A funeral sermon after the interment of Mrs. Sarah Lye. The late wife of Mr. Thomas Lye of Clapham. By Phil. Lamb, minister of the Word. Together with the scriptual evidence and experiences of the grace of God towards, and in her, left under her own hand Lamb, Philip, d. 1689. 1679 Approx. 103 KB of XML-encoded text transcribed from 71 1-bit group-IV TIFF page images. Text Creation Partnership, Ann Arbor, MI ; Oxford (UK) : 2004-11 (EEBO-TCP Phase 1). A48438 Wing L206 ESTC R213605 99825942 99825942 30334 This keyboarded and encoded edition of the work described above is co-owned by the institutions providing financial support to the Early English Books Online Text Creation Partnership. This Phase I text is available for reuse, according to the terms of Creative Commons 0 1.0 Universal . The text can be copied, modified, distributed and performed, even for commercial purposes, all without asking permission. Early English books online. (EEBO-TCP ; phase 1, no. 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Together with the Scriptural Evidence and Experiences of the Grace of God towards , and in her , left under her own hand . LONDON : Printed in the Year , 1679. PROV . VIII . 17. I love them that love me ; and those that seek me early , shall find me . OUR dear deceased Friend ( whose death occasioned this diversion from our wonted course ) as often as she thought ( as indeed she did often think ) of her great change approaching , and as she was going to her Fathers House ( where doubtless she is now in glory ) desired her dearest friends , that these words might be the Text , or Theme of her Funeral Sermon , being ( as we may very well conceive ) willing to tell her surviving friends o● that Love of God of which she had tasted in her wilderness state and of which she hath now ( undoubtedly ) her fill : we enjoy few drops , but she is got to th● Fountain-head . She desired tha● all hers , and all you , might know the way to the enjoyment of this Love , as well as her self . The Text she chose is a worthy Text Perhaps you may think 't is not so suitable to a Funeral occasion but let me tell you . Funeral Sermons are not Subsidia mortuorun● sed solatia vivorum , they are not they cannot be for the help of dead Saints , they need no such little things : but they are for the comfort and solace of living Saints . The words are the words of Wisdom , they are ( I say ) the words of Wisdom it self . I love them that love me ; and those that seek me early shall find me . In which , I shall only take notice of these two parts , or branches . 1. In the first part , there is a most glorious display of Divine Grace And Love , in an act of wonderful condescension , enough to astonish Men and Angels : I love them that love me . 2. Here is a most gracious promise , the product of that glorious infinite Love ; And those that seek me early shall find me . The first part of the Text is a fair Preface and Introduction to a most excellent Promise . The second part is a Promise every way suited to the glory and excellency of such a Preface . 'T is true indeed , it begins with some kind of limitation and straitness : Those that love me , Those that seek me early . But then it hath a most pleasant and desired Exit with abundant satisfaction , They shall find me . There is your glory , your heaven , your eternal happiness ; here is the work of your lives . I beseech you remember it , and let not this Text , or Sermon , be ever forgotten by you . Here ( I say ) is the work of your lives , to seek early ; The happiness of Eternity , to find God , and to enjoy him for ever . Before I come to the Observations , give me leave to speak a little to these two things . 1. To the Author of these words , that I may not leave one Soul here at an uncertainty . And 2. I would speak a little to the Form of the words , that I may leave none of you under any mistakes . 1. The Author of this great and glorious Text ( if you look into the beginning of the Chapter ) is Wisdom uttering her voice . Vers. 1 , Doth not wisdom cry ? and understanding put forth her voice ? vers . 2 , She standeth in the top of high places , by the way , in the places of the paths . Vers. 3 , She crieth at the gates , at the entry of the city , at the coming in at the doors . Behold , I stand at the door and knock , Rev. 3. 20. Wisdom knocks , Wisdom calls , Wisdom cries , and uttereth her voice . The Acceptations of Wisdom in the Holy Scriptures , in the Word of God , are various . 'T is sometimes taken for the God of Wisdom himself . Sometimes for the Son of God , the wisdom of the Father . Sometimes for the Spirit of Christ , who reveals wisdom to the Saints of God , the Spirit of wisdom and illumination . Sometimes for the grace of wisdom , and spiritual knowledg . And sometimes for the Word of Wisdom , the Gospel of Christ , as he says himself , Matt. 11. 19 , Wisdom is justified of her Children . That is , the Gospel of Jesus Christ , wherein the wonderful Wisdom of God is displayed . 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 , Ephes. 3. 10. But to wave the rest ( as having many things to speak to you this day , that concern the happiness of your precious and immortal souls to Eternity , and therefore I hope , that you will not only bear with me , but also bear me up by your prayers . ) Doubtless by Wisdom here in this Text , is meant the Interna sapientia , 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 , Filius Dei ; and we are to understand the Internal , Eternal Wisdom of God , that is called in Scripture , The Word of God , the Word that was made Flesh , Wisdom speaking , the speaking Wisdom , the Son of God , the Son of God ( In quo , & a quo omnis sapientia ) in whom and from whom is all wisdom , all counsel and spiritual understanding , without whom we cannot know God the Father , or the Truth as we should do ; and by whom we know the Truth as it is in Jesus . In the first Verse of this Chapter , Wisdom is intituled to this great Speech , and indeed in the whole Chapter ( if you will but take the pains , when you are gone from hence , to read it seriously ) before you come to the end thereof , you will be convinced , as well as I , that this Wisdom is the Son of God , the Lord Jesus Christ , making this great Proclamation to all the World , I love them that love me ; and those that seek me early shall find me . 2. I told you , that I would shew you somewhat concerning the form or manner of this expression , I love them that love me : to prevent the mistakes , and errors , as we have need to do , especially in this Age , wherein the minds and hearts of men , like Spiders suck poyson from the most precious and most glorious Truths of the Gospel . I love them that love me , doth not in the least , 1. Intimate , that our love , or the love of the creature , is the cause of the love of God to our souls ; nor doth it in the least imply that our love is antecedaneous ( the least moment of time ) to the love of God ; which will the more clearly appear , if we curiously observe the manner of expressing it : 'T is not said , I will love them that will love me , but I love them that love me . Besides , the Apostle John clears the Text , and puts all out of doubt , in 1 John 4. 10 , Herein is love , not that we loved God , but that he loved us . And vers . 19 , We love him , because he first loved us . 2. As it doth not at all any way intimate , or suggest the precedency of our love to God , before he loved us ; so in the next place , I must tell you , that it is a most excellent Truth , a golden Maxime , fit to be written on your Door-posts ; yea , on your very hearts , Wisdoms thus saying to you , I love them that love me . And it may serve especially for these four great ends : 1. For the support and comfort of poor doubting souls , that now lye very low , in a dark day , in a time of sickness , under great afflictions ; perhaps God hath come , and snatcht away a dear Wife out of an Husbands bosom , or hath taken away the Child of his delight ; it may be many and long continued afflictions lye on him , and he looks upon these bitter and severe providences , and begins to question now , whether God doth love him : Time was , when all things went well with me , and I had peace within , and comfort without , a House full of enjoyments ; but now 't is a dark day , God hath smitten me with the strokes of an enemy , the chastisements of a cruel one are upon me , so that I doubt whether God loves me . Thus the poor doubting soul is apt to reason . But says God , look not at my providences , on thine own losses , crosses , troubles , and on these outward dispensations ; look rather into thy own heart , and if thou canst read there but one line of love to my name , if thou canst read there any true love to Jesus Christ , then thou maist conclude with thy self , that whatever Providences thou hast met ( or maist yet meet with ) shall be for thy good . I love them that love me . And these Providences are not the fruits of wrath , but rather the effects of pure love . Rom. 8. 28 , And we know ( says the Apostle ) that all things work together for good to them that love God. I can chastise , correct , smite , but cannot hate my Sons and Daughters , says God. Whom the Lord loveth , he chastneth , and scourgeth every Son whom he receiveth , Heb. 12. 6. I love them that love me . 2. For the Relief of despairing souls , that are affected , deeply affected with their sinning against God , and their utter unworthiness , by reason thereof , of any smile from Heaven ; but are ready to reason against their own souls , and to say , that surely God can never love such a treacherous Apostate , and backsliding sinner as I have been , and am ; it 's in vain for me to expect any love from Heaven , but rather in fury to be turned into Hell , and to be for ever rejected ; my case and condition is worse than that of Cain . But for the relief of such , God reasons thus , Didst ever love me ? Didst ever love Jesus Christ , and the Children of God ? If so , take comfort to thy soul : for certainly , I love them that love me . Though it be so low , as it is , though thou canst see nothing but wrath , and vengeance , and hell ; yet , if thou hast any love to me , to Jesus Christ , and the Saints , thou maist be assured , that I love thee . I love them that love me . 3. For the help , wonderful help , and encouragement of poor sinners to duty : How is this glorious proclamation of Love and Grace accommodated for the help of poor souls , through their whole lives ? Have you any true love for God ? You say , you have no strength , no might , so that you are not able to do any thing to please God : Why , what is the matter ? You cannot see , that you have any share of the Love of God. Look into the transcript , look into the Copy in your hearts , and if you can see any true love to God there , go and pray , and hear , and suffer what 's alotted for you , and you shall find all sweet and easie to you . 