PRESENTED TO THE LIBRARY 
 
 OF 
 
 PRINCETON THEOLOGICSL SEMINHRY 
 
 BY 
 
 IVIps. Alexandcp Proudfit. 
 BX 9225 .J363 J36 1852 
 Janeway, J. J. 1774-1858. 
 A family piece 
 
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FAMILY PIECE; 
 
 OB, A 
 
 MEMOIR 
 
 MRS. MARTHA GRAY JANEWAY. 
 
 / BT HER HUSBAND, 
 
 J. J. JANEWAY, D.D 
 
 NEW YORK: 
 
 PRINTED, BUT XOT PUBLISHED, 
 
 BY ROBERT CARTER AND BROTHERS. 
 1852. 
 
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 Entbbbd accordiog to Act of Congrets, in the year 18S5, by 
 
 ROBERT CARTER A>'D BROTHERS, 
 
 in the Clerk's Offico of the Dietriet Court for the Southern District of New York. 
 
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 ADVERTISEMENT. 
 
 This book is strictly what its title imports it to be, 
 a Family Piece ; printed, but not published. 
 
 It is, therefore, hoped and requested, that all into 
 whose hands it may chance to fall, will feel thoy are 
 bound in honor, not to publish any part of it. 
 
CONTENTS. 
 
 PAGB 
 
 Iktrodcction ...... 7 
 
 CHAPTER I . 
 From dek Birth to her Marriaoe . . .11 
 
 CHAPTER II. 
 Correspoivdence ...... 27 
 
 CHAPTER III. 
 
 From the Year 1804 to the Year 1810 . . 41 
 
 CHAPTER IV. 
 
 The Same Period, from lfi04 to ISIO . . 76 
 
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VI CONTKNTS. 
 
 CHAPTER V. 
 Fkom the Year IRIO to the Year 1820 . . 88 
 
 CHAPTER VI. 
 
 FiiOM 1S29 TO HER Decease in 1851 . . .121 
 
 CHAPTER VII. 
 
 Continuance of the same Period . . . ItO 
 
 APPENDIX. 
 
 A. Sketch of tue Gray Family . . . 180 
 
 B. Memorial of William Yates Janeway . 184 
 
 C. Sketch of the Janeway Family . . 193 
 
 D. Dr. How's Address at the Fineral of Mrs. 
 
 Janeway ...... 199 
 
INTRODUCTION. 
 
 From the intimate relation subsisting, for nearly 
 half a century, between Mrs. Janeway and the 
 ■writer, he had the best opportunity of knowing 
 her character and her worth ; hence he was led 
 to think of writing: her memoir. On looking over 
 his own journal, and glancing at a multitude of 
 letters found among her papers, he soon saw 
 there would be no lack of materials. lie believed 
 the excellence of her character requiied such a 
 memorial, as is here printed, from the pen of her 
 husband ; and that she oucjht not to be forgotten 
 by her children, nor by their descendants. Her 
 immediate children can never forget a mother so 
 kind, aftectionate, faithful, and invaluable. But 
 their children, were they not furnished with 
 information of her character and worth, might 
 
VIU INTRODUCTION. 
 
 forget her. Iler hu.sband has written this little 
 book, to supply them with this information, that 
 they may appreciate her excellence, and imitate 
 her example, and feel it a duty, as well as a 
 privilege, not to forget that bles.sed parent from 
 whom they have descended. 
 
 It is a \h(^h gratincaViin to the writer that, in 
 writing this memoir, he has not had to rely on 
 his own recollection, in stating fcicts that occurred 
 many years ago. What is written has been 
 drawn, either from his own journal, in which 
 they were recorded at the time of their occur- 
 rence, or from her letters, or letters addressed 
 to her. In a word, nothing has been stated for 
 which he liad not unexceptionable authority. 
 
 It was tlie wish of the writer to keep himself 
 out of view. But this, owing to the intimate 
 relation subsisting between husband and wife, he 
 found to be impossible ; and that, in exhibiting 
 the character of his wife, clearly and fully, he 
 must speak of himself. And considering for 
 
INTRODUCTION. IX 
 
 whose eyes he was writing ; not the eye of the 
 public, but the eyes of bis children, and near 
 relatives, he felt that he might use a liberty which 
 would not, perhaps, be proper, if he were writing 
 a book for any who might choose to purchase 
 and read it. 
 
 Yet, after having transcribed largely from his 
 journal, he has, on a review, obliterated much, 
 that expressed his ardent desires and earnest 
 prayers for the spiritual welfare of his dear wife ; 
 leaving it to the reader to infer what his anxiety 
 must have been for her, while the work of grace 
 was going on in her soul. 
 
 The writing of this memorial, by leading him 
 to recall what occurred between him and his wifi-, 
 and to take a combined view of her conduct fur 
 so many years, and of all her qualities and trails 
 of character, received from nature and from grace, 
 lias greatly increased his estimation of her worth, 
 and made him more sensible of the magnitude of 
 his loss. But while he thus feels, he cannot in- 
 
X INTRODUCTIOIt. 
 
 dulge a 7visk that she should, for his comfort, 
 return to this world of sin and sorrow. He re- 
 joices in the belief that she is unspeakably hap- 
 pier where she now is, than she could be with 
 her husband, living in the present imperfect state. 
 He feels willing, through the grace of God, to 
 finish alone the short remainder of his pilgrim- 
 age on earth; and indulges the blessed hope of 
 soon seeing his beloved wife in that better and 
 sinless world, to which she has gone ; and there, 
 with her, and all the spirits of just men made 
 perfect, to surround the throne of Him who j'C- 
 deemed us with his blood, and to praise " Him 
 that sitteth on the throne, and the Lamb, for ever 
 and ever. Amen." 
 
A 
 
 FAMILY PIECE. 
 
 FROM HER BIRTH TO HER MARRIAGE. 
 
 Her Birth — rarentage — EJucBticii — Marrioge— Correspondence. 
 
 Mrs. Martha Gray Jane way was born 
 in Philadelphia, September 2d, 1783. She 
 was the eldest daughter and the eldest liv- 
 ing child of Thomas and Elizabeth C. Lei- 
 per. Before her, they had two children ; 
 one died in its birth, and the other within 
 three months after its birth. Both were 
 sons. But she lived, and was greatly be- 
 loved by her parents ; and their love she 
 always returned with the. warmest affec- 
 tion. 
 
 Thomas Leiper, her father, was born in 
 Scotland, in the year 1745. He came to 
 this country when he was about seventeen 
 years old. Having arrived before the revo- 
 lutionary war, which, through the blessing 
 
12 MRS. JANE WAY. 
 
 of heaven, resulted in our independence, he 
 warmly espoused the cause of his adopted 
 country. 
 
 By diligent prosecution of his business, 
 after the independence of the United States, 
 and the adoption of their present Constitu- 
 tion, he became a wealthy man. 
 
 Subsequently, when the people divided 
 into two distinct parties, he connected him- 
 self with the democratic party ; and to ad- 
 vance its interest he spent much time and 
 money. He was an honest, independent, 
 and disinterested democrat. For his ser- 
 vices and expenditure he sought no reward, 
 either for himself or for his children. 
 
 Mrs. Elizabeth Coultas Leiper, her mo- 
 ther, was the eldest child of George and 
 Martha Gray, who had six daughters and 
 three sons. She was born August 26th, 
 1762.* 
 
 She was married to Thomas Leiper when 
 in her seventeenth year. She had been 
 
 * Appendix A. 
 
PARENTAGE. 
 
 13 
 
 trained up in the faith and practices of the 
 Friends. The Rev. Mr. White, (afterwards 
 Bishop of the Episcopal church,) had per- 
 formed the marriage ceremony ; and to him 
 she subsequently applied to be introduced 
 into communion with that church. But the 
 bishop, acting under the influence of a lib- 
 eral and Christian spirit, advised her to at- 
 tend the ministry of the Rev. Dr. Sproat, 
 Pastor of the Second Presbyterian church, 
 where Mr. Leiper attended worship ; assign- 
 ing as a reason, it was best for husbands 
 and wives to belong to the same church. 
 
 She followed his good advice, and be- 
 came, in time, a member of that church, 
 and continued in connection with it till her 
 decease in 1829. 
 
 Mrs. Leiper possessed a strong and intel- 
 ligent mind. Had she enjoyed the means 
 now afforded to females for the culture of 
 their minds, she would have made a shining 
 character. But, slender as her opportuni- 
 ties for improvement, beside those of the 
 2 
 
14 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 family, had been, and although much occu- 
 pied after her marriage with domestic du- 
 ties, and engaged too in business, she 
 found time to impove her mind by reading, 
 and displayed much force of intellect and 
 strength of judgment. 
 
 Mild and gentle in her temper and de- 
 portment, she was a peace maker; well 
 suited as a companion to her husband, 
 whose temper was warm, sanguine, and 
 quick. Keeping a watchful eye over her 
 children, she guarded against every breach 
 of harmony, and diligently taught them to 
 love one another. In this she was emi- 
 nently successful. Her children, and espe- 
 cially her daughters, have been peculiarly 
 fond of each other, and have always mani- 
 fested to Mrs. Janeway, their eldest sister, 
 the greatest affection. 
 
 The writer knew their attachment to his 
 wife. But since her decease, having looked 
 over a multitude of letters written by them 
 in the course of many years, he has felt sur- 
 
BROTHERS AND SISTERS. 15 
 
 prised to see the strength of attachment and 
 warmth of affection apparent in all ; from 
 every one flowing like a delightful stream 
 through the whole. The youngest, now the 
 widow of Henry Taylor, late of Virginia, 
 and for many years separated from her, 
 writes : "I grieve for my sister as for my 
 mother. I remember her, beautiful, and 
 active, and lady-like in the discharge of all 
 her duties, and educating her children for 
 eternity." 
 
 His heart has melted within him, when 
 contemplating such exhibition of love to 
 one whom he so tenderly loved, and often 
 bedewed his cheeks with many tears. 
 
 What a precious mother was Mrs. Leiper ! 
 How much all her children owe to her for 
 endeavoring to instil into their minds the 
 best principles ! And how carefully should 
 they treasure up the instructions she im- 
 parted to them ! and recollecting her so- 
 licitude for their highest good, and how 
 earnestly and frequently she prayed for 
 
16 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 their eternal salvation, unite with her in 
 supplicating the grace of God, that they 
 may follow her to that heavenly abode 
 where she hoped to meet all her children ! 
 
 The early education of Mrs. Janeway was 
 after the Scottish mode. She was taught 
 to read her Bible ; to learn her catechism ; 
 to pray, and to attend, on the Sabbath, 
 divine worship regularly and punctually. 
 And when she reached the proper age, she 
 was sent to that excellent school, which, for 
 many years, was a blessing to Philadelphia. 
 It was conducted by an eminently pious 
 and good man, Daniel Jaudon, a ruling 
 elder of the Second Presbyterian Church, of 
 which her future husband became one of 
 the pastors. That man of God, while he 
 endeavored to store the minds of his pupils 
 with sound and useful knowledge, forgot 
 not he had committed to his care young im- 
 mortals. He felt it his duty to cultivate 
 their hearts as well as their understandings. 
 His aim was to fit them for the important 
 
EDUCATION. 17 
 
 stations they were destined to occupy in the 
 community as wives and mothers. He en- 
 deavored to inspire them with reverence 
 and love for the Holy Scriptures ; and 
 sought, by earnest prayer, that they might 
 be sanctified by their inspired and divine 
 truths. G-od blessed his labors. His pu- 
 pils, when they had finished their educa- 
 tion, loved him ; and many husbands had 
 reason to be grateful to Mr. Jaudon for pre- 
 paring for them such suitable and valuable 
 wives. 
 
 Mrs. Janeway, like many others, was 
 greatly indebted to this good man for what 
 he had done for her mind and heart : salu- 
 tary impressions were made on them that 
 were never eflfaced. 
 
 About two or three years before her mar- 
 riage with the writer, a family residing 
 near to her father's house, showed her par- 
 ticular attention, which resulted in an inti- 
 macy with a daughter of nearly the same 
 age. The family lived in a gay and fash- 
 
18 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 ionable style, and were fond of amusements 
 that prove so attractive to those who forget 
 they are immortal beings, and live only for 
 the present world. Intercourse with such a 
 family could not favor any serious impres- 
 sions on the mind of Miss Lieper, but had a 
 tendency to wear them away. She was, 
 however, mercifully saved from such a ca- 
 lamity. Her dear mother, doubtless, was 
 on the watch against the evil tendency : 
 her beloved daughter retained a fondness 
 for the society of the aged and the serious ; 
 she was seen regularly in the house of God 
 on the Sabbath. 
 
 Miss Leiper was in person, and especially 
 in her countenance, beautiful. Her fore- 
 head was smooth and sufhciently high ; her 
 eyebrows were black and finely arched ; her 
 eyelashes long, giving to her eyes a darker 
 shade ; her teeth very white, somewhat 
 large, well set, finely arranged, and not 
 seen but when she smiled or spoke : her 
 lips vermilion ; her cheeks covered with 
 
PERSON. 19 
 
 roses, and all adorned by beautifully black 
 hair. Such was her color that it continued 
 on her countenance through life. 
 
 Such a female, having expectations au- 
 thorized by the wealth of the family at the 
 time, might have commanded a rich mer- 
 chant, or a person occupying an honorable 
 and lucrative station, for a husband. But 
 she preferred the hand that could offer only 
 a ring studded with a few pearls to one that 
 was ready to offer a diamond ring ; and 
 after her marriage, she told her husband it 
 had been her prayer that she might be mar- 
 ried to a religious man. 
 
 Writing for his family, it will not savor 
 of vanity if the author, now an aged man, 
 says, he and his chosen companion resem- 
 bled one another. She told him, after they 
 were married, that persons remarked to her 
 that we were so much alike that we ought 
 to be married. At our first visit to New 
 York, I took her with me to pay our re- 
 spects to my preceptor in theology, that 
 
TSkJ MRS. JANEWAV. 
 
 wise and holy, learned and great man, llic 
 Rev. Dr. John H. Livingston. He then 
 lived in Broadway, above Spring street. 
 As we approached his house, he was stand- 
 ing in the door. Recognising his former 
 pupil, before we had reached his house, he 
 immediately turned to his wife, who was 
 in the entry, and said, " Mattie, come see 
 how much these two persons look like each 
 other." 
 
 At that time the cheeks of the writer 
 were as red and blooming as those of his 
 beautiful wife ; and it may be owing to 
 this circumstance, that persons fancied a 
 likeness between us. Hard study, and long 
 and daily confinement to his chamber, and 
 not being much in the open air, took from 
 him the color that reddened his cheeks, 
 much sooner than from the cheeks of his 
 wife. 
 
 Here may, with propriety, be introduced 
 the writer's views and feelings as to matri- 
 mony. 
 
VIEWS OF MARRIAGE. 
 
 21 
 
 He regarded it as the most important 
 step in life he could take, in reference to his 
 personal happiness, to his usefulness as a 
 minister of the Gospel of Christ, and to the 
 children that God might be pleased to give 
 him. 
 
 By reflecting on the subject, accompa- 
 nied with earnest prayer, his mind had 
 been brought to entire submission to the 
 Divine will. He felt willing to remain in a 
 single state, regarding it as a small sacrifice, 
 if, by so doing, he could glorify God more, 
 and be more useful in the ministry. 
 
 How shall I most glorify God ? How 
 shall I be most useful ? By remaining in a 
 single state, or by entering into the mar- 
 riage state ? These were questions on 
 which the writer deliberated much and of- 
 fered many prayers. His mind was at 
 length inclined to the married relation. 
 The arguments on both sides of the ques- 
 tion he has recorded on a separate paper, 
 still preserved. 
 
aZ MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Till this question was decided, he could 
 not make any serious advances toward ob- 
 taining the hand of Miss Leiper. To ascer- 
 tain her character and qualifications, he 
 sought the aid of those he was assured 
 knew her well, and could give him the best 
 information. Nor did he neglect to employ 
 his own observations whenever he had any 
 opportunity for seeing her deportment and 
 hearing her conversation. Believing the 
 truth of the proverb, " A prudent wife is 
 from the Lord," he did not fail to seek, at 
 every step, divine direction, by offering ear- 
 nest and daily petitions to the throne of 
 grace. It was his sincere desire and re- 
 peated prayer, that, if a connection with 
 the young lady would not redound to the 
 glory of God, and promote the usefulness of 
 His servant, He would, by His providence, 
 interpose and prevent it. 
 
 In reviewing his journal, in which he has 
 recorded all the particulars relating to this 
 important matter, he sees with what snspi- 
 
DIFFICULTY RKMOVKl). 23 
 
 cion, lest he should deceive himself, and 
 mistake his duty and the leadings of Prov- 
 idence, he acted, throughout his whole 
 course. A misapprehension had occurred, 
 which seemed to terminate the afi'air. It 
 led to a kind, alTeetionate note from Mrs. 
 Leiper to the writer, and to a short reply 
 from him, promising a longer communica- 
 tion to explain what required explanation. 
 When written, dated " Philadelphia, Janu- 
 ary 2, 1804," it was sent to Mrs. Leiper. 
 It contained the views of the writer in re- 
 gard to marriage, and gave a full and can- 
 did explanation of his whole conduct while 
 paying his addresses to her daughter, and 
 assigned the reason of an intermission of 
 his visits for some time, and of their subse- 
 quent renewal. 
 
 This letter removed every difficulty. On 
 Thursday evening, the 11th inst., Mrs. Lei- 
 per told me I had her daughter's aft'ec- 
 tions ; and. on Saturday evening following, 
 her daughter acknowledged the .same, and 
 
24 MnS. JANEWAY. 
 
 said she had no objection to my manner of 
 life. 
 
 The raarriago of Miss Leiper and the 
 writer was, by agreement, to be celebrated 
 on the evening of the 17th of April ; but, 
 by a singular concurrence of circumstances, 
 the ceremony was performed in the morn- 
 ing of that day. The change in the hour 
 of the day was, at the time, unpleasant and 
 afflicting ; but it was afterwards seen to be 
 a kind arrangement of Providence. 
 
 To show the hand of Providence in this 
 change, we must be a little particular. 
 
 At that time the writer was an inmate in 
 the family of the late John Stillc, Esq., 
 who then occupied and owned a house on 
 the south side of Chestnut, between Fourth 
 and Fifth streets, Philadelphia. He had 
 kindly assigned to him, for his study, the 
 front room on the first floor. 
 
 In the morning of that day the writer 
 had gone out. On his return he found the 
 penny post had entered his room, and placed 
 
SINGULAR OCCURRENCE. 25 
 
 a letter against his writing desk, so as to 
 meet his eye as soon as he opened the door. 
 He saw it ; it had a black seal. He opened 
 it ; it announced the death of his mother, 
 and requested his attendance at her fune- 
 ral. 
 
 Instantly he formed the purpose to start 
 for New- York. Previously, however, he 
 went to the study of his colleague, the late 
 Dr. Green, where he knew several minis- 
 ters were convened as a committee of the 
 General Assembly. He stated his case to 
 them, requested them to ask counsel from 
 God, and then give their advice. Prayer 
 was offered to Him who has promised to 
 give wisdom to them who ask in faith. 
 Immediately on rising from their knees, 
 they disapproved of his purpose of starting 
 alone for New-York, and gave it as their 
 unanimous judgment that Dr. Green and 
 the writer should go immediately to Mr. 
 Leiper's, and, if the family consented, form 
 the marriage relation ; that the married 
 
26 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 couple might go to New- York and attend 
 the funeral. It was done. Mr. Leiper's 
 carriage was ordered ; and as soon as the 
 party had eaten something, they set off 
 about twelve o'clock for Princeton. They 
 arrived where the stage lodged that night. 
 The next morning the carriage was sent 
 back, and they started early with the stage, 
 and arrived at New York in due time. 
 
 Mrs. Stille, that excellent and refined 
 woman, said, if she had seen the letter, she 
 would have concealed it, till after the mar- 
 riage at night. Had she done so, it might 
 have involved the writer in serious difficul- 
 ties. But Providence ordered it otherwise ; 
 and, as will be seen, saved him from pass- 
 ing through circumstances that would have 
 required the greatest circumspection to 
 escape censure, and avoid the appearance of 
 evil. 
 
CORRESPONDENCE. 
 
 While in New York, a correspondence 
 took place, from which the following ex- 
 tracts are presented : 
 
 From her mother, Mrs. J. received a let- 
 ter, written on the next day after our de- 
 parture from Philadelphia ; in which she 
 described the supper at night, and the con- 
 duct of the guests, and then adds : 
 
 "And now, my love, do not, after the 
 fatigue of your journey, suffer your spirits 
 to droop and injure your health. As you 
 have been the delight of your own parents, 
 endeavor to soften the affliction of your new 
 father, and be the comfort of your husband ; 
 and in return, you will, I am sure, receive 
 that attention and affection which will sup- 
 port and make you happy. 
 
 "And do von not think llmt vesterdav \ 
 
28 
 
 MRS. JANE WAY 
 
 was pretty well tried, and found I had need 
 of all that good opinion and affection I had 
 felt for Mr. Janeway, in giving you np so 
 completely to his care ? Yes, my dear, I 
 look forward with a Christian hope that all 
 will be well ; that, as far as earthly happi- 
 ness may be expected, I trust it will be 
 your portion ; and that, when this prospect 
 vanishes, a permanent rest in bliss above 
 shall be yours. 
 
 "Present love to your father, and my 
 son, and the rest of the family, and believe 
 
 me, 
 
 '' Your most affectionate mother." 
 
 Under date, April 20th, 1804, Mrs. L. 
 wrote again to her daughter. In reference 
 to what occurred the day after onr mar- 
 riage, she says : 
 
 " Indeed we have had a hurrying time of 
 it. According to the views of the world in 
 general, I suppose it might be called plea- 
 sure, if eating and drinking can be so 
 termed. In my view it nppcars too much 
 
CORRESPONDENCK. 29 
 
 like dissipation, and I hope it will be over 
 to-morrow. Your sentiments and mine 
 would, I know, lead us to seek for the re- 
 finements of friendship and for the duties of 
 domestic life. 
 
 "I long to hear from you, and hope I 
 shall fully this day or to-morrow. 
 
 " All the family join in love to you both. 
 The two young gentlemen also requested to 
 be remembered to you. I hope the friends 
 you are with may be enabled to bear their 
 loss with fortitude, and view my dear Mar- 
 tha with the same favorable impressions she 
 leaves on the minds of her own friends. 
 
 "With much love and affection for you 
 both, I remain yours." 
 
 In a letter dated April 23d, 1804, from 
 her father, is found the following good 
 counsel. Speaking of himself and his wife, 
 he says, " I believe we arc better pleased 
 with each other than on the day we were 
 married. This is a comfort for you ; but 
 
30 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 you may rely on it, if you expect all sun- 
 shine, you will be disappointed. 
 
 " You have a task to perform on your re- 
 turn home. How you will be able to dis- 
 charge it, I know not ; that is, to see all the 
 female part of our congregation : for as the 
 minister's wife, they will visit you, and as 
 such it is your duty to receive them. You 
 will, no doubt, be polite to all, and show 
 attention to the oldest first, and give them 
 rank in your house, as they stand in the 
 church — not according to their wealth. In- 
 deed, if you take my advice, you will show 
 most attention to those who possess the 
 least; for they certainly want the most 
 comfort." 
 
