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Christian life -- Early works to 1800. Meditations -- Early works to 1800. 2000-00 TCP Assigned for keying and markup 2001-07 SPi Global Keyed and coded from ProQuest page images 2002-07 Olivia Bottum Sampled and proofread 2002-07 Olivia Bottum Text and markup reviewed and edited 2002-08 pfs Batch review (QC) and XML conversion THE CHRISTIANS PATTERN or The Imitation of CHRIST Printed by J : R. for Iohn Williams at y e Crowne in St Paules Church yard 1677 THE Christians Pattern , OR A DIVINE TREATISE OF THE Imitation of Christ. Written Originally in Latin , by THOMAS of KEMPIS , above 200. Years since . Faithfully Englished . And Printed in a large Character for the benefit of the Aged . LONDON , Printed for Richard Wellington , at the Sign of the Lute in St. Pauls Church-Yard . 1695. The Contents of the Chapters . The First Book . CHAP. I. OF the Imitation of Christ and contempt of all worldly vanities . Pag. 1 Of the humble conceit of our selves . 3 Of the doctrine of Truth . 6 Of wisdom and providence in our actions . 10 Of the reading of holy Scriptures . 11 Of inordinate affections . 12 Of flying vain hope and pride . 13 That too much familiarity is to be shunned . 15 Of obedience and subjection . 16 Of avoiding superfluity in words . 17 Of the obtaining of peace , and zealous desire of profiting in grace . 19 Of the profit of adversity . 22 Of resisting temptations . 23 Of avoiding rash judgment . 27 Of works done of Charity . 29 Of bearing with the defects of others . 30 Of a retired life . 32 Of the examples of the holy Fathers . 34 Of the exercise of a good and religious person . 37 Of the love of solitude and silence . 41 Of compunction of heart . 46 Of the consideration of humane misery . 49 Of the meditation of death . 54 Of judgement , and the punishment of Sins . 58 Of the zealous amendment of our whole life . 63 The Second Book CHAP. I OF the inward life . 70 Of humble submission . 75 Of a good and peaceable Man. 76 Of a pure mind , and upright intention . 78 Of the consideration of ones self . 80 Of the joy of a good conscience . 82 Of the love of Iesus above all things . 84 Of familiar conversation with Iesus . 86 Of the want of all comfort . 89 Of thankfulness for the grace of God. 93 How few the lovers of the Cross os Christ are . 97 Of the high way of the holy Cross. 99 The Third Book . CHAP. I. OF the inward speech of Christ unto a faithful soul. 108 That truth speaketh inwardly without noise of words . 110 That the words of God are to be heard with humility , and that many weigh them not . 112 That we ought to live iu truth , and humility before God. 116 Of the wonderful effect of divine love . 119 Of the proof of a true Lover . 123 That grace is to be hid under the veil of humility . 126 Of a mean conceit of our selves in the sight of God. 130 That all things are to be referred unto God , as unto the last end . 132 That the world being despised , it is a sweet thing to serve God , 133 That the desires of our heart are to be examined and moderated . 137 Of Patience , and of striving against concupiscence . 139 Of the humble obedience of a subject , according to the example of Christ. 142 Of the secret judgment of God to be considered ; lest we be exalted in our good deeds . 144 How we are to stand affected , and what we are to say , in every thing which we desire . 146 That true comfort is to be sought in God alone . 149 That all our care is to be placed in God. 150 That temporal miseries , after the example of Christ , must be born patiently . 152 Of suffering of injuries ; and who is proved to be truly patient . 154 Of the acknowledging of our own infirmities ; and of the miseries of this life . 157 That we are to rest in God , above all his gifts and benefits . 160 Of the remembrance of the manifold benefits of God. 164 Of four things that bring much peace . 167 Of flying curious inquiry of the life of others . 170 Wherein the firm peace of the heart , and true spiritual profiting consisteth . 172 Of the excellency of a free mind , which humble Prayer sooner gaineth than Reading . 174 That private love most hindreth from the chiefest Good. 176 Against the tongues of slanderers . 179 How we ought to call upon God , and bless him when tribulation draweth near . 180 Of craving the divine aid , and confidence of recovering grace . 182 Of the contempt of all creatures , to find out the Creator . 186 Of denial of our selves , and forsaking all inordinate desires . 189 Of inconstancy of heart , and of directing our final intentions unto God. 191 That God is sweet , above all things , and in all things , to him that loveth . 193 That there is no security from temptation in this life . 195 Against the vain judgments of Men. 197 Of a full and pure resignation of our selves , for the obtaining freedom of heart . 199 Of good government in outward things , and of recourse to God in dangers . 202 That a Man be not over earnest in his affairs . 204 That a Man hath no good of himself , nor any thing whereof he can glory . 205 Of the contempt of all temporal honors . 208 That our peace is not to be placed in Men. 209 Against vain and secular knowledg . 211 Of not drawing outward things to our selves . 213 That credit is not to be given to all Men ; and how prone Man is to offend in words . 214 Of putting our trust in God , when evil words arise . 218 That all grievous things are to be endured for life everlasting . 221 Of the everlasting day , and shortness of this life . 224 Of the desire of everlasting life , and how great rewards are promised to those that sight valiantly . 228 How a disconsolate person ought to offer himself into the Hands of God. 233 That a Man ought to imploy himself in works of Humility , when strength is wanting for higher imployments . 238 That a Man ought to esteem himself not worthy of comfort , but rather to deserve stripes . 239 That the grace of God doth not joyn it self with those that savor of Earthly things . 242 Of the different motions of Nature , and Grace . 244 Of the corruption of Nature , and efficacy of divine Grace . 250 That we ought to deny our selves , and imitate Christ by the Cross. 254 That a Man be not too much dejected when he falleth into some defects . 257 Of not searching into high matters , and into the secret judgments of God 259 That all our hope and trust is to be fixed in God alone . 265 The Fourth Book . CHAP , I. WIth how great reverence Christ ought to be received . 270 That the great goodness and love of God is exhibited to Man in this Sacrament . 277 That it is profitable to communicate often . 281 That many benefits are bestowed upon them that communicate devoutly . 284 Of the dignity of this Sacrament , and Ministerial function , 288 An interrogation of the exercise before Communion . 290 Of the discussing of our own conscience , and purpose of amendment . 291 Of the oblation of Christ on the Cross and resignation of our selves . 294 That we ought to offer up our selves , and all that is ours unto God , and to pray for all . 296 That the holy communion is not lightly to be forborn . 299 That the body of Christ , and the holy Scriptures , are most necessary unto a faithful . soul. 304 That he who is to communicate , ought to prepare himself with great diligence . 309 That a devout soul ought to desire with her whole heart , to be united unto Christ in the Sacrament . 312 Of the fervent desire of some devout persons to receive the Body of Christ. 314 That the grace of devotian is obtained by humility and denial of our selves . 316 That we ought to manifest our necessities to Christ , and crave his grace . 319 Of fervent love and vehement desire to receive Christ. 321 That Man be not a curious searcher of the Sacrament , but an humble follower of Christ , submitting his sense to faith . 324 THE FIRST BOOK . CHAP. I. Of the Imitation of Christ , and contempt of all wordly vanities . HE that followeth me , walketh not in darkness , saith the Lord. These are the words of Christ by which we are admonished , that we ought to imitate his life and manners , if we will be truly inlightned , and be delivered from all blindness of heart . Let therefore our chiefest endeavor be to meditate upon the life of Jesus Christ. 2. The doctrine of Christ exceedeth all the doctrines of holy Men ; and he that hath the Spirit , will find therein an hidden Manna . But it falleth out , that many , who often hear the Gospel of Christ , are yet but little affected , because they are void of the Spirit of Christ. But whosoever will fully and feelingly understand the words of Christ , must endeavor to conform his life wholly to the life of Christ. 3. What will it avail thee to dispute profoundly of the Trinity , if thou be void of humility , and art thereby displeasing to the Trinity ? High words surely make a Man neither holy nor just , but a virtuous life maketh him dear to God. I had rather feel compunction , than understand the definition thereof . If thou didst know the whole Bible , and the sayings of all the Philosophers by heart , what would all that profit thee without the love of God , and without grace ? Vanity of vanities , and all is vanity , but to love God , and to serve him only . This is the highest wisdom , by contempt of the world to tend towards the Kingdom of Heaven . 4. It is therefore vanity to seek after perishing riches , and to trust in them . It is also vanity to hunt after honors , and to climb to high degree . It is vanity to follow the desires of the flesh , and to labor for that , for which thou mayest afterwards suffer more grievous punishment . Vanity it is to wish to live long , and to be careless to live well . It is vanity to mind only this present life , and not to foresee those things which are to come , It is vanity to set thy love on that which speedily passeth away , and not to hasten thither , where everlasting joy is permanent . 5. Call often to mind that Proverb , That the eye is not satisfied with seeing , nor the ear filled with hearing . Endeavor therefore to withdraw thy heart from the love of visible things , and to turn thy self to the invisible . For they that follow their sensuality , do stain their own consciences , and loose the favor of God. CHAP. II. Of the humble conceit of our selves . ALL Men naturally desire to know ; but what availeth knowledg without the fear of God ? Surely , an humble Husbandman that serveth God , is better than a proud Philosopher that neglecting himself laboreth to understand the course of the heavens . Who so knoweth himself well , groweth more mean in his own conceit , and delighteth not in the praises of Men. If I understood all things in the world , and were not in charity , what would that help me in the sight of God , who will judg me according to my deeds ? 2. Cease from an inordinate desire of knowing , for therein is much distraction and deceit . The learned are willing to seem so to others , and to be accounted wise . There be many things , which to know doth little or nothing profit the soul ; and he is very unwise , that is intent upon other things than those that may avail him for the welfare of his soul. Many words do not satisfie the soul ; but a good life comforteth the mind , and a pure conscience giveth great assurance in the sight of God. 3. How much the more thou knowest , and how much the better thou understandest , so much the more grievously shalt thou therefore be judged , unless thy life be also more holy . Be not therefore extolled in thine own mind for any Art or Science which thou knowest , but rather let the knowledg given thee , make thee more humble , and cautious . If thou thinkest that thou understandest and knowest much ; know also that there be many things more which thou knowest not . Affect not to be overwise , but rather acknowledg thine own ignorance . Why wilt thou prefer thy self before others , sith there be many more learned and skilful in the Scripture than thou ? If thou wilt know or learn any thing profitably ; desire to be unknown , and to be little esteemed of by Man. 4. The highest and most profitable reading is the true knowledg and consideration of our selves . It is great wisdom and perfection to esteem nothing of our selves , and to think always well and highly of others . If thou shouldst see another openly sin , or commit some hainous offence , yet oughtest thou not to esteem the better of thy self ; for thou knowest not how long thou shalt be able to remain in good estate . We are all frail , but thou oughtest to esteem none more frail than thy self . CHAP. III. Of the doctrine of truth . HAppy is he whom Truth by it self doth teach , not by figures and words that pass away ; but as it is in its self . Our own opinion and our own sense do often deceive us , and it discerns little . What availeth it to cavil and dispute about dark and hidden things ; whereas for being ignorant of them we shall not be so much as reproved at the day of judgment ? It is a great folly to neglect the things that are profitable and necessary , and give our minds to that which is curious and hurtful : we have eyes and see not . 2. And what have we to do with Genus and Species , the dry notions of Logicians ? He to whom the Eternal Word speaketh , is delivered from a world of unnecessary conceptions . From that one Word are all things , and all speak that one ; and this is the Beginning , which also speaketh unto us . No Man without that Word understandeth or judgeth rightly . He to whom all things are one , he who reduceth all things to one , and seeth all things in one ; may enjoy a quiet mind , and remain peaceable in God. O God , who art the Truth , make me one with thee in everlasting charity . It is tedious to me often to read and hear many things : In thee is all that I would have and can desire . Let all Doctors hold their peace ; let all creatures be silent in thy sight ; Speak thou alone unto me . 3. How much the more one is united within himself , and becometh inwardly simple and pure , so much the more and higher things doth he understand without labor ; for that he receiveth intellectual light from above . A pure , sincere , and stable Spirit is not distracted , though it be employed in many works ; for that , it works all to the honor of God , and inwardly being still and quiet , seeks not it self in any thing it doth . Who hinders and troubles thee more than the unmortified affections of thine own heart ? A good and godly Man first of all disposeth within himself those things which he is outwardly to act ; neither do they draw him to the desires of an inordinate inclination , but he ordereth them according to the prescript of right reason . Who hath a greater combat , than he that laboreth to overcome himself ? This ought to be our endeavor , to conquer our selves , and daily to wax stronger and to make a further growth in holiness . 4. All perfection in this life hath some imperfection mixt with it ; and no knowledg of ours is without some darkness . An humble knowledg of thy self is a surer way to God , than a deep search after learning ; yet learning is not to be blamed , nor the mere knowledg of any thing whatsoever , to be disliked , it being good in it self , and ordained by God ; but a good conscience and a vertuous life is always to be preferred before it . But because many endeavor rather to get knowledg , than to live well ; therefore they are often deceived , and reap either none , or very slender profit of their labors . 5. O , if Men bestowed as much labor in the rooting out of vices , and planting of vertues , as they do in moving of questions ! Neither would there so much hurt be done , nor so great scandal be given in the world ; nor so much looseness be practised in religious Houses . Truly , at the day of Judgment we shall not be examined what we have read , but what we have done ; not how well we have spoken , but how religiously we have lived . Tell me now , where are all those Doctors and Masters , with whom thou wast well acquainted , whilst they lived and flourished in learning ? Now others possess their livings , and perhaps do scarce ever think of them . In their life-time they seemed something , but now they are not spoken of . 6. O , how quickly doth the glory of the world pass away ! O that their life had been answerable to their learning ! then had their study and reading been to good purpose . How many perish in this world by reason of vain-learning , who take little care of the serving of God : And because they rather choose to be great than humble , therefore they become vain in their imaginations . He is truly great that is great in charity . He is truly great , that is little in himself , and that maketh no account of any height of honor . He is truly wise , that accounteth all earthly things as dung , that he may gain Christ. And he is truly learned , that doeth the will of God , and forsaketh his own will. CHAP. IV. Of wisdom and providence in our actions . WE must not give ear to every saying or suggestion , but ought warily and leisurely to ponder things according to the will of God. But ( alas ) such is our weakness that we rather often believe , and speak evil of others than good . Those that are perfect Men do not easily give credit to every thing one tells them ; for they know that humane frailty is prone to evil , and very subject to fail in words . 2. It is great wisdom not to be rash in thy proceedings , nor to stand stiffely in thine own conceits ; as also not to believe every thing which thou hearest , nor presently to relate again to others , what thou hast heard or dost believe . Consult with him that is wise , and conscientious , and seek to be instructed by a better than thy self , rather than to follow thine own inventions . A good life maketh a Man wise according to God , and giveth him experience in many things . How much the humbler one is in himself , and more subject and resigned unto God ; so much the more prudent shall he be in all his affairs , and enjoy greater peace and quiet of heart . CHAP. V. Of the reading of holy Scriptures . TRuth , not eloquence , is to be sought for in holy Scripture . Each part of the Scripture is to be read with the same Spirit wherewith it was written . We should rather search after our spiritual profit in the Scriptures , than subtilty of speech . We ought to read plain and devout books as willingly as high and profound . Let not the authority of the Writer offend thee , whether he be of great or small learning ; but let the love of pure truth draw thee to read . Search not who spake this or that , but mark what is spoken . 2. Men pass away , but the truth of the Lord remaineth for ever . God speaks unto us sundry ways , without respect of persons . Our own curiosity often hindreth us in reading of the Scriptures , when as we will examine and discuss that which we should rather pass over without more ado . If thou desire to reap profit , read humbly , plainly , and faithfully ; never desire the estimation of learning ; Inquire willingly , and hear with silence the words of holy Men : dislike not the parables of the Elders , for they are not recounted without cause . CHAP. VI. Of inordinate affections . WHensoever a Man desireth any thing inordinately , he is presently disquieted in himself . The proud and covetous can never rest . The poor and humble in Spirit live together in all peace . The Man that is not yet perfectly dead to himself , is quickly tempted and overcome in small and trifling things . The weak in Spirit , and he that is yet in a manner carnal and prone to sensible things , can hardly withdraw himself altogether from earthly desires . And therefore he is often afflicted , when he goeth about to withdraw himself from them ; and easily falleth into indignation , when any opposition is made against him . 2. And if he hath followed therein his appetite , he is presently disquieted with remorse of conscience ; for that he yielded to his passion which profiteth him nothing to the obtaining of the peace he sought for . True quietness of heart therefore is gotten by resisting our passions , not by obeying them . There is no peace in the heart of a carnal Man , nor of him that is addicted to outward things , but in the spiritual and fervent Man. CHAP. VII . Of flying vain hope and pride . HE is vain that putteth his trust in Man , or Creatures . Be not ashamed to serve others for the love of Jesus Christ ; nor to be esteemed poor in this world . Presume not upon thy self , but place thy hope in God. Do what lieth in thy power , and God will assist thy good affection . Trust not in thine own knowledg , nor in the subtilty of any living Creature ; but rather in the grace of God , who helpeth the humble , and humbleth those that are self-presuming . 2. Glory not in wealth if thou have it , nor in friends because potent ; but in God who giveth all things , and above all desireth to give thee himself . Extol not thy self for the bigness or beauty of thy body , which is dissolved and disfigured with a little sickness . Take not pleasure in thy natural gifts , or wit , lest thereby thou displease God , to whom appertaineth all the good whatsoever thou hast by nature . 3. Esteem not thy self better than others , lest perhaps in the sight of God , who knoweth what is in Man , thou be accounted worse than they . Be not proud of wel-doing ; for the judgment of God is far different from the judgment of Men , and that often offendeth him which pleaseth them . If there be any good in thee , believe that there is much more in others , that so thou mayest conserve humility within thee . It is no prejudice unto thee to debase thy self under all Men ; but it is very prejudicial to thee to prefer thy self before any one Man. The humble enjoy continual peace , but in the heart of the proud is envy , and frequent indignation . CHAP. VIII . That too much familiarity is to be shunned . LAy not thy heart open to every one ; but treat of thy affairs with the wise and such as fear God. Converse not much with young people , and strangers . Flatter not the rich ; neither do thou appear willingly before great personages . Keep company with the humble and plain ones , with the devout , and vertuous ; and confer with them of those things that may edifie . Be not familiar with any Woman ; but in general commend all good Women to God. Desire to be familiar with God alone and his Angels , and fly the knowledg of Men. 2. We must have charity towards all , but familiarity with all is not expedient . Sometimes it falleth out , that a Person unknown to us , is much esteemed of , from the good report given him by others ; whose presence notwithstanding is not grateful to the eyes of the beholders . We think sometimes to please others by our company , and we rather distaste them with those bad qualities which they discover in us . CHAP. IX . Of obedience and subjection . IT is a great matter to live in obedience , to be under a superior , and not to be at our own disposing . It is much safer to obey , than to govern . Many live under obedience , rather for necessity than for charity ; such are discontented , and do easily repine and murmur . Neither can they attain to freedom of mind , unless they willingly and heartily put themselves under obedience for the love of God. Go whither thou wilt , thou shalt find no rest , but in humble subjection under the government of a Superior . The imagination and change of places have deceived many . 2. True it is , that every one willingly doth that which agreeth with his own sense and liking ; and is apt to affect those most that are of his own mind : But if God be amongst us , we must sometimes for peace sake cease to adhere to our own opinion . Who is so wise that he can fully know all things ; Trust not therefore to thine own opinion ; but be willing to hear the judgment of others . If that which thou thinkest be not amiss , and yet thou submittest it for God , and followest the opinion of another , it shall be better for thee . 3. I have often heard , that it is safer to hear and take counsel , than to give it . It may also fall out , that each ones opinion may be good ; but to refuse to yield to others when as reason or cause requireth it , is a sign of pride and stiffness . CHAP. X. Of the avoiding superfluity in words . FLy the tumultuousness of the world as much as thou canst ; for the talk of worldly affairs hindreth very much , although they be recounted with sincere intention ; for we are quickly defiled , and enthralled with vanity . I could wish that I had oftentimes held my peace , when I have spoken ; and that I had not been in company . Why do we so willingly speak and talk one with another , when notwithstanding we seldom return to silence without hurt of conscience ? The cause why we so willingly talk , is for that by discoursing one with another , we seek to receive comfort one of another , and desire to ease our mind overwearied with sundry thoughts ; and we very willingly talk and think of those things which we most love and desire ; or of those which we feel most contrary and troublesom unto us . 2. But alas , oftentimes in vain , and to no end ; for this outward comfort is the cause of no small loss of inward and divine consolation . Therefore we must watch and pray , lest our time pass away idlely . If it be lawful and expedient for thee to speak , speak those things that may edifie . An evil custom and neglect of our own good doth give too much liberty to inconsiderate speech : Yet religious discourses of spiritual things do greatly further our spiritual growth , especially where persons of one mind and spirit be gathered together in God. CHAP. XI . Of the obtaining of peace , and zealous desire of profit in grace . WE might enjoy much peace , if we would not busie our selves with the words and deeds of other Men , which appertain nothing to our charge . How can he live long in peace , that thrusteth himself into the cares of others , that seeks occasions abroad , that little or seldom recollecteth himself within his own breast ? Blessed are the single-hearted ; for they shall injoy much peace . 2. What is the reason , why some of the Saints were so perfect and contemplative ? Because they labored to mortifie themselves wholly to all earthly desires ; and therefore they could with their whole heart give themselves to God , and be free for holy retirement . We are too much led by our passions , and too solicitous for transitory things . We also seldom overcome any one vice perfectly , and are not inflamed with a fervent desire to grow better every day ; and therefore we remain cold and scarce warm in Religion . 3. If we were perfectly dead unto our selves , and not entangled within our own breasts ; then should we tast divine things , and have some acquaintance with heavenly enjoyments . The greatest and indeed the whole impediment is , for that we are not disentangled from our passions and lusts , neither do we endeavor to enter into that path of perfection , which the Saints have walked before us ; and when any small adversity befalleth us , we are too quickly dejected , and turn our selves to humane comforts . 4. If we would endeavor like Men of courage to stand in the battel ; surely we should feel the favorable assistance of God from Heaven . For he who giveth us occasion to fight , to the end we may get the victory , is ready to succor those that fight manfully , and do trust in his grace . If we esteem our progress in religious life to confist only in some exterior observances , our devotion will quickly be at an end . But let us lay the Axe to the root , that being freed from passions , we may find rest to our souls . 5. If every year we would root out one vice , we should sooner become perfect Men. But now oftentimes we perceive it goes contrary , and that we were better and purer at the beginning of our conversion , than after many years of our profession . Our fervor and profiting should increase daily ; but now it is accounted a great matter , if one can retain but some part of his first zeal . If we would but a little force our selves at the beginning , then should we be able to perform all things afterwards with ease and delight . 6. It is a hard matter to leave that to which we are accustomed , but harder to go against our own wills . But if thou dost not overcome little and easie things , how wilt thou overcome harder things ? Resist thy inclinatiou in the very beginning , and unlearn evil customes , lest perhaps by little and little they draw thee to greater difficulty . O , if thou didst but consider how much inward peace unto thy self , and joy unto others thou shouldst procure by demeaning thy self well , I suppose thou wouldst be more careful of thy spiritual profiting . CHAP. XII . Of the profit of adversity . IT is good that we have sometimes some troubles and crosses ; for they often make a Man enter into himself , and consider that he is here in banishment , and ought not to place his trust in any worldly thing . It is good that we be sometimes contradicted ; and that there be an evil or a lessening conceit had of us ; and this , although we do and intend well . These things help often to the attaining of humility , and defend us from vain glory ; for then we chiefly seek God for our inward witness , when outwardly we be contemned by Men , and when there is no credit given unto us . 2. And therefore a Man should settle himself so fully in God , that he need not to seek many comforts of Men. When a good Man is afflicted , tempted , or troubled with evil thoughts ; then he understandeth better the great need he hath of God , without whom he perceiveth he can do nothing that is good . Then also he sorroweth , lamenteth , and prayeth by reason of the miseries he suffereth . Then he is weary of living longer , and wisheth that death would come , that he might be dissolved and be with Christ. Then also he well perceiveth , that perfect security and full peace cannot be had in this world . CHAP. XIII . Of resisting temptations . SO long as we live in this world we cannot be without tribulation and temptation ; for as it is written in Iob , The life of Man is a warfare upon earth . Every one therefore ought to be careful about his temptations , and to watch in prayer , lest the Devil find an advantage to deceive him ; who never sleepeth , but goeth about seeking whom he may devour . No Man is so perfect and holy , but hath sometimes temptations ; and we cannot be altogether without them . 2. Temptations are often profitable to Men , though they be troublesome and grievous ; for in them Man is humbled , purged , and instructed . All the Saints have passed and profited through many tribulations and temptations ; and they that could not bear temptations , became reprobate , and fell away . There is no order so holy , nor place so secret , where there be not temptations , or adversities . 3. There is no Man that is altogether free from temptations whilst he liveth on earth ; for in our selves is the root thereof , being born with inclination to evil . When one temptation or tribulation goeth away , another cometh , and we shall ever have something to suffer , because we are fallen from the state of our felicity . Many seek to flie temptations , and do fall more grievously into them . By flight alone we cannot overcome , but by patience and true humility we become stronger than all our enemies . 4. He that only avoideth them outwardly , and doth not pluck them up by the roots , shall profit little ; yea temptations will the sooner return unto him , and he shall feel himself in a worse case than before . By little and little , and by patience with longanimity ( through Gods help ) thou shalt more easily overcome , than with violence and thine own importunity . Often take counsel in temptations , and deal not roughly with him that is tempted ; but give him comfort as thou wouldst wish to be done to thy self . 5. The beginning of all evil temptations is inconstancy of mind , and little confidence in God. For as a Ship without a stern is tossed to and fro with the waves ; so the Man that is negligent , and leaveth his purpose is many ways tempted . Fire trieth Iron , and temptation a just Man. We know not oftentimes what we are able to do , but temptations do shew us what we are . We must be watchful , especially in the beginning of the temptation ; for the enemy is then more easily overcome , if he be not suffered to enter the door of our hearts , but be resisted without the gate at his first knock . Wherefore one said , Obsta principiis , &c. Withstand the beginnings , for an after-remedy comes often too late . First there cometh to the mind a bare cogitation of evil , then a strong imagination thereof , afterward delight and an evil motion , and then consent ; and so by little and little our wicked enemy getteth entrance , whilst he is not resisted in the beginning . And how much the longer one is negligent in resisting , he becomes daily so much the weaker in himself , and the enemy stronger against him . 6. Some suffer greatest temptations in the beginning of their conversion ; others in the latter end ; others again are much troubled almost through the whole time of their life . Some are but easily tempted according to the wisdom and equity of the divine appointment , which weigheth the states and deserts of Men , and ordaineth all things for the welfare of his chosen ones . 7. We ought not therefore to despair when we are tempted , but so much the more fervently to pray unto God , that he will vouchsafe to help us in all tribulations ; who surely , according to the words of St. Paul , will give with the temptation such issue , that we may be able to bear it . Let us therefore humble our selves under the hand of God in all temptations and tribulations , for he will save and exalt the humble in spirit . 8. In temptations and afflictions , Man is proved how much he hath profited ; and his reward is thereby the greater , and his graces do more eminently shine forth . Neither is it any such great thing if a Man be devout and fervent , when he feeleth no affliction ; but if in time of adversity he bear himself patiently , there is hope then of great proficiency in grace . Some are kept from great temptations , and are often overcome in small ones which do daily occur ; to the end that being humbled , they may never presume on themselves in great matters , who are baffled in so small things . CHAP. XIV . Of avoiding rash judgment . TUrn thine eyes unto thy self , and beware thou judg not the deeds of other Men. In judging of others a Man laboreth in vain , often erreth , and easily sinneth ; but in judging and discussing of himself , he always laboreth fruitfully . We often judg of things according as we fancy them ; for private affection bereaves us easily of true judgment . If God were always the pure intention of our desire , we should not be so much troubled , through the repugnance of our carnal mind . 2. But oftentimes something lurketh within , or else occurreth from without , which draweth us after it . Many secretly seek themselves in their actions , and know it not . They seem also to live in good peace of mind , when things are done according to their will and opinion ; but if things succeed otherwise than they desire , they are straightways troubled and much afflicted . The diversities of judgments and opinions , cause oftentimes dissentions between religious and devout Persons , between Friends and Countrymen . 3. An old custom is hardly broken , and no Man is willing to be led further than himself can see . If thou dost more rely upon thine own reason or industry , than upon that power which brings thee under the obedience of Jesus Christ , it will be long before thou become illuminated ; for God will have us perfectly subject unto him and that being enflamed with his love , we transcend the narrow limits of humane reason . CHAP. XV. Of works done of Charity . FOr no worldly thing , nor for the love of any Man , is any evil to be done ; but yet , for the profit of one that standeth in need , a good work is sometimes to be intermitted without any scruple , or changed also for a better . For by doing this , a good work is not lost , but changed into a better . The exterior work without charity profiteth nothing ; but whatsoever is done of charity , be it never so little and contemptible in the sight of the world , it becomes wholly fruitful . For God weigheth more with how much love one worketh , than how much he doeth . He doeth much , that loveth much . 2. He doeth much , that doeth a thing well ; he doeth well that rather serveth the community , than his own proper will. Oftentimes it seemeth to be charity , and it is rather carnality ; because natural inclination , self-will , hope of reward , and desire of our own interest will seldom be away . 3. He that hath true and perfect charity , seeketh himself in nothing ; but only desireth in all things that the glory of God should be exalted . He also envieth none ; because he affecteth no private good ; neither will he rejoyce in himself ? but wisheth above all things to be made happy in the enjoyment of God. He attributeth nothing that is good to any Man , but wholly referreth it unto God , from whom as from the fountain all things proceed ; in whom finally all the Saints do rest as in their highest fruition . O , he that had but one spark of true charity , would certainly discern that all earthly things be full of vanity . CHAP. XVI . Of bearing with the defects of others . THose things that a Man cannot amend in himself or in others , he ought to suffer patiently , until God order things otherwise . Think that perhaps it is better so for thy trial and patience , without which all our good deeds are not much to be esteemed . Thou oughtest to pray notwithstanding when thou hast such impediments , that God would vouchsafe to help thee , and that thou mayest bear them patiently . 2. If one that is once or twice warned will not give over , contend not with him : but commit all to God , that his will may be fulfilled , and his name honored in all his servants , who well knoweth how to turn evil into good . Endeavor to be patient in bearing with the defects and infirmities of others , of what sort soever they be ; for that thy self also hast many things which must be suffered by others . If thou canst not make thy self such an one as thou wouldst , how canst thou expect to have another in all things to thy liking ; We would willingly have others perfect , and yet we amend not our own faults . 3. We will have others severely corrected , and will not be corrected our selves . The large liberty of others displeaseth us ; and yet we will not have our desires denied us . We will have others kept under by strict laws ; but in no sort will our selves be restrained . And thus it appeareth , how seldom we weigh our neighbor in the same ballance with our selves . If all Men were perfect , what should we have to suffer of our neighbor for God ? 4. But now God hath thus ordered it , that we may learn to bear one anothers burden ; for no Man is without fault , no Man but hath his burden , no Man sufficient of himself , no Man wise enough of himself ; but we ought to bear with one another , comfort one another , help , instruct , and admonish one another . Occasions of adversity best discover how great virtue or strength each one hath ; for occasions make not a Man frail , but do shew what he is . CHAP. XVII . Of a retired life . THou must learn to break thy own will in many things , if thou wilt have peace and concord with others . It is no small matter to dwell in a religious community , and to converse therein without complaint , and to persevere therein faithfully until death . Blessed is he that hath there lived well , and ended happily . If thou wilt persevere in grace as thou oughtest , and profit in virtue , esteem thy self as a banished Man , and a pilgrim upon earth . Thou must be contented for Christs sake to be esteemed as a fool in this world , if thou desire to lead an holy life . 2. The wearing of a religious habit , and shaving of the crown , do little profit ; but change of manners , and perfect mortification of passions , make a true religious Man. He that seeketh any thing else but God , and the salvation of his soul , shall find nothing but tribulation and sorrow . Neither can he remain long in peace , that laboreth not to be the least , and subject to all . 3. Thou camest to serve , not to rule . Know that thou wast called to suffer and to labor , not to be idle , or to spend thy time in talk . Here therefore Men are proved as gold in the furnace . Here no Man can stand , unless he humble himself with his whole heart for the love of God. CHAP. XVIII . Of the examples of the holy Fathers . COnsider the lively examples of the holy Fathers , in whom true perfection and religion shined ; and thou shalt see how little it is , and almost nothing , which we do now in these days . Alas , what is our life if it be compared to them ! The Saints and Friends of Christ served the Lord in hunger and thirst , in cold and nakedness , in labor and weariness , in watchings and fastings , in prayer and holy meditations , in persecutions and many reproaches . 2. O how many and grievous tribulations suffered the Apostles , Martyrs , Confessors , Virgins , and all the rest that endeavored to follow the steps of Christ ! They hated their lives in this world , that they might possess their souls in everlasting life . O how strict and self-renouncing a life , led those holy Fathers in the wilderness ! How long and grievous tentations suffered they ! How often were they assaulted by the enemy ! What frequent and fervent prayers offered they to God! How rigorous an abstinence did they daily use ! How great zeal and care had they of their spiritual proficiency ! How strong a combat had they for the overcoming of their lusts ! How pure and upright intentions kept they unto God! In the day they labored , and in the night they attended to continual prayer ; although when they labored also , they ceased not from mental prayer . 3. They spent all their time with profit ; every hour seemed short for the service of God ; and by reason of the great sweetness they felt in contemplation , they forgot the necessity of corporal refreshments . They renounced all riches , dignities , honors , friends , and kinsfolk ; they desired to have nothing which appertained to the world ; they scarce took things necessary for the sustenance of life ; they grieved to serve their bodies even in necessity . They were poor in earthly things , but very rich in grace and virtues . Outwardly they wanted , but inwardly they were refreshed with grace and divine consolation . 4. They were strangers to the world , but near and familiar friends to God. They seemed to themselves as nothing , and despicable to this present world ; but they were precious and beloved in the eyes of God. They were grounded in true humility , lived in simple obedience , walked in love and patience : and therefore they profited daily in spirit , and obtained great grace in Gods sight . They were given for an example to all religious Men ; and they should more provoke us to endeavor after spiritual proficiencies , than the number of the luke-warm livers should prevail to make us remiss . 