4. And Lastly , and that undoubtedly , this great truth from the mouth of Wisdom , I love them that love me , is intended for a general proclamation of sovereign grace and mercy to all the Sons and Daughters of men , and a sweet invitation to all persons , to perform the duty contain'd in the next words , namely , to seek early after God : Here is wonderful freeness and fulness of Divine Grace ▪ large enough for all men ; and 't is enough to encourage those persons ( that are naturally haters of God in their minds ) to return , and enquire after him ▪ because God is ready to meet them , and requite them with reciprocal love : Do your duty , and if you love me , and seek me , be sure I have a love for you . But I will detain you no longer among the terms and words of the Text , though to keep my usual ●ont and method , I must always endeavour to make the way plain before you . The Text I told you had two branches , and ' it s my purpose ( if the Lord enable me ) to gather some fruit from each of them . From the first part , I love them that love me . I would offer this to you , Doct. 1. That there is a mutual and reciprocal love between Christ and his Saints . I told you , that it was a Proclamation of the love of Christ , and where he loves , he begets love ; so that whensover a Saint truly loves Christ , he may be sure , that Christ doth intirely love him : I am my beloveds , and my beloved is mine . The believing soul says so ; And who can but live and dye on such a word as this is ? especially when Christ says , as in the Text , I love them that love me . I love this Saint , and he loves me . That is the first Observation . The second is much like it , and that is , Doct. 2. That they that seek the Lord early , shall certainly find him , shall certainly enjoy , eternally enjoy him , shall find him a God of Grace and Mercy , and shall enjoy him for ever . But first , of the first of these : That there is a mutual and a reciprocal love between Christ and his Saints . To dispatch this , ( and yet not ●o make more haste than good speed ) that you may understand it , shall endeavour to shew you here , 1. That Christ loves his Saints . 2. How he discovers , and manifests his love to them . 3. That the Saints of God do love the Lord Jesus . 4. How they do express and manifest their love to him : That by all this put together , you may easily conclude , that there is a mutual , and reciprocal love between Christ and the Saints . 1. First of all , That Jesus Christ hath a peculiar , a special , dea● love to his Saints ; Jer. 31. 3 , ● have loved thee with an everlasting love . Ephes. 5. 25 , 26 , 27 , Wh● loved his Church , and gave himself for it ( that is evidence enough 〈◊〉 that he might sanctifie , and clean 〈◊〉 it , with the washing of water , 〈◊〉 the word . That he might prese●● it to himself a glorious Church , 〈◊〉 having spot , or wrinkle , or any su●● thing ; but that it should be 〈◊〉 and without blemish : And this Text I mention the rather , because it is one of the last Scriptures that our Deceased Friend insisted on , when she took her last farwel of me ; Who loved his Church ( said she ) and gave himself for it , &c. 2. For the manner , how the Lord Jesus Christ doth express and discover his love to his Saints . Though I might instance in many methods and ways of his discovering his love to them ; yet I shall confine my self to these three particulars , by which he eminently makes known the intireness of his indeared love to his Saints ; and by the same ways I shall shew you by and by , that the Saints of God 〈◊〉 express their love to Jesus Christ. 1. First of all , he discovers and makes known his love to his Saints , in denying himself of all the glory he had with his Father , in leaving those Regions above , that he might come down , and gather his Saints together , that he might redeem them out of the hands of Hell , and deliver them out of the House of their Prison and bondage . Rev. 1. 6 , Vnto him that loved us , and washed us from our sins in his own blood ; he gave his heart blood for us . Phil. 2. 5 , 6 , 7 , Who being in the form of God , thought it no robbery to be equal with God , Gods fellow , coequal with the Father : What did he do ? why , He made himself of no reputation , and took upon him the form of a Servant , and was made in the likeness of men . And being found in fashion as a man , he humbled himself , and became obedient unto death , even the death of the cross . Was not here love ? Greater love hath no man than this , That a man lay down his life for his friend ; yet this was greater love , for Christ laid down his life for his enemies , Rom. 5. 10. 2. He manifests his intire love to his Saints , in the delight he hath in their communion , and in fellowship with them : Christ is never better pleased , or more delighted , than when his Saints are in communion and fellowship with him . When , and Where-ever two or three are gathered together in my name , there is my heaven , here I delight to dwell : If you read over this 8th Chapter of Proverbs , it the 31 verse , you shall see the ●edundancy of Christs love to his people , before ever he had a people ; they were his contemplative delight , that he should come down and be with them , and give himself for them . Rejoycing in the habitable part of his earth , and my delights were with the sons of men . Do but read Cant. 7. 5 , and there you shall see how the Spouse her self takes notice of the delight her Beloved takes in communion with her ; The King ( says she ) is held ( or bound , as in the Margin ) in the Galleries . What are the Galleries ? why , they are the Ordinances , wherein he promises to meet his Saints : the King will sit at his round Table , he will walk with them in the Galleries , in private communion ; he is held or bound there : That is , he takes so much pleasure and delight , he is taken so much with the beauty he hath put upon his Saints , that ( to speak it with reverence ) he cannot tell how to go from them , and leave them ; as a man with his best beloved is bound ( as it were ) with chains of love . 3. And lastly , Christ manifests his love to his Saints , in the earnest longing he hath to have them with him in his glory . When any one sinner is converted , it is said there is joy in heaven , the King of Saints rejoyceth , all the Angels and Saints sing together ; there is ( I say ) joy in Heaven when one sinner comes in ; Christs sends forth his Angels to entertain them , and to bring them into his Fathers presence ; nay , he leads them in , himself . In Joh. 14. 2 , 3 , Christ tells his Disciples , In my Fathers house are many mansions ; if it were not so , I would have told you ; I go to prepare a place for you . And if I go and prepare a place for you , I will come again , and receive you unto my self , that where I am , there y●● may be also . And you may read at your leisure that ravishing Chapter Joh. 17 , and if you read it with understanding , and your souls go with your eyes ( be it spoken with reverence to such a glorious God and King as he is ) you will perceive , that he seems not satisfied with his own glory at the right hand of the Majesty on high , without the Company of his dear-bought Saints , that he hath bought with his own blood ; Read especially the 22 , 23 , 24 verses ; And the glory that thou gavest me . I have given them ; that they may be one , even as we are one . Vers. 23 , I in them , and thou in me , that they may be made perfect in one , and that the world may know , that thou hast sent me , and hast loved them , as thou hast loved me . Vers. 24 , Father , I will , that they also whom thou hast given me , be with me where I am , that they may behold my glory which thou hast given me : for thou lovedst me before the foundation of the world . Then Christs Mediatory Kingdom will be compleated , and the shame and sufferings that were undergon by him , will be answered , when he hath gathered his Saints to himself , to behold his glory . 3. And now I shall shew you the second part ; if we turn the Table , then we shall see , that the Saints of God , in their measure , and according to their strength , those that are truly such , do love the Lord Jesus with all their hearts ; and you find it not thus with you , you have reason to be jealous of , and to suspect your selves ; I say the true Saints of God do love the Lord Jesus with all their hearts ▪ Whom having not seen , ye love : i● whom , though now you see him not yet believing , ye rejoyce with joy unspeakable and full of glory , 1 Pet. 1. 8. Whom having not seen ye love , with such a love as raises your hearts ; it is , Amor vulnerans ligans , &c. a love ( as one says ) that wounds , that strikes them to the very heart ; a love that binds their souls to Christ ; which made the Spouse cry out , Cant. 2. 5 , Stay me with flagons , comfort me with apples , for I am sick of love . The truth is , you may imagine that it is an Hyperbolical expression ; but indeed there is no expression that can fully set it out ; and therefore you see , how the Spouse hangs , as it were , on the lips of Christ , Cant. 1. 2 , Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth : for thy love , or loves , is better than wine . And every Saint , while he is in the wilderness , in his Wilderness-state , leans on his beloved : What would a Saint have in any condition ? None but Christ , Christ is his All in all . 4. And therefore in the second place I shall shew you , That the Saints of God do mutually and reciprocally express and discover their love to Jesus Christ , in their measure , in their degree , as he makes known his love to them . As , 1. They express their love to Christ , in denying all for him . Christ left a Kingdom , and all the glory of his Fathers House : But alas ! the Saints of God they have nothing to leave in comparison of what he left . They that leave Houses , Lands , Mannors , Kingdoms for Christ , all this is little ( I say ) in comparison of what Christ left for them ; but the truth is , whatever the Saints have , all that they have , they will lay at the feet of Christ when he calls them to it , and this , as soon as ever they apprehend that love of Christ to them ; as soon as ever they come to be made sensible of the worthiness of Christ , of the All-sufficiency that is in Christ to do them good , away goes the world , they sit loose to it , as loose as Elijah's Mantle , 2 Kings 2. 13 , which fell off when he was taken up to Heaven : Thus said , and thus did the Disciples of Christ , We have left all and followed thee . But I shall only add the example of one eminent Saint , who left all for Christ ; and if all the Princes in the World had thrown their Crowns into his lap , he would have left them all . Phil. 3. 7 , 8 , What things were gain to me , those were counted loss for Christ. Yea doubtless , and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledg of Christ Jesus my Lord : for whom I have suffered the loss of all things , and do count them but dung that I may win Christ. v. 9 , And be found in him , &c. 2. As Christ discovers his love to the Saints , in his delight of communion with them , so the people of God do intirely love , earnestly desire , and delight in communion with the Lord Jesus Christ ; the● would be in fellowship with Christ where-ever they be , Cant. 1. 1● A bundle of myrrh is my well-belove● unto me , he shall lye all night betwixt my breasts , that is , near my heart . And therefore is the Spous● brought in , Cant. 2. 7 , breaking ou● after this strange kind of manner I charge you , or I adjure you , O y● Daughters of Jerusalem , by the Roes and by the Hindes of the field , that ye stir not up , nor awake my love , till he please . The Lord Christ ( as i● she had said ) is come to abide with me , and I take so much delight in communion and fellowiship with him , that I charge you not to disturb him : I would not have the dearest lust , I would not have any sin whatsoever to interpose betwixt Christ and me . 3. As Christ discovers the greatness of his love to his Saints , in longing to injoy them with himself in his glory ; so the Saints of God , here upon earth , do long ( earnestly long ) to injoy him in his Fathers presence , in the House of his glory , to be in those Mansions that he hath provided for them , in those Regions of glory above : They look earnestly for the glorious appearance of the great God , and the Lord Jesus Christ , as the Apostle to Titus expresses it , Titus 2. 