wwww wTtmiiiMiii ; — V *♦ >, , .«^- T< ^ .If ' ^^ '^ # 'V -a ■^' .ft,.t i '. '* /• 1 pam tbeii fores plaii ^ «nd and Perl decc eartl , poor aboi was But was .. bein ' hrnfi the I of ( from hear It pooi ever then frien %, whi( %/%. .* '7 . "I ,i.*»-^ 7-')': ' * ' I- ..-/*„ i; <), .^ THE MISSIONARY. ^•j!^ ten » '-t • 1 * "ft ¥ It is not my intention to deicend to particulars in this pamphlet, any farther, than to notice the origin of my life, lor the purpose of giving the youth a transient view between their condition and mine ; or those poor children cf the forest, who have had taken from them their once delightful plains, and homes of their peaceful habitations ; their fathers 4' end mothen torn from their dwellings, and they left to mourn, and drop a tear, and die, over the ruins of their ancient sires. Perhaps you may ask, why is thb ? I answer, because of i deception and power, assisted with the fiery waters of the earth — ^Rum. Such, my young friends, was the case of this poor self-taught Indian youth, whose experience you are "^ «bout to read. <^ My parentage, according to the custom of the country, was none of the least — being the descendant of a Chief. But this availed notbinj; with me ; the land of my fathers was gone ; and their characters were not known^ as human \'.'^. beings; but as beasts of prey. We were represented as '*' *• having no souls to save, or to lose ; but as partridges upon « the mountains. Thus you see, we had to bear all this tide of degradation ; while prejudice stung every white man, from the oldest to the youngest, to the very centre of the « heart. It was thought no crime for old and young, to hiss at the poor Indians, who had met with great misfortunes, and lost every thing they had, by those very persons who despised them ; yiea, look which way they vvould, they could see no * friends, nor even hear a pleasant sound from the lips of tfaf white. Yea, there was but little help for thdm. #■■« ■■%■ ^TV ♦ * ,-.:#' ■ *^ ■ '• * ♦.♦' ■> *, ■■ , - * ' , \ • » ',:>■*. v"' % t -t %■' ' u' : ■' -* - * fc- - \-. M, - « . .-. ' ~: -.. 4 t. (#.^ ?■ ) i :/• -r: ■■ -f- ^ T»^fai I ■%, »i:. vi m II When you read this, ask yourselves if ever you had such trials ? If not, begin now to prize your privileges, and show pity to those whose fates are wretched and cruel. I shall now enter more fully, upon my experience in childhood. It will be well to speak to the point ; I shall make but few remarks here, as I intend publishing, should the Lord spare my life, a book of 300 pages, Idiuo. in size ; and there, the reader will find partksulars respecting my life. My parents were of the same disposition of the Indians ; that is, to wander to and fro. And although my father was Eartly white, yet he had so much of the native blood, that e fashioned after them in travelling from river to river, and from mountain to mountain, and plain to plain, on their journey. I was born at Colerain, Massachusetts, A. D. 1798, on the 30th day of January. We lived here but a few months, and then removed to Colchester, Connecticut, within about twelve miles of our native tribe ; and there to my sad mis- fortune, my father and mother parted ; I being at this time but a babe, being not more than three years old, and I saw my mf'ther's face no more for twenty years. I was then placed with my grand parents, on my mother's side ; who, my readers, were not the best people in the world : for thfrj ^ would at times drink New England Rum, and then I was^** ^ neglected. How awful it is to have parents who will drink spirituous liquors ! and by that, neglect their dear little chil- dren, and leave them to suffer. You will see how much I bad to sufier on the account of rum. During my stay with the old folks, our fare was hard, ^.;: there being five children of us, and our fare was about equal .^ as to earthly comforts. Sometimes we had something to ^ eat, and at other times, nothing. Many are the times in - which we have gone to bed supperless, to rest «our little weary limbs, stretched upon a bundle of straw ; and how thankful we were for this comfort ; and in the morning we were thankful to get a cold potato for our breakfast. We thought it good fare. There was a white man who lived about a mile off, and he would, at times, bring us some fro- zen milk, which for a time supplied the calls of nature. We suffered thus from the cold ; the calls of nature, as with J ■ . M-. . .... *?- ■».* % . * ^•., ., ■ •t '■■^i- ** » » *■ '- ■ -. - *■> i/: ■■*■ ■!^-*« tA r- » . .. jyp ;* %, ftlmost nakedness ; and calumojr heaped upon us by (he whites to an intense degree. Litde children, how thankful you ought to be that you are not in the same condition that we were ; that you have not a nation to hiss at you» merely because your skins are white. 1 am sure that I rejoice for you, that it is not the case. But to proceed : At a certain time when my grand- mother had been out among the whites, with her baskets and brooms, and had fomented iierself with the fiery waters of the earth, so that she had lost her reason and judgment, and in this fit of intoxication, raged most bitterly : and in the mean time fell to beating me most cruelly ; calling for whips, at the same time, of unnatural size, to beat me with ; and asking me at the same time, question after question, if 1 hated her ? And I would say yes, at every question ; and (he reason why, was, because I knew no other form of words. Thus I was beaten, until my poor little body was mangled, and m^ little arm broken into three pieces ; and in this hor- rible situation left for a while. And had it not been for an uncle of mine, who lived in the other part of the old hut, I think that she would liave finished my days ; but through the goodness of God, I was snatched from an untimely grave. 'V The white man will say, " What cruel creatures, to use children so ! If I could see that this blame was attached to the poor degraded Indians, I should not have one word to ' say. But when not a whit of it belongs to them, I have the more to say.'' My sufferings certainly were through the white man's measure ; for thoy most certainly brought spirit- uous liquors first among my people. For surely no such sufllerings were heard of, or known among our people, until that burning curse, and demon of despair came among us ; surely it came through the hands of the whites. Surely the red man had never sought to destroy one another as this bane of hell would ! And we little babes of the forest had to suffer much on its account. Oh, white man ! how can you account to God for this ? Are you not afraid that the children of the forest will rjise up in judgment and con- demn you? w-"' ; ^?» i| k' Little children, if you have parents that drink the fiery waters, do all you can, both by your tears and prayers, and 1 •»* ■ - ■• % » ?* *i». i \ i ' i .^,* — ^_ * *» Af 6 r,7 friendly admoqiiions, to persuade them to stop ; for it will ,' most certainly ruin them, if the^ persist in it. But to pro* ceed. 1 did not long continue m this situation ; but was re- lieved from it by my uncle making his complaint to the Selectmen of the town, who took up my case and placed me for a while among some of the white neighbor^, until I W4IS healed of my wounds ; although it was a year before 1 was able to help myself much, without aid. Being now about five or six years old, it was agreed u()on, that I should live with this white faiTiily, until 1 had arrived at the age of tweniy-ono. They being Baptist people, and having no children of their own, became more fond of me thnn a usual for people to be, of adopted children, and treated me with the utmost kindness ; and pailiculurly Mrs. Fainnon, who was very kind and generous. And as ihey had agreed to send me to school, accordingly, when I had arrived at the age of six years, they sent me to school. And this they continued to do for six successive winters, which was about all the education that 1 received. The amount of benefit which I have received from this, none can tell. To God be all the praise. Things began now to wear a different aspect ; and my lit- tle heart began again to be expanded, and I began to be in- quisitive about many things. At times, the children of God would assemble around me, to worship the 'Jreal Spirit; something new to me. Of course I listened with great at- tention. Their songs were sweet, and as the oil of joy no doubt was in their hearts to indite their petitions, to nerve their admonitions, to send home the word to the heails of those who heard it, doubtless made it the more interesting. And so it caught my youtlifid heart ; being a constant hearer of these things. And my mind became more knitted to- gether with them. And I would question Mrs. Fairmon re- specting these things. She would give me a great many good wholesome admonitions, and tell me. the young nmst die as well the old ; and often point me to the grave-yard, and cite me to small graves, and warn me to prepare to die. It would leave a powerful effect upon my mind, which was not easily efficed. I recollect the first time I visited a chapel for the worship of God. It being a new place, and lookiog #■ « ■JI|UII)P ■ to me, somewhat fine to the eye, I took great liberties, wu something hke a country clown passing through populous cities, staring all the while at those fine piles of buildings which he siiw ; or like a rabble of boys and girls going tn church lo hoar the Indlon preach ; something so indeed, and so much so, that I lost my balance of behaviour: and when i returned, I received a short address, accompanied with a handsome present, that I hnve not yet forgotten ; it weighed well with me, so that forever afterwards, I was enabled to keep my balance well. It would be well for heads of families to supply their children with such presents, when needed ; it would save the country from much dis- grace. But to proceed. When I was about eight years old, the preaching; of the gospel powerfully affectea my mind, altiinitgh I was ignorant of the plan of salvation, through Jesus Christ ; but I had no doubt but the word was spoken with divine authority, which not only drew tears of contrition' from vie, but from many others. But being small, and of little nolo in the world, no one supposed that 1 want- ed religion. In those days, the ngcd thought the youth were not sub> jecis of s;race ; such is the fact, although it may be surpris- ing to m;my ; so there was none to comfort the little Indian boy. flow different now ! Lord, help the youth who are exalted to heaven in point of privileij;es, so to prize them, that they might not be thrust down to hell. I would remark hero, that many rise up against this doo* trine; but why not rise up against, or in opposition to, the State Prison ? and house of correction ? and even the gal- lows itself; these are places to punish the people for their crimes. Some say, tbeir crimes are punished here ; indeed, this is a new doctrine. Whoever saw a crime in the State prison locked np to hard labor ; or whoevpr saw a crime hung up by the neck ? How absurd then to delineate such doc- trine. Crime is a crime, and stands for what it is, let scof- fers say what they will ; may grace be imparted to enlightea our eyes. But to return. For the pro6ting of the youth, I would speak a little further of the exercises of my mind. Although they could not believe that I wanted religion, yet the Spirit of the Lord followed me daily ; and m/ mind was 1 'V ' <eeting.s. But I can say this much about it : I be^ Keve it arose from sectarian bigots. Not that 1 could sup- !