H 1 1 " MEMOIRS MRS COGHLAN, DAUGHTER OF THE LATE MAJOR MONCRIEFFE : WRITTEN BY HERSELF. INTRODUCTION AND NOTES. PRIVATELY REPRINTED. NEW-YORK : T. H. MORRELL. 1864-. Edition 100 copies 8vo. 20 " 410. J. M. BRADSTREET & SON, PRINTERS. Stack Annex INTRODUCTION. '"PHE following Memoirs were publifhed in London in 1794. In February, 1795, Meflrs. T. & J. Swords, of this city, republifhed them, adding a Preface, and fome remarks from a publi- cation entitled " The Female Jockey Club." The New- York edition is now very rare, ~mT~o'wh he"artj~JL efcaped from the great regardlefs of all lefTer evils. I encoun- tered many difficulties on the road : youth, how- ever, and perfeverance, enabled me to furmount them all. Lovers prefTed around me at every inn : Hibernia's gallant fons, fome of whom had feen me in Dublin, made the moft liberal offers, and uttered the warmeft vows ; they would have efcorted me to London, or to any other part of the world ; but I turned a deaf ear to their pro- teftations, and continued my pedeftrian journey, an innocent, folitary fugitive ! From my juvenile appearance, I naturally became an object of fuf- picion to the different inn-keepers, who confider- ed me as an amorous adventurer, run away from my parents ; but on a candid recital of my art- lefs tale, and on my repofing implicit confidence in them, they confented to affift and facilitate my flight. flight. When I arrived at Namptwich, I wrote to Lord Thomas Clinton, (now Lord Lincoln) who had been on very intimate terms with my friends in America. Here, perhaps, my conduct was imprudent, although, I truft, not altogether guilty ; never- thelefs, this act of indifcretion has poflibly occa- fioned many of the fubfequent miferies that I have fince endured. My letter to his Lordfhip was immediately anfwered by Mr. Jackfon, (at- torney to Lord Thomas) inclofing, by his Lord- fhip's order, twenty pounds, and containing a requeft from him, that I mould confider myfelf under his protection, fignifying, that Mr. Cogh- lan had challenged him, in confequence of fome fufpicions which he entertained concerning an amorous attachment between his Lordfhip and myfelf. I had forgot to mention, that my hufband purfued me from Conway, but taking a different rout, mifled his object. When he arrived in London, he mftantly repaired to the houfe of General ( 49 ) General Gage, 19 who hinted to him the probability of h^ fin dingon^ with Lord. Thomas, the Gene- ral having heard a report to that purpofe. Alarmed by this intelligence, he fent for his brother-in-law, Mr. Phipps, (the late member for Peterborough) who accompanied him to Sun- ning-Hill, at which place Lord Thomas then refided. He immediately accufed the latter of having been my feducer, indited on fearching the houfe, and in cafe of refufal, declared that he was prepared, and would infifl on that fatisfac- tion to which an injured hufband was entitled. Fortunately, fome gentlemen, who were on a vifit to his Lordmip, interfered, and afTured Mr. Coghlan that / was not in the houfe ; when, after much perfuafion, he was induced to return to London, at the fame time denouncing vengeance if he mould hereafter difcover that any deception had been practifed upon him. I have never ceafed to rejoice that this affair had no fatal cataftrophe. My hufband's temper was natu- rally violent ; and, born in a country where the barbarous prejudice of duelling bears fuch abfo- lute fway, the noble Lord might have fallen a victim ( 50 ) victim to this favage cuftom the illuftrious houfe of Newcaftle might have been deprived of their heir, and thus another hope of a puiffant family have been loft. Amongft a brave and enlightened people, who have always difplayed the moft exemplary valour in defending their rights, and whofe gener- ous volunteers, led on, in the hour of danger, by the patriots Grattan, Charlemont, Leinfter, and other noble chiefs, have never hefitated to make the deareft facrifice for the public fafety, it cannot be too much lamented, that heroes fo prodigal of life mould not have courage to oppofe and annihilate a barbarifm which has for many centuries fixed a ftigma on a country in every other refpect amiable, and whofe bravery and gallantry are univerfally renowned through all the nations of the world. I am forry to remark, to the utter difgrace of Lord Clinton, that his behaviour to me, when I fell withrrr~fiis power, was fuch as reflects dif- honour both on his head and heart. In the former, I I at once difcovered a vacancy ; it did not, there- fore, afterwards furprife me to find a canker in the latter, having always remarked a weak head and an unprincipled mind to be perfectly congenial to each other. This Jot difant nobleman meanly pro- pofed to furrender me, young and beautiful as I was then considered, (and at the fame time under his immediate care) to the arms of one of his liber- tine companions, only anxious to avoid the me- naces of an enraged Hibernian, and to fecure him- felf from an action of damages. Such an act, committed by a man of inferior birth, would have difgraced him among his fellows ; while the noble derives from thence additional fame, and a breach of every moral duty in the higher circles is re- garded as mere fafhionable levity, as the elegant nonchalance of polite life. In that clafs, diftinc- tion keeps pace with vice, and a ftrict obfervance of morality is deemed dulnefs and infipidity. After what I have faid of nobility, let me be permitted to make one honourable exception : I mould be ungrateful indeed, and belie the feel- ings of my foul, if I did not proclaim my dear 7 friend, friend) Lord Hervey, a nobleman porfefTing honour, generofity, and affection His heart, always open to the congenial feelings of humanity, never refufed obedience to its facred impulfe. I knew him in his prime of youth, and although now lome years have parTed fince I enjoyed the happi- nefs of feeing him, I am pleafed to flatter my- felf that his foul has efcaped the politician's lot, that it has not become hardened and corrupt. How often have I obferved him check the manly tear which had instinctively ftarted in his eye on a recital of my misfortunes ! and how fincerely has he appeared to lament the want of power to reftore me to that fituation which I was born to fill in the world ! While living- under O the protection of Lord Clinton, I endured many unhappy hours, and my affliction did not pafs unobferved by my attendants. One day I was furprifed in fears, by my own woman, to whom 1 related my ftory, as nothing affords more relief to a diftrefled mind, than giving vent to its for- rows : this compaffionate creature, who was by no means privy to his Lordmip's plans, advifed me ( 53 ) me to attempt a reconciliation with my hufband, which advice I rejected ; but, having written a penitent letter to my friend, (the Honourable Mrs. Gage) 17 into whofe hands I defired it to be delivered, General Gage himfelf, who was ever * D ' \ during his life a friend to my family, contrary to the opinion of his lady, fetched me inftantly away from my lodgings in Lower-Seymour-ftreet, and informed Mr. Coghlan's father that the fair fugi- tive was found ; when they held a confutation refpecting my future deftination, the refult of which was, that it would be prudent for me to retire to a convent in France. In this opinion I acquiefced, and confequently departed for Calais, where I hired apartments in the Dominican con- vent. I had not been long in this gloomy retirement, before I was furprifed with a vifit from Lord Thomas Clinton, who informed me of the death of his brother, the late Lord Lin- coln, and was pleafed to fay, that his object in coming to Calais was to know if I was happy. Youth is the feafon of credulity, and flattery never yet was unwelcome to a. female ear. Being myfelf naturally of a lively temper, I could but ill ( 54 ) ill adapt my ideas to the difmal folitude of a monaftery, or to the melancholy habits of its fuperftitious inhabitants, and a circumftance* had lately happened, which had determined me to quit my prefent companions. I knew it was in vain to afk permiffion from my friends to return to England, as it had been determined by them that I mould continue three years in the convent, and abjolute orders had been given to the fupe- rior, that no ftranger mould be admitted to fee me, unlefs he brought letters from them. I mentioned this circumftance to Lord Lincoln, but he was too well acquainted with the fecret virtue of that golden key which he pofTefTed, to pay attention to fuch orders. The fcrupulous deli- cacy of Madame Gray, fuperior of the convent, could not refift the magic of this key ; her virtue yielded, and I confequently dined with his Lord- fhip, nor ever more returned to my difinterested friend * Alluding to a ceremony annually obferved on All Saints Day, or the Refurredtion of Souls, when the bones and fculls of the dead, which had long before been peaceably configned to their mother Earth, together with a coffin, are placed in the chapel of the convent, where all the ladies of the fociety are made to attend the doleful fcene at midnight. ( 55 ) friend, Madame Gray, but agreeable to his Lord- fhip's advice, took my paflage to England. The Nuns, alarmed at my flight, wrote to my friends, excufmg themfelves from having been privy to my efcape, and