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AIcDONELL, Autor of ''Our Strange Guest" ''Manita" etc. The lights wern out, the mass wa»» said, With hist prayers for the faithful dead, The altar was almost in gloom, The Abbey silent as a tomb, A lone lamp cast a feeble ray Where penitents were wont to pray. Tall clustered columns stood around, Like guardians watching holy ground; Above on each there seemed to frown A mitred image looking down. And monks in niches stood on high — With eyes upturned towards the sky ; And nuna with hands crossed o'er each bre<ast Anticipating heavenly rest ; And pictures of the attints stood where Oft- contrite sinners knelt in prayer, Invoking them to intercede And still for Adam's children plead. High o'er the altar could be seen The virgin's image most serene. And in her arms the Sacred Child With features exquisitely mild, And high o'er all, the Cross stood spread. The Saviour hanging on it dead ; Yet on His pallid face a ray Came floating from the fading day Ab if it there must ever stay, Though dimness might be spread around That halo o'er His head was found- In glorious sunlight He wa^ crowned. And though His Spirit t-Yok its flight That radiance meant— "I am the light. I nm the Sun o'er worlds to shine, I am the way, the Truth divine. Pardon through Me must be besought, By Me Salvation can be brought"— This is what the faithful taught. 'Twas" evening now, the ruddy sun Burnished the windows one by one, And as that orb's declining ray Within the Abbey found its way, llie altar seemed a blaae of light Which faded slowly ere 'twas night. Add after that the moon 'twould spem Would peer in with its gentle beam. When neither sun nor moon was near Light would flash from some starry sphere. E'en should black clouds make dark the night The little lamp still gave its light, As if 'twere meant that there should be Rays round the Cross which all might see — Celestial light eternally. • • • • How still the place ! No whispered voW, Or muttered prayer could be hoard now. There in the silent sanctuary Was seen no ardent devotee, Nor near each dim confessional None knelt who wished their sins to tell; Nor ling'ring in each silent aisle No one absolved was seen to smile ; Nor chosen one with placid face Staid ling'ring in the holy place ; No mourner sighing for relief. No widow pouring out her grief With hungry orphan by her side. Who once had been a father's pride ; No sad one loaded down with care Was heard to ask for pity there ; The sorrowful and the oppressed Came not to beg for peace or resti; Where crowds of worshippers had been No saint or sinner could be seen. 'Twas strange the temple now should be IVaert(»d by humanity ; Th) living sremed to shun the place Exp<)otIii(i( spirit.H to retrace Their steps airr.in to mother earth Wh.'Cd sib and shac^o had first their birth •1— And bow Le.cra the. altar here To drop a penitential tear, As if toma touls long passad away Mast beie letuin to weep and pray, Airl do tliH. jHUanee left umlone Before full pardon bid been won. And the lone cburcli was like the home To which some penitents would come To cast away all trace of pride Ere they could meet the sanctified. Now while the silence was profound— From far or near there came no sound — The lonely temple seemed the gate At which the fallen would await Their permit to a brighter state- And one might fancy that there stood Before the place a multitude Of spirltB waiting to be blest Ere they could enter heavenly rest. And near the Cross once more to bow To take a saint's eternal vow. Just then a moonbeam stole inside, Ah if a herald from above Had come to ope the portals wide, I'rged onward by celestial love. And then there came a fragrant breeze, Aii if fi'om angels in their flight, Down among roses, flowers and trees, To banish ev'ry shade of night ; For quick a flood of moonlight came. Like rays from Cherubs' glitt'ring wings. Or of the soft and subdued flame That rosy Dawn so gently brings, Or the mild light of parting day Which linger's with the sun's last ray Then soon the echo of a strain Of heavenly music from afar. Or concord from some distant star, Was heard like a melodious rain— The voice of clouds which had been near The precincts of some globe of bliss, Orantl harmony which all could hear- Not discord from a world like this. If ever music touched the heart. Or gave the eye a tender tear, 'Twas now it did its gentlest part Soothing the soul from ev'ry fear. The strain kei)t on, and nearer yet Mingled with it was heard a voice With silvery tone none could forget, One which would lull though not re- joice. At times the voice would seem quite nigh, And there was sadness in each tone. At other times 'twas as the sigh Of one forsaken and alone, Wa« it some spirit who had left For joys of earth its native skies, Then feeling as of bliss bereft Back to its airy mansion flies. But hark I The sounds are nearer still An organ's pleading now is felt, It', long low tones the bare aisles fill. Its softer notes tbe heart would melt. Then loud but safl, then low again, Then tremulous, and then in sobs. The organ, like a thing in pain. Gives minor music in