 His daughter wrote the following reply, 
 dated New- York, April 28th, 1804 : 
 
 " It was with sincere pleasure that I re- 
 ceived my dear father's kind favor, by Mr. 
 Galaudet, (and also my dear mother's,) and 
 now will he allow me to assure him of the 
 
CORRESPONDENCE. 31 
 
 grateful sense I have of his goodness ; know- 
 ing the variety of his engagements, it was 
 doubly welcome. The good advice con- 
 tained in it, I shall endeavor to profit by. I 
 am happy to find that my ideas and his 
 should correspond. How shall I repay half 
 the kindness I have received from my dear 
 parents, for what they have done and are 
 still doing for me ? It is impossible that I 
 ever should ! but I will pray the Almighty 
 to grant them His richest blessings ; may 
 they long be preserved to their children. 
 
 " I should have written immediately after 
 receiving your letter, but thought as George 
 was going so soon, he would inform you of 
 every thing. He left us yesterday. I was 
 glad to hear that you and the rest of the 
 family were well. I have enjoyed my 
 health very well since I have been here ; 
 but the weather has been so wet and un- 
 pleasant until to-day, that I have not been 
 able to walk out as much as I could have 
 wished. A lady called with her carriage, 
 
32 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 and took me round the city. The situa- 
 tion is very fine, and the houses generally 
 large and handsome ; the prospect from the 
 Battery is very charming — Broadway is a 
 handsome street. My father-in-law is very 
 kind and attentive to me (as are the rest of 
 the family) ; he has several times proposed 
 to us to come and live with him, but Phila- 
 delphia has so many ties for me, that unless 
 I thought it my duty, it would be a very 
 great trial. My father and Mr. Janeway 
 unite with me in love to you, and my dear 
 mother, and all the family. Believe me to 
 be, with sincerest affection, 
 
 " Your grateful daughter, 
 
 " M. Gr. Janeavay. 
 " P. S. — Mr. Janeway has not seen your 
 letter as you requested. My dear father 
 will excuse the manner in which this is 
 written, when I tell him that since I began 
 it there has been more than a dozen people 
 to see me. Give my love to Sophia Dallas. 
 
 "M. G. J." 
 
CORRESPONDENCE. 33 
 
 The letter to her father, the writer, as far 
 as his recollection serves, never saw till he 
 found it among the papers of his deceased 
 wife. 
 
 Under date April 24th, 1804, our dear 
 mother pours out the fullness of her affec- 
 tionate heart : 
 
 " I must again, my dear children, thank 
 you for the high gratification I experienced 
 in receiving your letter of yesterday. Con- 
 tinue to favor me, while absent, with a cor- 
 respondence so pleasing. And oh ! may it 
 please God to make me still useful to my 
 family, and accepted with them at last, for 
 the sake of Him who died for us." 
 
 The following letter from Dr. G-reen, 
 dated April 24th, 1804, shall be given in 
 full; 
 
 " My dear Colleague : Your favor of the 
 20th inst. reached me yesterday, but I had 
 seen before the letter written by yourself 
 and Co. to Mrs. Leiper. As I have been a 
 party concerned in all the interesting trans- 
 
34 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 actions relative to your marriage, it is right 
 that I should see all the communications 
 that relate to this subject. And now, my 
 dear friends, (for I write equally to you 
 and your dear partner,) I trust you begin 
 to be satisfied that you have acted as you 
 ought, and that a Providential dispensation 
 which at the time was trying and disheart- 
 ening, was intended for your good. Be- 
 lieve me, though my ears have been con- 
 stantly open for the purpose, I have not 
 heard of an individual that has censured 
 what you have done, and but one who sug- 
 gested that another system would have been 
 preferable. The situation in which both of 
 you have been placed, has created a warm 
 sympathy in the hearts of all your friends, 
 and in the minds of many to whom you 
 were hardly known. The pious people see 
 in it a merciful order of Providence, min- 
 gled with the affliction. They see and say 
 , that you have, without the possibility of 
 censure from any, been completely pre- 
 
CORRESPONDENCE. 35 
 
 eluded from company and scenes of festiv- 
 ity, through which it would have been very 
 difficult to pass without much censure and 
 much embarrassment to yourselves. You 
 have exchanged a festive for a mourning 
 scene, which, though it is less attractive, 
 may ultimately prove more salutary. For 
 myself, I am entirely satisfied with all that 
 has taken place in regard to you, and desire 
 to be very thankful for the safety with 
 which you made your journey, and the 
 comfortable circumstances in which you 
 now find yourselves. May your happiness 
 be perpetual. 
 
 " This is a changing world. No sooner 
 have we attained one object than we are 
 looking out for another. I was anxious you 
 should get to New- York ; I am now anxious 
 for the time when you shall get back again. 
 In my own mind I have fixed on the latter 
 part of next week for the period of your 
 return. This will just allow you time to 
 get settled in your house before the meeting 
 
36 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 of the General Assembly. On next Sabbath 
 we give notice of the communion, and it 
 will be desirable that my brother should be 
 here to receive applications, and to meet 
 with the session the following week. But 
 though I suggest these things, I do by no 
 means press them. There is no urgent cir- 
 circumstance of a congregational kind to 
 hasten your return. Dr. Tennent and Mr. 
 Larzalere have both offered their services 
 to preach, and Mr. Bradford and Mr. Todd 
 are both in the house with me ; so that I 
 can hardly get a chance to preach at all, 
 and did not preach on Sabbath last. Take, 
 therefore, your own time, and I will look 
 after the flock with double diligence till you 
 come home. To-morrow we are to lay the 
 foundation stone of our new church at 
 Campington, when I am to make a short 
 address and a prayer. 
 
 "Yesterday I went to Mr. Leiper's, not 
 having been there before since I left the door 
 of the house witli you. The brethren who 
 
CORRESPONDENCE. 37 
 
 advised in your case, gave it as their opin- 
 ion to me, that I ought not to go to supper 
 after having been a party in the concerns of 
 the day. I therefore wrote a letter to Mr. 
 Leiper in the evening, and excused myself. 
 The family are all well. But of this and 
 ottier family concerns, you will have been 
 apprised, both by letter and the verbal com- 
 munications of young Mr. Leiper. 
 
 *' Remember me in the most tender man- 
 ner to your father, to whom I pray God to 
 afford every necessary support. And be as- 
 sured, my dear friends, that you have con- 
 stantly my best wishes for your happiness ; 
 in which I know I am cordially joined by 
 my dear Mrs. Green, who is well for her, 
 and is now gone for a ride to Rose Hill. 
 
 "Adieu. A. Green. 
 
 " Mr. and Mrs. Janeway." 
 
 April 2Gth, 1804, Mrs. Leiper writes : 
 *' My dear Martha : I am happy you are 
 able to spend a little time with a father for 
 whom I wish you to feel every sentiment of 
 
38 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 duty and affection, and also with the other 
 part of Mr. Janeway's friends. 
 
 " I saw Mrs. Green yesterday. We had 
 an interesting conversation about you. In- 
 deed, my dear, last week, to me, w-as like a 
 troubled sea. This week a calm has suc- 
 ceeded. I hope that I may see my children 
 happy under the smiles of heaven. De- 
 scriptive indeed, has been the time past of 
 our journey through life. Sometimes the 
 mild radiance of sunshine nmst give way to 
 a cloud and tempest. But all meant for 
 good. And happy are we, if we can view 
 it for our advantage, and submit to a wise, 
 overruling Providence I 
 
 "Your affectionate mother." 
 
 The following letter, written without 
 date, probably in 1802 or 1803, and sent by 
 private conveyance to her daughter, Martha 
 G. Leiper, but intended for her and her sis- 
 ter Elizabeth, who had gone with their 
 father to Lancaster ; is here inserted to show 
 
CORRESPONDENCE . 
 
 the solicitude Mrs. Leiper felt for the spirit- 
 ual interest of her dear children : 
 
 "My dear Girls: Agreeably to my 
 promise, I am going to write by every op- 
 portunity. I had the pleasure of hearing of 
 your safe arrival, and the politeness of the 
 Misses Bartons in taking you home with 
 them. I am sure you will be happier there 
 than in a tavern. We are all well. I had 
 the satisfaction of attending church this 
 morning. You recollect the occasion was 
 the celebration of the dying love of our 
 blessed Saviour. How humiliating, my 
 dear children, that for the sake of poor sin- 
 ners such as we, the Lord of Griory should 
 have thus been treated! but to behold, on 
 the other hand, that glorious righteousness 
 that hides and cancels all our sins, and that, 
 through his sufferings, we shall be made 
 perfect in holiness, and dwell with him for- 
 ever ! 
 
 " With such views, how solicitous do I 
 feel for our interest in this Saviour, and. 
 
40 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 how far preferable will it be to us all than 
 the perishable things of time ! Not that we 
 are to be unthankful for the many blessings 
 we receive ; a view of the goodness of God 
 will enhance every temporal good, and lead 
 us to the fountain from which such streams 
 of comfort flow. 
 
 " I felt solicitude in my heart this day 
 for you all ; and could I influence each of 
 your hearts to seek after this heavenly 
 prize, happy should I esteem myself. And 
 oh ! may the Almighty grant the aid of his 
 blessed Spirit, that you may see the beauty 
 of holiness, and that we may all be made fit 
 for the enjoyment of heaven ! 
 
 " I. suppose your father will return soon ; 
 but I shall expect to hear from you to-mor- 
 row. Please make my best respects to the 
 family by whom you are treated with so 
 much politeness, and tell them I shall ex- 
 pect they will favor you with their com- 
 pany. 
 
 " Your very affectionate mother." 
 
FROM THE YEAR 1804 TO TBE YEAR 1810. 
 
 Return to PhJadolpbia— Tribute to the memory of her husband's mother— Appr« 
 hcneions dissipated-Natural temper-Excellent housekeeper-Treatment of do- 
 mestics—Lover of home— Style of living— Religious exercises. 
 
 We returned to Philadelphia, after an ab- 
 sence of about two and a half weeks ; and 
 found the house I had rented at the corner 
 of Arch and Sixth streets, furnished and pre- 
 pared for our reception, by the care and 
 kindness of our mother, Mrs. Leiper, and 
 vrere grateful. 
 
 A TRIBUTE TO HIS MOTHER. 
 
 The writer knows not how to speak of 
 his mother, and pay a tribute to her mem- 
 ory, better, than by transcribing a part of 
 of a record made in his journal, after his 
 return to Philadelphia. 
 
 He will previously state, that on the 10th 
 
42 MRS, JANEWAY. 
 
 of April, he had gone to New- York, in the 
 mail-stage, to see his mother, whom he ex- 
 pected to find struggling with death ; but 
 when he arrived there, she was better. She 
 requested him to return, and then after the 
 consummation of our marriage to visit her. 
 She relapsed, and no information was 
 sent to the writer, but by the letter re- 
 ferred to ; that produced a change in the 
 time of the ceremony, from the evening to 
 the morning of the day that had been se- 
 lected. 
 
 Sabbath, May 13, 1804, the record says : 
 " In this singular concurrence of circum- 
 stances, I perceive the kindness of my Hea- 
 venly Father. I have reason to be very 
 thankful to Him for giving me a wife, 
 whom the more I know the more I esteem 
 and love. 
 
 * ' The death of my mother is an event for 
 which I was long looking ; and therefore 
 not so afflicting as if it had been sudden 
 and unexpected. For several years past 
 
A TRIBUTE TO HIS MOTHKR. 43 
 
 I had resigned her unreservedly into the 
 hands of God, that lie might take her to 
 himself just when He pleased. Oh, what 
 reason for gratitude for a mother so kind, 
 indulgent, and faithful I What reason for 
 gratitude that her departure was easy, and 
 that she had a comfortable hope in her 
 death ! For this I prayed. God granted 
 it. I bless his holy name." 
 
 "Though the death of my mother may 
 very materially affect me in point of pro- 
 perty, yet I rejoice in her admission into 
 Heaven. Nature wept, but grace submit- 
 ted. May God accept my thanks for such 
 an invaluable mother. May He sanctify 
 my loss, and prepare me to follow her." 
 
 More than forty-seven years have elapsed 
 since the decease of his mother, yet the 
 author could not read and copy the above, 
 without shedding many tears of affection- 
 ate remembrance. 
 
44 MRSi. JANEWAY. 
 
 APPREHENSIONS DISSIPATED. 
 
 Apprehensions which his marriage excited 
 in the writer's mind, proved to be entirely 
 unfounded. He had apprehended that in- 
 tercourse with the fashionable circle, from 
 which his wife had received somewhat of 
 marked attention, would require much pru- 
 dence and courage, so as to escape censure, 
 and to guard against any unbecoming com- 
 pliance with fashionable demands. These 
 apprehensions were soon dissipated ; after a 
 few formal visits the intercourse ceased. 
 Being married to a minister of the gospel, 
 they considered my wife as dead and buried 
 to the gay and fashionable world, and with- 
 drew their attentions ; and she, without re- 
 gret, turned from them to a society more 
 desirable, composed of sober, rational and 
 intelligent individuals, to which her mar- 
 riage introduced her. Here she soon found 
 enjoyments never experienced by the gay 
 and fashionable, in all their thoughtless 
 merriment and folly. She accommodated 
 
APPREHENSIONS DISSIPATED. 45 
 
 herself to the circumstances of her husband, 
 and often expressed her gratitude for the 
 condition in which providence had kindly 
 placed her. For her husband she said her 
 affection was as great as her nature was 
 capable of. Her love, it will hereafter ap- 
 pear continued to the end of life. 
 
 HER NATURAL TEMPER. 
 
 The natural temper of Mrs. Janeway was 
 kind, afTectionate and amiable. So it ap- 
 peared to all classes of persons. In her 
 girlhood on a particular occasion, she hap- 
 pened by doing or speaking wrong, to offend 
 the cook, who manifested her displeasure 
 by refusing to speak to her. Soon she felt 
 she had done wrong, and tried to propitiate 
 the cook. She was unsuccessful. The cook 
 refused to notice her. Distressed by the 
 state of feeling manifested by the woman, 
 when she went to bed she cried, and found 
 but little sleep that night. In the morning 
 she concluded to buy something and present 
 3* 
 
46 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 it to the cook, to recover her friendly feelings. 
 Thus she did. and peace was restored. 
 
 She was fond of children ; and whenever 
 they came to her house she endeavored to 
 make them happy. " I loved," said a niece, 
 (now a widowed mother,) to one of her sis- 
 ters, while she was sick, "to go to aunt 
 Janeway's, because she always tried to 
 please and make us happy." 
 
 Her disposition was very grateful. She 
 could not forget favors ; and not only ac- 
 knowledge them, but endeavored to return 
 them, if able. How clearly her gratitude 
 appears in the letter written to her father in 
 reply to his, printed above. 
 
 In a letter dated Avendale, Nov. 25, 1851, 
 kSamuel Leiper Esq., her brother, convey- 
 ing that letter to the writer, says : "I en- 
 close dear sister's letter, filled as it is with 
 sentiments of love and kindness to her own 
 family and yours also. Her character was 
 the same through life ; doing acts of kind- 
 
NATURAL TEMPER. 47 
 
 ness to all, and feeling and acknowledging 
 gratefully kindness from any quarter," 
 
 She was free from selfishness ; always 
 ready to subject herself to inconvenience 
 and trouble to serve others ; but seemed 
 unwilling others should put themselves to 
 trouble for her accommodation. This has 
 been remarked bv one of her sisters, a^ain 
 and again. 
 
 Feeling a sacred regard for truths she ab- 
 horred a falsehood. Her candor was re- 
 markable. Freely and openly expressing her 
 own views and sentiments, she allowed 
 others the same liberty. Careful of the 
 reputation of others, she was unwilling to 
 credit idle reports, and abstained from giv- 
 ing them circulation. 
 
 She was naturally benevolent and disposed 
 to charity ; and this disposition, as will 
 hereafter appear, was much improved by 
 grace. 
 
 Her judgment ivas excellent; and by 
 reading, observation, and experience, it was 
 
48 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 of course much improved. In her counsel 
 her husband could safely confide. 
 
 The subject of this narrative proved to be 
 an excellent house-keeper. She systemat- 
 ically arranged the affairs of her family. 
 Dirt she could not endure. The clothing of 
 her husband and children was carefully put 
 away in summer time, so as to receive 
 no injury from moths ; and in the winter 
 brought out to take the place of the sum- 
 mer dresses, which were put in their proper 
 places. The house and table linen were so 
 disposed of that she knew how to lay her 
 hand on any article, or to direct another 
 where to find it. In a word, she acted on 
 the rule : " Everything in its place, and a 
 place for everything." 
 
 To her domestics she was condescending 
 and kind ; exacting from them no unrea- 
 sonable service. The same food of which 
 v/e partook was sent out to their table ; and 
 she felt reluctant that any of them should 
 be disturbed, while at their several meals. 
 
EXCELLENT IIOUSE-KEEPER. 49 
 
 She not only furnished them with sleep- 
 ing rooms, but carefully provided them with 
 comfortable beds and sufficient covering to 
 keep them warm in wintery nights. Hence 
 it was an easy matter to obtain domestics ; 
 some of whom, while in Philadelphia, re- 
 mained with our family for many years. 
 Hence three volunteered to go with us to 
 Pittsburg. So in New Brunswick we have 
 been well supplied, and especially with per- 
 sons to take care of our afflicted daughter. 
 
 Mrs. J. loved her home, and was seldom 
 away from it. She had no desire to spend 
 any portion of her time at watering places. 
 In some seasons she went to the seashore 
 to bathe in its waters, which she found 
 conducive to her health. To gaze at the 
 ocean, producing such sublime emotions, 
 and exhibiting so impressively the immen- 
 sity and almighty power of God, was her 
 delight. But the care of her children, and 
 and especially of the poor afflicted one, 
 would not allow her to be Ions: from our 
 
50 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 dwelling. Home was the place she loved. 
 There she found her choicest enjoyments. 
 
 In regard to style of living, her views 
 were humble and accommodating. The 
 second year of our marriage, and for three 
 years afterwards, she was content to live in 
 a house suited to our income ; for it was 
 then small and inadequate, and by no means 
 what many supposed it to be. 
 
 For anything like splendid furniture she 
 had no desire ; and in future years she 
 readily chose to live in a manner below 
 what our means would perhaps have au- 
 thorized. Here as in other things our views 
 and taste harmonized. 
 
 The large and commodious house erected 
 in Arch street, just before we, at the bid- 
 ding of the General Assembly, removed to 
 the West, was not the effect of her persua- 
 sion, but the result of her husband's own 
 reflections ; who felt that the increase of 
 their family, and the visits to which they 
 were liable, required a large anrl commo- 
 
HUMBLE VIEWS. 51 
 
 dious dwelling. When the building was 
 near completion, and she heard the silly re- 
 ports about silver knobs to the doors, &c., 
 she remarked, justly perhaps: "It would 
 have been wiser, if a convenient house al- 
 ready built, had been purchased and en- 
 larged." 
 
 RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 
 
 Religion was of course her chief excel- 
 lence. By nature she was affectionate, kind, 
 and amiable ; but the grace of God sancti- 
 fied all her natural kind feelings, and ren- 
 dered her more lovely. In November, 1810, 
 she made a profession of religion, and was 
 admitted as a member in full communion, 
 by the session of the second Presbyterian 
 Church in Philadelphia ; of which her hus- 
 band was collegiate Pastor, with Dr. Green 
 Ihe senior Pastor. 
 
 It is to be regretted nothing written by 
 herself of her exercises on the great subject 
 of religion, is to be found among her papers, 
 except what covers a page of an old half 
 
52 MRS, JANEWAY. 
 
 sheet, which will appear in ils proper place. 
 She had written in the beginning of 1811, 
 sufficient to fill two sheets or more, which 
 her husband had seen more than once. It 
 was in his hands a little while before her 
 sickness, and returned to her. What be- 
 came of it is unknown. During that pe- 
 riod of her sickness, when she could sit up 
 for a time, she spent two or three hours in 
 looking over her papers, and gave a large 
 number to a domestic, who waited on her,, 
 to be destroyed. Whether, accidentally or 
 by design, the writing referred to perished 
 among the number doomed to oblivion, is 
 uncertain. 
 
 In these circumstances, it is gratifying to 
 the writer to find he has recorded, in his 
 own journal, his beloved wife's exercises on 
 the all-important subject for several years. 
 He will now trace their rise and progress, 
 till she became a member of the church in 
 full communion. 
 
 From the journal it appears that, on Sat- 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 53 
 
 urday evening, the third evening after our 
 engagement, " she requested mc to remem- 
 ber her in my prayers ;" and that " the next 
 week I presented her with a copy of ' Dodd- 
 ridge's Rise and Progress of Religion in the 
 Soul,' which she promised to read carefully, 
 and said she hoped it would do her good." 
 
 Sabbath, August 4th, 1804, this is writ- 
 ten : "I was pleased this day with my 
 wife, for proposing to present to her father 
 * Scott's Commentary on the Bible.' I re- 
 joice in this incitement to do good — thank 
 Grod for it, and pray that she may con- 
 stantly incite me to do good." 
 
 December 30th, 1804, referring to a con- 
 versation with my wife this day on the sub- 
 ject of religion, the record says : " She 
 wishes to become truly religious, but says 
 she does not feel that solicitude which she 
 should have." 
 
 Sabbath, January 6th, 1805, it is writ- 
 ten : "I bless Grod that I have encourage- 
 ment to hoj)c concerning my wife. She 
 
54 MRS. JANE WAY. 
 
 was affected this day under her husband's 
 preaching. She told me that, for several 
 Sabbaths past, she had wished, in the 
 morning, something might be said to do her 
 good. 
 
 " These are favorable symptoms. Be- 
 sides, she is often aifected in conversation 
 with me ; and she reads the Scriptures 
 every night. 
 
 " The impression made on her mind was 
 by a sermon I delivered on James 5 : 20, 
 the design of which was to excite Chris- 
 tians to help on the work of conversion, by 
 improving favorable opportunities, and ex- 
 erting their influence." 
 
 Sabbath, January 20th, 1805, it is writ- 
 ten : "I hope the Spirit of God is at work 
 in the heart of my dear wife. Her desires 
 for religion are increasing and becoming 
 habitual. She has no distressing convictions 
 of guilt, and complains she does not feel 
 enough. She is very sensible of the imper- 
 fections of her prayers, and thinks God will 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 55 
 
 not hear such prayers. She knows not 
 whence her desires proceed ; but I trust a 
 merciful God is leading her to Himself; 
 and from what I have observed of her tem- 
 per, I think it probable G-od will conduct 
 her in the mild and gentle way. ' 
 
 " Conversation with her this evening was 
 pleasant. "We were both in tears. She pro- 
 posed prayer, in which I most cheerfully 
 engaged." 
 
 Sabbath, October 20th, 1805. During 
 the summer my colleague had been absent. 
 The fever had prevailed so that I sent my 
 wife and child out of town, but had now 
 brought them back. " This evening," it is 
 recorded, " I had a religious conversation 
 with my dear wife, which, I hope, will do 
 her good." 
 
 THE ASPECT OF HER EXERCISES ENCOURAGING. 
 
