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A Century of Divine Breathings for a Ravished Soule , beholding the Excellencies of her Lord Jesus . By J : HALL , B. N. N B London , Printed for Nath : Brooke , at the Angel in Cornhill . 1654. TO THE Christian Reader Grace and Peace . IT pleased the Alwise and holy GOD , who orders all events to his own glory , to make use of my late Secession for the producing of divers , not , I hope unprofitable Tractates ; wherein I much rejoyce that my declined Age , even in that retiredness , might be in any measure serviceable to his Church : Now , I send these Select Notions after their Fellows ; of which , I wish you may finde cause to say with the Wedding-guests at Cana , Thou hast reserved the best wine till now . The intent of this Labor is to put some good Thoughts ( Reader ) into thy minde , which would not otherwise , perhaps have tendered themselves to thee ; such , as I hope may not a little further thee on thy journey to Heaven . And if in my Laboring thitherward , I shall , through Gods mercy , be a means of forwarding any soul , but some steps up that steep way , how happy am I ? To which purpose , I know no means more effectual , then those Meditations which conduce to the animation and vigor of Christian practise : Such I have propounded to my Self , as most behooveful and necessary ; especially for this Age , into which we are faln ; an Age of more brain then heart ; and that hath almost lost Piety in the chase of some litigious Truths . And surely had I known how better to have placed my hours , I should gladly have changed my task : But , I must needs say , I have found this imployment so useful , and proper , as that I have looked upon those Polemical Discourses which have been forced from me , as no better then meer Excursions . I wis , it will be long enough , ere we shall wrangle our selves into Heaven : It must be true contrition , pure consciences , holy affections , heavenly dispositions , hearty devotions , sound Regeneration , Faith working by Love , an humble walking with GOD that shall help us thither ; and whatsoever may tend to the advancing of any of these gracious Works in us , is worthy to be dear and precious . Such passages , Reader , if thou shalt , according to my hopes , meet with here , bless GOD with me , and improve them to the best advantage of thy Soul : Thus shall our gain be mutual , and our account happy in the day of the Lord Jesus : In whom farewel . From Higham , neer Norwich . Febr. 7. 1647. Select Thoughts , One Century . I. IF miracles be ceased , yet marvails will never cease . There is no creature in the world , wherein we may not see enough to wonder at ; for there is no worm of the earth , no spire of grass , no leaf , no twig , wherein we may not see the footsteps of a Deity : The best visible Creature is man ; now , what man is he that can make but an hair , or a straw , much less any sensitive creature ; so as no less then an infinite power is seen in every object that presents it self to our eyes ; if therefore we look onely upon the outsides of these bodily substances , and do not see God in every thing , we are no better then brutish ; making use meerly of our sence without the least improvement of our faith , or our reason : Contrary then to the opinion of those men , who hold that a wise man should admire nothing , I say , that a man truely wise and good should admire every thing , or rather that infiniteness of wisdom and omnipotence which shews it self in every visible object : Lord what a beast am I that I have suffered mine eyes to be taken up with shapes , and colours and quantities , and have not lookt deeper at thee ( with awful adoration , and wonder ) in every parcel of thy great Creation : Henceforth let me see nothing but thee , and look at all visible things , but as the meer shadows of a glorious omnipotence . II. Our affections are then onely safe and right , when they are deduced from God , and have their rise from Heaven ; then onely can I take comfort of my love , when I can love my wife , my childe , my friend , my self , my pleasures , and whatsoever contentments in God ; thus I may be sure not to offend either in the object , or measure ; no man can in God love whom he should not , nor immoderately love whom he should : this holy respect doth both direct and limit him ; and shuts up his delights in the conscience of a lawful fruition : the like must be said of our joy , and fear , and grief , and what ever other affection ; for we cannot derive our joy from God , if we place it upon any sinful thing , or if we exceed in the measure of things allowed ; we cannot fetch our fear from Heaven , if it be cowardly , and desperate , nor our grief , if it be meerly worldly and heartless . And if our affections do begin from above , they will surely end there , closing up in that God , who is the Author and orderer of them ; and such as our affections are , such will be the whole disposition of the soul , and the whole carriage of our actions : These are the feet of the soul , and which way the feet walk , the whole man goes ; happy is the man that can be so far the master of himself , as to entertain no affections but such as he takes upon the rebound from Heaven . III. Whence is this delicate scent in this Rose , and Violet ? It is not from the root , that smells of nothing ; not from the stalk , that is as senceless as the root ; not from the earth whence it grows , which contributes no more to these flowers , then to the grass that grows by them ; not from the leaf , not from the bud before it be disclosed , which yields no more fragrance then the leaf , or stalk , or root ; yet here I now finde it ; neither is it here by any miraculous way , but in an ordinary course of nature ; for all Violets and Roses of this kinde yield the same redolence ; it cannot be , but that it was potentially in that root , and stem from which the flowers proceed , and there placed , and thence drawn by that Almighty power which hath given these admirable vertues to several plants , and educes them in his due seasons to these excellent perfections . It is the same hand that works spiritually in his elect ; out of the soyl of the renewed heart , watered with the dew of Heaven , and warmed with the beams of his Spirit , God can , and in his own season , doth bring forth those sweet odors of Grace , and holy dispositions , which are most pleasing to himself ; and if those excellencies be so closely lodged in their bosoms , that they do not discover themselves at all times , it should be no more strange to us , then that this Rose and Violet are not to be found , but in their own moneths ; it is enough that the same vertue is still in the root , though the flower be vanished . IIII. A man that looks at all things through the consideration of eternity , makes no more of a man , then of a flower ; that lasts some days , he lasts some years ; at their period , both fade : Now , what difference is there to be made betwixt days and years in the thoughts of an eternal duration ? Herein therefore I have a great advantage of a carnal heart ; such a one bounding his narrow conceits with the present condition , is ready to admire himself , and others , for what they have or are , and is therefore dejected upon every miscarriage : whereas I behold my self , or that man , in all his glory , as vanishing ; onely measuring every mans felicity by the hopes and interress which he hath in a blessed eternity . V. When I am dead and forgotten , the world will be as it is , the same successions and varieties of seasons , the same revolutions of Heaven , the same changes of Earth and Sea , the like occurrents of natural events , and humane affairs . It is not in my power to alter the course of things , or to prevent what must be : What should I do , but quietly take my part of the present , and humbly leave the care of the future to that all-wise providence , which ordereth all things ( even the most cross events ) according to his most holy and just purposes ? VI. The Scripture is the Sun , the Church is the Clock , whose hand points us to , and whose sound tells us the hours of the day ; the Sun we know to be sure , and regularly constant in his motion ; the Clock as it may fall out , may go too fast , or too slow ; we are wont to look at , and listen to the Clock to know the time of the day , but where we finde the variation sensible , to beleeve the Sun against the Clock , not the Clock against the Sun. As then we would condemn him of much folly , that should profess to trust the Clock rather then the Sun ; so we cannot but justly tax the miscredulity of those who will rather trust to the Church then to the Scripture . VII . What marvailous high respects hath God given to man above all his other visible Creatures ! what an house hath he put him into ! how gloriously arched , how richly pavemented ! Wherefore serves all the furniture of Heaven and Earth , but for his use ? What delicate provision hath that bountiful hand made for his palate , both of meats and liquors , by Land and Sea ? What rich ornaments hath he laid up for him in his wardrobe of earth and waters ? and wherefore serves the various musick of Birds , but to please his ear ? For , as for the brute Creatures , all harmony to them is but as silence . Wherefore serves the excellent variety of Flowers , surpassing Solomon in all his glory , but to please his eie ? meer grass is more acceptable to Beasts . Yea , what Creature but he is capable to survey Gods wonders in the deep ? to contemplate the great fabrick of the Heavens ? to observe the glorious bodies , and regular motions of the Sun , Moon , Stars ; and ( which exceeds all conceiveable mercies , ) who but he is capable of that celestial Glory , which is within that beautiful contignation ? to be a companion of the blessed Angels , yea to be a limb of the mystical Body of the eternal Son of God , and to partake with him of his everlasting and incomprehensible glory ? Lord , what is man that thou art thus mindful of him ? and how utterly unworthy are we even of common mercies , if we return not to our God , more advantage of glory , then those poor creatures that were made for us , and which cannot in nature be sensible of his favors ? VIII . How plain is it that all sensitive things are ordered by an instinct from their Maker ? He that gives them being , puts into them their several dispositions , inclinations , faculties , operations . If we look to Birds ; the Mavis , the Black-bird , the Red-brest have throats tuneable to any note , as we daily see they may be taught strains utterly varying from their natural tones , yet they all naturally have the same songs and accents different from each other , and fully according to their own kinde ; so as every Mavis hath the same ditty with his fellows : If we mark the building of their nests , each kinde observes its own fashion and materials , some clay , others moss , hair , sticks ; yea if their very motions and restings , they are conform to their own feather , different from others . If to Beasts , they all untaught observe the fashions of their several kindes . Galen observes that when he was dissecting a She-goat big with young , a Kid then ready to be yeaned starts out , and walks up and down the room , and there being in the same place , set several vessels of oyl , hony , water , milk , the new faln Kid smells at them all , and refusing the rest falls to lapping of the milk ; whereupon he justly infers , that nature stays not for a Teacher . Neither is it other in Flies , and all sorts of the meanest vermine , all Bees build alike , and order the Common-wealth of their hive in one maner ; all Ants keep their own way in their housing , journeys , provisions ; all Spiders do as perfectly and uniformly weave their web , as if they had been Apprentises to the trade , the same instincts are seen also in the rational Creatures , although in most cases overruled by their higher faculties . What an infinite providence then is this we live under , that hath distributed to every creature , as a several form , so several inclinations , qualities , motions , proper to to their own kinde , and different from other ; and keeps them in this constant uniformity , and variety , for the delight and contentment of man ! O God , that I could be capable of enough wondring at thy great works ! that I could be enough humbled under the sense of my own incapacity , that I could give thee so much more glory , as I finde more vileness in my self . IX . When I saw my precious watch ( now through an unhappy fall grown irregular ) taken asunder , and lying scattered upon the workmans shop-board ; so as here lay a wheel , there the balance , here one gimmer , there another , straight my ignorance was ready to think , when and how will all these ever peece together again in their former order ? But when the skilful Artisan had taken it a while in hand , and curiously pined the joynts , it now began to return to its wonted shape , and constant motion , as if it had never been disordered : How could I chuse but see in this , the just embleme of a distempered Church and State ? wherein if all seem disjoynted , and every wheel laid aside by it self , so as an unknowing beholder would dispair of a redress , yet if it shall please the great Artist of Heaven to put his hand unto it , how soon might it return to an happy resetlement ? Even so , blessed Lord , for thy great mercies sake make up the breaches of thy Sion , & repair the ruines of thy Jerusalem X We are , and we are not , all one mans children : Our bodies once met in one root , but our mindes and dispositions do so differ , as if we had never been of kin : one man is so gentle and plausible that he would fain please all ; another is so churlish and dogged that he cares not whom he displeases , and hardly can be well pleased with himself : One so sparing and pinching that he grudges himself necessaries , another so vainly lavish , that he cares not how he squanders his estate : one is tenderly pitiful , another mercilesly cruel ; one religiously devout , another wildly profane ; one cowardly fearful , another desperately couragious : one jovially cheerful and lightsome , another sad and dumpish , even to stupidity : one petulant and wanton , another austerely continent ; one humble and low-conceited of rich indowments , another swoln big with a little . He did never read men to purpose that is too much troubled with the harsh and unpleasing contrariety of humors , which he meets with in the world ; and he shall be too unthankful to God , that finding himself better composed then others , knows not whither to ascribe it ; and too neglective of himself , that finding his own distempered , labors not to rectifie it . XI . Nature , Law , and Grace divide all the Ages of the world ; now as it is in man ( who is a lesser world ) that in every day there is a resemblance of his whole life ; the morning is his childehood , the mid-day his youth , the evening his old age ; so is it in this greater World ; the dim break of day was the state of nature , and this was the nonage of the world , wherein the light of knowledg , both of humane and divine things was but weak and obscure . The Sun was risen higher in the state of the Law , but yet not without thick mists and shadows , till the high-noon of that true Sun of Righteousness , who personally shone forth to the world ; upon whose vertical point began the age of Grace , that still continues , which is the clear afternoon , and full vigour of the World , though now in its sensible declination : after this , there shall be no time , but eternity . These then are they , which both the Prophets and Apostles have stiled the last days ; not onely in respect of the times that went before them , but in regard that no time shall follow them : neither have we reason to bogle at the large latitude of sixteen hundred years ; there was neither of the two other periods of age , but were longer then this : Besides , how ever , childehood and youth have their fixed terms which they ordinarily pass not , yet the duration of old age is indefinite : We have in our youth known some gray-heads that have continued vigorous , till we have lived to match them in the colour of their livery . And if this be ( as it is ) the Evening of the World , do we not see much difference of time in the shutting in of the Light ? A Summers Evening , is a Winters day ; but if these were to the Apostles the last days , how can they be other then in the last hour , yea , the last minute unto us ? Why do we not put our selves into a constant expectation of the end of all things , and set our selves in a meet posture for the receit of our returning Saviour ? XII . It is a feeling and experimental expression that the Apostle gives of a Christian , That he looks not on the things which are seen ; not that his eyes are so dim as old Isaacs , that he cannot discern them , or that his inward senses are so stupified , that he cannot judg of their true value : but that , taking an exact view of these earthly things , he discries so much vanity in them , as that he findes them not worthy to be lookt at with the full bent of his desires ; like as it is not the meer sight of a strange beauty that is forbidden ( for a man may as well look upon a fair face , as upon a good picture ) but a setled and fixed aspect , that feeds the eye , and draws the heart to a sinful concupiscence : Thus doth not the Christian look upon the things that are seen , as making them the full scope , and aym of his desires and affections : So far he takes notice of them , as to make his best ( that is , lawful and moderate ) use of them ; not so , as to make them the chief object of his contemplation , the main drift of his cares . It is well observed by S. Basil , that as there are two contrary ways , the broad , and the narrow ; so there are two guides , as contrary , Sense and Faith : Sense presents to us the pleasing delights of this world , on the one side ; on the other , the present afflictions and persecutions that attend a good profession : Faith lays before us the glorious things of a future life , and the endless miseries and torments abiding for sinful souls in the world to come : Now , it is not for every one to deny al credit to his sense , alluring him with all present , and visible pleasures , and discouraging him with the terror & pain of present and visible afflictions , and to yield himself hood-winkt , to be led by Faith , forepromising onely better things afar off , and foreadmonishing him of dangers , future and invisible . Faith onely is that heroical vertue , which makes a man with an holy contempt to overlook all the pleasing baits of the world , and with a brave courage and fortitude to despise all the menaces , and painful inflictions of his present fury : This works our eyes , not to look upon the things which we cannot but see , the present shews of the world , whether alluring , or terrifying : Had Lot but lookt back on Sodom ; the pleasant plain of Sodom , that lay like the Garden of God behinde his back , he had never escaped into the mountain : Had the glorious Protomartyr fixed his eyes onely upon his persecutors , his heart could not but have failed , to see the fire in their faces , the sparkling of their eyes , the grinding of their teeth , the bending of their brows , the stopping of their ears , their furious runing upon him , their violent halings and draggings ; and lastly , a whole volly of stones discharged mortally upon him ; he had been utterly daunted with such an impetuosity of death : But he , as not seeing any of this pomp , and ostentation of horror , looks up stedfastly to Heaven , and there sees ( that which might well make him blinde to all other visible objects ) the Heavens open , and Jesus standing at the right hand of God ; and upon this sight , he shut up his eyes , and slept . The true Christian then , hath with holy Job , made a covenant with his eyes , not to look upon , either the cruel insolencies of the raging world with fear and dejectedness , or on the tempting vanities of the world with amorous glances ; but with a sober and constant resolution entertains the objects of both kindes . Very justly did Tertullian jeer that Heathen Philosopher , who pulled out his eyes to avoyd concupiscence ; and can tell him , that a Christian can hold his eyes , and yet behold Beauty unbewitched ; and can be at once open-eyed to nature , and blinde to lust : and what the Apostle said of the Use , he can practise of the sight of the world , and earthly objects ; he can so behold them , as if he beheld them not . How oft have we , in a deep study fixed our eyes upon that , which we , the while thought not upon , neither perceived that we saw ? So doth the Christian to these worldly glories , pleasures , profits , whiles his minde and affections are on the things above , where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God. There , Lord , let me behold those things which cannot yet be seen , but shall , once , in the sight of them make me blessed : And let me not look on the things that are seen ; for the things that are seen are temporary , but the things which are not seen , are eternal . XIII . There is not more strangeness then significance in that charge of the Apostle , That we should put on the Lord Jesus Christ . The soul is ( as it were ) a body ; not really and properly so , according to the gross error of Tertullian ; but by way of allusion : This body of the soul , then , may not be naked , but must be clad ; as our first parents were ashamed of their bodily nakedness , ( and so still are all their ( not savage ) posterity , ) so may we of our spiritual . Every sinner is naked ; those rags that he hath , are so far from hiding his nakedness , that they are part of it ; his fairest moralities are but glittering sins , and his sins are his nakedness : Aaron had made Israel naked to their shame ; not so much in that they were stripped of their earings , as that they were enwrapped in the sin of idolatry . No marvel if we run away , and hide us from the presence of God , as our first parents did , whiles we are guilty to our selves of our Spiritual deformity : As then we are bodily naked , when we come into the world , so we are spiritually naked whiles we are of the world ; neither can it be either safe , or comely for us , till we be covered : There is no clothing can fit the soul but the Lord Jesus Christ ; all other robes in the wardrobe of Earth , or Heaven , are too short , too straight ; like those which the scorn of Hanun put upon Davids messengers , reaching but to the hams ; for though the soul of man be finite , the sin of the soul is scarce so ; and that sin must be covered , else there can be no safety for the soul , according to that of the Psalmist : Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven , whose sin is covered : None therefore but the robes of an infinite Righteousness , can cover the soul so wofully dressed ; none therefore but the Lord Jesus Christ , who is God blessed for ever , can cover the soul , that it may not appear unrighteous ; or can cleanse the soul that it may not be unrighteous ; and cleansed it must be , ere the Lord Jesus can be put on : We shall wrong his perfit holiness , if we think we can slip him on , as a case , over our beastly rags : It is with us , as with Joshua the high Priest ; The filthy garments must first be taken off , and then the Lord shall say unto us : Behold , I have caused thine iniquity to pass from thee , and I will clothe thee with change of rayment . We put on a garment when we apply it all over to our body ; so as that part which is clothed , appears not , but is defended from the air , and from the eye : if we have truely put on the Lord Jesus , nothing of ours is seen , but Christ is all in all , to us ; although this application goes yet deeper ; for we so put him on , that we not onely put our selves into him , but also put him into our selves , by a mutual kinde of Spiritual incorporation . We put him on then , upon our Intellectual parts , by knowing him , by beleeving on him . ( This is eternal life to know thee , and whom thou hast sent , saith our Saviour ; ) and for Faith , no grace doth so sensibly apprehend him , and make him so feelingly ours . We put him on upon our wills , and affections , when we take pleasure in him , when we love him , delight in him , and prefer him to our chiefest joy . Thus do we put him on ; as our Lord , in our humble and dutiful subjection ; as our Jesus , in our faithful affiance ; as Christ , the anointed of God , to be our King , in all holy obedience ; our Priest , in our willing consecration to him ; our Prophet , in our cheerful readiness to be instructed by him : How happy are we , if we be thus decked ; we prank up these poor carcasses of ours gaily , with no small expence ; and when we have done , the stuff , or the fashion , or both , wears out to nothing : But , here is a garment that will never be out of fashion ; Jesus Christ yesterday , and to day , and the same for ever ; yea , the same to us : here , we put him on in Grace , there , in eternal Glory . The Israelites were fourty years in the wilderness , yet their shooes not worn , their apparel not impaired ; but this attire shall not onely hold good in the time of our wandring in this desart , but after we are come into the Canaan of glory , and is best at last . Wherefore do we put on our choisest attire on some high days , but to testifie the cheerfulness of our hearts : Let thy garment be white , saith the Preacher , for now God accepteth thy works : Mephibosheth changed not his raiment since David went out , as one that would have the sorrow of his heart seen in the neglect of his clothes ; although many a one under a gay coat hath an heavy heart , but this attire doth not onely testifie , but make cheerfulness in the soul ; Thou hast given me more joy of heart , then they had in the time that their corn and their wine increased ; and , In thy presence is the fulness of joy ; what can this apparel of ours do but keep us from a blast , or a showre ? it is so far from safeguarding the soul , that it many times wounds it , and that to the death . It was one of the main quarrels against the rich glutton , that he was every day clothed in purple , and byss : How many souls shall once wish that their bodies had been ever either naked , or clad with hair-cloth ? But this aray , as it is infinitely rich and beautiful , so it is as surely defensative of the soul ; and is no less then armor of proof against all assaults , all miseries . What a deal of cost and pains do we bestow upon these wretched bodies of ours , onely to make them pleasing and lovely to the eye of some beholders , as miserable , perhaps , as our selves ; and yet when we have all done , we are ( it may be ) no better then hard-favord , and unhandsome creatures , and contemptible in those eyes from whom we desired most approbation ; Jezebel , for all her licking , is cast out of the window , and troden to dirt in the streets : But this robe we can not wear , and not be amiable in the eyes of the holiest : Behold thou art fair , my beloved ; behold thou art fair , and there is no spot in thee : Lo , in this case , the apparel makes the man ; neither is it in the power of any spiritual deformity , to make us other then lovely , in the sight of our God , whiles we have Christ put on upon us . What ever therefore become of the outward man , let it be my care that my soul be vested with my Lord Jesus ; so shall I be sure , to be safe , rich , amiable here , and hereafter glorious . It was part of our Saviours charge upon the mount , Take no care what to put on ; but it must be the main care of our lives , how to put on Christ upon our souls : This is the prime stole wherewith the father of the Prodigal , graceth his returned son ; the heaven of heavens is not worth such another ; when I have once got this on my back , I shall say , though in a contrary sense , with the Spouse in the Canticles : I have put on my coat , how shall I put it off ? I have washed my feet , how shall I defile them ? XIIII . With how devout passion doth the Psalmist call to all the works of the Almighty to praise him ; as well supposing , that every creature ( even those that have no tongues to speak for themselves ) yet have a tongue to praise their Maker ; The heavens declare the glory of God , and the firmament sheweth his handy work ; Day unto day uttereth speech , and night unto night sheweth knowledg : There is no speech nor language , where their voyce is not heard ; neither is the very earth defective in this duty : Every plant sayes , look on me , and acknowledg , the life , colour , form , smell , fruit , force that I have from the power of my Creator : every worm and flie sayes , look on me , and give God the praise of my living , sense , and motion : every bird sayes ; hear me , and praise that God who hath given me these various feathers , and taught me these several notes : every beast , whiles he bellows , bleats , brays , barks , roars , sayes , It is God that hath given me this shape , this sound ; yea the very mute fishes , are in their very silence , vocal , in magnifying the infinite wisdom and power of him that made them , and placed them in those watery habitations ; Let every thing that hath breath saith the Psalmist , praise the Lord. Yea the very winds whistle , and the sea roars out the praise of the Almighty , who both raises , and allays them at pleasure ; what a shame were it for man , to whom alone God hath given an understanding heart , a nimble tongue , and articulate language , wherein he can express his rational thoughts , to be wanting to this so universal devotion ? and to be as insensible of the great works of God , as the ground that he treads upon ? If others shall be thus unthankfully dumb , Yet praise thou the Lord , O my soul , and all that is within me bless his holy name ; whiles I live will I praise the Lord ; I will sing praises to my God whilest I have any being . But alas Lord thou knowest , I cannot so much as will to praise thee , without thee ; do thou fill my heart with holy desires , and my mouth with songs of thanksgiving . XV. It may seem a strange errand upon which our Saviour tells us he came into the world ; I am come to send fire on the earth : When the two fervent Disciples would have had fire sent down from Heaven upon but a Samaritan Village , our Saviour rebuked them , and told them they knew not of what spirit they were ; yet here , he makes it his own business , to send fire on the earth : Alas ( may we think ) we have fire too much already ; how happy were it rather , if the fire which is kindled in the world , were well quenched ; and what is the main drift of the Prince of darkness but fire ? If not to send fire down from Heaven , upon the inhabitants of the earth ; yet , to send the inhabitants of the earth down to the fire of hell ? As then we finde divers kindes of material fire , Celestial , Elementary , Domestique , Artificial , Natural ; so there is no less variety of spiritual fires : It was in fiery , cloven , tongues , wherein the Holy Ghost descended upon the Apostles , in their Pentecost ; and even this fire did our Saviour come to send down on the earth : Thy word was in mee as fire , saith the Prophet ; and did not our harts burn within us ( said the two Disciples , in their walk to Emaus ) whiles he talked with us ; This fire he also came to send : Heavenly Love , and holy Zeal are fire ; Many waters cannot quench love . My zeal hath consumed me , saith the Psalmist : and these fires our Saviour came to send into the hearts of men ; holy thoughts are no other then the beams of celestial fire , My heart was hot within me ; whiles I was musing , the fire burned , and these , we know he sends : He maketh his Angels spirits , and his ministers a flame of fire : These he sends forth to the earth to minister for them that shall be heirs of of salvation : Besides these , afflictions and persecutions are fire : We have passed through fire and water : Beloved , think it not strange concerning the fiery tryal , which is to try you , as if some strange thing had happened to you : and even these are of his sending ; The Lord hath kindled a fire in Zion , and it hath devoured the foundations thereof . There is no evil in the city , but the Lord hath done it : The Lord hath done that which he had devised , he hath thrown down , and not pitied . But this expression of our Saviour goes yet deeper , and alludes to the effect of Separation , which follows upon the fire of our tryal : When the lump of Oar is put into the furnace , the fire tryes the pure mettal from the dross , and makes an actual division of the one from the other ; so doth Christ by his Word , and Spirit ; even he that is the Prince and God of Peace , comes to set division in the world . Surely , there are holy quarrels worthy of his engagement ; for , as the flesh lusteth and warreth against the spirit , so the spirit fighteth against the flesh ; and this duel may well beseem God for the Author , and the Son of God for the setter of it : these second blows make an happy fray . Nothing is more properly compared then discord to fire ; this , Christ ( the first thing he does ) sets in every heart : there is all quietness , secure ease , and self-contentment in the soul , till Christ come there : How should it be other , when Satan sways all without resistance ? but when once Christ offers to enter , there are straight civil wars in the soul betwixt the old man , and the new ; and it fares with the heart , as with an house divided in it self , wherein the husband and the wife are at variance ; nothing is to be heard , but unquiet janglings , open brawlings , secret opposition ; the houshold takes part , and professes a mutual vexation : This Spiritual self-division , where ever it is , though it be troublesom , yet it is cordial ; it puts the soul into the state of Rebecca●s womb ; which barren , yielded no pain ; but when an Esau and Jacob were conceived , and strugling within , yielded for the time , no ease ; yet this was that which caused her just joy , That she had not so much children , as nations in her womb ; even so the trouble of this inward conflict is abundantly requited with the joy of this assurance , That now Christ is come into our soul , and is working his own desired ends , in , and upon us . Let vain and sensual hearts please themselves in their inward peace and calmness ; there cannot be a greater signe of gracelesness and disfavor of God ; When they shall say Peace , Peace , then shall come upon them sudden destruction : The old word was , No safety in War ; here it is contrary , It is this intestine war of the heart , with fire and sword to our corruptions , that must bring us true rest for the present , and hereafter eternal peace and happiness . Now , Lord , since it is thy desire that this fire should be kindled , kindle thou and enflame my heart with a fervent desire , and endeavor that this thy desire may be accomplished in me : Set me at war with my self , that I may be at peace with thee . XVI . In all that we have to do with God , he justly requires and expects from us , an awful disposition of heart towards his infiniteness ; hereupon it was that he delivered his Law in thunder , fire , smoke , and all dreadful magnificence ; And when upon the same day , he would send down his Spirit , for the propagation of the Gospel , it was done with an astonishing Majesty ; with a sound from Heaven , as of a rushing mighty wind , and with the apparition of cloven and fiery tongues : And as it was thus in the descent of the Holy Ghost in the miraculous gifts ; so it is in the sanctifying Graces : Seldom ever doth God by them seize upon the heart , but with a vehement concussion going before : That of S t Pauls conversion , was extraordinary and miraculous , but in some degree it is thus , in every soul ; We are struck down first , and are made sensible of our spiritual blindness , ere our full call be accomplished ; as it was with Elijah in the Mount of Horeb , There came first a strong wind , that tore the Rocks , and Mountains , and after that , an earth-quake , then a fire , before the still small voyce ; so it is usually in our brests , ere the comfortable voyce of Gods Spirit speak to our hearts , there must be some blustrings , and flashes of the Law : It is our honor , and his favor , that we are allowed to love God ; it is our duty to fear him : We may be too familiar in our love , we cannot be too awful in our fear . XVII . All valuations of these outward things are arbitrary , according to the opinion of their pleasure , or their rarity , or the necessity of their use : Did not mens mindes set a price upon mettals , what were they better then some other entrails of the earth , or one better then other ? If by publike law the mint were ordained to be onely supplyed by our stanneries , how currantly would they pass for more precious then silver mines ? To an Indian , a bracelet of worthless Beads is estimated above his Gold ; an hungry Esau values a mess of pottage above his birth-right : In the siege of Samaria an Asses head was sold for fourscore peeces of silver ; and a Kab of Doves dung for five peeces : We have heard that those of Angola have valued a Dog at the price of many slaves . In all these earthly commodities , the market rises , and falls according to conceit , and occasion ; neither is there any intrinsecal , and setled worth in any of them ; onely Spiritual things , as Vertue and Grace are good in themselves ; and so carry their infinite value in them , that they make their owner absolutely rich , and happy : When therefore I see a rich man hugging his bags , and admiring his wealth , I look upon that man with pity , as knowing the poorness of that pelf wherein he placeth his felicity ; neither can I behold him with other eyes , then those , wherewith , a discreet European sees a savage Indian priding himself in those trifles , which our children have learned to contemn : On the other side when I see a man rich in the endowments of minde , well-fraught with knowledg , eminent in goodness , and truly gracious , I shall rise up to that man ( how homely so ever his outside be ) as the most precious and excellent peece which this world can afford . XVIII . Should I but see an Angel , I should look ( with Manoah ) to dye no other death then the sight of that glory ; and yet even that Angel is fain to hide his face , as not able to behold the infinite Majesty of God his Creator : When Moses did but talk with God in the Mount , for fourty days , his face did so shine , that the Israelites could not look upon the lustre of his countenance , even the very presence of the Divine Majesty not onely hath , but communicates glory : Lord , that I could see but some glimpse of the reflection of those glorious beams of thine upon my soul ; how happy should I be in this vision , whose next degree is perfectly beatifical . XIX . As good , so evil is apt to be communicative of it self ; and this so much more , as it meets with subjects more capable of evil then good ; the breath of a plague-sick man taints the air round about him ; yea , the very sight of blear eyes infects the sound ; and one yawning mouth stretcheth many jaws : How many have we known , that have been innocent in their retiredness , miserably debaucht with leud conversation ? Next to being good , is , to consort with the vertuous ; It is the most merciful improvement of an holy power to separate the precious from the vile ; it is the highest praise of a constant goodness , for a Lot to be righteous in the midst of Sodom . XX. We are all apt to put off the blame of our miscarriages from our selves : Even in paradise we did so : It was the woman , saith Adam , it was the Serpent , saith the woman : How have we heard fond gamesters cast the blame of their ill luck upon the standers by , which intermedled nothing but by a silent eye-sight : So the idolatrous Pagans of old , though flagitiously wicked , yet could impute their publike judgments to none but the Christians , whose onely innocence was their protection from utter ruine ; So foolishly partial doth our self-love render us to our own demerits , that all are guilty save our selves : Yea , rather then we will want shifts , our very stars shall be blamed ; which are no more accessary to our harms , then our eyes are to the Eclipses of their most eminent Lights . As on the contrary , we are ready to arrogate unto our selves those blessings , which the meer bounty of Divine Providence hath cast upon us ; whereto we could not contribute so much as an hand to receive them , but by the mercy of the giver : It cannot be well with me , till I have learned to correct this palpable injustice in both ; challenging to my self all my errors , and guilt of sufferings , and yielding to God the praise his own free and gracious beneficence . XXI . How profitable and beneficial a thing is affliction ; especially to some dispositions more then other : I see some trees that will not thrive , unless their roots be laid bare ; unless ( besides pruning ) their bodies be gashed and sliced ; others , that are too luxuriant , except divers of their blossoms be seasonably pulld off , yield nothing : I see too rank corn , if it be not timely eaten down , may yield something to the barn , but little to the granary : I see some full bodies , that can enjoy no health without strong evacuations , blood-lettings , fontinels ; such is the condition of our spiritual part : It is a rare soul that can be kept in any constant order without these smarting remedies ; I confess mine cannot : How wilde had I run , if the rod had not been over me ? Every man can say he thanks God for ease ; for me , I bless God for my troubles . XXII . When I consider what an insensible Atome man is , in comparison of the whole body of the Earth ; and what a meer Center-point the Earth is , in comparison of the vast circumference of Heaven ; and what an almost-infinite distance there is betwixt this point of Earth , and that large circle of the Firmament ; and therewithal think of the innumerable number , and immense greatness of those heavenly Luminaries : I cannot but apprehend how improbable it is , that those Stars should , at such a distance , distinguish betwixt one man , and another ; betwixt one limb of the same body , and another ; betwixt one spot of Earth , and another ; and in so great a mixture , and confusion of influences , should give any distinct intimation of particular events in nature ; and much more of meer contingencies of arbitrary affairs . As for the Moon , by reason of her vicinity to the Earth , and sensible predominance over moysture ; and for the Sun , the great magazin of Light and Heat , I acknowledg their powerful ( but unpartial ) operations upon this whole globe of Earth and Waters , and every part of it , not without just wonder and astonishment ; the other Stars may have their several vertues and effects , but their marvelous remoteness , and my undiscernable nothingness , may seem to forbid any certain intelligence of their distinct workings upon me : But whether these glorious Lights give , or take any notice of such an imperceptible mite as I ; sure I am , there is great reason I should take notice of them ; of their beauteous lustre , of their wonderful magnitude , of their regular motion ; and be transported with admiration of that omnipotent power , wisdom , providence , which created this goodly and mighty host of Heaven , and guides them in their constant march , without the least deviation from their first setting out , to the last moment of their final conflagration . O the narrowness of my wretched heart , that affords not room enough for wonder at that which I cannot but see ! XXIII . It becomes not us to be niggardly where our Saviour intends bounty : How glad should we be rather to ampliate the benefit of the great Work of our Redeemer ? but surely , I cannot see upon what warrant that favor is grounded , that enlargeth the fruit of Christs redemption , to the Angels : the good needed it not , the evil were not capable of it ; onely mankinde was captiv'd , and redeemable by that invaluable ransom . Doubtless those blessed Spirits have their part in the joy and gratulation of the infinite mercy of our deliverance ; for if they rejoyce at the conversion of one sinner , what triumph do we think there is in Heaven at the Universal Redemption of all beleevers ? The propriety of this favor hath reason to ingage us so much the more : Lord , thy mercy is free , and boundless ; thou wouldst pass by the lapsed Angels , and leave them in their sin , and their chains ; and onely rescue miserable man out of their Hell. O for an heart that might be in some measure answerable to so infinite mercy ; and that might be no less captiv'd to thy love , then it is freed by thy Redemption . XXIIII . Men do commonly wrong themselves with a groundless expectation of good ; fore-promising to themselves all fair terms in their proceedings , and all happy success in the issue ; boding nothing to themselves but what they wish ; even the man after Gods own heart could say , In my prosperity I said , tush , I shall never be removed ; wherein their misreckoning makes their disappointment so much the more grievous : Had not David made such account of the strength and stability of his Mountain , it could not have so much troubled him to have it levell'd with the Plain ; on the contrary , the evils which we look for , fall so much the less heavily , by how much we are fore-prepared for their entertainment ; what ever by-accidents I may meet withal besides , I have two fixed matches that I must inevitably incounter with , Age , and Death ; the one is attended with many inconveniences , the other with much horror : let me not flatter my self with hopes of jollity , and ease . My comforts for Heaven shall ( I trust ) never fail me ; but for the present world , it shall be well for me , if I can without too much difficulty scramble out of the necessary miseries of life ; and without too much sorrow crawl to my grave . XXV . Heaven hath many tongues that talk of it , more eyes to behold it , but few hearts that rightly affect it : Ask any Christian ( especially ) whom ye shall meet with ; he will tell you , thither he shapes his course ; there he hath pitcht his hopes , and would think himself highly wronged by that man , who should make doubt of either his interest or speed : But , if we shall cast our eyes upon the lives of men , or they reflect their eyes upon their own bosomes , the hypocrisie will too palpably discover it self : for surely , which way so ever the faces look , the hands and feet of the most men move hell-ward : If malice , fraud , cruelty , oppression , injustice , excess , uncleanness , pride , contention , covetousness , lyes , heresies , blasphemies , disobedience be the way thither , wo is me , how many walk in that wide and open road to destruction ? but even there where the heart pretends to innocence , let a man strictly examine his own affections , he shall finde them so deeply earthed , that he shall be forced to confess his claim to Heaven is but fashionable : Ask thy self but this one question , O man , whatsoever thou art , ask it seriously ; Might I this very hour go to Heaven , am I willing and desirous to make a present change of this life for a better ? and tell me sincerely , what answer thou receivest from thine own heart . Thy judgment cannot but tell thee that the place is a thousand times better ; that the condition would be infinitely advantageous , to exchange baseness for glory , misery for blessedness , time for eternity , a living death , for a life immortal : If thou do now fumble , and shuffle , and demur upon the resolution , be convinced of thine own worldliness , and infidelity ; and know , that if thy heart had as much of Heaven as thy tongue , thou couldst not but say with the chosen vessel , I desire to depart hence , and to be with Christ , which is far better . XXVI . There is no earthly pleasure whereof we shall not soon grow weary ; and be as willing to intermit , as ever we were to entertain it ; and if the use of it continue , the very frequency makes it disregarded ; so as that which at first we esteemed rare and precious , is now looked upon as common and despicable ; and if it be such , as that our impetuous affection is too much transported with a present fruition , we are so much the more distempered in the loss : on the contrary , those painful yokes , which at the first imposing seemed insupportable , grow tolerable by custom and long acquaintance ; so as I know not how it comes to pass , that time hath a contrary power , both to aggravate , and lighten evils : those pleasures are onely worthy to carry our hearts , which are measured by no less then eternity ; and those pains most justly formidable which know neither end , nor remission . XXVII . The nearer our Saviour drew to his glory , the more humility he expressed : His followers , were first his servants , and he their Master ; then his disciples and he their Teacher ; soon after they were his friends , and he theirs ; straightways after his resurrection , and entrance into an immortal condition , they were his brethren ; Go to my brethren , and say unto them , I ascend to my Father , and your Father . Lastly , they are incorporated into him , and made partakers of his glory , That they also may be one with us , saith he , I in them , and thou in me : that they may be made perfect in one ; and the glory which thou gavest me , I have given them . O Saviour , was this done for the depressing of thy self , or for the exaltation of us ; or rather for both ? how couldst thou more depress thy self , then thus to match thy self with us poor wretched creatures ? how couldst thou more exalt us , then to raise us unto this entireness with thee the All-glorious , and eternal Son of God ? how should we learn of thee to improve our highest advancement to our deepest humility , and so to regard each other , that when we are greatest , we should be least ? XXVIII . How apt we are to misconstrue the Spirit of God , to our own disadvantage ? whiles the blessed Apostle bids us to work out our salvation with fear and trembling ; he doth not bid us to work it out with doubt and distrust : It is the Psalmists charge , that we should serve the Lord with fear , and rejoyce in him with trembling ; so as there is a fear without diffidence , and a trembling that may consist with joy ; trembling is an effect of fear , but this fear which we must affect is reverential , not slavish , not distrustful : Indeed , when we look upon our selves , and consider our own frailties and corruptions , and Gods infinite justice , we have too just cause of doubt and dejection , yea ( were it not for better helps ) of utter despair ; but when we cast up our eyes to the power of him that hath undertaken for us , and the faithfulness of him that hath promised ; and the sure mercies of him that hath begun his good work in us , we can fear with confidence , and rejoyce in our trembling : For what are our sins to his mercies , our unworthiness to his infinite merits , our weaknesses to his omnipotence ! I will therefore so distrust my self , that I will be stedfastly confident in the God of my salvation ; I will so tremble before the glorious Majesty of my God , that I may not abate of the joy of his never-failing mercy . XXIX . What a large and open hand hath our God ? how infinitely doth his bounty transcend not the practise onely , but the admiration of man ? We think it well if upon often asking we can receive small favors : if after long delay , we can be gratified with a condescent ; and if we have received one curtesie , that is a bar to a second ; whereas our munificent God gives us not onely what we ask , but what we ask not ; and therefore before we ask : yea , it is he that gives us to ask , neither could we so much as crave good things , if he did not put into us those holy desires ; yea , he not onely gives us blessings , before we ask ; but he gives us the best things , a right to eternal glory , before we are at all , yea , before the world was ; and as he prevents us in time , so he exceeds our thoughts in measure , giving us more then we ask : Rachel would have a Son ; God gives her two : Abraham sues that Ishmael may live ; God gives him to prosper and to be the father of many Princes : Yet more , he gives us what we cannot ask . The dumb Demoniack could not sue for himself ; his very silence was vocal , and receives what he would , and could not request : yea lastly , which is the great improvement of his mercy , he gives us against our asking ; our ignorance sues against our selves , requiring hurtful things , he will not suffer our hearts and tongues to wrong us ; but withholds what we unfitly crave , and gives us what we should , and do not crave ; as the fond childe cryes to his father for a knife ; he reaches him a spoon that may feed , and not hurt him . O the Ocean of divine bounty , boundless , bottomless ; O our wretched unworthiness , if we be either niggardly to our selves in not asking blessings , or unthankful to our God in not acknowledging them ! XXX . Infidelity and faith look both through the same perspective glass , but at contrary ends : Infidelity looks through the wrong end of the glass , and therefore sees those objects which are neer , a far off ; and makes great things little ; diminishing the greatest spiritual blessings ; and removing far from us , threatned evils : Faith looks at the right end , and brings the blessings that are far off in time , close to our eye ; and multiplies Gods mercies which in a distance lost their greatness : Thus the Father of the faithful saw his seed possessed of the promised land , when as yet he had no seed , nor was likely to have any ; when the seed which he should have , should not enjoy it till after four hundred years ; thus that good Patriark saw Christs day , and rejoyced : Thus our first parent comforted himself after his ejection out of paradise , with the foresight of that blessed seed of the woman , which should be exhibited almost four thousand years after : still , and ever faith is like it self ; what use were there of that grace , if it did not fetch home to my eye things future , and invisible ? That this dissolved body shall be raised out of the dust , and enlived with this very soul wherewith it is now animated ; and both of them put into a condition eternally glorious , is as clearly represented to my soul in this glass , as if it were already done . Faithful is he that hath promised , which will also do it . XXXI . Who can think other then with scorn of that base and unworthy conceit which hath been entertained by some , that our Saviour lived here on earth upon alms ? He that vouchsafed to take upon him the shape of a servant , would have hated to take upon him the trade of a begger : Service is a lawful calling ; beggery not so : he that gave life to all creatures , could take a maintenance from them without asking : he that did command the fish to bring the tribute money for himself and his disciples , and could multiply a few loaves and fishes for the relief of thousands ; could rather raise a sustenance to himself , and his , then beg it : But here was neither need , nor cause ; even ordinary means failed not ; many wealthy followers , who had received cures and miraculous deliverances ( besides heavenly doctrine ) from him , ministred to him of their substance : neither was this out of charity , but out of duty ; in the charge which he gave to his disciples ( when he sent them by payrs to preach abroad ) he tells them the laborer is worthy of his wages ; and can we think this rule doth not much more hold concerning himself ? had not himself and his family been furnished with a meet stock raised from hence ; what purse was it which Judas bore ? and how could he be a theif in his office , if his bags were empty ? He therefore that could say , It is a more blessed thing to give , then to receive ; certainly would not choose ( when it was in his power ) rather to receive then give : The earth is the Lords , and the fulness thereof ; and he distributes it as he pleaseth , amongst the children of men : For me , I hope I shall have the grace to be content with whatsoever share shall fall to my lot ; but my prayer shall be that I may beg of none but God. XXXII . What a madness it is in us to presume , on our interest in Gods favor , for the securing of our sinfulness from judgment ? The Angels were deeper in it then we mortals can ever hope to be , in these houses of clay ; yet long since are ugly Devils ; and they which enjoyed the liberty of the glorious Heavens , are now reserved in everlasting chains of darkness ; And if we look down upon earth , what darling had God in the world but Israel ? This was his first born , his lot , his inheritance ; of whom he said , Here I have a delight to dwell . And now , where is it ? O the woful desolations of that select people ! What is it to tell of the suffossion of her vineyards ? vastation of her tents ? the devouring of her land ? demolition of walls ? breaking down Altars ? burning of Cities ? spoyling of houses ? dashing in peices their children , ravishing their wives , killing of their Priests , eating of their own children of but a span long , and a thousand such woful symptomes of war : the Psalmist hath said a word for all ( in a just , but contrary sense ) Destructions are come to a perpetual end ; what destruction can be more , when there is no Israel ? How is that wretched nation vanished no man knows whither ! so as it was Jezebels curse that nothing was left , whereof it could be said , this was Jezebel , So there is not one peece of a man left in all the world , of whom we can say ; This was of one of the tribes of Israel : as for those famous Churches , which were , ( since that ) honored with the preaching , and pens of the blessed Apostles , where are they now to be lookt for , but amongst the rubbish of cursed Mahumetism ? O that we could not be high-minded , but fear . XXXIII . What a woful conversion is here ? The sting of death is sin ; and the sting of sin is death ; both meet in man , to make him perfectly miserable ; Death could not have stung us ; no , could not have been at all , if it had not been for sin : And sin , though in it self extreamly heinous yet were not so dreadful , and horrible , if it were not attended with death : How do we owe our selves to the mercy of a Saviour , that hath freed us from the evil of both ; having pulled out the sting of death which is sin , that it cannot hurt us ; and having taken such order with the sting of sin , which is death , that in stead of hurting , it shall turn beneficial to us : Lord , into what a safe condition hast thou put us ? If neither sin , nor death can hurt us , what should we fear ? XXXIV . How unjustly hath the presumption of blasphemous cavillers been wont to cast the envy of their condemnation meerly upon the absolute will of an unrespective power , as if the damnation of the creature were onely of a supreame will , not of a just merit ; the very name of Justice convinces them ; a punitive Justice cannot but suppose an offence : It is not for us to rack the brains , and strain the heart-strings of plain honest Christians with the subtilties of distinctions , of a negative , and positive reprobation , of causes and consequences ; truths meet for the Schools : It is enough that all Christian Divines ; the Synods both of Dort and Trent agree in this truth ; that never man is , was , can be miserable but for sin , yea , for his own sin ; The Prophet tells us so in terms , Why is the living man sorrowful , man suffereth for his sin : Nothing can be more true then that of Bildad the Shuhite , Behold , God will not cast away a perfect man : thy perdition is of thy self , O Israel . It is no less then rank blasphemy to make God the author of sin : Thou art the God that hast no pleasure in wickedness , neither shall any evil dwel with thee , saith the Psalmist ; our sin is our own , and the wages of sin is death ; he that doth the work earns the wages ; so then the righteous God is cleared both of our sin , and our death ; onely his justice pays us what we will needs deserve ; Have I any pleasure at all ( saith he ) that the wicked should die , and not that he should return from his ways and live ? wherefore return yea and live . What a wretched thing is a willful sinner that will needs be guilty of his own death ? Nothing is more odious amongst men , then for a man to be a felon of himself ; besides the forfeiture of his estate , Christian burial is denied him , and he is cast forth into the highway , with a stake pitcht through his body , so as every passenger that sees that woful monument is ready to say : There lyes the carcass , but where is the soul ? But so much more heinous is the self-felony of a wilful sinner , because it is immediatly acted upon the soul ; and carries him with pleasure in the ways of an eternal death . O Lord , cleanse thou me from my secret faults ; keep thy servant also from presumptuous sins , lest they get the dominion over me . XXXV . We are wont to say , That we ought to give even the Devil his due ; and surely , it is possible for us to wrong that malignant spirit , in casting upon him those evils which are not properly his : It is true , that he is the tempter ; and both injects evil motions , and draws them forth into act : but yet , all ill is not immediatly his ; we have enough besides , of our own : Every man , saith St. James , is tempted when he is drawn away of his own lust , and enticed ; then when lust hath conceived , it bringeth forth sin ; and sin when it is finished bringeth forth death ; Lo , both the lust , and the seducement are our own ; the sin is ours , the death ours : There are indeed diabolical suggestions which are immediatly cast into us by that wicked one ; but there are carnal tentations that are raised out of our own corrupt nature ; these need not his immediate hand ; he was the maine agent in our depravation ; but being once depraved we can act evil of our selves : And if Satan be the father of sin , our will is the mother ; and sin is the cursed issue of both : He could not make our sin without our selves ; we concur to our own undoing : It was the charge of the Apostle , That we should not give place to the Devil ; Lo , he could not take it , unless we gave it ; our will betrays us to his tyranny ; in vain shall we cry out of the malice and fraud of wicked spirits , whiles we nourish their complices in our bosomes . XXXVI . I cannot but think with what unspeakable joy old Simeon dyed , when , after long waiting for the consolation of Israel , he had now seen , the Lords Christ ; when I hear him say , Lord , now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace , according to thy word , for mine eyes have seen thy salvation ; Methinks I should see his soul ready to flie out of his mouth in an heavenly ravishment ; and even then upon its wing towards its glory ; for now his eyes saw , and his arms embraced , in Gods salvation , his own ; in Israels glory , his own : How gladly doth he now see death , when he hath the Lord of life in his bosome ? or how can he wish to close up his eyes with any other object ? yet when I have seriously considered it , I cannot see wherein our condition comes short of his : He saw the childe Jesus but in his swathing-bands , when he was but now entering upon the great work of our redemption ; we see him , after the full accomplishment of