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             The last conflicts and death of Mr. Thomas Peacock, batchelour of divinity, and fellow of Brasen-nose Colledge in Oxford published by E.B. from the copy of that famous divine Mr Robert Bolton, late minister of Broughton in Northhampton-shire.
             Bolton, Robert, 1572-1631.
             Bagshaw, Edward, 1629-1671.
          
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             1646.
          
           
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           THE
           LAST
           CONFLICTS
           and
           DEATH
           OF
           
             Mr
          
           THOMAS
           PEACOCK
           ,
           Batchelour
           of
           Divinity
           ,
           and
           fellow
           of
           
             Brasen-nose
          
           Colledge
           in
           
             Oxford
          
           :
        
         
           Published
           by
           
             E.B.
          
           from
           the
           Copy
           of
           that
           famous
           Divine
           ,
           Mr
           
             Robert
             Bolton
             ,
          
           late
           Minister
           
             of
          
           Broughton
           
             in
          
           North-hampton
           shire
           .
        
         
           LONDON
           ,
           Printed
           by
           
             George
             Miller
          
           dwelling
           in
           
             Black-Fryers
             .
          
           1646.
           
        
      
       
       
       
         
           THE
           PREFACE
           TO
           the
           READER
           .
        
         
           
             
               
                 Christian
                 Reader
                 ,
              
            
             
               
                 I
              
               Had
               not
               performed
               a
               trust
               ,
               had
               not
               I
               published
               this
               ensuing
               
                 Narrative
              
               ;
               and
               I
               had
               not
               paid
               a
               debt
               which
               I
               doe
               and
               shall
               ever
               owe
               to
               the
               Publike
               ,
               had
               not
               I
               made
               it
               common
               .
               
                 Mr
                 Bolton
              
               (
               a
               man
               of
               precious
               memory
               ,
               and
               famous
               in
               his
               generation
               )
               desired
               me
               upon
               his
               death-bed
               ,
               to
               publish
               such
               of
               his
               papers
               as
               I
               thought
               fit
               for
               the
               Presse
               ,
               which
               I
               have
               already
               done
               .
               This
               copy
               being
               found
               amongst
               them
               ,
               (
               though
               
               penned
               by
               another
               hand
               )
               I
               durst
               not
               withhold
               ,
               being
               to
               my
               knowledge
               intended
               by
               him
               for
               the
               presse
               ,
               in
               memory
               of
               his
               familiar
               friend
               ,
               and
               spirituall
               father
               ,
               
                 Mr
                 Thomas
                 Peacock
              
               ;
               who
               was
               a
               very
               Godly
               Minister
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               of
               rare
               example
               for
               humility
               and
               holines
               of
               life
               ;
               for
               a
               Religious
               care
               in
               educating
               his
               scholars
               ,
               and
               for
               exceeding
               charity
               to
               the
               bodies
               and
               souls
               of
               poor
               distressed
               Christians
               .
               And
               yet
               this
               godly
               man
               ,
               that
               for
               piety
               had
               in
               him
               the
               root
               of
               an
               Oak
               ,
               when
               God
               cast
               him
               upon
               his
               bed
               of
               sicknes
               ,
               and
               suffered
               Satan
               to
               winnow
               him
               ,
               he
               was
               no
               more
               in
               his
               hands
               then
               a
               leaf
               tossed
               too
               and
               fro
               with
               the
               winde
               .
               Gods
               dealings
               with
               him
               in
               these
               his
               last
               conflicts
               ,
               are
               of
               singular
               use
               in
               these
               present
               times
               ,
               in
               which
               the
               ends
               of
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               the
               dreggs
               of
               schisme
               and
               sinne
               are
               come
               upon
               us
               at
               once
               .
            
             
             
               First
               ,
               for
               caution
               to
               the
               true
               servants
               of
               God
               ,
               to
               take
               heed
               of
               small
               sinnes
               ;
               for
               from
               the
               lesser
               sinnes
               and
               infirmities
               of
               
                 Mr
                 Peacock
                 ,
              
               the
               Devil
               did
               thence
               take
               a
               rise
               to
               cast
               him
               into
               the
               most
               bitter
               spirituall
               desertion
               that
               we
               shall
               lightly
               read
               of
               :
               under
               which
               he
               had
               sunk
               ,
               had
               not
               God
               wonderfully
               pat
               to
               his
               hand
               ,
               by
               making
               the
               issue
               of
               his
               afflictions
               more
               glorious
               and
               comfortable
               ,
               then
               the
               combate
               was
               grievous
               and
               terrible
               .
               It
               was
               a
               memorable
               saying
               of
               
                 Francis
                 Spira
                 ,
              
               which
               he
               spake
               to
               his
               mournfull
               children
               and
               friends
               ,
               beholding
               that
               sad
               spectacle
               of
               his
               finall
               despaire
               ,
               earnestly
               wishing
               them
               to
               take
               heed
               of
               committing
               the
               smallest
               sinnes
               against
               conscience
               ;
               By
               this
               means
               ,
               saith
               he
               ,
               I
               fell
               into
               greater
               sinnes
               ,
               till
               I
               came
               to
               deny
               the
               Gospel
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               after
               that
               to
               renounce
               it
               in
               writing
               ,
               and
               deliberately
               to
               subscribe
               
               to
               it
               with
               my
               hand
               ,
               though
               (
               saith
               he
               )
               
                 I
                 heard
                 a
                 voice
                 in
                 my
                 conscience
                 telling
                 me
                 ,
              
               Spira
               ,
               
                 doe
                 not
                 subscribe
                 it
                 ;
                 after
                 which
                 I
                 thought
                 I
                 heard
                 the
                 voice
                 of
                 Christ
                 whom
                 I
                 denyed
                 before
                 men
                 ,
                 to
                 pronounce
                 the
                 sentence
                 of
                 death
                 upon
                 my
                 soul
                 ,
                 and
                 to
                 exclude
                 me
                 from
                 salvation
                 .
                 And
                 thus
                 he
                 dyed
                 .
              
            
             
               Secondly
               ,
               for
               confutation
               of
               sundry
               sorts
               in
               Religion
               ,
               in
               these
               unhappy
               dayes
               of
               Civill
               warre
               ,
               as
               naturally
               producing
               them
               as
               mud
               and
               filth
               doe
               toads
               and
               vermin
               .
               Some
               there
               are
               that
               quite
               abrogate
               the
               Law
               ,
               which
               Christ
               came
               to
               fulfill
               ,
               and
               so
               make
               the
               gate
               of
               Heaven
               wider
               then
               ever
               our
               Saviour
               made
               it
               ,
               by
               admitting
               lawlesse
               persons
               into
               it
               .
               Holy
               
                 Bradford
              
               was
               of
               another
               minde
               ,
               who
               was
               wont
               to
               say
               ,
               that
               the
               gate
               of
               Heaven
               was
               so
               strait
               ,
               that
               he
               which
               halted
               
               could
               not
               enter
               into
               it
               ;
               and
               the
               way
               so
               narrow
               ,
               that
               he
               which
               reeled
               could
               not
               walk
               in
               it
               .
               Others
               there
               are
               ,
               whe
               though
               they
               doe
               not
               wholly
               destroy
               the
               law
               ,
               yet
               they
               cast
               it
               into
               a
               dead
               sleep
               ,
               thinking
               it
               unlawfull
               in
               the
               children
               of
               God
               to
               be
               sorry
               ,
               or
               to
               mourn
               for
               sinne
               ,
               contrary
               to
               the
               Doctoine
               of
               the
               primitive
               Fathers
               ,
               teaching
               this
               lesson
               ,
               
                 Semper
                 doleat
                 paeniten●
                 ;
                 &
                 de
                 dolore
                 gaudeat
              
               ;
               Let
               the
               penitent
               person
               alwaies
               mourn
               ,
               and
               rejoyce
               in
               that
               mourning
               ;
               agreeing
               with
               the
               rule
               of
               our
               Saviour
               ,
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 they
                 that
                 mourn
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 shall
                 be
                 comforted
                 .
              
            
             
               Nay
               ,
               I
               lately
               heard
               it
               not
               without
               horrour
               ;
               that
               some
               men
               ,
               in
               outward
               appearance
               of
               great
               sanctity
               ,
               doe
               hold
               an
               opinion
               ,
               that
               it
               is
               a
               fault
               in
               godly
               men
               to
               pray
               for
               pardon
               of
               sin
               ,
               (
               all
               sinnes
               being
               pardoned
               in
               Christ
               before
               they
               pray
               )
               contrary
               
               to
               the
               prayer
               of
               our
               Saviour
               ,
               
                 Forgive
                 us
                 our
                 trespasses
                 .
              
               Neither
               
                 Mr
                 Peacock
                 ,
              
               nor
               any
               of
               those
               godly
               Divines
               that
               came
               to
               comfort
               him
               ,
               knew
               this
               kinde
               of
               Doctrine
               ;
               neither
               we
               ,
               nor
               the
               Churches
               of
               God
               ,
               till
               within
               these
               few
               late
               unhappy
               dayes
               .
            
             
               What
               will
               become
               of
               our
               reformed
               Religion
               ,
               streaming
               down
               to
               us
               in
               the
               blood
               of
               so
               many
               Martyrs
               ,
               if
               God
               by
               a
               miracle
               of
               mercy
               should
               not
               shorten
               these
               our
               miserable
               dayes
               ?
               For
               whiles
               some
               are
               taking
               from
               us
               the
               Ten
               Commandements
               ,
               others
               ,
               the
               Lords
               Prayer
               ,
               there
               is
               scarce
               any
               thing
               left
               us
               of
               Christianity
               but
               our
               Creed
               ,
               and
               how
               long
               we
               shall
               enjoy
               this
               ,
               the
               Lord
               in
               Heaven
               knowes
               .
               For
               so
               long
               as
               the
               civill
               sword
               of
               warre
               devoures
               so
               much
               Protestants
               blood
               from
               without
               ,
               and
               a
               worse
               civill
               warre
               of
               sinne
               and
               separation
               ,
               destroyes
               so
               
               many
               Protestant
               souls
               from
               within
               ,
               we
               may
               justly
               feare
               that
               we
               shall
               either
               want
               sound
               Orthodox
               Protestants
               to
               maintain
               it
               ;
               or
               we
               shall
               want
               a
               Creed
               for
               them
               to
               maintain
               .
            
             
               I
               shall
               ,
               for
               conclusion
               ,
               desire
               that
               Reader
               into
               whose
               hands
               this
               ensuing
               discourse
               shall
               fall
               ,
               to
               observe
               three
               things
               concerning
               
                 Mr
                 Peacock
                 ,
              
               a
               man
               whom
               I
               well
               knew
               ,
               and
               blesse
               God
               that
               ever
               I
               knew
               him
               .
            
             
               
                 1.
                 
                 That
                 the
                 sorest
                 and
                 sharpest
                 afflictions
                 doe
                 very
                 often
                 befall
                 the
                 dearest
                 and
                 choisest
                 servants
                 of
                 God
                 :
                 I
                 mean
                 ,
                 not
                 outward
                 and
                 temporall
                 afflictions
                 ,
                 common
                 to
                 good
                 and
                 bad
                 :
                 but
                 inward
                 and
                 spirituall
                 afflictions
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 heaviest
                 of
                 these
                 spirituall
                 desertions
                 ,
                 whereby
                 God
                 withdrawes
                 his
                 glorious
                 countenance
                 from
                 his
                 children
                 :
                 and
                 Satan
                 in
                 liew
                 thereof
                 ,
                 shews
                 them
                 his
                 
                 ugly
                 visage
                 ,
                 thereby
                 convincing
                 a
                 secure
                 world
                 .
                 That
                 it
                 is
                 no
                 easy
                 matter
                 to
                 goe
                 to
                 Heaven
                 ,
                 and
                 that
                 the
                 safest
                 and
                 surest
                 way
                 to
                 it
                 ,
                 is
                 to
                 sayl
                 by
                 the
                 gates
                 of
                 Hell
                 .
                 If
                 the
                 righteous
                 can
                 scarcely
                 be
                 saved
                 
                   (
                   saith
                   the
                   Apostle
                   )
                
                 where
                 shall
                 the
                 wicked
                 and
                 sinner
                 appear
                 ?
              
               
                 2.
                 
                 That
                 the
                 deepest
                 humiliations
                 of
                 Gods
                 children
                 ,
                 doe
                 usually
                 determine
                 in
                 the
                 highest
                 consolations
                 .
                 And
                 hereby
                 the
                 wicked
                 ,
                 who
                 like
                 ravening
                 wolves
                 hunt
                 after
                 such
                 opportunities
                 ,
                 doe
                 misse
                 of
                 their
                 prey
                 ,
                 and
                 returne
                 ashamed
                 when
                 they
                 consider
                 what
                 end
                 God
                 hath
                 made
                 .
                 And
                 thus
                 it
                 fell
                 out
                 with
                 
                   Mr
                   Peacock
                
                 here
                 .
              
               
                 3.
                 