5. O how great was the fervor of all religious persons in the beginning of their holy institution ! How great was their devotion to prayer ! What ambition to excel others in virtue ! How exact discipline then flourished ! How great reverence and obedience , under the rule of their Superiors , observed they in all things ! Their footsteps yet remaining , do testifie that they were indeed holy and perfect Men ; who fighting so valiantly trodd the world under their feet . Now he is greatly accounted of , that transgresseth not , and that can with patience endure that which he hath undertaken . 6 O the coldness and negligence of our times ! that we so quickly decline from our first fervor , and are come to that pass , that very sloth and coldness of spirit maketh our own life tedious unto us . Would to God the desire to profit in virtue did not wholly sleep in thee , who hast often seen the many examples of devout and religious persons . CHAP. XIX . Of the exercise of a good and religious person . THe life of a good and religious person ought to be adorned with all virtues ; that he may inwardly be such as outwardly he seemeth to Men. And with reason thou oughtest to be much more within , than is perceived without . For God beholdeth us , whom we ought most highly to reverence wheresoever we are , and walk in purity like Angels in his sight . Daily should we renew our purposes , and stir up our selves to fervor , as though this were the first day of our conversion ; and to say , Help me my God in this my good purpose , and in thy holy service ; and grant that I may now this day begin perfectly ; for that which I have done hitherto is nothing . 2. According to our purpose shall be the success of our spiritual profiting ; and much diligence is necessary to him that will profit much . And if he that firmly purposeth often faileth , what shall he do that seldom purposeth any thing , or with little resolvedness : It may fall our sundry ways that we leave off our purpose ; and the light omission of spiritual exercises seldom passes without some loss to our souls . The purpose of just Men depends upon Gods grace , and not upon their own wisdom ; upon whom they always rely for whatsoever they take in hand . For Man doth purpose , but God doth dispose ; neither is the way of Man in himself . 3. If an accustomed exercise be sometimes omitted , either for some act of piety , or profit to my brother ; it may easily afterwards be recovered again . But if out of a slothful mind , or out of carelesness we lightly forsake the same , it is a great offence against God , and will be found to be prejudicial to our selves . Let us do the best we can , we shall easily fail in many things ; yet must we always purpose some certain course , and especially against those vices which do most of all molest us . We must diligently search into , and set in order both the outward and the inward Man , because both of them are expedient to our coming forward in godliness . 4. If thou canst not continually recollect thy self , yet do it sometimes , at the least once a day , to wit , at morning or at night . In the morning fix thy good purpose ; and at night examine thy self what thou hast done , how thou hast behaved thy self in thought , word , and deed ; for in these perhaps thou hast often offended both God and thy neighbor . Gird thy loyns like a Man against the vile assaults of the Devil ; bridle thy riotous appetite , and thou shalt be the better able to keep under all the unruly motions of the flesh . Be thou at no time idle altogether , but either reading , or writing , or praying , or meditating , or endeavoring something for the publick good . As for bodily exercises they must be used with great discretion , neither are they to be practised of all Men alike . 5. The exercises that are not common are not to be exposed to publick view ; for things private are practised more safely at home . Nevertheless thou must beware thou neglect not that which is common , and be more ready for what is private . But having fully and faithfully accomplished all thou art bound and enjoyned to do , if thou hast any spare time , betake thee to thy self , as thy devotion shall require . All cannot use one kind of exercise , but one is more convenient for this person , another for that ; according to the seasonableness of times also , divers exercises are fitting . Some sute better with us on working days , other on holy days ; some we have need of in the time of temptation , and of others in time of peace and quietness . Some we mind when we are pensive , and other some when we rejoyce in the Lord. 9. When chief Festivals draw near , good exercises are to be renewed , and the prayers of holy Men more fervently to be implored . From feast to feast we should make some good purpose , as though we were then to depart out of this world , and to come to the everlasting feast in Heaven . Therefore ought we carefully to prepare our selves at holy times , and to live more devoutly , and to keep more exactly all things that we are to observe , as though we were shortly at Gods hands to receive the reward of our labors . 7. But if it be deferred , let us think with our selves that we are not sufficiently prepared , and unworthy yet of so great glory which shall be revealed in us in due time ; and let us endeavor to prepare our selves better for our departure . Blessed is that servant ( saith St. Luke the Evangelist ) whom when his Lord cometh he shall find watching : Verily I say unto you , he shall make him ruler over all his goods . CHAP. XX. Of the love of solitude and silence . SEek a convenient time to retire into thy self , and meditate often upon Gods benefits . Meddle not with curiosities ; but read such things which may rather yield compunction to thy heart , than busy thy head . If thou wilt withdraw thy self from speaking vainly and from gadding idlely , as also from harkening after novelties and rumors , thou shalt find leisure sufficient and convenient enough to meditate on good things . The greatest Saints avoided the society of Men , when they could conveniently , and did rather choose to serve God , and to live to God , in secret . 2. One said , As oft as I have been among Men , I returned home less a Man than I was before ; and this we find true , when we talk long together . It is easier not to speak a word at all , than not to speak more words than we should : It is easier for a Man to keep home than to keep himself well when he is abroad . He therefore that intends to attain to the more inward and spiritual things of Religion , must with Jesus depart from the multitude and press of people . No Man safely doth go abroad , but he which gladly can abide at home ; no Man speaks securely , but he that holds his peace willingly . No Man ruleth safely , but he that is ruled willingly ; no Man securely doth command , but he that hath learned readily to obey , 3. No Man rejoyceth securely , unless he hath within him the testimony of a good conscience ; and yet the security of the Saints was always full of the fear of God. Neither were they less careful and humble in themselves , for that they shined outwardly with grace and great virtues . But the security of the wicked riseth out of pride and presumption , and in the end it deceiveth them . Although thou seem to be a good religious Man , or a devout Hermite , yet promise not thy self security in this life . 4. Oftentimes those have fallen into greatest danger by overmuch self-confidence , who have been in greatest esteem and account amongst Men. Wherefore it is more profitable to many not to be altogether free from temptations , but to be often assaulted , lest they should be too secure , and so perhaps be puffed up with pride ; or too freely give themselves to worldly comforts . O how good a conscience should he keep , that would never seek after transitory joy , nor entangle himself with the things of this world ! O how great peace and quietness should he possess , that would cut off all vain sollicitude , and think only upon divine things , and such as are profitable for his soul , and would place all his confidence in God! 5. No Man is worthy of heavenly comfort , unless he have diligently exercised himself in holy compunction . If thou desirest true contrition of heart , enter into thy closet , and shut out the tumults of the world , as it is written , In your chambers be ye grieved . In thy closet thou shalt find what abroad thou shalt often lose ; the more thou visitest thy closet , the more thou wilt like it ; the less thou comest thereunto , the more thou wilt loth it . If in the beginning of thy amendment thou art content to remain in it , and keep it well , it will afterwards be to thee a dear friend , and a most pleasant comfort . 6. In silence and in stillness a religious soul advantageth her self and learneth the mysteries of holy Scripture . There she findeth rivers of tears , wherein she may every night wash and cleanse her self ; that she may be so much the more familiar with her Creator , by how much the further off she liveth from all worldly disquiet . Who so therefore withdraweth himself from his acquaintance and friends , God with his holy Angels will draw near unto him . It is better for a Man to live privately and to have regard to himself , than to neglect his soul , though he could work wonders in the world . It is very commendable in a religious person ; seldom to go abroad , and to be unwilling to see others . 7. Why art thou desirous to see that which is unlawful for thee to enjoy ? For the world passeth away and the lusts thereof . Our sensual desires draw us to rove abroad ; but when the time is past , what carriest thou home with thee but a burdened conscience and distracted heart ? A merry going out bringeth commonly a mournful return home ; and a joyful evening makes many times a sad morning . So all carnal joy enters gently , but in the end it bites and stings to death . What canst thou see elsewhere , which thou canst not see here ? Behold the Heaven and the Earth and all the Elements ; for of these are all things created . 8. What canst thou see any where that can long continue under the Sun ? Thou thinkest perchance to satiate thy self , but thou canst never attain it . Shouldst thou see all things present before thine eyes , what were it but a vain and unprofitable sight ? Lift up thine eyes to God in the highest , and pray him to pardon all thy sins and negligencies . Leave vain things to the vain , but be thou intent upon those things which God commandeth thee . Shut thy door upon thee , and call unto thee Jesus thy beloved . Stay with him in thy closet ; for thou shalt not find so great peace any where else . Hadst thou not gone abroad and hearkened to idle rumors , thou mightest the better have enjoyed quietness . But sith thou delightest sometimes to hear novelties , it is fit thou suffer for it some unquietness of mind . CHAP. XXI . Of compunction of heart . IF thou wilt make any progress in godliness , keep thy self in the fear of God , and affect not too much liberty . Keep in aw all thy senses under the severe rod of discipline , and give not thy self over to foolish mirth . Give thy self to compunction of heart , and thou shalt gain much devotion thereby ; compunction bringeth much good , which dissoluteness is wont quickly to destroy . It is a wonder that any Man can ever perfectly rejoyce in this life , if he duly consider his banishment , and throughly weigh the many perils wherewith his soul is invironed . 2. The levity of our minds and the little care we have of our faults , maketh us insensible of the sorrows of our souls ; but oftentimes we vainly laugh , when we have just cause to weep . There is no true liberty nor right gladness , but in the fear of God accompanied with a good conscience . Happy is he that can avoid all distracting impediments , and bring himself to the union of holy compunction . Happy is he that can abandon all that may defile or burthen his conscience . Resist manfully ; one custome overcometh another . If thou canst let others alone in their matters , they likewise shall not hinder thee in thine . 3. Busie not thy self in matters which appertain to others ; neither do thou trouble thy self with the affairs of thy Betters . Still have an eye to thy self first , and be sure more especially to instruct thy self before all thy loving friends . If thou hast not the favor of Men , be not grieved at it ; but take this to heart , that thou dost not carry thy self so warily and circumspectly as it becometh the Servant of God , and a devout religious Man. It is better oftentimes and safer that a Man hath not many consolations in this life , especially such as are agreeable to the flesh . But that we have not at all or do very seldom tast divine consolations , the fault is ours , because we seek not after compunction of heart , nor do altogether forsake the vain and outward comforts of this world . 4. Know that thou art unworthy of divine consolation , and that thou hast rather deserved much tribulation . When a Man hath perfect contrition , then is the whole world grievous and bitter unto him . A good Man findeth always sufficient cause of mourning and weeping ; for whether he consider his own or his neighbors estate , he knoweth that none liveth here without tribulation . And by how much a Man looks narrowly into himself , by so much the more he sorroweth . Our sins and wickednesses wherein we are so enwrapt , that we can seldom apply our selves to heavenly contemplations , do Minister unto us matter of most just sorrow and inward compunction . 5. Didst thou oftner think of thy death , than of thy living long , there is no question but thou wouldst be more careful to amend . I believe thou wouldst willingly undergo any labor or sorrow in this world , and not be afraid of the greatest austerity , if thou didst consider within thy self the infernal pains in the other world . But because these things enter not to the heart , and we still love those things only that delight us , therefore it is we remain very dull and cold in religion . 6. It is often our want of spirit which maketh our miserable body so easily complain . Pray therefore unto the Lord with all humility , that he will vouchsafe to give thee the spirit of compunction . And say with the prophet , Psal. 80 , Feed me , O Lord , with the bread of tears , and give me plenteousness of tears to drink . CHAP. XXII . Of the consideration of humane misery . MIserable thou art wheresoever thou be , or whithersoever thou turnest , unless thou turn thy self unto God. Why art thou troubled when things succeed not as thou wouldest or desirest ? For who is he that hath all things according to his mind ? Neither I nor thou , nor any Man upon earth ; there is none in this world , be he King or Pope , without some tribulation or other . Who is then in the best case or condition ? even he who can suffer something for God. 2. Many weak and infirm ones can say , Behold what an happy life hath such an one , how wealthy , how great he is , in how great power and dignity ! But lift up thine eyes to the riches of heaven , and thou shalt see that all the goods of this life are nothing so to be accounted of . They are very uncertain , rather burdensome than otherwise , because they are never enjoyed without carefulness and fear . Mans happiness consisteth not in having abundance of wealth , but a mean estate should content him ; it is truly misery enough even to live upon the earth . The more a Man would be spiritual , the more bitter to him is this present life ; because he seeth more clearly and perceiveth more sensibly the defects of humane corruption . For to eat and to drink , to sleep and to watch , to labor and to rest , and to be subject to other necessities of nature is doubtless a great misery and affliction to a religious Man , that would gladly be free and delivered from all sin . 3. For the inward Man is much oppressed with these outward and corporal necessities whilest we live in this world . Therefore the holy Prophet prayeth with great devotion to be delivered from them , saying , Bring me , O Lord , out of my necessities . But wo be to them that know not their own misery ; and a greater wo to them that love this miserable and corruptible life . And some there be so much dote upon it , that although with great labor and pains they can scarce get mere necessaries , yet could they live here always , they would care nothing at all for the Kingdom of Heaven . 4. O how foolish are these and faithless in their hearts , who lye so deeply sunk in the earth , that they can mind or relish nothing but carnal things ! But miserable wretches as they are , they shall in the end feel to their cost how vile and how nothing that was which they loved : Whereas the Saints of God , and all the devout friends of Christ respected not those things which pleased the flesh , and which flourished in this life , but longed for the everlasting riches with their whole hope and desire . Their whole desire was carried upward to things durable and invisible , that the desire of things visible might not draw them to things below . O Brother , lose not thy hope of coming forward in godliness ; there is yet time , the hour is not yet past 5. Why wilt thou defer thy good purpose from day to day ? Arise and begin in this very instant , and say , Now is the time to be doing , now is the time to be striving , now is the best time to amend my self . When thou art ill at ease and much troubled , then is the time of deserving best ; thou must pass through fire and water before thou comest to the place of refreshing . Unless thou dost earnestly force thy self , thou shalt never get the victory over sin ; so long as we carry about us this frail body of ours , we can never be without sin , or live without trouble and sorrow . We would gladly be quiet and freed from all misery , but seeing by sin we have lost our innocency , we have together with that lost also the true felicity . Therefore it becomes us to have patience , and to wait for the mercy of God , till this our iniquity be put away , and this mortality of ours be swallowed up of life . 6. O how great is humane frailty , which is always prone to evil ! to day thou confessest thy sins , and to morrow thou committest the very same thou hast confessed . Now thou art purposed to look well unto thy ways , and within a while thou so behavest thy self , as though thou hadst never any such purpose at all . Good cause have we therefore to humble our selves , and never to have any great conceit of our selves ; because we are so frail and so inconstant . Besides , that may quickly be lost by our own negligence , which by the grace of God and our own great pains we have scarce at length obtained . 7. What will become of us in the end , who begin to wax cold so timely ? Wo be unto us , if we will so give our selves unto ease , as if all were in peace and safety , when as yet there appeareth no sign of true holiness in our conversations ! We have need like young beginners to be newly instructed again to good life , if happily there be any hope of our future amendment and proficiency in spiritual things . CHAP. XXIII . Of the meditation of Death . THere will very quickly be an end of thee here , therefore see what will become of thee hereafter . To day a Man , to morrow none ; and out of sight , out of mind . O the stupidity and hardness of Mans Heart , who thinketh only upon the present , and hath no more care of what is to come ! Thou shouldest so order thy self in all thy thoughts and actions , as if to day , yea this very moment , thou wert ready to depart . Hadst thou a clear conscience , thou wouldst not greatly fear death . It were better to avoid sin , than to fly death . If thou art not prepared to day , how wilt thou be prepared to morrow ? To morrow is uncertain , and how knowest thou that thou shalt live till to morrow ? 2. What availeth it to live long , when we are so little the better by long living ? Alas ! length of days doth oftner make our sins the greater , than our lives the better . O that we had spent but one day well in this world ! Many there are who count how long it is since their conversion ; and yet ful slender oftentimes is the fruit of amendment of life . If to die be accounted dreadful , to live long may perhaps prove more dangerous . Happy is he that always hath the hour of his death before his eyes , and daily prepareth himself for to die . If at any time thou hast seen another Man die , make account thou must also pass the same way . 3. When it is morning , think thou mayest die before night , and when evening comes , dare not to promise thy self the next morning . Be thou therefore always in a readiness , and so lead thy life that death may never take thee unprepared . Many die suddenly and when they look not for it ; for the Son of Man will come when we think not of his coming . When that last hour shall come , thou wilt begin to have a far different opinion of thy whole life that is past , and be exceeding sorry thou hast been so careless and remiss 4. O how wise and happy is he that now laboreth to be such an one in his life , as he wisheth to be found at the hour of his death ! A perfect contempt of the world , a fervent desire to go forward in vertue , the love of discipline , the painfulness of repentance , the readiness of obedience , the denying of our selves , and the bearing any affliction for the love of Christ patiently , will give us great confidence we shall die happily . Whilst thou art in health thou mayest do much good , but when thou art sick , I see not what thou art able to do . Few by sickness grow better and more reformed ; as also they who wander much abroad , seldom thereby become holy . 5. Trust. not to friends and kindred , neither do thou put off the care of thy souls welfare till hereafter ; for Men will sooner forget thee , than thou art aware of . It is better to look to it betime , and do some good beforehand , than to trust to other Mens courtesies . If thou beest not careful for thy self now , who will be careful for thee hereafter ? The time that is now present is very precious , now are the days of salvation , now is the acceptable time . But alas ! that thou shouldst spend thy time so idlely here , where thou mightest purchase to live eternally hereafter . The time will come when thou shalt desire one day or hour to amend in , and I cannot say that it will be granted thee . 6. O beloved , from how great danger mightest thou deliver thy self ! from how great fear free thy self , if thou wouldst be always mindful of death ! Labor now to live so , that at the hour of death thou mayest rather rejoyce than fear ; learn now to die to the world , that thou mayest then begin to live with Christ. Learn now to contemn all earthly things , that thou mayest freely go to Christ. Chastise thy body now by repentance , that thou mayest then have assured confidence . 7. Ah fool , why dost thou think to live long , when thou canst not promise to thy self one day ? How many have been deceived and suddenly snatcht away ? How often dost thou hear these reports , Such a Man is slain , another Man is drowned , a third breaks his neck with a fall from some high place , this Man died eating , and that Man playing ? One perished by fire , another by the sword , another of the plague , another was slain by Thieves . Thus death is the end of all , and Mans life suddenly passeth away like a shaddow . 8. Who shall remember thee when thou art Dead ? Do , do now my beloved , whatsoever thou art able to do ; for thou knowest not when thou shalt die , nor yet what shall befal thee after thy death . Now whilst thou hast time heap unto thy self everlasting riches , think on nothing but the salvation of thy soul , care for nothing but the things of God. Make now friends to thy self by honoring the Saints of God , and imitating their actions , that when thou failest in this short life , they may receive thee into everlasting habitations . 9. Keep thy self as a stranger and pilgrim upon the earth , and as one to whom the affairs of this world do nothing appertain . Keep thy heart free , and lifted up to God , because thou hast here no abiding city . Send thither thy daily prayers and sighs together with thy tears , that after death thy spirit may with much happiness pass to the Lord. Amen . CHAP. XXIV . Of Iudgment , and the punishment of Sins . IN all things have a special aim to thy end , and how thou wilt be able to stand before that severe Judg to whom nothing is hid , who is not pacified with gifts , nor admitteth any excuses , but will judg according to right and equity . O wretched and foolish sinner , who sometimes fearest the countenance of an angry Man ; what answer wilt thou make to God who knoweth all thy wickedness ! Why dost thou not provide for thy self against that great day of judgment , when no Man can excuse or answer for another , but every one shall have enough to answer for himself ? Now are thy pains profitable , thy tears acceptable , thy groans audible , thy grief pacifieth God , and purgeth thy soul. 2. The patient Man hath a great and wholesome purgatory , who though he receive injuries , yet grieveth more for the malice of another , than for his own wrong ; who prayeth willingly for his adversaries , and from his heart forgiveth their offences ; he delayeth not to ask forgiveness of whomsoever he hath offended ; he is sooner moved to compassion than to anger ; he often offereth an holy violence to himself , and laboreth to bring the body wholly into subjection to the spirit . It is better to purge out our sins , and cut off our vices here , than to keep them to be punished hereafter . Verily we do but deceive our selves through an inordinate love of the flesh . 3. What is it that that infernal fire feeds upon , but thy sins ? The more thou sparest thy self now and followest the flesh , so much the more hereafter shall be thy punishment , and thou storest up greater fewel for that flame . In what thing a Man hath sinned , in the same shall he be the more grievously punished . There shall the slothful be pricked forward with burning goads , and the gluttons be tormented with great hunger and thirst . There shall the luxurious and lovers of pleasures be bathed in burning pitch and stinking brimstone , and the envious like mad Dogs shall howl for very grief . 4. There is no sin but shall have its proper torment . There the proud shall be filled with all confusion ; the covetous shall be pinched with miserable penury ; one hour of pain there shall be more bitter than a Thousand years of the sharpest pennance here ! There is no quiet , no comfort for the damned there ; yet here we have some intermission of our labors , and enjoy the comfort of our friends . Be now sollicitous and sorrowful because of thy sins , that at the day of judgment thou mayest be secure with the company of blessed souls . For then shall the righteous with great boldness stand against such as have vexed and oppressed them ; then shall he stand to judg Men , who doth now humbly submit himself to the censures of Men. Then shall the poor and humble have great confidence , but the proud Man shall be compassed with fear on every side . 5. Then will it appear that he was wise in this world , who had learned for Christ to be a fool and despised . Then shall every affliction patiently undergone delight us , when the mouth of iniquity shall be stopped up . Then shall the devout rejoyce , and the profane shall mourn . Then shall he more rejoyce that hath beat down his own flesh , than he that hath abounded in all pleasure and delight . Then shall the poor attire shine gloriously , and the precious robes seem vile and contemptible . Then shall be more commended the poor cottage , than the gilded palace . Then will constant patience more avail us , than all earthly power . Then simple obedience shall be preferred before all worldly wisdom . 6. Then shall a good and clear conscience more rejoyce a Man than the profound learning of Philosophy . Then shall the contempt of riches weigh more than all the worldings treasure . Then wilt thou be more comforted that thou hast prayed devoutly , than that thou hast fared daintily . Then wilt thou be more glad thou hast kept silence , than that thou hast talked much . Then will good works avail more than many goodly words . Then a strict life and severe repentance will be more pleasing than all earthly delights . Accustome thy self now to suffer a little , that thou mayest then be delivered from more grievous pains . Prove first here what thou canst endure hereafter . If now thou canst endure so little , how wilt thou then be able to endure perpetual torments ? If now a little suffering make thee so impatient , what will hell fire do hereafter ? Assure thy self thou canst not have two Paradises , it is impossible to enjoy delights in this world , and after that to reign with Christ. 7. Suppose thou hast hitherto lived always in honors and delights , what would all this avail thee if thou wert to die at this instant ? All therefore is vanity , but to love God and serve him only . For he that loveth God with all his heart , is neither afraid of death nor punishment , nor of judgement , nor of hell ; for perfect love gives secure access to God. But he that takes delight in sin , what marvel is it if he be afraid , both of death and judgment ? Yet it is good , although love be not yet of force to withhold thee from sin , that at least the fear of hell should restrain thee . But he that layeth aside the fear of God , can never continue long in good estate , but falleth quickly into the snares of the Devil . CHAP. XXV . Of the zealous amendment of our whole life . BE watchful and diligent in the service of God ; and often bethink thy self wherefore thou camest hither , and why thou hast left the world . Was it not that thou mightest live to God , and become a spiritual Man ? Be fervent then to come forward , for shortly thou shalt receive a reward of thy Labors ; there shall not be then any fear of sorrow in thy coasts . Labor but now a little , and thou shalt find great rest , yea perpetual joy to thy soul. If thou continuest faithful and fervent in doing good , no doubt but God will be faithful and liberal in rewarding thee . Thou oughtest to have a good hope for getting the victory ; but thou must not be secure lest thou wax either negligent or proud . 2. When one that was in great anxiety of mind , often wavering between fear and hope , did once , being oppressed with grief , humbly prostrate himself in a Church in prayer , and said within himself , O , if I knew that I should yet persevere ! he presently heard within him an answer from God , which said , What if thou didst know it , what wouldest thou do ? Do now what thou wouldest do then , and thou shalt be secure . And being herewith comforted and strengthened , he committed himself wholly to the will of God , and that noysome anxiety ceased ; neither had he any mind to search curiously any further , to know what should befal him ; but rather labored to understand what was the perfect and acceptable will of God for the beginning and accomplishing of every good work . 3. Hope in the Lord , and do good , saith the Prophet , and inhabit the land , and thou shalt be fed in the riches thereof . One thing there is that draweth many back from a spiritual progress , and the diligent amendment of their lives ; viz. The horror of the difficulty , or the labor of the combat . But they above others improve most in virtue , that endeavor most to overcome those things which are grievous and contrary unto them . For there a Man improveth more and obtaineth greater grace , where he more overcometh himself and mortifieth himself in spirit . 4. But all Men have not alike , to overcome and mortifie ; yet he that is zealous and diligent , though he have more passions , shall profit more in virtue , than another that is of a more temperate disposition , if he be less fervent in the pursuit of virtue . Two things especially much further our amendment , to wit , to withdraw our selves violently from that to which nature is viciously inclined , and to labor earnestly for that virtue which we most want . Be careful also to avoid with great diligence those things in thy self , which do commonly displease thee in others . 5. Gather some profit to thy soul wheresoever thou be ; so as if thou seest or hearest of any good examples , stir up thy self to the imitation thereof . But if thou seest any thing worthy of reproof , beware thou do not the same . And if at any time thou hast done it , labor quickly to amend it . As thine eye observeth others , so art thou also noted again by others . O how sweet and pleasant a thing it is , to see the Servants of Christ fervent and devout , endued with virtuous and decent manners ! And on the contrary , How pitiful and grievous a thing it is , to see them that live in a dissolute and disordered sort , not applying themselves to that for which they are called ! O how hurtful a thing it is , to neglect the good purposes of their vocation , and to busie themselves in that which is not committed to their care ! 6. Be mindful of the profession thou hast made , and have always before the eyes of thy soul the remembrance of thy Saviour crucified . Thou hast good cause to be ashamed looking upon the life of Jesus Christ , seeing thou hast as yet no more endeavored to conform thy self unto him , though thou hast walked a long time in the way of God. A religious person that exerciseth himself seriously , and devoutly in the most holy life and passion of our Lord , shall there abundantly find whatsoever is necessary and profitable for him ; neither shall he need to seek any better thing , out of Jesus . O , if Jesus crucified would come into our hearts , how quickly and fully should we be instructed in all truth ? 7. A fervent religious person taketh and beareth all well that is commanded him ; but he that is negligent and cold , hath tribulation upon tribulation , and on all sides is afflicted ; for he is void of inward consolation , and is forbidden to seek eternal comforts . A religious person that liveth not according to discipline , lies open to great mischief to the ruine of his soul. He that seeketh liberty and ease , shall ever live in disquiet ; for one thing or other will displease him . 8. O that we had nothing elso to do , but always with our mouth , and whole heart to praise our Lord God! O that thou mightest never have need to eat , nor drink , nor sleep ; but mightest always praise God , and only employ thy self in spiritual exercises ; thou shouldest then be much more happy than now thou art , when for so many necessities thou art constrained to serve thy body . Would God these necessities were not at all , but only the spiritual refections of the soul , which , alas , we taste of too seldom . 9. When a Man cometh to that estate , rhat he seeketh not his comfort from any creature , then doth he begin perfectly to relish God. Then shall he be contented with whatsoever doth befal him in this world . Then shall he neither rejoyce in great matters , nor be sorrowful for small ; but entirely and confidently commit himself to God , who shall be unto him all in all ; to whom , nothing doth perish , nor die , but all things do live unto him , and serve him at a beck without delay . 10. Remember always thy end , and how that time lost never returns . Without care and diligence thou shalt never get virtue . If thou beginnest to wax cold , it will be evil with thee ; but if thou give thy self to fervor of spirit , thou shalt find much peace , and feel less labor , through the assistance of Gods grace , and love of virtue . The fervent and diligent Man is prepared for all things . It is harder to resist vices and passions , than to toil in bodily labors . He that avoideth not small faults , by little and little falleth into greater . Thou wilt always rejoyce in the evening , if thou spend the day profitably . Be watchful over thy self , stir up thy self , warn thy self , and whatsoever becomes of others neglect not thy self . The more holy violence thou usest against thy self , the more shall be thy spiritual profiting . Amen . THE SECOND BOOK . CHAP. I. Of the inward Life . THE Kingdom of God is within you , saith the Lord. Turn thee with thy whole heart unto the Lord , and forsake this wretched World , and thy Soul shall find rest . Learn to despise exteriour things , and to give thy self to the interior , and thou shalt perceive the Kingdom of God to come into thee . For the Kingdom of God is peace , and joy in the Holy Ghost , which is not given to the wicked . Christ will come into thee , and shew thee his consolations , if thou prepare for him a worthy mansion within thee . All his glory and beauty is within , and there he pleaseth himself . The inward man he often visits ; and hath with him sweet discourses , pleasant solace , much peace , wonderful familiarity . 2. O faithful Soul , make ready thy heart for this Bridegroom , that he may vouchsafe to come unto thee , and dwell within thee . For he saith , If any love me , he will keep my words , and we will come unto him , and will make our abode with him . Give therefore admittance unto Christ , and deny entrance to all others . When thou hast Christ , thou art Rich , and he will suffice thee . He will be thy faithful and provident helper in all things , so as thou shalt not need to trust in men . For men are soon changed , and quickly fail , but Christ remaineth for ever , and standeth firmly unto the end . 3. There is little trust to be put in frail and mortal man , though he be profitable and dear unto thee : neither oughtest thou much to be grieved , if sometimes he cross and contradict thee . They that to day take thy part , to morrow may be against thee , and so on the contrary , they often turn like unto the wind . Put all thy trust in God , let him be thy fear , and thy love : He will answer for thee , and do in all things what is best . Thou hast not here an abiding City ; and wheresoever thou be , thou art a stranger and pilgrim : Neither shalt thou ever have rest , unless thou be most inwardly united unto Christ. 4. Why dost thou here gaze about , since this is not the place of thy rest ? In Heaven ought to be thy dwelling , and all Earthly things are to be lookt upon as it were by the way . All things pass away , and thou together with them . Beware thou cleave not unto them , lest thou be entangled , and so dost perish . Let thy thought be on the Highest , and thy prayer directed unto Christ without ceasing . If thou canst not contemplate high and heavenly things , rest thy self in the passion of Christ , and dwell willingly in his Holy wounds . For if thou fly devoutly unto the wounds and precious marks of the Lord Jesus , thou shalt feel great comfort in tribulation : Neither wilt thou much care for being despised of men , and wilt easily bear words of detraction . 5. Christ was also in the World despised of men , and in greatest necessity ; forsaken by his acquaintance and Friends in the midst of slanders . Christ would suffer and be despised ; and darest thou complain of any ? Christ had Adversaries and Backbiters ; and wilt thou have all men thy Friends and Benefactors ? For what shall thy patience be crowned , if no adversity happen unto thee ? If thou wilt suffer no adversity , how wilt thou be the Friend of Christ ? Suffer with Christ and for Christ , if thou desire to Reign with Christ. 6. If thou hadst but once perfectly entred into the secrets of Jesus , and tasted a little of his ardent affection ; then wouldst thou not weigh thine own commodity or discommodity , but wouldst rather rejoyce at slanders , when they should chance to be cast upon thee : For the love of Jesus maketh a man to despise himself . A lover of Jesus and of the Truth , and a true inward Christian , and one free from inordinate affections , can freely turn himself unto God , and lift himself above himself in Spirit , and with the greatest enjoyment of his Soul rest in God. 7. He that judgeth of all things as they are , and not as they are said and esteemed to be , is truly wise , and taught rather by God than men . He that can live inwardly , and make small reckoning of outward things , neither requireth places , nor attendeth times , for performing of Religious exercises . A Spiritual man quickly recollecteth himself because he never poureth out himself wholly to outward things . He is not hindred by outward labor or business , which may be necessary for the time : But as things fall out , so he frameth himself unto them . He that hath well ordered and disposed all things within , careth not for the strange and perverse carriages of men . So much is a man hindred and distracted , by how much he draweth external matters unto himself . 8. If all went well with thee , and if thou wert all purged , all things would fall out to thy good and advantage . But many things displease and often trouble thee , because thou art not yet perfectly dead unto thy self , nor separated from all earthly things . Nothing so defileth and intangleth the heart of man , as the impure love to Creatures . If thou refuse outward comfort , thou wilt be able to contemplate the things of Heaven , and often receive internal joy . CHAP. II. Of humble submission . REspect not much who is with thee , or who is against thee : But endeavor and take care that God may be with thee in every thing thou doest . Have a good Conscience , and God will defend thee . For whom God will help , no malice of man can hurt . If thou canst hold thy peace and suffer , without doubt thou shalt see that our Lord will help thee . He knoweth the time and manner how to deliver thee , and therefore thou oughtest to resign thy self unto him . It belongs to God to help , and to deliver from all shame . Oftentimes it is very profitable for the keeping us more humble , that others know and reprehend our faults . 2. When a man humbleth himself for his faults , then he easily pacifieth others , and quickly satisfieth those that are offended with him . God protecteth and delivereth the humble ; he loveth and comforteth the humble , unto the humble man he enclineth himself ; unto the humble he giveth great Grace ; and after his humiliation he raiseth him unto Glory . Unto the humble he revealeth his secrets , and sweetly draweth and inviteth him unto himself . The humble person though he suffer shame , is yet in peace ; for that he resteth in God , and not in the World. Do not think that thou hast profited any thing , unless thou esteem thy self inferior to all . CHAP. III. Of a good and peaceable Man. FIrst , keep thy self in peace , and then mayst thou pacifie others . A peaceable man doth more good than he that is well Learned . A passionate man turneth even good into evil , and easily believeth the worst . A good peaceable man turneth all things into good . He that is well in peace , is not suspicious of any . But he that is discontented and troubled , is tossed with divers suspicions : He is neither quiet himself , nor suffereth others to be quiet . He often speaketh that which he ought not to speak ; and omitteth that which were more expedient for him to do . He considereth what others are bound to do , and neglecteth that which he is bound to himself . First therefore have a careful zeal over thy self , and then thou mayst justly shew thy self zealous also of thy neighbors good . 