maybe worse if he didn't. 
 Oh, dear! 
 
 But I must be writing him and I must seem 
 to be writing him just the same, which will come
 
 84 THECOCOON 
 
 hard. I'll never let on, though. My letters 
 must be the same and yet not the same. 
 
 Writing to Jack has always been like putting 
 my head on his bosom and resting. Now it'll 
 be like well, like sitting up across the room 
 with manners and saying polite things. 
 
 But I can do it! I can do anything life re- 
 quires of me. Of course, it'll be skirting the 
 edge of a precipice but I can even do that. 
 There was a time when I sat up and behaved 
 when he was around and I reckon I can do it 
 again. 
 
 If a certain propriety which I may not be 
 able to keep out of my letter reminds him of 
 our courting days, so much the better. Maybe 
 that way remorse lies for him. 
 
 What a pity I wrote that long letter yester- 
 day, after mailing one a mile long. Of course, 
 that won't do now. My head was on his bosom 
 then, and it's all too sweet. But I must go and 
 try to write him. 
 
 Two days later : 
 
 It's no use, Book-of-my-sore-heart no use! 
 I've begun a dozen letters to him, determined in
 
 THECOCOON 85 
 
 each one to guard and not to seem to guard my 
 secret but it won't go. 
 
 Oh, what should I do now, if I hadn't called 
 you in again! just in the nick of time, too. 
 I must have had some occult sense of trouble 
 looming, a sort of presentiment of evil, when I 
 turned to you. 
 
 Three letters have come in from him since 
 I've known, and as each one arrives, I vow I 
 won't read it, and then I'm obliged to read it to 
 see whether I'd be warranted in refusing to read 
 it or not. That's only reasonable and fair 
 and I'm going to be fair to Jack, even now 
 and tactful, too. You see if I don't! 
 
 A weak woman would grow hysterical in such 
 a situation, but I never felt more calm in my 
 life even while I hardly know what to do. Calm- 
 ness has never been my strong point, either. 
 Perhaps what I've needed is trouble, and God 
 knows I'm in the thick of it, now. Maybe I'll 
 come out of it a better woman, God helping 
 me, and a stronger one. 
 
 I have cried over these last letters, but weep- 
 ing doesn't count for weeping when no one sees 
 you weep and no one ever shall see me weep.
 
 86 THECOCOON 
 
 These last letters of his are all right, I suppose. 
 There hasn't been one so far, surely, which I 
 ought exactly to repudiate, and if there was, I 
 wouldn't do it What would I have left? 
 
 Of course, they read differently, in the new 
 light. What three days ago would have seemed 
 like a fine abandon in unreckoning love-mak- 
 ing, sounds like cold-blooded perfidy until 
 I think it over. It isn't as bad as that; really, 
 it isn't. You see, I'm not letting this thing run 
 away with me. The truth is, his ardent letters 
 have just become habit with Jack. He wouldn't 
 know how to write me any other way, and I'm 
 not ready to say I want him to, either. Cooling 
 would be dreadful. 
 
 Of course, taking it critically, anything less 
 than full sincerity in a husband is perfidious. 
 I suppose there's no middle ground for a man, 
 he being the aggressor. He is either god or devil 
 to the woman who loves him. A woman is dif- 
 ferent. She is human, first and last, womanly 
 faults balancing womanly virtues in the soft- 
 bosomed creature who spends her life in loving 
 and forgiving. That's why she's so much more 
 approachable than man. Last night, lying
 
 THECOCOON 87 
 
 awake, I wished I'd married Joe Jeffries and 
 gone in for motor cars and excitement, for then, 
 although I'd have lost the man I loved, I'd have 
 kept my ideal. Jack would have represented 
 perfection to me to the end of time. Now, I've 
 lost my ideal and have only half got Jack and 
 he isn't the same Jack. But it's too late now. 
 
 And all this silly talk isn't answering his let- 
 ters and I left off in my last letter right in 
 the midst of things on the roof the Butte had 
 just grabbed up those yellow roses and rushed 
 away in tears and he'll be waiting to hear the 
 rest. Of course, I've got to seem to keep on 
 where I left off, and it's the hardest job I ever 
 tackled. 
 
 I suppose I could just send it along that 
 saccharine effusion of night before last and it 
 would keep him off the scent till I get my bear- 
 ings. But if I do, I'll have to rush it along 
 without reading it over. It's fairly cloying in 
 its sweetness and strange to say, I never 
 tasted the honey at all when I wrote it. 
 
 Imagine his getting such a letter of faith and 
 affection just as he is licking a postage-stamp 
 to put on a letter to little Hell-hounds. I be-
 
 88 THE COCOON 
 
 lieve that's what I'll call her after this. No, I 
 take that back. It's rough. She looks like an 
 angel, but I tell you she won't do even if she 
 is half crazy. She looks too good to be true 
 and she is. 
 
 I've half a mind to send that letter of mine 
 along to Jack and let it go for what it's worth. 
 He's my husband anyhow and it's an honest let- 
 ter and I don't care! It was written in all 
 sincerity, if it is mailed in despair. 
 
 And even if I succeeded in writing one just 
 to my taste now, he might notice something 
 wrong and he says he's caught a bad cold and 
 I'm worried to death about him, as it is. 
 
 The truth is, Jack needs me. He never knows 
 what thickness of wool he's wearing. I just look 
 at the thermometer outside the window and lay 
 out his things for him, and on they go without 
 a question. Men are such babies. They need 
 mothering more than they need wifing almost. 
 
 Oh, Jack! How am I going to stand this! 
 He seems so far away and I miss his nearness. 
 I wouldn't think God would let a thing like this 
 come to a person like me. I know I'm trivial
 
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 and thoughtless but even my Latin teacher 
 used to say I was a good little thing. 
 
 And this nonsense on the roof here is the 
 nearest I've ever come to lying and I've told 
 Jack every bit of it. 
 
 Maybe if I send this letter along, he'll sud- 
 denly realise that I'm a transparent, loving lit- 
 tle goose and he's a cloudy deceiver. 
 
 Anyhow, things can't be much worse than they 
 are now so here goes. I'll ring for the corri- 
 dor-patrol and send it down to be mailed. And 
 then maybe I can get some good sleep. 
 
 THE SACCHARINE LETTER 
 
 '(Mail-time came, dear Jack, so I rushed off what 
 I'd written and now, while it's all fresh in my 
 mind, I'll go ahead.) 
 
 We were ? 
 
 Oh, yes, I remember. The Butte had just 
 found my yellow roses. Well, of course, it was 
 all funny, in a way, although a bit too much like 
 horse-play for my conservative taste. Still, no- 
 body, seeing the catastrophe of the Canadian's 
 elimination, could say it wasn't killingly funny ;
 
 90 THE COCOON 
 
 and yet, I, knowing the full humorous inward- 
 ness of it, laughed not at all. One needs per- 
 spective for comedy. The flute upon my bosom 
 weighed a ton. The guilt on my conscience had 
 buried my sense of humour fathoms deep. 
 
 When I ventured to lift my head a little to 
 discover if the curl was in sight, I saw only a 
 pile of upset bedding. No glint of gold, at once 
 to comfort and affright me. So I lay back, limp- 
 spirited and weary, and waited; but the roofers 
 were slow to disperse and when finally I ven- 
 tured to rise, it was twilight and a crescent moon 
 mocked me with her silver horns while I strolled 
 across the roof, restored the flute as I had taken 
 it, dropping it with my veil in the vicinity of the 
 comedy cot, recovering the veil and tripping 
 nervously away, my heart overflowing with grat- 
 itude to Almighty God to be freed of this wit- 
 ness. 
 
 Just supposing the Butte had yelled for her 
 flute as soon as she waked as she most cer- 
 tainly would have done but for the diversion of 
 the roses! Where would I have been? Eealis- 
 ing my narrow escape, you may know how I 
 felt, Jack, when hearing steps behind me just as
 
 THE COCOON 91 
 
 I reached the door, I glanced back to see my 
 poor victim, roses and all, scurrying back for her 
 forgotten treasure. 
 
 Did I wait to see her find it? Not I, beloved 
 One! The flute episode instantly became an- 
 cient history in the face of a new menace. What 
 about my little curl? Would she find it and 
 flourish it before the roof? I tell you, Jack, 
 a yellow peril no bigger than a candle-flame 
 threatened to fire my mine; and where would 
 any of us have been after the explosion? And 
 this it was, this dread, that sent your poor wife 
 with all speed to her room. 
 
 Never again, Jack ! 
 
 However, nothing happened at supper. I went 
 down smiling in sheer despair, selected a seat 
 where a mirror afforded me a reflection of 
 comers and goers played with my vinaigrette 
 and my fan and got my wind. 
 
 It isn't a bad manreuvre, Jack, when the 
 enemy is uncertain, this mirror business ; and 
 you can imagine how thrilled I was when, al- 
 most immediately after I took my seat, my point 
 of vantage gave me the Butte striding in majes- 
 tically, arrayed in canary satin with a great
 
 92 THE COCOON 
 
 corsage of yellow roses. She had even substi- 
 tuted yellow for the red ribbon upon her hair. 
 But the gold of her costume was as nothing to 
 the radiance of her beaming face. 
 
 Of course, I had to see more of the play, and 
 so, after supper, I drifted with the crowd into 
 the parlour, instead of dashing back to my room 
 to be confronted by my conscience and no end 
 of mental bugaboos. 
 
 Poor Butte! And poor old Blessy! Yes, I 
 did pity myself, for it seemed to me I was being 
 sent all the way to hell for insufficient cause. 
 It was hard on us both, although I have never 
 seen the Butte look half so happy, and I assure 
 you the institutional smile wasn't in it with my 
 beaming face. 
 
 But before we go any further, Jack, let me tell 
 you about those roses. It was the little joker 
 who brought them, and the way of it was this: 
 You see, he likes to come and stand and talk to 
 me and I've grown rather to esteem him. He 
 isn't half bad, the little joke-man. I tell you, 
 it takes grit for a man who has lost a big job 
 through typhoid fever to take care of himself 
 through his convalescence by industry, and to do
 
 THECOCOON 93 
 
 it with merriment, and that's what that little 
 man is accomplishing. 
 
 Well, to go back to the roses, it was this way : 
 One day, he startled me by calmly remarking 
 that he had just made ten dollars off my head, 
 and before I could question him, he went on to 
 repeat the refrain of a certain poem inspired by 
 same (head) a refrain which ran like this: 
 
 " And the yellow roses hid them in her hair, golden hair, 
 For the gold of yellow roses is her hair ! " 
 
 Whereupon I denied the colour, of course, con- 
 tending that yellow hair w r as no more true yel- 
 low than was red hair red, these tints being 
 merely approximations; but he kept on insist- 
 ing until finally he said that, with my permission, 
 he would send me half the price of the poem in 
 golden roses if I would forfeit a curl to him if 
 he proved right, which, of course, I promptly 
 agreed to do. See? 
 
 So I understood instantly when I saw him lay 
 the roses on the foot of the cot where I was sup- 
 posed to be sleeping and it was just like him 
 to do it impersonally and disappear, and not 
 hang around for thanks. They did match, Dear. 
 I'll tell you about that presently.
 
 94 THE COCOON 
 
 And now, of course, he has reason to believe on 
 evidence that I conspicuously gave his roses 
 away. I saw him see me when we came out from 
 supper and the worst of it is I may never ex- 
 plain. 
 
 Well, when I got into the parlour, who do you 
 suppose came rushing up to me most effusively? 
 Who but the Butte, herself, a great giant canary ! 
 If you'd seen her, you'd never call me your lit- 
 tle canary again. She looked more Amazonian, 
 more. Brobdingnagian than ever. But she's a 
 nice woman, Dear, though as crazy as a loon, a 
 you'll see presently, and your wife is utterly no 
 good. 
 
 She had come, she said, " to tell me of her 
 joy," and why do you suppose? Because, for- 
 sooth, I was the only person in this place who 
 had been kind to her! 
 
 Ye gods! Talk about coals of fire! Your 
 wife's pate is charcoal. It is true, I had sym- 
 pathised with her inwardly, and in the all-night 
 flute business, she's better of that, now I 
 never let on to any one here how it kept me 
 awake. But I've neglected her utterly, which 
 was mean, and everybody else hating her for
 
 THECOCOON 95 
 
 nothing. Well, maybe she felt my latent sym- 
 pathy, for here she stood looking trustfully into 
 my eyes and trying to tell me " what those yellow 
 roses meant to her." 
 
 Of course, knowing the truth about the roses, 
 this frightened me a little. It was so crazy! 
 Did you ever feel your knees suddenly give way? 
 Really, between fear and remorse, I felt as ill 
 as if I'd been caught stealing a sense of my 
 crime and of never-being-able-to-explain over- 
 whelming me. For a second even speech de- 
 serted me, but before I knew what I should say 
 or do, that inner something-or-other which comes 
 to our rescue when life is altogether too hard, 
 had spoken for me, and in a tone quite reassur- 
 ing, I heard it say, " Do tell me about it ! " 
 
 And then, affrighted and self -accusing, before 
 she had a chance to tell me anything, I hastened 
 to assure her of several perfectly obvious things, 
 the only one that I clearly recall being that / 
 was not half so good as I looked. You see, I 
 was on a blind search for some sort of sincerity 
 and the devious ways of deceit were really new 
 to me. If I stumbled, is there any wonder? 
 
 Then, to make matters worse, while she stood
 
 96 THE COCOON 
 
 there, I happened to see the little joke-man, 
 donor of the roses and unconscious conspirator 
 with me in this pathetic comedy, watching us 
 from behind the palms, and I just couldn't stand 
 it, so I whispered : " Suppose we go up to my 
 room and have a little talk." 
 
 I felt as if I were taking my life in my hands 
 when I said it, too, for really, she seemed utterly 
 crazy as she stood there hugging those roses ; but 
 I said to myself, " If she murders you and flings 
 you out of the window into the sea, it's good 
 enough for you, Blessy Heminway! And she's 
 the one to do it, too ! " 
 
 However, we were both laughing when we went 
 up, and when I had turned on all the lights and 
 given her my best chair and laid your last box 
 of chocolates upon her lap, her delight gave me 
 full reward, and really, sitting there in her 
 pretty clothes, she seemed less dangerous. 
 
 Then, to make good with myself by one gen- 
 uine act, I showed her your picture and told her 
 who you were! Yes, I did, really, and she prom- 
 ised never to tell and she will not. I'm sure of 
 it. 
 
 She was very sweet about it all said she
 
 THE COCOON 97 
 
 was really glad to know I was married because 
 I would better understand. Then she confided 
 that she had a lover " a stunnin' fellow t lie 
 very handsomest ! " And that scared me to 
 death again and made me think of the flute-play- 
 ing and what the nurse had said which I hadn't 
 believed but couldn't quite forget that the 
 Brigand was her fiance", you remember and 
 he vowing he didn't know her and I wished 
 we were back in the parlour, alive. 
 