                 Lastly
                 ,
                 Though
                 a
                 spirituall
                 desertion
                 be
                 the
                 highest
                 affliction
                 that
                 befalls
                 Gods
                 childe
                 ;
                 yet
                 it
                 discovers
                 in
                 him
                 the
                 greatest
                 sincerity
                 of
                 an
                 upright
                 heart
                 ;
                 For
                 at
                 such
                 a
                 time
                 he
                 is
                 so
                 farre
                 from
                 hiding
                 his
                 
                 sinnes
                 ,
                 that
                 he
                 cares
                 not
                 what
                 shame
                 he
                 puts
                 upon
                 himself
                 ,
                 so
                 God
                 may
                 have
                 glory
                 .
                 For
                 in
                 a
                 spirituall
                 desertion
                 ,
                 though
                 the
                 soul
                 of
                 a
                 Christian
                 be
                 extreamly
                 distressed
                 through
                 the
                 terrour
                 of
                 sinne
                 ;
                 yet
                 at
                 the
                 same
                 time
                 hath
                 it
                 a
                 true
                 touch
                 of
                 grace
                 ,
                 though
                 not
                 of
                 the
                 comforts
                 of
                 it
                 :
                 like
                 iron
                 touched
                 with
                 the
                 Load-stone
                 ,
                 it
                 stands
                 directly
                 Northward
                 ,
                 though
                 with
                 much
                 trembling
                 :
                 So
                 doth
                 the
                 soul
                 of
                 a
                 Christian
                 stand
                 directly
                 Heaven-ward
                 in
                 this
                 hellish
                 agony
                 :
                 and
                 the
                 absence
                 of
                 God
                 and
                 of
                 his
                 consolations
                 ,
                 is
                 the
                 cause
                 of
                 those
                 bitter
                 convulsion-fits
                 in
                 the
                 soul
                 .
                 And
                 assoon
                 as
                 ever
                 the
                 comforts
                 of
                 grace
                 shine
                 upon
                 it
                 ,
                 those
                 former
                 tremblings
                 of
                 heart
                 for
                 grief
                 ,
                 are
                 presently
                 changed
                 into
                 leapings
                 for
                 joy
                 ;
                 just
                 as
                 the
                 same
                 wrinkles
                 of
                 the
                 face
                 ,
                 which
                 serve
                 for
                 crying
                 when
                 the
                 heart
                 is
                 grieved
                 ,
                 serve
                 for
                 laughter
                 when
                 it
                 is
                 filled
                 
                 with
                 joy
                 .
                 This
                 was
                 the
                 case
                 of
                 
                   Mr
                   Peacock
                   ,
                
                 in
                 this
                 manner
                 he
                 grieved
                 ,
                 in
                 this
                 manner
                 he
                 rejoyced
                 ,
                 and
                 this
                 happy
                 issue
                 God
                 made
                 of
                 his
                 bitter
                 afflictions
                 .
                 So
                 that
                 amidst
                 the
                 numerous
                 and
                 various
                 afflictions
                 of
                 Gods
                 dear
                 Saints
                 and
                 Children
                 ,
                 this
                 conclusion
                 of
                 the
                 Prophet
                 
                   David
                
                 remaines
                 sure
                 and
                 firm
                 ,
                 
                   Mark
                   the
                   upright
                   man
                   ,
                   and
                   behold
                   the
                   just
                   ,
                   for
                   the
                   end
                   of
                   that
                   man
                   is
                   peace
                   .
                
                 So
                 I
                 rest
                 ,
              
            
             
               
                 Thine
                 in
                 the
                 Lord
                 
                   E.B.
                   
                
              
            
          
        
      
    
     
       
       
         
           Mr
           
             PEACOKS
          
           Visitation
           .
        
         
           MAster
           
             Peacock
             ,
          
           the
           servant
           of
           God
           ,
           in
           the
           beginning
           of
           his
           visitation
           ,
           for
           the
           space
           of
           two
           weeks
           and
           foure
           dayes
           ,
           was
           full
           of
           most
           Heavenly
           consolations
           ;
           shewing
           by
           sweet
           meditations
           ,
           and
           gracious
           ejaculations
           ,
           the
           entertainment
           he
           found
           with
           his
           God
           in
           his
           sicknes
           ,
           with
           whom
           he
           so
           much
           desired
           to
           be
           acquainted
           in
           his
           health
           .
           We
           are
           (
           saith
           one
           comming
           to
           visit
           him
           )
           miserable
           comforters
           :
           
             Nay
          
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           
             Ye
             are
             good
             ,
             for
             this
             
             is
             the
             priviledge
             even
             of
             Gods
             children
             ,
             that
             their
             very
             presence
             affords
             comfort
             .
          
           Sometimes
           he
           craved
           pardon
           for
           his
           actions
           ,
           &
           for
           the
           circumstances
           by
           them
           badly
           observed
           :
           otherwhile
           he
           desired
           to
           have
           some
           matter
           given
           him
           to
           meditate
           upon
           .
           Finally
           he
           said
           ,
           his
           hope
           was
           firmly
           setled
           on
           the
           rock
           
             Christ
             Iesus
             .
          
           He
           hoped
           that
           the
           Lord
           would
           give
           him
           a
           place
           ,
           though
           it
           were
           in
           the
           lowest
           room
           of
           his
           Saints
           .
           And
           he
           thanked
           God
           he
           had
           no
           trouble
           of
           conscience
           ,
           the
           Lord
           did
           not
           suffer
           Satan
           to
           vex
           him
           ;
           In
           so
           much
           that
           some
           seeing
           his
           great
           comfort
           ,
           feared
           left
           he
           would
           be
           overtaken
           with
           sorrow
           before
           his
           death
           :
           he
           much
           rejoyced
           that
           the
           Lord
           had
           so
           disposed
           of
           him
           ,
           that
           he
           had
           seen
           his
           friēds
           in
           the
           Countrey
           .
           Here
           first
           was
           his
           yeelding
           unto
           death
           
           suspected
           ,
           and
           his
           hoped
           recovery
           doubted
           .
           Calling
           some
           of
           his
           friends
           aside
           ,
           
             I
             thought
          
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           
             I
             had
             been
             in
             a
             good
             estate
             ,
             but
             I
             see
             it
             now
             farre
             otherwise
             :
             For
             these
             things
             my
             conscience
             layes
             against
             me
             :
             First
             ,
             I
             brought
             up
             my
             scholars
             in
             Gluttony
             ,
             letting
             thē
             eat
             their
             fill
             of
             meat
             ,
             when
             they
             mealed
             with
             me
             .
          
           This
           some
           endeavoured
           to
           pull
           out
           ,
           by
           putting
           into
           his
           minde
           ,
           1.
           
           The
           preventing
           of
           many
           inconveniencies
           .
           2.
           
           His
           well
           known
           moderation
           .
           3.
           
           The
           great
           care
           he
           took
           for
           good
           conference
           ,
           when
           they
           were
           at
           table
           with
           him
           .
           
             But
          
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           
             while
             I
             was
             talking
             ,
             they
             did
             undoe
             themselves
             .
             And
             further
             ,
             I
             did
             unadvisedly
             expound
             places
             of
             Scripture
             at
             the
             table
             many
             times
             ;
             and
             for
             these
             I
             feel
             now
             a
             Hell
             in
             my
             conscience
             .
             Again
             ,
             I
             have
             procured
             my
             own
             death
             ,
             by
             often
             eating
             like
             a
             beast
             ,
             
             when
             I
             came
             jostling
             up
             and
             down
             to
             my
             friends
             in
             the
             Countrey
             ;
             And
             now
             I
             see
             before
             my
             face
             those
             dishes
             of
             meat
             wherewith
             I
             clogged
             my
             stomack
             .
          
           Well
           (
           saith
           one
           to
           him
           )
           If
           all
           the
           things
           you
           accuse
           your self
           of
           were
           undone
           ,
           would
           you
           doe
           them
           again
           ?
           
             Nay
             :
          
           why
           then
           doubt
           not
           
             but
             a
             Reprobate
             would
             desire
             to
             be
             saved
             ,
             if
             a
             desire
             would
             serve
             the
             turne
          
           :
           indeed
           he
           may
           have
           a
           desire
           ,
           but
           of
           bare
           willingnes
           ,
           not
           with
           an
           intent
           and
           purpose
           in
           using
           of
           the
           means
           .
           Another
           time
           a
           worthy
           friend
           of
           his
           asking
           him
           how
           he
           did
           :
           he
           cryed
           out
           ,
           
             Sinne
             ,
             Sinne
             ,
             Sinne
          
           :
           What
           doth
           any
           lye
           on
           your
           conscience
           ?
           
             Yea.
          
           What
           ?
           
             My
             unconsideratenes
             ,
             I
             did
             eat
             too
             much
             of
             such
             meat
             to
             breakfast
             such
             a
             morning
             :
          
           my self
           being
           an
           eye-witnes
           of
           his
           great
           abstinence
           ,
           could
           not
           choose
           but
           admire
           the
           tendernes
           
           of
           his
           self-accusing
           conscience
           .
           Well
           (
           said
           he
           )
           God
           be
           thanked
           there
           is
           no
           greater
           .
           As
           we
           must
           not
           extenuate
           our
           sinnes
           ,
           so
           neither
           must
           we
           too
           much
           aggravate
           our
           sinne
           .
           Let
           drunkards
           and
           gluttons
           have
           those
           terrible
           horrours
           .
           
             I
             thank
             God
             I
             never
             continued
             in
             any
             known
             sinne
             against
             my
             conscience
             .
          
           He
           was
           willing
           that
           he
           should
           pray
           with
           him
           :
           kneeling
           down
           he
           said
           ,
           he
           was
           
             then
             uncapable
             of
             prayers
             .
          
           Afterward
           he
           kneeled
           down
           of
           his
           own
           accord
           :
           shortly
           after
           he
           broke
           out
           into
           such
           speeches
           ,
           
             A
             damnable
             ,
             wretched
          
           &c.
           these
           are
           nor
           your
           words
           (
           saith
           one
           )
           you
           cannot
           deny
           but
           you
           have
           had
           good
           experience
           of
           Gods
           mercies
           .
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           Then
           be
           comforted
           ,
           for
           whom
           he
           loveth
           once
           ,
           he
           loveth
           to
           the
           end
           .
           Yet
           Satan
           took
           such
           advantage
           of
           his
           infirmities
           ,
           that
           
           though
           he
           could
           finde
           some
           comfort
           ,
           yet
           no
           particular
           assurance
           .
           You
           have
           lived
           profitably
           (
           said
           one
           )
           
             I
             have
             endeavoured
             .
          
           You
           are
           now
           humbled
           ,
           and
           the
           Lord
           looks
           that
           you
           should
           ask
           mercy
           .
           M.
           
             Dod
          
           was
           sent
           for
           ,
           who
           being
           come
           ,
           they
           were
           private
           awhile
           ,
           afterwards
           we
           comming
           in
           to
           them
           ,
           M.
           
             Dod
          
           put
           him
           in
           minde
           of
           Gods
           kindenes
           :
           whereof
           he
           shewed
           to
           him
           foure
           parts
           .
           1.
           
           To
           take
           small
           things
           in
           good
           part
           .
           2.
           
           To
           passe
           by
           infirmities
           .
           3.
           
           To
           be
           easily
           intreated
           .
           4.
           
           To
           be
           intreated
           for
           the
           greatest
           .
        
         
           Sir
           ,
           there
           is
           now
           in
           you
           the
           image
           of
           the
           old
           
             Adam
             ,
          
           sin
           and
           sorrow
           :
           there
           shall
           be
           in
           you
           the
           image
           of
           the
           new
           ,
           holines
           and
           happinesse
           .
           The
           life
           to
           come
           may
           be
           set
           out
           by
           three
           things
           .
           1.
           
           The
           estate
           of
           itself
           ,
           happines
           ,
           
           holines
           ,
           and
           glory
           .
           2.
           
           By
           the
           the
           company
           ,
           every
           one
           shall
           love
           you
           better
           then
           any
           one
           ,
           even
           the
           best
           ,
           can
           love
           you
           here
           .
           3.
           
           The
           place
           .
        
         
           There
           are
           three
           differences
           between
           the
           afflictions
           of
           the
           good
           and
           of
           the
           bad
           .
           1.
           
           In
           the
           cause
           ,
           for
           they
           come
           to
           the
           good
           for
           Gods
           love
           .
           2.
           
           In
           the
           measure
           ,
           as
           farre
           as
           they
           need
           ,
           and
           are
           able
           to
           bear
           .
           3.
           
           In
           the
           end
           ,
           for
           their
           good
           .
        
         
           Of
           those
           former
           doubts
           we
           afterwards
           heard
           not
           a
           word
           from
           him
           .
           Upon
           the
           Sabbath-day
           he
           desired
           to
           be
           alone
           :
           after
           noon
           he
           was
           fearfully
           troubled
           .
           In
           his
           countenance
           appeared
           evident
           tokens
           of
           a
           sorrowfull
           minde
           ,
           born
           up
           with
           a
           weak
           body
           ;
           his
           spirit
           was
           wounded
           ,
           Satan
           had
           foiled
           him
           .
           Those
           his
           terrible
           wrestlings
           with
           tentations
           ,
           
           gripes
           of
           conscience
           ,
           and
           restles
           terrours
           ,
           none
           can
           understand
           ,
           (
           much
           lesse
           expresse
           )
           but
           he
           which
           felt
           them
           .
           Satan
           had
           winnowed
           him
           ,
           and
           shewed
           him
           nothing
           but
           chaffe
           .
           His
           tender
           conscience
           was
           goared
           with
           the
           fiery
           darts
           of
           the
           Devil
           ,
           pointed
           with
           the
           edge
           of
           sinne
           ,
           and
           sense
           of
           Gods
           heavy
           wrath
           .
           As
           through
           a
           false
           glasse
           ,
           the
           dazled
           eye
           of
           his
           astonished
           and
           amazed
           soul
           ,
           could
           see
           nothing
           but
           hideously
           appearing
           sinne
           ,
           and
           the
           terrible
           image
           of
           death
           and
           damnation
           .
           He
           had
           drunk
           deeply
           of
           the
           cup
           of
           the
           dreggs
           of
           Hell
           .
           His
           adversary
           had
           represented
           unto
           him
           his
           once
           most
           gracious
           God
           ,
           now
           as
           a
           most
           severe
           Judge
           displeased
           ,
           angry
           ,
           
           and
           chiding
           with
           him
           ;
           yea
           yeelding
           him
           up
           into
           his
           clawes
           :
           that
           so
           by
           this
           deadly
           stratagem
           ,
           he
           might
           take
           from
           him
           all
           hope
           of
           help
           that
           way
           ,
           and
           so
           not
           onely
           stop
           the
           sensible
           flowing
           of
           Gods
           grace
           ,
           and
           cut
           the
           chains
           of
           Gods
           love
           ,
           whereby
           he
           had
           tyed
           him
           ,
           and
           would
           draw
           him
           after
           him
           ,
           but
           finally
           break
           his
           Christian
           heart
           .
           Oh
           that
           you
           had
           seen
           ,
           or
           that
           we
           that
           were
           present
           had
           had
           eyes
           to
           have
           seen
           his
           seeming
           forlone
           soul
           .
           What
           with
           barkings
           of
           conscience
           ,
           and
           with
           the
           too
           heavy
           burthen
           of
           sinne
           ,
           vvaves
           of
           fearfull
           thoughts
           ,
           blustering
           blasts
           ,
           and
           surging
           storms
           of
           Gods
           heavy
           displeasure
           ,
           he
           vvas
           
           tossed
           ,
           turmoyled
           ,
           dashed
           against
           the
           rocks
           of
           despaire
           ,
           and
           more
           then
           in
           danger
           of
           his
           souls
           shipwrack
           :
           happy
           were
           we
           if
           neither
           through
           frowardnes
           ,
           nor
           blindenes
           of
           judgement
           ,
           we
           did
           inconsiderately
           passe
           by
           ,
           or
           prophanely
           deride
           Gods
           judgements
           ,
           by
           thinking
           that
           they
           either
           happen
           casually
           ,
           or
           by
           forgetting
           of
           them
           suddenly
           .
           If
           we
           could
           but
           rightly
           discerne
           it
           ,
           we
           should
           finde
           nothing
           more
           profitable
           ,
           then
           to
           have
           the
           Image
           of
           this
           gracious
           (
           though
           now
           afflicted
           )
           soul
           in
           our
           hearts
           .
           Hereby
           we
           may
           see
           that
           the
           righteous
           being
           scarcely
           saved
           ,
           
             there
             is
             no
             place
             for
             the
             wicked
             and
             ungodly
             to
             appeare
             .
          