•,■■' .1 ■4t, il »' « 1^' « •^^ 'f ■p ..'•- 1*1 '■H' il *v. pose that ihey, (the Methodists,) were free from it ; but have 88,n?ifch as their neighbors ; and it is ihe case with ail sects^ that they are more or Jess bigoted. And if they are, they need not join with the devil's crew, to do all the hurt they can to otno another. This, to me, does not look much like religion. , Bui; thei work of God rolled on, like an overwhelming flood.. : Persecution seemed to cement the hearts of the brethren, and sisters together, and their songs were sweet. Their prayers and exl^ortations were like arrows sticking in the heart of their King's enemy ; while the preachers pour- e4 the; thunders of the , law upon them, as if God himself had spoken to them, as he did to the children of Israel from iVIount, Sinai, that they should fear and tremble at his word. rMy heart now became much troubledj and I felt deter-* miined to seek the salvation of my sotil, for their sayings did not aflectme much, (although tliey did not want me to at<» tend their meetings,) though I had neither respectability nor character to lose, but was like the partridge upon the moun- tain, a mark for them all to shoot at. '>>. But notwithstanding, sectarian nonsense raged most biitei^^ ly, and I do suppose that; they who could help it, would not be willing for their dogs to go there to mceiing, for fear of bringing disgrace upon themselves. I would to God that peoples were more consistent than they are. Judge ye, if this is right ; if not,' cease to do evil and learn to do well. Uu% as I had no character to lose, 1 became a constant at- tendant on these meetings ; and although a sinner bef()re God, yet I had no disposition to make sport of the people of God, or his word. < Why I mention this, is, because so tqaoy go on purpose to spi)rt with one another, and make de- rision of the people of God ; aiid those, too, who call them* selves gentlemen and ladies. iSuch, however, disgrace them-* selves, and a re^ in the judgment of good men, and their Maker, below the beasts of the (ield. Shame! shame! shame! to be so indecent, who boast of so much correct- ness and. purity I But, notwithstanding the people would be so bftdt yet the • *^ Lord had respect unto his people, and his ears were open, to the cries of liis servants, and his ears we|£opento tbeir,s^pp]ication:;'Vt>nd in answer to praver, thai on fyi. well the[ infil for mad the GonI call « "♦, * I'- ■ ( -..jf m ft- L_ ISM he was pleased to revive his viork ; the Holy Ghost moved upon (he ibce of the people ; and his children gathered strength at every meeting ; and were built up in the most holy faith, and soon the Holy Ghost fell powerfully among the people, so that the cries of the wounded were distinctly heard at every part of the house. The great Physician cf souls was present, to heal all that will come to him and seek his favor. Thus the work of God went on most powerful- ly ; so much so that Satan and his army retreated, at times, before it ; and then would gather around it like a thick cloud of darkness, and like the young lion, which had lost its mother, roaring to be answered. But the Lord assisted his servants to overcome them, through the word of his testimony. -^ 'n'k • '. V It was now tnat conviction settled upon my mind, more and more ; and I was more serious than usual. But being young, only about fourteen years of age, was somewhat fliglity 5 though when I considered how great a sinner I was before God, and how often I had grieved the good Spirit of the Lord, my distress for mercy was very great. • '^^ • At one of these meetings I was induced to laugh ; not be- cause I wanted to, but to hide my distress from those around me. Being among the young people, I did not wish for them to know it ; but such* was my seriousness, that it could not be hid, and I became affected, even unto tears, until they coursed down my cheeks like rain. And when the bold persecutors saw it, they inquired if I was one of the Lamb's people ? Brother Hill was at this time preaching from these words : " Behold the Lamb of God, who taketh away the sins of the world." He spoke feelingly of his (Christ's) sufferings on the cross ; of his precious blood, that flowed like a puri- fying river from his side ; of his sustaining the accumulated weight of the sins of the whole world ; and dying to satisfy the demands of justice, which could only be appeased by an infinite atonement. I felt convinced that Christ had died for all mankind ; that age, sect, color, country or situation, made no difference. I felt assured, that I was included in the plan of redemption, with all my brethren. No one can conceive with what joy I hailed this new doctrine, as it was called. It removed all my excuses, and I freely belieTfd, 2 ■y^:; ■'-.i € '•;^l w '•'y\ 14 j<^, «»'■ that all I had to do, was to look in faith upon the Lamb of God, who made himself a free-will offering for unregenerated and wicked souls, upon the cmss. My spirits were depress- ed ; my crimes were arrayed before me ; and no tongue can tell the anguish of soul I felt. After meeting, I returned home with a heavy heart, determined to seek the salvation of my soul. This night I slept but little ; at limes I would be melted down into tenderness and tears ; and then again, my heart would seem as hard as adamant. 1 was awfully tempted ; the evil one would try to persuade me that I was not in the pale of mercy. I fancied that evil spirits stood around my bed ; my condition was deplorable, and awful ; and I longed for day to break, as much as the tein pest-tossed mariner, who expected every moment to be waslied from the wreck he fondly clings to ; so it was with me, upon the wreck of the world, buffetted by Satan, assailed by the world ; some- times in despair, then believing against hope ; my heart at times, seemed almost broke, while the tears of contrition coursed down my cheeks like rain. ;. hUi * , . .'r But sin was the cause of all this, and no wonder ; I groan- ed and wept ; [ had often sinned, and my accumulated trans- gressions had piled themselves as a fbcky mountain upon my heart ; and how could I endure it ? The weight there- of seemed to crush me down ; in the night seasons, I had fearful visions, and would often start from my sleep, and gaze around the room, as I was ever in dread of seeing the evil one ready to carry me off. I continued in this frame of mind for more than seven weeks. My distress, finally, became so acute, that the family took notice of it ; some of them persecuted me, because I was seiious, and fond of tttending meetings. Now persecution raged on every hand, within and without ; and I had none to take me by the hand and say, '< Go with us and we will do thee good." But in the midst of difficulties, so great to one only tittle more than fourteen years of age, I ceased not to pray for the salvation of my soul ; very often my exercises were so great, that sleep departed from me. I was fearful that I should wake up in bell. And one night when I was in bed mourning, like the dove for her absent mate, 1 fell into a* doze. 1 -■j* *, m- ,^m^X'$ I m-- "%:. 15 -m/l thought I saw the world on fire ; it resembled n large bed of coals, red, and glowing with heat ; I shall never forget the impression it made upon my mind. No tongue can tell or possibly describe, the agony of my soul ; for now, 1 was greatly in fear of dropping into hell, that awful place, where the smoke of their torments ascendeth up forever and ever. I cried earnestly for mercy ; then i was carried to another place, where perfect happiness seemed to pervade every part, and the inhabitants thereof. O, how I longed to be among them and partake of their happiness. I sighed to be freed from pain and misery ; I knew that nothing but the attenuated thread of life kept me from sinking into the awful lake which 1 beheld. I cannot think it is in the power of human language to describe the feelings that rushed upon my mind at that moment, or thrilled through my veins ; every thing seemed to bear the signet of reality. When I awoke, I was glad to find it was a vision, and not a reality. I went on from day to day, with my head bowed down, seeking the Saviour of sinners, but without success. The heavens ap- peared to be brass ; my prayers wanted the wings of faith to waft them to the skies. The disease of my heart increas- ed ; the heavenly Physician had not stretched forth his hand and poured upon my soul the panacea of the gospel ; the scales had not fallen from my eyes ; and no ray of celestial light had dispelled the darkness that had gathered around my soul ; the cheering sound of sincere friendship fell not upon my ear. It seemed as if I was friendless, unpitied and un- known ; and at times, I wished to become a dweller in the wilderness. Who can wonder, then, that I wfls almost in despair, surrounded by difficulties and apparent dangers. But I was resolved to seek the salvation of my soul, with ail my heart ; to trust entirely to the Lord, and if T failed, to perish, pleading for mercy at the foot of the ti:tx}ne. I now hung all my, hopes upon the Redeemer ; and clung with in- doi,..ibable tenacity to the cross, on which he purchased sal- vation for my soul, "the vilest of the vile." The result was such as is always to be expected, when a lost and ruin- ed sinner throws himself entirely on the Lord — perfect fret" dotn. On the 15th day of March, in the year of our Lord. 1813, 1 heard a voice saying unto me, in soft anJ soothing :^ f,: I 4 ^ 'i'-i f "■wr^ 16 f accents, " Arise, thy sins that are many are all forgiven thee ; go in peace and sin no more.'^ There was nothing very singular, save that the Lord stooped to lift me up, in my conversion. ] had been sent into the garden to work, and while there, I lifted up my heart to God, when, all at once, my burden and fears left me ; my soul was filled with love ; love to God, and love to mankind. O how my poor heart swelled with joy ! and I would cry, " Glory to God in the highest." There was not only a change in my heart, but every thing around me. The scene was entirely changed ; the works of God praised hitn, and I saw in every thing that he had made, his glory shine. My love now embraced the whole human family ; the children of God, 1 loved most dearly. O, how I longed to be with them : and wiien any of them passed me, I would gaze at them until they were lost in the dis- tance. I could have pressed thetn to my bosom, as they were more precious to me than gold, and I was always loth to part with them whenever we met together. The change, too, was visible in my very countenance. 