13 , 14 , Looking for that blessed hope , and the glorious appearing of the great God , and our Saviour Jesus Christ , Who gave himself for us , that he might redeem us from all iniquity , and purifie unto himself a peculiar people , zealous of good works . They look out , as Sisera's Mother , out of her Window , and cry through the Lattice , Judg. 5. 28 , Why is his Chariot so long in coming ? why tarry the wheels of his Chariots ? So the soul of a Saint looks out at every cranny , at the eye , and at the ear , and cries out , Why tarries his Chariot ? why is he so long in coming ? That dear Saint that is gone before us , was wont to tell me , That she had waited a long time for her great change , and did continue waiting : And the truth is , it cannot be otherwise , when once a Soul is espoused to Jesus Christ , and hath been kissed with the kisses of his mouth , and knows any thing of his love , and loveliness ; from the very day of espousals , there will be , there must be a longing desire of enjoyment ; as it is with young Lovers , when once true love is between them , all the time after is a time of desire and longing : Make haste ( says the soul to Christ ) and come away ; Egredere anima , says the longing Saint ; go out , Soul , to meet Jesus Christ : this is the Case , as it is between Christ and a believing Soul : Says the Soul to Christ , either come down to me , or take me up to thee ; Dear Jesus Christ , when shall I come , and appear before God ? I desire to be dissolved , and to be with Christ , which is best of all . I would also observe to you , that passionate out-cry of the Spouse to Jesus Christ , Cant. 8. 14 , Make haste , my beloved , and be thou like to a young Roe , or to a young Hart upon the mountains of spices . It is the voice of a believer to Jesus Christ. I should now make a transition from hence to the next Observation ; but let me first a little , improve this . And the use I shall make of the first Doctrine is this , Vse . 1. To stand a while , together with you , admiring at the infinite , sovereign , and free Grace of God , who hath set his love upon man , and hath done poor creatures that honour , as to engage their hearts to love God , and the truths of God. God is not beholding to us for our love ; for he is an object infinitely above our love , and 't is a wonder of mercy , that God accounts us worthy to love him , and to love Jesus Christ : What a mercy is this , that God should beget in us any love to himself , by revealing his infinite love to us ! that his love should be shed abroad in our hearts ! Oh! stand amazed at this ! especially when you hear God saying , Isa. 65. 1 , I am sought of them that asked not for me ; I am found of them that sought me not : I said , behold me , behold me , unto a nation that was not called by my name . But more of this anon , when I come to the second Branch . Only here we may go away with admiring thoughts into Heaven , at this infinite , free , and condescending love of God to our poor souls : and to raise up our hearts to the greater admiration , consider , 1. What a great , what a wonderful and immense Love this Love of God is , that he bears to poor creatures , his favour is better than life it self . Psal. 63. 3 , Because ( says the Psalmist ) thy loving kindness is better than life , my lips shal● praise thee . What shall we call it A Fountain , a Fountain without brim or bottom : Amor Dei est infundens & creans bonitatem . The Love of Christ ( as one says ) 't is that which creates and infuseth goodness , all manner of good , temporal , spiritual , and eternal . 2. Would you see the fruits and effects of this Love ? Alas ! 't is not a small matter for the great , and glorious , and holy God , to tell a poor soul , I love thee . Men may say so , and it may signifie little : but God never says so to any , but it creates a Heaven in the Soul , it fills the Soul with all the joys and delights of Heaven , it leads him into the Regions of Life and Peace , peace , peace , and assurance for ever , Isa. 26. 3. and 32. 17. In all your duties , this will be your delight , That God loves you : In a time of darkness , this will be your light ; and in the pangs of death , this will be your living comfort , That God loves you , and that you have had an heart truly to love God ; and you know that he loves you by your love to him , and your love to God being ( as it were ) the transcript of Gods Love to you in your souls . And indeed , ( which may raise your admirings ) where God loves , and whom he loves , he never leave , he never ceases to love . Rom. 8. 38 , 39 , For I am perswaded ( saith the Apostle there ) that neither death , nor life , nor Angels , good or bad Angels , nor principalities , nor powers , nor things present , nor things to come : Nor height , nor depth , nor any other creature shall be able to seperate us from the love of God , which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 2. Use of exhortation to them that truly love the Lord Jesus : Dear Saints , you that have indeed a true love to God , and do by that see his love to your souls ; Oh , keep your selves in the love of God. To that end , Direct . 1. Set a high price on this grace that is wrought in you , and ( as the Apostle says ) let it be your great care to preserve , and to keep life in this love of yours to Jesus Christ. Jude vers . 21 , Keep your selves in the love of God , looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life . And for this purpose . 1. First of all consider the worth of this love to Christ , what an excellent and wonderful grace this is , to have a heart truly to love the Lord Jesus Christ. 1. It is that , which is the clearest evidence of the Love of God , it gives you all your life and comfort in a time of darkness , in a dark day , to know by your love to Jesus Christ , that he loves you , and that the Father loves you ; there is no such clear evidence as this in all the World : If a man had all the treasures of gold and silver in the world , he could not read the love of God in them ; but in your true love to Jesus Christ you may . When you walk in darkness , and can see no light , this is that spark of light that will give you light when you are at a loss . When it is dark round about us , when we can see little or no faith , little or no hope , little or no strength that we have ; let us then inquire , and see whether we have any love , and if we have any true love to Christ , this will give us light and life . Rom. 8. 28 , We know that all things ( says the Apostle ) work together for good , To whom ? to them that love God. If one should ask me this question , Why is the promise made to those that love God ? I answer , because the Saints do want somewhat to comfort , to support , and relieve them in a dark day ; and when all other light fails , and we can see no faith , find no holiness , this will never fail them : If there be once true love to Christ , there will be some spark remaining , that will administer comfort to them in the darkest day . 2. Consider with your selves , that if you preserve and keep up this love , this love to Jesus Christ in your hearts , it will work in you a likeness to Christ ; And can you desire to be like any person that you love better ? or that is more exactly and perfectly pure and holy , that is , more lovely than Christ ? This true love is a fire that makes all things like it self ; true love to God is of an assimilating vertue , it will make us like to God , and like to Christ , whom we love : Love is like a Looking-glass , if you turn the Glass downward , there will appear nothing but the representation of earth , and terrestrial creatures , all earth ; but if you turn it upward , then there will appear Heaven , and celestial , and the urseen glory of another world , unseen as to our bodily eyes , but visible to the eye of faith : If we give forth our love to Christ , why then all Christ , all Heaven , and all holiness is on the soul. Direction 2. Be diligent and exact on your watch : if you do prize , and set any value upon this love to Jesus Christ , endeavour to keep it , as you would keep your lives ; keep it as you would keep the best Jewel in the world ; nay , the world cannot give , cannot afford you such another Jewel : This Christ hath bought for you with his own most precious blood , by his death , his shameful and accursed death ; and therefore you have reason , great reason to keep it safe , for its own worth , and because it is of so great use , as hath been before mentioned , because it will be a light to you in a dark , in the darkest day , and because it will make you like God , and like Christ ; take heed therefore , lest it be stoln from you , or abated in you . As persons that have a Jewel of great price and value , will be often looking into the place where they laid it up , to see whether it be safe ; so this spark of Divine fire , which is put into , and laid up in our Souls , is a Jewel of matchless and inestimable price ; How therefore should we inquire concerning it , how it is with us , as to our love to God and Christ ? We should be trying and examining our selves , whether Wives , or Children , or any earthly Relations , or worldly concernments or enjoyments , have not stoln away our hearts , or abated our love : We should say to our own hearts in this case , as Christ to Peter on another account , Lovest thou me more than those ? Joh. 21. 15 , 16 , 17. So we should say to our hearts , Dost thou love Jesus Christ ? dost thou love him indeed and in earnest ? dost thou love him better than these , than these Children , these pretty little Idols that are set up before our eyes ? dost love him better than all creature-comforts and relations ? dost love him better than all earthly treasures , better than thy estate , better than all the world , better than all these ? Yea , better than Heaven it self without Christ ? Thus I say , we should still be examining our hearts , and see how it is with us , as to our love to Christ : for to tell you the truth , our hearts are very treacherous : I know not how it is with yours , but I find it so with mine , and that it is a very hard matter to keep up that height of love to Jesus Christ as there should be . The Prophet Jeremiah tells us , Jer. 17. 9 , That the heart is deceitful above all things , and desperately wicked , who can know it ? And as it is so in general , so especially with God , the heart is more inclined to be treacherous with God , and in things relating to God , than in any other things ; and therefore we have great need to look well to them , to be diligent , and exact upon our watch , in reference to this love to Christ. Direct . 3. If God hath vouchsafed this grace to you , as he hath made you partakers of his love , and given you the transcript or reflection thereof , be you sure that you love him again , and be you sure also to keep off every thing that may stifle or quench the heat of your love ; take heed of those strong blasts , those wicked and cursed temptations that arise from Hell ; take heed also of those damps that arise from the world ; if you set your affections there , those cold vapours arising thence , will either abate or extinguish the heat of this pure heavenly fire of love ; take heed of being Servants , with the World , to the lusts of the flesh ; beware of these things : Sin , the lusts of the flesh , the love of the World , and Christ , are , 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 , inconsistent , they cannot dwell together in one Soul. 1 Joh. 2. 