imputing the whole blame to the woman whofe bufmefs it is to walk out with the pensioners, as being auxiliary to my departure. Soon after my arrival in London, General Gage was informed of my return, and of the place where I had taken up my residence. He immediately difpatched Major Brown to my lodgings, and by him I was acquainted with the mifery which my father fuffered on my account. Unable to endure the thought of afflicting the tendereft of parents, whom I moft affectionately loved, I was eafily induced to forego thofe vifion- ary and fatal fchemes of happinefs, which my imagination had formed. Thus reftored to my friends, I was fixed by Mrs. Gage with a refpect- able family near Grofvenor Square. Sir Charles Gould, who was in habits of cor- refpondence with Major Moncrieffe, 18 paid the expenfes of my board, at the Major s defire. Here ( 56 ) Here I remained two years, at the expiration of which time Mrs. Gage informed me that me had received letters from my father, wherein he ex- prefTed his wifhes that I would form fome plan whereby to gain a future livelihood ; that as by my imprudence I had rendered it impoffible for him to countenance me as his daughter, he ad- vifed me to endeavour to learn the mantua- making bufmefs. The propofal I rejected, con- fidering that I was entitled to a feparate mainte- nance from my hufband, proportionate to his fortune. Thus embarrafled, I waited on Lord Amherft, 19 informing him of my unhappy mar- riage. His Lordfhip remembered me when in my nurfe's arms, which recollection fecure^ me in him a zealous advocate and mediator with my father ; at the fame time flattering me with hopes of fuccefs. On hearing the intention of the latter, his Lordfhip was equally furprifed with myfelf : he inftantly exclaimed, " This furely " would be a curious method to reftore you to "the paths of virtue ;" adding, "that he had a " bad opinion of fuch trades for young women." My ( 57 ) My father was a man of rigid, auftere prin- ciples, whenever virtue or honour were in quef- tion, however indulgent he might be himfelf on other occaiions. The feverity he manifested in this inftance does not derogate in the leaft from his ufual character ; the actual dishonour of a beloved daughter pleads a Sufficient excufe for any harfhnefs which I may have experienced from him. Thusdeferted, I became almoft frantic; I left the family where Mrs. Gage had placed me, and paid a vifit to the man whofe counfels I ought to have fhunned. At his Lordmip's houfe I was received a welcome gueft : on feeing me, \\ejatiricallyfmiled, and faid, " he hoped I had now fufficiently felt the " rod of correction, and that it would teach me to " be regardlefs of every other confideration but " that of improving my own fortune." At this period, Lord Lincoln was engaged in a contefted election for the city of Weftminfter, with that bright luminary of genius who ftill mines with fuch refplendent effulgence in the political world, the Right Honourable Charles Fox. 20 - -I was now now feventeen years old, and felt a natural incli- nation for the ftage : on this fubject I confulted a friend of my father's, Colonel Etherington, who advifed me to procure an introduction to the manager of Drury-Lane Theatre. Accident, at this juncture, brought me acquainted with the Right Honourable Gentleman juft mentioned, (Mr. Fox) whofe intereft I folicited with Mr. Sheridan, 21 and he, with his ufual goodnefs, recommended me to the latter gentleman, and it was then my intention to have made my debut at Drury-Lane Houfe, the following winter. The frequent opportunities I at this time enjoyed of feeing Mr. Fox, whofe affections were 'then (I believe) difengaged, were of the higheft fervice to me ; dulnefs itfelf could not have failed to profit from the inftructions of fo able and elo- quent a friend. During my acquaintance with this amiable and benevolent man, my foul was confecrated to all the fweet emotions of friend- fhip, and happy mould I have been had this inti- macy lafted ; but, alas ! fuch happinefs was not referved for me. Engagedvin the purfuit of moft honourable ( J9 ) honourable ambition, his heart was ever open to the more endearing virtues of private life. The zealous, enthufiaftic patriot was no lefs the fincere affectionate friend the tender, the ardent lover ; and, perhaps, in no one man were ever before united fo many engaging, fo many tranfcendent qualities ; infomuch, that the character given of him in the Houfe of Commons, by his friend Sir Charles Bunbury, feems by no means exagge- rated cc That he was even a hero to his valet de "chambre !" The giddinefs of extreme youth, and remark- able levity of my difpofition at that time, was not calculated to fecure the attachment of this illuftrious character, although in every fubfequent\ trial I have found in him a moft complaifant and/ liberal benefactor. It was now my deftiny to become acquainted with a man in almoft every inftance the reverfe of the former, but he ftill pofTefTed that charm, which, with my turn for extravagance, fupported the place of every other. Mr. Fazakerley was rich^ 8 and ( 6 ) and what rendered him yet more valuable in my fight, he vt&s generous ! He offered me his houfe and prefented to me his purfe ; money feemed no object to him, and fuch a man was adapted to my purpofe. Neverthelefs, it was my nature to be candid, I therefore JrajnJdy~-te4d-4mTr that I was four mpjiths^axTvanced in pregnancy ; and concluded by faying, that he probably might deem this circumftance an obftacle to our connec- / tion. He waved however the objection, made the moft liberal offers, Tnfifted on my applying to no other quarter for protection, and during four years he fupported me and my daughter, without permitting me to draw from Mr. Fox the leaft fupply whatever. Mr. Fazakerley made with me the tour of Europe, and did all in his power -to cultivate my underftanding, and to give me all that fuperficial knowledge and acquirements which are confidered to yield fuch a polifh to our travelled ladies. If I had not profited by the advantages that offered themfelves during my acquaintance with this gentleman, I mould deferve more misfortunes than ( 6. ) than I have even yet endured, if it were poffible they could fall to the lot of any one human being ; but, I truft that my mind has not been altogether unimproved ; and if my heart may have been corrected by the former gentleman, my under- ftahding and perfon have certainly acquired gra- ces and accomplifhments from the pains beftowed on me by the latter. I am therefore bound to acknowledge thofe obligations to Mr. Fazakerley, for the attention I received from him during four years, as well as for many liberal pecuniary fa- vours ; but as to the real happinefs, I never enjoyed it under the aufpices of this gentleman, his temper being extremely morofe and capricious ; nor had he any of thofe qualities formed to con- ciliate the affections of a delicate woman. At the end of four years, this connection was difTolved, and unfortunately for me, all his friend- Jhip perifhed with it. During my misfortunes, he has never liftened to my complaints ; the more miferies were accu- mulated on my wretched head, the more callous did did his heart feem to what I fuffered, and he at length concluded by withdrawing an annuity of two hundred pounds, which he had promifed fhould be continued during my life. I had now formed an acquaintance with Lord Hervey. Of this noble Lord I have fpoken in the preceding pages, and even at this moment I cannot reflect on the virtues and fplendid qualities that diftinguifh the mind and perfon of his Lord- fhip, without the moft lively fenfibility. With him I enjoyed, for feveral months, all the com- forts and delights of domeftic life, and with him I continued until he was appointed, by his Bri- tannic Majefty, Envoy at a foreign court. Attached to my native country (America) I fancy the reader will have already difcovered that I am by no means a friend to arbitrary princi- ples ; nor is it becaufe I admire the man, that I am to be confidered a convert to his political notions. I was therefore concerned when I read the manifefto which he publtmed at that court, dur- ing ing his embafly. Nothing, however, can abate the lively gratitude and efteem which my heart feels for this valuable friend. His Lordmip had left me only a few months, when I brought forth a pledge of our union, a daughter, whom death foon ravimed from me: previous to which lofs, a new and amiable connection called me back to Ireland, where I received the above fatal intelli- gence, which was a terrible drawback upon the happinefs I then enjoyed. Captain B******, my new lover, was every way calculated to oblit- erate the impreffion I might have received from former admirers, and to footh the affliction which I felt for the lofs of my dear and beloved child. From him I have uniformly experienced every kindnefs that the tendereft affection could beftow. The roving habits of a military life did not admit any permanent attachment of this nature ; but it is fufficiently flattering to me, that Mr. B****** never omitted an occafion of feeking my fociety. The fruits of our connection are two fons, both now living, and both happy under the pro- tection ( 64 ) tection of their worthy parent, who is himfelf lately united in marriage