CHAPTER I.
The weary old nineteenth century had advanced into the last twenty years
of its life.
Towards two o'clock in the afternoon, Ovid Vere (of the Royal College of
Surgeons) stood at the window of his consulting-room in London, looking
out at the summer sunshine, and the quiet dusty street.
He had received a warning, familiar to the busy men of our time--the
warning from overwrought Nature, which counsels rest after excessive
work. With a prosperous career before him, he had been compelled (at
only thirty-one years of age) to ask a colleague to take charge of his
practice, and to give the brain which he had cruelly wearied a rest of
some months to come. On the next day he had arranged to embark for the
Mediterranean in a friend's yacht.
An active man, devoted heart and soul to his profession, is not a man
who can learn the happy knack of being idle at a moment's notice. Ovid
found the mere act of looking out of window, and wondering what he
should do next, more than he had patience to endure.
He turned to his study table. If he had possessed a wife to look after
him, he would have been reminded that he and his study table had nothing
in common, under present circumstances. Being deprived of conjugal
superintendence, he broke though his own rules. His restless hand
unlocked a drawer, and took out a manuscript work on medicine of his own
writing. "Surely," he thought, "I may finish a chapter, before I go to
sea to-morrow?"
His head, steady enough while he was only looking out of window, began
to swim before he had got to the bottom of a page. The last sentences of
the unfinished chapter alluded to a matter of fact which he had not yet
verified. In emergencies of any sort, he was a patient man and a man of
resource. The necessary verification could be accomplished by a visit to
the College of Surgeons, situated in the great square called Lincoln's
Inn Fields. Here was a motive for a walk--with an occupation at the end
of it, which only involved a question to a Curator, and an examination
of a Specimen. He locked up his manuscript, and set forth for Lincoln's
Inn Fields.
CHAPTER II.
When two friends happen to meet in the street, do they ever look back
along the procession of small circumstances which has led them both,
from the starting-point of their own houses, to the same spot, at the
same time? Not one man in ten thousand has probably ever thought of
making such a fantastic inquiry as this. And consequently not one man in
ten thousand, living in the midst of reality, has discovered that he is
also living in the midst of romance.
From the moment when the young surgeon closed the door of his house,
he was walking blindfold on his way to a patient in the future who was
personally still a stranger to him. He never reached the College of
Surgeons. He never embarked on his friend's yacht.
What were the obstacles which turned him aside from the course that he
had in view? Nothing but a series of trivial circumstances, occurring in
the experience of a man who goes out for a walk.
He had only reached the next street, when the first of the circumstances
presented itself in the shape of a friend's carriage, which drew up at
his side. A bright benevolent face encircled by bushy white whiskers,
looked out of the window, and a hearty voice asked him if he had
completed his arrangements for a long holiday. Having replied to this,
Ovid had a question to put, on his side.
"How is our patient, Sir Richard?"
"Out of danger."
"And what do the other doctors say now?"
Sir Richard laughed: "They say it's my luck."
"Not convinced yet?"
"Not in the least. Who has ever succeeded in convincing fools? Let's try
another subject. Is your mother reconciled to your new plans?"
"I can hardly tell you. My mother is in a state of indescribable
agitation. Her brother's Will has been found in Italy. And his daughter
may arrive in England at a moment's notice."
"Unmarried?" Sir Richard asked slyly.
"I don't know."
"Any money?"
Ovid smiled--not cheerfully. "Do you think my poor mother would be in a
state of indescribable agitation if there was not money?"
Sir Richard was one of those obsolete elderly persons who quote
Shakespeare. "Ah, well," he said, "your mother is like Kent in King
Lear--she's too old to learn. Is she as fond as ever of lace? and as
keen as ever after a bargain?" He handed a card out of the carriage
window. "I have just seen an old patient of mine," he resumed, "in whom
I feel a friendly interest. She is retiring from business by my advice;
and she asks me, of all the people in the world, to help her in getting
rid of some wonderful 'remnants,' at 'an alarming sacrifice!' My kind
regards to your mother--and there's a chance for her. One last word,
Ovid. Don't be in too great a hurry to return to work; you have plenty
of spare time before you. Look at my wise dog here, on the front seat,
and learn from him to be idle and happy."
The great physician had another companion, besides his dog. A friend,
bound his way, had accepted a seat in the carriage. "Who is that
handsome young man?" the friend asked as they drove away.
"He is the only son of a relative of mine, dead many years since," Sir
Richard replied. "Don't forget that you have seen him."
"May I ask why?"
"He has not yet reached the prime of life; and he is on the way--already
far on the way--to be one of the foremost men of his time. With a
private fortune, he has worked as few surgeons work who have their bread
to get by their profession. The money comes from his late father. His
mother has married again. The second husband is a lazy, harmless
old fellow, named Gallilee; possessed of one small attraction--fifty
thousand pounds, grubbed up in trade. There are two little daughters,
by the second marriage. With such a stepfather as I have described, and,
between ourselves, with a mother who has rather more than her fair share
of the jealous, envious, and money-loving propensities of humanity, my
friend Ovid is not diverted by family influences from the close pursuit
of his profession. You will tell me, he may marry. Well! if he gets a
good wife she will be a circumstance in his favour. But, so far as I
know, he is not that sort of man. Cooler, a deal cooler, with women than
I am--though I am old enough to be his father. Let us get back to his
professional prospects. You heard him ask me about a patient?"
"Yes."
"Very good. Death was knocking hard at that patient's door, when I
called Ovid into consultation with myself and with two other doctors
who differed with me. It was one of the very rare cases in which the old
practice of bleeding was, to my mind, the only treatment to pursue. I
never told him that this was the point in dispute between me and the
other men--and they said nothing, on their side, at my express request.
He took his time to examine and think; and he saw the chance of saving
the patient by venturing on the use of the lancet as plainly as I
did--with my forty years' experience to teach me! A young man with that
capacity for discovering the remote cause of disease, and with that
superiority to the trammels of routine in applying the treatment, has no
common medical career before him. His holiday will set his health right
in next to no time. I see nothing in his way, at present--not even a
woman! But," said Sir Richard, with the explanatory wink of one eye
peculiar (like quotation from Shakespeare) to persons of the obsolete
old time, "we know better than to forecast the weather if a petticoat
influence appears on the horizon. One prediction, however, I do risk.
If his mother buys any of that lace--I know who will get the best of the
bargain!"
The conditions under which the old doctor was willing to assume the
character of a prophet never occurred. Ovid remembered that he was going
away on a long voyage--and Ovid was a good son. He bought some of the
lace, as a present to his mother at parting; and, most assuredly, he got
the worst of the bargain.
His shortest way back to the straight course, from which he had deviated
in making his purchase, led him into a by-street, near the flower and
fruit market of Covent Garden. Here he met with the second in number of
the circumstances which attended his walk. He found himself encountered
by an intolerably filthy smell.
The market was not out of the direct way to Lincoln's Inn Fields. He
fled from the smell to the flowery and fruity perfumes of Covent
Garden, and completed the disinfecting process by means of a basket of
strawberries.
Why did a poor ragged little girl, carrying a big baby, look with such
longing eyes at the delicious fruit, that, as a kind-hearted man, he had
no alternative but to make her a present of the strawberries? Why did
two dirty boyfriends of hers appear immediately afterwards with news of
Punch in a neighbouring street, and lead the little girl away with them?
Why did these two new circumstances inspire him with a fear that the
boys might take the strawberries away from the poor child, burdened
as she was with a baby almost as big as herself? When we suffer from
overwrought nerves we are easily disturbed by small misgivings. The idle
man of wearied mind followed the friends of the street drama to see what
happened, forgetful of the College of Surgeons, and finding a new fund
of amusement in himself.
Arrived in the neighbouring street, he discovered that the Punch
performance had come to an end--like some other dramatic performances
of higher pretensions--for want of a paying audience. He waited at a
certain distance, watching the children. His doubts had done them an
injustice. The boys only said, "Give us a taste." And the liberal little
girl rewarded their good conduct. An equitable and friendly division of
the strawberries was made in a quiet corner.
Where--always excepting the case of a miser or a millionaire--is the man
to be found who could have returned to the pursuit of his own affairs,
under these circumstances, without encouraging the practice of the
social virtues by a present of a few pennies? Ovid was not that man.
Putting back in his breast-pocket the bag in which he was accustomed to
carry small coins for small charities, his hand touched something which
felt like the envelope of a letter. He took it out--looked at it with
an expression of annoyance and surprise--and once more turned aside from
the direct way to Lincoln's Inn Fields.
The envelope contained his last prescription. Having occasion to consult
the "Pharmacopoeia," he had written it at home, and had promised to send
it to the patient immediately. In the absorbing interest of making
his preparations for leaving England, it had remained forgotten in his
pocket for nearly two days. The one means of setting this unlucky error
right, without further delay, was to deliver his prescription himself,
and to break through his own rules for the second time by attending to a
case of illness--purely as an act of atonement.
The patient lived in a house nearly opposite to the British Museum. In
this northward direction he now set his face.
He made his apologies, and gave his advice--and, getting out again
into the street, tried once more to shape his course for the College
of Surgeons. Passing the walled garden of the British Museum, he looked
towards it--and paused. What had stopped him, this time? Nothing but a
tree, fluttering its bright leaves in the faint summer air.
A marked change showed itself in his face.
The moment before he had been passing in review the curious little
interruptions which had attended his walk, and had wondered humorously
what would happen next. Two women, meeting him, and seeing a smile on
his lips, had said to each other, "There goes a happy man." If they had
encountered him now, they might have reversed their opinion. They would
have seen a man thinking of something once dear to him, in the far and
unforgotten past.
He crossed over the road to the side-street which faced the garden. His
head drooped; he moved mechanically. Arrived in the street, he lifted
his eyes, and stood (within nearer view of it) looking at the tree.
Hundreds of miles away from London, under another tree of that gentle
family, this man--so cold to women in after life--had made child-love,
in the days of his boyhood, to a sweet little cousin long since numbered
with the dead. The present time, with its interests and anxieties,
passed away like the passing of a dream. Little by little, as the
minutes followed each other, his sore heart felt a calming influence,
breathed mysteriously from the fluttering leaves. Still forgetful of
the outward world, he wandered slowly up the street; living in the old
scenes; thinking, not unhappily now, the old thoughts.
Where, in all London, could he have found a solitude more congenial to a
dreamer in daylight?
The broad district, stretching northward and eastward from the British
Museum, is like the quiet quarter of a country town set in the midst of
the roaring activities of the largest city in the world. Here, you can
cross the road, without putting limb or life in peril. Here, when you
are idle, you can saunter and look about, safe from collision with
merciless straight-walkers whose time is money, and whose destiny is
business. Here, you may meet undisturbed cats on the pavement, in the
full glare of noontide, and may watch, through the railings of the
squares, children at play on grass that almost glows with the lustre of
the Sussex Downs. This haven of rest is alike out of the way of fashion
and business; and is yet within easy reach of the one and the other.
Ovid paused in a vast and silent square. If his little cousin had lived,
he might perhaps have seen his children at play in some such secluded
place as this.
The birds were singing blithely in the trees. A tradesman's boy,
delivering fish to the cook, and two girls watering flowers at a window,
were the only living creatures near him, as he roused himself and looked
around.
Where was the College? Where were the Curator and the Specimen? Those
questions brought with them no feeling of anxiety or surprise. He
turned, in a half-awakened way, without a wish or a purpose--turned, and
listlessly looked back.
Two foot-passengers, dressed in mourning garments, were rapidly
approaching him. One of them, as they came nearer, proved to be an aged
woman. The other was a girl.
He drew aside to let them pass. They looked at him with the lukewarm
curiosity of strangers, as they went by. The girl's eyes and his met.
Only the glance of an instant--and its influence held him for life.
She went swiftly on, as little impressed by the chance meeting as the
old woman at her side. Without stopping to think--without being capable
of thought--Ovid followed them. Never before had he done what he was
doing now; he was, literally, out of himself. He saw them ahead of him,
and he saw nothing else.
Towards the middle of the square, they turned aside into a street on the
left. A concert-hall was in the street--with doors open for an afternoon
performance. They entered the hall. Still out of himself, Ovid followed
them.
CHAPTER III.
A room of magnificent size; furnished with every conventional luxury
that money can buy; lavishly provided with newspapers and books of
reference; lighted by tall windows in the day-time, and by gorgeous
chandeliers at night, may be nevertheless one of the dreariest places of
rest and shelter that can be found on the civilised earth. Such places
exist, by hundreds, in those hotels of monstrous proportions and
pretensions, which now engulf the traveller who ends his journey on the
pier or the platform. It may be that we feel ourselves to be strangers
among strangers--it may be that there is something innately repellent in
splendid carpets and curtains, chairs and tables, which have no social
associations to recommend them--it may be that the mind loses its
elasticity under the inevitable restraint on friendly communication,
which expresses itself in lowered tones and instinctive distrust of
our next neighbour; but this alone is certain: life, in the public
drawing-room of a great hotel, is life with all its healthiest
emanations perishing in an exhausted receiver.
On the same day, and nearly at the same hour, when Ovid had left his
house, two women sat in a corner of the public room, in one of the
largest of the railway hotels latterly built in London.
Without observing it themselves, they were objects of curiosity to their
fellow-travellers. They spoke to each other in a foreign language.
They were dressed in deep mourning--with an absence of fashion and a
simplicity of material which attracted the notice of every other woman
in the room. One of them wore a black veil over her gray hair. Her hands
were brown, and knotty at the joints; her eyes looked unnaturally bright
for her age; innumerable wrinkles crossed and re-crossed her skinny
face; and her aquiline nose (as one of the ladies present took occasion
to remark) was so disastrously like the nose of the great Duke of
Wellington as to be an offensive feature in the face of a woman.
The lady's companion, being a man, took a more merciful view. "She can't
help being ugly," he whispered. "But see how she looks at the girl with
her. A good old creature, I say, if ever there was one yet." The lady
eyed him, as only a jealous woman can eye her husband, and whispered
back, "Of course you're in love with that slip of a girl!"
She was a slip of a girl--and not even a tall slip. At seventeen years
of age, it was doubtful whether she would ever grow to a better height.
But a girl who is too thin, and not even so tall as the Venus de'
Medici, may still be possessed of personal attractions. It was not
altogether a matter of certainty, in this case, that the attractions
were sufficiently remarkable to excite general admiration. The fine
colour and the plump healthy cheeks, the broad smile, and the regular
teeth, the well-developed mouth, and the promising bosom which form
altogether the average type of beauty found in the purely bred English
maiden, were not among the noticeable charms of the small creature in
gloomy black, shrinking into a corner of the big room. She had very
little colour of any sort to boast of. Her hair was of so light a brown
that it just escaped being flaxen; but it had the negative merit of
not being forced down to her eyebrows, and twisted into the hideous
curly-wig which exhibits a liberal equality of ugliness on the heads
of women in the present day. There was a delicacy of finish in her
features--in the nose and the lips especially--a sensitive changefulness
in the expression of her eyes (too dark in themselves to be quite in
harmony with her light hair), and a subtle yet simple witchery in
her rare smile, which atoned, in some degree at least, for want of
complexion in the face and of flesh in the figure. Men might dispute
her claims to beauty--but no one could deny that she was, in the common
phrase, an interesting person. Grace and refinement; a quickness of
apprehension and a vivacity of movement, suggestive of some foreign
origin; a childish readiness of wonder, in the presence of new
objects--and perhaps, under happier circumstances, a childish
playfulness with persons whom she loved--were all characteristic
attractions of the modest stranger who was in the charge of the ugly old
woman, and who was palpably the object of that wrinkled duenna's devoted
love.
A travelling writing-case stood open on a table near them. In an
interval of silence the girl looked at it reluctantly. They had been
talking of family affairs--and had spoken in Italian, so as to keep
their domestic secrets from the ears of the strangers about them. The
old woman was the first to resume the conversation.
"My Carmina, you really ought to write that letter," she said; "the
illustrious Mrs. Gallilee is waiting to hear of our arrival in London."
Carmina took up the pen, and put it down again with a sigh. "We only
arrived last night," she pleaded. "Dear old Teresa, let us have one day
in London by ourselves!"
Teresa received this proposal with undisguised amazement and alarm,
"Jesu Maria! a day in London--and your aunt waiting for you all the
time! She is your second mother, my dear, by appointment; and her house
is your new home. And you propose to stop a whole day at an hotel,
instead of going home. Impossible! Write, my Carmina--write. See, here
is the address on a card:--'Fairfield Gardens.' What a pretty place
it must be to live in, with such a name as that! And a sweet lady, no
doubt. Come! Come!"
But Carmina still resisted. "I have never even seen my aunt," she said.
"It is dreadful to pass my life with a stranger. Remember, I was only
a child when you came to us after my mother's death. It is hardly six
months yet since I lost my father. I have no one but you, and, when I go
to this new home, you will leave me. I only ask for one more day to be
together, before we part."
The poor old duenna drew back out of sight, in the shadow of a
curtain--and began to cry. Carmina took her hand, under cover of
a tablecloth; Carmina knew how to console her. "We will go and see
sights," she whispered "and, when dinner-time comes, you shall have a
glass of the Porto-porto-wine."
Teresa looked round out of the shadow, as easily comforted as a child.
"Sights!" she exclaimed--and dried her tears. "Porto-porto-wine!" she
repeated--and smacked her withered lips at the relishing words. "Ah,
my child, you have not forgotten the consolations I told you of, when
I lived in London in my young days. To think of you, with an English
father, and never in London till now! I used to go to museums and
concerts sometimes, when my English mistress was pleased with me. That
gracious lady often gave me a glass of the fine strong purple wine. The
Holy Virgin grant that Aunt Gallilee may be as kind a woman! Such a head
of hair as the other one she cannot hope to have. It was a joy to dress
it. Do you think I wouldn't stay here in England with you if I could?
What is to become of my old man in Italy, with his cursed asthma, and
nobody to nurse him? Oh, but those were dull years in London! The black
endless streets--the dreadful Sundays--the hundreds of thousands of
people, always in a hurry; always with grim faces set on business,
business, business! I was glad to go back and be married in Italy. And
here I am in London again, after God knows how many years. No matter.
We will enjoy ourselves to-day; and when we go to Madam Gallilee's
to-morrow, we will tell a little lie, and say we only arrived on the
evening that has not yet come."
The duenna's sense of humour was so tickled by this prospective view of
the little lie, that she leaned back in her chair and laughed. Carmina's
rare smile showed itself faintly. The terrible first interview with the
unknown aunt still oppressed her. She took up a newspaper in despair.
"Oh, my old dear!" she said, "let us get out of this dreadful room, and
be reminded of Italy!" Teresa lifted her ugly hands in bewilderment.
"Reminded of Italy--in London?"
"Is there no Italian music in London?" Carmina asked suggestively.
The duenna's bright eyes answered this in their own language. She
snatched up the nearest newspaper.
It was then the height of the London concert season. Morning
performances of music were announced in rows. Reading the advertised
programmes, Carmina found them, in one remarkable respect, all alike.
They would have led an ignorant stranger to wonder whether any such
persons as Italian composers, French composers, and English composers
had ever existed. The music offered to the English public was music of
exclusively German (and for the most part modern German) origin. Carmina
held the opinion--in common with Mozart and Rossini, as well as other
people--that music without melody is not music at all. She laid aside
the newspaper.
The plan of going to a concert being thus abandoned, the idea occurred
to them of seeing pictures. Teresa, in search of information, tried her
luck at a great table in the middle of the room, on which useful books
were liberally displayed. She returned with a catalogue of the Royal
Academy Exhibition (which someone had left on the table), and with the
most universally well-informed book, on a small scale, that has ever
enlightened humanity--modestly described on the title-page as an
Almanac.
Carmina opened the catalogue at the first page, and discovered a list of
Royal Academicians. Were all these gentlemen celebrated painters? Out
of nearly forty names, three only had made themselves generally known
beyond the limits of England. She turned to the last page. The works of
art on show numbered more than fifteen hundred. Teresa, looking over her
shoulder, made the same discovery. "Our heads will ache, and our feet
will ache," she remarked, "before we get out of that place." Carmina
laid aside the catalogue.
Teresa opened the Almanac at hazard, and hit on the page devoted
to Amusements. Her next discovery led her to the section inscribed
"Museums." She scored an approving mark at that place with her
thumbnail--and read the list in fluent broken English.
The British Museum? Teresa's memory of that magnificent building
recalled it vividly in one respect. She shook her head. "More headache
and footache, there!" Bethnal Green; Indian Museum; College of Surgeons;
Practical Geology; South Kensington; Patent Museum--all unknown to
Teresa. "The saints preserve us! what headaches and footaches in all
these, if they are as big as that other one!" She went on with the
list--and astonished everybody in the room by suddenly clapping her
hands. Sir John Soane's Museum, Lincoln's Inn Fields. "Ah, but I
remember that! A nice little easy museum in a private house, and all
sorts of pretty things to see. My dear love, trust your old Teresa. Come
to Soane!"
In ten minutes more they were dressed, and on the steps of the hotel.
The bright sunlight, the pleasant air, invited them to walk. On the same
afternoon, when Ovid had set forth on foot for Lincoln's Inn Fields,
Carmina and Teresa set forth on foot for Lincoln's Inn Fields. Trivial
obstacles had kept the man away from the College. Would trivial
obstacles keep the women away from the Museum?
They crossed the Strand, and entered a street which led out of it
towards the North; Teresa's pride in her memory forbidding her thus far
to ask their way.
Their talk--dwelling at first on Italy, and on the memory of Carmina's
Italian mother--reverted to the formidable subject of Mrs. Gallilee.
Teresa's hopeful view of the future turned to the cousins, and drew
the picture of two charming little girls, eagerly waiting to give their
innocent hearts to their young relative from Italy. "Are there only
two?" she said. "Surely you told me there was a boy, besides the girls?"
Carmina set her right. "My cousin Ovid is a great doctor," she continued
with an air of importance. "Poor papa used to say that our family would
have reason to be proud of him." "Does he live at home?" asked simple
Teresa. "Oh, dear, no! He has a grand house of his own. Hundreds of
sick people go there to be cured, and give hundreds of golden
guineas." Hundreds of golden guineas gained by only curing sick people,
represented to Teresa's mind something in the nature of a miracle: she
solemnly raised her eyes to heaven. "What a cousin to have! Is he young?
is he handsome? is he married?"
Instead of answering these questions, Carmina looked over her shoulder.
"Is this poor creature following us?" she asked.
They had now turned to the right, and had entered a busy street leading
directly to Covent Garden. The "creature" (who was undoubtedly following
them) was one of the starved and vagabond dogs of London. Every now and
then, the sympathies of their race lead these inveterate wanderers to
attach themselves, for the time, to some human companion, whom their
mysterious insight chooses from the crowd. Teresa, with the hard feeling
towards animals which is one of the serious defects of the Italian
character, cried, "Ah, the mangy beast!" and lifted her umbrella. The
dog starred back, waited a moment, and followed them again as they went
on.
Carmina's gentle heart gave its pity to this lost and hungry
fellow-creature. "I must buy that poor dog something to eat," she
said--and stopped suddenly as the idea struck her.
The dog, accustomed to kicks and curses, was ignorant of kindness.
Following close behind her, when she checked herself, he darted away in
terror into the road. A cab was driven by rapidly at the same moment.
The wheel passed over the dog's neck. And there was an end, as a man
remarked looking on, of the troubles of a cur.
This common accident struck the girl's sensitive nature with horror.
Helpless and speechless, she trembled piteously. The nearest open door
was the door of a music-seller's shop. Teresa led her in, and asked for
a chair and a glass of water. The proprietor, feeling the interest in
Carmina which she seldom failed to inspire among strangers, went the
length of offering her a glass of wine. Preferring water, she soon
recovered herself sufficiently to be able to leave her chair.
"May I change my mind about going to the museum?" she said to her
companion. "After what has happened, I hardly feel equal to looking at
curiosities."
Teresa's ready sympathy tried to find some acceptable alternative.
"Music would be better, wouldn't it?" she suggested.
The so-called Italian Opera was open that night, and the printed
announcement of the performance was in the shop. They both looked at
it. Fortune was still against them. A German opera appeared on the bill.
Carmina turned to the music-seller in despair. "Is there no music,
sir, but German music to be heard in London?" she asked. The hospitable
shopkeeper produced a concert programmed for that afternoon--the modest
enterprise of an obscure piano-forte teacher, who could only venture to
address pupils, patrons, and friends. What did he promise? Among other
things, music from "Lucia," music from "Norma," music from "Ernani."
Teresa made another approving mark with her thumb-nail; and Carmina
purchased tickets.
The music-seller hurried to the door to stop the first empty cab that
might pass. Carmina showed a deplorable ignorance of the law of chances.
She shrank from the bare idea of getting into a cab. "We may run over
some other poor creature," she said. "If it isn't a dog, it may be
a child next time." Teresa and the music-seller suggested a more
reasonable view as gravely as they could. Carmina humbly submitted to
the claims of common sense--without yielding, for all that. "I know I'm
wrong," she confessed. "Don't spoil my pleasure; I can't do it!"
The strange parallel was now complete. Bound for the same destination,
Carmina and Ovid had failed to reach it alike. And Carmina had stopped
to look at the garden of the British Museum, before she overtook Ovid in
the quiet square.
CHAPTER IV.
If, on entering the hall, Ovid had noticed the placards, he would have
found himself confronted by a coincidence. The person who gave the
concert was also the person who taught music to his half-sisters. Not
many days since, he had himself assisted the enterprise, by taking
a ticket at his mother's request. Seeing nothing, remembering
nothing--hurried by the fear of losing sight of the two strangers if
there was a large audience--he impatiently paid for another ticket, at
the doors.
The room was little more than half full, and so insufficiently
ventilated that the atmosphere was oppressive even under those
circumstances. He easily discovered the two central chairs, in the
midway row of seats, which she and her companion had chosen. There was a
vacant chair (among many others) at one extremity of the row in front
of them. He took that place. To look at her, without being
discovered--there, so far, was the beginning and the end of his utmost
desire.
The performances had already begun. So long as her attention was
directed to the singers and players on the platform, he could feast his
eyes on her with impunity. In an unoccupied interval, she looked at the
audience--and discovered him.
Had he offended her?
If appearances were to be trusted, he had produced no impression of any
sort. She quietly looked away, towards the other side of the room.
The mere turning of her head was misinterpreted by Ovid as an implied
rebuke. He moved to the row of seats behind her. She was now nearer to
him than she had been yet. He was again content, and more than content.
The next performance was a solo on the piano. A round of applause
welcomed the player. Ovid looked at the platform for the first time.
In the bowing man, with a prematurely bald head and a servile smile,
he recognized Mrs. Gallilee's music-master. The inevitable inference
followed. His mother might be in the room.
After careful examination of the scanty audience, he failed to discover
her--thus far. She would certainly arrive, nevertheless. My money's
worth for my money was a leading principle in Mrs. Gallilee's life.
He sighed as he looked towards the door of entrance. Not for long had
he revelled in the luxury of a new happiness. He had openly avowed his
dislike of concerts, when his mother had made him take a ticket for this
concert. With her quickness of apprehension what might she not suspect,
if she found him among the audience?
Come what might of it, he still kept his place; he still feasted his
eyes on the slim figure of the young girl, on the gentle yet spirited
carriage of her head. But the pleasure was no longer pleasure without
alloy. His mother had got between them now.
The solo on the piano came to an end.
In the interval that followed, he turned once more towards the entrance.
Just as he was looking away again, he heard Mrs. Gallilee's loud voice.
She was administering a maternal caution to one of the children. "Behave
better here than you behaved in the carriage, or I shall take you away."
If she found him in his present place--if she put her own clever
construction on what she saw--her opinion would assuredly express itself
in some way. She was one of those women who can insult another woman
(and safely disguise it) by an inquiring look. For the girl's sake, Ovid
instantly moved away from her to the seats at the back of the hall.
Mrs. Gallilee made a striking entrance--dressed to perfection; powdered
and painted to perfection; leading her daughters, and followed by her
governess. The usher courteously indicated places near the platform.
Mrs. Galilee astonished him by a little lecture on acoustics, delivered
with the sweetest condescension. Her Christian humility smiled, and call
the usher, Sir. "Sound, sir, is most perfectly heard towards the centre
of the auditorium." She led the way towards the centre. Vacant places
invited her to the row of seats occupied by Carmina and Teresa. She, the
unknown aunt, seated herself next to the unknown niece.
They looked at each other.
Perhaps, it was the heat of the room. Perhaps, she had not perfectly
recovered the nervous shock of seeing the dog killed. Carmina's head
sank on good Teresa's shoulder. She had fainted.
CHAPTER V.
"May I ask for a cup of tea, Miss Minerva?"
"Delighted, I'm sure, Mr. Le Frank."
"And was Mrs. Gallilee pleased with the Concert?"
"Charmed."
Mr. Le Frank shook his head. "I am afraid there was a drawback,"
he suggested. "You forget the lady who fainted. So alarming to the
audience. So disagreeable to the artists."
"Take care, Mr. Le Frank! These new houses are flimsily built; they
might hear you upstairs. The fainting lady is upstairs. All the elements
of a romance are upstairs. Is your tea to your liking?"
In this playfully provocative manner, Miss Minerva (the governess)
trifled with the curiosity of Mr. Le Frank (the music-master), as the
proverbial cat trifles with the terror of the captive mouse. The man
of the bald head and the servile smile showed a polite interest in the
coming disclosure; he opened his deeply-sunk eyes, and lazily lifted his
delicate eyebrows.
He had called at Mrs. Gallilee's house, after the concert, to get
a little tea (with a large infusion of praise) in the schoolroom. A
striking personal contrast confronted him, in the face of the lady who
was dispensing the hospitalities of the table. Mr. Le Frank's plump
cheeks were, in colour, of the obtrusively florid sort. The relics of
yellow hair, still adhering to the sides of his head, looked as silkily
frail as spun glass. His noble beard made amends for his untimely
baldness. The glossy glory of it exhaled delicious perfumes; the keenest
eyes might have tried in vain to discover a hair that was out of place.
Miss Minerva's eager sallow face, so lean, and so hard, and so long,
looked, by contrast, as if it wanted some sort of discreet covering
thrown over some part of it. Her coarse black hair projected like a
penthouse over her bushy black eyebrows and her keen black eyes.
Oh, dear me (as they said in the servants' hall), she would never be
married--so yellow and so learned, so ugly and so poor! And yet, if
mystery is interesting, this was an interesting woman. The people about
her felt an uneasy perception of something secret, ominously secret,
in the nature of the governess which defied detection. If Inquisitive
Science, vowed to medical research, could dissect firmness of will,
working at its steadiest repressive action--then, the mystery of Miss
Minerva's inner nature might possibly have been revealed. As it was,
nothing more remarkable exposed itself to view than an irritable temper;
serving perhaps as safety-valve to an underlying explosive force, which
(with strong enough temptation and sufficient opportunity) might yet
break out.
"Gently, Mr. Le Frank! The tea is hot--you may burn your mouth. How am
I to tell you what has happened?" Miss Minerva dropped the playfully
provocative tone, with infinite tact, exactly at the right moment. "Just
imagine," she resumed, "a scene on the stage, occurring in private life.
The lady who fainted at your concert, turns out to be no less a person
that Mrs. Gallilee's niece!"
The general folly which reads a prospectus and blindly speculates in
shares, is matched by the equally diffused stupidity, which is incapable
of discovering that there can be any possible relation between fiction
and truth. Say it's in a novel--and you are a fool if you believe it.
Say it's in a newspaper--and you are a fool if you doubt it. Mr. Le
Frank, following the general example, followed it on this occasion a
little too unreservedly. He avowed his doubts of the circumstance just
related, although it was, on the authority of a lady, a circumstance
occurring in real life! Far from being offended, Miss Minerva cordially
sympathized with him.
"It is too theatrical to be believed," she admitted; "but this
fainting young person is positively the interesting stranger we have
been expecting from Italy. You know Mrs. Gallilee. Hers was the first
smelling-bottle produced; hers was the presence of mind which suggested
a horizontal position. 'Help the heart,' she said; 'don't impede it.'
The whole theory of fainting fits, in six words! In another moment,"
proceeded the governess making a theatrical point without suspecting
it--"in another moment, Mrs. Gallilee herself stood in need of the
smelling-bottle."
Mr. Le Frank was not a true believer, even yet. "You don't mean she
fainted!" he said.
Miss Minerva held up the indicative forefinger, with which she
emphasized instruction when her pupils required rousing. "Mrs.
Gallilee's strength of mind--as I was about to say, if you had listened
to me--resisted the shock. What the effort must have cost her you will
presently understand. Our interesting young lady was accompanied by a
hideous old foreign woman who completely lost her head. She smacked
her hands distractedly; she called on the saints (without producing the
slightest effect)--but she mixed up a name, remarkable even in Italy,
with the rest of the delirium; and that was serious. Put yourself in
Mrs. Gallilee's place--"
"I couldn't do it," said Mr. Le Frank, with humility.
Miss Minerva passed over this reply without notice. Perhaps she was not
a believer in the humility of musicians.
"The young lady's Christian name," she proceeded, "is Carmina; (put
the accent, if you please, on the first syllable). The moment Mrs.
Gallilee heard the name, it struck her like a blow. She enlightened the
old woman, and asserted herself as Miss Carmina's aunt in an instant.
'I am Mrs. Gallilee:' that was all she said. The result"--Miss Minerva
paused, and pointed to the ceiling; "the result is up there. Our
charming guest was on the sofa, and the hideous old nurse was fanning
her, when I had the honour of seeing them just now. No, Mr. Le Frank!
I haven't done yet. There is a last act in this drama of private life
still to relate. A medical gentleman was present at the concert, who
offered his services in reviving Miss Carmina. The same gentleman is now
in attendance on the interesting patient. Can you guess who he is?"
Mr. Le Frank had sold a ticket for his concert to the medical adviser of
the family--one Mr. Null. A cautious guess in this direction seemed to
offer the likeliest chance of success.
"He is a patron of music," the pianist began.
"He hates music," the governess interposed.
"I mean Mr. Null," Mr. Le Frank persisted.
"I mean--" Miss Minerva paused (like the cat with the mouse
again!)--"I mean, Mr. Ovid Vere."
What form the music-master's astonishment might have assumed may be
matter for speculation, it was never destined to become matter of fact.
At the moment when Miss Minerva overwhelmed him with the climax of her
story, a little, rosy, elderly gentleman, with a round face, a sweet
smile, and a curly gray head, walked into the room, accompanied by two
girls. Persons of small importance--only Mr. Gallilee and his daughters.
"How d'ye-do, Mr. Le Frank. I hope you got plenty of money by the
concert. I gave away my own two tickets. You will excuse me, I'm sure.
Music, I can't think why, always sends me to sleep. Here are your two
pupils, Miss Minerva, safe and sound. It struck me we were rather in the
way, when that sweet young creature was brought home. Sadly in want
of quiet, poor thing--not in want of us. Mrs. Gallilee and Ovid, so
clever and attentive, were just the right people in the right place. So
I put on my hat--I'm always available, Mr. Le Frank; I have the great
advantage of never having anything to do--and I said to the girls,
'Let's have a walk.' We had no particular place to go to--that's another
advantage of mine--so we drifted about. I didn't mean it, but, somehow
or other, we stopped at a pastry-cook's shop. What was the name of the
pastry-cook?"
So far Mr. Gallilee proceeded, speaking in the oddest self-contradictory
voice, if such a description is permissible--a voice at once high in
pitch and mild in tone: in short, as Mr. Le Frank once professionally
remarked, a soft falsetto. When the good gentleman paused to make his
little effort of memory, his eldest daughter--aged twelve, and always
ready to distinguish herself--saw her opportunity, and took the rest of
the narrative into her own hands.
Miss Maria, named after her mother, was one of the successful new
products of the age we live in--the conventionally-charming child (who
has never been smacked); possessed of the large round eyes that we see
in pictures, and the sweet manners and perfect principles that we read
of in books. She called everybody "dear;" she knew to a nicety how much
oxygen she wanted in the composition of her native air; and--alas, poor
wretch!--she had never wetted her shoes or dirtied her face since the
day when she was born.
"Dear Miss Minerva," said Maria, "the pastry-cook's name was Timbal. We
have had ices."
His mind being now set at rest on the subject of the pastry-cook, Mr.
Gallilee turned to his youngest daughter--aged ten, and one of the
unsuccessful products of the age we live in. This was a curiously
slow, quaint, self-contained child; the image of her father, with an
occasional reflection of his smile; incurably stupid, or incurably
perverse--the friends of the family were not quite sure which. Whether
she might have been over-crammed with useless knowledge, was not a
question in connection with the subject which occurred to anybody.
"Rouse yourself, Zo," said Mr. Gallilee. "What did we have besides
ices?"
Zoe (known to her father, by vulgar abbreviation, as "Zo") took Mr.
Gallilee's stumpy red hand, and held hard by it as if that was the
one way in which a dull child could rouse herself, with a prospect of
success.
"I've had so many of them," she said; "I don't know. Ask Maria."
Maria responded with the sweetest readiness. "Dear Zoe, you are so slow!
Cheesecakes."
Mr. Gallilee patted Zoe's head as encouragingly as if she had discovered
the right answer by herself. "That's right--ices and cheese-cakes," he
said. "We tried cream-ice, and then we tried water-ice. The children,
Miss Minerva, preferred the cream-ice. And, do you know, I'm of their
opinion. There's something in a cream-ice--what do you think yourself of
cream-ices, Mr. Le Frank?"
It was one among the many weaknesses of Mr. Gallilee's character to be
incapable of opening his lips without, sooner or later, taking somebody
into his confidence. In the merest trifles, he instinctively invited
sympathy and agreement from any person within his reach--from a total
stranger quite as readily as from an intimate friend. Mr. Le Frank,
representing the present Court of Social Appeal, attempted to deliver
judgment on the question of ices, and was interrupted without ceremony
by Miss Minerva. She, too, had been waiting her opportunity to speak,
and she now took it--not amiably.
"With all possible respect, Mr. Gallilee, I venture to entreat that you
will be a little more thoughtful, where the children are concerned. I
beg your pardon, Mr. Le Frank, for interrupting you--but it is really
a little too hard on Me. I am held responsible for the health of these
girls; I am blamed over and over again, when it is not my fault, for
irregularities in their diet--and there they are, at this moment,
chilled with ices and cloyed with cakes! What will Mrs. Gallilee say?"
"Don't tell her," Mr. Gallilee suggested.
"The girls will be thirsty for the rest of the evening," Miss Minerva
persisted; "the girls will have no appetite for the last meal before
bedtime. And their mother will ask Me what it means."
"My good creature," cried Mr. Gallilee, "don't be afraid of the girls'
appetites! Take off their hats, and give them something nice for supper.
They inherit my stomach, Miss Minerva--and they'll 'tuck in,' as we used
to say at school. Did they say so in your time, Mr. Le Frank?"
Mrs. Gallilee's governess and vulgar expressions were anomalies never to
be reconciled, under any circumstances. Miss Minerva took off the hats
in stern silence. Even "Papa" might have seen the contempt in her face,
if she had not managed to hide it in this way, by means of the girls.
In the silence that ensued, Mr. Le Frank had his chance of speaking, and
showed himself to be a gentleman with a happily balanced character--a
musician, with an eye to business. Using gratitude to Mr. Gallilee as a
means of persuasion, he gently pushed the interests of a friend who was
giving a concert next week. "We poor artists have our faults, my dear
sir; but we are all earnest in helping each other. My friend sang for
nothing at my concert. Don't suppose for a moment that he expects it of
me! But I am going to play for nothing at his concert. May I appeal to
your kind patronage to take two tickets?" The reply ended appropriately
in musical sound--a golden tinkling, in Mr. Le Frank's pocket.
Having paid his tribute to art and artists, Mr. Gallilee looked
furtively at Miss Minerva. On the wise principle of letting well alone,
he perceived that the happy time had arrived for leaving the room. How
was he to make his exit? He prided himself on his readiness of resource,
in difficulties of this sort, and he was equal to the occasion as
usual--he said he would go to his club.
"We really have a capital smoking-room at that club," he said. "I do
like a good cigar; and--what do you think Mr. Le Frank?--isn't a pint
of champagne nice drinking, this hot weather? Just cooled with ice--I
don't know whether you feel the weather, Miss Minerva, as I do?--and
poured, fizzing, into a silver mug. Lord, how delicious! Good-bye,
girls. Give me a kiss before I go."
Maria led the way, as became the elder. She not only gave the kiss, but
threw an appropriate sentiment into the bargain. "I do love you,
dear papa!" said this perfect daughter--with a look in Miss Minerva's
direction, which might have been a malicious look in any eyes but
Maria's.
Mr. Gallilee turned to his youngest child. "Well, Zo--what do you
say?"
Zo took her father's hand once more, and rubbed her head against it like
a cat. This new method of expressing filial affection seemed to interest
Mr. Gallilee. "Does your head itch, my dear?" he asked. The idea was new
to Zo. She brightened, and looked at her father with a sly smile. "Why
do you do it?" Miss Minerva asked sharply. Zo clouded over again, and
answered, "I don't know." Mr. Gallilee rewarded her with a kiss, and
went away to champagne and the club.
Mr. Le Frank left the schoolroom next. He paid the governess the
compliment of reverting to her narrative of events at the concert.
"I am greatly struck," he said, "by what you told me about Mr. Ovid
Vere. We may, perhaps, have misjudged him in thinking that he doesn't
like music. His coming to my concert suggests a more cheering view. Do
you think there would be any impropriety in my calling to thank him?
Perhaps it would be better if I wrote, and enclosed two tickets for my
friend's concert? To tell you the truth, I've pledged myself to dispose
of a certain number of tickets. My friend is so much in request--it's
expecting too much to ask him to sing for nothing. I think I'll write.
Good-evening!"
Left alone with her pupils, Miss Minerva looked at her watch. "Prepare
your lessons for to-morrow," she said.
The girls produced their books. Maria's library of knowledge was in
perfect order. The pages over which Zo pondered in endless perplexity
were crumpled by weary fingers, and stained by frequent tears. Oh, fatal
knowledge! mercifully forbidden to the first two of our race, who shall
count the crimes and stupidities committed in your name?
Miss Minerva leaned back in her easy-chair. Her mind was occupied by the
mysterious question of Ovid's presence at the concert. She raised her
keenly penetrating eyes to the ceiling, and listened for sounds from
above.
"I wonder," she thought to herself, "what they are doing upstairs?"
CHAPTER VI.
Mrs. Gallilee was as complete a mistress of the practice of domestic
virtue as of the theory of acoustics and fainting fits. At dressing
with taste, and ordering dinners with invention; at heading her table
gracefully, and making her guests comfortable; at managing refractory
servants and detecting dishonest tradespeople, she was the equal of
the least intellectual woman that ever lived. Her preparations for the
reception of her niece were finished in advance, without an oversight
in the smallest detail. Carmina's inviting bedroom, in blue, opened
into Carmina's irresistible sitting-room, in brown. The ventilation
was arranged, the light and shade were disposed, the flowers were
attractively placed, under Mrs. Gallilee's infallible superintendence.
Before Carmina had recovered her senses she was provided with a second
mother, who played the part to perfection.
The four persons, now assembled in the pretty sitting-room upstairs,
were in a position of insupportable embarrassment towards each other.
Finding her son at a concert (after he had told her that he hated music)
Mrs. Gallilee, had first discovered him hurrying to the assistance of
a young lady in a swoon, with all the anxiety and alarm which he might
have shown in the case of a near and dear friend. And yet, when this
stranger was revealed as a relation, he had displayed an amazement equal
to her own! What explanation could reconcile such contradictions as
these?
As for Carmina, her conduct complicated the mystery.
What was she doing at a concert, when she ought to have been on her way
to her aunt's house? Why, if she must faint when the hot room had not
overpowered anyone else, had she failed to recover in the usual way?
There she lay on the sofa, alternately flushing and turning pale when
she was spoken to; ill at ease in the most comfortable house in London;
timid and confused under the care of her best friends. Making all
allowance for a sensitive temperament, could a long journey from Italy,
and a childish fright at seeing a dog run over, account for such a state
of things as this?
Annoyed and perplexed--but yet far too prudent to commit herself
ignorantly to inquiries which might lead to future embarrassment--Mrs.
Gallilee tried suggestive small talk as a means of enlightenment. The
wrinkled duenna, sitting miserably on satin supported by frail gilt
legs, seemed to take her tone of feeling from her young mistress,
exactly as she took her orders. Mrs. Gallilee spoke to her in English,
and spoke to her in Italian--and could make nothing of the experiment in
either case. The wild old creature seemed to be afraid to look at her.
Ovid himself proved to be just as difficult to fathom, in another way
He certainly answered when his mother spoke to him, but always briefly,
and in the same absent tone. He asked no questions, and offered no
explanations. The sense of embarrassment, on his side, had produced
unaccountable changes. He showed the needful attention to Carmina,
with a silent gentleness which presented him in a new character. His
customary manner with ailing persons, women as well as men, was rather
abrupt: his quick perception hurried him into taking the words out of
their mouths (too pleasantly to give offence) when they were describing
their symptoms. There he sat now, contemplating his pale little cousin,
with a patient attention wonderful to see; listening to the commonplace
words which dropped at intervals from her lips, as if--in his state of
health, and with the doubtful prospect which it implied--there were no
serious interests to occupy his mind.
Mrs. Gallilee could endure it no longer.
If she had not deliberately starved her imagination, and emptied her
heart of any tenderness of feeling which it might once have possessed,
her son's odd behaviour would have interested instead of perplexing her.
As it was, her scientific education left her as completely in the dark,
where questions of sentiment were concerned, as if her experience of
humanity, in its relation to love, had been experience in the cannibal
islands. She decided on leaving her niece to repose, and on taking her
son away with her.
"In your present state of health, Ovid," she began, "Carmina must not
accept your professional advice."
Something in those words stung Ovid's temper.
"My professional advice?" he repeated. "You talk as if she was seriously
ill!"
Carmina's sweet smile stopped him there.
"We don't know what may happen," she said, playfully.
"God forbid that should happen!" He spoke so fervently that the women
all looked at him in surprise.
Mrs. Gallilee turned to her niece, and proceeded quietly with what she
had to say.
"Ovid is so sadly overworked, my dear, that I actually rejoice in his
giving up practice, and going away from us to-morrow. We will leave you
for the present with your old friend. Pray ring, if you want anything."
She kissed her hand to Carmina, and, beckoning to her son, advanced
towards the door.
Teresa looked at her, and suddenly looked away again. Mrs. Gallilee
stopped on her way out, at a chiffonier, and altered the arrangement of
some of the china on it. The duenna followed on tiptoe--folded her thumb
and two middle fingers into the palm of her hand--and, stretching out
the forefinger and the little finger, touched Mrs. Gallilee on the back,
so softly that she was unaware of it. "The Evil Eye," Teresa whispered
to herself in Italian, as she stole back to her place.
Ovid lingered near his cousin: neither of them had seen what Teresa
had done. He rose reluctantly to go. Feeling his little attentions
gratefully, Carmina checked him with innocent familiarity as he left his
chair. "I must thank you," she said, simply; "it seems hard indeed that
you, who cure others, should suffer from illness yourself."
Teresa, watching them with interest, came a little nearer.
She could now examine Ovid's face with close and jealous scrutiny. Mrs.
Gallilee reminded her son that she was waiting for him. He had some last
words yet to say. The duenna drew back from the sofa, still looking at
Ovid: she muttered to herself, "Holy Teresa, my patroness, show me that
man's soul in his face!" At last, Ovid took his leave. "I shall call and
see how you are to-morrow," he said, "before I go." He nodded kindly to
Teresa. Instead of being satisfied with that act of courtesy, she wanted
something more. "May I shake hands?" she asked. Mrs. Gallilee was a
Liberal in politics; never had her principles been tried, as they
were tried when she heard those words. Teresa wrung Ovid's hand with
tremulous energy--still intent on reading his character in his face. He
asked her, smiling, what she saw to interest her. "A good man, I hope,"
she answered, sternly. Carmina and Ovid were amused. Teresa rebuked
them, as if they had been children. "Laugh at some fitter time," she
said, "not now."
Descending the stairs, Mrs. Gallilee and Ovid met the footman. "Mr. Mool
is in the library, ma'am," the man said.
"Have you anything to do, Ovid, for the next half-hour?" his mother
asked.
"Do you wish me to see Mr. Mool? If it's law-business, I am afraid I
shall not be of much use."
"The lawyer is here by appointment, with a copy of your late uncle's
Will," Mrs. Gallilee answered. "You may have some interest in it. I
think you ought to hear it read."
Ovid showed no inclination to adopt this proposal. He asked an idle
question. "I heard of their finding the Will--are there any romantic
circumstances?"
Mrs. Gallilee surveyed her son with an expression of good-humoured
contempt. "What a boy you are, in some things! Have you been reading a
novel lately? My dear, when the people in Italy made up their minds, at
last, to have the furniture in your uncle's room taken to pieces, they
found the Will. It had slipped behind a drawer, in a rotten old cabinet,
full of useless papers. Nothing romantic (thank God!), and nothing
(as Mr. Mool's letter tells me) that can lead to misunderstandings or
disputes."
Ovid's indifference was not to be conquered. He left it to his mother to
send him word if he had a legacy "I am not as much interested in it as
you are," he explained. "Plenty of money left to you, of course?" He was
evidently thinking all the time of something else.
Mrs. Gallilee stopped in the hall, with an air of downright alarm.
"Your mind is in a dreadful state," she said.
"Have you really forgotten what I told you, only yesterday? The Will
appoints me Carmina's guardian."
He had plainly forgotten it--he started, when his mother recalled the
circumstance. "Curious," he said to himself, "that I was not reminded of
it, when I saw Carmina's rooms prepared for her." His mother, anxiously
looking at him, observed that his face brightened when he spoke of
Carmina. He suddenly changed his mind.
"Make allowances for an overworked man," he said. "You are quite right.
I ought to hear the Will read--I am at your service."
Even Mrs. Gallilee now drew the right inference at last. She made no
remark. Something seemed to move feebly under her powder and paint. Soft
emotion trying to find its way to the surface? Impossible!
As they entered the library together, Miss Minerva returned to the
schoolroom. She had lingered on the upper landing, and had heard the
conversation between mother and son.
CHAPTER VII.
The library at Fairfield Gardens possessed two special attractions,
besides the books. It opened into a large conservatory; and it was
adorned by an admirable portrait of Mrs. Gallilee, painted by her
brother.
Waiting the appearance of the fair original, Mr. Mool looked at the
portrait, and then mentally reviewed the history of Mrs. Gallilee's
family. What he did next, no person acquainted with the habits of
lawyers will be weak enough to believe. Mr. Mool blushed.
Is this the language of exaggeration, describing a human anomaly on the
roll of attorneys? The fact shall be left to answer the question. Mr.
Mool had made a mistake in his choice of a profession. The result of the
mistake was--a shy lawyer.
Attended by such circumstances as these, the history of the family
assumes, for the moment, a certain importance. It is connected with a
blushing attorney. It will explain what happened on the reading of the
Will. And it is sure beforehand of a favourable reception--for it is all
about money.
Old Robert Graywell began life as the son of a small farmer. He was
generally considered to be rather an eccentric man; but prospered,
nevertheless, as a merchant in the city of London. When he retired from
business, he possessed a house and estate in the country, and a handsome
fortune safely invested in the Funds.
His children were three in number:--his son Robert, and his daughters
Maria and Susan.
The death of his wife, to whom he was devotedly attached, was the first
serious calamity of his life. He retired to his estate a soured and
broken man. Loving husbands are not always, as a necessary consequence,
tender fathers. Old Robert's daughters afforded him no consolation on
their mother's death. Their anxiety about their mourning dresses so
disgusted him that he kept out of their way. No extraordinary interest
was connected with their prospects in life: they would be married--and
there would be an end of them. As for the son, he had long since placed
himself beyond the narrow range of his father's sympathies. In the first
place, his refusal to qualify himself for a mercantile career had made
it necessary to dispose of the business to strangers. In the second
place, young Robert Graywell proved--without any hereditary influence,
and in the face of the strongest discouragement--to be a born painter!
One of the greatest artists of that day saw the boy's first efforts, and
pronounced judgment in these plain words: "What a pity he has not got
his bread to earn by his brush!"
On the death of old Robert, his daughters found themselves (to use their
own expression) reduced to a trumpery legacy of ten thousand pounds
each. Their brother inherited the estate, and the bulk of the
property--not because his father cared about founding a family, but
because the boy had always been his mother's favourite.
The first of the three children to marry was the eldest sister.
Maria considered herself fortunate in captivating Mr. Vere--a man of
old family, with a high sense of what he owed to his name. He had a
sufficient income, and he wanted no more. His wife's dowry was settled
on herself. When he died, he left her a life-interest in his property
amounting to six hundred a year. This, added to the annual proceeds
of her own little fortune, made an income of one thousand pounds. The
remainder of Mr. Vere's property was left to his only surviving child,
Ovid.
With a thousand a year for herself, and with two thousand a year for her
son, on his coming of age, the widowed Maria might possibly have been
satisfied--but for the extraordinary presumption of her younger sister.
Susan, ranking second in age, ranked second also in beauty; and yet, in
the race for a husband, Susan won the prize!
Soon after her sister's marriage, she made a conquest of a Scotch
nobleman, possessed of a palace in London, and a palace in Scotland, and
a rent-roll of forty thousand pounds. Maria, to use her own expression,
never recovered it. From the horrid day when Susan became Lady
Northlake, Maria became a serious woman. All her earthly interests
centred now in the cultivation of her intellect. She started on that
glorious career, which associated her with the march of science. In only
a year afterwards--as an example of the progress which a resolute woman
can make--she was familiar with zoophyte fossils, and had succeeded in
dissecting the nervous system of a bee.
Was there no counter-attraction in her married life?
Very little. Mr. Vere felt no sympathy with his wife's scientific
pursuits.
On her husband's death, did she find no consolation in her son? Let
her speak for herself. "My son fills my heart. But the school, the
university, and the hospital have all in turn taken his education out of
my hands. My mind must be filled, as well as my heart." She seized her
exquisite instruments, and returned to the nervous system of the bee.
In course of time, Mr. John Gallilee--"drifting about," as he said of
himself--drifted across the path of science.
The widowed Mrs. Vere (as exhibited in public) was still a fine woman.
Mr. Gallilee admired "that style"; and Mr. Gallilee had fifty thousand
pounds. Only a little more, to my lord and my lady, than one year's
income. But, invested at four percent, it added an annual two thousand
pounds to Mrs. Vere's annual one thousand. Result, three thousand a
year, encumbered with Mr. Gallilee. On reflection, Mrs. Vere
accepted the encumbrance--and reaped her reward. Susan was no longer
distinguished as the sister who had her dresses made in Paris; and Mrs.
Gallilee was not now subjected to the indignity of getting a lift in
Lady Northlake's carriage.
What was the history of Robert, during this interval of time? In two
words, Robert disgraced himself.
Taking possession of his country house, the new squire was invited to
contribute towards the expense of a pack of hounds kept by subscription
in the neighbourhood, and was advised to make acquaintance with his
fellow-sportsmen by giving a hunt-breakfast. He answered very politely;
but the fact was not to be concealed--the new man refused to encourage
hunting: he thought that noble amusement stupid and cruel. For the same
reason, he refused to preserve game. A last mistake was left to make,
and he made it. After returning the rector's visit, he failed to
appear at church. No person with the smallest knowledge of the English
character, as exhibited in an English county, will fail to foresee that
Robert's residence on his estate was destined to come, sooner or later,
to an untimely end. When he had finished his sketches of the picturesque
aspects of his landed property, he disappeared. The estate was not
entailed. Old Robert--who had insisted on the minutest formalities
and details in providing for his dearly-loved wife--was impenetrably
careless about the future of his children. "My fortune has no value now
in my eyes," he said to judicious friends; "let them run through it all,
if they please. It would do them a deal of good if they were obliged to
earn their own living, like better people than themselves." Left free to
take his own way, Robert sold the estate merely to get rid of it. With
no expensive tastes, except the taste for buying pictures, he became a
richer man than ever.
When their brother next communicated with them, Lady Northlake and Mrs.
Gallilee heard of him as a voluntary exile in Italy. He was building a
studio and a gallery; he was contemplating a series of pictures; and he
was a happy man for the first time in his life.
Another interval passed--and the sisters heard of Robert again.
Having already outraged the sense of propriety among his English
neighbours, he now degraded himself in the estimation of his family,
by marrying a "model." The letter announcing this event declared, with
perfect truth, that he had chosen a virtuous woman for his wife. She sat
to artists, as any lady might sit to any artist, "for the head only."
Her parents gained a bare subsistence by farming their own little morsel
of land; they were honest people--and what did brother Robert care for
rank? His own grandfather had been a farmer.
Lady Northlake and Mrs. Gallilee felt it due to themselves to hold a
consultation, on the subject of their sister-in-law. Was it desirable,
in their own social interests, to cast Robert off from that moment?
Susan (previously advised by her kind-hearted husband) leaned to the
side of mercy. Robert's letter informed them that he proposed to live,
and die, in Italy. If he held to this resolution, his marriage would
surely be an endurable misfortune to his relatives in London. "Suppose
we write to him," Susan concluded, "and say we are surprised, but
we have no doubt he knows best. We offer our congratulations to Mrs.
Robert, and our sincere wishes for his happiness."
To Lady Northlake's astonishment, Mrs. Gallilee adopted this indulgent
point of view, without a word of protest. She had her reasons--but they
were not producible to a relative whose husband had forty thousand a
year. Robert had paid her debts.
An income of three thousand pounds, even in these days, represents a
handsome competence--provided you don't "owe a duty to society." In
Mrs. Gallilee's position, an income of three thousand pounds represented
genteel poverty. She was getting into debt again; and she was meditating
future designs on her brother's purse. A charming letter to Robert
was the result. It ended with, "Do send me a photograph of your lovely
wife!" When the poor "model" died, not many years afterwards, leaving
one little daughter, Mrs. Gallilee implored her brother to return to
England. "Come, dearest Robert, and find consolation and a home, under
the roof of your affectionate Maria."
But Robert remained in Italy, and was buried in Italy. At the date of
his death, he had three times paid his elder sister's debts. On
every occasion when he helped her in this liberal way, she proved her
gratitude by anticipating a larger, and a larger, and a larger legacy if
she outlived him.
Knowing (as the family lawyer) what sums of money Mrs. Gallilee had
extracted from her brother, Mr. Mool also knew that the advances thus
made had been considered as representing the legacy, to which she might
otherwise have had some sisterly claim. It was his duty to have warned
her of this, when she questioned him generally on the subject of the
Will; and he had said nothing about it, acting under a most unbecoming
motive--in plain words, the motive of fear. From the self-reproachful
feeling that now disturbed him, had risen that wonderful blush which
made its appearance on Mr. Mool's countenance. He was actually ashamed
of himself. After all, is it too much to have suggested that he was a
human anomaly on the roll of attorneys?
CHAPTER VIII.
Mrs. Gallilee made her appearance in the library--and Mr. Mool's
pulse accelerated its beat. Mrs. Gallilee's son followed her into the
room--and Mr. Mool's pulse steadied itself again. By special arrangement
with the lawyer, Ovid had been always kept in ignorance of his mother's
affairs. No matter how angry she might be in the course of the next few
minutes, she could hardly express her indignation in the presence of her
son.
Joyous anticipation has the happiest effect on female beauty. Mrs.
Gallilee looked remarkably well, that day. Having rather a round and
full face, she wore her hair (coloured from youthful nature) in a fringe
across her forehead, balanced on either side by clusters of charming
little curls. Her mourning for Robert was worthy of its Parisian origin;
it showed to perfect advantage the bloom of her complexion and the
whiteness of her neck--also worthy of their Parisian origin. She looked
like a portrait of the period of Charles the Second, endowed with life.
"And how do you do, Mr. Mool? Have you been looking at my ferns?"
The ferns were grouped at the entrance, leading from the library to the
conservatory. They had certainly not escaped the notice of the lawyer,
who possessed a hot-house of his own, and who was an enthusiast in
botany. It now occurred to him--if he innocently provoked embarrassing
results--that ferns might be turned to useful and harmless account as a
means of introducing a change of subject. "Even when she hasn't spoken a
word," thought Mr. Mool, consulting his recollections, "I have felt her
eyes go through me like a knife."
"Spare us the technicalities, please," Mrs. Gallilee continued, pointing
to the documents on the table. "I want to be exactly acquainted with the
duties I owe to Carmina. And, by the way, I naturally feel some interest
in knowing whether Lady Northlake has any place in the Will."
Mrs. Gallilee never said "my sister," never spoke in the family
circle of "Susan." The inexhaustible sense of injury, aroused by that
magnificent marriage, asserted itself in keeping her sister at the full
distance implied by never forgetting her title.
"The first legacy mentioned in the Will," said Mr. Mool, "is a legacy
to Lady Northlake." Mrs. Gallilee's face turned as hard as iron. "One
hundred pounds," Mr. Mool continued, "to buy a mourning ring."' Mrs.
Gallilee's eyes became eloquent in an instant, and said as if in words,
"Thank Heaven!"
"So like your uncle's unpretending good sense," she remarked to her son.
"Any other legacy to Lady Northlake would have been simply absurd. Yes,
Mr. Mool? Perhaps my name follows?"
Mr. Mool cast a side-look at the ferns. He afterwards described his
sensations as reminding him of previous experience in a dentist's chair,
at the awful moment when the operator says "Let me look," and has his
devilish instrument hidden in his hand. The "situation," to use the
language of the stage, was indeed critical enough already. Ovid added to
the horror of it by making a feeble joke. "What will you take for your
chance, mother?"
Before bad became worse, Mr. Mool summoned the energy of despair. He
wisely read the exact words of the Will, this time: "'And I give and
bequeath to my sister, Mrs. Maria Gallilee, one hundred pounds."'
Ovid's astonishment could only express itself in action. He started to
his feet.
Mr. Mool went on reading. "'Free of legacy duty, to buy a mourning
ring--"'
"Impossible!" Ovid broke out.
Mr. Mool finished the sentence. "'And my sister will understand the
motive which animates me in making this bequest."' He laid the Will on
the table, and ventured to look up. At the same time, Ovid turned to
his mother, struck by the words which had been just read, and eager to
inquire what their meaning might be.
Happily for themselves, the two men never knew what the preservation of
their tranquillity owed to that one moment of delay.
If they had looked at Mrs. Gallilee, when she was first aware of
her position in the Will, they might have seen the incarnate Devil
self-revealed in a human face. They might have read, in her eyes and on
her lips, a warning hardly less fearful than the unearthly writing on
the wall, which told the Eastern Monarch of his coming death. "See
this woman, and know what I can do with her, when she has repelled her
guardian angel, and her soul is left to ME."
But the revelation showed itself, and vanished. Her face was composed
again, when her son and her lawyer looked at it. Her voice was under
control; her inbred capacity for deceit was ready for action. All those
formidable qualities in her nature, which a gentler and wiser training
than hers had been might have held in check--by development of
preservative influences that lay inert--were now driven back to their
lurking-place; leaving only the faintest traces of their momentary
appearance on the surface. Her breathing seemed to be oppressed; her
eyelids drooped heavily--and that was all.
"Is the room too hot for you?" Ovid asked.
It was a harmless question, but any question annoyed her at that moment.
"Nonsense!" she exclaimed irritably.
"The atmosphere of the conservatory is rich in reviving smells," Mr.
Mool remarked. "Do I detect, among the delightful perfumes which reach
us, the fragrant root-stock of the American fern? If I am wrong, Mrs.
Gallilee, may I send you some of the sweet-smelling Maidenhair from my
own little hot-house?" He smiled persuasively. The ferns were already
justifying his confidence in their peace-making virtues, turned
discreetly to account. Those terrible eyes rested on him mercifully.
Not even a covert allusion to his silence in the matter of the legacy
escaped her. Did the lawyer's artlessly abrupt attempt to change the
subject warn her to be on her guard? In any case, she thanked him with
the readiest courtesy for his kind offer. Might she trouble him in the
meantime to let her see the Will?
She read attentively the concluding words of the clause in which her
name appeared--"My sister will understand the motive which animates
me in making this bequest"--and then handed back the Will to Mr.
Mool. Before Ovid could ask for it, she was ready with a plausible
explanation. "When your uncle became a husband and a father," she said,
"those claims on him were paramount. He knew that a token of remembrance
(the smaller the better) was all I could accept, if I happened to
outlive him. Please go on, Mr. Mool."
In one respect, Ovid resembled his late uncle. They both belonged to
that high-minded order of men, who are slow to suspect, and therefore
easy to deceive. Ovid tenderly took his mother's hand.
"I ought to have known it," he said, "without obliging you to tell me."
Mrs. Gallilee did not blush. Mr. Mool did.
"Go on!" Mrs. Gallilee repeated. Mr. Mool looked at Ovid. "The next
name, Mr. Vere, is yours."
"Does my uncle remember me as he has remembered my mother?" asked Ovid.
"Yes, sir--and let me tell you, a very pretty compliment is attached to
the bequest. 'It is needless' (your late uncle says) 'to leave any more
important proof of remembrance to my nephew. His father has already
provided for him; and, with his rare abilities, he will make a second
fortune by the exercise of his profession.' Most gratifying, Mrs.
Gallilee, is it nor? The next clause provides for the good old
housekeeper Teresa, and for her husband if he survives her, in the
following terms--"
Mrs. Gallilee was becoming impatient to hear more of herself. "We may, I
think, pass over that," she suggested, "and get to the part of it
which relates to Carmina and me. Don't think I am impatient; I am only
desirous--"
The growling of a dog in the conservatory interrupted her. "That
tiresome creature!" she said sharply; "I shall be obliged to get rid of
him!"
Mr. Mool volunteered to drive the dog out of the conservatory. Mrs.
Gallilee, as irritable as ever, stopped him at the door.
"Don't, Mr. Mool! That dog's temper is not to be trusted. He shows it
with Miss Minerva, my governess--growls just in that way whenever he
sees her. I dare say he smells you. There! Now he barks! You are only
making him worse. Come back!"
Being at the door, gentle Mr. Mool tried the ferns as peace-makers once
more. He gathered a leaf, and returned to his place in a state of meek
admiration. "The flowering fern!" he said softly.
"A really fine specimen, Mrs. Gallilee, of the Osmunda Regalis. What
a world of beauty in this bipinnate frond! One hardly knows where the
stalk ends and the leaf begins!"
The dog, a bright little terrier, came trotting into the library He
saluted the company briskly with his tail, not excepting Mr. Mool. No
growl, or approach to a growl, now escaped him. The manner in which
he laid himself down at Mrs. Gallilee's feet completely refuted her
aspersion on his temper. Ovid suggested that he might have been provoked
by a cat in the conservatory.
Meanwhile, Mr. Mool turned over a page of the Will, and arrived at the
clauses relating to Carmina and her guardian.
"It may not be amiss," he began, "to mention, in the first place, that
the fortune left to Miss Carmina amounts, in round numbers, to one
hundred and thirty thousand pounds. The Trustees--"
"Skip the Trustees," said Mrs. Gallilee.
Mr. Mool skipped.
"In the matter of the guardian," he said, "there is a preliminary
clause, in the event of your death or refusal to act, appointing Lady
Northlake--"
"Skip Lady Northlake," said Mrs. Gallilee.
Mr. Mool skipped.
"You are appointed Miss Carmina's guardian, until she comes of age," he
resumed. "If she marries in that interval--"
He paused to turn over a page. Not only Mrs. Gallilee, but Ovid also,
now listened with the deepest interest.
"If she marries in that interval, with her guardian's approval--"
"Suppose I don't approve of her choice?" Mrs. Gallilee interposed.
Ovid looked at his mother--and quickly looked away again. The restless
little terrier caught his eye, and jumped up to be patted. Ovid was
too pre-occupied to notice this modest advance. The dog's eyes and ears
expressed reproachful surprise. His friend Ovid had treated him rudely
for the first time in his life.
"If the young lady contracts a matrimonial engagement of which you
disapprove," Mr. Mool answered, "you are instructed by the testator to
assert your reasons in the presence of--well, I may describe it, as
a family council; composed of Mr. Gallilee, and of Lord and Lady
Northlake."
"Excessively foolish of Robert," Mrs. Gallilee remarked. "And what, Mr.
Mool, is this meddling council of three to do?"
"A majority of the council, Mrs. Gallilee, is to decide the question
absolutely. If the decision confirms your view, and if Miss Carmina
still persists in her resolution notwithstanding--"
"Am I to give way?" Mrs. Gallilee asked.
"Not until your niece comes of age, ma'am. Then, she decides for
herself."
"And inherits the fortune?"
"Only an income from part of it--if her marriage is disapproved by her
guardian and her relatives."
"And what becomes of the rest?"
"The whole of it," said Mr. Mool, "will be invested by the Trustees, and
will be divided equally, on her death, among her children."
"Suppose she leaves no children?"
"That case is provided for, ma'am, by the last clause. I will only say
now, that you are interested in the result."
Mrs. Gallilee turned swiftly and sternly to her son. "When I am dead and
gone," she said, "I look to you to defend my memory."
"To defend your memory?" Ovid repeated, wondering what she could
possibly mean.
"If I do become interested in the disposal of Robert's fortune--which
God forbid!--can't you foresee what will happen?" his mother inquired
bitterly. "Lady Northlake will say, 'Maria intrigued for this!'"
Mr. Mool looked doubtfully at the ferns. No! His vegetable allies were
not strong enough to check any further outpouring of such family feeling
as this. Nothing was to be trusted, in the present emergency, but the
superior authority of the Will.
"Pardon me," he said; "there are some further instructions, Mrs.
Gallilee, which, as I venture to think, exhibit your late brother's
well-known liberality of feeling in a very interesting light. They
relate to the provision made for his daughter, while she is residing
under your roof. Miss Carmina is to have the services of the best
masters, in finishing her education."
"Certainly!" cried Mrs. Gallilee, with the utmost fervour.
"And the use of a carriage to herself, whenever she may require it."
"No, Mr. Mool! Two carriages--in such a climate as this. One open, and
one closed."
"And to defray these and other expenses, the Trustees are authorized to
place at your disposal one thousand a year."
"Too much! too much!"
Mr. Mool might have agreed with her--if he had nor known that Robert
Graywell had thought of his sister's interests, in making this excessive
provision for expenses incurred on his daughter's account.
"Perhaps, her dresses and her pocket money are included?" Mrs. Gallilee
resumed.
Mr. Mool smiled, and shook his head. "Mr. Graywell's generosity has no
limits," he said, "where his daughter is concerned. Miss Carmina is to
have five hundred a year for pocket-money and dresses."
Mrs. Gallilee appealed to the sympathies of her son. "Isn't it
touching?" she said. "Dear Carmina! my own people in Paris shall make
her dresses. Well, Mr. Mool?"
"Allow me to read the exact language of the Will next," Mr. Mool
answered. "'If her sweet disposition leads her into exceeding her
allowance, in the pursuit of her own little charities, my Trustees are
hereby authorized, at their own discretion, to increase the amount,
within the limit of another five hundred pounds annually.' It sounds
presumptuous, perhaps, on my part," said Mr. Mool, venturing on a modest
confession of enthusiasm, "but one can't help thinking, What a good
father! what a good child!"
Mrs. Gallilee had another appropriate remark ready on her lips, when the
unlucky dog interrupted her once more. He made a sudden rush into the
conservatory, barking with all his might. A crashing noise followed the
dog's outbreak, which sounded like the fall of a flower-pot.
Ovid hurried into the conservatory--with the dog ahead of him, tearing
down the steps which led into the back garden.
The pot lay broken on the tiled floor. Struck by the beauty of the
flower that grew in it, he stooped to set it up again. If, instead of
doing this, he had advanced at once to the second door, he would have
seen a lady hastening into the house; and, though her back view only was
presented, he could hardly have failed to recognize Miss Minerva. As it
was, when he reached the door, the garden was empty.
He looked up at the house, and saw Carmina at the open window of her
bedroom.
The sad expression on that sweet young face grieved him. Was she
thinking of her happy past life? or of the doubtful future, among
strangers in a strange country? She noticed Ovid--and her eyes
brightened. His customary coldness with women melted instantly: he
kissed his hand to her. She returned the salute (so familiar to her
in Italy) with her gentle smile, and looked back into the room. Teresa
showed herself at the window. Always following her impulses without
troubling herself to think first, the duenna followed them now. "We are
dull up here," she called out. "Come back to us, Mr. Ovid." The words
had hardly been spoken before they both turned from the window. Teresa
pointed significantly into the room. They disappeared.
Ovid went back to the library.
"Anybody listening?" Mr. Mool inquired.
"I have not discovered anybody, but I doubt if a stray cat could have
upset that heavy flower-pot." He looked round him as he made the reply.
"Where is my mother?" he asked.
Mrs. Gallilee had gone upstairs, eager to tell Carmina of the handsome
allowance made to her by her father. Having answered in these terms, Mr.
Mool began to fold up the Will--and suddenly stopped.
"Very inconsiderate, on my part," he said; "I forgot, Mr. Ovid, that you
haven't heard the end of it. Let me give you a brief abstract. You
know, perhaps, that Miss Carmina is a Catholic? Very natural--her poor
mother's religion. Well, sir, her good father forgets nothing. All
attempts at proselytizing are strictly forbidden."
Ovid smiled. His mother's religious convictions began and ended with the
inorganic matter of the earth.
"The last clause," Mr. Mool proceeded, "seemed to agitate Mrs. Gallilee
quite painfully. I reminded her that her brother had no near relations
living, but Lady Northlake and herself. As to leaving money to my lady,
in my lord's princely position--"
"Pardon me," Ovid interposed, "what is there to agitate my mother in
this?"
Mr. Mool made his apologies for not getting sooner to the point, with
the readiest good-will. "Professional habit, Mr. Ovid," he explained.
"We are apt to be wordy--paid, in fact, at so much a folio, for so many
words!--and we like to clear the ground first. Your late uncle ends
his Will, by providing for the disposal of his fortune, in two possible
events, as follows: Miss Carmina may die unmarried, or Miss Carmina
(being married) may die without offspring."
Seeing the importance of the last clause now, Ovid stopped him again.
"Do I remember the amount of the fortune correctly?" he asked. "Was it a
hundred and thirty thousand pounds?"
"Yes."
"And what becomes of all that money, if Carmina never marries, or if she
leaves no children?"
"In either of those cases, sir, the whole of the money goes to Mrs.
Gallilee and her daughters."'
CHAPTER IX.
Time had advanced to midnight, after the reading of the Will--and Ovid
was at home.
The silence of the quiet street in which he lived was only disturbed by
the occasional rolling of carriage wheels, and by dance-music from the
house of one of his neighbours who was giving a ball. He sat at his
writing-table, thinking. Honest self-examination had laid out the
state of his mind before him like a map, and had shown him, in its true
proportions, the new interest that filled his life.
Of that interest he was now the willing slave. If he had not known
his mother to be with her, he would have gone back to Carmina when
the lawyer left the house. As it was, he had sent a message upstairs,
inviting himself to dinner, solely for the purpose of seeing Carmina
again--and he had been bitterly disappointed when he heard that Mr. and
Mrs. Gallilee were engaged, and that his cousin would take tea in her
room. He had eaten something at this club, without caring what it was.
He had gone to the Opera afterwards, merely because his recollections of
a favourite singing-lady of that season vaguely reminded him of Carmina.
And there he was, at midnight, on his return from the music, eager for
the next opportunity of seeing his cousin, a few hours hence--when he
had arranged to say good-bye at the family breakfast-table.
To feel this change in him as vividly as he felt it, could lead to
but one conclusion in the mind of a man who was incapable of purposely
deceiving himself. He was as certain as ever of the importance of rest
and change, in the broken state of his health. And yet, in the face of
that conviction, his contemplated sea-voyage had already become one of
the vanished illusions of his life!
His friend had arranged to travel with him, that morning, from London
to the port at which the yacht was waiting for them. They were hardly
intimate enough to trust each other unreservedly with secrets. The
customary apology for breaking an engagement was the alternative that
remained. With the paper on his desk and with the words on his mind, he
was yet in such a strange state of indecision that he hesitated to write
the letter!
His morbidly-sensitive nerves were sadly shaken. Even the familiar
record of the half-hour by the hall clock startled him. The stroke
of the bell was succeeded by a mild and mournful sound outside the
door--the mewing of a cat.