 Poor dear! Somehow, it almost broke my 
 heart to see her sitting there hugging my roses 
 and speaking of love. Of course, I had no idea 
 what the connection could be, in her mind, be- 
 tween the imagined lover and the incidental, ac- 
 cidental roses, but I could wait and be kind. I 
 could have done that, even if there hadn't been 
 an indescribable poignant note of feminine ten- 
 derness in her voice, while she offered me what 
 to her was her utmost confidence. 
 
 And, Jack, her name is Daisy, not only Daisy, 
 but Daisy Butterfield was ever name more 
 feminine? and she sprang upon her chair 
 when my ball of knitting-silk rolled across the 
 floor, and she thinks woman suffrage " positively
 
 98 THE COCOON 
 
 immodest." So she confided while she devoured 
 your chocolates like a school-girl. Thus, with 
 her otherwise masculine proportions, is the fem- 
 inine balance kept true. 
 
 And, by the way, she says this is her third 
 engagement, both the others having been broken 
 by mine disasters; and she blushingly confided 
 that her love for this third man, after romance 
 had seemed gone forever out of her life, " is as 
 ardent as a young girl's," which was pathetically 
 naive. By the way, she's only twenty-nine, ten 
 years less than my guess, but brain fever fol- 
 lowed by nerve wreckage has no doubt aged her. 
 How r ever, as she sat there, feminized by dainty 
 clothes and her mood, she didn't look twenty- 
 five, and I told her so, too. It isn't often pos- 
 sible to pay her a compliment, poor soul. 
 
 " And to think Tie's coming! " 
 
 Her ejaculation was apropos of nothing, but 
 she bent her lips to the roses as she threw it out, 
 and I looked around swiftly to make sure there 
 was nothing for me to stumble against, in case I 
 should suddenly have to run. But her voice was 
 even and reassuring as she went on : 
 
 " He always sends these Persian roses ahead,
 
 THECOCOON 99 
 
 to prepare me. It's the symbol of our mine, 
 1 The Golden Rose.' " 
 
 Then, presently, she added: 
 
 " But what gets me is how he managed to get 
 'em to me, away up there on the roof! And to 
 niy very cot! Ain't it too romantic! I was 
 tempted to quiz Beauregard Davis, and then I 
 wouldn't. I'd rather make believe he just 
 wafted 'em to me. He's all for romance. I've 
 got his roses, an' that's all I care for." And 
 bending, she pressed the top roses of her corsage 
 against her cheek, tenderly, caressingly. 
 
 What could I say to her? After an absurd 
 pause, saved only by the chocolate creams, what 
 I really did say was: 
 
 " When do you expect him? " 
 
 " Any minute," she chuckled, " just any min- 
 ute! I almost hesitated to come up with you, 
 for fear I'd miss him, so I must be goinV 
 
 And with a friendly glance at your photograph 
 as she rose, she added, 
 
 " Yours is real nice lookin', awful toney but 
 not the sort I'd suspect you of, hardly. I'd look 
 for yours to have on goggles and a bear robe and 
 never to get out of his automobile."
 
 100 THE COCOON 
 
 " He has the glasses and the fur coat," I 
 laughed, " and the car, too, but he gets out once 
 in a while to have his picture taken." At which 
 she rippled merrily and started off. 
 
 " So has mine ! " she called back. " He's got 
 three and lots of pictures taken in 'em. Oh, 
 he's great!" 
 
 Then, turning, she rushed up to me, drew the 
 locket from her neck and showed me, what do 
 you suppose? The Brigand's picture, as I'm 
 alive! 
 
 And now she really was gone, a tall streak of 
 golden happiness, poor, poor dear! I was so 
 weak for a moment that I was frightened. Isn't 
 it awful! But her visit, tragic as it was, has 
 done me good. It has given me insight. She's 
 a true, unaffected woman, crazy, of course, but 
 a serious woman and good and loving and I'm 
 a mercurial little fraud. But I'm going to be 
 better.^ Wouldn't it be great if she really had 
 a lover and he should happen along in a day or 
 so or if she were to die to-night, say, in all her 
 golden glory, before she has to realise things! 
 
 She says he's to be allowed to come when the 
 doctor says so, and surely her improved ap-
 
 THE COCOON 101 
 
 pearance in the parlour last night, in all her 
 radiance and roses, ought to go a long way, that 
 is, assuming that she knows what she's talking 
 about at all. 
 
 "And things are not what they seem." You 
 knew a lot, Mr. Longfellow. I suppose the poets 
 do know. Maybe they really see with their poet- 
 eyes things too fine for our vision. That poor 
 thing's thanking me for being good to her breaks 
 me up terribly. I wouldn't be surprised if I 
 get religion before I'm done with it. You know 
 remorse is the first symptom. Now I realise 
 something of the comfort our poor darkies get 
 out of their mourners' benches. I'm figuratively 
 on one, this minute. 
 
 By the way, I sent that yellow curl to the 
 kindly joke-man, with a note of thanks for the 
 flowers " which through an unavoidable mistake, 
 did not reach me," and I also intimated that I 
 should trust to his good taste not to refer to 
 them, to anybody. And did I tell you that 
 Beauregard Davis brought the lost curl to me 
 that same night, saying he had found it on the 
 roof and he " thought maybe I'd as lief not have 
 it hung up in the ' lost-and-found cabinet' in
 
 102 THE9 OCOON 
 
 the rotunda " ? It was one of those thirty -cent 
 ones which always seemed to amuse you so, but 
 in the circumstances, I thought it only fair to 
 value it at a dollar which I cheerfully did, not- 
 withstanding the posted notices against tipping. 
 I am a weak creature, full of brave resolves 
 which melt at the turn of a hair. 
 
 I've hardly had a glimpse of the Brigand for 
 days, but yesterday I saw him hanging over the 
 roller chair of Gipsy Fournette, the prima donna 
 in the Houris company, you remember. She goes 
 by the name of Bradford here, but I knew her on 
 sight. So would any New Yorker. It seems 
 she's been here, in retirement, for nearly a year 
 and is just emerging. Her hair is even yellower 
 than mine and her cheeks far redder. She looks 
 more like a hurrah than a houri. 
 
 I felt sorry to see that nearly seven feet of 
 artless Success bending over this frail sister. 
 Such a big moth and such a little candle! Al- 
 though I've never seen him alone or had a mo- 
 ment's tete-a-tete with him, he has followed me 
 with his eyes ever since that first day; and 
 when he knows I'm within hearing, he talks of 
 "early advantages," and one day he said that
 
 THE COCOON 103 
 
 the highest ambition of his life was to marry a 
 woman much too good for him. " If I married 
 a saint," and he glanced at me when he said it, 
 "if I married a saint, I'd mate money enough 
 to build a cathedral around her." 
 
 He can't talk five minutes without bringing 
 in money, one way or another. And, by the 
 way, he is known as Col. Copperthwaite. When 
 I heard it, I thought, " Why, of course. How, 
 could he have been named anything else, or 
 rank otherwise than as a rank brevet colonel 
 of the Pacific slope ! " 
 
 Well, that evening, after his delivery as to 
 marrying a saint, he asked me what I thought 
 of his ambition, assuming, you see, that I had 
 " taken notice." 
 
 " I think you must have had a good mother," 
 I answered sincerely. 
 
 " How did you know? " he beamed, and then 
 he added sadly, " Yes, she was a saint, but she 
 had no cathedral." 
 
 There was something beautiful in his face as 
 he said that! There is much that seems fine 
 about the man, and he is so refreshing, after our 
 academic types. Even his going from one re-
 
 104 THE COCOON 
 
 ligion to another proves him a fearless seeker 
 after truth, don't you think? 
 
 And I'm quite sure he is artless about women. 
 See how he idealises me, for instance, just be- 
 cause I'm little and innocent-looking ! 
 
 An hour later. 
 
 I'd been ordered an egg phosphate at nine, 
 and it came, on time, via blue livery, cap and 
 smile, as usual, and I've taken it down man- 
 fully and feel delightfully lifted. It was pre- 
 scribed for soothing and sleep, I believe, but 
 I suppose a good and biddable medicine just 
 does whatever trick is required of it. I needed 
 a fillip and stamina, and I've got it, and I feel 
 as if I could write all night. I've got a good- 
 and-tight boudoir cap over my hair, so I'm not 
 afraid of the bats. 
 
 No more dates, Beloved, none but the home- 
 going which I love to realise four days hence 
 when I go ditto (hence, tra, la!) My heart 
 is full of song at the thought. But I'm all in a 
 tangle yet and must extricate myself, for every- 
 body's sake for my own dignity's and yours 
 and nations yet to come, as I love to repeat
 
 THE COCOON 105 
 
 Isn't it great to be innocent, though? Inno- 
 cent of evil intention, I mean. I try to take 
 courage in that thought, and recall Socrates, 
 " Would you have me die guilty? " 
 
 I've been a fool, and it has led me through 
 devious motions of knavery, but God knows 
 my heart. We are all innocent, every one of us, 
 but most of all, the crazy, kindly Butte and 
 the inflated but ingenuous Brigand. His highest 
 ambition is to be a gentleman. It's Inside him 
 and has only to work its way out. I'm a per- 
 fect lady on my giddy outsides, but inwardly 
 I'm a ravening wolf, whatever ravening is or 
 maybe it's a wolf in sheep's clothing that I am 
 an evil force warned against in Holy Writ. 
 
 If I've hurt anybody's feelings here, it's the 
 Brigand's, and not by a thing but consistent 
 snubbing. I've never even bowed to him un- 
 less I had to. Somehow I've been nervous 
 lest he'd embarrass me by doing something 
 spectacular. He often looks as if he'd fall on his 
 knees and clap his hand to his heart if I looked 
 his way. Others have noticed it, too not in 
 exactly these words, maybe. But now I begin 
 to think perhaps I've been mistaken.
 
 106 THE COCOON 
 
 He is just a case of sounding brass and he rec- 
 ognises me as a tinkling cymbal and he thinks 
 we are in the same class. He is really a noisy 
 Westerner with the breadth of the plains and 
 the ruggedness of the Rockies expressed in a 
 breezy personality, and, while he had lived all 
 over the world in spots and feels himself ultra- 
 cosmopolitan, he is quite outside the culture 
 currents, even brass-bound and nickel-plated, 
 if you will, but plated on standard copper, like 
 the old Sheffield plate, good wearing stuff. 
 
 Children and dogs go to him on sight and one 
 of his favourite roof stunts is feeding the birds 
 on his shoulders and they do come and seem un- 
 afraid. I forget just where he hails from, 
 originally. Of course, he has mentioned it. 
 He mentions everything. Really, I can't think 
 of any subject upon which he has not spoken 
 unless it is the Butte. Of her he says not a 
 word, although he must know of her delusion. 
 And I've seen him regard her receding figure 
 with a strange tenderness which seems like in- 
 finite pity. It would be an embarrassment to 
 almost any man to be pursued by a neurotic 
 woman who believes herself his fiancee, and, of
 
 107 
 
 course, reticence is his only role. It shows that 
 he can be silent when he will, all the same. 
 
 He's been in the Orient a great deal and has 
 a lot of curious Eastern things, they say, but 
 he's Western-American, and will be to the end 
 of time, even if he should take up his abode in 
 the Far East and practise his Buddhism in 
 Mandarin robes or pajamas. 
 
 And he thinks me a saint, and it breaks my 
 heart. Never again, Jack! I couldn't stand 
 for this honest ruffian to discover my frivolity 
 and yet see how one sin leads to another ! 
 I'm bent upon deceiving just one more time. 
 Letting him know about you is nothing, except, 
 of course, that I want him always to believe it 
 was a misunderstanding of which I was uncon- 
 scious. You know it was, at first. 
 
 Would it be fair to ask God to help me out, 
 do you think? I used to bring God into all my 
 misbehaviours, and He did help me, because I 
 was little. Now I'm grown up, but I'm very 
 little yet. I'm going to try Him. He can only 
 turn me down, and I don't believe He will, not 
 God! 
 
 You see, He made me, mischief and all, and
 
 THE COCOON 
 
 He must understand His own job. I've prayed 
 a lot here, Jack. I've had so much time in the 
 open, facing the heavens and the blue sky, the 
 faint stars and drifting mists and all the wonder 
 of space and the long silences 
 
 One gets a clear perspective of more than just 
 scenery from the roof at Seafair. It has shown 
 me so much our lives at home, yours and 
 mine, since the very beginning, dear, dear Jack ! 
 
 A short divorce is a wholesome thing, once in 
 a while, I'm sure ; not that I ever want another, 
 but this will bear fruit of joy. I've been lots 
 and lots to blame for things, but I won't grovel, 
 at this distance. 
 
 I will say, though, that you are the one who 
 is justly entitled to this nervous prostration and 
 all the indulgences it is affording. I fear I've 
 been a mollusc, but I've seen myself in time 
 seen my own reflections in the crystalline waters 
 of your devotion. Excuse my faulty metaphor. 
 A mollusc would have to hump herself to get 
 into position to see her own reflection but I 
 can't write this over, and besides, I want that in 
 about " the crystalline waters of your devotion."
 
 THE COCOON 109 
 
 I'd never get that off again so well, and I do 
 mean it. 
 
 When I get home, you'll be trimming around 
 my temperament again, before you know it. 
 Don't do it, Dear. Trim the temperament. It 
 needs it. Oh, I'm going to be sweetest ever, after 
 this, see if I don't! 
 
 And be sure to bring 
 
 No, don't bring anything. There'll be so many 
 things to take away. Yes, fetch along all the 
 empty valises and things and my other hat- 
 box. 
 
 P. S. 
 
 I've decided not to bother the Lord about it 
 I'm going to brace up and be a woman and han- 
 dle this thing myself. I'm not a squealer. If 
 I'd prayed going in, I might pray to get out. 
 Of course, I am praying, but it's the prayer of 
 the jester, " God be merciful to me, a fool ! " so 
 do I abase myself. 
 
 I'm going down to the dining-room to meet 
 people and do my reverent best to harmonise 
 things. This will probably be my last to you
 
 110 THE COCOON 
 
 unless you postpone your coming again, which, 
 for gracious' sake, don't and I'm so afraid I'm 
 forgetting something 
 
 Oh, yes, your cheque-book, Jack, dear. Be 
 sure to fetch it along. I went to the antiquity- 
 shop just one more time and it's a secret till 
 your birthday but it's a dream ! ! ! And now, 
 adieu. If you know how, do send up a prayer 
 for your little partner. Oh, if you could waft 
 me vibrations of success! I'd do almost any- 
 thing to tranquillise things here. I'd gladly 
 hoodoo these good Christian people into be- 
 lieving I'm not a pagan, if I ould. Oh, for 
 some magic, some magic! 
 