1 enjoyed great peace of mind, and that peace was like a river, full, deep and wide, and flowing continually. My mind was employed in contemplating the works of God, and in praising his holy name. I dwelt so particularly upon his mercy and good- ness, that I could praise him aloud ; even in my sleep, and when I awoke, it was glory to God and the Lamb, and my heart burnt continually with the love of God, Well might the poet say, "^ "O for such love, let rocks and hills ■ ' -:■.'. ,\. i ' Their lasting silence break; n'f' , ' , , , And all harmonious human tongues .^-.^ The Saviour's praises apeak." 1 continued in this happy frame of mind for some time ; it was very pleasant to live in the enjoyment of pure and un- defiled religion, and nought could I see, but seas of rest, and waves of glory before me. 1 wanted only the wings of angels, to waft me to paradise, that i might dwell around the throne of God forever. But alas ! I dwelt in a tent below, that held me fast and would not let me g'^ ; and here to resist the fiend, the Christian's foe — to war, and tug, ■ •If-- 'j 17 and (oil at the oar of prayer, lill time with me no more sliouid be ; and thsn, if faithful to mj Lord, with all the faithful saints should be. But here I can say, I had none to make me the object of their care ; to encourage me to press forward in the ways of doing well. But, on he other hand, persecution raged most bitterly, and soon 1 was deprived of that privilege that was near and dear to me : such as the privilege of class meet- ings, and other means of grace, that are usually among the Methodists ; and being young, I was again led astray. How hard it is to be robbed of all our earthly rights and deprived of the means of grace, merely because the skin is of a dif- ferent color ; such has been the case with us poor colored people. I would ask the white man, if he thinks that he can be justified in making just such a being as 1 am, or any other person in the world unhappy ; and although the white man finds so much fault because God has made us thus, yet if I have any vanity about it, I choose to remain as I am, and praise my Maker while I live, that Indians he has made. But again. The burden that was heaped upon me, at this time, was more than I could bear, being only about fif- teen yeai-s old, and I now began to relapse back again into my former state. I now became acquainted with wicked and silly youths, and one of them, whose name was J^Hneff and myself, agreed to try some other parts of the world. Children as we were, we made the best arrangements for our journey that we could ; and so off we started, and steer- ed our course for New York. With difficulties and fears, we arrived there. Many of the people thought that we were sailor boys, as we informed them that we had been privateer- ing, and had been taken and set on shore nfear New Lon- don,' and were going home to New York, to our parents ; and it being war time, we informed the people all we knew about it. When we had arrived at New York city, and al- most alone in the world, and but little economy to take care of ourselves, we thought best to engage in the war. So I became a musician in the army, while my comrade went on board of a privateer. ^ >^- We now parted, and I went with the soldiers to Canada, where I experienced all the horrors of war ; fought in the 2* *^ '-I I ■II f* 18 ereat battle of Lake Chaniplain, with General McComb, with Hampton nnd Wilkinson, at*the Mills. After the war was over, I went to Montreal, and from thence to Upper Canada, Fort Niagara ; from thence to Kingston, and through the wilderness, and saw many of my brethren who orna- mented the wood with their camps, and chaunted the wild beasts of prey with their songs. Being now satis6ed with these regions and their curiosities, I now began to think of home, and those kindred friends who had long before buried me beneath the sods of the forest ; being absent nearly five years. This journey was not instructing to the paths of virtue, but of vice. Though I did not forget the past, and often recollected those happy moments, and sighed on account of my condition, but had no heart to pray, no piou^ parents to instruct me, no minister of God's holy v;ord to notice me, and pour into my ear the blessed truths of God, but a poor destitute, helpless child of the forest, all alone in the world, as it were. I now made the best of my way home to my kindred in the flesh ; and when I arrived there, I found them surprised and rejoiced (o see me on this side of the grave. After a while, 1 became more steady, and. began once more to attend the worship of God ; and had a desire to return from my backslidiiit; state, to the worship of God, that I might enjoy his smiles again. For it was now that I had become wretched and miserable through the deceiifulness 'of sin, and bad examples of the white soldiers, and nothing but thick darkness gathered around me ; and apparently, my sit- uation was worse than before. It was now harder to seek the Lord than it was when I was young, for now my sins were redoubled ; and it appeared indeed that there was no mercy for me. And when I went to pray, and call upon God for mercy, I was met by the enemy of souls, who very readily thrusted a dart at me filled with a message of despair, that there was nothing but eternal death for me : that i had committed the unpardonable sin, by having sinned against the Holy Ghost, and it was all in vain for me to try again for help in God ; that he was sure that I should make up his host in hell. My distress became more acute than ever ; but I attended the meetings where God's children meet, and at iJA 19 last I made known m^ distress to tliein ; and they, the dear children of God, comtorted nie, by saying that Christ would have mercy upon the worst oi sinners, and encouraged me to pray ; and then prayed with and for me. 1 sought ihe Lord for weeks and months, and at last I began to see that I had received some of his divine appro- bation : to say that I immediately had as clear an evidence as I had before, I cannot. But when [ acknowledged my- self a sinner before the people, and confessed what a sinner 1 had been, then the light of God's countenance broke into my soul, and I felt a^ if I were on the wings of angels, and ready to leave this world. 1 united with the Methodists, and was baptized by immersion, and strove to walk with them in the way to heaven ; and can say, that I spent many happy hours with them in the worship of God ; and to this day, I most heartily rejoice that I was brought again from the dead to praise God. After a while, I began to exercise my gift in the way of prayer and exhortation, and was blest in so doing. I began to be exercised more abuntantly about the salvation cf precious souls, and began to haveadesire to call sinners to repentance in a public way ; and it appeared I could not rest in any other way ; but 1 knew that I was weak and ignorant as to the letter ; and not only so, I was already a hissing-stock, and a by-word in the world, merely because I was a child of the forest ; and to add any more occasion to the weak and scornful family of the whites, was more than 1 wished to do ; but -there was no peace for me, either by day or night. Go I must, and expose my ignorance to the world, and strive to preach, or exhort sinners to repentance. I soon found men like adders, with poison under their tongues, hissing around me ; and to this day, I find now and then one hissing at me. My trials again were many, and appa- rently more than I could bear ; but I entreated of God to show me my duty, and prated to him for a token of his grace, when I went to call sinners to repentance. The Lord heard my prayer, and sent down his awakening power, and convinced sinners of the error of their ways ; but I was too unbelieving ; believing that I was not the character that God should take to thresh the mountains of sin. The angel of the Lord appeared to me in the visions of the night, and " • I SO read some extracts of John's Gospel. It appeared that be- fore me there was a plain, and upon that, the sun shone de- lightfully ; but it was a difficult place for me to reach, being a dark and winding way, through mire, but I reached it ; here I was encouraged by the angel to persevere. It was now when I awoke, that i was troubled still the more ; and night and day it was preach, preach ; though many thought it would be a miracle for such an ignorant creature as I to preach the gospel. But it is a fact that 1 had a difficult road to travel, before I really got to preaching ; but I can say that I have seen the salvation of the Lora in so doing, and God has made me, the unworthiest of all his servants, the humble, happy instrument in bringing many to bow at his sceptre. To Him be all the glory forever. » - ' ' ' I would now say, that I have been a regular member in the Methodist Episcopal and Protestant Methodist Church, for about nine years ; in the Episcopal Protestant Church I was an exhorter for eighteen months. 1 left them in good standing, and with good credentials, April 11, 1829, and united with the Protestant Methodists, not because I had an^ thing very special against the former, any further than their government was not republican, as I then understood it« Their religion is as good as it ever was. I have been in the Protestant Church something like four years, as a preacher of the gospel ; and in that time have received holy orders as an authorized minister of Christ, to attend to the duties of a pastor ; and I am no sectarian whatever, but fellowship all Christians alike ; and boldly declare, that 1 have preach- ed for all that would open their doors ; and all sects have bid me welcome ; and this is as it should be, agreeable to the word of God, " Go ye into all the world apd preach the gospel to every creature." May God pour his Spirit upon them all, and all the world. Amen. :.: V -r'V; :■•■•• •^^■\ ^^^ '■•■^ '•'•''• WILLIAM APESS. .'■■;j. ■V, jr. * •,'/• . ,v .. • or ,f . THE MISSIONARY'S CONSORT. WRITTEN ^Y HERSELF. :iiV. ^: ) .,;, il';! 