He rose, without any appearance of surprise, and opened the door.
With grace and dignity entered a small black female cat; exhibiting, by
way of variety of colour, a melancholy triangular patch of white over
the lower part of her face, and four brilliantly clean white paws. Ovid
went back to his desk. As soon as he was in his chair again, the cat
jumped on his shoulder, and sat there purring in his ear. This was the
place she occupied, whenever her master was writing alone. Passing one
day through a suburban neighbourhood, on his round of visits, the young
surgeon had been attracted by a crowd in a by-street. He had rescued his
present companion from starvation in a locked-up house, the barbarous
inhabitants of which had gone away for a holiday, and had forgotten the
cat. When Ovid took the poor creature home with him in his carriage,
popular feeling decided that the unknown gentleman was "a rum 'un." From
that moment, this fortunate little member of a brutally-slandered race
attached herself to her new friend, and to that friend only. If Ovid had
owned the truth, he must have acknowledged that her company was a relief
to him, in the present state of his mind.
When a man's flagging purpose is in want of a stimulant, the most
trifling change in the circumstances of the moment often applies the
animating influence. Even such a small interruption as the appearance of
his cat rendered this service to Ovid. To use the common and expressive
phrase, it had "shaken him up." He wrote the letter--and his patient
companion killed the time by washing her face.
His mind being so far relieved, he went to bed--the cat following him
upstairs to her bed in a corner of the room. Clothes are unwholesome
superfluities not contemplated in the system of Nature. When we are
exhausted, there is no such thing as true repose for us until we are
freed from our dress. Men subjected to any excessive exertion--fighting,
rowing, walking, working--must strip their bodies as completely as
possible, or they are nor equal to the call on them. Ovid's knowledge
of his own temperament told him that sleep was not to be hoped for,
that night. But the way to bed was the way to rest notwithstanding, by
getting rid of his clothes.
With the sunrise he rose and went out.
He took his letter with him, and dropped it into the box in his friend's
door. The sooner he committed himself to the new course that he had
taken, the more certain he might feel of not renewing the miserable and
useless indecision of the past night. "Thank God, that's done!" he
said to himself, as he heard the letter fall into the box, and left the
house.
After walking in the Park until he was weary, he sat down by the
ornamental lake, and watched the waterfowl enjoying their happy lives.
Wherever he went, whatever he did, Carmina was always with him. He
had seen thousands of girls, whose personal attractions were far more
remarkable--and some few among them whose manner was perhaps equally
winning. What was the charm in the little half-foreign cousin that had
seized on him in an instant, and that seemed to fasten its subtle hold
more and more irresistibly with every minute of his life? He was content
to feel the charm without caring to fathom it. The lovely morning light
took him in imagination to her bedside; he saw here sleeping peacefully
in her new room. Would the time come when she might dream of him?
He looked at his watch. It was seven o'clock. The breakfast-hour at
Fairfield Gardens had been fixed for eight, to give him time to catch
the morning train. Half an hour might be occupied in walking back to
his own house. Add ten minutes to make some change in his dress--and
he might set forth for his next meeting with Carmina. No uneasy
anticipation of what the family circle might think of his sudden change
of plan troubled his mind. A very different question occupied him. For
the first time in his life, he wondered what dress a woman would wear at
breakfast time.
He opened his house door with his own key. An elderly person, in a
coarse black gown, was seated on the bench in the hall. She rose,
and advanced towards him. In speechless astonishment, he confronted
Carmina's faithful companion--Teresa.
"If you please, I want to speak to you," she said, in her best English.
Ovid took her into his consulting-room. She wasted no time in apologies
or explanations. "Don't speak!" she broke out. "Carmina has had a bad
night."
"I shall be at the house in half an hour!" Ovid eagerly assured her.
The duenna shook her forefinger impatiently. "She doesn't want a doctor.
She wants a friend, when I am gone. What is her life here? A new life,
among new people. Don't speak! She's frightened and miserable. So young,
so shy, so easily startled. And I must leave her--I must! I must! My old
man is failing fast; he may die, without a creature to comfort him, if
I don't go back. I could tear my hair when I think of it. Don't speak!
It's my business to speak. Ha! I know, what I know. Young doctor,
you're in love with Carmina! I've read you like a book. You're quick to
see, sudden to feel--like one of my people. Be one of my people. Help
me."
She dragged a chair close to Ovid, and laid her hand suddenly and
heavily on his arm.
"It's not my fault, mind; I have said nothing to disturb her. No! I've
made the best of it. I've lied to her. What do I care? I would lie like
Judas Iscariot himself to spare Carmina a moment's pain. It's such a
new life for her--try to see it for yourself--such a new life. You and I
shook hands yesterday. Do it again. Are you surprised to see me? I asked
your mother's servants where you lived; and here I am--with the cruel
teeth of anxiety gnawing me alive when I think of the time to come. Oh,
my lamb! my angel! she's alone. Oh, my God, only seventeen years old,
and alone in the world! No father, no mother; and soon--oh, too soon,
too soon--not even Teresa! What are you looking at? What is there so
wonderful in the tears of a stupid old fool? Drops of hot water. Ha! ha!
if they fall on your fine carpet here, they won't hurt it. You're a good
fellow; you're a dear fellow. Hush! I know the Evil Eye when I see
it. No more of that! A secret in your ear--I've said a word for you
to Carmina already. Give her time; she's not cold; young and innocent,
that's all. Love will come--I know, what I know--love will come."
She laughed--and, in the very act of laughing, changed again. Fright
looked wildly at Ovid out of her staring eyes. Some terrifying
remembrance had suddenly occurred to her. She sprang to her feet.
"You said you were going away," she cried. "You said it, when you left
us yesterday. It can't be! it shan't be! You're not going to leave
Carmina, too?"
Ovid's first impulse was to tell the whole truth. He resisted the
impulse. To own that Carmina was the cause of his abandonment of the
sea-voyage, before she was even sure of the impression she had
produced on him, would be to place himself in a position from which
his self-respect recoiled. "My plans are changed," was all he said to
Teresa. "Make your mind easy; I'm not going away."
The strange old creature snapped her fingers joyously. "Good-bye! I
want no more of you." With those cool and candid words of farewell, she
advanced to the door--stopped suddenly to think--and came back. Only a
moment had passed, and she was as sternly in earnest again as ever.
"May I call you by your name?" she asked.
"Certainly!"
"Listen, Ovid! I may not see you again before I go back to my husband.
This is my last word--never forget it. Even Carmina may have enemies!"
What could she be thinking of? "Enemies--in my mother's house!" Ovid
exclaimed. "What can you possibly mean?"
Teresa returned to the door, and only answered him when she had opened
it to go.
"The Evil Eye never lies," she said. "Wait--and you will see."
CHAPTER X.
Mrs. Gallilee was on her way to the breakfast-room, when her son entered
the house. They met in the hall. "Is your packing done?" she asked.
He was in no humour to wait, and make his confession at that moment.
"Not yet," was his only reply.
Mrs. Gallilee led the way into the room. "Ovid's luggage is not ready
yet," she announced; "I believe he will lose his train."
They were all at the breakfast table, the children and the governess
included. Carmina's worn face, telling its tale of a wakeful night,
brightened again, as it had brightened at the bedroom window, when she
saw Ovid. She took his hand frankly, and made light of her weary looks.
"No, my cousin," she said, playfully; "I mean to be worthier of my
pretty bed to-night; I am not going to be your patient yet." Mr.
Gallilee (with this mouth full at the moment) offered good advice. "Eat
and drink as I do, my dear," he said to Carmina; "and you will sleep as
I do. Off I go when the light's out--flat on my back, as Mrs. Gallilee
will tell you--and wake me if you can, till it's time to get up. Have
some buttered eggs, Ovid. They're good, ain't they, Zo?" Zo looked
up from her plate, and agreed with her father, in one emphatic word,
"Jolly!" Miss Minerva, queen of governesses, instantly did her duty.
"Zoe! how often must I tell you not to talk slang? Do you ever hear
your sister say 'Jolly?'" That highly-cultivated child, Maria, strong
in conscious virtue, added her authority in support of the protest.
"No young lady who respects herself, Zoe, will ever talk slang." Mr.
Gallilee was unworthy of such a daughter. He muttered under his
breath, "Oh, bother!" Zo held out her plate for more. Mr. Gallilee was
delighted. "My child all over!" he exclaimed. "We are both of us good
feeders. Zo will grow up a fine woman." He appealed to his stepson to
agree with him. "That's your medical opinion, Ovid, isn't it?"
Carmina's pretty smile passed like rippling light over her eyes and
her lips. In her brief experience of England, Mr. Gallilee was the one
exhilarating element in family life.
Mrs. Gallilee's mind still dwelt on her son's luggage, and on the
rigorous punctuality of railway arrangements.
"What is your servant about?" she said to Ovid. "It's his business to
see that you are ready in time."
It was useless to allow the false impression that prevailed to continue
any longer. Ovid set them all right, in the plainest and fewest words.
"My servant is not to blame," he said. "I have written an apology to my
friend--I am not going away."
For the moment, this astounding announcement was received in silent
dismay--excepting the youngest member of the company. After her father,
Ovid was the one other person in the world who held a place in Zo's odd
little heart. Her sentiments were now expressed without hesitation
and without reserve. She put down her spoon, and she cried, "Hooray!"
Another exhibition of vulgarity. But even Miss Minerva was too
completely preoccupied by the revelation which had burst on the family
to administer the necessary reproof. Her eager eyes were riveted on
Ovid. As for Mr. Gallilee, he held his bread and butter suspended
in mid-air, and stared open-mouthed at his stepson, in helpless
consternation.
Mrs. Gallilee always set the right example. Mrs. Gallilee was the first
to demand an explanation.
"What does this extraordinary proceeding mean?" she asked.
Ovid was impenetrable to the tone in which that question was put. He had
looked at his cousin, when he declared his change of plan--and he was
looking at her still. Whatever the feeling of the moment might be,
Carmina's sensitive face expressed it vividly. Who could mistake the
faintly-rising colour in her cheeks, the sweet quickening of light in
her eyes, when she met Ovid's look? Still hardly capable of estimating
the influence that she exercised over him, her sense of the interest
taken in her by Ovid was the proud sense that makes girls innocently
bold. Whatever the others might think of his broken engagement, her
artless eyes said plainly, "My feeling is happy surprise."
Mrs. Gallilee summoned her son to attend her, in no friendly voice.
She, too, had looked at Carmina--and had registered the result of her
observation privately.
"Are we to hear your reasons?" she inquired.
Ovid had made the one discovery in the world, on which his whole heart
was set. He was so happy, that he kept his mother out of his secret,
with a masterly composure worthy of herself.
"I don't think a sea-voyage is the right thing for me," he answered.
"Rather a sudden change of opinion," Mrs. Gallilee remarked.
Ovid coolly agreed with her. It was rather sudden, he said.
The governess still looked at him, wondering whether he would provoke an
outbreak.
After a little pause, Mrs. Gallilee accepted her son's short
answer--with a sudden submission which had a meaning of its own. She
offered Ovid another cup of tea; and, more remarkable yet, she turned
to her eldest daughter, and deliberately changed the subject. "What are
your lessons, my dear, to-day?" she asked, with bland maternal interest.
By this time, bewildered Mr. Gallilee had finished his bread and
butter. "Ovid knows best, my dear," he said cheerfully to his wife. Mrs.
Gallilee's sudden recovery of her temper did not include her husband.
If a look could have annihilated that worthy man, his corporal presence
must have vanished into air, when he had delivered himself of his
opinion. As it was, he only helped Zo to another spoonful of jam. "When
Ovid first thought of that voyage," he went on, "I said, Suppose he's
sick? A dreadful sensation isn't it, Miss Minerva? First you seem to
sink into your shoes, and then it all comes up--eh? You're not sick
at sea? I congratulate you! I most sincerely congratulate you! My dear
Ovid, come and dine with me to-night at the club." He looked doubtfully
at his wife, as he made that proposal. "Got the headache, my dear? I'll
take you out with pleasure for a walk. What's the matter with her, Miss
Minerva? Oh, I see! Hush! Maria's going to say grace.--Amen! Amen!"
They all rose from the table.
Mr. Gallilee was the first to open the door. The smoking-room at
Fairfield Gardens was over the kitchen; he preferred enjoying his cigar
in the garden of the Square. He looked at Carmina and Ovid, as if he
wanted one of them to accompany him. They were both at the aviary,
admiring the birds, and absorbed in their own talk. Mr. Gallilee
resigned himself to his fate; appealing, on his way out, to somebody to
agree with him as usual. "Well!" he said with a little sigh, "a cigar
keeps one company." Miss Minerva (absorbed in her own thoughts) passed
near him, on her way to the school-room with her pupils. "You would find
it so yourself, Miss Minerva--that is to say, if you smoked, which of
course you don't. Be a good girl, Zo; attend to your lessons."
Zo's perversity in the matter of lessons put its own crooked
construction on this excellent advice. She answered in a whisper, "Give
us a holiday."
The passing aspirations of idle minds, being subject to the law of
chances, are sometimes fulfilled, and so exhibit poor human wishes in a
consolatory light. Thanks to the conversation between Carmina and Ovid,
Zo got her holiday after all.
Mrs. Gallilee, still as amiable as ever, had joined her son and her
niece at the aviary. Ovid said to his mother, "Carmina is fond of birds.
I have been telling her she may see all the races of birds assembled in
the Zoological Gardens. It's a perfect day. Why shouldn't we go!"
The stupidest woman living would have understood what this proposal
really meant. Mrs. Gallilee sanctioned it as composedly as if Ovid and
Carmina had been brother and sister. "I wish I could go with you," she
said, "but my household affairs fill my morning. And there is a lecture
this afternoon, which I cannot possibly lose. I don't know, Carmina,
whether you are interested in these things. We are to have the
apparatus, which illustrates the conversion of radiant energy into
sonorous vibrations. Have you ever heard, my dear, of the Diathermancy
of Ebonite? Not in your way, perhaps?"
Carmina looked as unintelligent as Zo herself. Mrs. Gallilee's
science seemed to frighten her. The Diathermancy of Ebonite, by some
incomprehensible process, drove her bewildered mind back on her old
companion. "I want to give Teresa a little pleasure before we part," she
said timidly; "may she go with us?"
"Of course!" cried Mrs. Gallilee. "And, now I think of it, why shouldn't
the children have a little pleasure too? I will give them a holiday.
Don't be alarmed, Ovid; Miss Minerva will look after them. In the
meantime, Carmina, tell your good old friend to get ready."
Carmina hastened away, and so helped Mrs. Gallilee to the immediate
object which she had in view--a private interview with her son.
Ovid anticipated a searching inquiry into the motives which had led
him to give up the sea voyage. His mother was far too clever a woman to
waste her time in that way. Her first words told him that his motive was
as plainly revealed to her as the sunlight shining in at the window.
"That's a charming girl," she said, when Carmina closed the door behind
her. "Modest and natural--quite the sort of girl, Ovid, to attract a
clever man like you."
Ovid was completely taken by surprise, and owned it by his silence. Mrs.
Gallilee went on in a tone of innocent maternal pleasantry.
"You know you began young," she said; "your first love was that poor
little wizen girl of Lady Northlake's who died. Child's play, you will
tell me, and nothing more. But, my dear, I am afraid I shall require
some persuasion, before I quite sympathize with this new--what shall I
call it?--infatuation is too hard a word, and 'fancy' means nothing. We
will leave it a blank. Marriages of cousins are debatable marriages,
to say the least of them; and Protestant fathers and Papist mothers do
occasionally involve difficulties with children. Not that I say, No. Far
from it. But if this is to go on, I do hesitate."
Something in his mother's tone grated on Ovid's sensibilities. "I don't
at all follow you," he said, rather sharply; "you are looking a little
too far into the future."
"Then we will return to the present," Mrs. Gallilee replied--still with
the readiest submission to the humour of her son.
On recent occasions, she had expressed the opinion that Ovid would do
wisely--at his age, and with his professional prospects--to wait a few
years before he thought of marrying. Having said enough in praise of her
niece to satisfy him for the time being (without appearing to be meanly
influenced, in modifying her opinion, by the question of money), her
next object was to induce him to leave England immediately, for the
recovery of his health. With Ovid absent, and with Carmina under her
sole superintendence, Mrs. Gallilee could see her way to her own private
ends.
"Really," she resumed, "you ought to think seriously of change of air
and scene. You know you would not allow a patient, in your present state
of health, to trifle with himself as your are trifling now. If you don't
like the sea, try the Continent. Get away somewhere, my dear, for your
own sake."
It was only possible to answer this, in one way. Ovid owned that his
mother was right and asked for time to think. To his infinite relief,
he was interrupted by a knock at the door. Miss Minerva entered the
room--not in a very amiable temper, judging by appearances.
"I am afraid I disturb you," she began.
Ovid seized the opportunity of retreat. He had some letters to write--he
hurried away to the library.
"Is there any mistake?" the governess asked, when she and Mrs. Gallilee
were alone.
"In what respect, Miss Minerva?"
"I met your niece, ma'am, on the stairs. She says you wish the children
to have a holiday."
"Yes, to go with my son and Miss Carmina to the Zoological Gardens."
"Miss Carmina said I was to go too."
"Miss Carmina was perfectly right."
The governess fixed her searching eyes on Mrs. Gallilee. "You really
wish me to go with them?" she said.
"I do."
"I know why."
In the course of their experience, Mrs. Gallilee and Miss Minerva had
once quarrelled fiercely--and Mrs. Gallilee had got the worst of it.
She learnt her lesson. For the future she knew how to deal with her
governess. When one said, "I know why," the other only answered, "Do
you?"
"Let's have it out plainly, ma'am," Miss Minerva proceeded. "I am not
to let Mr. Ovid" (she laid a bitterly strong emphasis on the name, and
flushed angrily)--"I am not to let Mr. Ovid and Miss Carmina be alone
together."
"You are a good guesser," Mrs. Gallilee remarked quietly.
"No," said Miss Minerva more quietly still; "I have only seen what you
have seen."
"Did I tell you what I have seen?"
"Quite needless, ma'am. Your son is in love with his cousin. When am I
to be ready?"
The bland mistress mentioned the hour. The rude governess left the room.
Mrs. Gallilee looked at the closing door with a curious smile. She had
already suspected Miss Minerva of being crossed in love. The suspicion
was now confirmed, and the man was discovered.
"Soured by a hopeless passion," she said to herself. "And the object
is--my son."
CHAPTER XI.
On entering the Zoological Gardens, Ovid turned at once to the right,
leading Carmina to the aviaries, so that she might begin by seeing the
birds. Miss Minerva, with Maria in dutiful attendance, followed them.
Teresa kept at a little distance behind; and Zo took her own erratic
course, now attaching herself to one member of the little party, and now
to another.
When they reached the aviaries the order of march became confused;
differences in the birds made their appeal to differences in the
taste of the visitors. Insatiably eager for useful information, that
prize-pupil Maria held her governess captive at one cage; while Zo
darted away towards another, out of reach of discipline, and good Teresa
volunteered to bring her back. For a minute, Ovid and his cousin were
left alone. He might have taken a lover's advantage even of that small
opportunity. But Carmina had something to say to him--and Carmina spoke
first.
"Has Miss Minerva been your mother's governess for a long time?" she
inquired.
"For some years," Ovid replied. "Will you let me put a question on my
side? Why do you ask?"
Carmina hesitated--and answered in a whisper, "She looks ill-tempered."
"She is ill-tempered," Ovid confessed. "I suspect," he added with a
smile, "you don't like Miss Minerva."
Carmina attempted no denial; her excuse was a woman's excuse all over:
"She doesn't like me."
"How do you know?"
"I have been looking at her. Does she beat the children?"
"My dear Carmina! do you think she would be my mother's governess if she
treated the children in that way? Besides, Miss Minerva is too well-bred
a woman to degrade herself by acts of violence. Family misfortunes have
very materially lowered her position in the world."
He was reminded, as he said those words, of the time when Miss Minerva
had entered on her present employment, and when she had been the object
of some little curiosity on his own part. Mrs. Gallilee's answer, when
he once asked why she kept such an irritable woman in the house, had
been entirely satisfactory, so far as she herself was concerned: "Miss
Minerva is remarkably well informed, and I get her cheap." Exactly
like his mother! But it left Miss Minerva's motives involved in utter
obscurity. Why had this highly cultivated woman accepted an inadequate
reward for her services, for years together? Why--to take the event of
that morning as another example--after plainly showing her temper to her
employer, had she been so ready to submit to a suddenly decreed holiday,
which disarranged her whole course of lessons for the week? Little
did Ovid think that the one reconciling influence which adjusted these
contradictions, and set at rest every doubt that grew out of them, was
to be found in himself. Even the humiliation of watching him in his
mother's interest, and of witnessing his devotion to another woman,
was a sacrifice which Miss Minerva could endure for the one inestimable
privilege of being in Ovid's company.
Before Carmina could ask any more questions a shrill voice, at its
highest pitch of excitement, called her away. Zo had just discovered
the most amusing bird in the Gardens--the low comedian of the feathered
race--otherwise known as the Piping Crow.
Carmina hurried to the cage as if she had been a child herself. Seeing
Ovid left alone, the governess seized her chance of speaking to him.
The first words that passed her lips told their own story. While Carmina
had been studying Miss Minerva, Miss Minerva had been studying Carmina.
Already, the same instinctive sense of rivalry had associated, on
a common ground of feeling, the two most dissimilar women that ever
breathed the breath of life.
"Does your cousin know much about birds?" Miss Minerva began.
The opinion which declares that vanity is a failing peculiar to the sex
is a slander on women. All the world over, there are more vain men in it
than vain women. If Ovid had not been one of the exceptions to a general
rule among men, or even if his experience of the natures of women had
been a little less limited, he too might have discovered Miss Minerva's
secret. Even her capacity for self-control failed, at the moment when
she took Carmina's place. Those keen black eyes, so hard and cold
when they looked at anyone else--flamed with an all-devouring sense of
possession when they first rested on Ovid. "He's mine. For one golden
moment he's mine!" They spoke--and, suddenly, the every-day blind
was drawn down again; there was nobody present but a well-bred woman,
talking with delicately implied deference to a distinguished man.
"So far, we have not spoken of the birds," Ovid innocently answered.
"And yet you seemed to be both looking at them!" She at once covered
this unwary outbreak of jealousy under an impervious surface of
compliment. "Miss Carmina is not perhaps exactly pretty, but she is a
singularly interesting girl."
Ovid cordially (too cordially) agreed. Miss Minerva had presented
her better self to him under a most agreeable aspect. She
tried--struggled--fought with herself--to preserve appearances. The
demon in her got possession again of her tongue. "Do you find the young
lady intelligent?" she inquired.
"Certainly!"
Only one word--spoken perhaps a little sharply. The miserable woman
shrank under it. "An idle question on my part," she said, with the
pathetic humility that tries to be cheerful. "And another warning, Mr.
Vere, never to judge by appearances." She looked at him, and returned to
the children.
Ovid's eyes followed her compassionately. "Poor wretch!" he thought.
"What an infernal temper, and how hard she tries to control it!" He
joined Carmina, with a new delight in being near her again. Zo was still
in ecstasies over the Piping Crow. "Oh, the jolly little chap! Look
how he cocks his head! He mocks me when I whistle. Buy him," cried Zo,
tugging at Ovid's coat tails in the excitement that possessed her; "buy
him, and let me take him home with me!"
Some visitors within hearing began to laugh. Miss Minerva opened her
lips; Maria opened her lips. To the astonishment of both of them the
coming rebuke proved to be needless.
A sudden transformation to silence and docility had made a new creature
of Zo, before they could speak--and Ovid had unconsciously worked the
miracle. For the first time in the child's experience, he had suffered
his coat tails to be pulled without immediately attending to her. Who
was he looking at? It was only too easy to see that Carmina had got
him all to herself. The jealous little heart swelled in Zo's bosom.
In silent perplexity she kept watch on the friend who had never
disappointed her before. Little by little, her slow intelligence began
to realise the discovery of something in his face which made him look
handsomer than ever, and which she had never seen in it yet. They all
left the aviaries, and turned to the railed paddocks in which the larger
birds were assembled. And still Zo followed so quietly, so silently,
that her elder sister--threatened with a rival in good behaviour--looked
at her in undisguised alarm.
Incited by Maria (who felt the necessity of vindicating her character)
Miss Minerva began a dissertation on cranes, suggested by the birds with
the brittle-looking legs hopping up to her in expectation of something
to eat. Ovid was absorbed in attending to his cousin; he had provided
himself with some bread, and was helping Carmina to feed the birds. But
one person noticed Zo, now that her strange lapse into good behaviour
had lost the charm of novelty. Old Teresa watched her. There was
something plainly troubling the child in secret; she had a mind to know
what it might be.
Zo approached Ovid again, determined to understand the change in him if
perseverance could do it. He was talking so confidentially to Carmina,
that he almost whispered in her ear. Zo eyed him, without daring to
touch his coat tails again. Miss Minerva tried hard to go on composedly
with the dissertation on cranes. "Flocks of these birds, Maria, pass
periodically over the southern and central countries of Europe"--Her
breath failed her, as she looked at Ovid: she could say no more.
Zo stopped those maddening confidences; Zo, in desperate want of
information, tugged boldly at Carmina's skirts this time.
The young girl turned round directly. "What is it, dear?"
With big tears of indignation rising in her eyes, Zo pointed to Ovid. "I
say!" she whispered, "is he going to buy the Piping Crow for you?"
To Zo's discomfiture they both smiled. She dried her eyes with her
fists, and waited doggedly for an answer. Carmina set the child's mind
at ease very prettily and kindly; and Ovid added the pacifying influence
of a familiar pat on her cheek. Noticed at last, and satisfied that
the bird was not to be bought for anybody, Zo's sense of injury
was appeased; her jealousy melted away as the next result. After a
pause--produced, as her next words implied, by an effort of memory--she
suddenly took Carmina into her confidence.
"Don't tell!" she began. "I saw another man look like Ovid."
"When, dear?" Carmina asked--meaning, at what past date.
"When his face was close to yours," Zo answered--meaning, under what
recent circumstances.
Ovid, hearing this reply, knew his small sister well enough to foresee
embarrassing results if he allowed the conversation to proceed. He took
Carmina's arm, and led her a little farther on.
Miss Minerva obstinately followed them, with Maria in attendance, still
imperfectly enlightened on the migration of cranes. Zo looked round, in
search of another audience. Teresa had been listening; she was present,
waiting for events. Being herself what stupid people call "an oddity,"
her sympathies were attracted by this quaint child. In Teresa's opinion,
seeing the animals was very inferior, as an amusement, to exploring Zo's
mind. She produced a cake of chocolate, from a travelling bag which she
carried with her everywhere. The cake was sweet, it was flavoured with
vanilla, and it was offered to Zo, unembittered by advice not to
be greedy and make herself ill. Staring hard at Teresa, she took an
experimental bite. The wily duenna chose that propitious moment to
present herself in the capacity of a new audience.
"Who was that other man you saw, who looked like Mr. Ovid?" she asked;
speaking in the tone of serious equality which is always flattering to
the self-esteem of children in intercourse with elders. Zo was so proud
of having her own talk reported by a grown-up stranger, that she even
forgot the chocolate. "I wanted to say more than that," she announced.
"Would you like to hear the end of it?" And this admirable foreign
person answered, "I should very much like."
Zo hesitated. To follow out its own little train of thought, in
words, was no easy task to the immature mind which Miss Minerva had so
mercilessly overworked. Led by old Dame Nature (first of governesses!)
Zo found her way out of the labyrinth by means of questions.
"Do you know Joseph?" she began.
Teresa had heard the footman called by his name: she knew who Joseph
was.
"Do you know Matilda?" Zo proceeded.
Teresa had heard the housemaid called by her name: she knew who Matilda
was. And better still, she helped her little friend by a timely guess
at what was coming, presented under the form of a reminder. "You saw Mr.
Ovid's face close to Carmina's face," she suggested.
Zo nodded furiously--the end of it was coming already.
"And before that," Teresa went on, "you saw Joseph's face close to
Matilda's face."
"I saw Joseph kiss Matilda!" Zo burst out, with a scream of triumph.
"Why doesn't Ovid kiss Carmina?"
A deep bass voice, behind them, answered gravely: "Because the governess
is in the way." And a big bamboo walking-stick pointed over their heads
at Miss Minerva. Zo instantly recognised the stick, and took it into her
own hands.
Teresa turned--and found herself in the presence of a remarkable man.
CHAPTER XII.
In the first place, the stranger was almost tall enough to be shown as a
giant; he towered to a stature of six feet six inches, English measure.
If his immense bones had been properly covered with flesh, he might have
presented the rare combination of fine proportions with great height. He
was so miserably--it might almost be said, so hideously--thin that his
enemies spoke of him as "the living skeleton." His massive forehead,
his great gloomy gray eyes, his protuberant cheek-bones, overhung
a fleshless lower face naked of beard, whiskers, and moustache. His
complexion added to the startling effect which his personal appearance
produced on strangers. It was of the true gipsy-brown, and, being darker
in tone than his eyes, added remarkably to the weird look, the dismal
thoughtful scrutiny, which it was his habit to fix on persons talking
with him, no matter whether they were worthy of attention or not. His
straight black hair hung as gracelessly on either side of his hollow
face as the hair of an American Indian. His great dusky hands, never
covered by gloves in the summer time, showed amber-coloured nails on
bluntly-pointed fingers, turned up at the tips. Those tips felt like
satin when they touched you. When he wished to be careful, he could
handle the frailest objects with the most exquisite delicacy. His dress
was of the recklessly loose and easy kind. His long frock-coat descended
below his knees; his flowing trousers were veritable bags; his lean and
wrinkled throat turned about in a widely-opened shirt-collar, unconfined
by any sort of neck-tie. He had a theory that a head-dress should
be solid enough to resist a chance blow--a fall from a horse, or the
dropping of a loose brick from a house under repair. His hard black hat,
broad and curly at the brim, might have graced the head of a bishop, if
it had not been secularised by a queer resemblance to the bell-shaped
hat worn by dandies in the early years of the present century. In one
word he was, both in himself and in his dress, the sort of man whom no
stranger is careless enough to pass without turning round for a second
look. Teresa, eyeing him with reluctant curiosity, drew back a step, and
privately reviled him (in the secrecy of her own language) as an ugly
beast! Even his name startled people by the outlandish sound of it.
Those enemies who called him "the living skeleton" said it revealed his
gipsy origin. In medical and scientific circles he was well and widely
known as--Doctor Benjulia.
Zo ran away with his bamboo stick. After a passing look of gloomy
indifference at the duenna, he called to the child to come back.
She obeyed him in an oddly indirect way, as if she had been returning
against her will. At the same time she looked up in his face, with an
absence of shyness which showed, like the snatching away of his stick,
that she was familiarly acquainted with him, and accustomed to take
liberties. And yet there was an expression of uneasy expectation in her
round attentive eyes. "Do you want it back again?" she asked, offering
the stick.
"Of course I do. What would your mother say to me, if you tumbled over
my big bamboo, and dashed out your brains on this hard gravel walk?"
"Have you been to see Mama?" Zo asked.
"I have not been to see Mama--but I know what she would say to me if
you dashed out your brains, for all that."
"What would she say?"
"She would say--Doctor Benjulia, your name ought to be Herod."'
"Who was Herod?"
"Herod was a Royal Jew, who killed little girls when they took away his
walking-stick. Come here, child. Shall I tickle you?"
"I knew you'd say that," Zo answered.
When men in general thoroughly enjoy the pleasure of talking nonsense
to children, they can no more help smiling than they can help breathing.
The doctor was an extraordinary exception to this rule; his grim face
never relaxed--not even when Zo reminded him that one of his favourite
recreations was tickling her. She obeyed, however, with the curious
appearance of reluctant submission showing itself once more. He put two
of his soft big finger-tips on her spine, just below the back of her
neck, and pressed on the place. Zo started and wriggled under his touch.
He observed her with as serious an interest as if he had been conducting
a medical experiment. "That's how you make our dog kick with his leg,"
said Zo, recalling her experience of the doctor in the society of the
dog. "How do you do it?"
"I touch the Cervical Plexus," Doctor Benjulia answered as gravely as
ever.
This attempt at mystifying the child failed completely. Zo considered
the unknown tongue in which he had answered her as being equivalent to
lessons. She declined to notice the Cervical Plexus, and returned to the
little terrier at home. "Do you think the dog likes it?" she asked.
"Never mind the dog. Do you like it?"
"I don't know."
Doctor Benjulia turned to Teresa. His gloomy gray eyes rested on her, as
they might have rested on any inanimate object near him--on the railing
that imprisoned the birds, or on the pipes that kept the monkey-house
warm. "I have been playing the fool, ma'am, with this child," he said;
"and I fear I have detained you. I beg your pardon." He pulled off his
episcopal hat, and walked grimly on, without taking any further notice
of Zo.
Teresa made her best courtesy in return. The magnificent civility of the
ugly giant daunted, while it flattered her. "The manners of a prince,"
she said, "and the complexion of a gipsy. Is he a nobleman?"
Zo answered, "He's a doctor,"--as if that was something much better.
"Do you like him?" Teresa inquired next.
Zo answered the duenna as she had answered the doctor: "I don't know."
In the meantime, Ovid and his cousin had not been unobservant of what
was passing at a little distance from them. Benjulia's great height, and
his evident familiarity with the child, stirred Carmina's curiosity.
Ovid seemed to be disinclined to talk of him. Miss Minerva made herself
useful, with the readiest politeness. She mentioned his odd name, and
described him as one of Mrs. Gallilee's old friends. "Of late years,"
she proceeded, "he is said to have discontinued medical practice, and
devoted himself to chemical experiments. Nobody seems to know much about
him. He has built a house in a desolate field--in some lost suburban
neighbourhood that nobody can discover. In plain English, Dr. Benjulia
is a mystery."
Hearing this, Carmina appealed again to Ovid.
"When I am asked riddles," she said, "I am never easy till the answer
is guessed for me. And when I hear of mysteries, I am dying to have them
revealed. You are a doctor yourself. Do tell me something more!"
Ovid might have evaded her entreaties by means of an excuse. But her
eyes were irresistible: they looked him into submission in an instant.
"Doctor Benjulia is what we call a Specialist," he said. "I mean that
he only professes to treat certain diseases. Brains and nerves are
Benjulia's diseases. Without quite discontinuing his medical practice,
he limits himself to serious cases--when other doctors are puzzled, you
know, and want him to help them. With this exception, he has certainly
sacrificed his professional interests to his mania for experiments in
chemistry. What those experiments are, nobody knows but himself. He
keeps the key of his laboratory about him by day and by night. When the
place wants cleaning, he does the cleaning with his own hands."
Carmina listened with great interest: "Has nobody peeped in at the
windows?" she asked.
"There are no windows--only a skylight in the roof."
"Can't somebody get up on the roof, and look in through the skylight?"
Ovid laughed. "One of his men-servants is said to have tried that
experiment," he replied.
"And what did the servant see?"
"A large white blind, drawn under the skylight, and hiding the whole
room from view. Somehow, the doctor discovered him--and the man was
instantly dismissed. Of course there are reports which explain the
mystery of the doctor and his laboratory. One report says that he
is trying to find a way of turning common metals into gold. Another
declares that he is inventing some explosive compound, so horribly
destructive that it will put an end to war. All I can tell you is, that
his mind (when I happen to meet him) seems to be as completely absorbed
as ever in brains and nerves. But, what they can have to do with
chemical experiments, secretly pursued in a lonely field, is a riddle to
which I have thus far found no answer.
"Is he married?" Carmina inquired.
The question seemed to amuse Ovid. "If Doctor Benjulia had a wife, you
think we might get at his secrets? There is no such chance for us--he
manages his domestic affairs for himself."
"Hasn't he even got a housekeeper?"
"Not even a housekeeper!"
While he was making that reply, he saw the doctor slowly advancing
towards them. "Excuse me for one minute," he resumed; "I will just speak
to him, and come back to you."
Carmina turned to Miss Minerva in surprise.
"Ovid seems to have some reason for keeping the tall man away from us,"
she said. "Does he dislike Doctor Benjulia?"
But for restraining motives, the governess might have gratified her
hatred of Carmina by a sharp reply. She had her reasons--not only after
what she had overheard in the conservatory, but after what she had seen
in the Gardens--for winning Carmina's confidence, and exercising over
her the influence of a trusted friend. Miss Minerva made instant use of
her first opportunity.
"I can tell you what I have noticed myself," she said confidentially.
"When Mrs. Gallilee gives parties, I am allowed to be present--to see
the famous professors of science. On one of these occasions they were
talking of instinct and reason. Your cousin, Mr. Ovid Vere, said it was
no easy matter to decide where instinct ended and reason began. In
his own experience, he had sometimes found people of feeble minds, who
judged by instinct, arrive at sounder conclusions than their superiors
in intelligence, who judged by reason. The talk took another turn--and,
soon after, Doctor Benjulia joined the guests. I don't know whether you
have observed that Mr. Gallilee is very fond of his stepson?"
Oh, yes! Carmina had noticed that. "I like Mr. Gallilee," she said
warmly; "he is such a nice, kind-hearted, natural old man."
Miss Minerva concealed a sneer under a smile. Fond of Mr. Gallilee? what
simplicity! "Well," she resumed, "the doctor paid his respects to the
master of the house, and then he shook hands with Mr. Ovid; and then
the scientific gentlemen all got round him, and had learned talk. Mr.
Gallilee came up to his stepson, looking a little discomposed. He spoke
in a whisper--you know his way?--'Ovid, do you like Doctor Benjulia?
Don't mention it; I hate him.' Strong language for Mr. Gallilee, wasn't
it? Mr. Ovid said, 'Why do you hate him?' And poor Mr. Gallilee answered
like a child, 'Because I do.' Some ladies came in, and the old gentleman
left us to speak to them. I ventured to say to Mr. Ovid, 'Is that
instinct or reason?' He took it quite seriously. 'Instinct,' he
said--'and it troubles me.' I leave you, Miss Carmina, to draw your own
conclusion."
They both looked up. Ovid and the doctor were walking slowly away from
them, and were just passing Teresa and the child. At the same moment,
one of the keepers of the animals approached Benjulia. After they had
talked together for a while, the man withdrew. Zo (who had heard it all,
and had understood a part of it) ran up to Carmina, charged with news.
"There's a sick monkey in the gardens, in a room all by himself!" the
child cried. "And, I say, look there!" She pointed excitedly to Benjulia
and Ovid, walking on again slowly in the direction of the aviaries.
"There's the big doctor who tickles me! He says he'll see the poor
monkey, as soon as he's done with Ovid. And what do you think he said
besides? He said perhaps he'd take the monkey home with him."
"I wonder what's the matter with the poor creature?" Carmina asked.
"After what Mr. Ovid has told us, I think I know," Miss Minerva
answered. "Doctor Benjulia wouldn't be interested in the monkey unless
it had a disease of the brain."
CHAPTER XIII.
Ovid had promised to return to Carmina in a minute. The minutes passed,
and still Doctor Benjulia held him in talk.
Now that he was no longer seeking amusement, in his own dreary way,
by mystifying Zo, the lines seemed to harden in the doctor's fleshless
face. A scrupulously polite man, he was always cold in his politeness.
He waited to have his hand shaken, and waited to be spoken to. And
yet, on this occasion, he had something to say. When Ovid opened the
conversation, he changed the subject directly.
"Benjulia! what brings You to the Zoological Gardens?"
"One of the monkeys has got brain disease; and they fancy I might like
to see the beast before they kill him. Have you been thinking lately of
that patient we lost?"
Not at the moment remembering the patient, Ovid made no immediate reply.
The doctor seemed to distrust his silence.
"You don't mean to say you have forgotten the case?" he resumed. "We
called it hysteria, not knowing what else it was. I don't forgive the
girl for slipping through our fingers; I hate to be beaten by Death, in
that way. Have you made up your mind what to do, on the next occasion?
Perhaps you think you could have saved her life if you had been sent
for, now?"
"No, indeed, I am just as ignorant--"
"Give ignorance time," Benjulia interposed, "and ignorance will become
knowledge--if a man is in earnest. The proper treatment might occur to
you to-morrow."
He held to his idea with such obstinacy that Ovid set him right, rather
impatiently. "The proper treatment has as much chance of occurring
to the greatest ass in the profession," he answered, "as it has of
occurring to me. I can put my mind to no good medical use; my work has
been too much for me. I am obliged to give up practice, and rest--for a
time."
Not even a formal expression of sympathy escaped Doctor Benjulia. Having
been a distrustful friend so far, he became an inquisitive friend now.
"You're going away, of course," he said. "Where to? On the Continent?
Not to Italy--if you really want to recover your health!"
"What is the objection to Italy?"
The doctor put his great hand solemnly on his young friend's shoulder.
"The medical schools in that country are recovering their past
reputation," he said. "They are becoming active centres of physiological
inquiry. You will be dragged into it, to a dead certainty. They're sure
to try what they can strike out by collision with a man like you. What
will become of that overworked mind of yours, when a lot of professors
are searching it without mercy? Have you ever been to Canada?"
"No. Have you?"
"I have been everywhere. Canada is just the place for you, in this
summer season. Bracing air; and steady-going doctors who leave the fools
in Europe to pry into the secrets of Nature. Thousands of miles of land,
if you like riding. Thousands of miles of water, if you like sailing.
Pack up, and go to Canada."
What did all this mean? Was he afraid that his colleague might stumble
on some discovery which he was in search of himself? And did the
discovery relate to his own special subject of brains and nerves? Ovid
made an attempt to understand him.
"Tell me something about yourself, Benjulia," he said. "Are you
returning to your regular professional work?"
Benjulia struck his bamboo stick emphatically on the gravel-walk.
"Never! Unless I know more than I know now."
This surely meant that he was as much devoted to his chemical
experiments as ever? In that case, how could Ovid (who knew nothing of
chemical experiments) be an obstacle in the doctor's way? Baffled thus
far, he made another attempt at inducing Benjulia to explain himself.
"When is the world to hear of your discoveries?" he asked.
The doctor's massive forehead gathered ominously into a frown, "Damn the
world!" That was his only reply.
Ovid was not disposed to allow himself to be kept in the dark in this
way. "I suppose you are going on with your experiments?" he said.
The gloom of Benjulia's grave eyes deepened: they stared with a stern
fixedness into vacancy. His great head bent slowly over his broad
breast. The whole man seemed to be shut up in himself. "I go on a way of
my own," he growled. "Let nobody cross it."
After that reply, to persist in making inquiries would only have ended
in needlessly provoking an irritable man. Ovid looked back towards
Carmina. "I must return to my friends," he said.
The doctor lifted his head, like a man awakened. "Have I been rude?" he
asked. "Don't talk to me about my experiments. That's my raw place,
and you hit me on it. What did you say just now? Friends? who are your
friends?" He rubbed his hand savagely over his forehead--it was a way he
had of clearing his mind. "I know," he went on. "I saw your friends just
now. Who's the young lady?" His most intimate companions had never heard
him laugh: they had sometimes seen his thin-lipped mouth widen drearily
into a smile. It widened now. "Whoever she is," he proceeded, "Zo
wonders why you don't kiss her."
This specimen of Benjulia's attempts at pleasantry was not exactly
to Ovid's taste. He shifted the topic to his little sister. "You were
always fond of Zo," he said.
Benjulia looked thoroughly puzzled. Fondness for anybody was, to all
appearance, one of the few subjects on which he had not qualified
himself to offer an opinion. He gave his head another savage rub, and
returned to the subject of the young lady. "Who is she?" he asked again.
"My cousin," Ovid replied as shortly as possible.
"Your cousin? A girl of Lady Northlake's?"
"No: my late uncle's daughter."
Benjulia suddenly came to a standstill. "What!" he cried, "has that
misbegotten child grown up to be a woman?"'
Ovid started. Words of angry protest were on his lips, when he perceived
Teresa and Zo on one side of him, and the keeper of the monkeys on the
other. Benjulia dismissed the man, with the favourable answer which
Zo had already reported. They walked on again. Ovid was at liberty to
speak.
"Do you know what you said of my cousin, just now?" he began.
His tone seemed to surprise the doctor. "What did I say?" he asked.
"You used a very offensive word. You called Carmina a 'misbegotten
child.' Are you repeating some vile slander on the memory of her
mother?"
Benjulia came to another standstill. "Slander?" he repeated--and said no
more.
Ovid's anger broke out. "Yes!" he replied. "Or a lie, if you like, told
of a woman as high above reproach as your mother or mine!"
"You are hot," the doctor remarked, and walked on again. "When I was in
Italy--" he paused to calculate, "when I was at Rome, fifteen years
ago, your cousin was a wretched little rickety child. I said to Robert
Graywell, 'Don't get too fond of that girl; she'll never live to grow
up.' He said something about taking her away to the mountain air. I
didn't think, myself, the mountain air would be of any use. It seems
I was wrong. Well! it's a surprise to me to find her--" he waited, and
calculated again, "to find her grown up to be seventeen years old." To
Ovid's ears, there was an inhuman indifference in his tone as he said
this, which it was impossible not to resent, by looks, if not in words.
Benjulia noticed the impression that he had produced, without in the
least understanding it. "Your nervous system's in a nasty state," he
remarked; "you had better take care of yourself. I'll go and look at the
monkey."
His face was like the face of the impenetrable sphinx; his deep bass
voice droned placidly. Ovid's anger had passed by him like the passing
of the summer air. "Good-bye!" he said; "and take care of those nasty
nerves. I tell you again--they mean mischief."
Not altogether willingly, Ovid made his apologies. "If I have
misunderstood you, I beg your pardon. At the same time, I don't think I
am to blame. Why did you mislead me by using that detestable word?"
"Wasn't it the right word?"
"The right word--when you only wanted to speak of a poor sickly child!
Considering that you took your degree at Oxford--"
"You could expect nothing better from the disadvantages of my
education," said the doctor, finishing the sentence with the grave
composure that distinguished him. "When I said 'misbegotten,' perhaps
I ought to have said 'half-begotten'? Thank you for reminding me. I'll
look at the dictionary when I get home."
Ovid's mind was not set at ease yet. "There's one other thing," he
persisted, "that seems unaccountable." He started, and seized Benjulia
by the arm. "Stop!" he cried, with a sudden outburst of alarm.
"Well?" asked the doctor, stopping directly. "What is it?"
"Nothing," said Ovid, recoiling from a stain on the gravel walk, caused
by the remains of an unlucky beetle, crushed under his friend's heavy
foot. "You trod on the beetle before I could stop you."
Benjulia's astonishment at finding an adult male human being (not in a
lunatic asylum) anxious to spare the life of a beetle, literally struck
him speechless. His medical instincts came to his assistance. "You had
better leave London at once," he suggested. "Get into pure air, and be
out of doors all day long." He turned over the remains of the beetle
with the end of his stick. "The common beetle," he said; "I haven't
damaged a Specimen."
Ovid returned to the subject, which had suffered interruption through
his abortive little act of mercy. "You knew my uncle in Italy. It seems
strange, Benjulia, that I should never have heard of it before."
"Yes; I knew your uncle; and," he added with especial emphasis, "I knew
his wife."
"Well?"
"Well, I can't say I felt any particular interest in either of them.
Nothing happened afterwards to put me in mind of the acquaintance till
you told me who the young lady was, just now.
"Surely my mother must have reminded you?"
"Not that I can remember. Women in her position don't much fancy talking
of a relative who has married"--he stopped to choose his next words. "I
don't want to be rude; suppose we say married beneath him?"
Reflection told Ovid that this was true. Even in conversation with
himself (before the arrival in England of Robert's Will), his mother
rarely mentioned her brother--and still more rarely his family. There
was another reason for Mrs. Gallilee's silence, known only to herself.
Robert was in the secret of her debts, and Robert had laid her under
heavy pecuniary obligations. The very sound of his name was revolting to
his amiable sister: it reminded her of that humiliating sense, known in
society as a sense of gratitude.
Carmina was still waiting--and there was nothing further to be gained by
returning to the subject of her mother with such a man as Benjulia. Ovid
held out his hand to say good-bye.
Taking the offered hand readily enough, the doctor repeated his odd
question--"I haven't been rude, have I?"--with an unpleasant appearance
of going through a form purely for form's sake. Ovid's natural
generosity of feeling urged him to meet the advance, strangely as it had
been made, with a friendly reception.
"I am afraid it is I who have been rude," he said. "Will you go back
with me, and be introduced to Carmina?"
Benjulia made his acknowledgments in his own remarkable way. "No, thank
you," he said, quietly, "I'd rather see the monkey."
CHAPTER XIV.
In the meantime, Zo had become the innocent cause of a difference of
opinion between two no less dissimilar personages than Maria and the
duenna.
Having her mind full of the sick monkey, the child felt a natural
curiosity to see the other monkeys who were well. Amiable Miss Minerva
consulted her young friend from Italy before she complied with Zo's
wishes. Would Miss Carmina like to visit the monkey-house? Ovid's
cousin, remembering Ovid's promise, looked towards the end of the walk.
He was not returning to her--he was not even in sight. Carmina resigned
herself to circumstances, with a little air of pique which was duly
registered in Miss Minerva's memory.
Arriving at the monkey-house, Teresa appeared in a new character. She
surprised her companions by showing an interest in natural history.
"Are they all monkeys in that big place?" she asked. "I don't know much
about foreign beasts. How do they like it, I wonder?"
This comprehensive inquiry was addressed to the governess, as the most
learned person present. Miss Minerva referred to her elder pupil with
an encouraging smile. "Maria will inform you," she said. "Her studies
in natural history have made her well acquainted with the habits of
monkeys."
Thus authorised to exhibit her learning, even the discreet Maria
actually blushed with pleasure. It was that young lady's most
highly-prized reward to display her knowledge (in imitation of her
governess's method of instruction) for the benefit of unfortunate
persons of the lower rank, whose education had been imperfectly carried
out. The tone of amiable patronage with which she now imparted useful
information to a woman old enough to be her grandmother, would have made
the hands of the bygone generation burn to box her ears.
"The monkeys are kept in large and airy cages," Maria began; "and the
temperature is regulated with the utmost care. I shall be happy to point
out to you the difference between the monkey and the ape. You are
not perhaps aware that the members of the latter family are called
'Simiadae,' and are without tails and cheek-pouches?"
Listening so far in dumb amazement, Teresa checked the flow of
information at tails and cheek-pouches.
"What gibberish is this child talking to me?" she asked. "I want to know
how the monkeys amuse themselves in that large house?"
Maria's perfect training condescended to enlighten even this state of
mind.
"They have ropes to swing on," she answered sweetly; "and visitors feed
them through the wires of the cage. Branches of trees are also placed
for their diversion; reminding many of them no doubt of the vast
tropical forests in which, as we learn from travellers, they pass in
flocks from tree to tree."
Teresa held up her hand as a signal to stop. "A little of You, my young
lady, goes a long way," she said. "Consider how much I can hold, before
you cram me at this rate."
Maria was bewildered, but nor daunted yet. "Pardon me," she pleaded; "I
fear I don't quite understand you."
"Then there are two of us puzzled," the duenna remarked. "I don't
understand you. I shan't go into that house. A Christian can't be
expected to care about beasts--but right is right all the world over.
Because a monkey is a nasty creature (as I have heard, not even good
to eat when he's dead), that's no reason for taking him out of his
own country and putting him into a cage. If we are to see creatures in
prison, let's see creatures who have deserved it--men and women, rogues
and sluts. The monkeys haven't deserved it. Go in--I'll wait for you at
the door."
Setting her bitterest emphasis on this protest, which expressed
inveterate hostility to Maria (using compassion for caged animals as the
readiest means at hand), Teresa seated herself in triumph on the nearest
bench.
A young person, possessed of no more than ordinary knowledge, might have
left the old woman to enjoy the privilege of saying the last word. Miss
Minerva's pupil, exuding information as it were at every pore in her
skin, had been rudely dried up at a moment's notice. Even earthly
perfection has its weak places within reach. Maria lost her temper.
"You will allow me to remind you," she said, "that intelligent curiosity
leads us to study the habits of animals that are new to us. We place
them in a cage--"
Teresa lost her temper.
"You're an animal that's new to me," cried the irate duenna. "I never
in all my life met with such a child before. If you please, madam
governess, put this girl into a cage. My intelligent curiosity wants to
study a monkey that's new to me."
It was fortunate for Teresa that she was Carmina's favourite and friend,
and, as such, a person to be carefully handled. Miss Minerva stopped
the growing quarrel with the readiest discretion and good-feeling. She
patted Teresa on the shoulder, and looked at Carmina with a pleasant
smile. "Worthy old creature! how full of humour she is! The energy of
the people, Miss Carmina. I often remark the quaint force with which
they express their ideas. No--not a word of apology, I beg and pray.
Maria, my dear, take your sister's hand, and we will follow." She put
her arm in Carmina's arm with the happiest mixture of familiarity and
respect, and she nodded to Carmina's old companion with the cordiality
of a good-humoured friend.
Teresa was not further irritated by being kept waiting for any length of
time. In a few minutes Carmina joined her on the bench.
"Tired of the beasts already, my pretty one?"
"Worse than tired--driven away by the smell! Dear old Teresa, why did
you speak so roughly to Miss Minerva and Maria?"
"Because I hate them! because I hate the family! Was your poor father
demented in his last moments, when he trusted you among these detestable
people?"
Carmina listened in astonishment. "You said just the contrary of the
family," she exclaimed, "only yesterday!"
Teresa hung her head in confusion. Her well-meant attempt to reconcile
Carmina to the new life on which she had entered was now revealed as a
sham, thanks to her own outbreak of temper. The one honest alternative
left was to own the truth, and put Carmina on her guard without alarming
her, if possible.
"I'll never tell a lie again, as long as I live," Teresa declared. "You
see I didn't like to discourage you. After all, I dare say I'm more
wrong than right in my opinion. But it is my opinion, for all that.
I hate those women, mistress and governess, both alike. There! now it's
out. Are you angry with me?"
"I am never angry with you, my old friend; I am only a little vexed.
Don't say you hate people, after only knowing them for a day or two!
I am sure Miss Minerva has been very kind--to me, as well as to you. I
feel ashamed of myself already for having begun by disliking her."
Teresa took her young mistress's hand, and patted it compassionately.
"Poor innocent, if you only had my experience to help you! There are
good ones and bad ones among all creatures. I say to you the Gallilees
are bad ones! Even their music-master (I saw him this morning) looks
like a rogue. You will tell me the poor old gentleman is harmless,
surely. I shall not contradict that--I shall only ask, what is the use
of a man who is as weak as water? Oh, I like him, but I distinguish!
I also like Zo. But what is a child--especially when that beastly
governess has muddled her unfortunate little head with learning? No, my
angel, there's but one person among these people who comforts me, when I
think of the day that will part us. Ha! do I see a little colour coming
into your cheeks? You sly girl! you know who it is. There is what I
call a Man! If I was as young as you are, and as pretty as you are--"
A warning gesture from Carmina closed Teresa's lips. Ovid was rapidly
approaching them.
He looked a little annoyed, and he made his apologies without mentioning
the doctor's name. His cousin was interested enough in him already to
ask herself what this meant. Did he really dislike Benjulia, and had
there been some disagreement between them?
"Was the tall doctor so very interesting?" she ventured to inquire.
"Not in the least!" He answered as if the subject was disagreeable to
him--and yet he returned to it. "By-the-by, did you ever hear Benjulia's
name mentioned, at home in Italy?"
"Never! Did he know my father and mother?"
"He says so."
"Oh, do introduce me to him!"
"We must wait a little. He prefers being introduced to the monkey
to-day. Where are Miss Minerva and the children?"
Teresa replied. She pointed to the monkey-house, and then drew Ovid
aside. "Take her to see some more birds, and trust me to keep the
governess out of your way," whispered the good creature. "Make love--hot
love to her, doctor!"
In a minute more the cousins were out of sight. How are you to make love
to a young girl, after an acquaintance of a day or two? The question
would have been easily answered by some men. It thoroughly puzzled Ovid.
"I am so glad to get back to you!" he said, honestly opening his mind to
her. "Were you half as glad when you saw me return?"
He knew nothing of the devious and serpentine paths by which love finds
the way to its ends. It had not occurred to him to approach her with
those secret tones and stolen looks which speak for themselves. She
answered with the straightforward directness of which he had set the
example.
"I hope you don't think me insensible to your kindness," she said. "I am
more pleased and more proud than I can tell you."
"Proud!" Ovid repeated, not immediately understanding her.
"Why not?" she asked. "My poor father used to say you would be an honour
to the family. Ought I not to be proud, when I find such a man taking so
much notice of me?"
She looked up at him shyly. At that moment, he would have resigned all
his prospects of celebrity for the privilege of kissing her. He made
another attempt to bring her--in spirit--a little nearer to him.
"Carmina, do you remember where you first saw me?"
"How can you ask?--it was in the concert-room. When I saw you there,
I remembered passing you in the large Square. It seems a strange
coincidence that you should have gone to the very concert that Teresa
and I went to by accident."
Ovid ran the risk, and made his confession. "It was no coincidence," he
said. "After our meeting in the Square I followed you to the concert."
This bold avowal would have confused a less innocent girl. It only took
Carmina by surprise.
"What made you follow us?" she asked.
Us? Did she suppose he had followed the old woman? Ovid lost no time
in setting her right. "I didn't even see Teresa," he said. "I followed
You."
She was silent. What did her silence mean? Was she confused, or was she
still at a loss to understand him? That morbid sensitiveness, which was
one of the most serious signs of his failing health, was by this time
sufficiently irritated to hurry him into extremities. "Did you ever
hear," he asked, "of such a thing as love at first sight?"
She started. Surprise, confusion, doubt, succeeded each other in rapid
changes on her mobile and delicate face. Still silent, she roused her
courage, and looked at him.
If he had returned the look, he would have told the story of his first
love without another word to help him. But his shattered nerves unmanned
him, at the moment of all others when it was his interest to be bold.
The fear that he might have allowed himself to speak too freely--a
weakness which would never have misled him in his days of health and
strength--kept his eyes on the ground. She looked away again with a
quick flush of shame. When such a man as Ovid spoke of love at first
sight, what an instance of her own vanity it was to have thought that
his mind was dwelling on her! He had kindly lowered himself to the
level of a girl's intelligence, and had been trying to interest her by
talking the language of romance. She was so dissatisfied with herself
that she made a movement to turn back.
He was too bitterly disappointed, on his side, to attempt to prolong the
interview. A deadly sense of weakness was beginning to overpower him. It
was the inevitable result of his utter want of care for himself. After a
sleepless night, he had taken a long walk before breakfast; and to
these demands on his failing reserves of strength, he had now added the
fatigue of dawdling about a garden. Physically and mentally he had no
energy left.
"I didn't mean it," he said to Carmina sadly; "I am afraid I have
offended you."
"Oh, how little you know me," she cried, "if you think that!"
This time their eyes met. The truth dawned on her--and he saw it.
He took her hand. The clammy coldness of his grasp startled her. "Do you
still wonder why I followed you?" he asked. The words were so faintly
uttered that she could barely hear them. Heavy drops of perspiration
stood on his forehead; his face faded to a gray and ghastly
whiteness--he staggered, and tried desperately to catch at the branch
of a tree near them. She threw her arms round him. With all her little
strength she tried to hold him up. Her utmost effort only availed to
drag him to the grass plot by their side, and to soften his fall. Even
as the cry for help passed her lips, she saw help coming. A tall man was
approaching her--not running, even when he saw what had happened; only
stalking with long strides. He was followed by one of the keepers of the
gardens. Doctor Benjulia had his sick monkey to take care of. He kept
the creature sheltered under his long frock-coat.
"Don't do that, if you please," was all the doctor said, as Carmina
tried to lift Ovid's head from the grass. He spoke with his customary
composure, and laid his hand on the heart of the fainting man, as coolly
as if it had been the heart of a stranger. "Which of you two can run the
fastest?" he asked, looking backwards and forwards between Carmina and
the keeper. "I want some brandy."
The refreshment room was within sight. Before the keeper quite
understood what was required of him, Carmina was speeding over the grass
like Atalanta herself.
Benjulia looked after her, with his usual grave attention. "That wench
can run," he said to himself, and turned once more to Ovid. "In his
state of health, he's been fool enough to over-exert himself." So he
disposed of the case in his own mind. Having done that, he remembered
the monkey, deposited for the time being on the grass. "Too cold for
him," he remarked, with more appearance of interest than he had shown
yet. "Here, keeper! Pick up the monkey till I'm ready to take him
again." The man hesitated.
"He might bite me, sir."
"Pick him up!" the doctor reiterated; "he can't bite anybody, after
what I've done to him." The monkey was indeed in a state of stupor.
The keeper obeyed his instructions, looking half stupefied himself: he
seemed to be even more afraid of the doctor than of the monkey. "Do you
think I'm the Devil?" Benjulia asked with dismal irony. The man looked
as if he would say "Yes," if he dared.
Carmina came running back with the brandy. The doctor smelt it first,
and then took notice of her. "Out of breath?" he said.
"Why don't you give him the brandy?" she answered impatiently.
"Strong lungs," Benjulia proceeded, sitting down cross-legged by Ovid,
and administering the stimulant without hurrying himself. "Some girls
would not have been able to speak, after such a run as you have had. I
didn't think much of you or your lungs when you were a baby."
"Is he coming to himself?" Carmina asked.
"Do you know what a pump is?" Benjulia rejoined. "Very well; a pump
sometimes gets out of order. Give the carpenter time, and he'll put it
right again." He let his mighty hand drop on Ovid's breast. "This pump
is out of order; and I'm the carpenter. Give me time, and I'll set it
right again. You're not a bit like your mother."
Watching eagerly for the slightest signs of recovery in Ovid's face,
Carmina detected a faint return of colour. She was so relieved that she
was able to listen to the doctor's oddly discursive talk, and even to
join in it. "Some of our friends used to think I was like my father,"
she answered.
"Did they?" said Benjulia--and shut his thin-lipped mouth as if he was
determined to drop the subject for ever.
Ovid stirred feebly, and half opened his eyes.
Benjulia got up. "You don't want me any longer," he said. "Now, Mr.
Keeper, give me back the monkey." He dismissed the man, and tucked
the monkey under one arm as if it had been a bundle. "There are your
friends," he resumed, pointing to the end of the walk. "Good-day!"
Carmina stopped him. Too anxious to stand on ceremony, she laid her hand
on his arm. He shook it off--not angrily: just brushing it away, as he
might have brushed away the ash of his cigar or a splash of mud in the
street.
"What does this fainting fit mean?" she asked timidly. "Is Ovid going to
be ill?"
"Seriously ill--unless you do the right thing with him, and do it at
once." He walked away. She followed him, humbly and yet resolutely.
"Tell me, if you please," she said, "what we are to do."
He looked back over his shoulder. "Send him away."
She returned, and knelt down by Ovid--still slowly reviving. With a fond
and gentle hand, she wiped the moisture from his forehead.
"Just as we were beginning to understand each other!" she said to
herself, with a sad little sigh.
CHAPTER XV.
Two days passed. In spite of the warnings that he had received, Ovid
remained in London.
The indisputable authority of Benjulia had no more effect on him than
the unanswerable arguments of Mrs. Gallilee. "Recent circumstances" (as
his mother expressed it) "had strengthened his infatuated resistance to
reason." The dreaded necessity for Teresa's departure had been hastened
by a telegram from Italy: Ovid felt for Carmina's distress with
sympathies which made her dearer to him than ever. On the second morning
after the visit to the Zoological Gardens, her fortitude had been
severely tried. She had found the telegram under her pillow, enclosed in
a farewell letter. Teresa had gone.
"My Carmina,--I have kissed you, and cried over you, and I am writing
good-bye as well as my poor eyes will let me. Oh, my heart's darling, I
cannot be cruel enough to wake you, and see you suffer! Forgive me for
going away, with only this dumb farewell. I am so fond of you--that is
my only excuse. While he still lives, my helpless old man has his claim
on me. Write by every post, and trust me to write back--and remember
what I said when I spoke of Ovid. Love the good man who loves you; and
try to make the best of the others. They cannot surely be cruel to the
poor angel who depends on their kindness. Oh, how hard life is--"
The paper was blotted, and the rest was illegible.
The miserable day of Teresa's departure was passed by Carmina in the
solitude of her room: gently and firmly, she refused to see anyone. This
strange conduct added to Mrs. Gallilee's anxieties. Already absorbed in
considering Ovid's obstinacy, and the means of overcoming it, she was
now confronted by a resolute side in the character of her niece, which
took her by surprise. There might be difficulties to come, in managing
Carmina, which she had not foreseen. Meanwhile, she was left to act on
her own unaided discretion in the serious matter of her son's failing
health. Benjulia had refused to help her; he was too closely occupied
in his laboratory to pay or receive visits. "I have already given my
advice" (the doctor wrote). "Send him away. When he has had a month's
change, let me see his letters; and then, if I have anything more to
say, I will tell you what I think of your son."
Left in this position, Mrs. Gallilee's hard self-denial yielded to the
one sound conclusion that lay before her. The only influence that could
be now used over Ovid, with the smallest chance of success, was the
influence of Carmina. Three days after Teresa's departure, she invited
her niece to take tea in her own boudoir. Carmina found her reading. "A
charming book," she said, as she laid it down, "on a most interesting
subject, Geographical Botany. The author divides the earth into
twenty-five botanical regions--but, I forget; you are not like Maria;
you don't care about these things."
"I am so ignorant," Carmina pleaded. "Perhaps, I may know better when I
get older." A book on the table attracted her by its beautiful binding.
She took it up. Mrs. Gallilee looked at her with compassionate good
humour.
"Science again, my dear," she said facetiously, "inviting you in a
pretty dress! You have taken up the 'Curiosities of Coprolites.' That
book is one of my distinctions--a presentation copy from the author."
"What are Coprolites?" Carmina asked, trying to inform herself on the
subject of her aunt's distinctions.
Still good-humoured, but with an effort that began to appear, Mrs.
Gallilee lowered herself to the level of her niece.
"Coprolites," she explained, "are the fossilised indigestions of extinct
reptiles. The great philosopher who has written that book has discovered
scales, bones, teeth, and shells--the undigested food of those
interesting Saurians. What a man! what a field for investigation! Tell
me about your own reading. What have you found in the library?"
"Very interesting books--at least to me," Carmina answered. "I have
found many volumes of poetry. Do you ever read poetry?"
Mrs. Gallilee laid herself back in her chair, and submitted patiently
to her niece's simplicity. "Poetry?" she repeated, in accents of
resignation. "Oh, good heavens!"
Unlucky Carmina tried a more promising topic. "What beautiful flowers
you have in the drawing-room!" she said.
"Nothing remarkable, my dear. Everybody has flowers in their
drawing-rooms--they are part of the furniture."
"Did you arrange them yourself, aunt?"
Mrs. Gallilee still endured it. "The florist's man," she said, "does all
that. I sometimes dissect flowers, but I never trouble myself to arrange
them. What would be the use of the man if I did?" This view of the
question struck Carmina dumb. Mrs. Gallilee went on. "By-the-by, talking
of flowers reminds one of other superfluities. Have you tried the piano
in your room? Will it do?"
"The tone is quite perfect!" Carmina answered with enthusiasm. "Did
you choose it?" Mrs. Gallilee looked as if she was going to say "Good
Heavens!" again, and perhaps to endure it no longer. Carmina was too
simple to interpret these signs in the right way. Why should her aunt
not choose a piano? "Don't you like music?" she asked.
Mrs. Gallilee made a last effort. "When you see a little more of
society, my child, you will know that one must like music. So again
with pictures--one must go to the Royal Academy Exhibition. So
again--"
Before she could mention any more social sacrifices, the servant came in
with a letter, and stopped her.
Mrs. Gallilee looked at the address. The weary indifference of her
manner changed to vivid interest, the moment she saw the handwriting.
"From the Professor!" she exclaimed. "Excuse me, for one minute." She
read the letter, and closed it again with a sigh of relief. "I knew
it!" she said to herself. "I have always maintained that the albuminoid
substance of frog's eggs is insufficient (viewed as nourishment) to
transform a tadpole into a frog--and, at last, the Professor owns that
I am right. I beg your pardon, Carmina; I am carried away by a subject
that I have been working at in my stolen intervals for weeks past. Let
me give you some tea. I have asked Miss Minerva to join us. What is
keeping her, I wonder? She is usually so punctual. I suppose Zoe has
been behaving badly again."
In a few minutes more, the governess herself confirmed this maternal
forewarning of the truth. Zo had declined to commit to memory "the
political consequences of the granting of Magna Charta"--and now stood
reserved for punishment, when her mother "had time to attend to it."
Mrs. Gallilee at once disposed of this little responsibility. "Bread and
water for tea," she said, and proceeded to the business of the evening.
"I wish to speak to you both," she began, "on the subject of my son."
The two persons addressed waited in silence to hear more. Carmina's
head drooped: she looked down. Miss Minerva attentively observed Mrs.
Gallilee. "Why am I invited to hear what she has to say about her son?"
was the question which occurred to the governess. "Is she afraid
that Carmina might tell me about it, if I was not let into the family
secrets?"
Admirably reasoned, and correctly guessed!
Mrs. Gallilee had latterly observed that the governess was insinuating
herself into the confidence of her niece--that is to say, into the
confidence of a young lady, whose father was generally reported to
have died in possession of a handsome fortune. Personal influence, once
obtained over an heiress, is not infrequently misused. To check the
further growth of a friendship of this sort (without openly offending
Miss Minerva) was an imperative duty. Mrs. Gallilee saw her way to the
discreet accomplishment of that object. Her niece and her governess
were interested--diversely interested--in Ovid. If she invited them both
together, to consult with her on the delicate subject of her son,
there would be every chance of exciting some difference of opinion,
sufficiently irritating to begin the process of estrangement, by keeping
them apart when they had left the tea-table.
"It is most important that there should be no misunderstanding among
us," Mrs. Gallilee proceeded. "Let me set the example of speaking
without reserve. We all three know that Ovid persists in remaining in
London--"
She paused, on the point of finishing the sentence. Although she had
converted a Professor, Mrs. Gallilee was still only a woman. There did
enter into her other calculations, the possibility of exciting some
accidental betrayal of her governess's passion for her son. On alluding
to Ovid, she turned suddenly to Miss Minerva. "I am sure you will excuse
my troubling you with family anxieties," she said--"especially when they
are connected with the health of my son."
It was cleverly done, but it laboured under one disadvantage. Miss
Minerva had no idea of what the needless apology meant, having no
suspicion of the discovery of her secret by her employer. But to feel
herself baffled in trying to penetrate Mrs. Gallilee's motives was
enough, of itself, to put Mrs. Gallilee's governess on her guard for the
rest of the evening.
"You honour me, madam, by admitting me to your confidence"--was what she
said. "Trip me up, you cat, if you can!"--was what she thought.
Mrs. Gallilee resumed.
"We know that Ovid persists in remaining in London, when change of air
and scene are absolutely necessary to the recovery of his health. And we
know why. Carmina, my child, don't think for a moment that I blame you!
don't even suppose that I blame my son. You are too charming a person
not to excuse, nay even to justify, any man's admiration. But let us (as
we hard old people say) look the facts in the face. If Ovid had not seen
you, he would be now on the health-giving sea, on his way to Spain and
Italy. You are the innocent cause of his obstinate indifference, his
most deplorable and dangerous disregard of the duty which he owes to
himself. He refuses to listen to his mother, he sets the opinion of his
skilled medical colleague at defiance. But one person has any influence
over him now." She paused again, and tried to trip up the governess once
more. "Miss Minerva, let me appeal to You. I regard you as a member of
our family; I have the sincerest admiration of your tact and good sense.
Am I exceeding the limits of delicacy, if I say plainly to my niece,
Persuade Ovid to go?"
If Carmina had possessed an elder sister, with a plain personal
appearance and an easy conscience, not even that sister could have
matched the perfect composure with which Miss Minerva replied.
"I don't possess your happy faculty of expressing yourself, Mrs.
Gallilee. But, if I had been in your place, I should have said to the
best of my poor ability exactly what you have said now." She bent her
head with a graceful gesture of respect, and looked at Carmina with a
gentle sisterly interest while she stirred her tea.
At the very opening of the skirmish, Mrs. Gallilee was defeated. She had
failed to provoke the slightest sign of jealousy, or even of
ill-temper. Unquestionably the most crafty and most cruel woman of the
two--possessing the most dangerously deceitful manner, and the most
mischievous readiness of language--she was, nevertheless, Miss Minerva's
inferior in the one supreme capacity of which they both stood in need,
the capacity for self-restraint.
She showed this inferiority on expressing her thanks. The underlying
malice broke through the smooth surface that was intended to hide it.
"I am apt to doubt myself," she said; "and such sound encouragement as
yours always relieves me. Of course I don't ask you for more than a word
of advice. Of course I don't expect you to persuade Ovid."
"Of course not!" Miss Minerva agreed. "May I ask for a little more sugar
in my tea?"
Mrs. Gallilee turned to Carmina.
"Well, my dear? I have spoken to you, as I might have spoken to one
of my own daughters, if she had been of your age. Tell me frankly, in
return, whether I may count on your help."
Still pale and downcast, Carmina obeyed. "I will do my best, if you wish
it. But--"
"Yes? Go on."
She still hesitated. Mrs. Gallilee tried gentle remonstrance. "My child,
surely you are not afraid of me?"
She was certainly afraid. But she controlled herself.
"You are Ovid's mother, and I am only his cousin," she resumed. "I don't
like to hear you say that my influence over him is greater than yours."
It was far from the poor girl's intention; but there was an implied
rebuke in this. In her present state of irritation, Mrs. Gallilee felt
it.
"Come! come!" she said. "Don't affect to be ignorant, my dear, of what
you know perfectly well."
Carmina lifted her head. For the first time in the experience of the
two elder women, this gentle creature showed that she could resent an
insult. The fine spirit that was in her fired her eyes, and fixed them
firmly on her aunt.
"Do you accuse me of deceit?" she asked.
"Let us call it false modesty," Mrs. Gallilee retorted.
Carmina rose without another word--and walked out of the room.
In the extremity of her surprise, Mrs. Gallilee appealed to Miss
Minerva. "Is she in a passion?"
"She didn't bang the door," the governess quietly remarked.
"I am not joking, Miss Minerva."
"I am not joking either, madam."
The tone of that answer implied an uncompromising assertion of equality.
You are not to suppose (it said) that a lady drops below your level,
because she receives a salary and teaches your children. Mrs. Gallilee
was so angry, by this time, that she forgot the importance of preventing
a conference between Miss Minerva and her niece. For once, she was the
creature of impulse--the overpowering impulse to dismiss her insolent
governess from her hospitable table.
"May I offer you another cup of tea?"
"Thank you--no more. May I return to my pupils?"
"By all means!"
Carmina had not been five minutes in her own room before she heard a
knock at the door. Had Mrs. Gallilee followed her? "Who is there?" she
asked. And a voice outside answered,
"Only Miss Minerva!"
CHAPTER XVI.
"I am afraid I have startled you?" said the governess, carefully closing
the door.
"I thought it was my aunt," Carmina answered, as simply as a child.
"Have you been crying?"
"I couldn't help it, Miss Minerva."
"Mrs. Gallilee spoke cruelly to you--I don't wonder at your feeling
angry."
Carmina gently shook her head. "I have been crying," she explained,
"because I am sorry and ashamed. How can I make it up with my aunt?
Shall I go back at once and beg her pardon? I think you are my friend,
Miss Minerva. Will you advise me?"
It was so prettily and innocently said that even the governess was
touched--for a moment. "Shall I prove to you that I am your friend?" she
proposed. "I advise you not to go back yet to your aunt--and I will tell
you why. Mrs. Gallilee bears malice; she is a thoroughly unforgiving
woman. And I should be the first to feel it, if she knew what I have
just said to you."
"Oh, Miss Minerva! you don't think that I would betray your confidence?"
"No, my dear, I don't. I felt attracted towards you, when we first met.
You didn't return the feeling--you (very naturally) disliked me. I am
ugly and ill-tempered: and, if there is anything good in me, it doesn't
show itself on the surface. Yes! yes! I believe you are beginning to
understand me. If I can make your life here a little happier, as time
goes on, I shall be only too glad to do it." She put her long yellow
hands on either side of Carmina's head, and kissed her forehead.