 Sabbath, December 29th, 1805. " I hope 
 the Spirit of God is operating in the heart 
 of my wife. This day under preaching she 
 
56 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 was more affected than usual ; and from 
 what she told me, I perceive that in her 
 views she has advanced one step. Before, 
 she used to say she was afraid of suffering 
 those convictions of guilt which often at- 
 tend conversion ; but to-day she said she 
 was willing to experience whatever pains 
 were necessary, provided she were brought 
 through. I endeavored to encouraged her, 
 and told her I hoped God had begun a good 
 work in her heart. 
 
 " She replied, ' I fear what I have felt 
 arose from circumstances — connection with 
 you, and going to church.' 
 
 " I observed that means were used by the 
 Spirit of Grod, and urged her to cherish her 
 impressions, and to pray earnestly for 
 grace." 
 
 Sabbath, January 5th, 1806. " My dear 
 wife, I would hope, feels the beginning of a 
 work, which T pray Grod to perfect. She is, 
 in some degree, sensible that her heart 
 is wicked, and desires to become pious. 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 57 
 
 She envies Christians their character and 
 state." 
 
 Sabbath, January 12th, 1806. "When 
 we had returned home this afternoon, and 
 were alone, my wife reminded me of an ex- 
 pression in my sermon, which was, ' Put 
 on bowels of compassion towards the uncon- 
 verted ;' and hinted that I should do so 
 towards her. I said, ' I do feel so towards 
 you,' She replied, ' I know it.' " 
 
 " This led to a religious conversation, from 
 which it appeared that her impressions are 
 not so sensible as they were. She expressed 
 a fear of losing them, and of becoming indif- 
 ferent to religion." 
 
 Sabbath, January 19th, 1806. ''My 
 wife complains of indifference ; but still 
 says she wishes to be a Christian ; and that 
 if this were set in competition with riches 
 and honors, she would not hesitate in her 
 choice. She converses with me to get deep- 
 er impressions, which she is sensible she 
 wants, and wishes to obtain." 
 
58 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Sabbath, January 26th, 1806. '' This 
 morning my wife was much affected under 
 the preaching of my colleague. ' I wish,' 
 she said, ' for convictions, to see my danger 
 as a sinner. Sometimes I think it seems as 
 if the Almighty were trying what effect a 
 change of circumstances will have upon me. 
 For I have been removed from a circle of 
 fashionable, thoughtless people, and placed 
 among persons very different in their views 
 and pursuits. If I do not make a due im- 
 provement of these advantages, my crimes, 
 I think, will be much aggravated.' " 
 
 Sabbath, February 2d, 1806. " My wife 
 still feels on the Sabbath. For several Sab- 
 baths past she has introduced religious con- 
 versation, and taken a seat by me for the 
 purpose. This she does to help on her con- 
 victions. She wishes to feel them, and 
 complains her heart is hard and insensible, 
 and her mind darkened. She says, ' I am 
 sure I don't love God.' " 
 
 During February and March the record is 
 rather discouraging. 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 59 
 
 THE ASPECT MORE ENCOURAGING. 
 
 Sabbath, March 23d, 1806. *'My dear 
 wife has had serious impressions again. I 
 had a pleasant conversation with her this 
 evening." 
 
 After a journey to New York with my 
 little family, and return home, and attend- 
 ing to the multitudinous business occasioned 
 by the meeting of the General Assembly, it 
 is recorded : 
 
 Sabbath, June 8th, 1806. " My dear 
 wife has her serious turns. Last week our 
 child was sick, and she became alarmed. 
 Feeling her heart cold, and not led to re- 
 pentance, by the goodness of God, she is 
 afraid it will require some severe trial to 
 awaken her. 
 
 " This evening I had a pleasant conversa- 
 tion with her. She thinks very correctly 
 I admire many of her thoughts and remarks 
 about religion." 
 
 Sabbath, June 29th, 1806. "My wife 
 has still some serious impressions at times." 
 
60 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Sabbath, August 10th, 1806. " Our dear 
 child has been very unwell, but is recover- 
 ing. The other day, when my wife brought 
 him into town, she would have me to pray 
 with her for him, which I did most cheer- 
 fully." 
 
 Sabbath, August 17th, 1806. " Yester- 
 day I received a letter from my wife, who 
 is in the country, with our little sick boy ; 
 in which she expresses her fears of the 
 judgments of Grod, and begs me to beseech 
 God that his goodness might lead her to re- 
 pentance. I was much pleased and moved 
 by this letter, and prayed with much ear- 
 nestness and affection, agreeably to her re- 
 quest." 
 
 Sabbath, August 31st, 1806. " Our child 
 is much recovered. I thank God for the 
 favor, and for impressions on the mind of 
 my wife." 
 
 Sabbath, September 7th, 1806, it is writ- 
 ten : "I thank God for sparing our child, 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 61 
 
 and for continuing on the mind of my wife 
 some serious impressions." 
 
 After returning from a journey to New 
 York, under date, Sabbath, October 5th, 
 1806, is found this record: " Last evening 
 I had a conversation with my dear w^ife, 
 and was gratified to find that still she is 
 not without serious impressions. Her judg- 
 ment is convinced of the necessity of be- 
 coming a real Christian, and to be made 
 one, by divine grace changing her heart. 
 But she complains of her indifference, and 
 want of feelings, and inability to take be- 
 lieving, realizing views of divine truth. She 
 requests me to pray for her ; which I have 
 been in the habit of doing three times a 
 day." 
 
 Sabbath, October 12th, 1806. " This 
 evening, in conversation with my wife, she 
 said she wished to become a Christian, but 
 from selfish motives, and not out of love to 
 God and the Saviour. I prayed with her. 
 She appeared affected, and requested mo to 
 
62 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 pray that she might not be taken out of the 
 world till she was renewed and sanctified." 
 
 Sabbath, October 19th, 1S06. "I was 
 pleased with a short conversation I had with 
 my wife. Her heart seemed softened." 
 
 Sabbath, November 2d, 1806, "Last 
 Friday evening, at the request of my wife, 
 I offered prayers for her in public, that God 
 would be pleased to make her sensible of 
 her lost and perishing condition, and dis- 
 pose her to a diligent use of the means of 
 grace, and finally lead her to Christ Jesus 
 for salvation." 
 
 Sabbath, November 16th, 1806. " This 
 evening I had a long conversation with my 
 wife. 0, that God would bless it ! Con- 
 versation with her commonly produces some 
 impressions." 
 
 Sabbath, November 23d, 1806. "My 
 wife complains of want of feeling. God, I 
 hope, is dealing with her soul. She tells 
 me her thoughts often run on the subject of 
 religion. This evening she said, 'When in 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 63 
 
 church, while hearing the word, I wished 
 very much (I dare not say I prayed) that 
 the word might touch me and Father.' " 
 
 WHAT A BEAUTIFUL EXERCISE ! 
 
 Sabbath, January 4th, 1807. " My dear 
 wife mentioned to me an exercise, whicii 
 afforded great pleasure. Looking out of the 
 window, and beholding the brightness of 
 the moon, she passionately exclaimed, ' Oh ! 
 for a heart to praise God !' " 
 
 Sabbath, January 25th, 1807. '' My 
 dear wife seems less engaged than lately. 
 I have conversed with her, and hope and 
 pray it may do her good. She seems in- 
 clined to attend more to the means. my 
 God, when shall she become a real Chris- 
 tian ! Have mercy, Lord, upon her soul ! 
 To thee, my Saviour, I give her. Oh ! 
 make her a member of thy mystical body I 
 Amen." 
 
 Wednesday, May 13th, 1807, it is re- 
 corded : " This day I spent in fasting and 
 prayer, ospecially to pray for my dear wife. 
 
64 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 We have now been married three years, and 
 she is yet destitute of vital piety. I have 
 indeed much cause for gratitude in those 
 moral qualities she possesses, in a remark- 
 able degree. I praise God for a companion 
 who suits me so well, and with whom I live 
 with so much affection, harmony, and com- 
 fort. But were it to please G-od to give her 
 grace, it would contribute to my happiness 
 and usefulness, and issue in the salvation of 
 her soul. The Lord hear my prayers this 
 day, which is the second spent in prayer 
 and fasting for her special benefit." 
 
 Between this and October there are three 
 records, that my dear wife was not so con- 
 cerned as she had been, though still desir- 
 ing the grace of God. She had been in the 
 country with our two children, who were 
 sick. 
 
 Sabbath, November 22d, 1807. " On 
 Friday evening my colleague lectured from 
 a passage in John, which led him to show 
 that the doctrine of election should have no 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 65 
 
 influence to induce the neglect of means. 
 This, I thank God, had a considerable effect 
 on my wife's mind. In conversation, after 
 our return home, she appeared to be ear- 
 nestly desirous of being convicted ot sin, so 
 as to feel her need of Jesus ; and then em- 
 bracing me, she exclaimed, ' ! to be 
 united with you in the same spirit !' " 
 
 ASPECT STILL MORE ENCOURAGING. 
 
 Sabbath, December 6th, 1807. "The 
 work of Grod's grace, I hope, is going on in 
 my wife's heart. She finds more freedom 
 in prayer. The other day she almost wres- 
 tled in prayer, and seemed as if she was 
 near giving her soul to Christ." 
 
 Sabbath, December 13th, 1807. "My 
 wife, I hope, is still seeking. Last week 
 her desires were strong, and she seemed (to 
 use her expression) to be falling in love 
 with Christ. In the latter part of the week, 
 her warm feeling much abating, she com- 
 plained of the hardness of her heart. 
 
 " This evening I conversed and prayed 
 
66 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 with her. She wishes to accept Christ, and 
 to be made willing ; but says she is not, 
 because she has not that sight of sin, which 
 she thinks necessary." 
 
 Sabbath, December 20th, 1807. "My 
 wife still has her desires for religion, and 
 continues to read the Scriptures, and to 
 pray morning and evening. But she is not 
 so solemnly engaged as she ought to be." 
 
 Sabbath, December 27th, 1807. "My 
 dear wife had, the other day, feelings which 
 she could not describe. She had neglected 
 her morning devotions till 12 o'clock ; and 
 recollecting herself, she went up to her 
 chamber, and then began to pray, when it 
 pleased God to give her some humbling 
 views, and such feeling as she never had 
 before." 
 
 Sabbath, January 17th, 1808. " My dear 
 wife was, last Friday evening, under the 
 preaching of Dr. Green, so much impressed 
 that her whole frame was convulsed. I 
 trust God has begun, by His Holy Spirit, a 
 
RELrorous exercises. 67 
 
 work, which He will perfect in her conver- 
 sion." 
 
 Sabbath, January 30th, 1808. " My dear 
 wife, I trust, is not far from the kingdom of 
 God. She felt much under Dr. G-reen's 
 lecture last Friday evening. The world, 
 she said, appeared nothing to her ; and she 
 seemed to shove it away, and say, ' Take 
 the world, and give me Christ.' " 
 
 Sabbath, February 14th, 1808. "Let 
 me record, with much gratitude and praise, 
 what God has done for my dear wife. I 
 hope she is Christ's, or is so far advanced 
 that soon she will be nnitefl to Him in faith 
 and love. 
 
 "Last Friday evening, she was, by rain, 
 prevented attend in-g lecture. On my re- 
 turn home, I offered to repeat what my col- 
 league had said ; but she seemed reluctant 
 to hear, saying the discourse was not suited 
 to her case. In the course of the conversa- 
 tion, I was led to speak of the necessity of 
 being convinced of sin by the law. She de- 
 
68 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 sired me not to speak, saying, ' It will do 
 me no good.' I saw she was quarreling 
 with the law in her heart, and was led to 
 speak of the wickedness of not pleading 
 guilty, and of the necessity of seeing how 
 inexcusable we are in being impenitent. 
 She was silent, and laid herself on the 
 sofa. 
 
 " This evening she acknowledged the 
 conversation had been beneficial ; and that, 
 while lying on the sofa, she was struggling 
 against her wicked thoughts, and praying 
 that what I said might do her good. In the 
 evening prayer she was, as she informed 
 me, attentive and solemn. 
 
 " This day my colleague preached from 
 Gal. 3 : 24, ' The law was our schoolmas- 
 ter to bring us unto Christ.' This dis- 
 course, thanks to G-od, was blest to her 
 soul. She told me Dr. Green had described 
 her feelings better than she could herself; 
 that she never felt before as she did then, 
 and had to confess it to be the finger 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 69 
 
 of God ; that she felt love to Christ, and 
 willing to take him, and felt love to her fel- 
 low creatures ; that she experienced de- 
 lightful feelings, such as she had before no 
 conception of ; that she felt humbled on ac- 
 count of her depravity ; but that a fear of 
 being noticed checked her exercises, and 
 seemed to dry up her tears. 
 
 " This evening she expressed a longing 
 desire to have the work completed, to love 
 Jesus, and Christians, and others ; bewailed 
 her selfishness ; wished to be useful, and to 
 glorify God. 
 
 "I asked her whether she had accepted 
 Christ. In reply to the question, she said, 
 ' I am afraid I have not.' 
 
 " Thus, I trust, God has begun a good 
 work of grace, which, I hope. He will carry 
 on to perfection." 
 
 Sabbath, February 28th, 1808. " My 
 dear wife still feels desires to seek ; and 
 this morning, felt my discourse on these 
 4* 
 
70 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 words : ' And ye will not come to me, that 
 ye might have life.' " 
 
 Sabbath, March 20th, 1808. " My dear 
 wife felt, to-day, solicitous for a blessing, 
 and was considerably moved during service ; 
 especially while singing the hymn : 
 
 ' No more, my God, I boast no more 
 
 Of all the duties I have done ; 
 I quit the hopes I held before, 
 To trust the merits of Thy Son.' " 
 
 On Sabbaths intervening, between the 
 preceding and one just to be noted, varia- 
 tions in the feelings of my wife are record- 
 ed, not necessary to be here transcribed. 
 
 Sabbath, May 8th, 1808. "Praise to 
 God for his goodness to my dear wife. She 
 was very much affected under a sermon de- 
 livered this afternoon, from Rev. 22 : 17, 
 'And the Spirit and the Bride say, Come,' 
 &c. Her feelings so overcame her, that, 
 while coming out of the church, she had to 
 support herself by the pews. She was 
 
RKLIGIOUS EXERCISES. 71 
 
 affected by thoughts of G-od's condescension 
 and love, and with the hardness and wick- 
 edness of her heart. Grod, I trust, has be- 
 gun in her a good work, which, I hope, He 
 will perfect. 
 
 " Perhaps here is an answer to prayer. 
 For two or three days past, I have increased 
 in earnest pleading for my wife. And has 
 God condescended to hear my unworthy 
 prayers ? Admire and extol, my soul. 
 His wonderful condescension and love to 
 sinners !" 
 
 Sabbath, May 15th, 1808. "My dear 
 wife appeared, last week, quite anxious to 
 be prepared for the communion ; but Grod 
 has been pleased to withhold his blessing." 
 
 Variations in her feelings are again no- 
 ticed in what is written on different Sab- 
 baths. 
 
 Sabbath, July 3d, 1808. " My discourse 
 this morning was considerably impressed on 
 the mind of my wife. The text was, ' Be 
 (tf good comfort !' As mv design in it was, 
 
72 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 to show the grounds of comfort under afflic- 
 tion, furnished by the Scriptures, which 
 illustrate the origin, nature, use, and de- 
 sign of affliction, I did not suppose it had 
 any particular adaptation to her case. But 
 the Lord was pleased to use it to lead her 
 to see his condescension and mercy, and her 
 own unworthiness and guilt, and to excite 
 a desire in her to partake of His grace. 
 
 " In conversation with her this evening, 
 my soul was led out in earnest breathings 
 towards G-od. After I had retired to my 
 study to write, she followed me, and re- 
 quested me to pray for her, and to pray in 
 faith, that I might be heard. I trust I was 
 enabled to pray in faith. My soul, stand 
 and see the salvation of God." 
 
 Sabbath, July 10th, 1808. " On Satur- 
 day last, my wife came to me weeping. 
 On inquiring the cause, I found it was this : 
 after some strong impressions on her mind, 
 and considerable enlargement in prayer, a 
 proud thought arose in her mind : ' Now, 1 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 73 
 
 have done something.' This occasioned ex- 
 pressions of sorrow, and a desire to be hum- 
 bled. 
 
 " She remarked, the praise was due to 
 God ; for she had gone to prayer by con- 
 straint and with little disposition for the 
 duty. She further stated, that, at this 
 time, she felt willing to give herself to 
 Christ ; felt that she needed everything, 
 and had no money, no price ; and wished to 
 receive His free salvation." 
 
 August 7th, 1808. " Last evening, in 
 returning home from her father's mills, 
 (fourteen miles below Philadelphia,) I was 
 pleased with what my dear wife said ; and 
 was led to think she had been changed by 
 the grace of God. Her language in de- 
 scribing her experience, indicated the com- 
 mencement of spiritual life in her soul." 
 
 Monday, August 22d, 1808. " I thank 
 God likewise for hearing prayer, and ren- 
 dering the ordinance impressive and affect- 
 ing to her mind." 
 
74 MRS. JANEWAY, 
 
 The subsequent exercises of my wife va- 
 ried ; sometimes less and sometimes more 
 engaged. And it appears that my own 
 were in some degree similar. 
 
 Sabbath, September 18th, 1808. It is 
 recorded that after complaining of her own 
 great coldness, she " asked me if I were as 
 concerned about her as I was ? Alas ! I 
 am not as I should be. May God quicken 
 my desires, and give fervor to my prayers 
 for her welfare." 
 
 In reviewing his journal, the writer be- 
 lieves he formed a wrong estimate of his 
 wife's exercises and state. It is his opinion 
 now, that before 1809 she had been quick- 
 ened to spiritual life, and had become sa- 
 vingly united to Christ by faith ; and that 
 he ought to have urged her to make an 
 open profession of religion by commemo- 
 rating the death of our blessed Lord, in his 
 instituted ordinance for that purpose. By 
 not performing this important duty, and not 
 pnrticipnting in t]\o feast of liis love, she 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES, 75 
 
 failed to receive the grace and strength, it 
 was designed to impart to every believing 
 guest. 
 
THE SAME PERIOD, FROM 1806 TO 1810. 
 
 Religious Exercises— Remarks on her Exercises. 
 
 Sabbath, February 4th, 1809. " My 
 dear wife complained that, in conversing 
 with her on the subject of religion, I was 
 sometimes too harsh. Sometimes I have 
 thought it necessary to use such language ; 
 but perhaps my manner has not always 
 been as affectionate as it should have 
 been." 
 
 Sabbath, February 18th, 1809. "My 
 dear wife was in much distress last Sab- 
 bath, and now sees that terror will not 
 change her heart. I hope God has begun a 
 good work in her heart, and will not leave 
 it unfinished." 
 
 Sabbath, March 19th, 1809. " My dear 
 wife informed me that she had, for a week 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 77 
 
 past, been making the education of our 
 children a subject of prayer ; and that, this 
 morning, she heard, from Dr. Green, a ser- 
 mon which quite overcame her." 
 
 " Sabbath, April 2d, 1809. " My dear 
 wife was much affected, this morning, by a 
 sermon of Dr. Green's on the education of 
 children, and felt the necessity of personal 
 religion in order to bring them up in the 
 nurture and admonition of the Lord." 
 
 Sabbath, July 30th, 1809. " This day I 
 and my wife dedicated our dear little boy 
 to God, and named him AVilliam Yates, 
 The discourse of my colleague was on trust, 
 and therefore very suitable. 
 
 "My dear wife felt, this morning, dis- 
 composed ; but she was somewhat im- 
 pressed under the sermon, and felt her own 
 weakness, while taking the engagements in 
 the holy ordinance." 
 
 Monday, January 29th, 1810. Under 
 the mistaken impression that my wife had 
 not yet experienced a change of heart, I set 
 
78 MRS. JANE"VVAY. 
 
 apart this day as a day of fasting and 
 prayer for her conversion, and for my own 
 benefit and the prosperity of our church. 
 The record says : " As I was drawing 
 towards the close of my exercises, my dear 
 wife came into my study, and told me she 
 hoped my prayers might be like those of 
 Cornelius ; and that the text concerning his 
 prayers and alms had run in her mind all 
 day. This affected me, so that I had more 
 feeling and pleasure in ray devotions, than I 
 had experienced before." 
 
 Sabbath, August 12th, 1810. " On 
 Wednesday last, at noon, I felt myself 
 drawn out with some degree of earnestness 
 in prayer for my dear wife ; and I found 
 afterwards that, about the same time, she 
 felt much impressed with respect to re- 
 ligious matters. 
 
 Sabbath, November 4th, 1810. " I give 
 thanks to God for the impression made on 
 the mind of my wife by a sermon delivered 
 by my colleague, on Luke 11:9; ' Seek, 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 79 
 
 and ye shall find, &c.' The account she 
 gave me of her views, feelings, and desires, 
 was pleasing and encouraging." 
 
 Sabbath, November 11th, 1810. '' This 
 day my dear wife was propounded as a can- 
 didate for the communion of our Lord's 
 Supper. I bless my Grod for it, and hope 
 she will be received as an acceptable guest 
 at this heavenly banquet." * 
 
 Sabbath, November 18th, 1810. " This 
 day I had the happiness to sit down at the 
 Lord's table with my dear wife. She 
 doubted whether she ought to go to the 
 table. But Providence, I believe, employed 
 the kind hand of Mr. Ralston, who affec- 
 tionately offered to conduct her to a seat. 
 This decided her mind : she viewed it as a 
 providential interposition. 
 
 " When she had the bread in her hand, 
 she was almost afraid to eat it, lest it 
 should choke her ; but she ventured, and 
 afterwards felt encouraged, and melted, and 
 humbled. She considered it as a great 
 
so MRS, JANE WAY. 
 
 privilege to drink that blood which was 
 shed for the remission of sin, and hoped it 
 was shed for her. She was enabled to fol- 
 low Dr. G-reen's directions ; only she did 
 not feel her heart pierced and bleeding on 
 account of sin, as she thought she ought. 
 
 " The action sermon was preached by her 
 husband from this text, ' Which things the 
 angels desire to look into.' 
 
 " It appeared to be a solemn time." 
 
 Sabbath, February 17th, 1811. The 
 journal, in speaking of the Holy Supper ad- 
 ministered that day, says, " From what my 
 dear wife told me of her exercises, I trust 
 she communicated in a profitable and ac- 
 ceptable manner." 
 
 Of this communion-season, on a piece of pa- 
 per found among many others, she wrote thus : 
 " February, 1811. This day was the return 
 of the communion-season, and I was again 
 honored with a seat at the Lord's table, and 
 permitted to renew the dedication of myself 
 to the Lord. My views were not as distinct 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 81 
 
 as I could have wished ; but I desire to be 
 thankful for the privilege and for any desires. 
 I felt sensible of my own vileness and ill- 
 desert, ray own inability to do anything of 
 myself ; desired to give myself away to the 
 Saviour, to renounce all dependence on my- 
 self, and to trust entirely to what Jesus has 
 done, as the only ground of my acceptance 
 with a holy God. I was much affected; 
 wept much ; besought the Lord Jesus to 
 manifest himself to me at his table, un- 
 worthy as I was ; prayed that the bread 
 might be meat indeed, and the wine drink 
 indeed, and that I might transact in faith, 
 and be strengthened for every duty and 
 every trial ; and that I might be preserved 
 from falling into sin, and bringing a reproach 
 on the cause of Jesus. I felt very weak in 
 myself, but looked to HimJ who has said, 
 ' My grace shall be sufficient for thee.' May 
 the Lord forgive my short comings in duty, 
 and pardon the sins of my holy things, and 
 accept of any sincerity, for the sake alone 
 
82 MRS. JANIiWAY. 
 
 of Jesus, our Mediator and Redeemer. 
 Amen." 
 