1 was born in Lyme, Conn. A. D. 1788, on the third day of January. My father was a descendant of one of the S|)an- ish Islands, or a native of Spain. My mother was an English woman, a descendant of the Woods family, of Lyme* My father died when I was small, and like all other fatherless children, I had to be placed out among strangers. My mother haying but little property, and not being able to sus- tain roe, being a poor child, this was done before I had arriv- ed at my sixth year, and among people, too, who neither feared God nor regarded man, but blasphemed their blessed Maker, and that too, with the gratest impunity. The woman was a proud and haughty person, and often raged most bitter- ly at me, and that too, for the most trivial things. I had no pious parents or guardians to teach me the paths of virtue ; I never recollect any serious impression made on my mind while I lived with these people, by their admonitions. One day it was suddenly suggested to my mind, that God saw me, and I was afraid to die. 1 was guilty before him, and I wished to find some place to hide from his presence ,: but, since I have found Jesus precious to my soul, I have regretted that 1 sought him not when I was young ; but I h^d none to lead me to the blessed fountain of holiness, where my sins might be washed away ; there was none that cared for my precious soul. .-v^'jit'i- ;'»;.: I ii'.i b.- • -'d '■-' I was now residing at Mr. D. Gillet*s, in Lyme ; being now about twelve years of age, and about this time a cir- cumstance happened that it was thought best that 1 should /■ ts Hi hi !« go home. I went home, and there stayed about two months as senseless to the reality of a future state, as the beasts of the field. And then I was again bound out to Mr. Aniel Ely, in Lyme, where 1 continued until I was ei(2;hteen yean of age. Mr. Ely was a member of the church. He used to say his praters every Saturday night and Sunday morning ; aAer a few tmies in attendance, I could say his prayer as well as he. I used to be at church on the Sabbatn, but Mr. Ely never told me I had a soul to save or to lose. I could not tell what I went to meeting for, unless it was to see and be seen, and learn fashions ; what the minister said, I understood not, nor did it affect my mind. Thus 1 went on, careless and prayerless for about two years. When I had advanced to fourteen years of age, there arrived in our neighborhood a Missionary, by the name of Bushnell. Be- fore I heard him preach, he paid m a visit, and hearing much about him, I was anxious to see him, but did not wish for him to see me. I was afraid of ministers and professors of religion ; I thought them a better people than others : but after tea, the missionary made his appearance to us in the room where the children were, and there he very affection- ately exhorted us all. This was the first time that I had ever been warned to seek the salvation of my soul. His worda sank deep on my mind ; I began to weep as sooA as he left me ; I went out, and for the first time I ever felt the need of praying or of a Saviour ; 1 knelt and poured out my soul to God, that he would have mercy upon me ; although I had never seen any bodv kneel, yet it was impressed on my mind that I must, and from that time I cried to God earnestly every da^, during some months. The missionary preached that Sabbath, and I attended all his meetings ; the word was with power to my heart ; I think he was the first man of God I ever heard preach. During his stay, he visited at our house several times, and would always admonish me : 1 was pleased to hear him, but dare not make known the exercises of my mind to him. Mr. Bushnell expiessed himself in such a way, that it had a pow- erful effect and made a lasting impression on my mind ; that was, when be saw me employed about my daily work here, he hoped that he should meet me in heaven. I felt myself pow- ; that here, myself 28 such a vile wretch, I could not see why he sljould spenk so to me, a poor sinner. But I was ignorant of the power of divine grace, that could fit me for that place. Whilst Mr. B. stayed, my impressions were deeper and deeper, and 1 was daily resolved to seek the lx)rH, ntul leave the vanities of the world behind ine. But he soon left the place, and when lie was gone, there wbh not one in the place that ever after- wards presented the subject to me, only in the way of deri- sion ; even the children would laugh at me, and lay that Mr. B. converted me. I had plenty of such aid from old and young. Mr. Ely, although a member of the churoii, never men- tioned the subject of religion to me while 1 lived with him. I pray God to have mercy upon all such church members. But through all the opposition and persecution I had, I strove to seek the salvation of my soul, and cry to God to help me; this I did for about six months, but I was tormented without and within. Mrs. Ely was a step-mother in the house, and very wicked, and withal a very great tyrant: sometimes she would get angry at the other children and beat me, and for the most trifling thing. She would say to me at times, when I was meditating upon death and judgment, that my head was full of the evil one, and so much so, that I could not attend to what she wanted me to. But this only griev- ed me, and I would sorrow and weep in secret places. Here I would remark how much little children have to un- dergo, who are fatherless and motherless in the world, and what was I but a child ; how much I wanted a tender, and aflfectionate, and pious mother to take me by the hand and instruct me, or some pious friend : how mucn good it would have done me ; but I had none but a wicked and an unho- ly tyrant to discourage me. But I leave her, as she has long sinct gone to a just God who will do right. Poor wo- man, she died as she lived, a poor and impenitent sinner. About this time the Methodists came into the neighborhood, and held meeting? about a mile oflf: .nere was every thing said about them but good. It was said that they had the devil among them, and I believed it, and would as soon so to the house of ill-fame, as I would to their meetines. This prejudk^e only ccme, however, by the bearing of the 1. -■-Sf ■ ■«. IV n ed t^e Holy Spirit again and again. I was afraid of perse- cution — not being willing to give up my good name, and bci 3 ^;-*; .i& *. 'Tv:^^ 26 come a follower of the meek and humble Jesus. Though conviction for sin did so powerfully sit upon me at times, I knew not what to do ;• yet when mv young mates came vhere I was, or I with them, I would join with them in their folly. O how hard it was to give them up, and the vanities of this life, for an interest in Christ Jesus. It is a wonder of mercy that he did not give me up to hardness of heart, and to a reprobate mind. ... i , , ,,, , :\ , , , ., .., I wanted religion in my own way, and had a wish to have it, and keep it to myself. I kept along in this way about a year. I recollect at a thanksgiving, while at home, my mother wished me to attend with her, on an evening visit to a neighbor's house ; but I felt very indifferent about go- ing ; but to please her, I gave my consent : but before we got to the house, we heard music and dancing : I wished to return and go no farther, for I knew that I had promised the Lord that I would not dance any more. I told my mother I did not wish to join them — but she insisted on my going, saying, that ' I was not obliged to dance ;' so I yield- ed, and went along ; and when we arrived there, 1 was very soon asked to dance, but I refused, with a determination not to : but my mother said that if she was young as Mary, she would. Hearing her say so, I thought if she would if she was able, surely it would be no hurt for me — so I went on to the floor, but not willingly ; and when I began to dance, it seemed as if the floor would sink. I felt a condemned sin- ner before God. However, I spent the evenipo- with them. I mention this to show how much parents may do in keeping their children from the kingdom of God : but my mother was irreligious, and I regret to this day, that I had no pious pa- rents or teachers to instruct me. But after all, it is a won- der that God did not take me out of the world, and send me to hell. After I had arrived at my twenty-fourth year, the Lord seemed to blast all my earthly joys and schemes by sickness and disappointments. I could see the hand of God in this ; but wb-t it could be for, I was not aware — but thought God was an§,.y with me, and I did not know what he was going to do with me. Surely he led me in a way I knew not. . At that time I was from home, nursing a sick womar rhough imes, I } came io their canities wonder r heart, to have about a ne, my visit to out go- (fore we ished to tromised told my i on my I yield- vas very ition not ary, she d if she jnt on to dance, it med sin- h them, keeping ther was lious pa- i a won- send me le Lord sickness in this ; ght God as going not. . woraar «7 One night after we had retired, I was reading a hymn — <* Come humble sinners, in whose breast ;" and when I had come to this verse— . '■' I '11 BO to Jesus, though my sin Hatn like a mountain rose ; f know his courts, I 'II enter in, Whatever may opposo." .''>'■ I here viewed Jesus in the flesh, while upon earth, going about doing good, and his followers with him — and sinners falling at his feet, crying for mercy — and Jesus saying, son, daughter, go in peace and sin no more ; for thy sins, which are many, are all forgiven thee. There was such a deep sense of my transgressions before me, that I had committed against a holy God, that I could hardly contain myself. I thought if he had been here, how gladly would I have fallen at his feet, uiid implored forgiveness at his hand. I can truly say I felt the need of mercy, but did not know how to obtain it : there was no one near me that prayed, and what to do I knew not. A thousand thoughts rushed through me as in a moment of time. I tiied to raise my heart to God, which seemed to quiet me a little ; was afraid io go to sleep, but some time in the night I fell into a doze, and when I awoke, it was impressed powerfully on my mind, that I must break off my sins, and go in secret to pray — but how to, I knew not, I had been such a sinner before God; but I tried to lift my heart to God, and continued to do so a number of times during the day. I broke off from my outward sins, and strove to do better ; but did not reveal my mind to any ; went home, burdened with sin and guilt : and found no peace. There was a gloon< ead over creation, and death seemed to be written on all : I said that 1 wanted nothing but a preparion for it — for I had no de- sire for the things of this world — and sometimes I thought I took comfort in trying to pray, and singing one of Dr. Watts' psalms — to hope, to love, to pray, is all that I require. The enemy of my soul told me that I was good enough, that I could pray and praise, and that was all that God required of me. I now went about to establish my own righteousness ; was a godly, formal saint ; a pharisee within. I fear thousands fouild upon the same sandy foundation that I was then build- ing upon. I praise God while I am writing, that he was jealous of his own glory and soon divested me of my rags of 28 self-righteousness, and opened my eyes and showed me where- abouts I was — that I was a guihy, wretched helpless sinner before him, and he only kept me from sinking down to the abyss of woe. I now read my Bible ; but it condemned me. I became angry with it, and with God, and wished to cast it from me, and thought it hard for me to submit to his will