2. Thou knowest well how to excuse and colour thine own deeds , and thou wilt not receive the excuses of others . It were more meet that thou didst accuse thy self , and excusest thy Brother . If thou wilt be born withal , bear also with another . Behold how far off thou art yet from true charity and humility , which knoweth not how to be angry with any , or to be moved with indignation , but only against himself . It is no great matter to converse with the good , and those that are of a gentle disposition ; for that is naturally pleasing to all , and every one willingly enjoyeth peace , and loveth those best that agree with him . But to be able to live peaceably with unquiet , and perverse men , or with the disorderly , or such as contradict us , is a great grace , and a very commendable and manly deed . 3. Some there are that keep themselves in peace , and are in peace also with others . And there are some that neither are in peace themselves , nor suffer others to be in peace . Some there are who are troublesome to others , but always more troublesome to themselves . And others there are that keep themselves in peace , and labor to bring others unto peace . Our whole peace in this miserable life consisteth rather in humble suffering , than in not feeling adversities . He that can best tell how to suffer , will best keep himself in peace . He is a conqueror of himself , a Lord of the world a friend of Christ , and heir of Heaven . CHAP. IV. Of a pure mind , and upright intention . WIth Two wings , Man is lifted up from earthly vanities , that is , with simplicity and purity . Simplicity ought to be in our intention : Purity in our affection . Simplicity doth intend God ; Purity doth apprehend and take him . No good action will hinder thee , if thou be inwardly free from all inordinate affection . If thou intend and seek nothing else but the will of God and the good of thy neighbor , thou shalt enjoy internal liberty . If thy heart were sincere and upright , then every creature would be unto thee a looking glass of life , and a book of holy doctrine . There is no creature so little and abject that representeth not the goodness of God. 2. If thou wert inwardly good and pure , then thou wouldest be well able to see and understand all things without any impediment . A pure heart penetrateth Heaven and Hell. Such as every one is inwardly , so he judgeth outwardly . If there be joy in the world , surely a Man of a pure heart possesseth it . And if there be any where tribulation and affliction , an evil conscience best feels it . As Iron put into the fire loseth its rust , and becometh all bright like fire , so he that wholly turneth himself unto God , is purged from all fulness and slothfulness , and is changed into a new Man. 3. When one beginneth to wax cold , then he is afraid of a small labor , and willingly receiveth external comfort . But when he once beginneth to overcome himself perfectly , and to walk manfully in the way of God ; then he esteemeth those things to be light , which before seemed grievous unto him . CHAP. V Of the consideration of ones self . WE cannot trust much to our selves , for that grace oftentimes and understanding is wanting . There is but little light in us , and that which we have we quickly lose by our negligence , and oftentimes we do not perceive our own inward blindness . We often do evil , and excuse it worse . We are sometimes moved with passion , and we think it to be Zeal . We reprehend small things in others , and pass over greater matters in our selves . We quickly feel and weigh what we suffer at the hands of others ; but we mind not what others suffer from us . He that doth well and rightly considers his own works , will find little cause to judg hardly of another . 2. The inward Christian preferreth the care of himself before all other cares . And he that diligently attendeth unto himself , doth seldom speak much of others . Thou wilt never be so inwardly religious , unless thou pass over other Mens matters with silence , and look especially to thy self . If thou attend wholly unto God and thy self , thou wilt be little moved with whatsoever thou seest abroad . Where art thou , when thou art not with thy self ? And when thou hast run over all , what hast thou then profited , if thou hast neglected thy self ? If thou desirest peace of mind and true union , thou must put all things behind thee , and look only upon thy self . 3. Thou shalt therefore profit much , if thou keep thy self free from all temporal cares . Thou shalt greatly decrease , if thou esteem any thing of this world . Let nothing be greater unto thee , nothing acceptable , but only God himself , or that which is of God. Esteem all comfort vain which thou receivest from any creature . A soul that loveth God , despiseth all things that be inferior unto God. God alone is everlasting , and of infinite greatness , filling all creatures ; the souls solace , and the true joy of the heart . CHAP. VI. Of the joy of a good conscience . THe glory of a good Man , is the testimony of a good conscience . Have a good conscience , and thou shalt ever have joy . A good conscience is able to bear very much , and is very chearful in adversities . An evil conscience is always fearful and unquiet . Thou shalt rest sweetly , if thy heart do not reprehend thee . Do thou never rejoyce , but when thou hast done well . Sinners have never true mirth , nor feel inward peace ; because there is no peace to the wicked , saith the Lord. And if they should say , We are in peace , no evil shall fall upon us , and who shall dare to hurt us ? Believe them not ; for upon a sudden will arise the wrath of God , and their deeds shall be brought to nought , and their thoughts shall perish . 2. To glory in tribulation is no hard thing for him that loveth ; for to glory so , is to glory in the Cross of our Lord. That glory is short , which is given and received from Men. Sorrow always accompanieth the glory of the world . The glory of the good is in their consciences , and not in the tongues of Men. The gladness of the just is of God , and in God ; and their joy is of the truth . He that desireth true and everlasting glory , careth not for that which passeth away with time . And he that seeketh temporal glory , or contemneth it not from his heart ; sheweth himself but little to esteem of the glory of Heaven . He enjoyeth great tranquility and peace of mind , that careth neither for the praises , nor dispraises of Men. 3. He will easily be content and pacified , whose conscience is pure . He is not the more holy , though thou commend him ; nor the more abject , though thou dispraise him . What thou art , that thou art ; neither canst thou be said to be greater , than what thou art in the sight of God. If thou consider what thou art within thee , thou wilt not care what Men say of thee . Man seeth in the face , but God looketh into the heart . Man considereth the deeds , but God weigheth the intention . To do always well , and to esteem little of himself , is a sign of an humble soul. To refuse to be comforted by any creature , is a sign of great purity , and inward confidence . 4 , He that seeketh to witness for himself from without , doth shew that he hath wholly committed himself unto God. For not he that commendeth himself , the same is approved ( saith blessed Paul ) but whom God commendeth . To walk inwardly with God , and not to be possessed with any outward affection , is the state of a spiritual Man. CHAP. VII . Of the love of Iesus above all things . BLessed is he that understandeth what it is to love Jesus , and to despise himself for Jesus . Thou oughtest to leave thy beloved , for thy beloved ; for that Jesus will be beloved alone above all things . The love of things created is deceitful and unconstant ; the love of Jesus is faithful and constant . He that cleaveth unto creatures , shall fall with that which is subject to fall ; He that embraceth Jesus , shall stand firmly for ever . Love him , and keep him for thy friend , who when all go away , will not forsake thee , nor suffer thee to perish in the end . Thou must once be left of all , whether thou wilt or no. 2. Keep close to Jesus both in life and death , and commit thy self unto his trust , who , when all fail , can alone help thee . Thy beloved is of that nature , that he will not admit of a corrival ; but will have thy heart alone , and sit like a King in his own throne . If thou couldest purge thy self perfectly of all creatures , Jesus would willingly dwell with thee . Whatsoever thou reposest in Men , out of Jesus , is all no better than lost . Trust not nor rely upon a reed full of wind ; for that all flesh is grass , and all the glory thereof shall wither away as the flower of the field . 3. Thou shalt quickly be deceived , if thou look only to the outward shew of Men. And if in them thou seekest thy comfort and profit , thou shalt often feel loss . If thou seekest Jesus in all things , thou shalt surely find Jesus . But if thou seekest thy self , thou shalt also find thy self , but to thine own harm . For Man doth more hurt himself if he seek not Jesus , than the whole world and all his adversaries could annoy him . CHAP. VIII . Of familiar conversation with Iesus . WHen Jesus is present , all is well , and nothing seemeth difficult ; but when Jesus is absent , every thing is hard . When Jesus speaketh not inwardly unto us , our comfort is nothing worth ; but if Jesus speak but one word , we feel much consolation . Did not Mary presently rise from the place where she wept , when Martha said unto her , The Master is come , and calleth for thee ? Happy is the hour when Jesus calleth from tears to spiritual Joy. How dry and hard art thou without Jesus ! How foolish and vain , if thou desire any thing out of Jesus ! Is not this a greater loss , than if thou shouldest lose the whole world ? 2. What can the world profit thee without Jesus ? To be without Jesus is a grievous Hell ; and to be with Jesus is a sweet Paradise . If Jesus be with thee , no enemy can hurt thee . He that findeth Jesus , findeth a good treasure , yea a good above all goods : And he that loseth Jesus , loseth too much , and more than the whole world . He is most poor that liveth without Jesus ; and he is most rich that is well with Jesus . 3. It is a piece of great skill to know how to converse with Jesus , and great wisdom to know how to keep Jesus . Be humble and peaceable , and Jesus will be with thee . Be devout and quiet , and Jesus will stay with thee . Thou mayest soon drive away Jesus and lose his grace , if thou turn aside to outward things . And if thou shouldest drive him from thee , and lose him , unto whom wilt thou flie , and what friends wilt thou then seek ? Without a friend thou canst not well live ; and if Jesus be not above all a friend unto thee , thou shalt be too sorrowful and desolate . Thou doest therefore foolishly , if thou doest trust or rejoyce in any other . It is better for thee to have all the world against thee , than Jesus offended with thee . Amongst all things therefore that be dear unto thee , let Jesus alone be thy chiefest beloved . 4. Love all for Jesus , but Jesus for himself . Jesus Christ alone is singularly to be beloved ; who alone is found to be good and faithful above all friends . For him , and in him , let as well friends as foes be dear unto thee , and all these are to be prayed for , that all may know and love him . Never desire to be singularly commended or beloved , for that appertaineth only unto God , who hath none like unto himself . Neither do thou desire that the heart of any should be set on thee , nor do thou set thy heart on the love of any ; but let Jesus be in thee , and in every good Man 5. Be pure and free within , and intangle not thy heart with any creature . Thou oughtest to be as it were naked , and to carry a pure heart to God , if thou wouldest be free to consider and see how sweet the Lord is . And truly , unless thou be prevented and drawn by his grace , thou shalt never attain to that happiness to forsake and cast off all , that thou alone mayest be united to him alone . For when the grace of God cometh unto a Man , then he is made able for all things . And when it goeth away , he is poor and weak , and as it were left only unto the lash and scourge of every adversary . In this thou oughtest not to be dejected , nor despair ; but to resign thy self with all indifferency unto the will of God , and to bear all things that befal thee for the glory of Christ ; for after winter followeth summer , after night cometh day , and after a tempest , fair weather . CHAP. IX . Of the want of all comfort . IT is no hard matter to despise humane comfort , when we have divine . It is much and very much , to be able to want both humane and divine comfort ; and for the Glory of God , to be willing to endure desolation of heart ; and to seek himself in nothing , nor to regard his own merit . What great matter is it , if thou be chearful and devout at the coming of grace ? This hour is wished for of all Men. He rideth easily enough whom the grace of God carrieth . And what marvel if he feel not his burden , who is born up by the Almighty , and led by the soveraign guide ? 2. We are always willing to have something for our comfort ; and a Man doth hardly put off and forsake himself . The holy martyr St. Laurence overcame the world with his Prelates because he despised whatsoever seemed delightsom in the world , and for the love of Christ patiently suffered Sixtus to be taken from him , whom he most dearly loved . He overcame therefore the love of Man by the love of the Creator ; and he rather chose the divine good pleasure , than humane comfort . See thou also learn to forsake some necessary thing , and a beloved friend , for the love of God. Be not grieved when thou art forsaken by a friend , knowing that we all at length must be separated one from another . 3. A Man must fight long , and mightily with himself , before he get the full victory over himself , and be able to draw his whole heart in to God. When a Man trusteth in himself , he easily slideth unto humane comforts , but a true lover of Christ , and a diligent follower of virtue , betakes not himself to humane comforts , nor seeketh such sensible sweetnesses , but rather hard exercises , and to sustain great labors for Christ. 4. When therefore spiritual comfort is given thee from God , receive it thankfully ; but know that it is the gift of God , not any desert of thine . Be not puffed up , joy not too much , neither do thou presume vainly ; but be rather the more humble for that gift , and more wary and sollicitous in all thine actions ; for that hour will pass away , and temptation will succeed . When consolation is taken from thee , despair not presently ; but with humility and patience wait for the Heavenly visitation ; for God is able again to give thee greater consolation . This is not new nor strange unto them that have experience in the way of God ; for the great Saints and ancient prophets had oftentimes experience of such kind of vicissitudes . 5. For which cause one under the enjoyment of divine favor , said , I said in my prosperity , I shall never be moved . But in the want of this , he addeth what he found in himself ; saying , thou turn'dst thy face from me , and I became troubled . Yet doth he not despair in the midst of these changes , but more earnestly prayeth unto the Lord , and saith , Unto thee , O Lord , will I cry , and I will pray unto my God. Lastly , he receiveth the fruit of his prayer , and witnesseth that he was heard , saying , The Lord hath heard me , and taken pity on me ; the Lord is become my helper . But wherein ? Thou hast turned , saith he , my sorrow into joy , and thou hast compassed me about with gladness . If great Saints have been so dealt withal , we that are weak and poor ought not to despair , if we be sometimes fervent and sometimes cold ; for the Spirit cometh and goeth , according to the good pleasure of his will. For which cause blessed Job saith , Thou visitest him early in the morning , and suddenly thou provest him . 6. Whereupon therefore can I hope , or wherein ought I to trust , but in the great mercy of God alone , and in the only hope of heavenly grace ? For whether I enjoy the presence of good Men , or religious brethren , or faithful friends , or holy Books , or excellent treatises , or sweet songs and hymns , all these help little , and have little savor , when grace forsaketh me , and I remain left in mine own poverty . At such time there is no better remedy thàn patience , and the ordering of my self according to the will of God. 7. I never found any so religious and devout , that hath not had sometimes a withdrawing of grace , or felt not some decrease of zeal . There was never Saint so highly rapt , and illuminated who first or last was not tempted . For he is not worthy of the high contemplation of God , who hath not been exercised with some tribulation for Gods sake . For temptation going before , is wont to be a sign of ensuing comfort . And unto those that are proved by temptations , heavenly comfort is promised . He that shall overcome , saith he , I will give him to eat of the Tree of life . 8. But divine comfort is given , that a Man may be stronger to bear adversities . There followeth also temptation , lest he should wax proud of any good . The Devil sleepeth not , neither is the flesh as yet dead ; therefore cease not to prepare thy self to the battel ; For on thy right hand and on thy left are enemies that never rest . CHAP. X. Of thankfulness for the grace of God. WHy seekest thou rest , since thou art born to labor ? Dispose thy self to patience rather than to comfort , and to the bearing of the Cross , rather than to gladness . What secular person is there that would not willingly receive spiritual joy and comfort , if he could always have it ? For spiritual comforts exceed all the delights of the world , and pleasures of the flesh . All worldly delights are either vain or unclean ; but spiritual delights are only pleasant and honest , sprung from virtue , and infused by God into pure minds . But no Man can always enjoy these divine comforts according to his desire ; for the time of temptation is not long away . 2. False freedom of mind , and great trust of our selves is very contrary to heavenly visitations . God doth well in giving the grace of comfort ; but Man doth evil in not returning all again unto God with thanksgiving . And therefore the gifts of grace cannot flow in us , because we are not thankful to the giver , and return them not wholly to the head-fountain . For grace ever attendeth him that is thankful ; and from the proud shall be taken that which is wont to be given to the humble . 3. I desire not that consolation that taketh from me compunction ; nor do I affect that contemplation which leadeth to haughtiness of mind . For all that is high , is not holy ; nor all that is sweet , good ; nor every desire , pure ; nor every thing that is dear unto us , is grateful to God. I do willingly accept of that Grace , whereby I may ever become more humble and affected with an holy fear , and be made more ready to forsake my self . He that is taught by the gift of grace , and school'd by the scourge of the withdrawing thereof , will not dare to attribute any good to himself , but will rather acknowledg himself poor and naked . Give unto God that which is Gods , and ascribe unto thy self that which is thine own ; that is , give thanks to God for his grace ; and acknowledg that nothing is to be attributed to thee , but only sin and the punishment due thereunto . 4. Set thy self always in the lowest place and the highest shall be given thee ; for the highest consist not without the lowest . The chiefest Saints before God , are the least in their own judgments ; and how much the more glorious , so much the humbler within themselves . Those that are full of truth and Heavenly glory , are not desirous of vain glory . Those that are firmly setled and grounded in God , can no way be proud . And they that ascribe all unto God , what good soever they have received , seek not glory one of another , but would have that glory which is from God alone ; and desire above all things to praise God in himself , and in all the Saints , and always tend unto the same . 5. Be therefore thankful for the least gift , so shalt thou be meet to receive greater . Let the least be unto thee also as the greatest , and the most contemptible as an especial gift . If thou consider the worth of the giver , no gift will seem little , or of too mean esteem . For it is not little that is given by the most high God. Yea , if he should give punishment and stripes , it ought to be grateful ; for that he doth it always for our welfare , whatsoever he permitteth to happen unto us . He that desireth to keep the grace of God , let him be thankful for the grace given , and patient for the taking away thereof . Let him pray that it may return . Let him be wary and humble ; lest he lose it . CHAP. XI . How few the lovers of the Cross of Christ are . JEsus hath now many lovers of his Heavenly Kingdom , but few bearers of his Cross. He hath many desirous of comfort , but few of tribulation . He findeth many companions of his table , but few of his abstinence . All desire to rejoyce with him , few will suffer any thing for him , or with him . Many follow Jesus unto the breaking of Bread ; but few to the drinking of the Cup of his passion . Many reverence his miracles , few follow the ignominy of his Cross. Many love Jesus as long as adversities happen not . Many praise and bless him , as long as they receive any comforts from him . But if Jesus hide himself , and leave them but a while ; they fall either into complaint , or into too much dejection of mind . 2. But they that love Jesus for Jesus , and not for some comfort of their own , bless him in all tribulation and anguish of heart , as well as in the greatest comfort . And although he should never give them comfort , they notwithstanding , would ever praise him , and always give him thanks . 3. O how powerful is the pure love of Jesus , which is mixed with no self-love , nor proper interest ! Are not all those to be called hirelings , that ever seek comforts ? Do they not shew themselves to be rather lovers of themselves than of Christ , that always think of their own commodity and gain ? Where may one be found that will serve God freely ? 4. It is hard to find any one so spiritual that is stript of the love of all earthly things . For where is any one to be found that is indeed poor in spirit , and free from all affection of creatures ? He 's a Jewel of such price as is scarce to be met with in these parts . If a Man should give all his wealth , yet is it nothing . And if he should outwardly express great repentance , yet it is little . And if he should attain to all knowledg , he is yet afar off . And if he should be of great virtue , and very fervent devotion , yet there is much wanting ; to wit , one thing , which is most necessary for him . What is that ? that leaving all , he forsake himself , and go wholly from himself , and retain nothing of self-love ; And when he hath done all that he knoweth to be done , let him think that he hath done nothing . 5. Let him not weigh that much which might be much esteemed ; but according to truth let him affirm himself to be an unprofitable servant , as our Saviour hath said , when you shall have done all things that are commanded you , say , we are unprofitable servants . Then may he be truly poor and naked in spirit , and say with the Prophet , I am alone and poor ; yet no man richer , no Man more powerful , no Man more free than he that can leave himself and all things , and set himself in the lowest place . CHAP. XII . Of the high way of the holy Cross. UNto many this speech seemeth hard , Deny thy self , take up thy Cross , and follow Iesus . But it will be much harder to hear that last word . Depart from me ye cursed into everlasting fire . For they that now willingly hear and follow the word of the Cross , shall not then fear to hear the sentence of everlasting damnation . This sign of the Cross shall be in Heaven ; when our Lord shall come to judgment . Then all the servants of the Cross , who in their life-time conformed themselves unto Christ crucified , shall draw near unto Christ the Judg with great confidence . 2. Why therefore fearest thou to take up the Cross which leadeth thee to a Kingdom ? In the Cross is salvation , in the Cross is life , in the Cross is protection against our enemies , in the Cross is infusion of Heavenly sweetness , in the Cross is strength of mind , in the Cross is joy of spirit , in the Cross is the height of virtue , in the Cross is the perfection of sanctity . There is no salvation of the soul , nor hope of everlasting life but in the Cross. Take up therefore thy Cross and follow Jesus , and thou shalt go into life everlasting . He is gone before , bearing his Cross , and is dead for thee on the Cross ; that thou mayest also bear thy Cross and desire to die on the Cross with him . For if thou diest with him , thou shalt also live with him . And if thou be his companion in pain , thou shalt be partaker ith him also in glory . 3. Behold in the Cross all doth consist and all lyeth in our dying upon it ; for there is no other way unto life , and unto true inward peace , but the way of the Holy Cross , and of daily mortification . Go where thou wilt , seek whatsoever thou wilt , thou shalt not find a higher way above , nor a safer way below , than the way of the Holy Cross. Dispose and order all things according to thy will and judgment ; yet thou shalt ever find , that of necessity thou must suffer somewhat either willingly or against thy will , and so thou shalt ever find the Cross. For either thou shalt feel pain in thy body , or in thy soul thou shalt suffer tribulation of spirit . 4. Sometimes thou shalt be forsaken of God , sometimes thou shalt be troubled by thy neighbors ; and which is more , oftentimes thou shalt be irksome to thy self ; neither canst thou be delivered or eased by any remedy or comfort ; but so long as pleaseth God , thou oughtest to bear it . For God will have thee learn to suffer tribulation without comfort ; and that thou subject thy self wholly to him , and become more humble by tribulation . No Man hath so cordial a feeling of the passion of Christ , as he who hath suffered the like himself . The Cross therefore is always ready , and every where waits for thee . Thou canst not escape it whithersoever thou runnest ; for wheresoever thou goest , thou carriest thy self with thee , and shalt ever find thy self ; both above and below , without and within , which way soever thou dost turn thee , every where thou shalt find the Cross ; and every where of necessity thou must have patience , if thou wilt have inward peace , and enjoy an everlasting Crown . 5. If thou bear the Cross willingly , it will bear thee , and lead thee to thy desired end , to wit , where there shall be an end of suffering , though here there shall not . If thou bear it unwillingly , thou makest for thy self a new burden , and encreasest thy load , and yet notwithstanding thou must bear it . If thou cast away one Cross , without doubt thou shalt find another , and that perhaps a more heavy one . 6. Thinkest thou to escape that which no Man could ever avoid ? Which of the Saints in the world was without crosses , and tribulation ? Verily Jesus Christ our Lord was never one hour without pain of suffering , so long as he lived , Christ ( saith he ) ought to suffer , and arise again from the dead , and so to enter into his glory , Luke 24. and how dost thou seek any other way than this high way which is the way of the Holy Cross ? 7. The whole life of Christ was a Cross and Martyrdom ; and dost thou seek rest and joy ? Thou art deceived , thou art deceived if thou seekest any other thing than to suffer tribulations ; for this whole mortal life is full of miseries , and environed on every side with Crosses . And how much the more one hath profited in spirit , so much the heavier crosses he oftentimes findeth , for the love he beareth to God increaseth the grief which he endureth for his banishment . 8. But yet this Man , though so many ways afflicted , is not without some refreshing comfort , for that he perceiveth much benefit to accrew unto him by the bearing of his Cross. For whilest he willingly putteth himself under it , all the burden of tribulation is turned into the confidence of divine comfort . And how much the more the flesh is wasted by affliction , so much the more is the spirit strengthened by inward grace . And sometimes he is so comforted with the desire of tribulation and adversity , for the love of conforming himself to the Cross of Christ , that he would not wish at any time to be without sorrow and tribulation ; because he believeth that so much the more acceptable he shall be unto God , how much the more , and more grievous things he can suffer for him . This is not the power of Man , but it is the grace of Christ , that can , and doth so much in frail flesh ; that what naturally it always abhorreth and flyeth , that by fervor of spirit , it encounters with delight . 9. It is not according to Mans inclination to bear the Cross , to chastise and subdue the body , to fly honors , to suffer contumelies with a willing heart , to despise himself and to wish to be despised , to bear all adversities and dammages , and to desire no prosperity in this world . If thou considerest thy self , thou shalt be able to perform no such matter of thy self . But if thou trustest in the Lord , strength shall be given thee from Heaven , and the world and flesh shall be made subject to thy command . Neither shalt thou fear thy enemy the Devil , if thou be armed with faith , and bearest the Cross of Christ. 10. Set therefore thy self , like a good and faithful servant of Christ to bear manfully the Cross of thy Lord , who was crucified for thee out of love . Prepare thy self to bear many adversities and divers kinds of troubles in this miserable life ; for so it will be with thee , wheresoever thou be , and so surely thou wilt find it , wheresoever thou hide thy self . So it must be , and there is no remedy or means to avoid tribulation and sorrow , but to bear them . Drink of the Cup of our Lord heartily , if thou wilt be his friend ; and desirest to have part with him . As for comforts , leave them to God ; let him do therein as shall best please him . Set thou thy self to suffer tribulations , and account them the greatest comforts ; for that the sufferings of this life are not worthy of the glory which is to come , although thou alone couldest suffer them all . 11. When thou shalt come to this estate , that tribulation shall seem sweet and savory unto thee for Christ ; then thou mayst think it is well with thee , for thou hast found a Paradise upon earth . As long as it is grievous to thee to suffer , and that thou desirest to fly it ; so long shalt thou be ill at ease ; and the tribulation thou flyest will follow thee every where . 12. If thou dost set thy self to that thou oughtest , to wit , to suffer , and to die to thy self , it will quickly be better with thee , and thou shalt find peace . Although thou shouldest have been rapt even unto the third Heaven with Paul , thou art not for this secured that thou shalt suffer no adversity . I ( saith Jesus ) will shew him how great things he must suffer for my name . It remaineth therefore , that thou suffer , if thou wilt love Jesus , and perpetually serve him . 13. O that thou wert worthy to suffer something for the name of Jesus ! how great glory would it be unto thee , what joy to all the Saints of God , how great edification also to thy neighbor ! For all do commend patience ; though few desire to suffer . With great reason thou oughtest to be willing to suffer a little for Christ ; since many suffer far greater things for the world . 14. Know for certain that thou oughtest to lead a dying life . And how much the more every one dyeth to himself , so much the more doth he begin to live to God. No Man is fit to attain unto Heavenly things , unless he submit himself to the bearing of adversities for Christ. Nothing is more grateful unto God , nothing more wholesome to thee in this world , than to suffer willingly for Christ. And if it were in thy choice , thou shouldest rather wish to suffer Adversities for Christ , than to enjoy the delight of many comforts ; because hereby thou shouldest be more like unto Christ , and more conformable to all the Saints . For our worthiness , and the proficiency of our spiritual estate consisteth not in many sweetnesses and comforts , but rather in suffering great afflictions and tribulation . 15. If there had been any better thing , and more profitable to the health of Man than suffering , surely Christ would have shewed it by word and example . But he plainly exhorteth all the Disciples that followed him , and all that desire to follow him , to the bearing of the Cross , and saith , If any will come after me , let him deny himself and take up his Cross , and follow me . So that when we have read and searched all , let this be the last conclusion , That by many tribulations we must enter into the Kingdom of God. THE THIRD BOOK . CHAP. 1. Of the inward Speech of Christ unto a Faithful Soul. I Will hear what the Lord God will speak in me . Blessed is the soul that heareth the Lord speaking in her , and receiveth from his mouth the word of comfort . Blessed are those ears that receive the sound of the divine voice , and listen not to the whisperings of the world . Blessed indeed are those ears that hearken not to the voice which soundeth outwardly , but unto the truth which teacheth inwardly . Blessed are the eyes that are shut to outward things , but open to those things that are internal . Blessed are they that enter into the inward things , and endeavor to prepare themselves more and more by daily exercises to the attaining of Heavenly secrets . Blessed be they that delight to converse with God , and rid themselves of all worldly impediments . 2. Consider these things , my soul , and shut up the door of thy sensual desires , that thou mayest hear what thy Lord God speaketh in thee . Thus saith thy beloved , I am thy safety , thy peace , and thy life ; Keep thy self with me , and thou shalt find peace . Leave all transitory things , and seek those that be everlasting . What are all temporal things , but deceiving snares ? And what do all creatures avail thee , if thou be forsaken by the Creator ? Forsake therefore all earthly things and labor to please thy Creator , and be Faithful unto him , that thou mayest attain unto the true happiness . CHAP. II. That truth speaketh inwardly without noise of words . CHristian . Speak Lord , for thy servant heareth : I am thy servant , grant me unsterstanding , that I may know thy testimonies . Incline my heart to the words of thy mouth . Let thy speech distil as the dew upon my soul. The Children of Israel in times past said unto Moses , Speak thou unto us , and we will hear thee : Let not the Lord speak unto us , lest we die . Not so Lord , not so , I beseech thee . But rather with the Prophet Samuel , I humbly and earnestly intreat , Speak Lord , for thy servant heareth . Let not Moses speak unto me , nor any of the prophets , but do thou rather speak , my Lord God , the inspirer and enlightner of all the Prophets ; for thou alone without them canst perfectly instruct me , but they without thee can profit nothing . 2. They indeed may sound forth words , but they cannot give spirit and life ; they speak marvellous well , but if thou be silent , they inflame not the heart . They may teach the letter , but thou openest the sense . They bring forth mysteries , but thou unlockest the meaning of sealed things . They declare thy commandments , but thou helpest to fulfil them . They shew the way , but thou givest strength to walk in it . They work only exteriorly , but thou instructest and enlightnest the heart . They water outwardly , but thou givest fruitfulness . They make a noise with words , but thou givest understanding to the hearing . 3. Let not therefore Moses speak unto me , but thou my Lord God , the everlasting Truth ; lest I die ; and prove unfruitful , if I be warned outwardly only , and not inflamed within ; lest the word heard and not fulfilled , known and not loved , believed and not observed , turn to my condemnation . Speak therefore Lord , for thy servant heareth , for thou hast the words of everlasting life . Speak unto me to the comfort of my soul , and to the amendment of my whole life , and to thy praise and glory , and everlasting honor . CHAP. III. That the words of God are to be heard with humility , and that many weigh them not . CHrist. Son , hear my words , words of greatest sweetness , excelling all the knowledg of the Philosophers and wise Men of this world . My words are spirit and life , not to be weighed by the understanding of Man. They are not to be drawn to vain liking , but to be heard with silence , and to be received with all humility and great affection . Christian. And I said , Blessed is the Man whom thou shalt instruct ; O Lord , and shalt teach thy law , that thou mayest give him rest from the evil days , and that he be not destroyed upon earth . 2. Christ. I ( saith our Lord ) have taught the Prophets from the beginning , and cease not in these days to speak to every one ; but many are hardned and deaf to my speech . The greater number do more willingly listen to the world , than to God ; and follow sooner the desires of their flesh , than the will of God. The world promiseth temporal and small things , and is served with great eagerness : I promise most high and eternal things , and the hearts of Men are nothing moved therewith . Who is he that serveth and obeyeth me with equal care to that with which the world and the Lords thereof are served ? Blush O Sidon , saith the Sea. And if thou ask the cause , hear wherefore : For a little Prebend a long journey is undertaken ; for everlasting life many will scarce once lift a foot from the ground . A thing of small value is sought after greedily ; for a penny sometimes there is foul contention ; sor a vain thing and sleight promise , Men cease not to toil day and night . 3. But alas for an unchangeable good , for an inestimable reward , for the highest honor and glory without end , they are loth to take the least pains . Blush therefore slothful and complaining Servant , that they are found to be more ready to distruction , than thou to life . They rejoyce more in vanity than thou in the truth . And yet they are sometimes frustrated of their hope ; but my promise deceiveth none , nor sendeth him away empty that trusteth in me . I will give that which I have promised , I will fulfil that which I have said ; but to him that remains faithful in my love to the end . I am the rewarder of all that are good , and do try my devout servants with strong trials . 4. Write my words in thy heart and think diligently of them ; for they will be very necessary in time of temptation . What thou understandest not when thou readest , thou shalt know in the day of visitation . I am wont to visit my elect two several ways , to wit , with temptation , and comfort . And I daily read two lessons unto them , one reprehending their vices , another exhorting them to the increase of virtues . He that hath my words and despiseth them , hath within himself that shall judg him at the last day . A prayer to implore the grace of devotion . 5. O Lord my God , thou art to me whatsoever is good . Who am I , that dare speak unto thee ? I am thy poorest servant and a most vile worm , much more poor and contemptible than I can or dare express . Remember yet O Lord , that I am nothing , and can do nothing . Thou alone art good , just , and holy ; thou canst do all things , thou doest all things , thou fillest all things , only the sinner thou sendest empty away . Remember thy mercies , and fill my heart with thy grace , who will not that thy works be void and in vain . 6. How can I bear up my self in this miserable life , unless thou strengthen me with thy mercy and grace ? Turn not thy face from me ; delay not thy visitation ; draw not away thy comfort , lest my soul become as the thirsty land unto thee . Lord , teach me to fulfil thy will , teach me to live worthily , and humbly in thy sight , for thou art my wisdom , thou dost truly know me , and didst know me before the world was made , and before I was born in the world . CHAP. IV. That we ought to live in truth and humility before God. CHrist. Son , walk before me in sincerity and truth , and ever seek me in simplicity of heart . He that walketh before me in truth , shall be defended from evil incursions , and the Truth shall deliver him from seducers , and from the detractions of the wicked . If the Truth shall have made thee free , thou shalt be truly free , and shalt not care for the vain speeches of Men. Christian. Lord , it is true . According as thou saidst , so I beseech thee let it be with me , let thy Truth teach me , and keep me , and bring me safe to an happy end . Let it deliver me from all evil affection and inordinate love ; and I shall walk with thee in great freedom of heart . 2. Christ. I will teach thee ( saith the Truth ) these things that are right and pleasing in my sight . Think of thy sins with great displeasure and grief , and never esteem thy self any thing for thy good works . Thou art in very deed a sinner , thou art subject to , and encumbred with , may passions . Of thy self thou always tendest to nothing ; thou art quickly cast down , quickly overcome , quickly troubled , quickly dissolved . Thou hast nothing wherein thou canst glory , but many things for which thou oughtest to despise thy self ; for thou art much weaker than thou art able to comprehend . 3. And therefore let nothing seem much unto thee whatsoever thou doest . Let nothing seem great , nothing precious and wonderful ; let nothing seem worthy of estimation , nothing high , nothing truly and commendable to be desired , but that which is everlasting . Let the eternal Truth above all things please thee . Let thy own great unworthiness always displease thee . Fear nothing , blame and fly nothing so much as thy vices and sins ; which ought to displease more than the losses of any thing whatsoever . Some walk not sincerely in my sight , but led by a certain curiosity and pride , will know my secrets , and understand the high things of God , neglecting themselves and their own salvation . These oftentimes , for that I resist them , do fall into great temptations and sins , for their pride and curiosity . 