with a lady who, I am told, poflefles every virtue and every neceflary accomplishment to fecure his happinefs, and with whom I ardently wifh him a continuation of all the bleflings and enjoyments which he fo emi- nently deferves. Let me, however, indulge the hope, without wifhing to ftrew the thorns of jealoufy or difcontent on her bridal pillow, that he will never utterly neglect his former friend, the mother of his chi'dren. Humanity, and friend- fhip for others, are not uncongenial with conju- gal fidelity, and if I am rightly informed of Lady A 's character, me is not the woman to encourage a dereliction of thofe duties. The honourable connection that Mr. B****** has formed is incompatible with the union that once fubfifted between us, and if previous thereto there had been any chafm in that union, it was becaufe his fortune could not keep pace with my former extravagance. Confident am I, from all the proofs I have had of his generous and affectionate heart, that the ( 65 ) the manifold forrows I have undergone, if he had porTefled the power, I mould have been fpared the fuffering. I could dwell longer on this endearing theme, but prudence commands me to draw the veil. I now enter on the fubjecl of a gentleman, whom honour, gratitude, and every refined fen- timent which dignifies the foul of woman, and imprefTes it with a fenfe of paft obligations, com- pel me to mention. Generofity and fincerity were his mining character! flics a friend to all mankind, bimfelf excepted. The opennefs of Mr. Giffard's difpofition everlaftingly expofed him to the villanies and bafe projects of nefari- ous gamblers and intriguers of every defcription; nay, even in that elevated circle of ariftocracy in which he moved, there were not wanting ennobled wretches to form their fchemes of plunder and robbery againft him. The lories which Mr. Giffard fuftained from thefe honourable connec- tions were fatal to himfelf and family. Unfuf- picious of the treachery to which he had been the dupe, he paid to the laft guinea, although to accomplim ( 66 ) accomplim that payment, he had been obliged to difcharge his eflablimment, and to difpofe of his equipage. Stupid muft be the mind that would not have been corrected by fatal experience like this, and happy am 1 to learn, that from a regu- lar fyftem of oeconomy which he has of late adopted, and through the interpofition of his relations, his finances are repaired, and thus a moft worthy man reftored to his country. Ungrateful mould I be if I did not rejoice in every profperity which he enjoys. From him, during the time I was fo happy as to partake of his efteem, I received pecuniary favours that almoft outran my own extravagance and it was only the derangement of his affairs, that could have put a period to them. While with Mr. Giffard, my humble roof was often vifited by princes of the Blood Royal, and by Nobles of the higheft diftinction and here, I mould do a violence to my own feelings, if I did not draw a juft comparifon in favour of ple- beian virtue; let me then honeftly proclaim to the world, ( 67 ) world, fuperior to flattery or dimmulation, that in my journey through life I have found more liberality of fentiment, more candour and ingen- uoufnefs in this plain country gentleman, and others of a fimilar defcription, than I ever expe- rienced from a certain Duke of royal lineage. But where is the wonder ? Fidelity to vows is not the virtue of princes. At perjuries with wo- men they only laugh. During my hard diftrefles in a horrid jail, often did I apply to this Royal Lothario, this perfidious Lovelace, but who, alas ! had none of the accomplifhments that Lovelace could boaft of; and the fruit of my application was filence dead, monotonous, obftinate filence ! Beware then, ye of my unhappy fex, how you are beguiled by the gew-gaw of royal fplendour ! Nurfed in the lap of luxury, fatiated with enjoy- ments, the hearts of princes are callous to the purer delights of exquifite fenfibility. Princes live only for themfelves : they conceive that men and women are made merely for them, to be the paflive inftruments of their voluptuoufnefs, and are only furprifed when the leaft recompence is required from ( 68 ) from them, as a poor indemnity for the dearefl facrifices that have been made to footh their paf- fions. All I can fay is, that if this princely Lotha- rio mines not with greater advantage in the plains of Mars than he excels in the groves of Venus, the combined forces have little to expect from his martial exertions. In the month of May, 1788, annoyed by my creditors, and Mr. Giffard's finances being at that time exceedingly deranged, he could only offer cer- tain terms to my creditors, giving one thoufand pounds into the hands of Mr. Thomas Vaughan, of Suffolk-ftreet, Middlesex Hofpital, for the purpofe of fettling with them; while it was judged expedient that I mould tranfport myfelf to the continent, there to remain during eight or ten months. I mould be loth to caft reflections on any man, and I conceive it now neceflary to extri- cate Mr. Vaughan from afperfions which have been thrown out againft him. My debts at this time amounted to near three thoufand pounds, including attorney's bills, for it ( 69 ) it has been my lot always to pay full fixty fhil- lings for every twenty: it was therefore propo- fed, that the one thoufand pounds fo generoufly granted by my munificent friend mould be applied only to the payment of fuch debts as had been contracted while I refided under the protection of Mr. Giffard, considering himfelf in honour bound to difcharge them. But firft, there was an offer made to all my creditors in general, of ten mil- lings in the pound, which they were foolim enough to refufe ; thus I was under the neceflity of protracting my refidence abroad. On my arrival in Paris, I had taken my refi- dence at the Hotel de 1'Univerfite, where it was my fortune to meet once more that favourite of the fair fex, that renowned warrior, equal to both, and armed for either field, whofe glorious exploits in the blood-ftained ranks of Long-Ifland and Charleston can teftify, and whofe fuperior excel- lence in thofe fofter engagements, in the Italian vales, Mademoifelle la Maire and fo many other Pariiian belles have equally witnefled. This ( 7 ) This heroic chief, this fecond Agamemnon, uniting all accomplilhments the fierceft foldier in war, the gentleft fwain in love did me the honour to take me under his protection. He was my cecifbeo, who made me acquainted with all the beauties of that fuperb and magnifi- cent city ; he introduced me into all the gay and brilliant circles, of which he himfelf fhone the fplendid ornament. The intelligent reader, on perufing the above, will not be at a lofs to dif- cover, that I allude to General D ********. With this military and amorous Quixote there was a young man, nearly related, and to whom, fuch is the ftrange organization of the female mind! I am fair to confefs, that I gave the pre- ference over his formidable and illuftrious rival. Jealoufy is the characteriftic of love I had made an impreflion on the heart of the veteran beau ; he Jufpefled (and his fujpicions were not wrong) that there was a fecret underftanding between myfelf and his younger companion : yielding thereto, he kept a fteady watch over all our actions, and when the filent hour approached that lovers lovers dedicate to the deity of their adoration, my antique admirer, eager to convince himfelf of the truth of what he fufpected, pofted himfelf in an obfcure corner, where, by favour of the moon, he traced Sir R * to my apartments, and, as foon as he knew that his conjectures were well founded, he withdrew all friendfhip, and, I fear, has never fince forgiven me. "At lover's "quarrels," they fay, "Jove laughs ;" although this quarrel turned out ferious, fince no corref- pondence has fubfifted between us fince the above fatal period. But if Agamemnon withdrew him- felf he ftill left a Paris behind to confole me. Sir Robert Harland, the next day informed me, that my late admirer was fo exceedingly offended, that it would render my longer con- tinuance, in the fame hotel, very difagreeable ; 1 therefore departed, taking lodgings at the Hotel de la Reine, Rue des Bons Enfans. I was no fooner fettled in my new apartment, than one of my fervants told me that my huf- band * Sir R***** H******. band lodged in the fame houfe, and as he was the loft man in the world whom I wifhed to fee, I inftantly took leave of the landlord, and went to Madame Lafar's Hotel, Rue Caumartin ; a lady who happily pofleffes the convenient accommodating talents of obliging all her guefts, both male and female, never afking impertinent queftions, and being perfectly indifferent as to the mode of arrangement amongft them. In this hotel I found the famous Colonel Me. Carthy, who was pleafed to honour me with his particular attention. By this gentleman I was introduced to the Mar- quis de Genlis, whofe fuperb hotel was the con- ftant receptacle of all the elegants of that once luxurious city. 