The poor child threw her arms round Miss Minerva's neck, and cried
her heart out on the bosom of the woman who was deceiving her. "I have
nobody left, now Teresa has gone," she said. "Oh, do try to be kind to
me--I feel so friendless and so lonely!"
Miss Minerva neither moved nor spoke. She waited, and let the girl cry.
Her heavy black eyebrows gathered into a frown; her sallow face deepened
in colour. She was in a state of rebellion against herself. Through all
the hardening influences of the woman's life--through the fortifications
against good which watchful evil builds in human hearts--that innocent
outburst of trust and grief had broken its way; and had purified for a
while the fetid inner darkness with divine light. She had entered the
room, with her own base interests to serve. In her small sordid way she,
like her employer, was persecuted by debts--miserable debts to sellers
of expensive washes, which might render her ugly complexion more
passable in Ovid's eyes; to makers of costly gloves, which might show
Ovid the shape of her hands, and hide their colour; to skilled workmen
in fine leather, who could tempt Ovid to look at her high instep, and
her fine ankle--the only beauties that she could reveal to the only
man whom she cared to please. For the time, those importunate creditors
ceased to threaten her. For the time, what she had heard in the
conservatory, while they were reading the Will, lost its tempting
influence. She remained in the room for half an hour more--and she left
it without having borrowed a farthing.
"Are you easier now?"
"Yes, dear."
Carmina dried her eyes, and looked shyly at Miss Minerva. "I have been
treating you as if I had a sister," she said; "you don't think me too
familiar, I hope?"
"I wish I was your sister, God knows!"
The words were hardly out of her mouth before she was startled by her
own fervour. "Shall I tell you what to do with Mrs. Gallilee?" she said
abruptly. "Write her a little note."
"Yes! yes! and you will take it for me?"
Carmina's eyes brightened through her tears, the suggestion was such a
relief! In a minute the note was written: "My dear Aunt, I have behaved
very badly, and I am very much ashamed of it. May I trust to your kind
indulgence to forgive me? I will try to be worthier of your kindness
for the future; and I sincerely beg your pardon." She signed her name in
breathless haste. "Please take it at once!" she said eagerly.
Miss Minerva smiled. "If I take it," she said, "I shall do harm instead
of good--I shall be accused of interfering. Give it to one of the
servants. Not yet! When Mrs. Gallilee is angry, she doesn't get over
it so soon as you seem to think. Leave her to dabble in science first,"
said the governess in tones of immeasurable contempt. "When she has
half stifled herself with some filthy smell, or dissected some wretched
insect or flower, she may be in a better humour. Wait."
Carmina thought of the happy days at home in Italy, when her father
used to laugh at her little outbreaks of temper, and good Teresa only
shrugged her shoulders. What a change--oh, me, what a change for the
worse! She drew from her bosom a locket, hung round her neck by a thin
gold chain--and opened it, and kissed the glass over the miniature
portraits inside. "Would you like to see them?" she said to Miss
Minerva. "My mother's likeness was painted for me by my father; and then
he had his photograph taken to match it. I open my portraits and look at
them, while I say my prayers. It's almost like having them alive again,
sometimes. Oh, if I only had my father to advise me now--!" Her
heart swelled--but she kept back the tears: she was learning that
self-restraint, poor soul, already! "Perhaps," she went on, "I ought
not to want advice. After that fainting-fit in the Gardens, if I can
persuade Ovid to leave us, I ought to do it--and I will do it!"
Miss Minerva crossed the room, and looked out of window. Carmina had
roused the dormant jealousy; Carmina had fatally weakened the good
influences which she had herself produced. The sudden silence of her new
friend perplexed her. She too went to the window. "Do you think it would
be taking a liberty?" she asked.
"No."
A short answer--and still looking out of window! Carmina tried
again. "Besides, there are my aunt's wishes to consider. After my bad
behaviour--"
Miss Minerva turned round from the window sharply. "Of course! There
can't be a doubt of it." Her tone softened a little. "You are young,
Carmina--I suppose I may call you by your name--you are young and
simple. Do those innocent eyes of yours ever see below the surface?"
"I don't quite understand you."
"Do you think your aunt's only motive in wishing Mr. Ovid Vere to leave
London is anxiety about his health? Do you feel no suspicion that she
wants to keep him away from You?"
Carmina toyed with her locket, in an embarrassment which she was quite
unable to disguise. "Are you afraid to trust me?" Miss Minerva asked.
That reproach opened the girl's lips instantly.
"I am afraid to tell you how foolish I am," she answered. "Perhaps, I
still feel a little strangeness between us? It seems to be so formal to
call you Miss Minerva. I don't know what your Christian name is. Will
you tell me?"
Miss Minerva replied rather unwillingly. "My name is Frances. Don't call
me Fanny!"
"Why not?"
"Because it's too absurd to be endured! What does the mere sound of
Fanny suggest? A flirting, dancing creature--plump and fair, and playful
and pretty!" She went to the looking-glass, and pointed disdainfully to
the reflection of herself. "Sickening to think of," she said, "when you
look at that. Call me Frances--a man's name, with only the difference
between an i and an e. No sentiment in it; hard, like me. Well, what was
it you didn't like to say of yourself?"
Carmina dropped her voice to a whisper. "It's no use asking me what I
do see, or don't see, in my aunt," she answered. "I am afraid we shall
never be--what we ought to be to each other. When she came to that
concert, and sat by me and looked at me--" She stopped, and shuddered
over the recollection of it.
Miss Minerva urged her to go on--first, by a gesture; then by a
suggestion: "They said you fainted under the heat."
"I didn't feel the heat. I felt a horrid creeping all over me. Before I
looked at her, mind!--when I only knew that somebody was sitting next to
me. And then, I did look round. Her eyes and my eyes flashed into each
other. In that one moment, I lost all sense of myself as if I was dead.
I can only tell you of it in that way. It was a dreadful surprise to
me to remember it--and a dreadful pain--when they brought me to myself
again. Though I do look so little and so weak, I am stronger than
people think; I never fainted before. My aunt is--how can I say it
properly?--hard to get on with since that time. Is there something
wicked in my nature? I do believe she feels in the same way towards me.
Yes; I dare say it's imagination, but it's as bad as reality for all
that. Oh, I am sure you are right--she does want to keep Ovid out of my
way!"
"Because she doesn't like you?" said Miss Minerva. "Is that the only
reason you can think of?"
"What other reason can there be?"
The governess summoned her utmost power of self-restraint. She needed
it, even to speak of the bare possibility of Carmina's marriage to Ovid,
as if it was only a matter of speculative interest to herself.
"Some people object to marriages between cousins," she said. "You
are cousins. Some people object to marriages between Catholics and
Protestants. You are a Catholic--" No! She could not trust herself to
refer to him directly; she went on to the next sentence. "And there
might be some other reason," she resumed.
"Do you know what that is?" Carmina asked.
"No more than you do--thus far."
She spoke the plain truth. Thanks to the dog's interruption, and to the
necessity of saving herself from discovery, the last clauses of the Will
had been read in her absence.
"Can't you even guess what it is?" Carmina persisted.
"Mrs. Gallilee is very ambitious," the governess replied: "and her son
has a fortune of his own. She may wish him to marry a lady of high
rank. But--no--she is always in need of money. In some way, money may be
concerned in it."
"In what way?" Carmina asked.
"I have already told you," Miss Minerva answered, "that I don't know."
Before the conversation could proceed, they were interrupted by the
appearance of Mrs. Gallilee's maid, with a message from the schoolroom.
Miss Maria wanted a little help in her Latin lesson. Noticing Carmina's
letter, as she advanced to the door, it struck Miss Minerva that the
woman might deliver it. "Is Mrs. Gallilee at home?" she asked. Mrs.
Gallilee had just gone out. "One of her scientific lectures, I suppose,"
said Miss Minerva to Carmina. "Your note must wait till she comes back."
The door closed on the governess--and the lady's-maid took a liberty.
She remained in the room; and produced a morsel of folded paper,
hitherto concealed from view. Smirking and smiling, she handed the paper
to Carmina.
"From Mr. Ovid, Miss."
CHAPTER XVII.
"Pray come to me; I am waiting for you in the garden of the Square."
In those two lines, Ovid's note began and ended. Mrs. Gallilee's
maid--deeply interested in an appointment which was not without
precedent in her own experience--ventured on an expression of sympathy,
before she returned to the servants' hall. "Please to excuse me, Miss;
I hope Mr. Ovid isn't ill? He looked sadly pale, I thought. Allow me to
give you your hat." Carmina thanked her, and hurried downstairs.
Ovid was waiting at the gate of the Square--and he did indeed look
wretchedly ill.
It was useless to make inquiries; they only seemed to irritate him. "I
am better already, now you have come to me." He said that, and led the
way to a sheltered seat among the trees. In the later evening-time the
Square was almost empty. Two middle-aged ladies, walking up and down
(who considerately remembered their own youth, and kept out of the way),
and a boy rigging a model yacht (who was too closely occupied to notice
them), were the only persons in the enclosure besides themselves.
"Does my mother know that you have come here?" Ovid asked.
"Mrs. Gallilee has gone out. I didn't stop to think of it, when I got
your letter. Am I doing wrong?"
Ovid took her hand. "Is it doing wrong to relieve me of anxieties that I
have no courage to endure? When we meet in the house either my mother or
her obedient servant, Miss Minerva, is sure to interrupt us. At last, my
darling, I have got you to myself! You know that I love you. Why can't I
look into your heart, and see what secrets it is keeping from me? I try
to hope; but I want some little encouragement. Carmina! shall I ever
hear you say that you love me?"
She trembled, and turned away her head. Her own words to the governess
were in her mind; her own conviction of the want of all sympathy between
his mother and herself made her shrink from answering him.
"I understand your silence." With those words he dropped her hand, and
looked at her no more.
It was sadly, not bitterly spoken. She attempted to find excuses; she
showed but too plainly how she pitied him. "If I only had myself to
think of--" Her voice failed her. A new life came into his eyes, the
colour rose in his haggard face: even those few faltering words had
encouraged him!
She tried again to make him understand her. "I am so afraid of
distressing you, Ovid; and I am so anxious not to make mischief between
you and your mother--"
"What has my mother to do with it?"
She went on, without noticing the interruption. "You won't think me
ungrateful? We had better speak of something else. Only this evening,
your mother sent for me, and--don't be angry!--I am afraid she might be
vexed if she knew what you have been saying to me. Perhaps I am wrong?
Perhaps she only thinks I am too young. Oh, Ovid, how you look at me!
Your mother hasn't said in so many words--"
"What has she said?"
In that question she saw the chance of speaking to him of other
interests than the interests of love.
"You must go away to another climate," she said; "and your mother tells
me I must persuade you to do it. I obey her with a heavy heart. Dear
Ovid, you know how I shall miss you; you know what a loss it will be to
me, when you say good-bye--but there is only one way to get well again.
I entreat you to take that way! Your mother thinks I have some influence
over you. Have I any influence?"
"Judge for yourself," he answered. "You wish me to leave you?"
"For your own sake. Only for your own sake."
"Do you wish me to come back again?"
"It's cruel to ask the question!"
"It rests with you, Carmina. Send me away when you like, and where you
like. But, before I go, give me my one reason for making the sacrifice.
No change will do anything for me, no climate will restore my
health--unless you give me your love. I am old enough to know myself; I
have thought of it by day and by night. Am I cruel to press you in this
way? I will only say one word more. It doesn't matter what becomes of
me--if you refuse to be my wife."
Without experience, without advice--with her own heart protesting
against her silence--the restraint that she had laid on herself grew
harder and harder to endure. The tears rose in her eyes. He saw them;
they embittered his mind against his mother. With a darkening face he
rose, and walked up and down before her, struggling with himself.
"This is my mother's doing," he said.
His tone terrified her. The dread, present to her mind all through the
interview, of making herself a cause of estrangement between mother and
son, so completely overcame her that she even made an attempt to defend
Mrs. Gallilee! At the first words, he sat down by her again. For a
moment, he scrutinised her face without mercy--and then repented of his
own severity.
"My poor child," he said, "you are afraid to tell me what has happened.
I won't press you to speak against your own inclinations. It would be
cruel and needless--I have got at the truth at last. In the one hope of
my life, my mother is my enemy. She is bent on separating us; she shall
not succeed. I won't leave you."
Carmina looked at him. His eyes dropped before her, in confusion and
shame.
"Are you angry with me?" she asked.
No reproaches could have touched his heart as that question touched it.
"Angry with you? Oh, my darling, if you only knew how angry I am with
myself! It cuts me to the heart to see how I have distressed you. I am
a miserable selfish wretch; I don't deserve your love. Forgive me, and
forget me. I will make the best atonement I can, Carmina. I will go away
to-morrow."
Under hard trial, she had preserved her self-control. She had resisted
him; she had resisted herself. His sudden submission disarmed her in an
instant. With a low cry of love and fear she threw her arms round his
neck, and laid her burning cheek against his face. "I can't help it,"
she whispered; "oh, Ovid, don't despise me!" His arms closed round
her; his lips were pressed to hers. "Kiss me," he said. She kissed him,
trembling in his embrace. That innocent self-abandonment did not plead
with him in vain. He released her--and only held her hand. There was
silence between them; long, happy silence.
He was the first to speak again. "How can I go away now?" he said.
She only smiled at that reckless forgetfulness of the promise, by which
he had bound himself a few minutes since. "What did you tell me," she
asked playfully, "when you called yourself by hard names, and said you
didn't deserve my love?" Her smile vanished softly, and left only a
look of tender entreaty in its place. "Set me an example of firmness,
Ovid--don't leave it all to me! Remember what you have made me say.
Remember"--she only hesitated for a moment--"remember what an interest I
have in you now. I love you, Ovid. Say you will go."
He said it gratefully. "My life is yours; my will is yours. Decide for
me, and I will begin my journey."
She was so impressed by her sense of this new responsibility, that she
answered him as gravely as if she had been his wife. "I must give you
time to pack up," she said.
"Say time to be with You!"
She fell into thought. He asked if she was still considering when
to send him away. "No," she said; "it isn't that. I was wondering at
myself. What is it that makes a great man like you so fond of me?"
His arm stole round her waist. He could just see her in the darkening
twilight under the trees; the murmuring of the leaves was the only sound
near them--his kisses lingered on her face. She sighed softly. "Don't
make it too hard for me to send you away!" she whispered. He raised her,
and put her arm in his. "Come," he said, "we will walk a little in the
cool air."
They returned to the subject of his departure. It was still early in the
week. She inquired if Saturday would be too soon to begin his journey.
No: he felt it, too--the longer they delayed, the harder the parting
would be.
"Have you thought yet where you will go?" she asked.
"I must begin with a sea-voyage," he replied. "Long railway journeys,
in my present state, will only do me harm. The difficulty is where to
go to. I have been to America; India is too hot; Australia is too far.
Benjulia has suggested Canada."
As he mentioned the doctor's name, her hand mechanically pressed his
arm.
"That strange man!" she said. "Even his name startles one; I hardly know
what to think of him. He seemed to have more feeling for the monkey than
for you or me. It was certainly kind of him to take the poor creature
home, and try what he could do with it. Are you sure he is a great
chemist?"
Ovid stopped. Such a question, from Carmina, sounded strange to him.
"What makes you doubt it?" he said.
"You won't laugh at me, Ovid?"
"You know I won't!"
"Now you shall hear. We knew a famous Italian chemist at Rome--such
a nice old man! He and my father used to play piquet; and I looked at
them, and tried to learn--and I was too stupid. But I had plenty of
opportunities of noticing our old friend's hands. They were covered
with stains; and he caught me looking at them. He was not in the least
offended; he told me his experiments had spotted his skin in that way,
and nothing would clean off the stains. I saw Doctor Benjulia's
great big hands, while he was giving you the brandy--and I remembered
afterwards that there were no stains on them. I seem to surprise you."
"You do indeed surprise me. After knowing Benjulia for years, I have
never noticed, what you have discovered on first seeing him."
"Perhaps he has some way of cleaning the stains off his hands."
Ovid agreed to this, as the readiest means of dismissing the subject.
Carmina had really startled him. Some irrational connection between the
great chemist's attention to the monkey, and the perplexing purity of
his hands, persisted in vaguely asserting itself in Ovid's mind.
His unacknowledged doubts of Benjulia troubled him as they had never
troubled him yet. He turned to Carmina for relief.
"Still thinking, my love?"
"Thinking of you," she answered. "I want you to promise me
something--and I am afraid to ask it."
"Afraid? You don't love me, after all!"
"Then I will say it at once! How long do you expect to be away?"
"For two or three months, perhaps."
"Promise to wait till you return, before you tell your mother--"
"That we are engaged?"
"Yes."
"You have my promise, Carmina; but you make me uneasy."
"Why?"
"In my absence, you will be under my mother's care. And you don't like
my mother."
Few words and plain words--and they sorely troubled her.
If she owned that he was right, what would the consequence be? He might
refuse to leave her. Even assuming that he controlled himself, he would
take his departure harassed by anxieties, which might exercise the worst
possible influence over the good effect of the journey. To prevaricate
with herself or with him was out of the question. That very evening she
had quarrelled with his mother; and she had yet to discover whether Mrs.
Gallilee had forgiven her. In her heart of hearts she hated deceit--and
in her heart of hearts she longed to set his mind at ease. In that
embarrassing position, which was the right way out? Satan persuaded Eve;
and Love persuaded Carmina. Love asked if she was cruel enough to make
her heart's darling miserable when he was so fond of her? Before she
could realise it, she had begun to deceive him. Poor humanity! poor
Carmina!
"You are almost as hard on me as if you were Doctor Benjulia himself!"
she said. "I feel your mother's superiority--and you tell me I don't
like her. Haven't you seen how good she has been to me?"
She thought this way of putting it irresistible. Ovid resisted,
nevertheless. Carmina plunged into lower depths of deceit immediately.
"Haven't you seen my pretty rooms--my piano--my pictures--my china--my
flowers? I should be the most insensible creature living if I didn't
feel grateful to your mother."
"And yet, you are afraid of her."
She shook his arm impatiently. "I say, No!"
He was as obstinate as ever. "I say, Yes! If you're not afraid, why do
you wish to keep our engagement from my mother's knowledge?"
His reasoning was unanswerable. But where is the woman to be found who
is not supple enough to slip through the stiff fingers of Reason? She
sheltered herself from his logic behind his language.
"Must I remind you again of the time when you were angry?" she rejoined.
"You said your mother was bent on separating us. If I don't want her to
know of our engagement just yet--isn't that a good reason?" She rested
her head caressingly on his shoulder. "Tell me," she went on, thinking
of one of Miss Minerva's suggestions, "doesn't my aunt look to a higher
marriage for you than a marriage with me?"
It was impossible to deny that Mrs. Gallilee's views might justify that
inquiry. Had she not more than once advised him to wait a few years--in
other words, to wait until he had won the highest honours of his
profession--before he thought of marrying at all? But Carmina was too
precious to him to be humiliated by comparisons with other women, no
matter what their rank might be. He paid her a compliment, instead of
giving her an answer.
"My mother can't look higher than you," he said. "I wish I could feel
sure, Carmina--in leaving you with her--that I am leaving you with a
friend whom you trust and love."
There was a sadness in his tone that grieved her. "Wait till you come
back," she replied, speaking as gaily as she could. "You will be ashamed
to remember your own misgivings. And don't forget, dear, that I have
another friend besides your mother--the best and kindest of friends--to
take care of me."
Ovid heard this with some surprise. "A friend in my mother's house?" he
asked.
"Certainly!"
"Who is it?"
"Miss Minerva."
"What!" His tone expressed such immeasurable amazement, that Carmina's
sense of justice was roused in defence of her new friend.
"If I began by wronging Miss Minerva, I had the excuse of being a
stranger," she said, warmly. "You have known her for years, and you
ought to have found out her good qualities long since! Are all men
alike, I wonder? Even my kind dear father used to call ugly women the
inexcusable mistakes of Nature. Poor Miss Minerva says herself she
is ugly, and expects everybody to misjudge her accordingly. I don't
misjudge her, for one. Teresa has left me; and you are going away next.
A miserable prospect, Ovid, but not quite without hope. Frances--yes, I
call her by her Christian name, and she calls me by mine!--Frances will
console me, and make my life as happy as it can be till you come back."
Excepting bad temper, and merciless cultivation of the minds of
children, Ovid knew of nothing that justified his prejudice against
the governess. Still, Carmina's sudden conversion inspired him with
something like alarm. "I suppose you have good reasons for what you tell
me," he said.
"The best reasons," she replied, in the most positive manner.
He considered for a moment how he could most delicately inquire what
those reasons might be. But valuable opportunities may be lost, even
in a moment. "Will you help me to do justice to Miss Minerva?" he
cautiously began.
"Hush!" Carmina interposed. "Surely, I heard somebody calling to me?"
They paused, and listened. A voice hailed them from the outer side of
the garden. They started guiltily. It was the voice of Mrs. Gallilee.
CHAPTER XVIII.
"Carmina! are you in the Square?"
"Leave it to me," Ovid whispered. "We will come to you directly," he
called back.
Mrs. Gallilee was waiting for them at the gate. Ovid spoke, the moment
they were within sight of each other. "You will have no more cause to
complain of me," he said cheerfully; "I am going away at the end of the
week."
Mrs. Gallilee's answer was addressed to Carmina instead of to her son.
"Thank you, my dear," she said, and pressed her niece's hand.
It was too dark to see more of faces than their shadowy outline. The
learned lady's tone was the perfection of amiability. She sent Ovid
across the road to knock at the house-door, and took Carmina's arm
confidentially. "You little goose!" she whispered, "how could you
suppose I was angry with you? I can't even regret your mistake, you have
written such a charming note."
Ovid was waiting for them in the hall. They went into the library. Mrs.
Gallilee enfolded her son in a fervent motherly embrace.
"This completes the enjoyment of a most delightful evening," she said.
"First a perfect lecture--and then the relief of overpowering anxiety
about my son. I suppose your professional studies, Ovid, have never
taken you as high as the Interspacial Regions? We were an immense
audience to-night, to hear the Professor on that subject, and I really
haven't recovered it yet. Fifty miles above us--only fifty miles--there
is an atmosphere of cold that would freeze the whole human family to
death in a second of time. Moist matter, in that terrific emptiness,
would explode, and become stone; and--listen to this, Carmina--the
explosion itself would be frozen, and produce no sound. Think of serious
people looking up in that dreadful direction, and talking of going to
Heaven. Oh, the insignificance of man, except--I am going to make a
joke, Ovid--except when he pleases his old mother by going away for the
benefit of his health! And where are you going? Has sensible Carmina
advised you? I agree with her beforehand, whatever she has said."
Ovid informed his mother of Benjulia's suggestion, and asked her what
she thought of it.
Mrs. Gallilee's overflowing geniality instantly flooded the absent
doctor. He was rude, he was ugly; but what an inestimable friend! what
admirable advice! In Ovid's state of health he must not write letters;
his mother would write and thank the doctor, and ask for introductions
to local grandees who occupied a position in colonial society. She
seized the newspaper: a steamer for Canada sailed from Liverpool on
Saturday. Ovid could secure his cabin the next morning ("amidships, my
dear, if you can possibly get it"), and could leave London by Friday's
train. In her eagerness to facilitate his departure, she proposed to
superintend the shutting up of his house, in his absence, and to arrange
the disposal of the servants, if he considered it worth while to keep
them. She even thought of the cat. The easiest way to provide for
the creature would be of course to have her poisoned; but Ovid was so
eccentric in some things, that practical suggestions were thrown away on
him. "Sixpence a week for cat's meat isn't much," cried Mrs. Gallilee in
an outburst of generosity. "We will receive the cat!"
Ovid made his acknowledgments resignedly. Carmina could see that Mrs.
Gallilee's overpowering vitality was beginning to oppress her son.
"I needn't trouble you, mother," he said. "My domestic affairs were all
settled when I first felt the necessity of getting rest. My manservant
travels with me. My housemaid and kitchenmaid will go to their friends
in the country; the cook will look after the house; and her nephew, the
little page, is almost as fond of the cat as I am. If you will send for
a cab, I think I will go home. Like other people in my wretched state, I
feel fatigued towards night-time."
His lips just touched Carmina's delicate little ear, while his mother
turned away to ring the bell. "Expect me to-morrow," he whispered. "I
love you!--love you!--love you!" He seemed to find the perfection of
luxury in the reiteration of those words.
When Ovid had left them, Carmina expected to hear something of her
aunt's discovery in the Square.
Mrs. Gallilee's innocence was impenetrable. Not finding her niece in the
house, she had thought of the Square. What could be more natural than
that the cousins should take an evening walk, in one of the prettiest
enclosures in London? Her anticipation of Ovid's recovery, and her
admiration of Carmina's powers of persuasion appeared, for the time, to
be the only active ideas in that comprehensive mind. When the servant
brought in the tray, with the claret and soda-water, she sent for Miss
Minerva to join them, and hear the good news; completely ignoring the
interruption of their friendly relations, earlier in the evening. She
became festive and facetious at the sight of the soda-water. "Let us
imitate the men, Miss Minerva, and drink a toast before we go to bed.
Be cheerful, Carmina, and share half a bottle of soda-water with me. A
pleasant journey to Ovid, and a safe return!" Cheered by the influences
of conviviality, the friend of Professors, the tender nurse of
half-developed tadpoles, lapsed into learning again. Mrs. Gallilee
improvised an appropriate little lecture on Canada--on the botany of the
Dominion; on the geology of the Dominion; on the number of gallons of
water wasted every hour by the falls of Niagara. "Science will set it
all right, my dears; we shall make that idle water work for us, one of
these days. Good-night, Miss Minerva! Dear Carmina, pleasant dreams!"
Safe in the solitude of her bedroom, the governess ominously knitted her
heavy eyebrows.
"In all my experience," she thought, "I never saw Mrs. Gallilee in such
spirits before. What mischief is she meditating, when she has got rid of
her son?"
CHAPTER XIX.
The lapse of a few hours exercised no deteriorating influence on Mrs.
Gallilee's amiability.
On the next day, thanks to his mother's interference, Ovid was left in
the undisturbed enjoyment of Carmina's society. Not only Miss Minerva,
but even Mr. Gallilee and the children, were kept out of the way with a
delicately-exercised dexterity, which defied the readiest suspicion to
take offence. In one word, all that sympathy and indulgence could do to
invite Ovid's confidence, was unobtrusively and modestly done. Never had
the mistress of domestic diplomacy reached her ends with finer art.
In the afternoon, a messenger delivered Benjulia's reply to Mrs.
Gallilee's announcement of her son's contemplated journey--despatched by
the morning's post. The doctor was confined to the house by an attack of
gout. If Ovid wanted information on the subject of Canada, Ovid must go
to him, and get it. That was all.
"Have you ever been to Doctor Benjulia's house?" Carmina asked.
"Never."
"Then all you have told me about him is mere report? Now you will find
out the truth! Of course you will go?"
Ovid felt no desire to make a voyage of exploration to Benjulia's
house--and said so plainly. Carmina used all her powers of persuasion to
induce him to change his mind. Mrs. Gallilee (superior to the influence
of girlish curiosity) felt the importance of obtaining introductions
to Canadian society, and agreed with her niece. "I shall order the
carriage," she said, assuming a playfully despotic tone; "and, if you
don't go to the doctor--Carmina and I will pay him a visit in your
place."
Threatened, if he remained obstinate, with such a result as this, Ovid
had no alternative but to submit.
The one order that could be given to the coachman was to drive to the
village of Hendon, on the north-western side of London, and to trust to
inquiries for the rest of the way. Between Hendon and Willesden, there
are pastoral solitudes within an hour's drive of Oxford Street--wooded
lanes and wild-flowers, farms and cornfields, still unprofaned by the
devastating brickwork of the builder of modern times. Following winding
ways, under shadowing trees, the coachman made his last inquiry at a
roadside public-house. Hearing that Benjulia's place of abode was now
within half a mile of him, Ovid set forth on foot; leaving the driver
and the horses to take their ease at their inn.
He arrived at an iron gate, opening out of a lonely lane.
There, in the middle of a barren little field, he saw Benjulia's
house--a hideous square building of yellow brick, with a slate roof. A
low wall surrounded the place, having another iron gate at the entrance.
The enclosure within was as barren as the field without: not even an
attempt at flower-garden or kitchen-garden was visible. At a distance
of some two hundred yards from the house stood a second and smaller
building, with a skylight in the roof, which Ovid recognised (from
description) as the famous laboratory. Behind it was the hedge which
parted Benjulia's morsel of land from the land of his neighbour.
Here, the trees rose again, and the fields beyond were cultivated. No
dwellings, and no living creatures appeared. So near to London--and yet,
in its loneliness, so far away--there was something unnatural in the
solitude of the place.
Led by a feeling of curiosity, which was fast degenerating into
suspicion, Ovid approached the laboratory, without showing himself in
front of the house. No watch-dog barked; no servant appeared on the
look-out for a visitor. He was ashamed of himself as he did it, but (so
strongly had he been impressed by Carmina's observation of the doctor)
he even tried the locked door of the laboratory, and waited and
listened! It was a breezy summer-day; the leaves of the trees near him
rustled cheerfully. Was there another sound audible? Yes--low and faint,
there rose through the sweet woodland melody a moaning cry. It paused;
it was repeated; it stopped. He looked round him, not quite sure whether
the sound proceeded from the outside or the inside of the building. He
shook the door. Nothing happened. The suffering creature (if it was
a suffering creature) was silent or dead. Had chemical experiment
accidentally injured some living thing? Or--?
He recoiled from pursuing that second inquiry. The laboratory had,
by this time, become an object of horror to him. He returned to the
dwelling-house.
He put his hand on the latch of the gate, and looked back at the
laboratory. He hesitated.
That moaning cry, so piteous and so short-lived, haunted his ears. The
idea of approaching Benjulia became repellent to him. What he might
afterwards think of himself--what his mother and Carmina might think
of him--if he returned without having entered the doctors' house, were
considerations which had no influence over his mind, in its present
mood. The impulse of the moment was the one power that swayed him. He
put the latch back in the socket. "I won't go in," he said to himself.
It was too late. As he turned from the house a manservant appeared
at the door--crossed the enclosure--and threw the gate open for Ovid,
without uttering a word.
They entered the passage. The speechless manservant opened a door on the
right, and made a bow, inviting the visitor to enter. Ovid found himself
in a room as barren as the field outside. There were the plastered
walls, there was the bare floor, left exactly as the builders had
left them when the house was finished. After a short absence, the man
appeared again. He might be depressed in spirits, or crabbed in temper:
the fact remained that, even now, he had nothing to say. He opened
a door on the opposite side of the passage--made another bow--and
vanished.
"Don't come near me!" cried Benjulia, the moment Ovid showed himself.
The doctor was seated in an inner corner of the room; robed in a long
black dressing-gown, buttoned round his throat, which hid every part
of him below his fleshless face, except his big hands, and his tortured
gouty foot. Rage and pain glared in his gloomy gray eyes, and shook
his clenched fists, resting on the arms of an easy chair. "Ten thousand
red-hot devils are boring ten thousand holes through my foot," he said.
"If you touch the pillow on my stool, I shall fly at your throat." He
poured some cooling lotion from a bottle into a small watering-pot, and
irrigated his foot as if it had been a bed of flowers. By way of further
relief to the pain, he swore ferociously; addressing his oaths to
himself, in thunderous undertones which made the glasses ring on the
sideboard.
Relieved, in his present frame of mind, to have escaped the necessity
of shaking hands, Ovid took a chair, and looked about him. Even here
he discovered but little furniture, and that little of the heavy
old-fashioned sort. Besides the sideboard, he perceived a dining-table,
six chairs, and a dingy brown carpet. There were no curtains on the
window, and no pictures or prints on the drab-coloured walls. The empty
grate showed its bleak black cavity undisguised; and the mantelpiece had
nothing on it but the doctor's dirty and strong-smelling pipe. Benjulia
set down his watering-pot, as a sign that the paroxysm of pain had
passed away. "A dull place to live in, isn't it?" In those words he
welcomed the visitor to his house.
Irritated by the accident which had forced him into the repellent
presence of Benjulia, Ovid answered in a tone which matched the doctor
on his own hard ground.
"It's your own fault if the place is dull. Why haven't you planted
trees, and laid out a garden?"
"I dare say I shall surprise you," Benjulia quietly rejoined; "but I
have a habit of speaking my mind. I don't object to a dull place; and I
don't care about trees and gardens."
"You don't seem to care about furniture either," said Ovid.
Now that he was out of pain for awhile, the doctor's innate
insensibility to what other people might think of him, or might say to
him, resumed its customary torpor in its own strangely unconscious way.
He seemed only to understand that Ovid's curiosity was in search of
information about trifles. Well, there would be less trouble in giving
him his information, than in investigating his motives. So Benjulia
talked of his furniture.
"I dare say you're right," he said. "My sister-in-law--did you know
I had a relation of that sort?--my sister-in-law got the tables and
chairs, and beds and basins. Buying things at shops doesn't interest me.
I gave her a cheque; and I told her to furnish a room for me to eat in,
and a room for me to sleep in--and not to forget the kitchen and the
garrets for the servants. What more do I want?"
His intolerable composure only added to his guest's irritability.
"A selfish way of putting it," Ovid broke out. "Have you nobody to think
of but yourself?"
"Nobody--I am happy to say."
"That's downright cynicism, Benjulia!"
The doctor reflected. "Is it?" he said. "Perhaps you may be right again.
I think it's only indifference, myself. Curiously enough my brother
looks at it from your point of view--he even used the same word that
you used just now. I suppose he found my cynicism beyond the reach of
reform. At any rate, he left off coming here. I got rid of him on easy
terms. What do you say? That inhuman way of talking is unworthy of
me? Really I don't think so. I'm not a downright savage. It's only
indifference."
"Does your brother return your indifference? You must be a nice pair, if
he does!"
Benjulia seemed to find a certain dreary amusement in considering the
question that Ovid had proposed. He decided on doing justice to his
absent relative.
"My brother's intelligence is perhaps equal to such a small effort as
you suggest," he said. "He has just brains enough to keep himself out of
an asylum for idiots. Shall I tell you what he is in two words? A stupid
sensualist--that's what he is. I let his wife come here sometimes, and
cry. It doesn't trouble me; and it seems to relieve her. More of my
indifference--eh? Well, I don't know. I gave her the change out of
the furniture-cheque, to buy a new bonnet with. You might call that
indifference, and you might be right once more. I don't care about
money. Will you have a drink? You see I can't move. Please ring for the
man."
Ovid refused the drink, and changed the subject. "Your servant is a
remarkably silent person," he said.
"That's his merit," Benjulia answered; "the women-servants have
quarrelled with every other man I've had. They can't quarrel with
this man. I have raised his wages in grateful acknowledgment of his
usefulness to me. I hate noise."
"Is that the reason why you don't keep a watch-dog?"
"I don't like dogs. They bark."
He had apparently some other disagreeable association with dogs, which
he was not disposed to communicate. His hollow eyes stared gloomily into
vacancy. Ovid's presence in the room seemed to have become, for the time
being, an impression erased from his mind. He recovered himself, with
the customary vehement rubbing of his head, and turned the talk to the
object of Ovid's visit.
"So you have taken my advice," he said. "You're going to Canada, and you
want to get at what I can tell you before you start. Here's my journal.
It will jog my memory, and help us both."
His writing materials were placed on a movable table, screwed to his
chair. Near them lay a shabby-looking book, guarded by a lock. Ten
minutes after he had opened his journal, and had looked here and there
through the pages, his hard intellect had grasped all that it required.
Steadily and copiously his mind emptied its information into Ovid's
mind; without a single digression from beginning to end, and with the
most mercilessly direct reference to the traveller's practical wants.
Not a word escaped him, relating to national character or to the
beauties of Nature. Mrs. Gallilee had criticized the Falls of Niagara
as a reservoir of wasted power. Doctor Benjulia's scientific superiority
over the woman asserted itself with magnificent ease. Niagara being
nothing but useless water, he never mentioned Niagara at all.
"Have I served your purpose as a guide?" he asked. "Never mind thanking
me. Yes or no will do. Very good. I have got a line of writing to give
you next." He mended his quill pen, and made an observation. "Have you
ever noticed that women have one pleasure which lasts to the end of
their lives?" he said. "Young and old, they have the same inexhaustible
enjoyment of society; and, young and old, they are all alike incapable
of understanding a man, when he says he doesn't care to go to a party.
Even your clever mother thinks you want to go to parties in Canada." He
tried his pen, and found it would do--and began his letter.
Seeing his hands at work, Ovid was again reminded of Carmina's
discovery. His eyes wandered a little aside, towards the corner formed
by the pillar of the chimney-piece and the wall of the room. The
big bamboo-stick rested there. A handle was attached to it, made of
light-coloured horn, and on that handle there were some stains. Ovid
looked at them with a surgeon's practised eye. They were dry stains of
blood. (Had he washed his hands on the last occasion when he used his
stick? And had he forgotten that the handle wanted washing too?)
Benjulia finished his letter, and wrote the address. He took up the
envelope, to give it to Ovid--and stopped, as if some doubt tempted him
to change his mind. The hesitation was only momentary. He persisted in
his first intention, and gave Ovid the letter. It was addressed to a
doctor at Montreal.
"That man won't introduce you to society," Benjulia announced, "and
won't worry your brains with medical talk. Keep off one subject on your
side. A mad bull is nothing to my friend if you speak of Vivisection."
Ovid looked at him steadily, when he uttered the last word. Benjulia
looked back, just as steadily at Ovid.
At the moment of that reciprocal scrutiny, did the two men suspect each
other? Ovid, on his side, determined not to leave the house without
putting his suspicions to the test.
"I thank you for the letter," he began; "and I will not forget the
warning."
The doctor's capacity for the exercise of the social virtues had its
limits. His reserves of hospitality were by this time near their end.
"Is there anything more I can do for you?" he interposed.
"You can answer a simple question," Ovid replied. "My cousin Carmina--"
Benjulia interrupted him again: "Don't you think we said enough about
your cousin in the Gardens?" he suggested.
Ovid acknowledged the hint with a neatness of retort almost worthy
of his mother. "You have your own merciful disposition to blame, if
I return to the subject," he replied. "My cousin cannot forget your
kindness to the monkey."
"The sooner she forgets my kindness the better. The monkey is dead."
"I am glad to hear it."
"Why?"
"I thought the creature was living in pain."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that I heard a moaning--"
"Where?"
"In the building behind your house."
"You heard the wind in the trees."
"Nothing of the sort. Are your chemical experiments ever made on
animals?"
The doctor parried that direct attack, without giving ground by so much
as a hair's breadth.
"What did I say when I gave you your letter of introduction?" he asked.
"I said, A mad bull is nothing to my friend, if you speak to him
of Vivisection. Now I have something more to tell you. I am like my
friend." He waited a little. "Will that do?" he asked.
"Yes," said Ovid; "that will do."
They were as near to an open quarrel as two men could be: Ovid took up
his hat to go. Even at that critical moment, Benjulia's strange jealousy
of his young colleague--as a possible rival in some field of discovery
which he claimed as his own--showed itself once more. There was no
change in his tone; he still spoke like a judicious friend.
"A last word of advice," he said. "You are travelling for your health;
don't let inquisitive strangers lead you into talk. Some of them might
be physiologists."
"And might suggest new ideas," Ovid rejoined, determined to make him
speak out this time.
Benjulia nodded, in perfect agreement with his guest's view.
"Are you afraid of new ideas?" Ovid went on.
"Perhaps I am--in your head." He made that admission, without
hesitation or embarrassment. "Good-bye!" he resumed. "My sensitive foot
feels noises: don't bang the door."
Getting out into the lane again, Ovid looked at his letter to the doctor
at Montreal. His first impulse was to destroy it.
As Benjulia had hesitated before giving him the letter, so he now
hesitated before tearing it up.
Contrary to the usual practice in such cases, the envelope was closed.
Under those circumstances, Ovid's pride decided him on using the
introduction. Time was still to pass, before events opened his eyes to
the importance of his decision. To the end of his life he remembered
that Benjulia had been near to keeping back the letter, and that he had
been near to tearing it up.
CHAPTER XX.
The wise ancient who asserted that "Time flies," must have made that
remarkable discovery while he was in a state of preparation for a
journey. When are we most acutely sensible of the shortness of life?
When do we consult our watches in perpetual dread of the result?
When does the night steal on us unawares, and the morning take us by
surprise? When we are going on a journey.
The remaining days of the week went by with a rush. Ovid had hardly time
to ask himself if Friday had really come, before the hours of his life
at home were already numbered.
He had still a little time to spare when he presented himself at
Fairfield Gardens late in the afternoon. Finding no one in the library,
he went up to the drawing-room. His mother was alone, reading.
"Have you anything to say to me, before I tell Carmina that you are
here?" Mrs. Gallilee put that question quietly, so far as her voice was
concerned. But she still kept her eyes on her book. Ovid knew that she
was offering him his first and last chance of speaking plainly, before
he went away. In Carmina's interests he spoke.
"Mother," he said, "I am leaving the one person in the world who is most
precious to me, under your care."
"Do you mean," Mrs. Gallilee asked, "that you and Carmina are engaged to
be married?"
"I mean that; and I am not sure that you approve of the engagement. Will
you be plainer with me than you were on the last occasion when we spoke
on this subject?"
"When was that?" Mrs. Gallilee inquired.
"When you and I were alone for a few minutes, on the morning when I
breakfasted here. You said it was quite natural that Carmina should
have attracted me; but you were careful not to encourage the idea of a
marriage between us. I understood that you disapproved of it--but you
didn't plainly tell me why."
"Can women always give their reason?"
"Yes--when they are women like you."
"Thank you, my dear, for a pretty compliment. I can trust my memory.
I think I hinted at the obvious objections to an engagement. You and
Carmina are cousins; and you belong to different religious communities.
I may add that a man with your brilliant prospects has, in my opinion,
no reason to marry unless his wife is in a position to increase his
influence and celebrity. I had looked forward to seeing my clever son
rise more nearly to a level with persons of rank, who are members of our
family. There is my confession, Ovid. If I did hesitate on the occasion
to which you have referred, I have now, I think, told you why."
"Am I to understand that you hesitate still?" Ovid asked.
"No." With that brief reply she rose to put away her book.
Ovid followed her to the bookcase. "Has Carmina conquered you?" he said.
She put her book back in its place. "Carmina has conquered me," she
answered.
"You say it coldly."
"What does that matter, if I say it truly?"
The struggle in him between hope and fear burst its way out. "Oh,
mother, no words can tell you how fond I am of Carmina! For God's sake
take care of her, and be kind to her!"
"For your sake," said Mrs. Gallilee, gently correcting the language of
her excitable son, from her own protoplastic point of view. "You do me
an injustice if you feel anxious about Carmina, when you leave her here.
My dead brother's child, is my child. You may be sure of that." She
took his hand, and drew him to her, and kissed his forehead with dignity
and deliberation. If Mr. Mool had been present, during the registration
of that solemn pledge, he would have been irresistibly reminded of the
other ceremony, which is called signing a deed.
"Have you any instructions to give me?" Mrs. Gallilee proceeded. "For
instance, do you object to my taking Carmina to parties? I mean, of
course, parties which will improve her mind."
He fell sadly below his mother's level in replying to this. "Do
everything you can to make her life happy while I am away." Those were
his only instructions.
But Mrs. Gallilee had not done with him yet. "With regard to visitors,"
she went on, "I presume you wish me to be careful, if I find young men
calling here oftener than usual?"
Ovid actually laughed at this. "Do you think I doubt her?" he asked.
"The earth doesn't hold a truer girl than my little Carmina!" A thought
struck him while he said it. The brightness faded out of his face; his
voice lost its gaiety. "There is one person who may call on you," he
said, "whom I don't wish her to see."
"Who is he?"
"Unfortunately, he is a man who has excited her curiosity. I mean
Benjulia."
It was now Mrs. Gallilee's turn to be amused. Her laugh was not one of
her foremost fascinations. It was hard in tone, and limited in range--it
opened her mouth, but it failed to kindle any light in her eyes.
"Jealous of the ugly doctor!" she exclaimed. "Oh, Ovid, what next?"
"You never made a greater mistake in your life," her son answered
sharply.
"Then what is the objection to him?" Mrs. Gallilee rejoined.
It was not easy to meet that question with a plain reply. If Ovid
asserted that Benjulia's chemical experiments were assumed--for some
reason known only to himself--as a cloak to cover the atrocities of
the Savage Science, he would only raise the doctor in his mother's
estimation. If, on the other hand, he described what had passed between
them when they met in the Zoological Gardens, Mrs. Gallilee might summon
Benjulia to explain the slur which he had indirectly cast on the memory
of Carmina's mother--and might find, in the reply, some plausible reason
for objecting to her son's marriage. Having rashly placed himself in
this dilemma, Ovid unwisely escaped from it by the easiest way. "I don't
think Benjulia a fit person," he said, "to be in the company of a young
girl."
Mrs. Gallilee accepted this expression of opinion with a readiness,
which would have told a more suspicious man that he had made a mistake.
Ovid had roused the curiosity--perhaps awakened the distrust--of his
clever mother.
"You know best," Mrs. Gallilee replied; "I will bear in mind what you
say." She rang the bell for Carmina, and left the room. Ovid found the
minutes passing slowly, for the first time since the day had been
fixed for his departure. He attributed this impression to his natural
impatience for the appearance of his cousin--until the plain evidence
of the clock pointed to a delay of five endless minutes, and more. As
he approached the door to make inquiries, it opened at last. Hurrying to
meet Carmina, he found himself face to face with Miss Minerva!
She came in hastily, and held out her hand without looking at him.
"Forgive me for intruding on you," she said, with a rapidity of
utterance and a timidity of manner strangely unlike herself. "I'm
obliged to prepare the children's lessons for to-morrow; and this is my
only opportunity of bidding you good-bye. You have my best wishes--my
heartfelt wishes--for your safety and your health, and--and your
enjoyment of the journey. Good-bye! good-bye!"
After holding his hand for a moment, she hastened back to the door.
There she stopped, turned towards him again, and looked at him for the
first time. "I have one thing more to say," she broke out. "I will do
all I can to make Carmina's life pleasant in your absence." Before he
could thank her, she was gone.
In another minute Carmina came in, and found Ovid looking perplexed
and annoyed. She had passed Frances on the stairs--had there been any
misunderstanding between Ovid and the governess?
"Have you seen Miss Minerva?" she asked.
He put his arm round her, and seated her by him on the sofa. "I don't
understand Miss Minerva," he said. "How is it that she came here, when I
was expecting You?"
"She asked me, as a favour, to let her see you first; and she seemed to
be so anxious about it that I gave way. I didn't do wrong, Ovid--did I?"
"My darling, you are always kind, and always right! But why couldn't
she say good-bye (with the others) downstairs? Do you understand this
curious woman?"
"I think I do." She paused, and toyed with the hair over Ovid's
forehead. "Miss Minerva is fond of you, poor thing," she said
innocently.
"Fond of me?"
The surprise which his tone expressed, failed to attract her attention.
She quietly varied the phrase that she had just used.
"Miss Minerva has a true regard for you--and knows that you don't return
it," she explained, still playing with Ovid's hair. "I want to see how
it looks," she went on, "when it's parted in the middle. No! it looks
better as you always wear it. How handsome you are, Ovid! Don't you wish
I was beautiful, too? Everybody in the house loves you; and everybody
is sorry you are going away. I like Miss Minerva, I like everybody, for
being so fond of my dear, dear hero. Oh, what shall I do when day after
day passes, and only takes you farther and farther away from me? No! I
won't cry. You shan't go away with a heavy heart, my dear one, if I can
help it. Where is your photograph? You promised me your photograph. Let
me look at it. Yes! it's like you, and yet not like you. It will do to
think over, when I am alone. My love, it has copied your eyes, but it
has not copied the divine kindness and goodness that I see in them!"
She paused, and laid her head on his bosom. "I shall cry, in spite of my
resolution, if I look at you any longer. We won't look--we won't talk--I
can feel your arm round me--I can hear your heart. Silence is best.
I have been told of people dying happily; and I never understood it
before. I think I could die happily now." She put her hand over his lips
before he could reprove her, and nestled closer to him. "Hush!" she said
softly; "hush!"
They neither moved nor spoke: that silent happiness was the best
happiness, while it lasted. Mrs. Gallilee broke the charm. She suddenly
opened the door, pointed to the clock, and went away again.
The cruel time had come. They made their last promises; shared their
last kisses; held each other in the last embrace. She threw herself
on the sofa, as he left her--with a gesture which entreated him to go,
while she could still control herself. Once, he looked round, when he
reached the door--and then it was over.
Alone on the landing, he dashed the tears away from his eyes. Suffering
and sorrow tried hard to get the better of his manhood: they had shaken,
but had not conquered him. He was calm, when he joined the members of
the family, waiting in the library.
Perpetually setting an example, Mrs. Gallilee ascended her domestic
pedestal as usual. She favoured her son with one more kiss, and reminded
him of the railway. "We understand each other, Ovid--you have only
five minutes to spare. Write, when you get to Quebec. Now, Maria! say
good-bye."
Maria presented herself to her brother with a grace which did honour to
the family dancing-master. Her short farewell speech was a model of its
kind.
"Dear Ovid, I am only a child; but I feel truly anxious for the recovery
of your health. At this favourable season you may look forward to a
pleasant voyage. Please accept my best wishes." She offered her cheek
to be kissed--and looked like a young person who had done her duty, and
knew it.
Mr. Gallilee--modestly secluded behind the window curtains--appeared,
at a sign from his wife. One of his plump red hands held a bundle of
cigars. The other clutched an enormous new travelling-flask--the giant
of its tribe.
"My dear boy, it's possible there may be good brandy and cigars on
board; but that's not my experience of steamers--is it yours?" He
stopped to consult his wife. "My dear, is it yours?" Mrs. Gallilee held
up the "Railway Guide," and shook it significantly. Mr. Gallilee went on
in a hurry. "There's some of the right stuff in this flask, Ovid, if you
will accept it. Five-and-forty years old--would you like to taste it?
Would you like to taste it, my dear?" Mrs. Gallilee seized the "Railway
Guide" again, with a terrible look. Her husband crammed the big flask
into one of Ovid's pockets, and the cigars into the other. "You'll find
them a comfort when you're away from us. God bless you, my son! You
don't mind my calling you my son? I couldn't be fonder of you, if I
really was your father. Let's part as cheerfully as we can," said poor
Mr. Gallilee, with the tears rolling undisguisedly over his fat cheeks.
"We can write to each other--can't we? Oh dear! dear! I wish I could
take it as easy as Maria does. Zo! come and give him a kiss, poor
fellow. Where's Zo?"
Mrs. Gallilee made the discovery--she dragged Zo into view, from under
the table. Ovid took his little sister on his knee, and asked why she
had hidden herself.
"Because I don't want to say good-bye!" cried the child, giving her
reason with a passionate outbreak of sorrow that shook her from head
to foot. "Take me with you, Ovid, take me with you!" He did his best to
console her, under adverse circumstances. Mrs. Gallilee's warning voice
sounded like a knell--"Time! time!" Zo's shrill treble rang out louder
still. Zo was determined to write to Ovid, if she was not allowed to go
with him. "Pa's going to write to you--why shouldn't I?" she screamed
through her tears. "Dear Zoe, you are too young," Maria remarked.
"Damned nonsense!" sobbed Mr. Gallilee; "she shall write!" "Time,
time!" Mrs. Gallilee reiterated. Taking no part in the dispute, Ovid
directed two envelopes for Zo, and quieted her in that way. He hurried
into the hall; he glanced at the stairs that led to the drawing-room.
Carmina was on the landing, waiting for a farewell look at him. On
the higher flight of stairs, invisible from the hall, Miss Minerva was
watching the scene of departure. Reckless of railways and steamers,
Ovid ran up to Carmina. Another and another kiss; and then away to the
house-door, with Zo at his heels, trying to get into the cab with him.
A last kind word to the child, as they carried her back to the house; a
last look at the familiar faces in the doorway; a last effort to resist
that foretaste of death which embitters all human partings--and Ovid was
gone!
VOLUME TWO
CHAPTER XXI.
On the afternoon of the day that followed Ovid's departure, the three
ladies of the household were in a state of retirement--each in her own
room.
The writing-table in Mrs. Gallilee's boudoir was covered with letters.
Her banker's pass-book and her cheque-book were on the desk; Mr.
Gallilee's affairs having been long since left as completely in the
hands of his wife, as if Mr. Gallilee had been dead. A sheet of paper
lay near the cheque-book, covered with calculations divided into two
columns. The figures in the right-hand column were contained in one line
at the top of the page. The figures in the left-hand column filled the
page from top to bottom. With her fan in her hand, and her pen in the
ink-bottle, Mrs. Gallilee waited, steadily thinking.
It was the hottest day of the season. All the fat women in London fanned
themselves on that sultry afternoon; and Mrs. Gallilee followed the
general example. When she looked to the right, her calculations showed
the balance at the bank. When she looked to the left, her calculations
showed her debts: some partially paid, some not paid at all. If she
wearied of the prospect thus presented, and turned for relief to
her letters, she was confronted by polite requests for money; from
tradespeople in the first place, and from secretaries of fashionable
Charities in the second. Here and there, by way of variety, were
invitations to parties, representing more pecuniary liabilities,
incurred for new dresses, and for hospitalities acknowledged by dinners
and conversaziones at her own house. Money that she owed, money that she
must spend; nothing but outlay of money--and where was it to come from?
So far as her pecuniary resources were concerned, she was equally
removed from hope and fear. Twice a year the same income flowed in
regularly from the same investments. What she could pay at any future
time was far more plainly revealed to her than what she might owe. With
tact and management it would be possible to partially satisfy creditors,
and keep up appearances for six months more. To that conclusion her
reflections led her, and left her to write cheques.
And after the six months--what then?
Having first completed her correspondence with the tradespeople, and
having next decided on her contributions to the Charities, this iron
matron took up her fan again, cooled herself, and met the question of
the future face to face.
Ovid was the central figure in the prospect.
If he lived devoted to his profession, and lived unmarried, there was
a last resource always left to Mrs. Gallilee. For years past, his
professional gains had added largely to the income which he had
inherited from his father. Unembarrassed by expensive tastes, he had
some thousands of pounds put by--for the simple reason that he was at a
loss what else to do with them. Thus far, her brother's generosity had
spared Mrs. Gallilee the hard necessity of making a confession to her
son. As things were now, she must submit to tell the humiliating truth;
and Ovid (with no wife to check his liberal instincts) would do what
Ovid's uncle (with no wife living to check his liberal instincts) had
done already.
There was the prospect, if her son remained a bachelor. But her son
had resolved to marry Carmina. What would be the result if she was weak
enough to allow it?
There would be, not one result, but three results. Natural; Legal;
Pecuniary.
The natural result would be--children.
The legal result (if only one of those children lived) would be the loss
to Mrs. Gallilee and her daughters of the splendid fortune reserved for
them in the Will, if Carmina died without leaving offspring.
The pecuniary result would be (adding the husband's income to the
wife's) about eight thousand a year for the young married people.
And how much for a loan, applicable to the mother-in-law's creditors?
Judging Carmina by the standard of herself--by what other standard do we
really judge our fellow-creatures, no matter how clever we may be?--Mrs.
Gallilee decided that not one farthing would be left to help her to pay
debts, which were steadily increasing with every new concession that she
made to the claims of society. Young Mrs. Ovid Vere, at the head of a
household, would have the grand example of her other aunt before her
eyes. Although her place of residence might not be a palace, she would
be a poor creature indeed, if she failed to spend eight thousand a year,
in the effort to be worthy of the social position of Lady Northlake. Add
to these results of Ovid's contemplated marriage the loss of a thousand
a year, secured to the guardian by the Will, while the ward remained
under her care--and the statement of disaster would be complete.
"We must leave this house, and submit to be Lady Northlake's poor
relations--there is the price I pay for it, if Ovid and Carmina become
man and wife."
She quietly laid aside her fan, as the thought in her completed itself
in this form.
The trivial action, and the look which accompanied it, had a sinister
meaning of their own, beyond the reach of words. And Ovid was already on
the sea. And Teresa was far away in Italy.
The clock on the mantelpiece struck five; the punctual parlour-maid
appeared with her mistress's customary cup of tea. Mrs. Gallilee asked
for the governess. The servant answered that Miss Minerva was in her
room.
"Where are the young ladies?"
"My master has taken them out for a walk."
"Have they had their music lesson?"
"Not yet, ma'am. Mr. Le Frank left word yesterday that he would come at
six this evening."
"Does Mr. Gallilee know that?"
"I heard Miss Minerva tell my master, while I was helping the young
ladies to get ready."
"Very well. Ask Miss Minerva to come here, and speak to me."
Miss Minerva sat at the open window of her bedroom, looking out vacantly
at the backs of houses, in the street behind Fairfield Gardens.
The evil spirit was the dominant spirit in her again. She, too, was
thinking of Ovid and Carmina. Her memory was busy with the parting scene
on the previous day.
The more she thought of all that had happened in that short space
of time, the more bitterly she reproached herself. Her one besetting
weakness had openly degraded her, without so much as an attempt at
resistance on her part. The fear of betraying herself if she took leave
of the man she secretly loved, in the presence of his family, had forced
her to ask a favour of Carmina, and to ask it under circumstances which
might have led her rival to suspect the truth. Admitted to a private
interview with Ovid, she had failed to control her agitation; and, worse
still, in her ungovernable eagerness to produce a favourable impression
on him at parting, she had promised--honestly promised, in that moment
of impulse--to make Carmina's happiness her own peculiar care! Carmina,
who had destroyed in a day the hope of years! Carmina, who had taken
him away from her; who had clung round him when he ran upstairs, and had
kissed him--fervently, shamelessly kissed him--before the servants in
the hall!
She started to her feet, roused to a frenzy of rage by her own
recollections. Standing at the window, she looked down at the pavement
of the courtyard--it was far enough below to kill her instantly if she
fell on it. Through the heat of her anger there crept the chill and
stealthy prompting of despair. She leaned over the window-sill--she was
not afraid--she might have done it, but for a trifling interruption.
Somebody spoke outside.
It was the parlour-maid. Instead of entering the room, she spoke through
the open door. The woman was one of Miss Minerva's many enemies in the
house. "Mrs. Gallilee wishes to see you," she said--and shut the door
again, the instant the words were out of her mouth.
Mrs. Gallilee!
The very name was full of promise at that moment. It suggested
hope--merciless hope.
She left the window, and consulted her looking-glass. Even to herself,
her haggard face was terrible to see. She poured eau-de-cologne and
water into her basin, and bathed her burning head and eyes. Her shaggy
black hair stood in need of attention next. She took almost as much
pains with it as if she had been going into the presence of Ovid
himself. "I must make a calm appearance," she thought, still as far as
ever from suspecting that her employer had guessed her secret, "or his
mother may find me out." Her knees trembled under her. She sat down for
a minute to rest.
Was she merely wanted for some ordinary domestic consultation? or
was there really a chance of hearing the question of Ovid and Carmina
brought forward at the coming interview?
She believed what she hoped: she believed that the time had come when
Mrs. Gallilee had need of an ally--perhaps of an accomplice. Only let
her object be the separation of the two cousins--and Miss Minerva was
eager to help her, in either capacity. Suppose she was too cautious to
mention her object? Miss Minerva was equally ready for her employer,
in that case. The doubt which had prompted her fruitless suggestions
to Carmina, when they were alone in the young girl's room--the doubt
whether a clue to the discovery of Mrs. Gallilee's motives might not
be found, in that latter part of the Will which she had failed to
overhear--was as present as ever in the governess's mind. "The learned
lady is not infallible," she thought as she entered Mrs. Gallilee's
room. "If one unwary word trips over her tongue, I shall pick it up!"
Mrs. Gallilee's manner was encouraging at the outset. She had left
her writing-table; and she now presented herself, reclining in an
easy chair, weary and discouraged--the picture of a woman in want of a
helpful friend.
"My head aches with adding up figures, and writing letters," she said.
"I wish you would finish my correspondence for me."
Miss Minerva took her place at the desk. She at once discovered the
unfinished correspondence to be a false pretence. Three cheques for
charitable subscriptions, due at that date, were waiting to be sent
to three secretaries, with the customary letters. In five minutes, the
letters were ready for the post. "Anything more?" Miss Minerva asked.
"Not that I remember. Do you mind giving me my fan? I feel perfectly
helpless--I am wretchedly depressed to-day."
"The heat, perhaps?"
"No. The expenses. Every year, the demands on our resources seem to
increase. On principle, I dislike living up to our income--and I am
obliged to do it."
Here, plainly revealed to the governess's experienced eyes, was another
false pretence--used to introduce the true object of the interview,
as something which might accidentally suggest itself in the course of
conversation. Miss Minerva expressed the necessary regret with innocent
readiness. "Might I suggest economy?" she asked with impenetrable
gravity.
"Admirably advised," Mrs. Gallilee admitted; "but how is it to be done?
Those subscriptions, for instance, are more than I ought to give. And
what happens if I lower the amount? I expose myself to unfavourable
comparison with other people of our rank in society."
Miss Minerva still patiently played the part expected of her. "You might
perhaps do with only one carriage-horse," she remarked.
"My good creature, look at the people who have only one carriage-horse!
Situated as I am, can I descend to that level? Don't suppose I care two
straws about such things, myself. My one pride and pleasure in life is
the pride and pleasure of improving my mind. But I have Lady Northlake
for a sister; and I must not be entirely unworthy of my family
connections. I have two daughters; and I must think of their interests.
In a few years, Maria will be presented at Court. Thanks to you, she
will be one of the most accomplished girls in England. Think of Maria's
mother in a one-horse chaise. Dear child! tell me all about her lessons.
Is she getting on as well as ever?"
"Examine her yourself, Mrs. Gallilee. I can answer for the result."
"No, Miss Minerva! I have too much confidence in you to do anything
of the kind. Besides, in one of the most important of Maria's
accomplishments, I am entirely dependent on yourself. I know nothing
of music. You are not responsible for her progress in that direction.
Still, I should like to know if you are satisfied with Maria's music?"
"Quite satisfied."
"You don't think she is getting--how can I express it?--shall I say
beyond the reach of Mr. Le Frank's teaching?"
"Certainly not."
"Perhaps you would consider Mr. Le Frank equal to the instruction of an
older and more advanced pupil than Maria?"
Thus far, Miss Minerva had answered the questions submitted to her with
well-concealed indifference. This last inquiry roused her attention.
Why did Mrs. Gallilee show an interest, for the first time, in Mr. Le
Frank's capacity as a teacher? Who was this "older and more advanced
pupil," for whose appearance in the conversation the previous questions
had so smoothly prepared the way? Feeling delicate ground under her, the
governess advanced cautiously.
"I have always thought Mr. Le Frank an excellent teacher," she said.
"Can you give me no more definite answer than that?" Mrs. Gallilee
asked.
"I am quite unacquainted, madam, with the musical proficiency of the
pupil to whom you refer. I don't even know (which adds to my perplexity)
whether you are speaking of a lady or a gentleman."
"I am speaking," said Mrs. Gallilee quietly, "of my niece, Carmina."
Those words set all further doubt at rest in Miss Minerva's mind.
Introduced by such elaborate preparation, the allusion to Carmina's name
could only lead, in due course, to the subject of Carmina's marriage.
By indirect methods of approach, Mrs. Gallilee had at last reached the
object that she had in view.
CHAPTER XXII.
There was an interval of silence between the two ladies.
Mrs. Gallilee waited for Miss Minerva to speak next. Miss Minerva waited
to be taken into Mrs. Gallilee's confidence. The sparrows twittered
in the garden; and, far away in the schoolroom, the notes of the piano
announced that the music lesson had begun.
"The birds are noisy," said Mrs. Gallilee.
"And the piano sounds out of tune," Miss Minerva remarked.
There was no help for it. Either Mrs. Gallilee must return to the matter
in hand---or the matter in hand must drop.
"I am afraid I have not made myself understood," she resumed.
"I am afraid I have been very stupid," Miss Minerva confessed.
Resigning herself to circumstances, Mrs. Gallilee put the adjourned
question under a new form. "We were speaking of Mr. Le Frank as a
teacher, and of my niece as a pupil," she said. "Have you been able to
form any opinion of Carmina's musical abilities?"
Miss Minerva remained as prudent as ever. She answered, "I have had no
opportunity of forming an opinion."
Mrs. Gallilee met this cautious reply by playing her trump card. She
handed a letter to Miss Minerva. "I have received a proposal from Mr. Le
Frank," she said. "Will you tell me what you think of it?"
The letter was short and servile. Mr. Le Frank presented his best
respects. If Mrs. Gallilee's charming niece stood in need of musical
instruction, he ventured to hope that he might have the honour and
happiness of superintending her studies. Looking back to the top of the
letter, the governess discovered that this modest request bore a date of
eight days since. "Have you written to Mr. Le Frank?" she asked.
"Only to say that I will take his request into consideration," Mrs.
Gallilee replied.
Had she waited for her son's departure, before she committed herself
to a decision? On the chance that this might be the case, Miss Minerva
consulted her memory. When Mrs. Gallilee first decided on engaging a
music-master to teach the children, her son had disapproved of employing
Mr. Le Frank. This circumstance might possibly be worth bearing in mind.
"Do you see any objection to accepting Mr. Le Frank's proposal?" Mrs.
Gallilee asked. Miss Minerva saw an objection forthwith, and, thanks
to her effort of memory, discovered an especially mischievous way of
stating it. "I feel a certain delicacy in offering an opinion," she said
modestly.
Mrs. Gallilee was surprised. "Do you allude to Mr. Le Frank?" she
inquired.
"No. I don't doubt that his instructions would be of service to any
young lady."
"Are you thinking of my niece?"
"No, Mrs. Gallilee. I am thinking of your son."
"In what way, if you please?"
"In this way. I believe your son would object to employing Mr. Le Frank
as Miss Carmina's teacher."
"On musical grounds?"
"No; on personal grounds."
"What do you mean?"
Miss Minerva explained her meaning. "I think you have forgotten what
happened, when you first employed Mr. Le Frank to teach Maria and Zoe.
His personal appearance produced an unfavourable impression on your son;
and Mr. Ovid made certain inquiries which you had not thought necessary.
Pardon me if I persist in mentioning the circumstances. I owe it to
myself to justify my opinion--an opinion, you will please to remember,
that I did not volunteer. Mr. Ovid's investigations brought to light a
very unpleasant report, relating to Mr. Le Frank and a young lady who
had been one of his pupils."
"An abominable slander, Miss Minerva! I am surprised that you should
refer to it."
"I am referring, madam, to the view of the matter taken by Mr. Ovid.
If Mr. Le Frank had failed to defend himself successfully, he would of
course not have been received into this house. But your son had his own
opinion of the defence. I was present at the time, and I heard him say
that, if Maria and Zoe had been older, he should have advised employing
a music-master who had no false reports against him to contradict. As
they were only children, he would say nothing more. That is what I had
in my mind, when I gave my opinion. I think Mr. Ovid will be annoyed
when he hears that Mr. Le Frank is his cousin's music-master. And, if
any foolish gossip reaches him in his absence, I fear it might lead to
mischievous results--I mean, to misunderstandings not easily set right
by correspondence, and quite likely therefore to lead, in the end, to
distrust and jealousy."
There she paused, and crossed her hands on her lap, and waited for what
was to come next.
If Mrs. Gallilee could have looked into her mind at that moment as well
as into her face, she would have read Miss Minerva's thoughts in these
plain terms: "All this time, madam, you have been keeping up appearances
in the face of detection. You are going to use Mr. Le Frank as a means
of making mischief between Ovid and Carmina. If you had taken me into
your confidence, I might have been willing to help you. As it is, please
observe that I am not caught in the trap you have set for me. If
Mr. Ovid discovers your little plot, you can't lay the blame on your
governess's advice."
Mrs. Gallilee felt that she had again measured herself with Miss
Minerva, and had again been beaten. She had confidently reckoned on
the governess's secret feeling towards her son to encourage, without
hesitation or distrust, any project for promoting the estrangement of
Ovid and Carmina. There was no alternative now but to put her first
obstacle in the way of the marriage, on her own sole responsibility.
"I don't doubt that you have spoken sincerely," she said; "but you have
failed to do justice to my son's good sense; and you are--naturally
enough, in your position--incapable of estimating his devoted attachment
to Carmina." Having planted that sting, she paused to observe the
effect. Not the slightest visible result rewarded her. She went on.
"Almost the last words he said to me expressed his confidence--his
affectionate confidence--in my niece. The bare idea of his being jealous
of anybody, and especially of such a person as Mr. Le Frank, is simply
ridiculous. I am astonished that you don't see it in that light."
"I should see it in that light as plainly as you do," Miss Minerva
quietly replied, "if Mr. Ovid was at home."
"What difference does that make?"
"Excuse me--it makes a great difference, as I think. He has gone away on
a long journey, and gone away in bad health. He will have his hours
of depression. At such times, trifles are serious things; and even
well-meant words--in letters--are sometimes misunderstood. I can offer
no better apology for what I have said; and I can only regret that I
have made so unsatisfactory a return for your flattering confidence in
me."
Having planted her sting, she rose to retire.
"Have you any further commands for me?" she asked.
"I should like to be quite sure that I have not misunderstood you," said
Mrs. Gallilee. "You consider Mr. Le Frank to be competent, as director
of any young lady's musical studies? Thank you. On the one point on
which I wished to consult you, my mind is at ease. Do you know where
Carmina is?"
"In her room, I believe."
"Will you have the goodness to send her here?"
"With the greatest pleasure. Good-evening!"
So ended Mrs. Gallilee's first attempt to make use of Miss Minerva,
without trusting her.
CHAPTER XXIII.
The mistress of the house, and the governess of the house, had their own
special reasons for retiring to their own rooms. Carmina was in solitude
as a matter of necessity. The only friends that the poor girl could
gather round her now, were the absent and the dead.
She had written to Ovid--merely for the pleasure of thinking that
her letter would accompany him, in the mail-steamer which took him to
Quebec. She had written to Teresa. She had opened her piano, and had
played the divinely beautiful music of Mozart, until its tenderness
saddened her, and she closed the instrument with an aching heart. For
a while she sat by the window, thinking of Ovid. The decline of day has
its melancholy affinities with the decline of life. As the evening wore
on, her loneliness had become harder and harder to endure. She rang for
the maid, and asked if Miss Minerva was at leisure. Miss Minerva had
been sent for by Mrs. Gallilee. Where was Zo? In the schoolroom, waiting
until Mr. Le Frank had done with Maria, to take her turn at the piano.
Left alone again, Carmina opened her locket, and put Ovid's portrait by
it on the table. Her sad fancy revived her dead parents--imagined her
lover being presented to them--saw him winning their hearts by his
genial voice, his sweet smile, his wise and kindly words. Miss Minerva,
entering the room, found her still absorbed in her own little melancholy
daydream; recalling the absent, reviving the dead--as if she had been
nearing the close of life. And only seventeen years old. Alas for
Carmina, only seventeen!
"Mrs. Gallilee wishes to see you."
She started. "Is there anything wrong?" she asked.
"No. What makes you think so?"
"You speak in such a strange way. Oh, Frances, I have been longing for
you to keep me company! And now you are here, you look at me as coldly
as if I had offended you. Perhaps you are not well?"
"That's it. I am not well."
"Have some of my lavender water! Let me bathe your forehead, and then
blow on it to cool you this hot weather. No? Sit down, dear, at any
rate. What does my aunt want with me?"
"I think I had better not tell you."
"Why?"
"Your aunt is sure to ask you what I have said. I have tried her temper;
you know what her temper is! She has sent me here instead of sending a
maid, on the chance that I may commit some imprudence. I give you her
message exactly as the servant might have given it--and you can tell her
so with a safe conscience. No more questions!"
"One more, please. Is it anything about Ovid?"
"No."
"Then my aunt can wait a little. Do sit down! I want to speak to you."
"About what?"
"About Ovid, of course!"
Carmina's look and tone at once set Miss Minerva's mind at ease.
Her conduct, on the day of Ovid's departure, had aroused no jealous
suspicion in her innocent rival. She refused to take the offered chair.
"I have already told you your aunt is out of temper," she said. "Go to
her at once."
Carmina rose unwillingly. "There were so many things I wanted to say to
you," she began--and was interrupted by a rapid little series of knocks
at the door. Was the person in a hurry? The person proved to be the
discreet and accomplished Maria. She made her excuses to Carmina with
sweetness, and turned to Miss Minerva with sorrow.
"I regret to say that you are wanted in the schoolroom. Mr. Le Frank can
do nothing with Zoe. Oh, dear!" She sighed over her sister's wickedness,
and waited for instructions.
To be called away, under any circumstances, was a relief to Miss
Minerva. Carmina's affectionate welcome had irritated her in the most
incomprehensible manner. She was angry with herself for being irritated;
she felt inclined to abuse the girl for believing her. "You fool, why
don't you see through me? Why don't you write to that other fool who
is in love with you, and tell him how I hate you both?" But for her
self-command, she might have burst out with such mad words as those.
Maria's appearance was inexpressibly welcome. "Say I will follow you
directly," she answered.
Maria, in the language of the stage, made a capital exit. With a few
hurried words of apology, Miss Minerva prepared to follow. Carmina
stopped her at the door.
"Don't be hard on Zo!" she said.
"I must do my duty," Miss Minerva answered sternly.
"We were sometimes naughty ourselves when we were children," Carmina
pleaded. "And only the other day she had bread and water for tea. I am
so fond of Zo! And besides--" she looked doubtfully at Miss Minerva--"I
don't think Mr. Le Frank is the sort of man to get on with children."
After what had just passed between Mrs. Gallilee and herself, this
expression of opinion excited the governess's curiosity. "What makes you
say that?" she asked.
"Well, my dear, for one thing Mr. Le Frank is so ugly. Don't you agree
with me?"
"I think you had better keep your opinion to yourself. If he heard of
it--"
"Is he vain? My poor father used to say that all bad musicians were
vain."
"You don't call Mr. Le Frank a bad musician?"
"Oh, but I do! I heard him at his concert. Mere execution of the most
mechanical kind. A musical box is as good as that man's playing. This is
how he does it!"
Her girlish good spirits had revived in her friend's company. She turned
gaily to the piano, and amused herself by imitating Mr. Le Frank.
Another knock at the door--a single peremptory knock this time--stopped
the performance.
Miss Minerva had left the door ajar, when Carmina had prevented her
from quitting the room. She looked through the open space, and
discovered--Mr. Le Frank.
His bald head trembled, his florid complexion was livid with suppressed
rage. "That little devil has run away!" he said--and hurried down the
stairs again, as if he dare not trust himself to utter a word more.
"Has he heard me?" Carmina asked in dismay.
"He may only have heard you playing."
Offering this hopeful suggestion, Miss Minerva felt no doubt, in her
own mind, that Mr. Le Frank was perfectly well acquainted with Carmina's
opinion of him. It was easy enough to understand that he should himself
inform the governess of an incident, so entirely beyond the reach of his
own interference as the flight of Zo. But it was impossible to assume
that the furious anger which his face betrayed, could have been excited
by a child who had run away from a lesson. No: the vainest of men and
musicians had heard that he was ugly, and that his pianoforte-playing
resembled the performance of a musical box.
They left the room together--Carmina, ill at ease, to attend on her
aunt; Miss Minerva, pondering on what had happened, to find the fugitive
Zo.
The footman had already spared her the trouble of searching the
house. He had seen Zo running out bare-headed into the Square, and had
immediately followed her. The young rebel was locked up. "I don't care,"
said Zo; "I hate Mr. Le Frank!" Miss Minerva's mind was too seriously
preoccupied to notice this aggravation of her pupil's offence. One
subject absorbed her attention--the interview then in progress between
Carmina and her aunt.
How would Mrs. Gallilee's scheme prosper now? Mr. Le Frank might, or
might not, consent to be Carmina's teacher. Another result, however, was
certain. Miss Minerva thoroughly well knew the vindictive nature of the
man. He neither forgave nor forgot--he was Carmina's enemy for life.
CHAPTER XXIV.
The month of July was near its end.
On the morning of the twenty-eighth, Carmina was engaged in replying to
a letter received from Teresa. Her answer contained a record of domestic
events, during an interval of serious importance in her life under Mrs.