           And
           truly
           we
           may
           think
           that
           God
           sent
           it
           even
           for
           our
           sake
           ,
           that
           we
           (
           with
           whom
           it
           is
           too
           usuall
           to
           dally
           with
           the
           Lord
           )
           might
           know
           
           that
           it
           is
           
             a
             fearfull
             thing
             to
             fall
             into
             his
             hands
             .
          
           Our
           faith
           is
           then
           tryed
           in
           earnest
           ,
           when
           as
           the
           Lord
           hideth
           his
           face
           from
           us
           .
           For
           if
           we
           love
           God
           above
           all
           things
           ,
           it
           cannot
           be
           but
           upon
           the
           losse
           of
           the
           relish
           of
           his
           favour
           ,
           or
           taste
           of
           his
           displeasure
           ,
           our
           souls
           should
           be
           in
           bitternes
           ,
           pricked
           ,
           tormented
           ,
           wounded
           ,
           thrust
           thorow
           ,
           yea
           ,
           and
           swallowed
           up
           with
           desolation
           .
           It
           is
           a
           wonder
           of
           the
           world
           ,
           how
           we
           carefully
           will
           seek
           physick
           ,
           use
           dyet
           ,
           by
           any
           means
           to
           avoid
           a
           bodily
           pang
           ,
           and
           how
           careles
           we
           are
           of
           the
           unsupportable
           fits
           of
           the
           souls
           mortall
           sicknes
           .
           It
           is
           not
           in
           our
           power
           to
           apprehend
           grace
           when
           we
           will
           ,
           and
           a
           harder
           matter
           is
           it
           then
           we
           can
           conceive
           ,
           to
           lift
           up
           a
           poor
           soul
           cast
           down
           with
           the
           sense
           of
           Gods
           wrath
           .
           If
           a
           violent
           passion
           may
           
           so
           farre
           transport
           the
           minde
           ,
           what
           may
           we
           think
           of
           this
           restles
           trembling
           ,
           when
           the
           soul
           after
           long
           tossings
           ,
           seeth
           it self
           drowned
           ,
           and
           wholly
           overwhelmed
           with
           the
           deluge
           of
           sorrow
           ,
           proceeding
           from
           the
           everlasting
           threats
           ,
           and
           shame
           ,
           and
           confusion
           of
           face
           in
           the
           presence
           of
           the
           Almighty
           ?
           Consider
           the
           body
           loaden
           with
           a
           burthen
           ,
           neither
           portable
           nor
           evitable
           ;
           and
           thence
           gather
           the
           stranglings
           of
           an
           overladen
           soul
           .
           Consider
           a
           man
           ready
           to
           fall
           from
           an
           high
           Tower
           unto
           the
           Earth
           ;
           and
           thence
           gather
           the
           estate
           of
           another
           falling
           from
           Heaven
           to
           Hell
           with
           a
           spirituall
           ruine
           .
           Consider
           a
           childe
           ,
           when
           the
           mother
           hideth
           her
           face
           from
           it
           ,
           and
           terrifieth
           it
           with
           a
           Bugboe
           ;
           and
           herein
           take
           view
           of
           the
           estate
           of
           a
           poor
           Christian
           (
           whose
           
           chiefest
           happines
           having
           therein
           consisted
           ,
           (
           to
           wit
           )
           in
           being
           joyned
           ,
           and
           united
           to
           his
           Heavenly
           Father
           ,
           having
           now
           lost
           his
           presence
           ,
           or
           being
           affrighted
           with
           the
           Devil
           ,
           as
           if
           he
           were
           ready
           to
           lay
           hands
           on
           him
           .
           Consider
           the
           estate
           of
           a
           debtor
           ,
           cast
           off
           by
           his
           best
           Creditours
           :
           and
           gather
           that
           of
           a
           Christian
           being
           banker-out
           with
           his
           God
           .
           Consider
           the
           estate
           of
           a
           man
           ,
           once
           in
           favour
           ,
           afterwards
           adjudged
           to
           death
           by
           a
           Prince
           ,
           without
           hope
           of
           pardon
           or
           repriving
           :
           and
           gather
           that
           of
           a
           Christian
           ,
           who
           after
           his
           citation
           and
           arraignment
           at
           the
           Tribunal
           seat
           of
           God
           ,
           stands
           condemned
           ,
           and
           is
           wholly
           deprived
           of
           obtaining
           pardon
           ,
           and
           delivered
           into
           the
           hands
           of
           the
           Devil
           .
           The
           Lord
           needs
           not
           to
           seek
           wilde
           beasts
           to
           punish
           us
           ,
           or
           such
           like
           cruell
           executioners
           
           of
           his
           wrath
           to
           torment
           us
           ,
           he
           may
           finde
           enough
           within
           us
           ;
           all
           the
           furyes
           and
           Devils
           cannot
           invent
           a
           more
           greivous
           torment
           :
           One
           by
           it
           apprehended
           needeth
           not
           more
           accusers
           or
           tormentours
           .
           His
           many
           never-thoughts
           of
           sinne
           (
           as
           if
           he
           stirred
           a
           nest
           of
           wasps
           )
           come
           buzzing
           about
           his
           eares
           ,
           and
           as
           a
           man
           indebted
           once
           laid
           hold
           of
           ,
           make
           him
           faster
           daily
           :
           his
           loving
           friends
           may
           stand
           by
           the
           prison
           and
           call
           him
           ,
           but
           he
           being
           fast
           fettered
           ,
           cannot
           stirre
           forth
           .
           You
           shall
           see
           him
           now
           in
           his
           purgatory
           ,
           (
           not
           that
           papisticall
           sinne-satisfying
           fiction
           ,
           the
           Popes
           jayle
           )
           but
           that
           hot
           fiery
           furnace
           wherein
           the
           Lord
           trieth
           his
           metall
           ,
           whether
           it
           be
           good
           or
           reprobate
           .
           And
           suppose
           that
           he
           had
           died
           at
           the
           worst
           (
           as
           in
           the
           Lords
           justice
           he
           might
           ,
           to
           the
           hardening
           of
           those
           
           that
           will
           not
           be
           softened
           )
           As
           no
           man
           should
           rather
           judge
           him
           by
           the
           inch
           of
           his
           death
           ,
           then
           the
           length
           of
           his
           life
           ;
           so
           I
           for
           my
           part
           neither
           did
           in
           him
           ,
           nor
           doe
           in
           my self
           so
           much
           feare
           his
           death
           ,
           as
           I
           did
           ,
           and
           doe
           desire
           his
           life
           .
           You
           may
           observe
           the
           courses
           which
           God
           taketh
           in
           visiting
           his
           children
           to
           be
           divers
           :
           some
           are
           comfortable
           and
           without
           any
           great
           admixture
           of
           discomfort
           :
           others
           heavy
           ,
           but
           without
           horrour
           :
           others
           horrible
           ,
           yet
           all
           of
           them
           are
           in
           the
           issue
           gracious
           .
           But
           to
           leave
           any
           further
           digression
           ,
           and
           to
           come
           again
           to
           the
           matter
           in
           hand
           .
        
         
           When
           one
           came
           unto
           him
           ,
           he
           brake
           out
           into
           these
           words
           ,
           
             Oh
             how
             wofull
             and
             miserable
             is
             my
             estate
             ,
             that
             thus
             must
             converse
             with
             hel-hounds
             !
          
           He
           being
           with
           these
           words
           strangely
           moved
           ,
           went
           
           to
           call
           some
           of
           his
           best
           able
           friends
           to
           comfort
           him
           .
           To
           them
           he
           complayned
           ,
           
             that
             the
             Lord
             had
             cursed
             him
             .
          
           Being
           demanded
           how
           he
           knew
           it
           :
           he
           answered
           ,
           
             Why
             !
             the
             event
             sheweth
             it
             .
          
           It
           being
           replyed
           ,
           Then
           such
           and
           such
           were
           cursed
           ▪
           he
           answered
           ,
           
             I
             have
             no
             grace
             .
          
           How
           doe
           those
           then
           ?
           they
           once
           had
           none
           .
           
             I
             was
             a
             foolish
             glorious
             Hypocrite
             ;
             It
             is
             against
             the
             course
             of
             Gods
             proceeding
             to
             save
             me
             ,
             he
             hath
             otherwise
             decreed
             ,
             he
             cannot
             .
          
           Put
           your
           trust
           in
           God
           .
           
             I
             cannot
             ,
             no
             more
             then
             an
             horse
             .
          
           Doe
           you
           desire
           to
           beleive
           ?
           
             No
             more
             theèn
             a
             post
             ,
             then
             an
             horsshoe
             .
          
           I
           know
           you
           cannot
           deny
           but
           that
           you
           have
           sought
           Gods
           glory
           .
           
             Not
             sincerely
             .
          
           There
           is
           a
           secret
           mixture
           of
           pride
           and
           hypocrisy
           ,
           even
           in
           the
           best
           .
           
             I
             have
             no
             more
             sense
             of
             grace
             then
             these
             curtains
             ,
             
             then
             a
             goose
             ,
             then
             that
             block
             .
          
           Let
           the
           testimony
           of
           your
           life
           past
           comfort
           you
           ,
           especially
           in
           the
           calling
           of
           a
           Tutour
           .
           
             I
             did
             the
             businesse
             thereof
             perfunctorily
             ,
             when
             I
             handled
             hard
             Authours
             ,
             I
             came
             often
             unprepared
             ,
             and
             read
             shamefully
             .
          
           Be
           of
           good
           courage
           ,
           and
           the
           Lord
           will
           comfort
           your
           heart
           .
           
             '
             It
             is
             ended
             ,
             there
             is
             no
             such
             matter
             .
          
           Why
           doe
           you
           think
           so
           ?
           You
           shall
           see
           the
           event
           ,
           God
           will
           yet
           bring
           it
           to
           passe
           .
           Tush
           ,
           tush
           ,
           trifles
           .
           What
           doe
           you
           think
           of
           your
           former
           Doctrine
           ?
           
             Very
             good
             .
          
           Let
           it
           comfort
           you
           .
           
             It
             cannot
             .
          
           You
           desire
           it
           could.
           
             If
             it
             might
             .
          
           There
           is
           nothing
           unpossible
           to
           God
           .
           
             Which
             stands
             with
             his
             decree
             :
             Oh
             ,
             oh
             ,
             miserable
             ,
             and
             wofull
             ,
             the
             burthen
             of
             my
             sinne
             lyeth
             heavy
             upon
             me
             :
             I
             doubt
             it
             will
             break
             my
             heart
             .
          
           Behold
           your
           comforts
           .
           
             Nothing
             to
             me
             ,
             I
             pray
             
             you
             hold
             your
             peace
             ,
             doe
             not
             trouble
             your self
             idly
             ,
             you
             vex
             me
             ,
             your
             words
             are
             as
             daggers
             to
             my
             heart
             .
          
           Another
           time
           some
           of
           the
           younger
           sort
           said
           to
           him
           ,
           Remember
           ,
           Sir
           ,
           the
           good
           counsels
           that
           you
           have
           given
           us
           heretofore
           .
           
             Those
             were
             ordinary
             .
          
           You
           may
           see
           many
           others
           in
           the
           like
           estate
           .
           
             Not
             such
             as
             mine
             .
          
           See
           
             David
             .
             What
             doe
             you
             speak
             to
             me
             of
          
           David
           ?
           Good
           Sir
           ,
           endeavour
           to
           settle
           your
           minde
           ;
           
             Yes
             ,
             to
             play
             with
             hell-hounds
             .
          
           Will
           you
           pray
           ?
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           You
           were
           wont
           heretofore
           .
           
             Yes
             ,
             by
             a
             custom
             and
             vain
             glory
             .
          
           Suffer
           us
           to
           pray
           for
           you
           .
           
             Take
             not
             the
             name
             of
             God
             in
             vain
             ,
             by
             praying
             for
             a
             Reprobate
             .
          
           Here
           you
           may
           see
           the
           glory
           of
           God
           preferred
           before
           his
           own
           salvation
           ,
           rather
           willing
           to
           have
           the
           means
           of
           his
           salvation
           neglected
           ,
           then
           the
           Lord
           dishonoured
           .
           Suffer
           
           us
           to
           pray
           for
           our selves
           .
           
             Look
             to
             it
             ,
             you
             would
             now
             shew
             your
             faculty
             in
             praying
             .
          
           Can
           you
           say
           ,
           Amen
           ?
           
             No
             ,
             but
             in
             a
             certain
             gerall
             fashion
             .
          
           One
           prayed
           ,
           and
           in
           the
           mean
           time
           he
           rested
           most
           quietly
           .
           
             I
             pray
             you
          
           (
           saith
           he
           ,
           when
           prayer
           was
           ended
           )
           
             Goe
             hence
             to
             bed
             ,
             doe
             not
             trouble
             your selves
             in
             vain
             .
          
           Let
           not
           the
           Devil
           delude
           you
           ,
           abusing
           your
           minde
           and
           tongue
           ,
           I
           know
           you
           speak
           not
           these
           words
           .
           
             I
             wonder
             that
             intelligent
             Scholars
             should
             speak
             thus
             .
          
           We
           are
           perswaded
           you
           are
           in
           as
           good
           estate
           as
           our selves
           .
           
             Look
             how
             it
             is
             with
             your selves
             in
             truth
             .
          