 Your lonely, penitent, crazy but sympathy- 
 needing and ever devoted 
 
 BLESSY. 
 
 Written in Diary: 
 
 Well, it's gone, dear Bookie an hour ago 
 and maybe it's just as well. I sent it because I 
 was desperate and didn't know what else to do, 
 and now, oh, my heart! Another letter from 
 him, no, just a short note and he's ill in bed 
 with a " bad cold," which means he's down with
 
 THE COCOON 111 
 
 pneumonia or incipient tuberculosis or God 
 knows what ! 
 
 It's a mercy that I restrained myself and 
 didn't upbraid him and maybe have his sister 
 Laura reading the letter to him, if he isn't too 
 ill to be read to. I'd almost rather know Jack 
 was unfaithful than for anybody to think I 
 thought so, especially his own people, confound 
 'em! I couldn't stand that. I can't stand any 
 of it, for that matter, but what is one to do 
 when the worst comes? 
 
 Standing a thing is just not dying, I suppose. 
 But with Jack first estranged and now ill, maybe 
 dying if anything else happens ? But, of 
 course, nothing else could happen, nothing of 
 consequence. If the house burned down and 
 Laura eloped with the chauffeur and the law- 
 firm of Oglesby and Heminway went under, and 
 Jack came along, well and smiling and all this 
 horror were wiped out, I'd call it a red letter day 
 for us. That's the kind of blind devotion poor 
 Jack is treading under foot. 
 
 Dear, dear! Here comes my dinner tray, 
 and after that, I've got a date in the treatment 
 room, " hot dip and cold spray," followed by salt
 
 112 THE COCOON 
 
 rub by a fresh masseuse, I suppose. I tell you, 
 Book-of-my-tedious-hours, one has to hustle to 
 keep up with this rest routine. 
 
 But I must go, for " food taken at a tempera- 
 ture either far above or below that of the di- 
 gestive organs is detrimental to the strong and 
 occasionally fatal to the weak." You see, I 
 unconsciously memorise choice bits of the cir- 
 culating literature of this publishing firm. I've 
 been thinking that if worse came to worst, I 
 might perhaps get a job as editor of some of their 
 pamphlets and things. 
 
 You are a great comfort to me now, dear 
 Book. I thought I'd tell you so. It seems to 
 bring you nearer, just telling you. You see, 
 you are all I have now. If anything were to 
 happen here, now, anything awful, I couldn't 
 write Jack, for he's either estranged or ill, or 
 both or maybe on his way here, and with a 
 divided mind. I suppose the little Carter is 
 expecting him, too, confound her! 
 
 Two hours later. 
 Oh, what shall I do? What shall I do? A
 
 THE COCOON 113 
 
 note from that sister-in-law of mine, who never 
 writes to me if she can help it, and she says not 
 to worry, but " Jack has a slight cold on his 
 chest " and asks her to let me know it isn't seri- 
 ous, all of which means, of course, that it's as bad 
 as can be and they are getting ready to break the 
 news to me to prepare me for the worst. She 
 says Jack will probably be quite well before I 
 get her letter, and starting to me. Of course, I 
 know what that means. It means I'm not to 
 rush home and take care of my poor sick hus- 
 band, and nobody knows what to do for Jack but 
 me. He says so himself. 
 
 I'm half tempted to just get up and go home 
 and then, like as not by the time I'd get to 
 New York, he'd be either dead or here and I 
 suppose that's just what he and little Hell-hounds 
 are scheming for. Yes, I will call her that, too ! 
 I didn't name her. She named herself, and when 
 I say it, it's a quotation : " Hell-hounds ! " Fine 
 language, that, for a lady ! 
 
 Fleas and bats and brigands and somnam- 
 bulists and now, hell-hounds! I tell you, little 
 Book, this rest cure is great ! Now I know what
 
 114 THE COCOON 
 
 "the survival of the fittest" really means. It 
 means _that if I come through this alive, I'll' be 
 fit for anything! 
 
 Next morning. 
 My dear Husband: 
 
 I think I am going mad and I know I'm going 
 to die; and before delirium sets in, I must write 
 you. I'd like to go out of life writing to you. 
 I may not keep sane long enough to finish this 
 letter, but if I don't and they find me raving or 
 dying, you'll see that I went out thinking of you. 
 
 I haven't slept a wink all night not a wink. 
 I saw a bat fly all around my room and I didn't 
 even cover my head. I kept hoping he would 
 come and nestle in my hair and claw me to 
 death, but although he would sometimes swoop 
 down nearly to touching, he finally flapped harm- 
 lessly out of the window into the night. Then 
 a thunder shower came up and I lay still and 
 prayed God to strike me dead, and He wouldn't. 
 He didn't pay the slightest attention to me. I 
 haven't eaten any breakfast and I'm not going to 
 eat any dinner or supper or anything more, if I 
 can help it, so that I may get off your hands 
 with as little trouble as possible.
 
 THE COCOON 115 
 
 My heart is broken and so, what's the use? 
 I've found out everything, Jack, and I don't 
 blame you. Things are as they are. A married 
 man is either immune when it comes to other 
 women, or he isn't. Many are not, but a few 
 are, or I supposed they were, but maybe I've been 
 mistaken. I thought you were until until I 
 found out, three days ago. And since then, I've 
 been trying to steady myself and get my bear- 
 ings. 
 
 That last letter which you'll have some time 
 before this reaches you, was written before I 
 knew, of course. I knew before I sent it, but I 
 was too heart-sick to write another and so I 
 just let it go. Nothing mattered then. 
 
 As I've just said, I don't reproach you. A 
 man is true or untrue, and when he was true 
 yesterday and is untrue to-day, it doesn't do any 
 good to sigh for yesterday. 
 
 And if he is faithful for five years and then be- 
 gins to deceive, it seems fair to suppose he is 
 facing round for a five years' retreat. Like the 
 king of France, having marched up the hill, he 
 marches down again a royal masculine per- 
 formance.
 
 116 T H E C O C O O N 
 
 I wouldn't mind, Jack, if I could stand it, but 
 I can't. Of course, I don't know why you sent 
 me here, under her very nose, and then were not 
 satisfied until you had fairly pushed me into her 
 presence, unless this was your way of letting me 
 know how things are. But the method doesn't 
 matter. I know now, and I am so ill and you 
 are so ill 
 
 A perfectly absurd thing has just this moment 
 happened. My mail-bag brought me no letter 
 from you, but out of it dropped into my hand 
 one for her in your handwriting. Isn't there 
 some old proverb about a man living a double life 
 needing to employ two kinds of stationery, and 
 to keep them apart? If there isn't, there ought 
 to be. 
 
 Of course, I excuse your writing me on that 
 blue office paper with the imprint of the firm 
 upon the envelopes, but I'd hardly think you'd 
 offer this to well, to a lady with whom your 
 relations were less informal, so to speak. 
 
 No doubt it was an accident, my getting her 
 letter, and she may have one intended for me and 
 be chuckling or turning pale over its contents 
 now, but that wouldn't worry me in the least.
 
 THE COCOON 117 
 
 Some of your letters to your wife might be good 
 medicine for her especially the one which de- 
 scribes her as a friend's friend whom you do not 
 personally know. 
 
 I can't send your letter over to her imme- 
 diately without exciting curiosity, but the first 
 time I go down to the rotunda one has to dress 
 to go there I'll drop it with others into the 
 box, and it will reach her in due course. I hope 
 you won't mind the delay. If I should hand it 
 to one of these nurse patrols, with instructions 
 to drop it into the box, the chances are she would 
 read the address and decide to deliver it in per- 
 son, and there'd be explanations. The nurses 
 seize any excuse to go into her suite, just to look 
 at her and see her clothes. 
 
 She had on a Paquin model the first time I 
 called and a Doeuillet the last time you see, 
 I know clothes. And I don't have to notice other 
 women's gowns. My mind photographs them for 
 me and I look them over at my leisure. 
 
 She dresses like a princess, of course you know, 
 although she wears no jewels which also, of 
 course you know, and which is in excellent taste 
 in a place like this.
 
 118 T H E C O C O O N 
 
 But I began this letter in quite another mood 
 than this, Jack, and the comedy of my intercept- 
 ing your mail jolted me out of things for the 
 moment. And now a sharp pain in my heart is 
 jolting me back. You know my only escape 
 from trouble is in frivolity. But all this is so 
 trivial in the face of the tragedy which confronts 
 me. 
 
 I began by telling you I was going to die 
 and I am. When I wrote that, I'd just had a let- 
 ter from Laura saying you were ill and couldn't 
 write, and it seemed a question as to which of 
 us would go first. Now, I find you to be actively 
 alive and the situation is much simplified. . 
 
 I shall be the one to die and you will have 
 your desire. If you had been the one to go, I'd 
 have had nothing, so this is best. Oh, yes, I 
 know what I am saying. You see, my heart, 
 while sound enough, has never been very strong 
 and I've always realised that this sort of thing 
 would kill me. 
 
 Anything with you, Jack poverty, sickness, 
 disgrace even But this 
 
 Only three days I've known it and my heart 
 hurts all the time and I can't draw a deep
 
 THE COCOON 119 
 
 breath without catching. At first it would 
 hurt only when I dwelt on things or cried too 
 hard;. then, when the nightmarishness of it all 
 passed and the fact, just the Awful Fact, lay like 
 a leaden weight within me a resident anguish, 
 at home within my broken heart the dull sod- 
 den pain settled down with it, and it never goes. 
 I've got it now, just the blind ache. When any 
 new grief comes, or phase of grief, like your get- 
 ting Laura to write me for you and your writing 
 the Carter yourself, something quick and sharp 
 happens, as if a bladed corkscrew gave just one 
 twist in my heart then the old ache, a com- 
 parative relief, comes. 
 
 You know my grandmother died on being 
 roused from her sleep by a cry of " Yankees ! " 
 in New Orleans during the war, and father went 
 suddenly, too, and it's a good way to go. 
 
 And so, now, before things go too far with 
 me, I want to tell you, Jack, that while all this 
 is a mystery which I don't even try to under- 
 stand, I must put it aside long enough to tell 
 you how happy I have been these blissful five 
 years, for surely five years of heaven ought to 
 outweigh the eternity of hell of these three days.
 
 120 T H E C C O O N 
 
 I am sure no other woman has been quite so 
 blessed as I; no living husband has ever been 
 so dear to any other wife, as you have to me 
 so patient, so forgiving, so generous, so ever-re- 
 membering of me, so forgetful of self, so able, 
 so resourceful, so adaptable, so competent. 
 
 Don't think that I fail to realise how you've 
 even mothered me in my peevish days, as if 
 I'd been a sick baby and you've been a very 
 prince of lovers all the time that your care and 
 protection as a husband of faculty have sur- 
 rounded and pillowed me. When I've giddily 
 referred to your " genius for Husbandry," I 
 meant it to its farthest reach, Dear, and in all 
 seriousness. 
 
 You've humoured me to my hurt sometimes 
 and to your own undoing and through it all, 
 with no self-consciousness or self-righteousness 
 or self anything, you've set me a standard of no- 
 bility. You've been my model of all that is 
 strong and gentle and kind. 
 
 Everything you've been to me, Jack knight, 
 lover, chum, comrade, husband yes, you've 
 even been my baby, when you've been sick. And 
 now I see why it's best that we've had no other.
 
 THE COCOON 121 
 
 A child now would complicate things dread- 
 fully. 
 
 As it is, I'll slip away and this anguish will 
 be over. Not that I am going by choice. It's 
 this pain and the catching and the wide- 
 awake-all-nights and the sense of letting go! 
 It's this knowledge of approaching death which 
 in a way gives you back to me, just for this lit- 
 tle while. And for this brief space you shall be 
 all mine. I shan't mail this letter to you, or any 
 others I may write in the little time left us. 
 They'll be here when I go and you'll under- 
 stand. 
 
 I don't want to put you on the defensive and 
 go in for recriminations or anything sad. 
 There's nothing to be said. It isn't as if I were 
 accepting wretchedness on circumstantial evi- 
 dence. You see, I have documentary proof in 
 my pocket, this minute, but I care so little for 
 such as that that I shall pass it along as soon as 
 I can. Why should I want to prove things that 
 are? It's bad enough to know them. 
 
 Another reason I don't want to write you 
 about it now is that I can't spare one of your 
 caressing: letters while I'm so ill. Even if I
 
 122 THE COCOON 
 
 were going to get better, I'd say love me now and 
 do everything sweet for me till I'm well, and 
 then we'll see what to do. And of course now I 
 need love still more. 
 
 Two Hours Later: 
 
 After Lunch. 
 My dear Husband: 
 
 God knows what is happening! Oh, if only 
 you were here! My little suite is a bower of 
 roses, about a car-load brides' roses, mainly, 
 and maidenhair ferns and orchids hundreds 
 of orchids and white carnations and about a 
 mile of Bermuda lilies! This ba^h-tub is full 
 of flowers again. And that isn't the worst. 
 There's a white satin box of fresh orange flow- 
 ers, packed in cotton. 
 
 At first, I was sure it was a mistake, but I've 
 scanned the address and its unequivocal, " Sea- 
 fair Kest Cure, Seafair, Va., Suite 99, Hemin- 
 way," so what could I say? It took two porters 
 and a trained nurse half an hour to fetch them 
 in three elevator loads. Of course, seeing I 
 was in for it, I put on my casual expression and 
 directed them where to place them, quite as if 
 it were an ordinary occurrence. / had to.
 
 THE COCOON 123 
 
 But I'm in some deadly trouble, Jack. Sup- 
 pose it's the Brigand! Not that, of course, and 
 yet somebody is expecting me to marry him ! If 
 it were our wedding anniversary, I'd almost sus- 
 pect you if things were not as they are with you, 
 though I'd know your mind had given way under 
 the strain I've put you to or else you'd 
 " struck it rich." There are hundreds of dol- 
 lars' worth of flowers, yes, thousands, maybe. 
 
 Later God knows the hour, I don't. 
 
 I've been around locking at the flowers again. 
 Everything is* full of them. Even the mantel is 
 heaped with green coils, miles of smilax rope, 
 and all around the walls open boxes of roses 
 make a dado, meeting the floor; and the air is so 
 suffocating with the musky smell of the Easter 
 lilies that I came near fainting in leaning over 
 them to decipher a card; but when I did finally 
 make it out, the words " Cathedral Altar," 
 brought me to, more quickly than smelling-salts. 
 