 REMARKS ON THE ABOVE ACCOUNT OF HER 
 EXERCICES. 
 
 1. The work of grace in the heart of Mrs. 
 J., was the result of the blessing of God on 
 a variety of means and circu7nstances. 
 
 Her domestic education early awakened 
 her conscience, and laid restraints on her 
 conduct. After marriage she told her hus- 
 band what has not been noted before, that 
 when young, if she did wrong for which her 
 conscience reproved her, she would take one 
 of her younger sisters, and teach her some 
 portion of the Catechism, or Bible, as a kind 
 of atonement. 
 
 The instructions she received in that ex- 
 cellent school of Mr. Jaudon, were highly 
 salutary and beneficial to her. 
 
 Her regular attendance on public worship 
 on the Sabbaths, and the watchful care of 
 her pious mother, preserved her from losing 
 her serious impressions, by the injurious in- 
 
KKLIGIOLS EXERCISES. 83 
 
 fluence of the gay circle of acquaintance, to 
 which she was introduced by her intimacy 
 with a neighboring family, and the unprofit- 
 able and dangerous amusements into which 
 they led her. 
 
 And her marriage, by a kind of providence, 
 resulted in an entire separation from that 
 dangerous circle, and introduced her to a 
 circle of acquaintance widely different and 
 highly beneficial. 
 
 The daily reading of the sacred scriptures, 
 frequent conversation with her husband on 
 the subject of religion, private prayer, the 
 lectures on Friday evenings, the preaching 
 of the Gospel on the Sabbath, and the pray- 
 ers of many pious friends ; were all used by 
 the Spirit of God to produce salutary im- 
 pressions on her mind and heart, and finally 
 to lead her to Christ. 
 
 2. Her conversion was a gradual work. 
 
 She was not brought into the church dur- 
 ing the prevalence of a special revival of re- 
 ligion. Religion, in 1799, and during seve- 
 
84 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 ral subsequent years, was, in Philadelphia, 
 in a very low condition. While Congress 
 remained there, infidelity and dissipation 
 greatly prevailed. But subsequently, by the 
 repeated visitations of Divine Providence, 
 exhibiting his displeasure against the in- 
 habitants of that guilty city, and the exer- 
 tions of the ministry to promote truth and 
 religion ; the influence of Christianity grad- 
 ually gained an increasing ascendancy over 
 the public mind. The pastors of the Second 
 Presbyterian Church were particularly soli- 
 citous for a revival of religion in the two 
 congregations they supplied. In 1807, fa- 
 vorable indications were seen, so that in 
 February, 1808, as many as twenty were 
 admitted to the communion, at one time — 
 nineteen on examination, and one on certifi- 
 cate. But although favorable opinions con- 
 tinued to encourage their labors, yet no spe- 
 cial revival was granted, during the progress 
 of the work of grace in the heart of Mrs. 
 Janeway. 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 85 
 
 3. By reviewing what is recorded in re- 
 gard to her exercises, it is apparent from 
 what is stated in the transcript from her 
 husband's journal, in 1808, from January 
 17th to July 10th, she ought to have been 
 urged by him to make, in that year, an 
 open profession of religion, by applying for 
 the Communion of the Lord's Supper. But 
 she was fearful of being unprepared and of 
 deceivingherself, and he wished her to enjoy 
 full freedom, when she made her application. 
 Both were in error. No doubt she suffered 
 loss from delay. He had not that experi- 
 ence which he afterwards gained in dealing 
 with persons under religious exercise. She 
 ought to have been taught that she was in- 
 competent to measure the degree of con- 
 viction of sin, that would authorize her to 
 come to Jesus for deliverance ; that He in- 
 vited sinners to come to him, and offered 
 to them a salvation perfectly gratuitous ; 
 that it was her commanded and immediate 
 duty to accept his most merciful invitation, 
 5 
 
86 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 and to apply to him, without delay, without 
 waiting for the degree of conviction she 
 might deem requisite ; and that she would 
 find, as soon as she applied to Him, her sense 
 of the evil and malignant nature of sin would 
 increase, and open in her heart the springs 
 of that " godly sorrow which worketh repent- 
 ance unto salvation not to be repented of." 
 
 Had she been thus instructed and dealt 
 with, she would, with the blessing of God, 
 have become a communicating member of 
 the church at least two years sooner than 
 she did, 
 
 4. Her husband feels it a duty to ac- 
 knowledge his error in furnishing any ground 
 of complaint ; that he was sometimes harsh 
 in conversation with her on religion. 
 
 It resulted not from want of love to her ; 
 for he was most sincerely attached to so 
 amiable a wife. It was an error in judg- 
 ment. Impenitent sinners require different 
 treatment. Some are to be treated with a 
 degree of harshness and apparent severity. 
 
RELIGIOUS EXERCISES. 87 
 
 by stern denunciations of Divine wrath and 
 judgments. — See Jude, vs. 22, 23. But 
 such was not the way to deal with one so 
 lovely in temper ; nor is it to be supposed 
 her husband thus acted toward his dear 
 wife ; and yet his anxiety for her conversion 
 and salvation, may have led him to speak to 
 her in a way that appeared harsh. 
 
 With great propriety he might have shown 
 the evil and ill-desert of sin, in the clearest 
 light, and spoken of the danger of impenitent 
 sinners in strong terms ; but all should have 
 been done in the most affectionate manner, 
 to convince her that it flowed from love and 
 a sense of duty. Such was the treatment 
 which her temper called for. If he failed in 
 his manner, it is matter of regret that his 
 judgment did not then discern what was 
 proper. 
 
FROM THE YEAR 1810 TO THE YEAR 1S29. ', 
 
 Her TriaU-Death of her third child-Affliction of her second daughter-DeMh of 
 her Father-Death of her Hu=hand'a Father-Removal to the West^Death of her 
 Mother— Religious character. 
 
 Favored as Mrs. J. had been, through the 
 whole of her life, by a kind and benignant 
 Providence, she did not escape trials. 
 
 She had her trials. Some were very se- 
 vere ; but by the grace of Grod, she was borne 
 up under them. 
 
 The first of a serious nature was the loss 
 of her third son. Part of the record in my 
 journal is as follows : " Wednesday, Decem- 
 ber 10th, 1810. On last Lord's day, it 
 pleased Almighty God to make a breach in 
 our family, by taking away our dear 
 William Yates. He was, indeed, a sweet 
 babe ; lovely in life, and lovely in death. 
 "He was attacked with the hives this 
 
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 day a week ; and, after suffering much, he 
 expired on the following Lord's day, a few 
 minutes after one o'clock, P. M. 
 
 " It pained my heart to see him suffer ; 
 but he bore it with the most exemplary 
 patience : not once uttering a cry. It was 
 a comfort to reflect, that, if he died, God 
 loved him unspeakably more than his parents, 
 and that his pains came from a merciful 
 God. 
 
 " I bless God that I was permitted to re- 
 turn from divine service in time to see his 
 expiring breath ; and that his dear mother 
 is supported under this sore bereavement. 
 
 " I esteem it an honor conferred on me 
 and my dear wife, that it pleased the great 
 Creator to use us as instruments, for bring- 
 ing into the world and taking care of so love- 
 ly an heir of immortality." 
 
 Sabbath, December 23d, 1810. " In con- 
 versation with my dear wife after com- 
 munion, she said, in reference to this be- 
 
90 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 reavement: 'I felt as if I would give up all, 
 and devote myself to God.' " 
 
 Again, Sabbath, January 20th, 1811, it 
 is recorded, " I thank God that she is so 
 supported under our sore bereavement. The 
 Lord sanctify it to us both."* 
 
 The next trial Mrs. J. was called to en- 
 dure, arose from the affliction laid on our 
 second daughter. She was born March, 
 1821, and was a beautiful child, having ap- 
 parently all her limbs and faculties. But, 
 about three months after her birth, it was 
 discovered that she was afflicted with a par- 
 alysis, affecting one half of her system, the 
 right arm and hand, and the left leg and 
 foot ; so that she was never able to stand. 
 And what was the more afflicting, her mind 
 was so effected by the paralysis, that she 
 had no capacity for instruction. This was, 
 indeed, a sore trial to Mrs. J., and sometimes 
 preyed upon her health. 
 
 * See Appendix D. A memorial of "William Tatea 
 Janeway. 
 
TRIALS. 91 
 
 This child required a nurse, whose duty it 
 was to attend upon and watch over her con- 
 stantly. The condition of this dear afllicted 
 one controlled the movements of her father, 
 who would willingly have, after his return 
 from Pittsburgh, located himself as pastor of 
 a country church, but he knew how difficult 
 it would have been to procure a nurse for 
 this child willing to live in the country ; and 
 duty seemed to forbid him to subject his 
 wife to the painful necessity of attending 
 frequently upon her afflicted one, and dis- 
 charge other duties, for which her strength 
 was inadequate. The trial was great 
 enough, even when we were supplied with 
 strong and good nurses. The prospect of 
 being compelled to change nurses was some- 
 times a source of anxiety to her mind ; 
 though we had to recognize the kindness of 
 our heavenly Father, in sending one after 
 another, as needed, to take charge of our 
 poor afflicted daughter. 
 
 For several years before the departure of 
 
92 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Mrs. J , this trial was greatly abated by the 
 change produced in the temper of our daugh- 
 ter. For many years she had been noisy, 
 so that it was unpleasant to live where 
 dwelling-houses were contiguous. Latterly 
 she has become very affectionate and quiet, 
 seeming to indicate an internal change 
 wrought by grace on her temper. For three 
 or four years she has been confined to her 
 bed, and seems quite happy. This change 
 was a great relief to the mind of the dear 
 deceased one ; and on her dying bed she left 
 her afflicted child (then more than thirty 
 years old) as a common charge to her 
 children. 
 
 In 1825, Mrs. J. lost her father, whom she 
 so much loved ; but was sustained by Divine 
 grace, as under her other trials. She submit- 
 ted to the will of her heavenly Father. Mr. 
 Lieper died in a good old age, being in his 
 eightieth year. 
 
 The next year, she participated in the 
 affliction of her husband, whose father died 
 
TRIALS. 93 
 
 September 2, 1826 ; being (lacking one month 
 and a half) eighty -four years old. 
 
 A tribute to his memory will consist of 
 extracts from letters which her husband 
 wrote to her, while with his aged parent at 
 New York. 
 
 Under date August 28th, 1826, he wrote : 
 "My dearest love, 
 
 " I saw my father at eight o'clock. ' You 
 are welcome to town,' said he ; and after- 
 wards told Mrs. J. how glad he was to see me. 
 I conversed and prayed with him. Oh I it 
 was very refreshing to me to find what was 
 the state of his mind in regard to another 
 world. Tears flow from my eyes while I 
 write, in recollecting what I saw and heard. 
 ' I know that my Redeemer Hveth.' ' God 
 is my support ; I will not fear what man can 
 do.' ' My soul thirsteth for Grod.' Again 
 at night he made similar declarations ; and 
 each time, when I had finished my prayer, 
 he said aloud, *Amen.' When I left his 
 room in the morning, I was for a moment 
 
94 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 overwhelmed with a burst of grateful feel- 
 ings for the comfortable state of his mind. 
 
 " In the course of the conversation in 
 the morning, he observed : ' You blamed me 
 for purchasing the theatre. I bought it be- 
 cause it was on my ground. But I do not 
 care a snuff for the theatre.' I replied, ' We 
 will say no more about that matter.' So it 
 was dropt. 
 
 " He feels particularly anxious for George 
 and William ; and often exclaims, ' Oh ! if 
 the Lord would put grace in their hearts ! 
 This I told George, and endeavored to im- 
 press his mind. I shall talk with William 
 too about it. 
 
 '' I am thankful that Providence opened 
 the way for my coming on. Later might 
 have deprived me of the satisfaction I have 
 received." « 
 
 The second letter, dated New York, August 
 31.st, 1826, shall be given entire, except 
 only a short postscript : 
 
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 " My dearest love,- 
 
 " I have waited till to-day, that I might be 
 able to give some definite information. My 
 return this week is out of the question. But 
 I wish my people to know that I have felt a 
 particular desire to commune with them and 
 our common Lord and Redeemer on the next 
 Sabbath ; but G-od has ordered matters so 
 that I cannot be with them. It is all right. 
 My place, I hope, will be supplied. I wish 
 it to be ascertained which evening Dr. Green 
 will attend the church to baptize Mrs. Lees, 
 and that she be informed of it. She lives in 
 Vine-street, near Fourth-street, north side-. 
 Her husband's name, Peter Lees, tailor, may 
 be seen on the house. 
 
 " My dear, I feel thankful to Divine Prov- 
 idence which so kindly provided me a sup- 
 ply, so that I could freely leave home. It 
 has been a great satisfaction to me that I 
 have had the opportunity of conversing and 
 praying frequently with my dear parent, 
 attending upon him, and trying to smooth 
 
96 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 his dying pillow. Yesterday, when he said, 
 ' I do not know what to do,' I observed, I 
 hoped God would sustain his patience and 
 afford him support; he replied, ^ Yes.' He 
 has frequently expressed his confidence in 
 Christ. Offering to pray with him in the 
 afternoon, he requested me to pray that he 
 might be taken where Christ reigns ; that 
 he might be carried safely through; and that 
 he might not deceive himself. He has his 
 hands often clasped together. He wished 
 me to pray for him every moment. This 
 morning I was early in his room and prayed 
 with him. He is still anxious about G-eorge 
 and William. He says they are his great 
 trouble. I hope it may be sanctified to 
 them. He bears his sufferings patiently. 
 Speaking of a shooting pain in his neck 
 and throat, he said, ' I don't want to com- 
 plain.' 
 
 " Tell our dear boy that the remark you 
 made to him is true ; that I have felt far 
 more gratified by the state of my father'.^ 
 
TRIALS. 97 
 
 mind, than by any prospects of a worldly 
 nature. 
 
 " Let me now tell you what I have not be- 
 fore communicated. Since the declining state 
 of my father's health, my mind has been ex- 
 ercised in regard to my expected patrimony. 
 I know how deceitful is the human heart. 
 My frequent and earnest prayer has been, 
 that I might be prepared for the Lord's will ; 
 that if it was his pleasure that I should sur- 
 vive my father, and receive my portion of 
 his estate, it may come as a covenant 
 blessing-; and that I might have grace to 
 use it to His glory : and on the other hand, 
 if it was his will, by any untoward occur- 
 rence, that I should not receive it, I have 
 said. Amen, and wished him to do his sove- 
 reign pleasure. In that case, I have reflect- 
 ed that we have already enough and to 
 spare ; and that I should be free both from 
 the trouble of managing the estate, and of 
 the responsibility of using it aright, so as 
 
98 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 to fulfill the will of God. My dear, unite 
 with me in this prayer. 
 
 "My love to all. 
 
 " Farewell. 
 
 " Yours as ever, 
 
 '' J. J. JANEWAY." 
 
 The third letter, dated New York, Sep- 
 tember 2d, 1826, we give entire : 
 " My dearest love, 
 
 " My father departed this life at a quarter 
 before nine o'clock this morning. At half- 
 past six o'clock I was awakened by one who 
 had been watching last night, to see him die. 
 As soon as I had put on part of my dress, I 
 hastened to the other room ; but finding, 
 from appearance, that he would survive 
 some hours, I returned to put on all my 
 clothes. Having re-entered his room, I went 
 to his bed-side, and said ' Father.' He im- 
 mediately turned his head and opened his 
 eyes, and looked at me. I then said, ' We 
 will pray together,' He put his hands to- 
 
TRIALS. 99 
 
 gether, and so kept them till I had done. 
 His speech was gone. He could not say what 
 he had distinctly said at the close of every 
 other prayer I had offered with him, ^Amen, 
 and Amen.^ I have no doubt he replied 
 thus in his own mind. He appeared sen- 
 sible till within an hour, or less, of his death. 
 He gently breathed out his life ; and I trust 
 his soul is with Christ, whom he so often 
 called his ' Blessed Redeemer.' The world 
 seemed, since I have been with him, to be 
 entirely out of his thoughts. He was able 
 to speak last night when I went to bed. He 
 retained his faculties surprizingly. Scarce 
 any appearance of wandering in the slight- 
 est degree. God has most mercifully or- 
 dered all the circumstances of his departure. 
 My soul feels very grateful. I bless his 
 name, that my father suffered so little in 
 dying. It was mere decay of nature. I do 
 not mean that he did not suffer ; I speak 
 comparatively . He was very patient. He 
 moaned ; but he did not complain. 
 
100 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 " Your letter came just after I had begun 
 to write. I thank you, my dear, for it. T 
 felt satisfied before it came, because I had a 
 full conviction of being in the path of duty. 
 That is the great point. When I feel that, 
 my soul is at rest. I feel persuaded, too, 
 that G-od, whose hand I had seen so plainly 
 in ordering previous circumstances, would 
 provide for my people in my absence. 
 
 " My father will be interred to-morrow af- 
 ternoon. We propose putting his body in a 
 vault, and paying the fine of $250 to the 
 Corporation. 
 
 " My love to all. Farewell, my dear. 
 Should you get this to-morrow, I hope you 
 will still attend to the communion of our 
 dear Redeemer. MayGrod be with you and 
 our dear people. 
 
 " As ever, 
 
 "J. J. JANEWAY. 
 
 " P. S. — Remember me to all inquiring 
 friends." 
 
 One of the severest trials to which it pleas- 
 
TRIALS. 101 
 
 ed God to subject my dear wife, was our re- 
 moval, at the bidding of the General Assem- 
 bly, to Pittsburgh. 
 
 To say it was no trial to her husband 
 would not be true. How could he leave 
 the city of Philadelphia for Pittsburgh or 
 Alleghany town, and separate himself from 
 a church strongly attached to him, and in 
 connexion with whom he had spent the 
 whole of his then ministerial life ; and resist 
 the opposition of affectionate friends, and dear 
 relations, and make so great a change in 
 the circumstances of his children, apparently 
 for the worse, and take his wife from the 
 city of her birth, and from her beloved re- 
 lations ; without much feeling! 
 
 From his journal it appears, that when 
 the proposition was first made to him, it 
 seemed impossible to go ; and accordingly he 
 told a brother, who had consulted him, 
 positively, that he could not go ; and advis- 
 ed him to turn his attention to another. 
 
 But when the General Assembly were 
 
102 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 pleased to make the appointment (wholly 
 unsought and in opposition to his wishes), 
 with great unanimity, and he had time to 
 reflect, he began to think it might be his 
 duty to submit to the sacrifice. 
 
 His trial was not to be compared with 
 that of his dear wife. In Philadelphia she 
 had, from her birth, always lived, and well 
 knew its comforts and advantages ; she had 
 lived, after her marriage, in the same de- 
 lightful city, and seen the various trials 
 through which her husband had successful- 
 ly passed, in serving his people ; and knew 
 that he had served them, as sole pastor, for 
 twelve years ; that the congregation was at- 
 tached to him — the pews all occupied — and 
 applications made for pews that could not 
 be met ; that five of her children, including 
 the afflicted one, would have to be taken 
 with her to a new abode, while two would 
 be left behind, at a great distance from her ; 
 that she would have to tear herself away 
 from her beloved mother, far advanced in 
 
TRIALS. 103 
 
 life, and from her sisters and brothers, who 
 were all so affectionately attached to her ; 
 besides, numerous other friends ! She knew, 
 too, that she would have to form new ac- 
 quaintances and new friends, enter on new 
 duties, and change the whole of her domes- 
 tic life ! Such were the elements of her 
 trial ! 
 
 Let us now see how she acted in view of 
 these formidable difficulties, and how she 
 finally submitted to the trial, and by the 
 grace of God was enabled to bear it. 
 
 Her husband, after due consideration, 
 visited Pittsburgh and Alleghany town, the 
 site of the seminary, to collect all necessary 
 information that might enable him to ascer- 
 tain the Divine will. 
 
 Here an extract from the journal may be 
 properly introduced. " September 10th, I 
 set out on my journey. On the last day of 
 it I got a new view of the subject, and a 
 new train of ideas. It seemed as if the 
 Providence were designed to be a trial, as in 
 
104 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 the case of Abraham, to see whether I were 
 willing to make the necessary sacrifices. I 
 felt willing ; and I had a pleasant season of 
 exercise of mind on the subject, when I was 
 at Pittsburgh. Still, I collected all necessary- 
 information ; and returned under the im- 
 pression it might be my duty to accept the 
 appointment. 
 
 " While there, I received two very affec- 
 tionate letters ; one from the Trustees, and 
 the other from the Session of my church ,* 
 requesting me to deliberate carefully, and 
 expressing a hope I might see it consistent 
 with duty to remain their pastor." 
 
 At the same time, I received a letter from 
 my dear wife, dated September 13th, from 
 which it appears how plainly she saw the 
 magnitude and severity of the trial to which 
 she might be called ; and yet how sincerely 
 she desired to honor and submit to the divine 
 will : 
 *' My dearest love, 
 
 " Agreeably to promise I take up my pen 
 
TRIALS. 105 
 
 to inform you of the welfare of your family. 
 I am thankful to say, that, through the 
 mercy and blessing of God, my health is 
 improving. I have rode out daily since you 
 left us, and begin to feel stronger. My 
 nerves were terribly shattered with the tooth- 
 ache and you leaving me ; and, until to-day, 
 I have had a good deal of palpitation of the 
 heart, or a fluttering sensation in my chest. 
 But I have had less of it to-day ; so that, if I 
 should not have a fresh attack, I trust I 
 shall soon be well. 
 
 " I miss you much, and cannot help feel- 
 ing a little anxious as to the result of your 
 journey. I hope all will be right; and 
 whatever is the will of God concerning us, 
 I trust we shall be willing to perform that 
 will. It does seem so mysterious and 
 strange to me at times, that I can hardly 
 reconcile my mind to it — and, at other times, 
 I feel quite willing to go or stay, whichever 
 should appear to be duty. But the question 
 is so difficult, that I fear we may err. May 
 
106 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 the Lord make it plain^ so plain that you 
 will not mistake. 
 
 " Your children are well, excepting poor 
 Martha. She has a cold, and is a little fe- 
 verish, but is not much amiss, 
 
 " Mr. Imlay died on Tuesday evening, and 
 is to be buried this afternoon. May the 
 Father of the fatherless provide for his 
 children ! I feel much interested for them. 
 No letters have been received from N. Y. 
 Mother and family are well. I am thankful 
 that the weather has been so favorable for 
 your journey. I hope to hear from you soon ; 
 but if you should have been prevented 
 writing on the road, I shall expect a letter 
 as soon as you arrive at P. I trust your leg 
 will not be the worse for your journey.* 
 My eyes are still weak ; so I must conclude 
 this imperfect letter. Your dear children 
 unite in love to you with me. 
 