its throbs ; Again its voice comes scft and low, And list'ning ones might think 'twould tell More than a mortal wished to know. At last came mingled with the strain Words which an angel might express Declaring worldly pleasures vain. While giving friends a last caress. The words were these — they softly fell As bidding all a last farewell "■ O earth on which my heart was se!t, I'm urged thy splendours to forget, And hopes which made thee look so bright, And prospects which should meet no blight- These, now, alas, seem lost in night, As fair things soon must pass away, Like fading light of waning day. " Farewell great world, adieu to one With whom 'twas bliss to be alone, Those who had onoe stood by my side Now say I am the Churches' bride, And must in sisterhood abide, If this is still to be my fate. For Death I gladly shall awnit.' Those words so simple told a tale. How human feeling his the power, O'er human hearts still to prevail, In light or shade from hour to hour. And pious vows may oftert seem But compacts of a transient dream. To those who feel they are too strict And with their happiness conflict. The song was not a holy hymn Though sung in church by one alone— A chant by one whoso hopes were dim Whose voice had sadness in each tone. The organ ceased, and then a sigh, A long breath from a bursting heart, — 2- tone les, •6tiU )bs. Just like a with'ring blast flew by, Or rushing of a fatal dart. As silence came again, there stood A female form in garh of glo.ttii, Looking down on t'le solitude Like one who gazed at a tomb Which hides forever from the view All that the heart could truly love. Around which tend'rest feelings grew And all for which affection strove. She stood awhile and then bent down Perhaps to weep, or ple^Bid, or pray, That soon might come a martyr's crown. And all her sorrow pass away. Some only will rejoice and sing When skies a:e bright and hearts are While some, in their last suffering, Sing dirge-like strains, soft, low, and sad, Aa certain birds that ever sigh Their sweetest notes just ere they die; ' rwa,s thus with her who just had Bung, Sue willingly would yield her breath And let the music of her tonguu Sound like a last prayer before death. Her life was lonely, she would leave Hope, love and joy, all else behind Yet oft like others she would grieve To shun bright rays though they might blind. A sister of the church had won From her consent to make a vow To aid the Faith and be a nun. Therefore to destiny must bow. She thoughtlessly the promise made And Nature's impulses betrayed. For she had loved, that love ne'er ceased— Her heart was fondly still the same. The one she loved became a Priest Rather than have her suffer shame By broken vow, or public blame. So new it was that here by night. While others slept, she came alone— The organ was her great delight- Rehearsing as it were each tone She might sing near the heavenly throne, And those who chanced to hear the strain Might think that some departing soul A{ pealed once mure to heaven again To ij'4 rt stored and be made ^hole , And tinuencies to sin control. The midaighb came, that lonely iioiir When some say spirits have the power A^ain to visit this sad earth And see the places of their birth, xVnd watch the kindred or the foes They loved or scorned ere last repo.se. And think of frailties or misdeeds, Or cruelties from clash of creeds ; Of hate, or anger which arise From seeing not with others' eyes ; Or they may stand by their own tomb Where grass is green or wild flow'rs bloom, Lijueath which their worn bodies rest After this earth-life's stormy test; Perhaps to think how vain that life With all its struggles, care and strife; Jiike those who oft return to see The spots still dear to memory. But vho are these at this late time That here before the altar stand ? The bells have struck the midnight chime As if to call some angel band To witness a religious act. Some ceremony strict and pure. Showing the. Church knows ev'ry fact To prove its teaching shall endure, Keeping each sacred truth secure. Two priests are kneeling side by side. They seem engaged in solemn prayer. They may be asking that a guide Shall keep them under heavenly care While they for a blest home prepare — The promised mansion bright and fair. Then one aro£.e, his hair was white. His age was over four score years. The other boyish, fair and slight, With calm eyes, now suffused with tears, The older priest was called " The Dean," His lengthened days might soon bring rest. For life's viscissitudes had been To him, like others, a sad test ; For wav'ring faitii, and dark'ning doubt. And human hopes, and mental pride Conflicted oft with thoughts devout. Like tempters standing at his side. He spoke and said, "O Child, O Son— But pastor now to guide a flock— A Priest !— to-day you were made one. At which Irreverence might mock; To call you ' Father,' some 'twill shock To think that n:\ ■ in y.