15 , If any man love the world , the love of the father is not in him . These are like two fires in one Chimney , the one will extinguish the other . Direct . 4. Fourthly and Lastly , Be sure to add fuel to this fire , and keep this heat you have received from Heaven warm , take heed that your hearts never get cold ; I must confess , that we live in a cold and frozen age , in the worlds old age , in an age wherein there is little love to God , to Jesus Christ , and to the Saints ; and if you would in this cold season keep up the height of your love to Christ , I would advise you , 1. To be much in communion with him ; the nearer you are to the Sun , the more heat you will have . 2. Be diligent , and active , and vigorous in the performance of every duty , clothe your selves well with the constant performance of duty ; tender bodies , delicate persons , if they leave off a Garment , are very apt to catch cold , and so it will be with us if we neglect the constant performance of duty ; the neglect of praying morning and evening , the neglect of praying constantly in your Closets , the neglect of hearing Sermons , the neglect of the due observation of the Sabbath , in the neglect of these things you will be apt to get cold ; yet it is not enough barely to attend these duties ( which is too common a folly and sin ) but there is one thing more to be done , and that is , when you have been in the exercise of your love , and in communion with Christ , when you have warmed your selves in your Closets , or at an Ordinance , go not too soon into the world ; this care we do usually take for our bodies , when we are warm , when we are hot , we do not presently expose our selves to the cold ; and thus we should do in reference to our souls , when we have been at an Ordinance , and have been warmed and heated there , we should not too soon adventure abroad into the world ; this hath done a world of mischief , and persons have thereby cool'd and dampt their love . 3. And one thing more : When you meet together , not to be quench-coals one to another , not to abate the love and zeal one of another , but ( as the Apostle exhorts , Heb. 10. 24 , ) Consider one another ; What to do ? to provoke unto love and to good works , love to God , love to Christ , love one to another , love to the Ordinances of God : When you meet together , do not meet together ( I say ) to cool one another , but meet as so many live-coals , that will kindle and enliven one another , that you may make the greater heat , that you may warm your selves , and one another , and so keep your hearts and affections continually warm for God. Vse . 2. I have yet a word to another sort of people by way of Application , and that is , to such as have never yet tasted of the love of God , nor never yet have found any love to Christ in their souls ; I hope there are , or may be none , or few such here , and therefore I shall speak but little to this ; if there should be any such here , or any of yours at home should be such , their case is as bad as that of Cain or Judas . If they have yet no love to God , and to Christ , I tell them that are here , and do you that are here tell them that are at home , that they must never content themselves without it any longer , without which they can never be able to say , truly to say , that God loves them : for if they hate Christ , Christ will hate them , and set himself against them ; yea , there is a curse gone out , and pronounced against them already , 1 Cor. 16. 22 , If any man ( says the Apostle ) love not the Lord Jesus Christ , let him be Anathema Maranatha . And therefore you that are such as I am now speaking to , be you perswaded from henceforth to love Christ , and in order thereto , wait upon the means of grace , where God hath promised to shew forth his love , and to inkindle it , and inflame their hearts with a greater and higher love to himself . In Job 22. 21 , says Eliphas to Job , Acquaint thy self with him , that is , with God , and be at peace : thereby good shall come unto thee . And this brings me now at last ( though I have staid long from it ) to the second Observation from the Text , wherein lies much comfort for poor souls , though you have had hitherto but a little light and love from God , and but little love to God ; And that is , Doct. 2. That they that seek the Lord early , shall certainly find him , and shall find him a God full of grace and mercy , and shall certainly enjoy him eternally in Heaven . Our deceased Friend ( that precious Saint of God that is gone before us ) having found the benefit of an early seeking after God and Christ in the way of his Ordinances , desired that her nearest Friends , Relations , and Children , might be ( and indeed by chusing this Text doth advise us all to be ) a Generation of Seekers ; and oh that God would make every one of us such , as may seek thy face , O Jacob , O God of Jacob ; that is , that may seek after Jesus Christ : This is the work of our lives , and it is well for us that Jesus Christ came into the world to seek and to save that which was lost , and to put this great advantage into our hands , that we could never have had without him . In Matt. 7. 7 , 8 , Christ exhorts us , Ask , and it shall be given you : seek , and ye shall find : knock , and it shall be opened unto you . For every one that asketh , receiveth : and he that seeketh , findeth : and to him that knocketh , it shall be opened . Under the Covenant of works you might seek , and seek , till your eyes sunk into the holes of your heads , and never have found Christ nor God ; but now he tell us , that he is come into the world , and that if we seek him with our whole hearts , in the way of his Ordinances and appointments , we shall find him ; and that if we knock there , it shall be opened unto us . In the prosecution of this Observation , I shall only speak to these three things . 1. First of all I shall shew you , That man is born in a natural estrangement from God , every man , every individual person , every Mothers Child is brought into the world , naturally estranged from God. In Psal. 58. 3 , The wicked are estranged from the womb , they go astray as soon as they be born , speaking lies . There is the very Character and Picture of a man in a natural state , he is born with his back upon God , and going with his face towards Hell ; before he can walk with men , he can run away from God. 2. I shall shew you , That they that would escape that sin and misery that attend this estate of estrangement from God , must seek him early ; for they are in the Regions of darkness , and in a state of sin and misery ( as the Apostle expresses it , Ephes. 2. 12 , ) Being without Christ , aliens form the common-wealth of Israel , strangers from the covenant of promise , having no hope and without God in the world . And the Apostle speaking of such , so living , and so dying , in 2 Thes. 1. 9 , says , Who shall be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord ▪ and from the glory of his power . And there is no way to escape this , but by seeking early after God , by seeking early after Jesus Christ. And this is that which I shall now speak to , and which the Prophet Isa. 55. 6 , 7 , offers to us in the like terms . Seek ye the Lord while he may be found ; call ye upon him while he is near . Now is the accepted time , now is the day of salvation , 2 Cor. 6. 2 , You cannot tell how soon it may be , that you may seek , and God will not be found ; that you may call , and he will not answer ; that you may knock , and yet it shall not be opened to you : for I tell you , ( yea , Christ himself tells you ) Luke 13. 24 , That many shall seek to enter in , and shall not be able : and it must be , and is spoken of such kind of persons as we be , of persons that make a high profession , that injoy the Ordinances of God ; Mat. 7. 22 , 23. Many ( says Christ ) will say to me in that day , Lord , Lord , have we not prophesied in thy name ? and in thy name have cast out Devils ? and in thy name done many wonderful works ? And then will I profess unto them , I never knew you : depart from me ye that work iniquity . Now is the time of your seeking . And because there is the greatest Emphasis intended in this term early , early seeking after God , I shall wave all the rest , and apply my self to a timous , to an early seeking after God , if God shall give us the wisdom of the Swallow , the Turtle , the Stork and the Crane , Jer. 8. 7 , to let us know our season , and the things that belong to our peace . And in reference to this , I should have thought it most proper for me to have spoken more largely to five or six particulars ; but the time will not give me leave , and therefore I shall but only name them . 1. I should have shewed you , what it is to seek , what is meant by the act of seeking . 2. What it is to seek God , considering the act with the object , what it is to seek Christ : And that under these Four Heads . 1. To seek the Lord , is to seek an acquaintance with God , to seek after the knowledg of Christ : this we should do early ; and because we cannot do it more early , we should do it now ; and it is our great concern to get an acquaintance with God ; we should seek now to know God and Christ ; this is of so great weight , that Christ himself tells us , Joh. 17. 3 , This is life eternal , that they might know thee the only true God , and Jesus Christ whom thou hast sent . 2. To seek God , is to seek reconciliation with God : for there is enmity and hostility between God and us poor sinful wretches ; every one of us , as we are sinners by nature and by practice , ought to seek reconciliation with God , and an interest in Christ , aud to make him our Friend ; and for this we are Ambassadors ; the whole Gospel serves for this end ; it is the Ministry of reconciliation . 2 Cor. 5. 18 , 19 , 20 , All things are of God , ( says the Apostle ) who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ , and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation ; To wit , that God was in Christ , reconciling the world unto himself , not imputing their trespasses unto them , and hath committed unto us the word of reconciliation . Now then , we are Ambassadors for Christ , as though God did beseech you by us ; we pray you in Christs stead , be ye reconciled to God. 3. To seek the Lord , is to seek communion with God , and to seek communion with Jesus Christ , to seek him in his Ordinances , in his publick Ordinances , Institutions , and Appointments ; to seek him in our private duties , in our closets , to have close communion with God , and with Christ there : If any man love me , he will keep my words : and my Father will love him , and we will come unto him , and make our abode with him ( says Christ ) , Joh. 14. 23. So that it is a duty that lies on us to seek God more in secret duties , and more in publick Ordinances night and day , wherever we be , to have further rnd more intimate acquaintance with him , and to have a more clear interest in Christ , and more intimate communion with him : By night on my bed , says the Spouse , Cant. 3. 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , I sought him whom my soul loveth , I sought him ( on her bed , but that perhaps may be drowsily , it was a kind of drowsie seeking ) and I found him not . What then ? I will rise now and go about the City in the streets ▪ and in the broad ways I will seek him whom my soul loveth : I sought him , but I found him not : The watch-men that go about the City , found me : to whom I said ▪ Saw ye him whom my soul loveth ? It was but a little that I passed from them , but I found him whom my soul loveth : I held him , and would not let him go , &c. Thus should we seek Jesus Christ , thus should we seek communion and fellowship with him . And in Cant. 1. 