           One
           that
           watched
           with
           him
           ,
           asked
           him
           ,
           Sir
           ,
           how
           can
           you
           discern
           this
           change
           by
           the
           absence
           of
           God
           ,
           if
           you
           never
           enjoyed
           his
           presence
           ?
           
             I
             thought
             I
             had
             it
             once
             ,
             but
             now
             I
             see
             it
             is
             farre
             otherwise
             .
          
           But
           God
           deals
           with
           
           you
           ,
           as
           he
           dealt
           with
           the
           Church
           ,
           
             Isa.
          
           54.7
           .
           He
           forsook
           it
           a
           while
           ,
           and
           hid
           his
           face
           from
           it
           ,
           but
           he
           returned
           to
           it
           again
           ,
           and
           so
           (
           no
           doubt
           )
           the
           case
           stands
           with
           you
           .
           
             Never
             ,
             add
             not
             affliction
             to
             the
             afflicted
             ;
             Oh
             me
             wretch
             !
          
           groaning
           pitifully
           .
           Hope
           no
           worse
           of
           your self
           ,
           then
           we
           doe
           of
           you
           .
           All
           of
           us
           have
           seen
           cleerly
           which
           way
           your
           carriage
           was
           still
           sent
           ,
           after
           the
           spirit
           :
           and
           we
           are
           assured
           that
           you
           will
           come
           to
           the
           spirit
           ,
           howsoever
           you
           seem
           to
           have
           lost
           your
           way
           .
           To
           all
           particulars
           he
           would
           answer
           ,
           
             I
             desire
             grace
             generally
             ,
             I
             did
             good
             outwardly
             ,
             all
             hypocritically
             .
          
           One
           asked
           him
           ,
           Doe
           you
           love
           such
           an
           one
           ?
           his
           most
           dear
           ,
           and
           worthy
           to
           be
           dear
           friend
           .
           
             Yes
             .
          
           Why
           ?
           
             For
             his
             goodnes
             .
          
           Why
           then
           you
           are
           Gods
           childe
           ,
           for
           by
           this
           we
           know
           we
           are
           translated
           from
           
           death
           to
           life
           ,
           because
           we
           own
           the
           brethren
           .
           Many
           like
           forcible
           proofs
           he
           would
           shift
           off
           with
           his
           former
           evasions
           ,
           and
           afterwards
           became
           more
           wary
           against
           himself
           ,
           either
           loth
           to
           grant
           any
           thing
           ,
           or
           granting
           it
           staggeringly
           ,
           or
           ,
           
             what
             then
             ?
          
           fearing
           lest
           he
           should
           be
           pressed
           ,
           he
           wished
           ,
           
             that
             some
             were
             put
             in
             minde
             ,
          
           1.
           
           
             Of
             their
             great
             care
             for
             building
             ,
             and
             too
             small
             care
             for
             Scholars
             in
             them
             .
          
           2.
           
           
             Their
             giving
             so
             long
             leave
             of
             absence
             from
             the
             Colledge
             ,
          
           and
           desired
           amendment
           .
        
         
           After
           noon
           came
           a
           worthy
           Governour
           of
           a
           Colledge
           in
           our
           University
           ,
           
           and
           requested
           him
           to
           be
           of
           good
           comfort
           ,
           and
           to
           pluck
           up
           his
           spirit
           .
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           Why
           can
           you
           not
           ?
           
             Because
             I
             have
             no
             grace
             ,
             no
             more
             then
             a
             Backstock
             .
          
           Why
           doe
           you
           think
           so
           ?
           
           
             By
             this
             affliction
             .
          
           Doe
           you
           desire
           grace
           ?
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           (
           He
           spake
           most
           strongly
           )
           
             I
             can
             as
             well
             leap
             over
             the
             Church
             .
          
           But
           are
           you
           not
           sorry
           that
           you
           cannot
           desire
           it
           ?
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           Would
           you
           not
           be
           in
           Heaven
           ?
           
             I
             would
             not
             .
          
           One
           standing
           by
           ,
           said
           ,
           The
           Devil
           himself
           would
           ,
           if
           he
           could.
           
             "
             By
             the
             way
             ,
             you
             shall
             have
             the
             opinion
             of
             a
             much
             respected
             Minister
             apposite
             hereto
             ,
             which
             he
             gave
             in
             private
             .
             A
             proud
             man
             ,
             saith
             he
             ,
             will
             scorne
             to
             seek
             any
             good
             from
             his
             enemy
             :
             so
             the
             Devils
             pride
             will
             not
             let
             him
             think
             himself
             beholding
             to
             God
             for
             Heaven
             ,
             if
             he
             might
             get
             it
             .
             "
          
           You
           have
           (
           said
           one
           )
           the
           testimony
           of
           faith
           ,
           you
           love
           the
           Brethren
           .
           
             I
             did
             not
             .
          
           Doe
           not
           you
           love
           us
           ?
           
             No
             .
          
           
             *
          
           The
           Devil
           now
           seeth
           he
           should
           be
           cast
           into
           straits
           ,
           if
           you
           
           should
           grant
           this
           ;
           what
           is
           it
           that
           doth
           most
           trouble
           you
           ?
           
             I
             undertook
             too
             much
             upon
             me
             foolishly
             :
             I
             had
             gotten
             a
             little
             Logick
             and
             Greek
             ,
             and
             meanly
             instructed
             in
             the
             rules
             ,
             did
             set
             my self
             to
             read
             to
             Scholars
             ;
             and
             afterwards
             undertook
             other
             busines
             ,
             which
             distracted
             my
             minde
             and
             body
             from
             them
             ,
             I
             have
             destroyed
             a
             thousand
             souls
             .
          
           You
           may
           see
           the
           falsehood
           of
           him
           that
           suggesteth
           this
           unto
           you
           :
           you
           never
           had
           a
           thousand
           :
           he
           puts
           a
           false
           glasse
           before
           you
           .
           The
           good
           effects
           of
           your
           pains
           appears
           in
           many
           of
           your
           Scholars
           .
           
             Oh
             they
             were
             of
             themselves
             capable
             .
          
           Name
           one
           in
           whom
           they
           doe
           not
           ?
           
             There
             is
             one
             .
          
           (
           pointing
           at
           a
           Master
           of
           Arts
           there
           present
           )
           He
           justified
           his
           care
           of
           him
           ,
           and
           gave
           thanks
           to
           God
           that
           ever
           he
           came
           to
           him
           .
           
             It
             is
             not
             so
             ,
             I
             did
             foolishly
             .
          
           You
           confesse
           
           you
           did
           foolishly
           ,
           therefore
           not
           of
           malice
           .
           Again
           ,
           cōsider
           what
           would
           have
           become
           of
           many
           of
           them
           if
           you
           had
           not
           taken
           them
           .
           
             Better
             ,
             farre
             better
             .
          
           All
           in
           the
           Colledge
           know
           the
           contrary
           .
           
             But
             I
             feel
             it
             .
          
           It
           is
           false
           ,
           believe
           not
           the
           Devil
           .
           
             It
             is
             too
             true
             .
          
           When
           vvill
           you
           make
           amends
           ?
           God
           will
           give
           you
           your
           hearts
           desire
           .
           
             Never
             .
          
           Are
           you
           sorry
           that
           he
           vvill
           not
           ?
           
             No
             ,
             there
             is
             no
             grace
             in
             my
             heart
             :
             it
             is
             dead
             .
          
           Such
           was
           
             Davids
          
           case
           .
           
             What
             doe
             you
             compare
             me
             with
             him
             ?
          
           Behold
           Christ
           himself
           .
           
             Nothing
             to
             me
             .
          
           God
           can
           make
           his
           death
           available
           .
           
             He
             cannot
             .
          
           He
           is
           omnipotent
           .
           
             In
             me
             he
             cannnot
             ,
             because
             it
             stands
             with
             his
             purpose
             .
          
           Whom
           God
           loveth
           once
           ,
           he
           loveth
           to
           the
           end
           .
           
             But
             he
             did
             never
             love
             me
             .
          
           You
           have
           tasted
           of
           his
           love
           .
           
             I
             deceived
             my self
             in
             a
             certain
             vain-glory
             :
             
             I
             exposed
             my
             head
             to
             many
             things
             ,
             outwardly
             all
             .
          
           You
           could
           say
           the
           Lords
           Prayer
           ,
           and
           therein
           call
           him
           Father
           .
           
             Hypocritically
             I
             was
             wont
             to
             enquire
             of
             Master
          
           Mason
           ,
           
             what
             was
             meant
             by
             Abba-father
             ;
             rather
             in
             curiosity
             ,
             then
             truly
             to
             be
             edified
             .
          
           God
           will
           give
           a
           good
           issue
           .
           
             Never
             ,
             I
             have
             no
             sense
             .
          
           We
           will
           pray
           with
           you
           .
           
             Doe
             not
             dishonour
             God
             .
          
           It
           is
           well
           that
           you
           will
           not
           have
           God
           dishonoured
           :
           here
           he
           sticked
           ,
           saying
           ,
           
             I
             pray
             trouble
             me
             not
             with
             distinctions
             .
          
           After
           came
           one
           ,
           who
           with
           vehement
           action
           of
           body
           ,
           pressed
           and
           urged
           him
           to
           trust
           in
           God
           .
           
             I
             cannot
          
           (
           said
           he
           )
           
             I
             cannot
             ,
             he
             will
             not
             have
             me
             saved
             ,
             his
             sentence
             is
             passed
             .
          
           Doe
           you
           desire
           to
           be
           saved
           ?
           
             No.
          
           Do
           you
           desire
           to
           desire
           ?
           
             No
             .
          
           Would
           you
           be
           damned
           ?
           
           
             No.
          
           Look
           at
           the
           sinnes
           of
           other
           men
           as
           great
           as
           yours
           ,
           and
           yet
           they
           are
           saved
           .
           
             They
             were
             good
             and
             godly
             ,
             they
             found
             grace
             :
             here
             is
             the
             difference
             ,
             my
             sinnes
             are
             horrible
             :
          
           he
           repeated
           that
           towards
           his
           Scholars
           .
           All
           of
           us
           know
           you
           took
           pains
           .
           Outwardly
           you
           did
           your
           best
           .
           
             No.
          
           I
           see
           novv
           what
           it
           is
           ,
           you
           strictly
           look
           back
           to
           your
           own
           actions
           ,
           as
           a
           Justiciary
           ,
           who
           will
           none
           of
           Gods
           mercy
           ,
           and
           now
           he
           hath
           justly
           met
           with
           you
           ,
           your
           judgement
           is
           just
           .
           These
           words
           affected
           him
           strangely
           :
           another
           willed
           him
           to
           look
           to
           it
           ,
           it
           seemed
           neer
           Popery
           .
           Doe
           you
           hope
           to
           be
           justified
           by
           your
           merits
           ?
           
             I
             fear
             to
             be
             damned
             for
             my
             sinnes
             .
          
           The
           other
           asked
           ,
           whether
           he
           could
           say
           ,
           Amen
           ?
           
             No.
          
           Have
           you
           no
           tongue
           ?
           
             What
             is
             that
             to
             the
             purpose
             ?
          
           Name
           Jesus
           ,
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           
           If
           I
           had
           your
           tongue
           in
           my
           hand
           ,
           I
           would
           make
           you
           speak
           .
           Turning
           his
           speech
           to
           a
           friend
           present
           ,
           
             Oh
          
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           
             if
             you
             did
             but
             feel
             my
             greif
             but
             an
             houre
             ,
             you
             would
             have
             compassion
             .
          
           The
           other
           replyed
           ,
           If
           you
           were
           in
           the
           fire
           you
           would
           wish
           to
           get
           out
           .
           
             I
             had
             rather
             be
             in
             the
             fire
             then
             here
             .
          
           I
           will
           pray
           for
           you
           .
           
             Sinne
             not
             .
          
           Let
           the
           fault
           be
           mine
           .
        
         
           Although
           my
           purpose
           was
           barely
           to
           relate
           the
           passages
           of
           this
           gracious
           mans
           visitation
           ,
           and
           to
           referre
           to
           your
           spirituall
           eye
           what
           you
           could
           tracke
           and
           finde
           therein
           ,
           yet
           let
           your
           gentle
           construction
           withhold
           from
           me
           the
           deserved
           censure
           of
           bold
           blindnes
           ,
           in
           that
           now
           and
           then
           I
           point
           at
           some
           things
           which
           your
           quick
           sight
           may
           sooner
           or
           better
           apprehend
           .
           The
           Devils
           malicious
           policy
           was
           great
           toward
           
           him
           ,
           in
           that
           he
           assaulted
           him
           most
           strongly
           in
           that
           ,
           which
           might
           and
           ought
           to
           have
           been
           his
           greatest
           comfort
           .
           Again
           ,
           I
           saw
           that
           the
           opinion
           of
           the
           Physician
           helps
           somewhat
           in
           bodily
           maladies
           or
           diseases
           ,
           whereas
           in
           that
           his
           estate
           ,
           his
           soul
           remained
           as
           it
           were
           uncapable
           of
           comfort
           from
           the
           souls
           Physician
           .
           He
           much
           respected
           some
           few
           .
           He
           dolefully
           poured
           out
           his
           soul
           in
           the
           bosome
           of
           a
           well
           willer
           ,
           on
           this
           manner
           ;
           
             I
             took
             upon
             me
             too
             proudly
             many
             things
             ,
             and
             being
             negligent
             ,
             performed
             nothing
             :
             cursed
             be
             the
             day
             when
             I
             took
             Scholars
             .
             If
             I
             had
             not
             taken
             them
             ,
             I
             had
             been
             happy
             ;
             with
             a
             great
             flourish
             ,
             I
             was
             stirring
             many
             wayes
             ,
             and
             in
             the
             mean
             space
             left
             the
             essence
             of
             my
             calling
             ,
             teaching
             Scholars
             .
          
           What
           ,
           saith
           the
           other
           ,
           what
           shall
           I
           now
           doe
           ,
           when
           I
           see
           you
           thus
           tossed
           ?
           
           
             Well
             ,
             for
             I
             was
             an
             Hypocrite
             ,
             and
             now
             therefore
             there
             is
             no
             hope
             of
             comfort
             for
             me
             in
             Gods
             presence
             :
             I
             have
             no
             sense
             of
             it
             .
          