 * Referriug to nn injury that had nearly broken my 
 leg, and was exceedingly painful. It had delayed my 
 journey for some time. 
 
TRIALS. 107 
 
 " May the Lord have my beloved husband 
 in his holy keeping, and preserve him from 
 every evil, and restore him to his family, is 
 the prayer, my dear love, of your affectionate 
 wife. " M. a. J. 
 
 *' P. S. — Remember me to Mrs. Patterson 
 and Mr. Joyce." 
 
 The journal, written October 9th, 1827, 
 records the following : " After my return 
 home, my mind was verging to a conclusion 
 to go ; and all along the tone of my conver- 
 sation in the family, was calculated to pre- 
 pare them for an exchange of residence. 
 
 "On Thursday, September 27th, it again 
 occurred, that, when a day of fasting and 
 prayer was set apart to seek divine direction, 
 it might result in a conclusion to remain in 
 my present station ; and that evening my 
 wife, who was willing to go, if duty required, 
 stated some difficulties, with calmness, that 
 had weight. This led me to consider 
 whether I ought to subject her to the trials 
 I saw she would have to meet, if I accepted 
 
108 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 the appointment ; and gradually, by review- 
 ing consequences, and reflecting on my pre- 
 sent sphere of usefulness, — the uncertainty 
 connected with every new institution, — my 
 duties at New York, — my mind came 
 round ; — so that, on Wednesday last, October 
 3d, the day set apart to seek Divine direc- 
 tion, I concluded it was my duty to decline 
 the honorable appointment. 
 
 '' I am inclined to believe this providence 
 was designed to try me, and to produce a 
 favorable influence on my people. It has 
 done me good, and given me sweet exercises ; 
 and it has drawn out the affections of the 
 people towards me. I think I have done 
 right. I was inclined to go ; and am still 
 willing, if it be the will of Grod. Blessed be 
 Grod ! I commit myself to his disposal." 
 
 Not long after announcing my conclusion to 
 my people, that I did not feel it to be my 
 duty to leave them, my mind recurred again 
 to the subject. No one knew my thoughts 
 but my dear wife ; and I concluded t» keep 
 
TRIALS. 109 
 
 them to myself, till I made a final decision, 
 lest some improper influence should be 
 brought to bear on my mind. 
 
 In April, 1828, while attending a meeting 
 of the Trustees of the College of New Jer- 
 sey, I was suddenly taken sick at night. 
 Wishing to get home, contrary to the advice 
 of my friends, I succeeded by the aid of my 
 physician, Dr. Howell, and of Dr. Murray, 
 who kindly traveled with me. My illness 
 was dangerous ; but it pleased Clod to 
 restore my health. Of this sickness a full 
 account is written in my journal. 
 
 Propriety will not allow a transcript of 
 more of it, than will serve to show the state 
 of my dear wife's mind, in regard to this her 
 great trial. 
 
 April 19th, 1828. " Three days since my 
 recovery, I have spent in deep thinking about 
 my appointment of Professor of the Western 
 Theological Seminary. I have looked at 
 the difficulties and sacrifices ; and have felt 
 willing to meet them. [Here some are spe- 
 6 
 
110 MRS. JANE WAY. 
 
 cified.] My mind was drawing to a con- 
 clusion ; my dear wife was willing to abide 
 my decision. And when thus advanced and 
 ready to conclude, my mind was suddenly 
 brought back to consider again the condition 
 of our afflicted child, and the improbability 
 of procuring a nurse for her ; so that it seem- 
 ed as if the hand of G-od was shutting the 
 door, and prohibiting my going. And here 
 I rest. Were it not for this difficulty, I 
 should feel it my duty to accept the appoint- 
 ment. Were this removed, the finger of 
 Providence would appear to point to Al- 
 leghany town. " Blessed be God who doeth 
 wonders and all things well." 
 
 Wednesday, May 7th, 1828. " This day 
 I have been agitating again the great ques- 
 tion." (Various difficulties had been re- 
 moved, by domestics volunteering to go with 
 us to the West.) " God, I trust, has been 
 with me. I have sought His direction, and 
 pleaded his promises. I have considered it to 
 be my duty to accept the appointment. My 
 
TRIALS. IJl 
 
 reasons are written on a separate paper. 
 My wife was comfortably exercised, and 
 seems willing to go, and regards it as a duty. 
 May God go with us." 
 
 In conformity with this determination, (all 
 intervening duties having been performed 
 and ties dissevered,) we left Philadelphia, 
 July 28th, 1828 ; and instead of traveling 
 three hundred miles by the way of the moun- 
 tains, we traveled through the State of New 
 York, over Lake Erie, and the road from 
 Erie to Pittsburg, nine hundred miles ; on 
 account of our poor afllicted child, who, we 
 apprehended, could not be taken over the 
 mountains. 
 
 Wlien we arrived at Pittsburg, no house 
 could be obtained as a residence, either in 
 that city or in Alleghany town. We were 
 compelled to take up our abode in a board- 
 ing-house for several months, and then ob- 
 tained a large old mansion, at an exorbitant 
 rent, where we continued to reside till we 
 set off' on our return to Philadelphia. 
 
112 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 We had not occupied this dwelling long, 
 before it was seen that the domestics who 
 had volunteered to come and live with us, 
 and thus removed one great difficulty in the 
 way of my acceptance of the appointment, 
 could not submit to the inconveniences of 
 the place, and would leave our family. 
 
 The condition to which the family, and 
 especially my wife, would, by their de- 
 parture, have been reduced, would have fur- 
 nished sufficient cause for resigning my 
 office. But, after full and prayerful con- 
 sideration, having abundant means of 
 another kind to justify me before the Gen- 
 eral Assembly, it was finally determined to 
 say nothing about it, except what appears near 
 the close of the paper I read before the 
 General Assembly, in the following para- 
 graphs : 
 
 " A frank and full exhibition has been 
 given of the reasons that brought me to a 
 determination to resign my office, and have 
 kept my mind in that determination. I have 
 
*PfP" TRIALS. 113 
 
 often reviewed them, and frequently prayed 
 I might not mistake the path of duty. I have 
 seen no reason to change my intention. I 
 still think, that, in these circumstances. 
 Providence does not require me to persevere 
 in sacrifices voluntarily made, and to make 
 others that I contemplated ; to deprive my 
 family of comforts and conveniences to 
 which they have been accustomed ; and to 
 subject my children to disadvantages and 
 temptations that may be avoided. 
 
 " Respectfully, therefore, I tender to this 
 General Assembly my resignation of the 
 office of Professor of Theology in the Western 
 Seminary. 
 
 " For this long communication I must beg 
 pardon ; and yet solicit indulgence, while, in 
 the close, I remark, that being conscious of 
 having endeavored to ascertain and do the 
 Divine will, I feel no regret at having ac- 
 cepted my appointment. It is not for us to 
 determine duty with o. prophetic eye. Ours 
 is a humbler task; to learn present duty 
 
114 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 from present circumstances. Israel, by fol- 
 lowing the guidance of the heavenly cloud, 
 made their journeys, and not unfrequently 
 retrograde ones. They returned and pitched 
 their tents in places they had formerly left. 
 We need not complain ; for He who knows 
 the future as perfectly as the jjast, has said: 
 ' In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He 
 shall direct thy paths.' 
 
 " For all the facts stated, I hold myself 
 responsible, and stand ready to produce fur- 
 ther evidence, if needed. The opinions ex- 
 pressed will go for what the Assembly may 
 think them worth. I will, however, observe 
 that they have been carefully and prayer- 
 fully formed ; and add, that I could not 
 withhold what is contained in this com- 
 munication consistently with what I deem 
 duty. 
 
 " Very respectfully, 
 
 " J. J. J. 
 "Philadelphia, May 26, 1829." 
 The following letter, written to her mother 
 
TRIALS. 115 
 
 from Pittsburg, after I had made np my 
 mind that duty required me to resign my 
 Professorship, but before the fact was made 
 known except to one Director, will show the 
 views and feelings of the dear deceased, 
 at that time. It is dated January 13th, 
 1829 : 
 " My beloved Mother, 
 
 ' ' We received your kind letter last eve- 
 ning, and are grateful for all your affection- 
 ate feelings towards your absent children. 
 I am grieved to hear of your indisposition ; 
 but trust that your health may soon be re- 
 established, and that it may long be preserv- 
 ed, and that your life may be precious in 
 the sight of our Heavenly Benefactor, and 
 that He will be with us all, to guide and 
 bless us, and grant us a happy meeting once 
 more in our beloved home. 
 
 " How mysterious the ways of Providence ! 
 how unexpected to me and to all of us it is, 
 that our stay li^re is to be so short. There 
 is not one of the family but is anxious to re- 
 
116 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 turn. As the time seems to me still distant, 
 I feel anxious and impatient to see you all ; 
 but I endeavor to stay myself on G-od, and 
 trust that nothing may occur to prevent the 
 accomplishment of our wishes. It is not yet 
 known here that Mr. J. intends resigning, 
 except to Mr. Swift, who appeared much 
 shocked when Mr. J. told him. He begged 
 that it might be kept secret, until they could 
 make some arrangement with Town, the 
 person who has threatened to prosecute. 
 We have not mentioned it. He endeavored 
 to persuade him to reconsider the matter, 
 and used all the arguments in his power to 
 that effect. It is in vain for them to expect 
 it ; yet he is willing to give them every 
 chance in their power to make the title 
 good. 
 
 " We are all well at present. Our poor 
 dear Martha had a very severe turn last 
 Wednesday night, which lasted more than 
 an hour and a half. The n.ext day she was 
 very weak and languid ; and then I felt 
 
TRIALS. 117 
 
 what my situation would be, without a con- 
 fidential person to assist me in taking care 
 of her. It \vas our ironing day ; Jane was 
 obliged to be down stairs, and I staid up 
 with her. She felt badly from the effects of 
 the spasm, which she had the night before, 
 and which made her very restless. She 
 wanted to be sometimes on the bed, and then 
 on the floor, and then on the chair. It was, 
 with the greatest difficulty, that Jcoukl lift her. 
 I then was convinced how necessary it was 
 for us (if we had no other reason) to be in a 
 settled place, where we could have conve- 
 niences which we cannot have here, and a 
 faithful person to attend her, and be devoted 
 to her entirely. 
 
 " I do often wonder how we could under- 
 take what we did, with such a helpless 
 heavy child as she is, and such a journey as 
 it is to this place ! However, we were mer- 
 cifully preserved in dangerous circum- 
 stances ; and I trust the same kind hand 
 will be extended over us on our n^turn. 
 6* 
 
118 
 
 MRS, JANEWAY. 
 
 " My dear husband is quite satisfied, and 
 believes it was his duty to come, and seems 
 to be persuaded that the design of Providence 
 will be seen sooner or later. He has sought 
 direction ; and, in seasons of fasting and 
 prayer, he has had the most peaceful and 
 comforting exercises. Certainly, if his com- 
 ing was to prevent the Church from loss and 
 reproach, it will not be in vain. 
 
 "We all unite in love and good wishes to 
 you, my dear mother, and all my dear sis- 
 ters, brothers, and cousin Mary. I thank 
 my dear Ann for her kind letter, which was 
 so expressive of her warm heart ; her brother 
 said it was just what he expected from Ann. 
 I hope she will write again soon, and tell me 
 particularly how you are. Do take good 
 care of yourself at this trying season. 
 
 "And now, my dear mother, I must finish 
 this imperfect letter. Remember, me to all 
 our friends who may enquire for mo. I hope 
 the labors of your now pastor may be bless- 
 ed. Wc were glad to hear that the people are 
 
TRIALS, 119 
 
 SO much united in him, and that he is to be 
 with you soon. God bless and reward you 
 for all the kindness and afFection you have 
 shown to your children, and grant you the 
 consolations of his Holy Spirit. May He be 
 ever with you, is the prayer of 
 
 " Your affectionate daughter, 
 
 "M. a. J." 
 
 By the good providence of God we reach- 
 ed Philadelphia in safety, during the sitting 
 of the General Assembly ; to whom I read 
 my paper, containing the reasons for justi- 
 fying my conduct in resigning my Professor- 
 ship, so soon after the commencement of my 
 labors in the Western Theological School. 
 They accepted my resignation ; and required 
 the Directors not to proceed in the erection 
 of the necessary buildings, until they "have 
 satisfactory evidence that all objections to 
 the title of the land, on which the said build- 
 ings are to be erected, shall have been re- 
 moved." 
 
 On this subject the writer lias said nothing 
 
120 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 more than was necessary to show the state 
 of his wife's mind. 
 
 Shortly after our return to Philadelphia, 
 my wife was called to another trial. In 
 August following, her excellent and much- 
 loved mother departed this life, in her sixty- 
 eighth year. But she had the consolation of 
 being with her on her dying bed, and know- 
 ing that she departed in peace, and in the 
 hope of the gospel. 
 
FROM 1820 TO HER DECEASE IN 1851. 
 
 Several Reniovnls— State of Hialth— Religious Character. 
 
 Having remained several months in Phil- 
 adelphia, after our return from the AVest, 
 the unhappy state of the Second Presbyte- 
 rian church became apparent. Seeing that 
 two parties would be formed, her husband 
 was convinced, that, if he remained in Phila- 
 delphia, he would hardly be able to resist 
 the attempts that would be made to drag 
 him into one or the other. To escape this 
 evil, he resolved to remove his family to 
 New York, the next May ; and when he 
 formed the resolution, he had not the most 
 distant intention of leaving the Presbyterian 
 Church. But Providence so ordered it, that 
 he received a call from the Reformed Datch 
 church in New Brunswick, to become their 
 
122 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 pastor. The call was unsought ; and un- 
 der the circumstances of the case, he felt it, 
 after due consideration, his duty to accejit 
 it. To the acceptance he had made up his 
 mind, before he was informed by Dr. Green 
 of his intention to make the motion in Pres- 
 bytery at its next meeting, that brought on 
 that state of things which resulted in a 
 division of the Presbyterian Church. 
 
 In consequence of accepting this call, we 
 removed to New Brunswick ; and the next 
 year to New York : and thence, after living 
 there about two years and three months, 
 we returned to New Brunswick. The rea- 
 sons of these removals cannot, with propri- 
 ety, be here stated. Suffice it to say, they 
 were perfectly satisfactory to the writer, 
 and acquiesced in by his dear wife. 
 
 While living in New Brunswick the first 
 time, in 1830, the effects of her residence 
 in Pittsburgh became apparent. Her health 
 Avas much impaired. But the short stay at 
 New York was beneficinl. The sea breezes 
 
REMOVALS. 123 
 
 had a reviving influence on her debilitated 
 system ; and after our return to New 
 Brunswick, she recovered a comfortable de- 
 gree of health, which, with the exception of 
 an attack of disease some years ago, she 
 continued to enjoy till her last fatal illness. 
 
 Here we continued to reside from July, 
 1833, till September, 1851, when she de- 
 parted this life — more than nineteen years. 
 It was a pleasant sojourn to her ; for while 
 here our family was, excepting the death of 
 a grandchild fourteen years ago, preserved 
 from any diminution by the great enemy, 
 and was constantly increasing by marriage 
 and births, till all our children (the afTlicted 
 one, of course, not included) were happily 
 married, and the number of grandchildren 
 amounted to twenty -eight. 
 
 Thus favored by a kind Providence, sur- 
 rounded by her children and grandchildren ; 
 some living near to her, and none beyond 
 a convenient distance ; she saw how great 
 were her obligations to her heaven Iv Father. 
 
124 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 from whose hand all these blessings and 
 such uncommon prosperity had come. 
 
 But, as will be seen, more than a year 
 before her decease, while reviewing her 
 many blessings, and trying to awaken her 
 gratitude for such signal favors, her heart 
 became very sad at the reflection it could 
 not last, and that death would certainly 
 come to break some links in the chain of 
 that circle, which had for so many years 
 been spared, while yearly expanding. 
 
 RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 
 
 Mrs. Janeway was a devout and exem- 
 plary Christian. 
 
 She was regular in her private devotions 
 three times a day, and in reading the holy 
 ►Scriptures. From family worship she was, 
 except when sick, never absent. She loved 
 the house of God, and was an attentive 
 hearer of the word. She failed not to oc- 
 cupy her seat at the table of her Lord, 
 whenever the communion was administered 
 
RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 125 
 
 in the church to which she belonged. She 
 took pleasure in meeting with a circle of 
 females, who regularly met once in the 
 week while she lived in Philadelphia, and 
 lamented the want and profit of such a 
 female society, during her residence in 
 Pittsburgh and in New Brunswick. 
 
 Mrs. J. was an intelligent Christian. 
 
 Besides her husband's library, to which of 
 course she had free access, she had a library 
 of her own, consisting of select religious 
 works of different kinds ; collected not for 
 mere adornment of her chamber, but for use. 
 A copy of Doddridge was presented to her 
 before her marriage, which she read care- 
 fully ; and in subsequent life frequently 
 used. " Boston's Fourfold State of Human 
 Nature" she commenced reading in 1806. 
 This excellent work she highly prized ; and 
 in recommending it to our eldest son, before 
 he became a member of the Church in full 
 communion, she told him how much benefit 
 she had derived from it. 
 
126 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 We are unable to enumerate the various 
 writers with whom she became acquainted 
 during her long life, and forbear the at- 
 tempt lest we should fall into mistakes. 
 Let it suffice to say she had read doctrinal, 
 practical, and experimental works on the 
 subject of religion, to a considerable extent, 
 and by the best writers. 
 
 For more than twenty years she pos- 
 sessed a copy of the "Holy Bible, with 
 Notes Explanatory, Critical, and Practical, 
 selected from the works of several eminent 
 divines." It was published in London in 
 1784, in four volumes royal octavo, in a 
 large type. This she received from her 
 mother, and had it rebound. She prized 
 this copy of the Bible, with its short notes, 
 very highly ; and diligently and daily used 
 it with much satisfaction. 
 
 Mrs. J. was fond of reading memoirs of 
 distinguished Christians of both sexes, and 
 tracts exhibiting eminent piety in hamble 
 
RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 127 
 
 life, and displaying the riches of Divine 
 grace. 
 
 The result of her study and reading was 
 an accurate acquaintance with the doc- 
 trines of the Gospel, and the promotion of 
 piety in her own heart. Thus she was 
 taught duly to appreciate the value of the 
 public discourses she heard ; and to distin- 
 guish between those that were calculated to 
 gratify the taste and please the ear with 
 well -chosen words, and those that were 
 truly evangelical, adapted to instruct the 
 mind and improve the heart. The latter 
 class of sermons she highly prized, as befit- 
 ting the ministers of divine truth ; but the 
 former she regarded as unbecoming an am- 
 bassador of Christ, and ruinous to the souls 
 of men. 
 
 She loved to hear something said of her 
 Saviour, His offices, His work, and His 
 cross, and of the necessity of the gracious 
 influence and operations of the Holy Spirit ; 
 and when the text called for the introduc- 
 
128 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 tion of some one of these great truths, she 
 was disappointed and grieved, if they v/ere 
 not presented. 
 
 With the memoirs of McCheyne she was 
 delighted, and purchased several copies to 
 give away. " The Attractions of the 
 Cross," by Dr. Spring, was often in her 
 hands ; for she loved to be at the foot of her 
 Redeemer's cross, and to behold the love 
 displayed in His suffering and death — to 
 admire the glory of her risen, ascended, and 
 reigning Lord — to contemplate His inter- 
 cession with the Father in behalf of His 
 people, and His bestowment of the gifts of 
 the Holy Spirit on His Church, for the 
 establishment of His Kingdom of grace in 
 our fallen world. Winslow on "Personal 
 Declension and Revival of Religion in the 
 Soul," published in 1847, she much es- 
 teemed, and frequently used in the latter 
 part of her life. With Dr. Alexander's 
 "Christian Experience" she was much 
 pleased. She possessed a copy of his 
 
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RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 129 
 
 " Practical Discourses," and had read them 
 with satisfaction before her ilhiess. 
 
 Mrs. J. was a liberal Christian. 
 
 She pitied the poor, and always felt dis- 
 posed to relieve their wants. By pecuniary 
 donations and other gifts, she endeavored to 
 alleviate the sorrows of the widow and the 
 fatherless. There were some in New 
 Brunswick to whose wants she paid partic- 
 ular attention, and m.et them by giving 
 food, or clothing, or money. She kept con- 
 stantly, in her closet, tea, and sugar, and 
 coffee, put up in separate papers, to give, 
 when proper objects were presented, or to 
 send to those who needed. Although ad- 
 vanced in years, and not enjoying much 
 health, she would, in snowy weather, visit 
 the poor. At our residence, situated be- 
 tween two great cities and States, poor 
 travelers from one city and State to the 
 other, make applications for assistance in 
 food or money very frequently. Often we 
 have to give aid in money at a venture ^ 
 
130 MRS. JANEVVAY. 
 
 when we have not the means of ascertain- 
 ing whether the persons ought to be thus 
 assisted. Food, when we have it, is never 
 refused. 
 
 Since the decease of his wife, the writer 
 has been informed, by a domestic, that 
 often, when poor persons of either sex were 
 eating in the kitchen, Mrs. J. has talked 
 with them on the subject of religion, giving 
 them good advice, showing the importance 
 and necessity of religion — urging them to 
 fear, and serve, and trust God, and to think 
 on this great subject, and to pray to the 
 Lord while traveling on the road. 
 
 Her heart was with the Boards of our 
 Church. She wished and prayed for their 
 success, and felt disposed to aid them. She 
 loved the Bible Society, the Tract Society, 
 and the Sunday School Society. She kept 
 on hand a constant supply of tracts and lit- 
 tle books for children, to give away as op- 
 portunities offered. Charity abode in her 
 
RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 131 
 
 heart. Gone to her rest, her works follow 
 her. 
 
 Mrs. J. was a humble Christian. 
 
 She never thought much of her attain- 
 ments in religion. Deeply sensible of the 
 infinite holiness of God and of her own sin- 
 fulness by nature, and of her manifold im- 
 perfections, she was afraid of entertaining 
 that confidence in regard to her condition 
 as a believer in Christ, that she was au- 
 thorized to cherish. She was afraid of 
 self-deception in a matter of so high im- 
 portance. 
 
 We have seen in the narrative of her ex- 
 ercises, how she was kept back from mak- 
 ing an open profession of religion, and 
 participating in the communion of the 
 Lord's Supper, as early as she ought, by 
 suspicion of herself. This jealousy in re- 
 gard to herself followed her more or less 
 through life. The account of her expe- 
 rience, written by her own hand, (now not 
 to be found,) contained evident marks of her 
 
132 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 renewed state by grace. So it appeared to 
 her husband when he first read it ; and so, 
 when he afterwards read and returned it, 
 about two years before her decease, he told 
 her. At seasons when she enjoyed free- 
 dom, enlargement, and confidence in prayer, 
 and made it known to him, he has en- 
 deavored to impress it on her mind, that it 
 is our duty to believe the testimony of the 
 Spirit in our hearts, as well as His testi- 
 mony in His word. 
 