'This nobleman^ in his youth, had been the moft accomplimed -petit maitre of the day, and in the decline of life, when I knew him, he reminded me very much, both in his drefs and addrefs, of our old Duke of Q -. The French Marquis, however, was rather more celebrated for hofpitality than the Scotch Duke. When I retrace in my imagination the nocturnal orgies, and every refinement of luxury, that was vifible in this temple of voluptuoufnefs, contrafting it with ( 73 ) with the prefent gloomy fcene, which my mind pidtures to itfelf, I, in fome meafure, forget my own forrows : The Graces, I am told, have en- tirely abandoned that city, where they had fo long refided, Stern, inexorable republican vir- tue has ufurped the empire which they once held, and politics now fupply the place of gallantry and love. The ill-fated brother of M. de Genlis, the Marquis de Sillery, hufband to the accom- plifhed writer of that name, tainted by education with the prejudices of artftocracy, and vitiated by the long habits of Parifian debauchery, has lately fuffered under the fatal axe of the guillotine ; and this example, confirmed by fo many others, ought to ferve as a wholefome and moft ufeful leffon, how, at this juncture, perfons embark on the dangerous ocean of politics, unlefs they are really and honeftly attached to the principles which they profefs. The Jacobin Club is undoubtedly (whatever it may be in other refpects) the moft vigilant and enlightened corps of diplomacy in Europe. In- numerable inftances have proved the impoffibility of ( 74 ) of efcaping their keen, penetrating refearches, and the leaft deviation from the path of the Conftitution, (that is, from the unity and irrdi- vifibility of the Republic) is fure to meet detec- tion, and to be followed by an ignominious death. Let us then implore the grace of Divine Providence to put an end to thefe horrors ! To refume the thread of my narrative About the latter end of July, 1788, a Mr. Beckett, with whom I become acquainted, and for which ac- quaintance I am indebted to my old friend, Colo- nel Freemantle, came to Paris. He lived in the fame hotel with myfelf, in the greateft fplendour ; his table was continually crouded by perfons of the higheft rank, amongft whom were the late unfortunate Due d'Orleans, the Dues de Mont- morenci, Pienne, Prince Louis d'Aremberg, Marquis de Bouille, &c. &c. &c. Amidft my manifold misfortunes, I confider it fome confola- tion that the perfons with whom I have been acquainted were the moft part diftinguifhed for genius and talents, and this young man was remarkably fo : Mr. Beckett flattered me by his addrefses, ( 75 ) addreffes, at a time when all the Parifian beauties were emulous with each other for his affections : whether it were vanity, affection, preference, or any fentiment bordering on felf-love, I will not fay ; but, living in the fame hotel with him, he continu- ally made choice of me as the Sultana to prefide at his table, and I had the direction of all his entertainments. At the end of four months, after various oblique and fruitlefs hints, Madame Lafar became clamorous for payment of her bill, which amounted to thefmal/Jum of five hundred pounds. He drew bills upon his father for fif- teen hundred pounds, which were the amount of his whole debts. A fpecial courier was difpatched to England, and as the father would not, or could not, pay the extravagant demands of his fon, the bills returned to Paris protefted. In this fituation I advifed him to confult his own countrymen, then in Paris : He was at that time intimately acquainted- with Lord Gillford, fon of Lord Clanwilliam. This young nobleman affured him that he had only a few hours to determine on his efcape, as he had private information that Ma- dame Lafar meant to arreft him. I muft do Mr. 10 Beckett Beckett the juftice to fay, that it was with the utmoft reluctance that he purfued the advice of his friends, as he exprefled ftrong apprehenfions for my fafety ; however, touched with his gene- rofity, I became entirely regardlefs of myfelf, and positively infifted on his flight, and he yielded obedience. He had not departed many hours before all his creditors were in an uproar ; the hue and cry was raifed, that an Englimman had run away for his debts : the police officers were fent after him, but returned with forrowful coun- tenances, their miflion unaccomplifhed. Madame Lafar, who, poor dear woman ! was the principal fufferer, now turned all her ven- geance againft me, knowing that I had a travel- ling poft-chaife and a chariot, together with feveral valuable effects ; on thefe articles me fixed her attention, determined to plunder me. Two days after Mr. Beckett left Paris I was, while on a vifit at Madame Smith's, informed by Mr. Robert Knight, (another of the few good men I have found in the world) that his carriage had ( 77 ) had juft been furrounded by a party of armed ruffians, inquiring for me, and he had fcarcely uttered the words when the houfe of Madame Smith was befet by at leaft an hundred men, pre- ceded by Mr. de Lomprey, exempt de police. My friends , alarmed for my fituation, (for I was feven months advanced in pregnancy) intreated the exempt to difmifs his followers Mr. Knight kindly pledging himfelf to be refponfible for any complaint which they had to make againft me. Mr. de Lomprey replied, " that he had a lettre " de cachet from the King, ordering me to close " confinement in the Hotel de la Force" My valuable friend, who was a young man of very independent fortune, would not fuffer this arbi- trary aft of power to be exercifed againft an help- lefs woman, without firft demanding that fatis- faftion to which he thought me entitled. He, therefore, at that late hour, went to the Duke of Dorfet, the Engli/h Ambaflador: his Grace was from home : thus I was obliged to go, at two o'clock in the morning, to the manfion of flavery, the Hotel de la Force. I had with me my infant fon, then only two years old. The innocence of this ( 78 ) this tender lamb, who feemed fenfible that fome misfortune had happened, overcame what refolu- tion I pofTefled ; he held up his little bands and cried out, " Oh ! you mail not hurt my Mother /" Mr. Knight, however, comforted me by every aflurance of protecting the child, and carried him away in his carriage, having firfl attended me him- felf to the wretched apartment deftined for me. A miferable bed of ftraw, with one wretched blanket, was all the furniture in the room, and the floor was completely covered with vermin. 'Till this moment I was a ftranger to prifons ; therefore my mind was more fenfible to theftiock: but even now that I have been habituated to the horrors of confinement, I cannot conceive fuch a dreadful epitome of wretchednefs as this vile dungeon, on mature reflection, frill appears to be; and, for the fake of humanity, I fervently pray, that if it be not already done, the new government of France may utterly deftroy fimilar abominations. My woman, the faithful partner of all my misfortunes, accompanied me, nor could even this fpectacle of horror induce her to forfake her miftrefs. ( 79 ) miftrefs. We parted the few remaining hours converting on the fudden tranfition of fortune I wifhed to convince her of the mutability of human happinefs In three days 1 was reduced from fcenes of pleafure and tranquility to my prefent wretched condition ! As foon as day approached, we examined our fad habitation : the firft object that ftruck my eye was a huge tremen- dous padlock, projecting from the cieling, and to which was fattened an immenfe iron collar. We could not at firft imagine the ufe of this frightful instrument ; but my poor, faithful attendant foon guefTed it, and exclaimed, " O, Madam ! it is to " fatten us up at night!" She had fcarce uttered thefe words when the jailer appeared, (for, in France, it is a duty exacted from the keeper of fuch a place to pay perfonal attendance to the unfortunate in his power :} he had a great bunch of keys in his hand : he walked up to me, and immediately cried out, " Oh, del! quel dommage !" adding, that he had received orders from the gov- ernment to treat me with the greateft refpect. This civil Frenchman ended his harangue by requefting me to give him permiflion to order my breakfaft. ( 80 ) breakfaft. I thanked him for his politenefs, but declined receiving any refrefhment until my friends came to me. At a very early hour (before noon) Mr. Knight, accompanied by Mr. Weftern, the prefent member for Maiden, paid me a vifit. Thefe gentlemen, in concert with Capt. Winder, of the guards, were for ever employed to obtain my liberty, availing themfelves of a moft necef- fary and humane law that exifts in France, pro- hibiting the imprifonment of pregnant women for debt. If fuch laws were in full force under the moft defpotic government of Europe, how much more confiftent were it in force under that which calls itfelf the moft free ? Aged perfons were alfo exempt from this penalty ; but here our ears are for ever ftunned with the found of liberty and humanity ! women in the pangs of childbed men in the agonies of death, (fuch inftances have occurred) in virtue of a meriff's writ, may be dragged to the moft loathfome jail. Were it not then devoutly to be wifhed, that our legiflators, in- ftead of empty panegyric, would afford us a little of the fubftance ? In my own opinion, who have done fome experience in thefe cafes, the reafon why fuch fuch horrible laws are fuffered to exift, is under the fuppofition of their being feldom or ever executed ; the fact, however, is notorioufly other- wife ; at all events, policy, as well