7. She thus bespeaks the Lord Jesus , Tell me , O thou whom my soul loveth , where thou feedest , where thou makest thy flock to rest at noon : for why should I be as one that turneth aside by the flocks of thy companions ? And this Scripture I mention the rather , because I now it was much the spirit of our deceased Friend , that precious Saint now with God , who did seek Jesus Christ in pure Ordinances , and desired to wait for him in the most uncorrupt , and purest ways of Communion ; for which she had a great zeal , to my certain knowledg . 4. And Lastly , To seek the Lord , is to seek the eternal injoyment of God , and so to seek the Lord Jesus Christ , as that we may injoy him in his glory , setting our faces heavenward , as in Jer. 50. 4 , 5 , It is said of the Children of Israel , and the Children of Judah , that they shall come together , going , and weeping ; that they shall go and seek the Lord their God. And that they shall ask the way to Zion , with their faces thitherward , &c. They did not only look , but they went ; they did not look one way and go another , but they looked , and went where they might find God ; for they said , come , and let us joyn our selves to the Lord , in a perpetual covenant that shall not be forgotten . I should have also shewn you 3. Where you should seek the Lord Jesus . 4. How you should seek him . And then 5. Why you should seek him . But the time constrains me to retire to that one single term ( early ) to that circumstance of time , because in it lies the greatest Emphasis ( as I said before ) and may be of great use to us at this day : and here I shall shew you , what is intended by early seeking of God. I am sure , those that have lived longest , are most concerned herein ; the youngest , yea , every one of us should account it our greatest concern , early to seek the Lord. But what is it that is intended by this expression , early to seek the Lord ? This I shall shew you in Three particulars . 1. It seems to have reference unto a day of Gods severe dispensations , when he goes forth to correct the Nations , to afflict Families , and persons ; there is such a day , and that is the day of the Lord ; and in this day , as it is our duty so it should be our wisdom to seek the Lord early , before he kills and destroys us , before he makes an utter end by the severity of his stroke . In Zeph. 2. 1 , 2 , 3 , says the Prophet , Gather together , O nation not desired . Before the decree bring forth , before the day pass as the chaff , before the fierce anger of the Lord come upon you , &c. seek ye the LORD , all ye meek of the earth , seek righteousness , seek meekness , it may be ye shall be hid in the day of the LORD's anger . And in this sense , this is the most seasonable word that I could have offered you in such a day as this is , when God is gone forth to contend with the Nations ; we hear of much sickness and death both in City and Country ; God is shaking his Rod , now therefore it is time early to seek the Lord : It is a hard matter for a man that is secure , to be awakened though the rod be coming upon him , though the Lion roar , though judgments are breaking in upon us ; as long as we can tell what shift to make , ( with the Prodigal Son ) we never think of returning to our Fathers House , we never think of seeking unto God. 2 Sam. 14. 29 , 30 , 31 , 32 , When Absalom set Joabs Corn on fire , he then made haste to come to him . And thus it is with us , we will not seek after God ; but if he set our Houses on fire , our bodies with burning Fevers ; when he comes , and consumes , and scorches our comforts , then it may be we make haste , and seek after him . In Isa. 26. 16 , LORD , ( says the Prophet ) in trouble have they visited thee : they poured out a prayer , when thy chastening was upon them . And so in Hos. 5. 15 , In their affliction they will seek me early , says the Lord by the Prophet . When they saw their sickness , and their wound , they sought other means : when none would do , and their case was desperate , they will then plead guilty , acknowledg their offence , and seek my face . In their affliction they will seek me early . And so likewise in Psal. 78. 34 , When he slew them , then they sought him , and they returned , and enquired early after God ; Here were a people ( methinks ) much of the spirit of the people of England ; when he slew them , then they sought him , and they returned , and enquired early after God ; early , that is in respect of themselves , though too late in respect of others that were already consumed and destroyed ; early , that is , before they themselves were destroyed : though it was not early absolutely , yet comparatively so ; though it was late , yet the Lord accounts it for an early seeking . But 2dly , To enquire and seek early after God , may have respect to the morning of every day of our lives , and then the duty lies thus upon us , They that seek me early shall find me ; that is , if we seek God in the morning , we shall find him all the day long with us . Early in the morning ( says David ) will I direct my prayer unto thee , and will look up . And in another place ( says he ) I prevented the dawning of the morning . And if we would learn this lesson this day , and constantly practice it , we shall find greater advantages thereby , than we are aware of . The Poets say , That Aurora Musis amica , the morning is a friend to the Muses ; and doubtless the Saints of God will find the morning as much a friend to their Graces , as the Poets did to the Muses . When I awake , says David , Psal. 139. 18 , I am still with thee ; when I awake , I season my self with the thoughts of God. 3. In the 3d place , and that which doubtless is most properly to be understood , and is especially intended here is , as it hath respect to the day of our lives , and the morning-part of that day . Now then , you that are young , awake betimes , improve your morning , make use of it before it pass away ; consider seriously your follies and neglects , what they have been , and be ashamed : It is well for you that you are in the morning of your day ; look out therefore early after Jesus Christ , study to know God betimes , study to know Jesus Christ while you be young . In Matt. 6. 33 , The Lord Jesus exhorts to seek first the Kingdom of God , and his righteousness ; and doubtless he there intends this , namely , seeking after God and his Kingdom in youth ; do not first seek your pleasures , do not first seek to fulfill your lusts and vain delights , and think it will be time enough to seek the Kingdom of God afterwards : No , you ought to seek that in the first place , before , and above all other things whatsoever . It is a Maxime of Hell , Quaerenda pecunia primum , virtus post nummos , ( but the Sons and Daughters of men are too apt to take it up ; yea , it is their rule they walk by ) first to get an estate , and to grow rich , and when they have done that , then ( if they can find leisure ) to serve God , and to seek after Christ. But I say , that it is good to begin betimes , and so did this servant of God that is gone to Heaven before us ; she began betimes to seek after Christ , and hath left upon record her early enquiries after the ways of God , after the knowledg of Christ : And oh what an honour is it to be like Obadiah ? who says of himself , 1 Kings 18. 12 , That he feared the Lord from his youth . Children , hear me , possibly I may never speak to you more ; Do you , as Obadiah did , fear the Lord from your youth . Do as Timothy did , in your childhood ; hear this Children , your souls are precious and immortal , 2 Tim. 3. 15 , It is here said of him , that from a Child , he had known the Holy Scriptures , which were able to make him wise to salvation : Oh let it be truly so said of you . Vse 1. Of Information . The folly and inadvertency of the most of the Sons and Daughters of men , who seek the world , serve their lusts , pursue lying vanities , and forget God , and seek him not . Oh what cause have we to complain of Children , of Parents , and Masters of Families , how little care there is among any of an early seeking after Christ ? Parents ( generally ) teach their Children to seek pride , to seek the lusts and pleasures of this world , and their carnal delights : But who is there that goe● forth early to seek the Lord ? We can rise early for the world , go from Mountain to Hill to seek after the Profits thereof . Isa. 5. 11 , The Drunkard will rise early that he may follow strong drink ; the Thief watches the twilight , but none seek the Lord. Vse 2. Exhort . To those that have sought the Lord while they were young , and do yet continue to seek him , I have a word or two to you . 1. The first is , to advise you to admire ( exceedingly to admire ) the goodnefs of God to you , in that he ever gave you hearts to seek him : Oh wonderful grace , that you that were born at the same time with others , have sate under the same means with them that never yet have lookt towards Heaven , and their souls are now perhaps dropt into Hell. Oh ( I say ) admire , exceedingly admire , that God gave you , and not them , an heart to seek after him , to mind Christ , and Heaven , and the great concern of your souls ; and surely you cannot but admire it , if you consider how little of man there was in it , and how much of man there was against it . When did ever a straying Sheep seek the Shepherd ? When ever did the wild-Goats look after one to lead them ? If Jesus Christ had not found you first , you would never have sought after him ; if he had not found you , you would , or could never have found him ; if he had not took hold of your hearts , it had been impossible for you to lay hold on him : It is utterly impossible for any man in his natural estate and condition , to seek after Jesus Christ ; this is a work that never will or can be done , unless God give a new heart , and a new spirit ; there wants something within to promote and effect this work , which God only can , and must give . 2. You that have so done , you that have sought the Lord early , I would advise you to go on , and to persist in seeking Christ ; and as you go on , forget not what sweet experiences you have had of the love and kindness of Jesus Christ , what discoveries of light and grace , what comforts and revivings , what refreshing joys and delights you have met with in your seeking of him ; these things ought not to be forgotten by you . And here I shall set before you the worthy example of a Knight of 80 years of age , who two or three days before he dyed , set a-part a day on purpose to call to mind the former experiences he had of God , and of what kind , and how God had dealt with him in his waiting upon him in his Ordinances from time to time . And I am informed that this dear servant of God that is now gone , hath left behind her a Diary written with her own hand , what experiences she had of God in her waiting upon him in his Ordinances ; and how , and what God had spoken to her , and by what Ministers . And these examples are worthy both of your serious consideration , and also excellent patterns for your imitation . But 3. You that have so done , you that have sought God and Christ early , I would advise you to go on in seeking the Lord till you have found him in his glory : As you have in your seeking , found him in a way of grace here ; so go on ( I say ) till you have found him in his glory hereafter , what darkness and difficulties soever lye in the way of your waiting upon him in his Ordinances and appointments ; that you may be like the Church of Thyatira , and that it may be truly said of you , as it is said of that Church ; Rev. 2. 