^ats so young -3- should be endowed with gifts to teachF* And have an apostolic tongue ■■< With power to pardon and to preach, And teJ your seniors how to pray. And lead them on the heavenly way. I heaxd your ordination vow And; all the prayers for you then said and saw ihu C(jij«,iegatiou bow When hands were laid upon your head, And when the Bisnop said, "Gro out And teach the truth in ev'ry land." One then might fancy saints would shout At the espiscopal command. Oh, dreary is th«; road you take, I've passed along it many a year, Al' worldly pleasures you forsake. For though attractive they appear Most find them but a glist''ning, tear. i \ i He paused, and then the young priest sighed. Sighed as if with a bursting heart. To forfeit life with all its pride This was to be his future part Like one who standi mid garden flow'rs Breathing their fragrance pure and chaste. But doomed to spend his future hours Within some solitary waste. He felt how sad would be the change— A feeling which had come too late-- He stood in gloom, bow cold and strange. Surprised to think this w*as his fate. !• . . ■ li ; ; ; 1 i|i V The Dean once more the youth ad- dressed, " I have a burden on my soul To you alone 'twill be confessed To you, as priest, I'll tell the whole. As yet no penitent you've heard Nor listened to a sinner's tale, Now, as a pastor, be prepared To hear the sin of one so frail ; For though I am a priest and dean— In Holy Orders I rank high— I feiel that I am still unclean And must have pardon ere I die. Soon, soon my fleeting life shall close, I wish to find a calm repose. And wish to have a conscience clear Ere from this life I (disappear. Oft I've confessed but ne'er revealed One sin, alas, one blighting blot, A fault which I have long concealed A frailty, an accusing spot Which I have never yet forgot— But ere I enter the dark grave Full absolution I shall crave." He bent his bead and said a prayer, And his confessor 4id the same,. Both for confession (did prepare — Young Father Gabriel blushed with shame To see the old Dean to him kneel In penitential attitude. And hear what he would now reveal, Seeking through him beatitude— For though long thought a bright church meteor. The Dean said humbly the Confiteor.. • * * * " O reverend pastor, as you know. They call me Father Ambrose here. On all my blessing I bestow, And gladly wipe away each tear. And wiish the world had more of bliss Thau man has ever found in this. When I wae in my youthful prime I scarce gave heed to passing time. But lived as if each coming day ■ More beautiful would fade away. That every hour I had to spend Would bring fresh pleasures without end. Memento came bursting up like flow'rs That formed the canopy of bow'rs Near which I would delig(ht to stray, Siriji{i,g Hom.! cheerful roundelay; Life see me it a garden of delight — Roses by day, and stars by night. With soli lovv- winds and fragrant air. And bluuhing beauty everywhere ; And trees and hills, and murmuring streams. Kissed ty sui 'a rays, and mild moon- beams. Led me to thiJik that earth was all That man a paradise might call. Indeed 'twas so lik« heiaven to me. No heaven I thought could fairer be, Nor would I care for one more bright Or beautiful to mortal sight. Of angels I'd been often told Who could their glittering wings un- fold. And from aerial heights descend To be man's gentle guide and friend ; To wa^rn of evil in the way. And be a guardian night and day. Oh how I wished that one of these Would steal near me from 'mong the trees, . , —4- Alighting in the pleasant grove Where oftentimes I loved to rove. And fancy some bright creature nigh, Whose smil.' could chase away a sigh Ere homeward to the skies 'twould fly. One day— that day I'll ne'er forget— I thought I had an angel met. 1 was alone and in a bow'r Where oft 1 sat at sunset hour, Thinking, as I had times before, Of what my future had in store, And as upon such thoughts I dwelt A lovely creature outside knelt To pluck a rose— then in her hair She placed it with a modest air, Au if it might with her compare. Like passing radiance she came near, Which caused a momentary fear, Lest she should see me and take flight, Leaving the day almost like night, Hut soon I saw she had no wings — She sung — the sound came as if strings Of harp were struck at distance far. Faint as an echo from some star. Or like the musio, it is said, Cherubs oft make as day has fled, Heady to greet the rising ray Of gentle Luna on her way. Her head was splendid, and her eyes Ulue as the clear celestial skies ; Her face and form were wondrous fair, iiike sunbeams hung her auburn hair ; Her look and smile were so serene .Just as if she were Beauty's queen; She scarcely looked a thing of earth- More like, perhaps, of heavenly birth. This was at first my transient thought Which "wond'ring fancy quickly brought. How foolish now the impulse seeniR, An<l how extravagant the dreams Which led me then to think I hat she Was more than mortal e're could be — This at the time I did believe — My senses scarcely could deceive. She seemed so beautiful and bright, And radiant as if formed by light. Who if not quite an angel, all. Was one of those who ne'er could fall. E'en of the kind, saints might assert, More fit for heavon than for earth- She passed— I could not stay behind, To olher objects I was blind. So sudden was her image pressed Upon my heart, I could not