it , gloriously triumphing in Heaven : He saw him but buckling on his armor , and entring into the lists ; we see him victorious . Who is this that cometh from Edom with dyed garments from Bozra ; this that is glorious in his apparel , traveling in the greatness of his strength , mighty to save ? He could onely say : To us a childe is born , to us a son is given : We can say , Thou hast ascended on high , thou hast led captivity captive , thou hast received gifts for men : It is true , the difference is , he saw his Saviour with bodily eyes , we with mental ; but the eyes of our Faith are no less sure and unfailing , then those of Sense : Lord , why should not I , whose eyes have no less seen thy salvation , say , Now let thy servant depart , not in peace onely , but in a joyful sence of my instant glory . XXXVII . When I think on my Saviour in his agony , and on his cross , my soul is so clouded with sorrow , as if it would never be clear again : those bloody drops , and those dreadful ejulations ( methinks ) should be past all reach of comfort : but when I see his happy eluctation out of these pangs , and hear him cheerfully rendring his spirit into the hands of his Father ; when I finde him trampling upon his grave , attended with glorious Angels , and ascending in the chariot of a cloud to his Heaven ; I am so elevated with joy , as that I seem to have forgotten there was ever any cause of greif in those sufferings . I could be passionate to think , O Saviour , of thy bitter and and ignominious death , and most of all , of thy vehement struglings with thy fathers wrath for my sake , but thy conquest and glory takes me off , and calls me to Hallelujahs of joy and triumph ; Blessing , honor , glory , and power be unto him that sitteth upon the Throne , and unto the Lamb for ever and ever . XXXVIII . It is not hard to observe that the more holy any person is , the more he is afflicted with others sin : Lot vexed his righteous soul with the unclean conversation of the Sodomites ; Davids eyes gush't out rivers of water because men kept not the Law ; Those that can look with dry and undispleased eyes upon anothers sin , never truly mourned for their own : Had they abhorred sin , as sin , the offence of a God would have been grievous to them in whomsoever : It is a godless heart that doth not finde it self concerned in Gods quarrel ; and that can laugh at that , which the God of Heaven frowns at ; my soul is nearest to me , my sorrow therefore for my sin must begin at home , but it may not rest there ; from thence it shall diffuse it self all the world over : Who is offended , and I burn not ? who offendeth , and I weep not ? XXXIX . The world little considers the good advantage that is made of sins : surely the whole Church of God hath reason to bless God for Thomas his unbelief , not in the act , which was odious ( after so good assurances ) but in the issue his doubt proves our evidence ; and his confession ( after his touch had convinced him ) was more noble , then his incredulity was shameful . All his attendance upon Christ had not taught him so much divinity , as this one touch : Often had he said , my Lord , but never my God , till now : Even Peters confession ( though rewarded with the change of his name ) came short of this : The flame that is beaten down by the blast of the bellowes , rises higher then otherwise it would ; and the spring water that runs level in the Plain , yet if it fall low , it will therefore rise , high ; the shaken tree roots the deeper : Not that we should sin that grace may abound , God forbid ; he can never hope to be good that will be therefore ill , that he may be the better : but that our holy zeal should labor to improve our miscarriages to our spiritual gain , and the greater glory of that Majesty whom we have offended : To be bettered by grace it is no mastery ; but to raise more holiness out of sin , is a noble imitation of that holy God , who brings light out of darkness , life out of death . XL. Every man best knows his own complaints , we look upon the outsides of many , whom we think happy ; who in the meane time are secretly wrung with the inward sense of their own concealed sorrows , and under a smooth and calm countenance smother many a tempest in their bosome . There are those , whose faces smile , whiles their conscience gripes them closely within ; There are those that can dissemble their poverty , and domestick vexations , reserving their sighs till their back be turned ; that can pick their teeth abroad , when they are fasting , and hungry at home : and many a one forces a song when his heart is heavy : No doubt Naomi made many a short meal after her return to Bethlehem , yet did not whine to her great kinred in a bemoaning of her want : And good Hannah bit in many a grief , which her insulting rival might not see : On the contrary , there are many whom we pity as miserable , that laugh in their sleeve , and applaud themselves in their secret felicity ; and would be very loath to exchange conditions with those that commiserate them . A ragged Cynick likes himself at least as well as a great Alexander : The mortifyed Christian that knows both worlds , looks with a kinde of contented scorn upon the proud gallant , that contemns him ; as feeling that heaven within him , which the other is not capable to believe . It is no judging of mens real estate by their semblance ; nor valuing others worth by our own rate : And for our selves , if we have once laid sure grounds of our own inward contentment and happiness , it matters not greatly if we be mis-known of the world . XLI . For one man to give titles to another is ordinary ; but for the great God to give titles to a poor wretched man is no less then wonderful : Thus doth the Lord to Job ; There is none like him in the earth , a perfect and upright man : O what must he needs be , in whom his maker glories ! Lo ; who would have looked for a Saint in so obscure a corner of the east , and in so dark a time , before ever the Law gave light to the world ? yet even then the land of UZ yields a Job ; no time , no place can be any bar to an infinite mercy : Even this while , for ought I see , the Sun shined more bright in Midian then in Goshen : Gods election will be sure to finde out his own any where out of hell ; and if they could be there , even there also : Amongst all those idolatrous heathen , Job is perfect and upright ; his religion and integrity is so much the more glorious , because it is so ill neighbored ; as some rich Diamond is set off by a dark foyl . O the infinite goodness of the Almighty that picks out some few grains out of the large chaff-heap of the world , which he reserves for the granary of a blessed immortality : It is not of him that willeth , nor in him that runneth , but of God that hath mercy . We might well imagine that such a sprig must sprout out of the stock of faithful Abraham ; what other loyns were likely to yield so holy an issue ? And if his Sarah must be the mother of the promised seed , yet why might he not also raise a blessed seed from Keturah ? The birth doth not always follow the belly : even this second brood yields an heir of his fathers faith ; it is said , That to the sons of the Concubines Abraham gave gifts , and sent them away to the East : Surely this son of the Concubine carries away as rich a legacy of his fathers grace as ever was enjoyed by the Son of the promise at home . The gifts that Abraham gave to Midian were nothing to those gifts which the God of Abraham gives to this son of Midian ; who was perfect and upright , one that feared God and eschued evil . I perceive the holy and wise God meant to make this man a patern as of patience , so of all heavenly vertues ; he could not be fit for that use if he were not exquisite ; and what can be wanting to that man , of whom God holily boasts that he is Perfect ? And now what mettal is so fit to challenge the fire of affliction as this pure gold ? and who is so fit a match for the great Adversary as this Champion of God ? Never had he been put upon so hard a combat , if God had not well known both the strength that he had given him , and the happy success of his conflict : little doth that good man know what wager is laid on his head , but strongly incounters all his tryals : The Sabeans have bereft him of his Oxen ; the Chaldees of his Camels ; the fire from Heaven of his sheep ; the tempest of his children ; Satan of his health ; and had not his wife been left to him for his greatest cross , and his friends for his further tormentors , I doubt whether they had escaped . Lo there sits the great Potentate of the East , naked and forlorn in the ashes ; as destitute of all comforts , as full of painful boyls and botches ; scraping his loathsome hide with a potsheard ; yet even in that woful posture possessing his soul in patience , maintaining his innocence , justifying his Maker , cheering himself in his Redeemer , and happily triumphing over all his miseries , and at last made the great miroir of divine bounty to all generations : Now must Job pray for his freindly persecutors , and is so high in favor with God , that it is made an argument of extream wrath against Israel ; that though Noah , Daniel , and Job were in the land they should deliver none but their own souls : O God , this Saint could not have had this strength of invincible patience without thee : thou that rewardest it in him , didst bestow it upon him : it is thy great mercy to crown thine owne works in us : thy gifts are free , thou canst fortifie even my weak soul with the same powers , strengthen me with the same grace , and impose what thou wilt . XLII . As it shall be once in glory , so it is in grace , there are degrees of it : The Apostle that said of his auditors , they have received the holy Ghost as well as we , did not say ; they have received the holy Ghost as much as we : We know the Apostles had so much as to give it to others ; none besides them could do so : It is an happy thing to have any quantity of true sanctifiying grace at all ; every drop of water is water , and every grain of gold is gold , every measure of grace is precious : But who is there that when he is dry would take up with one drop of liquor when he might have more ? or if covetously minded , would sit down content with one dram of gold ? in such cases a little doth but draw on a desire of more : it is strange to see that in all other commodities we desire a fulness : If God give us fruit of our bodies , it contents us not to have an imperfect childe , but we wish it may have the full shape and proportion : and , when God hath answered us in that , we do not rest in the integrity of parts , but desire that it may attain to a fulness of understanding , and of stature ; and then lastly to a fulness of age : We would have full dishes , full cups , full cofers , full barns ; a fulness of all things , save the best of all , which is , the holy Ghost . Any measure of spiritual grace contents us ; so as we are ready to say with Esau : I have enough my brother . There is a sinful kinde of contentation , wherewith many fashionable Christians suffer themselves to be beguiled , to the utter undoing of their souls : for hereupon they grow utterly careless to get , what they think they have already : who cares to eat that is full cramed ? and by this means they live and die graceless : for had they ever tasted how sweet the Lord is in the Graces of his holy Spirit , they could never think they had enough ; and whiles they do think so , they are utterly uncapable of either having , or desiring more : As there is a sinful ; so there is an holy covetousness , which the more it hath , the more it affects : Lord make me thus covetous , and I cannot chuse but be rich ▪ XLIII . What a marvelous familiarity was this which Moses had with God : That the Lord spake unto Moses , face to face , as a man speaketh to his friend ! and yet more , that Moses so spake to God! what a bold and high request was that which Moses made to God : I beseech thee shew me thy glory , that is ( as it is there interpreted ) thy face ! that face which no man might see and live : Lo ; God had immediately before spoken to Moses even to his face , out of the cloudy pillar : that doth not satisfie his holily-ambitious soul : but , as he heard the voyce , so he must see the face of the Almighty : That cloudy pillar did sufficiently represent unto him the presence of the great God of Israel ; yet still he sues for a sight of his glory : This is no patern for flesh and blood ; far be it from our thoughts to aspire so high : Thy face , O God , will we seek : but in thy blessed ordinances , not in thy glorious and incomprehensible essence : It is not for me as yet to presume so far as to desire to see that infinite light which thou art , or that light wherewith thou art cloathed , or that light inaccessible wherein thou dwelest : Onely , now shew me the light of thy countenance in grace , and prepare my soul for that light of glory ; when I shall see as I am seen . XLIV . In the waters of life , the divine Scriptures , there are shallows , and there are deeps ; shallows where the lamb may wade , and deeps where the Elephant may swim : If we be not wise to distinguish , we may easily mis-carry : he that can wade over the foord , cannot swim through the deep ; and if he mistake the passage he drowns : What infinite mischeif hath arisen to the Church of God from the presumption of ignorant and unlettered men , that have taken upon them to interpret the most obscure Scriptures , and pertinaciously defended their own sense ? How contrary is this to all practise in whatsoever vocation ? In the Taylors trade , every man can stitch a seam , but every man cannot cut out a garment : In the Saylers art , every one may be able to pull at a cable , but every one cannot guide the helm : In the Physitians profession , every gossip can give some ordinary receits upon common experience ; but to finde the nature of the disease , and to prescribe proper remedies from the just grounds of art , is proper to the professors of that science ; and we think it absurd and dangerous to allow every ignorant Mountebank to practise : In matter of law , every plain country-man knows what belongs to distraining , impounding , replevying : but to give sound counsel to a clyent in a point of difficulty , to draw firm conveyances ; to plead effectually , and to give sound judgment in the hardest cases , is for none but Barristers , and Benchers : And shall we think it safe that in Divinity , which is the mistress of all Sciences , and in matters which may concern the eternal safety of the soul , every man should take upon him to shape his own coat , to steer his own way , to give his own dose , to put and adjudg his own case ? The old word was , that Artists are worthy to be trusted in their own trade : Wherefore hath God given to men skill in arts and tongues ? Wherefore do the aptest wits spend their times and studies from their infancy upon these sacred imployments , if men altogether inexpert in all the grounds , both of art and language , can be able to pass as sound a judgment in the depths of Theological truths , as they ? How happy were it if we could all learn ( according to that word of the Apostle ) to keep our selves within our own line : As Christians , the Scriptures are ours ; but to use , to enjoy ; to read , to hear , to learn , to meditate , to practise ; not to interpret according to our private conceit ; for this faculty we must look higher : The Priests lips are to preserve knowledg : and they shall seek the Law at his mouth : for he is the messenger of the Lord of hosts . XLV . When we see the year in his prime and pride , decked with beautiful blossoms , and all goodly varieties of flowers , cheered with the Musick of birds , and stated in a sweet and moderate temper of heat and cold ; how glad we are that we have made so good an exchange for an hard and chilling winter ; and how ready we could be to wish that this pleasant and happy season might last all the year long : But herein ( were our desires satisfied ) we should wish to our own great disadvantage : for if the spring were not followed with an intension of Summers heat , those fruits whose hopes we see in the bud and flower , could never come to any perfection : and even that succeeding fervor , if it should continue long , would be no less prejudicial to the health and life of all creatures ; and if there were not a relaxation of that vigorous heat in Autumn , so as the sap returns back into the root , we could never look to see but one years fruit . And thus also it is spiritually : if our prosperity were not intermixed with vicissitudes of crosses ; and if the lively beams of grace were not sometimes interchanged with cold desertions , we should never know what belongs to spiritual life : What should we do then , but be both patient of , and thankful for our changes ; and make no account of any constancy , till we attain to the Region of rest and blessedness ? XLVI . What fools doth the devil make of those men which would fain otherwise be accounted wise ? who would think that men could be so far forsaken of their reason , as to fall down before those stocks and stones which their own hands had carved ; to guide their enterprises by the fond auguries of the flying , or posture , or noyse of fowls ; or the inspection of the entrails of beasts ; to tye the confidence of their success to certain scrawls , and characters , which themselves have devised : to read their own or others fortunes in their hands or stars : to suffer themselves mocked with deceitful visions ? neither are his spiritual delusions less gross and palpable ; wise Solomon speaks of the wickedness of folly ; and we may no less truly invert it ; the folly of wickedness , the fool , saith our Saviour , builds his house upon the sand , so as it may be washt away with the next waves ; what other doth the foolish worldling , that builds all his hopes upon uncertain riches , momentany pleasures , deceitful favors ? The fool ( saith Solomon ) walketh in darkness ; the sinner walks in the darkness of ignorance , through the works of darkness , to the pit of darkness : The fool , saith the Preacher , knows not the way into the city : The worldling may perhaps hit the way through the golden gates of honor ; or down to the mines of wealth ; or to the flowry garden of pleasure ; but the way of true peace he knows not : he no more knows the way to Heaven , then if there were none : The fool ( saith the Psalmist ) hath said in his heart , there is no God ; Did not the wicked man say so , he durst not wilfully sin in the face of so mighty and dreadful an avenger . Lastly , the fool is apt to part with his patrimony for some gay toys : and how ready is the carnal heart to cast away the Favor of God , the inheritance of Heaven , the salvation of his soul , for these vain earthly trifles ? Holy men are wont to pass with the world for Gods fools ; ( alas ! how little do these censurers know to pass a true judgment of wisdom and folly ? he that was rapt into the third Heaven , tells us , That the foolishness of God is wiser then men , and the weakness of God stronger then men ; but this we are sure of , that wicked men are the devils fools ; and that judgments are prepared for scorners , and stripes for the back of fools . XLVII . There are some things which are laudable in man , but cannot be incident into God ; as a bashful shamefastness , and holy fear : And there are some dispositions blame-worthy in men , which are yet , in a right sence , holily ascribed unto God , as unchangeableness , and irrepentance : Attributes and qualities receive their limitations according to the meet subjects to which they belong ; with this sure rule , That whatsoever may import an infinite purity and perfection , we have reason to ascribe to our Maker ; whatever may argue infirmitie , misery , corruption , we have reason to take to our selves : Neither is it otherwise in the condition of men : One mans vertue is anothers vice ; so boldness in a woman , bashfulness in an old man , bounty in a poor man , parsimony in the great , are as foully unbeseeming , as boldness in a Soldier , bashfulness in a childe , bounty in the rich , parsimony in the poor , are justly commendable . It is not enough for us to know what is good in it self , but what is proper for us : else , we may be blemished with that which is anothers honor . XLVIII . It is easie to observe that there are five degrees of the digestion of our spiritual food : First it is received into the cell of the ear , and there digested by a careful attention ; then it is conveyed into the brain , and there concocted by due meditation , from thence it is sent down into the heart , and there digested by the affections ; and from thence it is conveyed to the tongue , in conference , and holy confession ; and lastly , it is thence transmitted to the hand , and there receives perfect digestion , in our action and performance : And as the life and health of the body cannot be maintained , except the material food pass through all the degrees of bodily concoction , no more can the soul live and prosper in the want of any of these spiritual degrees of digestion ; And as where the food is perfectly concocted , the body grows fat and vigorous ; so is it with the soul , where the spiritual repast is thus kindly digested : Were there not failings in all these degrees , the souls of men would not be so meager and unthriving as they are . Some there are that will not give so much as ear-room to the word of truth ; such are willing recusants : others will admit it perhaps , so far , but there let it rest ; these are fashionable auditors : some others can be content to let it enter into the brain , and take up some place in their thoughts and memories ; these are speculative professors ; some ( but fewer ) others let it down into their hearts , and there entertain it with secret liking , but hide it in their bosomes , not daring to make profession of it to the world ; these are close Nicodemians : Others take it into their mouthes , and busie their tongues in holy chat , yet do nothing ; these are formal discoursers : But alas , how few are there whose hands speak louder then their tongues ; that conscionably hear , meditate , affect , speak , do the word of their Maker , and Redeemer ? XLIX . Men that are in the same condition speed not always alike : Barabbas was a theif , murderer , seditionary , and deserved hanging no less then the two theeves that were crucified with our Saviour , yet he is dismissed , and they executed ; And even of these two ( as our Saviour said of the two women grinding at the mill ) one was taken , the other refused ; one went before Peter to paradise , the other went before Judas into hell : The providence and election of a God may make a difference ; we have no reason in the same crime , to presume upon a contrary issue : If that gracious hand shall exempt us from the common judgment of our consorts in evil , we have cause 〈◊〉 less his mercy ; but if his just hand shall sweep us away in the company of our wicked consociates , we have reason to thank none but our selves for our sufferings . L. How sweet a thing is revenge to us naturally ? even the very infant rejoyces to see him beaten that hath angerd him ; and is ready with his little hand to give that sroke to the by-stander , which he would have with more force returned to the offender ; and how many have we known in mortal quarrels cheerfully bleeding out their last drop , when they have seen their enemy gasping , and dying before them : This alone shews how much there is remaining in our bosome of the sting of that old Serpent , who was a murderer from the beginning , delighting in death , and enjoying our torment ; whereas , on the contrary , true grace is merciful , ready to forgive , apt to return good for evil , to pray for our persecutors ; Nothing doth more clearly evince what spirit we are of , then our disposition in wrongs received : The carnal heart breathes nothing but revenge , and is straight wringing the sword out of the hands of him that hath said , Vengeance is mine : The regenerate soul , contrarily , gives place to wrath , and puts on the bowels of mercies , kindness , humbleness of minde , meekness , long suffering , forbearing , forgiving : and will not be overcome with evil , but overcomes evil with good . We have so much of God , as we can remit injuries ; so much of Satan , as we would revenge them . LI. It is worth observing how nature hath taught all living creatures to be their own physitians ; The same power that gave them a being hath led them to the means of their own preservation : No Indian is so savage , but that he knows the use of his Tobacco and Contra-yerva ; yea even the brute creatures are bred with this skill : The Dog when he is stomack-sick can go right to his proper Grass ; the Cat to her Nep ; the Goat to his Hemlock ; the Weasel to Rue ; the Hart to Dittany ; the sick Lyon can cure himself with an Ape ; the Monkey with a Spider ; the Bear with an Ant-heap ; the Panther with mans dung ; and the Stork is said to have taught man the use of the glyster ; to what purpose should we instance when the case is universal ? The Toad hath recourse to his Plantain-leaf ; the Tortois to his Peniroyal ; & in short , there is none but knows his own medicine : As for the reasonable creature , in all the civilized regions of the world , we may well say now of every nation as it was of old said of Egypt , That it is a countrey of Physitions : There is not an huswife , but hath an Apothecaries shop in her Garden ; which affords her those receipts , whereby she heals the ayls of her complaining family . Onely mankinde is mortally soul-sick , and naturally neither knows , nor seeks , nor cares for remedy . O thou that art the great Physitian in Heaven , first cure our insensibleness ; make thou us as sick of our sins , as we have made our selves sick by sin , and then speak the word , and we shall be whole . LII . When I consider the precious ornaments of the high Priest , the rich Fabrick and furniture of the Tabernacle , the bountiful gifts which the Princes of the Tribes offered at the dedication of the Altar ; I cannot but think what a mass of wealth Israel brought with them out of Egypt ; these treasures grew not in the wilderness ; neither did Jacob and his sons bring them out of Canaan ; they were gathered in their Goshen : It was an hard bondage under which Israel was held by the latter Pharaohs ; yet , as if then , in stead of the furnaces of bricks , they had been laboring in the Silver mines , to their own advantage , they come out laden with precious mettals : What should I say to this ? God said , Israel is my first born , and the first born was to have a double portion : What was Israel but a type of Gods Church ? now the Church of God may be held down with cruel tyranny ; but in spight of all opposition it will thrive ; And though they have lyen among the pots , yet shall they be as the wings of a Dove covered with silver , and her feathers with yellow gold ; And if the Spouse of Christ shall be stripped of her outward ornaments ; yet the kings daughter is allglorious within ; rich in those heavenly endowments of Grace and holiness , which shall make her dear and lovely in the eyes of her celestial Bride-groom ; shortly , the Church may be impaired in her external estate ; but if , the while , she gathers so much the more of those better treasures ▪ what hath she lost ? Godliness is great gain with contentment ; If she have less of the world and more of God , what cause can she have of complaint , or her enemies of insultation ? LIII . He that is a God of Order loves both to set , and keep it ; For the service of his Sanctuary he appointed several offices , and in those offices several degrees ; none of those might enterfer with others : The Levites might not medle with the Preists charge ; nor one degree of Levites with another : The Porters might not thrust in amongst the Singers , though perhaps some of their voyces might be more tuneable ; neither might the Singers change places with the Porters : The sons of Merari , that were to carry the boards , bars , and pillars of the Tabernacle , and the Court , might not change with the sons of Gershon for the lighter burthen of the curtains , and hangings ; nor those of Gershon , for the more holy load of the vessels of the Sanctuary , committed to the sons of Kohath : Neither might the sons of Kohath so much as go in to see the covering of those sacred utensils by Aaron , and his sons ; upon no less pain then death : So punctual was God in seting every man his proper station ; and holding him to it , without either neglect , or change : And why should we think God less curious in his Evangelical Church ? It was the charge of him , who next under the Almighty , had the marshalling of the Church of the Gentiles ; Let every man abide in the same calling , wherein he was called : perhaps there may be a better head for policy upon Plebeian shoulders then the Governors : shall that man leave his rank , and thrust into the chair of government ? Neither is it other in spiritual offices ; It is no thinking that the wise and holy God will be pleased with a wel-meant confusion : For all our imployments in the service of the Almighty , we must consult , not with our abilities , but with our vocation . LIIII . I see too many men willing to live to no purpose ; caring only to be rid of time on what terms soever , making it the onely scope of their life to live ; A disposition that may well befit brute creatures , which are not capable of any other aym save meerly their own preservation : but for men that enjoy the priviledg of reason , for Christians that pretend a title to Religion , too base and unworthy ; where God hath bestowed these higher faculties , he looks for other improvements ; For what a poor thing is it onely to live ? a thing common to us , with the most despised vermin , that breeds on our own corruption : but to live for some more excellent ends , is that which Reason suggests , and Religion perfits : Here then are divers subordinations of ends , whereof one makes way for another , and all for the supream . We labor and exercise that we may eat , we eat that we may live , and maintain health and strength ; we desire health and strength that we may do good to our selves and many ; that we may be able to do service to God , King , and Country ; and therein , we drive at the testimony of a good conscience , approving to God our holy desires , and endeavors ; and in all these , at the glory and salvation of our souls ; and lastly , in that , as the highest of all ends , at the glory of our blessed Creator and Redeemer : This is indeed to live : otherwise , we may have a being for a time upon earth , but a life I cannot call it ; and when we must cease to be , we are necessarily swallowed up with the horror of either not being at all , or of being eternally miserable . LV. All our love is moved from some good which we apprehend in the party loved ; carnal love from beauty ; worldly from gain ; spiritual from grace ; divine , from infinite goodness : It must needs be therefore , that when the ground and motive of our love faileth , the affection it self must cease ; those that are enamoured of a beautiful face , finde their passion cooled with a loathsome deformity ; those that are led by the hopes of profit , like wasps , leave buzzing about the gally-pot , when all the hony is gone ; those that could carry the rod familiarly in their hand , run from it when they see it turnd to a Serpent : Contrarily , when that which attracts our love is constant to it self , and everlasting , the affection set upon it is permanent , and eternal : If then I love God for riches , for preferment , for my own indempnity ; when intervening