Gallilee's roof. Translated from the Italian, the letter was expressed
in these terms:
"Are you vexed with me, dearest, for this late reply to your sad news
from Italy? I have but one excuse to offer.
"Can I hear of your anxiety about your husband, and not feel the wish to
help you to bear your burden by writing cheerfully of myself? Over and
over again, I have thought of you and have opened my desk. My spirits
have failed me, and I have shut it up again. Am I now in a happier frame
of mind? Yes, my good old nurse, I am happier. I have had a letter from
Ovid.
"He has arrived safely at Quebec, and he is beginning to feel better
already, after the voyage. You cannot imagine how beautifully, how
tenderly he writes! I am almost reconciled to his absence, when I
read his letter. Will that give you some idea of the happiness and the
consolation that I owe to this best and dearest of men?
"Ah, my old granny, I see you start, and make that favourite mark
with your thumb-nail under the word 'consolation'! I hear you say to
yourself, 'Is she unhappy in her English home? And is Aunt Gallilee to
blame for it?' Yes! it is even so. What I would not for the whole world
write to Ovid, I may confess to you. Aunt Gallilee is indeed a hard,
hard woman.
"Do you remember telling me, in your dear downright way, that Mr. Le
Frank looked like a rogue? I don't know whether he is a rogue--but I do
know that it is through his conduct that my aunt is offended with me.
"It happened three weeks ago.
"She sent for me, and said that my education must be completed, and that
my music in particular must be attended to. I was quite willing to obey
her, and I said so with all needful readiness and respect. She answered
that she had already chosen a music-master for me--and then, to my
astonishment, she mentioned his name. Mr. Le Frank, who taught her
children, was also to teach me! I have plenty of faults, but I really
think vanity is not one of them. It is only due to my excellent master
in Italy to say, that I am a better pianoforte player than Mr. Le Frank.
"I never breathed a word of this, mind, to my aunt. It would have been
ungrateful and useless. She knows and cares nothing about music.
"So we parted good friends, and she wrote the same evening to engage my
master. The next day she got his reply. Mr. Le Frank refused to be my
professor of music--and this, after he had himself proposed to teach me,
in a letter addressed to my aunt! Being asked for his reasons, he made
an excuse. The spare time at his disposal, when he had written, had been
since occupied by another pupil. The true reason for his conduct is,
that he heard me speak of him--rashly enough, I don't deny it--as an
ugly man and a bad player. Miss Minerva sounded him on the subject,
at my request, for the purpose of course of making my apologies. He
affected not to understand what she meant--with what motive I am sure
I don't know. False and revengeful, you may say, and perhaps you may
be right. But the serious part of it, so far as I am concerned, is my
aunt's behaviour to me. If I had thwarted her in the dearest wish of her
life, she could hardly treat me with greater coldness and severity. She
has not stirred again, in the matter of my education. We only meet at
meal-times; and she receives me, when I sit down at table, as she might
receive a perfect stranger. Her icy civility is unendurable. And this
woman is my darling Ovid's mother!
"Have I done with my troubles now? No, Teresa; not even yet. Oh, how I
wish I was with you in Italy!
"Your letters persist in telling me that I am deluded in believing
Miss Minerva to be truly my friend. Do pray remember--even if I am
wrong--what a solitary position mine is, in Mrs. Gallilee's house! I can
play with dear little Zo; but whom can I talk to, whom can I confide in,
if it turns out that Miss Minerva has been deceiving me?
"When I wrote to you, I refused to acknowledge that any such dreadful
discovery as this could be possible; I resented the bare idea of it as
a cruel insult to my friend. Since that time--my face burns with
shame while I write it--I am a little, just a little, shaken in my own
opinion.
"Shall I tell you how it began? Yes; I will.
"My good old friend, you have your prejudices. But you speak your mind
truly--and whom else can I consult? Not Ovid! The one effort of my life
is to prevent him from feeling anxious about me. And, besides, I have
contended against his opinion of Miss Minerva, and have brought him to
think of her more kindly. Has he been right, notwithstanding? and are
you right? And am I alone wrong? You shall judge for yourself.
"Miss Minerva began to change towards me, after I had done the thing of
all others which ought to have brought us closer together than ever.
She is very poorly paid by my aunt, and she has been worried by little
debts. When she owned this, I most willingly lent her the money to pay
her bills--a mere trifle, only thirty pounds. What do you think she
did? She crushed up the bank-notes in her hand, and left the room in the
strangest headlong manner--as if I had insulted her instead of helping
her! All the next day, she avoided me. The day after, I myself went
to her room, and asked what was the matter. She gave me a most
extraordinary answer. She said, 'I don't know which of us two I most
detest--myself or you. Myself for borrowing your money, or you for
lending it.' I left her; not feeling offended, only bewildered and
distressed. More than an hour passed before she made her excuses. 'I
am ill and miserable'--that was all she said. She did indeed look so
wretched that I forgave her directly. Would you not have done so too, in
my place?
"This happened a fortnight since. Only yesterday, she broke out again,
and put my affection for her to a far more severe trial. I have not got
over it yet.
"There was a message for her in Ovid's letter--expressed in the
friendliest terms. He remembered with gratitude her kind promise, on
saying good-bye; he believed she would do all that lay in her power to
make my life happy in his absence; and he only regretted her leaving him
in such haste that he had no time to thank her personally. Such was
the substance of the message. I was proud and pleased to go to her room
myself, and read it to her.
"Can you guess how she received me? Nobody--I say it positively--nobody
could guess.
"She actually flew into a rage! Not only with me (which I might have
pardoned), but with Ovid (which is perfectly inexcusable). 'How dare
he write to you,' she burst out, 'of what I said to him when we took
leave of each other? And how dare you come here, and read it to me? What
do I care about your life, in his absence? Of what earthly consequence
are his remembrance and his gratitude to Me!' She spoke of him, with
such fury and such contempt, that she roused me at last. I said to her,
'You abominable woman, there is but one excuse for you--you're mad!' I
left the room--and didn't I bang the door! We have not met since. Let
me hear your opinion, Teresa. I was in a passion when I told her she was
mad; but was I altogether wrong? Do you really think the poor creature
is in her right senses?
"Looking back at your letter, I see that you ask if I have made any new
acquaintances.
"I have been introduced to one of the sweetest women I ever met with.
And who do you think she is? My other aunt--Mrs. Gallilee's younger
sister, Lady Northlake! They say she was not so handsome as Mrs.
Gallilee, when they were both young. For my part, I can only declare
that no such comparison is possible between them now. In look, in voice,
in manner there is something so charming in Lady Northlake that I quite
despair of describing it. My father used to say that she was amiable
and weak; led by her husband, and easily imposed upon. I am not clever
enough to have his eye for character: and perhaps I am weak and easily
imposed upon too. Before I had been ten minutes in Lady Northlake's
company, I would have given everything I possess in the world to have
had her for my guardian.
"She had called to say good-bye, on leaving London; and my aunt was not
at home. We had a long delightful talk together. She asked me so kindly
to visit her in Scotland, and be introduced to Lord Northlake, that I
accepted the invitation with a glad heart.
"When my aunt returned, I quite forgot that we were on bad terms. I gave
her an enthusiastic account of all that had passed between her sister
and myself. How do you think she met this little advance on my part? She
positively refused to let me go to Scotland.
"As soon as I had in some degree got over my disappointment, I asked
for her reasons. 'I am your guardian,' she said; 'and I am acting in the
exercise of my own discretion. I think it better you should stay with
me.' I made no further remark. My aunt's cruelty made me think of
my dead father's kindness. It was as much as I could do to keep from
crying.
"Thinking over it afterwards, I supposed (as this is the season when
everybody leaves town) that she had arranged to take me into the country
with her. Mr. Gallilee, who is always good to me, thought so too,
and promised me some sailing at the sea-side. To the astonishment of
everybody, she has not shown any intention of going away from London!
Even the servants ask what it means.
"This is a letter of complaints. Am I adding to your anxieties instead
of relieving them? My kind old nurse, there is no need to be anxious. At
the worst of my little troubles, I have only to think of Ovid--and his
mother's ice melts away from me directly; I feel brave enough to endure
anything.
"Take my heart's best love, dear--no, next best love, after Ovid!--and
give some of it to your poor suffering husband. May I ask one little
favour? The English gentleman who has taken our old house at Rome, will
not object to give you a few flowers out of what was once my garden.
Send them to me in your next letter."
CHAPTER XXV.
On the twelfth of August, Carmina heard from Ovid again. He wrote from
Montreal; describing the presentation of that letter of introduction
which he had once been tempted to destroy. In the consequences that
followed the presentation--apparently harmless consequences at the
time--the destinies of Ovid, of Carmina, and of Benjulia proved to be
seriously involved.
Ovid's letter was thus expressed:
"I want to know, my love, if there is any other man in the world who is
as fond of his darling as I am of you? If such a person exists, and
if adverse circumstances compel him to travel, I should like to ask a
question. Is he perpetually calling to mind forgotten things, which he
ought to have said to his sweetheart before he left her?
"This is my case. Let me give you an instance.
"I have made a new friend here--one Mr. Morphew. Last night, he was so
kind as to invite me to a musical entertainment at his house. He is a
medical man; and he amuses himself in his leisure hours by playing
on that big and dreary member of the family of fiddles, whose name is
Violoncello. Assisted by friends, he hospitably cools his guests, in the
hot season, by the amateur performance of quartets. My dear, I passed
a delightful evening. Listening to the music? Not listening to a single
note of it. Thinking of You.
"Have I roused your curiosity? I fancy I can see your eyes brighten; I
fancy I can hear you telling me to go on!
"My thoughts reminded me that music is one of the enjoyments of your
life. Before I went away, I ought to have remembered this, and to have
told you that the manager of the autumn concerts at the opera-house is
an old friend of mine. He will be only too glad to place a box at your
disposal, on any night when his programme attracts your notice; I have
already made amends for my forgetfulness, by writing to him by this
mail. Miss Minerva will be your companion at the theatre. If Mr. Le
Frank (who is sure to be on the free list) pays you a visit in your box,
tell him from me to put a wig on his bald head, and to try if that
will make him look like an honest man!
"Did I forget anything else before my departure? Did I tell you how
precious you are to me? how beautiful you are to me? how entirely
worthless my life is without you? I dare say I did; but I tell it all
over again--and, when you are tired of the repetition, you have only to
let me know.
"In the meanwhile, have I nothing else to say? have I no travelling
adventures to relate? You insist on hearing of everything that happens
to me; and you are to have your own way before we are married, as
well as after. My sweet Carmina, your willing slave has something more
serious than common travelling adventures to relate--he has a confession
to make. In plain words, I have been practising my profession again, in
the city of Montreal!
"I wonder whether you will forgive me, when you are informed of the
circumstances? It is a sad little story; but I am vain enough to think
that my part in it will interest you. I have been a vain man, since
that brightest and best of all possible days when you first made your
confession--when you said that you loved me.
"Look back in my letter, and you will see Mr. Morphew mentioned as a new
friend of mine, in Canada. I became acquainted with him through a letter
of introduction, given to me by Benjulia.
"Say nothing to anybody of what I am now going to tell you--and be
especially careful, if you happen to see him, to keep Benjulia in
the dark. I sincerely hope you will not see him. He is a hard-hearted
man--and he might say something which would distress you, if he knew of
the result which has followed his opening to me the door of his friend's
house.
"Mr. Morphew is a worthy busy old gentleman, who follows his
professional routine, and whose medical practice consists principally
in bringing infant Canadians into the world. His services happened to be
specially in request, at the time when I made his acquaintance. He was
called away from his table, on the day after the musical party, when I
dined with him. I was the only guest--and his wife was left to entertain
me.
"The good lady began by speaking of Benjulia. She roundly declared him
to be a brute--and she produced my letter of introduction (closed by the
doctor's own hand, before he gave it to me) as a proof. Would you like
to read the letter, too? Here is a copy:--'The man who brings this is an
overworked surgeon, named Ovid Vere. He wants rest and good air. Don't
encourage him to use his brains; and give him information enough to take
him, by the shortest way, to the biggest desert in Canada.' You will
now understand that I am indebted to myself for the hospitable reception
which has detained me at Montreal.
"To return to my story. Mr. Morphew's services were again in request,
ten minutes after he had left the house. This time the patient was a
man--and the messenger declared that he was at the point of death.
"Mrs. Morphew seemed to be at a loss what to do. 'In this dreadful
case,' she said, 'death is a mercy. What I cannot bear to think of is
the poor man's lonely position. In his last moments, there will not be a
living creature at his bedside.'
"Hearing this, I ventured to make some inquiries. The answers painted
such a melancholy picture of poverty and suffering, and so vividly
reminded me of a similar case in my own experience, that I forgot I
was an invalid myself, and volunteered to visit the dying man in Mr.
Morphew's place.
"The messenger led me to the poorest quarter of the city and to a garret
in one of the wretchedest houses in the street. There he lay, without
anyone to nurse him, on a mattress on the floor. What his malady was,
you will not ask to know. I will only say that any man but a doctor
would have run out of the room, the moment he entered it. To save the
poor creature was impossible. For a few days longer, I could keep pain
in subjection, and could make death easy when it came.
"At my next visit he was able to speak.
"I discovered that he was a member of my own profession--a mulatto from
the Southern States of America, by birth. The one fatal event of his
life had been his marriage. Every worst offence of which a bad woman can
be guilty, his vile wife had committed--and his infatuated love clung
to her through it all. She had disgraced and ruined him. Not once, but
again and again he had forgiven her, under circumstances which degraded
him in his own estimation, and in the estimation of his best friends. On
the last occasion when she left him, he had followed her to Montreal.
In a fit of drunken frenzy, she had freed him from her at last by
self-destruction. Her death affected his reason. When he was discharged
from the asylum, he spent his last miserable savings in placing a
monument over her grave. As long as his strength held out, he made
daily pilgrimages to the cemetery. And now, when the shadow of death was
darkening over him, his one motive for clinging to life, his one reason
for vainly entreating me to cure him, still centred in devotion to the
memory of his wife. 'Nobody will take care of her grave,' he said, 'when
I am gone.'
"My love, I have always thought fondly of you. After hearing this
miserable story, my heart overflowed with gratitude to God for giving me
Carmina.
"He died yesterday. His last words implored me to have him buried in
the same grave with the woman who had dishonoured him. Who am I that
I should judge him? Besides, I shall fulfil his last wishes as a
thank-offering for You.
"There is still something more to tell.
"On the day before his death he asked me to open an old
portmanteau--literally, the one thing that he possessed. He had no money
left, and no clothes. In a corner of the portmanteau there was a roll of
papers, tied with a piece of string--and that was all.
"I can make you but one return,' he said; 'I give you my book.'
"He was too weak to tell me what the book was about, or to express any
wish relative to its publication. I am ashamed to say I set no sort of
value on the manuscript presented to me--except as a memorial of a sad
incident in my life. Waking earlier than usual this morning, I opened
and examined my gift for the first time.
"To my amazement, I found myself rewarded a hundredfold for the little
that I had been able to do. This unhappy man must have been possessed of
abilities which (under favouring circumstances) would, I don't hesitate
to say, have ranked him among the greatest physicians of our time. The
language in which he writes is obscure, and sometimes grammatically
incorrect. But he, and he alone, has solved a problem in the treatment
of disease, which has thus far been the despair of medical men
throughout the whole civilised world.
"If a stranger was looking over my shoulder, he would be inclined to
say, This curious lover writes to his young lady as if she was a medical
colleague! We understand each other, Carmina, don't we? My future career
is an object of interest to my future wife. This poor fellow's gratitude
has opened new prospects to me; and who will be so glad to hear of it as
you?
"Before I close my letter, you will expect me to say a word more about
my health. Sometimes I feel well enough to take my cabin in the
next vessel that sails for Liverpool. But there are other occasions,
particularly when I happen to over-exert myself in walking or riding,
which warn me to be careful and patient. My next journey will take me
inland, to the mighty plains and forest of this grand country. When I
have breathed the health-giving air of those regions, I shall be able
to write definitely of the blessed future day which is to unite us once
more.
"My mother has, I suppose, given her usual conversazione at the end
of the season. Let me hear how you like the scientific people at close
quarters, and let me give you a useful hint. When you meet in society
with a particularly positive man, who looks as if he was sitting for his
photograph, you may safely set that man down as a Professor.
"Seriously, I do hope that you and my mother get on well together. You
say too little of each other in your letters to me, and I am sometimes
troubled by misgivings. There is another odd circumstance, connected
with our correspondence, which sets me wondering. I always send messages
to Miss Minerva; and Miss Minerva never sends any messages back to me.
Do you forget? or am I an object of perfect indifference to your friend?
"My latest news of you all is from Zo. She has sent me a letter, in
one of the envelopes that I directed for her when I went away. Miss
Minerva's hair would stand on end if she could see the blots and the
spelling. Zo's account of the family circle (turned into intelligible
English), will I think personally interest you. Here it is, in its own
Roman brevity--with your pretty name shortened to two syllables: 'Except
Pa and Car, we are a bad lot at home.' After that, I can add nothing
that is worth reading.
"Take the kisses, my angel, that I leave for you on the blank morsel
of paper below, and love me as I love you. There is a world of meaning,
Carmina, even in those commonplace words. Oh, if I could only go to you
by the mail steamer, in the place of my letter!"
CHAPTER XXVI.
The answers to Ovid's questions were not to be found in Carmina's reply.
She had reasons for not mentioning the conversazione; and she shrank
from writing to him of his mother. Her true position in Mrs. Gallilee's
house--growing, day by day, harder and harder to endure; threatening,
more and more plainly, complications and perils to come--was revealed in
her next letter to her old friend in Italy. She wrote to Teresa in these
words:
"If you love me, forget the inhuman manner in which I have spoken of
Miss Minerva!
"After I had written to you, I would have recalled my letter, if it
could have been done. I began, that evening, to feel ashamed of what I
had said in my anger. As the hours went on, and bedtime approached, I
became so wretched that I ran the risk of another harsh reception, by
intruding on her once more. It was a circumstance in my favour that she
was, to all appearance, in bad spirits too. There was something in her
voice, when she asked what I wanted, which made me think--though
she looks like the last person in the world to be guilty of such
weakness--that she had been crying.
"I gave the best expression I could to my feelings of repentance and
regret. What I actually said to her, has slipped out of my memory; I
was frightened and upset--and I am always stupid in that condition. My
attempt at reconciliation may have been clumsy enough; but she might
surely have seen that I had no intention to mystify and distress her.
And yet, what else could she have imagined?--to judge by her own actions
and words.
"Her bedroom candle was on the table behind me. She snatched it up and
held it before my face, and looked at me as if I was some extraordinary
object that she had never seen or heard of before! 'You are little
better than a child,' she said; 'I have ten times your strength of
will--what is there in you that I can't resist? Go away from me! Be
on your guard against me! I am false; I am suspicious; I am cruel. You
simpleton, have you no instincts to protect you? Is there nothing in you
that shrinks from me?'
"She put down the candle, and burst into a wretched mocking laugh.
'There she stands,' cried this strange creature, 'and looks at me with
the eyes of a baby that sees something new! I can't frighten her. I
can't disgust her. What does it mean?' She dropped into a chair; her
voice sank almost to a whisper--I should have thought she was afraid of
me, if such a thing had been possible. 'What do you know of me, that I
don't know of myself?' she asked.
"It was quite beyond me to understand what she meant. I took a chair,
and sat down by her. 'I only know what you said to me yesterday,' I
answered.
"'What did I say?'
"'You told me you were miserable.'
"'I told you a lie! Believe what I have said to you to-day. In your own
interests, believe it to be the truth!'
"Nothing would induce me to believe it. 'No,' I said. 'You were
miserable yesterday, and you are miserable to-day. That is the truth!'
"What put my next bold words into my head, I don't know. It doesn't
matter; the thought was in me--and out it came.
"'I think you have some burden on your mind,' I went on. 'If I can't
relieve you of it, perhaps I can help you bear it. Come! tell me what
it is.' I waited; but it was of no use--she never even looked at me.
Because I am in love myself, do I think everybody else is like me?
I thought she blushed. I don't know what else I thought. 'Are you in
love?' I asked.
"She jumped up from her chair, so suddenly and so violently that she
threw it on the floor. Still, not a word passed her lips. I found
courage enough to go on--but not courage enough to look at her.
"'I love Ovid, and Ovid loves me,' I said. 'There is my consolation,
whatever my troubles may be. Are you not so fortunate?' A dreadful
expression of pain passed over her face. How could I see it, and not
feel the wish to sympathise with her? I ran the risk, and said, 'Do you
love somebody, who doesn't love you?'
"She turned her back on me, and went to the toilet-table. I think she
looked at herself in the glass. 'Well,' she said, speaking to me at
last, 'what else?'
"'Nothing else,' I answered--'except that I hope I have not offended
you.'
"She left the glass as suddenly as she had approached it, and took up
the candle again. Once more she held it so that it lit my face.
"'Guess who he is,' she said.
"'How can I do that?' I asked.
"She quietly put down the candle again. In some way, quite
incomprehensible to myself, I seemed to have relieved her. She spoke to
me in a changed voice, gently and sadly.
"You are the best of good girls, and you mean kindly. It's of no
use--you can do nothing. Forgive my insolence yesterday; I was mad with
envy of your happy marriage engagement. You don't understand such a
nature as mine. So much the better! ah, so much the better! Good-night!'
"There was such hopeless submission, such patient suffering, in those
words, that I could not find it in my heart to leave her. I thought of
how I might have behaved, of the wild things I might have said, if Ovid
had cared nothing for me. Had some cruel man forsaken her? That was
her secret. I asked myself what I could do to encourage her. Your last
letter, with our old priest's enclosure, was in my pocket. I took it
out.
"'Would you mind reading a short letter,' I said, 'before we wish each
other goodnight?' I held out the priest's letter.
"She drew back with a dark look; she appeared to have some suspicion of
it. 'Who is the writer?' she inquired sharply.
"'A person who is a stranger to you.'
"Her face cleared directly. She took the letter from me, and waited to
hear what I had to say next. 'The person,' I told her, 'is a wise and
good old man--the priest who married my father and mother, and baptised
me. We all of us used to consult Father Patrizio, when we wanted advice.
My nurse Teresa felt anxious about me in Ovid's absence; she spoke to
him about my marriage engagement, and of my exile--forgive me for using
the word!--in this house. He said he would consider, before he gave her
his opinion. The next day, he sent her the letter which you have got in
your hand.'
"There, I came to a full stop; having something yet to say, but not
knowing how to express myself with the necessary delicacy.
"'Why do you wish me to read the letter?' she asked, quietly.
"I think there is something in it which might--.'
"There, like a fool, I came to another full stop. She was as patient as
ever; she only made a little sign to me to go on.
"'I think Father Patrizio's letter might put you in a better frame of
mind,' I said; 'it might keep you from despising yourself.'
"She went back to her chair, and read the letter. You have permitted
me to keep the comforting words of the good Father, among my other
treasures. I copy his letter for you in this place--so that you may read
it again, and see what I had in my mind, and understand how it affected
poor Miss Minerva.
"'Teresa, my well-beloved friend,--I have considered the anxieties that
trouble you, with this result: that I can do my best, conscientiously,
to quiet your mind. I have had the experience of forty years in the
duties of the priesthood. In that long time, the innermost secrets of
thousands of men and women have been confided to me. From such means of
observation, I have drawn many useful conclusions; and some of them may
be also useful to you. I will put what I have to say, in the plainest
and fewest words: consider them carefully, on your side. The growth of
the better nature, in women, is perfected by one influence--and that
influence is Love. Are you surprised that a priest should write in this
way? Did you expect me to say, Religion? Love, my sister, is Religion,
in women. It opens their hearts to all that is good for them; and it
acts independently of the conditions of human happiness. A miserable
woman, tormented by hopeless love, is still the better and the nobler
for that love; and a time will surely come when she will show it. You
have fears for Carmina--cast away, poor soul, among strangers with hard
hearts! I tell you to have no fears. She may suffer under trials; she
may sink under trials. But the strength to rise again is in her--and
that strength is Love.'
"Having read our old friend's letter, Miss Minerva turned back, and read
it again--and waited a little, repeating some part of it to herself.
"'Does it encourage you?' I asked.
"She handed the letter back to me. 'I have got one sentence in it by
heart,' she said.
"You will know what that sentence is, without my telling you. I felt
so relieved, when I saw the change in her for the better--I was so
inexpressibly happy in the conviction that we were as good friends again
as ever--that I bent down to kiss her, on saying goodnight.
"She put up her hand and stopped me. 'No,' she said, 'not till I have
done something to deserve it. You are more in need of help than you
think. Stay here a little longer; I have a word to say to you about your
aunt.'
"I returned to my chair, feeling a little startled. Her eyes rested on
me absently--she was, as I imagined, considering with herself, before
she spoke. I refrained from interrupting her thoughts. The night was
still and dark. Not a sound reached our ears from without. In the house,
the silence was softly broken by a rustling movement on the stairs. It
came nearer. The door was opened suddenly. Mrs. Gallilee entered the
room.
"What folly possessed me? Why was I frightened? I really could not help
it--I screamed. My aunt walked straight up to me, without taking the
smallest notice of Miss Minerva. 'What are you doing here, when you
ought to be in your bed?' she asked.
"She spoke in such an imperative manner--with such authority and such
contempt--that I looked at her in astonishment. Some suspicion seemed to
be roused in her by finding me and Miss Minerva together.
"No more gossip!' she called out sternly. 'Do you hear me? Go to bed!'
"Was it not enough to rouse anybody? I felt my pride burning in my face.
'Am I a child, or a servant?' I said. 'I shall go to bed early or late
as I please.'
"She took one step forward; she seized me by the arm, and forced me to
my feet. Think of it, Teresa! In all my life I have never had a hand
laid on me except in kindness. Who knows it better than you! I tried
vainly to speak--I saw Miss Minerva rise to interfere--I heard her say,
'Mrs. Gallilee, you forget yourself!' Somehow, I got out of the room. On
the landing, a dreadful fit of trembling shook me from head to foot. I
sank down on the stairs. At first, I thought I was going to faint. No;
I shook and shivered, but I kept my senses. I could hear their voices in
the room.
"Mrs. Gallilee began. 'Did you tell me just now that I had forgotten
myself?'
"Miss Minerva answered, 'Certainly, madam. You did forget yourself.'
"The next words escaped me. After that, they grew louder; and I heard
them again--my aunt first.
"'I am dissatisfied with your manner to me, Miss Minerva. It has
latterly altered very much for the worse.'
"'In what respect, Mrs. Gallilee?'
"'In this respect. Your way of speaking to me implies an assertion of
equality--'
"'Stop a minute, madam! I am not so rich as you are. But I am at a
loss to know in what other way I am not your equal. Did you assert
your superiority--may I ask--when you came into my room without first
knocking at the door?'
"'Miss Minerva! Do you wish to remain in my service?'
"'Say employment, Mrs. Gallilee--if you please. I am quite indifferent
in the matter. I am equally ready, at your entire convenience, to stay
or to go.'
"Mrs. Gallilee's voice sounded nearer, as if she was approaching the
door. 'I think we arranged,' she said, 'that there was to be a month's
notice on either side, when I first engaged you?'
"'Yes--at my suggestion.'
"'Take your month's notice, if you please.'
"'Dating from to-morrow?'
"'Of course!'
"My aunt came out, and found me on the stairs. I tried to rise. It was
not to be done. My head turned giddy. She must have seen that I was
quite prostrate--and yet she took no notice of the state I was in.
Cruel, cruel creature! she accused me of listening.
"'Can't you see that the poor girl is ill?'
"It was Miss Minerva's voice. I looked round at her, feeling fainter and
fainter. She stooped; I felt her strong sinewy arms round me; she
lifted me gently. 'I'll take care of you,' she whispered--and carried me
downstairs to my room, as easily as if I had been a child.
"I must rest, Teresa. The remembrance of that dreadful night brings it
all back again. Don't be anxious about me, my old dear! You shall hear
more to-morrow."
CHAPTER XXVII.
On the next day events happened, the influence of which upon Carmina's
excitable nature urged her to complete her unfinished letter, without
taking the rest that she needed. Once more--and, as the result proved,
for the last time--she wrote to her faithful old friend in these words:
"Don't ask me to tell you how the night passed! Miss Minerva was the
first person who came to me in the morning.
"She had barely said a few kind words, when Maria interrupted us,
reminding her governess of the morning's lessons. 'Mrs. Gallilee has
sent her,' Miss Minerva whispered; 'I will return to you in the hour
before the children's dinner.'
"The next person who appeared was, as we had both anticipated, Mrs.
Gallilee herself.
"She brought me a cup of tea; and the first words she spoke were words
of apology for her conduct on the previous night. Her excuse was
that she had been 'harassed by anxieties which completely upset her.'
And--can you believe it?--she implored me not to mention 'the little
misunderstanding between us when I next wrote to her son!' Is this woman
made of iron and stone, instead of flesh and blood? Does she really
think me such a wretch as to cause Ovid, under any provocation, a
moment's anxiety while he is away? The fewest words that would satisfy
her, and so send her out of my room, were the only words I said.
"After this, an agreeable surprise was in store for me. The familiar
voice of good Mr. Gallilee applied for admission--through the keyhole!
"'Are you asleep, my dear? May I come in?' His kind, fat old face peeped
round the door when I said Yes--and reminded me of Zo, at dinner,
when she asks for more pudding, and doesn't think she will get it. Mr.
Gallilee had something to ask for, and some doubt of getting it, which
accounted for the resemblance. 'I've taken the liberty, Carmina, of
sending for our doctor. You're a delicate plant, my dear--' (Here,
his face disappeared and he spoke to somebody outside)--'You think
so yourself, don't you, Mr. Null? And you have a family of daughters,
haven't you?' (His face appeared again; more like Zo than ever.) 'Do
please see him, my child; I'm not easy about you. I was on the stairs
last night--nobody ever notices me, do they, Mr. Null?--and I saw Miss
Minerva--good creature, and, Lord, how strong!--carrying you to your
bed. Mr. Null's waiting outside. Don't distress me by saying No!'
"Is there anybody cruel enough to distress Mr. Gallilee? The doctor came
in--looking like a clergyman; dressed all in black, with a beautiful
frill to his shirt, and a spotless white cravat. He stared hard at me;
he produced a little glass-tube; he gave it a shake, and put it under
my arm; he took it away again, and consulted it; he said, 'Aha!' he
approved of my tongue; he disliked my pulse; he gave his opinion at
last. 'Perfect quiet. I must see Mrs. Gallilee.' And there was an end of
it.
"Mr. Gallilee observed the medical proceedings with awe. 'Mr. Null is a
wonderful man,' he whispered, before he followed the doctor out. Ill and
wretched as I was, this little interruption amused me. I wonder why I
write about it here? There are serious things waiting to be told--am I
weakly putting them off?
"Miss Minerva came back to me as she had promised. 'It is well,' she
said gravely, 'that the doctor has been to see you.'
"I asked if the doctor thought me very ill.
"He thinks you have narrowly escaped a nervous fever; and he has given
some positive orders. One of them is that your slightest wishes are to
be humoured. If he had not said that, Mrs. Gallilee would have prevented
me from seeing you. She has been obliged to give way; and she hates
me--almost as bitterly, Carmina, as she hates you.'
"This called to my mind the interruption of the previous night, when
Miss Minerva had something important to tell me. When I asked what it
was, she shook her head, and said painful subjects of conversation were
not fit subjects in my present state.
"Need I add that I insisted on hearing what she had to say? Oh, how
completely my poor father must have been deceived, when he made his
horrible sister my guardian! If I had not fortunately offended the
music-master, she would have used Mr. Le Frank as a means of making Ovid
jealous, and of sowing the seeds of dissension between us. Having failed
so far, she is (as Miss Minerva thinks) at a loss to discover any other
means of gaining her wicked ends. Her rage at finding herself baffled
seems to account for her furious conduct, when she discovered me in Miss
Minerva's room.
"You will ask, as I did, what has she to gain by this wicked plotting
and contriving, with its shocking accompaniments of malice and anger?
"Miss Minerva answered, 'I still believe that money is the motive. Her
son is mistaken about her; her friends are mistaken; they think she is
fond of money--the truer conclusion is, she is short of money. There is
the secret of the hard bargains she drives, and the mercenary opinions
she holds. I don't doubt that her income would be enough for most other
women in her position. It is not enough for a woman who is jealous of
her rich sister's place in the world. Wait a little, and you will see
that I am not talking at random. You were present at the grand party she
gave some week's since?'
"'I wish I had stayed in my own room,' I said. 'Mrs. Gallilee was
offended with me for not admiring her scientific friends. With one
or two exceptions, they talked of nothing but themselves and their
discoveries--and, oh, dear, how ugly they were!'
"'Never mind that now, Carmina. Did you notice the profusion of
splendid flowers, in the hall and on the staircase, as well as in the
reception-rooms?'
"'Yes.'
"'Did you observe--no, you are a young girl--did you hear any of the
gentlemen, in the supper-room, expressing their admiration of the
luxuries provided for the guests, the exquisite French cookery and the
delicious wine? Why was all the money which these things cost spent in
one evening? Because Lady Northlake's parties must be matched by Mrs.
Gallilee's parties. Lady Northlake lives in a fashionable neighbourhood
in London, and has splendid carriages and horses. This is a fashionable
neighbourhood. Judge what this house costs, and the carriages and
horses, when I tell you that the rent of the stables alone is over a
hundred pounds a year. Lady Northlake has a superb place in Scotland.
Mrs. Gallilee is not able to rival her sister in that respect--but she
has her marine villa in the Isle of Wight. When Mr. Gallilee said you
should have some sailing this autumn, did you think he meant that
he would hire a boat? He referred to the yacht, which is part of the
establishment at the sea-side. Lady Northlake goes yachting with her
husband; and Mrs. Gallilee goes yachting with her husband. Do you know
what it costs, when the first milliner in Paris supplies English ladies
with dresses? That milliner's lowest charge for a dress which Mrs.
Gallilee would despise--ordinary material, my dear, and imitation
lace--is forty pounds. Think a little--and even your inexperience
will see that the mistress of this house is spending more than she can
afford, and is likely (unless she has resources that we know nothing
about) to be, sooner or later, in serious need of money.'
"This was a new revelation to me, and it altered my opinion of course.
But I still failed to see what Mrs. Gallilee's extravagances had to
do with her wicked resolution to prevent Ovid from marrying me. Miss
Minerva's only answer to this was to tell me to write to Mr. Mool, while
I had the chance, and ask for a copy of my father's Will. 'I will take
the letter to him,' she said, 'and bring the reply myself. It will save
time, if it does nothing else.' The letter was written in a minute. Just
as she took it from me, the parlour-maid announced that the early dinner
was ready.
"Two hours later, the reply was in my hands. The old father had taken
Maria and Zo for their walk; and Miss Minerva had left the house by
herself--sending word to Mrs. Gallilee that she was obliged to go out on
business of her own.
"'Did Mrs. Gallilee see you come in?' I asked.
"'Yes. She was watching for me, no doubt.'
"Did she see you go upstairs to my room?'
"'Yes.'
"'And said nothing?'
"'Nothing.'
"We looked at each other; both of us feeling the same doubt of how the
day would end. Miss Minerva pointed impatiently to the lawyer's reply. I
opened it.
"Mr. Mool's letter was very kind, but quite incomprehensible in the
latter part of it. After referring me to his private residence, in case
I wished to consult him personally later in the day, he mentioned some
proceeding, called 'proving the Will,' and some strange place called
'Doctors' Commons.' However, there was the copy of the Will, and that
was all we wanted.
"I began reading it. How I pitied the unfortunate men who have to learn
the law! My dear Teresa, I might as well have tried to read an unknown
tongue. The strange words, the perpetual repetitions, the absence of
stops, utterly bewildered me. I handed the copy to Miss Minerva. Instead
of beginning on the first page, as I had done, she turned to the last.
With what breathless interest I watched her face! First, I saw that she
understood what she was reading. Then, after a while, she turned pale.
And then, she lifted her eyes to me. 'Don't be frightened,' she said.
"But I was frightened. My ignorant imagination pictured some dreadful
unknown power given to Mrs. Gallilee by the Will. 'What can my aunt do
to me?' I asked.
"Miss Minerva composed me--without concealing the truth. 'In her
position, Carmina, and with her intensely cold and selfish nature, there
is no fear of her attempting to reach her ends by violent means.
Your happiness may be in danger--and that prospect, God knows, is bad
enough.'
"When she talked of my happiness, I naturally thought of Ovid. I asked
if there was anything about him in the Will.
"It was no doubt a stupid thing to say at such a time; and it seemed to
annoy her. 'You are the only person concerned,' she answered sharply.
'It is Mrs. Gallilee's interest that you shall never be her son's wife,
or any man's wife. If she can have her way, you will live and die an
unmarried woman.'
"This did me good: it made me angry. I began to feel like myself again.
I said, 'Please let me hear the rest of it.'
"Miss Minerva first patiently explained to me what she had read in
the Will. She then returned to the subject of my aunt's extravagance;
speaking from experience of what had happened in her own family. 'If
Mrs. Gallilee borrows money,' she said, 'her husband will, in all
probability, have to repay the loan. And, if borrowings go on in that
way, Maria and Zoe will be left wretchedly provided for, in comparison
with Lady Northlake's daughters. A fine large fortune would wonderfully
improve these doubtful prospects--can you guess, Carmina, where it is
to come from?' I could easily guess, now I understood the Will. My good
Teresa, if I die without leaving children, the fine large fortune comes
from Me.
"You see it all now--don't you? After I had thanked Miss Minerva, turned
away my head on the pillow overpowered by disgust.
"The clock in the hall struck the hour of the children's tea. Miss
Minerva would be wanted immediately. At parting, she kissed me. 'There
is the kiss that you meant to give me last night,' she said. 'Don't
despair of yourself. I am to be in the house for a month longer; and I
am a match for Mrs. Gallilee. We will say no more now. Compose yourself,
and try to sleep.'
"She went away to her duties. Sleep was out of the question. My
attention wandered when I tried to read. Doing nothing meant, in other
words, thinking of what had happened. If you had come into my room, I
should have told you all about it. The next best thing was to talk to
you in this way. You don't know what a relief it has been to me to write
these lines."
"The night has come, and Mrs. Gallilee's cruelty has at last proved too
much even for my endurance.
"Try not to be surprised; try not to be alarmed. If my mind to-morrow is
the same as my mind to-night, I shall attempt to make my escape. I shall
take refuge with Lady Northlake.
"Oh, if I could go to Ovid! But he is travelling in the deserts of
Canada. Until his return to the coast, I can only write to him to the
care of his bankers at Quebec. I should not know where to find him, when
I arrived; and what a dreadful meeting--if I did find him--to be obliged
to acknowledge that it is his mother who has driven me away! There will
be nothing to alarm him, if I go to his mother's sister. If you could
see Lady Northlake, you would feel as sure as I do that she will take my
part.
"After writing to you, I must have fallen asleep. It was quite dark,
when I was awakened by the striking of a match in my room. I looked
round, expecting to see Miss Minerva. The person lighting my candle was
Mrs. Gallilee.
"She poured out the composing medicine which Mr. Null had ordered for
me. I took it in silence. She sat down by the bedside.
"'My child,' she began, 'we are friends again now. You bear no malice, I
am sure.'
"Distrust still kept me silent. I remembered that she had watched for
Miss Minerva's return, and that she had seen Miss Minerva go up to my
room. The idea that she meant to be revenged on us both for having our
secrets, and keeping them from her knowledge, took complete possession
of my mind.
"'Are you feeling better?' she asked.
"'Yes.'
"'Is there anything I can get for you?'
"'Not now--thank you.'
"'Would you like to see Mr. Null again, before to-morrow?'
"'Oh, no!'
"These were ungraciously short replies--but it cost me an effort
to speak to her at all. She showed no signs of taking offence; she
proceeded as smoothly as ever.
"My dear Carmina, I have my faults of temper; and, with such pursuits as
mine, I am not perhaps a sympathetic companion for a young girl. But
I hope you believe that it is my duty and my pleasure to be a second
mother to you?'
"Yes; she did really say that! Whether I was only angry, or whether I
was getting hysterical, I don't know. I began to feel an oppression in
my breathing that almost choked me. There are two windows in my room,
and one of them only was open. I was obliged to ask her to open the
other.
"She did it; she came back, and fanned me. I submitted as long as I
could--and then I begged her not to trouble herself any longer. She put
down the fan, and went on with what she had to say.
"'I wish to speak to you about Miss Minerva. You are aware that I gave
her notice, last night, to leave her situation. For your sake, I regret
that I did not take this step before you came to England.'
"My confidence in myself returned when I heard Miss Minerva spoken of in
this way. I said at once that I considered her to be one of my best and
truest friends.
"'My dear child, that is exactly what I lament! This person has
insinuated herself into your confidence--and she is utterly unworthy of
it.'
"Could I let those abominable words pass in silence? 'Mrs. Gallilee!' I
said, 'you are cruelly wronging a woman whom I love and respect!'
"'Mrs. Gallilee?' she repeated. 'Do I owe it to Miss Minerva that you
have left off calling me Aunt? Your obstinacy, Carmina, leaves me no
alternative but to speak out. If I had done my duty, I ought to have
said long since, what I am going to say now. You are putting your trust
in the bitterest enemy you have; an enemy who secretly hates you with
the unforgiving hatred of a rival!'
"Look back at my letter, describing what passed between Miss Minerva and
me, when I went to her room; and you will know what I felt on hearing
her spoken of as 'a rival.' My sense of justice refused to believe it.
But, oh, my dear old nurse, there was some deeper sense in me that said,
as if in words, It is true!
"Mrs. Gallilee went on, without mercy.
"'I know her thoroughly; I have looked into her false heart. Nobody has
discovered her but me. Charge her with it, if you like; and let her deny
it if she dare. Miss Minerva is secretly in love with my son.'
"She got up. Her object was gained: she was even with me, and with the
woman who had befriended me, at last.
"'Lie down in your bed again,' she said, 'and think over what I have
told you. In your own interests, think over it well.'
"I was left alone.
"Shall I tell you what saved me from sinking under the shock?
Ovid--thousands and thousands of miles away--Ovid saved me.
"I love him with all my heart and soul; and I do firmly believe that
I know him better than I know myself. If his mother had betrayed Miss
Minerva to him, as she has betrayed her to me, that unhappy woman would
have had his truest pity. I am as certain of this, as I am that I see
the moon, while I write, shining on my bed. Ovid would have pitied her.
And I pitied her.
"I wrote the lines that follow, and sent them to her by the maid. In the
fear that she might mistake my motives, and think me angry and
jealous, I addressed her with my former familiarity by her christian
name:--"'Last night, Frances, I ventured to ask if you loved some one
who did not love you. And you answered by saying to me, Guess who he is.
My aunt has just told me that he is her son. Has she spoken the truth?'
"I am now waiting to receive Miss Minerva's reply.
"For the first time since I have been in the house, my door is locked. I
cannot, and will not, see Mrs. Gallilee again. All her former cruelties
are, as I feel it, nothing to the cruelty of her coming here when I am
ill, and saying to me what she has said.
"The weary time passes, and still there is no reply. Is Frances angry?
or is she hesitating how to answer me--personally or by writing? No! she
has too much delicacy of feeling to answer in her own person.
"I have only done her justice. The maid has just asked me to open the
door. I have got my answer. Read it."
"'Mrs. Gallilee has spoken the truth.
"'How I can have betrayed myself so that she has discovered my miserable
secret is more than I can tell I will not own it to her or to any living
creature but yourself. Undeserving as I am, I know that I can trust you.
"It is needless to dwell at any length on this confession. Many things
in my conduct, which must have perplexed you, will explain themselves
flow. There has been, however, one concealment on my part, which it is
due to you that I should acknowledge.
"'If Mrs. Gallilee had taken me into her confidence, I confess that my
jealousy would have degraded me into becoming her accomplice. As things
were, I was too angry and too cunning to let her make use of me without
trusting me.
"'There are other acts of deceit which I ought to acknowledge--if I
could summon composure enough to write about them. Better to say at
once--I am not worthy of your pardon, not worthy even of your pity.
"'With the same sincerity, I warn you that the wickedness in me, on
which Mrs. Gallilee calculated, may be in me still. The influence of
your higher and better nature--helped perhaps by that other influence
of which the old priest spoke in his letter--has opened my heart to
tenderness and penitence of which I never believed myself capable: has
brought the burning tears into my eyes which make it a hard task to
write to you. All this I know, and yet I dare not believe in myself.
It is useless to deny it, Carmina--I love him. Even now, when you have
found me out, I love him. Don't trust me. Oh, God, what torture it is to
write it--but I do write it, I will write it--don't trust me!
"'One thing I may say for myself. I know the utter hopelessness of that
love which I have acknowledged. I know that he returns your love, and
will never return mine. So let it be.
"'I am not young; I have no right to comfort myself with hopes that I
know to be vain. If one of us is to suffer, let it be that one who is
used to suffering. I have never been the darling of my parents, like
you; I have not been used at home to the kindness and the love that
you remember. A life without sweetness and joy has well fitted me for a
loveless future. And, besides, you are worthy of him, and I am not. Mrs.
Gallilee is wrong, Carmina, if she thinks I am your rival. I am not your
rival; I never can be your rival. Believe nothing else, but, for God's
sake, believe that!
"'I have no more to say--at least no more that I can remember now.
Perhaps, you shrink from remaining in the same house with me? Let me
know it, and I shall be ready--I might almost say, glad--to go.'"
"Have you read her letter, Teresa? Am I wrong in feeling that this poor
wounded heart has surely some claim on me? If I am wrong, oh, what am
I to do? what am I to do?"
CHAPTER XXVIII.
The last lines addressed by Carmina to her old nurse were completed on
the seventeenth of August, and were posted that night.
The day that followed was memorable to Carmina, and memorable to Mrs.
Gallilee. Doctor Benjulia had his reasons also for remembering the
eighteenth of August.
Still in search of a means to undermine the confidence which united Ovid
and Carmina, and still calling on her invention in vain, Mrs. Gallilee
had passed a sleepless night. Her maid, entering the room at the usual
hour, was ordered to leave her in bed, and not to return until the bell
rang. On ordinary occasions, Mrs. Gallilee was up in time to receive the
letters arriving by the first delivery; the correspondence of the other
members of the household being sorted by her own hands, before it was
distributed by the servant. On this particular morning (after sleeping
a little through sheer exhaustion), she entered the empty breakfast-room
two hours later than usual. The letters waiting for her were addressed
only to herself. She rang for the maid.
"Any other letters this morning?" she asked.
"Two, for my master."
"No more than that!"
"Nothing more, ma'am--except a telegram for Miss Carmina."
"When did it come?"
"Soon after the letters."
"Have you given it to her?"
"Being a telegram, ma'am, I thought I ought to take it to Miss Carmina
at once."
"Quite right. You can go."
A telegram for Carmina? Was there some private correspondence going on?
And were the interests involved too important to wait for the ordinary
means of communication by post? Considering these questions, Mrs.
Gallilee poured out a cup of tea and looked over her letters.
Only one of them especially attracted her notice in her present frame of
mind. The writer was Benjulia. He dispensed as usual with the customary
forms of address.
"I have had a letter about Ovid, from a friend of mine in Canada.
There is an allusion to him of the complimentary sort, which I don't
altogether understand. I want to ask you about it--but I can't spare the
time to go a-visiting. So much the better for me--I hate conversation,
and I like work. You have got your carriage--and your fine friends
are out of town. If you want a drive, come to me, and bring your last
letters from Ovid with you."
Mrs. Gallilee decided on considering this characteristic proposal later
in the day. Her first and foremost interest took her upstairs to her
niece's room.
Carmina had left her bed. Robed in her white dressing-gown, she lay on
the sofa in the sitting-room. When her aunt came in, she started and
shuddered Those signs of nervous aversion escaped the notice of Mrs.
Gallilee. Her attention had been at once attracted by a travelling bag,
opened as if in preparation for packing. The telegram lay on Carmina's
lap. The significant connection between those two objects asserted
itself plainly. But it was exactly the opposite of the connection
suspected by Mrs. Gallilee. The telegram had prevented Carmina from
leaving the house.
Mrs. Gallilee paved the way for the necessary investigation, by making
a few common-place inquiries. How had Carmina passed the night? Had the
maid taken care of her at breakfast-time? Was there anything that her
aunt could do for her? Carmina replied with a reluctance which she was
unable to conceal. Mrs. Gallilee passed over the cold reception accorded
to her without remark, and pointed with a bland smile to the telegram.
"No bad news, I hope?"
Carmina handed the telegram silently to her aunt. The change of
circumstances which the arrival of the message had produced, made
concealment superfluous. Mrs. Gallilee opened the telegram, keeping her
suspicions in reserve. It had been sent from Rome by the old foreign
woman, named "Teresa," and it contained these words:
"My husband died this morning. Expect me in London from day to day."
"Why is this person coming to London?" Mrs. Gallilee inquired.
Stung by the insolent composure of that question, Carmina answered
sharply, "Her name is on the telegram; you ought to know!"
"Indeed?" said Mrs. Gallilee. "Perhaps, she likes London?"
"She hates London! You have had her in the house; you have seen us
together. Now she has lost her husband, do you think she can live apart
from the one person in the world whom she loves best?"
"My dear, these matters of mere sentiment escape my notice," Mrs.
Gallilee rejoined. "It's an expensive journey from Italy to England.
What was her husband?"
"Her husband was foreman in a manufactory till his health failed him."
"And then," Mrs. Gallilee concluded, "the money failed him, of course.
What did he manufacture?"
"Artists' colours."
"Oh! an artists' colourman? Not a very lucrative business, I should
think. Has his widow any resources of her own?"
"My purse is hers!"
"Very generous, I am sure! Even the humblest lodgings are dear in this
neighbourhood. However--with your assistance--your old servant may be
able to live somewhere near you."
Having settled the question of Teresa's life in London in this way,
Mrs. Gallilee returned to the prime object of her suspicion--she took
possession of the travelling bag.
Carmina looked at her with the submission of utter bewilderment. Teresa
had been the companion of her life; Teresa had been received as her
attendant, when she was first established under her aunt's roof. She had
assumed that her nurse would become a member of the household again, as
a matter of course. With Teresa to encourage her, she had summoned the
resolution to live with Ovid's mother, until Ovid came back. And now she
had been informed, in words too plain to be mistaken, that Teresa
must find a home for herself when she returned to London! Surprise,
disappointment, indignation held Carmina speechless.
"This thing," Mrs. Gallilee proceeded, holding up the bag, "will only be
in your way here. I will have it put with our own bags and boxes, in
the lumber-room. And, by-the-bye, I fancy you don't quite understand
(naturally enough, at your age) our relative positions in this house.
My child, the authority of your late father is the authority which
your guardian holds over you. I hope never to be obliged to exercise
it--especially, if you will be good enough to remember two things. I
expect you to consult me in your choice of companions; and to wait for
my approval before you make arrangements which--well! let us say, which
require the bag to be removed from the lumber-room."
Without waiting for a reply, she turned to the door. After opening it,
she paused--and looked back into the room.
"Have you thought of what I told you, last night?" she asked.
Sorely as they had been tried, Carmina's energies rallied at this. "I
have done my best to forget it!" she answered.
"At Miss Minerva's request?"
Carmina took no notice of the question.
Mrs. Gallilee persisted. "Have you had any communication with that
person?"
There was still no reply. Preserving her temper, Mrs. Gallilee stepped
out on the landing, and called to Miss Minerva. The governess answered
from the upper floor.
"Please come down here," said Mrs. Galilee.
Miss Minerva obeyed. Her face was paler than usual; her eyes had lost
something of their piercing brightness. She stopped outside Carmina's
door. Mrs. Gallilee requested her to enter the room.
After an instant--only an instant--of hesitation, Miss Minerva crossed
the threshold. She cast one quick glance at Carmina, and lowered her
eyes before the look could be returned. Mrs. Gallilee discovered no mute
signs of an understanding between them. She turned to the governess.
"Have you been here already this morning?" she inquired.
"No."
"Is there some coolness between you and my niece?"
"None, madam, that I know of."
"Then, why don't you speak to her when you come into the room?"
"Miss Carmina has been ill. I see her resting on the sofa--and I am
unwilling to disturb her."
"Not even by saying good-morning?"
"Not even that!"
"You are exceedingly careful, Miss Minerva."
"I have had some experience of sick people, and I have learnt to be
careful. May I ask if you have any particular reason for calling me
downstairs?"
Mrs. Gallilee prepared to put her niece and her governess to the final
test.
"I wish you to suspend the children's lesson for an hour or two," she
answered.
"Certainly. Shall I tell them?"
"No; I will tell them myself."
"What do you wish me to do?" said Miss Minerva.
"I wish you to remain here with my niece."
If Mrs. Gallilee, after answering in those terms, had looked at
her niece, instead of looking at her governess, she would have seen
Carmina--distrustful of her own self-control--move on the sofa so as to
turn her face to the wall. As it was, Miss Minerva's attitude and look
silently claimed some explanation.
Mrs. Gallilee addressed her in a whisper. "Let me say a word to you at
the door."
Miss Minerva followed her to the landing outside. Carmina turned again,
listening anxiously.
"I am not at all satisfied with her looks, this morning," Mrs. Gallilee
proceeded; "and I don't think it right she should be left alone. My
household duties must be attended to. Will you take my place at the
sofa, until Mr. Null comes?" ("Now," she thought, "if there is
jealousy between them, I shall see it!")
She saw nothing: the governess quietly bowed to her, and went back
to Carmina. She heard nothing: although the half-closed door gave
her opportunities for listening. Ignorant, she had entered the room.
Ignorant, she left it.
Carmina lay still and silent. With noiseless step, Miss Minerva
approached the sofa, and stood by it, waiting. Neither of them lifted
her eyes, the one to the other. The woman suffered her torture in
secret. The girl's sweet eyes filled slowly with tears. One by one the
minutes of the morning passed--not many in number, before there was a
change. In silence, Carmina held out her hand. In silence, Miss Minerva
took it and kissed it.
CHAPTER XXIX.
Mrs. Gallilee saw her housekeeper as usual, and gave her orders for the
day. "If there is anything forgotten," she said, "I must leave it to
you. For the next hour or two, don't let me be disturbed."
Some of her letters of the morning were still unread, others required
immediate acknowledgment. She was not as ready for her duties as usual.
For once, the most unendurably industrious of women was idle, and sat
thinking.
Even her unimaginative nature began to tremble on the verge of
superstition. Twice, had the subtle force of circumstances defeated her,
in the attempt to meddle with the contemplated marriage of her son. By
means of the music-master, she had planned to give Ovid jealous reasons
for doubting Carmina--and she had failed. By means of the governess, she
had planned to give Carmina jealous reasons for doubting Ovid--and she
had failed. When some people talked of Fatality, were they quite such
fools as she had hitherto supposed them to be? It would be a waste of
time to inquire. What next step could she take?
Urged by the intolerable sense of defeat to find reasons for still
looking hopefully to the future, the learned Mrs. Gallilee lowered
herself to the intellectual level of the most ignorant servant in the
house. The modern Muse of Science unconsciously opened her mind to the
vulgar belief in luck. She said to herself, as her kitchen-maid might
have said, We will see what comes of it, the third time!
Benjulia's letter was among the other letters waiting on the table. She
took it up, and read it again.
In her present frame of mind, to find her thoughts occupied by
the doctor, was to be reminded of Ovid's strange allusion to his
professional colleague, on the day of his departure. Speaking of
Carmina, he had referred to one person whom he did not wish her to see
in his absence; and that person, he had himself admitted to be Benjulia.
He had been asked to state his objection to the doctor--and how had he
replied? He had said, "I don't think Benjulia a fit person to be in the
company of a young girl."
Why?
There are many men of mature age, who are not fit persons to be in the
company of young girls--but they are either men who despise, or men who
admire, young girls. Benjulia belonged neither to the one nor to the
other of these two classes. Girls were objects of absolute indifference
to him--with the one exception of Zo, aged ten. Never yet, after meeting
him in society hundreds of times, had Mrs. Gallilee seen him talk to
young ladies or even notice young ladies. Ovid's alleged reason for
objecting to Benjulia stood palpably revealed as a clumsy excuse.
In the present posture of events, to arrive at that conclusion was
enough for Mrs. Gallilee. Without stopping to pursue the idea, she rang
the bell, and ordered her carriage to be ready that afternoon, at three
o'clock.
Doubtful, and more than doubtful, though it might be, the bare prospect
of finding herself possessed, before the day was out, of a means of
action capable of being used against Carmina, raised Mrs. Gallilee's
spirits. She was ready at last to attend to her correspondence.
One of the letters was from her sister in Scotland. Among other
subjects, it referred to Carmina.
"Why won't you let that sweet girl come and stay with us?" Lady
Northlake asked. "My daughters are longing for such a companion; and
both my sons are ready to envy Ovid the moment they see her. Tell my
nephew, when you next write, that I thoroughly understand his falling in
love with that gentle pretty creature at first sight."
Carmina's illness was the ready excuse which presented itself in Mrs.
Gallilee's reply. With or without an excuse, Lady Northlake was to be
resolutely prevented from taking a foremost place in her niece's heart,
and encouraging the idea of her niece's marriage. Mrs. Gallilee felt
almost pious enough to thank Heaven that her sister's palace in the
Highlands was at one end of Great Britain, and her own marine villa at
the other!
The marine villa reminded her of the family migration to the sea-side.
When would it be desirable to leave London? Not until her mind was
relieved of the heavier anxieties that now weighed on it. Not while
events might happen--in connection with the threatening creditors or the
contemplated marriage--which would baffle her latest calculations, and
make her presence in London a matter of serious importance to her own
interests. Miss Minerva, again, was a new obstacle in the way. To take
her to the Isle of Wight was not to be thought of for a moment.
To dismiss her at once, by paying the month's salary, might be the
preferable course to pursue--but for two objections. In the first place
(if the friendly understanding between them really continued) Carmina
might communicate with the discarded governess in secret. In the second
place, to pay Miss Minerva's salary before she had earned it, was
a concession from which Mrs. Gallilee's spite, and Mrs. Gallilee's
principles of paltry economy, recoiled in disgust. No! the waiting
policy in London, under whatever aspect it might be viewed, was, for the
present, the one policy to pursue.
She returned to the demands of her correspondence. Just as she had taken
up her pen, the sanctuary of the boudoir was violated by the appearance
of a servant.
"What is it now? Didn't the housekeeper tell you that I am not to be
disturbed?"
"I beg your pardon, ma'am. My master--"
"What does your master want?"
"He wishes to see you, ma'am."
This was a circumstance entirely without parallel in the domestic
history of the house. In sheer astonishment, Mrs. Gallilee pushed away
her letters, and said "Show him in."
When the boys of fifty years since were naughty, the schoolmaster of the
period was not accustomed to punish them by appealing to their sense
of honour. If a boy wanted a flogging, in those days, the educational
system seized a cane, or a birch-rod, and gave it to him. Mr. Gallilee
entered his wife's room, with the feelings which had once animated
him, on entering the schoolmaster's study to be caned. When he said
"Good-morning, my dear!" his face presented the expression of fifty
years since, when he had said, "Please, sir, let me off this time!"
"Now," said Mrs. Gallilee, "what do you want?"
"Only a little word. How well you're looking, my dear!"
After a sleepless night, followed by her defeat in Carmina's room,
Mrs. Gallilee looked, and knew that she looked, ugly and old. And her
wretched husband had reminded her of it. "Go on!" she answered sternly.
Mr. Gallilee moistened his dry lips. "I think I'll take a chair, if
you will allow me," he said. Having taken his chair (at a respectful
distance from his wife), he looked all round the room with the air of
a visitor who had never seen it before. "How very pretty!" he remarked
softly. "Such taste in colour. I think the carpet was your own design,
wasn't it? How chaste!"
"Will you come to the point, Mr. Gallilee?"
"With pleasure, my dear--with pleasure. I'm afraid I smell of tobacco?"
"I don't care if you do!"
This was such an agreeable surprise to Mr. Gallilee, that he got on his
legs again to enjoy it standing up. "How kind! Really now, how kind!" He
approached Mrs. Gallilee confidentially. "And do you know, my dear, it
was one of the most remarkable cigars I ever smoked." Mrs. Gallilee laid
down her pen, and eyed him with an annihilating frown. In the extremity
of his confusion Mr. Gallilee ventured nearer. He felt the sinister
fascination of the serpent in the expression of those awful eyebrows.
"How well you are looking! How amazingly well you are looking this
morning!" He leered at his learned wife, and patted her shoulder!
For the moment, Mrs. Gallilee was petrified. At his time of life, was
this fat and feeble creature approaching her with conjugal endearments?
At that early hour of the day, had his guilty lips tasted his favourite
champagne, foaming in his well-beloved silver mug, over his much-admired
lump of ice? And was this the result?
"Mr. Gallilee!"
"Yes, my dear?"
"Sit down!"
Mr. Gallilee sat down.
"Have you been to the club?"
Mr. Gallilee got up again.
"Sit down!"
Mr. Gallilee sat down. "I was about to say, my dear, that I'll show you
over the club with the greatest pleasure--if that's what you mean."
"If you are not a downright idiot," said Mrs. Gallilee, "understand
this! Either say what you have to say, or--" she lifted her hand, and
let it down on the writing-table with a slap that made the pens ring in
the inkstand--"or, leave the room!"
Mr. Gallilee lifted his hand, and searched in the breast-pocket of his
coat. He pulled out his cigar-case, and put it back in a hurry. He tried
again, and produced a letter. He looked piteously round the room, in
sore need of somebody whom he might appeal to, and ended in appealing to
himself. "What sort of temper will she be in?" he whispered.
"What have you got there?" Mrs. Gallilee asked sharply. "One of the
letters you had this morning?"
Mr. Gallilee looked at her with admiration. "Wonderful woman!" he said.
"Nothing escapes her! Allow me, my dear."
He rose and presented the letter, as if he was presenting a petition.
Mrs. Gallilee snatched it out of his hand. Mr. Gallilee went softly back
to his chair, and breathed a devout ejaculation. "Oh, Lord!"
It was a letter from one of the tradespeople, whom Mrs. Gallilee had
attempted to pacify with a payment "on account." The tradesman felt
compelled, in justice to himself, to appeal to Mr. Gallilee, as master
of the house (!). It was impossible for him (he submitted with the
greatest respect) to accept a payment, which did not amount to one-third
of the sum owing to him for more than a twelvemonth. "Wretch!" cried
Mrs. Gallilee. "I'll settle his bill, and never employ him again!" She
opened her cheque-book, and dipped her pen in the ink. A faint voice
meekly protested. Mr. Gallilee was on his legs again. Mr. Gallilee said.
"Please don't!"
His incredible rashness silenced his wife. There he stood; his
round eyes staring at the cheque-book, his fat cheeks quivering with
excitement. "You mustn't do it," he said, with a first and last outburst
of courage. "Give me a minute, my dear--oh, good gracious, give me a
minute!"
He searched in his pocket again, and produced another letter. His
eyes wandered towards the door; drops of perspiration oozed out on his
forehead. He laid the second letter on the table; he looked at his wife,
and--ran out of the room.
Mrs. Gallilee opened the second letter. Another dissatisfied tradesman?
No: creditors far more formidable than the grocer and the butcher.
An official letter from the bankers, informing Mr. Gallilee that "the
account was overdrawn."
She seized her pass-book, and her paper of calculations. Never yet had
her rigid arithmetic committed an error. Column by column she revised
her figures--and made the humiliating discovery of her first mistake.
She had drawn out all, and more than all, the money deposited in the
bank; and the next half-yearly payment of income was not due until
Christmas.
There was but one thing to be done--to go at once to the bank. If Ovid
had not been in the wilds of Canada, Mrs. Gallilee would have made her
confession to him without hesitation. As it was, the servant called a
cab, and she made her confession to the bankers.
The matter was soon settled to her satisfaction. It rested (exactly as
Miss Minerva had anticipated) with Mr. Gallilee. In the house, he might
abdicate his authority to his heart's content. Out of the house, in
matters of business, he was master still. His "investments" represented
excellent "security;" he had only to say how much he wanted to borrow,
and to sign certain papers--and the thing was done.
Mrs. Gallilee went home again, with her pecuniary anxieties at rest for
the time. The carriage was waiting for her at the door.
Should she fulfil her intention of visiting Benjulia? She was not a
person who readily changed her mind--and, besides, after the troubles
of the morning, the drive into the country would be a welcome relief.
Hearing that Mr. Gallilee was still at home, she looked in at the
smoking-room. Unerring instinct told her where to find her husband,
under present circumstances. There he was, enjoying his cigar in
comfort, with his coat off and his feet on a chair. She opened the door.
"I want you, this evening," she said--and shut the door again; leaving
Mr. Gallilee suffocated by a mouthful of his own smoke.
Before getting into the carriage, she only waited to restore her face
with a flush of health (from Paris), modified by a sprinkling of pallor
(from London). Benjulia's humour was essentially an uncertain humour. It
might be necessary to fascinate the doctor.
CHAPTER XXX.
The complimentary allusion to Ovid, which Benjulia had not been able
to understand, was contained in a letter from Mr. Morphew, and was
expressed in these words:--"Let me sincerely thank you for making us
acquainted with Mr. Ovid Vere. Now that he has left us, we really feel
as if we had said good-bye to an old friend. I don't know when I have
met with such a perfectly unselfish man--and I say this, speaking from
experience of him. In my unavoidable absence, he volunteered to attend a
serious case of illness, accompanied by shocking circumstances--and
this at a time when, as you know, his own broken health forbids him to
undertake any professional duty. While he could preserve the patient's
life--and he did wonders, in this way--he was every day at the bedside,
taxing his strength in the service of a perfect stranger. I fancy I see
you (with your impatience of letter-writing at any length) looking to
the end. Don't be alarmed. I am writing to your brother Lemuel by this
mail, and I have little time to spare."
Was this "serious case of illness"--described as being "accompanied by
shocking circumstances"--a case of disease of the brain?
There was the question, proposed by Benjulia's inveterate suspicion of
Ovid! The bare doubt cost him the loss of a day's work. He reviled poor
Mr. Morphew as "a born idiot" for not having plainly stated what the
patient's malady was, instead of wasting paper on smooth sentences,
encumbered by long words. If Ovid had alluded to his Canadian patient in
his letters to his mother, his customary preciseness of language might
be trusted to relieve Benjulia's suspense. With that purpose in view,
the doctor had written to Mrs. Gallilee.
Before he laid down his pen, he looked once more at Mr. Morphew's
letter, and paused thoughtfully over one line: "I am writing to your
brother Lemuel by this mail."
The information of which he was in search might be in that letter.
If Mrs. Gallilee's correspondence with her son failed to enlighten him,
here was another chance of making the desired discovery. Surely the wise
course to take would be to write to Lemuel as well.
His one motive for hesitating was dislike of his younger
brother--dislike so inveterate that he even recoiled from communicating
with Lemuel through the post.
There had never been any sympathy between them; but indifference had
only matured into downright enmity, on the doctor's part, a year since.
Accident (the result of his own absence of mind, while he was perplexed
by an unsuccessful experiment) had placed Lemuel in possession of his
hideous secret. The one person in the world who knew how he was really
occupied in the laboratory, was his brother.
Here was the true motive of the bitterly contemptuous tone in which
Benjulia had spoken to Ovid of his nearest relation. Lemuel's character
was certainly deserving of severe judgment, in some of its aspects. In
his hours of employment (as clerk in the office of a London publisher)
he steadily and punctually performed the duties entrusted to him. In his
hours of freedom, his sensual instincts got the better of him; and his
jealous wife had her reasons for complaint. Among his friends, he was
the subject of a wide diversity of opinion. Some of them agreed with his
brother in thinking him little better than a fool. Others suspected
him of possessing natural abilities, but of being too lazy, perhaps too
cunning, to exert them. In the office he allowed himself to be called
"a mere machine"--and escaped the overwork which fell to the share of
quicker men. When his wife and her relations declared him to be a mere
animal, he never contradicted them--and so gained the reputation of a
person on whom reprimand was thrown away. Under the protection of this
unenviable character, he sometimes said severe things with an air
of perfect simplicity. When the furious doctor discovered him in the
laboratory, and said, "I'll be the death of you, if you tell any living
creature what I am doing!"--Lemuel answered, with a stare of stupid
astonishment, "Make your mind easy; I should be ashamed to mention it."
Further reflection decided Benjulia on writing. Even when he had a
favour to ask, he was unable to address Lemuel with common politeness.
"I hear that Morphew has written to you by the last mail. I want to see
the letter." So much he wrote, and no more. What was barely enough for
the purpose, was enough for the doctor, when he addressed his brother.
CHAPTER XXXI.
Between one and two o'clock, the next afternoon, Benjulia (at work in
his laboratory) heard the bell which announced the arrival of a visitor
at the house. No matter what the circumstances might be, the servants
were forbidden to disturb him at his studies in any other way.
Very unwillingly he obeyed the call, locking the door behind him. At
that hour it was luncheon-time in well-regulated households, and it was
in the last degree unlikely that Mrs. Gallilee could be the visitor.
Getting within view of the front of the house, he saw a man standing on
the doorstep. Advancing a little nearer, he recognised Lemuel.
"Hullo!" cried the elder brother.
"Hullo!" answered the younger, like an echo.
They stood looking at each other with the suspicious curiosity of two
strange cats. Between Nathan Benjulia, the famous doctor, and Lemuel
Benjulia, the publisher's clerk, there was just family resemblance
enough to suggest that they were relations. The younger brother was only
a little over the ordinary height; he was rather fat than thin; he
wore a moustache and whiskers; he dressed smartly--and his prevailing
expression announced that he was thoroughly well satisfied with himself.
But he inherited Benjulia's gipsy complexion; and, in form and colour,
he had Benjulia's eyes.
"How-d'ye-do, Nathan?" he said.
"What the devil brings you here?" was the answer.
Lemuel passed over his brother's rudeness without notice. His mouth
curled up at the corners with a mischievous smile.
"I thought you wished to see my letter," he said.
"Why couldn't you send it by post?"
"My wife wished me to take the opportunity of calling on you."
"That's a lie," said Benjulia quietly. "Try another excuse. Or do a new
thing. For once, speak the truth."
Without waiting to hear the truth, he led the way into the room in
which he had received Ovid. Lemuel followed, still showing no outward
appearance of resentment.
"How did you get away from your office?" Benjulia inquired.
"It's easy to get a holiday at this time of year. Business is slack, old
boy--"
"Stop! I don't allow you to speak to me in that way."
"No offence, brother Nathan!"
"Brother Lemuel, I never allow a fool to offend me. I put him in his
place--that's all."
The distant barking of a dog became audible from the lane by which the
house was approached. The sound seemed to annoy Benjulia. "What's that?"
he asked.
Lemuel saw his way to making some return for his brother's reception of
him.
"It's my dog," he said; "and it's lucky for you that I have left him in
the cab."
"Why?"
"Well, he's as sweet-tempered a dog as ever lived. But he has one
fault. He doesn't take kindly to scientific gentlemen in your line of
business." Lemuel paused, and pointed to his brother's hands. "If he
smelt that, he might try his teeth at vivisecting You."
The spots of blood which Ovid had once seen on Benjulia's stick, were on
his hands now. With unruffled composure he looked at the horrid stains,
silently telling their tale of torture.
"What's the use of washing my hands," he answered, "when I am going back
to my work?"
He wiped his finger and thumb on the tail of his coat. "Now," he
resumed, "if you have got your letter with you, let me look at it."
Lemuel produced the letter. "There are some bits in it," he explained,
"which you had better not see. If you want the truth--that's the reason
I brought it myself. Read the first page-and then I'll tell you where to
skip."
So far, there was no allusion to Ovid. Benjulia turned to the second
page--and Lemuel pointed to the middle of it. "Read as far as that," he
went on, "and then skip till you come to the last bit at the end."
On the last page, Ovid's name appeared. He was mentioned, as a
"delightful person, introduced by your brother,"--and with that the
letter ended. In the first bitterness of his disappointment, Benjulia
conceived an angry suspicion of those portions of the letter which he
had been requested to pass over unread.
"What has Morphew got to say to you that I mustn't read?" he asked.
"Suppose you tell me first, what you want to find in the letter," Lemuel
rejoined. "Morphew is a doctor like you. Is it anything medical?"
Benjulia answered this in the easiest way--he nodded his head.
"Is it Vivisection?" Lemuel inquired slyly.
Benjulia at once handed the letter back, and pointed to the door. His
momentary interest in the suppressed passages was at an end. "That will
do," he answered. "Take yourself and your letter away."
"Ah," said Lemuel, "I'm glad you don't want to look at it again!" He
put the letter away, and buttoned his coat, and tapped his pocket
significantly. "You have got a nasty temper, Nathan--and there are
things here that might try it."
In the case of any other man, Benjulia would have seen that the one
object of these prudent remarks was to irritate him. Misled by his
profound conviction of his brother's stupidity, he now thought it
possible that the concealed portions of the letter might be worth
notice. He stopped Lemuel at the door. "I've changed my mind," he said;
"I want to look at the letter again."
"You had better not," Lemuel persisted. "Morphew's going to write a book
against you--and he asks me to get it published at our place. I'm on
his side, you know; I shall do my best to help him; I can lay my hand on
literary fellows who will lick his style into shape--it will be an awful
exposure!" Benjulia still held out his hand. With over-acted reluctance,
Lemuel unbuttoned his coat. The distant dog barked again as he gave
the letter back. "Please excuse my dear old dog," he said with maudlin
tenderness; "the poor dumb animal seems to know that I'm taking his side
in the controversy. Bow-wow means, in his language, Fie upon the cruel
hands that bore holes in our head and use saws on our backs. Ah, Nathan,
if you have got any dogs in that horrid place of yours, pat them and
give them their dinner! You never heard me talk like this before--did
you? I'm a new man since I joined the Society for suppressing you. Oh,
if I only had the gift of writing!"
The effect of this experiment on his brother's temper, failed to fulfil
Lemuel's expectations. The doctor's curiosity was roused on the doctor's
own subject of inquiry.
"You're quite right about one thing," said Benjulia gravely; "I
never heard you talk in this way before. You suggest some interesting
considerations, of the medical sort. Come to the light." He led Lemuel
to the window--looked at him with the closest attention--and carefully
consulted his pulse. Lemuel smiled. "I'm not joking," said Benjulia
sternly. "Tell me this. Have you had headaches lately? Do you find your
memory failing you?"
As he put those questions, he thought to himself--seriously thought--"Is
this fellow's brain softening? I wish I had him on my table!"
Lemuel persisted in presenting himself under a sentimental aspect.
He had not forgiven his elder brother's rudeness yet--and he knew, by
experience, the one weakness in Benjulia's character which, with his
small resources, it was possible to attack.
"Thank you for your kind inquiries," he replied. "Never mind my head, so
long as my heart's in the right place. I don't pretend to be clever--but
I've got my feelings; and I could put some awkward questions on what you
call Medical Research, if I had Morphew to help me."
"I'll help you," said Benjulia--interested in developing the state of
his brother's brain.
"I don't believe you," said Lemuel--interested in developing the state
of his brother's temper.
"Try me, Lemuel."
"All right, Nathan."
The two brothers returned to their chairs; reduced for once to the same
moral level.
CHAPTER XXXII.
"Now," said Benjulia, "what is it to be? The favourite public bugbear?
Vivisection?"
"Yes."
"Very well. What can I do for you?"
"Tell me first," said Lemuel, "what is Law?"
"Nobody knows."
"Well, then, what ought it to be?"
"Justice, I suppose."
"Let me wait a bit, Nathan, and get that into my mind."
Benjulia waited with exemplary patience.
"Now about yourself," Lemuel continued. "You won't be offended--will
you? Should I be right, if I called you a dissector of living
creatures?"
Benjulia was reminded of the day when he had discovered his brother in
the laboratory. His dark complexion deepened in hue. His cold gray eyes
seemed to promise a coming outbreak. Lemuel went on.
"Does the Law forbid you to make your experiments on a man?" he asked.
"Of course it does!"
"Why doesn't the Law forbid you to make your experiments on a dog?"
Benjulia's face cleared again. The one penetrable point in his ironclad
nature had not been reached yet. That apparently childish question about
the dog appeared, not only to have interested him, but to have taken
him by surprise. His attention wandered away from his brother. His clear
intellect put Lemuel's objection in closer logical form, and asked if
there was any answer to it, thus:
The Law which forbids you to dissect a living man, allows you to dissect
a living dog. Why?