or go to hell. I envied the dumb beasts of the field, because they were innocent, and had no souls. The very pains of hell got hold of me ; and I thought if hell were as bad as my conscience, it might well be called hell. However, I went to meeting, and said nothing to any one, nor they to me. ft happened, that I was at a house where one of the class was employed ; a very pious man. 1 made known my mind to him, and he encouraged me to be faithful. I informed him that 1 wanted to attend class ; he informed his leader, and 1 had an invitation to attend, and was thank- ful for the privilege ; and when they asked me the state of my mind, 1 told them the exercises and desires that I had ; and they exhorted me to be faithful, to seek the Saviour of sinners. But I was so hard and stubborn that I despaired of mercy at his hand. My mind was now led back to my former days, when the Spirit of the Lord strove witli me — I saw I might have had religion then, but now, there was no mercy for me — for I had sinned away the day of grace. The enemy said that God was unjust, and would not forgive my sins, because I had sinned so long, and I must go to hell, and had better put an end to my existence, and know the worst of my case. Although I saw the justice of God in condemn- ing me, yet, I was not willing to be miserable forever. I felt dejected, and cast down, and forsaken, and I wept before the Lord, and was burdened, on account of my sins ; and when I walked out it seemed as if the earth would sink under me, and I should go down to darkness and sorrow to receive the punishment due, that my crimes had merited — the worst person then living was better than L I went mourning from day to day, without any light of the Son, to cheer the dun- geon of my soul ; pride, unbelief, self-will, all combined to keep me from the Saviour of sinners. I doubtrd his power to save such a vile sinner as L I attended the meetings, and class, and from that dear people I was encouraged to press forward and obtain my object, the salvation of my soul. But ■iv ,-^.-.>ii,-./. . . I- S9 Tvhen alone, my mind was 611ed with temptations and doubts and fears. I felt like a sinner justly condemned before God ; I thought if I should feel this distress for years, and then if Crod should pardon me, it would be an act of great mercy. I read my bible and prayed, but my distress increased daily ; my appetite forsook me ; I wished for no kind of food. And at night I was sleepless, and strove to make myself better by the works of the law— but that increased my pain the more. The verse of a hymn came to me-—' I can but perish if I go ; I am resolved to try — for to stay away, I know I ^all forever die.' I resolved to seek Jesus while I lived, ai.:l if I perished, to perish at his feet. My distress rolled on, I could not work, nor find religion in reading or praying. I took my bible one afternoon, not knowing where I was a going ; and it was rainy, so I thought I would stay until I found mercy, if mercy could be found. The Lord led me, for I never had been there before — for it was a complete shelter from the rain that was then falling. It was among rocks ; I spent the afternoon in reading, meditation and prayer — hoping, believing and doubting. 1 stayed there till it began to grow dark. Before I left the place I found some relief. I had some faith that 'Jesus had died to redeem my soul, and had risen again for my justification. '• ;■ i; f ' ^9 »^ - '^ v When I got home it was dark, and I could not see to read. I took my bible and lamp, and the first chapter that opened to me, was John xlx. 30, " When Jesus therefore had receiv- ed the vinegar, he said. It is finished ; and he bowed his head and gave up the ghost." These words were applied to my heart — it seemed as if Jesus spake to me himself, and said, *^ All this I sufl«red for you, that you might live with me in heaven." The plan of salvation was now opened to my view. The Son of God was revealed to me by faith, in all his offices, as prophet, priest, and king. With pleasing grief and mournful joy, my spirit now was filled ; that I had such a life destroyed, yet live by him I killed. I wept and griev- ed because Jesus had died to redeem so vile a wretch as I. My load of sin and fear of hell were gone ; and then I was forcibly struck with these lines of the poet : icmn f ' 'ijViU f „ ^^^^ mouining ■ouli, dry up your tean, jiikul h i. Andbuithallyoarguil^fean." ,> . ,'.%M M' 80 ♦ * -^ My burden of sin left me ; my tears were dried up. I felt a sweet peace in my soul, but did not think this a change of heart. I retired to rest, and there was a great cahn. 1 awoke in the morning, and my sou! was drawn out after God ; and when I arose nnd looked around me upon the works of creation, every thing wore a different aspect ; every thing I saw praised God ; and I felt as if I had tong been shut up in prison — my bonds were loosed, my chains were fallen off, and I was set at liberty. I wanted to proclaim to the whole world what God had done for my soul, and to my brethren and to my young mates, how happy I was, and wliat a dear Saviour i had found. I thought that I would go and publish it without delay ; but was ignorant of the devices of Satan. He very readily informed me that if I did, no body would be- lieve me. [ listened to him, and went not. 1 have been sorry ever since, that I was not obedient to the heavenly vi- sion ; but thought if a soul had been once cleansed from sin, that doubts and fears would never return to trouble that soul any more — but in this I was mistaken, for they soon returned. On Sabbath morning. May, 1813, 1 went to meeting as usu- al, but my mind was filled with darkness and unbelief. After preaching, we had a class for the dear children of God to re- late the exercises of their minds ; and while they were rela- ting theirs, I felt encouraged to press forward, for some of them spoke the feelings of my heart. But I did not tell them the exercises of mine ; and when they asked me, I told them I did not feel such a burden ; and felt determined to persevere. :v'^^m^;n(xf7 •i>^;'ii\'^"^'^,r'--><*Mi: ^^l^ ^ m\ nr They gave me their pious admonitions, and I praised God for such a privilege to meet with his dear children. At th'' close of the meeting the preacher prayed eamesUy for me. The Lord heard and answered prayer, to the joy of my soul — for I felt peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, and wanted to praise him aloud; but I grieved the Holy Spirit of God, and hid my talent in the earth, but they rejoic- ed and I kept silent— well might it be said, that the fear of man bringeth a snare. I felt a love for the dear people of God, and could join with them in worship, but did not believe that God had converted me into his grace. I returned lioine ? raising God, but was afraid that some one would hear me. sung a verse of an hymn called the good Shepherd : V ^^ * * fc*-- ■I6A,> 81 rejoic- fear of ople of believe d liome 3ar me. ' ' *' Como, ^ood Lord, with courage trm ui } ' ' Pefiecution ragei here— Nothlag, Lord, we know can harm ns; .' * * ■ . ! While our Shepherd U so near. f . , Glorv, glory be to Jesui, '^ ' At h» name our hearts doth leap } He both comrorta ui and Trees us, The good Shepherd feeda hia sheep." The Isrst part of the verse spoke the sentiments of my heart. When I got liome, I had a cross to take up, to confess to my mother. And the Lord gave me strength to do my duty ; and after I had prayed with them, there was great peace that overspread my soul. I lived fearing and doubting until the next Thursday. And then, I visited my brethren where we had a prayer meeting — and then I strove to tell them what the [jord had done for my soul. So 1 lived along from one worship to another, and the old saints were the instruments in the hands of God, in keeping me from falling a prey to the eni.my of my soul, and the alluring charms of this vain world. The hearing of the old pilgrims* songs, and their sweet ad- monitions, attended to buoy me up, and keep me from stumb- ling into the ditch of despair ; for it stimulated me to move forward. And had it not been for them, I think I should have relapsed back again, and sunk down into the cradle of carnal security — for it was a common saying, that after a soul was once converted, there was no more danger, although the word of God tdught me different as well as the Spirit. But weak and feeble minds like mine are apt to be led astray. But 1 praise God for the pious instructers, that pointed out the way and bade me persevere. Had they taueht me dif- ferent, no doubt that I should have been like Mother Eve, who was so much deceived by the subtle foe — as you know that after God had told her not to eat of the fruit of the gar- den which grew upon a certain tree, because it would be death. But Satan told her it would not be — ^but otherwise. And so he tells thousands ; and it is to be feared, that too many give way to his flattering charms, and ruiu their own souls. ..., .iikf-,.^ ..-^n-i.y'.y,' ■ A/-f''<.:it'^i But, friends, let them say what they will about the Meth- odists, I bless God that I ever knew them— for they taught me to believe in a present and full salvation, in order to obtain a crown of everlasting life. In June, 1823, 1 join- ed the society, and by this people, and the doctrines that '. A- 4 • 'I if i *-y ♦' 1 'HI /^ 4' ^. 8ft f ' f \ "■■ * < K r « i ■ < >•■ f they preached, I found it to be the power of God unto salvation to my poor soul. When I joined the Methodists, the preacher told me I must count the cost ; that 1 must ex- pect a great many falsehoods to be told about me. I found It even so. The wicked began to accuse me of things I had done which I never even thought of. I tried by the aid of Heaven to keep a conscience void of offence before God and for I knew that I had peace with him. It is said that man " He who will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer perse- cution.'