rest, That when she moved from out my sight 'Twould bring deep gloom, the flowers might blight. And the fair bovver I oft would seek Might look, when she Was gone, so bleak. m * * * Such were my feeling^ as I left To follow her — aimoet bereft Of prudent thought — at last she stop- ped In a fair garden and she dropped Her kerchief as sh", went along — Then, with a su.i(l:>n impulse strong, I quickly snatched it from the ground And hurried to her with a bound. And Oh, what bliss, when at her side 1 offered it with happy pride. She took it ius if 'twere a gift. Her eyes to mine she scarce did lift But smiled and thanked me with sueh grace And blushed while I gazed at her face. If then from Imaven an angel came, And called me fondly by my name. To have me look away from her, I could not from her presence stir. Ah me, I scarcely know the way I spent an hour with her that day- Moments like sparks from the sun's ray— Nor can I yet remember how I spoke to give my parting bow. I left as if I had left light To ijieet th'> gloom of sudden night." We parted but to meet again. To keep from her I tried in vain. She chided not, but ever grew More pleased at ev'ry interview. 1 met her day by flay for weeks — (Wheii trua Jo. a comes it ever speaks) We to each other vows did plight, To be kept till eternal night. I was a student, this she knew, — My mother h.ul th:'. church in view. She prayed lor uio and never ceased To dedicate me as a priest ; I, as her firpt born child, must be Her free gift to tha Trinity. Sh(; was an ardent devotee, For allar service therefore trained, All priestly duliv-s were explained, Still the.s ', gfave ni" the least concern, I was quite willing all to learn, Nor thought that they would interfere With joys that make one hivppy here. To make my parent more content Most cheerfully I underwent Whatever courses were thought best, To fa.sti, or pray, or work, or rest ; Each ceremonial was to me Nought but a /quaint formality. -s- I heard of martyrs and of saints, Of heresy and its foul taints, Of Pope, and Church, being so supremo Other's pretentions but a dream ; Yet trilling all these things did seem. In truth I gave no serious thought Ab to what priest liood meant or brought, I was quite willing just to be Whate'er my mother chose for me, Alas, reserving ne'er to part Willi her who heid my soul and heart Though she was of another ci'eed She trusted me in word and deed. For her, 'gainst all I would have striv- en,. For her I'd forfeit earth or heaven ; For her I'd leave all else beside — Ella was pledged to be my bride. O, what blest dreams I had that time. My future looked almost sublime. With every hour fresh beauty came — Moments like sparks of heavenly flame. Uainbo.vs by liay, moonbeams by night, lirighc !•• urs felicitous in flight. Where'er 1 v c n' the skies were blue, Ijike Ella's eyes, so soft and true. The world seemed fair and without guile Like flow'ra, or more like Ella's smile, And music bade my heart rejoice, As Ella's song, or Ella's voice. Oft as we wandered side by side 1 felt the ecstacy of pride, The beauteous earth waa then to me A region of felicity; The air she breathecl could me entice — Fragnint like that of Paradise. Yet strange, dear Ella- never knew My mother's wish nor her intent — That priesthoo<l was for me in view, Or for that purpose months were spenti Of this to Ella I ne'er spoke. In me she had such boundless trust. That not a doubtful thought awoke To fancy I could be unjust. And, still more strange, I felt quite free. While thus boing for the altar trained, Never to dream celibacy Could my intention have restraine.d. I strove to think 'twas a mere vow Which might be kept or cast aside — A dispensation might allow A priest to live with his own bride— For priest^ lived so in former days Without reproach for wicked ways. No matter still, but come what may, I was determined that my life Should be lit by one blessed ray To shine when Ella wiJia my wife. Infatuated I might bev But my resolve must promptly tell That in a bond of purity With one fair angel I must dwell. Time (luickly passe<l, alas, how quick, My ordination day drew near. With thoughts of that my heprt grew sick, Of that bleak rite I had a fear. At times I seemed like one amazed- Days of unrest, night without sleep, Hrooding and doubting like one crazed Iteady to plead, or pray, or weep. Like some poor bird ascending high While lurking storms were in the air I looked up at the distant sky But saw black clouds were gathering there. I must act B(K)n, nor longer wait, Ntot mine alone, but Ella's fate. Depended on my prompt resolve That nought our compact should dis- solve — What happiness it might involve. Now to succeed I must defy All plana and on myself rely, By list'nlng to e.