 My heart seemed to stop. Strange to say, 
 though, the exigency of things stimulated me. 
 It wasn't at all like my sorrow-pain and it 
 isn't now, although I am frightened to death and
 
 124 THE COCOON 
 
 something inside me keeps shrieking " Cathedral 
 altar ! " in the voice of the Brigand. Really, it 
 sounds like could it be can it be he? And 
 all this squanderous spending of money is fear- 
 fully like his talk. 
 
 If it is, he's crazy and this is an insane asy- 
 lum. Maybe I'm crazy. They never know 
 themselves. I was just about to shriek for help, 
 when I stumbled over a little box tied with a 
 white ribbon. I don't know how I got it open, 
 my hands shook so, but before I knew it, I was 
 gazing as one dazed at an absurd bit of statuary, 
 done in white paste sugar, maybe a minia- 
 ture bride standing in a miniature cathedral, 
 awaiting her man at the altar and the whole 
 glistening with flakes of isinglass or something. 
 
 I tell you, Jack, if the card made me suspi- 
 cious, this convinced me. 
 
 " Sure as you're born, Blessy Heminway," I 
 gasped, " it's the Brigand. You've got a maniac 
 on your hands ! " 
 
 And with that, feeling so helpless and alone, 
 and you, my only stay on earth, so far, far, far 
 away, I broke down utterly and cried as chil- 
 dren cry, and I was afraid somebody would hear
 
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 me, and a blue-dressed nurse would be coming in 
 with a valerian cocktail, an attentive way they 
 have here when there's too much emotional noise 
 in a room, so they say. 
 
 So I went to my seaward window and let the 
 wind blow over me, and got quiet, but I didn't 
 know what to do, where to go. The roof would 
 mean complications, and there was something 
 funereal in this roomful of flowers. I felt I 
 must get out, so I rang and ordered a carriage 
 at four, for the afternoon. Then, seeing that I 
 had time to spare, I lay down in the breeze, and 
 covered my head, hoping to get a wink of sleep, 
 and I must have slept over an hour when I was 
 lifted to my feet by a sharp rap at the door. 
 
 The carriage was waiting. 
 
 I seem to rally to exigency, thanks be, and 
 after two or three gasps and a hard swallow, I 
 was able to say into the crack of the door which, 
 in sheer bravado, I cautiously opened that far : 
 
 " I am sorry not to have recalled my order in 
 time, but I've changed it till to-morrow same 
 hour, please." 
 
 The evenness of my own voice reassured me, 
 and when I thought over what I had said, I felt
 
 126 THE COCOON 
 
 that I could hardly have done better, as, if they 
 had sniffed a sensation in this flower business, 
 they'd see that I counted on being here to-mor- 
 row, anyway. 
 
 Then I went to the mirror and looked at my- 
 self, and my face frightened me. It was pinched 
 and green and red-spotted and awful. So I 
 went to the bath-room and bathed it in hot and 
 cold water and came back and rubbed in cold 
 cream and rubbed it out again, over and over, 
 for I don't know how long. I'd probably be 
 standing there yet, rubbing in cold cream, if I 
 hadn't been startled out of myself by a voice at 
 the door softly whispering, " Please let me in. 
 It's only me, Daisy Butterfield," that it took me 
 a moment to realise in this impersonation of 
 meekness the incongruous personality of the 
 Butte. 
 
 Of course, I couldn't let her in, but I didn't 
 have to. If Daisy Butterfield had timidly pled 
 for admittance, the Butte of Montana, finding 
 the door " on the latch," strode in with Ama- 
 zonian tread, blurting her hearty apology : 
 
 "Don't mind me. I just had to come in.
 
 THE COCOON 127 
 
 I've got great news!" And she flourished an 
 open letter in my face. " He's on the way, 
 nearly here called to New York unexpectedly 
 and he says I've got to marry him to-night ! 
 Do you hear? To-night! And he ain't a man 
 to oppose, either! I wouldn't have one that 
 was ! And that ain't all ! " 
 
 She was standing in the middle of the room 
 and, turning around, she waved her long arm, 
 taking in the whole place : 
 
 " It's these flowers that brought me here. Of 
 course, everybody's talking. They think you're 
 going to be married, but, you see, I know better, 
 an' so " 
 
 Coming quite up to me, she laid her hand upon 
 my arm and looking me squarely in the face, 
 she demanded: 
 
 " Do you know whose flowers these are, Mis' 
 Heminway?" 
 
 Then, seeing that I hesitated, she went on : 
 
 " Because, you know, they are weddin' flowers. 
 1 How did I find out? ' Why, everybody knows 
 it. It's the giggle of the roof! And what's 
 more, they come from Thorler's in New York. I
 
 128 THE COCOON 
 
 didn't hear that. I saw some of the boxes and 
 I'd know a Thorler flower-box from here to the 
 sand-sopper's beach. I've had too many ! " 
 
 Then hesitating to gain breath, she changed 
 her tone: 
 
 " Of course, Mis' Heminway, you know my 
 name's Butterfield, not Buttinsky, and I don't 
 want to butt in on any of your private affairs, 
 but Why don't you say something dear lit- 
 tle lady? I'm as good as a whole clam-bed for 
 secrecy, so don't be afraid to tell me anything. 
 And look at me! Fairly glorified with joy and 
 my Beloved's roses, an' him on the way and 
 
 this precious letter and Honey, darling 
 
 innocent little lady-baby, why don't you say 
 something You know what I think, don't you? " 
 And, in a great Ellen Terry whisper she blurted : 
 "They're mine! That's whose roses they are! " 
 
 Of course, it was stupid of me, but until she 
 came out with this, I never suspected what she 
 was driving at. My submerged mind, diving on 
 a still hunt for a clue to the mystery, could not 
 take in any other thought than that she was 
 vaguely wondering, as I had done, which of the
 
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 fool men around, believing me unmarried, had 
 lost his head. 
 
 But here was light. Not clear light, surely, 
 for I knew she was crazy on this one subject 
 if on no other but any light was better than 
 the darkness in which I had been groping. 
 
 I knew whose yellow roses she was cherishing 
 her somnambulistic pursuit of the Brigand 
 was too recent to forget, and yet here was co- 
 here ice, surely, and freely brandished docu- 
 mentary evidence; for she still held the open 
 letter aloft. 
 
 Of course, I wanted to ask her to let me see it, 
 but there are some things one can't quite do. 
 But I kept my eyes upon it until a faint illumi- 
 nation led me to ask, " What is the date of his 
 letter? " whereupon she laid it open in my hand, 
 shouting, as she did so, " Why, it's six days old, 
 as you can see for yourself, and should have 
 been here yesterday morning! That's why I'm 
 not havin' the twenty-four hours' notice he prom- 
 ised me, no matter what happened." 
 
 Then, seeing that, after corroborating the date, 
 I had properly turned from it, she urged :
 
 130 THE COCOON 
 
 " Bead it. Read his letter through to 
 please me! " and blushing as a young girl, she 
 added : " And see what he calls me, and how he 
 signs himself, if you want to get warmed up ! " 
 
 So bidden, did I read his letter, from start to 
 finish, and from the first, strong strokes to the 
 last, I read as straightforward, coherent and ten- 
 der a love-letter as even you ever wrote, Jack. 
 
 This satisfied me, so far as I could be satisfied. 
 Surely her lover was sane, and it was fair to sup- 
 pose he knew what he was doing. Still, I'm 
 nothing if not conservative. The cards were 
 still in my hand and I would not play one un- 
 advisedly. 
 
 When first the full meaning of her visit 
 dawned upon me, I wanted to embrace the great 
 yellow creature, as far around as my little arms 
 would go. Still, although my heart had sud- 
 denly become a harp and joy was playing a song 
 of deliverance over its strings, my voice was quite 
 like that of a lady casually addressing a visitor 
 when I said, taking her arm and drawing her to 
 a chair, 
 
 " Come, sit down, Dear, and let's talk it over.
 
 THE COCOO-N 131 
 
 Why do you think these are your flowers? And, 
 if yours, why were they sent to me? " 
 
 " ' Why? ' Why gracious sakes alive, can't 
 you see? Ain't my intended coming here to 
 marry me to-night f And ain't these brides' flow- 
 ers? from A to izzard? " 
 
 " Sent to me, all the same, dear girl. Why to 
 me? Your young man may be a Greek god, but 
 it would take one with full divining power to 
 know that he might safely bestow flowers, de- 
 signed for a clandestine wedding, to the room of 
 a lady he has never seen whose name, even, he 
 has never heard." 
 
 " Never heard your name? Don't go so fast, 
 dear lady ! He knows all about you, bless your 
 sweet heart. Do you suppose I've sent him a let- 
 ter every day of my life since I've been in this 
 pleggonned place, and not described the one 
 bright thing in it? Why, do you know what I 
 call you in my letters to him? My Little Oasis. 
 It's my name for you. I've written it so many 
 times that I just write L. O. now, and he under- 
 stands. So you can see what you've been to me, 
 in this desert of Sahara! Why, I've never
 
 132 THE COCOON 
 
 caught your eye in my life, since we've first 
 passed each other in the corridors, that you 
 haven't smiled at me, like as if we might be 
 friends and it has given me courage. 
 
 " But I haven't told him you were " she 
 whispered the word, "married. I ain't that 
 sort. No, but it's about all I haven't told him 
 about you. He knows every dress you've got and 
 your hats and parasols. Even the way you re- 
 ceive your mail, in a locked bag, sent special. 
 I told him that just because it was so romantic, 
 and there's so little romantic to tell here? 
 
 " So, you see, he's plannin' to arrive here this 
 evenin' " 
 
 "Of course," I said at last, almost in tears 
 over her loyalty, " of course, of course." 
 
 Really my whole soul was in a broad grin, and, 
 strange to say, in all this emotional excitement, 
 my heart seemed better, if anything. 
 
 I needn't say I was nice to the poor thing, now 
 that I was quite sure, and I did all I could to 
 make amends for my hesitation. 
 
 " Certainly, they're yours, my dear," I assured 
 her, over and over. " It's as plain as day and 
 now, I don't mind confessing, it is a certain re-
 
 THE COCOON .133 
 
 lief to know it. And aren't they wonderful? 
 Let's go and look them over ! " And, taking her 
 hand, I led her to the bath-tub. To tell the 
 truth, it wasn't easy to handle the situation cas- 
 ually and I did almost blurt out " Thank God ! " 
 when we came to the bride in the cathedral, and 
 I realised my severed connection with her. 
 
 While we stood together thus and she was hug- 
 ging and kissing " the cunnin' little thing," a 
 card was handed in " for Miss Butterfield," and 
 seizing it and gasping " It's him ! " she rushed 
 away ; but turning suddenly at the door she came 
 back, lifted me in her great arms and danced 
 with me all over the room, until finally, kissing 
 me, on my hair, my cheek, my hand, she set me 
 down on my feet and left me without a word, 
 her face deluged with tears. 
 
 I couldn't have been more honoured if I'd 
 founded an asylum or despatched a cargo of 
 trained nurses to a battle-field. Some of us 
 women are so overpaid for easy good-will, while 
 others who agonise and strive go unrewarded to 
 their graves. Oh, Jack ! 
 
 But returning to the Butte and her romance, 
 her young man is certainly doing handsomely
 
 134 THE COCOON 
 
 by her. We've been to lots of smart weddings, 
 you and I, and I've never seen so much money 
 expressed in wedding flowers, in my life, never. 
 
 And would you believe it? I'm as weak as a 
 kitten, now the panic is over and my temples 
 throb like sledge-hammers. 
 
 Oh, for the old joy that is dead! If only all 
 this cloud were blown away, and you were here 
 to take me in your arms as the happy Butte did, 
 and dance with me and even scold me for any 
 old thing! 
 
 My heart was better as long as the cyclonic 
 comedy of the flowers made me forget but 
 now, the old pain ! for the sun of my life is 
 gone out, and, oh, oh, oh! the sudden dart! 
 The knife pain ! 
 
 It was your intercepted letter in my pocket. 
 My hand ran against it, and it cut all the terrible 
 truth into my consciousness 'afresh. 
 
 But I must be brave till you come or till 
 the end. I am so ill again, Jack. It's as if I 
 saw you pulling back while fate forces you to 
 come to me. Maybe death will be kind, and 
 come quickly. 
 
 I must try for some sleep. It's early yet, and
 
 THE COCOON 135 
 
 they'll not be getting these flowers out till after 
 dark, anyway and I am so sickened with the 
 Bermudas. I'd go to the roof if I dared, but I 
 can't show up there as a prospective bride. 
 
 I wish I dared try a disguise. I believe I will. 
 I've got lots of things I haven't worn here 
 that grass-green, gold-spotted veil you bought for 
 your already-too-loud-looking wife, poor artless 
 Jack; and that pongee parasol that I put away 
 the day I came just because I counted s'teen like 
 it on the roof. And there's that awful linen dus- 
 ter. 
 
 I'm going to do it, and I'll pull on those long 
 yellow near-chamois gloves your well-meaning 
 sister Laura gave me as a parting thrust a 
 hundred pairs on the roof this minute and I'll 
 climb into a cot and stay there until I get tired 
 of it, and maybe, by the grace of God, I may get 
 a little sleep, although I feel as if I'd never close 
 my eyes again. 
 
 " Yes, and I'll take my writing-pad with me, 
 like the short-hairs, and if good honest sleep will 
 have none of me, I'll write and write and write. 
 Don't think I don't realise that all this glib writ- 
 ing I'm doing, here on the brink of tragedy, is
 
 136 THE COCOON 
 
 saving me from madness, Jack or from myself. 
 What would I do if I couldn't write ! 
 
 On the Roof at nearly sundown. 
 
 You see, I've done it, Jack, and not a soul sus- 
 pects me. Indeed, when I started out in this 
 bromidic get-up, I had almost to pinch myself to 
 know myself. I slipped around and approached 
 the roof from a new direction, to ward off possi- 
 ble suspicion; then I took the first unoccupied 
 cocoon I came to, steadied my parasol in a crotch 
 of the spring, and here I am, and with a vista 
 of profound outward peace to rest in if rest 
 would only come! 
 
 When I first got into my cot, I deliberately in- 
 vited sleep by closing my eyes and thinking of 
 feathers and down and floating things but 
 every way I turned, I seemed to see your face 
 and I would wonder what you were doing now. 
 So often that question haunts me, these last days. 
 "What is Jack doing now? and now? and 
 now? ", till I'm almost beside myself. Only 
 three days more until you'll be here if you 
 come and yet I feel as if it were an eternity
 
 THE COCOON 137 
 
 eternity which never means less than heaven 
 or hell. Three days ! 
 
 It's long enough to die and be buried, and I'm 
 hoping this may be the way out of it all for 
 both our sakes. But till then, you're mine, 
 Jack! 
 
 A half hour later, by my watch. 
 