as mercy, requires, the national character demands, that the life of freemen mould not be expofed to the dif- cretion, or depend on the pity, of a fheriff 's officer. Madame Lafar, alarmed, leaft I mould efcape out of the fnare me had laid, endeavoured to perfuade my friends I was not in the predica- ment defcribed ; but all her projects failed, as they infifted on a confultation of the faculty, who afcertained my pregnancy ; at the fame time expreffing apprehenfions of immediate labour from the fudden revolution I had undergone. In this fituation, a female of my acquaintance (although by no means a lady of rigid virtue, not therefore lefs fufceptible of generofity and com- pamon) immediately repaired to Monfieur Pac- quet, then firft Prefident of the Parliament of Paris, relating the circumftance, and at the fame time giving a miniature picture of me. This gentleman went the following day to Verfailles, and informing informing Monfieur and the Comte d'Artois, the late Kings brothers, of my misfortune, they, with a generous fympathy rarely to be found in princes, and which caufes me to lament moft bitterly their fad reverfe of fortune, took pity on my fituation and became my advocates ; and in a few hours I received his Majefty's order for my releafe. The Comte d'Artois, in particular, entered into the hardfhips of my cafe, and on delivering the King's fignature, cancelling the letter de cachet, advifed that I mould put myfelf under protection of his palace,* fignifying that Mr. Beckett's creditors might then proceed againft me in a court of law. The inftant I returned from prifon, I went accord- ingly to the Place du Temple, where I had not remained many hours before I received a vi fit from the Due de F , another nobleman who alfo boafts of royal blood in his veins, but whofe actions unfortunately were not calculated to efface thofe unfavourable prepofTerTions with which I had been infpired by a fimilar conduct in a truly royal Duke, who * The Temple at Paris, where Louis XVI. and the royal family were confined, was formerly a palace occupied by the Comte d'Artois, and its environs afforded protection to unhappy inlblvent debtors. who now makes fuch a capital figure on the theatre of European politics. The familiar epithet applied to the ci-devant Due de F in Paris, (that loyal and renowned emigrant) was an efcroc (in Englifh fignifying fharper or Greek). All I can fay is, that I have no reafon to difpute the propriety of the application. In my new abode I had foon the mortification to learn from my fervants, that my two car- riages, together with all my clothes and jewels, were feized by Mr. Beckett's creditors, fo that I was, in an inftant, ftripped of every neceflary, in a country where I had no connections but fuch as had been formed on the principles of intereft. Thus circumftanced, a young I rim nobleman, in whofe favour I had made an exception, and from my general opinion of his friendship I had con- fidence, I frankly communicated what had be- fallen me, and received from his Lordfhip every affurance of protection ; but his fortune not being adequate to his generofity, he immediately pro- pofed a fubfcription amongft my friends then in Paris, and in the courfe of twenty-four hours I ii found found myfelf, through their exertions, in poflef- fion of two hundred and fifty louis d'or's. I have before obferved, that adverfity is the true criterion of friendfhip, and I am bound in gratitude to render juftice to that virtue in the French nation. In France I ever met with the greateft human- ity, tempered with delicacy and politenefs ; and if my misfortunes, during the latter part of my refidence in that country, called for the aid of others, I alfo received it ; at the fame time it was always conveyed in a manner which reflected honour on the generous donors, ever unaccom- panied with thofe difgufting marks of oftentation which too frequently attend acts of pecuniary relief. I remained fix months in the Temple, and returned to England ten days before that glorious epoch, the I4th of July, 1789, when Frenchmen threw off for ever THE YOKE OF SLAVERY. Oh ! may that day yield an awful and impreflive leflbn ! It forms an aera replete with events ftill in the womb womb of time to produce. It threatens deftruc- tion to long eftablifhed fyftems to long eftab- limed orders. It prefages revolution, and ftrikes at thofe antique governments, in defence of which fo many of my anceftors have bled. Should they have bled in vain, and if a new order of things be deftined to fucceed, may humanity ftill profit by the change ! may a more equal diftribution of fublunary enjoyments ban- ifh from the face of the earth thofe fcenes of horror that have fo long tortured the fight and difgraced the policy of focial inftitutions ! Per- haps the Millennium, fo long and fo anxioufiy anticipated, is at hand, when nations will be linked in one fraternal bond when civil difcord and foreign wars mall ceafe to defolate the world. Whichever party may prevail in this tremendous crifis, my only prayer is, that it may terminate to the advantage and improvement of the human race ! The reader will pardon thefe frequent digreflions ; they arife naturally from the fub- ject, and are the fpontaneous emanations of a foul fraught with fenfibility, and glowing with zeal ( 86 ) zeal for the general happinefs and improvement of mankind. I have formerly experienced from Frenchmen compaflion and generofity ; and I have fometimes found thofe virtues in the Eng- lifh. Born in America, and refident many years in England, I feel no local partialities, no pre- porTeflions or difgufts my country is the world ! and whatever the political fentiments of others may be, I confider it the duty of citizens to yield implicit fubmiffion to the laws of that government under which they live. Pafling eighteen months in France, under her ancient monarchy, I had the opportunity of manifefting my refpect to the laws which then exifted ; and if I were at prefent in that nation, now that it has judged proper to adopt the re- publican form of government, I mould hold myfelf equally bound, faithfully to obey the laws of that Republic. Such are my opinions, which I believe are founded in truth and juftice, and I mould be ever emulous to preferve the character of a peaceful. ( 8? ) peaceful^ and, I hope, in future, to add, of a virtuous citizen. It is the fafhion amongft us, vehemently and outrageoufly to condemn the French for the ex- cefles and cruelties they have committed ; but we muft in candour allow, that in the progrefs of this war they have been at leaft equalled in acls of cruelty by the Pruffians and Auftrians, and far furpafled therein by their own emigrants. Very lately an account was tranfmitted to the convention, by one of its commiflioners at Lifle, of an Auftrian foldier taken prifoner, on fearch- ing whom it was difcovered that his cartridges were poifoned, which at once explained the caufe of that amazing mortality which had prevailed amongft the French wounded foldiers. Monfieur Beaulieu, an Auftrian general, on a late occafion, previous to an engagement, like- wife fignified to his troops that prifoners were only an incumbrance, in confequence of which the foldiers took the hint and gave no quarter. What tender heart then but recoils from thofe dreadful ( 88 ) dreadful profcriptions and executions which now daily take place in that diftracted country ! but as in morals, it would be held madnefs to harbour in our bofom a ferpent to fting us to death ; fo in politics, the maxim holds equally good. France cannot be denied to have contained innumerable enemies within her bofom, and from the exter- minating principles of this deftructive war, which operate equally on both fides, it is evident if me wimed to confolidate her government, that if me do not drive to deftroy thofe enemies they will finally fucceed to deftroy the republic. Let us then be juft amidft the violence of revolutionary paroxyfms. We are not to expect that temper and moderation which ought to be the bafis of fettled, tranquil governments, but which (we fatally experience) is too feldom the charaderiftics of fuch governments. To return to my fubject : When I arrived in London, I fent to my houfe in New Cavendifh- ftreet, defiring a female fervant, whom I had left in charge of it, to come to the hotel. She gave me to underftand, that although feveral of my creditors creditors were much dirTatisfied with the manner in which Mr. Vaughan had difpofed of the money deftined to fettle their demands, ftill they were by no means inclined to harrafs me. Thefe afTuran- ces encouraged me to return to my own houfe, and in a few days ]. called a meeting of all my unfatisfied creditors (acting in this inftance as my own attorney:) from them I obtained a letter of licence ; I however was fo foolifh as to afk for only fix months indulgence, when they would readily have granted it for as many years ; there were, neverthelefs, two obdurate, ungrateful cre- ditors, linen drapers of Oxford-ftreet, who, regard- lefs of the many obligations which they owed to me and my friends, thought proper to arreft me, contrary to the opinion of all the reft who had any claims against me. With thefe men I had dealt for years, in which time they had both received from me feveral hundred pounds, and now they