4. Fear the judgments of God , dread the wrath of the Almighty . But discuss not the works of the highest . Search thine own iniquities , in how much thou hast offended , and how much good thou hast neglected . Some carry their religion only in Books , some in pictures , some in outward signs and figures . Some have me in their mouths , but little in their hearts . There are others that being illuminated in their understandings , and purged in their affection do always breath after things eternal , and are unwilling to hear of the things of this world , and do serve the necessities of nature with grief ; and these perceive what the Spirit of Truth speaketh in them ; because it teacheth them to despise Earthly , and love Heavenly things ; to neglect the world , and all the day and night to desire Heaven . CHAP. V. Of the wonderful effect of divine Love. CHristian , I praise thee , O Heavenly Father , Father of my Lord Jesus Christ for that thou hast vouchsafed to remember me a poor Creature . O Father of mercies and God of all comfort , thanks be unto thee , who sometimes with thy comfort refreshest me unworthy of all comfort . I ever bless and glorifie thee with thy only begotten Son , and the holy Ghost , for ever and ever . O Lord God , the holy lover of my soul , when thou shalt come into my heart , all that is within me will rejoyce . Thou art my glory and the exultation of my heart . Thou art my hope and refuge in the day of my tribulation . 2. But for that I am yet weak in love , and imperfect in virtue , I have need therefore to be strengthened and comforted by thee ; visit me therefore often , and instruct me with thy holy discipline . Deliver me from evil passions , and heal my heart of all inordinate affections ; that being cured within and well purged , I may be made fit to Love , strong to suffer , and constant to persevere . 3. Love is a great thing , in very truth a great good ; which alone maketh every thing that is heavy , light ; and beareth equally that which is unequal . For it carrieth a Burden without a Burden , and maketh every thing that is bitter , sweet and savoury . The noble Love of Jesus inforceth Man to do great things , and stirreth him up to desire always what is most perfect . Love will be aloft , and not kept down with any base thing . Love will be free and loose from all worldly affection , to the end its inward sight be not prejudiced , that it be not either entangled by any temporal prosperity , or subdued by adversity . Nothing is sweeter than Love , nothing stronger , nothing higher , nothing more large , nothing more pleasant , nothing fuller nor better in Heaven or in Earth : Because Love is born of God , and cannot rest but in God , above all Creatures . 4. He that loveth ; flyeth , runneth , and rejoyceth ; he is free and not held in . He giveth all for all , and hath all in all , for that he resteth in one Highest above all , from whence all good floweth and proceedeth . He respecteth not the gifts , but turneth himself above all goods unto the giver . Love oftentimes knoweth no measure , but is inflamed above all measure . Love feeleth no burden , weigheth no pains , desireth above its strength , complaineth not of impossibility , for that it thinketh all things lawful and possible . It is therefore able to undertake all things , and performeth and bringeth many things to pass ; whereas he that doth not Love , fainteth and lyes down . 5. Love watcheth , and sleeping sleepeth not : Being wearied , is not tired ; straitned , is not pressed ; frightned , is not troubled : But like a lively flame and burning Torch , breaking upwards , and securely passeth through all . If any one loveth ; he knoweth what this voice cryeth : A loud cry in the ears of God is the ardent affection of the Soul , which saith , My God , my Love , thou art wholly mine , and I wholly thine . 6. Enlarge me in Love , that with the inward mouth of my heart I may taste how sweet it is to Love , and to be melted , and swim in thy Love. Let me be possessed by Love , mounting above my self with excessive fervor and admiration . Let me Sing the Song of Love , let me follow thee on high my Beloved ; let my Soul rejoycing through Love , spend it self in thy Praise . Let me Love thee more than my self , and not my self but for thee , and all in thee that truly Love thee , as the law of Love commandeth which shineth out from thee . 7. Love is swift , sincere , pious , pleasant and delightful , strong , patient , faithful , prudent , long-suffering , manly , and never seeking it self . For where one seeketh himself , there he falleth from Love. Love is circumspect , humble , and upright : not softly , nor light , not attending unto vain things , sober , chast , constant , quiet , and guarded in all the senses . Love is subject and obedient to Superiors , mean and abject to it self , devout and thankful unto God , trusting and hoping always in him , even then when God imparteth no sweetness unto it : For without sorrow none liveth in Love. 8. He that is not ready to suffer all things , and stand to the will of his beloved , is not worthy to be called a Lover . A Lover ought to embrace willingly all that is hard and distasteful for his Beloved ; and not to turn away from him for any contrary accidents . CHAP : VI. Of the proof of a true Lover . CHrist. Son , thou art not yet a strong and prudent Lover . Christian. Wherefore Lord ? Christ. Because thou givest over for a small adversity , and too greedily seekest comfort . A strong Lover standeth firmly in temptations , and giveth not credit to the crafty perswasions of the enemy . As I please him in prosperity , so I am not unpleasant to him in adversity . 2. A prudent Lover considereth not so much the gift of his Lover , as the Love of the giver . He rather esteemeth the good will than the value , and placeth all gifts under his Beloved . A noble Lover resteth not in the gift , but in me above every gift . All therefore is not lost , if sometimes thou hast less taste of me than thou wouldest . That good and sweet affection which thou sometimes feelest , is the effect of present grace , and a certain fore-taste of the heavenly Country ; whereon thou mayest not rely too much , for it goeth and cometh . But to fight against evil motions of the mind which may happen unto thee , and to despise the suggestions of the Devil , is a notable sign of virtue and shall have great reward . 3. Let not therefore strange fancies forced into thee , of any matter whatsoever , trouble thee . Retain a strong purpose and an upright intention to God. Neither is it an illusion that sometimes thou art suddenly rapt on high , and presently returnest again unto the accustomed vanities of thy heart . For thou dost rather unwillingly suffer them , than commit them : and as long as they displease thee , and thou strivest against them , it is matter of reward , and no loss . 4. Know that thy antient enemy doth ever strive to hinder thy desire to good , and to deliver thee from all religious exercise ; to wit , from the devout memory of my passion , from the profitable remembrance of thy sins , from the guard of thine own heart , and from the firm purpose of profiting in virtue . He injecteth many evil thoughts into thy mind , that he may cause a wearisomness and horror in thee , to draw thee from Prayer and Holy reading . Humble confession is displeasing unto him ; and if he could , he would cause thee to cease from receiving the Sacrament . Trust him not , nor care for him , although he should often set snares of deceit to intrap thee . Charge him with it when he suggesteth evil and unclean thoughts unto thee ; Say unto him , Away unclean Spirit , blush miserable wretch ; thou art very unclean that bringest such things unto mine ears . Away from me wicked deceiver , thou shalt have no part in me : But Jesus shall be with me as a strong Warrior , and thou shalt stand confounded . I had rather die , and undergo any torment , than consent unto thee . Hold thy peace and be silent ; I will hear thee no more , though thou shouldest work me many troubles . The Lord is my light and my Salvation , whom shall I fear ? If whole Armies should stand together against me , my heart shall not fear . The Lord is my helper and my redeemer . 5. Fight like a good Soldier : and if thou sometimes fall through frailty , take greater strength than before , trusting in my more abundant grace : and take great heed of vain pleasing of thy self and of pride . This brings many into error , and makes them sometimes fall into almost incurable blindness . Let the fall of the proud foolishly presuming of themselves serve thee for a warning , and keep thee perpetually humble . CHAP. VII . That grace is to be hid under the veil of Humility . CHrist. Son , it is more profitable and safe for thee to hide the grace of devotion ; not to extol thy self , nor to speak much , nor to esteem much thereof , but rather to despise thy self , and fear it , as given to one unworthy thereof . This affection is not to be cleaved unto , which may be quickly changed unto the contrary . Think when thou art in grace , how miserable and needy thou art wont to be without grace . Neither doth therein only consist , the proficiency of a spiritual life , when thou hast the grace of comfort ; but when thou humbly , self-denyingly and patiently sufferest the withdrawing thereof , so that thou be not then less diligent in the exercise of prayer , nor suffer the rest of thy accustomed duties to be neglected ; but that thou willingly perform what lieth in thee , according to the best of thy power and understanding , not neglecting thy self wholly for the dryness and trouble of mind which thou feelest . 2. There are many that when it succeedeth not well with them , presently they become impatient or slothful . The way of Man is not always in his power , but it belongeth to God to give and to comfort when he will , and how much he will , and whom he will ; as it shall please him , and no more . Some unadvised persons have overthrown themselves for the greedy desire which they had of the grace of devotion ; attempting more than they were able to perform , not weighing the measure of their weakness , but following rather the desire of their heart , than the judgment of reason . And because they presumed on greater matters than was pleasing to God , they quickly lost his grace . They became needy , and left in a dejected estate , that built themselves nests in Heaven ; to the end that being humbled and impoverished , they might learn not to flie with their own wings , but to trust under my wings . They that are yet but novices and unacquainted in the way of the Lord , unless they govern themselves by the counsel of discreet Persons , may easily be deceived and overthrown . 3. And if they will rather follow their own judgment , than give credit to others that are experienced , their end will be dangerous , if they will not be drawn from their own conceit . Seldom those that are selfwise suffer themselves humbly to be governed by others . A little knowledg with Humility , and a slender understanding , is better than great measures of learning with a vain self-liking . It is better for thee to have little than much of that whereof thou mayest be proud . He doth not discreetly , that wholly giveth himself over to mirth , forgetting his former poverty , and the chaste fear of God , which feareth to lose the grace which he hath obtained . Neither is he virtuously wise , that in time of adversity or any tribulation whatsoever , yieldeth to despairing thoughts and thinketh and imagineth of me less confidently than he ought . 4. He that will be over secure in time of peace , shall be often found in time of war too dejected and fearful . If thou couldest always continue humble and lowly within thy self , and order and govern thy spirit well , thou shouldest not so soon fall into danger and offence . It is good counsel , that when fervor of spirit is kindled within thee , thou shouldest think what will become of thee , when that light shall leave thee . And when that doth happen , remember the light may return again , which for thy instruction and my glory I have withdrawn for a time . 5. Such proof is often more profitable , than if thou shouldest always enjoy prosperity according to thy desire . For a Mans worthiness is not to be judged by the number of visions and comforts which he hath , or by his knowledg in Scripture , or by his being placed in high degree ; but in that he is grounded in true humility , and filled with divine love ; if he always purely and entirely seek the honor of God , if he esteem himself nothing , and unfriendly despise himself , and rejoyce more to be despised and humbled by others , than to be honored . CHAP. VIII . Of a mean conceit of our selves in the sight of God. CHristian . Shall I speak unto my Lord sith I am Dust and Ashes ? If I esteem better of my self , behold thou standest against me , and my iniquities bear true witness against me : Neither can I speak against it . But if I abase and esteem nothing of my self , and cast off all self-esteem , and ( as I am ) account my self to be Dust , thy grace will be favorable unto me , and thy light will be near unto my heart ; and all self-esteem , how little soever shall be swallowed up in the deep Valley of my nothingness , and perish everlastingly . There thou shewest my self unto me , what I am , what I have been , and whither I am come ; for I am nothing , and I knew it not . And if I be left to my self , behold I become nothing but mere weakness . But if thou suddenly look upon me , I am presently made strong , and filled with new joy . And it is a great marvel , that I am so suddenly lifted up , and so graciously embraced by thee , that of mine own weight always sink downward . 2. Thy Love is cause hereof , freely preventing me , and relieving me in so many necessities , preserving me also from grievous dangers , and delivering me ( as I may truly say ) from innumerable evils . For surely by inordinate loving my self , I lost my self and by seeking thee alone , and purely loving thee , I have found both my self and thee , and by that Love have more deeply brought my self to nothing . For that thou , O most sweet Lord , dealest with me above all desert , and above all that I dare hope and request . 3. Blessed be thou my God ; for although I be unworthy of any benefits , yet the nobleness of thy bounty and thy infinite goodness never ceaseth to do good even to the ungrateful , and to them that be turned away far from thee . Turn us unto thee , O Lord , that we may be thankful , humble , and holy ; for thou art our safety , our power , and our strength . CHAP. IX . That all things are to be referred unto God , as unto the last end . CHrist. Son , I ought to be thy chiefest and last end , if thou desirest to be truly blessed . With this intention thy affection shall be purified which is oftentimes inclined inordinately to it self and unto Creatures . For if in any thing thou seekest thy self , thou presently faintest and driest up within thy self . Refer therefore all things chiefly unto me , for I am he that have given all . Consider every thing as flowing from the Highest good ; and therefore all things are to be reduced unto me as unto their Original . 2. Out of me , as out of a living Fountain , the little and the great , the poor and the rich , to draw the water of life : and they that willingly and freely serve me , shall receive grace for grace . But he that will glory out of me , or be delighted in any particular good , shall not be grounded in true joy , nor enlarged in his heart , but shall be many ways encumbred and straitned . Thou oughtest therefore to ascribe nothing of good unto thy self , nor attribute goodness unto any Man ; but give all unto God , without whom Man hath nothing . I have bestowed all , and will that all be returned unto me again ; and with great strictness I require thanks . 3. This is the truth that putteth to flight vain Glory , and if heavenly grace and true Love enter in , there shall be no envy nor straitness of heart , neither shall there be any place for self-love . For Divine Love overcometh all , and enlargeth all the powers of the Soul. If thou beest truly wise , in me alone thou wilt rejoyce , in me alone thou wilt hope : For none is good , but God alone , who is to be praised above all things , and to be blessed in all . CHAP. X. That the World being despised , it is a sweet thing to serve God. CHristian . Now I will speak again , O Lord , and will not be silent , I will say in the ears of my God , my Lord , and my King that is on High , Psal. 31. O how great is the abundance of thy goodness , O Lord , which thou hast laid up for those that fear thee ! But what art thou to them that Love thee ? What to them that serve thee with their whole heart ? Truly unspeakable is the sweetness of contemplating thee , which thou bestowest on them that Love thee . In this chiefly thou hast shewed me the sweetness of thy Love : For that when I was not , thou madest me ; and when I went astray far off from thee , thou broughtest me back again , that I might serve thee , and hast commanded me to Love thee . 2. O Fountain of everlasting Love , what shall I say of thee ? How can I forget thee , that hast vouchsafed to remember me , even when I wasted away , and perished ? Thou hast shewed mercy to thy Servant beyond all my expectation : And hast exhibited thy favor and friendship beyond all merit . What shall I return unto thee for this grace . For it is not granted to every one to forsake all things , to renounce the World , and to undertake a life of Religious retiredness . It is much that I should serve thee , whom all Creatures are bound to serve . It ought not to seem much unto me to serve thee ; but this rather seemeth much and marvellous unto me that thou vouchsafest to receive into thy service one so poor and unworthy , and to joyn him with thy beloved Servants . 3. Behold , all is thine which I have , and whereby I serve thee . And yet contrarywise thou rather servest me than I thee . Behold , Heaven and Earth , which thou hast created for the service of Man are ready at hand , and do daily perform whatsoever thou dost command ; and this is little ; yea , thou hast also appointed the Angels to the service of Man. But that which excelleth all this is , that thou thy self hast vouchsafed to serve Man , and hast promised to give thy self unto him . 4. What shall I give thee for all these thousands of benefits ? I would I could serve thee all the days of my life . I would I were able at least for one day , to do thee some worthy service ! Thou art truly worthy of all service , of all honor , and everlasting praise . Thou art truly my Lord , and I thy poor Servant , that am bound to serve thee with all my might , neither ought I ever to be weary of praising thee . And this I wish to do , this I desire ; and whatsoever is wanting unto me , vouchsafe I beseech thee to supply . 5. It is great honor , a great glory to serve thee , and despise all things for thee . For great grace shall be given to them that shall willingly subject themselves to thy most holy service , They shall receive the most sweet comfort of the holy Ghost , that for thy love shall renounce all carnal delights , they shall attain great freedom of mind , that for thy names sake shall enter into the narrow way , and shall have left off all worldly care . 6. O sweet and delightful service of God , by which Man is truly made free and holy ! O sacred state of religious employment , which maketh Man equal to Angels , pleasing to God , terrible to Devils , grateful and of great esteem to all the faithful ! O service to be imbraced and always wished for by which we obtain the greatest good , and attain to that joy which never shall have end ! CHAP. XI . That the desires of our heart are to be examined and moderated . CHrist. Son , thou oughtest to learn many things more , which thou hast not well learned . Christian. What are those Lord ? Christ. That thou frame thy desires wholly according to my pleasure ; and be not a lover of thy self , but an affectionate follower of my will. Thy desires oftentimes enflame thee , and drive thee forwards with violence : But consider whether thou art moved rather for my honor , than for thine own profit . If I be the cause , thou wilt be well content with whatsoever I shall ordain : But if there lurk in thee any self-seeking , behold this is it that hindereth thee and weigheth thee down . 2. Beware therefore thou lean not too much upon thy own preconceived desire , without asking my counsel , lest perhaps afterwards it repent thee , and thou begin now to dislike that which before did please thee , and which thou earnestly desiredst as the best . For every affection that seemeth good is not presently to be followed ; nor every contrary affection at the first to be avoided . It is expedient sometimes to use a restraint even in good desires and endeavors , lest by importunity thou incurre distraction of mind , and by thy want of self-government beget a scandal unto others ; or being gainsaid by others thou be suddenly troubled and fall . 3. Yet sometimes thou oughtest to use violence , and resist manfully thy sensual appetites , and respect not what the flesh would , or would not ; but rather to labor that even perforce it be subject to the spirit . And it is to be chastised so long , and to be forced under servitude , until it readily obey in all things , and learn to be content with a little , and to be pleased with plain things , and not to murmure against any inconvenience . CHAP. XII . Of patience , and of striving against conoupiscence . CHristian . Lord God , I perceive patience is very necessary unto me , for that many adversities do happen in this life . For howsoever I shall dispose of my peace , my life cannot be without war and affliction . Christ. So it is Son. And my will is not that thou seek after that peace which is void of temptations , or that which feeleth no contrariety ; but then think that thou hast found peace , when thou art exercised with sundry tribulations , and tried in many adversities . 2. If thou say , that thou art not able to suffer much , how then wilt thou endure the Fire hereafter ? Of two evils the less is always to be chosen . That thou maist therefore avoid everlasting punishment in the next World , endeavor to suffer patiently for God the present evils of this . Dost thou think that the Men of this World suffer little or nothing ? Look into the life even of them that live in greatest delicacies , and thou shalt find it otherwise . But thou wilt say , they have many delights , and follow their own wills , and therefore they make small account of their tribulations : Be it so , that they have whatsoever they will ; but how long dost thou think it will last ? 3. Behold , the wealthy of this World vanish away like smoak , and there shall be no memory of their joys past . Yea , even while they live also , they rest not in them without bitterness , irksomeness and fear . For the self same thing in which they take their delight , is oftentimes unto them the cause of sorrow . They have their desert , who for that they inordinately seek and follow delights , they do not enjoy them but with shame and sorrow . 4. O how short and false , how inordinate and filthy are all those pleasures ! Yet so Drunken and Blind are Men that they understand it not : But like Dumb beasts , for a little pleasure of a corruptible life , they incur the Eternal death of their Soul. Do not thou therefore my Son , go after thy Lusts , but forsake thine own will , Psal. 37. Delight in the Lord , and he will give thee the desires of thy heart . 5. For if thou desire true delight , and to be more plentifully comforted by me , behold , in the contempt of all wordly things , and in the cutting off all base delights shall be thy blessing , and abundant comforts shall be given thee . And how much the more thou withdrawest thy self from all comfort of Creatures , so much the sweeter and more powerful consolations shalt thou find in me . But at first thou canst not attain unto them without fome sorrow , nor without a laborious conflict . Thy old custom will make resistance , and thou must overcome it with another custom that is better . Thy flesh will murmur ; but thou must bridle it with fervor of Spirit . The old Serpent will sting and trouble thee ; but by Prayer he shall be put to flight , and by profitable industry thou shalt stop the way against him . CHAP. XIII . Of the humble obedience of a Subject , according to the example of Christ. CHrist. Son , he that endeavoreth to withdraw himself from obedience , withdraweth himself from grace . And he that seeketh things private , shall lose the publick . He that doth not willingly and freely submit himself to his Superior , it is a sign that his flesh is not as yet perfectly obedient unto him , but oftentimes kicketh , and murmureth against him . Learn therefore readily to submit thy self to thy Superior , if thou desirest to subdue thine own flesh . For the outward enemy is sooner overcome , if the inward Man be not wasted . There is no worse enemy , nor more troublesome to the Soul , than thou art unto thy self , not agreeing well with the Spirit . Thou must of necessity have a true contempt of thy self , if thou wilt prevail against flesh and blood . 2. Because thou lovest thy self as yet too inordinately , therefore thou art afraid to resign thy self wholly to the will of others . But what great matter is it , if thou , that art Dust and nothing , submit thy self to a Man for God , when I the Almighty and highest Soveraign who created all things of nothing , humbly submitted my self unto Man for thee ? I became the most humble and abject of all Men , that thou mightest overcome thy pride with my humility . Learn to obey thou that art Dust. Learn to humble thy self thou Earth and Clay , and put thy self under the Feet of all Men. Learn to break thine own will , and to yield thy self to all Subjection . 3. Be vehement against thy self , and suffer not pride to live in thee : But so humble and submit thy self to all , that every one may go over thee , and tread thee as dirt of the Streets under their Feet . Vain Man , what canst thou complain of ? What canst thou answer , foul sinner , to them that reprove thee , who hast so often offended God , and so many times deserved Hell ? But mine eye hath spared thee , because thy Soul was precious in my sight ; that thou mightest know my Love , and always remain thankful for my benefits ; and that thou mightest continually give thy self to true subjection and humility , and mightest bear patiently the contempt of thy self . CHAP. XIV . Of the secret Iudgments of God to be considered , lest we be exalted in our good deeds . Christian. Thou thunderest forth thy Judgments over me , O Lord , and shakest all my bones with fear and trembling , and my Soul is fore afraid . I stand astonished , when I consider that the Heavens are not pure in thy sight . If thou hast found wickedness in Angels , and hast not pardoned them , what shall become of me ? Stars fell from Heaven , and what do I presume that am Dust ? They whose works seemed commendable , fell into the lowest misery : And I have seen them , that did eat the Bread of Angels , to be delighted with the husks of Swine . 2. There is therefore no sanctity , if thou , O Lord , withdrawest thy hand . No wisdom availeth , if thou ceasest to Govern. No strength helpeth , if thou leavest to defend . No chastity is secure , if thou dost not protect it . No custody of our own profitable , if thy sacred watchfulness be not present . For , if we be left of thee , we sink and perish ; but if thou vouchsafest to visit us , we are raised up and live . We are inconstant , but by thee we are established : we wax cold , but by thee we are enflamed . 3. O how meanly and humbly ought I to think of my self ! how little , yea nothing ought I to esteem it , if I seem to have any good ! O Lord , with what profound Humility ought I to submit my self to thy bottomless judgements ; where I find my self to be nothing else , but nothing , and nothing ! O unmeasurable weight ! O sea that can never be passed over , where I find my self only and wholly nothing ! Where then is the lurking hole of glory ? Where is the confidence conceived of virtue ? All vain glorying is swallowed up in the deep of thy judgements over me . 4. What is all flesh in thy sight ? Shall the clay glory against him that frameth it ? How can he be lifted up with vain words , whose heart is truly subject to God ? All the world cannot lift him up , whom the Truth hath subjected unto it self . Neither shall he be moved with the Tongues of all his praisers , that hath setled his whole hope in God. For as for them that speak behold , they all are nothing ; they shall pass away with the sound of their words , but the truth of the Lord remaineth for ever . CHAP. XV. How we are to stand affected , and what we are to say , in every thing which we desire . CHrist. Son , say thus in every thing , Lord , if it be pleasing unto thee , let this be done in this sort ; Lord , if it be to thy honor , let this be done in thy Name ; Lord , if thou seest it expedient for me , and allowest it to be profitable , then grant unto me , that I may use this unto thine honor . But if thou knowest it will be hurtful unto me , and not profitable to the health of my soul , take away this desire from me . For every desire proceedeth not from the holy Ghost , though it seem unto Man right and good . It is hard to judge rightly whether a good Spirit or the contrary drive thee to desire this or that ; or whether also by thine own spirit thou be moved thereunto . Many are deceived in the end , who at the first seemed to be led by a good Spirit . 2. Always therefore , whatsoever occurreth unto thy mind to be desired , let it be desired and prayed for in the fear of God and with Humility of heart ; and above all thou oughtest to commit the whole unto me with resignation of thy self , and thou oughtest to say , Lord thou knowest what is best , let this or that be done as thou pleasest . Give what thou wilt , and how much thou wilt , and when thou wilt . Deal with me as thou thinkest good , and as best pleaseth thee , and is most for thy honor . Set me , where thou wilt , and deal with me in all things according to thy will. I am in thy hand ; turn me , and turn me again which way soever thou please . Behold I am thy Servant , prepared for all things ; for I desire not to live unto my self , but unto thee ; and O that I could do it worthily and perfectly ! A Prayer for the fulfilling of the will of God. 3. Grant me thy Grace O most gracious Jesus , that it may be with me , and labor with me , and persevere with me until the end . Grant me always to desire and will that which is most acceptable unto thee , and best pleaseth thee . Let thy will be mine , and let my will ever follow thine , and agree perfectly with it . Let my will and nill be all one with thine , and let me not will or nill any thing else , but what thou willest or nillest . 4. Grant that I may die to all things that are in the World , and to love to be contemned for thy sake and not to be known in this world . Grant that above all things that can be desired , I may rest in thee , and may quiet my heart in thee . Thou art the true peace of the heart , thou art the only rest ; out of thee all things are troublesom and unquiet . In this very peace , that is , in thee , the one chiefest eternal Good , I will sleep and rest . Amen . CHAP. XVI . That true comfort is to be sought in God alone . WHatsoever I can desire or imagine for my comfort , I look not for it here , but hereafter . For if I should alone have all the comforts of the world , and might enjoy all the delights thereof , it is certain that they could not long endure . Wherefore my soul , thou canst not be fully comforted , nor have perfect delight but in God , the comforter of the poor , and the helper of the humble . Expect a while , O my soul , expect the divine promise and thou shalt have abundance of all good things in Heaven . If thou desire inordinately the things that are present , thou shalt lose the celestial and eternal . Use temporal things , and desire eternal . Thou canst not be filled with any temporal goods , because thou art not created to enjoy them . 2. Although thou shouldest enjoy all created good , yet couldst thou not be happy thereby nor blessed ; but in God , that hath created all things , thy whole beatitude and happiness consisteth ; not such as is seen , and commended by the foolish lovers of the world , but such as the good and faithful Servants of Christ expect , and the spiritual and pure in heart , whose conversation is in Heaven , sometimes have a foretast of . Vain and short is all humane comfort . Blessed and true is the comfort which is received inwardly from the Truth . A Religious Man every where carrieth with him Jesus his comforter , and saith unto him , Be present with me Lord Jesus in every place and time . Let this be my comfort , to be willing to want all humane comfort . And if thy comfort be wanting , let thy will and just proving of me be unto me as the greatest comfort ; for thou wilt not be angry always , neither wilt thou threaten for ever . CHAP. XVII . That all our care is to be placed in God. CHrist. Son , suffer me to do with thee what I please . I know what is expedient for thee . Thou thinkest as Man ; thou judgest in many things as humane affection perswadeth thee . Christian. Lord , what thou sayest is true . Thy care for me is greater than all the care that I can take for my self . For he standeth very totteringly , that casteth not his whole care upon thee . Lord so that my will may remain right and firm towards thee , do with me whatsoever it shall please thee . For it cannot be but good whatsoever thou doest with me . 2. If it be thy will I should be in darkness , be thou blessed ; and if it be thy will I should be in light , be thou again Blessed . If thou vouchsafest to comfort me , be thou Blessed ; and if thou wilt afflict me , be thou ever equally blessed . Christ. Son , Thus thou oughtest to be minded , if thou wilt walk with me . Thou must be as ready to suffer , as to rejoyce . Thou oughtest to be as willing to be poor and needy , as full and rich . 3. Christian. Lord , I will willingly suffer for thee , whatsoever thy pleasure is shall befall me . I will receive indifferently from thy hand good and evil , sweet and sowre , delightful and sorrowful , and give thee thanks for all that befalleth me . Keep me from all sin , and I will neither fear death nor Hell ; so as thou dost not for ever cast me from thee , nor blot me out of the Book of life , what tribulation soever befal me shall not hurt me . CHAP. XVIII . That temporal miseries after the example of Christ , must be born patiently . CHrist. Son , I descended from Heaven for thy Salvation ; I took upon me thy miseries , my own love and not any necessity drawing me thereunto ; that thou mightest learn patience , and not grudgingly bear temporal miseries . For from the hour of my birth , until my death on the Cross , I was not without suffering of grief . I suffered great want of temporal things ; I often heard many complaints against me ; I bore patiently shame and reproaches ; for benefits I received ingratitude ; for miracles , blasphemies ; for Heavenly Doctrine , reprehensions . 2. Christian. Lord , for that thou wert patient in thy life-time , chiefly fulfilling herein the commandment of thy Father , it is reason that I a miserable sinner should shew my self patient according to thy will , and for my souls welfare bear the burden of this corruptible life as long as thou wilt . For although this present life be burdensom , yet notwithstanding it is now by thy grace made very gainful ; and by thy example and the footsteps of thy Saints , more plain and tolerable to the weak . Yea , much more comfortable also than it was in times past in the old Law , when the gate of Heaven remained shut , and the way also to Heaven seemed darker , when so few took care to seek after thy Kingdom . Neither they also that then were just and such as should be saved , could enter into the Heavenly Kingdom , before the satisfaction of thy holy passion and death . 3. O how many and great thanks am I bound to render unto thee , that thou hast vouchsafed to shew unto me and to all the faithful a direct and sure way to thy everlasting Kingdom ! For thy life is our way , and by holy patience we go unto thee that art our Crown . If thou hadst not gone before us and taught us , who would have taken care to follow ? Alas ! How many would stay behind and remain far off , if they beheld not thy noble example ? Behold we are yet cold , although we have heard of so many of thy wonders , and thy Heavenly documents ; what would become of us , if we had not so great a light given us to follow thee ? CHAP. XIX . Of suffering of injuries : and who is proved to be truly patient . CHrist. What is it thou sayest , Son ? Cease to complain , considering my passion , and that of my other Saints . Thou hast not yet made resistance unto blood . It is but little thou sufferest , in comparison of them that have suffered so much , were so strongly tempted , so grievously afflicted , so many ways tried and exercised . Thou oughtest therefore to call to mind the more heavy sufferings of others , that thou mayest the easier bear the little adversities which thou sufferest . And if they seem not little unto thee , beware lest thy impatience be cause thereof . Yet whether they be little or great , endeavor to bear all patiently . 2. How much the better thou disposest thy self to suffering , so much the more wisely thou doest , and so much the greater reward shalt thou receive ; thou shalt more easily also endure it , if both in mind and by exercise thou art well prepared thereunto . Do not say , I cannot suffer these things at the hands of such a person , nor such things are not to be suffered by me : for he hath done me great wrong , and upbraided me with those things which I never thought of ; but of another I will willingly suffer , and as I shall see cause . Such a thought is foolish ; it considereth not the virtue of patience , nor by whom it shall be crowned ; but rather weigheth the persons , and the injuries offered . 3. He is not truly patient , that will not suffer but as much as he thinketh good , and by whom he listeth . But the true patient Man mindeth not by whom he is exercised , whether by his Superiors , or some of his equals , or by his inferiors ; whether by a good and holy Man , or by a perverse and unworthy person . But indifferently from all creatures , how much soever , or how often soever any adversity befalleth him , he taketh all this thankfully as from the hands of God , and esteemeth it a great gain ; for that nothing before God , how little soever , so it be suffered for God , shall pass without its reward . 4. Be thou therefore always prepared for the fight , if thou wilt have the victory . Without a combat thou canst not attain unto the crown of patience . If thou wilt not suffer , thou refusest to be crowned . But if thou desirest to be crowned , fight manfully , and endure patiently . Without labor there is no coming to rest , nor without fighting can the victory be obtained . Christian. Lord , let that be made possible to me by thy grace , which seemeth impossible to me by nature . Thou knowest that I can suffer but little , and that I am quickly dismayed , when a small adversity ariseth . Let every exercise of tribulation be made amiable unto me , and be welcom for thy name ; for to suffer and to be troubled for thy sake , is very profitable for my soul. CHAP. XX. Of the acknowledging of our own infirmities : and of the miseries of this life . CHristian . I will confess against me my unrighteousness , I will confess unto thee , O Lord , my infirmities . Oftentimes it is a small matter that dejecteth and grieveth me . I purpose to act with courage , but when a small temptation cometh , it bringeth me into very narrow straits . It is sometimes a very trifle , from whence great temptations do proceed . And whilest I think my self somewhat safe , when I least expect it I find my self sometimes overcome with a small blast . 2. Behold , therefore , Lord , my lowness and frailty every way known unto thee . Have mercy on me and deliver me out of the mire that I stick not fast therein , and that I may not for ever remain dejected . This is that which oftentimes strikes me at the very heart , and confounds me in thy sight , for that I am so subject to fall , and weak in resisting of my passions . And although though I do not altogether consent , yet their continual assaults are troublesom and grievous unto me ; and it is a very irksom thing to live thus daily in conflict . Hereby my infirmity is made known unto me , for that wicked fancies do always much more easily invade than forsake me . 3. O mighty God of Israel , the zealous lover of faithful souls , let it please thee to consider the labor and sorrow of thy Servant , and assist him in all whatsoever he undertaketh . Strengthen me with Heavenly strength , lest the old Man , the miserable flesh , not fully as yet subject to the spirit , prevail and get the upper hand ; against which I ought to fight as long as I breath in this miserable life . Alas , what a kind of life is this , where tribulation and miseries are never wanting ! where all is full of snares , and enemies ! For when one tribulation or temptation goeth away , another first cometh ; yea and during the first conflict also , many others come unlooked for one after another . 4. And how can a life be loved that hath so many embitterments , and is subject to so many calamities and miseries ? How is it called a life that begetteth so many deaths and plagues ? And yet it is loved , and many seek to delight themselves therein . The world is oftentimes blamed that it is deceitful and vain , and yet it is not easily forsaken , because the desires of the flesh bear so great a sway . 5. Some things draw us to love it , others to contemn it . To the love of the world , the lust of the flesh , the lust of the eyes , and the pride of life do draw us ; but the pains and miseries that do justly follow them cause a hatred and loathsomness thereof . 