 I was interrupted here, Jack, by hearing my 
 own name, " Heminway," spoken in a whisper. 
 So I put aside my pen and peeped under my 
 parasol to discover my masseuse, standing in the 
 tower door whispering to Beauregarde Davis. I'd 
 forgotten all about my massage just about then 
 due, and no doubt the masseuse had been to my 
 room and finding me gone, was inquiring for me. 
 
 No, I didn't listen. I didn't have to. They 
 were only a stone's throw away and a slight 
 breeze in my favour. 
 
 " No," B. D. had " no idee " where Miss Hem- 
 inway was. She hadn't been on the roof to-day. 
 " Oh, sure ! " he'd heard about the flowers and 
 the wedding " but what else would you expect, 
 from the likes of her? D'y'ever see an old maid 
 look like that? " He had heard she had gone
 
 138 THE COCOON 
 
 driving, oh, yes, and "Who's she goin' to 
 marry? " 
 
 How did he know? " Some says it's the Cana- 
 dian Colonel, an' more says a man from New 
 York, though some says the little Typhoid that's 
 lost all his hair, the way he studies her an' writes 
 poetry but I don't think." 
 
 He, himself, leaned to the New Yorker, be- 
 cause a man would have to have all kinds of 
 money to waste a carload of roses on a private 
 wedding the greatest lot since the old Doc- 
 tor's daughter's wedding, when they stripped the 
 conservatories. 
 
 Then somebody got up and pulled out and I 
 didn't hear for a while. And then it was the 
 masseuse: (massoose, they call it here) 
 
 "No, I don't know whether the old Doctor 
 knows about it or not." She hoped so, however, 
 and that he was resigned although they al- 
 ways worried him, these weddings. But of 
 course, it wasn't his fault. The Sanitarium 
 wasn't a jail. It all came of the patients having 
 nothing else to do, so they'd take notions to 
 marry each other.
 
 THE COCOON 139 
 
 " Yes," B. D. knew that was so. " And some- 
 times it's the first healthy resolution a patient'll 
 show," he contributed. 
 
 " You see, it's so handy," the masseuse agreed, 
 " but that ain't here nor there with Miss Hemin- 
 way, and if you want my opinion, she's out now 
 to meet her fiansay at the station, an' to my best 
 belief, it's nobody but Dr. Welborn who it seems 
 was taken suddenly with a need o' sleep day be- 
 fore yesterday, and had to run down to Rich- 
 mond to get it to get a license, / say, you mark 
 my word ! " And she added, with a chuckle, 
 
 " Ain't it funny how our staff have to go away 
 to get sleep when people come from all over to 
 get it here? " 
 
 It was funny, B. D. agreed, " and I have 
 heard tell of some of 'em losin' sleep whilst they 
 was away which ain't for me to say. Any- 
 way, we're goin' to have a weddin', and, of 
 course, Dr. Welborn is always under suspicion 
 with every pretty girl, but I ain't a-carin' who 
 gets 'er, so's we keep 'er in the family. She's 
 one little lady that I believe is polite on her in- 
 sides. An' I always liked that colour hair, ever
 
 140 THE COCOON 
 
 since I chose a wax doll for my little sister that's 
 dead. I often look acrost the roof an' think of 
 her." 
 
 " Yes, I like her, too," agreed the lady of un- 
 guents. " She's real nice, but I've come to the 
 point that I don't fix my affections on any of 
 'em. You turn yourself inside out to please 
 some fine lady that smiles on you, just because 
 she's in the habit of smilin', an' when her back's 
 turned, you ain't any more to her than any other 
 bottle of cocoa-nut oil and elbow-grease. Still, 
 I like Miss Heminway, as I say. You may know 
 I like her when I was sorry not to have to give 
 her her rub but that was partly on account of 
 all the talk an' I thought I'd get on to the 
 news an' see them flowers." And as she turned 
 away, she added: "An' they ain't goin' to be 
 allowed to wilt, neither, so we won't have long to 
 wait." And she was gone. 
 
 There is something in a conversation like this, 
 Jack, in circumstances like these, which brings 
 it straight to the ears for which it is not in- 
 tended. It isn't voice-carrying, either, but some- 
 thing far more subtle. This harmless little gos- 
 sip had scarcely risen above a whisper through-
 
 THE COCOON 141 
 
 out, and yet I wonder if one might even be 
 waked from sleep by a whisper of his name? 
 
 But I'm glad I overheard it. This comedy 
 presentment of my recent tragedy and the 
 flower scrape was a tragedy while it lasted 
 has done me good, besides passing the time, 
 which is the principal thing, now. 
 
 But I'm a wreck and a ruin of nerves from it 
 all on top of the real tragedy which is rend- 
 ing my soul and I want you, Jack, only you ! 
 Oh, Jack! There's crape on my heart's door for 
 the faith that is dead. Oh, oh! 
 
 The roof is so still. Everybody seems to be 
 sleeping. I suppose most of them lead the regu- 
 lar routine life a stated lot of things done at 
 stated intervals, filled in between with sleep and 
 forgetfulness. Mine may be the only turbulent 
 soul here. 
 
 To me, even the scratching of my fountain pen 
 makes a palpable noise topping everything till 
 it falls into tune with the sea the sea suggest- 
 ing eternity in its boundless reaches and breath- 
 ing like time against the shore. Indeed, what is 
 time but Eternity breathing? Breathing and 
 breathing and breathing and
 
 142 THE COCOON 
 
 Written in Diary ; 
 NEW YORK, June 21st. 
 
 Dear Long-neglected Book-of-my-Heart: 
 
 So many things have happened since our last 
 heart-to-heart together that I scarcely know 
 where to begin, and yet I am conscious that I've 
 neglected you utterly ever since just before 
 Jack's arrival at Seafair; and yet, as I have 
 made you my confidant, first and last, chiefly as 
 an ally during Jack's absences or my tempera- 
 mental deflections, this seems hardly exceptional. 
 Still, there is something in our recent inti- 
 macy which makes me long to confide to your 
 sympathetic pages, as an offset to the gloom in 
 which my last contributions were cast, the story 
 of my happy issue out of all my troubles, the 
 troubles which cloud your pages and express 
 only turbulence and anguish of soul. 
 
 I shall see to it that Jack never has another 
 peep into your sacred bosom, but there may be 
 those who will come after me daughters, not 
 sons, for this to whom I shall be only too glad 
 to commend your utmost confidences, even at the 
 expense of my seeming dignity, hoping in this
 
 THE COCOON 143 
 
 trivial record of miserable tears and narrowly- 
 averted disaster, possibly to guard them against 
 similar pitfalls in life. 
 
 To go further than this now would be telling, 
 and my poor little story needs for interest all 
 that it may develop of surprises in its unfolding. 
 
 I do not recall our very last words together, 
 but I keenly do remember that they brought to 
 your defenceless pages tortures of maddening 
 jealousy and despair over my having but just dis- 
 covered Jack's correspondence with the little 
 Carter; that it was while struggling with this 
 and its resultant insomnia that there arrived 
 anonymously to me a cargo of wedding flowers 
 which filled my rooms with implications of com- 
 promising disaster and my nostrils with sicken- 
 ing odours, to escape which daring not to 
 brook the covert scrutiny of the ostensibly sleep- 
 ing patients upon the roof who regarded me as 
 an imminent bride, with free speculations as to 
 the groom I finally assumed a disguise, and 
 slipping out among the quiescent cocooners, 
 crept into a cot, lifted my parasol and invited 
 sleep. 
 
 But, although weary to the breaking point in
 
 144 THE COCOON 
 
 mind and body, sleep warily eluded me hour after 
 hour, until finally, from sheer exhaustion, I fell 
 into that blissful semi-conscious state between 
 sleeping and waking in which one dimly realises 
 the small noises about one, but realises them as 
 happily inadequate to disturb his sweet sense of 
 tranquillity, this being, to my mind, the poetry 
 of sleep which is at once both more and less 
 than the standard article of faith which does 
 not hesitate to drop one into oblivion as into a 
 starless black forest, without landmark or com- 
 pass that deep gloom wood in which phos- 
 phorescent nightmares are known to wander, 
 ready saddled for any dreaded haunt to mount 
 in all his bones and glare at one as horse and 
 rider rattle by, in a night too dark for shadows. 
 The veiled slumber which we intimately know 
 as dozing and which approaches timidly with 
 titillation of the eyelids and an ineffable sense of 
 repose, may lead one along dry country roads 
 into which fresh rain begins to fall or to budding 
 fields of lilies which blossom and nod as he 
 passes ; or it may even mysteriously lift him from 
 his feet so that he floats just above the lily heads 
 with oever a fear of the bees which come so near
 
 THE COCOON 145 
 
 or of disturbing the motherbird whose brooding 
 wing he fairly skirts as he goes by her nest in the 
 reeds. 
 
 It is a region of gentles, this dreamfield of 
 Arden, and lies too close to the guards of Wake- 
 land for uncanny beasts to prowl and near 
 enough the rim of the black forest for twilight 
 and the sense of mystery and remoteness so 
 grateful to the glare-tired and earth-weary. 
 
 As I dozed thus safely between the two bor- 
 ders in my cot that day, I remember realising 
 that at intervals several of my neighbours rose 
 and walked away, some even eschewing tiptoe, 
 and yet not having power to fully rouse me from 
 my deliciously-conscious semi-sleep. 
 
 (Seems to me that's pretty nice writing, dear 
 Bookie. Wouldn't it be funny if all I've been 
 through should develop a literary talent in lit- 
 tle me? There's no telling! Stranger things 
 have happened. I may be heard from yet.) 
 
 Even the whistled salutes of one or two pass- 
 ing boats near shore reached me only as joy-notes 
 kindly muffled by the fog of sleep; and yet, 
 strange to say, it was the merest swish of a page 
 turning quite near me which suddenly opened my
 
 146 THE COCOON 
 
 eyes ; and by lifting my face just a wee bit, I saw 
 a man's hand hanging, palm downward, from the 
 cot next my own. 
 
 This was interesting and I was instantly wide 
 awake. It was a nice hand, clean, strong, kind- 
 looking. It reminded me of Jack's hand, some- 
 how, even to the tiny band of gold encircling its 
 third finger. Jack wore just such a ring, my 
 gift but, of course, most rings are much alike 
 on their under sides. 
 
 Jack's is an ancient intaglio which I picked up 
 in Siena during our last engagement and had 
 mounted for him in a design of my own drawing, 
 " two perfectly bromidic griffins clasping the seal 
 in a sulphitic way," so I playfully described it to 
 him on presenting it. 
 
 Glad of something trivial to keep my mind 
 off the danger shoals, I began rebuilding Jack's 
 ring from memory when my neighbour turned 
 another leaf, withdrawing his hand and drop- 
 ping it again, this time turned over so that I 
 clearly saw what seemed a replica of Jack's ring. 
 
 I knew it was silly and yet my heart stopped 
 for a moment and I felt as if I were dying; then 
 it played an anvil chorus in my ears and I felt
 
 T H E C O C O O N 147 
 
 myself strangling with I knew not what, when 
 the reader put down his book and took out his 
 watch, and from my pillow, I distinctly saw my 
 own picture painted inside the case of Jack Hem- 
 inway's watch. 
 
 Next day : 
 
 I had to leave you yesterday, Bookie, to answer 
 a telephone call, and couldn't get back to you. 
 Viola Vixen Vandegrief called me up and wanted 
 me to go out for a spin with her, and I couldn't 
 refuse as she is Jack's sister-in-law's niece and 
 she's in trouble, poor dear. I tell you, Bookie, 
 this living on alimony must be trying to any 
 woman of spirit. Poor little Vixie is a per- 
 fectly harmless creature, fairly running over 
 with small grievances just now and she's one 
 of those who, when once she gets her wind, you 
 can't stop. 
 
 And she is having what she calls a " helova- 
 time." So she condenses in her notes to me, as 
 she knows her maid reads all she writes, when 
 she gets a chance and all she receives always. 
 But this is the only way I've ever known her to 
 condense. I have an idea her prolixity had some- 
 what to do with Paul Vandergrief's deflection,
 
 148 T H E C O C O O N 
 
 for the co-respondent in the case is a wax-doll 
 who has never been known to say anything. But 
 she'll probably get Vixie's house in Gramercy 
 Park, all the same, from the way things look, and 
 he is fairly niggardly with his wife in his allow- 
 ance and poor Vix can't make a fuss just 
 because, you see, men have liked her and Paul 
 could give her cold shivers in a court-room, if 
 he were provoked to it. That was what she 
 wanted to consult me about, and why we stayed 
 out so interminably. 
 
 " How did I advise her? " Oh, of course, I 
 advised her first and last to make up with Paul, 
 no matter what. I assured her that positive 
 proof of a husband's infidelity didn't amount to 
 a row of pins; that husbands were the most 
 maligned class on earth, especially when they 
 were in the least attractive ; that any woman w r ho 
 believed her own eyes against a man she loved 
 was an idiot. Oh, I put it strong! That's the 
 only way I'd ever advise any woman, after this, 
 but 
 
 But, I say, I was telling you for my still re- 
 motely imminent daughters' perusal I was
 
 THE COCOON 149 
 
 telling you, dear Book, about Jack and me, and 
 our tumultuous finish at the Rest Cure. 
 
 Where were we? Oh, yes. I was on the Sea- 
 fair roof in my cot and had just discovered my 
 picture in Jack's watch, in the hand of the man- 
 worm of the cocoon next mine. 
 
 " What did I do? " when I recognised Jack's 
 watch in what seemed his dear hand? Not only 
 that, but when he had seen the time, I saw him 
 turn the watch to look at my picture and heard 
 his familiar chuckle of domestic bliss. 
 
 " I chortle in my glee when I look at you, 
 Blessibus ! " So he had said more than once in 
 moments of tenderness, and it seemed to me I 
 almost heard him say it now. 
 
 " What did I do? " Why, Bookie, I'm almost 
 ashamed to tell you. I bawled, that's what I 
 did. Just baioled! Aloud, as a child weeps 
 when the end of all things has come, so I let my- 
 self go. 
 
 Of course, Jack was up instantly and beside 
 me with a spring and before the curious knew 
 what was doing, his head was under the pongee 
 parasol and they must have heard him talking
 
 150 THE COCOON 
 
 baby-talk. It's a motherly way Jack always had 
 with me if I'd get to crying, this baby-talk. 
 
 I have no idea what I said. Jack was there. 
 His dear arms were around me. I must have 
 said something, however, for presently he was 
 answering : 
 
 " Because, my darling, they told me you were 
 out driving, and I strolled up here to take a 
 squint at your i cocoonery,' and your Beaure- 
 garde Davis came and asked me if I'd like a cot, 
 and I said to myself ' Why not? I'll take it and 
 see how it feels till she comes,' and I must 
 have slept quite a bit. After my night on the 
 cars I was dead tired. 
 