crosses strip me of the hopes of all these , I shall be ready to say , with that distempered King of Israel : Behold , this evil is of the Lord , What should I wait on the Lord any longer ? If my respects to my Saviour be for the loaves , and fishes ; my heart is carried away with those baskets of fragments : but if I can love God for his goodness sake , this love shall out-last time ; and over-match death . LVI . What a wretched narrowness of heart is this which I finde in my self ; that when I may have all things , I take up with nothing ; and when I may be possessed of an infinite good , I please my self in grasping a little thick clay ? It was a large word that the Apostle said to his Corinthians ; Whether Paul , or Apollo , or Cephas , or the world , or life , or death , or things present , or things to come , all are yours . What , shall we think they were richer then their neighbors ? or is not this the condition of all those , of whom he can say in the next words , ye are Christs ? There , there comes in all our right to this infinite wealth ; of our selves we are beggars ; in him , who is Lord of all , we are feoffed in all things ; for whiles he saith , All are yours , and ye are Christs , and Christ is Gods ; he doth in effect say , Christ is yours , and in him , God is yours ; for this right is mutual : How else should all things be ours , if God were not ours ; without whom all is nothing ? and how should God the Father be ours , without that Son of his love , who hath said , All things that the Father hath , are mine ; Thou O Father art in me , and I in thee : No man cometh to the Father , but by me ? If then Christ be mine , all is mine : and if I have so oft received him , and so often renued my union with him , how is he but mine ? O Saviour , let me feel my self throughly possest of thee , whether the world slide , or sink , I am happy . LVII . God will not vouchsafe to allow so much honor to wicked instruments , as to make them the means of removing publike evils : The Magicians of Egypt could have power to bring some plagues upon the Land , but had not the power to take them away ; Certainly , there needed a greater power to give a being to the frogs , then to call them off ; yet this latter they cannot do who prevailed in the first : Moses and Aaron must be called to fetch off that judgment , which the Sorcerers have brought upon themselves ; neither is it otherwise still : Wicked men can draw down those plagues upon a nation , which onely the faithful must remove : The sins of the one make work for the others intercession : Do we therefore smart , and groan under heavy calamities ? we know to whom we are beholden : Thus saith the Lord to this people , thus have they loved to wander ; they have not refrained their feet , therefore he will now remember their iniquity , and visit their sins ; When they fast , I will not hear their cry ; and when they offer burnt offrings and an oblation , I will not accept them ; but I will consume them by the sword , and by the famine , and by the pestilence . Do we desire to be freed from the present evils and to escape an utter desolation ? They are Moses and Aaron that must do it ; He said that he would destroy them : had not Moses his chosen stood before him in the breach to turn away his wrath , lest he should destroy them : When our quarrel is with Heaven , it is not our force , or our policy that can save us : Every faithful man is a favorite of the King of glory , and can do more then command Legions : Then is a people in some good way towards safety , when they have learned to know their friends . Whiles we have good mens prayers to grapple with wicked mens sins , there may be hopes of recovery . LVIII . The ayming at a good end can be no just excuse for an unlawful act , or disposition ; but if contentment did consist in having much , it were a sore temptation to a man to be covetous ; since that contentation is the thing wherein the heart of man is wont to place it 's chief felicity : neither indeed can there be any possible happiness without it ; but the truth is , abundance is no whit guilty so much as of ease , much less of a full joy : how many have we known that have spent , more pleased and happy hours , under an house of sticks , and walls of mud , and roof of straw , then great Potentates have done under marbles , and cedar ? And how many , both wise Heathen , and mortified Christians have rid their hands of their cumbersome store , that they might be capable of being happy ? Other creatures do naturally neglect that which abused reason bids us dote upon : If we had no better powers then beast , or fowls , we should not at all care for this either white , or red earth ; and if our graces were as great as the least of Saints , we should look carelesly upon the preciousest and largest treasures that the earth can afford ; now our debauched reason , in stead of stiring us up to emulate the best creatures , draws us down below the basest of them ; moving us to place our happiness in those things which have neither life , nor true worth ; much less can give that which they have not ; It is not for the generous souls of Christians to look so low , as to place their contentment in any thing , whether within the bowels , or upon the face of this earth ; but to raise their thoughts up to the glorious region of their original , and rest : looking not at the things which are seen , but at the things which are not seen : for the things that are seen are temporal , but the things which are not seen are eternal . LIX . The holy Psalmist knew well what he said when he called the thunder in the clouds , The voyce of the Lord : a voyce powerful and full of Majesty : The very Heathens made this the most awful act of their Jupiter ; which the Spirit of God expresses in a more divine language : The God of glory thundreth ; upon this dreadful sound it is , that the Psalmist calls to the mighty ones , to give unto the Lord glory and strength , to give unto the Lord the glory due to his name : as it were advising the great Commanders of the world , when they hear it thunder , to fall down on their knees , and to lift up their hands , and eyes , to that great God that speaks to them from Heaven : No man needs to bid the stoutest heart to fear , when this terrible sound strikes through his ear ; which is able to drive even Neroes and Caligulaes into bench-holes : But this mighty voyce calls for an improvement of our fear , to the glory of that Almighty power whence it proceeds : Perhaps , the presumption of man will be finding out the natural causes of this fearful uproar in the clouds ; but the working by means derogates nothing from the God of nature ; neither yet are all thunders natural : That whirlwind and thunder , wherein God spake to Job ; that thunder and lightning wherein God spake to Moses and Israel in mount Sinai ; that thunder and rain wherewith God answered the prayer of Samuel in wheat-harvest , for Israels conviction in the unseasonable suit for their King ; that thundering voyce from Heaven that answered the prayer of the Son of God , for the glorifying of his Name ; the seven thunders that uttered their voyces to the beloved Disciple in Pathmos , had nothing of ordinary nature in them : And how many have we heard , and read of , That for sleighting of this great work of God , have at once heard his voyce , and felt his stroke . Shortly , if any heart can be unmoved at this mighty voyce of God , it is stiffer then the rocks in the wilderness ; for , The voyce of the Lord shaketh the wilderness , the Lord shaketh the wilderness of Kadesh : For me , I tremble at the power , whiles I adore the mercy of that great God , that speaks so loud to me : It is my comfort that he is my Father , who approves himself thus omnipotent ; his love is no less infinite then his power ; let the terror be to them that know him angry ; let my confidence overcome my fear : It is the Lord , let him do what he will : All is not right with me till I have attained to tremble at him while he shineth , and to rejoyce in him whiles he thundreth . LX. We talk of mighty warriors that have done great exploits in conquering kingdoms ; but the Spirit of God tells us of a greater conquest then all theirs ; Whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world ; and this is the victory that overcometh the world , even our faith ; Alass , the conquest of those great Commanders was but poor and partial , of some small spots of the earth ; the conquest of a regenerate Christian is universal , of the whole world : Those other conquerors , whiles they prevailed abroad , were yet overcome at home : and whiles they were the Lords of nations , were no other then vassals to their own lusts : These begin their victories at home , and enlarge their Triumphs over all their spiritual enemies : The glory of those other victors was laid down with their bodies in the dust ; the glory that attends these , is eternal ; What pity it is that the true Christian should not know his own greatness ; that he may raise his thoughts accordingly ; and bear himself as one that tramples the world under his feet ? For all that is in the world , is the lust of the flesh , the lust of the eyes , and the pride of life ; these he hath truly subdued in himself ; not so as to bereave them of life , but of rule ; if he have left them some kinde of being still in him , yet he hath left them no dominion ; and therefore may well stile himself the Lord of the world : Far , far therefore be it from him , that he should so abject , and debase himself , as to be a slave to his vassals : none but holy and high thoughts , and demeanors , may now beseem him ; and in these spiritual regards of his inward greatness , and self-conquests , his word must be ; either Cesar , or nothing . LXI . I see so many kindes of phrensies in the world , and so many seemingly wise brains taken with them , that I much doubt whom I may be sure to account free from either the touch , or ( at least ) the danger of this indisposition ; How many opinions do I see raised every day , that argue no less then a meer spiritual madness ? such as if they should have been but mentioned seven years ago , would have been questioned out of what Bedlam they had broken loose . And for dispositions ; how do we see one so ragingly furious , as if he had newly torn off his chaines , and escaped ; another so stupidly senseless , that you may thrust pins into him , up to the head , and he startles not at it : One so dumpishly sad , as if he would freez to death in melancholy , and hated any contentment but in sorrow ; another so apishly jocund , as if he cared for no other pastime then to play with feathers : One so superstitiously devout , that he is ready to cringe , and crouch to every stock ; another so wildly prophane , that he is ready to spit God in the face : shortly , one so censorious of others , as if he thought all men mad but himself ; another so mad , as that he thinks himself and all mad men sober , and well-witted . In this store and variety of distempers ( were I not sure of my own principles ) I could easily misdoubt my self ; now , setled on firm grounds , I can pity and bewail the woful distraction of many ; and can but send them for recovery to that divine wisdom , who calls to them in the openings of the gates , and uttereth her words , saying ; How long ye silly ones will ye love simplicity ? and the scorners delight in their scorning , and fools hate knowledg ; turn you at my reproof : O ye simple understand wisdom , and ye fools be ye of an understanding heart : Blessed is the man that heareth me , watching daily at my ga●es : But he that sinneth against me , wrongeth his own soul : all they that hate me , love death . LXII . Man , as he confists of a double nature , flesh and spirit , so is he placed in a middle rank betwixt an angel , which is spirit , and a beast , which is flesh ; partaking of the qualities , and performing the acts of both : he is angelical in his understanding , in his sensual affections , beastial : and to whether of these he most enclineth , and conformeth himself , that part wins more of the other , and gives a denomination to him ; so as , he that was before half angel , half beast , if he be drowned in sensuality , hath lost the angel , and is become a beast ; if he be wholly taken up with heavenly Meditations , he hath quit the beast , and is improved angelical : It is hard to hold an equal temper ; either he must degenerate into a beast , or be advanced to an angel ; meer reason sufficiently apprehends the difference of the condition : Could a beast be capable of that faculty , he would wish to be a man , rather then a brute , as he is : There is not more difference betwixt a man , and beast , then between an angel and a brutish man ; How must I needs therefore be worse then beast , if , when I may be preferred to that happy honor , I shall rather affect to be a beast , then an angel ? Away then with the bestial delights of the sensual appetite ; let not my soul sink in this mud ; let me be wholly for those intellectual pleasures which are pure and spiritual : and let my ambition be , to come as neer to the Angel as this clog of my flesh will permit . LXIII . There is great difference in mens dispositions under affliction : Some there are , dead-hearted patients , that grow mopish and stupid , with too deep a sence of their sufferings ; others out of a careless jollity are insensible even of sharp and heavy crosses : We are wont to speak of some , whose inchanted flesh is invulnerable ; this is the state of those hearts , which are so bewitched with worldly pleasur●s , that they are not to be peirced with any calamity , that may befal them in their estates , children , husbands , wives , friends ; so as they can say with Solomons drunkard , They have stricken me and I was not sick , they have beaten me but I felt it not ; These are dead flesh , which do no more feel the knife , then if it did not at all enter ; for whom some corrosives are necessary to make them capable of smart : This disposition , though it seem to carry a face of Fortitude , and Patience , yet is justly offensive ; and not a little injurious both to God , and the soul : To God ; whom it indeavors to frustrate of those holy ends which he proposeth to himself in our sufferings ; for wherefore doth he afflict us , if he would not have us afflicted ? wherefore doth the father whip the childe , but that he would have him smart ; and by smarting bettered ? he looks for cryes and tears ; and the childe that weeps not under the rod is held graceless : To the soul , whom it robs of the benefit of our suffering ; for what use can there be of patience where there is no sence of evil ? and how can patience have its perfect work , where it is not ? Betwixt both these extreams , if we would have our souls prosper , a mid-disposition must be attained ; we must be so sensible of evils , that we be not stupified with them ; and so re●olute under our crosses , that we may be truly sensible of them : not so brawned under the rod , that we should not feel it ; nor yet so tender that we should over-feel it : not more patient under the stripe , then willing to kiss the hand that inflicts it . LXIV . God as he is one , so he loves singleness and simplicity in the inward parts : as therefore he hath been pleased to give us those sences double , whereby we might let in for our selves , as our eyes , and ears ; and those limbs double , whereby we might act for our selves , as our hands and feet ; so those which he would appropriate to himself , as our hearts for beleef , and our tongue for confession , he hath given us single ; neither did he ever ordain , or can abide two hearts in a bosome , two tongues in one mouth : It is then the hateful stile , which the Spirit of God gives to an hypocrite ; that he is double-minded ; In the language of Gods Spirit , a fool hath no heart , and a dissembler hath an heart , and an heart ; and surely , as a man that hath two heads is a monster in nature , so he that hath two hearts is no less a spiritual monster to God : For the holy and wise God hath made one for one ; One minde , or soul , for one body : And if the regenerate man have two men in one ; the old man , and the new ; yet it is so , as that one is flesh , the other spirit ; the minde then is not double ; but the law of the mind is opposed to the law of the flesh ; so as here are strivings , in one heart , not the sidings of two : for surely , the God of unity can neither indure multiplication , nor division of hearts , in one brest : If then we have one heart for God , another for Mammon , we may be sure God will not own this latter ; how should he , for he made it not ? Yea , most justly will he disclaim both , since that which he made was but one , this double . And as the wise man hath told us , That God hates nothing which he hath made ; so may we truly say , God hateth whatsoever he made not ; since what he made not , is onely evil : When I have done my best , I shall have but a weak and a faulty heart ; but , Lord , let it be but a single one : Search me , O God , and know my heart , try me , and know my thoughts : and see if there be any wicked way in me , and lead me in the way everlasting . LXV . There is a kinde of not-being in sin ; for sin is not an existence of somewhat that is , but a deficiency of that rectitude which should be : it is a privation , but not without a real mischief ; as blindness is but a privation of sight , but a true misery : Now , a privation cannot stand alone ; it must have some subject to lean upon ; there is no blindness but where there is an eye , no death but where there hath been a life : sin therefore supposes a soul , wherein it is , and an act whereto it cleaveth : and those acts of sin are they which the Apostle calls the works of darkness ▪ So as there is a kinde of operosity in sin , in regard whereof sinners are stiled , The workers of iniquity : And surely there are sins , wherein there is more toyl and labor , then in the holiest actions : What pains and care doth the theef take in setting his match , in watching for his prey ? How doth he spend the darkest and coldest nights in the execution of his plot ? What fears , what flights , what hazards , what shifts are here to avoyd notice and punishment ? The adulterer says , That stoln waters are sweet ; but that sweet is sauced to him with many careful thoughts , with many deadly dangers : The superstitious bygot , who is himself besotted with error , how doth he traverse Sea and land to make a Proselyte ? What adventures doth he make , what perils doth he run , what deaths doth he challenge , to mar a soul ? So as some men take more pains to go to Hell , then some others do , to go to Heaven : O the sottishness of sinners , that with a temporary misery will needs purchase an eternal ! How should we think no pains sufficient for the attaining of Heaven , when we see wretched men toyl so much for damnation ? LXVI . With what elegance and force doth the holy Ghost express our Saviours leaving of the world ; which he cals his taking home again ; or his receiving up ? In the former , implying , That the Son of God was , for the time , sent out of his Fathers house , to these lower regions of his exile , or pilgrimage , and was now re-admitted into those his glorious mansions ; In the latter , so intimating his triumphant ascension , that he passeth over his bitter passion : Surely , he was to take death in his way ; so he told his Disciples , in the walk to Emaus : Ought not Christ to suffer these things , and to enter into his glory ? He must be lifted up to the Cross , ere his Ascension to Heaven ; but , as if the thought of death were swallowed up in the blessed issue of his death , here is no mention of ought but his assumption : Lo , death truly swallowed up in victory : Neither is it otherwise proportionally with us : wholly so it cannot be ; for , as for him , Death did but taste of him , could not devour him , much less put him over ; It could not but yield him whole & entire the third day , without any impairing of his nature ; yea , with an happy addition to it , of a glorious immortality : and in that glorified humanity he ascended by his own Power into his Heaven : For us , we must be content that one part of us lye rotting for the time , in the dust , whiles our spiritual part shall by the ministery of Angels be received up to those everlasting habitations : Here is an Assumption therefore , true and happy , though not , as yet , total : And why should I not therefore have my heart taken up with the assured expectation of this receiving up into my glory ? Why do I not look beyond death , at the eternally-blessed condition of this soul of mine ; which in my dissolution is thus crowned with immortality ? So doth the Sea-beaten Marriner chear up himself with the sight of that Heaven , which he makes for ; So doth the Travailer comfort himself , when after a tempestuous storm he sees the Sun breaking forth in his brightness . I am dying ; but , O Saviour , thou art the resurrection and the life ; he that beleeves in thee , though he be dead yet shall he live : Awake , and sing ye that dwel in the dust ; for thy dew is as the dew of herbs , and the earth shall cast out the dead : Blessed are the dead that dye in the Lord for they rest from their labors , and their works follow them . LXVII . What need I be troubled that I finde in my self a fear of Death ? what Israelite is not ready to run away at the sight of this Goliah ? This fear is natural ; and so far from being evil , that it was incident into the Son of God , who was heard in that which he feared ; Christianity serves not to destroy , but to rectifie nature . Grace regulates this passion in us , and corrects the exorbitances of it , never intended to root it out : Let me therefore entertain this fear , but so , as that I may master it ; if I cannot avoyd fear , let it be such as may be incident into a faithful man : Whiles my fear apprehends just terror in the face of Death , let my faith lay fast hold on that blessed Saviour , who hath both overcome , and sweetned it ; on that blessed estate of glory which accompanies it ; my fear shall end in joy , my death in advantage . LXVIII . It is too plain that we are faln upon the old age of the world ; the last times , and therefore nearest to the dissolution ; and if time it self did not evince it , the disposition and qualities would most evidently do it ; For to what a cold temper of charity are we grown ? what meer Ice is in these spiritual veins ? the unnatural and unkindly flushings of self-love abound indeed every where ; but for true Christian love it is come to old Davids pass , it may be covered with clothes , but it can get no heat : Besides , what whimsies , and fancies of dotage do we finde the world possessed withal , beyond the examples of all former times ? what wilde and mad opinions have been lately broached , which the setled brains of better ages could never have imagined ? Unto these , how extreamly cholerick the world is grown , in these later times , there needs no other proof then the effusion of so much blood in this present age , as many preceding centuries of years have been sparing to spill . What should I speak of the moral distempers of diseases , the confluence whereof hath made this age more wickedly-miserable then all the former ? for , when ever was there so much prophaneness , atheism , blasphemy , schism , excess , disobedience , oppression , licentiousness , as we now sigh under ? Lastly , that which is the common fault of age , loquacity , is a plain evidence of the worlds declinedness : for , was there ever age guilty of so much tongue , and pen as this last ? were ever the Presses so cloyed with frivolous work ? Every man thinks what he lists , and speaks what he thinks , and writes what he speaks , and prints what he writes ; Neither would the world talk so much , did it not make account it cannot talk long . What should we do then , since we know the world truly old , and now going upon his great , and fatal Climacterical , but as discreet men would carry themselves to impotent and decrepit age ; bear with the infirmities of it , pity and bewail the distempers , strive against the enormities , and prepare for the dissolution . LXIX . There cannot be a stronger motive to awe and obedience , then that which Saint Peter enforceth ; That God is both a Father and a Judg : The one is a title of Love and Mercy ; the other of Justice . What ever God is , he is all that ; he is all Love and Mercy ; He is all Justice ; He is not so a Judg , that he hath waved the title and affection of a Father : He is not so a Father that he will remit ought of his infinite justice as a Judg : He is , he will ever be both these in one ; and we must fasten our eyes upon both these at once ; and be accordingly affected unto both : He is a Father , therefore here must be a loving awe ; He is a Judg , and therefore here must be an awful love and obedience . So must we lay hold upon the tender mercies of a Father that we may rejoyce continually ; so must we apprehend the Justice of a righteous Judg , that we do lovingly tremble ; Why then should man despair ? God is a father ; All the bowels of mortal and humane love , are straight to his : Can a woman forget her sucking childe , that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb ? yea , they may forget ; yet will I not forget thee : saith the Lord. That which is the title of his personality in divine relation , is also the title of his gracious relation to us , Father ; neither can he be other then he is styled ; And contrarily how dare man presume , since this Father is a Judg ? It is for sinful flesh and blood to be partial ; foolish parents may be apt to connive at the sins of their own loyns , or bowels , because theirs ; either they will not see them , or not hate them , or not censure them , or not punish them : The infinite justice of a God cannot wink at our failings : There is no debt of our sin , but must be paid in our selves , or our surety : If then we call him Father , who without respect of persons judgeth according to every mans work ; why do we not pass the time of our sojourning here in fear ? LXX . How terrible a motion was that , ( which was made by the two Disciples ) of commanding fire to come down from Heaven , and consume the inhospital Samaritans ? Me thinks , I could tremble but at the imagination of so dreadful a judgment , as they did not fear to sue for ; Yet if we look to the offence , it was no positive act of indignity offered to Christ ; but the meer not lodging of his train ; and that , not out of a rude inhumanity , but out of a religious scruple : what could they have said if these Samaritans had pursued them with swords , and staves , and stones ? Whom shall we hope to finde free from cruelty of revenge , when even the Disciple of Love was thus over-taken ? What wonder is it if natural men be transported with furious desires , when so eminent Domesticks , and followers of our Saviour were thus faulty ? Surely nature in man is cruel ; neither is there any creature under Heaven so bloody to its own kinde : Even Bears and Wolves , and Tigers devour not one another ; and if any of them fall out in single combats for a prey , here is no publique engaging for blood ; neither do they affect to enjoy each others torment ; rather entertaining one anothers complaints with pity ; Let but a swine cry , the rest of the herd within the noyse , come runing in , to see and compassionate his pain ; onely man rejoyces in the misery of the same flesh and blood with himself , and loves to triumph in his revenge : whiles we are thus affected , we know not of what spirit we are ; we may soon learn ; we are even of that spirit who was a man-slayer from the beginning ; as for the good spirit , his just style is the preserver of men ; and the errand of the son of man was , not to destroy mens lives , but to save to them : and his charge to these , and all other his disciples ; Be mercifull , as your Father also is merciful and how easily may we observe that this very disciple ( as if in way of abundant satisfaction for this rash over-sight ) calls more for love , then all the rest of his masters train , telling us that God is love , and he that dwelleth in love , dwelleth in God , and God in him : and , Beloved , let us love one another : For love is of God ; and every one that loveth is of God , and knoweth God : He that loveth not , knoweth not God : for God is love . Shortly then , what would not this holy disciple have given to have recalled this fiery motion ? The more mercy and charity is in us , the more we have of God ; the more fury , and revenge ; of Satan . LXXI . Much caution must be had in our imitation of the actions of the holiest : cautions , both in respect of the persons , and of the actions : God himself ; yea , God cloathed in flesh , ( though the pattern of all perfection ) is not for our universal imitation ; the most of their actions are for our wonder , not for our exampling ; and amongst men ; how absurd were it in a Peasant to imitate a King ? or one of the long robe , a Souldier ? If Moses climbe up the hill of God , Sinai ; shall another Israelite say , Moses goes up , why not I ? So he might have paid dear for his presumption : Moses was called up , the rest were limited ; and if a beast touch the hill , he shall dye . That act may beseem one , which would be very incongruous in another ; The dog fawns upon his master , and hath his back stroaked ; if the Ass do the like , he is beaten : We are naturally apt to be carried with examples : It is one of the greatest improvements of wisedom to know , whom , in what , and how far we may imitate : The best have their weaknesses ; there is no copy without a blur : Be ye followers of me , saith the chosen Vessel ; but how ? Even as I am of Christ : It is safe following him that cannot erer . LXXII . God who is simply one , infinitely perfect , absolutely compleat in himself , enjoys himself fully , from all eternity , without any relation to the creature : but knowing our wants , and weaknesses , he hath ordained a society for our well-being ; and therefore even in mans innocency , could say , It is not good for man to be alone : And why Lord ? why might not man have taken pleasure enough in the beauty and sweetness of his Paradise , in contemplating thine Heaven , in the command of thine obsequious creatures , and above all , in the fruition of thy divine presence , in that happy integrity of his nature without any accession of other helps ? Surely , thou who knewest well what disposition thou hadst put into him , intendedst to fit him with all meet conveniences : and thou who madest him sociable , before he could have any society ; thoughtst fit to stead him with such a society , as might make his life comfortable to him . Wise Solomon observes it out of his deep experience , for a vanity under the Sun , That there is one alone , and there is not a second ; and that , two are better then one , because they have a good reward for their labor . In the Plantation of the Evangelical Church , the Apostles are not reckoned single , but by pairs ; and so doth their Lord send them upon the great errand of his Gospel : And when he seconded that Work by a commission given to his seventy Disciples ; He sent them two and two before his face , into every City and place , whither he himself would come ▪ After this , when our Saviour had left the earth , Paul and Barnabas go together ; and when they are parted , Paul and Silas , Barnabas and Mark are sorted : Single indeavors seldom prosper ; many hands make the work both quick and sure : They can be no friends to the happy estate of a Family or Church , that labor to cause distractions ; Division makes certain way for ruine . LXXIII . Under the