-ich sage advice I'd lose all chance of paradise. Nor ever enter that retreat Where only kindred spirits meet. To choose the church, with rays so bright, I'd lose the star that gladdened night; That star of Hope ii;o me so dear — What gloom if it should disappeap Why banish from Life's clouded way The light th.at cheered by night or day— For Ella's love was thsit l)lest ray. One placid eve — 'twas some saints' feast. Many from work and laooi* ceased. We met and visited the bow'r Where we had oft a pleasant hour, T lie re vv>' agreed next day to be Ifnited— but most privately, A rev'rend Protestant v>'Ould do To keep this from my parents' view — I dreaded to be called "untrue," I gave her reasons this to show That but few trusted friends should know That we hdd married— had I said _6- My mother would not have mc wed; IPTf that the Church might interferji, Ellu perhaps might have .i tear That there wiia some inysterioas bar Conjugal happiness to mir. Yet if a doubt she chanced to raise I'd ]'v\jfi',i, uti.'. only gain her praise. However, she did not object, Nor for a m<-)fnent once suspect That I could any way deceive Or say whtt she could not believe. She felt assured that I was free With her forever more to be. The next day came — what bliss or woe It brought, a few wordd more will show, ' We married, and, oh halcyon hours, Oh days of sunshine and of fl.nv'rs ! No happier time vt^as ever spent By man beneath God's firmament— To purchase heaven or paradifie Were cheaply bought at such a price. If ever angel came to dwell With erring man I felt the spell Which Ella cast around my life Since I could claim her as my wife. The earth seemed changed ard all was now. Beauteous aa ever met my view. Days, each a nev.- star in life's sky, Dawned as if ne'er to fade or die. Hours came like flashes from the wings Of Love in its bright wanderings. At morn, or noon, or eve, or night Some fresh joy came, some new de- light. My tiusting mother still believed I in the seminary lived In preparations 1 must make Ere I ecclesial vow should take, Yet .still, unknown to her, I dwelt With Ella in most blest content, Ntor did the future bear in sight A cloud to .shadnw my delight. 'Twas mo.stly .sunshine round our w.iy. Moonbeams by night with starry ray. If rj'in, then soon would come in view Some rainbow with each beauteous hue. We seemed to live like garden flow'ra Happy 'neath sunlight or 'neath show'rs. A few months passed, then shadows . came, I felt like one condemned to .shame, I trembled a.4 the day drew near When as a priedt I should appear. Oh, what a shock 'twould be t3 her— Ella a startled sufferer — Doomed by my act to lead a life Not as a widow or a wife, Hut one for.sakeri without citu.se, Divorced as by the Church's laws, The part 1 acted seemed insane,. I locked for hopi>, but looked in vain, While she— des'^r ted— whit a late And what remjbrse must mi await. I might escapi'- 1 lu n wiiy not flee \nd rush from such a destiny. But I felt sure as I drew bie.iih To lice would cau.se my mothers death. Take either eourse, cliouse which I may. Disaster lurked around my way ; The flower 1 loved, when thai storm spread. Must fade and drobp its beateous he. id. Poor Ella, constant to the l!.st. Would shrink and wither in the blast. My mother pressefi — i w I away, l''or close was now the fateful day When in the church I must appear And leave the one to me .so dear. I made excuse, bade her adieu — She knew not what 1 had in view. I told her I might soon return, That ,s.oe should not my absence mourn. She wept, and when I s«iw her tears, Then came despondency and fears. I felt like one who leaves the light To be engulphed in sullen night. And, oh, what agony to part With her ^vho had my soul and heart. My hopes of happiness seemed fled, Ab if she lay before me dead. I was ordained, and then I stood In church among the multitude. Ere hands were laid upon my head My priestly 'vows I sadly said, I wore the vestments like a pall. And trembled fearing I should fall. The organ sent a mournful sound. While muttered prayers were heard around. And my chilled heart felt as if dead — I scarcely heard the words then sai<l. The lights, th- sunshine, and the glare. Seemed like accusing spirits there. When all was o'er, and I a priest, I felt that I 'mong all was least. The least in manhood, least in power. Else why have brought this evil hour. Else why have blighted one pure life And bring such hopeless care and strife. 'Twas then I wished that friendly Death -7- Would still my pulse and stop my breath. I stoorl ag.'iin, looked a", if dazed Uncertain whore I was— amu.zed. I heard the sounding bells outside, Which many listened to with pride, And heard, 'Dominus vobis cum' — My tongue v,-as parched, and I wat dnmL, I could noL to these word:! resijond, JM.v niinl wuh far from Ihere — beyoml The c'huich iud dedicating scene,' r?uL in that bovver where oft Id Ijeej^i With hti— Alas, .sh;' \v;is not theri. And ih. ■• my eyes elosi'.d in despair, ! cried with feeling ominous Oh Miserere ia?A 13l?us.' '.''hen cam! my mother with delight She ki.ss'^d nie, but I lost my night, I fell and f;«int;Ml in her arm. Nor heard aught of tlu! quick alarms. The bishop and lb; priests fell dread That my frail spiiit must have fled. To the Sacristy I vvaa borne. And of my alb and vestments f:horn, 1 soon revived — How like a dream My ordination act did seem, i The clergy in resplendent guise Like apparitions met my eyes Was I in heaven ?