6. But alas ! vile pleasure overcometh the mind which is addicted to the world ; and she esteemeth it a delight to be even under thorns , because she hath neither seen nor tasted the sweetness of God , and the inward pleasantness of virtue . But they that perfectly contemn the world , and endeavor to live to God under holy discipline , these are not ignorant of the divine sweetness promised to the true forsakers of the world , and do more clearly see how grievously the world erreth , and how it is many ways deceived . CHAP. XXI . That we are to rest in God above all his gifts , and benefits . CHristian . Above all things , and in all things , O my soul , thou shalt ever rest in the Lord , for he is the everlasting rest of the Saints . Grant me , O most sweet and loving Jesus , to rest in thee above all creatures , above all health and beauty , above all glory and honor , above all power and dignity , above all knowledg and subtilty , above all riches and arts , above all joy and gladness , above all fame and praise , above all sweetness and comfort , above all hope and promise , above all desert and desire , above all gifts and presents that thou canst give and impart unto us , above all mirth and jubilee that the mind of Man can receive and feel ; lastly , above Angels and Archangels and above all the Heavenly host , above all visible and invisible things , and above all that thou art not , O my God. 2. For that thou , my Lord God , art best of all ; thou alone art most high , thou alone most powerful , thou alone most full and sufficient , thou alone most sweet and solacing , thou alone most lovely and loving , thou alone most noble and glorious above all things , in whom all good things together both perfectly are , and ever have been , and shall be : and therefore it is too little and not sufficient , whatsoever thou bestowest on me besides thy self , or revealest unto me of thy self , or promisest , whilest thou art not seen , and not fully obtained ; for surely my heart cannot truly rest nor be fully contented , unless it rest in thee , and surmount all gifts and creatures whatsoever . 3. O my most beloved Bridegroom Jesus Christ , the most pure lover , the governor of all creatures ; O that I had the wings of true liberty that I might flie and rest in thee ! O when shall it be fully granted me to consider in quietness of mind and see how sweet thou art , my Lord God! When shall I fully gather up my self into thee , that by reason of my love to thee I may not feel my self , but thee alone , above all sense and feeling , in a manner not known unto every one ! but now I oftentimes sigh , and bear my infelicity with grief , for that many evils occurr in this vale of miseries , which do often trouble , grieve , and overcloud me ; often hinder and distract me , allure and intangle me , for that I can have no free access unto thee , nor enjoy thy sweet embracings wherewith thou ever favorest the blessed Spirits . O let my sighs and manifold desolations on Earth affect thee . 4. O Jesus , the brightness of eternal glory , and comfort of the pilgrim soul , with thee is my tongue without voice , and my very silence speaketh unto thee . How long doth my Lord delay to come ? Let him come unto me his poor Servant , and make me glad . Let him put forth his hand and deliver miserable me from all anguish . Come , O come ; for without thee I shall have no joyful day nor hour ; for thou art my joy , and without thee my table is empty . A wretched creature I am , and in a manner imprisoned and loaden with Irons , until thou comfortest me with the light of thy presence , and settest me at liberty , and shewest a friendly countenance unto me . 5. Let others seek what they please instead of thee : but for me , nothing else doth nor shall delight me , but thou only my God , my hope , my everlasting salvation . I will not hold my peace , nor cease to pray , until thy grace return again , and thou speak inwardly unto me . Christ. Behold I am here ; behold I come unto thee , because thou hast called upon me . Thy tears and the desire of thy soul , thy humiliation and the contrition of thy heart , have inclined and brought me unto thee . Christian. And I said , Lord , I have called thee , and have desired to enjoy thee , being ready to refuse all things for thee . For thou first hast stirred me up that I might seek thee . Blessed be thou therefore , O Lord , that hast shewed this goodness to thy Servant , according to the multitude of thy mercies . 6. What hath thy servant more to say before thee , but that he do greatly humble himself in thy sight , always mindful of his own iniquity , and vileness ? For there is none like unto thee in all whatsoever is wonderful in Heaven and Earth . Thy works are very good , thy judgments true , and by thy providence all things are governed . Praise therefore and glory be unto thee , O wisdom of the Father : let my mouth , my soul , and all creatures together praise and bless thee . CHAP. XXII . Of the remembrance of the manifold benefits of God. CHristian . Open , O Lord , my heart in thy Law , and teach me to walk in thy Commandments . Grant me to understand thy will , and to remember thy benefits as well in general , as in particular , with great reverence and diligent consideration ; that henceforward I may be able worthily to give thee thanks . But I know , and confess , that I am not able in the least point to give thee , due thanks , for the favors which thou bestowest upon me . I am less than the least of all thy benefits ; and when I consider thy noble bounty , the greatness thereof maketh my spirit to faint . 2. All that we have in our soul and body and whatsoever we possess outwardly or inwardly , naturally or supernaturally , are thy benefits , and do speak thee bountiful , merciful , and good , from whom we have received all good things . Although one have received more , another less ; all notwithstanding are thine , and without thee even the least cannot be had . He that hath received greater cannot glory of his own desert , nor extol himself above others , nor insult over the lesser ; for he is greater and better that ascribeth least unto himself , and is more humble and religious in rendring thanks . And he that esteemeth himself vilest of all Men , and judgeth himself most unworthy , is fittest to receive great blessings . 3. And he that hath received fewer , ought not to be sorry nor take it grievously , nor envy them that are enriched with greater store ; but attend rather unto thee , and highly praise thy goodness , for that thou bestowest thy gifts so bountifully , so freely , and so willingly without respect of persons . All things proceed from thee , and therefore in all things thou art to be praised . Thou knowest what is fit to be given to every one ; and why this Man hath less , and he more , it is not ours , but thine to judge , who dost exactly know what is meet for every one . 4. Wherefore , my Lord God , I esteem it as a great mercy , not to have much of that which outwardly and in the opinion of Men , might seem worthy of glory and applause : so that he who considereth the poverty and unworthiness of his person , ought not therefore to conceive grief or sorrow , or to be therefore troubled , but rather to take great comfort , and to be glad : for that thou O God hast chosen the poor and humble and the despised of this world for thy self , and for thy familiar and domestick attendants . Witnesses are thy Apostles themselves , whom thou hast made Princes in all the Earth . And yet they lived without complaint in the world , so humble and simple , without all malice and deceit , that they also rejoyced to suffer reproach for thy Name , and what the world abhorreth , they embraced with great affection . 5. Nothing therefore ought so to rejoyce him that loveth thee and acknowledgeth thy benefits , as thy will in him , and the good pleasure of thy eternal appointment ; wherewith he ought to be so contented and comforted , that he would as willingly be the least , as any would wish to be the greatest , and as peaceable and contented in the last as in the first place ; and as willing to be despised and contemned and to be of no esteem or account , as to be preferred in honor before all others and to be greater in the world . For thy will and the love of thy glory ought to be preferred before all things , and to comfort him more , and please him better , than all the benefits which either he hath received or may receive . CHAP. XXIII . Of Four things that bring much peace . CHrist. Son , now I will teach thee the way of peace , and true liberty . Christian , Do Lord , I beseech thee , as thou sayest , for I shall be very glad to hear it . Christ. Endeavor , my Son , to do rather the will of another , than thine own . Ever choose rather to have less than more . Always seek the lowest place , and to be inferior to every one . Wish always and pray , that the will of God may be wholly fulfilled filled in thee . Behold such a Man entreth into the bounds of peace and quietness . 2. Christian. Lord , this thy short speech containeth much perfection . It is little in words , but full in sense and abundant in fruit . For if it could faithfully be kept by me , then should I not so easily be troubled . For as often as I feel my self unquiet and afflicted , I find that I have strayed from this Doctrine . But thou that canst do all things , and ever lovest the profiting of my soul , increase in me thy grace , that I may fulfil thy words , and work out mine own salvation . A Prayer against evil thoughts . 3. My Lord God , be not far from me ; my God , have regard to help me ; for sundry thoughts have risen up against me , and great fears , afflicting my soul. How shall I pass through them without hurt ? How shall I utterly break them ? Christ. I , saith he , will go before thee , and will humble the great ones of the earth , I will open the Doors of the Prison , and reveal unto thee hidden secrets . Christian. Do Lord as thou sayest , and let all my evil thoughts fly from before thy face . This is my hope , my only comfort , to fly unto thee in every tribulation , to trust in thee , to call upon thee from my heart , and to expect patiently thy comfort . A Prayer for enlightning of the Mind . 4. Enlighten me O good Jesus , with a clear-shining inward light , and drive away all darkness from the habitation of my heart . Repress my many wandring thoughts , and utterly break in pieces those temptations which violently assault me . Fight strongly for me , and vanquish those evil beasts , I mean those inticing desires of the flesh , that so peace may be obtained , by thy power , and that abundance of thy praise may sound in the holy Court of a pure conscience . Command the Winds and Tempests ; say unto the Sea , Be still ; and to the North Wind , Blow not ; and a great calm shall ensue . 5. Send forth thy light and thy truth , that they may shine upon the earth ; for I am as the earth without form and void , until thou enlighten me . Pour out thy grace from above , let thy Heavenly dew distil upon my heart , supply fresh streams of grace , to water the face of the Earth , that it may bring forth good and excellent fruit . Lift up my mind which is pressed down by the weight of sins . Draw up my whole desire to Heavenly things ; that having tasted the sweetness of supernal happiness , it may be irksome to me even to think of earthly vanities . 6. Pluck me and deliver me from all the unlasting comfort of creatures ; for no created thing can fully comfort and quiet my desire . Joyn me unto thee with an unseparable band of love ; for thou even alone dost satisfie him that loveth thee , and without thee all things are vain . CHAP. XXIV . Of flying curious inquiry of the life of others . CHrist. Son , be not curious , trouble not thy self with idle cares . What is this or that to thee ? do thou follow me . For what is it to thee , whether that Man be such or no , or whether this Man do , or speak this or that ? Thou shalt not need to answer for others , but shalt give account of thy self . Why therefore dost thou trouble thy self ? Behold I know every one , and do see all things that are under the Sun , and do understand how it is with every one ; what he thinks , what he would , and at what his intention aims . All things therefore are to be commited unto me ; but do thou keep thy self in good peace , and let the unquiet be as unquiet as they will. Whatsoever they shall have done , or said , shall fall upon themselves , for they cannot deceive me . 2. Be not careful for the shadow of a great name , or for the familiarity of many ; nor for the private affection of Men : for these things both distract and greatly darken the heart . I would willingly utter my words , and reveal my secrets unto thee , if thou didst diligently observe my coming , and didst open the Door of thy heart unto me . Be careful and watch in prayer , and humble thy self in all things . CHAP. XXV . Wherein the firm peace of the heart , and true spiritual profiting consisteth ? CHrist. Son , I have said , Peace I leave with you , my peace I give to you : not as the world giveth , give I unto you . All do desire peace , but all care not for those things that appertain unto true peace . My peace is with the humble and meek of heart . Thy peace doth consist in much patience . If thou wilt hear me and follow my voice , thou mayst enjoy much peace . Christian. What then shall I do , Lord ? Christ. In every thing attend unto thy self what thou doest , and what thou sayest ; and direct thy whole intention unto this , that thou mayst please me alone , and desire or seek nothing besides me . Of the sayings and doings of others judg nothing rashly : neither do thou entangle thy self with things not commited unto thee : and doing thus , thou shalt be little or seldom troubled . 2. But never to feel any trouble at all , nor to suffer any grief of heart or body , is not the state of this life , but everlasting rest . Think not therefore that thou hast found true peace , if thou feelest no sorrow ; nor that then all is well , if thou have no adversary ; nor that all is perfect , if all things be done according to thy desire . Neither do thou then esteem highly of thy self , or account thy self to be specially beloved , if thou be in great devotion and sweetness ; for by these things a true lover of virtue is not known , neither doth the profiting and perfection of a Man consist in these things . 3. Christian. Wherein then Lord ? Christ. In offering thy self with all thy heart unto the will of God , not seeking thine own interest , neither in great nor little , neither for a time nor for ever , so that thou keepest one and the same countenance with thanksgiving , both in prosperity and in adversity , weighing all things with an equal balance . If thou be of such courage and so patient in hope , that when inward comfort is withdrawn from thee , thou preparest thy heart to suffer greater things ; and dost not justify thy self , as though thou oughtest not to suffer these and so great afflictions , but justifiest me in whatsoever I appoint , and praisest my Holy name : Then thou walkest in the true and right way of peace : And thou shalt have undoubted hope to see my face again with great joy . And if thou attain to the full contempt of thy self ; then shalt thou enjoy as great abundance of peace , as this thy state of sojourning in this World is capable of . CHAP. XXVI . Of the excellency of a free mind , which humble Prayer sooner gaineth than Reading . CHristian . Lord , it is the work of a perfect Man , never to slack his mind from the attentive thought of heavenly things , and as it were to pass without care amongst many cares ; not like a dull sluggard ; but by the priviledge of a free mind , adhering to no creature with inordinate affection . 2. I beseech thee , my most gracious God , preserve me from the cares of this Life , lest I should be too much entangled thereby : And for the many necessities of the body , lest I should be caught by pleasure : And from whatsoever is an obstacle to the Soul , lest broken with troubles I should be overthrown . I say not from those things that worldly vanity so greatly desireth : But from those miseries , that as punishments and as the common curse of mortality , do weigh down and hinder the Soul of thy Servant , that it cannot enter into freedom of Spirit , as often as it would . 3. O my God , the ineffable sweetness , embitter unto me all carnal comfort , which may draw me away from the love of eternal things , and may wickedly allure me to it self by the beholding of some present delightsome good . Let me not be overcome , O Lord , let me not be overcome by flesh and blood . Let not the World and the short glory thereof deceive me . Let not the Devil and his subtil fraud supplant me . Give me strength to resist , patience to suffer , and constancy to persevere . Give me instead of all the comforts of the World , the most sweet unction of thy Spirit , and in lieu of carnal Love , pour into my Soul the Love of thy name . 4. Behold , Meat , Drink , Cloaths , and other necessaries for the maintenance of the body , are burdensome unto a fervent Spirit . Grant me to use such refreshments moderately , and not to be intangled with an over great desire of them . It is not lawful to cast away all things , for that nature is to be sustained : But to desire superfluities , and those things that are rather pleasurable , thy holy Law forbiddeth : For otherwise the flesh would Rebel against the Spirit . Herein , I beseech thee , let thy hand govern me , and teach me , that I may not exceed . CHAP. XXVII . That private Love most hindreth from the chiefest Good. CHrist. Son , thou oughtest to give all for all , and to retain nothing of thy self . Know , that the Love of thy self doth hurt thee more than any thing in the World. According to the Love and affection thou bearest them , so doth every thing cleave unto thee more or less . If thy love be pure , simple , and well ordered , thou shalt be free from the bondage of things . Covet not that which thou mayest not have . Be not willing to have that which may hinder thee and deprive thee of inward liberty . It is strange that thou committest not thy self wholly unto me , from the bottom of thy heart , with all things that thou canst desire or have . 2. Why dost thou consume thy self with vain grief ? Why art thou tired with needless cares ? stand to my good will , and thou shalt suffer no detriment at all . If thou seekest this or that , and wouldest be here or there , to enjoy thine own commodity and pleasure ; thou shalt never be at quiet , nor free from trouble of mind ; for in every thing somewhat will be wanting , and in every place there will be some that will cross thee . 3. Not every external thing therefore attained and heaped together helpeth thee , but it rather availeth , if thou despise it , and dost utterly root it out from thy heart ; which thou must not understand only of thy revenues and wealth , but of thy seeking after honor also , and thy desire of vain praise , all which do pass away with this world . The place availeth little if the spirit of fervor be wanting ; neither shall that peace which is sought abroad long continue , if the state of thy heart be destitute of a true foundation ; that is , unless thou stand stedfast in me , thou mayest change , but not better thy self . For when occasion doth happen , thou shalt find not only those things which thou soughtest to fly , but a great deal more . A Prayer for purging the heart , and obtaining of Heavenly wisdom . 4. Christian. Strengthen me , O God , by the grace of thy holy Spirit . Give me to be strengthened in my inward Man , and to empty my heart of all unprofitable care and anguish ; not to be drawn away with the sundry desires of any thing either mean or precious , but to look upon all things as passing away , and that my self do also pass away together with them , for nothing is permanent under the Sun , where all things are vanity and vexation of spirit . O how wise is he that so considereth them ! 5. Grant me , Lord , Heavenly wisdom , that I may learn above all things to seek and find thee , above all things to relish thee , and to love thee , and to think of all other things as they are , according to the disposal of thy wisdom . Grant me prudently to avoid him that flatters me , and to suffer patiently him that contradicts me . For it is a great part of wisdom not to be moved with every blast of words ; nor to give ear to an ill flattering Syren ; for so we shall go on securely in the way which we have begun . CHAP. XXVIII . Against the Tongues of Slanderers . CHrist. Son , take it not grievously if some think evil of thee , and speak that which thou wouldest not willingly hear . Thou oughtest to judg the worst of thy self , and to think no Man weaker than thy self . If thou dost walk spiritually , thou wilt not much esteem of flying words . It is no small wisdom to keep silence in an evil time , and inwardly to run to me , and not to be troubled with the judgment of Men. 2. Let not thy peace be in the Tongues of Men ; For whether they interpret well or evil , thou art not therefore another Man. Where is true peace , and true glory ? Is it not in me ? And he that coveteth not to please Men , nor feareth to displease them , shall enjoy much peace . From inordinate love and vain fear ariseth all disquietness of heart and distraction of the mind . CHAP. XXIX . How we ought to call upon God , and bless him when tribulation draweth near . CHristian . Blessed ( O Lord ) be thy name for ever ; since it pleaseth thee that this temptation and tribulation should come upon me . I cannot flie it ; but have need to flie to thee that thou mayest help me , and turn it to my good . Lord I am now afflicted , and it is not well with me . I am much troubled with this present suffering . And now dear Father , what shall I say ? I am caught amidst straits , save me from this hour . Yet therefore came I into this hour , that thou mayest be glorified , when I shall be greatly humbled , and by thee delivered . Let it please thee Lord , to deliver me ; for , poor wretch that I am , what can I doe , and whither shall I go without thee ? Grant patience Lord , even this time also . Help me my God , and then I will not fear how grievously soever I be afflicted . 2. And now in these my troubles what shall I say ? Lord , thy will be done ; I have well deserved to be afflicted and grieved . Surely I ought to bear it ; and O that I could bear it with patience , until the tempest be passed over , and it become calm ! But thy omnipotent hand is able to take even this temptation from me , and to asswage the violence thereof , that I utterly sink not under it , as oftentimes heretofore thou hast done unto me , O my God , my mercy . And how much the more hard it is to me , so much the more easie is this change of the right hand of the most High. CHAP. XXX . Of craving the divine aid , and confidence of recovering grace . CHrist. Son , I am the Lord that giveth strength in the day of tribulation . Come unto me when it is not well with thee . This is that which most of all hindereth Heavenly consolation , that thou art slow in turning thy self unto Prayer . For before thou dost earnestly pray unto me , thou seekest in the mean while many comforts , and delightest thy self in outward things . And hence it comes to pass that all doth little profit thee , until thou consider that I am he that delivers those that trust in me , and that out of me there is neither powerful help , nor profitable counsel , nor lasting remedy . But now thou having recovered breath after the tempest ; gather strength again in the light of my mercies ; for I am at hand , saith the Lord , to repair all , not only entirely , but also abundantly and in a very plentiful measure . 2. Is there any thing hard to me ? Or am I like unto him that promiseth and performeth not ? Where is thy faith ? Be firm and constant . Take courage and be patient ; comfort will come to thee in due time . Wait , wait for me , I will come and heal thee . It is a temptation that vexeth thee , and a vain fear that affrighteth thee . What else doth the care for future contingencies bring thee , but sorrow upon sorrow ? Sufficient for the day is the evil thereof . It is a vain and unprofitable thing to be grieved , or to rejoyce for future things , that perhaps will never come to pass . 3. But it is incident to Man , to be deluded with such imaginations ; and a sign of a weak mind to be so easily drawn away by the suggestion of the enemy . For he careth not so he delude and deceive thee , whether it be true or false which he proposeth ; whether he overthrow thee with the love of present , or the fear of future things . Let not therefore thy heart be troubled , neither let it fear . Believe in me , and put thy trust in my mercy . When thou thinkest thy self furthest off from me , oftentimes I am nearest unto thee . When thou judgest that almost all his lost , then oftentimes the greatest advantage of gaining is at hand . All is not lost when any thing falleth out contrary . Thou must not judg according to that which thou feelest for the present ; nor so take , or give thy self over to any grief , from whence soever it cometh , as though all hope of delivery were quite gone . 4. Think not thy self wholly left , although for a time I have sent thee some tribulation , or withdrawn thy desired comfort ; for this is the way to the Kingdom of Heaven . And without doubt it is more expedient for thee and the rest of my Servants , that ye be exercised with adversities , than that ye should have all things according to your desires . I know the secret thoughts of thy heart , and that it is very expedient for thy welfare , that thou be left sometimes without taste of spiritual sweetness , and in a dry condition lest perhaps thou shouldest be puffed up with thy prosperous estate , and shouldest please thy self in that which thou art not . That which I have given I can take away ; and restore it again when I please . 5. When I give it , it is mine , when I withdraw it , I take not any thing that is thine ; for mine is every good and every perfect gift . If I send thee affliction , or any Cross whatsoever , repine not , nor let thy heart fail thee ; I can quickly succor thee ; and turn all thy heaviness into joy . Nevertheless I am righteous , and greatly to be praised when I deal thus with thee . 6. If thou be wise , and considerest this rightly , thou wilt never mourn so dejectedly for any adversity that befalleth thee , but rather rejoyce and give thanks , yea , account this thy only joy that afflicting thee with sorrows , I do not spare thee . As my Father hath loved me , I also love you , said I unto my beloved Disciples ; whom certainly I sent not out to temporal joyes , but to great conflicts ; not to honors , but to contempts ; not to idleness , but to labors ; not to rest , but to bring forth much fruit with patience . My Son , remember these words . CHAP. XXXI . Of the contempt of all creatures , to find out the Creator . CHristian . Lord , I stand in need of yet greater grace , that I may reach to that pitch , as that nor Man nor any creature may be a let unto me . For as long as any thing detains me , I cannot freely take my flight unto thee . He desired to fly freely that said , Who will give me wings like a Dove , and I will fly and be at rest ? What thing more quiet than the single eye ? And what more free , than he that desireth nothing upon Earth ? Man ought therefore to pass over all creatures , and perfectly to forsake himself , and to remain in excess of mind , and to see that thou the Creator of all things , hast nothing amongst creatures like unto thee . And unless a Man be freed from the affection of all creatures , he cannot with freedom of mind attend unto divine things . And for this cause there are so few contemplative Men to be found , for that few can wholly withdraw themselves from things created and perishing . 2. But to do this there is need of much grace which may raise up the soul , and enravish it above it self . And unless a Man be raised up in spirit , and freed from all creatures , and wholly united unto God ; whatsoever he knoweth , and whatsoever he hath , is of little account . A long while shall he be little , and lie grovelling below , that esteemeth any thing great , but the one only infinite and eternal Good. For whatsoever is not God , is nothing , and ought to be accounted as nothing . There is great difference between the wisdom of an illuminated and religious Man , and the knowledg of a learned and studious Clerk. For more noble is that learning which floweth from above from the divine influence , than that which is painfully gotten by the wit of Man. 3. There are many that desire contemplation , but they endeavor not to practise those things that are required thereunto . Another great let is this , that we rest in signs and sensible things , and take little care about the perfect mortification of our selves . I know not what it is , nor by what spirit we are led , nor what we pretend , we that seem to be called spiritual , that we take so much pains and so great care for transitory and low things , and fearce or seldom think of our own inward concernments , with the full recollection of our minds . 4. Alas , presently after a slight recollection , we break out again , and weigh not our words with diligent examination . We mind not where our affections lie ; nor be wail the impurity that is in all our actions . For all flesh had corrupted his way , and therefore did that general flood ensue . Sith our inward affection then is much corrupted , it must needs be that our actions proceeding thence be corrupted , as a sign of the want of inward vigor . From a pure heart proceedeth the fruit of a good life . 5. We ask how much one hath done , but how virtuously or vigorously it was done , is not so diligently considered . We inquire whether he be strong , rich , beautiful , handsome , a good writer , a good singer , or a good laborer , but how poor he is in spirit , how patient and meek , how religious and spiritual , is seldom spoken of . Nature respecteth the outward things of Man , Grace turneth it self to the inward . That is often deceived ; This hath her trust in God , to the end she be not deceived . CHAP. XXXII . Of denial of our selves , and forsaking all inordinate desires . CHrist. Son , thou canst not possess perfect liberty , unless thou wholly deny thy self . All such are fettered and in bondage as seek their proper interest wholly , and are lovers of themselves , covetous , curious , wanderers , always seeking pleasure , and not the things of Jesus Christ ; but oftentimes devising and framing that which will not continue ; for all that is not of God shall perish : Keep this short and compleat saying : Forsake all , and thou shalt find all . Leave thy inordinate desires , and thou shalt find rest . Consider this well ; and when thou hast fulfilled it , thou shalt understand all . 2. Christian. Lord , this is not one days work , nor Childrens sport ; yea , in this short word all the perfection of religious persons is included . Christ. Son , thou must not go back , nor straightways be dejected , when thou hearest of the way of the perfect ; but rather be stirred up to higher things , or at least in desire sigh after them . I would it were so well with thee , and thou wert come up to this pitch , that thou wert no longer a lover of thy self , but didst stand meerly at my beck , and at his whom I have appointed a Father over thee ; then thou shouldest exceedingly please me , and all thy life would pass away in joy and peace , Thou hast yet many things to forsake , which unless thou wholly resign up unto me , thou shalt not attain to that which thou desirest . I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire , that thou mayest become rich , that is Heavenly wisdom , which treadeth under foot all base and earthly things . Set little by earthly wisdom , and care not fondly to please others or thy self . 3. I said , that the mean things must be bought with precious things and such as were with Men of great esteem . For the true Heavenly wisdom seemeth mean and of small account , and is scarce thought of by Men ; for that esteemeth not highly of it self , nor seeketh to be magnified upon Earth ; many praise it from the teeth outward , but in their life they are far from it ; yet is it the precious Pearl which is hidden from many . CHAP. XXXIII . Of inconstancy of heart , and of directing our final intentions unto God. Christ. Son , trust not to thy present affection ; for it will quickly be changed into another thing . As long as thou livest , thou art subject to mutability , even against thy will ; so that now thou art merry , now sad ; now quiet , now troubled ; now devout , now undevout ; now diligent , now slow ; now grave , now light . But he that is wise and well instructed in the spirit , standeth fast upon these mutable things ; not heeding what he feeleth in himself , or which way the wind of instability bloweth ; but that the whole intention of his mind may tend to the right and best end . For thus he may continue one , and the self same , and unshaken in the midst of so many various events , directing continually the single eye of his intention unto me . 2. And how much purer the eye of the intention is , with so much the more constancy doth he pass through the several kinds of storms . But in many things the eye of a pure intention waxeth dimsighted , for it quickly looketh upon some delightsom object that it meeteth withal ; And it is rare to find one that is wholly free from all blemish of self-seeking . So the Jews in times past came into Bethany to Martha and Mary , not for Jesus alone , but to see Lazarus also . The eye of our intention therefore is to be purged , that it may be single and right , and to be directed unto me , beyond the manifold diversity of all mediums . and whatsoever earthly objects come between . CHAP. XXXIV . That God is sweet , above all things , and in all things , to him that loveth . CHristian . Behold , my God , and all things . What would I have more , and what more happy thing can I desire ? O sweet and savory word ! but to him that loveth the Word , not the world nor those things that are in the world , My God , and all things . Enough is said to him , that understandeth ; and to him that loveth it is pleasant to repeat it often . For when thou art present , all things do yield delight ; but when thou are absent , every thing becomes irksom . Thou givest quiet of heart and much peace , and pleasant joy . Thou makest us think well of all things , and praise thee in all things ; neither can any thing please long without thee ; but if it be pleasant and grateful , thy grace must be present , and it must be seasoned with the sweetness of thy wisdom . 2. What is not savory unto him to whom thou art pleasing ? And whom thou delightest not , what can be pleasant to him ? But the wise of this world , and they that relish the things of the flesh , come short of thy wisdom ; for in the world is much vanity , and in the flesh is death . But they that follow thee by the contempt of worldly things , and mortification of the flesh , are proved to be truly wise ; For they are changed from vanity to truth , from the flesh to the spirit . These relish God ; and what good soever is found in creatures , they wholly refer unto the praise of their Maker . Notwithstanding great yea very great is the difference between the sweetness of the creator and of the creature , of eternity and of time , of light uncreated and of light enlightned . 3. O thou everlasting light , surpassing all created lights , dart the beams of thy brightness from above , which may pierce all the most inward parts of my heart ; purifie , rejoyce , enlighten and enliven my spirit , with all the powers thereof , that I may cleave unto thee with abundance of joy and triumph . O when will that blessed and desired hour come , that I may be filled with thy presence , and thou mayest be unto me all in all ! As long as this is not granted me , I shall not have full joy . Alas ! the old Man yet liveth in me , he is not wholly crucified , he is not perfectly dead . He doth as yet lust strongly against the spirit , and stirreth up inward wars , and suffereth not the Kingdom of my soul to be in peace . 4. But thou that rulest the power of the Sea , and stillest the rising of the Waves thereof , arise and help me ; scatter the People that desire war , destroy them in thy might , display thy greatness , and let thy right hand be glorified , for there is no hope nor refuge for me , but in thee my Lord God. CHAP. XXXV That there is no security from temptation in this life . CHrist. Son , there is no security in this life ; as long as thou livest , thou shalt always have need of spiritual armor . Thou livest among enemies , and art assaulted on the right hand and on the left . If therefore thou defendest not thy self on every side with the shield of patience , thou canst not be long unwounded . Moreover , if thou fix not thy heart on me with a sincere will to suffer all things for me , thou canst not bear the heat of this battel , nor obtain the triumphant reward of the Saints in bliss . Thou oughtest therefore manfully to go through all , and to use a strong hand against whatsoever withstandeth thee . For to him that overcometh is manna given ; but for the negligent there remains much misery . 2. If thou seekest rest in this world , how wilt thou then attain to everlasting rest ? Dispose not thy self to much ease , but to much patience . Seek true peace , not in Earth , but in Heaven ; not in Men nor in any other creature , but in God alone . Thou oughtest for the love of God willingly to undergo all things , even labors , griefs , temptations , vexations , anxieties , necessities , infirmities , injuries , detractions , reprehensions , humblings , shame , corrections , and contempts ; these help to virtue : these try a Novice of Christ ; these make the Heavenly Crown . I will give an everlasting reward for a short labor , and infinite glory for transitory shame . 3. Thinkest thou that thou shalt always have spiritual consolations at will ? My Saints had not so , but they had many afflictions , and sundry temptations , and many discomforts ; in all which they did bear up themselves patiently , and trusted rather in God than in themselves , knowing that the sufferings of this time are not condign to the deserving of future glory . Wilt thou have that straightways , which many after many tears and great labors have hardly obtained ? Wait upon the Lord , do manfully , be of good courage ; do not despair , do not fly , but with constancy expose both body and soul for the glory of God. I will reward thee in most plentiful manner , and I will be with thee in all thy tribulations . CHAP. XXXVI . Against the vain judgments of Men. CHrist. Son , cast thy heart constantly upon God , and fear not the judgment of Men , when thy conscience giveth testimony of thy piety and innocency . It is a good and happy thing to suffer in such a way ; neither will it be burdensome to an humble heart , nor to him that trusteth rather in God than in himself . The most part of Men are given to talk much , and therefore little heed is to be given them ; neither is it possible to satisfie all . Although Paul endeavored to please all in the Lord , and made himself all things unto all , yet with him it was a very small thing that he should be judged of Mans judgment . 2. He did for the edification and salvation of others as much as he could , and lay in him ; yet could he not hinder but that he was sometimes judged and despised by others . Therefore he committed all to God , who knew all , and he defended himself with patience and humility against evil tongues ; and such as thought vanities and lies , and spake what they listed : Yet sometimes notwithstanding he answered , lest the weak should be offended by his silence . 3. Who art thou that fearest a mortal Man ? To day he is , and to morrow he is not seen . Fear God , and thou shalt not need to fear the terrors of Men. What harm can the words or injuries of any do thee ? He rather hurteth himself than thee ; neither can he avoid the judgment of God , whosoever he be . Have thou God before thine eyes , and contend not with complaining words . And if for the present thou seemest to be worsted , and to suffer shame without desert ; do not therefore repine , neither do thou lessen thy crown by thy impatience ; but rather lift up thy eyes to me in Heaven , who am able to deliver thee from all shame and wrong , and to render to every one according to their works . CHAP. XXXVII . Of a full and pure resignation of our selves , for the obtaining freedom of heart . CHrist. Son , forsake thy self , and thou shalt find me . Make no self respecting choice of any thing , appropriate nothing to thy self , and thou shalt ever be a gainer . For greater grace shall be given thee , when thou dost perfectly resign thy self , and not turn back to take thy self again . Christian. Lord , how often shall I resign my self ; and wherein shall I forsake my self ? Christ. Always , and every hour , as well in little things as in great . I do except nothing , but do require that thou be naked and void of all things . Otherwise how canst thou be mine , and I thine , unless both within and without thou be free from all self will ? And how much the sooner thou dost this , so much the better it will be with thee ; and how much the more fully and sincerely thou doest it , so much the more shalt thou please me , and so much the more shalt thou gain . 2. Some there are that resign themselves , but with some exception ; for they put not their whole trust in God , and therefore they study how to provide for themselves . Some also at the first do offer all , but afterwards being assailed with temptations , do return again to that which they had left , and therefore they go not forward in the way of virtue . These shall not attain to the true liberty of the pure heart , nor to the favor of my sweetest familiarity , unless they first make an entire resignation and a daily oblation of themselves unto me . For without this there neither is nor can be the fruitive union with me . 3. I have often said unto thee , and now again I say the same , Forsake thy self , resign thy self , and thou shalt enjoy much inward peace . Give all for all ; seek nothing , require back nothing , abide purely and with a firm confidence in me , and thou shalt enjoy me ; thou shalt be free in heart , and darkness shall not have power over thee . Let this be thy whole endeavor , let this be thy Prayer , let this be thy desire ; that being stript of all selfness , thou mayest even nakedly follow naked Jesus , and dying to thy self , mayest live eternally to me . Then shall all vain imaginations , evil perturbations , and superfluous cares fly away ! then shall immoderate fear leave thee , and inordinate love shall die . CHAP. XXXVIII . Of good government in outward things , and of recourse to God in dangers . CHrist. Son , thou oughtest with all diligence to procure , that in every place and action or external business , thou be inwardly free and Master of thy self , and that all things be under thee , and thou not under them ; that thou mayest be Lord and Master of thy actions ; not a servant or a hireling , but rather a Free-man and a true Hebrew , passing into the lot and freedom of the Sons of God , who standing upon the things that are present , view the things which are eternal ; who look on transitory things with the left eye , and with the right do behold the things of Heaven ; whom temporal things cannot draw to cleave unto them , but they rather draw temporal things to serve them , and to be disposed by them in such a way as they are ordained by God , and appointed by the Creator of all , who hath left nothing in his creatures without due order . 