19 , I know thy works , and charity , and service , and faith , and thy patience , and thy works , and thy last to be more than the first . This Testimony Christ himself gives concerning this Church . The nearer you come to Christ , and to enjoyment of him in glory , the more haste you should make ; every thing in nature does so ; a Stone , the nearer it comes to the center , the swifter is its motion : And the Sun seems to move swiftest , when it is near setting : Trees of Gods planting , bring forth more fruit in old age . Psal. 92. 13 , 14 , Those that are planted in the house of the Lord , shall flourish in the Courts of our God. They shall still bring forth fruit in old age : they shall be fat and flourishing . See Isa. 49. 29 , 30 , 31. 2. I have a word of advice to them ( if there be any such here ) that are full of days , and it may be full of the world ; but empty , very empty , of the knowledg of God , and have had little , or it may be no acquaintaince at all with Jesus Christ , nor did ever look after any . We may perhaps say , as Job said , Job 12. 12 , 13 , With the ancient is wisdom ; and in length of days , understanding . With him is wisdom and strength , he hath counsel and understanding . But is it always so ? Is there wisdom and understanding always among the aged ? Be there not among them such , as are like Ephraim ? of whom it is said , Hos. 7. 9 , 10 , Gray hairs are here and there upon him , yet he knoweth it not . And the pride of Israel testifieth to his face , and they do not return to the Lord their God , nor seek him for all this . They do not consider the grave , whither they are going . Be there not careless men and women among us , that do not yet look out after Christ ? that do not provide for the welfare of their souls , but are cumbred about many things , as Martha was ? Yea , many aged men and aged women , who have lived all their days pudling in , and about the world , and worldly concerns , and have hitherto neglected the one thing necessary , viz. seeking after Christ , and the knowledg of him , and to get an interest in him . Do you not yet know , that you are going to appear before the Judgment-seat of Christ ? And will you not yet come off from this world , but the longer you live , you will love the world so much the better ? Is it not high time , that something of the concernments of another world should interpose between your life and your death ? I shall offer you only two or three considerations in reference to this , 1. And first , I would beseech you , and perswade you , as I would be perswaded my self , That seeing you have hitherto neglected your souls , your precious and immortal souls , your spiritual ( which are your greatest ) concernments till now you are grown old , I would perswade you , yea , even beseech you to consider , that now you have but a little time left to do your greatest work ; you have now but one hour . In Matt. 20. 6 , it is said , that Christ went out about the eleventh hour , ( when there was but one hour more to night ) to hire labourers into his vineyard . So it is with you , it is the eleventh hour , your last hour . Besides , have you no eyes , no ears , to see , and hear , that many dye dayly and weekly ? how many goodly plants , ( that God had planted in his own house ) have of late been plucked up by the roots , and laid in their Graves ? yea , every day the death of young and old do ring a peal in our ears , to awaken us to consider what is to come ; And will not Conscience it self ( think you ) ring a dreadful peal in our ears , when we come to dye , for that neither a voice from the Grave , nor yet a voice from the Temple , have yet prevailed with us to seek , and secure to our selves an interest in God and in Christ ? Younger persons than our selves are often taken away , and may we not thereby see and read that death it self is coming to teach us all to be prepared and in readiness for this our great change ? Death lies ( as it were ) in Ambuscado for us , and sometimes men are taken away by it in the field , and sometimes at home , sometimes by this , and sometimes by that disease ; but death comes to old age , aperto marte , in the plain and open field ( as it were ) ; and old men and old women cannot imagine that death is many days march from them ; and therefore they ( of all persons ) had need to seek after God , and an interest in Christ night and day ; seek after this in your Houses , in your Closets , in your Beds , in his Ordinances ; yea , where-ever he is to be found , and not to give over seeking , till ( with the Spouse before mentioned ) you have found him . 2. Consider how Christ calls on you in the Text. Read the begining of the Chapter , Doth not wisdom cry ? and understanding put forth her voice ? vers . 1. From whence ? She standeth in the top of high places , by the way in the places of the paths , vers . 2. She cryeth at the gates , at the entry of the city , at the coming in at the doors , vers . 3. To whom doth she cry ? Vnto you , O men , I call , and my voice is to the sons of men , vers . 4. What doth she call to them for ? That they would come and seek wisdom of Christ , that they would come and get understanding of him , that they would come and get knowledg of him , which is wisdom indeed ; The fear of the Lord , that is wisdom indeed . Doth Christ thus call , and will you not regard , nor answer this call ? What then will be his next call ? For ought I know it may be this , Arise from the dead , and come to judgment . Consider this . 3. And Lastly , Consider your grand inducement and incouragement , They that seek me early , shall find me : They that will yet seek him , that is your early , and God acconnts it so . In Psal. 78. 34 , When he slew them , then they sought him , and they returned , and enquired early after God. While grace is proclaimed , while God says , They that seek me early , shall find me ; This ( I say ) is your early , and that which God himself accounts so ; and will God yet be found of you , if you seek him ? Oh! what cause have you to bless God , that ever he made such a promise as this , which is , Tabula post naufragium . And that in Isa. 55. 6 , 7 , Seek ye the Lord while he , may be found ; call upon him while he is near . Oh wonderful grace ! that such promises should be published to you and me ! I love them that love me ; and those that seek me early shall find me . And now I shall no longer be burdensom to you , but shall beg of you Children , for whom I have provided a few words , a short Sermon , To hearken to your own Sermon , &c. Thirdly , A word of Exhortation , or , a short Sermon to young ones : Children seek the Lord early , whiles you are yet tender and young . The Children of their dear deceased Mother , should hear her always saying what the Lord said to her , They that seek me early , shall find me . O little Children ! you lye much upon my heart , Remember your Creator in the days of your youth , and seek him betimes , Eccles. 12. 1. 1. Consider you must dye , It is appointed to all men once to dye , Heb. 9. 27. And you may dye whiles you are Children . How many pretty little ones are every day taken away before your eyes ? And if you be snatcht away by the cold hand of death , before you know God , and have found Christ , what will become of your precious and immortal souls ? Would you be willing to dye , and be damn'd ? Would you leave this world , and be content to be turn'd into Hell , and be punished with the Devil and his Angels ? Can you think of losing your Friends , and your God too for ever ? 2. Consider what was the great errand upon which God sent you into the world ? Not to gratifie your Lusts , nor to pursue lying vanities ; but to know God , and Jesus Christ. And will you , dare you neglect your special work ? O! whiles you are in your prime , mind what you have to do for your souls . Can you think it reasonable , that the Devil should have your youth , the flower and strength of your days , and God be serv'd only with a crazy body , or the rottenness of old Age ? O , then , delay no longer , but seek the Lord. And. 1. Do it speedily , the Mannagatherers must go forth betimes , Exod. 16. 21 , so must the Christ-seekers , before the Sun be up , before the heat of youthful lusts , or earthly cares , hinder your diligent seeking . 2. Do it in earnest , with all your hearts : Psal. 119. 2 , Blessed are they that keep his testimonies , that seek him with their whole heart . 3. Resolve to seek the Lord till you find him in glory ; not only while your Father , Mother , or Friends live , but as long as you live . It was a sad story in Gen. 35. 19 , That Rachel dyed , when she was but a little way from Ephrath : But more sad , Luk. 13. 24 , When many shall seek to enter into Heaven , and not be able . 3. Consider , That if you seek him early , you shall be sure to find him ; I would bespeak you , as David did his young Solomon , 1 Chron. 28. 9 , And thou Solomon , my son , know thou the God of thy Father , and serve him with a perfect heart , and with a willing mind : for the Lord searcheth all hearts , and understandeth all the imaginations of the thoughts : if thou seek him , he will be found of thee ; but if thou forsake him , he will cast thee off for ever . It was a very serious speech of Azariah to Asa , and to all Judah and Benjamin , 2 Chron. 15. 2 , The Lord is with you , while you be with him ; and if you seek him , he will be found of you : but if you forsake him , he will forsake you . Quest. But what shall we do to seek him ? Ans. If you will seek , you must forsake sin , and flee youthful lusts , 2 Tim. 2. 22. 1. Especially take heed of lying , that 's the Devils chain , by which he holds poor Children from Christ ; Lies are the refuge of guilt ▪ and folly , where the inconsiderate youth hides himself from man , and is kept from God ; as Adam , when he knew he was naked , Gen. 3. 7 , sewed Fig-leaves together ; a poor shift to hide his nakedness ! so the sons of Adam , when they become guilty , make Lies their covert ; and instead of seeking , fly further from God , and bring a double guilt and punishment upon their heads . 2. Beware of Pride ; the wanton youth is like the wild Asses Colt , or as Jer. 2. 23 , 24 , The swift Dromedary traversing her ways , or a wild Ass used to the wilderness , that snuffeth up the wind at her pleasure . The souls not seeking God , is charged upon his Pride , Psal. 10. 4 , The wicked through the pride of his countenance ( his looks testifie his pride ) will not seek after God , God is not in all his thoughts . 3. Be not of a stubborn or disobedient spirit to the counsels of Parents and Teachers ; but hearken to their instruction . It is the most sad and certain presage of the ruine of your souls , if you refuse the serious and early advice of your natural and spiritual Fathers . That 's a dreadful saying , 1 Sam. 2. 25 , concerning Eli's Sons , They hearkened not unto the voice of their Father , because the Lord would slay them . 2. Go read the Scriptures ; the Eunuch found Christ there , and Augustine found him there while he was reading Rom. 13. 13. Go , ask your Teachers , and they will direct you in the way ; go hence into your corners , and weep , and pray , and God will come to you ; and when you hear the word Preacht , mind what is spoken to you ; it is God that speaketh , whom you should seek . 