 One day during her illness, being to- 
 gether alone, he thus addressed her : " My 
 dear, you believe that Jesus Christ is able 
 and willing to save all who come to Him ?" 
 "Yes, all who come aright." "Do you 
 not believe He is able and willing to save 
 you ?" " Yes, if I come to Him in a right 
 manner." "Are you not willing to receive 
 pardon and deliverance from condemnation 
 as a free gift at His hands?" "Yes." 
 "And are you not willing to accept His 
 salvation, such as it is, a holy salvation, 
 
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RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 133 
 
 and to be made holy by His Spirit?" 
 ''Yes; but may not this be from selfish- 
 ness /"' 
 
 Here it is manifest that she did not prop- 
 erly distinguish between selfishness, which 
 is unlawful, and self-love, which is both 
 natural and lawful. Self-love belongs es- 
 sentially to our constitution, and is the 
 standard of love to our neighbor ; and all 
 the invitations and promises of God's word 
 have respect and appeal to this principle of 
 our nature. It will forever be our duty to 
 love ourselves, though God must be loved 
 supremely. He is all in all : we are no- 
 thing in comparison with the infinite Jeho- 
 vah. 
 
 Mrs. J. was humble, not only in reference 
 to her Maker, by contrasting her sinfulness 
 with His immaculate purity, but manifested 
 true humility in her intercourse with her 
 fellow-creatures. Her temper, though na- 
 turally so amiable, yet was somewhat quick ; 
 which occasionally betrayed her into hasty 
 
134 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 speeches, that wounded the feelings of those 
 whom she addressed. When this happened, 
 it brought out that beautiful trait in her 
 character, humility; which was at once 
 natural to her, and much improved by grace. 
 It prompted her to make suitable acknow- 
 ledgments to any one whose feelings she 
 supposed she had hurt. 
 
 It is the testimony of Catharine Morrison, 
 an intelligent young woman from Ireland, a 
 member of the Episcopal church, who has 
 been in our family, as chambermaid, several 
 years, and saw much of Mrs. J., and con- 
 versed much with her ; that she never saw 
 a lady so willing to humble herself, by ac- 
 knowledging her faults to her domestics, as 
 Mrs. J. She sometimes complained of her 
 work, in hasty language, so as to wound her 
 feelings ; but, soon after, recollecting herself, 
 she has apologized, by saying her temper 
 happened to be disturbed by an occurrence, 
 that betrayed her into improper fault-find- 
 ing ; that she was sorry for it, hoped her 
 
RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 135 
 
 feelings were not hurt, and that, as we all 
 have our failings, we must bear with one 
 another. She replied, '' My feelings were 
 hurt at the time ; but it is all over now." 
 
 Nor did Mrs. J. thus act with this domestic 
 alone, but with all in the house, when she 
 felt an apology to be required for any angry 
 speech. So C. M. testifies ; and could not 
 but admire and praise her condescending 
 behavior towards her domestics. 
 
 Another evidence of her humility appear- 
 ed on her dying bed. She requested that 
 no parade should be made at her funeral, 
 and that little should be said of her. With 
 this request we felt bound to comply. No- 
 thing was done except to announce her 
 death in one or two papers, and to invite 
 from the pulpits, on the Sabbath, an attend- 
 ance at her funeral, on Monday following. 
 And Dr. How, who had, for forty years, been 
 acquainted with the family, rtiade a short 
 address, in the house, before her corpse was 
 carried to the tomb. 
 
136 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Mrs. J. was a most affectionate mother. 
 
 Her love to her children was such, that, 
 for the accomplishment of the purposes of 
 Divine Providence, no stronger need dwell 
 in a maternal heart. She incessantly 
 watched over them. No invitation to a 
 party could ever tempt her to neglect a child 
 that needed her care. By day and by night, 
 she attended to the duties she owed to her 
 children. Indeed, the anxiety she felt for a 
 sick child, needed often to be repressed, by 
 more confidence in God, and more submis- 
 sion to His will. 
 
 Not merely for their bodily welfare did 
 she watch ; for, when she became partaker 
 of Divine grace, she realized she had com- 
 mitted to her care young wimortals, to bring 
 up for G-od, and prepare for heaven and a 
 happy immortality. 
 
 By recurring to page 76, it will be seen, 
 that when Mrs. J. had for a week been 
 making the education of our children the 
 subject of prayer, Dr. Green delivered two 
 
RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 137 
 
 discources on the subject, which produced a 
 powerful effect on her mind. 
 
 In bringing up her children, her aim was, 
 not that they might become rich, or obtain 
 the honors of this world. Her aim towered 
 above the things of time and sense : her 
 " heart's desire" was, that they might re- 
 ceive the grace of Grod, and live to his glory, 
 and finally inherit the kingdom of heaven. 
 For this she prayed ; for this she taught 
 them ; and for this she labored : and, by 
 the blessing of God, she was eminently suc- 
 cessful in her endeavors. Four of her sons 
 are professors of religion, and sustain a con- 
 sistent character ; and, in regard to two 
 other children, favorable hopes are enter- 
 tained. 
 
 In 1837, there was a revival of religion 
 in Rutgers' College, of which her husband 
 was then a professor, and vice-president. 
 Our fourth son was a student in the senior 
 class ; but our third son had finished his 
 education, received his degree as A.B., and 
 
138 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 entered a store in New York, with a view 
 to engage in mercantile pursuits. At the 
 suggestion of his mother, he was invited to 
 pay us a visit, during the revival, in hopes 
 he might become a partaker of the heavenly 
 influence that was moving on and chansfinor 
 the hearts of the students. He came ; and 
 it pleased God to visit him with renewing 
 grace, as well as his brother. He is now a 
 minister of the Gospel, and settled as pastor 
 of the Presbyterian church in Flemington, 
 New Jersey. One thing lay near to her 
 heart. It was that her children should love 
 one another, and live in harmony. In a 
 letter to his father, since her decease, dated 
 Philadelphia, November 21, 1851, our eld- 
 est son, after expressing his love to his mo- 
 ther in the strongest terms, says, " It seems 
 to me an appropriate monument to my pre- 
 cious mother to be in the continued harmony 
 of her children. She spoke of this so often, 
 and with so much pleasure. My heart yearns 
 
RELIGIOUS CHARACTER. 139 
 
 to be near them all — to see them more fre- 
 quently." 
 
 For years, how many is not recollected, 
 in addition to our prayers for our children 
 in private and in the family, we were in the 
 habit (probably at her suggestion) of retir- 
 ing to my study every Sabbath night, before 
 family devotion, for the purpose of praying 
 for them individually^ for their companions, 
 and for their children, and giving thanks to 
 God for what he had done for them. 
 
CONTINUANCE OF THE SAME PERIOD. 
 
 Anticipation of Death — Survey of Blessings — Her wish to be the first victim — 
 Sickness of her Husband — Death of two grand-children — Her own sickness — 
 Progress — Her belief of its fatal termination — State of her mind during her sick- 
 ness—Conversation with her sister-in-law — With her daughter-in-law — With two 
 domestics — Concluding remarks. 
 
 ANTICIPATION OF DEATH. 
 
 Since the departure of my dear wife, the 
 following written communication was sent 
 to me, by the wife of my eldest son, T. L. 
 Janeway. I had not before heard of the 
 conversation. 
 
 " About a year or perhaps a little more 
 ago, I was talking with her about some 
 changes that had been made ; and added, 
 how singularly you have been favored ! 
 How many years have passed without a 
 link in your family chain breaking! She 
 replied, ' I have thought a great deal on 
 that subject lately ; and I try to be grate- 
 ful to the Lord for his goodness in prosper- 
 
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 BLESSINGS. 141 
 
 ing and permitting us to continue so long 
 happy together. But I do feel very sad 
 sometimes ; for I know a change must come, 
 and I have thought who will it be. Sup- 
 pose it should be your father, I don't think 
 I could bear that ; and I have hoped if 
 death must come, I might be taken.' 
 
 " I was particularly struck, at the time, 
 with her earnestness." 
 
 This conversation, unknown to the writer 
 till after the decease of his wife, must have 
 occurred previously to September, 1850. 
 
 The exact train of her thoughts cannot 
 be given. But, as with a view to awaken 
 her gratitude to the Giver of all good, she 
 was thinking of the continued prosperity of 
 her family ; how it had, for many years, 
 been preserved from any breach by the in- 
 roads of death, and what signal blessings 
 God had been pleased to bestow on us ; it 
 were easy to trace them pretty correctly. 
 
 But, to avoid particulars, wc shall mere- 
 ly present the reader with a general view 
 
142 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 of the family, at the time the tender mother 
 was making her grateful survey. 
 
 We had then five sons and two dausrh- 
 ters, one afflicted, as mentioned on page 88. 
 All were happily married. Their compan- 
 ions were, excepting one, all members of 
 the church, and hopefully pious. Four of 
 our sons were in full communion with the 
 church, and two of them in the ministry of 
 the gospel. One had been emimently blest 
 by his Master and made extensively useful, 
 and the other having encouraging prospects 
 of increasing usefulness as a preacher. Be- 
 sides, she cherished a hope that her daugh- 
 ter, her youngest son, and his wife, woud 
 be brought into the fold of Christ ; so that 
 at last all her children and their compan- 
 ions might eventually meet her in heaven. 
 
 Besides, she knew that Grod, in his kind 
 providence, had bestowed on us ample 
 means for living comfortably and aiding 
 largely our dear children ; that our loca- 
 tion was healthy and pleasant: that our 
 
BLESSINGS. 143 
 
 dwelling was commodious, connected with 
 a garden, in superintending which, espe- 
 cially the flower department, she found so 
 much enjoyment. 
 
 Such was the delightful field which the 
 dear departed was surveying, with a view 
 to awaken her gratitude and praise to her 
 Heavenly Father, from whom all her signal 
 blessings had come, and of which she was 
 ever ready to acknowledge herself to be 
 unworthy. 
 
 In these circumstances, and with such 
 an end in view, how must her thoughts 
 have dwelt on every object in this interest- 
 ing field of vision, and expanded into many 
 particulars, exciting her gratitude and en- 
 livening her praise, which it were easy, 
 though not befitting the writer, to sug- 
 gest. 
 
 Our grandchildren, at the time, num- 
 bered twenty-eight; and yet, for many 
 years, death was not permitted to touch a 
 family thus increasing and expanding ; and 
 
144 
 
 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 on which a gracious G-od was bestowing so 
 many and unwonted favors. 
 
 What unmerited blessings ! She knew 
 such unbroken prosperity could not last. 
 Death must come to break the happy circle. 
 "Who, she inquired, shall be the first taken 
 away to afflict the surviving members ? 
 Her aged husband ? This would be a 
 trial which she thought she could bear. She 
 was willing to go before him to the coming 
 world ; and hoped and prayed she might 
 be the first at which death would point his 
 destroying dart. 
 
 AVhat followed in the history of her fami- 
 ly ? On the 16th of September, 1850, her 
 husband was attacked by a severe and dan- 
 gerous illness, as he was returning in the 
 cars from New York ; whither he had gone to 
 attend a meeting of the Executive Commit- 
 tee of the Board of Foreign Missions. On 
 reaching home, he immediately went to 
 bed ; and was confined to his bed and room 
 two weeks. But it pleased God to spare 
 
SICKNESS. 145 
 
 him, (though he felt willing to die if it were 
 His sovereign will), and to raise him up to 
 health again, and renewed labor in His ser- 
 vice. 
 
 After his recovery, two children of her 
 third son were removed by death, in quick 
 succession ; the eldest, and the youngest an 
 infant. 
 
 Then on the sixth of May, 1851, she 
 herself was taken so sick at New York, that 
 she had to lie down in her daughter's house ; 
 but wishing to get home, she arose from the 
 bed and reached the cars. While traveling 
 in them, her sickness and pains increased ; 
 so that, shortly after arriving at home, she 
 went to her chamber and her bed. 
 
 HER SICKNESS AND DEATH. 
 
 On the 6th of May, as already stated, 
 Mrs. J., after her return home, was com- 
 pelled to go to her bed. But her sickness 
 at first did not confine her to it entirely. 
 She was soon able to rise from it, and sit in 
 
146 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 a rocking chair for several hours in the day. 
 After confinement in this manner, for about 
 a month, she recovered so far as to leave 
 her chamber and ride out about tivo miles ; 
 and, on the next day, she was able to ride 
 five miles, with apparent benefit. She felt 
 so well, that she went into the garden, 
 where she found so much pleasure, and was 
 tempted to remain in it too long. 
 
 The next day she had to return to her 
 chamber. From that time she never again 
 came down stairs to meet her family. 
 
 Death, it has been seen, had commenced 
 his ravages in our family, and on the 12th 
 of June, a letter from Mr. Van Nest, our 
 son-in-law, communicated the sad intelli- 
 gence, that they had lost their sweet babe, 
 an only daughter, whom God had given 
 them, after they had received at his hand 
 seven sons. 
 
 During the month of June and July, the 
 malady of Mrs. J. remained in such a state 
 as to leave some hopes of her recovery. .Sea 
 
SICKNESS. 147 
 
 air had, at other times, been beneficial to 
 her health, and we began to contrive how 
 we might be able to convey her to some 
 place, where she might enjoy the salutary 
 influence of the breezes that pass over the 
 great waters. "VVe thought of Key port ; 
 and on the 29th of July, accompanied by 
 my youngest son, I traveled to that place 
 to see what accommodations could be had 
 for my sick wife, and returned home that 
 night. Our hopes indeed were faint when 
 we started, whether she could be, in any 
 way, conveyed even to Keyport. 
 
 Her disease increased. Everything was 
 of course done for her that, money and 
 medical skill could command ; but, while 
 her complaint seemed to yield, and our 
 hopes were revived, the root of her disease 
 could not be reached. Her bowels remained 
 torpid, and her stomach unable to retain 
 nourishment. The slender diet she could 
 take was soon ejected, without remaining 
 Ions: enous;h to afford nourishment. 
 
148 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Her sisters and brothers, alarmed at what 
 they had heard, came to see her. Two of 
 her sisters staid several days to assist in 
 nursing, but finding she had numerous at- 
 tendants to supply her wants, and that it 
 was unnecessary for them to stay from their 
 families, who needed their presence, re- 
 turned home ; still cherishing a hope, ari- 
 sing from appearances and the strength of 
 her voice in conversation, that she might 
 recover from her sickness. Two of her 
 daughters-in-law, and Elizabeth, her daugh- 
 ter, were much with her. 
 
 The progress of her disease, after the 
 second confinement to her chamber, was 
 gradual. For some time she required, at 
 night, no more attention than her husband 
 could render ; and afterwards not more than 
 could be rendered by the chambermaid, as- 
 sisted by members of the family, who found 
 it convenient to offer assistance, by leaving 
 their own particular families. 
 
 But on the first of September, it became 
 
SICKNESS. 149 
 
 necessary to procure a professional nurse 
 to wait upon her. in conjunction with the 
 attendance afforded by the family. 
 
 Considering the nature of her disease, 
 the state of her bowels, and the daily, and 
 more than daily, ejection of the nourish- 
 ment received, she must have suffered more 
 than we thought. 
 
 For about a week, from a painful inflam- 
 mation in her eyes and eyelids, and very 
 severe inflammation in another sensitive 
 part of her system, she manifestly had to 
 endure much. But she Avas so uncom- 
 plaining, and bore all her pains with so 
 much patience, that wc were not aware 
 how much she suffered. 
 
 That sensation of cold in her whole sys- 
 tem, requiring, in the warmest summer 
 heat, heavy bed covering, and the still 
 keener sensation of cold in her feet and 
 legs, calling for the application of hot irons 
 and other heating things, and severe rub- 
 
150 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 bing with the hands, &c., must have been 
 distressing. 
 
 Sustained by divine grace, she endured 
 all patiently and without complaining. 
 
 On the 19th of September, her end was 
 evidently approaching. Early in the morn- 
 ing her husband was apprised of it. He 
 hastened to her chamber. She seemed to 
 recognize him, though unconscious of all 
 others in the room. At the head of her 
 bed he took his seat, watching the ebbing 
 of her life. All was calm. He saw no in- 
 dication of pain. Life gradually declined ; 
 till at last, with three or four inaudible 
 gasps for breath, without a groan, she ex- 
 pired. Believing life to have departed, he 
 requested his son, the physician, to apply a 
 small looking-glass. It was done three 
 times. Her spirit had departed. Immedi- 
 ately he fell on his knees, as did all in the 
 room, and gave thanks to God for all the 
 good that had resulted from her life ; and 
 then, in the fulness of his heart, endeavored 
 
SICKNESS. 151 
 
 to utter the words of Job : " The Lord gave 
 and the Lord hath taken away ; blessed be 
 the name of the Lord." 
 
 STATE OF HER MIND DURING HER SICKNESS. 
 
 The state of Mrs. J.'s mind, during her 
 sickness, was such as to afford her family 
 a high degree of satisfaction. 
 
 From the remarks made to her daughter- 
 in-law, on page 140, more than a year be- 
 fore her sickness, it may be inferred, that 
 from the beginning she may have anticipa- 
 ted it might terminate in her death. Not- 
 withstanding her expressed wish at that 
 time, that she might be the first link in the 
 family chain to be broken, as two grand- 
 children had been since removed by death, 
 she may have had a hope of being continued 
 in life for a time. 
 
 Indeed, surrounded by a family who 
 loved her so dearly, and possessed of every 
 thing to render life desirable, she did ex- 
 press a wish she might remain with them a 
 
152 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 few years longer ; but she referred the de- 
 termination to the Sovereign Disposer of 
 life and death. 
 
 The cook (Mrs. Mulligan) felt a strong 
 attachment to Mrs. J., and was frequently 
 in her room. On one occasion she told her 
 how much good she had done, and how 
 kind she had been to the poor. She replied, 
 " I have not done half as much as I ought 
 to have done ; but whatever I have done, I 
 put no dependence on my works. My reli- 
 ance is on the Saviour, on his atonement and 
 righteousness. In him I am accepted ; and 
 I am willing to die. But, if I should be 
 spared, I will try to do much more good." 
 Mrs. M. was at this time going to New 
 York to see about her children, who were 
 in Canada, and shook hands with her ; 
 expressing a hope that, when she returned, 
 she would find her sitting up. 
 
 "No," was the reply; '•' I shall never sit 
 up again ; I shall die, and I am willing to 
 die." It was th,e intention of Mrs. M. about 
 
STATE OF MIND. 153 
 
 this time to visit her children in Canada ; 
 but, owing to the illness of Mrs. J., she 
 kindly postponed her visit. On her return, 
 Mrs. M. said, " I hoped to see you up again 
 in your chair." 
 
 " I told you," was her reply, " I should 
 not be up again ; I shall die, and I am wil- 
 ling to die. The will of God be done." 
 
 At a previous time of her sickness, Mrs. 
 M. had said to Mrs. J., "You may live 
 longer than Mr. J." 
 
 To this she replied, " No, I hope not ; and 
 it is my prayer, I may not survive him." 
 
 Mrs. M. inquired, ''Why not? you are 
 younger than he." 
 
 ■" But," she rejoined, " he has more faith 
 and fortitude, and can bear the difficulties 
 of life better than I should be able. I wish 
 to go before him." 
 
 STATEMENT OF CATHARINE MORRISON, NOTICED 
 BEFORE, PAGE 134, 
 
 She was much with Mrs. J. by day and 
 by night, very faithful and kind in her at- 
 
154 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 tentions and services to the deceased ; and 
 endeavored, most assiduously, to relieve her 
 of that most uncomfortable sensation of 
 cold, especially in her feet, when the heat 
 of summer was intense. 
 
 In these circumstances, they had frequent 
 conversations with each other. To her Mrs. 
 J. had, in the earlier part of her sickness, 
 expressed a desire to live a little longer with 
 her family, if it were the will of God, but 
 submitted to His will to dispose of her as 
 He should deem best. But C. states that, 
 in the latter part of her illness, she gave up 
 all expectation of recovering her health. 
 And when C. remarked that, low as she 
 was, the Almighty was able to restore her 
 to health, Mrs. J. replied, " That is true, 
 but I have no expectation of rising from 
 this bed of sickness. I have lived long in 
 this world ; God has loaded me with his 
 blessings, of which I was unworthy. I am 
 willing to die if He wills it." 
 
 She says Mrs. J. often repeated hymns. 
 
STATE OF MIND. 155 
 
 which she cannot now remember, but she 
 distinctly recollects she often repeated that 
 delightful Psalm, (23d), " The Lord is my 
 Shepherd ; I shall not want" — and particu- 
 larly the three last verses : " Yea, though 
 I walk through the valley of the shadow of 
 death, I will fear no evil ; for thou art with 
 me ; thy rod and thy staff they comfort 
 me," &c. 
 
 C. frequently, at her request, read such 
 chapters or portions of the Scriptures as she 
 selected. This was usually done when the 
 family were at dinner. 
 
 Sometimes discovering from her counte- 
 nance that her attendant was in trouble ; 
 and knowing how she felt for her parents 
 she had left behind in Ireland, and to whom 
 she had repeatedly sent a portion of her 
 wages ; Mrs. J. would attempt to comfort 
 her by exhorting her to trust in G-od ; assur- 
 ing her the Lord would not fail those who 
 put their trust in Him. 
 
 Mrs. J. told her how her dear departed 
 
156 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 mother brought up her children, by teaching 
 them the Catechism on the Sabbath, and 
 keeping them in the house on that holy day, 
 and urging them to love one another : and 
 moreover said, she had imitated her mother 
 in training up her children ; she had en- 
 deavored to do her duty to them, and 
 thought the Lord had blessed her attempts. 
 She was thankful for her children, and 
 hoped they would not seek the riches of this 
 world, but " seek first the kingdom of God 
 and his righteousness." 
 
 She remarked the kindness of G-od to- 
 wards her in her sickness ; how He had 
 provided every alleviation in her illness, by 
 furnishing her with a comfortable bed and 
 so many attendants, while many a better 
 christian had only a bed of straw to lie 
 upon, and few or none to wait on them. 
 
 She spoke of the kindness of her children 
 and relatives, and others, and felt grateful 
 to all. 
 
 She had a deep sense of her own unwor- 
 
STATE OF MIND. 157 
 
 thiness, and whenever anything was said 
 of her good deeds, she would say she 
 had not done as much as she ought, and 
 disclaimed all dependence on her good 
 deeds. She confessed herself to be a sinner ; 
 fully admitted her ill-desert and destitution 
 of any self-righteousness to justify her in 
 the sight of a holy God, and cordially be- 
 lieved the necessity of the perfect atonement 
 and finished righteousness of the Lord Jesus 
 Christ for her salvation. 
 
 To C. Mrs. J. also expressed her gratitude 
 to Grod in so disposing of her lot in life, as 
 to connect her in marriage with a minister 
 of the Gospel, Avith whom she had lived so 
 many years, and in so much harmony and 
 happiness. She spoke, too, of the many 
 and great blessings which a kind Providence 
 had bestowed on her, and of which she ac- 
 knowledged she was unworthy. 
 
 These delightful lines, at the end of the 
 92d Hymn, she repeated frequently in the 
 8 
 
158 MRS. JANE WAY. 
 
 hearing of this attendant, and also in the 
 hearing of her eldest son: 
 
 " A guilty, weak and helpless worm, 
 On thy kind arms I fall ; 
 Be thou my strength and righteousness, 
 My Jesus and my all." 
 