thought proper to have me confined for the moderate fum of three hundred and fifty pounds : my own attorney civilly leaving me in a fpunging-houfe, to get out as I could. In this hour of diftrefs, when friendfhip makes the deepeft imprefTion, a gentleman ( 9 ) gentleman* of Furnival's Inn came fortunately to the houfe, and hearing of my confinement, generoufly became my bail. And here let me again pour forth the tribute of a grateful heart ! but words are inadequate to exprefs the fenfe that I have of bis liberality and kindnefs. Unac- quainted with the chicanery, villainy, and hard- heartednefs of other lawyers, from which I have fo cruelly fufFered, from certain experience, he rofe, in my opinion, above every man in his pro- feffion. He found mebefet by plunderers, Jews, and fwindlers, combined to rob me of what pro- perty I poflefled. The fuflerings I had hitherto endured had not operated the neceflary conviction, or hindrance, in choice of acquaintance : I have ever been the dupe of the worthlefs part of both fexes ; and, at this time, I was ftupidly infatuated with the fociety of a certain Jewefs. This woman poflefTed feveral natural good qualities, qualities which far over-balanced her faults ; and as it is impoflible for any human production to be perfect, I overlooked her im- perfections, * Mr. Chambers. ( 9' ) perfections, and adopted her as my bofom friend. Mrs. G had a mother who was ever in league o with bailiffs and low attornies, and often have both her daughter and myfelf fuffered from her unnatural intrigues. In the month of November, 1789, it was neceffary that I fliould either furrender to Mr. Chambers, or fettle the debts for which he was anfwerable. I therefore confulted this female ferpent, whom I had nurfed in my bofom to fting me ; me gave it as her advice, that it would be prudent for me to call upon the plaintiff's attorney, who, me was pleafed to remark, would be happy to become one of my humble Jlaves. Eager to exonerate my good friend Mr. Cham- bers, from any danger, on my account, I applied to an attorney of Ely-place, and propofed to give fecurity for the debt in which he was- con- cerned. This accomplijhed limb of the /aw, feeing me in a fplendid equipage, agreed to accept my own terms, and infinuated himfelf fo far into my good opinion, that he afterwards completely ruined me, plundering me of the loft guinea. I 1 2 have ( 9* ) have fince learned that Mr. P , in order to enhance his own cofts, made it his bufinefs to difcover the credulous part of my creditors, whofe debts being fmall, were prevailed on to fue me ; and in one of thefe inftances, I can atteft that I was taken in execution for five pounds, and paid twenty for it. Fourteen days after I had agreed to employ Mr. P , he delivered to me his bill of cofts, modeftly making me his debtor two hundred and twenty-two pounds. I had, at this time, three hundred and fifty pounds to receive from Mr. Giffard, and as it was not immediately convenient for the latter gentleman to advance the money, I requefted this virtuous practioner, this ornament of attorneyjhip, to wait a few weeks for payment ; but he had far other views ; he had a fcheme in agitation, which entirely pre- cluded all impertinent clamours of confcience. He, as I have before obferved, was inftructed with my circumftances, and while I was loaded with various debts, fome of which were enormous, he took a lawyer-like and conscientious advantage of my female weaknefs, feducing me to make over all the furniture of my houfe to him a delufion that ( 93 ) that finally led to my deftruftion. I could wifh to fpeak with moderation concerning this man, but my wrongs are fuch, that, waving irony, I muft intreat permiffion to fpeak with freedom. The very moment I had executed the bond which made him mafter of my effects, he fent one Rofs, a meriff 's officer, to take porTeffion of them, although he had given me his Jacred word OF HONOUR, that he would never proceed, unlefs to protect me from other executions. Not fatisfied with this bafe and perfidious act, he was alfo the perfon who advifed another creditor to fue me for fixty pounds. On hearing of this writ, I was obliged to take refuge in the verge of the court, and on the next day, when I fent one of my fer- vants to my houfe for a change of clothes, they were refufed; the man in pofleffion fignifying, that he had pofitive orders not to fuffer any property to be taken out of the houfe. In this dilemma, I once more applied to my much val- ued and never-failing friend^ Mr. G ******, and received from him two hundred pounds, which I paid to this IMMACULATE attorney, requefting he would withdraw the execution. He anfwered, that ( 94 ) that the fum was not fufficient, (although he was pleafed to take it) as his demand was now in- creafed to fifty pounds more ; therefore, he per- fifted in felling the effects, and I have never, to this hour, received any account from him, although it is pretty well known, that the produce of that fale brought him a very confiderable fum of money, befides the two hundred pounds I had before advanced him. His next object was my coach, but that he might get it in his pofleffion with as much decency as poffible, he affetted to fecure to himfelf, by an alignment to a friend. Fool as I was, after my experience, I confented to his propofal, and had he defired me to fign my own death-warrant (fuch was the ajcendancy he had then over me,) I verily believe that I mould have obeyed the pro- ceedings of this VIRTUOUS practitioner. I had not long executed the alignment, before my coach was feized in behalf of his brother-in- law, a linen-draper, and fold (or rather given away) for one hundred and twenty pounds, although I had ( 95 ) had paid Mr. Godfal four hundred pounds for it, and never ufed it more than eight months. The next ftep of this truly honeft attorney was to get my perfon feized, and it is a fad: well known, that the monfter, under pretence of taking me before the late Lord Chancellor, on bufinefs, fold me to bailiffs. Thus I was arrefted, and dragged to a fpunging-houfe, where I was locked up feven weeks ; during which time, I employed myfelf in endeavouring to arrange my affairs. It was repeatedly propofed to me, to make an application to my friends ; but unaccuftomed to folicit favours, I declined the propofal, and recon- ciled myfelf to the idea of ending my days in a prifon. In this fpunging-houfe I remained until Eafter term, 1790, when I was compelled to take up my abode in the King's Bench : and now I confider it a tribute of juftice due from me not to confound the liberal creditor with the defign- ing, wicked Shylocks who condemned me to prifon, having met with the greateft indulgence and liberality from all my principal creditors. They They who opprefled me were the perfons who had the leaft right to do fo ; and, forry am I to fay, to the utter difgrace of my ownjex, that the two creditors whofe cruelty and inflexible obfti- nacy obliged me to continue two years in the King's Bench, were women, milliners ; one of whom had been in the habit of cheating me for a number of years. When I balanced accounts with her, I had receipts for fourteen hundred pounds, and yet the confcience of this honeft woman (for me is married) did not fcruple to declare, that me would never releafe me, until I either paid three hundred pounds, or gave fecurity for the like fum. A young man of fafhion, who was at that time unable to extricate me out of my difficulties, wimed to awaken the feelings of this married lady^ this paragon of her fex ! and intreated her to remember, that my fituation claimed fome com- pajfion, for I was then pregnant with my youngeft fon, whom I mentioned in the beginning of thefe Memoirs. She replied, that it was quite imma- terial whether I was brought to bed in a prifon or elfewhere. < 97 ) elfewhere. Soaring; above the feelings of human- o o ity, this dealer in flimfy, fmuggled commodi- ties, perfifted in purfuit of her dearly loved pelf, and forced me to endure all the miferies of a loath- fome jail. Torn from the bofom of my native country, I bore my forrows in filence, unknown, unpitied ! having met with few friends difinter- efted enough to prove their regard while I was incapable of making them any return. Such is the inftability of mankind ! While we can admin- ifter to their pleafures, or gratify their vanity, they are our abject (laves ; the fcene once changed, then adieu to friendfhip ! Thus fituated, deftitute of all fupport, except fuch as the precarious bene- volence of a few friends allowed me, I was advifed to fue my hufband for a feparate maintenance, who, regardlefs of the ties of honour and duty, was publicly living with a woman of notorious character , whom he ftill fuffers to ajjume my name, and I am told he has even the indecency to intro- duce her into feveral refpedable families, calling her his wife. * But to clear up the deception, I beg * Mr. John Coghlan refides in Chefter Place, London, and the Ifle of Thanet, County of Kent. ( 98 ) beg leave to fay, although it be a title I never fought, it is my misfortune^?