           The
           sunne
           is
           in
           the
           firmament
           ,
           though
           it
           may
           be
           hid
           in
           a
           cloud
           .
           
             This
             comparison
             agreeth
             not
             to
             me
             .
          
           What
           then
           would
           you
           counsell
           me
           to
           doe
           ?
           
             Abide
             within
             the
             bounds
             of
             your
             calling
             :
             take
             not
             too
             much
             on
             you
             ,
             and
             the
             Lord
             will
             blesse
             you
             .
          
           Will
           it
           avail
           me
           to
           hear
           sermons
           .
           
             Yes
             ,
             if
             you
             mean
             to
             be
             saved
             .
          
           What
           good
           shall
           I
           reap
           thence
           ?
           
             Nothing
             from
             the
             bare
             hearing
             .
             Oh
             ,
             this
             heavy
             lumpish
             fear
             hath
             oft-times
             shaken
             me
             ,
             and
             now
             it
             hath
             broken
             out
             .
          
           Another
           said
           ,
           you
           know
           the
           poor
           in
           spirit
           are
           blessed
           .
           
             I
             am
             not
             such
             .
          
           You
           see
           you
           are
           empty
           of
           all
           good
           ,
           you
           feel
           your
           burthen
           .
           
             I
             pray
             you
             goe
             your
             wayes
             .
          
           He
           turned
           his
           head
           aside
           ,
           and
           stopped
           his
           eares
           :
           what
           
           though
           you
           have
           done
           but
           little
           good
           ,
           if
           you
           have
           but
           given
           a
           cup
           of
           cold
           water
           ,
           
             &c.
             
          
           He
           thrusted
           him
           away
           with
           his
           foot
           ,
           either
           (
           as
           some
           thought
           )
           being
           troubled
           with
           his
           shrill
           voice
           ,
           or
           (
           as
           he
           replyed
           )
           through
           the
           Devils
           subtilty
           .
           That
           evening
           he
           was
           grievously
           afflicted
           .
           Suddenly
           he
           brake
           out
           ;
           
             Oh
             if
             God!
          
           The
           standers
           by
           endeavoured
           to
           cherish
           this
           good
           motion
           ,
           and
           said
           to
           him
           ,
           He
           will
           give
           you
           grace
           .
           
             I
             doubt
             it
             .
          
           Then
           presently
           after
           he
           uttered
           this
           prayer
           ,
           
             Oh
             God
             ,
             give
             me
             a
             spark
             of
             grace
             ,
             and
             enlarge
             my
             heart
             that
             it
             may
             apprehend
             it
             .
          
           He
           asked
           a
           friend
           ,
           how
           he
           might
           give
           satisfaction
           for
           some
           speeches
           .
        
         
           Mr
           
             Dod
             ,
          
           although
           he
           departed
           on
           Saturday
           ,
           and
           had
           then
           an
           unseasonable
           journey
           ,
           yet
           being
           requested
           by
           letters
           ,
           returned
           
           on
           Tuesday
           following
           .
           He
           at
           the
           first
           sight
           started
           up
           ,
           as
           desirous
           to
           meet
           him
           ,
           
             Oh
          
           Mr
           
             Dod
             ,
          
           and
           in
           friendly
           sort
           complained
           ,
           
             I
             have
             no
             grace
             .
          
           I
           will
           not
           (
           saith
           Mr
           
             Dod
          
           )
           beleive
           every
           one
           that
           saith
           he
           hath
           grace
           ,
           nor
           every
           one
           that
           saith
           he
           hath
           none
           :
           Answer
           the
           Devil
           as
           Christ
           did
           .
           A
           man
           must
           not
           alwaies
           be
           led
           by
           sense
           ;
           Let
           us
           enquire
           by
           the
           effects
           ,
           and
           it
           may
           suffice
           ,
           if
           we
           can
           finde
           but
           one
           ,
           yea
           the
           least
           it
           is
           enough
           .
           You
           forgive
           your
           enemies
           ,
           and
           love
           them
           ,
           and
           would
           doe
           them
           no
           hurt
           if
           you
           could
           ?
           
             Yes
             .
          
           Then
           your
           sinnes
           are
           forgiven
           .
           An
           Hypocrite
           may
           give
           alms
           and
           fast
           ,
           but
           this
           he
           cannot
           .
           
             That
             is
             a
             small
             matter
             .
          
           I
           think
           it
           to
           be
           a
           great
           one
           ,
           yea
           ,
           such
           an
           one
           that
           I
           had
           need
           to
           pray
           for
           ;
           That
           is
           put
           for
           a
           reason
           in
           the
           Lords
           Prayer
           ,
           and
           if
           
           Christ
           had
           thought
           any
           more
           forcible
           ,
           he
           would
           have
           given
           it
           .
           
             Sir
             ,
             that
             is
             true
             ,
             but
             in
             those
             that
             are
             elected
             .
          
           Doe
           not
           you
           put
           an
           exception
           ,
           where
           God
           hath
           not
           .
           I
           would
           not
           handle
           you
           as
           I
           doe
           ,
           but
           that
           I
           know
           your
           estate
           :
           I
           come
           hither
           to
           cherish
           you
           ,
           you
           love
           your
           good
           friends
           ?
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           Had
           you
           rather
           that
           bad
           or
           good
           men
           should
           be
           with
           you
           ?
           
             Good
             .
          
           Yet
           you
           say
           ,
           you
           doe
           not
           love
           them
           :
           A
           sow
           will
           be
           with
           swine
           :
           There
           is
           no
           fellowship
           between
           light
           and
           darknes
           .
           Would
           you
           believe
           your self
           ,
           or
           the
           Physician
           touching
           the
           estate
           of
           your
           body
           ?
           
             The
             Physician
             .
          
           Believe
           not
           your self
           then
           ,
           now
           you
           are
           sick
           ,
           yet
           shall
           be
           restored
           .
           
             It
             is
             impossible
             .
          
           Why
           so
           ?
           If
           you
           had
           sinned
           so
           much
           as
           you
           could
           ,
           you
           could
           not
           have
           sinned
           so
           much
           as
           
             Adam
             ,
          
           
           yet
           he
           is
           in
           Heaven
           .
           
             It
             repented
             him
             .
          
           Doth
           it
           not
           you
           ?
           
             No
             .
          
           Doth
           your
           sicknes
           or
           sinne
           more
           trouble
           you
           ,
           or
           had
           you
           rather
           have
           grace
           ,
           or
           health
           ?
           
             Grace
             .
          
           Well
           then
           .
           
             But
             it
             cannot
             be
             .
          
           God
           will
           wash
           you
           .
           
             I
             have
             no
             water
             .
          
           God
           will
           bring
           it
           with
           him
           .
           
             He
             hath
             denyed
             it
             .
          
           He
           hath
           offered
           it
           by
           his
           Ministers
           ,
           which
           are
           as
           the
           buckets
           to
           draw
           and
           pour
           it
           .
           You
           must
           not
           look
           now
           that
           God
           should
           come
           to
           you
           himself
           .
           Doe
           you
           think
           it
           a
           small
           favour
           of
           God
           that
           so
           many
           good
           friends
           come
           to
           you
           ?
           God
           did
           send
           none
           to
           comfort
           
             Cain
          
           or
           
             Ahithophel
             .
          
           Think
           of
           that
           saying
           of
           
             Manoahs
          
           wife
           ,
           If
           the
           Lord
           would
           kill
           us
           ,
           he
           would
           not
           have
           shewed
           us
           all
           these
           things
           ,
           
             Iudg.
          
           13.23
           .
           Behold
           the
           properties
           of
           Christs
           sheep
           :
           They
           are
           
           1.
           
           Weak
           ,
           2.
           
           Sick
           ,
           3.
           
           Broken
           ,
           4.
           
           Driven
           away
           ,
           5.
           
           Lost
           ,
           
             Ezek.
          
           34.4
           .
           You
           are
           such
           ,
           see
           therefore
           your
           comfort
           ,
           he
           will
           1.
           strengthen
           ,
           2.
           heal
           ,
           3.
           binde
           up
           ,
           4.
           bring
           again
           ,
           and
           5.
           seek
           you
           .
           You
           finde
           your self
           a
           great
           debtor
           :
           the
           Lord
           hath
           pardoned
           :
           onely
           he
           looks
           that
           you
           should
           come
           to
           him
           for
           an
           acquittance
           .
           This
           fight
           is
           not
           yours
           ,
           but
           the
           Lords
           ,
           2
           
             Chron.
          
           20.20
           .
           put
           your
           trust
           in
           him
           .
           If
           you
           ask
           me
           ,
           how
           may
           I
           ?
           it
           followeth
           ,
           Beleive
           his
           Prophets
           ,
           and
           you
           shall
           prosper
           .
           You
           may
           remember
           that
           Christ
           did
           pray
           for
           
             Peter
             ,
          
           that
           his
           faith
           might
           not
           fail
           ,
           but
           it
           failed
           afterwards
           .
           How
           came
           that
           to
           passe
           ?
           That
           failing
           did
           rather
           strengthen
           it
           .
           For
           whereas
           he
           gloried
           that
           if
           al
           should
           deny
           Christ
           ,
           yet
           he
           would
           not
           :
           had
           he
           been
           asked
           ,
           Doest
           thou
           promise
           this
           
           by
           thine
           own
           strength
           ,
           or
           by
           mine
           ?
           he
           must
           have
           answered
           ,
           Mine
           ,
           for
           otherwise
           he
           would
           have
           requested
           his
           help
           ,
           making
           him
           hereby
           to
           seek
           to
           Christ
           for
           the
           strengthening
           of
           his
           faith
           .
           This
           happeneth
           to
           you
           ,
           because
           you
           credit
           the
           suggestion
           of
           carnall
           reason
           ,
           and
           not
           the
           word
           rather
           .
           Oh
           the
           cunning
           of
           the
           adversary
           !
           deal
           not
           with
           him
           by
           cunning
           ,
           but
           hold
           him
           to
           the
           Word
           ,
           seek
           for
           strength
           in
           God
           to
           resist
           him
           .
           You
           may
           see
           the
           Apostles
           in
           the
           tempest
           ,
           it
           was
           from
           their
           weaknes
           that
           they
           distrusted
           ,
           yet
           of
           God
           that
           they
           prayed
           .
           
             I
             cannot
             pray
             .
          
           Here
           what
           St
           
             Iames
          
           saith
           ,
           Is
           any
           man
           sick
           ,
           
             &c.
          
           afflictions
           further
           prayer
           ,
           but
           most
           sicknesses
           hinder
           :
           wherefore
           behold
           your
           friends
           ,
           whose
           mindes
           as
           the
           Lord
           hath
           stirred
           up
           to
           pray
           for
           you
           :
           so
           will
           
           he
           also
           stirre
           up
           himself
           to
           hear
           them
           .
           Their
           prayers
           are
           yours
           ,
           yea
           ,
           you
           have
           the
           prayers
           of
           many
           which
           never
           knew
           you
           .
           And
           as
           God
           said
           to
           
             Cain
             ,
          
           sinne
           lyeth
           at
           the
           door
           ,
           ready
           as
           it
           were
           to
           doe
           him
           an
           ill
           turne
           :
           so
           his
           promised
           blessing
           doth
           as
           it
           were
           expect
           you
           .
           If
           your
           salvation
           were
           now
           in
           your
           own
           hands
           ,
           it
           is
           likely
           you
           would
           yeild
           up
           all
           :
           but
           your
           name
           is
           written
           in
           the
           heart
           of
           Christ
           .
           Sir
           ,
           let
           me
           watch
           with
           you
           this
           night
           .
           
             No
             .
          
           Why
           ?
           because
           it
           would
           hurt
           you
           .
           He
           (
           fearing
           the
           conclusion
           )
           said
           ,
           
             Here
             is
             a
             snatching
             argument
             :
             nay
             rather
             ,
             I
             will
             not
             suffer
             you
             ,
             because
             you
             would
             trouble
             me
             .
          
           In
           the
           morning
           M.
           
             Dod
          
           came
           again
           to
           him
           ,
           and
           asking
           him
           how
           he
           did
           ,
           he
           answered
           ,
           
             wretchedly
             ,
             lamentably
             ,
             abhominably
             ,
             no
             stamp
             of
             grace
             in
             me
             .
          
           Doe
           you
           
           desire
           to
           be
           eased
           ?
           
             Infinitely
             .
             Oh
             if
             God
             would
             give
             me
             a
             drop
             :
             I
             was
             so
             foolish
             that
             I
             would
             alwaies
             be
             doing
             something
             ,
             but
             did
             nothing
             well
             .
          
           I
           pray
           you
           tell
           me
           what
           was
           the
           calling
           of
           the
           good
           thief
           upon
           the
           crosse
           ?
           Doe
           not
           you
           think
           that
           God
           can
           put
           a
           distinction
           between
           his
           grace
           and
           our
           corruptions
           ?
           Behold
           the
           Church
           sometimes
           helples
           and
           hopeles
           ,
           and
           
             Ionah
          
           in
           that
           his
           bed
           ,
           God
           seeth
           you
           ,
           though
           you
           see
           not
           him
           .
           
             But
             I
             feel
             horrour
             .
          
           Where
           misery
           is
           ,
           there
           is
           grace
           much
           more
           :
           Then
           especially
           appeareth
           the
           excellency
           of
           the
           Physician
           ,
           when
           health
           is
           least
           hoped
           .
           The
           Devil
           doth
           abuse
           your
           minde
           and
           tongue
           against
           your self
           :
           but
           doubt
           not
           ,
           
           the
           Lord
           will
           cast
           down
           the
           strong
           holds
           of
           carnall
           reason
           .
           Onely
           doe
           not
           suppresse
           that
           grace
           of
           God
           ,
           which
           although
           it
           appeareth
           but
           small
           ,
           as
           big
           as
           a
           mans
           hand
           ,
           yet
           it
           shall
           be
           increased
           into
           a
           mighty
           rain
           ,
           by
           which
           your
           dry
           soul
           shall
           be
           moistened
           .
           Christ
           rising
           again
           ,
           did
           first
           appear
           to
           
             Mary
             Magdalen
          
           that
           sinner
           ,
           after
           commanded
           her
           to
           tell
           it
           first
           to
           
             Peter
             ,
          
           which
           had
           denied
           him
           .
           See
           thence
           his
           mercy
           .
           The
           godly
           in
           their
           afflictions
           doe
           but
           forget
           their
           comforts
           ;
           God
           helps
           their
           memory
           ,
           helps
           all
           .
           The
           godly
           losing
           his
           sense
           of
           Gods
           favour
           ,
           is
           like
           to
           a
           man
           that
           hath
           lost
           his
           purse
           ,
           which
           if
           he
           could
           finde
           ,
           he
           were
           rich
           enough
           .
           But
           the
           wicked
           cannot
           be
           brought
           to
           
           remembrance
           ,
           because
           they
           never
           knew
           it
           .
           Thus
           he
           suffered
           him
           to
           rest
           a
           while
           ,
           afterwards
           returning
           with
           others
           ,
           prayed
           .
           Then
           he
           was
           asked
           ,
           how
           he
           did
           .
           