— But where was hIk;, My angel, my divinity ? Wnre I in Eden — she not lluue I'd leave to seek for her elsewhere. With my dim Si'.as' I would have strlv'n To say that wheie she dwelt was heuv'n. Then afte." this I pensive lay In fcv'rish stupor day by day. While oft awake by lonely night. Longing for hnr lo greet my sight, I felt bowed by oppressive thought That I such sorrow should hav»> brought. As if it wantonly I sought My mother , aided by a nun. My injured hi^alth buck slowly won. Oft, w^hile recov'ring, sat outside Feeling remorse — not priestly pride, And Ibinking sadly now of all That to dear EU'i might befall; Thiiikinf? how T mipflit e^trifcate 'I'hat loved one from a haple..3 fate. Am thus I thought, one <iay thore came A messenger— T knew her name. She placed a letter in my hand, And left ere I could words command. 'Twas Ella's writing— 1> en a chill (yame quick beforo I had the will To read a Tine of what she sent For I felt humbled, penitent— And would have years in penance spent, Some one at my ordination Wrote and gave her a relation Of all that in the church took place When I my pledges did efface. How, with affected pious look, I macie the vow, and kissed the book. And i^v.'ore I ever would obey My ;).i stly rulers ev'ry v/ay. Of ht ,v f left a faithful spouse. And gave the church uio-jt sacred vows, Resiguing her lo take a place 'Mong priests dispensing heav'nly grace. I pau.-od and at the letter gazed Like one in doubt— almost amazed; With tit mbling hand at last I broke The seal, and to my state awoke— A blow came like a mortal stroL:. I broke the seal and sadly road Words, like words coming from the a^ad, Just w>it ien ere thi*- spirit fled. A few short verses, each a spell. As if each struck a parting knell, Like 5ome deep solemn sounding bell, Sounding a long, a last farewell. " 'Tie close of day, alone I stand, jjooking at c'iffs and mouiit.iins grand. And gazing out upon the sea, Which seems so like eternity; And in the distance I espy A faint star glim'ring in the sky I gaxo alone— thou art not nigh. 'VMone I am— but whore art thou Who won my heart by many a vow. For oft as tliou wert by my side T looked on thee as my heart's pride. AVhere art thou now? — Alas I see Thoa'rt minist'ring Faith's mysto-y Forc;^^tf-il of thy faith to m:\ 'T sh:\ll not stny thy course- remain, jJroi'th'- nrayers— oft thou wilt pray in r,". in, ir vhou r 'nst worship at a shrine Which iy not human, though d vino, T still must act a human part, (for T have but a woman's heart- Oh that thine were its counterpart! —8— "Fade day, fade ILglit, fade my dull sense, Shadows any bring me recompense. I would forget and v/elcome gloom, Even suggestive of tha tomb, While thou art in the midst of light My wearied spirit may take flight- It will— "arewell, a last good night." • • • • And this was all — O God what woe I Each word 1 read seemtjd like a blow, One which I felt 1 had deserved - No fiend could have been better served. I tried to rush out from tha place My wronged, my patient wife to trace, Alas, I scarce could move— I knelt. Vowed yet to find out where she dwelt, Nor church, nor Pope, should hinder me, On my head be the infamy, My heart 'gainst discipline was steeled. To no authority I'd yield. I could not blame the church, 'twas I Who law and rule first did defy. With madden'd brain I almost cursed, And priestly bonds I would have burst To join the one I loved the most, I sought for her — 'twas labor lost, No trace of her could then ba found. Though search was made far, far, around, Yet oft I m?et hpr in my dreams, But then so spirit-like she seems That near her I cannot approach, Timid lest sha should me reproach. Yet ihri. dear xp'rit seems to live, And smileB as if she could forgive For once I tiiought I heard her sing A soft chide at my wandering— A tender, touching reprimand. blessed shade I could we but meet I'd bow and worship at thy feet, 1 still have hope when this life's o'er > To meet her and-prirt no more; — ^ Ah, many years have passed away Since that sad hour, that fntal day, When Ella, shedding tender tears, Sighed with premonitary fears; For even then I scarce could think Of our last parting 'twtas the brink, And thai I ne'er again should see That angel form so dear to me. She, lett alone, used uo device Back from the church me to entice, But made a grand self-sacrifice. EmbarratMS me tshe would not do. But I waB let my course pursue, " With sorrow deep I now confess How could I rest ? Nor night nor day, That course brought me no happiness. From out my mind was she away, Her image in my heart shall rest Till Death its latest pulse shall test. "Time has sped on, of late I heard News of tha lost one which I feared Fci many years, almost alone, 'Mong strajigers she lived little known, She had. not wealth, but yet was free From want by fair economy. She had a daughter— her delight, (May sh3 still live to glad my sight,) She trained her, as a mother should, And did for her all that she could — A comfort in their solitude. Yet Ella's life was one of grief, Her earthly happiness was brief— A clouded mind brought har relief, V\'ben once her sturdy reason fled She spoke of me as one long dead, As if my life was all that m.ide Life dear to her I had b.'t rayed. And spoke of me in tend'rast strain How I htjd never caused her pain But was in heav'n, where I should be Awaiting her most anxiously. At timsft she restless soon became An-l pi >a<lingly would oall my name. And beg that I, at evening hour, W?jul:l incut her in that favorite bow'r Wiei J o'c we met in days long past, In bliss toc' exquisite to last. ■ Sad soul, she mov'd from placa to place, VVand'ring at times with pleading face. Struggling with memory to trace Some vision of fcer early years. Then failing,' she would burst in cears, Iler daughter Agnes, fondly true. Did for her all a child could do. Yet still 'twiis on her stricken mind. That somewhere onward she could find Me,, who had brought her to that stat '!