Law there was difference , as of Ages , so of Sexes : Circumcision was appropriated to the Male : In the Temple there was the Court of the Jews ; and without that , the Court of the Women ; neither might that Sex go beyond their bounds ; and still it is so in their Jewish Synagogues : But in Christ , there is neither Male , nor Female . As the soul hath no Sex ; so God makes no difference in the acceptation of either : As it is the honor of the one Sex , that Christ the Son of God was a man ; so it is the honor of the other Sex , that he was born of a woman : And if the woman be ( as she is in nature ) the weaker vessel , yet she is no less capable of Grace , then the stronger ; as the thinest glass may receive as precious liquor , as the best plate ▪ Good Anna as well as Simeon , gave glory to their new-born Saviour , to all that looked for redemption in Jerusalem : And afterwards , the holy women were no less zealous attendants of Christ , both in his life and death , then the most forward Disciples ; yea , they followed him , when his domestick followers forsook him ; neither could be parted by either his Cross , or his Grave . And they were the first that were honored with the notice , and message of their Saviours blessed Resurrection , and Ascension ; then which , what imployment could be more noble ? The Lord gave the word , saith the Psalmist , great was the company of the Preacheresses ; the word is Feminine : However therefore in natural , and politique respects , the Philosopher might have some reason to bless God , that he had made him a man , and not a woman ; yet in spiritual ( which are the best ) regards , here is no inequality ; so that it is the great mercy and goodness of our common Creator , that though he hath made a difference in the smallest matters , yet he makes none in the greatest ; and that he so indifferently peoples Heaven with both Sexes , that , for ought we know , the greatest Saint there , is of the weaker Sex. LXXIV . There is nothing more easie then for a man to be courageous in a time of safety ; and to defie those dangers which he neither feels nor sees . Whiles the coast is clear , every man can be ready to say , with Peter ; Though all men , yet not I ; If I should dye with thee , I will not deny thee in any wise : But when the evil hour cometh , when our enemy appears armed in the lists , ready to encounter us , then to call up our spirits , and to grapple resolutely with dangers and death , it is the praise and proof of a true Christian valour ▪ And this is that which the Apostle calls standing ; in opposition to both falling , and fleeing : Falling , out of faintness , and fleeing for fear . It shall not be possible for us thus to stand , if we shall trust to our own feet ; In , and of our selves , the best of us are but meer cowards ; neither can be able so much as to look our enemy in the face : Would we be perfect victors ? we must go out of our selves , into the God of our strength : If we have made him ours , who shall , yea , who can be against us ? We can do all things through him that strengthens us : All things ; therefore conquer Death and Hell : If we be weakness , he is omnipotence ; Put we on the Lord Jesus Christ by a lively Faith , what enemy can come within us , to do us hurt ? What time I am afraid , I will trust in thee , O God : In thee , O God , have I trusted , I will not fear what ( either ) flesh ( or spirit ) can do unto me : The Lord is my rock , and my fortress , and my deliverer ; my God , my strength , in whom I will trust , my buckler , and the horn of my salvation ; I will call upon the Lord , who is worthy to be praised ; so shall I be saved from mine enemies . LXXV . It is disparagement enough that the Apostle casts upon all the visible things of this world , That the things which are seen are temporary : Be they never so glorious , yet being transitory , they cannot be worthy of our hearts : Who would care for an house of glass , if never so curiously painted , and gilded ? All things that are measured by time , are thus brittle : Bodily substances of what kinde soever , lye open to the eye ; and being seen , can be in no other , then a fading condition ; even that goodly Fabrick of Heaven , which we see , and admire , must be changed , and in a sort dissolved : How much more vanishing are all earthly glories ? and by how much shorter their continuance is , so much lower must be their valuation : We account him foolish that will dote too much upon a flower , though never so beautiful ; because we know it can be but a moneths pleasure ; and no care , no art can preserve it from withering ; amongst the rest the Hemerocallis is the least esteemed , because one day ends its beauty : what madness then were it in us to set our hearts upon these perishing contentments which we must soon mutually leave , we them , they us : Eternity is that onely thing which is worthy to take up the thoughts of a wise man ; That being added to evil makes the evil infinitely more intolerable ; and being added to good , makes the good infinitely more desireable . O Eternity ! thou bottomless abyss of misery to the wicked ; thou indeterminable pitch of joy to the Saints of God ; what soul is able to comprehend thee ? what strength of understanding is able to conceive of thee ? Be thou ever in my thoughts , ever before mine eyes : Be thou the scope of all my actions , of all my indeavors : and in respect of thee , let all this visible world be to mee as nothing : And since onely the things which are not seen by the eye of sense are eternal ; Lord , sharpen thou the eyes of my faith that I may see those things invisible , and may in that sight , enjoy thy blessed eternity . LXXVI . What is all the world to us in comparison of the Bird in our bosome , our conscience ? In vain shall all the world acquite , and magnifie us , if that secretly condemn us ; and if that condemn us not , We have confidence towards God , and may bid defiance to men and devils : Now that it may not condemn us ; it must be both pacified , and purged : pacified in respect of the guilt of sin purged in respect of the corruption : For so long as there is guilt in the soul , the clamors of an accusing , and condemning conscience can no more be stilled , then the waters of the Sea can stand still in a storm : There is then no pacification without removing the guilt of sin ; no removing of guilt without remission ; no remission without satisfaction ; no satisfaction without a price of infinite value answerable to the infiniteness of the Justice offended : and this is no where to be had , but in the blood of Christ , God , and Man : All created and finite powers are but miserable comforters , Physitians of no value , to this one . And the same power that pacifieth the conscience from the guilt , must also purge it from the filthiness of sin ; even that blood of the Son of God , who is made unto us of God , Sanctification and Redemption : That Faith which brings Christ home to the soul , doth by the efficacy of his blessed Spirit , purifie the heart from all filthiness both of flesh and spirit : Being justified by this faith , we have peace with God : When once the heart is quieted from the uproars of self-accusation , and cleansed from dead works ; what in this world can so much concern us , as to keep it so ? Which shall be done , if we shall give Christ the possession of our souls , and commit the keys into his onely hands ; so shall nothing be suffered to enter in , that may disturb or defile it ; if we shall settle firm resolutions in our brests , never to yield to the commission of any known , enormious sin : Failings and slips there will be in the holiest of Gods Saints , whiles they carry their clay about them ; For these we are allowed to fetch forth a pardon of course from that infinite mercy of our God , who hath set a Fountain open to the house of David , and to the inhabitants of Jerusalem , for sin , and for uncleanness ; by the force of our daily prayers : But if , through an over-bold security , and spiritual negligence , we shall suffer our selves to be drawn away into some heinous wickedness , it must cost warm water to recover us : Neither can it , in such a case , be safe for us , to suffer our eyes to sleep , or our eye-lids to slumber , till we have made our peace with Heaven : This done , and carefully maintained , what can make us other then happily secure ? Blessed is he whose conscience hath not condemned him , and who is not faln from his hope in the Lord. LXXVII . We cannot apprehend Heaven in any notion but of excellency , and glory ; that as it is in it self a place of wonderful resplendance , and Majesty ; so it is the Palace of the most high God , wherein he exhibites his infinite magnificence ; that it is the happy receptacle of all the elect of God ; that it is the glorious rendezvous of the blessed Angels ; that we have parents , children , husband , wife , brothers , sisters , friends whom we dearly loved , there : For such is the power of love that it can endeare any place to us where the party affected , is ; much more the best ; If it be a loathsome gaol , our affection can make it a delightful bower ; yea the very grave cannot keep us off : The women could say of Mary , that she was gone to the grave of Lazarus to weep there : and the zeal of those holy clyents of Christ carries them to seek their ( as they supposed still dead ) Saviour , even in his Tomb : Above all conceivable apprehensions then , wherein Heaven is endeared to us , there is none comparable to that , which the Apostle enforceth to us , that , there Christ sitteth on the right hand of God : If we have an husband , wife , childe , whom we dearly love , pent up in some Tower or Castle afar off , whither we are not allowed to have access ; how many longing eyes do we cast thither ; how do we please our selves to think , within those walls is he inclosed whom my soul loveth ; and who is inclosed in my heart ; but if it may be possible to have passage ( though with some difficulty and danger ) to the place , how gladly do we put our selves upon the adventure ? When therefore we hear and certainly know that our most dear Saviour is above , in all heavenly glory ; and that the Heavens must contain him till his coming again , with what full contentment of heart should we look up thither ? How should we break thorow all these secular distractions , and be carried up by our affections ( which are the wings of the soul ) towards an happy fruition of him ? Good old Jacob , when he heard that his dearling son was yet alive , in Egypt , how doth he gather up his spirits , and takes up a cheerful resolution , Joseph my son is yet alive , I will go and see him before I dye ? Do we think his heart was any more in Canaan , after he heard where his Joseph was ? And shall we , when we hear , and know , where our dearest Saviour ( typified by that good Patriark ) is ; that he is gone before to provide a place for us in the rich Goshen above , shall we be heartless in our desires towards him , and take up with earth ? How many poor souls take tedious , costly , perilous voyages to that land ( which onely the bodily presence of our Saviour could denominate holy , their own wickedness justly stiles accursed ) onely to see the place , where our dear Saviour trod ; where he stood , where he sate , lay , set his last footing ; and finde a kinde of contentment in this sacred curiosity , returning yet , never the holier , never the happier ; how then should I be affected with the sight of that place , where he is now in person , sitting gloriously at the right hand of Majesty , adored by all the powers of Heaven ? Let it be a covenant between me and my eyes , never to look up at Heaven , ( as how can I look beside it ? ) but I shall , in the same instant , think of my blessed Saviour , sitting there in his glorified humanity , united to the incomprehensible — glorious Deity , attended and worshiped by thousand thousands of Saints and Angels , preparing a place for me and all his elect in those eternal Mansions . LXXVIII . How lively doth the Spirit of God describe the heavenly affections of faithful Abraham ; that he looked for a city which hath foundations , whose builder and maker is God : What city was this , but the celestial Jerusalem , the glorious seat of the Great Empire of Heaven ? The main strength of any building is in the foundation ; if that be firm and sure , the fabrick well knit together will stand : but if that be either not laid , or lye loose and unsetled , the tottering frame doth but wait upon the next wind for a ruine : The good Patriark had been used to dwell in Tents , which were not capable of a foundation : It is like , he and his ancestors wanted not good houses in Chaldea , where they were formerly planted ; God calls him forth of those fixed habitations in his own Countrey , to sojourn in Tabernacles , or Booths in a strange land ; his faith carries him cheerfully along ; his present fruition gives way to hope of better things : In stead of those poor sheds of sticks and skins , he looks for a City ; in stead of those stakes and cords , he looks for Foundations ; in stead of mens work , he looks for the Architecture of God. Alass , we men will be building Castles , and Towers here upon earth , or , in the ayr rather ; such as either have no foundation at all ; or at the best , onely a foundation in the dust ; neither can they be any other , whiles they are of mans making ; for what can he make in better condition then himself ? The City that is of Gods building is deep , and firmly grounded upon the rock of his eternal decree ; and hath more foundations then one ; and all of them both sure and costly ; Gods material house built by Solomon had the foundation laid with great squared stone ; but the foundations of the wall of this City of God are garnished with all manner of precious stones : Glorious things are spoken of thee , O thou city of God : Why do I set up my rest in this house of clay , which is every day falling on my head , whiles I have the assured expectation of so glorious a dwelling above ? For we know that if our earthly house of this tabernacle were dissolved , we have a building of God ; an house not made with hands , eternal in the Heavens . LXXIX . God , though he be free of his entertainments , yet is curious of his guests : we know what the great house-keeper said to the sordid guest ; Friend how camest thou in hither , not having on a wedding garment ? To his feast of glory none can come but the pure ; without this disposition no man shall so much as see God , much less be entertained by him : To his feast of grace none may come but the clean , and those who upon strict examination have found themselves worthy : That we may be meet to sit at either of these Tables , there must be a putting off , ere there can be a putting on ; a putting off the old garments , ere there can be a putting on the new ; the old are foul and ragged , the new clean and holy ; for if they should be worn at once ; the foul and beastly under-garment would soyl , and defile the clean ; the clean could not cleanse the foul : As it was in the Jewish law of holiness , holy flesh in the skirt of the garment could not infuse an holiness into the garment ; but the touch of an unclean person might diffuse uncleanness to the garment : Thus our professed holiness , and pretended graces are sure to be defiled by our secretly-maintained corruption , not our corruption sanctified by our graces ; as in common experience , if the sound person come to see the infected ; the infected may easily taint the sound ; the sound cannot by his presence heal the infected : If ever therefore we look to be welcome to the feasts of God , we must put off the old man with his deeds , and put on the new man , which is renewed in knowledg after the image of him that created him . LXXX . It is not for us to cast a disparagement upon any work of our Maker ; much less upon a peece so neer , so essential to us : yet with what contempt doth the Apostle seem still to mention our flesh ? and , as if he would have it sleighted for some forlorn out-cast , he charges us , not to make provision for the flesh : What ? shall we think the holy man was faln out with a part of himself ? Surely , sometimes his language that he gives it , is hard : The flesh rebels against the spirit : I know that in me ( that is in my flesh ) dwelleth no good thing : but how easie is it to observe , that the Flesh sometimes goes for the body of man ; sometimes for the body of sin : as the first , it is a partner with the soul ; as the latter , it is an enemy ; and the worst of enemies , spiritual : No marvel then if he would not have provision made for such an enemy : In outward and bodily enmity , the case , and his charge is otherwise : If thine enemy hunger , feed him ; if he thirst , give him drink : but here , make no provision for the flesh : What reason were there that a man should furnish , and strengthen an enemy against himself ? But if the flesh be the body of the man , it must challenge a respect ; but the very name carries an intimation of baseness ; at the best , it is that which is common to beasts with us ; There is one flesh ( saith the Apostle ) of men , another flesh of beasts ; both are but flesh : Alas , what is it but a clod of earth better molded , the clog of the soul , a rotten pile , a pack of dust , a feast of worms ? But even as such , provision must be made for it ; with a moderate and thrifty care , not with a solicitous : a provision for the necessities and convenience of life , not for the fulfilling of the lusts : This flesh must be fed , and clad ; not humord , not pampered : so fed as to hold up nature , not inordinateness ; shortly , such an hand must we hold over it , as that we may make it a good servant , not a lawless wanton . LXXXI . What action was ever so good , or so compleatly done , as to be well taken of all hands ? Noah and Lot foretel of judgments from God , upon the old world , and Sodom , and are scoffed at : Israel would go to sacrifice to God in the wilderness , and they are idle ; Moses and Aaron will be governing Israel according to Gods appointment ; Ye take too much upon you , ye sons of Levi : David will be dancing before the Ark of the Lord ; He uncovers himself shamelesly as one of the vain fellows : Our Saviour is sociable ; He is a wine-bibber , a freind of publicans and sinners : John Baptist is solitary , and austere ; He hath a devil : Christ casts out devils ; He doth it by Beelzebub the prince of devils : He rides in an homely pomp through Jerusalem ; he affects a temporal kingdom ; and he is no friend to Cesar that can suffer him to live . He is by his Almighty powr risen from the dead ; his Disciples stole him away , whiles the Soldiers slept : The Spirit of God descends upon the Apostles in fiery and cloven tongues , and they , thus inspired , suddenly speak all Languages ; they are full of new wine . Stephen preacheth Christ the end of the Law ; He speaks blasphemous words against Moses and against God ; and what aspersions were cast upon the primitive Christians , all Histories witness : What can we hope to do , or say , that shall escape the censures , and mis-interpretations of men , when we see the Son of God could not avoyd it ? Let a man profess himself honestly conscionable , he is a scrupulous hypocrite ; Let him take but a just liberty in things meerly indifferent , he is loosely profane ; Let him be charitably affected to both parts ( though in a quarrel not fundamental , ) he is an odious neuter , a luke-warm Laodicean : It concerns every wise Christian to settle his heart in a resolved confidence of his own holy and just grounds , and then to go on in a constant course of his well-warranted judgment , and practise , with a careless dis-regard of those fools-bolts which will be sure to be shot at him , which way soever he goes . LXXXII . All Gods dear and faithful ones are notably described by the Apostle , to be such as love the appearing of our Lord Jesus : for certainly , we cannot be true friends to those whose presence we do not desire and delight in ; now this appearing is either in his coming to us , or our going to him ; whether ever it be , that he makes his glorious return to us for the judgment of the world , and the full redemption of his elect ; or , that he fetches us home to himself , for the fruition of his blessedness ; in both , or either , we enjoy his appearance : If then we can onely be content with either of these ; but do not love them , nor wish for them ; our hearts are not yet right with God : It is true that there is some terror in the way to both these ; his return to us is not without a dreadful Majestie ; for the Heavens shall pass away with a great noyse ; and the elements shall melt with fervent heat ; and the glorious retinue of his blessed Angels must needs be with an astonishing magnificence ; and on the other part our passage to him must be through the gates of death , wherein nature cannot but apprehend an horror ; but the immediate issue of both these is so infinitely advantageous , and happy , that the fear is easily swallowed up of the joy ; Doth the daughter of Jephtah abate ought of her timbrels and dances because she is to meet a father , whose armes are bloody with victory ? Doth a loving wife entertain her returning husband otherwise then with gladness , because he comes home in a military pomp ? Is the conqueror less joyful to take up his crown , because it is congratulated to him with many peals of Ordnance ? Certainly then , neither that heavenly state wherein Christ shall return to us ; nor the fears of an harmless and beneficial death , wherein we shall pass to him , either may , nor can hinder ought of our love to his appearing : O Saviour , come in whatever equipage , or fashion thou wilt , thou canst be no other then lovely , and welcome : Come Lord Jesus , come quickly . LXXXIII . Suppose a man comes to me on the same errand which the Prophet delivered to Hezekiah ; Set thine house in order , for thou shalt dye , and not live : with what welcome do I entertain him ? Do I , with that good King , turn my face to the wall , and weep ? or do I say of the messenger as David said of Ahimaaz ; He is a good man , and brings good tidings ? Surely , Nature urges me to the former , which cannot but hold Dissolution her greatest enemy ; for what can she abhor so much as a not-being ? Faith perswades me to the latter ; telling me that , To dye is gain ; Now , whether of these two shall prevail with me ? Certainly , as each of them hath a share in me ; so shall either of them act its own part in my soul : Nature shall obtain so much of me , as to fetch from me , upon the suddain apprehension of death , some thoughts of fear ; Faith shall strait step in , and drive away all those weak fears ; and raise up my heart to a cheerful expectation of so gainful , and happy a change : Nature shews me the gastliness of death ; Faith shews me the transcendency of Heavenly glory : Nature represents to me a rotten carkase ; Faith presents me with a glorious soul ; Shortly , nature startles at the sight of death ; Faith out-faces and overcomes it ; so then , I who at the first blush could say , O Death how bitter is thy remembrance ; can now upon my deliberate thoughts , say , I desire to depart and to be with Christ . LXXXIIII . In the carriage of our holy profession , God can neither abide us cowardly , nor indiscreet : The same mouth that bad us , when we are persecuted in one city , flee into another , said also ; he that will save his life , shall loose it ; we may neither cloak cowardice with a pretended discretion ; nor lose our discretion in a rash courage ; He that is most skilful and most valiant , may in his combat traverse his ground for an advantage ; and the stoutest Commander may fall flat to avoyd a Cannon-shot ; True Christian wisdom , and not carnal fear , is that , wherewith we must consult for advice , when to stand to it ; and when to give back . On the one side , he dies honorably that falls in Gods quarrel ; on the other , he that flies may fight again ; Even our blessed leader that came purposely to give his life for the world , yet when he found that he was laid for in Judea , flees into Galilce . The practise of some Primitive Christians , that , in an ambition of martyrdom went to seek out and chalenge dangers and death , is more worthy of our wonder , and applause , then our imitation . It shall be my resolution to be warily thrifty in managing my life , when God offers me no just cause of hazard ; and to be willingly profuse of my blood , when it is called for by that Saviour , who was not sparing of shedding his most precious blood for me . LXXXV . He had need to be well under-laid , that knows how to entertain the time and himself with his own thoughts : Company , variety of imployments , or recreations , may wear out the day with the emptiest hearts ; but , when a man hath no society but of himself , no task to set himself upon , but what arises from his own bosome ; surely , if he have not a good stock of former notions , or an inward mint of new , he shall soon run out of all , and ( as some forlorn bankrupt ) grow weary of himself : Hereupon it is that men of barren , and unexercised hearts can no more live without company , then fish out of the water : And those Heremites , and other Votaries , which professing onely devotion , have no mental abilities to set themselves on work , are fain to tire themselves , and their unwelcome hours , with the perpetual repetitions of the same orisons , which are now grown to a tedious , and heartless formality : Those contemplative spirits that are furnished with gracious abilities , and got into acquaintance with the God of Heaven , may , and can lead a life ( even in the closest restraint , or wildest solitariness , ) neerest to Angelical ; but those ▪ which neither can have Maries heart , nor will have Marthaes hand , must needs be unprofitable to others , and wearisome to themselves . LXXXVI . There is nothing more easie then to be a Christian at large ; but the beginnings of a strict and serious Christianity are not without much difficulty ; for nature affects a loose kinde of liberty , which it cannot indure to have restrained : neither fares it otherwise with it , then with some wilde colt ; which at the first taking up , flings and plunges , and will stand on no ground ; but after it hath been somwhile disciplin'd at the Post , is grown tractable , and quietly submits either to the saddle , or the collar : The first is the worst ; afterwards that which was tolerable , will prove easie , and that which was easie will be found pleasant : For in true practical Christianity , there is a more kindly and better liberty ; Standfast ( saith the Apostle ) in that liberty wherewith Christ hath made you free : Lo here a liberty of Christs making , and therefore both just , and excellent : for what other is this liberty then a freedome , as from the tyranny of the law , so from the bondage of sin ? Being then made free from sin ( saith Saint Paul ) ye became the servants of righteousness : Here are two masters , under one of which every soul must serve ; either sin , or righteousness : if we be free from the one , we are bond-men to the other ; we say truly , the service of God ( that is of righteousness ) is perfect freedom ; but to be free to sin is a perfect bondage ; and to serve sin is no other then a vassallage to the devil : From this bondage Christ onely can free us ; If the Son shall make you free , yee shall be free indeed ; and we are no Christians , unless we be thus freed : and being thus freed , we shall rejoyce in the pleasant fetters of our voluntary and cheereful obedience to righteousness ▪ neither would we for a world return to those gieves and manacles of sin , which we once beld our most dear and comely ornaments : and can truly say , Thou hast set my feet in a large room . I will walk at liberty , for I seek thy precepts . LXXXVII . I cannot but pity and lament the condition of those Christians who for the hope of a little earthly dross do willingly put themselves for a continuance out of the pale of Gods Church : What do they else , but cast themselves quite out of the Almighties protection ; who hath not bound himself to follow them out of his own walks ; or to seek them out amongst Turks and Infidels ? well may he say to them ( as to the chief Pastor of Pergamus ) I know thy works , and where thou dwellest ; even where Satans seat is ; but have they any reason to expect that he should dwell with them there , under the raign of that Prince of darkness ? These men put upon themselves that hard measure , which the man after Gods own heart complains to be put upon him by his worst enemies : Wo is me that I am constrained to dwell with Meshech , and to have my habitation in the Tents of Kedar : That holy man could in the bitterness of his soul inveigh against his persecutors for no other terms then these men offer to themselves : Cursed be they before the Lord , for they have driven me out this day from abiding in the inheritance of the Lord ; saying , go serve other gods : I speak not of those , who carry God along with them in his ordinance ; all earths are alike to us , where we may freely enjoy his presence : but of those straglers , who care not to live without God , so they may be befriended by Mammon . How ill a match these poor men make for themselves , I send them to their Saviour to learn What is a man profited if he shall gain the whole world ; and lose his own soul ; or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul ? God forbid , I should give their souls for lost , but I must say , they are hazarded ; for herein doubtless , they tempt God , who hath not promised to keep them in any other , then their just wayes ; and they do in a sort tempt and challenge Satan , to draw them on either to a love of error and impiety , or at least to a cooling of their care and love of truth : How unlike are these men to that wise merchant in the Gospel ; He sold all that he had to buy the pearl of great price : they sell the pearl to buy a little worthless merchandize . As the greatest part of their trafick stands upon exchange ; so I heartily wish they would make this one exchange more ; of less care of their wealth , for more care of their souls . LXXXVIII . Even when Joseph was a great lord in Egypt , second to none but Pharaoh , and had the command of that richest countrey of the world ▪ yet then his old Father Jacob thought his poor parcel of Shechem worthy to be bequeathed to him , and embraced of him , as a noble patrimony ; because it was in the promised land , and the legacy of a dying Father : How justly do I admire the faith both of the father and son in this donation ! Jacob was now in Goshen ; Shechem was in Canaan ; neither was the father now in the present possession ; nor were the sons in some ages to enjoy it : It was four hundred and thirty years that Israel must be a sojourner in a strange countrey , ere they shall enter into the promised Land ; yet now , as foreseeing the future possession , which his posterity should take of this spot of earth , so long after , Jacob gives Shechem to Joseph , and Joseph apprehends it as a rich blessing , as the double portion of the divided primogeniture : Infidelity is purblinde , and can see nothing but that which is hard at hand ; Faith is quick-sighted , and discerns the events of many centuries of years , yea of ages to come ; Abraham saw his Saviours day , and rejoyced to see it , a thousand nine hundred and fourty years off ; and Adam ( before him ) almost four thousand years . As to God all things are present , even future , so to those that by a lively faith partake of him : Why do I not by that faith see my Saviour returning in his Heavenly magnificence , as truly as now I see