There was positively no answer to this.
Suppose he said, Because a dog is an animal? Could he, as a
physiologist, deny that a man is an animal too?
Suppose he said, Because a dog is the inferior creature in intellect?
The obvious answer to this would be, But the lower order of savage,
or the lower order of lunatic, compared with the dog, is the inferior
creature in intellect; and, in these cases, the dog has, on your own
showing, the better right to protection of the two.
Suppose he said, Because a man is a creature with a soul, and a dog is
a creature without a soul? This would be simply inviting another
unanswerable question: How do you know?
Honestly accepting the dilemma which thus presented itself, the
conclusion that followed seemed to be beyond dispute.
If the Law, in the matter of Vivisection, asserts the principle of
interference, the Law has barred its right to place arbitrary limits
on its own action. If it protects any living creatures, it is bound, in
reason and in justice, to protect all.
"Well," said Lemuel, "am I to have an answer?"
"I'm not a lawyer."
With this convenient reply, Benjulia opened Mr. Morphew's letter, and
read the forbidden part of it which began on the second page. There
he found the very questions with which his brother had puzzled
him--followed by the conclusion at which he had himself arrived!
"You interpreted the language of your dog just now," he said quietly to
Lemuel; "and I naturally supposed your brain might be softening. Such
as it is, I perceive that your memory is in working order. Accept my
excuses for feeling your pulse. You have ceased to be an object of
interest to me."
He returned to his reading. Lemuel watched him--still confidently
waiting for results.
The letter proceeded in these terms:
"Your employer may perhaps be inclined to publish my work, if I can
satisfy him that it will address itself to the general reader.
"We all know what are the false pretences, under which English
physiologists practice their cruelties. I want to expose those false
pretences in the simplest and plainest way, by appealing to my own
experience as an ordinary working member of the medical profession.
"Take the pretence of increasing our knowledge of the curative action
of poisons, by trying them on animals. The very poisons, the action of
which dogs and cats have been needlessly tortured to demonstrate, I have
successfully used on my human patients in the practice of a lifetime.
"I should also like to ask what proof there is that the effect of a
poison on an animal may be trusted to inform us, with certainty, of the
effect of the same poison on a man. To quote two instances only which
justify doubt--and to take birds this time, by way of a change--a pigeon
will swallow opium enough to kill a man, and will not be in the least
affected by it; and parsley, which is an innocent herb in the stomach of
a human being, is deadly poison to a parrot.
"I should deal in the same way, with the other pretence, of improving
our practice of surgery by experiment on living animals.
"Not long since, I saw the diseased leg of a dog cut off at the hip
joint. When the limb was removed, not a single vessel bled. Try the
same operation on a man--and twelve or fifteen vessels must be tied as a
matter of absolute necessity.
"Again. We are told by a great authority that the baking of dogs in
ovens has led to new discoveries in treating fever. I have always
supposed that the heat, in fever, is not a cause of disease, but a
consequence. However, let that be, and let us still stick to experience.
Has this infernal cruelty produced results which help us to cure scarlet
fever? Our bedside practice tells us that scarlet fever runs it course
as it always did. I can multiply such examples as these by hundreds when
I write my book.
"Briefly stated, you now have the method by which I propose to drag the
scientific English Savage from his shelter behind the medical interests
of humanity, and to show him in his true character,--as plainly as the
scientific Foreign Savage shows himself of his own accord. He doesn't
shrink behind false pretences. He doesn't add cant to cruelty. He
boldly proclaims the truth:--I do it, because I like it!"
Benjulia rose, and threw the letter on the floor.
"I proclaim the truth," he said; "I do it because I like it. There
are some few Englishmen who treat ignorant public opinion with the
contempt that it deserves--and I am one of them." He pointed scornfully
to the letter. "That wordy old fool is right about the false pretences.
Publish his book, and I'll buy a copy of it."
"That's odd," said Lemuel.
"What's odd?"
"Well, Nathan, I'm only a fool--but if you talk in that way of false
pretences and public opinion, why do you tell everybody that your horrid
cutting and carving is harmless chemistry? And why were you in such a
rage when I got into your workshop, and found you out? Answer me that!"
"Let me congratulate you first," said Benjulia. "It isn't every fool who
knows that he is a fool. Now you shall have your answer. Before the
end of the year, all the world will be welcome to come into my workshop,
and see me at the employment of my life. Brother Lemuel, when you stole
your way through my unlocked door, you found me travelling on the road
to the grandest medical discovery of this century. You stupid ass,
do you think I cared about what you could find out? I am in such
perpetual terror of being forestalled by my colleagues, that I am not
master of myself, even when such eyes as yours look at my work. In a
month or two more--perhaps in a week or two--I shall have solved the
grand problem. I labour at it all day. I think of it, I dream of it,
all night. It will kill me. Strong as I am, it will kill me. What do
you say? Am I working myself into my grave, in the medical interests of
humanity? That for humanity! I am working for my own satisfaction--for
my own pride--for my own unutterable pleasure in beating other men--for
the fame that will keep my name living hundreds of years hence.
Humanity! I say with my foreign brethren--Knowledge for its own sake,
is the one god I worship. Knowledge is its own justification and its
own reward. The roaring mob follows us with its cry of Cruelty. We pity
their ignorance. Knowledge sanctifies cruelty. The old anatomist stole
dead bodies for Knowledge. In that sacred cause, if I could steal a
living man without being found out, I would tie him on my table, and
grasp my grand discovery in days, instead of months. Where are you
going? What? You're afraid to be in the same room with me? A man who can
talk as I do, is a man who would stick at nothing? Is that the light in
which you lower order of creatures look at us? Look a little higher--and
you will see that a man who talks as I do is a man set above you by
Knowledge. Exert yourself, and try to understand me. Have I no virtues,
even from your point of view? Am I not a good citizen? Don't I pay my
debts? Don't I serve my friends? You miserable creature, you have had
my money when you wanted it! Look at that letter on the floor. The man
mentioned in it is one of those colleagues whom I distrust. I did
my duty by him for all that. I gave him the information he wanted; I
introduced him to a friend in a land of strangers. Have I no feeling, as
you call it? My last experiments on a monkey horrified me. His cries of
suffering, his gestures of entreaty, were like the cries and gestures of
a child. I would have given the world to put him out of his misery. But
I went on. In the glorious cause I went on. My hands turned cold--my
heart ached--I thought of a child I sometimes play with--I suffered--I
resisted--I went on. All for Knowledge! all for Knowledge!"
His brother's presence was forgotten. His dark face turned livid; his
gigantic frame shuddered; his breath came and went in deep sobbing
gasps--it was terrible to see him and hear him.
Lemuel slunk out of the room. The jackal had roused the lion; the
mean spirit of mischief in him had not bargained for this. "I begin to
believe in the devil," he said to himself when he got to the house door.
As he descended the steps, a carriage appeared in the lane. A footman
opened the gate of the enclosure. The carriage approached the house,
with a lady in it.
Lemuel ran back to his brother. "Here's a lady coming!" he said. "You're
in a nice state to see her! Pull yourself together, Nathan--and, damn
it, wash your hands!"
He took Benjulia's arm, and led him upstairs.
When Lemuel returned to the hall, Mrs. Gallilee was ascending the
house-steps. He bowed profoundly, in homage to the well-preserved
remains of a fine woman. "My brother will be with you directly, ma'am.
Pray allow me to give you a chair."
His hat was in his hand. Mrs. Gallilee's knowledge of the world easily
set him down at his true value. She got rid of him with her best grace.
"Pray don't let me detain you, sir; I will wait with pleasure."
If she had been twenty years younger the hint might have been thrown
away. As it was, Lemuel retired.
CHAPTER XXXIII.
An unusually long day's work at the office had fatigued good Mr. Mool.
He pushed aside his papers, and let his weary eyes rest on a glass vase
full of flowers on the table--a present from a grateful client. As a
man, he enjoyed the lovely colours of the nosegay. As a botanist, he
lamented the act which had cut the flowers from their parent stems, and
doomed them to a premature death. "I should not have had the heart to do
it myself," he thought; "but tastes differ."
The office boy came into the room, with a visiting card in his hand.
"I'm going home to dinner," said Mr. Mool. "The person must call
to-morrow."
The boy laid the card on the table. The person was Mrs. Gallilee.
Mrs. Gallilee, at seven o'clock in the evening! Mrs. Gallilee, without a
previous appointment by letter! Mr. Mool trembled under the
apprehension of some serious family emergency, in imminent need of legal
interference. He submitted as a matter of course. "Show the lady in."
Before a word had passed between them, the lawyer's mind was relieved.
Mrs. Gallilee shone on him with her sweetest smiles; pressed his hand
with her friendliest warmth; admired the nosegay with her readiest
enthusiasm. "Quite perfect," she said--"especially the Pansy. The round
flat edge, Mr. Mool; the upper petals perfectly uniform--there is a
flower that defies criticism! I long to dissect it."
Mr. Mool politely resigned the Pansy to dissection (murderous
mutilation, he would have called it, in the case of one of his own
flowers), and waited to hear what his learned client might have to say
to him.
"I am going to surprise you," Mrs. Gallilee announced. "No--to shock
you. No--even that is not strong enough. Let me say, to horrify you."
Mr. Mool's anxieties returned, complicated by confusion. The behaviour
of Mrs. Gallilee exhibited the most unaccountable contrast to her
language. She showed no sign of those strong emotions to which she
had alluded. "How am I to put it?" she went on, with a transparent
affectation of embarrassment. "Shall I call it a disgrace to our
family?" Mr. Mool started. Mrs. Gallilee entreated him to compose
himself; she approached the inevitable disclosure by degrees. "I think,"
she said, "you have met Doctor Benjulia at my house?"
"I have had that honour, Mrs. Gallilee. Not a very sociable person--if I
may venture to say so."
"Downright rude, Mr. Mool, on some occasions. But that doesn't matter
now. I have just been visiting the doctor."
Was this visit connected with the "disgrace to the family?" Mr. Mool
ventured to put a question.
"Doctor Benjulia is not related to you, ma'am--is he?"
"Not the least in the world. Please don't interrupt me again. I am, so
to speak, laying a train of circumstances before you; and I might leave
one of them out. When Doctor Benjulia was a young man--I am returning
to my train of circumstances, Mr. Mool--he was at Rome, pursuing his
professional studies. I have all this, mind, straight from the doctor
himself. At Rome, he became acquainted with my late brother, after
the period of his unfortunate marriage. Stop! I have failed to put it
strongly enough again. I ought to have said, his disgraceful marriage."
"Really, Mrs. Gallilee--"
"Mr. Mool!"
"I beg your pardon, ma'am."
"Don't mention it. The next circumstance is ready in my mind. One of the
doctor's fellow-students (described as being personally an irresistible
man) was possessed of abilities which even attracted our unsociable
Benjulia. They became friends. At the time of which I am now speaking,
my brother's disgusting wife--oh, but I repeat it, Mr. Mool! I say
again, his disgusting wife--was the mother of a female child."
"Your niece, Mrs. Gallilee."
"No!"
"Not Miss Carmina?"
"Miss Carmina is no more my niece than she is your niece. Carry your
mind back to what I have just said. I mentioned a medical student who
was an irresistible man. Miss Carmina's father was that man."
Mr. Mool's astonishment and indignation would have instantly expressed
themselves, if he had not been a lawyer. As it was, his professional
experience warned him of the imprudence of speaking too soon.
Mrs. Galilee's exultation forced its way outwards. Her eyes glittered;
her voice rose. "The law, Mr. Mool! what does the law say?" she broke
out. "Is my brother's Will no better than waste-paper? Is the money
divided among his only near relations? Tell me! tell me!"
Mr. Mool suddenly plunged his face into his vase of flowers. Did he feel
that the air of the office wanted purifying? or was he conscious that
his face might betray him unless he hid it? Mrs. Galilee was at no
loss to set her own clever interpretation on her lawyer's extraordinary
proceeding.
"Take your time," she said with the most patronising kindness. "I know
your sensitive nature; I know what I felt myself when this dreadful
discovery burst upon me. If you remember, I said I should horrify you.
Take your time, my dear sir--pray take your time."
To be encouraged in this way--as if he was the emotional client, and
Mrs. Gallilee the impassive lawyer--was more than even Mr. Mool could
endure. Shy men are, in the innermost depths of their nature, proud
men: the lawyer had his professional pride. He came out of his flowery
retreat, with a steady countenance. For the first time in his life, he
was not afraid of Mrs. Galilee.
"Before we enter on the legal aspect of the case--" he began.
"The shocking case," Mrs. Gallilee interposed, in the interests of
Virtue.
Under any other circumstances Mr. Mool would have accepted the
correction. He actually took no notice of it now! "There is one point,"
he proceeded, "on which I must beg you to enlighten me."
"By all means! I am ready to go into any details, no matter how
disgusting they may be."
Mr. Mool thought of certain "ladies" (objects of perfectly needless
respect among men) who, being requested to leave the Court, at
unmentionable Trials, persist in keeping their places. It was a relief
to him to feel--if his next questions did nothing else--that they would
disappoint Mrs. Galilee.
"Am I right in supposing that you believe what you have told me?" he
resumed.
"Most assuredly!"
"Is Doctor Benjulia the only person who has spoken to you on the
subject?"
"The only person."
"His information being derived from his friend--the fellow-student whom
you mentioned just now?"
"In other words," Mrs. Gallilee answered viciously, "the father of the
wretched girl who has been foisted on my care."
If Mr. Mool's courage had been in danger of failing him, he would have
found it again now His regard for Carmina, his respect for the memory
of her mother, had been wounded to the quick. Strong on his own legal
ground, he proceeded as if he was examining a witness in a police court.
"I suppose the doctor had some reason for believing what his friend told
him?"
"Ample reason! Vice and poverty generally go together--this man was
poor. He showed Doctor Benjulia money received from his mistress--her
husband's money, it is needless to say."
"Her motive might be innocent, Mrs. Gallilee. Had the man any letters of
hers to show?"
"Letters? From a woman in her position? It's notorious, Mr. Mool, that
Italian models don't know how to read or write."
"May I ask if there are any further proofs?"
"You have had proofs enough."
"With all possible respect, ma'am, I deny that."
Mrs. Gallilee had not been asked to enter into disgusting details. Mrs.
Gallilee had been contradicted by her obedient humble servant of other
days. She thought it high time to bring the examination to an end.
"If you are determined to believe in the woman's innocence," she said,
"without knowing any of the circumstances--"
Mr. Mool went on from bad to worse: he interrupted her now.
"Excuse me, Mrs. Gallilee, I think you have forgotten that one of my
autumn holidays, many years since, was spent in Italy. I was in Rome,
like Doctor Benjulia, after your brother's marriage. His wife was, to my
certain knowledge, received in society. Her reputation was unblemished;
and her husband was devoted to her."
"In plain English," said Mrs. Gallilee, "my brother was a poor weak
creature--and his wife, when you knew her, had not been found out."
"That is just the difficulty I feel," Mr. Mool rejoined. "How is it that
she is only found out now? Years have passed since she died. More years
have passed since this attack on her character reached Doctor Benjulia's
knowledge. He is an old friend of yours. Why has he only told you of it
to-day? I hope I don't offend you by asking these questions?"
"Oh, dear, no! your questions are so easily answered. I never encouraged
the doctor to speak of my brother and his wife. The subject was too
distasteful to me--and I don't doubt that Doctor Benjulia felt about it
as I did."
"Until to-day," the lawyer remarked; "Doctor Benjulia appears to have
been quite ready to mention the subject to-day."
"Under special circumstances, Mr. Mool. Perhaps, you will not allow that
special circumstances make any difference?"
On the contrary, Mr. Mool made every allowance. At the same time, he
waited to hear what the circumstances might be.
But Mrs. Galilee had her reasons for keeping silence. It was impossible
to mention Benjulia's reception of her without inflicting a wound on her
self-esteem. To begin with, he had kept the door of the room open, and
had remained standing. "Have you got Ovid's letters? Leave them here;
I'm not fit to look at them now." Those were his first words. There was
nothing in the letters which a friend might not read: she accordingly
consented to leave them. The doctor had expressed his sense of
obligation by bidding her get into her carriage again, and go. "I have
been put in a passion; I have made a fool of myself; I haven't a nerve
in my body that isn't quivering with rage. Go! go! go!" There was his
explanation. Impenetrably obstinate, Mrs. Galilee faced him--standing
between the doctor and the door--without shrinking. She had not driven
all the way to Benjulia's house to be sent back again without gaining
her object: she had her questions to put to him, and she persisted in
pressing them as only a woman can. He was left--with the education of
a gentleman against him--between the two vulgar alternatives of turning
her out by main force, or of yielding, and getting rid of her decently
in that way. At any other time, he would have flatly refused to lower
himself to the level of a scandal-mongering woman, by entering on the
subject. In his present mood, if pacifying Mrs. Galilee, and ridding
himself of Mrs. Gallilee, meant one and the same thing, he was ready,
recklessly ready, to let her have her own way. She heard the infamous
story, which she had repeated to her lawyer; and she had Lemuel
Benjulia's visit, and Mr. Morphew's contemplated attack on Vivisection,
to thank for getting her information.
Mr. Mool waited, and waited in vain. He reminded his client of what she
had just said.
"You mentioned certain circumstances. May I know what they are?" he
asked.
Mrs. Gallilee rose, before she replied.
"Your time is valuable, and my time is valuable," she said. "We shall
not convince each other by prolonging our conversation. I came here, Mr.
Mool, to ask you a question about the law. Permit me to remind you that
I have not had my answer yet. My own impression is that the girl now
in my house, not being my brother's child, has no claim on my brother's
property? Tell me in two words, if you please--am I right or wrong?"
"I can do it in one word, Mrs. Gallilee. Wrong."
"What!"
Mr. Mool entered on the necessary explanation, triumphing in the reply
that he had just made. "It's the smartest thing," he thought, "I ever
said in my life."
"While husbands and wives live together," he continued, "the Law holds
that all children, born in wedlock, are the husband's children. Even if
Miss Carmina's mother had not been as good and innocent a woman as ever
drew the breath of life--"
"That will do, Mr. Mool. You really mean to say that this girl's
interest in my brother's Will--"
"Remains quite unaffected, ma'am, by all that you have told me."
"And I am still obliged to keep her under my care?"
"Or," Mr. Mool answered, "to resign the office of guardian, in favour of
Lady Northlake--appointed to act, in your place."
"I won't trouble you any further, sir. Good-evening!"
She turned to leave the office. Mr. Mool actually tried to stop her.
"One word more, Mrs. Galilee."
"No; we have said enough already."
Mr. Mool's audacity arrived at its climax. He put his hand on the lock
of the office door, and held it shut.
"The young lady, Mrs. Gallilee! I am sure you will never breathe a word
of this to the pretty gentle, young lady? Even if it was true; and, as
God is my witness, I am sure it's false--"
"Good-evening, Mr. Mool!"
He opened the door, and let her go; her looks and tones told him that
remonstrance was worse than useless. From year's end to year's end,
this modest and amiable man had never been heard to swear. He swore now.
"Damn Doctor Benjulia!" he burst out, in the solitude of his office. His
dinner was waiting for him at home. Instead of putting on his hat, he
went back to his writing-table. His thoughts projected themselves into
the future--and discovered possibilities from which they recoiled. He
took up his pen, and began a letter. "To John Gallilee, Esquire: Dear
Sir,--Circumstances have occurred, which I am not at liberty to mention,
but which make it necessary for me, in justice to my own views and
feelings, to withdraw from the position of legal adviser to yourself and
family." He paused and considered with himself. "No," he decided; "I
may be of some use to that poor child, while I am the family lawyer." He
tore up his unfinished letter.
When Mr. Mool got home that night, it was noticed that he had a poor
appetite for his dinner. On the other hand, he drank more wine than
usual.
CHAPTER XXXIV.
"I don't know what is the matter with me. Sometimes I think I am going
to be really ill."
It was the day after Mrs. Gallilee's interview with her lawyer--and this
was Carmina's answer, when the governess entered her room, after the
lessons of the morning, and asked if she felt better.
"Are you still taking medicine?" Miss Minerva inquired.
"Yes. Mr. Null says it's a tonic, and it's sure to do me good. It
doesn't seem to have begun yet. I feel so dreadfully weak, Frances. The
least thing makes me cry; and I put off doing what I ought to do, and
want to do, without knowing why. You remember what I told you about
Teresa? She may be with us in a few days more, for all I know to the
contrary. I must find a nice lodging for her, poor dear--and here I am,
thinking about it instead of doing it."
"Let me do it," Miss Minerva suggested.
Carmina's sad face brightened. "That's kind indeed!" she said.
"Nonsense! I shall take the children out, after dinner to-day. Looking
over lodgings will be an amusement to me and to them."
"Where is Zo? Why haven't you brought her with you?"
"She is having her music lesson--and I must go back to keep her in
order. About the lodging? A sitting-room and bedroom will be enough,
I suppose? In this neighbourhood, I am afraid the terms will be rather
high."
"Oh, never mind that! Let us have clean airy rooms--and a kind landlady.
Teresa mustn't know it, if the terms are high."
"Will she allow you to pay her expenses?"
"Ah, you put it delicately! My aunt seemed to doubt if Teresa had any
money of her own. I forgot, at the time, that my father had left her a
little income. She told me so herself, and wondered, poor dear, how she
was to spend it all. She mustn't be allowed to spend it all. We will
tell her that the terms are half what they may really be--and I will pay
the other half. Isn't it cruel of my aunt not to let my old nurse live
in the same house with me?"
At that moment, a message arrived from one of the persons of whom she
was speaking. Mrs. Gallilee wished to see Miss Carmina immediately.
"My dear," said Miss Minerva, when the servant had withdrawn, "why do
you tremble so?"
"There's something in me, Frances, that shudders at my aunt, ever
since--"
She stopped.
Miss Minerva understood that sudden pause--the undesigned allusion
to Carmina's guiltless knowledge of her feeling towards Ovid. By
unexpressed consent, on either side, they still preserved their former
relations as if Mrs. Gallilee had not spoken. Miss Minerva looked at
Carmina sadly and kindly. "Good-bye for the present!" she said--and went
upstairs again to the schoolroom.
In the hall, Carmina found the servant waiting for her. He opened the
library door. The learned lady was at her studies.
"I have been speaking to Mr. Null about you," said Mrs. Gallilee.
On the previous evening, Carmina had kept her room. She had breakfasted
in bed--and she now saw her aunt for the first time, since Mrs. Gallilee
had left the house on her visit to Benjulia. The girl was instantly
conscious of a change--to be felt rather than to be realised--a subtle
change in her aunt's way of looking at her and speaking to her. Her
heart beat fast. She took the nearest chair in silence.
"The doctor," Mrs. Gallilee proceeded, "thinks it of importance to your
health to be as much as possible in the air. He wishes you to drive
out every day, while the fine weather lasts. I have ordered the open
carriage to be ready, after luncheon. Other engagements will prevent me
from accompanying you. You will be under the care of my maid, and you
will be out for two hours. Mr. Null hopes you will gain strength. Is
there anything you want?"
"Nothing--thank you."
"Perhaps you wish for a new dress?"
"Oh, no!"
"You have no complaint to make of the servants?"
"The servants are always kind to me."
"I needn't detain you any longer--I have a person coming to speak to
me."
Carmina had entered the room in doubt and fear. She left it with
strangely-mingled feelings of perplexity and relief. Her sense of a
mysterious change in her aunt had strengthened with every word that Mrs.
Gallilee had said to her. She had heard of reformatory institutions, and
of discreet persons called matrons who managed them. In her imaginary
picture of such places, Mrs. Gallilee's tone and manner realised, in the
strangest way, her idea of a matron speaking to a penitent.
As she crossed the hall, her thoughts took a new direction. Some
indefinable distrust of the coming time got possession of her. An ugly
model of the Colosseum, in cork, stood on the hall table. She looked
at it absently. "I hope Teresa will come soon," she thought--and turned
away to the stairs.
She ascended slowly; her head drooping, her mind still preoccupied.
Arrived at the first landing, a sound of footsteps disturbed her. She
looked up--and found herself face to face with Mr. Le Frank, leaving the
schoolroom after his music lesson. At that sudden discovery, a cry of
alarm escaped her--the common little scream of a startled woman. Mr. Le
Frank made an elaborately formal bow: he apologised with sternly stupid
emphasis. "I beg your pardon."
Moved by a natural impulse, penitently conscious of those few foolish
words of hers which he had so unfortunately overheard, the poor girl
made an effort to conciliate him. "I have very few friends, Mr. Le
Frank," she said timidly. "May I still consider you as one of them? Will
you forgive and forget? Will you shake hands?"
Mr. Le Frank made another magnificent bow. He was proud of his voice. In
his most resonant and mellifluous tones, he said, "You do me honour--"
and took the offered hand, and lifted it grandly, and touched it with
his lips.
She held by the baluster with her free hand, and controlled the
sickening sensation which that momentary contact with him produced.
He might have detected the outward signs of the struggle, but for an
interruption which preserved her from discovery. Mrs. Gallilee was
standing at the open library door. Mrs. Gallilee said, "I am waiting for
you, Mr. Le Frank."
Carmina hurried up the stairs, pursued already by a sense of her own
imprudence. In her first confusion and dismay, but one clear idea
presented itself. "Oh!" she said, "have I made another mistake?"
Meanwhile, Mrs. Gallilee had received her music-master with the nearest
approach to an indulgent welcome, of which a hardened nature is capable.
"Take the easy chair, Mr. Le Frank. You are not afraid of the open
window?"
"Oh, dear no! I like it." He rapidly unrolled some leaves of music
which he had brought downstairs. "With regard to the song that I had the
honour of mentioning--"
Mrs. Gallilee pointed to the table. "Put the song there for the present.
I have a word to say first. How came you to frighten my niece? I heard
something like a scream, and naturally looked out. She was making an
apology; she asked you to forgive and forget. What does all this mean?"
Mr. Le Frank exhausted his ingenuity in efforts of polite evasion
without the slightest success. From first to last (if the expression
may be permitted) Mrs. Gallilee had him under her thumb. He was not
released, until he had literally reported Carmina's opinion of him as
a man and a musician, and had exactly described the circumstances under
which he had heard it. Mrs. Gallilee listened with an interest, which
(under less embarrassing circumstances) would have even satisfied Mrs.
Le Frank's vanity.
She was not for a moment deceived by the clumsy affectation of good
humour with which he told his story. Her penetration discovered the
vindictive feeling towards Carmina, which offered him, in case of
necessity, as an instrument ready made to her hand. By fine degrees, she
presented herself in the new character of a sympathising friend.
"I know now, Mr. Le Frank, why you declined to be my niece's
music-master. Allow me to apologise for having ignorantly placed you
in a false position. I appreciate the delicacy of your conduct--I
understand, and admire you."
Mr. Le Frank's florid cheeks turned redder still. His cold blood began
to simmer, heated by an all-pervading glow of flattered self-esteem.
"My niece's motives for concealment are plain enough," Mrs. Gallilee
proceeded. "Let me hope that she was ashamed to confess the total want
of taste, delicacy, and good manners which has so justly offended you.
Miss Minerva, however, has no excuse for keeping me in the dark. Her
conduct, in this matter, offers, I regret to say, one more instance of
her habitual neglect of the duties which attach to her position in my
house. There seems to be some private understanding between my governess
and my niece, of which I highly disapprove. However, the subject is too
distasteful to dwell on. You were speaking of your song--the last effort
of your genius, I think?"
His "genius"! The inner glow in Mr. Le Frank grew warmer and warmer.
"I asked for the honour of an interview," he explained, "to make a
request." He took up his leaves of music. "This is my last, and, I hope,
my best effort at composition. May I dedicate it--?"
"To me!" Mrs. Gallilee exclaimed with a burst of enthusiasm.
Mr. Le Frank felt the compliment. He bowed gratefully.
"Need I say how gladly I accept the honour?" With this gracious answer
Mrs. Gallilee rose.
Was the change of position a hint, suggesting that Mr. Le Frank might
leave her to her studies, now that his object was gained? Or was it an
act of homage offered by Science to Art? Mr. Le Frank was incapable
of placing an unfavourable interpretation on any position which a
woman--and such a woman--could assume in his presence. He felt the
compliment again. "The first copy published shall be sent to you," he
said--and snatched up his hat, eager to set the printers at work.
"And five-and-twenty copies more, for which I subscribe," cried his
munificent patroness, cordially shaking hands with him.
Mr. Le Frank attempted to express his sense of obligation. Generous Mrs.
Gallilee refused to hear him. He took his leave; he got as far as the
hall; and then he was called back--softly, confidentially called back to
the library.
"A thought has just struck me," said Mrs. Gallilee. "Please shut the
door for a moment. About that meeting between you and my niece? Perhaps,
I am taking a morbid view?"
She paused. Mr. Le Frank waited with breathless interest.
"Or is there something out of the common way, in that apology of hers?"
Mrs. Gallilee proceeded. "Have you any idea what the motive might be?"
Mr. Le Frank's ready suspicion was instantly aroused. "Not the least
idea," he answered. "Can you tell me?"
"I am as completely puzzled as you are," Mrs. Gallilee rejoined.
Mr. Le Frank considered. His suspicions made an imaginative effort,
assisted by his vanity. "After my refusal to teach her," he suggested,
"that proposal to shake hands may have a meaning--" There, his invention
failed him. He stopped, and shook his head ominously.
Mrs. Gallilee's object being attained, she made no attempt to help
him. "Perhaps, time will show," she answered discreetly. "Good-bye
again--with best wishes for the success of the song."
CHAPTER XXXV.
The solitude of her own room was no welcome refuge to Carmina, in her
present state of mind. She went on to the schoolroom.
Miss Minerva was alone. The two girls, in obedience to domestic
regulations, were making their midday toilet before dinner. Carmina
described her interview with Mrs. Gallilee, and her meeting with Mr. Le
Frank. "Don't scold me," she said; "I make no excuse for my folly."
"If Mr. Le Frank had left the house, after you spoke to him," Miss
Minerva answered, "I should not have felt the anxiety which troubles me
now. I don't like his going to Mrs. Gallilee afterwards--especially when
you tell me of that change in her manner towards you. Yours is a vivid
imagination, Carmina. Are you sure that it has not been playing you any
tricks?"
"Perfectly sure."
Miss Minerva was not quite satisfied. "Will you help me to feel as
certain about it as you do?" she asked. "Mrs. Gallilee generally looks
in for a few minutes, while the children are at dinner. Stay here, and
say something to her in my presence. I want to judge for myself."
The girls came in. Maria's perfect toilet, reflected Maria's perfect
character. She performed the duties of politeness with her usual happy
choice of words. "Dear Carmina, it is indeed a pleasure to see you again
in our schoolroom. We are naturally anxious about your health. This
lovely weather is no doubt in your favour; and papa thinks Mr. Null
a remarkably clever man." Zo stood by frowning, while these smooth
conventionalities trickled over her sister's lips. Carmina asked what
was the matter. Zo looked gloomily at the dog on the rug. "I wish I was
Tinker," she said. Maria smiled sweetly. "Dear Zoe, what a very strange
wish! What would you do, if you were Tinker?" The dog, hearing his name,
rose and shook himself. Zo pointed to him, with an appearance of the
deepest interest. "He hasn't got to brush his hair, before he goes
out for a walk; his nails don't took black when they're dirty. And, I
say!" (she whispered the next words in Carmina's ear) "he hasn't got a
governess."
The dinner made its appearance; and Mrs. Gallilee followed the dinner.
Maria said grace. Zo, always ravenous at meals, forgot to say Amen.
Carmina, standing behind her chair, prompted her. Zo said "Amen; oh,
bother!" the first word at the top of her voice, and the last two in a
whisper. Mrs. Gallilee looked at Carmina as she might have looked at
an obtrusive person who had stepped in from the street. "You had better
dress before luncheon," she suggested, "or you will keep the carriage
waiting." Hearing this, Zo laid down her knife and fork, and looked over
her shoulder. "Ask if I may go with you," she said. Carmina made the
request. "No," Mrs. Gallilee answered, "the children must walk. My maid
will accompany you." Carmina glanced at Miss Minerva on leaving the
room. The governess replied by a look. She too had seen the change in
Mrs. Gallilee's manner, and was at a loss to understand it.
Mrs. Gallilee's maid Marceline belonged to a quick-tempered race: she
was a Jersey woman. It is not easy to say which of the two felt most
oppressed by their enforced companionship in the carriage.
The maid was perhaps the most to be pitied. Secretly drawn towards
Carmina like the other servants in the house, she was forced by her
mistress's private instruction, to play the part of a spy. "If the young
lady changes the route which the coachman has my orders to take, or if
she communicates with any person while your are out, you are to
report it to me." Mrs. Gallilee had not forgotten the discovery of the
travelling bag; and Mr. Mool's exposition of the law had informed her,
that the superintendence of Carmina was as much a matter of serious
pecuniary interest as ever.
But recent events had, in one respect at least, improved the prospect.
If Ovid (as his mother actually ventured to hope!) broke off his
engagement, when he heard the scandalous story of Carmina's birth,
there was surely a chance that she, like other girls of her sensitive
temperament, might feel the calamity that had fallen on her so acutely
as to condemn herself to a single life. Misled, partly by the hope of
relief from her own vile anxieties; partly by the heartless incapability
of appreciating generous feeling in others, developed by the pursuits
of her later life, Mrs. Gallilee seriously contemplated her son's future
decision as a matter of reasonable doubt.
In the meanwhile, this detestable child of adultery--this living
obstacle in the way of the magnificent prospects which otherwise awaited
Maria and Zoe, to say nothing of their mother--must remain in the
house, submitted to her guardian's authority, watched by her guardian's
vigilance. The hateful creature was still entitled to medical attendance
when she was ill, and must still be supplied with every remedy that the
doctor's ingenuity could suggest. A liberal allowance was paid for the
care of her; and the trustees were bound to interfere if it was not
fairly earned.
Looking after the carriage as it drove away--Marceline on the front
seat presenting the picture of discomfort; and Carmina opposite to
her, unendurably pretty and interesting, with the last new poem on
her lap--Mrs. Gallilee's reflections took their own bitter course.
"Accidents happen to other carriages, with other girls in them. Not to
my carriage, with that girl in it! Nothing will frighten my horses
to-day; and, fat as he is, my coachman will not have a fit on the
box!"
It was only too true. At the appointed hour the carriage appeared
again--and (to complete the disappointment) Marceline had no report to
make.
Miss Minerva had not forgotten her promise. When she returned from
her walk with the children, the rooms had been taken. Teresa's London
lodging was within five minutes' walk of the house.
That evening, Carmina sent a telegram to Rome, on the chance that the
nurse might not yet have begun her journey. The message (deferring other
explanations until they met) merely informed her that her rooms were
ready, adding the address and the landlady's name. Guessing in the
dark, Carmina and the governess had ignorantly attributed the sinister
alteration in Mrs. Gallilee's manner to the prospect of Teresa's
unwelcome return. "While you have the means in your power," Miss Minerva
advised, "it may be as well to let your old friend know that there is a
home for her when she reaches London."
CHAPTER XXXVI.
The weather, to Carmina's infinite relief, changed for the worse the
next day. Incessant rain made it impossible to send her out in the
carriage again.
But it was an eventful day, nevertheless. On that rainy afternoon, Mr.
Gallilee asserted himself as a free agent, in the terrible presence of
his wife!
"It's an uncommonly dull day, my dear," he began. This passed without
notice, which was a great encouragement to go on. "If you will allows
me to say so, Carmina wants a little amusement." Mrs. Gallilee looked up
from her book. Fearing that he might stop altogether if he took his
time as usual, Mr. Gallilee proceeded in a hurry. "There's an afternoon
performance of conjuring tricks; and, do you know, I really think
I might take Carmina to see it. We shall be delighted if you will
accompany us, my dear; and they do say--perhaps you have heard of it
yourself?--that there's a good deal of science in this exhibition." His
eyes rolled in uneasy expectation, as he waited to hear what his wife
might decide. She waved her hand contemptuously in the direction of the
door. Mr. Gallilee retired with the alacrity of a young man. "Now we
shall enjoy ourselves!" he thought as he went up to Carmina's room.
They were just leaving the house, when the music-master arrived at the
door to give his lesson.
Mr. Gallilee immediately put his head out of the cab window. "We are
going to see the conjuring!" he shouted cheerfully. "Carmina! don't you
see Mr. Le Frank? He is bowing to you. Do you like conjuring, Mr.
Le Frank? Don't tell the children where we are going! They would be
disappointed, poor things--but they must have their lessons, mustn't
they? Good-bye! I say! stop a minute. If you ever want your umbrella
mended, I know a man who will do it cheap and well. Nasty day, isn't it?
Go on! go on!"
The general opinion which ranks vanity among the lighter failings of
humanity, commits a serious mistake. Vanity wants nothing but the
motive power to develop into absolute wickedness. Vanity can be savagely
suspicious and diabolically cruel. What are the two typical names which
stand revealed in history as the names of the two vainest men that ever
lived? Nero and Robespierre.
In his obscure sphere, and within his restricted means, the vanity of
Mrs. Gallilee's music-master had developed its inherent qualities, under
her cunning and guarded instigation. Once set in action, his suspicion
of Carmina passed beyond all limits. There could be no reason but a bad
reason for that barefaced attempt to entrap him into a reconciliation.
Every evil motive which it was possible to attribute to a girl of her
age, no matter how monstrously improbable it might be, occurred to him
when he recalled her words, her look, and her manner at their meeting
on the stairs. His paltry little mind, at other times preoccupied in
contemplating himself and his abilities, was now so completely absorbed
in imagining every variety of conspiracy against his social and
professional position, that he was not even capable of giving his
customary lesson to two children. Before the appointed hour had expired,
Miss Minerva remarked that his mind did not appear to be at ease, and
suggested that he had better renew the lesson on the next day. After a
futile attempt to assume an appearance of tranquillity--he thanked her
and took his leave.
On his way downstairs, he found the door of Carmina's room left half
open.
She was absent with Mr. Gallilee. Miss Minerva remained upstairs with
the children. Mrs. Gallilee was engaged in scientific research. At that
hour of the afternoon, there were no duties which called the servants to
the upper part of the house. He listened--he hesitated--he went into the
room.
It was possible that she might keep a journal: it was certain that she
wrote and received letters. If he could only find her desk unlocked and
her drawers open, the inmost secrets of her life would be at his mercy.
He tried her desk; he tried the cupboard under the bookcase. They were
both locked. The cabinet between the windows and the drawer of the table
were left unguarded. No discovery rewarded the careful search that he
pursued in these two repositories. He opened the books that she had left
on the table, and shook them. No forgotten letter, no private memorandum
(used as marks) dropped out. He looked all round him; he peeped into the
bedroom; he listened, to make sure that nobody was outside; he entered
the bedroom, and examined the toilet-table, and opened the doors of the
wardrobe--and still the search was fruitless, persevere as he might.
Returning to the sitting-room, he shook his fist at the writing-desk.
"You wouldn't be locked," he thought, "unless you had some shameful
secrets to keep! I shall have other opportunities; and she may not
always remember to turn the key." He stole quietly down the stairs, and
met no one on his way out.
The bad weather continued on the next day. The object of Mr. Le Frank's
suspicion remained in the house--and the second opportunity failed to
offer itself as yet.
The visit to the exhibition of conjuring had done Carmina harm instead
of good. Her head ached, in the close atmosphere--she was too fatigued
to be able to stay in the room until the performance came to an end.
Poor Mr. Gallilee retired in disgrace to the shelter of his club. At
dinner, even his perfect temper failed him for the moment. He found
fault with the champagne--and then apologised to the waiter. "I'm sorry
I was a little hard on you just now. The fact is, I'm out of sorts--you
have felt in that way yourself, haven't you? The wine's first-rate; and,
really the weather is so discouraging, I think I'll try another pint."
But Carmina's buoyant heart defied the languor of illness and the
gloomy day. The post had brought her a letter from Ovid--enclosing a
photograph, taken at Montreal, which presented him in his travelling
costume.
He wrote in a tone of cheerfulness, which revived Carmina's sinking
courage, and renewed for a time at least the happiness of other
days. The air of the plains of Canada he declared to be literally
intoxicating. Every hour seemed to be giving him back the vital energy
that he had lost in his London life. He slept on the ground, in the
open air, more soundly than he had ever slept in a bed. But one anxiety
troubled his mind. In the roving life which he now enjoyed, it was
impossible that his letters could follow him--and yet, every day that
passed made him more unreasonably eager to hear that Carmina was not
weary of waiting for him, and that all was well at home.
"And how have these vain aspirations of mine ended?"--the letter went
on. "They have ended, my darling, in a journey for one of my guides--an
Indian, whose fidelity I have put to the proof, and whose zeal I have
stimulated by a promise of reward.
"The Indian takes these lines to be posted at Quebec. He is also
provided with an order, authorising my bankers to trust him with the
letters that are waiting for me. I begin a canoe voyage to-morrow; and,
after due consultation with the crew, we have arranged a date and a
place at which my messenger will find me on his return. Shall I confess
my own amiable weakness? or do you know me well enough already to
suspect the truth? My love, I am sorely tempted to be false to my plans
and arrangements to go back with the Indian to Quebec--and to take a
berth in the first steamer that returns to England.
"Don't suppose that I am troubled by any misgivings about what is going
on in my absence! It is one of the good signs of my returning health
that I take the brightest view of our present lives, and of our lives
to come. I feel tempted to go back, for the same reason that makes me
anxious for letters. I want to hear from you, because I love you--I want
to return at once, because I love you. There is longing, unutterable
longing, in my heart. No doubts, my sweet one, and no fears!
"But I was a doctor, before I became a lover. My medical knowledge tells
me that this is an opportunity of thoroughly fortifying my constitution,
and (with God's blessing) of securing to myself reserves of health and
strength which will take us together happily on the way to old age. Dear
love, you must be my wife--not my nurse! There is the thought that gives
me self-denial enough to let the Indian go away by himself."
Carmina answered this letter as soon as she had read it.
Before the mail could carry her reply to its destination, she well knew
that the Indian messenger would be on the way back to his master. But
Ovid had made her so happy that she felt the impulse to write to him at
once, as she might have felt the impulse to answer him at once if he had
been present and speaking to her. When the pages were filled, and the
letter had been closed and addressed, the effort produced its depressing
effect on her spirits.
There now appeared to her a certain wisdom in the loving rapidity of her
reply.
Even in the fullness of her joy, she was conscious of an underlying
distrust of herself. Although he refused to admit it, Mr. Null had
betrayed a want of faith in the remedy from which he had anticipated
such speedy results, by writing another prescription. He had also added
a glass to the daily allowance of wine, which he had thought sufficient
thus far. Without despairing of herself, Carmina felt that she had done
wisely in writing her answer, while she was still well enough to rival
the cheerful tone of Ovid's letter.
She laid down to rest on the sofa, with the photograph in her hand. No
sense of loneliness oppressed her now; the portrait was the best of
all companions. Outside, the heavy rain pattered; in the room, the busy
clock ticked. She listened lazily, and looked at her lover, and kissed
the faithful image of him--peacefully happy.
The opening of the door was the first little event that disturbed
her. Zo peeped in. Her face was red, her hair was tousled, her fingers
presented inky signs of a recent writing lesson.
"I'm in a rage," she announced; "and so is the Other One."
Carmina called her to the sofa, and tried to find out who this second
angry person might be. "Oh, you know!" Zo answered doggedly. "She rapped
my knuckles. I call her a Beast."
"Hush! you mustn't talk in that way."
"She'll be here directly," Zo proceeded. "You look out! She'd rap your
knuckles--only you're too big. If it wasn't raining, I'd run away."
Carmina assumed an air of severity, and entered a serious protest
adapted to her young friend's intelligence. She might as well have
spoken in a foreign language. Zo had another reason to give, besides the
rap on the knuckles, for running away.
"I say!" she resumed--"you know the boy?"
"What boy, dear?"
"He comes round sometimes. He's got a hurdy-gurdy. He's got a monkey. He
grins. He says, Aha--gimmee--haypenny. I mean to go to that boy!"
As a confession of Zo's first love, this was irresistible. Carmina burst
out laughing. Zo indignantly claimed a hearing. "I haven't done yet!"
she burst out. "The boy dances. Like this." She cocked her head, and
slapped her thigh, and imitated the boy. "And sometimes he sings!" she
cried with another outburst of admiration.
"Yah-yah-yah-bellah-vitah-yah! That's Italian, Carmina." The door
opened again while the performer was in full vigour--and Miss Minerva
appeared.
When she entered the room, Carmina at once saw that Zo had correctly
observed her governess. Miss Minerva's heavy eyebrows lowered; her lips
were pale; her head was held angrily erect, "Carmina!" she said sharply,
"you shouldn't encourage that child." She turned round, in search of the
truant pupil. Incurably stupid at her lessons, Zo's mind had its gleams
of intelligence, in a state of liberty. One of those gleams had shone
propitiously, and had lighted her out of the room.
Miss Minerva took a chair: she dropped into it like a person worn out
with fatigue. Carmina spoke to her gently. Words of sympathy were thrown
away on that self-tormenting nature.
"No; I'm not ill," she said. "A night without sleep; a perverse child to
teach in the morning; and a detestable temper at all times--that's
what is the matter with me." She looked at Carmina. "You seem to be
wonderfully better to-day. Has stupid Mr. Null really done you some good
at last?" She noticed the open writing-desk, and discovered the letter.
"Or is it good news?"
"I have heard from Ovid," Carmina answered. The photograph was still in
her hand; but her inbred delicacy of feeling kept the portrait hidden.
The governess's sallow complexion turned little by little to a dull
greyish white. Her hands, loosely clasped in her lap, tightened when she
heard Ovid's name. That slight movement over, she stirred no more. After
waiting a little, Carmina ventured to speak. "Frances," she said, "you
have not shaken hands with me yet." Miss Minerva slowly looked up,
keeping her hands still clasped on her lap.
"When is he coming back?" she asked. It was said quietly.
Carmina quietly replied, "Not yet--I am sorry to say."
"I am sorry too."
"It's good of you, Frances, to say that."
"No: it's not good of me. I'm thinking of myself--not of you." She
suddenly lowered her tone. "I wish you were married to him," she said.
There was a pause. Miss Minerva was the first to speak again.
"Do you understand me?" she asked.
"Perhaps you will help me to understand," Carmina answered.
"If you were married to him, even my restless spirit might be at peace.
The struggle would be over."
She left her chair, and walked restlessly up and down the room. The
passionate emotion which she had resolutely suppressed began to get
beyond her control.
"I was thinking about you last night," she abruptly resumed. "You are a
gentle little creature--but I have seen you show some spirit, when your
aunt's cold-blooded insolence roused you. Do you know what I would do,
if I were in your place? I wouldn't wait tamely till he came back to
me--I would go to him. Carmina! Carmina! leave this horrible house!" She
stopped, close by the sofa. "Let me look at you. Ha! I believe you have
thought of it yourself?"
"I have thought of it."
"What did I say? You poor little prisoner, you have the right spirit
in you! I wish I could give you some of my strength." The half-mocking
tone in which she spoke, suddenly failed her. Her piercing eyes grew
dim; the hard lines in her face softened. She dropped on her knees, and
wound her lithe arms round Carmina, and kissed her. "You sweet child!"
she said--and burst passionately into tears.
Even then, the woman's fiercely self-dependent nature asserted itself.
She pushed Carmina back on the sofa. "Don't look at me! don't speak to
me!" she gasped. "Leave me to get over it."
She stifled the sobs that broke from her. Still on her knees, she looked
up, shuddering. A ghastly smile distorted her lips. "Ah, what fools we
are!" she said. "Where is that lavender water, my dear--your favourite
remedy for a burning head?" She found the bottle before Carmina could
help her, and soaked her handkerchief in the lavender water, and tied it
round her head. "Yes," she went on, as if they had been gossiping on the
most commonplace subjects, "I think you're right: this is the best of
all perfumes." She looked at the clock. "The children's dinner will be
ready in ten minutes. I must, and will, say what I have to say to
you. It may be the last poor return I can make, Carmina, for all your
kindness."
She returned to her chair.
"I can't help it if I frighten you," she resumed; "I must tell you
plainly that I don't like the prospect. In the first place, the sooner
we two are parted--oh, only for a while!--the better for you. After
what I went through, last night--no, I am not going to enter into any
particulars; I am only going to repeat, what I have said already--don't
trust me. I mean it, Carmina! Your generous nature shall not mislead
you, if I can help it. When you are a happy married woman--when he
is farther removed from me than he is even now--remember your ugly,
ill-tempered friend, and let me come to you. Enough of this! I have
other misgivings that are waiting to be confessed. You know that old
nurse of yours intimately--while I only speak from a day or two's
experience of her. To my judgment, she is a woman whose fondness for you
might be turned into a tigerish fondness, on very small provocation. You
write to her constantly. Does she know what you have suffered? Have you
told her the truth?"
"Yes."
"Without reserve?"
"Entirely without reserve."
"When that old woman comes to London, Carmina--and sees you, and sees
Mrs. Gallilee--don't you think the consequences may be serious? and your
position between them something (if you were ten times stronger than you
are) that no fortitude can endure?"
Carmina started up on the sofa. She was not able to speak. Miss Minerva
gave her time to recover herself--after another look at the clock.
"I am not alarming you for nothing," she proceeded; "I have something
hopeful to propose. Your friend Teresa has energies--wild energies. Make
a good use of them. She will do anything you ask or her. Take her with
you to Canada!"
"Oh, Frances!"
Miss Minerva pointed to the letter on the desk. "Does he tell you when
he will be back?"
"No. He feels the importance of completely restoring his health--he is
going farther and farther away--he has sent to Quebec for his letters."
"Then there is no fear of your crossing each other on the voyage. Go to
Quebec, and wait for him there."
"I should frighten him."
"Not you!"
"What can I say to him?"
"What you must say, if you are weak enough to wait for him here. Do
you think his mother will consider his feelings, when he comes back to
marry you? I tell you again I am not talking at random. I have thought
it all out: I know how you can make your escape, and defy pursuit. You
have plenty of money; you have Teresa to take care of you. Go! For your
own sake, for his sake, go!"
The clock struck the hour. She rose and removed the handkerchief from
her head. "Hush!" she said, "Do I hear the rustling of a dress on the
landing below?" She snatched up a bottle of Mr. Null's medicine--as
a reason for being in the room. The sound of the rustling dress came
nearer and nearer. Mrs. Gallilee (on her way to the schoolroom dinner)
opened the door. She instantly understood the purpose which the bottle
was intended to answer.
"It is my business to give Carmina her medicine," she said. "Your
business is at the schoolroom table."
She took possession of the bottle, and advanced to Carmina. There were
two looking-glasses in the room. One, in the usual position, over the
fireplace; the other opposite, on the wall behind the sofa. Turning
back, before she left the room, Miss Minerva saw Mrs. Gallilee's face,
when she and Carmina looked at each other, reflected in the glass.
The girls were waiting for their dinner. Maria received the unpunctual
governess with her ready smile, and her appropriate speech. "Dear Miss
Minerva, we were really almost getting alarmed about you. Pardon me
for noticing it, you look--" She caught the eye of the governess, and
stopped confusedly.
"Well?" said Miss Minerva. "How do I look?"
Maria still hesitated. Zo spoke out as usual. "You look as if somebody
had frightened you."
CHAPTER XXXVII.
After two days of rain, the weather cleared again.
It was a calm, sunshiny Sunday morning. The flat country round
Benjulia's house wore its brightest aspect on that clear autumn day.
Even the doctor's gloomy domestic establishment reflected in some degree
the change for the better. When he rose that morning, Benjulia
presented himself to his household in a character which they were
little accustomed to see--the character of a good-humoured master. He
astonished his silent servant by attempting to whistle a tune. "If you
ever looked cheerful in your life," he said to the man, "look cheerful
now. I'm going to take a holiday!"
After working incessantly--never leaving his laboratory; eating at his
dreadful table; snatching an hour's rest occasionally on the floor--he
had completed a series of experiments, with results on which he could
absolutely rely. He had advanced by one step nearer towards solving
that occult problem in brain disease, which had thus far baffled the
investigations of medical men throughout the civilised world. If his
present rate of progress continued, the lapse of another month might
add his name to the names that remain immortal among physicians, in the
Annals of Discovery.
So completely had his labours absorbed his mind that he only remembered
the letters which Mrs. Gallilee had left with him, when he finished
his breakfast on Sunday morning. Upon examination, there appeared no
allusion in Ovid's correspondence to the mysterious case of illness
which he had attended at Montreal. The one method now left, by which
Benjulia could relieve the doubt that still troubled him, was to
communicate directly with his friend in Canada. He decided to celebrate
his holiday by taking a walk; his destination being the central
telegraph office in London.
But, before he left the house, his domestic duties claimed attention. He
issued his orders to the cook.
At three o'clock he would return to dinner. That day was to witness the
celebration of his first regular meat for forty-eight hours past; and
he expected the strictest punctuality. The cook--lately engaged--was a
vigourous little woman, with fiery hair and a high colour. She, like the
man-servant, felt the genial influence of her master's amiability. He
looked at her, for the first time since she had entered the house. A
twinkling light showed itself furtively in his dreary gray eyes: he took
a dusty old hand-screen from the sideboard, and made her a present of
it! "There," he said with his dry humour, "don't spoil your complexion
before the kitchen fire." The cook possessed a sanguine temperament, and
a taste to be honoured and encouraged--the taste for reading novels. She
put her own romantic construction on the extraordinary compliment which
the doctor's jesting humour had paid to her. As he walked out, grimly
smiling and thumping his big stick on the floor, a new idea illuminated
her mind. Her master admired her; her master was no ordinary man--it
might end in his marrying her.
On his way to the telegraph office, Benjulia left Ovid's letters at Mrs.
Gallilee's house.
If he had personally returned them, he would have found the learned
lady in no very gracious humour. On the previous day she had discovered
Carmina and Miss Minerva engaged in a private conference--without having
been able even to guess what the subject under discussion between them
might be. They were again together that morning. Maria and Zo had
gone to church with their father; Miss Minerva was kept at home by a
headache. At that hour, and under those circumstances, there was no
plausible pretence which would justify Mrs. Gallilee's interference.
She seriously contemplated the sacrifice of a month's salary, and the
dismissal of her governess without notice.
When the footman opened the door, Benjulia handed in the packet of
letters. After his latest experience of Mrs. Gallilee, he had no
intention of returning her visit. He walked away without uttering a
word.
The cable took his message to Mr. Morphew in these terms:--"Ovid's
patient at Montreal. Was the complaint brain disease? Yes or no." Having
made arrangements for the forwarding of the reply from his club, he set
forth on the walk back to his house.
At five minutes to three, he was at home again. As the clock struck the
hour, he rang the bell. The man-servant appeared, without the dinner.
Benjulia's astonishing amiability--on his holiday--was even equal to
this demand on its resources.
"I ordered roast mutton at three," he said, with terrifying
tranquillity. "Where is it?"
"The dinner will be ready in ten minutes, sir."
"Why is it not ready now?"
"The cook hopes you will excuse her, sir. She is a little behindhand
to-day."
"What has hindered her, if you please?"
The silent servant--on all other occasions the most impenetrable of
human beings--began to tremble. The doctor had, literally, kicked a man
out of the house who had tried to look through the laboratory skylight.
He had turned away a female servant at half an hour's notice, for
forgetting to shut the door, a second time in one day. But what were
these highhanded proceedings, compared with the awful composure which,
being kept waiting for dinner, only asked what had hindered the cook,
and put the question politely, by saying, "if you please"?
"Perhaps you were making love to her?" the doctor suggested, as gently
as ever.
This outrageous insinuation stung the silent servant into speech. "I'm
incapable of the action, sir!" he answered indignantly; "the woman was
reading a story."
Benjulia bent his head, as if in acknowledgment of a highly satisfactory
explanation. "Oh? reading a story? People who read stories are said to
have excitable brains. Should you call the cook excitable?"
"I should, sir! Most cooks are excitable. They say it's the kitchen
fire."
"Do they? You can go now. Don't hurry the cook--I'll wait."
He waited, apparently following some new train of thought which highly
diverted him. Ten minutes passed--then a quarter of an hour then another
five minutes. When the servant returned with the dinner, the master's
private reflections continued to amuse him: his thin lips were still
widening grimly, distended by his formidable smile.
On being carved, the mutton proved to be underdone. At other times, this
was an unpardonable crime in Benjulia's domestic code of laws. All
he said now was, "Take it away." He dined on potatoes, and bread and
cheese. When he had done, he was rather more amiable than ever. He said,
"Ask the cook to come and see me!"
The cook presented herself, with one hand on her palpitating heart, and
the other holding her handkerchief to her eyes.
"What are you crying about?" Benjulia inquired; "I haven't scolded you,
have I?" The cook began an apology; the doctor pointed to a chair. "Sit
down, and recover yourself." The cook sat down, faintly smiling through
her tears. This otherwise incomprehensible reception of a person who had
kept the dinner waiting twenty minutes, and who had not done the mutton
properly even then (taken in connection with the master's complimentary
inquiries, reported downstairs by the footman), could bear but one
interpretation. It wasn't every woman who had her beautiful hair, and
her rosy complexion. Why had she not thought of going upstairs first,
just to see whether she looked her best in the glass? Would he begin by
making a confession? or would he begin by kissing her?
He began by lighting his pipe. For a while he smoked placidly with his
eye on the cook. "I hear you have been reading a story," he resumed.
"What is the name of it?"
"'Pamela; or Virtue Rewarded,' sir."
Benjulia went on with his smoking. The cook, thus far demure and
downcast, lifted her eyes experimentally. He was still looking at her.
Did he want encouragement? The cook cautiously offered a little literary
information,
"The author's name is on the book, sir. Name of Richardson."
The information was graciously received, "Yes; I've heard of the name,
and heard of the book. Is it interesting?"
"Oh, sir, it's a beautiful story! My only excuse for being late with the
dinner--"
"Who's Pamela?"
"A young person in service, sir. I'm sure I wish I was more like her! I
felt quite broken-hearted when you sent the mutton down again; and you
so kind as to overlook the error in the roasting--"
Benjulia stopped the apology once more. He pursued his own ends with a
penitent cook, just as he pursued his own ends with a vivisected animal.
Nothing moved him out of his appointed course, in the one or in the
other. He returned to Pamela.
"And what becomes of her at the end of the story?" he asked.
The cook simpered. "It's Pamela who is the virtuous young person, sir.
And so the story comes true--Pamela, or Virtue Rewarded."
"Who rewards her?"
Was there ever anything so lucky as this? Pamela's situation was fast
becoming the cook's situation. The bosom of the vigourous little woman
began to show signs of tender agitation--distributed over a large
surface. She rolled her eyes amorously. Benjulia puffed out another
mouthful of smoke. "Well," he repeated, "who rewards Pamela?"
"Her master, sir."
"What does he do?"
The cook's eyes sank modestly to her lap. The cook's complexion became
brighter than ever.
"Her master marries her, sir."
"Oh?"
That was all he said. He was not astonished, or confused, or
encouraged--he simply intimated that he now knew how Pamela's master had
rewarded Pamela. And, more dispiriting still, he took the opportunity of
knocking the ashes out of his pipe, and filled it, and lit it again.
If the cook had been one of the few miserable wretches who never read
novels, she might have felt her fondly founded hopes already sinking
from under her. As it was, Richardson sustained her faith in herself;
Richardson reminded her that Pamela's master had hesitated, and that
Pamela's Virtue had not earned its reward on easy terms. She stole
another look at the doctor. The eloquence of women's eyes, so widely
and justly celebrated in poetry and prose, now spoke in the cook's
eyes. They said, "Marry me, dear sir, and you shall never have underdone
mutton again." The hearts of other savages have been known to soften
under sufficient influences--why should the scientific savage, under
similar pressure, not melt a little too? The doctor took up the talk
again: he made a kind allusion to the cook's family circumstances.
"When you first came here, I think you told me you had no relations?"
"I am an orphan, sir."
"And you had been some time out of a situation, when I engaged you?"
"Yes, sir; my poor little savings were nearly at an end!" Could he
resist that pathetic picture of the orphan's little savings--framed, as
it were, in a delicately-designed reference to her fellow-servant in the
story? "I was as poor as Pamela," she suggested softly.
"And as virtuous," Benjulia added.
The cook's eloquent eyes said, "Thank you, sir."
He laid down his pipe. That was a good sign, surely? He drew his chair
nearer to her. Better and better! His arm was long enough, in the new
position, to reach her waist. Her waist was ready for him.
"You have nothing in particular to do, this afternoon; and I have
nothing particular to do." He delivered himself of this assertion rather
abruptly. At the same time, it was one of those promising statements
which pave the way for anything. He might say, "Having nothing
particular to do to-day--why shouldn't we make love?" Or he might say,
"Having nothing particular to do to-morrow--why shouldn't we get the
marriage license?" Would he put it in that way? No: he made a proposal
of quite another kind. He said, "You seem to be fond of stories. Suppose
I tell you a story?"
Perhaps, there was some hidden meaning in this. There was unquestionably
a sudden alteration in his look and manner; the cook asked herself what
it meant.
If she had seen the doctor at his secret work in the laboratory, the
change in him might have put her on her guard. He was now looking
(experimentally) at the inferior creature seated before him in the
chair, as he looked (experimentally) at the other inferior creatures
stretched under him on the table.
His story began in the innocent, old-fashioned way.
"Once upon a time, there was a master and there was a maid. We will call
the master by the first letter of the alphabet--Mr. A. And we will call
the maid by the second letter--Miss B."
The cook drew a long breath of relief. There was a hidden meaning in
the doctor's story. The unfortunate woman thought to herself, "I have
not only got fine hair and a beautiful complexion; I am clever as well!"
On her rare evenings of liberty, she sometimes gratified another highly
creditable taste, besides the taste for reading novels. She was an eager
play-goer. That notable figure in the drama--the man who tells his own
story, under pretence of telling the story of another person--was no
unfamiliar figure in her stage experience. Her encouraging smile made
its modest appearance once more. In the very beginning of her master's
story, she saw already the happy end.
"We all of us have our troubles in life," Benjulia went on; "and Miss B.
had her troubles. For a long time, she was out of a situation; and
she had no kind parents to help her. Miss B. was an orphan. Her little
savings were almost gone."
It was too distressing. The cook took out her handkerchief, and pitied
Miss B. with all her heart.
The doctor proceeded.
"But virtue, as we know when we read 'Pamela,' is sure of its reward.
Circumstances occurred in the household of Mr. A. which made it
necessary for him to engage a cook. He discovered an advertisement in a
newspaper, which informed him that Miss B. was in search of a situation.
Mr. A. found her to be a young and charming woman. Mr. A. engaged her."
At that critical part of the story, Benjulia paused. "And what did Mr.
A. do next?" he asked.
The cook could restrain herself no longer. She jumped out of her chair,
and threw her arms round the doctor's neck.
Benjulia went on with his story as if nothing had happened.
"And what did Mr. A. do next?" he repeated. "He put his hand in his
pocket--he gave Miss B. a month's wages--and he turned her out of the
house. You impudent hussy, you have delayed my dinner, spoilt my mutton,
and hugged me round the neck! There is your money. Go."
With glaring eyes and gaping mouth, the cook stood looking at him, like
a woman struck to stone. In a moment more, the rage burst out of her
in a furious scream. She turned to the table, and snatched up a knife.
Benjulia wrenched it from her hand, and dropped back into his chair
completely overpowered by the success of his little joke. He did what
he had never done within the memory of his oldest friend--he burst
out laughing. "This has been a holiday!" he said. "Why haven't I got
somebody with me to enjoy it?"
At that laugh, at those words, the cook's fury in its fiercest heat
became frozen by terror. There was something superhuman in the doctor's
diabolical joy. Even he felt the wild horror in the woman's eyes as
they rested on him.
"What's the matter with you?" he asked. She muttered and mumbled--and,
shrinking away from him, crept towards the door. As she approached the
window, a man outside passed by it on his way to the house. She pointed
to him; and repeated Benjulia's own words:
"Somebody to enjoy it with you," she said.
She opened the dining-room door. The man-servant appeared in the hall,
with a gentleman behind him.
The gentleman was a scrupulously polite person. He looked with alarm at
the ghastly face of the cook as she ran past him, making for the kitchen
stairs. "I'm afraid I intrude on you at an unfortunate time," he said to
Benjulia. "Pray excuse me; I will call again."
"Come in, sir." The doctor spoke absently, looking towards the hall, and
thinking of something else.
The gentleman entered the room.
"My name is Mool," he said. "I have had the honour of meeting you at one
of Mrs. Gallilee's parties."
"Very likely. I don't remember it myself. Take a seat."
He was still thinking of something else. Modest Mr. Mool took a seat in
confusion. The doctor crossed the room, and opened the door.
"Excuse me for a minute," he said. "I will be back directly."
He went to the top of the kitchen stairs, and called to the housemaid.
"Is the cook down there?"
"Yes, sir."
"What is she doing?"
"Crying her heart out."
Benjulia turned away again with the air of a disappointed man. A violent
moral shock sometimes has a serious effect on the brain--especially when
it is the brain of an excitable woman. Always a physiologist, even
in those rare moments when he was amusing himself, it had just struck
Benjulia that the cook--after her outbreak of fury--might be a case
worth studying. But, she had got relief in crying; her brain was safe;
she had ceased to interest him. He returned to the dining-room.
CHAPTER XXXVIII.
"You look hot, sir; have a drink. Old English ale, out of the barrel."
The tone was hearty. He poured out the sparkling ale into a big tumbler,
with hospitable good-will. Mr. Mool was completely, and most agreeably,
taken by surprise. He too was feeling the influence of the doctor's good
humour--enriched in quality by pleasant remembrances of his interview
with the cook.
"I live in the suburbs, Doctor Benjulia, on this side of London," Mr.
Mool explained; "and I have had a nice walk from my house to yours. If I
have done wrong, sir, in visiting you on Sunday, I can only plead that I
am engaged in business during the week--"
"All right. One day's the same as another, provided you don't interrupt
me. You don't interrupt me now. Do you smoke?"
"No, thank you."
"Do you mind my smoking?"
"I like it, doctor."
"Very amiable on your part, I'm sure. What did you say your name was?"
"Mool."
Benjulia looked at him suspiciously. Was he a physiologist, and a rival?
"You're not a doctor--are you?" he said.
"I am a lawyer."
One of the few popular prejudices which Benjulia shared with his
inferior fellow-creatures was the prejudice against lawyers. But for his
angry recollection of the provocation successfully offered to him by his
despicable brother, Mrs. Gallilee would never have found her way into
his confidence. But for his hearty enjoyment of the mystification of
the cook, Mr. Mool would have been requested to state the object of
his visit in writing, and would have gone home again a baffled man. The
doctor's holiday amiability had reached its full development indeed,
when he allowed a strange lawyer to sit and talk with him!
"Gentlemen of your profession," he muttered, "never pay visits to people
whom they don't know, without having their own interests in view. Mr.
Mool, you want something of me. What is it?"
Mr. Mool's professional tact warned him to waste no time on prefatory
phrases.
"I venture on my present intrusion," he began, "in consequence of a
statement recently made to me, in my office, by Mrs. Gallilee."
"Stop!" cried Benjulia. "I don't like your beginning, I can tell you.
Is it necessary to mention the name of that old--?" He used a word,
described in dictionaries as having a twofold meaning. (First, "A female
of the canine kind." Second, "A term of reproach for a woman.") It
shocked Mr. Mool; and it is therefore unfit to be reported.
"Really, Doctor Benjulia!"
"Does that mean that you positively must talk about her?"
Mr. Mool smiled. "Let us say that it may bear that meaning," he
answered.
"Go on, then--and get it over. She made a statement in your office. Out
with it, my good fellow. Has it anything to do with me?"
"I should not otherwise, Doctor Benjulia, have ventured to present
myself at your house." With that necessary explanation, Mr. Mool related
all that had passed between Mrs. Gallilee and himself.
At the outset of the narrative, Benjulia angrily laid aside his pipe, on
the point of interrupting the lawyer. He changed his mind; and, putting
a strong constraint on himself, listened in silence. "I hope, sir," Mr.
Mool concluded, "you will not take a hard view of my motive. It is only
the truth to say that I am interested in Miss Carmina's welfare. I felt
the sincerest respect and affection for her parents. You knew them too.
They were good people. On reflection you must surely regret it, if you
have carelessly repeated a false report? Won't you help me to clear the
poor mother's memory of this horrid stain?"
Benjulia smoked in silence. Had that simple and touching appeal found
its way to him? He began very strangely, when he consented at last to
open his lips.
"You're what they call, a middle-aged man," he said. "I suppose you have
had some experience of women?"
Mr. Mool blushed. "I am a married man, sir," he replied gravely.
"Very well; that's experience--of one kind. When a man's out of temper,
and a woman wants something of him, do you know how cleverly she can
take advantage of her privileges to aggravate him, till there's nothing
he won't do to get her to leave him in peace? That's how I came to tell
Mrs. Gallilee, what she told you."
He waited a little, and comforted himself with his pipe.
"Mind this," he resumed, "I don't profess to feel any interest in the
girl; and I never cared two straws about her parents. At the same time,
if you can turn to good account what I am going to say next--do it, and
welcome. This scandal began in the bragging of a fellow-student of mine
at Rome. He was angry with me, and angry with another man, for laughing
at him when he declared himself to be Mrs. Robert Graywell's lover: and
he laid us a wager that we should see the woman alone in his room, that
night. We were hidden behind a curtain, and we did see her in his room.
I paid the money I had lost, and left Rome soon afterwards. The other
man refused to pay."
"On what ground?" Mr. Mool eagerly asked.
"On the ground that she wore a thick veil, and never showed her face."
"An unanswerable objection, Doctor Benjulia!"
"Perhaps it might be. I didn't think so myself. Two hours before, Mrs.
Robert Graywell and I had met in the street. She had on a dress of a
remarkable colour in those days--a sort of sea-green. And a bonnet to
match, which everybody stared at, because it was not half the size of
the big bonnets then in fashion. There was no mistaking the strange
dress or the tall figure, when I saw her again in the student's room. So
I paid the bet."
"Do you remember the name of the man who refused to pay?"
"His name was Egisto Baccani."
"Have you heard anything of him since?"
"Yes. He got into some political scrape, and took refuge, like the
rest of them, in England; and got his living, like the rest of them, by
teaching languages. He sent me his prospectus--that's how I came to know
about it."
"Have you got the prospectus?"
"Torn up, long ago."
Mr. Mool wrote down the name in his pocket-book. "There is nothing more
you can tell me?" he said.
"Nothing."
"Accept my best thanks, doctor. Good-day!"
"If you find Baccani let me know. Another drop of ale? Are you likely to
see Mrs. Gallilee soon?"
"Yes--if I find Baccani."
"Do you ever play with children?"
"I have five of my own to play with," Mr. Mool answered.
"Very well. Ask for the youngest child when you go to Mrs. Gallilee's.
We call her Zo. Put your finger on her spine--here, just below the
neck. Press on the place--so. And, when she wriggles, say, With the big
doctor's love."
Getting back to his own house, Mr. Mool was surprised to find an open
carriage at the garden gate. A smartly-dressed woman, on the front seat,
surveyed him with an uneasy look. "If you please, sir," she said, "would
you kindly tell Miss Carmina that we really mustn't wait any longer?"
The woman's uneasiness was reflected in Mr. Mool's face. A visit from
Carmina, at his private residence, could have no ordinary motive. The
fear instantly occurred to him that Mrs. Gallilee might have spoken to
her of her mother.
Before he opened the drawing-room door, this alarm passed away. He heard
Carmina talking with his wife and daughters.
"May I say one little word to you, Mr. Mool?"
He took her into his study. She was shy and confused, but certainly
neither angry nor distressed.
"My aunt sends me out every day, when it's fine, for a drive," she said.
"As the carriage passed close by, I thought I might ask you a question."
"Certainly, my dear! As many questions as you please."
"It's about the law. My aunt says she has the authority over me now,
which my dear father had while he was living. Is that true?"
"Quite true."
"For how long is she my guardian?"
"Until you are twenty-one years old."
The faint colour faded from Carmina's face. "More than three years
perhaps to suffer!" she said sadly.
"To suffer? What do you mean, my dear?"
She turned paler still, and made no reply. "I want to ask one thing
more?" she resumed, in sinking tones. "Would my aunt still be my
guardian--supposing I was married?"
Mr. Mool answered this, with his eyes fixed on her in grave scrutiny.
"In that case, your husband is the only person who has any authority
over you. These are rather strange questions, Carmina. Won't you take me
into your confidence?"
In sudden agitation she seized his hand and kissed it. "I must go!" she
said. "I have kept the carriage waiting too long already."
She ran out, without once looking back.
CHAPTER XXXIX.
Mrs. Gallilee's maid looked at her watch, when the carriage left Mr.
Mool's house. "We shall be nearly an hour late, before we get home," she
said.
"It's my fault, Marceline. Tell your mistress the truth, if she
questions you. I shall not think the worse of you for obeying your
orders."
"I'd rather lose my place, Miss, than get you into trouble."
The woman spoke truly, Carmina's sweet temper had made her position not
only endurable, but delightful: she had been treated like a companion
and a friend. But for that circumstance--so keenly had Marceline felt
the degradation of being employed as a spy--she would undoubtedly have
quitted Mrs. Gallilee's service.
On the way home, instead of talking pleasantly as usual, Carmina was
silent and sad. Had this change in her spirits been caused by the visit
to Mr. Mool? It was even so. The lawyer had innocently decided her on
taking the desperate course which Miss Minerva had proposed.
If Mrs. Gallilee's assertion of her absolute right of authority,
as guardian, had been declared by Mr. Mool to be incorrect, Carmina
(hopefully forgetful of her aunt's temper) had thought of a compromise.
She would have consented to remain at Mrs. Gallilee's disposal until
Ovid returned, on condition of being allowed, when Teresa arrived in
London, to live in retirement with her old nurse. This change of abode
would prevent any collision between Mrs. Gallilee and Teresa, and would
make Carmina's life as peaceful, and even as happy, as she could wish.
But now that the lawyer had confirmed her aunt's statement of the
position in which they stood towards one another, instant flight to
Ovid's love and protection seemed to be the one choice left--unless
Carmina could resign herself to a life of merciless persecution and
perpetual suspense.
The arrangements for the flight were already complete.
That momentary view of Mrs. Gallilee's face, reflected in the glass, had
confirmed Miss Minerva's resolution to interfere. Closeted with Carmina
on the Sunday morning, she had proposed a scheme of escape, which would
even set Mrs. Gallilee's vigilance and cunning at defiance. No pecuniary
obstacle stood in the way. The first quarterly payment of Carmina's
allowance of five hundred a year had been already made, by Mool's
advice. Enough was left--even without the assistance which the nurse's
resources would render--to purchase the necessary outfit, and to take
the two women to Quebec. On the day after Teresa's arrival (at an hour
of the morning while the servants were still in bed) Carmina and her
companion could escape from the house on foot--and not leave a trace
behind them.
Meanwhile, Fortune befriended Mrs. Gallilee's maid. No questions were
put to her; no notice even was taken of the late return.
Five minutes before the carriage drew up at the house, a learned female
friend from the country called, by appointment, on Mrs. Gallilee. On the
coming Tuesday afternoon, an event of the deepest scientific interest
was to take place. A new Professor had undertaken to deliver himself,
by means of a lecture, of subversive opinions on "Matter." A general
discussion was to follow; and in that discussion (upon certain
conditions) Mrs. Gallilee herself proposed to take part.
"If the Professor attempts to account for the mutual action of separate
atoms," she said, "I defy him to do it, without assuming the existence
of a continuous material medium in space. And this point of view being
accepted--follow me here! what is the result? In plain words," cried
Mrs. Gallilee, rising excitedly to her feet, "we dispense with the idea
of atoms!"
The friend looked infinitely relieved by the prospect of dispensing with
atoms.
"Now observe!" Mrs. Gallilee proceeded. "In connection with this part
of the subject, I shall wait to see if the Professor adopts Thomson's
theory. You are acquainted with Thomson's theory? No? Let me put it
briefly. Mere heterogeneity, together with gravitation, is sufficient
to explain all the apparently discordant laws of molecular action. You
understand? Very well. If the Professor passes over Thomson, then, I
rise in the body of the Hall, and take my stand--follow me again!--on
these grounds."