             Miserably
             .
          
           Doe
           not
           you
           search
           into
           the
           secrets
           of
           God
           .
           
             It
             is
             too
             true
             and
             manifest
             .
          
           Sir
           ,
           doe
           not
           alwaies
           be
           digging
           in
           at
           your
           sinnes
           .
           A
           wound
           continually
           rubbed
           cannot
           be
           cured
           .
           Suffer
           the
           plaisters
           of
           the
           Word
           of
           God
           to
           rest
           upon
           it
           ,
           that
           it
           may
           be
           holpen
           .
           
             Oh
             ,
             if
             I
             had
             !
             Oh
             ,
             if
             it
             would
             please
             God!
             I
             had
             rather
             then
             any
             thing
             in
             this
             or
             other
             three
             thousand
             worlds
             .
          
           Who
           now
           giveth
           this
           desire
           unto
           you
           ?
           Of
           our selves
           we
           cannot
           think
           a
           good
           thought
           :
           God
           giveth
           both
           the
           will
           and
           the
           deed
           .
           A
           desire
           is
           a
           sure
           
           token
           .
           
             But
             I
             cannot
             truly
             desire
             .
          
           You
           doe
           not
           desire
           falsely
           ,
           therefore
           :
           truly
           what
           doe
           you
           dissemble
           ?
           
             Here
             is
             a
             trick
             .
          
           You
           must
           needs
           distinguish
           between
           unperfect
           desire
           and
           hypocriticall
           .
           Will
           you
           know
           whether
           your
           desire
           be
           true
           ?
           There
           are
           two
           signes
           thereof
           :
           Constancy
           ,
           and
           a
           conscionable
           using
           of
           the
           means
           :
           You
           have
           found
           these
           in
           you
           ,
           doth
           this
           argument
           hold
           ?
           You
           doe
           not
           feel
           ,
           therefore
           you
           have
           it
           not
           ?
           I
           know
           when
           you
           would
           have
           denyed
           such
           an
           argument
           :
           If
           that
           did
           follow
           ,
           it
           should
           fare
           well
           with
           the
           Reprobate
           ,
           he
           hath
           no
           sense
           of
           the
           wrath
           of
           God
           ,
           therefore
           he
           is
           not
           under
           it
           .
           
             Elizabeth
          
           said
           ,
           Whence
           is
           it
           that
           the
           mother
           of
           the
           Lord
           should
           come
           unto
           me
           ?
           surely
           from
           
           their
           Christian
           heart
           .
           Truly
           I
           could
           hardly
           have
           come
           to
           you
           ,
           but
           that
           I
           thought
           I
           was
           bound
           in
           conscience
           ,
           because
           I
           know
           you
           to
           be
           the
           servant
           of
           the
           Lord
           :
           When
           you
           were
           well
           ,
           if
           we
           should
           have
           come
           with
           proofs
           out
           of
           the
           Word
           of
           the
           Lord
           ,
           you
           would
           have
           believed
           us
           .
           
             Yes
             .
          
           Why
           not
           now
           when
           your
           judgement
           is
           blinded
           ?
           
             Oh
             ,
             the
             Iudgement
             of
             God
          
           !
           Call
           it
           as
           he
           calleth
           it
           ,
           Corrections
           .
           
             Oh
             ,
             my
             insensible
             heart
             !
             Oh
             ,
             dead
             !
          
           A
           dead
           man
           cannot
           perceive
           himself
           dead
           ,
           and
           God
           quickneth
           the
           dead
           .
           
             Oh
             ,
             if
             he
             would
             enlarge
             my
             heart
             !
          
           This
           desire
           is
           good
           ;
           
             But
             it
             is
             without
             savour
             .
          
           God
           in
           mercy
           will
           yeild
           you
           a
           comfortable
           rellish
           :
           Consider
           I
           pray
           you
           ;
           whereas
           man
           may
           object
           ,
           The
           
           Lord
           is
           strong
           and
           terrible
           .
           It
           followeth
           ,
           Mercifull
           withall
           .
           
             But
             I
             am
             backward
             in
             seeking
             it
             .
          
           He
           is
           gracious
           ,
           more
           forward
           then
           thou
           canst
           be
           backward
           :
           but
           I
           have
           provoked
           .
           Him
           ;
           he
           is
           slow
           to
           anger
           :
           but
           my
           sinnes
           are
           great
           ,
           but
           he
           is
           abundant
           in
           goodnes
           and
           in
           truth
           .
           The
           Lord
           hath
           promised
           that
           he
           on
           his
           part
           will
           be
           our
           God
           ,
           and
           we
           on
           our
           part
           shall
           be
           his
           people
           .
           For
           a
           while
           he
           commended
           him
           to
           God
           :
           shortly
           after
           returning
           ,
           he
           prayed
           with
           him
           .
           Cast
           your
           burthen
           upon
           God
           .
           
             He
             hath
             rejected
             me
             .
          
           Who
           made
           you
           his
           counsellour
           ?
           Secret
           things
           belong
           unto
           God
           ,
           but
           revealed
           things
           unto
           us
           :
           will
           you
           make
           Almanackes
           ?
           
             He
             doth
             manifest
             it
             :
             Oh
             mine
             abominable
             bringing
             up
             of
             youth
             !
          
           he
           withall
           
           groaned
           most
           deeply
           .
           If
           you
           had
           done
           as
           well
           as
           the
           justest
           man
           ,
           you
           should
           stand
           in
           need
           of
           the
           merits
           of
           Christ
           .
           I
           ,
           or
           another
           may
           bring
           arguments
           ,
           but
           it
           belongs
           to
           the
           Lord
           to
           fasten
           them
           on
           the
           heart
           .
           I
           say
           to
           you
           as
           
             Noah
          
           did
           to
           
             Iaphet
             ,
          
           God
           perswade
           
             Iaphet
             ,
             &c.
             
          
           What
           if
           your
           sinnes
           were
           as
           crimson
           ,
           God
           can
           make
           them
           as
           snow
           .
           
             That
             is
             true
             of
             those
             that
             are
             capable
             .
          
           Behold
           ,
           we
           make
           your
           estate
           our
           own
           ,
           we
           have
           part
           in
           your
           sorrow
           :
           who
           hath
           thus
           (
           think
           you
           )
           disposed
           our
           hearts
           ?
           
             God
             .
          
           And
           doe
           you
           think
           that
           he
           which
           causeth
           us
           to
           love
           you
           ,
           doth
           not
           love
           you
           himself
           ?
           
             I
             fear
             I
             did
             too
             much
             glory
             in
             matters
             of
             private
             service
             to
             God
             .
          
           The
           neerer
           we
           come
           to
           God
           ,
           the
           more
           we
           see
           our
           own
           vilenesse
           .
           This
           is
           the
           use
           which
           I
           make
           of
           
           it
           ,
           blessed
           be
           God
           which
           hath
           not
           put
           our
           estate
           in
           our
           own
           hands
           ,
           but
           kept
           it
           in
           his
           .
           The
           Devil
           hath
           now
           winnowed
           you
           ,
           and
           you
           think
           all
           is
           gone
           out
           ,
           but
           God
           holdeth
           what
           is
           his
           .
           An
           Artificer
           can
           distinguish
           drosse
           from
           the
           metall
           ,
           cannot
           God
           his
           from
           yours
           ?
           Well
           ,
           with
           
             Iob
          
           lay
           your
           hand
           on
           your
           mouth
           ,
           and
           hold
           your
           peace
           ,
           and
           so
           good
           rest
           have
           you
           :
           Onely
           consider
           your
           comfort
           ,
           though
           it
           be
           but
           small
           ,
           whence
           it
           came
           ,
           even
           from
           Gods
           Word
           and
           servants
           ,
           no
           otherwise
           .
        
         
           
           When
           he
           returned
           again
           to
           take
           and
           give
           farewell
           ,
           he
           began
           to
           complain
           :
           
             Oh
             ,
             great
             and
             grievous
             !
          
           The
           Lord
           knoweth
           what
           power
           he
           hath
           given
           you
           :
           A
           father
           will
           put
           a
           greater
           burthen
           upon
           a
           stronger
           sonne
           .
           But
           see
           the
           difference
           .
           When
           an
           
           earthly
           father
           or
           master
           setteth
           his
           on
           wo●k
           ,
           they
           must
           doe
           it
           with
           their
           own
           strength
           ;
           but
           the
           Lord
           setteth
           on
           work
           ,
           and
           giveth
           strength
           to
           be
           not
           discouraged
           .
           You
           are
           now
           in
           your
           calling
           :
           
             Oh
             ,
             mine
             heart
             is
             miserable
             !
          
           What
           then
           ?
           A
           father
           loveth
           his
           sonne
           as
           well
           when
           he
           is
           sleeping
           ,
           as
           when
           he
           is
           waking
           .
           Sir
           ,
           I
           have
           known
           you
           heretofore
           ,
           and
           although
           ,
           if
           I
           were
           in
           your
           case
           ,
           I
           might
           doe
           as
           you
           doe
           ,
           yet
           I
           remain
           the
           servant
           of
           God
           ,
           as
           you
           certainly
           are
           .
           The
           Holy
           Ghost
           calls
           to
           your
           remembrance
           what
           you
           have
           heretofore
           taught
           ,
           and
           now
           heard
           :
           And
           although
           I
           shall
           be
           absent
           in
           body
           ,
           yet
           shall
           I
           be
           present
           in
           minde
           .
           Be
           not
           too
           covetous
           to
           seek
           abundance
           by
           and
           by
           .
           If
           
             Iacob
          
           could
           say
           to
           
             Es●u
             ,
          
           I
           have
           seen
           thy
           face
           ,
           as
           though
           I
           had
           
           seen
           the
           face
           of
           God
           ,
           much
           more
           should
           you
           think
           so
           of
           the
           children
           of
           God
           that
           come
           to
           you
           .
           
             I
             thank
             God
          
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           
             he
             hath
             begun
             to
             ease
             me
             .
          
           He
           will
           in
           his
           good
           time
           .
           
             God
             grant
             .
          
           Thus
           he
           took
           his
           last
           farewell
           .
           Although
           vve
           depart
           from
           our
           friends
           in
           the
           way
           ,
           yet
           vve
           shall
           meet
           at
           the
           end
           .
           One
           told
           Master
           
             Dod
          
           that
           he
           had
           uttered
           such
           words
           .
           
             Now
             the
             Lord
             hath
             made
             me
             a
             spectacle
             .
          
           Whereupon
           he
           counselled
           one
           that
           attended
           on
           him
           ,
           to
           be
           sparing
           in
           admitting
           commers
           in
           ,
           or
           speakers
           ,
           left
           his
           brain
           should
           be
           too
           much
           heated
           .
           A
           friend
           of
           his
           comming
           to
           him
           ,
           asked
           him
           ,
           Dare
           your
           murmure
           and
           repine
           against
           God
           ?
           
             Why
             should
             I
             so
             ?
          
           God
           be
           blessed
           .
           It
           is
           a
           signe
           of
           grace
           .
           
             But
             I
             have
             no
             meanes
             .
          
           You
           have
           had
           them
           offered
           .
           
             But
             not
             given
             with
             
             effect
             .
          
           They
           shall
           ,
           I
           doubt
           not
           .
           
             God
             grant
             :
             but
             I
             doe
             not
             feel
             it
             .
          
        
         
           He
           received
           a
           letter
           from
           a
           friend
           very
           respective
           ,
           
           and
           much
           respected
           of
           them
           both
           :
           wherein
           were
           written
           these
           very
           words
           :
           
             "
             I
             heard
             ,
             I
             know
             not
             hovv
             true
             ,
             that
             our
             dear
             Christian
             friend
             Mr
             
               Peacock
            
             is
             in
             great
             danger
             :
             which
             hath
             much
             greived
             and
             afflicted
             my
             heart
             ,
             and
             vvrung
             from
             me
             very
             bitter
             teares
             .
             If
             his
             extremities
             be
             such
             ,
             his
             tentations
             are
             very
             like
             to
             be
             fore
             .
             Tell
             him
             from
             me
             (
             as
             one
             vvho
             did
             ever
             ,
             with
             dearest
             intimatenes
             knovv
             and
             converse
             with
             him
             )
             that
             I
             can
             assure
             him
             in
             the
             word
             of
             life
             and
             truth
             ,
             frō
             a
             most
             just
             and
             holy
             God
             ,
             whose
             Minister
             I
             am
             ,
             That
             he
             is
             undoubtedly
             one
             of
             his
             Saints
             ,
             designed
             for
             immortality
             ,
             and
             those
             endles
             joyes
             in
             
             another
             world
             .
             "
          
           When
           it
           was
           read
           to
           him
           ;
           at
           those
           words
           I
           can
           assure
           him
           ,
           
             &c.
          
           (
           he
           said
           )
           
             Oh
             ,
             take
             heed
             ,
             take
             heed
          
           ;
           doe
           you
           think
           he
           vvould
           or
           durst
           assure
           you
           ,
           unles
           he
           knew
           on
           what
           grounds
           ?
           
             I
             did
             deceive
             my self
             ,
             now
             God
             hath
             revealed
             more
             .
          
           Another
           time
           one
           requested
           him
           ,
           that
           he
           would
           make
           his
           friends
           partakers
           of
           the
           least
           comfort
           that
           the
           Lord
           bestovved
           upon
           him
           ,
           as
           they
           had
           been
           partakers
           of
           his
           grief
           .
           
             If
             I
             had
             it
             ,
             I
             would
             willingly
             communicate
             it
             .
          
           Search
           and
           take
           notice
           of
           the
           least
           .
           