2. If thou remain stedfast in all events , and dost not weigh by the outward appearance , nor with a carnal eye , the things which thou seest and hearest ; but presently in every affair dost enter with Moses into the Tabernacle to ask councel of the Lord ; thou shalt sometimes hear the divine Oracle , and shalt return instructed concerning many things both present and to come . For Moses had always recourse to the Tabernacle for the deciding of doubts and controversies , and fled to the help of Prayer , for a defence against the iniquity and dangers of Men. So oughtest thou in like manner to fly to the closet of thy heart , earnestly craving the Divine favor . For the Scripture testifieth , that therefore was Ioshuah and the Children of Israel deceived by the Gibeonites , because they asked not councel at the Mouth of the Lord , but giving too lightly credit to their fair words , were deluded with their counterfeit piety . CHAP. XXXIX . That a Man be not over-earnest in his affairs . CHrist. Son , always commit thy cause to me , I will dispose well of it in due time ; wait for my ordering of it , and thou shalt find it will be for thy good . Christian. Lord , I do most willingly commit all unto thee , for my care can avail little . O that I cleaved not too much to future events , but offered my self with all readiness of mind to thy good pleasure ! 2. Christ , Son , oftentimes a Man doth earnestly labor for that which he desireth , and when he hath gotten it , he beginneth to be of another mind ; for Mans affections do not long continue fixed on one thing , but do pass from one to another . It is therefore no small thing for a Man to forsake himself even in the smallest things . 3. The true spiritual profiting of a Man consisteth in the denying of himself ; and he that is thus resigned , liveth in great freedom and security . But the old enemy , who always sets himself against all that are good , ceaseth at no time from tempting , but day and night lieth grievously in wait , to cast the unwary , if he can , into the snare of deceit . Therefore Watch and Pray , saith our Lord , that ye enter not into temptation . CHAP. XL. That Man hath no good of himself nor any thing whereof he can glory . CHristian . Lord , what is Man that thou art mindful of him , or the Son of Man , that thou visitest him ! What hath Man deserved that thou shouldest favor him ? Lord , what cause have I to complain , if thou forsake me ? Or if thou doest not that which I desire , what can I justly say against it ? Surely , this I may truly think and say , Lord , I am nothing , I can do nothing , I have nothing that is good of my self ; but in all things I am defective , and do ever tend to nothing ; and unless thou help me , and dost inwardly instruct me , I become altogether cold , and am dissolved . 2. But thou , O Lord , art always the same , and endurest for ever ; always good , just , and holy , doing all things well , justly and holily , and disposing all things with wisdom . But I that am more ready to go backward than forward , do not ever continue in one estate , for Seven times are passed over me ; yet doth it soon turn to the better , when it so pleaseth thee , and when thou vouchsafest to stretch forth thy helping hand . For thou alone canst help me without the aid of Man , and so strengthen me , that my countenance shall be no more changed , but my heart shall be turned to thee alone , and there shall rest . 3. Wherefore if I could once perfectly forsake all humane comfort , either for the attaining of devotion , or for mine own necessity , which inforceth me to seek after thee , ( for none else can comfort me ) then might I well hope in thy grace , and rejoyce for the gift of new consolation . 4. Thanks be unto thee , from whence all proceedeth , as often as it goeth well with me ; but I am mere vanity and nothing in thy sight , and unconstant and weak Man. Whereof then can I glory ? Or for what do I desire to be esteemed of ? Is it not even for nothing ? But this is most vain . Truly vain glory is an evil plague and a very great vanity ; because it draweth Man from true glory , and robbeth him of Heavenly grace . For whilest a Man pleaseth himself , he displeaseth thee ; whilst he gapeth after the praise of Men , he is deprived of true virtues . 5. But the true glory and holy rejoycing is for a Man to glory in thee , and not in himself ; to rejoyce in thy Name , and not in his own virtue or strength , nor to delight in any creature , but for thee . Praised be thy Name , not mine ; magnified be thy work , not mine . Let the holy Name be blessed , but to me let no part of Mens praises be given . Thou art my glory , thou art the joy of my heart . In thee will I glory and rejoyce all the day ; but as for my self I will not glory , but in my infirmities . 6. Let the Iews seek honor one of another ; I will desire this which is from God alone . For all humane glory , all temporal honor , all worldly highness , compared to thy eternal glory , is vanity and folly . O my Truth , my mercy , my God , most blessed Trinity , to thee alone be praise , honor , power and glory for evermore . CHAP. XLI . Of the contempt of all temporal honors . CHrist. Son , trouble not thy self , if thou seest others honored and advanced , and thy self contemned and debased . Lift up thy heart unto me in Heaven , and the contempt of Men on Earth will not grieve thee . Christian. Lord , we are blind , and quickly seduced with vanity . If I look well into my self , I cannot say that any creature hath done me wrong ; and therefore I cannot justly complain of thee . 2. But because I have often and grievously sinned against thee , all creatures do justly take arms against me ; for shame and contempt is due unto me , but unto thee praise , honor and glory . And unless I frame my self with a very good will to be despised and forsaken of all creatures , and to be esteemed nothing at all ; I cannot obtain inward peace and strength nor be spiritually enlightned , nor fully united unto thee . CHAP. XLII . That our peace is not to be placed in Men. CHrist. Son , if the peace thou hast with any be grounded upon the opinion which thou hast of him , or upon the account of thine acquaintance with him , thou shalt ever be in an unconstant and enthralled condition ; but if thou have recourse unto the everliving and eternal Truth , a friend going from thee or dying shall not grieve thee . The love of thy friend ought to be grounded in me ; and for me is he to be beloved , whosoever he be whom thou thinkest well of , and is very dear unto thee in this life . No friendship can avail , or continue without me ; neither is that love true and pure , which is not knit by me . Thou oughtest to be so dead to such affections of beloved friends , that ( forasmuch as appertaineth unto thee ) thou shouldest wish to be without all company of Men. Man approacheth so much the nearer unto God , by how much the further off he departeth from all Earthly comfort ; so much the higher also he ascendeth unto God by how much lower he descendeth into himself , and how much the meaner he is in his own sight . 2. But he that attributeth any good unto himself , hindereth the coming of Gods grace unto him ; for the grace of the holy Ghost ever seeketh an humble heart . If thou couldest perfectly annihilate thy self , and empty thy self of all created love ; then should I flow into thee with great abundance of grace . When thou castest thy eyes on creatures , the sight of thy Creator is taken from thee . Learn to overcome thy self in all things , for the love of thy Creator ; and then shalt thou be able to attain to divine knowledge . How little soever the thing be , if it be inordinately loved and regarded ; it defileth the soul , and hindereth the enjoying of the chiefest good . CHAP. XLIII . Against vain and secular knowledg . CHrist. Son , let not the fair speeches and subtile sayings of Men move thee . For the Kingdom of God consisteth not in word , but in power . Observe well my words ; for they enflame hearts , and enlighten minds , they cause compunction , and bring sundry comforts . Do thou never read to shew thy self learned or wise ; but labor to mortify thy sins ; for that will profit thee more than the knowledg of many difficult questions . 2. When thou shalt have read and known many things ; thou oughtest ever to return to one beginning and Principle . I am he , that teacheth Man knowledg , and give unto babes a more clear understanding , that can be taught by Man. He therefore , to whom I speak , shall quickly be wise , and shall profit much in the spirit . Wo be to them that enquire many curious things of Men , and do little mind the way how to serve me . The time will come , when the Master of Masters shall appear , Christ the Lord of Angels , to hear the lessons of all , that is , to examine the consciences of every one ; and then he will search Jerusalem with a candle , and the hidden things of darkness shall be laid open , and the arguings of Mens Tongues shall be silent . 3. I am he that in an instant do raise up the humble mind to understand more of the eternal truth , than can be gotten by Ten years study in the Schools : I teach without the noise of words , without the confounding of opinions , without ambition of honor , without the scuffling of arguments . I am he that teacheth to despise Earthly things , to loath things present , to seek the everlasting , to relish the things that are eternal , to flee honors , to suffer injuries , to place all hope in me , to desire nothing out of me , and above all things ardently to love me . 4. For a certain person by loving me entirely , learned divine things , and spake that which was admirable ; he profited more by forsaking all things , than in studying subtilties . To some I speak common things , to others more special things ; to some I appear sweetly by signs and figures , but to some I reveal mysteries with much light . The voice of books is indeed one , but it teacheth not all Men alike . For I am the inward teacher , I am the Truth , I am the searcher of the heart , the discerner of the thoughts , the setter forwards of what is good , distributing to every one as I judge meet . CHAP. XLIV . Of not drawing outward things to our selves . CHrist. Son , in many things thou oughtest to be ignorant , and esteem thy self as dead upon Earth , and as one to whom the whole world is crucified . Thou must also pass by many things with a deaf ear , and rather think of that which appertaineth to thy peace . It is better for thee to turn thine eyes from what doth mislike thee , and to leave unto every one his own opinion , than to strive with contentious words . If all stand well betwixt thee and God , and if thou hast his judgment in thy mind , thou shalt the more easily bear if thou be overcome . 2. Christian. O Lord , to what a pass are we come ! Behold , we bewail a temporal loss , for a little gain we toil and run ; and the spiritual damage of our soul is forgotten , and hardly at length called to mind . That which little or nothing profiteth , is minded ; and that which is chiefly necessary , is slightly passed over , because the whole Man doth slide down into eternal things ; and unless he speedily repent , he lieth immerst in them , and that willingly . CHAP. XLV . That credit is not to be given to all Men : and how prone Man is to offend in words . CHristian . Help me , O Lord , in my tribulation , for vain is the help of Man. How often have I been deceived , finding want of faith where I thought it sure ? And how often have I found faith where I least expected it ? It is vain therefore to trust in Men ; but the salvation of the just , O Lord , is in thee . Blessed be thou my Lord God , in all things that befal us . We are weak and inconstant , quickly deceived , and soon changed . 2. Who is he , that in all things so warily and circumspectly keeps himself , that he never falls into any deceit or perplexity ? But he that trusteth in thee , O Lord , and seeketh thee with a single heart , doth not so easily fail ; and if he fall into any tribulation , be he never so much enthralled , yet he shall quickly be either delivered or comforted by thee . For thou wilt not forsake him for ever that trusteth in thee . A friend is rare to be found , that continueth faithful in all his friends distress ; but thou , O Lord , thou alone art most faithful at all times , and there is none like unto thee . 3. O how wise was that holy soul that said , My mind is firmly settled and grounded in Christ ! If it were so with me , then would not humane fear so easily trouble me , nor the darts of words move me . Who can foresee all things ? Who is able to beware before-hand of future evils ? If things even foreseen do oftentimes hurt us , how can things unlooked for choose but wound us grievously ? But why did I not provide better for my self , miserable Wretch ? Why also have I so easily given credit to others ? But we are Men , nothing but frail Men , although by many we are reputed and called Angles . To whom shall I give credit , Lord ? to whom but to thee ? Thou art the Truth that neither dost deceive , nor can be deceived . And on the other side , Every Man is a liar , weak , unconstant , and subject to fall , especially in words ; and therefore we must not easily give credit even to that , which in outward shew seemeth at the first to be right . 4. O with what wisdom hast thou warned us to beware of Men ! And because a Mans foes are they of his own houshold , not to give credit , if one should say , Lo here , or Lo there . I am taught to my cost , and O that I might thereby encrease my care , and not my folly . Be wary saith one , be wary , keep to thy self what I tell thee ; and whilst I hold my peace , and think it is secret , he cannot keep that secret which he desired should be secret , but presently discloseth me and himself , and goeth his way . From such tales and such indiscreet persons protect me , O Lord , that I fall not into their hands , nor ever commit such things . Give me to observe truth and constancy in my words , and remove far from me a deceitful Tongue . What I am not willing to suffer , I ought by all means to avoid . 5. O how good is it and tending to peace , to be silent of others , nor to believe promiscuously all that is said , nor easily to report what we have heard ; to lay ones self open to few ; always to seek after thee who art the beholder of the heart ; not to be carried about with every wind of words , but to desire that all things both within and without , be accomplished according to the pleasure of thy will. How safe is it for the keeping of Heavenly grace , to fly the sight of Men , and not to seek those things that seem to cause admiration abroad , but to follow that will all diligence , which bringeth amendment of life and zeal of godliness . 6. To how many hath virtue known and over hastily commended , been hurtful ? How profitable hath grace been kept with silence in this mortal life , which is nothing but a temptation and a warfare ? CHAP. XLVI . Of putting our trust in God when evil words arise . CHrist. Son , be constant , and put thy trust in me . For what are words but words ? They fly through the Air , but hurt not so much as a stone . If thou be guilty , see that thou be not unwilling to amend thy self ; if thou be innocent , resolve to suffer this willingly for the sake of God. It is but a small matter to suffer sometimes a few words , if thou hast not yet the courage to endure hard stripes . And why do small matters go to thy heart , but for that thou art yet carnal , and regardest Men more than thou oughtest ? Because thou art afraid to be despised , therefore thou wilt not be reprehended for thy faults , but seekest the shades of excuses . 2. But look better into thy self , and thou shalt see that the world is yet alive in thee , and a vain affection to please Men. For when thou shunnest to be humbled and reproved for thy faults , it is evident that thou art neither truly humble , nor truly dead to the world , nor the world crucified to thee . But give diligent ear to my words , and thou shalt little regard Ten thousand words spoken by Men. Behold , if all should be spoken against thee that could be most maliciously invented , what would it hurt thee , if thou sufferedst it to pass and madest no more reckoning of it than of a mote ? could all those words pluck as much as one hair from thy head ? 3. But he that hath no heart in him , nor hath God before his eyes , is easily moved with a word of dispraise ; when as he that trusteth in me , and affects not to confide in his own judgment , shall be free from humane fears . For I am the Judge and the discerner of all secrets : I know how the matter passed ; I know him that offereth the injury , and him that suffereth it . From me hath this proceded ; this hath happened by my permission , that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed . I shall judge the guilty , and the innocent ; but by a secret judgement I would before hand try them both . 4. The Testimony of Men oftentimes deceiveth ; but my judgement is true , it shall stand and not be overthrown . It is commonly hidden , and not known in every thing , but to few notwithstanding it never erreth , neither can it erre , although to the eyes of the foolish it seems not right . Men ought therefore to have recourse to me in every judgment , and not to leave to their own opinions . For the just Man will not be troubled , whatsoever befalleth him from God ; and if any thing be wrongfully brought forth against him , he will not much care ; neither will he vainly be glad , if by others he be with reason excused . For he considereth that I am he that searcheth the heart and reins , and do judge not according to the outward face , nor humane appearance . For that is oftentimes found culpable in my sight , that in the Judgment of Men is thought to be commendable . 5. Christian. O Lord God , the just judg , strong and patient , thou who knowest the frailty and pravity of Man , be thou my strength , and all my trust , for mine own conscience sufficeth me not . Thou knowest that which I know not , and therefore in every reproof I ought to have humbled my self , and to have born meekly ; vouchsafe mercifully to pardon me , as often as I have failed herein , and give me again grace of greater sufferance . For thy abundant mercy is more available to me for the obtaining of pardon , than my conceived justice for the defence of my hidden conscience . Although I know nothing by my self , yet I cannot hereby justifie my self ; for without thy mercy no Man living shall be justified in thy sight . CHAP. XLVII . That all grievous things are to be endured for life everlasting . CHrist. Son , be not dismaied with the painful labors which thou hast undertaken for me , neither be thou wholly discomforted for the tribulations which do befal thee ; but let my promise strengthen and comfort thee in all events . I am able to reward thee infinitely and above all measure . Thou shalt not long toil here , nor always be pressed with griefs . Wait a while and thou shalt see a speedy end of thy evils . There will come an hour when all labor and trouble shall cease . Little and short is all that which passeth away with time . 2. Do what thou dost ; labor faithfully in my Vineyard , I will be thy reward . Write , read , sing , mourn , keep silence , pray , suffer crosses manfully ; life everlasting is worthy of all these yea and greater combats . Peace shall come in the day which is known unto the Lord , and there shall be neither day nor night , to wit , of this time , but everlasting light , infinite brightness , stedfast peace , and secure rest . Then thou shalt not say , Who shall deliver me from the body of this death ? Nor cry , Wo is me , that my sojourning is prolonged ! For death shall be thrown down , and salvation shall appear which never shall have end , there shall be no anxiety ; but blessed joy , sweet and lovely company . 3. O , if thou hadst seen the everlasting Crowns of the Saints in Heaven , and with how great glory they now rejoyce who in times past were contemptible to this world , and esteemed unworthy of life it self ; truly thou wouldest presently humble thy self even unto the Earth ; and wouldest rather seek to be under the feet of all , than to have command so much as over one ; neither wouldest thou desire the pleasant days of this life , but rather rejoyce to suffer affliction for God , and esteem it thy greatest gain to be reputed as nothing amongst Men. 4. O if thou hadst a relishing of these things , and didst suffer them to sink into the bottom of thy heart , how durst thou so much as once to complain ? Are not all painful labors to be endured for everlasting life ? It is no small matter , to lose or to gain the Kingdom of Heaven . Lift up thy face therefore unto Heaven ; behold I , and all my Saints with me , who in this world had great conflicts , do now rejoyce , now are comforted , now are secure , now are at rest , and shall remain with me everlastingly in the Kingdom of my Father . CHAP. XLVIII . Of the everlasting day , and shortness of this life . CHristian . O most blessed mansion of the Heavenly City ! O most clear day of Eternity , which night obscureth not , but the highest Truth ever enlightneth ; a day of continual joy , of perpetual quietness , and never changing into a contrary state ! O that that day would once appear , and all these temporal things were at an end ! To the Saints it shineth glistering with evelasting brightness , but to those that are Pilgrims upon Earth , it appeareth only afar off , and as it were through a glass . 2. The Citizens of Heaven do know how joyful that day is ; but the banished Children of Eve bewail the bitterness and tediousness of this . The daies of this life are short and evil , full of sorrow and anguish ; where Man is defiled with many sins , incumbred with many passions , disquieted with many fears , filled with many cares , distracted with many curiosities , intangled with many vanities , compassed about with many errors , worn away with many labors , vexed with temptations , weakned with pleasures , tormented with want . 3. O , when shall these evils be at an end ! when shall I be delivered from the miserable bondage of sin ! When shall I think , O Lord , of thee alone ! When shall I fully rejoyce in thee ! When shall I enjoy true liberty without all impediments whatsoever , without all trouble of mind and body ! When shall I have solid peace , secure and undisturbed peace , peace within and without , peace every way assured ! O good Jesus when shall I stand to behold thee ! When shall I contemplate the glory of thy Kingdom ! When wilt thou be unto me All in all ! O when shall I be with thee in thy Kingdom , which thou hast prepared for thy beloved from all eternity ! I am left a poor and banished Man in the land of mine enemies , where there are daily wars and great calamities . 4. Comfort my banishment , asswage my sorrow ; for my whole desire fighteth after thee . For all is burdensome to me whatsoever this world offereth for my comfort . I long to enjoy thee most inwardly but I cannot attain unto it . My desire is that I may be wholly given up to Heavenly things , but temporal things and unmortified passions weigh me down . With the mind I would be above all things , but with the flesh I am inforced to be subject against my will. Thus unhappy Man that I am , I fight against my self , and am become grievous to my self , whilst my spirit seeketh to be above , and my flesh to be below . 5. O what do I inwardly suffer , when in my mind I consider Heavenly things , and presently in my prayers a multitude of carnal imaginations present themselves before me ! My God , be not far from me , depart not in thy wrath from thy Servant . Cast forth thy lightning , and disperse them ; send out thy darts , and break all the imaginations which my enemy casts in . Gather in , call home my senses unto thee , make me forget all the things of this world : grant me to cast away speedily the imaginations of wickedness . Succor me , O thou the everlasting Truth , that no vanity may move me . Come Heavenly sweetness and let all impurity fly from before thee . Pardon me also , and mercifully forgive me as often as I think upon any thing else besides thee in prayer . I do truly confess , that I am wont to be subject to many distractions ; for oftentimes I am not there , where I do corporally stand , or sit , but I am rather there , whither my thoughts do carry me . Where my thought is , there am I : there is oftentimes my thought , where my affection is . That quickly offereth it self unto me , which is naturally delightsom , or by custom is pleasing . 6. And for this cause , thou that art Truth it self hast plainly said . Where thy treasure is , there is also thy heart . If I love Heaven , I willingly think of Heavenly things . If I love the world , I rejoyce at the felicity of the world , and grieve for the adversity thereof . If I love the flesh , I shall fancy oftentimes those things that are pleasing to the flesh ; If I love the spirit , I delight to think of spiritual things . For whatsoever I love , thereof do I willingly speak , and hear , and carry home with me the forms , the Ideas and representations thereof . But blessed is that Man , that for thee , O Lord , dismisseth all creatures , that violently resisteth nature , and through fervor of spirit crucifieth the lusts of the flesh , that so with a serene conscience he may offer pure prayer unto thee , and be meet to be admitted into the Angelical quire , all earthly things both outwardly and inwardly being excluded . CHAP. XLIX . Of the desire of everlasting life , and how great rewards are promised to those that fight valiantly . CHrist. Son , when thou perceivest the desire of everlasting bliss to be given thee from above , and desirest to depart out of the Tabernacle of this body , that thou mayest behold my brightness without shaddow of turning ; open thy heart wide , and receive this holy inspiration with thy whole desire . Give greatest thanks to the Heavenly goodness , that dealeth with thee so favorably , visiteth thee mercifully , stirreth thee up fervently , holdeth thee up powerfully , lest through thine own weight thou fall down to the things of Earth . Neither dost thou obtain this by thy own thought or endeavor , but by the mere dignation of Heavenly grace and divine favor ; to the end that thou mayest make a further progress in holiness , and obtain greater humility , and prepare thy self for future battels , and endeavor to cleave unto me with the whole affection of thy heart , and serve me with a fervent desire . 2. Son , the fire burneth many times , but the flame ascendeth not up without smoak ; so likewise the desires of some Men burn towards Heavenly things , and yet they are not free from temptation of carnal affection ; and therefore it is not altogether purely for the honor of God that which they so exactly request of him . Such is also oftentimes thy desire , which thou hast pretended to be so serious . For that is not pure and perfect , which is tinctured with the love of thine own proper commodity and interest . 3. Ask not that which is delightful and profitable to thee , but that which is acceptable to me , and appertaineth to my honor ; for if thou judgest aright , thou oughtest to prefer and follow my appointment , rather than thine own desire , or any desired thing . I know thy desire , and have heard thy frequent groans . Now thou wouldest enjoy the glorious liberty of the Sons of God ; now doth the everlasting habitation , and the Heavenly Country replenished with all joy , delight thee ; but that hour is not yet come ; as yet there is another time , to wit , a time of war , a time of labor and trial . Thou desirest to be filled with the chiefest good , but thou canst not attain it for the present . I am he , saith the Lord whom thou must patiently wait for , until the Kingdom of God doth come . 4. Thou art yet to be tryed upon Earth , and to be exercised in many things . Comfort shall be sometimes given thee , but the abundant fulness thereof shall not be granted . Take courage therefore , and be valiant as well in doing as in suffering things contrary to nature . Thou oughtest to put on the new Man , and to be changed into another Man. Thou must oftentimes do that which thou wouldest not , and leave undone that thou wouldest do . That which is pleasing to others , shall go well forward ; that which thou wishest , shall not speed . That which others say , shall be heard ; what thou sayest , shall be nothing regarded . Others shall ask and shall receive : Thou shalt ask and not obtain . 5. Others shall be great in the praise of Men , but of thee there shall be no speech . To others this or that shall be committed , but thou shalt be accounted fit for nothing . At this nature will sometimes be troubled , and it is much if thou bearest it with silence . In these and many such like , a faithful Servant of the Lord is wont to be tried how he can deny and break himself in all things . There is scarce any thing , wherein thou hast had such need to dye to thy self , as in seeing and suffering those things that are contrary to thy will ; especially when that is commanded , which seemeth unto thee inconvenient , or less profitable . And for that thou being placed under authority darest not resist higher power , therefore it seemeth hard to thee to walk at the beck of another , and to leave all thine own opinion . 6. But consider , Son , the fruit of these labors , the end near at hand , and the reward exceeding great ; and thou shalt be so far from sustaining them grievously , that thou wilt take great comfort of thy patience . For in regard of that little of thy will , which now thou willingly forsakest , thou shalt always have thy will in Heaven . There thou shalt find all that thou wilt or canst desire ; there thou shalt enjoy all good without fear of losing it ; there shall thy will be ever one with me ; it shall not covet any outward or private thing . There no Man shall withstand thee , no Man complain of thee , no Man hinder thee , nothing come against thee ; but all things desired shall be there together present , and refresh thy whole affection , and fill it up to the brim . There I will give thee glory for the reproach which here thou sufferedst ; the garment of praise for heaviness ; for the lowest place a kingly Throne for ever ; there shall the fruit of obedience appear , the labor of repentance rejoyce , and humble subjection shall be gloriously crowned . 7. Now therefore be humbly obedient unto all , and regard not who said or commanded this ; but take great heed , that whether thy Superior , or thy inferior , or thine equal , require any thing of thee , or do insinuate their desire ; thou take it all in good part , and endeavor to fulfil it with a sincere will. Let one seek this , another that ; let him ' glory in this , the other in that , and be praised a thousand thousand times ; but do thou neither rejoyce in this , nor in that , but in the contempt of thy self , and only in my good pleasure and honor . This art thou to wish , that whether it be thy life or death , God may be always glorified in thee . CHAP. L. How a disconsolate person ought to offer himself into the hands of God. CHristian . Lord God , Holy Father be thou blessed both now and for evermore , because as thou wilt , so is it done , and what thou doest , is good . Let thy Servant rejoyce in thee , not in himself nor in any thing else ; for thou alone art the true gladness , thou art my hope and my crown , thou art my joy and my honor . O Lord. What hath thy Servant , but what he hath received from thee , even without any merit of his ? Thine is all that thou hast given , and whatsoever thou hast made . I am poor , and in labors from my youth ; and sometimes my soul is sorrowful even unto tears ; sometimes also it is troubled in it self by reason of evils which hang over mine head . 2. I long after the joy of peace , I earnestly crave the peace of thy Children that are fed by thee in the light of thy comfort . If thou give peace , if thou pour into my heart holy joy ; the soul of thy Servant shall be full of gladness , and shall become devout in thy praise ; but if thou withdraw thy self , ( as many times thou doest ) he will not be able to run the ways of thy commandments , but rather he will bow his knees , and knock his breast , for it is not now with him as it was heretofore , when thy candle shined upon his Head , and he was protected under the shadow of thy wings , from the temptations which violently assaulted him . 3. O righteous Father , and ever to be praised , the hour is come , that thy Servant is to be tryed ! Behold dear Father , meet it is that in this hour thy Servant suffer something for thy sake . O Father , evermore to be honored , the hour is come , which from all eternity thou didst foreknow should come ; that for a short time thy Servant should outwardly be oppressed , but inwardly live for ever with thee ; that he should be a little despised , humbled , and made as an abject in the sight of Men , and much afflicted with passions and infirmities ; that he may rise again with thee in the morning of the new light , and be glorified in Heaven . Holy Father , thou hast so appointed it and wilt have it so ; and this is fulfilled which thy self hast commanded . 4. It is a favor to thy friend that he may suffer , and be afflicted in the world for love of thee , how often soever , and by whom soever , thou permittest it to fall upon him . For in the world nothing cometh to pass , without thy councel , without thy providence , or without a cause why . It is good for me , Lord , that thou hast afflicted me , that I may learn thy righteous judgments , and cast away all haughtiness of heart , and presumption . It is profitable to me , that shame hath covered my face that I may rather seek to thee for comfort than to Men. I have learned also hereby to dread thy unsearchable judgments , who afflictest the just with the wicked , but not without equity and justice . 5. I give thee thanks , for that thou hast not spared my sins , but hast worn me away with bitter stripes , inflicting sorrows , and sending griefs within and without . There is none under Heaven that can comfort me , but thou my Lord God , the Heavenly Physician of souls , that strikest and healest , bringest down to Hell and bringest back again ; let thy correction be upon me , and let thy rod instruct me . 6. Behold dear Father , I am in thy hands . I bow my self under the rod of thy correction ; strike my back and my neck too , that my crookedness may be conformed to thy will. Make me an holy and humble disciple of thine , ( as thou art wont well to do ) that I may be ready at every beck of thy divine pleasure . I commend my self and all mine unto thee to be corrected . It is better to be corrected here , than hereafter . Thou knowest all and every thing , and there is nothing in the conscience of Man which can be hidden from thee . Before things are done , thou knowest that they will come to pass , and hast no need that any should teach thee , or admonish thee of those things which are done on Earth . Thou knowest what is expedient for my profiting , and how much tribulation is fit to scour off the rust of my sins . Do with me according to thy desired good pleasure , and disdain me not for my sinful life , better and more clearly known to none than to thee alone . 7. Grant me , O Lord , to know that which is to be known , to love that which is to be loved , to praise that which pleaseth thee most , to esteem that which is precious unto thee , to despise that which is contemptible in thy sight ; suffer me not to judge according to the sight of the outward eyes , nor to give sentence according to the hearing of the ears of ignorant Men ; but to discern of visible and spiritual things with a true judgement , and above all things ever to search after thy good will and pleasure . 8. The minds of Men are often deceived in their judging ; the lovers of the world are also deceived in loving only visible things . What is a Man the better , for that he is esteemed great by Man ? The deceitful in exalting the deceitful , the vain Man in Extolling the vain , the blind in commending the blind , the weak in magnifying the weak , deceiveth him and doth verily more shame him , while he doth vainly praise him . For how much every one is in thy sight , so much he is , and no more . CHAP. LI. That a Man ought to imploy himself in works of humility , when strength is wanting for higher imployments . CHrist. Son , thou art not able always to continue in the more fervent desire of virtue , nor to persist in the higher pitch of contemplation ; but thou must sometimes of necessity by reason of original corruption descend to inferior things , and bear the burden of this corruptible life though against thy will , and with grief . As long as thou carriest a mortal body , thou shalt feel trouble and heaviness of heart . Thou oughtest therefore in the flesh oftentimes to bewail the burden of the flesh ; for that thou canst not always continue in spiritual exercises and divine contemplation . 2. It is then expedient for thee to flie to humble and exterior works , and to refresh thy self with good actions ; to expect with a firm confidence my coming and Heavenly visitation , to bear patiently thy banishment and the dryness of thy mind , till I visit thee again , and deliver thee from all anxieties . For I will make thee forget thy former pains , and enjoy inward quietness . I will lay open before thee the pleasant fields of Holy Scripture , that with an enlarged heart thou mayest begin to run the way of my commandments . And thou shalt say , That the sufferings of this present time are not worthy of the glory to come , that shall be revealed in us . CHAP. LII . That a Man ought to esteem himself not worthy of comfort , but rather to deserve stripes . CHristian . Lord , I am not worthy of thy comfort , nor of any spiritual visitation ; and therefore thou dealest justly with me , when thou leavest me poor and desolate . For though I could shed a Sea of tears , yet I were not worthy of thy comfort . For ( alas ) I deserve nothing , but to be scourged and punished , in that I have grievously and often offended thee , and have sinned greatly in many things . All things therefore duly considered , I am not worthy even of the least comfort . But thou O gracious and merciful God , who wilt not that thy works should perish , to shew the riches of thy goodness upon the vessels of mercy , even beyond his desert vouchsafest to comfort thy Servant above the manner of Men. For thy comforts are not like to the words of Men. 2. What have I done , O Lord , that thou shouldest bestow any Heavenly comfort upon me ? I remember not that I have done any good , but have been always prone to sin , and slow to amendment . This is true , and I cannot deny it . If I should say otherwise , thou wouldest stand against me , and there would be none to defend me . What have I deserved for my sins , but Hell and everlasting fire ? I confess in very truth that I am worthy of all scorn and contempt , and it is not fit that I should be remembred amongst thy holy ones . And although I be unwilling to hear this , yet notwithstanding for the truths sake I will lay open my sins against my self , that so the sooner I may obtain mercy at thy hand . 3. What shall I say being guilty and full of all confusion ? I have nothing to say but this , I have sinned . Lord , I have sinned ; have mercy on me , pardon me ; suffer me a little , that I may bewail my grief , before I go unto the land of darkness , a land covered with the shadow of death ; What dost thou so much require of a guilty and miserable sinner , as that he be contrite , and humble himself for his offences ? Of true contrition and humbling of the heart , ariseth hope of forgiveness ; the troubled conscience is reconciled to God , the favor of God , which was lost , is recovered ; Man is preserved from the wrath to come , and God and the penitent soul meet together with an holy kiss . 4. Humble contrition for sins is an acceptable sacrifice unto thee , O Lord , savoring much sweeter in thy presence than the perfume of frankincense . This is also the pleasant ointment , which thou wouldest should be poured upon thy sacred feet ; for thou never despisest a contrite and humbled heart . There is the place of refuge , from the angry face of the enemy ; there is amended and washed away , whatsoever defilement elsewhere was contracted , and whatsoever is polluted . CHAP. LIII . That the grace of God doth not joyn it self with those that savor of Earthly things . CHrist. Son , my grace is precious , it suffereth not it self to be mingled with external things , nor earthly comforts . Thou oughtest therefore to cast away all hindrances of grace , if thou desire to receive the infusion thereof . Choose therefore a secret place to thy self , love to live alone with thy self , desire the conversation of none ; but rather pour out devout Prayers unto God , that thou mayest keep thy mind in compunction , and thy conscience pure . Esteem the whole world as nothing ; prefer attendance upon God before all outward things ; for thou canst not attend upou me , and be delighted also in transitory vanities . Thou oughtest to sequester thy self from thy acquaintance and friends , and to keep thy mind void of all temporal comfort . So the blessed Apostle Peter required , that the faithful of Christ should keep themselves as strangers and pilgrims in this world . 2. O how great a confidence shall he have at the hour of death , whom no affection to any Earthly thing detaineth in the world ! but the sickly mind is not yet capable of so retired a heart ; neither doth the carnal Man understand the liberty of him who is inwardly recollected . Notwithstanding if he will be truly spiritual , he ought to renounce as well those which are strangers , as those which are near unto him ; and to beware of no Man more than of himself . If thou perfectly overcome thy self , thou shalt with more ease subdue the rest . It is a perfect victory to triumph over our selves . For he that keepeth himself subject in such sort that his sensuality be subdued to reason , and reason in all things be obedient to me ; he is truly a conqueror of himself , and Lord of the world . 