 " Frankly, my dear, I had no idea you'd come 
 in before dark and I didn't quite know where to 
 bestow myself if I crawled out. You see, I 
 couldn't register not knowing just how things 
 were till I'd seen you. 
 
 " But what are you crying for? How could I 
 register? Haven't I been telling you? Nobody 
 knows I'm here. I couldn't give you away 
 and and sh sh h h ! People'll be 
 wondering what's the matter. Aren't you glad 
 to see me, Honeybus? ' Get your letter?' What
 
 'THE COCOON 151 
 
 letter? I've got miles of 'em! Wait a minute! 
 and sh h h ! Stop crying I'll be right 
 back " 
 
 A sudden attack of hysteria, while not exactly 
 common among the nerve racked habitues of 
 the roof, was not unprecedented and so no one 
 paid much attention to a strange man hurrying 
 away and returning presently with something 
 in a tumbler to administer under a parasol. 
 
 New tired people came in, you know, as fast 
 as the rested went out. The caravansary was 
 used to itself and its ways. 
 
 Neither was any one interested to follow the 
 hysterical lady entirely swathed in shawls and 
 veil when she presently left the roof, virtually 
 carried in the arms of her husband. 
 
 I had been so swept from my feet by the ex- 
 citement of Jack's arrival that I hadn't thought 
 of the comedy of the flowers I hadn't thought 
 of anything coherently indeed until he had 
 set me down in my room, in the midst of the 
 array. 
 
 Then there was something in it all that 
 seemed to bring back everything with a rush. 
 I tried to straighten up and meet things, but I
 
 152 THE COCOON 
 
 was too tired, and after a spell of strangling 
 and back-slapping I fell to sobbing and was for- 
 cibly taken to lap, willy nilly, and coddled and 
 scolded. 
 
 I knew I was failing utterly as a woman and 
 lapsing into a wretched invertebrate, but at last 
 I got out: 
 
 " Oh, Jack ! Jack ! " and then I was off 
 again, fairly drowning in grief. 
 
 " It's these awf awf-f-fl-flowers, Jack and 
 every thing! I'm going to d-die I f-feel 
 so " 
 
 Then, seizing the first trivial grievance that 
 offered, I cried: 
 
 "Wh-why don't you ask me about them? Do 
 you think I'm running a flower-show down 
 here? " 
 
 " What's the matter with the flowers, I'd like 
 to know? Have you any objection to them?" 
 His voice was positively stern and it brought me 
 to myself. I sat up and looked him straight in 
 the eye. 
 
 " J-Jack Heminway," I stammered. " D-do 
 you know anything about these f-fool 
 flowers?"
 
 THE COCOON 153 
 
 " Well, I like that ! " He was exasperatingly 
 calm. " Who else has a right to know, I won- 
 der? Who else would be filling my wife's room 
 with roses? " 
 
 I moved away back, to the very edge of his 
 knees and looked at him. 
 
 "But, Jack! Are you crazy? It's well I 
 know who sent them or I'd think you had sus- 
 tained an organic lesion of the brain! Why, 
 those orchids must have cost three dollars apiece 
 at Thorler's if not more." 
 
 " They did cost fully that, my dear if not 
 more and at Thorler's. There's nothing 
 wrong with that, that I can see, and " He had 
 been unwinding the green gauze from my head, 
 and now, seeing me well for the first time, he 
 chuckled: "And I don't see anything wrong 
 with you, either. Why, bless me, Blessy, you're 
 as pink and smooth as a three months' old baby. 
 This rest-cure is great! But come, now, I want 
 to do some talking. 
 
 " First, I must hurry down and register and 
 it might be well for you to go with me; that is, 
 if you are ready to 'fess up and acknowledge 
 me?"
 
 154 THE COCOON 
 
 This was bringing things to a focus. Trouble 
 already vaguely hovering loomed dark and aw- 
 ful. 
 
 I'm not a cry-baby, exactly. I know I'm not, 
 and yet, all my life, when I haven't known what 
 else to do, I've just cried. And so I did now 
 just cried, wearily at first, then all the time 
 with my face averted from Jack's I let my- 
 self go again, in sheer bewilderment of grief, 
 Jack pitifully begging me to tell him about it; 
 and when I finally escaped from tears, it was 
 by the unhinged gate of laughter and, of 
 course,' that required heroic measures, drops 
 chokingly swallowed and kisses limply repelled, 
 before I was able to listen while poor Jack kept 
 reminding me that the time was short and he 
 had important things to say. 
 
 Even this sensational announcement fell upon 
 my ears like summer rain with no meaning be- 
 yond the power to defer the evil moment, until, 
 finally, he lifted my face to his, wiped its tears 
 away and said, in the unmistakable tone one uses 
 in trying to quiet a crying child : 
 
 " Guess what I've got in my dress-suit-case 
 down stairs?"
 
 THE COCOON 155 
 
 But I was in no mood for guessing. 
 
 " I've brought your wedding-dress, Wifey, and 
 it's down in the rotunda now." 
 
 Now, I listened. Anything to avert the main 
 issue! Besides, this was interesting. 
 
 "And have you known him all this time?" I 
 asked, sniffling. " And are you in it, too? " 
 
 "In what, Beloved?" Oh, how I loved him! 
 And how I kept sheathing the blade which would 
 any moment sever us forever ! I even welcomed 
 the Butte's silly affair as a foil in my extremity ! 
 
 " Why, in the Butte's wedding, to-night, of 
 course. She asked me to be matron of honour, 
 and I had to tell her I had no suitable dress, 
 and here you turn up with the dress and you 
 evidently know all about the flowers and every- 
 thing." 
 
 " Butte nothing ! But you're to be matron of 
 honour, just the samee ! " 
 
 At this, the furniture in the room began to 
 sway and the windows turned dizzily sidewise, 
 while red and green discs melted into each other 
 whichever way I looked. I grasped my hus- 
 band's knee and half sanely and half as one on 
 the ragged edge, I gasped :
 
 156 THE COCOON 
 
 " It's Alice in Wonderland ! And you're go- 
 ing to say 'All persons over a mile high, leave 
 the court ! ' " 
 
 " Well, suppose I do. That won't expel you ! " 
 But his light laughter belied a serious face, 
 even while he added playfully, " You're not a 
 mile high, even when you get on a high horse. 
 I can always reach you with a step-ladder." 
 
 " You are making fun of me, Jack ! " I 
 snapped. " I may be a real fool but I'm not 
 I'm not a fantastic fool! W T hat's all this 
 nonsense about my wedding-dress and and 
 all these silly flowers and your sneaking in 
 and spying on me? " 
 
 " Blessy ! " 
 
 " No, I take that back, of course ! " It was 
 really too common ! " But it is queer, you'll 
 allow. Here I've been led to believe you couldn't 
 possibly be along before Saturday, and " 
 
 " Blessy! " The call was staccato. " Look 
 in my face. Now listen, will you? Give me five 
 minutes, and not a syllable, if you love me, till 
 I get through. There's going to be a wedding 
 here to-night, a sensational wedding in the smart
 
 THE COCOON 1ST 
 
 set, and you are to be matron of honour do 
 you hear?" 
 
 "Ambition, distraction, uglification and deri- 
 sion," I mocked, " and the drawing-master was 
 a conger eel and he taught us drawing, stretch- 
 ing and fainting in coils. But where's the 
 gryphon ? " 
 
 I repeated the words mechanically, gazing va- 
 cantly at the discs as they floated between my 
 eyes and my little plaster Lincoln Imp upon 
 the wall, but Jack paid no attention whatever. 
 Alice in Wonderland did not exist for him while 
 he went on : 
 
 " And I brought your wedding-dress, my dear, 
 because I remembered that you wore it when you 
 were matron for Evelyn Dardrieth." 
 
 " But Evelyn Dardrieth was my friend." 
 
 "And the bride of this evening is a friend's 
 friend." 
 
 The phrasing of this shot a chill through me. 
 His letter to " a friend's friend " that moment 
 in my pocket was suddenly a live coal firing my 
 mind to flame. Was he insidiously, maliciously, 
 brutally, tending toward some awful dtnoue-
 
 158 THE COCOON 
 
 mentf In the lurid glare of suspicion, jealousy 
 conjured all sorts of horrors. 
 
 For a moment my hand even sought the offend- 
 ing letter. If there was going to be trouble like 
 this, the initiative was mine, not his, and yet, 
 as I looked into his face, I couldn't do it. I 
 couldn't accuse him ; but I am sure my face was 
 not good to behold as I sprang from his knee, 
 but not swiftly enough to elude his staying hand. 
 Gently but firmly he drew me back to my place, 
 and held me there. It really was my place, for 
 was I not his rightful queen and on my own 
 throne? So, loving him with all my life even 
 while I held aloof, I parried the inevitable, just 
 to prolong this last moment there, and tried to 
 answer him casually : 
 
 " Really, Jack," I pleaded, " are we talking on 
 the earth plane, honestly? And who, may I ask, 
 is this ' friend's friend,' forsooth and w r here? " 
 
 " She is here. Now, keep still, Blessy. You 
 look so strange, you scare me. I'll do my best 
 to explain, but don't scream t Fire ! ' or l Police ! ' 
 till I'm done. You've heard of Geraldine Hal- 
 dane, Carrie Oglesby's chum, and at present 
 Oglesby's ward? Well, I J. D. Heminway
 
 THE COCOON 159 
 
 as Oglesby's partner, am, in a manner, represent- 
 ing him. You understand? You remember the 
 girl?" 
 
 " Remember the beautiful heiress, Geraldine 
 Haldane? Why, who hasn't heard of her? 
 Everybody in New York who is anybody knows 
 all about her, of course and that Englishman. 
 Haven't they been floating in and out of society 
 columns, both here and on the other side, for 
 the last twelve months? She virtually lives 
 abroad, anyway. You know, she's lost dis- 
 appeared months ago when the Duke of Don- 
 aught came over to marry her. Lots of people 
 think she's been swallowed up in the white slave 
 trade. Of course, I wouldn't wish ill to any- 
 body, but if my sorrow over so gruesome a fate 
 could be mitigated, it would be in the case of one 
 of these supercilious, expatriated American 
 heiresses." 
 
 " That's the worst thing I ever heard you say, 
 Blessy. But don't worry. She's a little white 
 slave of circumstance, is Miss Haldane, but 
 that's all, and she is going to be married here 
 to-night and to her other English lover and 
 that's why I hurried along."
 
 160 THE COCOON 
 
 " Why you hurried along? I'll be switched if 
 I see the connection, but no matter. Will you 
 kindly tell me why she is to be married here, 
 of all places in the world? " 
 
 " Because they are here." 
 
 " ' They,' you say? Here? Not at Seafair? " 
 
 " Yes, my Love, here at Seafair at the sani- 
 tarium to which institution I've been dutifully 
 directing all Oglesby's business correspondence 
 with her, sending her cheques, etc., for the last 
 six months, to ward off possible suspicion of his 
 keeping up with her. They say her people have 
 detectives shadowing everybody she knows. 
 Oglesby really didn't know where she was, for 
 a while. I'm quite curious to see her, especially 
 after your report of her. Of course, you've 
 guessed that she's the little Carter." 
 
 Oh, little Book, little Book ! I'll never be able 
 to tell you what happened then, for I don't 
 in the least know. My first consciousness was 
 of " coming to " in Jack's arms. He says I sud- 
 denly fainted dead away w r hile he was casually 
 talking, which is the simple truth, as he saw it 
 dear unsuspecting Jack! and he declares
 
 THE COCOON 161 
 
 that it was but a natural reaction, after my sur- 
 prise in his sudden coming. 
 
 He'll never know how abased I was, how I 
 grovelled in my soul when I just let myself fall 
 limply back into my old place when I fairly 
 wabbled my head to make sure it rested over 
 the little hollow in his dear neck when finally 
 I was able to look up into his dear eyes and whis- 
 per, " Kiss me, Jack." 
 
 They say the hour of utmost peace in a 
 woman's life is when her child is born. Maybe 
 it is, but I'm not sure. 
 
 When I arrived at speech again, doing my 
 best to be casual, I found myself at a loss as to 
 just where Jack had left off. Fortunately, he 
 promptly came to my relief with: 
 
 "Had you guessed before I came, my dear?" 
 
 " Guessed about the Carter? Surely not. 
 How could I? But, Jack, you know she's as 
 crazy as a loon ! " 
 
 Jack threw back his head and roared. 
 
 " No doubt. And so were you crazy when you 
 married me, but it wasn't in the game for you 
 to show it. Her case is just the reverse, and I'm
 
 162 THE COCOON 
 
 told she does the nervous prostrate to a turn. 
 Oglesby and I nearly expired over that ' hell- 
 hounds ' business. Yes, they say she's worked 
 in all the frills and fooled the whole bunch 
 here." 
 
 "But the man, Jack? The Englishman? 
 You say * they ' are here. I'll remember 
 his name presently. It's it's let me see. 
 Street, that's it, Sir Reginald Street. He must 
 just have arrived." 
 
 " Not at all. He's been here almost since she 
 came and he goes by his own name, too his 
 own name, translated, Reginald La Rue." 
 
 " Not my Canadian ! The perfidious creature ! 
 Reading his old poems to me and and " 
 
 " And knowing all the time who you were and 
 doing you numberless little kindnesses of which 
 you were unaware. He knew we were trying to 
 help him and he didn't know how much you 
 knew, and he hoped every day that you would 
 broach the subject next his heart. He is a 
 manly fellow, much too good for the whole tribe 
 of Haldanes, although I'm half converted to 
 Miss Geraldine, myself the way she just 
 wouldn't when she wouldn't, and Sir Duke had
 
 THE COCOON 163 
 
 to turn around and go back. Only last week, 
 her mother said to me : ' If I could only find 
 her, she might marry whom she pleased.' 
 
 " ' And would you be willing to put that in 
 writing? ' said I, seizing my chance. i I'm going 
 knocking 'round and I might stumble on her 
 and if I had ' 
 
 " ' Gladly ! ' She interrupted with a gush of 
 tears, not even letting me finish. 
 
 "And / have it in my pocket this minute 
 with the license, which, I assure you, gave us 
 more trouble but we've got it! 
 
 " So you can see there was no time to lose. 
 You know, her mother was a Vanderthrift and 
 she had the millions and, as I've said, Oglesby is 
 her guardian now. Her father had a stroke 
 when she disappeared, but she mustn't know it." 
 
 A white light began to dawn. I looked 
 around the room, at the flowers and then at 
 my husband. 
 
 "And these are her flowers, I suppose?" 
 