 Such is the statement of C. Morrison. 
 
 The happy state of Mrs. J.'s mind may 
 be seen from two letters written by Mrs. 
 Eliza S. Leiper, wife of her brother, Judge 
 Leiper. 
 
 One is dated Lapidea, August 16, 1851, 
 and directed to her sister, Mrs. R. M. Pat- 
 terson, who was then at our house : 
 " My dear Sister^ 
 
 "I am so glad you are with our dear 
 sister, and trust a kind Providence may 
 bless the means used for her restoration. 
 Her mind was so calm when I was with 
 her, that I felt it a privilege. She 'said, 
 * It was 
 
 ' Sweet to lie passive in His hand, 
 And know no will but His.' 
 
 " While we acknowledge this with thank- 
 
STATE OF MIND. 159 
 
 fulness, it is our duty to preserve our lives, 
 which often are very necessary to our friends. 
 Tell Thomas Janeway I fully appreciate 
 his kindness in answering my letter to 
 Kate. Give my love to him and Abby. I 
 am glad they are there. My thoughts are 
 with you, and anything I can do I am ready 
 for. I write to ask you to write, and to 
 tell me the exact state of the case, and give 
 my love to dear sister. Oh ! what a favor 
 to know assuredly that we have a Sovereign 
 to rule for us with infinite wisdom. 
 
 " Give my love to my dear niece, Elizabeth 
 Van Nest. I feel great sympathy for her, 
 and hope she will, in all her trials, be sup- 
 ported by the only sure help. Love to dear 
 Brother Janeway. May the Lord be ever 
 near him to bless and keep him. 
 
 '' To-morrow is our communion. I hope it 
 may be a blessing to us all, and enable us 
 to be more devoted to Him who alone is 
 worthy." 
 
 " Excuse my scrawl, and believe me, 
 
160 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 with much affection and thanks, yours, 
 ever, E. S. L." 
 
 The other letter is directed to our daugh- 
 ter, Mrs. E. L. Van Nest, who was then 
 with us. 
 
 Dated Lapidea, Aug. 21, '51. 
 " My dear Elizabeth, 
 
 "I feel so anxious about dear sister, and 
 so much sympathy for you all, that I would 
 take it as a great favor from any one who 
 can take the time to write us a few lines 
 every day, to keep us informed of her situa- 
 tion. God grant she may yet be spared, 
 and enable all to say, * Thy will be done.' 
 I would have shared in the nursing most 
 willingly, and felt it a privilege to be with 
 dear sister. But sister Helen says, ' There 
 is no want of anything or attention ; and 
 that she could not have better nursing. 
 Give my love to dear sister when you have 
 a chance, and tell her I love her dearly, and 
 rejoice she has that sweet ' peace that pass- 
 eth all understanding.' May our blessed 
 
STATE OF MIND. 161 
 
 and faithful Redeemer be always near her, 
 and the beloved partner of her bosom." 
 
 "0, my dear Elizabeth, the severing of 
 earthly ties is painful; but that which 
 binds us to our God, will enable us to bear 
 all His will. How I rejoice we saw her 
 when we did, and had such a satisfactory 
 interview. I have just heard Brother Sam 
 and Sister Mary expect to go on this after- 
 noon, and I will send this by them. Please 
 give my love to Thomas and Abby. Perhaps 
 he will write to us; to Greorge, who I know 
 is so anxious to do all he can for his dear 
 mother ; to Henry and Kate, and believe 
 me most affectionately yours, E. S. L. 
 
 "P. S. Elizabeth regrets she cannot go on 
 to see her aunt and you. She feels very 
 anxious about her. 
 
 " Mr. Leiper sends his love particularly." 
 
 August 21st. Mrs. J. apprehended her- 
 self to be dying, and desired her attendant 
 to call her son Thomas. After consulting 
 with our daughter Elizabeth, she did so. 
 
162 MRS, JANEWAY. 
 
 He came and prayed with his mother. She 
 then requested him to call his father. He 
 came to my room, awoke me, and said, 
 " Mother thinks she is dying, and wants to 
 see you." Immediately I arose, put on my 
 clothes, and hastened to her chamber. As 
 soon as I had taken my station in the most 
 convenient place at the foot of the bedstead, 
 she began to speak : ' ' My dear, we have 
 lived together a long and a happy life." 
 Yes, we have lived together a long and 
 happy life, by the blessing of G-od — half a 
 century, lacking only two years and seven 
 months, is the response of her husband : to 
 whom, after her decease, Mrs. E. S. Leiper 
 remarked, " No two persons were more de- 
 voted to each other than you and sister." 
 
 From her husband she turned to her chil- 
 dren, and began to speak of them, and in 
 commendation of their conduct towards her. 
 Not being able to recollect distinctly what 
 she said on this occasion, we pass it by to 
 introduce what she said to her dauafhter-in- 
 
STATE OF MLND. 163 
 
 law, Mrs. Abby Jancway, and by her re- 
 duced to writing at iny request. 
 
 " My dear Father : — Thomas told me, on 
 his return from Princeton, that you would 
 like to have the conversation dear mother 
 had with me a few days before her death. 
 
 " I am very sorry I did not commit many 
 such to paper at the time they occurred. 
 It would have been a satisfaction to us all. 
 
 " The particular time you refer to she 
 had been recounting her many mercies, and 
 in an especial manner, dwelt upon the 
 goodness of God in giving her such a fam- 
 ily. Her own children had grown up a 
 blessing to her, and those that had cumo 
 into the family she loved as if they were 
 her own. She said she had much to live 
 for in her family, and it had been her de- 
 sire to remain with them a little longer ; 
 but the Lord knew best, and His will be 
 done. ' Perhaps it is best that I should go 
 now. But dear father will be very lonely 
 when I am gone : he will miss me. Ab- 
 
164 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 by, you must all attend to his comfort. 
 Tell Thomas, I hope he will be as much 
 with him as he can.' ' Dear mother, don't 
 be anxious about father ; his children love 
 him too much to neglect him. But if it 
 will be any comfort to you, I think I can 
 promise that Thomas, for one, will do all 
 he can. And would you like him to visit 
 father every month or two, as his duties to 
 his charge will permit?' 'Oh yes,' she 
 said, ' that is just what I wish.' Her coun- 
 tenance then became animated, and she ex- 
 claimed, 'Dear Thomas! he has always 
 been a kind, affectionate, and most respect- 
 ful child : he has been my pride as well as 
 my companion. How I have loved to have 
 him with us ! Dear George — a kind, affec- 
 tionate heart — he has been very attentive, 
 and has done what he could. Dear Lizzie, 
 I know she loves me.' 'Yes,' I added, 
 ' dear mother ; Lizzie loves you as well as 
 any of your children.' ' I am sure she 
 does, though she has not the same way of 
 
STATE OF MIND. 165 
 
 manifesting it. She always tries to please 
 me, I know, and is endeavoring to bring up 
 her children in the right way. She reads 
 her Bible, too. I hope she will come out 
 and make a profession. Dear John — he is 
 affectionate and kind too ; and dear Wil- 
 liam — he has been a good son too. And if 
 he ever said anything to hurt my feelings, I 
 know he was very sorry for it ; for he 
 always kissed me so affectionately after- 
 wards. Then dear Henry — he has been 
 very kind and affectionate, and always con- 
 siderate. He always comes to me before 
 going out, to see if he can do anything for 
 me. Oh I how I wish he was pious, and 
 Kate too : they are young. You must all 
 pray that they may be brought in. I hope 
 you will pray for them. What a blessed 
 thing if all should meet in heaven !' ' Yes,' 
 I replied, ' a delightful thought ! your 
 whole family in heaven ! not one missing I' 
 ' Poor Martha I' she continued ; then re- 
 flecting a moment, said : ' T hope Henry 
 
166 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 and Kate will keep house for father, and all 
 things will go on as usual. I hope you will 
 all feel an interest in Martha. She must 
 be a common care among you. She may 
 not remain long after me.' I endeavored 
 to quiet her mind by giving her every assu- 
 rance that her wishes should be attended 
 to ; and fearing the effect of so long a con- 
 versation, said, 'Dear mother, I fear you 
 are becoming weary. Try and rest a lit- 
 tle.' ' Oh no, Abby, lot me talk while my 
 mind is clear. It does not excite me to 
 talk about dying. I want to say all I can 
 now.' 
 
 " Then followed directions about domes- 
 tics. But, after a while, she said, with 
 some anxiety, ' I hope I shall not have 
 clouds come over my mind.' I replied, 
 ' These feelings are nervous. You are wea- 
 ried. Try and sleep ; and I will sit by 
 you, dear mother.' She closed her eyes, 
 and in a few minutes I v^as rejoiced to find 
 her sleeping. '^ 
 
STATF. OF MIM). 107 
 
 How consoling on her dying bed was it 
 to the deceased, to think of the children 
 God had been pleased to give us ! How 
 thankful she felt to God for what He had 
 done for four of them by His renewing 
 grace, and for all who had been introduced 
 into the family by marriage I How anx- 
 ious she felt that the rest might become the 
 subjects of saving grace! How delightful 
 the thought that ever}^ one should meet her in 
 heaven ! 
 
 Let all her children remember her in- 
 structions — her anxiety for their spiritual 
 welfare, and profit by her earnest and daily 
 prayers for their conversion and unif)n to 
 Christ. 
 
 How kindly and affectionately she thought 
 of her husband, whom she has left behind I 
 " But dear father — he will be very lonely 
 when I am gone : he v>'ill miss me." 
 
 Miss thee, thou wife of his youth, of his 
 middle, and of his old age ! Thou dear de,- 
 parted one, whom he loved so tenderly, aiul 
 
168 MRS. JANE WAV. 
 
 by whom he was so affectionately and con- 
 stantly loved, how can he but miss thee ? 
 Thou who didst participate in his trials, in 
 his comforts, and in his joys ! thou who 
 didst take such care of him, and. felt such 
 an interest in his character, his reputation, 
 and his usefulness ! how can he but miss 
 thee by day and by night ; when he leaves 
 his home, and when he returns home? He 
 cannot forget thee, thou dear departed one ! 
 Let the strong emotions he feels, and the 
 profusion of tears which he often sheds in 
 private, when he thinks of his love who has 
 gone never to return, and whom he will 
 probably follow in a little while, testify ! 
 
 But these are not emotions nor tears of 
 grief. Let no one who may read these 
 lines so imagine. Were he to allow such 
 an impression to be taken by the reader, he 
 would do wrong — wrong to that grace of 
 his heavenly Father which has so sustained 
 him in this great trial, and raised him 
 above the feelings of grief, and bv which 
 
STATE OF MIND. 169 
 
 he was enabled to say to thee on thy dying 
 bed, " My dear, I prefer that you should go 
 before me to your following me." " Why?" 
 was thy inquiry. " Because," was my re- 
 ply, " I think I can bear the difficulties and 
 troubles of life with more ease than you." 
 
 They are emotions and tears produced by 
 excited love — love excited by the departure 
 of one so much loved, and who is never to 
 return. And strong as the emotions some- 
 times are, and profase as the tears may be, 
 they are mingled with a secret pleasure. 
 They are a just tribute to departed loorth ; 
 a tribute to one who should never be forgot- 
 ten either by her husband or by her chil- 
 dren. 
 
 It is recorded of our blessed Redeemer, 
 when He stood at the grave of His friend 
 Lazarus, and was about to raise him from 
 the dead by His mighty power, and to re- 
 store him to his afflicted and weeping sis- 
 ters. " Jesus wept." 
 
 And like their Lord and Master, the bus- 
 
170 MRS. JANE WAV. 
 
 band and the children of her who lies in 
 the cold grave, and will not be raised from 
 the dead, till the glorious but distant morn- 
 ing of the general resurrection, may weep ; 
 while they profoundly submit to the will of 
 their great Sovereign, and say in all sincer- 
 ity : "The Lord gave, and the Lord hath 
 taken away ; blessed be the name of the 
 Lord." 
 
 The nature of Mrs. J.'s disease was such 
 as to affect her mental o])erations. Before 
 it had made such progress as to indicate 
 distinctly what would be its termination, 
 she complained she could not think connect- 
 edly. Her thoughts were broken and scat- 
 tered. It could nut be otherwise, while one 
 moment awake, and the next asleep. Thus 
 inclined to doze, her thoughts were not con- 
 fined to any particular subject, but must 
 wander and fly from one to another thing. 
 
 It was her desire to enjoy, at the last 
 liours of life, the privilege of bearing her 
 testimony in favor of religion. Bur it is ap- 
 
STATR OF MIND. 171 
 
 parent from her conversation with her 
 daughter-in-law, that she apprehended this 
 privilege would be denied. Hence she was 
 induced to embrace intervals when her 
 mind was freed, in a measure, from the 
 pressure of disease, to express her views 
 and desires in regard to her husband and 
 children, and to give various directions in 
 reference to household affairs. 
 
 Had this privilege been granted, it would 
 have been a gratification to the feelings of 
 her family. But it was not necessary to 
 assure them of her faith in Christ and 
 union to Him, nor to inspire them with a 
 confident belief, that she has entered into 
 that rest which God has promised to all 
 true believers. 
 
 CONCLUDING REMARKS. 
 
 1. In reviewing the whole subject, the 
 writer believes that he received his dear 
 departed companion from his heavenly Fa- 
 ther, as a spei'ial rovcnanl blessing. 
 
172 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 He has considered the state of his mind 
 in regard to the marriage relation ; that he 
 was brought to an entire submission to the 
 divine will, and was willing to marry or to 
 remain in a single state, as either might ap- 
 pear most conducive to the glory of G-od 
 and to his own usefulness in the ministry ; 
 and that it was not till after careful delib- 
 eration and earnest prayer, he had con- 
 cluded the marriage state would probably 
 best promote the great objects he had in 
 view, that he took serious steps to obtain 
 the hand of his chosen companion. He has 
 seen how, in taking these steps, he se- 
 riously and steadily sought divine direc- 
 tion ; how (guarding against self-delusion) 
 he carefully endeavored to follow the inti- 
 mations of Providence ; and that finally he 
 obtained the hand and heart of the young 
 lady to whom his affections were drawn. 
 
 He was not disappointed. She proved to 
 be what he hoped she would be, a helpmeet 
 indeed. Through a Ions: married life of 
 
CONCLUDING REMARKS. 173 
 
 forty-seven years and five months, lie found 
 her kind and affectionate, constant and 
 faithful, prudent and loving — a keepei' at 
 home, ordering aright her household — lov- 
 ing, guiding, and governing our children 
 well, and blest of the Lord in her endeavors 
 to train them up in wisdom's ways and in 
 the fear of God, 
 
 In a word, having seen the end from the 
 beginning, he feels assured his dear de- 
 parted wife was bestowed on him by his 
 heavenly Father as a special covenant bless* 
 ing ; and that his marriage rendered him 
 more useful, and enabled him to honor his 
 Maker more, than if he had remained un- 
 married. He therefore owes his heavenly 
 Benefactor ten thousand thanks, and now 
 he records his sense of obligation for such a 
 signal blessing, and his fervent praise to 
 God, for the great benefits resulting from 
 the relation He was pleased to establish be- 
 tween us as husband and wife, both to our- 
 selves, to our children, and to many others. 
 
174 MRS. JANEWAY. 
 
 Again he sa3^s, " The Lord gave, and the 
 Lord hath faken away ; blessed be the 
 name of the Lord." 
 
 2. A prudent wife is from the Lord " — a 
 maxim never to be forgotten by the unmar- 
 ried. Were not all our children married, 
 counsel would be given to them ; but as 
 they have already selected their compan- 
 ions, the writer says to our grandchildren, 
 Remember the maxim recited. Think and 
 pray much about this most important rela- 
 tion in life, on which so much depends of 
 your future happiness and usefulness in 
 this world. Do not dare to form this rela- 
 tion in reliance on your own skill and 
 judgment, without consulting your heavenly 
 Father. Consult Him ; ask His guidance ; 
 beseech Him to bestow on you a suitable 
 companion ; and then you may expect to 
 receive one who will be a blessing to you 
 indeed. May God give you all His saving 
 grace, and guide you in all your ways, and 
 especially in selecting a companion for life ! 
 
CONCIiUDING REMARKS. 175 
 
 3. Mrs. Janeway was, through the whole 
 of her life, distinguished by the kindness of 
 God, her heavenly Father. 
 
 She was the eldest child of her parents. 
 She was their delight; and their love she 
 returned in a most grateful manner with 
 the warmest and constant affection. By 
 her brothers and sisters she was greatly be- 
 loved, and in return she loved them as a 
 sister ought to love such near relations. 
 
 In Philadelphia, her native city, she lived 
 in the enjoyment of every comfort, till her 
 marriage in her twenty-first year, and con- 
 tinued to reside in that delightful city after 
 her marriage more than twenty-four years, 
 in the midst of her dear relations and other 
 friends, wanting no temporal favor ; and 
 there she gave birth to all her dear chil- 
 dren. 
 
 By her marriage she was taken from a 
 fashionable circle, gay and thoughtless, who 
 would, if she had continued in it, have 
 
176 MRS. JANEWAV. 
 
 worn away the serious impressions that had 
 been made on her mind by her domestic 
 and school education, and might have ren- 
 dered her as gay and thoughtless of future 
 realities as themselves ; and introduced into 
 a circle of serious, intelligent, and pious 
 individuals, who, knowing the dignity of 
 their immortal nature, were taught to seek 
 first the kingdom of God and his righteous- 
 ness ; and then to trust in Him for the addi- 
 tion of all inferior blessings. 
 
 To the beneficial change of situation in 
 regard to religious influence, produced by 
 her marriage, she often adverted in the 
 course of her life with gratitude to the great 
 Disposer of all events ; and spoke of it, and 
 its happy results to one of her attendants, 
 with much thankfulness to God. 
 
 Six years after her marriage, she made a 
 public profession of religion, and became a 
 member of the church in full communion. 
 But, as she was manifestly a partaker of 
 
CONCLUDING REMARKS. 177 
 
 saving grace before, she might, and ought 
 to have made this profession two years 
 sooner. 
 
 Mrs. J., like all others whom God loves, 
 had her trials, and some very severe. But 
 under all she was supported by the grace of 
 her covenant God ; and all were made to 
 work together for her spiritual benefit. 
 
 That severe trial, endured with Christian 
 fortitude, which removed her from her na- 
 tive city, and tore her from the arms of her 
 dear mother, and greatly attached sisters 
 and brothers, and finally resulted in her per- 
 manent settlement in another location, can 
 be seen by one who has looked at all its 
 bearings, to have issued in her comfort and 
 enjoyment, and in great advantage to her 
 family. To that removal may be traced the 
 happy marriages contracted by five of her 
 children, and the conversion of three of her 
 sons. 
 
 It has been seen, how a little more than a 
 year before her decease, she had been sur- 
 
178 MRS, JANEWAY. 
 
 veying the signal blessings God had been 
 pleased to bestow on her family, and the 
 long uninterrupted prosperity with which he 
 had favored them ; to awaken her gratitude 
 and praise to the Griver of all good ; and that 
 when her heart became sad at tbe reflection 
 that such prosperity could not last, and that 
 death must come to break in upon that 
 highly favored and happy circle, protected 
 for so long a time against the inroads of the 
 great enemy of the human race ; she was 
 willing to become his first victim. 
 
 And, in the commencement of her sick- 
 ness, when she looked again at her large and 
 highly favored family, by whom she was 
 surrounded, and who all loved her so much, 
 and knowing that she had every thing to 
 render life desirable, it was natural to ex- 
 press a wish to live a little while longer in 
 the midst of them, if God should be pleased 
 so to ordain. But, when, from the progress 
 of her disease she apprehended its fatal ter- 
 mination, she submitted calmly to the Divine 
 
CONCLUDING REMARKS. 179 
 
 Will, thankfully acknowledged that she and 
 her husband had lived together a long and 
 happy life ; expressed her grateful sense of 
 the conduct of her children towards her ; 
 looked forward, with Christian hope and 
 earnest desire, to the delightful sight of all 
 of them in heaven at last ; and then said, 
 that the Lord's time was the best time, and 
 that she had lived long enough, and was 
 willing to die. 
 
 Truly the life of Mrs. .Taneway was dis- 
 tinguished by the loving kindness of the 
 Lord. And truly " Blessed are the dead 
 which die in the Lord, from henceforth ; yea, 
 saith the Spirit, that they may rest from 
 their labors, and their works do follow 
 them." 
 
JllpnH^". 
 
 A. 
 A SKETCH OF THE GRAY FAMILY. 
 
 George Gray, the father of Mrs. Leiper, 
 was born in Germantown, Pennsylvania, in 
 1729. 
 
 He married Miss Martha Ibetson, who 
 was born in England, in 1734. 
 
 She came from England with her mother, 
 Mrs. Ibetson, at the invitation of Captain 
 Coultas, her uncle, and was married to 
 George Gray, in November, 1752. 
 
 The year in which Captain Coultas came 
 to this country, from England, is not known ; 
 but it is known that he was appointed, by 
 the crown of England, High Sheriff of Phi- 
 ladelphia county. He built Wliitby Ilall, 
 now standing ; though recently enlarged by 
 the addition of a wing. The rising ground 
 
APPENDIX. 181 
 
 on which Whitby Hall was placed, alTorded 
 facilities for constructing a large cellar, di- 
 vided into convenient apartments, for storing 
 away large quantities of various articles. 
 Including the road running at right angles 
 with the Derby road, on which Whitby Hall 
 was erected, it is distant from Broad Street 
 about four miles. 
 
 In the erection of the Episcopal church on 
 Derby road, five miles from Philadelphia, 
 Captain Coultas took an active part, and 
 contributed liberally to meet the necessary 
 expense. 
 
 Greorge Gfray inherited from his father a 
 considerable landed estate, lying on the east 
 and west side of the river Schuylkill, adja- 
 cent to. and including Gray's Ferry, and a 
 number of lots in the city of Philadelphia. 
 After the death of Captain Coultas, he pur- 
 chased Wliitby Hall, with about 400 acres 
 of land, where he then moved, and continued 
 to reside until his death, A.D. 1800. 
 
 By the depredations on his property by 
 9 
 
182 APPENDIX. 
 
 the British, he lost, we are informed, seven 
 thousand pounds, besides injury done to his 
 woods, amounting to $5000 more. 
 
 Both George Grray and his wife had been 
 educated among the Friends. Mrs. Gray 
 became skilled, in a considerable degree, in 
 the medical art, and exercised it as a bene- 
 factress to the poor ; supplying them with 
 medicine, and plasters for curing sores and 
 relieving pain. 
 
 Mr. Gray, by the active part he took in 
 the American war, lost his standing among 
 the Friends, and became exceedingly obnox- 
 ious to the British ; who were very desirous 
 of capturing him, but never succeeded in 
 their attempts. His wife happened to be in 
 Philadelphia when the enemy took possession 
 of that city ; and, while she remained there, 
 was enabled to supply, in some degree, the 
 wants of the American prisoners. But Gen- 
 eral Howe, suspecting her of furnishing in- 
 telligence to the rebels, ordered her to leave 
 the city. This she did willingly, and re- 
 
AT'VF.NDIX. 183 
 
 joined her husband and family ; wlio, to 
 escape from the British, had removed to 
 Concord, Delaware county, Pennsylvania. 
 She died in 1781. 
 