* If they called the Master of the house Beelzebub, how much more will they of his household ! So I resolved by the grace of God to persevere, and give up all and take up the cross and follow Christ through evil report as well ai good — :for they that followed Jesus should not walk in dark- ness, but have the light of life. In July, myself and three other candidates were baptized by immersion by Elder Joel Winch, Salem, Con. Truly the ordinance was blessed to me ; it was a heaven below ; a paradise indeed to my soul. I had such love, joy, and peace, that I thought I never should doubt again — but I was mistaken ; for it was not long before I doubted. About August I went to camp meeting, hoping and pray- ing that God would meet me there. I enjoyed myself well at the 6rst of the meeting but God had greater joy laid up for me. I tried in my weak way to exhort sinners, and to be faithful to seek the salvation of their souls. One day upon the camp ground, there was light from heav- en shone into my soul, above the brightness of the sun. I lost sight of all earthly things — heaven was opened to my view, and the glory of the upper world beamed upon my soul. My body of clay was all that hindered my flying up to meet Jesus in the air. How long I remained in this happy frame of mind, I know not. But when I came to my recollection, my Christian friends were around me, singing the sweet songs of heaven ; and I thought I was in the suburbs of glory. And when I saw tliem, they looked like angels, for they were praising God. I felt the love of Gcd like a river flowing into my soul. From that time until the close of the meeting, I was happy. I now returned home rejoicing in God my Saviour, and thought 1 never should be troubled with doubts and fears — but I was mistaken as before. The enemy of my ^ 88 soul tempted me and I again gave way, and like Sampson I lost all my strength, and 1 doubted of Goid's power to save me. There was much said about sanctification, amonouir Meth- odist brethren — they said it was possible for God t?cleanse us from all sin, and urged the members of our church to seek it and not to rest short of it, — while others opposed it, and said it was impossible to live without sin in tins life, and to be cleansed from all unrighteousiiess, boldly denying the power and efficacy of his blood. 1 was weak and unbelieving, and finally doubted it myself, although 1 read it was the will of God, even our sanctification — and if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive our sins, and the blood of Jesus cleanses us from all unrighteousness. 1 asked the Lord, in humble prayer, if this was attainable, and to show me what I was by nature, and what I ought to be by grace — for I was sure that I wanted as much grace as any body in the world, to get through it. I prayed daily for the Lord to enlighten me, and teach me the way ; for I wished to lay a sure foundation for the time to come. I continued my petilion about one month ; the Lord heard and answered my prayer, and opened my eyes, and I saw if I was not fully saved from sin, and made holy, I could never enter the kingdom of God, for God was holy, and heaven was a holy place, and without holiness, no man should see the Lord. .. , ,;,t From that time, I read my Bible more diligently, and sought the Lord, by fasting and prayer, with a full determi- nation not to stop, short of full redemption in the blood of Christ. I went to a quarterly meeting in Groton, Conn. ; the.e God manifested himself to me in such a powerful man- ner, that I fell prostrate upon the floor, insensible to all be- low ; the last time I fell, [ felt the blood of Jesus go through every avenue of the soul and body, cleansing me from the filthiness of the flesh and spirit. The Spirit /bade me arise and tell what God had done for my soul ; but I was again disobedient. After that, I was almost in despair, through ^ unbelief. I struggled in darkness for some time ; at last, a divine ray of light broke into my soul. I then promised the Lord, if he would give me the evidence of full redemption in my heart, that I would proclaim it to all the world, come what would, ",> > u ^ < . '^' J '•■ i \ • .•\ "'A :». ■TT v> \l hi I 1 attended a camp meeting, at Wilbraham, Mass. The power of the Lord was manifested in a wonderful manner, and there^was a general cry among believers, for full re- demption m the blood of Jesus ; and I felt the cry in my own heart. I prayed, and cried, and struggled, and altnost despaired of obtainmg my object. But before the meeting closed, God in Christ showed himself mighty to save, ana strong to deliver. I felt the mighty power of God again, like electric fire, go through every part of me, cleansing ma throughout, soul, flesh and spirit. I felt now that I was puri- fied, sanctified and justified. I had no fears. I could now shout victory through the blood ot the Lamb. The words of the poet would best express my feelings : ' ' " That lacred awe— that durst not move, " ' ; ' ' ^ All the silent heaven of love." From that time until now, I have never doubted the power of God, to save all, who by faith would come unto him ; that is about seventeen years ago ; and I find him still the same rnchangable, blessed Saviour. His mercy always full and boundless as the ocean. I find it as good to my soul now, as it was then ; yea, 1 can say that it grows brighter and brighter, and do expect it will, even to the perfect day, if I am faithful. Then through the merits of Jesus, I ex- pect to hear the welcome sound, " Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foun- dation of the world ;*' where all tears shall be wiped away from our eyes, and there, with the happy throng, shout and sing our sufiferings around the throne of God. Then I shall behold that great and innumerable company, " that came out of great tribulation, and washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb," and have overcome, through the word of his testimony. There we shall be at rest, and the wicked shall cease irom troubling us. Glory fills my soul while I meditate upon the moment, when, ^^through grace, I shall unite with them there. I have now given you a sketch of the dealings of God with one of his most unworthy creatures. I am a spared monument of his mercy ; and through his rich grace, I hope to stand fast, untiihe takes me from time, to enter into his heavenly kingdom. May this be the happy lot of us all, is the prayer of your un- worthy writer. MARY APESS. ■ i v>^ I," ' re- (■ ■■' .'f • HAKITAH CALEB* BY rnt MISSIONARY. I was born in Groton, Conn. My mother died when I was about six years old. Her dying request was, that 1 might be placed among educated people, who would teach me to read God's holy word. Accordmgly they placed me in a white family, to be brought up. The gentleman's name, with whom I was placed was Mr. James Avery, where I con- tinued twelve yeai'S. They were pious people, and by them I was instructed in the paths of virtue. But how much 1 have to regret that I did not take heed to my ways, and in the days of my youth, seek the salvation of my soul — ^then should I have been prepared to meet those troubles and trials which are incident to human life. But oh ! how dark and dreary is the world without the sun ! so is the way of sjnners without the Sun of righteousness, to cheer and light up their dark and gloomy paths, through this wilderness world. But let us return — at the age of nineteen years I was married, and had ultimately five children. My husband was a soldier in the French army, and died in Canada — and with this trial, I met with many more — the loss of all my dear children.— And when the bosom friend, the darling of my earthly career was gone, with whom I should no more associate in time, it was almost too much for me to bear : but oh ! when I turned to look for my children, at the seats and the table that they once surrounded, and at their pillows, which I had watched over, with all the affection of a fond mother, and often press- ed them to my breast, while tears fell like rain from th^ir sparkling eyes upon my bosom, and had strove to hush them ! But behold they were no more ; but all of them locked up in it f h 1 1 ii 'iStl'i' '-jf. ^i:^ : 36 ' .* 1 the cold cAVftrns of the etrth ; ond I their faces no more to behold in time— they were fled to the world of spirits, to Him who had created them. Thus my huihand wu gone — the darling of my heart— with my babes, the sweet objects of my care : thus, being stripped of my earthly glory, I wa: left naked and wounded. I now became alarmed about my future welfare — for the Lord was at this time pleased to discover to me the lost con- dition of my poor soul. My conviction of sin was severe, but notwithstanding this, I was indiflferent— not knowing how to help myself; but the anguish of my soul which I felt, no tongue can tell — for it was keen and pungent ; and withnl I felt a great enmity to the Christian religion, often wishing, in the depravity of my heart, I had been left like the rest of my kindred, ignorant and unknown. This may be surprising to some, but I can assure you there was a cause for it. 1 saw such a great inconsistency in their precepts and exomples, that I could not believe them. They openly professed to love one another, as Christians, and ev- ery people of all nations whom God hath made — and yet they would backbite each other, and auarrel with one an- other, and would not so much as eat ana drink together, nor v'orship God together. And not only so, the poor Indians, the poor Indians, the people to whom I was wedded by the common ties of nature, were S3t at nought by those profes- sors of grace, merely because we were Indians — and 1 had to bear a part with them, being of the same coin ; when in fact, with the same abilities, with a white skin, I should have been looked upon with honor and respect. But it is a fact that whites, with the same principle, would turn against their own kin, if the providence of God should happen to change the shades ri their complexion, although the same flesh and feelinp. fiow must I teel possessing the the same powers of mind, with the same flesh and blood, and all we differed, was merely in looks ? or how would you feel? Judge ye. Though you never have been thrust out of society, and set at nought, and placed beyond the notice of all as we have been — and I pray God you never may be. These pictures of distress and shame were enough to make me cry out, O horrid inconsistency — who would be a 87 Christian ? But I remark here, that I did net understand frail nature as I ought. And I would remark here, that these feel- ings were more peculiar 70 years ago, than now — what their feelings would be now, if the Indians owned as much land as they then did, I cannot say. I leave the man of candor to judge. But we observe further — the Lord was pleased in great mercy to continue the work of Krace upon my heart — so I made bold to inquire by going from one Christian friend to another, askingquestions about the way, and what I roust do to be saved. They said that I must pray, and look to the Lord as my Saviour and friend. They told me that Jesus Christ died for sinners, even such as I, who was the chief of sinners. This encouraged me to pray, but I could 6nd no comfort in so doing. I continued almost a year between hope and despair, wretched and miserable ; without God and without hope in the world. The grand enemy of all good, strove to decoy my mind away from my desired object, and had well nigh effected his scheme, for he suggested to me that there was no mercy for such sinners as I was. I used to roam whole days in ray native forest, weeping and wailing on account of my sins, seeking the Saviour of sinners — friendless, as I thought, unpitied and unknown. As I was walking by the side of a laree pond, the enemy whispered to me to throw myself in, and there end my days of sorrow and eviction. I was quick to obey I got upon a log for that purpose ; but a voice