             How
             should
             I
             have
             any
             ,
             since
             God
             denyeth
             the
             means
             ?
          
           doe
           you
           think
           sense
           is
           a
           fruit
           of
           faith
           ?
           
             Yes
             ,
             at
             this
             season
             ,
          
           although
           the
           husbandman
           hath
           sown
           much
           ,
           yet
           he
           seeth
           nothing
           above
           ground
           .
           
             Applications
             doe
             not
             prove
             ,
             hold
             your
             peace
             ,
             my
             heart
             is
             broken
             .
          
           
           Then
           the
           promise
           is
           yours
           .
           I
           would
           gladly
           ask
           you
           one
           thing
           ,
           
             Now
             you
             will
             ask
             twenty
             .
          
           Doe
           you
           seek
           for
           grace
           in
           your
           heart
           ?
           
             I
             cannot
             .
          
           How
           then
           can
           you
           know
           whether
           it
           be
           there
           or
           no
           ?
           
             It
             is
             dead
             .
          
           The
           Lord
           in
           whose
           hand
           the
           disposing
           thereof
           is
           ,
           dispose
           it
           for
           your
           good
           and
           his
           glory
           .
           
             I
             thank
             you
             .
          
           What
           doe
           you
           think
           of
           that
           place
           ,
           
             Whose
             sins
             you
             remit
             ,
             they
             are
             remitted
             ,
          
           &c.
           
           
             You
             know
             how
             farre
             they
             may
             goe
             .
          
           Howsoever
           ,
           Sir
           ,
           the
           bargain
           is
           not
           now
           to
           be
           made
           between
           God
           and
           you
           .
           Shortly
           after
           came
           one
           whom
           he
           much
           esteemed
           .
           
             Oh
             I
             love
          
           (
           said
           he
           )
           
             your
             company
             ,
             for
             the
             graces
             in
             you
             ,
          
           and
           much
           more
           to
           the
           same
           purpose
           .
           Suddainly
           he
           brake
           out
           into
           this
           ejaculation
           ,
           
             Oh
             God
             ,
             reconcile
             me
             unto
             thee
             ,
             that
             I
             may
             taste
             one
             dramme
             of
             thy
             grace
             ,
             by
             
             which
             my
             miserable
             soul
             may
             receive
             comfort
             .
          
           One
           secretly
           willed
           that
           man
           to
           desire
           him
           to
           repeat
           it
           again
           .
           
             Doe
             not
             trouble
             me
             with
             repetitions
             .
          
           There
           being
           a
           sermon
           ,
           he
           bade
           them
           about
           him
           goe
           thither
           .
           After
           he
           called
           one
           ,
           and
           asked
           him
           whether
           the
           preacher
           (
           being
           acquainted
           with
           his
           course
           of
           preaching
           )
           did
           use
           his
           accustomed
           divisions
           .
           He
           told
           one
           ,
           Satan
           had
           borne
           him
           in
           hand
           ,
           and
           had
           deluded
           him
           :
           to
           whō
           the
           other
           answered
           ,
           I
           hope
           that
           God
           will
           restore
           you
           as
           before
           ,
           to
           glorify
           him
           here
           .
           
             No
             .
             No
             .
          
           Yea
           ,
           if
           you
           were
           weaker
           ,
           I
           would
           hope
           notwithstanding
           .
           
             I
             desire
             nothing
             more
             .
          
           God
           be
           thanked
           ,
           you
           have
           laboured
           carefully
           for
           his
           glory
           .
           
             I
             would
             labour
             after
             another
             fashion
             .
          
           In
           the
           night
           he
           prayed
           and
           repeated
           his
           belief
           .
           And
           after
           resting
           a
           while
           ,
           
           he
           called
           these
           that
           watched
           with
           him
           ,
           
             Bear
             witnesse
             ,
             I
             said
             not
             ,
             I
             believe
             ,
             but
             in
             generall
             ,
             and
             as
             desiring
             that
             I
             might
             believe
             .
          
           One
           comming
           to
           visit
           him
           ,
           asked
           him
           ,
           How
           is
           it
           with
           you
           ?
           
             My
             minde
             was
             grievously
             puzzled
             with
             sundry
             distractions
             this
             night
             ,
             but
             now
             I
             feel
             my
             burthen
             more
             light
             ,
             I
             thank
             God
             .
          
           He
           was
           put
           in
           minde
           of
           that
           place
           ,
           
             Isa.
          
           54.8
           ,
           11
           ,
           12
           ,
           
             &c.
             Oh
             thou
             afflicted
             and
             tossed
             with
             tempests
             ,
             and
             not
             comforted
             ;
             behold
             ,
             I
             will
             lay
             thy
             stones
             with
             faire
             colours
             ,
             and
             thy
             foundations
             with
             Saphyrs
             ;
             And
             I
             will
             make
             thy
             windowes
             of
             Agates
             ,
             and
             thy
             gates
             of
             Carbuncles
             :
             and
             all
             thy
             borders
             of
             pleasant
             stones
             ,
          
           &c.
           
           
             For
             a
             little
             while
             I
             hid
             my self
             from
             thee
             ,
             but
             with
             everlasting
             kindnes
             will
             I
             have
             mercy
             on
             thee
             .
          
           He
           lifted
           up
           his
           eyes
           :
           thereupon
           being
           asked
           what
           the
           Lord
           did
           say
           to
           his
           
           soul
           ,
           that
           had
           long
           refused
           comfort
           ?
           
             Take
             heed
             ,
             be
             not
             too
             bold
             ,
             look
             to
             the
             foundation
             .
          
           And
           then
           prayed
           .
           
             Lord
             grant
             me
             the
             comfort
             of
             thy
             deliverance
             ,
             and
             forgive
             me
             my
             foolishnes
             ,
             that
             I
             may
             praise
             thy
             name
             .
          
           Then
           he
           complained
           of
           his
           idle
           speeches
           .
           Upon
           the
           Sabbath
           day
           one
           came
           to
           him
           ,
           willing
           him
           to
           put
           his
           hand
           to
           a
           note
           of
           certain
           debts
           .
           
             This
             is
             not
             a
             day
             for
             that
             .
          
           We
           will
           goe
           to
           Sermon
           .
           
             God
             speed
             you
             .
          
           Now
           you
           cannot
           goe
           to
           Church
           to
           serve
           the
           Lord
           ,
           I
           pray
           him
           to
           come
           to
           you
           .
           
             Amen
             .
          
           He
           hardly
           suffered
           any
           to
           stay
           with
           him
           .
           At
           evening
           one
           did
           read
           something
           to
           him
           in
           Master
           
             Downams
          
           warfare
           ,
           and
           asked
           him
           ,
           doe
           you
           think
           it
           to
           be
           true
           ?
           
             Yes
             .
          
           Therefore
           you
           must
           not
           trust
           your
           sense
           :
           
             What
             not
             such
             as
             mine
             are
             ?
             But
             I
             will
             not
             now
             
             dispute
             .
          
           When
           they
           were
           helping
           him
           up
           and
           putting
           on
           his
           cloathes
           ;
           upon
           some
           occasion
           one
           said
           to
           him
           to
           this
           effect
           :
           A
           childe
           will
           not
           much
           grieve
           at
           the
           laying
           aside
           of
           an
           old
           coat
           ,
           when
           he
           hath
           a
           new
           made
           ,
           Whē
           you
           shall
           put
           on
           that
           ,
           there
           shall
           be
           no
           longer
           nakednes
           ,
           the
           resurrection
           will
           amend
           all
           .
           
             To
             those
             that
             die
             in
             the
             Lord
             .
          
           No
           doubt
           you
           will
           dye
           in
           him
           ,
           having
           lived
           in
           him
           .
           
             I
             have
             answered
             you
             before
             .
          
           But
           I
           would
           not
           believe
           you
           in
           that
           case
           .
           The
           next
           day
           a
           friend
           of
           his
           being
           to
           goe
           forth
           of
           town
           ,
           asked
           him
           ,
           whether
           he
           would
           have
           any
           thing
           with
           him
           ,
           for
           he
           was
           to
           leave
           him
           ,
           and
           knew
           not
           whether
           ever
           he
           should
           see
           him
           again
           here
           .
           
             Look
             to
             your
             calling
             ,
             that
             it
             be
             as
             well
             inward
             as
             outward
             .
          
           He
           counselled
           another
           ;
           
             To
             be
             stirring
             for
             the
             glory
             of
             God
             .
          
           
           To
           one
           standing
           by
           ,
           he
           said
           .
           
             I
             am
             thinking
             .
          
           What
           ?
           
             On
             a
             form
             to
             get
             grace
             .
          
           Put
           your
           trust
           in
           God
           .
           
             So
             I
             doe
             .
          
           I
           omit
           how
           ,
           and
           tell
           you
           that
           with
           great
           patience
           ,
           he
           continually
           submitted
           himself
           to
           advise
           in
           any
           means
           for
           his
           good
           :
           In
           putting
           his
           temporall
           estate
           in
           order
           ;
           he
           dealt
           mercifully
           with
           his
           poorest
           debtors
           ,
           yea
           ,
           with
           some
           which
           might
           well
           pay
           it
           .
           His
           worthy
           patron
           (
           for
           so
           he
           often
           called
           him
           )
           whom
           for
           honours
           sake
           I
           name
           ,
           Sir
           
             Robert
             Harley
             ,
          
           sent
           his
           man
           to
           him
           with
           some
           
             aurum
             potabile
             ,
          
           together
           with
           a
           book
           which
           a
           Doctour
           had
           made
           in
           the
           praise
           thereof
           .
           Comming
           to
           him
           ,
           and
           asking
           him
           how
           he
           did
           ,
           
             Oh
          
           (
           said
           he
           )
           
             if
             it
             would
             please
             God
             that
             I
             might
             live
             with
             him
             .
          
           Anon
           after
           he
           said
           to
           one
           ,
           
             I
             have
             been
             thinking
             of
             arguments
             by
             which
             I
             might
             
             pleade
             my
             cause
             with
             God
             ,
             and
             I
             have
             found
             :
             But
             what
             if
             dying
             thus
             ,
             I
             should
             be
             judged
             an
             Apostata
             ?
          
           Man
           is
           not
           the
           Judge
           at
           whose
           Tribunall
           you
           must
           stand
           or
           fall
           .
           There
           came
           in
           many
           of
           our
           cheif
           Fellowes
           .
           One
           of
           them
           requested
           him
           to
           make
           confession
           of
           his
           faith
           willingly
           .
           
             But
             I
             would
             think
             of
             it
             first
             .
          
           Musing
           awhile
           ,
           he
           called
           them
           .
           
             Truly
             my
             heart
             and
             soul
             have
             been
             farre
             lead
             ,
             and
             deeply
             troubled
             with
             tentations
             and
             stings
             of
             conscience
             :
             but
             I
             thank
             God
             they
             are
             eased
             in
             good
             measure
             :
             Wherefore
             I
             desire
             that
             I
             be
             not
             branded
             with
             the
             note
             of
             a
             forlorne
             or
             Reprobate
             :
             Such
             questions
             ,
             oppositions
             ,
             and
             all
             tending
             thereto
             ,
             I
             renounce
             :
             Now
             help
             me
             ,
             and
             put
             me
             in
             minde
             .
          
           What
           doe
           you
           think
           of
           your
           former
           doctrine
           ?
           
             Most
             true
             :
             In
             it
             I
             have
             lived
             ,
             and
             will
             dye
             ;
             I
             have
             not
             
             dealt
             hypocritically
             in
             it
             .
          
           Are
           you
           willing
           to
           die
           ?
           
             Truly
             I
             will
             tell
             you
             :
             my
             Patron
             who
             of
             late
             sent
             me
             potable
             gold
             ,
             hath
             taken
             order
             that
             I
             might
             live
             with
             him
             contentedly
             in
             the
             Ministery
             :
             but
             I
             submit
             my self
             to
             the
             will
             of
             God
             .
          
           Doe
           you
           desire
           the
           glory
           of
           God
           ,
           and
           the
           salvation
           of
           your
           brethren
           ?
           
             Most
             :
             Help
             my
             memory
             ,
             what
             mo●e
             ?
          
           Doe
           you
           forgive
           all
           wrongs
           ?
           
             Yes
             ,
             and
             desire
             that
             mine
             may
             be
             :
             And
             now
             I
             thank
             you
             .
             Sir
             ,
             I
             remember
             a
             thing
             wantonly
             done
             towards
             you
             ,
          
           pointing
           at
           one
           present
           .
           
             You
             sent
             me
             a
             knife
             for
             a
             new-years-gift
             ;
             and
             I
             tyed
             two
             verses
             to
             it
             ,
             and
             sent
             it
             back
             :
             I
             pray
             pardon
             me
             if
             any
             thing
             —
             For
             mine
             unconsiderate
             speeches
             in
             the
             time
             of
             my
             tentations
             ,
             I
             heartily
             and
             humbly
             ask
             forgivenes
             .
          
           You
           did
           then
           (
           saith
           one
           )
           seem
           to
           rely
           
           somewhat
           upon
           inherent
           righteousnes
           ,
           as
           if
           you
           sought
           in
           your self
           whereby
           you
           should
           be
           saved
           :
           Indeed
           we
           knew
           your
           conversation
           to
           be
           unreproveable
           :
           
             No
             I
             dare
             not
             affirm
             it
             :
             I
             trust
             in
             nothing
             but
             in
             the
             name
             of
             Iesus
             .
          
           Have
           you
           any
           certainty
           in
           him
           ?
           
             I
             would
             not
             be
             pressed
             to
             a
             particular
             assurance
             in
             this
             grievous
             agony
             .
          
           We
           desire
           you
           to
           inform
           them
           that
           shall
           come
           unto
           you
           of
           your
           estate
           .
           
             My
             unability
             is
             great
             :
          
           They
           then
           praied
           ,
           1.
           
           Giving
           God
           thanks
           ,
           that
           whereas
           before
           they
           had
           craved
           his
           mercy
           for
           his
           servant
           ,
           he
           had
           heard
           them
           ,
           and
           manifested
           to
           his
           glory
           ,
           how
           he
           never
           forsaketh
           his
           :
           And
           besought
           him
           ,
           because
           he
           knew
           the
           malice
           of
           the
           enemy
           ,
           to
           perfect
           his
           good
           work
           ,
           and
           not
           suffer
           him
           to
           be
           tempted
           above
           his
           
           strength
           .
           Now
           ,
           Sir
           ,
           we
           tell
           you
           one
           thing
           to
           your
           comfort
           ,
           We
           never
           heard
           you
           speak
           any
           thing
           against
           God
           or
           man
           ,
           thorowout
           the
           time
           of
           your
           visitation
           ,
           but
           wholly
           against
           your self
           .
           