/// to drag thofe hor- rid chains of matrimony and SLAVERY which never can be diflblved but by his death or mine. The action which I exhibited againft him, proving, from the moft refpectable witnefTes, his cruelties, gained me the fupport that my necefli- ties then called for, but not before I had endured every mifery that hunger, cold and confinement could inflict. Sir William Scott, the Judge of the Confiftory Court of London, fentenced my hufband to allow me one hundred and feventy pounds a year, during the time that our caufe was depending. He refufing to comply with the decree, was pub- licly excommunicated in his ewn parifh church, St. George's, Hanover-fquare. Under thefe de- plorable circumftances, the time now approached when I was to fuffer ten thoufand additional horrors : My friends, more anxious to preferve my life than I was, had provided a gentleman of the faculty to attend me during my lying-in : when ( 99 ) when I was taken ill he was fent for, who being from home could not reach the King's Bench o before ten o'clock. At that hour it is the con- ftant and often fatal practice to fhut the gates, whereby many an innocent and valuable life has been loft. Any attempt to break through this barbarous cuflom would have been vain. The life of a woman is not confidered as worth pre- fervation at the expence of breaking through the eftablifhed rules of a jail. Neverthelefs, humanity bleeds in reflecting on thefe abufes, fan&ioned by law, which are ftill allowed to exift without an effort from thofe in whom the power is vefted to remove them. In this critical and lamentable ftate I remained feveral hours, ftruggling with death. The only profemonal man in the place was a very young furgeon, who at firft offered his amftance, but afterwards declined it, considering my fituation too dangerous for him to be of any fervice ; however, his delicacy was afterwards over-ruled, and, owing to his kind interference, I was fnatched from death, to be referved for a feries 13 of of new calamities. Delivered from the agonies of child-bed, my infant was fuffered to remain naked for two days ; for, alas ! the unfortunate mother had not clothes even for herfelf! In this deplorable ftate we both continued, till an unknown friend, touched with companion, re- mitted me a few guineas. I mould commit an injury againft my own feelings, if I did not here declare, that I have every reafon to believe myfelf indebted for this humane act to Mr. Walker, the late Marfhal of the King's Bench, as I afterwards experienced from him every kind attention poffible for one fellow-creature to mew another. May 1, on this occafion, be permitted to hold forth myfelf as an example to the giddy, diffipated fair ones of my fex, now, perhaps, in full enjoyment of the fmiles and adulation of men ? Beware, then, ye lovely victims of their crocodile carefles ! while the funfhine of fortune beams around you while the bloom of beauty lafts and the charms of novelty hold their fway, wafte not your pre- cious hours in unprofitable idlenefs and wild extravagance ; extravagance : make the falfe diflemblers, while they pay homage to your beauty, provide alfo for your intereft : lay up ftores againft a rainy day. I, like you, when I thought myfelf be- loved, now too late difcover that all was flattery: the tempeft came unexpectedly on none of my gay friends approached at my bidding I was left to bide the pelting of this pitilefs ftorm in a horrid jail, naked and pennilefs, with a new-born infant at my breaft, crying for the fuftenance that famifhed nature refufed ! and when my former gay companions, on whom I vainly thought I could depend, kept all aloof, I was relieved, at laft, by the fortuitous generofity of an utter ftranger. Let me hope, therefore, my fate will ferve as a lefTon to others, that they may not founder on the rock on which I am wrecked. Five weeks after 'my lying-in, a meflage came from Mr. Walker, fignifying that he wifhed to fee me : I was fhewn to his houfe, where, after lamenting, in the kindeft terms, the hardfhips I had fuflfered, he declared how much he was con- cerned to fee in a prifon a woman, who, he was pleafed pleafed to fay, deferred a better fate ; and, at the fame time, with a delicacy peculiar to liberal minds, and incompatible, one mould have thought, with his fituation, intreated me to accept a trifle as a pledge of his friendship, giving into my hand a piece of paper, which, on my return to my apartment, I found to contain three guineas, with thefe lines : " Never, while " you remain here, neglect applying to me in " your moments of pecuniary want." My ad- verfe ftars foon deprived me of this new friend, who was, fhortly afterwards, feized with a fever, which carried him off in a few days, leaving be- hind an amiable character, well worthy of his fucceflbr's imitation. May he, like Mr. Walker, remember, that he is placed in a fituation where he has all the moft important duties of humanity to perform, and in which a neglect of them would be ftill more criminal than the juft and liberal performance of them would be amiable and meritorious. Neverthelefs, I muft ingenioufly confefs, fpeaking of the King's Bench prifon, (and I am told other prifons are ftill more wretched) that the evil exifts in itfelf; and al- though I0 3 though a jailor may certainly correct the horrors of the fyftem, yet it is impoflible for him effec- tually to remove it. The corruptions of a jail, according to the prefent eftablifhment, call aloud for legiflative interference ; and while fuch cor- ruptions are acknowledged on all fides, there can be only one reafon why no attempt is made to deftroy them, and that is the immenfe emolu- ments derived therefrom by the principal and fubaltern practitioners of the law. It is not the partial delufive fcheme of oppreffion againft a few wretched attornies that can produce any material benefit ; it may ferve as a temporary manoeuvre to reconcile us to the barbarous prac- tice a little while longer. But the whole augean ftable muft be cleanfed. It is not thepefty rogue that conftitutes the great nuifance : we muft go through all the different gradations of the infamy before we can hope to render any effectual fer- vice : experience enables me to fpeak with deci- fion on this fubject, and all I can fay is, that if every other department of government is in the fame corrupt ftate, as that of which I am now fpeaking, fpeaking, we are in a deplorable condition in- deed. Having imbibed my political principles at an early age, amongft citizens ftruggling for freedom, and where now every individual is equally privi- leged, and equally protected by the law, I cannot but inveigh againft partial immunities, and the propenfity which the Englim people betray to deprive their fellow-creatures of that liberty of which they fo inconfiftently boaft. Not but a rational difcrimination ought necerTarily to be kept up between fraud and imprudence, villany and misfortune ; nothing can more fully demon- ftrate the negligence and infenfibility of govern- ment than that they mould be confounded indif- criminately together, that no diftinction mould be made between them : yet fuch moft unfortu- nately is the cafe, and what aggravates, beyond meafure, this grievance, is, that the man who enters a prifon, honeft and virtuous, feldom fails, during his abode therein, to contract the vileft habits, and to be ever after unfit for fociety. Thus it is the height of impolicy and cruelty to to make no diftinction between the unfortunate debtor and the defigning fraudulent fwindler ; for, although the juftice of the legiilature mould provide a punifhment for the one, a certain and more lenient degree of protection than has hither- to been adopted, ought furely to be held out to the other. But the intereft of lawyers does not require fuch difcriminations to be made, and therefore it is judged right, that things mould remain as they are. They forever tell us, they cannot be better. How long will this infatuation laft ! Oh En- glimmen ! let it no more be faid, that, with paf- five, ignoble tamenefs, ye fuffered a fervile race of mercenary, corrupt, vindictive lawyers, to forge the chains of hard captivity for your free-born limbs ! ye have a constitution, whofe leading principle, ye are told, is liberty, facred, im- mortal liberty ! ye have a king, who is faid ardently to defire the profperity of all his people. Cherifh, then, this facred principle of your con- ftitution ; accomplim the defires of your virtuous king; rouze from your torpor; the lion flum- bereth, bereth, he is not dead ; but, oh ! whenever he fhall awake, whenever his wrath fhall be kindled, let him know to diftinguifh in his rage ; let none but the guilty bleed ! The news of Mr. Walker's fudden death caufed me many poignant reflections ; as the horrors of confinement were, in fome meafure, lefTened, while I confidered myfelf under the cuftody of that gentleman, and not under the controul of a mer- cenary jailor ; for this lucrative finecure (fuch in fact it is) too generally falls to the lot (I say it with- out meaning to offend any individual) of the moft worthlefs or infignificant characters : men, not felected from any particular merit that would render them fit for the office ; not diftinguifhed for their difintereftednefs, charity, or diligent attention to the wants and morals of the prifoners ; but appointed merely as relations, or dependants, on my Lord Chief Juftice of the day, who, for the moft part, (if not always) takes care to faddle them with a VERY HEAVY