 " Yes, Goosey, these are her flowers. Have 
 you any objection? " 
 
 " Don't bother me, Jack. Let me get my wits 
 together. She never seemed to see the Cana-
 
 164 THE COCOON 
 
 dian. Why, I never knew her to leave her 
 room." 
 
 " Strictly not. She's as much afraid of a 
 camera as any criminal. Otherwise Street could 
 not have dared show up here, for, of course, she 
 didn't know he was here, that is, not till day be- 
 fore yesterday. He knew she was in retirement 
 and he came incog., just to be near her. He sent 
 all his letters under cover to Montreal or Quebec 
 to be remailed, and there were not many and, 
 even so, they were written in French as from a 
 certain Sister Mercedes, nonexistent, who is al- 
 leged to have taught her in some convent on the 
 other side just in case the secret should have 
 leaked out. They've had a bad time, those 
 lovers. 
 
 " But when I started off with that maternal 
 permission in my pocket, Oglesby sent a tele- 
 gram in cipher to i La Rue,' who rushed a card 
 up to ' Miss Carter,' and things began to march 
 in line. 
 
 " Of course, she would have married without 
 her mother's consent, if worse came to worst, 
 but she hated to, after openly defying her about 
 Donaught, or Donaughty, as the New York
 
 165 
 
 Galaxy calls him. I fancy, from all accounts, 
 that the little girl did well to let him slide. 
 Oglesby has handled the affair on his side with 
 great delicacy and skill. Five millions there, 
 you know. But for my having been drawn into 
 it for him, I might never have heard of this place 
 or thought of sending you here. 
 
 " If Street hadn't been a trump, I'd have put 
 you on your guard, but it wasn't necessary. 
 But tell me, Dear, what put such a notion into 
 your head as that these were the Butte's 
 flowers? " 
 
 " Not now, Jack. One thing at a time. I'll 
 tell you all about that to-morrow, next day, next 
 week 
 
 " And you say to-night, Jack? " 
 
 Jack took out his watch. 
 
 " In exactly three hours. The decorators 
 come at eight to arrange the flowers in the 
 chapel, ceremony at nine. Train for Chicago at 
 ten fifteen thence they go to well, that's 
 their business." 
 
 I had been rubbing Jack's hand up and down 
 over my cheek. I put it down now and laid my 
 other hand over it in my lap while I answered:
 
 166 
 
 " I begin to see and things look natural 
 again, or half natural. But, Jack, why in the 
 kingdom did you send those flowers to me? I 
 won't try to tell you the fright they put me to 
 not now." 
 
 " For every reason, Dear, I sent them to you. 
 First, because I knew my little wife to be dis- 
 creet. She isn't caught napping. If she didn't 
 understand, she wouldn't say so. Am I not right 
 in that?" kissing the top of my head, as he 
 spoke. 
 
 " But I was much too humble yet to do more 
 than shrug my shoulders. 
 
 " Then, Dear," Jack went on, " you see, no one 
 knew anything about the wedding, and they were 
 not to know until the last minute not until 
 they had been invited into the chapel saves f " 
 
 " Yes, I see." 
 
 "And didn't I guard your little secret well, 
 ' Miss Heminway '? you little rascal ! when 
 I sent them just to ' No. 99, Heminway,' no Miss 
 or Mrs. or anything no seeming avoidance 
 no possibility of mistake." 
 
 " Hush bragging, Jack, and hand me my 
 buffer. I've had every physical attention here
 
 THE COCOON 167 
 
 except manicuring. Women don't manicure for 
 other women much, and I always go gloved to 
 the roof and my sainted old Doctor is in the 
 far-sighted period of life, poor dear. That's 
 why he still thinks well of me. 
 
 " Look at my hands. Well washed and then 
 forgot. You are much too good for me, Jack, 
 but there's no time to talk now. You'd better 
 ring for those suit-cases and while you're shak- 
 ing out wrinkles, I'll be polishing up. 
 
 " Any refreshments? " 
 
 " Oh, yes, a few things. Some terrapin and 
 lobster and a galantine or two and sandwiches 
 
 and, of course, a little champagne and coffee 
 
 and the usual bride's cake, etc." 
 " And only us, for all that? " 
 
 " Yes, only us and a handful of friends from 
 the Belvedere, and Joe Conwright and his wife 
 are motoring over. And, by the way, the Gov- 
 ernor of the State is here for the night, with his 
 lady. It seems they have a niece here, taking 
 the cure. I met them on the sleeper and we ex- 
 changed cards and they are coming, and I'll get 
 him to sign as one of the witnesses. It'll tickle 
 the old lady Haldane tremendously."
 
 168 THE COCOON 
 
 "And no one from the sanitarium?" 
 
 " Several from the sanitarium, certainly, be- 
 sides Dr. Jacques and his family, who will be the 
 most dignified witnesses. I believe she's asking 
 several of the staff, each one confidentially, of 
 course. And your friend, the joke-man, he's in 
 the secret. Indeed, he's going to write it up 
 for the New York press." 
 
 "And how long has he known, pray?" 
 
 " Since just now several hours ago. 
 Oglesby telegraphed him to meet a member of 
 his firm at the station to confer about a matter 
 of business and there he stood when I got off 
 the train. And he's to have a ripping cheque, 
 too, worthy of the prominence of the contracting 
 parties. Poor little man! When I told him 
 what he would be paid, he quite filled up for a 
 minute as he gasped : ' Gee ! What a windfall ! 
 Why, I'll be able to send for my wife. She's 
 awfully done for, after nursing me through all 
 my typhoid.' ' 
 
 "His wife?" 
 
 "Why not?" 
 
 " Oh, no reason, I suppose only, he looks 
 such a boy and it was so silly of him to spend
 
 THE COCOON 169 
 
 all that money on roses, if he had a wife to look 
 after and is so poor that a little wedding write-up 
 counts." 
 
 " You have much to learn, little one. Don't 
 you know that people of the artistic temperament 
 dote on buying roses when the bread's out? And 
 they are high class when they don't owe for their 
 roses, the dear infants. But as for this being a 
 trifling order, you are mistaken. One of the last 
 things her mother said to me w r as " 
 
 " Whose mother? " 
 
 " Why Geraldine Haldane's mother, of course. 
 Whose else? The last thing she said to me when 
 she signed that paper was, ' Nothing cheap, now ! 
 If you should run against them and they should 
 be playing fool and getting married, I want de- 
 cent bills. No tupenny business. Oh, my poor 
 lamb ! ' And she was weeping copiously when 
 she said it, too, poor old soul ! 
 
 " So I went straight from her to the telephone, 
 consulted Oglesby, thence to the florist, ascer- 
 tained what the Campden-Bellows wedding flow- 
 ers cost and duplicated the order to a dot. From 
 there to Sperry's and had the Ulric-Considene 
 wedding-supper repeated, with a trifle or two
 
 170 THE COCOON 
 
 added just for grandeur, and I was on my way 
 to fetch a reporter when I remembered your lit- 
 tle joke-man whom I discover to be one of the 
 Planet's crack society reporters, supposedly still 
 hors de combat after a tussle with typhoid, and 
 he's to have his cheque to-night and I believe 
 that's all. My handling of the affair shall be as 
 princely as I can make it. I don't often have 
 such a chance." 
 
 " And you've never told her mother a thing? " 
 "The secret wasn't mine to tell, dear heart. 
 It became mine only to keep and I was let in 
 simply to help. Besides, I wouldn't have 
 trusted her. She'd no sooner have known her 
 1 poor lamb ' alive and well than she'd have tried 
 to lock her up again. 
 
 " I don't see what she's making such a kick 
 about, anyhow, for Street is big-rich in his own 
 right and a gentleman. If it hadn't been for 
 the possibility of the ducal coronet, she'd have 
 jumped at Street. She'll always feel that 
 Geraldine's cousin, Sybil Clangour, is just one 
 degree ahead of Geraldine socially in being even 
 the divorced wife of that nasty old Earl whom 
 she was obliged to leave. You know, she and
 
 THE COCOON 171 
 
 Geraldine were presented the same season." 
 
 " Yes, I remember well enough. Two years 
 after I was," I blurted, but Jack went on : 
 
 " I tell you, Blessy, the human is an in- 
 scrutable creature, especially the female of the 
 species, in the exercise of her master passion." 
 
 " I agree with you, Jack," I chirped, squinting 
 at the shine on my thumb-nail, to keep a straight 
 face. " Yes, I agree with you, the female of our 
 species is often more lively than the male. I 
 admit that." 
 
 Jack was putting in his shirt studs and he 
 didn't look up. He was used to my talk. Still, 
 his face lit as he turned to me presently with : 
 
 " I've missed you a lot, Blessibus ! I do won- 
 der if I dare take you home with me, sure enough 
 about next Thursday, say? I think I might 
 arrange to stay that long, and you will have had 
 one solid week of real repose, dead calm. I'll 
 see to that." 
 
 " Dare to take me ! " I mocked. " Well, I like 
 that! I dare you not to. But really, Jack, 
 hadn't we better run down now, so that you can 
 register? You see, you are just a strange man 
 to these people yet, and you've been up here in
 
 172 THE COCOON 
 
 my room a good while. No doubt many of the 
 three hundred curious who know you to be here 
 surmise that you are the prospective happy 
 groom still, we don't want any talk." 
 
 "' Happy groom?'" Jack repeated absently. 
 Then, " Oh, yes, that's a fact. And by the way, 
 Blessy, do you know I was wakened on the roof 
 this afternoon by hearing my own name called 
 and I got on to local gossip in regard to my wife 
 quite some." 
 
 " Did you hear that? " I giggled. 
 
 " Sure I heard it. Did you? " 
 
 " Oh, Jack, it's a funny world, this. I seem 
 to see Alice looming again. Everything seems 
 half unreal yet. But we've no time to talk now. 
 Come along ! " 
 
 As we crossed the roof together on our way to 
 the elevator, hatless and happy as two children, 
 I grabbed Jack's sleeve, detaining him just a 
 moment to whisper in his ear: 
 
 " There they are, now, Dear, over by the south 
 tower that huge, ringlety man bending over 
 the pink clouds in the roller-chair that's the 
 Brigand, hovering still, I see, around the Gipsy. 
 Wouldn't it be terrible if he confused yellow
 
 THE COCOON 173 
 
 hair with haloes? and she fairly dripping with 
 any millionaire's diamonds! I wouldn't worry 
 about him so if he weren't so alluringly rich 
 they say he's called four kinds of a king in the 
 west, cattle-king and three others, and he's so 
 artless. How lost she would be, poor frail sis- 
 ter, if he insisted on building a cathedral around 
 her!" 
 
 I saw Jack glance searchingly at me as if won- 
 dering whether, by any chance, my mind had 
 gone off, just the least bit. Still, his voice was 
 quite natural when he whispered: 
 
 " Don't you fret about these people, my dear. 
 That man will never offer that woman a cathe- 
 dral. Yachts and aeroplanes, maybe, and crys- 
 tal palaces but I respect his discernment in 
 discovering my little girl for what she really is, 
 in spite of her somewhat misleading halo. But 
 ye gods! Who comes here?" 
 
 And before I could answer, the Butte, all done 
 over in pink from aigrette to slippers, and a 
 mile high, at that, emerging apparently from 
 nowhere, had rushed forward and taken me in 
 her arms. 
 
 " Don't mind me," she deferred to Jack.
 
 174 THE COCOON 
 
 "I'm just obliged to hug her!" And, drawing 
 me forcibly aside, she confided : 
 
 " I've just been layin' in wait for you in the 
 quilt booth yonder, watchin' for you to come 
 along. I heard you had company. But, say! 
 Mine swears he never sent me those yellow roses! 
 I just had to come and tell you. But I know 
 who sent 'em. God A'mighty sent 'em, that's 
 who! Sent 'em out of a clear sky because He 
 knew how forlorn I felt, and He knew that my 
 beloved was on the way to me and that all his 
 thoughts were of yellow roses which he couldn't 
 find and He took pity on me. Tell me, Dear, 
 don't you think God could have sent 'em? 
 Don't you believe He did? " 
 
 She was looking straight into my soul my 
 human, sympathetic, understanding sister-wom- 
 an's soul and swallowing hard while I said it, 
 meeting her eager gaze steadily, I answered her. 
 
 " Surely, I do. What do we know about di- 
 vine agencies? Certainly it was He who sent 
 you your golden roses. Even if He had had to 
 make them on the spot, that wouldn't be any 
 trick at all for the One who could think all the 
 world's roses, and endow them as He has done.
 
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 Besides, dear, everything queer is happening. 
 Nothing could surprise " 
 
 But she interrupted: 
 
 " An' he's got the license an' everything but, 
 say ! he denies all that outfit of weddin' flowers, 
 too denies it pot black ! " Then, lowering her 
 voice and glancing at Jack, who had slipped back 
 a bit into the shadow, she flashed: " Oh, say! 
 Yours is as good lookin' again as his picture, 
 although I'd know him by it. Of course, I knew 
 he'd be classy. I heard a swell New Yorker was 
 up in your room, your l intended,' they said, but 
 of course I had my own ideas. 
 
 " But tell me, you sweet thing, look straight 
 into my eyes. You couldn't tell a lie, if you 
 tried. Is mine foolin' me? And didn't those 
 flowers come anonymous? An' don't you an' I 
 know in our souls they are my bridal flowers? " 
 
 "No, positively, dear. They are for another 
 wedding and, of course, my husband and I 
 are in the secret. I didn't know till he came. 
 They aren't yours, but " 
 
 I was thinking fast. What I wanted to do 
 was to offer her the service of the flowers if she 
 would take a later hour than the others for her
 
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 wedding. But when it came to doing this very 
 definite thing, I found myself still strangely 
 timid. I couldn't quite vouch for her sanity. 
 Indications to the contrary were too recent. 
 Laying my hand upon her, as in some sort apolo- 
 gising for my words which I toned as gently as 
 I could, I plunged: 
 
 "And you say your man has really come?" 
 
 " ' Really come? ' " she repeated, stung to the 
 quick, I feared. "Well, I like that!" And 
 turning quickly, she called over her shoulder : 
 
 "You, Willie! Willie Winchester! Come 
 out here and show yourself ! " 
 
 And out from his hiding, behind a stack of 
 screens, stepped forward, or rather ambled, a 
 great, kindly, loose-jointed man, so like the 
 Brigand that I started, almost hesitating before 
 I offered him my hand, as I made a point of 
 doing. 
 
 But w r hen he had come out into the full light, 
 and the slanting rays of a low sun fell into his 
 hair, illumining his face, I saw a man still like 
 our Brigand, but glorified, younger, gentler, and 
 of fairer colouring, and I realised how the 
 camera, which takes no note of half shades, had
 
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 seemed to present a replica of the older man, 
 for even in height and general outline the two 
 were singularly alike. 
 