             I
             have
             been
             bold
             thus
             to
             argue
             with
             God
             ,
             If
             he
             hath
             shewed
             mercy
             to
             such
             and
             such
             ,
             why
             should
             not
             I
             likewise
             have
             hope
             ?
          
           He
           complained
           once
           ,
           how
           ,
           while
           he
           was
           visiting
           the
           sick
           ,
           (
           In
           which
           work
           many
           poor
           souls
           found
           the
           ready
           mercifulnes
           of
           his
           heart
           ,
           and
           now
           feel
           a
           great
           want
           )
           he
           lighted
           upon
           doubts
           ;
           which
           that
           he
           might
           more
           fully
           satisfy
           ,
           when
           the
           like
           might
           be
           moved
           ,
           he
           studyed
           too
           earnestly
           .
           One
           brought
           him
           a
           note
           book
           which
           he
           had
           lent
           .
           (
           Alwayes
           willing
           to
           communicate
           what
           he
           had
           most
           private
           )
           
             Here
             is
             a
             book
          
           (
           said
           he
           )
           
             of
             great
             
             pains
             ,
          
           &c.
           
           To
           a
           stranger
           ,
           a
           worthy
           gentleman
           that
           came
           to
           visit
           him
           ,
           he
           said
           ,
           
             The
             Lord
             is
             mercifull
             to
             me
             ,
             and
             I
             have
             cause
             of
             rejoycing
             ,
          
           &c.
           
           Afterwards
           a
           reverend
           Governour
           came
           to
           him
           ,
           
           to
           whom
           he
           complained
           of
           his
           sinne
           and
           misery
           .
           You
           look
           not
           (
           said
           he
           )
           for
           any
           thing
           in
           your self
           .
           
             No
             ,
             for
             nothing
             .
          
           You
           would
           amend
           if
           you
           had
           space
           .
           
             Oh
             if
             I
             had
             —
             Certainly
          
           —
           Think
           on
           this
           .
           As
           the
           Lord
           hath
           heard
           the
           ejaculations
           and
           grones
           of
           your
           spirit
           in
           your
           infirmity
           ,
           so
           he
           will
           now
           .
           If
           he
           will
           be
           glorified
           by
           your
           life
           ,
           you
           shall
           live
           ;
           Submit
           your self
           to
           him
           ,
           let
           him
           choose
           for
           you
           .
           
             My
             faith
             is
             weak
             .
          
           All
           ,
           you
           know
           ,
           are
           here
           but
           in
           part
           ,
           you
           desire
           notwithstanding
           to
           runne
           to
           that
           which
           is
           perfect
           :
           So
           
           you
           may
           see
           how
           low
           many
           have
           been
           brought
           ,
           some
           (
           said
           he
           )
           have
           been
           Idolatours
           ,
           was
           not
           
             Manasses
          
           such
           an
           one
           ?
           
             Yes
             .
          
           And
           behold
           Gods
           servants
           from
           the
           beginning
           of
           the
           Bible
           to
           the
           end
           ,
           they
           have
           slipped
           .
           
             Lot
          
           had
           shrewd
           slips
           ,
           but
           yet
           here
           the
           testimony
           of
           the
           Apostle
           of
           him
           ;
           he
           was
           just
           and
           righteous
           .
           You
           have
           been
           wearied
           and
           heavy
           loaden
           .
           
             Yes
             .
          
           For
           such
           is
           the
           end
           of
           Christs
           comming
           :
           your
           desire
           is
           a
           token
           of
           favour
           :
           For
           by
           how
           much
           the
           neerer
           we
           come
           ,
           the
           more
           we
           thirst
           .
           Think
           now
           on
           his
           loving
           kindnes
           ;
           he
           hath
           begun
           ,
           and
           he
           will
           finish
           whom
           you
           have
           served
           .
           
             I
             did
             endeavour
             ,
             but
             vile
             imperfections
             ,
          
           &c.
           
           It
           is
           our
           greatest
           perfection
           here
           to
           see
           our
           imperfections
           .
           Shortly
           after
           came
           to
           him
           many
           young
           Gentlemen
           ,
           to
           whom
           he
           
           said
           ,
           
             Live
             in
             Gods
             fear
             ,
             that
             you
             may
             die
             in
             his
             favour
             :
             Otherwise
             the
             Oxe
             and
             the
             Asse
             will
             condemn
             you
             ;
             I
             spent
             my
             time
             foolishly
             and
             prodigally
             .
          
           You
           have
           (
           said
           one
           )
           remembred
           that
           sufficiently
           ;
           Remember
           also
           Christ
           .
           
             That
             is
             true
             ,
             Christ
             is
             to
             be
             remembred
             ,
             and
             our
             sinnes
             to
             be
             remembred
             also
             .
          
        
         
           The
           night
           following
           ,
           which
           was
           Wednesday
           night
           ,
           the
           Sun
           of
           Righteousnes
           spread
           gracious
           beams
           at
           his
           setting
           ,
           which
           were
           comfortable
           tokens
           of
           a
           glorious
           rising
           .
           His
           last
           swan-like
           song
           ,
           as
           he
           uttered
           it
           ,
           was
           pen'd
           by
           some
           as
           he
           uttered
           it
           .
           One
           comforting
           him
           by
           his
           bead-side
           some
           two
           houres
           or
           more
           before
           his
           death
           ,
           he
           brake
           out
           into
           these
           speeches
           ;
           
             Quid
             de
             salute
             mea
             sentiam
             expectatis
             ut
             explicarem
             :
             usque
             adeo
             indulget
             
             Deus
             ijs
             quos
             semel
             dilexerit
             ,
             ut
             eos
             nunquam
             deserat
             ,
             atque
             ideo
             me
             in
             coelos
             transiturum
             pro
             certo
             habeo
             :
             Felicissima
             sunt
             ea
             vincula
             in
             quae
             me
             conjecit
             Deus
             benignissimus
          
           ;
           You
           all
           expect
           that
           I
           should
           declare
           what
           I
           thinke
           of
           my
           own
           salvation
           :
           God
           is
           so
           indulgent
           to
           those
           whom
           he
           hath
           ever
           loved
           ,
           that
           he
           never
           forsakes
           them
           ,
           and
           therefore
           I
           am
           assured
           I
           shall
           goe
           to
           Heaven
           :
           Most
           happy
           are
           those
           fetters
           into
           which
           I
           was
           cast
           by
           a
           most
           mercifull
           God
           .
           One
           telling
           him
           ,
           You
           have
           fought
           a
           good
           fight
           ,
           
             &c.
          
           he
           said
           ,
           
             Expetit
             ,
             expedit
             ut
             contendam
             ad
             coelum
             ;
             Tollite
             ,
             Tollite
             ,
             Eripite
             ,
             Eripite
             ,
             ut
             coelum
             adeam
             :
             Deus
             indulget
             ingenuitati
             bonorum
             .
          
           It
           is
           requisite
           ,
           it
           is
           requisite
           that
           I
           should
           contend
           for
           Heaven
           :
           Take
           me
           up
           ,
           take
           me
           
           up
           ,
           carry
           me
           hence
           ,
           carry
           me
           hence
           ,
           that
           I
           may
           go
           to
           Heaven
           ;
           God
           doth
           cherish
           the
           ingenuity
           of
           the
           good
           .
           Being
           put
           in
           minde
           of
           Gods
           mercy
           towards
           him
           ,
           he
           made
           answer
           :
           
             Oh
             ,
             the
             sea
             is
             not
             so
             full
             of
             water
             ,
             nor
             the
             Sunne
             of
             light
             ,
             as
             God
             is
             of
             goodnes
             ,
             his
             mercy
             is
             ten
             thousand
             times
             more
             .
          
           Being
           likewise
           remembred
           of
           Gods
           goodnes
           towards
           him
           ,
           in
           filling
           his
           heart
           with
           such
           comforts
           ,
           after
           so
           great
           tentations
           ,
           he
           said
           :
           
             I
             doe
             (
             God
             be
             praised
             )
             feel
             such
             comfort
             from
             that
             :
             What
             shall
             I
             call
             it
             ?
          
           Agony
           ,
           saith
           one
           ,
           
             Nay
             ,
             that
             is
             too
             little
             :
             That
             had
             I
             five
             hundred
             worlds
             ,
             I
             could
             not
             not
             make
             satisfaction
             for
             such
             an
             issue
             .
          
           Being
           moved
           to
           lift
           up
           his
           heart
           in
           token
           of
           thankfulnesse
           unto
           his
           God
           ,
           he
           uttered
           these
           words
           :
           
             What
             ,
             shall
             I
             extoll
             the
             magnificence
             
             of
             God
             ,
             which
             is
             unspeakeable
             ,
             and
             more
             then
             any
             heart
             can
             conceive
             ?
             Nay
             rather
             let
             us
             with
             humble
             reverence
             acknowledge
             his
             great
             mercy
             :
             What
             great
             cause
             have
             I
             to
             magnify
             the
             great
             goodnes
             of
             God
             ,
             that
             hath
             humbled
             ,
             nay
             rather
             exalted
             such
             a
             wretched
             miscreant
             of
             so
             base
             condition
             to
             an
             estate
             so
             glorious
             and
             stately
             !
             The
             Lord
             hath
             honour'd
             me
             with
             his
             goodnes
             :
             I
             am
             sure
             he
             hath
             provided
             a
             glorious
             Kingdom
             for
             me
             .
             The
             joy
             that
             I
             feel
             in
             my
             heart
             is
             uncredible
             .
          
           He
           made
           likewise
           protestation
           of
           that
           which
           he
           alwayes
           before
           taught
           against
           justification
           by
           inherent
           righteousnes
           ,
           and
           appealing
           to
           the
           knowledge
           of
           some
           there
           present
           ,
           what
           he
           continually
           maintained
           ,
           in
           that
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           I
           still
           remain
           a
           Protestant
           .
           After
           three
           chapters
           read
           to
           him
           ,
           
           
             Revel.
          
           19.
           
           
             Revel.
          
           21.
           
           
             Rom.
          
           8.
           
           
             Oh
             ,
          
           (
           saith
           he
           )
           
             They
             be
             glorious
             comforts
             :
          
           Will
           you
           have
           any
           more
           read
           ?
           
             Yea
             ,
             a
             Psalm
             ,
             if
             you
             please
             ,
          
           and
           named
           the
           23.
           
           One
           beginning
           to
           read
           it
           ,
           he
           desired
           that
           it
           might
           be
           sung
           :
           One
           asking
           him
           ,
           Will
           you
           sing
           ?
           
             Yea
             ,
          
           said
           he
           ,
           
             as
             well
             as
             I
             can
             .
          
           The
           Psalm
           being
           sung
           ,
           afterwards
           the
           17.
           of
           
             Iohn
          
           was
           read
           unto
           him
           :
           One
           comforting
           him
           by
           applying
           to
           him
           that
           in
           particular
           ,
           which
           Christ
           in
           generall
           performed
           for
           the
           good
           of
           the
           faithfull
           ,
           he
           said
           ,
           
             Blessed
             be
             God
             ,
          
           very
           often
           ,
           
             I
             am
             a
             thousand
             times
             happy
             to
             have
             such
             felicity
             thrown
             upon
             me
             ,
             a
             poor
             wretched
             miscreant
             .
          
           After
           a
           little
           rest
           ,
           
             Lord
             Iesus
          
           (
           said
           he
           )
           
             unto
             thy
             hands
             :
             Lord
             receive
             my
             soul
             ,
             Lord
             lift
             thou
             up
             the
             light
             of
             thy
             countenance
             upon
             me
             ,
             and
             be
             mercifull
             unto
             me
             .
          
           
           Then
           very
           weak
           he
           repeated
           the
           Lords
           prayer
           twice
           ,
           and
           his
           Belief
           once
           very
           plainly
           ,
           and
           distinctly
           with
           a
           strong
           voice
           ,
           to
           the
           great
           admiration
           of
           the
           hearers
           :
           so
           he
           slept
           in
           the
           Lord
           .
        
         
           
             
               
                 December
              
               4.
               
               
                 Anno
              
               1611.
               
            
          
        
      
       
       
         
           The
           Post-script
           to
           the
           READER
           .
        
         
           THis
           copy
           of
           M.
           
             Boltons
             ,
          
           and
           intended
           by
           him
           for
           the
           presse
           ,
           was
           by
           M.
           
             Edward
             Bagshaw
          
           (
           overseer
           of
           M.
           
             Boltons
          
           Will
           ,
           and
           specially
           intrusted
           for
           the
           printing
           of
           it
           )
           delivered
           about
           nine
           years
           since
           to
           M.
           
             George
             Miller
             ,
          
           Printer
           of
           M.
           
             Boltons
          
           works
           ,
           to
           be
           by
           him
           printed
           ,
           as
           he
           had
           done
           his
           other
           books
           ,
           M.
           
             Miller
          
           carried
           it
           to
           the
           Licenser
           ,
           who
           kept
           it
           
           long
           in
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           ,
           and
           at
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           refused
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           precise
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           those
           times
           :
           while
           it
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           in
           the
           Licensers
           hands
           ,
           one
           M.
           
             Milburne
          
           of
           intimate
           acquaintance
           with
           him
           ,
           got
           a
           copy
           of
           it
           ,
           and
           printed
           it
           about
           five
           years
           since
           :
           but
           upon
           examination
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           transcribed
           copy
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           M.
           
             Miller
          
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           book
           ,
           and
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           before
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           thought
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           Licensed
           
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         Notes, typically marginal, from the original text
         
           Notes for div A29132e-630
           
             Dr
             
               Ayer
            
             Provost
             of
             Queens
             Colledge
             .
          
           
             *
             This
             conclusiō
             was
             tasteed
             on
             him
             before
             ,
             which
             now
             he
             ●●●fts
             off
             .
          
           
             M.
             
               Dod.
               
            
          
           
             M.
             
               Bolton
               .
            
          
           
             Dr
             
               Ayery
               .