While Mrs. Gallilee's grounds were being laid out for the benefit of
her friend, the coachman took the carriage back to the stables; the
maid went downstairs to tea; and Carmina joined Miss Minerva in the
schoolroom--all three being protected from discovery, by Mrs. Gallilee's
rehearsal of her performance in the Comedy of Atoms.
The Monday morning brought with it news from Rome--serious news which
confirmed Miss Minerva's misgivings.
Carmina received a letter, bearing the Italian postmark, but not
addressed to her in Teresa's handwriting. She looked to the signature
before she began to read. Her correspondent was the old priest--Father
Patrizio. He wrote in these words:
"My dear child,--Our good Teresa leaves us to-day, on her journey to
London. She has impatiently submitted to the legal ceremonies, rendered
necessary by her husband having died without making a will. He hardly
left anything in the way of money, after payment of his burial expenses,
and his few little debts. What is of far greater importance--he lived,
and died, a good Christian. I was with him in his last moments. Offer
your prayers, my dear, for the repose of his soul.
"Teresa left me, declaring her purpose of travelling night and day, so
as to reach you the sooner.
"In her headlong haste, she has not even waited to look over her
husband's papers; but has taken the case containing them to England--to
be examined at leisure, in your beloved company. Strong as this good
creature is, I believe she will be obliged to rest on the road for a
night at least. Calculating on this, I assume that my letter will get
to you first. I have something to say about your old nurse, which it is
well that you should know.
"Do not for a moment suppose that I blame you for having told Teresa of
the unfriendly reception, which you appear to have met with from your
aunt and guardian. Who should you confide in--if not in the excellent
woman who has filled the place of a mother to you? Besides, from your
earliest years, have I not always instilled into you the reverence of
truth? You have told the truth in your letters. My child, I commend you,
and feel for you.
"But the impression produced on Teresa is not what you or I could wish.
It is one of her merits, that she loves you with the truest devotion; it
is one of her defects, that she is fierce and obstinate in resentment.
Your aunt has become an object of absolute hatred to her. I have
combated successfully, as I hope and believe--this unchristian state of
feeling.
"She is now beyond the reach of my influence. My purpose in writing is
to beg you to continue the good work that I have begun. Compose this
impetuous nature; restrain this fiery spirit. Your gentle influence,
Carmina, has a power of its own over those who love you--and who loves
you like Teresa?--of which perhaps you are not yourself aware. Use your
power discreetly; and, with the blessing of God and his Saints, I have
no fear of the result.
"Write to me, my child, when Teresa arrives--and let me hear that you
are happier, and better in health. Tell me also, whether there is any
speedy prospect of your marriage. If I may presume to judge from the
little I know, your dearest earthly interests depend on the removal
of obstacles to this salutary change in your life. I send you my good
wishes, and my blessing. If a poor old priest like me can be of any
service, do not forget.
"FATHER PATRIZIO."
Any lingering hesitation that Carmina might still have felt, was at an
end when she read this letter. Good Father Patrizio, like good Mr. Mool,
had innocently urged her to set her guardian's authority at defiance.
CHAPTER XL.
When the morning lessons were over, Carmina showed the priest's letter
to Miss Minerva. The governess read it, and handed it back in silence.
"Have you nothing to say?" Carmina asked.
"Nothing. You know my opinion already. That letter says what I have
said--with greater authority."
"It has determined me to follow your advice, Frances."
"Then it has done well."
"And you see," Carmina continued, "that Father Patrizio speaks of
obstacles in the way of my marriage. Teresa has evidently shown him
my letters. Do you think he fears, as I do, that my aunt may find some
means of separating us, even when Ovid comes back?"
"Very likely."
She spoke in faint weary tones--listlessly leaning back in her chair.
Carmina asked if she had passed another sleepless night.
"Yes," she said, "another bad night, and the usual martyrdom in teaching
the children. I don't know which disgusts me most--Zoe's impudent
stupidity, or Maria's unendurable humbug."
She had never yet spoken of Maria in this way. Even her voice seemed to
be changed. Instead of betraying the usual angry abruptness, her tones
coldly indicated impenetrable contempt. In the silence that ensued, she
looked up, and saw Carmina's eyes resting on her anxiously and kindly.
"Any other human being but you," she said, "would find me disagreeable
and rude--and would be quite right, too. I haven't asked after your
health. You look paler than usual. Have you, too, had a bad night?"
"I fell asleep towards the morning. And--oh, I had such a delightful
dream! I could almost wish that I had never awakened from it."
"Who did you dream of?" She put the question mechanically--frowning,
as if at some repellent thought suggested to her by what she had just
heard.
"I dreamed of my mother," Carmina answered.
Miss Minerva raised herself at once in the chair. Whatever that passing
impression might have been, she was free from it now. There was some
little life again in her eyes; some little spirit in her voice. "Take me
out of myself," she said; "tell me your dream."
"It is nothing very remarkable, Frances. We all of us sometimes see our
dear lost ones in sleep. I saw my mother again, as I used to see her
in the nursery at bedtime--tall and beautiful, with her long dark hair
failing over her white dressing-gown to the waist. She stooped over me,
and kissed me; and she looked surprised. She said, 'My little angel, why
are you here in a strange house? I have come to take you back to your
own cot, by my bedside.' I wasn't surprised or frightened; I put my arms
round her neck; and we floated away together through the cool starry
night; and we were at home again. I saw my cot, with its pretty white
curtains and pink ribbons. I heard my mother tell me an English fairy
story, out of a book which my father had given to her--and her kind
voice grew fainter and fainter, while I grew more and more sleepy--and
it ended softly, just as it used to end in the happy old days. And I
woke, crying. Do you ever dream of your mother now?"
"I? God forbid!"
"Oh, Frances, what a dreadful thing to say!"
"Is it? It was the thought in me, when you spoke. And with good reason,
too. I was the last of a large family--the ugly one; the ill-tempered
one; the encumbrance that made it harder than ever to find money enough
to pay the household expenses. My father swore at my mother for being my
mother. She reviled him just as bitterly in return; and vented the rest
of her ill-temper on my wretched little body, with no sparing hand.
Bedtime was her time for beating me. Talk of your mother--not of mine!
You were very young, were you not, when she died?"
"Too young to feel my misfortune--but old enough to remember the
sweetest woman that ever lived. Let me show you my father's portrait of
her again. Doesn't that face tell you what an angel she was? There was
some charm in her that all children felt. I can just remember some of my
playfellows who used to come to our garden. Other good mothers were with
us--but the children all crowded round my mother. They would have her
in all their games; they fought for places on her lap when she told them
stories; some of them cried, and some of them screamed, when it was time
to take them away from her. Oh, why do we live! why do we die! I have
bitter thoughts sometimes, Frances, like you. I have read in poetry that
death is a fearful thing. To me, death is a cruel thing,--and it has
never seemed so cruel as in these later days, since I have known Ovid.
If my mother had but lived till now, what happiness would have been
added to my life and to hers! How Ovid would have loved her--how she
would have loved Ovid!"
Miss Minerva listened in silence. It was the silence of true interest
and sympathy, while Carmina was speaking of her mother. When her lover's
name became mingled with the remembrances of her childhood--the change
came. Once more, the tell-tale lines began to harden in the governess's
face. She lay back again in her chair. Her fingers irritably platted and
unplatted the edge of her black apron.
Carmina was too deeply absorbed in her thoughts, too eagerly bent on
giving them expression, to notice these warning signs.
"I have all my mother's letters to my father," she went on, "when he was
away from her on his sketching excursions, You have still a little time
to spare--I should so like to read some of them to you. I was reading
one, last night--which perhaps accounts for my dream? It is on a subject
that interests everybody. In my father's absence, a very dear friend of
his met with a misfortune; and my mother had to prepare his wife to hear
the bad news--oh, that reminds me! There is something I want to say to
you first."
"About yourself?" Miss Minerva asked.
"About Ovid. I want your advice."
Miss Minerva was silent. Carmina went on. "It's about writing to Ovid,"
she explained.
"Write, of course!"
The reply was suddenly and sharply given. "Surely, I have not offended
you?" Carmina said.
"Nonsense! Let me hear your mother's letter."
"Yes--but I want you to hear the circumstances first."
"You have mentioned them already."
"No! no! I mean the circumstances, in my case." She drew her chair
closer to Miss Minerva. "I want to whisper--for fear of somebody passing
on the stairs. The more I think of it, the more I feel that I ought to
prepare Ovid for seeing me, before I make my escape. You said when we
talked of it--"
"Never mind what I said."
"Oh, but I do mind! You said I could go to Ovid's bankers at Quebec,
and then write when I knew where he was. I have been thinking over
it since--and I see a serious risk. He might return from his inland
journey, on the very day that I get there; he might even meet me in the
street. In his delicate health--I daren't think of what the consequences
of such a surprise might be! And then there is the dreadful necessity
of telling him, that his mother has driven me into taking this
desperate step. In my place, wouldn't you feel that you could do it more
delicately in writing?"
"I dare say!"
"I might write to-morrow, for instance. To-morrow is one of the American
mail days. My letter would get to Canada (remembering the roundabout way
by which Teresa and I are to travel, for fear of discovery), days and
days before we could arrive. I should shut myself up in an hotel at
Quebec; and Teresa could go every day to the bank, to hear if Ovid was
likely to send for his letters, or likely to call soon and ask for them.
Then he would be prepared. Then, when we meet--!"
The governess left her chair, and pointed to the clock.
Carmina looked at her--and rose in alarm. "Are you in pain?" she asked.
"Yes--neuralgia, I think. I have the remedy in my room. Don't keep me,
my dear. Mrs. Gallilee mustn't find me here again."
The paroxysm of pain which Carmina had noticed, passed over her face
once more. She subdued it, and left the room. The pain mastered her
again; a low cry broke from her when she closed the door. Carmina ran
out: "Frances! what is it?" Frances looked over her shoulder, while she
slowly ascended the stairs. "Never mind!" she said gently. "I have got
my remedy."
Carmina advanced a step to follow her, and drew back.
Was that expression of suffering really caused by pain of the body? or
was it attributable to anything that she had rashly said? She tried to
recall what had passed between Frances and herself. The effort wearied
her. Her thoughts turned self-reproachfully to Ovid. If he had been
speaking to a friend whose secret sorrow was known to him, would he have
mentioned the name of the woman whom they both loved? She looked at his
portrait, and reviled herself as a selfish insensible wretch. "Will Ovid
improve me?" she wondered. "Shall I be a little worthier of him, when I
am his wife?"
Luncheon time came; and Mrs. Gallilee sent word that they were not to
wait for her.
"She's studying," said Mr. Gallilee, with awe-struck looks. "She's going
to make a speech at the Discussion to-morrow. The man who gives the
lecture is the man she's going to pitch into. I don't know him; but how
do you feel about it yourself, Carmina?--I wouldn't stand in his shoes
for any sum of money you could offer me. Poor devil! I beg your pardon,
my dear; let me give you a wing of the fowl. Boiled fowl--eh? and
tongue--ha? Do you know the story of the foreigner? He dined out fifteen
times with his English friends. And there was boiled fowl and tongue at
every dinner. The fifteenth time, the foreigner couldn't stand it any
longer. He slapped his forehead, and he said, 'Ah, merciful Heaven, cock
and bacon again!' You won't mention it, will you?--and perhaps you think
as I do?--I'm sick of cock and bacon, myself."
Mr. Null's medical orders still prescribed fresh air. The carriage
came to the door at the regular hour; and Mr. Gallilee, with equal
regularity, withdrew to his club.
Carmina was too uneasy to leave the house, without seeing Miss Minerva
first. She went up to the schoolroom.
There was no sound of voices, when she opened the door. Miss Minerva was
writing, and silence had been proclaimed. The girls were ready dressed
for their walk. Industrious Maria had her book. Idle Zo, perched on a
high chair, sat kicking her legs. "If you say a word," she whispered, as
Carmina passed her, "you'll be called an Imp, and stuck up on a chair. I
shall go to the boy."
"Are you better, Frances?"
"Much better, my dear."
Her face denied it; the look of suffering was there still. She tore up
the letter which she had been writing, and threw the fragments into the
waste-paper basket.
"That's the second letter you've torn up," Zo remarked.
"Say a word more--and you shall have bread and water for tea!" Miss
Minerva was not free from irritation, although she might be free from
pain. Even Zo noticed how angry the governess was.
"I wish you could drive with me in the carriage," said Carmina. "The air
would do you so much good."
"Impossible! But you may soothe my irritable nerves in another way, if
you like."
"How?"
"Relieve me of these girls. Take them out with you. Do you mind?"
Zo instantly jumped off her chair; and even Maria looked up from her
book.
"I will take them with pleasure. Must we ask my aunt's permission?"
"We will dispense with your aunt's permission. She is shut up in her
study--and we are all forbidden to disturb her. I will take it on
myself." She turned to the girls with another outbreak of irritability.
"Be off!"
Maria rose with dignity, and made one of her successful exits. "I am
sorry, dear Miss Minerva, if I have done anything to make you angry."
She pointed the emphasis on "I," by a side-look at her sister. Zo
bounced out of the room, and performed the Italian boy's dance on
the landing. "For shame!" said Maria. Zo burst into singing. "Yah
yah-yah-bellah-vitah-yah! Jolly! jolly! jolly!--we are going out for a
drive!"
Carmina waited, to say a friendly word, before she followed the girls.
"You didn't think me neglectful, Frances, when I let you go upstairs by
yourself!" Miss Minerva answered sadly and kindly. "The best thing you
could do was to leave me by myself."
Carmina's mind was still not quite at ease. "Yes--but you were in pain,"
she said.
"You curious child! I am not in pain now."
"Will you make me comfortable, Frances? Give me a kiss."
"Two, my dear--if you like."
She kissed Carmina on one cheek and on the other. "Now leave me to
write," she said.
Carmina left her.
The drive ought to have been a pleasant one, with Zo in the carriage.
To Marceline, it was a time of the heartiest enjoyment. Maria herself
condescended to smile, now and then. There was only one dull person
among them. "Miss Carmina was but poor company," the maid remarked when
they got back.
Mrs. Gallilee herself received them in the hall.
"You will never take the children out again without my leave," she said
to Carmina. "The person who is really responsible for what you have
done, will mislead you no more." With those words she entered the
library, and closed the door.
Maria and Zo, at the sight of their mother, had taken flight. Carmina
stood alone in the hall. Mrs. Gallilee had turned her cold. After
awhile, she followed the children as far as her own room. There, her
resolution failed her. She called faintly upstairs--"Frances!" There was
no answering voice. She went into her room. A small paper packet was on
the table; sealed, and addressed to herself. She tore it open. A ring
with a spinel ruby in it dropped out: she recognised the stone--it was
Miss Minerva's ring.
Some blotted lines were traced on the paper inside.
"I have tried to pour out my heart to you in writing--and I have torn
up the letters. The fewest words are the best. Look back at my
confession--and you will know why I have left you. You shall hear from
me, when I am more worthy of you than I am now. In the meantime, wear my
ring. It will tell you how mean I once was. F. M."
Carmina looked at the ring. She remembered that Frances had tried to
make her accept it as security, in return for the loan of thirty pounds.
She referred to the confession. Two passages in it were underlined:
"The wickedness in me, on which Mrs. Gallilee calculated, may be in me
still." And, again: "Even now, when you have found me out, I love him.
Don't trust me."
Never had Carmina trusted her more faithfully than at that bitter
moment!
CHAPTER XLI.
The ordinary aspect of the schoolroom was seen no more.
Installed in a position of temporary authority, the parlour-maid sat
silently at her needlework. Maria stood by the window, in the new
character of an idle girl--with her handkerchief in her hand, and her
everlasting book dropped unnoticed on the floor. Zo lay flat on her
back, on the hearth-rug, hugging the dog in her arms. At intervals, she
rolled herself over slowly from side to side, and stared at the
ceiling with wondering eyes. Miss Minerva's departure had struck the
parlour-maid dumb, and had demoralized the pupils.
Maria broke the silence at last. "I wonder where Carmina is?" she said.
"In her room, most likely," the parlour-maid suggested.
"Had I better go and see after her?"
The cautious parlour-maid declined to offer advice. Maria's
well-balanced mind was so completely unhinged, that she looked with
languid curiosity at her sister. Zo still stared at the ceiling, and
still rolled slowly from one side to the other. The dog on her breast,
lulled by the regular motion, slept profoundly--not even troubled by a
dream of fleas!
While Maria was still considering what it might be best to do, Carmina
entered the room. She looked, as the servant afterwards described it,
"like a person who had lost her way." Maria exhibited the feeling of the
schoolroom, by raising her handkerchief in solemn silence to her eyes.
Without taking notice of this demonstration, Carmina approached the
parlour-maid, and said, "Did you see Miss Minerva before she went away?"
"I took her message, Miss."
"What message?"
"The message, saying she wished to see my mistress for a few minutes."
"Well?"
"Well, Miss, I was told to show the governess into the library. She went
down with her bonnet on, ready dressed to go out. Before she had
been five minutes with my mistress she came out again, and rang the
hall-bell, and spoke to Joseph. 'My boxes are packed and directed,' she
says; 'I will send for them in an hour's time. Good day, Joseph.' And
she stepped into the street, as quietly as if she was going out shopping
round the corner."
"Have the boxes been sent for?"
"Yes, Miss."
Carmina lifted her head, and spoke in steadier tones.
"Where have they been taken to?"
"To the flower-shop at the back--to be kept till called for."
"No other address?"
"None."
The last faint hope of tracing Frances was at an end. Carmina turned
wearily to leave the room. Zo called to her from the hearth-rug. Always
kind to the child, she retraced her steps. "What is it?" she asked.
Zo got on her legs before she spoke, like a member of parliament. "I've
been thinking about that governess," she announced. "Didn't I once tell
you I was going to run away? And wasn't it because of Her? Hush! Here's
the part of it I can't make out--She's run away from Me. I don't bear
malice; I'm only glad in myself. No more dirty nails. No more bread and
water for tea. That's all. Good morning." Zo laid herself down again on
the rug; and the dog laid himself down again on Zo.
Carmina returned to her room--to reflect on what she had heard from the
parlour-maid.
It was now plain that Mrs. Gallilee had not been allowed the opportunity
of dismissing her governess at a moment's notice: Miss Minerva's sudden
departure was unquestionably due to Miss Minerva herself.
Thus far, Carmina was able to think clearly--and no farther. The
confused sense of helpless distress which she had felt, after reading
the few farewell words that Frances had addressed to her, still
oppressed her mind. There were moments when she vaguely understood, and
bitterly lamented, the motives which had animated her unhappy friend.
Other moments followed, when she impulsively resented the act which had
thrown her on her own resources, at the very time when she had most need
of the encouragement that could be afforded by the sympathy of a
firmer nature than her own. She began to doubt the steadiness of her
resolution--without Frances to take leave of her, on the morning of the
escape. For the first time, she was now tortured by distrust of Ovid's
reception of her; by dread of his possible disapproval of her boldness;
by morbid suspicion even of his taking his mother's part. Bewildered and
reckless, she threw herself on the sofa--her heart embittered against
Frances--indifferent whether she lived or died.
At dinner-time she sent a message, begging to be excused from appearing
at the table. Mrs. Gallilee at once presented herself, harder and colder
than ever, to inspect the invalid. Perceiving no immediate necessity for
summoning Mr. Null, she said, "Ring, if you want anything," and left the
room.
Mr. Gallilee followed, after an interval, with a little surreptitious
offering of wine (hidden under his coat); and with a selection of tarts
crammed into his pocket.
"Smuggled goods, my dear," he whispered, "picked up when nobody happened
to be looking my way. When we are miserable--has the idea ever occurred
to you?--it's a sign from kind Providence that we are intended to eat
and drink. The sherry's old, and the pastry melts in your mouth. Shall
I stay with you? You would rather not? Just my feeling! Remarkable
similarity in our opinions--don't you think so yourself? I'm sorry for
poor Miss Minerva. Suppose you go to bed?"
Carmina was in no mood to profit by this excellent advice.
She was still walking restlessly up and down her room, when the time
came for shutting up the house. With the sound of closing locks and
bolts, there was suddenly mingled a sharp ring at the bell; followed
by another unexpected event. Mr. Gallilee paid her a second visit--in a
state of transformation. His fat face was flushed: he positively
looked as if he was capable of feeling strong emotion, unconnected with
champagne and the club! He presented a telegram to Carmina--and, when he
spoke, there were thrills of agitation in the tones of his piping voice.
"My dear, something very unpleasant has happened. I met Joseph taking
this to my wife. Highly improper, in my opinion,--what do you say
yourself?--to take it to Mrs. Gallilee, when it's addressed to you. It
was no mistake; he was so impudent as to say he had his orders. I have
reproved Joseph." Mr. Gallilee looked astonished at himself, when he
made this latter statement--then relapsed into his customary sweetness
of temper. "No bad news?" he asked anxiously, when Carmina opened the
telegram.
"Good news! the best of good news!" she answered impetuously.
Mr. Gallilee looked as happy as if the welcome telegram had been
addressed to himself. On his way out of the room, he underwent another
relapse. The footman's audacious breach of trust began to trouble him
once more: this time in its relation to Mrs. Gallilee. The serious
part of it was, that the man had acted under his mistress's orders. Mr.
Gallilee said--he actually said, without appealing to anybody--"If this
happens again, I shall be obliged to speak to my wife."
The telegram was from Teresa. It had been despatched from Paris that
evening; and the message was thus expressed:
"Too tired to get on to England by to-night's mail. Shall leave by the
early train to-morrow morning, and be with you by six o'clock."
Carmina's mind was exactly in the state to feel unmingled relief, at the
prospect of seeing the dear old friend of her happiest days. She laid
her head on the pillow that night, without a thought of what might
follow the event of Teresa's return.
VOLUME THREE
CHAPTER XLII.
The next day--the important Tuesday of the lecture on Matter; the
delightful Tuesday of Teresa's arrival--brought with it special demands
on Carmina's pen.
Her first letter was addressed to Frances. It was frankly and earnestly
written; entreating Miss Minerva to appoint a place at which they might
meet, and assuring her, in the most affectionate terms, that she was
still loved, trusted, and admired by her faithful friend. Helped by her
steadier flow of spirits, Carmina could now see all that was worthiest
of sympathy and admiration, all that claimed loving submission and
allowance from herself, in the sacrifice to which Miss Minerva had
submitted. How bravely the poor governess had controlled the jealous
misery that tortured her! How nobly she had pronounced Carmina's
friendship for Carmina's sake!
Later in the day, Marceline took the letter to the flower shop, and
placed it herself under the cord of one of the boxes still waiting to be
claimed.
The second letter filled many pages, and occupied the remainder of the
morning.
With the utmost delicacy, but with perfect truthfulness at the same
time, Carmina revealed to her betrothed husband the serious reasons
which had forced her to withdraw herself from his mother's care. Bound
to speak at last in her own defence, she felt that concealments and
compromises would be alike unworthy of Ovid and of herself. What she
had already written to Teresa, she now wrote again--with but one
modification. She expressed herself forbearingly towards Ovid's mother.
The closing words of the letter were worthy of Carmina's gentle, just,
and generous nature.
"You will perhaps say, Why do I only hear now of all that you have
suffered? My love, I have longed to tell you of it! I have even taken
up my pen to begin. But I thought of you, and put it down again. How
selfish, how cruel, to hinder your recovery by causing you sorrow and
suspense to bring you back perhaps to England before your health was
restored! I don't regret the effort that it has cost me to keep silence.
My only sorrow in writing to you is, that I must speak of your mother in
terms which may lower her in her son's estimation."
Joseph brought the luncheon up to Carmina's room.
The mistress was still at her studies; the master had gone to his club.
As for the girls, their only teacher for the present was the teacher
of music. When the ordeal of the lecture and the discussion had been
passed, Mrs. Gallilee threatened to take Miss Minerva's place herself,
until a new governess could be found. For once, Maria and Zo showed a
sisterly similarity in their feelings. It was hard to say which of the
two looked forward to her learned mother's instruction with the greatest
terror.
Carmina heard the pupils at the piano, while she was eating her
luncheon. The profanation of music ceased, when she went into the
bedroom to get ready for her daily drive.
She took her letter, duly closed and stamped, downstairs with her--to
be sent to the post with the other letters of the day, placed in the
hall-basket. In the weakened state of her nerves, the effort that she
had made in writing to Ovid had shaken her. Her heart beat uneasily; her
knees trembled, as she descended the stairs.
Arrived in sight of the hall, she discovered a man walking slowly to and
fro. He turned towards her as she advanced, and disclosed the detestable
face of Mr. Le Frank.
The music-master's last reserves of patience had come to an end. Watch
for them as he might, no opportunities had presented themselves of
renewing his investigation in Carmina's room. In the interval that had
passed, his hungry suspicion of her had been left to feed on itself.
The motives for that incomprehensible attempt to make a friend of
him remained hidden in as thick a darkness as ever. Victim of adverse
circumstances, he had determined (with the greatest reluctance) to take
the straightforward course. Instead of secretly getting his information
from Carmina's journals and letters, he was now reduced to openly
applying for enlightenment to Carmina herself.
Occupying, for the time being, the position of an honourable man, he
presented himself at cruel disadvantage. He was not master of his own
glorious voice; he was without the self-possession indispensable to the
perfect performance of his magnificent bow. "I have waited to have a
word with you," he began abruptly, "before you go out for your drive."
Already unnerved, even before she had seen him--painfully conscious that
she had committed a serious error, on the last occasion when they had
met, in speaking at all--Carmina neither answered him nor looked at him.
She bent her head confusedly, and advanced a little nearer to the house
door.
He at once moved so as to place himself in her way.
"I must request you to call to mind what passed between us," he resumed,
"when we met by accident some little time since."
He had speculated on frightening her. His insolence stirred her spirit
into asserting itself. "Let me by, if you please," she said; "the
carriage is waiting for me."
"The carriage can wait a little longer," he answered coarsely. "On the
occasion to which I have referred, you were so good as to make advances,
to which I cannot consider myself as having any claim. Perhaps you will
favour me by stating your motives?"
"I don't understand you, sir."
"Oh, yes--you do!"
She stepped back, and laid her hand on the bell which rang below stairs,
in the pantry. "Must I ring?" she said.
It was plain that she would do it, if he moved a step nearer to her.
He drew aside--with a look which made her tremble. On passing the hall
table, she placed her letter in the post-basket. His eye followed it, as
it left her hand: he became suddenly penitent and polite. "I am sorry if
I have alarmed you," he said, and opened the house-door for her--without
showing himself to Marceline and the coachman outside.
The carriage having been driven away, he softly closed the door again,
and returned to the hall-table. He looked into the post-basket.
Was there any danger of discovery by the servants? The footman was
absent, attending his mistress on her way to the lecture. None of the
female servants were on the stairs. He took up Carmina's letter, and
looked at the address: To Ovid Vere, Esq.
His eyes twinkled furtively; his excellent memory for injuries reminded
him that Ovid Vere had formerly endeavoured (without even caring
to conceal it) to prevent Mrs. Gallilee from engaging him as her
music-master. By subtle links of its own forging, his vindictive nature
now connected his hatred of the person to whom the letter was addressed,
with his interest in stealing the letter itself for the possible
discovery of Carmina's secrets. The clock told him that there was plenty
of time to open the envelope, and (if the contents proved to be of no
importance) to close it again, and take it himself to the post. After
a last look round, he withdrew undiscovered, with the letter in his
pocket.
On its way back to the house, the carriage was passed by a cab, with a
man in it, driven at such a furious rate that there was a narrow escape
of collision. The maid screamed; Carmina turned pale; the coachman
wondered why the man in the cab was in such a hurry. The man was Mr.
Mool's head clerk, charged with news for Doctor Benjulia.
CHAPTER XLIII.
The mind of the clerk's master had been troubled by serious doubts,
after Carmina left his house on Sunday.
Her agitated manner, her strange questions, and her abrupt
departure, all suggested to Mr. Mool's mind some rash project in
contemplation--perhaps even the plan of an elopement. To most other
men, the obvious course to take would have been to communicate with Mrs.
Gallilee. But the lawyer preserved a vivid remembrance of the interview
which had taken place at his office. The detestable pleasure which Mrs.
Gallilee had betrayed in profaning the memory of Carmina's mother, had
so shocked and disgusted him, that he recoiled from the idea of holding
any further intercourse with her, no matter how pressing the emergency
might be. It was possible, after what had passed, that Carmina might
feel the propriety of making some explanation by letter. He decided to
wait until the next morning, on the chance of hearing from her.
On the Monday, no letter arrived.
Proceeding to the office, Mr. Mool found, in his
business-correspondence, enough to occupy every moment of his time. He
had purposed writing to Carmina, but the idea was now inevitably pressed
out of his mind. It was only at the close of the day's work that he had
leisure to think of a matter of greater importance--that is to say,
of the necessity of discovering Benjulia's friend of other days, the
Italian teacher Baccani. He left instructions with one of his clerks to
make inquiries, the next morning, at the shops of foreign booksellers.
There, and there only, the question might be answered, whether Baccani
was still living, and living in London.
The inquiries proved successful. On Tuesday afternoon, Baccani's address
was in Mr. Mool's hands.
Busy as he still was, the lawyer set aside his own affairs, in deference
to the sacred duty of defending the memory of the dead, and to the
pressing necessity of silencing Mrs. Gallilee's cruel and slanderous
tongue. Arrived at Baccani's lodgings, he was informed that the
language-master had gone to his dinner at a neighbouring restaurant. Mr.
Mool waited at the lodgings, and sent a note to Baccani. In ten minutes
more he found himself in the presence of an elderly man, of ascetic
appearance; whose looks and tones showed him to be apt to take offence
on small provocation, and more than half ready to suspect an eminent
solicitor of being a spy.
But Mr. Mool's experience was equal to the call on it. Having fully
explained the object that he had in view, he left the apology for his
intrusion to be inferred, and concluded by appealing, in his own modest
way, to the sympathy of an honourable man.
Silently forming his opinion of the lawyer, while he listened, Baccani
expressed the conclusion at which he had arrived, in these terms:
"My experience of mankind, sir, has been a bitterly bad one. You have
improved my opinion of human nature since you entered this room. That is
not a little thing to say, at my age and in my circumstances."
He bowed gravely, and turned to his bed. From under it, he pulled out
a clumsy tin box. Having opened the rusty lock with some difficulty,
he produced a ragged pocket-book, and picked out from it a paper which
looked like an old letter.
"There," he said, handing the paper to Mr. Mool, "is the statement which
vindicates this lady's reputation. Before you open the manuscript I must
tell you how I came by it."
He appeared to feel such embarrassment in approaching the subject, that
Mr. Mool interposed. "I am already acquainted," he said, "with some of
the circumstances to which you are about to allude. I happen to know of
the wager in which the calumny originated, and of the manner in which
that wager was decided. The events which followed are the only events
that I need trouble you to describe."
Baccani's grateful sense of relief avowed itself without reserve.
"I feel your kindness," he said, "almost as keenly as I feel my own
disgraceful conduct, in permitting a woman's reputation to be made the
subject of a wager. From whom did you obtain your information?"
"From the person who mentioned your name to me--Doctor Benjulia."
Baccani lifted his hand with a gesture of angry protest.
"Don't speak of him again in my presence!" he burst out. "That man
has insulted me. When I took refuge from political persecution in this
country, I sent him my prospectus. From my own humble position as a
teacher of languages, I looked up without envy to his celebrity among
doctors; I thought I might remind him, not unfavourably, of our early
friendship--I, who had done him a hundred kindnesses in those past
days. He has never taken the slightest notice of me; he has not even
acknowledged the receipt of my prospectus. Despicable wretch! Let me
hear no more of him."
"Pray forgive me if I refer to him again--for the last time," Mr. Mool
pleaded. "Did your acquaintance with him continue, after the question of
the wager had been settled?"
"No, sir!" Baccani answered sternly. "When I was at leisure to go to the
club at which we were accustomed to meet, he had left Rome. From that
time to this--I rejoice to say it--I have never set eyes on him."
The obstacles which had prevented the refutation of the calumny from
reaching Benjulia were now revealed. Mr. Mool had only to hear, next,
how that refutation had been obtained. A polite hint sufficed to remind
Baccani of the explanation that he had promised.
"I am naturally suspicious," he began abruptly; "and I doubted the woman
when I found that she kept her veil down. Besides, it was not in my
way of thinking to believe that an estimable married lady could have
compromised herself with a scoundrel, who had boasted that she was his
mistress. I waited in the street, until the woman came out. I followed
her, and saw her meet a man. The two went together to a theatre. I
took my place near them. She lifted her veil as a matter of course. My
suspicion of foul play was instantly confirmed. When the performance was
over, I traced her back to Mr. Robert Graywell's house. He and his wife
were both absent at a party. I was too indignant to wait till they
came back. Under the threat of charging the wretch with stealing her
mistress's clothes, I extorted from her the signed confession which you
have in your hand. She was under notice to leave her place for insolent
behaviour. The personation which had been intended to deceive me, was
an act of revenge; planned between herself and the blackguard who had
employed her to make his lie look like truth. A more shameless creature
I never met with. She said to me, 'I am as tall as my mistress, and
a better figure; and I've often worn her fine clothes on holiday
occasions.' In your country Mr. Mool, such women--so I am told--are
ducked in a pond. There is one thing more to add, before you read the
confession. Mrs. Robert Graywell did imprudently send the man some
money--in answer to a begging letter artfully enough written to excite
her pity. A second application was refused by her husband. What followed
on that, you know already."
Having read the confession, Mr. Mool was permitted to take a copy, and
to make any use of it which he might think desirable. His one remaining
anxiety was to hear what had become of the person who had planned the
deception. "Surely," he said, "that villain has not escaped punishment?"
Baccani answered this in his own bitter way.
"My dear sir, how can you ask such a simple question? That sort of
man always escapes punishment. In the last extreme of poverty his luck
provides him with somebody to cheat. Common respect for Mrs. Robert
Graywell closed my lips; and I was the only person acquainted with
the circumstances. I wrote to our club declaring the fellow to be a
cheat--and leaving it to be inferred that he cheated at cards. He
knew better than to insist on my explaining myself--he resigned, and
disappeared. I dare say he is living still--living in clover on some
unfortunate woman. The beautiful and the good die untimely deaths. He,
and his kind, last and live."
Mr. Mool had neither time nor inclination to plead in favour of the more
hopeful view, which believes in the agreeable fiction called "Poetical
justice." He tried to express his sense of obligation at parting.
Baccani refused to listen.
"The obligation is all on my side," he said. "As I have already
told you, your visit has added a bright day to my calendar. In our
pilgrimage, my friend, through this world of rogues and fools, we
may never meet again. Let us remember gratefully that we have met.
Farewell."
So they parted.
Returning to his office, Mr. Mool attached to the copy of the confession
a brief statement of the circumstances under which the Italian had
become possessed of it. He then added these lines, addressed to
Benjulia:--"You set the false report afloat. I leave it to your sense
of duty, to decide whether you ought not to go at once to Mrs. Gallilee,
and tell her that the slander which you repeated is now proved to be a
lie. If you don't agree with me, I must go to Mrs. Gallilee myself. In
that case please return, by the bearer, the papers which are enclosed."
The clerk instructed to deliver these documents, within the shortest
possible space of time, found Mr. Mool waiting at the office, on his
return. He answered his master's inquiries by producing Benjulia's
reply.
The doctor's amiable humour was still in the ascendant. His success in
torturing his unfortunate cook had been followed by the receipt of
a telegram from his friend at Montreal, containing this satisfactory
answer to his question:--"Not brain disease." With his mind now set
completely at rest, his instincts as a gentleman were at full liberty
to control him. "I entirely agree with you," he wrote to Mr. Mool. "I go
back with your clerk; the cab will drop me at Mrs. Gallilee's house."
Mr. Mool turned to the clerk.
"Did you wait to hear if Mrs. Gallilee was at home?" he asked.
"Mrs. Gallilee was absent, sir--attending a lecture."
"What did Doctor Benjulia do?"
"Went into the house, to wait her return."
CHAPTER XLIV.
Mrs. Gallilee's page (attending to the house-door, in the footman's
absence) had just shown Benjulia into the library, when there was
another ring at the bell. The new visitor was Mr. Le Frank. He appeared
to be in a hurry. Without any preliminary questions, he said, "Take my
card to Mrs. Gallilee."
"My mistress is out, sir."
The music-master looked impatiently at the hall-clock. The hall-clock
answered him by striking the half hour after five.
"Do you expect Mrs. Gallilee back soon?"
"We don't know, sir. The footman had his orders to be in waiting with
the carriage, at five."
After a moment of irritable reflection, Mr. Le Frank took a letter from
his pocket. "Say that I have an appointment, and am not able to wait.
Give Mrs. Gallilee that letter the moment she comes in." With those
directions he left the house.
The page looked at the letter. It was sealed; and, over the address, two
underlined words were written:--"Private. Immediate." Mindful of visits
from tradespeople, anxious to see his mistress, and provided beforehand
with letters to be delivered immediately, the boy took a pecuniary view
of Mr. Le Frank's errand at the house. "Another of them," he thought,
"wanting his money."
As he placed the letter on the hall-table, the library door opened, and
Benjulia appeared--weary already of waiting, without occupation, for
Mrs. Gallilee's return.
"Is smoking allowed in the library?" he asked.
The page looked up at the giant towering over him, with the envious
admiration of a short boy. He replied with a discretion beyond his
years: "Would you please step into the smoking-room, sir?"
"Anybody there?"
"My master, sir."
Benjulia at once declined the invitation to the smoking-room. "Anybody
else at home?" he inquired.
Miss Carmina was upstairs--the page answered. "And I think," he added,
"Mr. Null is with her."
"Who's Mr. Null?"
"The doctor, sir."
Benjulia declined to disturb the doctor. He tried a third, and last
question.
"Where's Zo?"
"Here!" cried a shrill voice from the upper regions. "Who are You?"
To the page's astonishment, the giant gentleman with the resonant bass
voice answered this quite gravely. "I'm Benjulia," he said.
"Come up!" cried Zo.
Benjulia ascended the stairs.
"Stop!" shouted the voice from above.
Benjulia stopped.
"Have you got your big stick?"
"Yes."
"Bring it up with you." Benjulia retraced his steps into the hall.
The page respectfully handed him his stick. Zo became impatient. "Look
sharp!" she called out.
Benjulia obediently quickened his pace. Zo left the schoolroom (in spite
of the faintly-heard protest of the maid in charge) to receive him
on the stairs. They met on the landing, outside Carmina's room. Zo
possessed herself of the bamboo cane, and led the way in. "Carmina!
here's the big stick, I told you about," she announced.
"Whose stick, dear?"
Zo returned to the landing. "Come in, Benjulia," she said--and seized
him by the coat-tails. Mr. Null rose instinctively. Was this his
celebrated colleague?
With some reluctance, Carmina appeared at the door; thinking of the
day when Ovid had fainted, and when the great man had treated her so
harshly. In fear of more rudeness, she unwillingly asked him to come in.
Still immovable on the landing, he looked at her in silence.
The serious question occurred to him which had formerly presented itself
to Mr. Mool. Had Mrs. Gallilee repeated, in Carmina's presence, the lie
which slandered her mother's memory--the lie which he was then in the
house to expose?
Watching Benjulia respectfully, Mr. Null saw, in that grave scrutiny, an
opportunity of presenting himself under a favourable light. He waved his
hand persuasively towards Carmina. "Some nervous prostration, sir, in
my interesting patient, as you no doubt perceive," he began. "Not such
rapid progress towards recovery as I had hoped. I think of recommending
the air of the seaside." Benjulia's dreary eyes turned on him slowly,
and estimated his mental calibre at its exact value, in a moment. Mr.
Null felt that look in the very marrow of his bones. He bowed with
servile submission, and took his leave.
In the meantime, Benjulia had satisfied himself that the embarrassment
in Carmina's manner was merely attributable to shyness. She was now no
longer an object even of momentary interest to him. He was ready to
play with Zo--but not on condition of amusing himself with the child, in
Carmina's presence. "I am waiting till Mrs. Gallilee returns," he said
to her in his quietly indifferent way. "If you will excuse me, I'll go
downstairs again; I won't intrude."
Her pale face flushed as she listened to him. Innocently supposing that
she had made her little offer of hospitality in too cold a manner, she
looked at Benjulia with a timid and troubled smile. "Pray wait here
till my aunt comes back," she said. "Zo will amuse you, I'm sure." Zo
seconded the invitation by hiding the stick, and laying hold again on
her big friend's coattails.
He let the child drag him into the room, without noticing her. The
silent questioning of his eyes had been again directed to Carmina, at
the moment when she smiled.
His long and terrible experience made its own merciless discoveries,
in the nervous movement of her eyelids and her lips. The poor girl,
pleasing herself with the idea of having produced the right impression
on him at last, had only succeeded in becoming an object of medical
inquiry, pursued in secret. When he companionably took a chair by her
side, and let Zo climb on his knee, he was privately regretting his cold
reception of Mr. Null. Under certain conditions of nervous excitement,
Carmina might furnish an interesting case. "If I had been commonly
civil to that fawning idiot," he thought, "I might have been called into
consultation."
They were all three seated--but there was no talk. Zo set the example.
"You haven't tickled me yet," she said. "Show Carmina how you do it."
He gravely operated on the back of Zo's neck; and his patient
acknowledged the process with a wriggle and a scream. The performance
being so far at an end, Zo called to the dog, and issued her orders once
more.
"Now make Tinker kick his leg!"
Benjulia obeyed once again. The young tyrant was not satisfied yet.
"Now tickle Carmina!" she said.
He heard this without laughing: his fleshless lips never relaxed into
a smile. To Carmina's unutterable embarrassment, he looked at her, when
she laughed, with steadier attention than ever. Those coldly-inquiring
eyes exercised some inscrutable influence over her. Now they made her
angry; and now they frightened her. The silence that had fallen on them
again, became an unendurable infliction. She burst into talk; she was
loud and familiar--ashamed of her own boldness, and quite unable to
control it. "You are very fond of Zo!" she said suddenly.
It was a perfectly commonplace remark--and yet, it seemed to perplex
him.
"Am I?" he answered.
She went on. Against her own will, she persisted in speaking to him.
"And I'm sure Zo is fond of you."
He looked at Zo. "Are you fond of me?" he asked.
Zo, staring hard at him, got off his knee; retired to a little distance
to think; and stood staring at him again.
He quietly repeated the question. Zo answered this time--as she had
formerly answered Teresa in the Gardens. "I don't know."
He turned again to Carmina, in a slow, puzzled way. "I don't know
either," he said.
Hearing the big man own that he was no wiser than herself, Zo returned
to him--without, however, getting on his knee again. She clasped
her chubby hands under the inspiration of a new idea. "Let's play at
something," she said to Benjulia. "Do you know any games?"
He shook his head.
"Didn't you know any games, when you were only as big as me?"
"I have forgotten them."
"Haven't you got children?"
"No."
"Haven't you got a wife?"
"No."
"Haven't you got a friend?"
"No."
"Well, you are a miserable chap!"
Thanks to Zo, Carmina's sense of nervous oppression burst its way
into relief. She laughed loudly and wildly--she was on the verge
of hysterics, when Benjulia's eyes, silently questioning her again,
controlled her at the critical moment. Her laughter died away. But the
exciting influence still possessed her; still forced her into the other
alternative of saying something--she neither knew nor cared what.
"I couldn't live such a lonely life as yours," she said to him--so
loudly and so confidently that even Zo noticed it.
"I couldn't live such a life either," he admitted, "but for one thing."
"And what is that?"
"Why are you so loud?" Zo interposed. "Do you think he's deaf?"
Benjulia made a sign, commanding the child to be silent--without turning
towards her. He answered Carmina as if there had been no interruption.
"My medical studies," he said, "reconcile me to my life."
"Suppose you got tired of your studies?" she asked.
"I should never get tired of them."
"Suppose you couldn't study any more?"
"In that case I shouldn't live any more."
"Do you mean that it would kill you to leave off?"
"No."
"Then what do you mean?"
He laid his great soft fingers on her pulse. She shrank from his touch;
he deliberately held her by the arm. "You're getting excited," he said.
"Never mind what I mean."
Zo, left unnoticed and not liking it, saw a chance of asserting herself.
"I know why Carmina's excited," she said. "The old woman's coming at six
o'clock."
He paid no attention to the child; he persisted in keeping watch on
Carmina. "Who is the woman?" he asked.
"The most lovable woman in the world," she cried; "my dear old nurse!"
She started up from the sofa, and pointed with theatrical exaggeration
of gesture to the clock on the mantelpiece. "Look! it's only ten minutes
to six. In ten minutes, I shall have my arms round Teresa's neck.
Don't look at me in that way! It's your fault if I'm excited. It's your
dreadful eyes that do it. Come here, Zo! I want to give you a kiss." She
seized on Zo with a roughness that startled the child, and looked wildly
at Benjulia. "Ha! you don't understand loving and kissing, do you?
What's the use of speaking to you about my old nurse?"
He pointed imperatively to the sofa. "Sit down again."
She obeyed him--but he had not quite composed her yet. Her eyes
sparkled; she went on talking. "Ah, you're a hard man! a miserable man!
a man that will end badly! You never loved anybody. You don't know what
love is."
"What is it?"
That icy question cooled her in an instant: her head sank on her bosom:
she suddenly became indifferent to persons and things about her. "When
will Teresa come?" she whispered to herself. "Oh, when will Teresa
come!"
Any other man, whether he really felt for her or not, would, as a mere
matter of instinct, have said a kind word to her at that moment. Not the
vestige of a change appeared in Benjulia's impenetrable composure. She
might have been a man--or a baby--or the picture of a girl instead of
the girl herself, so far as he was concerned. He quietly returned to his
question.
"Well," he resumed--"and what is love?"
Not a word, not a movement escaped her.
"I want to know," he persisted, waiting for what might happen.
Nothing happened. He was not perplexed by the sudden change. "This is
the reaction," he thought. "We shall see what comes of it." He looked
about him. A bottle of water stood on one of the tables. "Likely to be
useful," he concluded, "in case she feels faint."
Zo had been listening; Zo saw her way to getting noticed again. Not
quite sure of herself this time, she appealed to Carmina. "Didn't he
say, just now, he wanted to know?"
Carmina neither heard nor heeded her. Zo tried Benjulia next. "Shall
I tell you what we do in the schoolroom, when we want to know?" His
attention, like Carmina's attention, seemed to be far away from her. Zo
impatiently reminded him of her presence--she laid her hand on his knee.
It was only the hand of a child--an idle, quaint, perverse child--but
it touched, ignorantly touched, the one tender place in his nature,
unprofaned by the infernal cruelties which made his life acceptable to
him; the one tender place, hidden so deep from the man himself, that
even his far-reaching intellect groped in vain to find it out.
There, nevertheless, was the feeling which drew him to Zo, contending
successfully with his medical interest in a case of nervous derangement.
That unintelligible sympathy with a child looked dimly out of his eyes,
spoke faintly in his voice, when he replied to her. "Well," he said,
"what do you do in the schoolroom?"
"We look in the dictionary," Zo answered. "Carmina's got a dictionary.
I'll get it."
She climbed on a chair, and found the book, and laid it on Benjulia's
lap. "I don't so much mind trying to spell a word," she explained. "What
I hate is being asked what it means. Miss Minerva won't let me off. She
says, Look. I won't let you off. I'm Miss Minerva and you're Zo.
Look!"
He humoured her silently and mechanically--just as he had humoured her
in the matter of the stick, and in the matter of the tickling. Having
opened the dictionary, he looked again at Carmina. She had not moved;
she seemed to be weary enough to fall asleep. The reaction--nothing
but the reaction. It might last for hours, or it might be at an end in
another minute. An interesting temperament, whichever way it ended. He
opened the dictionary.
"Love?" he muttered grimly to himself. "It seems I'm an object of
compassion, because I know nothing about love. Well, what does the book
say about it?"
He found the word, and ran his finger down the paragraphs of explanation
which followed. "Seven meanings to Love," he remarked. "First: An
affection of the mind excited by beauty and worth of any kind, or by the
qualities of an object which communicate pleasure. Second: Courtship.
Third: Patriotism, as the love of country. Fourth: Benevolence. Fifth:
The object beloved. Sixth: A word of endearment. Seventh: Cupid, the god
of love."
He paused, and reflected a little. Zo, hearing nothing to amuse her,
strayed away to the window, and looked out. He glanced at Carmina.
"Which of those meanings makes the pleasure of her life?" he wondered.
"Which of them might have made the pleasure of mine?" He closed the
dictionary in contempt. "The very man whose business is to explain it,
tries seven different ways, and doesn't explain it after all. And yet,
there is such a thing." He reached that conclusion unwillingly and
angrily. For the first time, a doubt about himself forced its way into
his mind. Might he have looked higher than his torture-table and his
knife? Had he gained from his life all that his life might have given to
him?
Left by herself, Zo began to grow tired of it. She tried to get Carmina
for a companion. "Come and look out of window," she said.
Carmina gently refused: she was unwilling to be disturbed. Since she had
spoken to Benjulia, her thoughts had been dwelling restfully on Ovid. In
another day she might be on her way to him. When would Teresa come?
Benjulia was too preoccupied to notice her. The weak doubt that had got
the better of his strong reason, still held him in thrall. "Love!"
he broke out, in the bitterness of his heart. "It isn't a question of
sentiment: it's a question of use. Who is the better for love?"
She heard the last words, and answered him. "Everybody is the better
for it." She looked at him with sorrowful eyes, and laid her hand on his
arm. "Everybody," she added, "but you."
He smiled scornfully. "Everybody is the better for it," he repeated.
"And who knows what it is?"
She drew away her hand, and looked towards the heavenly tranquillity of
the evening sky.
"Who knows what it is?" he reiterated.
"God," she said.
Benjulia was silent.
CHAPTER XLV.
The clock on the mantelpiece struck six. Zo, turning suddenly from the
window, ran to the sofa. "Here's the carriage!" she cried.
"Teresa!" Carmina exclaimed.
Zo crossed the room, on tiptoe, to the door of the bed-chamber. "It's
mamma," she said. "Don't tell! I'm going to hide."
"Why, dear?"
The answer to this was given mysteriously in a whisper. "She said I
wasn't to come to you. She's a quick one on her legs--she might catch me
on the stairs." With that explanation, Zo slipped into the bedroom, and
held the door ajar.
The minutes passed--and Mrs. Gallilee failed to justify the opinion
expressed by her daughter. Not a sound was audible on the stairs. Not a
word more was uttered in the room. Benjulia had taken the child's place
at the window. He sat there thinking. Carmina had suggested to him some
new ideas, relating to the intricate connection between human faith
and human happiness. Slowly, slowly, the clock recorded the lapse of
minutes. Carmina's nervous anxiety began to forecast disaster to the
absent nurse. She took Teresa's telegram from her pocket, and consulted
it again. There was no mistake; six o'clock was the time named for the
traveller's arrival--and it was close on ten minutes past the hour.
In her ignorance of railway arrangements, she took it for granted that
trains were punctual. But her reading had told her that trains were
subject to accident. "I suppose delays occur," she said to Benjulia,
"without danger to the passengers?"
Before he could answer--Mrs. Gallilee suddenly entered the room.
She had opened the door so softly, that she took them both by surprise.
To Carmina's excited imagination, she glided into their presence like
a ghost. Her look and manner showed serious agitation, desperately
suppressed. In certain places, the paint and powder on her face had
cracked, and revealed the furrows and wrinkles beneath. Her hard eyes
glittered; her laboured breathing was audible.
Indifferent to all demonstrations of emotion which did not
scientifically concern him, Benjulia quietly rose and advanced towards
her. She seemed to be unconscious of his presence. He spoke--allowing
her to ignore him without troubling himself to notice her temper. "When
you are able to attend to me, I want to speak to you. Shall I wait
downstairs?" He took his hat and stick--to leave the room; looked at
Carmina as he passed her; and at once went back to his place at the
window. Her aunt's silent and sinister entrance had frightened her.
Benjulia waited, in the interests of physiology, to see how the new
nervous excitement would end.
Thus far, Mrs. Gallilee had kept one of her hands hidden behind her. She
advanced close to Carmina, and allowed her hand to be seen. It held an
open letter. She shook the letter in her niece's face.
In the position which Mrs. Gallilee now occupied, Carmina was hidden,
for the moment, from Benjulia's view. Biding his time at the window, he
looked out.
A cab, with luggage on it, had just drawn up at the house.
Was this the old nurse who had been expected to arrive at six o'clock?
The footman came out to open the cab-door. He was followed by Mr.
Gallilee, eager to help the person inside to alight. The traveller
proved to be a grey-headed woman, shabbily dressed. Mr. Gallilee
cordially shook hands with her--patted her on the shoulder--gave her his
arm--led her into the house. The cab with the luggage on it remained
at the door. The nurse had evidently not reached the end of her journey
yet.
Carmina shrank back on the sofa, when the leaves of the letter touched
her face. Mrs. Gallilee's first words were now spoken, in a whisper. The
inner fury of her anger, struggling for a vent, began to get the better
of her--she gasped for breath and speech.
"Do you know this letter?" she said.
Carmina looked at the writing. It was the letter to Ovid, which she had
placed in the post-basket that afternoon; the letter which declared that
she could no longer endure his mother's cold-blooded cruelty, and that
she only waited Teresa's arrival to join him at Quebec.
After one dreadful moment of confusion, her mind realised the outrage
implied in the stealing and reading of her letter.
In the earlier time of Carmina's sojourn in the house, Mrs. Gallilee had
accused her of deliberate deceit. She had instantly resented the insult
by leaving the room. The same spirit in her--the finely-strung
spirit that vibrates unfelt in gentle natures, while they live in
peace--steadied those quivering nerves, roused that failing courage. She
met the furious eyes fixed on her, without shrinking; she spoke gravely
and firmly. "The letter is mine," she said. "How did you come by it?"
"How dare you ask me?"
"How dare you steal my letter?"
Mrs. Gallilee tore open the fastening of her dress at the throat, to get
breath. "You impudent bastard!" she burst out, in a frenzy of rage.
Waiting patiently at the window, Benjulia heard her. "Hold your damned
tongue!" he cried. "She's your niece."
Mrs. Gallilee turned on him: her fury broke into a screaming laugh. "My
niece?" she repeated. "You lie--and you know it! She's the child of an
adulteress! She's the child of her mother's lover!"
The door opened as those horrible words passed her lips. The nurse and
her husband entered the room.
She was in no position to see them: she was incapable of hearing them.
The demon in her urged her on: she attempted to reiterate the detestable
falsehood. Her first word died away in silence. The lean brown fingers
of the Italian woman had her by the throat--held her as the claws of
a tigress might have held her. Her eyes rolled in the mute agony of an
appeal for help. In vain! in vain! Not a cry, not a sound, had drawn
attention to the attack. Her husband's eyes were fixed, horror-struck,
on the victim of her rage. Benjulia had crossed the room to the sofa,
when Carmina heard the words spoken of her mother. From that moment, he
was watching the case. Mr. Gallilee alone looked round--when the nurse
tightened her hold in a last merciless grasp; dashed the insensible
woman on the floor; and, turning back, fell on her knees at her
darling's feet.
She looked up in Carmina's face.
A ghastly stare, through half-closed eyes, showed death in life, blankly
returning her look. The shock had struck Carmina with a stony calm. She
had not started, she had not swooned. Rigid, immovable, there she sat;
voiceless and tearless; insensible even to touch; her arms hanging down;
her clenched hands resting on either side of her.
Teresa grovelled and groaned at her feet. Those ferocious hands that had
laid the slanderer prostrate on the floor, feebly beat her bosom and
her gray head. "Oh, Saints beloved of God! Oh, blessed Virgin, mother of
Christ, spare my child, my sweet child!" She rose in wild despair--she
seized Benjulia, and madly shook him. "Who are you? How dare you touch
her? Give her to me, or I'll be the death of you. Oh, my Carmina, is it
sleep that holds you? Wake! wake! wake!"
"Listen to me," said Benjulia, sternly.
She dropped on the sofa by Carmina's side, and lifted one of the cold
clenched hands to her lips. The tears fell slowly over her haggard face.
"I am very fond of her, sir," she said humbly. "I'm only an old woman.
See what a dreadful welcome my child gives to me. It's hard on an old
woman--hard on an old woman!"
His self-possession was not disturbed--even by this.
"Do you know what I am?" he asked. "I am a doctor. Leave her to me."
"He's a doctor. That's good. A doctor's good. Yes, yes. Does the old
man know this doctor--the kind old man?" She looked vacantly for Mr.
Gallilee. He was bending over his wife, sprinkling water on her deathly
face.
Teresa got on her feet, and pointed to Mrs. Gallilee. "The breath of
that She-Devil poisons the air," she said. "I must take my child out of
it. To my place, sir, if you please. Only to my place."
She attempted to lift Carmina from the sofa--and drew back, breathlessly
watching her. Her rigid face faintly relaxed; her eyelids closed, and
quivered.
Mr. Gallilee looked up from his wife. "Will one of you help me?" he
asked. His tone struck Benjulia. It was the hushed tone of sorrow--no
more.
"I'll see to it directly." With that reply, Benjulia turned to Teresa.
"Where is your place?" he said. "Far or near?"
"The message," she answered confusedly. "The message says." She signed
to him to look in her hand-bag--dropped on the floor.
He found Carmina's telegram, containing the address of the lodgings. The
house was close by. After some consideration, he sent the nurse into the
bedroom, with instructions to bring him the blankets off the bed. In the
minute that followed, he examined Mrs. Gallilee. "There's nothing to be
frightened about. Let her maid attend to her."
Mr. Gallilee again surprised Benjulia. He turned from his wife, and
looked at Carmina. "For God's sake, don't leave her here!" he broke out.
"After what she has heard, this house is no place for her. Give her to
the old nurse!"
Benjulia only answered, as he had answered already--"I'll see to it."
Mr. Gallilee persisted. "Is there any risk in moving her?" he asked.
"It's the least of two risks. No more questions! Look to your wife."
Mr. Gallilee obeyed in silence.
When he lifted his head again, and rose to ring the bell for the maid,
the room was silent and lonely. A little pale frightened face peeped out
through the bedroom door. Zo ventured in. Her father caught her in his
arms, and kissed her as he had never kissed her yet. His eyes were wet
with tears. Zo noticed that he never said a word about mamma. The child
saw the change in her father, as Benjulia had seen it. She shared one
human feeling with her big friend--she, too, was surprised.
CHAPTER XLVI.
THE first signs of reviving life had begun to appear, when Marceline
answered the bell. In a few minutes more, it was possible to raise
Mrs. Gallilee and to place her on the sofa. Having so far assisted the
servant, Mr. Gallilee took Zo by the hand, and drew back. Daunted by the
terrible scene which she had witnessed from her hiding-place, the child
stood by her father's side in silence. The two waited together, watching
Mrs. Gallilee.
She looked wildly round the room. Discovering that she was alone
with the members of her family, she became composed: her mind slowly
recovered its balance. Her first thought was for herself.
"Has that woman disfigured me?" she said to the maid.
Knowing nothing of what had happened, Marceline was at a loss to
understand her. "Bring me a glass," she said. The maid found a
hand-glass in the bedroom, and presented it to her. She looked at
herself--and drew a long breath of relief. That first anxiety at an end,
she spoke to her husband.
"Where is Carmina?"
"Out of the house--thank God!"
The answer seemed to bewilder her: she appealed to Marceline.
"Did he say, thank God?"
"Yes, ma'am."
"Can you tell me nothing? Who knows where Carmina has gone?"
"Joseph knows, ma'am. He heard Dr. Benjulia give the address to the
cabman." With that answer, she turned anxiously to her master. "Is Miss
Carmina seriously ill, sir?"
Her mistress spoke again, before Mr. Gallilee could reply. "Marceline!
send Joseph up here."
"No," said Mr. Gallilee.
His wife eyed him with astonishment. "Why not?" she asked.
He said quietly, "I forbid it."
Mrs. Gallilee addressed herself to the maid. "Go to my room, and bring
me another bonnet and a veil. Stop!" She tried to rise, and sank back.
"I must have something to strengthen me. Get the sal volatile."
Marceline left the room. Mr. Gallilee followed her as far as the
door--still leading his little daughter.
"Go back, my dear, to your sister in the schoolroom," he said. "I am
distressed, Zo; be a good girl, and you will console me. Say the same to
Maria. It will be dull for you, I am afraid. Be patient, my child, and
try to bear it for a while."
"May I whisper something?" said Zo. "Will Carmina die?"
"God forbid!"
"Will they bring her back here?"
In her eagerness, the child spoke above a whisper. Mrs. Gallilee heard
the question, and answered it.
"They will bring Carmina back," she said, "the moment I can get out."
Zo looked at her father. "Do you say that?" she asked.
He shook his head gravely, and told her again to go to the schoolroom.
On the first landing she stopped, and looked back. "I'll be good, papa,"
she said--and went on up the stairs.
Having reached the schoolroom, she became the object of many
questions--not one of which she answered. Followed by the dog, she sat
down in a corner. "What are you thinking about?" her sister inquired.
This time she was willing to reply. "I'm thinking about Carmina."
Mr. Gallilee closed the door when Zo left him. He took a chair, without
speaking to his wife or looking at her.
"What are you here for?" she asked.
"I must wait," he said.
"What for?"
"To see what you do."
Marceline returned, and administered a dose of sal volatile.
Strengthened by the stimulant, Mrs. Gallilee was able to rise. "My head
is giddy," she said, as she took the maid's arm; "but I think I can get
downstairs with your help."
Mr. Gallilee silently followed them out.
At the head of the stairs the giddiness increased. Firm as her
resolution might be, it gave way before the bodily injury which Mrs.
Gallilee had received. Her husband's help was again needed to take her
to her bedroom. She stopped them at the ante-chamber; still obstinately
bent on following her own designs. "I shall be better directly," she
said; "put me on the sofa." Marceline relieved her of her bonnet and
veil, and asked respectfully if there was any other service required.
She looked defiantly at her husband, and reiterated the order--"Send for
Joseph." Intelligent resolution is sometimes shaken; the inert obstinacy
of a weak creature, man or animal, is immovable. Mr. Gallilee dismissed
the maid with these words: "You needn't wait, my good girl--I'll speak
to Joseph myself, downstairs."
His wife heard him with amazement and contempt. "Are you in your right
senses?" she asked.
He paused on his way out. "You were always hard and headstrong," he
said sadly; "I knew that. A cleverer man than I am might--I suppose it's
possible--a clear-headed man might have found out how wicked you are."
She lay, thinking; indifferent to anything he could say to her. "Are you
not ashamed?" he asked wonderingly. "And not even sorry?" She paid no
heed to him. He left her.
Descending to the hall, he was met by Joseph. "Doctor Benjulia has come
back, sir. He wishes to see you."
"Where is he?"
"In the library."
"Wait, Joseph; I have something to say to you. If your mistress asks
where they have taken Miss Carmina, you mustn't--this is my order,
Joseph--you mustn't tell her. If you have mentioned it to any of the
other servants--it's quite likely they may have asked you, isn't it?" he
said, falling into his old habit for a moment. "If you have mentioned
it to the others," he resumed, "they mustn't tell her. That's all, my
good man; that's all."
To his own surprise, Joseph found himself regarding his master with a
feeling of respect. Mr. Gallilee entered the library.
"How is she?" he asked, eager for news of Carmina.
"The worse for being moved," Benjulia replied. "What about your wife?"
Answering that question, Mr. Gallilee mentioned the precautions that he
had taken to keep the secret of Teresa's address.
"You need be under no anxiety about that," said Benjulia. "I have left
orders that Mrs. Gallilee is not to be admitted. There is a serious
necessity for keeping her out. In these cases of partial catalepsy,
there is no saying when the change may come. When it does come, I won't
answer for her niece's reason, if those two see each other again. Send
for you own medical man. The girl is his patient, and he is the person
on whom the responsibility rests. Let the servant take my card to him
directly. We can meet in consultation at the house."
He wrote a line on one of his visiting cards. It was at once sent to Mr.
Null.
"There's another matter to be settled before I go," Benjulia proceeded.
"Here are some papers, which I have received from your lawyer, Mr. Moot.
They relate to a slander, which your wife unfortunately repeated--"
Mr. Gallilee got up from his chair. "Don't take my mind back to
that--pray don't!" he pleaded earnestly. "I can't bear it, Doctor
Benjulia--I can't bear it! Please to excuse my rudeness: it isn't
intentional--I don't know myself what's the matter with me. I've always
led a quiet life, sir; I'm not fit for such things as these. Don't
suppose I speak selfishly. I'll do what I can, if you will kindly spare
me."
He might as well have appealed to the sympathy of the table at which
they were sitting. Benjulia was absolutely incapable of understanding
the state of mind which those words revealed.
"Can you take these papers to your wife?" he asked. "I called here this
evening--being the person to blame--to set the matter right. As it is,
I leave her to make the discovery for herself. I desire to hold no more
communication with your wife. Have you anything to say to me before I
go?"
"Only one thing. Is there any harm in my calling at the house, to ask
how poor Carmina goes on?"
"Ask as often as you like--provided Mrs. Gallilee doesn't accompany
you. If she's obstinate, it may not be amiss to give your wife a word of
warning. In my opinion, the old nurse is not likely to let her off, next
time, with her life. I've had a little talk with that curious foreign
savage. I said, 'You have committed, what we consider in England, a
murderous assault. If Mrs. Gallilee doesn't mind the public exposure,
you may find yourself in a prison.' She snapped her fingers in my face.
'Suppose I find myself with the hangman's rope round my neck,' she said,
'what do I care, so long as Carmina is safe from her aunt?' After
that pretty answer, she sat down by her girl's bedside, and burst out
crying."
Mr. Gallilee listened absently: his mind still dwelt on Carmina.
"I meant well," he said, "when I asked you to take her out of this
house. It's no wonder if I was wrong. What I am too stupid to
understand is--why you allowed her to be moved."
Benjulia listened with a grim smile; Mr. Gallilee's presumption amused
him.
"I wonder whether there was any room left for memory, when nature
furnished your narrow little head," he answered pleasantly. "Didn't
I say that moving her was the least of two risks? And haven't I just
warned you of what might have happened, if we had left your wife and her
niece together in the same house? When I do a thing at my time of life,
Mr. Gallilee--don't think me conceited--I know why I do it."
While he was speaking of himself in these terms, he might have said
something more. He might have added, that his dread of the loss of
Carmina's reason really meant his dread of a commonplace termination to
an exceptionally interesting case. He might also have acknowledged, that
he was not yielding obedience to the rules of professional etiquette,
in confiding the patient to her regular medical attendant, but following
the selfish suggestions of his own critical judgment.
His experience, brief as it had been, had satisfied him that stupid Mr.
Null's course of action could be trusted to let the instructive progress
of the malady proceed. Mr. Null would treat the symptoms in perfect
good faith--without a suspicion of the nervous hysteria which, in such a
constitution as Carmina's, threatened to establish itself, in course
of time, as the hidden cause. These motives--not only excused, but even
ennobled, by their scientific connection with the interests of Medical
Research--he might have avowed, under more favourable circumstances.
While his grand discovery was still barely within reach, Doctor Benjulia
stood committed to a system of diplomatic reserve, which even included
simple Mr. Gallilee.
He took his hat and stick, and walked out into the hall. "Can I be of
further use?" he asked carelessly. "You will hear about the patient from
Mr. Null."
"You won't desert Carmina?" said Mr. Gallilee. "You will see her
yourself, from time to time--won't you?"
"Don't be afraid; I'll look after her." He spoke sincerely in saying
this. Carmina's case had already suggested new ideas. Even the civilised
savage of modern physiology (where his own interests are concerned) is
not absolutely insensible to a feeling of gratitude.
Mr. Gallilee opened the door for him.
"By the-bye," he added, as he stepped out, "what's become of Zo?"
"She's upstairs, in the schoolroom."
He made one of his dreary jokes. "Tell her, when she wants to be tickled
again, to let me know. Good-evening!"
Mr. Gallilee returned to the upper part of the house, with the papers
left by Benjulia in his hand. Arriving at the dressing-room door, he
hesitated. The papers were enclosed in a sealed envelope, addressed
to his wife. Secured in this way from inquisitive eyes, there was no
necessity for personally presenting them. He went on to the schoolroom,
and beckoned to the parlour-maid to come out, and speak to him.
Having instructed her to deliver the papers--telling her mistress that
they had been left at the house by Doctor Benjulia--he dismissed the
woman from duty. "You needn't return," he said; "I'll look after the
children myself."
Maria was busy with her book; and even idle Zo was employed!
She was writing at her own inky desk; and she looked up in confusion,
when her father appeared. Unsuspicious Mr. Gallilee took if for granted
that his favourite daughter was employed on a writing lesson--following
Maria's industrious example for once. "Good children!" he said, looking
affectionately from one to the other. "I won't disturb you; go on." He
took a chair, satisfied--comforted, even--to be in the same room with
the girls.
If he had placed himself nearer to the desk, he might have seen that Zo
had been thinking of Carmina to some purpose.
What could she do to make her friend and playfellow well and happy
again? There was the question which Zo asked herself, after having seen
Carmina carried insensible out of the room.
Possessed of that wonderful capacity for minute observation of the
elder persons about them, which is one among the many baffling mysteries
presented by the minds of children, Zo had long since discovered that
the member of the household, preferred to all others by Carmina, was the
good brother who had gone away and left them. In his absence, she was
always talking of him--and Zo had seen her kiss his photograph before
she put it back in the case.
Dwelling on these recollections, the child's slowly-working mental
process arrived more easily than usual at the right conclusion. The way
to make Carmina well and happy again, was to bring Ovid back. One of the
two envelopes which he had directed for her still remained--waiting for
the letter which might say to him, "Come home!"
Zo determined to write that letter--and to do it at once.
She might have confided this design to her father (the one person
besides Carmina who neither scolded her nor laughed at her) if Mr.
Gallilee had distinguished himself by his masterful position in the
house. But she had seen him, as everybody else had seen him, "afraid
of mamma." The doubt whether he might not "tell mamma," decided her on
keeping her secret. As the event proved, the one person who informed
Ovid of the terrible necessity that existed for his return, was the
little sister whom it had been his last kind effort to console when he
left England.
When Mr. Gallilee entered the room, Zo had just reached the end of
her letter. Her system of composition excluded capitals and stops; and
reduced all the words in the English language, by a simple process of
abridgment, to words of one syllable.
"dear ov you come back car is ill she wants you be quick be quick don't
say I writ this miss min is gone I hate books I like you zo."
With the pen still in her hand, the wary writer looked round at her
father. She had her directed envelope (sadly crumpled) in her pocket;
but she was afraid to take it out. "Maria," she thought, "would know
what to do in my place. Horrid Maria!"
Fortune, using the affairs of the household as an instrument, befriended
Zo. In a minute more her opportunity arrived. The parlour-maid
unexpectedly returned. She addressed Mr. Gallilee with the air
of mystery in which English servants, in possession of a message,
especially delight. "If you please, sir, Joseph wishes to speak to you."
"Where is he?"
"Outside, sir."
"Tell him to come in."
Thanks to the etiquette of the servants' hall--which did not permit
Joseph to present himself, voluntarily, in the regions above
the drawing-room, without being first represented by an
ambassadress--attention was now diverted from the children. Zo folded
her letter, enclosed it in the envelope, and hid it in her pocket.
Joseph appeared. "I beg your pardon, sir, I don't quite know whether I
ought to disturb my mistress. Mr. Le Frank has called, and asked if he
can see her."
Mr. Gallilee consulted the parlour-maid. "Was your mistress asleep when
I sent you to her?"
"No, sir. She told me to bring her a cup of tea."
On those rare former occasions, when Mrs. Gallilee had been ill, her
attentive husband never left it to the servants to consult her wishes.
That time had gone by for ever.
"Tell your mistress, Joseph, that Mr. Le Frank is here."
CHAPTER XLVII.
The slander on which Mrs. Gallilee had reckoned, as a means of
separating Ovid and Carmina, was now a slander refuted by unanswerable
proof. And the man whose exertions had achieved this result, was her
own lawyer--the agent whom she had designed to employ, in asserting that
claim of the guardian over the ward which Teresa had defied.
As a necessary consequence, the relations between Mr. Mool and herself
were already at an end.
There she lay helpless--her authority set at naught; her person outraged
by a brutal attack--there she lay, urged to action by every reason that
a resolute woman could have for asserting her power, and avenging her
wrong--without a creature to take her part, without an accomplice to
serve her purpose.
She got on her feet, with the resolution of despair. Her heart sank--the
room whirled round her--she dropped back on the sofa. In a recumbent
position, the giddiness subsided. She could ring the hand-bell on the
table at her side. "Send instantly for Mr. Null," she said to the maid.
"If he is out, let the messenger follow him, wherever he may be."
The messenger came back with a note. Mr. Null would call on Mrs.
Gallilee as soon as possible. He was then engaged in attendance on Miss
Carmina.
At that discovery, Mrs. Gallilee's last reserves of independent
resolution gave way. The services of her own medical attendant were
only at her disposal, when Carmina had done with him! At the top of his
letter the address, which she had thus far tried vainly to discover,
stared her in the face: the house was within five minutes' walk--and
she was not even able to cross the room! For the first time in her life,
Mrs. Gallilee's imperious spirit acknowledged defeat. For the first time
in her life, she asked herself the despicable question: Who can I find
to help me?
Someone knocked at the door.
"Who is it?" she cried.
Joseph's voice answered her. "Mr. Le Frank has called, ma'am--and wishes
to know if you can see him."
She never stopped to think. She never even sent for the maid to see to
her personal appearance. The horror of her own helplessness drove her
on. Here was the man, whose timely betrayal of Carmina had stopped
her on her way to Ovid, in the nick of time! Here was the self-devoted
instrument, waiting to be employed.
"I'll see Mr. Le Frank," she said. "Show him up."
The music-master looked round the obscurely lit room, and bowed to the
recumbent figure on the sofa.
"I fear I disturb you, madam, at an inconvenient time."
"I am suffering from illness, Mr. Le Frank; but I am able to receive
you--as you see."
She stopped there. Now, when she saw him, and heard him, some perverse
hesitation in her began to doubt him. Now, when it was too late, she
weakly tried to put herself on her guard. What a decay of energy (she
felt it herself) in the ready and resolute woman, equal to any emergency
at other times! "To what am I to attribute the favour of your visit?"
she resumed.
Even her voice failed her: it faltered in spite of her efforts to steady
it. Mr. Le Frank's vanity drew its own encouraging conclusion from this
one circumstance.
"I am anxious to know how I stand in your estimation," he replied.
"Early this evening, I left a few lines here, enclosing a letter--with
my compliments. Have you received the letter?"
"Yes."
"Have you read it?"
Mrs. Gallilee hesitated. Mr. Le Frank smiled.
"I won't trouble you, madam, for any more direct reply," he said; "I
will speak plainly. Be so good as to tell me plainly, on your side,
which I am--a man who has disgraced himself by stealing a letter? or a
man who has distinguished himself by doing you a service?"
An unpleasant alternative, neatly defined! To disavow Mr. Le Frank or to
use Mr. Le Frank--there was the case for Mrs. Gallilee's consideration.
She was incapable of pronouncing judgment; the mere effort of decision,
after what she had suffered, fatigued and irritated her. "I can't deny,"
she said, with weary resignation, "that you have done me a service."
He rose, and made a generous return for the confidence that had been
placed in him--he repeated his magnificent bow, and sat down again.
"Our position towards each other seems too plain to be mistaken," he
proceeded. "Your niece's letter--perfectly useless for the purpose with
which I opened it--offers me a means of being even with Miss Carmina,
and a chance of being useful to You. Shall I begin by keeping an eye on
the young lady?"
"Is that said, Mr. Le Frank, out of devotion to me?"
"My devotion to you might wear out," he answered audaciously. "You may
trust my feeling towards your niece to last--I never forget an injury.
Is it indiscreet to inquire how you mean to keep Miss Carmina from
joining her lover in Quebec? Does a guardian's authority extend to
locking her up in her room?"
Mrs. Gallilee felt the underlying familiarity in these
questions--elaborately concealed as it was under an assumption of
respect.
"My niece is no longer in my house," she answered coldly.