 " Mr. Winchester, I want to make you ac- 
 quainted with Mis' Heminway, the lady I've 
 been writin' you about all this time. In other 
 words, this is my Little Oasis ; my intended, Mis' 
 Heminway." 
 
 So we were introduced. And then, of course, 
 I had to call Jack, and he and the " intended " 
 got into a little talk while the Butte, chuckling 
 absurdly, drew me apart again to whisper: 
 
 " Say, ain't he the spittin' image of Col. Cop- 
 perthwaite? I saw you see it quick as you laid 
 eyes on him. They tell me that when I used to 
 be nervous and half nutty, whilst I was losin' 
 my sleep so constant, I fairly hounded the 
 colonel. You see, I took him for my Willie. 
 Wasn't it fierce? " 
 
 Before we parted, it was agreed that by as- 
 sumed concurrence of the first parties in the 
 first ceremony the second wedding that evening 
 should occur at ten o'clock, the floral decorations 
 to remain intact ; also that, in the absence of any 
 of her near of kin, I should stand with the second
 
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 bride, also, as matron of honour. Then with a 
 final precautionary " Mum's the word," fairly 
 wresting myself from the mammoth blush which 
 suffused me in " just one parting hug," I seized 
 Jack's arm and we hurried down together to 
 register and to " make good." 
 
 During all this rapid fire, there smouldered 
 as a red coal in my sub-consciousness a sense of 
 shame and responsibility as to the letter which 
 lay deep in my pocket; and so the first thing I 
 did when we had reached the rotunda, while 
 Jack was writing his name in the great book, 
 was to hand the letter, with a sinful tip, to the 
 porter with a request that he deliver it without 
 delay to the lady to whom it was addressed, as 
 it had been sent by mistake in Mrs. Heminway's 
 mail; on doing which, thus openly, I felt some- 
 thing like a sense of dignity restored. 
 
 And this, Dear Book, is the story as nearly as 
 I can tell it straight, of how there came to be 
 two weddings in the chapel at Seafair that even- 
 ing two notable weddings, indeed, for the real 
 identity of the Butte and still more of her man, 
 and their romance, of which it would be only 
 tantalising to offer a hint and which it would
 
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 take much too long to tell all that is another 
 story. 
 
 There was a menacing hitch in the affair for 
 a little while when it was learned that the train 
 from Richmond which was to fetch the officiating 
 ministers had been detained by a "freight 
 wreck ahead " and could not possibly arrive be- 
 fore midnight; but while everybody concerned 
 was consulting and no one able to suggest relief, 
 into the breach stepped who but the Brigand, if 
 you please, eager, complaisant, offering his 
 services. 
 
 He had been regularly licensed as the Camp- 
 bellite " Christian " minister, many years before, 
 it was true, but he had always kept himself 
 equipped for emergencies (plural, please notice) 
 and could marry, baptise, or bury on occasion. 
 Indeed, before any one could question him, he 
 had whipped out his license and robes, the use of 
 the latter, he explained, being a matter of choice. 
 
 For himself, although exercising his preroga- 
 tive only by authority conferred by a church 
 connection which discountenanced ceremonial 
 or display, he felt a certain dignity in donning 
 the surplice and stole for the marriage rite.
 
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 Also, the Episcopal form was at their service, 
 if preferred; and further, he hesitated to sug- 
 gest and yet why should one hesitate to do 
 a kindly turn? it was no business of his, 
 although, of course, it would be a matter of busi- 
 ness if Mme. Gipsy Fournette could be iuduced 
 to sing if it was desired, he was not sure, but 
 perhaps ? She was very expensive, of course, 
 but if people knew what was what and were 
 willing to pay for the best Madame had 
 just been discharged by her physician and would 
 be returning to her work in a day or so. It was 
 the chance of a lifetime. 
 
 Certainly he would see about it, although he 
 always advised the principals to approach a pro- 
 fessional on a matter of business. She was an 
 artist and could be tres difficile if she were pro- 
 voked. 
 
 Well, the upshot of it all was that when I 
 walked up the chapel aisle, that evening, pre- 
 ceding the first bride, correctly, my first surprise 
 came in the Wedding March from Lohengrin, a 
 contribution of local talent and admirably done 
 by whom but the poor Visiting Lady whom I did 
 not recognise, of course, until later in the even-
 
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 ing, when it was my delight to take her hand, 
 and virtually, if not literally, tell her that I 
 loved her. And I did, as I implied it, with all 
 my heart; and I was so glad to discover that 
 she had the consolations of music when her 
 thankless task of feeding sugar to jungle beasts 
 in a menagerie became too hard. 
 
 At the moment we reached the chancel and 
 the waiting groom, even while the last notes of 
 the organ were dying, there arose a rich con- 
 tralto voice, tender and sweet in Cantor's beau- 
 tiful "Oh, Fair, Oh, Sweet and Holy," filling 
 the chapel with melody so tender, so really 
 " sweet and holy " in tone suggestion as to be- 
 come a fitting part of worship, such was the art 
 of Gipsy Fournette, such nature's endowment to 
 her. 
 
 And while she approached the closing notes 
 of her song, slowly, noiselessly, from behind the 
 palms to the left of the high altar, there stepped 
 the most resplendent creature of us all, for I 
 assure you, dear, dear Book, our Brigand had 
 neglected nothing in the way of magnificence. 
 
 My recollection of him now is as of a great 
 blur of crimson and gold, and when I appealed
 
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 to Jack afterward, of course, he could give 
 me little satisfaction as to its significance. 
 
 He insisted, however, in taking upon himself 
 any possible blame in the matter, as he con- 
 fessed, when I had delivered myself of my opin- 
 ion on the subject which was that our offici- 
 ating minister, in the performance of a sacred 
 Christian ceremony, had got himself up like a 
 pagan, and that to my mind, his appearance 
 suggested a cross between a Chinese mandarin 
 and a cockatoo when I had got this venom out 
 of my system, I say, Jack insisted that any blame 
 as to the Brigand's effort in our behalf should 
 be laid at his door, as w r hen that artless though 
 dangerously resourceful person had consulted 
 him in the matter, he was busy with other things 
 and had playfully thrown at him that this was 
 to be a full-dress occasion and to " go ahead and 
 do his damnedest!" 
 
 Which it seems, he did. But to do him jus- 
 tice, when approached playfully at the supper- 
 table on the subject of " presenting a pagan priest 
 to a Christian congregation," he was eager to ex- 
 plain with pains and particularity that he had 
 carefully selected from such oriental garments
 
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 as he had in his trunk only such as symbolised 
 spiritualism without dogma and which conse- 
 quently belonged by right to west as well as 
 east. Christianity had a right to all the lofty 
 symbolism there was, or " the best that was go- 
 ing," to quote literally. He wished he could 
 explain, but it was difficult to interpret the 
 Orient in the clumsy phrasing of occidental 
 tongues. 
 
 We were glad to know all this, for every rea- 
 son, and indeed, in any event, it would have been 
 particularly hard to find serious fault with a 
 man who, after putting himself to so great pains, 
 had resented even a mention of compensation for 
 his services. Besides neither of the parties most 
 concerned had seemed to find anything to criti- 
 cise, which was a comfort. 
 
 Of course, Jack made the honorarium to 
 Mile. Fournette with a view to pleasing old 
 Mother Haldane. Money was positively no ob- 
 ject, and when a man with no cost to himself 
 can honestly encourage the arts, entertain a lot 
 of pleasure-hungry shut-ins, and make two 
 women supremely happy why not? 
 
 And it is fair to suppose that the groom from
 
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 Montana duplicated her honorarium, for at the 
 precise place in the second ceremony where she 
 had sung in the first, the Gipsy gave us in fine 
 form, Rubinstein's delightful interpretation of 
 Heine's " Thou Art Like a Lovely Flower " 
 gave it thus in English translation, too, which I 
 regretted, although I was probably the only 
 person present who was vulgar enough to apply 
 the words personally to the beaming bride and 
 to run a troublesome mind swiftly through an 
 interminable list of familiar flowers, and with- 
 out result 
 
 Let it not be supposed, however, that the 
 happy bride from Montana, while perhaps fail- 
 ing to measure up as a flower, fell short in any 
 particular as to full bridal dress, correct and 
 elegant, although the ultra critical might have 
 questioned its fitness for so necessarily uncon- 
 ventional an occasion ; but this would have been 
 because they were sentiment -blind and unworthy 
 witnesses of a ceremony of high romance. 
 
 Even before the quiet departure of the first 
 bridal party, a brilliant line of automobiles had 
 begun to assemble at the entrance of the Sani- 
 tarium and guests from afar streamed into the
 
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 chapel, even while the posted notices of " general 
 invitation " were crowding it beyond its doors, so 
 that resetted ushers in evening dress, Drs. Wei- 
 born and others of the younger members of the 
 staff, were kept busy clearing the way for the 
 second function, when the majestic bride strode 
 measuredly in her place in full regalia, veil, 
 orange-flowers and train, yes, and even a train- 
 bearer, a fairy of five, whom I succeeded in cap- 
 turing for the occasion from the wife of one of 
 the resident doctors. 
 
 The Butte wished it thus, not that she or her 
 Willie cared a rap, she assured me, but she " had 
 had that weddin' outfit so long, and a girl could 
 wear orange-blossoms only once. Then, too, it 
 would be somethin' worth tellin' about and 
 maybe showin', in after years: ' mother in her 
 bridal dress/ and even grandmother, in time 
 one never could tell. Of course, she would have 
 the picture taken the first thing, in New York." 
 
 This last wish, however, I easily saw to it that 
 she should realise without delay, for it needed 
 only a hint to the good lady of the Boston bag 
 to have her whip out a camera and " a package 
 of flash-light," and, at the psychological moment,
 
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 the thing was done in a wink done from the 
 choir-gallery of the chapel, just as the bride 
 turned smiling from the altar beside her man. 
 
 And so it happened that the crowning spec- 
 tacular event of the evening was the sensational 
 marriage and departure of the young lady of 
 Butte, and when the honking cortege finally dis- 
 appeared, a blaze of glory along the beachroad, 
 and the nine-days'-wonder of it all had been 
 whispered out in the corridors and on the roof, 
 the sanitarium settled down into a dead calm. 
 
 Poor Butte! She had had a romantic if sad 
 and spectacular life up to this. If only I could 
 tell you her story! And his her Willie's! 
 what difficulties they had surmounted, and what 
 they are even now setting out to accomplish, 
 God help them ! 
 
 He Mr. Winchester, to be decent was de- 
 lighted with everything and insisted on throwing 
 money out promiscuously, but, of course, again, 
 Jack could not fail the Lady Haldane. 
 
 He did relent, however, to the extent of taking 
 Winchester into his confidence as to the official 
 reporter, fee and all, with the result that the 
 press of east and west, from Maine to California,
 
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 was supplied with distinguished notices written, 
 on a duplicate order, by the radiant Joke-man, 
 whose name for the nonce it seems high time to 
 be writing with a capital, and who resembled 
 nothing so much as a migratory grin, as he circu- 
 lated officially at both functions. 
 
 At double weddings, I believe, both ceremonies 
 are incorporated in a single service; thus, the 
 affair at Seafair was not strictly of this class, 
 and yet when my friends of that kindly institu- 
 tion insisted on calling this a triple wedding, in- 
 asmuch as the matron-of-honour in her yellow- 
 ing wedding-gown had not to them been married 
 until the great occasion, I accepted the role of 
 stale bride with blushing apology, while old Dr. 
 Jacques, who is a saint if there ever was one, 
 took my side like a man while he explained how 
 it hadn't been my fault in the least, but had all 
 come about through a slight inadvertence on the 
 part of their office clerk, who had misunderstood 
 on my arrival. 
 
 And then having the floor, he went on to as- 
 sure us that Miss Butterfield's marriage had 
 been pending ever since her admittance and had 
 only awaited his professional permission, which
 
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 had gone into the mail to her people only the day 
 before the unexpected appearance of the groom, 
 so that, all other things arranged, he had no 
 right to interpose objection; after which, with a 
 twinkle in his kindly old eye such as I had never 
 seen there before, he laughingly added that while 
 no doubt he seemed to us an unsuspicious, easily 
 gulled old codger, he was in fact the custodian 
 of so many vital secrets that he sometimes felt 
 like a walking arsenal, and was half afraid to 
 go near the fire lest he should blow up, and then, 
 where would we all be? 
 
 Well, so ended my brief, if strenuous pursuit 
 of the Rest Cure, for in the dead calm of my 
 week of probation, I was ready meekly, con- 
 tritely and obediently to fold my hands and take 
 all my orders from Jack, who got them from Dr. 
 Jacques, of course, with the result that, on my 
 return home, I looked so renewed and was so 
 conspicuously able without fatigue to resume the 
 comparative tranquillity of social life as it is 
 lived in semi-gay New York that several of 
 Jack's friends have already sent their nerve- 
 racked wives to this Haven of Repose with the
 
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 cogent argument that " it stands to reason that 
 when a woman is worn out with a thousand 
 things, there's nothing like a negative existence 
 still, colourless days with tranquillizing sur- 
 roundings to bring her through; nothing, in 
 fact, like a cocoon for the recovery of wings." 
 
 And when they talk that way, Jack and I are 
 still obliged to avoid each other's eyes. After 
 a first little fling with our friends, we have set- 
 tled down, and we are really living more quietly, 
 more sanely than in the old days, taking stated 
 times off from social things and getting into the 
 open as much as possible, with sky-spaces for 
 tranquil thinking and stillness in which to pos- 
 sess our souls. 
 
 The summer cottage in its garden by the sea 
 is ready for us, its vine-clad veranda fairly 
 blooming itself away in anticipation of our com- 
 ing, but we delay going this season because we 
 are secretly on a still hunt in town for something 
 very near our hearts; and so, in the cosy even- 
 ings now, while Jack knits his brow over some 
 perplexing point in the brief he is trying to 
 write, on his side of the library table, and the 
 canaries drowse in their little cage, one on the
 
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 nest and the man-bird chirping an occasional 
 sleepy assurance of guardianship beside her, 
 Jack glances over his glasses and smiles at them 
 and then he turns to me. So he did last night, 
 and seeing me bending to my task of braiding 
 pink ribbons over and under the rim of a great 
 basket beside me, he bit his lip and flung at me : 
 
 "What's all that about, Blessibus? It looks 
 awfully fetching." 
 
 And I answered merrily : 
 
 "You're cheating, Jack. You promised not 
 to look till it's done. But it's the bassinet, if 
 you must know. Pink is for girls, Jack." 
 
 And we are very happy, even when it is dark 
 night and raining outside, for we know that be- 
 yond the rain and above the clouds, 
 
 " God's in His heaven, 
 All's right with the world." 
 
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