4. Consider , If you will seek the Lord early , you will lay the foundation of your own peace and comfort , living and dying ; O how may you prevent the sighs , the groans , the repentings , the heart-akings that have fill'd up our days , for want of an early seeking after God : What a comfort was this to our dying Friend , as also to her surviving Friends and Relations , That She did , and could truly say , that she began to know God betimes , and her great preparation-work for death ( to use her own words ) was not now to do : And as that was your comfort then , so let it be your Copy now . What a great advantage was that to David , Psal. 71. 17 , 18 , That when he was old , he could plead an old acquaintance with God ? O Lord , thou hast taught me from my youth . Now also when I am old , and gray-headed ( O God ) forsake me not . Two things more I would briefly shew you . 1. What will be the difference between them that made it their business early to seek the Lord , and them that sought him not , or sought him too late ; and that with reference to eternity , in a dying hour ? 2. Whence that difference doth arise ? 1. What will be the difference betwixt Saints and Sinners , with respect to death at last ? 1. The wicked and ungodly sinner , that would seek the world , his own pleasure and sinful lusts ; When he comes to dye , Conscience rings a dreadful peal , and makes him cry out in the bitterness of his soul , Alas ! Friend , I must dye , Animula , vagula , blandula , quos nunc ad ibis locos ? Poor flitting , dear departing soul , whither art thou going ? Christ is an enemy , God is a stranger , I have no friend to save me , I must be damn'd , I am undone , I am undone for ever . But the dying Saint , when he hath the sentence of death in him , hath the hopes of life before him ; I must dye ( says he ) O welcom Death , I am now going to enjoy him whom I have loved ; to possess him whom I have sought ( as this precious Saint said to me a little before her death , I know whom I have trusted ) I am my Beloveds , and my Beloved is mine , says the Believer , Now shall I ever be with the Lord. 2. The careless sinner that would not seek the Lord , when he comes to dye , bids a doleful adieu to all his comforts ; farwel Friends , Relations , pleasures and delights , for ever , I shall never see a good day more . But he that sought the Lord while he liv'd , when he comes to dye , says , Behold , I dye , now farwel troubles , temptations , sin , and sorrow for ever ; I am lanching forth into a glorious eternity , I shall never see a sad day more . 3. The wilful sinner , when he is about to dye , ( after all the counsels he hath slighted , and now time shall be no more ) cries out with horrour , I have for ever lost my opportunities of seeking God , it is now too late , I am left to perpetual howlings . But the gracious Soul , who hath sought , and found God in seeking , when he is about to dye , looks back with delight upon all the Ordinances , wherein he hath many times met with Christ , and found God nigh to his soul , and says , I am going where I shall need Ordinances no more , but God shall be all in all ; I am going to mine eternal rest , to an everlasting Sabbath-keeping in Heaven . 2. Whence doth that difference arise ? From the wisdom of the one , and foolish inadvertency , or rather obstinacy of the other ; one knew his season , and did the things that did belong to his peace ; the other had his season , but knew it not , and now his misery is great upon him ; one sought after Christ , that he might have an interest in him , and make God his friend ; the other refused Christ , and now God is his enemy , and so death is to him the King of terrors : But the believing soul can ( to allude to that in Isa. 11. 8 , ) play upon the hole of the Asp , and put his hand on the Cockatrice Den ; and when the pains of an irksom disease are upon him , and pangs of death before him , he says , all these rackings and grievous aches , be but like the ratling of the Charriot-wheels that Joseph sent to fetch his Father and his Brethren to him ; and all his wearisom waking nights , be to him as the valley of Achor , or door of Hope . 1. Because he knows death is no death to him , but a passage unto a glorious life with God , whom 〈◊〉 hath sought and serv'd all his days he is but going unto his Beloved the Lord Jesus , who is gone 〈◊〉 way before him . 2. Because he looks on the Grave not as his Prison , but a bed of Spices ; or rather the Saints Tyring-Room , where they throw off mortality , to put on immortality ; and lay aside corruption , to put on incorruption . I thought here to have spoken a word to the nearest Friends and Relations of this deceased Saint , to let them see how little cause they have to mourn and to afflict their souls ; but the Lord , who knows how to speak comfort infinitely better , hath been with their hearts . Only let not the Husband grieve , and say , Ah! what a dear Wife have I lost ! nor the Children say , what a dear Mother have we lost ! But rather , 1. Consider , What she hath found ; She hath found that , which ●he hath been seeking all her days ; ●he hath found that God , that Christ , that Heaven , that Bosom , and those embraces that she waited and long'd for . 3. Consider , You will never be happy till you be where she is gone before you . 3. Consider , It is but a very little while and you shall see her again ; as Augustine comforted his Italica concerning her dead Husband ; and let you , and I , and all of us mind our work , and be upon our march towards Heaven , taking our encouragement from the Text , where the Lords makes a proclamation of Grace , I love them that love me ; and those that seek me early , shall find me . FINIS . POSTCRIPT . NOW though the Husband of our Deceased Friend has been somewhat averse from publishing any thing of her own ; yet being at last prevail'd upon , I shall commend to the Reader some particular Experiences of the Lords early dealing with her soul , as I have found them written by her own hand . First , I find this Position laid down by her in her own Book , viz. That very many Scriptures do imply a possibility , that a believer may know that he is elected of God , and that his election is of free grace through our Lord Jesus Christ unto holiness , which shall end in glory , Phil. 2. 12 , 13. 2 Cor. 13. 5. 2 Pet. 1. 10. with very many more , which I shall forbear to mention . On which ground she proceeds to take a particular account of her own spiritual estate , as follows . IT hath been much upon my thoughts to write some of those Scriptural Experiences which I have found and received great comfort in from the Word of God ; being , as I judg , brought home to my soul , by the Spirit : And being now past the Fortieth year of my age , not knowing how soon the Lord may call , having always had a desire to be on my watch , that I may be found ready and willing when ever my Lords time is ( This Mercy I have been begging many years ) . I can truly say , for some Months past I have had no rest in my spirit till I began to write these things ; and after fasting and prayer by my self , while in doubt what to do , fearing the falsness of my own heart , I was encouraged by a Sermon that I heard on these words in Psal. 77. 1● , I will remember the works of the Lord ; surely I will remember thy wonders of old . Where was much pressed the duty of Christians , To relate what God had done for them . And out of the longing desire I have for the good of you my dear Little ones , that you may value the precious Word of God wherein your Mother hath found so much comfort ; you two , that is , SA . and MA. are the only remnant that God hath spared ( and blessed be God that hath left us as to this day a Berry or two ) : You are the children of many prayers ; the Lord grant you may be blessed with all spiritual blessings in Christ Jesus ; and make you serviceable while you live , and fit you for an inheritance among the Saints in light . In order to that , I beg you in the name and fear of God , that you highly prize the Word of God , and every Ordinance of Jesus Christ appointed in his Word : I would say with David , Come my Children , hearken unto me , and I will tell you what he hath done for my soul , Psal. 34. 11. Psal. 66. 16. I have found the Word read and preached , yea many a Scripture that I could not remember I read or heard preached on ; yet it hath pleased my gracious God to send many a word to relieve and comfort my soul : his word hath been to me a convincing word , a reproving , an instructing , and a very comforting word , and that my soul knoweth by great experience . I intend , if the Lord permit , and will send his Spirit to bring things to my remembrance ( without that I can do nothing ) to set down the kindness of the Lord from my Childhood , that was pleased to begin with me be-times . O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledg of God , &c. Rom. 11. 33 , 34 , 35 , 36. I can remember , while a Girl at school , about the age of nine or ten , I took great delight in reading the stories in the Scripture , which did much affect me . Afterward I was more taken with the New Testament , that did reveal more of Christ to me . Then I began to pray as I was able . I do not remember , that I ever did make use of any written or printed form . The first sin that I remember troubled me , was telling my Father a lye ; and it had this aggravation with it , that he told me , If I would tell him how it was , he would believe me rather than my Brothers and Sisters ; and out of fear of them , I said as they did ; but with a very trembling heart , which much troubled me some years after this , when I begun to hearken to the word Preached , where I heard that sin set out . I was much affected , and mourned much under the sense of sin ; seeing a burden in it , I desired to look after a remedy . The first Minister that I remember , I hearkned to , was Mr. H. of Kensington , where my Father was , in the summer . I did then begin to understand my state by nature , how under the wrath and curse of God. Then I began to see my need of , and did desire after Jesus Christ , being , as I thought then , willing to take him on his own terms . Jesus Christ was then , as I thought , precious to me ; and being willing to understand my own case and condition , it pleased the Lord to open my heart , to hearken diligently to the word Preached , wherein I found much comfort , which ingaged my heart unto the Lord , and made me unwilling to neglect any duty which he commanded , or to commit any sin which the Lord forbids . This I well remember to be the frame of my spirit near thirty years ago . Hearing much , that it was the end of life to glorfie God , it made the earnest breathings of my soul to be this ; Oh , but how shall I glorifie God! After this , by a Providence I heard Mr. M. at Westminster , my Father being there for some months ; he was on that Scripture , 2 Chron. 15. 