— One who hud doomed her such a fate. She further to a convent went And time in search of me she at>ent, Wearied at last her search must cease — Her mind got clear ere her release, She named my name before decease, Then in that convent died in peace. "O God, If on her distant ^rave I could but kneel and paruon crave*: And ease my mind of doubt and fears, -9- By dropping penitential tears Upon her sacred place of rest I'd wajider far to give this test Which struck her like a javelin, Ellci, in thy blest retreat May we at last together meet ! •'Her bereaved child alone was left. But not of sympathy bereft. The gentle nuns the orphan took And shielded Agnes thus forsook, They soothed her grief, and gave her hope, / Nor let her sorrow ha-ve full scope: And taught and trained her as they bould, Most suitably for womanhood. Then after this, in course of time. Impressed, her with their fa.ith sub- lime, Induced to join their sisterhood, She did so out of gratitude; And I've been told that to this day She is inclined with them to stay In that lone convent far away; For she long heard that 1 was dead. And masbeti for my soul were said. Her prayers for me have never ceased— She never knew I was a priest. She might come here my grave to seek — Of that I scarcely need to speak, But should I find her dwellina place ' She'll gc^t a father's fond embrace; Oh, may I live that diay to see. Then from this world I'd gladly flee.. "After I left my stricken wife. She moved afar to cause no strife, When I no trace of her jcould find. Being most unhappy in my mindj 1 was removed from my first charge And sent ambassador at large. To greet her soon I shall [wepare. This was my wish, and, by commandi I lived in many a foreign land. Doing such duties as I could In cities or in solitudes. And only lately I've returned (To meet my child my heart haa burned). For God I think will grant my prayer. To greet her soon I shall prepare Soon as 1 clasp her to my breast I'd leave for my eternal rest. Nor wish to stay a moment more. As my affliotions have been sore^i Gladly I'd seek that last repjso. To be released from human woes." This is the sin I would confess. O rev'rend priest, absolve and bless. The young priest mused and thought awhile. Then gently, with a pitying smile Said, " Father, you've had sorrow- deep. And for your failings I could weep. Your case is rare and deeply said. Of your repentance heav'n is glad. God, who is ever true and just. Will give you pardon — and 1 must. Hard has been your retribution. Now I give yo/U absolution. Fervent, and then, with hands out- spread, "Signo te signo crucis," said. And words to cheer the penitent — All that full absolution meant— The time by '^oth was wisely spent. Still Father Ambrose knelt and wept. Thinking of that sin so long kept. Thinking of how, for long, long years That sin had brought him grief and tears; That though the church might grief assuage. That sin still stood on mem'ry's page. Repentance has its power to bless. But never brings forgetful ness, The arrow which once pierced a heart. Though broken now, still caused a, smart. While crim3 may seek oblivion's wave, Wlrong is but hidden iu the grave." 'Twas late, the priests rose to retire. Each leaving with a strong desire That all should feel the church's power When prostrate in the dying hour. And prayed the saints to intercede For erring man in the hour of need. Oft it is said, and some believe. Spirits for wicked kindred grieve. While others say, they kno>v full well. The saved rejoice o'er those in Hell, Yet man5', shocked by such a thought. Say Purgatory is the lot Of th.jye not in a state of grace. Who die ere penance can efface Thf venial sins which brought disgrace, To God all sins must be alike. There souls for periods may remain Till they are cleans'd from ev'ry stain And cancelled truly every sin, Ere they can heav'nly life br^in. Yet some philQsophers assert f' — 10 — t- »t, rs Id ef fo. rt, a re, er d. 11. t. e, n f That all such thoughts have had their birth, In minds of egoistic men- Deluded visionaries when Claiming inspired tongue or pen. That their presumption is supreme, And immortality a dream. Some say such dreams bring more de- light ) > Than thoughts of an eternal night Far those who toil with care intense, In hopes of future reoomflpense, c Struggling in faith, when life is o'er, To' live whiere they miay weep no more. But liet ! There coines a heav'nly strain — The