3. If thou desire to mount unto this height , thou must set out couragiously , and lay the Ax to the root ; that thou mayst pluck up and destroy that hidden inordinate inclination to thy self , and unto all private and Earthly good . Of this sin ( that Man too inordinately loveth himself ) almost all dependeth , whatsoever is throughly to be overcome ; which evil being once overcome , and subdued , there will presently ensue great peace and tranquillity . But for that few endeavor perfectly to die unto themselves , and altogether to go out of themselves , therefore they remain intangled in themselves , and cannot be lifted up in spirit above themselves . But he that desireth to walk freely with me , it is necessary that he mortifie all evil and inordinate affections , and that he should not earnestly adhere unto any creature by private love . CHAP. LIV. Of the different motions of Nature and Grace . CHrist. Son , mark diligently the motions of Nature and Grace ; for in a very contrary and subtil manner these are moved , and can hardly be discerned but by him that is spiritually and inwardly enlightned . All Men indeed desire that which is good , and pretend some good in their words and deeds ; and therefore uuder the shew of good , many are deceived . Nature is crafty , and seduceth , intangleth , and deceiveth many , and always proposeth her self for her end ; but Grace walketh in simplicity , and avoideth all shew of evil , pretendeth not deceits , and doth all things purely for Gods sake , in whom also she finally resteth . 2. Nature will not willingly die , nor be kept down , nor be overcome , nor be subject to any , nor be subdued ; but Grace mindeth self mortification , resisteth sensuality , seeketh to be subject , is willing to be kept under , and will not use her own liberty ; she loveth to be kept under discipline , and desireth not to rule any , but always to live and remain wholly subject unto God , and for God is ready humbly to bow unto all Men. Nature striveth for her own commodity ; and considereth what profit she may reap by another ; but Grace considereth not what is profitable and commodious unto her self , but rather what is profitable to many . Nature willingly receiveth honor and reverence ; but Grace faithfully attributeth all honor and glory unto God. 3. Nature feareth shame and contempt ; but Grace rejoyceth to suffer reproach for the Name of Jesus . Nature loveth idleness and bodily rest ; but Grace cannot be idle , but willingly imbraceth labor . Nature seeketh to have those things that be curious and glorious , abhorreth that which is mean and course ; but Grace delighteth in plain and humble things , despiseth not rough things , nor refuseth to wear that which is old and torn . Nature respecteth temporal things , rejoyceth at Earthly gain , sorroweth for loss , is moved with every little injurious word ; but Grace thinketh on that which is everlasting , and cleaveth not to temporal things , she is not troubled with losses , nor disquieted with hard words ; for that she hath placed her treasure and joy in Heaven , where nothing perisheth . 4. Nature is covetous , and doth more willingly receive than give , she loveth proper and private things ; but Grace is bountiful and liberal to all ; shunneth private interest , is content with a little , thinketh that it is more blessed to give than to receive . Nature is bent to the creatures , to her own flesh , to vanities , and to many vagaries ; but Grace draweth unto God and unto goodness renounceth creatures , flyeth the world , hateth the desires of the flesh , restraineth wandrings abroad , blusheth to be seen in publick ; Nature is willing to have some outward comfort , wherein she may be sensibly delighted ; but Grace seeketh comfort in God alone , and delighteth above all visible things in the highest good . 5. Nature worketh all for her own gain and profit , she can do nothing freely , but for bestowed benefits she hopeth to obtain either that which is equal , or better , either praise or favor , and coveteth to have her works and gifts much esteemed ; but Grace seeketh no temporal thing , nor desireth any other reward than God alone ; nor asketh more of temporal necessaries , than what may serve her for the obtaining of things eternal . 3. Nature rejoyceth to have many friends and kinsfolks , she glorieth of noble place and birth ; pleaseth the powerful , fawneth upon the rich , applaudeth those that are like her self ; but Grace loveth even her enemies , and is not puffed up with multitude of friends ; nor esteemeth place or birth , but where it is joyned with greater virtue ; she rather favoreth the poor than the rich ; hath more compassion of the innocent than the powerful ; rejoyceth in the true , not in the deceitful ; always exhorteth good Men to labor for the better gifts ; and by goodness to resemble the Son of God. Nature quickly complaineth of want and trouble ; Grace constantly endureth need . 7. Nature referreth all things to her self , striveth and contendeth for her self ; but Grace reduceth all to God , from whence originally they proceed ; she ascribeth no good to her self , neither doth she arrogantly presume ; she contendeth not , nor preferreth her opinion before others ; but in every apprehension and opinion submitteth her self unto the eternal wisdom and to the divine judgment . Nature coveteth to know secrets , and to hear news ; she will appear abroad , and make proof of many things by her own senses ; she desireth to be known , and to do those things , for which she may be praised and admired ; but Grace careth not for hearing news , nor to understand curious matters ; for that all this springeth from the old corruption of Man , seeing here is nothing new and durable upon Earth . She teacheth therefore to restrain the senses , to avoid vain pleasing and ostentation , humbly to hide those things that are worthy of praise and admiration ; and of every thing and every knowledg to seek profitable fruit , and the praise and honor of God ; she will not have her self nor hers publickly praised , but desireth that God should be blessed in his gifts , who of mere love bestoweth all things . 8. This Grace is a supernatural light , and a certain special gift of God , and the proper mark of the elect , and pledg of everlasting salvation ; which raiseth up a Man from Earthly things to love the things of Heaven , and of a carnal maketh him a spiritual Man. How much the more therefore Nature is depressed and subdued , so much the greater Grace is infused , and the inward Man daily by new visitations more reformed according to the image of God. CHAP. LV. Of the corruption of Nature , and efficacy of divine Grace . CHristian . O Lord my God , who hast created me after thy Image and likeness , grant me this grace which thou hast shewed to be so great and so necessary to salvation , that I may overcome my wicked nature , which draweth me to sin and to perdition . For I feel in my flesh the Law of sin , contradicting the Law of my mind , and leading me captive to the obeying of sensuality in many things ; neither can I resist the passions thereof , unless thy most holy grace fervently infused into my heart , do assist me . 2. Thy grace , O Lord , and great grace is needful , that nature may be overcome , which is ever prone to evil from her youth . For by Adam the first Man , nature being fallen and corrupted by sin , the penalty of this stain hath descended upon all Mankind , in such sort , that nature it self which by thee was created good and upright , is now accounted for the sin and for the infirmity of corrupted nature ; for that the motion thereof left unto it self draweth to evil and to inferior things . For the little power which remaineth , is like a certain spark lying hidden in ashes . This is natural reason it self , encompassed about with great darkness , yet still retaining power to discern good and evil , and the difference between true and false ; although it be unable to fulfil all that it approveth ; and enjoyeth not now the full light of truth , nor the soundness of her affections . 3. Hence it is , my God , that after the inward Man I delight in thy Law , knowing thy commandments to be good , just , and holy , reproving also all evil and sin , teaching that it is to be avoided . But with the flesh I serve the law of sin , whilst I rather obey sensuality than reason . Hence it is that to will to do good is present with me , but how to perform it I find not . For this cause I often purpose many good things , but because I want grace to help my weakness , upon a light resistance I go back and faint . Hence it is that I know the way of perfection , and see clearly enough what I ought to do ; but pressed down with the weight of mine own corruption , I rise not unto what is more perfect . 4. O Lord , how exceeding needful is thy grace for me , to begin any good work , to go forward , and to accomplish it ; For without it I can do nothing , but in thee I can do all things , when thy grace doth strengthen me . O Heavenly grace indeed , without which our most worthy actions are nothing , and no gifts of nature are to be esteemed . Arts , riches , beauty or strength , wit or eloquence , are of no value with thee , O Lord , without thy grace . For gifts of nature are common to good and bad , but the peculiar gift of the elect is grace and love ; and they that bear this honorable mark , are esteemed worthy of everlasting life . This grace is so eminent , that neither the gift of prophesie , nor the working of miracles ; nor any speculation ( how high soever ) is of any esteem without it . Neither faith nor hope , nor other virtues are acceptable unto thee without love and grace . 5. O most blessed Grace , that makest the poor in spirit rich in virtues , and makest the rich in many blessings to be humble in heart ; come , come down unto me , replenish me early with thy comfort , lest my soul should faint for weariness and driness of mind . I beseech thee , O Lord , that I may find grace in thy sight ; for thy grace is sufficient for me , though other things that nature desireth be wanting . If I be tempted and vexed with many tribulations , I will not fear any evils , whilst thy grace is with me ; that is my strength ; that giveth advice and help ; that is stronger than all enemies , and wiser than all the wise . 6. Thy grace is the mistress of truth , the teacher of discipline , the light of the heart , the solace in affliction , the driver away of sorrow , the expeller of fear , the nurse of devotion , the mother of tears . What am I without it , but a withered piece of wood , and an unprofitable stalk only meet to be cast away ? Let thy grace therefore , O Lord , always prevent me and follow me , and make me ever diligent in good works , through Jesus Christ thy Son. Amen . CHAP. LVI . That we ought to deny our selves , and imitate Christ by the Cross. CHrist. Son , look how much thou goest out of thy self , so much mayst thou enter into me . As to be void of all desire of external things , maketh inward peace ; so the forsaking of our selves inwardly , joyneth unto God. I will have thee learn the perfect leaving of thy self to my will , without contradiction and complaint . Follow me , I am the Way , the Truth , and the Life . Without the way there is no going aright , without truth there is no knowledge , without life there is no living . I am the way which thou oughtest to follow ; the truth which thou oughtest to trust ; the life for which thou oughtest to hope . I am the way inviolable , the truth infallible , the life which cannot end . I am the most straight way , the supreme truth , the true life , yea the blessed life , the uncreated life . If thou remain in my way thou shalt keep the truth , and the truth shall make thee free , and thou shalt lay hold on everlasting life . 2. If thou wilt enter into life , keep the commandments . If thou wilt know the truth , believe me . If thou wilt be perfect , sell all . If thou wilt be my Disciple , deny thy self . If thou wilt possess a blessed life , despise this present life . If thou wilt be exalted in Heaven , humble thy self upon Earth . If thou wilt reign with me , bear the Cross with me . For only the Servants of the Cross find the way of bliss and true light . 3. Christian. Lord Jesus , forasmuch as thy way is narrow and contemptible unto the world , grant me grace to imitate thee in suffering worldly contempt . For the Servant is not greater than his Lord , nor the Disciple above his Master . Let thy Servant be exercised in thy holy life , for therein my salvation and the true holiness doth consist ; whatsoever I read or hear besides it , doth not recreate or delight me fully . 4. Christ. Son , now that thou knowest and hast read these things , happy shalt thou be , if thou do them . He that hath my commandments and keepeth them , he it is that loveth me ; and I will love him , and will manifest my self unto him , and will make him sit with me in the Kingdom of my Father . Christian. Lord Jesus , as thou hast said and promised , so let it come to pass , and grant that I may not wholly undeserve this favor . I have received the Cross , I have received it from thy hand ; I will bear it , and bear it till death , as thou hast laid it upon me . Truly the life of a good retired person is the Cross , but yet it is a guide to Paradise . It is now begun , it is not lawful to go back , neither is it fit to leave that which I have undertaken . 5. Let us then take courage , my Brethren , and go forwards together , Jesus will be with us . For Jesus's sake we have undertaken this Cross , for Jesus's sake let us persevere in the Cross. He will be our helper , who is our guide and forerunner . Behold our King goeth before us , who also will fight for us ; let us follow him manfully , let none be dismaid ; but be we ready to die valiantly in the battle , and let us not blemish our glory by flying from the Cross. CHAP. LVII . That a Man be not too much dejected , when he falleth into some defects . CHrist. Son , patience and humility in adversities are more pleasing to me , than much comfort and devotion in prosperities . Why art thou grieved for every little trifle spoken and done against thee ? Although it had been much more thou oughtest not to have been moved . But now let it pass ; it is not the first that hath happened , nor is it any new thing , neither shall it be the last , if thou live long . Thou art manly enough , as long as no adversity happeneth . Thou canst give good counsel also , and canst strengthen others with thy words ; but when any tribulation suddenly comes to thy door , thou art destitute of counsel and strength . See therefore thy great frailty which thou often hast experience of in every small occurrence . It is notwithstanding intended for thy good , when these and such like things befal thee . 2. Put it out of thy heart the best thou canst , and if it touch thee yet let it not deject thee , nor trouble thee long ; bear it at least patiently , if thou canst not joyfully . Although thou be unwilling to hear it , and conceivest indignation thereat , yet restrain thy self , and suffer no inordinate word to pass out of thy mouth , whereby the little ones may be offended . The storm which now is raised shall quickly be appeased , and inward grief shall be sweetned by the return of grace . I yet live , saith the Lord , and am ready to help thee , and to give thee greater comfort than before , if thou put thy trust in me and callest devoutly upon me . 3. Be more patient , and prepare thy self to greater suffering . All is not lost , if thou feel thy self often afflicted or grievously tempted . Thou art a Man , and not God ; thou art flesh , not an Angel. How canst thou look to continue ever in the same state of virtue , when an Angel in Heaven hath fallen , as also the first Man in Paradise ? I am he who will strengthen with health them that mourn , and do raise up unto divine glory those that know their own infirmity . 4. Christian. Lord , blessed be thy word , more sweet unto my mouth than the hony and the hony-comb . What should I do in these my so great tribulations and straits , unless thou didst comfort me with thy holy words ? What matter is it , how much , and what I suffer , so as I may at length attain to the port of salvation ? Grant me a good end , grant me a happy passage out of this world . Be mindful of me , O my God , and direct me the right way to thy Kingdom , Amen . CHAP. LVIII . Of not searching into high matters and into the secret judgments of God. CHrist. Son beware thou dispute not of high matters , nor of the secret judgments of God , why this Man is left , and that Man taken into so great favor ; why also this Man is so much afflicted , and that Man so greatly advanced , these things are beyond the reach of Man , neither can any reason or disputation search out the judgment of God. When the enemy therefore suggesteth these things unto thee , or some curious people enquire of thee , answer that of the Prophet , Thou art just , O Lord , and thy judgment is right . And again , The judgments of the Lord are true and righteous altogether . My judgments are to be feared , not to be discussed ; for they are such as cannot be comprehended by the understanding of Man. 2. In like manner I advise thee not to enquire , nor dispute of the merits of the Saints , which of them is holier than the other , and which is greater in the Kingdom of Heaven , These things oftentimes breed strife and unprofitable contentions , they nourish also pride and vain glory ; from whence do spring envy and dissentions , whilst one will proudly prefer this , and the other , another . To desire to know and search out such things , is to no purpose ; nor would it please the Saints ; for I am not the God of dissention , but of peace ; which peace consisteth rather in true humility , than in self exaltation . 3. Some are carried with zeal of affection , to love these or those most ; but this love is rather humane than divine . I am He who made all the Saints , and have given them grace ; I have given them glory , I know what every one hath deserved ; I have prevented them with the blessings of my goodness . I foreknew my beloved before the beginning of the world . I chose them out of the world , they chose not me first , I called them by grace , I drew them by mercy , I led them through sundry temptations . I have poured into them glorious comforts , I have given them perseverance , I have crowned their patience . 4. I know both the first and the last ; I embrace all with inestimable love . I am to be praised in all my Saints ; I am to be blessed above all things , and to be honored in every one ; whom I have thus gloriously exalted and predestinated without any precedent merits of their own . He therefore that contemneth one of the least of my Saints , honoreth not the greatest ; for that I made both the less and the greater ; and he that dispraifeth any of my Saints , dispraiseth also me , and all the rest in the Kingdom of Heaven . There all are one through the bond of love ; they think the same , they will the same , and they all love one another . 5. But yet ( which is much more high ) they love me more than themselves , and are drawn out of all themselves or any merits of their own . For being ravished above self-love , they are wholly carried out to love me , in whom also they do fruitively rest . Nothing can turn them back , nothing can press them down ; for being full of the eternal Truth , they burn with the fire of unquenchable love . Let therefore carnal and natural Men who can affect no other but their private joys , forbear to dispute of the state of Saints . They add and take away according to their own fancies , not as it pleaseth the eternal Truth . 6. Many are ignorant , but specially those that be slenderly enlightned ; and these can seldom love any with a perfect spiritual love . They are as yet much drawn by a natural affection and humane friendship to this Man or to that ; and according to the experience they have of themselves in their Earthly affections , so they frame an imagination of Heavenly things . But there is an incomparable distance between the things which the imperfect ones imagine in their conceits , and those which the illuminated ones do see by revelation from above . 7. Beware therefore , my Son , that thou treat not curiously of these things , which exceed thy knowledg ; but rather so apply thy endeavors , that thou mayest at least have the meanest place in the Kingdom of Heaven . And if any one did know which of the Saints exceed others in sanctity , or were greater in the Kingdom of Heaven ; what would this knowledg avail him , unless he should thereby humble himself the more in my sight , and should rise up into the greater praising of my name ? He pleaseth God much better that thinketh of the greatness of his sins , and the smalness of his graces , and how far off he is from the perfection of the Saints ; than he that disputeth of their greatness or littleness . 8. They are well and right well contented , if Men could content themselves , and refrain from these vain discourses . They glory not of their own merits , for they ascribe no good unto themselves , but attribute all to me , who of my infinite love have given them all things . They are filled with so great love of the Divinity , and with such an overflowing joy , that there is no glory nor happiness , that is or can be wanting unto them . All the Saints , how much the higher they be in glory , so much the more humble they are in themselves , and nearer and dearer unto me ; And therefore it is written , That they did cast their Crowns before God , and fell down upon their face before the Lamb , and adored him that liveth for ever and ever . 9. Many inquire who is greatest in the Kingdom of God , that know not whether they shall ever be numbred there amongst the least . It is a great thing to be even the least in Heaven , where all are great ; for that all there shall be called , and shall be indeed , the Sons of God. The least shall become a Thousand ; and the sinner of an Hundred years shall die . For when the Disciples asked who should be greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven , they received this answer , Unless you be converted , and be come as little Children , you shall not enter into the Kingdom of Heaven : Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little Child , the same is greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven . 10. Wo be unto them that disdain to humble themselves willingly with little Children . For the low gate of the Kingdom of Heaven will not give them entrance . And wo be to the rich , that have their comforts here ; for whilest the poor enter into the Kingdom of God , they shall stand lamenting without . Rejoyce you that be humble , and you that be poor be you glad , for yours is the Kingdom of God , if you walk according to the truth . CHAP. LIX . That all our hope and trust is to be fixed in God alone . CHristian . Lord , what trust have I in this life ? Or what is the greatest comfort , that all things under Heaven do yield me ? Is it not thou , my Lord God , whose mercies are without number ? Where hath it been well with me without thee ? Or when could it be ill with me , when thou wert present ? I had rather be poor for thee , than rich without thee . I rather choose to be a pilgrim on Earth with thee , than to possess Heaven without thee . Where thou art , there is Heaven ; and there is death and Hell , where thou art not , Thou art my desire , and therefore it behoveth me to sigh and cry and pray unto thee . For I have none fully to trust in , none that can seasonably help me in my necessities , but thee alone , my God. Thou art my hope , thou art my trust ; thou art my comforter , and most faithful unto me in all things . 2. All Men seek their own gain ; thou only seekest my salvation and my profit , and turnest all things to my good . Although thou exposest me to divers temptations and adversities , yet thou orderest all this to my advantage , who art wont to try thy beloved ones a Thousand wayes . In which trial thou oughtest no less to be loved and praised , then if thou didst fill me with Heavenly comforts . 3. In thee therefore , O Lord God , I put my whole hope and refuge ; in thee I place my tribulation and anguish ; for I find all to be weak and unconstant , whatsoever I behold out of thee . For neither can many friends avail , nor strong helpers aid , nor wise councellors give any profitable answer , nor the Books of the learned comfort , nor any wealth deliver , nor any secret or pleasant place defend ; if thou thy self dost not assist , help , strengthen , comfort , instruct , and keep us . 4. For all things that seem to belong to the attainment of peace and felicity , without thee are nothing , and do bring indeed no felicity at all . Thou therefore art the end of all that is good , the height of life , the depth of wisdom , and the strongest comfort of thy servants is to trust in thee above all things . To thee therefore do I lift up mine eyes , in thee O my God , the Father of mercies , I put my trust . Bless and sanctifie my soul with thy Heavenly blessings , that it may be made thy holy habitation , and the seat of thy eternal glory ; and that nothing may be found in the Temple of thy glory , that may offend the eyes of thy Majesty . According to the greatness of thy goodness , and multitude of thy mercies look upon me , and hear the prayer of thy poor Servant , who is far exiled from thee in the land of the shadow of death . Protect and keep the soul of thy Servant , amidst so many dangers of this corruptible life , and by thy grace accompanying me direct it by the way of peace , to the country of everlasting light , Amen . THE FOURTH BOOK . A devout Exhortation unto the holy Communion . The voice of Christ. COme unto me , all ye that labor and are burdened , and I will refresh you , saith the Lord. The bread which I will give , is my flesh , for the life of the world . Take ye and eat , that is my body that is given for you . Do this in remembrance of me . He that eateth my flesh , and drinketh my blood , dwelleth in me and I in him . The words which I have spoken unto you , are spirit and life . CHAP. I. With how great reverence Christ ought to be received . The voice of the disciple . THese are thy words , O Christ the everlasting Truth , though not spoken all at one time , nor written in one and the self same place . Because therefore they are thine and true , they are all thankfully and faithfully to be received by me . They are thine , and thou hast spoken them ; and they are mine also , because thou hast spoken them for my salvation . I willingly receive them from thy mouth , that they may be the deeper imprinted in my heart . These so gracious words , so full of sweetness and love , do encourage me , but mine own offences do dishearten me , and my impure conscience driveth me back from the receiving of so great mysteries . The sweetness of thy words doth encourage me , but the multitude of my sins doth oppress me . 2. Thou commandest me to come confidently unto thee , if I will have part with thee ; and to receive the food of immortality , if I desire to obtain everlasting life and glory . Come , saist thou , unto me , all ye that labor and are burdened , and I wil refresh you . O sweet and loving word in the ear of a sinner , that thou , my Lord God , shouldest invite the poor and needy to the participation of thy most holy body ! But who am I , Lord , that I may presume to approach unto thee ? Behold the Heavens cannot contain thee , and thou saist , Come ye all unto me . 3. What meaneth this so gracious a condescension , and this so loving invitation ? How shall I dare to come , that know not any good in my self , whereupon I may presume ? How shall I bring thee unto my House , that have so often offended thy most gracious countenance ? The Angels and the Archangels honor thee , the Saints and just Men do fear thee , and saist thou , Come ye all unto me ? Unless thou O Lord , didst say it , who would believe it to be true ? And unless thou didst command it , who would attempt to come unto thee ? Behold Noah a just Man labored a Hundred years in the making of the Ark , that he might be saved with a few , and how can I in one hours space prepare my self to receive with reverenee the Maker of the world ? 4. Moses thy great Servant , and thy especial friend , made an Ark of incorruptible wood , which also he covered with most pure Gold , to put the Tables of the Law therein ; and I a corruptible creature , how shall I dare so lightly to receive the Maker of the Law , and the giver of life ? Solomon the wisest of the Kings of Israel bestowed Seven years in building a magnificent Temple to the praise of thy Name , and celebrated the feast of Dedication thereof Eight days together ; he offered a Thousand peace-offerings , and he solemnly set the Ark in the place prepared for it , with the sound of Trumpets , and joy ; and I the most miserable and poorest of Men , how shall I bring thee into my House , that can scarce spend one half hour religiously ? And I wish I could once spend about one half hour in a worthy and due manner ! 5. O my God , how much did they endeavor to please thee , and alas how little is that which I do ! How little time do I spend to prepare my self to receive ! I am seldom wholly recollected , very seldom free from all distraction ; and yet surely no unbecoming thought ought to appear in the comfortable presence of thy Deity , nor any creature wholly take me up ; for I am not to harbor an Angel , but the Lord of Angels . 6. And yet there is great difference between the Ark of the Covenant with its reliques , and thy most pure body with its unspeakable virtues ; between those legal Sacrifices , figures of future things , and the true Sacrifice of thy body , the complement of all antient Sacrifices . Why therefore am I not more zealous in thy venerable presence ? Wherefore do I not prepare my self with greater care to receive thy holy things ; sith those holy antient Patriarchs and Prophets , yea Kings also and Princes , with the whole people , have shewed such an affectionateness of devotion to thy divine service ? 7. The most devout King David danced before the Ark of God with all his might , calling to mind the benefits bestowed in times past upon his Forefathers . He made instruments of sundry kinds , he published Psalms , and appointed them to be sung with joy ; he also oftentimes sung to the harp , being inspired with the grace of the holy Ghost . He taught the people of Israel to praise God with their whole heart , and with pleasant voices every day to bless and praise him . If so great devotion was then used , and such celebrating of divine praise before the Ark of the Testament ; what reverence and devotion is now to be performed by me and all Christian people at the Sacrament , in receiving the most precious body of Christ ? 8. O God the invisible Creator of the world how wonderfully dost thou deal with us ! how sweetly and graciously dost thou dispose of all things with thine elect , to whom thou offerest thy self to be received in the Sacrament ! O this exceedeth all understanding ! This chiefly draweth the hearts of the religious and inflameth their affections . For thy true faithful Servants that dispose their whole life to amendment , by this most precious Sacrament , oftentimes gain much of the grace of devotion , and love of holiness .. 9. O the admirable and hidden grace of this Sacrament , which only the faithful ones of Christ do know ; but the unbelieving , and such as are slaves unto sin , cannot have experience thereof ! In this Sacrament spiritual grace is given , and strength which was lost is restored in the soul , and the beauty disfigured by sin returneth again . This grace is sometimes so great , that out of the fulness of devotion which is here given , not only the mind , but the weak body also , feeleth great increase of strength . 10. Our coldness and negligence surely is much to be wailed and pittied , that we are not drawn with greater affection to receive Christ , in whom all the hope and merit of those that are to be saved doth consist . For he is our sanctification and redemption ; he is the comfort of those who are here but travellers , and the everlasting fruition of Saints . It is much therefore to be lamented that many do so little consider this comfortable mystery , which rejoyceth Heaven , and preserveth the whole world . O the blindness and hardness of Mans heart , that doth not more deeply weigh so unspeakable a gift ; but rather cometh by the daily use thereof to regard it little or nothing ! 11. For if this most holy Sacrament should be celebrated in one place only , and consecrated by one only Minister in the world ; with how great desires dost thou think would Men be affected to that place , and to such a Minister , that they might enjoy the celebration of these divine mysteries ? But now there are many Ministers , and Christ is offered in many places ; that so the grace and love of God to Man may appear so much the greater , how much the more this sacred Communion is spread through the world . Thanks be unto thee good Jesus , the everlasting shepherd , that hast vouchsafed to refresh us who are poor and in a state of banishment , with thy precious body and blood , and to invite us to the receiving of these mysteries with the words of thy own mouth , saying , Come unto me all ye that labor and are burdened , and I will refresh you . CHAP. II. That the great goodness and love of God is exhibited to Man in this Sacrament . The voice of the Disciple . IN confidence of thy goodness and great mercy , O Lord , being sick , I approach unto my Savior , being hungry and thirsty to the Fountain of life , needy to the King of Heaven , a Servant unto my Lord , a creature to my Creator , being disconsolate I come to thee my merciful comforter . But whence is this to me , that thou vouch-safest to come unto me ? Who am I that thou shouldest give thy self unto me ? How dare a sinner appear before thee ? And how is it that thou dost vouchsafe to come unto a sinner ? Thou knowest thy Servant and seest that he hath no good thing in him , for which thou shouldest bestow this favor upon him . I confess therefore my unworthiness , and I acknowledg thy goodness ; I praise thy mercy , and give thee thanks for this thy transcendent love . For thou dost this for thine own sake , not for any merits of mine ; to the end that thy goodness may be better known unto me , thy love more abundantly shewed , and thy gracious condescension may be the more eminently set forth . Since therefore it is thy pleasure , and thou hast commanded that it should be so , this thy favor is also dearly pleasing to me , and I wish that my sins may be no hindrance herein . 2. O most sweet and benign Jesus , how great reverence and thanks together with perpetual praise , is due unto thee for the receiving of thy sacred body , whose preciousness no Man is able to express ! But what shall I think of at this Communion , now that I am to approach unto my Lord , whom I am not able duly to honor , and yet I desire to receive him with devotion ? What can I think better , and more profitable , than to humble my self wholly before thee , and to exalt thy infinite goodness above me ? I praise thee my God , and will exalt thee for ever ; and I do despise and submit my self unto thee , in a deep sense of my own unworthiness . 3. Behold thou art the Holy of Holies , and I the skum of sinners ! Behold thou inclinest unto me , who am not worthy so much as to look up unto thee ! Behold thou comest unto me ! It is thy will to be with me , thou invitest me to thy banquet . Thou wilt give me the food of Heaven , and bread of Angels to eat , which is no other indeed than thy self , the living bread , that descendest from Heaven , and givest life unto the world . world . 4. Behold from whence doth this love proceed ! What a gracious condescension of thine appeareth herein ! How great thanks and praises are due unto thee for these benefits ! O how good and profitable was thy councel , when thou ordainedst it ! How sweet and pleasant the banquet , when thou gavest thy self to be our food ! How wonderful is this thy doing , O Lord , how mighty is thy power , how unspeakable is thy truth ! For thou sayest the word , and all things were made ; and this was done which thou commandest . 5. A thing of great admiration , that thou , my Lord God , true God , and Man , shouldest be exhibited unto us by the Elements of Bread and Wine . Thou who art the Lord of all things and standest in need of none , had pleased to dwell in us by means of this thy Sacrament ; preserve my heart and body unspotted , that with a chearful and pure conscience I may often celebrate thy mysteries , and receive them to my everlasting health ; which thou hast chiefly ordained and instituted for thy honor and for a perpetual memorial . 6. Rejoyce , O my soul , and give thanks unto God for so noble a gift , and so singular a comfort left unto thee in this vale of tears . For as often as thou callest to mind this mystery , and receivest the body of Christ ; so often dost thou remember the work of thy redemption , and art made partaker of all the merits of Christ. For the love of Christ is never diminished , and the greatness of his propitiation is never exhausted . Therefore thou oughtest always to dispose thy self hereunto by a fresh renewing of thy mind , and to weigh with attentive consideration this great mystery of thy salvation . So great , new , and joyful it ought to seem unto thee , when thou comest to these holy mysteries ; as if the same day Christ first descending into the womb of the Virgin , were become Man ; or hanging on the Cross did suffer and die for salvation of Mankind . CHAP. III. That it is profitable to communicate often . The voice of the Disciple . BEhold , O Lord , I come unto thee , that I may be comforted in thy gift , and be delighted in thy holy banquet , which thou , O God , hast prepared in thy goodness for the poor . Behold in thee is all whatsoever I can or ought to desire ; thou art my salvation and my redemption , my hope and my strength , my honor and my glory , make joyful therefore this day the soul of thy Servant , for that I have lifted it up to thee . O Lord Jesus , I desire to receive thee now with devotion and reverence . I do long to bring thee into my house , that with Zacheus I may obtain to be blessed by thee , and to be numbred amongst the Children of Abraham . My soul thirsteth to receive thy body , my heart desireth to be united with thee . 2. Give thy self to me , and it sufficeth ; for besides thee no comfort is available . I cannot be without thee , nor live without thy visitation . And therefore I must often come unto thee , and receive thee for the welfare of my soul ; lest perhaps I faint in the way , if I be deprived of thy Heavenly food . For so , most merciful Jesus , thou once didst say , preaching to the people and curing sundry diseases , I will not send them home fasting , lest they faint in the way . Deal thou therefore in like manner now with me , who hast vouchsafed to leave thy self in the Sacrament for the comfort of the faithful . For thou art the sweet refection of the soul ; and he that eateth thee worthily , shall be partaker and heir of everlasting glory . It is necessary for me , that do often fall and sin , and so quickly wax dull and faint , that by frequent prayer and confession , and receiving of thy holy body , I renew , cleanse , and inflame my self ; lest perhaps by long abstaining I should fall from my holy purpose . 3. For the imaginations of Man are prone unto evil from his youth , and unless some divine remedy help him , he quickly slideth to worse . This holy Communion therefore draweth back from evil and strengtheneth in good . For if I be now so often slack and cold when I communicate , or celebrate ; what would become of me if I received not this remedy , and sought not after so great an help ? Though every day I be not fit , nor well prepared to communicate ; I will endeavor notwithstanding at due times to receive the divine mysteries , and to be partaker of so great a grace . For this is one chief comfort of a faithful soul , whilest she wandreth from thee in this mortal body , that being often mindful of her God , she receive her beloved with a devout mind . 4. O the wonderful condescent of thy mercy towards us , that thou O Lord God , the Creator and giver of life to all spirits , dost vouchsafe to come unto a poor soul ; and with thy whole Deity and Humanity to replenish her hunger ! O happy mind and blessed soul , that obtains to receive thee , her Lord God , with devout affection , and in receiving of thee to be filled with spiritual joy ! O how great a Lord doth she entertain ! How beloved a guest doth she harbor ! How pleasant a companion doth she receive ! How faithful a friend doth she take in ! How lovely and noble a spouse doth she embrace ! She embraceth him who is to be loved above all that is beloved , and above all things that may be desired . Let Heaven and Earth and all their furniture be silent in thy presence ; for what praise and beauty soever they have , it is received from thy bounty , and shall not equal the beauty of thy Name , whose wisdom is infinite . CHAP. IV. That many benefits are bestowed upon them that communicate devoutly . The voice of the Disciple . MY Lord God , prevent thy Servant with the blessings of thy sweetness , that I may approach worthily and devoutly to thy glorious Sacrament ; stir up my heart unto thee , and deliver me from all dulness ; visit me with thy salvation , that I may taste in spirit thy sweetness , which plentifully lieth hid in this Sacrament , as in a fountain . Enlighten also my eyes to behold so great a mystery , and strengthen me to believe it with undoubted faith . For it is thy work , and not Mans power ; thy sacred institution , not Mans invention . For no Man is of himself able to comprehend and understand these things , which surpass the understanding even of Angels . What therefore shall I unworthy sinner , dust and ashes , be able to search and comprehend of so high and sacred a mystery ? 2. O Lord , in the simplicity of my heart , with a good and firm faith , and at thy commandment , I come unto thee with hope and reverence , and do truly believe that thou art present in the Sacrament . Thy will is , that I receive thee , and that by love I unite my self unto thee . Wherefore I implore thy mercy , and do crave thy special grace , to the end I may wholly melt and flow over with love unto thee , and hereafter never harbor any external comfort . For this most high and worthy Sacrament is the health of the soul and body , the remedy of all spiritual weakness ; hereby my vices are cured , my passions bridled , temptations overcome or weakned , greater grace is infused , virtue begun increased , faith confirmed , hope strengthened and love inflamed , and enlarged . 