seemed to say to me, " Hannah, my mercy is as free for thee as this water, and boundless as the ocean." The tempter fled ; m^ mind was calm, and I returned home, thinking that my distress would return no more ; but in this I was disappointed. Soon all my doubts returned, and I could say with Job, "Thou hast shaken me to pieces ; all my bones are out of joint." I was very weak, , eatmg but just enough to keep soul and body united ; often sleepmg on the cold ground, and freouently not closing my eyes for nights together, nowever, 1 sometimes took great comfort in visiting the dear children of God^ some of whom I went many miles to see, and hear them converse and pray , for me. They pitied me, and strove to comfort me, but all ,■'*•■. ;if ^n ; and there I prostrated niysetf bdfore God, and lified up my haiids to he^ve and, in 'the language of parting friends, I bbde farewellto the mckm, to the stars, and all creation : this earthly vision no more to behold in time. But withal, I prayed that if it was God*s will I might live a while longer, for 1 was not ready my prayer and spired me ; and when the morning b^^med forth, and nTiy eyes ciaught her rising, I exclaimed, O that I might hear one more "prayer for my p6or soul. But it was suggested to me, that Christians could not hjlp me. I then ti^ »ed from the world and the prayers of the saints, and went into the wilderness and sat myself down, and I had an impression that I must sing. I thought, how could I sing of redeeming grace and dying love ? O, the answer was, "Sing, for his mercy endureth forever." I must praise God for that ; but where to be^n, I knew riot, but thought I would try. So 1 began this Way : " Glory to God the Father, glory to God the Son, glbry to God the Holy Ghost, glory to Gfod alone." After ' md done sing- ing, I had a desire to pray; but thought, what shall I say? O, I am a poor sinner. Lord have mercy upon me, a poor binner. As I said so, glory seemed to break in upon my soul, and I was dissolved into the love of God, apparently, soul, body and spirit. The heavens seemed to descend, and with them an inn;:tnfii^ble Company of angels, aud the spirits of the just made perfect. They sf ^med to thrOng me ; I was overcome with the vision. My whole sou! was lost in wonder, love and^ pVaise to' God. I was enabled to join the heavenly cpnipdny, and king the wonders or redeem- ing grace, and dying love. My siri^ Were all gone ; I felt no longer their burden ; I was transported, as it wfere, to the third heaven. This was about nine o'clock in the morning. Thus you see, my fif^hds, th^it I was all ' night in prayer to God ; and as I observed, the Lord pitied me, and washed away all ■■'■^^r '^.^^^ s 3a my sins. 1 then returned to my Christiao frieqds; wltl) the; lightness of an angel, \^ith my heart tuned to sing the praise of God and the Lamb, with them, who had strug^IedjSO hr .d . at the throne of grace for me. And 1 began to pMblish to them what the Lord had done for niy soul, and warning sin- ners, wherever I went^ to flee, from the wrath to come. Surely, ) rauld say, " CNd things a^e passed &way, and behold aji things ar^ becoine new." I could say there was/ no more enmity in my heart ; that I loved whitQ people as, well as my own. I wonder if all white Christians love poor Indians ? if they did, they would never hurt them any more. And certainly, if they felt as I did, they would not. For I rould say as John said, <' He that is born of God, has the witness in himself." Thus I went on from day to day, in the service of my God, praising him all the while, and no cloud to darken my sky. O how happy, happy, was my soul ; continually full of glory, glory. Here the publisher would take the liberty of making a few remaiks. Not being personally acquainted with sister Caleb, 1 am not able to give her age, and date of her con- version, precisely. But being furnished by a young lady of respectability and piety, with a copy, I have therefore, no doubt of its authenticity. But nearly all my relations^ and a part of my family were acquainted with her personally. And here 1 would say a few things which you may place confidence in, respecting her. This dear child of the forest was translated into the kingdom of God, as near as we can learn, at the age of forty years ; and as far as we can learn, she lived faithful through life. Sister Caleb wis remarkable for her liberality, so that she not only had the precept, but the example. She knew no sect but that of Christians ; for she would go into all houses of worship, and exhort sin- ners ; and eat and drink at the Lord's table wherever it was spread, to show' forth his death till he come; though sh** joined the Free-Will Baptists, to be 'jnder their watch-care. Sister Caleb was also noted by all sects, to be an example of piety ; to all the world she was useful in tempera! mat- ters, such as teaching the young children of her tribe to read, vbile at other times she would instruct them and others, by 40 r. 8i.-.v f» -i- ... ■ . , . . ; , ■ ; . ..1 ...... T ,. frecept and example, in the way to heaven and happiness, can tell the friends, she lived in the faith of the gospel ; and thus lived and died our good sister, in the Lord, after nearly half a century from her conversion. She fell asleep in the arms of Jesus, and went down to the graVe with a joyful hope ; big with immortality, of a glorious resurrec- tion in Christ at the last trump ; while her soul was wafted upon the wings of angels to the spirit land, to d'vell around the throne of God forever and ever. There tier trials are at an end, there she dwells in seas of rest : while before her, waves of glory roll, and shouts of glory echo from the throne. , ,■ r-, ■,"■'" S ''■""/ m". ',•• ' .,' W A "■■■ ".Ibvfiud :n ??^'^R^iv.- 1.' :.-).^!'.; ;;i'J h'; .;/■(,!. ..>i vnh >;k)-0 ii« Iciwr 1 *i>i^f'; ..Si, - iir;'; o! "hj.th •;(! hai.: .'^'i.l// tjt'i H.j-'ini \>n)>i\:'m \hoH. •',il v'i:;i;...! ..)o • [no,'. '{i:'. ^.WH ,'/fj«i!)<| ;^.ru^tii>: )> ■•>i ','i! 4 1 ' . . . ' ■ ••> V'd !;-> •!]!?■> i-ifff ,'i;,;n -i-nl ovii?. ol oM; lofi o^,,; f ■.ibtc'.* ■:>\\ 'iiii .•/li:..!'n>'i.ti-;; Ki] 'W) jJdtv!; I . . ri! .; u.'M tin .lj"js.).'to f;itM>T;»^;>i -nil olcl \'')h^>uii-A 'i^/f \y.' ;'.•: i(u-' folfffH 'jif- t^r;}.^ fin vv.<;;' CMici" 3!t|;urxM sil; nr It 'o/'j;' ;?A o'JfJt r.'t>ji'^ -^dl'tr ){?!!;;; i.HC ti;jiih«H .; ?-ft*ii " ^> % ppiness," gospel ; rd, after I asleep with a ssurrec- i wafted around rials are I before om the • '.'-■<< 'b 'i • Mi'v; •/(••>! I ■ .':M!: } •ly-fy.JHr.Ol '*' Jvlih*!; .'hI i..i-A , ■' 'i'/f ■i 'ft ofl^ •yi ilAHlif.v Jm\/| • c'.'iiKt,; ,;i?l;j(*y.;/,i ..,,vj.";>l Of 1 'ill' ■ .,■ •• ; * liiiu ;:(?i'^;)!f"// ,11..: . . 1' ; ' J SAi;.LT GEORGE. t .^f;! ;/^!^ ^^::;,jilU} . ^Y THE MISSIONARY. ■ T ^' • ■ ,' ■'lit ■■ ,1 ' f '. ';..' i ■ ..I ,• I was born in Groton, Conn- 1779, and was brought up without any education, as to understanding the letter in any way whatever. And although there were many around us who were veiry zealous that we should have instruction, and be brought up well, yet but little was done towards it ; I be- ing left in general to wander to and fro, up and down the forest, with my native kin. But surely I have many things to praise God for. Although I had not those inestimable privileges that some had and do have, yet I can say that I had some that n9any do not have, in time ; there are many of my brethren who do not, ihat are in the wide and western world. For they do not enjoy any instruction whatever. — While poor me, although ignorant and unknown, yet I had some precious privileges ; such as hearing God's holy word, and having good advice from those who were mothers in Israel. And, taught by the Spirit, they would beseech of me to be reconciled to God, and they were those of my own kin : and often they would do it with streaming eyes and r /if'' ' earts. Sorpetimes I would take a degree of interest Mi > :i rther im^s would be qMite indifferent about it ; ant^ at uti ^' ime» my young mates would lead me astray with their rudvuess, being only about twelve or thirteen years old. I continued in this way for some time, between hope and despair ; but they cQptipued to call after me, and the Holy Spirit seconded their ejd^rts constantly, and often it was so powerful that my little heart would melt down into tender- ness, an4 what to do with myself I knew not. I felt at itm^s mdaiiQhoK and 4ejeQted ; but notwithstanding this, I 4* *H 4 H i "^. k *0 i^ 42 #• %^ *% iB was encouraged by many, to seek the salvation of my soul. But it was hard to leave my young mates ; yet without re- ligion 1 knew that I must be miserable and wretched forever. But what to do I did not know, and how to pray I knew not. 1 wandered up and down in the forest, weeping and mourning on the account of my sins, not knowing that! ever should enjoy happiness either in 4ime or eternity. The enemy now would take the advantage of my youthful mind, and suggest to me that there was no happiness for me, I must spend all the rest of my days in sorrow. The enemy of my soul followed hard after mc, and withal tempted me to destroy myself. I had become now a wanderer alone, as it were, in my native woods ; and one day as I was passing by a large deep b'Dok, the ppemy of my soul tempted me to destroy myself in that plac , k. isting myself in. But I strove to raise my little hean \j!od, that he would have mercy upon my soul and save me. While thus exercised in prayer to God, for his kind protection, I fell to the earth as one dead, under the power of God. And while in this situation, I saw the pit of destruction opened for poor sinners ; it was no imag- ination either, it was a solemn reality, it was plain before My soul was in sore distress, and I expected nothing me. but hell for my portion forever. I lay in this situation for some time as helpless as an infant, begging for the mercy of God, promising to him that I would be faithful to serve him all the days of my life. The Lord heard my prayer, and sent down his melting grace into my soul ; and before I arose from the ground I was translated into the kingdom of God's dear Son ; for when I came to myself, I was praising God : there was a change in every thing around me, the glory of the Lord shone around, all creation praised God ; my bur- den and my fears were gone, the tempter h^ ried, and I was clothed, and in my right mind, sitting at the feet of Jesus. I now returned home to my friends, and began to exhort my young mates to repentance, and to tell all that came in ray way, what the Lord had done for my soul. I then went to the church and told it there, and the dear children of God received me. I then with a servant of God went down to the banks of the river, and was buried with Christ by im- f^' ^ A-:^ 43 ny soul, lout re- forever. I knew ing and aiK ever bl mind, >r me, 1 e enemy pted me J, in my rg« deep y myself to raise upon my • to God, td, under '. saw the no imag- lin before I nothing ation for ercy of him yer, and e I arose f God's ng God : glory of my bur- , and I f Jesus, exhort I came in ken went of God Idown to by im- rve mersion beneath tbe great water ; and when I came up out of the water, the glory of God descended and lighted upon my soul ; and so I could rejoice continually, and say the one half was never told me about this Jesus, whom many de- ride . " Behold ye despisers, wonder and perish ; J work a work in your day, ye shall in no wise believe, though a man declare it unto you.