organ's tones soft, low and sweet. Like angel's whispers heard again, As if they would sad mortals greet. And then a voice distinct and clear In touching aym^thetic strain. As one to bring prophetic cheer. Made "Sursuna corda," it s refrain. '^"Lift up yours Iieartslin3~8eek a honfe. Where eotrow clouds noit day by day. Where disappointments never come. Nor happiness e'er fades away. Come where the weaxy are at rest. And troubles to the humble cease; Come where no creature is oppressed. And all from care shall find releasei Lift up your hearts and there fiml peace, Peace, peace, sweet, peace, eternal l)eace." » ^■ With glad ear Pathtu" Ambrose hoard The wards of that soft, soothing song, As if they were for him prepared To tell hisi stay should not bs long. Then overcome, he prayed and wept, And thought af her^onely grave ''^ Was cmong strangbrs" miere she slept, Where drooping willows o'er herwaye. Oft touching were the sighs they give. While thus he thought, there came in view A nun, she kuelt close by his ?ide— 'Twas she who from the organ drew The strains which filled the temple wide, Though late the hour, she now wis seen Ga;eing upon the Dean's pale fac.», While with h?r vail sh™ tried to screen Her features in that hojy place. The two priests s'lw her with surprise .Vt Just like an apparition there. As if one came each to advise And fotr a better world prepare. At last she spoke, and with bowed head Addressed the venerable Dean, "O rever'nd Father, oft 'tis said That dreams are sent, and often mean, To bear a message from the dead, A vivid dream I've lately had, Though not the first, yet one most sad. And from its tendency infer You can be its interpreter," Then, with a lovely voice and sigh Said, "Years ago my parents died — My mother— tender was the tie; In her I took the fondeat pride, If ever saint was on this earth, And patient suffering the proof, She might b3 called a saint from birth, Her Botrrow came for my behoof; She died far from her native place. Beneath a convent's sacred roof. I never saw my father's face, We thought him dead— the nuns moatl kind. Cared for me, and their love I won. No orphan better friends could find, lime- fled, and I became a nuu— Soon to regret what I had done. The reason I need not explain, 'Tis one that ever may give pain. Then came these dreams, and I was told I should come here to this strange fold. To meet with you, as you could tell All of my father, you knew well. If aught of him you can relate. Oh tell m3 of his state — or fate, t,To se;^ you, a nd th an— so on a way / l_ tia vl ng I h u 9 "spote,"^ ^e"~raTseaner veil, The priests then started with sur- prise, Emotion they could not conceal, The Dean exclaimed— "There's Ella's eyes ! Great God, her face and form I see !- 'Tis her child Agnes— come embrace, I am thy father, come to me. Your mother in yourself I trace, Revealed is now the mystery." The trembling D<>an thought first with fear, As h«' looked on the black-draped form, That his dt-parted wife was near. The likenpss was so strong and clear — Her perfect self with feelings warm, ■ -II— ^ Then he excited grasped her hand, And kissed h?r cheeks ere she could move, With impulse ha could not command, Urged otn by strong paternal love, ^ And tenderest ties close interwove, '"'The young priest now gazed just like one Who me-'ting thus with her once loived, Found that his heart was not a stone, For its fast beating pulses proved The tender passion was not gone, Though uselessly that passion moved, Agnes embarrassed vainly tried To seem indifferent at the time, And curb the sense of maiden pride, She had ones hid felt in other days, When, with a love almost sublime, She sought to win the smile and praise, <Of him ishe here now recognized In priestly garb, as if disguised, She felt how fatal was the vow. Which held him bound as she was now — A bond to which they both must bow, •Some moments passed, a mutter'd prayer WaB heard, the old priest bant bis head, And with closed eyes seemed to pre- pare To meet, n dear beloved one dead, He spoke a name— "O Ella be 'With me once more in this last hour," He smiled us if felicity Came to him with oblivious power. Patiently waiting his release. He i)owed and smiled as if at peace, ■ Just then thi Dean relaxed his hold Of Agnes' hand, and backward fell, She screamed, she saw his look grow cold. With death- like symptoms she knew well. Her father's spirit passed away. As deep tolled the cathedral bell Just at the dawning of the day; Those praying heard the solemn knell; But why it then tollea none could tell. There is a resting place afar. Where oft is s?v?n l>y solemn night. The rays of the fair evening star. Mingled with moonbeams softly bright Shining upon a lonely tomb. Beneath which two sleep side bj' side, By day sweet flow'ra around it bloom, And many pilgrims seek that spot Where Father Ambrose rests in peace. And pray that it may be their lot. As years pass on, and cares increase. Like him to have their troubles cease. Still D,ft is seen with brow of care Poor Agnes by that grave in prayer; And roses oft are scattered round On Father Gabriel's holy ground. ^ ^ — la— 111. 111; III.