the Heaven whence he shall come ; and my body as verily raised from the dust , and become glorious , as now I see it weak and decrepit , and falling into the dust ? LXXXIX . True knowledg causeth appetite and desire ; For the will follows the understanding ; whatsoever that apprehends to be good for us , the affective part inclines to it : No man can have any regard to an unknown good : If an hungry man did not know that food would refresh and nourish him , or the thirsty that drink would satisfie him , or the naked that fire would warm him , or the sick that Physick would recover him ; none of these would affect these succors : And according to our apprehension of the goodness and use of these helps , so is our appetite towards them : For the object of the will is a known good , either true , or appearing so : And if our experience can tell us of some that can say , with her in the Poet ; I see and approve better things , but follow the worse : It is not for that evil , as evil , ( much less as worse ) can fall into the will ; but , that their appetite over-carries them to a misconceit of a particular good ; so as , howsoever in a generality , they do confusedly assent to the goodness of some holy act , or object , yet upon the present occasion , ( here and now , as the School speaketh ) their sensitive appetite hath prevailed to draw them to a perswasion , that this pleasure , or that profit is worthy to be imbraced : Like as our first parents had a general apprehension that it was good to obey all the commands of their Creator ; but when it came to the forbidden fruit ; now their eye , and their ear , and their heart tell them , it is good for them , both for pleasure , and for the gain of knowledg , to taste of that forbidden tree : So then , the miscarriage is not in that they affect that which they think not to be good ; but in that they think that to be good which is not ; for alass , for one true good there are many seeming , which delude the soul with a fair semblance : As a man in a generality esteems silver above brass , but when he meets with a rusty piece of silver , and a cleer piece of brass , he chooses rather the clear brass then the silver defaced with rust : Surely , it is our ignorance that is guilty of our cool neglect of our spiritual good ; if we did know how sweet the Lord is , in his sure promises , in his unfailing mercies , we could not but long after him , and remain unsatisfied till we finde him ours : would God be pleased to shine in our hearts by the light of the true knowledg of himself , we could not have cause to complain of want of heat in our affections towards his infinite goodness . Did we but know how sweet and delectable , Christ , the Heavenly Manna , is , we could not but hunger after him ; and we could not hunger , and not be satisfied ; and , in being satisfied , blessed . XC . Those which we mis-cal goods , are but in their nature , indifferent , and are either good or evil as they are affected , as they are used : Indeed , all their malignity , or vertue , is in the minde , in the hand of the possessor : Riches ill got ill kept , ill spent are but the Mammon of iniquity ; but if well , The Crown of the wise is their riches : How can it be amiss to have much , when he that was the richest man of the East , was the holiest ? Yea , when God himself is justly stiled the possessor of Heaven , and Earth ? How can it be amiss to have little ; when our Saviour sayes : Blessed are ye poor : And if from that divine mouth , we hear a wo to the rich ; himself interprets it of them that trust in riches : If our riches possess us , in stead of our possessing them , we have changed our God , and lost our selves ; but if we have learnt to use our wealth , and not enjoy it , we may be no less gracious then rich : If a rich man have a large and humble heart , and a just hand , he inherits the blessing of the poor : If a poor man have a proud heart , and a theevish hand , he carryes away the wo from the rich : Riches ( saith wise Solomon ) make themselves wings , they fly away as an Eagle towards Heaven ; So as we may use the matter , our souls may fly thitherward with them ; If we do good , and be rich in good works , ready to distribute , willing to communicate , laying up in store for our selves a good foundation against the time to come , that we may lay hold on eternal life . Let me say with Agur , Give me neither poverty , nor riches ; but whethersoever God gives , I am both thankful and indifferent , so as whiles I am rich in estate , I may be poor in spirit ; and whiles I am poor in estate , I may be rich in grace . XCI . Had I been in the streets of Jericho , sure , me thinks , I should have justled with Zacheus for the Sycomore , to see Jesus ; and should have blessed my eyes for so happy a prospect : and yet , I consider that many a one saw his face on earth , which shall never see his glory in Heaven : and I hear the Apostle say , Though we have known Christ after the flesh , yet now henceforth know we him so no more . O for the eyes of a Stephen , that saw the Heavens opened , and the glory of God , and Jesus standing on the right hand of God! That prospect did as much transcend this of Zacheus , as Heaven is above Earth ; celestial glory above humane infirmity : And why should not the eyes of my faith behold the same object which was seen by Stephens bodily eyes ? I see thee , O Saviour , I see thee , as certainly , though not so clearly : Do thou sharpen , and fortifie these weak eyes of mine , that in thy light I may see light . XCII . How gracious a word was that which God said to Israel , I have called thee by thy name , and thou art mine . He that imposed that name upon Jacob ; makes familiar use of it to his posterity : Neither is the case singular , but universally common to all his spiritual issue . There is not one of them , whom he doth not both call by his name , and challenge for his own : He that tells the number of the stars , and calls them all by their names ; hath also a name for every of these earthly luminaries ; He who brought all other living creatures unto man , to see how he would call them , and would make use of Adams appellation ; reserved the naming of man to himself ; neither is there any one of his innumerous posterity , whom he knowes not by name : But it is one thing to take notice of their names ; another thing to call them by their names ; that denotes his omniscience ; this his specialty of favor : none are thus graced but the true Sons of Israel . As Gods children do not content themselves with a confused knowledg of a Deity , but rest not till they have attained a distinct apprehension of their God , as he hath revealed himself to man ; so doth God again to them : It is not enough that he knows them in a general view as in the throng , wherein we see many faces , none distinctly ; but he singles them out in a familiar kinde of severalty both of knowledg and respect : As then he hath names for the several Stars of Heaven , Cimah , Cesil , Mazzaroth , &c. And for the several Angels , Gabriel , Raphael , Michael , &c. and calls them by the proper names which he hath given them ; so he doth to every of his faithful ones : Of one he saith , Thou shalt call his name John : Of another , Thou art Simon , thou shalt be called Cephas : To one he says , Zacheus , come down ; to another , Cornelius , thy prayers , and thine alms are come up : In short , there is no one of his , whom he doth not both know , and call by his name . What a comfort is this to a poor wretched man to think ; Here I walk obscure and contemptible upon earth , in a condition mean , and despised of men ; but the great God of Heaven is pleased to take such notice of me , as even from Heaven to call me by my name ; and to single me out for Grace , and Salvation ; and not onely to mention my name from above , in the gracious offer of his Ordinances , but to write it in the eternal Register of Heaven ? What care I to be inglorious , yea causelesly infamous with men , whiles I am thus honored by the King of glory ? XCIII . It is the great wisdom and providence of the Almighty , so to order the dispositions and inclinations of men , that they affect divers and different works , and pleasures : Some are for manuary trades , others for intellectual imployments : One is for the Land , another for the Sea ; one for husbandry , another for merchandise ; one is for Architecture , another for Vestiary services ; one is for fishing , another for pasturage ; and in the learned trades , one is for the mistress of Sciences , Divinity ; another for the Law , whether Civil , or Municipal ; a third is for the search of the secrets of Nature , and the skill and practice of Physick ; and each one of these divides it self into many differing varieties ; Neither is it otherwise in matter of pleasures ; one places his delight in following his Hawk and Hound , another in the harmony of Musick ; one makes his Garden his paradise , and enjoys the flourishing of his fair Tulips ; another findes contentment in a choice Library ; one loves his Bowl , or his Bowe , another pleases himself in the patient pastime of his Angle : For surely , if all men affected one and the same trade of life , or pleasure of recreation , it were not possible that they could live one by another : Neither could there be any use of commerce , whereby mans life is maintained ; neither could it be avoyded , but that the envy of the inevitable rivality , would cut each others throat . It is good reason we should make a right use of this gracious and provident dispensation of the Almighty ; and therefore that we should improve our several dispositions and faculties to the advancing of the common stock ; and withal , that we should neither encroach upon each others profession , nor be apt to censure each others recreation . XCIV . He were very quick-sighted that could perceive the growing of the grass , or the moving of the shadow upon the Dial ; yet , when those are done , every eye doth easily discern them . It is no otherwise in the progress of grace ; which how it increaseth in the soul , and by what degrees , we cannot hope to perceive ; but being grown , we may see it : It is the fault of many Christians , that they depend too much upon sense ; and make that the judg of their spiritual estate ; being too much dejected when they do not sensibly feel the proofs of their proficiency , and the present proceedings of their regeneration : why do they not as well question the growth of their stature , because they do not see every day how much they are thriven ? Surely , it must needs be that spiritual things are less perceptible then bodily ; much more therefore must we in these , wait upon time for necessary conviction ; and well may it suffice us , if upon an impartial comparing of the present measure of our knowledg , faith , obedience with the former , we can perceive our selves any whit sensibly advanced . XCV . The wise Christian hath learned to value every thing according to its own worth ; If we be too glad of these earthly things , it is the way to be too much afflicted with their losse ; and whiles we have them , to be transported into pride and wantonness ; If we esteeme them too little , it is the way to an unthankful disrespect of the giver . Christianity carries the heart in a just equipoise ; when they come , they are welcom'd without too much joy ; and when they go , they part without teares : we may smile at these earthly favors , not laugh out ; we may like them , but we must take heed of being in love with them : For love , of what kinde soever it be , is not without the power of assimilation ; If we love the world , we cannot but be worldly-minded : They that are after the flesh , do minde the things of the flesh ; and to be carnally minded is death : Contrarily if we love God , we are made partakers of the divine nature ; and we are such as we affect : If we be Christians in earnest ; certainly the inner rooms of our hearts , which are the holy of holies , are reserved for the Almighty ; the outer courts may be for the common resort of lawful cares and desires , they may come and go ; but our God shall have his fixed habitation here for ever . XCVI . Nature is slie and cunning ; neither is it possible to take her without a shift : The light huswife wipes her mouth , and it was not she : Rachel hath stoln her fathers Teraphim , and the custom of women is upon her : Saul reserves all the fat cattle of the Amalekites ; it is for a sacrifice to the Lord thy God : Neither is it so onely in excusing an evil done , but in waving a good to be done : I am not eloquent , saith Moses ; send by him , by whom thou shouldst send ; Pharaoh will kill me ; there is a lyon in the way , saith the Sluggard : I have marryed a wife , I cannot come , saith the sensual Guest . If I give I shall want ; If I make a strict profession , I shall be censured : Whereas true Grace is on the one side down right , and ingenuous in its confessions ; not sparing to take shame to it self , that it may give glory to God ; on the other side , resolutely constant to its holy purposes . I and my house will serve the Lord : If I perish , I perish : I am ready not to be bound onely ; but also to dye at Jerusalem for the Name of the Lord Jesus : It is not hard therefore for us to know what mistress we serve : If our care and endeavor be by witty evasions to shuffle off both evil and good , we are the vassals of nature ; but if we shall with an humble penitence acknowledg our evil ; and set our selves with firm resolutions upon the tasks of good , we are under Grace , in a way to glory . XCVII . It is good for a man not always to keep his eyes at home , but sometimes to look abroad at his neighbors ; and to compare his own condition with the worse estate of others : I know I deserve no more then the meanest , no better then the worst of men ; yet how many do I see , and hear to lye groaning upon their sick beds , in great extremity of torment , whereas I walk up and down in a competency of health ? How many do I see ready to famish , and forced to either beg , or starve , whereas I eat my own bread ? How many lye roting in Goals and Dungeons , or are driven to wander in unknown desarts , or amongst people whose language they understand not , whereas I enjoy home and liberty ? How many are shrieking under scourges and racks , whereas I sit at ease ? And if I shall cast mine eyes upon my spiritual condition ; alass , how many do I see sit in darkness , and in the shadow of death ; whereas the Sun of Righteousness hath arisen to me with healing in his wings ? How many lye in a woful bondage under sin and Satan , whereas my Saviour hath freed me from those hellish chains , and brought me to the glorious liberty of the sons of God ? how many are miserably mis-led into the dangerous by-paths of error , whereas he hath graciously kept me in the plain and sure way of his saving Truth ? If we do not sometimes make these ( not proud , but thankful ) comparisons , and look upon our selves , not with direct beams , but by reflection upon others , we shall never be sensible enough of our own mercies . XCVIII . The true Christian is in a very happy condition , for no man will envy him , and he can envy no body : None will envy him , for the world cannot know how happy he is ; How happy in the favor of a God ; how happy in the enjoying of that Favor : Those secret delights that he findes in the presence of his God ; those comfortable pledges of Love , and mutual interchanges of blessed Interest which pass between them , are not for worldly hearts to conceive ; and no man will envy an unknown happiness . On the other side , he cannot envy the worlds greatest favorite under Heaven ; for he well knows how fickle and uncertain that mans felicity is ; he sees him walking upon Ice , and perceives every foot of his sliding , and threatning a fall ; and hears that brittle pavement , at every step , crackling under him , and ready to give way to his swallowing up : and withal , findes , if those pleasures of his could be constant and permanent , how poor and unsatisfying they are , and how utterly unable to yield true contentment to the soul . The Christian therefore , whiles others look upon him with pity and scorn , laughs secretly to himself in his bosom , as well knowing there is none but he , truly happy . XCIX . It was an high and honorable embassie , whereon the Angel Gabriel was sent down to the blessed Virgin ; that she should be the Mother of her Saviour : Neither was that inferior of the glorious Angel that brought the joyful tidings of the incarnation and birth of the Son of God , to the shepherds of Bethlehem ; but a far more happy errand was that which the Lord Jesus , after his Resurrection , committed to the Maries : Go to my brethren , and say to them , I ascend to my Father , and your Father , and to my God , and your God : Lo , he says not I am risen , but I ascend ; as if he had forgot the Earth , whence he arose ; and thought onely on that Heaven whither he was going : Upon his Easter , his minde is on his Ascension day . As there had been nothing but discomfort in death , without a Resurrection ; so there had been little comfort in a Resurrection , without an Ascension to glory . There is a contentment in the very act , I ascend ; even nature is ambitious ; and we do all affect to mount higher ; as to come down is a Death ; but this height is , like the ascendent , infinite , I ascend to my Father : There was the glory which he put off in his humble Incarnation ; there was the glory which he was now to resume , and possess to all eternity : And , as if Nature and Adoption could give a like interest , he puts both together ; My Father , and your Father ; my God , and your God : His mercy vouchsafes to stile us Brethren ; yet the distance is unmeasureable , betwixt him , the Son of his eternal Essence , and us the naturally-wretched sons of his gracious Election ; yet , as if both he and we should be coheirs of the same blessedness ( though not in the same measure ) he says , My Father , and your Father : First , my Father , then yours ; and indeed therefore ours , because his : It is in him that we are elected , that we are adopted : Without him , God were not onely a stranger , but an enemy ; It is the Son that must make us free ; It is the Son that must make us sons : If we be his , the Father cannot but be ours . O the unspeakable comfort and happiness of a Christian ; In respect of his bodily nature , he cannot but say ( with Job ) to the worm , Thou art my mother , and my sister ; in his spiritual right , God the Son hath here authorized him to say to the Almighty , Thou art my Father : And if nature shall , in regard of our frail and dying condition , whiningly say , I descend to the grave ; Faith makes abundant amends in him , and can as cheerfully say , I ascend to my Father : And what son ( that is not altogether graceless ) would not be glad to go to his father , though it were to a meaner house then his own ? and therefore is ready to say , I will descend to my Father ; How much more , when his many Mansions are infinitely glorious ; and when all our happiness consists in his blessed Presence , must we needs say , with a joy unspeakable , and glorious , I ascend to my Father ? C. God made man the lord of his Creatures ; he made him not a Tyran ; he gave the Creatures to man for his lawful use , not for his wanton cruelty : Man may therefore exercise his just soveraignty over the beasts of the field , and fowls of the air , and fishes of the sea , not his lawless will to their needless destruction , or torment : Had man made the Creature , he could but challenge an absolute dominion over that work of his hands ; but now that he is onely a fellow creature to the meanest worm , What an insolent usurpation is this , so licentiously to domineer over his fellow dust ? Yea , that great God , who gave a Being to the creature ; and therefore hath a full and illimited power over his own workmanship , takes no pleasure to make use of that power to the unnecessary vexation , and torture of what he hath made : That all-wise and bountiful Creator , who hath put into the hands of man the subordinate Dominion over all the store of these inferior Elements , hath made the limit of his command , not necessity onely , but convenience too ; but if man shall go beyond these bounds , and will destroy the creature onely , because he will , and put it to pain because it is his pleasure ; he abuseth his soveraignty to a sinful imperiousness , and shall be accountable for his cruelty . When the Apostle , upon occasion of the Law for not muzzling the mouth of the Ox , asks , Doth God take care for oxen ? Can we think he meant to question the regard that God hath to so useful a Creature ? Do we not hear the Psalmist say , He giveth to the beast his food , and to the young ravens that cry ? Do we not hear our Saviour say , That not a sparrow falls to the ground without our heavenly Father ? And of how much more value is an Ox then many thousands of Sparrows ? Is not the speech therefore , both comparative and typical ? Is the main care that God takes in that Law , for provision to be made for the beast ; and doth he not rather under that figure give order for the maintenance of those spiritual Oxen , that labor in the husbandry of the Almighty ? Doubtless , as even the savage creatures , The young lyons seek their meat from God ; so they finde it from him in due season ; He openeth his hand and filleth every creature with good : Is God so careful for preserving , and shall man be so licentious in destroying them ? A righteous man ( saith Solomon ) regardeth the life of his beast , he is no better , therefore , then a wicked man that regardeth it not : To offer violence to , and to take away the life from our fellow-creatures , without a cause , is no less then tyranny : Surely , no other measure should a man offer to his beast , then that , which if his beast ( with Balaams ) could expostulate with him , he could well justifie to it ; no other , then that man , if he had been made a beast , would have been content should have been offered by man to him ; no other then he shall make account to answer to a common Creator . Justly do we smile at the niceness of the foolish Manichees , who made scruple to pull an herb or flower , and were ready to Preface apologies and excuses for the reaping of their Corn , and grinding the grain they fed upon , as if these Vegetables were sensible of pain , and capable of our oppression ; but surely , for those creatures which enjoying a sensitive life , forgo it with no less anguish and reluctation then our selves ; and would be as willing to live , without harm , as their owners , they may well challenge both such mercy and justice at our hands , as that in the usage of them we may approve our selves to their Maker : Wherein I blush and grieve to see how far we are exceeded by Turks and Infidels ; whom meer nature hath taught more tenderness to the poor brute creatures , then we have learned from the holier rules of charitable Christianity . For my part , let me rather affect and applaud the harmless humor of that mis-called Saint , who in an indiscreet humility called every Woolf his brother , and every Sheep , yea , every Ant his sister , fellowing himself with every thing that had life in it , as well as himself ; then the tyrannical disposition of those men who take pleasure in the abuse , persecution , destruction of their fellow-creatures , upon no other quarrel , then because they live . Supernumeraries . I. THere is a satiety in all other ( even the best ) things that I either have , or doe : I can be easily apt to complain of being wearied , or cloyed with the same objects but in the thoughts of spiritual things , mee thinkes , I can never have enough : For as there is infinite scope and variety of matter , wherein to employ my meditations , so in each one of them , there is such marvellous depth , that I should in vaine hope , after all my exquisitest search , to reach unto the bottome : Yea the more I look upon the incomprehensible Deity , in any one of his glorious attributes , or any one of his omnipotent works , of creation , government , redemption ; the more I long to see , and the less am I satisfied in seeing : and now I finde cause to bless that unspeakable goodness , that he hath vouchsafed to give leave to his unworthy creaturs , to contemplate those excellent glories , and those saving mysteries ; and think my self happy in so gracious a liberty of exchanging these worthless thoughts of the world , for the deare and precious meditations of heavenly things ; and now how justly do I fall out with my wretched self , that I have given way to secular distractions ? since my heart can be sometimes in Heaven , why should it not be alwaies there ? II. What is this that I see ? my Saviour in an Agonie , and an Angel strengthening him ? Oh the wonderful dispensation of the Almighty ! That the eternal Son of God , who promised to send the comforter to his followers , should need comfort ! That he , of whom the voice from Heaven said , This is my well-beloved Son in whom I am well pleased , should be strugling with his Fathers wrath even to blood ! That the Lord of life should in a languishing horror , say , My soul is exceeding sorrowfull , even unto death ! These , these , O Saviour , are the chastisements of our peace , which both thou wouldst suffer , and thy Father would inflict ; The least touch of one of those pangs , would have been no less then an hell to mee ; the whole brunt whereof thou enduredst for my soul ; what a wretch am I , to grudg a little paine from , or for thee who wert content to undergoe such pressure of torment for me , as squeezed from thee a sweat of blood ! since my miserable sinfulness deserved more load , then thou in thy merciful compassion wilt lay upon mee ; and thy pure nature , and perfect innocence merited nothing but love and glory . In this sad case , what service is it that an Angel offers to do unto thee ? [ Lo there appeares to thee an Angel from Heaven , strengthening thee ] still more wonder ! Art not thou the God of spirits ? Is it not thou , that gavest being , life , motion , power , glory to all the Angels of Heaven ? Shall there be need of one single created spirit to administer strength and comfort to his Creator ? were this the errand ; why did not all that blessed Chore of celestial spirits joyn their forces together in so high an imployment ? Where are the multitudes of that heavenly host , which at thy birth , sung , Glory to God in the highest , and on earth peace ? Where are those Angels which ministred to thee after thy combat of temptations in the wilderness ? Surely there was not so much use of their divine cordialls in the desart , as in the garden ; O my God , and Saviour , thus thou wouldst have it ; It is thy holy will that is the rule and reason of all thine actions , and events ; Thou that wouldst make use of the provision of men for thy maintenance on earth , wouldst employ thy servants the Angels , for the supply of thy consolations ; and thou that couldst have commanded Legions of those celestial spirits , wouldst be served by one ; not , but that more were present , but that onely one appeared ; all the host of them ever invisibly attended thee , as God , but as man , one onely presents himself to thy bodily eyes ; and thou , who madest thy self , for our sakes , a little lower then the Angels which thou madest , wouldst humble thy self to receive comfort from those hands , to which thou gavest the capacity to bring it ; It is no marvel if that which was thy condescent , be our glory and happiness : I am not worthy , O God , to know what conflicts thou hast ordained for my weakness ; what ever they be , thou that hast appointed thine Angels to be ministring spirits for the behoof of them who shall be heirs of salvation , suffer not thy servant to want the presence of those blessed Emissaries of thine in any of his extremities ; let them stand by his soul in his last agonie , and after an happy Eluctation conveigh it to thy glory . III. Many a one hath stumbled dangerously at a wicked mans prosperity ; and some have fallen desperately into that sin , which they have seen thrive in others hands : Those carnal hearts know no other proof of good or evil but present events ; esteeming those causes holy and just which are crowned with outward success : not considering that it is one of the cunningest plots of hell , to win credit to bad enterprises by the fairest issues ; wherein , the Devill deales with unwary men , like some cheating gamester , who having drawn in an unskilful and wealthy novice into play , suffers him to win a while at the first , that he may at the last , sweet away all the stakes , and some rich mannors to boote : The foolish Benjaminites having twice won the field , begin to please themselves with a fale conceit of Gibeahs honesty , and their own perpetual victories ; but they shall soon finde that this good speed is but a pit-fal to entrap them in an ensuing destruction . It is a great judgment of God to punish sinners with welfare ; and to render their leud waies prosperuos : wherein , how contrary are the Almighties thoughts to theirs ; their seeming blessings are his heavy curse ; and the smart of his stripes are a favor too good for them to enjoy , to judge wisely of our condition , it is to be considered not so much how we fare , as upon what termes : If we stand right with Heaven , every cross is a blessing , and every blessing a pledge of future happiness : if we be in Gods disfavor , every of his benefits is a judgment ; and every judgment makes way for perdition : For mee , let it be my care that my disposition may be holy , and my actions righteous , let God undertake for the event . IV It is no easie thing to perswade a man that he is proud ; every one professes to hate that vice , yet cherishes it secretly in his bosome : for what is pride but an over-weening of our selves ? and such is is our natural self-love , that we can hardly be drawn to believe that in any kinde we think too well of our own : Now , this pride is ever so much more dangerous , as the thing which we over-prize is more excellent ; and as our mis-apprehension of it m●y be more diffusive : To be proud of gay-cloathes , which is childish ; or , to be proud of beauty , which is a womanish vice , hath in it more fondness then malignity ; and goes no further then the brest wherein it is conceived ; finding no other entertainment in the beholders , then either smiles , or envy : but the pride of knowledg , or holy dispositions of the soul , as it is of an higher nature , so it produceth commonly more perilous effects : for as it puffes up a man above measure ; so it suffers not it self to bekept in within the narrow bounds of his own thoughts , but violently bursts out to the extream prejudice of a world of men : Onely by pride commeth contention , saith wise Solomon : Even purse-pride is quarelous , domineering over the humble neighbourhood , and raising quarrels out of trifles ; but the spiritual arrogance is so much more mischeivous , as the soul is beyond all earthly pelf : For , when we are once come to advance , and admire our own judgments ; we are first apt to hug our own inventions ; then to esteem them too precious to be smothered within our own closets : the world must know of how happy an issue we are delivered ; and must applaud it , or abide a contestation , and expect a challenge . The fairest paradoxes cannot pass without a contradiction ; it were strange if some as bold , and forward wits as our own , should not take up the gantlet : now the fray is begun ; the multitude is divided ; sides are taken ; the world is in an uproare , from skirmishes we grow to pitcht fields : the Church bleeds on both parts ; and it were marvel if