"Gone!" cried Mr. Le Frank.
She corrected the expression. "Removed," she said, and dropped the
subject there.
Mr. Le Frank took the subject up again. "Removed, I presume, under the
care of her nurse?" he rejoined.
The nurse? What did he know about the nurse? "May I ask--?" Mrs.
Gallilee began.
He smiled indulgently, and stopped her there. "You are not quite
yourself to-night," he said. "Permit me to remind you that your niece's
letter to Mr. Ovid Vere is explicit, and that I took the liberty of
reading it before I left it at your house."
Mrs. Gallilee listened in silence, conscious that she had committed
another error. She had carefully excluded from her confidence a man
who was already in possession of her secrets! Mr. Le Frank's courteous
sympathy forbade him to take advantage of the position of superiority
which he now held.
"I will do myself the honour of calling again," he said, "when you are
better able to place the right estimate on my humble offers of service.
I wouldn't fatigue you, Mrs. Gallilee, for the world! At the same time,
permit me to put one last question which ought not to be delayed. When
Miss Carmina left you, did she take away her writing-desk and her keys?"
"No."
"Allow me to suggest that she may send for them at any moment."
Before it was possible to ask for an explanation, Joseph presented
himself again. Mr. Null was waiting downstairs. Mrs. Gallilee arranged
that he should be admitted when she rang her bell. Mr. Le Frank
approached the sofa, when they were alone, and returned to his
suggestion in a whisper.
"Surely, you see the importance of using your niece's keys?" he resumed.
"We don't know what correspondence may have been going on, in which
the nurse and the governess have been concerned. After we have already
intercepted a letter, hesitation is absurd! You are not equal to the
effort yourself. I know the room. Don't be afraid of discovery; I have a
naturally soft footfall--and my excuse is ready, if somebody else has a
soft footfall too. Leave it to me."
He lit a candle as he spoke. But for that allusion to the nurse, Mrs.
Gallilee might have ordered him to blow it out again. Eager for any
discovery which might, by the barest possibility, place Teresa at her
mercy, she silently submitted to Mr. Le Frank. "I'll call to-morrow," he
said--and slipped out of the room.
When Mr. Null was announced, Mrs. Gallilee pushed up the shade over
the globe of the lamp. Her medical attendant's face might be worth
observing, under a clear light.
His timid look, his confused manner, when he made the conventional
apologies, told her at once that Teresa had spoken, and that he knew
what had happened. Even he had never before been so soothing and so
attentive. But he forgot, or he was afraid, to consult appearances
by asking what was the matter, before he felt the pulse, and took the
temperature, and wrote his prescription. Not a word was uttered by
Mrs. Gallilee, until the medical formalities came to an end. "Is there
anything more that I can do?" he asked.
"You can tell me," she said, "when I shall be well again."
Mr. Null was polite; Mr. Null was sympathetic. Mrs. Gallilee might
be herself again in a day or two--or Mrs. Gallilee might be unhappily
confined to her room for some little time. He had hope in his
prescription, and hope in perfect quiet and repose--he would suggest the
propriety of going to bed at once, and would not fail to call early the
next morning.
"Sit down again," said Mrs. Gallilee.
Mr. Null turned pale. He foresaw what was coming.
"You have been in attendance on Miss Carmina. I wish to know what her
illness is."
Mr. Null began to prevaricate at the outset. "The case causes us serious
anxiety. The complications are formidable. Doctor Benjulia himself--"
"In plain words, Mr. Null, can she be moved?"
This produced a definite answer. "Quite impossible."
She only ventured to put her next question after waiting a little to
control herself.
"Is that foreign woman, the nurse--the only nurse--in attendance?"
"Don't speak of her, Mrs. Gallilee! A dreadful woman; coarse, furious, a
perfect savage. When I suggested a second nurse--"
"I understand. You asked just now if you could do anything for me. You
can do me a great service--you can recommend me a trustworthy lawyer."
Mr. Null was surprised. As the old medical attendant of the family, he
was not unacquainted with the legal adviser. He mentioned Mr. Mool's
name.
"Mr. Mool has forfeited my confidence," Mrs. Gallilee announced. "Can
you, or can you not, recommend a lawyer?"
"Oh, certainly! My own lawyer."
"You will find writing materials on the table behind me. I won't keep
you more than five minutes. I want you to write from my dictation."
"My dear lady, in your present condition--"
"Do as I tell you! My head is quiet while I lie down. Even a woman in
my condition can say what she means to do. I shall not close my eyes
tonight, unless I can feel that I have put that wretch in her right
place. Who are your lawyers?"
Mr. Null mentioned the names, and took up his pen.
"Introduce me in the customary form," Mrs. Gallilee proceeded; "and then
refer the lawyers to my brother's Will. Is it done?"
In due time it was done.
"Tell them next, how my niece has been taken away from me, and where she
has been taken to."
To the best of his ability, Mr. Null complied.
"Now," said Mrs. Gallilee, "write what I mean to do!"
The prospect of being revenged on Teresa revived her. For the moment, at
least, she almost looked like herself again.
Mr. Null turned over to a new leaf, with a hand that trembled a little.
The dictating voice pronounced these words:
"I forbid the woman Teresa to act in the capacity of nurse to Miss
Carmina, and even to enter the room in which that young lady is now
lying ill. I further warn this person, that my niece will be restored to
my care, the moment her medical attendants allow her to be removed.
And I desire my legal advisers to assert my authority, as guardian,
to-morrow morning."
Mr. Null finished his task in silent dismay. He took out his
handkerchief and wiped his forehead.
"Is there any very terrible effort required in saying those few
words--even to a shattered creature like me?" Mrs. Gallilee asked
bitterly. "Let me hear that the lawyers have got their instructions,
when you come to-morrow; and give me the name and address of a nurse
whom you can thoroughly recommend. Good-night!"
At last, Mr. Null got away. As he softly closed the dressing-room door,
the serious question still dwelt on his mind: What would Teresa do?
CHAPTER XLVIII.
Even in the welcome retirement of the school-room, Mr. Gallilee's mind
was not at ease. He was troubled by a question entirely new to him--the
question of himself, in the character of husband and father.
Accustomed through long years of conjugal association to look up to his
wife as a superior creature, he was now conscious that her place in his
estimation had been lost, beyond recovery. If he considered next what
ought to be done with Maria and Zo, he only renewed his perplexity
and distress. To leave them (as he had hitherto left them) absolutely
submitted to their mother's authority, was to resign his children to the
influence of a woman, who had ceased to be the object of his confidence
and respect. He pondered over it in the schoolroom; he pondered over it
when he went to bed. On the next morning, he arrived at a conclusion in
the nature of a compromise. He decided on applying to his good friend,
Mr. Mool, for a word of advice.
His first proceeding was to call at Teresa's lodgings, in the hope of
hearing better news of Carmina.
The melancholy report of her was expressed in two words: No change. He
was so distressed that he asked to see the landlady; and tried, in his
own helpless kindhearted way, to get a little hopeful information by
asking questions--useless questions, repeated over and over again in
futile changes of words. The landlady was patient: she respected the
undisguised grief of the gentle modest old man; but she held to the
hard truth. The one possible answer was the answer which her servant had
already given. When she followed him out, to open the door, Mr. Gallilee
requested permission to wait a moment in the hall. "If you will allow
me, ma'am, I'll wipe my eyes before I go into the street."
Arriving at the office without an appointment, he found the lawyer
engaged. A clerk presented to him a slip of paper, with a line written
by Mr. Mool: "Is it anything of importance?" Simple Mr. Gallilee
wrote back: "Oh, dear, no; it's only me! I'll call again." Besides
his critical judgment in the matter of champagne, this excellent man
possessed another accomplishment--a beautiful handwriting. Mr. Mool,
discovering a crooked line and some ill-formed letters in the reply,
drew his own conclusions. He sent word to his old friend to wait.
In ten minutes more they were together, and the lawyer was informed of
the events that had followed the visit of Benjulia to Fairfield Gardens,
on the previous day.
For a while, the two men sat silently meditating--daunted by the
prospect before them. When the time came for speaking, they exercised an
influence over each other, of which both were alike unconscious. Out
of their common horror of Mrs. Gallilee's conduct, and their common
interest in Carmina, they innocently achieved between them the creation
of one resolute man.
"My dear Gallilee, this is a very serious thing."
"My dear Mool, I feel it so--or I shouldn't have disturbed you."
"Don't talk of disturbing me! I see so many complications ahead of us, I
hardly know where to begin."
"Just my case! It's a comfort to me that you feel it as I do."
Mr. Mool rose and tried walking up and down his room, as a means of
stimulating his ingenuity.
"There's this poor young lady," he resumed. "If she gets better--"
"Don't put it in that way!" Mr. Gallilee interposed. "It sounds as if
you doubted her ever getting well--you see it yourself in that light,
don't you? Be a little more positive, Mool, in mercy to me."
"By all means," Mr. Mool agreed. "Let us say, when she gets better.
But the difficulty meets us, all the same. If Mrs. Gallilee claims her
right, what are we to do?"
Mr. Gallilee rose in his turn, and took a walk up and down the room.
That well-meant experiment only left him feebler than ever.
"What possessed her brother to make her Carmina's guardian?" he
asked--with the nearest approach to irritability of which he was
capable.
The lawyer was busy with his own thoughts. He only enlightened Mr.
Gallilee after the question had been repeated.
"I had the sincerest regard for Mr. Robert Graywell," he said. "A
better husband and father--and don't let me forget it, a more
charming artist--never lived. But," said Mr. Mool, with the air of one
strong-minded man appealing to another: "weak, sadly weak. If you will
allow me to say so, your wife's self-asserting way--well, it was
so unlike her brother's way, that it had its effect on him! If Lady
Northlake had been a little less quiet and retiring, the matter might
have ended in a very different manner. As it was (I don't wish to put
the case offensively) Mrs. Gallilee imposed on him--and there she is, in
authority, under the Will. Let that be. We must protect this poor girl.
We must act!" cried Mr. Mool with a burst of energy.
"We must act!" Mr. Gallilee repeated--and feebly clenched his fist, and
softly struck the table.
"I think I have an idea," the lawyer proceeded; "suggested by something
said to me by Miss Carmina herself. May I ask if you are in her
confidence?"
Mr. Gallilee's face brightened at this. "Certainly," he answered. "I
always kiss her when we say good-night, and kiss her again when we say
good-morning."
This proof of his friend's claims as Carmina's chosen adviser, seemed
rather to surprise Mr. Mool. "Did she ever hint at an idea of hastening
her marriage?" he inquired.
Plainly as the question was put, it thoroughly puzzled Mr. Gallilee. His
honest face answered for him--he was not in Carmina's confidence. Mr.
Mool returned to his idea.
"The one thing we can do," he said, "is to hasten Mr. Ovid's return.
There is the only course to take--as I see it."
"Let's do it at once!" cried Mr. Gallilee.
"But tell me," Mr. Mool insisted, greedy for encouragement--"does my
suggestion relieve your mind?"
"It's the first happy moment I've had to-day!" Mr. Gallilee's weak voice
piped high: he was getting firmer and firmer with every word he uttered.
One of them produced a telegraph-form; the other seized a pen. "Shall we
send the message in your name?" Mr. Mool asked.
If Mr. Gallilee had possessed a hundred names he would have sent them
(and paid for them) all. "John Gallilee, 14 Fairfield Gardens, London,
To--" There the pen stopped. Ovid was still in the wilds of Canada. The
one way of communicating with him was through the medium of the bankers
at Quebec, To the bankers, accordingly, the message was sent. "Please
telegraph Mr. Ovid Vere's address, the moment you know it."
When the telegram had been sent to the office, an interval of inaction
followed. Mr. Gallilee's fortitude suffered a relapse. "It's a long time
to wait," he said.
His friend agreed with him. Morally speaking, Mr. Mool's strength lay
in points of law. No point of law appeared to be involved in the present
conference: he shared Mr. Gallilee's depression of spirits. "We
are quite helpless," he remarked, "till Mr. Ovid comes back. In
the interval, I see no choice for Miss Carmina but to submit to her
guardian; unless--" He looked hard at Mr. Gallilee, before he finished
his sentence. "Unless," he resumed, "you can get over your present
feeling about your wife."
"Get over it?" Mr. Gallilee repeated.
"It seems quite impossible now, I dare say," the worthy lawyer admitted.
"A very painful impression has been produced on you. Naturally!
naturally! But the force of habit--a married life of many years--your
own kind feeling--"
"What do you mean?" asked Mr. Gallilee, bewildered, impatient, almost
angry.
"A little persuasion on your part, my good friend--at the interesting
moment of reconciliation--might be followed by excellent results. Mrs.
Gallilee might not object to waive her claims, until time has softened
existing asperities. Surely, a compromise is possible, if you could only
prevail on yourself to forgive your wife."
"Forgive her? I should be only too glad to forgive her!" cried Mr.
Gallilee, bursting into violent agitation. "How am I to do it? Good God!
Mool, how am I to do it? You didn't hear those infamous words. You
didn't see that dreadful death-struck look of the poor girl. I declare
to you I turn cold when I think of my wife! I can't go to her when I
ought to go--I send the servants into her room. My children, too--my
dear good children--it's enough to break one's heart--think of their
being brought up by a mother who could say what she said, and do--What
will they see, I ask you what will they see, if she gets Carmina back in
the house, and treats that sweet young creature as she will treat her?
There were times last night, when I thought of going away for ever--Lord
knows where--and taking the girls with me. What am I talking about? I
had something to say, and I don't know what it is; I don't know my
own self! There, there; I'll keep quiet. It's my poor stupid head, I
suppose--hot, Mool, burning hot. Let's be reasonable. Yes, yes, yes;
let's be reasonable. You're a lawyer. I said to myself, when I came
here, 'I want Mool's advice.' Be a dear good fellow--set my mind at
ease. Oh, my friend, my old friend, what can I do for my children?"
Amazed and distressed--utterly at a loss how to interfere to any
good purpose--Mr. Mool recovered his presence of mind, the moment Mr.
Gallilee appealed to him in his legal capacity. "Don't distress yourself
about your children," he said kindly. "Thank God, we stand on firm
ground, there."
"Do you mean it, Mool?"
"I mean it. Where your daughters are concerned, the authority is yours.
Be firm, Gallilee! be firm!"
"I will! You set me the example--don't you? You're firm--eh?"
"Firm as a rock. I agree with you. For the present at least, the
children must be removed."
"At once, Mool!"
"At once!" the lawyer repeated.
They had wrought each other up to the right pitch of resolution, by this
time. They were almost loud enough for the clerks to hear them in the
office.
"No matter what my wife may say!" Mr. Gallilee stipulated.
"No matter what she may say," Mr. Mool rejoined, "the father is master."
"And you know the law."
"And I know the law. You have only to assert yourself."
"And you have only to back me."
"For your children's sake, Gallilee!"
"Under my lawyer's advice, Mool!"
The one resolute Man was produced at last--without a flaw in him
anywhere. They were both exhausted by the effort. Mr. Mool suggested a
glass of wine.
Mr. Gallilee ventured on a hint. "You don't happen to have a drop of
champagne handy?" he said.
The lawyer rang for his housekeeper. In five minutes, they were pledging
each other in foaming tumblers. In five minutes more, they plunged back
into business. The question of the best place to which the children
could be removed, was easily settled. Mr. Mool offered his own house;
acknowledging modestly that it had perhaps one drawback--it was within
easy reach of Mrs. Gallilee. The statement of this objection stimulated
his friend's memory. Lady Northlake was in Scotland. Lady Northlake had
invited Maria and Zo, over and over again, to pass the autumn with their
cousins; but Mrs. Gallilee's jealousy had always contrived to find some
plausible reason for refusal. "Write at once," Mr. Mool advised. "You
may do it in two lines. Your wife is ill; Miss Carmina is ill; you are
not able to leave London--and the children are pining for fresh air." In
this sense, Mr. Gallilee wrote. He insisted on having the letter sent to
the post immediately. "I know it's long before post-time," he explained.
"But I want to compose my mind."
The lawyer paused, with his glass of wine at his lips. "I say! You're
not hesitating already?"
"No more than you are," Mr. Gallilee answered.
"You will really send the girls away?"
"The girls shall go, on the day when Lady Northlake invites them."
"I'll make a note of that," said Mr. Mool.
He made the note; and they rose to say good-bye. Faithful Mr. Gallilee
still thought of Carmina. "Do consider it again!" he said at parting.
"Are you sure the law won't help her?"
"I might look at her father's Will," Mr. Mool replied.
Mr. Gallilee saw the hopeful side of this suggestion, in the brightest
colours. "Why didn't you think of it before?" he asked.
Mr. Mool gently remonstrated. "Don't forget how many things I have on
my mind," he said. "It only occurs to me now that the Will may give us
a remedy--if there is any open opposition to the ward's marriage
engagement, on the guardian's part."
There he stopped; knowing Mrs. Gallilee's methods of opposition too
well to reckon hopefully on such a result as this. But he was a merciful
man--and he kept his misgivings to himself.
On the way home, Mr. Gallilee encountered his wife's maid. Marceline was
dropping a letter into the pillar-post-box at the corner of the Square;
she changed colour, on seeing her master. "Corresponding with her
sweetheart," Mr. Gallilee concluded.
Entering the house with an unfinished cigar in his mouth, he made
straight for the smoking-room--and passed his youngest daughter, below
him, waiting out of sight on the kitchen stairs.
"Have you done it?" Zo whispered, when Marceline returned by the
servants' entrance.
"It's safe in the post, dear. Now tell me what you saw yesterday, when
you were hidden in Miss Carmina's bedroom."
The tone in which she spoke implied a confidential agreement. With
honourable promptitude Zo, perched on her friend's knee, exerted her
memory, and rewarded Marceline for posting her letter to Ovid.
CHAPTER XLIX.
It was past the middle of the day, before Mr. Le Frank paid his promised
visit to Mrs. Gallilee. He entered the room with gloomy looks; and made
his polite inquiries, as became a depressed musician, in the minor key.
"I am sorry, madam, to find you still on the sofa. Is there no
improvement in your health?"
"None whatever."
"Does your medical attendant give you any hope?"
"He does what they all do--he preaches patience. No more of myself! You
appear to be in depressed spirits."
Mr. Le Frank admitted with a sigh that appearances had not
misrepresented him. "I have been bitterly disappointed," he said. "My
feelings as an artist are wounded to the quick. But why do I trouble you
with my poor little personal affairs? I humbly beg your pardon."
His eyes accompanied this modest apology with a look of uneasy
anticipation: he evidently expected to be asked to explain himself.
Events had followed her instructions to Mr. Null, which left Mrs.
Gallilee in need of employing her music-master's services. She felt the
necessity of exerting herself; and did it--with an effort.
"You have no reason, I hope, to complain of your pupils?" she said.
"At this time of year, madam, I have no pupils. They are all out of
town."
She was too deeply preoccupied by her own affairs to trouble herself any
further. The direct way was the easy way. She said wearily, "Well, what
is it?"
He answered in plain terms, this time.
"A bitter humiliation, Mrs. Gallilee! I have been made to regret that
I asked you to honour me by accepting the dedication of my Song. The
music-sellers, on whom the sale depends, have not taken a tenth part of
the number of copies for which we expected them to subscribe. Has some
extraordinary change come over the public taste? My composition has
been carefully based on fashionable principles--that is to say, on the
principles of the modern German school. As little tune as possible;
and that little strictly confined to the accompaniment. And what is
the result? Loss confronts me, instead of profit--my agreement makes
me liable for half the expenses of publication. And, what is far more
serious in my estimation, your honoured name is associated with a
failure! Don't notice me--the artist nature--I shall be better in a
minute." He took out a profusely-scented handkerchief, and buried his
face in it with a groan.
Mrs. Gallilee's hard common sense understood the heart-broken composer
to perfection.
"Stupid of me not to have offered him money yesterday," she thought:
"this waste of time need never have happened." She set her mistake right
with admirable brevity and directness. "Don't distress yourself, Mr.
Le Frank. Now my name is on it, the Song is mine. If your publisher's
account is not satisfactory--be so good as to send it to me." Mr. Le
Frank dropped his dry handkerchief, and sprang theatrically to his feet.
His indulgent patroness refused to hear him: to this admirable woman,
the dignity of Art was a sacred thing. "Not a word more on that
subject," she said. "Tell me how you prospered last night. Your
investigations cannot have been interrupted, or I should have heard
of it. Come to the result! Have you found anything of importance in my
niece's room?"
Mr. Le Frank had again been baffled, so far as the confirmation of
his own suspicions was concerned. But the time was not favourable to a
confession of personal disappointment. He understood the situation; and
made himself the hero of it, in three words.
"Judge for yourself," he said--and held out the letter of warning from
Father Patrizio.
In silence, Mrs. Gallilee read the words which declared her to be the
object of Teresa's inveterate resentment, and which charged Carmina with
the serious duty of keeping the peace.
"Does it alarm you?" Mr. Le Frank asked.
"I hardly know what I feel," she answered. "Give me time to think."
Mr. Le Frank went back to his chair. He had reason to congratulate
himself already: he had shifted to other shoulders the pecuniary
responsibility involved in the failure of his Song. Observing Mrs.
Gallilee, he began to see possibilities of a brighter prospect still.
Thus far she had kept him at a certain distance. Was the change of
mind coming, which would admit him to the position (with all its solid
advantages) of a confidential friend?
She suddenly took up Father Patrizio's letter, and showed it to him.
"What impression does it produce on you," she asked, "knowing no more
than you know now?"
"The priest's cautious language, madam, speaks for itself. You have an
enemy who will stick at nothing."
She still hesitated to trust him.
"You see me here," she went on, "confined to my room; likely, perhaps,
to be in this helpless condition for some time to come. How would you
protect yourself against that woman, in my place?"
"I should wait."
"For what purpose?"
"If you will allow me to use the language of the card-table, I should
wait till the woman shows her hand."
"She has shown it."
"May I ask when?"
"This morning."
Mr. Le Frank said no more. If he was really wanted, Mrs. Gallilee
had only to speak. After a last moment of hesitation, the pitiless
necessities of her position decided her once more. "You see me too ill
to move," she said; "the first thing to do, is to tell you why."
She related the plain facts; without a word of comment, without a sign
of emotion. But her husband's horror of her had left an impression,
which neither pride nor contempt had been strong enough to resist. She
allowed the music-master to infer, that contending claims to authority
over Carmina had led to a quarrel which provoked the assault. The secret
of the words that she had spoken, was the one secret that she kept from
Mr. Le Frank.
"While I was insensible," she proceeded, "my niece was taken away from
me. She has been suffering from nervous illness; she was naturally
terrified--and she is now at the nurse's lodgings, too ill to be moved.
There you have the state of affairs, up to last night."
"Some people might think," Mr. Le Frank remarked, "that the easiest way
out of it, so far, would be to summon the nurse for the assault."
"The easiest way compels me to face a public exposure," Mrs. Gallilee
answered. "In my position that is impossible."
Mr. Le Frank accepted this view of the case as a matter of course.
"Under the circumstances," he said, "it's not easy to advise you. How
can you make the woman submit to your authority, while you are lying
here?"
"My lawyers have made her submit this morning."
In the extremity of his surprise, Mr. Le Frank forgot himself. "The
devil they have!" he exclaimed.
"They have forbidden her, in my name," Mrs. Gallilee continued, "to act
as nurse to my niece. They have informed her that Miss Carmina will be
restored to my care, the moment she can be moved. And they have sent me
her unconditional submission in writing, signed by herself."
She took it from the desk at her side, and read it to him, in these
words:
"I humbly ask pardon of Mrs. Gallilee for the violent and unlawful acts
of which I have been guilty. I acknowledge, and submit to, her authority
as guardian of Miss Carmina Graywell. And I appeal to her mercy (which I
own I have not deserved) to spare me the misery of separation from Miss
Carmina, on any conditions which it may be her good will and pleasure to
impose."
"Now," Mrs. Galilee concluded, "what do you say?"
Speaking sincerely for once, Mr. Le Frank made a startling reply.
"Submit on your side," he said. "Do what she asks of you. And when you
are well enough to go to her lodgings, decline with thanks if she offers
you anything to eat or drink."
Mrs. Gallilee raised herself on the sofa. "Are you insulting me, sir,"
she asked, "by making this serious emergency the subject of a joke?"
"I never was more in earnest, madam, in my life."
"You think--you really think--that she is capable of trying to poison
me?"
"Most assuredly I do."
Mrs. Gallilee sank back on the pillow. Mr. Le Frank stated his reasons;
checking them off, one by one, on his fingers.
"Who is she?" he began. "She is an Italian woman of the lower orders.
The virtues of the people among whom she had been born and bred, are not
generally considered to include respect for the sanctity of human life.
What do we know already that she has done? She has alarmed the priest,
who keeps her conscience, and knows her well; and she has attacked you
with such murderous ferocity that it is a wonder you have escaped
with your life. What sort of message have you sent to her, after this
experience of her temper? You have told the tigress that you have the
power to separate her from her cub, and that you mean to use it. On
those plain facts, as they stare us in the face, which is the soundest
conclusion? To believe that she really submits--or to believe that she
is only gaining time, and is capable (if she sees no other alternative)
of trying to poison you?"
"What would you advise me to do?" In those words Mrs. Gallilee--never
before reduced to ask advice of anybody--owned that sound reasoning was
not thrown away on her.
Mr. Le Frank answered the demand made on him without hesitation.
"The nurse has not signed that act of submission," he said, "without
having her own private reasons for appearing to give way. Rely on it,
she is prepared for you--and there is at least a chance that some proof
of it may be found. Have all her movements privately watched--and search
the room she lives in, as I searched Miss Carmina's room last night."
"Well?" said Mrs. Gallilee.
"Well?" Mr. Le Frank repeated.
She angrily gave way. "Say at once that you are the man to do it for
me!" she answered. "And say next--if you can--how it is to be done."
Mr. Le Frank's manner softened to an air of gentle gallantry.
"Pray compose yourself!" he said. "I am so glad to be of service to you,
and it is so easily done!"
"Easily?"
"Dear madam, quite easily. Isn't the house a lodging-house; and, at this
time of year, have I anything to do?" He rose, and took his hat.
"Surely, you see me in my new character now? A single gentleman wants
a bedroom. His habits are quiet, and he gives excellent references. The
address, Mrs. Gallilee--may I trouble you for the address?"
CHAPTER L.
Towards seven o'clock on the evening of Thursday, Carmina recognised
Teresa for the first time.
Her half-closed eyes opened, as if from a long sleep: they rested on the
old nurse without any appearance of surprise. "I am so glad to see you,
my dear," she said faintly. "Are you very tired after you journey?" None
of the inquiries which might have been anticipated followed those first
words. Not the slightest allusion to Mrs. Gallilee escaped her; she
expressed no anxiety about Miss Minerva; no sign of uneasiness
at finding herself in a. strange room, disturbed her quiet face.
Contentedly reposing, she looked at Teresa from time to time and said,
"You will stay with me, won't you?" Now and then, she confessed that her
head felt dull and heavy, and asked Teresa to take her hand. "I feel as
if I was sinking away from you," she said; "keep hold of my hand and I
shan't be afraid to go to sleep." The words were hardly spoken, before
she sank into slumber. Occasionally, Teresa felt her hand tremble and
kissed it. She seemed to be conscious of the kiss, without waking--she
smiled in her sleep.
But, when the first hours of the morning came, this state of passive
repose was disturbed. A violent attack of sickness came on. It was
repeated again and again. Teresa sent for Mr. Null. He did what he
could to relieve the new symptom; and he despatched a messenger to his
illustrious colleague.
Benjulia lost no time in answering personally the appeal that had been
made to him.
Mr. Null said, "Serious derangement of the stomach, sir." Benjulia
agreed with him. Mr. Null showed his prescription. Benjulia sanctioned
the prescription. Mr. Null said, "Is there anything you wish to suggest,
sir?" Benjulia had nothing to suggest.
He waited, nevertheless, until Carmina was able to speak to him. Teresa
and Mr. Null wondered what he would say to her. He only said, "Do
you remember when you last saw me?" After a little consideration, she
answered, "Yes, Zo was with us; Zo brought in your big stick; and we
talked--" She tried to rouse her memory. "What did we talk about?"
she asked. A momentary agitation brought a flush to her face. "I can't
remember it," she said; "I can't remember when you went away: does it
matter?" Benjulia replied, "Not the least in the world. Go to sleep."
But he still remained in the room--watching her as she grew drowsy.
"Great weakness," Mr. Null whispered. And Benjulia answered, "Yes; I'll
call again."
On his way out, he took Teresa aside.
"No more questions," he said--"and don't help her memory if she asks
you."
"Will she remember, when she gets better?" Teresa inquired.
"Impossible to say, yet. Wait and see."
He left her in a hurry; his experiments were waiting for him. On the way
home, his mind dwelt on Carmina's case. Some hidden process was at work
there: give it time--and it would show itself. "I hope that ass won't
want me," he said, thinking of his medical colleague, "for at least a
week to come."
The week passed--and the physiologist was not disturbed.
During that interval, Mr. Null succeeded in partially overcoming the
attacks of sickness: they were less violent, and they were succeeded by
longer intervals of repose. In other respects, there seemed (as Teresa
persisted in thinking) to be some little promise of improvement. A
certain mental advance was unquestionably noticeable in Carmina. It
first showed itself in an interesting way: she began to speak of Ovid.
Her great anxiety was, that he should know nothing of her illness.
She forbade Teresa to write to him; she sent messages to Mr. and Mrs.
Gallilee, and even to Mr. Mool, entreating them to preserve silence.
The nurse engaged to deliver the messages--and failed to keep her word.
This breach of promise (as events had ordered it) proved to be harmless.
Mrs. Gallilee had good reasons for not writing. Her husband and Mr.
Mool had decided on sending their telegram to the bankers. As for
Teresa herself, she had no desire to communicate with Ovid. His absence
remained inexcusable, from her point of view. Well or ill, with or
without reason, it was the nurse's opinion that he ought to have
remained at home, in Carmina's interests. No other persons were in
the least likely to write to Ovid--nobody thought of Zo as a
correspondent--Carmina was pacified.
Once or twice, at this later time, the languid efforts of her memory
took a wider range.
She wondered why Mrs. Gallilee never came near her; owning that her
aunt's absence was a relief to her, but not feeling interest enough in
the subject to ask for information. She also mentioned Miss Minerva. "Do
you know where she has gone? Don't you think she ought to write to me?"
Teresa offered to make inquiries. She turned her head wearily on the
pillow, and said, "Never mind!" On another occasion, she asked for Zo,
and said it would be pleasant if Mr. Gallilee would call and bring her
with him. But she soon dropped the subject, not to return to it again.
The only remembrance which seemed to dwell on her mind for more than
a few minutes, was her remembrance of the last letter which she had
written to Ovid.
She pleased herself with imagining his surprise, when he received it;
she grew impatient under her continued illness, because it delayed her
in escaping to Canada; she talked to Teresa of the clever manner in
which the flight had been planned--with this strange failure of memory,
that she attributed the various arrangements for setting discovery at
defiance, not to Miss Minerva, but to the nurse.
Here, for the first time, her mind was approaching dangerous ground. The
stealing of the letter, and the events that had followed it, stood next
in the order of remembrance--if she was capable of a continued
effort. Her weakness saved her. Beyond the writing of the letter, her
recollections were unable to advance. Not the faintest allusion to any
later circumstances escaped her. The poor stricken brain still sought
its rest in frequent intervals of sleep. Sometimes, she drifted back
into partial unconsciousness; sometimes, the attacks of sickness
returned. Mr. Null set an excellent example of patience and resignation.
He believed as devoutly as ever in his prescriptions; he placed the
greatest reliance on time and care. The derangement of the stomach (as
he called it) presented something positive and tangible to treat: he had
got over the doubts and anxieties that troubled him, when Carmina
was first removed to the lodgings. Looking confidently at the
surface--without an idea of what was going on below it--he could tell
Teresa, with a safe conscience, that he understood the case. He was
always ready to comfort her, when her excitable Italian nature passed
from the extreme of hope to the extreme of despair. "My good woman, we
see our way now: it's a great point gained, I assure you, to see our
way."
"What do you mean by seeing your way?" said the downright nurse. "Tell
me when Carmina will be well again."
Mr. Null's medical knowledge was not yet equal to this demand on it.
"The progress is slow," he admitted, "still Miss Carmina is getting on."
"Is her aunt getting on?" Teresa asked abruptly. "When is Mistress
Gallilee likely to come here?"
"In a few days--" Mr. Null was about to add "I hope;" but he thought
of what might happen when the two women met. As it was, Teresa's face
showed signs of serious disturbance: her mind was plainly not prepared
for this speedy prospect of a visit from Mrs. Gallilee. She took a
letter out of her pocket.
"I find a good deal of sly prudence in you," she said to Mr. Null.
"You must have seen something, in your time, of the ways of deceitful
Englishwomen. What does that palaver mean in plain words?" She handed
the letter to him.
With some reluctance he read it.
"Mrs. Gallilee declines to contract any engagement with the person
formerly employed as nurse, in the household of the late Mr. Robert
Graywell. Mrs. Gallilee so far recognises the apology and submission
offered to her, as to abstain from taking immediate proceedings. In
arriving at this decision, she is also influenced by the necessity of
sparing her niece any agitation which might interfere with the medical
treatment. When the circumstances appear to require it, she will not
hesitate to exert her authority."
The handwriting told Mr. Null that this manifesto had not been written
by Mrs. Gallilee herself. The person who had succeeded him, in the
capacity of that lady's amanuensis, had been evidently capable of giving
sound advice. Little did he suspect that this mysterious secretary was
identical with an enterprising pianist, who had once prevailed on him to
take a seat at a concert; price five shillings.
"Well?" said Teresa.
Mr. Null hesitated.
The nurse stamped impatiently on the floor. "Tell me this! When she does
come here, will she part me from Carmina? Is that what she means?"
"Possibly," said prudent Mr. Null.
Teresa pointed to the door. "Good-morning! I want nothing more of you.
Oh, man, man, leave me by myself!"
The moment she was alone, she fell on her knees. Fiercely whispering,
she repeated over and over again the words of the Lord's Prayer: "'Lead
us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.' Christ, hear me!
Mother of Christ, hear me! Oh, Carmina! Carmina!"
She rose and opened the door which communicated with the bedroom.
Trembling pitiably, she looked for a while at Carmina, peacefully
asleep--then turned away to a corner of the room, in which stood an old
packing-case, fitted with a lock. She took it up; and, returning with it
to the sitting-room, softly closed the bedroom door again.
After some hesitation, she decided to open the case. In the terror and
confusion that possessed her, she tried the wrong key. Setting this
mistake right, she disclosed--strangely mingled with the lighter
articles of her own dress--a heap of papers; some of them letters and
bills; some of them faded instructions in writing for the preparation of
artists' colours.
She recoiled from the objects which her own act had disclosed. Why had
she not taken Father Patrizio's advice? If she had only waited another
day; if she had only sorted her husband's papers, before she threw the
things that her trunk was too full to hold into that half-empty case,
what torment might have been spared to her! Her eyes turned mournfully
to the bedroom door. "Oh, my darling, I was in such a hurry to get to
You!"
At last, she controlled herself, and put her hand into the case.
Searching it in one corner, she produced a little tin canister. A dirty
label was pasted on the canister, bearing this quaint inscription in the
Italian language:
"If there is any of the powder we employ in making some of our prettiest
colours, left in here, I request my good wife, or any other trustworthy
person in her place, to put a seal on it, and take it directly to the
manufactory, with the late foreman's best respects. It looks like nice
sugar. Beware of looks--or you may taste poison."
On the point of opening the canister she hesitated. Under some strange
impulse, she did what a child might have done: she shook it, and
listened.
The rustle of the rising and falling powder--renewing her terror--seemed
to exercise some irresistible fascination over her. "The devil's dance,"
she said to herself, with a ghastly smile. "Softly up--and softly
down--and tempting me to take off the cover all the time! Why don't I
get rid of it?"
That question set her thinking of Carmina's guardian.
If Mr. Null was right, in a day or two Mrs. Gallilee might come to the
house. After the lawyers had threatened Teresa with the prospect of
separation from Carmina, she had opened the packing-case, for the first
time since she had left Rome--intending to sort her husband's papers as
a means of relief from her own thoughts. In this way, she had discovered
the canister. The sight of the deadly powder had tempted her. There were
the horrid means of setting Mrs. Gallilee's authority at defiance! Some
women in her place, would use them. Though she was not looking into the
canister now, she felt that thought stealing back into her mind. There
was but one hope for her: she resolved to get rid of the poison.
How?
At that period of the year, there was no fire in the grate. Within
the limits of the room, the means of certain destruction were slow
to present themselves. Her own morbid horror of the canister made her
suspicious of the curiosity of other people, who might see it in her
hand if she showed herself on the stairs. But she was determined, if she
lit a fire for the purpose, to find the way to her end. The firmness
of her resolution expressed itself by locking the case again, without
restoring the canister to its hiding-place.
Providing herself next with a knife, she sat down in a corner--between
the bedroom door on one side, and a cupboard in an angle of the wall on
the other--and began the work of destruction by scraping off the paper
label. The fragments might be burnt, and the powder (if she made a vow
to the Virgin to do it) might be thrown into the fire next--and then the
empty canister would be harmless.
She had made but little progress in the work of scraping, when it
occurred to her that the lighting of a fire, on that warm autumn day,
might look suspicious if the landlady or Mr. Null happened to come in.
It would be safer to wait till night-time, when everybody would be in
bed.
Arriving at this conclusion, she mechanically suspended the use of her
knife.
In the moment of silence that followed, she heard someone enter the
bedroom by the door which opened on the stairs. Immediately afterwards,
the person turned the handle of the second door at her side. She had
barely time enough to open the cupboard, and hide the canister in
it--when the landlady came in.
Teresa looked at her wildly. The landlady looked at the cupboard: she
was proud of her cupboard.
"Plenty of room there," she said boastfully: "not another house in the
neighbourhood could offer you such accommodation as that! Yes--the lock
is out of order; I don't deny it. The last lodger's doings! She spoilt
my tablecloth, and put the inkstand over it to hide the place. Beast!
there's her character in one word. You didn't hear me knock at the
bedroom door? I am so glad to see her sleeping nicely, poor dear! Her
chicken broth is ready when she wakes. I'm late to-day in making my
inquiries after our young lady. You see we have been hard at work
upstairs, getting the bedroom ready for a new lodger. Such a contrast
to the person who has just left. A perfect gentleman, this time--and
so kind in waiting a week till I was able to accommodate him. My ground
floor rooms were vacant, as you know--but he said the terms were too
high for him. Oh, I didn't forget to mention that we had an invalid in
the house! Quiet habits (I said) are indeed an essential qualification
of any new inmate, at such a time as this. He understood. 'I've been an
invalid myself' (he said); 'and the very reason I am leaving my present
lodgings is that they are not quiet enough.' Isn't that just the sort of
man we want? And, let me tell you, a handsome man too. With a drawback,
I must own, in the shape of a bald head. But such a beard, and such a
thrilling voice! Hush! Did I hear her calling?"
At last, the landlady permitted other sounds to be audible, besides the
sound of her own voice. It became possible to discover that Carmina was
now awake. Teresa hurried into the bedroom.
Left by herself in the sitting-room, the landlady--"purely out of
curiosity," as she afterwards said, in conversation with her new
lodger--opened the cupboard, and looked in.
The canister stood straight before her, on an upper shelf. Did Miss
Carmina's nurse take snuff? She examined the canister: there was a
white powder inside. The mutilated label spoke in an unknown tongue. She
wetted her finger and tasted the powder. The result was so disagreeable
that she was obliged to use her handkerchief. She put the canister back,
and closed the cupboard.
"Medicine, undoubtedly," the landlady said to herself. "Why should she
hurry to put it away, when I came in?"
CHAPTER LI.
In eight days from the date of his second interview with Mrs. Gallilee,
Mr. Le Frank took possession of his new bedroom.
He had arranged to report his proceedings in writing. In Teresa's state
of mind, she would certainly distrust a fellow-lodger, discovered in
personal communication with Mrs. Gallilee. Mr. Le Frank employed the
first day after his arrival in collecting the materials for a report. In
the evening, he wrote to Mrs. Gallilee--under cover to a friend, who was
instructed to forward the letter.
"Private and confidential. Dear Madam,--I have not wasted my time and my
opportunities, as you will presently see.
"My bedroom is immediately above the floor of the house which is
occupied by Miss Carmina and her nurse. Having some little matters of
my own to settle, I was late in taking possession of my room. Before the
lights on the staircase were put out, I took the liberty of looking down
at the next landing.
"Do you remember, when you were a child learning to write, that one
of the lines in your copy-books was, 'Virtue is its own reward'? This
ridiculous assertion was actually verified in my case! Before I had been
five minutes at my post, I saw the nurse open her door. She looked up
the staircase (without discovering me, it is needless to say), and she
looked down the staircase--and, seeing nobody about, returned to her
rooms.
"Waiting till I heard her lock the door, I stole downstairs, and
listened outside.
"One of my two fellow-lodgers (you know that I don't believe in Miss
Carmina's illness) was lighting a fire--on such a warm autumn night,
that the staircase window was left open! I am absolutely sure of what I
say: I heard the crackle of burning wood--I smelt coal smoke.
"The motive of this secret proceeding it seems impossible to guess at.
If they were burning documents of a dangerous and compromising kind,
a candle would have answered their purpose. If they wanted hot water,
surely a tin kettle and a spirit lamp must have been at hand in an
invalid's bedroom? Perhaps, your superior penetration may be able to
read the riddle which baffles my ingenuity.
"So much for the first night.
"This afternoon, I had some talk with the landlady. My professional
avocations having trained me in the art of making myself agreeable
to the sex, I may say without vanity that I produced a favourable
impression. In other words, I contrived to set my fair friend talking
freely about the old nurse and the interesting invalid.
"Out of the flow of words poured on me, one fact of very serious
importance has risen to the surface. There is a suspicious canister in
the nurse's possession. The landlady calls the powder inside, medicine.
I say, poison.
"Am I rushing at a fanciful conclusion? Please wait a little.
"During the week of delay which elapsed, before the lodger in possession
vacated my room, you kindly admitted me to an interview. I ventured
to put some questions, relating to Teresa's life in Italy and to the
persons with whom she associated. Do you remember telling me, when I
asked what you knew of her husband, that he was foreman in a manufactory
of artists' colours? and that you had your information from Miss Carmina
herself, after she had shown you the telegram announcing his death?
"A lady, possessed of your scientific knowledge, does not require to be
told that poisons are employed in making artists' colours. Remember
what the priest's letter says of Teresa's feeling towards you, and then
say--Is it so very unlikely that she has brought with her to England
one of the poisons used by her husband in his trade? and is it quite
unreasonable to suppose (when she looks at her canister) that she may be
thinking of you?
"I may be right or I may be wrong. Thanks to the dilapidated condition
of a lock, I can decide the question, at the first opportunity offered
to me by the nurse's absence from the room.
"My next report shall tell you that I have contrived to provide myself
with a sample of the powder--leaving the canister undisturbed. The
sample shall be tested by a chemist. If he pronounces it to be poison, I
have a bold course of action to propose.
"As soon as you are well enough to go to the house, give the nurse her
chance of poisoning you.
"Dear madam, don't be alarmed! I will accompany you; and I will answer
for the result. We will pay our visit at tea-time. Let her offer you
a cup--and let me (under pretence of handing it) get possession of the
poisoned drink. Before she can cry Stop!--I shall be on my way to the
chemist.
"The penalty for attempted murder is penal servitude. If you still
object to a public exposure, we have the chemist's report, together with
your own evidence, ready for your son on his return. How will he feel
about his marriage-engagement, when he finds that Miss Carmina's
dearest friend and companion has tried--perhaps, with her young lady's
knowledge--to poison his mother?
"Before concluding, I may mention that I had a narrow escape, only two
hours since, of being seen by Teresa on the stairs.
"I was of course prepared for this sort of meeting, when I engaged my
room; and I have therefore not been foolish enough to enter the house
under an assumed name. On the contrary, I propose (in your interests)
to establish a neighbourly acquaintance--with time to help me. But the
matter of the poison admits of no delay. My chance of getting at it
unobserved may be seriously compromised, if the nurse remembers that
she first met with me in your house, and distrusts me accordingly. Your
devoted servant, L. F."
Having completed his letter, he rang for the maid, and gave it to her to
post.
On her way downstairs, she was stopped on the next landing by Mr. Null.
He too had a letter ready: addressed to Doctor Benjulia. The fierce old
nurse followed him out, and said, "Post it instantly!" The civil maid
asked if Miss Carmina was better. "Worse!"--was all the rude foreigner
said. She looked at poor Mr. Null, as if it was his fault.
Left in the retirement of his room, Mr. Le Frank sat at the
writing-table, frowning and biting his nails.
Were these evidences of a troubled mind connected with the infamous
proposal which he had addressed to Mrs. Gallilee? Nothing of the sort!
Having sent away his letter, he was now at leisure to let his personal
anxieties absorb him without restraint. He was thinking of Carmina.
The oftener his efforts were baffled, the more resolute he became to
discover the secret of her behaviour to him. For the hundredth time he
said to himself, "Her devilish malice reviles me behind my back,
and asks me before my face to shake hands and be friends." The more
outrageously unreasonable his suspicions became, under the exasperating
influence of suspense, the more inveterately his vindictive nature held
to its delusion. After meeting her in the hall at Fairfield Gardens,
he really believed Carmina's illness to have been assumed as a means of
keeping out of his way. If a friend had said to him, "But what reason
have you to think so?"--he would have smiled compassionately, and have
given that friend up for a shallow-minded man.
He stole out again, and listened, undetected, at their door. Carmina was
speaking; but the words, in those faint tones, were inaudible. Teresa's
stronger voice easily reached his ears. "My darling, talking is not good
for you. I'll light the night-lamp--try to sleep."
Hearing this, he went back to his bedroom to wait a little. Teresa's
vigilance might relax if Carmina fell asleep. She might go downstairs
for a gossip with the landlady.
After smoking a cigar, he tried again. The lights on the staircase were
now put out: it was eleven o'clock.
She was not asleep: the nurse was reading to her from some devotional
book. He gave it up, for that night. His head ached; the ferment of
his own abominable thoughts had fevered him. A cowardly dread of the
slightest signs of illness was one of his special weaknesses. The whole
day, to-morrow, was before him. He felt his own pulse; and determined,
in justice to himself, to go to bed.
Ten minutes later, the landlady, on her way to bed, ascended the stairs.
She too heard the voice, still reading aloud--and tapped softly at the
door. Teresa opened it.
"Is the poor thing not asleep yet?"
"No."
"Has she been disturbed in some way?"
"Somebody has been walking about, overhead," Teresa answered.
"That's the new lodger!" exclaimed the landlady. "I'll speak to Mr. Le
Frank."
On the point of closing the door, and saying good-night, Teresa stopped,
and considered for a moment.
"Is he your new lodger?" she said.
"Yes. Do you know him?"
"I saw him when I was last in England."
"Well?"
"Nothing more," Teresa answered. "Good-night!"
CHAPTER LII.
Watching through the night by Carmina's bedside, Teresa found herself
thinking of Mr. Le Frank. It was one way of getting through the weary
time, to guess at the motive which had led him to become a lodger in the
house.
Common probabilities pointed to the inference that he might have reasons
for changing his residence, which only concerned himself. But common
probabilities--from Teresa's point of view--did not apply to Mr. Le
Frank. On meeting him, at the time of her last visit to England, his
personal appearance had produced such a disagreeable impression on her,
that she had even told Carmina "the music-master looked like a rogue."
With her former prejudice against him now revived, and with her serious
present reasons for distrusting Mrs. Gallilee, she rejected the idea
of his accidental presence under her landlady's roof. To her mind, the
business of the new lodger in the house was, in all likelihood, the
business of a spy.
While Mr. Le Frank was warily laying his plans for the next day, he had
himself become an object of suspicion to the very woman whose secrets he
was plotting to surprise.
This was the longest and saddest night which the faithful old nurse had
passed at her darling's bedside.
For the first time, Carmina was fretful, and hard to please: patient
persuasion was needed to induce her to take her medicine. Even when she
was thirsty, she had an irritable objection to being disturbed, if the
lemonade was offered to her which she had relished at other times. Once
or twice, when she drowsily stirred in her bed, she showed symptoms of
delusion. The poor girl supposed it was the eve or her wedding-day, and
eagerly asked what Teresa had done with her new dress. A little later,
when she had perhaps been dreaming, she fancied that her mother was
still alive, and repeated the long-forgotten talk of her childhood.
"What have I said to distress you?" she asked wonderingly, when she
found Teresa crying.
Soon after sunrise, there came a long interval of repose.
At the later time when Benjulia arrived, she was quiet and
uncomplaining. The change for the worse which had induced Teresa to
insist on sending for him, was perversely absent. Mr. Null expected to
be roughly rebuked for having disturbed the great man by a false alarm.
He attempted to explain: and Teresa attempted to explain. Benjulia
paid not the slightest attention to either of them. He made no angry
remarks--and he showed, in his own impenetrable way, as gratifying an
interest in the case as ever.
"Draw up the blind," he said; "I want to have a good look at her."
Mr. Null waited respectfully, and imposed strict silence on Teresa,
while the investigation was going on. It lasted so long that he ventured
to say, "Do you see anything particular, sir?"
Benjulia saw his doubts cleared up: time (as he had anticipated)
had brought development with it, and had enabled him to arrive at a
conclusion. The shock that had struck Carmina had produced complicated
hysterical disturbance, which was now beginning to simulate paralysis.
Benjulia's profound and practised observation detected a trifling
inequality in the size of the pupils of the eyes, and a slightly unequal
action on either side of the face--delicately presented in the eyelids,
the nostrils, and the lips. Here was no common affection of the brain,
which even Mr. Null could understand! Here, at last, was Benjulia's
reward for sacrificing the precious hours which might otherwise have
been employed in the laboratory! From that day, Carmina was destined to
receive unknown honour: she was to take her place, along with the other
animals, in his note-book of experiments.
He turned quietly to Mr. Null, and finished the consultation in two
words.
"All right!"
"Have you nothing to suggest, sir?" Mr. Null inquired.
"Go on with the treatment--and draw down the blind, if she complains of
the light. Good-day!"
"Are you sure he's a great doctor?" said Teresa, when the door had
closed on him.
"The greatest we have!" cried Mr. Null with enthusiasm.
"Is he a good man?"
"Why do you ask?"
"I want to know if we can trust him to tell us the truth?"
"Not a doubt of it!" (Who could doubt it, indeed, after he had approved
of Mr. Null's medical treatment?)
"There's one thing you have forgotten," Teresa persisted. "You haven't
asked him when Carmina can be moved."
"My good woman, if I had put such a question, he would have set me down
as a fool! Nobody can say when she will be well enough to be moved."
He took his hat. The nurse followed him out.
"Are you going to Mrs. Gallilee, sir?"
"Not to-day."
"Is she better?"
"She is almost well again."
CHAPTER LIII.
Left alone, Teresa went into the sitting-room: she was afraid to show
herself at the bedside.
Mr. Null had destroyed the one hope which had supported her thus
far--the hope of escaping from England with Carmina, before Mrs.
Gallilee could interfere. Looking steadfastly at that inspiriting
prospect, she had forced herself to sign the humble apology and
submission which the lawyers had dictated. What was the prospect now?
Heavily had the merciless hand of calamity fallen on that brave old
soul--and, at last, it had beaten her down! While she stood at the
window, mechanically looking out, the dreary view of the back street
trembled and disappeared. Teresa was crying. Happily for herself, she
was unable to control her own weakness; the tears lightened her heavy
heart. She waited a little, in the fear that her eyes might betray her,
before she returned to Carmina. In that interval, she heard the sound of
a closing door, on the floor above.
"The music-master!" she said to herself.
In an instant, she was at the sitting-room door, looking through the
keyhole. It was the one safe way of watching him--and that was enough
for Teresa.
His figure appeared suddenly within her narrow range of view--on the
mat outside the door. If her distrust of him was without foundation,
he would go on downstairs. No! He stopped on the mat to listen--he
stooped--his eye would have been at the keyhole in another moment.
She seized a chair, and moved it. The sound instantly drove him away. He
went on, down the stairs.
Teresa considered with herself what safest means of protection--and, if
possible, of punishment as well--lay within her reach. How, and where,
could the trap be set that might catch him?
She was still puzzled by that question, when the landlady made her
appearance--politely anxious to hear what the doctors thought of their
patient. Satisfied so far, the wearisome woman had her apologies to make
next, for not having yet cautioned Mr. Le Frank.
"Thinking over it, since last night," she said confidentially, "I cannot
imagine how you heard him walking overhead. He has such a soft step that
he positively takes me by surprise when he comes into my room. He has
gone out for an hour; and I have done him a little favour which I am
not in the habit of conferring on ordinary lodgers--I have lent him my
umbrella, as it threatens rain. In his absence, I will ask you to listen
while I walk about in his room. One can't be too particular, when rest
is of such importance to your young lady--and it has struck me as just
possible, that the floor of his room may be in fault. My dear, the
boards may creak! I'm a sad fidget, I know; but, if the carpenter can
set things right--without any horrid hammering, of course!--the sooner
he is sent for, the more relieved I shall feel."
Through this harangue, the nurse had waited, with a patience far from
characteristic of her, for an opportunity of saying a timely word. By
some tortuous mental process, that she was quite unable to trace, the
landlady's allusion to Mr. Le Frank had suggested the very idea of
which, in her undisturbed solitude, she had been vainly in search.
Never before, had the mistress of the house appeared to Teresa in such a
favourable light.
"You needn't trouble yourself, ma'am," she said, as soon as she could
make herself heard; "it was the creaking of the boards that told me
somebody was moving overhead."
"Then I'm not a fidget after all? Oh, how you relieve me! Whatever the
servants may have to do, one of them shall be sent instantly to the
carpenter. So glad to be of any service to that sweet young creature!"
Teresa consulted her watch before she returned to the bedroom.
The improvement in Carmina still continued: she was able to take some
of the light nourishment that was waiting for her. As Benjulia had
anticipated, she asked to have the blind lowered a little. Teresa drew
it completely over the window: she had her own reasons for tempting
Carmina to repose. In half an hour more, the weary girl was sleeping,
and the nurse was at liberty to set her trap for Mr. Le Frank.
Her first proceeding was to dip the end of a quill pen into her bottle
of salad oil, and to lubricate the lock and key of the door that gave
access to the bedroom from the stairs. Having satisfied herself that the
key could now be used without making the slightest sound, she turned to
the door of communication with the sitting-room next.
This door was covered with green baize. It had handles but no lock; and
it swung inwards, so as to allow the door of the cupboard (situated in
the angle of the sitting-room wall) to open towards the bedroom freely.
Teresa oiled the hinges, and the brass bolt and staple which protected
the baize door on the side of the bedroom. That done, she looked again
at her watch.
Mr. Le Frank's absence was expected to last for an hour. In five minutes
more, the hour would expire.
After bolting the door of communication, she paused in the bedroom, and
wafted a kiss to Carmina, still at rest. She left the room by the door
which opened on the stairs, and locked it, taking away the key with her.
Having gone down the first flight of stairs, she stopped and went back.
The one unsecured door, was the door which led into the sitting-room
from the staircase. She opened it and left it invitingly ajar. "Now,"
she said to herself, "the trap will catch him!"
The hall clock struck the hour when she entered the landlady's room.
The woman of many words was at once charmed and annoyed. Charmed to
hear that the dear invalid was resting, and to receive a visit from the
nurse: annoyed by the absence of the carpenter, at work somewhere else
for the whole of the day. "If my dear husband had been alive, we should
have been independent of carpenters; he could turn his hand to anything.
Now do sit down--I want you to taste some cherry brandy of my own
making."
As Teresa took a chair, Mr. Le Frank returned. The two secret
adversaries met, face to face.
"Surely I remember this lady?" he said.
Teresa encountered him, on his own ground. She made her best curtsey,
and reminded him of the circumstances under which they had formerly met.
The hospitable landlady produced her cherry brandy. "We are going to
have a nice little chat; do sit down, sir, and join us." Mr. Le Frank
made his apologies. The umbrella which had been so kindly lent to him,
had not protected his shoes; his feet were wet; and he was so sadly
liable to take cold that he must beg permission to put on his dry things
immediately.
Having bowed himself out, he stopped in the passage, and, standing on
tiptoe, peeped through a window in the wall, by which light was conveyed
to the landlady's little room. The two women were comfortably seated
together, with the cherry brandy and a plate of biscuits on a table
between them. "In for a good long gossip," thought Mr. Le Frank. "Now is
my time!"
Not five minutes more had passed, before Teresa made an excuse for
running upstairs again. She had forgotten to leave the bell rope, in
case Carmina woke, within the reach of her hand. The excellent heart of
the hostess made allowance for natural anxiety. "Do it, you good soul,"
she said; "and come back directly!" Left by herself, she filled her
glass again, and smiled. Sweetness of temper (encouraged by cherry
brandy) can even smile at a glass--unless it happens to be empty.
Approaching her own rooms, Teresa waited, and listened, before she
showed herself. No sound reached her through the half open sitting-room
door. She noiselessly entered the bedroom, and then locked the door
again. Once more she listened; and once more there was nothing to be
heard. Had he seen her on the stairs?
As the doubt crossed her mind, she heard the boards creak on the floor
above. Mr. Le Frank was in his room.
Did this mean that her well-laid plan had failed? Or did it mean that he
was really changing his shoes and stockings? The last inference was the
right one.
He had made no mere excuse downstairs. The serious interests that he
had at stake, were not important enough to make him forget his precious
health. His chest was delicate; a cold might settle on his lungs. The
temptation of the half-open door had its due effect on this prudent man;
but it failed to make him forget that his feet were wet.
The boards creaked again; the door of his room was softly closed--then
there was silence. Teresa only knew when he had entered the sitting-room
by hearing him try the bolted baize door. After that, he must have
stepped out again. He next tried the door of the bedchamber, from the
stairs.
There was a quiet interval once more. Teresa noiselessly drew back the
bolt; and, opening the baize door by a mere hair's-breadth, admitted
sound from the sitting-room. She now heard him turning the key in a
chiffonier, which only contained tradesmen's circulars, receipted bills,
and a few books.
(Even with the canister in the cupboard, waiting to be opened, his
uppermost idea was to discover Carmina's vindictive motive in Carmina's
papers!)
The contents of the chiffonier disappointed him--judging by the tone in
which he muttered to himself. The next sound startled Teresa; it was a
tap against the lintel of the door behind which she was standing. He had
thrown open the cupboard.
The rasping of the cover, as he took it off, told her that he was
examining the canister. She had put it back on the shelf, a harmless
thing now--the poison and the label having been both destroyed by fire.
Nevertheless, his choosing the canister, from dozens of other
things scattered invitingly about it, inspired her with a feeling of
distrustful surprise. She was no longer content to find out what he was
doing by means of her ears. Determined to see him, and to catch him in
the fact, she pulled open the baize door--at the moment when he must
have discovered that the canister was empty. A faint thump told her he
had thrown it on the floor.
The view of the sitting-room was still hidden from her. She had
forgotten the cupboard door.
Now that it was wide open, it covered the entrance to the bedroom, and
completely screened them one from the other. For the moment she was
startled, and hesitated whether to show herself or not. His voice
stopped her.
"Is there another canister?" he said to himself. "The dirty old savage
may have hidden it--"
Teresa heard no more. "The dirty old savage" was an insult not to be
endured! She forgot her intention of stealing on him unobserved; she
forgot her resolution to do nothing that could awaken Carmina. Her
fierce temper urged her into furious action. With both hands outspread,
she flew at the cupboard door, and banged it to in an instant.
A shriek of agony rang through the house. The swiftly closing door had
caught, and crushed, the fingers of Le Frank's right hand, at the moment
when he was putting it into the cupboard again.
Without stopping to help him, without even looking at him, she ran back
to Carmina.
The swinging baize door fell to, and closed of itself. No second cry
was heard. Nothing happened to falsify her desperate assertion that the
shriek was the delusion of a vivid dream. She took Carmina in her arms,
and patted and fondled her like a child. "See, my darling, I'm with you
as usual; and I have heard nothing. Don't, oh, don't tremble in that
way! There--I'll wrap you up in my shawl, and read to you. No! let's
talk of Ovid."
Her efforts to compose Carmina were interrupted by a muffled sound of
men's footsteps and women's voices in the next room.
She hurriedly opened the door, and entreated them to whisper and be
quiet. In the instant before she closed it again, she saw and heard.
Le Frank lay in a swoon on the floor. The landlady was kneeling by him,
looking at his injured hand; and the lodgers were saying, "Send him to
the hospital."
CHAPTER LIV.
On Monday morning, the strain on Mrs. Gallilee's powers of patient
endurance came to an end. With the help of Mr. Null's arm, she was
able to get downstairs to the library. On Tuesday, there would be no
objection to her going out for a drive. Mr. Null left her, restored to
her equable flow of spirits. He had asked if she wished to have somebody
to keep her company--and she had answered briskly, "Not on any account!
I prefer being alone."
On the morning of Saturday, she had received Mr. Le Frank's letter; but
she had not then recovered sufficiently to be able to read it through.
She could now take it up again, and get to the end.
Other women might have been alarmed by the atrocious wickedness of the
conspiracy which the music-master had planned. Mrs. Gallilee was only
offended. That he should think her capable--in her social position--of
favouring such a plot as he had suggested, was an insult which she
was determined neither to forgive nor forget. Fortunately, she had not
committed herself in writing; he could produce no proof of the relations
that had existed between them. The first and best use to make of her
recovery would be to dismiss him--after paying his expenses, privately
and prudently, in money instead of by cheque.
In the meantime, the man's insolence had left its revolting impression
on her mind. The one way to remove it was to find some agreeable
occupation for her thoughts.
Look at your library table, learned lady, and take the appropriate means
of relief that it offers. See the lively modern parasites that infest
Science, eager to invite your attention to their little crawling selves.
Follow scientific inquiry, rushing into print to proclaim its own
importance, and to declare any human being, who ventures to doubt or
differ, a fanatic or a fool. Respect the leaders of public opinion,
writing notices of professors, who have made discoveries not yet tried
by time, not yet universally accepted even by their brethren, in terms
which would be exaggerated if they were applied to Newton or to Bacon.
Submit to lectures and addresses by dozens which, if they prove nothing
else, prove that what was scientific knowledge some years since; is
scientific ignorance now--and that what is scientific knowledge now,
may be scientific ignorance in some years more. Absorb your mind in
controversies and discussions, in which Mr. Always Right and Mr. Never
Wrong exhibit the natural tendency of man to believe in himself, in the
most rampant stage of development that the world has yet seen. And when
you have done all this, doubt not that you have made a good use of your
time. You have discovered what the gentle wisdom of FARADAY saw and
deplored, when he warned the science of his day in words which should
live for ever: "The first and last step in the education of the judgment
is--Humility." Having agreeably occupied her mind with subjects that
were worthy of it, Mrs. Gallilee rose to seek a little physical relief
by walking up and down the room.
Passing and repassing the bookcases, she noticed a remote corner devoted
to miscellaneous literature. A volume in faded binding of sky-blue, had
been placed upside down. She looked at the book before she put it in
its right position. The title was "Gallery of British Beauty." Among the
illustrations--long since forgotten--appeared her own portrait, when she
was a girl of Carmina's age.
A faintly contemptuous smile parted her hard lips, provoked by the
recollections of her youth.
What a fool she had been, at that early period of her life! In those
days, she had trembled with pleasure at the singing of a famous Italian
tenor; she had flown into a passion when a new dress proved to be a
misfit, on the evening of a ball; she had given money to beggars in the
street; she had fallen in love with a poor young man, and had terrified
her weak-minded hysterical mother, by threatening to commit suicide
when the beloved object was forbidden the house. Comparing the girl of
seventeen with the matured and cultivated woman of later years, what a
matchless example Mrs. Gallilee presented of the healthy influence of
education, directed to scientific pursuits! "Ah!" she thought, as she
put the book back in its place, "my girls will have reason to thank me
when they grow up; they have had a mother who has done her duty."
She took a few more turns up and down the room. The sky had cleared
again; a golden gleam of sunlight drew her to the window. The next
moment she regretted even this concession to human weakness. A
disagreeable association presented itself, and arrested the pleasant
flow of her thoughts. Mr. Gallilee appeared on the door-step; leaving
the house on foot, and carrying a large brown-paper parcel under his
arm.
With servants at his disposal, why was he carrying the parcel himself?
The time had been, when Mrs. Gallilee would have tapped at the window,
and would have insisted on his instantly returning and answering the
question. But his conduct, since the catastrophe in Carmina's room,
had produced a complete estrangement between the married pair. All his
inquiries after his wife's health had been made by deputy. When he was
not in the schoolroom with the children, he was at his club. Until he
came to his senses, and made humble apology, no earthly consideration
would induce Mrs. Gallilee to take the slightest notice of him.
She returned to her reading.
The footman came in, with two letters--one arriving by post; the other
having been dropped into the box by private messenger. Communications
of this latter sort proceeded, not unfrequently, from creditors. Mrs.
Gallilee opened the stamped letter first.
It contained nothing more important than a few lines from a daily
governess, whom she had engaged until a successor to Miss Minerva could
be found. In obedience to Mrs. Gallilee's instructions, the governess
would begin her attendance at ten o'clock on the next morning.
The second letter was of a very different kind. It related the disaster
which had befallen Mr. Le Frank.
Mr. Null was the writer. As Miss Carmina's medical attendant, it was
his duty to inform her guardian that her health had been unfavourably
affected by an alarm in the house. Having described the nature of the
alarm, he proceeded in these words: "You will, I fear, lose the services
of your present music-master. Inquiries made this morning at the
hospital, and reported to me, appear to suggest serious results. The
wounded man's constitution is in an unhealthy state; the surgeons are
not sure of being able to save two of the fingers. I will do myself the
honour of calling to-morrow before you go out for your drive."
The impression produced by this intelligence on the lady to whom it was
addressed, can only be reported in her own words. She--who knew, on the
best scientific authority, that the world had created itself--completely
lost her head, and actually said, "Thank God!"
For weeks to come--perhaps for months if the surgeons' forebodings were
fulfilled--Mrs. Gallilee had got rid of Mr. Le Frank. In that moment
of infinite relief, if her husband had presented himself, it is even
possible that he might have been forgiven.
As it was, Mr. Gallilee returned late in the afternoon; entered his
own domain of the smoking-room; and left the house again five minutes
afterwards. Joseph officiously opened the door for him; and Joseph was
surprised, precisely as his mistress had been surprised. Mr. Gallilee
had a large brown paper parcel under his arm--the second which he
had taken out of the house with his own hands! Moreover, he looked
excessively confused when the footman discovered him. That night, he was
late in returning from the club. Joseph (now on the watch) observed that
he was not steady on his legs--and drew his own conclusions accordingly.
Punctual to her time, on the next morning, the new governess arrived.
Mrs. Gallilee received her, and sent for the children.
The maid in charge of them appeared alone. She had no doubt that the
young ladies would be back directly. The master had taken them out for a
little walk, before they began their lessons. He had been informed
that the lady who had been appointed to teach them would arrive at ten
o'clock. And what had he said? He had said, "Very good."
The half-hour struck--eleven o'clock struck--and neither the father nor
the children returned. Ten minutes later, someone rang the door bell.
The door being duly opened, nobody appeared on the house-step. Joseph
looked into the letter-box, and found a note addressed to his mistress,
in his master's handwriting. He immediately delivered it.
Hitherto, Mrs. Gallilee had only been anxious. Joseph, waiting for
events outside the door, heard the bell rung furiously; and found his
mistress (as he forcibly described it) "like a woman gone distracted."
Not without reason--to do her justice. Mr. Gallilee's method of
relieving his wife's anxiety was remarkable by its brevity. In one
sentence, he assured her that there was no need to feel alarmed. In
another, he mentioned that he had taken the girls away with him for a
change of air. And then he signed his initials--J. G.
Every servant in the house was summoned to the library, when Mrs.
Gallilee had in some degree recovered herself.
One after another they were strictly examined; and one after another
they had no evidence to give--excepting the maid who had been present
when the master took the young ladies away. The little she had to tell,
pointed to the inference that he had not admitted the girls to his
confidence before they left the house. Maria had submitted, without
appearing to be particularly pleased at the prospect of so early a walk.
Zo (never ready to exert either her intelligence or her legs) had openly
declared that she would rather stay at home. To this the master had
answered, "Get your things on directly!"--and had said it so sharply
that Miss Zoe stared at him in astonishment. Had they taken anything
with them--a travelling bag for instance? They had taken nothing, except
Mr. Gallilee's umbrella. Who had seen Mr. Gallilee last, on the previous
night? Joseph had seen him last. The lower classes in England have one,
and but one, true feeling of sympathy with the higher classes. The man
above them appeals to their hearts, and merits their true service, when
he is unsteady on his legs. Joseph nobly confined his evidence to what
he had observed some hours previously: he mentioned the parcel. Mrs.
Gallilee's keen perception, quickened by her own experience at the
window, arrived at the truth. Those two bulky packages must have
contained clothes--left, in anticipation of the journey, under the care
of an accomplice. It was impossible that Mr. Gallilee could have got
at the girls' dresses and linen, and have made the necessary selections
from them, without a woman's assistance. The female servants were
examined again. Each one of them positively asserted her innocence.
Mrs. Gallilee threatened to send for the police. The indignant women all
cried in chorus, "Search our boxes!" Mrs. Gallilee took a wiser course.
She sent to the lawyers who had been recommended to her by Mr. Null.
The messenger had just been despatched, when Mr. Null himself, in
performance of yesterday's engagement, called at the house.
He, too, was agitated. It was impossible that he could have heard what
had happened. Was he the bearer of bad news? Mrs. Gallilee thought of
Carmina first, and then of Mr. Le Frank.
"Prepare for a surprise," Mr. Null began, "a joyful surprise, Mrs.
Gallilee! I have received a telegram from your son."
He handed it to her as he spoke.
"September 6th. Arrived at Quebec, and received information of Carmina's
illness. Shall catch the Boston steamer, and sail to-morrow for
Liverpool. Break the news gently to C. For God's sake send telegram to
meet me at Queenstown."
It was then the 7th of September. If all went well, Ovid might be in
London in ten days more.
CHAPTER LV.
Mrs. Gallilee read the telegram--paused--and read it again. She let it
drop on her lap; but her eyes still rested mechanically on the slip of
paper. When she spoke, her voice startled Mr. Null. Usually loud and
hard, her tones were strangely subdued. If his back had been turned
towards her, he would hardly have known who was speaking to him.
"I must ask you to make allowances for me," she began, abruptly; "I
hardly know what to say. This surprise comes at a time when I am badly
prepared for it. I am getting well; but, you see, I am not quite so
strong as I was before that woman attacked me. My husband has gone
away--I don't know where--and has taken my children with him. Read
his note: but don't say anything. You must let me be quiet, or I can't
think."
She handed the letter to Mr. Null. He looked at her--read the few
words submitted to him--and looked at her again. For once, his stock of
conventional phrases failed him. Who could have anticipated such conduct
on the part of her husband? Who could have supposed that she herself
would have been affected in this way, by the return of her son?
Mrs. Gallilee drew a long heavy breath. "I have got it now," she said.
"My son is coming home in a hurry because of Carmina's illness. Has
Carmina written to him?"
Mr. Null was in his element again: this question appealed to his
knowledge of his patient. "Impossible, Mrs. Gallilee--in her present
state of health."
"In her present state of health? I forgot that. There was something
else. Oh, yes! Has Carmina seen the telegram?"
Mr. Null explained. He had just come from Carmina. In his medical
capacity, he had thought it judicious to try the moral effect on his
patient of a first allusion to the good news. He had only ventured to
say that Mr. Ovid's agents in Canada had heard from him on his travels,
and had reason to believe that he would shortly return to Quebec. Upon
the whole, the impression produced on the young lady--
It was useless to go on. Mrs. Gallilee was pursuing her own thoughts,
without even the pretence of listening to him.
"I want to know who wrote to my son," she persisted. "Was it the nurse?"
Mr. Null considered this to be in the last degree unlikely. The nurse's
language showed a hostile feeling towards Mr. Ovid, in consequence of
his absence.
Mrs. Gallilee looked once more at the telegram. "Why," she asked, "does
Ovid telegraph to You?"
Mr. Null answered with his customary sense of what was due to himself.
"As the medical attendant of the family, your son naturally supposed,
madam, that Miss Carmina was under my care."
The implied reproof produced no effect. "I wonder whether my son was
afraid to trust us?" was all Mrs. Gallilee said. It was the chance guess
of a wandering mind--but it had hit the truth. Kept in ignorance of
Carmina's illness by the elder members of the family, at what other
conclusion could Ovid arrive, with Zo's letter before him? After a
momentary pause, Mrs. Gallilee went on. "I suppose I may keep the
telegram?" she said.
Prudent Mr. Null offered a copy--and made the copy, then and there.
The original (he explained) was his authority for acting on Mr. Ovid's
behalf, and he must therefore beg leave to keep it. Mrs. Gallilee
permitted him to exchange the two papers. "Is there anything more?" she
asked. "Your time is valuable of course. Don't let me detain you."
"May I feel your pulse before I go?"
She held out her arm to him in silence.
The carriage came to the door while he was counting the beat of the
pulse. She glanced at the window, and said, "Send it away." Mr. Null
remonstrated. "My dear lady, the air will do you good." She answered
obstinately and quietly, "No"--and once more became absorbed in thought.
It had been her intention to combine her first day of carriage exercise
with a visit to Teresa's lodgings, and a personal exertion of her
authority. The news of Ovid's impending return made it a matter of
serious importance to consider this resolution under a new light. She
had now, not only to reckon with Teresa, but with her son. With this
burden on her enfeebled mind--heavily laden by the sense of injury which
her husband's flight had aroused--she had not even reserves enough of
energy to spare for the trifling effort of dressing to go out. She broke
into irritability, for the first time. "I am trying to find out who has
written to my son. How can I do it when you are worrying me about the
carriage? Have you ever held a full glass in your hand, and been afraid
of letting it overflow? That's what I'm afraid of--in my mind--I don't
mean that my mind is a glass--I mean--" Her forehead turned red. "Will
you leave me?" she cried.
He left her instantly.
The change in her manner, the difficulty she found in expressing her
thoughts, had even startled stupid Mr. Null. She had herself alluded
to results of the murderous attack made on her by Teresa, which had not
perhaps hitherto sufficiently impressed him. In the shock inflicted
on the patient's body, had there been involved some subtly-working
influence that had disturbed the steady balance of her mind? Pondering
uneasily on that question, he spoke to Joseph in the hall.
"Do you know about your master and the children?" he said.
"Yes, sir."
"I wish you had told me of it, when you let me in."
"Have I done any harm, sir?"
"I don't know yet. If you want me, I shall be at home to dinner at
seven."
The next visitor was one of the partners in the legal firm, to which
Mrs. Gallilee had applied for advice. After what Mr. Null had said,
Joseph hesitated to conduct this gentleman into the presence of his
mistress. He left the lawyer in the waiting-room, and took his card.
Mrs. Gallilee's attitude had not changed. She sat looking down at the
copied telegram and the letter from her husband, lying together on her
lap. Joseph was obliged to speak twice, before he could rouse her.
"To-morrow," was all she said.
"What time shall I say, ma'am?"
She put her hand to her head--and broke into anger against Joseph.
"Settle it yourself, you wretch!" Her head drooped again over the
papers. Joseph returned to the lawyer. "My mistress is not very well,
sir. She will be obliged if you will call to-morrow, at your own time."
About an hour later, she rang her bell--rang it unintermittingly, until
Joseph appeared. "I'm famished," she said. "Something to eat! I never
was so hungry in my life. At once--I can't wait."
The cook sent up a cold fowl, and a ham. Her eyes devoured the food,
while the footman was carving it for her. Her bad temper seemed to have
completely disappeared. She said, "What a delicious dinner! Just the
very things I like." She lifted the first morsel to her mouth--and laid
the fork down again with a weary sigh. "No: I can't eat; what has come
to me?" With those words, she pushed her chair away from the table,
and looked slowly all round her. "I want the telegram and the letter."
Joseph found them. "Can you help me?" she said. "I am trying to find out
who wrote my son. Say yes, or no, at once; I hate waiting."