** And although i could not read, the Spirit of the Lord was with me, to instruct me in the way of holiness, and upon my heart was printed the image of my Saviour, by the washing of regeneration, and renew- ing 0( the Holy Ghost. My soul was batlied in the love of God, it was glory, and I was lost in wonder, love and praise. I forgot all things here below, and rode in the chariot of his love daily. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all my powers, soul and body, praise him, for glory is his due forever and ever. Amen — so let it be. I would remark here, that this female was an aunt on my father's side, and we had personal acquaintance with each other. She belonged to the same church that sister Caleb did, and they were well acquainted with each other. She was a member of the church about thirty years, and for the most of the time, as far as I can learn, she lived in the life and power of religion. I have attended a great many meet- ings with sister George, and 1 do not recollect that she ever had a barren season to her soul. She often meted out to my soul the sincere milk of the word, which gave me strength in the Lord to persevere. The liord of a truth was with her. She was always diligent to seek Jesus in the way. The fences, the groves, the forest, all will witness the fact. Her organic power of communication when tuned with lieavenly zeal, and burnt with heavenly love, was delightful, charming and eloquent. I never knew her to speak, unless the congregation was watered by an overwhelming flood of tears. She feared not to v^arn sinners to repentance while she lived. She was no sectarian ; she would go among all orders of Christians and worship God with them, and was entirely free so to do. And I believe that she felt as much for her white neighbors as for her owvi kindred in the flesh. She was counted almost a preacher ; her language was free, lively and animating. She was also very industrious % J .4> .■*'• H m i #' Mt. i*- ^i '"# 4''*-' m ^m^S^m^ 44 ♦.■♦■ .■' ^^. ^^*^ and active ; her limbs would play as lively over the ground as a deer. I have set out to walk with her twenty miles to a meeting, several times in my life, and generally, I had to keep upon the slow pace to keep up with her. In three hours and a half from the time we started, we were there. She was also skilled in doctering the sick, and was useful wherever she went ; and in this way procured for herself a very great share of Christian and friendly patronage amone all who knew her. And while visiting the sick, she would often pour into their ear the balm of consolation, and refer them to the blessed Jesus, who could heal both soul and body. Where she met with the sin-sick soul, she would pour into their ears the oil of joy^ and point them to Jesus, who taketh away the sin of the world ; the only sovereign remedy for sin^^ick sinners. Our sister was noted generally by all, for her piety, through life. At tlie close of her life, there was a remarkable circum- stance which took place, that is respecting a visit which she desired to make to a neighboring village, about eight miles off. But I would remark, that previous to this, she was much debilitated in body, which was caused by a lingering disease, supposed to be somewhat dropsical and consump- tive, and did not at times keep about, but was confined to her bed. She lived a widow, and withal very comfortable, and used to entertain all her brethren that came to her. There were some of her brethren whom she desir^ to see, and said the Lord would give her strength to perform the journey ; and so she arose, as it were, from a sick bed, and through the strength of the Lord she was enabled to go ; and while there, she enjoyed some Christian conversation ; had a few good meetings, and bade her brethren farewell, to meet no more in time ; and returned home to die. She was DOW composed, and ready — ^and in two weeks afterwards, she fell asleep in the arms of Jesus, without a struggle qr ^ groan, May 6, 1826, aged forty-five years. > ;h*««rsi .4»> At the last, the fear of death was taken awayi and her dying bed was glorious and interesting. Her friends were many, both natives and whites. The whites paid to her fCr mains the last tribute of respect, which is due to Chrstians, and united in shedding the tears of sympfithy. W. A,, y- A- •-•••- ■ W *''■ u ■M- !*<"«-:• "*■ ii „V ■ a*, ihaLtPia:&i^asKBai .1 ; ■.} *i;f . f li- ft': ^'Vji^'.ijll *;, ; .4 . ^:. , , ti^tJip^'r ANNE WAMPY. ;n.i'i i'i' >i ■>ui BY THE MISSIONARY. mi. !!.<. J', ".;i|ilinij|fj il;rfiriiy?«t*. gff /J ...1 ,.j; ,;,! ': In the year 1831,1 visited the Pequot Indians, a small remnant left from the massacre of the whites, who are now lingering in a miserable condition upon the banks of the River Thames ; apparently unpitied and unknown. But being ao Indian, and somewhat connected with the tribe, 1 took pleasure in offering to them the word of life, and to , warn them to flee from the wrath to come. ' It cannot be wondered at, that it excited attention among old and young. The attention of an old veteran of the woods was called up, who had before despised all that was said to her upon the subject of salvation, and would use very bad language in her way, being not able to speak plain English. However, the Lord reached her heart, and many others, and there was a work of God among them. Sister Anne was brought to bow and humble herself at the feet of Jesus, after she had experienced the holy religion of Jesus. She then was free to tell the exercises of her mind, and not till then. We will give it to you in her own language ; it is broken, but you can understand it. She began thus : '* When Christian come talk with me, me no like *em ; me no want to see 'em ; me love nobody ; I want no religion..; But sister Amy no let me alone ; she talk a great deal about Jesus. Sister Apess too, come talk pray for me. I be afraid 1 should see 'em, and me no want to hear 'em ; bynie by ; me come trouble very much, me very much troubled. Me r nd^like Christians, me hate 'era ; hate every body. Byrne, by me very much' troubled, me get sick, me afraid I die ; . ?; *■*?. .*- • ••'♦\ ■^ » ! : 1 1 * • * ■je*...- ■ -.>: ■• ^ '- ,. » » i ^ I V *t- , « 4 »^' H?^' ♦■ . "*.- ^*# ■. .•II %-. ?■ ■ * ,,:■*'■ •r Cil ♦ I '* i-'^K^!^'" •\ '' ,.X.«1.! 46 .* : K ^»- i-« me go pray, go off all alooe in the woods ; me afraid I go to hell, mo pray. Byrne by Jesus come take me by the hand, lead me a great way off; show me one place look like hell; me come close to it so me feel it, me fraid 1 fall in, me cry to Jesus to have mercy on poor me. He take me by the hand again and lead me back : show me one great mountain all full of crevices ; he say I must make that all smooth be- fore 1 come again. I say hard work ; I afraid I go to hell at last. 1 pray I look to Jesus. Byme by me give up, then me feel light, like one feather ; me want to die, me want to fly — me want to go home ; me love every body, me want to drink no more rum. 1 wa<:t this good religion all the time." She now began to exhort sinners. " I wish I could talk like white folks, me would tell every body how I love Jesus.'' Then she said to the young people, "don't do like Ldone, me old' sinner, great many years me sin, do wickedly. Come, love Jesus ; I want every body to come love Jesus. O* how I love Jesus ; me want every body to pray for me, so I get to heaven, where Jesus is." She looked upon me just as I waS' about to leave her, and with streaming eyes said, " pray for me that I go to heaven." And while 1 was thus beholding her face, and viewing the tears streaming down her furrowed cheeks, it did me good : for I beheld glory beaming in her countenance, which bespoke the ex- pression of the inward man. Our sister was born in Groton, Conn. A. D. 1760i; lived in sin rising 70 years, brought up in ignorance and pi'odigali- ty till old age, and then snatched, as a brand (fom the burn- ing, and translated into the glorious light of the gospel, and made an heir of all things. How gooid and kind is God to all men ; notwithstanding they live long in sb, and rebel against him, yet he is willing to have mercy upon all that will come unto him, let them be ever so great and unprofit- able sinners. Should this happen to fall into the bands of any old tranSf gressor, that has not become wise above what is written, I hope they will remember that they will want Master Jesus as well as sister VVampy. Though many, no doubt, will even ridicule the idea of doing as this poor pagan, but Uk order for any sinner, rich or poor, to enter the kingdom ^*^- • » -•V •;« ,# ■w .%• f s gt.: »J^'-^-- (' 47 of heaveoi they must first be purified in order to enter into 80 pure a place as heaven ; and this is reasonable doctrine. Depend upon it, sinner^, it was the intent of Christ's sufi^er- ings ; and the end of his sufierings can be answered in no other way than upon the conditions of your repentance, and a reform of your wicked ways. Lord help you. Amen. WILLIAM APESS. i trans* itten, I Jesus }t, will but ia ngdom f ' -^ ■ *| t|i*» AN INDIAN'S THOUGHT. ". He would ask the white Christian thus : how can you let your light shine among Indians, unless you do it by exam- ple? Proof of the Saviour's light. Wot by precept only, that he loved the world, but by example. Such as doing all manner of cures, by working miracles, to the astonishment of all the world ; and to test his love for them, he laid down his life for them, even while they were enemies. Now if we have his spirit, as we profess to have, we shall most cer- tainly want the indigent of all classes, made comfortable. And who that understands the history of the world, does not know that i^orance is the cause of the major part of the vices that exist in the world. Now, does not the white man know that it is his duty to educate the Indians, to help them build bouses of worship, and such like, in order to raise them up and make them comfortabfe as yourselves ? and do you not know it was the intent of Christ's dying, to make you and them equal with himself in holiness and peace ? Now this is just the way you ought to feel towards all the race of mankind. And you can never make ignorant people know that you love them, unless you do something for them. And be it known to all men, that your light can never shine unless you do it by works of righteousness. Judge ye, whst thst is. , . ^ WILLIAM APESS. .^* ■ - " '...♦^ ;¥'*:4-*r^ •«. r ■ » a i- vk s- *:^'-