 George G-ray was a member of the Com- 
 mittee of Public Safety, during the Revolu- 
 tionary war. He was a member of the Con- 
 vention that framed the Constitution of 
 Pennsylvania. And, subsequently, he was 
 chosen speaker of the House of Assembly of 
 that state. He died in 1800. 
 
 Dying intestate, his property was divided 
 among his children. On that part of the 
 land that fell to the share of Mrs. Leiper, 
 she built a small stone house, nearly oppo- 
 site to Whitby Hall, and called it Whitby 
 Hill. This, together with eighty acres con- 
 nected with it, was, after her decease, sold 
 by her children. 
 
184 APPENDbS. 
 
 B. 
 
 A MEMORIAL OF WILLIAM YATES, 
 
 Son of Jacob J» and Martha Jane^vat, 
 Written by his Father a few days after his Decease. 
 
 Our lovely boy was born the 6th of June, 
 A. D. 1809, and died December the 2d, 
 1810, aged 17 months and 26 days. 
 
 In person he was beautiful. His limbs 
 were all sound, well shaped, and well ar- 
 ranged. His countenance interested every 
 beholder ; the features of it were happily 
 turned ; and the whole illuminated with 
 large blue eyes, full orbed, and very intelli- 
 gent. His skin was very fair ; his lips were 
 of vermilion ; and his cheeks, when in 
 health, like roses. The picture was shaded 
 and set off by hair uncommonly beautiful. 
 
 His soul was more lovely than the body 
 in which it dwelt, before it ascended to 
 heaven. Sweet indeed in his temper, he 
 was always ready to greet his parents and 
 others v/ith a smile. His lovely disposition 
 
APPENDIX. 185 
 
 showed itself in pain ; for even then he 
 would smile. The physician who attended 
 him when sick, often remarked w^hat a sweet 
 and happy child he was. In the morning he 
 would salute his dear mamma with a kiss, 
 and then, creeping over her,he would do the 
 same to his father, and afterwards give in- 
 dications it was his wish they should kiss 
 each other. He was always ready to kiss 
 persons when requested ; and sometimes 
 when several were present, he would of his 
 own motion, after kissing one, kiss them all. 
 
 He was generous ; for he readily offered 
 to share what he was eating ; and it seemed 
 as if he could not eat some things without 
 presenting part to others. 
 
 Contentment and liveliness were in him 
 happily blended. For hours would he tlmuse 
 himself with his play-things. He was very 
 fond of drawing a little wagon, and having 
 little houses built of sticks put together. 
 He gave early indications of a devotional 
 turn. Without beinsr taught to do so, he 
 
1S6 AI'PENDIX. 
 
 would, when a blessing was asked at the 
 table, lift up his little hands ; and it was at 
 his own motion, that his father took him to 
 kneel, like his older brothers, between his 
 iinees, and pay his silent homage to his God. 
 During his last sickness, his hands and eyes 
 were often raised in the attitude of prayer. 
 And who can say that his little soul, young 
 as it was, was not expanded and enlightened 
 by the Spirit of God, so as to be able to lift 
 his heart in prayer, just before its entrance 
 into a state of glory ? He was incapable of 
 speaking: speech was unnecessary to him 
 who was not to remain among mortals ; it 
 was sufficient to receive ideas enough to 
 lead his soul to God, A vast change un- 
 doubtedly took place, when he passed into 
 the eternal world ; and why may we not 
 suppose it began in this world, that he might 
 before he left the body, do homage in the 
 presence of angels, to that God who per- 
 fects praise out of the mouth of babes and 
 sucklings? 
 
APPENDIX. 187 
 
 His patience under his severe sufterings 
 was indeed exemplary. From the begin- 
 ning of his last illness to his death, he did 
 not once cry. When he appeared reluctant 
 to take his medicine, he was told by his 
 father that it was good for William ; and 
 then he would open his dear little mouth, 
 and swallow it down. 
 
 On the night preceding the day on which 
 he died, he took an affectionate farewell of 
 his parents. The hand of his father was 
 lying on him with the palm upwards; he 
 observed it, and playing with it, according 
 to custom, by rubbing it with his dear little 
 hand, he smiled in his face ; and then turn- 
 ing to his dear mother, he gently stroked her 
 face and smiled again. It was his last en- 
 dearment. We thought it an indication that 
 he was getting better. But it proved to be 
 his affectionate adieu. He loved his parents 
 much, and his parting endearment was, no 
 doubt, pleasing to him, as well as grateful 
 to their feelings ; and may not his- reviving, 
 
188 APPENDIX. 
 
 SO far as to ex}3ress his affection for thein, 
 be regarded as an interposition and favor of 
 Providence, for which they ought to be 
 thankful? There are two other circum- 
 stances attending his dissolution, which are 
 not to be forgotten. One is, that he expir- 
 ed on the lap of his dear mother ; and the 
 other, that he breathed out his last in the 
 presence of his father. During the greater 
 part of his illness, he preferred lying in the 
 cradle ; but a few hours before his death, 
 he chose to be in his mother's arms, and 
 there expired. His father preached in the 
 morning, and had returned to his home about 
 three quarters of an hour before he ex- 
 pired ; so that he had the mournful plea- 
 sure of watching the escape of his last 
 breath. These are grateful incidents, which 
 none but a parent's heart knows how to 
 prize. 
 
 And now what shall be said of this pro- 
 vidential dispensation ? Shall murmuring 
 or repining be indulged ? God forbid. Shall 
 
APPENDIX. 189 
 
 not the Jud^e of all the earth do rioht ? In- 
 finitely perfect, can any of his ways be 
 marked with imperfection ? Shall man 
 complain, a living man, for the pmiishment 
 of his sin ? God, good, and merciful, has 
 chastened us less than our iniquities de- 
 serve ; and he hath mingled mercy with 
 affliction. How many comforts have we 
 left ! How thankful should we be that 
 medical aid was obtained ; that our friends 
 were so kind ; that our dear boy was so 
 patient and yielding, and that he at last 
 died so easily ! The dear lamb was a loan ; 
 and G-od had a perfect right to require it at 
 our hands, when and how he pleased ; and 
 we ought to esteem it an honor, for which 
 our gratitude is due, that we were made the 
 instruments for bringing into the world, 
 and taking care of, so lovely an heir of im- 
 mortality. 
 
 He is gone, not lost ; gone to a world 
 of perfect light and purity, where he en- 
 joys happiness inconceivably great; and al- 
 
190 APPENDIX. 
 
 ready does he know so much, although he"* 
 left the world but two days ago, that we are 
 but infants to him ; and has enjoyed so much 
 happiness, that it surpasses the mass of 
 what we have ever experienced. Like a 
 seraph, he burns before the throne of his 
 God. Escorted by angels into the presence 
 of his Redeemer, he sings with his kindred 
 saints : " Unto him that loved us, and wash- 
 ed us in his blood, and hath made us kings 
 and priests unto God ; unto him be glory 
 and dominion forever." 
 
 His body we have committed to the grave, 
 and soon it will molder into dast. But we 
 believe that his Redeemer will watch over 
 it, and, in the morning of the resurrection, 
 raise it from the dead, and fashion it after 
 his most glorious body. His flesh rests in 
 hope ; and his living spirit anticipates, with 
 joy, the approaching day, when it will be 
 reunited to his body ; not corruptible, but 
 incorruptible ; not mortal, but immortal ; not 
 a natural, but a spiritual body. Then, made 
 
APPENDIX. 191 
 
 like to his exalted Redeemer, both in soul 
 and in body, he will spend eternity in the 
 service, vision and fruition of God ; pro- 
 gressing in knowledge, love and holiness ; 
 shining, with increasing lustre, in all the 
 excellencies of a heavenly creature, through 
 wasteless ages. 
 
 Shall we then complain ? Complain that 
 our dear babe has gone to the actual enjoy- 
 ment of all this happiness and glory ? that 
 he has escaped the temptations and snares, 
 the sins and sorrows of this fallen world ; 
 and gone to spend the residue of his days 
 in a world of perfect light, unsullied purity, 
 and eternal blessedness ? Were we to at- 
 tempt it, could we frame a higher wish for 
 our lovely boy ? Has not God done for him 
 all that a parent's heart could desire ? In 
 this view of the dispensation, we are called 
 to thankfulness, to joy, and to praise. An- 
 gels no doubt rejoiced when his little spirit 
 escaped from his body, and accompanied it 
 to heaven ; and shall his parents mourn ? 
 
192 APPENDIX. 
 
 shall not they rejoice ? Blessed be the Re- 
 deemer, who said, " Suffer little children to 
 come unto me, and forbid them not ; for of 
 such is the kingdom of God," Blessed be 
 our God for the consolations of the gospel, 
 which gives us so much reason to believe 
 that children, especially children devoted to 
 God, dying in their infancy, are washed in 
 the blood of the Lamb, and admitted into 
 heaven. 
 
 But this afflictive dispensation (for afflic- 
 tive it is in breaking the tender ties which 
 bound the sweet babe to our hearts, and 
 deprived us of the society of a child so lovely 
 and promising) imposes duties on us. It 
 calls us to the exercise of submission to the 
 sovereign will of God. It requires us to 
 detach our hearts from the world, and to 
 place them more on heaven. It summons 
 us to the great duty of preparing for death 
 and judgment. It commands us to be more 
 active and diligent in doing the will and 
 work of our God. The affliction is intended 
 
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APPENDIX, 193 
 
 for our benefit. May the Lord G-od give us 
 grace rightly to improve it I May his Holy 
 Spirit inspire us with just views, and feel- 
 ings and exercises, that it may work out 
 for us the peaceable fruits of righteousness ; 
 that, in the end, we may see that it was 
 good for us to be afflicted, and that God 
 has converted our loss into gain. And may 
 we, hereafter, unite with our little angel, 
 around the throne, in singing hallelujahs 
 to Him that sitteth on it, and unto the 
 Lamb forever. Amen. 
 C. 
 
 A sketch of the Janeway family is insert- 
 ed, in this Appendix, for the information of 
 its members. 
 
 George Janeway was born in New Jer- 
 sey, Oct., 1742. His parents were Jacob 
 and Sarah Janeway. His father was a 
 merchant, and lived in Somerset County, 
 N. J., in the house on a hill, below which 
 a mill was erected by Mr. Campbell, along 
 the road to Somerville. His large ledger, 
 10 
 
194 APPENDIX. 
 
 beautifully written, and without a blot, is 
 in the writer's possession. 
 
 His Will, written on parchment, is dated 
 Somerset Co., N. J., May 13, 1746. 
 
 He devised his whole estate to his belov- 
 ed wife, during her natural life, for her 
 support, and for the support and education 
 of his three children ; Wiliam, George, and 
 Sarah. On his wife's decease, the estate 
 was to be divided equally between his three 
 children. 
 
 Sarah died when young. She was never 
 married. "William went to sea, and died 
 abroad, according to the testimony of Mrs. 
 Cossart, who knew the family well. 
 
 GrEORGE lived to a great age ; lacking only 
 one month and twenty-one days of being 
 84 years old. He died Sept. 2, 1826. 
 
 The will of Jacob Jane way was proved 
 at New Brunswick, June 6, 1746, before 
 Anthony White ; and the prerogative seal 
 was affixed by Jonathan Belcher, Capt. 
 General and Governor of the Province of 
 
APPENDIX. 195 
 
 New Jersey, and Chancellor, &c., at Perth 
 Amboy, Oct. 2, 1747. 
 
 His wife was appointed sole administra- 
 trix. Barnardus Legrange did not qualify 
 as executor. 
 
 Jacob Janeway was the son of William 
 and Agnes Janeway, and was born, it is 
 presumed, at New York, and baptized in 
 Trinity Church ; but this cannot be certified} 
 for the records of that period were destroyed 
 by fire. 
 
 William came to New Xork, as purser of 
 his Majesty's (King William III.) ship Rich- 
 mond. He brought with him the Charter 
 of the Parish of Trinity Church. His 
 name is inserted as one of the first vestry- 
 men, in the Charter, page 10. 
 
 The precise year of his arrival is not as- 
 certained. He bought of William Merret, 
 Mayor of the City of New York, certain 
 lots of land, within the city ; for which he 
 paid five hundred pounds. New York cur- 
 rency. The deed is dated May 10, 1698. 
 
196 
 
 API'ENDIX. 
 
 From the date of this purchase it is infer- 
 red W. Jane way probably arrived in N. Y. 
 the preceding year, 1697 ; as it is not likely 
 he would have made his purchase the same 
 year in which he arrived, without taking 
 time to ascertain the value of the lots he 
 was about to purchase. 
 
 From a letter in my possession, dated 
 London, July 31, 1699, to a friend in New 
 York, requesting him to furnish his wife 
 with funds, it appears that, in that year, 
 he had returned to London. In what year 
 he came back to New York is not certain ; 
 though it is probable the next year. 
 
 His Will is dated New York, Feb. 17, 
 1703. From a bill of sale, in my posses- 
 sion, dated New York, 1707, it appears he 
 was then living. Probably he died in 1708; 
 for his Will was proved at New York, before 
 Richard Ingoldesby, Lieut. Gov. and Com- 
 mander-in-chief OF THE Provinces of New 
 York and New Jersey, &c., and received 
 the prerogative seal, Nov. 4, 1709. 
 
APPENDIX. 197 
 
 GrEORGE Janeway, the writer's father, 
 was about four years old when his father 
 died ; and about twelve^ when his mother 
 died. Thus left an orphan, and having no 
 one to look after the property bequeathed 
 to him and his brother, the Corporation took 
 possession of the estate ; which he after- 
 wards recovered out of their hands. But, 
 when he came of age and made application 
 to them for what most justly belonged to him, 
 and for which he produced a perfect title, 
 they resisted his application seven years. 
 The consequence was, he had to give Mr. E . 
 Byvanck, one-fourth of his lots, for the 
 money he advanced my father, in prosecut- 
 ing his claim before the Corporation. The 
 Corporation allowed him nothing for the 
 use of his property, while they held it. The 
 other portion of the estate, which his grand- 
 father, William Janeway, purchased from 
 William Merret, was taken possession of by 
 individuals. It ran along Roosevelt street, 
 from Chathan street to the East River, up 
 10* 
 
198 APPENDIX. 
 
 said river to James street ; thence along 
 James street to Chatham square ; and thence 
 down said square to the place of the begin- 
 ning. 
 
 To this property he had as perfect a title 
 as to that recovered from the Corporation ; 
 and, had he prosecuted for it, he would 
 doubtlessly have recovered it, out of the 
 hands of the individuals, who had wrong- 
 fully taken possession of it. But his lawyer, 
 representing the trouble and expense it 
 would cost, persuaded him to sell it for a 
 small sum. 
 
 The documents establishing his father's 
 title to this valuable property, are now in 
 the writer's possession. 
 
 The writer's mother died in 1804, as 
 stated already, being about 54 or 55 years 
 old. Her mother, Mary Ten Eyck, lived 
 to a great age. She was remarkably heal- 
 thy and vigorous, when ninety-three or four; 
 so as to be able at that advanced age, to 
 walk a mile or two in the streets of New 
 
APPENDIX. 199 
 
 York. She died when she was in her nine- 
 ty-sixth year. 
 
 From various circumstances, it is inferred, 
 that our family is descended from that pious 
 family in England, to which John, who died 
 so triumphantly in his twenty-fourth year, 
 and James Janeway, his brother, who wrote 
 the "Token for Children," and "Heaven 
 upon Earth," belonged. 
 
 CHATHAM STREET THEATRE CONVERTED INTO 
 CHATHAM STREET CHAPRI.. 
 
 When this was accomplished the writer 
 published in the Journal of Commerce a 
 short statement, to vindicate himself in re- 
 gard to the Theatre on the property which 
 Providence had called him to manage ; and 
 to apologize for his father, who was induced, 
 by certain influences, to purchase that 
 establishment, on the death of its owner. - 
 
200 APPENDIX. 
 
 He regrets that he is unable to find a 
 oopy of it. In the absence of it, he will 
 just say that, on the day of its publication, 
 cr a few days after, riding in an omnibus 
 
 along Broadway, the Rev. Dr. , of New 
 
 York, accosted him thus: " I have read your 
 publication. I had blamed you in regard to 
 the Theatre. I was wrong in doing so. In 
 your publication you have said not a word 
 too much or too little." 
 
 D. 
 
 The following Address was delivered at 
 the funeral of Mrs. Martha G. Jane way, 
 by the Rev. Samuel B. How, D. D., of New 
 Brunswick, New Jersey. 
 
 It was in the faith of this precious truth 
 that " Christ is our life," that our departed 
 sister in Christ, Mrs. Martha G. Janeway, liv- 
 ed and died. For upwards of forty years — 
 durins: the whole of which time I had the 
 
APPENDIX. 201 
 
 happiness of an acquaintanceship and friend- 
 ship with her and her family — she had been 
 in full communion with the church, and 
 during the whole of that time she adorned 
 her profession by her exemplary conduct 
 and conversation. 
 
 Deeply convinced of the sinful corruption 
 of her nature, that she had no righteous- 
 ness of her own to justify her before God, 
 all her trust and hope rested in Christ. She 
 received him by faith as " the Lord her 
 righteousness, her strength and salvation," 
 and hoped for peace and acceptance with 
 God only through his merits, and sought 
 from him the gift of the Holy Spirit, that 
 by his indwelling and sanctifying grace she 
 might be made meet to partake of " the 
 inheritance of the saints in light." 
 
 An habitual and devout reader of the 
 Holy Scriptures, and having also carefully 
 read several of the best modern writings on 
 practical and experimental religion, she was 
 an enlightened Christian, and well under- 
 
202 APPENDIX. 
 
 stood the doctrines and duties of the Gospel. 
 At the same time she was an humble Chris, 
 tian, and was ever ready to confess her 
 sense of her short-comings and imperfec- 
 tions in the performance of duty, and her 
 unworthiness to stand in the presence of a 
 God of spotless holiness. One source of 
 this humble estimate which she formed of 
 herself and her conduct, was doubtless her 
 great conscientiousness and strict regard to 
 duty in all she said and did. She feared 
 the Lord, and set him habitually before her > 
 and to those who knew her best, it was evi- 
 dent that it was her constant desire and en- 
 deavor to keep " a conscience void of offence 
 toward God and toward man." She was 
 ever scrupulously fearful of doing wrong, 
 and desirous to do what she believed was 
 right. Hence her character was marked 
 by sincerity and uprightness. 
 
 Her conscientiousness was accompanied 
 with habits of frequent intercourse with 
 God in the performance of the duties of de- 
 
APPENDIX, 203 
 
 votion in the retirement of the closet. I 
 have been informed by a member of her 
 family, who had ample opportunity for 
 knowing, that in the practice of private de- 
 votion she was constant and exemplary. 
 This lies at the foundation of all superior 
 excellence and attainments in Christian 
 character ; nor can any progress be made 
 without it in spiritual knowledge or holi- 
 ness. 
 
 She possessed great benevolence of feel- 
 ing, and was abundant in acts of charity to 
 the poor. Often did she supply the wants 
 and administer to the comfort of the indi- 
 gent sick and aged, and the abode of many 
 an impoverished widow has been cheered by 
 her kindness. By such her loss will be se- 
 verely felt, as by many of them it is now 
 greatly lamented. For several years she 
 was one of the directresses of the Dorcas 
 Society of New Brunswick, and between 
 her and the late excellent first directress 
 (Mrs. Kirkpatrick) a sincere and uniform 
 
204 APPENDIX. 
 
 friendship existed. That friendship, we 
 doubt not, they have renewed in a better 
 world. 
 
 She earnestly desired the prosperity and 
 extension of pure religion and the success 
 of the cause of Christ, both at home and 
 abroad. She was exemplary in her con- 
 stant and devout attendance on the public 
 worship of God ; she was deeply interested 
 in the success of the missionary and other 
 religious institutions in the Church, and by 
 her whole conduct and conversation plainly 
 showed how much she was concerned in 
 promoting the glory of our Lord Jesus 
 Christ, and the spiritual welfare of others. 
 Especially she was concerned for her own 
 household. Having devoted her children to 
 God, she conscientiously attended to their 
 religious education. The blessing of Heaven 
 rested on her instructions, and example and 
 prayers, together with those of her excel- 
 lent husband, and they had the high happi- 
 ness to see four of their children in the full 
 
APPENDIX. 205 
 
 communion of the Church, and two of them 
 able and faithful preachers of the gospel ; 
 while the two others of them who have not 
 yet united in the full communion of the 
 Church are exemplary in their deportment 
 and conversation : and it is our earnest de- 
 sire and prayer that their aged surviving 
 parent may have his heart gladdened by 
 their accompanying him, before his depar- 
 ture hence, to the sacramental table ; there, 
 with him, to devote themselves to their 
 Lord and Saviour. 
 
 With, you, my esteemed and venerated 
 Christian brother, we sincerely sympathize 
 in your affliction. The v/ife of your youth, 
 the dearest companion of your life, the 
 sharer of your prayers, of your counsels, of 
 your sorrows and your joys, has been torn 
 from you by the ruthless hand of death 
 But she has gone, we doubt not, to Jesus, 
 her Lord and Redeemer — the Husband 
 and Head of his Church — her Saviour and 
 
 your Saviour. We need not repeat to you 
 11 
 
206 APPENDIX. 
 
 the sources of consolation contained in the 
 gospel — you know them well : you have 
 often exhibited them to others ; you must 
 now apply them to yourself. The separa- 
 tion between you and her will be short. 
 She has reached heaven before you. She 
 has put on the white robe, and has received 
 from her Saviour the crown of life. She 
 has no longer need to bow in supplication 
 and prayer. Her journey is finished. Her 
 conflict is over. She has reached her home. 
 She has won the victory. She is present 
 with her Lord. To you the journey of life 
 is nearly closed. Soon your Lord and Mas- 
 ter will call you home, and there you will 
 renew, with your beloved departed one, a 
 friendship high and holy — the friendship of 
 heaven, cemented by the love of Jesus the 
 Mediator, and of G-od our Father ; a friend- 
 ship pure, spiritual, and eternal. 
 
 Wjth you too, the bereaved children, we 
 affectionately sympathize. Death has taken 
 from you your beloved mother — your first, 
 
APPENDIX. 207 
 
 best, dearest earthly friend. Your affliction 
 is heavy. But while you mourn the loss of 
 her, it becomes yovi to mourn not only with 
 submission to the will of your Heavenly 
 Father, but with thankfulness that you 
 have had such a mother, and for the hope 
 that you have in her death. To her, we 
 doubt not, "to die was gain" — "absent 
 from the body, she is present with the 
 Lord." Remember her example, her in- 
 structions, her kind counsels and her many 
 prayers for your salvation ; and let the re- 
 membrance of them lead to a renewed and 
 unreserved dedication of yourselves to God . 
 Follow her as she followed Christ, and the 
 separation between her and you will be 
 short — you will soon meet her in that bless- 
 ed world where the partings of death are 
 not known. We commend you to the gui- 
 dance and blessing of a covenant God, and 
 offer our fervent prayers that he may com- 
 fort you under your sorrows, and sanctify 
 them to you. 
 
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