3. For thou hast bestowed , and still oftentimes dost bestow many benefits in this Sacrament upon thy beloved ones that communicate devoutly , O my God , the Protector of my soul , the strengthner of humane frailty , and the giver of all inward comfort . Thou impartest unto them much comfort against sundry tribulations ; and liftest them up from the depth of their own dejectedness , to hope in thy protection ; and dost inwardly refresh and illustrate them with new grace , so that they who before Communion felt themselves heavy and indisposed , afterwards being refreshed with Heavenly meat and drink , do find in themselves a great change to the better . And in such a way of dispensation thou dealest with thy elect , that they may truly acknowledg , and patiently prove , how great their own infirmity is , and what goodness and grace they receive from thee . For they of themselves are cold , dull and undevout ; but by thee they are made fervent , chearful , and full of devotion . For who is there , that approaching humbly unto the fountain of sweetness , doth not carry away from thence at least some little sweetness ? Or who standing by a great fire , receiveth not some small heat thereby ? Thou art a fountain always full and overflowing , a fire ever burning and never decaying . 4. Wherefore if I cannot draw out of the full fountain it self , nor drink my fill ; I will notwithstanding set my lips to the mouth of this Heavenly conduit , that I may draw from thence at least some small drop to refresh my thirst ; that so I may not be wholly dried up . And though I be not altogether Heavenly , nor so inflamed as the Cherubins and Seraphins , notwithstanding I will endeavor to apply my self to devotion , and prepare my heart to obtain some small spark of divine fire , by humble receiving of this enlivening Sacrament . And whatsoever is hereunto wanting in me , good Jesus , most holy Saviour , do thou supply for me , most bountifully and graciously , who hast vouchsafed to call us unto thee , saying , Come unto me all ye that labor and are burdened , and I will refresh you . 5. I indeed labor in the sweat of my brows , I am vexed with grief of heart , I am burdened with sins , I am troubled with temptations , I am intangled and oppressed with many evill passions ; and there is none to help me , none to deliver and save me , but thou , O Lord , my Saviour , to whom I commit my self , and all that is mine , that thou mayest keep me and bring me to life everlasting . Receive me to the honor and glory of thy Name , who hast prepared thy Body and Blood to be my meat and drink . Grant , Lord God , my Saviour , that by frequenting thy mysteries , the zeal of my devotion may increase . CHAP. V. Of the dignity of this Sacrament , and Ministerial function . The voice of Christ. IF thou hadst Angelical purity , and the sanctity of St. Iohn Baptist , thou wert not worthy to receive this Sacrament . For it is not within the compass of the deserts of Men , that Man should consecrate the Sacrament of Christ , and receive for food the Bread of Angels . A great mystery , and great is the dignity of the Ministers of God , to whom is given that which is not given to the Angels . It is proper for Ministers rightly instituted in the Church , to have power to celebrate , and consecrate the Body of Christ. The Priest is the Minister of God , using the word of God , by Gods Commandment and appointment ; but God is there the principal Author , and invisible Worker ; to whom is subject all that he pleaseth , and all that he commandeth doth obey . 2. Thou oughtest therefore more to believe God Almighty in this most excellent Sacrament , than thine own sense , or any visible sign . And therefore thou art to come unto this mystery with fear and reverence . Consider attentively with thy self , and see what that is , whereof the Ministery is delivered unto thee by the imposition of the hands of the Bishop . Behold thou art made a Priest , and consecrated to celebrate ; see now that in due time thou doest this faithfully and devoutly , and carry thy self so , as thou mayest be without reproof . Thou hast not lightned thy burden , but art now bound with a straiter band of discipline , and art obliged to a more perfect degree of sanctity . A Minister ought to be adorned with all graces , and to give example of good life to others . His conversation should not be according to the ordinary and common course of Men , but like to the Angels in Heaven , or to perfect Men on Earth . 3. A Minister is the Vicegerent of Christ , to pray humbly with a prostrate mind unto God for himself and the whole People . Neither ought he to cease from prayer till he obtain grace and mercy . When a Minister doth celebrate , he honoreth God , rejoyceth the Angels , edifieth the Church , helpeth the living ; and maketh himself partaker of all good . CHAP. VI. An interrogation of the exercise before Communion . The voice of the Disciple . WHen I weigh thy worthiness , O Lord , and my unworthiness , I tremble , and am confounded in my self . For if I come not unto thee , I fly from life ; and if I unworthily intrude my self , I incur thy displeasure . What therefore shall I do my God , my helper , and my counceller , in necessity ? 2. Teach me the right way , appoint me some exercise sutable to this holy Communion . For it is good for me to know how I should reverently and religiously prepare my heart for thee , for the profitable receiving of thy Sacrament , or for the celebrating of so great and divine a Sacrifice . CHAP. VII . Of the discussing of our own conscience and purpose of amendment . The voice of the beloved . ABove all things , The Minister of God ought to come to celebrate , and receive this Sacrament with great humility of heart , and lowly reverence , with a full faith , and a pious intending of the honor of God. Examine diligently thy conscience , and to thy power purge and cleanse it with true contrition and humble confession ; so as there may be nothing in thee , that may be burdensome unto thee , or that may breed in thee remorse of conscience , and hinder thy free access . Repent thee of all thy sins in general , and in particular bewail and lament thy daily offences . And if thou hast time , confess unto God in the secret of thy heart , all the evils of thy disordered passions . 2. Lament and grieve , that thou art yet so carnal , so worldly , so unmortified in thy passions , so full of the motions of concupiscence , so unwatchful over thy outward senses , so often intangled with many vain fantasies , so vehemently inclined to outward things , so negligent in the interior , so prone to laughter and immodesty , so indisposed to tears and compunction , so prompt to ease and pleasures of the flesh , so dull to strictness and life of zeal , so curious to hear news and see glorious sights , so slack to imbrace what is humble and low , so covetous of abundance , so niggardly in giving , so fast in keeping , so inconsiderate in speeh , so unbridled to silence , so loose in manners , so importune in action , so greedy to meat , so deaf to the word of God , so hasty to rest , so slow to labor , so watchful to tales , so drowsie to watch in the service of God , so hasty to the end thereof , so inconstant in attention , so cold in Prayer , so undevout in celebrating , so dry in receiving , so quickly distracted , so seldom wholly gathered into thy self , so suddenly moved to anger , so apt to take displeasure against another , so prone to judge , so severe to reprehend , so joyful in prosperity , so weak in adversity , so often purposing much good , and yet performing little . 3. These and other thy defects being confessed , and bewailed with sorrow and great dislike of thine own infirmity , make a firm purpose always to amend thy life , and to endeavor still after a farther progress in holiness . Then with full resignation , and with thy whole will , do thou to the honor of my Name , offer up thy self a perpetual sacrifice on the Altar of thy heart , faithfully committing thy body and soul unto me , that so thou mayest come worthily to celebrate this Eucharistical sacrifice , and to receive profitably the Sacrament of my body . 4. For Man hath no oblation more worthy , nor greater , for the destroying of sin , than to offer up himself unto God purely and wholly in the holy Communion . And when a Man shall have done what lieth in him , and shall be truly penitent , and shall come to me for pardon and grace , as I live , saith the Lord , who will not the death of a sinner , but rather that he be converted and live , I will not remember his sins any more , but they shall be all forgiven him . CHAP. VIII . Of the oblation of Christ on the Cross and resignation of our selves . The voice of the Beloved . AS I willingly offered up my self unto God my Father for thy sins , my hands being stretched forth on the Cross , and my body naked , so that nothing remained in me that was not wholly turned into a sacrifice for the appeasing of the divine Majesty ; so oughtest thou also to offer up thy self willingly unto me every day , as a pure and holy oblation , with all thy might and affections , in as hearty a manner as thou canst . What do I require of thee more , than that thou entirely resign thy self unto me ? Whatsoever thou givest besides thy self , is of little account in my sight , for I seek not any gift of thine , but thy self . 2. As it would not suffice thee to have all things whatsoever , besides me ; so neither can it please me , whatsoever thou givest , if thou offerest not thy self . Offer up thy self unto me , and give thy self wholly for God , and thy offering shall be acceptable . Behold I offered up my self wholly unto my Father for thee , and gave my whole body and blood for thy food , that I might be wholly thine , and thou remain mine . But if thou abidest in thy self , and dost not offer thy self up freely unto my will ; thy oblation is not entire , neither will the union between us be perfect . Therefore a free offering up of thy self into the hands of God , ought to go before all thy actions , if thou wilt obtain freedom and grace . For this cause so few become inwardly free and illuminated , for that they are loth wholly to deny themselves . My saying is undoubtedly true , unless a Man forsake all , he cannot be my Disciple . If thou therefore desirest to be my Disciple , offer up thy self unto me with thy whole affections . CHAP. IX . That we ought to offer up our selves , and all that is ours unto God , and to pray for all . The voice of the Disciple . THine , O Lord , are all things that are in Heaven , and in Earth . I desire to offer up my self unto thee , as a free oblation , and to remain always thine . O Lord , in the simplicity of my heart I offer my self unto thee this day , for a sacrifice of a perpetual praise , to be thy Servant for ever . Receive me with this holy oblation of thy precious body ; and may this be for my good and the good of all thy People . 2. I offer unto thee , O Lord , all my sins and offences , which I have committed before thee and thy holy Angels , from the day wherein I first could sin , to this hour , upon thy merciful altar ; that thou mayest consume and burn them all with the fire of thy love , and wash out all the stains of my sins , and cleanse my conscience from all offences , and restore to me again thy grace , which I lost by sin , forgiving me all my offences , and receiving me mercifully to the kiss of peace . 3. What can I do with my sins , but humbly confess and bewail them , and intreat always thy favor ? I beseech thee , hear me graciously , when I stand before thee my God. All my sins are very displeasing unto me . I will never commit them any more ; but I bewail , and will bewail them as long as I live , and am purposed to repent and according to my utmost power to please thee . Forgive me , O God , forgive me my sins for thy holy Names sake ; save my soul which thou hast redeemed with thy most precious blood . Behold I commit my self unto thy mercy , I resign my self into thy Hands . Do with me according to thy goodness , not according to my wickedness and iniquity . 4. I offer up also unto thee all whatsoever is good in me , although it be very little and imperfect , that thou mayest amend and sanctify it , that thou mayest make it grateful and acceptable unto thee , and always perfect it more and more ; and bring me also , who am a slothful and unprofitable profitable creature , to a good and blessed end . 5. I offer up also unto thee all the godly desires of pious persons , the necessities of parents , friends , brethren , sisters , and of all those that are dear unto me , and that have done good either to my self or to others for thy love , and that have desired and begged of me to pray for them and all theirs ; that they all may receive the help of thy grace and comfort , protection from dangers , deliverance from pain ; and being freed from all evils , may joyfully give worthy thanks unto thee . 6. I offer up also unto thee my Prayers , especially for them who have in any thing wronged , grieved , or slandered me , or have done me any damage or displeasure ; and for those also , whom I have at any time sadded , troubled , grieved , and scandalized by words or deeds , wittingly or at unawares , that it may please thee to forgive us all our sins and offences , one against another . Take , O Lord , from our hearts all jealousy , indignation , wrath , and contention , and whatsoever may hurt charity , and lessen brotherly love . Have mercy , O Lord , have mercy on those that crave thy mercy ; give grace unto them that stand in need thereof , and grant that we may be counted worthy to enjoy thy grace , and attain to life everlasting , Amen . CHAP. X. That the holy communion is not lightly to be forborn . The voice of the beloved . THou oughtest often to have recourse to the Fountain of grace and of divine mercy , to the Fountain of goodness and of all benignity ; that thou maist be healed of thy sins and passions , and be made more strong and vigilant against all the temptations and deceits of the Devil . The enemy knowing the great good and advantage which comes by the holy Communion , endeavoreth by all means and occasions to withdraw and hinder faithful and pious persons from it . 2. Some when they purpose to fit themselves for the holy Communion , suffer worse assaults of the Devil . For that wicked spirit ( as it is written in Iob ) cometh amongst the sons of God , to trouble them according to his accustomed malice , or to make them over fearful and perplexed , that so he may diminish their affection , or by subtile assaults take away their faith , to the end they may either altogether forbear the Communion , or at least come unto it but coldly . But there is no heed to be taken of his frauds and suggestions , be they never so filthy and hideous , but all is to be turned back upon his own head . Thou oughtest to contemn and scorn him a miserable wretch , and not to omit the holy Communion for his assaults , and the troubles which he raiseth . 3. Oftentimes also an excessive care for the obtaining such a degree of devotion , and some anxiety about confessing thy sins hindereth thee . Follow herein the counsel of the wise , and put away all doubt and scruple ; for it is an hindrance to the grace of God , and prejudiceth the devotion of the mind . For every small vexation and trouble omit not the holy Communion , but the sooner confess thy sins , and willingly forgive others whatsoever offences they have done against thee ; and if thou hast offended any , humbly crave pardon , and God will readily forgive thee . 4. What availeth it to delay long the confession of thy sins , or to defer the holy Communion ? Purge thy self with speed , spit out the venome presently , make hast to apply this sovereign remedy , and thou shalt find it to be better with thee , than if thou deferredst it long . If thou omittest it to day for this cause , perhaps to morrow some greater will fall out ; and so thou maist be hindred a long time from the Communion , and become more unfit . With all possible speed shake off from thy self all present heaviness and sloth , for it will not avail thee to continue long in disquietness and trouble of mind , and for daily occurring impediments to withdraw thy self from the divine mysteries . Yea it is very prejudicial to defer the Communion long , for this usually causeth a greater dulness and undisposedness . Alas , some cold and dissolute people do willingly delay confession and defer the sacred Communion , lest they should be engaged to the greater watch over themselves . 5. O how little is their charity , and how weak is their devotion , that so easily omit the holy Communion ! How happy is he and acceptable to God , who so ordereth his life , and keepeth his conscience in such purity , that he is ready and fit to communicate every day , if it were convenient and might be done without others taking notice . If one doth sometimes abstain out of humility , or by reason of some lawful impediment , he is to be commended for the reverence which therein he sheweth . But if it proceedeth of dull slothfulness , he must stir himself up , and do what lieth in him , and God will assist his desire for the good will he hath thereto , which God doth chiefly respect . 6. And when any lawful hindrance doth happen , he must yet always have that good will , and a pious intention to communicate , and so shall he not lose the fruit of the Sacrament . For every good Man may every day and hour profitably and without let receive Christ spiritually ; and yet on certain daies , and at time appointed he ought to receive Sacramentally with an affectionate reverence the body of his Redeemer , and rather seek the honor and glory of God , than his own comfort . For he communicateth mystically and is invisibly , as often as he devoutly calleth to mind the mysterie of the Incarnation , and the Passion of Christ , and is inflamed with his love . 7. He that prepareth not himself , but when a Festival draweth near , and when custome compelleth him thereunto , shall usually be found to be unprepared for it . Blessed is he that offereth himself up as a Sacrifice to the Lord , as often as he doth celebrate or communicate . Be not too long , nor too short in celebrating , but keep the accustomed manner of those with whom thou livest . Thou oughtest not to be tedious and troublesom to others , but to observe the received custom , according to the appointment of thy Superiors ; and rather frame thy self to the profit of others , than to thine own devotion or desire . CHAP. XI . That the Body of Christ , and the holy Scriptures , are most necessary unto a faithful soul. The voice of the Disciple . O Sweetest Lord Jesus , how great sweetness hath an holy soul that feasteth with thee in thy banquet , where there is set no other food to be eaten but thy self , her only beloved , and most to be desired above all the desires of her heart ! And verily it should be a sweet thing unto me to pour out tears from the very bottom of my heart in thy presence ; and with holy Magdalene to wash thy feet with my tears . But where is this devotion ? Where is there any so plentiful shedding of holy tears ? Surely in the sight of thee and thy holy Angels , my whole heart should be inflamed and even weep for joy . For I enjoy thee in the Sacrament truly present , though hidden under another representation . 2. For to behold thee in thine own divine brightness , mine eyes would not be able to endure it , neither could the whole world stand in the brightness of the glory of thy Majesty . I do really enjoy and adore him , whom the Angels adore in Heaven ; but I , as yet in the mean time , by faith , they by sight , and without a veil . I ought to be content with the light of true faith , and to walk therein , until the day of everlasting brightness break forth , and the shadowes of figures pass away . But when that shall come which is perfect , the use of Sacraments shall cease . For the blessed in Heavenly glory need not any Sacramental remedy , but rejoyce without end in the presence of God , beholding his glory face to face , and being transformed from glory to glory into the Image of the incomprehensible Deity , they tast the word of God made flesh , as he was from the beginning ; and as he remaineth for ever . 3. Whilest I mind these wonderful things , even all spiritual comfort whatsoever becometh tedious unto me ; for that as long as I behold not my Lord openly in his glory , I make no account at all of whatsoever I see or hear in this world . Thou art my witness , O God , that nothing can comfort me , no creature can give me rest , but thou my God , whom I desire to behold everlastingly . But this is not possible whilest I remain in this mortal life . Therefore I must frame my self to much patience ; and submit my self to thee in all my desires . For thy Saints also , O Lord , who now rejoyce with thee in the Kingdom of Heaven , whilst they lived , expected in faith and great patience the coming of thy glory . What they believed , I believe ; what they hoped for , I also hope for ; whither they are come , I trust I shall come by thy grace . In the mean time I will go forward in faith , strengthened by the examples of the Saints ; I have also godly books for my comfort and for the glass of my life , and above all these , thy most holy body for a singular remedy and refuge . 4. For I perceive Two things to be chiefly necessary for me in the life without which this miserable life would be unsupportable unto me . Whilst I am kept in the prison of this body , I acknowledge my self to stand in need of Two things , to wit , food , and light . Thou hast therefore given unto me a weak creature , thy sacred Body for the nourishment of my soul and body ; and thou hast set thy word as a light unto my feet ; without these Two I could not well live . For the word of God is the light of the soul , and thy Sacrament , the bread of life . These also may be called the Two Tables set on the one side and the other , in the store-house of the holy Church . One is the holy Table having the holy bread , that is , the precious body of Christ ; the other is that of the divine Law , containing holy Doctrine , teaching the true faith , and certainly leading to that within the veil , where is the holy of Holies . Thanks be unto thee Lord Jesus , the light of everlasting light , for the table of holy Doctrine , which thou hast afforded us by thy Servants , the Prophets and Apostles and other Teachers . 5. Thanks be unto thee , Creator and Redeemer of Man , who to manifest thy love to the whole world , hast prepared a great supper wherein thou hast set before us to be eaten ( not the typical Lamb , but ) thine own most sacred Body and Blood , rejoycing all the faithful with thy holy banquet , and replenishing them to the full with thy Cup of salvation , in which are all the delights of Paradise ; and the holy Angels do feast with us , but yet with a more happy sweetness . 6. O how great and honorable is the office of Gods Ministers , to whom it is given with sacred words to consecrate ( the Sacrament of ) the Lord of glory ; with their lips to bless , with their hands to hold , with their mouth to receive , and also to administer to others ! O how clean ought to be those hands , how pure that mouth , how holy that body , how unspotted that heart , where the Author of purity so often entreth ! Nothing but what is holy , no word but good and profitable ought to proceed from his mouth , which so often receiveth the Sacrament of Christ. 7. Simple and chaste ought to be the eyes that use to behold the body of Christ ; the hands pure and lifted up to Heaven , that use to receive the Creator of Heaven and Earth . Unto the Priests especially it is said in the Law , be ye holy for that I your Lord God am holy . 8. Assist us , Almighty God , with thy grace , that we who have undertaken the office of Priest-hood , may serve thee worthily and devoutly in all purity , and with a good conscience . And if we live not in so great innocency as we ought to do , grant us notwithstanding in due manner to bewail the sins which we have committed ; and in the spirit of humility and with the full purpose of a good will to serve thee hereafter more fervently . CHAP. XII . That he who is to communicate ought to prepare himself with great diligence . The voice of the beloued . I Am the lover of purity , and the giver of all sanctity . I seek a pure heart , and there is the place of my rest . Make ready and adorn for me the great Chamber , and I will keep with thee the Passover amongst my Disciples . If thou wilt have me come unto thee , and remain with thee ; purge out the old leaven , and make clean the habitation of thy heart ; shut out the whole world , and all the throng of sins ; sit like a sparrow solitary upon the house-top , and think of thy offences in the bitterness of thy soul. For every lover prepareth the best and fairest room for his beloved ; and herein is known the affection of him that entertaineth his beloved . 2. Know thou notwithstanding , that the merit of no action of thine is able to make this preparation sufficient , although thou shouldest prepare thy self a whole year together , and think on nothing else . Thou art of my mere grace and favor suffered to come to my Table , like a beggar invited to dinner to a rich Man , who hath nothing else to return him for his benefits , but to humble himself and give him thanks . Do what lieth in thee , and do it diligently ; not for custome , not for necessity , but with fear and reverence , and affection ; receive the body of thy beloved Lord God , who vouchsafeth to come unto thee . I am he that have called thee , I have commanded it to be done , I will supply what is wanting in thee ; come and receive me . 3. When I bestow the grace of devotion , give thanks to thy God ; for it is given thee , not for that thou art worthy , but because I have mercy on thee . If thou have it not , but rather dost feel thy self dry ; continue in Prayer , sigh and knock , and give not over until thou art meet to receive some crum or drop of saving grace . Thou hast need of me , not I of thee , neither comest thou to sanctifie me , but I come to sanctifie and make thee better . Thou comest that thou maist be sanctified by me , and united unto me , that thou maist receive new grace , and be stirred up again to amendment . Neglect not this grace , but prepare thy heart with all diligence , and receive thy beloved into thy soul. 4. But thou oughtest not only to prepare thy self to devotion before Communion , but carefully also to conserve thy self therein , after thou hast received the Sacrament . Neither is the careful guard of thy self afterwards less required , than devout preparation before . For a good guard afterwards , is the best preparation again for the obtaining of greater grace ; because that a Man becometh therefore very indisposed , if he presently pour himself out overmuch to outward comforts . Beware of much talk , remain in some secret place , and enjoy thy God. For thou hast him , whom all the world cannot take from thee . I am he , to whom thou oughtest wholly to give thy self , thatso thou maist live hereafter , not in thy self , but in me , without all solicitude . CHAP. XIII . That a devout soul ought to desire with her whole heart , to be united unto Christ in the Sacrament . The voice of the Disciple . HOw may I obtain this , O Lord , that I may find thee alone , and open my whole heart unto thee , and enjoy thee as my soul desireth ? And that no Man may look towards me , nor any creature move me or eye me , but thou alone maist speak unto me , and I to thee , as the beloved is wont to speak to his beloved , and a friend to banquet with his friend ? This I pray for , this I desire , that I may be wholly united unto thee , and may withdraw my heart from all created things , and more and more by sacred Communion and often celebrating , learn to relish Heavenly and eternal things . O Lord God , when shall I be wholly united to thee , and absorpt by thee , and be altogether forgetful of my self ? Thou in me , and I in thee , and so grant us both to continue in one . 2. Thou art truly my beloved , the choicest amongst Thousands , in whom my soul is well pleased to dwell all the days of her life . Thou art indeed my peacemaker , in whom is greatest peace and true rest , without whom is labor and sorrow and infinite misery . Thou art indeed a God that hidest thy self , and thy counsel is not with the wicked , but thy speech is with the humble and simple of heart . O Lord , how sweet is thy spirit , who to the end thou mightest shew thy sweetness toward thy Children , vouchsafest to feed them with the bread which descendeth from Heaven , and is full of all sweetness ! Surely there is no other Nation so great , that hath God nigh unto them , as thou our God art present to all thy faithful ones , unto whom for their daily comfort , and for the raising up of their hearts to Heaven , thou givest thy self to be eaten and enjoyed . 3. For what other Nation , is there so famous , as the Christian People ? or what creature under heaven so beloved , as a religious soul to whom God himself cometh to feed her with his glorious flesh ? O unspeakable grace ! O admirable condescent ! O infinite love singularly bestowed upon Man ! But what shall I give unto the Lord in return of his grace , for so eminent an expression of thy love ? There is no other thing more acceptable that I am able to give , than to give my heart wholly to my God , and to unite it most inwardly unto him . Then shall all my inward parts rejoyce , when my soul shall be perfectly united unto God. Then he will say unto me ; if thou wilt be with me , I will be with thee . And I will answer him , Vouchsafe , O Lord , to remain with me , and I will gladly be with thee . This is my whole desire , that my heart be united unto thee . CHAP. XIV . Of the fervent desire of some devout Persons , to receive the Body of Christ. The voice of the Discipie . O How great is thy goodness O Lord , which thou hast laid up for them that fear thee ! When I remember some devout persons who come unto thy Sacrament , O Lord , with greatest devotion and affection , I am oftentimes confounded and blush within my self , that I come so formally and coldly to thy Table of the holy Communion , that I remain so dry , and without heart affection , That I am not wholly inflamed in thy presence , my God , nor so earnestly drawn and affected , as many devout persons have been , who out of a vehement desire of the Communion , and a feeling affection of heart , could not contain themselves from weeping ; but with the desire both of soul and body , they earnestly longed after thee , O God the living Fountain , being not otherwise able to allay nor satisfie their hunger , but by receiing thy body with all joy and spiritual greediness . 2. O the most ardent faith of those persons ! A clear argument of thy sacred presence . For they truly know their Lord in the breaking of bread , whose heart burneth so mightily within them , whilst thou , O blessed Jesus , conversest with them . Such desire and devotion , so vehement love and fervency , is oftentimes far from me . Be merciful unto me good Jesus , sweet and gracious Lord , and grant me thy poor needy creature , to feed sometimes , at least in this holy Communion , somewhat of thy hearty affectionate love , that my faith may be more strengthened , my hope in thy goodness increased , and that my charity once perfectly enflamed , after the tasting of Heavenly Manna , may never decay . 3. Thy mercy , O Lord , is able to give me the grace I desire , and to visit me most mercifully with the spirit of fervor , when it shall please thee . For although I burn not with so great desire as those that are so singularly devoted to thee ; yet notwithstanding by thy grace , I desire to have this great inflamed desire , praying and craving that I may participate with all such thy fervent lovers , and be numbred among them in their holy company . CHAP. XV. That the grace of devotion is obtained by humility and denial of our selves . The voice of the Beloved . THou oughtest to seek the grace of devotion instantly , to ask it earnestly , to expect it patiently and with confidence to receive it gratefully , to keep it humbly , to work with it diligently , and to commit the term and manner of this Heavenly visitation to God , until it shall please him to come unto thee . Thou oughtest chiefly to humble thy self , when thou feelest inwardly little or no devotion , and yet not to be too much dejected , nor to grieve inordinately . God often giveth in a short moment , that which he hath long time denied ; he giveth sometimes in the end , that which in the beginning of prayer he deferred to grant . 2. If grace should be always presently given , and at hand ever with a wish , the weak Man could not well bear it . Therefore the grace of devotion is to be expected with good hope and humble patience ; yet impute it to thy self and thy sins , when it is not given thee , or when it is secretly taken away . It is sometimes a small matter that hindereth and hideth grace from us , if yet it be to be called small , and not rather a great matter , that hindereth so great a good . And if thou remove this , be it great or small , and perfectly overcome it , thou shalt have thy desire . 3. For presently as soon as thou from thy whole heart givest thy self to God , and seekest not this nor that , for thine own pleasure or will , but setlest thy self wholly in him , thou shalt find thy self united and quiet ; for nothing will relish so well , and please thee so much , as the good pleasure of the divine will. Whosoever therefore , with a single heart lifteth up his intention to God , and purgeth himself from all inordinate love or dislike of any created thing , he shall be the most fit to receive grace , and meet for the gist of devotion . For the Lord bestoweth his blessings there , where he findeth the vessels empty . And how much the more perfectly one forsaketh these low things , and the more he dieth to himself by contempt of himself ; so much the more speedily grace shall come , and enter in more plentifully , and raise up higher the heart that is thus free . 4. Then shall he see , and be filled , and wonder , and his heart shall be enlarged within him , because the hand of the Lord is with him , and he hath put himself wholly into his hands for ever . Behold , so shall the Man be blessed , that seeketh God with his whole heart , and busieth not his soul in vain . This man obtaineth the great favor of divine union , in receiving the holy Eucharist ; for that he respecteth not his own devotion and comfort , but above all devotion and comfort , the honor and glory of God. CHAP. XVI . That we ought to manifest our necessities to Christ , and crave his grace . The voice of the Disciple . O Most sweet , and loving Lord , whom I now desire to receive with all devotion , thou knowest my infirmity and the necessity which I endure , with how many sins and evils I am oppressed , how often I am grieved , tempted , troubled , and defiled . I come unto thee for remedy , I crave of thee comfort and succor ; I speak to him that knoweth all things , to whom all my inward parts are open , and who can only perfectly comfort and help me . Thou knowest what good things I stand in most need of , and how poor I am in vertues . 2. Behold , I stand before thee poor and naked , calling for grace , and craving mercy . Refresh thy hungry beggar , inflame my coldness with the fire of thy love ; inlighten my blindness with the brightness of thy presence . Turn all earthly things to me into bitterness , all things grievous and cross into patience , all low and created things into contempt and oblivion . Lift up my heart to thee in Heaven , and suffer me not to wander upon Earth . Be thou only sweet unto me from henceforth for evermore ; for thou only art my meat and my drink , my love and my joy , my sweetness and all my good . 3. O that with thy presence thou wouldest wholly inflame , burn and conform me unto thy self ; that I might be made one spirit with thee by the grace of inward union , and by the meltings of ardent love ! Suffer me not to go from thee hungry and dry , but deal mercifully with me , as thou hast oftentimes dealt wonderfully with thy Saints . What marvel is it if I should be wholly inflamed by thee , and die from my self , sith thou art fire always burning and never decaying , love purifying the heart , and enlightning the understanding ? CHAP. XVII . Of fervent love and vehement desire to receive Christ. The voice of the Disciple . ple . WIth great devotion and ardent love , with most hearty affection and fervor I desire to receive thee , O Lord , as many Saints and devout persons have desired thee , when they received thy Sacrament who were most pleasing unto thee in holiness of life , and most fervent in devotion . O my God , my everlasting love ; my whole good , my happiness without end . I would gladly receive thee with the most vehement desire and most worthy reverence , that any of the Saints ever had , or could feel . 2. And although I be unworthy to have all those feelings of devotion , yet I offer unto thee the whole affection of my heart , as if I alone had all those highly pleasing inflamed desires ; yea and whatsoever also an holy mind can conceive and desire ; all that , with greatest reverence and most inward affection , I offer and present unto thee . I desire to reserve nothing to my self , but freely and most willingly to sacrifice my self and all mine unto thee , my Lord God my Creator , and my Redeemer . I desire to receive thee this day with such affection , reverence , praise and honor , with such gratitude , worthiness , and love , with such faith , hope , and purity , as thy most holy Mother the glorious Virgin Mary received , and desired thee , when she humbly and devoutly answered the Angel , who declared unto her the mystery of the Incarnation , and said , Behold the handmaid of the Lord , let it be done unto me according to thy word . 3. And as thy blessed Forerunner , the most excellent amongst the Saints , Iohn Baptist , chearfully leaped by reason of the holy Ghost , whilest he was yet shut up in his Mothers womb ; and afterwards seeing Jesus walking amongst Men , humbling himself very much , said with devout affection , The friend of the Bridegroom that standeth and heareth him , rejoyceth with joy for the voice of the Bridegroom ; so I also wish to be inflamed with great and holy desires , and to offer my self up to thee with my whole heart . Wherefore I offer also and present unto thee the joys , fervent affections , mental excesses , and supernal illuminations , and Heavenly visions of all devout hearts , with all the vertues and praises celebrated and to be celebrated by all creatures in Heaven and Earth , for my self , and all such as are commended to me in prayer , that by all thou maist be worthily praised and glorified for ever . 4. Receive , my Lord God , my wishes and desires of giving thee infinite praise and thanks , which according to the measure of thy unspeakable greatness , are most worthily due unto thee . These I yield thee , and desire to yield thee every day and moment . I do entreat and invite all Heavenly minds , and all the devout Servants , to give thanks and praises together with me . 5. Let all People , Tribes , and Tongues praise thee , and magnifie thy holy and sweet Name , with great joy and fervent devotion ; and let all that reverently and devoutly celebrate thy most high Sacrament and receive it with full faith , find grace and mercy at thy hands , and pray humbly for me a sinful creature . And when they shall have obtained their desired devotion and joyful union , and depart from thy sacred Heavenly Table , well comforted and marvellously refreshed , let them vouchsafe to remember my poor soul. CHAP. XVIII . That Man be not a curious searcher of the Sacrament , but an humble follower of Christ , submitting his sense to faith . The voice of the Beloved . THou oughtest to beware of curious and unprofitable searching into this most profound Sacrament , if thou wilt not be plunged in the depths of doubts . He that is a searcher of Majesty , shall be oppressed by thy glory . God is able to work more than Man can understand . A pious and humble inquiry of truth is tolerable , so it be always ready to be taught , and do endeavor to walk in the sound doctrines of the Fathers . 2. Blessed is that simplicity , that forsaketh the difficult ways of questions , and goeth on in the plain and assured path of Gods Commandments . Many have lost devotion , whilest they would search after high things . Faith and a sincere life required at thy hands , not height of understanding , nor a diving deep into the mysteries of God. If thou dost not understand , nor conceive those things that are under thee , how shalt thou be able to comprehend those that are above thee ? Submit thy self to God , and let thy sense be subject to faith ; and the light of knowledg shall be given thee in that degree as shall be profitable and necessary for thee . 3. Some are grievously tempted about faith and the Sacrament , but this is not to be imputed to them , but rather to the Enemy . Be not thou anxious nor dispute with thy thoughts , neither do thou give answer to the doubts cast in by the Devil ; but believe the words of God , believe his Saints and Prophets , and the wicked Enemy will flie from thee . It is oftentimes very profitable to the Servant of God to suffer such things . For the Devil tempteth not unbelievers and sinners , whom he already securely possesseth , but he sundry ways tempteth and vexeth the faithful and religious . 4. Go forward therefore with a sincere and undoubted faith , and come to the Sacrament with unfeigned reverence . And whatsoever thou art not able to understand , commit securely to Almighty God. God deceiveth thee not ; he is deceived that trusteth to much to himself . God walketh with the simple , revealeth himself to the humble , giveth understanding to the little ones , openeth the sense to pure minds , and hideth grace from the curious and proud . Humane reason is weak , and may be deceived , but true faith cannot be deceived . 5. All reason and natural search ought to follow faith , not to go before , nor infringe it . For faith and love do here chiefly excell , and work in a hidden manner in this most holy and excellent Sacrament . God , who is everlasting and of infinite power , doth great and inscrutable things in Heaven and in Earth , and there is no searching out of his wonderful works . If the works of God were such , as might be easily comprehended by humane reason , they were not to be called wonderful and unspeakable . FINIS .