17. Nevertheless the heart of Asa was perfect all his days . I took great delight to hear him , being often angry he had done so soon . My soul was much refreshed by the signs and marks he gave of a perfect heart . I did usually go from hearing , into my Chamber , and beg earnestly of God for a perfect heart , in which as I thought , I saw more of value , than in any injoyments whatever ; it was what did concern my spiritual estate . I begun to be much troubled about , how such a poor sinful creature that was by natnre under the wrath and curse of God , should escape this . I did believe as I had been taught , it was by a Redeemer ; I did also believe that there was no name given under Heaven , by which I must be saved , but the Lord Christ Jesus . I did also much hearken to the tenders of Christ in the Gospel , and how he invited sinners to himself , and that he offered himself freely : this gave me encouragement . But as I had read and heard it was a strait gate , and a narrow way , few that find it : this made me very careful , lest I should be deceived . And here came in the great question , But how shall I know that God in Christ will accept me ? For many are called , but few chosen ; God hath mercy on whom he will , and it is not of him that willeth , nor of him that runneth , but of God that sheweth mercy . This made me very diligent to hearken to marks and signs of grace . The first that I remember troubled me , was this ; understanding it was the common lot of all Gods People , through many afflictions to enter into heaven : This did much trouble me at that time , and I was apt to think I should be able to bear any thing that God would lay on me , so it might evidence to me the love of God to my soul : but fool that I was ! I judged too soon ; for when it pleased the All-wise God to try me , I quickly saw that my strength was but small , by my fainting so much as I did in a day of adversity , which by many sad experiences I can shew , how unable to bear any thing when tryed . However then I thought I could bear any thing from with out , so all might be well within . After this , by a Providence , I came to hear Mr. V. at St. Olaves ; the first Sermon that I heard him , was on these words , And all the things thou canst desire , are not to be compared unto her , Prov. 3. 15. Wherein was set out the value of Jesus Christ above all that the world afforded , which very much wrought on my heart , with great longing after this Christ ; but still came this question , How shall you know your interest ? However , it pleased God so to bless his Ministry to me , that usually I found my doubts so resolved , and my heart so opened , that I went away with great joy and comfort ; but for all this I was perplexed with dreadful thoughts ; after I had such peace and joy , then Satan begun to work indeed : I , but is there such a God , and such a Christ to be believed in ? How to answer this temptation , I was at a great loss , and would tell none what did ail me ; I mourned much under it , and thought , I questioned whether there was a God or no ; yet then I did not neglect praying , and did as it were pour out my soul daily unto God for victory , that he would not give me up to an unbelieving heart , and of his free-grace ( who knew my soul in adversity ) by his word to send me relief . Going to hear on a Lecture-day , he then Preached on these words , Hos. 2. 7. I will go and return to my first husband , for then was it better with me than now . It pleased God so to order it , that he gave great caution against such thoughts , saying , Take heed , poor soul , when the Devil casteth in such thoughts : Is there a God , or a Christ ? Take heed , for then Satan will have you in his snare . This , with many other things was set home on my heart ; then he did convince me , by appealing to the Saints experience , Is it not better to entertain good thoughts of God , and of Christ ? was it not better with you then , than now ? The Lord gave me so to close in with the truth of that word , that I had great joy and peace through believing , and went home full of comfort , that God had so met me with a word . By that means it pleased the Lord to give check to those unbelieving thoughts that so overcame me . And yet to this day , I have great cause to mourn , for that unbelief I find in my heart , notwithstanding all the experiences that God hath given me ; that Scripture doth often reprove me , Heb. 3. 12. Take heed , lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief , in departing from the living God. After this I kept waiting at the posts of Wisdoms gate , that I might understand the state of my soul , which was the one thing necessary that I desired to look after ; and finding by the word Preached , that the usual way and method of God , was to strike the soul down , as he did them in the second of the Acts , and the Jaylor , and the like ; this did raise in me great doubts what to think of my self , because I could not find in my self such convictions of , and humiliation for sin , as was pressed ; and as to Original sin , it did not seem much to affect me ; this did bring me into great fears : However , I took that way I had found comfort in , which was by prayer to the Lord , to bless his word to me . Mr. V. was then on this Text , Ephes. 2. 8. By grace are ye saved through faith , and that not of your selves , it is the gift of God. To this I diligently hearken'd , and received great support , for all my objections seemed to be answered ; yet for all this I did as it were refuse to be comforted : he being on signs of grace , closed the Text with these two marks : 1. A souls going on in a way of duty , was a very hopeful sign . 2. But the Spirit of God was the only infallible witness : the spirit it self beareth witness with our spirit , that we are the Children of God. The first did comfort me , the second did very much trouble me ; for I could not understand the meaning of the spirits witness , which fearing lest I should be deceived in a matter of so great a concern , made me give all diligence in reading and hearing , that my doubts might be resolved ; but as yet no rest in my spirit : and the more increased , being the time to go into the Country , where usually our family was ; this added much to my grief to be taken off from hearing Mr. V. I began to look more into the Scriptures , and to pick up whatever did come suddenly into my mind ; and it pleased God to cast in many that seemed to comfort me , which I wrote down in that year . But then came this question , These are marks and signs that belong to such and such Saints in Scripture : But what is this to thee ? These thoughts much cast me down ; what to do I knew not , but kept still praying and waiting on God , and I found speedy relief , when I least thought of it . My Father being at Hammersmith , I went constantly to hear there , and that Summer several City-Ministers did supply the place ; and among the rest , I heard Mr. G. on these words , Lord , to whom shall we go ? thou hast the words of eternal life , Joh. 6. 68. As I remember , this was his Observation , That soul that had once given up it self to , could never bear a going off from Jesus Christ. His arguing thus with a doubting soul ; Try thy self ; cannot you bear a leaving of God ? then doubt not that he will leave you : would you know whether God loves you ? consider , do you love God ? for you could not love him , unless he loved you first . By these and several arguments , the Lord was pleased so to set it home on my heart ; I may well forget the words , my heart being so full of peace and joy through believing , 1 Pet. 1. that I cannot express it , being as I judg , better felt than exprest ; it did seem at that time to me , as if I had tasted of that joy unspeakable and full of glory . I know not what to make of it , except it were a sealing unto the day of redemption . I thought then my joy being so great , I could willingly have gone out of the body , to have been with the Lord. I remember I went home and fell on my knees , admiring the freeness of grace to such a worm as I ; crying out with the Apostle , O the depth ! The sense of free-grace and rich mercy did much overcome me ; the which , I hope , I shall admire to all eternity : O the goodness of God! when I had again and again refused to be comforted , yet he waited to be gracious to me ! This I write and speak , that God the Father , and God the Son , and God the Holy Ghost may have the glory of their own work . When under my doubts and fears , I seldom went to hear , but the word did seem to speak unto me ; and several Scriptures came suddenly to my mind , that did reprove , and quiet , and comfort me , such as these , Why art thou cast down , O my soul ? and why art thou disquieted within me ? hope in God , for I shall yet praise him . This hath been made good unto me ; and that in the Psalm ; In the multitude of my thoughts within me , thy comforts delight my soul ; and that it is good for me to draw near to God , Psal. 73. 28. And that a day in thy courts is better than a thousand , Psal. 84. 10. And I can truly say as David did , I had rather be a door-keeper in the house of my God , than to dwell in tents of wickedness . Experienced I have that of Job , I have esteemed thy word more than my necessary food , Job 23. 12. I have had great support from that Scripture , All that the Father giveth me , shall come to me ; and him that cometh to me , I will in no wise cast out , Joh. 6. 37. I have often thought of that Scripture with joy , Lord , how is it that thou wilt manifest thy self unto me , and not unto the world ? for who maketh thee differ from another ? and what hast thou that thou didst not receive ? I have again and again in these words , and many more , admired freeness of grace towards such a poor doubting soul as I was ; I doubt not , but he which hath begun , will finish his own work on Sarah Lye. Amen , Amen . Thus far I have written a relation of the first 20 years of my age , what was the great thing that most troubled me ; it was , That I might have assurance of the love of God , and a well-grounded hope of an interest in Christ ; that what the Lord Jesus had done and suffered , might be applied unto me ; and having hopes through grace , and rejoycing much in hopes of the glory of God , which hope maketh not ashamed . After this I began to have great tryals , as to the loss of my relations ; my Parents ; that were very dear to me , both dying within four Months ; this with many more troubles much cast me down ; yet to observe the Providences of God to me , and how by his word he sent me relieving experiences , should I set it down in order , would swell to a great Volume . Only thus much I may speak to the praise of God , that when Father and Mother forsook , God took me into his care , and hath graciously provided for me , and hath given me an Agurs portion , which I beg'd of the Lord when but a Girl : I can truly say , All the ways of the Lord are , and have been to me mercy and truth : For this God I have chosen to be my God , for ever and ever ; and I doubt not , but he will be my guide even unto death . And now , my dear Child , or Children , that shall read of this way and method that the Lord did use in bringing me off from all things to himself , take heed , pray , take heed you do not limit the holy One of Israel ; nor tye up God to this , or any way of working ; the Lord worketh all things after the counsel of his own will : but we are commanded to search our hearts , and try our ways , and to examine our selves , and to give all diligence to make our calling and election sure . Look that the work of conversion be wrought , and leave time and way to the All-wise God , that governs the world , and orders all things , to whom be glory for ever and ever , Amen , and Amen . All that I have written in these few sheets , is not out of any book but that of my own conscience ; no assister , but the spirit ; and to no end , but that God in all things may have glory , for I will not dare to speak of any of those things which Christ hath not wrought in me . FINIS . Books sold by Tho. Parkhurst at the Bible and Three Crowns in Cheapside . ONe Hundred select Sermons , upon several occasions , by Tho. Horton , D. D. Sermons on the whole Epistle of Saint Paul to the Collossians , by Mr. J. Daille , translated into English by F. S. with Dr. Tho. Goodwin's , and Dr. John Owens Epistles Recommendatory . An Exposition of Christs Temptation on Matth. 4. and Peters Sermon to Cornelius ; and circumspect walking . By Dr. Tho. Taylor . 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