Joseph left her in her old posture, with her head down and the papers on
her lap.
The appearance of the uneaten dinner in the kitchen produced a
discussion, followed by a quarrel.
Joseph was of the opinion that the mistress had got more upon her mind
than her mind could well bear. It was useless to send for Mr. Null; he
had already mentioned that he would not be home until seven o'clock..
There was no superior person in the house to consult. It was not for
the servants to take responsibility on themselves. "Fetch the nearest
doctor, and let him be answerable, if anything serious happens." Such
was Joseph's advice.
The women (angrily remembering that Mrs. Gallilee had spoken of sending
for the police) ridiculed the footman's cautious proposal--with one
exception. When the others ironically asked him if he was not accustomed
to the mistress's temper yet, Mrs. Gallilee's own maid (Marceline) said,
"What do we know about it? Joseph is the only one of us who has seen
her, since the morning."
This perfectly sensible remark had the effect of a breath of wind on a
smouldering fire. The female servants, all equally suspected of having
assisted Mr. Gallilee in making up his parcels, were all equally assured
that there was a traitress among them--and that Marceline was the
woman. Hitherto suppressed, this feeling now openly found its way to
expression. Marceline lost her temper; and betrayed herself as her
master's guilty confederate.
"I'm a mean mongrel--am I?" cried the angry maid, repeating the cook's
allusion to her birthplace in the Channel Islands. "The mistress shall
know, this minute, that I'm the woman who did it!"
"Why didn't you say so before?" the cook retorted.
"Because I promised my master not to tell on him, till he got to his
journey's end."
"Who'll lay a wager?" asked the cook. "I bet half-a-crown she changes
her mind, before she gets to the top of the stairs."
"Perhaps she thinks the mistress will forgive her," the parlour-maid
suggested ironically.
"Or perhaps," the housemaid added, "she means to give the mistress
notice to leave."
"That's exactly what I'm going to do!" said Marceline.
The women all declined to believe her. She appealed to Joseph. "What
did I tell you, when the mistress first sent me out in the carriage with
poor Miss Carmina? Didn't I say that I was no spy, and that I wouldn't
submit to be made one? I would have left the house--I would!--but for
Miss Carmina's kindness. Any other young lady would have made me feel
my mean position. She treated me like a friend--and I don't forget it.
I'll go straight from this place, and help to nurse her!"
With that declaration, Marceline left the kitchen.
Arrived at the library door, she paused. Not as the cook had suggested,
to "change her mind;" but to consider beforehand how much she should
confess to her mistress, and how much she should hold in reserve.
Zo's narrative of what had happened, on the evening of Teresa's arrival,
had produced its inevitable effect on the maid's mind. Strengthening,
by the sympathy which it excited, her grateful attachment to Carmina,
it had necessarily intensified her dislike of Mrs. Gallilee--and Mrs.
Gallilee's innocent husband had profited by that circumstance!
Unexpectedly tried by time, Mr. Gallilee's resolution to assert his
paternal authority, in spite of his wife, had failed him. The same
timidity which invents a lie in a hurry, can construct a stratagem at
leisure. Marceline had discovered her master putting a plan of escape,
devised by himself, to its first practical trial before the open
wardrobe of his daughters--and had asked slyly if she could be of any
use. Never remarkable for presence of mind in emergencies, Mr. Gallilee
had helplessly admitted to his confidence the last person in the house,
whom anyone else (in his position) would have trusted. "My good soul,
I want to take the girls away quietly for change of air--you have got
little secrets of your own, like me, haven't you?--and the fact is,
I don't quite know how many petticoats--." There, he checked himself;
conscious, when it was too late, that he was asking his wife's maid to
help him in deceiving his wife. The ready Marceline helped him
through the difficulty. "I understand, sir: my mistress's mind is much
occupied--and you don't want to trouble her about this little journey."
Mr. Gallilee, at a loss for any other answer, pulled out his purse.
Marceline modestly drew back at the sight of it. "My mistress pays me,
sir; I serve you for nothing." In those words, she would have informed
any other man of the place which Mrs. Gallilee held in her estimation.
Her master simply considered her to be the most disinterested woman he
had ever met with. If she lost her situation through helping him, he
engaged to pay her wages until she found another place. The maid set his
mind at rest on that subject. "A woman who understands hairdressing as I
do, sir, can refer to other ladies besides Mrs. Gallilee, and can get a
place whenever she wants one."
Having decided on what she should confess, and on what she should
conceal, Marceline knocked at the library door. Receiving no answer, she
went in.
Mrs. Gallilee was leaning back in her chair: her hands hung down on
either side of her; her eyes looked up drowsily at the ceiling. Prepared
to see a person with an overburdened mind, the maid (without sympathy,
to quicken her perceptions) saw nothing but a person on the point of
taking a nap.
"Can I speak a word, ma'am?"
Mrs. Gallilee's eyes remained fixed on the ceiling. "Is that my maid?"
she asked.
Treated--to all appearance--with marked contempt, Marceline no longer
cared to assume the forms of respect either in language or manner. "I
wish to give you notice to leave," she said abruptly; "I find I can't
get on with my fellow-servants."
Mrs. Gallilee slowly raised her head, and looked at her maid--and said
nothing.
"And while I'm about it," the angry woman proceeded, "I may as well own
the truth. You suspect one of us of helping my master to take away the
young ladies' things--I mean some few of their things. Well! you needn't
blame innocent people. I'm the person."
Mrs. Gallilee laid her head back again on the chair--and burst out
laughing.
For one moment, Marceline looked at her mistress in blank surprise.
Then, the terrible truth burst on her. She ran into the hall, and called
for Joseph.
He hurried up the stairs. The instant he presented himself at the open
door, Mrs. Gallilee rose to her feet. "My medical attendant," she said,
with an assumption of dignity; "I must explain myself." She held up one
hand, outstretched; and counted her fingers with the other. "First my
husband. Then my son. Now my maid. One, two, three. Mr. Null, do you
know the proverb? 'It's the last hair that breaks the camel's back.'"
She suddenly dropped on her knees. "Will somebody pray for me?" she
cried piteously. "I don't know how to pray for myself. Where is God?"
Bareheaded as he was, Joseph ran out. The nearest doctor lived on the
opposite side of the Square. He happened to be at home. When he reached
the house, the women servants were holding their mistress down by main
force.
CHAPTER LVI.
On the next day, Mr. Mool--returning from a legal consultation to an
appointment at his office--found a gentleman, whom he knew by sight,
walking up and down before his door; apparently bent on intercepting
him. "Mr. Null, I believe?" he said, with his customary politeness.
Mr. Null answered to his name, and asked for a moment of Mr. Mool's
time. Mr. Mool looked grave, and said he was late for an appointment
already. Mr. Null admitted that the clerks in the office had told him
so, and said at last, what he ought to have said at first: "I am
Mrs. Gallilee's medical attendant--there is serious necessity for
communicating with her husband."
Mr. Mool instantly led the way into the office.
The chief clerk approached his employer, with some severity of manner.
"The parties have been waiting, sir, for more than a quarter of an
hour." Mr. Mool's attention wandered: he was thinking of Mrs. Gallilee.
"Is she dying?" he asked. "She is out of her mind," Mr. Null answered.
Those words petrified the lawyer: he looked helplessly at the
clerk--who, in his turn, looked indignantly at the office clock.
Mr. Mool recovered himself. "Say I am detained by a most distressing
circumstance; I will call on the parties later in the day, at their
own hour." Giving those directions to the clerk, he hurried Mr. Null
upstairs into a private room. "Tell me about it; pray tell me about it.
Stop! Perhaps, there is not time enough. What can I do?"
Mr. Null put the question, which he ought to have asked when they met at
the house door. "Can you tell me Mr. Gallilee's address?"
"Certainly! Care of the Earl of Northlake--"
"Will you please write it in my pocket-book? I am so upset by this
dreadful affair that I can't trust my memory."
Such a confession of helplessness as this, was all that was wanted to
rouse Mr. Mool. He rejected the pocket-book, and wrote the address on a
telegram. "Return directly: your wife is seriously ill." In five minutes
more, the message was on its way to Scotland; and Mr. Null was at
liberty to tell his melancholy story--if he could.
With assistance from Mr. Mool, he got through it. "This morning," he
proceeded, "I have had the two best opinions in London. Assuming that
there is no hereditary taint, the doctors think favourably of Mrs.
Gallilee's chances of recovery."
"Is it violent madness?" Mr. Mool asked.
Mr. Null admitted that two nurses were required. "The doctors don't look
on her violence as a discouraging symptom," he said. "They are inclined
to attribute it to the strength of her constitution. I felt it my duty
to place my own knowledge of the case before them. Without mentioning
painful family circumstances--"
"I happen to be acquainted with the circumstances," Mr. Mool interposed.
"Are they in any way connected with this dreadful state of things?"
He put that question eagerly, as if he had some strong personal interest
in hearing the reply.
Mr. Null blundered on steadily with his story. "I thought it right (with
all due reserve) to mention that Mrs. Gallilee had been subjected to--I
won't trouble you with medical language--let us say, to a severe shock;
involving mental disturbance as well as bodily injury, before her reason
gave way."
"And they considered that to be the cause--?"
Mr. Null asserted his dignity. "The doctors agreed with Me, that it had
shaken her power of self-control."
"You relieve me, Mr. Null--you infinitely relieve me! If our way
of removing the children had done the mischief, I should never have
forgiven myself."
He blushed, and said no more. Had Mr. Null noticed the slip of the
tongue into which his agitation had betrayed him? Mr. Null did certainly
look as if he was going to put a question. The lawyer desperately
forestalled him.
"May I ask how you came to apply to me for Mr. Gallilee's address? Did
you think of it yourself?"
Mr. Null had never had an idea of his own, from the day of his birth,
downward. "A very intelligent man," he answered, "reminded me that you
were an old friend of Mr. Gallilee. In short, it was Joseph--the footman
at Fairfield Gardens."
Joseph's good opinion was of no importance to Mr. Mool's professional
interests. He could gratify Mr. Null's curiosity without fear of
lowering himself in the estimation of a client.
"I had better, perhaps, explain that chance allusion of mine to the
children," he began. "My good friend, Mr. Gallilee, had his own reasons
for removing his daughters from home for a time--reasons, I am bound to
add, in which I concur. The children were to be placed under the care of
their aunt, Lady Northlake. Unfortunately, her ladyship was away with my
lord, cruising in their yacht. They were not able to receive Maria
and Zoe at once. In the interval that elapsed--excuse my entering into
particulars--our excellent friend had his own domestic reasons for
arranging the--the sort of clandestine departure which did in fact
take place. It was perhaps unwise on my part to consent--in short, I
permitted some of the necessary clothing to be privately deposited here,
and called for on the way to the station. Very unprofessional, I am
aware. I did it for the best; and allowed my friendly feeling to mislead
me. Can I be of any use? How is poor Miss Carmina? No better? Oh, dear!
dear! Mr. Ovid will hear dreadful news, when he comes home. Can't we
prepare him for it, in any way?"
Mr. Null announced that a telegram would meet Ovid at Queenstown--with
the air of a man who had removed every obstacle that could be suggested
to him. The kind-hearted lawyer shook his head.
"Is there no friend who can meet him there?" Mr. Mool suggested. "I
have clients depending on me--cases, in which property is concerned,
and reputation is at stake--or I would gladly go myself. You, with your
patients, are as little at liberty as I am. Can't you think of some
other friend?"
Mr. Null could think of nobody, and had nothing to propose. Of the three
weak men, now brought into association by the influence of domestic
calamity, he was the feeblest, beyond all doubt. Mr. Mool had knowledge
of law, and could on occasion be incited to energy. Mr. Gallilee
had warm affections, which, being stimulated, could at least assert
themselves. Mr. Null, professionally and personally, was incapable of
stepping beyond his own narrow limits, under any provocation whatever.
He submitted to the force of events as a cabbage-leaf submits to the
teeth of a rabbit.
After leaving the office, Carmina's medical attendant had his patient
to see. Since the unfortunate alarm in the house, he had begun to feel
doubtful and anxious about her again.
In the sitting-room, he found Teresa and the landlady in consultation.
In her own abrupt way, the nurse made him acquainted with the nature of
the conference.
"We have two worries to bother us," she said; "and the music-master is
the worst of the two. There's a notion at the hospital (set agoing, I
don't doubt, by the man himself), that I crushed his fingers on purpose.
That's a lie! With the open cupboard door between us, how could I see
him, or he see me? When I gave it a push-to, I no more knew where his
hand was, than you do. If I meant anything, I meant to slap his face for
prying about in my room. We've made out a writing between us, to show to
the doctors. You shall have a copy, in case you're asked about it. Now
for the other matter. You keep on telling me I shall fall ill myself, if
I don't get a person to help me with Carmina. Make your mind easy--the
person has come."
"Where is she?"
Teresa pointed to the bedroom.
"Recommended by me?" Mr. Null inquired.
"Recommended by herself. And we don't like her. That's the other worry."
Mr. Null's dignity declined to attach any importance to the "other
worry." "No nurse has any business here, without my sanction! I'll send
her away directly."
He pushed open the baize door. A lady was sitting by Carmina's bedside.
Even in the dim light, there was no mistaking that face. Mr. Null
recognised--Miss Minerva.
She rose, and bowed to him. He returned the bow stiffly. Nature's
protecting care of fools supplies them with an instinct which distrusts
ability. Mr. Null never liked Miss Minerva. At the same time, he was
a little afraid of her. This was not the sort of nurse who could be
ordered to retire at a moment's notice.
"I have been waiting anxiously to see you," she said--and led the way
to the farther end of the room. "Carmina terrifies me," she added in
a whisper. "I have been here for an hour. When I entered the room her
face, poor dear, seemed to come to life again; she was able to express
her joy at seeing me. Even the jealous old nurse noticed the change for
the better. Why didn't it last? Look at her--oh, look at her!"
The melancholy relapse that had followed the short interval of
excitement was visible to anyone now.
There was the "simulated paralysis," showing itself plainly in every
part of the face. She lay still as death, looking vacantly at the
foot of the bed. Mr. Null was inclined to resent the interference of a
meddling woman, in the discharge of his duty. He felt Carmina's pulse,
in sulky silence. Her eyes never moved; her hand showed no consciousness
of his touch. Teresa opened the door, and looked in--impatiently eager
to see the intruding nurse sent away. Miss Minerva invited her to
return to her place at the bedside. "I only ask to occupy it," she said
considerately, "when you want rest." Teresa was ready with an ungracious
reply, but found no opportunity of putting it into words. Miss Minerva
turned quickly to Mr. Null. "I must ask you to let me say a few words
more," she continued; "I will wait for you in the next room."
Her resolute eyes rested on him with a look which said plainly, "I
mean to be heard." He followed her into the sitting-room, and waited in
sullen submission to hear what she had to say.
"I must not trouble you by entering into my own affairs," she began. "I
will only say that I have obtained an engagement much sooner than I had
anticipated, and that the convenience of my employers made it necessary
for me to meet them in Paris. I owed Carmina a letter; but I had reasons
for not writing until I knew whether she had, or had not, left London.
With that object, I called this morning at her aunt's house. You now see
me here--after what I have heard from the servants. I make no comment,
and I ask for no explanations. One thing only, I must know. Teresa
refers me to you. Is Carmina attended by any other medical man?"
Mr. Null answered stiffly, "I am in consultation with Doctor Benjulia;
and I expect him to-day."
The reply startled her. "Dr. Benjulia?" she repeated.
"The greatest man we have!" Mr. Null asserted in his most positive
manner.
She silently determined to wait until Doctor Benjulia arrived.
"What is the last news of Mr. Ovid?" she said to him, after an interval
of consideration.
He told her the news, in the fewest words possible. Even he observed
that it seemed to excite her.
"Oh, Mr. Null! who is to prepare him for what he will see in that room?
Who is to tell him what he must hear of his mother?"
There was a certain familiarity in the language of this appeal, which
Mr. Null felt it necessary to discourage. "The matter is left in my
hands," he announced. "I shall telegraph to him at Queenstown. When he
comes home, he will find my prescriptions on the table. Being a
medical man himself, my treatment of the case will tell Mr. Ovid Vere
everything."
The obstinate insensibility of his tone stopped her on the point of
saying what Mr. Mool had said already. She, too, felt for Ovid, when
she thought of the cruel brevity of a telegram. "At what date will the
vessel reach Queenstown?" she asked.
"By way of making sure," said Mr. Null, "I shall telegraph in a week's
time."
She troubled him with no more inquiries. He had purposely remained
standing, in the expectation that she would take the hint, and go; and
he now walked to the window, and looked out. She remained in her chair,
thinking. In a few minutes more, there was a heavy step on the stairs.
Benjulia had arrived.
He looked hard at Miss Minerva, in unconcealed surprise at finding her
in the house. She rose, and made an effort to propitiate him by shaking
hands. "I am very anxious," she said gently, "to hear your opinion."
"Your hand tells me that," he answered. "It's a cold hand, on a warm
day. You're an excitable woman."
He looked at Mr. Null, and led the way into the bedroom.
Left by herself, Miss Minerva discovered writing materials (placed ready
for Mr. Null's next prescription) on a side table. She made use of them
at once to write to her employer. "A dear friend of mine is seriously
ill, and in urgent need of all that my devotion can do for her. If you
are willing to release me from my duties for a short time, your sympathy
and indulgence will not be thrown away on an ungrateful woman. If
you cannot do me this favour, I ask your pardon for putting you to
inconvenience, and leave some other person, whose mind is at ease,
to occupy the place which I am for the present unfit to fill." Having
completed her letter in those terms, she waited Benjulia's return.
There was sadness in her face, but no agitation, as she looked patiently
towards the bedroom door. At last--in her inmost heart, she knew it--the
victory over herself was a victory won. Carmina could trust her now; and
Ovid himself should see it!
Mr. Null returned to the sitting-room alone. Doctor Benjulia had no time
to spare: he had left the bedroom by the other door.
"I may say (as you seem anxious) that my colleague approves of a
proposal, on my part, to slightly modify the last prescription. We
recognise the new symptoms, without feeling alarm." Having issued this
bulletin, Mr. Null sat down to make his feeble treatment of his patient
feebler still.
When he looked up again, the room was empty. Had she left the house?
No: her travelling hat and her gloves were on the other table. Had she
boldly confronted Teresa on her own ground?
He took his modified prescription into the bedroom. There she was, and
there sat the implacable nurse, already persuaded into listening to her!
What conceivable subject could there be, which offered two such women
neutral ground to meet on? Mr. Null left the house without the faintest
suspicion that Carmina might be the subject.
"May I try to rouse her?"
Teresa answered by silently resigning her place at the bedside. Miss
Minerva touched Carmina's hand, and spoke. "Have you heard the good
news, dear? Ovid is coming back in little more than a week."
Carmina looked--reluctantly looked--at her friend, and said, with an
effort, "I am glad."
"You will be better," Miss Minerva continued, "the moment you see him."
Her face became faintly animated. "I shall be able to say good-bye," she
answered.
"Not good-bye, darling. He is returning to you after a long journey."
"I am going, Frances, on a longer journey still." She closed her eyes,
too weary or too indifferent to say more.
Miss Minerva drew back, struggling against the tears that fell fast over
her face. The jealous old nurse quietly moved nearer to her, and kissed
her hand. "I've been a brute and a fool," said Teresa; "you're almost as
fond of her as I am."
A week later, Miss Minerva left London, to wait for Ovid at Queenstown.
CHAPTER LVII.
Mr. Mool was in attendance at Fairfield Gardens, when his old friend
arrived from Scotland, to tell him what the cautiously expressed message
in the telegram really meant.
But one idea seemed to be impressed on Mr. Gallilee's mind--the idea of
reconciliation. He insisted on seeing his wife. It was in vain to
tell him that she was utterly incapable of reciprocating or even of
understanding his wishes. Absolute resistance was the one alternative
left--and it was followed by distressing results. The kind-hearted old
man burst into a fit of crying, which even shook the resolution of the
doctors. One of them went upstairs to warn the nurses. The other said,
"Let him see her."
The instant he showed himself in the room, Mrs. Gallilee recognised him
with a shriek of fury. The nurses held her back--while Mr. Mool dragged
him out again, and shut the door. The object of the doctors had been
gained. His own eyes had convinced him of the terrible necessity of
placing his wife under restraint. She was removed to a private asylum.
Maria and Zo had been left in Scotland--as perfectly happy as girls
could be, in the society of their cousins, and under the affectionate
care of their aunt. Mr. Gallilee remained in London; but he was not left
alone in the deserted house. The good lawyer had a spare room at
his disposal; and Mrs. Mool and her daughters received him with true
sympathy. Coming events helped to steady his mind. He was comforted
in the anticipation of Ovid's return, and interested in hearing of the
generous motive which had led Miss Minerva to meet his stepson.
"I never agreed with the others when they used to abuse our governess,"
he said. "She might have been quick-tempered, and she might have been
ugly--I suppose I saw her in some other light myself." He had truly seen
her under another light. In his simple affectionate nature, there had
been instinctive recognition of that great heart.
He was allowed to see Carmina, in the hope that pleasant associations
connected with him might have a favourable influence. She smiled
faintly, and gave him her hand when she saw him at the bedside--but that
was all.
Too deeply distressed to ask to see her again, he made his inquiries for
the future at the door. Day after day, the answer was always the same.
Before she left London, Miss Minerva had taken it on herself to engage
the vacant rooms, on the ground floor of the lodging-house, for Ovid.
She knew his heart, as she knew her own heart. Once under the same roof
with Carmina, he would leave it no more--until life gave her back to
him, or death took her away. Hearing of what had been done, Mr. Gallilee
removed to Ovid's rooms the writing-desk and the books, the favourite
music and the faded flowers, left by Carmina at Fairfield Gardens.
"Anything that belongs to her," he thought, "will surely be welcome to
the poor fellow when he comes back."
On one afternoon--never afterwards to be forgotten--he had only begun
to make his daily inquiry, when the door on the ground floor was opened,
and Miss Minerva beckoned to him.
Her face daunted Mr. Gallilee: he asked in a whisper, if Ovid had
returned.
She pointed upwards, and answered, "He is with her now."
"How did he bear it?"
"We don't know; we were afraid to follow him into the room."
She turned towards the window as she spoke. Teresa was sitting
there--vacantly looking out. Mr. Gallilee spoke to her kindly: she made
no answer; she never even moved. "Worn out!" Miss Minerva whispered to
him. "When she thinks of Carmina now, she thinks without hope."
He shuddered. The expression of his own fear was in those words--and
he shrank from it. Miss Minerva took his hand, and led him to a chair.
"Ovid will know best," she reminded him; "let us wait for what Ovid will
say."
"Did you meet him on board the vessel?" Mr. Gallilee asked.
"Yes."
"How did he look?"
"So well and so strong that you would hardly have known him again--till
he asked about Carmina. Then he turned pale. I knew that I must tell him
the truth--but I was afraid to take it entirely on myself. Something Mr.
Null said to me, before I left London, suggested that I might help Ovid
to understand me if I took the prescriptions to Queenstown. I had not
noticed that they were signed by Doctor Benjulia, as well as by Mr.
Null. Don't ask me what effect the discovery had on him! I bore it at
the time--I can't speak of it now."
"You good creature! you dear good creature! Forgive me if I have
distressed you; I didn't meant it."
"You have not distressed me. Is there anything else I can tell you?"
Mr. Gallilee hesitated. "There is one thing more," he said. "It isn't
about Carmina this time--"
He hesitated again. Miss Minerva understood. "Yes," she answered; "I
spoke to Ovid of his mother. In mercy to himself and to me, he would
hear no details. 'I know enough,' he said, 'if I know that she is the
person to blame. I was prepared to hear it. My mother's silence could
only be accounted for in one way, when I had read Zo's letter.'--Don't
you know, Mr. Gallilee, that the child wrote to Ovid?"
The surprise and delight of Zo's fond old father, when he heard the
story of the letter, forced a smile from Miss Minerva, even at that
time of doubt and sorrow. He declared that he would have returned to his
daughter by the mail train of that night, but for two considerations. He
must see his stepson before he went back to Scotland; and he must search
all the toy-shops in London for the most magnificent present that could
be offered to a young person of ten years old. "Tell Ovid, with my love,
I'll call again to-morrow," he said, looking at his watch. "I have just
time to write to Zo by to-day's post." He went to his club, for the
first time since he had returned to London. Miss Minerva thought of
bygone days, and wondered if he would enjoy his champagne.
A little later Mr. Null called--anxious to know if Ovid had arrived.
Other women, in the position of Miss Minerva and Teresa, might have
hesitated to keep the patient's room closed to the doctor. These two
were resolved. They refused to disturb Ovid, even by sending up a
message. Mr. Null took offence. "Understand, both of you," he said,
"when I call to-morrow morning, I shall insist on going upstairs--and if
I find this incivility repeated, I shall throw up the case." He left the
room, triumphing in his fool's paradise of aggressive self-conceit.
They waited for some time longer--and still no message reached them from
upstairs. "We may be wrong in staying here," Miss Minerva suggested; "he
may want to be alone when he leaves her--let us go."
She rose to return to the house of her new employers. They respected
her, and felt for her: while Carmina's illness continued, she had the
entire disposal of her time. The nurse accompanied her to the door;
resigned to take refuge in the landlady's room. "I'm afraid to be by
myself," Teresa said. "Even that woman's chatter is better for me than
my own thoughts."
Before parting for the night they waited in the hall, looking towards
the stairs, and listening anxiously. Not a sound disturbed the
melancholy silence.
CHAPTER LVIII.
Among many vain hopes, one hope had been realised: they had met again.
In the darkened room, her weary eyes could hardly have seen the betrayal
of what he suffered--even if she had looked up in his face. She was
content to rest her head on his breast, and to feel his arm round her.
"I am glad, dear," she said, "to have lived long enough for this."
Those were her first words--after the first kiss. She had trembled and
sighed, when he ran to her and bent over her: it was the one expression
left of all her joy and all her love. But it passed away as other lesser
agitations had passed away. One last reserve of energy obeyed the gentle
persuasion of love. Silent towards all other friends, she was able to
speak to Ovid.
"You used to breathe so lightly," she said. "How is it that I hear you
now. Oh, Ovid, don't cry! I couldn't bear that."
He answered her quietly. "Don't be afraid, darling; I won't distress
you."
"And you will let me say, what I want to say?"
"Oh, yes!"
This satisfied her. "I may rest a little now," she said.
He too was silent; held down by the heavy hand of despair.
The time had been, in the days of his failing health, when the solemn
shadows of evening falling over the fields--the soaring song of the lark
in the bright heights of the midday sky--the dear lost remembrances that
the divine touch of music finds again--brought tears into his eyes.
They were dry eyes now! Those once tremulous nerves had gathered steady
strength, on the broad prairies and in the roving life. Could trembling
sorrow, seeking its way to the sources of tears, overbear the robust
vitality that rioted in his blood, whether she lived or whether she
died? In those deep breathings that had alarmed her, she had indeed
heard the struggle of grief, vainly urging its way to expression against
the masterful health and strength that set moral weakness at defiance.
Nature had remade this man--and Nature never pities.
It was an effort to her to collect her thoughts--but she did collect
them. She was able to tell him what was in her mind.
"Do you think, Ovid, your mother will care much what becomes of me, when
I die?"
He started at those dreadful words--so softly, so patiently spoken. "You
will live," he said. "My Carmina, what am I here for but to bring you
back to life?"
She made no attempt to dispute with him. Quietly, persistently, she
returned to the thought that was in her.
"Say that I forgive your mother, Ovid--and that I only ask one thing in
return. I ask her to leave me to you, when the end has come. My dear,
there is a feeling in me that I can't get over. Don't let me be buried
in a great place all crowded with the dead! I once saw a picture--it
was at home in Italy, I think--an English picture of a quiet little
churchyard in the country. The shadows of the trees rested on the lonely
graves. And some great poet had written--oh, such beautiful words
about it. The red-breast loves to build and warble there, And little
footsteps lightly print the ground. Promise, Ovid, you will take me
to some place, far from crowds and noise--where children may gather the
flowers on my grave."
He promised--and she thanked him, and rested again.
"There was something else," she said, when the interval had passed. "My
head is so sleepy. I wonder whether I can think of it?"
After a while, she did think of it.
"I want to make you a little farewell present. Will you undo my gold
chain? Don't cry, Ovid! oh, don't cry!"
He obeyed her. The gold chain held the two lockets--the treasured
portraits of her father and her mother. "Wear them for my sake," she
murmured. "Lift me up; I want to put them round your neck myself."
She tried, vainly tried, to clasp the chain. Her head fell back on his
breast. "Too sleepy," she said; "always too sleepy now! Say you love me,
Ovid."
He said it.
"Kiss me, dear."
He kissed her.
"Now lay me down on the pillow. I'm not eighteen yet--and I feel as old
as eighty! Rest; all I want is rest." Looking at him fondly, her eyes
closed little by little--then softly opened again. "Don't wait in this
dull room, darling; I will send for you, if I wake."
It was the only wish of hers that he disobeyed. From time to time, his
fingers touched her pulse, and felt its feeble beat. From time to time,
he stooped and let the faint coming and going of her breath flutter
on his cheek. The twilight fell, and darkness began to gather over the
room. Still, he kept his place by her, like a man entranced.
CHAPTER LIX.
The first trivial sound that broke the spell, was the sound of a match
struck in the next room.
He rose, and groped his way to the door. Teresa had ventured upstairs,
and had kindled a light. Some momentary doubt of him kept the nurse
silent when he looked at her. He stammered, and stared about him
confusedly, when he spoke.
"Where--where--?" He seemed to have lost his hold on his thoughts--he
gave it up, and tried again. "I want to be alone," he said; recovering,
for the moment, some power of expressing himself.
Teresa's first fear of him vanished. She took him by the hand like a
child, and led him downstairs to his rooms. He stood silently watching
her, while she lit the candles.
"When Carmina sleeps now," he asked, "does it last long?"
"Often for hours together," the nurse answered.
He said no more; he seemed to have forgotten that there was another
person in the room.
She found courage in her pity for him. "Try to pray," she said, and left
him.
He fell on his knees; but still the words failed him. He tried to quiet
his mind by holy thoughts. No! The dumb agony in him was powerless to
find relief. Only the shadows of thoughts crossed his mind; his eyes
ached with a burning heat. He began to be afraid of himself. The active
habits of the life that he had left, drove him out, with the instincts
of an animal, into space and air. Neither knowing nor caring in what
direction he turned his steps, he walked on at the top of his speed. On
and on, till the crowded houses began to grow more rare--till there were
gaps of open ground, on either side of him--till the moon rose behind
a plantation of trees, and bathed in its melancholy light a lonely high
road. He followed the road till he was tired of it, and turned aside
into a winding lane. The lights and shadows, alternating with each
other, soothed and pleased him. He had got the relief in exercise that
had been denied him while he was in repose. He could think again; he
could feel the resolution stirring in him to save that dear one, or
to die with her. Now at last, he was man enough to face the terrible
necessity that confronted him, and fight the battle of Art and Love
against Death. He stopped, and looked round; eager to return, and be
ready for her waking. In that solitary place, there was no hope of
finding a person to direct him. He turned, to go back to the high road.
At that same moment, he became conscious of the odour of tobacco wafted
towards him on the calm night air. Some one was smoking in the lane.
He retraced his steps, until he reached a gate--with a barren field
behind it. There was the man, whose tobacco smoke he had smelt, leaning
on the gate, with his pipe in his mouth.
The moonlight fell full on Ovid's face, as he approached to ask his way.
The man suddenly stood up--stared at him--and said, "Hullo! is it you or
your ghost?"
His face was in shadow, but his voice answered for him. The man was
Benjulia.
"Have you come to see me?" he asked.
"No."
"Won't you shake hands?"
"No."
"What's wrong?"
Ovid waited to answer until he had steadied his temper.
"I have seen Carmina," he said.
Benjulia went on with his smoking. "An interesting case, isn't it?" he
remarked.
"You were called into consultation by Mr. Null," Ovid continued; "and
you approved of his ignorant treatment--you, who knew better."
"I should think I did!" Benjulia rejoined.
"You deliberately encouraged an incompetent man; you let that poor girl
go on from bad to worse--for some vile end of your own."
Benjulia good-naturedly corrected him. "No, no. For an excellent
end--for knowledge."
"If I fail to remedy the mischief, which is your doing, and yours
alone--"
Benjulia took his pipe out of his mouth. "How do you mean to cure her?"
he eagerly interposed. "Have you got a new idea?"
"If I fail," Ovid repeated, "her death lies at your door. You merciless
villain--as certainly as that moon is now shining over us, your life
shall answer for hers."
Astonishment--immeasurable astonishment--sealed Benjulia's lips. He
looked down the lane when Ovid left him, completely stupefied. The one
imaginable way of accounting for such language as he had heard--spoken
by a competent member of his own profession!--presented the old familiar
alternative. "Drunk or mad?" he wondered while he lit his pipe again.
Walking back to the house, his old distrust of Ovid troubled him once
more. He decided to call at Teresa's lodgings in a day or two, and
ascertain from the landlady (and the chemist) how Carmina was being
cured.
Returning to the high road, Ovid was passed by a tradesman, driving his
cart towards London. The man civilly offered to take him as far as the
nearest outlying cabstand.
Neither the landlady nor Teresa had gone to their beds when he returned.
Their account of Carmina, during his absence, contained nothing to alarm
him. He bade them goodnight--eager to be left alone in his room.
In the house and out of the house, there was now the perfect silence
that helps a man to think. His mind was clear; his memory answered, when
he called on it to review that part of his own medical practice which
might help him, by experience, in his present need. But he shrank--with
Carmina's life in his hands--from trusting wholly to himself. A higher
authority than his was waiting to be consulted. He took from his
portmanteau the manuscript presented to him by the poor wretch, whose
last hours he had soothed in the garret at Montreal.
The work opened with a declaration which gave it a special value, in
Ovid's estimation.
"If this imperfect record of experience is ever read by other eyes than
mine, I wish to make one plain statement at the outset. The information
which is presented in these pages is wholly derived from the results of
bedside practice; pursued under miserable obstacles and interruptions,
and spread over a period of many years. Whatever faults and failings
I may have been guilty of as a man, I am innocent, in my professional
capacity, of ever having perpetrated the useless and detestable
cruelties which go by the name of Vivisection. Without entering into
any of the disputes on either side, which this practice has provoked,
I declare my conviction that no asserted usefulness in the end, can
justify deliberate cruelty in the means. The man who seriously maintains
that any pursuit in which he can engage is independent of moral
restraint, is a man in a state of revolt against God. I refuse to hear
him in his own defense, on that ground."
Ovid turned next to the section of the work which was entitled "Brain
Disease." The writer introduced his observations in these prefatory
words:
"A celebrated physiologist, plainly avowing the ignorance of doctors in
the matter of the brain and its diseases, and alluding to appearances
presented by post-mortem examination, concludes his confession thus: 'We
cannot even be sure whether many of the changes discovered are the
cause or the result of the disease, or whether the two are the conjoint
results of a common cause.'
"So this man writes, after experience in Vivisection.
"Let my different experience be heard next. Not knowing into what hands
this manuscript may fall, or what unexpected opportunities of usefulness
it may encounter after my death, I purposely abstain from using
technical language in the statement which I have now to make.
"In medical investigations, as in all other forms of human inquiry, the
result in view is not infrequently obtained by indirect and unexpected
means. What I have to say here on the subject of brain disease, was
first suggested by experience of two cases, which seemed in the last
degree unlikely to help me. They were both cases of young women;
each one having been hysterically affected by a serious moral shock;
terminating, after a longer or shorter interval, in simulated paralysis.
One of these cases I treated successfully. While I was still in
attendance on the other, (pursuing the same course of treatment which
events had already proved to be right), a fatal accident terminated my
patient's life, and rendered a post-mortem examination necessary. From
those starting points, I arrived--by devious ways which I am now to
relate--at deductions and discoveries that threw a new light on the
nature and treatment of brain disease."
Hour by hour, Ovid studied the pages that followed, until his mind and
the mind of the writer were one. He then returned to certain preliminary
allusions to the medical treatment of the two girls--inexpressibly
precious to him, in Carmina's present interests. The dawn of day found
him prepared at all points, and only waiting until the lapse of the next
few hours placed the means of action in his hands.
But there was one anxiety still to be relieved, before he lay down to
rest.
He took off his shoes, and stole upstairs to Carmina's door. The
faithful Teresa was astir, earnestly persuading her to take some
nourishment. The little that he could hear of her voice, as she
answered, made his heart ache--it was so faint and so low. Still she
could speak; and still there was the old saying to remember, which has
comforted so many and deceived so many: While there's life, there's
hope.
CHAPTER LX.
After a brief interview with his step-son, Mr. Gallilee returned to his
daughters in Scotland.
Touched by his fatherly interest in Carmina, Ovid engaged to keep him
informed of her progress towards recovery. If the anticipation of
saving her proved to be the sad delusion of love and hope, silence would
signify what no words could say.
In ten days' time, there was a happy end to suspense. The slow process
of recovery might extend perhaps to the end of the year. But, if
no accident happened, Ovid had the best reasons for believing that
Carmina's life was safe.
Freed from the terrible anxieties that had oppressed him, he was able to
write again, a few days later, in a cheerful tone, and to occupy his
pen at Mr. Gallilee's express request, with such an apparently trifling
subject as the conduct of Mr. Null.
"Your old medical adviser was quite right in informing you that I had
relieved him from any further attendance on Carmina. But his
lively imagination (or perhaps I ought to say, his sense of his own
consequence) has misled you when he also declares that I purposely
insulted him. I took the greatest pains not to wound his self-esteem. He
left me in anger, nevertheless.
"A day or two afterwards, I received a note from him; addressing me as
'Sir,' and asking ironically if I had any objection to his looking at
the copies of my prescriptions in the chemist's book. Though he was old
enough to be my father (he remarked) it seemed that experience counted
for nothing; he had still something to learn from his junior, in the
treatment of disease--and so on.
"At that miserable time of doubt and anxiety, I could only send a verbal
reply, leaving him to do what he liked. Before I tell you of the use
that he made of his liberty of action, I must confess something relating
to the prescriptions themselves. Don't be afraid of long and learned
words, and don't suppose that I am occupying your attention in this way,
without a serious reason for it which you will presently understand.
"A note in the manuscript--to my study of which, I owe, under God, the
preservation of Carmina's life--warned me that chemists, in the writer's
country, had either refused to make up certain prescriptions given in
the work, or had taken the liberty of altering the new quantities and
combinations of some of the drugs prescribed.
"Precisely the same thing happened here, in the case of the first
chemist to whom I sent. He refused to make up the medicine, unless I
provided him with a signed statement taking the whole responsibility on
myself.
"Having ascertained the exact nature of his objection, I dismissed him
without his guarantee, and employed another chemist; taking care (in
the interests of my time and my temper) to write my more important
prescriptions under reserve. That is to say, I followed the conventional
rules, as to quantities and combinations, and made the necessary
additions or changes from my own private stores when the medicine was
sent home.
"Poor foolish Mr. Null, finding nothing to astonish him in my course of
medicine--as represented by the chemist--appears by his own confession,
to have copied the prescriptions with a malicious object in view. 'I
have sent them, (he informs me, in a second letter) to Doctor Benjulia;
in order that he too may learn something in his profession from the
master who has dispensed with our services.' This new effort of irony
means that I stand self-condemned of vanity, in presuming to rely on my
own commonplace resources--represented by the deceitful evidence of the
chemist's book!
"But I am grateful to Mr. Null, notwithstanding: he has done me a
service, in meaning to do me an injury.
"My imperfect prescriptions have quieted the mind of the man to whom he
sent them. This wretch's distrust has long since falsely suspected me of
some professional rivalry pursued in secret; the feeling showed itself
again, when I met with him by accident on the night of my return to
London. Since Mr. Null has communicated with him, the landlady is
no longer insulted by his visits, and offended by his questions--all
relating to the course of treatment which I was pursuing upstairs.
"You now understand why I have ventured to trouble you on a purely
professional topic. To turn to matters of more interest--our dear
Carmina is well enough to remember you, and to send her love to you and
the girls. But even this little effort is followed by fatigue.
"I don't mean only fatigue of body: that is now a question of time and
care. I mean fatigue of mind--expressing itself by defect of memory.
"On the morning when the first positive change for the better appeared,
I was at her bedside when she woke. She looked at me in amazement.
'Why didn't you warn me of your sudden return?' she asked, 'I have only
written to you to-day--to your bankers at Quebec! What does it mean?'
"I did my best to soothe her, and succeeded. There is a complete lapse
in her memory--I am only too sure of it! She has no recollection of
anything that has happened since she wrote her last letter to me--a
letter which must have been lost (perhaps intercepted?), or I should
have received it before I left Quebec. This forgetfulness of the
dreadful trials through which my poor darling has passed, is, in itself,
a circumstance which we must all rejoice over for her sake. But I am
discouraged by it, at the same time; fearing it may indicate some more
serious injury than I have yet discovered.
"Miss Minerva--what should I do without the help and sympathy of that
best of true women?--Miss Minerva has cautiously tested her memory in
other directions, with encouraging results, so far. But I shall not feel
easy until I have tried further experiments, by means of some person
who does not exercise a powerful influence over her, and whose memory is
naturally occupied with what we older people call trifles.
"When you all leave Scotland next month, bring Zo here with you. My dear
little correspondent is just the sort of quaint child I want for the
purpose. Kiss her for me till she is out of breath--and say that is what
I mean to do when we meet."
The return to London took place in the last week in October.
Lord and Lady Northlake went to their town residence, taking Maria and
Zo with them. There were associations connected with Fairfield Gardens,
which made the prospect of living there--without even the society of his
children--unendurable to Mr. Gallilee. Ovid's house, still waiting the
return of its master, was open to his step-father. The poor man was only
too glad (in his own simple language) "to keep the nest warm for his
son."
The latest inquiries made at the asylum were hopefully answered.
Thus far, the measures taken to restore Mrs. Gallilee to herself had
succeeded beyond expectation. But one unfavourable symptom remained.
She was habitually silent. When she did speak, her mind seemed to be
occupied with scientific subjects: she never mentioned her husband, or
any other member of the family. Time and attention would remove this
drawback. In two or three months more perhaps, if all went well, she
might return to her family and her friends, as sane a woman as ever.
Calling at Fairfield Gardens for any letters that might be waiting
there, Mr. Gallilee received a circular in lithographed writing;
accompanied by a roll of thick white paper. The signature revealed the
familiar name of Mr. Le Frank.
The circular set forth that the writer had won renown and a moderate
income, as pianist and teacher of music. "A terrible accident, ladies
and gentlemen, has injured my right hand, and has rendered amputation
of two of my fingers necessary. Deprived for life of my professional
resources, I have but one means of subsistence left--viz:---collecting
subscriptions for a song of my own composition. N.B.--The mutilated
musician leaves the question of terms in the hands of the art-loving
public, and will do himself the honour of calling to-morrow."
Good-natured Mr. Gallilee left a sovereign to be given to the victim
of circumstances--and then set forth for Lord Northlake's house. He and
Ovid had arranged that Zo was to be taken to see Carmina that day.
On his way through the streets, he was met by Mr. Mool. The lawyer
looked at the song under his friend's arm. "What's that you're taking
such care of?" he asked. "It looks like music. A new piece for the young
ladies--eh?"
Mr. Gallilee explained. Mr. Mool struck his stick on the pavement, as
the nearest available means of expressing indignation.
"Never let another farthing of your money get into that rascal's pocket!
It's no merit of his that the poor old Italian nurse has not made her
appearance in the police reports."
With this preface, Mr. Mool related the circumstances under which Mr.
Le Frank had met with his accident. "His first proceeding when they
discharged him from the hospital," continued the lawyer, "was to summon
Teresa before a magistrate. Fortunately she showed the summons to me.
I appeared for her, provided with a plan of the rooms which spoke for
itself; and I put two questions to the complainant. What business had
he in another person's room? and why was his hand in that other person's
cupboard? The reporter kindly left the case unrecorded; and when the
fellow ended by threatening the poor woman outside the court, we bound
him over to keep the peace. I have my eye on him--and I'll catch him
yet, under the Vagrant Act!"
CHAPTER LXI.
Aided by time, care, and skill, Carmina had gained strength enough
to pass some hours of the day in the sitting-room; reclining in
an invalid-chair invented for her by Ovid. The welcome sight
of Zo--brightened and developed by happy autumn days passed in
Scotland--brought a deep flush to her face, and quickened the pulse
which Ovid was touching, under pretence of holding her hand. These signs
of excessive nervous sensibility warned him to limit the child's visit
to a short space of time. Neither Miss Minerva nor Teresa were in the
room: Carmina could have Zo all to herself.
"Now, my dear," she said, in a kiss, "tell me about Scotland."
"Scotland," Zo answered with dignity, "belongs to uncle Northlake. He
pays for everything; and I'm Missus."
"It's true," said Mr. Gallilee, bursting with pride. "My lord says it's
no use having a will of your own where Zo is. When he introduces her to
anybody on the estate, he says, 'Here's the Missus.'"
Mr. Gallilee's youngest daughter listened critically to the parental
testimony. "You see he knows," she said to Ovid. "There's nothing to
laugh at."
Carmina tried another question. "Did you think of me, dear, when you
were far away?"
"Think of you?" Zo repeated. "You're to sleep in my bedroom when we go
back to Scotland--and I'm to be out of bed, and one of 'em, when you eat
your first Scotch dinner. Shall I tell you what you'll see on the table?
You'll see a big brown steaming bag in a dish--and you'll see me slit it
with a knife--and the bag's fat inside will tumble out, all smoking hot
and stinking. That's a Scotch dinner. Oh!" she cried, losing her dignity
in the sudden interest of a new idea, "oh, Carmina, do you remember the
Italian boy, and his song?"
Here was one of those tests of her memory for trifles, applied with a
child's happy abruptness, for which Ovid had been waiting. He listened
eagerly. To his unutterable relief, Carmina laughed.
"Of course I remember it!" she said. "Who could forget the boy who sings
and grins and says Gimmeehaypenny?"
"That's it!" cried Zo. "The boy's song was a good one in its way. I've
learnt a better in Scotland. You've heard of Donald, haven't you?"
"No."
Zo turned indignantly to her father. "Why didn't you tell her of
Donald?"
Mr. Gallilee humbly admitted that he was in fault. Carmina asked who
Donald was, and what he was like. Zo unconsciously tested her memory for
the second time.
"You know that day," she said, "when Joseph had an errand at the
grocer's and I went along with him, and Miss Minerva said I was a vulgar
child?"
Carmina's memory recalled this new trifle, without an effort. "I know,"
she answered; "you told me Joseph and the grocer weighed you in the
great scales."
Zo delighted Ovid by trying her again. "When they put me into the
scales, Carmina, what did I weigh?"
"Nearly four stone, dear."
"Quite four stone. Donald weighs fourteen.' What do you think of that?"
Mr. Gallilee once more offered his testimony. "The biggest Piper on my
lord's estate," he began, "comes of a Highland family, and was removed
to the Lowlands by my lord's father. A great player--"
"And my friend," Zo explained, stopping her father in full career. "He
takes snuff out of a cow's horn. He shovels it up his fat nose with a
spoon, like this. His nose wags. He says, 'Try my sneeshin.' Sneeshin's
Scotch for snuff. He boos till he's nearly double when uncle Northlake
speaks to him. Boos is Scotch for bows. He skirls on the pipes--skirls
means screeches. When you first hear him, he'll make your stomach ache.
You'll get used to that--and you'll find you like him. He wears a purse
and a petticoat; he never had a pair of trousers on in his life; there's
no pride about him. Say you're my friend and he'll let you smack his
legs--"
Here, Ovid was obliged to bring the biography of Donald to a close.
Carmina's enjoyment of Zo was becoming too keen for her strength;
her bursts of laughter grew louder and louder--the wholesome limit of
excitement was being rapidly passed. "Tell us about your cousins," he
said, by way of effecting a diversion.
"The big ones?" Zo asked.
"No; the little ones, like you."
"Nice girls--they play at everything I tell 'em. Jolly boys--when they
knock a girl down, they pick her up again, and clean her."
Carmina was once more in danger of passing the limit. Ovid made another
attempt to effect a diversion. Singing would be comparatively harmless
in its effect--as he rashly supposed. "What's that song you learnt in
Scotland?" he asked.
"It's Donald's song," Zo replied. "He taught me."
At the sound of Donald's dreadful name, Ovid looked at his watch, and
said there was no time for the song. Mr. Gallilee suddenly and seriously
sided with his step-son. "How she got among the men after dinner," he
said, "nobody knows. Lady Northlake has forbidden Donald to teach her
any more songs; and I have requested him, as a favour to me, not to let
her smack his legs. Come, my dear, it's time we were home again."
Well intended by both gentlemen--but too late. Zo was ready for the
performance; her hat was cocked on one side; her plump little arms were
set akimbo; her round eyes opened and closed facetiously in winks worthy
of a low comedian. "I'm Donald," she announced: and burst out with the
song: "We're gayly yet, we're gayly yet; We're not very fou, but we're
gayly yet: Then sit ye awhile, and tipple a bit; For we're not very fou,
but we're gayly yet." She snatched up Carmina's medicine glass, and
waved it over her head with a Bacchanalian screech. "Fill a brimmer,
Tammie! Here's to Redshanks!"
"And pray who is Redshanks?" asked a lady, standing in the doorway. Zo
turned round--and instantly collapsed. A terrible figure, associated
with lessons and punishments, stood before her. The convivial friend
of Donald, the established Missus of Lord Northlake, disappeared--and a
polite pupil took their place. "If you please, Miss Minerva, Redshanks
is nickname for a Highlander." Who would have recognised the singer of
"We're gayly yet," in the subdued young person who made that reply?
The door opened again. Another disastrous intrusion? Yes, another!
Teresa appeared this time--caught Zo up in her arms--and gave the child
a kiss that was heard all over the room. "Ah, mia Giocosa!" cried the
old nurse--too happy to speak in any language but her own. "What does
that mean?" Zo asked, settling her ruffled petticoats. "It means," said
Teresa, who prided herself on her English, "Ah, my Jolly." This to a
young lady who could slit a haggis! This to the only person in Scotland,
privileged to smack Donald's legs! Zo turned to her father, and
recovered her dignity. Maria herself could hardly have spoken with more
severe propriety. "I wish to go home," said Zo.
Ovid had only to look at Carmina, and to see the necessity of immediate
compliance with his little sister's wishes. No more laughing, no more
excitement, for that day. He led Zo out himself, and resigned her to her
father at the door of his rooms on the ground floor.
Cheered already by having got away from Miss Minerva and the nurse,
Zo desired to know who lived downstairs; and, hearing that these were
Ovid's rooms, insisted on seeing them. The three went in together.
Ovid drew Mr. Gallilee into a corner. "I'm easier about Carmina now,"
he said. "The failure of her memory doesn't extend backwards. It begins
with the shock to her brain, on the day when Teresa removed her to this
house--and it will end, I feel confident, with the end of her illness."
Mr. Gallilee's attention suddenly wandered. "Zo!" he called out, "don't
touch your brother's papers."
The one object that had excited the child's curiosity was the
writing-table. Dozens of sheets of paper were scattered over it,
covered with writing, blotted and interlined. Some of these leaves had
overflowed the table, and found a resting-place on the floor. Zo was
amusing herself by picking them up. "Well!" she said, handing them
obediently to Ovid, "I've had many a rap on the knuckles for writing not
half as bad as yours."
Hearing his daughter's remark, Mr. Gallilee became interested in looking
at the fragments of manuscript. "What an awful mess!" he exclaimed. "May
I try if I can read a bit?" Ovid smiled. "Try by all means; you will
make one useful discovery at least--you will see that the most patient
men on the face of the civilised earth are Printers!"
Mr. Gallilee tried a page--and gave it up before he turned giddy. "Is it
fair to ask what this is?"
"Something easy to feel, and hard to express," Ovid answered. "These
ill-written lines are my offering of gratitude to the memory of an
unknown and unhappy man."
"The man you told me of, who died at Montreal?"
"Yes."
"You never mentioned his name."
"His last wishes forbade me to mention it to any living creature. God
knows there were pitiable, most pitiable, reasons for his dying unknown!
The stone over his grave only bears his initials, and the date of his
death. But," said Ovid, kindling with enthusiasm, as he laid his hand on
his manuscript, "the discoveries of this great physician shall benefit
humanity! And my debt to him shall be acknowledged, with the admiration
and the devotion that I truly feel!"
"In a book?" asked Mr. Gallilee.
"In a book that is now being printed. You will see it before the New
Year."
Finding nothing to amuse her in the sitting-room, Zo had tried the
bedroom next. She now returned to Ovid, dragging after her a long white
staff that looked like an Alpen-stock. "What's this?" she asked. "A
broomstick?"
"A specimen of rare Canadian wood, my dear. Would you like to have it?"
Zo took the offer quite seriously. She looked with longing eyes at the
specimen, three times as tall as herself--and shook her head. "I'm not
big enough for it, yet," she said. "Look at it, papa! Benjulia's stick
is nothing to this."
That name--on the child's lips--had a sound revolting to Ovid. "Don't
speak of him!" he said irritably.
"Mustn't I speak of him," Zo asked, "when I want him to tickle me?" Ovid
beckoned to her father. "Take her away now," he whispered--"and never
let her see that man again."
The warning was needless. The man's destiny had decreed that he and Zo
were never more to meet.
CHAPTER LXII.
Benjulia's servants had but a dull time of it, poor souls, in the lonely
house. Towards the end of December, they subscribed among themselves to
buy one of those wonderful Christmas Numbers--presenting year after year
the same large-eyed ladies, long-legged lovers, corpulent children, snow
landscapes, and gluttonous merry-makings--which have become a national
institution: say, the pictorial plum puddings of the English nation.
The servants had plenty of time to enjoy their genial newspaper, before
the dining-room bell disturbed them.
For some weeks past, the master had again begun to spend the whole of
his time in the mysterious laboratory. On the rare occasions when he
returned to the house, he was always out of temper. If the servants knew
nothing else, they knew what these signs meant--the great man was harder
at work than ever; and in spite of his industry, he was not getting on
so well as usual.
On this particular evening, the bell rang at the customary time--and the
cook (successor to the unfortunate creature with pretensions to beauty
and sentiment) hastened to get the dinner ready.
The footman turned to the dresser, and took from it a little heap of
newspapers; carefully counting them before he ventured to carry them
upstairs. This was Doctor Benjulia's regular weekly supply of
medical literature; and here, again, the mysterious man presented an
incomprehensible problem to his fellow-creatures. He subscribed to
every medical publication in England--and he never read one of them! The
footman cut the leaves; and the master, with his forefinger to help
him, ran his eye up and down the pages; apparently in search of some
announcement that he never found--and, still more extraordinary, without
showing the faintest sign of disappointment when he had done. Every
week, he briskly shoved his unread periodicals into a huge basket, and
sent them downstairs as waste paper.
The footman took up the newspapers and the dinner together--and was
received with frowns and curses. He was abused for everything that he
did in his own department, and for everything that the cook had done
besides. "Whatever the master's working at," he announced, on returning
to the kitchen, "he's farther away from hitting the right nail on the
head than ever. Upon my soul, I think I shall have to give warning!
Let's relieve our minds. Where's the Christmas Number?"
Half an hour later, the servants were startled by a tremendous bang of
the house-door which shook the whole building. The footman ran upstairs:
the dining-room was empty; the master's hat was not on its peg in the
hall; and the medical newspapers were scattered about in the wildest
confusion. Close to the fender lay a crumpled leaf, torn out. Its
position suggested that it had narrowly missed being thrown into the
fire. The footman smoothed it out, and looked at it.
One side of the leaf contained a report of a lecture. This was dry
reading. The footman tried the other side, and found a review of a new
medical work.
This would have been dull reading too, but for an extract from a
Preface, stating how the book came to be published, and what wonderful
discoveries, relating to peoples' brains, it contained. There were some
curious things said here--especially about a melancholy deathbed at a
place called Montreal--which made the Preface almost as interesting as a
story. But what was there in this to hurry the master out of the house,
as if the devil had been at his heels?
Doctor Benjulia's nearest neighbour was a small farmer named Gregg. He
was taking a nap that evening, when his wife bounced into the room, and
said, "Here's the big doctor gone mad!" And there he was truly, at Mrs.
Gregg's heels, clamouring to have the horse put to in the gig, and to be
driven to London instantly. He said, "Pay yourself what you please"--and
opened his pocket-book, full of bank-notes. Mr. Gregg said, "It seems,
sir, this is a matter of life or death." Whereupon he looked at Mr.
Gregg--and considered a little--and, becoming quiet on a sudden,
answered, "Yes, it is."
On the road to London, he never once spoke--except to himself--and then
only from time to time.
It seemed, judging by what fell from him now and then, that he was
troubled about a man and a letter. He had suspected the man all along;
but he had nevertheless given him the letter--and now it had ended in
the letter turning out badly for Doctor Benjulia himself. Where he went
to in London, it was not possible to say. Mr. Gregg's horse was not fast
enough for him. As soon as he could find one, he took a cab.
The shopman of Mr. Barrable, the famous publisher of medical works, had
just put up the shutters, and was going downstairs to his tea, when he
heard a knocking at the shop door. The person proved to be a very tall
man, in a violent hurry to buy Mr. Ovid Vere's new book. He said, by
way of apology, that he was in that line himself, and that his name was
Benjulia. The shopman knew him by reputation, and sold him the book. He
was in such a hurry to read it, that he actually began in the shop. It
was necessary to tell him that business hours were over. Hearing this,
he ran out, and told the cabman to drive as fast as possible to Pall
Mall.
The library waiter at Doctor Benjulia's Club found him in the library,
busy with a book.
He was quite alone; the members, at that hour of the evening, being
generally at dinner, or in the smoking-room. The man whose business it
was to attend to the fires, went in during the night, from time to
time, and always found him in the same corner. It began to get late.
He finished his reading; but it seemed to make no difference. There he
sat--wide awake--holding his closed book on his knee, seemingly lost in
his own thoughts. This went on till it was time to close the Club. They
were obliged to disturb him. He said nothing; and went slowly down into
the hall, leaving his book behind him. It was an awful night, raining
and sleeting--but he took no notice of the weather. When they fetched a
cab, the driver refused to take him to where he lived, on such a night
as that. He only said, "Very well; go to the nearest hotel."
The night porter at the hotel let in a tall gentleman, and showed him
into one of the bedrooms kept ready for persons arriving late. Having
no luggage, he paid the charges beforehand. About eight o'clock in the
morning, he rang for the waiter--who observed that his bed had not been
slept in. All he wanted for breakfast was the strongest coffee that
could be made. It was not strong enough to please him when he tasted it;
and he had some brandy put in. He paid, and was liberal to the waiter,
and went away.
The policeman on duty, that day, whose beat included the streets at
the back of Fairfield Gardens, noticed in one of them, a tall gentleman
walking backwards and forwards, and looking from time to time at one
particular house. When he passed that way again, there was the gentleman
still patrolling the street, and still looking towards the same house.
The policeman waited a little, and watched. The place was a respectable
lodging house, and the stranger was certainly a gentleman, though a
queer one to look at. It was not the policeman's business to interfere
on suspicion, except in the case of notoriously bad characters. So,
though he did think it odd, he went on again.
Between twelve and one o'clock in the afternoon, Ovid left his Lodgings,
to go to the neighbouring livery stables, and choose an open carriage.
The sun was shining, and the air was brisk and dry, after the stormy
night. It was just the day when he might venture to take Carmina out for
a drive.
On his way down the street, he heard footsteps behind him, and felt
himself touched on the shoulder. He turned--and discovered Benjulia.
On the point of speaking resentfully, he restrained himself. There was
something in the wretch's face that struck him with horror.
Benjulia said, "I won't keep you long; I want to know one thing. Will
she live or die?"
"Her life is safe--I hope."
"Through your new mode of treatment?"
His eyes and his voice said more than his words. Ovid instantly knew
that he had seen the book; and that the book had forestalled him in the
discovery to which he had devoted his life. Was it possible to pity a
man whose hardened nature never pitied others? All things are possible
to a large heart. Ovid shrank from answering him.
Benjulia spoke again.
"When we met that night at my garden gate," he said, "you told me my
life should answer for her life, if she died. My neglect has not killed
her--and you have no need to keep your word. But I don't get off, Mr.
Ovid Vere, without paying the penalty. You have taken something from me,
which was dearer than life, I wished to tell you that--I have no more to
say."
Ovid silently offered his hand.
Benjulia's head drooped in thought. The generous protest of the man whom
he had injured, spoke in that outstretched hand. He looked at Ovid.
"No!" he said--and walked away.
Leaving the street, he went round to Fairfield Gardens, and rang the
bell at Mr. Gallilee's door. The bell was answered by a polite old
woman--a stranger to him among the servants.
"Is Zo in the house?" he inquired.
"Nobody's in the house, sir. It's to be let, if you please, as soon as
the furniture can be moved."
"Do you know where Zo is? I mean, Mr. Gallilee's youngest child."
"I'm sorry to say, sir, I'm not acquainted with the family."
He waited at the door, apparently hesitating what to do next. "I'll go
upstairs," he said suddenly; "I want to look at the house. You needn't
go with me; I know my way."
"Thank you kindly, sir!"
He went straight to the schoolroom.
The repellent melancholy of an uninhabited place had fallen on it
already. The plain furniture was not worth taking care of: it was
battered and old, and left to dust and neglect. There were two common
deal writing desks, formerly used by the two girls. One of them was
covered with splashes of ink: varied here and there by barbarous
caricatures of faces, in which dots and strokes represented eyes, noses,
and mouths. He knew whose desk this was, and opened the cover of it.
In the recess beneath were soiled tables of figures, torn maps, and
dogs-eared writing books. The ragged paper cover of one of these last,
bore on its inner side a grotesquely imperfect inscription:--my cop
book zo. He tore off the cover, and put it in the breast pocket of his
coat.
"I should have liked to tickle her once more," he thought, as he went
down stairs again. The polite old woman opened the door, curtsying
deferentially. He gave her half a crown. "God bless you, sir!" she burst
out, in a gush of gratitude.
He checked himself, on the point of stepping into the street, and looked
at her with some curiosity. "Do you believe in God?" he asked.
The old woman was even capable of making a confession of faith politely.
"Yes, sir," she said, "if you have no objection."
He stepped into the street. "I wonder whether she is right?" he thought.
"It doesn't matter; I shall soon know."
The servants were honestly glad to see him, when he got home. They
had taken it in turn to sit up through the night; knowing his regular
habits, and feeling the dread that some accident had happened. Never
before had they seen him so fatigued. He dropped helplessly into his
chair; his gigantic body shook with shivering fits. The footman begged
him to take some refreshment. "Brandy, and raw eggs," he said. These
being brought to him, he told them to wait until he rang--and locked the
door when they went out.
After waiting until the short winter daylight was at an end, the footman
ventured to knock, and ask if the master wanted lights. He replied that
he had lit the candles for himself. No smell of tobacco smoke came from
the room; and he had let the day pass without going to the laboratory.
These were portentous signs. The footman said to his fellow servants,
"There's something wrong." The women looked at each other in vague
terror. One of them said, "Hadn't we better give notice to leave?" And
the other whispered a question: "Do you think he's committed a crime?"
Towards ten o'clock, the bell rang at last. Immediately afterwards they
heard him calling to them from the hall. "I want you, all three, up
here."
They went up together--the two women anticipating a sight of horror, and
keeping close to the footman.
The master was walking quietly backwards and forwards in the room: the
table had pen and ink on it, and was covered with writings. He spoke to
them in his customary tones; there was not the slightest appearance of
agitation in his manner.
"I mean to leave this house, and go away," he began. "You are dismissed
from my service, for that reason only. Take your written characters
from the table; read them, and say if there is anything to complain of."
There was nothing to complain of. On another part of the table there
were three little heaps of money. "A month's wages for each of you," he
explained, "in place of a month's warning. I wish you good luck." One
of the women (the one who had suggested giving notice to leave) began to
cry. He took no notice of this demonstration, and went on. "I want two
of you to do me a favour before we part. You will please witness the
signature of my Will." The sensitive servant drew back directly. "No!"
she said, "I couldn't do it. I never heard the Death-Watch before in
winter time--I heard it all last night."
The other two witnessed the signature. They observed that the Will was
a very short one. It was impossible not to notice the only legacy
left; the words crossed the paper, just above the signatures, and only
occupied two lines: "I leave to Zoe, youngest daughter of Mr. John
Gallilee, of Fairfield Gardens, London, everything absolutely of which
I die possessed." Excepting the formal introductory phrases, and the
statement relating to the witnesses--both copied from a handy book of
law, lying open on the table--this was the Will.
The female servants were allowed to go downstairs; after having been
informed that they were to leave the next morning. The footman was
detained in the dining-room.
"I am going to the laboratory," the master said; "and I want a few
things carried to the door."
The big basket for waste paper, three times filled with letters and
manuscripts; the books; the medicine chest; and the stone jar of oil
from the kitchen--these, the master and the man removed together;
setting them down at the laboratory door. It was a still cold starlight
winter's night. The intermittent shriek of a railway whistle in the
distance, was the only sound that disturbed the quiet of the time.
"Good night!" said the master.
The man returned the salute, and walked back to the house, closing the
front door. He was now more firmly persuaded than ever that something
was wrong. In the hall, the women were waiting for him. "What does it
mean?" they asked. "Keep quiet," he said; "I'm going to see."
In another minute he was posted at the back of the house, behind the
edge of the wall. Looking out from this place, he could see the light
of the lamps in the laboratory streaming through the open door, and the
dark figure of the master coming and going, as he removed the objects
left outside into the building. Then the door was shut, and nothing was
visible but the dim glow that found its way to the skylight, through the
white blind inside.
He boldly crossed the open space of ground, resolved to try what his
ears might discover, now that his eyes were useless. He posted himself
at the back of the laboratory, close to one of the side walls.
Now and then, he heard--what had reached his ears when he had been
listening on former occasions--the faint whining cries of animals. These
were followed by new sounds. Three smothered shrieks, succeeding
each other at irregular intervals, made his blood run cold. Had three
death-strokes been dealt on some suffering creatures, with the same
sudden and terrible certainty? Silence, horrible silence, was all that
answered. In the distant railway there was an interval of peace.
The door was opened again; the flood of light streamed out on the
darkness. Suddenly the yellow glow was spotted by the black figures of
small swiftly-running creatures--perhaps cats, perhaps rabbits--escaping
from the laboratory. The tall form of the master followed slowly, and
stood revealed watching the flight of the animals. In a moment more, the
last of the liberated creatures came out--a large dog, limping as if one
of its legs was injured. It stopped as it passed the master, and tried
to fawn on him. He threatened it with his hand. "Be off with you, like
the rest!" he said. The dog slowly crossed the flow of light, and was
swallowed up in darkness.
The last of them that could move was gone. The death shrieks of the
others had told their fate.
But still, there stood the master alone--a grand black figure, with
its head turned up to the stars. The minutes followed one another: the
servant waited, and watched him. The solitary man had a habit, well
known to those about him, of speaking to himself; not a word escaped him
now; his upturned head never moved; the bright wintry heaven held him
spellbound.
At last, the change came. Once more the silence was broken by the scream
of the railway whistle.
He started like a person suddenly roused from deep sleep, and went
back into the laboratory. The last sound then followed--the locking and
bolting of the door.
The servant left his hiding-place: his master's secret, was no secret
now. He hated himself for eating that master's bread, and earning that
master's money. One of the ignorant masses, this man! Mere sentiment had
a strange hold on his stupid mind; the remembrance of the poor wounded
dog, companionable and forgiving under cruel injuries, cut into his
heart like a knife. His thought at that moment, was an act of treason to
the royalty of Knowledge,--"I wish to God I could lame him, as he has
lamed the dog!" Another fanatic! another fool! Oh, Science, be merciful
to the fanatics, and the fools!
When he got back to the house, the women were still on the look-out
for him. "Don't speak to me now," he said. "Get to your beds. And, mind
this--let's be off to-morrow morning before he can see us."
There was no sleep for him when he went to his own bed.
The remembrance of the dog tormented him. The other lesser animals
were active; capable of enjoying their liberty and finding shelter for
themselves. Where had the maimed creature found a refuge, on that bitter
night? Again, and again, and again, the question forced its way into his
mind. He could endure it no longer. Cautiously and quickly--in dread
of his extraordinary conduct being perhaps discovered by the women--he
dressed himself, and opened the house door to look for the dog.
Out of the darkness on the step, there rose something dark. He put out
his hand. A persuasive tongue, gently licking it, pleaded for a word of
welcome. The crippled animal could only have got to the door in one way;
the gate which protected the house-enclosure must have been left open.
First giving the dog a refuge in the kitchen, the footman--rigidly
performing his last duties--went to close the gate.
At his first step into the enclosure he stopped panic-stricken.
The starlit sky over the laboratory was veiled in murky red. Roaring
flame, and spouting showers of sparks, poured through the broken
skylight. Voices from the farm raised the first cry--"Fire! fire!"
At the inquest, the evidence suggested suspicion of incendiarism
and suicide. The papers, the books, the oil betrayed themselves as
combustible materials, carried into the place for a purpose. The
medicine chest was known (by its use in cases of illness among the
servants) to contain opium. Adjourned inquiry elicited that the
laboratory was not insured, and that the deceased was in comfortable
circumstances. Where were the motives? One intelligent man, who had
drifted into the jury, was satisfied with the evidence. He held that the
desperate wretch had some reason of his own for first poisoning himself,
and then setting fire to the scene of his labours. Having a majority of
eleven against him, the wise juryman consented to a merciful verdict
of death by misadventure. The hideous remains of what had once been
Benjulia, found Christian burial. His brethren of the torture-table,
attended the funeral in large numbers. Vivisection had been beaten on
its own field of discovery. They honoured the martyr who had fallen in
their cause.
CHAPTER LXIII.
The life of the New Year was still only numbered by weeks, when a modest
little marriage was celebrated--without the knowledge of the neighbours,
without a crowd in the church, and even without a wedding-breakfast.
Mr. Gallilee (honoured with the office of giving away the bride)
drew Ovid into a corner before they left the house. "She still looks
delicate, poor dear," he said. "Do you really consider her to be well
again?"
"As well as she will ever be," Ovid answered. "Before I returned to her,
time had been lost which no skill and no devotion can regain. But the
prospect has its bright side. Past events which might have cast their
shadow over all her life to come, have left no trace in her memory. I
will make her a happy woman. Leave the rest to me."
Teresa and Mr. Mool were the witnesses; Maria and Zo were the
bridesmaids: they had only waited to go to church, until one other
eagerly expected person joined them. There was a general inquiry
for Miss Minerva. Carmina astonished everybody, from the bride-groom
downwards, by announcing that circumstances prevented her best and
dearest friend from being present. She smiled and blushed as she took
Ovid's arm. "When we are man and wife, and I am quite sure of you,"
she whispered, "I will tell you, what nobody else must know. In the
meantime, darling, if you can give Frances the highest place in your
estimation--next to me--you will only do justice to the noblest woman
that ever lived."
She had a little note hidden in her bosom, while she said those words.
It was dated on the morning of her marriage: "When you return from the
honeymoon, Carmina, I shall be the first friend who opens her arms and
her heart to you. Forgive me if I am not with you to-day. We are all
human, my dear--don't tell your husband."
It was her last weakness. Carmina had no excuses to make for an absent
guest, when the first christening was celebrated. On that occasion the
happy young mother betrayed a conjugal secret to her dearest friend.
It was at Ovid's suggestion that the infant daughter was called by Miss
Minerva's christian name.
But when the married pair went away to their happy new life, there was
a little cloud of sadness, which vanished in sunshine--thanks to Zo.
Polite Mr. Mool, bent on making himself agreeable to everybody, paid
his court to Mr. Gallilee's youngest daughter. "And who do you mean to
marry, my little Miss, when you grow up?" the lawyer asked with feeble
drollery.
Zo looked at him in grave surprise. "That's all settled," she said;
"I've got a man waiting for me."
"Oh, indeed! And who may he be?"
"Donald!"
"That's a very extraordinary child of yours," Mr. Mool said to his
friend, as they walked away together.
Mr. Gallilee absently agreed. "Has my message been given to my wife?" he
asked.
Mr. Mool sighed and shook his head. "Messages from her husband are as
completely thrown away on her," he answered, "as if she was still in the
asylum. In justice to yourself, consent to an amicable separation, and I
will arrange it."
"Have you seen her?"
"I insisted on it, before I met her lawyers. She declares herself to be
an infamously injured woman--and, upon my honour, she proves it, from
her own point of view. 'My husband never came near me in my illness, and
took my children away by stealth. My children were so perfectly ready
to be removed from their mother, that neither of them had the decency to
write me a letter. My niece contemplated shamelessly escaping to my
son, and wrote him a letter vilifying his mother in the most abominable
terms. And Ovid completes the round of ingratitude by marrying the girl
who has behaved in this way.' I declare to you, Gallilee, that was how
she put it! 'Am I to blame,' she said, 'for believing that story about
my brother's wife? It's acknowledged that she gave the man money--the
rest is a matter of opinion. Was I wrong to lose my temper, and say what
I did say to this so-called niece of mine? Yes, I was wrong, there: it's
the only case in which there is a fault to find with me. But had I no
provocation? Have I not suffered? Don't try to look as if you pitied me.
I stand in no need of pity. But I owe a duty to my own self-respect; and
that duty compels me to speak plainly. I will have nothing more to do
with the members of my heartless family. The rest of my life is devoted
to intellectual society, and the ennobling pursuits of science. Let me
hear no more, sir, of you or your employers.' She rose like a queen, and
bowed me out of the room. I declare to you, my flesh creeps when I think
of her."
"If I leave her now," said Mr. Gallilee, "I leave her in debt."
"Give me your word of honour not to mention what I am going to tell
you," Mr. Mool rejoined. "If she needs money, the kindest man in the
world has offered me a blank cheque to fill in for her--and his name is
Ovid Vere."
* * * * *
As the season advanced, two social entertainments which offered the
most complete contrast to each other, were given in London on the same
evening.
Mr. and Mrs. Ovid Vere had a little dinner party to celebrate their
return. Teresa (advanced to the dignity of housekeeper) insisted on
stuffing the tomatoes and cooking the macaroni with her own hand. The
guests were Lord and Lady Northlake; Maria and Zo; Miss Minerva and Mr.
Mool. Mr. Gallilee was present as one of the household. While he was in
London, he and his children lived under Ovid's roof. When they went to
Scotland, Mr. Gallilee had a cottage of his own (which he insisted on
buying) in Lord Northlake's park. He and Zo drank too much champagne at
dinner. The father made a speech; and the daughter sang, "We're gayly
yet."
In another quarter of London, there was a party which filled the street
with carriages, and which was reported in the newspapers the next
morning.
Mrs. Gallilee was At Home to Science. The Professors of the civilised
universe rallied round their fair friend. France, Italy, and Germany
bewildered the announcing servants with a perfect Babel of names--and
Great Britain was grandly represented. Those three superhuman men, who
had each had a peep behind the veil of creation, and discovered
the mystery of life, attended the party and became centres of three
circles--the circle that believed in "protoplasm," the circle that
believed in "bioplasm," and the circle that believed in "atomized
charges of electricity, conducted into the system by the oxygen of
respiration." Lectures and demonstrations went on all through the
evening, all over the magnificent room engaged for the occasion. In one
corner, a fair philosopher in blue velvet and point lace, took the Sun
in hand facetiously. "The sun's life, my friends, begins with a nebulous
infancy and a gaseous childhood." In another corner, a gentleman of
shy and retiring manners converted "radiant energy into sonorous
vibrations"--themselves converted into sonorous poppings by waiters and
champagne bottles at the supper table. In the centre of the room,
the hostess solved the serious problem of diet; viewed as a method of
assisting tadpoles to develop themselves into frogs--with such cheering
results that these last lively beings joined the guests on the carpet,
and gratified intelligent curiosity by explorations on the stairs.
Within the space of one remarkable evening, three hundred illustrious
people were charmed, surprised, instructed, and amused; and when Science
went home, it left a conversazione (for once) with its stomach well
filled. At two in the morning, Mrs. Gallilee sat down in the empty room,
and said to the learned friend who lived with her,
"At last, I'm a happy woman!"
THE END.