RIDER. Soon after Mr. Walker's death, the arrival in England of my amiable friend, the father of my children, children, revived my hopes, nor were they dif- appointed. He at once administered to my wants, and cheered my forrows. The excellence of Mr. B******'s heart, was my fecurity with him againft thofe frivolous and ungenerous ex- cufes, which, in the hour of adverfity, it has been my lot to receive from fo many others, whom alfo I had once thought my friends : he embraced the earlieft opportunity of vifiting me in my confinement, and inftantly took the children un- der his protection ; the youngeft of whom was, at that time, only three months old. It is a very harm trait in the human creature, (neverthelefs, I fear it is too faithful a one,) that calumny is, generally, the moft bufy againft thofe who moft want comfort and protection. While I was fuffering all the complicated mif- eries of a loathfome jail, infinuations to my dif- advantage were moft malignantly and induftrioufly propagated, with the cruel defign of ruining me in the opinion and affection of this my beft friend ; but, fuperior to all illiberal prejudice, and making every allowance for my folitary and unhappy fitua- 14 tion, tion, he would not confent to abandon me, fo that thefe cruel efforts of my enemies, moft of whom I have difcovered to exift in the circle of my own acquaintance, ended in difappointment and abor- tion; and I ingenioufly confefs, that my vanity exulted in the triumph which I achieved on this occafion, and my heart was preferved from the mock it would have fuftained, had the father of my children, to complete the fum of my misfor- tunes, withdrawn his countenance and affection from them ; but, I truft in Providence that I am not referved for this additional calamity ! Mr. B******'s finances could by no means keep pace with the liberality of his mind, and in my dif- treffed circumftances it was abfolutely neceffary to find out fome other fource of relief: I therefore, in the month of March, 1791, (Mr. Coghlan being then involved in a law-fuit with his niece, Lady Blake) by the advice of my proctor, (Mr. Walker, of Doctors Commons) petitioned the Court of Delegates, before whom the faid caufe was to be heard. A petition from his wife, dated from a prifon, to which his brutality had con- demned her, alarmed his tender feelings ; and thus, I0 9 ) thus, as I have already obferved, I obtained a prefent fupply, and a promife of an adequate fettlement, on condition that I would withdraw the petition. To this I confented, and the re- fult of my compliance was, a mutual agreement to execute articles of feparation, which are, more- over and nevertbelefs, as the gentlemen of the robe are pleafed to term it, only during our mutual pleafure ; the laft claufe of my deed of fettle- ment compelling me to return home to this kind y affectionate hujband whenever his caprice mould induce him to require it. Thus feparated from him, on the 26th of De- cember, 1791, I received fecurity for an annuity of an hundred pounds for my life, fubject to the condition above mentioned. But, alas ! I had no fooner obtained it, than the accomplifhed, vir- tuous milliner who had fo eflentially contributed to my diftreffes, by encouraging me in that ftupid fyftem of extravagance on which her prefent for- tune was raifed, and which exalted her to the enviable rank of an honeft married lady, like a tygrefs darting upon the wretched victim of her favage favage appetite, feized on me, infifting that I mould give immediate fecurity for her debt a debt contracted for gew-gaw frippery and tinjelled, flimfy trumpery. I had already, in the courfe of a very fhort time, paid this harpy fourteen hundred pounds, for articles of this like defcription. The humane reader will revolt with abhorrence on find- ing that this woman, after fuch emoluments derived from my folly, mould proceed againft me for another debt of three hundred pounds, which, I am morally convinced, I did not owe ; but for which me abfolutely compelled me to afTign over fifty pounds a year of my annuity to her, for the four enfuing years, which now helps to fupport her and a banker's clerk, whom me has lately taken to her virtuous bed, in the eafe and luxury which they feem to enjoy. When it is remem- bered how many unfortunate, unexperienced women this extortioner has plundered, not only with impunity but fuccefs how many wretched female captives fhe has held (and I believe ftill holds) in jail the fortune fhe has acquired by conftant impofitions on youthful folly and credu- lity, it muft excite regret that there are no laws in ( III ) in force to ftop the depredations of fimilar mif- creants, almoft as great nuifances in fociety as thofe low pettyfogging attornies with whom, for the moft part, they are connected, and between whom fuch an attractive fympathy exifts. For my own part, I am fo well acquainted with their enormous charges, and the fatal confequences of them, that I would rather truft for mercy to the tendernefs of a wolf, than to a civilized barbarian like the lady of whom I am now fpeaking ; and I am convinced, from woeful experience, that the generaHty of perfons in trade, with whom unpro- tected females have any pecuniary dealings, would be over-paid in receiving one third of their over- charged, extravagant demands. The reader may believe this picture exaggerated, but I can afTure him // is not ; hundreds of thoughtlefs women, befides myfelf, having fallen within her fnares, and from her may date their ruin. To her alone I am indebted for two years clofe confinement in a jail, where wretchednefs and vice of every de- fcription rule triumphant where no remedy is applied to the relief of one, or the fuppreflion of the other where every comfort, every virtue, is is left to depend on the guinea in our pockets, and where they who have it not have only the cafual charity of prifoners themfelves to depend on. There, even in that gloomy manfion ! I have often beheld vice and infenfibility triumphant ; virtue and tendernefs of heart dejected and in tears. The unfortunate friend, whofe amiable confidence has involved him in debts he was unable to pay, I have here beheld languishing, in want of thofe neceflaries which in happier days he himfelf had fo freely adminiftered to others. The veteran foldier, all covered with wounds which he had received in battle in the fervice of his king, I have there beheld dying with hunger, naked and forfaken, caft on the common fide, a prey to filth and vermin, too proud and confcious of his own merit to expofe his emaciated forlorn figure to the curious refearches of his fellow prifoners, chufing rather to die than truft to precarious bounty, fenfible of his juft claims on thofe with whom pity, alas ! is fo feldom refident. During my refidence in the King's Bench, the gallant Captain ( "3 ) Captain Abbot, of the royal artillery, than whom no man in the army had ever ferved with more diftinguifhed merit, died, literally in that prifon, through want, in the foliation which I have de- fcribed. This brave man had a wife and three children, who were all drowned on their voyage from America. But all his fujferings, all his fer- vices, were of no avail ! he was thus left to die without a (ingle enquiry from the part of govern- ment concerning him ; and to the immortal honour of a noble Duke, (M r G 1 of the ordnance) taken advantage of his imprifon- ment, he fufpended him from his fituation, as captain in the royal artillery. Oh ! that I could for ever efface the dreadful fcene from my memory ! as it was my misfortune to have known the gen- tleman of whom I now fpeak in America, but the impreflion is too deep on my heart. Shortly after the death of this my lamented friend, I obtained my releafe from the King's Bench, but not from the liberality of thofe who confined me ; on the contrary, I was under the neceflity of pleading my coverture in the Court of ( "4 ) of King's Bench, where I obtained a rule of court to fet afide a deed which I had formerly figned, and which my fituation as a married woman made illegal. Thus I was for a time liberated from confinement, and in the month of January following I had occafion to fummon up all my fortitude. Although fuperftition be a failing to which I am by no means addicted, ftill the following circumftance may, in the opinion of fome, expofe me to the fufpicion of being under the influence of that frailty : In all my days of diflipated pleafure and heart-rending afflictions, never did an hour pafs that my father did not prefent himfelf to my imagination. At this time I dreamed I beheld his funeral, with my youngeft brother as his chief mourner, and on the coffin of the deceafed lay a bleeding heart. This dream made fuch an effect upon my fenfes, that no perfon could induce me to believe my father was not actually dead ; and fuch was the afcendency of my fears, that I abfolutely put on deep mourning on the occaiion. In my fable robes I one day met Colonel Small, (an old friend of my father's) who exprefled much fur- prife ( "5 ) prife on feeing me arrayed in thefe melancholy emblems of grief, and inquired into the caufe. I replied, it were not from thefe outward figns of forrow he was to judge, as what I fuffered for the lofs of a much loved father furpafled all mew. The Colonel anfwered, " Your father is