kingdoms could be free : But that which most notably evinceth the deceitfulness of mans heart in this behalf , is , that this pride is too often lodged in those brests which are professedly devoted to a godly and mortified lowliness : for , as for those persons which are meer flesh , they are carelesly indifferent to error or truth ; neither are at all moved with the success of either ; but the religious minde , when it is once possessed with the conceit of some singular and important truth revealed to it , and hid from the rest of the world , is ready to say with the Samaritan Lepers ; I do not well ; this day is a day of good tidings , and I hold my peace ; and therefore makes it matter of conscience to trouble the Church with a mis-grounded novelty : Come we to the Test ; Let me ask these mis-guided souls that are no less confidently perswaded of their own humility then Truth ; Can it be any other then an height of pride , for a man to think himself wiser then the whole Church of God upon earth ? wiser then the whole Church of God that hath been upon earth ever since the Apostles of Christ inclusively , in all successions to this present time ? Can they without much pride think they can look deeper into the great mysteries of Godliness , then those blessed attendants of our Saviour , and their gracious successors , the holy martyrs , the godly and religious guides of Gods Church , in all the following ages ? Had not they , then , the same God ; the same Scriptures , the illuminations of the same Spirit ? Can they imagine it less then insolent to attribute more to their own private opinion , then to the constant judgment and practise of the whole Christian world in all successions of Generations ? Can they suppose themselves in their single capacity ( though neither Prophets , nor Prophets sons ) meet Judges or Questionists of those matters of Faith which the general Councils of the purer times have unanimously agreed upon as the main principles of Christianity ? can they think themselves priviledged by the liberty of prophesying to coyn new articles , to deface old ? Surely , if the hand of pride be not in all this , I shall never desire to be acquainted with humility ; so as it is too plain , that a man may be exceeding proudly and not know it ; this vicious habit lurks close in the soul , and unless it discover it self by some scarce — discernable effects ( which break out now and then , especially , upon occasions of opposition ) is rather more concealed from the owner , then from the eyes of a stranger : But ( if ever , ) it bewrays it self in the affectation of undue eminence , scornful under-valuation of others merits , obstinacy in opinion , sharpness of censures , and impatience of contradiction ; Of all these the world is commonly no less guilty , then all these are guilty of the common miseries . Lord deliver us from our pride , and our contentions will dye alone . V What a strange praise and priviledge is that which is given to Enoch , above all those generations of men that peopled the first world ; of whom the Spirit of God saies ; Enoch walked with God , and he was not ; for God took him : Doubtless , amongst all those successive families of the sons of Seth , there were many religious and well-affected souls ; yet there was no one of them that had this character set upon him , that he walked with God , but he : Whether it were , that God did in a more open and entire way reveal himself to that exemplary Saint ; or whether that holy man did in a more close and familiar fashion , converse with the invisible Deity , the presence was certain , and the acknowledgment mutual : neither was this walk short , for a turn , and away ; but constant , and continual ; even for the space of three hundred years : And what ? did the blessed man retire to some desart , far from all humane society , that he might enjoy this heavenly company alone ? Did he this-while cast off all secular thoughts , and abdicate all the care of his family ? Neither this , nor that ; for in this space wherein he walked with his God ; he both begat sons and daughters , and bred them like the children of such a father ; as one that knew to make the world subordinate , not opposite to it's maker : and had learn'd to reconcile the use of the creature with the fruition of the Creator : What then were the steps of this walk , but pious thoughts , heavenly affections , fervent love , reverential fear , spiritual joy , holy desires , divine ravishments of spirit ; strict obediences , assiduous devotions , faithful affiances , gracious ingagements , firme resolutions , and effectual indeavors of good , and whatsoever might work a dearness of respect betwixt the soul , and the God of Spirits : O God , that which thou promisedst ( as a reward ) to those few Saints of Sardis , that had not defile their garments , thou hast before hand fully performed to this eminent worthy of the first world ; he walked with thee in white , in the white of innocence here ; and in the shining robes of glory above ; so thou hast told us , He was not , for God took him ; Lo ; being , and good were wont to pass for convertible ; but here , Enochs not-being , is his blessedness ; he was not at all here ; that he might be perfectly above : The best being on earth is but miserable ; even Enochs walk with God cannot exempt him from sorrows ; he must cease to be , that he may begin to be happy ; He was then happy , not for that he was not ; ( a meer privation of being can be no other then the worst of evils ) but for that God took him : The God with whom he walkt so long upon earth , takes him away from the earth to himself , for eternity : Here below though he walk't with God , yet withall he conversed with sinful men , whose wickedness could not but many a time vex his righteous soul ; now he is freed from all those spiritual annoyances ; enjoying onely the glorious presence and vision of the Divine majesty , the blessed Angels , and the Saints , co-partners of the same immortality . There can be no doubt but that the souls of his holy predecessors Adam , Abel , Seth , returned to the God that gave them ; but had not Enoch been blessed with a peculiar conveiance to his glory , it had not been said , That God took him : were onely the spirit of Enoch yeilded up in the way of an ordinary death , the man had not been taken ; now , whole Enoch , body and soul , is translated to an heavenly life . His father Jared , and his son Methuselah went to God in the common way of men , by a separation of the spirit from the flesh ; but for him , God took him ; and cloathed him living with immortality : I finde none but him and Elijah that were thus fetcht to their Heaven : It will be happy for us if we may pass in the common road to blessedness ; O God , give me to walk close and constantly with thee , and what end thou pleasest ; let my body pass through all the degrees of corruption , so that my soul may be immediately glorious . FINIS . THE BREATHINGS OF THE Devout Soul. I. BLessed Lord God ; thou callest me to obedience ; and fain would I follow thee : but what good can this wretched heart of mine be capable of , except thou put it there ? thou know'st I cannot so much as wish to think well without thee ; I have strong powers to offend thee ; my sins are my own ; but whence should I have any inclination to good but from thee , who art only , and all good ? Lord , work me to what thou requirest , and then require what thou wilt . II. Lord God , whither need I go to seek thee ? Thou art so with me , as that I cannot move but in thee . I look up to heaven ; there I know thy Majestie most manifests it self ; but withall , I know that being here thou art never out of thy heaven , for it is thy presence onely that makes heaven : Oh give me to enjoy thee in this lowest region of thine heavenly habitation ; and as in respect of my naturall being , I live and move in thee , so let me not live and move spiritually , but with thee , and to thee . III. Whither now , O whither do ye rove O my thoughts ? Can ye hope to finde rest in any of these sublunary contentments , Alas ? how can they yeeld any stay to you , that have no settlement in themselves ? Is there not enough in the infinite good to take you up ; but that ye will be wandring after earthly vanities ? Oh my Lord , how justly mightest thou cast me off with scorn , for casting any affective glances upon so base a rival ? Truly Lord , I am ashamed of this my hatefull inconstancy ; but it is thou only that must remedy it ; O thou that art the father of mercies pity my wildnesse , and weak distractions : Take thou my heart to thee , it is thine own ; keep it with thee , tye it close to thee by the cords of love , that it may not so much as cast down an eye upon this wretched and perishing world . IIII. Lord , I confesse to my shame , thou art a great loser by me ; for , besides my not improving of thy favors , I have not kept even-reckonings with thee ; I have not justly tallied up thy inestimable benefits : Thy very privative mercies are both without , and beyond my account ; for every evill that I am free from , is a new blessing from thee ; That I am out of bondage , that I am out of pain and misery , that I am out of the dominion of sin ; out of the tyranny of Satan , out of the agonies of an afflicted soul ; out of the torments of hell : Lord , how unspeakeable mercies are these ? Yet , when did I bless thee for any of them ? Thy positive bounties I can feel , but with a benummed and imperfect sence . Lord , do thou enlarge , and intenerate my heart ; make me truly sensible , as of my good received ; so of my escaped evils ; and take thou to thy self the glory of them both . V. Ah my Lord God , what heats and colds do I feel in my soul ? Sometimes I finde my self so vigorous in grace , that no thought of doubt dare shew it self ; and me thinks I durst challenge my hellish enemies ; another while I feel my self so dejected and heartlesse , as if I had no interest in the God of my salvation , nor never had received any certain pledges of his favour : What shall I say to this various disposition ? Whether , Lord , is it my wretchednesse to suffer my self to be rob'd of thee , for the time , by temptation ? or whether is this the course of thy proceedings in the dispensation of thy graces to the sons of men ; that thou wilt have the breathings of thy Spirit , as where , so how , and when thou pleasest ? Surely , O my God , if I did not know thee constant to thine everlasting mercies , I should be utterly disheartened with these sad intervals ; now , when my sense failes me , I make use of my faith ; and am no lesse sure of thee , even when I feel thee not , then when I finde the clearest evidences of thy gracious presence . Lord , shine upon me with the light of thy countenance ( if it may be ) alwaies ; but , when ever that is clouded , strengthen thou my faith ; so shall I be safe , even when I am comfortless . VI. O my God , I am justly ashamed to think what favors I have received from thee , and what poor returns I have made to thee : Truly Lord , I must needs say , thou hast thought nothing either in earth , or in heaven too good for me ; and I , on the other side , have grudg'd thee that weak and worthless obedience which thou hast required of me : Alas , what pleasure could I have done to thee who art infinite , if I had sacrificed my whole self to thee , as thou commandest ? Thou art , and wilt be thy self , though the world were not ; it is I , I only that could be a gainer by this happy match ; which in my own wrong I have unthankfully neglected ; I see it is not so much what we have , as how we imploy it : O thou , that hast been so bountiful , in heaping thy rich mercies upon me , vouchsafe to grant me yet one gift more ; give me grace and power to improve all thy gifts to the glory of the giver ; otherwise , it had been better for me to have been poor , then ingrateful . VII . Ah Lord , What strugling have I with my weak fears ? how do I anticipate my evils by distrust ? What shall I do when I am old ? How shall I be able to indure pain ? How shall I pass through the horrid gates of death ? Oh my God , Where is my faith that I am thus surprized ? Had I not thee to up-hold , and strengthen my soul , well might I tremble and sink under these cares ; but now , that I have the assurance of so strong an helper , as commands all the powers of heaven , earth , and hell , what a shame is it for me to give so much way to my wretched infidelity , as to punish my self with the expectation of future evils ? Oh for the victorie that overcomes the world , even our faith ; Thou O God , art my refuge and strength , a very present help in trouble ; therefore will I not fear though the earth be removed , and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the Sea. VIII . Lord , I made account my daies should have been but an inch ; but thou hast made them a span long ; having drawn out the length of a crazie life beyond the period of my hopes : It is for something , sure , that thou hast thus long respited me from my grave , which look't for me many years ago : Here I am , O my God , attending thy good pleasure ; Thou know'st best what thou hast to do with me ; Dispose of me as thou wilt ; Only make me faithfull in all thy services ; resolute to trust my self with thee in all events ; carefull to be approved of thee in all my waies ; and crown my decayed age with such fruits as may be pleasing to thee , and available to the good of many ; Lastly , let me live to thee , and die in thee . IX . How oft , Lord , have I wondred to see the strange carriage of thine administration of these earthly affaires ; and therein to see thy marvailous wisdome , power , goodness , in fetching good out of evill ! Alas , we wretched men are apt enough to fetch the worst of evils , out of the greatest good , turning the grace of thee our God into wantonnesse : but how have I seen thee , of liveless stones to raise up children to Abraham , of sinners to make Saints ? out of a desperate confusion to fetch order ; out of a bloudy war , an happy peace ; out of resolutions of revenge , love ; out of the rock , water ; out of a persecuter , an Apostle ? How can I be discouraged with unlikelihoods , when I see thee work by contraries ? It is not for me , O my God , to examine or pre-judge thy counsailes ; take what waies thou wilt , so thou bring me to thine own end ; all paths shall be direct that shall leade me to blessedness . X. How many good purposes , O my God , have I taken up , & let fall to the ground again without effect ? how teeming hath this barren womb of my heart been of false conceptions ? but especially , when thy hand hath been smart and heavy upon me in mine affliction , how have I tasked my self with duties , and revived my firme resolutions of more strict obedience , which yet upon the continuance of my better condition , I have slackened ? Lord , it is from thee that I purposed well ; it is from my own sinfull weakness that I failed in my performances ; If any good come me , the will and the deed must be both thine ; The very preparations of the heart are from thee ; and if I have devised my way , it must be thou that directest my steps : O God , do thou ripen and perfect all the good motions that thou puttest into my soul ; and make my health but such as my sickness promised . XI . Every man , Lord , is unwilling that his name should dye ; we are all naturally ambitious of being thought on when we are gone ; those that have not living monuments to perpetuate them , affect to have dead ; if Absolon have not a son , he will yet erect a pillar : yet when we have all done , time eates us out at the last ; There is no remembrance of the wise more then of the foole for ever ; seeing that which now is , in the daies to come shall all be forgotten . O God , let it be my care and ambition , what ever become of my memory here below , that my name may be recorded in Heaven . XII . Thy wise providence , O God , hath so ordered it , that every mans minde seeks and findes contentment in some thing ; otherwise it could not be ( since we must meet with so frequent crosses in the world ) but that mans life would be burdensome to him ; one takes pleasure in his hauke or hound ; another in his horses and furnitures ; one in fair buildings ; another in pleasant walks and beautiful gardens ; one in travailing abroad ; another in the enioying of the profits and pleasures of his home ; one in the increase of his wealth ; another in the titles of his honor ; one in a comfortable wife , another in loving and dutiful children , but when all is done , if there be not somwhat els to uphold the heart in the evil day , it must sink . O God , do thou possesse my soul of thee ; let me place all my felicity in the fruition of thine infinite goodness ; so I am sure the worst of the world hath not power to render me other then happy . XIII . O Lord God , under how opposite aspects do I stand , from the world ? how variously am I construed by men ? One pities my condition , another praises my patience ; One favors mee out of the opinion of some good that he thinks he sees in mee ; another dislikes me for some imagined evil : What are the eyes , or tongues of men to mee ? Let me not know what they say , or think of me , and what am I the better or worse for them ? they can have no influence upon me without my own apprehension : All is in what termes I stand with thee , my God ; if thou be pleased to look upon me with the eye of thy tender mercy and compassion , What care I to be unjustly brow-beaten of the world ? If I may be blessed with thy favour , let me be made a gazing-stock to the world , to Angels , and to men . XIV . Speak Lord , for thy servant heareth : What is it which thou wouldst have me do that I may finde rest to my soul ? I am willing to exercise my self in all the acts of piety which thou requirest ; I am ready to fast , to pray , to read , to hear , to meditate , to communicate , to give alms , to exhort , admonish , reprove , comfort where thou bid'st me ; and if there be any other duty appertaining to devotion , or mercy , let me serve thee in it : But , alas , O my God , howsoever I know these works are in themselves well-pleasing unto thee , yet as they fall from my wretchedness , they are stained with so many imperfections , that I have more reason to crave pardon for them , then to put confidence in them ; and if I could performe them never so exquisitely , yet one sin is more then enough to dash all my obedience . I see then , O Lord , I well see there is no act that I can be capable to do unto thee , wherein I can finde any repose ; it must be thine act to me , which only can effect it ; It is thy gracious word , Come unto me all ye that labour , and are heavy laden , and I will give you rest ; Lo this rest must be thy gift , not my earning ; and what can be freer then gift ? Thou givest it then , but to those that come to thee ; not to those that come not ; To those that come to thee laden and labouring under the sense of their own wretchedness ; not to the proud , and careless ; O Saviour , thy sinner is sufficiently laden with the burden of his iniquities ; lade thou me yet more with true penitent sorrow for my sins ; and inable me then to come unto thee by a lively faith ; Take thou the praise of thine own work ; Give me the grace to come ; and give me rest in coming . XV. O blessed Saviour , What strange variety of conceits do I finde concerning thy thousand years raign ? What riddles are in that prophesie ; which no humane tongue can aread ? where to fix the begining of that marvailous millenary , and where the end ; and what manner of raign it shall be , whether temporal , or spiritual ; on earth , or in heaven ; undergoes as many constructions , as there are pens that have undertaken it ; and yet ( when all is done ) I see thine Apostle speaks onely of the souls of thy martyrs , raigning so long with thee ; not of thy raigning on earth so long with those Martyrs ; How busie are the tongues of men , how are their brains taken up with the indeterminable construction of this enigmaticall truth ? when , in the mean time , the care of thy spirituall raign in their hearts , is neglected ; O my Saviour , whiles others weary themselves with the disquisition of thy personall raign here upon earth for a thousand years ; let it be the whole bent and study of my soul , to make sure of my personall raign with thee in heaven to all eternity . XVI . Blessed be thy name , O God , who hast made a good use even of hell it self ; How many Atheous hearts have been convinced by the very operations of Devils ? Those which would with the stupid Saducees , perswade themselves there are no spirits ; yet when they have sensibly found the marvellous effects wrought even by the base instruments of Satan ; they have been forced to confesse , Doubtless there is a God that rules the world ; for so great powers of evill spirits must necessarily evince the greater powers of good ; It is of thy wise and holy dispensation that thy good Angels do not so frequently exhibite themselves , and give so visible demonstrations of their presence to thy Saints , as the evill Angels do to their Vassals , though they are ever as present , and more powerfull ; What need they ; when thou so mightily over-rulest those malignant spirits , that thou forcest from them thine own glory , and advantage to thy chosen ? Lord , how much more shall all thy other creatures serve to thy praise , when thy very hellish enemies shall proclaim thy justice , goodness , omnipotence . XVII . Speculation , O Lord , is not more easie then practice is difficult ; how many have we known , who , as it was said of the Philosophers of old , know how to speak well , but live ill ; How many have written books of Chymistry , and given very confident directions for the finding out of that precious stone of the Philosophers , but how many have indeed made gold ? Practice is that which thou , O God , chiefly requirest and respectest ; who hast said , If ye know these things , blessed are ye if you do them ; Knowledg puffeth up , but love edifieth : O Lord do thou enlighten mine eyes with the knowledg of thy will ; but above all , do thou rectifie my affections , guide my feet into the wayes of thy commandements ; apply my heart to fulfill thy statutes alway ; and Prosper thou the work of my hands upon me , O prosper thou my handi-work . XVIII . How oft have I wondred , O Lord , at the boldness of those men , who knowing they must shortly die , yet dare do those things which will draw upon them eternity of torments ? What shall I say , but , The fool hath said in his heart , there is no God ; Surely , men love themselves well enough ; and would be loth to do that , which would procure them an inevitable misery and pain ; Did they therefore believe there were another world , and that they must be called to a strict reckoning for all their actions , and be doomed to an everlasting death for their wicked deeds , they durst not , they could not do those acts which should make them eternally miserable : Let me say to the most desperate ruffian ; there is poyson in this cup , drink this draught and thou diest ; he would have the wit to keep his lips close , and cast the potion to the ground ; were it not for their infidelity , so would men do to the most plausible ( but deadly ) offers of sin . O Lord , since I know thy righteous judgments ; teach me to tremble at them ; restrain thou my feet from every evill way ; and teach me so to walk , as one that looks every hour to appear before thy just , and dreadfull Tribunal . XIX The longer I live , O my God , the more do I wonder at all the works of thine hands : I see such admirable artifice in the very least and most despicable of all thy creatures , as doth every day more and more astonish my observation : I need not look so far as Heaven for matter of marvaile ( though therein thou art infinitely glorious ) whiles I have but a spider in my window , or a bee in my garden , or a worm under my feet : every one of these overcomes me with a just amazement ; yet can I see no more then their very out-sides ; their inward form which gives them their being , and operations , I cannot pierce into ; the less I can know , O Lord , the more let me wonder ; and the less I can satisfie my self with marvailing at thy works , the more let me adore the majesty and omnipotence of thee that wroughtest them . XX. Alas , my Lord God , what poor , weak , imperfit services are those ( even at the best ) that I can present thee withal ! How leane , lame , and blemished sacrifices do I bring to thine altar ! I know thou art worthy of more then my soul is capable to perform ; and fain would I tender thee the best of thine own : but , what I would that I do not ; yea , cannot do : Surely , had I not to do with an infinite mercy , I might justly look to be punished for my very obedience : But now Lord my impotence redounds to the praise of thy goodness ; for were I more answerable to thy justice the glory of thy mercy would be so much less eminent in my remission , & acceptance ; Here I am before thee , to await thy good pleasure ; thou knowest whether it be better to give me more ability , or to accept of that poor ability thou hast given me ; but since , when thou hast given me most , I shall still , and ever stand in need of thy forgiveness ; Let my humble suit be to thee alwaies , rather for pardon of my defects , then for a supply of thy graces . XXI . O my God ; how do I see many profane and careless souls spend their time in jollity and pleasure . The harp and the Viol , the Tabret and the pipe , and wine are in their feasts ; Whiles I that desire to walk close with thee , in all conscionable obedience , droop and languish under a dull heaviness , and heartless dejection : I am sure I have a thousand times more cause of joy and cheerfulness , then the merriest of all those wilde and joviall spirits ; they have a world to play withall , but I have a God to rejoyce in ; their sports are triviall and momentanie ; my joy is serious , and everlasting : One dram of my mirth is worth a pound of theirs ; But , I confesse , O Lord , how much I am wanting to my self in not stirring up this holy fire of spirituall joy ; but suffering it to lie raked up under the dead ashes of a sad neglect : O thou , who art the God of hope , quicken this heavenly affection in my soul ; and fill me with all joy and peace in believing ; make my heart so much more light then the worldlings , by how much my estate is happier . XXII . What shall I do Lord ? I strive and tug ( what I may ) with my naturall corruptions , and with the spirituall wickednesses in high places which set upon my soul ; but sometimes I am foyled , and go halting out of the field ; it is thy mercy that I live , being so fiercely assaulted by those principalities , and powers ; it were more then wonder if I should escape such hands without a wound : Even that holy servant of thine who strove with thine Angel for a blessing , went limping away , though he prevailed ; what mervail is it that so weak a wretch as I , striving with many evill Angels for the avoidance of a curse , come off with a maime , or a scar ? But blessed be thy name , the wounds that I receive are not mortall ; and when I fall , it is but to my knees ; whence I rise with new courage and hopes of victory ; Thou who art the God of all power , and keepest the keys of hell and death , hast said , Resist the Devill , and he will flee from you ; Lord , I do and will by thy merciful ayd still and ever resist ; make thou my faith as stedfast , as my will is resolute ; Oh still teach thou my hands to war , and my fingers to fight ; arme thou my soul with strength , and at last according to thy gracious promise , crown it with victory . XXIII . Oh Lord God ; how ambitious , how covetous of knowledg is this soul of mine ? as the eye is not satisfied with seeing , nor the eare filled with hearing ; no more is the mind of man with understanding ; yea , so insatiable is my heart , that the more I know , the more I desire to know ; and the less I think I know : Under heaven there can be no bounds set to this intellectuall appetite : O do thou stop the mouth of my soul with thy self , who art infinite ; Whom have I in heaven but thee ? and there is none upon earth that I desire besides thee : Alas , Lord , if I could know all creatures , with all their forms , qualities , workings ; if I could know as much as innocent Adam , or wise Solomon ; Yea more , if I could know all that is done in earth or heaven , what were my soul the better , if it have not attained the knowledg of thee : Since , as the Preacher hath most wisely observed , In much wisdome is much grief , and he that increaseth knowledg , increaseth sorrow ; Oh then , set off my heart from affecting that knowledg whose end is sorrow ; and fix it upon that knowledg , which brings eeverlasting life : And this is life eternal , to know thee the only true God ; and Jesus Christ whom thou hast sent . XXIV . O my God , what miserable uncertainties there are in these worldly hopes ! But yesterday I made account of an eminent advantage of my estate , which now ends in a deep loss . How did we lately feed our selves with the hope of a firme and during peace , which now shuts up in too much bloud ? How confidently did I relie upon the promised favour of some great friends , which now leave me in the suds , as the scorn of ( a mis-called ) fortune ? In how slippery places , O Lord , do our feet stand ? If that may be said to stand which is ever sliding , never fixed ; And not more slippery , then brittle ; so as there is not more danger of falling , then of sinking : With thee , O God , with thee only , is a constant immutability of happiness ; There let me seek it , there let me finde it ; and over-looking all the fickle objects of this vain world , let my soul pitch it self upon that blessed immortality which ere long it hopes to enjoy with thee . XXV . Lord God , What a wearisome circle do I walk in here below ; I sleep , and dress , and work , and eat , and work again , and eat again , and undress , and sleep again ; and thus wearing out my time finde a satiety in all these , troublesome ; Lord , when shall I come to that state , wherein I shall do nothing but injoy thee ; do nothing but praise thee ; and in that one work shall finde such infinite contentment , that my glorified soul cannot wish to do any other ? and shall therein alone bestow a blessed eternity ? XXVI . O God , how troublesome and painful do I find this Sun of thine , whose scorching beams beat upon my head ? and yet , this excellent creature of thine is that , to which , under thee , we are beholden for our very life ; and it is thy great blessing to the earth , that it may enjoy these strong and forceable rayes from it ; Oh , Who shall be able to endure the burning flames of thy wrath , which thou intendest for the punishment , and everlasting torment of thine enemies ? And if men shall blaspheme the name of thee the God of heaven , for the great heat of that beneficiall creature , what shall we think they will do for that fire which shall be consuming them to all eternity ? Lord keep my soul from those flames , which shall be ever burning , and never , either quenched , or abated . XXVII Which way , O Lord , which way can I look , and not see some sad examples of misery : One wants his limbs with Mephibosheth , another his sight with Bartimeus , a third with Lazarus wants bread , and a whole skin ; One is pained in his body , another plundred of his estate , a third troubled in minde ; one is pined in prison , another tortured on the rack , a third languisheth under the loss of a deare son , or wife or husband ; Who am I Lord , that , for the present , I enjoy an immunity from all these sorrows ? I am sure none grones under them that hath deserved them more : It is thy mercy , thy meer mercy , O my good God , that any of these calamities have faln beside me ; Oh make me truly thankful for thine infinite goodness ; and yet onely so sensible of thy gracious indulgence this way ; as that when any of these evils shall seize upon mee , I may be no more dejected in the sense of them , then I am now over-joyed with the favor of their forbearance . XXVIII . O blessed God , what variety of gifts hast thou scattered amongst the sons of men ? To one thou hast given vigor of body , to another agility , beauty to a third ; to one depth of judgment , to another quickness of apprehension ; to one readiness and rarity of invention ; to another tenacity of memorie ; to one the knowledg of liberal arts , to another the exquisiteness of manuary skill ; to one worldly wealth , to another honour ; to one a wise heart , to another an eloquent tongue ; to one more then enough , to another contentment with a little ; to one valour , to another sagacity : These favors , O Lord , thou hast promiscuously dispersed amongst both thy friends , and enemies : but oh , how transcendent are those spiritual mercies which thou hast reserved for thine own ; the graces of heavenly wisdome , lively faith , fervent charity , firme hope , joy in the holy Ghost and all the rest of that divine beauye . For any competency of the least of thy common blessings I desire to be thankful to thy bounty ; ( for which of them , O God , can I either merit or requite ? ) but oh for a soul truly and eagarly ambitious of those thy best mercies ; Oh let me ever long for them , and ever be insatiable of them ; Oh do thou fill my heart with the desire of them , and let that desire never finde it self filled . XXIX . How comfortable a style is that , O God , which thine Apostle gives to thine Heaven , whiles he cals it the inheritance of the Saints in light ? None can come there but Saints ; the roomes of this lower world are taken up , commonly , with wicked men , with beasts , with Devils ; but into that heavenly Jerusalem no unholy thing can enter ; Neither can any Saint be excluded thence ; each of them have not only a share , but an entire right to thy glory : And how many just titles are there , O Saviour , to that region of blessedness ; It is thy Fathers gift , it is thy purchase , it is thy Saints inheritance ; theirs only in thy right ; by thy gracious adoption they are sons , and as sons , heires : co-heirs with thee of that blessed Patrimony ; so feoffed upon them , so possessed of them , that they can never be disseized : And , Lord , how glorious an inheritance it is ! An inheritance in light : In light incomprehensible , in light inaccessible : Lo , the most spirituall of all thy visible creatures is light ; and yet this light is but the effect , and emanation of one of thy creatures , the Sun ; and serves only for the illumination of this visible world ; but that supernal light is from the Al-glorious beams of thy Divine Majesty , diffusing themselves to those blessed spirits , both Angels , and Souls of thy Saints , who live in the joyful fruition of thee , to all eternity : Alas , Lord , we do here dwell in darkness , and under an uncomfortable opacity , whiles thy face is clouded from us with manifold temptations there above , with thee , is pure light , a constant noon-tide of glory ; I am here under a miserable and obscure wardship ; Oh teach me to despise the best of earth ; and ravish my soul with a longing desire of being possessed of that blessed inheritance of the Saints in light . XXX . What outward blessing can be sweeter then civill peace ? What judgment more heavy then that of the sword ? Yet , O Saviour , there is a peace which thou disclaimest ; and there is a sword which thou challengest to bring ; Peace with our corruptions is warr against thee ; and that war in our bosomes , wherein the spirit fighteth against the flesh , is peace with thee : O let thy good Spirit raise and foment this holy and intestine war more and more within me . And as for my outward spirituall enemies ; how can there be a victory without war ; and how can I hope for a crown without victory ? O do thou ever gird me with strength to the battle ; inable thou me to resist unto bloud ; make me faithfull to the death , that thou maist give me the crown of life . XXXI . O Lord God ; how subject is this wretched heart of mine to repining , and discontentment ? If it may not have what it would , how ready it is ( like a froward child ) to throw away what it hath . I know and feel this to be out of that naturall pride which is so deep rooted in me ; for could I be sensible enough of my own unworthinesse , I should think every thing too good , every thing too much for me ; my very being , O Lord , is more then I am ever able to answer thee ; and how could I deserve it when I was not ? but that I have any helps of my wel-beeing here ; or hopes and means of my being glorious hereafter , how far is it beyond the reach of my soul ? Lord , let me finde my own nothingness ; so shall I be thankfull for a little , and , in my very want , blesse thee . XXXII . Where art thou , O my God ? whither hast thou withdrawn thy self ? it is not long , since I found thy comfortable presence with my soul ; now I misse thee , and mourn and languish for thee : Nay , rather , where art thou O my soul ? my God is where he was ; neither can be any other then himself ; the change is in thee , whose inconstant disposition varies continually , and cannot finde it self fixed upon so blessed an object . It will never be better with me , O my God , until it shall please thee to stablish my heart with thy free Spirit ; and to keep it close to thee , that it may not be carried away with vain distractions , with sinful temptations : Lord my God , as thou art alwaies present with me , and canst no more be absent , then not be thy self ; so let me be alwaies with thee , in an humble , and faithful acknowledgment of thy presence ; as I can never be out of thine all-seeing eye ; so let mine eyes be ever bent upon thee who art invisible ; Thou that hast given me eyes , improve them to thy glorie and my happiness . XXXIII . My bosome , O Lord , is a Rebeccaes womb , there are twins striving within it ; a Jacob and Esau , the old man and the new : whiles I was in the barren state of my unregeneration all was quiet within me ; now this strife is both troublesome , and paineful ; so as nature is ready to say , If it be so , why am I thus ? But withal , O my God , I bless thee for this happy unquietness ; for I know there is just cause of comfort in these inward struglings ; my soul is now not unfruitful , and is conceived with an holy seed which wrestles with my natural corruptions ; and if my Esau have got the start in the priority of time ; yet my Jacob shall follow him hard at the heele , and happily supplant him ; And though I must nourish them both , as mine , yet I can , through thy grace , imitate thy choice ; and say with thee , Jacob have I loved , and Esau have I hated ; Blessed God , make thou that word of thine good in me , That the elder shall serve the younger . XXXIV . Alas , my Lord God , how small matters trouble me ? every petty occurrence is ready to rob me of my peace ; so as , me thinks , I am like some little cock-boat in a rough Sea , which every billow topples up and down , and threats to sink : I can chide this weak pusillanimity in my self ; but it is thou that must redress it : Lord , work my heart to so firme a setledness upon thee , that it may never be shaken ; no not with the violent gusts of temptation ; much lesse with the easie gales of secular mis-accidents : Even when I am hardest pressed , in the multitude of the sorrows of my heart , let thy comforts refresh my soul ; but for these sleight crosses , oh teach me to despise them , as not worthy of my notice , much less of my vexation : Let my heart be taken up with thee , and then , what care I whether the world smile or frown . XXXV . What a comfort it is , O Saviour , that thou art the first fruits of them that sleep : Those that die in thee , do but sleep : Thou saidst so , once , of thy Lazarus ; and maist say so of him again ; he doth but sleep still : His first sleep was but short , this latter , though longer , is no less true ; out of which he shall no less surely awake at thy second call , then he did before at thy first ; His first sleep and waking was singular , this latter is the same with ours ; we all lie down in our bed of earth , as sure to wake , as ever we can be to shut our eyes ; In , and from thee , O blessed Saviour , is this our assurance ; who art the first fruits of them that sleep : The first handfull of the first fruits was not presented for it self , but for the whole field , wherein it grew : The vertue of that oblation extended it self to the whole crop : Neither didst thou , O blessed Jesu , rise again for thy self only , but the power and vertue of thy resurrection reaches to all thine ; so thy chosen Vessel tels us : Christ the first fruits , afterwards they that are Christs at his coming : So as , though the resurrection be of all the dead , both just and unjust ; yet to rise by the power of thy resurrection , is so proper to thine own , as that thou , O Saviour , hast styled it the resurrection of the just ; whiles the rest shall be drag'd out of their graves by the power of thy God-head to their dreadful judgment : Already therefore , O Jesu , are we risen in thee : and as sure shall rise in our own persons ; The Loco-motive faculty is in the head ; Thou who art our head art risen , we who are thy members must , and shall follow : Say then , O my dying body , say boldly unto Death , Rejoyce not over me , O mine enemy , for though I fall , yet I shall rise again : Yea , Lord , the vertue of thy first fruits diffuseth it self , not to our rising only , but to a blessed immortality of these bodies of ours : for , as thou didst rise immortall and glorious , so shall we by , and with thee ; Who shalt change these vile bodies , and make them like to thy glorious body . The same power that could shake off death , can put on glory and Majesty : Lay thee down therefore , O my body , quietly and cheerfully ; and look to rise in another hue ; Thou art sown in corruption , thou shalt be raised in incorruption ; thou art sown in dishonour , thou shalt be raised in glory ; thou art sown in weaknesse , but shalt be raised in power . XXXVI . In this life , in this death of the body ; O Lord , I see there are no degrees , though differences of time ; The man that dyed yesterday is as truly dead , as Abel the first man that dyed in the world ; and Methuselah that lived nine hundred sixty nine years , did not more truly live , then the childe that did but salute , and leave the world ; but in the life to come , and the second death , there are degrees ; degrees of blessedness to the glorified , degrees of torments to the damned ; the least whereof is unspeakable , unconceivable : Oh thou that art the Lord of life and death , keep my soul from those steps that go down to the chambers of death ; and once set it ( for higher I dare not sue to go ) but over the threshold of glory and blessedness . XXXVII . O Lord my God , I am as very a Pilgrime as ever walked upon thy earth ; Why should I look to be in any better condition then my neighbours , then my forefathers ? Even the best of them , that were most fixed upon their inheritance , were no other then strangers at home : It was not in the power of the world to naturalize them , much less to make them enroll themselves free-Denizons here below ; they knew their country , which they sought , was above ; so infinitely rich , and pleasant , that these earthly regions which they must pass thorough , are , in comparison , worthy of nothing but contempt . My condition is no other then theirs ; I wander here in a strange country ; What wonder is it , if I meet with forrainers fare , hard usage , and neglect ? Why do I intermeddle with the affaires of a nation that is not mine ? Why do I clog my self in my way with the base and heavy lumber of the world ? Why are not my affections homeward ? Why do I not long to see and enjoy my fathers house ? O my God , thou that hast put me into the state of a Pilgrim , give me a Pilgrims heart ; set me off from this wretched world wherein I am ; let me hate to think of dwelling here ; Let it be my only care how to pass through this miserable wilderness to the promised land of a blessed eternitie . XXXVIII . One Talent at the least , O Lord , hast thou put into my hand ; and that sum is great to him that is not worth a dram ; but , alas , what have I done with it ? I confess I have not hid it in a napkin ; but have been laying it out to some poor advantage ; yet surely the gain is so unanswerable , that I am afraid of an Audit : I see none of the approved servants in the Gospel brought in an increase of less value then the receit ; I fear I shall come short of the sum . O thou , who justly holdest thy self wronged with the style of an austere master , vouchsafe to accept of my so mean improvement ; and thou , who valuedst the poor widows mites above the rich gifts cast into thy Treasurie , be pleased to allow of those few pounds that my weak indevors could raise from thy stock ; and mercifully reward thy servant , not according to his success , but according to his true intentions of glorifying thee . XXXIX . What a word is this which I hear from thee , O Saviour ; Behold I stand at the doore and knock ! Thou which art the Lord of life , God blessed for ever , to stand and knock at the door of a sinful heart ! Oh what a praise is this of thy mercy and long suffering ? What a shame to our dull neglect and graceless ingratitude ? For a David to say I waited patiently upon the Lord ; Truly my soul waiteth upon God ; it is but meet and comely ; for it is no other then the duty of the greatest Monarchs on earth , yea , of the highest Angels in Heaven to attend their Maker ; but for thee the great God of Heaven to wait at the door of us sinful dust and ashes , what a condescension is this , what a longanimity ? It were our happiness , O Lord , if upon our greatest suit and importunity we might have the favor to entertain thee into our hearts ; but that thou shouldst importune us to admit thee , and shouldst wait at the posts of our doors , till thine head be filled with dew , and thy locks with the drops of the night , it is such a mercy , as there is not room enough in our souls to wonder at . In the mean time what shall I say to our wretched unthankfulnes ; and impious negligence ? Thou hast graciously invited us to thee , and hast said ; knock and it shall be opened ; and yet thou continuest knocking at our doors , and we open not ; willingly delaying to let in our happiness ; we know how easie it were for thee to break open the brasen doors of our brests , and to come in ; but the Kingdome of Heaven suffers not violence from thee , though it should suffer it from us ; Thou wilt do all thy works in a sweet and gracious way ; as one who will not force , but win love ; Lord , I cannot open unless thou that knock'st for entrance , wilt be pleased to inable me with strength to turn the key , and to unbolt this unweldy bar of my soul . O do thou make way for thy self by the strong motions of thy blessed Spirit , into the in-most rooms of my heart ; and do thou powerfully incline me to mine own happiness : els , thou shalt be ever excluded , and I shall be ever miserable . XLI . In what pangs couldst thou be , O Asaph , that so woful a word should fall from thee , Hath God forgotten to be gracious ? Surely , the temptation went so high , that the next step had been blasphemie ; Had not that good God , whom thy bold weakness questions for forgetfulness , in great mercy remembred thee , and brought thee speedily to remember thy self and him , that which thou confessest to have been infirmity , had proved a sinful despair : I dare say for thee , that word washed thy cheeks with many a tear , and was worthy of more ; For , O God , What can be so dear to thee as the glory of thy mercy ? There is none of thy blessed attributes which thou desirest to set forth so much unto the sons of men , and so much abhorrest to be disparaged by our detraction , as thy mercy : Thou canst , O Lord , forget thy displeasure against thy people ; thou canst forget our iniquities , and cast our sins out of thy remembrance ; but thou canst no more forget to be gracious , then thou canst cease to be thy self ; O my God , I sin against thy justice hourly , and thy mercy interposes for my remission ; but oh keep me from sinning against thy mercy ; What plea can I hope for , when I have made my Advocate mine enemy ? XLI . How happy , O Lord , is the man that hath thee for his God ? He can want nothing that is good ; he can be hurt by nothing that is evill ; his sins are pardoned , his good indeavors are accepted ; his crosses are sanctified ; his prayers are heard ; all that he hath are blessings , all that he suffers are advantages ; his life is holy , his death comfortable , his estate after death glorious ; Oh that I could feel thee to be my God ; that I could enjoy an heavenly communion with thee ; In vain should earth or hell labour to make me other then blessed . XLII . How just a motion is this of thine , O thou sweet singer of Israel ; O love the Lord , all ye his Saints ; Surely they can be no Saints that love not such a Lord ; Had he never been good to them , yet that infinite goodness which is in himself , would have commanded love from Saints : Yet , how could they have been Saints , if he had wholly kept his goodness to himself ? In that then he hath made them Saints , he hath communicated his goodness to them , and challengeth all love from them ; and being made such , how infinitely hath he obliged them with all kinds of mercies ? How can ye choose O ye Saints but love the Lord ? What have ye , what are ye , what can ye be , but from his meer bounty ? They are sleight favours that he hath done you for the world ; in these his very enemies share with you ; How transcendent are his spirituall obligations ! Hath he not given you his Angels for your attendants ; himself for your Protector ; his Son out of his bosome for your Redeemer ; his Spirit for your Comforter ; his heaven for your inheritance ? If gifts can attract love ; O my God , Who can have any interest in my heart but thy blessed self , that hast been so infinitely munificent to my soul ? Take it to thee , thou that hast made and bought it ; enamour it thoroughly of thy goodness ; make me sick of love ; yea let me die for love of thee , who hast loved me unto death that I may fully enjoy the perfection of thy love , in the height of thy glory . XLIII . Lord , how have I seen men miscarried into those sins , the premonition whereof they would have thought incredible , and their yeildance thereto , impossible ? How many Hazaels hath our very age yeilded , that if a Prophet should have fore told their acts , would have said , Is thy servant a dog that he should do these great things ? Oh my God , why do not I suspect my self ? What hold have I of my self more then these other miserable examples of humane frailtie ? Lord God , if thou take off thy hand from me , what wickedness shall escape me ? I know I cannot want a tempter ; and that tempter cannot want either power , or malice , or skill , or vigilance ▪ or baits , or opportunities ; and for my self , I find too well , that of my self I have no strength to resist any of his temptations : O for thy mercies sake , uphold thou me with thy mighty hand ; stand close to me in all assaults ; shew thy self strong in my weakness : Keep back thy servant from presumptuous sins ; Let them not have dominion over me ; then ( onely ) shall I be upright , and shall be innocent from the great transgression . XLIV . It is thy title , O Lord , and only thine , that thou givest songs in the night : The night is a sad and dolorous season ; as the light contrarily is the image of cheerfulness ; like as it is in bodily pains and aches , that they are still worst towards night ; so it is in the cares and griefs of mind ; then they assault us most when they are helpt on by the advantage of an uncomfortable darkness : Many men can give themselves songs in the day of their prosperity ; who can but howl in the night of their affliction ; but for a Paul and Silas to sing in their prison at mid-night ; for an Asaph to call to remembrance his song in the night , this comes onely from that Spirit of thine , whose peculiar style is the Comforter : And surely , as musick sounds best in the night , so those heavenly notes of praise which we sing to thee our God in the gloomy darkness of our adversity , cannot but be most pleasing in thine ears : Thine Apostle bids us ( which is our ordinary wont ) when we are merry to sing , when afflicted , to pray ; but if when we are afflicted we can sing , ( as also when we are merriest we can pray ) that ditty must needs be so much more acceptable to thee , as it is a more powerful effect of the joy of thy Holy Ghost ; O my God , I am conscious of my own infirmity ; I know I am naturally subject to a dull and heavy dumpishness , under whatsoever affliction ; Thou that art the God of all comfort , remedy this heartless disposition in me ; pull this lead out of my bosome ; make me not patient only , but cheerful under my trials , fill thou my heart with joy , and my mouth with songs in the night of my tribulation . XLV . It is a true word , O Lord , that thy Seer said of thee long ago ; The Lord seeth not as man seeth : Man sees the face , thou seest the heart ; man sees things as they seem , thou seest them as they are ; many things are hid from the eyes of men , all things lie open and displaid before thee . What a madness then were it in me to come disguised into thy presence , & to seek to hide my counsels from thine al-seeing eyes ? I must be content , Lord , to be deluded here by fair appearances ; for I may not offer to look into the bosoms of men , which thou hast reserved for thy self ; it is only the out-side that I can judg by ; Yea , O God , if I shall cast my eyes inward , and look into my own brest , even there I find my self baffled at home ; The heart of man is deceitful above all things ; who can know it ? None but those piercing eyes of thine can discover all the windings and turnings of that intricate piece . What would it avail me , O Lord , to mock the eyes of all the world with a semblance of holiness , whilst thou shouldst see me false and filthy ? Should I be censured by a world of men , when I am secretly allowed by thee , I could contemn it , yea glory in their unjust reproach ; But if thine eye shall note me guilty , to what purpose is all the applause of men ? O thou that art the God of truth ; do thou open , and dissect this close heart of mine ; search every fibre that is in , or about it ; and if thou findest any ill blood there , let it out ; and if thou findest any hollowness , fill it up ; and so work upon it , that it may be approved of thee that madest it ; as for men , it shall be alike to me whether they spend their breath or save it . XLVI . Lord God , What a world of treasure hast thou hid in the bowels of the earth , which no eye of man ever did , or shall , or can see ? What goodly plants hast thou brought forth of the earth , in wilde , unknown regions , which no man ever beheld ? What great wits hast thou shut up in a willing obscurity , which the world never takes notice of ? In all which thou shewest , that it is not only the use and benefit of man which thou regardest in the great variety of thy creation , and acts of administration of the world ; but thine own glory , and the fulfilling of thine own good pleasure ; and if onely the Angels of heaven be witnesses of thy great works , thou canst not want a due celebration of thy praise ; It is just with thee , O God , that thou shouldst regard only thy blessed self , in all that thou doest , or hast done ; for all is thine , and thou art all : Oh that I could sincerely make thee the perfect scope of all my thoughts , of all my actions ; that so we may both meet in one and the same happy end , thy glory in my eternall blessedness . XLVII . Indeed , Lord , as thou saist , the night commeth when no man can work ; What can we do , when the light is shut in , but shut our eyes , and sleep ? When our senses are tyed up , and our limbs laid to rest , what can we do , but yeeld our selves to a necessary repose ? O my God , I perceive my night hastening on apace , my Sun draws low , the shadows lengthen , vapours rise , and the air begins to darken ; Let me bestir my self for the time ; let me lose none of my few hours ; Let me work hard a while ; because I shall soon rest everlastingly . XLVIII . Thou seest , Lord , how apt I am to contemn this body of mine ; Surely when I look back upon the stuffe whereof it is made , no better then that I tread upon ; and see the loathsomness of all kinds that comes from it ; and feel the pain that it oft times puts me to , and consider whither it is going , and how noisome it is above all other creatures upon the dissolution ; I have much adoe to hold good terms with so unequal a partner ; But on the other side ; when I look up to thy hand , and see how fearfully and wonderfully thou hast made it ; what infinite cost thou hast bestowed upon it , in that thou hast not thought thine own blood too dear to redeeme it ; that thou hast so far honour'd it , as to make it the Temple of thy holy Ghost ; and to admit it into a blessed communion with thy self ; and hast decreed to do so great things for it hereafter ; even to cloath it with immortality , and to make it like unto thy glorious body ; I can bless thee for so happy a mate ; and with patience digest all these necessary infirmities ; and now I look upon this flesh , not as it is , withered and wrinkled ; but as it will be , shining and glorified . O Lord , how vile so ever this clay is in it self ; yet make mee in thine interest and my hopes so enamoured of it , as if I did already finde it made celestial . Oh that my faith could prevent my change , and anticipate my ensuing glory . XLIX . Lord , what a dreadful favor was that which thou shewedst to thy Prophet Elijah , to send a fiery chariot for him , to conveigh him up to Heaven ! I should have thought that the sight of so terrible a carriage should have fetcht away his soul before-hand , and have left the body groveling on the earth : But that good Spirit of thine , which had fore-signified that fiery rapture , had doubtless fore-armed thy servant with an answerable resolution to expect , and undergoe it : Either he knew that chariot , how ever fearful in the appearance , was onely glorious , and not penal ; Or els he cheerfully resolved that such a momentany pain in the change would be followed with an eternity of happiness : O God , we are not worthy to know whereto thou hast reserved us : Perhaps thou hast appointed us to be in the number of those , whom thou shalt finde alive at thy second coming ; and then the case will be ours ; we shall pass through fire to our immortality : or , if thou hast ordained us to a speedier dispatch , perhaps thou hast decreed that our way to thee shall be through a fiery triall . O God , what ever course thou in thine holy wisdom hast determined for the fetching up my soul from this vale of misery , and tears , prepare me thoroughly for it ; and do thou work my heart to so lively a faith in thee , that all the terrours of my death may be swallowed up in an assured expectation of my speedy glory : and that my last groans shall be immediately seconded with eternall Allelujahs , in the glorious Chore of thy Saints and Angels in Heaven . Amen . Amen . FINIS . Notes, typically marginal, from the original text Notes for div A45315-e390 2 Cor. 4. 18. Colos . 3. 1 , 2. Rom. 13. 14. Gal. 3. 27. Exod. 32. 25. Psal . 32. 1. Zech. 3. 4. Deut. 16. Eccles . 9. 7 , 8. Psal . 4. 7. Luk. 16. 19. Ephes . 6. Cant. 1. 15. Cant. 5. 3. Psal . 19. 1. Psa . ult . ult . Psal . 103. 1. 2. Psa . 146. 1 , 2. Luk. 12. 49. Acts 2. Joh. 16. 7. Jer. 5. 14. Luk. 23. 32. Cant. 8 7. Psal . 119. 139. Psal . 39 4. Psal . 104. 4. Heb. 1. 7. Heb. 1. 14. 1 Pet. 4. 12. Lament . 4. 11. Lam. 2. 17. Judges 9. 20. Acts 2. 2 , 12. 2 Kings 6. 25. Psal . 30. 6. Phil. 1. 23. Joh. 13. 16. Joh. 15. 8. Joh. 15. 14. Joh. 20. 17. Joh. 17. 21 , 22 , 23. Psal . 2. Luk. 8. 2. Psa . 80. 13. Jer. 4. 20. Esa . 1. 7. Psa . 89. 40. Esa . 27. 11. Esa . 13. 16. Psa . 78. 84. Lam. 2. 26. Lam. 3. 39. Job . 8. 20. Psa . 5. 4. Ezek. 18. 23. Psal . 19. 12 , 13. Jam. 1. 14 , 15. Esa . 63. 1. Esa . 9. 6. Psa . 68. 18. Revel . 5. 13. 2 Cor. 11. 19. Gen. 25. 6. Ezek 14. 14 , 20. Exod. 33. 11. Mal. 2. 7. Eccles . 7. 25. Matth. 7. 26. 1 Tim 6. 17. Heb 11. 25. Prov. 31. 30. Eccles . 2. 14. Eccles . 10. 15. 1 Cor. 1. 25. Pro. 19. 29 : Col. 3. 13. Rom. 12. 19. Deut. 32. 35. Col. 3. 12. 13. Rom. 12. 21. Num. 8. Psal . 68. 13. Num. 4. 29. 23. Num. 4. 15. Num. 4. 20. 1 Cor. 7. 20. 2 Kings . 6. 33. Cant. 8. 6. 1 Cor. 3. 22. Joh. 16. 15. Joh. 17. 21. Joh. 14. 6. Jer. 14. 10 , 12. Psal . 106. 23. 2 Cor. 4. 18. Psal . 29. 4. Psal . 29. 3. Psal , 29. 1. 2. Job . 40. 9. 38. 1. Exod. 19. 1 Sam. 12. 17 , 8. Joh. 12. 28 , 29. Revel . 10. 3. 4. Ps . 29. 8. 1 Joh. 5. 4. 1 Joh. 2. 16. Prov. 1. 22. Prov. 8. 5. Prov. 8. 34 , 36. Prov. 23. 35. Jam. 4. 8. Rom. 7. 23. Psal . 134. 23 , 24. Eph. 5. 12. Luk. 13. 27. Luk. 9. 51. Luk. 24. 26. Joh. 11. 23. Esa . 26. 19. 1 King. 1. 1. 1 Pet. 1. 17. Isa . 49. 15. 1 Pet. 1. 17. Joh. 8. 44. Job . 7. 20. Luk. 9 ▪ 56. Luk. 6. 36. 1 Joh. 4. 16. 1 Joh. 4. 7. 1 Joh. 4. 8. Phil. 3. 17. 1 Cor. 4. 16. 1 Cor. 11. 1. Eccl. 4. 7 , 8 , 9. Matt. 10. 2 , 3 , 4 , Luke . 10. 1. Luk. 2. 38. Luk. 8. 2 , 3. Joh. 20. 17. Psal . 68. 11. King Iames his preface monitory . Mark. 14. 31. Ephes . 6. 13 , 14. Phil. 4. 13. Phil. 4. 13. Rom. 13. 14. Psal . 56. 3 , 4. Psal . 18. 2 , 3. 2 Cor. 4. 18. 2 Pet. 3. 7. 12 , 1 Joh. 3. 21. Heb. 9. 14. Heb. 9. 14. 1 Joh. 1. 7. Act. 15. 9. Zechar. 13. 1. Ecclu . 14. 2. Colos . 3. 1. Gen. 45. 26. Heb. 11. 10. Revel . 21. 19. 2 Cor. 4. 1. Heb. 12. 14. Colos . 3. 9 , 10. Haggai . 2. 12 , 13. Colos . 3 ▪ 9 , 10. Rom. 13. 14. Rom. 7. 18. Prov. 25. 21. Rom. 12. 20. 1 Cor. 15. 39. 2 Sam. 6. 20. Matt. 11. 18 , 19. Act. 2. 13. Act. 6. 11. 2 Tim. 4. 8. 2 Pet. 3. 10. Judg. 11. 34. 2 Kin. 20. 1. 2 Sam. 18. 27. Philip. i. 23. Ecclus. 41. 1. Philip. 1. 23. Gal. 5. 1. Rom. 6. 18. Joh. 8. 36. Psal . 31. 8. Psal . 119. 45. Revel . 2. 13. Psal 120. 5. 1 Sam. 26. 19. Matt. 16. 26. Matt. 13. 45. 46. Exod , 12. 41. Pro 14. 24. Job . 1. 1 , 3. Luke . 6. 20. Luke . 6 , 24. Mar. 10. 24. 1 Tim. 6. 17. Prov. 30. 9. 1 Tim. 6. 18 , 19. Prov. 38. 2 Cor. 5. 16. Act. 7. 55 , 56. Psa . ▪ 36. 9. Isa . 43. 1. Psa . 147. 4. Gen. 2. 19 , 20. Job 9 9. Job . 38. 31. Luk. 1. 13. Joh. 1. 42. Joh. 1. 42. Luke 19. Acts 103 , 4. Luk. 10. 2● . Rom. 8. 5 , 6. Prov. 30. 20. Mal. 4. 2. Joh. 20. 17. Job 17. 15. 1 Cor. 9. 9. Ps . 147. 9. Mat. 10. 29. Psal 104. 21 , 27 , 28. Pro. 12. 10. Notes for div A45315-e10890 Luc. 22. 43. Luk. 2. 13. 14. Heb. 2. 9. Heb. 1. 14. Judg. 20. Prov. 13. 10. 2 King. 7. 9. Gen. 5. 24. Gen. 5. 22. Revel . 3. 4. Ecculs . 44. 16. Notes for div A45315-e11520 1 Joh. 5. 4. Psal . 46. 1. 2. Psal . 39. 6. Jude 4. Prov. 16. 1. Prov. 16. 9. Eccles 2. 16. Matth. 11. 28. 1 Cor. 8. 1. Psal . 119. 112. Psal 90. 17. Rom. 7. 15. Jsa . 5. 12. Rom. 15. 13. Ephes . 6. 12. Psal . 144. 1. Eccles . 1. 8. Ps . 73. 25. Eccles . 1. 18. Joh. 17. 3. Rev. 16. 9. Rom. 8. 17. Ps . 51. 12. Gen. 25. 22. 1 Cor. 15. 23. Act. 24. 15. Luk. 14. 14. Micah 7. 8. Phil. 3. 21. 1 Cor. 15. 42 , 43. Heb. 11. 13 , 14 , 15. Luk. 19. 16. 17 , 18 , 19. Ps . 40. 1. Ps . 62. 1. Cant. 5. 2. Ps . 77 ▪ 9. Micha . 7. 18 , 19. Psal . 31. 23. 2 Kings . 8. 13. Psal . 19. 13. Job 35. 10. Eccles . 11. 7. Act. 16. 25. Ps . 77. 6. 1 Sam. 16. 7.